I liked the neck of the beer bottle as I felt his eyes on me I imagined his cock in my mouth the weight

girth taste it was like a flash back of wt never was for I had no idea who he was. All I knew was his eyes bore down on my wile my favorate rock band played, the music coursed thru me making me feel alive like all my nerve endings were clamoring for attention for that physical touch that might never come.

I could feel him getting close, should I go to him?, let him come to me?, wt do I do? It is so not new I've done it a million times a new conquest a nameless fuck a fly thru to Neverland a quick crash back. Was it all he would be?. He knows I know he is standing behind me I can feel his heat his energy makes my nerves tingle he rests his hands on my chair do I lean in to him do I dare feel him? I light a cigarette I cant stand being this aware! He leans in "can a bum a smoke darling" he purrs in to my ear my pussy twitches recognizing the command in his voice. My hands shake as I hand him the cigarette. My phone is on my lap and he reaches for it, shortly there after he places it back and there is note on it. Should I? It feels so wrong and yet his heat on my back feels so good. His hand lands lightly on my arm, encouraging me to read his missive, can they see? my friends, the strangers? can they feel wt I feel? His heat as it envelops me and takes my breath away!. Come with me, take my hand" said the message. Were?, should I?I can't breath. Anything but him his hold on my shoulder gets tighter, I stand and face him. "Do you have a car? I ask "yes" I give my keys to Alice and take only my phone as I stand from the table and place my hand in his. we walk out of the club he shifts and places his hand on my lower back and my elbow , I can here Andy yelling were are you going but I don't look back, I can't or it will brake the spell. "Tell her you'll be back in an hour or 2" he said "she has my car ill call her in a bit" he simply nods. When we get to his car my phone rings "were are you" Andy says thru the phone "ill be back in an hour to pick up my car take it to your place" "who is this guy" "I don't know!" "Why did you leave with him?" "Because I needed to" he ushers me in to the car and closes my door. " You are nuts woman" "I know" I sigh but wt does she know, she can't tell how I burn how my insides are liquefying and wetting his leather seats and he has
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yet to touch me. He turns on the car and drives off the parking only to stop about half way out, he leans in to me I'm paralyzed. But not with fear. His lips touch mine like a soft summer breeze delicate barely there till its not, his hands snake thru my short hair as he pulls me closer to his mouths and tilts my head for better access, his tong swipes at my lips "open he says and softly I let go. The taste of his mouth invades mine, sweet and tangy cold not much unlike the beer he was having. My hands go up to his head in the best moment, he growls in to my mouth as he softly disentangles my hands from his hair, only to place them behind me on the head rest "dont move them, or I will tie you up, ok?" Im in shock! Would he really tie me up? Would I let him! Yes the mere thought of it has my panties so wet is uncomfortable. So I nod I dare not speak so I won't brake the spell. His lips are on me again taking feeding. My breathing is hard and labored as his hands slide from my arms down to breasts, his touch is barely there I lean in to his heat, his eyes snap back to mine as he suddenly lifts his hands of my strapless dress "I'm sorry" I said as I understood his silent command, he nodded and pulled my dress down to reveal my breast my dark nipples hard waiting wanting needing I needed his hands his mouth on me with me but he was testing me and I would soon loose if he did nothing. I needed to relieve the pressure in my core my pussy ached and I needed to move. But then his hand caressed my face and he looked in to my eyes "are going to behave, or will I have to punish you?" I opened my mouth to speak "don't lie to me and don't speak for every noise you make I will punish you. For every move you make I will punish you, you are mine. Do you understand that. Call your friends now give them this address it is were I'm taking you I will have you home by tomorrow at 12 so call whom you need to call" my hands shook as I called Andy "were the hell are you" she asked I gave her the address and told her I would not be back before lunch, I've had my escapades but not like these "ok, love you. Take care" as I closed the phone he extended his hand "is there anyone else you need to call" "my brother. I still live with my parents, but they are out of town" "call" I called my brother and told him I was staying at Andys apartment "ok love you, take care" was all he said. His hand still extended I handed over the phone and he placed it in his pocket I opened my mouth to speak and then remembered the rules "say wt you need to say" my eyes went to my hands now
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settled on my lap "I ammo kind of need to have that were I can here it my mom can text or call at any moment and they get really worried when I don't answer" he nodded "I will have it with me and give it to you if I believe you need to answer ok?" I nodded" now sit up straight " he said as he placed my seatbelt on I tried to move my dress back in to place but he caught my hand "no!, those are mine not yours you have no right to keep them from me, now spread you legs and take off you panties I want you opened for me" I swallowed but did as he asked I could feel the color rushing to my face "aw such a pretty color, now make sure your dress does not hide you from me" I raised my dress to my hips were it now staid completely "place your hands on the head rest and thrust up you breast, yes that's it" wt are you doing this is nuts the security guard will see you! I looked down trying to hide my face but my hair was to short oh god wt am I doing, why is this getting me so hot. As if he could here my thought s his voice gentled "I know, but don't be afraid they can't see you even if they get really close. Trust that I would never do something to harm you, ok?" I looked at him and saw the truth in his eyes "I only want to please you, to give you what you need but you have to let go and trust me" I nodded, I have no idea why but I did I trusted him "I've been watching you for a wile" he said as he pulled the car out of the parking lot "I see you leave with these young pups that think they have what it takes to be with a woman like you. But they don't do they that's why they never stick around, did you know that. Its because they know you are lying to them, that you let them think you enjoy it but you don't." His hand left the steering wheel and landed on my thigh and started to ride up to my cunt, my recently waxed cunt that was so wt I could barely hold still on his leather seats. I whimpered as his fingers slightly slid up my inner labia to find my clit his fingers slowly caressed teased never giving more that a slight circle around and around that little nub. "Don't move" he said and I whimpered again as I threw my head back willing him to move closer, to press, to pinch, to slap. Anything would have been better than this slow burn. "When was the last time you took your time in sex" I did not answer, for how could I find words. " You will answer me when I ask a direct question" he said as he pinched my clit between to fingers with brutal force. I screamed and he let go "answer me" "I... I don't remember. Its always fast like a blur" "why" I can't answer that no way! He pinched
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again and this time growled lately me or I will spank you" oh god! No way! "I...its just the faster it.... Well the faster it happens the less I remember and the less guilty I feel" oh god I wanted to hide my head, I had never admitted that before not even to myself "its ok, tonight I will give you enough. Enough for you to forget all your young pups and remember only me" he punctuated the last word by driving his finger up my extremely wet cunt. I screamed again when he pulled out "keep that up and I will have to gag you" he said. The air conditioner was on my heated skin making me shiver. The streets were full of cars and I was ordered no to move. My ass was wet from my own juices I wanted to scream! But I dared not. " We are almost there" he said as he pinched my left nipple. " Now listen very carefully, we are going to my house and we will be there in 5 minutes. I want you to come for me wile I play with you. If you fake it I will know and I will punish you and if you come before I give you permission to I will also punish you" this statement scared me most of all since the last time I had an orgasm with a man was almost 10 years ago I had been faking it before and since that one day with that one guy, how was I now supposed to just come on command no less "its ok," he said again in a soft tone "ill make it happen just let go let me tell your body wt to do give yourself permission to feel. Feel as my fingers pinch your tight dark nipples feel the way your cunt contracts hungry for my cock" I whimpered and his hand landed on my breast with a slap "no more noises!" He snapped, I bit my lips as again his hands soothed away the pain from my breasts. His hand traveled form my burning breast down to my aching cunt and slowly circled my clit. the fire was burning inside, I always got this far but then "don't let it go " he said as if feeling my retraction "feel it, close your eyes. And feel the heat. I can feel your cunt calling to be filled by my fingers my tong, my hard dick." a soft moan escaped me and he laughed "you like it when I talk don't you" he pinched and pulled at my clit the pain was sharp and fast and soothed away with the same speed. My eyes closed my head thrown back my body was burning 'god I have never been this close please let it happen.' "Come" he said " come now!" As his fingers sped up the massage on my clit and I flew apart in to a tinny million peaces. I could feel my cunt contracting as he places to fingers inside of me building me up, as I came back down. The pressure on
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my clit changed form his fingers to the flat of his palm as if he understood I'd be sensitive but he would not let me go. Suddenly the car stopped and he took his hand away. My eyes shot opened, I looked outside at a huge modern house with big glass windows and a huge front yard. As he came around the car I tried to remember wt he had said. Ok girl were is he my eyes darted to the back of the car but I could no see him. Was he going to leave me here? Was I supposed to just stay till he was done with wt ever he was doing?. Suddenly all the lights in the house turned on and I could see him at the door he was talking to somebody! A man! Omg is he going to pawn me off to someone else? Will he bring the other man to play with me as he watched? God the things I get my self in to! But I wanted him I wanted wt he had given me a few min ago. That one orgasm had rocked the core of my existence and now I was addicted to it. Should I go, should I make a run for it? I knew wt my friends would say. Go woman, go! But the only place I wanted to go was to him to fall on my knees and feel his hard cock in my mouth. To go and submit to him, give him all I was and have him make me over. I wanted to forget! Forget who I was, wt I did, who I loved. And wait for him to let him tell me, when, how, and wt, to feel. To feel nothing but the trust blooming in my heret. Jesus woman you don't know this man from peter and yet here you sit with your legs spread your breast thrust up to the sky and cream running down the crack of your ass just because he told you so you really are as nuts as they all say. As if sensing my doubt he moved slowly with a feline grace to the car the other man had disappeared. The car door opened and he squatted next to me "sorry I had not planed to bring you here tonight, so I did not dismiss my staff. But they are all of to bed now and won't bother us till morning" I swallowed hard, and he placed his hand on my face and tilted it so I would look him in the eyes "I'm going to rearrange your clothes now, and then I will pull you out of the car. But you have to answer your own questions first. Do you want me enough to submit to me. This is not a game, I will not hurt you but I need you to trust that. Everything I will do tonight is for our pleasure and I really want you here. But if you think you can't or shouldn't I will get back in the car and drive you back to Alis's house" my eyes grew wider as recognition set in he knew my friends name, then he must know who I was! Was this payback by some guy I had inadvertently rejected or hurt? "Yes
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Victoria I know who you are, I have been looking at you for quite some time now. As I said before this is not the way I wanted this, but I grew tiered of waiting and tiered of seeing you with all your young pups. So I acted today with no plan. I could not wait for you to go home with one more man that was not me. I don't like to share my things" ah! I am not a thing! "Don't speak unless it is to answer or I will slap you again" his eyes landed on my breast, and they rose to attention. Arrrrg this pompous ass he knew I was weak, that I wanted him. That I was not in the business of depriving my self something I wanted. But dam it did I have to want it with him! Hmmm yes it was him I wanted I had seen him watching but I had never dared go to him and now he said it was my choice. The last choice I was to make, at least for the night. " I need you" was all I could say. It was all I could feel. The need for him to take control to own me, possess me. With a swift nod he re-dresses me and pulled me out of the car. he looked me in the eyes and said my name is Michael, you will be good and remember that wont you? I nodded. Holding my hand he led the way thru the house white walls with bright colored paintings, red and yellow couches decorated the house the kitchen had a large island in the middle with 3 chairs. He sat me in one "do you want something to drink" yes more alcohol I thought " no alcohol I want to here thru out this night I will not let you drown out your feelings" ashamed that he could reed me so well I looked down at my hands that rested on my lap. He came around the counter and grabbed both my hands in his and pushed up my chin "hey", he said "none of that" he smiled. It softened his face a brought a spark in to his eyes. At that moment he looked more like a mischievous child than the dominating man he had shown me before. He was beautiful, a strong jaw bushy eyebrows a perfectly square nose. I stared at him in awe his lips were perfectly defined strong. It made me think of his taste it felt like forever since his mouth was on mine when for sure it had not been more than half an hour. His smile turned in to a growl and he fisted his hand on my short hair and forced me to look in to his eyes "I want you" was all he said as he pressed his lips on mine with a kiss that obliterated all else. In that moment I knew not my name where I was or what, all I knew was that he existed and that he was with me making me fall in to an abyss called lust. He stepped in between my legs and I could feel the erection he was hiding in his pants. The need to
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press him closer was to grate,

