She started to say something else, but I cut her off with my hand.I didn’t want to hear anymore apologies. I just wanted to get thisover with so I could find somewhere to go alone to wallow.We walked through the double doors to the house and weregreeted by everyone. Everyone came one by one to hug me likethey do the mother of a deceased person at a funeral. Well, Iguess it did kind of fit the occasion. I felt like I had died all overagain anyway. But I don’t deserve anyone’s pity or sadness. Icould tell that they were all trying to control their thoughts aroundme. Well, not all of them. Only Rosalie, Emmett, Carlisle, andAlice. They were all thinking of random things. Rosalie wasthinking of her BMW, Emmett was reciting the rosters of everysports team he could think of, Carlisle was thinking about everydisease known to man, and Alice had started to recite the Catholicbible. Jasper and Esme, on the other hand, weren’t trying to hidetheir thoughts from me.
‘Edward!! I’m so glad you came. I was so worried about you. Are you okay? Well, no, I know you’re not okay. I’m just so glad you’reback. We’re going to help you through this son. You know I’mhere if you need me....whatever you need. ‘
Esme thought, as shehugged me again. Tight enough to cut off air flow, if I needed it.Which I don’t because I’m not human. I can never be human……..Ineed to get out of here. I can’t hold myself together. It’s only amatter of time before I breakdown again, and I don’t want to do itin front of Esme. But there was still one more thing I needed to dobefore I made my escape, but before I could even turn to facehim, his thoughts had already invaded my mind…
‘Whoa, Edward….I just….I don’t…I wish there was something Icould do……this is awful…….I’m so sorry…I never knew anyonecould feel this much pain. This much torture…Edward…..’
hecould’ve went on and on but I had to cut him off. I didn’t need himto reiterate what I was feeling.
was feeling them.“Uh, Jasper can I speak to you alone for a minute please?” I said,interrupting him. I just needed to get this over with.“Sure….” He said. He followed me out to the back garage. Unsureof what I would wanted to talk to him about. My brother and I