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CBa npasa cy saurraheaa. H' Wjenaa neo KlDwre He MO)Ke 6WTWpenponyxosau, y ~W~O KOjOj CPOPMW,6e3 nncaeaor onotipeisa ayropa. 6;aBlbWBalDe nerra 6e3 noasone ayropa csrarpa ce npOTWB3aKOHWTWMWCy,n;CKW je Ka)KlDWBO.

"TIOPO,n;WqHWfiyxaap" nocaehyjex CBOM yqwTelbY Ilerpy Caanhy, TBOp~y CTBapallaqKOr aacmrraisa, (npesonryo 1993), CBOjWMyqeHW~WMa, CBOjOj nopomma W CBWMnoponnuaaa y qwjwM he ce pYKaMa nahx OBa KlDwra. BellWKY 3aXBallHOCT ,n;yryjeM CBOMcynpyry Mxpozsyriy WCBOjOj ,n;e~w Ilparany WDWlbaHw. Pasyaenx cy MOjy nocsehenocr OBOj w,n;ejw, C Jby6aBlby npaxnanonr MOjy norpetiy ,n;aCBOj )KWBOTnOCBeTWM W3HalDY cTBapallaqKOr sacrnrran,a, sacnWTalDY 6e3 Ka3He WHarpa,n;e, xoje je 6WllO W6whe, aa pa,n;ocT name WCBWXOCTallWX, 3HaHWX WHe3HaHWX noponaua, Iocnoha Bepx 13op1)eBwh caM saxnamta IIlTOje y Cp6wjy nonena aaarse anrepnaTWBHeMe,n;W~WHe,nexerse aa uraua Wcronany, (CY 13oK) qwjw je rsopau rocnonxn TIapK Ilae By, (npesonryo 25.3.2010). Xsana WMIIlTO cy MWnecetironro napoaaznr saarse KOjWMcaM ycnena HayqHo na YTeMelbwM cTBapallaqKO sacrnrrarse, w,n;OKa)KeM ,n;a Cpozja WMa allTepHaTwBHw 06llWK aacrnrrarsa, KOjWnaaac rrpencrasrsa BpCTy eMO~WOHallHor nexetsa. Y CKOPOj 6y,n;yhHOCTW TO he 6WTWje,n;wHw 06llWK nacmrraisa. Craapauaxxo nacrnrraise TeK cana, HayqHo yreaerseao, MO)Ke 6WTW noayheao cBeTY. Bnanerx Ieporxhy, aaponnosr yqWTelbY, Ilocetiao caxr aaxsanna nporpecopy ncaxnjarpy WaKa,n;eMWKY,KOjWje WMao caao peqw xsane aa "TIOPO,n;WqHW6yKBap" y BpeMeHWMa xana cy CBH aYTopWTeTH H cTpyqHa jasnocr hyrana. OHH cy hyrallH, xao aYTopHTeTH, amr cy xao po,n;HTelbH W re KaKO ~eHHllH H nOIIlTOBallH TO IIlTO pa,n;HM, y IIlTa caM ce YBepHlla aetipojeno nyTa. OTBopeHO cy Me no,n;p)KaBallH: HOBHHapH, ype,n;HH~H TB H pa,n;HO eMHcHja, nerroaaarx nexapa, nporpecopa, nCHXOll03H, ncnxxjarpa, sepoyxaren,a, nacmrraqH, ponarersa, neua, je,n;HOMpexjy, rronpacasao Me Hapo,n;. Xaarra CBHMa, on cp~a.
Munuua
HOBKOBUn

XI1MHA Jb YEABI1
113
upee UOCllaHU~e KOpUHnaHUMa

PEll AYTOPA HOB OM, IlPEPA1)EHOM I13J=(AlbY

pajeM 2009. ronmre, nocne rryH11X necer ronxna llI11pelha anarsa cTBapallaQxor aacrnrrarsa, OCeT11lla caM norpetiy ,n;a npepanasr "Ilopo,n;11QH11 6YKBap". 3allITo? On He,n;aBHOM11ce jaarsajy po,n;11Telb1111noje,n;11HU;11, y3 onacKY ,n;aje nourao TpeHYTaK na pa3rpaH11Q11M rrp11MeHy crnapanaxxor nacmrrarsa, rro 06llaCT11Ma. Ka:>KYM11: "Han1111I11Te HOBe Klh11re y Koj11Ma here jacno nOKa3aT11 KaKO npeha rrYT on PATA no JbYEABM, orxnarsajyha KA3HY M HAfPAAY, Y KOMYH11KaU;11j11 Me~y: rrOllOB11Ma, Me~y lby,n;11May pa,n;HoM oKpy:>Kelhy, 113Me~y aacmrraxa 11 Bacrr11TaH11Ka, y BPT11hy 11IlIKOll11, 113Me~y xnaaoaa jenaor ,n;pyIliTBa, a rrp11MapHOj rropomnra OCTaB11TerrpeQ1111IheH "Ilopo,n;11QH11 6YKBap", KaKO 611 ca naxohora CXBaT11lla 360r xera ce BO,n;11 TaKO :>KeCTOK11 paT y rropo,n;11U;11 11KaKO na noponaua naxohov na np11MeH11 saarse crsapana-rxor nacnararsa 11 yhe y Jb YEAB. BeOMa caM 11Msaxaanaa na rrpennoaasra 11cyrecrxjaaa. M 3611lba, rrpOQ11TaBIlI11rra:>Klb11BO nocnemse 113,n;alhe.Tloponaxaor 6yKBapa", (2009), xojer Q11He nse Klh11re, OHa 113 1999 11,n;pyra nacrana 2005, sanaaiora caM ,n;aOH otiyxsara rOTOBO CBe 06llaCT11 :>K11BOTa, CBe 06ll11Ke cexyanapnnx noponnua (BPT11h, uncorry, rronose, omroce y pa,n;HoM oKpy:>Kelhy, y ,n;PYIlITBY ... ). CBe re oozraCT11cy naxere, a H11CY,n;o xpaja paspabene 113aTO je neonxonaa 03611lbaH pa,n; na csaxoj on OB11X06ll11Ka "nopo,n;11u;a", 113paBH11 craapana-ncor aacmrraisa, Y Klh11311je B11,n;lb11B rryT Mora ca3peBalha, Kp03 snarse CTBapallaQKOr BaCrr11Taisa, KOj11je MeH116110 aeonxonaa 11je,n;11H11 Moryh, a MOj11Mnocanaunsm Q11TaOU;11Ma11HTepeCaHTaH, all11 11Ba:>KaHy pa30TKp11BalhY Y3pOQH11Ka KOj11npaBe xaoc y lh11XOB11M :>K11BOT11Ma. M OH1111ja CMOcaapeaajyhx, y nocnemsnx necer ronxna, CXBaT11ll11 ,n;a cy Y3POQH11U;11 HallI11X MyKa, ayTOp11TapH11 Mo,n;em1, Ka3Ha 11Harpana, 11MeHHTelbH aa CBe 06llaCTH uaurer :>KHBOTa. -7-

auociuona IIa811a
AKO je311Ke qOBelmje 11anheocxe rOBOp11M, a Jby6aB11 HeMaM, onna caM xao 3BOHO xoje jeq11, 111111 K11MBall KOj113Beq11. M aKO 11M aM ,n;ap npopourrna 113HaM CBe rajne 11CBe aaaise 11aKO 11MaMCBYBepy ,n;a11rope npeveurraa, a Jby6aB11 HeMaM H1111ITa caa. M aKO pasnaa CBe 11Malhe csoje, 11aKO npenaa rezro csoje na ce cazcezce, a Jby6aB11 HeMaM, H1111ITaM11He KOP11CT11. Jbyfias ,n;yro rpmr, 6llarOTBOpHa je, Jby6aB He 3aB11,n;11.Jby6aB ce He ropna, He Ha,n;11Mace, He q11H1111ITO He rrp11CToj11,He Tpa:>K11 csoje, He pasnpazcyje o 3lly. ce, He M11Cll11

He pa,n;yje ce nenpasna, a pa,n;yje ce 11CT11HI1. CBe CHOC11,CBe sepyje, cBeMY ce nana, CBe Tprr11. Jby6aB H11Ka,n;He npecraje, ,n;OKhe npopourrna HeCTaT11, je311U;11he 3aMYKHYT11,3Halhe he npeCTaT11. Iep ,n;ell11M11qHO 3HaMO, 11,n;ell11M11qHO npopoxyjeac. A xana ,n;o~e caspureao, onna he npecrara IlITO je ,n;ell11M11QHO. Kan 6ejax nere, xao nere rosopax, xao nere M1111IlbaX,xao nere pa3M11urrsax, a xan caxr nocrao QOBeK, 0,n;6aU;110caxr IlITO je ,n;eT11lhCKO. J ep can B11,n;11MO xao y ornenany, y 3arOHeTK11, a onna hexro rnnre y mrue, can 3HaM ,n;ell11M11QHO, a oana hy n03HaT11 xao IlITO 611x rr03HaT. A can oCTaje Bepa, aana, lby6aB, OBOrpoje, arnr on lh11Xaajseha je lby6aB.

Cana, xana
roje

je

nourao

TpeHYTaK,

na

snaise

CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarea,

BaCm1Tana JIH

6e3 Ka3He H 6e3 Harpa~e,

H~e y CBeT, 36Hlba je HeBa)l(HO H

orrrepehyjyhe

rxaap"

aaaise y "OYKBapy" H3 1999, 6HJIO ~eJIHMH'IHO, na je -2005. ,Uem'lMH'IHO je 6HJIO, jep y BpeMeHY canxuxja
u;eJIHHy npoMeHa y nopo~HU;H H ~pylllTBy, HeBa)l(HO je lllTO nesenecernx HHje rO~HHa nsaneceror

Mopao HaCTan1 HOBH y MOjOj 3eMlbH, HHcaM xoje cy ce

rna carnenarn aery, ronrja

norabane
Tex-

sexa caspenena

jour rrpennaaana

rpaonnre

aesrazsa y TpaH3HU;HjH, na HH

Cpfiajy,

IiIi'lCaM MOrna carnenarn l~Ii'IU;Ii'IOHaJIHy nopomniy ,UaHac Bli'Illle HIi'IKOra He

KOlIHKO OBe TeXHOJIOlllKe Ii'I CBe OCTaJIe npoaeae pYllle H Tpa~Ii'IU;Ii'IOHaJIHO npyurrao, y u;elIIi'IHH.

mrrepecyje aaarse

na lIH je

61i'1lIO

61i'1THO lllTO

jour

HIi'ICaM HMalIa

WlbHO Ii'IcKycTBa y pa~y ca caBpeMeHoM nopO~Ii'IU;OM, HlIH, xana H aa KOjH Ha'IIi'IH 'I ycnena HayqHo na YTeMelbli'lM crsapanasxor

rrpE~rOBOP BJIA~ETE JEPOTVI1iA, rrCVIXVIJATPA VI AKA~EMVIKA

sacnararsa.

CBe je TO nOCTa-

nOTnYHO HeBa)f<HO 2010., xana cy ce KOHa'IHO cxnonxne ra Ca

CBe KOU;KIi'Iu;eM03ali'lKa

anaisa

Ii'I Mor 60raTor caxr

ncxycrea.

naxohoxr

csap"
raxxoj

on csera lllTO

npaxaariora npennore savarzsyje npH'Iy

npnjarezsa
caspeaeaoj para,

~a npe'IIi'ICTIi'IM "I10pO~Ii'I'IHIi'I caapeaeaoj Ii'I CTBa-

0 Tpa~HU;Ii'IOHalIHoj,

nOpO~HU;Ii'I. PAT ce BO~H y csaxoj rora

nOpO~HU;Ii'I, lllli'lpOM CBeTa. "nlIli'IlllaHe" sac-

peMe y KOMe )I(Ii'IBIi'IMO(nO'IeTaK je TO 21. sexa) 3aXTeBa on csaxor

O~ Hac TeMelb-

Hli'lje

npeacnaraaarse
Mli'Illllbelba aKTyelIHa.

csora

nyxoaao-rryureano-renecnor aaxcnna aa
TIi'IM npOllllIli'IM

)I(Ii'IBOTa.

Ilpaanna

Iba MH ~eMIi'ICTIi'IIi'IKOBaTIi'I Y3POKE me Mo~elIe. I1oTpe6Ho " BacnHTHH XOBe je yaeparn

ayTopli'lTapHe

noaaurarsa, HIi'ICy smue

Ii'I cyhersa, KaKBa cy MO)l(eMO

MHoro BeKOBa y npOllllIOCTIi'I,

BpeMeHIi'IMa )I(alIli'ITli'I, ~031i'1BaTIi'I

'IHTaOu;e, apryaearosano,

na cy "nlIli'Illla-

Ii'IX~a ce BpaTe 1i'I1IH ce npeMa lbli'lMa KPIi'lTIi'I'IKIi'I O~HOCIi'ITIi'I. Y rpaHIi'Iu;aMa OBaKBIi'IX pa3MIi'Illllbalba 0

MO~elIli'I, y3pO'IHHU;H MyKa caapesrenor orposmo

'IOBeKa, ~a je nocnenaua

npaxreae,

nacarse,

npoiunocra,

canaunsocrn

Ii'I6y~ynHo-

BIi'I~lbHBO na CBaKOM KopaKY, y u;elIOM CBeTY. lbeHIi'I 'IlIaHOBH, ocsoje

THOje ~a npaKTH'IHO nOKa)I(eM, KaKO ~a noponaua,

anarse

CTIi'I,He casro cpnCKor po~a, Ben Ii'IOHOr'IOBe'IaHCKOr, alIli'I npe csera cxor, ~O cKopa

sapanaxxor aacrnrraa,a, tseha na npHHU;li'Inli'lMa

KaKO ~a y1)y y npOCTope lby6aBIi'I, CTBapalIa'IKOr sacmrrarsa. Bepyjesr

Pa~OCTIi'I 1i'I,U06pOTe, na je "I10pO~Ii'I'IHH Ii'I CBeTY.

xpmuhaucxor,
je Moryne

mrran,e

noponmre,

nOpO~Ii'I'IHOr Ii'I3aje~HIi'I'IKOr

sanamroeaponaacmrrarsa, omroca
npeMa ~eu;1i'I

nOlIOBa y nopomnm - najcaspesreaaje nor pasnora

Ii'Ilbli'lXOBOr rrojemraavaor nrrrarse.

omroca

map", TeK y OBOM 061IIi'IKy

crrpexraa

na 6y~e

npencraszsea

3aWTO? J13 je~HOCTaBHOr, CBIi'IManpIi'lCTyna'I-

Ii'I cnenehax 'Ili'IlbeHIi'Iu;a: BpeMe xoje je rpajano BIi'IWe

l. Ilarpnjapxanao
sponcxoj H3MaKY je csora

xarsana

rO~Ii'IHa y aanannoena

U;Ii'IBIi'I1I1i'I3aU;li'Ijli'l Ii'I KylITyPIi'l (KOjOj HapaBHO Ii'I Cp61i'1 npananajy),

nocrojaisa.
YCTpojCTBa ~pywTBa Ii'IHapo~a, a y lbli'lMa

2. Jlarano necrajaise narpajapxamtor

nopomme,

~OBO~1i'I no KpynHHx, jow He~OBOlbHO aanazcenax, (nexan Ii'I iravepnpe caera y O~HOCy MywKapu;a Ii'I zceae, a OH~a Ii'I

HO nOTli'lcHYTIi'IX) npoMeHa, MY)l(a H cene y Kpyry

nopo~li'Iu;e.

3. TaK03BaHo - rpajahe 4.

npeJIa3HO BpeMe, y TOKY xora

rpetia

na ce 1i'1361i'1CTpe nOMeHYTIi'I nopomrue

O~HOCIi'I nOJIOBa, a OH~a na ce nOCTaBe ~pyK'1li'1jli'l TeMelbli'l 6y~yhe BeOMa nyro H WTa ca aacmrrarsea

I10CTaBlba ce O~JIyqHO rurraise: HOj nopomrua?

Y canaunsoj,

caBpeMe-

-8-

He MO)f(e ce onpehrr 'IMlbeHM~a zra je 0 MeTo,n;aMa aacmrras,a y caapesreaoj [OpO,n;M~M,y cBeTY M KOP; Hac, MHoro nncaao. J ep;HM ayTopM, MaXOM nenarosx, ICMxon03M, neKapM, CO~Mon03M, aHTponon03M, sanpacasajy ce na onpaB,n;aHOM PMTMKOBalbY KOH3epBaTMBHe CTpaHe narpnjapxanaor nacnararsa (A. Kapaa.ep), ,n;pyrM ayTopM narnauraaajy, raxohe onpasnaao. onny-ryjyh anaxaj sacnaalba nerera no naspurene nere ronaae )f(MBOTa nerera (Mapnja MOHTecopM), peha nMcU;M0 sacnaraisy, npennaxcy HOBe Ha'IMHe 60Jber M ycrreunnrjer 6yp;yer aacmrratsa y nopop;MU;M. Y OBe nocneruse rrncne cnana Mnama )f(eHa, Mamma HOBKoBMn, xoja je 3aBp-

lMna <I>MnonolllKM aKYJITeT y Beorpany, ynara, MajKa nsoje neue. Ibeaa, Ben aauje sarraacena KlbMra, "TIOpo,n;M'IHM6yKBap", aa nyTy je HOBMXM3,n;alba, na je aaj MOj Ilpenrosop npenopyKa aa 'IMTalbe M npMMelbMBalbe KOPMCHMX casera [MnMu;eHOBKOBMn. Y 'IeMY je rajna ycnexa OBe spenae KlbMre xojy mnue MMnMa HOBKOBMn? Mnznma HaM 0 ce6M xazce na je uenor csor )f(MBOTa"Tparana sa nYTeBMMa KOjM ),n;e,n;o,lJ;06poTe JtlJby6aBJtl y nopo,n;JtlU;Jtl, urxona JtlMet)y Jby,n;JtlMa". Inaaae npenpe~ua OBOM rryry, naur nacau Jtlnacmrras BJtl,n;Jtl y ner aYTOpJtlTapHJtlX BaCnJtlTHJtlX onena, a TO cy: npJtlHy,n;a, n03JtlTJtlBHO ycnosrsaaaa,e, npesaurrahaaarse, sepoa{3aM Jtlanoynorpetia JtlMJtlTaTOpCKor06JIJtlKa ysersa, nYTeM aeraraamrx cap;p)f(asapryenae Jtlaymrrnaae CTBapHOCTJtl,y najaehoj MepJtl. Ycneumo ce rpynehn na npJtlCTyna'IHJtlM MjacHMM CTMJIOMnajnpe rroxaxce M ncazce saurro cy nOMeHYTe ayropnrapae MeTop;e y BacnMTalbY norpeume Monae aa 6y,n;ynM paasoj nerera, Manana HOBKOBMnnpY)f(a Mo,n;ennpyrasnjer sacnaisa, y KOMe6M CTepeOTMnaH npMHU;Mn: xaaosaaaise Maarpahanaiee nerera, 6MO MelbeH, npemraxea y Mo,n;enCTpnJbMBOr pasyaesan,a Morijaunsasaa,a, onpanrra1M McnpaBJbalba ,n;e'IMjMxrpeuraxa, 6y,n;enM y nerery CTBAPAJIAqKO JE3rpO KOjMMCBaKOsnpaao nere ,n;OJIa3M na CBeT. Ollf'O] 3A CTBAPAJIAlliTBO non3YMeBa, npesra MMJIMU;MHOBKoBMn, cnenehe: caMoMHMU;MjaTMBY, caaoyserse, raise caMOCBeCTM y nerery, ycrrocranzsaise pasnoreace M3Met)y paU;MOHaJIHe M OQMOHanHe MHTeJIMreHU;Mje,neroaaise ypohene ,n;e'IMjepenMrM03HocTM ca ypoHOMnOTpe60M nerera aa pxryamoaa, oTKpMBalbe cKpMBeHMx ranenara, nOKpeDe yayrpaum,e MOTMBaU;MjeM paaanjaise cseyxynaor norenuajana, xoje nere HOCMpoheisea. ,lJ;onylbaBajynM csoja reopnjcxa paaxorunsaisa )f(MBMMM y6e,n;JbMBMMnpMMeMa M3 concrnene aacnnrae npaKce, MMlIMu;a HOBKOBMn nOCTM)f(e nOY3,n;aHMvcnex KOP; 'IMTaJIa~a McnylllalIa~a jep CBaKMon lbMX npMpo,n;HO Te)f(M,n;ay ce6M , CBOjOjOKOJIMHM nOMMpM pa~MOHanHO ca eMOTMBHMM,reopxjy ca npaKCOM.
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He CTaBJbaM na nocneznse MeCTOHM MMlIM'IMHy npMBp)f(eHOCT npaBocnaBHoM, cpncKoM xpaurhancrny, xoje 3anpaBo npO)f(MMa CBe lllTO je 6MTHO y )f(MBOTY,Y MMClIMMaM oceharsnraa, y OHaKBOM Mo,n;elIYsacmrraa,a KaKO ra sacryna MMlIMua HOBKOBMn. Onurroj 60p6M 3a eKOJIOlllKOcnacaaaise nnanere 3eMJbe, ca CBMMlbeHMM jour YBeK Ca'IYBaHMM nenorasra y npMpo,n;M, ceccpnno ce npnnpyacyje y "TIOPO,n;M'IHOM 6yKBapy" MMlIMu;a HOBKOBMn. lby60MMp HeHa,n;OBMn je jep;HoM p;aBHO nanacao p;a cy nse najrexce CTBapM na CBeTY: notipo ,n;p)f(aBOMynpaBJbaTM M noopo nere BacnMTaTM. AKO M caao perxe noponane rroxymaaajy p;a y npaKCM npMMeHe nposepeae, y OCHOBM 'IOBe'IHe casere MMlIMu;e HOBKOBMn y OBOM "TIOPO,n;WIHOM 6yKBapy", YBepeH caM ,n;a he xao 3HaMelbe apennjer nopo,n;M'IHOr aacnxrarsa 6MTM Moryn Mapenajn Ha'lMH sohen,a CBaKe ,n;p)f(aBe MCBeTa y u;elIMHM.

~11~

HOBM KOHu;eIIT BaCIIMTalba

"HOB- KOB
MJIM

Onroj aa CTBapaJIalliTBO

TBaparra'IKO aacmrrarse je eMOn;WoHarrHw yTWIJ;aj'IOBeKa aa 'IOBeKa, y p;Y)KeM BpeMeHcKOM nepwop;y, y Op;CYCTBY IlET ayTopWTaPHl1X BaCnJ1THJ1XMop;erra. Craapanaxxo sacmrrarse je eMOIJ;WOHanHw yTWIJ;aj'IOBeKa aa 'IOBeKa 6e3 ynorpetie 1. IlPJ1HY,1J;E, 5E3 KA3HE, xao cnozsaunser MOTJ1BaIJ;WOHOr cpencrsa. 5E3 HArPA,1J;E, xao cnozsaunser

2. 5E3 Il03J1TJ1BHOr YCJ10BlbABAlhA, MOTWBaIJ;WOHorcpencrsa.

3. 5E3 IlPE3AlllTJ1'RJ1BAlhA 'IOBeKa on pap;a, pep;a, )KWBOTaWV1cTwHe. 4. 5E3 BEP5AJ1J13MA, csojespcnor o6nwKa npwHyp;e, xana on 'IOBeKa Tpa)KJ1Te na 6yp;e 'IOBe'IaH y He'IOBe'IHWM, aYTOpJ1TapHWM ycnosaaa )KJ1BOTay KojwMa P;OMWHJ1pajy: KrraCW'IHa Wnmnuaxa npanyna. 5. 5E3 3J10YIlOTPE5E J1MJ1TATOPCKOr 05J1J1KA yqElhA, xoje je nanac najjase nYTeM BwpTyenHl1X Wayp;wTWBHWXHeraTWBHWX canpxcaja, Cmapana-rxo aacrnrran,e norraan on J1CTWHep;a je 'IOBeK 60)KaHCKO 6J1he xoje :e paha ca KrrWIJ;aMaIlotipore, lby6aBJ1, ca KnWIJ;aMa eMOIJ;J10HanHe, counjanae, rearanne Wzryxosae J1HTenWreHIJ;J1je, ca n03WTJ1BHWMrrorenuajanoa, ca norpeiasra xoje pasnajajy J1nyx WTerra, a CBe TO ce MO)Key IJ;errOCTW pearrJ130BaTW, casro . Op;CYCTBYaYTOpJ1TapHOCTW, y OP;CyCTBy ner cnozsaunsax BacnWTHWX Mop;erra. ;peMe ayropnrapnor nacrnrraa,a, xao p;pecype 'IOBeKa rrponaan. Bpesre WCTWHxor BAC-"IlJ1TAlhA", xpaisen,a nerera lby6aBlbY, nonasrr. II;J1Jb je OCTBapeH. 3aBplIleH je paasoj MaTepl1jarrHor, lIle3p;eCeTI1X rorraa p;Bap;eceTor nexa, y MaTepwjarrHo aajpaaaajeuajoj 3eMlbJ1 CBeTa, y CA,1J;-y,
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3aBpweTKOM I1Hp;YCTpl1jcKe 11 rrOCTI1Hp;YCTpl1jcKe, TeXHOrrOWKe pesonymrje. Y MaTepl1jarrHo aajoorarajea p;erry CBeTa rrOCTl1fHYTO je OHO WTO je 6110 11OCTao n;l1lb CBI1XHapop;a, caaxor 'IOBeKa. HeKO je Mopao 6l1Tl1 rrpBI1 y OCTBapefuY BeKOBnor CHa, CBI1XHaWI1X rrpep;aKa, KOjl1 cy caisarnr 11csoje CHOBe, TeWKI1M panoa, npemapamr y jasy. Ilanac rrOTOMn;I1,y TOM aajpaaanjenajea p;erry CBeTa, y*I1Bajy nnonose naaern WMYKOTprrHor pap;a, CBOjJ1Xrrpep;aKa. Ha)KarrOCT, ayTOpJ1TapHa, He'IOBe'IHa CBeCT J1XnpoWnaaac anoynorpetirsaaa orposma MaTepJ1jarrHa nocrarnyha WKOPWCTW TWB'IOBeKa, nnaaere, )KWBOTa, xao WTO je TO 'IJ1HWrra Kp03 BeKOBe. Pasaajeaasra je npexo rrorperian 6p3 p;YXOBHJ1paCT, MYfueBJ1Ta rpaaopopxauaja He'IOBe'IHe, aYTOpJ1TapHe y 'IOBe'IHY, craapanaxxy CBeCT, KaKO 6w J1CXapMOHW30Barrw MaTepwjanno U P;yXOBHO,Y MwrreHwjyMy KOjW)KWBWMO. IIlTa je ca nepasnajeaaaa J1rrwca OHWMaKOjWcy y pasnojy? OCTarrJ1 neo CBeTa, nepaanajeua, he yCBOjWTJ1 W Y)KJ1BaTWy p;ocTwrHyhwMa MaTepwjarrHo paasxjenor CBeTa, arnr npso Mopajy npoha, Kp03 Bprro 6orrHY, eKoHoMcKY J1jaw 60rrHJ1jy P;yXOBHy TpaH3Wn;J1jy. CBaKW CTaHOBHJ1Knnaaere 6w Mopao rrpoha, raxohe Kp03 6orrHY, P;yXOBHy rpaasauajy, p;a 6w nocrnrao 6rrarop;aT nyxonaor; )KWBOTa,KOjWhe 6WTWxapMOHW30BaH ca 6rrarOp;eTJ1Ma MaTepwjarrHor CBeTa. vb nenerra nonypaasajene WnOTnYHo aepaaanjeae, TeXHorrOWKe wHP;ycTpwje sexrarsa, HJ1hw he jenan TeXHorrOWKWWeKOHOMCKW paaanjeaa CBeT. nepaaaxjenax Taj CBeT he 6rrecHYTw y CBOj CBOjOj nenora, TeK nOWTO 6yp;e npennaarsen lby6asrsy, Panourhy J1 ,1J;06POTOM'IOBeKa, 'IOBeKa, KOjWhe XTeTJ1 W3HaTJ1 KaKO p;a pa3BJ1je xnxue lby6aBw, Panocra J1,1J;06poTe, ca KojwMa je nourao aa osaj CBeT. Ilpen HaMa je BpeMe nyxosnor yspacrarsa, jep je cpyweH ayTopWTaPHW CWCTeM. Ocrane cy HaM crryre aenocrojeher CWCTeMa (ner ayTOpJ1TapHWX, cnorsaunsnx BacnWTHWX Mop;erra), KOjJ1 cy nanac aajjaxa npenpeKa aa nyTy xapaoaasauaje p;YXOBHor W MaTepwjarrHor. )KWBOT he nOCTaTW ,,6ep3a" MaTepwjarrHwx Wp;YXOBHWXBpep;HOCTJ1, rrpoaasona zsyncxor nyxa KOjJ1jaxajy ,1J;06pOTy WJbytias, xana ce CBaKJ1'IOBeK nouaocoti, npBO y OKBWPYcsoje noponnue, BOlbHO 6yp;e onpexao ner "nrrWlIlaHWX" BacnWTHWX Mop;erra. ,1J;06pOTY WJbytias, xao spxyacxe, Be'IHe Bpep;HOCTW, 'IeKarrW CMO xarsanaMa ronmra. Kyuajy na BpaTa rropOp;J1n;e, 'IOBeKa rpeher MwrreHwjYMa. ,1J;a6J1 ce BpaTa OTBOpJ1rra 'IOBeK ce Mapa ocrr060p;WTJ1 rrer ayTopwTapHWX BaCnJ1THJ1X Mop;erra, crryry CWCTeMa KOjWanure He nocrojn. qOBeK he wx ce ocrr060p;WTJ1, jep cy TO nanac najja-re npenpeKe, aa nyTy p;YXOBHor paCTa, na nyTy pasaoja CBeCHOCTW.To he ce noronrrra jep ce, 6e3 pasnoja nyxa WBWCOKeCBeCHOCTWp;albe He MO)Ke. Marepajanao WP;YXOBHOhe ce ypaBHOTe)KWTW y CBaKOM on Hac, I1rrw Hac aehe 6WTW. ~13-

Op;CYCTBO rre r ayTopviTapHWX, CIIOThallItbWX, BaCIIWTHWX Mop;ena YCIIOCTaBTha eMOU;WOHanHY xapscomrjy, TaKO llITO ce WCKpWBTheHe, nacrrojene, sarnaarsene, IIOTWCHYTe esrouaje apahajy y csoje W3BOPHO,IIPWpOP;HOcraa.e, llITO p;03BOThaBacnotionan IIPOTOK 3allITWTHWXexonaja. EMO~HOHaJIHa xapsrorraja csnrpyje yM, xapssoaaayje ra. YM ce cnynrra y cp~e H rseroao npHpOp;HO CBOjCTBO nocraje ,ll;06poTa. Be3 norse 'IOBeKOBe, ,ll;06poTa ornapa npocrope Jby6aBH. Jby6aB H p;06pOTa nocrajy HajBebH npnjarersn pa3YMa, JberoBH "KOHTPOJIOPH". Pa3YM CTH'Ie CTBapaJIa'IKY CJI060p;y H nO'IHJbe p;a xpenpa y HHTepecy 'IOBeKa, y HHTepecy npnpone, YBeK H jennno H3 paBHH Jby6aBH H ,ll;06poTe, aa 60)KaHCKHM rrpHH~HrrHMa. CBeCHOCT H p;YXOBHOCT yspacrajy, MHJIeHHjYMa. To je rryT 'IOBeKa Tpeber

O~ TPA~M:UMOHAJIHE, ~EJIMMMqHO AYTOPMTAPHE,

Bnhe H Tpeber MHJIeHHjYMa H 'IOBeKa y lbeMY, 'IOBeKa KOjH be OrrJIeMeHHTH CBe xera ce TaKHe.
IIyTeBH KOjH none y p;YXOBHHpaCT cy 6pOjHH. CTBapaJIa'IKO nacmrraa,e je jenan on rryresa KOjH je HaMelbeH 'IOBeKY KOjH ce onpenenn p;a Kp03 rropop;H~y ycneunto rpancdiopaaure ayropnrapay, He'IOBe'IHY, y CTBapaJIa'IKY, qOBe'IHY CBeCT.

TIPEKO CABPEMEHE, TIOTTIYHO AYTOPMTAPHE, ~O CTBAPAJIAqKE, qOBEqHE TIOPO~M:UE, TIOPO~M:UE 3A TPEliM MMJIEHMJYM

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ITJIAHETA hE 3ACJ1JATJ1 ITYHJ1M CJAJEM

B
je

eKOBY1Maje lIOpOAY1u;a peJIaTY1BHOlIaKO, onrajana

rrOTOMKe jep cy y MY1PHOcasro ABa, OA MorynY1X ner

AOrrCKY1M YClIOBY1Ma6Y1lIa BY1AH~ynorpefizsaaana

ayTOpY1TapHY1XBaCrrY1THY1X MOAelIa. Onofipasaaa

6Y1lIO Y1lIY1 HaA

je KlIaCY1qHa, pealIHa Ka3Ha, rrte

HopMalIHO yrroTpe6Y1TY1 Y1qm3Y1qKO Y1Bep6alIHO nacxzse HaA AeTeTOM, QlIaHOM rrOpOAY1u;eKOjY1HY1je 6Y10 na BpXy rrOpOAY1QHerrY1paMY1Ae.YHaAPYlliTBO rora

rrpeA je CBaKY1QlIaH rrOpOAY1u;esnao jacaa rrpaBY1lIa, xoja cy ce MopalIa nourroaaTY1,a xoja cy 6Y1lIaYBeK y CKlIaAY ca rrpaBY1lIY1Maxoja je nocraszsano apeveaa.

Ilaxne, nOpOAY1u;aje 6Y1lIa nOTnYHO y CKlIaAY ca ApYlliTBeHY1M, nY1CaHY1M

Y1HerrY1CaHY1M rrpaBY1JIY1Ma,ca U;Y1lbeMna Y1caxa 6YAe QyBap Tor CY1CTeMa, QyBap KJIaCHOr ApYlliTBa.

Ilaxne, aKO je TpaAY1U;Y10HalIHa noponxua

MY1lIOM,

JIerrOM pesjy

Y1lIY1 CY1lIOM,

6aTY1HOM,Ka3HOM, Bep6alIHOM npY1HYAOM, nOCTY13alIa rrOClIYIIIHOCT Y1rrourrosalbe ApYlliTBeHY1X, rrY1CaHY1X Y1HenY1CaHY1X npaaana, ayroparapna. narpana, OHAa je OHa 6Y1lIa AelIY1MJ1liHO Y1MY1TaTOpCKor06lIY1.

AKO je OA MorynY1X nET ayTOpY1TapHY1X BaCnY1THY1X MOAelIa (Ka3Ha,

npe3aIIITY1nY1Balbe, Bep6alIY13aM Y1anoynorpeoa

xa y-reisa), TpaAY1U;Y10HalIHarrOpOAY1u;aKOpY1CTY1lIa casto ABa, (KlIaCY1QHYKa3HY Y1 Bep6aJIY13aM, xao lIerry pex), onna je jacno Aa je OHa 6Y1lIa, Malbe aYTOpY1TapHa OA caapesieae noponaue, jep caBpeMeHa KOPY1CTY1 CBY1X ner ayTOpY1TapHY1XBaCnY1TnpY1HYAa 3aKOHY1XMOAelIa, 30BY1MOY1X"rrlIY1IllaHY1", jep cy 6aTY1Ha Y1sepoanna

HOM aaopaieena. J1 rropeA satipaxe qm3Y1QKOY1Bep6alIHO aacarse cy npY1cyTHY1 BY1Ille Hero Y1KaAa. TpaAY1U;Y10HalIHarropoAHu;a je naxure crrpOBOAHJIa y rrpaKcH OHO IIITO je 6Y1lIa aauprana, noponmry xao MorynH BacrrHTHH U;Hlb. DHJIa je snpaaxja, y 0AHOCY na caBpeMeHY H 3aTO je H lby6aBH H notipore, na THMe II! craapanaurrna 6HJIO AaJIeKO - 17-

ure. I1pMjeMqMBOCT

aa aexae

Bpe,IWOCTM, 6MJIa je MHOrO

jaxa

M xenrha nero KOP;

3aKOHOM yKMHyTM 6aTMHY, a TO ce p;OrOp;MJIO y BMHM naaneceror

paaaajeirosr

CBeTY, y npyroj

rrOJIO-

sexa caspeaeaor p;o6a. Ila JIMje 6MJIO rrarrse? HapaBHO

rraise xao rroxymaj iTM ce xana

sexa,

3HaqMJIO je pYIlleI-be cnozsaunse,

rrMpaMMp;aJIHe opraHM3a-

p;a ce rraTMJIO. fp;e

ron

je

npecypa, rne ron je

BaC-

nnje )KMBOTa xoja ce Op;p)KaBana 6aTMHOM M CTpaXOM on 6aTMHe.

qOBeK je M3ry6Mo CTpax on p;pyror

na ce HeKO HaTepa na rrOCJIYIllHOCT 6aTMHoM, Ty je M narrsa.

qOBeKOBa, cnorsa, ayTopMTapHO. KpMBJbeI-be CBMX M3BOPHMX eMOD;M-

xosexa,

xana je 6aTMHa 3aKOHOM satiparseaa.

6MJIO rrpMKpMBaHO y KPMJIy

ron ce Melba M3BopHa npapona

Ha noapurmry

)KMBOTa je M3MIllJIO CBe IllTO je P;O rana

iTMJIO ce, aJIM MaI-be Hero nanac, jep je nanac

Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHe

noponaue

M Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHOr p;pyIllTBa.

AyTopMTapHM

CMCTeM

rrpMCYTHO, P;OK je y Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHoj KpMBJbeI-be 6MJIO p;eJIMMMqHO. I1oCJIep;MD;e aYTopMTapHOCTM cy ce CKpMBaJIe, y p;06a Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHe rropo-

ID;e. CBe IllTO P;PYIllTBO HMje p;03BOJbaBaJIO p;a MCrrJIMBa , p;a ce MaHM<pecTyje :BMjaD;Mje,

na

rrOBpIllMHY

)KMBO-

xao rrp06JIeM,

TO HMje .HM nocrojano.

Y CTBapM, MHore

xoje naaac CJI060P;HO rtnnaajy na rrJIOqM )KMBOTa, nocrojane cy, aJIM , 6MJIe cxpasane y Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHoj rropop;MD;M. bMJIO je rraronornje, HaCMJba, ilOD;MOHaJIHMX, <PM3MqKMX M MeHTaJIHMX 60JIeCTM, JIelbOCTM, oryhenocrn, aJIM ~y OBOJIMKOj MepM y KOJIMKOj MX MMa nanac. Ilanac ce OCJI060~eHO 3JIO orsope:) MaHM<peCTyje, rra TMMe M YMHO)KaBa, jep HeMa CTpaxa

cncreaa, nnauraaa Ka3Ha M narpana. Cnyre cy ce onpzcane M nanac rrpaBe xaoc na rrJIaHeTM, yaoce CTpax y CBaKY neJIMjy qOBeKOBY. Crpax Y3paCTa, KJIMD;eJby6aBM, Pap;OCTM M ,U06pOTe ce He pasaajajy. CBe TO rpaje rrpep;yro, smne on nona sexa, IllTO CTBapa p;op;aTHM crpax. qOBeK ce YMOPMO, jep rrpenyro srexa npoveae, a rrpOMeHa nehe 6MTM p;OK cnyre cpywenor CMCTeMa nocroje.
ce YPYWMO, aJIM cy OCTaJIe rrpeOCTaJIe cnyre Ilano JIa nojaxana aYTopMTapHor CMCTeMa, a OCTaHKOM I-berOBMX CJIyry, JIOrMqHO je rrpeTMorraCHOCT on cYK06a Me~y lbyp;MMa. Jep;HMcy 6MJIM HOCMOD;M Tpap;MD;M-

ozt

6aTMHe. HaCMJba M P;pyIllTBy MMa nane-

OHaJIHMX Bpep;HOCTM M HOPMM, a p;pyrM cy M3MIllJIM KOHaqHO na CBeTJIOCT nana, ca CBMM rrpMKpMBaHMM MYKaMa M rrp06JIeMMMa, xoje HMje npnaaaaana Tpap;MD;MOHalI-

sera OKO HaCMJba, y caapeveaoj

) smue Hero pamrje,

rroponnua,

My

caapereenov

y Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHoj. HarreTOCTM, xao rrOCJIep;MD;e ayTopMTap-

aa

CBeCT, MaKO je CBe TO nocrojano,

yHyTap

rropop;MD;e. I1aMeTHM lbYP;M cyxotie

pasaajenor

OCTM,je 6MJIO MaI-be, rra je M norpetie (.1JIO MaI-be, Hero nanac.

aa rrpa)KI-beI-beM

CBeTa cy rrOKYIllaBaJIM p;a npenynpene

Moryhe

TaKO IllTO cy YBeJIM "TolIe-

HarreTOCTM, rrYTeM HaCMJba,

paauxjy"

xao rryT na ce nourryjy

pa3JIMqMTOCTM, xoje cy CBaKMM p;aHoM 6MBaJIe CHary M HOBaD;

CBe BMp;lbMBMje. je naaana P;pyIllTBy nane-

Y3 TOJIepaHD;Mjy pa3BMjeHM cy TPOIllMJIM orpoMHy

Jep;HOMopaMO rrpM3HaTM: Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHa noponaua

p;a ce HOBorrOCTaBJbeHa npana Y3 HerrpeCTaHo

xoaexa,

xcene M rrerera

ncnourryjy.

60lbe

M nocnyumaje

rpabaae,

MaI-be HaCMJIHe, Hero IllTO TO rrOJIa3M aa PYKOM y qMI-beHMD;M

anenosan,e

M noncehan,e

aa

norpetiy

ronepaaunje rpaje

M nourro6aTMHY,

aapesreaoj
l

rropop;MD;M. Y3pOK TOMe JIe)KM yrrpaBo

na caapenena

sarsa lbYP;CKMX rrpaBa, HACJ.1JbA je 6Mno

ys

ysoherse

p;eMoKpaTMje, y3 3aKOHOM sariparseny M amne. Hacarse

opop;MD;a KOPMCTM I1ET rrJIMIllaHMX BacrrMTHMX MOp;eJIa, a xao rrOCJIep;MD;yP;06MHaCMJIHOr xosexa KOjM MaHM<pecTyje nacnrse Hap; C060M, P;pyrMM qOBeKOM, Hap;

M 6MBa CBe amue

M y3paCTa smue

on

nona sexa, Orxyna

Ma

a cana ce M YMHO)KaBa jep je

ueo

CBeT y MaTepMjalIHoj rrmnnaae

M P;YXOBHOj TpaH-

PYIllTBOM M rrpMpop;OM.

3MD;MjM, aJIM na rrpMHD;MrrMMa aYTopMTapHe, rrJIaHY MCTopMje, 're je P;OIllJIO no y caBpeMeHY,

p;o

p;eMoKpaTMje. rropop;MD;M,

Illra

ce p;OrOp;MJIO,

na

rpancrpopaauaje
CMO jaoyxy),

Tpa-

TonMKO nacnzsa?

caaxoj

3eMJbM, y

csaxoj

na

CBaKOM

,MD;MOHaJIHe noponnne uaaynpanyny! ~pyre rrOJIOBMHe [MCTe rexaonor-aje,

saopane

6aTMHe M rrpeJIaCKa na "rrJIM(rrojernr rrOqeTKOM

MeCTY y P;pyWTBy M npaponn

aacarse

CBMX 06JIMKa 6yja. CBM ce 6aBe rrocneznrna-

MaTepMjaJIHM

paCT je 3aBpweH,

nsaneceror

nexa, J.1HP;yCTpMjCKy peBOJIYD;Mjy je CMeHMJIa epa

p;a ce qOBeK yrI-be-

epa qMrra. I1pMpOP;HO je rrpecTaJIa rrorpefia

-ana 6aTMHoM, CypOBMM <PM3MqKMM Ka)KI-baBaI-bMMa, He 6M JIM ce narnao Iexaonourxa

peBOJIYD;Mja je KOHaqHO

na pap;.

Baseha ce HacMlbeM, M I-berOBMM CMaI-bMBanocnennue nexenax rrOCJIep;MD;a.KOHaqHO je nourno BpeMe na ce qOBeqaHCTBO rr03a6aBM yspouaaa xacazsa M xaoca KOjM rpajy, p;a npecraHe na ce jaJIOBO 6aBM rrOCJIep;MD;aMa.Y3POQJ.1 nacazsa y caapeveaoj noponaux M
p;OHOCM "rrJIMWaHa"rrpMHyp;a.

xoje

I-beM, craapajy

ce HOBe

oxroryhana

qOBeKY p;a Y)KMBa y rrJIOp;OBMMa

caBpeMeHOM P;PYIllTBY, y D;eJIMHM,cy "rrJIMWaHM" BacrrMTHM Mop;elIM KOjM cy JIeraJIHO YWJIM Y ynorpetiy, "I1JIMWaHO"

.sora pana M BeKOBHor sanararsa CBOjMx rrpep;aKa. CTBopeHM cy YCJIOBMaa p;YXOBm pacr, aa pacr CBeCHOCTM, sa 6pYIlleI-be yHyTpaIllI-ber p;MjaMaHTa. CBe je 6MJIO cnpexrao, a MrraK ce noronxo xaoc. YMecTo y p;YXOBHOCT M CBe:HOCT caspesrerra qOBeK je yrrJIOBMO y MaTepMjaJIHO, y xenoaasaa, y aecsecnocr, cnorsaunse, y aacnzse.
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aacrrrrraise

xao aasieaa aa <PM3MqKOM Bep6aJIHO aaciose, Hap; qOBeKOM. je nonyheno y 3aMeHY aa peaJIHy rrpMHyp;y M ca irenesepyjyha p;a je
M Harpap;y, a OHa

pOBaTHOM JIaKOnOM je CBaKM qOBeK rrpMXBaTMO OBY "rrpoMeHy",

pex

0 rrpOMeHM. Y CTBapM, HeMa HMKaKBe

nposcene. Ila

je TaKO,

norapbyje naxoha

ca KOjOM je

ayropxrapaa

CBeCT rrpMXBaTMJIa "rrJI(.1llIaHY"Ka3HY

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npl1XBaTa CaMO OHO lllTO je l1CTO, OgHOCHO lbOj CJIl1lJHO,OgHOCHO aYTOpl1TapHO. AYTOpl1TapHa CBeCTHe MO)Kece6l1 rrOTI1l1CaTl1CMPTHYrrpecygy TaKO lllTO he og6a~l1Tl1 ayTOpl1TapHe BaCIIl1THe MogeJIe. YKl1gajyhl1lbl1X, OHa yKl1ga caMY ce6e l1 3aTO he rrpou;ec rpancrpopraauaje aYTOpl1TapHe, HelJOBelJHe, y CTBapaJIalJKY, lJOBelJHY CBeCTrpajarn BpJIO gyro. Y OBOMrrpeJIa3HOM nepaony rpaaanuaje rryxa Ba)KHOje Ca3HaTl1 KOjl1cy y3pOU;l1aacarsa, pa3YMeTl1 l1 OCeTl1Tl1 norpetiy ga ce OHl1 yKl1Hy, og6au;e, xao aeurro npeaasnbeao, jep croje aa rryTy Y3,lJ;l13albanyxa l1 CBeCTl1. AYTOpl1TapHOCT nxxana jaxa. Kao rroczreznnry g06l1jaMo l1CKpl1BlbeHO l13BOpHO lbygCKO 6l1he xoje, CBe l1,lJ;axohe, He MO)Ke,lJ;a6yge TOJIepaHTHO, Hl1Tl1MO)Ke,lJ;a nourryje ce6e Hl1 npyro lbY,lJ;CKO 6Mhe, Hl1Tl1MO)KeBOlbHO, 6e3 Ka3He l1 narpane na nourryje npasa lJOBeKa, ceae l1 nerera. MO)Ke, aJIl1 jenano Cl1JIOM,je,lJ;l1HOcnozsa, narpabaaan.ev l1JIl1 xaxosaaarsea, ogY3l1MalbeM otiehaae narpane jep ce sanarax aaje 06aBl10. CBe TO ,lJ;O,lJ;aTHO ysehana aYTOpl1TapHOCT l1l13 3alJapaHOr Kpyra ce reurxo l13JIa3l1. A y TOM sasapanosr xpyry, rrOXJIerrHl1X,arpecxsnax, JIelbl1X TeJIOMl1,lJ;YXOM, 3aBl1,lJ;Hl1X, oryheaax, 6JIygHl1X, Hl1KO ce He Mallla aa notipo, aa neno, sa l1CTl1Hy, aa lby6aB, sa yHyTpallllbe. He Mallla ce jep y,lJ;YXOBHOj pasna ClIl1lJHOrrpl1BlIalJl1 ClIl1lJHO,a caspeaeaa lJOBeK, )KpTBa Ka3He l1 Harpa,lJ;e nocraje arpecasan, noxnenaa, lIelb, HeCBeCTaH, sasrmaa, oryhen ,lJ;YXOM on ce6e, ,lJ;pyror lJOBeKa l1 npnpone. TaKaB lJOBeK he ca nnose )Kl1BOTa, aa KOjOj rrzrasa CBOnotipo l1 CBO 3lIO CBeTa YBeK rrocefHYTl1 aa 3JIOM, jep OHO sanonorsana iserose ncxpaan.ene rrorpetie. ,1J;alIl1 ce MO)Ke l13 osor sasapaaor xpyrai Hapasao ga MO)Ke, ana CBe l1Ma CBOj penocnen xopaxa ITa l1l13lIa3aK l13 aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1. Heaoryhe je y l1CTOMMOMeHTy yKl1UyTl1 Ka3HY l1 Harpagy l1 na npyurraenosr l1 na rrOpO,lJ;l1lJHOM Hl1BOy. Hacrao 611 ornnrn xaoc. Tpe6a KpeHyTl1 0,lJ;noponaue, npavapae l1 cexyanapae (nopo,lJ;l1u;a,aprxh, urxona). Ilonaxo he ce lJOBelJHa CBeCT llIl1pl1Tl1 Y pagHoM oxpyacelby, y gpylllTBy, xao u;elIl1Hl1. Hacarse he ce CMalbl1BaTl1 caao on ce6e, TaKO ,lJ;a611 Ka3Ha l1 narpana xojy 611 saxoaonaaau sanpscao 6l1lIa naxreisena HeCBeCHl1Ma. Y CKOPOj6ygyhHOCTl1 HeCBeCHl1 l1 HaCl1lIHl1he 6l1Tl1 y xareropajn 60JIeCHl1X TaKO ga je rnrrarse ga lIl1 he l1M MeCTO 6l1Tl1 y 60JIHl1u;aMa, y 3,lJ;paBl1Mrropogl1u;aMa l1lIl1 y 3aTBOpl1Ma. Hehexso l1Xxaaosasara n narpahnsara seh hesro l1McTBapaTl1 lJOBelJHe YClIOBe KaKO 611 ce sparxna CBOMl13BOPHOM6l1hy. BpeMe CTBAPAJIA qKE, lJOBelJHe rropogl1u;e nonasx. ,1J;OJIa3l1 BpeMe y KojeM he CBl1 nanm OgHOCl1 6l1Tl1 YTeMelbeHl1 na Jhy6aBl1 l1 ,1J;06pOTl1. KOJIl1KOhe rpajarn TpaHcOpMaU;l1ja ayropirrapae, HelJOBelJHe y cTBapalIalJKY lJOBelJHY nopornnry l1 na lIl1 he CBaKl1 nojeznrnau gO)Kl1BeTl1 osaj npeotipazcaj, 0 TOMe Hl1KOHe MO)Kena na Cl1rypny rrporH03y. J enno je jacno na cy Y3POU;l1,nperrpexe gYXOBHOM pacTy
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geTeKTOBaHl1. KOjOM 6P3l1HOM he OBYl1CTl1HYrrpl1XBaTl1Tl1 CBeT, CBaKaKO 3aBl1Cl1 on rrOJIl1Tl1lJKeCBeCTl1KOjOj ogroBapa, l1JIl1He onrosapa TpaHCOpMaU;l1ja lbygcKe l1Hgl1Bl1gyaJIHe CBeCTl1,a Tl1Me l1TpaHCOpMaU;l1ja aYTOpl1TapHe, septianae geMoKpaTl1je y CTBapaJIalJKY, pagHy. CBe Ml1ce amue lJl1Hl1ga YCKOPOnehe 6l1Tl1 6l1TH"aHl1 aYTOpl1TapHa CBeCTnonaTl1lJKl1XCTpyKTypa J1 EOrATJ1X ITOJE,1J;J1HAIJ;A, KOJJ1 ,1J;AHAC KPEJ1PAJY CBET, jep he CBeCT nojenxaaua HapaCTaTl1 BelIl1KOM 6P3l1HOM, re he KBaHTl1TeT na npepacra y KBalIl1TeT, rrocne xera Hl1KO Bl1llle nehe Mohl1, onosro, narepecao HaMehe pelllelba xoja cy rrpOTl1B lJOBeKa, rrpl1po,lJ;e l1 )Kl1BOTa. 3a cana HaM npeocraje ga llll1pl1MO snarse CTBapalIalJKOr sacmrrarsa y 6a3l1, y CBaKOMKyTKy nnanere, KaKO 611ce 6poj CTBapalIalJKl1X lIl1lJHOCTl1l1 crsapana-norx noponmta yaehasao. CaMO he KBaHTl1TeT l13Hegpl1Tl1 KBalIl1TeT. CaMO KOMYHl1KaU;l1jOM6e3 YMeTalba Ka3He l1 uerpane, Me~y lby,lJ;l1Ma,Cl1ryPHO l1geMo xa U;l1lby, xa BpeMeHY Jbytiasa, ,1J;06poTe l1 )Kl1BOTarrperryHor Pa,lJ;OCTl1, xa BpeMeHY y KojeM he lJOBeK yHyTap ce6e nonahx caBpllleHy, ,lJ;BOCTpyKynl1paMl1,lJ;y.3acl1jahe ,lJ;l1jaMaHT. ,1J;l1jaMaHTl1,J1KoHe EO)Kl1je he ureraru rrrraneroxt. ITlIaHeTa he sacajarn rryHl1M cjajea l1lIerrOTOM, jep he qOBeK l1 nnanera 6l1Tl1 KOHalJHOy XapMOHl1jl1.

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II

AYTOPMTAPHMBACTIMTHM MO)l:EJIM M lhMXOBE TIOCJIE)l:MUE

YBO,IJ;

OpO~~IlW nanac qHHe: MaMa, rara, 6paha, cecrpe. 6a6e, ~e~e xao H TB, BH~eo, xovrrjyrep, Mo6HJlHH H HHTepHeT, amr rroponmnr rrpHrra~a H CBaKH qOBeK KOjHBpum CHa)KaH eMO~HOHaJlHH yrnuaj na nere, y ~y)KeM BpeMeHCKOMrrepHo~y, paHor ~eTHfuCTBa. Ilerery rropo~H~y He MO)Keycneumo 3aMeHHTH HH jenaa ~pyurrseaa HHCTHTy~Hja HJlH KOMYHa,sa urra ce MHorH nanac 3aJla)KY. Iloponnua he rpajarn. ~OK rpaje rropO~H~a, 6Hhe soaexa, ~OK je xosexa 6Hhe CBeTa. AyTopHTapHH CHCTeMje pohen y noponnua, H3 xoje je MeTaCTa3Hpao y CBe nenose ~pyillTBa. ~aHac je yrpO)KeH caM orrcraaax rroponnue, fueHHX xnaaosa rra H npyurrsa y ~eJlHHH. Iloponaua HHCTHHKTHBHOoceha ~a fueH xpaj 3HaqH H xpaj 'IOBeKa na nnaaern. Oryna sanaj, mrratsa H rrOTpara aa KpHB~eM. Iloponaua nana3H KpHB~a y ~pyIllTBy, Y fuerOBHM HHcTHTy~HjaMa. He MO)Kena CXBaTHna je OHa crapaja O~ CBaKe npyurrneae HHCTHTy~Hje, ~a je OHa ponxna, onrsyzsana, onrajana, npanpevana H aa xpajy, rrocnana csoja 'Ie~a, ~a xpenpajy ~pyillTBO, rro CBOjOjMepH. KaKO noponxua rroceje, TaKO H rrozose. Ilornenaao nH ~pyillTBO, CBeT, He MO)KeMO ce rrOXBanHTH ~a CMO ra ype~HJlH no MepH Hosexa. Macro je CTpaxa, 6eca, rroxnerre, 3aBHCTH, rraKOCTH, oceharsa KpHBH~e, HaCHJba, 60neCTH, saraheae rrpHpone, a Jby6aBH, notipore, rrCHxO-H3HqKOr 3~paBJba, crnapana-nce HHTeJlHreH~Hje HMa caao y TparOBHMa. PO~HTeJbH sepyjy na je uncona KpHBa aa rraTfuY fuHXOBor nerera. Hajel BH CTe, nparn pO~HTeJbH, O~HerOBaJlH yse, npodiecope, nenarore, Bepyjere ~a cy paTOBH KpHBH sa saura cTpagafua. He! BeJlHKe sojcxosohe cy O~JbyJbaHe y ayTopHTapHHM rropo~H~aMa. Y panov nermscrsy, nyro cy Be)K6aJlH MaJle nopornome paToBe, a OH~a npeumx y ocaajarse CBeTa. TBp~HTe ~a cy rrOJlHTH'IapH KpHBH 3a BaillY MaTepHjanHy 6e~y, sa aecpeheno craise y ~pyIllTBy, sa MOpaJlHY KPH3Y. He! Kaxcere ~a cy rroxnernra, CBe yseure aa ce6e, a BaMa OCTaBHIlle MpBHl~e. 3a6opaBHnH CTe ~a je xopea noxnene y fuHMa aacrao onor TpeHyTKa xana cy HX porurrezsa novena
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rcnoszsaaarn .e, noxrrena

na nojeny OHO llITO He BOlle, Hy,[(etm: J1M tuapeay lIa)f(y.

6yja y lbJ1Ma, HapaCTa, rpaxceha YBeK sehe aa "Malbe".

0,[(

rana, snajxaapn HaM

BellITJ13a6aBHJ1 J1

KOjJ1BaM oTBapa HOBJ1KOHu;enT sacrnrrarsa, onroj aa cTBapalIalliTBo, BaCnJ1Tarse 6e3 Ka3He J1 Harpa,[(e, 6e3 nlIJ1111aHe J1 6J11I0 xoje ,[(pyre npJ1Hy,[(e.

Ila 1IJ1noopo qyjeM? "KpJ1Ba je TelIeBJ13J1ja, jep Hy,[(J1llIyH,[( l1 aacmse,

teuy!" 3a60paBJ1CTe ~aMa, Bauaxa, PJ1lIMCKJ1nporpaa na 6allI Balli CJ1H, xojer CTe nnaurana Batia-porawa, ypehyje ,[(YXOBJ1Ma,MOpalIHJ1M J1 CPJ13J1qKJ1M naxaaasra,

na TelIeBJ13J1jJ1, 6J1pa cpJ1lIMOBeCTpaBe J1yxcaca, a HeKJ1MHOBJ1M, llIJ1llIaHJ1M KlIl1HU;J1MaHy,[(J1 najrope Moryhe u;pTaHe cpJ1lIMOBe, nocrre KOjJ1Xaaure rere MO)f(e 6J1TJ1 casro MOHCTPYM, J11IJ1neurro jour rope. 3a Balli paK, lIeYKeMJ1jy, KpJ1BJ1Te saraheny npJ1po,[(y. IlpeBJ1,[(elIJ1 cre na je HeqJ1e nere, nanac onpacrao qOBeK, npocyllo nadrry y Mope, 6aU;J11I0 pa,[(J10aKTJ1BHY )OM6y, nYCTJ1lIO BJ1pyC J13 natioparopaje J1 ClIJ1QHO. Mopare ce CYOqJ1TJ1ca J1CTJ1fOM na nopomrua HJ1je sorrerra OBO nere, nere He MO)Ke na BOlIJ1 ce6e, 3aUITO 6J1
101IelIO npJ1po,[(y J13alllTO 6J1 6PJ1HYlIO 0 aauresr 3,[(paBJby. IlpJ1MepJ1Ma HeM a xpaja, OJ1lIJ1 cy MalIJ1: HJ1KOlIa Teena, Iberour, lanej, Anexcaanap )11, notipe xoxmnrje, :BeT rpajao. BOlIelIJ1 6J1 CTe CBeT 6e3 para, 6e3 npore, 6e3 TelllKJ1X 601IeCTJ1, 6e3 rnarnr, racarsa]! reurro: IlpJ1rplIJ1Te same nere xoje cnca npcr, YMecTo lllTO ra rpmrre, ynapare J11IJ1 nO,[(MJ1hyjeTe. Baine nere je saura nOCJIe,[(J1u;a, rrocnenaua nJ1THJ1X Mo,[(ella. 3aXBalIJ1Te ce MajU;J1 J1 cynpy3J1 OnpOCTJ1Te saureer cynpyry na ,[(J1BHOMpyqKy. lIeny nesojxy, MlIa,[(oCTJ1. nenore J1 csoje aYTopJ1TapHJ1X nac6e3 ,Ua 1IJ1 here CTBOPJ1TJ1TaKaB CBeT 3aBJ1CJ1 0,[( nac, Osor rpeaa yqJ1HJ1Te <DlIeMJ1Hr, Ilerap JOBaH QBJ1jJ1h, JOCJ1CPIlaHQJ1h, OTaU; CaBJ1h, MHOrJ1 ,[(06pJ1 nexapn,

Mopaao ,[(eMJ1CTJ1cpJ1KOBaTJ1 BaCnJ1THe Mo,[(elle aa KojJ1Ma je nOQJ1BalIa Tpa,[(J1U;J1oHalIHa noponaua J1 nocnenaue xoje cy OHJ1OCTaBJ1lIJ1na pasnoj QOBeKa, noponnue J1P;PYlllTBa Y u;elIJ1HJ1. To je BplIO Ba)KHO jep cy caBpeMeHJ1 pO,[(J1TeJbJ1 onrajaan aa pealIHoj Ka3HJ1, na cTpaxy 0,[(6aTJ1He, na cTpaxy 0,[( sepoannor J1CPJ13J1QKOr xaxosaBalba J1 na Bpe,[(HocHoM CJ1CTeMYcaora ,[(06a, na jaCHJ1M npaBJ1lIJ1Ma urra je notipo,
a UITa He, urra ce CMe a urra He CMe. Ilanac cy MlIa,[(J1pO,[(J1TeJbJ1,alIJ1 J1 6aKe J1nexe, CBep;0U;J1OrpOMHJ1X npOMeHa, 36YlbeHJ1 J1necpehnn, KaKBe He naMTJ1 noponaua ,[(a cy nnmnamt, Kp03 J1CTOPJ1jy. CBJ1 cy jep He npenosuajy Y3POQHJ1U;J1lbJ1XOBJ1X npoCaCBJ1M

61IeMa. O'[(paClIJ1 cy 36YlbeHJ1 J1 aecpehan,

xcane sa npOllllIl1M BpeMeHJ1Ma. Caspe-

MeHa neua MJ1ClIe,[(a je )KJ1BOTO,[(YBeK6J10 aysja jaMa J1,[(aje lbJ1XOBa rrarisa

,[(06pJ1 JbY,[(J1.Ha cpehy qOBeqaHCTBa,

lbJ1X HJ1je ycrreo

nporpecona

npaponna. Ibrrarse je na 1IJ1neua, no onsajarsy 0,[( csor J13BOpHOr 6J1ha yonnrre J1 MJ1ClIe,[(a nare J11IJ1 naTlbY npnxaarajy xao HeMJ1HOBHOCT,xao CBOjy ,[(pyry npJ1po,[(y y KOjOj nOQJ1lbY naTOlIOlllKJ1 na Y)KJ1Bajy. J1 je,[(HJ1 J1 ,[(pyrJ1 nOQJ1lbY ,[(a sepyjy ,[(a je
OBO HeMJ1HOBHOCT na xojy He MO)KeMO YTJ1u;aTJ1. HJ1KO He carnenasa npenasna HJ1Ke xaoca Caspesreaa KOjJ1 )KJ1BJ1MOJ1 nOlIaKO ce MJ1pe ca MoryhoM OBO ,[(06a xao y3POQnepJ1o,[(, xa ,[(06y ,[(YXOBHOCTJ1. He BJ1,[(eJ131Ia3, jep He npenoaaajy KaTaKm13MoM.

~ecpopMJ1111e aYTOpJ1TapHJ1

CJ1CTeM. TaKBJ1x je MallO, a J1naK ,[(OBOJbHO,

na

6J1

noponaua pasnajeaor CBeTa o,[(aBHO ce npJ1lIarOp;J1lIa xaocy y KojeM je na p;06a Tpap;J1U;J10HalIHe noponane J1 iseaor Bpe,[(HOCHor xoja je onaeroaaaa y nlIJ1111aHJ1M CJ1CTeMa. Pa3BJ1jeHJ1 J1Majy seh rpehy renepauajy,
)KJ1BJ1,3a60paBJ1lIa noponnuaaa, xoja je YTeMeJbJ1lIa CBOj CMJ1CaO)KJ1BOTa na HOBQY 61IarOCTalbY, HA XE,UOHJ13MY, J1 J1CKJbYQJ1BO aa xarepajanaon xao jep;J1HJ1M Bpep;HOCTJ1Ma J13 p;a je p;YXOBje naxc, p;a na

KOjJ1XnpOJ1CTJ1Qy CBe OCTalIe Bpep;HOCTJ1. Pa3BJ1jeHJ1 cy npe3alllTJ1TJ11IJ1 csoje nOTOMKe on BeQHe J1CTJ1HE, HJ1 pacr, je HOBAQ jJ1 nyxoaaor YKOlIJ1TO rypajy pacr Jby6aBJ1 J1CTJ1HCKJ1U;J1Jbnaurer )KJ1BOTa. Ilpaxsaheua

lllTO je ca ,[(J1BJbelbeM nornenao

jep ce MO)K,[(aca Qe)KlbOM CeTJ10 saure nexanaunse He HY,[(J1Te aauresr 3aMJ1ClIJ11IJ1.

MalIl1111aHY J1rpaqKY ,[(a 6J1 nojeo

CBe OHO lllTO CTe BJ1

je,[(J1HJ1 J1 caM ce6J1 U;J1Jb,YMecTo p;a je HOBau; J1CKJbyqJ1BO y cpyHKU;J1paCTa QOBeKa J1 QOBeQaHCTBa. Pa3BJ1jeHJ1 QaK HJ1 He aacnyhyjy Y3POQHJ1U;J1MyKa J1 lbJ1XOBJ1XJ1 namax.
cc

He nzraunrre Ballly ,[(eBojQJ1U;y CTpalllHJ1M BYKOM KOjJ1 he je nojecrn, KO He nOKynJ1 nrpavxe. BalIJ1, YClIOBJbaBalIJ1, npeaaurrxhaaann,

cy Ka3Ha J1 Harpap;a HOBe napaurraje

HanpOTJ1B,

CJ1lIOBJ1-

KaMeH y3 6p'[(0, a pacTaQy

ce J1 KaMeH J1 ppp;o J1 CJ13J1CP. Ynopao rypajy CBeTa, y OBOM Op;eJbKY y xojea

OnpOCTJ1Te pO,[(J1TeJbJ1MalllTO cy nac rp,[(J1lIJ1,TyKlIJ1, nOTu;elbJ1BalIJ1, aacrpaunr3axTeBalIJ1 ,[(a 6y,[(eTe MOpalIHJ1 y HeMOxoje cy HaClIe,[(J1lIJ1 0,[( csoje Tpa,[(J1U;J10HalInmnuaae palIHJ1M YClIOBJ1Ma )KJ1BOTa. OnpOCTJ1Te J1M xesaaa,e, CBOjJ1XpO,[(J1TeJba, OnpOCTJ1Te J1MlllTO cy ce nanac onpexnn He CBeCTJ1J1aacmrran,a CBOjJ1Xnpenaxa,

xa "BJ1CJ1HaMa KojJ1Ma ce CJ1lIa3J1 y nOHOp.

MO)Kp;a he nopop;J1u;e paaanjeaor

hy rOBOpJ1TJ1 0

TJ1nOBJ1Ma Jby,[(J1 xoje je Mop;elIOBalIa KlIaCJ1QHa J1 nlIJ1111aHa npJ1Hyp;a, npen03HaTJ1 na cy TO l1lbJ1XOBJ1 np061IeMJ1 J1,[(a he nO)KelIeTJ1,[(a ce oClI060p;e Y3pOQHJ1Ka, ,[(pecype, KOjOj Mopa noha xpaj. Hexa OBa KlbJ1ra, nexa aaaise craapanaxxor aacmrrarsa 6y,[(e O,[(CKOQHanacxa, 3anOQeTaK ,[(YXOBHor pacra QOBeKa J1 QOBeQaHCTBa. KpeHJ1MO0,[( Tpa,[(J1U;J10HalIHe nopo,[(J1u;e xoja je 6J1lIa yrexrezserra - 27aa KlIaCJ1QHoj Ka3HJ1.

jep cy J1XHaTepalIJ1 ,[(aycsoje

BaCnJ1THe xronene He 60pJ1Te ce npOTJ1B lbJ1X, jep cy J1 OHJ1)KpTBe ayTOpJ1TapHJ1XBaCnJ1THJ1XMo,[(elIa, KJIACli1QHli1X li1JIli1 I1JIli1111AHli1X. KpeHJ1Te nYTeM - 26-

BpeMeHOM ce xcxrsy-ryje J13aKTJ1BHOCTJ1 noponaue J1oryhyje on ise. Hseroso OTyljelbe HJ1je BOJbHO,Ben je nonpehena norroxcaj nerera, noseo P;Oorybeisa. BaCnJ1THa 3aHeMapeHOCT 3aYCTaBJba n03J1TJ1BaH paCT osor nerera. Ilere ce ycaMlbyje, 3aTBapa, CO~J1jalIHo J130lIyje, alIJ1 je 'leCTO y cYK06y, ca CBJ1M'llIaHOBJ1Ma nopo,n;J1~~. Hera ron na ce JIaTJ1, y 6J1JIO KOM npaB~y ,n;a KpeHe, pOp;J1TeJbJ1Bpllle npJ1TJ1CaK na nere, ca ~J1JbeM na nere npOMeHJ1 aKTJ1BHOCTJ1CMep KpeTalba. To P;OBOP;J1 p;o ry6J1TKa BOJbe aa 6J1JIOKaKBJ1Mpap;oM, sa p;pY)KelbeM J1lIJ1CaMOJ1HJ1~J1jaTJ1BoM. )),eTe J1Ma CTalIHO oceharse 0p;6a'leHOCTJ1, HenpaBp;e, lllTO ra p;enpJ1MJ1pa J1 ocyje-

PEAllHA I1PI1HY,UA
.Lleo
8eK ce

hyje n03J1TJ1BHe ~J1JbeBe iseroaor )KJ1BOTa.M3BOPHJ1 HarOHJ1 ce KpJ1Be, rronpioaajy HaKa3HJ1 06lIJ1K, p;eTe ce onsaja on J13BOPHJ1Xnorpetia, rytieha Be3Y ca CBOjJ1M
6J1heM. Ocehaise HeKOpJ1CHOCTJ1 'lJ1HJ1,na nere ry6J1 crrony ca nOpOp;J1'lHOM sajenHJ1~OMJ1nocraje rpajno J1H<pePJ10PHO,y O,n;HOCy aa OCTalIe 'lJIaHOBe noponnue. Hecro ce oceha xao "Kpna". )),0 osor crarsa, noponaua je ,n;OBeJIanere <pJ13J1'lKJ1MJ1 Bep6aJIHJ1M Ka3HaMa J1... .Kpna" nocraje
norrryno

nenuuo 09 tiaiuuna, a uua

ce He U311et.tUMO. "

J1BO AH,[(PMll

nOCJIYlllHa, JIJ1'lJ1 na aYTOMaT J1

Tpap;J1~J10HalIHe nopop;J1~e xoje HJ1je OCeTJ1lIO, na BlIaCTJ1Toj 1 KO)KJ1, 3aKOH npJ1Hyp;e, <pJ13J1'IKeJ1sepfianae. <DJ13J1'lKO xaaosaaaise, OMalIOnazcanarse, Ka3He, npencraazsajy apcenan opyzcja KOjJ1ce KOPJ1CTJ1 y KlIaCJ1'lHoj npJ1Hyp;J1. 0 npJ1Hyp;J1 He rpetia MHoro nJ1CaTJ1, He rpefia nOBpe1)J1BaTJ1 pane, jep KaKO pese H06elIOBa~, MBO AHP;PJ1h: "U;elIor sexa ce lIe'lJ1MO op; 6aTJ1Ha J1 HJ1Ka,n;ace He J13lIe'lJ1MO". HapaBHO ,n;aje KlIaCJ1'lHa npmryna J1 re KaKO p;OMJ1HaHTHay 6pOjHJ1M rroponauasia, llIJ1POM CBeTa, y p;elIOBJ1MaCBeTa KOjJ1HJ1je Ylllao y npouec TpaH3J1~J1je, srarepalanae J1,n;YXOBHe. TaKBJ1Xaesran,a HeMa snroro, na HJ1noponnua y KojJ1Ma P;OMJ1HJ1pacaxto KlIaCJ1'lHa npJ1Hy,n;a HeMa MHoro, alIJ1 3aTO noponnua y KojJ1Ma ce KOM6J1Hyjy nmnuaaa J1peanna npanyna, J1Ma na nperex. YKOlIJ1KO y BacnJ1TalbY nerera P;OMJ1HJ1paKlIaCJ1'lHa npanyna CTBapa ce 110)),PEljEHM TMl1 )),ETETA J1TO:

.v

T A" Ma lIJ1 nerera

je 6e3JIJ1'lHa. Hecro je pe'l 0 nerery, xoje HJ1je poheno J13 Jby6aBJ1 J1JIJ1 nere xoje ponnrezs noaene y CBOj HOBJ16paK, J1lIJ1je TO nere xoje po,n;J1TeJbJ1,J13 KOPJ1CTOJby6Jba, CBeCHOnpnnpeaajy aa nonpehen nOJIO)Kaj, J1JIJ1je TO He)KeJbeHO nere J1JIJ1 je TO nanac CBaKOnere, a CBaKOnere naaac TpnJ1 J1 peaJIHy J1 nJIJ1lllaHY Ka3Hy, xao J13pa3 HeMOhJ1 J1 HeYKOCTJ1 ponarezsa. 110ByqeHJ1 TJ1n nerera npenyH je crpaxosa, ocehaisa 6ecnOMOhHOCTJ1, npJ1Tajene arpecnje J13aBJ1CHOCTJ1.Ilere je npenJIaBJbeHO J1CKpJ1BJbeHJ1M J1lIJ1nOTJ1CHYTJ1MeMO~J1jaMa J1 3Ha, na he YBeK 6J1TJ1 xaxcn.eao, aKO J1XJ1cnOJbJ1. Ilnaureha ce Ka3He nere nOTJ1CKyje arpecnjy, oKpeHYBlllJ1 je xa ce6J1. Ipauxa HOKTe, CJ1ca npcT, aa noxerax. HeCBeCHo, OBOnere 6e)KJ1 y 60JIeCT, xana CXBaTJ1,n;aMpBJ1~e 6pJ1re J1 He)KHOCTJ1 p;06J1ja caao y TJ1MTpeHy~J1Ma. Ce6e 'leCTO 3aMJ1lllJba na onpy, J1BJ1,n;J1 KaKO uerra nopo,n;J1~a nnaxe sa lbJ1M, KajyhJ1 ce sa noaauraise npeMa lbeMy. Ilere "Kpna" nocraje oryheno on ce6e, pap;a, 'lJIaHOBa noponnue, npyurrna. 360r KOHTJ1HYJ1paHOr ocehaisa CTpaxa J1 HeMOhJ1, p;OJIa3J1no nOTnYHor sacroja CBJ1X nOTeH~J1jaJIa osor nerera. 110TnYHa 6ep;a osor nerera YO'laBa ce Y OP;HOCY aa npyro, "ycnelllHo" nere, xoje csoje "ycnexe" rpap;J1 na ocyljeHJ1M rpelllKaMa nere'ra "Kpne". OBO CJ1POTOnere MO)K,n;a HJ1je HJ1TaKO noute nere, xana 6J1 ce nopennno ca JIOlllJ1jJ1Mnereroa, BaH noponnne. Y CBOjOjnopop;J1~J1, OHOje aa mry xajepapXJ1jcKe JIeCTBJ1~e J1TO oceharse ra npaTJ1 HenpeCTaHO. Hanpeheao nere (,,3Be3p;a"), yP;pY)KeH ca pOp;J1TelbeM, aKTJ1BHO pap;J1 na ce ynora J1lIJ1Knerera "Kpne" He Melba. Ilere je poheisea p;OHelIO BelIJ1KJ1nOTeHQJ1jan J1HTelIJ1reHQJ1je, alIJ1 ce OHa 6lIOKJ1pa CTalIHJ1MnpJ1CYCTBOMHeraTJ1BHJ1XeMOua]a. 110clIep;J1Qe Tora cy Heycnex y llIKOJIJ111)f(J1BOTYyonurre.
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110BY'leHJ1 rnn J1lIJ1aYToarpeCJ1BHJ1 J1 ArpeCJ1BHJ1 TJ1n

netue ; xpua cc
n:OBYQEHM TMl1 je HaCTaO, J13 csor Be'lJ1TO nonpeheaor norroacaja y noponall;J1.MalITpeTJ1paH, CPJ13J1'lKJ1 J1 Bep6alIHO xaxosaaan, OMalIOBa)f(aBaH, CPPYCTPJ1pan J1YBeK rropehen ca ,,60lbJ1M" 6paTOM J1lIJ1ceCTpOM (,,3Be3p;OM") y noponnna.
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Ilpanyna He noaaozsana na ce paCI.:(BeTa rOTOBO HWje,o;aH W3BOPHWHarOH, HWTW

He Ha)"IW urra 3Ha'lW npWMWTWlby6aB, QeJIOKynHw nOTeHQwjaJI nerera. Ilere HWKa,o;a re TaKO HWKa,o;aaehe 6WTW cnocotiao na lby6aB naje. Ilerror )KWBOTa he ce ,o;WBWTW cynepwopHwjWM 0,0;ce6e, KOjW noncehajy aa Ha,o;pet)eHor 6paTa WJIWcecrpy y

Wce6e. Hajarpecnaaaje

nere CBYCBOjy eaepnrjy TpOlllYI,o;a 6YI nocno

JIYI,o;epHera-

TWBHe ,o;pYlllTBeHe rpyne. ITpwnpeMajY'lOBeKa aa n03WB JIeKapa, WH)Kelbepa, nporpecopa, ayroaexana-rapa, a aa ponarezscrao QwoHwllle. HWKO He xaje. ,UOBOlbHO je ynw ycnaBaHO y 6paK, HeCBeCHO pO,o;WTW nere WBacnWTHW Mo,o;eJI,YCBojeH y paHOM ,o;eTWlbCTBY, cnOHTaHO npO<pYHKMelba ce carao BJIaCT. J)"Ie cw nere, nOTJIa'leH CW,nanac cw ponnrezs,

noponaua. ",UwBlbelbe" W3aBWCT, rrorpetia na 6y,o;e nopen ,,3Be3,o;e" je rro-rpeoa na ce jour je,o;HoM ocerx wH<pePWOpHWM. Ilere "Kpna" Hwje HaWBHO xana ce nahe y 6JIW3WHWce6w CJIW'lHOr nerera, aJIW jour "noB)"IeHwjer" 0,0;ce6e. Y MOMeHTY he npwMeHwTw Mo,o;eJI nonauiaisa, KOjW notipo nosaaje.
qy,o;a ce peTKO neurasajy, jep ce "Kpna" reunco MO)Ke nOKpeHYTW na n03WTWBaH paCT. Y noponann CWBHOCTysehaaahe 3a npajarezse, je ,o;06wo enW30,o;HY yJIory xojy he HaCTaBWTW,o;awrpa y n030ayToarpeCBW,o;OQHWjW norahajn, xoja nocrajy WJIWnpasor lberOB HeCBeCTaH w360p. arpecxsua, KOjW he HaCTa(,,3Be3,o;y"), KaKO 6w pWlllTy )KWBOTa, 6e3 nane ,o;aWCKO'lWW3JIaHQa HeraTWBHOCTW. Iberosy WJIWcynpY)KHWKa rpasorhe,

snanaur 6aTwHoM. KJIaCW'lHoj Ka3HW potiyjy W nere W ponarers, 3601' xera lby6aB He MO)Ke na nore-re Met)y lbWMa. .
AyToarpeCWBHW W arpeCWBHW Twn nerera rOMWJIajy nOTWCHYTW 6ec. QBa nsa npnjarerscraaa na rnna cy 'leCTO y seaa, ,o;OJIa3W W,0;0cxzranaisa spexe, OCJI060,o;e nOTWCHYTor 6eca.

nouaaje W 6paKa
na

W3Met)y OBa zraa Twna. Ienaa ,o;pyror xpaHe TaKO lllTO rrosraacy na ce, C speveaa

BWTw,o;a wrpa yJIory ponarezsa,

WJIWhe Tpa)KWTW aanpehenor

Ornrcamr ranoaa, xao npOW3BO,o;npwHy,o;e, ce Mopajy nOCMaTpaTW MHoro lllwpe. Pacnon je orpoxran y OKBWPY WCTor rnna. Y je,o;HOM TpeHyTKy, MaJIOnpet)allllba "Kpna", nocraje arpeCWBHW JIw,o;ep, jep ce naurao y 6JIW3WHW cnatinjer 0,0; ce6e.
Cynpyr je "Kpna" y O,o;HOCyna CBOr oua, acxazsyje ncxarsyje 6ec aa nerery 6ec na cynpy3w W aan lbOM "Kpna" WMa yJIory JIw,o;epa, cynpyra je nere "Kpna" W MaJIOnpet)allllba

.Kpna" je YCBOjWOMo,o;eJIsacwcnYHWO CBOjy )KelbY sa oceharsesr wH<pePWOpHOCTW. mrrarsa npwHy,o;OM W oaor TpeHa xana nOCTaHe po,o;WTelb WJIWxana ce nahe y 6JIw3WHW cnafiajer, HenorpelllWBO ra npwMelbyje na csoje nere, na cnaonjer.

je nOCTaJIa JIw,o;ep, nere ncxarsyje 6ec na ,o;pyroM nerery

WJIWCTBapWMa W TaKO

nOCTaJIO JIw,o;ep. Pex je 0 JIaHQY HeraTWBHOCTW KOjW ce He saycra-

nrsa, caao ce npaBe nayse. HWKO, HW He CJIyTW, na cy CBW)KpTBe MogeJIa npwHyne, <pW3W'lKe W Bep6aJIHe.

Illtua case CBeuiiao, a...

ArpeCWBHW rnn nerera je raxohe npoaason )KeCTOKenpwHy,o;e xojy QeJIa nopo,o;wQa

ynpaaosaaa

Ha,o;,o;eTeTOM.CBe no-nose CJIW'lHO xao Wca nOBY'leHWM TwnOM nereKa)KlbaBalbeM.

ra: OMaJIOBa)KaBalbeM, spehaise,

Ilere ce He npenaje JIaKO, jep WMa

CBaKo,o;HeBHo

W3Y3eTHOjax W3BOPHWHarOH n03WTWBHe, crsapana-nce 60p6eHocTw. .W3BO,o;W npaBe MaJIe peBOJIYQwje, 6paHehw )KeCTOKO CBOjy xapaonajy, ce WCKPWBWHarOH n03WTWBHe 60p6eHOCTw W npeTBopw arpecajov.

Bpexenoa

y CWJIOBWTYnorpetiy sa po,o;wTelba. Y6p30 he OBa-

Arpecaja nerera pacre W nojaxaaa

xcxpaarseae w3BopHe evouaje

arpecnjy

xao aerarnaua KBO ztere ce6e ,o;O)KWBeTW

W 6PW)KHO he HerOBaTW Ty yJIory. jaxajy, nere ce oryhyje 0,0;ce6e, 0,0;

Herarnsae,
nopo,o;wQe.

Ilere no-nuse ,o;aTpa)KW WHaJIa3W rpyne, ce6w CJIW'lHe neue, jep cy My y

3aje,o;HWQW.Iloponaua

nopoznrua WCKPWBWJIW W3BOPHWHarOH sa n03WTYIBHOM npanamrourhy noponn-moj ra ocyhyje, WnOJIaKO orrnrcyje. Q'lYIrJIe,o;HO je pe'l o,o;eTeTY xoje je aa CBeT ,o;OHeJIO jaxy BWTaJIHY eaeprrrjy YI sehy YIHTeJIYIreHQYIjy. Ha)KaJIOCT, caB csoj narrop nere ynaxce na n06e,o;YI pornrrersa, a nOTOM WCBe OCTaJIe KOjYI My ce

Hat)y aa nyTy sa KOjYI ce OH "onpe,o;eJIYIO". ,UeTe ce oTy1)yje 0,0;pana, y-rersa, ,o;pyrYIX - 30- 31-

CBe qYfMe ce qOBeK .n;peOlpa, 3apa.n; HeqYfjYfX YfHTepeCa, CBe je TO rrpYfHy.n;a, naxne CBe je TO ayTOpYfTapHO. Mo.n;epHa rrenaroraja KPYfTYfKyje Yfoxanosaacaaa KopYfCTe xnacsrnry
TelbYf

po.n;YfTelbe KOjYfy BaCfIYfTalbY ".n;06pYfu;e", KOjYf je HerrpYf60lba o.n; rrpYfnpnayna

rrpYfHy.n;y Yf septianno

aacazse aan neuor. Oryna TaKBYf pona-

ocehajy orposmy

YfH<pePYfOPHOCT y O.n;HOCyaa pomrren,e xnaca-ma

KOpYfCTe,y BaCIIYfTalbY neue, Mo.n;enn03YfTYfBHOr ycnonzsaaarsa. Ilpmryna

[arna, reunca 3a .n;eTe, amr je sa 6y.n;yhHOCT nerera,

n03YfTYfBHOr ycnoezsasarsa,

non YCllOBOM .n;ace He KOM6YfHyje ca nnxuraaoxr jep amne He nocroja

Il03MTMBHO YCJIOBJbABAI-hE
Ilaqox , If OhHO sacrnrrtro
CyBO3JlaUlO, a ociuaqox

Hy.n;OM.HapaBHO na TO naaac He nocroja na rroponnua, Y .n;eTYflbCTBY,y rpaznruaoaanaoj

HYfTpa.n;YfU;YfOHall-

HYf .n;OM6e3 "OTBopeHor"eKpaHa. noponxua, nere BaCnYfTaBaHO <pYf3YfqKOM aenpzjarersa M Yf3rpa.n;YfCYfCTeM npajarersa OBaKBM .n;anperrosaa rrpMHy.n;OM, HayqYf na npenosaa

.Jnaqan":

M Bep6allHOM

0.n;6paHe. Pasaparsa cy orposnra, je seznnca, M rana nere no-nose cpencrao noponaue, CMllOM
MnYf

allM manca osor nerera

rta ycsaja rr03YfTYfBaH Mo.n;ell noaaurarsa.

xoje je onpacasaao

ayTopMTapHYf CYfCTeM,rroce6Y n03YfTMBHO ycnoxoja cy ce ce npMMelbMBao

cnyqajeBYf cy peTKM, arnr MoryhM. Ponarersa KOjM KopMCTe Mo.n;en rr03MTMBHor ycnoazsaaaisa cy cyrrepMopHM y rrpYfrOBOpMTM. O.n;HOCy na OHe KOjM KOpYfCTerrpYfHy.n;y. lliYfMa ce He MO:>Ke mrurra EpMHy 0 nenx, rnenajy .n;aYfM rrpMylliTe CBe "Haj60lbe", na ce cprnyjy aa lbYfXOBO notipo, He xasosaaajy

V IHo

y paTHYfM YClloBMMa

6YfllO

je rr03MTMBHO yczroszsaaarse, narpabasaa,e. cy ce aexa HOBa npaanna Yfnoaexan

6a rpananaoaanae .aaarse je onnasano 'palla nourrosarx

y MYfpHo.n;orrcKMM yoroaasra MMllOM. Y peTKYfM noponnuaaa

y ceHKy. Ycrrocraszsana

He rp.n;e MX, qeCTO rosope

MX IIITarrOM, yBpe.n;aMa. HYf nere

aj BaCrrYfTHMMo.n;ell, y 60raTMjYfM, yrnaanosr, M, pa3Ma:>KeHYfMnpaea-reroa. YrrraBHOM, n03YfTYfBHOycnosrsaaarse Ma. Hmcana MajKa He 6Yf pexna nerery: .ponarezsa jacno nocrasrsana

Ha.n;HajcTapMjYfM nere-

HeMa pasnora aa CYMlby.n;a My je po.n;MTelb "rrpMjaTelb", HapOqMTO xana ce rropena ca .n;eTeTOMHa.n;KOjMM ce BPIIIYf xrracaxaa npMHy.n;a. Hecr je crryxaj y rropo.n;YfU;Yf, .n;aponrrrezs, aa jermo nere KOPYfCTMHeraTMBHO, sa .n;pyro rr03YfTYfBHOYCllOBlbaBalbe. Iloponaua je nonnroa Yf nanpebeao jy Mo.n;ene nonauran,a, rne ce Be:>K6ajy 6y.n;yhYf O.n;HOCM y .n;pyIIITBy. I10.n;pe~eHO cy .xpaaa" jenao .n;pyroM Yfrrpnnaxa y.n;pyIIITBy . na Yf3Be:>K6anere y noponaun

je Herr03HaTO Tpa.n;YfU;MOHanHYfM noponn"AKO otiepeur HeKOllMKO penoaa KyKynaspurasana aanarxe, xoje 3aTO je Tpa.n;M-

aa, .n;06Yfheill HOBe uarrene", ,ll;eu;a cy 6ecnoroBopHo

npen lbYfX, He oxexyjyhn Harpa.n;y 3a TO, He o-re-

KOjM he ynorpetiarx

)yhYf .n;ace Yf3Me~y pa.n;a M lbMX YMeTHe MaTepYfjallHYf mrrepec.

[OHallHYf qOBeK YfMaOsmne lby6aBYf rrpexa pa.n;y M 3aTO je 6MO Malbe rroxnenan.

Kana je nopo.n;Mu;a yurna y TpaH3YfU;Mjy M nacmrrarsa,

BHO YCllOBlbaBalbe YMeCTO xnacaxae ,aBalbe xao nenrro jenaaxo BaCnMTHYf Mo.n;ell xynosxae ranpenaoa. Yfjennaxo cTapo
KonMKO

xana joj je nonyheao n03Mrr03YfTMBHO ycnorrpMM 6aTYfHa.

Ka3He HMje rrpenosnana

3aUlUlO je Mogell U03UUlU6Hof YCllO6Jba 6 at a uoiytian sa gYX06HU paciu qeiueiua?

AKO :>KenYfMO .n;aoMoryhMMo 3.n;paB, n03MTYfBaH paCT CBOMe nerery CBMXM3BOPHYfXnarona. nOTpe6HO je Y M3BOPHOM

nerera je nanexo ropa on Mo.n;ella xnacaxae npxaaar,

ne. Ha:>KanOCT,0 OBOMyczroazsasan, y ce naaac rOBopM xao 0 HeqeM n03MTMBHOM To je naaac npyurrneao xsarsea BacnMTHM Mo.n;ell. I10IIITO ~YTopM~apHa CBeCTyrexezsena na <pPOHToBMMa, na nonezrasra, y KojYfMa ce YBeK na npyro, rrpMpo.n;HO je IIITO ce CBeT naaac onpe.n;enMO sa pcapa jenno y O.n;HOCY MTMKy rrpYfHy.n;e,uerar aanor ycnoezsaaarsa, .n;03BOnYfBIIIJ.1 caxto 6nary npYfHy.n;y VBa:>KaBalberr03J.1TJ.1BHOr ycnosrsaaaiea. Cana je jacao .n;aje pe-r 0 "rrllJ.1IllaHOj" IJ.1HY.n;J.1 CBe IIITO .n;01Ia3J.1 crrozsa, CBe qJ.1Mece Melba J.13BOpHa npapona qOBeKOBa, - 32-

CTBOPJ.1TM qOBeqHe ycnose aa casrocnoanajy KJ.1BalbaM norpefiy na My ce noiryne

06nJ.1KYCBJ.1 HarOHYf cy, 3.n;paBYfYfxapMOHMqHM. Ilere YfMa rr03YfTMBaH CJ.1CTeM oxerr03~TMBHJ.1canpzcaja, na ce yKJ.1Hy aYTOpYfTapHJ.1,BaCnJ.1THJ.1 Mo.n;ellJ.1. Ha:>KanOCT,aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1 BaCIIYfTHJ.1 Mo.n;enJ.1, HapOqYfTO ,, rrJIJ.1ura " 3aYCTaBlbaJY . yHyTpaurlbJ.1 paCT nerera, pymehn My XapMOHJ.1jy, KpMHJ.1

onaajajyhn nere on lberOBe J.13BOpHecyurTJ.1He. BeoYf J.13BOpHeeMOU;J.1je,

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IIpHHIV1ll

rr03HTHBHOr YCJlOBlbaBatba je BpJlO jegHoCTaBaH.

Ibera

g06po

nosna-

neue npeBeJIHK. IIoXJIenHHx HOBQa HCTO, HJlH

je CBe smne, a MoryoHocTH

sa BpxyHcKe

ycnexe

MaJle.

pogHTelb, YKOJlHKO je CaM 6HO YCJlOBlbaBaH HJlH ra je HaKHagHO YCBOjHO, yrrpKoc coj TpagHQHOHaJlHoj CBeCTH. qHM ce nere POgH

jour

Matbe, a nOXJIenHHX CBe smue. xareropnja npHnagaTH H crora

geJIOBe MogeJIa n03HTHBHor

Ijege CBe UITO je OH 3aMHCJIHO,

ycnosrsaaarsa. aehe ra TynH

ponarezs no-nose na npasretsyIla 6H ponarezs nocrnrao na nere (jep je TO npHMHTHBHO), Ben he ra

OHO, aKO ypagH OHO, rrOKJlOHH-

,D;pywTBeHo nO)KelbHH MogeJl je 6Y,AHO Aa

npoaeuzsasa npara nposeeae. JeAHoM je noxcezsao

HHTeJIHreHQHjH; nonexan je

pororrers
gpyrH

Mopa nyT 6HTH

TeXHH'lKoj, H

XYMaHHCTH'lKOj

noxcezsao

nporparatianno

,3HTHBHO YCJIOBHTH. AKO nojene : My OBO.

OBO, g06Hne

BpXyHCKH cnoprncra,

nesax,

mYMaQ H CllH'lHO. gpywTBeHH MO,AellH, KOjH gOHO6HTH

Kana

ce cTBapH

ananasapajy,

yqHHH ce ga je OHO, WTO nere Mopa ga je

Y nepHO,AY BellHKHX eKOHOMCKJ1X norpeca, ce ycnewHOCT JlaKO H 6e3 paga cy HeraTHBHH.

:nYHH, peJIaTHBHO JIaKO H He TaKO BpegHo, a OHO WTO pO,AHTelb HY,AH nerery aoro

OHTH KpHMHHaJIaQ, HepaAHHK, 60raTcTBa, nocraje

cnocofiaa

Aa

spennaje.

YMeCTO ga nere pagH H3lby6aBH, HeMa. ,D;aKJIe,pogHTelb

pagH H3 HHTepeca.

Ine

je HHTe-

nonasaur

AO MaTepHjallHor

MO,Aell ca KOjHM ce

!C, TY lby6aBH
II

je npBH Y nanuy xnnue lby6aBH

KOjH HeCBeCHO,

ycsajajy-

OBaj"CllaTKH"Mogell,

3aYCTaBlba passe] cpopMHpatba

xojy CBaKO nere gOHOCH

)t)etbeM. Ty je

xopea

noxnene,

sna xoje xapa CBeTOM. Hajsehe 6JIaro

Maorn pomrren,x, npehyrao nonyurrajy CBOMe AeTeTY Aa xpene OBHM nYTeM, nanaseha onpasnan,e Aa je )KHBOT cypoBa 60p6a sa oncraHaK. Pes je 0 nepcpH,AHOM MOAellY n03HTHBHor ycnoszsaaarsa. Ilere he, ys 6JIaroH,AeHTHcpHKOBaTH. CllOB pO,AHTelba, ynH y HeraTHBHO, a pOAHTelb MaTepHjaJIHY HaAoKHaAY H 6llarOCTatbe. J13Met)y pOAHTelba H nerera BOp, KOMnpOMHC, npx rr03HTHBHor WTO je He xoje je ce

sazsa

oje je aise

nere gaJIO, sa HHWTaBHY CTBap (nrpasxa, OA CBOjHx H3BOPHHX narona H

otieharse, aarpana),
OA csora "AKO

6HllO je OAPHOA H

he nannararu

"YCllYry",

oxexyjyhx
nero-

DAHTelba.

Kana

caBpeMeHa TH

MajKa

rrorpefia, OA ce6e, xaxce CBOMe AeTeTY:

TeJIa H nyxa,

nojeneur cnanah

nnntrry, norrycrnhy
ere y npBO e, sapan

ztanrpam

nYQa'lHHe nona cara", OHa He pa3YMe Aa je YBella HrpHnoce-

xojea

ycnonzsasaao, CBaKO onpaxe ce6e.

cTBapa ce

npehyraa

PO,AHTelb ce OApH'le

aaroaa
Ben OHO

oryherse, OA AeJIa ce6e, oA csora zcenyna, jep nere jene 3apaA HHTepeca. Ine je mrrepec Ty je sacroj pacra KJIHQe lby6aBH, xoje pomrrezs, HeCBeCHO, OTKpHBa nO)KelbHH noponaua )KHBH H CBe csoje caare YCMepH MOAeJI, KaKO 6H H OH H nere 60lbe npoumn
no MepHllHMa

pO,AHTelbCTBa, jep He A03BOlbaBa na nere 6YAe OHO WTO jecre,

yje CBaKO nere. CaBpeMeHH ApYWTBeHH. MOAell BpeAa "nOMorHe" AeTeTY Aa

rena y

KojeM

noacezsrro. CBe norpefie nerera, a H csoje, ponarezs npeTBapa y HCKpHBlbexcen,e, a 6YHap cezsa je Ay60K. Ilere ce oApeKllo ce6e, TaKO WTO je A03BOllHJIO ponxrersy na My HCKPHBH H3BopHe naroae, Aa My norpetie npersopa y )Kelbe, Aa My CpyWH xapxoaajy, nocne xera ,AeTe smue He nosnaje CBOjy CyWTHHy, nOCTaje HeKO gpyrH.

:pHMeHH raj

y )KHBOTY (eKOHOMCKH,

CHXOllOWKH). YCllOBlbaBatbe nerera, [or MOAella, ycnexa,

y CPYHKQHjH OCTBapetba ApYWTBeHO

nozcezs-

Ilere
onpenao noacen.an

HMa CHa)KHY

npyurrsa, npaxersyje ce H y CHpOMaWHHM H y 10raTHM rroponauava. ,D;eTeTY je MHoro rezce Aa CXBaTH HeraTHBHOCT rr03HTHB[or ycnosrsaaan,a, YKOllHKO noraxe H3 CHpOMaWHe noponaue. Ilere BHAH KaKO ce
eerosa pOAHTelbH ,,)KPTByjy", OAPH'lY ce CBHX CBOjHX 3aAOBOlbCTaBa,

norpetiy na peanasyje na nere rpetia Aa 3aBpwH crynaje H HcrrllaTHB nocao. Ilere narn, ana
3awTo? Ka3Ha, crpax

HarOH sa mYMoM,

ana je

pomrrers
)Kelbe

MeHaI,IMeHTa, jep je TO APYWTBeHO He npY)Ka OTnop "HHcnytbaBa ra ponarezs

ponarezsa. KllaCH'lHa Ty nocro]a

caao

na 6H OBa-

Ilere HHje CBeCHO ,Aa he npH ynorpefin n03HTHBHor

on ry6lbetba CBeYKynHHx

Ka3HHTH, jep orsopena, He

ycnoszsaaaa-a,
npananeraja,

rrocrojx,

Y nere-

rere OCTBapHllO QHlb, KOjH cy yrnasnoa OHH 3aQPTallH. csor xcprnoaan,a,

CaMOM 'lHtbeHHQOM H nerera,

xoje gOHOCH n03HTHBna ce ycnpoTHBH, re

saycraszsa

ce n03HTHBaH pacr y

ponsrrezsa

POAHTelb

HO YCllOBlbaBatbe, 360r xera HHKaga caMOBOlbHO HH OTHnH na myMy. KO je HayqHo CTaJIHO na A06Hja,

aehe

HH

rroxyurarx

nehe
HeKO

e He3aAOBOlbaH, jep CBOj )KHBOT npeTBapa :HO narx. He3aAOBOlbCTBO je orpOMHO

onpauaise, 360r xera H nere HeCBeYKOllHKO ce ynaraise He BpaTH, a naaac je

HOBaQ, BpeMe Aa 6H ce nere WKOllOBa-

IIoXJIena je ra xoja AOHOCH orpostaa

crpax,

ro CBe xeurhe. POAHTelbH Ylla)KY orpoxan '10, 6aBHllO cnoprov,

MaHeKeHCTBOM, YHOCHHM 3aHHMatbHMa. AKO aa xpajy rrpH'le

IbHXOBa )KpTBa He 6YAe

narpaheaa

HOBQeM xoje nere 3apa1)yje,

He 3Ha ce KOMe je jep je caxro

rexce. ,D;eTeTY, jep je rOAHHaMa 6HJlO MOTHBHcaHO nOTKynlbHBatbeM, raxo Momo ga H3gP)KH

rryroronaunse

Harrope on paga KOjH He BOJlH, on pana KOjH

he MO)f(ga

6HTH"Harpa1)eH"y

6ygyOHOCTH.

Ynaraa.a

cy orpOMHa, 6poj YCJlOBlbaBaHe

HMa orposraa CTpax Aa TO He H3ry6H. Cseyxynorpowaa, H OBa canaunsa y rropomnra, H OHa ,ApYWTBeHa y 6ygyhHOCTH (ApYWTBeHH rronoxcaj, npaaaneraje, cnasa, Mon). Ilere he caspureno I1CnYtbaBaTH CBe sanarxe y canaunsocra, jep crarnra MHcao 0 CBOjHM npxaxnerajaMa y 6ygyhHOCTH, XpaHI1 lberOBY nOXJIeny xoja My noraazce Aa yqH naaonohao, ae)f(6a BpegHo, nonaoca Hanope xoje gOHOCH cnopT, My3HKa, WKOJlOBatbe. IlereTy ce 'lI1HI1, na je, cae WTO ynaace, JlaKO H MaJlO y OgHOCY aa OHO, lllTO he g06HTl1 Ha KOPHCT je aa nere

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y 6Y):lynHoCTH. Hajcrpauraaje 6allI iseroae )Kelbe.

je llITO nere, BpeMeHOM, llO'IHe na sepyje ):Ia cy TO,

OBO nere HenpeCTaHO )KHBHsa 6Y):lynHocT, jep ce )Kelbe YBeKpeanasyjy y 6y):lynHOCTH, llITO My ):IOHOCHaecpehy, jep je oTyt)eH 'IaK H 0):1apexreaa y KOMe )KHBH. Bpno 'leCTO na)KHMa H MalliTOM 6e)KH 0):1CTBapHOCTH. ,neTe he 6HTH 3a):lOBOlbHO peanH30BaHHM )KelbaMa. OCTBapeHH ):IpYlliTBeHO rrozcezsan H ncrrnarnn MO):len ):IOHeo My je MaTepHjanHo 60raTCTBO H sroh, caao My HHje jacno nopeKno Henpecraaor HeMHpa H orposoror CTpaxa KOjH npara Ty ,,6narO):leT". Ilopexno HeMHpa H crpaxa nere HH He MO)Ke):laYO'lH, jep HeMHp H crpax nonase 0):1nenpajarersa, a nere ce HHKa):laHHje CYO'lHlIOca aenpajarezsesr, jep je nerrpnjarezs HeBH):IlbHB.Y CTBapH, "HenpHjaTelb" je rseros ponarers. BOlIHM ):IaKa)KeM na cy ponarersa npBH .rronaonava , csora ):IeTeTa. Ponxrezs norxynzsyje nere na 6H rreurro rrojeno, nay-noro. Ilere nponaje, neo csor rena, y OBOM czryxajy )KelIy):la~ a nOlIaCKOM y llIKOlIY rrponaje CBOjy naaer, Koja je pasmnca xana cyTpa aa HOBa~ rpetia rrponarn ueno rezro, nourreise, MWP, ce6e, rrpajarezse. J1 jeznry W):Ipyry nponajy BpllIW W3mrrepeca, a TO ofiaszsa ca naxohov jep je oTyt)eHOCT 0):1csora rena jour y ):IeTHlf>CTBY nocrana orpovna. He ycrpyxaaaa ce ):IaTaKBe ponarezse Ha30BeM "cnoH30pwMa", KOjWCBOjWMHOB~eM sanosorsaaajy orporaaa 6poj )Kelba csor noxnenaor nerera, Onor MOMeHTa Ka):la noxnena nerera npeaasnhe 6YI,IeT ponarersa, nere Tpa)KH HOBor, 60raTwjer cnoasopa, Ha)KalIOCT. Bahe OBO 601IHe 'lHlf>eHw~e Waa ycnonzsasano nere H aa iserosor ponaren,a, aznr je spenao CYO'lWTHce ca WCTWHOM, rra BpeMe, y HMe nOTOMCTBa. YClIOBlbaBaHO, MallO crapaje nere he, y3 ):Iy60KO paayaeaarse ):Iapomrrezs Hwje KpHB, Ben je KpHBO neaaarse, onpOCTWTH CBOMep0):lWTelbY TaKO llJTO he ce BOlbHO onpeha aarpahaaan,a, WlIHxax 3a6paHWTH pO):lHTelby ):Iara YClIOBlbaBa. CYTpa nehe nOHOBHTWMO):lelIycnonzsasarsa aa CBOM):IeTeTY. Oxyaahe CBOM):IeTeTY W3BopHe aarone, pa3BWTW wx ):10 xpaja, W TaKO rrosroha ):IeTeTY zra caraopearnrsyje HajBHure H):IealIe (Jbyfian, ,1J;06pOTy, ncwxO-W3W'lKO snpasrse, cTBapalIa'lKY HHTelIWreH~wjy W'lOBe'lHOcT). Iberos nOTOMaK he nounaje casr npoaahn CBOj BlIaCTHTH MO):lell )KWBlbelf>a, WTaKO nOCTaTW cpehan H sanosozsaa 'lOBeK. Hehe 6WTWaeo6W'lHO ):Ia TaKaB 'lOBeK rro-me WY rreneceroj rO):lWHH):Ia caapa KlIaBHp, jep My je TO OCTana HeCn03HaTa norpetia, nepeanaaosaa ranenar, 0):1xojer ce Hwje OTyt)HO, caxio 3aTO llITO ra HWKOHwje n03HTWBHO ycnoarsaaao, ):10Kje 6HO MalIH, xana je o):l6wjao ):Ia csapa. PO):lHTelbH, He nnaunrre ce na he ce HellITO 1I0llIe ):IeCHTHaauresr ):IeTeTY,YKOlIHKOHanYCTHTe MO):lelIn03HTHBHor ycnoazsasarsa. J13Me1)y "ycnelilHor", noxnenaor, npe60raTor xoaexa, ca Be'lHTHM HeMHpOM H orpOMHHM CTpaXOM y ce6H H -roaexa sanosozsnor CBOjHMn03HBOM, CBOjHM6paKOM, C060M H aasra, CHrypHO here ce
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onpe):lelIHTH aa osor npyror, ,1J;03BolIHTena TaKO H3rJIe):la name nere, sanoson-xo, na 3allITO He 6H 6HlIO H 60raTO. TaKaB 'lOBeK 6Hne 60raT y CBaBpeAH,O cpehno 11 , KOMTpeHyTKy caora )KHBOTa, jep he 6HTH sanosozsaa OHWMllITO Y OBOMTpeHYTenW HenpeCTaHO xapMOHH30Balf>Y MaTepHjalIHor WAYXOBHor, y ce6H KY WMa, Te)K WY cnOlballIlf>eM CBeTY MOAelI YClIOBlbaBalf>a crnapa ABa rnna HA,1J;PE1)EHOr nerera: Tan ,,3Be3Ae" Tan npe3allITwheHor nerera

TJ1TI ,,3BE3,1J;E" ponrrrezs crsapa CBeCHOWlIW HeCBeCHO.Hajsenrhe je pe'l 0 3ApaBOM Wcnoc06HOM AeTeTY Kp03 xoje he pOAwTelb peanaaoaarx CBe csoje rrepeanaaosaHe norpefie, xoje cy ce npersopane Y cezse. Majxa Hwje peanaaosana CBOjy norpe6y Aa nOCTaHe MaHeKeHKa, MO):lelI,OCTalIa je caao )Kelba xojy he OCTBapWTWhepxa. Hecro je y mrraisy Wreaosa ponarezsa Aa nere ocraapa ApYllITBeHo npasnara MO):lelIKOjWhe WAeTeTY Wponnrezsy AOHeTW60raTcTBo WMoh. . YClIOBlbaBaHO nere, jour y paHoM ):IeTWlf>CTBY, Hayqw npaBwlIa wrpe. Bahe ,,3Be3):1a"CBe AOKcneno wcnYlf>aBa )Kelbe pOAHTelba (A06ap je has, spenna je, nerro sacmrrana, 6aBW ce cnoprox, MY3WKOM,6alIeTOM, rJIYMOM, CBeCTpaHa je). J1 CBeTa~ ce yMOpH H Y TpeHY~HMa, xana noxazce BHAaH aeycnex, pOAHTelbW WHaCTaBHW~H nOMa)KY TaKO llITO aeycnex rrpersapajy Y ycnex. ,,3Be3):1a" je, y CTBapH, aerrorpeurasa WHe CMe 6WTH AeMOTHBwcaHa "HeycneXOM". ,,3Be3):1W"ce onaxmaaa aanopaa )KWBOT, jep HHje lIaKO y CBaKOMrpeiryrxy 6WTW "Haj" WTaKO llITO joj ce naje MorynHocT Aa yqw OAnonpeheaor rnna. HaCTaBHWK W ponxrezs nenpecraao KpWTHKyjy nonpeheno nere, yxasyjy na rpellIKe xoje 'lWHH W Ka)Klf>aBajy ra 360r Tora. ,,3Be3):1a" CBe TO 6Y):IHOnpara. A06wja rOTOBa pemeIf>a,He noaaszsa rpellIKe WlIaKO ):IOlIa3H):10~Wlba. Y csaxoj noponaux ,,3Be3AW" ce nOMa)Ke na raj Ha'lWH, jep HMa nonpeheaor 6paTa WlIWcecrpy, ,,3Be3):1W"OpMWpaHoj y nopOAH~W, je TellIKO xana KpeHe y llIKOlIY,jep ce Mopa H360pWTW sa HajBH,~ me MeCTO,sa npeCTO, a y CBaKOMO):le~elf>y nanac HMa MHoro npH):IOllIlIWX,,3Be3Aa . !hHXOB crpax je orpoxas, jep aa npeCTOlIY WMaMeCTa casco aa jemry 3Be3):1y.Y'lWTelbw~e onafiepy CBOjy ,,3Be3):1y",xoja je MHpHa 6ap 'leTHpH ronane. CBaKa rrpoxeHa cpenaae, pa):lHOr MeCTa, nporpecnje aa ,,3Be3):1y" je CPPYCTpHpajyna, jep CBaKH nYT Mopa ):Ia ce 60pH aa ocaajaise npecrona,
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,,3Be3p;y", npannesy HeOp;OlbHBOrrpHBJIalJH ,,6HTaHra", arpeCHBau;. OHH ocrsapyjy KOMrrpOMHCHY Be3y. CBe OHOlllTO He CMe "rrpHHu;e3a", onpanxhe aa lby ,,6HTaHra". t;" nere, "Kprry ." 3" ,3Be3p;a " je npxanaxna H sa nonpeneno nesna ce xpaHH 6ecnosron-to. aourhy "Kprre", a "Kprra" ,,3Be3p;HHoM" p;oMHHaU;HjoM. CBHMa op;roBapa ,,3Be3p;a", ep je OHa "ycrrelllaH" lJOBeK, cjajae xapajepe, y-rena, CBeCTpaHa. CBH joj sanxne H lpH)f(elbKyjy rseao MeCTO.,,3Be3p;a" je, naxsraen, aanosorsna. [Op;H joj xarepajanna J;OMHHaU;HjaH Mon xojy nocnoxe npexo MaTepHjanHor. ,lJ;OK je oxpyzcena OHHMa

ITPE3AIlITl1lll1BAlhE

WjH joj ce p;HBe, ocnotiobeaa je HeMHpa H cTpaxa. Kana ce CBeTnOCTH rr030pHH~e yrace, aaseca crrycrn, xana OCTaHe caaa, 06y3HMa je HeMHp H CTpax. HH cTpacy, HH HeMHpy He YMe na rrponahe rropeKno. Kao lllTO y nermscray HHje Moma ta orxpnje rrpaBor aenpajarezsa, jep je 6HO caKpHBeH y pop;HTelbY, TaKO HH xao )p;paCTaO lJOBeK, naxana aehe OTKpHTH rrpasor nenpajarezsa. Iben npaaa HerrpHarezs je YBeK oaaj KOjH ce nanaan H3Hap; lbe (xajepapxnja), xao lllTO je H3Hap; lbe )HO H pomrrezs. ,,3Be3p;a" ce HHKap; nehe YCTpeMHTH H rrpa3HHTH CBOj rroTHcHYTH :Tpax rra nexor, H3Hap; ce6e, Ben 06aBe3HO na CBe KOjH cy Hcrrop; lbe, na OHe KOjH >p; lbe aasnce. Hxxana nehe p;onH P;O cYK06a H3Met)y p;Be ,,3Be3p;e" na HCTOjxnjeiapxnjcxoj JIeCTBHU;H,xao lllTO HHKap;a uehe noha P;O opaxa nse ,,3Be3p;e", CnHlJre rro KBanHTeTY. J1HTepecaHTaH je OP;HOC,,3Be3p;e" rrpeMa pop;HTelby, HapOlJHTO xana ponarers resroha. Ilonpebemr THrrOBHhe HCKa3aTH OTBopeHY HeTprrelbHBOCT npexa 060lenOM H cana 3aBHCHOM pop;HTelbY. Cserahe My ce H Ka)f(lbaBaTH ra aa 6e36poj IalJHHa. ,,3Be3p;a" he ce lJYP;HTHKaKO HeMa jax eMOTHBaH OP;HOCrrpeMa 60JIeCHOM {CTapOM pop;HTelby. I10111TO,,3Be3p;a" 06HlJHO HMa H HOBau;, OHa he CBe "KopeKT10" onpamrra. Ilnarnhe aery, 60nHHU;y, CTapalJKH P;OM, aznr je rroxcezsao p;a ce CBe teurasa nanexo on ise. HeMHp KOjH oceha ,,3Be3p;a" y OBHM)f(HBOTHHMcHTyaU;HaMa noru-re on ocehaisa KpHBHu;e lJHjH joj je Y3POK Herr03HaT. Kon nonpeheaax THrrOBa nocro]x nenesa HeraTHBHHX eMoU;Hja xoje cy ce cnon'aHO pasaarre y 60p6H ca aenpxjarezsesr (Mp)f(lba, rraKOCT, 3aBHCT, lby60Mopa). .Ssesna" HHje Moma p;a paaaaje aacnojene essona]e, jep mrje HMana rrpoTHB xora na :e 60PH, HH sa urra p;a ce H360PH, jep joj je YBeK CBe 6Hno na p;OMaKpyKe. ,,3Be3p;a" IMa no'rncny-re, HCKpHBlbeHe esrouaje, HOCHI10TJ1CHYTJ1 CTPAX, on ryfirsesa npaaanera]a KOjH rrpoaasona HerrpecTaHH HeMHp ca 6pOjHHM nocnenauaxra. 3Be3p;a" HeMa H3pa)f(eHe HH H3BopHe eMoU;Hje, lllTO je H JIOrHlJHO, jep ce OTyt)Hra on ce6e, HHKOje HHje HayqHo na lby6aB rrpHMH, Te He MO)f(elby6aB HH na na, a i>y6aBH HeMa 6e3 3p;paBIDC,xapMOHH30BaHHX, H3BOPHIDCeMoU;Hja.
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Illiua

MU UlO

paqiuue!

pym rnrt nerera KOjHje crsopea 06JIHKOM rr03HTHBHor ycnoBlbaBalba je rrpe,L-J,3alllTHneHo nere, xoje je rrpHBHp;HO nanpeheno. 0 Mop;eny rrpesaurrahaaarsa rOTOBOna ce He rosopa, y caspesienoj nenaroraja, 3aTO OH HHje HH H3p;BojeH xao nocetian BacrrHTHH MOp;eJI. Y CBHMy1,16eHHU;HMacaspeaeae nenaroraje rrOMHlbY ce caxo 6JIara npanyna H rr03HTHBHO ycrroszsaaaise. Ilpeaaurrahaaaise, xao sacrrHTHH MOp;eJI, MOry peha, P;OHOCH nenonpasn-asy urrery nerery H uenoj noponaU;HH 3aTO je spenao H3P;BOjHTHra H rrOCMaTpaTH rrOTrrYHO3ace6HO. BpJIO lJeCTO, pop;HTelbH cy CKJIOHHna npeaanmdurnarse p;eTeTa on pap;a, pep;a, caaor )f(HBOTa H J1cTHHe, nocaarpajy xao 06nHK )f(pTBOBalba, lby6aBH H He)f(HOCTHnpeva nerery. Y Tpap;HU;HOHaJIHoj noponana, yrJIaBHOM, ce rrpe3alllTHnHBaJIO 60JIelll~HBO nere, nere ca TeJIeCHHM H rrCHXHlJKHMonrrehersaaa, "PY)f(HO", rro KpHTepH)yMHMa npyurrsa rojaaao nere, nere CJIa6HjHx HHTeneKTyaJIHHX crroc06HOCTH. Y )f(elbH p;a 3alllTHTH csoje nere, op; MHoro rora lllTO nere HH He oxexyje, HHTH My je TO norpetiao, pop;HTelb ce onnyxyje sa BacrrHTHH MOp;eJI rrpe3alllTHnHBalba. Ponxrezs lllTHTH TaKBO nere, y CBHMMorynHM cHTyaU;HjaMa, HapOlJHTO je TO napa)f(eHOy caryanxjaaa y KojHMa nere MO)f(errOTrrYHOCaMOCTanHO na pap;H H orrCJIY)f(yje ce6e H p;pyre. Ilere nocraje neiso, rrapaanrapa H aapaano na ce 3aYCTaBlba pacr CBeCHOCTH,jep ce CBeCHOCTHCKlbyqHBO paasaja Kp03 caxopan H CBaKH pap; KOjHnere otiaszsa C Jbytiaazsy. . J13Mel)y pop;HTelba H nerera je npehyran norosop, rro KojeM nere rpetia casto na rrpHMa yCJIyre pomrrezsa, na ce oceha "u;apCKH" H na He carnenasa csoje MaHe .H Hep;OCTaTKe.Ponarezsn TaKBOj nena craapajy Hny3Hjy na cy Hap;pel)eHa H 3aTO HH)e
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tax cnyxaj ,n;anpesaurraheaa neua I1Majy BI1COKOMl1llilbefbe 0 ce611 11nepeanne /be, rra xana He MOry ,n;apeamrayjy xcerse, ,n;O)f(I1BlbaBajyCTpalliHY pycTpaQl1jy. ITpesaurrahenoj ,n;eQI1po,n;I1Telbl1pYllie xapvoaajy, xpxse aarone, jasajy noxnearpecnjy, HeraTI1BHe eMOQl1je 11rrocefino jaxajy 3aBl1CHOCTon ponarersa. TaKBI1 ~I1Telbl1 cy CnpeMHI1 ,n;aHaCTaBe ca npeaaurrahnaarsesr nerera 11xana OHO odiopf noponauy, Hacraszsajy na npyacajy ycnyre uezroj noponxun nerera, neryjyha \albe napaaarasaa, necpehy 11He3a,n;OBOlbCTBOCBI1X. Ilpeaaurrahaaaise nere ra 6l1no je n03HaTO rpazornaouanao] noponnua. IMTI1 CBaKa noponaua KaKO je npeaaurrahnnana MylllKO nere, ana casro on euezse", on pa,n;a y ,n;OManI1MnOCnOBI1Ma. Cecrpe cy npeaaurrnhxaane 6paTa, pKe oua 11onna 11MHl1je 6l1no reurxo na HaCTaBe ca npeaaurrxhaaarsesr cynpy11CI1Ha, y BnaCTI1Toj noponnua. OCI1M rora TOje 6110 11noacezsaa 06nl1K noaalfba KOjl1 Hl1je ,n;OHOCI10Bene npotinexe. Kana ce CBeMY npanona I1CTI1Ha ,n;a MylllKa neua rl1Hyna y paTOBI1Ma Hl1je 6l1no sroper rlllKOM nerery, 6l1Tl1 He)f(Hl1jl1 npexra

ITpeBacxo,n;HO MI1Cnl1Maa uncony, Ilere xoje He paaaaje npaBl1naH O,n;HOC npeMa pa,n;y y noponxua, nere xoje HeMa lby6aBl1 ,n;apa,n;11OKOce6e 11aa l?y,n;e xoje BOnl1, Cl1ryPHO nehe BOneTI1 HI1unconcxe otiaaese, xoje cy caao ,n;pyfl1 06nl1K pa,n;a. HaBI1xa npe3alllTl1nl1Bafba ce npeHOCI1 11aa lllKony. ITpl1 npBOM sehea Hanopy po,n;l1TeJbI1, yrnaBHoM caspesreaa MajKa, saxrenajy on HaCTaBHI1Ka ,n;a cMafbyjy ,n;eQI1 o6aBe3e. CnpeMHI1 cy ,n;a yhy y )f(eCTOKe cyxotie ca HaCTaBHI1QI1Ma, na najy ,n;eQI1 na)f(Ha onpasnarsa, na 11Mpa,n;e unconcxe 06aBe3e, na CaTI1Ma cene nopen nerera jep je OHOnOTnYHO He3al1HTepeCOBaHO sa Y'IeIDe,,n;a nnahajy npl1BaTHe HaCTaBHI1xe J1jour MHoro rora, MJ1CnenJ1 ,n;aje TO 06nl1K I1CnOJbaBaIDa Jby6aBI1. Po,n;J1TeJb 6paHl1 nere Tpa)f(enl1 na J1 HaCTaBHJ1ll;11npesaurrahyjy rOTOBaHa.

,[(aHac ce npesaurnrhyje 11MylllKO 11)f(eHCKOnere on pana, (nexa CI1He,MaMa he), i pena, (Manl1 je, naysnhe, CBe he TO rtpohn 11aa csoje MeCTO noha), on )f(I1BO, (caxpahy on nerera HeMalllTI1HY, 60neCT BOJbeHI1X... , ,n;aHe 6y,n;e y rrartsn), on 1B0pHe, Be'IHe JiIcTI1He na HOBaQ Hl1je Ql1lb, ,n;aje MaTepl1janHo casso y yHKll;l1jl1 ICTa nyxa 11castcocrnapersa Kp03 Jhy6aB 11,[(06pOTy, xao xpajrser Ql1lba )f(I1BO0' KOjl1je caM ce611 cBpxa. ponxrezs craapa, napasara 11'IOBeKa ecrrocofiaor sa )f(I1BOTjep ra rrpesaurrahyjy on pana, CBe je rroxezro xana je pas1jeHl1 CBeT yBI1,n;eo ,n;aycnyre CBI1Xspcra Mory ,n;OlIOCI1TI1 Benl1KI1 npOI1T. CaMO lpa3l1Tl1l1 neaaaznme 3aBl1Ce npso on pana 11ycnyra xoje 11Mnpyacajy pomrrezsa, [lOTOMaacrasrsajy ,n;aKOpl1CTeycnyre xoje 11MnpY)f(a npyurrno. Bpno je aepoaar:> ,n;ahe napaanr HOBQeMponnrezsa rrnahara ycnyre, 3a,n;OBOJbaBaTI1csoje nOTpe~, uenor )f(I1BOTa, ira crapa n03HaTl1 Ha'lI1H. He rOBOpl1l1aKO OH,n;OHOCI1 aajsehe sno oponxua. Majxe nO'Il1fby,n;a npesaurrxhyjy CBOjy neuy spno pane, panehx CBe aa ,I1X11YMeCTO fbl1X, l1aKO je pe'I 0 snpasoj, nasrerno] ,n;eQI1.,[(eQa paCTY, fbl1XOBa etsocr, HeCBeCHOCT116e30cehajHocT 11HapaBHO aesaxaanaocr po,n;I1TelbY3a ycnye, nocrajy CBe BI1,n;Hl1jl1. ITpBI1 cYK0611, csahe 11noxymaj ,n;ace nere ynene y pa,n; 11 en, noxarsy onna xana MajKa He MO)f(e I1nl1 aehe Bl1llie ,n;aonczryxcyje napasara. :Bat)e cy CBaKo,n;HeBHe, xana nere noonpacre. Jleisocr nocraje 60neCT 11napaanr ceCTOKO6paHl1 csoje nosxnaje, CBe ja'lOM 11ja'lOM arpeCl1joM. fIpe3alliTl1hl1Bafbe ,n;pana npeHOCI1 ce cnOHTaHO ua CBe 06naCTl1 )f(I1BOTa ,n;eTeTa.
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On nOTnYHo snpasor,

cnocooaor nerera

o OBOMBaCnl1THOM Mo,n;eny HI1KOjasno

HaCTaBHJ1QJ1 caspeaeae nncone cy nonnerna 3axTeBJ1Ma, na necpehy neue. Kana ce CTBapJ1 nO'lHY KOMnnJ1KOBaTI1, xana nere 0,n;6J1ja norrryay capamsy ca po,n;l1TeJbeM J1 HaCTaBHI1KOM, xana nO'IHe na oxexyje na ce 6e3 pa,n;a MO)f(e aaapunrra urxona, xana YMeCTOsa KIDl1rOM,nere care npOBo,n;11y rnyBapeIDy J1nJ1npe,n; eKpaHI1Ma, xana ce 6poj je,n;I1HJ1Qanosehasa, xana po,n;J1TeJbBI1,n;11 ,n;aMy je nere nornyno He06pa30BaHO, a ,n;06J1ja npena3He OQeHe, xana ponnrezs Mopa,n;a oncnyzcyje nere -ryaajyh My xyhaor Jby6I1MQa, npexo cnpeMaIDa xaoca, Kojl1 OCTaBJba sa C060M, xana ... rana cy cyKo6J1 HeI136e)f(HI1. Tana nO'lI1IDe ysajasoro onTY)f(I1BaIDe po,n;J1TeJba KOje KPJ1B, KO onrosopan aa BI1,n;HO npona,n;aIDe nerera. ,[(OKce po,n;J1TeJbJ1csahajy nere yna311 y jour Bene npo6neMe. Be)f(11 ca 'IaCOBa, on xyhe, nocehyje I1rpaOHI1Qe, Kna,n;110HI1Qe,Kpa,n;e Bory nane, a I1CTOBpeMeHOpo,n;I1TelbJ1nocrajy O'IajHI1 jep He BJ1,n;e urra cy noure ypa,n;J1nl1, OCI1MlllTO cy "CBe 'lI1Hl1nl1 sa csoje nere, a OHOJ1Mcana TaKO spaha." Kana ce po,n;l1Telbl1 OCBeCTe 11rroxyurajy napuajanao na pellle rrpotinea KaKO 6J1 on csor rOTOBaaa aanpaaann spemrany, TO he 11Mreunco nohx sa PYKOM. Hal1nJ1 he aa Benl1KJ1 orrrop KOjl1he ce saspuraaara CBat)OM 11Ty'IOM (nere he HacpHyTI1 na po,n;I1TeJba ,n;aMy noxaxce ,n;aje cana HeMoryne BpaTI1TI1 CTBapl1 na nO'IeTaK. Illarse nere rropyKy po,n;I1TelbY: "TI1 CI1Me yaeo y Hepa,n;, cana CI1,n;y)f(aH ,n;aaacranaur TI1M nYTeM". Ilere cana )f(enl1 na caxyaa CBOjy noaaunjy rOTOBaHa 11aehe My 6l1Tl1 CTpaHO na ce HenpeCTaHO onpenezsyje aa jemror, a onfiauyje ,n;pyror po,n;I1Telba, ca QI1JbeM na l1X aaaamr, Hapaaao ,n;a My TO nOna311 aa PYKOM. ITO'lI1IDy na My ce ynaapajy, He 611nl1 Ca'IYBanl1 HaKnOHOCT nerera. OCI1M rora, caBpeMeHO, rrmmrano nere ,n;o6po 3Ha CBe renerpoae cnY)f(611 xoje ra urnrre on "HaCl1nHI1X" po,n;I1Telba. ,[(OBOJbHOje na ce po,n;I1TeJb OCBeCTI1,na noxyura craapa na nosene y pe,n; 11nere he pearosara npeTIDaMa I1nl1 he ra npl1jaBI1TI1 aa "HaCl1lbe" xoje 'lI1HI1 I1nl1 nOMI1Cnl1 ,n;a nO'lI1Jil1, ('Il1Taj: casro je noxyurao ,n;anpecraae ca npeaaun-ahaaarsea 11Hayql1 nere na pa,n;l111 nonrryje pen.)
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,[(aHallll-be "rrmnUaHO" nere je npesaurraheao on pena. y Tpa,n;J1~J10HallHoj pO,n;J1~J1nocrojao je Bpe,n;HOCHJ1CJ1CTeMKOjJ1je 6J10 Ba)KehJ1 aa ueno ,n;pyWTBO. axa J1011eonroaopaa rropo,n;J1~a )"IJ1HJ111aje CBe na ,n;eTe nourryje npaanna J1 1 sa pe,n;. CJ1110MJ111J1 MJ1110Mpe,n; ce ycnocrasrsao. 3Hao ce pe,n; y noponaua, y COllJ1,na yllJ1~J1. EJ1110 je naxo J1 nerery J1 pomrrezsy J1 HaCTaBHJ1KY. IlpaBJ111a aauraisa cy 6J111ajacna, jep je ,n;PYWTBOrrporracasano jacaa rrpaBJ111a rropo,n;J1, xoja cy 6J111ay <pyHK~J1jJ1'IyBapa CJ1CTeMa,anx J13,n;paBJba J1)KJ1BOTarropoznr. Pen ce naxo ycnocrasrsao jep je crpax on 6aTJ1He, crajao xao ,[(aMaKllOB Ma'I, aan rnase csaxor 'IOBeKa. Kana je aa cueay crynana ayTopv'ITapHa nrnnuaaa BaCrrJ1THa nexroxparnja, aa ce YPYWJ111anapasorna jep je YKJ1HYTa 6aTJ1Ha xao l-beH TeMeJb, nacryrrnje aaapxaja xao aasreaa nocrojehesr peny, CBaKO je no-reo na ycnocraszsa CBOj CTeMBpe,n;HOCTJ1, a HapO'IJ1TO neua, jep CJ1CTeMBpe,n;HOCTJ1 ycaajajy on BJ1pTyellHe BepHaHTe, a He o,n;po,n;J1TeJba, TaKO ,n;aje pe,n;, KOjJ1ycnocraarsajy neua, rrOTIlYHOy rrpOTHOCTJ1on onora WTO o-rexyjy po,n;J1TeJbJ1.Po,n;J1TeJbHeMotlHo noxyutasa ,n;a aTJ1 pacrrYUITeHO nere. Po,n;J1TeJbKaCHO CXBaTJ1na je Mopao ycrrOCTaBJ1TJ1 KOHOllY nan OHJ1MWTO nere rnena, 'IJ1Ta, cnyura.na je Mopao ycrrOCTaBJ1TJ1rpaanue, J16e3 Ka3He J1 Harpa,n;e. KaCHO po,n;J1TeJbJ1CXBaTe na l-bJ1XOBO nere HJ1je iseroao ) He xornrpa Mo,n;eJIerronaurarsa xoje My po,n;J1TeJbJ1noxasyjy. CaBpeMeHO nere rrJ1pa Mo,n;elle xoje BJ1,n;J1 aa "rrllJ1WaHOM" eKpaHY, y CBOjOj spunsasxoj rpyrrJ1, JpTJ1hy, WKOJIJ1,na yllJ1~J1, a CBe je TO TaKO pa311J1'IJ1TOon oaora WTO MO)Ke na ,n;J1on csor ponnrersa, KOjJ1 J1Ma Tpa,n;J1~J10HallHy CBeCT J1 ,n;pyra'IJ1jJ1 CJ1CTeM e,n;HOCTJ1. MHOrJ1 po,n;J1TeJbJ1he spesseaoa, HeMohHo O,n;YCTaTJ1 on J1CrrpaBJbalba ora nerera, aepyjyhn na je ,n;OWlIOHeKO HOBOnotia J1,n;ace CBe Mopa rrpJ1XBaTJ1xao HeMJ1HOBHOCT. ElIeKTpOHCKJ1 Me,n;J1jJ1cy rnanaa BaCrrJ1Ta'IJ1 caaperaeaor nerera. ,[(OK TO He nare, po,n;J1TeJbJ1,n;O)KJ1BJbaBajynpaae nohae Mope xana J1XHaCTaBHJ1~J1 CYMlbJ1BO rnenajy sepyjyhx na cy po,n;J1TeJbJ1arpeCJ1BHJ1, HeBaCrrJ1TaHJ1 J1,n;anere casro rx J1MJ1TJ1pa.He Ka)KeM,n;a HeMa TaKBJ1Xponarezsa, allJ1 ja cana rOBOpJ1M 0 cjajCMpa,n;HJ1M, rraMeTHJ1M po,n;J1TeJbJ1Ma KOjJ1cy csoje nere noxyuraaana rta aay-re ,n;y,ana cy aa xpajy onycramr sepyjyha ,n;ahe BpeMeHoM nere 6J1TJ160Jbe. I13ry[1IJ1cy 6J1TKY. Bnpryenna "rYBepHaHTa" je rrotienana. AKo 6J1 ponarezs noxyao na J1crrpaBJ1 rpeurxe nacrojehn na csoje nere norepa y pen, na My passxje r6aB rrpeaa pa,n;y, ,n;anoxae ,n;aKOHTpOllJ1We canpacaje J1 BpeMe xoje nere rrpo1,n;J1 rrpen eKpaHOM, TeWKO he My TO rroha sa PYKOMjep he ra nere 3aycTaBJ1TJ1 oj OMarpecajoa. Kaxo 06jaCHJ1TJ1 KOMWJ1jJ1,npajarezsy, saxononaatry, counjarr)Mpa,n;HJ1KYna BJ1cana casro )KellJ1Te na J1CrrpaBJ1Te BllaCTJ1Te rpeunce. Ilere yplla :lle HohJ1 J1Y3HeMJ1paBa KOMWJ1je,casro 3aTO jep )KellJ1Te,n;a ra J1CTepaTe J13caora
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KpeBeTa (seh necer romraa CJ1Hcnasa ca MajKoM), na CTBapJ1rrOCTaBJ1Te na 3,n;p~Be OCHOBe. HJ1je pe,n;, HJ1je notipo CrraBaTJ1 y J1CTOMKpeBeTY TOllJ1KOromraa, Ha)611a)f(e pe'IeHO TO je 601lecHo. A nere CTe rrpBJ1 rryT CTaBJ1l1J1 y aaiu xpeser xana je ,n;O)f(J1BellO HohHY MOPY, 6y,n;ehJ1 ce y 3HOjy J1BpJ1WTetm. Aa CTe rana nperrosnarra HohHY MOPY, xao rrocnenxuy HaCJ1Jba y ~pTa'IJ1Ma, J1CKJbyqJ1l1J1 6J1 CTe upraxe J1 CTBapJ1 ,n;OBellJ1 y pe,n;. Ilere 6J1 cnasano y CBOMKpeBeTY, jep nere rpetia na cnaaa y CBOMKpeBeTY, a MaMa J1rara cxyna. HaKHa,n;HO xcnpaszsaa,e J1,n;e TeWKO jep cana J1MaTe crpax ,n;a xe sac rrpBJ1 xojaunrja npornacarn HaCJ1l1HJ1KOM jep nere yplla, a Ha,n;,n;eTeTOMce He CMe BPWJ1TJ1 "HaCJ1Jbe", xazce aaxoaonasau. Ilere o,n;lI)"Iyje UITa he npornacarx HaCJ1JbeM, a YBeK je peallHO ,n;ahe sa rrnamaao nere HaCJ1Jbe 6J1TJ1CBe 'IJ1Me cenare ,n;ara MelbaTe, na 60Jbe. HJ1KO He npernocraazsa ,n;acana nere BpWJ1 J1CTJ1HCKO HaCJ1Jbe nan po,n;J1TeJbeM. PeallHJ1M HaCJ1JbeM nere ysapaha y,n;apa~, spaha 6yMepaHr pomrrersy, KOjJ1je ro,n;J1HaMaynpasosaaao "rrllJ1WaHO" HaCJ1Jbe nan ,n;eTeTOM. Kana po,n;J1TeJb, snpase naaern, HarrOKOH CXBaTJ1noxae ra je nosena nmnuana npaayna, a najnoryfiaaje je CBaKaKO npeaaurruhaaan,e, xana CXBaTJ1rne cy rpeWKe, xana rroxyura ,n;a J1XJ1CrrpaBJ1, xana nere ,n;a)f(eCTOK ornop, ,n;PYWTBOhe 3aWTJ1TJ1 nere on po,n;J1TeJba. Morten npeaaurrxhasarsa ornapa rrpocTop aa paT J13Mel)y neue J1po,n;J1TeJba. A xana ,n;ol)e TpeHYTaK, xana rrynonertro nere noxae na rrpaBJ1 npofinesre ,n;PYWTBY,3aWTJ1TY aehe ,n;06J1TJ1.HarrpOTJ1B, 6J1he CaHK~J10HJ1cano rro MepJ1 3aKOHa. Ilanac ce po,n;J1TeJbJ1nnaure csoje neue, rrnaure ce aaxosonasua KOjJ1je nenpaPO,n;HOrrpe3aWTJ1TJ10 HOBe reaepauaje, ,n;OK cy neua, J13aTO po,n;J1TeJbJ1"lIaKO" o,n;ycrajy on csoje neue. HJ1je J1CTJ1Hana cy po,n;J1TeJbJ1Heo,n;rOBOpHJ1 BaCrrJ1Ta'IJ1 J1na J1MHJ1je Ba)KHOKy,n;axpne lbJ1XOBaneua, naaac. HanpOTJ1B, BeJIJ1KaBehJ1Ha ponareJba cy J13Jby6aBJ1 po,n;J1l1J1 neuy, caisamr CHOBe 0 CBOMnerery xao ,n;06pOM 'IOBeKY, nourrenov, npenaoa. Ha)KallOCT, ,n;PYWTBOje caBpeMeHJ1M po,n;J1TeJbJ1Ma HaMeTHyllO rrmnuaao aacmrraise y 3aMeHY aa peallHy Ka3HY, He 06jaCHJ1BWJ1 J1Mxoje J1X rroclIe,n;J1u;exexajy, Kana CBJ1CXBaTe ,n;acy rrpeBapeHJ1 J1na CMOJ1MJ1J1nena y npo611eMY,KaCHOje. Po,n;J1TeJbJ1,neua, J1HCTJ1TYU;J1je, ,n;PYWTBOy u;ellJ1HJ1,CBJ1cy xcprae rrllJ1WaHe rrpJ1Hy,n;e, Ha)KallOCT. IIory6Ho je npeaaurrxhaaarse nerera on )KJ1BOTa, on J1CTJ1He. On ,n;eTeTa ce KpJ1je HeMaWTJ1Ha po,n;J1TeJba, ira rrpJ1Mep. Crsapa ce nerery J1l1Y3J1jana pomrrers CBe MO)Ke, xana rpetia na J1CrryHJ1saxreae napaaara. POAJ1TeJb ce 6011eCHO )f(pTBYje 3a nere, rrosajsosyjyha HOBan, nonaacyhx xpenare, OAPJ1'IyhJ1 ce CBOjJ1Xnorpe6a, a TO CBe caste 3aTO ,n;aiseroso noxnemro nere He 611 J1MallO Malbe on ,n;pyrJ1X, na He 6J1 "rraTJ1110"
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)J;eTe ce cxnarsa OAcycpera ca cxrphy, CBOjJ1XHaj6JHD!U1X,AOKce J1CTOBpeMeHO ieua J13JI(l)f(YcycpeTY ca BJ1pTyeJIHOM cMpny, J1no HeKOJIJ1KO CaTJ1AHeBHO. rrOCJIeAJ1~e npesaurrahxaarsa cy K06He. OBa neua cy nOTnYHO 6e30cenajHa rpeaa OHOMe KO J1Xrrpesaurrahyje. 3alUTO? CBeCHO J1JIJ1HeCBeCHO neua saajy ta J1Xje nesnatse pOAJ1TeJba YBeJIO y np06JIeMe, npzce pomrrezse nOA KOHTpOrosr, cana peaJIHJ1M HaCJ1lbeM. Arpecaja rrocraje lbJ1XOBCTJ1JI)f(J1BOTa. POAJ1Telb >AJIa3J1y orpoMHy naTlbY jep J1Aalbe MJ1CJIJ1 Aa je, CBe lUTOje 'lJ1HJ10 sa nere, 6J10 Bpa3 orpOMHe lby6aBJ1 J1 'lYAe ce lUTO J1Mneua HJ1CY3aXBaJIHa. TaKBJ1 pOAJ1TebJ1 rrocrajy TaMHJ1'lapJ1 Ae'lJ1jJ1x AYlUa, a orrna J1Xneua AO rpotia xaxosaaajy sa 'pelliKe xoje HJ1CYCMeJIJ1nO'lJ1HJ1TJ1y BaCnJ1TalbY. HeCpenHJ1 ponarezs YMeCTO >'leKJ1BaHe 3aXBaJIHOCTJ1aa CBOjy ,,)f(PTBY" ):\06J1je He3aXBaJIHOCT J1nacazse cnoje teue HaA lbJ1Ma.