I wrapped my legs around him and squeezed. He

groaned in to my mouth and his hand slid up my thigh to my ass, lifting me of the chair he carried me to wt I thought was his room. We kissed my hands in his hair pulling him closer impregnating my soul with his essence. Suddenly he growled again ad pulled me from his mouth. Our breathing was labored and his eyes were closed, he pushed me away from him. I looked around, this was definitely not a bedroom. The walls and ceiling were lined with mirrors, there was a table with Stirrups and wt I surmised to be a swing of sorts, in the middle of the room a narrow plank of padded wood with legs spread like an A with straps falling from every peace of its metal legs. I gasped and placed my hands over my mouth. A small wood close stood next to a closed door. He stood behind me and brought my hand down. "Its ok, just breath" I inhaled and all I could smell was the cent of my own arousal, and his. "Trust me" he said and my body relaxed "I want to treat you to every dream you have ever had" he stepped closer and cupped my breast from behind, tweaking my nipples. I leaned in to his heat sighing as I felt every pull all the way down to my core. "I will give you pleasure. But its your choice I will not ask again. This is your last chance, if you don't want this I will give you back your clothes and take you back to your safe life. And your plain vanilla sex. But choose now" I closed my eyes. Wt to do, it was one thing to fantasize about it but to go from that to submitting to a total stranger. Well honestly I was a loss, but would it be any easier if I knew him. If he was part of my life I was not willing to give up if I failed miserably at submitting. If I loved him but hated wt he did would it be easier or harder to give up? And if I liked wt he did would I still be able to let it go tomorrow at 12. I had no idea, but, was I willing to not experience it at all. No! My mind screamed. Even if I had to let it go at least ill know. I nodded "very well" he stood away from me "strip" he growled "now woman, strip!" Again my eyes closed. My hands came up to the top of my dress and slid it down past my breast and hip, I started to squat to take off the satrapy sandals with 5 inch heals I wore "no, the shoes stay" slowly I got back up. I should be more modest I thought as I looked at myself in the mirror in front and back of me. I might not be in the best shape ever, but there was something hot about it. My breast were full and taut and the apex between my legs looked swollen and wet it was such a heady experience to see him standing there
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fully clothed with his arms crossed over his chest wile he looked me over like a car in show room. He walked around me, making me feel like an object he wished to possess. It made my pussy cream, why I have no idea! The fact that I was nothing but an object. Another toy that decorated his expensive life stile. He grabbed my left hand and pulled me towards the narrow plank placing me there he strapped my arms to the bottom rods with the leather straps that caressed my skin. His hands slid up my right arm to my back and ass," spread them" he said as he placed his hand on my thigh. On command my legs spread to the with of the legs. It felt odd but good as my breast were placed on either side of the plank my legs and arms held. He strapped anther leather belt to my hips and one to right below my breast. His hand caressed by back all the way to the nape of my neck as he pressed his covered erection to my bare ass. "Remember, no screaming no moaning, or you will be punished" I saw my self in the mirror, my breast were full and I could see the reflection of him behind me "I'm going to punish you now" he said as he ran his hand up and down my back in between the straps that held me down "for all the things you didn't do in the car" his hand landed on my ass with a loud smack, it hurt so good a gush of liquid started dripping down my leg. My head swam as blow after blow landed on my ass checks with out time in between them " stop screaming, if you don't stop I won't" he said calmly. My mouth closed on his next slap and this time he eased away the pain that was growing in to a tingle on my now warm read ass checks. I saw my self on the mirror it was bright red and my pussy was swollen two it looked shiny and creamy. Once more his hand landed sideways on my ass and I thought I would brake my teeth, my jaw locked in an effort to not make a sound.