"MJ1A1iEHA 3BE3~A"

He KOM6uHyj'Ule uuaau U unuiuanel JIllaUluneUle na "nyupuju"

je TJ1n nerera KapaKTepJ1CTJ1'laH aa nonpysja rne je BeKOBJ1Ma AOMJ1HJ1paJIacaaxcna npJ1HYAa, a OHAa J13 CBeTa, YllleTaO HOBJ1MOAeJIsacmrraisa, n03J1TJ1BHOYCJIOBlbaBalbe. POAJ1TelbJ1cy, xao M CBJ1lbYAJ1caspeaeaor CBeTa, A06pJ1 J1MJ1TaTOpJ1. POAJ1TelbJ1 J1MJ1TJ1pajyBaCnJ1THe TpeHAoBe J13npocTor pa3JIora IlITO )f(eJIe Aa J1Mce neua IlITO naxure YKJIone y APYIliTBO. Oaor nyTa pOAJ1TelbJ1cy, J13AeJIOBa CBeTa y KojJ1Maje AO HeAaBHOBJIaAalIa caaxora npMHYAa, caBlIaAaJIJ1 J1YCBOjJ1lIJ1 MOAelIn03J1TJ1BHOryClIOBlbaBalba J1 6JIare npJ1H}7l;e, oAY3J1Malba HarpaAe. BJ1Ae OHJ1Aa neurro HJ1je y peAY. HeBOlbHO npasaajy na J1Mce AeTe nerse aa maBY jep MaJIJ111IaBpJIO 6p30 noxae Aa J1MJ1TJ1paponarezse J1 na J1XYCJIOBlbaBa. J.1Ma nere "Haj60lber" yqJ1Telba aa CBeTY, MeAJ1jeKOjJ1cy, Y3 6JIarOCJIOB ponarersa, yllIlIJ1 y nOpOAJ1~y. Tana no-onse onacna arpa no KOjOjnere npaBJ1 yjAypMe J1 onna YCJIOBlbaBapOAJ1Telba Aa ra uarpanx sa 3JIO(aKO MJ1ClIJ1 pOAJ1TelbAa OHnpecraae Aa npaBJ1 rrrynocrn, J1lIJ1aKOypaAJ1 A06po, KaKOpOAJ1Telb J1oxexyje, OHAa Mopa 6J1TJ1aarpaheao OHJ1MIlITO nere )f(elIJ1) PeKlIaMa je TY, a IlITa xaxce peKJIaMa TO je y TpeHAY. AOBOlbHO je na pOAJ1Telb HelliTO 3aXTeBa OA nerera J1 geTe Ben rrocraszsa YClIOB: "J.1cnYHJ1ny TO, aKO MJ1 KynJ111ITO J1TO." Kana MaJIJ111IanpeTepa, pOAJ1Telb 6M ra ClIaTKOnpeTYKao, amr TO aa 3ana):ly He MO)f(e, a cana He MO)f(eHH y 3eMlbaMa y TpaH3M~MjJ1. Ty je nOJIM~Mja, Ty cy pa3HO pasaa ApYlliTBa xoja IlITMTe nere, 60pe ce aa iseroaa npaBa. OA xora ra lUTJ1Te? OA pomrrezsai! -Ila, A06po CTe 'lylIM. 3aTO cy naunr racrapfiajrepa, AO HeAaBHO, rOBopMlIM CBOjOj necnocnoj Ae~M, na nyTy npeMa CBOjOj AOMOBMHJ1, Y
llaneHa 36e3ga

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oj HJilCYBJIa,n;aJIa rrpasxna paaaajenor CBeTa: ,HeKaj casro na npeljeMo rpaHJiIY6Ji1hy Bora y Te6Ji1!" IIOlllTO je npou;ec npeTfue po,n;JilTeJbJilMa,aesran,a y rpaasanaja, ,n;anehe CMeTJiI ryKy CBOjy ,n;eu;y, rpajao ronxnaaa, npnponao je ,n;acy ponarezsa KOM6Ji1HOBannaurany JiIpeaJIHy npJilHy,n;y. Ponaren,a 3eMaJba y TpaH3Ji1U;JiljJil cy KOPJilCTJilJIJiI )60,n;y, jep ce na ycaajaise 3aKOHa 0 nopo,n;JilU;JiI,re JiI3a6paHJiI qm3Ji1'1Ke JiIBepIHe npaayne, xexa JiIno naanecer remora, JiIxana fuJilXOBa YCJIOBJbaBaHa 3Bel npeTepa, (xana pomrrezs Jilcu;pnJil CBa rrmnuatra cpencrsa), OHa 6Ji1Ba )KeCTOKO esrnaheaa, na 3anaMTJiI. Ilocnenaue cy rpanorae.Ilere je nOTnYHo neaopajearxcaao JiIHeBJ1HOnoxyura,n;aje casco xorrapao ponarezse ga nponahe y 'IeMY je iseroaa KPJilBJilu;a.He BJiI,n;JiI Ie,n;Jilje.J.1CToBpeMeHO JiIpomrrezs je osajaa, nyH ocehaisa xpxaaue. Pomrren, He ~JiIna cy ra 3JIoynoTpe6Ji1JIJiI nporas pobenor nerera JiI06pHYTO. Ponxrezs BJiI,n;JiI na My nere Jil3MJiI'Ie Jil3 PYKY, a He MO)Ke ,n;a npenosna na My je !BHa xoaxypemnrja, y BacnJilTafuY ,n;eTeTa, na ,n;OMaKpyxe, Pex je 0 HeraTJilBHJilM ~p)KajJilMa Me,n;JiljJilMa JiI0 OCTaJIa 'IeTJilpJil nmnnaaa Mo,n;eJIa. IIOllTO TO He BJiI,n;JiI, ~JilTeJbHaJilBHOnonyurra nerery ,n;acare npoaona nopen .rysepaanre". To My 'IaK rpaja jep cy TO peTKJiI TpeHyU;JiI o,n;Mopa on MaJIOr ",n;JilKTaTopa". Ponsrrezs Mopa ce O,n;MOPJil KaKO 6Ji1Morao ,n;a JilcnYHJiI3aXTeB caapexene nenarornje rro KojeM pa ,n;a "rrpaTJiI" csoje nere. Kana nere YCTaHe, rj. 3aBplllJil ca "rYBepHaHTOM" OH ure HJilje MaJIJillla, OH je HJilHI,Ia, OHje MohHJiI PeHI,Iep, Exnm MeH, rrOKJilMOH,CBe cajao HJilje OH. Haje JIaKO po,n;JilTeJbYna rrparn "cBoje" nere, jep y pOKY on nOJIa ra "fuerOBO "nere rrpoveaa 6ap ner ynora. Iloxan,e na ce ,n;eJIJiI llJil30peHJiI'IHO Me1)y )KeJbe ,n;a nocnyura notipe casere CBOjJilXpomrrezsa JiIJilMJilTJilpafua BJilPTyaor aacxzsa, xoje ca naxohosr ycsaja jep je OHO nOTrrYHO y CKJIa,n;yca iseroaoa KpJilBJbeHOMnpxponoa. IIJIJilllaHO nere BpeMeHOM ry6Ji1 cnoc06HOCT ,n;apa3a3Hanotipo o,n;3JIa, aerrorpeunmo ce onpenersyje sa 3JIO JiIJilMJilTJilpara. Kana ponnrezs Iry6Ji1 JiIOHaKO JilCTaH'IaHe aepse, jep He MO)Ke ,n;a ce Jil360PJil ca nenorrycrnaaa IHalllafueM nerera, (He carnenasa ,n;aje Jil3BOP y Me,n;JiljJilMa, y nrpmrasra), cnene TJilHe jep caapesrena ponnrezs xaxce: "BHhelll ssesna, a xana rrpeTepall yMJIa,h y re: I". Bop 6 a nocraje . reurxa JiIaenpaaenna. YMeCTOna JilCKJbyqJilJil3BOpe 3JIa JiI Ipa'lyHa ce ca Y3p0U;JilMa, ponarezs JilJIJiI 6Ji1je, JilJIJiI narpahyje HecpeTHO nere, He I JIJiIaa 6Ji1JIOxojx Ha'lJilH y6JIa)KJilJIo nocnennue, y6JIa)KJilo nacazse, Hepa,n;, JIa)K, ')KHe pexa, O,n;HOC npesra po,n;JilTeJbY,6pahJil, cecrpasra, aacnara-noaa. OBaKaB O,n;HOCponarersa npeMa ,n;eTeTY je 60JIaH JiIaa ponarezsa JiIsa nere. ),n;JilTeJb HeMa ,n;OBOJbHO cxare ,n;ace o,n;yrrpe nnaiuaaov BacnJilTafuY. BJiI,n;JiI ponnJb na My je nere noxnerrao, nerso, HeBaCnJilTaHO, arpecxano, aJIJiIHeMa cnary, a HJiI raise na xpeae ,n;pyrJilM nYTeM. HeM a xpa6pOCTJiI, jep aKO CBJiInpJilcTajy na HOBe
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Mo,n;eJIeaacrnrrarsa OH He )KeJIJiIna ce Jil3,n;Bajajep ce nnaunr na he nere 6Ji1TJiI ,n;pyra'lJilje on OCTaJIJilX.To aehe 6Ji1TJiI notipo sa nere, MJilCJIJiI po,n;JilTeJb. J.1CToBpeMeHo pO.n;JilTeJbBJiI.n;JiI na HJiI)KeCTOKa rrpJilHy,n;a He HOCJiIpellefue. IIpOllJIa cy 'ra BpeMeHa xana cy ce np06JIeMJiI y nopo,n;JilU;JiIpelllaBaJIJiI Ka3HaMa JiI6aTJilHaMa. Ha)KaJIOCT, Halla "MJIaheHa" sseana JilMa npofinesre xoje peTKO KO MO)Ke na Jil3JIe'lJil. Pomrrezs je HeMohaH, jep He BJiI,n;JiI HOBOpellefue, HOBJiIrryT. J.1xana po,n;JilTeJb6Ji1Bacnpeaan .n;arrOCJIe ,n;Ba,n;eceT romma rrpeTfue ycsoja 3aXTeB .n;a He ryse csoje nere, oana ce nojase aYTopJilTapHJiI rrCJilXOJI03Ji1 JiInenarosx KOjJil,6pJilHyhJil sa Jil3ry6JbeHJiI ayropaTeT po.n;JilTeJba, rrpe,n;JIa)KY rrOHOBHOyBo1)efue 6aTJilHe. OHJiI ce CBJilMcpu;eM 3aJIa)KY aa spaharse fiarxae (OHaKO, no ryax, xana nperepa, Ka,n;ncupnaxo csa nnaurana cpe,n;CTBa, xoja raxohe 3.n;YllHO nonpxcaaajy), Hexa HaM je Bor y nOMohJil. OnpOCTJiI JilMIocnone jep He snajy urra npe,n;JIa)Ky. IIa sap HJilCMOCBe,n;OU;JiI ,n;acy ponarezsx yrrpaBo KOM6Ji1HOBaJIJiI 6aTJilHY JiInmnnano, rryHJilx nsartecer ronaaa, y 3eMJbaMa y rpaaaauaja, na ,n;06Ji1CMO aacazse HeBJil1)eHJilX pa3Mepa. 3arOBopHJilU;JiI caxo nmnuane npJilHy,n;e ce cxeure, jep saajy ,n;acy fuJilXOBereopaje cynepJilOpHe, caMOM 'IJilfueHJilU;OM,n;a nsa fuJilX CTOjJilKOp.n;OIi60pau;a JiIKOHseanaja 0 .n;e'lJiljJilMrrpaBJilMa. OHJiI he notienara, ,n;eu;a he onaxayrx, ponarezsx JiI HaCTaBHJilU;JiI he ce ynnaureno nosyha y MJilllJilje pyrre, MOJIehJilBora na neua He snajy 6all YBeK 6poj coc TeJIeOHa aa xoja he JilXnpajaarsasara aa rnynocrx, xoje he nmnuaaa neua npornauraaarx HaCJilJbeM onpacnnx, Ha,n;fuJilMa. Pe3YJITaTJiI? HacnJbe eHOpMHJilX pa3Mepa, jase JiIjaxe Jil3,n;aHa y,n;aH. OTKY,n;aacnzse xana je 6aTJilHa 3aKOHOM YKJilHYTa?Saro urro nmnnaao aacarse y BacrrJilTafuY nOTnYHo saycraszsa eMOU;JilOHaJIHJiI, MeHTaJIHJiI, Jil3Ji1'1KJiI, JilHTeJIeKTyaJIHJiI, ,n;YXOBHJiI, paCT JiIpassoj nerera, Pex je 0 eHopMHOM rtnmnarroxr HaCJilJbY, HeBJil1)eHoMy xcropa]n passoja rrenarornje, a nacarse je tracazse, 3BaJIO ce OHO JiI nmnuano. Kana ce CBe Jil3JIOMJiI,JilCKPJilBJiI, aacnojz, norncae yHyTap aecpehnor nJIJilllaHor nerera, cnenx 6YMepaHr.ll,eTe yaspaha y.n;apau;, peaJIHOM KOHKpeTHOM ?aTJilHOM. KOMe yaspahai He,n;Y)KHOMpo,n;JilTeJbY,He,n;Y)KHOM ,n;pyrapy, 6paTY, npJiljarezsy, caMOM ce6Ji1 . J.1 HaCJilJIHJilU;JiI JiI)KpTBe cy HeBJilHJiIjep JilXje HOBa nzrmuana ne,n;aromja y6e,n;JilJIa na nesrajy .n;pyrJil Jil360p, ceM nznniraaor aacrnrrarsa, . ll,aKJIe, npso ponarersa nap ronana Bplle rtmrurano nacarse Ha,n;neuoa, ()KpTBa ~e nere, ponarezs je HaCJilJIHJilK),a rrOTOMneua ysspahajy peaJIHJilM HaCJilJbeM (npaM HapaBHO, y xpajisoj HY)KP;11 )aBlbyjy irx, npere JilM,spehajy MX, snoynorpetizsaaajy Hacphy Jil3M'IKJiIna ponarezse). Cana cy caste 3aMeHJilJIJiIYJIore (ponarezs je )KpTBa, ,n;eTe je HaCJilJIHJilK). Hazrasr ce na cana paayscere pa3y caspexreae nenaroraje: "HaCJilJIHMK M )KpTBa cy MCTO" .:

Ka)~a HaCMJbe nocrarae orposrae paaaepe, rana ,n;PYlllTBO, Y TOTaJIHoj HeMO11, BPlUl1 nonarno aacazse Hap; MJIa,n;MMa,xaxosaaajyhn JilX,npeaacrrnraaajyha
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[ MeKO H rpyoo, urranosr H llIaprapenOM HJIH HX p;aHHMa H rOp;HHaMa ryura jaJIO1M nporpascoaa KOjH He peurasajy np06JIeM HaCHlba jep ce 6aBe nOCJIep;Hu;aMa, se y3pOU;HMa. "PeU;H p;porH He, IlIKOJIa 6e3 nacazsa" JIel.elbeM rrojenauxx 06JIHI 3aBHCHOCTH, MO)f(p;a nOMa)f(Y, aJIH rpajao H u;eJIOBHTO ce He peuranajy aarovlJIaHe nocaenaue nacazsa, OBa ce Hrpa 6aBlbelba HCKlbYl.HBOHaCHlbeM, xao >CJIep;HU;OM, Mopa 3aYCTaBHTH, aKO MHCJIHMOna rpajeao, HHp;HBHp;yaJIHO, rropo{l.HO,rJI06aJIHO. "MJIaneHoj 3Be3p;H" je najrexce. Hap; lbOM ce xopacre nJIHllIaHH y sacnararsy, a lp;a npeTepa, crapa, notipa 6aTHHa HJIH 6ap npHl.a 0 lbOj, crynajy na cueny, ynpxoc .KOHYH 3aKoHop;aBU;Y. Y KpaTKHM BpeMeHcKHM pa3MaU;HMa ssesna p;O)f(HBlbaBa .ehan,e p;a je u;apHu;a, a nOTOM je pop;HTelb )f(eCTOKO6au;a na "nop;". Pe3YJITaTH OBalor aacmrrarsa he ce BHp;eTH sa HeKOJIHKOronnna, xan OBa renepauaja neue craca, Y pa3BHjeHHM 3eMlbaMa, y KojHMa saxononasau Ben rop;HHaMa Mallie poznrre~Ma 3aKOHOM, no KojeM je 6aTHHa aafipaiseaa, noraba ce neurro l.YP;HO. POp;J1TelbJ1 ocrajy npasn BJ1pTy03H y KOM6HHOBalbY nJIJ111IaHHX J1 6aTJ1He. Jep;aH HeCpeTHJ1 ran, HOBHHap rrosaaror axepasxor nneanor JIHCTa MH ncnpma csoje J1CKYCTBO onrajarsy csoje p;Be neaoj-mue. Kazee, KaKO MajcTopcKH 6Hje csoje nesojaaue, HHKap;a ra HHCY npnjaaane. "CHrYPHO he sac TynJ1 xana MaJIO ojaxajy", peKox. -IE, nenojxaue, norryr MOjHX, He TyKy cxeae, TyKy cnoje MY)f(eBe", p;op;ap;e 3JIy1p;0. Ianan l.OBeK.OH je caao cnaurasao CBOjy p;YlllY, J1JIJ1je 6ap TaKO MJ1CJIJ10. OHH HeBeIlITH, CTpallIlbJ1BJ1jJ1 nourryjy 3aKOH, aJIH KOM6HHyjy nmnuaae, rrosroh :HXOJIOra H nHJIYJIe, H sa ce6e, J1 sa CBOjy p;eu;y. A xana, ynpKoc cBeMY rrnmnaxa !u;a H3pacTY y HaCHJIHHKe, a ponarezs noxyura p;a ce HeBJ1HO 6paHH, nojasrsyje ! raj J1CTH,CTpOrJ1 saxoaonasau, Ilpornaurasa ponnrezsa Hecnoc06HHM, HaCHJI~M, 0p;Y3HMa My nere 3apap; "BHIlIHX" p;pYIllTBeHHX HHTepeca. BeHY on Tyre H neua H pop;HTelbH, a HHKO p;a ce nocern H nOCTaBH npaBO rnrrae: KO ce TO Ben nyHHx uresnecer ronnna He3HaJIal.KH nOHrpaBa noponanasca sera, )f(HBOTHMa lbYP;H, HaMenynJ1 HM npesasaheay ayTopHTapHy, TOTaJIHTapHY flHllIaHY p;pecypy. Ko J1Ma npaso na p;pecypy Ha3HBa BaCnJ1TalbeM? 3arOBopHH~ osor JIyp;HJIa OP;JIyqyjy 0 Cyp;6HHH MJ1JIHOHaneue. OHH cyne caspesreaoa POP;J1!lbY, Ka)f(lbaBajynH ra aajcrpaunraje, MaTepHjaJIHHM Ka3HaMa J1JlJ10p;Y3HMalbeM eue. Ileuy HM csreurrajy y xpamrrezscxe rroponaue, xoje U cawe KopHCTe nnxurao nacrnrraise, jep sa p;pyro He aaajy, A xana HH xpaHHTelbH He nOMorHY, neua ce nsone y nonpaaao-nacrnrrae YCTaHoBe. A IlITa HX TaMO xexa? Iloroznrrel! Ha cpehy, xana ponarersa OTKPHjy JIenoTY saarsa CTBapaJIal.KOr aacmrrarsa, yriaa nocraje cnoaa xoja seayje neny H pop;HTelbe, rroponmry u;eJIy. Iloponmry P;pyIliTBO. Ine je lby6aB Ty nacazsa nexra, rp;e aacazsa nexra, sa 3aKOHOM H 3aKOonasuea rrorpefie HeMa.
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ep;aH on peTKHx THnOBa nerera cTBopeH ayTOpJ1TapHHM aacmrraisex, y Tpap;HU;HOHaJIHoj noponaua, je noopo nere - OTaU; xoaexa (nofiap l.OBeK). Ilpano je l.yp;o na nocroje Tpap;HU;HOHaJIHe rroponaue xoje cy ycnene na u3Hep;pe UCTHHCKH notipor xoaexa, l.J1jJ1je CBaKH xopax, CBaKO p;eJIO YTeMelbeHo na Jhy6aBJ1. Y cTBapu, Tpap;J1U;UOHaJIHa noponana xoja je 6J1JIa U OCTaJIa p;eJIJ1MJ1l.HO ayTopHTapna, jep je ynorpetizsasana p;Ba, on MorynJ1X rrer aYTOpHTapHHX BaCnJ1THHX Mop;eJIa, npxponao je CBeTY CJIaJIa p;eJIHMHl.HOnotipe lbyp;e. l.eMYje pex! He pap;H ce o p;eTeTY nOTnYHo Ol.YBaHe xapvoaaje, nOTnYHo oCTBapeHJ1X J13BOPHJ1Xnarona, nOTIlYHo xoaexae CBeCTH, jep cy yTJ1u;ajJ1, sacmrratsa y nopop;HU;H, yrnnaj umpe nopop;Hu;e H p;pYIllTBa BpJIO jaxx. 3Hal.H, He nocroja CTBapaJIal.KO nere y u;eJIOCTJ1 y OKBHPY Tpap;HU;HOHaJIHe nopop;J1u;e. To cy 6HJIa neua, xoja cy HMaJIa cpehy, p;a ce y paHoM nermscrsy, naby MaKap nopep; jenne ocoee (MaMe, rare, 6aKe, nexe, KOMlllHHHu;e, TeTKe), xoja je H casra HMaJIa Ol.YBaHYXapMOHJ1jy H H3BpllIUJIa n03HTHBaH eMOU;HOHaJIHHyrxuaj na nere, BacnHTaBajynH ra 6e3 aYTopUTaPHOCTJ1. Hajsaacaaje je 6uJIO, y paHOM p;eTHlbCTBY, 6HTH nopep; TaKBe ocotie, TaKBHX lbYP;H. CBH P;OU;HUjHyrauaja HJ1CYHMaJIH Mon na y nOTnYHocTH cpyllie xapaoanjy nerera. Taj MOp;eJI H3 nerarscraa ce xyaao, xao rpYMeH 3JIaTa H KOPHCTHO Y TpeHYU;HMa CBeCHOCTH. Y 6pOjHHM )f(HBOTHHM crrryanxjaxra l.OBeKayTopHTapHe CBeCTH KOPJ1CTJ1aYTopHTapHY p;06pOTY. To 3HaqH CeJIeKTHBHY, J1HTepeCHY, HayqeHY aJIJ1 H J1CTJ1HCKY, l.J1CTY, Y TpeHyU;HMa CBeCHOCTH. Tpap;J1U;HoHaJIHa nopop;Hu;a je on aajpaHJ1jer nermscraa YJIHBaJIa CBOMe l.ep;y, MHJIOM J1JIH CJ1JIOM,CJ1CTeM MOpaJIHJ1X HOPMJ1J1Bpep;HOCTJ1, BpeMeHa y KojeM )f(HBe. ,1J;eTeje yHanpep; 3HaJIO IlITa je noopo,

urra noure, WTa rrpJ1XBaTJ1TJ1,a WTa OCYP;J1TJ1, a CBeje 6J1JIOy CKJIap;yca MOpaJIOM oje je p;J1KTJ1paJIO naro P;pyWTBO. To cy nponasne Bpep;HOCTJ1J1aKOje HeWTO 6J1JIO )6po 3a jenno BpeMe, 3HaJIO ce p;a nehe 6J1Hf noopo y HOBOMspesreny. TorrJ1JIe cy ce nponaaae, aJIJ1 cy ce y CBaKO Hapep;Ho p;06a rrpeHOCJ1JIe Be'IHe, enponasne Bpep;HOCTJ1. ITpOJIa3He Bpep;HOCTJ1rroTpe6yjy J1 rrpOJIa3Hy p;06pOTY. .nax MO)f(eMOcrrpaBoM 3aKJbyqJ1TJ1 p;a je J1TaKBa p;06poTa 6J1JIa aa KOPJ1CTP;py_ (TBa J1rropop;J1u;e. PeTKJ1 cy 6J1JIJ1rrospeaeno CBeCHJ1J1y TJ1MTpeHYU;J1Macy jacno paBJ1JIJ1pa3JIJ1Ky J13Meljy CTBapaJIa'IKe, Be'IHe, YHJ1Bep3aJIHe A06poTe J1aYTopJ1cy lpHe, rrpOJIa3He notipore. Kana 6J1 ce BpahaJIJ1 HeCBeCHOCTJ1YHKU;J10HJ1CaJIJ1 a rrpJ1HU;J1rrJ1MaaYTOpJ1TapHe, J1HTepeCHe notipore J1JIJ1notipore J13crpaxa. Ha cpehy y CBJ1MBpeMeHJ1Ma cy nocrojane CTBapaJIa'IKe, u;eJIOBJ1Te, CBeCHe J1'IHOCTJ1KOjJ1cy y CBaKOMTpeHyTKy J1MaJIejacaohy J1MoryhHOCT na pa3JIJ1Kyjy pOJIa3HO on Be'IHOr, nourryjyha J1CKJbyqJ1BOBe'IHe Bpep;HOCTJ1.TaKBJ1 JbyP;J1cy e 3aJIaraJIJ1 aa J1CTJ1HCKO A06po, sa 'IOBeKa J1'IeCTO cy J1MaJIJ1cYK06e ca Jbyp;J1Ma oja cy J1HCJ1CTJ1paJIJ1 aa rrourrosarsy, KJIaCHJ1X,MOpaJIHJ1X Bpep;HOCTJ1.BJ1JIJ1cy o P;J1BOBJ1 KOjJ1cy BOP;J1JIJ1 'IOBe'IaHCTBO aanpen. Ca TJ1M A06pJ1M, CTBapaJIa'IKJ1M p;eTeTOM, 'IOBeKOM (OH HJ1je y KaTerOpJ1jJ1 Be3Y, aexan J1can, CBJ1Ma onrosaa ja'IJ1Ha, BJ1p;HaXapMOHJ1ja J1CJ1ryPHOCT KOjOMapaxe TaKBJ1JbYP;J1. YKOJIJ1KO OBO ere, OBaKaB 'IOBeK HeMa jacny CBeCT0 Bpep;HOCTJ1csoje A06poTe, J1aKO 360r fbe : csoje pa3JIJ1'IJ1TOCTJ1,'IeCTO J1Ma J1 npotineaa, CBJ1p;pyrJ1 he HeCBeCHO noxyuiaam p;a ra spare na aYTopJ1TapHY P;06pOTy.
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a lbJ1XOB J13BOPHJ1HarOH aa CTBapaJIaWTBOM Je J13Y3eTHo jax, Jep reHJ1Je . J.1Ma urra p;a nonynx 'IOBe'IaHcTBY IJ;eJIOBJ1TOCT pa3BoJa csora nyxa HJ1CYnocernn, . ie aYTOpJ1TapHJ1 CJ1CTeMaacmrratsa 6J10 MohaH. Jep J . A una ce p;eIllaBa ca caBpeMeHJ1M, rrJIJ1WaHJ1Mrenepauajasra J1fbJ1XOBOM noopoTOM? J.1Majy JIJ1je yonurre? CBaKO nere aa CBeT P;OHOCJ1 KJIJ1U;yA06pOTe, aJIJ1 ce OHa non yTJ1u;ajeM rrJIJ1WaHe, a jour rope y KOM6J1HaU;J1jJ1 peaJIHe J1rrJIJ1WaHe rrpJ1vonurre He MO)f(epa3BJ1TJ1. 3aTo nanac TOJIJ1KO 'IeCTO JbYP;J1 Tpap;J1U;J10HaJIHe HYA,e cBeCTJ1nocrarosaiy mrrarse: "lliTa ce TOp;aHac neurasa, 3aWTO BJ1We HeMa p;06pJ1X JbYP;J1"?OHJ1 ce mrrajy, jep J1Majy cehafb~ aa BpeMe y xojex cy pa~JIJ1. ITJIJ1WaHe reHepaU;J1je J1He nocrasrsajy OBOrnrran,e Jep P;06pOTY He rrperrosnajy y ce6J1, HJ1TJ1 J1Majy norpeoy aa fbOM. KaKO MO)f(e noxnenan, arpecxaaa, 3aBJ1p;aH zreis, HeCBeCTaH, oryhea, a TaKBJ1 cy MHOrJ1,jep cy )f(pTBe rrJIJ1WaHOr sacmrrarsa, p;a npenosaajy A06pOTY y ce6J1 J1p;pyroM. Caapesrene renepauaje nesrajy 'IaK HJ1cpehy p;a J1XHeKO y'IJ1 KJIaCHJ1M Bpep;HOCTJ1Ma,rrpOJIa3HJ1M jep je OBO speae y xojesr cy CBe Bpep;HOCTJ1aa rrJIO'IJ1 )f(J1BOTa,J1notipo J13JIO ce HYP;J1.ITJIJ1WaHJ1'IOBeK ca re rrJIO'Ie 6J1pa carao OHOWTO je fbeMY CJIJ1'IHO.Ha J1HTepHeTY nocroje Be'IHe Bpep;HOCTJ1,aJIJ1 ce y TOj KyTJ1jJ1 xpaje J1CBO3JIO CBeTa. ITJIJ1WaHJ1MaJIJ1WaHJ1nehe OTBapaTJ1 cajrose 6J16JIJ10TeKa, YMeTHJ1'IKJ1X ranepxja ... aJIJ1he 3aTO care rrpOBOp;J1TJ1 ua J1rpJ1u;aMa, HajHeJbyp;CKJ1jer canpscaja, aa rropaorparpaja CBJ1X06JIJ1Ka, na caxynrsarsy J1crrpa3HJ1X J1HOpMaU;J1ja,na xcnpasnoa heperaisy J1oroBapafbY, na HeKOMejc6yKy J1JIJ16pOjHJ1M ce ca ce6J1 CJIJ1'IHJ1Ma. rrpa3HJ1M opYMJ1Ma, y3 aajsehx WYHp;,ysrpezcaaajyha Casro na jenao mrrarse je Ba)f(HO p;aTJ1onrosop. "Aa JIJ1je nofipora HOBJ1Xrerrepauaja rpajao J13ry6JbeHa"? Ha cpehy, HJ1je. Oaor xaca xan noponaua OP;JIyqHO 0p;6aU;J1 rrJIJ1WaHY J1 peaJIHy rrpJ1HYP;y, sane-nose rrpou;ec spahatsa nerera, aJIJ1 J1 pomrrersa J13BOpy, J13BOPHJ1MeMOU;J1jaMa, J13BOPHJ1Mnorpefiasra. KOJIJ1KOhe nyro rpaiara rrpou;ec "Op;BpTafba" Te HaKa3He crrJ1paJIe Y KOjOj je CrraKOBaHO 3JIO J1 CBJ1HaWJ1 rrp06JIeMJ1, CBaKaKO 3aBJ1CJ1on J1CKpJ1BJbeHOCTJ1 J13BOPHJ1XeMOU;J1ja. Ty apexse He J1rpa Ba)f(HY yJIory. Bazcno je KpeHyTJ1 J1 CTJ1hJ1hesro CJ1rypHo na npaBJ1 rryr, BOJIJ1Mrta Ka)f(eM: "Byp;J1Te CTprrJbJ1BJ1.AKo CTe KPJ1BJ1JIJ1 necer ronxua, pap;J1Te aa J1CrrpaBJbafbY, na KOMYHJ1KaU;J1jJ1 6e3 Ka3He J1 narpane, 6ap necer nana, a rrO)f(eJbHO 6J1 6J1JIO J1 necer MeCeU;J1".Bpesrexosr, y Op;CyCTByayropnrapHOCTJ1,BpahaMo ce na noxerax, aa 113,BopHe eMOU;J1jexa JbYTfbY, 3p;paBy J1 rrpeKo nOTpe6HY, xa panocr 6e3 xoje ce He MO)f(e, aa 6pJ1ry xao 3aWTJ1THY eMOU;J1jy,na ryry, jaxo Ba)f(HY J1 na J13BOPHJ1,peaJIHJ1 CTPax, aa 'IYBapa HaWJ1X )f(J1BOTa.Tana ~O'IJ1fby eMOU;J1jena KpY)f(e CJI060P;HO, onpxcaaajyha TOJIJ1KO norpetiay XapMOHJ1JY u;enor rena J1 HapaBHO zryxa. TeK cana CMO3aKOpa'IJ1JIJ1 na rryT CBeCHOCTJ1,na - 51-

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H aYTOpHTapHa CBeCT rpajao aecraje, IIlTa je aarrpaso Bep6aJIH3aM? To je nocetiaa 06JIHK ,,<pHHe", "MeKe" npnayne. To HHje Bep6aJIHa npHHyp;a. Tpe6a npaBHTH pa3JIHKy. Bep6aJIHy npaayny KOPHCTHMOxao cpep;cTBo KJIaCHqHOr xaxosanaisa. Tana spehaao, BHqeMO, ncyjesro, nOBpe~yjeMo aajropaa peqHMa, ra~aMo y aajcrrafiaje raxxe HallIHX HajMHJIHjHx, oroaapaac, OMaJIOBa)f(aBaMO, nopemoao ca najropaaa. Jbyrrsa ce rpancdiopsonue y 6ec, japocr, y MP)KlbY na Hp;e xax H no raesa y xojea HaCHJIHHK)KeJIH H p;a y6Hje )KPTBY,HJIH 06pHYTO. Monepaa nCHXOJI03H H nOpOp;HqHH TepaneYTl1, npHCTaJIHQe nJIHllIaHor nacrrararsa, snajy p;a He nocroja KOHTpOJIHCaHa Bep6aJIHa H <pH3HqKa npHHyp;a, sapo-nero y Op;HOCYaa caapesreao nere, H crora crajy na CTpaHy 3aKOHop;aBQa, KOjH jacao Tpa)KH 3a6paHY 06a nacmrrna MOp;eJIa, H3 notia rpannnaoHaJIHe nopop;HQe. Bep6aJIHo HaCHJbe ca JIaKOnOM CKJIH3Hey <PH3HqKOxaxosaaarse, a <pH311qKOxazosaaan,e je rOTOBO YBeK npaheao H Bep6aJIHHM HaCHJbeM. PeTKl1 nCl1XOJI0311rrpenaaxcy na 3aKOHop;aBaQ OCTaBl1 MorynHocT pOp;HTeJbY na np"MeHH KOHTPOJIl1CaHy" Bep6aJIHy H <PH3HqKYnpHHyp;y, cxarpajyha na )Kl1BHMOy nofiy, xana HeMaMO MHoro BpeMeHa aa y6etHBalbe neue na 6yp;y 6p3a H e<pHKacHa l1 p;a H . l1)e rpex rroaexan H yp;apHTH nere. Tpe6a pa3YMeTH p;a cy 11jep;Hl1l1 p;pyrl1 nCl1XOJI03113arOBopHHQl1 aYTOpl1TapHor Bacnl1Talba. CBaKa cnozsaunsa npl1Hyp;a, 3BaJIa ce OHa nnaurana, Bep6aJIHa
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pe3YlITaTI1 nlIl1111aHOr sacnararsa 1I01ll11,na je nere arpeCI1BHO, HenOClIYlllHO, DXJIerrHO,nerso, HeCBeCHO,6e30cehajHo, rana pororrers y cTpaxy, npelIa3M na yrroJe6y Bep6alIM3Ma y BaCnMTal-bYnerera, 11nan.e ynopHo npnaeisyjyh nlIl1111aHe. Ilere ClIYllla npasne pe'-ll1, KaKO 611 6111I0nerro na ypagM OBOMlIl1OHO, ga Mopa a 6yge notipo, naMeTHO, rrocrryurao, nerro BaCnI1TaHO, ga He xpane, ga He nazce, a nourryje crapnje, HaCTaBHI1Ke, ponarerse, na, na, ga je OBO nerto, OBO PY)l(HO, BO nocanao, OBO 3a6aBHO, OBO je "I1H", OBO "OYT". CBe OBO pomerezs 113rOBapa nOMl1plbl1BOM TOHy, 61Iaro, ca )!(elbOM na nere CXBaTI1KaKO My je pogl1Telb najeha npnjarezs. CBe OBe septianae 3aXTeBe nere )!(elIl1 ga YCBOjl1,jep cy iserose [3BOpHe rrorpetie, y cxnany ca pe'-lI1Ma pogl1Telba, ana cy 113BopHe norpetia onas[0 I1CKpI1BlbeHe, Ha)l(alIOCT. Ilere )!(elIl1 na 6yge y Ml1py ca CBI1Ma,He )l(elIl1 nonerre 11cyxotie 113aTO Henpe:TaHO otiehasa na he I1cnyHMTI1 CBe 3aXTeBe pogl1Telba. Ha)!(alIOCT, xana nere MallO IOpaCTe 11 CXBaTMga Te 3aXTeBe He MO)l(e I1cnYHI1TI1, OHO BplIO gpCKO npeKl1ga iomrrezsa pe'-lI1Ma: "IlpecTaHI1 ga Me ryunnu, csrapanr!" KaKO MO)l(e neiso nere, coje BI1nenpecrano npesanrrahyjere on paga na BaM ofieha na he on cyTpa 6MTl1 spenno, xana KOg iseroaor aeacnyisenor sanarxa BI1onsrax nonsrehere aaura neha. Ilpl1HygoM, n03MTMBHI1Mycnosrsasaisea, npesaurrahaaarsea, 31I0ynoTpe60M VlMI1TaTOpCKor061II1Ka yxetsa, ponarezs cTBapa nexoae-rae YClIoBe )l(I1Blbel-ba, KOjl1 He noaaozsasajy ga nere peannsy]e 11jenaa Bep6alIHI1 3aXTeB pomrrezsa. Pacxopax 113 Meljy cersa 11MoryhHocTI1 gOBOgl1 go cyxotia. AYTopl1TapHO aacmrraise, 61II1)1(eseptianasaa, 3aXTeBa nesroryhe: 611TMMopanan y HeMOpalIHI1M YClIOBI1Ma)l(I1BOTa, 611TI1cnooonas y YClIOBI1MaKOjl1He OMOryhasajy cnooony, noha go caraopeanaaauaje, a rrpeTxogHO TI1rrlIl1111aHI1I1CKpl1Be
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ep6aJIJ13aMjeYYCKOj Be3J1 ca HAJH}DKJ1M OElIJ1KOM yqEIhA, yqEIhEM IlO,JJ;PA)J{ABAIhEM, 3AIlAM'liJ1BAIhEM, J1MJ1TJ1PAIhEM. Pe'lJ1 J1nonaurarsa ponarezsa, pe'lJ1 J1 CJIJ1KeBJ1pTyeJIHe rYBepHaHTe, nere J1MJ1TJ1pa,ycsaja, J1 >KJ1BJ1. ,JJ;eTe aYTOpJ1TapHOr CJ1CTeMa rOTOBO HJ1KaAa He cnoana cHary J1 JIenOTY BJ1IlIer 06JIJ1Ka yqelba, CAMOyqEIhA, CAMOPA,JJ;A J1 CAMOBACIlJ1TAIhA. qOBeK je pohersea AOHeo HarOH aa nOApa)KaBalbeM J1 HarOH sa caMoyqelbeM. VI jenan J1 APyrJ1 06JIJ1K yqelba cy nOTpe6HJ1 'lOBeKY. Ha necpehy, aYTOpJ1TapHO sacnararse He A03BOlbaBa 'lOBeKY Aa KOPJ1CTJ1BJ1IlIJ106JIJ1K yseisa, caMoyqelbe, J1TaKO AOJIa3J1AO 3aYCTaBlbalba paCTa CBeCHOCTJ1, AO HapYlliaBalba eMO~J10HaJIHe xapxoaaje J1 KpJ1Blbelba J13BOPHJ1Xrrorpetia. OAYBeK je 'lOBeK KOPJ1CTJ10HJ1)KJ1 06JIJ1K yqelba J1AOCTJ1raOMaKCJ1MYM y OKBJ1PY osor 06JIJ1Ka yqelba. HJ1KaAa 'lOBeK HJ1je 6J10 BehJ1 J1MJ1TaTOpHero IlITOje naaac. y TpaAJ1~J10HaJIHoj nOpOAJ1~J1 AeTeTY je OCTaBlbeH npOCTOp Aa pasnaje CBOjy OPJ1rJ1HaJIHOCT,jep je 6J10 HeraTJ1BHO YCJIOBlbaBaH J1'leCTO je 6aIlI Ta 6aTJ1Ha AOnpJ1HeJIa na nere, xana nopaCTe, xazce ce6J1: "E, 6aIlI nehy rta 6YAeM xao MOj pOAJ1Telb, HaCTaBHJ1K, APyr ... " To J1Mje J1 nOJIa3J1JIO aa PYKOMjep je y oKpY)KelbY nocrojano MHoro BJ1IlIe n03J1TJ1BHJ1Xy30pa. Kpajev nsaneceror sexa yqelbe nOApa)KaBalbeM ce MaKCJ1MaJIHO pa3BJ1JIO, napo'lJ1TO nojaaosr MeAJ1ja J1MoryhHollihy Aa ce CBe npxxasce aa lbJ1Ma J1CBe KOnJ1pa. Casto jenaa MaJIa npJ1BJ1JIerOBaHa rpyna cTBapa, CBJ1OCTaJIJ1J1MJ1TJ1pajy.Hax je nOA 3HaKOM ITJ1Talba na JIJ1je pe'l 0 CTBapaJIaIlITBY J1JIJ10 aanosorsersy J1CKpJ1BlbeHJ1X

np0J13Bol)a'la, sapan crnuaisa nporpara J1 sanoaozseisa csoje ITOXJIenHe I10rpe 6 a a He sapan AYXOBHor Y3AJ13alba -rosexa, rrorpouraxa. eaeeTJ1, IllTa ce CBe nOApa)KaBa? . ~"'aBalbeM ce YCBa)' ajy CBa rOTOBa Bep6aJIHa anatsa, KO)a CTJ1)KY OAaYTOpJ1OOAPcv., . 6 vz a)'ajy ce nOApa)KaBajy, nasrre, J1MJ1TJ1pa)y:YTBpl)eHJ1 CTaBOBJ1,aep aJIHJ1 , rera. JCB OTOBJ1MOAeJIJ1rroaauraisa, CTJ1JIOBJ1, MOAeJIJ1aacmrrarsa: nonpazcaaa3axreBJ1, r . TKBHJ1 J 1n03J1TJ1BHJ1Y30PJ1, J1AOJIJ1, J 1AeaJIJ1,J1Ae)e, MOAa, MY3J1Ka,nOJIJ1T 'yce Hera n J 'KBlbelba eMO~J10HaJIHa craisa APyrJ1x, HapO'lJ1TO ponnrezsa, a naaac rJ1Ka, crM )Kn, . 'Kille eMO~J10HaJIHa craisa CBO)J1XBJ1pTyeJIHJ1Xy30pa. eae Bn . . h Kpaj ABaAeceTor aexa je ojaxao yqelbe nOApa)KaBalbeM )ep cy MeAJ1)J1MO HJ1 a CBJ1lbyTTJ1npJ1XBaTe nOHyl)eHe MOAeJIe J1TaKO, Ha)KaJIOCT, CBJ1JIJ1'le J1I10Ma)KYAM.. . 'eAHJ1 na npyre. IlJIJ1IlIaHe renepauaje KOH3YMJ1pa)y Ha)HeraTJ1BHJ1)e BJ1pTyeJIHe ~aAP)Kaje, ycsajajy J1XJ1nO'lJ1lbY na J1X)KJ1Be.He BJ1AJ1M HJ1KaKBYonaCHOCT y rexHOJIOrJ1jJ1,HanpOTJ1B, onaCHOCT JIe)KJ1y HeraTJ1BHJ1~ BJ1pTyeJIHJ1M J1aYAJ1TJ1BH~M eaAP)KajJ1Ma, xoje neua ryrajy, Ta -ryna TeXHOJIOrJ1)e Hy~e J1 soaexae canpxcaje, anJ1 J1XnnJ1IlIaHO nere He )KeJIJ1,jep J1XHe pa3yMe. To HJ1)e neo iserosor, yHyTpaunser, J1CKpJ1BlbeHOrCBeTa. MHOrJ1 naaac ocyhyjy HeraTJ1BHe BJ1pTyeJI~e CaAP)Kaje J1csrarpajy na 6J1 lbJ1XOBJ1MYKJ1AalbeM neua 6J1na noopa. He, TO HJ1)e AOBOlbHO J1TOje npexa cxpaja. IlpBO ce Mopajy yKJ1HyTJ1 nJIJ1IlIaHJ1 BaCnJ1THJ1~OAenJ1, OMOryhJ1TJ1 spaharse J13BOPHOjCYIIITJ1HJ1, a na J13BOPYCBaKOnere rrpaan )aCHY pa3nJ1Ky J13Mel)y nofipa J1sna, uenorpenrxao ce onpeAelbyjyhJ1 aa notipo. . Ileua TpaAJ1~J10HanHe noponxue cy cnyurana 6ajKe y KojJ1Ma je 6J1no J1 sna J1 Ao6pa, anJ1 neua cy YBeK npenosnaaana Ao6po, ycsajana ra J1J1MJ1TJ1pana. ,JJ;BaBa~nJ1THa MOAeJIacy caao AenJ1MJ1'lHO KpJ1BJ1na J13BOPHO6J1he, lby6aBJ1 J1Ao6pOTe)e 6J1JIOAOBOlbHO,na cy lby6aB J1Ao6pOTa y KlbJ1raMa, y <pJ1nMOBJ1Ma,y YMeTHOCTJ1, y nOpOAJ1~J1 JIaKO npJ1XBaTaHa J1 J1MJ1TJ1paHa. Ilaaac HeMa nOpOAJ1~e Y KOjOj ce HJ1je CTBOPJ10 OTBopeH <pPOHT, cyxof J13Me~ I)y ponarersa, na jezmoj CTpaHJ1 J1 nerera J1 rserose eneKTpOHCKe "rYBepHaHTe na npyroj. 3no y6J1pa AaHaK, jep nznnuaaa neua, nOTnYHO oryhena OA ce6e, caM.O J1MJ1TJ1pajyJ1 IlITO je HajCTpaIlIHJ1je aanaxcajy J1 J1MJ1TJ1pajy cavo sno. TaMO rne )e nOApa)KaBalbe, HeMa lby6aBJ1 npesia paAY, HeMa crnapanaxxe J1HTenJ1reH~J1je, aesra caMOBaCnJ1Talba, HeMa n03J1TJ1BHOr paCTa. IlnJ1IlIaHJ1 spure nonene, na J1 noneny 113MeljyOHI1XKOjl1np0I13BOAe, xpeapajy J1OHJ1XKOjJ1KOH3YMJ1pajy J1HeKpJ1TJ1'lKJ1 nOApa)KaBajy. PeTKJ1, npJ1BJ1nerOBaHJ1, najy rOTOBa pelllelba sa CBe 06naCTJ1 )KJ1BO'ra, a rOTOBO CBe lbJ1XOBe J1Aeje cy npOTJ1B AYXOBHor paCTa xoaexa, jep cy J1CaMJ1 nocJleAI1~a nJIJ1IlIaHJ1X. Orposora BehJ1Ha CTaHOBHJ1Ka nnaaere nonpaxcaaa, rj. I1MI1Tl1pa.,lJ,OBOlbHO je nornenarx casso TeJIeBJ13J1jcKe xyhe. CBJ1 J1Majy nJ1~eH~J1palie nporpaMe, OA KOjJ1Xce He oncr yrra. CaMO APyrJ1 lbYAJ1,APyre 3eMlbe, APyrJ1

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je3Yl~YI. Taxo je y CBYlM061IaCTYlMa YMeTHOCTYl, apXYlTeKType, 06pa30Bafba. Ha CTaHAapAYlMa CBYlXBpCTa HYl'le jenaa KlIOHYlpaHYlCBeT. Ilmnnana neua TaKO BellITO YlMYlTYlpajyOApaClIe, jep neua YlMajy npYlpOAHO CHa)f(aH YlMYlTaTOpCKYl 061IYlK yxeisa, 're xonxja nocraje 60lba on oparnaana. CaspeMeHYl'lOBeK je 3aAYlBlbeH xomrjaaa, aznr HYlHe nacnyhyje na xornrja YlMaCBOj POK rpajarsa, y3 HeMoryhHoCT na YlKaAanOCTaHe 0pYlrYlHalI. Ilornenajre, Ae'lYlje eranre, Ae'lYlje eapoaasaje, Ae'lYlje My3Yl'lKe <peCTYlBalIe, noxasxaatse CBOjYlXraneaara, MOAHe peanje, Yl360pYl aa MYlC ... CBe nanarnen sanasrsyjyhe, a 601IHO sa csaxora KO 3Ha urra 3Ha'lYl anoyrrorpetia YlMYlTaTOpCKoryMa. 061IYlK Y'lefba Mopa 6YlTYl aanrpahen BYlllIYlM qOBe'laHCTBO oceha na onaj HYl)f(Yl 061IYlKOMyxersa, caaoy-rea.exr, ana He 3Ha rryT YlHa'lYlH. Kana nopomma CXBaTYlAa je sa pasnoj nerera nozcezsao Aa y npBe TpYl ronxae roTOBO He KOH3YMYlpa BYlPTyenae canpzcaje, Aa KfbYlra, xao HYl)f(a BYlpTyelIHa crsapaocr Mopa YlMaTYlnpxvar, Aa CBe AO nesere ronane MopaMo KOHTpOlIYlCaTYlurra nere rnena, cnyura, 'lYlTa... (AalbYlHCKYlHe 6Yl CMeo, AO ceAMe romme, 6YlTYl y pYKaMa nerera), rana CTBapYl A06Yljajy ApyrYl TOK. Y rrpBe TpYl rOAYlHe je rrozcersao Aa ce Yl3BOpHe eMO~Ylje pasnajajy llITO smue y pearnnoa OKOlIHOCTYlMa.Y npOTYlBHOM nere he ce YTeMelbYlTYly BYlpTyelIHYlM eMO~YljaMa. OCYlM'rora, AO cenae ronane AeTeTOB yM je oTBopeH. TIpYlMa aecenexTYlBHOYlHeKpYlTYl'lKYlCBe llITO My ce nOHYAYl.YKOlIYlKOra rryHYlMO HeraTYlBHYlM, BYlpTyelIHYlM caAp)f(ajYlMa, rrpnponao je Aa he TaKBYlcanpxcaja, OTYlhYly nOACBeCT, a nOACBeCT he, TaKBa KaKBa je, KpeYlpaTYllIYl'lHOCT onpacnor xoaexa. Pe3YlITaTe seh BYlAYlMO. Ilmnuaae renepaunje )f(YlBe y sxpryennoa cBeTY, norrryao orybene OA ce6e, npyrax lbYAYl npnpone Yl)f(YlBOTa, oryheae OA cnorsaunser CBeTa.

JIorYl'lHa rrocnenmra npxanarra nnpasome cy <pPOHTOBYlKOjYlce 'leCTO YlTpaHC<pOpMYlllIYYKOlIYlKOce Mefbajy YlHTepeCYlrpyrra Ylnojezmaana. [Ae cy <pPOHTOBYl TY je Yl60p6a, Ty je HaneTOCT, Ty je nanau HeraTYlBHOCTYlYlYBeK npYlcyTHa cpenCTBa aYTOpYlTapHOr CYlCTeMa aacmrraisa, Ty cy HeMOpalIHYl, He'lOBe'lHYl OAHOCYl Yl3Mel)y CBYlX'llIaHOBa noponxue . .A1lYl6aTYlHa YlcTpax OA fbe cy cTBapalIYl penaTYlBaH peA, 'leCTO npnaanaa, crrozsaunsn, amr npexo norpetiaa Aa 6Yl noponnua q,YHK~YlOHYlCalIaY cKlIaAY ca O'leKYlBafbYlMa ApYllITBa. A onna ce AorOAYllIO pYllIefbe MaTepYljalIHe nYlpaMYlAe. TIaAoM nYlpaMYlAe rrao je YlMyllIKapa~. 3aKoHoM saoparseaa 6aTYlHa je OCOKOlIYllIanonpehene na ce cpxaHO 60pe aa CBOjy cll060AY. CBe je 6YllIO npYlrrpeMlbeHo aa nosorperee MYllIKap~a Yl )f(eHe, aa rrosrapeise CTpOrYlX o-resa ca CBOjOMAe~OM, CBe je 6YllIO npxnpescseao aa pacT Jby6aBYl Yl,IJ:06poTe. OA csera ce HYlje amura AOrOAYllIo. CBYl usrrne nOA PYllIeBYlHaMa aYTOpYlTapHe nYlpaMYlAe, o-rexyjyha na he HeKO APyrYl nonnha CTapy nYlpaMYlAY YllIYl 6ap Ty HOBY,AYXOBHY,xoja HaM je TOlIYlKOnorpetina, ,IJ:OK,xexajy Ionoa KOjYlnehe nohx, lbYAYlorrryxcyjy jeAHYl Apyre, )f(YlBey crpaxy jep CBe nenyje npeTKaTaKlIYl3MYl'lHO. Ilenyje, TOje Ta'lHO, allYl je YlCTOTaKO Ta'lHO Aa he CBaKO MOpaTYl Aa Ha'lYlHYllIYl'lHYl aanop Ylnoxae na )f(YlBYl y OACYCTBY nnmnane YlpealIHe npYlHYAe. Hanop je y3alIyAaH YKOlIYlKO ce npeTXOAHO He YKlIOHe npenpeKe AYXOBHOMpaCTY, Ka3Ha YlHarpaAa y OAHOCYlMa.Mallo ce KO YlCTYlHCKYl naaac noxpehe. BehYlHY xao na je 3alIeAYlO crpax jep OABYlllIe nyro HellITO xexajy, Ill'ra 'leKajy? Hexajy YlCTYlHY Aa cy rrznnuaHYlrnaaaa y3pO~Yl MyKa caBpeMeHor xonexa Yluenor ApYllITBa YlAa YlXy OKBYlPY noponnne MopaMo CaMYlOTKlIOHYlTYl, KaKO 6Yl CMOynlIOBYllIYly lIyKy AYXOBHOCTYl. Ilocroje Ylnpyra nYTeBYl AYXOBHor pacTa, Bory xsana, amr nYT snarsa crsapanasxor nacrnrran,a je nax Yl'lYBa rrOpOAYl~y xoja Mopa na rpaje. Tpajahe Yl 6YlTYl yqeCHYlK y KpeYlpafby AYlBHOrA06a xoje je npeA HaMa. TIpBO rpetia Aa ce Yl3BpllIYl TpaH3Yl~Ylja TpaAYl~YlOHalIHe, AelIYlMYl'lHOaYTOpYlTapHe, rrpeKo caapesreae, nOTnYHO ayropxrapne AO crnapanaxxe nOpOAYl~e, noponnne aa rpehn MYllIeHYljYM.

xujepapxujcxa uopcquuu euuie He uociuoju

Tpaquuuouannn,

opianusauuja JlCUBOWay
napa-

Ilana je rrnpasoma, rrao je YlMyllIKapa~ ca fbeHor spxa. 3a BPX aerrocrojehe MYlAeOTYlMajy ce nere Ylceaa

Y TpaAYl~YlOHalIHoj nopomrua je nocrojana 'lBpCTa xajepapxxjcxa oprarnrsauxja )f(YlBOTa. Ha Bpxy mrpaxorne je 6YlO MyllIKapa~. 3HalIO ce: "Ko KOCYl,a KO " ,....,eTece IT BOAYHOCYl. sozreno, arrn My ce 3HalIO MeCTO. Y OKBYlPYrnaane nopomr-rHe mrpasome, na 'lYljeM je BpXy je 6YlO jenan "oAa6paHYl", nocrojano je jour HeKOlIYlKO MafbYlX rnrpasorna Hnp. ouy cy rronpebenn CBYl'llIaHOBYl nopOAI1l\e, CBeKpBYl MajKa Ylneua, Majl\Yl neua, crapajesr AeTeTY MlIal)a neua I1T,n;.

/{eUle nuje WpaJICUllO BPX uupaMuge, HeuocUlojel1e uupaMuge

Hap04.UWO He BPX,

Ha pYllIeBYlHaMa aYTOpYlTapHe nYlpaMYlAe HYlhYlhe YCKOPOjenaa HOBYlCBeT xojer he

I<peYlpaTYlYly fbeMY )f(YlBeTYl'lOBeK cTBapalIa'lKe, xoaexae CBeCTYl.To he ce noroAI1TYlTeK nOllITO ce yHyTap csaxor -ronexa, yHyTap CBaKe nOpOAYl~e, OpMYlpa CTBapalIa'lKa, ,n;BOCTpYKa, AYljaMaHTcKa nYlpaMYl,n;a, ca BpXyHCKYlM Bpe,n;HoCTYlMa,
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BeqHMM Bpep;HOCTMMa,aa CBOMBpXy. TaKaB qOBeK he <pOpMMpaTMCnOlbaIlllbM CBeT M3 paBHM Jby6aBM M ,il;06pOTe. Ilaaac, P;OK jour rpaje, MJIM ce seurrasxa rrojaoh ner npe)f(MBeJIMX cnozsaunsnx onpzcaaa ayroparapaa nMpaMMp;a,

CBaKe nmnuaae

nernue,

Ben je rnrrarse

xana he pop;MTelbM npeCTaTJII ca nmrura-

tn-fM BacnMTalbeM M neua p;aTM rrpMJIMKy na Hac saceae MCTMHCKOM,craapanax-

ya

KOM MHTeJIMreHQMjoM. HapaBHO p;a BMpTyeJIHOM nerery Koje My onrosapa, rop;M llITO ca Bpxa sarrosena, aJIMnerne p;y60KO, p;MKTap;eTe oceha p;a HellITO HMje y pep;y. Ilere 6M 6MJIO cpehno p;a ra CTaBMMO aa MeCTO TO CBaKaKO HMje raj BpX. ,il;eTe HMje )f(eJIeJIOp;a nocraae Y3pOqHMKe rserosax TOP, a MM CMOnxxraropa HY, Y csoje KPMJIO. OCMM rora nere je nere, 6e3 MyP;pOCTM)f(MBOTHe, 6e3 'MCKYCTBa M caCBMMje npapO,n;Ho,n;a onpacna Mopajy BO,n;MTM nere Kp03 rrpallIyMy ca ce,n;aMronaaa crapau )f(MBOTa. Ilere je nanac, seh BMpTyeJIHe My,n;POCTM, KOjM sarroaena, on isera CTBOPMJIM.,il;eTe CBe OBO HMje Tpa)f(MJIO on Hac, M}'Ka M crrycre ra y p;OJIM-

BacnMTHMX MOp;eJIa,norabajy ce nojase npo"nMpaMMp;e", M oryna orrer aenocrojehe "nMpaMMxana TO HMje

TMBHe snpaaoj naxerx. ,il;eTe je CTaBlbeHO aa BPX nopomorae TOJIMKMxaoc. Ilere je CTaBlbeHO M na BPX npyurrseae, ne", CBM ce ynaryjy Haj60lbeM norpourasy, BOP;M y KpeMpalb y Mrapa, xyrroanae,

KaKO je Moryne na aac "nJIMIllaHO" nere

P;OKOJIMQe, IllKOJICKMXnporpava,

OHOqeKa p;a pop;MTelbM npenosaajy

nere Ben BMpTyeJIHM jYHaK, KOjM CBe IllTO Tpa)f(M on Op;paCJIMXjecre aanosorsen,e CBOjMXnJIMllIaHMX, MCKpMBlbeHMXnorpetia. nere na sanoaena pomrrezsroaa, ma, crapau

Kaxo MO)f(e, TO MCKpMBlbeHOBMpTyeJIHO

0

na y neceroj rop;MHM )f(MBOTa Tpa)f(M p;a onnyxyje ronana

CBOMnyry, jep OH T060)f(e 3Ha nrra je sa isera notipo, )f(MBOT 60lbe on nene. Illro je aajcrpaumaje BMp;ena je MaJIMllIa BMpTyeJIHM crapau je cepsxpao expan, rseroaax na cy OBe reaepauaje nasreraa]e

Kaxo MO)f(e BMpTyeJIHM MaJIMKaKO OH paayne na sepyjy y TO, a He noaaazsa OHOllITO My

onpehyje, aapehyje,

y MJIap;OMTeJIY, p;a xasce p;ep;M op; cenavnecer

Hexana ce rOBOpMJIO: .Ko ca p;eQOMcrrasa, nonauraa

MM ,n;03BOlbaBaJIa ,n;BaayTopMTapHa sacmrraa BPX rrOpOp;MqHe rmpasome BpJIO 6P30, nourro

ce 6y,n;M".3HaJIM cy TO lby,n;M narpane

Op;paCJIMno-nosy

Tpa,n;MQMOHaJIHeCBeCTMKOjM cy, M re KaKO BOJIeJIMnere M HaCTojaJIM, KOJIMKOcy Mo,n;eJIa,na on Tor nerera xosexa. Hnxana HMKOMe, y npOllIJIOCTM, HMje nano aa naaer, M rrOCTaBM ra aa rocrrop;apa. yKMHy ayrorrMpaMMp;a y CBaKOMnoaaocoti, na nere rrOCTaBM aa

KOjM nonYT nanaraja

"CMTHMX" necer romma on rrperxonnax.

)f(MBOTa. He yotipaxcaaajre

OHe )f(MBe y MH<popMaTMqKOM MaHMrrYJIMllIe

P;pyllITBy, y BMpTyeJIHOM CBeTY KPQaTOM MH<popMaQMjaMa, rrOJIYMCTMHaM JIa)f(M. J-bMXOBOTBopeH yM CBeTO HeKpMTMqKM ycsaja, BellITO penponyxyje, Op;paCJIMMaM crsapa JIa)f(HY CJIMKY0 CBOjOj "BeJIMKOj" nasrern. nerera HMje y CPQYM rrpecMeheM He aa

pop;MTelbM M CBMOp;paCJIMqJIaHOBM noponmte

pMTapHOCT, <popMMpahe ce crrOHTaHO craapanaxxa xazce: "XpaHMO caxr rrcero, a nanac Me yjena." CaBpeMeHM ponaren,x

a rana nehe 6MTM <PPOHTOBa,cYK06a, 3JIe HaMepe, M aehe ce p;orop;MTM p;a pop;MTelb rOBope M MMCJIejour uprse M rope 0 CMMCJIYpaharsa po,n;MTelbMMa. 3aWTO? Pa3YHeM a 're cnare CMCTeMaKOjM nMpaMMp;y, jep CMCTeMaHeMa,

Pes je 0 jaKoM MMMTaTopCKOM yMy KOjM paHO YJIa3My craise BMpTyeJIHe MyP;pOCTM,MyP;pOCTM6e3 )f(MBOTHOr MCKYCTBa.YM caspesreaor ocraje My p;a aHOpeKCMqHO ryTa orpouan 6poj MH<popMaQMja, p;YXOBHor csreha M

p;a MX 6YJIMMMqHO nospaha, KaKO 6M rrpMMao HOBO csrehe. YM sarpnan npMMa nposepene mrenae norpetie, (6y6albe npMMM, jep TO oxexyjy CMMCJIeHOrroseayje pomrrezsa

neue, jep cy neua 6YKBaJIHO rrOCTaJIaJIOWMrocnonapa ce nMpaMMp;a cpyunora he rrop;MM rrpexoraeny, cnyna, a rrpBO y noponaun. ayTopMTapHy, crrolballIlbY

MeJIMCTe qMTajyhM "EYKBap" p;a cy CBM BacnMTHM MOp;eJIM aa CQeHM )f(MBOTa, p;a

Bpep;HOCTM, xoje HyP;MllIKOJICKM, 06pa30BHM CMCTeM.AKO MX M "crrOH30pM", rOTOBO CBe ce ycsaja sarraver, MaTepMjaJI, 6e3 cnocotinocra orrrepehyje xao rroTpollIHM na ce CBe aayseao

M KOPMCTMY <pyHKQMjM pasaajarsa

CBeCHOCTM.TaKBo yqelbe xojer nospeJIOrMqHO

M rryKo perrporryxoaaise)

yM M 3aTO ce yM crrOHTaHO oCJI06a-

MMa caxio rrer npeaoraenax ayropnrapaax fhMXOBO apesre MCTMqe, xa cpehy,

BacrrMTHMX MOp;eJIa,KOjM npase xaoc.

l)a M OBMXMH<popMaQMja, KaKO 6M Morao p;a BpllIM yJIory xoxmjyrepa, MeHO rpefia Ilourro oCJI06al)aTM nenorpefianx <pajJIOBaM BMpyca. cy nere rrOCTaBMJIMM na BPX nenocrojehe

CTBapaJIaqKa noponxua je 'ra xoja he npna yKMHyTM aYTopMTapHOCT, cnoaTaHO ,hop 't' MMpaTM qOBeqHY rrMpaMMp;y, yHyTap csaxor xosexa, rra he CBM Op;HOCM 6l1Tl1 rrpO)f(eTI1 Jby6aBlby I1 ,il;06POTOM. Ilp06JIeM je 6MJIa I1 OCTaJIa ayTopMTapHa lhYACI<aCBeCT. JbYP;11 nanac He rpetia na rpoure cHary M3MMllIlbajyhM HOBe 06JIMI<e BJIaCTI1 . Tor opraaasoaaa,a. CBe CTpyKType M 06JIMQM opranxsosan,a KOjM cy nOCTO)aJII1 . y aYTopMTapHOM CMCTeMY, nocrojahe M y BpeMeHY p;YXOBHOCTMxoje je npep; aa Ma, a crnaparraxxa CBeCT he KOHaqHO nOKa3aTM YHMBep3aJIHOCT OBMX CTPYI<TY pa, HapOqMTO YHMBep3aJIHO aaaserse noponxue. Ca npoMeHoM CBeCTM . . Aona3e qOB eqHe Mp;e)e - Mp;e)aMa M p;eJIMMaaYTopMTapHe, MMMTaTopCKe CBeCTMje - 61-

llIKOJICKe napaxnne

je p;a nporpecopn

rrpaTe BMpTyeJIHOr, nmnuaaor haxa, yrahajylu MY, npesaurr: hyjyh ra, a p;a HM caMM He snajy, 3allITO TO qMHe. Ilanac rOTOBO xexrare rrpo<pecopa KOjM He naj aBlbyj e p;aH rrpOBepe aaaisa M rpazniao xoje he 6MTM 06YXBaneHO. YqeHMQM yqe xasmarscxa, rrpep;MeT, rro npenwer a rrOCJIe CBaKe p;06MjeHe oueae rpaace on pop;MTelba na ce MaJIO op;Mope op; yqelba, oxexyjyh naacaa orrpaBp;alba.

Ileua 36Mlba ocehajy yMOp M cnpaBoM Tpa)f(e OP;MOP,aJIM HMje CTBap y OP;MOPYon
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OP;3BOHHlIO.Ilaxne, rrOpOp;HIJ;a nehe HeCTaTH, casro he nposreaa CBeCTH CTBOPHTH HOBe onnoce, ITa THMe H HOBe canpxcaje. Y craapanasxoj rrOpOp;HIJ;H,Ma xojer o6lIHKa OHa 6HlIa, lbyP;H he qyTH jep;Hl1 npyre, )KHBehe y P;OlIHHH, ca qBPCTHM ynyrpaunsioa p;HjaMaHTHMa, CBeCHl1 11 npenyaa Jhy6aBH H Ilotipore. Ine cy Jhy6aB H ,[(o6p0Ta, Ty je xspcra sesa Me1)y lbyp;HMa. Ty je xapaoanja nojenanua, Ty je xapaoazja y Op;HOCl1Ma,CBe ce CYCTl1qe cavopeanasyjy 11cassoocrnape, YBeK Kp03 11nornouaace na ce CBHcaaocnosnajy, Jhy6aB. ,[(eTe He )KelIH Hl1 BlIaCT, Hl1 poncrao, jep 11jenno H npyro pyllIl1 XapMOHl1jy y lbeMy, y noponaux. J.1 3aTO nere nopyxyje, casro ra Ml1 He qyjeMO: Hehy BlIaCT! Xohy npaso na cTBapalIaqKY noponauy, xohy npaso na Jhy6aB!

III

KJbyq 3A JbYEAB CY XAPMOHJ130BAHE EMOUJ1JE

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I1ET I1JIMIIIAHMX. - I1ET M3BOPHMX EMOUMJA

06paUlUUle UaJICtby

OBeK ce

paha

ca ner

W3BOPHWX eMo~wja, MajKy W yn030pwlIa

xoje wMajy 3alllTWTHY je p;a je rnanna,

cpyHK~wjy.

KaKO 6w 6e6a noasana KaKO 6w joj

na HeMa eMO~Wr yre,

jy lbYTlbe.

noxasana
6pwry,

p;a je 601IW cToMatmh

p;a HeMa eMo~wjy

KOjOM he W3pa3WTW 601I W norpefiy aa MajqWHWM npwcycTBOM. P;OHOCWMO:lbyTlby, panocr, Tyry,

Ilaxzre, poheisev
y OKBWPY OBWX

py je WlIaKO ycnoCTaBlba

eMo~woHalIHy

Marro xapaoaajy jep

CTpax.

nere je qWCTO, na W3BOce

xpehe

ner exouaja.
BpeMeHOM y ayTopwTapHWM jy CBOjy CTpyKTypy, CHyTWX, aacnojemrx, eMO~wja nocraje rrojaqaHOM YClIOBWMa )f(WBOTa esrouaje ce aacnojasajy, Melba-

op; W3BOPHWX, 3p;paBWX, 3alllTWTHWX eMo~wja,

npeKO nOTW-

aarnann-ennx, WCKpWBlbeHWX, CBe P;O CMpTHWX rpeXOBa. Bpoj orpoxraa jep je peq 0 cyticrpyxrypaaa, Ha eMo~wjw rsyrise, ca
lbYTlba aa lbYTlbW, 3HaqW W3BOPHWX rpexa.
KOlIWKO

npWHyp;OM, janzsa ce HOBW 061IWK rsyrne,

6ec W TaKO CBe P;O CMpTHor

W KaKBO he ce

xpxsn.ea,e

eMOl~wja P;OroP;WTW,3aBWCW op; 6poja jaqWHe W yqeCTalIOCTW lbWXOBe

ayTopwTapHWX

BacrrWTHWX Mop;elIa, lbWXOBe

op; rrpWpop;He KOHCTwTy~wje

Al1:He BaCnl1:THe Mop;elIe.

npnxese, Hap; qOBeKOM W HapaBHO CBe 3aBWCW W xoaexa. Hxcy CBW lbyP;W jenaaxo OTnopHW xa rroje-

alll1: je Ka3Ha

y TpaAl1:~l1:0HalIHoj nopop;w~w cpW3WqKa Ka3Ha Wnerra peq cy 6WlIW rrpwcyTHW, ynpaxosaaana pelIaTWBHO peTKO jep je CBaKO nere yHanpep; 3HaJIO
TeK nOIllTO 6w rrpaBWlIa 6wJIa rrpeKpllleHa nere

rrpaBl1:11axoja Mopa na nourryje. 6l1: 6l1:1I0 )f(eCTOKO

xaaosaaaao,

QH13W'IKH HlIH Bep6aJIHO. nOCJIe,o;H~e HHCY 6HJIe

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ronmco

TpaYMan1qHe

jep je peJIanmHO

snpasa

rraTpHjapXaJIHa

noponnua

KOPH-

CTHJIa peTKO <PH3HqKY, Bep6aJIHy

HJIH 6HJIO xojy p;pyry BpCTy Ka)l(lbaBalba.

Y caspeaenoj Y

rrOpOp;HIJ;H CBaKa H3BopHa eMOIJ;Hja je rrOKpHBeHa jep;HHM rrJIHy KOHTHHYHTeTY, y noponaun, norpefia y BpTHny, aa npa-

<.>unoc,.
JbYEiAB,

uraHHM BacrrHTHMM MOp;eJIOM. To rpaje lllKOJIH, na YJIHIJ;H. Kpnazserse

je BeJIHKO, HarreTOCT orpoMHa,

)f(lbelbeM orposrnor

HarreTOCTH rrpeBeJIHKa, a JIOrHqHa rrOCJIep;HIJ;acsera rora aacnzsa y

je, rrpHcYCTBO HaKO

rop,aoa

~~,

caapevenoj
na yqelbe

rrOpOp;HIJ;H, nnmuaaor,

a rrOTOM, peannor,

je OHO H 3aKOHOM saoparseao. ,1J;a HHcaM naaurna rocnonana

Ilapxa,

na yqelbe

neroenexsetrrno]
MOp;eJIe H

eMOIJ;HOHaJIHoj CTpyKTypH

He 6HX HMaJIa HaqHHa na crrojasr

sacmrrae

H3BopHe eMOIJ;Hje, He 6HX Moma p;a p;OKa)l(eM urra ce neurasa y rrpHcycTBy CTBY aYTopHTapHOCTH, OP;HOCHO ner nnauranax, JIa CTBapaJIaqKO aacmrraise. "KHHecKH", yqelbe JIa

HJIH oncy-

Haxana

He 6HX HayqHO YTeMelbH-

Cpehna

caM lllTO je rocnomm

Ilapx

ycrreo na qYBeHH

eneprercxn
Ilapxa

car ncrryaa

eaepnrjaxa

qOBeKOBHM. ,1J;OK HHcaM ynoaaana "caTa", BHp;exoje CHJIOBHTO

rocnonaaa cnozsaunse

ja casr, xao H MHorH, YBeK y OKBHPY osor xoje p;OJIa3e H3

caao

eneprnje, eaepruje

npxpone,

~3.

YTHqy na xoaexa, HOCTxonexa

aJIH HHKap;a He YTHqy y TOJIHKOj MepH KOJIHKOYTHqe aYTOpHTapje xana

Hap; qOBeKOM. Crpaunro

sarpeaa, rrpHpop;Ha
noxcapa

crnxxja,

yHHlllTH KOjH sac

P;01\1, HMalbe, qelbap;, aJIH je neyrropenaso

crpauranje

xana BaM KOMlllHja, noxnerme, Hapop;a.

Mp3H, aanann

onsmure

MJIH xana paTHM rrO)l(apH,

arpeCMBHe

CBeCTM, ymnnrasajy

CBe saure M naunrx ce npaxsarajy,

HajMMJIHjMX, samer

Ilpxponae

crnxaje

xao HeMMHOBHOCT, nenena

rsyncxa,

xao

lIyP;OCT, xoja Tpa)l(M OCBeTY pMTapHa, qOBeK qHHM

cprse. Ilpxpona pap;H CBOj nocao nenena, aaaocehx naTlbY npyrox qOBeKY, npseha,

M OHa HMje ayTo-

CBeCHOMlIH HeCBe-

CHO M TO je aYTopMTapHOCT.

Barpa
penoa,

ronn

MeT all, sona racn BaTpy, rne je amue

Malbe je 3eMlbe

H TaKO

Metre OBaKBa nOCTaBKa KMHeCKor cara HHje naaonana

p;a na ClIMqaH HaqHH

ycnOCTaBHM Be3Y M3Mel)y ayTopMTapHHX BO Me je OP;HOCner enesreaara, OP;HOC xoaexa

BacnMTHMX Mop;elIa H qOBeKa. J1CKlbyqH-

(npso, BaTpa, 3eMlba, MeTalI H sona), aCOIJ;MpaOaa

KOlIM-

M npMpop;e, a OH MH HMKap;a HMje 6MO TOlIMKO satipmsaaajyha,

KO caM BelIMKO 31I0 BMp;elIa y He3p;paBHM Op;HOCHMa Mel)y lbyp;MMa. IlOClIe nyroronaunser
30<pMje"

M3yqaBaiba OBe p;MBHe amepHaTHBHe

Mep;HIJ;MHeM ,,<pMlIO-

xoja je npaTH, YBHp;elIa caM Be3Y, H3Mel)y lbYP;CKHX eMOIJ;Hja M BacnMTHMX

Mop;elIa. Jep;HOCTaBHO cast, na neT M3BOPHHX eMOIJ;Hja nocnarana aacrnrrae mrran,a,

Mop;elIe,

onrosapajyhc

crrojrora

HX M p;06HlIa HayqHy 3aCHOBaHOCT CTBapaJIaqKOr sacCBeCTH csaxor -roaexa, xao H rrory6-

iseron

rr03HTHBaH yTMIJ;aj aa pasaoj ayropxrapaor aacmrraor

HOCT yrmraja

CMCTeMa.

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ouueo 110cMaUlpajUle

UleMY

pasyweheiue Be3Y

leMO on senene KpY)f(HHlJ,e, on KpY)f(HHlJ,enon 6pojeM jenan. OHa npeztcraarsa (Hjy lbyTlbe. IlOTOM nocaarpajao KpY)f(HHlJ,epanocra, 6pHre, .ryre no cTpaxa. :y TO 3aIllTHTHe, npexo norpefiae eMOIJ,Hje, xoje y cTBapalIa'-IKHM yClIoBHMa, [OBHMa 6e3 Ka3He H aarpane, 6e3 "nlIHIllaHHX" KppKe clI060.n;HO, xynajylu, [pel)yjYOH, rronpanrsajyha eMOIJ,MOHalIHO,<pM3H'-IKO,MeHTalIHO M .n;YXOBHO arse. :eMa nacnojasaisa, nOTMCKHBalba, HeMa KpHBlbelba H3BOPHMXeMOIJ,Hja,y oncyaYTOpMTapHOCTH. CTBopeHM cy YClIOBM3a passoj eMOIJ,MOHalIHeMHTelIMreH, xoja ce ycnOCTaBlba npH clI060.n;HOM npOTOKY H3BOPHHX eMOIJ,Hja. ana HMaMO pasnore .n;a y peaJIHOM CBeTY 6y.n;eMO lbyTH, pa.n;OCHH, 6PM)f(HH, 'IH, ynnaurenn, TaKBM rpetia M.n;a6y.n;eMO.Hexa peaJIHa IbYTlba craca H y 6ec, aexa He rpaje npe.n;yro, nexa ce 6p30 BpaTM M3BOPY,na ce He 6H aarrraanna, ojxna, HCKpMBMlIaMJIHnOTMCHYlIa. Hexa 6pHra, Y3pOKOBaHa peanmor yClIO1 )f(HBOTa rpaje, uexa Hac HMKOHe y6el)yje .n;aje pe'-I 0 aerarnnaoj eMOIJ,HjH. POTHB, 6pHra je BpJIO 6HTHa eMOIJ,Mjajep HMa orpoMHy 3aIllTHTHY <PYHKIJ,Hjy. Hac yMHpH, na HaM BpeMeHa .n;apa3MHClIHMO urra H KaKO narse, alIH aKO 6H ImaBHJIH na eMOIJ,HjH 6pHre, TeIllKO 6H pa3peIllHJIH CBOj np06JIeM H )f(HBOT na craje sa Hac. Hexo rraxerarr pe'-Ie: "IlaTOlIOIllKOM 6pHrOM noxasyjeao na )jHMO aexer IllTO ce anje HM .n;Oro.n;HJIO, HJIH ce HHKa.n;a nehe HH noromrrx." ~a xoja HHje nOTHCHYTa, nacnojena, sarnaarseaa BO.n;H y CBeCHOCT.CBaKa .n;pyra 'a, HapO'-IHTO OHa xoja je Y3pOKOBaHa BHpTyeJIHOM CTBapHOIllOY HJIHje nOCJIe1 KOHCTaHTHe ynorpetie npeaaurrahasan,a, casro HaM IllTeTH. BeK HanOMeHeM: YKOlIHKOHeKO HMa sarrrasrsexe eMOIJ,Hje, a He rrosraace My TBapaJIa'-IKO nacrorraise, MJIHHeMa CTpnlbelba.n;a xexa na ce norona noaparax IPY,)f(HBeOH na npHHIJ,HnHMa CTBapaJIa'-IKOr aacrnrrarsa, nexa nOTpa)f(M no MOO 'pHaTHBHHX MeTo.n;a M TeXHHKa rrexetsa, Ty cy M lIeKapH KJIaCH'-IHeMe.n;HIJ,HHe, COJI03H, ncaxrrjarpx, IJ,pKBa, MOlIHTBa (naaac HMa anan.a y H306HlbY. CBaKO fIaTH urra My uajamue onroaapa. Ba)f(HO je IllTO npe na ce BpaTHMO H3BOPY.) lKO ce O.n;JIyqHMOsa nOMOO, 6Hoe TO noopo jep ce, nocne peIlleHor np061IeMa, je narrpanao sacroj, spahaao nopo.n;HIJ,H, aacraarsajyha .n;a ynpa)f(lbaBaMO be CTBapaJIa'-IKOr nacmrraisa, xpneha xa BPJIHHCKOMnyTy )f(HBOTa, ynarrpeOH lJ,elIOKynHH nOTeHIJ,HjalI CBHX'-IJIaHOBarroponxue. OBO suaise HaM novaxce e '-IHHMMOrpeurxe xoje cy '-IHHHlIMnaunr po.n;HTelbt1. MH aehevo 6HTH Y3POK O;HOHalIHHX rrarrs a naure neue, a CBOjHMpo.n;HTelbHMa hesro ca naxohoxr onporH rpeunce xoje cy '-IHHHlIHy neanan.y,
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AKO HeMa BeJIHKHXeMOIJ,HOHalIHHxnopesrehaja, aKO HeMa nO.THCKHBalba, HaClIOKO ce HH )'enna eMOIJ,Mja He sarnaaa npenyro, rana )e npHpo.n;HO na He jaBalba, a . HM rryroTpa)'HM crpec KOjM yrpO)f(aBa TeJIO, KO)HyrpO)f(aBa aaur MeHTalI~a~n M . 0KynHM eMOIJ,MOHalIHM,na H .n;YXOBHH HMBO, He yrpO)f(aBa Tpa)HO HaIllY }lH,lJ,e 1I J{apMO}lHjy H yHyTpaIlllbM MHp. AKO cy O.n;HOCM Mel)y lby.n;HMa '-IOBe'-IHH,6e3 YMeTalba Ka3He H aarpane, oana a Y3pacTa, Y3pacTa CBeCHOCT,HapO'-IHTO A06poTa, re HalIHa HHTelIMreHIJ,H)' eMOIJ,HO . je H cnoc06HOCT npMxBaTalba, onpaurraisa H 3aXBaJIHOCTH npHpo.n;Ha nOCJIe.n;H'u

lJ,aTor pacTa. . . . Hexa Hac He '-Iy.n;Hsaurro canpextene, nnmnaae renepauaje aesrajy ocehaj 3aXBaJIHOCTH. Ha '-IeMY 6M MomH na ocehajy 3aXBaJIHOCT? MJIa.n;MHe Mory H aehe na 6y.n;y 3aXBaJIHMjep CMOMX nesaarsea, ynorpecox CBHXner aYTOpHTapHHX sacnHTHHX Mo.n;eJIa,YBeJIMy CMpTHe rpeXOBe, y narisy, y CTalIHY rrorpecy na ce Malllajy sa 31I0. .' Ila)f(lbMBO nocxarpajre Be3Y M3Mel)y npnayne, eMOIJ,HJeIbYTlbe H opraH a KOJe nOKpHBa eMOIJ,MjaIbYTlbe M TaKO pe.n;OM.HeM a ponjrren,a, HH.n;eTeTa xoje 6H HCTpajaBaJIO na Ka3HM H aarpana, nOIllTO carnenajy HeraTMBHe nocnemme ayTopMTapHHX BacnMTHMX Mo.n;eJIa,Y OBOMcnysajy pealIHe MlIH nmnuaae npmryne. Je.n;HHapa31IHKa je IllTO ynorpefiosr caao peaJIHe Ka3He (<pM3M'-IKe H aepoanae npmryne), eMOIJ,MjaIbYTlbe, 6MBa nacnojeaa, anx ce nOCJIe .n;06HjeHHx 6aTHHa nere HeKaKO CMMpHjep je Hcnpa3HMlIO 6ec. YnoTpe60M caao peaJIHe Ka3He, YKOlIHKO OHa HMje npeTelliKa H onaaure '-IeCTa, '-IOBeK roTOBO HHKa.n;a nehe .n;OOHy CT~lbe rnesa. Moxee .n;OOHno adiexra, aJIM aKO HaCHlIHMKHMa cpehy .n;aMy cpraa HHJe y 61IH3HHH, arpexar he rrpohn H aacxrse nehe 6HTH H3BpIlleHO. Ha)f(alIOCT, ynorpefiosr 61Iare npHHy.n;e, 0.n;Y3MMajYOM nerery 06eoaHY narpa.n;y,jep HHje 06aBHlIO sanarax, <PPYCTpHpaHO, nOXJIenHO nere norxcxyje IbYTlbY, jep He CMe pomrrezsy .n;aynyTM arpecajy, jep Mopa aa 6HlIO KOjH, Haj60lbe cnozsa nOMHplbMBH Ha'-IHH,.n;a nohe no )f(elbeHe narpane. Ta nOTHCHYTa eMOIJ,HjaIbYTlbe ce YHYTap rena, TpaHc<popMHIlle y CBe Moryoe csoje 061IHKe, norncxyje ce H aacnojaaa, TaKO nOTMCHYTa. Kana reno He MO)f(e BHIlle na H3.n;P)f(H,IbYTlba, y BM.n;yrneaa, nOKYlba H nacarse najroper 061IHKa, nacarse xoje rpaje, je HeMMHOBHO.IlOBO.n;aa HaCHlbe je aeaaacan H yrnaanoa y nosony He nezce npaBH Y3PO'-IHHIJ,H.)l{ecToKoM MOMKYHeKO je yrryrno npeKM nomen. Cesayhe HO)f(, aa CKOPO HeBMHY)f(pTBY A Y3pOKje nyroronaum.e, CHCTeMaTCKO, rrJIMIllaHO MalITpeTIlfpalbe nerera y noponn1J,I1, HaI13MeHH'-IHOMnpHMeHoM narpahasatsa M nnamaaor xaxoeaeaiea. Ila JII1BaM je cana jacno 3aIllTO MlIa.n;'-IOBeKxojer je .n;pyr casto Bep6alIHO nospeAI10, 111IHMy je o'reo narxxe HJIH je rtornenao lberOBY nenojxy, He '-IHHH HaCHIbe y arpexr-y, IlOJIaKO 0.n;lIa3H KyhH, Y3HMa naurrors, nOTnYHo CBeCHO ce apaha,
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IpOHalla3H ieMa

CBOra p;pyra jep

H y6Hja

ra. CBe llH'-lH na y6HCTBO C rrpep;YMHIIIJbajeM. y TpeHY, amr

Tap;a IIIeCTa

eneprnja, (nornenajre

OpaH)K KPY)KHHU;y),

eneprnja Panocrx,

3ap;0-

rnes, xao rrOTrrYHO 60lleCHO cran.e rMa, rpaje H '-lHH HaCHJba MO)Ke 6HTH p;yro onnaran, aznr he 6HTH H3BpIIIeH. Hajxe., uhe )KpTBa 6HBa casro OKHp;a'-l sa npaaosea,e "rrpeTHc noaua", 110BOP; HHje MHoro
xcyptie, JHTaH, 6HTHO je

arpexar npohe

BOJbCTBa,.I(06poTe, MHP,

.I(06pe HaMepe, P;OHOCHCBaKOM qllaHY rropop;Hu;e yHyTpaIIIlbH

na

ce HaCHllHHK oCll060P;H HarreTOCTH, xao

orpoMHor

TepeTa KOjH HOCH Y ce6H, rryroronxnnse rrOTHCKHBa-

jaxa cnocotiaocr p;a ce H 31I0 H notipo rrpHxBaTe xao .I(06po. Moj Hapop; rreno Ka)f(e H sa HajTe)KY caryannjy y KOjOj ce '-lOBeK aahe: .Ko 3Ha 3aIIITO je TO notipo", A rne je .I(06poTa, .I(06pa HaMepa, yHyTpaIIIlbH MHP, 3ap;OBOJbCTBO,Jby6aB ce,
Kao cep;Ma enepnrja, TpaIIIlbH rrpOCTope nojasrsyje
6e3 HaIIIe BOJbe. Jby6aB

na ce

oClI060P;H orposrae

nocnenaue

H .I(06poTa

rrocrajy

yHy-

xoja ce xonuenrpoaana y rnes, xao CMpTHH rpex. Carta je lIaKIIIe carnenarn H pa3YMeTH rrojasy HaCHJba y u;elIHHH, xao H orpou. aor cexcyannor HaCHJba, y <PYHKU;HjH npasosersa HarreTOCTH. HarOMHlIaHa, HeH3o;p)KHBa HarreTOCT ce Haj6p)Ke rrpa3HH rrYTeM cexcyannor '-lHHa. Bazsa caao HahH >KPTBy. He npeaa ce p;a )KpTBa 6yp;e H HeKO KO je y aenocpenaoj 61IH3HHH, y nopogHU;H. Saro cy H HeBHHa neua TaKO '-leCTO )KpTBe cexcyazmor HaCHJba y rroponnzsyrrse, U;H, na YlIHU;H ...

ae

"KOHTPOlIOpH". CBe H na

xohe

qOBeK He MO)Ke p;a qHHH 31I0, aKO je OCBOjHO

craapanaxxe

.I(06pOTe. Ty BpCTy .I(06poTe

noxpehe jax

YBeK H jemrao

.I(06pa

HaMepa, KOjOj rrpeTXop;e xapMOHH30BaHe Hehe rrOKpeHYTH rraTOlIOIIIKH crpax,

H3BopHe esrouxje. HlIH

Hrrxana

.I(06py HaMepy

mrrepec

CMpTHH rpex. AKO YKllOHHMOTHBaU;Hja, Jby6aB.

MO npaayny y HaIIIHM Op;HOCHMa, noxpenyhe YKOlIHKO rrpHHyp;a HHje

ce yHyTpaIIIlba

noxeno p;aBHO H TaKO HaHBHO: "E, cana HeheIII rnenara uprah, jep HHCH cxynao nrpavxe!", H TaKO 6ap nernaecr rryTa p;HeBHO, rryHHx nernaecr ronnna. OHlIO 6H CBe npyra-raje, casro na je pOp;HTeJb saao KOllHKY orraCHOCT HOCH rrlIHIIIaA CBe je

xecra, HHje jaxa H caao je OCTaTaK ayroprrrapne CBeCTH, xoja ce npeotipazcasa, jasnhe ce JbYTlba, alIH JbYTlba xoja noxpehe xosexa na 3p;paBY, KOHCTPYKTHBHY axuajy, nocne xoje ce 6p30 H e<pHKaCHO paspeuraaa HeKH
ropyhH, BlIaCTHTH HlIH rrOpOp;HqHH rrp061IeM. qOBeK, EMOU;HOHalIHO HHTelIHreHTaH

onaj

KojeM je oxoryhea .I(06poTe

clI060p;aH

rrpo-

aa

rrpHHyp;a, Mop;epHa Ka3Ha.

xoja HeMa rpanaua, xoja HHje HHTepeCHa, xoja He 3Ha IIITa je <pPOHT,IIITa cy nonene aa notipo H 31I0. Jep;HOM pesjy CBe je aa lby .I(06po. qOBeK craapanasxe .I(06poTe je notiap y u;elIOCTH, aecelIeKTHBHO, cayna H na CBaKOM MecTy. Moj aapon BelIH: "AKO TH He Mory novoha,
TOK H3BOPHHX eMoU;Hja, je y craisy .I(06poTe, op;MohH TH CHryPHO

EMOU;UOHallHOMUHUlellufeHu;ujoM go ciaeapananxe /{06pOUle

Kana
je rrpoToK H3BOPHHX esrouaja HeCMeTaH, notiap, a

nehy"

AYTopHTapHa

CBeCT aajxeurhe

Op;Ma)Ke,

xana

MHClIH

na

je

aa

BpXyHU;y p;06pOTe. "cpu;e", 3Ha p;a He

qOBeK qHjH ce YM crrYCTHO Y xapMOHH30BaHO BaTH,

rpeoa

xaxosa-

notiap

je aKO y

onnoce

ca

p;pyrHMa

H ca caMHM C060M He YMeheMO HH ce CBeCHO yHyTpaIIIlbe

jenan

061IHK rrpHHyp;e. HapO'-lHTO

je
cy

rrO)KeJbHO oClI06a1jaTH

rrpHHyp;e (casronpaayne)

xojy
Hexana

aarpabasara a HapOqHTO He rpetia xoaexa rrpe3aIIITHhHBaTH. YBeK narrona Op;CYCTBOaYTopHTapHOCTH, He 3HaqH xaoc, aaapxnjy, Hepep;. HarrpOTHB. l.JoBeK yayrpaunse xapaoanje rrorpetiyje CrrOJbaIIIlbH pep;, xapraoaajy. Kana oncyCTBO OBa TpH aacmrraa Mop;elIa rrocraae 3aKOH aa qOBeKa, razra He rpetia pa3MHMeHeM lliJbaTH MHoro p;a lIH je yqHlbeHo OCBeIIIheHe .I(06poTe. HlIH He yqHlbeHo, qHH .I(06poTe.

HaIIIH pOp;HTeJbH yrpap;HlIH HeKOllHKO romma, rOBopHlIO:

y Hac. OHllO je p;OBOJbHOna Hac HeKO xaxosasa

cnozsa ce

Tana

CTe qOBeK

a rrOTOM HaCTaBJbaMO ce6e caMH p;a xaxosanaxto.

nere no ocasnraecre romrae, a nocne He 6pHHH". OHlIO je P;OBOJbHO cavo ocavaaecr romme p;a ce yrpap;e MopallHH "qHrrOBH" H p;a op;paCTao
"BacrrHTaBaj qOBeK pearyje rre, xnpcre oceharsev KpHBHu;e,

Hexana

he TaKBa, oCBeIIIheHa

.I(06poTa,

ra

rrpaBa eMOU;HOHalIHa mrrenaren-

U;H)a, llHqHTH

aa

CBe, casro He

xa

.I(06pOTY, y OqHMa

xoaexa

ayTopHTapHe

CBeCTH.

xana ron

H3HeBepH YTBp1jeHe MopalIHe rrpHHU;H-

CTaBOBe yrpaheae y p;eTHlbCTBY, nocne xera p;01Ia3H P;OCaMOKa)KlbaBalba. CBeCHOna ce ocrrotiahaxro CaMOKa)KlbaBalba, rana, H3 nana y p;aH,

HeKa sac TO He 6pHHe . .I(a lIH je BaIIIe qHlbelbe HllH HeqHlbelbe HCTHHCKa .I(06poTa P;OK . aayje ce casro MHpOM H 3ap;OBOJbCTBOM06a xoaexa. OBH noxaaarezsn nonaae BpeMeHoM, a nexana CTaBHheTe AaBHO Hrpa 0, A03BOJbaBa t. llH lIaBallH C Be H BpllO 6p30 ce rrOKa)KY.

Kana pamoao

novaesso na jaxarsy

eMOU;HOHalIHe HHTelIHreHU;Hje.

[a-rajyh

xapvomrjy

BpahaMO

ce H3ry6JbeHOM YHYTpaIIIlbeM CBeCHOocnotiaha ayTopHTapHHx

MHpy. To ce Haj6p)Ke rrOCTH)Ke y rropop;HU;H xoja ce BacrrHTHHX Mop;ella, rropop;Hu;a y KOjOj CBaKO CBa06llHKa npnayne.

rpaaxue BaIIIeM nerery, op;Y3HMalbeM HrpaqaKa, KojHMa ce norre. II P;OK jene. perxonao CTe My 0 6')aCHHllH rta CTe My y He3HalbY na ce Hrpa, p;a rnena uprane,
to..

na CTe )ypHlIH

aa lbHM, na CTe My 06e-

KOMe nossazce na ce oCll060P;H csaxor

CBaIIITa, a CBe y HaMepH na ra aaxpamrre.

Cana

3HaTe p;a H3Me1jy

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jena H isera He rpetia YMeTaTH 6HllO UITa, rra HH Hrpa'lKY, KaKO 6H nere HMallO jacay CBeCT rta jene H UITa jene, na 'reno MO)Kena nperrosna xana My je H KOllHKO xpaae AOCTa H TaKO peAOM. ,1J;eTeje CBe HaH3meA CXBaTHllO, anx xana My rrpBH rryT rrOCTaBHTe pY'IaK, a Hrpa'IKy He nare, nonynehe OA6eca, oA6Hjahe xpaHY, ynapahe aac. MHpHO yxnoHHTe raisnp, 3aMOllHTe na one y CBOjy cotiy, KaKO6H OCTallH pyqallH na MHpy. ,1J;eTe he y 6ecy rOBopHTH Aa BH HHCTeA06pa MajKa, Aa CTe myrrH, Aa aac He BOllH... CaMO MHpHO. Baura eMOQHOHallHa xarexarenuaja caspureno CPYHKQHOHHIlle,BH CTe, HaH3meA rpyria, allH pe3YllTaTH CTBapalla'IKe ,1J;06poTe he YCKOPO6HTH BHAHH. Banre nere rrocraje 3aAOBOJbHO,jep cllYIlla cnoje rene, BH 3aAOBOJbHHjep je KOHa'IHO QHPKYCOKOxpalbelba ormuao H3 name xyhe, 3aYBeK H TaKO peno. Y aYTopHTapHoM CBeTY H A06pOTa H eMOQHOHallHa HHTellHreHQHja cy HeIllTO cnorsaunse H CBe Mopa Aa 6YAe cnozsa H Apecypa H MaHHcpeCTaQHja rrocnenxua ApecHpalba. EHTHO je cnozsaunse, a yHyTpaIlllbH HeMHpH ce TpeHyTHo He BHAe, crora HHCYHH Ba)KHH. ,1J;0HeAaBHO CTe MHCllHllH na 6HTH A06pa MajKa 3Ha'IH nere HaKJbYKaTH rOMHllOM 3ApaBe HllH aesnpase xpaHe, a Ha'IHH na KOjH CTe TO paAHllH, HOCHnecarnenase rrocnennue y 6YAyhHOCTH. Ilocnenaue, OHe y 6YAyhHOCTH He 11HTepecyjy ayTopHTapHy CBeCT.Cnozsaunsn QHJb je rrOCTHrHYT. ,1J;eTeje CHTO. Y CTBapalla'IKOM je CBe H3HYTpa. Knnue ,1J;06poTe H lby6aBH cy y HaMa. YHyTpaIlllbe ce He ApeCHpa. Onroj sa craapanaurrso CTBapa YCllOBe y KojHMa xnnue napacrajy. He Mopa ce ,1J;06poTa MaHHcpecToBaTH, na O'IeKHBaHH Ha'IHH, allH je yHyTpaIlllbH MHP, KOjHce BpeMeHoM CTH'Ie, rrOTBpAa na je ,1J;06pO'IHHHTeJb na A06pOM rryTy. Baure nere, jene Malbe, y OAHOCYna APyro, allH BH He nopemrre same nere HH ca KHM,jene OBO,a oA6Hja OHO,IllTO BH nourryjere, He pacre y rroxnernror 'IOBexa jep He jene H3 HHTepeca, jene xana je maAHO, a He xana ra rrOACTaKHe pexnaxa, saute nere je 3ApaBO, HaKO MpIllaBO, aaure nere je 3aAOBOJbHO,xao H BH. 3aAOBOJbCTBO,,1J;06pOTa H Jbyfias nonase H3HyTpa, IllTO HerrorpeIllHBO ocehajy CBHy aaiuev OKpY)KelbY, a TO aajjaxe ocehare BH H saure nere. Onpacrao CTe 'IOBeK, BpeAaH, HayqeH aa OHO: "Y ce H y caoje xzsyce", jep CTe 6HllH BpllO crporo sacnaraaaaa, y TpaAHQHOHallHoj rropOAHQH. qHTaBo AeTHlbCTBO CTe 6HllH Jby60MOpHH na Mlla1)er 6paTa KOjH je 6HO npesaurrnhen OA paAa, pena. TIOCTaOje napasar KOjHje OCTao ys pOAHTeJbe, CBe AOlbHXOBe CMpTH. A OHAa cy BaM y HaClleACTBO OCTaBHllH, cana onpacnor, CPH3H'IKH3ApaBor arnr H3Y3eTHo neisor 'IOBeKa. JIe)KH, He paAH, rrOTpOIllHO HMeTaK, a onna nourao na aaura spara. na I1 aasra sezce OM'Iy OKOBpaTa. 11MaTe ABa rryTa: TIPBI1 je na HaCTaBHTe na ra npeaaurrnhyjere, xao lIlTO cy TO pOAHTeJbH paAI111H.AKO CTe CHpOMalIlaK, onpauahere ce MHoro xera, na 6H napa3l1T H narse napaasrrapao. AKO CTe MaTepl1jallHo 60raTH, ca naxohos, here OABOjHTI1

rrOBellHKYCyMy HOB~a H 36pHHyTH iseroao neiso reno, saycraarsajyha TaKO rseros p;YXOBHH paCT. CBH he aac XBallHTH, Aa CTe npaBH xpaurhanan, KOjl1He A03BOJbaBa p;a My 6paT 6YAe rnanaa. BH here ce XBallOM rroropp;HTH, ana here I1MaTHnOTI1CHYTI16ec jep CBeCTnpenosaaje na onaj rryT HHje A06ap, na saure nezro HHje 113paBHH I1CTI1HCKe ,1J;06poTe, jep na lbeMY HeMa nyxoaaor Y3paCTalba saurera 6paTy. ,1J;OHOCl1heTe My csaxor nana rOTOBYpafiy, YMeCTOna ra Hayql1Te Aa rreua, rrOKpeHYBIllH ra na paA H peA Pe'I je 0 KBa3H A06pOTH, xoja je naaac BHAHa y csaxoj noponnQI1,y neno ApyIllTBy. ,1J;pym rryT je craapana-nor. Ha TOM rryTy 'IOBeK nosraxce 611H)f(lbeM na nyrea pap;a pasnaja ce6e, xao CPI1311'IKO H AYXOBHO6l1he. Osaj nyT he 6l1Tl1 6011aH H sa sac I1 sa isera. Baur 6paT he MOpaTI1 Aa crpana, Aa 6YAe I1 rnanan, na aac ocyhyje, Aa sac Mp3H, Aa BaM 3aBI1AI1, Mopahe Aa OCeTI1noczrenxue caor nyroronaunser rrapa3l1THpalba. (CeTI1Te ce CTape 6aCHe 0 QBP'IKy H MpaBY). JeAI1HOje TO rryT Aa ce noxpene "QBp'IaK" I1 no-me Aa Y3paCTa. CBaKY 3ApaBY axunjy nersor 'IOBeKa sazsa nOAP)f(aTI1, MOTI1BI1CaTH ra, HaY'II1TH ra paAY, a paA je MHoro rora, TIOHYAI1THMy HayK H YCllOBe aa paA, YCllOBe sa orxpaaarse 3aMpllHX raneuara, aKO HayK H YCllOBeaa pan OAsac xohe HllH Tpa)f(H. fOTOBYpH6y My He AOHOCI1TI1. Pl16a Mopa 6HTH yneuana 111111 sapaheaa, 11 noxehe na neua, 3anaMTI1Te. YCKOpOhe BaM 6l1Tl1 Ay60KO saxaazran jep KOHa'IHO no-nose na crrosaaje ce6e, xao JbYACKO,paAHO 6Hhe. HHCTe ra xaxosaaana, HH aarpahaaanH aa npenysere axuxje, HaKOje MHore saure rrocTyrrKe AO)f(HBJbaBaO xao Ka3HY, a )f(eCTOKOce JbYTHOxana lberOBe CHTHe xopaxe HI1CTefioraro narpahnsana. HHCTe ra npesaurrahaaana, jep 'IOBeK crsapana-nce ,1J;06poTe 3Ha Aa je TOBacnHTHH MOAen, KOjH OCTaBJba najnorytinaje nocnenaue. ,1J;06pO'II1HHTeJb he 3HaTH urra My aarsa 'IHHHTH, YKOnl1KOce napasxr He noxpeae H CKllH3He y 60necT. HapOA je 0AYBeK aaao na on neisocrn nesra rope 60necTH. Bonecmoaa H HeMohHHMa noponnua Mopa novoha. Bpzro CllH'IHO ce neuraaa H na HHBOYAPYIllTBa. CaBpeMeHO APYIllTBO ce AellH na CBeT npefiorarnx H cxposraunorx, na CBeT Man06pojHHX "cpehHHKa" KOjH pane I1ysehaaajy 60raTcTBO npetiorarxx H orpoMaH 6poj He3anOClleHHX. TaKBo APYIllTBO rrO'IHBa na nazcno] A06pOTH 60raTHx. OrpOMaH HOBa~ KOjH cy caxymora excrmoarxuryhn Mall06pojHe sanocneae, KOjH ~aAe AaHOHohHO, oryhyjyh ce OA ce6e, OA csoje nopoAHQe, OA)f(HBOTa, AO~HH)e, 3apaA couajanaor MHpa H MaHl1cpeCTOBalba KBa311A06pOTe, nene CI1POTHlbH. D:ene MpBH~e csor orposraor xamrrana, a CBe TO ry6H CMHcao. CBe rpa rpynannje HeMajy urance na yspacrajy xao JbYAH.Sanocnean cy )KpTBe >l<eCTOKe npanyne H ycnoazsaaarsa, 60raTH cy HaCHllHHQH, )KpTBe csoje yHyTpalUlbe rrOXlIerre, a CHpOMaIllHH cy MpBH~aMa Tyl)er 60raTCTBa cy npeaaurrxheaa OA paAa If 'lOBe'lHOr pacra.
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Hajryxcaaje je llITO y pa3BJ1jeHoM CBeTY, MJIaAJ1,3ApaBJ1 JbYAJ1napa3J1TJ1pajy aa 60JIeCHOM TKJ1BYnOpOAJ1IJ;eJ1JIJ1ApylliTBa, ryfieha ce6e jep J1MHJ1KOHJ1je Aao npJ1JIJ1KYAa cnoaaajy ce6e, a cn03HaTJ1 ce6e, caoje TaJIeHTe MO)f(e ce caxro Kp03 paA, paA C Jby6aBJb y. ,lJ;aKJIe,6e3 XapMOHJ130BaHJ1X J13BOPHJ1XeMOIJ;J1jaHeMa eMOIJ;J10HaJIHeJ1HTem1reHIJ;J1je, jeAHoM penjy, HeMa crsapanaxxe ,lJ;06pOTe. IDe nehe 6J1TJ1AOKJ1Ma ayro. pJ1TapHOCTJ1,a AOKqeKaMO aa speae ,lJ;06pJ1x JbYAJ1, jour MHoro 3JIa heno nOqJ1HJ1TJ1 y J1Me aYTopJ1TapHe A06pOTe. ,lJ;OJIa3J1 speae xana 60raTJ!! nehe HYAJ1TJ1 MpBJ1IJ;e,sapan COIJ;J1jalIHorMJ1pa, Ben he na jenao paAHo MeCTO 3anOClIJ1TJ1 ABa xosexa. Tana he paAHO spexe, YMeCTO canaunsnx ABaHaeCT xacona, rpajarn HOpMalIHJ1X urecr, BOraTJ1 Mopajy rrpaxsaTl1Tl1Aa ce CBeT He BpTl1 OKOlbl1X, na CBl1nOA OBl1McyHIJ;eM l1Majy npaso na pan, KOjl1he 6l1Tl1 AOCTOjHOnnahen KaKO 611 CBaKO OCTBapl10 npaBO aa BpeMe nposeAeHO y Kpyry csoje nOpOAl1IJ;e, CBOjl1XHajMl1lIl1jl1X. BplIO 6p30 he CBeCT 60raTl1X l1 Cl1pOMallIHl1X MOpaTl1 Aa ce Melba. Hcropaja xnacaor APYlliTBa je na l13Al1Cajy. Ilocnemse ABe KJIaCe, xnaca 60raTl1X l1 xnaca Cl1pOMallIHl1X, onacao yrpoacasajy MJ1P y CBeTY. IDl1XOBe onaoce he l1CXapMOHl130BaTl1 crnapana-nca ,lJ;o6poTa, xoja KyIJ;a na BpaTa CBJ1XnOpOAl1IJ;a, a carao cTBapalIaqKa nOpOAl1IJ;a MO)f(eCBeTY nonapl1TJ1 l1CTl1HCKY ,lJ;06pOTy, xoja rpetia cBeTY y KojeM )f(l1Bl1MO.

AyTOpl1TapHa notipora yqe crrozsa, sariopaszsajyha

l1 Jby6aB aYTOpJ1TapHe CBeCTJ1,xao xYMaHJ1 nporpec ce Aa CBe Ben nocenyjexro poheiser J1 Aa YHYTpallilbeM

Cnotioqa -

HegoCa1-baHU

can

1108eK08

Ine HeMa aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1, rne HeMa nacnzsa xosexa HaA qOBeKOM, Ty cy eMOIJ;l1je
XapMOHl130BaHe, Ty je eMOIJ;l10HalIHa narenareaua]a, Ty je crnapana-nca ,lJ;06pora, Ine je ,lJ;06pOTa, Ty je 0ACYCTBOera, rOpAOCTl1, Ty je Jby6aB 0 KOjOjje xoaesanCTBOcaisano BeKOBl1Ma, Jby6aB xoja BOAl1OAJby6aBl1 npeMa qOBeKY AO Jby6aBl1 npexa Bory, ,lJ;06POTOM l1 Jby6aBJby YlIa3l1 ce Y ClI060AY, xoja je 6l1lIa BeqHl1 HeAocalbaHl1 can qOBeKOB. OCMa enepnrja, enepnrja CJIOBO,lJ;E, y OACYCTBY aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1, Hl1KaAa He npepaCTa y aaapxnjy, jep CTBapalIaqKa ,lJ;06pOTa l1 Jby6aB AOHoce ,lJ;YBOKY CBECHOCT, y3 xojy, CBe l1 na xohesio He MO)f(eMOHl111ITaql1Hl1Tl111ITO je npOTl1B ce6e l13BOpHOr, npOTl1B JbYAl1,npOTl1B Dora J1 rrpnpone. Y qJ1HY CTBapans-nee Iloopore pacTe l1 qOBeK Ilotipore J1CBJ1KOjJ1rpetia J1Mory Aa ocere 611arOAaT Te Ilotipore. Crnapanaxxa Ilotipora rrpencrasrsa 60rOqOBeqaHCKI1 nporpec, xao aHTJ1Te3Y XYMaHJ1CTJ1qKOM nporpecy.
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He Tpe6a Apecypa. CTBapaJIaqKa ,lJ;06poTa l1 Jby6aB ce He yqe, OHe ce y OACYCTBY cnozsaunser nac!1I1Talba caae 6YAe, l13HyTpa, yspacrajy. To je nporpec OAxosexa AO DOrOqOBeKa, OAqOBeKa AOJ1KoHe Boxorje. Y OACYCTBY Ka3He l1 HarpaAe l13BOpHe eMOIJ;l1jece He TpaHccpOPMl111IYY rpexose, seh ce rpaacrpopsonuy y BplIl1He. BplIl1HCKl1qOBeK, je !1po6ytjeHl1 DOrOqOBeK. Hserosa JIl1qHOCT,lberOBO neno, rseros )f(l1BOTnOql1lbY na 60je iseroao cpIJ;e, AyllIy, nOpOAl1IJ;y, onaoce, iserona nena, HapoA KojeM npnnana. Ee36poj CTBapaJIaqKl1X lIl1qHOCTl1 ofiojnhe CBeT 6YAyhHOCTl1. YHYTpallIlbJ1 nOTeHIJ;l1jalI ce y CTBapaJIaQKJ1MYClIOBl1Ma,caaocrroaaaje, casropeaJIl13yje J1 caaoocraapyje, YBeK l1 jeAl1HO Kp03 ,lJ;o6po l1 Jby6aB, y ancorryrHOj CJI060Al1. 0 BPJIl1HCKOMnyTy carsajy JbYAl1,caisajy BepHl1IJ;l1, cBellITeHl1IJ;l1. Csoje CHOBe MO)f(eMOnpeTBOpl1Tl1 y craapaocr. CBaKl1 pOAl1TeJb KOjl1 TBPAl1 na BOJIl1csoje nere, CBaKl1cynpyr KOjJ1ce saxmnse na BeQHYJbytiaa, ca naxohosr he ce onpeha aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1, 3apaA re l1CTe Jby6aBl1. Tana je OTBopeH nyT pacTy l1 paasojy J13BOPHl1XeMOIJ;l1jay cyticrpyxrype BplIl1Ha, (y CMl1peHOCT,napeaosnBOCT,CBeCHOCT,,lJ;06pOTy, Jbytias, 3aXBaJIHOCT, cnocofiaocr npaxsaraisa, Ay6oxor paaysresarsa, onpaurraisa ... ) ,lJ;elIyje YTOnl1CTl1QKl1, amr je l1CTl1HaAa je anaise CTBapaJIaQKOr sacnararsa jenan OAnyreaa xa AYXOBHOM pacTy, KOjl1aano-nuse Kp03 Jby6aB nonosa, Kp03 Jbytias y rrOpOAl1IJ;J1, l13Metjy QJIaHOBa rrOpOAl1IJ;e,y llIKOJIl1,Y npyurrsy, Kp03 Jby6aB rrpeMa paAY, peAY, )f(l1BOTY,npl1pOAl1, alIl1 YBeK l1 jeAl1HO y OACYCTBY aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1. OBO je jenan oA rryresa KOjl1 BOAl1xa Bory, POAl1TeJbl1 KOjl1 cy TeK A06l1JIl1 nOToMKe, YKOlIl1KOce onpenerre sa CTBapaJIaQ~O aacnaran,e, crnapahe YClIoBe aa 6ytjelbe uenoxynaor yHyTpallilber nOTeHIJ;l1jana, csor TeK poheaor nerera, a l1CTOBpeMeHO he ce6e l1CKpl1BJbeHOr, rpexosaor BpanaTl1 cnOHTaHO l13BOPY l1 BPJIl1HCKOMnyTy. YKOlIl1KOce crapnje, l1CKpl1BJbeHOnere l1 J1CKpl1BJbeHpOAJ1TeJb CBeCHOorrpeAeJIe aa CTBapaJIaQKO aacrrararse, raxohe he ce l1 pOAl1TeJb l1 nere BpaTl1Tl1 ce6l1, CBOMl13BOPy, a Tl1Me l1 BPlIl1HCKOMnyTy. AYTOpl1TapHa CBeCTje BeKOBl1Ma, AYXOBHl1paCT, Kp03 Jby6aB xao l1 anCOJIYTBy CJIo60AY, rrpornauiaaana YTOnl1joM. A nojasr YTOnJ1je je l1 CMJ1CJIl10aYTOpl1TapHl1 yM, ocnopanajyhn 6allI OHO ~ carao OHO llITO yrpO)f(aBa, lbera career, llITO yrpO)f(aBa ayropxrapay CBeCT.ITOCTaBI10je npenpeKy, ayTopl1TapHe MOAelle, Hl1je A03BOJIl10'eMOIJ;l1JaMaXapMOHI1JY,a . . BeKOBl1Ma y 6 enasao "OHAa Je ce6e 11APyre Aa ~ Ao6pOTa, Jby6aB 11CJI060Aa, casro npamorensja peTKI1X, 111111 je Jby6aBJby l1 06pOTOM npornauraaao neurro llITO je 611110AellI1MI1'iHO 11 nponaano, neurro
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nrro HaM je ~OHOCHlIO smne narrse

Hero pa~OCTH, amue rpexoaa

Hero BpllHHa H

yHyTpallllber Mapa. AKO CTe na)f(lbHBO npoxarana onaj neo TeKCTa Ben BaM je jacna cyurrana CTBapallaqKOr nacrnrrarsa. EMOQHOHalIHHyrnua] xosexa aa xoaexa, y O~CyCTBy ayropa. TapHHX BacnHTHHX sronena, y ~y)f(eM BpeMeHCKOMnepHo~y, jecre CTBAPAJINIKO BACrU1TAlhE. IhHMe ce Ylla3H y npocrope lby6aBH, ,lJ;o6poTe H Cnooone, OHe H OHaKBe KaKBe CMOqeKallH BeKOBHMa.

CBaKa eMOQHja nOKpHBa no nsa TelIeCHa opraH a, O~ KOjHXje jenan YBeK XOMO, (jeTpa, nYH opran) a ~pym xeTepo ()f(yqHa xeca, lllynalb opran), H TaKO pe~OM. XeTepo H XOMOopraHH cy xao na KlIaQKallHQH, re YKOllHKOjenaa 0601IH H ~pyrH je yrpO)f(eH. CBaKa eMOQHja raxohe HMa H CBOj xeTepo H CBOj XOMO0611HK. XOMO lbYTlba [e nOTHCHYTa, xeTepo lbYTlba je aacnojeua, Y aYTopHTapHHM YClIOBHMa )f(HBOTa nocTojH se-nrra 60p6a H3Mel)y XOMO H xerepo crpane. Mallo n06e~H jenno, na OH~a Ha~jaqa ~pyro. Harne cycpeTa, HHr~e xapvoaaje. Kana ce OTKlIOHeCBH 061IH1I;Hnpanyne rana ~01la3H no xapaoaasaunje XOMa H xeTepa, (r. Ilapx OBO craise Ha3HBa neyrpo). TeK xana ce6e yBe~eMo y craise HeyTpa, y craise xapaoaaje, xana TaKBH OMorynHMo H Haj61IH)f(HMa HCTOcran-e, rana MO)f(eMOrOBopHTH 0 rroxerxy pacTa CBeCHOCTH H lby6aBH rOBopHTH 0 OqYBalbY H yaanpeheisy CPH3HqKOr, MeHTalIHOr, nyxosnor snpaszsa y uenoj nopO~HQH. ,lJ;parH MojH qHTaOQH, cana here nOlIaKO H3aHalIH3HpaTH UITa CBe nmne yHyTap CBaKe 060jeHe KpY)f(HHQe. Y isoj cy cxrenrreaa: eMOQHja, (rsynsa), eneprnja xoja je na MeHTallHOM HHBOy, (axuaja) no rrsa renecaa opran a KOjH cy nOKpHBeHH OBHMeaeprnjaaa (jerpa H cyx). 3a CBaKY KPY)f(HHQYcaM sesana jenaa BaCnHTHH Mo~ell H ~06HlIa HayqHy 3aCHOBaHOCT craaparraxxor aacrnrrarea, xao H ~OKa3e 0 norytiaocrx CBHXner aYTOpHTapHHX BacnHTHHX Mo~elIa. Iloceouo casr y3 CBaKH BacnHTHH Mo~elI nenana H CMPTHJ.1 fPEX, xao xpajisy MaHHcpecTaQHjy, H3BopHe, HCKpHBlbeHe eMOQHje HCKpHBlbeHe MeHTallHe eneprnje, CHarOM aYTopHTapHOCTH. AKO He 6H 6HlIO aYTopHTapHOCTH, He 6H 6HlIO CMpTHHX rpexosa, He 6H 6HlIO oceharsa KpHBHQe, He 6H 6HlIO eMOQHOHalIHHX, MeHTalIHHX, na HH CPH3HqKHXnopeaehaja, y MepH y KOjOj HX HMa nanac. OEPATJ.1TE DA)KlhY HA oprane xoje nOKpHBa CBaKa H3BopHa eMOQHja KaKO 6H CXBaTHlIHKOlIHKOnaure TelIeCHO 3~paBlbe MO)f(ena QBeTa y YClIOBHMa6e3 ayropHTapHOCTH. KOlIHKO6H Malbe 6HlIO CpqaHHX otiorseisa ~a HeMa n03HTHBHor yClIOBlbaBalba, na HeMa noxnene HlIH 6e)f(elbHOCTH, xana noxnerra Ha~paCTe casry ce6e. KOlIHKOMalbe 0601IelIe jerpe H )f(yqH ~a HeMa H aacnojeae H nOTHcHYTe rsyrn-e, 6eca, arpecaje, ayroarpecnje, rnena KOjH cy nOClIe~HQa, 6aTHHe, HlIH 61Iare, nmrWaHe npHHy~e. KaAa OBYnpHqy npaTe pOAHTelbH, na MOjHMnpenaaarsaaa, na lbHXOBHMlIHQHMa npen03HajeM MHp H 3a~OBOlbCTBO jep CBe ~O)f(HBlbaBajy xao CBOjy HCTHHYxojy HI1KOHe MO)f(e Aa 060pH. Ocehasr lbHXOBY Panocr jep Ben aa npe~aBalby CXBaTe I<aI<O je lIaKO noxoha ce6H H caojroaa H ~a HHje norpelllHo lllTO craapana-nco aacnl1Talhe Ha3HBaM BACDJ.1TAlhE EE3 MYKE. DpenopyqyjeM HM na nazczsnao npoyqe llleMY no KOjOj npWlaM, a HalIa3H ce Y "BYI<Bapy" H rra Hayqe xanaxser OBYlIorHqHY Be3Y H3Mel)y rezra, eMOQHje, yMa,
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YMecuw jUH-jaHf,

xewepO-XOMO

BelIHKY nazcrsy caM nOCBeTHlIa npmryn, xoja je noaesaaa ca eMoQHjoM n-yrise, na npaoj KPY)f(HHQH.AKO CTe pa3YMelIH OBe omroce, na)f(lbHBO nocsrarpajre cBaKY KPY)f(HHQY nonaocoti H pasyjaehe're O~HOC avropxrapaor nacnarnor Mo~elIa, H3BopHe eMOQHje H CBe nOClIe~HQe xoje cnene H3 osor onnoca. Y OBOMnezry neMo nocaarpara nse rpyne eMOQHja. Xerepo H XOMOrpynaunje, KaKOHXHa3HBa r. Ilapx, 06paTHTe naxcsy na 3elIeHY H QPBeHY Kpy)f(HHQY. Kaxo xasce rocrtonxa Ilapx, lbYTlba H pa~ocT cy eMoQHje xoje Hac none y axunjy, y )f(HBOT.OH HXHa3HBa xerepo eneprrrjaraa, To cy eaeprnje CBojCTBeHe saure MylllKapQY, csojcraene ~eQH, MlIa~HMa, smne Hero apenoj )f(eHH, Hero CTapOCTH. Ha npyroj crpaan cy: 6pHra, ryra H crpax. (zcyra, 6paoH H rerer KPY)f(HHua), exouaje KapaKTepHCTHqHHje sa xcencxy eaeprxjy H 3a crapnjy nonynannjy, 6aKe, nexe. OHe none y MHp, yHyTpa, y ce6e. Ilapx HX Ha3HBa XOMOeneprajava. J.1MylllKapaQ H )f(eHa HMajy H XOMOH xerepo eneprxje, amr je KO~ MylllKapQa jaqH xerepo, KO~ xcena je jaqH XOMO. To je OHa npenosnarnoma pexenmta: "MylllKapQH cy 6HlIH BeKOBHMa 1I0BQH H paTHHQH, ~OK cy ceae qYBalle orrsmure H nOTOMCTBO".Y YClIOBHMa6e3 ayropxTapHOCTH xerepo H XOMOeMOQHje YlIa3e y paBHOTe)f(Y, a ca lbHMa H name cpH3WIKO,MeHTalIHO, ~yXOBHO H COQHjalIHo 6Hne ce ypaanorexcyje. J.1MylllKapaQ H )f(eHa he y o~cyCTBy aYTOpHTapHHX BacnHTHHx Mo~elIa ypaBHOTe)f(HTH MyIllKy H )f(eHCKYcTpaHy, y ce6H, nocrahe YQelIOBlbeHH, 6e3 MyKe, a OH~a he MylllKapaQ H )f(eHa nOCTHnH, TOlIHKO)f(elbeHY xapssoaajy, y CBOjHMO~HOCHMa, ca CBOjHM nOToMQHMa, y CBOjHMnoponxuaaa, aa CBOjHMpa~HHM MeCTHMa. Kana Mel)y lby~HMa, y lbHXOBHM O~HOCHMa, He 6y~e Ka3He H narpane. nOTenH he lby6aB. Tana nehesro yqHTH lby~e cnozsa KaKO na nOCTHrHY eMOQHOHalIHY, COQHjalIHy, ~yXOBHy mrrenareauajy. To ce He yqH. To je y HaMa, carao cY nOTpe6HH YClIOBHH O~HOCH 6e3 ayropxrapaocrx, ~a 6H CBe TO Y3paClIO.
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:aKO 6J.1 Y CBaKOM TpeHY, .nararsa

xana

J.1X06Y3Me

JIYP;J.1JIO aYTOpJ.1TapHOCTJ.1

J.1Herrpl13p;pa-

Ty!)e pa3JIJ.1ql1TOCTJ.1, BOJbHO J.1JIaKO 3aYCTaBJ.1JIl1 "rrJIJ.111IaHY " J.1peaJIHy 3apap; AKO Hap; HeKJ.1M yrroTpe6JbaBaTe KJIaCJ.1QHY rrpJ.1Hyp;y npaponno je p;a JbYTlba, xao 3aIIlTJ.1THa eMOU;J.1jaY3paCTa, npenaaa y 6ec, rpaacdiopsonue p;a npJ.1Hyp;a J.1Ma pa3He ce y cso]e Cy6CTPYKTYBPIlIJ.1TJ.1 CaMOrrpJ.1-

"

JIpuHyga je upunyqa - unuuiana

UllU

peanna, ceejeqno

IPJ.1HYP;y, P;03BOJIJ.1BIlIl1 J.13BOPHJ.1M eMOU;J.1jaMa na TeKY CJI060P;HO, IJba J.1lhy6aBJ.1.

JbYTlbe J.1MaMO JbYTlbY, cana y BJ.1p;y6eca J.1TaKO pep;OM. Hapaano pe jep aa eMOU;J.1jJ.1

neiaiiu: uuuo 6u ce MOIllO naseaiuu essouuonannusc cMeneM OHO ce ciueapa y ifJa6pUKaMa MUCllU. To cy tionoeu KOjU cy eet: MUHynu U caga HeMajy HUKaKay cepxy"
"JIociUoju TIayJIO Koerso TaQHo je TO lIITO je J.13peKaO BeJIJ.1KJ.1 nacau Koezso. rapaosr Y YCJIOBJbeHOM, aYTOpJ.1-

06JIJ.1Ke. MJ.1 CaMJ.1 Hap; C060M Mo*eMO

HYP;y y op;pe1)eHJ.1M CJ.1TyaU;J.1jaMa, jep CMO TJ.1Me YCJIOBJbeHJ.1 jour y CBOM p;eTJ.1lbCTBy.

y CTBapJ.1, HeYKJ.1, aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1 pOp;J.1TeJbJ.1 cy YCJIOBJ.1JIJ.1 aaur yM, yrrorpefizsasajyhJ.1 HenpeCTaHO Ka3HY J.1aarpany, p;a 6J.1 TOKOM uenor )KJ.1BOTa CaMJ.1 ce6e xaxcn,aBaJIJ.1, y CJIJ.1QHJ.1MCJ.1TyaU;J.1jaMa. )l{eJIJ.1MO p;a ce orrYCTJ.1MO rrOCJIe pyqKa ce CYP;OBJ.1OP;Max Mopajy ryiere orrparx. JbYTlbOM, qaK J.16eCOM. Baur cynpyr rroasao

aJIJ.1 Hac je MajKa npJ.1CJ.1JIOM HayqJ.1JIa

na

yMy p;enOHOBaHO je eMOU;J.10HaJIHO csrehe, xoje BJ.1lI1e HeMa CBpxy, aJIJ.1 ra cao TeMrrJ.1paHY 60M6y HOCJ.1MO ca C060M, Kp03 )KJ.1BOT J.1YHOCJ.1MO ra Y rtoponnW na ra rrOKa)KeMO J.1CBOjOj neua, p;a YBeK pearyjesro J.13 re rOMJ.1JIe csreha, xoja e nocnenmra rrpJ.1Hyp;e J.13 speaeaa xoje BJ.1lI1e He nocroja. Mauresro TJ.1M CMerpelIlKe CBOjJ.1X pomrrezsa, YQJ.1TeJba, KaKO 6J.1 HalIlJ.1 rrOTOMU;J.1 rrJIJ.1lI1aHe J.1 npe rrOCTaJIJ.1 HaJIJ.1K HaMa. To eMOU;J.10HallHO cxrehe je nocrrenxna

AOK BJ.1nepeTe

cynose, saur My)K JIeIliKapJ.1. PeaCana CTe jour

ce HaCJIO-

He paayve Y3POK sante JbYTlbe, jep sac

je nsa rryra

p;a Op;MOpJ.1Te, rra here cxyna 3aBplIlJ.1TJ.1 rrocao. orrparu op;Max, rro 3aBplIleTKY pyqKa.

JbyhJ.1 jep nexrare

BJ.1lI1e caao MajQJ.1HY rrpJ.1Hyp;y y ce6J.1, cana J.1MaTe J.1mynJ.1 CTaB Jbyrtsa

'leM, rrOHaBJbaMO
lITO

p;a ce YBeK CYP;OBJ.1Mopajy Hajrezce

jasa, naaau HeraTJ.1BHOCTJ.1 ce lIIJ.1PJ.1. [emra MY)KeBJbeBa peQ yseurhe

6e J.1zcezse, npanarohene OCJI060P;J.1TJ.1 ce CTaBOBa pJ.1TapHJ.1 pOp;J.1TeJbJ.1.

aac y raes.

inase p;pyre npJ.1Hyp;e xoja ce CJIJ.1BaJIa CBaKop;HeBHO na Hac, rrponapyhx p;y60KO y Hac, He p;03BOJbaBajynJ.1 p;a J.13BOpHe eMOU;J.1je TeKY CJI060P;HO, He noaaorsasajy:m p;a ce paaaajajy KJIJ.1u;e lhy6aBJ.1, Pap;OCTJ.1, Ao6poTe, p;a ce paasaje rrOTeHU;J.1ian nonecen pohersea.
Ca C060M, TaKBJ.1M "HepacU;BeTaHJ.1M", aYTOpJ.1TapHe p;a 06aBe, rpetia OCJ.1MBJIaCTJ.1TOr eMOU;J.10HaJIHOr csteha, HOCJ.1MOJ.1npesasaheae BaCrrJ.1THe Mop;elle, xoje cap;a MJ.1, xao HOBJ.1 He p;03BOJbaBajynJ.1 Vl3J.1nJ.1.Hesaaise paCU;BeTaBalbe KJIJ.1u;e

je pa3YCJIOBJ.1TJ.1 CBOj BJIaCTJ.1TJ.1,YCJIOBJbeHJ.1 yM J.1rrpaTJ.1TJ.1 csoje rrorpe-

onpeheaoj )KJ.1BOTHOj CJ.1TyaU;J.1jJ.1.J13Hap; caera je TelIlKO

xoje cy HaM yrpap;J.1JIJ.1 J.13au;eMeHTJ.1paJIJ.1 y naur yM, ayToJ.13 6J.1ha, nourryjyha JIJ.1QHOCT pearyje

Crsapanaxxa
csoje TpeHyTHo

JIJ.1QHOCT pearyje craise

nare OKOJIHOCTJ.1, spexe.

J.13HaMeTHYTor CTaBa, aJIJ.1

J.1CJI. AyTOpJ.1TapHa

pOp;J.1TeJbJ.1, ynopno CTaBJbaMO J.13Me1)y Hac J.1HalIlJ.1X najnpaxorx, J.13Me1)y HalIlJ.1X HajMJ.1JIJ.1jJ.1X J.1pap;a KOjJ.1rpefia 7by6aBJ.1. J13 onor JIyp;J.1JIa rroaaszsarsa nazsa 3aMeHJ.1TJ.1 3HalbeM. KaKO? Op;6aU;J.1TJ.1 CBaKY BpCTy npanyne y Op;HOCJ.1Ma J.1TJ.1Me 3aYCTaBJ.1TJ.1 YCJIOBJbaBalle YMa, rena, cpua. Csora YCJIOBJbaBalba, 6a1)aMo, YCJIOBJbaBajynJ.1 y BJ.1p;y eMOU;J.10HaJIHOr CMena, ce OCllOy OP;CyCTBy aYTOpJ.1TapHOCTJ.1, a CBOM nerery QJ.1HJ.1MOaajsehe Ilotipo, He

J.13 rnase, J.13YCJIOBJbeHOr yMa. Kana ce OCJI060P;J.1MO CTaBOBa, xana ce OCJIo60p;J.1MO BJIaCTJ.1Te J.1Ty1)e aYTOpJ.1TapHOCTJ.1, MO)KeMO J.1p;aJbe rrpaTJ.1 cynose onsrax, TJ.1oceharse Yrr03HaJIa KpJ.1BJ.1u;e. caM MJIap;y MajKy xoja je 6J.1JIa ynopna na CBOjOj p;eu;J.1 He P;03BOJIJ.1 p;a je TO CTBOy noponaua J.16paKy. 3alIlTO, yrrJ.1TaJIa caM je? ,,3aTO lIITO je HaM TO nehe HaCJIojaBaTJ.1 6ec, J.1JIJ.1 OP;JIO)KJ.1TJ.1 3a KaCHJ.1je, lIITO HaM nehe CTBOPJ.1-

BJ.11)albe ca CTpJ.1u;eM, MY)KeBJbeBJ.1M 6paTOM. TOJIJ.1KOje 6J.1JIa ynopHa PJ.1JIO OrrlIlTJ.1 xaoc

ra, He TOBapenJ.1 TOHe, BJIaCTJ.1TOr, eMOU;J.10HaJIHOr cxeha y lbera.

CBOjy p;eu;y J.1MJ.1ce spahasro CBOMe J.13BOpy. (He YCJIOBJbaBaxaoc OKO ce6e, yHy-

6J.1JIO xojer CTPJ.1U;JIeQeHJ.1 aJIKOXOJIJ.1Qap, a Moja neua He cxejy na 6yp;y y 6JIJ.13J.1HJ.1 aTIKOXOTIJ.1Qapa, rra J.1aKO je y nJ.1TalbY pohenn CTpJ.1U;",op;rOBOpJ.1TIa je JbYTJ.1TO. "To je Moj CTAB", rrpJ.1Hyp;OM, HerrpeCTaHJ.1M Bep6aTIJ.13MOM, yrpap;l1lla lheHOM cseurhy, TIOJIaKO je noxena P;~ paaaexurasa

He YCJIOBJbaBajyhJ.1

TJ.1 He 3HaQJ.1 p;orrYCTJ.1TJ.1 p;eTeTY na pap;J.1 lIITa xohe, crnapajyhx noaanzsaxr.) Aa 6J.1 CMO TO yqJ.1HJ.1llJ.1ca naxohosr, Tap Hac, yHyTap HalIlJ.1X HajMJ.1llJ.1jJ.1X,yrrorpedosi

pexna je OP;JIYQHO. TIoQeJIa caM p;a 6pJ.111IeM lbeH CTaB KOjJ.1joj je MajKa y noncsecr J.1OH cana p;J.1pJ.1ryje
CTaB, CXBaTJ.1BlIIJ.1 na OHa rrpe-

rpetia na 3HaMO IlITa ce 36J.1Jba neurana

rrJIJ.111IaHe rrpJ.1Hyp;e, xojy cy rrpJ.1peamry

XBaTJ.1JIJ.1caBpeMeHJ.1 pOp;l1TeJbJ.1, yaonehn ce6e J.1nere, QeCTO, y orpoMHy rrpJ.1HYP;y, y HaCJ.1Jbe CBJ.1X06JIJ.1Ka, xao rrOCJIep;J.1U;y rrJIJ.111IaHJ.1X. ~ 78 ~

3aWTl1nyje p;eu;y on )KJ.1BOTa. KaKO he OHa cyTpa OTKJIOHJ.1TJ.1CBe Jbyp;e J.13oxpyacen.a, a J.1Ma J.1XMHoro (aJIKOXOJIJ.1Qape, p;pOrJ.1paHe, rrerse, noxnenne, KpJ.1MJ.1HaJIu;e J.1

na TIl1je

TO YOIlIUTe norpetiaotl). ~ 79 ~

Ha fbeH HaqMH, KOHTP01IMlJlytm nere npe3alJlTMnMBafbeM, MajKa ry6M orposr, Hy eaeprnjy, xoja he rra xpajy casro fbOj lJlTeTMTJ.1. CTPMU;je CTPMU;,KpB HMje aona, Mozena je M CTPMU;YlJlao y allKOXOllM3aMjep je 6MO y p;eTMfbCTBYrrpeaaurrahn. BaH op; csoje MajKe. Haj60lbM nyT y ocnofiaharsy jaxax CTaBOBa, xao 06llMKa caMOnpaayne, jecre npI1MeHa craapanaxxor aacrnrrarsa y CBOjOjHOBOjnOpOp;MU;I1. AKO OTKllOHMMO "rrllMlJlaHe" y BacrrMTafbY csoje neue, OHMHMKap;aaehe I1MaTI1norpeey 3a allKOXOllOM,p;porOM, xao nOTpe60M on caaosaoopasa, npeMa TOMe fbl1Ma nehe rrpeTI1TI1 onaCHOCT on 6l1llO xojer nexeaor I1lll1 CTBapHor azrxoxoznrsapa y fbI1XOBOMOKpY)l(efbY. Bahe TO cjajHl1lbyp;l1, oCll060~eHI1 HarreTOCTI1, rra TI1Me ocnotio. ~eHI1I1 I1CKpl1BlbeHe norpetie na HarreTOCT yMl1pyjy allKOXOllOM.Craapajyha TaKBe YClloBe CBOjOj p;eU;M11MI1 ce cnoaraao ocaotiahasro csoje caaonpnayne, CBOjl1X orpanasasajyhax CTaBOBa. MCTI1HCKOpa3yclloBlbaBafbe Majql1HOr YMa on CTaBa KOjI1je ypesaa y fbeHY noncsecr, )l(eCTOKOMrrpI1Hyp;oM, noxehe onor TpeHyTKa xana OHa npl1XBaTI1 sacmrrarse 6e3 Ka3He, 6e3 Harpap;e, 6e3 npeaaurrnhaaaa,a, 6e3 Bep6alll13Ma 11 6e3 snoynorpetie MMI1TaTOpCKoryMa. Iben yM je isena MajKa ycnonana CBOjI1MycnoBlbeHMMYMOM11TaKO ce CTaB npeaocno I1I1MI1Tl1paO113reaepannje y renepauajy, 3a CTBapallaqKY lll1qHOCT, sa fbeHY neuy aehe Ba)l(I1TI1ayTOpl1TapHa 113peKa "C KI1M CI1,TaKaB CI1".Craapanaxxa lIMqHOCT je uena, I13BOpHa 11He Ylla3l1llaKO y MMI1TI1pafbe OHI1Xca Kojl1Ma je. HanpOTI1B, aYTOpl1TapHM he no-tern na rezce na nOCTaHY HallI1K craapanaxxoj llI1QHOCTI1,a CTBapallaqKe lll1QHOCTMhe nOMaraTI1 aYTOpl1TapHMM p;a 113I1~yaa npaBI1 nyT. 6MllO CPl13l1QKOr xaxcrsaaaM rropep; rora lJlTO je y Tpap;I1U;I10HallHoj nOpOp;MU;I1 isa, QOBeK Hl1je TaKO QeCTOyrrap;ao y rnes, Hl1je QeCTOofionesao, Hl1je 6l1llO .rozorKOeMOU;110HallHI1X 11MeHTallHI1X rropeuehaja, KOllMKO I1Xnanac I1Ma. 3alJlTo? 3aTo lJlTO je I1MaO P;OBOlbHOBpeMeHa 11npocropa na OP;llyql1 na yHarrpep; peQeHa npaBl1lla nourryje, I1lll1 p;a l1X CBeCHO KPlJlI1. EMOU;l1jecy ce naxure spahane 113BOPY jep Hl1je nocrojana "rrlll1lJlaHa" rrpl1Hyp;a xoja je nanac CI1CTeMaTCKa,6e3 rrayse. spno npl1MaMlbl1Ba I1llaKO npncrajeao na fby. CllaTKO HaM je narpabaaaa,e, npeaaurrnhnnan.e, na npMMep, Map;a CMOnerne p;y60KO He3ap;OBOlbHI1 lJlTO TO Mopa na pap;I1MO, I1lll1lJlTO TO HeKO 06aBlba YMeCTOHac. Ilonaxo, aznr Cl1rypHO nocrajeMO 3aTOQeHI1U;11 .rrmnnaaax" KOjl1 Hac xao cannea rajraa nase, ana HaM je 11rajTaH npar, jep je CBI1lleH. Cnozsa, MO)l(p;a Y)l(I1BaMO, 113HyTpa rraxao, na eMOU;110HallHOM,CPl13l1QKOM 11 MeHTallHOM nllaHy. CaMO je mrratse TpeHyTKa KO he xana CTl1nl1 P;O op;pe~eHor CMpTHor rpexa. Iaes, rtoxnena, nersocr rena, rrpO)l(p;plbI1BOCT,HeCBeCHOCT,3aBI1CT, naxc, yHMHl1ja, oryheaocr on rena M nyxa, cexcyarnre p;eBMjaU;l1je, 6llYP;, ana HaMepa. Caspesreaa nnnuraaa neua Ben P;O cenxre rOp;I1He )l(I1BOTa I1Majy rOTOBO CBe
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CMpTHe rpexose y ce611 11)l(I1Be pyKoBO~eHI1 fbl1Ma. CaBpeMeHI1 pOp;I1Telb, caBpeMeHI1BaCrrI1TaQ, y He3HafbY rrpaBI1 HeBI1~eHy lJlTeTY nOTOMU;I1Ma,P;PYlJlTBY,uerroj rrllaHeTM. CBe eMOU;110HallHenenajauaje, xao nocnennuy rrpMHyp;e MO)l(eMOYCMepI1TMaa ce6e I1lll1na uexor no ce6e. Crpanajy 11OHI1rropep; Hac, alll1 ce nanexo Bene pa3apal-bep;ora1)a Y HaMa CaMI1Ma, HaMa KOjl1BPlJlI1MOrrpMHyp;y. Y CBa Tpl1 cay-raja: xana CMO)l(pTBa Ty~e npaayne, xana CMOHaCl1llHI1U;11 Hap; p;pyrl1M I1lll1 xana BPlJll1MO HaCl1lbe Hap; C060M, crpanajy jerpa 11)l(YQ, aa noxerax. ITa)l(lbl1BI1M rrocMaTpalbeM lleMe MO)l(e ce aanasrrra p;a je 11MeHTallHI1 HI1BO,y OBOMcnyxajy, ITOKPET, AKUMJA, TaKO~e noxpasen eMOU;l1joMlbyTH>e. 3p;paBa lbYTH>aje p;o6pa, jep Hall yM rroxpehe na snpany axnnjy, aa oparmranaa rrpl1CTyn csaxoj )l(I1BOTHOjCI1Tyal\l1jl1, amr aKOje lbYTH>anpejaxa, TaKBa lbYTlba HI1Ka.n;aHe MO)l(e113Hep;p11TI1 panocr, HI1TI1naaeray 110pl1rl1HallHY axnnjy. Illra rypa QOBeKay opKaHCKY, aesnpasy, naronouncy lbYTH>Y, y rHeB? Oner npnHy.n;a, 6Mlla sepoamsa I1lll1 cpI13I1QKa,KaKBY nosnaje Tpa.n;I1U;110HallHanopomma, I1lll1 "rrlll1lJlaHa ", caapeveaa nopo.n;l1l\a. Kon KllaCI1QHe rrpl1Hyp;e pearyjeao OTBOpeHoM lbYTH>OM,6ecoM, BI1KaH>eM,yp;apaH>eM. Onyja npohe, CMI1PI1MOce 11nexaKOMO)l(eMOy HOBOj aKl\l1jl1 CTMllI1no panocrn. Kana je 6llara npI1Hy.n;a, nmnuaaa npI1Hyp;a, y rrI1TaH>Y,xana nere xaxcisaaaTe o.n;y3MMajynl1 My OHOQI1MeCTe MI1Clll1lll1.n;ara aarpamrre, oana nere nOTMCKYje 6ec, npaaehn ce .n;aje CBe y pep;y, npernapajyhn ce na he ce 6p30 rrOnpaBI1TJ.1, aapan .n;o6I1jaH>aHarpa.n;e. TaKaB CaKpl1BeHI1 6ec, nenyje pa30pHo na jerpy 11)l(yq 113aTO Hl1je Qy.n;o.n;acaM y npaKCI1 I1Malla MallI1llaHa on urecr rOp;I1Ha ca KaMeHOM Y)l(yqI1 Caxo caM rrOMI1Clll1lla: "bo)l(e, KOllMKO llI1 je nyTa sa urecr ronana, osaj MallMllIa I1MaOnacnojea CTpax na, nOTI1CHYTOM6ecy. Crpax, .n;aHe 113ry6I1 Harpa.n;y,116ec jep iseroaa rroxnerma CBeCTHe npncraje aa ry6I1TaK. Carra aac npenyurrasr caaootipasosaay. Aaanasapajre KPY)l(HI1U;y, rro KPY)l(HI1ll;y, .n;o6l1neTe )l(elbeHe onrosope. "ITlll1llIaHI1" KpI1Be 113BOpHeeMOl\l1je, a eMOll;l1je p;albe Kpl1Be CBe OCTallO. 3aTo ce 11xaxce: 80% .n;o6pa I1lll1 ana nonoce esronaje, CBe OCTallo y xpexpaisy .n;o6pa 11ana yxecreyje ca 20%. Ilpenopyxyjea BaM .n;aHayQI1Te HanaMeT urra I13lla3I1 113csaxor 113BOpa, 113CBaKe ooojene KpY)l(HMll;e, xao llITO CTe HaYQl1llI1 na 113seneae KpY)l(HI1u;e 113lla311113BOpHa esiouaja zsyrise, aa TelIeCHOMHI1BOYTO cy jerpa 11)l(YQ, a na MeHTalIHOM HI1BOYTO je 113BOpHa QOBeKOBa rroTpe6a aa 3~paBOM aKll;l1joM xoja P;OHOCI1 Opl1rI1HallHOCT, craapanaurrso, Kao HellITO csojcrneao yMy KOjl1je y cpu;y. Kana je rrpl1Hyp;a jaxa lbYTfba he BpeMeHOMrrpepaCTI1 y rues. Ilaxne, 6e3 rrpl1Hyp;e y Op;HOCI1MaI1MaMOpaj, ca npsnryAOMY OAHocI1Ma, I1MaMOnaxao.
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Kaga ce YM cuyctu y cpue, Ibytiae u Ilotipoiiu: Boge y Ceecnociu

BeKoBHa rexosa csaxor xoaexa, nocetiao BepHHKa je 6HlIa H OCTalIa,LIa CBOjyM cnyCTey cpue, KaKO He 6H 6HlIH pacnerrzsemr H3Me~y YMa H cpu;a. YM ce MO)KecnYCTHTH y cpu;e casto aKO qOBeK Ha,LIqOBeKOM, Ha,LIC060M YKHHe pealIHy H "nJIHllIaHy" npHHy,LIy. Ilaaac Ka,LIaje HaYKa TOlIHKO Hanpe,LIOBaJIa ,LIOKa3aHoje na ce H eM0U;11je aanase y YMY, Y M03ry. To je Malbe Ba)KHO rne ce IlITa, HalIa3H, amr je 6HTHO ,LIa paU;Ho rro-nnse na ",LI11Blba",,LIaKOHTpolIMllie xosexa, YKOlIHKO qOBeK HHje y cTalbY ,LIaxapaonasyje eMOU;11je. XapMoHM30BaTH ejrouaje 3HaqH 6HTH y cTalbY EMOIJ;J10HAJIHE fEHUYfJE. He Haj3,L1paBHjH H HajnpHpO,LIHMjH nyT
KOjM

p;eTeTOBor noaauraisa. MO)K,LIahexro y qy,LIy OTKpHTH ,LIaHaM ,LIeTespaha HeIlITO, O,LI npe TpH ,LIaHa,Ka,LIaje 6HO y orpoMHoM 6ecy, jep HHCMO,LI03BOlIHlIH,LIaCKHHe ,LIYKC,

iseroa npeocerzsna TepMoperYlIaU;HOHH CHCTeM.KOlIHKO nyTa caxr y HacTyny sanynra M HeMoryhHoCTH ,LIa6p30 CKHHeM neo onehe rrofiecnena, B11KHyBIllH 6e3pa31I0)KHO na cynpyra, KOjH ce naurao y 61IH3MHH M Y qy,LIy. 6M CMO ra yn03HalIH norpetiqOBeK je eMOU;HOHalIHO npeoceTlbMBO 6Hhe. ,JJ;a HO HaM je aaaisa H lby6aBH. lby6aBM, rrocetino. ,JJ;a CMO 36Mlba y CTalbY lby6aB11 Ka3yjy Hallie npaBe O,LIlIYKe, rrpase peaxnnje, cnoc06HOCT 6p30r spaharsa nOlIyp;eJIe eMoU;Hje, H3BOpy. ITpHpO,LIHOje M HopMalIHO nOKa3aTI![ crarse CBOjMX M3BOpHe nOIlITyjyhH HHX eMoU;Hja, anx Ka3HH
M

narpanx

MeCTa HeMa.
,LI06MJIO

CaCBHM je HopMalIHO ,LIa,LIeTey~e y 6pMry, aKO je YfHTEJIYfBO,LIM,LIO pacra eMOU;MOHalIHe ,LIOeMOU;HOHalI-

He,LIOBolbHY oueay,
HJIM

EpHra xao 3allITMTHa estouaja he My rroaohn ,LIanoxae smne H KBalIMTeTHHje ,LIa yqH. Ilpexo je nOTpe6HO,LIa ,LIeTey~e y Tyry Ka,LIaM3ry6H BOlbeHY 6aKy CBe TO He OMeTa eMOU;HOHalIHY xapaoanjy, 3aMHCJIHTe, na IlITa Y rrpeaaurrahasaa,e
6M YKOlIMKO

,LIeKy.

pobersea, HHTelIHreHU;Hje, xojy TaKO~e, xao KlIMU;y, ,LIOHOC11MO

,LIe. Ilanac HHje H11KaKBa rajna ,LIanocroje

je npOTOK eMoU;MjaMa ,LIony-

xapaoanje je KOMyHMKaU;11jalby,LI11y O,LICyCTBy.rrmnuane" 11pearme np11Hy6pojHe TeXHMKe, xao 11Me,LIMKaMeHTH

IlITeH, YKOlIHKO ce esrouaje He naczrojasajy, He nOT11CKyjy, He sarnaazsyjy. lIHqHJIO sante ,LIeTeaKO 6H CTe ra nenpecrano )KHBOTa, O,LInorpetia

rrpesa-

11IlITa, Ka,LIace sa CM11p11BalbeYMa, alIM je non 3HaKOM mrrarsa Ky,LIaraj nyT BO,LI11

IllTHhHBalIH O,LI ryre. 6pHre, CTpaxa, lbYTlbe, na H 6eca. To 6H 3HaqHlIO,LIa CTe yllilIH

rrpexxne ca TeXHMKaMa 11n11lIYJIaMa. TexHHKe cy cMrypHo O,LIBeJIHKe nosroh ,LIa 6p30 M e<pHKaCHo xcnpasaao HCKpHBlbeHe, sarnaazseae HlIH nOTHcHYTe eMoU;Hje, xao nocnemnry "nlIHllIaHMX", alI11 ,LIalbHnyT y crarse xoje rpajao jaxa eMOU;1106e3 aYTopHTapHOCTH. HalIHY MHTeJI11reHU;Hjyje CBaKaKO )KHBOT M KOMyH11KaU;11ja Illra 3Haq11 Ka,LIaHeKOMe xaxcere: .Baure exrouaje rpetia ,LIacy y xapvonaja" MMpa. KlI11HU;11 qeCTO, aa CBe
AJIM

iseroaor H3BopHor 6Hha, ,LIapearyje a,LIeKBaTHOH npHpO,LIHO na pealIHy caryaunjy, Ilorrycrnre ,LIeTeTy ,LIaca ryroa HcnpaTM 6aKy aa BeqHH nYT. To HHje TpayMa. CMpT je npHpO,LIHH
,LIeTeTa O,LIpeanaor nparanau AlIH )KMBOTa. ryryje,

heao CHryPHO nOKa3aTH,LIa CMOHe3HaJIHu;e aKO ,LIeTeTY,T060)Ke, H3 lby6aceneha npe,LI BMpTyelIHHM, arpecxaaax

CB11 O,LIMaxnOMHClIe ,LIaje TO HeKO craise norrryaor IlITO HX HepBHpa Ka)KY "McKylI11paj".

B11, ,LIOnYIliTaMo ,LIa6ecHM, crpaxyje, 11rpHu;aMa, HJI11npen IlInaHCKHM

TO HHje TO. To BO,LIH y neaamrrepecosa-

HOCTaa )KHBOT, aa Haj61I11)Ke,TO BO,LI11 Y HeO,LIrOBOpHOCT, y paBHO,LIYIlIHOCT.)KHBOT Ma KOlIHKO y nOpO,LIHU;H6111I11 y YClIOBMMa 6e3 aYTopHTapHOCTH, H naunr O,LIHOCH, He 11CKlbyqyjy noxaaxsarse HalbYTH, YKOlI11KO,LIeTe aeh cnyxajao, eMOU;HOHalIHor npe,LI11Ba. BplIO qeCTO MallO ,LIeTepearyje HaCMlIHO,y,LIapa ponxrezsa, jep HeMa cnOC06HOCT ,LIajacao 11CKa)KeIlITa ra MyqI1. ITp11pO,LIHO je, ,LIapO,LIMTelbMCKa)Ke lbYTlbY, jep ra KaKO je ynapan 3a601Ieo. Ta,LIa,,LIOK je "Bpyhe", nehere ,LIp)KaTMseprianae np11,L1HKe HHje neno y,LIapHT11MaMY, seh here ra 6p30 3aYCTaBHTH, lbYTHTO ra O,LIryPHyBIlIH, OTMh11O,LIisera, ,LIace CMHp11TeHJIH 3aMOlIHTe ,LIeTe,LIace y,LIalbH ,LIa6H ce CMHPH1I0.

pamoao ,LIaBHpTyelIHe enouaje

HMajy

cepajaaa, no HeKOlIHKO earn ,LIHeBHO.He 3a60orpoany pasapajyhy cnary, ,LIalIeKOjaxy O,LI

eMoU;Hja Koj11Ma Hea,LIeKBaTHOpearyjerao aa CTBapHOCT. Ka,LIaje CBe npHpO,LIHO, Ka,LIa,LIOnycTHMo eMoU;HjaMa ,LIanpOTHqy OH,LIace' 6p30 BpahaMo pa,LIOCTH,na KOjOj He rpetia HHCHCTMpaT11 jep H aacnojeaa pa,LIOCT,nonCT11u;aHan0311THBHHM YCJIOBlbaBalbeM, ,LIOHOCH 6pojHe np061IeMe. IIlTa MHClIMTe aKO ,LIeTey TOKY ,LIaHa,LI06Hje 6ap TpH HrpaqKHu;e, nornena 6ap TpH upraha, earnMa ra 3a6aBlbaTe jep OH HeMa pa,LIOCTHaKO OCTaHe casr, ,LIaJIH he reno MohH ,LIa OTpn11 Ty orpcsnry EMOU;11ja panocrn KOlIHqMHY pa,LIOCTHy xojy nenpecraao
6M

3allITHTHMX eMoU;Hja. ITp11pO,LIHO je ,LIace pO,LIHTelb 11

HeKOlIMKO

nyTa npaBH

MCTY

rpellIKY,

HaMepHO HlIH

,LIeTeje nnax ,LIeTe,a pO,LIHTelbje cavo qOBeK, carxan

O,LIrrpeocern.nsor

saure ,LIeTe. nocrana je,LIHHa MaHH<peCTHa eMoU;Hja. ,JJ;OIlIJIO 6H ,LIorsenor

noranare cTpax, 360r ry6HTKa ce6e, xao nernrjep ce sarnasana eMoU;Hja pa,LIOCTH,CTpax jep eMoU;Hje He

HacnojaBalba, amr na lbOj 6H ce 6p30 nacnojao He. CTpax je onpasnan

AKO TO 6y,LIy BallI11 npeTXO,LIHH,LIOrOBOpHKaKO pearosarn

Ka,LIaeMoU;Hje"lIY,LIy-

KPY)Ke, crpax O,LI ry6MTKa narpane, O,LI ry6HTKa aac, xao HeYMopHor aatiaarsaxa. To 611,LIoHeno, YKOlIHKO rtorpaje, 6pojHe KOMnlIHKaU;Hje na eMOU;HOHalIHOM, <pH3HqKOM, MeHTanHoM, cOU;HjalIHoM HHBOy. - 83-

jy", OH,LIa,LIeTeaehe saute ynarsasaa,e ,LIO)KMBeTHxao 0,LI6aU;11Balbe,xao rrpnnynyTeK nOIliTO ce ,LIeTeCMHPH, a CMMpMTe ce H BH, MO)KeMOpa30TKpHTH npaBH Y3POK - 82-

CBe esrouaje lbeM saurer

xoje HMCY MMalIe npOTOK, ce nOTMCKyjy M onaane p,MpMryjy noaanerera, xoje BaM 3arOp'laBa )f(MBOT, a BM ce HeBMHO rnrrare: na Y)f(MBa." "lllTa

CTpaxyjy

jep He MOry na OCTBape ce6e M CBOj norenuajan, on 601IeCTM. crpaxyjy

crpaxyjy

on ry6J.1TKa

ce6e, MMMTMpajynJ.1 p;pyre, crpaxyjy

pop;MTelbM

je, a CBe caM yqMHMO p,a MMa CBe, casro na He narn,

crpaxyjy

on ry6MTKa ersacreaunje,

on HeM3BeCHe 6yp;yn-

o CBMM OBMM np061IeMMMa

!Mja rrpaponno, tzsecne nere, 'O)f(eH.

He passonuzsare,

aKO

yhere

y CB.

Tana

ce )f(MBOT

HOCTM, crpaxyjy J.1MaHMrrylIa~Mje

sa nOTOMCTBO, crpaxyjy

on casrohe,

on lIa)f(HMX J.1HcpopMa~Mja walbY crpax

cnOHTaHO. 3awTo

6M 6MlIO crpaumo

p;a pop;MTelb BMKHe, MO)f(p;a

6MO

Mep;Mja, on 601IeCHt-lX YMoBa, KOjJ.1HaM M3 natioparopxja lIeKOBe, jep;HoM pexjy caBpeMeHM 'IOBeK MMa orpoaan

aKO cy ce HaWlIM y OKOlIHOCTMMa y KojeM je )f(MBOT nerery cnonrano.

601IeCTJ.1M rrpecKyrre

Taj

CTpax je 3aWTMTHM'IKM M pop;MTelb je pearoBao

CaBpeMeHM

on BlIaCTJ.1TOrM ryber CTpaxa. CBM TM CTpaxOBM, HapO'lJ.1TO OHM nOTMCHYTM, CTBapajy orpoMHy HeMa xacnzsa HarreTOCT, xoja ce MaHJ.1cpecTyje HaCJ.1lbeMCBMX 061IMKa. 3anaMTMTe: aKO y rr03ap;MHM HeMa CTpaxa, 6MlIO xoje BpCTe. >KMBOT caapesreCTpaxOM on )f(MBOTa

~MTelb He nenyje HM 3aWTMTHM'IKM, HM cnOHTaHO jep MMa CTpax on saxononasna, iax na

he

ra nere npMjaBMTM. CBe je TO aa WTeTY ponarersa, y~e y crsapanasxo jep je aacrnrrarse ponarezsa

nerera

M npyurrna.

Kana

noponaua

BMKalbeM M nzsecxaisexr,

rOpMTapHOr 'IOBeKa. OBaKBMM pyWMTM xapaonnjy y nopomnnr, ajay npoMeHY 'BapalIa'lKa HM nerera

he jour nyro pearosaTaKBa peaxun]a BeKOBMMa 6MlIa ycabasana y yM npMpop;HMM peaxuajana mrxana nehexo rpajao
HM ponarersa, jep CBM ocehasro lIenOTY npoaeoxexyjeao apeharse. sacmrran,e. CBM C panourhy nzsecxarse,

aor 'IOBeKa OMe~eH je CTpaXOBJ.1Ma M HaCMlbeM, orpOMHMM 6e3 pap;OCTM, 6e3 3ap;OBOlbCTBa J.1MJ.1pa yHyTpaWlber.

JIerro pexe BelIMKM mrcau

Meura CelIJ.1MOBMfl: "Eoj ce OBHa, 60j ce rOBHa M npohe TJ.1 )f(MBOT". CaBpeMeHM 'IOBeK je

yrpozcea,

xao HJ.1Kap;aP;Ocana. Crpax

je nacnojea

na CBa-

KOj eMo~Mjt1. JhyTJ.1 CMO M3 CTpaxa, pap;OCHM y3 crpax, jep CMO y crpaxy M3BOPHO 6Mne. li1Ma lIM nanac ,lJ;06poTe, Jhy6aBJ.1 M YHYTpaWlber J1Ma MX casro y CHOBMMa, y rrecaaxa, palIa'lKO nacmrraise ry6J.1TKa ce6e, M y crpaxy

6PJ.1)f(HMon CTpaxa, TY)f(HJ.1

YlIaCKOM y crsaparrasxo CBeCTM, a crnapanaxxa jacaa,

CMO jep CMO M3ry6J.11IJ.1 ce6e, cnoje

CBeCT He norpetiyje

lIM'IHOCT je onnyxna,

'IBpCTa, HMKap;a He M3HeBepM nere, alIM HM'IM-

Mapa? Marro,

MlIJ.1 HM MallO.

M 61Iara, norrycrzsasa,

xana OHO na 'IeMY MHCMCTMpa nere, He yrpO)f(aBa

y pe'lMMa M caao y pe'lMMa. crpaxosa

li1 3aTO je CTBa-

MHTepece, )f(MBOT, 3p;paBlbe. Crsapanasnor

pop;MTelb 3Ha on KOlIMKe je Ba)f(HO-

nex, KOjJ.1Mce oClI06a~aMO

M YlIa3MMO y Jbytiaa. xao npasna

M BlIaCTMTO MCKYCTBOp;eTeTa, na KojeM nere TOlIMKO MHCMCTMpa, nOBpeMeHO. Xapsronaja 'jy rronamarse
! 6MTM

J1cTMHa xojy CBaKO HOCMy ce6M, xao norpetiy cppa3a, P;OK rpajy Bpeaeaosr nlIMWaHJ.1 y onaocxaa pomrrezs

p;a ce He 60jJ.1MO, ocraje

y noponaua pomrrezsa,

ce nanac

yfipaaao

pyWM, y BpeMeHY xana 3aKOHM onpe-

lbYP;J.1. noxern crrOHTaHO p;a pearyje, M neue 6MTM rroTnyHo uene rroponaue, npajaan, M3 paBHJ.1 npnponae, Y raxaoj

xana je pop;MTelb

24

xaca y CTPAXY,

mrrajyha

ce WTa

he cTBapalIa'lKM

aKO BMKHe, M3rpp;M, nrsecne,

MlIM je y CTpaxy

sa ce6e, aa csor

napraepa, aenpe-

'IOBe'lHe CBeCTJ.1, TaKO na he peaxuaje 6e3 MKaKBJ.1Xnocnenaua, rropop;M~M HMKOMe )KMBOT he panourhy,

ponarezsa

:0 nonaaxae,

aKO ce He MCKOHTpOlIMwe, rra M3 Tor CTpaxa npOM3MlIa3e

rro eMO~J.10HalIHy xapxoanjy rraCTJ.1aa nasrer na nexora

'aHM cYK06M. Y OCHOBMcTpax on 3aKOHa M Ka3HM, xoje je nponncano :0 P;PYWTBO, 061IMK )f(eCTOKe npMHyp;e p;pYWTBa Hap; nopop;M~OM, )HOCM nOTnyHO

p;eMOKpaTa ra npnayna

nehe

~J.1HKapH, 0p;6a~M.

a He CTpaxOM 6MTM rrpennaszsea.

nopeaeheae

nOpOp;M'IHe omroce, BMpTyelIHoM cTpaxy on MorynHocTM na ce

Onpasnaao

CMO y HenpeCTaHOM M npxjaaa

arnr p;MKTaTOp nocern

Hac aa COCrenedio, npornaCMBWM Ka3He saxoaonaaana,

Hac HaCMlI-

M~nMa. A oana cnene nnmuaae [OBa~ HaM Crpaxyjy

a HOB~a MMaMO TaKO MallO. MalIor ~apa. Henop;06HMM M

rpefia

na, J.13Me~y OCTalIOr, norxyrrrsyjeao

JlCelbe U sqpaee 6e380lbHOCWU

Og U380pHe

eonie,

go

6eJICelbHOCWu U

PO,Il;I1TEJhli1

jep MX P;PYWTBO MO)f(e npornacnrn caBpeMeHa nopop;M~a

p;Y3eTM J.1Mnere. 360r

cnera rora

ry6J.1 cnOHTaHOCT, npMna "rrlIMWaHJ.1" p;MpJ.1ryjy eMO-

I-IMje na onsrer p;a BaM CKpeHeM rra)f(lbY na nocrojaise

YHYTPAIllIhli1X

3AKOHA,

OP;HOCT,ynana y CBe ja'lM CTpax jep He MO)f(e na orxpnje >MXOBJ.1M )f(J.1BOTMMaM none J.1X y CBe Bene oryherse ;MOHalIHe XapMOHJ.1je, M eMO~J.10HalIHe MHTelIMreH~Mje. mBOTMMa, a

Y HaMa,

KOjJ.1 CPYHK~MOHJ.1WY na KOCMM'IKMM npJ.1H~MnMMa. JhYP;MOBe 3aKOHe P;OHO-

M y TOTalIHM ry6MTaK

ce na caer, xao p;ap EO)f(MjJ.1.Haure M3BopHe eMo~Mje, HaWJ.1opraHM, Haw YM, pap;e caBpWeHO, aaxsarsyjyha lilix OBMM 3aKOHMMa, xana MX HMWTa He OMeTa na cpyHK~MOHMnpMpop;M31I0)f(eHM.

Crpax

rocnop,apM

HaWMM jep

nocefino

)f(J.1BOTMManaure neue: crpaxyjy crpaxyjy

aKO He ypane

sanaro,

lUy, Kap;a HeMa aYTopMTapHOCTJ.1 'IOBeKa Hap; 'IOBeKOM MlIJ.1cnozsaunsnx,

rehe

P;06MTM Harpap,y,

on HeYKOCTM jep MX HeKO CTalIHO npesaurrahyje.

ClilIa, KojMMa CMO nenpecraao

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CBe nosrazce CBeMY,yHYTap HaC CaMI1X.Hesra ycnosrsaaarsa, HeMa npesaurru. Il1Balba, HeMa I1MI1Tl1palba, CBaKI1 naur AelIl1h je caspureacrno no ce611. Taxo 6t1 'CTalIO, jep ce TaKBI1 pahasro, YKOlIl1KOHac seh Y YTpo611 Maj'll1Hoj HI1CYHa'lelIt1, t onna "nlIl1rnaHOM" 11pealIHOM npl1HYAoM CBe 1131IOMl1MO y Harnl1M nOTOMQI1Ma, mer ce rrarajyha rne CMOnorpeunorx. J1 na HI1IlITa He 3Ha 0 He rpetia 'IOBeK na rrosaaje OBY HayKy 6ecnpeKopHo. 7HyTpaIlIlbl1M 3aKOHI1Ma, 3Ha, xao nanx, jep TO 11oceha, Aa eaeprnja )Kelbe, MOpa )I1TI1y paBHOTe)K11 ca eneprxjoa nozse, (nornenajre QPBeHY 11CHBy KPY)KHI1QY). \KO neurro )KelIl1M Mopa Aa I1MaM 11jaxy BOlbY Aa AO rora Ao~eM. Ha)KalIOCT, nOA rTl1QajeM aenpecranor n03l1Tl1BHOr ycnoazsanarsa, )Kelba eHopMHo napacra, CBe to CMpTHor rpexa noxnerre. JIorl1'1HO je Aa napacra 11sozsa, na ApyroM AelIY KlIaQ<alII1Qe, sozsa ce rpanopopscnue y TBpAornaBocT. Bes jaxe TBpAornaBOCTI1 He 611 .e Morao nOCTaBlbeHI1 3aAaTaK aaotiahn, jep ce HI1 jenaa nOCTaBlbeHI1 "nmuua:m" 3aAaTaK He otiasrsa C Jby6aBlby. Tspnornasourhy I1AeMOYBeK nporns ce6e 11 wyrl1x. Iloxnena HapaCTa, pOAI1Telb oceha Aa noxnena yrpO)KaBa rseroso nere 11 'hera, npeocraje My na Bep6alI113MOM: "Hl1je rreno, IlITO CTalIHO neurro Tpa)KI1IlI", ia'll1HI1 jour sehy rpelliKy. ,1J;eTeKpl1Bl1113BOPHYBOlbY Y TBpAornaBOCT. TOM nerery nehe 6l1Tl1 cTpaHo na YKpaAe, na naxce, na aac I1CQpnlbyje, I1HCHCTl1pajyhl1 CaTI1\1a aa CBOjOj)Kelbl1, ytiehyjyh aac na CTe BI1AY)KHI1Aa My CBe )Kelbe peannsyjere. KaKO nere paCTe, cezse yspacrajy, neisocr TaKO~e. Arpecrrjoxr he sac HaTepaTI1 na My CBaKOAHeBHOnonyrsasare npa3HI1HY, y xojoj, YMeCTOJby6aBI1, cnazce MaTepl1ianae CTBapl1 11AYXOBHOcsrehe. Y YClIOBI1Ma 6e3 aYTopI1TapHOCTI1, 113BOpHe)Kelbe 611YBeK 6111Ienpaheae 113BOpHOMBOlbOM, a sozsa ce peanasyje panon, 3HalbeM, TaKO na y YClIOBI1Ma6e3 ayropl1TapHOCTI1 nere I1Ma cezsy, I1Ma 11BOlbY Aa :>KelbYOCTBapl1 paAoM, BlIaCTI1TI1M rpynoa, I1Ma anaise KaKO na TO ypaAI1 11xana CBe 3aBpIlIl1 ocraje My HaTalIO)KeHa MYAPOCT,xao nOClIeAI1Qa caMopaAa. Jby6aB je ra] yHyTpaIlIlbl1 noxperax, ra yHyrpaunsa MOTI1BaQl1ja. J1 "KlIaQKalIl1Qa na KOjOj cy sozsa 11:>Kelbaje y paBHOTe)KI1". Me~YTI1M, CBe IlITO eHopMHO HapaCTa, a HapaCTa xana cy "nil I1IlIaH11 " nparaOQI1 y aacrnrran.y, nonYT 6alIoHa he 11nyhx, KaA - TaA. JeAHa BpCTa "nyQalba" he YBeCTI1nere y arpecnjy, na here MO)KAaAo6l1Tl1 116aTl1He aKO no-mere na My ycxpahyjere xcerse. Ilpyra BpCTa nYQalba, YHYTpallilba, BOAI1Y OACYCTBO )Kelbe, y 0ACYCTBOCMI1ClIa)KI1BOTa,y nenpecajy, na xpajy 11y CYI1QI1A.KaKO here 3HaTl1 Aa ce rrparrpexra OBO 31IeXYAO"nYQalbe"? IlpBI1 3HaQl1 6l1he: "MeHI1 je AocaAHO, CBe je CMOPHO, HeMoj TO BI1IlIe na MJ.1 xyrryjeui, He mrrepecyje Me uncona, 1131IaCQI1,ApyrnTBo, na 'IaK HI1 KOMnjYTep.". nOTOM npl1MeTI1Te na nere HeMa paAOCTI1. El1lIO urra na My xyrurre, 111I11 na My yql1HI1Te, nocraje HeBa:>KHO.Ilpnponna nOClIep;I1Qa nap;a xcerse je nap; sorse, xoja
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MYje, y craisy noxnene 6111Ia11Te KaKO rrorpetiaa, na 06aBl1 nOCTaBlbeHI1 3aAaTaK, KaKO6u p;o6uo otiehairy HarpaAY. ry6ehl1 :>KelbY nere nosxrse na ry61111 BOlbY,lIaKO op;yCTaje on axunje xoja 611 My Morna AOHeTI1 HarpaAY, xojy nere cana He Tpa:>Kl1. Tap;a pOAI1Telb 3a6pl1HyTO xoacraryje Aa je nere He3al1HTepeCOBaHO aa paA, aa yqelbe, He )KelIl1 HI1 MaTepl1jalIHe CTBapl1, pOAI1Telb BI1IlIe He 3Ha 'II1Me 611 Morao p;a ra MOTI1BI1IlIe. CBI1 cy CpehHI1 YKOlIl1KOrrponahy neurro HOBO na TP)KI1IlITY qUMe 611 MOTUBUCalIl1 nere aa paA, na ofianese, 'II1Me 611 My nOKpeHYlIU paAOCT. Tap;a 6upajy cnozsaunsa cpencraa KOjl1M 611 p;OAaTHO BpaTl1lIl1 AeTeTY )KelbY 11 BOlby. HeKpI1TU'IKI1 ycnajajy CBe IlITO Tp)KI1IlITe HYAI1.Cnyurajy casere nporparepa: "Ap;peHalIuHoM nporxs npore, npOTUB nerrpecnje", eKCTpeMHI1 cnOpTOBI1 cy "npaBa craap", -ryjy, 3a6opaBlbajy, 11jeAHI1 11p;pyru p;a nocne excrpesraor cnopra, nocne eKCTpeMHe p;pa)K11 ayTOpl1TapHU yM Tpa)K11 CBe jaxy 11jaxy npaxc. Kana ce p;pa)K11UCQpny, p;pora na xpajy xexa, xao 1131Ia3113osor He3aHl1Mlbl1BOr CBeTa, MI1ClIUsaure nere. POp;I1Telb ce orrer HeBI1HO rnrra: "lliTa 611, a CBe casr My nao", Tpetiazro je casro OTKlIOHI1TI1n03UTl1BHO ycnosrsaaaa,e 11Bep6alIl13aM 11CBe 6u ce 113perYlIl1CalIO caao op; ce6e, jep yayrpaunsn 3aKOHl1 pane xao IlIBajQapCKI1 car, 6YAuTe Cl1ryPHI1.

He yhes

llU

y paqocui. cneqyje MU eenuxa tiputa

Xajne Aa nornenavo jour jenay "KlIaQKalIuQY". AKO je npl1Hyp;a Hap; HeKUM orpOMna, na je jour KOM6I1HOBaHa, CPI13I1'1KOM, Bep6alIHOM 1161IarOM npI1Hyp;oM, CBaKaKO He MO)KeMOO'leKI1BaTI1 na he nere paAI1Tl111 )KI1BeTI1Cpanourhy, ,1J;aKlIe,paAoCT he na)KlbI1BO. Crpenaua OA U30CTaTI1, a reno he cnOHTaHO yha y 6pl1ry. Ilornenajre 3elIeHor xpyra (zsyrise) I1Ae xa )KYTOMKpyry. Ilon TepeToM npl1Hyp;e "rocnoAap" (lbYTlba je rocnop;ap 6PI1311), MO)Kep;a 0601I11. Morna 611 na 0601I11 jerpa UlIl1 )Kyq, p;a P;06l1jeMo TpeMop MI1IlIl1ha, napalIl13Y 111I11 HeKI1 BI1P;TI1Ka. YHYTpaIlIlbl1 3aKOHt1cy caBpIlIeHl111 cnyra, (tipara) npeysxsra BO~CTBO,TaKO IlITO ce 'IOBeK YlIaCKOM y 6pl1ry CMI1PI1,a CBe TO 61IarOTBOpHO nenyje 11aa jerpy 11aa )Kyq 11na MI1IlIl1h~t1 Ct1CTeM.Bpara je, KaKO xazce rOCnOAI1H Ilapx, 3aIlITl1THa eMOQl1ja, 61IaropOAHa, )ep P;OK Ml1pyjeMo 'reno ce orropaszsa, AOKyM rpetia Aa nponahe npaBO peureise. DOlIlTO npT.< . 6pl1re OABI1nHYAa 11nazse TpaJe yM reurxo HalIa311 pernelbe 11eMOQl1ja ure p;yro rpajs, To oner Hl1je notipo jep CMO ce cana 3arnaBl11I11 xa eMoQl1jl1 6pl1re. Cana cy HaM yTp O)KeHI1 :>KelIYAaQ11ClIe3l1Ha. MO:>KeMoA06l1Tl1 11mehep. Oner caBpIlIeHt13aKO . HI1 cnauraaajy HecpeTHO nere OA aac 11aaure HeYKOCTI1,nparn pOAI1Telbl1.
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Carta "clIyra", y OBOM cnyxajy, CTPax, cnauraaa nere, Knanxanxna Jil3Me1)y 6pJilre JiICTpaXa ce ycrrocrasn,a, aaxaarsyjyha naMeTHOM Telly. Amr aKO ce pomrren, HJiI cana He p;OCeTJiIJiIHe npeCTaHe ca KlIaCH'IHOM, nmnuanoxr npJilHyp;oM, npJil TOM HaM je nere JiI p;albe na aajcrpaumajaa BJilpTyellHJilM canpacajasra, ,,6allOH" crpaxa ce rrynx, nYHJiI. Kana KOllJilqJilHa CTpaxa, peallHor JiIBJilpTyellHor nocraae Henop;HOurzsxsa aa nere, eHOpMHJiI crpax. noxpeae eHopMHY lbYTlbY, xoja ce MaHJiI<pecTyje Kp03 pa311Ji1qJilTe0611Ji1Keaacazsa, (arpecnja ayroarpecnja, 601leCT, neisocr, CMPTHJiIrpeXOBJiI, anxoxonaaasr, napxosraaa]a, KpJilMJilHall, BpWlbaqKO aacazse JiIClI). He rpetia 6Ji1TJiI MHoro naaeran JiI3aKlbyqJilTJiI p;a je OCHOBHJiI Y3POK CBJilX0611Ji1Ka aacazsa y OBOMBpeMeHY rapnornaso ncrpajaaaa,e aa yrrorpetia llPY1HY.D;E CBJilX 0611Ji1Ka,qJiljJilcy HOCJilO~JiI aYTopJilTapHJiI BaCnJilTHJiIMOp;ellJil.Ine cy OHJiI,Ty je crpax CBJilX0611Ji1Ka,rne cy CTpaxOBJiI, lbYTlba je orposora, JiIHe P;OHOCJiI panocr. Ee3 panoCTJiIqOBeK p;albe He MO)Ke. AKO caspeveaa qOBeK, HapOqJilTO pOp;JilTelb JilMa y pyxaMa aaaise cTBapallaqKOr sacnxrarsa snahe nyT ocnofiaharsa ce6e JiIcsor nerera on CTpaXOBa. Op;CYCTBOaYTOpJilTapHOCTJiI, Op;CYCTBO p;pecype, P;OHOCJiI CMJilpelbe CBJilX Jil3BOPHJilXeMo~Jilja. CBaKa naura esrouaja, nop;CTaKHYTa cnorsaunsna JiIyHyTpaWlbJilM np0611eMOM, a 6Ji1he JilXYBeK, 6Ji1he JilCTJilHCKJiI 3aWTJilTHa. 3aMJilClIJilTe,HeKO aac je Hara3Ji10 y ayrotiycy JiIjour sac nanana, P;OK ce BJiICMeWJiIre JiIJil3BJillbaBaTe. To 36Ji1lba HJilje 3p;paBo, xao WTO He 6Ji16Ji1110anpaso na Jil3Bap;JilTe opyzcje JiIy6Ji1jeTe Tor xonexa. 0 cpep;lbeM, 3p;paBOM nyTy, 6pJilHy same 3aWTJilTHe eMO~Jilje, a OHe HaM nOMa)KY p;a P;OHOCJilMO snpaaa JiI6p3a pew eisa, caao aKO HJilCMO)KpTBa nepMaHeHTHe npJilHyp;e, y noponaua, unconn JillIJiIpap;HOM MecTy. Ilocne caao jenaor cycpeTa ca noponauoxr na KojeM ce pop;JilTelbY JiInerery oojaCHJiIsaxoaoaepnocr "KlIa~KallJil~e" )Kelbe JiIaozse, lbYTlbe JiI6pJilre, 6pJilre JiIcrpaxa, JillIJiIcaMO na)KlbJilBJilM qJilTalbeM KlbJilre, pOp;JilTelb JiInere he, CaMJiI, ya noraoh urejae, MohJil p;a aaannaapajy WTa ce noraha non nejcrsoa yHyTpawlbJilx 3aKOHa, a WTa non nejcrnoxr ner "nllJilWaHJilX", rrparehn naxosxao TOK crpemma na weMJiI. CBJiI 3HaMO, y CBaKop;HeBHOM )KJilBOTY,p;a 3aKOH p;aBalba JiIY3BpaTHe <pyHK~l1je nenorpeurxso <PYHK~l10HJilwe. PeTKO l111Ji1 rOTOBO HJilKap;a He onere y rOCTe, a p;a He nonecere nOKlIOH. Ilocne Jil3BeCHOr BpeMeHa noronxhe ce Y3BpaTHa <pyHK~l1ja l1 cana cy OHJiIBaWJiI rocrn JiIyaaparnhe BaM nOKlIOHOM, qaK JiICKyrrlbJilM on oxor xojer cy p;06Ji1l1Ji1 on sac. AlIJiI peTKO KO 3Ha rta ce CBe TO neurasa JiIy nauresr Telly. BeKOBJilMa HJilCMOJilMallJilOBa npep;l1BHa aaaisa l1 BepOBaTHO HJilCMOHl1 Tpe6alll1 na JilXJilMaMO. .D;ace Ta snaa,a imax He 6Ji1aafiopaaxna xoaex je CBe Op;l1rpaBaO na cnorsaunsesr nllaHy. BeKOBJilMa ce rOBOpl1110 na y rOCTe He Jilp;ew "npa3Hl1X pyKy" JiITO ce JiInaa nanac nourryje. PYKe cy HaM ymaBHoM nyHe "OTpOBa", jep ymaBHOM P;OHOCJilMO npajarersroaa JiIpoharnoaa xadiy l1 nnhe. Y3 Kacpy JiI rnrhe qeCTO
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p;OHOCl1MOl1 aYTOpl1TapHOCT (csahy, npenJilpKY, oroaaparse, naaerosau,e, YHOCJiIMO HeMl1p y onaoce JiIClI.) Ha cpehy, qOBeK he YCKOPO CXBaTJilTJiI na he nocere JiIOP;HOCJiI Y Kojl1Ma HeMa aYTOPl1TaPHOCTJiI, 6l1TJiIaajaehx napoaa, xoje HeKOMe MO)KeW p;OHeTJiI,jep je MY1P 36l1lba HajBehl1 p;ap, jep "aKO je jenaa Ml1paH, CTOTJilHeOKOrsera ce CMJilpe". Tana he MepOM, MepOM HaM npl1jaTelbl1 JiIpohaua, xonere aa noclIY, Y3BpahaTJiI aajnernuoa lbYP;CKOCTl1. Tana heao 36Ji1lba pa3YMeTJiI 3aKOH xpearnaae JiIY3BpaTHe <pYHK~Jilje KP03, p;06po 3HaHY Jil3peKy: "KaKo cejeur, TaKO )KalbeW, KaKO npocrpeur, TaKO hew p;a lIerHew". CBl1 HaWJiI 06Ji1qajJil cy 6l111Ji1 JiIocrana paryanna JiIcnOlbaWlbJil, JiICBl1 ymaBHOM yxasyjy aa OBe KOCMJilqKe3aKOHe. Inenajre OKO ce6e JiIysepahere ceo Y OBOM BpeMeHY cnozsaunse je ,o;OCTJilmOMaKcJilMYM. Ilornenajre KOlll1KO ce neTapp;l1 xcnana aa HOBY ronaay, WJilPOM CBeTa, KOllJilKOce nyua Jil3CBJilXopyxqa Ka,o;ace po,o;JiInere JillIJiIxana ce MlIa,o;JiIcene JiIynajy, Ca CBaKOM HOBOM ro,o;JilHOM crpax ce rrojaxa jep CMO CBe crapajn, a CBe CMO p;albJil 0,0;ce6e xaaopnor. CnorsaWlbJilM BaTpOMeTJilMa noxyurasasro p;a noxpeaexo yHyTpawlby panocr xoja je CBe raisa. Yayrpaunsa panocr 6Ji1rpetiana na 6y,o;e y XJillba,o;e npenenxx 60ja, rrorryr sarpoaera. EOjJilMOHe60, rryuaao, rallaMJilMO, BPJilWTJilMO,.rreaaao", CKaqeMO, onnjaMo ce, y TOj "Hajllyljoj Hohl1. Kana ra noh npohe, na 3eMlbJil JiIy Ba3gyxy ocrajy nocnenaue aaure lIygOCTJiI (aasnrcmrre KOllJilKOje saraherse rrnaaere casro rrocne Hajlly1)e noha). Eygl1MO ce MaMypHJiI, He3agOBOlbHJiI, 6e3 nane na he HaM uena OBa ronnaa gOHeTJiI MHoro panocrn JiIMJilpa. ClIJilqHO ce neurasa na BeHqalbJilMa, na 6Ji1ce npe uaspureae rozntae 6paKa, 6paK, y BellJilKOM6pojy cnyxajeaa, l1 pacnao, lly~aMo JiIonajaxro ce xana g03HaMO na HaM ce CJilHPOP;l10, a gOBOlbHO 6Ji1611110 na HaM cpue nyua on panocrn. Ha)KallOCT, y cp~y panocrx 6aw JiIHeMa MHoro jep ~BaKor oua nerne MOPJilcyMlba na 1IJi1 he, y OBOMTeWKOM BpeMeHY, ycrrern na onra)JiIcaaa, no MepJil csoje nyure, Cl1Ha - noopor sroaexa. . MOfJIJil6Ji1 CMO3aKlbyqJilTJiI na je CBaKa rrpejaxa, crrorsaunsa "KpeaTJilBHa"aK~JiIja, 36Ji1lba casro rrOKYwa) . rroxperaisa ynyrpaunse panocrrr, alll1 y3 yrropHy ynoTpe6y aYTOpJilTapHJilX, panocr nehe gOHeTJiI nerapne, CBe he jour gyro OCTaTJiIcaxo Heycneo n . . h Tlil o xyur a) , )OW gyro e crrozsaunsa, aeycnezra, WTeTHa "Kpea~Jilja", g06l13aY3BpaT, YHYTpaWlbY y3BpaTHy <PYHK~l1jy 6e3 panocrn. AKO y1)eMo y JilCTJilHCKl1, CTBapallaqKY, KOPJilCHYaxunjy, yresrezserry na lby6aBlil l1 .D;06 h POTl1 Kpel1pa eMO panocr YHYTpaWlbY, a panocr he HaM no 3aBpweTI<y aI<~l1)'e , npe nnaaara i aaura axmqa nerarasaa, ' cBaKY naury hernrivAxo ellJil)y. AKO )e aKO CMo y npeBe' " . IiIJI JIIiII<O)"lbYTlbJil , panocr HaM aehe Y3BpaTJilTJiI,jep he panocr notiehx iii y 6plilry JillIJiIY Tyry. Aal<JIe ITa 61i1 . 1L ' CTe yWlIJiI y panocr, saura axinqa Mopa 6l1TJiI Jil3 paBHJiI 3gpaBe YTlbe, 1i13pa 6 BHJiIgo pe HaMepe, norxpenzsexa 3HalbeM, Mopa 6l1TJiI nogp)KaHa
M

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jaxoxr BOJbOMM HapaBHO, MOpa

6MTM

npaheaa MYAP0uID.y, xoja YHanpeA 3Ha MCXOA

APYMOpa
6MTM

Jib osor aaxceurerezscrna

ce M3JIa3Mcasro YKM,lJ;AIhEM

ner "rrJIMIllaHMX". Ca

TaKBe axuaje, AK~Mja MOpa 6MTM npaaa, 'IOBetIHa, y KOPMCT'IOBeKa, npnpone, urrsa. Y KOpeHY CBMXHaIllMX axuxja CTBapaJIa'IKa Jby6aB. aK~MjM
MJIM

YKM.n;albeMKa3He, Harpa.n;e, npesaurrahasarsa aJIM HajBehM rrp06JIeM aacraje MrpaOHM~a, KJIa.n;MoHM~a,rropaaha, CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarsa.

M Bep6aJIM3Ma, M.n;e peJIaTMBHOJIaKO,

xana nere, xoje je 3aBMCHOon MrpM~a, MHTepHeTa, cexca, rpetia BOJbHO.n;ace o.n;peKHe TMX 06JIMuena rropo.n;M~a OCBojMJIanenore snarsa 06JIMKa

He 3aAOBOJbMTM OBe YCJIOBe,ytm y axnajy arpecMBHo, 6e3 A06pe HaMepe, He3HaJIa'IKM, paAocT ce nehe nOKpeHYTM. ITo saspureaoj na ce cnycrrrrx
~MjM

here OTMhMy 6PMry,

'IOBeKa eMOJbYTlbOM,

xa 3aBMCHOCTM, KaKO 6M nocne'vraurhea.a';

ryry M cTpax,
60JI

MJIM

he paAocT cnOHTaHO nperrycrxrn xana yhere y axnnjy,

ITo "CKM.n;alby" .n;eTeTaca jenner 06JIMKa 3aBMcHoCTM, y3

Tyre. Hesrojre MeIllaTM crnapa,

ca orposmoa

TpajHo YKM.n;albeaYTopMTapHocTM, nere amue HMje 3aBMcHo, HM on jenaor CTpaxa y caapeaeaa )I(MBOT M HM on xera HMje 3aBMCHO,'He nocraje sa

HeraTMBHM, natroceha

APyroMe, MO)I(eTe oceTMTM 3JIypaAocT. 3JIypaAocT HMje My

3aBMCHOCTM.Tana nere KOH3YMMpa 6JIaro.n;eTM caBpeMeHe TeXHOJIOrMje, YJIa3M 6e3 HM )I(pTBa, HM HaCMJIHMK,jep nocenyje, CTBapaJIa'IKY, KPMTM'IKY CBeCT, rrpM TOM HeMa yHyTpa-

paAocT, 3anaMTMTe. Y3 3JIypaAocT He XpJIMTe AYXOBHOCTM. MCTO ce neurasa xana jeAaH 'IOBeK xpeapa APyror, Apym

yaspaha npasosr

MepOM. AKO csoje nere, KpeMpaTe C panomhy jep CTe My AonYCTMJIM .n;acasr pana OHOIllTO MO)I(e, jep CTepa.n;OCHM .n;OK nere cavo pa.n;M,nere he BaM Y3BpaTMTM paneurhy, 3a.n;OBOJbCTBOM, snpaazsea, 3aXBaJIHoIIIhy. To je OHOxana napon xaxce: ,~MHM notipo He 60j ce, 'IMHM 3JIO aanaj ce." Cana npenosaajeao rpelliKy. qOBeK rroxyutasa IllTO .n;OBO.n;M .n;ocTBapalba yHyTpallilber rpetiajy .n;acnorsaunsroa xaoca. Yrryrpaunsn xpeapa yHyaa

unse HarreTOCTM, rra TMMe M nexa rrorpetie Jba. 0 MOM MCKYCTBYKaKO caspesreao M Pa.n;OCTM MMa aa nperex.

saaxcaonrhy, xao 06JIMKOM HaCM-

nere OCJI060.n;MTMBMpTyeJIHe 3aBMCHOCTM,

peha hy sxure y nornaszsy CTBapaJIa'IKO y npaxca, f.n;e HeMa rrJIMIllaHMX, lhy6aBM

rpaunse, npexopno

3aKOHM 6ec-

<pyHK~MOHMIllY. He rpetiajy MM HOBe narnxe C ornopoa

.n;a6MX ce noxpenyo

'IMTalbe JIeKTMpe. MeHM narxxe Jby6aBJbY, aKO TO pa3YMeM,

MJIM

jep MM rpefiajy, a JIeKTMpy hy 'IMTaTM C aKO He pa3YMeM urra 'IMTaM, aJIM hy Be3M, rrpaanahere.

onexueaiuu uocne cuosnaje ga cauo xapMOHU30aaHe emouuje aoge y fby6aa?

,lJ;eceTrrynax ronaaa, rtpenaaatsaxa, CTaHO ycaspuranajy, rrOMa)I(eM Jby.n;MMa.n;a OTKpMjy MCTJ.myy ce6M, Ilpenaaaise je ycneno, aKO yspo-

uuaa je peanno

'IMTaTM. ITaTMKe M JIeKTMpa HMCY HM Y xaxsoj

.n;ace cere M ocere .n;acy MKOHe 60)I(Mje, xoje cy noume y osaj )I(MBOT .n;ace Herrpe-

jacuo 3aUlUlO ee, YMeeUlO y Ibytiae, cpma y nacune unu qeupecujy

Caga je U geUleUlY
ITO.n;HerrpecTaHMM nejcraoa rpexoBa, jep ce aapyurasajy Tpallilba HarreTOCTM. Kaxo? Ilornenajre rryure, nnjy, npornpajy CTaHMM ocehaisesr KpMBM~e rrer "rrJIMIllaHMX", non nenpecraamr yHyTpaIlllbM

jep cy neo 60)J(aHcKe eneprnje.

CTe orynrajyh MOjy MCTMHY,OTKPMJIMCBOjy MCTMHY,Y ce6M M npenosnana xe KpMBJbelba csora yayrpaunser CBOjy MCTMHY.n;aHac caxo xapMOHM30BaHe eMo~Mje none y Jby6aB.

6Mha. ,lJ;06po je aKO CTe MOjMM pe'IMMa .n;o.n;aJIM caBpIlleHOCTM, aa na sepyjere y peMH)I(MBOTa, MJIM

napacrajyhaa

AKO ce MpIllTMTe rra MOjy rrpM'Iy 0 Jby.n;CKOjrrorenuajanaoj KOHCTaTa~Mjy .n;aje 'IOBeK MKOHa60)I(Mja, o.n;Max npenoaaajev KapHa~Mjy, rra TMMe M MoryhHOCT nonourersa
B .

BMpTyeJIHMM, aJIM M peaJIHMM CTpaXOM, 'IOBeK JIaKO M 6p30 CTM)I(e no CMpTHMX 3aKOHM. CBe M3BOPHOce "KpMBM" YHycy
MJIM

repera,

M3 rrperxonnor
MJIM

HarreTOCT je eHopMHa, a rne je HarreTOCT Ty je norpefia aa rrpa)I(lbelbeM Jby.n;eOKOce6e: arpecannx

MJIM

epy)eTe .n;apohersess .n;OHOCMMO rpexe CBOjMX rrpenaxa, BaIllY MCTMHy. AKO CTe aTeMCTa sepyjre

CTe aTeMCTa. Hapas-

ayToarpecMBHM,

HO.n;arroIllTyjeM

na

here YJIaCKOMy CTBa-

ce, 6e)I(e y 60JIeCTM, JIelbM cy, oryhena

on ce6e, ca nenpe-

pana'lKO aacmrraa,e

onaj jenaa je.n;MHMBalli OB03eMaJbCKM)I(MBOTrrpOBeCTM ca IllTO CBOjMX rrOTOMaKa. rrpe.n;aKa, naxere .n;OHOCMMO M CBe rpexose

rpM)I(e caBeCTM, 3ap06JbeHM pa3HMM 06JIM~MMa M)I(MBOTa, 6e30cehajHM. AHapCJIMKacaspeaeaor CBeTa. To 'IMHe

Malbe MYKa, a HapO'lMTO ca Malbe MyKa y onrajaisy OHMMa KOjM aepyjy na pol)elbeM

3aBMcHoCTM, oryhea on ce6e, .n;pymx, on npxpone xaja M HaCMJbe,xao nocnennua

CMpTHMXrpexoBa, nocrajy

CBM ce ooBe casro HaCMJbeMM Ha'IMHMMa KaKO .n;ara csrarse, aaycraae. Ma, TeXHMKaMa, 'IMrrOBMMa. ~ 90 ~

oner Ka3HOM M Harpa.n;OM, Bep6aJIM3MOM (peux .n;porM M HaCMJbY "He"), JIeKOBM-

npeTXO.n;HMX)I(MBOTa, TaKBMMa ronno npenopyxyjea aaaise CTBapaJIa'IKOr sact:. . t:. nl-lTalba' , )ep lie CBO)O) HeCpeTHO) .n;e~M rrOMOIIM na He rrOHOBe csoje rpeXOBe, M3 :peTxo.n;HMX )I(MBOTa, a MpTBMM rrpeuasca hesro AOHeTM cMMpelbe, YKOJIMKOrrpel-iHeMO rrpouec noaaszsarsa M yl)eMo y BepTMKaJIY, y pacr, OHMMa KOjM sepyjy y ~ 91 ~

peMHKapHalVljy xojer

Ka)l(eM na he y3

novoh
M

osor

anarsa

ycneTM na OqMCTe rpex 360r

aYTOpMTapHoj Aalbe oc'raje

CBeCTM, xoja

He MO)l(e ca

naxohosr

Aa yoe yHyTpa

y ce6e, je

seh

cy nOHOBO AOlliJIM y )l(MBOT

na he aa raj HaqMH 6p)l(e 3aBpllIMTM 60paBaK

cnozsa,
KlbHry HJIM cnyurajyhn npeAaBalbe,

3Halbe xoje CTe Ao6HJIM qHTajyhH na nJIaHeTM 3eMlbH. Y OACYCTBY aYTopHTapHOCTM, He nOACTMqyhM

saure

nacarse,

MO)l(Aa

here

nOMO-

3Halbe H aKO caM npo6YAHJIa he np06JIeMe, qHTaTe

y BaMa )l(elbY na OBMM 3HalbeM pellIHTe

csoje ropy-

hH CBOMe AeTeTY Aa He nOHOBM y6HCTBO xoje je nOqHHHO y npeTXOAHOM )KHBOr

ycneJIM CMO. Osaj TeKCT aac HHje yMOpHO. J1MaTe cHary na ra npoTo je

y. Carnacaa

caM na CBaKO ynpa)KlbaBa

TeXHMKe, xoje My npajajy,

Aa CBaKO eepyie

jour

HeKOJIHKO nyrai aac npeAaBalba

cajro

3HaK na CTe Ao6HJIH CYllITHHCKO

aaarse.

YMapajy

xoja ce He TMqy same CYllITHHe, xoja sac "paCTaBe"

HJIM He sepyje,

aJIH YBeK MOJIMM Aa H3Met)y ce6e M csoje neue YKJIOHHTe "nJIHllIaV13BOPHY npHpOAY neue

aa caCTaBHe AeJIOBe, a He najy OArOBOp KaKO Aa ce caCTaBMTe M 3aTO CTe OCehaJIH yMOP H He3aAOBOlbCTBO. OBO

He", YKJIOHHTe Ka3HY H aarpany. HJIH MCKpHBlbeHO 6Mhe csora

aehere

MelbaTM, caoje,

nerera,

here

BpaTHTH H3BOpy. )J;OhH he AO ce6e M CBe oA6aqeHe

spaha.

saarse

BaM AOHOCHpellielbe

KaKO Aa novoraere

cefia,

lba CBOMe M3BOPY, a aa M3BOPY npnxsarare AHu;e,

qJIaHOBe nopo-

ycrrocrauzsaiyh nOpOAHqHH nopenax lby6aBH. Tana ce noraha cnOHTaHH onpourraj. Onpaurra ce aeaaatse pOAHTelbHMa, onpaurrajy ce rpecx npeuasra. Bes
He MO)l(eMO y AYXOBHH M lbYACKH paCT. na M3BOPY HeM a MMa H xana je Ipexosa

onpourraja

caao

BpJIHHa: "Ao6po"

Ilotipa nasrepa,

)J;o6pOTa, Jbytiaa,

3aAOBOlbCTBO, MHp

neurro

M xana HHje, CMepHOCT, BeJIHKOAY-

llIHOCT, paAHHOCT, TpnelbHBOCT, MOJIHTBa, nOCT, KPOTOCT, CaMHJIOCT, 3aXBaJIHOCT, Ay60Ka peJIHrH03HOCT ... ) Y TOKY OBHX necer rO,lJ,MHa,nOCJIe 6e36poj ce TMllIHHa. Ilo 3aBpllIeTKY BMM Aa je npeAaBalba H3rOBopeHHX

npenanaisa, nonanzsa urra rnrra

H YBeK

HHKO He ycraje,

HaKO HeKOJIMKOnyTa nOHO-

Ine cy PaAOCT H OITTMnpoacera 6pMrOM, 3aTO H nocroja OBaKaB MMp nOCJIe npenasan.a. 3allITO 6pHHeTe? Bpanere jep 3HaTe KaKBe np06JIeMe HMaTe y nopOAHU;H H CYMlbaTe na he OCTaJIH npMcTaTH aa rrpoweae. Ilpo6JIeMH aacrajy TeK nourro CBOj onTHMH3aM H3pyqMTe npeA qJIaHOBe csoje rroponnue, a He Ao6HjeTe OqeKHBaHY nOApllIKy. 0 TOMe urra nOCJIe npenasarsa, KaKO u;eJIy rropomnry AOBeCTH na HeKO HOBO npeAaBalbe HJIH ceMHHap ornrcahy y nornaszsy IlPAKCA. Carta je MHoro Ba)KHHje pa3YMeTH HCTHHY Aa ayTopHTappaasoj Jby6aBM y CBaKOM HH BacnHTHH MOAeJIH aaycraszsajy pasnoj csecnocra, qOBeKY. Iler nJIMllIaHMX 6JIOKMpajy BallIY CBeCT, nOTnYHo HJIM AeJIHMHqHO KpHBe H3BopHe eaepraje y qOBeKY. Ha npaoa MecTY KpHBe ce esrouaje, a nOTOM CBe OCTaCBOjOj AeU;H, CBOM 6paKY, CBOMe KOJIem, CBOMe APyllITBy. MH3aM, Ty yMopa HeMa. PaAOCT je
JIO.

npenanaise aanpureno, orposmoa

HMKO HeMa )KelbY Aa 6HJIO Aa He MHCHcTHpajy

casr

OJIOKHpa ce paasoj qOBeK KOjH je

uenoxynaor

nOTeHU;HjaJIa, TaJIeHaTa. CMryPHO He MO)l(e 6HTH y CBeCHOCTM.

MOpaJIa na yno30pHM 6oM6apAyjeM

opraHH3aTope

aa nHTalbHMa.

J1aKo HX

yurao

y cMpTHe rpexoBe

KOJIHqHHOM nonaraxa,

Hece6HqHO HM

BHAHM yMOp MJIH aejacaohy, HHTH norpeoy eMoU;Hje xapMOHH30BaHe, )J;MpeKTOpKa jenne HaCTaBHMqKO

na HeKYA )l(ype.
M YTonlbeHH

napyjyha aaarse, He Ocehasi Aa cy lbHxoBe

y Jbytias. jep

)J;aHac rOTOBO na HeMa nOTnYHO CBeCHHX lbYAH, jep je CMJIaaYTopHTapHOCTM sarocnonapxna HallIMM )l(MBOTMMa. PeaJIHO je OqeKMBaTH Aa he CBaKa

caspesreaa
y

nopo-

na cy npenJIaBlbeHH

AHu;a, xoja OCBOjH H HarpaAe, y3

llIKOJIe Me je OrpaHHqHJIa

nOJIyqaCOBHOM H3JIaralbeM, H na joj ce 360r rora

saarse npanovoh

CTBapaJIaqKOr

sacrurratsa,

xoja

yhe

y onaoce

6e3 Ka3He

AYXOBHMX TeXHHKa M AYXOBHMX

snarsa, yha

Cnecaocr,

sehe

HMa MHoro np06JIeMa

sa pelliaBalbe

)l(ypH.

y Jby6aB H )J;06pOTy.

Ilocne
npHqe,

Mor

nsnaraisa

H OHa H HaCTaBHHU;H cy CeAeJIH MHPHO, oqeKyjyhH je HCKpeHO peKJIa:

HaCTaBaK

a AHpeKTopKa

.Flocne 'Eyre,

OBe npHqe, HHrAe He )l(ypHM, jep

CBe 360r

-rera Iloxyurahy

caM )l(ypHJIa je nOCTaJIO 6eCMHCJIeHO." na

nojacnasr

OBY nojasy.

jep CJIa)l(Y

aenocrajyhe

KOU;KHU;e

M03aHKa csoje MCTHHe. CBe AOJIa3H na cnoje MeCTO H nOTpe6HO HM je aa TO BHllIe

apesreaa

Hero llITO Tpaje npenasan,e.

MHorH,

seh

aa

rrpenasarsy,

nOTnYHO OCBe-

CTe CBOjy HCTMHY M 3aTO cy MHpHH H amne He )l(ype.

Aa

ocehajy na cy OHM cana na nOTe3Y, rnrraiea HMhM H3 npaKce. OHM najayropxrapna]x CTHAlbMBO yrnrrajy: "A urra YMeCTO rrer?", I10MHJIyjeM HX nomeAOM H OHH CXBaTe Aa he 6ap HeKOJIHKO npenaaaa-a 6MTM norpetino lbHXOBOj jaxoj
jep MM je CBe jacno.
CBM

He rnrrajy HHllITa, anarse npaKTHqHO

npMMeHe M na he npasa

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o nYEOKOJ

CBECHOCTI1, KOJA JbYEAB 3HAql1

MOJICe llU 1.f.06eK, KOjU

OK6Upy uopoquue

UpUMe1byje

snaiee ciueapanauxoi 6aCUUUla1ba, 6UUlU na UYUlY yspaauaiea C6eCHOCUlU? Kaxo ga UpeU03HaMO j{YEOKO
C6eCHOf 1.f.06eKa? <pYiJIMYEsorpa Kycrypnue npo-nrrax "PYi6a He MYiCJIYi, OHa 3Ha". To 6.YiMor~a 6YiTYi .n;e<pYiHYiQYijaCBeCHor xoaexa. He MYiCJIYi,a 3Ha, npen03HaJe CBOJY MYiCaOxao CBOjy YiCTYiHy,Bel.my YiCTYiHy,OCJI060~eHY CBYiXnpYiMeCa npOJIa3HOr YiYCJIOBJbeHOr, npYiXBaTa je, 6e3 Hanopa, y TpeHy npouersyje lbeHY YiCnpaBHocT, CJI060.n;HO je Yi3pYiqe Yi xpa6po npeTaqe y .n;eJIO, y )l(YiBOT, aKO rpetia. M03aK je KO.n;CBeCHor xoaexa casro MeXaHYi3aM npeKO xojer ce MYiCJIYi, Yi3rOBapa Yipeamlsyje YiCTYiHaxoja je seh y lbeMy. TaKBa MYiCaOhe 6YiTYiy KOPYiCTpaCTa CBYiX.Iby nparx YBeK ,IJ;06pa HaMepa Yi YiHTYYiQYija.Y KopeHY TaKBe J.1cTYiHe je Jby6aB, sexaa YiHenpOJIa3Ha. Je.n;HoM pesjy, ,IJ;y60KO CBeCHa MYiCaOHYije KJIaCHa, HYije HYiqYiMYCJIOBJbeHa, na HYi eMoQYijOM jep cy eMoQYije CBeCHor xosexa, nOTnYHO XapMOHYi30BaHe. Jby.n;w ayropnrapae CBeCTYi he MYiCaO YiJIYi.n;eJIOCBeCHor xoaexa aajxeurhe ocy~wBaTW jep he Tor TpeHyTKa r a MYiCaO,TO .n;eJIOMO)l(.n;a6YiTYinpOTYiB lbYiX, npOTWB lbWXOBYiXWCKpYiBJbeHYiX WHTepeca, oxexaaarsa, nanarsa. lhWMa cy, MYiClIYi CBeCHWXJbyp;w panxxanae, urrerxe sa canaunsa TpeHYTaK Yi3aTO ce HeCBeCHYi60pe nporas CBeCHYiX.AJIYi, aKO 6Yi HeKO ynopHo npaTYiO neuraean-a, no W3pYiQafbY, npaxaarare)'

WJlW HenpWXBaTalbY MYiClIYi W nena CBeCHYiXJby.n;w, aa xpajy, a xpaj MO)l(e na 6y.n;e Yi Ha Kpajy HeqYijer )l(YiBOTa, YiJIYi jour .n;aJbe YCTaHOBYiO6Yi na je HenOrpelllYiBO peq 0 CTWHWxoja BO.n;Yi, YiJIYixoja 6Yi somora noje.n;YiHaqHOM Yionurrev notipy. W . . Ta Mwcao, xoja .n;OJIa3YiYi3Yi3BOpa CBeCTYi,a Yi3BOP nocenyje CBaKO, Jep Je CBaKO KopelbeH Y 60)l(aHCKOM, WMa Te)l(wHY se-mor, HenpOJIa3Hor. Csecnocr MO)l(e .n;a ~a3BWja caMO qOBeK qYijYiYM Hwje YCJIOBJbaBaH, qwjYi YM HYije ayropirrapaa. ,IJ;aKJIe, Yi CBe je Y HaMa rra Yiaexna YiCTYiHa.Ha Yi3BOPYje Yicnocotiaocr .n;a npenoaaavo pa3JIyqwMo J.1CTWHyo.n; "WCTYiHe",,IJ;06po on ".n;06pa", Jby6aB 0.n;."Jby6aB~". Kana y O.n;CYCTBY npYiHy.n;e Yinmnuaae npmryne wcXapMOHYi3YJeMo csoje Yi3BOpHe eMOQwje, rana ce YM crryurra y cpQe Yi6YiBa KOHTpOJIYiCaHJby6aBJby Yi,IJ;06poTOM. Tana ce neo 60)l(aHCKe eaepnrje, Ilyx y HaMa rroseayje ca Yi3BOPOM, ca Borov. KaHaJI nyiue, KaKO xasce rocnonaa Ilapx, je orsopea. Tana 36YiJba He MYiCJIYiMO, MYi 3HaMO, jep CMO BYiCOKOCBeCHYiCBaKe MYiCJIYi, CBaKe MYiCJIYi nperoseae y pex WJIYi aKQYijy, CBeCHYijep OHa .n;OJIa3Yi Yi3J.13BOPA W6YiBa ocsenrheaa y irauresr yMy. 3aTO ce sa neuy xasce na anajy WrOBope YiCTYiHy, aJIWra YiCTYiHa mrje ocsemhena. HazcaJIOCT,aYTopWTaPHOCT BpJIO 6p30 YiCKpYiBYi Yi3BOPHO 6Yihe, Yixana .n;o~e TpeHyTaK .n;ace yHyTpallllbe YiCTYiHeocseurhyjy Kp03 )l(WBOT,TO nocraje rOTOBO HeMoryhe. KJIaCHe YiCTYiHe,nayseae cnozsa Yinpnxaahene npecypoa YiBYipTyeJIHOM CTBapnerera, norncxyjy, sarprraaajy se-nse aourhy, y npBYiX cenass ronxaa caapexenor MCTMHey MaJIOM qOBeKY, 6y.n;yheM "OQY xosexa" MHorO Jby.n;Yi naaac Tpara aa nYTeBYiMa KOjMsone xa CBeCHOCTM YiJby6aBYi. To qMHMBeJIMKa sehana, na osaj MJIYionaj HaqYiH. 3aTo je JIOrYiqHO nOCTaBYiTYirnrralbe: "Mo)l(e JIM qOBeK, KOjW y OKBYiPYrroponnue, npYiMelbyje saarse CTBapaJIaqxor aacnnraa,a, 6MTYi aa nyTy KOjM nostazce Y3paCTalbe CBeCHOCTYi"? HapaBHO .n;aMO)l(e. CTBapaJIaqKO sacrnrrarse je y CTBapYi O,IJ;fOJ 3A CTBAPAJIAlliTBO, a CBeCHMCTBapaJIaQ KpeMpa CBOj )l(MBOT, csoje onnoce ca .n;pyrMM qOBeKOM, BorOM WnpMpo.n;OM, YBeK Mjenxao y CKJIa.n;yca KOCMMqKMM,60)l(aHCKWM npMHQYinMMa. To ce He yqYi cnozsa, jep je TO CBe y HaMa, casro rpefia oscoryharn HOBMMreaepaQMjaMa )l(YiBOT6e3 ,IJ;PECYPE, BE3 AYTOPJ.1TAPHOCTJ.1. HapaBHO, na je onrosop oxpaopyjyha, .n;aje nyT paCTa CBeCHOCTM Kp03 CTBapaJIaqKY rtoponxuy, .n;06ap, noxcersaa YiJIaK nyT. Hnje aa OqeKMBaTYi .n;ahe CBaKYi qnaH nopo.n;MQe KpeHyTM nyT paCTa CBeCHOCTM,jep MHore OKOJIHOCTYi YTYiqy na TO, anM jenao je cnrypao na he HOBe renepauaje, y o.n;cYCTBYnJIMlllaHWX nocrajar CBe CBeCHYije YiCBeCHYije. Ponrrren,x, BaCnMTaqM, HaCTaBHWQM he raxohe OCBeIlIhl1BaTM ce6e, caoje sexae MCTMHe, yxrraisajyh Ka3HY M Harpa.n;y y O.n;HOCYiMa ca nOTOMQMMa. l..{eTp.n;eceToro.n;YillIfbe MCKYCTBO xoje caM npOllilla y pa.n;y ca yqeHMQMMa, fbMXO811MnopO.n;MQaMa, y pa.n;y ca caBpeMeHMM "nlIMlliaHYiM" po.n;MTeJbMMa MfbWXOBOM
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Ae~OM, MJ1naje OrpOMaH OnTJ1MJ13aM. Pe3YllTaTJ1, y paAY ca lbJ1Ma, cy 6J1llJ1 OXpa6pyjytm, 6J1he JOIll 60lbJ1 xana senxxa BehJ1Ha YCBOjJ1J1CTa 3Halba, J1 3aTO AOK )f(J1BJ1Mnacrojahy Aa OCBeTlbaBaM nOpOAJ1~aMa J1 nojeAJ1H~J1Ma nyT KOjJ1BOAI1Y CBeCHOCT, Kp03 CTBapalla'lKY nOpOAJ1~y. OCBPHJ1MO ce na nojaa CBeCHOCTJ1,113paBHJ1 TpaAJ1~J10He J1 canpesreae, Hajayroparapnaje nOpOAI1~e, AO cana, AyTOpJ1TapHJ1 CJ1CTeM)f(I1BOTa 11aYTOpl1TaPHI1 CJ1CTeMsacmrrarsa nocroja KOllJ1KOJ1 'lOBeK nOCTojJ1. OAYBeK cy nocrojans TPI1 rpyrre lbYAJ1,y 0AHOCY na CBeCHOCT. 1- CBECHJ1lbYAJ1 KOjJ1nperrosnajy aexae J1CTJ1He y ce6J1 J1y cxnany ca lbl1Ma nenpecraao ycaspurasajy ,lJ;06pOTy, Jbyfiaa, qOBe'lHOCT, ~elloKynHy CBOjy 113BOpHy npapony, CBe IllTO pane je y <PYHK~J1jJ1 passoja 'lOBe'lHOCTJ1, pasnoja 60rO'lOBexa, He rrare, ana CBOjJ1M)f(J1BOTOM,He ysehasajy rraTlbY ApyrJ1x. To cy lbYAI1 KOjl1 He MOry Aa 6J1pajy J13Mel)y ,lJ;o6pa J1 notipa, J13Mel)y lby6aBI1 J1 lby6aBJ1, J13Mel)y Ilotipa J13lla. OHJ1 nocenyjy HeCelleKTJ1BHY ,lJ;06pOTy. OHJ1 cy J1KoHe Boxca]e, OHI1 cy Jbytian, OHJ1cy Ilotipo, JEP JE fbJ1XOB YM Y IbJ1XOBOMcp~y. 2 - HECBECHJ1 - lbYAJ1 KOjJ1 J1Majy rrornyao J1CKpJ1BlbeHO J13BOPHO 6J1he, nOTl1cHYTe J1llJ1 J1CKpJ1BlbeHe eMO~J1je. OTyl)eHJ1 cy OA csor J13BOpHOr 6J1na, na CaMJ1M TJ1M J1 OA Be'lHJ1X J1CTI1Hay ce6J1. "He nare", aznr CBOjJ1M)f(J1BOTOM'lJ1He MHoro rora IllTO yaehasa rraTlbY APYrl1X. OHJ1 ce HerrOrpeIllJ1BO xsarajy aa 3ll0, a xana Ylla3e y notipo, TO 'lJ1He J1CKlbyqJ1BO3apaA CBOjJ1Xmrrepeca. CBOjJ1M Ha'lJ1HOM )f(J1BOTa CBeAO'le CBOjy HeCBeCHOCT. 3 - IlOJIYCBECHJ1 - lbYAJ1 KOjJ1 J1Majy AellJ1MJ1'lHO J1CKpJ1BlbeHO J13BOPHO 6J1he. Y oApel)eHI1M TpeHy~J1Ma, xana cy y eMO~J10HallHoj XapMOHJ1jJ1,rana y nojeAJ1HJ1M cerMeHTJ1Ma paAa J1)f(J1BOTa,J1Majy rroTrryHy CBeCHOCT.Ta pa3aneTocT J13MeI)y CBeCHor J1 HeCBeCHor craisa J1MAOHOCJ1BellJ1KY naTlby. To cy OHJ1IllTO 6J1pajy J13Mel)y notipa J1 11Ilofipa, a HJ1je J1MHJ13110 cTpaHo, xana sarranay y HeCBeCHOCT. OBe TpJ1 rpyne nocrojane cy y TpaAJ1~J10HallHoj, a nocroje J1y MOAepHoj nopoAJ1~J1. Ilpoxeazsaa je cajao rrpo~eHaT OBe TpJ1 rpynauaje. CBe )KJ1BOTHeaKTJ1BHOCTJ1, CBeCHe craapanaxxe llJ1'lHOCTJ1cy, 6e3 iseroae BOlbe npahene ,lJ;06POTOM, Jbytiaszsy, qOBe'lHOIllhy. Tpeha MJ1lleHJ1jYM je Ao6a CBECHJ1X lbYAJ1, KOjJ1 nehe J1MaTJ1 J1360p J13Mel)y notipa J1 J1 Ilotipa, jep nocenyiv 6e3J1HTepecHY ,lJ;06pOTY. ,lJ;OEPO je 'lOBeKOBa J13BOpHa npl1poAa. Caecna cTBapanaaxa llJ1'lHOCT He MI1CllJ1J1He Y'lJ1 0 ,lJ;06POTJ1, OHa 3Ha urra je Ilotipo, jep je KllJ1~y Ilofipore 'lOBeK AOHeo poheisera. Y 0ACYCTBYaYTOpJ1TaPHOCTJ1 Iloopora J1lby6aB ce aenpecraao ycaapurasajy, ocseurhyjy Kp03 pe'l J1 nezro. 3ll0, casro no ce6J1 ce TOnJ1, aKO je nocrojano xao J1CKpJ1BlbeHOIlotipo. Kp03 HeKOllJ1KOBa)KHJ1Xrnrrarsa noxyurahy na OArOBOpJ1Mna TeMY CBeCHOCTJ1.
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,aa nu je OgCy~W80 aytuopuuiapnux 8aCUUWHUX Mogefla, sa U01JeWaK, uyw xa C8eCHOCWU?

KaAa ce noponaua J1llJ1nojenaaau onpenenn aa crsapazraxxo aacrnrran,e, xana ce o,o;peKHYaYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1, y OAHOCJ1Ma,sarroxmse npouec ycaapurasan,a CBeCTI1, Kana 6poj rropomma 11nojemmaua 6YAe KBaHTJ1TaTI1BKOjy AOHOCJ1MO pobeisea. HO npepacTao y KBallJ1TeT, rana he rrpJ1pOAHO AohJ1 AO pacra, TOllJ1KOrrorpefine CTBapalla'lKe CBeCTJ1APYIllTBa. ,lJ;OK ce TO He AOroAJ1, J1MaheMO YBeK OBe TpJ1 naseneae rpyne, a rronaranx pacr CBeCHOCTJ1he ce Aoral)aTJ1 y OKBJ1PYcraapanaxxax noponaua. Ba)KHO je J1MaTJ1 HaAY J1 snatse na ce nana peamrayje. JeAaH OA nyreaa je CBaKaKO snarse cTBapalla'lKOr sacnxrarsa.

Ila nu je woiyhe OCW8apUWU C8eCHOCW llU 6ap sutu na

mOM uywy, y OK8Upy ciueapanauxe uopoquue, uaxo CMO C8U na gpYWW8eHOM unany ypoieenu Y ayiuopuuiapnocui.
,lJ;a! Craapazraxxo aacrrrrrarse je yrrpaBo TO xoje "o6yqaBa" lbYAe KaKO na yhy y csecnocr, AYXOBHOCT,y rrpocTope Jby6aBJ1 J1,lJ;o6poTe, y OKBJ1PYCBOjJ1XnOpOAJ1ua J1 nopen orpoxrae rrpJ1HYAe xoje BpIlle BaCnJ1THI1 MOAellJ1, cBYAa J1 na CBaKOM MecTy. Ba)KHO je na ce nOpOAJ1~a onpenena sa npJ1MeHY cTBapalla'lKOr aacmrrarsa.

MOJICellU C8eCWaH oeex ga ifjYHKu,UOHUWey ayuwpuwapHOM gpYWW8Y

CBeCHOCTje craise YMa, YMa KOjJ1je naurao csoje MeCTOy XapMOHJ130BaHOM cpuy, ].Yi o Je M 6e3 nartse, arnr YBeK Ay6oKO pasysre lbYACKYnarrsy, lbeH xopea J1rryreBe nOMaralba 'lOBeKY, KOjJ1 naTJ1 J1 )KellJ1 Aa J13J1l)e J13 rrarrse. CBeCTaH 'lOBeK he YBeK paAJ1TI1 aa ,lJ;o6po xosexa, jep je KOHTpOllJ1CaH Jby6aBlby J1,lJ;06POTOM. CBeCTaH 'lOBeK 6J1ll0 xor J1HTelleKTyallHor, oripasoanor, couajarmor cTaTyca CBe csoje aI<TI1BHOCTI1I1 onnoce npO)KJ1Ma ,lJ;06POTOM J1Jby6aBlby. Ilaxne, Ilofipora, Jby6aB 11CBeCHOCT Aellajy J1CTOBpeMeHo. V13BOpJ1IllTeje jenao. Crarse Jby6aBJ1 ce noraha I<ao 11CBecHocT, y 0ACYCTBYaYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1, allJ1 aKO aYTOpJ1TapHOCT nOCTojJ1 y OI<PY)f(elbYCBeCTaH 'lOBeK nponanasa Ha'lJ1He na aYTOpJ1TapHOCT npyror:
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TpaHCcpOpMltIllie y CBeCHOCT na y61Ia)KltI ryby aYTOpltlTapHOCT na npltlXBaTltI Tyljy aYTOpltlTapHOCT, 6e3 narrse na ltIMa cnare Aa ce CPltl3lt1qKltI onsoja on ayropnrapae, OHa yrpO)KaBa lberOBY CBeCHOCT.

HeCBeCHe ocotie, aKO

KaK6e cy uiance geUleUla, caepeuene oaaeapu cuiatee C6eCHocUlU?

uopoquue,

ga

,UOKHltIje 6lt1lIOaerarasnor yrnuaja MeAltIja aa nere, ltIOBOlIltIKOayroparapnocrn y APYllITBY, nere je ltIMalIO aennxe uraace na paasaja KlIltIl.l;yCBeCHOCTltI,AOHeceHY pohersea. Ha)KalIOCT, BplIO 6p30 nere ce onnaja OAcsoje J13BOpHe CYllITJ1HeJ1pacr CBeCHOCTJ1rOTOBO na crarnapa. YrnaBHOM, y3 ABa ayTopv1TapHe MOAelIa, qOBeK je 6J10 nOlIYCBeCTaH, llITO je 60lbe OA crarsa HeCBeCHOCTJ1,xoje AaHac AOMJ1HJ1pa. Hexana je 6J11I0AOBOlbHOAa, caao y3 jenny ocotiy oClI060ljeHY ayropJ1TapHOCTJ1, nere ycaspuraaa CBeCHOCT. To je naaac rOTOBOHeMoryne nocTJ1nJ1 jep je yraua] 'reneBJ13J1jeMonaH, a J1MopalIHe BpeAHOCTJ1 TpaAJ1l.l;J10HalIHeCBeCTJ1, xao J1aexne BpeAHoCTJ1HJ1CY"J1H". Y CTBapJ1, Mon J1Majy HeraTJ1BHJ1CaAP)KajJ1na KojJ1Ma ce BaCnJ1TaBa nere, BJ1pTyelIHa craapaocr J1Ma BelIJ1KYBacnJ1THY Mon, jasy OAMOnJ1ponarezsa J1 nacmrraxa jep expan BPllIJ1 CBaKOAHeBHJ1 jax J1nyrorpajaa eMOl.l;J10HalIHJ1 yrauaj na nere, a CBe J13paBHJ1 ner ayTOpJ1TapHl1X BaCnJ1THJ1X MOAelIa. Kpxszserse, uacnojasaise, nOTJ1CKJ1BalbeeMOl.l;J1ja je CHa)KHOjep cy CaAP)KajJ1 KOjJ1ce HYAenpOTJ1B lby6aBJ1, ,U06pOTe, npOTJ1B )KJ1BOTa.Hexia xoaexa KOjJ16J1 J1 HajjaqOM lby6aBlby xorao J13BPllIJ1TJ1n03J1TJ1BaH yrauaj aa nere, KOMeje TelIeBJ13J1ja rYBepHaHTa OAKOlIeBKe. CaMO nere, xoje 6YAe J1MaJIOcpehe Aa )KJ1BJ1 y crnapanaxxoj nOpOAJ1l.l;J1, pa3BJ1jahe CBeCHOCTJ1nopeA orpoxnre aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1na xojy he HaJ1nJ1YlIaCKOMy APYlliTBO.

aacmrrarsa. Hacarse nan nererosr je . orpoMHo. Y caBpeMeayro PTA"TapHe061IltIKe n HOj nopOAJ1U;J1He nOCTojJ1 rOTOBO HJ1jenaa lIltIqHOCT y3 KO)y 6J1 caBpeMeHO nere r.lOrlIO na Y3paCTa y CBeCHOCTJ1, jep cy rOTOBO CBJ1nonnervnr ynorpefin nlIJ1l1IaHJ1X. Meljy 6aKaMa J1nexassa, TpaAJ1l.l;J10HalIHe CBeCTJ1,J1Ma AOBOlbHOCBeCHJ1XJ1nOlI!CBeCHJ1X,alIJ1 caspeaena pOAJ1Telb cxnaisa nere OA lbJ1XOBOr BaCnJ1THOr yrnuaja, nlIallIenJ1 ce pa31IJ1qJ1TOCTJ1,na 6J1lIa OHa J1A06pa. CBJ1 CMOY xanuaaa ner nlIJ1l1IaHl1X.AKo CBeCHaJ11IJ1 nOlIYCBeCHaocotia J1noCTOjJ1, lbeH yrnuaj je He3HaTaH na nere, y OAHOCYna CBe Apyre aYTOpJ1TapHe YTJ1~aje. MHOrM MJ1ClIena 6J1 casto YKJ1Aalbe J11IJ1KOHTpOlIa HaA BJ1pTyelIHJ1M caAp)Ka)J1Ma 6J11IJ1 AOBOlbHJ13a rpancdiopaauajy qOBeKOBe CBeCTJ1.Bazsa KpeHyTJ1 OAYKJ1Aalba qeTJ1pJ1 nlIJ1l1IaHa BaCnJ1THa MOAelIa (finara J1peanna npJ1HYAa, n03J1TJ1BHO yClIOBlbaBalbe, npeaaurrahaaarse J1Bep6alIJ13aM). Kana ce YKJ1HY, y nOpOAJ1qHJ1MOAHOCJ1Ma,OBJ1MOAelIJ1,AOlIa3J1AOnpol.l;eca y xojesr ce J1nere J1pOAJ1Telb spahajy CBOMe J13BOPY,ce6J1, cnOC06HOCTJ1 Aa pasrmoje ,U06po OA31Ia, yapacrajyhn y CBeCHOCTJ1. AHa J13BOPJ1lllTYje CBe npyraxaje, aa J13BOPJ1lllTYje ycnocraszseaa XapMOHJ1ja, a caMO XapMOHJ1QaH QOBeK aehe J1MaTJ1norpefiy sa aKyMylIal.l;J1joM J1QJ1lbelbeM 31Ia, na aehe 6J1TJ1 HJ1 npJ1jeMQJ1B sa HeraTJ1BHe BJ1pTyelIHe J1 CBe APyre CaAp)KaJ136eraje. He 6J1TJ1npJ1jeMQJ1B He 3HaQJ1 na he QlIaHOBJ1CTBapalIaQKe noponaue, sarn HeraTJ1BHe canpscaje, no CBaKY ueay, He, jep HJ1je np061IeM y HeraTJ1BHJ1M canpacajasra, Ben je np061IeM y HeMOnJ1 HeCBeCHor QOBeKa na pa31IYQJ1 KlIaCHO A06po OAYHJ1Bep3alIHor, xao A06po J1,U06po OA31Ia. Kaxo MO)Kerroxnenaa J1lIelb QOBeK, xao nOClIeAJ1u;a nlIJ1l1IaHJ1X, na nperroaaa na rrocnennue lberOBJ1X rpexoBa noaoce J1lbeMY J1 CBJ1May nOpOAJ1l.l;J1 carao 31I0. He MO)Ke,jep OH J1Ma J1CKpJ1BlbeHy norpetiy sa 31I0M.

Meguju

U paseoj

C6eCHOCUlU

Ila

llU cy HelaUlU6HU euptuyenuu caqpscaju UCKlbyttU6U xpueau KOjU sayauaensa pacta C6eCHOCUlU?

He! TB, ltIHTepHeT, BpllIe CBaKaKO Hajjaqltl aerarxsaa yrnuaj na nere, jep caspeMeHY neuy npxenaxe caao HeraTltIBHJ1 canpacaja ltIOHltIltIXHenOrpellIJ1BO nponanase. Ocrajy nOTnYHO aeaamrrepecosamr sa n03lt1TltIBHe canpacaje KOjJ1XltIMa aa nperex. Ilp061IeM je llITO cy CBltIxzraaoaa noponaue HeKpJ1TltIqKltIycaojann CBe
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fOAJ1HaMa nlIJ1l1IaHa rreua, KOH3YMJ1pajy HajHeraTJ1BHJ1je canpxcaje na TB, na KOMnjYTepy, y xrpaoaauaaa ... Ha)KalIOCT, TJ1 CaAp)KajJ1 cy J1CKlbYQJ1BOHeraTJ1BHJ1 (HecTallIlIYl.l;J1, "y6J1CTBa", 6e306pa31IyK, oroBapalba, nonererarsa ...). TpaAJ1l.l;J10HanHJ1 CaAp)KajJ1 HaMelbeHJ1 Ael.l;J1J1 MnaAJ1Ma rpahenn cy na npanuany 60p6e A06pa M sna, na eCTeTMQKOMMAeany. Y csaxoj rpanauaoaanaoj npMQM npaxasaHo je sno M A06po, alIM cy ce neua YBeK M HenOrpellIJ1BO onrry-rasana aa MMltITltIpaIbe M npMXBaTalbe notipa M HMKOHltIje nocraszsao 6ajKy, y KOjOj je M3pa)KeHO 31I0, Kao np06neM. Hanporas. HeraTltIBHO y npltlQM, nere je npen03HaBalIo ltI 0,n;6aU;MBano ra, 3allITo? Ilourro je rpaznnmoaazraa noponaua ynpa)KlbaBalIa casco nna,
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MorynMx

ner

BacnMTHMX MO~eJIa, M3BOP ca

xojer

ce ~pnM

aerrorpeunrn

Ocenaj na npe

sa ~06po,

HMje

6MO

3aTpnaH. ,lJ;06po ce npen03HaBaJIO

M MMMTMpaJIO.

,lJ;aHac, non yrnnaje J03Hajy

ner nJIMllIaHMX, neua BpJIO paHO ry6e cnoc06HOCT

jour rope nere HeM a HM M360p jep MM KpeaTopM :aBpeMeHMX canpacaja HM He ayne notipo, xao xoryha anrnnon 3JIy. I1orne~ajTe sehxaa HM HeMa n03MTMBHor jynaxa. 3JIO M je~aH MJIM MHOIliTBO ~pTaHe Q)J1JIMOBe,
fl:eraTMBHMX

M3BOPHO notipo. IIlTo je

jynaxa

y lbeMy.

notipo, yrnaBHoM je pes 0 HaMeTalbY HecTBapHMx jynaxa, KOjl1: cnaurasajy nJIaHeTY on 3JIa, a ca KojMMa ce neua M~eHTMMKyjy, Y3 ~o~aTHO ysehaise crpaxa, Ha oaaj HaqMH crpax ce ~o~aTHO ysehasa 360r TaKO reuncor 6peMeaa KOjM MM ce crasrsa na aejaxa nneha. J13HeHa~a, nOCJIe MHoro rO~MHa rposarsa neue peqeHI1:M ca~p)J(ajMMa, nojaBI1:JII1: cy ce MJIMOBM y xojasra cy jacuo pa3rpaHI1:qeHM ~06pl1: o~ JIOIlIMX jynaxa. Y3MI1:MO MJIMOBe 0 MaJIOM HO~Mjy. PO~MTelbM cy onaxaymr. KOHaqHO canpzcaja KOjl1: JIMqe na canpscaje M3 aaurer ~eTMlbCTBa. Ha)J(aJIOCT, nrnnuaaa neua rnenajy HO~I1:[a, spennauy, nourreisaxaay, a xana YCTaHY, MMMTMpajy 3JIe jynaxe KOjM Honnja MCMeBajy, nozniehy MY, Myqe ra. 3aIlITO? J13ry611:JIM cy cnOC06HOCT npenoaaasalba notipa. YHMIlITeHa MM KJII1:~a Ilotipa, xoja nenorpeunrno nerexryje 3JIO M ycsaja ra. OHM caxio MMMTMpajy OHO IlITO je lbMMa CJIMqHO. CaBpeMeHO nJIl1:llIaHO nere je neiso, 3aBM~HO, noxnenao, arpeCMBHO, sacrpaureao, a TaKBI1: cy M 3JIM jynaua. ,lJ;eJIMMMqHOpeurerse? YKI1:HI1:MO neua TeJIeBM3Mjy, caxyaajao MX O~ HeraTMBHMX canpzcaja. I1JIMlliaHa neua He Mopajy cenern y BJIaCTMToj KynM nope~ TaKBMX canpxcaja, aJII1:Ben npM npBOM cycpeTY ca 3JIOM na yJIM~M, y sprnhy, y IlIKOJIM, Y KaMhy, na TpeHMHry, noxymrhe ra, a BM nehere 3HaTM IlITa ce noraha. I10cnYllIaJIM CTe caspeaene cTpyqlbaKe yKMHyJIM My Y nOTnYHOCTM CJIMKeca eKpaHa, a KOPMCTHI1:KaKBa. Ee3 yKM~alba qeTMpl1: nrnnuaaa MO~eJIa M3JIa3 M3 osor JIaBMpl1:HTa nehesro HaDI1:. Kana ~OHeceMO O~JIyKy ~a ca nopO~M~OM y1)eMo y CTBapaJIaqKO aacrnrrarse, y npouec passoja CBeCHOCTM, Jby6aBMI1: nOBpaTKa J13BOPY rana MopaMO nOIliTOBaTM HeKM pe~ CTBapM. IJ;eJIa nopO~M~a, xax M MaJIa neua, ~OBOlbHO je na cy nporoBOpI1:JIa,Mopajy ~y60KO pa3YMeTM ~a cy nmnuaaa MO~eJIM Y3pO~MlbMXOBI1:X MyKa M rpetia MX Bep6aJIHO, 3HaJIaqKM yn030pMTM na cy TO y3POqHM~M 3JIa M ~a MX ce sa noxerax rpetia BOlbHO OCJI060~MTM. Hajseha MyKa je O~BMKaBalbe O~ BMpTyeJIHe"M ay~MTMBHe 3aBMCHOCTM. Malba neua MMajy CJIMKY xao npory, crapxja MY3MKY, xao ~pory. ]JaKO he ce npOBepJl!TJI! KO je 3aBMCTaH O~ BMpTyeJIHe M ay~MTJI!BHe ~pore, a KO je casro seha 6poj caTJI! npe~ eKpaHOM, MJIM ca CJIyllIaJIM~aMa aa YIlIJI!Ma, a HJI!je 3aBMCHMK. Hac raje npaBa naaxxa KO~ 3aBMCHMKa xana npe~JIO)J(MM na ce 6ap ce~aM nana HanpaBM rnyBa coria on xyhe, na ce CBe MCKlbyqM, na ce CBM eKpaHJI! norace.
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AKO MM M nonyne

pa~MKaJIHO o~pM~albe on TB, xosmjyrepa. Yrnasneua npxsaajy na 3a TO HJI!Cy cnpeMHM. Tana ce ~oroBopMMO ~a ce cKJI!~ajy nocryrmo. ,lJ;anpaTe M cscaisyjy 6poj earn xoje npoBo~e nope~ eKpana (HJI!Cy 6MTHM canpzcaja), Ilorosopavo ce yHanpe~, YKOJIMKO He 6y~y MOrnl1: caMI1: ~a cseny rnenaise na MJI!HMMyM M ~a ce nOTnYHO o~peKHy Jl!rpJl!~a y KojMMa cy y6J1!jalbe, nacazse, nopHO JI!JIMOBM, rnasna TeMa, OH~a he My pO~MTelbM nOMOnJl!, TaKO IlITO he Jl!CKlbyqMTM CBe eKpaHe, 6ap na Mece~ nana. Yn030pJl!M caaoxpane MajKe ~a "IlIOK" reparmjy, 6p30 M nOTnYHO cxanan,e, He MOry 11:3BeCTJI! caMe jep nere, MaKO je npMCTaJIO aa capa~lby, no yKM~alby csera, nOCTaje HeBepOBaTHO arpeCMBHO. Ty Mopa noaohx 6MBllII1: cynpyr, yjax, CTpl1:I.J;, npJl!jaTelb. Eop6a ca HeCBeCHMM ~eTeTOM rpaje 11: no HeKOJIMKO earn, BMKa, rpmse, nCOBalbe, rrpeionosarse, nporonosarse, y~apalbe M o~je~HoM MMp. Kao ~a ce nexa xonpena MaKJIa nerery ca M03ra. AncTJI!HeH~Mja o~ BMpTyeJIHOr, nOCJIe osor MyqHor CKI1:~alba, rpetia ~a rpaje OHOJIMKO KOJIJI!KO je norperino ~a ~o1)e ~o qMllInelba M03ra, (nerne MeCeI.J;,rrerne M no nOJIa rO~JI!He). To HMje JIaK nepMo~ M y lbeMY He rpetia Tpa)J(MTM 3aMeHY TaKO IlITO here reparx ~eTe ~a qMTa KlbMre, Mrpa ~OMMHe, KapTe M CJI. CBe cy TO 06JIMI.J;M HM)J(e BMpTyeJIHe CTBapHOCTM. Y nepMo~y CKM~alba M~MTe ca nereroxi y npMpo~y, 6aBMTe ce cnoproa, nesajre, TpqMTe, rnenajre ce KaKO zaraenare jep MM HM He 3HaMO KO MMa rmase, a KO upae OqM y rroponmm ... ITpBM 3Ha~M onopaBKa cy xana nere no-nose ca JIaKOnOM ~a yqM, ca JIaKOnOM ~a npeTBapa TeKCT y CJIMKe,xana MO)J(ernac HaCTaBHMxa MJIM pomrrersa ~a npeTaqe y CJIMKe.I10JIaKO aJIM CMryPHO nere no-nose ~a paasaja CBeCHOCT,Jby6aB npexra ysea.y, pa~y, BaMa, npeMa lby~MMa yornure, npeMa ~06pMM TB M KOMnjYTepCKMM canpacajava, ~06pMM KlbMraMa M peaJIHMM aKTMBHOCTMMa. ~HO IlITO crporo Mopa na ce nourryje TO je saopaaa apahaisa HaCMJIHMM ca~p)J(aJM~a. Kana ce M03aK nOTnYHo OqMCTM o~ BMpTyeJIHMX "BMpyca" razta nehe nocToJaTM HM saopaaa, nere ce spaha eKpaHY, aJIM HMKa~a BMllIe xao 3aBMCHMK. TaAa CBe M ~a xohe He MO)J(e~a ynpaxosaaa HeraTMBHe canpxcaje, HMTM MO)J(e care )f(I1:BOTa na ry6M rmnryha 6eCMMCJIeHe nopYKe na ejc6yKy M CJI. OBaKaB HaqMH nOHy~l1M MJIa~MMa nOTnYHo HOM MJIa~JI! lby~M, "CKI1:Aalba" , ys AO6 POBOlbHM npMCTaHaK AeTeTa,

ys

. MCToBpeMeHo nOTnYHo M TpaJ-

HO YKMAalbe Ka3He, aarpane, rrpesanrrahasan,a M Bep6aJIM3Ma BO~M CBecHocTM, a 3aBI1:CHOCT , xao MyKa caspesrenor aYTopMTapHor xoaexa ce amue He noaasrsa HI1: . " y JeAHoj 06JIacTJ1.

21. BeK, BeK 3aBMCHOCTM.3allITo? Saro llITO ce nJIMcnaran.ev onaajasro on ce6e, on caor M3Bopa, O~ csor 6MDa, a MCTOBpeMeHO ce M . opasto npMBe3aTM sa HeKM cnozsaunsa jap60JI, na Hac BeTap He oznrece, a )ap60JIa . c je na nperex. Kana CMO MaJIM Ty cy eKpaHM, MaJIO crapnja YJIa3e y 3aBJI!liOCT on . . MY3J1!Ke,a JOlli CTapJl!)JI!Y 3aBJI!CHOCTon MeHTaJIHOr cexca, 6p3e aoxose,
M

lieKM CTpyqlba~M TBPAe na je lUaHI1:M na .'

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aesnpaae XpaHe, KOU;KeJ1 CJI. Csaeha je cBy,n;a OKO nJIJ1UlaHJ1X lby,n;J1, CaMO Tpe6a 6aU;J1TJ1nearep. Ha cpehy, CTBapaJIa'lKa CBeCT HJ1je 60JIeCHO 3aBJ1CHa HJ1 on KOra J1HJ1on xera. ,lJ;y60KO CBeCTaH 'IOBeK je ua CBOMJ13BOPY,aeoryhea o,n;ce6e J1CBor 6J1ha. TaKaB 'IOBeK npaBJ1 3,n;paB J1360p y )l(J1BOTY,jep 3,n;paBo 6J1pa snpaso. Cana HaM je jacaaje 3aUlTO ce caspesren 'IOBeK, J1nope,n; rora UlTO My je rocno,n; nao J1360p J13Me1)yIlotipa J13JIa, HenOrpeUlJ1BO seayje sa 3JIo. HJ1je np06JIeM y 3JIY, isera je 6J1JIO J16J1he, np06JIeM je y O,n;CYCTBY ,lJ;y60Ke cBeCHOCTJ1,y oTy1)eHOCTJ1 o,n; 60)l(aHCKe, J13BOpHe npJ1po):le, y O):lCyCTBy lby6aBJ1 J1,lJ;06pOTe. ]e):lHOMpesjy, J1CKPJ1nzsena lby6aB, ,lJ;06poTa J1CBeCHOCT He rrpenosaajy cnorsaunse Ilotipo J13aTO J1X HenOrpeUlJ1BO oxapaaa cnorsaunse 3JIO. Ha cpehy, BeJIJ1KJ16poj lby,n;J1caBpeMeHor CBeTa he ce BpaTJ1TJ1 CBOMe J13BOPY,npeMa TOMe J1 cnozsaunsea Ilotipy, YKOJIJ1KO CXBaTe na je 6J1JIO xoja ,n;pecypa 'IOBeKa nnanecer npBor sexa J13JIJ1UlHa, na 3BaJIa ce OHa J1 nJIJ1UlaHa. YKJ1HYTJ1,n;pecypy aan ,n;pyrJ1M, nan C060M 3Ha'lJ1 noaparax J13BOPY, a aa J13BOPYje ,lJ;y60Ka CBeCHOCT. BpaTJ1MO ce MJ1aauroj npJ1'1J1U;J1 0 3aBJ1CHOCTJ1 aaure ne-nrue on "nplbaBe" CJIJ1Ke J1JOIll "nplbaBJ1jer ,,3BYKa. CKpeHYJIa caM BaM naxosy, ,n;parJ1 MOjJ1ponnrezsa, na CBaKJ1 06JIJ1K xazcrsaaan-a nerera, TaKO IllTO My Meceu; nana YKJ1HeTe eKpaH, J1JIJ1 J1CKlbY'lJ1TeMY3J1KY,HeMa BeJIJ1KOranasaja. M03aK je BeJIJ1Ka'IeKaJIJ1u;a. OH je CMJ1,n;yro, HJ1je My 6J1THO. To peH y CBOjOj HeCBeCHOCTJ1,jep OH 3Ha nrra xexa, a KOJIJ1KO He 'IJ1HJ1Te. Y noroaopy ca CBOjJ1M,n;eTeTOM,n;OHeCJ1Te O,n;JIyKyna KOjJ1Ha'lJ1H he ce nere CKJ1,n;aTJ1 ca BJ1pTyeJIHe J1JIJ1ay,n;J1TJ1BHe",n;pore". Ilocreneno J1JIJ1o,n;je,n;HoM. MYKa, aJIJ1 J1peIlleI-be np06JIeMa nacraje xana caxr 3aBJ1CHJ1K,na nO'leTKY Tepanaje, nourarse CBOMeM03ry J1H<popMaU;J1jy):laje ca J1rpOM HeCBeCHor YMa aaspureno. ,lJ;eTe rpeoa ,n;a nourazse J1H<p0pMaU;J1jy M03ry ,n;aHJ1Ka,n;aBJ1Ille aehe ynpa)l(IMBaTJ1 ne-rosexae canpzcaje, nonYT J1rpJ1u;a rryuaxana, norryr ... nere 3Ha CBOjy MyKy. rpaje "CKJ1,n;aI-be", ynpaxosaTeunco jecre, aJIJ1 pe3YJITaTJ1 cy CJ1rypHJ1, TpajHJ1. ,lJ;OK na ce BaCnJ1TaI-be 6e3 Ka3He J1 6e3 Harpa,n;e, nere ce YBO,n;J1 y caraopan ... To je rryr rpajaor oCJI06a1)aI-ba 3aBJ1CHOCTJ1,y u;eJIOCTJ1. ITocJIe nO'leTHJ1X MyKa rpetia HaCTaBJ1TJ1ca BaCnJ1TaI-beM 6e3 Ka3He J16e3 narpane. HOBJ1 CTJ1JI)l(J1BOTa,n;OHOCJ1 HOBe omroce Me1)y lbY):lJ1Ma,aJIJ10 HOBJ1O):lHOC ):IeTeTa npeMa BJ1pTyeJIHoj J1 ay,n;J1TJ1BHojcTBapHOCTJ1. Ilere he npJ1JIa3J1TJ1 KPJ1TJ1'1KJ1 csaxoj nojaan xojy onaunose eKpaH. ITOUlTO BJ1Ille HeMa 3aBJ1CHOCTJ1y u;eJIOCTl1 nere, xana J1 aKO 6J1pa HeraTJ1BHe canpzcaje, Y3J1Ma caxro OHO IllTO je y <PYHKU;l1jl1 pacra lby6aBJ1, ,lJ;y60Ke CBeCHOCTJ1.Cana je YM nerera KOjJ1yspacra y cBecHoCTl1, KpJ1TJ1'1aH J1CeJIeKTJ1BaH, jep YBeK J1CBe MepJ1 apIlll1HOM csoje J13BOpHe J1CTl1He. PeTKO 6J1 xoje nere TO nOCTJ1fJIO6e3 nOMohJ1 uerre noponaue xoja je ,n;06POBOlbHO yuma y CTBapaJIa'lKO sacmrrarse J16e3 iseroaor nytioxor pa3YMeBal-ba CYIllTl1He aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1 J16JIaro,n;aTJ1 CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacrrrrrarsa.
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ITpJ1MeTJ1JIa caM na MajKe y CBOMnpeTepaHOM npe3aUlTJ1hJ1BaI-bY nere ra YBeK l1Majy J1CTJ1 KOMeHTap: "AKO ce nere o,n;pJ1'1eeKpaHa TO 6J1 Mopao, Y'lJ1HJ1TJ1J1orau, O,n;HOCHO CBJ1".To je seh nOBO,n;aa oTnop npeMa OBOM BaCnJ1TaI-bY. Saurro 6J1 CTe Ka)i{lbaBaJIJ1 oua J1OCTaJIe 'IJIaHOBe nopo,n;J1u;e, aKO HJ1CY3aBJ1CHJ1U;J1 on BJ1pTyeJInor. ,lJ;a 6J1 nerery 6J1JIO JIaKUle eKpaH ce MO)l(e CTaBJ1TJ1y HeKJ1 Mal-bJ1 npoCTop, YKJIOHJ1TJ1 ra J13nnesne eerie, J13):Ie'lJ1je cofie, Y1Ha'le eKpaH :rrOCTOjJ1, TOje rrorpetia caBpeMeHor 'IOBeKa. To je nOTnYHo HeBJ1H J13yM CBe ,n;OKra He 3JIoynoTpe6J1MO, a HeheMO ra 3JIoynoTpe6J1TJ1 YKOJIJ1KO CMOCBeCHJ1.CBeCTaH 'IOBeK he KOH3YMJ1paTJ1 ca,n;p)i{aje KOjJ1He saycraazsajy rseros ):IYXOBHJ1 paCT, a J1 xana ce aahe npe,n; HeraTJ1BHl1M ca,n;p)l(ajJ1Ma nehe 6J1TJ1 I-bJ1XOBa)l(pTBa seh aYTeHTJ1'1HJ1,CBeCHJ1KpJ1TJ1'1ap. ,lJ;eU;J1 HapaBHO, xao 6l1hJ1Ma y paasojy MopaMO nOMohJ1. Moj caner je jacan, ,lJ;0 Tpehe romnte nere HeMa urra na Tpa)l(J1 npe):l eKpaHoM. Mopa ce eMOU;J10HaJIHO yqBpCTJ1TH Y peaJIHJ1M eMOU;J1jaMa.Ilepaon no ce,n;Me ronxae je speae orsopenor, ymrjajyher YMa, KaKO xaxce rocnoha MOHTeCOpJ1 J13aTO CBe IllTO CTaBlbaMO y ,n;e'lJ1jJ1yM ,n;oce,n;Meronxae, ,n;OU;HJ1je ,n;J1pJ1ryje nereroxr, J13 iseroae noncaecrn. 3aTo,n;0 ce,n;Me ro,n;J1He,n;albJ1HCKJ1 Mopa 6J1TJ1BaH ,n;oMaIllaja nerera, a po,n;J1Telbje raj KOjJ16J1pa urra he J1KOJIJ1KO ,n;yro he nere HeUlTO ,n;arnena. CTBapaJIa'lKH po,n;HTelb npecraje ,n;aKyKa KaKOje ,n;pyurTBO KPJ1BOIllTO CTBapa nporpaMe, KOjJ1cy na IllTeTY lbJ1XOBeneue, Ca THMBeTpelba'laMa ce nopo,n;J1u;a He MO)l(e H360pJ1TJ1. YOCTaJIOM,CBJ1JIOIllJ1BJ1pTyeJIHH J1ay,n;J1TJ1BHJ1 np0J13Bo,n;J1 ce MOry KynJ1TJ1 J1y npo,n;aBHJ1U;J1,a xyrryjy ce BaIllJ1M napaaa J1y3 saur 6JIarOCJIOB. Crsapajao MJ1 HOBJ1KOBCTBapaJIa'lKe neue, KOjJ1he cyrpa KpeJ1paTJ1 )l(J1BOTJ1CBe nporpaMe J13paBHJ1 caoje crnapanaxxe CBeCTJ1. ,lJ;0rana, Y3MJ1Te Cy,n;6J1Hycsoje noponmre y caoje pYKe, 3HaJIa'lKJ1, aa Panocr nOTOMaKa. AKO CJIJ1KOBHJ1u;e, KI-bJ1re ca IllTO Mal-be CJIJ1KaJ1 notipe npJ1'1e ponrrrezsa 6Y):ley J1306J1lbY, ,n;oce,n;Me ronnae, y O,n;HOCY na expan, J1MaheTe notipor 1)aKa, notipor J1CBeCHor 'IOBeKa. Hapaano na caspeveaa poznrrers nOJIy,n;J1na MOj pa,n;J1KaJIHJ1CTaB rrpeva eKpaHY, a ja casro ,n;o,n;aM: "BaIlle nere, saura 6pl1ra. Ko He rrJIaTJ1 na MOCTY,nnaha na hyrrpnjx".

3az,uulO je 8aJICHO uociuauu: C8eCUlaH? JJa nu UlO gOHOCU tto8eKY HeKY UOCe6HY cpehy U KOpUCUl?
~aAa Me rrJ1TaTe 0 Ba)l(HOCTJ1 oxysarsa, yaanpeheisa J1 paaanjarsa CBeCHOCTl1,TO ~e MCTOKao na Me nJ1TaTe 3aIllTO ,lJ;YHaB Mopa na re-re 6aIll TJ1M KOPJ1TOM, xana MCMO My MOfJIl1 npOMeHJ1TJ1 TOK. Carta BaM je jacao na ce TOK rrpJ1po,n;e 'IOBeKa He CMeM el-baTl1. Pobersesr ,n;OHOCl1MO KJIl1u;e,lJ;y60Ke CBeCHOCTl1, Ilotipore l1lby6aBl1,
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P;OHOCl1MO l1 Ilorenuajan, KOjl1HaM sazsa OCTBap"T" sa )I(l1BOTa.,Uy60Ka CBeCHOCT je nama seaa ca EorOM, a OH je J;1cTl1Ha l1 ITyT. Ha BaCnl1Tal.Il1Maje p;a nOTOMQl1Maosroryhe )I(l1BOTl1 pap; y ycnOBl1Ma 6e3 ayro. p"TapHOCT". AKO CMOCBe nouena poheisei, sazsa HaM TO l1 pa3Bl1Tl1. J.1aKo CTBapanal.JKl1 ycnOBl1 naaac, na urnpea nnaay He rrocroje, P;OBOJbHOje henaja. AKO je na l1X CTBOP"MO nerery y noponnua, y HajBa)l(Hl1joj npyurraenoj noponxua BOJbHa p;a yt)e y craaparrasxo aacnaraise, TO je rtoxerax CTBapanal.JKe TpaHC<popMaQl1je p;pyllITBa.

3aUlUW je

Ulpaguu,uoHamlOj uopoquuu 6UllO UleUlKO oaueapuiuu caeCHOCUl, a y caepeueno] je UlO totuooo

neuotyhe?
Tpanauaona noponnua rOTOBOHe nOCToJ~1y caBpeMeHOM CBeTY,jep cy l.Jyp;aBl1PTyenaor CBeTa l1H<pl1Ql1pana CBaKYnoponauy na Kyrnl1 aextazscxo]. CBl1Xner BaCOl1THl1XMop;ena je YllIno y CBaKl1 p;OM. PeKOCMOseh p;a je nyT P;O CBeCHOCTl1, ,U06poTe l1 Jby6aBl1 rOTOBO HeMoryh, ys norrryay aYTOp"TapHocT. Y nojyxepannsoj rpannuaonanaoj noponaun 6l1no je MHoro Bl1llIe CBeCHl1X JbYP;l1,jep je Tpap;l1Ql10HanHa noponaua KOp"CT"na caao rrpmryny l1 neptianasaa (xao onurre np"3HaTe BaCnl1THe MeTop;e). OCMM Tora, y rpanamroaanuoj noponaQl1, nl1paMl1p;a je, uearpanasauajoa BnaCTl1, onpehxsana nopomorne l1 npyurrseae Bpep;HOCTl1.Ca Bpxa mrpasome ycrrocrasrsao ce Cl1CTeMBpep;HOCTl1.Hiera je saao CBaKl1l.JOBeK,CBaKa noponnua, onpehenor acropnjcxor nepaona. Te Bpep;HOCTl1,Ma KaKBe p;a cy, Mopane cy ce nOllITOBaTl1, Ml1nOM(Bep6anl13MoM) l1nl1 Cl1nOM(npmryp;OM). ql1TanaQ Mopa 3anaMTl1Tl1 p;a cy l1 Bep6anl13aM l1 npl1Hyp;a 06nl1Ql1 npl1Hyp;e l1 3aTO je npOnl1CaHe Bpep;HOCTl16l1no TellIKO l1CnOllITOBaTl1.CBl1 cy ce Tpyp;l1nl1 p;a HaMeTHYTO, nayseno nourryjy, jep ayropnrapna CBeCTYBeK l1Ma crpax on pasnal.Jl1TOCTl1 l1 CTpax p;a he 6l1Tl1 caHKQl10Hl1CaHa YKOnl1KOHe nourryje MopanHe, xnaCHe Bpep;HOCTl1,BpeMeHa y KojeM )I(l1Bl1.Ilornenajao 0 KaKBl1Mje Bpep;HOCTl1Mapes.