And he rewarded me with a caress three more times it happened smack caress smack caress. My legs started to shake and my feet were cramping but I said nothing it would go away eventually. For now I was to busy trying to keep my pussy from convulsing I was so close to coming and I knew if I just managed to rub my clit on to something I would explode in to a million tiny particles. Suddenly his hand slid from my ass cheeks to the slit in between my breath caught, I had hered about this. Fantasized about it but never had a man placed his finger to my ass. He opened my cheeks and went around
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and around with his finger, it felt good his hand on me this that was so taboo it made me wiggle my hips looking for something, I had no idea wt so I whined my jaw still closed shut. "You have been a good girl" he said applying a bit of pressure on me "maybe ill reward you by taking you here" I sighed for some reason I knew he would make it good, he would make me enjoy it "you would like that wouldn't you?" I said nothing just closed my eyes enjoying the rhythm of his finger on me. God I was so close! " Answer me" he said as I groaned when he removed his hand from me and stepped back. "I... I don't know. Please I'm so close" I wiggled my hips looking for his heat but felt nothing but the cool air of the room. "I know you will like it" he said as he moved back to the place he was before "such a pretty little ass" my eyes were closed so I did not see as he ducked and place his face there, he was so close I felt his breath on my hot still tingling skin. With my eyes opened now I could see he was kneeling. Oh god. I had never particularly liked it when men ate me out. I felt to personal to private. Jesus woman wt the hell is wrong with you! You are strapped to steal bars and a peace of padded wood your ass Is the color of dark cherries and there is cream coating most of your legs, can you honestly say that him eating you out requires more trust than all of this. Yes!! I don't want him to. Ill never be able to stand it if he sucks, and if he is good then he will ruin me for every other guy. Idiot youre already ruined. He owns you, no two ways about it. I sighed resigned to the truth my conscience had so clearly pointed out "I want to take you" he said as his tong swiped at my ass hole "but I won't" he punctuated the statement with a swipe from my clit all the way to my ass. 'Yes!' The thought exploded in my head making his last statement get lost in the feel of it. Suddenly his tong was making way in to my tight cunt. I lifted my head and wiggled my hips trying to get closer. Only to feel his hands on my hips steadying me. He lapped at my core not once paying any attention to my clit or placing his finger in me just his tong it was slow and hot and it was driving me nuts! "Please!" I screamed "no" was all he said as he kept up his slow torturing rhythm. my whole body was shaking, I was so hot my cunt contracted against his tong trying to keep it there make it go faster, or just stop all together. "You have to learn, your. Body is not yours. This all of it is mine" he said to my pussy as his hands slowly ran up and down my legs on a barley there touch "pretty pink cunt is mine. Your legs
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breast all of you is mine. Your orgasms are mine to take and mine to give" slowly he placed a finger inside my cunt, making me whimper again. The one digit came in slowly and retreated fast enough to tease but not to do any real good so I groaned "you will only come when I choose" he paused "for tonight you are mine and I will keep you here on the brink wanting and begging" he moved away from me towards the closet, when he turned around he held wt I recognized as a rope of anal beads and a green dildo. He stopped and turned around again bent to the drawer and picked up another penis looking thing but small. The question must have been in my face for he came closer and said "this is a penis gag, I will place it in your mouth wile I play with my holes. I want to see you cramped full from all sides and if you are good I will let you suck me off with that pretty little mouth of yours. Now open" his hand was on my jaw and on command my body obeyed, my mouth fell opened and received the intrusion of the rubber cock, wile he tied the leather straps to the back of my head he went back to the drawer and grabbed the beads, dildo and a bottle of wt looked like lube. My whole body tensed no longer on the brink of an orgasm. His hand slid down my back "its ok, relax. It will hurt more if you fight it. Accept it, accept me" sliding his hand in between my ass cheeks. He took the bottle of lube and dribbled some on his finger, pressing the cold gel on to my star. I shuddered "please" I mumbled thru the gag in my mouth "I know, you want it but you are scared. Trust me to make it good for you relax" he applied pressure, and I felt it give. It wasn't exactly painful I just felt full. I knew it was only his index finger, but it felt right. Then I felt him slide another finger the pain shot thru my spine, and I screamed in to my gag as I clenched my body. And for a wile I could feel it all the way to my neck like a shot thru the heret till the numbness took over, so now all I felt was full. He slid it back out and in and as it went the pain turned in to pleasure. It felt good on my ass I always wondered and now I knew. He had given me that. I relaxed, when he felt me give he shoved again this time it was sharper bigger. I moaned as I felt each of the 3 bead come in, each one bigger than the last " Yes" he hissed as his hands stroked my ass checks "soon you will be able to take me here" he massaged around the my whole now full of beads. Some thing started to make a humming noise my head shot up again 'more?!' I thought 'no' I shook my head and with it my whole body twitched my anal
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beads moved and I moaned at the pleasure. The humming stopped but I was not lead of the hook yet. Slowly he pressed the rubber dildo to my pussy lips coating it with my juices "you are so fucking wet. Are you wet for me? Is this all for me" I stared at him thru the mirror. His hand came up as if to swat my ass again and he quirked and eyebrow. I wanted him to spank me again to feel the burn of his hand as it landed on my ass, not to punish but to stroke the fire inside me. He swatted my ass four times before it really started to sting the fifth one was harder and made my head shoot up to look at him again he smiled and quirked his eyebrow and asked again as his hand caressed my now bright pink ass. I nodded my head bobbing up and down making me dizzy. He placed his hand on my lower back making me stop and breath. He rubbed the rubber cock on my lips again so soft it was barley there I wiggled trying to reach it and again the beads in my ass played havocs with my senses. He laughed, his through-tie chuckle gave me shivers and again I shook. "You like them don't you the feel of them in your ass. I like it to I like seeing them there, placing them..." His eyes closed and he inhaled remembering "it makes me want to do it again. Maybe I should. Maybe I should stop playing with you beautiful cunt and concentrate on this ripe ass. Should I?" This time I was to close to coming for him to stop, I shook my head from side to side "no? Oh well!, I guess ill stay here then doing just this till I get tiered" he still glided it softly thru my now swollen lips, I could feel my clit pounding with my heret beats. I shook my head again "no? What do you want then?" "More!!" I mouth it thru the gag. My spit dribbled down my chin and my jaw hurt from the position it held. But I said no more "more? You want more?" I bobbed my hered again slower this time catching his gaze in the mirror. Before I knew it he was on his knees again yes I thought, finally. I thought he was going to eat me out till I came. But instead he kept his slow torture with the dildo on my pussy. this time shoving it in my cunt slowly in and slowly back out. He was stretching me and I could feel my cunt sucking at it trying to keep it inside. suddenly he shoved, I could feel it all the way inside, don't you dare come was all he said. my breathing was incredibly labored as I closed my eyes again and fought for control. the dildo came and went in me as he pushed it giving me no time to recoup, suddenly he stopped moving it and I thought for sure he would just stop. but suddenly I felt it start to vibrate at first it was
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more of a buzz and then it went from that to a full on vibration shoved so far up my cunt I could practically feel it in my mouth. I hered him stand and felt his hand sliding up my back up to my head open your eyes when I opened them he was kneeling in front of my face I am going to leave you here my eyes bulged out of my face what! he cant leave me like this! this is nuts! yes but this is also his game and you are in it now so you might as well play. I will come back he said stroking my face, but his face was hard as stone as he said you will keep the dildo inside, I would secure it but I want to see if you can follow simple directions. when I come back we can go and have dinner my face must have given away my confusion because he answer my unasked question no, you are not to come yet. not until I get what I want I needed to ask wt that was the gag in my mouth made it impossible. a watched him walk out, my whole body was vibrating with the dildo in my cunt, I was on the edge and had no way to jump of. to find that release that my body was promised by his ministrations. I knew it would be ten times what I had in the car, but there I was on the verge of going nuts. Not allowed to come because my body needed his command, it was like it understood what he had said and would no longer follow my commands. I wanted to cry it was so frustrating, and suddenly tears started to run down my face. I had never felt so alone as I did now, why had he left me. Did I displease him, did I do something wrong? eventually the fight left me and I must have dozed for when I came to he was behind me. the vibrations had stopped and my ass free, he ran his had up my back all the way to my hands and untied them, my legs were free. He helped me get up, and held me. Slowly with out a word he kissed me, but this kiss was different. he was giving rather than taking he was coaxing it felt like dance and I willingly gave. He kept the pace slow his hands held my hips his fingers making slow leisurely circles. I clung to his chest feeling the beet of his heret on my palms. I had lost all sense of time a long time ago, so I had no idea how long we stood there but eventually my legs started to shake. He let go of my mouth and placed a soft kiss on my nose. and then with out a word he was on his knees un-strapping my shoes. I hissed when my foot touched the cold floor and my leg muscles flexed, he removed them both and then massaged my calves and ankles. his hands caressed up my legs and hips my stomach, then up the side of my chest and down my arms. All I
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could do was stay still as he warmed my body again. my breathing has coming in slow and measured. he pulled me towards the door and handed me a large gray t-shirt but my arms hurt still so he helped me put it on. then with out a word he held my hand and took me out in to the hallway. I had not seen it before but it was a large hallway with 4 doors to my right and big paintings. To the left a huge square painting stood well lit, the canvas was littered with splotches of pink yellow turquoise and black and gray. I recognized the painter as pollock and searched for the signature. but before I could zero in on it he came behind me his hands wrapping around my waist. its beautiful right I nodded feeling the heat of his body engulfing me and wrapping my arms around his to hold him closer. I could feel his smile on my neck at my reaction. My mom gave it to me, she said it reminded her of me when I was a kid. she sounds nice mom? yea she is. you will meet her soon I shrugged dismissing his comment, figuring he said it as a random thing. He stiffened a bit at my shrug and let go of me, still holding my hand he pulled me to the kitchen there was a small square table with two chairs next to the island. on the table sat two tapered candles a vintage wine bottle and two plates of salad. He placed me in the chair and kissed the top of my head. The emotions that ran thru me were new and different, and scarier than anything I had felt all night. I fidgeted with the edge of the shirt, not looking at him as he sat and served the wine. He pulled at my hand and sat it on the table between us you ok? I looked up to see he was slightly blushing about what happened in there I mean It was so cute that he blushed he seamed so secure of him self just a few minutes ago, again I nodded. And like magic he was back, the expression in his face was still amiable but his shoulders were back to its rigid state and the power ran true him and made me shiver. He squeezed my hand are you cold no I answered, still not looking at him. ok he said letting go on my hand and grabbing his fork. woman! I told my self eat and stop acting like a scared cat so I took one deep breath, his sent invading my lugs and looked up, he was smiling and it was beautiful, his eyes spoke of something I was not ready to accept so I ignored it and smiled back. Soon enough the awkwardness was gone and we managed a conversation. him asking questions and me promptly answering them, when we were done with the salad he brought out some rare stakes from the oven, thank god they
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were rare, I hate when meet is all burned up. I hope this is ok I can cook it more if you like nop I smiled its perfect he placed my dish and sat back down. the wine was fruity and tangy, and the meet was delicious. Why do you do it what? I said a little shocked at the question since we had been laughing not two second earlier why do you go home with them? I quirked my eyebrow and held on to my glass pulling my legs up to my chest on to the chair. yes he growled as he looked at my thighs now bare since the shirt had bunched up to my hips. I smiled do you want to know the truth? or do you want to here what I always say? oh shit!, did I just really say that. I knew I should not have had that third glass of wine. he saw the distress in my eyes and said humor me, tell me both. as he gently leaned back on his chair and sipped some wine. ok, I did it for the same reason I did it with you, because I was Horney and you asked his eyebrow shot up in to his forehead, but otherwise he remained still and the other answer he asked I shrugged and stared at my glass for a minute, then I looked at him and said what I had barely ever admitted to my self. with a small sigh I let it all spill out knowing as I did I would regret it I'm lonely, I know thats not a good reason but its easier this way you pick them fuck them dump them and you never get hurt were you hurt once, a long time ago, he never meant to hurt me. I knew he was a free spirit, as much as I knew I loved him I knew I could never keep him, but the heret is a fool who wont listen to reason and he fell face first for the unattainable. but its over now, and in many ways it was good cause it thought me life is never fair and yet destiny is always right. we were meant to be in each others lives, just not the way I wanted it. do you wish it was different I chuckled no, cause that would make both of us different and then what would be the point, I loved him and it was awesome to share what we did. but we moved on, and Im still the same person as I was before I met him. guarded and somewhat cold with my men. but because of him I know I can love. at least I can as soon as I stop being scared that I will feel my heret brake again. its really an awful feeling you cant just drown out I finished looking at my glass you say you were in love but it still hurts he stated, I smiled and looked at him the memory of it does. the good times were awesome and the bad sucked ass. and they all hurt still with the same intensity, but do I still feel the same way about him? No. would I go back if I could?
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probably not. I just know enough not to ever want to put my self in that situation again, thats all you seem pretty sure you are going to relive it again I laughed at his comment people don't respect relationships like they used to. Marriage is no longer an institution, I compare it more to a cruise in which you get on in one port and expect to be tired after a few days of fun and a few days of sunburn and you come out more tiered and broke for all you efforts at this he burst out laughing, and I joined a tear escaped his right eye and I leaned in to wipe it away. I have no idea what I was thinking but it felt natural with him. this camaraderie this ease. When I went to take my hand away from his check he was still smiling. He grabbed my hand and kissed my palm never taking his eyes of mine. the reaction was immediate, I fell my pussy gush and I blushed how about we make a wager? he asked mischief in his eyes, I quirked my eyebrows as a question date me even before he finished my answer was out NO! he was shocked by my determination because he dropped my hand and pushed back. but in a flash he was on me his hands entrapping me between the table and the chair, he stared in to my eyes the smile back in his face why, are you scared he said, his mouth a mere inch from mine yes I puffed out, a breath over his lips I can always make you yes was all I said before his mouth captured mine in a hot demanding kiss. he pulled me off the chair and in to his arms and started walking. This was just to familiar for words! he was taking me back to the room! NO! I screamed inside my head but I opened my eyes and we had passed the door. Where was he taking me now! his hands move from my ass cheek to my crack and I was jolted back in to the kiss. Were ever he took me I would beg if I had to! and if he didn't give me what I craved I would just walk out! the complications of that scenario did not strike me as good, at all but how could I think when one of his hands was holding me on to him pressing my pussy on to the huge erection in his slacks and his other hand was drawing lazy circles in my ass as he kissed me senseless. when he stopped and placed me on a hard surface I opened my eyes. We were in the bathroom, he kissed me one last time and left me on the counter with out a word, he leaned on to the Jacuzzi tub big enough for 3 and let the water pour from the faucet. I just sat there mesmerized, the tub was surrounded by marble ARABESCATO CERVAIOLE, polished. it surrounded the tub by a good 10 inches on
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the sides and 20 on front and back a small fireplace stood between the tub and the shower and the toilet seemed to be in a whole separate area threw a door there were 2 sinks and I was currently perched in between them, my bear ass was cold as he stepped back to me and placed his hands on my hips. we are taking a bath, I want to feel every part of you on me. you will not come, no matter what I do. is that clear he whispered against my mouth dam-it not again! but a big part of me loved it the dominance in his voice the strength in his stance. the heat emanating from his body. I nodded a second before his mouth landed on mine. this kiss was brutal like he wanted to eat me alive, his mouth devoured mine as his hands grabbed on to my thighs. his mouth left mine and slid off to my chin and neck, his right hand started to slide up my legs, strong and tough his hand gave no release when he finally got to my pussy he slowed, he lapped on to my neck his breath coming in short pants but his touch had changed to a slow burning tease. he caressed my outer labia so soft it was barely there. he nipped and sucked at my neck like he wanted to mark me, the odd thing was I wanted it to. it had been a long time since I had allowed my self this and I wanted it for however long it lasted. But as I pushed my neck towards him he pulled back a satisfied smile on his face. Unceremoniously he lifted my shirt and carried me to the almost full tub and placed me inside the hot water made me hiss a bit but ultimately it felt good on my abused legs after I settled in I looked at him again. his hands were on the buttons on his shirt, and I stared as he unbuttoned slowly. is chest was built but in no way massive he had a wide back and lean hips, his skin the color of honey slightly sprinkled with thin hairs. My breathing got shallow as I studied him, my hands itched to feel him, to touch him. I felt uncharacteristically possessive, I wanted, needed and desired this man. the feeling was so intense I looked away and closed my eyes. Resting my head on the tubs edge I tried to rain in my emotions again, to regain some semblance of normality. He was confusing me and I hated being confused, I relaxed a bit as I reminded my self this was just him trying to prove me wrong, but I knew better, it wasn't that love did not exist just that I had no idea how to have it and I hated that but accepted it. I had tried to have relationships after that one time, but I was a good time girl not a forever girl and that was that. I felt the water move as he got in to the water but I did not open my eyes still
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at a battle with what I was feeling vs what I wanted to feel. He did not sit in the water as I expected. He just stood there, waiting, my curiosity won and I opened my eyes. I was almost at level with his cock, I stared, I could not help it. it was as far as I was