J(ojJ1 je nojep;l1HaQ aa BpXy onpeheae p;pYllITBeHe nl1paMl1p;e. Ha BpXy nopomrsHe nl1paMl1p;e BeKOBl1Ma je 6110 MyllIKapaQ, OTaQ. CBe je 6l1no rronpeheno tbeMY, re cy ce Tal.JHOaaane MopanHe HopMe xoje je aarsano nOllITOBaTl1 P;OK OTaQ )I(l1Bl1. MajKa je 6l1na na BPxy nOpOp;l1l.JHenl1paMl1p;e, y Op;HOCY na neuy, aajcrapnje nere je 6J1no aa spxy y OP;HOCY aa Mnaljy netry ... YBeK cy MopanHe Bpep;HOCTl16l1JIe y KOP"CT OHora ca apxa napasorne. Y paHOM Kanl1Tanl13MY, xa npMMep, na BPxy nl1paMl1p;e 6J1JIaje BJIap;ajyha Kanl1TaJIl1CTl1l.JKa xnaca. CBe IllTOje OHaYCTaHOBl1JIa xao Bpep;HOCT, MopaJIa je nOllITOBaTl1 OHa npyra crpana, l1aKOje MHOrl1Ma6l1JIOjacno na cy TO nOTnyHO l1HTepeCHe Bpep;HOCTl1,a He l.JOBe'IHe (xana l.JOBeKeKCnJIOaTl1llIe l.JOBeKa,TOje MopaJIHO, aJIMHeMa OP;JIl1KY se-nre Bpep;HOCTl1, jep l.JOBeK l.JOBeKY je l.JOBeK, a He "BYK"). ,Ua 611noponaua, P;PYllITBO,nojenaaau YCBOjl1JIl1 OBe Bpep;HOCTl1,nocrojano je 6e36poj ayTOpl1TapHl1X Hal.Jl1Ha. KOp"CTMJIa ce KOH<pOPMl1CTl1l.JKa YMeTHOCTxoja je Tpajana caxo OHOJIl1KO KOJIl1KO rpaje l1 snanajyha KJIaCa, a l1MaJIa je sa Ql1Jbp;a na "nJIl1llIaHl1 Hal.Jl1H" nasene l.JOBeKap;a rrpxxsara YCTaHOBJbeHe Bpep;HOCTl1. KopaCTl1JIace npl1Hyp;a Bep6aJIHa. [OBOP"JIO ce: "Be)l(l1 xorsa, rne Tl1 rasna xazce", llITO 6113Hal.Jl1JIOp;a ce onaj ca Bpxa nl1paMl1p;e Mopa 6e3YCJIOBHOCJIYllIaTl1l1 oana xana Hl1je Hl1 Ml1CJIl10,Hl1 panao p;o6po. Te Bpep;HOCTl1cy 6l1JIe npOJIa3He, aJIl1 y BpeMeHY y KojeM cy Ba)l(l1JIe, MOpaJIe cy 6l1Tl1ycsojeae l1 6l1JIe cy ycaajaae 6aTl1HOM l1JIl1Bep6aJIl13MOM, Cl1JIOM l1nl1 Ml1nOM.

Benne epeqnociuu
qOBeK Tpap;l1Ql10HaJIHe CBeCTl1l1MaOje MHoro sehe mance na nOBpeMeHO npeno3Ha craise Jby6aBl1, ,Uo6poTe, CBeCHOCTl1y cetia, npeMa TOMe JIaKOje re spenaoCTl1npenoaaasao Y.3anl1Cl1Ma CBeCHl-iXJbYP;l1.ITP0l13BOp;e p;yxa, CBeCHl1XJbYP;l1, JbYP;l1 Jby6aBl1l1,Uo6pOTe, renepauaje cy naMTl1JIe l1 xyaane. TaKBl1X sanaca HeMa MHoro, ana ax je YBeK 6l1JIO P;OBOJbHO na 6yp;y onoveaa, aKO l.JOBeKCKpeHe ca rryra t{oBel.JHOCTl1.Ilornenajao CBeTe Ktbl1re. Ilornenajsro casro naponae nOCJIOBl1Qe, He CBe, norxenajao KaKBe jaxe, sexae nopyxe npeHoce BeKOBl1Ma l.JOBel.JaHCTBY. nornep;ajMo noeanjy, Ktbl1)1(eBHOCT,MY3l1KY,YMeTHOCT,<pl1JI030<pl1jy xoja npOHOeM Bet{He spenaocra, on nOCTaHKa l.JOBeKaP;O naaac. OBaKBl1X OHTOJIOllIKl1X nena, HeMa MHoro, aJIl1l1X l1Ma P;OBOJbHO. Te l1 TaKBe Bpep;HOCTl1cy npe)l(l1BeJIe cyn BpeMeHa M 3aTO ce aosy sexae spenaocra. Bexae Bpep;HOCT cy ce l.JYBaJIe l1 npenoCMlIe CKoneHa aa xonexo. Bpesre xoje je npep; HaMa je BpeMe Bel.JHl1XBpep;HOCTl1. AaHae l1XHl1KOHe rrosonse, alll1 mrraa.e je nasa xana he 'lOBeK y tbl1Ma rroxern na Tpa)f(M MHCnl1paQl1jy aa crsapanaurrao y rpehea Ml1neHl1jyMy.
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Mopanne epeqnociuu
Mopanae Bpep;HOCTl1 cy 6l1ne Bpep;HOCTl1 Bnap;ajyhl-iX xrraca. Y OKBl1PYnopOp;l1ue, xao l1 y OKBl1PYTpap;l1Ql10HanHOr npyurrsa Ta'lHO ce snano xoja je xnaca. l1nJ1
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Ha)KalIOCT, 360r ynorpetie nsa ayropnrapaa, BaCnl1THa Mop;elIa, 360r orpOMHe Hare aYTOpl1TapHOr CI1CTeMay OKBI1PYxspcre nl1paMI1p;e, MallO je OHI1XKOjl1cy [MalIl1 cnary p;a OBe aexae Bpep;HOCTI1)KI1Be11cnenoae CBOjl1M)KI1BOTOM.3aTO cy :e 11OBe Bpep;HOCTI1yql1lIe Ml1lIOM111I11 Cl1lIOM. ,IJ;aHac BI1P;I1M na je 11TO I1MalIOCBOjy Bpep;HOCT,jep oaaj KOy paHOM p;eTl1lbCTBY rayxa, MeMOpl111IeHeKOlIl1~I1Hy BeqHI1X Bpep;HOCTI1I1MaBelIl1KYllIaHCY, xan op;pa.re, na noxyura 11p;a I1Xnpl1MeHI1 y )KI1BOTY111I11 p;a I1Xnecefia-mo, ann oner Bep5alII13MOM,rrpeHOCI1 rrOTOM~I1Ma. EOJbI1je 11septianaaaxr Hero 3a60paB, OTytjelbe )P; BeQHOr, zsyncxor, Ee3 BeQHI1XBpep;HOCTI1HeMa paasoja CBeCHOCTI1.

Bpeqnociuu caepemenoi ceetua

IIojaCHl1lIl1 CMOpa31Il1Ky l13Metjy MOpalIHl1X l1 BeQHl1XBpep;HOCTl1.Mopanae npenHOCTl1 cy ce MelbalIe, a BeQHe CMO rrpeaocnna, l13 crapor, y HOBl1 l1CTOPl1jCKl1 rrepl1op;. BeQHe Bpep;HOCTl1 cy yrnaaaoa npaxsaraae na Bep6alIHOM Hl1BOY,jep ayTOpl1TapHl1 Cl1CTeM Hl1je p;03BOJbaBaO QOBeKY cran-e Jby6aBl1, a 6e3 Jby6aBl1 HeMa 3a)Kl1BJbaBalba BeQHl1X Bpep;HOCTl1y )KI1BOTYJbYP;l1. IIOlIOBl1HOM rrpOllilIor sexa, a CBe ce noxnornoro ca pYllielbeM aYTOpl1TapHOr Cl1CTeMal1 napasorne, QOBeKpasanjeaor CBeTa nmue KOHBEHIJ;J1JE 0 IIPABMMA qOBEKA. Beh rana cy paaaajemr l1MalIl1 npenocehaj na he ce ayTOpl1TapHl1 Cl1CTeMYCKOPOCpyllIl1Tl1 Y ~elIOM cBeTY. 3HalIl1 cy p;a neurro Mopa p;a aexce CBe Jbyp;e CBeTa. IIPABA, TO je 36l1Jba onronapajyha peQ. YCTaHOBJbeHa npaaa ce Mopajy rrourroaarx. Heurro llITO ce Mopa nourrosarn MO)Ke ce nocrxhn Ml1lIOM l11Il1Cl1lIOM(oner ayropnrapaonrhy Y BpeMeHY y xojea ce crrpeMaMo aa narryurraise aYTOpl1TapHOCTI1). qOBeK paannjenor CBeTa 3aTO l1 Hl1je ynorpetino peQ YHMBEP3AJIHE BPE,IJ;HOCTM seh KOPl1CTl1 peQ IIPABA. Kana Ka)KeMOYHl1Bep3alIHe Bpep;HOCTl1,l1CKJbYQl1BO Ml1ClIl1MOna Bpep;HOCTl1 xoje cy rrocnemma ,IJ;06poTe l1 Jby6aBl1, CTaIba QOBeKOBe CBeCTl1, y Op;CYCTBY aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1. Kana ce rra)KJbl1BO aHalIl13l1pajy Ilpasa QOBeKa l1 Ilpaaa nerera Mopa ce rrpaanarn na, na Bep6alIHOM Hl1BOY,Behl1na npasa l1Ma YHl1Bep3alIHo aaaxerse. Heurro llITO je YHl1Bep3alIHO, neurro llITO je y cxnany ca yayrpaunsroa norpeoaaa CBl1XJbYP;11 CBeTa, He MO)Ke3a)Kl1BeTl1, YKOlIl1KOce crrposona HaCl1lIHO (a HaCl1lIHI1cy CBl1ayTOpl1TapHl1 MOp;elIl1) Kao llITO pOp;I1TeJb He MO)KeCl1lIOMHaMeTHYTI1 nerery 6l11I0 urra, rra Hl1 Bpep;HOCT xoja je 36l1Jba IberOBa rrpl1pOp;Ha norperia, a xana Ka)KeM HaCl1lIHO Ml1ClIMM na ynorpetiy 11Ka3He l1 narpane. Y 06a cny-raja Kpl1BI1ce 113BOpHa rrpl1pop;a rra M
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MorynHOCT na OHO llITO HYP;I1MO 3a)KI1BMKp03 Jby6aB. MCTO TaKO HI1 pasnajenx lieMajy ycnexa y crrpoaohersy Ilpasa QOBeKa Mnerera jep TO pap;e HaCl1lIHO. KaKo oCTBapMTMIlpaso nerera na )KI1BM y rrOpOp;M~11oKpY)KeHO Jby6aBJbY, aKO raj MCTM pa3BMjeHl1 CBeT Hl1je CXBaTMOna Ka3Ha 11Harpap;a rrOHI111ITaBajyJby6aB nopOP;M~M. ,IJ;aKlIe IIPABA QOBeKa l1 nerera aehe Mohl1 p;a 3a)Kl1Be y peanaosr y . . )Kl1BOTYCBe P;OK ce He YKlIOHe y3POQHl1~l1 KOJl1OMeTaJY Ibl1XOBO3a)Kl1BJbaBalbe, ayTOpl1TapHl1 BaCrrl1THl1MOp;elIl1.,IJ;aKlIe,BelIl1Kl16poj IIPABA nerera l1 QOBeKa cy y paBlil1 BeQHl1XBpep;HOCTl1,alIl1 aa septiamroa Hl1Boy.lllTo ce Bl111Ie6yp;y HaCl1lIno crrpOBOp;l1lIa aehn he oTrrop nocrojarx (urranoxi l1lIl1l1IapraperroM, l1CTOje) BeQHe Bpep;HOCTl1cy nocnenaua Jby6aBl1 l1 Mory caxona 3a)Kl1Be TaMO rne je Jby6aB. Ha npyroj CTpaHl1 re YHl1Bep3alIHe Bpep;HOCTl1norpeunro cy CTaBJbeHe y KaTerOpl1jy IIPABA. Kana xazceur npaso onna Ml1ClIl1l1Ina 3aKOH, a xana xaxceur 3aKOH Ml1ClIl1l1Iaa Cl1lIy. Cl1lIOM ce MOry crrpOBeCTl1 rrpaBa, rrpolIa3He Bpep;HOCTl1, YHMBep3alIHe Bpep;HOCTl1He. HeKO noxyurasa na cronano yrypa y pyKaBl1~y. Osaj nyr He BOP;l1y CBeCHOCT.Ine cy 3aKOH, anenosarse, narpahaaarse Ty je p;pecypa.

Ine je npecypa,

CBeCHOCTl1 HeMa.

Hexa upaea uoeexa uMajy meJICUHY 6et.tHUX epequoauu, a eenno ce He nauehe CUllOM.
IIlTa je y CBeMYTOMe p;06po, a urra je TO llITO he pasnajenn MOpaTl1 na MeIbajy aKO )KelIe, a xcene na YHl1Bep3alIHe Bpep;HOCTl1Be)KY CBe Jbyp;e CBeTa, jep je TO y CKlIaP;y ca BpeMeHOM xoje je npen nasta. qOBeK pasaajeaor CBeTa je l1HCTl1HKTl1BHO OCeTl10 p;a 360r pYllieIba aYTOpl1TapHe rrl1paMI1p;e nehe I1MaTI1KO p;a YCTaHOBI1YHl1Bep3alIHl1 CI1CTeMBpep;HOCTI1. Mehy rrpoKlIaMOBaHI1M npasxaa I1Ma 11rrpOlIa3Hl1X Bpep;HOCTI1,anx TO cana Hl1je 6I1THO. BI1p;elIl1 cy na HI1KOBI111IeHI1KOMeaehe Mohl1 na HaMeTHe onurreaaacehe MopalIHe Bpep;HOCTI1.IIpe Hero llITO ce xaoc, xao nocnernma pYllieIba ayTOpl1TapHe rrl1paMI1p;e, noronao HeKO je aarrpasao Cl1HTe3YBeQHI1XBpep;HOCTI1. Kao llITO cy nexe reaepannje samrcane ztecer 60)Kl1jl1x 3arrOBeCTI1, TaKO cy HeKI1 JbYP;11 pa3Bl1jeHor CBeTa CaQI1Hl1lIl1 cnncax YHl1Bep3alIHl1X Bpep;HOCTI1 Be3aHl1X aa MYlIIKap~a, )KeHY 11nere. JbyP;}!!'MaTepl1jalIHo najpasaajeaajer nena CBeTa cy npeAOCeTl1lIl1 Moryhl1 xaoc KOjl1nacraje pYllielbeM aYTOpl1TapHOr CI1CTeMa11,I1CTOBpeMeHo P;I1BJbalbe ner BaCrrl1THI1XMop;elIa. Aa JbYAI1He 611113ry6 111I 11xovrrac, jep je CBaI<arpyrra, CBaKI1QOBeKno-reo Aa opcl1pa csoje BpeAHOCTI1,YjeAI1IbeHe Ha~l1je
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cy 1948.06jaBJ1JIe YHJ1Bep3aJIHY nexrrapaunjy 0 JbYP;CKJ1M npaanera. ,lJ;eKJIapaU;J1ja, xao CBOjU;J1Jb, rrpomallIaBa OrrllITJ1J1p;eaJIKOjJ1rpetia na rrOCTJ1rHY CBJ1HapOp;J1J1CBe HaU;J1je.Y rrpBoM KaTaJIory YHJ1Bep3aJIHJ1XJbYP;CKJ1X rrpaBa y J1CTOPJ1jJ1, rrpOKJIaMy_ jy ce J1p;eq,J1HJ1llIYcanpxcaja JbYP;CKJ1X rrpaBa J1OCHOBHJ1X cJI060p;a aa CBe Jbyp;e aa cBeTY. OBe 0p;pep;6e cy YCMepeHe aa MyllIKapu;e J1cene, a otiyxsarajy J1npasa nerers, 1959. rOp;J1He Yjep;J1lbeHe HaU;J1jecy YCBojJ1JIe,lJ;eKJIapaU;J1jy0 npamoaa nerera npaxsarajyha, J13Me1)yOCTaJIOr, na nere rpetia p;a pacTe y rropomomoj Cpep;I1HI1, y arsrocrpepa cpehe, Jby6aBI1 J1pa3YMeBalba. AKO rra)J(JbJ1BOql1TaMO npaaa nerera, BJ1P;J1MO notipy HaMepy 11)J(eJbY lbJ1XOBI1X ayTopa p;a Y q!1TaBOM cBeTY CTBope jenan MaTepl1jaJIHO ypehen CBeT KOjl1rpetia na 6yp;e 3aCHOBaH na qOBeqHI1M npan. U;l1rrJ1Ma.Ka)J(eM na 611rpetiao, aJII1 HI1CYcTBOpeHI1 OCHOBHI1 YCJIOBI1 na 611qOBeK re rrpJ1HU;J1rre)J(J1Beo. KaKO MO)J(eHeKO KO )J(I1BJ1na rrpJ1HU;l1rrJ1MaayTOpJ1TapHOCTI1,HeqOBeqHOCTI1, na crrpOBop;11 QOBeqHa npasa? KaKO MO)J(erroxnenan, 3aBI1p;aH, arpeCI1BaH, 3aCTpallIeH, HeCBeCTaH, He3ap;OBOzsan, ropn QOBeK p;pyroM QOBeKY,cynpysn, pOp;I1TeJbY,nerery p;a crnapa QOBeQHe YCJIOBeaa ocraaperse QOBeQHJ1XBpep;HOCTI1,xana je QOBeQHOCTlbeMY nenosaara xareropnja. Pa3BJ1jeHJ1 CBeTje OQJ1mep;HOMI1CJII10 p;a je P;OBOJbHO 3a6paHI1TI1 6aTI1Hy pOp;I1TeJba J1HaCTaBHJ1Ka,a CBe OCTaJIe 6aTI1He nojasarn n p;a cy CTBOpeHI1yCJIOBI1aa QOBeQHOCT.OaTJ1HOM113aKOHOM ce He MO)J(eQOBeKHaTepaTJ1 na QOBeQHOCT. 3aKOHOM J1 CI1JIOMce MO)J(p;aMO)J(eycrroCTaBJ1TJ1 rrpJ1BI1p;aHcnorsaunsa pep;, aJIJ1 y TOM pep;y HJ1KOHJ1Kora He MO)J(eHaTepaTJ1 p;a 6yp;e I1CTI1HCKI1 notiap, jep notiap HI1Kap;aHJ1jep;06ap J13crpaxa I1JIl1l1HTepeca seh YBeK J1jep;J1HO113Jhy6aBJ1. qOBeQHOCTJ1JII1J1MallI I1JII1HeM<lllI. Ty CJ1JIaHe rrosrazce. fp;e je CI1JIaTy je HeCBeCHOCT,a rue je HeCBeCHOCTTy cy:

. rrO )'e casro ce6J1 CBpxa. Saurro? I1eT rrJIJ1llIaHJ1Xy KOM6J1HaU;J1jJ1 ca peaJIKO)e CTa . flOM npJ1HYP;OM,cnyna rrpJ1CYTHOM,He p;03BOJbaBa)y paCT KJIJ1u;eP;YXOBHOC~J1, ca . M ce CBaKJ1QOBeK paha. qOBeKY KojeM ce KJIJ1u;ap;YXOBHOCTJ1 He pa3BJ1)a, na 1(0)0 npBOM MeCTYJhy6aBJbY, ,lJ;O~POTOMJ1 Panourhy, HeMa cHary na rrpenosna p;YXOBQHO a KaMOJIJ1na CBO)I1M)J(J1BOTOM TO CBep;OQJ1. flO, Be ' OJIYP;je CBe llITO ce pap;J1 y Op;CYCTBY, J1 OHO MaJIO, Tp.ap;J1U;J10HaJIHeJby6aBJ1, a flOBaU;[e cpep;CTBO na ce 6JIyp; peamrsyje. AyTOpJ1TapHJ1 J1HTepeC je BOp;J1JbacaspeMeflOr QOBeKa. MHTepec He3ap;OBOJbHOr, naneror, YMopHor caBpeMeHor QOBeKa je Aa npoHa1)e 3ap;OBOJbCTBOKp03 xoje 6J1 npa3HJ10 HaneTOCT J1OCTBapJ10 BpxyHcKe I<Ba3J1Bpep;HOCTJ1,xoje cy Mep;J1jJ1MaHaMeTHYTe (60raTCTBO, Moh, 6p3a JIaKa sapaKOJIJ1KO J1MallI TOJII1KOapemen, J1MaTJ1,I1MaTJ1J1caxo I1MaTI1). I10llITO 60p6a Aa, sa J1MaTJ1P;OHOCJ1 orpoxnry HaneTOCT, Ty je HarOMJ1JIaHJ1HOBau; KOjJ1Mce npa3HJ1 HaneTOCT J1MaHJ1q,ecTyje 60raTCTBO J1Moh. Ty cy nOJIJ1TJ1Ka,BJIaCT,cnOH30pCTBa, p;OHaTopCTBa, KpJ1MI1HaJI,npOCTJ1TYU;l1ja,aJIKOXOJI,p;pora. Ha TOMnyTy rrpenpeKe He CMe 6J1TJ1.A rne je HOBau, Ty rrpenpeKa aexa. ,,3ap;OBOJbCTBO" canpesrenor; naneror J1 He3ap;OBOJbHOr QOBeKa ce nOCTJ1)J(e Kp03: Moh, )J(eHCKOJ1 MyllIKO TeJIO, 6aBJbelbe nOJIJ1TI1KOM,KarrJ1TaJI, BJIaCT, npaBJbelbe "pep;a" na nJIaHeTI1, paT, Kp03 XYMaHe, J1HTepeCHe aKTJ1BHOCTJ1 ... a sa CBe OBOje norpetian HOBan, HOBau; je nanac nOQeTaK J1 xpaj CBaKe npJ1Qe. CBe ce MO)J(e KynJ1TI1, CBe ce Drannponaje, J13Y3eBJhy6aBJ1, Pap;OCTI1J1Ilotipore, xao npennopja p;YXOBHOCTJ1. na nyma xynyje, nenpecrano ce aanajyha p;a he 6allI. y OBOMnaxery 6J1TJ1 J1oao llITO ce KyrrJ1TJ1He MO)J(e.ql1M 06aBJ1 jenny, YJIa3J1y cnenehy KynOBJ1HYxpaneha noxnerry, p;O)J(I1BJbaBajyhJ1 MaTepl1jaJIHe nrpa-nce xao nanoxnany sa Jbyfiaa. CBe llITO QOBeKxyrryje J1JIJ1nponaje nerne je p;y60KO CKpJ1BeHa norpefia na ce p;o1)e P;O ce6e, P;O csor yHyTpallIlber 6JIara. Y cnerroj yJII1U;11y KOjOj ce naurao caBpeMeHJ1 QOBeK nesroryhe je OTKPJ1TJ1 OBO 6JIaro y ce6J1. I1eT BaCnI1THJ1X MOp;eJIa cy rrpenpexa na ce p;o1)e P;O BJIaCTJ1Tor, yHyTpallIlber finara. AOKJIe rap; QOBeK 6yp;e 6J10 y OBOj cnerroj YJIJ1U;J1, yMeCTOJhy6aBI1 HaJIa3J1he ropnocr, YMecTo A06poTe HaJIa311he J1HTepecHY P;06pOTY (xYMaHocT), YMecTo 3ap;OBOJbCTBa, yHyTpallIlber MJ1pa, xapvoaaje J1Mahe yHyTpallIlbe HeMJ1pe, HaneTOCT xojy he npa3HJ1TJ1 6JIYP;OM,xao BpXyHCKJ1M 06JIJ1KOM3ap;OBOJbCTBa. BJIYP;,Ha)J(aJIOCT,He P;OHOCJ1 HI1XapMOHJ1jy, HJ13ap;OBOJbCTBOJ1QOBeKTO oceha. YCKOpOhe MOpaTI1 na BJ1P;J1llITaMy,je QJ1HJ1TJ1. AOK CBaKOHe nahe CBOjnyr, JbYP;11 he BOP;I1TI1 6ecoMyqHY TPKY na ,,6JIYP;OM"OCTBape CBOjBpXyHCKJ1J1HTepeC, KaKOp;a I1cnpa3He HarreTOCT, KaKO6J1 ce HaHOBOHarrYHJ1JIJ1.Ila 6J1 ce raj J1HTepeC OCTBapJ10 nOTpe6aH je HOBAU. Cana je jacno 3allITO je HOBau; rrOCTaO BpxyHcKa spemrocr - 109-

Ellyg U noeau KaO .epxyncxe"

CaapeMeHOf~oaeKa

epequociuu

CaBpeMeHJ1 CBeT je YMecTo y Jhy6aB, y Csecaocr J1p;YXOBHI1 paCT, xao BpXyHCKI1 U;J1Jbnaurer )J(I1BOTa, 3arrJIOBJ10 y MaTepJ1jaJIHO. Ha)J(aJIOCT, "BpXYHCKe" Bpep;HOCTJ1rOTOBO CBJ1Xrpyrra J1rrojemmaua, caBpeMeHor p;pYllITBa cy oJIY,lJ; J1HOBAU xpajise He3ap;OBOJbHOr,aaneror caapesreaor QOBeOJIYP; je BpXyHCKO3ap;OBOJbCTBO xa, rrOCJIep;J1U;J1 nnmuaae rrpJ1Hyp;e J1MoryhHOCTJ1 na ce Mep;J1jJ1MaHaMeTHe JIa)J( na cy 6JIyp; J1HOBau; jernrae J1J1CTJ1HCKe Bpep;HOCTJ1. Ha rrJIOQJ1)J(J1BOTacy J1p;YXOBHeJ1 KBa3J1 Bpep;HOCTJ1.CBe rrJIJ1Ba J1 na p;OMaK je pyxe caaxor QOBeKa. CBJ1 ce MallIajy 3a KBa3J1, aa rrpOJIa3HO, sa Xep;OHJ1CTJ1QKO, - 108-

aBpeMeHor

xoaexa.

To je ,,60)f(aHCTBO" xoje ce CJIaBH naaac. qOBeK He 6Hpa CpeA-

U APYlllTBeHO "npH3HaTe" caH U npxnamry )f{UBOTOM xareropaja

CBe je HIlIJIO na PYKY nOJIYCBeCHHM JbYAHMa. He HeCBeCHHX.

rpetia

TBO Aa AO HOBu;a ICTBapelba U;HJba.

nobe.

He nocrojx

HH jenaa

MOpaJIHa, HHTH

se-ma

BpeAHOCT na nYTY

r,1Horo naMeTH, na pa3YMeTH KaKO je 6HJIO JIaKO Aa nOJIycBecHH naAHY Y TOTaJIHH

:oja 6H Morna 3aYCTaBHTH

caapesreaor;

nOXJIenHOr, HeCBeCHor xoaexa

no

Pexocsro

na HeCBeCHH He nare, a CBOjHM

ysehaaajy

orpOMHY naTlbY rropomnte,

APYIliTBa.

.J8eCHOCUllbygU KaO uocnequua tpunyqe - YUlBpgUMO nexuujy

.....,

unuucaue U peanue

Sap U UlU gega?

,Ua lIU je CTapOCHa rpaHHU;a 6UlIa YClIOB Aa ce U3 rpyne nOlIYCBeCHUX ynanne y nOT-

1 nanac, pexocsso, rrocroje TpH xareropnje JbYAH. CBeCHJ1, HeCBeCHH H rronycse. caste je 6poj pa3JIH'fHT Y 0AHOCY na spesre TpaAHU;HOHaJIHe noponaue. Kperyhesio OA HajMaJI06pojHHjHx - OA CBeCHHX.
:HH,

nyay

HecBecHocT? He.

Ilornenajre

crapaje

JbYAe. II punaAalIu

cY BpeMeHY TpaAJ1U;J1HOBu;a,

OHalIHe nopOAJ1U;e, 6J11IJ1 'feCTJ1TJ1O'feBJ1, BepHJ1 MY)f(eBJ1. ,U01lI1IJ1AO nexor a npupOAHO je Aa ra J1Majy Y TJ1M rOAJ1HaMa, 06YKlIJ1 cpapMepKe, KpeHyJIJ1 Y OHO 0 'feMY cy, xao nOJIycBeCHJ1, caste CalbaJIJ1.

ofiyna

"HJ1Ke" J1

Hnje
t

reurxo

06jacHHTH

3allITO cY naaac ycnejy

Y MalbHHH.

PeTKH cY JbYAH KOjH Y CYIlITHHY osor npexeaa npOJIa3HO To cy JbYAH

'pOTJIy TOTaJIHe ayroparapaocrn

Aa carnenajy

Jlorneaajre caao
arrnays, npasnarsa, HeMajy oceharse

Te 60raTe crapue

KaKO 6JIYAHJ1'fe ca

nesojxaaa

rOAJ1Ha CBOjJ1X

BHAe IlITa je H3a. To cY ]bYAH KOjH HMajy

jacnohy

na je OBO spexre nyxa.

YHYKa, KaKO 61IYAHJ1'fe Y KpJ1MJ1HaJIY,Y KopynU;J1jJ1 ... J1KaKO nOCJIe csera A06J1jajy KaKO

t Aa AOJIa3H spezre Y KojeM he CBH ]bYAH 6HTH onneraerseaor WjH He nare 360r

cy naxehy

J1cnanaxosxaourhy

CBe TO OCBOjJ1JIJ1. TaKBJ1 J1M

orposme

narrse

'fOBe'faHCTBa,

HeBHt)eHe Y HCTOpHjH passoja Ty orpoMHY

KpJ1BJ1u;ejep pane casro OHO IlITO paAJ1 BehJ1Ha. "OnpOCTJ1

~HBHJIH3aU;Hje. To cY JbYAH KOjH Tpa)f(e nYT KaKO Aa np06YAe IY ApeMJbHBHX, .naaajy Ay60KHM nonycsecaxx, CHOM. na noxyurajy he np06y1)eHH Aa pa36YAe npexornern BpeMeHY

sehnH

Boxe,

He aaajy IlITa 'fJ1He", jeAJ1HO je IlITO MOry

peha.

H OHe HeCBeCHe, KOjH OBO reunco apexe

IIOCTOjJ1 J1rpyna

CTapJ1XnOlIYCBeCHJ1XJbYAJ1KOjU 'fUHe J1CTOIlITO 'fUHe J1HeCBeKpJ1BJ1U;e.HapaBHO na Me1)y nOJIYCBe-

Caao

CHJ1,casro IlITO uMajy nOBpeMeHO ocehaise CHHMa HMa JbYAU BpJIO jaxxx

)MoryhHTH

nOToMcTBY na )f(HBH Y

npenenosr

rpeher

MHJIeHHjYMa, xoje

TpaAHU;HOHaJIHHX CTaBOBa, KOjH jour HUCY nO'feJIH

e npeA HaMa.

Aa 'fHHe IlITO H CBH OCTalIH, aJIH nerne Ay60KO y ce6H 3aBHAe ]bYAH je nanac najsxure. HH TO HHje reurxo 06jacHHTH.

aajxpafipajaaa.

OHU y

Hecsecnax

Behana
MOAe-

TO He 'fHHe, aJIH nO'fHlbY

Aa MUCJIe (BepOBaTHO) Aa cy 6YAaJIe xoje xcrpajasajy

lOJIYCBeCHHX, xao nOCJIeAHu;a TpaAHU;HOHaJIHe rroponxue ra, cy JbYAH KOjH cy AO jyse )f(HBeJIH na npHHU;HnHMa

H ABa sacrurrna

BepHocTH xao ,,6YAalIaIlITHHJ1". IlIHHX AeJIa, ApyrH 360r rpellIHHx neurro

V1 OBO cy
MHClIJ1.

nOJIycBecHH JbYAH. JeAHH nare 360r rpe-

TpaAHU;HOHaJIHHX, aJIH H

3e'fHHX BpeAHOCTH. Te BpeAHOCTH, I peTKO HX )f(HBeJIa. razraa noponnna iO npeaapxrn

aehnaa

nOJIYCBeCHHX je MeHTaJIHO YCBajaJIa, TpaAHU;HO-

Ila

JIH rpetia

pehx

0 CBeCHHMa, a Be3aHO aa OBY TeMy. CBeCTaH 'fOBeK 3Ha

Brune

je pe'f 0 BpJIO CHa)f(HHM CTaBOBHMa. Hnp. yrpaznora

Aa JIHje y Jby6aBu

ca )f(eHOM. AKo je y Jby6aBH, ca TOM jeAHoM )f(eHOM he AO)f(UBeTH

je KOA nOJIYCBeCHor xoaexa CBOjy cynpyry.

jax CTaB na je HeMOpaJI-

CBYJIenoTY AYXOBHor paCTa. 6y 3a npa)f(lbelbeM IIpH'fe

Hexo

KOje na TOM nyTy HeM a HaneTOCTH rra HU norpena HH HenpeCTaHOM npOMeHOM napraepa. casto ABe AO TpH rOAH-

Herne

Ay60KO y CBOM HCKpHBJbeHOM 6Hhy, MHOrH raj rpex. IIOJIYCBeCHH 6e3 jaxxx CTaBOBa CTaBO-

6J1JIOKOjHM rryresr,

lOJIYCBeCHH cy caxto npH)f(eJbKHBaJIH :y BapaJIH na rajno

0 TOMe KaKO Jby6aB ca jeAHHM napTHepOM rpaje Huje XJ1P seh je H HayqHo

(TO cy JbYAH ABOCTpYKor MOpaJIa), nOJIYCBeCHH jaxxx

He npoTypajy

HeCBeCHH H nOJIYCBeCHJ1JbYAH KaKO 6H AaBaJIH npOJIa3 OHOMe IlITO

sa HHKaAa TO HHCY ypaAHJIH HHTH cy aa TO nOMHIlIJbaJIH. HeCBeCHH HHCY HMalIU iHKaKaB np06JIeM Ka3aHOBe, ynpxoc Kp03 pexeaa jep cy PYIlIHJIH CBe MopalIHe CBeMY. CXBaTHTH IlITa ce AOrOAHJIO ca orpOMHOM H

'IHHe. IbJ1XOBa rrpxxa 'IeCTO lbHXOBa npxxa

norpetia

lbJ1XOBe HCKpJ1BJbeHe npHpOAe. BplIO

se-rae

BpeAHOCTH H nOCTajalIU

3aCHOBaHa jep je noaauraise

sehaae,

napaxe-

Tap BPJIO Ba)f(aH HaYU;H. AKO je

sehnaa

HCKpHBJbeHa OHa he HCKpHBJbeHe HayqHCTHHe sehaue KaKO je nocroja, Cana BaM je jacao OTKy... Ha cpehy H OBHM HAejaMa BpeMe

npHMep HHje reurxo

rpy-

lie nOKa3aTeJbe rtpornacarn lby6aB onTepehelbe

BaJIHAHHM. Ben ce nporypajy KaKO OHa HH He nopoAHu;e, 6paKa

rroxi nOJIYCBeCHHX, 6e3 jaKHX MOpaJIHHX CTaBOBa.

Onor

TpeHa xana je rrer BacnHT-

sa xosexa,

fIHX MOAeJIa nOCTaBHJIO 6JIYA H HOBau; xao BpxyHcKe

BpeAHOCTH xoje cy nOCTalIe

na npH'Ia 0 npeBa3H1)eHocTH

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npona3H,

jep CTH)Ke BpeMe lby6aBH

a lby6aB

je nerrponasaa

Bpe.n;HOCT,xao H 3.n;paB

qHHe. CBe UITO qHHe npHxBaTHhe

xao nopsranao

rosopehx,

na je CBe TO y cxnany

6paK H 3.n;paBa nopo.n;Hu;a.

ca BpeMeHOM Y KojeM ce )KHBH. Ilocroja J{OjH he HM 6HTH orrosreaa

onaCHOCT na nOqHY na Mp3e po.n;HTelbe

YBeK xana qHHe HeUITO UITO HHje MopalIHHx

notipo.
Ilaraise je Bpe.n;aocsoje

PeTKH cy OHH KOjH 360r jaiorx

CTaBOBa OCTaHY BepHH nopo.n;HU;H xao MallO KO sepyje.

BeqHoj Bpe.n;HocTH, y BpeMeHY xana y rroponauy

AKO cy ciaapu aanu na UCUUUly t.t08et.tHOCUlU, MllaguMa ce UlO qoioquno JOUl naxiue
Ilornenajao ~y rpanecer Mna.n;e cynpY)KHHKe, H xerpnecer ronaaa. Mna.n;e cynpyre, Ilornenajao reaepauajy xoja can HMa H3Mecynpyre, reHepaU;Hjy

MeHa xana he OHH HanycTHTH JIenoTe cTBapaJIaqKOr CHrypHo.n;a

csoje jaxe CTaBOBe HnH he HMaTH H JIaKO y~y y CBeCHOCT.

cpehy

aacnaraisa

H Me~y caCBHM MlIa.n;HMa HMa CBeCHHX lby.n;H. IlpH)KelbKyjeM.n;a aacrnrraisa

ce

UITO npe cpeTHy ca 3HalbeM crnapanaxxor TOM ayTopHTapHJ-IX, JIH nonYCBeCHe. "nlIHUIaHJ-IX"

H He nOKlIeKHY npe.n; nane-

cynpyxcaaxe,

Bpe.n;HOCTH xoje 1I0Me H CBeCHe lby.n;e, a KaMO-

xoja je npoacrsena

.n;eTHlbCTBOH 3penOCT y Tpa.n;HU;HOHanHOM.n;yxy, (sesose y rpaaTo cy reaepaunje xoje

3HU;HjH, Hepa3BHjeHH).

notipo

snajy

urra je MopanHo,

xna-

CHO, urra je BeqHO, UITa je qOBeqHO. 3aTeqeHH CMO6P3HHOM KOjOM H3 norrycsecaor

crarsa

yna3e y crarse

HeCBeCHOCTH. HeKH cy jOUI y crarsy na je nopo.n;Hu;a caermsa,

nozrycaecnocra

CKlIO-

nHlIH 6paKoBe, jep cy naysenx CBHM npHqaMa

UITO OHa H jecre,

yrrpxoc

0 lbeHoj npeBa3H~eHOCTH.

OBH MlIa.n;Hlby.n;H cy BplIO 6p30 YUIlIH Y nanx y HeCBeCHOCT. Carta HaM je neue, OTKY.n;nojace y Ta60p

Hacume y oopoquu ce ceaxoqneeno jat.te, C8eCHOCUlcnatiuja

Tpa.n;HU;HOHanHY nopomnry TelbH (xana OTaU;H MajKa aacrynajy cxyna),

yeehaea. Hacurse

61IY.n;, YCBojHnH HOBau; xao BPXYHCKY spennocr,

jacanje xaao orxyna aacarse TonHKO pasaona, rrpesapa, Me~y nOlIOBHMa. OrpOMaH

aecpehe,

ocraszseae

HOBHjer .n;aTYMaqHHHnH cy: OTaU;, MajKa, neua H pO.n;HOTaU; je rOTOBO YBeK 6HO na spxy nHpa-

6poj nonycsecaax

npezrosor

HeCBeCHJ-IX. Hesrajy

oceharse

KpHBHu;e, ca zraxohosr

ce O.n;PHqy CBHX Tpa.n;HU;HoBehHHH.

MH.n;e.Y CBOjHM pYKaMa je HMao 6aTHHy HlIH CTpax on ise, 6Hne aajxeurhe Y lberOBY KOpHCT.

Mopanne
aopsre.

Bpe.n;HOCTHcy npHHy.n;y

HalIHHX H BeqHHX spenaocrx. "cool".

Cpehaa

cy UITO npnnanajy UITa qHHe. ana ca nOBpeMeHHM

Macae

.n;acy

Han

)KeHOM H .n;eU;OM je npHMelbHBao MopalIHe

Bnaro lbHMa, jep H OHH He snajy Ilpyra rpyna MlIa.n;HX CBe TO pamr,
cy KapTY, xexajy ,,3aUITO CTe Me sacnarana

casto aKO HHCY nOUITOBalIH nncaae oceharsesr KpHBHu;e.

H aernrcaae

Majxa
xsarane gpyUITBy.

je 6HlIa na BpXy napasome xao caojespcraa

y O.n;HOCyna neuy,

CBOjHM pYKaMa je HMana cy ce "MHnOM" npHy TOM

KynHlIH rosope: na "jaKe"

B03 sa HeCBeCHe. TaKBH Mp3e csoje norpeurao!",

po.n;HTelbe qeCTO MHClIe

Bep6alIH3aM

061IHK aacnrsa.

Bep6alIH3MOM

a non THM .rrorpeunro"

BOlbHO

npOJIa3He, na H sexae

Bpe.n;HOCTH, xoje cy Ba)KHlIe y TOj noponnux,

yrpaheae

CTaBOBe y.n;eTHlbCTBY, xoje cana

pYUIe, H YBeK saajy .n;a onro-

OHO UITO pa.n;e HHje qOBeqHO, 360r xera naTe.

Hexajyha

cHary .n;anpey3My

Kana
npyro,

cy OTaU; H MajKa HCTynalIH

cxyna,

xao ponaren.a,

no.n;p)KaBajyhH

jenao

BOPHOCT aa OHO UITO qHHe, rOBope KaKO cy po.n;HTelbH KpHBH 3a TO UITO OHH qHHe cana, jep HX HHCY notipo sacmrramr y

sa .n;eu;yje 6HO 3aKOH, TO UITO cy po.n;HTelbH on lbJ-IX Tpa)KHnH. Tpa)KHO ce HOCH". IlaTHJIo noponaun ce, pa.n;OBaHHje 6HlIO

nermscrny, Y crnapa,
sa BpeMe xoje )KHBHMO,

nopYKa TeKCTa je crre-

pan, pen H .n;HcU;HnnHHa. 3Hano ce "Ko KOCH, KO sony

neha:

,,3aUITO Me HHCTe npHnpeMHnH

seh

CTe MH yrpa.n;HnH KpHBHu;e,

no H )KHBelIO. IlpH3HaJIH
OBOlIHKor nacarsa

MH TO HnH He, y rpanxuaoaanaoj

xoaexae

Bpe.n;HOCTHxoje naaac HeMajy onrosopsocr

npohy."

THMe cMalbyjy

oceharse nOHqHhe.

KOlIHKO ra HMa naaac, ("HopMalIHHM") 6aTHHe cy ce

npe6aU;HBUIH Ilarrsa

na pomrrezsa.

OBH cy n06pKalIH

Y
6na-

yrlIe.n;HHM Tpa.n;HU;HOHanHHM noponauasra

je jOUI

seha

aKO npe.n; C060M HMajy CBeCHor ponnrezsa

HlIH po.n;HTelba

g06Hjane ua Bapjaqy

BplIO peTKO. ~OBOlbHO je 6HlIO .n;aOTaU; nornena H .n;anere 3Ha UITa CMe; UITa He CMe. nopomruaaa

nere, ga MajKa noxaace

jaKJ-IX CTaBOBa. HH jenaa, rocnos sa qHlbelbe

HH .n;pyrH po.n;HTelb HHKa.n;a nehe .n;aTHCBOM nerery

sna, UITO nonarno

ysehaaa

naTlbY Tor Mna.n;or xosexa. HnH npore.

Ta naTl-ba

HaCHlba je 6Hno y np06neMaTHqHHM MOpalIa, KpHMHHanU;H ... ). TaKBe noponaue HOM cerry, na npHMep.

(nHjaHU;H, cene CYMlbHBor aa npcre y jen-

he HX o.n;BeCTHy 60necT, y norpeoy o.n;y y .n;pory, OTJiIhH he y nOTnyHy

YSHMalba nHnyna

TaKBH he, aKO He UITO

Morne cy ce H36pojaTH

HeCBeCHOCT H npecrahe .n;anare 360r onora

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jennoj

Hy

npyroj

BpCTH nOpO~Hu;e

oxeaa pex

je 6HJIa

nocnenn,a.

CaMO y

KBa3H Tpa~HU;HOHaJIHoj rIH YJIore. CaMO

101

nOpO~HU;H, HOBHjer ~aTyMa, My)f( H )f(eHa cy 3aMelbHBa_ xcena je ,,06JIaqHJIa naHTaJIOHe", Y3HMaJIa xoptiax y pYKe

. rrpylliTBO nO~CTHqe na OTBopeHH <pPOHT npOTHB MylliKapu;a. 1(0)y f-' 06jaCHHO ~a ~OJIa3H speae najnernue Jby6aBH H3Me1)y MylliKapu;a J1MHJ1je YKa3ao

HHKO HM HHje H )f(eHe, HHKO

noaexa

xa

nnnurane

xao rnasnx

Y3POK lbHXOBHX CY~OBa,

xao

rnaBHY npecene JII1 OHH

iseaa je 6HJIa nocnemsa,

aa

3rpa)f(albe

MelIlTaHa.

npel<Y llITO Jby6aB

HYfje nOTeKJIa Me1)y lbHMa. HHKO HX HH)e mrrao

nJIJ111IaHeY CBOjHM O~HOCHMa, cene JIH PaT, xao nOCJIe~HU;y nJIHllIaHHX. HajBenH <paBOPHT

aa aenocrojehe

BHCOKO MeCTO je

nere. Ilere

He 3Ha urra je

rJJ1paMH~a nopO~HqHe

BJIaCTH, aJIH caCBHM notipo

rnyMH ynory

urerpa jep ra no~p-

Illiua ce iuo gOfa1)a qauaci

IT pe casro HeKOJIHKO rO~HHa, y HalllY Tpa~HU;HoHanHy CBH ayTopHTapHH MOAenH, rropo~HU;y, yfHe3~HnH cy

)l(aBa APYlllTBO ca CBOjHM 3aKOHHMa H 6aTalbOHH 60pau;a CBH 3aKOHH, CBa npaaa HHKaKO Aa aaxorae y

sa Ilpana nerera H xcene. npaxca, Hehe HH 3a)f(HBeTH AOK ce He aarpana,

y aacmrrarsy,

ce

YKJIOHH BJIa~aBHHa Y HajBeneM qy~y

ner

nJIHllIaHHX,

Ka3Ha H

npaaehx

xaoc Herr03HaT Tpa~HU;HOHaJIHoj rropOAHU;H.

aaurao

ce MYllIKapau;,

BeKOBHH

rasna. Ilanac xao

OH cavro nOKY-

nere noaaocofi, CBaKO ycrrOCTaBlba CBOj CHCTeM Bpe~HOCTI1. ocayje CBOjy rrOpO~HqHy CTpaHKY jep CBaKO HMa nexe csoje mrrepece xoje 6paHH H He 60jH ce ~a HX 6paHH, jep je 6aTHHa H 3aKOHOM aaopaaena. ITpHHy~y y KnaCHqHOM CMHCJIY aaxersyje ,,6nara" npHHy~a, xoja HHje HHllITa npyro Hero xaxcisaaarse, 0~y3HMalbeM MaTepHjanHHx 3a~OBOlbCTaBa na xoje cy HaBHKJIH qJIaHOBH noponaue. Ilopen 6JIare npxayne, yseneaa je "rrJIHlIIaHa" npHHy~a y BH~y KyrroBHHe xoaexa, T3B. rr03HTHBHO ycnosrsaaaa,e, nOTOM rrpe3allITHHajjaxa npmryna KJIH3H ca espana haaarse O~ pana, pena H )f(HBOTa H septiarnrsaa. H raxohe je "nJIHllIaHa" jep nenyje HH~HpeKTHO. Y raxsoj noponana CBaKO ce 60PH na OCTaHe na BpXy napasome, He cxsarajyhn ~a HeMa BHlIIe HH nnpasome, HH spxa, Y TOM OTHMalbY sa BPX aenocrojehe rrHpaMH~e rrpaBa je KnH3aBHu;a. CBaKO )f(eJIH ~a 6y~e rasna, )f(eJIH ~a ra ~pyrH CJIY)f(e, na My ApyrH xyrryjy CBe llITO noacemr H CJI. OCHOBHH pe~ Hen03HaT je caspesreaoj ayroparapnoj rropomnra.
zcena, CBaKO 6H CBaKO ~a Morao

Orau,

llIaBa Aa caM OA6paHH

aa

CTpaHY cene H

csoja npasa, jep nerera, KOjH BHllIe

cy ce CBH ypOTHJIH npOTHB isera, a CTanH HHCY )f(pTBe llITO cy 6HJIe. HanpOTHB H

A06HnH cy BnaCT. He JIHqH JIH BaM HOBO APYrH ce noneo. YicToBpeMeHO,

na

Hrpy

Kypre

Mypre, jenaa

cxnrao,

zceay

enyxyjy

~a 6y~e eMaHU;HnOBaHa, cn060~Ha,

paBHonpaBBacnHTHHX

na, aa

3aXTeBHa, Mo~epHa

H Aa npBa

noxae

ca npHMeHoM

"nnHllIaHHx"

MOAeJIa y llITO

noponanx. je KOHaqHO je

OHa TO qHHH HeKpHTHqKH, jep npaxsara y

rOTOBO CBe,

cpeh-

uenrpy

naxcise

uenor

~pyUITBa.

CaMO nOCJIe penaTHBHO

KpaTKe yrrorpetie jy KOHTponH. CBe nH

"nJIHllIaHHX" YMopHHja,

BacnHTHHX MOAena, OHa YBH1)a ~a ce He3aAoBolbHHja, ynnallleHa

neua

OTHMa-

onrosopaocr

ca MY)f(eM, TaKO llITO My ce CTanHO )f(aJIH

na noneua neuy, oxexyjyhn na

H 3aTO )f(enH

OH HcnpaBH iseae rpellIKe. Myzc je norrpamrsno 36YlbeH, jep rraMTH Aa ce MajKa TpaAHU;HOHanHe H

nopona,,3Bou;a-

ue

peTKO xcamora

ouy

na

je MHoro

rora

y aacmrrarsy

pelllaBaJIa

caaa.

lbe xceae H HeMHpJIYU;H

neue"

ra ~o~aTHO orrrepehyjy,

Kana

noxyura

Aa rrpHMeHH

KnaCHqHO Tpa~HU;HOHanHO cpe~CTBO y aacmrrarsy

(6aTHHy H xamu),

npasrehyje

Myiuxapaui
Myxca, cnyurrajy KOjH je

na no
He~aBHO, 6HO

TO He ~OHOCH xcezsene pe3YJITaTe. Y6p30

MHorH OqeBH

BH~e Aa je 6aTHHa 3aKOHOM satiparseaa,

yrrJIallle

ce ~a ra ceaa H

onycrajy OA 6aTHHe, jep neua He npnjaae

na

BpXy

nopomorae

nHpaMH~e,

HeMHnocpAHO

ca lbe HJIH jour CJIHKOBHTHje YPYllIHJIa ce rrHpaMH~a, ca Bpxa MHoro 60nH. ITpH TOM My HHKO HHje

a ca fuOM H OTau;.

Kan

ce

nana

nao

pa3YMHO H rrpHXBa-

nonyxaaa reneaasxja, urraxrra, pa3He opraHH3aU;I1je, HaCTaBHHU;H, KaKO ~a ce 6paHe OA eaearyanaor nacxzsa y noponnua. A KOje HacHnHHK, mrra ce OH, MylliKapau;. Je~HHH xojer aarsa rrpornaCHTH HaCHnHHBnaCTHMa. BH~H OH )f(eHY H ~eu;y KO . M)e MYlliKapau;, jep Tpa~HU;HOHaJIHa CBeCT, casro MyllIKapu;a rrasrra xao HaCHnHHKa, rraMTH na cy xcena H neua YBeK 6HnH )f(pTBe. HHKO He nosorunsa na 6H xceua H~eu;a MornH 6HTH HaCHnHHU;H. CTBapH He croje 6aUI TaKO. Monepaa )f(eHa notipo yqH nexuaje H3 xaconxca, O~ pa3HHX )f(eHCKHX HeBnarru. . w.HI1X opranasauaja, aacrnrraaa neuy rrnmuaao H TO oxexyje H O~ MylliKap-

na

TlbHBO 06jallilbelbe notipo

3alIITO je ~O rrana ~OllIJIO. HHKO My ce HHje 3aXBaJIHO sa CBO MylliKH rrpeU;H, Kp03 1<ICTOPHjy.HHKO ce HHje H nopo-

xoje cy yqHHHJIH OH H iseroan

3aXBanHO )f(eHH H lbeHHM )f(eHCKHM npeU;HMa llITO cy OqYBaJIe ortsnurre ~HU;y, Kp03 BeKOBe. Myurxapau je CKHHyT ca npeCTOJIa, rpyoo, cTpaxy. na urra OH pearyje

rpy6011Ihy,

CBOM orpOMHOM

Hserono

MeCTO noxyurasa

na 3aY3Me caBpeMeHa

)f(eHa,

ua. npTAV~ UU)aTa

CBe UITO Je y TpeH~y.

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- ceae MOpa 611Tl1y napJIaMeHTY 6ap rpnnecer nOCTO, aa nO'IeTaK - y 6113Hl1CYje MOpa l1MaTl1 KOJIl1KO11MylllKap~a l1MaO CaMO MylllKapa~. Karpane, .r.\pY)f(e- .r.\0611JIaje CJI060.r.\y xojy je O.r.\YBeK ise, 113JIaC~11,nYTOBalba. - nepahaise .r.\e~e. - Tpa)Kl1 on MylllKap~a na paBHOnpaBHO ca lbOM 06aBJba CBe xyhne nOCJIOBe 11 nOCJIOBe OKO neue, CBe TO 11Hl1je noure, aJIl1 aKO CBe TO )f(eHa OCTBapl1, a 113ry611MylllKap~a, nopo.r.\l1~y, neuy, ce6e, onna CBe TO ry611 lbY.r.\CKl1 CMl1Cao. Myuncapau 11)f(eHa MOpajy rrOCTaTl1lbY.r.\l1 CTBapaJIa'IKe CBeCTl1,p0.r.\l1Telbl1CTBapaJIa'IKe CBeCTl1KOjl1he sajenHl1'IKl1, lby6aBlby 11,lJ;06POTOMonraiarn rrOTOMKe.O.r.\aKJIexpenyrni On caapesre, He noponxue. Kana rrpl1MeHe aaaise CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarsa 11neua 11p0.r.\l1Telbl1 ce spahajy CBOMe 113BOpy, na KojeM cy CBeCHOCT 11lby6aB.

3aUlUlO

HUKO nuje

upuupeuuo scyiuxapua sa

fy6uUlaK

8JlaCUlU y uop09UlAsU? Ilnrarse 11Hl1je urazsxso xao lllTO ce 'Il1Hl1. 3611lba je MOpaJIa rrocrojarn nCl1XOJIOlIIKa npl1npeMa MylllKap~a aa iseroa HOBl1nonozcaj y nopo.r.\l1~l1 11.r.\pylIITBy. Saro He rpeoa na ce 'IY.r.\l1MO nOHalllalbY MylllKapa~a. Je.r.\Hl1ononre y HaCl1JIHl1Ke, 6paneha csoje BeKOBHe n0311~l1je, a .r.\pyrl1 ce rente y sarpzsajaaa MylllKapa~a l1JIl1y aarpzsajaaa MJIa.r.\l1xnesojaxa. Illra 11Mje npeOCTaJIO xana He pasyaejy lIITa l1Xje CHalllJIO, He Bl1.r.\expaj CBOjl1MMYKaMa. Mozena je CBe OBO lllTO ce noraha y canpextenoj rropo.r.\l1~l1 11notipo aa 6Y.r.\yhHOCT, aJIl1 MopaMo pa3YMeTl1 36YlbeHocT 11rnrrarsa soja rrocraszsa ce611, caapeMeHl1 xryuncapau. Ilpyurrso My je MOpaJIO novoha na ce caahe y OHOMe lIITO ce o.r.\ isera o-rexyje. CaM ce CHaJIa311 11y crpaxy 'IeCTO nocezce sa npxnynox. xoja JIaKO rrpepacra y aacazse jep y0611'IajeHa rrpl1HY.r.\aHe noxasyje pe3YJITaTe. IIpe yrroTpe6e Cl1JIe cnrypao ce rnrra y CTpaxy: - urra he 611Tl1ca .r.\e~OM,xyhoa, pyqKOBl1Ma? - ceaa je no cana .r.\p)KaJIaTpl1 crytia y xyhx. )KeHa ce 113MaKJIaa OH Hl1je crrpeMaH aa HOBYyJIory. OH 6pl1He, aJIl1 ot; 6pl1re Hl1KOKOPl1CTI1HeMa. - KaKO npl1XBaTl1Tl1 YBpe.r.\e xoje My neua urarsy, lbl1XOBa Hl1rrO.r.\alIITaBafba, lbl1XOBYHenOCJIYlIIHOCT,lbl1XOBYCJI060.r.\y na 'II1He lIITa 11Mje aorsa 11cnpeMHOCTMajKe na YBeK 6paHI1 neuy, jep Tl1Me 6paHl1 ce6e.
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Ty je xopea np06JIeMa. Taj KopeH ce npeCKa'Ie 11xana MylllKapa~ YJIeTl1y CTape 06JII1Ke nOHalllalba, npornace ra HaCl1JIHl1KOMy nopo.r.\l1~l1. HeKl1 MylllKap~l1l1CTpajaBajy na o.r.\p)Kecraise KaKBOje 611JIOy Tpa.r.\11~110HaJI1I0j nopo.r.\l1~l1 lIITO ysehaaa nacrose jep cena 11neua ycrajy y 0.r.\6paHY .r.\0611jeHe cJI060.r.\e. MHOrl1 onycrajy on noponaue rrxrajyhx ce lIITa he My nopozmna, cena, ,geU;a. 0,gJIa3e y )Kl1BOTY KojeM Cl1ryPHO He HaJIa3e Ml1p. MJIa~l1 MylllKap~l1 rnenajy CY.r.\611HY caspeaenor oua 11He nana 11Mna naner ,ga OCHI1Bajy noponaue, lllTO nonarno pycTpl1pa nesojxe 11CTBapa HOBe 06JII1Ke HaCl1lba Me~y MJIa.r.\l1M lbY.r.\l1Mapa3JIl1'Il1TOr norra . Kana ce jaaao rOBOpl1 0 naciosy, 113BO,g11 ce BpJIO norpeuran 3aKlbyqaK - .r.\acy HaCl1JIHI1U;l1 rrl1jaH~l1, Kpl1Ml1HaJI~l1, CYMfbl1Bl1Tl1nOBl1. TaKBo Ml1lIIlbefbe npeoBJIa.r.\aBa,jep OHl1 KOjl1 nonoce cyn, MI1CJIe113 l1CKYCTBaTpa.r.\11~110HaJIHe CBeCTI1. J.1CTI1Haje .r.\pyra'Il1ja. CBe je Bl1lIIe 'IeCTl1TI1X MylllKapa~a "HaCl1JIHl1Ka" y "HOPMaJIHl1M" rpahaacxasr noponauaaa, y 6paKOBl1Ma KOjl1 cy CKJIOrrlbeHl1 113lby6aBI111ca )f(elbOM .r.\anoponnna rpaje. Caepesrean MylllKapa~, y CTpaxy on canxuaja, 360r Y'Il1fbeHOr nacazsa iran )KeHOM11.r.\e~OM,rrpOHaJIa311 HOBe 06JIl1Ke rrpa)Kfbefba HarreTOCTl1 Kp03 BaH6pa'IHe sese xoje ce 6a311pajy caao na MeHTaJIHOMcexcy, KOJIl1KOje caapeaemr MylllKapa~ 113ry6110 lby6aB rrpesra )f(eHl1l1 nOTOMCTBY,rroponaux xaayjy rserose aBaHType ca MJIa,gl1Mneaojxasra xoje cy crape xao iseroae hepxe l1JIl1jour rope xana cTynl1 y onaoce ca .r.\e'IaU;l1Ma,Y3paCTa CBOjl1XCl1HOBa. HarreTOCT 11MyKy MylIIKap~a .r.\O.r.\aTHO ysehaaa 113aKOHO.r.\aBa~KOjl1ce YBeK CTaszsa na CTpaHY "HeBI1Hl1X", )KeHe 11neue. A HeBI1Hl1Xnaaac HeMa. J.1Ma casto JIyKaBI1XKOjl1ce xpajy 113a "rrJIl1lIIaHOr" aacnrsa 11OHI1XHal1BHl1XKOjl1rrpa3He HaneTOCT yrroTpe60M KJIaCl1'IHe 6aTl1He xoja JIaKO npepacra y nacazse xana ce nahe y pyKaMa MylIIKap~a. A onna 3aKOH npecyhyje, IIeT nlIl1lIIaHl1X .r.\I1Blba,aYTOpl1TapHa nl1paMl1,ga ce pyllll1 11nocnemsesr KyTKy ~lIaHeTe, MOpaJIHe npenaocrn ce ypynrasajy, Be'IHe Bpe.r.\HoCTl1ce He npen03HaJY 11He npl1XBaTajy, neua cy nocrana rocrro.r.\apl1 caBpeMeHe rroponnue, EJIY,lJ; J.1 HOBAll;, xao npxyncxe Bpe,gHOCTl1,cy y l1CKpl1BlbeHoj CBeCTI1sehaae, MylliKapa~ 11 )f(eHa cy CBe .r.\albl1 ... To je crnapnocr xojy )KI1Bl1MO rrO'IeTKOM nsanecer rrpBor sexa, YIIPKOC CBEMY lbYEAB, ,lJ;OEPOTA, CBECHOCT CE IIOJIAKO, AJIJ.1 CI1rYPHO IIOMAlbAJY. Bahe TO TeMelbl1 na Kojl1Ma he )Kl1BeTI1 HalIIl1 rrOTOM~11. y l1Me fbl1XOBO,y I1Me cpehae 6y,n;yhHOCTl1 MHOrl1 he ce onpenemrra na Kp03 CTBapalIa'I Ky nopornnry, XapMOH113YJY113BOpHe . .. eMO~l1Je 11CBOJ)Kl1BOTYTeMelbe lia lhy6 aan, Panocrx 11,lJ;06POTl1, je,n;HoM pe-rjy aa CBECHOCTJ.1.

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Ha U011eUlXY ceeia je gy60KO pasysceeawe, UllU Hepa3YMeBa1-be. Kpaj je YBeK Y cKllagy ca U011eUlKOM

TT ere ce paha ca OrpOMHJ!fM CTBapaJIaqKJ!fM nOTeHl.J;J!fjaJIOM.Ilere <PYHKl.J;J!fOHJ!fllle

npJ!fHl.J;J!fnJ!fMa CTBapaJIaqKOr aacmrratsa, aJIJ!fHeMa CBeCHOCT 0 CBeMY TOMe. Ha J!f3BOPYje, aJIJ!faeocseurheao. Ilere aenorpenmao naroaapa J!fCTJ!fHe, KOjJ!fXHJ!fje CBeCTaH. Hxje CBeCTaH na je na J!f3BOPY60)KaHCKOM J!fy eMOl.J;J!fOHaJIHojXapMOHJ!fjJ!f. Ilnaxe, panyje ce, 6pJ!fHe, ryryje, crpaxyje xana rpeoa TaKO na 6yp;e. Ha)KaJIOCT, J!f3BOP je 6J!fCTap KpaTKO, P;OK je y MajqJ!fHoj YTpo6J!f, aa MajqJ!fHoj gojl.J;J!f,non ycnosora na je MajKa, 6ap rana y esrouaoaanaoj XapMOHJ!fjJ!f.Kana rpetia ga ce yqBpCTJ!f y 3p;paBJ!fM norpetiaaa, p;a ocseurhyje yspacran,e y P;yxy, nere BJ!fllle HJ!fje aa 6J!fCTPOM H3BOpy. Ayropxrapno aacmrrarse sarana J!f3BOP H TO Mano 60)KJ!fje 6J!fhe. A CBe je, no 60)KHjOj npOMJ!fCnJ!f, HJIJ!f3aKOHJ!fMa npJ!fpop;e rpetiano 6J!fTJ!f npyraxxje, jep ce nere paha ca KJIJ!fl.J;aMa lh YBABYI, PA,lJ;OCTYI, ,lJ;OBPOTE, paha ce ca OrpOMHJ!fM n03J!fTJ!fBHJ!fMnorenuajancn, ca TaJIeHTJ!fMa, ca KnJ!fl.J;aMa eMOl.J;J!fOHaJIHeH CBaKe p;pyre HHTeJIJ!freHl.J;J!fje.Ilere gO)KJ!fBJbaBa sacroj y passojy caor nonecenor 6JIara. ,lJ;aKJIe, qOBeK ce paha ca cnocotiaomhy p;a CBe llITO pap;J!f, pana C lhy6aBJby H C Panourhy 3apap; Ilotipa xosexa J!fqOBeqaHCTBa. ,lJ;eTeTY ce jaxo JIaKO aapyurx crnapanasxa rroreauxjan, HapOqJ!fTO naaac, xana y aacrnrraisy gOMJ!fHl1pa "nJIllllaHa"np"Hyp;a, xoja norrryno HapyrnaBa eMOl.J;J!fOHanHYxapvo~"jy, Te ce KJIl1l.J;eIlotipa He paaaxjajy J!fnere je CBe nazse on csora 113Bopa. Ilanac je P;OBOJbHOcasio cenaanaecr MeCel.J;J!f p;a MajKa xoacraryje na KOP; iseaor nerera MHoro rora He sazsa. Ha cpehy CTBapaJIaqKO aacmrran,e ca naxohoxr spaha 11nere 11POP;l1TeJba CBOM J!f3BOpy. PeTKl1 JbYP;l1,nonYT ",lJ;PBETA ,lJ;OBPYlQE", (KOjJ!fje 113alllTJ!fTHH 3HaK crnapanaqKor BaCnl1Talba), cy OCTBap"JIJ!f CBOj, BorOM nar, nOTeHl.J;l1jaJI, ynpKoc CBeMY, 11 nOCTaJIl1 nOTnYHO CBeCHl1 rrraanxx npenpeKa, xoje naaac croje aa nyTy gYXOBHor pa3B . . oja xoaexa 11 iseroaax CBeYKynHl1X noremmjana. TaKBH snajy, TaKBl1 Hyp;e H3na3 113OBe cnene ynaue. Kao aYTopy, Ml1 ce yql1Hl1JIO na je noopo na CylllTl1Hy aaaisa CTBapanaqKOr aacnHTaI-b a l1CnpHqajy Yl3BOPHO ,ll;ETE YI ,ll;PBO ,ll;OEPYlQA. OHl1 cy Tl1 KOjl1 he,
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,J-J, aa

CBOjHM XapMOHH30BaHHM na HaM npeHecy snaise CMO aa TO cnpeMHH.

eMo~HjaMa,

CBOjOM eMO~HOHalIHOM HHTelIHreH~HjoM, aKO

,n;oMeHe, Mopallo

je na npobe

H Kp03 Moje cp~e. Ha

raj

Ha'fHH po,n;HTelbH cy

H HCKYCTBO. OHH he HaM nOKa3aTH BpaTa Jhy6aBH,

'a'falIH Moje H3BopHe, 3alIlTHTHe eMo~Hje. } Balballo je npno casnanarn H ,n;O)f(HBeTHMHHHKOCMOC noponane, MOM

}ep )e y

Ilere na

6mKaHCKOM H3BOPY H My,n;ap, OCTBapeHH 'fOBeK,

saajy

nyT H

saajy

na

paaaojy xao

H y CBeMY Mopao

nocrojarn

npHpo,n;aH pe,n; CTBapH. CHalIlTHTHlIH cy Me

cy BpaTa Jhy6aBH

jenana

BpaTa

xoja

CBaKO caM Mopa,n;a OTBOPH H3HyTpa, jep OBa

)KHOM MaTepH~OM

noponaue, je

CBOjOM Jhy6aBlbY,

on .

npe-

BpaTa crrozsa KBaKY nexrajy, AKO

na

nO'feTKY

paCTa CBaKe

nopomnie, csaxor -ronexa,

H pealIHa npHHyp.a,

6y,n;e ,lJ;YBOKO Y3POlJ,11 CBOM

aHor YlIaCKa "CBeTa" y ,n;OM,HlIH Mor npepaHor CBeTY pe'f.

H31IaCKa y CBeT, H3 ,n;OMa. nOCTO}aO }e

nHTaTe ce 0 KaKBOM BH30P,

. 6 ana caa ja HO MalIH

rene-

pa3YMeBalbe, nanaunsea

cnosnaja

na

cy "nlIHlllaHa"

rrocrojano je
rrocefino nocetiao

06,n;aHHlllTe. Me~yTHM,

MOjH po,n;HTelbH cy Me ,n;y60KO

31Iy H HaCHlbY,

,n;YXOBHHpacT, KOjH 3anpaBO K11M pa3YMeBalbeM H

xoje ce YMHO)f(aBa CBaKHM ,n;aHOM, rana he H lbHXOB xpaja HeMa, 6HTH YBeK y cxnany ca nO'feTHHM ,lJ;YBO6Hhe nenpecraao yresrezsea na npHH~HnHMa O,lJ;rOJA npo-nrrasajre
IT11CMO xoje cy BaMa H nauroj

IllTHTHlIH, CBETA,

no TPE'R.E rO,lJ;11HE Mora )f(HBOTa, lberOBHX HeraTHBHHX

on

B11PTYEJIHOr cy Me, y TOM BpCTe.

canpzcaja.

IIITHTHlIH 6HlIO

nepHO,n;y,

on

H31IaCKa y CBeT, o,n;lIaCKOMy llIKOlIH~e

xoje

Hajse-

sa crsapanaurrao.
ITa)f(lbHBO 'fHTajTe ~H ynyTHlIH npenmrrara, 113BOPHO na H

hy IllKOlIY
noponn.
,lJ;ETE 11 ,lJ;PBO ,lJ;OBP11lJ,A. 3HaTH KO BaM npaxa npH'fy,

)f(HBOTa yqHO caa H caananasao

y KPyry noponxue

ya

MaMY, TaTY,

6aKY, nexy, KYMOBe, rrpnjarerse, CBH KOjH cy Me OKpY)f(HBalIH,

TeTKe, CTpHHe ... xpeayznr lby6aBlbY, cy on csor panourhy, H Mor cp~a. 06aCHcarypaourhy, sanoCBOjOM

Hecro

he ce lbHXOBa npasa

aehere

llITO HHje HH 6HTHO. Ba)f(HO

namr cy Me H3BOPHHM eMo~HjaMa: BOlbCTBOM, xpaopourhy,

je na cy 060jH~a

aa CBOMe H3BOPY H ,n;aHac nenorpeumso xoje nocraszsare ayropxrapaax

spahajy

aauresr H3BOpy. nocne

alIH HHCY npe3alIH

na Me YBeK 3alIlTHTe

,lJ;06HheTe o,n;roBOp aa mrrarse crrosnaje na rpefia

rrocne caaxor BacnHTHHX

npenaaan,a,

lbYTlbOM, na BHKHy cnOHTaHO KaKO 6H Me 3aYCTaBHlIH y 1I01ll0j HaMepH, aa xojy HHcaM MHClIHO na je 1I0Illa, jep TaKO MalIH HHcaM snao urra je CBe orraCHOsa MeHe y pealIHOM CBeTY BHlIO je caCBHM HopMalIHO ,n;aMH nocraszsajy rpaHH~e jep ja TaKO MalIeH HHcaM saao xana H rne rpetia ,n;ace 3aYCTaBHM. HH pealIHoM,

0,n;6a~HTH ITET

sronezra: "A urra

YMecTo ITET?"

ITOlliTOBAH11

Q11TAOqE,

Ha

cpehy

rrocraszsarse

rpaHH~a

HHKa,n;a HHje 6HlIO 6H jenaocrasno

npaheno

[a caM ,lJ;PBO ,lJ;OBP11lJ,A. caaxcan

Ilornenaj

Me! ITa)f(lbHBO, OCMOTPH MOj snpas, KPOlIllbY notiap npeny-

HH nnanraaoxr nyao

npHHy,n;oM.

Hexana

pexzm: "He MO)f(e!!", 6e3 HHje Morna,n;a pa3YMe

KopeH, Moje BHTKO, npaso Je,n;HOMpexjy:

CTa61I0 H MOjy 6yjHy 3,n;paB can,

oojaunseisa,

jep Moja ,n;e'fHja, xeTepo eaeprnja, ~HBHlIH3a~Hja

Hy CO'fHHX rmonoaa. Jhy6aBH,

naxeran,

H nperryx

KOlIHKO caspexreaa

HOCH onaCHOCTH, H no nere, H no

-rosexa.

OTKa,n;3HaM sa ce6e.

Hexana Ila
lIH carsaur ,n;aTBOjH nOTOM~H lby,n;e H npnpony

caa ce 60PHO aa CBOjy "lIy,n;OCT" rrrraxexr, BHKalbeM, BalbalbeM no HaCHlIHO na ce CMHpHM. IIITO cy OHH 6HlIH cy MH HaKHa,n;HO nojaHaMepH xoja je 6HlIa Jhy6aBlby no

,lJ;alIH 6H ceneo na 6y,n;elIl MeHH HalIHK?

no,n;y. HHKO Me HHje saycraszsao

6y,n;y pa,n;OCHH,3,n;paBH, naMeTHH H,n;a Hece6H'fHO otiacxnajy ,n;06POTOM,,n;elbelbeM csor yayrpaunser Ko TO He 6H )f(elIeo? )KelIHllI unse 60raTCTBO. ITpaTH MOjy

cMHpeHHjH, ja 6HX ce 6p)f(e ypaBHOTe)!(J1o. YrnaBHoM llllbaBalIH onacna caM HM saurro cy Me MopalIH 3aYCTaBHTH y csaxoj

60raTcTBa? He 6y,n;HlIa)f(HO CKpoMaH! ce rnrraur KaKO

H TH, cavo

crehn

TO yHyTpa-

3a MeHe, ,n;pyrora

HlIH onacaa rpelliKy

H aa MOj )f(HBOT, noaexan.

npxsry.

HellITO heur HayqHTH 0 CBeMY TOMe. xao H CBO npsehe osor CBeTa.

apahao. Hajenny

HHcaM noaasrsao.

Y'fHO caM xopax,

Pohea

caM ca orpOMHHM

MoryhHocTHMa,

KopaK, KaKO CPYHK~HOHHcaTH y OBOM, aa cana BplIO KOMnlIHKOBaHOM, cnorsallllbeM CBeTY. Yparsarra
K .

11Mao caxr p'HBHe ponarerse H ynanpehyje po~elbeM snpasrse,

KOjH cy 3HalIH p'a je rroponxua

MeCTO rne ce

-rysa

cy Me y

xapaona-me

eMO~HOHalIHe YClIOBe )f(HBOTa CBaKH 061IHK npH-

MeCTO rne ce pasnaja

reHeTCKH noreuuajan sacnaran,a.

nonecea PO,n;HO

ole cy HenpecTaHo

CTBapalIJ1, npeTxo,n;Ho YKlIOHHBlIlH nYH Jhy6aBH, '

H na ce CBe TO nOCTH)f(e 3HalbeM CTBapalIa'fKOr

caM ce y nopo,n;H~H xoja je saana na Me 3alIlTHTH nopo,n;H'fHOM MaTepH~OM H TaKO MH osroryha cpa3e nCHxocpH3H'fKOr HCKlbY'fHBO Y KPyry na ce npBJ1X cenaa paasoja, noponaue xpehesr ronana, )W 3aBpllIeTKa Moje ,n;pyre yqHM H cavocrtoaaajea

HYP'e. 113 csera casr xapaisao CTBa,xpa6poCTH.

Pa,n;OCTH,CHrypHOCTH, sanosozs-

3alllTO cy KpeHYlIH on cpnai 3Ham1 cy,n;a CaMOcnoj cpna. npenYHor BI1I1 naMeTHe rnaaaue, naje CTBapalIa'fKY HHTelIHreH~Hjy ,n;pyrHX. TI1 aa Moje ,n;o6po H notipo

Jhy6a-

H paaaajasr,

xoja he YBeK pa,n;l1-

H Y pealIHoM

cBeTY. Cse llITO je ,n;01Ia3HlIO

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3Ham1 cy MOjJ1pO~J1TeJbJ1 na ce ,,6JIaro" HaJIa3J1 y MeHJ1, y MOM KOpeHy. MojJ1 6J10JIOllIKJ1J1~yXOBHJ1HarOHJ1 cy qeKaJIJ1 na MeHe, qeKaJIJ1 na CafJIe~aM CBe caoje MoryhHOCTJ1, na cnosnaa ce6e Kp03 casropan, a je~J1HO je caao. pa~ npahen Jby6aBJbY. IIJ1Talli ce KaKBa je ynora MOjJ1XpO~J1TeJba 6J1JIa y CBeMYTOMe, aKO caM ~O csera Mopao ~ohJ1 caa. OrpOMHa je 6J1JIa lbJ1XOBa ynora, aJIJ1 3a~aTaK HJ1je 6J10 Te)KaK. Hy~J1JIJ1 cy MJ1aJIaTKe, Ha'lJ1He pana, Hy~J1JIJ1cy MJ1Moryhe aKTJ1BHOCTJ1, rrpexo KOjJ1XcaM crroaaasao ce6e, csoje 6pojHe J13BOpHe naro. He, csoje TaJIeHTe, lbJ1XOBYcaary, lbJ1XOBeMoryhHOCTJ1. Je~HO cy HerrpeCTaHO rrOHaBJbaJIJ1 MOjJ1pO~J1TeJbJ1: "MJ1 heMO Hy~J1TJ1,aJIJ1 nyr Mopalli npehx can, ys rrosroh rramer snarsa, naurer )Kl1BOTHOrJ1CKYCTBa,Hallie nonpurxe." HJ1Ka~a Me Hl1CY rp~l1JIJ1, spebana, OMaJIOBa)KaBaJIl1, 3aCTpallIl1BaJIl1, TYKJIl1. HJ1Ka~a Me HJ1CYxynonamr na 611X neurro ypanao, nporxs csoje BOJbe. Hxxana HJ1CYYMeCTO MeHe pa~J1JIl1 611JIOurra, llITO caM Morao ~a ypa~J1M caa, 3a60paBl1JIl1 cy aa rrpJ1Hy~y, na rr0311TJ1BHOYCJIOBJbaBalbe, xa npesaumrhaaan,e, na Bep6aJI113aM. IIpl1HQl1rr ~06pOBOJbHOCTl1, y J1360py caxro onor llITO je BO~J1JIOMOM rr0311TJ1BHOMpacTy, 6110 je 3aKOH KOjJ1ce nourrosao. 3aycTaBJbaJIl1 cy Me, ca naxohoxr, y cnaxoj aKTl1BHOCTl1xoja je 6J1JIa rrpOTJ1B MeHe, nporas npynrx, xoja HJ1je 6J1JIa y CPYHKQl1jl1 Mor xoaesnor pacra. PO~l1TeJbJ1 cy CTprrJbl1BO 11 6e3YCJIOBHO xexana pe3YJITaTe Mora pa~a. Pe3YJITaT je 6J10 YBeK Haj60Jbl1 jep je 6110 y CKJIa~y ca MOjJ1MrrCl1XocpJ13J1tIKl1M MoryhHOCTl1Ma, ca MOjJ1Mronaaasra )Kl1BOTa. )KJ1BeO caa 11pa~J10 y 'lOBe'lHl1M, XapMOHl1'lHl1M YCJIOBJ1Ma )Kl1BOTa,y CJI060~11, xoja je YBeK 611JIa npahena lbl1XOBOM11MOjOMJby6aBJbY. J13paCTaO caM y 'lOBe'lHO, XapMOHl1'lHO 11CJI060~HO 6J1he. PO~l1TeJbl1 cy caaxonaesuo rrJIaHJ1paJIJ1 pa~ rra MOMonrojy aa CTBapaJIallITBO, Hy~l1JIl1, MOTJ1Bl1CaJIJ1 Me aa 6pojHe aKTJ1BHOCTJ1, a MeHJ1~aBaJIJ1 CJIO60~y na rroayheno rrpJ1XBaTl1Ml1JIJ10~6aQJ1M, ~a aanoxaev, npexxaea, ~a ce rrOHOBOBpaTJ1M J1CTOjaKTJ1BHOCTJ1, aKO )KeJIl1M,MOTJ1BJ1CaJIl1 Me ~a HaCTaBl1M xana rrpJ1MeTe ~a caM pohea aa Ty aKTJ1BHOCT,aKO Ml1je aeurro ~pyro, y TOM 'rpenyrxy HeBa)KHO, rrpJ1ByKJIO nazosy, Y)KJ1BaJIJ1cy na rrocvarpajy KaKO ce Kp03 casropan J1caMOBaCrrJ1TaBaM. Henpecrano cy Me rrO~CTJ1QaJIl1 ~a rrpOHaljeM CBOj rryT casrocrroanaje Kp03 caaopan, "Je~J1HO caaopanosr, caMOaKTl1BHollIhy, caaooopaaoaarsew J1caaoaacnararsea MO)Kece OCTBapl1Tl1 cavocnosaaja", ynopao cy rrOHaBJbaJIl1 ponnren,a. HY~l1JIl1 cy MJ13~paBy xpaHy, YCJIOBesa 3~paB can, YCJIOBeaa 06aBJbalbe TeJIeCHJ1X aKTJ1BHOCTJ1,aa casropan, Hy~l1JIJ1 cy, a ja cast aenpecraao
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OCJIYllIKJ1BaOrrorpetie csora TeJIa, rrorpetie CBOjl1XJ13BOPHl1Xaarona. Cpue je HerrOrpellIJ1BO 6J1paJIo, Y3J1MaJIOl1JIJ10~6aQJ1BaJIO nonyheao. Kana caM ojaxao JIeTeO caM )KJ1BaXHOca noczmha aa neenah. YBeK casr Ta'lHO anao urra MOry 11KOJIJ1KO Mory. IIpBO Moje rrpalbe cyha, rrpalbe CBOjl1X xapanaua, npao 6p"Calbe rrpallIJ1He, 'lJ111Ihelbe ~BOpJ111ITa, crrpeMalbe TaBana ca ~eKOM, npaszsetse CeH~BJ1'la. 3a MeHe je CBe TO 6l1JIa BeCeJIa J1rpa. Ca~p)Kaj xrpe caM 6p30 3a60paBJbaO, aJIJ1 caM xyaao rr03J1Tl1BHe eMoQJ1je re xrpe J1rrpeHOCJ10 J1Xna CBaKl1pa~ KOjl1caa ~OQHJ1je 06aBJbaO Y)KJ1BOTY. Tajna Moje Jby6aBl1 npexa )KJ1BOTYJ1 pa~y JIe)Kl1 J1y TOMe llITO cy MOjl1 pO~l1TeJbJ1 CBaKO~HeBHO rrpaBJ1JIJ1 fJI06aJIHJ1 nnaa aKTl1BHOCTJ1,pe~OBHl1X rropO~l1'lHJ1X aKTl1BHOCTJ1. Ja casr, xao HajMJIaljl1 'lJIaH noponnne, J1MaO rrpnexcrno y 6J1palby aKTJ1BHOCTl1.BpJIO 'leCTO caM caKyrrJbalbe nrpasaxa OCTaBJbaOCTapJ1jl1Ma. HJ1CYMe rrpeKOpeBaJIJ1, snajyha ~a )KeJIJ1M~a ce onpo6aM rOTOBO y CBeMY,a na hy ce CBOjl1Ml1rpa'lKaMa Cl1ryPHO YCKOPOBpaTJ1Tl1. Y fJI06aJIHJ1 nnau noponxne YKJIarraO caM ce CBOjl1MMl1Hl1rrJIaHOM KaKO 6J1 )Kl1BOTY noponaun 6110 llITO rrpJ1jaTHJ1jJ1.CBaKO je 0~pa~110 rroneurro J1 TO 6allI OHO, llITO je BOJIeo. )Kl1BOT HaM je 6J10 necaa. Y6p30 caM Hayq110 na npasaa JIJ1'lHJ1nnaa CBOjl1XaKTl1BHOCTl1J1 06aaesa. PO~l1TeJbl1 cy ce ~06pOBOJbHO YKJIarraJIl1 CBOjl1MMl1Hl1rrJIaHOM y MOj JIl1'lHl1 nnarr. Taxo cy pe3YJITaTl1 Mora nrrana 611JIl1canpxcajaaja, 60raTl1jl1, a )Kl1BOTy nopomnm je 11nazse 6110 npnjaraa. )Kl1BOTje CPYHKQ110Hl1CaO aa rrp"HQl1rrl1Ma CTBapaJIa'lKOr sacnrrratsa: aa ,n;y60KOMpa3YMeBalbY, rro KojeM ce rrpl1XBaTa l1CTl1Ha~a cy KA3HA, HArPA,lJ;A, rrpesaurrahaaarse, Bep6aJI113aM l1 anoynorpetia l1Ml1TaTOpCKOr 06JIl1xa yxersa Y3POQl1 MyKa caspeveae noponnne: na rrpl1HQl1rry YBa)KaBalba rrpl1pO~HOr rropeTKa CTBapl1 (Maj'll1H rOBOp, CJIl1KOBHl1Qa, TeKCT 6e3 CJIl1Ke, rra Bl1pTyeJIHO, nere, nesojxa, MOMaK, onpacrao 'lOBeK 11zceaa, ~OKOJIl1Qa 3a ~eQY, MJIa~e, onpacne, canpzcaja sa ~eQY, MJIa~e, onpacne): na ~y60KOM rroBepelbY, y3 nasarse nerery caao rroxernax yrrYTCTaBa Y parry: aa ~y60Kl1M rrapTHepCKl1M, 6ecKOMrrpOMl1CHl1M O~HOCl1Ma; xa rrpl1HQl1rry notipoBOJbHOCTl111360pa casro oaora llITO BO~l1 rr03l1Tl1BHOMpacry, (He MO)Kece nere rrO~113aTl1 6e3 rrOCTaBJbeHl1X rpaHl1Qa, aJIl1 YBeK 11jenaao 6e3 Ka3He 11Harpa~e); aa crrOC06HOCTl1 npexanan.a JIaHQa HeraTl1BHOCTl1; aa 6P30M, 'lOBe'lHOM peurasarsy npotineaa, npaxaararsesr l1JIl1cnocotiaourhy npesaaaJICDKelba npotineva, na rrpl1HQl1rry caaopana KOjl1BO~l1caaocnosaaja, casropeaJI113aQJ1jl111 caMOOCTBapelbY, YBeK J1je~J1HO Kp03 Jby6aB; aa onpourrajy, Kao HOBOM rryTy, na rrpOMeHl1 CBeCTJ1;na rrpJ1HQl1rry pa~He, a He Bep6aJIHe ~eMOKpaTJ1je, xoja ce 3a'lJ1lbe y rropO~J1QJ1, y O~CyCTBy aYTOpJ1TaPHOCTJ1;
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HenpeCTaHOr

TaKMWqel-ba y CTBapal-bY n03WTWBHWX eMOU;l1:CMWllllbal-bY n03WTWBHWX aKU;l1:6e3YCTIOBnYTOKa3 sa .n;albW n03WTWBaH pacr, a

OHaTIHWX YCTIOBa )KWBOTa, HenpeCTaHOM ja; rra npwHu;wny no KojeM je rpelllKa He npe.n;MeT noncaexa

HeMa ayroarpecnje, arpecnje, csabe, Tyqe, u;wrapeTe, aJIKOXOTIa,.n;pore, jenHOM pesjy HeM a HACJ.1JbA. .. Ty WMa casio xyaatsa WYHanpe1)wBal-ba 3.n;paBlba, Ty J1Ma nocrenesor, aTIWcnrypuor

ocaajarsa xonexae

CBeCTW.)l{WBOT

W xazosaaaisa W HapaBHO na npwHu;wny

nor xexaisa rta CBWqTIaHOBW nopo.n;wu;e npJ1XBaTe npJ1HU;J1ne CB W pa3BJ1jy KTIWu;eJby6aBJ1 J1Ilotipore. Pe3YTITaTW Mora pa.n;a cy YBeK n03J1TJ1BHW,jep cy YBeK y CKTIa.n;yca MOjl1:M ro.n;J1HaMa, reHeTCKWM nOTeHu;wjaTIOM W TaTIeHTJ1Ma xoja MOjJ1 ponarersa. YKOTIJ1KOMJ1ponarezsa hJ1 CBe aaseneae npamnme, J1BaCnJ1TaqJ1 osroryhe ja YCTIOBeaa pa.n;, nourryjyWTaTIeHTJ1Ma. PeqJ1 cy MJ1 no.n;apJ1TIJ1

je npOTJ1u;aO y pa.n;OCTW,snpaazsy W 3a.n;OBOlbCTBY 0J10 caM na npaBJ1M MYKaMa xana je sazsano 0.n;a6paTW )KJ1BOTHWn03WB. Kp03 caxopan npocpecop,

casr onpofiao 6e36poj CBOjJ1XJ13BOPHJ1Xaarona, nposepao csoie TaTIeHTe. OTKPJ10 caM na ycnelllHo MOry 6J1TJ1nexap, nexap, anorexap,
J1H)Kel-bep, MeHaI,Iep, rnyMau; J1.n;a6J1X Kp03 CBaKY OBY aKTWBHOCT .n;aocsajaa qOBeqHY CBeCT. Morao .n;pyrl1Ma.n;a nOHy.n;WMHaj60lbJ1.n;eo ce6e, a na 6J1XCWryPHO Kp03 CBaKW on OBJ1Xn03J1Ba HaCTaBJ10 ycneunro J.1naK, onpe.n;eTIJ10caM ce sa My3J1Ky, jep je TO 6J10 MOj HajjaqJ1 HarOH, najjaqJ1J1Hajpa3BJ1jeHJ1jJ1 TaTIeHaT, a CaMJ1MTJ1MHaj60lbJ1 HaqJ1H.n;ace Kp03 n03J1B My3J1qapa HajycnelllHJ1je TIJ1Hay opxecrpy caMOpeaTIJ13yjeM. YnopHJ1M, OrpOMHJ1M caaopanox, caM npBa BJ10CBOjWM cpJ1TIXapMOHJ1jeJ1MY3J1qKW nenaror, Y)KJ1BajyhJ1 y caMOM pa.n;y J1CBeMY urro je npaTWTIO pa.n;nocrao nosopaume

hy YBeK .n;aTJ1 CBOj MaKCJ1MYM, KOjJ1je y CKTIa-

.n;y ca MOjJ1M ro.n;J1HaMa, WHTeTIeKTyaTIHJ1Mcnoc06HOCTWMa cy sa Hac 6wTIe sapxa J1 HWCMO WM npnnaaana snaxaj.

Y)KJ1BaTIJ1CMO y cnOC06HOCTJ1 .n;aCBaKO OqWTaBa exrouaje npyror, ua eMOU;WOHaTIHOrcraisa J1aexa YBeK cpu;e pa3roBapa je Moja MaMa. Hajcpehnaja craszsarsa

"Peqw cy nOCTIe.n;J1ca cpnesr,' TBp.n;WTIa ycneunror ycno-

CMO 6J1TIJ1xana CMO npen03HaBaTIJ1 na w3Mel)y

CTIYlllaOU;J1Ma,CBOjJ1MBaCnJ1TaHJ1U;WMa,a HapOqJ1TO CBOjOj .n;eu;wnecetixsno caM naaao Haj60lbJ1 neo ce6e Kp03 MyJJ1Ky. Kp03 My3J1Ky caM wx YBO.n;J10y )KJ1BOT,HenpecTaHo nourryjyhn npWHU;J1ne CTBapaTIaqKOr aacrnrrarsa. 3Hao caa na neaa n03J1Ba Kp03 xoja ce .n;pyrJ1 He MOry YBeCTJ1y )KJ1BOTna CTBapaTIaqKJ1M, QOBeqHJ1M npJ1HU;WnJ1Ma. Ila 6J1ce TO OCTBapJ1TIOnocrojana cy nsa YCTIOBa:BOTIeTJ1 OHO lllTO pa.n;Wlll, W6WTJ13HaTIau; csora nOCTIa, a 3HaTIau; ce nocraje pa.n;oM. [a casr, saxsazsyjyha caM pa.n;J1o, a caao Bpe.n;HJ1MWynopHwM BOTIeOCBe lllTO CBOjJ1Mpo.n;J1TelbWMa,6ecKpajHo

peqJ1 W cpu;a CTOjJ1 3HaK je.n;HaKOCTJ1.OWO je TO noxerax

paBHOTe)Ke w3Mel)y eMOU;WOHaTIHeWpaU;WOHaTIHe J1HTeTIWreHU;Wurazse oaaj KO J1Xyrryhyje HeKOM. CBW CMO pa.n; W)KJ1BOT

je, 6e3 xoje HwcaM Morao y )KWBOT. Kana cy peqw 6J1TIepY)KHe, nOKYlllaBaTIJ1 CMO .n;aOTKpJ1jeMo xojy nopyKy ce cnOHTaHO nWTaTIJ1na JIWje rpeunca y HaMa.

Kana caM MaTIO onpacrao,

Y noponaua, Tyre W crpaxa,

xana caM ca xaxohosr caananasao

y MOM cpu;y cy jaxane J13BOpHe eMou;wje, nOTIaKO aTIJ1CWryPHO aKO rpetia W xana rpeoa, aTIJ1HJ1jenna eMou;wja ce HJ1je nyro

KpeTaTIJ1 CMO ce BPTIWHCKWMnYTeM. Y HalllWM O.n;HOCJ1Ma 6WTIOje WlbYTl-be J1 HaCTIojaBaTIa, KpWBWTIa,nOTJ1CKJ1BaTIa.Pa3YM je 6J10 KOHTpOTIJ1CaHlby6aBlby J1.n;06POTOM, a lby6aB je nOKa3aTJ1 J1lbyTl-by J1Tyry J16pwry ... sapan saurrxre ce6e J1BOlbeHJ1X. Je.n;HOHaM je 6WTIOBa)KHO: 6p30 ycnocramrra Hy eMOU;WOHaTIHYXapMOHJ1jy. Y TaKBJ1M YCTIOBJ1Ma)KWBOTa HWKa.n;aHWKO Hwje snoyrrorpetin.asao crpax, Mp)Kl-be, rnena, noxnene, CTW,lby60Mope, MOj HJ1TWcy ce rOMWTIaTIe WCKpJ1BlbeHe J13BOpHe eMOU;J1jey BJ1.n;y6eca, TIel-bOCTJ1 TeTIa n nyxa, HeCBeCHOCTJ1, naKOCTJ1,3aBJ1YMHO)KaBaTIa, HWoana xana J1 HJ1oana xana ce aaura nopomma rrozsyzsa-

aajseha 3HaTIau; caM 6wo y My3J1U;W.Taj cnoj lby6aBJ1, pa.n;a,

pe3YTITaTe, KojwMa CMO

)Kelbe, aorse, aaaisa J1 J1CKYCTBa,je nasao orpoxme ce nOHOCWTIJ1 MOjw ponarersa Wja. CTIe.n;norahaja, y MOM )KWBOTY,je 6J10 npnponaa. .n;WU;J1 npJ1MaO Jby6aB. CBOjy J13a6paHwu;y. nopo.n;J1u;a. 060je

Ionaaaxa caM y nopo-

Kana caM 6J10 cnpeaaa .n;aJby6aB .n;aM,3aBOTIeO caM Kpyna naure lby6aBJ1 6J1TIa cy neua, nama HOBa, MaTIa
6TIara, Kp03 ponarezscrso. YcneTIJ1 CMO,jep npJ1MeHOM npan-

CMO 6wTIW nOTnYHo CnpeMHJ13a caMOpeaTIJ13aU;J1jy Haj60-

rser nena ce6e, caor yHyTpallll-ber

CMO3HaTIJ1na ce snpaazse QYBa W yaanpehyje y nopomma,

U;J1naCTBapaTIaQKOr aacnaraisa. Jby6aB CMO 3HaTIJ1na .n;ajeMo jenno .n;pyroM l1:CBOjOj neux, a aa Y3BpaT CMO .n;o6wjaTIw .n;eceTOCTpYKO amue. Hece6J1QHO caM CBOjOj w3a6paHWU;W Hy.n;J10sxaise CTBapaTIaQKOr sacnaraisa, a onna CMO ra cxyna, xapMOHWQHO npeHOCWTIWCBOjOj neua, Ilyro, BpTIO rryro, rpajao je nponec caaopeanasauaje Kp03 noponauy, PO.n;J1TelbCTBO, onaopana n03WB W6e36poj aKTWBHOCTWxoje cy 6wTIe YBeK W - 127-

je )KWBOT .n;OHOCWO np06TIeMe. 3HaTIJ1 CMO .n;aje.n;HOCTaBHO W6p30 npeKWHeMO nanau HeraTWBHOCTW, xana ce ron jasxo HeKW np06TIeM, y noponan cnryauaje. unrpe. BpTIO 6p30 CMO npeBa3WTIa3WTIWaenpnjarae .n;06pOTe. Ine HeMa HaneTOCTW Ty HeMa norpefie - 126HaneTOCT ce naMeTJ1,

Hwje CTBapaTIa. Ine nesra HaneTOCTW W HeMwpa, Ty WMa snpaan,a,

aa lbeHWM npa)Kl-bel-beM, Ty

je~l1Hl1 y <}lyHK~l1jl1llOpO~l1~e 113aHl1MaI-ba. Y'll1JIl1 CMOje~Hl1 O~ ~pyrl1x. HacTaBl1JIl1 CMOca caxocnoanajow CBOjl1X 113BOPHl1X narona, CBOjl1X TaJIeHara, CBOjl1Xnoreanajana, jep MHOrOrora Hl1CMO ycneJIl1 na ypa~I1MO y HajpaHl1jeM ~eTl1IbCTBy. YBenaBaJIl1 CMOcsoje yHyTpalUlbe 6JIaro, 113naaa y naa. Kpounsa je 6yjaJIa, nenpecraao crsapajyhn HOBe,CJIaTKenJIO~OBe.)KI1BOT je npOJIa3110. Ilaaac 113a6paHl1~e MOra cp~a nesra. Ibeaa nofipora )KI1BI1 Kp03 aaure nOTOMKe.[a npOBO~l1M 3peJIY, snpasy 11Tl1XyCTaPOCT,6JIa)KeH jep caa noxexao na y ~y60KOj CTapOCTl1Bl1~l1Mna MOjl1nOTOM~l1 saajy ~a ce anpaszse 'IyBa 11ynanpehyje y rroponaua. 3Hajy ~a je nopomma aJI<}la11oxrera )Kl1BOTa.O~aBHO ce Ben OHl1casropeanaayjy Kp03 n0311B KOjl1BOJIe11nopo~l1~y xojy cy C Jby6aBlby 0CPOPMl1JIl1.[a ce 3a~OBOlbHO CMelUKaM,jep caa no-rexao ~a Bl1~l1Mcsoje nOTOMCTBO3~paBO, naMeTHO 11cpehao, HapaBHO, ~a aacrasrsaa, ~a Haj6olbl1 neo ce6e, Hece611'1HOnapyjea nOTOM~l1Ma, CBI1M lby~l1Ma y MOMOKpY)KeIbY,~pylUTBy, npl1pO~l1. Moje snpanzse? 3~paB caM 11KpenaK cTapa~, Bory XBaJIa, aJII1 ce nOJIaKO, 6e3 cTpaxa, np"npeMaM sa rauteise. He )KaJIl1M.Bpeneo je )Kl1BOTy KojeM caM ce cavocrroanao, caMOpeaJI1130BaO 11caaoocraapao. Bpeneno je cno3HaTl1 ~a 'IOBeK )KI1Bl1,nOCJIe csoje cp11311'1Ke CMPTI1,OHOJIl1KO ~yro KOJII1KO )Kl1BenOTOM~l1 KOjl1sac BOJIe, lby~l1 11nena y xoje je 'IOBeK yrpa~l1o najtiolbl1 neo ce6e. J1 ~albe ~ajeM, jep 11M aM urra ~a ~aM. Moje yHyTpalUlbe 6JIaro je 'Iy~HO. lIITO ra nmue napyjea OHOce CBe nmue ysehaaa. Mopasr ~a np113HaM, l1Ma MeCTa 113a npxsraisa. Y nOBepelbY hy Tl1pehx na ca YHYKOM CO<}ll1jOM OBl1X nana cnoaaajev CBOjHecn03HaTl1 HarOH sa nJIeCOM.CaBJIa~aBaM xopaxe BaJI~epa, ranra, TBl1CTa11carrce. Cocpl1ja Ml1je najsehn nOMOnHl1Ky MOMcassopa~y xao lUTOcaM ja rso] aexana 6110 BO~l1'1Y cBeTY YMeTHOCTl111)Kl1BOTa, npaseha on Ibe YMeTHl1Ka)Kl1BOTa. CJI060~He care ca 3a~OBOlbCTBOMnocsehyjesr MaJIl1lUaHY113KOMlUl1JIYxa, nexaxy KOjl1l1Ma jour ceharse na 113BOPHYnpl1po~y CBOjy, xojy My Hl1CY l1CKPl1Bl1JIl1, ynpKoc lUTO iseroaa nopO~I1~a 3Ha carao sa rrpnauane ayropxrapnor aacmrratsa. Hece611'1Ho yBO~l1M MaJIl1lUaHa y rajne crnapana+ xor nacrnrraisa, y 'Iap06Hl1 CBeT MY3l1Ke,Hy~enl1 My CBe lUTO nocenyiea. mrcana CMOnexa 11ja. Ilpara 'Il1TaO'le, nl1CMOxoje re xexa y OBOjKlb11311 OH y'll1 O~ MeHe, ja O~ Ibera. Y~py)Kl1JIl1 CMOMoje )Kl1BOTHO11pa~HO l1CKyCTBO,MOjy My~pOCT, I1CKYCTBO CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacmrraisa, 11lberOBY xapMOHl1jy noaeceay pohersezs, xoja <}lyHK~110Hl1rne na npl1H~l1nl1Ma CTBapaJIa'lKOr nacnxraa,a, ynpKoc CBeMY.Kana ce y~py)Kl1 xapsronnja o~pacJIor 'IOBeKa 11xapsromrja nerera CBe nocraje Kpl1CTaJIHOjacno. Carzrenasajy ce npaan
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y3pO'lHI1~11 KOjl1pyrne xapxromrjy, orxpasajy ce nYTeBl1 xojasra ce xapMoHl1ja xyna l1JIl1ycnocraszsa, aKOje Ben HapyrneHa. Xapsromrja je npe~yCJIOB 3~paBlba 113aTO je sazsa O'lYBaTl1, a 'IyBa ce najfiozse y Kpyry nopO~l1~e, y o~CyCTBy nznnnaae 11peaJIHe npI1Hy~e. [a caM cana 'IJIaH 11lberOBe, a OHMoje nopO~l1~e. Ilpoxarajre 11Bl1"Ilopo~~HI1 6yKBap" ce6e 11Ibera pa~l1. Ilpoxarajre ra, jep CMOCBl1Ml1 iseroaa BeJIl1Karroponxua. MO)K~a heur 6arn Tl1 npxjarezsy, 611Tl1lberOB rrporpecop, Bl1, rocnoho rseros nexap. Bl1 MJIa~a ~aMO, MO)K~ahere Bl1 611Tl1113a6paHl1ua n.eroaor cp~a, Bl1, na Bl1 rocnonaae, rseros rrperrrocraszseaa na nocny, a Bl1 npeCBeTJIl1, iseros CBernTeHI1K, a Bl1, Bl1 YBa)KeHl1rocnonnae, MO)K~a here 6arn Bl1 611Tl1npencenaax iserose sesose. CBl1 CMOMI1je~Ha BeJIl1Ka noponxna, a snpaazse ce 'IyBa 11ynanpehyje y noponaux. J1Ma JIl1nexor ~a TO He )KeJIl1?He )KeJIl1Te,BI1?! Y pe~y. To je Barn 11360p. ,lJ;OBOlbHO je urro CTe CTpnlbl1BO rrpo-nrrana MOjy npl1'1y. Ilpo-nrrajre je 6ap jour je~HoM. Bahe 11TO ~OBOlbHO.XBaJIa! A cana sac nperryurrasr nexaxy 0 KojeM BaM rOBOpl1M. J1MajTe nosepeisa y isera 11lberoBY npl1'1y. To je nexa~a 6l1JIa 11Barna npl1'1a, caao CTeje 3a6opaBl1JIl1 jep je aYTOpl1TapHOCTYsacnl1TalbY 611JIa 11OCTaJIa Barn np06JIeM.

IIJ1CMO IIOPO~J1I{J1 ,lJ;PAfM MOJM, MaMa, Tan, 6aKo, nexo, CTpl1'1e, CTpJllHa, yjxo, yjna, TeTKe, Te'le ... BaCIIJIlTa'lJll~e, y'lJllTelbJll~e, HaCTaBHJIl~e, npotpecopn, nexapn, qy~a TeXHOJI' . ornje ... JIlCBJIlKOJJIlaa AHpeKTaH JIlJIJIl JIlHAHpeKTaH uaxaa, xpahe JIlJIJIl ~y)f(e apesre, yxecrnyjere y MOMBaCIIJIlTaIbY. Basra ce otipahaa OBJILM nJllCMOM . CTe BJilMOJa . BeJIJIlKa IIOpO~JIl~a. [a 6e3 aac He MOry. Ba 6e3 , Jep MeHe MO)f(eTe, aJIJIlca MHOMJIlMaTe BeJIJIlKeuraace ~a ~yXOBHO pacrere. Ko caM ja?! [a casr nere xoje he csoje ~eTl1IbCTBO 11MJIa~OCT, ueo CBOj npoxoraer y 2l. BeKy. OTKy~ Ml1 rrpaBo rta BaM ce 06paTl1M, rnrra)KI1BOT Tece " CaM 11CTe MI1~aJII1 npaBo, KpaJeM . osor aexa ~a 6y~eM rocno~ap nopo~I1Qe, a TO O~ nac Hl1CaMrpaxoro. Oryna Moja norpetia ~a BaM ce 06paTl1M, y I1Me . CBe neue, KOJa cy, xao 11ja, )KpTBe Barner aesaarsa. Hcxpeno hy, 113 CBoJe pasna, npaxasarn KaKOja Bl1~l1Mname 3a6JIy~e, 36m KOjl1XCBe saute Ao6peHaMep e y nomrsarsy nOTOMaKa, na~aJY . YBO~y. Ilosroha hy BaM, nosialIo Bac 11K . to Jb 6 pl1Tl1KYJYlll1,ca l1CKpeHOM)KelbOMna ysenere Barny nopO~I1~y y Y aa, aa npl1H~l1nl1Ma CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacrnrran,a.
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Ilanac, Ha)KaJIOCT,ja )KapMM, rraJIMM, JIy,n;yjeM, ,n;OHOCMM O,n;JIYKe, yueisy. jeM, JIeH'JapMM, cnasaa ,n;aI-bY, )KMBMM nohy, a aKO rpetia Mynapxhy oaora KO MMCTaHe na rryT. OTKY,n;MMOBOJIMKaxpatipocri Xpa6ap caM jep y BaUIMM pYKaMa He BM,n;MM 6aTMHY. Y CTBapM, "cTpyql-ba~M" cy TaKO o,n;pe,n;MJIM na 6M 3alllTMTMJIM MeHe, rrOTpOllla'la Ha,n; rrorpoura-nora. CTaBMJIl1 cy Me na npecro. BM rrpOM3Bo,n;l1Te,panxre, sapahyjere, a ja TPOIlll1M. Iyraa CBe, on )KBaKe, rrasmepca, rrpeKO Mrpa'laKa, CBliX rrorpetiaxx MHerrOTpe6HMX CTBapl1, npexo IllKOJIl1~a, KOJIeI,Ja,xoxnjyrepa, CBMXTeXHl1'1Kl1Xno crnrnyh a l1... CBe IllTO je jyxe npoaaseneao, nanac je 3aCTapeJIO l1 Mopa ce 6a~MTl1. Ilocrao caM HOBl1 xpearop CBeTa. Ilpasaa HOBe rrJIaHMHe on nenoanja ornana. C JIaKOnOM YHl1IllTaBaM 6l1CTPMHYpeKa M Mel-baM ~eJIOKyrrHl1 l13rrre,n;npnpone, xrpajyha ce Bora. CBe Te CTBapl1 xoje Ml1 nynnre cy rrorrYT OHe KO~Ke urehepa xoja ce naje )Kl1BOTl1l-baManpa ,n;pecypM. Cana CTe, nparn ponarezsn, Hay'll1JIl1 zta 6aTl1Ha, rpy6a pe'l, rrCOBKa, Hl1CYaa ~l1Bl1JIl130BaHy nopo,n;l1~y. OCTaJIa BaM je caao 6JIara npMHy,n;a, n03l1TMBHO ycnosrsaaaise (noopa, CTapa, KO~Ka urehepa), npeaanrrahaaaise MBep6aJIl13aM. ] a caa aecrainaa, nenocnymaa, 06eCTaH, HerroKopaH, ny,n;lbMB, arpeCl1BaH. TaKaB casr, jep l1MaM BJIaCT. ]e,n;MHOMe, aa KpaTKO, MO)KeTe CMl1pl1TM aauron HOBOM KO~KOM urehepa. 3aXTeBaM, Kyrrl1Te, nornenaa, l13JIOMl1M,a onna, CBe MCrrO'leTKa. Tpe6a rrpo,n;aTl1 CBe Te xojeurrapnje. MO)K,n;a l1 Bl1 rpzsare pYKe, aJIl1 CTe 3a60paBl1JIl1, ,n;aCTe l1 Bl1 ponrrrezsn. ql1TaM BaM MMCJIl1:"BpaTMneMO Ml1 6aTl1HY l1 YKJIOHl1Tl1retie ca BJIaCTl1!" 3Hao caa. Hnurra ,n;pyro Hl1 He 3HaTe. Xazsane ronana ce BpTl1Te y Kpyry CKJIepOTl1'1HOr, ayropnrapaor Cl1CTeMasacmrrarsa, a cana CTe )KpTBa CJIyry Cl1CTeMa, KOjMsmue Hl1 He nocroja. YMl1llllbaTe na ce neurasa neurro "H e, HeMa HM'Ier CYIllTl1HCKMHOBor, ,n;OKcy HOBO, xana BaM noayne "HOBO. ronnuamr BaCrrl1THl1 Mo,n;eJIl1y BalllMM pYKaMa. fIOHy,n;l1JIl1cy BaM nmnuaHe, ca ~l1lbeM o-rynaisa CTapor, npeaaanbeaor BaCrrl1THOr Cl1CTeMa. ]e,n;l1HO HOBO, Y l1CTOPl1jl1 CTape noponxue, je 6l1JIa <popMaJIHa CMeHa BJIaCTl1. MaJIo je MaMa Ha,n;l1rpaBaJIa TaTY, nOTOM rara MaMY, a ja caxr YBeK 6110 p06. J1 TaKO BeKOBl1Ma. CaMO je,n;HoM,a TOje nanac, ja, BeKOBHl1p06 nocranox rocnonap ("HaIllJIa ce Bl1JIa y '1eM' Hl1je 6MJIa"). Kao IllTO Bl1,n;l1Tecasro HOBl1 rocnonapn l1 HOB pacrropen nasrenrraja, a CBMaanpxcanajy CTapa onpotiaaa cpencrna aacn'raisa: fIPJ1HYJJ:Y, fI03J1TJ1BHO YCJIOBJhABAI-hE, fIPE3AIIITJ1'BMBAI-hE, BEPEAJIJ13AM J13JIOYfIOTPEEY J1MJ1TATOPCKOr OEJIMKA yqEI-hA. CTAJIHE fIOJJ:EJIE J1 TPA)KEI-hE KPJ1B~A.
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TAlliE, jep OHO npl1JIl1'1l1 fIOPOJJ:J1~J1 U )KJ1BOTY Y 21. sexy. He 6y,n;eTe JIl1 l1CIlYHl1JIl1saury M MOjy norpetiy. ,n;a ce npecypa '10BeKa UHe Ml1 MaJIl1lllaHl1 Ben Kp03 HeKOJIl1KOrOAl1Ha, 6l1neMO p060KOHa'lHO y K t.. Te noaaiuatse reunco KaHaJIl1CaTl1 l1 KOHTpOJIl1CaTl1.P060T cpu;a TU '1uJe He l; KO cpu;a HeMa TaJ' He 3Ha Hl1 sa cpehy, HU sa necpehy. AKO AOI)e TO a HeMa, BpeMe, a namena ,n;OJIa3l1,'10BeK p060T npOTepane '10BeKa ca OBe npenasHe nJIaHeTe. He BepyjeTe?! He ,n;03BOJIMTena 6y,n;eTe CBe,n;OU;l1. Carao MOJIl1Yl , '

re Bora Aa ce p060Tl1 He rr06YHe. qOBeK l1Ma MorynHocT Aa rrpl1Ml1 HOBO M he HOBl1Mrryrexr, p060T He. qOBeK MO)Ke na nosene paT l1 Aa ra saycranOI) . 6' BU. KaA p060T xpene, paryje no nornynor YHl1IllTelba, Jep pO OT Je OTBOpeH caMO sa [enaa nyr, aa oaaj KOjl1je y lbeMY yrrMcaH. fIJIaIlll1M sac! AaJIeKO on rora. CaMO noxymasaa na BaM YKa)KeM na je 6y,n;ynHocT CBeTa y pYKaMa CTBAPAJIAqKE I10POAJ1U:E. KOpMl1JIO )KUBOTa l1ManeTe y CBOjl1MpYKaMa xana ce o,n;JIy'll1Te aa CTBAPAJIAqKO BACI1J1TAI-hE, AYEOKO PA3YMEBAlbE :>KJ1BOTA, 3A ,JJ;YEOKE fIAPTHEPCKE OJJ:HOCE, KO]J1 HJ1CY 3ACHOBAHJ1 HA KOMfIPOMJ1CY, BE'B JhYEABJ1, 3A ,JJ;YEOKO fIOBEPElbE, 3A HAIBJ1IIIJ1 OEJIJ1K yqEI-hA, 3A CAMOPA)J;, CAMOYQEfbE, CAMOOEPA30BAI-hE J1 CAMOBACfIJ1TAfbE, KO]E 'BE OTBOPJ1TJ1 HOBE CfIOCOEHOCTJ1 HAlliEr YMA J1 fIOJJ:MRM CBECHOCT qOBEKA HA HECJIYREHE BJ1CMHE; KA)J;A CBO]MM PO)J;MTEJhMMA OfIPOCTMTE HE3HAlbE, KA)J;A fIPECTAHETE )J;A CE EOPMTE fIPOTMB fbMX, KA,JJ;A CE J1 BJ1M OHM OKPEHETE 3HAlbY HOBOr CTBAPAJIAqKOr KOHQEfITA BACfIJ1TAfbA. He nnaunrre ce, CBe je JIaKO jep je y CKJIa,n;yca npl1pOAHOM xapaonJOMKojy l1Ma '10BeK. Y CTBapl1, BaMa je 6l1JIO remxo y CTapOM 06JIl1Ky aacrnrrau,a, jep CTe rrmraana Y3BO,n;HO. PYIllMJIl1 CTe xapMoHMjy '10BeKa. Ilanac }l(l1Bl1Tena Tl1M pa3BaJIl1HaMa. CaMO xpa6po peU;l1Te: ",JJ;A", CTBAPAJIAqKOM BACfIJ1TAI-hY. BeKOBl1Ma je av-roptrrapao BaCITVlTal-be,n;eJIl1JIO neuy or; pornrrersa, sayCTaBlhaJIO n03l1TMBaH pacT '10BeKOBe CBeCTl1.He 3aHOCMTece Aa '10BeK ,n;aHac I1Ma Bl1111l1 AYXOBHl1pacT, OA'10BeKa rrpeTxOAHMX BeKOBa. CTBapl1 cy nopaClIe, HapO'll1TO opyzcje, '10BeK He.
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CTBapaJIa'fKO aacmrraise cnaja neuy J.1pO)l,J.1Telbe,yKJ.1)l,aCBe <PPOHTOBeJ.1 )l,OHOCJ.1 casnaise )l,a HeMa KPJ.1BJ.1X. CTBapaJIa'fKJ.1M BaCIIJ.1TalbeM lby)l,J.1IIpBO )l,O)f(J.1BeII03J.1TJ.1BaHpaCT y IIOpO)l,J.1U;J.1, a IIOTOM rpa)l,e )l,PYlliTBO J.1)f(J.1BOT KojJ.1JIJ.1'fe aa lbJ.1X.,IJ;a JIJ.1CTe CXBaTJ.1JIJ.1 KOJIJ.1KO CTe BJ.1Ba)f(HJ.1?IIopO)l,J.1ua je crapxja on )l,pyIIITBa, IIOpO)l,J.1u;aKpeJ.1pa )l,pyIIITBO, 6e3 IIOpO)l,J.1u;e)l,pyIIITBO He IIOCTOjJ.1. ,IJ;parJ.1 MOjJ.1,He 3aMepJ.1Te na 036J.1lbHOCTJ.1osor IIJ.1CMa.BeKOBJ.1Ma CTe 6J.1JIJ.1 y 3a6JIy)l,J.1na caM ja BaIIIa J.1rpa'fKa J.1BPIIIJ.1JIJ.1 CTe J.1H<paHTJ.1JIJ.13aU;J.1jy Mor )f(J.1BOTa,J.1JIJ.1 caM 6J.10 BaIII p06. Mozena he aac OBO IIJ.1CMO IIoKpeHYTJ.1 na II03J.1TJ.1BaHpacr, na paCT CBeCHOCTJ.1. To J.13Ha)l,csera )f(eJIJ.1M.He 'fY)l,J.1re ce IIITO caM IIPBJ.1rocnonap y J.1CTOPJ.1jJ.1 CBeTa KOjJ.1)f(eJIJ.1)l,a ce onpexae IIpeCTOJIa. )l(J.1BOTy 21. BeKY he J.1MaTJ.1 .xxjepapxajy" xoja nehe JIJ.1'IJ.1TJ.1 aa naaaunsy, EJ.1he TO CTBapaJIa'IKa xnjepapxaja 3aCHOBaHa xa )l,y60KJ.1MIIapTHepCKJ.1MO)l,HOCJ.1Ma, aJIJ.1he ce 3HaTJ.1)l,a cy nena, 6a6a J.1pO)l,J.1TelbCTapJ.1jJ.1 on MeHe. BJ.1CTe MOjJ.1BO)l,J.1'IJ.1. HJ.1caM BaM ja sa IIpecTo. CJ.1JIa3J.1M! He IIelbJ.1Te II0)l,J.1)f(J.1Te CBOjy ce, MOJIJ.1M sac! He IIelbJ.1Te ce, na nerrocrojehy 11J.1paMJ.1)l,y. )l,BOCTpyKy IIJ.1paMJ.1)l,y, yHyTap ce6e. YJIaCKOMy CTBapaJIa'fKO BaCIIJ.1Talbe CBaKO on Hac he rrOCTaTJ.1,aajsspIIIha rrJ.1paMJ.1)l,a, nocrahe ,IJ;JII]AMAHT. A )l,J.1jaMaHT je )l,J.1jaMaHT,Haj'IBpIIIhJ.1, u;eJIOBJ.1T, a caao u;eJIOpaarosapa ca u;eJIJ.1M Kp03 lby6aB, caao u;eJIO, pa)l,J.1aa ,IJ;06po xoaexa, )l,PYIIITBa J.1rrpJ.1po)l,e, aa notipo nerera, sa notipo rrOTOMaKa. YKOJIJ.1KO sac je rrJ.1CMO noxpenyno, 'IJ.1TajTe narse. He 60pJ.1Te ce rrpOTJ.1B CTBAPAJINIKOr BACIIJ1ITAIhA. BOJIe sac J.1xexajy aac crpnzsnao: HA]MJIA1)JII qJIAH BaIIIe noponnue J.1,IJ;PBO,IJ;06pJ.1u;a AyTOpJ.1TapHJ.1 CJ.1CTeM sacrnrrarsa, rserose cnyre xoje naaac rrpaBe xaoc na rrJIaHeTJ.1CMO)l,eMJ.1CTJ.1<pJ.1KOBaJIJ.1. Y'IJ.1HJ.1MO TO J.1ca CTBapaJIa'IKJ.1M aacmrrarse, )l,eMJ.1cTJ.1<pJ.1KyjyhJ.1 rrpmnnme na KojJ.1Ma noxxsa noponnua rpeher MJ.1JIeHJ.1jYMa, CTBapaJIa'IKa rropO)l,J.1u;a. KpeHJ.1MO on ...

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anac, xao HJ.1Ka)l,ano cana, 'IOBeK J.1Maorposmo anaise 0 ce6J.1 xao )l,e~y rrpJ.1,L-J,pO)l,e, 0 )l,pyrJ.1M lby)l,J.1Ma,0 rrpnpona. JlICToBpeMeHO 'IOBeK HJ.1Ka)l,HJ.1JeMalbe pa3YMeo ce6e, )l,pyIIITBO, rrpJ.1po)l,y. HJ.1Ka)l,HJ.1je6J.1JIOMalbe XapMOHJ.1jey noponaxHJ.1M, )l,PYllITBeHJ.1MO)l,HOCJ.1Ma, y O)l,HOCJ.1Ma Met)y rrOJIOBJ.1Ma,y O)l,HOCJ.1Ma lby)l,J.1y pannoa oKpY)f(elbY, y O)l,HOCJ.1Ma BJIaCTJ.1J.1napona, y O)l,HOCJ.1Ma 60raTJ.1X J.1CJ.1pOMaIIIHJ.1X ... OCTaJIa je XapMOHJ.1ja casro y )l,eJIY'IOBeKa, y )l,eJIy YMeTHOCTJ.1J.1)l,eJIy npnpone. CBe rrpOJIa3He "Bpe)l,HOCTJ.1" xoje cy Ba[KJ.1JIey rrpOIIIJIJ.1MBpeMeHJ.1Ma, xoje ce crsapajy nanac, rrnxsajy aa rrJIO'IJ.1)f(J.1BOTaJ.1orpOMHOM CHarOM rrpJ.1BJIaxe rrJIJ.1IIIaHereaepaunje. II pe)f(J.1BeJIa cy J.1nena HenpOJIa3HJ.1X Bpe)l,HOCTJ.1,J.1nanac rroje)l,J.1HU;J.1 crnapajy nena nenponaana, aJIJ.1OHa HJ.1CYrrpe)l,MeT J.1HTepeCOI~alba caBpeMeHor xosexa. Ta nena cy nanac y MpaKy, anx he YCKOPOCJ.1HYTJ.1 Y CBOj CBOjoj JIerrOTJ.1,nena xoja he qOBeK cTBapalla'IKe CBeCTJ.1 Ha)l,BJ.1CJ.1TJ.1 CBOjJ.1M )f(J.1BOTOM, jep he )f(J.1BeTJ.1 )f(J.1BOT 60rOQOBeKa. qOBeK nanac, na BPXYHU;y aYTOpJ.1TapHOCTJ.1 J.1ry6J.1TKa 'fOBe'fHOCTJ.1 J.1CJI060ne, rroKYIIIaBa)l,a aahe KpJ.1Bu;aKOjJ.1 My yopsaao YHJ.1IIITaBa,6JIaro 6e3 xojer isercs )f(t1BOTHe npemr, ry6J.1 CMJ.1Cao.CaMO ,IJ;YEOK: PA3YMEBAIhEM 'IOBeK MO)f(e ca3HaTJ.1 J.1rrpJ.1XBaTJ.1TJ.1 )l,a je je)l,J.1HJ.1 KpJ.1Bau;J.1jenxaa rrperrpeKa iseroso rr03J.1Tt1BHOM'IOBe'IHOM pacTy, nanac, rrJIHIIIaHa J.1peaJIHa rrpJ.1Hy)l,a, IIET cnyry ayroPt1TapHor CJ.1CTeMa,CJ.1CTeMaKOjJ.1BJ.1IIIe He nocrojn. IIpJ.1XBaTJ.1TJ.1 OBY J.1CTJ.1HY, oc rro 6 O)l,J.1TJ.1 .. ce ner BaCrrJ.1THJ.1X MO)l,eJIa, 3Ha'IJ.1 BpaTJ.1TJ.1 XapMOHJ.1jy ce 6 J.1,CBOJO) nopO)l,HU;t1,)l,PYIIITBYH rrpHpO)l,H.

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Bnara rrpJ.1Hy~a, rr03HTHBHO ycnonrsaaaise, neptiarrnaast, rrpe3alllTHnHBalbe , snoynorpeoa HMHTaTOpCKOr 06nHKa yqelba pYllle xapxromrjy xojy qOBeK ~OHOCJ.I poheisesr. Ha lbHXOBHMTeMelbHMa He MO)KeHHnH 06nHK yqelba npasrepea qOBeI<y rpeher MHneHHjYMa, CAMOyqEIhE. Be3 CAMOyqEIi>A, CAMOPA,1J;A, pa~a c lby6aBlby He MO)Kece y HOBH MHneHHjYM. Il03HTHBHe, H3BopHe eMo~Hje ce KPHBe, aacnojaaajy, norncxyjy H TaKBe, HaKa3He 6yjajy, y CBeTY y KojeM )KI1BI1MO~aHac. Ilanac nonaxo "HeCTajy" 11rr0311THBHe 11HeraTI1BHe eMo~l1je, qOBeK CBe amue nl1'IJ.I na 6e30cenajHor p060Ta. Pa~110HanHa 11exromronanna paBHOTe)Ka je HapYllleHa y KOPI1CTpa~l1oHanHor, y KOPI1CT"HeraTI1BHHX", I1CKpl1BlbeHI1XeMo~l1ja, HaI<a3HJ.lX MHCnl1 11rrorytinax axuxja. ,1J;y60KOMopaMO pa3YMeTI1 11I1crryHI1TI1 norpefiy 'IOBeqaHCTBa ~a qOBeK rrpeCTaHe ~a rypa CH311<pOBKaMeH y3 6p~o, jep ce 6p~0 otiypnano. Mopaao paayveTI1 3aKOHHTOCTI1aYTopHTapHor CI1CTeMa sacrnrrarsa xoje HI1 y Tpa~I1~110HanHoj rroponaua Hl1je noaaozsasao ~yXOBHI1 paCT xoaexa. 3aKOHI1TOCTH ayropnrapaor CI1CTeMacy 6Hne: Ayropnrapaa xajepapxnjcxa opramrsauaja )KHBOTa OTBopeHOCT aa "HOBO" EKBH<pI1HanHOCT OBe 3aKOHI1TOCTHCI1CTeMacy snanarre qOBeKOM, a He qOBeK lbl1Ma. Ayropirrapaa xnjepapxajcxa opraaasanaja, na ql1jeM BpXy je 6HO MylllKapa~ 611na je qBPCTa, jacaa, noxxsana je na CTpaxy O~ Ka3He H jacHI1M rrpaBl1nHMa. CI1CTeMje norryurrao caao OHO"HOBO" lllTO cnY)KH OqYBalbY caaor CI1CTeMa.EKBI1<pI1HanHOCT,3Haql1 na je xpajisa pesynrar, no ynobeisy "HOBor", Mopao 611TI1xao rrpeTXO~HI1. Oxyearse CI1CTeMa je YBeK 611no, 113Ha~ csera. Mea-ana cy ce lby~I1, rrpaBl1na, Bpe~HOCTI1, ana CHCTeMHI1Ka~. qOBeK je 6HO y cnY)K611 oxynatsa Tor CI1CTeMa. Ha cpehy ayTopl1TapHI1 CI1CTeMce YPYllll10, ynacKoM xonexa y TeXHonOlllKY pesonyuajy, BpeMe eKBI1<pHHanHOCTI1je saspiueao. Tpehn Ml1neHl1jYMje Ml1neHI1jyM ~yXOBHOCTI1jep je paCT MaTepHjanHor 3aBpllleH. Bpeae je na ce I1cxapMoHl13yje MaTepl1janHo 11~yXOBHO, rrpBO y qOBeKY, a rrOTOM~a ce Ta nenora MaHI1<peCTyje Y crrozsaunsesr CBeTY. Ilanac, ca rryno OrrTHMI13Ma, Mory peha na je qOBeK cnpeMaH sa HOBO, jep je ayTopl1TapHa rrl1paMI1~a cpYllleHa, a ca lbOM H ayropnrapaa xnjepapxnjcxa opranasanaja )KI1BOTa. OHO lllTO KOql1yopsaa ~yXOBHI1paCT xoaexa jecy aYTOpl1TapHI1 BaCnl1THI1MO~enl1 xoje HeMa KO~a 3aycTaBI1. To he MOpaTI1 ~a yql1HH CBaKHqOBeK noaaocoe, YKOnl1KO )Kenl1 na 6y~e CBe~OK rrpenerror BpeMeHa, xoje je Ben CTl1rnO, anl1 ce TeWKO rrpenosaaje 360r rtorrnase aYTopl1TapHor ana, Jlas je Hajjaql1 xana yMl1pe. A rrnJlluraaa YMI1PY,~pecypa xoaexa necraje 6ecrroBpaTHo, 6Y~I1Te Cl1ryPHI1.
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3Halbe 0 cnorsaunsesr, 0 MaTepl1janHoM, nanac je orpoMHo, sehaaa TI1Xsaaa,a cy IlOTIlYHOnpeBa3J1l1)eHa 116ecrroTpe6Ha. 3Halbe 0 ~yXOBHOM, YHYTpallllbeM rrOCTO'JIly JIl306J1llbY,anH qOBeK Hl1je crrpejaan aa isera. ,1J;YXOBHO suaise je qYBaHo BeKO~JIlMa, Kp03 Klbl1re, 06Hqaje, otipene, yrnaBHoM je 611no na HI1BOYYMa, xa HI1BOY JIlMJIlTaTOpCKor. CBe je TO 6Hno norpetiao na ce He yracJIl 11nocnemsa )Kl1lllKa nyxa pora )KJIlBora y nasra. ,U01la3J1lspesre, y KojeM he yKJIl~albeM rrpl1Hy~e, yKJIl~albeM Ka3He H Harpane, qOBeK y~ellOBHTI1 ce6e, I1cXapMOHJIl30BaTI1 MaTepJlljallHo 11P;YXOBHOY ce611 11 IloKpeHYTJIl nllaMeH nyxa 60)Kl1jer y ce6J1l. Ha TOMCMOnyry, alll16e3 rrpBor npaa~JIlna, rrpJllH~l1rra ,1J;YBOKOr PA3YMEBAfhA 11npaxsararsa I1CTI1Hena cy y3po~JIl3acToja naurer ~yxoBHor paCTa, naaac: IlET ayroparapnax BaCrrl1THI1XMo~ella (Ka3Ha, narpana, npe3alllTI1nl1Balbe, Bep6anl13aM 11anoynorpetia I1MI1TaTOpCKor 0611J1lKa yqelba). OHI1 KOjl1cy ~OHelll1 rr0311TI1BHY onnyxy, nexa KpeHy na nyro, rrllO~OHOCHOrryToBalbe xoje ~OHOCl1CTBAPAnAqKO aacrnrrarse. Yn03HajTe ce ca MOjl1M11BalllI1M...

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J1J-1TEJIJ1fEHIJ;J1JE J1 QOBEQHOCTJ1, 3A CBE rrOTOMKE, ~fY1JIJ1 MOJJ1. Ee3 I-bJilX xapsronaja HJilje Moryha.

rrPETKE

J1 BAC,

CUlUJlCeM! OUlKpujUle

MU lleUOUlY JlCU80Ula!

M3BOPHMM OlJEKMBAfbMMA

TaKO MJilje npnjarao, ronno, He)KHO, yrozmo, XapMOHl1qHO y MaMJilHOMCTOMaKy. ,n:parJil rara, 6y.n;11aaxsanaa MaMJilrnTO he rseaa yrpotia 6arn MeHe nonapnTJil)KJilBOTy. [a caM rrona rx, rrona OHa. [a caM QeJIo. He Ma3Jil rara, casto CBOjy rrOJIOBJilHY.Ey.n;l1 .n;BOCTPYKOHe)KaH, .n;BOCTPYKOnaxe'ran, jep je MaMa pe6po rsoje, raoja nozrosxna, oner QeJIo. Y)KJilBajTe .n;OKrrpl1po.n;a pa.n;Jil sa CBe Hac.