concerned, well beautiful, I had I thing for cocks I found them to be works of art and this was like a magnificent renascence undiscovered painting that I wanted to study like a curator. he stood there as I stared, not moving an inch, waiting for me to react. I straightened and kneeled in front of him, inhaling the musky cent. He was shaved and not a single hair dared show up past his hip bone. I extended my hand, and even thou my eyes never left his cock my hands touched his hips, his skin was hot and silky, tautly wound over muscles and bone. My hands traveled down from his hips to his thighs the change made me shiver with him since his legs were sprinkled with hairs, I could see his hands flex as I let out a puff of air on to his rock hard cock, it was large. but the awesome part was that he was thin at the base thick in the middle and thin again at the head from which a small drop of precome spilled. the Meer thought of him sliding in and out of me, the feel of him stretching me made me moan as I liked the tip. I wanted to feel his hands on my head to feel him posses me as much as I knew he wanted to do it if his fist were any indication. but he was letting me do this, if I wanted him to take control I would have to drive him nuts. I smiled and he grunted. Holding on to his legs I teased his cock with slow licks from root to tip wetting him with my saliva then I slowly sucked the tip and circled my tong ring around the head and the slit as I sucked, again he groaned. He was tough but I was good, again I liked and sucked liked and sucked till his cock jumped a bit on my mouth I sucked on last time with a pop as I let go of his tip, still my hands stayed on his legs and I repositioned my self a bit he was on the edge but this was still my game I flexed my jaw and gathered as much spit as I could in my mouth as I got really close opened my mouth and shoved him as far as he would go up on my throat and swallowed tightened my lips against him which considering his size was not much of an effort since my mouth was full till the brim, I swallowed three more times before I slit it out and repeated the process this time in short fast stokes and again one deep 3 swallows, when my hands left his legs and held on to the root of his cock wile the other gently played with his balls he snapped, his hands dug in to my hair and his
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hips started to pump shoving his cock in to my mouth as I sucked. he pulled at my hair to keep my head still as he fucked my mouth in short deep stokes. He growled as his come spilled in to my mouth and I swallowed, he was salty and thick. I moaned, god it was good my hands slid to my wet pussy as his cock started to deflate his hand on my hair tightened MINE! he shouted and my hand stopped on the top of my mound You don't get to touch my pussy! got that? he said with one last pull on my hair as he made me stand. he kissed me then, I wondered if he could taste his come in my mouth, it was hot. I barely ever got kissed after I blew a guy and if I did it was always a form of goodbye. This on the other hand, well it was a thank you, and I need more so I will take more kind of kiss. This man really loved taking possession of my mouth, and as I had proved over and over again I was helpless to stop it. no matter how much I told my self this was dangerous, I fell again and again in to the promises his kisses were making. I was such a fool, but at least I was having fun being one, and regret would come as it always did with the sun and I would wrap it around me and wallow till I found another warm body to repeat the process with. but something told me this would definitely be a tough act to follow. He was caressing me. my back my hips taking away the sting from my scalp holding on to my ass he pressed me to his half erect cock again and I was surprised, I moaned, he was hard again! well this had not happened in a long ass time. Men lately were a one-time deal I was used to it and my body had started to cool. he parted my legs from behind and slid a finger from my ass to my cunt. mine he said again once he let go of my lips. he smiled moved to stand behind me and dropped in to the water I had barely noticed that the water was still hot and the jets on the sides were on bringing in more warm water I started to turn to look at him I wondered if he would let me straddle his face and finally let me come but instead he pulled at my hips and sat me in between his legs his erection trapped between his stomach and my back. he kissed the back of my head and my neck as he took some soap an his hand and started to lather up my shoulders and breast you are beautiful his compliment shocked me, I knew men found me attractive but beautiful was definitely not a word I used to describe myself. Hot, sexy, sure those I was familiar with but beautiful to me was homely and delicate and maybe I read to many romance novels, but beautiful women were different
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they had long wavy hair and tight breast their bellies were not full of stretch marks from fluctuating weight. I can sense you don't believe me but I am going to make you believe me sooner or latter he declared. I felt my heret drop do my stomach because I knew there would not be a later. not because of him, no, it was because I was not the type of girl men kept. he said he wanted me now but he did not know me, not the real me. and if all my friends were to be trusted I was just down right crazy, as if they had to tell me. between battling depression, always feeling like a victim and my own

insecurities I was a bundle of problems, and I was not about to shove them on him no matter how much he said he wanted it, I was not doing that to my self again. you were born alone and you died alone in the in between if you were lucky you shared moments of happiness and burdened those around you as little as possible. his fingers drew lazy circles on my soapy breast, as he whispered in my ear that I was beautiful and all the things he wanted to do with me, to me. I sighed and relaxed all I could do now was make memories and I was not going to let tomorrow rain on today so I laid there in his arms and soaked him up imprinting his heat and his sent in to my memory. place your legs over mine he whispered as his hands slid down to my pussy, I did as he said as he grabbed more soap and he proceeded to wash me I love that you waxed my pussy, I want you to keep it like this every time you come to me, so I can feel you silky skin against my hands and my face I moaned as his feather light touch circled my cit with one hand and with the other he circled my opening in soft lazy circles you like the thought of that don't you I nodded. yes, I would to was all he said his rhythm not changing one bit. the hand on my clit left me, thats when I realized I had closed my eyes. I saw his hand move in between my leg and his, and part my ass cheeks his finger started to follow the same lazy rhythm as it did on my vagina, applying a bit more pressure as it went around and around my body was heating up again, picking up not far from were it had been before, but I knew he would not let me come yet, so I took deep steady breaths as I closed my eyes. He nipped and nibbled on my neck, and suddenly he bit down as he slid two fingers in to my pussy and one in my ass. I screamed the assault taking me to the brink, he knew I was close I could feel my body contracting against him but he would not let up. don't come little girl, don't you dare
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come just yet he said as he nibbled on my ear and fucked me with his hands. god it was like I was a piano and he was Beethoven and the moans and screams coming out of me were the music we made together. suddenly he stopped removing his hands from my body and pushing me to stand before I could groan. He got out of the tub and leaned in to carry me, dripping water he trekked in to the room and tossed me on the bed unceremoniously he knelt town on the edge and pulled me to him by my legs. my pussy landing in his face as his mouth latched on to my clit. I moaned and screamed out his name, he didn't ask me to stop this time and the more I did the more he did, I tossed my head from side to side trying to control it trying to rain it in. suddenly he stopped and stood get back in the middle of the bed I complied as much as I could with my body turned in to one huge ball of nerves. He slid up over me and covered me from bottom to top and I could feel all of him surround me. I moaned and closed my eyes but he held my head look at me I slowly opened my eyes as I felt his cock on my opening and my body slowly give way to his intrusion you will always look at me when we are together like this, you will not close your eyes. not even if I chose to let you come ok? I nodded good he said as his mouth took mine again, and he shoved all the way inside. he stayed still dam you feel so fucking good and tight he whispered on my mouth I smiled nervously and said it feels good because you forgot the condom im clean, and I know you are always careful I blushed, and he caressed my cheeks are you not ok with this? I wished I was, or that at least he would make me forget but getting pregnant was so not an option I dont wanna get pregnant, thats all ... he pushed in deeper and smiled I do he said moving as he looked in to my eyes, and the he grunted getting off me and muttering to himself with his back turned away from me. suddenly I felt bad, I missed his heat the feel of him inside me filling me up. I didn't want the god dammed condom! not really he had felt so f-ing good inside me and now he was walking away from me. I closed my eyes and started to curl up un to a ball, as the walls started to come down on me. See hard and fast is so much better than agonizingly slow and the pain of rejection. I took a deep breath and pushed my self of the bed looking at the wall, keeping my legs closed I started to move of the bed where the hell do you think you are going? my eyes shot up he was standing a few feet from the bed his
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arms crossed at his chest and his beautifully magnificent cock rapt up in a condom. I.... am... I was going to... Leave? he asked. I nodded I thought you wanted me to get a god dammed condom! he screamed, I looked back up at his face he had growled and ordered me around all night but he had never really raised his voice I .... well ... I did! I said back not as loud as he did but loud enough then care to explain to me were the fuck you were going? I... I thought... ah hell! I thought you had left ok. I thought it pissed you off and you left! happy now! he came closer kneeling on the bed next to me and caressed my face no baby, I'm not happy, in fact I'm furious I flinched, he caressed furious at my self, for leaving you like that, and letting you think I was walking away from you! I'm an idiot and I'm sorry he said kissing my forehead and trekking down kisses thru my face I just went to the closet to get the condoms, and when I got back, well I thought you were trying to escape. I should have told you were I was going and I'm sorry he finally said placing soft kisses on my mouth, god I cant do this! he has me flying all over the place my emotions are on hipper drive. I started to shut down I deepened the kiss struggling for control, but he shook his head no, don't shut me out. not now, not just yet. be with me, feel me he grabbed my hand and placed it over his heret this is just... Surreal I said, tightening my hand against his pecs and letting go. I knew there would be hell to pay, but I had played before and I was still here a shadow of what I used to be but here none the less. I gave in, he felt the moment I let go for this kisses got deeper stronger dominating his hands started to explore again roughly like he wanted to mark me to remind me of my submission as he went not a moment two soon we were lying on the bed again and he was pushing inside, his mouth had not left mine tell me he whispered tell me what you want he needed to here it as much as I needed to say it. I... want ... you... inside... me... I said kissing him in between words slowly he started shoving inch after agonizing inch inside me, like I wasn't on the edge and he had all the time in the world. he grabbed my arms from his back were they had been scratching and placed them over my head holding them with one arm he slid the other to my hip placing me so he hit my spot with every slow thrust, I started to move and he stopped me tightening the hand on my hips, but he got the message and started to pound hard in to me making me scream, he had built me up so many fucking times I
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was so fucking close please I begged please I panted michael, Please please what baby? tell me what you want I need..... oh good..... I need to come then come for me me baby he said as his hand move in between our bodies and pinched my clit. the orgasm hit me like a freight train, rolled over me and I swear it all went dark I could here my self screaming but I could no longer control it my body was on its own. as I started to come down I felt his last few thrusts and his hands falling away from my body as he collapsed over me. I tried to speak to make a joke something to brake the spell but right when I was about to he kissed my clavicle and turned taking me with him to lay over him. I stayed for a few minutes and then my brain started to work again I started to get up but he held me. thats when I notices he was still inside of me. I had gotten so comfortable with his heat that I just forgot. his hands on my hips he helped me rise and pushed me back on to his legs he took off the condom tied it and just threw it I watched it land on the floor next to the trash can. he must have seen it to cause he groaned, pulled at my hand tucked me under his arm on his left side, and promptly fell asleep. I waited for a few minutes holding on to the tears I waited till he fell asleep and the I took the pillow pressed it between us and left the bed. I looked at my self in the mirror now you did it you idiot!!! I said to my refection in the mirror you are really deep in it this time I turned away from the mirror got in the shower and washed. not because it felt dirty but because I couldn't smell him on my skin any more because it hurt. Jesus, that was probably the best orgasm in the history of orgasms. to bad it was a one time thing I sighed went to the other room to get my dress and shoes they were still were I had left them on the floor I put on the dress and took my shoes. dam I whispered as I left the room, my cell phone was in his pant pockets in the bathroom. I headed back to the door and peaked in he was still asleep, thank good, so I sneaked back in. I the bathroom I took his wallet and my cell I called a cab and took a few bucks for cab fair I had left my purse at the club. I walked back out and saw him sleep I couldn't help it so I got closer, pulled the sheets against him and gave him a quick kiss in the forehead. I walked out of the room with tears streaming down my face. When I reached the kitchen there was an old man there, I stopped in my tracks. as if he felt me he turned around his smile turning in to a frown, he shook his head I told him this was a bad idea he mumbled. I had to
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smile, no, it was a fantastic idea I said in a whisper cleaning the tears from my face he snorted yea thats why your walking out crying with your shoes in your hands no, the reasons I am leaving are many but none of them is because I think this night was a mistake then stay the old man said. I cant, I wish I could but I just... well... I cant very well, if you give me a few minutes I will drive you home, don't worry he wont wake for a few more hours I already called a cab well call them back missy! after all its not every day and old man like me gets to drive such a pretty girl around I blushed and nodded I grabbed my phone an called the cab company and canceled the cab was almost here was I sure, yes I got another ride, I told them. when I was done the man put a stemming cup of coffee in front of me with some milk and sugar. are you sure you don't want to go back in there? he pointed to the hallway, I nodded and sipped my really sweet coffee. he sighed very well, cant blame a man for trying he laughed sadly as soon as you finish that we can go is there somewhere I could leave him a note or something it was foolish for me to believe this was more than just one night, no matter what he said there was no way I would survive this night again. when he handed me the paper and pen my hands started to shake