3a

cpehy je

uOUlpe6HO UlaKCI siano

Csahy, 6YKY, HepB03y, He nonnocioa. Kana MaMJil 3aKYQa cpue on crpaxa 11 Moje 6Jilje y JilCTOMpJilTMy. J1MajTe caste rroaepersa y )KJilBOT11crpnzsnso, 6e3vcnonao qEKAJTE. ,n:OKxexare noroaopnre ce ca qnaHOBl1Ma nopomnie (6a60M, .n;e.n;OM, TeTKOM,

a OBOMrrYToBaI-bYBa)KaH caM ja. [a caM 113BOPBarner .n;YXOBHor3a.n;OBOlbCTBa 11oaaj KOjl1 he 11aaxra oMoryhl1Tl1 QOBeqHl1 pacr. [a Hy.n;l1MrrpaBe spenaoCTl1, a CTBAPAJIAqKO BACITJ1TAIhE Hy.n;l1snarse na He 3aJIYTaMO na nyry.na ce He rrcrytiasro xao y aYTOpl1TapHOM Cl1CTeMYnacmrraisa, y KojeM je CBe 611JIO Ba)KHl1je on nac 11MeHe. CTBAPAJIAqKO BACITJ1TAIhE YQl1 .n;aje CBe na cBeTY, 6arn CBe: Barn 11MOj pa.n;, CBe .n;YXOBHe 11MaTepl1jaJIHe Bpe.n;HOCTl1 ... CBe, CBe je y CJIY)K611 Harner .n;YXOBnor pacra, oceharsa 3a.n;OBOlbCTBa11cpehe y aaurea TOrrJIOMnosry, CBe je y <PYHKQl1jl1 onrajaisa snpaaor; qeCTl1TOr rrOTOMCTBa. Moja OqeKl1BaI-ba?! J1cTa cy xao 11nama!' Hl1CY BeJIl1Ka, Hl1Tl1l1Xje reunco ncrryHl1Tl1. C npanov ovexyjexro: OqYBAIhE XAPMOHJ1JE KOJY CY HAM PO)JJ1TElhJ1 ITO,n:APJ1JIJ1 ( na je fiaxa TO 3HaJIa, .n;parJil rara, HJilKa.n;aHe 6Jil .n;03BOJIJilna .n;aJIJiljern cy3e nan npenyaav ratsnpoxr). Y uearap aacmrrarsa CTaBJilTe pexa, arnr JilXncrrymrre qOBeqHJilM ca.n;p)KajeM (,n:YEOKO PA3YMEBAIhE, OITPOlllTAJ PO,n:J1TElhY, ,n:YEOKO ITOBEPEIhE, ,n:YEOKJ1 ITAPTHEPCKJ1 O,n:HOCJ1, CAMOPA,n:, CAMOOEPA30BAITIE, CAMOBACITJ1TAIhE, EE3YCJIOBHO qEKAIhE). CBe peqeHO, MO)KeTe OCTBapara, YKOnJilKOce onpexirere onaxnx JilrpaqaKa. Bazsna CTe no cana CXBaTJilnJil.n;a Mopa na ce onpexnere rrpJilHy.n;e, rr03JilTJilBHOr yczroan.aaan,a, rrpe3arnTJilhJilBaIba, Bep6anJil3Ma JilMopaTe CTaBJilTJil non KOHTPOJIYBJilPTyenHy ryBepHaHTy. TeK nOlllTO O.n;JIO)KJilTe opyzqe CTapor aacmrrxor CJilCTeMa, Moryhe je ocrnaperse BPXOBHJilX eTJilqKJilXJil.n;eallanoponaue: rrCJ1XO-<I>J13J1QKOf 3,n:PABlhA, CTBAPAJIAQKE
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CTPJilHOM,MOjJilM6paTOM Jil KyhHOM noaohmmca) .n;aMe onrajare jenaaxo, KaKO sazsa Jilnpxcraje qOBeKY xoja he saxopa-nrra y 21. BeK. TOnJilKO )KenJilMO.n;a raj BeK 6y.n;e BeK rr0311Tl1BHl1Xnpoaena, a I-bl1XHeMa .n;OK Moja 11Barna oxexaaarsa He 6y.n;eTe JilCrrYHJillIJil KaKO nazsa. Iloxexajre Me C lhy6aBlby 11xana BaM .n;ol)eM, OHaKaB KaKBJilMMe HJilCTe3aMJilurrsanx. MO)K.n;a hy noha xao 611he ca rrOCe6Hl1M norpefiawa, MO)K.n;ahe JIeKapJil aanpaarrra HeKY rpernKy, MO)K.n;ahere BJil,nparx MOjJilponarezsn HaqJilHJilTl1 HJil3 HeCMOTpeHJilX rpeuraxa y nepnony .n;OKce aaxxrse Jil paaaxja MOj )KJilBOT, Y MaMl1Hoj yTp0611. MO)K.n;a? Ko 3Ha!? Je.n;HO sanasrnrre: CBaKJil )KJilBOTje Bpenaa, jep je .o.ap Bozcajn, jep rroce.n;yje .n;yx, xao neo 60)KJilje enepraje, a .n;yx ce Mopa 11MO)Ke pasnarn aKO My oxoryhaao zta yspacra y lhy6aBJil, y o.n;CYCTBY aYTOpl1TaPHOCTJil. Bl1.o.eheTe KOnl1KOMOry, caao MJilnajre rrpJilJIJilKy,He npesaurrnhyjre Me, jep YBeK hy pa.o.l1Tl1c lhy6aBlbY 11y cxnany ca CBOjJilMMoryhHOCTJilMa. Ilonaurajre ce npesra MeHl1 xao l1KOHl160)Kl1joj Jilcawo Me urrxrrrre TaMO rne MJilrpetia Barna saurrn'ra, He rrl1TajTe ce JilHe oxajaaajre urro casr 6arn sac rrparprmo, .n;parJil MOjJil.[a caM naw, a CBOjl1ce 6ecKpajHo Bone. . TaTa, MOlIl1MTe, xana xyjeur .o.ace MaMa cpehao rropo.n;JilJIa HeMoj .n;ace narrnJew. Yl)l1 rpesaa y 21. BeK. HeKa TBoje cpQe, cpQe CBJilXxrraaoaa rropo.o.JilQe, 6y.n;e I<ao MaMl1HO, 0.0. cpehe rnrjano. He nynaj, 'rara, Jil3 mrurrozsa. Hexa )KJilBOTrrYQa 0.0.pa.o.OCTl1.
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Illiua 6aM eansa unuiuu eauia ouexueatea

KaKO 6u cute UCUYHunu

uoja U

J{a3HOM, crporroa M3pa30M JIwQa, CBOjOM 60JIeIllny WeBeHTyaJIHOM cMpny WCBWM oCTaJIMM, IllTO y MeHW jaxa cTpax, a 3aycTaBlba n03WTMBaH pacT. MaMa, rrpecraan na MW TOKOM uenor npenoAHeBa najeur, CBe OHO IllTO HYAe eKJIaMe (HOBY )f(BaKY, HajHoBMjw -nmc, "BpXyHCKY" naurrery, coxnhe 6e3 npeM~a, qOKoJIaAMQe, rpwcMHe ... ). [ooj, MaMa, na Moj CT~MaqMn je TaK~ MaJIW. CBe TO, a OHp;aM pyqaK. He rpAM Me, He TYQW Me, He YQelbY) Me IllTO oA6w)aM pyqaK nOCJIe CBera. OP;JIyqW p;a re peKJIaMa nehe 3aBeCTJ.1. IIoHYAW MW3ApaBY xpaHY, y rrpaaosr TpeHYTKY, xana MOj CTOMaqWn3aQBWJIM.J~ TO 3aCJIY)f(yjeM. Bnneheur, cYK06a HeMa. noCTaHM KpeaTwBHa y cBeMY, na Wy OBO) 0AJIYQW. 06paTw nasosy, MaMa, p;a cy KOJIWQa,y KojwMa Me B03WIll KaA WAeMOy IlleTlbY, npenyHa HeKWX Mpe)f(WQa. IhwXOBW npoasaobana <pJIalllWQe, csaxe, qwnc, rpWCWHe, ycnYT KynWJIa Me, KlbyKajynw Tw HWCYpeKJIW nrra rpetia Aa CTaBMill y lbWX. Ta csr nrtax wcnYHWJIa lbWXOBe )f(elbe. CTaBWJIa CWy lbWX WrpaqKe,

3a noxerax Ha6aBWTe HeKY KlbWry xojy cy nWcaJIW nexapa. J1Ma WX6e36poj WCBaKa

je, Malbe amue A06pa. Jlexapn cy CBe peKJIW W HeMa rrorpetie Aa CJIYIllaTe Haralja_ isa OHWX,KOjw no cehaisy rrpnsajy, KaKO cy nOAW3aJIWAeQY. Kn.nry npeJIWCTaBaj_ re, a y MeHe sapoanre CBWMcPQeM WCBWMqYJIWMa. Ha CBeT caM AOHeo npednnseae MexaHW3Me xoja ce ornaurasajy nJIaqeM W3aTO He namrsare, KaA aarmaxesr. Moj nnax je MOj rOBOp. Bame je casro na nnaa qyjere, npenosaajere, HYAWTe W oncnyzcyjere. [a caM TaKO MaJIW, aJIWqWCT xao cyaa. YBeK hy BaM nJIaqeM jacno AaTWAO aaarsa urra rpefia Aa paAWTe. Jbyr caM jep caM rnanan, a BW npnxare ca KOMIllWHWQOM. PaAOCTaH caM jep ocehan TBOjy paAOCT MaMa, AOK ryryheur caMHOM, 6pW)f(aH caM jep ce HenpeCTaHO cnaham ca TaTOM, TY)f(aH caxr jep ce npwnpeMaTe, npara MOjw pOAwTelbw, na Me ca urecr MeceQw CTaBWTey jacnaue, sacrpaurea caxr jep Me, TaKO MaJIOr, caraxa AP)f(WTe npen expanoa, a OHAa ce aohy 6YAWM y xounraproaa W BPWCKOMaacrojaa Aa OCTaHeM y sanrev KpeBeTy. EMoQwje KpY)f(e, a ja BaM nJIaqeM jacno xasyjea urra paznrre A06po, a rne rpeunrre. He nzraunrre ce, HwcaM ja HW napa3wT, HW AWKTaTop. [a casro 3HaM rne rpeIllwTe WKaA naaeaepaaare Moja 3ApaBa o-reroraarsa. IIJIaqeM sac cano onoMWlbeM. AKO Me npaBWJIHO, OHaKO KaKO ja oxexyjea, oncnyacyjere, BpJIO 6p30 hy nOCTaTW aesasacaa Wjax. Y npoTwBHOM, aKO MOj nna-r He rrperrosaajere WpaAWTe CBe naonaxo, (rypaM ce ca BaMa y KpeBeTY, MyqWM Wce6e Wsac, a BWHWKaKOAa ce nocernre Aa MWYCKpaTWre arpecnaae uprahe, TaKO MaJIeHOM), BpJIO 6p30 hy nOCTaTWWCTWHCKW AWKTaTOp.

naanepc neneae W KO 3Ha urra

jour, IllTO MW rpeoa, WJIWHe rperia, 3a60ra, MaMa, MW CMOY npwpoAw. He osieraj
Me, He TpqW W3 npOAaBHWQe y npOAaBHWQY. ,IJ;03BOJIW Aa y)f(WBaM OTKpMBajynw JIenOTe CBeTa, y KojeM caM ce Tor TpeHa aaurao. 3HaM CBe 3aMKe xoje MW cnpeMaTe. ,IJ;aHac Me MaMa aeheur rpAWTW, neheui

reparn na care npOBop;WM HaA XJIap;HWM 06POKOM, aarrnaajyhn ra CY3aMa. E, xana 6w Ta, MaMa, 3HaJIa KaKO Moje cpQe rana sene. Carypan caM Aa WTw TO He
)1<eJIWIll, aJIWCWCBe A06po caBJIaAaJIa TW nrpa-ncaaa,

paneha WCTOlllTO je Te6w 6aKa paAWJIa, aJIW

Ilanac hem Me aatianrsaaBWOHqWnWMa, "nwjaQaMa", MW na)f(lbY mYMOM,

W OHO IllTO HWCWBWAeJIa OA 6aKe, Ben na reneaasnja. QPTaHWM <pWJIMOBWMa, npaxxnaaa,

crasxheur

KaBe3 ca rranarajesr wcnpeA MeHe, onanaxaheur

neCMOM, WJIW heur Me CTaBWTWnpeA YKlbyqeHW TB, jypnheur HeYMopHO aa MHOM, no c06w WJIWABOpWillTy. Kana ce Ta yMOpwlll HaCTaBWne 6aKa, nexa ... CBaKO nasreran ce rnrra Aa JIWje QWpKyC crnrao y HaillY

xyhy, He, CBe OBO CJIY)f(W,Aa Me na npeBapy aaxpanare.

He Aajynw MW uraacy WnpaBo Aa ce 6paHwM on oaora lllTO Moje TeJIO He )f(eJIw. He

Cnyiua] tueno wo] iuu, wawa, He 6PUHU

IIoHYAWTe MW xpaHy xana 3aTpa)f(WM, aJIWce He lbYTWTe, aKO rronyheao oA6wjeM.

AajeTe MW nrancy xax HW na ce raAWM, jep Me TaKO A06po aatiasrsare, p;a ja xax HW He 3HaM, na y craapa jeAeM. Pe3YJITaTW: OTe)f(aJIW CTOMaqWn, ytipsano xaapeise <PI1HI1X MeXaHI13aMa KOjWYCKOPOCTBapHO nehe 3HaTW urra, KOJIWKOIi xana rpetia MOMe TeJIY, nOJIaraHO aJIW CWryPHO oryherse OA cnor TeJIa, aJIW W op; sac, Aparw Mojl1 POAI1Telbl1. OA MeHe CTe HanpaBWJIW CKJIaAWIllHW npOCTOp y KOjW, HeCBeCHO TpnaM, CBe lIlTo MI1 nOHYAI1Te, BW W pexnasse. Beh sa xojy rOAWHY Tn hem MaMa 6WTW BpJIO HecpenHa WTO je Taoja CJIaTKa 6e6a nOCTaJIa npO)f(AplbWBa netiezsyna WJII1paxwll1qHa . MpWaBI1Qa. Y HeMonw W lbYTlbW Ta hem, MaMa, WCMeBaTW MO) W3rJIeA H3a311 . 10BaJYlll1 Me CBOjOM sxrxouihy xojy nocrxaceur CYJIYAWMAMjeTaMa. Aa TM -139 -

Mojn MexaHW3MW npeQw3Ho saajy urra rOAw MOM TeJIy. 3Hajy KOJIWKOMOry Aa nojenea, nonajea W xana rpetia Aa ce ornacast. CaMO xexajre WHYAwTe. He 6YAMre HaCWJIHW,MOJIWM sac. Macro Me nnaunr xana CTporo napehyjere na MopaM nojecrn CBe, IllTO CTe BW 0ApeAWJIW. Te xpne xpaHe Me yzcacasajy, [a TaKO MaJIM, a rarsnpa MW JIwqe na nJIaHMHe. He rrrraunrre Me npasanajyha: BeIllTMQe, Ea6a Pore, AOKTope C 60QOM, JIOnOBe, nomruajue, pa3Hopa3He EaI,Ie, CMpOTe nOillTape, crpore 'rare, (urra JIWcy BaM OHM CKPWBMJIW);He nnaunrre Me rpmsov. 6aTMHOM,
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6aKa HMje noxsaprora <pMHe MexaHM3Me He 6M ce MyqMlIa HM jep;HoM P;MjeTO . M MyqMlII ce, a MyqMlII M MeHe npxrrpesrajyhn Me aa CBeT, KOjM ce p;elIM na Ae6e_ ne, rra OHe KOjM nerrpecrano p;p)f(e p;MjeTY, rra neyxparsene M OHe KOjM CaTl1py orpOMHe KOIIMqMHe xpaHe, a lIMqe na CKelIeT. Mozena hem Me BplIO paHO n OBe_ CTI1 aa lIeqelbe jep cy zrexapn KOHCTaTOBalIl1 anopexcnjy MlIM 6YlIMMMjy, xao MO. MTBOj rrp061IeM. ) Tsojy aecpehy ysehaaahe 6ec, jep He nonrryjea nOTpOlIIeHM HOBau; 11TBO)T PYA OKOcrrpexrarsa otipoxa. M Aalbe neheur pa3YMeTM Aa nere CBe TO nourryje, alIl1 He jep CMMy CTaBMlIa npenone xoje He MO)f(e Aa MO)f(e p;a ncrryax rnoja osexaaarsa, npecxoxa. Heheur pa3YMeTM na je CBe TO y nyooxo] Be3M ca rrpO)f(p;plbMBOM Ae6elbYU;OM,paXMTMqHOM MplIIaBMU;oM, ca HapYlIIeHoM xapaoaajosr. II03MTMBHo ycnoezsasaa,e je 31I0 20. sexa. 3alIITo? 3aTo lIITO KBapM <pI1HeMexaHM3Me, KOjM csoje MeCTO ycryrrajy noxzrerrn. CBe je noxeno TaKO HaMBHO. AKo nojeneur M rrormjeur OBO, p;06MhelII OHO. ,1J;eTeje pa3YMelIO npamora nrpe. ,1J;0611ja YBeK sehe aa "Malbe". CMrypHO na je snpas "MexaHM3aM" Bpep;HMjM on rroHyryeHe nrpasxe, aznr BMCTe 31I0ynoTpe6MlIM MOj HarOH aa panoaaanourhy, HYAI1Te HelIlTO HOBO, a CBe je sa MeHe HOBO, a Moja paA03HalIOCT npMpop;Ha M orpoxna. KaCHO je xazra CXBaTMM, p;a CTe MM aa rrOqeTKY nOABalIMlIM, Hyp;ehM MM TaKO MallO sa OHO CyBO 31IaTO. Ty nOqMlbY MYKe, Maanre M Moje. Op30 CXBaTMMna je ycnoarsaaaise y CTBapM yneaa, HenOlIITeHa Mrpa. Mano yuetsyjere BM MeHe, MallO ja nac. YBeK je y u;eHTpy aexa CTBap xojy A06MjaMo MlIM AajeMO. ,1J;aHac nrpasxa, cyrpa Mop;epHa naTI1Ka, excxypanja, cypxa ... CBe OHO lIITO je y TpeHAY, a lIITa je y TpeHp;y xasahe Mep;MjM. Iloxnena pacre, pacre nesanoaozscrao, cana saute jep ja BplIO 6p30 Hay'111MAa yu;elbyjeM aac, Kparax MMp AO cnenehe )f(elbe, a )f(elbe HMCYlIITO MrrOTpe6e, HMCYlIITO M Moja rrpnponaa osexasaa,a. OqeKyjeM C npasoa p;a MM OqYBaTe npMpoAHy xapMOHMjy Msnpase M3BopHe narone, HapOqMTO HarOH aa xpaaox, jep TBpp;MTe rta Me MBOlIMTe. YMOpMCMOce MBMMja, npar ponnrezs, ja nmuyha, a BMqMTajyhM 0 HaqMHY xpalbelba nerera. qyp;MTe ce 3alIITO caM TaKO onunrpan. Mopao caM na aac y6eAMM Aa cy OBe rrpse rpeurxe <paTalIHe, jep ce Moja nonecena xapaoanja HerrorrpaBlbMBO pynnr. McxpaHOM, y3 ynorpetiy aYTopMTapHOCTM, snpaazse ce HapYlIIaBa HajBMure jep je xpana uenrap aaurer noponaxaor )f(MBOTa. Myxe ce rronaazsajy 6ap TpM nyra p;HeBHO PYlIIMTe 11ce611 M MeHM xapsroaxjy na 6e36poj aa-nnra, KOjMp;elIyjy TaKO HaMBHO. 3aTO hy BaM MallO rrpa-rara 0 CBOM OqeKMBalbY na MMaM CAB KaKaB je onpemora rrpnpona.

Holi je

ga

ce MUPHO cuaea,

(CaaKO

CaOM xpeeeiuy)

UITa OqeKyjeM on nac? ,1J;aMe He p;pMycaTe, zsyrsare, nocare, YMM.lIIlbajyhM KaKO MJ1CBe TO npaja. He craszsajre Me y BalII xpeaer. caao 3aTO lIITO )e BaMa naxure, here Me ,M xana MallO nopacrev M36aU;MTM,a TelIIKO J1TaTY BpaTMTM y 6paq~m~ll .. rezsy He qMHMTe Me 3aBMCHMMon caera rora. CBe )e )ep;HOCTaBHO: casto HY noc . MJ1PHO,He)KHO, naxparseao, na BpeMe, yp;06HO, ys KpaTKY, He)KHY npMqJ1U;y, ycnaBaH KY , He)KHOr MaMMHor maca M can cnehe na Moje OqM. Pa3YMeM BalIIY norpetiy na ce p;pY)KJ1Te. Mnana CTe. CTMmo je p;pYlIITBaHu;e. BJ1KO ce aehe lbyTMTM, aKO Me aa BpeMe M3ByqeTe M3AMMa,6YKe, ryzcne MrrpMnpeMJ1Te3a can. "CaMO p;a op;mep;aM <pMlIM!"HMKaKo, MaMa! JOlII P;OK rpaje urrnrua, nOTpe6a aa CHOMhe onnenpurarx, M rana he rro-rern Moja n06YHa, xojy he,;e BM npJ1XBaTlttTM.Osrerahy aac AOKrnenare <pJ1lIMMlIM p;OK BOAMTeTaKO "Ba)KHe pa3rosope ca npajarezsrora. He clIYTMTe na caM rrporrycTJ10 Haj60lbM neo aoha aa OP;MOP,pacT. M3ry6Mo caM pMTaM cnasarsa KOjMje op;pep;MlIa npnpona. [op;J1HaMa hy BaM aaropsaaarx )f(MBOT, rpaacehn p;a, paBHonpaBHO ca nasra, )KJ1BMM aohy, 3HaMo xpaj rrpMqe: yp;apU;M, BJ1Ka, rnras, jeuaja, HeMMpaH can. ,1J;0 npep; 30py jeuahy, jep he MMreno M3MapaTM KOlIIMapHMCHOBM.TeK rrpep; 30py noxehe npaBM OP;MOP M rpajahe, 6ap p;o nonne. MO)KAa TO BaMa J1 onrosapa, jep lIITa 6M CTe BMca p;eTeTOM xoje ce npotiyn na BpeMe, ca npBMM cynuea, a BMCTe TaKO MaMypHM MyMOpHM on ncnpaaaor 6p;elba. 3a nap rOp;J1Ha 6Mhy y TpeHp;y ca APYlIlTBeHMM36MBalbMMa. Ca naxohosr hy npMxBaTMTM )KMBOTnohy, HohHO ,,6p;elbe" aa MHTepHeTY, MrpMu;aMa MlIM Mcnpa3HMM cenezsxava, a cnasatse narsy. Cana here oner 6p;eTM, xexajyh 30py MMeHe J13 nohaor )f(MBOTa.Oner cyse, cana sanre. Kaxo je lIaKO HapylIIMTM xapxonajyl IIlTa xaxcere? Y craapa, CBe je lIaKO, na naxure He MO)Ke 6MTM. Iloroaopnna CMO ce na Me npaTI1Te cpnev MqylIMMa. JOlII npe Hero npertosnare cnrnane CHa (cncaise npcra. Tplbalbe OqMjy, apherse npaxiena xoce, M3HeHap;HMcMMpaj rena ... ), p;parM ponsrrelbl1, y'iI1HMTe CBe p;a YClIOBMy KojMMa Me cnpeaare aa onnasax y u;apCTBO nenore 11CHOBa, 6YAY eMOU;MOHalIHOn03MTMBHM. CaMO panoaarse M3aXBalIHOCT, lIITO ce jour jenan AaH 3aBplIIMO, a CBMCMOna oxyrry, 3p;paBM Mcpehan. Bnhere sanaBlbeHI1 KaKO hy 6p30 HayqMTM na CBe 06aBlbaM cara. CaM hy ce oxynarn, onparn 3y6l1he, 06yhl1 nMI,IaMY, pa3MeCTMTM KpeBeT, nOlby6MTM nac, MaxHYTM BalIIMM rtp . l1)aTelbI1Ma, xyneh ce lIITO lbl1XOBa neua M narse cene nopep; lbMX, mrrajyhn ce, KOlIl1KOhe 6MTM caru Kap; 6yp;y cnpeMHM aa KpeBeT. Ilonana BaM ce OBa rrpM'll1ua .. 6 C . , 0 KO)O) yP;HM caisare. 3HajTe TO je pealIHOCT, a He cax. aMO rrOlIlTYJTe npaBl1lIa I1rpe.
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HajBa)KHY1je npaaano Mrpe xoje Ba)KMaa CaBpeMeHY rrOpO~M~Y rnaca: "He CTaszsajre Me rrpe~ TelIeBM30p, xosmjyrep ~OK He HarrYHMMTpH ronaae, ~OK ce Moje H3BopHe exrouxje He YKopeHe Y pealIHOM CBeTY OCMM rora, MHpHor CHa Hehy HMaTH, rrO'IHeM lIH ~a ce ~py)KHM ca BHpTyelIHHM KapaKOHI,IYlIaMa. 3a6opaBl1Te BaIIIY lIOIIIY HaBHKY na ueo ~aH TelIeBl130p 6y~e YKlbyqeH. CBe CHHMaM, MaKOBaM ce 'Il1HM ~a ce 3a6aBlbaM CBOjl1M xrpasxaaa. A OH~a here ce 'IY~l1TH IIITO xohy, ocserzseay co6y, IIITOxohy Y BaIII KpeBeT, IIITOxohy rrpl1'IY, rrocne csera, rro KO3Ha Me na casr He3aXBanaH , KOjl1 nyr, xohy HOIIIY, BO~y... Bnhere lbYTl1, orrryacyjyha jep He ~orrYIIITaM na ce l1 Bl1 O~MOpl1Te, a Y CTBapl1, ja Y yrny co6e Bl1~l1M~eMOHa , rrpaBor, npasuaror, xao Y OHOMuprahy KOjl1 rne~aM y HaCTaB~l1Ma. ycnOBl1Ma aa notiap caa, ja TonHKO, a l1 Bl1 here ynacxoa Y CTBapana'IKO sacmrraise MMaTMsnpasxx l1~eja na nperex.

CAMOPA,U

Maua, ja

WO MOlY

,1J;oxBaTMnyje, 6y~MTe CMrypHl1. Kana ce MaIIIMMsa KaIIIMKYna ce caM naxpamoa, He orxaajre MM je M3 PYKY,Y)Kacasajyha ce nosnare cmrxe (BMIIIe pe3aHa~a na rraTOCY M aa rnasn, Hero y CTOMaxnhy, rrpa3aH TaJ-bMPaaha he ce na MOjOj rnaBM~M ...) CaMO 3allITMTMTe Balli cKyrrM renax H OCTBapl1Te MOjy CHnHY norpetiy sa CAMOPA,1J;OM. CBH KOjHMe oxpyxcyjere, caBpllIeHO 6p30 H crrpeTHo oriaszsare CBe nocnose. He yofipaacaaajre ~a je ra 6p3HHa sa rHHHca. OHa casro onrosapa BallIHM ronnnasra. oe36poj rryTa rrOHOBHnH CTe l1CTe onepaunje, ana npxsaajre na rOTOBO CBe pa~Hre 6e3 pa~OCTl1 H 6e3 lby6aBH. He )KenHM ~a ce TO MeHl1 norona, He rroaanrsajre tpeuncy BaIIIHX ponarersa. Kan Y0'il1Te MOjy norpetiy ~a caM o6yqeM xapamnry, CTprrlbl1BO xexajre, najre MH llIaHcy ~a caM casnanasr ueny onepauajy. )KypJ1Te? Bl1 Hl1CTe 'iOBeK sa 21. BeK. Inenajre, Y)KHBajTe, rrOMa)KHTe, caao aKO 3aTpa)KHM nOMoh, 6e3ycnoBHO xexajre H xexaise he ce HCrrnaTl1Tl1. He 6y~eTe nl1 HcrrYHH1Il1Moje O'IeKHBaJ-be na peanaayjev norpeoy sa CAMOPA,1J;OM, rrnarahexo uex, l1 Bl1l1 ja. MManeTe YCKOPOnapasirra, a HHcaM pohen sa rrapa3HTa. Casto CTe MH HapYUIl1nl1 xapsroaajy. Ipeuncoa CTe rrporrycTHnl1 rrpaBH TpeHYTaK na rrO'IHeM ca CAMOPAJJ:OM H pasaajarsea lby6aBH rrpeMa J-beMY,rrpeMa pa~y, rrpeMa BaMa. Qello AeTMJ-bCTBO, IIIKOlIOBaJ-be 6Hne MyqHO, H BaMa H MeHH, jep Ka~ ron 6y~eM Mopao HeUlTO na yparnoa, MopaneTe'~a H3ByqeTe HnH 6aTHHy HlIH KO~Ky urehepa. TaKO je MallO norperino ~a ce ~eCH YHYTpaIIIJ-ba EBOflYIJJ1JA, KOjOMhy npe8a3l10 6 CB l1 l10nOlliKO 6Hne y cefia H HCTHHCKH,rro rrpBH rryT y HCTOPHjH, rrOCTaTH ECTAH QOBEK. Baur TO MallO pO~HTelbH BeKOBHMa He noaaozsasajy CBOjOj
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Kana ceMaIIIMM~a~OXBaTMMMrpa.IKy.HeCKa.Il1Te.

neux,

a TBpp;e na HX Bone. 3arraMTHTe:

casso pap; 06aBJbeH C Jby6aBJbY, KOjH je

CPYHK~HjH paCTa CBHX, BOP;H xa CBeCHOCTH. Ovoryhare TeJbH, BH TO MO)l(eTe.

MH TO, p;parH MOjH pOP;I1-

J a case uenuua
Ilpenasxao BHMa

na
saurro

"p;enHKaTHy"

TeMy. Ilpaxrehyjere

p;a ce pap;o HrpaM

CBHM p;elIO3alllTO ce

PE3MME
noaeceny pohelbeM. YKonHKo pap;HTe OKO MeHe KaKO CMO ce norosopann, Moja o-rexxsarsa 6Hhe HcrrYlbeHa. A urra je ca aaurox, rrpHlIH'lHO HapYllleHoM xapMoHHjoM? Bynere nH
Moja 3Ha'lH OQYBATI1 XAPMOHI1JY ypoHHnH y MeHe KaKO peKox cp~eM H 'lynHMa, H3ry6JbeHa, HapYllleHa XAPMO-

csora

rezra, Ilp061IeMa

HeMa, P;OK ce He MalllHM

aa

rrOlIHH

oprax.

MplllTHTe,

BH'leTe "cpyj",

xana

H caMH 3HaTe KOlIHKO 3ap;OBOJbCTBa P;OHOCI1

CBe TO. He pa3YMeM saure rrypHTaHcTBo, P;OK HCToBpeMeHo KPHlllOM, rnenare H nopao cpHnMoBe. He pa3YMeM saurro Me yqHTe p;a ce rap;HM HeKHX nenosa csora rena, Ja caM ueo, a TeK je uemnra nenora. Baur 3a6pHHYT nornen, crpor H3pa3 mrua noxehe p;a H3a3HBajy ocehaise KpHBH~e Y MeHH. 3ap MeHH, TaKO MalIOM H nejaxo TaKaB TepeT. Iloxerax je CTBapHO HaHBaH. Haxana HHCTe pa3MHClIHlIH 0 nopexny aaunrx pe'lH.113 sac nporosapajy sanm pOp;HTeJbH.l1cTH H3pa31IH~a npahen crpaXOM. Y MeHH he nenor )l(HBOTa 6yjaTH ocehaise KpHBH~e xan ron MH )l(HBOT nonece aeurro y 'leMY hy Y)l(HBaTH. Hehy HH 3HaTH na je CBe rrOTeKlIO on onora "cpyj". YBeK hy ce rrHTaTH saurro P;OK Y)l(HBaM y npennanoa 3alIacKY Cynua HCTOBpeMeHO ocehaa H KpHBH~y. Ka)l(eM BaM, CBe je TaKO lIaKO. )l(yjyhH ra, He

1. I1crryHHTH

oxexaaarsa

Kan

rrpHMeTHTe Ilpohx

na

Y)I(HBaM Y CBOM TelIY, HCTpa-

npnnajre

TOMe

anaxaj.

he. AJm aKO Me

pano

CTaBHTe ripen

TelIeBH30p

ca p;aJbHHCKHM Y PYKaMa,

aanerahy xa

rropHO cpHlIMOBe. Ca THM ce He 3aTo

nrpajre.
cnyxaj

He YBop;HTe Me y neurro p;aJbHHCKH Mopa 6HTH y MOjy

lllTO He rrpHrrap;a MOM y3paCTy.

sa

CBaKH

'lyp;a rexnozrornje lbe

non KOHTPOlIOM pOp;HTeJba. He YHocHTe TB H CBa cotiy, Mann caa, panosaao, naxo hy nacrx y ncxyureP;PY)l(HM ca HajHeraTHBHHjHM BHpTyenHHM

na

ce

nyro, P;OK xana

aKO

BH MHpHO crrasare,

canpacajasra, 'lyP;HTH

aanehesr

na

HaCHJbe CBHX 06nHKa, rra H HaCHJbe y ceKcy.

Heaojre ce
lbeHHM

rrpHMeTHTe p;a cy MH ce rroKpeHYlIH

XOPMOHH, HaKO HMaM TaKO Mano rrpH'la Hero caM

ronana,

na

'lacy

He 'lyjeM

urra y'lHTeJbH~a

onceznryr

TenOM, aKO no-raesr p;a Tpa)imM paBJbaM p;a CH MH TH MaMa.

p;a ce C T060M, MaMa, Jby6HM cpHnMCKH, H

na

3a60-

Yaepxhere ce caMH. Saro caM BaM ja H rroTpenama maaca p;a ce BpaTHTe CBOMe H3BOpy. 2. He npxcxzsaaajre Me HH aa nrra ayTopHTapHHM BacrrHTHHM cpencraasra. CBaKa rrpHCHna CTBapa MeHTalIHH crpax H 6ec y MeHH. He CMeTe snoynorpetiaTH cTpax KOjH CTe MH nonapaznr. Iberona H3BopHa ynora je rrpep;HBHa. OH 'lYBa MOj )l(HBOT, xana ce nojaax H3HeHap;Ha jaxa H aenosaara p;pa)l(. HeM a norpetie na ra jaxare. YrraMTHTe, CBaKO jaxaise crpaxa je snoynorpetia H BpeMeHoM he crpax P;06HTH HaKa3HH 06nHK KOjH he MH aaropxaaara )l(HBOT. He rrpHCHJbaBaTH He 3Ha'lH aaapxaja, OP;CyCTBOpep;a. Ilere Mopa 3HaTH OCHOBaa npasxna Hrpe, a BH MopaTe 3HaTH Ha'lHH, KaKO here C Jby6aBJby MOTHBHcaTH saure nere, na TO xcnourryje, AKO CTe 3a60paBHnH noncehau p;a je Jby6aB Hhje npe3alllTHhHBalbe on pep;a. Ipanaue MH rrOCTaBHTe anH HeMa norpetie na Me Ty'lere Hnl1 Harpa~yjeTe na 6HX Me~e nourrosao. Caxo OCTaHHTe p;ocnep;HH, 6p30 hy CXBaTHTH p;a KOP; aac nehe npohn Moje ypnalbe. Ep30 hy ce CMHPHTH, a onna BaM npY)!(aM rrpHlIHKy p;a Me ytienare KaKO je H OBa aatipaaa onpasnana. BH Haj60Jbe 3HaTe urra je 3a MeHe onacno, y OBOM KOMrrnHKOBaHOM BeKY TeXHHKe. YCKOpO hy ca nOBepelbeM H panouihy nourrosarx same satipaae, jep 3HaM p;a cy OHe aa Moje o A 6po. AnH aKO MH sariparsyjere CBe H CBaWTa, casro 3aTO lllTO BH TaKO xazcere, UlTo TpeHHpaTe CBOj na)l(HH aYTopHTeT Hap;aMHOM, aatiparsyjyha MH H OHO lllTO He YfPO)!(aBa HH MeHe, HH aac, onna ce nesiojre 'lyP;HTH lllTO hy BaM p;aBaTH HerrpeCTaHI1 . OTIIOP, )ep BaM mnnra nehy BepOBaTJ.1.CyK06e nehere H36ehH. MonHM eac
HI1JA he ce y aasra ycrrOCTaBHTH. 6aH, aKO HHCTe 3HanH.

[a

caM

lie IIp

e3aUITlIlhyjTe

Me on )l(HBOTa H )l(HBOTHOr HCKYCTBa. Mopa

H ja na npohesr

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uncony BnaCTJ!ITOr J.1CKYCTBa . J1 ja irexana MOpaM rnaBOM Kp03 3J.1p;.BJ.1here CJ.1ryp_ HO 3HaTJ.1p;a npOJ.~eHJ.1Te xana J.1KaKO MJ.1CTaBJ.1TJ.1 Melje. AKO CaM ManJ.1 Op;BY~J.1Te MJ.1rraxosy on axuaje xojy HacTojJ.1M p;a 06aBJ.1M, a BJ.1CTe npO~eHJ.1nJ.1 na je ona, CHao Kana Mano nopaCTeM o6jaCHJ.1Te MJ.1,J.1nJ.1 jenaocraano peuare, "HE", pap;eI'm J.1p;albe CBOj nocao, ocnyuncyjyha MenOp;J.1jy Mora nnaxa. IlOTpYP;J.1Te ce na aa crsapana-nor Ha'-lJ.1Hycnocraaare y MOM J.1aauresr )KJ.1BOTY,PE,lJ,. 3. He y~noBlbaB~jTe Me, jep ycnoarsasarse paha noxneny. A cTpax J.1noxnena cy nsa sna KOJa Bnap;aJY CBeTOM. 4. He pasaajajre MJ.1ocehaise KpJ.1BJ.1Qe.Ilpecxoxare OHO '-IYBeHo "cpyf'. Y'-IJ.1HJ.1TeCBe, jep BJ.1TO MO)KeTe, na CBaKO Moje Y)KJ.1Balbe 6yp;e npaheno BaIllJ.1M p;y6oKJ.1Mnoaepersex. Yxecrayjre cPQeM Y MOM )KJ.1BOTY. 5. Oaoryhare MJ.1HajBJ.1IllJ.106nJ.1K Y'-Ielba, CAMOYl-IEIhE. Ee3 osor 06nJ.1Ka BOP;J.1 yayrpaunso] eBOY'-Ielba '-IOBeKHe MO)Kena OCTBapJ.1ce6e, jep CAMOYl-IEIhE nYQJ.1jJ.1,CKOKYop; '-IOBeKa, 6J.10nOIllKOr 6J.1ha, p;o '-IOBeKa npenyHor lhy6aBJ.1. Cana CJ.1ryPHO CXBaTaTe urra 3Ha'-lJ.1Moja norpetia Aa ce caM XpaHJ.1M, na caM 06na'-lJ.1M '-IapanJ.1QY, na ce caM CnpeMJ.1M sa cnasarse, Aa caa onepeM cyhe, Aa caM nocnpeMJ.1MBaIllY co6y, Aa caM cnaxyjesr KlbMre aa urxony, aanauresr p;oMahM. CBe TO Mopa 6MTM nonybeno y npaBOM TpeHyTKy. Mopa 6MTM npaheno BaIllMM ,lJ,YEOKJ1M IlOBEPEIhEM. He npesaurnrhyjre Me op; paAa, pep;a M )KMBOTa, MonMM sac, p;pafJ.1 pomrrezsx. Haje groper 3aMonMTM Aa Me 3aIllTMTMTe op; npepaHor ynacKa BMpTyenHe CTBapHOCTM y MOj )KMBOT. 6. MonMM sac p;a Me 3aIllTMTMTe on CBMX KOjM P;OBOlbHO nyro Y'-IeCTByjy y MOM aacmrrarsy, y TOKY nana, IhMX 06Y'-1MTe 3HalbY crnapanaxxor aacrnrrarsa. HeM a spnarsa. Mopa na Me sacmrraaajy, xao M BM. Y npOTMBHOM, HaljMTe 3aMeHY sa lbMX. Pohenx MOjM, Mucro nyTa caM M3peKao pe'-l XAPMOHJ1JA. MOHMjy y sasra, M OKO sac TeIllKO rrpenosaajere aapyunonr sanpzcahy ce na nojsry ...

XAPMOHI1JE

Ilrraurehn ce p;a xapjep cy BaM je p;pyrM

"XAPMOHJ1JA JE CKJIA,lJ" ycarnarnaBalbe nerrosa y jennoj ~enMHM. Ilocetina BpCTa noperxa y KojeM ce pa3nM'-IMTM p;enOBM nOTnOMa)KY CyCTM'-Iy y jep;HoM, 3ajeAHM'-IKOM pesyzrrary", CKnaA CTe MM nonapana pobeisea. CBe CPYHKQMOHMure 6ecnpeKopHO. CBM nenoaa Mor 6MonOIllKor M nyxosuor 6Mha ce nOTnOMa)KY, CyCTM'-Iy ... ana MM rpetia saura rrosroh na 6M ce nO'-leTHM cxnan o-rysao M pa3BMO. Ilorpetiaa MM je aaura onnyxa na satiopaaare na aYTopMTapHOCT, xoja je jenan OA aajja-noc Y3pO'-lHMKa KOjM pYIlle xapaoaajy noaeceay poheisea. 3a6opaBMTe aa nllMIllaHY M OHY ceurhy npMcMlIy. Ilourao caa aa CBeT xao 6Mhe noreaunjanne caspurene A06pOTe. Iloneo caM KlIM~y Ilofipore xoja he ce pa3BMTM MnM rpaaopopsorcarx y 3110. CBe 3aBMCM on saurer npncryrra BacnMTalbY. AyTopMTapHO MlIM craapanaxxo nacmrraisei IlMTalbe je name 0AlIYKe. Y'-IMHMTe MaKCMMYMAa re A06pOTe nOCTaHeM CBeCTaH. EYAere 11MMM rtoraormr na O'-lYBaM xapvoaajy, Moja HapaB nocrahe Ilotipora M Jbytiaa, a TO y CTBapM npencrann,a noxerax p;YXOBHor paCTa caaxor '-IOBeKa. CaMO '-IOBeK ,lJ,06poTe M lhy6aBM MO)Ke CTpeMMTM xa Bory. AKo 6M CTe BM, CBM QllaHOBM nopop;MQe, nOp;p)KallM M OQYBallM MOjy xapvona~y, ja 6J.1XnOCTaO YMETHJ1K )l{J1BOTA. Hansramao 6MX canaunse YMeTHMKe, Jep OHM craapajy xapvoaajy casro y Ae1l0BMMa csoje YMeTHOCTM. [a hy XAPMOBl1JY CTBapaTM Kp03 CBe: onaoce, paA, craapananrrso, )KMBOT. Onpas Moje yHyTpalUlbe XAPMOHJ1JE, BJ.1p;ehe ce y MeHM, aaxta, )KMBOTY.)l{ellMTe TaKBO nere]! BJ.1CTeHecKpoMHM, carao sazsa paAMTM. )l{ellMTe 1IJ.1 Aa M BM 6YAeTe YMeTHMK)KMBOTal? J .. a caM saura uranca. 3a nOQeTaK ce op;peQMTe Mp;eje p;a casr ja aaur oojexar KOjJ.1BM rpetia Aa p;peCMpaTe, BaCnJ.1TaBaTe, ocaaocrarsyjere, na npesaaahena HaQJ.1H.BAC-IlJ1TAIhE, je "nl1Talb e ", xparseise Jby6aBlbY, a TaKBO aac-nararse je Moryhe aKO ce onpexaexso
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npmryne, rr03l1Tl1BHOr YCJIOBJbaBaI-ba,Bep6aJIl13Ma npesaurrnhana '-La a ' u> n KOgon CAM06CTl1Te ga KOPl1CTl1Ml1 pa3Bl1jeM Bl1111l1 06JIl1K yxersa, CAMOYQElhE, EPA30BAlhE. Ilocrahy l1CTl1HCKl1 cy6) eKT KO)l1Kp03 CAMOP'A IT . , ~ crr03Ha)e CBOe l13BOpHe norpetie, caMOBaCmITaBa ce Kp03 pan l1 peg, qyBajytm BJIaCTl1T a J BalllY xapxronajy, y, JIl1 11
TA

EE3YCJ10BHO qEKAlhE
KOJIJ.1KO CTe ogJI~J.1JIJ.1 ga MJ.1 norrycrnre BJ.1111J.1 06JIJ.1K~eI-ba HeMojTe ga ynansere y 3aMKY 0 KOjOj hy cana rOBOpJ.1TJ.1. Casnanahy pano ofinaxerse qaparrJ.1ue. Mcosna nehy 3agoBOJbJ.1TJ.1saura oxexaaarsa, aJIJ.1yrraMTJ.1Te na je CBaKJ.1pag B.A)KHA, CIIOPE~HA CTBAP, a ga je 3agoBOJbCTBO xoje caM OCeTJ.1006JIaqenJ.1 YHOCl1MY xapanauy, y3 aanre gy60KO rrOBepeI-be, Haj6J.1THJ.1ja.To je KarrJ.1TaJIKOjJ.1 cneneh pag. He nnaunrre ce, HeMa qOBeKa KOjJ.1HJ.1jeHa~J.10 na 06JIaql1 qaparry. MaJIo J.1X je KOjl1 TO page ca 3agoBOJbCTBOM. IIpl1MeTJ.1neTe ga, qJ.1M CaBJIagaM jeznry aKTJ.1BHOCT,3arrOCTaBJbaM rrpeTxogHy. lbYTJ.1Te ce, rrpomalliaBaTe Me JIeHQyroM, rrapa3J.1TOM, a CBe TO HJ.1CaM.[a casr BpeMe ga caananasa HOBO J.1nonasrsa Haycasro MaJIl1111aHKOjJ.1He MO)f{ey J.1CTO QeHO. TOJIJ.1KO rora J.1Mana ce Ha~l1. CaMO rrOJIaKO, sparahy ce ja J.1onyureanhy sac. AKO y Me1)YBpeMeHY rpmrre, pY)f{J.1Te,OMaJIOBa)f{aBaTe, sparahy ce ja CBOjOj Qaparrl1U;J.1,aJIJ.16e3 lby6aBJ.1. Ee3YCJIOBHOxexajre, noxaxorre ga CTe pogJ.1TeJbl1 aa 21. BeK. CaMO nesnarse J.1HeCBeCHO spaharse na CTapJ.1 ayTOpJ.1TapHl1 06JIJ.1Knacnl1TaI-ba ca JIaKOnOM pYllie XapMOHJ.1jy.~aKJIe, 6e3 CTBAPAJIAQKOr BACIIli1TAlhA HeMa HaM rrarrperxa. A nacnrrrarsa 6e3 Ka3He J.16e3 Harpage HeMa 6e3 rrpaBor 3HaI-ba. Y cnenehes, rrOmaBJbY rrl1CMa rrpyxorhy BaM snan,e MOjJ.1Ml1 BalllJ.1M...

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OUCUlaHKOM

HAfOHVIMA VI rrOTPEEAMA
TTpamMoju,

le HajBehH qyBap )KHBOTanerera H 3aTO ce He CMe 31I0ynoTpe6HTH.lberOBa Crpax) . . 6' . 3alllTHTHHqKa. Kap;a ce naneaana jasa Hen03HaTa H )aKa p;pa)K KO)a 0 )eK1l0ra)e Y rpO)KaBa )KHBOTaaurer nerera (aYTOM06HlI, rpyna neue cnpeMHa p;a npeTyrJiSHO y y.y salile p;eTe , peq je 0 peallHHM CTpaxoBHMa ...), CTpax M06HlIHlIle CBe caare rena na Ha)'60lbH MoryhH HaqHH pearyje, crraurasa CBOj)KHBOT. Ji p;eTe YKOlIHKO,nparn pop;HTelbH, 31I0ynoTpe6HTe npHpop;HH CTpax nerera H Tepare ra p; a qeCTO M06V1lIHlIle ueno reno, H3a3HBajyhH npeBelIHKO rryxen,e ap;peHalIHHa,xo pMOHa , BH CTe aajseha xenpajarezs CBOMe nerery. KaKO BH TO nOCTH)KeTe? 3acTpalllyjeTe nere npHqaMa 0 Ea6a Porx, nenrrmraaa, CTpalllHHM nyxonnamoaa, saMnHpHMa, KOjH rrpozcnapy HenOClIYlllHY neuy, EaI,IaMa, rrourrapasra, nomruajUHMa,ca ~V1JbeMp;a nere 06aBH OHOlllTO CTe BH 3aMHClIHlIH. IJ,Hlb he 6HTH OCTBapeH, y3 BHCOKY ueay, Crpax je snoynorpetirsen, reno je pearOBallO na aenocroiehe, sHpTyellHe p;pa)KH. Ea6a Pore ce cene y flIaBH~y saurer nerera rne nyro, BpllO nyro nocne onpabeaor sanarxa H3a3HBajy crpax. Osor nyTa peq je 0 MEHTAJIHOM CTPAXY KOjH on Tor TpeHyTKa no-nose p;a 6yja, aapacra, y CTBapH OH Mopa na 6yja, a p;a 6H napacrao Mopa na p;06Hje HOBYaenocrojehy, BHpTyelIHY p;pa)K, jaxy op; nperxonae. Ty no-nose Hrpa xoja ce He MO)Ke3aYCTaBHTH. Iaxa p;pa)K npOH3SOP;Hjatm BHpTyelIHH CTpax KOjH oner Tpa)KH jaxy BHpTyellHY p;pa)K. (Cana BaM je jacnnje saurro MlIap;H lIaKO ynanajy y BHpTyellHY 3aBHCHOCT, cenehx carioaa nopep; expaaa, HrpajyhH aajcrpaumaje HrpH~e, y6Hjajy )KHBOTHlbe, nOTOM y6Hjajy lbyp;e. M03aK He npasa pa31IHKy H3Me~y BHpTyellHor H pealIHor. Ilanac ce H MalIa neua cranrsajy npep; aajaerarnaaaje canpzcaje ~pTaHHX CPHlIMOBa,HrpH~a, na 'IaK H nopno cpHlIMOBa HlIH npep; ClIHKe ceKcyallHor aacnrsa, xoje je npHcyTHO YCBaKOMHaCHlIHOMCPHlIMY.) CaBpeMeHO nere lIaKO p;06Hja HOBYp;pory y BHp;y BHpTyelIHe p;pa)KH. Ty cy TB H BHp;eo, KOMnjYTep H HHTepHeT, M06HlIHH rerredion, CBe y rserosoj C06H, rne HeMa 6YAHor OKa ponarezsa. OBa cpencraa, nenpecrano eMHTyjy HOBe, jaxe H HeraTHBHe Apa)f(H, Koje xpaae MeHTalIHH CTpax nerera. Ty cy p;eqHje cepnje, ~pTaHH CPHlIMO8H, HrpH~e, CPHlIMOBHaacazsa H KpHMHHalla ... a CBe TO HMa 3ajep;HHqKH HMeHHTelb' y . . rllaBH~H crpax, y cp~y HCKpHBlbeHe, aacnojeae HlIH sarnasrseae eMO~H)e. PO~lofTelbU U lbUxOBe seurrxne" nocrajy npaBe 6e6e y Op;HOCY ua CTpaBHqHe cuene I(O)eeMHTyje expaa. BUPTyelIHu crpax HapaCTa, BHpTyelIHH CBeT nocraje jep;HHH CTBapHH CBeT npel(O . . CI( KO)er nere CTH'Ie YTHcaK na je U oaaj CTBapw', cnozsaa CBeT HenpU)aTelb11: pacnOllO)KeH npesra I-beMYU p;a je iseroaa ynora p;a ce CTallHO 60pH npOTHB 311a
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M3BOPHH HarOHH cy P;06pV1, He06uqHV1 BYlIKaHU KOjV1X He rpeea p;a ce

nnaunrre. AKO HXynosnasso noaoce HaM rrajseha 611ara, V13 p;y6HHe aanrer 6uha. YKOlIHKOHe yn03HaMO MOn H U3BOPHYcHary aarona CAMOCn03HAJOM, Kp03 CAMOPAA, ynnanniheao CcpOPMV1111y, jep je caara nor narona. ce xana HarOHH nonasn.ajy, xana ce uCKpuBe, TpaHH ja'lHHa UCKpHBlbeHor narona paana ja'luHu H3BOp-

rlIep;ajTe nere, rrrenajre APBO AOEPMIJ,Y U He 3a60paBHTe p;a here H BH H nere, aKO 3aKOpaqUTe y aacnararse 6e3 Ka3He V1 narpane, 6UTU HalIUK A06pHU;H. Y npoTHBHOMH3BOPHH HarOHH he A06uTU CBOjHCKpuBlbeHH 06mlK. YKOlIHKOHCKPHBHre H3BOPHH HarOH n03HTHBHe cTBapalIa'lKe 60p6eHocTH 6Hne TO naxasa xoja he arpecujoM H ayroarpecajosr p;upHrOBaTu HalllHM )KUBOTHMa. Illra cy aaroaa? Haromr cy 6e3yclIoBHe norpetie Aa qOBeK npso ce6e cnossa Kp03 CAMOPAA, a nOTOM p;a ce CAMOPEAJIM3YJE Kp03 n03HB H pop;HTelbcTBO H HanOKOH p;a ce CAMOOCTBAPM Kp03 BpxyHCKy AOEPOTY M Jb YEAB YCBHM cerMeHTHMa )KUBOTa. Haroae CMOnoaena poherse. Bazsa HX nerosara, oHaKO KaKO TO o'ieKyje npapona. HarOHH ce nerre na 6HOlIOlllKe H p;YXOBHe. EHOlIOlllKU HarOHU cy: HarOH flIap;H, )f(e~H, CHa, CPH3HOlIOlllKHX norpetia, HarOH sa TelIeCHOM axranaourhy, HarOH aa OnCTAHKOM H HarOH aa npOAY>KEI-bEM BPCTE. CBH 6UOlIOlllKH HarOHH cy nOTnYHO caMOCTallHH H He06HqHO npe~H3HH. Baura ynora, nparn ponarezs, je jenaocraaaa. BH cajao Hyp;UTe, YKHHHTenpHHYP;y U n03HTUBHO ycnonrsasaise, YKHHUTe aYTopUTapHOCT. AonYCTHTe p;eTeTY p;a Y3Me UlIH 0p;6uje nOHy~eHO. qeKajTe CTpnlbHBO. Ilere je rnanno, Tpa)f(H, nOHyp;Hre H casro xexajre. Kap;a je y rrUTaI-bY HarOH sa OnCTaHKOM Ty CTBapH croje MalIO p;pyratmje. CBaKH pomrrezs Mopa na 3Ha ,n;aje crpax rrpxponan nparnnau ...
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y cnozsaunsea CBeTY.,lJ;eTeTYce cranzsa aa cpu;e BelIHKH sanarax, na rrOCTaHe cn cazrau CBeTa, jep ce Hp;eHTHcpHKyje ca ClIH'lHHM U;pTaHHMjYHaU;HMa. aTIpoH3BO~a'lH BHpTyelIHHx p;pa)!(H BplIO seurro aasapajy pop;HTelba jep U;eliTpalIHO MeCTOy canpacajy HrpHu;e, cpHlIMa, I1Tp;.rrpHrrap;a rnaBHOM "rr03I1TI1BliO~" jYHaKY. Ponarezs He CYMlba p;a Ty HMa aexer 1I01lIer, a CBe je 1I01lIe, jep je rnaBlia nopyxa 1I01lIa: CBeTje onax 11sazsa ce 60Pl1Tl1 rrpoTHB isera, a 60p6e I1MacaMo I<aA I1Ma crpaxa, a MeHTalIHor CTpaxa HMa y H306HlbY, jep na fueMY CI1CTeMaTCKI1 p aAe rrp0I13BO~a'll1 cpHlIMOBa, l1rpHu;a ... Ilpazc Mopa 6HTH CBe jaxa, jaxa on nperxonne. Ilere rrpeaaaanasa "HI1Hl,Ie" "MorlHe Pemrepe"..., Tpa)!(l1 .Hoh seurnrua 1", .Hoh BeIlITHu;a 2", .Hoh BellITl1~ HapaCTa MeHTalIHl1 CTpax, aapacra nponopnxonanao l1 HAllETOCT ua 3"... ,lJ;OK saurer nerera xojy BI1rroKYlliaBaTe p;a I1Crrpa3HHTe Ka3HaMa H 6aTHHaMa He 3Hajynl1 p;a CTe caao OTBOPl1lIl1npocrop aa p;albe p;HBlbafue MeHTalIHor crpaxa H rrpn. jeM HOBe, Herrpl1pOp;He p;pa)!(H. 3aCTpallieHO nere ce 6YP;11y KOIliMapHMa, yrrana y Balli xpeser, l13 xojer cana reunco MO)!(eTe H36aU;HTH, jep H CaMl1ocehare p;a je TO MeCTOcrraca aa aaure nere, YMeCTOna noracnre y3poKe, Bl1nonyurrare na nere aacraszsa na ce MyqH y KOllIMapHMa, MOKPHy xpener, p;a 6yp;e Xl1rrepaKTHBHO,p;a lIyP;l1on arpecnje, p;a BaM 3aropxana )!(l1BOTcnasajyha ca BaM, p;a ce yMOpHl1 6yp;l1Te, p;a CTe CBe p;albl1 op; cyrrpyra, KOjH cnasa y naesaoj C06l1 11TaKO penov. Ilere paCTe H cnpeaao je na rrpl1XBaTI1",lJ;ocHje Y1KC" y KaCHl1MHOnHl1McaraMa, xana ce lIep;H KpB y )!(l1lIaMa. TIpl1XBaTa rropmrhe H y6p30 CXBaTl1KaKOna rrpa3HH HarreTOCT, rryresr MeHTalIHor cexca. Jep;I1Hl1 CPHlIMOBHKOjl1 ra rrpHBlIa'le cy CPl1lIMOBI1 0 P;yxOBl1Ma, BaMrrl1pl1Ma, MOHCTPY03Hl1My6l1CTBl1Ma. Orrer HarreTOCT, jaxa, orrer noxyuraj rrpa)!(fuefua re HarreTOCTH KorrHpafueM csera llITO je Bl1~eHO na eKpaHy, a xana ponarezsy nocane yjnypae iserosor penuepa, "peHl,Iep" ,[Io6l1je )!(eCTOKe6aTl1He xoje My 61Iaropop;HO ncnpasae nanerocr, HlIH je caMO rrOH1CHe, y61Ia)!(l1. Kana 6aTHHe nere npepacre, a cana ce H saxononaaau YMellIao, rrpa3HJ1ne HarreTOCT U;HrapeTOM, 6P30M BO)!(fuOM,alIKOXOlIOM,nporoa H HapaBHO YlIaCKOM Y npepanx cexc, 601IellIny, Kpl1MI1HalIOM ... . J1We Ha cpehy, l11I11 aa )!(alIOCTy jep;HoM MOMeHTYMeHTalIHH crpax He peary)e B na HOBy, nonyhexy p;pa)!(, Ma KOlIl1KOce OHa iseroaoa TBOPU;y'll1Hl1lIa Bemll<oM. 'T' TaHrana caara MeHTalIHor cTpaxa no-onse na onana, a HCTOBpeMeHOHarOH sa orrc KOMocraje 6e3 3allITHTHHKa, 'lyBapa. HarOH aa OrrCTaHKOM p;06Hja CBOjJ1CKpJ1~}beHH 061Il1KY )!(elbH na ce He )!(HBH.Taj neo )!(HBOTanpahex je nocanoa. p;errpecJ1)OM, BaKBa oceharsesr 6ecMHclIa, Op;CYCTBOM MOTHBaU;Hjesa pap;, aa )!(HBOT.l.JecTO ce 0 craisa aaapmasajy caMoy6HcTBOM.
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AparH pop;HTelbH, na He 6HCTe p;O)!(HBelIHp;a 6yp;eTe CBep;OKOBaKBor cratsa y 'eM 6H Morno na ce aabe H saute nere, Ben nanac My rrOM03HTe na CBOjMeHTalI~o) . Ji~ CTpax BpaTH y KpHlIO rrpHpop;e, y KO)eM HMa MeCTa caste sa rrpHpop;HH CTpax, x KO)'HCTe My nonapana po~efueM. Osor TpeHa YKHHHTerrpHHyp;y H YClIOBlbaerp a atbe, npe3allITHnHBafue, Bep6alIH3aM H rrOM03HTe saurea MalIHllIaHY p;a ce OClIO:OP,H "BHpTyelIHe l1 ayp;HTHBHe npore", on xoje je nOCTaO 3aBHCTaH. 3aIlITHTl1Te ere CBHXlIOIlIHXcanpzcaja xoje Hy,[le "Mep;Hjl1" CBHXBpCTa, KBa3H YMeTHOCT, KBa3l1 :aYKa, a KOjHneocrropao H3a3l1Bajy HeraTHBHe eMOU;l1jey cpu;y nerera, ysehasajy ft{eHTalIHHcrpax y fueroBoj rnaBHU;H H HarreTOCT y u;elIOMreny. TeK nOIliTO CTe ra OClIo60P;HlIl1BHpTyelIHl1X CTpaXOBa, CBeje cnpesmo p;a nere HarrYCTHBalli xpeser P caMO cnasa y Co6l1. Y1TO je rryT cnanrasarsa saurer 6paKa. Mopa ce 3HaTl1 rrpHpO,[laHrropenax CTBapH, rra ce Mopa 3HaTl1 H KOrne crrana. Ben osor rpena. no-mere p;a npHTIoMonH here CBOMnerery CHrypHO YKOlIl1KO, MetbyjeTe npmruane craapanasxor sacmrrarsa. TIO'lHl1Te p;a IlITl1THTe saure nere op, arpeCl1je p;pyrl1X IbYP;l1,on BlIaCTHTe arpecaje l1 arpecaje Mep;l1ja. CBl1 nmnnaHP BaCrrl1THHMop;elIH cy 061Il1U;l1arpecaje. Ilonaxo, amr Cl1ryPHO saute nere he ce oClIo6a~aTH HaneTOCTl1, CTpax he ce apaharn y KpHlIO npHpop;e, a HCKpl1BlbeHl1 HarOH sa onCTaHKOM he ce peBHTalIl130BaTH. Hesrojre casro pehx p;a He 3HaTe onaxne p;a noxaere. TIO'lHl1Te OTnO'leTKa. CaMH HlIH ca OCTalIl1M 'llIaHOBl1Ma noponxne ynoanajre CTYP;l103HO canpzcaj sapryeznorx rrporpaMa xoje rrpaTH Balli MalIl1llIaH l1 na 6e3601IaH Ha'll1H OP;BOjare saure nere on Tl1X HeraTHBHl1X canpzcaja. .Penuepx", rryua-rnaa, na H rrporpaa cartoon-sera, ylITpa xaaazra, Mory na oP;y na ronannsx OP;MOp,a BH H aaure nere MopaTe OTHnH y rrpHpop;y l1 60lbH H snpaaxja )!(HBOT. BI1p;elIHCMOna KOjHHa'lHH ce cTBapa MeHTalIHH cTpax H rra KOjHHa'lHH 3aropxaaa )!(I1BOTBaMa l1 aaurev p;eTeTy. ClIl1'lHO ce neuraaa H ca MeHTalIHOM ceKcyalIHOMeHeprl1jOM 0 KOjOj MopaMO nporosopara Kp03 rrpH'ly 0 ...

HaioHY 3a upogYJICe1-beM epciue

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6HOlIOIlIKl1 HarOHH He Tpa)!(e cnOlbHY p;pa)!(, He aaxresajy MOTl1B . aU;l1)Y To Tpa)!(e caao xana ce l1CKpl1BeH rronefuY na MeHTalIHH Hl1BO.Hnp. li<enYAaU; He noxaayje Hl1KaKBe 3HaKe na je TellO rnanao, HanpOTHB, ocehare na CTe CI1TJ1a . II ' 1I11Kap;a 0'll1 Bl1p;e npHMaMlbHBY peKlIaMY YKYCHe-roxonane, reno peary)e, 1f~J.tnpeMa ce aa npasrarse xpaHe H Y3HMa je. 3Ha'lH MeHTalIHa rnan rj, HCKpHBlbeJ13BOPHI1HarOH mana pearyje aa HepealIHY p;pa)!(, HaKO reno HHje rnanao. ,lJ;a
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JIJ1 BaM je cana jacao na 6J1 rrajtiorsa AJ1jeTa 6J1JIa OCJI0601)elbe on CBJ1Xpe . naMa OA CBJ1XBJ1pTyeJIHJ1X Apa)J(J1 KOJe ce HYAe J1CKpJ1BlbeHJ1MHarOHJ1Ma. ' HarOH aa npOAY)f(elbeM BpCTe raxohe He Tpa)f(J1 cnOlbHY npaac. TeJIO paCT . e, pa3BJ1Ja ce J1 cnpeMa aa ocraszsarse nOTOMCTBa. vIcToBpeMeHo pOAJ1Telb TTaJ'e MHoro lby6aBJ1 AeTeTY J1 nere nocraje cnocotiao na Jbytias Aa. fIpJ1POAHI1 npaTl1n oaor aaroaa je cexcyamra eaeprnja xoja Tpa)f(J1 cnOlbHY npaac , aJII1 TeK n OlUTO aQ . je . TeJIO CPJ13J1'lKJ1 J1nCJ1XJ1'lKJ1Ca3pJ1. ]eAJ1Ha npJ1pOAHa Apa)f( cexcyanae enepj- I1Je
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BOlbEHA OCOEA CYfIPOTHOr fIOlIA. CBe je y peAY J1y CKJIaAYca npl1pOAOM apcre. AOK He Ao1)e AO snoynorpefie npaTJ10u;a aarona sa nponyaceiseu ,lJ;OKce 'lYAa TeXHOJIOrJ1je, HJ1CYYMelliaJIa y aacmrrarse neue 611JIOje 3JIOyno_ rpetie cexcyanne eaepnrje, 360r nesaarsa ponrrrezsa J1 CBe je 6J1JIO peJIaTI1BHO 6e3a3JIeHo. POAJ1Telb je npJ1HYAoM nyHJ10 nere nanerourhy, aJIJ1 JIaraHO. MaKcl1MyM HaneTOCTJ1 je AOCTJ13aH OKOnsaaaecre rOAJ1He )f(J1BOTa nerera, (raj nepl10A crpy-nsaun Ha3J1Bajy rrytieprerov). Hartero nere cnysajao, I1JIJ1naxrepuo OTKPI1je Aa ce HaneTOCT Haj6p)f(e npa3HJ1 AJ1palbeM CBOjJ1XnOJIHJ1XopraHa (MacTyp6aU;l1jOM). Ilere OApaCTa, rrocraje 3peJIJ1je, npl1TJ1CaK pomrrersa ua nere ce cMafuyje jep je pOAJ1Telb nOCTJ1raO OHO lliTO je xreo, CBe J1Ae CBOjJ1MTOKOM. <I>a3a ny6eprera ce npeBa3J1JIa3J1 11MeHTaJIHI1 cexc ce spaha y KpJ1JIOnpl1poAe, rsyfiaa ce naje nozseaoj oc06J1 cynpoTHor nOJIa J1CBe je cnpeano aa peanaaauajy aaroaa aa npoAY)f(elbeM spcre. Illra cyypaAJ1JIJ1 Bl1pTyeJIHJ1 cexc J1HOBJ1"BaCnI1THJ1MOAeJIJ1caapeveaor A06a? Ileua ce naaac nacnxrasajy J1CKlbyqJ1BO n03J1TJ1BHJ1M YCJIOBlbaBalbeM J1 6JIarOM npI1HYAoM, 0AY3J1MalbeM HarpaAe. Ilere je HenpeCTaHo y crpaxy na JII1 he 3aCJIy)f(I1TJ1HarpaAY. Ilourro cy Ka3Ha J1HarpaAa HenpeCTaHO aa Cu;eHJ1, nere je nenpeCTaHO y TeH3J1jJ1, 360r npJ1cyTHor cTpaxa. AKO TOMe npl1AOAaMO J1CTJ1HYna ce nere nenpecrano HaJIa311 J1cnpeA espana rnenajyha, HaJ13MeHJ1'lHO, nacuzse, cexc, pexnaae, OHAa je jacno na he HaneTOCT J1 crpax 6J1TJ1YBehaBaHJ1, a norpefia sa npaaosea.esr orpoMHa. MCToBpeMeHo nanero nere, XTeJIO J1JIJ1He, rnena na eKpaHY rOJIJ1u;aBe ceKCJ1 cuene. Ha lbJ1X aanero nere He MO)f(e na OCTaHe J1MyHO. Cnyxajao J1JIJ1HaMepHO, UMJ1TJ1pajyhl1 cnene ca eKpaHa, nere OTKpJ1je Aa ce JIaKO oCJI06a1)a HaneTOCTJ1, aKO ce aerrpecraao I1rpa CBOjJ1MnOJIHJ1M OpraHJ1Ma . Ilanac J1MaMOTY)l(HY cnJ1KY rne MaJIl1lliaHJ1 113Me1)yTpJ1 J1'leTJ1pJ1 rOAJ1He MacTyp6J1pajy", na CBOj Ha'lJ1H, a Ae'laU;J1 J1neaojxnue seh ca nnaaaecr rOAJ1Ha crynajy y npepaHe cexcyamre OAHOce, npaaaeha aa raj Ha'lJ1H CBOjy HaneTOCT . Ila 6J1 TO MOmJ1 ypaAJ1TJ1 YBeK KaA CY HaneTJ1 rrorpeoua J1Mje HOBa, jaxa HerrpJ1pOAHa Apa)f(, jaxa OA OHe jyqepaUII-be. Pex je 0 ynorpetia MeHTaJIHe ceKcyanHe eaepraje, rj. pe'l je 0 3JIoynoTpe6J1 npw pOAHe cexcyanae enepraje. HOBa HerrpJ1pOAHa Apa)f( xoja AOJIa3J1 ca eKpaHa, J13
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. J(O}e M a)l(tbetbe, y nenornen. oP Be 6J1 6J1JIO np06JIeMa xana 6J1 npJ1I>OAa A03BOlbaBana 'loBeK: na ce TaKO. y eTTJ1rpa. fIpJ1pOAa je 'lOBeKY nOAapJ1JIa cexcyamry eaeprajy y cpyHKU;J1JI1 aep;or n M . )l(eJba spcre J1 y cpyHKU;J1jJ1crnaparsa 3aAOBOlbCTBa KOJe AOHOCJ1cax cexnpoAY 'lJ1H xana ce otiaazsa ca BOlbeHOM OC060M cynporaor nOJIa. fIpJ1pOAa He cyanHn nJ1 3JIoynoTpe6y J13aTO xaxosasa xoaexa. ~ ~. PenaTJ1BHO 6p30 caBpeMeH, MJIaA 'lOBeK ne npeCTaTJ1 Aa pearYJe na BJ1pTyeJIHe Apa)l(J1 xoje My ce HYAe. Y jeAHoM MOMeHTY HeMa re Apa)l(J1 xoja MO)l(e npofiyJ1 OTYAa AOJIa3J1AO TOJIJ1KO AJ1TJ1 MeHTaJIHY cexcyamry eneprajy, OHa cnrraunsasa AaHac 'leCTe J1MnOTeHU;J1je06a nOJIa. <I>a6pJ1Ke" aa npaszsen,e ceKcyaJIHJ1X Apa)l(J1 cana npepacrajy y cpa6pJ1Ke" sa npaBlbetbe cpeACTaBa sa noznraarse nOTeHU;J1je (Bnjarpa, 6pOjHJ1 crrpejean, caj6ep cexc ...). M3BOPHJ1 HarOH aa npOAY)l(elbeM BpCTe ce KPJ1BJ1y )l(elbY na ce He OCTaBJ1nOTOMCTBO. Ilere ce paha, aeryje J1 pasnxja y KpJ1JIy 6paKa J1 noponaue, KOjJ1 cana nocrajy J13JIJ1lliHJ1jep cy J13ry6J1JIJ1 CBOjy OCHOBHYCPYHKU;J1jy, jep 'lOBeK HeMa norpetiy aa npoAY)l(elbeM BpcTe. J1Ma nJ1 J13JIa3a? Ila! 3aTBOpJ1Te MaTepJ1U;y noponxue xojy CTe TaKO HaJ1BHO OTBOPJ1JIJ1 J1yrp03J1JIJ1 saure poheao nere xoje MaPA 6J1TJ1 3arnTJ1heHO OA MHOrJ1XCBeTOBa, a HapO'lJ1TO OABJ1pTyeJIHJ1X, 6ap AOrpehe rOAJ1He, nOTnYHO, a nocne rpehe CBe Mopa 6J1TJ1nOA KOHTPOJIOMpOAJ1Telba, 6ap AOABaHaeCTe rOAJ1He. qyjeM: "To je aesroryhe!" Y perry, oana ce npJ1npeMJ1Te aa 036J1lbHa nexersa satuer nereTa, xana sa TO nohe spene.

uca ca peKJIaMa ca nopxnha ... je y <PYHKU;J1jJ1 npaaciseisa HaneTOCTJ1 nocne , ' J1 TaKO peAOM. Ilytseise, eHTanHJ1 crpax nOHOBO nyHJ1 nere nanerourhy

POAI1Telbl1, He npojexryjre crpaxose, He yaehasajre BJIaCTI1Te MeHTanHe crpaXOBe OA cycpera Barner nerera ca crrorsaunsxa CBeTOM, OA cycpeTa ca HaCl1lbeM CBI1XBpCTa, ca cexrana, BI1 CTe CBO aacazse 11CBe cexre CBeTa, (cexra je CBe urro paAI1 npOTJ1B paCTa lby6aBI1 J1 snpanor )f(l1BOTa y nopOAI1U;I1), nycnlJIl1 y )l(J1BOT Balle nopornme npexo HeraTJ1BHI1X BJ1pTyeJIHJ1X J1 aYAI1TJ1BHI1X canpzcaja. OA osor TpeHyTKa cYA611Ha saurer nerera je Y BaUIJ1MpYKaMa. ]eAI1HO CTe BI1, J1 caMOBI1 onroaopna 3a oaaj orpoxtan 6poj BI1Aeo xacera, ,lJ;B,lJ;, U,lJ;, y Kojl1Ma I1Ma 6ap no jenna neurrnna, jenaa BYKOAJIaK,jenaa MOHCTPYM,jeAaH AYX,jenaa nanaCHI1I<, Kpl1rnOM I1Xcnaxyjre, OAHeCI1Te aa TaBaH, a saurea rporonaunsaxy peU;l1Te na cy lberOBI1 OMl1lbeHI1 jyHaU;11OTl1lliJII1 na ronnuns OAMOp. CBe cepnje, CBI1canpscaja nporpasra Mopajy J1MOry jeAJ1HO6J1THnOA saurov KOHTPonoM. BI1 CTe TJ1KOjJ1yKlb yqyjy J1J1CKlb yqyjy AyrMe csor TeneBJ130pa. IT peCTaHHTe a Ac I<PI1BI1Te npyre, OHJ1 rrpase 11rryurrajy TaKBe nporpaxte KaKBe rrpaBe 11nyurrajy. Be')e Y CKJIaAr ca CTafueM CBeCTI1rrpoasnobaxa 11fuJ1XOBOM)f(elbOM sa npo<pJ1TOM.
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OHI1 H~e, a BI1 I1MajTe caare ~a TO 0~6I1jeTe, aa pa~ocT sanrer nerera, KOjer neTe rrOBeCTI1y rrpl1po~y I1nl1 y ~pyry cooy ~a nesare, Be)l(6aTe, nneurere, na ce I1rpa Ka)l(eTe." HeMaMO spesreaa, MHoro parnoao., " "HI1CTe MI1jaCHI1, a lUT re. ?" H . 0 CTe Me pomorn: I1CaM BaM Ja YKpaCHa nasa. To CTe MOpanl1 3HaTI1. AKo no'" ""en~'I1'e na saarse craapanaxxor sacnaraa,a npxxeiorre y sanroj noponxnx, cXBaTJ.iheTe nerrory onrajarsa nerera, Haje reunco, aepyjre MI1. HanpOTI1B. ,[(OBOlbHOje caM . 0 HeKOnl1KOMeCe~11 na noponana, KOJa ce onpeneznora sa crnapazra-nco aacrnnTalbe npehe y n03I1TI1BHOCT, na ce 113Byqe 113Bl1pa aYTOpI1TapHOCTI1, yKI1HyBlUl1 nnl1~ lllaHY 11peanHy rrpI1Hy,o;y.,[(eTe he rana caxo 0,o;611jaTI1HeraTI1BHe ca,o;p)f(aje 11Ka,o; My I1XHeKO rronymr. YKOnl1KOHe YKI1HeTe nmnuaae, seh Me caao caBpeMeHa aa BpeMe xazosaaare, 0,o;y3l1Majyhl1 MI1eKpaH, HI1111Ta irehesro ypa~I1TI1. [a hy ce B a. . . P TI1TI1I1rpl1~aMa jour noxnerrmqa, Jep M03aK 3Ha na xexa, a BI1 here ce nl1TaTI1,y neaaarsy, urra, xana rroxaev na ynapa 11aac 11,o;apa36l1jaM CBe rro Kyhl1. ,[(aKne, xana ynaanre y crsapazrsxo, jacno nourazsnre MOMyMy I1H<popMa~l1jy: "BpaTl1helll ce eKpaHy, arnr HI1Ka,o;aBI1111e, y3 naur 6narocnOB, aeheur I1rpaTI1 I1rpl1~e, xoje cy npOTI1B Bora 11xosexa" Ilparx MOjl1,KaKO CTe ycnena na 3a60paBl1Te npBy 60)1(11jy 3anOBeCT: "He y611j"!!! Pexocsro ~a caao naner qOBeK I1Ma norpetiy sa rrpa)l(lbelbeM 11rrOHOBHI1M nyrselbeM. Bacmrran,e 6e3 Ka3He 11narpane, xao onroj aa crsapananrrao, neryje 11pa3Bl1ja apmrne, qYBa 113BOpHe eMO~l1je 11nosraace nerery, qOBeKY ,o;aI1Xnpenoaaa 11 pearyje anexsarno na )l(I1BOTHecnryamrje. Cn060~aH nporox 113BOpHI1X, 3alllTI1THl1X eMO~l1ja BO,o;11 ,[(06pOTI1 11Jby6aBI1. BO~11Mapy Y ce611 11OKOce6e, BO~11,0;0 castor 113BOpa, ,0;0'[(y60Ke CBeCHOCTI1. ql1TajTe osaj neo "EyKBapa" HeKOnl1KOrryra. Klbyq aanrer rr03l1Tl1BHOr pacTa 3aBl1Cl1 0,0;rora KaKO hexro npaha 113BOPHl1M6110nOlllKl1M 11~yXOBHI1M HarOHI1Ma. Ilpahesro nl1 npl1Hy~oM 11rr03l1Tl1BHl1M ycnoszsaaarsea aehe 6l1Tl1 HI1 snpaBlba HI1ocaajaisa rr03I1TI1BHe, sese-me CBeCTI1.YKI1HeMOnl1 rrpl1Hy~y 11rr03l1Tl1BHO ycnoazsaaarse, YKI1HeMOnl1 nnl1111aHY11peanHy rrpl1Hy~y y rrOpO~l1qHI1M O,o;HOCI1Ma, rrpl1MeHI1MOnl1 rrpamnme crnapazraxxor nacrrxrarsa, aa rryTy CMO~a OCBOjl1MOJby6aB, snpasn,e 11,[(06pOTY.

Haion sa tuenecnosc axiuuenotuhy

Ee3 renecne aKTI1BHOCTI1qOBeK He MO)l(e )l(I1BeTI1, He MO)l(e 6l1Tl1 3~paB. CBaKI1 qOBeK I1Ma 113pa)l(eH 6110nOlllKl1 HarOH sa TeneCHOM axrannourhy 11OHrrpe,o;CTaBJDa 6e3ycnOBHY norpetiy sa casrocnoaaajosr 11OqYBalbeM 11yaanpehen.e 3,o;paBJDa TeJla.
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MopaMO jacao O~BOjI1TI1CBe 06nl1Ke renecae aKTI1BHOCTl111cnopTa Kojl1Ma ce 6aBe 06l1qHl1 lby,o;11113Jby6aBl1l1 rrorpetie 6110nOlllKOr 6l1na, 0,0;BPxYHcKor crrop'I1M ce 6aBl1 onaopaaa cnoprcxa emrra. Y BPXYHCKOM cnopTY nonaan no Kpl1'fa K OJ a..a 113BOPHl1Xnaroaa xao nocnennna nyroronaunser HarropHor Be)l(6alba, BJDe .. o,o;pl1~atba 0,0;nermscrsa, Mna,o;oCTI1,csoje renepaunje, 360r noxnene sa HOB~eM 11 CJlaBOM,360r ynorpetie cpencrasa sa nocraaarse BpXyHCKI1Xpesynrara, 360r CHa)l<Henpl1Hy,o;e 11rr03l1Tl1BHOr ycnoazsaaaisa, 360r aacazsa xoje je aajjase y cnopTy. 360r cnera peqeHOr ,o;olllno je ,0;0rpancrpopaauaje 113BOpHOr narona 3a reneCHOMaKTI1BHOlllhy y ycnoBlbeHY norpetiy 3a HeraTI1BHOM peanaaauajosr renecae Cnoprcxe apeae, xane, TepeHI1 cy nocraznr MeCTa rne ce oxynzsajy aKTI1BHOCTI1. Ml1nl10Hl1naCI1BHI1XKOH3YMeHaTa ca ~l1lbeM ,o;anpaane HaneTOCT xao noczrenmry npl1Hy,o;e y nacmrraisy, npso y nopo,o;I1~I1. TI1 Ml1n110HI1,KBa311CrrOpTI1CTa, nzrahajy BpxyHcKe CrrOpTI1CTe11CBe OKOlbl1X He ,o;a611Y)l(l1Banl1 y nenOTI1 crropTa seh na aa Tpl16l1HaMa cyxene <pPOHT rrpOTI1B <ppoHTa, na ,o;OK rpaje Meq aafiopase aa CBOjyMyKy,,o;a cnotionao rrcyjy, osranoaascaaajy, pyllle, TyKy 11y6l1jajy, aKO rpeoa, TInaTl1nl1 cy, I1Cnpa3Hl1nl1, na KpaTKO, CBOjy MyKy 11aanarzren 3a,o;OBOlbHI1spahajy ce y Mallll1HY aYTopMTapHor )l(I1BOTa. Ilaaac cy cTa,o;110HI1rrpenyHI1 Mna,o;Mx, KOjM cy rrocnenxua nznnuane M peanHe npmryne. OHM cana caao ysspahajy, ,o;pylllTBy, peanHMM HaCMlbeM. To cy MOM~11 KOjl1cy I1Manl1jax 113BOPHl1HarOH n03MTMBHe 60p6eHocTM, KOjM ce TonMKO I1CKPI1Bl10 M nOrrpl1MMO 06nMK TaKBe arpecnje, KaKBYHe nasrre Tpa~I1~MOHanHa nopoAI1~a, Tpa~I1~110HanHI1 CTa,o;MOHM. To cy OHI1 )l(eCTOKI1, aecpehan MOM~M, xoje Ka)l(lbaBaMO najjaxe, 6a~aMo MX y aarsope, He ocehajyhz HMTpyHKy KpI1BI1~e, He narajyh ce KOje lbl1XOBe po,o;MTelbe y6a~110 y HaKa3Ho, nnmuano aacmrrarse. IDMXOBMspunsaua, raxohe nrrmuaae 6e6e, HMCYna ynl1~aMa, CTa~MOHI1Ma, He TyKy rej norryrrauajy, He pasfiajajy rpa,o;, He rrane aYTOM06I1ne, qMM ce nahy na HeKOMnpOTeCTY, onpacnxx. OHI1 cy na <pejC6YKY,aa Bl1pTyenHoM HaCMlbY,OHI1cy aa eKCTpeMHMMcnOpTOBI1Ma, OHMcy na ,o;poraMa, y 60nHM~aMa, na rrCMXOTepaI1l1jaMa,y 3aBMCHOCTMMa CBMX Moryhl1x 06n11Ka. OHM ce He TyKy na ymnraaa, ana l1Maehe 6l1TMCTpaHO na I1CTYKY ponarersa, 6aKY, Aa noytiajajy Ilona onersersa I1nl1 Ilona HaCTaBHl1qKOr KOneKTI1Ba, y nacryny rrOMpaqelba yMa. Hexo he xnax MopaTM ,o;anonaece paqyH OBOj necpernoj ~e~M 11jour aecperH' I1JI1M nopO~M~aMa,_MnM he 6ap MOpaTI1,o;a aarpaxce onpourraj, lllTO cy, y BnaCTMTOMHe3HalbY, ynaurrxna MMnl10He naurxx rrOTOMaKa, 111l1pOM nnanere. BepOBaTHO hesro 11MOrrpOCTI1TM,jep HMCYHI1 CaMI1 aaana KaKBe nocnenaQe Hoce ner nnl1111aHl1X.HI1CY ce611 CMenl1 ,o;03BOnI1TI1na ner nnl1111aHI1XCTaBe y ~:~arOlUKo-nCMxonOlllKY nl1TepaTypy, ,o;aTO jaano rrpOMOBI1111y,xao ~I1Bl1nI13a)C1<oHanpe,o;He BaCnl1THe Mo~ene, ~a I1XCTaBe y CBe uprahe, y CBe CnI1KOBHI1~e,
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HJ1cy 3HaJIJ1, a xana He snaur, OH~a TJ1 ce JIaKO onpanrra, Ila cy 3HaJIJ1, 6ap 611 OqYBaJIJ1CBOjy ~eQY. Casro OHJ1saajy, urra cy ypa~J1JIJ1 ce6J1 J1 CBOjOj~eQI1. AKo cy J1XOqYBaJIJ1,TO ry6J1 CMJ1CaO, jep nrra he HeKOJIJ1QJ1Ha 3~paBJ1X pa~I1TJ1 y cBe'!'y HeCpeTHJ1x. Ynpaersara CBeTOMHeCpeTHJ1X, MO)f(e necperaa, aJIJ1 TaKaB CBe'!' He MO)f(e ~yro rpajarn. 3~paB TO HJ1Ka~a aehe MohJ1. 3~paBJ1 he yqJ1HJ1TJ1 CBe na ncnpase rpelliKe CBOjJ1Xponarezsa, ~a crnapajy je~aH 60lbJ1, nerrunr CBeT, BpanajyhJ1 secperne. CBOMeJ13BOPY,Jhy6aBJ1. ~aj 60)f(e ~a cy J1XCaqYBaJII1. Ilpanr pO~I1TelbJ1, Ha~aM ce ~a CTe CXBaTI1JII1 pa3JII1Ky J13Met)y cnopra 11"cnopra", He rypajre Me y qelbYCTI1 "crropTa" 113BJIaCTI1TI1X I1HTepeca ~OK I1CTOBpeMeHO satiopaszsare aa csoje nere J1lberOBe I1CTJ1HCKe rrorpetie. Je~I1Ha J1CTJ1HCKa norpe6a jecre ~a BJ1J1ja rrOCJIe csera OqYBaMO Pa~OCT )f(J1Blbelba.

MIlITO 3HaQJ1na CBe llITO nere YQJ1y HajpaHJ1jeM ~eTJ1lbCTBy Mopa rrpeTOToM Y , . nponJ1 Kp03 cpue. Je~J1HO yqelbe C Jhy6aBlby )e npaso yxerse, O "oAli n06pojaheMo HajBa)f(HJ1je nyxonne aarone: . . HaroH aa OQYBalbeM npnponae XapMOHJ1je, pa3BJ1)a)yhJ1 KJIJ1Qe Jhy6aBJ1, ~06pOTe, Pa~OCTJ1, CBOjCBeYKyrrHJ1rrOTeHQl1jaJI, csoje TaJIeHTe, YBeK J1je~J1[I

no 6e3 Ka3He J1aarpane. HaroH ~a Jhy6aB rrpl1MaMO 6ap ~BaHaeCT rO~J1Ha na 6J1CMOJ1MaJIJ1urra ~a ~ajeMO uenor )f(J1BOTa. Harali ~a Jhy6aB rrO~apI1MO, y3 YCJIOB ~a je J1MaMO HarOH na )f(J1BJ1MO y CKJIa~HJ1MO~HOCI1Maca lby~I1Ma J1rrpJ1pO~OM HarOH sa yqelbeM J1MJ1TJ1palbeMQOBeQHJ1X canpzcaja, pasaajajyha KJII1QYxojy ~OHOCJ1MO pohersea, KOjOM,y CBaKOMTpeHyTKy, HerrOrpeWJ1BO, npenosnajeMOurra je notipo, a urra 3JIO, paasnjajyha cnocooaocr na crrozsaunse ~06po J1MJ1TJ1paMO J1JII1ra 113HyTpa CTBapaMO, napyjyha ra cnozsaunsex CBeTY HarOH sa casropanox HarOH sa cavooripasoaarsea, canopanoa, caMoYQelbeM 11castonacnararsea HarOH sa rr03J1TJ1BHOM npnnanaourhy rrOpO~I1QHoj 3aje~HI1QJ1, a rrOTOMCBJ1M y)f(J1MJ111IJ1PJ1M rr03J1TJ1BHJ1M 3aje~HJ1QaMa lby~J1. HarOH 3a caaocnosaajoa csaxor J13BopHOr aaroaa, 113BopHor TaJIeHTa HarOH sa caMOpeaJIJ13aQJ1joM Kp03 rr03J1B 11pO~J1TelbCTBo HarOH sa casroocrnapersesr aaj-roaexaajer ~eJIa ce6e, Kp03 CBe cerraenre )f(I1BOTa HarOH aa oceharsex CJ1rypHOCTJ1 HarOH sa ~06l1jalbeM 11~aBalbeM rr03J1TJ1BHenonpurxe HarOH aa yrnenox HarOH sa xaurhy HarOH aa norrynapaomhy Haron aa pasaajarsea YMeTHJ1QKJ1X crroc06HOCTJ1, aa pa3BI1jalbeM TaJIeHara: Kp03 rrryMy, mrcaise, CJIJ1Kalbe, necsry, nnec, caM )f(J1BOT,KOjl1he rrocraTJ1npxyacxa YMeTHocT... Haren .o;arrpJ1MaM napose YMeTHocTI1 J1nonapasr J1X~pyrJ1Ma HaroH na npeaasahea YMeTHocT J1rrOCTaHeM YMeTHJ1K)f(J1BOTa Haren aa HerOBaH,eM nenor rosopa J1J13pa)f(aBalba Haren ~a rrpJ1MaMO HaYQHa saarsa KaKO 6J1CMOCrr03HaJIJ1 rrpnpony HaroH .o;arrO~apJ1MO ~pyfJ1Ma csoja HayqHa OTKpJ1ha, y <PYHKQJ1jJ1 rr03J1TJ1Buor pacra QOBeQaHCTBa HaroH 3a panosaanourhy J1MalliTalbeM HaroH aa YKpalliaBalbeM
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/{YX08HU naionu
Ilyxoane naroae J1JII1npyra-mje peseno xarone ql1ja je caaocnosnaja rrpe~yCJIOB nyxosnor paCTa, raxohe ~OHOCI1MOpohersea. ~yXOBHJ1 HarOHJ1 cy 6pojHI1, lbl1X MopaMo MOTJ1BI1CaTI1, 6Y~I1TI1,Hy~ehl1l1M rr03J1TI1BHecanpzcaje, IlycTI1Te MallITI1 na BOlby. IlpOHaJIa3J1Te 6e36poj ~J1BHJ1Xna-nma ~a npotiymrre Hrrp. HarOH aa MY3I1KOM. To Cl1ryPHO nehere nocrahn YKOJII1KO nonycrxre nerery na crrywa necve y Kojl1Ma cy lby~J1 npocjaua lby6aBI1, y KojJ1Ma ce nnaxe 11HapJ1qe Ha~ aecpehaosr lby6aBI1. Ycnehere Cl1ryPHO na rpajao rrp06Y~I1Te J13BOPHJ1HarOH aa MY311KOM KO~ CBora nerera, YKOJIJ1KO CTe rpajno YKJ1HYJII1 rrpl1Hy~y J1rr03J1TI1BHOyczroszsasan-e. rrOCJIe xera cy CBI1YKyhaHI1 pacnonoacenx, CrrpeMHI1 aa rr03J1TJ1BHYcaparusy ca ~eTeToM. To je Haj60lba MOTI1BaQl1jajep )f(I1BOT6e3 rrJII1WaHI1X,)f(J1BOT y xojex ce QYBa MaTepJ1Qa rropomnre, jaxa cpQe nerera y KOPI1CTBpJIJ1Ha 11J13BOPHI1X 3allITI1THI1XeMOQl1ja. TaKBo nere he casro aaha, J1JIJ1y3 BallIY nosroh, rryT no notipe MY3J1Kexoja he My rrOCTaTJ1cpe~CTBO ~a My )f(J1BOTnocraae MY3J1Ka. Haron aa rrpJ1pO~HJ1M pe~oM CTBapJ1 ce Mopa rrOlliTOBaTJ1.Ilere rtpao Mopa ~a ynosna J1J1)f(J1BJ1 CBeT csoje rropo~J1Qe, 6ap .0;0censre rO~J1He, a rrOTOMce YJIa3J1Y crpane cseroae, ITa J1BJ1pTyeJIHe; pO~J1Telb Mopa na 6y~e BO~J1QCBOM~eTeTY, CBe ~OK nere He 6y~e rrperrJIaBlbeHO Jhy6aBlby J1~OK He ~OCTJ1rHe naxohy OCTBapetba eMOQJ10HaJIHe J1HTeJIJ1reHQJ1je. Y nerery Mopa rrpBO na jaxa neirrap CPQa, a TeK
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 Haren aa qOBeqHI1M onrajaisea nOTOMaKa Haron sa penaraoaaourhy, CnpaBOM 6J1 rpetiao

Bpesre

IIpHpOAa

0 cBeMY BOAH pa,{YHa. 3Ha

IToAapHJIa

je '{oBeKY

KJUiQY ,ll;06poTe

.:

na
yM

CTOjJ1

na

narnor

paCTa

KnJ1~e penJ1rJ103HOCTJ1

TeK rrpencrojn

npBOM leCTy qOBeKY Tpene;

II H:' peH

HpoAa

na

lie Ta KJIHQa,

na

nYTy

pacra,

'{eCTO 6HTH yrpmKaBay 3JIO,

p;a ce p;06pOTa

He 6H HCKpHBHJIa

H TpaHc<i>opMHCaJIa

nona- .

MJ1neHJ1jYMa. Y ycnOBJ1Ma MOHJ130BaHO cp~e, MYIllKa rroarseae

6e3 aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1, ,l\OBeCTJ1 y fueMy.

he J1 cencxa eaeprnja
IllTO

no yuenosrsersa Cycper yuenonzseaor

he ce cnYCTI1TI1 Y x ap_ xonexa. Y~enOB"~ tue ce

MYIllKapQa 11Y

je

'{oBeKY:

xceae

6J1ne

cnoj

ue]1360PHU naion U03UUlU6He, ctueapanaxxe 6op6eHOCUlU

60)f(aHCKe Jby6aBJ1

y fuJ1Ma. I10TOMQJ1 TaKBJ1X JbY.o.I1

6J1he ,l\YXOBHJ1 ropOCTaCJ1,

J1CTJ1HCKJ1penJ1rJ103HJ1.

KnJ1QY penJ1fJ103HOCTJ1 CBaKO nere ,l\OHOCJ1pobersesr, Harpap;e BpeMeHO KnJ1Qa He

amt

ce y ycnOBJ1Ma Ka3He 11

HaroH

n03J1TJ1BHe,

pasaaja.

,[.(parJ1 MOjJ1, BO,l\J1neTe Me Y ,[.(OMfiora )f(J1BOra, a J1CTOY aautesr ,l\OMY here "y6J1jaTJ1 60ra" y

HI1X6J10nOIllKJ1X

crsapanaxxe 60p6eHOCTJ1 je najseha qyBap XapMOHJ1je J13BOpJ1 najneha nOMohHJ1K Y pacnserasatsy 113BOPHJ1XP,YXOBHJ1Xnaro-

MeHJ1. ce J13HeHa,l\J1TJ1 xana BaM y neseroj rO,l\J1HJ1, na J1 paaaje iennor nana Ka)f(eM: "O,l\ nanac He J1,l\eM na JIJ1TyprJ1jy, He J1p;eM aa MJ1CY"! Cana BaM je jacanje 3aIllTO 3aXTeBaM na Me He npesanrnrhyjere on pana, CaMO Kp03 pap; C Jby6aBlby, MOry cn03HaTJ1 cnoje J13BOpHe norpetie, csoje rarrenre, pasBJ1TJ1 CBe csoje KnJ1~e, CBOj nOTeHQJ1jan J1 TaKO nOMOnJ1 J1 BaMa ,l\a OCTBapJ1Te CBe IllTO BaM aYTOpJ1TapHJ1 CJ1CTeM HJ1je p;03BOnJ10. CBJ1 J13BOPHJ1 6J10nOIllKJ1 nonpasrajy ycnoazsaaarse, HaKa3HJ1 06nJ1K J1 p;YXOBHJ1 HarOHJ1 ce penaTJ1BHO YKOnJ1KO ce

here Heaojre

Me BaCnJ1TaBaTJ1 nnJ1IIlaHO.

)f(anOCT J13BOPHJ1 HarOH n03J1TJ1BHe 60p6eHOCTJ1 aYTOpJ1TapHJ1 CJ1CTeM Ha. Ha ' ocyhyje, aerapa, crryrasa, caceua y xopeay, Ha 6vlJl0 xojy BacnJ1Tafua najsmne

nooyny nerera

ce He

rnena

6narOHaKnOHO

jep cy MaHJ1<peCTa~J1je

aarona

n03J1-

TI1BHe 60p6eHOCTJ1 YKOJII1KO MaJIO he OBY HenpJ1jaTHy lbeM, J1JIJ1npeTlboM.

BpJIO

uenpajarne

sa

ponarersa. J1 yp;apa pO,l\J1Telba, pOp;J1Telb

nere

BPJ1IllTJ1, 6a~a

CBe OKO ce6e

MaHJ1<pecTaQJ1jy

JIaKO 3aYCTaBJ1TJ1 y,l\apalbeM

nerera,

nrnrrra-

[our aKO ce OBO noaauratse

nerera

,l\eCJ1JIO aa jaBHoM MeCTY,

naxo

KpJ1Be 11

J1JII1npep; rOCTJ1Ma, ponarezs MyqJ1

cnosnajy
y

Kp03

npJ1Hy,l\y,

n03J1TJ1BHO J1MJ1TaTOpKOjJ1 I1Majy

npeaaurrnhxaarsea, ysersa. HarOHJ1

Bep6anJ13MOM ce TpaHC<PoPMJ1IllY CBOjy nenOTY

J1 anoynorpetiox

cxor
rezs

06nJ1Ka

xcezse J1 nOpJ1Be,

jaqJ1HY J13BOpHOr Hnp.

aaroaa,

aJIJ1 ry6e

J1 <pyHK~J1jy. YKOnJ1KO POP;I1Hap; p;eTeTOM MO)f(e p;ohJil y )f(elbY p;a ce

BPIllJ1 )f(eCTOKY npJ1Hyp;y J13BOpHOr

J1nJ1 ycnoBlbaBafue YKpalliaBafueM, orrepauajasra,

P;O xpaszsen,a

aarona sa

reno onesanJ1pCJilH-

he pearOBaTJ1 6p30 J1 e<pJ1KaCHO, He mrrajyhx ce nrra rpazceha xopea OBaKBOM noaainaisy, (MO)f(,l\a je nerery spyhaua, MO)f(p;a My ce cnasa, MO)f(,l\a My je yrpO)f(eH noaoc ...). To, aYTOpJ1TapHOr POP;J1rersa He narepecyje, OH je,l\J1HO aacrojx na 3a,l\OBOlbJ1 Bep6aJIHJ1 3aXTeB nay-rea y p;eTJ1lbCTBY p;a nere Mopa 6J1TJ1 rrpJ1CTojHO npen p;pYfJ1Ma. PO,l\I1TelbY je 6J1THO na nere IllTO rrpe HayqJ1 P;PYlliTBeHe aopae rronatuaisa, He rnrrajyha sa ueny, He rpa)Kenl1 xoseaaa]e HaqJ1He, ceM OHJ1X xoje je J1 caM J1CKYCJ10y aajpannjea ,l\eTJ1lbCTBY

nere

J1 He

fueM, IllMJ1HKOM, <pPJ13YPOM, nnaCTJ1qHJ1M rOM nOBpep;J1 J1JIJ1 YHaKa3J1.

TeTOBa)f(aMa,

Pop;I1Telb He MO)f(e HJ1 na npeTrrOCTaBJ1 lbeM

,l\a je CBaKJ1M 6p3J1M J1 e<pJ1KaCHJ1M ",l\OBolje-

CBe IllTO qOBeK CTBOPJ1 y OKBJ1PY HaYKe, a HJ1je y cnY)f(6J1 n03J1TJ1BHor lbYP;J1, rOBOpJ1 0 J1CKpJ1BlbeHOM HarOHY enepnrje je

paCTa

aa

6aBlbefueM

HaYKOM.

Tsopau

aToMCKe

aeposarno

CTBOPJ10 Ty

eaeprnjy

ca ~J1JbeM,l\a yHanpep;J1 aToMcKY

)f(J1BOT qOBe-

xa. Tsopan

aTOMCKe 60M6e

je anoyrrorpetiao

eaeprxjy

npOTJ1B qOBeKa, HaYKoM, a 11op,cy-

jep je OqJ1mep;HO J1MaO J1CKpJ1BlbeH J13BOPHJ1 HarOH aa 6aBlbefue CTBO eMO~J10HanHe HarOHJ1, npO~BeTaTJ1 3aBJ1CJ1 XapMOHJ1je. TaneHTJ1, nOTeH~J1janJ1,

norpetie,

y CBOj CBOjOj nenOTJ1, ponarezsa cana

J1nJ1 he P;06I1TJ1 He)f(elbeHJ1

on onnyxe

na

ce onpep;ene

CBe TO P;OHOCJ1MO na CBeT. ,Ua JIJiIhe O 06JIJ1K, p;JilpeKTfl arosa CTBapaJIaqKO J1nJ1 he OCTan1 3

pen", nere CBe nazse O,l\ csor J13BopHOr naroaa 60p6eHoCTI1, CBe ,l\albe op; POp;J1TeJba, nopomnte, a CBe 6JIJ1)f(e HaKa3HOM 06JIJ1Ky Tor J1CTOr naroaa xoje he I1CKa3J1BaTJ1 Kp03 arpecnjy J1JIJ1ayroarpecnjy, CBe 6JII1)f(J1 nouresr npyurrsy, yJIJ1~J1. vb PaBHJ1 CTBapaJIaqKOr sacrnrrarsa qOBeK, pobersea, He ,l\OHOCJ1 KJIJ1~y 3JIa, HI1TJ1 KJIJ1QY arpecnje. Ilere P;OHOCJ1HarOH n03J1TJ1BHe 60p6eHOCTJ1 KOjJ1M 6paHI1 CBoje snpaso J13BOpHo6J1he, xoje npenosnaje urra je aa lbera notipo, a urra He. Taj Haro . . H je CHa)f(aH, )f(eCTOK, a pO,l\J1Telb aYTOpJ1TapHe CBeCTJ1 J1Ma caao jenan aanaTal<.n;a lI1TO rrpe nere YKaJIynJ1, no 06paC~J1Ma apesrena y KojeM )f(J1BJ1. POp;J1Telb He TOlIepl1lI1e OBY 3p;paBy 60p6y nerera, MJ1cJIehJ1 na je nere 6e306pa3Ho, aeaacnaraHo, 11 na CBe TO rpefia CTaBJ1TJ1 non KOHTpOJIy. Jlaxure je 611JIO rrpOmaCI1TJ1 xoney
ka no pl;..

nerera

BOpHJ1~J1 ayTOpJ1TapHOr,

Mop;epHor

rrnmuaxor

nacmrratsa.

ol)elby

3JIJ1M, arpeCJ1BHJ1M,

a y CTBapJ1,

3JIO

Je casro

J1CKp"BlbeHO

1-'-00po,

rr

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CKpMBlbeHa M3BOpHa [OHMqHMM M MOpaJIHMM YCJIOBMMaja jaqaM CBOJ'yeMOU;MOHaJIHY MHTeJITK ~ YlreHU;l1JY xapMOHMqHe omroce ca lby,qMMa M npMpo,qOM. YKOJIl1~ a naxohosr ycnocraszsav o Me He nOCJIYIllaTe M TBp,qornaBO HaCTaBMTe ca 3aCTapeJIMM BacnMTHTKM Yl cpe,l:\_ MM HarOH n03MTMBHe 60p6eHOCTM, TpaHccpopMMcaTM ra Y orpoMHy HaneTOCT M norpetiv ryxy aa npa)f(Ibe_

YCKOPO he CTBapaJIaqKM nenarosn !"becBoje KMqMe, He

,qa ce M360pe aa norpefiy To 3HaqM

nerera he ce

,qa KpMBlbey cTBapa-

no-me,

rrpe

rresere romme.

na

neua

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MM MOHO

MallO uraace ,qa ce 6ap no neaere lby6aBM nexa. panaje.

M ,ll;06poTe

ro,qMHe, IbMXOBM pomrrezs

MlIM na

OCBeCTe M YBe,qy MX y npocTope 60p6e sa OnCTaHaK a HeMoryhe

TBMM~, YH~IllTMheTe

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neua cnaroxi

nahy

CBOjOj ,qyIllM
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JIeK

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CBOjOj ,qyllIM je Moryhe Mopa O,qlIO)f(MTM rronasax

y neseroj,

y neroj

3aTO ce

,eM re HaneTOCTM Kp03: "XMn~paKTMBHOCT", axa, aenpecraao an MaJIO nopacrea, Mo~,qa

nene MJIM aac, JIOMlbeIbe MrpaBP'6111T ' , Yl aIb~a aJIKOXOJI,,qpory M npepaHM cexc.
6MTM TpaHccpopMMcaH

neue y IllKOlIY,

a oana he TaKBa 3pella neua, craapanaxaa xernpa. Ilanac neua neaer ronnna,

,qMpaIbe CBOJMXnOJIHMX oprana rrpasmrhy ce Kp03 uarapery,

qeCTO nnaxan,e

xy

OCHOBHY l11KOlIY rrporyTaTM

C lby6aBlbY
M

aHopeKCMqHO-6YlIMMMqHO je cana qyP;HO IllTO

ryrajy

nospahajy

saarse nmnuaae najovpaaceaaja

IlIKOlIe. 3ap BaM MeCTa aa nJIM-

he MO~ HarOH n03MTMBHe 60p6eHocTM KOJe he crpaztarn

y ayTo-

cy nzrmnaae

IlIKOlIe nocrane

rpecMJY 360r

Moje TeJIO M nCMXa. 3HaM CMryPHO ,qa CTe CBOM CTe

;eTeTY )f(eJIeJIM CBe Haj60lbe.

>KeJIeJIM yHMl11TM

cpehno,

snpaso

M BeCeJIO ,qeTMIbCTBO.

inaae renepaunje. Onpacnn cy onysex

6MJIM BplIO HerrpeU;M3HM

rosopeha
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na je qOBeK paU;MoHalIAlIM

Ie

,q03BOJIMTe ,qa nesaarse

saure M Moje M3BopHe norpetie. xoje he Hac o,qBeCTM y rrarisy.

He -rysajre IIpMHy,qa, ,qMjar-

HO M eMOU;MOHalIHO 6Mhe M na je, caao nonexan,

na ce MMClIM cpnev.

e6MqHO sacrapene

MeTo,qe sacmrraisa

cpu;y cy eMoU;Mje xoje Hac none y naTIbY M eMoU;Mje

ClIM cy aexana MMClIMlIM

xoje M3a3MBajy pa,qOCT.

OnpaYCXM-

'CJIOBlbaBaIbe, Bep6aJIM3aM

BaM ,qeJIyjy HaMBHO, a Ka,qa JIeKap ycnocraex

na je qOBeK nospmaa
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xazta je qeCTO panocran.

[03Y ,qa caM ,q06MO rezcax 06JIMK aCTMe IMTaTM: ",ll;a JIM je Moryhe . 3a xpaj osor norzraazsa

pasnxpahe

aac 60JI M Y HeBepMU;M here ce

hea, cpehan

MTp;. MHorM

lbYP;M cy rOBopMlIM na casro narisa,

601I, MYKa,

na caM TO ypanao

CBOMe nereryr"

reacax )f(MBOT nonoce CMOP;OllIlIM Y onaj rpanaunoaanae

)f(MBOTHY MYP;POCT. To je 3a61Iyp;a qOBeqaHCTBa 360r

AlIM

xoje

nOHOBMMO MCTMHY ,qa je M3BOPHM HarOH n03MTMBHe

M MeHM M BaMa, ,qpyl11TBy M npxponx.

hopcoxax.

TaKO je Mopallo

6MTM.

Taxo

cy rOBopMlIM lbYP;M

)Op6eHOCTM

aajseha

npajarers

Mozena je

CBeCTM. y P;pyry xpajnocr. 3alIa)f(y ce aa HerrpecTaHo

601I, Ka)f(Y na je nenoacezs-

raroa n03MTMBHe 60p6eHOCTM 6al11 ra TOJIMKO cezseaa eMOU;MOHaJIHaMHTeJIMreH~Mj~, xoja

CaBpeMeHM cTpyqIbaU;M cy OTMllIlIM npacycrso na. sa panocr

je3MKoM

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Y qOBeKY, KOjM 6paHM M ycne ,qa 0,q6paHM

rrop;cTaKHYTY cnorsa, a aa rrarisy, nJIMIllaHMX: "BE COOL"! p;a YKMHeTe nmnnaae

.soje M3BopHe norpeoe,

nOCJIe xera ce JIaKO ynJIOBM y

xapsroaajy

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Illra

oxexyjea

on sac craapanas-

ta .ce eMOU;MOHaJIHa MHTeJIMreHU;Mja He yhM npMqOM, aneznoaa, mJa y CTBapaJIaqKMM YCJIOBMMa )f(MBOTa.

OHa ce cava pa3-

KMX ponxrezsat

Oxexyjex

sacmrrae

Mop;elIe,

M3BopHe eMoU;Mje McxapMoHM3yjy. 11yM saurer nerera.

Y TaKBO xapMOHMqHO cpu;e

xexajyh p;a ce cnycrahe ce yM, Balli

pealIHMM CBeTOM

Tana

He 6pMHMTe.

Vi BM M

saure nere MO)f(eTe TpeHYTHO, p;Y)f(e

l1JIM xpahe 6MTM lbyTM,

pap;OCHM, 6PM)f(HM, TY)f(HM, sacrpaureaa

Mu

CMO

sa paqocta
Mopa

11peaJIHl1M npo61IeMMMa,

ana 6YP;MTM CMryPHM p;a here YBeK 6MTM na M3BOpy. A aa 3ap;oBolbcTBO xoje BOP;M y MMp. TMM MMpOM YBMl}ajyhM BpeMeHoM p;a je

CLU80peHU
CBaKa aKTMBHOCT aesaaa aa paaaajarse

M3BOPY je
CBMX

Panocr,

xoja npencraszsa npMxBaTaMo

yqMneMo na ca naxohosr Y"naMTMTe OBO BA>KHO ~3BOPHMX naroaa

M 31I0 M notipo,

IIPABvVIO.

11CBaKO ,,31I0", aapan B-Mllier Ilofipa. BalUe M3BopHe eMoU;Mje, y YClIoBMMa 6e3 aYTopMTapHocTM, 6e3 HaClIojaBaIba, CTl1, 3aAoBOlbcTBa, nOTMCKMBaIba, KpMBlbefba, clI060P;HO KpY)f(e,

npohx

Kp03 Moje M saure CP~E.

DUJIO 6M nozcersao ,qa TaKO

Jy,qe no Moje nesere,

a M,qeaJIHO no Moje
M

npahea
renecnor

neCMOM cpu;a

rrsanaecre ronxae, CBaKM pa,q nexa 6y,qe 3a,qOBOlbCTBOM. Pan Clby6aBlby je u;eHTap M OCHOBaHaUler
ce6e, )f(MBOT, 3a,qOBOlbaBaMO norpetie C lby6aBlby je )f(MBOT nperryH csor

rrOCJIe -rera YlIa3MTe y craise

>I<MBOTa.Kp03 pan casrocnoaaajeao

M ,qYXOBHor 6Mha.

Pan

otiaazsea

lby6aBM.

y~eTe y CTaIbe M Ilotipo M 3JIo, onna CTe 36Mlba MMpHM 113a,l:\o BOlbHM CBMM OHMM IlITO KpeMpaTe BM M )f(MBOT aa aac,

Mapa, Ilotipe HaMepe, Panocrx, oana rrpaxsarare

Ilofipore.

TOj PaAocTM rOBopMM.

PanoKana

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~ 163 ~

CTBAPAnAqKO BACnMTAfhE he BaM oMoryhMTM na CBe peseao OCTBap 11re BplIO lIaKO jep lberoBY OCHOBYnpep;CTaBJba PA,lJ;HA, CTBAPAnAqKA ,lJ;EMo_ KPATMJA y KOjOj lhy6aB MM3BopHe exrouaje npaTe CBe aKTMBHOCTM'IOBeKa.

Kaga KaJICeM.sa Paqociu CUl60peHU cc Ulaga MUCllUM na yHyUlpaUl1-bU Mup U 3ago6olbcUl60 UlUlO CMOna UYUlY ocuieapewa /{06pOUle U Jbytiaeu. Kaga KaJICeM U03UUlU6He euouuje, MUCllUM na U360pHe, XapMOHU30eane euouu]e, a OHe cy jequuo woiyhe y OgCYCUl6Y

no aac. MCKPMBlhEHM M3BOPHM HAfOHM 'liE nOCTATM YCJ10rdel"le,M BE nOTPEEE 3A HEfATMBHOM PEAnM3AUMJOM. Tlxrare ce, 'IMMe BlbE . . h 1'. . f Cpymeaon xapMOHM)OM. Ilopyureaa xaptaonaja e op;pe!)MBaTM )a'IMClIOBlbeHe . ~ Tpal"lC<POpMMcaHOMHarOHY, paBHy ja'IMHM nssopaor narona, ana pY~IIMlla'IKe y P TTM naxmer pa3YMeBalba on cana herao YClIOBJbeHe norpetie T). MCKPMCl"Iare. aM rone Ha3MBaTM MCKPMBlhEHVlM )KElhAMA, na 'IaK MnOPMBMMA. Blbel"le na ,Ua lIM cap;a BepyjeTe p;a on MeHe He MO)f(eTe CTBOPMTM'IOBeKa, p;a ce He Mo~e h HYTpallllbe EBOnYUMJE P;OK ner aYTopMTapHMX pylllM xapMOHM)Y, 11.0 M p; 0 Y : I<pMBM HarOHe, 3aYCTaBJba 'IOBe'IHM paCT. He npasnajre ce KaKO 6p)f(e na~TMM M 60lbe CllYlllaM nocne p;06MjeHMx nraaapa MlIMnocne otiehaae aarpane. To )e Tpel"IyTl"IM, 6p3, alIM janos nyr paasoja 'IOBeKa.

aytuopuuiapnociuu
l1,o6ap UpUMep
OBY nexuajy, nexuajy non MMeHOM,,3a Pap;OCT CTBOpeHM" HMje lIaKO pa3YMeTJiI. Tenrxo je na ayTopMTapHa CBeCT, xoja 3Ha cano aa pap;OCT on p;06Mjalba MlIM nasaisa, Be3aHMX sa cnozsaunse, MaTepMjalIHo MllM CBeCTxoja 3Ha caao sa ryry, osajarse, He3ap;OBOJbCTBO, pa3YMe KaKO npMXBaTaTM M casto 31I0, xana Hac cnahe, necpehy, xoja Hac aanecx, OCTaTM TMX, 0p;601I0BaTM, peIllMTM, rrpeaaaahn, npMXBaTMTM M BpaTMTM ce xapsronajx, xao M3BOpy. Ilpnponao je npohn M npou;ec JbYTlbe Mpanocrn on pap;a M 6pMre on ncxona, MTyre IllTO HaM ce TO nemasa. He rrnaunrrn ce HM caoje jaxe ryre, HM orposmor crpaxa, CTpaxa on HOBor nO'IeTKa. A xana 06MrpaMo neo Kpyr onna YlIa3MMo y craise PA,lJ;OCTM, 3ap;OBOJbCTBa, npaxsararsa Mnotipa 1131Ia xoje Hac je npaTJiIllO na TOM nyTy MlIMce MaHM<peCTOBalIO xao MCXOp;. Ilpara pOp;MTeJbM,BMMja CMOaa Pap;OCT, sa 3ap;OBOJbCTBO,sa yHyTpallllbM MMp MIlotipo, crsopeaa. He npaBMTe rpeurxe xao IllTO cy TO 'IMHMlIMnaunr pop;MTeJbM npeaa BaMa. Xpa6po 0p;6aU;MTe ayTopMTapHO aacmrraise, jep OHO rylllM M YHMurrasa M Moje M saure BYlIKaHe. He nocllYlllaTe llM, YCKOPOhere KOHCTaToBaTMp;a casr ropM on )f(MBOTMlbe.He, HMcaM ja )f(MBOTMlba!YnaMTMTe: HAfOHM, Y CBOM M3BOPHOM OEnMKY MMAJY OfPOMAH n03MTMBAH nOTEHUMJAJI. Ila lIM he np0U;BeTaTM, MlIM6MTM MCKpMBJbeHM3aBMCMaa xoje here ce BacnMTalbe onpenemrra. Bynere llM TBpp;ornaBo, ycnaBaHo, MeXaHM'IKM,HaCTaBMlIMna Me p;peCMpaTe, Mojy MCBOjy xapaoaxjy here y6p30 CPYIllMTM.Pyureaxae he ce 06ypp;aTM MnO'IeTM p;a ryme narone. IhMXOBa M3BopHa neno ra nocrahe HaKa3Ha. M3BOPHM HarOHM he ce KpMBMTM,rpaacrpopsracarx, MCBe, aa urra Me 6yp;y TepalIM 6Mhe HeraTMBHO Mno
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epequ

,ua 6MXsac y6ep;Mo y aeonxonaocr npaxsararsa CTBAPAJlNIKOf BACnMTAIhA aaseurhy BaM HeKOllMKO npMMepa, nocne KOjMXnonecirre OP;lIyKy casor. XpaHMre lIM Me HaCMlIHO, n03MTMBHMMycnoazsaaarsesr, MlIMMe lIMlllaBaTe xpaae jermaKOje norytiao aa MOj HarOH rnap;M M ormrry xapsroaajy, MexaHM3MM he ce y6p30 nOKBapMTM,M3BopHa nenora BYlIKaHa he ce TpaHc<popMMcaTM Mcrnopnhe ce yCllOsrseaa norpetia aa HeraTMBHOM peanaaauajoss. [a hy M3ry6MTM Be3Y ca M3BOPHMMHarOHOM, jep CTe ra yHMIllTMlIM, M3 neaaaisa. Haxasa he p;MpMroBaTM. [emhy Kap;ron Me n030Be xpaHa, 'IaK Mca ClIMKa, xan Me n030BY MMPMCM, jep ja caM rnya aa 30B M3BopHor aarona. Moacna hy nOCTaTM TOlIMKOrrryB p;a nehy 3HaTM p;a lIM rpetia yornure, na jep;eM. Mopahy caoje reno rnahy MlIMnperepaaarn ca ncxpaHOM.nO'Iehy na llM'IMM na rryiseny hypxy, MllM aa KOCTypa. M3HeHap;a here nO'IeTM p;a 6pMHeTe aa MeHe, yrepyjyhn Me y pe)f(MMe p;MjeTa. PeKOX BaM p;a ce 3EMlhAHJ1 nene na neriene, OHe KOjMcy na aexnoj p;MjeTMnpaheaoj oceharsesr KpMBMu;e ~a cBaKM KPMIllOM nojenemr xona-r M HeyxpalbeHe, KOjM6e3ycneillHo noxyuraaaJYna Ha6au;e HeKM KMlIorpaM. CBM nare. CBaKo Mopelbe rnahy je aenpxpomro, HaCMlIHO M nojaxana pyllleIbe XapMOHMje. CBM p;yroTpajHM "nOCTOBM" 6a3MpaHJ1 MCKJbyqMBOna op;pMu;albY op; XpaHe, 360r rojaaaocrn, noaoce amne urrere Hero KOpMCTM.CaMO YMepeHa I1CXpaHa, 3p;paBa xpaHa M xpaHa nonyheaa y rpenyrxy 6yl)elba BYlIKaHa, nonpalloce n 03l1TMBHOMpaCTy 'IOBeKa. MaMa, Kap;a TI1 Ka)f(eM na CBaKa Moja hernrja aarm 3a xpaHOM, He rrpasa rpeIlIl<y,y6el)yjynl1 Me p;a MopaM Ca'IeKaTM pyqaK, noaparax O'IeB ca nocna, p;01Ia3aK
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'. KO)e ornaurasa Kpa) rnap;H, HlIW Tello he rraTWTH y 06a cnyxaja.

Hceuxaj MH CBe)f(Y ja6YKY, MallO CBe)f(er Kyn hy YTOlIHTH, anpasrse yaanpenarn, a xana Tw 3aBpm/p)"laK npacrynahy aeceno CTOlIy. He 6PHHH aa cpopMe. AKO HM rrpwp;a)'em ~ "to. 3Ha'Ia) MO) "caT He ce rrOKBapWTH. Kana nohy rocrn 11 xana ce CBH oKynwMo aa c ' TOlIOM 'a hy HeKOHTpOlIwcaHO rpnarn y ce6e orpoxme KOlIH'IHHe xpane )'ep He 'Iy)' ,)
ITOHYP;WMW 3p;paBY xpaHy. rlIap; ca HlIH urapraperre.

rocrnjy,

IlpaneHa TpaIIllbY

BaWMM p;y60KHM rroBepelbeM MOTMBaU;Mjy, y MeHH, rrOCTO norpetia

H BaWOM YMewHowny

na nOKpeHeTe yHy-

CellaMlIeceT

AHeBHe aKTMBHOCTM y 1I0MY,

na nOKpeHeTe Jhy6aB. nerera MO)f(e ce oCTBapHTH Kp03 06M'IHe CBaKOKopUCTenH CBa cpencrsa xoja cy HaM aa pacnonara-

hy

0p;6HjaTw xpaHY, jep caM

onaaao

'

eM 3BOlio rrperlIap;Heo .
TK

a sa KO)' e He rpetia Tp'IaTH y rrponaanauy p;a 6u CMO MX xyrnonr. Ha rrpHMep, lbY, HaroH sa TelIeCHOM axrasaourhy casrocrroaaahy aKO MM 1I03BOlIMTe zta )"leCTBy'eM y CBMM KynHMM rrOClIOBMMa, a ~UM crroc06HocTMMa.
IToHYP;MTe!

ja hy

BOllMTM

pa'IYHa 0 CBOjMM

ncaxo-rpaaiorce6e. Ilorpetie

Mop;elIe, yM

. lIY, OCTa)eMO npaamr

Ayroparerrr cy HaM HaMeTHYlIH nexe caHTWMeTpe TeCHe naHTalIOHe . " np;ealIlie na KO)e CWlIHO )f(elIWMO p;a lIW'IWMO, jep Hac ayroparapa, WMWTaTopCKW Tepa na lIW'IHMO na aehaay, Kana ycnexo na ce rrpW61IH)f(WMO )f(elbeHOM
H He3ap;OBOlbHH. 3aWTO? ynyrpaunse

Mannrhy

ce HlIM He,

ja

noaaajesr

Hxje

MOp;eCTBap y Mop;elIY, np061IeM je CBe p;albe W p;albe Ilocrajesro

xapaoaaje 6WBaMO Haronn ce xpase, w3ry6lbeHa je uraaca aa caaocnosaajoa. HHCMO nmne OHO 3aWTa CMO, npxponosr onpehena, aa yayrpannsn Map, CTBopeHW.
y TOMe WTO pynrersev CBe je

on

ce6e.

HeKO lIPYrw,

PallOCT, 3ap;OBOlbCTBO,

aa

sarona Mory 6MTM OCTBapeHe Kp03 MrpY.Mrpa'iKaMa. OBaKBMx je 1I0BOlbHO M TpHlIeceT nOCTO. J1rpa MM je aazcaa Aa cnoaaasr W3BopHe eMOu;uje xoje lby rrpaTe, KaKO 6MX lbMX yaeo y pall 6MlIO xoje BpCTe, Kalla nopacrev. He npaanre rpeuncy, He Tp'IMTe aa napaMa rapnehn KaKO Mopa p;a MH 3apallMTe aa Urpa'iKe. CTaHMTe! IToTpe6HM CTe MM BM, jep CBaKM pall je Mrpa Kalla je npahen BaIIlUM lIy60KMM noaepersev M M3BOPHMM, n03MTMBHHM eMoU;HjaMa. 3apOHHTe
sa caMocrr03HajoM
urapa cpU;eM y MeHe, a y npop;aBHHU;H Mrpa'iaKa cpu;a cy TaKO 'IeCTO He BMlIMTe HM ce6e, HM MeHe, naura

jeznrocrasno.

YHYTpaWlbW Kalla

)f(elIW, ocnyurxyjeur,

xyjeur

061IacTwMa. Jif3BOPHW HarOH

carnh 3a3BOHW, rnrraur CBOj BYlIKaH WTa je pexao lIa je 1I0CTa. Taxo uenor )f(WBOTa, y CBHM pana xao uraajuapcxir car. XapMoHwja U;BeTa. CaMO
Bep6alIM3aM ... ~ PallOCT ce ycezsana y saur 1I0M.

nanexo, sepyjre

MM.

YKWHMTe rrpMHyp;y, ycnoazsaaaise,

Ilnanupaj UlU, unanupohy ja

Cpueu 3apOHUUle Y scene

Calla Kalla 3HaMO CBe 0 CBOjMM M3BOPHWM rrorpefiaaa
KOjM rpetia

BpaTMMO ce ITJIAHJ1PAIbY, o KPYITHOM 1I0 ocrsapersa aazsa HaM Ca'IMHHTH nnan ITJIAHJ1PAIbY, norpefie

xoje

'IHHHTe BM

na

OCHOBY noayhenor

saan,a. Pe'I je Hp;eje KaKO

rrepcrreKTHBHOM y KOMe Mopajy M3BOPHMX norpetia,

crajara

sa caaocnosnajoa

a CBaKM pall, casro-

pall Mopa BOllHTM caMoocTBapelbY

Kp03 najamue

lbYllcKe Mp;ealIe:

na

canpaor

wlIeje,

cpencrsa, npraha,

Ha'IMH

pana

M canpacaje,

pWTM y TpeHyTKy rrpMMep, Kalla

Kalla HCKa)f(eM norpefiy rnenaisa

aa peanaaanajosr
rrO'IHeM

xoje here MH nonaonpeheanx narona. Ha

aauresr cxynosr KpeaKTHBHOCTM. CTaPU

1. ITCMXO-CPM3M'IKOsnpasrse 2. Paasoj crsapana-rxe MHTelIMreHU;Mje

3. qOBe'IHOCT. 4. CaMopall,
YBeK

(YM y

cpuy)

nocne

BeTY WCKa3ao casr norpetiy

aa caerocrrosnajoja

na CKa'IeM rro aaroaa renecne spacxa,

npahen

Jhy6aBlby

,/J;06POTOM sacrnrran,a. Hrrp.

nyr xarnenahe
re
na
y6MjeTe

OBaKO: "HeMoj,
MeHM.

He CKa'IM, KpeTeHY HerrOClIYWHH, y6Hny

re, jep

caM

CBe OBO heuo oCTBapMTM, aKO MlIeTe rrYTeM CTBapalIa'IKOr

[a

6p30

ja POllMO, 6aTMHa je M3 paja M3aWlIa". CYK06,

yp;apU;H, cy3e. Ycrrellu CTe

paCTeM M 3Hany YCKOPO na lIU CMO xa rrpaBOM rryTy. CXBaTMny

na

ce HarOH

Bora y

sa TelIeCHOM
BACTIMTAIbY
BU CTe Ben

AKO ce

oxpenere CTBAPAJINIKOM

onasno,

ollpe-

K .

. ole

axrxaaourhy paaanja ueo )f(MBOT. To he 6MTH Moje rpajno 3ap;Y)f(elbe n y C Jhy6aBlbY nnaanparn H pealIH30BaTH. Cana, cMrypHo pa3YMeTe 3aWTO

lIWlIW KYTaK y KojeM MOry na Be)f(6aM 1I0 MHlIe sozse, y3 sanre lIy60KO nOBepelbe, UJIU

je

6WTHO na CBe Moje Cap;a MM je

renecae

aKTMBHOCTM 6yp;y

npahene

Jhy6aBlbY.

here Me rrOClIaTH na ce nelbeM creneaauasra

"rrlIaHHHe". Kalla cHljeM ca "rrlIaHHHe"

y CTaHY, 3aMHwlbajynH

na CaBJlap;aBaM

jacao

3aWTO BH He BOlIMTe

na

ce 6aBHTe TelIeCHHM aKTHBHOCTHMa.

yrpsahy seceno

y KyXHlby H HCnpH'IaTH BaM

Orapo ~cneo

BacmtTalbe

3aYCTaBHlIO je saur rr03MTHBaH paCT, H y OBOj 061IaCTH. HeKO je

WTa caM CBe xyo, BHp;eo, ocerno, crrosaao aa TOM rryTy. CBaKa rrorpeoa aa caMO. CT Cn03Ha)OM naroua y paxosr lIeTHlbcTBY sropa 6HTH ocrsapena Kp03 caMoaKTHBHO '

na

BaM yryunr

raj,

TaKO aazcaa BYlIKaH. BH amue HeMaTe 6e3YClIOBHY

norpe-

y, Ben WCKpMBlbeHY )f(elbY,

xoja nocraje

Mopa.

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rocrajy, IloHy,o;M MM 3,o;paBy xpaHy. Hceuxaj MH CBe)f(Y ja6YKY, MaJIO CBe)f(er I<yn a xana T'A 3 yca MJIM wapraperre. Dran hy YTOJIMTM, snpasn,e yaarrpemrr , M n aBplUi1 pyqaK npxcrynahy BeCeJIOCTOJIy. He 6PMHM sa opMe. AKO MM rrpM,o;a)' elU ~ " b, 3HalJa) MO) "caT ne ce rrOKBapMTM. Kana ,o;oljy rOCTM J.1 xana ce CBMoxyrnoao aa C ' KOJIWIMHe xpane )'ep He qy)' ,) '. ' eM3BOHo KO)e ornaurasa Kpa) rnana, MJIM hy 0,o;6MjaTM xpaHY, jep caM onaano rrperlIa,o;Heo TeJIo he rraTMTM y 06a oryxaja, . AYTopMTeTM cy HaM HaMeTHYJIM aexe cairrmrerpe TeCHe rraHTaJIOHe . " n,o;ealIHe Mo,o;eJIe, na KO)e CMJIHO)f(eJIMMO ,o;aJIMqMMO, jep Hac ayroparapan, MMMTaTOPCI<i1
TA

npaneHa BaWUM ,o;y60KHM rroBepelbeM

H BaWOM ysreumourhy

na nOKpeHeTe yHy-

TpaillIbY MOTHBaQJ1jy, y MeHJ1, na nOKpeHeTe Jhy6aB. Ce,o;aM,o;eceTrrOCTO norpetia nerera MO)f(e ce oCTBapHTH Kp03 06J1'IHe CBaKOp;HeSHe aKTJ1BHOCTJ1 y,o;OMY, KopUCTehJ1 CBa cpencrsa lbY, HaroH sa TeJIeCHOM aKTJ1BHowhy cavocrroaaahy ~UM crrOC06HOCTJ1Ma. TIoHy,o;J1Te! Maunrhy a sa KO)'e He rpetia Tp'IaTJ1 y rrponaaamry xoja cy HaM aa pacnonara,o;a6J1 CMO J1XKyrrJ1JIJ1.Ha rrpJ1Mep, aKO MJ1 ,o;03BOJIJ1Te na yqeCTByce6e. Ilorpetie

hy HeKOHTpOJIMCaHO rpnara y ce6e orposme

TOlIOM

'a

'eM y CBUM KyhHJ1M rrOCJIOBJ1Ma,a ja hy BO,o;J1TJ1 pa'IyHa 0 CBOjJ1MrrCJ1XO-J13J1qce J1JIJ1 He, ja nosnajea

yM Tepa na JIMqMMO rra sehxny. Kana ycnexo na ce rrpM6JIM)f(MMO )f(elbeHOM . MO,o;eJIY, OCTa)eMO rrpasna M He3a,o;OBOlbHM. 3aWTO? Hnje CTBap y Mo,o;eJIY,rrp06JIeM je y TOMe WTO pynrersev yayrpannse xapxoaaje 6MBaMO CBe nazse M narse 0,0;ce6e. HarOHM ce KpMBe, M3ry6lbeHa je uraaca sa caaocrrosnajo. HMCMO amne OHO 3aWTa CMO, rrpaponov ynyrpannsn MMP, CTBopeHM. CBe je je,o;HOCTaBHO. YHYTpaWlbM )f(eJIM, ocnyuncyjenr, xyjeur

sa caMocrr03HajoM narona Mory 6J1TU OCTBapeHe Kp03 J1rpy.J1rpaqKaMa. OBaKBJ1X urapa je ,o;OBOlbHOJ1TpJ1,o;eceTnoCTO. J1rpa MJ1je saxora na cn03HaM J13BOpHe eMOL\uje xoje lby rrpaTe, KaKO 6J1x lbJ1X yneo y pa,o; 6J1JIOxoje BpCTe, xana rropacrev. He npasnre rpeuncy. He TpqJ1Te aa napaMa rnpnehx KaKO Mopa,o;a MJ13apa,o;J1Te J1 J13BOPHJ1M,n03J1TJ1BHJ1MeMOQJ1jaMa. 3apOHHTe aa J1rpaqKe. CTaHJ1Te! TIoTpe6HJ1 CTe MJ1BJ1,jep CBaKJ1pa,o; je J1rpa xana je npahen BaWHM ,o;y60KJ1M noaepersev cpL\eM Y MeHe, a y rrpo,o;aBHJ1QJ1 J1rpa'IaKa qeCTO He Bu,o;J1Te HJ1ce6e, HU MeHe, nama

Ilocrajeuo HeKO ,o;pyrM, onpeheaa, aa Panocr, 3a,o;OBOlbCTBO,aa

CBOj BYJIKaH WTa

carah 3a3BOHM, rnrraur

cpua cy TaKO ,o;aJIeKO,sepyjre MJ1.

xana je pexao na je ,o;OCTa.Taxo nenor )f(MBOTa, y CBMM

06JIaCTMMa. J13BOPHM HarOH panx xao uraajuapcxn

car. XapMoHMja QBeTa. CaMO

YKMHMTe rrpMHy,o;y, YCJIOBlbaBalbe, Bep6aJIM3aM ... ~ Pa,o;OCTce ycezsaaa y saur ,o;OM.

Ilnauupaj UlU, unanupohy ja

BpaTJ1MO ce TIJIAHJ1PAI-bY, xoje qJ1HJ1TeBJ1na OCHOBY noayhenor snan,a. Pes je

Cpuen 3apOHUUle Y scene

Cana xana 3HaMO CBe 0 CBOjMM M3BOPHMM rrorpetiava xoja rperia na ca,o;p)f(MM,o;eje,cpencrna, rrpMMep, xana nOCJIe rneztarsa upraha, BeTY MCKa3ao caM norpetiy pMTM y TpeHyTKy xana MCKa)f(eM norpefiy aazsa HaM CaqMHMTM nnaa aarona. Ha HaqMH pana M cazrpxcaje, xoje here MH nonasa peaJIM3aQMjoM onpeheaax aaroaa rrOqHeM ,o;aCKaqeM rro aauresr cxyrrost KpeTeJIeCHe aKTMBHOCTM.CTaPU

o KPYTIHOM ,0;0ocraapersa

TIJIAHJ1PAI-bY, norpetie

rrepCrreKTJ1BHOM y KOMe Mopajy crajarrr Kp03 HajBJ1We lby,o;cKe H,o;eaJIe:

J1,o;eje KaKO

aa caaocnosnajoa

J13BOPHJ1X norpetia, a CBaKU pa,o;, casro-

pan Mopa BO,o;J1TJ1 caMoocTBapelbY l. TICJ1XO-J13J1'lKO3,o;paBlbe 2. Paasoj crsapana-rxe 3. qOBeqHOCT.

J1HTeJIJ1reHQJ1je(YM y cPQY) J1,/J;06POTOM

aa caMocn03HajoM

4. CaMopa,o;, YBeK npahen Jhy6aBlby

nyr M3rne,o;ane OBaKO: "HeMoj, He CKaqJ1,KpeTeHY HerrOCJIYWHJ1,y6J1ny re, jep caM re ja ponao, 6aTJ1Ha je J13paja J13aWJIa". CYK06, BpJ1CKa,y,o;apQJ1,cy3e. YcrreJIJ1CTe

CBe OBOheMo OCTBapJ1TJ1,aKO J1,o;eTe rrYTeM CTBapaJIa'IKOr sacmrraa,a.

[a 6p30

pacTeM J13Hahy YCKOPO na lIJ1 CMO xa rrpaBoM rryTy. CXBaTJ1hy Hnp. ,o;ace HarOH sa TelIecHoM aKTJ1BHowny paaanja ueo )f(J1BOT.To he 6J1TJ1Moje rpajno 3a,o;Y)f(eIbe I< . h ,o)e y C Jby6aBlbY rr'lIaHJ1paTJ1 J1pealIJ130BaTJ1. Cana, CJ1rypHo pa3YMeTe 3aWTO

na y6J1jeTe

Bora y MeHJ1. CTBAPAJIAqKOM BACIlJ1TAI-bY BU CTe Ben onaano, op;peHlIl1

AKO ce oxpeaere

,o;J1JIJ1 KYTaK y KojeM MOry ,o;aBe)f(6aM ,0;0MJ1JIeaorse, y3 aaure ,o;y60KO noaepen-e.

je 6MTHO na CBe Moje renecae aKTJ1BHOCTJ1 6y,o;y npaheue

Jby6aBlbY.

here Me rrOCJIaTMna ce neIbeM CTeneHJ1QaMa y CTaHY, 3aMJ1WlbajynJ1 na CaBJIap;aBaM "nJIaHHHe". Kana CJ1ljeM ca "nJIaHHHe" yrpsahy BeCeJIOy KyXJ1Iby J1HcnpH'IaTU saM WTa caM CBe xyo, BH,o;eo, OCeTJ10, crroaaao na TOM nyTy. CBaKa norpeoa sa caMO. CT Cn03Ha)OM aarona y paaov p;eTHlbcTBY Mopa 6HTH ocrsapeaa Kp03 caMoaKTHSHO ' - 166-

Ca,o;a MJ1je jacao 3aWTO BJ1He BOlIJ1Te na ce 6aBHTe TelIeCHHM aKTJ1BHOCTMMa, Cl'apo BacrrMTalbe 3aYCTaBHlIO je saur n03J1THBaH paCT, H y OBOj 06lIaCTH. HeKO je ~cneo,o;a BaM yryunr raj, TaKO aazcaa BYlIKaH. BM amue HeMaTe 6e3YClIOBHY norpey, Ben MCKpJ1BlbeHY )f(elbY, xoja nocraje Mopa. - 167-

Te6e MaMa pa3YMeM 3aUlTO HHKaAa He cemreur aa KlIaBHp. UelIY HH)f(Y MY3t1'Il<y llIKOlIY saspurana cY norxynzsxsazra CH non rrpHHYAOM.

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uanacan

nnan KynoBHHe y3 npHlIO)f(eHH

npennor

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M Te6H

cy yracHlIH TaKO saacaa BYlIKaH. A TaTy

rta 6H

rrOCTH3ao pe3YlITaTe Y crropTY, 3aTO nanac ceAt1 Y KlIaAl1:_ THKeT, TBPAehH Aa TO paAH H3 Jby6aBH npesra crropT KpyrrHor rrlIaHHpalba, casco casr

J-13 MapKeTa, 1-nHIlleM H ClIaTKHllIe

cvxotia

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nehe

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npaso na

xoje
M

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na

HMaMO y

xyha.

OHHQH H y3 rrHBO rrorrYlbaBa

y.

,h

KTa HeMa He3arrOBOJbHHX. AKO HHcaM A06po

Kana 6YAeM CXBaTHO canpacaj MHKy caaopany jep carao KpyrrHo

Aa 6YAeM

hy

AaBaTt1 TOH t1 Al1:Hahe 'It1Ht1Tl1:

J(OIi't'lIH, p;ajeTe npHlIHKy

YnHcaHO, norosopeuo, HeMa xcnnaaapao, cneneha nyT MH

rrlIaHHpalbe,

rpajaa

sanyzcen,a,

na 6YAeM csecaxja, alIH y Ha xpaiy osor rrornaszsa nHCMa, npara

CEEJt1ltl ,[(PYfJt1MA. Baure xpyrmo

Ma~KeTY HeMa rtposiene

nnaaa.
ynyTHKOPltlEY,[(EM

MOJH, Kp03 HeKOlIHKO npHMepa

rpajao H C Jby6aBJby sarpejan sa paA, sa caMoCII03Hajy CBOjt1X BylIKaHa. Bxhy sarpejaa rpajao H C Jby6aBJby hy HerOBaTH csoje BYlIKaHe. Moje mraaaparse yxnanahe ce Y same. BH here YCKlIaljHBaTt1 Moje rrpeAlIore,
rrpeAMeT paAa, rr03HTHBHe YClIoBe, rr03HTHBHe 0AHOnoaepeise. BH

Bac y npaKTH'IaH

paA. KOA MeHe je BeOMa H3pa)f(eH Ha:OH,[(A nnaaapaise Je

JTAH

seh

Ha'IHlb.eHO CaMHM

3anaMllHBalbeM

HHHQt1jaTHBe, ofiesfiehyjyh

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CTByjeM y aomersy ocehalbeM

,[(OK CaM MalIH, H He CXBaTHM KaKO 6HX Ja TO Morao Me YBOAHTH y

jennox pesjy, rr03HTHBaH pacr

ce BelIHKHM nnanoa,

pacuaeraaan.s, MOj H <popMHpalbe rr03HTHBHor rrornena aa CBeT. [a casr 0AYllIeBJbeH rrlIaHOBHMa Hallie 3ajeAHHQe H y lbHX ce pano YKlIarraM CBOjHM MalIHM
Ay60KO rrpaTt1TH Moje 0 CBOjHM rrCHXO-<pH3H'IKHM crroc06HOCTHMa. OAYna caxr OA KOPHCTH rrOpOAH'IHoj 3ajeAHHQH, xana crro-

here

yrJba y nOAPYM. Bepyj, y)f(HBa~y.

caaopan. ,[(onycTH Bahy rapas,

MH MaMa, Aa yqealIH ca rrpeAHBHHM Crpyxrsaua

Aa 3HMCKOj BaTpHQH AonpHHOCHM H Ja. CaMO 6e3

naaaxe.

YBeK BOAehH paxyaa

H3MHClIHlIH OAlIH'IHe MalllHHe sa npalbe seura, notipe AeTepI,IeHTe. ,[(OK paAHM cy . H Y)f(HBaM, TH MaMa Y)f(HBaj y MeHH, ce6H H 61IarOAaTHMa QHBHlIH3aQHJe. eAHOM

urenzsen caxr xana cnoaaasr

aKTHBHOlllhy

caaocnosaahy
He rpetia

BHllle H3BOPHHX naroaa. rara, AeKO, He rpetia rryHo npa3HHX HH HOBQa, jep saure crpnzsen-e H Ay60KO pa3YMeBalbe

3HaM na je MOj rrnaa H paA neo QelIHHe xojy pa3YMeBaM.

,[(a 6HX pa3BHO HarOH sa caMonOlllTOBalbeM, 6aQt1 csiehe, HaMeCTH pe'IH, Bep6alIH3Ma. ce He xynyjy

Maxa,
xpener,

H31Iyljyjy

Me CHTHH 3aAaQH:

yqH" ... H TaKO, rOAHHaMa

.Floxyn He pasyvesajyha

Hrpa'IKe,

urra ja TO 'IHHHM H He ocehajyhn rrOApa)f(aBalbeM, HeOArOBopHHM H

y npOAaBHHQH. AKO Mojy rpelllKY,

Ha'IHlbeHY y paAY, AOK aecnperao saure rOMHlIe, He rnenare

na rrpHrraAaM AelIY QelIHHe.

Kana

ce rr06YHt1M jep je pe'I 0 yqelby

caxynrsass jecerse mnuhe, xao MoryhHocT

npaseha

Moje, a pacTypajyhH

jep je CBe TO TaKO AocaAHO H HeKpeaTHBHO lIaKO Me npornacare lIelbHM. Ha

aa MOj AaJbH n03HTHBaH paCT,

neh

OlIaKO H3pH'IHTe rOMHlIY yBpeyrallleH je MOj TaKO ,~oBe-

aecpehy

ja TaKaB CTBapHO H rrocrajev.

To HHKaKO He A03BOlIHTe, jep

AlbHBHX pe'IH, CBe TO nparare saacaa BYlIKaH. He noxyuraaajre xe, HMaj nourroaarse npyroaa npexa

YAapQHMa H OMalIOBa)f(aBalbeM, na ra npofiynare Bep6alIH3MoM

ja HHcaM napaaar, ,[(OEPOBOJbHE

Balli rrnaa H MOj nnaa pana, KOjH je y AeTHlbCTBY YBeK na 6a3H O,[(JIYKE, ce norryrsyjy, crsapanasxor ,[(OEPOBOJbHOCT sacmrrarsa. qyjeM je yrrpaBo jenan OA BallIY CYMlbY: ",[(a

rosopeha:

ce6H. ", xnoro

rOAHHa AOQHHje xana Me MalITpeTHpajy

BplIO 6HTHJ1X IlPMHUMIlA nere A06pOBOJbHO paAH, TO Jbelbe aa CTBapalIa'IKO

as onezseisa, a ja HM TO p;03BOJbaBaM.

[a rana sehy

HMaTH HH caaonourro-

aehy

AO'IeKaTH!"

CaMO CTprrJbHBO, jep saure onpenesaarse H KpyrrHo nnanapan-e je

saisa, a HH nourrosarsa CHlIH Taj BYlIKaH. lour

npeMa p;pyrHMa, a nocetiao

npesta saraa KOjH CTe MH yrana 6HX ypap;Ho

nacnxrarse,

sanre npaso

sehy

rpeuncy

'IHHHTe aKO Me norxynzsyjere

rrpaBt1 rrOACTHQaj aa MeHe. rrOClIY t1 H3HaA csera Jbyfias

Bahe

TO A06pQBOJbaH paA, MOj CBeCTaH OAHOC rrpeMa MHClIHTe 3allITO HHCHCTHpaM Aa Ha3Ha'ieHO: KO, xana, nrra ... ?

OHO llITO CTe BH op;pep;HlIH H aa Ha'IHH KOjH BH op;peljyjeTe.

rrpeMa lbeMy. IIlTa

nnaa 6YAe rrOCTaBJbeH na Bt1AHO MeCTO, Aa 6YAe jacno AyTOpt1TaPHa CBeCT lIaKO ynana y can, aaoopaazsa, je paA na CBeCHOM 0AHOCY rrpeaa

OAYCTaje. CBaKo CYO'IaBalbe ca paAY, pe3YlITaTHMa, KBalIHTe-

rrHCaHt1M rmaaosr

Y30paK inotianuoi anana paga

v13a6paHH rrOClIOBH ce 6Hpajy na 6a3H P;06POBOJbHOCTH, nonaseha YBeK on HajMlIal)er 'IlIaHa noponaue. Ofiasrsajy ce aenezsy naaa, jep je TO p;OBOJbaHnepaon CBe. Ynora penapa, oaor na ce

Ty H KOlIH'IHHt1 3aAOBOJbCTBa xojy raj paA AOHOCH. BplIO 6p30 he AohH BpeMe xana lbaBaM ra rrOClIOBHMa, 06aBe3aMa,

hy

casr rrO'IeTH Aa rrlIaHHpaM

CBOj AaH H Hcny-

KOjH cy Moja norpetia

H MOj H360p. EHhe TO Moj Aa Moj

lIH'IHH nnax y KOjH here ce BH YKJbyqHBaTH CBOjHM MHHH nzranora H nosrarara nnaa 6YAe llITO ycneunnrja npyroaasra XOAHO na npxnarona

,,3aHaT" p;elIHMH'IHO caanana. OP;pel)eHoM nepnony, ~OTpe6Ha, jep najjaxe

Cnenehe

aenezse ce 6Hpajy HOBH nOClIOBH, KaKO 6H y xojy nponase y CBH, je rrpexo

H 60JbH. YKOlIHKO Y MOM rrlIaHY CTOjH na cyTpa )f(elIHM ca na OAeM y rrpHpOAY, rara he Hac npetiauarn KOlIHMa, arnr OH Mapa npeTCBOj nnan MOM rrlIaHy. YKOlIHKO HAeMO y BelIHKY KynOBJ-1IiY,

CBH npouma cyxotie

HMaMO 360r

BHp;Hor nepena

xyha.

CBaKo

je nOHellITO oCTaBHo 3a C060M H eTO cYK06a. CyK06a - 169-

H aecrropaayssa

nehe 6HTH

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TIPJ1TIPEMA BEl..JEPE, CBaKOMe ce Mopa nOHYAHTWna npaBH w360p UITa he Be'lepaTH, aKO )KeJIH, H jeAaH TO 06aBJha sa CBe. TIPJ1TIPEMA ,[(OPYl..JKA, YBeKjenaa aa CBe. TIPAIhE CY13A, aKO KYBaIll pyqaK, onepH aa C060M WJIWcaste nOCJIe nojenaaaxuax 06pOKa, WJIHjenaa nepe ueo AaH. HAMEIIlTAIhE KPEBETA, CBHXKOjH 'lHHe nopOAW~y, jep casro Kp03 paA CBWX sa CBe BpIllW ce peBHTaJIH3a~Hja Jby6aBH. EPJ1CAIhE TIPAIIlJ1HE TIPAIhE KYTIATJ1JlA, CBaKOAHeBHH nOCJIOBH HJIH reaepamro EAIJ;AIhE CME1iA CTAHA YCJ1CABAIhE

CA13EfbE IJ;BE1iA, sanasaa-e, Aoxpalb.HBaI-be, npoMeHa 3eMJhe, nposteaa CaKCH)a, cpap6aI-be H ocnHKaBalbe crapxx caxcaja. EPJ.1fA 0 JbYEJ.1MIJ;J.1MA: llIeTI-ba, xpaI-beI-be, 'IHIllneI-be xyhaue, Ha6aBKa xpane, oABo1)eI-be serepaaapy, PE,[(AP, npaBJhelbe pena, no OAnacKY rocrnjy, no H3nacKY wnw ynacKy YKynaHa. TIoKynHTH xaure, urozse, cpeAHTH unnene y npep;c06JhY, 3aTemYTH rrpecsnaxe na KpeBeTHMa. Taume, rapnepotiy CTaBHTH na MeCTOHnH YCTaHoBHTw pa3H060jHe KYTHje y xoje he pep;ap CTaBJhaTH CBe pastiauaHe CHTHH~e H rapnepotiy Y xyrnjy csaxor xnana nopop;H~e. HATIOMEHA: Ilana casr HH3 wAeja KaKO MO)KeTe Hcnap~enHcaTw nocnose, jep naaac MHoro BpeMeHa npoBoAwMO BaH xyhe WTeIllKO je 06aBJhaTW nocnose uezroBWTO,AHeBHo, y KOHTwHywTeTY. CBaKa noponxua he casta najtiozse Ha'lHHWTW CBOj nnan, jep CBaKO WMa onpeheue HaBWKe, 3aXTeBe. CBOjy 0p;a6paHY aKTWBHOCT CBaKO otienexcaaa npyroa 60jOM wnw npen03HaTJhHBWM 3HaKOM. TInaH Mopa CTajara ua BHAHOM MecTy. Ha OCHOBYisera MOry ce BpIllHTH 6pojHe aaannae: xonaKO KO HanpeAyje, KOJIWKOje Bpep;Hwjw, nourrenajx, ypep;Hwjw, csecnnja, y sehoj Jby6aBH ...

TIOCTABJbAIhE CTOJlA, AopyqaK HJIW pyqaK HnH sevepa WJIHaa CBa TPW 06pOKa 0,[(JlA3AK Y HAEABKY, HeKWM, xao ncnoaoh caM HnH ca

TIJ1JAIJ;A, caM HnH xao HCTIOMon TIPAIhE KOJlA, caM HnH xao HcnOMon TIEfJlAIhE BElllA, npHMepeHO y3pacTy H KBanWTeTY onora IllTO ce nerna. TIPOCTJ1PAIhE BEIIlA (casro TO HnH H craazsarse seura y MaIllHHY, sabeise H3 MaIllHHe, caxynzsarse H cnaraise aa nernalbe JinH H paaapcrasaa,e aetna aa csaxor 'InaHa nopop;H~e ...

OBO je Y30paK fJlOEAJlHOf TIJlAHA. CaAP)Kaj nnaaa je npOMeHJhHB y 3aBWCAOCTWon rroponnue, lbeHWX norpetia, op; ronnunser A06a. Ba)KHO je p;a OP;HOC npe~a BPCTWnOCJIa 6YAe, IllTO je Moryne BWIlle uenoaxrnja, na ce He ycwcaBa caMO CBoJa co6a, Ben ueo CTaH. AKO je HeKO onafipao npalbe cyha, nO)KeJhHO je, anw qeCTO Awje W3BOAJbWBO,na ce cyhe nepe uenor nana.
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Ha OCHOBY nyroronxunser MCKYCTBa, y paAY ca CaBpeMeHOM nOpOAMQOM . . ' yO'II1_ JIa CaM na cy caspexrene Ma)Ke aajseha KOqHMQa y paasojy cassopana, Ma. jxa, aa Bep 6aJIHOM HMBOy,sarosapa Aa CBMrpetia na pane y nopOAMQM CTaJIHO C .. . e )f(alIl1 KaKO )e npexopeaa, KaKO )e )f(pTBa, KaKO cy CBMHe3aXBaJIHM KaKO He TIe . ' ~ He lheli TPYA M MHoro rora. Oaa je qeCTO npMMep rta AeQM 06jacHMMo UITa)e TO Bep6 . alIlia AeMOKpaTM)a. CBM TMrOBope, KaKO rpetia Aa 6YAelIl spenan M nourren a H , MCyTI1 CTBOPMJIM srosexae YCJIOBe,aa peamrsauajy ce6e. I1pM TOMxana TM M nohe aa 1) PYKOM: Aa 6YAelIl M spenan M nonrrea 6MBalIl MJIMMCMejaH, OMaJIOBa)f(aBaH MJIl1xa )f(lhaBaH. 3aTO CBl16p30 OAYCTajy l1 OAspemror pana l1 OAnourrersa TaKO l1 Ma)Ka . , KaAa OCeTl1 rrarrpenax CBMX, aaycrasrsa CBe MYlbeBl1TOM 6P3l1HOM. Kana ce AOrOBOpl1MO Aa ce seh cyTpa OKa Il1 rn06aJIHl1 nJIaH nOCJIOBa y K hl1 . . Y , CBl1Ma nOCTa)y )aCHl1 npamnma l1 CBM qJIaHOBl1 nOpOAl1Qe, na l1 MajKa, ocere paAOCT. I1oCJIOBe npBO 6Mpajy HajMJIaljl1, He cyrepmue ce l1360p nOCJIOBa, CBl1 YJIa3e y npouec pana, na 6a3l1 A06pOBOlbHOCTl1. I1JIaH Mopa 6l1Tl1 oxaxen na Bl1AHOM MecTy, rrOCJIOBl1ce MOry MelbaTl1 csaxor nana, aJIl1 je 60lbe 60lbe na ceAaM nana, 3Ha ce Aa He CMe 6l1Tl1 3aMepalba na KBaJIl1TeT otiaszseaor nOCJIa jep ce HeKO YKlbyqMOy paAY neraaecroj rOAMHl1)f(l1BOTa,TaKBl1 ce 6e3YCJIOBHOxexajy Aa peaaTaJIM3yjy yryurena HarOH sa panov. Majxa je ra xoja Mopa 6l1Tl1 Hajjaql1 noxperax Aa C~ pan otiaszsa C lby6aBlbY.
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CBl1M cerMeHTMMa )f(MBOTa. He MO)f(ellI MajKo, OqeKHBaTH Aa TBoje a pap.o M, Y 3 l1 C paAollIhy a na TO MCTOnere He otiaszsa C panoinhy HH jenaa rrocao y TfeTeyq '. .. ,.. DlIaH Mopa yrropHo rta CTO)l1aa BMAHOMMeCTY, na ce nourryje, Caql1lbaBa ~ynl1. . 6 MeceTTl1 3allITO?. CBaKM nornen na nnan )e cyoxaaaa.e ca co OM l1 6ap HeKOlIUKO n ~ . . TTHOCOM rrpesra paAY. vb nnaaa ce jacao carnenasa OAHOCqlIaHOBa nopoCBO)l1M0,.. l1U;ejeAHl1X rrpeMa APYrMM. OBO je nyT pa3.Bl1ja~a CBeCHOCTl1l1 lby6aBM. p, Ha OBOMMecTY Mopa Aa 3aMOlIl1M CBe Ma)Ke KO)e cene, MlIl16ap Ml1ClIena xcene Hl1)y l1 Ml1p Y rrOpOAl1Ql1, xoje cene l1lIl1 6ap Ml1ClIe Aa zcene na nOMomy xapMO .. 0 AeQl1, CBOMcyrrpyry, ceria, na MOpa)y na ce oClI060Ae CBO)e rOpAOCTl1, caor CBO) ) . . . era ~ojl1 3aYCTaBlba AYXOBHl1pacT CBl1X,na l1 isen. I10qeTHl1 eHTY3l1)a3aM, KO)l1je 6lIl1CTaO Tpl1 nana, nonaxo ce raca, jep je MajKa na CBe l1Ma npl1MeA6y, carnenaaa 11KOMeHTapl1llIe casro OHO llITO je nome, a peql1 xsane He nocroje. MaKO 3Ha npaBl1lIa He MO)f(ece CY3Ap)f(aTl1OAKOMeHTapa (npxayna), OAHerrpeCTaHOr onosonsa(npnnyna) na nere ypaAl1 nocao KOjl1Hl1je nsatipano. lba, on AOAaTHor sanosenaisa Ileua l1 cyrrpyr ry6e yHyTpalIllby MOTl1BaQHjy, a CTBap AO)f(l1Bl1KOHaqHl1 cpl1jaCKOxana MajKa KPMlIlOMCKl1Henrraa paAa, nonanaxeha KaKOjoj cavopan sarop-rasa )f(l1BOTl1 He Aaje )f(elbeHe pesynrare. Majxnue, Hl1KOHe ocnopana na Tl1 KYBallI, nernaur, nepeur, xynyjeur ... Haj60lbe M Haj6p)f(e, alIl1 AonYCTMl1 naxra Aa TOcasnanaMOKaKO611Te6l1 6l1lIO naxure l1 KaKO 611 l1MalIa Bl1lIle BpeMeHa l1 aa Hac M aa ce6e.

YJIora peAapa ce He CMe l130CTaBMTl1, Penap je qJIaH noponxne KOjM caM ona6epe Aa he npasara, y TOKYnaaa, MJIl1y TOKYQeJIe CeAMl1Qe, onaj aazcaa peA, Aa He 6l1CMO CBl16l1JIl1 HepB03HM. Penap he CpeAl1Tl1 uxnezre y npencoozsy, CTaBMTM ljaqKe roptie na csoje MeCTO, a CBa l1Xneua naaac ocraszsajy nopen BpaTa, CKlIOHl1Tl1 aepen ca CTOlIa, aKO je HeKO Xl1THOHarrYCTMOxyhy, CBe xpene nerro, rroserna eHTY3l1ja3aM He crrnannsana, a OHAa neua M cynpyr rrOJIaKO OAYCTajy. 3alIlTO? BepOBaTHO je rpa naaa AOBOlbHOna ce MajKa OAMOPM,a l1 na CXBaTl1Aa no-nose na ry6M "BlIaCT". AYTOpl1TapHa MajKa, ,,3BOQalbe", xao CBOjy l1CKpl1BlbeHY norpetiy HOCMy KpBl1. KyhHM rrOClIOBl1l1 cppKa xojy rrpaBl1 OKO rora. cy repea KOjl1M OHa MaHMrrYlIMlIle AeQOM, MY)f(eM. CeTl1Te ce casro, caexpsa he BaM, xao CHaxM, M A03BOJIl1Tl1Aa Oql1CTMTeKyrraTMJIO, ana MeCTO rropeA urrropers nehere A06l1TM. Y MlIaAOCTl1repea Majql1He MaHMrrYlIaQMje cy CBM KyhHM nOClIOBM, a KaAa ceaa ocrapn oana cMalbyje repea OKOumopera. 3alIlTO TO qMHM? KOHrponauryha Cl1TyaQl1jy CBl1qJIaHOBl1 nOpOAl1Qe rrocrajy 3aBl1CHMOA lbe, npM TOM OHa l1Ma HaAMoh HaA CBMMa,jep OHa jeAl1HO M Haj60lbe CBe TO otianzsa. Kana joj ce rrrraxe, xana aahe sa CXOAHOAa aac YQeHM YMOPOM, 60lIelIlhy, MCKOpMCTl1heCBOj ncnoxca] zcprae, xana je aanera, 3BOQalbeM he rrpaamrrn HaneTOCT. Ilpara MajKo, nnaa pana l1YKlbyql1Balbe CBl1Xxnarroaa nopOAl1Qe y paA o.rt rrpeCYAHor cy ana-raja aa pasnoj CBeCHOCTl1,sa peBl1TalIM3aQHjy xcxpaersenor HaroHa - 172-

Cillaapallat.tKa

MaMa UMa

eneptujy

MajKe EOJICuje

Ilpara MaMa, MaKOCl1 MOAepHa, l1aKO re )f(l1BOTytipsaaa,

He CMellI aariopanarn na )f(eHa 21. sexa Mopa Aa MMa eaeprnjy l1 6lIaroCT Majxe Boxorje. Monepaa, cTBapalIaQKa ceaa, MajKa He CMe Aa )f(ypM, Mopa ce npBa oClIo60AMTl1 rOpAOCTl1. Bpeste nnl1lIlaHl1X l1lIl1 HaCl1lIHl1XMajKl1, speae cpeMl1Hl1CTKl1lba,nesfiejxa, urasxxa, <pOlIl1paHTKl1lba, lIelbMBMQa, ,,)f(PTBl1", 3BOQapa, HeYMl1THOrrponaaa. He xsarajre ce sa OTPQaHY cppa3y: ,,3ap orrer Ml1 Aa AP)f(l1MOCBe na CBOjl1Mrrnehasrai" Ila oner Bl1, anl1 can aa npaan HaQl1H, He ayroparapao, Bpeae BlIaAapa l13 ceaxe npOlIa311. AKO je HeKO Kpl1B aa l1HcpaHTl1lIHOCT MYllIKapaQa, Cl1HOBa l1 MY)f(eBa, TO cy M:. a)Ke, cyrrpyre M CBeKpBe. Tpe6a ce casro CeTl1TMAa cy Bep6alIM3aM, npesaurrxhl1Balh e, l1 HerrpMMeTaH 06lIl1K n03l1Tl1BHOr YClIOBlbaBalba ("nlIMllIaHa npaayna ") )f(elie KOPl1CTl1lIeBeKOBl1Ma, nOTnYHO HeCBeCHO, a naaac l1XKOpl1CTenOTUYHO CBeCliO, aa Hecpehy csoje neue, 1<OlIl1KO je CY3a, lIeUl1X )f(eHCKl1Xoxajy npomrseso. 1< OlIl1KO paTOBa ce BOAl1lIO360r Jlenax J eneaa, - 173AOKce
QMlb Hl1je

OCTBapl1o.

)l(eHa he MOpaTJiI ~a ce YQerrOBHH na noxrorae JHfle OHO lllTO cy HM npHpo~a 30JbHO onpeha MaTepHHcTBa, lllTO je )H3HHCMeH, na npHMep.

MYlllKapQY

na H OH TO nOCTJ,trHe

H Bor ~apHBarrH Y H306HJbY OHa ce HHKa~a Hen'

aehe

OMeTaTH na 6y~e

notiap

nOrrHTl1'-Iap J.11I~ CBOjy ~e'IJ.1

BHO tIeKa)'Te na ojaxajy nCHxocpH3HtIKe cnoc06HOCTH ~eT(!Ta, a OHe jaxape3yCJI O lTHeBHO YKorrHKO y nopO~HQH cnpoBo~HTe CTBAPAJIAQKO BACTIJ1. CBaKO..... ' ~AIbE. ,lJ;0 He~aBHO napaaar, He CBOjOM KPHBHQOM, npeTBopHhe ce y B~e~HHQY,
to. M 6UTH 6eCKpa)'HO saxaanaa KO}a He na CHOCTUKP03 pa~ C lby6aBJbY

OH MO)Ke H npeaajara

n JbYJbaTH, oxynarn

jep he oceTHTH pesynrare

pa3BH)alDa CBe-

q~

lITH HHKa~a He MO)Ke 3aMeHHTH Ma)KY Y nepHO~Y xana )e OHa HajnoTpe6HHja ,lJ;aHa~je )KeHa, nonpxcaaa aa ~pYlllTBeHOM HHBOY,

~eTeTy

PYHKQH)e. ,lJ;a,OHa MO)Ke CBe lllTO H OH, ~a B03H HHKO joj He ocnopasa \1eHHX nocnoaa, PO~HY jenaaxocr,

aatiopasana aBHOH, amr joj HHje

csoje OCHOBH~ CBe na KOPJ.1CT

ana ~OK ce OHa rYlllH non TepeTOM caBpe~

isera je carepana

Y MHllljy,

xohy peha,

y )KeHCKY CTpaHy. ,lJ;OllllIO je MylIIKapa-

KOfA BMIlIE BOJIMIlI?", 3AEOPABMTE OBO IlMTAIhE

.

::(03aMeHe yrrora. CBe je BHllle MYlllK06alDaCTHX )KeHa H eMHHH3HpaHHX

ua. OBOj

HrpH casro CTBaparra'IKa ceaa MO)Ke ~a xaxce: CTOll!

O~HOC Me1)y norroMYlIIKapaQ. PO~Hy

BOTlUwe Me, 6une g060lbHO

BHMa MO)Ke ~a ype~e casro CTBaparratIKa xcena H crsapanasxa paBHonpaBHOCT

OCTaBHMO 3aKOHo~aBQY, a nonoaasra 0~y3MHMO KOCKY xojy HM je H yaena HX y PAT.

Kana

je y nHTalDY lby6aB,

Ty CTe OtIHrrre~HO n06pKarrH

nexe

nojssoae. Ynopno

rpa-

v6aQHrra aYTOpHTapHa ~eMoKpaTHja

Baaa

caxo

lby6aB

rpetia,

)I(UTe on MeHe, HaKO caM TaKO MarrH, p;a ce onpep;eJIHM, xora BHllle BOJIHM, xora HJIH nrra HajBHllle BOJlHM, na yqHHHM neurro sa sac, na 6HcTe MH peKJlH KaKO je 6alll

o;parH MOjH pO~HTeJbH. ,lJ;aHaCTaBHMO MH ca Y

namoxr

TeMOM.

rnotianaa nnan ce He 6erre)Ke rrHtIHe aKTHBHOCTH (onpscaaaise rrHtIHe XHrJ.1ieae, yserse, sanxyhne 06aBe3e, nocao, sariaaa ... To je rrHtIHH nnan KOjH 6H sazsarIO CTaBHTH aa Ta6rry rropen rnotianaor. CBaKH tIrraH noponaue he rana csecpmro 1l0MaraTH ~a rrHtIHH nnan csaxor 6y~e lllTO KBarrHTeTHHje peamraoaaa. Kana CBaKO
ONOBOPHO nrraHHpa HOCT H capamsa CBOj nan, He nonasa noponnue. ~O aecnopasyaa, cYK06a, jaxa onrosopCBHX xnaaoaa

TO 3HaK p;a nac BOJlHM. a CBe TO He pa3YMeM. KaKO Mory p;a aac BOJIHM HJlH 6alll rana BOJIHM, xana HHcaM jour casnanao BH. J13BopHe eMOQHje ronana. Ty JIeKQHjy, HHcaM pa3BHO KJIHQY lby6a-

hy

pa3BHTH, ana MopaTe 6HTH CTpnJbHBH, 6ap HeKOJIHKO HMaM norpeoy na

Crora

MopaMO pa3YMeTH na npBHX HeKOJIHKO romma npHMaM. Be3 p;y60Kor nosepeisa,

cn03HaM HarOH p;a lby6aB HepCKHX onaoca,

6e3 HCTHHCKHX napreTH'IKHX A KaKO 6HX

)KHBOTa 6e3 Ka3He H narpane,

6e3 pa3BHjalDa aajsmuax

Ilnanapan,e
[enaor

rnofianao,

ce spunr nan paanje

(aajtiorse

npe crranaisa), Y nnaa

jour 60Jbe

H~eaJIa BepOBaTHO HHKa~a He 6HX Morao BaM Morao neurro naponarn,

OCBOjHTH JIenOTe Jby6aBH.

nana y He~eJbH, xana ce rroponnna

nanasa

na oKyny.

ce yKJbyqyjy

aKO He npenosuajea

TO y ce6H, aKO cerae OCTaHe cesre. tIHTaB MOj )KHBOT

H HajMrra1)H, tIHM cTeKHY

cnocotiaocr

pa3YMeBalDa. TI pBeHcTBo 6HpalDa aKTHBHOnene pO~HTeJbH. Y na,

AKO MH He CTBopHTe YCJIOBe aa paasoj 6J.1hesenxxa onxceja.

Moje KJIHQe lby6aBH,

CTH naje ce HajMrra1)eM tIrraHY H TaKO pe~oM. CBe nenoxpnaeno cTBapH, npeocrane nocnoae

Bnhy

npocjax

KOjH he ueo )KHBOT tIe3HYTH na My ce Jby6aB

nOKpHBa onaj pO~HTeJb KOjH je MalDe aHra)KOBaH aa

[a nehy

6HTH cnocooan

p;a 6HJIO KOMe HJIH tIeMY, na H saraa, Jby6aB p;aM. Ilaje ce p;a ce lby6aB p;a. BOJbeHH

CBOM pa~HOM MecTy. KorrHKO aKTHBHOCTH H urra lDeMY C rryno nOBepelDa.

he

nere 0~a6paTH

npenycrare a npoQec

OHO lllTO ce HMa. 3peJIe Jby6aBH HeM a 6e3 cnoc06HOCTH MojH, na JIH H ~aJbe CYMlDaTe na CTBapaJIatIKO nacrnrrarse neo nopO~HQe?

Ilere

Mopa ornpnnaxe

3HaTH canpzcaj

nocna,

Mopa na nOCTaHe neo sac,

pana, ~y)KHHy ytIeCTBOBalDa y lDeMY, npenYCTHTe nerery, Ka3Ha H narpana He aastepajre MY, He nocroje. pa~HTe YKorrHKO nere onycraae O~ H3a6paHe aKTHBHOCTH ,lJ;parH pa~a

Ila

JIH 6HCTe )KeJIeJIH na BH H ja KHnHMO O~ Jby6aBH, na je HMaMO y

BJ.1lIIKYH ~eJIHMO QeJIOM CBeTY, na CBe y )KHBOTY pap;HM C lby6aBJby?

seh

nazse

na jaxatsy

MOTHBaQHje aa caxopanoer-

Kaxo 6y~eM pacrao,

CBe

hy

smue

oceharn

nejcrso

BYJIKaHa y ce6H. ,lJ;OhH hy

pO~HTeJbH, aay-nrre nerera. HY~HTe

~a npe~ ~pyrHMa pasroaapajre

H3HOCHTe caao n03HTHBHe pesynrare nacaao

ca rOTOBHM nJIaHOM na MH, aKO MO)KeTe, xymrre HarOH TeJIeCHe aKTHBHOCTH, H TaKO penoa.

6HQHKJI, KaKO 6HX peaJIH30BaO

0 "npoMalIIajHMa" novoh yxonaxo

ca ~eTeTOM, YKorrHKO OHOTO )KenH.

nere TO Tpa)KH, arrH jermo He

sariopaazsajre:

pa~ ~eTeTa, Y

. Illra

he ce ~eCHTH YKOJIHKO He npHXBaTHTe BYJIKaH ja

aaaise

xoje BaM Hy~HM? facehH

y ycrroBHMa 6e3 aYTOpHTapHOCTH, je YBel< Haj60Jbe 06aBJbeH pa~, jep nere Ta~a naje MaKCHMYM KOjH je y cxnany ca lDeroBUM nCHxocpH3HtIKHM cnoc06HOCTHMa. Baura OtIeKHBalDa KaKBH Tpe6a na cy pe3ynTaTH pana, 3a60paBHTe. TIOCTOjH casro pe3yrrTaT pa~a KOjH MopaTe npHXBaTJIITU.

n03HTHBHHM eMOQHOHarrHHM ycaosaaa,

JeMH, no jenan

hy

CBaKHM ~aHOM 6HTH p;aJbH O~

norpetia,

a 6JIH)KH

J.1CKPJ.1BJbeHHM )KeJbaMa. He pa3YMeTe?! AKO MH Y ~eTHlDcTBy yracHTe HarOH sa Telle CHOM axrasaourhy, . crpaurao hy Mp3eTH na 3ap;OBOJbaBaM Ty "nOTpe 6 y," )ep CTe Moj npe~HBaH H3BOPHH HarOH HCKPHBHJIH. Bep6aJIH3MOM

here

Me y6e~HTH

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na je TO jaxo Ba)l<HO aa MOj )I<HBOT.Ilo-rehy CJ1l1HOna )f(ellJ1M CBe OHO nrr . OH~11 MapKeTJ1Hr: AeceT06p3J1Hu;a, CKejT, ponepe, rpeaazcepe, MaCa)f(epe, 60.n;1161111rrlA . h ... v!Hr cane, aepo 6 J1K,J1JOIll MHoro Tora. CBe e TO npJ1BlIatfJ1TJ1 MOJ'yna)f(I-bY, a 1I11KpaT KO. Ilocne csera ocrahe casro oceharse KpJ1BJ1u;e , 360r 6atfeHOr HOBu;a, en paBa KOje ce nonnaxe no CTaHY J1HeYMJ1THOMe noncehajy na saur Bep6allJ13aM' . "~OB eK u;ellor )f(J1BOTa Mopa Aa ce 6aBJ1 TelleCHOM aKTJ1BHoIllhy", tfyjeM saure pexn. .ITOIllTO HJ1KaAa HJ1CaMcrrosaao Aa BellJ1KOcrrpeaarse CTaHa Clby6aBlb y, .n;OHoCJ1JeAHaKY KOllJ1tfJ1HY snpasrsa, xao J1CBaKo.n;HeBHOrpxaa,e OKOconnrepa, y 11360py J13Me~y OBe ABe aKTJ1BHOCTJ13aBpIllJ1h~, Hap~BH~, nopen TelIeBJ130pa. ITpaTl1hy KOTplbaI-be norrre no TepeHY, KOH3YMJ1paJyhJ1 JOIll Je.n;HYJ1lIy3J1jy Aa ja TP'IJ1M sa lIonTOM. Ionopahy ce6J1, ys 'IaIllY nJ1Ba: "OA cyTpa nO'IJ1I-beM na .n;P)f(J1M.n;I1JeTY . " J1sexc 6 aM.I

Ilparn rara, TJ1 CJ1rypHO He )f(elIJ1Ill Aa MJ1 ce TO .n;eCJ1?!06YU;J1MO CTape rpenepxe, nO'IHJ1~O ca rrpaisea np030pa J1llJ1 J13J1~J1MOna lIJ1BaAY J1 IllyTJ1pajMo ca y)f(J1Ba~eM TaJ J13lIJ13aHJ1cpy.n;6alI J13 Tsor AeTJ1I-bCTBa.Tara, ja caM Tsoja uianca, a TJ1 MOJa. CaMO lby6aBlbY, MOj J13BOPHJ1HarOH aeheur J1CKPJ1BJ1TJ1, a Taoj J1CKP~BlbeHJ1 HarOH rrorrpazmhe lIenOTY J13BOpHOr 0611J1Ka. EJ1hy ja Maznr ITpJ1HU;KOjYl he 'IYlCTYlTYl Tsoje aynxaae, saryureae y AeTYlI-bCTBY,allYl Manor Ilpaaua sazsa MOTYlBJ1CaTJ1. ITpBYl nOTe3 je YBeK na aasra, nparx MOjYlponarezsa. Tana Me nehere nYlTaTJ1 Aa lIYl sac BOlIYlM,xora nmne BOlIYlM.TelIOM Yl.n;YIllOM3HaheMO, ocehahexro Aa ce BOllYlMO. .

CaMOytrelbe, caaopan J1 caraoofipaaoaaa-e cy BYlIllYl0611J1U;J1ytfelba. AKO. ce e KaKOTpa)f(Yl CTBAPAJIAqKO BACITJ1TAIhE, OBJ1npJ1HU;YlnUna KOJJ1CJ1poBOA , sa cTBapalIa'IKO BaCnYlTaI-benonoce AeTeTY orposory lby6aB npesia )f(J1BOtda J10qU .. r U cBaKOM paAY AKTUBHOCTYlCMeI-byjy jenna Apyry, eMOU;YlOHallHaXapMOHJ1Ja Yl y CTBO rrpare rrpou;ec paAa Ylnpouec casroaacrnrraisa nerera. 3aAOBOlb .' [a caM CTJ-lraOy CBeT KOjYlHe n03HaJeM. He 3HaM KOJe spcre paAa YlaKTYlBHOCTYl 'y MOlIYlM sac na Me, HeHaCJ1lIHO, C Ay60KJ1M nosepeisea, CTBapalla'Itde OqeK YJ . , . KOMMOTuBaU;MjoM YBOAMTey aaur CBeT KOJYlHe MO)f(e 6e3 paAa. Baura MOTMBau;Yl. na 6yrre KpeaTJ1BHa KaKaB he 6MTYl J1 MOj paA. qOBe'IaHCTBO he rrpBM rryT Ja Mopa )l(MBeTMAa qOBeK paAM Yl)f(J1BMC lby6aBlbY AO . IT ,Uahy BaM HeKOllMKOJ1Aeja sa A06py KpeaTMBHy MOTMBaU;YlJY OCTaBJ1Teaeceny cu;eHy, M3a6epJ1Te ynore, myMMTe KaKO rpefia Aa narnena cYTpaIllI-bM paAHJ1 AaH y K hM M Moja YlIora y CBeMYTOMe. J1rpaheMo ce csera IllTO 6J1 Momo na rrOACTaKHe y . . K HeKU M3BOpHMHarOH. Masra, nesaj MJ1,YMeCTOIllTO BM'IeIll na TaJY 0 nesa, 3lIO He MUClIJ1, MaaaaMa! Maaa, He lbyTJ1 ce na 6aKy IllTO MM npJ1'Ia 0 Mouapry, a satiparsyje MJ1Aa J1rpaM MrpJ1u;e. He 60j ce IllTO hy 6YlTM pa3lIM'IJ1T OAApyre neue, He nnaunr ce, caMO je MCTMHCKapa3lIJ1'IJ1TOCT, a y I-beHOMTeMelbY je lby6aB, rrpana nenora. Tara, noxaxor csoje My3M'IKO aaaise, yxomahy. ~eKO, crnenaj HeIllTO MaKO HJ1CJ1saneaao y rrOClIeAI-bMXnsanecer rOAMHa. CBe cy TO nOACTJ1u;ajJ1 sa pa3BJ1jarse MY3M'IKOr J13BOpHOr aaroaa, a xana Ao~e BpeMe C panourhy hy KpeHyTM y My3J1'IKy mxony, Ilpenxcraaajre npJ1BlIa'IHY lIJ1TepaTYPY, nOlIaKO Me YBOAehJ1 y OHO, IllTO MJ1ClIJ1Te,Aa J1Ma snaxaj aa MeHe, y OBOMTpeHyTKy. He oxajanajre aKO eac ycpen mYMa'IKOr, nesa-rxor M 'IJ1TalIa'IKOr saaoca XlIaAHo OCTaBJ1MnpJ1BytreH He'IYlM, TaKO Ba)f(HJ1M aa MeHe. Onpocrnhere MM J16e3YClIOBHO 'IeKaTJ1 npamncy
M M '

CTBAPAJIA qKA M OTJ1BA-UJ1JA

"MoTYlBaU;J1ja je n03J1TJ1BaH eMOU;YlOHalIHYl YlMnYllc, YlHCnJ1paU;J1ja, nOKpeTa'IKa cnara, 6y~eI-be J1HTepeCOBaI-ba, 6y~eI-be J1ja-rarse Yl3BOPHJ1Xesrouaja YlCTBapaI-be pacnoacosea,a aa cavopan, aa ocraaperse norpetia sa caaocrrosnajoa Yl3BOPHYlX naroaa, CBYlXCBOjYlXrroremnrjana Ylranenara." Je.n;HoM pesjy, xao paHo 6y~elbe nponeha, ronzro, He)f(HO, A06po, norryr 6lIare nponehae xmne. Mopare npaBYlTJ1 pa311YlKy J13Me~y caaopana Ylaacmrrasarsa nerera na caMOCTallHO pana. CaMOCTalIHYl pa.n;, y OKBYlPYaYTOpYlTapHOr sacnararsa je YlAalbe pan nOA npYlHy.n;OM, YllIYl rrmnnaaosr rrpaaynoa, pa.n; 6e3 lby6aBYl. Tpe6a Aa Hay'IJ1~ seh BYl~eHO, Aa YTBPAYlM.To je Y'IeI-be nonpaacasarsea y xojea caM ja o6jeKaT KOJer sn npecapare. Be)f(6aTe crporohy aa AalbYlHy. BYlhere MeHe aa paA, KOjYlHe BOllJ1M, a.n;eKBaTHO aarpamrra, YClIOBYlTYl, norxpaisyjyha noxnerry YlllYl Ka3HUTU, o.n;Y3YlMajyhYlMJ1)f(eJbeHY HarpaAY.
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sa BaIllY npesorjepy. CaMO He OAYCTajTe. EYllIa je TO nO'IeTHa MOTJ1BaU;J1ja,a OHa rnasaa Mor caMopaAa TeK ClIeAJ1. Pex je 0 ...

xoja je yrpahena y caM npouec

o AYEOKOM nOBEPElbY
llIiUa
Uta

tieiue Ibytiae!

CpehYlu;e Moje, AOIlllIM CMO AO Klh)"IHor nojaa 6e3 xojer HeMa J1CTJ1HCKOrCTBaf:lla'IKOr BaCnJ1TaI-ba. 3aIllTO? 3aTO lliTO je ~YEOKO ITOBEPEIhE, Y CTBapJ1 y6aB. To je BJ1lliJ106lIJ1K lby6aBJ1 OA lby6aBM xojy qOBeqaHCTBO nosnaje. AyTOPI1TapHI1' CMCTeMBaCnJ1TaI-ba HJ1Je A03BOlIJ10 tfOBeKY na yn03Ha 3aAOBOlbCTBO KOJe .
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YCKpaTJ10 My je OHO IllTO My npJ1na~a KaO 'IOBeKY, jep My J'e . napy_ => XapMOHJ1JY 3epyjeTe na je ~OBOJbHOnere Ma3J1TJ1,IlleTaTJ1, JbYJbaTJ1,XpaHJ1TJ1,ycnaBlbl1 Ilaif TO CBe aa Ha'IJ1H KaKO cy pa~J1JIJ1 BaMa. To je zsyfiaa, a He lhy6aB. TaMO rn . Me 1CKpJ1BJbeHJ1HarOHJ1, 3JIoynoTpe 6 JbeH CTpax, rne je rroxnena, noja'IaBa 3aIll1_ CT J1ocehaise KpJ1BJ1n;e,JIelbOCT, 3aBJ1CT,oryherse, HeMa lhy6aBJ1. TaMO rAe ce , BeK ynpa)KlbaBa HajHJ1)KJ106JIJ1K ysersa, yqelbe rronpaacaaatsea; r~e ce Ilac-ana npJ1Hy~oM, YCJIOBJbaBalbeMJ1Bep6aJIJ13MOM, HeMa lhy6aBJ1.
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yha y ~y60KO rroaepeise, a CBJ1CMOnOTeKJIJ1J13aYTOpJ1TaPHJ1XnopOAl1-

Y'IJ1MOOTnO'IeTKa! CeTJ1Te ce ca KaKBJ1M CTeCTpnJbelbeM, ca KaKBJ1M n03J1THIl_ if eMOn;J1jaMa'IeKaJIJ1 MOj~OJIa3aK na CBeT.BepOBaJIJ1 CTe npxponn 6e3 TPyBKe use, ~a hy nohx. qeKaJIJ1 CTe 6e3YCJIOBHOMOj ~OJIa3aK, n;eJIJ1MCBOjJ1M6J1heM. Ie ,lJ;YEOKO IlOBEPElhE. OHO J1MaTpJ1 nena xoja ce cranajy y jemry n;eJIJ1Hy: - Iloxerna J1H<popMan;J1ja,0 cBeMY IllTO je on saaxaja aa MOj n03J1TJ1BaH pacr, pOpMan;J1jaMopa 6J1TJ1Ta'IHa, rrpeunsna, KpaTKa, a 3aBJ1CJ1on nCJ1Xo-<pH3J1t1paasoja nerera, on rO~J1Ha cTapOCTJ1. - YCJIOBJ1 Y KojJ1Ma nere rpetia ~a 06aBJ1 caaopan J1O~HOCJ1J13Mel)y ponarezsa erera Mopajy 6J1TJ1eMOn;J10HaJIHOn03J1TJ1BHJ1,6e3 ynorpetie J1jenaor aYTopHnor, BaCnJ1THOr MO~eJIa. - Y CBe, ~OKJIe ron rpaje caMopa~ nerera, MopaTe YHeTJ1uenor ce6e, 6e3 TPYH:yMlbe y n03J1TJ1BaH J1CXO~pa~a nerera. Io ~y60KO nOBepelbe, xao n;eJIJ1Ha,npeHOCJ1 ce aa nere. Ilere cnOHTaHO ~y60noaeperse YHOCJ1 y caM npouec pana, ,lJ;OK pa~J1 nere oceha caspurea MJ1p,jep ra BJ1urazsere, Oceha BaIllY lhy6aB, jep My je BJ1urazsere. Taxo OCJI060l)eHO, IJ1lbe na KpeJ1pa, jep My BJ1HJ1CTe~aJIJ1 ueny J1H<popMan;J1jy0 pa~y. OH HaJIafIOBerryrese, HOBa peurersa. ,lJ;03BOJIJ1JIJ1 CTe My na caM OTKpJ1je KaKOce npaBJi1 'na aa CaKCJ1jJ1", HeMajyhJ1 TpyHKy cyMlbe na he je OTKPJ1TJ1, jep je HeMaTe HJi1 Ilere caMO panx, a BJ1,~pafJ1 pO~J1TeJbJ1,EE3YCJIOBHO QEKA]TE, xao Ka~ 'IeKaJIJ1 ~a ce pO~J1 nere, ,lJ;y60KJ1Mnoaepersesr npaTJ1Te pa~ ~eTeTa, He MeIllaJ:e, ~OK nac nere He n030Be, J1 He nOTpa)KJ1 nosroh, PeTKO he aac nOTpa)KJi1TJi1. 3HaTe 3aIllTO? 360r error )KeCTOKOrnarona n03J1TJ1BHe 60p6eHOCTJ1 ~a 6yp;e 60JbJ1 1160JbJ1 Y O~HOCy aa ce6e jyxe. EJ1he TpeHYTaKa xana he nere 06Y3eTJi1 'aTJ1BHeestouaje, xana he sa KpaTKO, HapYIllJ1TJ1XapMOHJ1jy,jep he HaJ1JIa3Ji1TJi1 to. Heranp06JIeMe, aJIJ1 BJ1 He 6pJ1HJ1Te. Tap;a My nOM03J1Te ~a 6p30 npeBa3Ji11)e Ji1Ji1JIJi1 IHO craise, TaKO IllTO here My nOMohJ1, J1JIJ1ra J13ByhJ1J13re aKTJ1BHOCT, . enaocraaao OCTaBJ1TJ1,He TeIllenJ1 ra. CTpnJbJ1BO 'IeKaJTe, CBe to lie npo nJi1Ji1Ha . li1 Ije MeCTOnoha. Ey,n;J1TeYBeK n03J1TJ1BHa axuaja, HJ1Ka,n;aHeraTJ1BHa peaJ<U Ja.
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1[PEIIIKA He nOCTOJI1.IloCTOopana YnaMTI1Te. CaAa ce BpahaMo pe3YJITaTl1MacaM . _A-11311'IKI1M cnoc06HOCTJ1Ma nere.' cKJIaAY ca nCI1XO 't' K caMO pe3YllTaT KO)11)e Y . 6110 Ayro npe3alllTl1hJ1BaH OA 01la311lllTeM, KOllJ1KO Je ra, lberOBJ1MrOAJ1HaMa I1 n My sa rraJbI1n03J1TI1BaH paCT, Kp03 " A' YTOKa3 I1aaxa I1lbe , I-'> IllK paAa I1peAa. [PE Je n , . 6 II CI1MnTOM 6011eCTI1Aparon;eH aa HOCT Kao nrro je 0 HOBY, Klll1nOHOBJbeHYaKTI1B TKTI1BaH pacr nerera. Ka3Ha He . aron;eHJ1 3HaK 3a n03 nauajenra. TaKO Je rpeIllKa AP . nocrojx. Harpana TaKol)e He nOCTO)J1. HE _ CIlOPEAHE CTBAPJ;1. OHO nrro YnaMTJ1!PaA J1npeAMeT pap;a cy BA)K . nYEOKO nOBEPEfuE y rrehy aKTJ1BHOCT Je 1-'1 he nere nOHeTJ1 J1 npeHeTJ1 aa cnen nYEOKO nOBEPEe y )KJ1BOTPeKOCMO, 1-'1 ce6e, y n03J1TJ1BaH J1CXOA paAa, Y JbYA , .' BOMO aMO np06YAJ1TJ1, npJ1lbE je lhy6aB, a lhy6aB je Ay60KO nOBepelbe KOJenp P ce6J1'IHO AellJ1TJ1. Ml1TI1., YCBOjl1.TI1. xao MOAell, a oana He MOflll1.CTe 3aKJbyql1.AocaAallllbl1. TeKCT, YKOTlI1.KO CTe 6e3 ornopa, 'IJ1Talll1.ueo a Hel1.cnYlbeHa O'Ie. pOAJ1TeJbJ1,3a CBa Balll . TI1. na HI1.KO HJ1je KPJ1B,a HaJMalbe saura A Opl1.TapHJ1CJ1CTeM)e . J'11. aexa 3Halbe. yT KKIlalba. KaKO MO)Kena 6yp;e KpJ1Bonaj KO MorrellJ1. nllJ1lllaHJ1 BaCnJ1THn I-'> 'lYIlao ce6e, a TO nanac 'lJ1He u.erose crryre, HI1KOHJ1je y'IJ10 . ce nJ1TaJII1.3alllTO J1X POp;J1TeJbI1. Tpap;J1ll;J10HallHe CBeCTJ1cy 6 . J'e pe'I 0 p;pecyHJ16J111enorpe He, Jep KaKOna sacnaraaajy neuy. Ty pe'll1. HJ1CY 0 CBe ce HOCJ1110 ce CKOlleHa na xonea . PH, xoja je rpajana BeKOBJ1MaJ1npeHOCI1.11a a A-YHKll;J10HI1.Ille, 11. pO~J1TeJb no-onse p; 't' YHCKYCTBY. Ilere ce pO~J1, a Tpap;I1.ll;J10HallH .' MeTallO xao ~eTeTy, a o My Je HaJBl1.llleC Kao lherOB pomrrers. IloHaBJba CBe OHO, urr . My 'IJ1HI1.0lberOB. OHOIllTOJe lbe 3aKTlHlhao ce na HJ1Ka,n;a nehe CBOMnerery 'IJ1HJ1TJ1
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Caapesreaa nOpO):VlI.~a je npeorrrepeheaa e~yKaU;MjaMa. PO~MTelbM cy 36Yl-be_ M. TIMTajy ce UITa ce ~OrO~MnO na cana He snajy HM na sacmrraaajy poljeHo AeT . ., e. .pM TOM, lllTO BMllle 'lMTa)y, yse, cnyllla)y casere crpy-nsaxa, pesyzrrarn BaCnl-l1'a_ .a cy cse nOlll"j". CBe enyxauzje ce csone aa npecypy ponxrezsa KaKO na YMecTO 1"3"'lKe rrpxayne ycaoje rmmuany. TIpMHy~a je np"Hy~a. BpeMeHOM POA"TeJhl-l nycrajy O~ CBMXBpCTa enyxauaja, jep onycrajy " OA csoje neue, O~ nopOAl-IQe. Ilpara pOp;"TelbM, B" cana ycaajare saaise craapanasxor sacmrraisa, OTKPl-lBa_ e Y3pO'lH"Ke CBOj"X MyKa. He Tpa)l("Te rpelllKy y ce6", npyurrso BaM je, a na Bac "je HM mrrano, aasterayno nmnnaao sacnararse. Xpa6po ce ocn060A"Te Ka3He narpane y O~HOC"Ma " pa~oCT ce spaha y sama cpua, y naur p;OM.

IPEKJ1HJ1TE JIAHAQ HEfATJ1BHOCTJ1

:noc06HOCT npeKM~alba naaua HeraTMBHOCTM, xana HeraTMBHOCT jenaor xnaaa :opo~"u;e, nOKpeHe nO)l(ap HeraTMBHOCTMy ~pyrMMa, je spno aazcaa. Heonxomnr y sozsa, xcezsa, CBeCHOCTan" " anaise KaKO npeK"HyT" OBY "rpy xoja ce noaalba " xoja 3aYCTaBlba pacT Jby6aB" Meljy nasra. Kana ce BOlbHO oAnyqMMo ~a cxyna, ca 'lnaHOB"Ma csoje nOpOA"U;e, KpeHeMo ra OBO 'lOBe'lHO nYToBalbe MopaMo ce TPYP;"T" p;a 3aycTaB"MO nanau HeraTMB10CT", xana ce OH HeCBeCHO noxpeae. Hxje naxo xana no-mere p;a ce ocnotiahare Tapwx HaBMKa. Ynanare y HeraT"BHOCT, HeCBeCHOCT Hac uenor 06Y3Me, sacopa;MMO Ky~a " saurro CMO xpeayzor. An" rraunr BOlbeH" HaM Mory onaxurarn MyKe [ BpaT"TM Hac aa npaaa rryr, ,il;OBOlbHOje na HaM noxaxcy HeK" 3HaK, aa KOj" CMO 'e ynarrpen ~orOBopMnM (na noxae ~a 3B")I(~") "Aa ce HaneTOCT op;je~HoM CMaJ-b1-l, . nOTOM aacnojeaa aarnaszseaa esrouaja caste npOMeHM csrep KpeTaJ-ba. H"je [aKO, an" aajynopnnja ycneaajy, Hexa BaM je ca cpehosr, AparM MOjM.

jep rOTOBO HMlllTa HeMa na saraepe CBOjMM cy y MHoro rezcoj CMTyaU;MjM, ."ehepa ) . &J' elb1-lMa. ycneunor cy, MnM napa3MTMpa)y. pOAWT 3WT1-IBHO ycnoBlbaBalbe je ~aHac npyurrseao npM3HaT1-I Mo~en BacnMTalb:: Do . HUKaTT H1-I)' e 61-10BMP;lb1-lB, jep ponsrrers CBe pap;M aa "p;06po ~eTeTa . W)aTelb 1-IM I-'> Benp . aB1-Ina Mrpe M ~OKne ron nere no lb"Ma )l(MBM,norne Tpa)e 1-1 J-berOB nwcao)e np . Dpo ""a)' H1-InpaB1-InMMa 1-Irpe ce He MO)l(e 3aMepMTM, )ep cy OHa YBeK U1heH1-Inono"" . . . aJIa no p;pYUITBeH1-IMO'leK1-IBalb1-lMa.Ha np1-lMep, p;pYIliTBeHO Je noxcersno M y CJ<JIap;yca 'eTTHOMnepaony 6MT1-IB1-ICOKO lllKOJICK1-I 06pa30BaH, y npyrox 6"TM nJIaTWBO,y) I-'> C . TpeheM eCTpap;Ha aseana. PO~1-ITelb1-l he cTBapaT1-I TaKBe ycnose 'lM)" aHaTJI1-I)a,y . 3 aCn"TH1-I np01-l3BOP; 61-1T1-I nere, no 3aM1-IllilbeHOM Mop;eny KO)M HyP;1-I h <pWHaJIHW B . 6 . Hep;OCTaJe, a ani TO Mano )e e Y y je np06neM? CaMO )'enaa C1-ITH1-Iu;a yIllTBO. 'leM' . AP 6 J<y aa cpehy, IT ere 1-IMaHenpeCTaHO ocehaise HeM1-Ipa, 'l"Je nopenOTpe HO 'lOBe I-J, . 'e B1-ITTHO He3ap;OBOlbCTBO, orpoxnra noxnena, )l(elbe KOJMMaKpaJa KJIOHe npe n03HaJ . I-'> HeMa 1-1 CTpax HenpeCTaHO npare ycnoBlbaBaHO nere. Ilere H"~ap;a He p;03Ha p;~ CBe U OTT pOTTMTelbaKO)'" J'e"3 nesaaisa YHecpeh1-l0 CBOJe nere, 3aXTeBaJyh1-l OBOp;OJIa3 I-'> I-'> na nere )l(MB" Tyt)1-IM)l(1-IBOTOM. YCJIOBlbaBaHO nere ce onsaja O~ CBO)e CYIlIT"He 1-1
Yl Yl

HjI[Ka~a He p;03Ha p;a cy pop;1-ITelb1-l"3BOP rseroaax MYKa. . . 3a lbYTlby HeMa pa3JIOra, jep ce He MO)l(e3aMepaT1-I'lOBeKY KO)" HM)e P;06MO snaise, AOUIJIOje BpeMe p;a onpOCTMTe pomrrersy, 6e3 p;BOYMlbelba, osor rpetryrxa. TI"TaTe 3aUITO)l(YP"M? >Kyp1-lMce6e pap;" " sac, Ee3 'l"Ha orrpaurraisa He MO)l(eMOy n031-1T1-IBaH paCT. He MO)l(eMO~OK He OnpOCT"Te pomrrersy y ce6M " He xpenere na ce 60p1-lre aa HOBor pO~1-ITelba. OnpOCT"T" ponarersy y ce6" 3Ha'l" JI1-IllIMT1-I ce IIJI1-IlliaHe 1-1 peanne npMHyp;e. EOpMTMce sa HOBor pop;MTelba Yce6" 3Ha'l" np"XBaT"TM CTBAPAJINIKO BACTIY1TAIbE, 0p;6aU;"T1-Inpanyny, YCJIOBlbaBalbe M Bep6aJIM3aM ... 1-1 saurraT"TMnere on nacarsa CBMX BpCTa, HapO'l1-lTOop; aacnrsa Mep;Mja,6ap p;o cep;Me ronaae. Ilpara pop;MTelbM, He rytiare BpeMe. Ep30 onpacrast " Morno 6M ce p;eC"TM na J1. ja y aacnehe p;06MjeM uesnan-e CBOjMXnpenaxa. Ilozcypare! OnpOCT"Te! CBaKo CBOMpomrrersy. Tpaysre he rtoxern p;a ce oranajy nonyr nena, M aKO He xonare no npOlllnOCT". CBaKO xonaise no npoumocrn cano ysehaaa 60n. OnpOCT1-ITM, 3Haql1 KpeHyTM HOB"M nYTeM. Onpourraj na aepoanuo HMBOYHeMa H1-IKaKaB3Ha. . OM 'iaJ, alll1 xana MCKO'lMTe"3 aYTopMTapHOCTM Y CBOjOj nopO~MU;M, ca CBO)OMnei; , KaAa BI1AI1Tepesynrare, xana BMAMTecsoje nOTOMKe 3aAOBOlbHe M cpehne, Tap;a ce on POlUTaj noraha caM OA ce6e. KaAa 6YAeTe onpOCTMJI", CBaKO CBOMpop;MTelbY, M3 xopena he ce npoMeHMTM OAHOCI1 Y uenoj nopOAMU;M M IlIMpe. AKO 'lOBe'laHCTBO )l(elIM y6p3aH n03MTMBaH paCT HeonXOAHO je na M cena onpOCTM MyIliKapu;y, M MylllKapau; )!(eHM. " Ko je KPI1BlllTO je Ap;aM MyqMO rryury "pe6py" CBOM?Ko je Kp1-lBlllTO ce "pe6po I-ber K . OBO BeKoBMMa npxnpevano aa oCBeTY? Her-ta KPMB1-IX. p1-lBa Je BeJ<OBHa
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PO,Il;J1TEJbY!

ra 3HaM ga je Ibytiae HeJICHOCUl U go6poUla

.Ieo )l(MBOT, npoBo~MTe y narrsa, lbYTlbM, neaanosozscray, jep ocehare ~a BaUia rexxaan,a HMCY ncrryreeaa. OHM KOjM cy BacnMTaBaHM npMHy~oM (6aT1-IHONl) 1Majy jacny CBeCT ~a cy pomrrersa Y3POK lbMXOBe narrse. YcnOBlbaBaH1-I (KOU;J<ONl
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rrer B , acm'l1'li a KaMOlIM >KeHY on I1X M MYlUl<ap (a, AeQY OA pOAMTeJba. Myurxapan ce YMOPMO OA rocrroAapelba KOHTp , OJurcalba [ ynserasaa,a ceae. )KeHa He CMe na HaqMHM rpellIKY, na nOHOBM nyr KOjl1M .

IIOTpe6a

aYTOpMTapHOr

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M zrene M ABa OKa y rrraan,

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MYIliKapaQ. Ha>KalIOCT, BM,n;MM,n;aje )f(eHa seh 3aMeHMlIa ynore ca M je B . YlUl<ap_ ~eM. epyjev na )e MMMTaTopCKM yM yqMHMO csoje, alIM na he cPQe >KeHe Hahl1 II (0 snarsa cTBapalIaqKOr BacrrMTalba. YT pa,n;MllI OHO IlITO . )e TaTa Ja,n;Mo ce6M M Te6M BeKoBMMa. HM ja He >KelIMM ,n;aY3MeM BlIaCT He rr03B . . M OlIl1Mo ra Hac aYTopMTapHO, crrOlballilbe BaCrrMTalbe jour je,n;HOM rrpeBapM, Aa CBe OCTaHe
:TO CTapOM, a

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p 6 Y KOPI1CT onor p;pyror, a I1CTOBpeMeHO HI1KO Hl1je aanoaorsan. HeM a uqyce e, .. y o~P HU CBecTU 0 He3arrOBolbCTBY. CBe nOTl1cHYTO ocyheao Je na eKcnlI03l1JY. KOM qal< 6' 6YHI1 xceneha p;a OCTBapl1 CBOjy norpetiy, jaqJ1 J1Ma 6aTI1Hy 113a 1<0ce cna I1)M rro . cliO' 6 63Mpa na CBe saripaae KlIaCJ1qHe 11septiamre rrpI1Hyp;e. ClIa611)11 3Ha aa ~a e30 6' 6 h eh nOKYllIaTJ1 na p;a oTrrop. ]aql1 3Ha sa crpax cna J1)er J1 aTJ1HY e ynoHe e HJ1 . 6 TO, . 0)' Hy)f(rrJ1 e6UTl1 y Kpa)lb M .,Ha npJ1Mep YKOlIJ1KOMaMa HJ1)e peannaonana nOTpe . y TP rrpl1) asa p;py)f(elbeM OHa he y 6paKY noacenern p;a 6ap nexan He06aBe3Ho one KOA 6 . .e lby60MopaH My HeQI1Bl1lIJ130BaHMM YClIOBJ1Ma HaCMlIHO M TelbMQe. M Y)f() h . ocy)e6 6 AlIJ1 KOMrrpOMJ1C rrpaBI1 qYAO. OH he ce onpe M CBO)e rrOTpe e TUO lbeHY ncrpe y.
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rose <peMMHMCTKMlba rrpOTMB MYIliKapaQa.

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naxo here orrpocTMTM jezmo npyrov. OrrpoCTMTM 3HaqJ1 Ay60KO pa3YMeTM p;a je rrpMHyp;a xopea CBMX HallIMX necpeha, 6e3 ornopa YCBOjMTM CTBAPAJINIKO BACITJ1TAfhE, rrpMMeHMTM ra y CBOjOj noponaux M KpeHyTM y rr03MTMBaH pacr, y HOBO BaCrrMTalbe CBOjMX rrOTOMaKa, ocraapyiyha HajBMllIe lby,n;CKe Mp;eane (rrCMXO-<pM3MqKO snpaan,e, CTBapalIaqKY MHTelIJ1reHQMjy, /byrias, ,lJ;06pOTy
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MI1CHI1XY KOjl1M CBaKO )f(I1BI1 )f(MBOT KOjl1 He )f(elIM.

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rOBOpJ1 0 ,lJ;YEOKJ1M

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Tara, He rrnaunr ce IlITO heur naaac y xyha 6MTM rrorrYT HajHe)f(HMje MaMe, a seh cyrpa CM CTBapalIaqKM rrOlIMTMqap KOjM ce onpexao aYTOpMTapHOCTM. Massa, He cTpaxyj IlITO heur rrpe nonae 6MTJ1HayqHMK caBpllIeHe rr03MTMBHe CBeCTM,a nononHe He)f(Ha MaMa xoja he ca MHOM llIyTMpaTM lIorrTY na lIMBaAM. CTBAPAJIAqKO BACITJ1TAfhE CBe M csaxora cnaja. XBalIa BaM IlITO CTe onpocrann jemro p;pyroM. TeK cana MO>KeMO OqeKMBaTM, M3Mel)y CBMX qlIaHoBa rropoznme, a nocetiao M3Mel)y Te6e MaMa M Te6e rara ...

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caMOaKTI1BHOCT, M Hece6J1qHO My p;apyje p;y60KO noaepeise,

ren,

on nerera. To cy p;y60KI1 rrapTHepcKM OP;HOCI1.J1 csoje rrorpetie sa peannaauajoa 113BOPHI1X narona. Ilere je OCTBapJ1lIO norpetiy aa caMOaKTJ1BHollIhy, a pOp;J1Telb p;y60KY norpefiy sa OCTBapelbeM pomrrezscraa, xoje je na panocr J1pOp;J1Telba 11nerera. OCTBapMBlIIl1 cnoje norpefie, I1cnYHJ1lIJ1 CTe aajaehe oxexaaatse OqYBAfhE XAPMOHJ1JE, 6e3 Koje HeMa n03I1TJ1BHOr pacra.
p;0611ja J1CTOBeTaH op;roBop pOp;I1Telb 11nere oCTBapMlIl1 cy ,lJ;aKlIe, p;parJ1 MOjl1,

-rysajre

ce, KOMnpOMJ1CHJ1X napTHepCKJ1X oznroca.

OHM

Hl1Kap;a nehe 3ap;OBOlbJ1TJ1 saure I1CTJ1HCKe norpetie. HanpOTI1B, OAPl1qeTe, y J1Me MJ1pa y KyhJ1.

MopaheTe p;a MX ce

Bonnhere jenaa

Ml1paH, arnr nazcan )f(I1BOT.

I1CTI1HCKO, JJ;YEOKO nAPTHEPCTBO

l'baBaheTe

cajao

J1CKpJ1BlbeHe zcerse ce6J1 11p;pyrI1Ma, M CBe BI111Iece

Hcnyyp;albaBaTJ1 on

BlIaCTl1Tl1X, J13BOPHJ1Xnorpefia. AKo

Tqe je

lby6aB,

nesca

KOMUpOMuca

ce onpep;elIJ1Te sa p;y60KO naprnepcrao, csoje

norpetie,

3ajep;HJ1qKJ1OTKpJ1jTe KOjJ1cy BYlI-

~aHl1 Y BaMa yryurena.

AKO ce I1CTI1HCKI1BOlIl1Te

rosopa 0 rroTpe6M napTHepCKMX onaoca Mel)y lbyp;MMa. UUBU1II130BaHM CBeT ce srpaaca Hap; OP;HOCMMa y KojMMa P;OMMHMpa <pM3MqKa M Bep6aJIl-Ia npMHyp;a. 3arra,LI cpopcMpa onrroce y KOjMMa P;OMMHMpa rr03MTMBHO YClIOBlbaBaJbe
,lJ;aHac ce CBe xeurhe

JeAl-io p;pyroM na CBaKO OCTBapl1 lUeHe BYlIKaHe.

naha here aa-nraa p;a noxoraere na npOql1CTI1 11O)f(I1BI1 aeh yra-

.AY60Kl1 IIapTHepcKM OP;HOCI1ce Haj6p)f(e 11najtiorse peamrayjy y CTBapalIaqI<0J nop . OP;I1Ql1.C'rapa, ayTopl1TapHa rropop;I1Qa je 113Hep;pl1lIa MI1lII10He MlIap;I1X

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IIH:lpOM IlJIaHeTe KOjM cy rrpe.n; 6paKOM M rrpe.n; orracaourhy .n;arrOHOBe HaClIe~eHO on ponarezsa

MJIap;W, He nponycrxre
plba,,"

nenarorxje,

He3Ha M na ycsoje HaMeTHYTO snaise rrllMlliaHe I-he, , CaBpeM elie

llIaHCY xojy MMaTe aa rr03MTMBaH paCT y rrepMO.n;ysatia-

nornaszsa 0 O'feKMBalbMMa, HarOHMMa M rrorpetiaTfy60 pa3YMeBalbY. Iloxmrre ca pa.n;OM.OTBOpMTe .n;yllIy jenao .n;pyrOM. fda, ,.., KOM Kpajlhe WCKpeHOM3BpllIMTe ananasy naurer nermscraa. Bes ocehaisa KpMBMu;e, .
TKcTe Balbp;a caMM ce6e aacmrraaana. 3aKlbyqMTe KojeM BaCmlTHOM TMny npMjep H' l1a.n;aTe . .n;alIW CTe npOM3BO.n;npmryne, n03MTMBHor ycnoazsaaarsa, npesaurrahapal" ,

tl.a J111I'fMTajTe nazosxao

o MJIA)J;J1MA
He upouywwajwe waHcy
Ilepaon 3alby6lbeHocTM, je onaj nepaon y KO)'eMna 06)'eKaT CBO)'e3alby6 .. . lbeHOCTM rrpO)eKTy)eMO CBe CBO)e)Kelbe M rrorpetie, xana BM.n;MMO MHoro rora xera y CTBapM nesra, Ha)KallOCT. Ilepaon aafianrsarsa je jenaa o.n;peTKMX npnnxxa aa rr03MTMBaH onnoca, je.n;HOM pexjy, OBO je rrepMO.n;y pa~T, ocraapeise .n;y60KMX naprnepcxax KO)eM ce MlIa.n;MMOry npanpeaara aa 6paK y xojea he Jby6aB uerrpecrano .n;a pacre. Ilpxnpenajre ce TaKO IlITO here y CTBapaJIa'fKMM YClIoBMMa .n;aTMrrpMlIMKy ienno
.n;pyroM na ce BpaTMTe CBOMe M3BOPY,na O)KMBMTeCBe OHO IlITO je 3aMplIO, IlITO ce MCKPMBMlIO,nOTMCHYllO y nermscrny,

tl.a KOJIWKe CTe)KpTBe anpryenxe

M ay.n;MTWBHe CTBapHOCTM.Koje cy BaM narone xoja oxexaaarsa BaM HMCYMcnYHM-

yrylllWJIW, xoje norpetie HMCTe peallM30BallM,

JIw?lliTa cy BaM 6paHMlIM? qMMe cy sac w311y~MBallM? 0 'feMY 6y.n;HM carsare? I1 raKO pe.n;OM.He 60jTe ce p;a he oaaj .n;pyrM, 3110ynoTpe6MTM BallIY MCKpeHocT. 3alby6lbeHOCTje craise npenasne oraopeaocrn xosexa aa capamsy, aa Haj.n;y6lbe napTHepcKe onnoce, sa n03MTMBaH, 'fOBe'fHW paCT. TIoKYlliany, Kp03 npMMep na BaM nOKa)KeM KaKO rpetia p;a M3rJIe.n;aBalli pa.n;. OHa he peha WCKpeHO: "I1MaM nOTnYHO nepeanaaosaay "HwcaM pearrnaoaao norpetiy sa TeJIeCHOM axrnsnourhy.

rrorpetiy aa p;pY)KelbeM". Orau MW ce noncaesao

xazce OH.

MoMallOBa)KaBaO CBaKM MOj noxyuraj na ce 036MlbHMje 6aBMM cnoprov",

M TaKO pe.n;OM. Bnhere aarrpenaurhena

6a HWCTepeallW30BallW lbeM. CaMO xpa6po! Ca'fWHMTe nnan

KOllMKO rora,

KOllMKO BlIaCTMTMX nOTpeMlIM

MlIW CTe MX otiaszsarra non npMHyp;oM

YClIOBlbaBa-

Cpenn CTe ce, OTBOPl'!lIM, sanoneznr, npenamr jenno npyroa, y Ha.n;M.n;ahe M3a6P~HM, BOlbeHM oxroryhara ocraaperse CBMXBallIMX oseiomarsa M CBMXnorpetia KO)e HMCY peaJIM30BaHe y nermscrny, Ha)KaJIocT, y ayTopMTapHMM O.n;HOCMMa CBe 6p30 M3611e.n;M, o-rexnnaisa ce y6p30 M3HeBepe. MJIa.n;M lby.n;M, y CTBapM, M He snajy IlITa oxexyjy o.n;ce6e M naprnepa. Onasao cy MM porrarezsa noracxznr aynxaae, OTY~MJIM MX on BlIaCTMTMX norperia, norpetie MM npeTBopMlIM y 601leCHe cezse, MCKPMBMJIMMM M3BopHe narone, OTBOPMJIM BpaTa noxnerrx, crpaxy, 6ecy, ocehaisy KpMBMu;e, napa3MTM3My ... yb MCKpMBlbeHe paBHM O'feKMBalba cy
MCKpMBlbeHa. .n;a cy OBM MlIa.n;M lby.n;M, npoaason crnapanasxe

soneha pa'fyHa p;a y eBaKY BallIY aKTMBHoeT

HajBMIlIM lby.n;eKM Mp;eaml (ncnxo'fOBe'fHOCT, Jby6aB W.n;06poTa).

M aKTWBHOCTaozseaor Mopajy 6MTW yrpahena <pM3M'fKO 3.n;paBlbe, eTBapalla'fKa Je.n;Ho npyrov aa rpeunce. Iloaexan

mrrenaremraja,

rroponnne, CnOHTaHO 6M ce
caao Melba caoje 0611M-

HaCTaBMO n03MTMBaH paCT jep Jby6aB pacre aenpecrano,

xe. Ha )KallOCT, nOIliTO xmrua lby6aBM KO.n;MlIa.n;Mx, nmruramrx reHepaU;Mja, HMje pasaajena, nOIliTO He noce.n;yjy npano aaarse KaKO cana yha y Jby6aB, lhMXOBO 3a6aBlbalbe ce CBO.n;M aa crnapaise MlIy3Mja jenno 0 .n;pyrOM. 3a6aBlbalbe ce CBO.n;M na nprro nonpume ozmoce, KOjM cy najseurhe KOMnpOMMCHM. CBe aKTMBHOCTMTMX MlIa.n;MXlby.n;M, cy OKpeHYTe cnozsaunsea YKOllMKO cy ce orrpenenxna CBeTY (fipaa aoxosa, flIYBapelhe, 3a.n;MMlbeHM KacpMnM, )KypKe, 6YKa, KM'f Bpe.n;HOCTM,MHCMCTMpalbe aa TelleCHOM ...) sa 6paK, nacrojahe na OTKpMjy CBe cnatie TaqKe c~or ~apTHepa IlITO he MM nosrohn na IlITO naxure OCTBape csoje MCKpMBlbeHe )Kelbe, )ep )e.n;MHOsa )Kelbe M anajy, Hajseha xcersa MM rrocraje KaKO na ocsoje BJIaCTy 6paKY' - 184-

urarsnre .n;y60KO nOBepelbe M 6e3yclIoBHO xexajre, He 06a3MpynM ee here onpeheae norpetie peam'130BaTM Kp03 weTe aKTMBHOCTM,noaexan Kp03 pa311M'fMTe (eaMoM 'fMlbeHMU;OM p;a ere pa311W'fMTMXrronosa). .n;eBoj'fMu;e, nerrorxue, He orrrepehyj ce na lIM he Tsoj M3a6paHMK na BeellalbY ~ahM HOBY,60lby nesojxy, YKOllMKO je M aahe, TO je M 3aellY)KMO. Haspn.aj ea npMJaTelbMU;OM, Hap;oKHa~yjynM CBe OHOIlITO CMnponyenma y nermscrny. Mnannhy, CMMpeHOM ea y)KMBalbeM 6aBM ee cnoprosr, He passonuzsaj .n;alIW Te je OHa cnarana M YMeeTo, KO.n;npajarezsaue, OTMllIlIa aa HOBM cacraaax. He craarsajre HMKOra y KaBe' . Jb y 6 as nasaise ClI060.n;e .n;pyroM na n03MTMBHO pacre. YKOllMKO 3 )ep )e
ce M3HeBepM I-'.y IT 6 OKO nOBepelbe, BepOBaTHO Jby6aBM HMje HM 6MlIO. 3aMMClIWTe KOlIMKOh e n03MTJ!!BHe eaeprnje 6MTJ!! y aauresi nOHOBHOM eyepeTy, YKOllMKO je Pe'l 0 MCTM . Jb y 6 aB-MM MeTMHeKOM .n;y60KOM nOBepe~by, nocne rnora aecnaI"b HeKO) aM IbeH or BeeeJIor saapzsaa,a. MaKOMM np are neseraaecr ronaaa, a saura norpetia na peannsyjere aaroa na Jby6aB MMMTeH . M)e oeTBapeHa, He narrrre. To je M HopMallHo, jep eTe BM npOJ!!3BO.n; ayroP"-Ta He t.te nopO.n;Mu;e.He 'fMHMTe rpeuncyl He rronasrsajre janoso: "BOllM Me! .n;a lIM lIM!II' . YMpen y, aKO Me He BOllMIli. " I1 CBeTaKO .n;OK ee He sransnu M ce6M M OHOM

a:

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,gpyrOM. [enao ,gpyroM MOpaTe nOMOnJ1,,ga npeKJ1HeTe ca npocja-rea.exr, HO

Ayro J1yno 3Halb~

pannhere Tsor

no Mo,gelIY CTBapalIa'IKOr

aacmrrarsa

xoje

oope,n;

eJIJ1TJ1sa CTBapaJItIKO

BaM Hy,gJ1 npaBO

.u03BOlIJ1nelli 6J1TJ1 6e3

OHOM ,gpyrOM na 6y,ge caMOaKTJ1BaH, KpeaTlttBaH, 'IOBe'IaH, ,gy60Kor nOBepelba.

a rora

Heh~

CTBOPJ1 ,gpyroM n03J1TJ1BHe YClIoBe J.1'IeKaj.

TJ1BaH paCT je HeMJ1HOBaH aa 060je. He nanajre non

On

n03J1TJ1BHOr, on

notipa

n03H_

ce He 6e)KJ.1.

eMo,ga npJ1'IeKaheMo J1 a aKyMYJIJ1paMO lby6aB 6ap HeKOJIJ1KO ronaaa, a onrra neMO OCeTJ1TJ1 rrpenasMO,,n; 6 n . . BOlbCTBO ,gaBalba lby aBJ1. /-',0 Ta,ga nJIaHJ.1pa)MO, 3apOHJ1MO jenao y,gpyro O ~3~ : . y6oKJ1M nOBepelbeM, ,gy60KJ1M pa3YMeBalbeM. qeKa)MO J1 y>KJ1Ba)MO y TOMe, 3Ha~ nJ1 ,n;a CMO csaxor )y 3a cana rpeaa 6m1>KJ1 Jby6aBJ1, IlITa Jby6aB >KJ1BOTY HJ1je. Jby6aB HJ.1je xana Me nJIallIJ1HJ1je BaM Mory

aacmrran,e, TO jeer aa lby6aB. . . J1 J1 ja OCeTJ1TJ111ITa)e npaBJ1 ca,gp>Ka) lby6aBJ1. B

AKO TO Y'IJ1HJ1Te YCKOPO Mopa

rpetia na ce 60PJ.1Te sa saxoaonasau, He TPOIlIJ.1Te eHep_ rnjy rra noxaaaaarse na )KeHa MO)Ke J1CTOIlITO J1 MYIliKapall Hapanno na MO)Ke KaAa je TeXHOJIOIliKa peBOJIYllJ1ja Ha'IJ1HJ1JIa -ryno. CBe je na ,gyrMe. Hexa 3aKOHoAaBa~
YTJ.1l1aj npa3HJ1X npJ1'Ia 0 TOMe KaKO pO,gHy je,gHaKOCT y,gpyIlITBy. TJ1Me aexa ce 6aBJ1 ,gOHOCJ.13aKOHe KojJ.1Ma he J13je,gHatIJ.1TJ1 CBe OHO 0 'IeMY ce naaac BJ1 ce BOJIJ1Te, 60pJ1Te ce na 6y,geni re, Hero IlITO je,1;\HaKJ1y Jby6aBJ1, TOJIJ.1KOnpJ.1'Ia. na YBeK MaJIO BJ.1llIe ,gajey BallIJ.1M O,gHOCJ.1nse TaKBe lIeJIJ.1He 6yja. He BepyjMJ.1.Ka,ga

casro peha
J1rpa'IKe

re oa6a-porOM, Ka,ga KynyjeTe

nOJIJ1l1J1joM,ga

6J.1X nojeo

OHO WTO CTe BJ1 o,gpe,gJ.1JIJ1. Jby6aB

cxyrre

,ga 6J1X BaM OnpOCTJ.10 WTO nac J1Ma TaKO MaJIO y MJ.1PHO rnenare KaKO nJIa'IeM nan

MOM >KJ1BOTY Jby6aB ralbJ1pOM,

HV'lje, xana

nperryaasr
xana Me

J1JIJ.1MJ.1oriehasare

fipna

J.1,gOJIJ1He aa CBaKJ.1 nojeneua ,gpYWTBaHlIe

sanoraj:

npassare. Dtenajre
J.1onor

,ga YKJ.1HeTe Ka3HY J1 Harpa,gy ce6e, a onna

caTJ1Ma ,gp>KJ.1Tey 3a,gJ.1MlbeHoj npOCTOpJ1jJ1 y3 same 3arlbypeHJ.1 re Y expax, a BJ1,gJ.1Te,ga MJ.1ce OtIJ.1cxnanajy: cnasarse,

J1JIJ1,gOK CTe BJ.1

Ma KaKO 6J1 nOCTaJIJ1 lIeJIOBJ1Te JIJ.1tIHOCTJ.1, yHyTap y ce6J.1 J1 J13Me~y ce6e

J.1JIJ.1 xana Me HaCJ.1JIHO6allJ.1BJ1JIeHJ111IeM Me y

npyror. ocehajy caxro

aa nO'IeTaK,

KaKO Jby6aB

ua rrorronaenao

He 6J1 JIJ.1ce on MeHe O,gMOPJ.1JIJ1,a onna xana

re y npJ.1'Ie KaKO ce C je,gHJ.1M, J.1JIJ.1 je,gHOM He MO)Ke nyro.

MO)Ke, aepyjre

nponahere npasor;
na. CXBaTJ1heTe xpaja 6p30

,go sope

jep 36J1lba He Mory Hape,gJ.1TJ.1 CBOM CHY ,ga Me 3arpJIJ1; a ja jellaM orosapare no jyrpa: xana ce

nonoh

a npaBJ.1 je aKO sac,

Heo,gOlbJ.1BO npJ1BJIa'IJ.1. TIO'I-

HaCJ1JIHO 6allJ.1Te y KpeBeT, TelbJ.1Ma J1 na OO>KJ1h; xana

cnahare
3aXTeBaTe

ca CBOjJ.1Mpo,gJ.1on MeHe J1 ce6e

HJ1Te, J1 HJ1Ka,ga ce HeMojTe 3aYCTaBJ1TJ1, y CTBapalbY TOnJIJ1X eMOllJ10HaJIHJ1X yCJIO- . na ce ca TJ1M 0,ga6paHJ1M napTHepOM napTHepa, JIeTJ1 ,go He

)KJ.1BOTa. He Tp'IJ.1Te sa nYKoM npoMeHoM

netia, pacre no rrpn-rajre KaKO HeMa

CBJ1 ,geJIJ1MJ1'I-

je,gHJ.1 ,gpyre;

xana

,ga >KJ1BJ.1MO MOpaJIHO y HeMOpaJIHJ1M YCJIOBJ.1May KojJ.1Ma ,goMJ.1HJ1pajy npJ1Hy,ga J1 ycnoarsaaaise. Jby6aB HJ.1je, MJ.1JIJ1MOjJ1, xana Me OHa ryWJ1, xana MJ.1Hapywa-

npaBJ1X.

Hesia

,gOBpllIeHJ1X, aJIJ1 CBJ1 CTe BJ.1npaan.

CBaKJ1 'IOBeK je npaBJ1. Y CTBaJ1 6yjajy

paJIatIKJ.1M YCJIOBJ.1Ma >KJ.1BOTa6y,ge ce CBJ1 Henp06y~eHJ1, HO, np06y~eHJ.1 nOTeHlIJ.1jaJIJ1.

aa XapMOHJ1jy, xana )KJ.1BOT, xana

MJ.1npJ.1Hy,gOM, YCJIOBlbaBalbeM

J1 Bep6aJIJ.13MOM 3arOp'IaBaTe

Me 'IJ.1HJ.1Te3aBJ.1CHJ.1Mon csera

na J1 on sac CaMJ.1X,on BaWJ1X YCJIyra, J.1CTOBpeMeHO Me npoma-

TIpe,gJIa>KeM ,ga 6ap Be>K6aTe J.1npJ.1npeMaTe ~y 3a6aBlbatba J.1OBe

romory

nana

npe

Hero

IlITO ce O,gJIy'IJ1Te sa HJ.1KaKBe pa3JIJ1Ke

ce, 3a ,gOJIa3aK nerera,

pahaise neue, nehe 6J.1TJ.1 J.13Me-

on BaWJ.1X nOKJIOHa, o,g mynJ1X

BJ.1pTyeJIHJ.1X nporpaMa,

urasajyhn
Jby6aB

napa3J.1TOM J1 MaJIJ.1M ",gpOrJ1paHJ1M" HJ.1je xana

MOHCTPYMOM. YMpeTJ1, J1JIJ1hew Me OCTaBJ1-

npanpeue. J1 ,galbe CTe 3alby6lbeHJ1, y Jby6aBJ1 OTBopeHJ1, J1CKpeHJ1, He>KHJ.1, rajehn J1 ,galbe ,gy60Ke napTHepCKe omroce. J1 ,galbe HaCTaBlbare ca ocrnapersesr HepeaJIJ130BaHJ1X norpetia, a lbJ.1X J1Ma na npeTeK, ,gparJ1 MOjJ1.
He Mory na O,gOJIJ1M, a ,ga He Ha'IHeM TeMy ...

Me TJ1 MaMa, nJIawJ.1W na hew sa Te6e. xana

TJ.1,aKO 6allI TO He

ypaznor,

Masra,

Jby6aB

HJ1je aKO Me lIeJIOr ,geTJ1lbCTBa xana nOTp'IJ.1M TaTJ1 y 3arp-

yqJ111I ,ga BOJIJ1M casro Te6e; lbaj; Ka,ga MJ.1npaxaur lberOBJ.1X npenaxa rexe

ocehaur

lby60MOPY

PY>KHO 0 0llY a MOjJ.1Msenaaa,

sariopaarsaur

,ga nOJIa

iserose

KPBJ1 J.1KPBJ.1

xana Me OTJ1MaW J13 6aKJ1HOr KpJ1JIa rapne-

OJ.1KaKO 6aKe J.1nexe JIOwe yTJ1'Iy na AeKe J.1HJ.1je HeKO ,geTJ1lbCTBO, xana

neuy,

a saoopaazsaur

na ,geTJ1lbCTBO 6e3 6aKe J.1 6pahy

CJ1JIOBJ.1TO J1HCJ1CTJ.1palli ,ga BOJIJ.1Mcaxo

OJbYEABJ1

H ceCTpe. Jby6aB

HJ.1je xana

YMJ1CJIJ1Te na cy 6a6e

J1 nene O,gJIJ1'IHJ.1BaCnJ.1Ta'IJ1, a y

Og nsytiaeu go Jbytiaeu
J1HCnJ1pallJ1jy aa OBY TeMY

casr

,g06J10, ,gOK casr ce ayTOpJ1TaPHy lby6aB

oripahao
lby6aB

MJIa,gJ1M,

rrpen J1BHJ1M h re ce
e

lby,gJ1Ma. Pamr naxurer ClIOBOM

lb,

pa3YMeBalba

anJ1M 06eJIe>KaBa n eMO M

J1CTOBpeMe BJ.1)KJ.1BJ.1Texao na BaM ce HJ.1je ,geCJ10 HJ1 6paK, HJ1 nOTOMCTBO. Jby6aB HJ1Cy C Be eaure rronene: nOJIJ1TJ1'IKe, paCHe, BepCKe, nonene aa neno J1 PY>KHO, nome J1Ao6p 0, na pan J1 J1rpy, nonene aa MylliKe J1 >KeHCKe nOCJIOBe, aa MOpaJIHO J1 HeMOPallHO H , a Y'-lJ.1Telbe J1 yxenaxe, na rasne J1 cnyre, na CTape J1 MJIa,ge, aa 60raTe J.1 CJ1POM )( aIlIHe ... Jby6aB HJ1je snoynorpeoa ceKcyalIHe eaepraje, snoynorpetia CTpaa, I<PJ1Blbelbe J13BOPHJ1X narona.

a CTBAPAJIAqKY

BelIJ1KJ1M ClIOBOM lb. O'ieKyjeM,n;a

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YK~HYT~ np~HY~Y, ycnoarsanarse, sepfianaaaxr, npe3alllT~h~BaIi>e, 31I0yno_ rpetiy ~M~TaTOpCKOr 06ll~Ka yqeIi>a ..., orrpenemrra ce sa np~HQ~ne CTBapalIa 'II<Or sacrrararsa 3Ha'-m CTBOp~T~ n03~T~BHe eMOQ~OHallHe YCllOBe 3a paCQBeTaBalbe CTBapalla'lKe Jby6aBH. AKo M~ He saranare ~3BOp, aKO M~ pa3B~jeTe CBe I<lll1l\e nonecene pohersesr, aKO M~ 6e3 xaxosasarsa ~ uarpahaaaisa CTBop~Te YClIOBeaa pacuaerasarse QelloKynHor noreauajana, saajre na cy TO npax TaKTOB~ lby6aB~, xoja he ce yMHO)!(aBaT~ ~ MaH~<pecToBaT~ y xnzsane 60ja, 06ll~Ka ~ ~06pl1x nena. TaKBa Jby6aB he ~OHeT~ M~p ~ 3a~OBOlbCTBO MeH~, saaa, uenoj nllaHeTI1. O~ lby6aB~ ~o Jby6aB~ cavo je jenaa KopaK. fOBOp~T~ 0 Mlla~~Ma, 0 crnapanaxxoj Jby6aB~, a 3a06~h~ TeMYrrouracra naa. je npocTO neceror sexa, cane ~ npotinexa CMaIi>eHOr~ll~ orpoMHor aaramrrera, aenorrycrnso. 3a OBYTeMY heao ~CKOp~CT~T~ HaCllOB jenaor nnaxara y 60p611 npoT~B c~~e KOj~ maca ...

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'l~H~ ,n;aje HOB~ naprnep 6aw ra HOBa ~ jaxa npaxc, Ha)!(anOCT, CBe BeKY ce p . IDe KpaTKO ~ oana cnena narsa norpara aa HOBOM~pa)f(~. es Je casco rpaJe npeB~ cpeTY ,n;arena. o CY a ceKcyallHa eaepraj a xoja je nparwrau narona sa npo,n;y)f(eIi>eM BpCTe Dpl1pO,n;H . . ay npaBy rrpa)f('" BOlbeHYocotiy cynpo'rnor nona. rrOWTO Je nomno a)l<14 caMO Je,n; "". rp 6e ceKcyallHe eneprxje 'lOBeK HeMa xapMOH~30BaHI1X, 113BOPHI1X 03noynoTpe " )I, . eMa Jby6aB~, rra HeMa H~ rrorpefie ,n;acexcyamra ",n;pa)!( 6y,n;e 'lOBeK eMOQ~Ja, H . na cBaKY ueny Cyporara nanac ~Ma na npeTeK, naronornje cexcynpOTHOr no , no "-" , u306~Jby y3 onacxy KaKOje y "lby6aB~" CBe np~po,n;HO. cyanHe Y n' . . CTBapaJIa'lKO BaCn~TaIi>e xapMoH~3YJe ~3BopHe eMoQ~Je, oxroryhasa nporox 3,n;paB~XeMOQ~ja, ,n;oBo~eh~ xoaexa y M~p Y 3a~OB~JbCTBO, y Jby6aB. Tasio rne cy xapMOH~30BaHe esrouaje, rne je Jbyfias, Ty npecraje HaneTOCT ~ C~llO~~Ta )f(elba sa npa)f(lbelbeM HaneTOCT~ nYTeM unrapera, allKOXOJIa, npore, arpecnje, a Hapo'lI1TOnyTeM MeHTallHor cexca, cexca 6e3 Jby6aB~. . CMalb~BalbeM HaneTOCT~ narno ce cMalbyje onaCHOCT on inapersa cane, Jep cTa611llHoCT xojy ,n;OHOC~ Jby6aB ,n;OHOC~ ~ crafianaocr nese (MJIa,n;~he npe 6paKa npoMeH~T~ BpllO Mall~ 6poj naprnepa jep xan cpQe rpara OHO6p30 aahe npaso), Kan yM rpasor OH CTaJIHOMelba napraepe jep cy MOTI1B~n.erosor Tpa)f(elba npyra'll1jl1 on MOT~Ba 360r KOj~ rpazor yM KOj~ je y cPQY YM KOj~ H~je KOHTpOJI~CaH Jbyfiaarsy rpaxor 06jeKaT aa npa)f(lbelbe naneroCTI1,a YMy cPQY Tpa)f(~ BOlbeHYocotiy cynpornor nona. Kana yM npoaahe 06jeKaT aa npaxosea,e HaneTOCT~, OH je TOll~KO naner ~ necrpnzsa ,n;aHeMa BpeMeHa ,n;a rrposepx ~a ll~ je napTHep aapazcen C~,n;OM,a KaMOJII1na 0,n;6paH~ ~ ca-rysa naprnepa on ce6e, yKOll~KO rseroso reno ~Ma cany, Kana 'IOBeK Hay'l~ KaKO CTBapaJIa'lK~M sacrnrraisesr na ycnocrasn.a eMOQ~OHanHYpaBHOTe)f(Y,jaszsa ce cnoirrana ocexa MeHTallHor crpaxa ~ MeHTaJIHe ceKCYallHe enepraje.H CBe ce spaha y xpnno MajKe npl1po,n;e. Ilpxpomor crpax nacraarsa na 6y,n;e3alllT~TH~K naroaa aa onCTaHKOM, a cexcyanna eaeprnja nocraje nOHOBO npaTl1llaQ sarona aa npo~y)f(elbeM BpCTe. Cexcyanan 'l~H nocraje najsehe sanoBOlbCTBOxoje MO)!(e na npy)f(~ cycper nse ocotie cynpoTHor nona xoje ce BOlle. nlIOA IhI1XOBeJby6aB~ cy sozsena nOTOMQH. . Ka~a ce TO norona, aarno ce cvatsy]e 6poj xOMoceKcyaJIH~X seaa, jep TaMO rne Je Jb Y6 an HeMoryhe je- otiaszsara nenpaponan cexcyanan 'l~H (aajenan MylllKapal\ . HI1JeMYIIIKapQYponao nere, H~T~ )f(eHa )f(eH~). CMalb~BalbeM xOMoceKcyanHl1xBe3 . . a, cMalbYJe ce ~ 6poJ 060JIeJI~x on cane J111CTOBpeMeHo,n;OJIa3~no nopacra HaTalIl1TeTa. npl1po,n;a AonYlllTa je~HoM MaJIOMnOCTOTKY lbYAI1na ~Majy npenncnoaauajy sa lCOMOceI< . cyalIHocT, aJI~ aa OBOeHopMHO HapaCTalbe xovocexcyanaua. HI1Je xpxsa
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Moace ll~ ce Jby6aBlby npoT~B c~~e? Mozee ll~ ce Jby6aBlby nporxs npenxcxor ~ll~ npeTepaHor, nexonrponacaaor aaranxrera! Mozee, crnapanaxxaa sacmrratsea, jep 'lOBeK KOj~ ~Ma snan,e craapanaxxor aacmrrarsa nocraje CBeCHO6~he KOj~ 3Ha KaKOce6~, nopo~~Q~, lby,n;~Ma,n;aBpaT~ ~3BopHe evotnrje, na paannje Kll~QY Jby6aB~. TaKaB 'lOBeK npecraje na 6y,n;e npocjax lby6aB~, OH 3Ha Jby6aB na np~M~ ~ Jby6aB ~a na. Ilaaac je nOTnYHo HapyweHa paaaorezca ~3Meljy pauaoaanne ~ eMoQ~oHallHe mrrenareauaje, y KOp~CT paunonanne: HapyweHa je paBHOTe)!(a ~3Meljy n03~T~BH~X, (~3BOpH~X) ~ HeraT~BH~X evoua]a, (~cKp~BlbeH~x, nOTI1CHYTI1X, HacllojeHI1X, aarnaarseaxx), y KOp~CT HeraT~BH~X; HapyweHa je paBHOTe)!(a 113Meljy cTpaxa 11 Jby6aBI1, y KOp~CT crpaxa, 11TO MeHTallHOr, B~pTyellHor. Ilocnezraua OBe HepaBHOTe)f(e je orpOMHa HaneTOCT xonexa, HeMl1p Kojl1 ra nparn cayna. Ine je HaneTOCT Ty je Cl1llOB~Ta cersa aa npa)f(Ii>eIi>e HaneTOCTl'1. HaneTOCT ce najtipace 11najerpaxacaaje npa3HI1 nYTeM MeHTallHOr ceKca. f,n;eje MeHTallH~ cexc, cexc 6e3 Jby6aBI1, Ty CI1,ll;A crrose xan, ran, Ty CTI1)f(y MHore aeacezsene nocnenxue, norme 601IeCT~, aexcersene rpynaohe, a60pTYCI1, ry HeMa 3,n;paBUXnOTOMaKa. Ila 6~ MeHTalIH~ cexc Morao ~a rpaje y <PyHKQ~jl1 rrpaxoseisa HaneToCTl1 oH 'rpaxor, CBaK~ rryr, HOBY~ CBe ja-ry npa:, y O~HOCy na OHYjyxepaunsy. HaneTOM
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H3BopHa rrpHpOAa, TO je nocnenaua ayTopHTapHe CBeCTH. He 60pHTe ce np OTHB xosrocexcyanaua, He ocyhyjre HX. CaMO CBOjHM rrOTOMU;HMapa3BHjajTe CTBa ana-ncy CBeCT. CBe AOlla3H na csoje MeCTO. p Bpahaisea H3BOPY H lby6aBH, CTBapalIaqKH 6paK he npsa rryT rrOCTaT'A" TA" 1lCTHIi_ CKa norpefia xoaexa, jep cy crsapana-nor 6paK H rropogHu;a norpeona Kana . M rrllOA aese gOHOCH rrOTOMKe, ca KOJHMa HaCTaBlbaMO paCT y lby6aBH HllH Kaga gBoje nonecy OglIYKY ga pacTy y lby6aBH, ga pacTy xa Bory, crsapajyha jenno gpyroM YClloBe aa TO. CTBAPAJIAqKA noponzua je MeCTO rne ce qYBa H ynanpehy]e 3gpaBlbe H lby6aB rrOTOMaKa, 3gpaBlbe H lby6aB nsoje KOjH ce BOlle. Y OKBHPY TpagHU;HoHallHor, ayropnrapaor aacmrraisa lby6aB je 6Hlla pellaTHBHa, rpajana je, TpOlllHlIa ce, nonexan ce nojaxaaaaa, rpnena, [OBOpHIIO ce na "Kprre)K H Tprre)K xyhy npzce", rpajaznr CMOsapan eKOHOMCKHH cOU;HjallHHx HHTepeca. Y CBaKOMcnyxajy, y rpannuaoaanaoj noponmra je 6HllO smue lby6aBH Hero y caapesreaoj. AellHMHqHO ce paasajana, jep je 6Hlla H gelIHMHqHa aYTopWTaPHOCT. Ilanac caspexrena, nmnuana noponnua He nomrocn HH rprrezc, HH xpneac jep CBaKOCBHpa ys csoje rycne. HeM a norpetie rta ce TprrH, HH onna xana ce pone neua, MHClle pa3Ma)KeHe nnaurane reaepauxje. Ilanac ce BOgH )KeCTOKHpaT Me1)y nonoBHMa, a rne je paT lby6aBH He 6HBa. Ileua ce pahajy HeCBeCHO, rro HHepU;HjH, POgHTelbH ca naxohosr "lby6aB" npornaurasajy 3a6llygoM, Tpqe y rroTpary aa HOBOM lby6aBH, xojy rro rrpaBHlly He nponahy, jep ce y lbHMa caMHMa HHje noromro paCT lby6aBH. Ilanac nmnuaae renepauaje ca zaxohosr Hgy H3 6paKa y 6paK, ca lIaKOhOM nonoce onnyxy na ce ogpeKHY H 6paKa H rrOTOMaKa. lb YEAB KOjOj cy 6paK, noponaua, rrOTOMCTBO,aajseha pagocT H norpeoa, je lby6aB rpeher MHlleHHjYMa. Ine je crsapana-nca lby6aB, HeMa narrerocrn, ITa HH norpetie sa CpegcTBHMa rrpaaosersa: U;HrapeToM, allKOXOIIOM, nporon, HaCHlbeM, Hag C060M H APyrHMa, npaaoseisea MeHTallHHM ceKCOM. Kan qOBeK He y1)e y OBO 31I0, Y 3aBHCHOCT,OA OBaKBor 06llHKa cexca, cMalbyje ce pH3HK on lllHpelba onaxax 60lIecTH na H Clilge. Casro qOBeK y anpasoa, CBeCHOMcraisy rrplillla31i1cexcyazmosr qlilHY BplIO oAroBOpHO. Ilpornpaa HIIH rnrjan, HeCBeCTaH qOBeK, He MO)Ke,CBe H ga xohe, ga MIiICIIIiI na ageKBaTHY 3alllTHTY on cxne, HIIH He)KelbeHe rpynnohe. YOCTaIIOM,qOBeKY, Kojlil je ce6e OCygHO na lIaraHY CMpT HHje 6HTHO ga IIH he g06HTIiI IiIIIIiIrrpegaTIiI HeKOMe CHgy, HHje 6HTHO urra he Aalbe 6HTIiI ca geu;oM xoja ce pone. Kana ce qOBeKY BpaTe H3BopHe esrouaje, a rrOTOMHaCTaBH na )KIiIBIiI 6e3 Ka3f1e H narpane, BPllHHCKH rryT My je TpaCHpaH. Tana HHBO CBeCHOCTHH lby6aBIiI y6p3aHO pacre. CBaKH 'IIiIH, CBaKH xopax OBaKBor xoaexa 6Hhe xpuar CBecflOUIny H onronopaourhy, y CBHM crpepava )KHBOTa: y exonourxoj, y C<pepH HaTanlilTeTa,
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a y crheplil onaoca nonosa, rrOpOAH'IHt1X t1 pa,n;Ht1Xonnoca, y COU;t1jaIIHoj 31lpaB Jb ' 'i:' rtonlilTlilqKOJ crpepa. ~ HIiIBO qOBeqHe CBeCTH he xarno paCTt1 y rrOIIIiITt1qKoj cdiepa, rne je iii rrpeKO f1a CTBapanaqKH HOBH rromrraxapa t1 nexapn xehe <popMalIHo yna3HrtOTpe 6 .' . IiIJ' e 60p6e rrpOTHB CHAe ,n;eJbelbeM KOH,n;OMa, TpH6HHaMa, na KOJHMa ce nf y ax U; Bep6anfiO arrenyje na norpetiy aaurrjrre on 60neCTIiI, CTpyqHIiIM rrpe,n;aBalbHMa, TKMaiii ClllilqHO Mnan CBeCTaH qOBeK 3Ha caM ,n;a Ha6aBH ce61i1 KOH,n;OM, rtJIaKa T1 ., . TO -rysap n.erosor )KHBOTa. Mnan qOBeK 3Ha caM ,n;a.rrpOqHTa H HayqH 0 aKO Je . . ortaCHOCTIiIMa xoje ceje cana jep isera TO HHTepeCYJe, nourro Je y mrrarsy iseroBO 3,n;paBJbe. HOBIiI rrOJIIiITHqapH he y 6op61i1 rrpoTHB cane HMaTH npesacxomra sanarax ,n;a cTBapajy rr031i1THBHeeMOU;HOHallHe YClloBe sa )KHBOTMlIa,n;HXlby,n;H. Y rr03HTHBflliIMeMou;IiIOHallHIiIMYClloBIiIMa )KHBOTa, y )KHBOTY6e3 cTpaxa, 6e3 cYK06a, 6e3 ayToplilTaPHIiIX sacnartrax Mo,n;ella, 6e3 orraCHOCTH o,n;paTa, saraheisa, CTpaxa on flOBIiIX,Herr03HaTIiIX 60lIeCTH, 6e3 crpaxa on nesnpaae xpane, on ry6HTKa nocna, 6e3 crpaxa on cnpoxranrraa, He crnapa HarreTOCT. Y 3,n;paBHM,qOBeqHHM YCllOBIiIMa )KIiIBOTa,HeMa HACI1lbA, HMa casro lby6aBH, pa,n;ocTH, snpaazsa iii MHoro aorsene neue. AaHallllblil rromrnorapn Mopajy ,n;OHeTH onnyxy: CI1AA HllH lbYEAB. fIOIIHTHqap xoae-me CBeCTH 3Ha ,n;aMopa rnacarn sa lby6aB, jep je qOBeK - qOBeK, caao ,n;OKy cpu;y HMa lby6aBIiI. Ilaxne, KOIIIiIKO he lby6aBH 6HTH y jenaoj 3eMlblil, TOllHKOhe 61i1THMalbe otionennx lby,n;Hon cane, 6Hhe MHoro sorsene neue, lllTO y MHorOMe 3aBHCH on qOBeqHe CBeCTIiInonarnxapa, a npeaacxonno on onpenezsersa noponnue sa CTBAPAJIAqKO BACfII1TAlbE, lllTO 6H rpetiano ,n;arrOTrrOMOrHYnonxraxap. Osor TpeHa no-mare na ce 60pHTe rrpOTHB cnne YKIiI,n;albeMrrnaurannx nacmrrHHXMo,n;ella, rrpBO y O,n;HOCHMa Me1)y nonosaaa, rrOTOMy noponaua, y nprnhy, Y llIKOllH, na panaoi MecTy. Kana KBaHTHTeT rrpepaCTe y KBallHTeT ,n;PYlllTBO nehe BHllIe MopaTH ,n;aonsaja eaopsme KOllHqlilHe HOBu;a na 60p6y nporxn HaCHJba, aa lle'Ielba nocnennna nmnuaaor aacrnrraisa. Ilonarnxapa caao rpetia ,n;anossone na rropO,n;Hu;ecasnajy ,n;acy nmnuaaa rrpaBH y3pO'IHHU;H lbHXOBHXH naurax MyKa, H rropO,n;Hu;ahe caaa, 3HalIaqKH OTKllOHHTHY3poqHHKe. Yl)HTe y excnepioaear KOjl'Ihe rpajarn carao Meceu; naaa. Y OBOMBpeMeHcKoM nepHogy yKHHHTe, H36eraBajTe, HrHopHlllliITe: CBa cpencraa H cHTyaU;liIje xoja aac nYlie lianeTolllhy, CBe OHO llITO nyne Me,n;HjH,a y BaMa ysehana MeHTallHH c-rpax t1 rOMHlla HeraTHBHe eMoU;Hje; yrmnajre My3HKy xojy cnyurare, jep 6YKa 6HllO xoje BPCTe )'e ,n;pora KOJa . ysehaaa saury HarreTOCT; HrHopliIlllHTe CBe necve y KOJHMa . ce npoce MpBHu;e Jby6aBH, xoje 1i13a3HBajy y BaMa narisy: H36eraBajTe 6ap Meceu; .l\alia CBe rh . . 't'HllMoBe, pa3roBope, Jby,n;e,YMeTHt1'1Ka, HayqHa nena, KO)a rrpencraan-ajy
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<JOBeKyrrana y jour

HeCBeCHOCT,yrrana CBe amue rne OKO

OApeQMTe ce aYTopWTapHOCTM, CBaKe, Hapo<JWTO OBe nmnuaxe.

He MO)f(e na ce M3BY<JeU nOJleTM nyT lhy6aBM.

YKOJIMKO W3rOBopWTe TO Cyp;60HOCHO "p;a" <popMMpane ce y noponaun BaH OAHOC npexra paAY. IIJIaHcKH, W nOHoBO, MeHe M sac paznr. YKOJIMKO He nOCJIYllIaTe saura "pap;Ha" ne aa HMBOY BEPBAnHE lhy6aBJhY CBe ocraje AeMoKpaTMje, AeMoKpaTwja, (pan C lhy6aBlbY),

HecBecHMX, 60JIeCHMX, CyMQMAHMX, HaCMJIHMX, 6JlYP;HMX y rrpocTopMMa I<aMepe He nonape. CBe MX je amue y npaspenaoa npecTyny,

CWCTeMaTCKM,CBeCHO, OHaKO KaKO CMO ce noro-

y 60HYCMMa U TaKO

BOPMJIM.AKO CTe 3a60paBWJIM, MWJIMM~jM, He 6YAwTe JIeI-bH <JwTajTe nWCMO rroHOBO

oCTay p;ena.

peAOM. MCTOBpeMeHO xace, xoje OHaKO 3p;YllIHO HanYHMCTe, 6p30 ce npaane. Tpe6a ca3MAa 6 HOBe OJlHMQe, HOBe saraope, HOBe p;OMOBe aa paA ca MJIap;MM HaCMJlHMl!,MMa ca3 Ilv MAaTM cMrypHe xyhe ... E, cana caM aac nOrrpMJlM'-lHO HaJhYTMo. H MTaTe ce urra YMeCTO Ka3HM, YMeCTO 6Jlare npMHYAe, nnauraae, urra YMecTo OB'IaHMX ~1 Ka3HM. MMaMo TOJIMKOanpase naraern na BaM aehevo npep;JIO)f(MTH na CTOBpe 11 MeHO YKWHeTe nnxmane y QeJIOKynHoM <JOBeKOBOM)f(HBOTY. To CMO seh HanoMe HyJIW. Ilpso rrrnnuaxe YKHHWTe y CBOjOj nopop;wQH, y apr ahy H llIKOJIW.

y KOjOj HWKO HWllITa He pap;H C BOJhOMU C npera-ry CTpaxOM QBeTa.

na HWBOY pe-nr, xoje ce TellIKO, C HanopOM crpaxoss 0,[16aTMHe, xoja yrrpxoc

AKO ce M pana, pana ce nOA npMHyp;oM MJIMMOTMBMcaH HOBQeM, narpanoa. on 0AY3MMaI-ba aarpane, CBMM aaopauaxa.

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Maca
.

CBeCHl1X lbygl1ne
.

cyTpa
n

oglIa311Tl1

aa

pagHa
.

MeCTa 11611Tl1 CBeCHl1 rpal;

l) ali

11

CBO)e gpYlUTBeHe gaTl1. pagl1lIa

aajeznrnue

. .....,albl1rrpoQec

pa3BO)a

Kana

ce

norona

KBalIl1TeT,

xana

sehmra

CBeCHOCTl1 Hl1je TelUKO C arlIe_ nocraae CBeCHa, xana Benl1Ha 6 IlJIJ1IIIAHA, AYTOPv1Tl~~ AEMO_

C lby6aBlbY,

Taga

he

rrpeCTaTl1 BEPBAJIHA, ce PAAHA,

HA, CIlOlbAllilhA, KPATJ1JA.

a pomrhe

CTBAPAJIAqKA, 11galbe

qOBEqHA

Y3 TaKBY 11y

raxaoj cnysaj,

geMoKpaTl1jl1

he

3aKOH 11 Ka3Ha

ana he

'ra Ka3Ha lIl1'Il1Tl1

na

OHY MaMl1HY

rrOCTO)ar 113aKOHOTT MaBaQ aapjaxy, na onor Ml1 l<a' p ,

KOjl1 je Ty 6110 sa CBaKl1 KOlIl1KO BpeMeHa

arnr ce peTKO yrroTP.e6110.

rpefia,

ga ce

norona
Ml1ClIl1Te

paCT CBeCHOCTl1

re, cnrypao ce mrrare. Hl1Te sa Benl1HY. Ilajre

Ma 'll1Me ce 6aBl1lIl1. crsapazrasxy

aa ce6e CBOj nonpnaoc, Ma na KojeM gpYlUTBeHOM Aa yhere y npocrope lby6aBl1, CBeCHOCTl1, ga

Bl1 casro rpetia BaM pelIaTl1BHO MallO. Og6aQl1Te

aehane )Kl1Telba nlIaHe11 na CBOjy noponnny 11He 6pl1nOlIO)Kajy 6111I11, OCBojl1Te panay,

V'-IaBaTl1 J. egl1Hl1QaMa 11M )Kl1BOT saropsaaarx, rrOlIl1Tl1KOM ce 6aBl1Tl1, eUY nOA, , Po paBaTl1 TB rnenarn ce6e 11 )Kl1BOT Mp3eTI1, geQl1 pe<Jl1 HYAl1Tl1, 6aTl1ce6e 3aBa, ' TTI1Tl1 npory Y3eTl1 npofinesre )Kl1BOTY OCTaBl1Tl1, rryunrrn, 113rapaflOM npec YM' ' CTBO cTBapaTl1, 111Iy311jy l1MaTl1, Marny nponaaarn, paT BOAl1Tl1, 0 Ml1py TI1, 6 oraT . Ilp113HajeM na BaM)e peneproap HeBepOBaTaH. Hl1CaM Cl1rypaH rta 6ap y ..I . I neBaTl1... TO aKTl1BHOCTl1 xoje 06aBJbaTe MO)KeTe Y)Kl1BaTl1. Kpl1BaQ .. He nOCTO)l1. AeceT no C . e ayTOpl1TapHO aacrnrraa-e ner BaCnl1THl1X Mogella KO)l1 naaac Bl1lUe Hl1 KPI1BO) '. IlOTTp)KaBa)y caao ce6e onpscasajy, PealIHOM 11 nlIl1lUaHOM rrpl1HygoM, CI1CTeM He M ' je )KeJbeHl1 Ql1Jb. pag ce He BOlIl1, amr ce nrrax pagl1. MOTl1B, noxperasr eH OCTBap . HeKaga 6aTl1Ha, naxac KOQKa urehepa 111I11 ogY311Matbe re l1CTe KOQKe. AOKOlIl1Qa, I1rpa, rnYBapetbe, He3aAOBOJbHl1, lIeH'rapetbe ce BOlle. CaMO ce <JygOM <JYAI1TelUTO CTe

nocne csera
caMopa-

nanern

11 nOnpl1lIl1<JHO YMOPHl1. BACIlJ1TAlhE, OHAa

geMoKpaTl1jy,

nmnuane,
rpaljaHl1

npo-

Kana

YCBojl1Te CTBAPAJIAqKO

nocne caaxor

nee

je sarroxeo.

AKO 3eMlbe,

sac

mrrepecyjy

CBl1, CBl1 CTaHOBHl1Ql1 rrnanere, norpeunro nopogl1'lHl1X npOMeHaMa,

enearyanno
ce mrrepecyjere. gYXOBHl1X

aauie

gp)KaBe,

aKO CTe aHTl1rn06alIl1CTl1, eBeHTyalIHo

)Kl1Bl1MO

y BpeMeHY l1Hgl1Bl1gyalIHl1X,

he re

CBaKO gOHOCl1Tl1 OglIYKY 0 Morynl1M

nposteua. Carta caa. Merna casra pagl1. CBe

Sarryn, YMeCTO lUTO 6pl1He6ap 11nenoaahere

lUTO ce He 6yge

rpancrpopvncano

yljl1Te y CBeCHOCT, y lby6aB,

Hy OKO sac. J1 TO je gOBOlbHO,

aecrahe. Bpaaerer y panny geMoKpaTl1jy sepyjre Ml1.

na

CTOTl1-

na, xax 11 nonpaacaaan-a, ocraje casro npajarnocr y 'lOBeKY OTKyg npnjaraocr, a sesana aa pani 3a60paBl1lIl1 CTe. CBaKl1 caaopan 11 pag gpyror Mopa 611Tl1 npahen Ay60Kl1M nonepersesr. CBe ce Mopa 06aBlbaTl1 6e3 npl1Hyge 11 YClIoBlbaBatba, 6e3 Bep6alI113Ma, y n0311Tl1BHl1M YClIOBl1Ma, npahea n0311Tl1BHl1M, 113BOPHl1M eMOQl1jaMa. Be3yclIoBHO xexare, noraazcere caao xan 3aTpa)Kl1M nor-toh, a rpelUKY AO)KI1BJbaBaTe xao CBeT110Hl1K aa MOj 11 saur, galbl1 n0311Tl1BaH paCT. Kana Yo<Jl1Te na casnanaay aKTl1BHOCT ,,6e306311pHO" HanYlUTaM, He sasrepajre. A03BOlIl1Te na
HanYCTl1M rrpepaHO Y'letbe

xnaaapa,

jep Ml1 TO

MO)Kga Me Hl1CTe gOBOlbHO MOTl1Bl1CalIl1, MO)Kga Me Hl1CTe 3alUTl1Tl1lIl1

Satiopaeuiue na uoqene
Ila He 611 gOlUlIO go Hecrropa3YMa MopaM sac yn030pl1Tl1 na CBe saure nonene paAa ornanajy (<p11311'lKl1paA, l1HTelIeKTyalIHl1 paA, nplbaB, 'll1CT, MylUKl1, )KeHCKI1, paA sa neuy, aa onpacne, gpYlUTBeHo npl13HaT 11Henp113HaT, I1H 11aYT, nax 11Te)KaK, naMeTaH 11 rnyn). Jegl1Ha rrpaBa nonena je nonena na n0311Tl1BaH paA 11HeraTl1BaH pan. 3HaM ga here OBO norpelUHo pa3YMeTl1, jep 113 ayroprrrapae paBHI1 rOTOBO CBaKI1 pan, 113Y3eB l1rpe 11AOKOlIl1Qe, je nerarusan, jep ra He BOlIl1MO, jep ce He 06aBlba C lby6aBlbY. 3aTO BaM MopaM nojacnarn. CBe zsyncxe aKTl1BHOCTl1 cy pag. III l1T11 , mrra, <ppaHQycKl1 rOBOpl1TI1, Jby6aB BOgl1Tl1, neaarx, 3eBaTl1, aa CTO CeCTl1, gpyroM unrepaue jecrn, necve nl1CaTI1, )J{I1Be usene Ml1pl1CaTl1, l1rpl1Qe l1rpaTl1, no 6alUTl1 pl1lbaTl1, MpTBe caXpafbl1BaTI1, M ce aepaaparn, )KeHl1 usehe gapl1BaTl1, rrOBpeMeHO je PY)KHO Ha311BaTl1, HayKO
lo.

on HaCTaBHl1Ka HegaBHO, noopy MOTl1BaQl1jy aa yqetbeM. Y'll1Hl1Te CBe He nOMa)Ke ocraje BaM na CTpnlbl1BO xexare. Bparnhy
CBOMTalIeHTY, He 6pl1Hl1Te, gparl1 MOjl1. He

rpenyrno He romr. a cana KYKaTe KaKO Hl1CaM l1CTpajaH, KOjl1 Ml1 aenoaozsao paasnja MOjy, go
lUTO MO)KeTe, a aKO Hl1lUTa ce ja xnasapy,

sparxhy

ce

racvrre BYlIKaH! Hexajre! AKTl1BHOCTl1 ce aafiopaan.ajy, CMetbyjy jenna gpyry, OHe cy Ba)KHa, cnopenna CTBap. Ocrajy caxro XapMOH1130BaHe esrouaje rj. Jbyfias npeMa cnenehoj aKTl1BHOCTl1. KaKO caM crao y onopaay lby6aBl1 npeMa pagy, BepOBaTHO CTe ce yrrlIalUl1Hnp: Y311MaTl1 APOry, rnrrx, rryunrrn, Cl1lIOBaTl1, 1I11,na he aaure nere C lby6aBlby ~1cnpa3He care nopen xosmjyrepa npoBogl1Tl1, ca <JaCOBa 6e)KaTl1, HaCTaBHl1Ke Bpel)aTI1... He nnaunrre ce! YKOlIl1KO CTe yrpagl1lIl1 y nere gy60KO noaeperse rrpesra ce611, gpyrl1Ma 11)Kl1BOTY O'lYBalIl1 CTe xapaonxjy xojy CTe My poljetbeM nonap1I11:TaKBO, XapMOHl1'lHO 611ne Hl1je npl1jeM<Jl1BO aa aKTl1BHOCTl1 xoje My napyura~JY XapMOHl1jy. Cehare ce, cnosonsao caM BaM nexe npeQ113He MeXaH113Me y ce611. l1C"re l1X nOKBapl1lIl1. Xnana BaM! OHl1 page 11sa MeHe 11sa aac, soneha Hac nenorpew I1BO xa rr0311Tl1BHl1M aKTl1BHOCTl1Ma 11rr0311Tl1BHOM pacTy.

6aBl1Tl1,

aTOMCKe 60M6e

rrpaBl1Tl1,

npl1pogy

'lYBaTl1,

peKe

11 Mopa

3araIjI1BaT~f,

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Ba ce CaMO Ap)f(WTe AOrOBOpeHOr. Ilnamrpajre CYTpallIIbW AaH W TT M03BOJHn CBaKOM tInaHY noponaue, na A06pOBOlbHO BOlbHO 6e3 npanyne 6e3 e . " M, KynoBWBe je YBeK ' yrpaAw y rzrotiazrrra nnaa, CBO) MWHWrrzraa aKTWBHOCTW KO)'W , y CKnaAy ca rn06anHwM nnaHOM uene noponaue. Hesra nonena HeMa MOHono C . ' na. BaKO ne nerrorpeunmo onatiparn nocao KO)WMy rpenyrno ne)KW KO)'W OTTrOB ' , Mapa IberOBW nCWXO-W3W'IKWMcnoc06HOCTWMa. M Masra, wMaj noaepersa aKO ce rara naaac onpenemr aa MeCTOy KyXW= wW WnOCTa_ He BpCTaH KynwHap norryr OHWXxynanapa y eKCKnY3WBHWMXOTenWM T . a. ara, Be W3HeHa~y) ce aKO MaMa nanac OAn)"-lw Aa npeseae KaMWOH'IeTOM TpTK TOHe neCKa 3a60paBWO ex na OHa WMa nOnO)KeHY ,,'[(" xareropnjy, a npenysehe je 3ajeAHW'IKO' . He 'IYAwTe ce xana ce Mana~ OATPW rOAWHe nonerse xa cTonwny 3aCVt.re .." J pYKaBe J.1 nO'IHe ca npaisesr cyha, MO)KAa he sanra nO'IeTHa wHOpMa~wja 6WTWcasro Be3ana aa ynosoperse na je AeTepI,IeHT aa cyhe onacan, YKonwKO ce nornrje. CBe OCTano nperrycrxre IbeMy. Hexa oAn)"-lw KaKO Aa AP)KWcynhep, KaKO KlIW3aBWTaIbwp, KonWKW Mna3 BOAe Aa rrycrn. .
1

Ipenraxa he 6WTWrra rrperex, a caananaaxx xopaxa raxohe. PeKoCMo na je rpeIlIKa CBeTnOCT aa aapezma xopax. CBe ce aafiopaan,a, cavo n03WTWBHa eMo~wja ~cT~je. Ba here 6e3 npxroaapaa,a, KPWIlIOM,nOHOBO onparn cyhe. Bn, n03WTwBHW, )e~ )e nere Ha'IWHWno npan xopax y oCTBapwBaIbY panae, crnapana-nce AeMoKpaTW)e, a BWCTe 3acnY)KHW sa TO. OH n03WTWBaH, jep je 3aAOBOlbWO Bpno jax HarOH, rrcrpetiy Aa npnnana 3ajeAHw~w W6YAe joj OA KOpWCTW,J.1Ma nw 'IOBeKa na OBOM CBeTY KOjWHwje Ha)"-lWOnpaanzmo Aa nepe cyhe? Hexta. CaMO MwnWOHWIbWXMp3e Aa nepy cyhe. J.1360pWMO ce sa lhy6aB npesra paAY. Wcavosacnaran,e nona110llITO cy cazropan, caMoaKTwBHoCT, caMo06pa30BaIbe 3He Ta'IKe y opMwpaIby PA,[(HE, CTBAPAJ1AQKE ,[(EMOKPATJ.1JE MopaM, 6ap Aenwn nWCMa nocaerrrra ...