Dear Michael:

Im sorry I cant stay I honestly had the most amazing night of my life. I know thank you is not enough, but for now its all I have. I wish I could give you more, but I just don't have it to give. You are amazing and you deserve somebody who can love you completely with out fear. and that is just not me.
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Last night you wanted more, more of me, more time. Know that I will always remember you and that... well you know.
xoxo V.

I did not realize I was crying till a tear dropped on the page. I sniffled cleaned my face and folded the paper. I walked out with Walter to the garage and got in to a gray BMW, the tears kept streaming down my face as I gave him the address to Andy s apt. he drove in silence and I looked out the window not really seeing anything, if it hurts this much after one night imagine what it would be like after a few weeks or the two month mark of expiration my relationships seem to have. No she was doing the right thing, better to cut and run now than have him run away in two months. I got to the building I sat there in a daze for a few more seconds. I can take you back if you want Walter said, I smiled and shook my head its better this way young people! he said exasperated and shaking his head its a wonder anything gets done anymore . I kissed his cheek and said good-bye. Got to Andys an knocked it was already 6:30 but it was Sunday Brent, Andys boyfriend and recent room mate opened the door in his scrubs. he was a doctor in the er. hey he said rubbing his eyes with a simile let me guess left your keys? then he stopped rubbing his eyes and looked at me, I must look like hell because his face was one of pure shock and horror come here he said pulling me inside what happened ? he asked frantically inspecting my arms and neck. I remember that he had bitten me and I placed my hand protectively over my mark, his mark I hunched over and cried. he sat with me on the couch and pulled me on to his legs. this felt good we had all been friends for years before he had the guts to tell Andy

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how he really felt, and she could not be happier or more envious of what they had if she tried. Jesus what happened V.? did he hurt you cause if he did id kill him! no I shook my head he was amazing and kind and aw hell, he well he made me feel! I could feel his surprise I had never said that about a guy before in fact I always said they did the exact opposite to me I dont get it why are you crying? I laughed at his tone of disbelieve you are such a guy!!! I smacked is arm playfully thank god for that. with the way you to are Im glad Im a man I smiled those were common words and had been for years yea, yea, big tough guy who is two scared to ask his best friend to marry him. if its going to take you as long to propose as it did to kiss her Im never having nieces and nephews dam it v.! have your own god dammed kids if you want them so much!, and ill ask her when Im good and ready his comment about kids brought back what Michael had said I do as in I do want you to get pregnant? was he nuts? tears started streaming down my face again oh man this had to stop. I got up as Brent let me go, I stood on shaky legs is she up? it was stupid to ask but I need some girly comfort, but he shook his head nop I walked in a wile ago and she was out. I can get you some clothes and you can crash on the couch till she wakes up, I was just going to shower and crash my self if you think you will be ok I nodded ill be fine, it will be over in a few minutes I said pointing at my face. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and was flooded with the memories of his taste. quickly I brushed it away washed my face brushed my teeth and got in to the shorts and shirt Brant had gotten for me. when I came out I felt much better. I knew I was in denial. but I had lived here before and it felt a lot better than grief.

The week went buy in a blur, it seemed I was on autopilot getting shit done with out any emotions except for the flashes of memories and the emotions that followed. I did poker night with the boys and movie and margarita night with the girls. I lost the 5 dollars I bet, not usual for me. and barely had a drink all night concentrating on the sad movie I had picked out so I could cry as much as I wanted. By the beginning of the second week I felt better. I still had not talked about it past saying it was grate and it was over. but people were walking on eggshells around me at the office I had made senior planner a
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year before and I had my own clients and staff. on Friday that second week my boss called me in, Magdalena was a strong and tall woman n her 50s but she looked not a day past 35, and according to Luke her assistant for the last 10 years she had not had any work done. she was a grate source of admiration for me and rarely called me in her office I sat there wile she asked me what was wrong I Said nothing because nothing was wrong, not really I was just Horny as hell and my vibrator just wasn't cutting it, I needed a man and fast. V. do you think you need some time off to go somewhere and relax? I can distribute your parties or oversee your teem if you want to take off I shook my head no, I'm ok. I just... I need to work ok she nodded looking doubtful but let it slide. We talked business and I put her in the loop as far as all my events went. At 5 I called Andy and asked her to call the girls so we could go out somewhere, I'm in a hunting mood I said trying to convince my self as well as inform her. usually that would have gotten me a laugh and a you crazy woman! but this time, this time was different it wont make you forget you know, you have to really let it go. or you could embrace it and call him. see if he would take you back? as usual I laughed off ha, yea like when hell freezes over. Plus babe if he really wanted me he would have found me. he even knows were you live if he wanted to find me all he would have to do is go there and look for you. and unless you are keeping him from me he has not done any of the things he could do. So I'm going out and I'm going to hunt and that is that Andy sighed and said ok More resigned than happy. come over and we will leave from here we hung up after that and I headed home. The more I primped and fixed my self up the worse I felt asshole!! was all I kept saying, the bruises on my neck and hips were almost gone. but every once in a wile I caught myself caressing that spot, the sign of his utter possession. today I was trying to conceal it under what felt like 10 pounds of makeup. I looked at my self in the mirror and started to cry. you are a giant colossal idiot I had crumbled to the floor in the mid of my tirade. I stared at my shower and picked my self up. then I looked in the mirror he might have screwed you for other men but that doesn't mean you cant forget him. yes sure maybe not now maybe not for a long ass time but you, are not going to keep throwing these pity parties any more I stood got in to the shower and washed all the makeup off my face neck and shoulders. I got out
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picked out a particularly short skirt lace panties and braw and picked out a gold strapless shirt that let all my marks show. I had been careful not to show them. the were mine you see, I hadn't particularly wanted people to know, but today, today I would share and dish and tell all and when it was all said and done when it was no longer a secret I would heal. I knew I would with gold platforms sandals on my feet and nothing more than eyeliner and a bit of lip-gloss I was out the door. I reached Andys just as Brant was leaving wow! he said you look, well dam, you look hot babe. and I see your letting it all hang out? I nodded Andy will give you the gist of it, unless you want to come with and listen to all the gory details he cringed and shook nop, I'm cool

staying on this side of ignorance I laughed and gave him a hug and a quick kiss. Soon we were all seated at the bar around the corner. the place was small and it catered mostly to locals so we knew the wait staff and the most of the people who frequented the place. The 6 of us found a table and sat outside in a circle. We ordered our drinks, me going for rum and 7up instead of a fruity stuff the rest of them were having, after the drinks came Karen one of Andy's friends from work asked what was on everyones mind ok V. spill whats with the brands on your neck and can we borrow, or is it a keeper? that last bit made my jealousy flair but I tramped it down as my nails dug in to my palms. these girls were my friends had been for some time now and if I said he was hands off he was hands off no matter whether I kept him or not. not that it had happened before but it was I guess an unwritten rule. some guy had tried to sleep with two of us once and got a drink in his face from Erica and a kick in the nuts from Sofia. After that we always called dibs and it ended at that. Dibs I said. maybe for the first time ever, all the smiles around the table changes to faces of disbelief and then big broad smiles again, as always I was the only one left single. and I usually liked it that way. Sophie was next to me and asked first dish woman!!! and consecutively who? What? where? when? . I took one deep breath and told the story the room the spanking the dinner the shower the orgasm to rival it all and my grand escape. When I was done we were all a bit worse for wear and I got punched twice and then hugged twice its not to late you can go back I let out a large breath and shook my head. thats just it you guys, I don't want to they were looking at me like I was retarded I cant do it again, ok. I cant have
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him walk away saying o shit sorry I had no idea you were that crazy or that kinky or that needy. I just... I rather leave him it was my choice my decision. and now I will move on, sure maybe I wont sleep around as much but at 27 thats a good thing and maybe I will find that plain vanilla guy that inspires nothing more than my ticking clock and ill get married and be content with my lot. After all ill have you guys to tell me about your escapades. ill be fine. idiot I hered Andy whisper under her breath Karen threw up her arms I cant fucking believe you!!! You get a hot ass guy to take you to heaven and back wile making promises for a close tomorrow and you want to give that up for what? the life you think you should have as a victim of your own decisions Don't