CAMO PA,1J;Y IIp8u xopauu cy najeascnuju

J.13BOPHW HarOH aa casropanoa je jenan on ja'IWX narorra y MeHw, HarOH KOjWMe npara W aa KOjWce )f(eCTOKO 60PWM, CBe AOK MWBW, W3 neaaarsa, He yraOfTe raj synxaa. He MonWM aac. 3axTeBaM! ,[(onycTwTe MWAa ocrsapasr rrorpetiy aa caMO~n03HajoM oaor narona nosrohy xojer ny A0)f(WBeTWEB0J1YIJ)1JY, OA 'IOBeKa KaO WOJIOIliKor 6wha, AO Ay60KO CBeCHor 'IOBeKa, AO AYXOBHor 6wha. Y cynpoTHOM,
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a caMopaAoM he ce yracwTw WA06wTW CBOj HaKa3HW 06JIWK. Bahe TO yCJIOarofl3 nOTpe6a aa zrenxapeiseza Wnapa3wTw3MOM. slbefla . KaKO je Moryhe Aa lbYAWBeKOBWManpaTe paCT Wpa3BO) neue, a na HWCY3ana3WJIW . oTpe6y sa casrocnoaaajoxr aarotra caMopaAa. Ilornenajre KaKOce 6e6a yrnose sana), n aTI1 3Be'IKy. Masra, He CKa'IW!Ycnehy caxia, MaaaMa! Xohy caaasra, 3anaMTW! AaAox B Ja caM, y crnapa, spno onacan OArpenyrxa xana npoxoAaM na AOTpeHyTKa xana sac nOTnYHO pa3YMeM IlITa MI1 rosopare. Y OBOM nepxony nocrynajre ca MHOM n<UKlbI1BO,BOAI1Te pa'IyHa Aa hy sac YCKOPO pa3YMeTI1. QI1HwTe CBe Aa w36efHere cyK06 ca MHOM. Ynerehy y )KI1BOT,ocsajarn, orpoMaH npocrop OA uenxx 'IeTpeceT 11rrer KBaApaTHI1X srerapa naurer CTaHa. JOIli necnperan, HeCTa6wJIaH na :orl1~aMa, nonerehy y sarprsaj BallieM CTO'Il1ny na xojesr TaKO 113a30BHO CTOjW 6ena YIlITl1pKaHa IlIYCTWKJIaWna IbOj cKyno~eHa sasa. Bnhe TO rrpenasan CYAap. Hehy ce HI1OCBeCTWTI1,a Ben he ce na MeHe cpy'II1TI16yjl1~a HeKI1XrnaCHWX nopyxa, npeTIbI1 xoje ja He pa3YMeM. Kana ce 6YAeM 3arpJIWO ca TeJIeBW30poM, Tpa)f(ehl1 p;yrMe xoje yxrsy-ryje IberOBO cp~e, Ta heur Me, rara, yp;apaTI1 no npcrnhaaa. Oner nepaaysosase macae nopYKe, oner CTpax WHeMon. CBe CBe je TaKO jeAHocTaBHO, aJIW je aYTopWTapHO, cnorsaunse nacmrran.e HCKOMnJIWKOBano craapaisea cYK06a Wnonena. He P;03BOJII1Te.p;a, y OBOM nepl1ony, jep ja jour He pa3YMeM jeaxx KOjWMMWrosopare, WCKpl1BWTeMoje W3BopHe esrouxje. KaKBe aese I1Ma pYllieIbe CTO'IWna, JIynaIbe sase, rypaIbe Wrpa'IKW~a W3 KWI:Ip;epjajera y OTBOP Bwp;ea ca naurosr TeMOM CAMOPA,[(A? J.1 're KaKO l1Ma! PeKOCMOna je CBe paA. PaA cy 11OBWMOjWnpaa HecnpeTHw noxyurajx casnananalba panne, CTBapaJIa'IKe AeMoKpaTwje. He P;03BOJIWTep;a OBWXHeKOJIWKOMece~w, a TO je OTnpl1JIWKe P;O Mojer p;pyror pol)eHp;aHa, OMp3HeM WpaA Waac 11ce6e. Illra na pannre? ITa BWcrsapno reurxo pa3YMeBaTe MOjy rrpaxy! 110CKJIaIbajTe re, aa sac, TaKO saacne, cKyno~eHe cTBapw, 3aIlITWTwTe CBe xaaope eJIeKTpW'IHe eneprnje, nOAl1rHI1Te BaH Mor p;oMallIaja CBe J.13YMe TeXHOJIOfwje, caxpnjre nexose, YKJIOHWTeXeMWKaJIl1je, nonarmrre caxcnje ca ~BeneM, aonehx paxyaa aehe JIWMWaexa naCTW aa rnaBY Wca Tor MeCTa ... Cana ce CJ.1ryPHOlbYTwTe! MWCJII1Te: .Kaxo hy BacnWTaTW Tor MaJIWIlIY? Mopa ce 3HaT11 pen y OBOj Kynw, Mopa ce 3HaTW IlITa ce CMe AwpaTw, a IlITa He. Kana He CJIYllIa raj BeCTaWKO npW3BaneMO EaI,Ie W3 6YI,IaKa. AKO ce p;p3He W nporyTa xyrnjy JIeKOBa lianJ.1 h 6 e ce y OJIHW~W.Hexa 3Ha na amue TO He Awpa. "He CMeM 3aKaCHWTWca sacnJ.1TaIb "y eM. 'lWJIWcy Hac BeKOBWMana ca aacrnrrarsea nerera rpefia nO'IeTW 'IWM CMaMOMCTJ.1 rHeM W3nopOAWJIWIlITa ", noaaszsare narrarajcxx. r Ila, TO je Ba)KWJIOaa BpeMe p;eJIWMW'IHeaYTopWTapHOCTW, jep ce nere, P;Ocep;Me y~:"'Be, MOpaJIO YKJIOnWTW y npaanna xoja je onpemoro P;pyIliTBO. Ilanac aac raxohe )l;aca nJIWllIaHWM MOp;eJIWMaIlITO npe 113p;peCl1paTe nere, KaKO 6w ce YKJIOnl1nO
tI

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y npynrrseay

anapxnjy.

HJ1 jenao HJ1 p;pyro He naje npaBe

peaynrare,

jep ce 3a6

0-

paBJba J11IJ1ce He npnsnaje p;a je nere seh caBplleHO pop;e J1 na TO caste

BaCnJ1TaHO y KpJ1JIy MajKe npl1:_

sazsa OCBeCTJ1TJ1J1 p;onYCTJ1TJ1 na ce paaaaje. 3aTO sac MOlIl1: 1.1, npar pO,[lJ1TelbJ1, na caxexare p;a npOrOBOpJ1M, KaKO 6J1x Morao na sac pa3Y1.1e . 1.1, ,[Ia pa3YMeM KOMnlIJ1KOBaHJ1 CBeT y KO)J1 caa nourao. YKOlIJ1KO He rrocnyurare aYTOpJ1TaPHOCT. ,.....,OK BJ1 rpp;J1Te, BJ1'leTe, ynapare. sacrpanryjere, J11IJ1MJ1 ,[I03BOlbaBaTe na pa,[lJ1M nrra nJ1TajyhJ1 ce urra 1IJ1 caM noure srsen, srseae

MOj npe,[lJIor, cYK06e nehesro

J136ehJ1. YCKo'lJ1he1.1o

nOTKynlbyjeTe

MJ1 je nozsa, ja hy eac yneasepeno ce saurro

me,[laTl1:

ypanao, mrrajyhx

je osaj )f(J1BOT OBO-

OBJ1Ta. CaMO CTpnlbJ1BO, nOlIaKO 6e3 npJ1Hy,[le, n03J1TJ1BHOr yClIoBlbate C1<lJI Bep6alIJ13Ma, npeaaurrahaaaisa. EJ1he OBO nepJ10,[l BelIJ1KJ1X cyxofia J1 Balba J1 elba MO)'J1XJ13BOPHJ1X naroaa YKOlIJ1KO Me He nocnyurare. IlpornauraaaI<pJ1Blh [a J1MaM carao npCKJ1M HenOClIYlllHJ1M, HeBaCnJ1TaHJ1M, a HJ1je TaKO. ' heTe Nle M sa Y'lelbeM J1 60pJ1hy ce CJ1JIOBJ1TO, aa MeHJ1 )ep;J1HO n03HaT Ha'lJ1H, na 'al< Haro H ) MM CBO)' J13BOPHJ1 HarOH n03J1TJ1BHe 60p6eHOCTJ1, YKOJIJ1KO MJ1 CTaHeTe I<OPl1CTy, J1IllTahy 6aQaTJ1 CTBapJ1 OKO ce6e, ynapahy sac jep KylITypHe 06JIJ1aa nYT. BP ' casnanao. KaKO Tap;a? CaMO 'lJ1TajTe jacae nopyxe MOjJ1X alba HJ1CaM xe no HaIll J13BOPHJ1X naroaa, casro crsapajre eMOQJ10HaJIHO n03J1TJ1BHe YCJIOBe aa OCTBa-

lIJ1KO XaOTJ1'laH. AKTJ1BHOCT heMo 3a60paBJ1TJ1

J1 BJ1 J1 ja, BJ1,[1eOhe 6J1TJ1 nonpaJ11IJ1J1CKPl1:-

nasa 3aMelbeHa,

alIJ1 hy ja 6J1TJ1 ,[IalIeKO on ce6e, aac J1 )f(J1BOTa. Kan ro,[l ce ypa,[lJ1M, nOTJ1CHYTe, aacnojene, sarnaan.ene

[a caM y OBOM nepJ1o,[ly BplIO pelbe MOjJ1X rro'rpetia. He cypare ca nacnaraisea! [acaa. aJIJ1 BpJIO "HeKYJITypaH". AKO BJ1 3HaTe urra xohere, aKO CTe nOCTaBJ1JIJ1
nJIeNleHJ1Te QJ1lbeBe y BaCnJ1TalbY, CJ1rypHO hy npJ1XBaTJ1TJ1 naur nyT. CaMO MJ1 BpeMeHa Tpe6a. TIo'leo je uprah, Moja rtorpetia

6yp;eM MalllJ10 p;a aeurro

eMOQJ1je he J13POHJ1TJ1.

TBPP;J1M, ,[Ia je CBe TaKO JIaKO. Kana HayqJ1M rOBOp, xana sac pa3YMeM, YlIa3J1M y CBeT O,[lpaCJIJ1x. 3a MeHe, aKO ce onny-nrre

sa yqelbeM je orpoMHa,
Ilamhe "TelllKe"

a BJ1 je OMeTaTe npeKo he n06e,[lJ1TJ1?

aa craapanaxxo

nacmrratse,

he TO 6J1Tl1:

f}laCHOM npJ1'lOM ca rrpajarersanoa.

pe'lJ1 (,,6Y,[laJIe, hyTJ1Te").

najnenunr nepnon Mor )f(J1BOTa. CBe HOBO, lllapeHO, npJ1BJIa'lHO, Y36Y,[llbJ1BO. Baaa npencroja, TeK cana, QlJ13J1'lKJ1 nanopan neo nacnararsa. Carta Me He nperryurrajre He3HaJIJ1QaMa, OHJ1Ma J13 aYTOpJ1TapHOr CBeTa. CaMO BJ13HaTe KOlIJ1KOMJ1je Ba)!(HO Balle nlIaHJ1palbe, MOTJ1BaQJ1ja, ,[Iy60KO nOBepelbe, 6e3YCJIOBHO xexaise, oxpa6peise, naura crpmsasa npJ1'la 0 TOMe urra je urra, KOje KO, 'leMY urra ClIY)!(J1J1 MHoro TaKO onacao no MOj )!(J1BOT, BJ1 here, ,[IparJ1 pO,[lJ1Te-

JIeTehe xrpauxe no KyhJ1, YMeCTo M01I6e ,[Ia YTJ1llaTe pa3roBop.

Hapaano, BJ1. fIpJ1Hyp;OM, YCJIOBlbaBalbeM J1 Bep6aJIJ13MOM aayxahy HopMe nonauraise BpJIO 6P30, aJIJ1 hy J13ry6J1TJ1 cHary J13BOpHOr aaroaa 60p6eHOCTJ1, JIaraHO
ry6ehJ1 Be3Y ca C060M J1 aasra. YMecTo "J1HCTaHT" aacrnrratsa p;onYCTJ1Te MJ1 caraoaacmrratse. LJ:J1MYO'lJ1-

'rora lllTO he Me YBeCTJ1 y XaOTJ1'laH CBeT O,[lpaCJIJ1X. AOK caM MalIJ1, a 6alll ynopHo HacTojJ1M,[Ia OTKpJ1jeM neurro, lbJ1, seurro J16p30 op;ByhJ1 MOjy na)f(lbY He'leM ,[IPYTOMJ1TaKO Cnpe'lJ1TJ1 cYK06. CaMO xaoc. Ilocrasrsajre MJ1 rpasaue, alIJ1 6e3 Ka3He J1 aarpane.

je Ba)f(HO Cnpe'lJ1TJ1 cYK06, He TyhJ1, He rp,[lJ1TJ1, He OMalIOBa)f(aBaTJ1, He norsynz-aBaTJ1 J11IJ1norryurrarn Hay-rare na CBaKY MOjy 0pJ1rJ1HalIHY, alIJ1 onacny aKQJ1jy 3aYCTaBJ1Te TaKO urro here J1,[1ejynOXBalIJ1TJ1, alIJ1 Me HayqJ1TJ1 ,[IaTa J1,[1eja,npeTO'leHa y ,[IelIO MO)!(e HaHenl
31I0

lbY,[lJ1Ma OKO MeHe. Pasysrehy

sac J16J1hy BaM BeOMa 3aXBalIaH, urro MJ1OTKpJ1-

re npBe 3HaKe Moje 60p6eHOCTJ1 aa caMOpeaJIJ13aQJ1joM aexor J13BOpHOr narona, caxo crnapajre n03J1TJ1BHe eMOQJ10HaTIHe YCJIOBe J1 TaKO oxroryhjrre sanoaozselbe OBe rrorpefie. Y OBOM crryxajy MaJIO rrojaxajre TB, rmue npaxajre ca npxjarelbI1QOM. Ilprah je npourao, XapMOHJ1jy MJ1 HJ1CTe HapYIIIJ1JIJ1, HarOH 60p6eHOCTJ1 HI1CTe yryunorn, aaur HarOH pO,[lJ1TelbCTBa je nomao ,[10nyHor J13pa)f(aja, npnjareTbI1Qaje neurro HayqJ1JIa, aJIJ1 y BaMa ocraje Tpar cysose, "Hehe JIJ1 onaj MaJIJ1lllaH 3JIoynoTpe6J1TJ1 MOjy ,[I06pOTy J1TaKO nOCTaTJ1 MalIJ1 TJ1paHJ1H xojea he ueo )!(J1BOT
HeKO MOpaTJ1,[1a ynoaorsasa", nOCTaTl1, aKO Me ryunrre nJ1TaTe ce, ca cTpaxoM. He nnannrre ce! TJ1paHJ1H aacmrrarse

aare CBeT KOjJ1 jour HJ1CaM ynoanao. MO)f(,[Ia ce BJ1KOM, npYToM J11IJ1clIa,[lOlIe,[lOM 6p30 naMTJ1, alIJ1 ce Jhy6aB npeMa pa,[ly, saaa J1 )!(J1BOTY He paasaja.

hy

CTapJ1M 06JIJ1KOM aacmrrarsa. HJ1je CBeCHOCT.

CTBapaJIa'lKO

pa3BJ1ja CBeCHOCT y ,[IeTeTY, a KylITypHO rtonamarse l1:1Il1: 'JOKOlIa,[lOM, npnaaahere IJ:J1Tb CBaKor pomrrersa

nOCTJ1rHYTO sacrpaiuaaaisea

Caga 80gUM JlCU80Ul tiypan, all' case epno

ilpOrOBOpJ10 casr J1 cnpeMaH

nexyniuypan
):(01<

caxr na y'lJ1M 0 cBeTY y xojexr caM ce Haillao. norpetie,

casr OBaKO MalIJ1, a cana MJ1 je ,[IBe rOp;J1He, He rrosnajesr isa. HJ1caM cnocotiax ,[Ia Op;lIa)f(eM caoje

HopMe rrerror nOHaIIlaeM a rrorpetia aa 6p3J1M yqelb

~eTe

je na Hay'lJ1 nere KYJITypHOM, ornnre npxxaaheaosr nona~atby, Ha30BJ1MO ra KyhHJ1M aacmrraisera. Ilprah he npohn, npnjaren.aua OTJ1hJ1. l1:Hl1:CTe3a60paBJ11IJ1 noxerax Moje 60p6e, pY)!(He pe'lJ1, 6aQalbe nrpaaaxa. Kp03 npl1:'Jl1:lT .' ~y, rrrYMY, ronao pa3roBop nOKa)!(J1Te ,[IeTeTY na je Momo na ocraapa CBO)Y nOTpe6 n y J1,[Ipyra'JJ1je (MOJI60M, nerrov pexjy). Ilonauiajre ce OBaKO CBe ,[IOTlIe ,[10K
I

He nOKa)f(e n03J1TJ1BHe pe3YlITaTe.

,[(06J1heTe

KylITypHO,

XapMOHJ1'1HO nere

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H lIlTO je najaaxcaaje nOpYKe iseroaax H3BOPHHX narona he H p;alhe 611TTA . )aelie ' napasceae ylhyP;HO, na nOHOC pop;HTelha. Ilere caapesa, CTWle cnocofinocr onrraran.a norpetia, H3BOPHl1 HarOH no 311Tl1B_ He 60p6eHOCTH H p;alhe ocraje CHa)KaH, xapaoanja y noponaun U;BeTa. YKOlll1KO . MH He Bepy)eTe, TBpp;omaBO HaCTaBl1Te ca npanynoa, n03HTl1BHl1M ycnon lhaBa_ lbeM, npeaaurrahaaarsesr H Bep6allH3MOM. YKOllHKO Ml1 P;03BOlll1Te 11BlA y.llIe'Ia_
Y1

He TlOMuUle Me.

COBHOceneise npep; eKpaHOM, He 'Iyp;HTe ce llITO here YCKOPO HMaTH arpeel1BQa ayToarpeCHBu;a, napa3HTa HlIH Mallor noxnermor 'IOBeKa KOjl1 he ce aa OCTBape- ' lbe CBOjl1Xnorpetia 60pHTH aa BaMa aejacan Ha'Il1H. Hehere YMeTl1 na O'Il1Tana. 're iserose norpefie llITO he YBehaBaTH cYK06e 11orybeisa H3Me~y aac 11lbe ra, nparn pop;HTelhH. Barna npaBa yrrora H op;rOBopHOCT, aa MOjy Moryhy eaonyuajy on 'IOBeKa, xao 6HOllOllIKor 6Hha, P;O p;y60KO CBeCHor 'IOBeKa, TeK cana p;01la311 P;O 113pa)Kaja. ,lJ;03BOllY1TeMY1CAMOPA,lJ;. Masra, He sarpnaaaj Me nllaCTY1'IHY1MY1rpa'IKaMa. He P;03BOllY1 ,n;a myMl1M pap;. Kana ron je Moryhe 3a,n;OBOlhY1 MOj HarOH crpnn,nBO 11aYTeHTl1'IHo. ,lJ;03BOlll1 MI1 na ce normea na cromnry, p;a p;op;l1pHeM MlIaKY nemy, nOByqeM naa Tpl1 npaBa noresa 11nepisaaa npecraje. v13BopHe estouxje TeKY HeCMeTaHO 11y MeHI1 11y BaMa. Kan CTaCaM sa npaBo rrernaa,e I1cnemany rOMY1l1eseura 6e3 orrropa, OKa'II1Te ClIOBapl1~y na spara Moje cotie, nrpajre ce ClIOBl1Ma, MOTI1Bl1llIl1Te Me Jby6aBlhy aa yxea,e ClIOBa, npeKO 6e36poj Klbl1ra xoje MI1 HeYMopHo 'II1TaTe. J13HeHap;l1hy aac 3HalbeM csera, na 11ClIOBa, l1aKO Me HI1CTe HI1 Tepalll1 na Y'Ielbe, Hl1TI1 CTe cenena CaTl1Ma nopen MeHe, y'Iehl1 Me TOj npsoj unconcxoj lIeKU;l1jl1. OBO je nO'IeTHa Jby6aB npeMa caaootipaaoaaisy, xoja he ce CnOHTaHO HaCTaBI1TI1 y llIKOlll1. Ilparn MOjl1 ponarersa, npennaxcea BaM na jenao p;pyroM aKTI1Bl1paTe yrallIenapa311TI13aM jep;Ho p;pyroM. He aynxane 11HarOH sa caaopanox. He norxparsyjre Kana re rara, no KO 3Ha KOjl1 nYT, 6yp;e 3aMOlll10 na My ClIO)Kl1llI KpaBaTY, I,IeMnep 11xouryzsy, soneha pa-ryna 0 60jaMa, He 'II1HI1 TO, MaMa. YnYTI1 ra ,n;a Hayql1 aeurro 0 xapMoHl1jl1 60ja. I10'IeTHY I1H<popMaQl1jy je P;06110, npara ra ,n;y60Kl1M noaepersesr. Hexaj CTpnlhl1BO pe3YllTaTe. Tara he 611TI1sanoaorsaa, jep je je,n;HOM axrasnourhy peanasosao nse rrorpetie. Ilorpetiy 3a caMopa,n;OM 11rroTpe6y sa pea1IY13a~Y1joM eCTeTCKor narona, Hanav ce na He rpetia smue p;a sac y6e~yjeM y aeonxomrocr pealll13aU;l1je Harona 3a cavopanoa Y1 cauoofipaaoaarsesr. 3aXBalhyjyhl1 lbeMY nocrahy 3alhy6JbeHl1K 'UJ pana, AlIH rrpe Hero llITO KpeHeMO aa OBYBpllO Ba)KHYTeMY rrporoBopl1heMO 0)0 HeKY1Mpa3110311Ma KOjl1 cy rrperrpeKa rr0311TI1BHOMpaCTY nerera.
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arl1 p0,n;l1TelhY1, ):(P QylIl1 cre na nere rpetia spno paHO ClIaTI1y llIKOlIY1u;e He 6111I11ce llITO rrpe COU;I1l1 llITO naxure YKlIonl1110 y npyurrso. qylll1 CTe na nere rpetia ClIaTI1 y 'alll130Ball O . ) OllY1"e y KO)'Y1Ma ce MHoro 'rora yql1 11Hay'Il1 11na je CBe TO nOTpe6HO na pa3He UJK '-\ . nere cyTpa 611110notiap ~aK. Cnpoaomrre CBe llITO HeKO oxexyje on sac, 611Ball e ,sMaTe MoryhHOCT na P;O npase uncone nere paCTe y3 aac. l1aKO nOCToje nna p;06pa pa3110ra 360r KOjl1Xnere sazsa 3ap;p)KaTI1 urro nyzce y,n;OMy,
M
Y1

Y Oopo,n;Y1QY1, 6ap no rpehe, 'IeTBpTe ronane rseroeor )KI1BOTa,aKO je I1KaKOMoryhe.

YlIaCKOMp;eTeTa y mxomnry, nere ce cycpehe 6ap ca TpY1p;eCeTMallY1llIaHa on KOjl1Xje CBaKY1nocnenana Bl1pTyelIHe CTBapHOCTH xojy je noaeo 113 csor p;OMa. CBaKO nere P;OHOCY1 HeKI1 CBOj noponaxaa CBeT KOjl1 aaure nere Mopa p;a yno3Ha l1 l1Ml1TY1pa,jep My HeMa ortcraaxa. Hax 11aKO CTe 3HalII1 ,n;ayaenere csoje nere y 003Y1Tl1BHOCT, Y1aKO CTe 11re KaKO pa3BI1lU1 KlIl1u;e Jby6aBH 11,lJ;06poTe, oaor TpeHa xan ra ,n;aTey aYTOpl1TapHY llIKOlIHU;ysaura rrOpOp;I1'IHa xapaoaaja he ce HapyllIaBaTl1, a nere he ry611TY1BlIaCTHTO ocehaise cnrypnocra H aehe 3HaTH na lIH p;a ce CTI1P;l1 BlIaCTHTe rr03HTHBHOCTH 111I11 na ce lbOMe ,n;H'Il1. YKOJII1KO CTe yllilIH y craapanaxxo BaCOI1Talbe I1MajTe CTprrlhelba, jep nere Mopa 611Tl13allITI1heHO nopomoraoss MaTepl1U;OM6ap,n;0 rpehe, l1,n;eallHO,n;oce,n;Meronane )KI1BOTa.IIlTO xacanje nere cryrnr y iuxonaue 611he smue BpeMeHa sa Y'IBpllIhHBalbe rseroae eMOU;110HallHe xapaonaje. Kana ce y'IBpCTI1 eMOU;110HallHa cTa61111HOCT saurer ~eTeTa HeMa MoryhHOCTI1 aa BpllIelbe HeraTI1BHOr yrnuaja, Ka,n;nere CTYOI1y APYllITBO.Craapanaxxo nere, nere xoje nonece y )KI1BOTJby6aB, HHje npHjeM'IHBO aa HeraTI1BHe yrauaje. Y AYXOBHOM,'IOBe'IHOM paCTy, rr0311THBHOnpasnasa n0311TI1BHO.Kana ce y paHOM p;eTl1lbCTBY ycrrocTaBI1 eMOU;110HallHa paBHOTe)Ka, CTBapana'IKa Jby6aB nocraje neo nerera, PaCTe nere, paCTe Jby6aB, pacTe CBeCHOCT. Bpep;l1 'IYBaTl1 nere y KPHlIY nOpOp;H'IHe MaTepl1u;e urro p;Y)Ke, TaMO rne je TO Moryhe, He nnaureha ce na ce uehe cnaha y ,n;pylIITBy "CYPOBI1X". CHahH he ce! 3a eap;a eTpnlhl1BO xexajre crnapana-rxy unconmry. Crnapanaxxa BpTHhl1 H llIKO1I11QeHaCTajy oaor rpenyrxa xana y lbHX 6y,n;y ,n;OJIa3HlIa neua 113 CTBapaJIa'IKHX nopOAl1Qa. "Ja MopaM na nocao H HeMaM 11311a3a,MopaM p;aTH nere y llIKOJII1U;y," xaacere BI1.nOCTojH nsanaecr H311a3a l1TpHHaeCTl1 nosiohna, aKO name cpue xyua sa cpue BallIer p;eTeTa. Ilere Mory 'IYBaTI1I1 BaeIlYnaBaTl1 lJIaHOBI1 Y)Ke 1111Il1penoponaue. 111I11lieKaocooa xoja He rrpl1nap;a rroponaux. Mory ce oxyrnrrn HeKOnl1KOcraapalI~K . . l1XnopOp;l1u;a. YBeK he ce Hahl1 nexa CTBapaJIa'IKa MaMa, xoja He pa,n;1111KO)O)
l

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he pap; ca p;eU;OMrrpnjarezsa nOCTaTH 3ap;OBOJbCTBO, aJIH H nocao, on KOjer Mo){{e neno p;a )f(HBH. ITpl1HU;Hn je HCTH. Oc06y, KOjOj nOBepaBaTe nere, YKOJIHKOTO Hl1je crnapanasxa MaMa, MOpal'e yn03HaTl1 ca npl1HU;HnHMa CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacmrraisa, a nOTOM OP;JIy'lHO 3axl'e BaTH p;a aacnnrarse nerera 6yp;e jenaaxo saurea. Hnje notipo aKO BH He P;03BOJbaB al'e nerery ceneise npep; eKpaHOM, TOnJIO npenopy-ryjyha 'll1Talbe CJIHKOBHHu;a,a ayl'O_ pHTapHl1 sacnarax, xyhna noraohnaua, 6aKa, KOMIlIHHHu;a, norryurrajy p;eTeTY na care nposona npep; eKpaHOM, jep HM je TaKO naxure. Ilere he HenorpeIlIHBO 6Hl'11 BHIlIe HaKJIOlbeHO lbHMa Hero BaMa. 3aIlITO? CJIHKa ca eKpaHa je Bl1IlIa, npl1BJIa'I_ mlja BJ1pTyeJIHa CTBapHOCT. qJ1Talbe J1 cnyuraise 3aXTeBa Hanop YMa, CBeCHOCTl1. ITacHBHo rnenaise aaraxcyje caao 'lyJIa H CTBapa ocehaj 3ap;OBOJbCTBa. IlocJIe Bl1ille BHpTyeJIHe cTBapHOCTl1, yM reunco npHXBaTa HJ1)f(y, y BJ1p;y KlbJ1re J1JIJ1rosopa. ,ll;oBOJbHa je jenna ocofia ayTopHTapHe CBeCTJ1p;a yhe y CTBapaJIa'lKY nopOAl1u;y H 6yp;e nopen MaJIOr nerera, CBaKop;HeBHO, HeKOllHKOearn H p;a AeTeTY Hapyllll1 xapsroaajy. Iloeorsna je jenaa ocotia cTBapalla'lKe CBeCTH p;a y~e y ayropnrapnv rropomnry, p;a 6yp;e nopen Mallor nerera, CBaKop;HeBHO HeKOllHKOearn H p;a TOnere nOnpHllH'lHO BpaTH H3BOPY, lby6aBH. HH jenno HH p;pyro HHje notipo Hl1 aa POAl1rerse, HH sa nere. Y 06a cnyxaja nere je <PPYCTpHpaHO H 36YlbeHO. Y 06a cnyxaja nere ce oryhyje on pomrrezsa. Y npBOM cnyxajy nere He MO)f(e p;a BaM onpOCTH IlITO CTe ra nOBepHllH neanananasra. Y p;pyroM cnysajy He MO)f(e na BaM onpOCTH IlITO BH HJ1CTe CJIJ1'lHJ1OC06J1 xoja ra BOP;J1nYTeM lby6aBH. POp;HTeJb je no npJ1pOp;HOM peny CTBapJ1 npBJ1 no Ba)f(HOCTH aa npaBJ1JIaH pa3BOj nerera J1 na TOM MeCTY Mopa OCTaTH, y3 YCJIOBp;a YCBOjH npl1HU;Hne craapanaxxor sacmrrarsa, na IlITO P;Y)f(e3ap;p)f(H nere Y KpJ1JIy noponnne H p;a 3aXTeBa OA CBHX, KOjJ1xpahe HJIH P;Y)f(e 60paBe nopep; nerera, na raxohe npHMelbyjy onroj sa craaparraurrno, y pap;y ca p;eTeTOM. Cnenx llOrJ1'lHO naraise: ",ll;a llH he ce Moje CTBapaJIa'lKO nere cnaha y npaBOj IlIKOllJ1Y KOjOj cy neua arpecHBHa, noxnerma, a HHje 6HJIO y IlIKOllHU;H,Y KOjOj ce Morao COU;J1jallH30BaTH, y KOjOj je TOllHKO rora Momo Hay'lHTH H npHJIarogl<1TH ce nmnnanoj p;eU;H?" He 6pHHHTe! Crnapana-nooa aacrnrrarsera BJ1CTe ca3l<1gallH najja-re rexerse na KojJ1Ma he Balle nere rpap;J1TJ1 CBOj p;aJbH )f(HBOT. Yrpap;J1nl<1 CTe Jbytiaa npeMa pap;y, )f(l1BOTY,na H yqelby 6HllO xoje BpCTe. 3a'lYP;J1heTe ce ca KOjOMnaxohov he nere ynlloBHTH y IlIKOllCKe 06aBe3e H KOnJ1KOhe ra p;eu;a BoneTJ1 H u;eHJ1TH, YKOllHKOje l1CTJ1HCKaCTBapalla'lKa llH'lHOCT, a He "nOJIOBlbaK". Peureisa xoja BaM HyP;HMHe MOry ce jour npHMeHHTJ1IlIJ1POKO, jep caBpeMeHJ1 POP;J1TeJbJ1pane H zryro cy BaH xyhe. Xaana p;pyrnTBy IlITOYlla)f(e orpoaas HOBau;y rpap;lbY e BpTJ1ha. YCKOpOhe P;PYiliTBOCHryPHO rpancrpopxracarx ayropnrapae BPTJ1ne H ulI<on y crnaparra-nce, nonpacasajyha CTBapaJIa'lKO sacmrratse H craapanaxxe nopOp;J1ue.
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"HoBe uncone" ayropa Ilerpa Caanha CTpnJbHBO -rexa aa 'leKa? Hexa na pomrrezsa 11neua . Tpa)f(e CTBaaJI pe OllY a lby he Tpa)f(J1TH C npaaosr pOp;J1TeJbH H neua KO)H cy y noponaaJIa'lKY UlK , P enJ1 cTBapana'lKO BacnHTalbe. . ra on ce 6'e, aKO )e TO HKaKO UI1COpOB JbTKHe nOMJ1Te Balle nere He rypaFe ,Uparl1 pOp;J1Te n, ' net BonJ1Te Balle nere, Y)f(HBajTe y lbeMY cenara rOp;J1Ha, npBHX cep;aM ronana fdO.ry . . )f(HJ1)' e y )f(HBOTY Baller nerera. He xazce ce Y3allYP; p;a je nere OTaU; O)e cy Ha)Ba . J< n J1Te ce na OTaU,xoeexa 6YAe 'lOBeK BJ1COKO pasarqene CBeCTH,'IOBeK 'lOBeJ<a. oTPYA II eOyH Jby6aBJ1 J1,ll;06poTe. P Ha)l(anoc T,,..., nanac aYTOpJ1TapHa APYiliTBeHa CBeCT llOMJ1 nere, nOMJ1 pOAl1Te. ryhe Ha'lJ1He. ,ll;OHOCJ1 3 aKOHe, KojHMa je pOAJ1TeJb npJ1CJ1JbeH na naje ]ba sa CBe Mo ,. h ca ner rOITJ1Hay KBa3J1 uncone. Ilponyacaaa ce OCHOBHOiliKOllCKO CBO)e nere Be ,..., 06pa30Balbe aa AeBeT rOAJ1Ha, cxpahyje ce Aeu,J1 paAOCHO AeTJ1lbCTBO, a pOAHTe]bJ1Mace npOAY)f(aBa, J10HaKO, npenyro paAHO sperae. Kp03 Mamy ce Ha311pe casto

Op;en cTBapalla'lKe

M113aUI1)Y0,..., . IT1932 .,..., rOITl1He. IIlTa

I<1HTepeC 60raTJ1X, aa npo<pHTOM CBl1X06llJ1Ka. . JIOMHTe Me, nOMe sac, na 6e36poj Ha'll1Ha. Bpexe je Aa ca TJ1M npecranere, na npeCTaHy Bpexe je na J1nopojnnta J1APYiliTBO, Y u,ellJ1HJ1 CXBaTe, Aa 6e3 nOTOMaxa CTBapana'lKe CBeCTJ1,Aa 6e3 lby6aBl1 J1 Ilofipore nOTOMaKa, )f(J1BOTxonexa na nnaHeTH 3eMJbH nehe jour nyro rpajarn.

MaMa,

epyhuna

MU jet

JeAHOnere neno pe'le: ,.I)eMnep je OHa CTBap xojy MaMa Tepa nere na 06Y'le, xana je iso] 3J1Ma". JeAHa MajKa 3a6pHHYTO xaxce: "J13llYAl1M xana BHAHMAa je Moje nere oner CKJ1HYllOI,IeMnep ca ce6e, a ja 3HaM na je XlIap;HO J1na he ce pa360lleTH." OBO cy ABa J1CKa3a xoja HeMJ1HOBHOnone cyxotiy ponarersa H nerera, IlITO y6p3aHo PYillJ1 xapsronajy jenaor J1 p;pyror. Ila no rora He 6H nourno MopaMO 3HaTJ1 nexe 'IJ1lbeHJ1u,e. Kao lllTO na CBeT P;OHOCHMO:caspurene 113BOpHe narone, caapureuy xapMOHJ1jy, caspureny P;06pOTY raxohe P;OHOCJ1MO poheisea 11caspuren TepMoperyJIau,110HH CJ1CTeM,KOjl1je y HajpaHHjeM nernn-cray spno OCeTJbHB, P;OK ce He Y'iBpC1'l-1H npanarona ycnomoaa y xoje je nere CTHmo. J1MajTe nonepersa y npnPOP;y. Kap;a BaM saure nere xazce: "MaMa, spyhnaa MH je!", sepyjre MY! CnpeMaTe ce aa IlIeTlbY, npOu;eHHJIH CTe IlITa CBe rpetia nere na otiyse. y cxnany cae nOJbHOMresmeparypoa. . co 6 J1, YKOJIHKO jour TO noxyurare na 0 6 aBHTe y TOnJIO) ~on OBop;a aa cYK06. IToM03J1Te H ce6H H nerery, J13a~HTe aa xnananje . MeCTO, rne h ere HaCTaBHTH ofinaxerse nerera, a 3aBpIlIHHU;y 06JIa'lelba xarryra HJIH Kane
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TOBalI iseros npeocerzsxaa 'repsroperyzanaoaa CWCTeM.Ba 3a,n;OBOlbHW )'ep H i1 WCTeBlI CTWTOMrrpwHy,n;OM W3a3BallW arpecajy nerera. a-

MO)KeTe 6e3 60ja3Hw 06aBWTW W HarrOlbY. ,lJ;eTeje 3a,n;OBOlbHOjep CTe nom

"MaMa, cnyuraj reno Moje TW, HWKa,n; He 6pWHW, KaKO, xana, urra W rne, rezro peha he!"

noxmee. ,lJ;eTeseceno rpxxapa Wseh HeKOllWKOnyra rroKywaBa " B na CKi1lie WCTe y)KacHYTw. A caer] A HWCKaTeMrrepaTypa;> He 1 , TO Hi1Ka_ KO. I10HOBHW cYK06, cyae. On urerrse smue urrere Hero KOpWCTW. Majxa xoja BOllW csoje nere cnyura iseroao reno, I1011ITO je oxexa . . nBalla peaKQW)y nerera ona je crrpexana cYK06 TaKO WTO je ,n;eTenperxonao 06YKlla . CllO)eBl1_ . TO, ,n;03BOllWBlUWna casto nere onpemr KOllWKOhe cnojeaa onehe CKWHYT B w. epY)Te nerery, Iberoso reno TaqHO 3Ha xana ce oCll060,n;WTWBWlUKa onehe u6p 30 h e BaM Tpa)KWTW,n;aCKWHerrpcllyK. Hexa BaM He 6y,n;eTelUKO ,n;anonecers ca c06
Illerisa ca ce 6 e "OKllorr.
M JI

TorrllY Karry, o,n;OHe Kp3HeHe y xojy CTe ra 6PW)KHO yrraxoaaznr. maBY -rysa, nryfiapa je xaapa!"

OM Malbe YOCTallOM ,,,q113Ma

CAMOBACTIMTAlhE
BJlaCUlUUlU UYUl
BeKOBI1Ma cy HalUW rrpeQw nacnaraaamr, rrpeQI13HI1je npecnpana

Hehe HWCKaTeMrrepaTypa W3a3BaTW60lleCT, HapOqWTOaKO nere Hwje nperonn-,

HO, rra narno pacxnaheao. Bawe nere nehe 6WTWrrpwjeMqWBO aa W3a3WBaqe60lleCTl1 YKOllWKO My 6PW)KHO -rysare W aeryjere Bep6allw3MOM, npeaaurrahaaarssv, napyunrhere

xapaoanjy.

I1pwHy,n;OM, YClloBlbaBalbeM,

YTwQajeM HeraTWBHWXBwpTyellHwx ca,n;p)Kaja,

csoje rrOTOM-

exomroaamry xapvoaajy, lUTO ,n;OBO,n;W no HepaBHOTe)Ke y hellwjaMa rena nerera, no neacezseae npoxieae MeTa60llW3Ma, a TeK TO rrpencraszsa nnonao
TllO ,n;ace rrocejy BWpyCWWllW HaMHO)Ke 6aKTepwje. Kao lUTO Bw,n;WTe,spena BepOBaTW MallWlUW xana xaxce: "MaMa, )e.
. I"

spyhxna MW
jep cy

e nopeznrre noaaurarse

saiuer

repxoperynanaoaor

cWCTeMa, ca TepMopenpamrxaxra

rYllaQwOHWM CWCTeMOMcsor

nerera y WCTWMrexrrcparypmoa

BaMa onasao noxsapanx repxoperynauaoaa "A urra MO)Ke 3WMa MeHW, urra MW MO)Ke urra MW CMe,

CWCTeM.YOCTallOM WrreCHWKpeqe:

na MW aocah noupsena,
eTO TO je, TO je CBe" He nocnyurare llW reno csora nerera, wMaheTe YCKOPOnere xoje he 6WTWxpaina rrpoMeHY TeMrrepaType, O,n;HOCHO nere he 6WTWqeCTO 6olIeCHO, a nerera cnyxajy

xe, He 3Hajyhl1 ,n;aje qOBeK npenonpehea aa CAMOBACI1MTAI-bE, y ycnomoaa ,lJ;06poTe Wlby6aBw. Beh y npsoj ro,n;I1HW)KWBOTanerera, aYTopl1TapHO My nofipo HapYUII1 xapaomrjy noneceay pobeise. Ponarersa cy 6p30 yBwt)allw,n;a sacrnrralbe nerera He w,n;e6alU naxo. Ilere ce omrpe, 6paHW, jep )Kelll1,n;a CaqYBa xapMOHWjy xojy My BWaapyuraaare. Ilere ce C rrpaBOM 6paHw on sac. CyK06 je HeMWHOBaH. Ponaren.a cy ,n;OHOCWllW qBPCTY onnyxy na nere Mopa OCTaTI106jeKaT. CBe ce CBOA~1JIO na aeptianxsaa, y <pyHKQl1jW CTBapal-ba jaiorx CTaBOBa: "OBO rpefia, OBO He rpeoa, OBaKOje notipo, OBaKO je noure. "MOllWM aac, nparx MOjl1, He nosonursajre rta ce 3alla)KeM sa anapxajy, HanpoTI1B, )KWBWMO Y BpllO KOMrrllWKOBaHOM cBeTY, TeXHOllOWKI1 nanpezmoa, rra TI1Me ~ onaCHOM 113aTO OqeKyjeM on sac ,n;aycnocraanre jacna rrpaBwlla xoja ce MopaJY nOWTOBaTI1 y cnorsaunsea 6n CTe Hayqwnw ,n;aje neisatse cBeTY. 3aMwcllwTe urra 611 ce noronnno, na <ppW)KI1,n;ep spno onacao, xana Me He ,n;a,n;p)KaTW<pPI1)KI1,n;aYllWQY MopaMo

,n;epBpno nyro OTBopeH Hwje notipo jep TpOlUl1 MHoro crpyje,

l-be3WMOrpo)KlbWBO WllW xpajise aeocerzsxso na 30B caora rena. My je,n;HoM W y npyrov

BWy 6ecaHwM HohwMa, ,n;e)Kypajyhw nopen 60llecHor

aehere 3Han1 ,n;aCTe

npella311TW aa seneao, ,n;ay sprahy He MO)KeMO 6wn1 TOllWKO )KI1BaXHW 11HeMWpH~1KOlll1 . 611 KO Y napKY, )~P y BPTl1hy, na MallOM npocTopy I1Ma MHoro neue W MOml1 CMo HeKora rroBpe,n;I1Tw. AlIl1 aKO Me BacnWTaBaTe n0311TWBHI1MYCllOBlbaBal-beM Wxao npl1po,n;HY nocne~l1QY ,n;06l1jeTe noxnenno nere, oana BI1 Ylla311Te Y rp03HW aepdanaaasr, KOjl1M e CBaKOTTH " " .' neno na csoje M eBHO y 6 enyjere KaKO HI1)e nerro 611TWnoxnenaa, HI1)e 11 rpaT.J:Ke He . ,n;aMHWKOMe, a ,n;pyro) ,n;eQI1CBe OTWMaM. [a hy YllaraTW orpOMaH Tpy,n; - 205-

,n;wpeKTaH KpWBaQ aa crarse y KojeM ce aaurno saute nere. A CBe je rrOqelIO BplIO ,n;aBHO,on OHe npse urerrse, xana CTe, W3 crpaxa W neaaan.a, HaTpOHTaJilif Manuury, a npexo csera CTaBWllWhe6e W3 xojer BWPWcasro rrocnh. CaMO MallO xpa6poCTWWMHoro nonepersa y nere W l-berOBe pe-nr: - 204-

na rrOTHCHeM noxnerry,
H H3HhH

jaKHM CTaBOM, aJIH rrOTHCHYTO he KaA TaA eKCrrJIonl1p

M

na

BHAeJIO, OHAa

xana

ce H BH H ja He

CTaBOBH rrorryT: He KpaAH, He JIa)f(H, HHje Jby60MopaH,

aanare. nerro na CH JIelb,

a'fl1

Be 3a60paBHTe,

nere

HHje 06jeKaT

xojer

BH ApeCHpaTe,

nere

MopaTe )f(HBOTa.

BAC-

noxnerran,

ce6Wlali

nU1'A TJ1 ' " lbe"caMor

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xpaIbe

xpaHHTH"

Jby6aBJby,

a OHO he C naxohoa

yhH y CAMO-BACI1J1TA-

ce6e Jby6aBJbY, y CBHM cerMeHTHMa

csora

Ilere

HaCHJIaH, na CH rro rrer earn na rryua-ntnaxra,

na CH HeOCeTJbI1B n

' po-

'

)f(APJbHB, na HerrpeCTaHO YAapallI

cecrpy,

HH)e neno Aa CH neypenan,

na CI1CTalIlio
POAI1-

aepacnonoscea,

Aa 6e)f(HllI ca xacosa,

Aa He BOJIHllIllIKOJIY, na He nourryiem

, ". oja ce caMOBacrrHTaBa Kp03 caxopan. AKO )f(eJIHTe KOMrrJIeTaH ycnex . cy6)eKaT K )e H"e onna 06yqHTe CBe qJIaHOBe Aa nayxe na )f(HBe na npHH~HnHMa HaIlle nopOA .., . or BacrrHTalba jep ce y TOKY nponeca caMOBacrrHTaIba pa3BH)a... CTBapaJIa'lK

rerse H HaCTaBHHKe H jour MHoro

jep

cy CBH saunr

CTaBOBH

xoje

MH

rora. OBaKBH CTaBOBH HeMajy HHKaKBor CMI1ClIa aaxehere, rrOCJIeAH~a rrer ayTopHTapHl1X Bac~
POAHTeJb 6YAHO rrpaTI1 na TpOllIH OrpoMHy eHeprl1jy, YKHHe aYTopHTapHOC'f.

rrHTHHX MOAeJIa. YKHHHTe Y3pOKe H rrOCJIeAH~e aecrajy, JIH nere ncrrya.aaa Bep6aJIHe, BHCOKOMOpaJIHe saxrese,

CTBAPAJIA qKA HHTEJIHfEHUHJA

)KU60W.

H3a3HBa KOH<pJIHKTe ca AeTeTOM, YMeCTO

na jeAHocTaBHO

I1paBHTe pa3JIHKy H3Me~y rrpaBHJIa, y crrorsaunsesr paAH

CBeTY, xoja cy HeorrxOAHa,

nuie uwuiuauu]
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carypnajer

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cyrrpoTHoCTH

ca MOjHM H3BOPHOM rrorpetiaaa,

xoje CTe BH HCKPHBHJIH.

ce

CTapH 06JIHK nacmrrarsa, yqelba (nOApa)f(aBaIbe,

,D;parH MOjH, MH CMO nnax JbYAH, a He cmrrasajy aaxaazsyjyhn cnocotiaocrn

xyue. Kyue

npecnpajy,

a JbYAH casrona.

nonaraxa,

HaMeTHYTMx CTaBoBa, MMMTMpalbe

caMoyqelba.

OBOM rrpHJIHKOM MopaM BaM

nourer). HMje A03BOJIMO qOBeKY Aa ce pa3MaXHe. HaYKa je YTBpAMJIa CTMcasro jeAaH MaJIM

na qOBeK

KOPl1-

YKa3aTH aa <Pa3Y caaoyseisa caxr BaM THBHOCT 6HTH

xoja AOBOAH AO caaoaacrnrraa,a. na name Ay60KO rroBepelbe

Cehare

ce, xana
Mopa

npouenar

CBOjMX MHTeJIeKTyaJIHMX MoryhHocTM,

Aa rrocroje

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0 norpetin CeTHTe ce

rrpaTH cBaKY casroaxHH<popMa~Hja

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nerera.

onor npsor

3aXTeBa: "I10qeTHa

nojenmre

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sa xoaexa.

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rasna,

OqHrJIeAHO, HM)f(M 06JIMK yqelba

rrpY)f(a MaKcMMYM, npeKo

xojer ce He MO)f(e.
M3BOPHMX

Ilanac

je qOBeKY TeCHO y TOj "C06M". YKMAalbeM rrpMHYAe M YCJIOBJbaBaIba, yKMAa-

1beM Bep6aJIM3Ma, oMoryhaBalbeM 6l1he CTBopeHM YCJIOBMsa

caaopana

M casrocrtoanaje

narona,

na" CBe, ypaAH KopeKTHO, aJIH je H3ry6HJIO OHO aajnpazce,

rparaise,

rparanaxxy na caxcaja",

crpacr.

To

raj rrpo~ec ncrpaacaaarsa

rryTa rrpaBJbelba "pyrre HHTeJIHreH~Hja

TO je npo-

nee

y KojeM ce

paasaja crnapana-nca
nozcena,

y KojeM je CBe y <pyHK~Hjl1

passoj craapanaxxe MHTeJIMreH~Mje. I1pHMeHoM CTBapaJIaqKOr sacnaran-a, crnapan.ea n03HTMBHMX YCJIOBa M n03MTI1BHI1X eMO~MOHaJIHMX onnoca, OAHOCMMa 6e3 Ka3He M aarpane, pa3BMjalbeM
nOTpe6a 3a peanaaauajost

caaoaacrnrraa,a.

KpaTKO, casroaacnaran,e

je

BJIaCTHTH rryT. ca nasra,

naroaa
M

casroyxetsa,

crrOHTaHO he AohM AO ronrseisa M03ra. I103MTMBHe

YKOJIHKO Balli MaJIHllIa JIehHOM BeJIHKOM cnpesraisy

paBHorrpaBHO

na ysecrsyje

npo-

TpaYMe, AO oraapaisa nocneAH~e

spara xexa

YJIaCKa y Hen03HaTe npoCTope

ABopHllITa,

He crryrasajre saura

ra. MO)f(Aa he rroqeTl1 Aa HH<popMa~Hja 6YAe 06aBe-

MO)f(eMO carao HaCJIYTHTH. MO)f(Aa CTBapaJIaqKO nacnaraise arrCOJIYTHa CBeCHOCT.

ornapa

BaM OTHMa MeTJIY. Ee3 HepB03e. urreise

Hexa

noxeraa

BpaTa H3a KOjHX Hac CBa yqelba

rne ce HaJIa3H MaJIa MeTJIa. OCTaJIO nperrycTHTe

caMopaAa, rrpo~ec

re, He JbYTHTe ce aKO pacTypa xa ceria, aJIH CBe je TO npo~ec

rserosca rpazcersy B03HTH aBHOH.

lbeMy. CTpnJbHBO qeKaje BaIllY caKynJbeHY rOMHJIy. MO)f(Aa he rypaTH cMen caaoaacnaraiea. Y)f(HBajTe KOjH

rrCHXOJIOrHje,

ncnxajarpaje

H MHorHX ApYIliTBeHHX

HaYKa

norny-

BJIaCTHTOr rryTa. EHhe TO cyTpa MYIlIKapqHHa

he

Mo)!{A~

liO cy McrrpaBHa H saaceha y OBOM TpeHyTKy. CBH cy OHM rrOCMaTpaJIH -rosexa xao nocnenH M ~y aYTopMTapHOCTH, cxyrrzsana nonarxe, AOHOCHJIH 3aKJbYQKe, Tpa)f(MnH perue1ba ' KaKO 6 H rr060JbruaJIH )f(HBOT QOBeKa. Illra he ce AeCHTH xana ce QOBeK O'fBOp H aa l1CTHHCKOCTBapaJIallITBO, aa HCTHHCKY xpeaunjy, MO)f(eMO casro npernOC'faBI1 II ~ . TI1. y6epTeT, KJIHMaKTepMjYM, <p06I1je, Heyp03e, nCHX03e, llIH30't'peHM)a, l\enpecl1' je, rrpocTHTY~Mja, KpMMHHaJI, napxosranaja, aJIKOXOJIH3aM, HaCHJbe MTA, e, Bepo BaTHO, rrOCTaTH neo rrpOllIJIOCTl1.

Illra je aa lbera qHllIhelbe ABopHIlITa. 3aXBaJbyjyhH eMO~l10HaJIl-lO) xapxoaxjx, ocrsapeaoj y AeTHlbcTBY H cehaisy aa lby, cehaisy aa 6JIare cyH'leBe spaxe H npOJIehHH JIaxop, aaure nere he uenor )f(HBOTa qHCTHTH, B03HTH, neBaTl1,
jeAHoM pe-rjy, MHoro Tora paAHTH, C Jby6aBJby.

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KaKO he narvrenarn spesre y xojexr he 'lOBeK eBOllYl1paTI1 3aXBaJbY)yto. 1111caMO y'lelby, CaMOBaCnI1TalbY, nYCTI1MOMalllTI1 aa BOJby. Ilaaauns CBeT CBeT ., y KO)eM Malbl1Ha Kpel1pa CBe, or; Mop;e P;O06lll1Ka rronaurarsa, a sehaaa naCI1BHO KO H3YMl1 pa, nocrahe rreo pY)KHe npournocra. Bahe TO BpeMe npase, KpeaTI1BHe I1HTelI . .. I1reH_ U;11)e,KO)a)e nauac Ha)KallOCT, caxro npl1Bl1llerl1ja peTKI1X nojep;l1Hau;a. Bahe TO spesre 0 KojeM naaac 6YP;HI1carsasro, BpeMe y KOMe he ...

ldipa 6umu paq, a pag uipa

)J;parJiI pOp;JiITeJbJiI, IlOHOBJiIny BaM neurro 0 'IeMY caM BaM Ben rrpn-rao. Harnacno caM p;a nrpa y paHOM p;eTJiIlbCTBYJiIMap;y60KJiI CMJiICaO YKOllJiIKO je Y <PYHKU;JiIjJiI 'IOBeKOBe yayrpa. unse eaonyunje. BJiIpOp;JiITeJbJiI, xao p;a He 3HaTe na JiIrpa cnaja neuy JiIpOp;JiITeJbe,JiI.u;a je cspxa JiIrpe p;a nere ynasrra rr03l1TJiIBHO,npnjaruo oceharse xoje rpaje TOKOM nrpe, aznr nere rpetia p;a OCeTJiIJiIJbYTlbYjep He JiIp;eCBe KaKO rpetia JiIpanocr jep je Kpe- . nyrro JiI6pJiIry aKO anje CBe KaKOje rpetiano 6JiITJiIJiITyry lllTO ce JiIrpa 6JlJiI)KJiI xpajy JiIcrpax xohe JlJiIJiIcyrpa 6l1TJiIOBaKO zreno, CBe OBOje 6JiITHOjep he, CBa OBa oceharsa aeorrxonaa sa npouec JiIrpe, nere cnOHTaHO npeaerx JiIna CBaKYBpCTy pa.u;a... )J;aHac ce rrpaBJiI BeJlJiIKarpeurxa y nnauraaov nacrnrraisy. )J;eU;JiI ce xynyjy rOMl1JIe nrpaxaxa. Hrpaxxe ce nezre na JiIrpa'lKe sa nexaxe JiInrpa-rxe aa nesoj-nme. Crporo ce onsaja pap; on nrpe. )J;eu;a ce y HajpaHJiIjeM p;eTl1lbCTBYcaao l1rpajy. Y canaunsea TpeHyTKy TO je HapO'lJiITO aarnaureao, jep xonnpaao pa3BJiIjeHJiI CBeT. CBe re JiIrpe cy nospume, ncnpasae, JiIMJiITaTOpCKe, MeXaHI1'lKe, JiIHe onrosapajy y3paCTy neue. Te JiITaKBe I1rpe Bpllle JiIH<paHTJiIJIJiI3aU;JiIjy aame neue. Hnje JIJiIJiIOBO Y CJIY)K6l1 rrorpouravxor npyurraa? Ileuy rpeoa OP;BOjJiITJiI on pana KaKO6JiIcYTpa 6JiIlll1p;06pl1 rrorpourasx JiIYCJIY)KHJiIX p;eJIaTHOCTJiI. CBe he, y3 MaTepJiIjaJIHY aanoxaazry, o.u;pap;l1TJiIHeKO p;pyrJiI aa xoaexa: on saxyuasan,a eKcepa, no TopTe. A 6alll ra] excep JiITa TOPTa 6JiI MOrrrJiIna cnoje nere JiIpomrrezsa. HaCJiIllHO JiIXonsajaao on npasnx 36J.1saisa y noponaun. Ilpen nonasax y urxony, Y3P;JiIlllYJiIneua l1 Op;paCllJiI.3aMJiIUlJbajy KaKO ce rrpJiI6JlJiI)KaBa BpeMe y KOMe he HOCTarrrJiI'lHO rOBOpJiITJiI0 rrpOlllJlJ.1MBpe. yl. MeHJiIMaxana ce nere caxro nrpano. .Bnneheur TJiI,xarra na )eCeH KpeHelll y IllKOJl HeM a smue JiIrpe JiInyrarsa rro 6eJlOM CBeTy", )KaJIe 11rrpeTe pOp;I1TeJbI1I1CTOBpeMeHO, nop;CTwlynl1 HeCBeCHO KOP;rrerera oTrrop npexra pap;y 11lllKOJlJiI. Iloxyurajsro na YO'lI1MO npoonea. Ilon npernocraaxo p;a je Ylrpa l1rpe pap;J.1, npahena casio Xep;OHI13MOM, ra n03l1Tl1BHa eMOU;l1jaHl1je HI1y xaxsoj Be311ca 6Y1Wnl1M panov. li1rpa nocrojn I1rpe pana, a pap; ocraje nerrpajarna 06aBe3a, HeillTO
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nopHO aeurro lllTO rpeda 1136eraBaTl1, I1lll1 neurro lllTO rpeoa HeKO ap;HO, na , . p,OC C na ypap;l1. HI1)'e nanpasrsena cnona 113Me1)yI1rpe 11pap;a. Haje I1CKOrJ.13a na p,pY 03J.1Tl1BHaeMOU;l1jal1rpe y <PYHKU;I1)l1 pasaajarsa Jby6aBl1 npeMa pap;y. UloeHa n pJ.1 axxo Bacnl1Talbe 3Ha sa TajHY y KOjOjje 6l1THO p;a CBaKa aKTl1BHOCT6yp;e CTBapaJl 3BOPHl1M eMOU;l1jaMa, a 06aBJbaHa y n03I1TI1BHl1M YCJlOBI1Ma,YCJlOBl1aneHa l1 . IIP Hyrre 6l1JlO KO)' e BpCTe. Ilocne CBaKe TaKBe aKTl1BHOCTI1nere )e 6lll1)Ke a 6e3 IIpl1 ; 6aBl1 npeMa ce6l1, pap;y, )Kl1BOTY)J;a Jll1 )e aKTl1BHOCTnerera aesana sa pap; Y (l1rpa'IKaMa) cnopenno je. CBe ce 3a60paBI1. Ocraje craise xcnyrseaoJ.1JlJ.1 rpy on saapureaor nocna. To ce npeHOCI1 na CBe )KI1BOTHeaKTl1BHOCTl1. CTJ.1 J.1pap; OCTJ.1 arl1 pop;l-fTeJbJiI 3aTO,p; P , nOM03JiITe saurex nerery p;a OCTBapJiI caaopan, npaTJiITe 0Kl1M nOBepelbeM ocrnapyjyhsr najaaure eTJiI'IKe JiIp;eaJle (ncJiIxo-<pJiI3JiI'IKO ra p;y 6 '. . l1'IOBe'IHOcT). Tana pap; nocraje JiIrpa, a JiIrpa Jbe KpeaTJiIBHYJiIHTeJlJiIreHU;JiI)y
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pap;. Y crsap, )KJiIBOTnocraje npeJlena nrpa. MHorl1 pOp;I1TeJbl1,non JiI3rOBOpoM, na cy p;y)KHJiI p;a orieaoene CBOjOjp;eU;11 cxyne, rrpl1BlIa'lHe nrpa-rxe nposone care JiInaae panehx, P;OK JiIXp;eu;a C HeCTprrJbelbeM l1Ul'leKyjy. Hrpaxxe JiIJll1BJiI?Ilere he ce orrpep;eJlJiITl1 aa sac. Y)KJiIBaneTe y y'Ielby Kp03 nrpy xojy Bl1 BOp;JiITe.Hrpasxa je cnopenna, Ba)KHa je JiIrpa JiIeMOU;l10HallHa xapaonaja xoja nocroja JiI3Me1)yaac JiIsamer nerera, AyTOPJiITaPHO aacmrrarse HyP;JiIcKllepOTJiI'lHe JiIrpe BalllJiIM MaJlJiIlllaHJiIMa xoje ce csone na JiIMl1TJiIpalbesaurer nonauran.a, nparn pomrrersa.Hrpajy ce neua, JiIMJiIrapajyha HeMalllTOBJiITe aKTJiIBHOCTJiI xoje BJiIp;ey nopomnra, JiIMJiITJiIpajynJiI OP;HOce l13Me1)yMaMe JiIrare, onaoce y lllKOJll1U;JiI, JiICJlJiI'IHO.Hajxeurhe ce nrpajy MaMe l1rare, paTa, a y caspesreaoj rrnmnaaoj rroponnua neua ce nrpajy csera lllTO BJiIp;e na eKpaHy, (Mop;He peaaje, nonpaacasajy JlJiIKOBeJiI3<pJiIllMOBa,cepnja, upraha, JiI Clll1'lHO). CBe JiIrpe ce csone aa nonpaacaaarse, lllTO He BOP;JiIn03JiITJiIBHOMpacTy nerera, HapO'lJiITO YKOllJiIKO l1MJiITJiIpajyHeraTJiIBHe nojase. YllaCKOMy craapana-nco aacmrraise, HaY'lJiITe cnOHTaHO KaKO p;a noxpeirere YHYTpaUllbY MOTJiI8~U;JiIjy, Jby6aB nerera JiInpeMa pap;y JiIrrpeMa xrpa, nocne xera ce ry6JiI jacna rpaanua rne npecraje pap;, a no-nose JiIrpa JiI06pHYTO.

MaMa,

YKlbyt-tu-ce y Mojy uipy!

tuma, YKlbyt-tU Me y C80j pag!

CTBAPAlINIKO BACIlli1TAIhE JiIrpl1 naje p;y60KI1 CMJiICao. li1rpa je Ba)KHa cnope.u;Ha CTBap, a 6l1THa je eMOU;l1jaxoja re-re JiIpap;ocT xoja ocraje nocne caera, I(ao nOI(' . . o peTa'l HOBI1XaKTI1BHOCTJiI.Czrypao ce mrrare urra )a o-rexyjera on aac ApaClII1X? 0 . . . qeKy)eM na JiI3MeHl1TeCBO)e noaaurarse YI OP;HOCrrpeMa I1rpl1 aaurer
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AeTeTa. ,lJ;0cana CTe, 6e3 l1MalIO rpl1)1{e CaBeCTl1, ocranzsana name nere caMo , 111111 ca APyroM AeU;OMna ce CaTl1Ma l1rpa. Csrarpana CTe na Hl1je rroTpe6HO na Ce . 11811 YKlbyql1Te, Jep TO Hl1CYql1Hl1lIl1 Hl1aaura pOAl1Telbl1. AKO ce orrpeAelIl1Te aa CTB PAJIAqKO BACI1J1TAlhE saute rrpaBO ysohea.e nerera y paA l1 )l{l1BOTl1ne A. M ~~ l1rpy l1 crora Je MopaTe rrlIaHl1paTl1 l1 OpraHl130BaTl1 l1 noapesreno ce y tby YKlhy_ Ql1BaTl1. He xyxajre na l1MaTe MallO speaena, Mopare ra aaha, y paHOM ner 111hCTBYsaurer nerera, a AeTe he BplIO 6p30 caao noxera na nnannpa l1 opraHI13yje KpeaTl1BHy l1rpy. CBaKa l1rpa, xao nocnemma crsapana-rxor BaCrrl1Tatba je KpeaTl1BHa, jep yxrsy-ryje caMOaKTl1BHOCT l1 caaoaacmrraa,e nerera, jep je cTBapaJIa'I_ KO aacmrran,e y CTBapl1 onroj sa crsapanaurrao. I10HOBl1hy ,l.IarOTOBOce,l.laMAeCeTrrOCTOl1rapa neue rpetia Be3l1BaTl1 aa KOHKpe_ TaH pa,l.l. Y CBaKI1rn06alIHI1 nnan rrOpO,l.lI1lJHI1X aKTI1BHOCTI1 rpetia ,l.I03BOlII1TI1 nereTy ,l.Ia,l.I06POBOlbHOHal)e csoje MeCTOy tbeMy. CeTI1Te ce ,l.IaCBe Mopa 6I1TI1rrpaheHo BalIlI1M Ay60KI1M noaepersea 11,l.I06POBOlbHOlIlhy nerera, I10lJeTHa I1H<p0pMaU;I1ja Mopa 6I1TI1 rrpeU;I13Ha, He rrpeOrrlIlI1pHa. CBe Mopa 6I1TI1 060jeHo BalIlI1M A06pI1M HaMepaMa, crpnzseisea 116e3 TpYHKe cyMtbe y rr03I1TI1BaHI1cxo,l.lpana, I1lII1I1rpe, CBejemro. Hexaise uexa 6YAe 6e3yclIOBHO, a rpeurxa xao rrYToKa3 sa caananasarse cnenehe aKTI1BHOCTI1, nexa 6Y,l.leBO,l.lI1Q. J1,l.1ejana rrpeTeK. On cnpeaaisa CTaHa, aKTI1BHOCTI1 y KyXI1tbI1,KyrraTI1lIY,TaBaHY, rrO,l.lpYMY, rrpeKo nona KBa,l.lpaTHOrMeTpa 6alIl iseroae 6alIlTe, I1lII1jenae, 6alIl iserose CaKCI1jena TepaCI1, y xojy he 3aCaAI1TI1OHOlIlTO )l{elII1 11Y)l{I1BaTI1 y rrlIOAOBI1Ma csora pa,l.la, y ,l.Ienysaurer napxaha, y KOjI1here rrOHeTI1rpa6Ylbe, a saute nere he ca Y)I{I1BatbeMcaKyrrI1TI1 jeceise rnnuhe, na rOMI1ny. Hrpajao ce 6aHKe, nponasaane, rryToBatba, rnenajao cKyrra uprah, aHalII13I1pajMo rnenaac ... 3aMI1ClII1Te, ,l.IparI1 MOjI1, KaKO here 11BI1 11nere Y)l{I1BaTI1I1rpajyhI1 ce canoaa y KojeM ce umjy KprreHe I1rpalJKe I1lII1rrpaBe nanranone, aa saurer MalII1llIaHa. Oxyrnrhere neny pa3lII1lJI1TOr y3paCTa 11036I1lbHO ypOHI1TI1 Y I13yqaBatbe saaara. Iemro nere npana MO,l.lelII1lII1Ba,l.lI1MO,l.lelI113xaconaca, jenao KpOjI1, je,l.lHOupra. jenao umje, urrena ... 0 pe3YlITaTI1Ma He BO,l.lI1Te 6pI1ry. Ba)l{HO je na pe3YlITaT lIMlJM 6allI na nere xoje je 06aBI1lIO neo pa,l.la. Maxte 11BaCrrI1TalJI1u;e rpetia ,l.IarrpeCTaHY ,l.Ianpyxcajy I1lIy3I1jy ,l.IeTeTYna je OHO CaMOCTalIHO, a y CTBapI1, rOTOBO ueo nponee pana cy 06aBI1lIe OHe AOKje nere caao rnenano 11cnpesrano ce ,l.Iaje,l.lHOr,l.IaHa TO nonpazcaaa. Hexa rnana 6YAe 3allII1BeHa aa perr. Bpenal To je cavopan BaWer nerera KOjI1 ,l.IOHOCI1 6e3rpaHI1lJHO 3a,l.lOBOlbCTBOxoje he ce jaBI1TM M OH,l.IaKap;a OBO nerenue rrocraae pomrrezs. Y)I{I1Bahe rana y aecnpernav nOKpeTl1Ma CBor MalII1llIaHa, xao llITO BI1 Y)l{I1BaTey tberOBOM CaMOpa,l.ly, nanac. He lbYTMTe ce aKa saure nere I13HeHa,l.la I13ry6l1 I1HTepeCOBatbe aa aexe OA naaeneuxx aKTMBHOCTM. I10lIlTyjTe tberoBY panosrranocr Aa ocnaja HOBa snatsa Kp03 caMoaKTMBHOCT. Kaxo nere pacre, l1 CTI1lJe crroc06HOCT pa3YMeBatba, pomerezs he nOlJeTM p;a ra
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ou;ec ca3HaBatba MYQetba rrpeKo cnoaceaaje nrpe, YQetba, pa,l.la. Kp03 ~Myn P . ya he ,l.IeTe HayqI1TI1 KaKO ce cnase pol)eHp;aHl1, cnase, KaKO M3rneAaJY KpllITeMfPY KaKO ce rronaurarn Y rr030pI1llITY, 6I10CKorry, Y rOCTl1Ma 11ClII1lJHO. a BeHqaH>a, ' If> ' . na ce CBI1OApaClII1 lJlIaHOBI1 nopomnre seceno, 6e3 ornopa YKlbyqe Y TlOBOlbHO Je Pt P M3I1TI1cY HeBa)l{HI1, saacna je rr03I1TI1BHa eMOU;I1JaKOJa KPY)I{I1I13Mel)y MfPY' eKB aCllMXM,l.IeTeTa. oP;P nO)l{elbHa J'e 11036I1lbHI1J'a rrpI1npeMa pO,l.lI1Telbasa cBaKY on HaBeAeHI1X HapaBHO, rr UMa npe Hero llITO KpeHe I1rpa, pO,l.lI1Telbhe ca AeTeTOM rrpelII1CTaBaMrapa. ,....,aHn , TMJIMTepaTYPY, rnenarx CJII1Ke,rrpI1lJaTI1, clIYllIaTI1 anexaarny My3I1KYIlpnnpeae OHOlII1KO KOlII1KOBaM ,l.I03BOlII1nere. Caanarse nerera 6I1he orpoMhe TpapTn ' 'eHo 6e3 aanopa J'ep je nporxano rr03I1TI1BHI1MO,l.lHOCI1Ma, rr03I1TI1BHI1M oJ HO,a YCB YCJIOBMMa M H>erOBOM,l.I06POBolbHollIny. YBeK My HY,l.II1Te onpehen I1360p I1rapa 11 MoryhHOCT ,l.Iace O,l.lJIylJI1 sa jernry. I10clIe OBaKBe npnnpeae, I1rpa he TehI1 rrorrYT n030pMllIHe rrpencraee. TeKcT, ,l.II1jalI03I1,MOHOlI03I1, rrpoCTo he ,l.IaKlII13e. Jlenory npeAcTaBe YBeJII1lJane ojrrosapajyha rrpI1rrpeMlbeHa MY3I1Ka,a 3a,l.lOBOlbCTBO xoje he OCeTI1TM 11onpacnn 11neua, je OHOllITO he rrOHeTI1 Y HOBI1nan, Y )l{I1BOT.CTBapHI1 Kp03 cycpeT ca )l{I1BOTHOMaKTI1BHollIhy oaorsehe TO 3a,l.lOBOlbCTBO,,l.IO)l{I1BlbeHO
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arpy y paHOM ,l.IeTI1tbCTBY Ilaaac, Ha)l{alIOCT, CBI1HallII1 06I1lJajI1, CBe Hallie npocnase He noce TO Ay60KO aanosozscrao, jep ra ayTOpI1TapHO sacrrararse HI1je onaerosano y ,l.IeTI1H>CTBY, jep je l1 y OBOj 06lIaCTI1 rrpI1cyTHa npnayna 11YClIoBlbaBatbe. Pa,l.lOCTce YBeK ,l.IOHOCI1na cnorsa, noncrxnaaa je CrrOlbHI1M,l.Ipa)l{I1Ma.J130CTajalIo je pa3YMeBatbe, a TI1Me l1paAOCT. Oryna TOlII1KOnymsase, xanaoyxe, rrpernaCHe MY3l1Ke, BpI1CKexoja I1Ma jacny rropyKy Aa je cpu;e 6e3 pa,l.lOCTI111,l.IaMy rpetia noxsoh. AYTOpI1TapHOCT <popCl1pa HI1)1{I1 06lII1K yxersa rpazceha on neue ,l.IaY paHoM AeTI1tbCTBYrrasrre TeKCTOBe xoje aajxeurhe HI1 He pasyvejy. YMeCTOaarrasrhaaaisa rrojMoBa KOjI1cy ,l.IeU;I1 CTpaHI1 11,l.IalIeKI1,sazsa CKOKHYTI1 ,l.I0300 BpTa, ,l.I006JII1)I<lher cella, HarrpaBI1TI1 I13lIeT y rrpI1po,l.ly 11ClII1lJHO.Ilere cnosaaje CnOHTaHO, CBI1M 'IYlII1Ma, 6e3 aartopa, YKOlII1KO je YlJetbe oCJI060l)eHo Bep6alII13Ma. Ko 3Ha KOlII1KO nyra he jour y )l{I1BOTY yqI1TI1 nojaose 1136I10lIDrI1je, reorpadnrje, alIl1 OHa rro-rerua, n03I1TI1BHa eMOU;I1ja,crexeua y paHOM ,l.IeTI1H>CTBY 6I1he HerrpOu;eH>I1BI1xannTall KojI1 he oMoryhI1TI1 na nere 11YlJI1Clby6aBlbY. To je jour jenan KaMeH y revezsy pap;He p;eMOKpaTl1je. . Kap;a CMOKOP; aanaahnaarsa nenosa KBalIMTeTHI1XKtbI1)1{eBHI1X, TeKCTOBa,aapo'II1To n ' oe3H)e, KBalIl1TeTHI1XU;I1TaTa,MI1ClIl1BelII1KI1XlbYAM,A06pl1x 113peKa, nOClIO811u;a 11 6 CBera llITO je y KaTerOpI1jI1 BelJHOr, 3arOBOpHI1K casi na I1X AeU;11Tpe a HYP;~1T11 ' , KaKo p ' MOTI1Bl1llIyhl1 I1X na I1Xyqe uanaraer, na l1X nOBpeMeHO penpoAYKYJY 11 aCTy na 0 tbI1Ma pasroaapaao, na HI1BOYxoje ne re MO)l{ena YCBOjM,,lJ;y60Ke
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aemrxa

YMeTHH'I-

jacao p;a rrocne csera xopa OCTaTH Panocr ot: pana, KOjOM he nere M~IDeBVlTo caananarn jeaxx xana aa TO 6yp;e cracano, CBaKO p;pyro y-ren,e jeanxa KO)e ce CBOP;VI aa rrpmrymro cenerse, rraxosxno cnYIUaIDe, 3arraMhVlBaIDe, P;OHOCH casro rpajna OTrrop, aeycrrex H MP)KIDY npesra pap;y VI yqeIDy. OTrrOP rrpeMa rrpaBOM yqeIDY, y npasoj IUKonVi 6V1he HeMHHOBaH, YKonViKO on nerera, rrpe BpeMeHa npasare ~aKa, na CTapH, ayropxrapmr, npesaaahea Ha'IvtH. Cana
BaM je

xa nena xoja cy MH rrocnY)KHna p;a nOCTaHeM YMeTHHK )KHBOTa. qeMY Mouapr y neneceroj rop;HHH )KHBOTa, aKO HHcaM nocrnrao casrocnoanajy VI caMopeanH3auajy npe rorai Mouapr MH je 6HO npeKO norpefian y paHOM p;eTHIDCTBY, na OqYBa
MOjy xapsronajy, Ha)KanOCT, p;a MH noxrorne y paCU;BeTaBaIDY KnVlL\e Jby6aBH. nmruranax BacrrHTHHX Mop;ena,

naaac y notia npxaene pano onsajasro on IDvtXOBe CYIUTVlHe, KOjOM p;OL\HJ.1je nesrajy norpetiy,

neny

BpJIO

rra THMe VI on BeJIVIKe Be'IHe YMeTHOCTH,

aa

l!HrpaHUlUllHUM

caqpscajuwa

8aCUUUla1-ba HUKaga

nehy

UOCUlaUlU YMeUlHUK JlCU80Ula aacmrraa,e nanaunsoj neusr, Y najpamrjea p;eTHIDcTBY, Hyp;H 6e3BpeAHe caztpzcaje, cxarpajyha na he noha spesre xana he nere MohH p;a rrpHMH BJ.1COKe YMeTHH'IKe spemrocra. qyP;H Me, p;parH MOjH ponarezsa, p;a rrenaroaa HHCY MOfJIJ.1 na CXBaTe p;a 6e3 noopor TeMelba HeMa HH noripe xyhe. Kana Y Moje TeMelbe yrparnrre: Hajropy MY3HKY, BHpTyenHe caztpzcaje nenpavepene 'IOBeKY, KH'I, IllYHP;, a
TInHIUaHo Kvt'I vt IUyH,n;je CBe OHO IUTO saycraszsa MOHvtjy, He MO)KeTe O'IeKHBaTH, He P;YXOBHOCT,OHO IUTO pyIllH CBeYKyrrHY xap-

)KI1BOT JE BEJIMKA n030PHMIJ;A

cuencxo 6Hhe norpe?y,n;eTeTa 3a caxocnosaajoa osor, spno CHa)KHOr narona. CBe IllTO nere casna~eKp03 rnYMY, casaaje na Bpno eMOL\HOHanaH Ha'IHH. Y3 TO je npHCYTaH cavopan
DpvtMeTvtnvt CTe 'IeCTO nOMHIDeM Hrpy Kp03 rnyMy. qOBeK je
~1HMa BeOMa H3pa)KeH HarOH 3a rnYMoM.

na

J1rpoM

Kp03 rnyMy

paaaajasro

na

rrOCTaHeM YMeTHHK )KHBOTa.

nanajre

ce p;a

hy

C Jby6aBJby

npaxaararn

sezrxxa YMeTHH'IKa

OCTBapeJ-ba,

fIlIaHHpa IUTa he p;a rnYMH, CMHIUlba KOCTHMe, npOHaJIa3H peKBH3HTe, cnOHTaHO CTBap a CL\eHapvtO, Tpara aa n03HTHBHHM peIUeIDHMa HTp;.), KOjH P;OHOCH6ecKpajH03a,n; OBOlbCTBO. Ba)KHO je na HHKap;a He 3aBpIUHTe Hrpy, Kp03 rnyMy, a na npeTX,n;HO t HHCTe p;anH nerery IUaHCY na npoaahe n03HTHBHO peIlleIDe naror np06JIeMa.
IT

CBHX )KaHpOBa HnH p;a hy, xana OApaCTeM, CTBapaTH 6Hno IUTa, ceM IllYHAa. AKa . ea MO)y rnaBHL\Y, npaxx cenaxr roznraa, rryaxre BHpTyenHHM cueaava HaCHJba, eeK

o Tp

OTOBO CBa YMeTHH'IKa

nerra HaCTaJIa xao rrpOH3BO,n; ayTopvlTapHe H TeIUKa. AOK je 'IaBeK HMao

CBeCTH Hp;y

ary CTBapHOCTH, a OHa je My'IHa

nonperaeny

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eMOQMOHaJIHY

xapsromrjy

OBaKBa nena My HHCY MHOrO CMeTaJIa . .n;aHac KaAa .

o /IIje 36Yflba A06ap

H spenan,

aJIH HOP;H HYfje npemaer

YfHTepeCoBafba nmnua-

xapsroaaja
rsarry

Y 'IOBeKY rrOTrrYHO HapYlJleHa rroacersrro je H36eraBaTH YMeT je . . Hl1'1l< nena KOP HP;Y rro Tpary PY)f(He CTBapHOCTH, Jep OHa napyuraaajy 110HaKO nOlh a

tJ

xapaoanjy ayne

'IOBeKa.

Y-

Kana y1)eTe Y CTBapaJIa'IKO, aamoj p;eQH nehe CMeTaTI1 Tpap;I1QI10HaJIHTA

)f(ajH, KOjH cYK06

notipa

TI1 sa p;o 6 po, pa3YMeTH ra H

, caAp Baine nere he ce aenorpeuraso orrpeAelh MB~ aa fbera aaha rrOTBpP;Y Y cetia. TaKBoM AeTeTY .
H 3JIa.

Hl1Je

norpetiao

Mefbafbe HeraTI1BHOr canpzcaja H

fiajxe Y rr03HTHBaH. BYK je , BYK ,pxea

THrrCKH CHM60JI aacnzsa BeIJlTa'IKI1 rrpeTBapaTe

aexer IJlTO HOCM orraCHOCT, xera ce sazsa 'IYBaTl1. AKo onaj apXeTl1rr Y nenpaponny cynporaocr, TO MO)f(e 06Jexonpes npM cYCpeHOBa YMeTHI1'IKa crarsa YMeTjep T060-

THBHO HaHeT~ IJlTeTe aauresr AeTeTY, jep he 113ry6l1TH aeonxonaa TY ca "BYKOM Y peaJIHOM )f(HBOTY

,[I Kana YCTaHe on upraha nere npesxpe Honnja, a HMHTHpa fbeMY CJIH'Ior,[leTeTa. M . JI [06nYfHa Yf CBe p;pyre, nerarnane JYHaKe. Jle, rrp06JIeMa ce nehesio 113Byhl1 TaKO IJlTO heMo nerery 'IHTaTH HJIH My J,130Bor Tahe 0 nofipy M 3JIy <pYfJIMOBey KojHMa HeMa smue TOJIHKO MHoro M ' lllTaTYf QP flY . HYfliITa ce 3Ha'IajHo nehe p;OrOp;YfTH. TIpBO rpetia yKHHyTH nmnuane arpeC/IIJe. .. 6 orreJIe BpaTHTM nerery Yf3BOPHYfYfHCTHHKT KOJH onsaja 3JIO on no pa, Bacn/llTHe M M ' . 6po xao HelJlTO ce6H CJIH'IHO. Tana He 6pI1HHTe, Homr nocraje iseros cBaJa ,[10 , . . . Y TT BeHKarra. Ilpecrajy neua na HaBl1pJY sa ByKa. To Je rroxerax spahaisa y30P /II LIP AeTeTa ce6Yf, pOp;YfTelbY .. Ha)!<aJIoCT, AaHalJlfbl1 QPTaDl1, 11aehmra npl1'II1Qa KOJeneua KOH3YMYfpaJY,y CBOM .y noce 3JIO 11casro 3JIO. Ty 'IaK He rrocroja HYf Bl13yeJIHa KOMYHI1KaQl1ja ca caAP)!(aJ A06p/llM. TaKBe caAP)f(aje jeAHocTaBHO rpetia 3a6paHl1Tl1 AeQI1. CTBapaJIa'IKI1 POP;I1rers he YBeK, AOK 'IYfTa, AeTeTY YKa3aTl1 na nOCJIeAI1QenJII111IaHI1XBaCnl1THI1X MOp;eJI.a. He 'IeJIH'IHTe nere crpaxonaraa, KOjl1 cY caMH ce6Yf cnpxa, HJIH cy y <PYHKQHJI1

Ilpen

HOBHM YMeTHHQHMa je BeJIMKH

sanarax, na crnapajy

nena CBHX )f(aHpOBa, Kp03 xoja he npoaejaaarn

n03HTHBHa nyxoaaa

HHKa. TaKBa AeJIa cY H ztanac rrpeAMeT rroruen.aaan,a, xce, HeMajy Ay6HHY. Y OBOM TpeHYTKY 'IOBeKY cY npeKO

oxranoaaacanaisa,

norpefiaa

YMeTHI1'IKa

nena

nop;H3afba ap;peHaJIHHa, p;parH pOp;HTelbYf.

Tparajre aa

OHO MaJIO

xapsionaje

IJlTO

xoja npmcasyjy

rr03HTHBHe eMOQHOHaJIHe onnoce

Me1)y lbYAHMa, HapO'IHTO Y nopo-

je

OCTaJIOy Tpap;I1QYfOHaJIHoj YMeTHOCTYf. TIpO'IHTajTe,

HCITpl1'IajTe AeTeTY, HelJlTO op;rnYMI1-

P;HQH, a 'IOBe'IHH OP;HOCHH

re

KaKO HMajy Ay6HHY. HOBa YMeTHH'IKa nena, canpzcaja KOjH nOp;CTI1'IY

OTITeBajTe, npnnpesorre

ce Yfy1)I1Te y Yfrpy Kp03 rnysry, TIJIHlJlaHY npl1'Iy

Kao IJlTO cy 'IOBeKY norpetiaa

Te na CTBapaJIa'IKI1 Ha'II1H. 3a'Iyp;HheTe ce Kpean1BHOCTYf nerera

xana 6yp;e rparano

na Ilotipo, xoja
nxonaa

cy y CKJIap;y ca OAHerOBaHHM .n;06pOM y HaMa, TaKO je p;eTeTY

neo-

sa n03l1TYfBHl1M

pellIefbeM

xojer

HeMa y illeKCITl1pOBOM

MaJIa rrOpOp;H'IHa rr030pHMQa

na KOjOj he ce rnYMoM p;OJIa3HTH no n0311na nYTY onpacraisa.

Ta MaJIa p;paMcKa

he nac TeKCT, TeK csesce CpO'IeHe lby6aBHe

.Poney 11JyJIl1jl1". 3ap;I1BI1necste, a TaKBa necsia 113JIa311 113nerecarao PaAOCT. Panocr xojy hexo

THBHI1X pelJlefba np06JIeMa pap;HOHHQa paAO he

xoja ncxpcaaajy

ra xana je iseron YM y CPQY. TIOCJIe csera ocraje

TIoce6HY PaAOCT nerery AOHOCI1aKTI1BHOCT

na

cQeHY nOCTaBlbaTI1 11Op;JIOMKeBeJII1KHX, HOBI1X YMeTHI1'I-

cnOHTaHO YHeTI1 y pap;, y )f(I1BOT, Y necsry, y rnyMy, I1Ha'Ie HaM oncrainca

nehe

611TI1.

KHX nerra xoja YJIa3e Y p;y6HHY CTBapaJIa'IKHX onnoca. "U;pBeHKarra" je HCTHHCKa HaHBa y Op;HOCY aa OHY HeraTHBHY YMeTHocT npl1'IY OHa je 6l1JIa YBeK na npl1HQHny

xojy ocraapyje

BJIaCTI1TI1MTeJIOM.

xoja

Pexao caM BaM seh na CTe BI1 113ry6l1JIl1 paAOCT, jep cy BaM HarOH sa TeJIeCHOM
aKTI1BHOllIhy yrYIJlI1JII1. OCTaO je caxro nyKI1 Bep6aJIl13aM na je p;06po nJIeCaTI1, aJII1 He BI1AI1M na saurea Balha C lhy6aBlby HerOBaTH, Kp03 JII1QY op;YlJleBlbefbe. Haute Be)f(6aTI1, TeJIO je 'IylJ,O xoje Kp03 ...

ce nanac Hyp;H nerery,

HapO'IHTO npeKO Mep;l1ja. Kana je Tpap;HQI10HaJIHa nopop;Yf-

ua Hyp;HJIa CBOMe nerery jynaxa

notipor

H JIOlUer

jynaxa . Ileua cY ce HenOrpelJlHBO onpep;elbHBaJIa sa jynaxa csora nooa, noce6HO sa

KOjH je TO 6HO Y CBHM BpeMeHHMa. HHKO HHje CTpaxoBao p;a he nere YfM/IITHpaTH nourer jyaaxa, H3BOPHY 3alJlTO je TO 6l1JIO TaKO? Tpap;HQI10HaJIHa CBeCTje OqYBaJIa

nnec, noxper,

jep;HoM

pexjy

cnocotinocr

notipo,

orrpenen.yjyha

nerery, cnocotinocr ce aa notipo.

p;a irenorpeumao

npenosna

3JIO, aJI/II /II

TEllECHY AKTMBHOCT
ot: xapvoaa]e
na H MoryhHOCT/II ,[Ia

Ha)f(aJIOCT, xana cy na CQeHY CTyrrHJII1 rrJIHlJlaHI1 BaCrrYfTHI1MOp;eJIYf, p;eTe ce nornYHO yp;albHJIO

on

CBOjHX H3BOPHHX eMoQYfja, TIJIHlJlaHO

BeJfC6awu je xpana
non
Pl1HQl1rrl1Ma CTBapaJIaqKOr sacnxraisa, CBaKa TeJIeCHa aKTI1BHOCT, xojy ne re o 6 aSl1 lU y paHOM p;eTYffbCTBYMopa 6l1TH npahena C lhy6aBlbY, panouihy YfyHyTpa1b11M xap . MOHHJOM. KOJIHKO )f(elbe, TOJIYfKOaorse, KOJIYfKOaozse, TOJIYfKOaxaisa,

npenoana
ra ycaaja

noopo.

MyP;pO. Caapesrexo lJlaHOM nerery

nere je nere npenosnaje

rrOXJIerrHO, neiso, arpeCHBHO, 3aB/IIp;HO, KBa3/11 BO 3JIO, xoje je fbeMY CJII1'IHO Yf Henorpelll/ll

H )f(HBYf. Yraphyje

JIeKQHjy 3JIa. 3aTO HeM a HYfKaKBOr

nYCTI1Te QPTah, <pYfJIM,y KojeM

notipo

ana-raja Ka,[la nnW o Tpl1jYM<pyje. To je HeBa)!<!1 .

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KOlIMKO snaisa, He, yHyTpalllI-be

TOlIMKO

axuaje,

KOlIMKO

axnxje

TOlIMKO MCKYCTBa M HO

Be gog

MOTMBaqMje. nOKlIOHM je

ar. -

r]lAC

CBe TO ce MO)f(e OCTBapMTM YKOlIMKO pomrren, peI-be. I1paBMlIa HeM a MHoro. OCHOBHO

nerery

rry6 ,..., OKO nOBe

pap
tl

Bofa, HajJleUUlU gap upupoge

npaanno

na

He yryunrre
'

H MOM, )"-Ie 3a60paBMTM, gparM pOgMTeJbM ,ga CBaK TelIeCHY aKTMBHOCT a HapO'IMTO TelIeCHY Be)f(6y Mopajy na rrpare )f(eJb Y a, BOlha saarse, MCKYCTBO M pag C Jby6aBJbY, y3 naure gy60KO nosepeise TeK r ' . aga TeJIe6 CHe aKTMBHOCTM nocrajy norpetia saurer ne re ra xao lllTO cy My no ' Tpe HM xpaHa MlIM Ba3gyx.

ner ,..., eTY

l

HarO

aa

axrnnaomhy, rrpaaynon, I-beM rronpaacaaarsea ... Ienao He CMeTe

TelIeCHOM

YClIOBJbaBaI-beM

Bep6alIu3

pe

rrpM3HaheTe, KOjM He BOJIM My3MKY. li1CTMHa, CBaKO BOlIM BPCTY Ma 'IOBeKa, . .e y CKJIagy ca I-berOBOM O'IYBaHOM xapaonajox. He Tpe6a HMlllTa na 3WKeKOPJ . tdY eM BM CBe 'IyjeTe. qyjeTe My3MKy naure neue, crryurare My3MKy KOJY OMeHTapwW . . K 6 rra6paJIM. 3aKJbyqMTe KOlIMKO je KO M3ry6MO xapMoHMJY CTece W 0,..., UWaHM nanac ~MHMJIM 'IOBeKY, OTyt)MBWM ra OA BJIaCTMTexapMOIIITa cy TO rrJI n ,..., I " ., . HaJ' caBpweHMJ' er MHCTpYMeHTa ,,6eJIor rplIa , KOJeJe A06MO poheisea. HM HWJeW oor Hwje oqeKMBaO na he ,,6elIo rpno", raj caapmen neBa'IKM MHcTpYMeHT M3ry6M-

pannjyc xperaisa, )f(MBehM y HeXYMaHMM, yp6aHMM YCJIOBMMa, MopaTe nenpecrano MMaTM na yMy I-bMXOBY norpetiy na onaj HarOH OCTBape. Y TOMe sac aehe Crrpe'IMTM nenocrarax HOBqa aa
I10lllTO MMajy OrpaHM'IeH

saute neaojxaue

M nexaua

on

TWCBOjy OCHOBHY <PYHKqMjy ga 6YAe

cpencrno sa

~3pa)f(aBaI-be yHyTpalllI-be

xa~-

MOHwje. ,UaHac je TO JIOW MHCTpYMeHT KOjMM rrOKa3YJeMO KOJIM'IMHY AMcxapMOHMJe WOTyt)eHOCTM OA ce6e caMMX. . CaMO peTKM nanac anajy na KopMCTe OBaJ MHcTpYMeHT. .

xynosany
I1paTMTe

pa3HMX nosrarana,

jep

nere

MMa TeJIO xoje Mopa

rta

Hay'IM

na

KOPMCTM.

nere

C Jby6aBJbY.

CBaKO I-berOBO gY)f(e MMpOBaI-be, ceneise, nonozcajy Tpa)f(M ycrrocranzsaa,e

06aBJbaI-be

A JOw peba

. cy OHM KOJM

caaopana

y onroaapajyhexr

MMlllMhHe paBHOTe-

xao M CBe y )f(MBOTY. OCMOTpMTe KOjM cy MMlllMhM nerera 6MJIM aaraacosana npenyro. Kp03 Mrpy, BeCeJIO,y3 MY3MKY, noxpeHMTe gpyry rpyny MMlllJ.1ha. Ilere he 6MTM 3agoBOJbHO, jep je oCTBapMJIO norpetiy aa peanaaanajosr rraroaa sa TeJIeCHOM axrxaaomhy, a BM here 6MTM nOHOCHM na cnoje n03MTMBHO pogMTeJbCTBO KOjMM here Crrpe'IMTM 6eCMMCJIeHO cxaxarse nerera rro aaxreurrajy, JIOMJbeI-be Mrpa'IaKa, BPMCKY, cyse.
xce. AaKJIe, M MMlllMhM rpaace paBHOTe)f(Y I1JIaHCKM, KOHTMHYMpaHo, CMCTeMaTCKMnoncrn-nrre aKTMBHOCT nerera KOPM-

na ra KopMCTe M na MCTOBpeMeHO MMajy crroc06HOCT na rreCMOM, TonlIYlM peqMMa, npenecy Ay60KY eMoqMjy, na rrpeHecy Jby6aB. PeTKM nanac 3HalIaqKM M cpqeM nesajy, crsapajy MlIM crryurajy My3MKy. OCTalIM MMajy casro Ay60Ky qe)f(I-bY Aa M caMM sanesajy, Ila je T9 MCTMHa xasyjy HaM, CBe xeruha, "yplIaI-ba"
TexHMqKM

snajy

na

KOHqepTMMa, M y rry61IYlqM M na 6MHM. ",lJ,eplbaBe"

na excxypaajaraa
nperise, 3aTpnalIM M na

M OCTalIMM

nparomnoa

npMlIMKaMa,

nCOBKe, oro-

Bapalba, spebarsa,

CBe TO M3lIa3M M3 TaKO casptneaor

J.1HCTpYMeHTa, casro npoMYKJIOwhy,

3aTO jep cy rtmnuamr TlI/lUII/HOM, snypanouthy

6MCTaP M3BOp. CBe ce aaspunr

crehx

lllTO smne

I-berOBO TeJIO M xexajyha,

na

ce ca CBOjMM MMHM nJIaHOM yKJby-

xpajy

TyroM lllTO MX OApaCJIM HYlCY06yqMlIM M3 paBHM Jby6aBM.

na

KOPM-

'IM Y sam rn06aJIHM

rman TeJIeCHMX aKTMBHOCTM.

CTe 60)f(aHCKM MHcTpYMeHT, YBeK M jenaao YCKOpO he My3M'IKM

Ilocefino 06paTMTe rra)f(I-bY aa TelIeCHM paasoj nexaxa. Ilaaac CMO CKJIOHYlga MylllKy neuy rrpeamne CMYlpyjeMo, yrrpaBo y nepYlogy, Yl3Met)y rpehe Yl nere ronxHe, xana My npnpona ytipasraaa orpoMHy KOJIYl'IYlHY TeCTOCTepOHa. IT paanre pa3JIYlKy Yl3Met)y HeBaCnYlTaHOr, arpecasxor nesaxa Yl HeMYlpHOr, npaponao )f(YlBaxHor nexaxa, lllTO je y CKJIagy ca I-berOBOM anpasoa npYlpogoM. ITogcTYl'IJ.1Te ge'IaKe na 3gpaBy aKTYlBHOCT TeJIa, He g03BOJIMTe ga ra He3HaJIYlqe npornace HaCYlJIHYlM. Y rrpOTMBHOM aKO M BYl onanure cMMpyjeTe MylllKO nere, aKO ra npornalllaBaTe HaCYlJIHMM MJIM My He naj 60)f(e najere rrMJIYJIe aa CMMpeI-be, noromrhe BaM ce, Aa he, Y orponaosr CTpaxy, HarrycTMTM MylllKy eaeprxjy Yl yha Y cencxy; npYlpogHo MWPHMjy. 0 rtoczrenrruasra, pa3MMClIYlTe caMM. IT . oCW ... Y)f(HM CTe na csoje nere aay-nrre ga npBo KOPYlCTMAapOBe npYlpoge KOJeH y CBOM TeJIy. Ienaa on TYlX naposa je ...
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xana sa TO cracajy crnapanauxe nopoztanojrohy KOjMX he M pOAMTeJb M nere MohM caMOCTaJIHO na nopane na CBOM rnacy, y TeXHMqKOM CMMClIY. Ee3pa3lIO)f(HM cy CTpaXOBM CaAalUI-bMX MY3MqKMX nenarora KOjM TBpAe KaKO ce rnac He CMe "lUKOJIOB UM " Y paHOM geTMI-bCTBY. Hexa caaysajy re reopnje aa M3Y3eTHe TalIeHTe, a MMJIII/ OHM neue M pOAMTeJba Mopajy A06MTM MoryhHocT aa caMoeAYKaqMJY. KaKO 6M MOrJIM na paaanjajy jenaa OA aajjasnx aarona y 'IOBeKY, MY3MqKM HarOH. ~a~ ce TO 6YAe AorOAMlIO, a MCTOBpeMeHO ce onpenenare. AparYl pOAMTeJbItf, a. TBAPAJIAqKO BACI1li1TAI-bE, noronnhe ce -ryno. YHYTpalllI-ba xapxicIiMJa Tp to. . a)f(Mue CnOJbHy. CnOJbHa he naha yHyTpalllI-by Itf 06pHYTO. Ko 3Ha HMJe JIM CBaK M 'IOBeK M3Y3eTHO MY3YlqKM TalIeHTOBaH. Barsa CBaKOM qOBeKY narx ue,
CTBapaTM MY3MqKe rrpaKTMKyMe UJaHcy , Aa TO nposep.

nenaroan,

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KaKBa je Barna ynora,

npara

ponxrezsa,

Y paaanjaisy

My3M'IKOr

HarOH a BalUer

nererar
Kan ron aac rrperrnasa q
MM

Jby6aB,

Panocr,

clI060,qHO 3aneBa)'Te CBOM My

nere MO)f(e na aac pasysce, OTKpMjTe . . aajcxynouenajer MHCTpYMeHTa.

aaasaj

,qeTeTy .

MlIenOTY OBor'

Ha)lIenlU .
'T' .

er,

CMCTeMaTCKM, nlIaHCKM ,qOBOlbHO na nere 6y,qe noxpehe cpue M reno. Y'IMTe

paasnjajre nerery yHyTparnfuy npMjeM'IMBO sa xapMOHM'IHy

3BYKe

xapMOH cnOlbHY

M)y. 10)e Ben My3MK .

y KO)a

e rrpMMe ca urecr ronaaa y My3M'IKy uncorry, Moxcna je saure nere M p;eTe H a J(o 5 . rr rrpMMlbeHor xoje je MMalIO casro cpehy ,qa HeKO nopanx aa OBOM TOBaHM)e 0...., . 'falleH . CaMO rrpaTMTe sauie nere, rrOM03MTe na OCTBapM.Ha)BMrne eTJ1'IKe M,qea,J.. 'IKO 3rrpaBlbe, CTBapalIa'IKY MHTelIMreHU;J1)y J1'IOBe'IHOCT). Ey,qMaaroHY Jo'f){0-'t'M3M ...., lie ( IIC 'e TaKBO nere aa rryTy ,qa CTBOPM aajsehe My3J1'IKO neno, y3 Barny PHJ.1p;a ) ...., . ry Te CU "OBeK he npso 6MTJ1 YMeTHJ.1K )f(MBOTa, a MO)f(,ll;a he y neneceroj on TaKaB -, (lOM . na Hay'!J.1 na CBMpa KlIaBMp MlIM ,qa ce npMKlby'IM HeKOM xopy. J..fHJ.1 rrO)f(elIeTn ...., rOP; TpeHY TaK )'e ...., na HerrITO Ka)f(eM M ..
TA

)f(y60p pexe , , XyK BeTpa ... illTMTMTe sanre nere on 6YKe CBMX BpCTa, a fue je y M306MlbY Y . 'IMTe ra ,ll;a y)f(MBa y TMrnMHM, Ka,q ron MMa npamnce. na ocnyurxyje no)' rrrnua Y'IMTe nere na xyaa
M

nere

npapone:

o OCTAJH1M
Vi
ABaAeceTor

YMETHOCTJ1MA
ce 'Iy,qe saurro fuJ.1XOBaneua He xplIe y sarprsaj op;yrn~BlbaBa~a.
p;elIM~

aeryje CBa csoja 'IylIa. Y'IMTe ra na He KBapM cBoje CPMHe

HM BM KBapMTM npMHy,qOM M YClIOBlbaBali>eM HM rrpernxa. Je,qHOCTaBHO, Tpe6~ pO,ll;J.1TelbM J.1 rrpocpecopM Ma Tpap;J.1QMOHalIHeYMeTHOCTJ.1,xoja cy fuMX caojeapeveao

MexaHM3Me, TaKO urro MX nehere

Y'IMTe ra na MY3MKa He 6y,qe HM npernacaa, y)f(MBaTM y CPMHOMocehaisy Mepe.

Kpaj

nexa

y6p3aHo

pyrnM OHO MallO yHyTparnfue

xapnonaje

urro )e OCTa-

CBaKY Mrpy M TelIe.CHY aKTMBHOCT 3a'IMHMTe ,q06pOM MY3MKOM.

06pahajTe' ca,qp)f(aj

no y 'IOBeKY, napyurana
reauxje,

paBHOTe)f(Y M3Meljy paQMOHalIHe M eMOQMOHaJIHe J1HTeJIM-

na pexa KO)e npare necve, arpajyha ce, MefuajTe

na)f(fuY
HMX My3M'Iapa

My3MKy.

CBaKM HeraTMBaH, He'IOBe'IaH

Y KOPMCT HeraTMBHMX MMCJIM M HeraTMBHJ1X eMOQMja. YMa Y CPQY HeM a,

M CBa AeJIa lbYP;M,

y n03MTMBaH, 'IOBe'IaH. CBaKY KYKli>aBY MO,ll;epHapO'IMTO TaMO rne je MY3MKa panocna, a pa31I03M Tora MMa y M306MlbY,

Jby6aBM M ,[(06pOTe carao y TparOBMMa. CBe axunje npennaszseaa

yrnasnoi

cy

3aMeHMTe panourhy,

HeraTMBHMM CTafuMMa Ayxa J.1 HeraTMBHMM, MCKpMBlbeHMM, HaCJIOeMoQMjaMa. J1 OHMX ,qpyrMx MMa, MMa cTBapa-

a TeKCT nperryn PO,ll;HOj cnoja, cy J1MaTe lIM

ryre M 6pMre. nejacna.

osor

HenpJ1-

jeHnM, rroTMcHYTMM, aarnasrsemoa

naua rrererov,
YKOCBM nOpO,ll;M'IHM

Be'IHMX Bpep;HocTM, 6MJIO MX je YBeK M AOCTyrrHMja cy amue Hero MKap;, aJIM HJ1KOMM He XpJIM y aarpzsaj. O'IYBaHa

npnnaxe

sa XOPCKO nesaa,e, YKlbyqMTe ce ca CBOjMM

nanac fuMX HMKO He norpetiyje,

CaMO y ,ll;BaAeceTor

lIMKO CBM 'IlIaHOBM BM 6Mhe

npanx

yxorrax

noponaue nopane na CBOM rrracy, M aa nere M 3a CBe aac. npen expan

ca xojer ra rypajy y TaMHM annajer

cxyno-

neny
M

YMeTHOCTM, HaYKe J1 npMpop;e

je

XapMOHJ1ja,

aa xpajy
CMpTHMX

rrO'IeTKOM 21.

sexa. Ileua npepaao

YJIa3e y caM ennuearap

He cranzsajre 3aBMjafue, Ee36poj

ra npeaxure

MO)f(e 'IyTM car-to KYKfuaBY,

rpexosa, rra je JIOm'IHO nrro 0p;6Mjajy Be'IHY YMeTHocT. He npenoaaajy

CTM.v136pMcaHe cy y fuMXOBOM M3BOPHOM 6Mhy. ,neJIa Tpa,ll;MQMoHaJIHe YMeTHocTM xoja cy MIliJIa rro rpary npona3HMX Bpe,ll;HocTM, nanac cy ca npespeisea mnali>a caBpeMeHor 'IOBeKa. TaKBa

re spermo-

pexa xoje

...
canpscaje,

rryra

caM nOHOBMO na

pauaonanae
onnoxorre

nocerino,

aKO MX He

)f(MBOTa, naxne, AeJIa

npare

M3BopHe esroun]e

nerera,

aa KacHMjM neo ,ll;eTMfuCTBa ,qeTeyxen,e

My3M'IKMX

0,q6a'IeHa jep He najy onrosope

M

ua

ra,

CBe My3M'IKe urxornrue

M CBaKO

npepaao osor

MHCTpYMeHa-

nena

yqeHMQM 0p;6au;yjy

rrpep;MeT cy fuMXO-

ra HMje notipo aa rr03MTMBaH paCT nerera,

MOHOTOHMjy M MoryhHOCT raurersa

axo rronpasysresa
rrpenaanor Y)f(MBajTe.

orrMCMefuaBaH>e,

BOr rrO,ll;CMexa. Hapaano

na TaKBa nena noce M OHTOJIOIlIKO, Be'IHO, y CBOjMM neno-

BYlIKaHa. J1rpajTe

ce,

BlIMa, aJIM HM 3a TMM nmnuaae

renepauaje

aesrajy norpefiy.

neaajre,

rnrunere

TeKCToBe, xoxrrronyjre,

ITpaBa YMeTHOCT, xoja HOCM xapxionajy, CMeTe 3a60paBMTM ,qY)f(HM CTe ,qa

je BplIO MonHO cpencrao CBOM ,qeTeTY

sa ,qYXOBHJ1
To He

pacr neue. My3MKa je CBaKaKO na npBOM MeCTY, jep je HajMpaU;MoHalIHMja.

He npaB,qa)Te .

paanajere

osaj

CHa)f(aH HaroH.

ce KaKO HeM are HOBQa aa KlIaBMp, BJ101IJ1HYJ1ClIJ.1lIHO. He 6pJ..fHJ..f

CaBpeMeH 'IOBeK, JiapO'IMTO nnmuaae reaepaunje, Tpa)f(e caapesreny "YMeTHOCTY Kao nyr KOjMM ce nyHM nanerourhy MJIM npa3HJ1, ua onpehen Ha'IJ1H. caBpeMe na YMeTHocT je MaXOM BMpTyenHa, HeraTMBHMX canpxcaja M xao TaKBa, npenp eKa)e AYXOBHOM paCTy. ClIM'IHO npJ1BJIa'IJ1 CnM'IHO. ITJ1TaTe ce 3allITO neua, ,ll;OKnpe L BpllY TB xanane, npecxa-ry rrporpaMe HaMeH>eHe AeQM. MMa MX, Ty It! TaMO. A nM TaK BM nporpaMM cy HaMelheHIt! p;eU;1t!J13 notia Tpap;MQIt!OHanHe noponnue,

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,[IeQM, nOCJIe,[lMQMCaMO ,[IBa cnorsaunsa ayTopMTapHa BaCnMTHa MOAeJIa Ta 1; I<BeAe ,[IaHaC HeMa. To cy 6MJIa neua xoja cy MOrna,[la npenosaajy M pa3ABO)'e ~e . I<YI<Olb0 )KMTa, 6Mpa)yl'm )KMTO. Caspeaeaa neua 6Mpajy KYKOlb, 6Mpajy nporpavA HaMelhe He O,[lpaCJIMM, lbY,[lMMa MCKpMBlbeHe CBeCTM,jep cy nJIMWaHa neua npepaH . 0 nOC'ra_ na fuMMa HalIMK. A xana nopacry CTBapa)y, sa HOBe, jour orybeanje rea .' epaQl1je JOW rope nporpaMe, )OW ropy YMeTHOCT. ' a BM I1MaTe xroh ITa M Aalbl1H_ CKM ynpaBlbaq yncrpetiare MlIM He. Crsapanasxa nopomma He O,[lYCTa)'e OA CBor nOTOMCTBa. ,lJ;~lIa3M BpeMe BeqHMX Bpe,[lHOCTI1 11CTBapaJIaqKI1 ponarezs he Hanl1 To He rpetia Aa aac 3a6pl1fuaBa. OHM npaBe nporpasre
'

o EKOJIOfMJM
H HUUlUta6aj upupogy! To je snawe exonotuje. e Ja :eJYWM uOUlpe6y ga YHuUlUla6aM upupogy!
To je eKOJlOUlKa ceeciu.
lIl1 MOJ'11Hl1 nOJIa sexa, KaKO CTe ce KynaJIM y 6MCTPl1M pexava 11 HeMa TOMe , Ml1 , ce CKpl1BalIltf OA CyHQa pa3MltfUllbajynM 0 030HCKI1M pynaMa, HI1CTe nOTOQI1Ma. Hl1je 6l1JIO OBOlIl1KltfX eKOJIOUlKltfX xaracrpotpa. KojMMa je 'lOBeK je,[lltfH.ltf Y3PO'lHltfK. 3ap je Moryne na He Ba)K11BMUle naponna HMje". 113peKa:

Ha'll1Ha na CBO)e nere ysene, npso

lbM na BPlIl1HCKOM nYTY, a nOTOM

y xapaomrjy,

na ra BpaTM M3BOPy, Aa ce yTeMe-

he

casio nere

npoiraha

nena xoja MMajy Henpo-

lIa3HY Bpe,[lHO.CT. OHa cy Ty, na nnoxa casto nexe Ca)TOBe aa MHTepHeTy. ranepxje

)KI1BOTa. HMCTe MX npMMeTMlIM? OTBOpl1Te

[OMl1lIe BpeAHOCTM, 'll1TaBe 6M6lIMOTeKe, CBe

CBeTa cy aa je,[lHOM MecTy, CBM BeKOBHM CBeTI1 3anMCM, CBa nena A06pl1x nYQaTe M y6MjaTe, 11,[Ialbe CTe na I1rpMQaBasra npncrajy J1[PE. 3anJIe-

lbYAI1 ... , a BM 11saure nere M ,[Ialbe caao Ma.

Hrpaue

HMCY sa xoaexa

rpeher

MMlIeHl1jYMa.

WMTe ca BeqHMM BpeAHOCTMMa, a OHe cy y nasra M OKO sac, CaMO YKMHMTe Ka3HY M Harpa,[ly M ,[IMjaMaHTM, yHyTpawfuM M cnozsaunsn

he

3acMjaTI1. YKOlIMKO ce, ,[Ipam MOjM Xapsronaja

.Ko

ce CyHQa KpliI)e 60lbe na ra BeTpoBM, ropnana, orpost-

IIlTa he ce AeCMTM y OBOM aaxyysry?

HMWTa TpamqHO

Oranatse

nena aa nononaraa,

QYHaMM opxaacxa

P 0,[1111' elb 11, onpe,[leJII1Te aa CTBAPAJIAqKO ycnocTaBlbaTM

BACl1J1TAIhE.

he

ce

He KOJIl1'lliIHe na,[laBI1Ha, rrormase,

3eMlbOTpeCI1, BYJIKaHltf, CTpax,[la CaMltf crsopanpapony

lIaKO M 6P30, HapOqMTO aKO KOpMCTMTe y HOBOM BaCnMTaJ-bY,YMeT-

Me QPHy pyny Y Ilepny M He YCl1caMO QelIY 3eMlbY, ce6e. ,lJ;alIM je Moryhe

HOCT y KOjOj je OqYBaHa xapaoanja. l1MTaTe ce Aa lIl1 nere rpeoa 'lYBaTM non CTaKlIeHMM 3BOHOM, He ,[I03BOlIMBUlM My

11xoaexa, xao nena re npxpone, M3lIe'lMTI1? Haxana Me,[lMQI1Ha Hl1je 611JIapa3BI1jeHI1ja Hero nanac. HI1Ka,[la BI1Ule 60JIeCHI1X Hero naaac. CBe BMUle 11amue HOBMX 60JIeCTI1. H1'I.qOBeK CBe clIa6Mjl1. Y Haj60lbeM Mp)I(fua, naxocr, H1'IeMOQMja. l.\1'IHexoja cnyxajy

Aa KOH3YMMpa OHO UlTO KOH3YMMpajy JIOBaTI1nere. pM MMajy

iserona

BpUlfuaQI1. HapaBHO Aa He rpetia M303aUlTO

Onaocn
He

Me1)y lbyp,I1Ma cy

sarabejep HeMa

Ilere norpetiy saur

Mopa na pasyae

OHO UlTO rnena, na paayve

iseroaa

,[Ipyra-

y lbY,[lI1Ma 6eCHe CTpaxOBIiI, noxnena,

aa TltfM UlYHAOM, a UlyHA je CBe UlTO saycrasrsa paCT 'lOBe'lHOCTl1. ,[10M, aatue nere

3aBMcT, 3JIO. Y najropea

cnyxajy

nocroie

HI1 onaoca,

AKO sexae HM HanYCTe

YMeTHOCTM, y )KMBOTY

TM 3JIO xoje rnena, amr ncxpaezseae Xapsroaaja

he

6MTM y

saurer nerera, 6Y,[le y M306l1JbY, aKO nrnnnanehe 6MTM 3aBMCHO 0,[1 uryana, aehe MMMn1panpe,[lHOCTM jep he pa3YMeTM ,[I06a y xoje )KMBl1,
M npolIa3HocT csera rora. ca,[lp)KajeM, [lOKpe-

Oryheise

on ce6e, p,pyrMX lbYP,M, npapone.

HeM a Te 06lIaCTIiI Me,[ll1-

he

nOBpaTMTltf sepy 11noaepeise xoaexa

y Bpep,HOCT )KI1BOTa, aKO My ce KOjM je 113r~-

Taj )l(I1BOT orarnso.

Besycneumo

je JIe'lltfTI1, na CTapM HaqltfH, onora

norpefie
se-me

CBOjMX ,[Ipyrapa

6110 CMMcao )KI1BOTa. qOBeK KOjl1 je 113ry6110 CMltfCaO BlIaCTMTor )KltfBOTa He xaje aa CBoje 3ApaBlbe, 3ApaBlbe npyrnx IiI nnanere. .

YMeTHOCTM, ca CBOjMM

craapana-nooa

nyhe saure
CTBapaTl1

nere Ha paCT, na CTBapalIaWTBO,

3apa,[l paCTa npyrnx,

sapan cpenH~1-

je 6Y,[lynHoCTI1. BM

here

I1MaTM

cpehy,

6MneTe CBe,[lOQM HOBe YMeTHOCTI1 KOjy lie

CMMcao )KI1BOTa ry6ltf casro qOBeK nOTnYHO napyurene xapMOHl1je, 'lOBeK KO)11 H1'IH . C pltf e 3Ha na ce PO,[l110ca KlIMQaMa lby6aBltf 11,lJ;06pOTe. qOBeK KOJeM cy ltf K BlbeHI1 CBI1 M3BOPHltf HarOHI1, CBe 1iI3BopHe eMOQltfje, craapa )!(I1BoTa, 116aBI1 ce 6e3ycneUlHo casro "lIe'lefueM"nOCJIe,[lltfQa, nl1Talh eo CMI1CJIYnocrojaisa. J1Ma lIM M3JIa3a? CBaI<o KpeTafue y 3a'lapaHOM TapHI1 c I1CTeM BMwe He nocroja, xpyry aYTopMTapHocTM, CBaKl1 Bep6alII13aM 6eCMI1ClIeHe YCJIOBe nocne xera clIep,11

neua

onaeroaaaa

OHaKO KaKO npe,[llIa)Ke CTBAPAJIAqKO

IhE. EMne TO YMeTHOCT xoja CTBa. YMeTHOCT

he

BACnJ1TATork YBeK 6MTM y <PyHKQMjliI n03ltfTMBHOr paCTa nO

he

6MTM Cpe,[lCTBO KOjMM

a 'rana HM jerrao ,[IelIO yMa, cpQa M pyKy

he aehe

'lOBeK nocrajarn

YMeTHI1K )Kl1BOTa, jep yM l1 CPQe

6MTl1 npOTMB xoaexa,

y BpeMe xana aYTopl1-

aehe

6MTM y

csaha. Bnhere

Eory HalIMK.

l1 artemr na ce )KI1BOT M opa

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BOJIeTl1 11uemrrx na ce BpCTa MOpa npOAY)KaBaTl1, He BOAe perneI-bY np06neM: a. qOBeK Mopa xpa6po na l1CKOql1113 3aMKe y xojy je ynao. Dpl1XBaTl1Tl1 CTBAPAJIAqKO BACDJ1TAfhE aaaxx: 6p30 ycnoc . TaBlhaibe yHyTparnI-be xapMoHl1Je y CBaKOMqOBeKY. CaMO TaKaB qOBeK ce aehe Bl111Ie . . nWra_ Tl1 0 CMl1CJIY)Kl1BOTa, Jep Je CMl1cao casio nocrojaise. Carao TaKaB qOBeK h 6 '6 6 e 11"1'11 HaJ Olhl1 Bl1Aap ce 11,Apyrl1Ma 11npl1pOAl1. qOBeK HOBe eKOJIOrnKe CBeCT'Kce Bene anemoaa 60pl1Tl1 sa snpaazse, nehe MopaTl1 na yql1 KaKO npora aJIKOX " ' OJIy, U;l1rapeTl1, npepanosr ceKCY, na xaxce: "HE ! . qOBeK HOBe eKOJIOrnKe CBeCTl1J' "h 6' e 3p;paB qOBeK." 3 eJIeHl1 e l1Tl1 CBl1lhyP;l1, Jep he l1MaTl1 ,,3eJIeHY" CBeCT. CaMOYl.IeI-be, caMOaKTl1BHOCT, casroofipasoaan,e l1 caMOBacnl1Tat.Le "-' 0 TBOPI1_
l

he HecJIyheH~ n03l1Tl1BHe MoryhHOCTl1 qOBeKOBor YMa xoje he YBeK 611Tl1Bol)eHe cpu;eM, ca KOJl1M~e 6l1Tl1 y XapMOHl1jl1. qOBeK je AOCTl1raO snan,e KOjl1MMO)Kena OTBOP" BpaTa paJa, EAeHa. qOBeK l1Ma npaso Aa Y)Kl1Bay AapOBl1Ma npl1pop;e, ami y TOMe Heh~ ~cneTl1 AOKX~PMOHl130BaHe exrouaje He npMMe YM y sarprsaj. 3a cana Je Ja3 orpoMaH, Jep nznnnaaa CBe pasnaajajy, cBYAa npane <PpoHToBe rra 11l13Mel)y cpna l1 yMa. YM KOjl1 Hl1je y cpu;y pann rrpOTl1B AYXOBHor pacra qOBeKa. 3ap he qOBeK rrponycrxrx nraacy Aa OCTBap" paj na 3eMlhl1, a carao l13 Tor paja h~ ce noaesara ca DorOM l1 AYXOBHl1MBl1Cl1HaMa? Hl1KaKo. Apam MOjM,oaor TpeHYTxa peuare CTBAPAJIAqKOM BACDJ1TAfhY: "AA"! TeK 'rarra je Moryhe ycnocraazsarse nsryozseue yayrpaunse xapnoaaje yqOBeKY. De3 ynyrpaunse xapxonaje xonexa HeMa ycrrocraszsan,a xapxroanje y ApyrnTBY l1 npnpona. Ilapuajanaa nesoaexaa, TIJIl1rnaHa, l1CKJh)"Il1BOXeAOHl1CTl1qKaCBeCT,rrap~"jaJIHO J1JIM Hl1KaKO,peurasa CBe, rra 11eKOJIOrnKenpotinexe. Casro craapanasxa CBeCT Je u;eJIOBl1Ta.AYTOpl1TapHY CBeCTnarsa cnozsa YQl1Tl1KaKOna 'l)'Ba ce6e l1 TIJIaHeTYon ce6e. Craapanaxxa CBeCTHeMa norpeoy p;a aarahyje rrJIaHeTY,jep ql1CTOrpaxca ql1CTO. Craapanaxxa CBeCTje y CTBap" eKOJIOlliKa CBeCT.KJIl1U;yeKOJIOlliKe CBeCTl1,xojy AOHOCl1MOpoheisea, Mopa p;a paaanje l1 yHarrpep;M CBaKl1 qOBeK rpeher Ml1JIeHMJYMa, a npesacxormo

vql1Te M 0 HOBl1M M 0 CTap"M 60JIeCTl1Ma. IToKyrnaBaTe na A06Mje ohHo p;a J -' ~aliOIi anl1 heTe reunco y TOMe ycrreTl1. TpeHYTHO CBM HaCTOJe na y6eAe l1 snpase 'l"e'l"p1<Y, e6a na vxe l1 OHM CaMl1 M Tl1Me onaxuiajy nocao BaMa nexapasta. JeCHe, 1<aKO Tp 60n n030p"TM Aa HMje np06JIeM y I-bl1XOBOM He3HaI-bYlbYAl1 napyureue MopaMBacy . . HOCTaBHO He ocehajy norpeoy, He reace p;a 6YAY snpaaa. DJIl1rnaHM OHl1JeJeA xapM CKpMBl1nl1 CBe llITO ce l1CKP"B"T" Momo. DOJIaKo no-nose na ce l1 p;pyrl1 cy M tf OH OCHOBHl1HarOH sa caMOOAP)KaI-beM. qOBeK je no-reo na ce rnrra 0 M 1<0P; qOBeKa raC TOJ' aI-ba y ornuresr 6eCMl1CJIY,a llITO AOHOCMHOBe 60neCTl1, qeCTO Mcny CBor rroc . eM 60paTOp"J'aMa 60JIeCHl1X YMOBa. Caspexeaa qOBeK nOCYCTaJe nOA aqMJbeHe y na . h Ii 6 CMl1CJIa KOJ'Mcrnapa nJIl111IaHl1, sacrpaurenn yM, 3aCTparnYJY l1 CBe TepeToM e , e 01<0ce6e, xpaHehl1 ce CTpaXOBl1Ma p;pyrl1x. AP~M P;OKTOP", y'-ll1Te lhyp;e na ce 60pe npOTl1B uarapere, aJIKOXOJIa, p;pore, He t. J'e qOBeKOBa norpetia sa cpep;CTBl1Ma 3aBl1CHOCTl1orposraa. To cy l1M enYTellM na . 06JIl1u;l1 npa)KI-beI-ba KOJa ce6M MO)Ke na rrpnyurra caspeuena, nanenpeoCTaJIn TM qOBeK. CeAehe Ml1pHO aa <pyp;6aJICKOMrepeny, B0311he xerpnecer na car, aKO Tpe6a, aKO TaKO 3aKOH Tpa)Kl1, aJIM My 3aTO nehere Mohl1 OAY3eTl1 npory, YKOJIMKO OHop;peAl1 na je TO rseros nyT rrpaxoseisa. Cpencrna 3aBMCHOCTl1cy nyT M Haq~H na ce Mcnpa3HM orposana HaneTOCT, HaCTaJIa xao nocnenaua HapYllieHe xapxroaaje. Tponnrre xaoro 3aJIyp;Hl1X "IaCOBa, ynoaaasajyha lhyp;e ca <paKTOp"Ma pM3MKa on 060JIeBaI-ba, y"Iehl1 l1X3p;paBMM CTl1JIOBl1Ma)Kl1BlheI-ba, y6el)yjyhM l1Xp;a npl1Me Ba!<QMHe,p;a Y3l1Majy JIeKOBe, KOjl1jenno JIe"Ie, a paaoonesajy npyro. Pap;l1Te'npeKOMepHO,a MaJIO sac KO cnyura. He cnyurajy aac lhyP;l1 jep CTe KOP; I-bl1XM3ry6l1JIl1 aYTOp"TeT, a OHl1 CaMl1 M )KeJIe na 6yp;y 60JIeCHl1, jep je l1 60JIeCT BMP; npa)KI-beI-ba
M u

J1EKAP
Ilpara qMKa AOKTope,
TM 11Tsoja KOJIemHl1u;a CTe BpJIO Ba)KHMqJIaHOBl1 Moje noponnue. De3 sac Hl1caM Morao Aa yrnenaa CBeT,a MOjOjMaMl1CTe OJIaKllIaJIl1MyKe. Mopav rrp"3HaTM Aa 11 MaTe Te nyae PYKe rrOCJIal1na BaM mlje JIaKO.DOJIeCHl1Xl160JIeCTl1 je CBe Bl111Iel1 3aTO MOpa
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HarreTOCTl1, nyT l13JIaCKa l13 6eCMl1CJIeHOr )Kl1BOTa. HH Bl1, Hl1 OHl1 ce nehere nosreprrra ca nO"IeTHe Ta"IKe. OHl1 he peha ApOrl1, uarapera, aJIKOXOJIY:"He"! MO)Kp;a?! Hanerocr paCTe l1 p;alhe l1 xana npOBaJIH, npouahn he lhyp;l1l13JIa3. MO)Kp;a y cexcy, MO)Kp;ay cnopry, MO)Kp;ay TYQl1, MO)Kp;a y pary, y npetipsoj BO)KI-bl1,y ycaspuraaaisy xaxepcxxx seurrana, y caj6ep ceKCY, YeneKTpOHCKOM l1 OHOMp;pyroM Kp"Ml1HaJIY, y eKCTpeMHoM cnopry M HanOKO!I y 60necTH aa KOjy Bl1 nesrare JIeK. JIeK je lby6aB y noponnua. CXBaTMTe na aaurn nannjearn He MOry O"IYBaTl1 l1 yaanpennra 3p;paBlhe, P;OK He YCBoje npHHQl1n Ay60Kor pa3YMeBaI-ba na cy ITET ayTopMTapHl1X, BacnMTHMX MOAelIa,Y3POIJ,J1 CB'l1Xaaunrx l1 I-bMXOBl1X MyKa. KaKBa je ynora JIeKapa y )KMBOTYcaapesreaor "IOBeKa? CBl1 "IlIaHOBl1Moje nopomrue na M Bl1nexapn CTe npoM3Bop; avropxrapne nopoAI1u;eH BI1 xao 11 CBM OCTalIl1 l1MaTe rrmnuaay CBeCT. Bona nac l1CTl1Ha? J1 Tpe6a AaBac6' OlIH, MO)Kp;a he nac BJIaCTl1Tl160JI nOKpeHYTl1 aa aKQl1JY. . BM MopaTe 6l1Tl1 rrpBH KOJl1 ' h e nOAp)I(aTl1 ysoheise CTBAPAJIAqKOr BACITJ1TAfhA y nopop;l1u;e
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caBpeMeHor CBeTa, jep CTBapalIa'lKO aacmrrarse npencrasn,a npov oQI!!)y . 3g I!!lby 6 aBI!!. BI!! here 61!!TI!! rrpBI!! KOjl!! he y BnaCTI!!TI!!M noponauasra ,........ rrO'leTI!! ca paBlha BOM rrpl!!MeHoM. 3auITo? CaMO OBO sacmrrau,e he y BaMa ycnocrasn Ihero_ . rux~M~' y aauroj noportnux, y opnaaauaja. CaMO lIeKap, caspureae CTBapalI ~)y, . a'lKe CBee MO)Ke rrOMOh I!!rraQI!!JeHTY ga OCTBapl!! BpxyHcKe eTI!!l.J:KeI!!gealIe: T~, I1CI!!XO-<p1!!3I!!'lKO 3gpaBlbe,

Crsapanaxxy
qOBe'lHOCT.

I!!HTelIl!!reHQl!!jy I!!