psychoanalyze me! dam it, its my life and I will live it like I want to I would have stood up and walked out but Andy held my arm and looked not to far behind me Oh shit! I was about to turn my head when she tighten her grip in my hand bringing my attention back to her. a tingle passed up my spine and my eyes were about to fall out of my face. the others noticed the exchange and looked around Fernanda a quiet girl by nature said shit, no fuckingg way!!! thats Michael Holt from HOLT industries being a stock broker she should know. Me I had no idea I could barely here anything except the rush of blood in my ears so I almost missed her next comment he and his brother own half of Miami, frt-lauderdale and Tampa in small businesses. Oh shit he is coming over here. I tried to breath and regain my composure. I cracked my neck took a deep breath and squared my shoulders. you can do this girl! I told myself, taking a long sip of my drink I settled back in to the chair and waited good evening ladies he said, they all answered in return and then I could feel his stare on me. I knew he could see the bruising on my neck. But when he places one hand on the table and another on my chair I was caged but I did not move. I twirled my drink in my hand and pretended to ignore him. he must have known what I was doing for he threw his head back and laughed making me jump a bit in my seat. I could here the girls whispering no way, thats the guy, I would have never walked out that, idiot I had no idea what came from whom it sounded like a long winded sentence hello Victoria, Don't I get at least a civilized salute form you. you know the one you give all your puppies a soft smile followed my a thank you but I cant, hu? don't I at least deserve that he was right of course so I did my best acting I had
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done since high school and turned to face him with my drink in my hand and a smile on my face yes, of course you do I'm sorry if I was being rude. Michael these are my friends Andy, Fernanda, Erica, Karen and Sofia. I smiled and looked at the girls this is as you have already guessed Michael, the one I was telling you about. Was I not right is he not the perfect specimen for a hard ride I hered him growl and Fernanda gasped, I looked back at him and said don't you dare growl at me! I said in a very firm tone Now tell me what can I do for you dear. as you can see we are in the middle of a very long girls night and I still have some hunting to do shock covered his features and then it transformed in to anger. he pulled away from me and stood tall I had dismissed him and gone back to sipping my drink and twirling the glass when he finally spoke get up he ordered, my back straightened and I had to force my self to stay seated. I said get up little girl oh shit I was in trouble now I shuffled my feet and then crossed and uncrossed my legs I was wet I could feel my juices dampening the lace of my underwear, and this was just his voice. I closed my eyes and breath in my expression must have changed because I hered Karen whisper oh shit, look at what he does to her! yea, fuck said Sofia Victoria look at me he said ignoring the girls. I could not help it I looked. my body recognized its master even if my mind refused to accept it. my eyes collided with his, they were deep sapphire blue instead of their usual indigo. he was angry I could tell his energy emanated from him in waves of anger. All around us the bar kept going but my eyes never left his get up he said one more time. And I did, its not like I could avoid it forever. With these shoes I was able to almost reach the top of his head so I stayed looking at him as I pushed the chair and stood happy now? I asked not by a long shot he answered then he turned to look behind be to were Andy was sitting take her purse and her car. are her parents still out of town? no she answered I started to speak and the shut me up with a look, then I hered Amy speak again but she does have a trip planned for tomorrow till next Sunday it was supposed to be for work but I could call her boss and tell her she is sick and she can call her parents and tell them she is leaving straight from my place if she goes now and picks up some clothes can you go get them for her am... I guess if she calls and says she is stuck at an event that will end late I could swing by the house and make a suitcase for
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her perfect. thats what we will do, you call her boss ill call her parents I can call her parents Sofi said I'm dating her assistant so they are used to hereing from him delivering messages I opened my mouth again and again he looked at me. I shut it again o shit thats so hot said karen to Fernanda I know she answered back he plays here lie a well strung guitar he laughed at that comment you here that babe, they think I'm an artist as far as we are concerned you are a fucking wizard, shit look at her! she is about to blow a casket and there she stands mute and stiff. Can you make her bark? my eyes were about to bulge out of my head when he laughed and said no but I can make her feel, which to her seems to be much worse dam you Brant! I said under my breath yes baby he said as he brought his hand up to caress my cheek, when he touched me I shivered and herd Karen say shit thats hot but his concentration was on me and he said did you really think I would not look in to you?, that I would not try to find out the reasons you walked out on me? I told you why I left. in the letter I he interrupted me ah yes that god forsaken letter, you even convinced one of the few men I hold real respect for to not let me come after you. he told me I had hurt you enough with all my crazy domineering ways. he told me to leave you alone. decreed it in fact, an I hate disobeying his orders almost as much as he hates taking mine I thought he was just the driver? oh he is, but he is more like an old era majordomo/ vale and substitute father since mine was a bit of a workaholic oh I said I gathered up courage from god knows were and said maybe you should have

listened this time two, and stayed away. its not like I want you here he laughed and pushed my face up to stare at my eyes. you might not want to want me, thats true, but this body he said as he ran his hand down my neck to the mark on my neck this body needs me, needs what only I can give it. because no matter what you say this body is mine shh, don't say that what you don't want them to know how I make... I lifted my hand to push him and he caught it and placed it against his heret and leaned in to y ear to whisper the rest even though I knew they were all straining to here. he placed a soft kiss on the mark on my neck and whispered you don't want them to know that you are wet right now, just from the sound of my voice. that if we stand here to long I can make you come with out as much as a kiss. that I can make your knees so week you
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need me for support and you cling to me like a rag doll. you don't want them to know you belong to me and only me caveman I whispered yes, and you love it. you might not be ready to tell me you love me but admit that. tell me you are mine, admit it to yourself that nobody else can make you feel like I do. I shook y head in denial as my words betrayed me this time yes I said as he nibbled on my earlobe and neck. god this was getting to hot for public eyes I could feel every nip and lick on my drenched pussy if he didn't stop soon it was going to start trekking down my leg yes what baby, tell me yes I pushed and he backed off a bit so I could look him in the eyes and said it loud enough so the busy bodies in my table could here yes I want you, I want you more than any logical explanation I have ever imagined, I want to submit to you in every way I can and be able to drive you crazy so you will fuck me till I cant walk. but just because you want something don't mean you get it. so even thou I want you beyond any rational thought and just the thought of you makes me shiver with desire it does not mean I'm going to walk out of here with you and become what you want or need me to be. I'm not perfect and I will never be. I hate feelings and emotions I cant control or rationalize and what I feel for you is, well its just not rational I shook my head trying to get my thoughts back in order when he held my face and looked in to my eyes do you trust me? what does that have to do with anything? do you trust me? he asked again. there was no lying to him ether so I closed my eyes and searched deep inside did I trust him? I don't know there are so many levels of trust. I trusted him with my body and my pleasure I even trusted him with my safety but did my heart trust him? god I hated this, introspection was never a fun trip to take. I thought of my life these past few weeks, how much I had wanted to hear his voice feel his touch sense his sent how much my heart ached even thou I had tried to ignore it most of the time but at night alone when I had only the silence for company I had stopped lying to my self. maybe it was time to see why it hurt so much? do I trust him with my heart? I asked and the floodgates opened I did not realize I was crying till his hands stroked away my tears baby no. don't cry please and at that I started to sob in earnest. he pulled me against him and held me, I remembered were we were abruptly and pushed away from him he held my head again don't push me away, not now please. I couldn't take it if you did I
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nodded, as I could see the pain in his lovely blue eyes. he kissed me then. and this time he gave as much as he demanded, he demanded surrender, need , and most of all trust. so I slid my hands to his back and held him to me, as I gave and gave al the pain and the sorrow all the need I had felt these past weeks, he took it away and made me forget. Suddenly I herd Andy cough right next to us and felt her tap on my shoulder. I slowed the kiss down reluctant to give up his mouth, till he was tapping small kisses down my chin and neck and breathing me in. he groaned when I pulled his hair and his face came up. he looked at me and smiled well I guess that whole no PDA rule is out the window I laughed and the others muttered their agreement. he looked a bit confused PDA? he asked, and we all laughed a little harder as he blushed yea I kissed him again, just to prove the point Public Displays Of Affections Its a big no no in Vs book he lifted an eyebrow and asked are there many No nos ? he asked the girls you have broken about five already!! Sofi said in a chuckle, he looked back at me and spoke to them maybe we should get together again and discuss this further. but right now this caveman has a very large problem to solve he said slightly pressing me to the enormous erection hidden in his jeans. I've been like this for two whole weeks because of you! he whispered wile I blushed well thats a new one two said Andy never seen her blush that pretty shade of pink, Brant is going to be so sorry he missed this!! no Im not he said as he stood behind Andy, and I groaned I would never live this down! and I would loose poker night with the boys. well this sucked I scowled. wait, what was this really for ever, I stiffened and he sensed my reaction but I put my hand in his mouth before he could speak. oh fuck I loved his stupid ass dint I, maybe it wasn't a forever kind of love just yet but there was everything else. need desire lust trust and admiration he looked down at me and I smiled as I pushed him off me and said ok, maybe I do trust you. but that don't mean I'm leaving with you! I can always make you said I shrugged at looked at the girls and Brent who were giving me nods all around, then I looked at his and smiled please was all I had to say before he scooped down and carried me out of the bar as everybody looked on with puzzled faces.

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Epilog.

its been two whole years since that first night there are many reasons to celebrate first we had gotten married last year on this very date, he said it brought him luck and this year I had a gift to give him. It turns out being a Rich mans wife is a whole lot more work than I thought so over the years I have cut back on my work hours taking only parties here and there and have concentrated on doing my other job of organizing benefits and parties for the foundations my husband and his family participate in my mother in law is elegant and beautiful yet warm and nice, I discovered his dad is not so much a workaholic as he is obsessive compulsive once he starts something he has to finish it other wise it drives him nuts. Michael and Paul, his brother are much alike in that sense except for Paul is now the only bachelor and enjoys it to much even thou he has been standing to still tonight, he is looking at one of the waitresses Carla I believe. Hm this looks interesting she seems to be working extra hard to ignore him I wonder whats going on there. Just when I was about to go find out, big strong hand came around me and pressed me to a delicious male body mmm I moaned as leaned back and closed my eyes well hello there, you know you kind of remind me of my husband a bit I do he whispered in my ear and I shivered yea, the only difference is he rather play with the old people and try to swindle money for the cause than play with me I pouted well is there anything I can do for you instead sure, you see that wtie purse on the table that matches my beautiful white roman dress anha why don't you take it and me to the suite I have booked upstairs and have your wicked way with me this game we played before, the room was a new touch and his hands tightened on my hips, he flipped me around and tried to kiss me till my hand landed on his mouth and I reminded
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him no. my husband, he might see he growled, grabbed my arm and my purse and started running for the door. I pulled back hey wait your parent and the raffle I have to at least hand it off to someone else! he stopped I hate that you work these things seem we can never make a clean brake and mom always insist on hugging me, I laughed at his little boy tantrum and said yes, but I love you. and I always make it better he smiled and gave me a soft kiss on the lips yes, yes you do little girl we said our goodbyes and left for the elevators, when the door closed I gasped as he pulled me towards him and I slammed in to his chest you owe me little girl he said before his mouth claimed mine. even after all that time he still kissed me like I was water and he was a man two long in the dessert. I moaned in to his mouth as my hands tangled in to his hair. he trapped me between the back wall of the elevator and himself pressing his cock on to me. Again I moaned he let go of my hair witch I had not cut in the two years we were together, and now it cascaded down my back almost to my hips. and groaned as he pulled my hair at the base and pushed me closer to him. the elevator dinged and he abruptly let me go pulling me on to the corridor and to our suite. the room was washed in soft yellow lights and the cent of gardenias permeated the air, there was Champagne on a bucket and more in the fridge, I tried to get loose but he turned around as I was about to pull away a question in his face whats up he asked pretending to be casual. the night before it had all been whips and chains, we had gone to the room fooled around, I submitted he dominated and we always managed to keep it fun in our lives there was a lot of love a lot of passion and everyones needs were getting met. Well almost all, he kept insisting we were not getting any younger he was 35 and I was almost 30 and even thou my biological clock had been ticking I was having way to much fun just the two of us to change the game now. But with out ceremony or applause I stopped taking the pills one morning and hadn't since it was almost 2 moths now since I had stopped and today I was going to see if that was the stupidest thing I have ever done or the smartest. cause no matter what the last thing I wanted was to lose my dominating man. I smiled and let go of his hand and walked in to the kitchen and he followed I went about and got a glass of water, I was super nervous. I grabbed the champagne glassed and handed them to him with out a word and grabbed the bowl of
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cho chocolate and the bowl of strawberries and walked out the kitchen in to the living room on the tv a fire played on a loop, it was to hot in the city to light an actual fire, instead we had the ac at full blast. he stared at me from the kitchen door holding the cups as I stood and waited. He knew I waited and kept it so as he came over sat on the white leather couch and took off his shoes and socks and lounged back he stared at me wile I stood there and looked him over, he was so f-ing hot I still had a hard time with the fact that he was mine. I itched to kiss every inch of him and worship him, to drive him so build in his lust that he would pound in to me and mark me were ever his hands happened to land even now the dress I wore hid his mark in the crevice between my neck and shoulder. my breathing got labored, and I could feel his eyes on me are you gonna tell me whats up? I shook my head no. and he growled, I denied him nothing any more so this probably had him angry as hell. very well little girl you asked for it. Strip, slowly then present yourself I did as he said and slowly slid the dress of my body turning around before I finished dropping it and bending down to show him my bear ass and cunt as I slid it off. I reached back and opened my stance taking one leg out of the dress and opened my ass for his inspection the but plug that had been next to my dress was a small one used more to tease at this point than to do any real stretching but knowing he knew it was there was always a heady experience very good, im glad you did as you were told, now come here and lay on my lap call me crazy but this was my favorite part. but when I went to lie on his legs he switched the game and grabbed my hips instead, stopping me in between his legs. he leaned down and took off my sandals and sat back. get up here he said but when I went to straddle his legs he pulled my hips forward on to his face. I was still particular about this and even thou he had tried before I had never agreed to basically fuck his face. so I gasped as my pussy landed on his face his hands on my ass pushing me forward. he sucked and liked and sucked and liked over and over I could feel my juices running down his cheeks as my body got closer and closer but every time he took me to the edge he would change pace or place always teasing. my hands that rested on the table behind the couch tangled in his hair and pulled him to me and he laughed as my hips started to undulate and grind on to his face I moaned and screamed and growled when again for third time he denied me my
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orgasm, when it came rolling the fourth time he let go of me and I landed on his hip. he pulled me up and placed me on the carpet as he hurried to take off all his clothes. Now as naked as the gods had sent him, he slid down next to me and caressed the valley in between my breasts " I love you " he whispered, I closed my eyes and basked in it for a bit. My body may be running fast but my mind was still on the secret I kept " are you ready to tell me whats up? " I shook my head " make love to me " " nop, I will torture you all night if I have to. I will lay here and play with these" he said grabbing my breast and squeezing " and I will slowly kiss every delectable inch of you, ill make you scream and beg and give you nothing. At least not till I get what I want" he punctuates with a kiss as his hand slid to my body and laid on my bellybutton. I closed my eyes and imagined how it would look in a few months my belly distended with a symbol of our love and commitment. A final nail in my coffin, I smiled. When I looked at him again he was, well honestly he looked a bit worried and apprehensive, " baby, no" I whispered as I reached up to stoke his face. " its not a bad thing, at least I hope not" now I've done it the more I said the more confused he looked, here it goes. Time to make it real, " you remember like 2 months ago that I got the flue" his eyes squinted " well, I kind of stopped taking the pills,i figured they were not doing anything with the antibiotics so I might as well not take them" he still looked puzzled like I might be talking german for all he understood " I ammm... Well truth is I haven't taken them since. And as you know they are consequences to that" he looked down at his hand still lying on my belly and looked back at me, the question clear in his face. I nodded, and his face lit up like a christmas tree " say it " I smiled " we are.... Well we are pregnant" for a second I thought he would faint and then he stood up wooped and hallerd pulled me up and spinned me around in his arms and finally he kissed me just the way I like it ferociously and not holding back at all. He put me down on my feet and pushed away to look down on me " you sure?" I nodded, so happy I could burst. This was my life and it was good and it was ok that it was good. " how long?" he asked " about a month and a week, thats kind of how I knew. After all I'm extremely regular " " did you go to Mark's? " both his hand on my belly and a glazed look in his eyes. Mark was the family doctor and Peter's best friend " yes, he confirmed it" " he didn't say, and I talked to him yesterday" I knew
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he didn't mean it like it sounded but I was still gonna give him a hard time over it " well he is downstairs you could always go and ask him yourself" I snapped " but just don't expect me to be waiting, I'm to Horney not to come even if you have decreed it!" that brought him back from daddy land and into caveman mode, I smiled as his eyes snapped back to mine. And I slid my hands in to his hair and kissed him. He was gentile now like I would brake so I pulled his hair and nipped his lip " I don't ..... Well hell I don't want to hurt you or the baby" to cute! I thought but hell if I was gonna let that stop us we only had a few more months and then it was bottle and dipper duty, and if its true that twins run in the family we might just get it double! " you cant hurt us at all. But I will solve this on my own if you don't do it for me. Im sure I could always get one of the men downstairs to fool around with" before the words were fully out of my mouth his hand were on me pulling my head to his " mine! " he growled. And he proceeded to kiss me and touch me any and every which way till we were back on the floor and finally he was inside me " thank you" he said as he started to move slow slow really f-ing slow, and then as if on queue my orgasm reared back to life and he made love to me in earnest till we both lay sweaty and spent on the carpet and he held me to him as both of us fell asleep. Yep life was definitely good.

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