HI!! jegaH lIeKap He 6J1 oaeo . ga J13J1l)e rrpeg CBOJ' e nauaj enre ' a ,.... TTaH e HOC~ y ce6~ OBe BJ1COKe eTJ1'lKe J1gealle KOJJ1rronpasyaeaajy caBpllIeHY yHyTpa llIfuY xapMOH~_ i" JY. 3allITO. CaMO lIeKap KO)J1 HOCJ1 snpasrse, gy60KO noaepeise y Ce 6 e J1 )KI1BOT . . ' MO)Ke noaohx rraQJ1JeHTY. . . CaMO pe'l TaKBOr lIeKapa nezry] e lIeKOBJ1TO na rraQI1)eHTe CaMO nexap KOJJ13Ha Ta)Hy gy60Kor pa3YMeBafua gy60Kor rroBepe=a' TaJHY gy 6'0, It.) ,

3MTIiIBHIiIX,Begplilx, Cl!!ryPHI!!X Y ce6e, 3a6aBHIiIX, 3ajegHI!!Qa lbyglil IiITIBMX,rro . 6 HO 3agoBOlbCTBO. Y !lellaC lbyTTI!! KOJ'l1pag gO)KIiIBlbaBa)y xao rroce a3YMeBafua, ,.... JlytlMJ( P . POTTIiIQIiI, pag je IiIrpa, a IiIrpa pag. lbyglil cy CTpnlbl1Bl1, xpearnaaTIa'lKO) no ,.... IT A"I C .. "fBap TTyxa CBaTIa)KlbIilBIiI Y )KIiIBOTY, jep )KI!!BOTYYBeK Ka)KY: ,,1-'. CKpM'laBor,.... , .' lIl'l, U TIa3e TelliKohe )'ep He snajy urra Je TO noxnerta, 3aBIiICT, rraKOCT, hOM rrpeBa31i1 ' 1Ial<0 TIeH>OCTTeTIa iii gyxa, oTyl)eHocT ... CBeCBOCT, KOJ'nopoglilQIiI HeM a <PPOHTOBa, HeM a CyKO 6 a, He Tpa)Ke ce KPJ1BY CTBapana'l 31i1TIiIBHe60p6eHocTIiI sa caMooCTBapeH>eM, caMopealII!!3aQIiIJoM, . 0 VlMa caMO rreM Kp03 lby6aB iii ,1J;06pOTY. CBIiI 'llIaHOBIiI nopoglilQe Ul1 cy CPQeM OCTBapeH> caMO 31i161i11IIiITeTY I10TOMCTBA iii H>eroBoj norpeo na OHO 6yge snpaOKpeByTIiI ceB KpeaTIiIBHO iii 'lOBe'lHO. BO,CTBapana'lKa rropoglilQa je HajrrpJ1jaTHlilje MeCTO sa csaxor 'lna~a, rne ce CTBa-

aiy HajMaruToBIiITliljlil rrporpaMl1 P

)w TOTAJIHA

KJ1X rrapTHepCKJ1X onnoca,

lbyge

rajay CTBapafua rr03J1TJ1BHJ1X eMOTTJ10HalIH X onaoca J1 rr03I!!TJ1BHI1X YClIoBa sa )KJ1BOT nauaj etrra , caao TaKaB lIeKap Mo""e TT "" ,....arrOKpeHe
U Yl

I1E,1J;AfOfJ1JA, g061i1jajyhl1

aa rr031i1TIiIBaH paCT cnaxor. ~O .)e MeCTO rne ce KOjOM ey 06yxBaheHIiI CBIiI,Y KO)O) ce CBIiICAMOnoaepen-e, y raxnoj rropoglilQl1 nocrajy
HeMa nena-

~ACI1J1TABAJY,

gy60KO

na 3gpaB CTJ1lI )KJ1Blbefua. TaKBOM lIeKapy ce sepyje 6e3pe3epBHo. He rsyrare ce, gpam MOjl1, alIJ1 J1gealIHa ClIl1Ka 0 3gpaBcTBY J1cBeMY llITO gP)K11 nor-

roruKor "llIKapTa". I1opoglilQa je MeCTO rne ce rpeunce YBa)KaBajy,

rrYTOKa3, rrpeBa3vllIa-

rropHe 311goBe 3~paBcTBY je rrolbYlbaHa. I1pJ1'fa 0 CaBpeMeHJ1 CaBpeMeHJ1

notipo] HaMepJ1 CBeTcKe 3gpaBCTBe-

ae ce, Torre iii 1i13paCTajy y ycrrex. Y CTBapalIa'lKoj

noponau ce y'll1 YMETHOCT

BACa

He OpraHJ13aQJ1)e, 0 <papMaQeYTCKoj J1HgyCTpJ1jJ1 J1lIeKapJ1Ma je rrpJ1lIJ1'fHO cyMopHa. lIeKap Mopa na geMJ1CTJ1<pJ1Kyje CBOj 3aHaT g061!!jeH llIKOlICKI1M ga ce cavoerryxyjy. ce YBepefua ga lIeKap Mopa na ce BpaTJ1 KOpeHJ1Ma ocnofiahajyha CI1CTeMOM J1 na HaY"IJ1 csoje rraunjeare

)l{J1BlbEfbA. Ilparn MOjlil, ga nl1 nocne csera, MO)KeTe na ogonlilTe CTBAPAJIAqKOM nJ.1TAfbY? Ynora MaMe 11rare, y CTBapafuY OBaKBe rropogl1Qe l1Majy 11 ... je orpOMHa,

spno

suaxajuy ynory

KlIaCJ1'lHa Megl1QI1Ha J1Ma penrerse sa CBe. Jlexap Mopa YBa)KaBaTI1 J1 gyx J1 reno xoaexa, OgHOCHO QelIJ1HY. ,1J;OK rpajy aYTOpJ1TapHJ1 MogelIJ1 sacnararsa J1 nyura ~1 rerro he ce pa3601IeBaTJ1. AKO ce oKpeHeTe CTBAPAJIAqKOM BACI1J1TAfbY

onpenemora CTe ce aa snpaarse J1 rryure J1 rena. ,1J;01Ia3J1 BpeMe xana he Haj60lbe nnaheaa lIeKap 61!!TJ1 onaj KOjJ1 y CBOjOj opgJ1HaQJ1jJ1, rOTOBO ga nexa rraQJ1jeHaTa, jep cy CBJ1, 60ry xsana, 3gpaBJ1. BJ1 TO )KelIJ1Te, sap He?! BJ1lIeKapJ1, xao J1 npo<peCOPJ1, BaCrrJ1Ta'lJ1, cBeruTeHJ1QJ1 ... MO)KeTe J13HegpJ1TI1 ...

BAKE 11;rI:EKE
Ilociuanuiue uopogU1iHO 611aio
Apara 6aKO 11nexo, nocetino ce otipahaa I!!rara page, 11TaTy. He najre ce! He g03BOnl1Te

sana, jep on sac MHoro O'leKyjeM. Masia nanny ua sac, gOK MOjl!! ponwre-

y )Kyp61i1 cy, xao I!! Blil nexana. He o-rexyjea na Ml1 3aMeHl1Te MaMY

na 06aBe3e

CTBAPAJlAqKA
IbeHO

nOPO;rI:11IJ;A

lhl!! )l(I!!Be HeKI!! CBOj >KI!!BOT,xao na IiIM ce Hlilje gorogl1no geTe. He rrpey31i1MajTe 06a Be3e, jep nehere g061i1TIiI O'leKI!!BaHY 3aXBanHOCT, a OHI!! ry6e urancy aa CBO) . n0311Tt1BaH paCT. Og nac O'leKyjeM na MI!! 6ygeTe CTBapHO 6a6a I!! nena, BI1 iii ja CMO y ClIliI'lHOM n01l0)l(' aJY. J a cax HeMohaH I!!3aBI!!CI!!Mon gpyrl!!x, a aac, aexana crpore iii Ba)KHe lhyge , n OKywaBajy na narrpane TaKol)e 3aBI!!CHI!!M. Y TOMe he I!!ycnerx, YKOlIliIKOce - 225-

epesce

UAeKgOlla3u

CBaKI1 'lOBeK, y I1Me csor rrOTOMCTBa, Mopa rrO)KelIeTI1 CTBapalIa'lKY rropOgMQY 11 pealII130Ban1 je. OHa je aajenrorua clI060gHI!!X, crrOHTaHI!!X, rrpIiIPOgJ-U<OC, - 224-

He YKlbY'UtTe y CTBapaJIa'IKO J1 n03J1TJ1BHOr YCJIOBlbaBafba.

BaCIU1Tafbe. KpeHJ1Te

Ia caM saura uraaca.

aa nyT CTBAPAJIA

O.n;pe1V1Te ce npl11i BACITJ1TAI-bA

Y.n;e

qKOr

,aaHac
/Xpa fJtl

ce MallO

KO OUlUMa

3a "uOpOgUtfHO

tinato

Y)f(J1BajTe y MeHJ1, TaKO 6J1na. He

here

J1 ce6J1 J1 MeHJ1 oMorynJ1TJ1

caMoCn03Hajy

J13BOPIiO~

rtsasrrre

MaMY J1 TaTY CBOjJ1M )f(J1BOTHJ1M J1CKYCTBOM, jep a

OHO je np0l13_

. peMeHl1 rrJIJ1WaHl1" ponxrersx, He TaKO .n;aBHO, y .n;06a Tpa,n;J10)11 caB , " 6 . M rropo,n;J1l~e, ce rOBOpJ1JIO: "Aa 611 ce onrajano jenao nere, norpe HO)e Jby,n;J1

BO.n;aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1, rrpBJ1 BeK. fIpBO

iseroao

BpeMe

rrpOJIa3J1,

J1 ca fbJ1M He MO)f(eMO y.n;Ba,n;eceT J1 rrpJ1HU;J1ne CTBapaJIa'IKor Bac-

UJtloHall::JIO".

snpase naaern

cy 3HaJIl1 ,n;a he

YCBojJ1Te HOB 06JIJ1K )f(J1Blbefba

mrrarsa, a nopomorno

rrOTOM 6JIaro.

here

rrOCTaTJ1 HaWJ1

najnpaxos

capa,n;HJ1U;J1 y rropo.n;J1U;l1, lialUe

3a,n;J1BJ1neTe

CBOjJ1M HOBJ1M 06JIJ1KOM CBeCTJ1 ce6e,

MeHe, MaMY J1 TaTy. TeK no.n;

sac rrpnxaararn xao capa,n;HJ1Ke, ueaehn aaure npO)f(J1Blbe_ He ronmre. On nocannax, I,IaHfpJ13aBJ1X CTapau;a KOjJ1 ce yrpxyjy na rrorrpaBlbajy MJIa,n;e, OCBojJ1Te rajne .n;y60Kor napr.repcrsa J1 rrOCTaHJ1Te neo nopoznorae u;eJlJ1He. [a caM saura manca. YHYU;J1 cy sanra uranca na ce saure HeOCTBapeHe 6e3YCJIOBy3 fbJ1XOBY nosroh. HJ1je KaCHO sa He norperie, BaWJ1 HarOHJ1 CAMOOCTBAPE, J1CrrpaBlbafbe rpewaKa xoje CTe Ha'IJ1HJ1JIJ1 y BaCrrJ1TafbY saure neue, He nonasn.a]. re J1CTe rpeurxe ca yHyU;J1Ma. Ca HaMa xpehere y .n;YXOBHJ1 paCT. Baxo, rrpenycTJ1 wrropeT MaMJ1 J1 CTPJ1HJ1. Ilorrycrn .n;a CBJ1 Y)f(J1BaMO y fbJ1XOysrehy, He JIOBJ1 rpeurxel CaMO urazsa ,n;y60KO nOBepefbe. He BOM xynaaapcxoa JIJ1WaBajTe CBOjy neuy nparn MOjJ1, Y)f(J1TKa na yxecrayjy y rr03J1TJ1BHOM pacTy cnoje neue. He 0.n;y3J1MajTe J1M 3a.n;OBOlbCTBO pomrrezscrna. Bawe je npowJIo. EYAJ1re 6a6e J1 nene. Jlenora )f(J1BOTa y noponaua 3aBJ1CJ1 on CBJ1X, a norrpJ1JIJ1'IHO on aac. EJ1ne MHoro TY)f(HO aKO OCTaHeTe J1CTJ1 xao y MJIa.n;OCTJ1, CTpOrJ1 J1 aYTOpJ1TapHJ1. [our je rope aKO YCBojJ1Te rrJIJ1WaHY rrpJ1Hy.n;y J1 no-nrere BewTO .n;a je npJ1Mefbyje're, Ha.n; CBJ1Ma HaMa. Hesrojre Hac rr03J1TJ1BHO YCJIOBlbaBaTJ1 BaWJ1M rreH3J1jaEJ1ne TparJ1'IHO aKO, Hac YHYKe, HaCTaBJ1Te Ma J1 J1MOBJ1HOM xojy nocenyjere. na npeaaurrnhyjere on pa.n;a J1 pe,r...l, nonsrehyhe neha, sa CBaWTa J1 rrpaB,n;ajynJ1 Haw 6e306pa3JIYK TJ1Me WTO CMO jour MaJIJ1. EJ1ne jour TY)f(HJ1je aKO rro,n;eTJ1fbJ1Te, noaaozsaaajyha MJ1 na rrpaBJ1M rrrynocrn, rro.n;CTJ1'IynJ1 CTBapafbe <PPOHTa . He J13Mel)y MeHe J1 pornrrezsa. ITpJ1Hy.n;y J1 YCJIOBlbaBafbe 3aMeHJ1TJ1 aHapXI1)OM, [a )f(eJIJ1M craapaise rr03J1TJ1BHJ1X onaoca, ja )f(eJIJ1M rr03J1TJ1BaH 3Ha'IJ1 Jby6aB. pacr aa CBe Hac. 6Jtlne Kpeaere JIl1 OBl1M KpeaTJ1BHJ1M rrYTeM saute rrpJ1CYCTBO y rropo,n;J1U;Jtl Henena panocr CBJ1X. Kana 060JIJ1Te, oaeuohare, nerosaheao aac C Jby6aBlbY
MO ,n;03BOJIJ1TJ1 na onere y xnanae CTapa'IKe .n;oMoBe, J1JIJ1 .n;a nac neryjy

OBJ1M YCJIOBJ1Ma CBJ1 he

'IJtlTaBO I1'IHO ayTopl1TapHe CBeCTI1, JtlMa ,n;eJIJ1M ) ca TbyA' 11 (a YBeK I1X je 611JIO HapO'IJ1TO Mel)y 6aKaMa J1 .n;eKaMa , aJIaqKe CBeCT , ' ajtiorse y fbJ1Ma. Y Tl1M cycpeTI1Ma je CaCBJ1M HOpMaJIHO Ma CTBap . 3eTJtl OHO WTO )e H YBeK y BpJIO nome noj ase, rrOHawafba, xao nocnenaue aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1, ere BJtlA" 11 .' 6 rr 6 Aa A aHO BI1We ycsa] aTJ1 J1 J1MI1TJ1paTJ1 nofipo, )ep )e 11 casto JIJ1)f(e 1-'.0 pOneCllOHT anJtl HO)' rrp l1pO.n;J1. 3HaJIl1 cy HaWI1 crapn na cy 6aKe, nexe, rrpaBO nopoJtl xao Jtl3BOp T , . he CBO)'OM My.n;powny, CBOjl1M orpOMHl1M l1CKYCTBOM, nOMaraTJ1 AJtl'lHO 6JIaro KO)e nOTOMll;J1Ma

nere y 6pOjHl1M KOHTaKTJ1Ma, J1JIl1 y KOHTaKTY ca peTKl1M lby.n;J1-

na

113paCTY y OCTBapeHe

lby.n;e. rpernKe,

EaKe J1 nexe cy y MJIa.n;OCTI1 rrpaBJ1JIl1 Mo.n;ena HJ1cy 6 n . )'OW ropa Hero nOCTa)aO cy ""JIa BeJIl1Ka

rryraisa,

aJIJ1

caao nsa

BaCrrJ1T~a

nperrpexa

,n;a ce rpeWKe

J1CIlpaBe

y CTapOCTI1.

Hexo
.

)e
.

y MJIa.n;OCTJ1, aJIJ1 Behl1HY cy 'II1HJ1JIJ1 My.n;pJ1 CTaPll;J1 KO)11

csoje

rr03J1Tl1BHO

I1CKYCTBO npeHOCI1JII1 HeWTO He06J1'IHO,

aa

rrOTOMKe.

AaHac ce Aoral)a

HeWTO WTO je Hen03HaTO

renepauajaaa

T~a-

.n;J1U;J10HaJIHeCBeCTJ1. MJIa,n;11 po,n;I1Telbl1 cy npBe

naaac, 6ap OHI1 y 3eMlbaMa y TpaH3J1ll;J1)11, reaepauaje xoje l1Majy cehaise na Tpa.n;J1ll;110HaJIHe Bpe.n;HOCTJ111 J1CKYCTBO ynorpefie KJIaCI1'IHe Ka3He 11 nene peQI1 y nacmrraaarsy. Cehajy ce [acunx npaanna J1 Ha'IJ1Ha .n;pecype, A onna, y TpeHyTKy
nocToje, ,n;a ce 'ra

HJ111ITaBJ1We HJ1je KaKO

npanana ycsoje. xana nocrajy 11 CaMJ1 ponarersn, nexana 6ejawe. Krracxxna Ka3Ha je aa

Hl1WTa

smue se-me noiue

He

saxor,

3a6pafbeHa,

Bpe,n;HoCTJ1 J1 Herr~ona)ep cy

aJIJ1 ce He MopajyYCBojJ1TJ1,

HJ1 )f(J1BeTJ1, HapO'IJ1TO aKO cy

3He. CBe ce MO)f(e, J1aKO HJ1je CBe nJIl111IaHJ1 yBpHyJIJ1

KOPJ1CT. CBe ce MO)f(e J1 CBe JIOwe ce Mopa,

cse noopo

y HaWl1M nOTOMll;J1Ma,

re

J1X 6aw

TO

npJ1BJIaQJ1.

JtlHMe.n;JtlU TellO CKe cecrpe. qOBeK CTBapaJIa'IKe CBeCTJ1 je CBJ1Ma .n;par rra 'IaK J1 onna xana MY tIOBeJ< 060JIJ1 J1JIJ1 ce npJ1rrpeMa sa CMpT. OCTBapeHa nynra je MJIa.n;a J1 CBl1Ma .n;para. J1CTJ1HCKa A06poTa je CTBapHO rrOpOAJ1'IHO 6JIaro.

apexe y KojeM )f(J1Be, OH J1 iseroaa nOTOMll;J1. OCJIynorpetie J1 3aXTeBe BpeMeHa J1 CBeMY ce rrpJ1JIarol)aBa~ J1 AaHac npl1JIarol)aBa, He 6J1 JIJ1 onrajno nOTOMKe KOjJ1 cy no.n;06HJ1 BpeMeHY y KO)eM >l<l1Be. CTapJ1 pomrren.a, Tpa.n;J1ll;J10HaJIHe CBeCTJ1, cy MOmJ1 6J1TJ1 carao on KOPJ1CT . CJ1l1, )ep cy yrrraBHoM, npe'IJ1WneHJ1 OA HeraTJ1BHOr )f(J1BOTHOr J1CKYCTBa, rrpeao JIlt C . 6 i1 AaHac cene na rrpeHoce nOTOMll;J1Ma casio BeQHe Bpe.n;HOCTl1. Be ro je J1JIO HJ1 .n;ell;J1, HJ1 po,n;J1TelbJ1A Kopl1CTlt J1.n;eU;J1 J1 MJIa.n;J1M po,n;J1TelbJ1Ma. Ilo nenaano
O.n;YBeK je pOAJ1Telb npaTJ10 lliKl1Bao je J1 ocrryuncyje Ma Hltc Y CMeTaJIJ1 Tpa.n;J1ll;J10HaJIHJ1 6aKa 11 nexa. }:(aliac je cacBl1M npyra-raje. MJIa,n;J1, nJIJ1WaHJ1 pOAJ1TelbJ1 BeOMa QeCTO He A03BO3 .e TO lLaaa)'y . npl1cTyrr csoje MaJIe neue, CBO)J1M OCTapeJIJ1M po.n;J1TelbJ1Ma. aWTO J

'Il1ja je HapaB

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TaKO? MlIa,n;11 pO,n;I1TeJbI1ce nrraure n0311TI1BHOr yrnuaja KO)'11 he 113Bpllll1T . . 11CTap na MlIa,n;e, na neny, To )e 3,n;paBO) naMeTI1 npOTI1BHO, amr Hl1je npOTI1BHO 11 . . n1HtlUa HO) ayropnrapaoj CBeCTI1. Ilmnuaaa CBeCT ce aajsmue nnaunr pa31111'll< . LTOCTI1 HJiI)e 'ly,n;HO xana MlIa,n;a MaMa xaxce: "JeCTe,n;a cy yrauaja fipojaax upraha .11 . ,cepl1)a JilrpJilQa, HeraTJilBHJiI, I1CTJilHa)e ,n;a HeraTJilBHO yTW-Iy aa nonauraise nerer ' . M a,I1CTI1_ aa )e ,n;a neua Ylla3e y BJilPTyellHy 3aBI1CHOCT, amr aKO ja Moje nere 1I11llll1 . M OBI1X canpzcaja, ~aK~ he 6Ji1TJiI ~pl1xBaheHo y rpynJil, y aprnhy, lllKOllJil, aehe 1I11ra rp rra 0,n;6aQJilTJiI)ep )e ,n;pyra'lJilJI1, 60JbJil, xapMOHI1'lHJiljJil?" y

Craje nax on OBaKBor passcnuzsaa,a, Ilaraise je KaKO he rezs xan cyTpa iseroso nere 6y,n;e 601lecHo, 3aBI1CHO, xana
I1lllKOlIY,

raiJ PO,n;I16y,n;e npesapano 3Hatbe

pa3MI1WJbaTI1

xana
je

6y,n;e y Mapl1xyaHJiI, KpJilMJilHallY, ,n;a1IJi1 he ce Ta I1CTa MajKa TeWI1TI1

JilCTJilHOM ,n;aje Poznrrezs cy nnmnaaa

sehaaa neue TaKBa JiInrra ce Ty noaeo aa CBeT nere JiIonrosopan aehnaa.

saurro

MO)f(e. je

aa

tberOB )f(JilBOT.Ha)f(allOCT, r,n;e

Ty HeMa CBeCHOCTJiI,Ty HeMa HI1 o,n;rOBopHOCTI1, Ty I1Ma casro

norpe-

"M cTBapVlMa. qJilM je ca neceproxr 3aBpllleHo, caaxa je,n;HVlM MVlroM QJilOHallHY' J(oaseH a)'e no aaaisa na je CBaKJiI611Ji1)f(JiI KOHTaKT ca ,n;eKOMnenoacezsan. M 6 eQY' JaCHO,n; J(yIl}1 ,n;. nexa 3aMOllJilO na je,n;HOMHe,n;eJbHO6y,n;e ca ,n;eQOMY npJilPo,n;JiI, no . 'fa) Ji\C'fJi\ M . J{aAa Je. opeHoM nsj aBOM ,n;aOHa He )f(ellJil na OH BPlllJil 6Ji1110KaKaB YTJilQaJ 6}1JeH ca O'fB . . oa Y rpe,n; ,n;eKa je 6V10 cjajaa npoecop Tpa,n;JilQJilOHallHe nncone KO)JiI)e Hy,n;eQY 3 . 6 aa tbe. pauaje KO)'JilMace ,n;PYlllTBO nOHOCJillIO. Iberosa nartsa je nna 6 O)He reHe ..,n , }13Seo p. ie Morao nOMJilpJilTJiI,n;a xynyje Jby6aB yHyKa JiI cnaxe pyqKOM, MHa )ep ce HJiI) . 6 orpo J'e J'emror ,n;aHa OCTaO nOTnYHO 6e3 tbJilX. 11 TO My)e JillIO naxme Me'fKOM Ji\3aTO . }1 . )'enano nrro ce He MO)f(e KynJilTJiIJe Jby6aB. . p Je 3Hao,n;a M .' Je )f(eHa J'e umpoa OTBOpJillla spara CBOjOj Ma)QJiI, He caao lllTO Je TO Ta Ji\C'fa Mllaga . . 0 J'e pe'l 0 )f(eHJiI xoja ce nOTnYHo YKlIonJillla JiIYCBO)JillIa caspesreae tbeHa MaJKa, Be nxe BaCnJi\Talba. Ilnmuana 6a6a, xpaHVI, 0611a'lJil, ClIY)f(JiI,oncnyscyIllIJilIllaHe 0 6 1I 6 3 Ka3HY JiIaarpany hYTKe, TpnJil CBa nOHVI)f(etba cavo na VIce .e pJilHTaqJil, a CBe Y ' J ' . y3 CBO)'y rre'lJilQY. ,lJ;onylllTa ,o;eQJiIna care nposone y3 TB. y3 KOMMallO orpeplla M

;e

6e ,n;a ce 6y,n;e JilCTI1xao

noasozsanajy ,n;eQI1 KOHTaKre ca 6a6aMa HapO'lJilTO OHI1M 06pa30BaHJilM JiI onaeroaaaaa na spen- . HOCTJiIKtbJilre. CBeCHJiI Jby,n;JiIhe spuurra n03Ji1TJilBaH, yTI1Qaj na neiry, HerOBaTJiI y tbJilMa KlIJilQYJby6aBJiI JiI,lJ;06poTe. A urra he neua ca apenaocrxaa xoje naaac HJilCY na QeHJiI, MJilClIe MlIa,n;JiIponarezsx, a norsphyjy JilM JiI neua, ,lJ;eQa he JilXY WKOllJ1 J1CMeBaTJ1, rosopahe ,n;acy peTap,n;,,n;a cy urrperiepn, a TO 6J1 Momo 6Ji1TJ1K06HO aa tbJilXoBy,n;eQY. CTapJ1 he neuy ynyhJ1BaTJ1 aa Ktbl1ry, jep saajy ,n;a ce je,n;J1HOKtbJ1rOM, npJil'lOM JiIJby,n;CKJ1M pa3rOBOpJilMa pasnaja KlIJ1Qa CBeCHOCTJ1y CBaKOM nereTy. Crapn ocehajy na BJ1pTyellHo JiIKtbJilra Mopajy 6Ji1TJiI y paBHOTe)f(JiI, a nO)f(eJbHO je BJ1We KtbJilre on BJilpTyellHor, rOTOBor npoassona, KOjl1 He pasnaja CBeCHOCT,Ben OrpOMHI1M 6pojeM BJilpTyellHl1x J1HOpMaQJilja craapa "My,n;por"MlIa,n;or "CTaPQa", KOjJil cTBapa JillIy3Ji1jy naMeTI1. To xax HJ1 naaer HJilje. To je nyxo MeMOpJ1Catbe J1 nanarajcxo noaasrsarse nayseaor, He caaaajaor, He npO)f(JilBJbeHor. Ponnren, he pahe OCTaBJilTM nere BJilPTyellHoj rYBepHaHTJiI Hero naMeTHJ1M, My,n;pJilM ,n;eKaMa JiI 6aKaMa. He narepecyje JilX HJiI orposnra narrsa CTaPJ1X Jby,n;JiI KOjl1 Y TJilM ro,n;I1HaMa nonexan, je,n;JilHJiI CMI1CaO BJiI,n;e y CBOjJilMnOToMQJilMa. Kaga npnnonaao JilCTJilHY na tbJilXOBJiInOTOMQJiI napacrajy y OKpYTHe JiInOXlIenHe BJilpryezme jyaaxe onna je narrsa CTapJilX HeOnJ1CJilBa.
HaM je MlIa,n;JiIpo,n;I1TeJbJil He YHYQJiI, y3 no,n;plllKy po,n;JilTeJba, lIaKO 0,n;6aQyjy 3a )f(I1BOTa BJiI,n;ecasro tbJilXOBe CTape, 'leCTO VlXnpe3Ji1py JiIY tbJilMa BJiI,n;ecasro HaClIe,n;CTBO xoje he JilM npl1naCTJiI

Carta

jacaaje JiInenaxa,

njYTep, y3 npernacay My3Ji1KY fne,o;a JilXKaKO mmrra He yse, a

nponase Y uncona. onCJIY)f(YJe npJilBaTH~ npo<pecope, a BJiI,o;JiI na 6Ji1CBe TO Moma neua ca~a. ~e TaKB~, Y tbJilMa He OCTa)e HJ1 y TparOBVlMa. Je,o;VlHJiI rpar je neo n.eae neH3Ji1Je KOJJiIOCTaJe Y tbVlXOBJilMuenomora
JiItbeH orpoxraa ycnoB pa,o; 0,0; xojer HJilKOneaa JilCTJilHCKe KOPJilCTJiI. . }J,aKJIe,peq je 0 ,n;pyraqJiljeM OgHOCY JiInpaxaaran-y,
HJ1

cepnac 6aKa JiI,o;eKa,y3 JegVl,o;a ,o;eJIyjy VlJIJiI Metbajy ~JilJIO

na

6y,o;y tbJilXOBJiIP060BJiI, 6e3 MorynHocTJiI

san,a, 6e3 MorynHocTJiI na ce noscane KaKO JilMje reunco na TOnJ1KOpa,o;e, JilJIJiI He na] 60)f(e na he nap nana 6Ji1TJiI O,o;CyTHJiI, jep xopaly nexapy. BJ1,n;eOHJiIMHoro JiIMetbaJIJiI 6Ji1MHoro xana 6Ji13HaJIJiI JiICMeJIJiI,aJIVIhyTe sapan MpBJ1Qa Jby6aBJiI xoja je CBe caao Jby6aB HJilje. Haxana Heoe ,o;06Ji1TJ1 HVIje,o;Hy peq 3axBallHOCTJ1. A JiIsaurro 6Ji1xana cy ,o;VlpeKTHJiI cayxecaaua y 3aycTaBJbatbY gYXOBnor pacra CBOjl1XnOTOMaKa. I10,o;CTJiI'ly napa3Ji1TJil3aM, JIetbOCT TeJIa JiI,o;yxa, noxaeny, arpeczjy, a sa TO ce HJilKOMeHe xasce XBaJIa, na 3BaJIJiI ce OHJiI6aKa JiI,o;eKa. HajnO)f(eJbHJilje cy npxcehe 6aKe JiI nexe KOjJilcy y 6Ji13HJilCYJiI KOjJil aa 6aHKoBHI1M pa'lYHI1Ma JilMajy MHoro onora urro caBpeMeHa noponaua BOJIJiI.A aKO BOJIJiI HOBaQ, onna "BOJIJiI" JiI onora xojrr HOBaQ ,o;OHOCJiI. PeKOX "BOJIJiI", aKO je TO Jby6aB.

WTa lllTO BJiI,o;e na He

He

MewaJY ce ,o;I1peKTHo y )f(JilBOT MJIa,o;JilX,lllTO BJiI,o;eHe BJiI,n;e,UlTO -ryjy He 'ly

J'y .

KOTII1KO HOBQa, KOJIJiI~Oncrrytsenxx xcersa, TOJIJ1KOg06Ji1jajy "Jby6aBJiI", KP03 HeKOTII1 0 . KO MI1HYTa naxcn,e. J1etbJil, HeCBeCHJiI nOTOMQJiI nO'lVltby ,n;a ce nOJilCTOBe YJY ca :anI1TaTIOM, nonoacajesr,

nocne

CMpTVI 6aKa VIgeKa.

yrnenoa

6aKa JiInexa, KopVlCTehJil J1tbJilXOB HOBaQ YltbJilXO-

neaaaje,

MaTepJiljallHY KaKO npl1npeMJ1

KOPI1CT VITOMe ClIJilqHO. He,n;eJbHVIpyqaK, CHaJ'a

Ienaa nexa

MJiIje

nna-ryha

otijauneaaao

VICVlHnosone

neuy

TeK nourro

je CBe aa CTOlly. YmaBHoM

ce sa CTOllOM npJ!l'.Ja 0

Mon 11yrne,n;. A CJilPOTJiIHe saajy na ce CBe MO)f(e KynJilTJiI JiI HaCJIe,o;JilTVI, casro caMOo . CTBapetbe KP03 Jby6aB JiI,lJ;06pOTY, caMO MYlp nyure JiITeJIa ce He xyrryje, ,0;0 Tora C e Mopa ,n;OOJil CBOjJilM)f(JilBOTOMJiIpa,n;oM.

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CBM )f(MBe y MJIy3MjM

p;03HaJY p;a cy InMXOBM HecpeTHM nOTOMU;M CTpap;aJIM y npe

na

je TO nyT CaBpeMeHe nOpOp;Mu;e, CBe P;OMOMeHTa P;01< lie BO)f(InM y6 , 111I11 06JIMKa, aaj-reurhe OA Apore

6'P30J

. p HHJ'e TBoJ'e JI,eTe". qecTo '-IyjeM KOMeHTap MajKM 0 nporpecopJ{osaTJII Je .. y . OHa KPMTMKYJ' e MeHe M MOJe JI,eTe, OHa, KOJa HeMa neu . II HTaqHu;aMa. " . J(arda, sacn 06ap npeAaBa'-I, anM A06ap nacnarax HMKaKO", AOJI,ajy 3nypaJI,0 MaJKe J(p~T~ .Ao)l<e6~T~ A "X naMeTHMX )l(eHa, a CBe cy pacne y Tpa,o;MU;MoHanHMM nopol"f Horo 3penn , . ac Aatl M HeMaJ'y CBOJ'yneuv fuMXOB HarOH sa BaCnMTaH>eM Je spno Tajy HeYAaTe H i-'o J' . AJfUaMa,oc 6 HO cene TTa noxoray y oArajaInY nOTOMaKa CBOJMXHaJ6nMM one Hece H'-I Ctla)l<aH JiI cne Y TpaAMU;JilOHanHJilM nopoJI,Jilu;aMa, y3 caao ABa nacnarna IloUlTO cy pa 0 )I<~' . nexo 3TTpaBJilJ'H Ha'-IJilH sacrnrrarsa OA nllMllaHMX MaMa. He M OHe JilMaJY JI,a a rdOAen , U;JilOHaIlHO cy nOTnyHO ypaBHOTe)l(eHe, KaJI,a npnnaae JI,eTeeanHe, eMO cy Bpno P nyr MaJ'KH MMaJ'y ceharse na BpeAHOCTM TpaAMU;MOHaIlHe JilC eMOTMBHe no, . Ty, H Y TTHOCTMcnpesose cy na BacnMTaBaJY rOTOBO na crsapaJiI e na Be'-IHe spen ' nopOA U; , pa TTOCII0601)eHe 6pOjHMX 06aBe3a OKO neue, OHe HM ce M' KJiIHa'-IMH, Tpa)l(e peJI" na'l. Jby6aBM M C panourhy, ,il;eu;a MX BOlle H nOllTYJY, allM caMO AOK nocBenYJY ca nYHO . n nox nnHIllaHM He MCKpMBe CBe JI,06po Y InJilMa ... cy JaKo Ma u n, M U CT TaKBJilM reraxa pOAHTeJbH CBeCHO YPYlllaBaJY aYT.oparer, TBpAena)l(ano , . q hJil Aa cy KOH3epBaTHBHe, na neua Mopa na )l(MBe xaoc, Jep TaKO )l(MBe CBH. eCTO KX npen p;eu;oM oMalIOBa)l(aBajy oponaue
M vcnesajy

aexora npaao

Y T)"IM MJIM nOCTaJIM 3aBMCHMU;M,6MJIO xor

6a6e M nene cy 6MJIM aexana npaBo nopop;Mt{HO 6JIaro. MHOfM cy 11IT Maliac xoje ce HMKO He OTMMa. HeKH cy ce YKJIOnHJIH y caa peMeHM nJIMllaHH TpeHp;, OHH p;06PM, MaJIH JbYP;H cy ce orpuymr CBOjOM naTi-bOM Ilaxne, nopop;Mt{HO 6JIaro 0

YHYU;M cy HM p;aJIeKO, y Tyl)MHM, MJIM TaKO 6JIM3Y, aJIM cy sese nOKHp;aHe. Ha)f(a~ JIOCT, Bpe~e oryheise Ha rrnmnaaor sacnararsa je p;OHeJIO oryheise y uenoj notia. nopop;HU;H, na 11

Mel)y reaepauajasra,

KaKBO He naMTH HH jenao y KojeM he crsapanaxxe

cpehy JI,OJIa3Mspeste
reaepauaje

nOpOJI,Hu;e no HOBO rneJI,aTH aa

aajcrapxje IlC:

xao na HCTHHCKO nOpOJI,Ht{HO 6JIaro. na)f(InY nOCBeTHTe TeTKaMa xoje OCTaJI,Ollle Hey,o;a-

MOJIMM aac JI,anoceriay

re, KojMMa )f(HBOT He nOJI,apH nOTOMKe.

Behnaa

InHX cy npaBO nOpOJ1,Ht{HO6JIaro,

xao M 6aKe M JI,eKe,jep cy TO JbyJI,MTpaJI,MU;MOHaJIHeCBeCTM KOjH ca JI,a aanpase CKOK y CTBapaJIat{KO sacrrrrratse.

naxohos,

Mory

Baxe,

JI,eKe, HeYJI,aTe TeTKe cy 6MJIe

OJI,YBeKMCTHHCKO nOpOJI,Ht{HO 6JIaro, y TpaJI,MU;MOHaJIHoj nOpOJI,HU;M.fOBOPHJIO ceo JI,aje nOTpe6HO t{MTaBO ceJIO JI,ace OJI,rajMjeJI,HOJI,eTe,a He3aMMCJIMBOje 6HJIO o,o;paCTaTH 6e3 6aKe, JI,eKe, reraxa. BOM 6e3 063Hpa. Ilpe Ilaaaunsn nmrurana pOJI,HTelbM 6e)f(e 0J1,InMX rnaBHpTyeJIHoj BaCnMTat{MU;M, Hero

na HX MCTMCHY Jil3 InMXOBJilX cpna. ~a

he CBOjy JI,elW npenycTHTH

MaMa (CBM rnenajy WTeTY, uene n Mn i-'. nprahe, HMKO He Tpa)l(JiI OA neue pap;, urxorra je TeIIIKa, JI,eU;JiI rpefia p;aTM M naxcno rr eTeTY J' e MMIIHJ'a aHapxMja nnmuaaux onpaanaise sa llKOIIY,

6aKaMa HJIH TeTKaMa TpaJI,MU;MOHaJIHeCBeCTH. TeTKe, xoje nexrajy CBOjy neuy, cy cnpeMHe JI,a)f(HBOT CBOj nOJI,ape JI,eU;M CBOjMX cecrapa, csoje 6pane, JI,eU;M npajaren,a, JI,eU;M y llKOJIaMa Y BpTMhMMa, y 60JIHMu;aMa. CBeCTMKaKO )l(eHa

nnaharx

My npnnarue

npo<pecope

...). Ilere,

)f(pTBa nnxura)f(eHM-

HKX, Mp;e nMHMjoM

MaIner orrropa,

oJI,6au;yje casere

reraxa.

OBe rrasrerne

Ha OBOM MeCTY )f(eJIHM JI,apa36MjeM npe,o;pacyJI,y ayropnrapae xoja HHje pOJI,MJIa,xoja HHje onrajana

ue nanac HMKOMe He rpeoajy. 3aTO 6a6e, nene, TeTKe jaxo KY, ocsajajy KX ,,3HaIne" nmnuanor

nare H nosnase sacrnrratsa

. ce, a HeKJiI CBeCHO MeInaJY TaKTMJiI npMKJb)"Iyjy Jby6aBH" ce nIIJilIllaH.MMa, KaJI,

CBOjy neuy He MO)f(e JI,a6yJI,e nOY3JI,aH BaCfIMqOBeK ce

'ra-r, To je 36HJba npep;pacyJI,a, xao nOCJIeJI,Mu;aaeaaaisa. aarona aa BaCnMTaIneM nOTOMaKa.

paha

ca KJIMU;OM

seh

He nofienauie.

3apaA MpBMu;a naxose, nnaurane,

OP;pJil'-IYce CBOJe 3JI,paBe

Taj

HarOH ce pasnaja

t{MTaBor )f(MBOTa, aJIH ce

naMeTM, npaxsarajy

He 3HajyhM na cy M OHJiIcana CBe JI,aJbJil OJI, ~y6aBJiI, je JI,aIIM cy M <pH3Ji1'-IKJiI 6IIH)I(JiI, jep Je caspe-

OH, y TpaJI,MU;HOHaJIHoj nOpOJI,MU;M,O<pOpMMO M npe JI,06HjaIna csoje neue. Ha)l(aIIOCT,

MaAa <pM3Mt{KM6ml)f(M neua. Ilaraise MeliO nere sansypeno

caapexeae

MaMe cy rrpna renepauaja

MaMa, xoje Mopajy

JI,a3a60paBe

Bpe.n;-

y KOMnjYTep M )KJilBJiICBOj BJilpTyelIHJiI )f(JilBOT, He npJilMehyce cTapHjMMa aa YCllyre M HOBau. rtnauiana . .

HOCTM aacmrrarsa,

xoje cy JI,06MlIe y TpaJI,MU;MOHaIlHoj nOpOJI,MU;M.TpeHYTHO cy re jep MM je HaMeTHYTM nmnuano JI,ace rrpanarohasajy BacnMTaH>e. He~-

jyhH HMKora OKO ce6e. 06pahajy

Bpep;HOCTM nOTnYHO cxpajnyre JI,aTeTeTKe HMCY MMaile rrorpetiy

Ila

IIM cy nmnnaae

MaMe,

pehe

O'-IeBJiI,sa OCYJI,y,KaJI,a OABapJY neuy

HOBMM YCIIOBHMa H 3aTo. Je

InHXOB OJI,HOC npeMa nOToMU;MMa, y nOpOJI,MU;M,nanexo t{OBet{HMjH H HopManHHJ~1, H JI,eU;HJI,pa)f(H, amr casro KaJI,a cy MalIa. KaJI,a nnmuamr KIIHHU;M OJI,paCTY,6e)l(e oJ1,

OA CBHX KOjH He npMXB~Te nmnuaao aacmrrau-ei Ila IIJiI OHM TO pap;e IIITO xpae CBO' . ? H paTTe nornyje POAHTeJbe, csoje HeYJI,aTe cecrpe, HeOCTBapeHe MaJKe. e, TO M Ho HeCBeCHO. TpI.1 nYTa y )l(MBOTY '-IOBeK MMa rrojasan MMMTaTOPCKMYM. On pol)eH>a AO cep;Me rOAI.1H . MXOBO TTeTeHe e CBora )f(MBOTa, KaJI,a ra p;pyrM p;peCMpaJY, y nepaony P;OK H> M HanYliI.1 ceAaM ronnna, xana nOCTaHY pOp;MTeJbMM y nepMoAY P;OK InMXOBM yHyUM HeHan Ylie ceAaM rOJI,MHa, xana nOCTaHY 6aKe M p;eKe.

reraxa, Tpap;MU;MOHanHe MIIH crnapanasnce CBeCTM, rnaaoxt 6e3 063Hpa. .. to. e HeyrraTe, q. eCTO '-IYJeM nasrerne caaere, KOJe MlIaJI,MM MaJKaMa, ynYlIYJY TeTK , i-'o nasrerae, 3pene xceae, xoje nesrajy BnaCTMTY rreuy.

Majxe

ca npe3peH>eM 0J1,6aUY-

jy InMXOBe casere M nyHe rOpJI,OCTM Ka)f(Y: "JIaKo je Te6M JI,a KpMTMKyjeUl, jep !-Ie . . TOsaTi'f saaur KaKO Je reunco KaJI,aTpe6a na sacrurraaaur BJIaCTMTOnere. JIaKo Je case

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HMHTaTOpCKa CBeCTje CBeCTMlIall,HXcaapesren rersa. Yll,aJbHhe csoje nere 011. CBaKOra KOHe novraxce ll,a My nere 6yrre K HXPO,l:\t1_ . aOCBaoc na 6 neua.h' H HKall,a Ja3 H3Meljy MlIall,HXpOll,HTeJba H CBHXOCTalIHXy n oPOll,Hll;I1Iira. . na ce nOIiI1mT I1Je HO Be H, Jep ce npBH nyT y HCTOpHjH pasaoja nOpOll,Hu;e neurasa M . sa CBe WTO Je Ba)KHlIO 11.0 jyxe, sa MaMY H TaTy. HHKOMe BHwe He rpeti aJY . TpaA aU;HOHalIHe Bpell,HOCTHH 3aTO he MaMe H rare, 'lyBapH HOBHX"Bpell,HOCTI1"XJIa 11BaCnI1Ta isa, 6 I1no Alio Oll,6aU;I1THcsaxora KOce He npHKlIOHH 3aKOHHMa nnmnaaor cy y nHTalbY 6a6e, ll,ell,e, TeTKe, HaCTaBHI1U;H. Aa Ha)KalIOCT, xana ce caBpeMeHH pomrren.a OCBeCTe H CXBaTe na CY nOTnYlio HCKPHBHlIH CBOJYll,eu;y, 'leCTO 6yll,e BpJIO KaCHO aa 6I1JIO KaKBY rroaob11,na Aona 3HJIa OHa 011. reraxa, 6aKa, nexa, KOjI1cy O'lYBalIH TpagI1U;I10HalIHY CBeCT 3 ? IT . allITo KaCHO. ,....,eu;a cy 3arocnogapI1lIa lbI1XOBI1M )KHBOTHMa,gHpHrYJ'y ca spxa H b, enOCTOJe11e nopomome nHpaMHge. Y HeMotm l1 601IH aa nOTOMU;HMajenuao xera he ce ceTHTH 6Hhe EATJ1HA a nosparxa na 6aTl1Hy aehe 6l1Tl1. EaTHHY je BpeMe nperaaano, HOBa neua nehe gpecypy. Ilpasy noraoh nyne carao Jbygl1 CTBapaJIa'lKe CBeCTH, KOjH ce 3aJIa)!(y sa BaCn~Talbe 6e3 Ka3He l1 6e3 Harpage, sanazcy ce aa YKl1galbe gpecype, jep J1KOHY 60)KHJY He CMeMOnpecnpara, lby MopaMO IlJ1TATJ1 (xpamrrx) JhYEABJhY
M M M

Hajjaxa ayTopHTapHa,

TBAPAJIAqKOf BACn1l1TAfuA [acuo je na CBaKH'lOBeK HO JIb paBHl1 C . lleAOpet.Je 3~ CBora )Kl1BOTaMopa na CAMOCn03HA csoje H3BopHe narone. CBOJe lla 3eMlbl1,. eceHH nOTeHU;l1)' all l1 TaKO cnosna ce6e H csoje MoryhHOCTl1, na 1aJlettTe, CBO)gOH CAMOPEAJIJ13YJE, Haj'lewhe Kp03 pOgHTeJbCTBO l1 n03HB l1 na anat.JKl1 . ,e ('rBa P MOOCTBAPJ1 Kp03 CBe cerMeHTe )KHBOTa. CaMocn03Hap, cauo'y p,a ce CA .' P h Jh 6a t<paJ l1'a I1caMOOCTBapelbe ce HenpeCTaHO ogBl1)a)y C anoui y, Kp03 Y B H eanl13aU ) ex he cn03HaTl1 Jby6aB npeMa ce6l1, 'lOBeKY, nOTOMCTBY,nnaP TY TaKaB'lOB )J.06po 611 .eg MOMeHTYnpeBa3l1UlaO 3eMaJbCKYJby6aB l1 oCTBapl1o Jby6aB HOM lieTI1, p,a Y) Ma bory, YHl1Bep3YMY . ope . YXOBHOMpaCTY Y KOHTl1HYHTeTY,0 gYXOBHOM paCTy H oCBaJalbY pe'l Je 0 11. aHCKe CBeCTHTOKOMnenor )KHBOTa. bHTH Ha H3BOpy CBOMe, 6 HTH Be'lHe H 6 O)K '10 60M H rrpyrHMa )'e TajHa nyxosuor pacTa, a 6HTH na H3BOPY Mory he y MHPYca co ie caMO y ycnOBHMa 6e3 aYTopHTapHocTH. . ) IloporrH'lHor 6YKBapa" Y nopoAHU;Y CBaKHisea 'maH nocraje onroaoYnacKOM" " KBaJIHTeT opraHH3auHje )KHBOTaY nopoAHUH, aa CBO)lIH'lHl1 )Kl1BOT alb paH sa An' HJIH )KHBOTnexor 'lllaHa noporome. KOjH )KellH na O~BO)H 3Halbe CTBapalla'lKOr BacnHTalba. YKOJIHKOAol)e 11.0YKJbY'lHBalba seher 6pop 'lJIaHOBa nopoAHu;e, KBaM M

JIHTeT)KHBOTauene nopoAHll;e he BHAHOAa paCTe. )J,OBOlbHO je na CBaKOYKHHe CBaKH 06llHK Ka)KlbaBalba H HarpaljHBalba,

YCllO-

PEJlMfM03HOCT

JE HAlllA M3BOPHA fIPMPO,UA

MHorH JbygH caBpeMeHor CBeTa, y MJIagocTH y6el)eHl1 aTeHCTH, y CTaPOCTH ce oxpehy U;PKBl1,BepH, jep ce y MHOrl1Ma 6ygH xmrua pelIHrH03HocTH xoja je 6l1lIa 3aTpnaHa cMeheM aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1. MO)Kga hew Me 6aw TH 6aKo, nOBeCTl1 npBl1 nyT y 60)!(jH xpaa, 3aTO je neonxonao npOrOBOpl1Tl1 0 TOj TeMH. Cseurrena lIHu;a rpetia ga ce, xao l1lIeKapH, nporpecopa H nOlIHTH'lapH, onpegene aa npHHU;I1ne CTBAPAJINIKOf BACIlJ1TAfuA, npBO y CBOjHMnOpOgHu;aMa. CaMO cycpeT H3Mel)y CBeWTeHor rnrua H BepHHKa rne cy otiojxua nCl1xo-CPl13l1'lIG1 3gpaBe JIH'lHOCTH, JbygH cTBapalIa'lKe HHTelIHreHU;Hje H 'lOBe'lHOCTl1, Jbygl1 KOjl1 cy, Y Oll,CYCTBY aYTopHTapHOCTH, pa3Bl1lIH KlIHll;y pelIHmo3HocTH, je cycper Kojl1 BOgH xa Eory H YHHBep3YMY. Morao 6HX BaM rOBopHTH 0 CBaKOMcerMeHTY naurer )KHBOTa H3 paBHI1 CTBAPAJINIKOf BACIlJ1TAfuA, amr YBa)KHTe 'lHlbeHHll;y na je P~'l 0 EYKBAPY I1 3aTO hy casro MallO nporOBopHTH 0 ll,YXOBHOM pacTy. JhygH Tpall,HU;HOHalIHe CBeCTH cy ll,alIH 6e36poj ll,eHHHU;Hja gYXOBHor paCTa H OHO 'lYBeHO: "CBaKO Mopa ll,a pall,H na cetin", WTO MHorHMa ocraje HejaCHO I1
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BlbaBalba Hall. C060M H ApyrHM 'lOBeKOM, na A03BollH ce6H H APymMa na ce npHMeHe CBe 3aKoHHTOCTH, CBHnpHHU;HnH CTBapalla'lKOr BacnHTalba H Tor MOMeHTa ce crsapajy n03HTHBHH eMOU;HOHallHHYCllOBH)Kl1BOTa, CBe HCKpHBJbeHOY -roaeKy noxarse na ce HCnpaBJba H spaha J13BOPY Ha H3BOpy CMpTHH rpeol ce Tone, a 'WBeK y3paCTa y BpJIHHaMa. HeM a BHUle cppOHTOBa, jep HeMa BHUle cnolbaUllbe napasome H p,aJbHHCKOr ApecHpalba ca u.enor npxa, HeMa amue nllHUlaHor AP~caparsa. CBH KOjHyqecTByjy Y onaocaua 6e3 Ka3He H narpane, CBHgO)KHBlbaBa)y npouec pesnranasauaje csor H3BopHor, Boro naaor 6llara. Iloumo je apeae na CBaKO caM l1JIl1jour 60lbe, y3 nOMoh npyror. HapO'll1TH y3 nOMoh xnaaosa noponxue, H3rpaAH y ce6H ABOCTPyKY,Haj'lBpUlhy nHpaMHAY, OHY Al1jaMaHTCKY. Hosex je OAYBeKHMao cnary gHjaMaHTa, aJIl1 ce OHa HHje Morna pa3811THnOA npHTHCKOM aYTOpl1TaPHOCTH. )J,HjaMaHTY je TeK cana BpeMe. CnOlbaWlba nHpaMHl1,"aHaM HHje BHUle nOTpe6Ha. CnYUlTaMO ce CBHY gOJIHliy xoia he npnnanara JbYAHMa,J1KoHaMa bO)Kl1jHM, )J,J1JAMAHTJ1MA. Y AOllHIiI1, xao Al1jaMaHTcKe CTpYKType, 60Jbe ce 'lyjeMO, BHgl1MO, ocehaMo, BOllHMO, He}f(IiI1jece rplIHMO, jep HeMa npenpexa Mel)y HaMa, Hehe 6HTH Ka3He H HarpaAe ~ lialUHM OAHOCHMa.AH)'aMaHTH He yMehy Y caoje omroce KA3HY 111 HAfPA)J,Y, ~ T . OIiI1 Ay60KO pasysrejy na cy TO Y3P01\1I1 HaWHX BeKOBHHXMYKa. .LOJe HOBl1 CTBapana'lKH, yayrpaunsa "xHjepapxHjcKH" nopenax. KOjH he nocell,OBaTH CBaKH
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'10BeK, a

aa

'1HjeM cy BpXy JbYEAB,

,lJ;OEPOTA

J1 AfICOJ1YTHA

CJ10EO AO~

,lJ;OEPY, KOHT~OllHcaHa" AO caaocrrosnaje,

TOM Jby6aBJby

H ,lJ;06POTOM. Y TaKBOj cll060AH

y
' Iia

caaopeanxsauaje

H caMOOCTBapefua uezror, Kp03 Jby6aB

nanopxor

ce6e ne

PaAOCT CBHX APymx,

caMOOCTBapeHHx

H ,lJ;06pOTy.

"A

xana

p;ol)e caBplIIeHo,

onna

lie npeCTanl a

lIITO J' e M rreJlHMH'IHO

cap;a

BHp;HMO

xao

y ornenazry, a

y 3arOHeTKH, n03HaTH

3HaMO p;eJlHMH'lHO,

onna hy

onzta hesro JlH~eM y mnre ..., ,cap;a xao lIITO BJ1X II03HAT" , pexe

uK rrlIaHeTe KO)'H HMa cpehy na je jour y TelIY CBOMe, Ma KaKBO "CaaKH CTaHOBHn pUTH Mopa paAHTH 6P30, na CBOM P;YXOBHOM ponersy, aa MOpa)l(Y n , 110 6J1J10, BOPY OBAe na nnaaern. [our ,n;aHac ce Mopa oAperm aYTopH0 CBOMe H3 ' aT1< Y (lOa P aa nO'leTaK. 1apHoCTYi, xa BehHHa J' e CBOj noxnenna yM YCMepHlIa na ,lJ,PBO )l(J1BO}-Ia)l<a1I0CT, BelIH . rh 3H'IKOM ,n;elIY )!(HBOTa 0 )l(HBOTY TelIa, He 6 H lIH sa ehH p,a )e peq 0 't' H ' . 'fA, MYiClI 'Y npollY)l(HlIH ce6H )l(HBOT. Je,n;HH nOXlIenHO rYTaJY nponaso'y p,eueHH) M rh 'oUl 1(0) e TexHolIorHJ'e Y rhYHKUHjH npop,Y)l(efua )l(HBOTa 't'H3H'IKOM ) a!-ba caBpeMeH ' 't' p,e J1 3H )l(e!-ba MlIap,oCTH H nenore rena (noTpOlllaqH), ,n;OKApyrH (rrpoasso-reny, npoP,y . npOCPHTHpa)y. ~atH1) , JbyllH KO)'HHMajy caBplileHa 3HaI-ba TexHolIorHJe H nOMa)!(Y lbYP,H3a nOXBalIY cY M ) UBOT alIH H)' e,n;HHH ,n;pyrw (npOH3Bol)aqH H nOTpOlllaqH MOpa)y p,a npop,y)l(e )l( , rh Ma 0 TOMe na HH)'e pe'l 0 6ecKoHaqHOM rrpoAy)!(aBaI-bY )f{HBOTa 't'H3Hq"MaTH CBeCT M I;. HaM J' e nOTpe6HO rrpoAY)l(eI-be KaKO 6H CMO rrOCTHflIH OHO urro ~ft~B~l~ . BaKOllHeBHO Y He3Hal-bY, TpomehH 3alIYA CBOJe speve )!(HBOTa, nponylilT aMO C M' Koje HaM je op,pel)eHO na nnanern. TeXHOlIorHjoM rpeoa npop,Y)f{HTH )l(HBOT KaKO 6" CMOce caMoOcTBapHlIH,

p;aBHO anOCTOJl IIaBJle.

Ilse XHJbaAe rOAHHa qYBaMO y cp~HMa XHMHy Jby6aBH , anocrona IT aBlla,ABe XHJbaAe rOAHHa rrOHaBJbaMO: XPJ1CTOC CE POITJ1 MJ1P oO)l(J1JJ1, I-J, . Ha cpeny AOlla3H

apeve

,n;alIH~eM CBO)HM ymeAaMo

CBOj H3BOP, AOlla3H

speae

MHpa DmKliljer

noxa. BJballH pexemnry 0 P01)EI-bY H BACKPCEI-bY qHjeM? J1CYCOBOM, napasno, anlil CMO HCTOBpeMeHO, ABe xxzsane rOAHHa noncehann ce6e H npyre Aa he noh spesre xana heno ce CBH AYXOBHO POAHTH, (6YAHTe aanax o~y caoue), a xana oCTBapIiI-' MO poherse y Ilyxy, xana OCBeCTHMO ce6e OHaKBe, KaKBH CMO nouma na osaj CBeT poheisea, xana nerrpecraao 6YAeMo rrHllH )!(eAHH ca csora naaopa, xana y3paCTy y HaMa KlIH~e Jby6aBH H Ilofipore, eTO nasra BACKPCA, ycxpcayha, rrpBo y CBOM pohenosr TellY, a rrOTOM CBe HAe rro OO)!(HjOj nposoicna. Haxcanocr, qOBeK ayTopHTapHe CBeCTH je naaac caxo rrpHBHAHO )!(HB. )l(HB je renox, AYXOM He. KaA oH6llHja xazce na heao BaCKpCHyTKy TellHMa CBOjHM H na heMo 3aA06HTH napcrso He6eCKO TO He 3HaqH nmura APyro Hero npyro poheise, y AYxy, ana rrpBo y CBOM canaunsesr reny, cana aa )!(HBOTa, KaKO 6H CMO 3aA061i1llH Be'lHH )!(HBOT, nocne cpH3H'IKe CMpTH. Haur )!(HBOT xa 3eMJbH je aartpaso npnnpesra aa Ylla3aK y Be'lHH )!(HBOT, He na 3eMJbH, KaKO HaHBHH sepyjy, seh Be'lHJ1 )!(HBOT y HeKHM HOBHM 60)!(aHCKHM CBeTOBHMa, xoje je CTBOPHO H HerrpeCTaHO CTBapa Iocnon. Illra 6H HaM sna-noro Aa )!(HBHMO na nnaaern H MHlIHOH rOAHHa, Aa MO)f{eMO csoje oprane Aa 3aMefuyjeMo, Aa 6H rpajann, TaKBH KaKBH CMO naaac. A naaac CMO HeCBeCHH, naaac CMO noxnenan TepMHHaTopH KOjH rrpoxcnapy H 3aral)yjy rrllaaery, J1HqHMO na noxnerrae caxymsaxe, HeKHX rrarrHpa KOjH cy JbYAH npornacJ1c llH spennourhy, a KOjH aeh cyTpa Mory na nsrytie oB03eMaJbCKY BpeAHoCT. ,lJ,aHa
y CBaKOM qOBeKY, a TO he HaM 61i1TH3HaK rOMHllaMO rerro HOBa~ aa ~pHe nane, a ~PHH AaHH, MHCliH '10Be'lYJbaK, cy AaHJ1 Ka,!ta Aa Hac H3Aaje. Aa Hac H3Aaje, aliH y TOM reny. ,!tOKCMO O ce POAHTH y AYXy H yCKpCHyTH, osne Mel)y JbYAJ1Ma, a aa oCTali

na

HHCMO aarryn, ABa MHlleHHjYMa,

osne na

nlIaHeTH,

Kp03 Jby6aB

H ,lJ,06pOTy, Y

apeue-

HY xoje HaM je rrpeOCTalIO. AKO rrpJ1CTaHeMO na HaHBHY npHqy, KH Y 611aro,n;aTHcaspeaeae He pa3YMe CMHcao

KaKO

rpeoa ua

rrlIaHeTH

na

)!(HBHMO Heo-

6H'IHO ,n;yro, rro,n;MlIal)eHH, y CTapHM TelIHMa, ca UHlbeM Aa Y)f{HBaMO xe,n;OHHCTH'IUHBHlIH3aUHje, OBaKBH KaKBH CMO ,n;aHac, ouna '10BeK

csor

nocTojaI-ba. MaTopHx,

To 6H ,n;oBelIo

no

nyura. 3apa,n; onCTaHKa

noxnenaax

rena

3aYCTaBlbaI-ba pal)aI-ba HOBHX . . eTH HlIH Ha aa OBO) MallO) nnan KOjH

HeKHM caTelIHTCKHM CTaHHuaMa Y KOCMOCY Bynare CHrypHH na je can 0 6eCMpTHOM TelIY, AYXy,

can xosexa

ce

HHje POp,HOY

can '10BeKa aYTopHTapHe CBeCTH, can HeCBeCHor, HeOCTBapeHor '10BeqYlbKa, can '10BeKa nperrynor CMpTHHX rpexosa, '10BeKa, KOjH HHje ycneo na paasaje KlIHue 1hy6aBH H Ilotipore, sa )f{HBOTa, Ha nnanern. A CBaKOMe ce ,n;ajenpHlIHKa 3a castoOCTBapeI-beKp03 Jby6aB H ,lJ,06pOTY. CBaKoMe ce naje npunaxa na rrOCTaHe J1KoHa DO)!(Hja. Casto rpetia BOlbHO 0,n;6aUHTH aYTopHTaPHOCT. Haj6p)l(H rtyr, ,n;06ap KBaHTJ.1TaTIiIBHO H KBalIHTaTHBHO je nyr rrpHMeHe 3HaI-ba cTBapalIa'lKOr BacrrHTa!-ba, npBo y Malloj ~PKBH, y rropo,n;Hi\H, a rrOTOM y ,n;PYlllTBY, xao rrpolllHpeHoj rropo,n;HUH ... AparH MOjH '1HTaOUH, He nnaunrre ce urro CBe na OBOj rmanern nenyje KaTaKlIH3Ml1 b, a 'lHO, UlTO he MHoro lby,n;H, ua osaj TeKCT, op,MaxHYTH PYKOM H pellH na HeM
llIaH ce na ce '10BeK cnacu (rrpocBeTlIH). PeUHTe HM na ronope . y csoje HMe, He

BaIlIe. CBaKO aexa '1I1HH urro je y cxnany CBeAO'lHlIl1 CBOjl1M )!(HBOTHMa.

ca HI1BOOM !-berOBe CBeCTH, a BH H BalllH CBeTa H HCTHHY

no-nuse

Terre

H rpetia

nOTOM~I1, YCBojHTe H rrpHMeHHTe OBO 3Hafue KaKO 6H CTe nenory

Y fueMY, rpetia nofipaayhe

ce caM Eor.

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Paznrre
myna

6p30

J1 rrpaBJ1JlHO

na

y3paCTalby

xnxua

lby6aBJ1

J1 ,D;06poTe,

6p 0 3
1> '

apaBHO CBe H3 paBHJ1 cTBapana'!Kor ... P e6a 6ap He -rpefia y OBOj KlbJ.13H. Iep of1,lioCY nonOBa MO J.1 lie T , aJ1~liJ.1C . no ogJ.1JJ;H. Hexa TaKO J.1 OCTaHe. [lp~MapHO) e~o a3MHllllbaTJ1 Y Hape.n;HJ1M KlbHraMa.

BacrrHTalba.

~ornJ.1 CMO,

peKOX, jep 6J1 BaC HeKJ1 OpKaH, HeKH JJ;YHaMH, 3eMlbOTpeC, Y3aBpeJlH BYJlKali

oaaj Kana

EyKBap )e HaMelbeH

caotipahajxa,

nanan

arpeCHBHor,

npornpaaor

KJlJ1HJJ;a, HJlH aanan he 6HTH cnazseao

, "e!(a arpeCl1s_

nor BJ1pyca, Morao 36pHcaTH ca OBe nnaaere. HO y 3eMlbY, rne H rrpHrra.n;a, ana

Teno

HJIH CTaB~

rrpaKTH'!HO

rrpJ1Me-

,,,e-

urra

je ca neocrnapeaaa

.n;YXOM,rrHTaM ceo y pel1li_

o CBeMY h p HKOr BaCIUnalba J.1necTBapana-.

y rropogJ1JJ;J1, CBaKO on aac he noxera

Mopahere
xapaauajy,

nonono

na )"iHTe nexuajy na JlH

y HeKOM HOBOM TeJlY, aKO aepyjere

casro je

mrrarse
AHa

aKO je YOIIIlITe 6y.n;e 6HJIO. )f(eHJ1 HJIH

saneheaa.

here 3HaTH.n;a HCKOpHcTHTe J1Ty HOBY rrpl1JII1!( Mozena heao, MH 3eMlbaHJ1, y MeljYBpeMeHY, 6HTl1 cn; crrpxcenoj, oronzsenoj HJIH sanehenoj nnaaeru HI111ITa
He CTHfHeMO na

amue nehe HHJJ;aTH, rra HH 6Hlb'!HQa xojy cy nexana 3BaJIH '!OBeK. Hnax HHje CBe TaKO JJ;pHOH aatipmsaeajyhe, YKOJIJ1KOBH HJIH ja
ce caMOOCTBapJ1MO y ,D;yxy, y lby6aBH JlJ1Ky ga "BaCKpCHeMO" H 3ag06J1jeMo )f(HBOT Be'!HH.

Ii~Te npJ.1liQ 0 HOBeK BJ1COKO'!OBe'!He csecra. y CBJ1MccpepaMa )f(J1BOTa. ,h J.10HJ1llie xa -. Aa <PYHKQ ie J1CTJ1Harro KOjOj noponaua J1lbeHJ1 '!naHOBJ1 ,OpMJ1Pa~ a ce oCTBapy) . Uoqelle A Xpa6po Y3MJ1Te KOpMJ1nO )f(J1BOTa y csoje pYKe, o a He gpYlliTBO lbJ1X. . TB . sapan orrCTaHKa Hallie Ilnaaere J1Hac CaMJ1X,na lbOJ. J'y APylli , M e CBOJJ1X rrOTOMaKa, 3apaAce 6 , . Bone Bac J.1rr03ApaBlbaJY, HajMnaljJ.1 xnaa rropogJ.1Qe J.1 )J;PBO )J;o6pJ.1Qa

H,D;06pOTH, aa )f(HBOTa, aKO H3ry6HMO npl1-

Hxje

JJ;pHO,H3 rrpocror

pa3-

nora, lllTO cy MHJIHOHJ1 J1MJ1JIJ10HHcaMOOCTBapeHHX, BaCKpCm1. jep je H TO, BepOBaTHO, neo 60)f(aHCKOr nnana, TH. C EOrOM, nparn MOjH!! a y iseroa

J1 TO je

gOBOlbliO MellIa-

nnan ce He

rpetia

CaMO 6HX nonao. aTeHCTH.

cBeTY y xojesr )f(J1BJ1MO,MJ1JIHOHJ1 lb ygH ce .n;eKJlapHllly xao gYXOBHO, sacxpcerse" ..., caste pe'!H H3a3HBajy

Ilpn

rroMeHY pe'!H: "Eor,

aenaronaocr caaxa npyra

H O.n;60jHOCT? 3alllTO je TO TaKO? Op;rOBOP HHje BpCTa rrpnnyne noracnna

rexcax. Ilnauraaa

I1 Hac

je CBe "BYJlKaHe" y '!OBeKY, onsojnna

on H3Bopa, a na H3BOPY je H KJlHQa peJIHrH03HOCTH. y

Kaxo

HeKO MO)f(e BepOBaTI1

Bora,

aKO KJIJ1QapeJIHm03HOCTH

HJ1je paasajeaa

(aKO cy y6HJlJ1

Bora

y lbeMY).

Boxorjer y ce6H, aJlH cesre je Ilyxa, CHTHOM xao "ropylllH'!HHO" CHhYlllHO cesre He HHKHe y najsehe J1 najjaxe .n;PBO,lbYTHheMO caM nOMeH pexa "EOr". Tepnaherao na je CBe TO npeaasaheao,
CBH ce ca KJIHJJ;OM,D;yxa HapO'!HTO xana je pe'! 0 ceMeHY

pabasco

HrraK casto ceae, ceae. )J;OKTO ce H .n;albe, H na .n;aHHje .n;OKa3a-

HO, a lbYTJ1heMO ce jep Hac re pe'!H 6y.n;e, a MH 6HCMO TaKO pa.n;o H nazse crraBanJ.1.

Bpeae

je 6yljelba,

HeM a 3Halbe

HJlH He6yljelba. BaM je 6yljelbe

smne cnasaisa!l! CBaKo craapanaxxor sacrnrratsa

he

nponahn csoj Ha'!HH 6yljelba, je carao jenarr on Ha'!HHa. HeKa

na Pa.n;OCT,.n;pam MOjH.

,n:PAfl1 Po,n:I1TEJbI1
)J;OljOCMO.n;Oxpaja, MOrJIJ1 CMO 06yxBaTHTH aa rroponauy, MHore nenose )f(J1BOTa, TonHKO Ba)l<l-le

Morna

THJJ;H,0 eKoHoMHjH,

0 lllKOJlH, 0 HayJJ;H, 0 Me.n;H)HMa, 0 rr "0 a .n;06pOTJ1 H ,D;06pOTJ1, 0 Bpe.n;HOCTHMa H "Bpe.n;HoCTJ.1Ma,

CMO rrporOBopHTH

onW

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CTBAPAJIAQKO BACllJ1TAlhE Y llPAKCJ1

Hajja'le Y3pOKe npo6neMa HHMO nnHlllaHe y

y caspeaenoj noponaua, Hayxamr CTe urra xana OTKnOaacmrrarsy, CBaKO on BaC ce rnrra, na nH yonlllTe KpeHyTH y OBY noponnua, C KHM KpeHyTH, onaxne KpeHYTH, saurro aBaHTYPY, 3BaHy, crsapanasxa KpeHYTH y Hen03HaTH HCXOg, axo je nonaourzsxao y jacnaxa aYTOpHTapHOCTH. CBeCTH, PearoBaneTe na npO'lHTaHO y cxnany ca craisea saure ayropnrapae ce npOTHB "EyKBapa". 3alllTo? 3aTO lllTO aYTOpHTapHa CBeCT

OIllTOBaHH'IHTaOU;H, np0'lHTanH CTe BenHKH neo "TIOpogH'IHOr 6yKBapa", CXBaTHnH CylllTHHy, H

yrnaBHOM 60penH npenoaaaje

CBe lllTO je HCTHHCKH HOBO, a CBeCT ce

casro

TO HOBO yrpO)I(aBa

lbeH oncranax.

AyTopHTaPHa csecra.

nnaunr

npOMeHa,

a "EyKBap"

Tpa)I(H npOMeHY 'IOBeKOBe

He 60jTe ce, HHje BpeMe aa cTpax.

Bpexre

je aa pacr!

Bpeae

je aa Jhy6aB

HAo6pOTy!

"TECT" 'BE lIOKA3ATH

,[fA JIJ1 BAIlIE

cnu: lIEBA

.Tecu;" ciuaiea MOjUX

jegHOi

qana,

a CBe WO je,

euouuja U MOjux J1CUBOWHUX axuu]a y WOKY najueiuhe, uocnequua ayiuopuiuapnux BaCUUWHUX MogeJla.
MUCJlU, MOjUX

MMCAO

EMO~MJA
6ecMHcna He3agoBOJbCTBa He3aHHTepeCOBaHOCTH BHpTyenHor crpaxa

AK~MJA
rnvsapm
cBal)aM ce neH'IapHM

Cae

ie CMOPHO,

Cal1 Me ryure ~ocaAaH-a,-o >-.!.nyn,-a, -0 ~AapaTaH, ~o3aH, ~eHeMa -a, -0

3aBHCTH Jby60MOpe , cTpaxa naKocTH,3nypagocTH 3aBHCTH KpHBHu;e HeMonH

-a, -0

ncviesr arpecnsan caM avroarpecxsaa

BPHlllTHM nnalleM

caM

~
~,-o

11HH AO '{era

cBal)aM ce, orosapav OMeTaM

~3rneAaM

npyre

~
~a nOl<a3ah . a l-beMy

TY'leM ce TY)I(aKaM ce nOMHM

nvrorpaine narrse 60na KOjH rpaie

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Bw,o;enew
60lbW

TW ocnerahy jep je nyrorpaj He Tyre

ce TOM urrpeoepy 0,0; MeHe

pyWWM, Ty'iy,

opraHw3yjeM

<pPOHT

3aBw,o;WM My

aa

60raT-

----

CTBY, cnoc06HOCTWMa,

na

pa,o;WHOCTW 3aTO caM

xecror

HeMwpa

orOBapaM

HaCWJIaH.

necnocofiaa
KOjW

caM

Mp)!(H>e Ha,o;MeHOCTW npeoceTlbWBOCTW o,n;BpaTHOCTW vcnnaxapeaocrn HenpeCTaHor lby,o;W... cTpax ...

Kpa,o;eM

casr

(CW)

noxnenan
yrpoacaaaa

casr caoje

qeMY caM ce gaHaC pagoaao?

MHoro 'eTTHoCTaBHJIl)'JIl nyr aa nposepy BlIaCTJIlTe HeraTJIlBHOCTJIl je JIlCKpe6 P)!(JIl JIl) M . u..e J<OIIJIlKO CTe ce nanac pap,OBalIJIl. Pap,OCT)e npxponan nparnnau CTBaHonpH3HaH'> palIa'fKe AKO 3a

KpeTeH, W,o;WOT ,Ue6wJI 6y,n;aJIa He no,n;HOCWM wx

snpaarse:
nVWWM nwjeM

crpaxa

0,0;

,o;porwpaM

ce,

nporoa

WMaM nOTpe6y ce xpaHWM je,n;eM

HenpaBWlIHO

je

CBeCTJIl 'fOBeKa. pap,OCTJIl, y samesr

)!(JIlBOTY, 6J1lJIO MalIO JIllIJIl rOTO~O.HJIl

MallO, 036J1llbHO

necnocotirsaxoanh
alIana'fa OHW cy KPWBW 3a ...
60lbW

on WKOJIe
0,0; nOCJIa ...

nperepaao
no,n;MeneM

pa3MHllIlbajTe

He KOPWCTWM KOH,n;OM WM...

601IeCTH. CTBapalIa'fKO 3P;paBlbe? Op,lIY'fJllTe

na JIlCKO'fJllTe JIl3 aYTopJllTapHor BaCnJllTaH>a, KO)JIl )e reHepaTOp narise, sacnxrau-e je reHepaTOp pap,OCTJIl JIl snpaan-a. DOlIecT JIllIJIl
CaMJIl. TIpoBepJllTe KOlIJIlKO CTe

caM 0,0; isera, H>e... MaTOpo,

crpax on o,n;rOBopHOCTW ocehaise Ha,n;MeHOCTW

Y3aJIy,n;HOCTW OXOlIOCTJ1 rop,n;OCTY1: ycaMlbeHOCTJ1

nyro nanac

JIlMalIJIl ocenaH>e

He pa,n;WM TeJIeCHe Be)!(6e npw,n;WKyjeM BPWJ1M pap;OCTJIl, 3ap,OBOlbCTBa,

l)y6pe

CBJ1H>a ,n;e6elIa J1CTa je Kao ... TJ1 new ,n;a MJ1 xaxceur

npmrvnv,

VCJIOBlbaBaM npeaaurrvhyjea lIJ13aM no,n;CTJ1'ieM Tyl)y HeraTWBHOCT

Panosao Cycpery
Pa3rOBOpy Ilovorao Hayxao Tyl)eM ,UaJbe

caM ce: ca ...

septia-

ll03J1By ... ca caM caM ycnexy . ... . .

MOHCTPYM

jenair

cavocaacazsen,a

onpehyj

caa, na

alIJIl BOP;JIl pa'fyHa

na

TJIl ce pap;OCT

He npeTBOPJll

y 31Iypa-

CBaKa

nanenena

MJ1CaO je

CTBapHO

HeraTJ1BHa

casro

YKOJIJ1KO H>eH npaTl'1-

AOCT. He P;03BOlIJIl nOA YTJIlQajeM

ce panyjeiu

IllTO je "KOMIllJlljJll QPKlIa YClIoBlbaBaH>a,

xpaaa".
ynJll y

BplIO

je

onaCHO, pap,ocT,

nau jeua

nOCTaHe

HeraTJIlBHa

eMOQJIlja, Bac

a HeraTJIlBHa HaTepaTJIl

je aKO

rpaje

nyro,

aKO

je

HaCIIOJ<aO je

aenpecraaor
360r .

n03J1lTJIlBHOr noxnene. OBaKBa

nacnojeny

JIllIJ1 nOTJ1CHYTa,

xoja he

na

He'fOBe'fHY He 3Ha'fJll

axuajy.
HeKHM

MJ1cao

~ xJ1nepaKTJIlBHOCT, }11 11 Pap;OCTJIl. 3aTo ce

panocr sarnapa rryr Mnpy, nanac

6HlIJIl 3ap,oBolbHH,

xapMOHJIl-

KOHCTaTaQJIlja

JIlCTJIlHJIlTOCTJIl 0 HeKOM, paCTa,

0 ce6J1,

HeraTJ1BHOCT,

axo

<PYHKQJIljJll n03J1lTJIlBHOr TJ1BHe MJ1ClIJ1, HeraTJIlBHe

caor

J1

r yher,

ycnyr npecmnuajre npeaa

p;pyrJllMa, 3aBl1CTl1,

KOlIJIlKO CTe

p;a lIJIl CTe OCTacHTyaQJIlCTe KOlIl1KY

06elIe)!(JIlTe ce6J1l

3HaJ<OM Hera~~1A06pJll,

eMOQJ1je,

npnanajre
nne y TOKY x,

HeraTJ1BHe

axunje xoje

cy Bac

npar

cnoje cxrprne rpexOBe J.1 naaa. TI pnauajre JIlCKpeHO ce6J.1

He3a,n;OBOlbJ-lJ1,
KOJIJIlKO

ynpxoc

036J1llbHJIlM, TellIKJIlM JIlHenpV1jaTHJIlM BaM lbyp,JIl HaHoce. Ynl1TajTe

}aMa, ynpKoc

naKOCTl1,

srry xoje

KOlIJ1KO CTe ,n;aHac MOPHJIl, naKOCHJ1,

6WlIl1 HeraTJIlBHW, JIeH>11 TeJIOM

narrer

3aBw,n;HH,

lby6

o-

paM CT l1MaTe on nasarsa

I1lien . Pl1}aTeJbe caoje.

JIl KOlIl1KO 3aXBalIHOCTJIl

HOCV1Te y cPQY JIl sa npJll)aTelbe

W ,n;YXOM, arpeCJIlBHJIl,

je 6J1llIO

oroBapa

tba

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aJ< l13 CBera

rora.

Xpa6po

here

OTY1nY1no J<oMUlY1je, npOHanY1lbYP;cJ<Y1 OBaJ<BO 6p30 Y13lla)J<elbe Y13

TecUl Ilpe

he

BaM 6UUlU og KOpUCUlU nonecere

Op;lIYKY

je 6p 3 l131Ia
yhere
y craapanaxxr, Bacn I1Ta_ yT

yCTaBl1Te

lberOBO

HeCBeCHO

nOHaUlalbe.

Hero

UlTO

p;a

ybere

J!l1IY1 He

lbe npOBepY1Te

MalIJ!lM TeCTOM craise

BaUlY1X MY1elIJ!l, eMO~Y1J'a , aKTT'" ","Ja, .6 ap

H na sa )la'-l}{ .KOTTl10HallHe XapMOHY1je, 3Ha {Y1 Y16p30 npeBa3Y1lla)J<elbe np06lleMa. ' 6YpJ<aHe eln . J'e nere 36l1lba Henop;HOUllbY1BOr nonaiuan-a, a TaKBO je jep naje OTnop ~l1~ M . J<0J'e cy HaCTalle, no yBol)elby cTBapallaqKOr sacnaraisa, CaCBY1MJe npY1-

y3

nsanecer eBaKO aa
CaMJ!l

qeTJ!lpJ!l .xaca, 3aMOlIJ!lTe ce 6 e, TaJHO. Ha

J!lOCTalIe qTIaHOBe npep; crrasan,e

noponnue na yqJ!lHe . M
, norrymrre

Ol<y TO I1C TecTO, " T a-

xpajy nana,

0 BaJ. MalIl1

re
TO

KOlIJ!lKO CTe Mallo

nanexo on oxajy p;pyrJ!lx. AKO 6yp;eTe nopa)J<eHJ!l pe3YlITaTMMa" " carJIep; " naaac 6J!l1IJ!l y XapMOHJ!lJ'J!l p;a je PanOCTJ!l 6" . . 'M YllIO Hep;oBOlbH aarnaszseaa rra Jep;HoJ . . .
)ep eMO~J!ljM, najseurhe p;aH 6MO J!l3Y3eTHo

np OMeHaMaHyTl1 nOBl1CY1TY1TOH, OUlTpO pearOBaTY1. To je cavo 3HaK p;a CTe snpasa ' npeTBapaTe, PoAHO Bl1J< rra ce He na nerery najere 3HaJ< na XY1pOBe nehere ronepnlI}{'-lHOCT'M P;06POBOlbHO. TaKBe eMO~Y10oql1TO 3aTO jep je Y1p;eTe YUlllO Y npOMeHe
caT}{, Hap eaJ<~l1J' e He Tpe6a YHOCY1TY1 Y TeCT. P HalIHe . CaMO qY1lbeHY1~OM UlTO OBO 3anY1CYJeTe, UlTO 0 ce6Y1 pa3MY1UllbaTe BY1CTe Ben M a nyTY npOMeHa. CBaKY CBOjy nesnpasy, spno 6ypHy Y1BpllO nyrorpaiay axuajy H . }1 peaK~l1jy MO)J<eTe nop;BeCTl1 non Jep;aH on ner ayTOpl1TapHl1X, BaCnl1THl1X Mop;e-

p;a CTe

na

CTpaxy,

cnyxajao

je

naaaunsx

Te)J<aK.

HJ!lX HeKOlIJ!lKO nana, y3 YClIOB, p;a He oxpaarsyjere p;pyre K . ana npen03HaTe craise CBO)J!lX MJ!lClIJ!l, CBO)'J!lXeMoTTMJ' Kana . a 'M

npasnMaJTe . ce p;a ~' Je Ilonaarsajre TeCT na e _ aa concrnene np 6 p g

He 0 lIeMe YCT aHOBMTeog .

xera CTe CBe 601IeCHJ!l, xana no-mere p;a nOCMaTpaTe CBO)'e aKTTM)' . Kaga . . e M pea K~MJe, aaannaapare CBOJa qJ!llbelba M HeqMlbelba, xana npen03HaTe CBe CBO)'e ce lbe, Heocrnapene J!lHapOqJ!lTO ocrnapene J!lxana xoncraryjere KaKO ce y OCTBapeHMM )KelbaMa M pealIJ!l30BaHJ!lM axmrjaaa ocehare, xana npen03HaTe KOlIJ!lKO CTe y CMpTHVIM rp~XOBJ!lMa, KOlIJ!lKO y saaa J!lMa noxnerre, 3aBJ!lCTJ!l, neisocrn, HeCBeCHOCTVI, arpeCJ!lJe, ayroarpecnje M jour MHoro rora. CBe TO nparieneaorre. AHalIY13Y1pajTe KOjVI
cy ~J!llbeBJ!l naure onllIT~M nopop;J!l~e, KOjVI cy naunr naunix ~J!llbeBM, KOlIJ!lKO cy OHJ!l y

na.

"06l1neTe Clll1KY KOlll1KO CTe BJ!l ayTOpJ!lTapHJ!l Hap; C060M, Hap; p;pyrJ!lMa, po, KO Bl1 caMJ!l nop;HOCJ.1Te Tyl)y aYTOpJ!lTaPHOCT J!l1IJ!lce 6paHJ!lTe on ise. Pe3YllTaTl1 cy TaKBJ!l KaKBJ!l cy. HJ!lKO J!lXHJ!lje BJ!lp;eO, HJ!lKO KOMeHTapJ!lCaO,

KOlIJ!l-

OCJ!lM

sac. Ha

BaMa

je na

ee ,UOBPOBOJbHO BaCnJ!lTalbe.

onpep;elIJ!lTe,

J!l1IJ!l0p;6a~J!lTe

J!lp;ejy 0 ylIa-

eKY Y eTBapalIaqKO

cxnany

ca

~J!llbeBJ!lMa

name noponxue,

Haj61IJ!l)KJ!lX, a KOlIJ!lKO cy cBeyKynHanpeTKa CBJ!lX. BaUlY1X MJ!lCllY1,eMO~Y1ja VI CBe-

Gupeqenwiu
nnanoee
Ao6pOBOlbHO PA3YMEJIJ1

ciue ce g06pOBOJbHO U 06aBeCUlUJlU CBe 0 UlOMe

sa
cTBapalIaqKO XapMOHJ1jy

HJ!l, 3a)ep;HJ!lqKJ!l J!l lIMqHJ!l ~J!llbeBJ!l y yHK~J!ljJ!l He .. satipmsaaajre aK~J!l)a Tpa)alIO CHM, Han~OTJ!lB, llITO

i "HeraTMBHO ce YKOlI" HK o )e
6J!llIO 6p30

" crarse

uopoquu
na je aa
CTe ca

KpaTKo,

npeaasnheao
cnOHTaHJ!l,

M aKO CTe ra 6J!llIM nOTnYHO pearoaaznr CTe y

CTe ce onpep;elIJ1lIJ!l

sacnararse.
J1 saury narisy

,UYBOKO KPJ!lBO J1 ce6J1,

CTE

6J!l1IJ!lCTe npJ!lpOp;HM,

cxnany

ca OHUM pella-

BallIY HapYllIeHY

saa

nesnaa-e.
KaKO 6J!l

je )KJ!lBOT M nOHeO . E MO~J!lOHalIHa apahaisa

. je . ynpaBo XapMOHJ!lJa

crrocoriaocr

nocne xera

naxohosr

OTIPOCTJ1JIJ1

BallIJ1M pOp;J1TelbJ1Ma

TJ!lBHO 6p'30r

J!l3BOPHVIM eMOD;J!ljaMa.

J1MaTJ!l cnocorinocr J!l BOlbY

npJ!lXBaTalba CTe OP;llyqHO KpeHylIJ1 HOBJ!lM nYTeM. onpep;elIY11IJ13a YKOlIY1KOCTe ce cTBapHo

~~mY1

onora
y aauroj

~TO He MO)KeMO npOMeHJ!lTVI, J!lMaTJ!l cHary MOnJ!l, je 3HaK p;a CMO BplIO cratianne npofineae,

p;a M3MeHJ!lMO OHO UlTO je oco6e. )I{J!lBOT p;OHO-

craapanaxxo

aacrnrraise

MopaTe

o6a-

J!lXapMOHJ!lqHe

cne xnaaoae

noponnue na

0 BaUlO) . OP;lIy~Y1. pap;Y1Te

3aUlTo?

AKO J1X He 06aBeCTJ1J1

~J!l.npoxreae, )e

cycpere

C HOBJ!lM lbyp;J!lMa J!lHOBJ!lM CJ!lTyaD;J!ljaMa. )Kl1BOT

re, a nc-r nere

MHTeH3J1BHO

na

YKJ1p;alhY nmuuane p;y60KOM

pearme npnayne,

jenaa

semrxa

y-monaua,

a y TOj yqJ!lOHl1D;J!l cy npJ!lpOp;HJ!l CTpeCOBl1,

xao

3aql1H nplf-

akO pap; Y1Te na yreaezseisy

BaUlJ1X

onnoca na

noaepeisy,

na

p;y60KJ1M

naurer

paCTa . BJ!lTHO )e . CTpec onycrajarsea

KOHCTaTOBaTJ!l, Y3POK OTKlIOHJ!lTJ!l, peUlelbeM,

xaaratsesr,

on 6op6e.
KOMUlJ!lja p;aHMMa yrpO)KaBa

napTHe pCKY1M Op;HOCY1Ma, .aa pa3BJ1jalhY J13BOPHY1X uarona, na ycnoCTaBJbalhY X apMOH . cXBaneHJ1 no Y1Je, CBY1p;06Y1jeHY1 n03l1TY1BHJ1 pe3YlITaTJ1 he 6Y1TY1 norpellIHo BaPOP;Y1D;Y1. CBe

YKOlIJ!lKO hyrrrre

aac

Balli

J!l TpnM Te, 3HaJTe .

na

. naui )e

HarOH cran-e

MY3l1J<OM, a BM eH M n03Y1TJ!lBHe 6op6eHOCTM Y1CKpl1Blb 6eca,

npernacnosr oxaja

he
nehe

6Y1TY1 TYMaqeHO

p;a CTe BY1cana 60JbJ1, 61IarY1, CMY1peHY1jl1 jep cy cpep;CTBJ1Ma aYTOpJ1TapHOr BaCnY1Talha.

cOHM '!I1TO 0 P;OBem! y no6 ApaClll1 ~~lhy

pen,

onp06aHY1M

p;a CTe BpTlO HeraTY1BHJ!l

jep

ce saute

lbYTlhe,

npoP;Y)l(aBa

Y }-Iep;o-

pa3YMeTl1

crapnje

ne re

aKO je OHO

noneno onnyxy
casnana

p;a pap;J1 "rpap;J1BO

Hapoaa

rnen.
aac

YKOllY1KO CTe YCTaHOBY1lIY1na je y nJ!lTalhY XY1PKOMUlY1je, 6ec Y1lbYTlba cy npY1pOp;Ha peaxunja

na

HY1sa lbYAe OKO ce6e,

a jour

OH He Mapl1 In! sa H jIf npJ1pOp; l1

ce

6'e casior,

YKOllJ1KO MajKa

npOQY1Ta EYKBap,

J1

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TI1XOyl)e y lberOBY rrpl1MeHy, a .n;aHI1KOMeHe xaxce nrra OHa pa.n;l1, 'leMY TO BO urra OHI1 rpeoa na Hay'le 11ClI., 'rana CBe ocraje na HI1BOYCI1MrraTI1'lHe l1.n;e)e . 1171 AI1, to 6 ne iseao no po paCrrOlIO)Kelbe npl1nl1CaTI1 HeKI1M crrozsaunsioa .n;oral)albI1M .11 cy je ycpehiora. a 1<0)11 BeOMa je Ba)KHO na ce CBI1 'llIaHOBI1 noponnne 113)'acHe aa 11 II11np OTI1BCTBa palIa'lKOr aacrnrran,a, KaKO 611 BaM 6111I0 jacno C KI1M here Mohl1 na YBe)f(6aBa_ re npnauane craapanasxor sacrnrrarsa. Casso OHa)' KO)'11 ce BOlbHO 0 npe.n;elIl10 aa crsapana-rxo aacmrrarse MO)Kena npl1XBaTI1 11pa3YMe rranose 11yc noxe na nyT npl1MeHe anaisa crnapana-ncor aacnaraisa. Ilpncraaax rpetia noce6 HO O'leKI1_ y BaTI1 11Tpa)KI1TI1 on nYHOlIeTHor nerera, xoje je 11.n;albe y nopomru ..., M MaTepM_ . . PlIHO je 3aBMCTaH on lbe. YKOlIMKOBaM raj 'llIaH rropomrue..., He .n;a n pMCTaHaK, He 3Ha'lM .n;ahe y nopo.n;M~M OCTaTMCBe no crapow. YKMHyheTe npe3aIllTMhMBalbe a xao rrocnenxuy, name nYHolIeTHo nere he MopaTM YCKOPO.n;apana ' .n;a .n;onpMHO' . . CMCBO)~) noponamr, MlIM aKO He )KelIM na naje neo 3apa.n;e y xyhy, aexa Hal)e ce6M csreurraj, na caM 6pMHe 0 ce6M, caMOM 'lMlbeHM~oM .n;aje nynoneraa. Ca MalIOlIeTHOM .n;e~oM rpetia capahasara, rperia .n;aanajy 0 KaKBMMce npcnenaaa pa .n;M, . amr sama je rrocnernsa. YKOlIMKO ce BM1I11'lHOMrpaTe cTBapalIa'lKOr aacrnrrarsa, uena MO)Ke6MTM'BMCOxa, jep xana 6y.n;eTe nornyno cnpeMHM M noxcenena rpancrpopwanajy, rana he sac OCTalIM 'llIaHOBM nopomme MO)K.n;aMrH0pMcaTM. Ilpennaacesr .n;anocne npBor cyc~eTa ca 3HalbeM CTBapalIa'lKOr sacrnrraisa, 036MlbHe npMnpeMe y noponaun Tpa)y Mece~ 11BI1Ille naaa, . J1CTO TaKO ce rpetia .n;orOBOpI1TM, y OKBl1PY nopo.n;M~e, .n;a Mece~ .n;aHa, TaKO npMnpeMlbeHI1, npl1MeHI1Te suarse crnapana-ncor aacrnrraisa. IlOClIe Mece~ .n;aHa, M3BpIllMheTC aHalIl13Y ycneIllHOCTI1 samer pa.n;a M.n;orOBOpI1TI1ce.n;a lIM HaCTaBlbaTC ca npMMeHOM aaarsa craapanaxxor sacmrrarsa . .Hecro Me rnrrajy KOlIMKO je CBe TO TeIllKO, HanopHO. ITa.n;OBM 11Harrop y npaBl1JIHO) npMMeHM sacnaratsa 6e3 Ka3He M6e3 narpane, nocroje casro aa noserxv. jep cy npMH~MnM aYTopJlITapHOr aacrnrrarsa JOIll y .n;eTMIbCTBY yrpahean y Hac McnpoBO.n;MMO l1XMeXaHM'lKM, HeCBeCHO. CBe je lIaKO y cnorsaunsea BaCnl1TalbY, jep CBe panaxro PYTMHCKM,MeXaHl1'lKM, KaKO cy pa.n;MlIl1 naunr npeun, 360r sera ra ce l1 ec TeIllKO o.n;pl1'leMo. Ilo-rerax npmaeae craapana-ncor aacrnrrarsa y npaKCl1, rrpou 6yl)elba lby.n;cKe CBeCTMHMje nax. Casto IllTO OCBeCTMMO jenny pepy HaIller )1<l.fBO'fa McnlIMBaBa HOBa 061IaCT xoja Tpa)K11 na ce CETJ1MO urra YMOMeHTYBalba )"IuHMTM . rr03MTl1BHO, urra je HeraTMBHO, a TO 3aXTeBa l13BeCTaH Harrop. JatJHBa , IllTa)e nanopa 3aBMCl1he on tJBpCTMHe ozmyxe .n;ayl)eMo y CTBapalIatJKO BaCrrl1Talbe. YJ{O. Me 1Il1KO)e onnyxa CTBapHa, jaxa, CBeCHOCThe 6p30 rrOCTaTI1neo aac. ,Uohl1 he Bpe nf xana yonurre ce6e aehere MOpaTI1 .n;a mrrare urra cana, .n;a1I11je OBO .n;06po w
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110 IJle,

JIl1 caM aa spesre 3aYCTaBl10 HeraTI1BHY MI1CaO,HeraTI1BI-IYaxunjy. PannAa dTaI-IO V'll1I-Il1heTe 6aIll TaKO KaKO CTe Y'lI1Hl1lIl1, a YCKOPOhe ce noxan ' J beTe cnO. 6alll TO, TaKO ypal)eHo, Haj60lbe 11aa aac 11aa CBe -rnaaose noponnue. 3aTl1 .n;a)e

Koje BaM HygU "IIopogU1iHU

Y1{ U

J1,U

etUe MHOfo iuoia Y JlCUBOUlY, caenaqajiue snawe

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noUlTO CTe 06aBeCTl11I11 CBe 'llIaHOBe noponxue na YlIa3MTe y CTBapaJIa'lKO sacnarrOlllTO CTe .n;03HalIM C KMMhere capahxsarx, MopaTe reopajcror casnanarn Talb e , nopo.n;l1tJHI16YKBap". Mopare yCBOjMTManarse "Ilopo.n;M'lHor 6yKBapa". Hevojre ~e o6ecxpa6pMTI1, ycnehere y TOMe. IIITa je "lIeK~l1ja" 0 .n;y60KI1M napTHepCKI1M o.n;HOCHMa, 0 caxopany, 0 113BOPHl1MHarOHI1Ma ... y O.n;HOCyna CBe nexuaje canna.n;aHey IllKOlIl1 11)KI1BOTY Kan ron nabere BpeMeHa MIll'lI1TaBajTe "EyKBap ", He xao pOMaH, neh neo, no nee. CBe BaM ce 'lI1HI1.n;aje l1CTOKao saure npe1)allllbe snarse, amr HMje. Cano 'lMTajTe 6e3 ornopa 11norraxo y1)I1Tey npaxcy, ynOpHO ce6e OnOMl1lbyhl1.n;a cTBapalIa'lKI1M sacrrHTalbeM OTKpl1BaTe ce6e 113HyTpa, na nenpecraao pa.n;I1Te na yaanpehersy csoje 'IOBe'lHe CBeCTl1.Hexa sac He lbyTI1 lllTO 6e36poj rryra noaaszsasc "He rrer!", urro nexe CTBapl1 nOHaBlbaM 6e36poj rryra, urro BaM xao .n;oca.n;Ha)"II1Telbl1~a rOBOpI1M: ,}iHTajTe Byxsap!", Bepyjre MI1,Ba)KHOje y rrpo~ecy paasajaisa CTBapalIa'lKe CBeCTI1 OCBeTlbaBaTHMaTepl1jy 113CBl1X yrnosa, YTBp1)I1BaTI1 JIeK~l1je 11y TeOpl1jl111y npaKCI1.

leqan qa upaxce BUUle epequ neio CBe tueopvte ceeiua

Yna3aK y npaKcy 3Ha'll1 nornyao YKI1.n;albeEJIAfE J1 PEAJIHE IlPJ1HY,UE, Il03J1TI1BHOf YCJIOBJbABAI-bA, IlPE3AIIITJ1'B.J1BAI-bA, BEPEAJIJ13MA 113110YnOTpe6e MMI1TaTOpCKor 061Il1Ka Y'lelba. He rtnauurre ce eBeHTyaJIHe 31IoynoTpe6e 11 Moryhe aaapxnje. AKO '6y.n;e no rora 11nourno, Tpajahe TOlIl1KO.n;yro .n;OK ce xnaHOBMnopo.n;l1~e He yBepe y aaury 036l1lbHY HaMepy na YKI1HeTe npanyny, YCJIOBJbaBalbe Be . M Bep 6 alll13aM. qaK he nac 11npOBO~l1paTI1, HapO'lI1TO neua, pornrren-e, He PYJynM na he nyroronnunse 11311'lKO 11Bep6alIHo nacnzse 11CBI1061I11~11rrrrnUlaHe n 'LJ t. PI1Hy.n;e6l1Tl1 nOTnYHo yKI1HyTI1 116l1Tl1 3aMelbeHl1 'lOBe'lHI1M O.n;HOCI1Ma. ll.elle aa M nOBepOBaTI1.n;a CTe y crarsy na 113Mel)y pa.n;a I1lbl1X He YMeheTe I1HTepeC,
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Ben na CTe cnpesraa sa Jby6aB. Hehe BaM nere BepOBant p;a here My P;03BOlll1 na 06aBW ueo rrpou;ec nexeisa KOJIa'la, YKOJIWKO je raj rrocao onaopao. AKO c I'll . ~~ paHWJe WTYKJIW,W3a3WBane aac )f(eCTOKO,a xana ra rro wHepu;wjw rrpeTvue1' . . I e,)ep Je aarno rrorrYCTWJIOY )"leibY, yrrpKoc rrpeTxop;HWM p;orOBopWMa WJIW BaweM n . 6 Pl1CTaHKY na MO)f(e WJep;HY WKOJICKYrOp;I1HY p;a w3ry t1, Y CY3aMa he JIt1KOBaTl1 CBOjOj TBpP;lbW p;a Ht1CTe crrpeMHw HW aa KaKBe, 036wlbHe nposreae, a KaMOlll1 3~ YJIa3aK Y CTBapaJIa'lKO. Kana nerery, xoje aac je 06aBeCTt1JIO 0 p;06t1jeHoj nenosozsao] OQeHt1 t13 Mare, MaTWKe, He cp)"lWTe Y JIwQe 6yjWQY yBpep;a, rosopeha KaKO ce JIelbowny He MOry rrOCTWnt1pe3YJITaTW, xana ra He t13yp;apaTe; xana YMeCTOcsera rora rroHYP,t1TeMeTerr Ty nosroh, CTBOpt1Te My n03WTWBHeYCJIOBesa caaopan, He oxexyjre 6p3e n0311TI1B_ He pe3YJITaTe, nere BaM jour nyro, rryro, nehe BepOBaTt1. Hacrasahe ca Hepap,oM. Heycrrex y WKOJIt1he ce MO)f(p;a t1 nojaxarx, jep Bt1 3HaTe p;a je rrp06JIeM MP)!(lbe rrpeMa Klbt13W, rrpeMa UlKOJIt1HaCTaO t1 rrpe rrOJIaCKa y UlKOJIY,kana je y lberoBOM WrrpW'laMa HWKOHwje BOp;WO pa'ly)f(WBOTY6wJIO caao upraha, a 0 CJIWKOBHWQW aa. Baure je na: He onycrajere on rrpwHQwrra cTBapalIa'lKOr sacmrrarsa ]If nazse ayznrre nosroh W CTprrlbt1BO xexajre na ce np06JIeM, rro rrp061IeM "op;Bpne". Ilocnemse UlTO he ce rrpOMeHWTt1je OP;HOCnpeMa y'lelbY WlllKOlIYI, jep CTe onaj rrp061IeM CTBOPWlIW BW,p;aBHO, jour rrpe nonacxa nerera y mxony. Craapajre rr03WTWBHe eMOQWOHaJIHe YClIOBeaa caMopap; n casroyverse YBop;WTenere y rajae cavooopasoaarsa. YKwp;ajTe rrpaBe Y3pO'lHWKe Heycrrexa W1I0Uler rtouaurarsa saurer nerera. 3Haj're na nere TO aehe p;O)f(WBeTW xao Ka3Hy. AKO saure nere, nyro y aoh, rnena TB, a cyTpa KaCHt1 y UlKOlIY,He naaa aa 'lacy, jep je nencnaaano, onna W3HeCWTeTB 113 JDerOBe cofie, jep CTe KOHCTaTOBaJIt1na je TO jenan on Y3pOKa npotineaa y y'lelby. YmaBHOM, ponxrezs xaxoeasa nere, 0p;Y3WMajynw My OHO UlTO My je Hajp;pa)f(e, Ka3HH. a Ht1je ~W y xaxsoj Be3t1 ca p;aTWMrrp061IeMOM. Oana je pe'l 0 xnacaxaoj KaCHwUl y lllKOJIY,nonycrno cw Y y'lelbY, Ka)f(lbaBaM re 0p;Y3WMalbeM I,IerrapQa. Ipanaue ce p;eQw Mopajy nocraszsarn, alIW 6e3 Ka3He W6e3 aarpane. CTBOpHTe npaBwlIa xoja cy, y YHKQWjW'lOBe'lHOr pacTa saurer nerera, ncrpajasajre 61Iaro, alIH OP;lI)"lHO WCBe p;01Ia3t1 na caoje MeCTO.Hexa jenao on 1I0rW'lHWXnpasnna 6yp;e na ce CTOlIY He npWlIa3t1 HeonpaHUX pyKy. ,D;eTeBen onanao 3Ha W3aUlTO. lJeMy p;yrorOA!1unse nocanao, CBaKop;HeBHOnoaaszsan,e: "Onepw pyxel" PY'laK je aa CTOlIY, Talbl1P je npep, p;eTeTOM. Jep;HWMnornenov CTe YCTaHOBWlIW p;a pYKe HWCY orrpaHe. He rpP,HTe, He orrOMWlbWTe,amr nere He rrocnyacyjere. Ilere he seceno CKO'-lWTl1 t1 orrpaTt1 pyJ<e. OHO lllTO je nere HaBop;WlIO p;a YBeK cena sa CTO neonpaaax PYJ<Y,6wo je BepunM 6 aJIW3aM pop;WTelba, aenpecrana onosonsaisa na Hwje neno, !-IWje3P;paBO
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6E

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re cBeKpBe ojaxa HarOH rr03t1TJi1BHe 60p6eBaUler p;eTeTa, cyrrpy ' ' qeKajTe p,a KO Ji1J' a t1 J'aBJi1crroc06HOCT KOjOM ce YKJIalba xopen ce ycrrocTaBJi1 xapMoH }loeTU, na a a he sanra rroMon 6Ji1TJi1 npasa Ji1ap,eKBaTHa. npo6neMa. TeK l' P, rr Ji1XBaTJi1JIJi1 Ji1cnmy nerera na je aa Heycrrex y ursona KpwBa BH CTe, na rrpwMep, p OH rr03Ji1TJi1BHe 60p6eHOCTJi1 nere he cnoK p,a 6yp,e rrpopap,Ji1o nar lberOBa lIelbOCT. a 6' p ra oMalIOBa)f(aBaJ'y p,pyroBw Ji13op,elbelba, . sa y'lelbeM nary Ji11I0 Je 3}1aTH p,a Je BOlbY 6Ji1lIanpenpexe na ce pasaaja enoc06HOCT pa3YMeBalba Aaje BHpTyelIHa cTBapHOCT HapaBHo p,a nehere Ji1nt1na 6t1jeTe neuy xoja CBe npo'lt1TaHOr TeKCTa. no Hep,aBHO. eTO 'lIme BallleM nerery. Bt1 caMO t1 p,albe yKt1p,ajTe rrpl1HYP,y, YClIOBlbaBalbKeO'lIrr':KO OTy KOHTPOlIt1Ult1Te 3aWTt1ht1Balbe W Bep6allt13aM Y CBaKop,HeBHOM )f(t1B '6 aa t1rpt1Qe . a 1It1J'e 3aYBeK 3a opaBt1110 e je saute nere y BwpTyellHoJ CTBapHOCTt1 t1 P, albeM '1oBe'lHt1X YClloBa, HyP,t1T y KojHMa cy CMpT t1 nacnrse, HaCTaBWTe ca CTBap 6' o pelllt1TW npo lIeM t1 csoje noaoh. 3a'lyp;uneTe ce KaKO he nere JIaKO, caMOCTalIH 6eHt1K 6t1Tt1 OMt1lbeHO UlTt1BO. onaoce ca p;pyrOBt1Ma, KaKO he My BpeMeHOM yI,I n naxxor BaCrrt1Talba BenITO e MOAelI HOBUXonnoca y noponaua t1 snaise crsapa npt1MeHt1Tt1 na csoje npunsaxe. . an ~ Hy TTaHaHt1J' e nana Ht1 Jell. Onpacna hepxa je nonycrane y )"lelby. B ell rOAt1 f-'o ~ 6 1It13Ma Hyp,l1Te rroxon, "Cn"T. Ilpanunn je t1CTt1.Bes npanyne. YClIoBlbaBalba, sep a , OTKlIalbaJ'Te seurro Y3PO'lCTBapajTe n03t1Tt1BHe eMoQt10HalIHe YClIoBe aa caxopen. H"Ke Heycnexa aKO ncra-ry t13 nopop,t1Qe. T ' ha (aKO J'e Ty lIe)f(aO open nepxa he YCKOPO WCTt1' Mop,elI rrpt1MeHt1Tt1ua csor MlIap,Ji1 6 h t1TapHt1 0p,HO(l1 Ji1 e A 6 npo lleMa, lbeH Heycrrex he ce rrpeTBOpt1Tt1 y ycrrex. yTOp . h 3aM Jb 6 by MJlap,t1ha t1 p,eBO)Ke e elbeHt1 HOBt1McTBapalIa'lKt1M Op,HOCt1Ma, y as W3Mel) np TTwTTa 3p,paBt1X Op,Hoca. O~BeTaTt1, a ycnex Ha aKylITeTy he 6WTt1npwpop,Ha nocnen ..., y llW 6WllO KO)'t1'llIaH nopoP,wnept10AY 6e3yclloBHor 'leKalba, na BaUle nere W ~e , yl;y . 1) Y n03t1TWBHOeT, )eAHOr rrpaBwlla ce Mopa Te rrpwTTp)f(aBaTw: f-'o
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ycnoarsaaaise J1 Bep6aJIJ13aM HaA npyror, YKOJIJ1KO je peq 0 ~e~J1 qJ1jJ1 pO~J1TelbJ1 He )KeJIe na yhy y CTBapaJIaqKO, OHa ce Mopajy yqJ1TJ1 p;a ~y60KJ1M pa3YMeBalbeM onpocre CBOjJ1M pOp;J1TelbJ1Ma nOCJIep;l1,-\e aYTOpl1TapHOr CJ1CTeMa aacmrrarsa. Kana neua npotiyne CBOj CTBapaJIalfKJ1 nOTeHU;J1jaJI, cnOHTaHO he 6J1TJ1 aMOpTJ130BaHa aYTOpJ1TaPHOCT pomrren,a. Mucro je naxure ~eU;J1 lfJ1jJ1 cy pO~J1TelbJ1 O~JIylfJ1JIJ1 ~a y1)y y CTBapaJIalfKO aacmrraa,e. Kon re neue he ce BpeMeHoM ycnoCTaBlbaTJ1 XapMOHJ1ja. ,1J;0 cTBapalha paBHOTe)Ke y nOpO~J1lfHJ1M O~HOCJ1Ma nere he 6e36poj nyTa nOKa3aTJ1 3HaKe HeraTJ1BHOCTJ1 xoje pomrrezs He CMe ~a norxparsyje. ,1J;OKnere He 6yp;e OCeTJ1JIO 6JIaroner J13BOpHOr naroaa na Jby6aB rrpJ1MJ1 J1 Jbytiaa na, OHO he 6e36poj rryra, no J1HepU;J1jJ1, yrracrn y 3aMKY aYTOpJ1TaPHOCTJ1. Tpaaorhe ~a ra 06aCJ1naTe CJIaTKJ1lllJ1Ma, J1rpaqKaMa, J1aKO CTe ra yrr030pJ1JIJ1 na je TO 6eCMJ1CJIeHO, p;a TO xourra, p;a lllTO BJ1llle TpOlllJ1Te, smne Mopa p;a pap;J1Te, J1 Malbe BpeMeHa rrpOBOp;J1Te ca lbJ1M. Ilopen csera nere ocraje ynopHo spnreha rrpJ1HYP;y, ycnoszsasaa,e, Bep6aJIJ13aM Hap; BaMa. XJIap;Ho, 6e3 BJ1Ke, KOMeHTapa, y6e1)J1Balba, rpp;lbe, CKpeTalba naxose sa
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6e}fOCTW, p; 6erHe yqeCTBOBalbe y HeraTJ1BHoj aKU;J1jJ1, caM rr03J1TJ1BHO YTJ1qe 0611Ma, 113 . J13ry6J1he HaneTOCT KO)a ra W rOHJ1 y ~pyr pyroBe J1 xao HajBa)KHJ1je rpeCI1BHe p; }fa a . WEHY aKU;J1JY . }feral' . OpJ1B p;eTeTa J'ax J1 nere J1rraK one y HeraTJ1BHY aKU;J1JY, P;03BOJIJ1y Olll1KO Je rr aa nocnenxue, a BJ1 nehere op;YCTaTJ1 K OCI1 rroTrryHy op;rOBopHOCT ere p;a nere CH h rrpJ1HtTWrra CTBapaJIaqKOr nacmrrarsa. np"MeHe .. TK ycrroCTaBlbalbe qOBeqHJ1X onnoca BaH noponaue. I10CJIe p;Y)Ke O~. CEe Je pap; na n aJIaQKOr BaCrrJ1Talba y noponaux nere he crrOHTaHO ynpa)KlbaBaJ1MeHe CTBa P np y lllJ1POJ' npyurrsenoj 3ajep;HJ1U;J1 y lllKOJIJ1, Y cnopry, ua JIeTOBalbY, TJ1 J1CTI1Mop;ell Kap;a J'e y rrJ1TalbY P;PYlllTBO spunsaxa. allJ1 caM O ) YKOllJ1KO je p;eTe MaJIO (06p;aHJ1lllTe, OCHOBHa uncona , BJ1 pOp;J1TelbJ1 M~paTe 3alllTJ1TI1 aa )l(eJIe na ce op;peKHY npou;eHJ1TW,

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J1JIJ1 YJIa3J1MO y craise 6e)KelbHOCTJ1 J1 Op;CYCTBa pap;onocraae orpOMHO orrrepeheise aa xoaexa, rana Hac J13HeHap;a npenJIaBJ1 ryra, ocehaise 6eCMJ1CJIa, 6e3Ha1)a, nenpecnje. HJ1 jenno HW p;pyro, HW Tpene Hl1je noopo. Pap;OCTJ1, xao 3alllTJ1THe eMOU;J1je, )Kelbe, xao J13BOpHOr craisa YMa, Tpe6a J1MaTJ1 TaMaH TOJIJ1KO KOJIJ1KOje npaponox op;pe1)eHO. HJ1 npeauure, HJ1 npeMalIo. A npJ1pop;a nenorpeuncso 3Ha KOJIJ1KO KOMe p;aje. Tana HeM a nOTJ1CHYTe, HaClIO' ,t., JeHe J11IJ1J1CKpJ1BlbeHe, HJ1 pap;OCTJ1, HI1 )Kelbe. Ilpapona y naxa 't'YHKU;J10HWlUe Ao6 po YKOJIJ1KO HaM HJ1KO cnorsa He npecnpa, HI1 panocr HJ1 )Kelby.

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Ee3 I1JIl1rnaHl1X, CrrOHTaHO, 6e3 narropa, YJIa3l1MO y crarse PA)J,OCTJ1 )J,OEPOTE, MJ1PA, 3A)J,OBOlbCTBA, urro je YCJIOBsa pa3BO)' ll.y60Ke C ,CTalhe lb 6 )J, BecHOC'I' y asa a YXOBHOCTH.KaKO rrperr03HajeMo na CMOy TOM CTaJ-bY?JIa A 11) KO. KO C orO urro HaM ce ll. ll.l1 y TOKYnaaa, 'll1J-beJ-beMl1JIl1He'll1J-beJ-beM HarnfAM fA j; Be , , Yl YlTY~I1M Kpa)y nana rrpl1XBaTl1MOca aaxsanaomhy l1 Ml1pOM crrpeMHornhy na ' Ha , ,... KOJIl1KO CYT MeJ-baMO ce6e, xa 6OJbe, oana CMO Ml1 naaao y CTBapaJIa'lKOM BaCrrl1 pa TaJ-by) 0ll.aB HO CMOna rryTy lby 6 aBH. El1Tl1 3aXBaJIaH na ll.06py l1 na 3JIy (a urro BaM ce ll.aHa 'Il1Hl1 3JIOM) seh cyrpa BaM ce MO)f(e noxaaarn xao npaso l1 jell.I1HO rr06 c , .) J ,... po, sa Bac l1 saure Ha)Ml1JIl1)e. our aKO crarse Pall.OCTl1, 3aXBaJIHOCTl1 l1 )J,06po re )f(I1BI1Te113 rpeaa y TpeH, rrpl1xBaTajyhl1 jenaaxo l1 3JIO l111.06po, MeJ-ba)'yhl1 OHO ur TO MO)f(eTe MeJ-baTl1,yrvraaaov y cetia, rrpeBa3l1JIa3ehl1 6e3 60JIa OHO urro ce rrpeBa3l1hl1 MO a onna CTe rra rrpasoa rryTy, aa rryTy KOjl1Mxona J1KoHa EO)f(l1)'a AKO CBe P ) . TO Te'leca naxohosr, 6e3 ynorpeoe TeXHl1Ka) pa3Hl1X MeTOll.a, JIeKOBa, cenarnsa onna Bl1X0ll.are I,IY!HOBCKl1M KOpaU;l1Ma xa cnacersy l1JIl1aKO BaM je nernne, xa rrpOCBeTlbelhY. lbYll.l1Ma Pall.OCTl1l1 )J,06pOTe 'll1TaJ-be "OYKBapa" rpetia cavo YTOJIl1KO) YKOJII1KO rpazce onrosop ll.a JIl1cy ira ll.06pOM rryTy jep xa TOMrrYTYHeMa ry)f(Be, HeMa MHOI'O lbYll.l1qOBeK ce ymraunr caxrohe, rrOCYMJ-baY l1CrrpaBHOCT caora nyra. EYKBap BaM rrOMa)f(e na cnosnare na he aa TOMrryTy YCKOPO6l1Tl1 MHoro, MHoro )J,06pl1X lbYll.M Behl1HM rropoll.l1u;a xoje rparajy sa peurersesr, KaKO ce6e l1 csoje rrOTOMKel13BeCTl1 aa rryT Mapa l1 Pall.OCTH, EYKBap je rrpexo norpetian, ql1TajyhM ra, ll.06MjaTe onrosop na rnrran,e saurro aaura neua nexrajy 3axBalIHOCTl1, 3all.OBOlbCTBa, Mnpa l1l1CTMHCKePall.OCTl1. AKO CMOll.e'll1je YMOBe l1 cpu;a YBelIM y craise CMPTHl1XrpeXOBa, OTKYll.aHaM npaao na oxexyjesro J-bl1XOBY 3aXBalIHOCT. )J,a HaM 6yll.Y 3aXBaJIHl1 na HeMl1pl1Ma xoje CMOYTKalIl1 y J-bl1XOBerryunrue, a y HeMl1py je CBaKO KOje noxnenan, lIeJ-b, HaCl1lIaH, 3aBl111.aH,oryhen, jell.HOM pexjy ropll., a CBe TO cy caMO nocaenane nzonuaaax BaCrrl1THl1Xxonena. EYKBap BaM yxasyje aa Y3pOKe l1 Ha'lMHe KaKO.ll.a ce oClI06011.l1Te nperrpexa xa rryrx yapacrarsa nyxa. CTBapaJIa'lKO aacrnrrarse He rtpencrasrsa rrorrpaBKy Harner nopona-raor )f(Y!BOra 3aCHOBaHor aa aYTOpl1TapHOM BaCrrl1TaJ-bY. Onpenenara ce aa CTBapaJIa'lKO aacnxrarse 3Ha'll1 ortpenemrra ce aa HOBl1, 'lOBe'lHl1jl1 Ha'll1H )f(l1BOTa, KOjl1 'lYBa l1 YHarrpel)yje snpasn,e l1 reHeTCKl1 nOTeHU;MjalI noaecea poherse. Ilpe Hero illTO Oll.JIY'll1Te ll.a yhere y CB, na panocr aaure neue, notipo rrpoY'll1Te "I1opOll.I1QHI1 6YKB ", ap .jep npl1XBaTl1Tl1 3HaJ-be CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacmrraa,a l1 )f(I1BeTI1ra Hl1je npoJIa3Ha MOll.a,TOje rryr na KojeM nazsa l1CTpajaBaTl1. YKOJIMKO KpeHeMO, na CTaHeMO, BpaTl1MO ce aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1, rrOTOMU;l1HaM MO)!(ll.aaehe rrpY)f(l1Tl1 PYKY, Ka,[\a 11J{ nOHOBO rr030BeMO aa rryT lby6aBl1. CaM Ha3l1B CTBapalIa'lKO rj. onroj aa CTBapaJIarnTBO, aazrazce p0ll.l1TeJbY l1l1.eTeTy l1.a 6yl1.Y CTBapaOU;I1, xpearopu )f(l1BOTa, rrpenyaor lby6aBI1, y3 HenpeC1'atJO
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onnoca. I1pI1Mepl1, xoje caM BaM HaMeHI1n03l1Tl1BHl1X eMOU;110HaJIHI1X I1 YKa3aTl1 p0l1.l1TeJbY aa OCHOBHe npl1HU;l1rre CTBaMope,... Bacnl1TaJ-ba. I1pl1HU;l1nl1 cy jel1.HOCTaBHI1, ana nyroronaunsa ynorperia aq)(or pan n03l1Tl1BHOr YClIOBJbaBaJ-ba, rrpesaurrahaaarsa, Bep6alIl13Ma, nyroronxHJlyll.e, , lIP 611 Y nop0l1.l1U;11 l1 HeraTl1BHl1 eMOU;l10HaJIHl1 YCJIOBl1)f(l1BOTa OMeTa)y H cy)(O , , JIltb peJIaCKa aa npl1MeHy rrpl1HU;l1rra l1 Tpa)HO ycaajaise saarsa craapanax]lalCohy 0 Bacnl1TaJ-ba. ICor T'K npl1HYll.Y rr03l1Tl1BHO YCJIOBlbaBaJ-be, rrpeaaurrahaaarse, Bep6aJIl1Y)(I1HY n' , . TTOBOlbHO jep nOCJIe nyroronaunse arpecl1)e na nere l1JIl1,n;yror0ll.l1rnJ-ber saM, JlI1)e ,...' . J-ba nere he nOMl1CJIl1Tl1ll.a )e po,n;l1Telb nOTnYHo ,n;l1rao pYKe 011. J-bera. Ba yC1IOBlba ,...

Patbe TTCTaBJbaTI1 aaxrajan

C]lell.eha eTana, no yxxnan.y npY'IH~,n;e,yCJIO~lbaBaJ-ba l1 Bep6aJIl13Ma, 3Ha'l.l1 YMehe p0,lVfTelba I1JIl1nerera ll.a o-nrraaajy eMOU;l1)e,n;pyror, a He ll.a npl1MaT ,n;a)y pe'll1Ma HnH nOCTynU;HMa. J1 pe'll1 l1 nocryrnta cy onpas CTape aYTOpl1TapHe CBeCTl1, a !be ce HajTe)f(e OCJI060,n;l1Tl1. CTBapaJIa'lKa noponnua Mopa 3HaTl111.asaycraazsa JIAHAIJ; HEfATJ1BHOCTJ1, nocne sera cnemr nyropo-nro ocsorunsanaise Y! crrposoheise y npaKcy I103J1TJ1BHY1X AKIJ;J1JA 'll1jl1 cy npl1po,n;Hl1 nparrorau XapMOHl130BaHe eMOU;l1je. CBaKl1 'lOBeK he l1MaTl1 csoje Opl1rl1HaJIHe l1,n;ejeKaKO ll.a 3aYCTaBl1 zranau HeraTHBHOCTH. TaKO imp. 6ec nerera MO)f(e6l1Tl1 3aYCTaBlbeH CMeXOM,neCMOM, <pl13l1'lKHMo,n;BajatbeM nerera l13 onpebene npocropnje l1JIl1 l13JIaCKOMponarezsa l13 re HCTenpocropaje. Hexana he TO 6l1Tl1 caazcan, eHeprl1'laH TOH pOll.l1Telba l1JIl1caao hyraise. Oll.JIy'IHa 3anOBeCT. Onaoureise nerera y ll.pyry cotiy, jep OHOYHanpel1. 3Ha Aa je TO Ha'll1H ,n;ace l1 OH l1 ponxrezs CMl1pe. Y OBO 'lYll.HO notia, xana cy CBl1 po,n;l1Telbl1 y crpaxy 011. csoje neue jep l1M ce saKOH0ll.aBau;YMernao Y)f(I1BOT,pomrrezsy He rrana aa naaer na Bl1KHe, ll.a Oll.JI}"IHO OArypHe nere xoje je HaCl1JIHO,l1JIl1rnTO je CBe xeurhe ll.a po,n;l1Telb He pearyje xana ra nere BPJIO CHa)f(HO Yll.apa l1JIl1 ncyje. Y CTBapl1, ponarers caxo noaehasa CBOj npar TOJIepaHU;l1je, TaKO urro nnauraaoa ,n;pecypoM l1CnYJ-baBa 3aXTeBe nerera, a onofipaaarsa, A oana xana 3ClXTeBl1Ma Kpaja HeMa. Henasarse OTnopa nerery je Bl111. ce 'lama npeJIl1je l1 ponrrrezs "nYKHe", saoopaszsa l1 rra aaxononasua l1 na Moryhy l(a3Hy rrp , , , , l1)aBy nerera l1JIY!KOMrnY!)e,rana nyu;a Y!3 CBl1Xopy)f()a. I10CJIe csera l1 ~eTe 11POll.I1Telb 3Hajy na cy y cnerroj yJIy!U;Y!, na he ce caryaunje rroaaazsara l1 ,n;a lIJ.e CBaKI1Mll.aHoM 6l1Tl1 ,n;albl1jell.HY!on npyrax. Y cTBapY!, aKO KOM6l1HyjeTe nJIl1aHy ca p y eaJIHOM npl1Hy,n;OM reurxo l1 BaMa l1 naurexr nerery, 0Ph KOJII1KO CTe yurrnr y CTBapaJIa'lKO, y nacmrraise xoje je y CKJIa,n;yca Y!3BOPHOM lilt . Pll.OM 'lOBeKa, Hl1 aa nere, Hl1 sa po,n;l1Telba nehe 611Tl1HI1KaKBa TpayMa YKO"'OnOHe Inh.. Kall.peary jere CrrOHTaHO,ynorpetiasura a <pl13I1'lKYl1JIY! Bep6aJIHy npl1--'I',y ,YBeK . Y! )e~l1HO, nOTnYHO CBeCHO 6e3 TpyHKe 6eca. Ha)KaJIOCT, Hl1je JIaKO Hl1
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nerery, HJ.1pOp;J.1TelbY na ce rrOCJIe BeKOBHe ynorpetie aYTOpJ.1TapHOr Bacmn

JIaKO YKOTBe y CTBapaJIa'IKOM nacrnrrarsy,

alba BaCrrJ.1TafuY 6e3 Ka3He J.16e3 Rarpa '

POp;J.1Telb he jour nyro rrOp;J.13aTJ.16yKY J.1PYKY, TaMO rne WM MeCTO HJ.1je, a p;eTe ~e. JOI.Unyace rrpOBO~J.1paTW pop;WTelbe, He sepyjyhx
fA

Po0

J.1Mna cy npecramr ca p;pecy e t. po~. YlMa )f(WBOTHWXcWTya~wJa y KOJwMa nere nerery MO)f(p;a cnaCWTW W)f(WBOT al<o peary jere cnOHTaHO W6P30, Ma KOJIWKOce TO y Tpe~YTKY 'IWHWJIO Wrpy6o, Hapo_

'IWTO xana CXBaTWTe na pe'IW He nOMa)f(Y. Ilere aac Jep;HOCTaBHO He xyje, He BI1 ." AI1, xao p;a Je "CJ.1I.UJIO C YMa . Ileua cy P;O nsaaaecre ronxae y jaxoa BeTpy, y orposmoj aK~wjw, MWCJIena CBe cxejy W CBe Mory. AKO WM P;03BOJIWTe na serap HeKOHTpOJIWCaHO HapaCTa WlIl1 11 caMW nOp;CTW'IeTe TO crarse, Hwje na op;MeT rrosyha BpaTw ce6J.1. Ha)f(aJIOCT, WMa cnryauaja xana pop;wTelbw nOKpeHY orposiaa BeTap y nerery
11

'IeCTO sa p;erw Ka)f(eMO, xao p;a cy CWI.UJIaC yMa. TaAa

nere aa yxo, MaJIO My 3aBpHyTw

aocnh, nOCJIe xera ce p;eTe

onoMn "" eTeTa. ,n:a MeHe Hwje 6wJIo, necern nyT 6w CBY )f(yq W3JIl1JIa aa aenoJiplIYJ< p; . . "( aetd y 6ecy Me J'e yrrwTaJIa: "lllTa 6w CTe BWyqWHJ.1JII1,Y OBOJ cWTyaU;WJW . 1'10 p;eTe. . cJIYIll caM p;a na ja ce6e W nere He 6wx HW p;OBeJIa y OBY cWTyaU;WJY I10CJIe rOBOpWJIa . OPo nse onOMeHe cryrnma 6wx y 3p;paBy aKU;J.1JY . He JiJIW"" 6 6 JePo ayTOpwTapHw pop;wTelb aajxeuihe, 6ecnoTpe HO nocraszsa Bep aJIHa)f(aJIOCT, aHwu;e Ka3HOM J.1JIJ.1 uarpanov, na nere oana He YMe p;a pa3rpaHWrpal'lWu;e, r P se He6wTHor aJIW BaM YBeK spaha rrpxocehn, y rpenyrxy xana BaM je Ji 6JiTHO on , q . pe6Hl1Jl1. Ipamrue ce Mopajy rrocraarsarn, aJIl1 6e3 Ka3He, 6e3 HarpaT tdJiP HaJno p.e, 6e3 6eca l1JIW raeaa. rh lJecTO MajJ<e He npouexe 'i'W3W'IKO W eMO~WOHaJIHO crarse nerera, na ra ByKy aMa , no wrpaOHw~aMa, KO,[lpohaxa, npnjarezsa, KOP; ,[Ipyrapwu;a J.1He nonpop; aBHl1TT ...., npJiMeTe

. nae MJIap;e MaMe xoja je 6ap necer rryra, nomoxyh rrrac CBe smue, ce Je"" .' ChaM e TA'lbaJIa nere p;a ce He neise aa CTO. PaCJIa Je iseaa lbYTfua, paCTao Je

6eC,a

xana ce 'IaI.Ua npemora.

BpWCKa, HeKOHTpOJIl1CaH nJIa'I. Y,[lap~w, BpwCKa, nonaurarse pO,[lW-

rana Wrpa'IKa, nocraje nJIa'IKa. Hecro pO,[lWTelb pa3wrpa neuy, HapO'IWTO O'IeBW BOlle na ronnuajy, nsexe, sanapxyjy, rrposouapajy, ynpaxosaeajy 60pl1rra'IKe BellI.TWHe
ca ,[IeTeTOM, a xana noxyurajy He Bpe,[le MOJI6e, ononeae. ,[Ia 3aYCTaBe"lIY,[ll1lIO "nerera, He nOJIa3W WMaa PYKOM.

3axTeB na ra HOCl1Te cy caao O,[lrOBOp nerera na neanexsarno

rersa. Tana MajKe )f(eJIe ,[Ia rpeanpajy

Sl1p.e,[la je nere casro nocnano.na

crporohy, yrepyjy nere y pep; 6aTwHoM, a He

je rnanuo, na ra je HeKO nOBpe-

My je spyhaaa.na

Tana pO,[lI1Telb HaCWJIHO )f(eJII1 ,[Ia nOBpaTw CBOj ayro-

parer Wnocexce sa CPl13l1'IKOM Ka3HOM. Hapasao p;a je TO rnynocr. Tana ce My,[lpO W3BYU;I1Te113OBe cnryanaje, 6e3 BWKe, lbYTlbe, y MWPY,p;eTeTY najre BpeMeHa,[la ce
Wcasro CMJ.1PW,a nOTOM My ce 113Bl1Hl1Te jep CTe BWY3POK iseronor JIY,[lWJIa,n-ero-

,o;HO,,o;aCTe BW npaan Y3POK iserosax TpeHyTHl1X MyKa. AOBOlbHO je Tl1XO, CMl1peHO, J.13Byhl1 nere l13 xaoca, nOMl1JIOBaTW ra no rnaan~H, THXO 3aMOJIWTWaa onpourraj, Y3eTl1 ra Y aapysje, ycnaBaTl1l1111TO npe crnha

Y MHp p;OMa, W TO je TO. BpeMeHOM here W CaMJ.1CXBaTl1TW na CTe y 90% cnyxajesa, BH xao, pop;wTelb CTaBl1JIl1 nere y caryauajy, aa xojy BaM ce 'Il1HW,,[Ia ce je,[lJ.1HO ayTOpl1TapHe CBeCTl1 pO,[lWTeHxje, aJIW 6aTHHoM MO)f(e pa3peI.UWTl1. Ha)f(aJIOCT, nocnenxue Jba jour nyro he nnaharn

nor W3JIa)f(efua W3 caaor ce6e.

PO,[lI1Telb Mopa HenpeCTaHO y npxponao J.1MaTI1na yMy na je nere npBWX ,[IBaHaeCT rop;WHa

nojasaaoj aKTI1BHOCTI1 11,[Ia je ponarers WJII1CBaKO KO ce 6aBW nereTOM, raj KOjWje p;Y)f(aH na saycraszsa nere xana OCeTI1 p;a je nere npeTepaJIO. [our je ecpl1KaCHl1je npep;ynpep;wTW onyjy xojy nere crrpewa. AJII1 WCTOTaKO aanasmrre na W nperepano YMJ.1pl1Bafue nerera Hwje ,[I06po. AKO aaycrasrsare npwpop;Hy )f(WBaXHOCT nerera, aKO My npeTWTe WJIWra CTpaXOM CMJ.1pyjere, nere he nOTWCKWBan1 npWpO,[lHy norpetiy sa KpeTafueM, xpaseha )f(J.1BaXHOCT y arpecajy, HapO'IWTO TO He CMeTe 'IWHWTWMaJIWM ,[Ie'IaU;I1Ma, w3Meljy T~ene Wce,[lMe ronane, jep rana wMajy BpJIO 113pa)f(eHY norpetiy sa nOKpeTOM waKl\J1JOM. J10PAyroparapae MajKe Ka)f(Y: "eTO nyTa caM My peKJIa,[la TO He pap;w, aJIW OH Y n HO TO 'IWHl1, He sryje Me, He CJIyI.Ua". Haje norpeono pehx CTO nyra, ,[IOBOlbHOje pe ; je,[lHOM, cMwpeHo l1CKa3aTl1 3aXTeB, Tpa)f(WTW na sac nere rrornena y O'II1, XWTPOM0 rJ.1t.JJ-i 0p;Y3en1 WJIWYKJIOHl1Tl1 Y3POK KOjW sac CBe yBO,[lWy HeMwp, WJIWnere eJ-ieP or era caM noayhn ca MeCTa norahaisa, YKOJIl1KOje TO I.UTOnere 'IWHW onacno sa lb .-0 BJ.1caIn WJIWOKOJIWHY.,n:a JIWhe nere nJIaKaTJ.1, BWKaTWTO je 36wlba n.eroa W36 op. l1CTpajTe, 11nere he BaM aa nap MWHYTa 6WTW 3aXBaJIHO.

neua, na MOCTY, a pO,[ll1TelbW aa hynpnj.

3ap je MaJIO nere TPa)f(l1JIO p;a jene npep; YKlbyqeHl1M TeJIeBW30poM?!

heTe ra cyTpa Tyhl1 J.1JIl1Ka)f(lbaBaTW xana Bl1p;l1Te zta je nocrao 3aBl1CHl1K, KOjW Hehe yonurre na jene, YKOJIl1KOw3Mel)y isera l1 jena He crasrsare HOBe l1 jaxe ,[Ipa)f(l1.
YWlIH CTe y n03l1Tl1BHO YCJIOBlbaBalbe W3 xojer ce mrje JIaKO l13Byhw. 3ap je nere Tpa)f(J.1JIO,[la cnaaa y BaI.UeM xpeaeryi! rap;ojl1Te I1JII1p;OU;Hl1jecMwpyjeTe

Hxje, Baaa je 6l1JIO JIaKI.Ue,[la

a CBe TO p;a CTe yMopmf,

360r KOI.UMapa, xao nOCJIe,[lwU;l1 upraha,

Y 8allI.eM KpeBeTY. Kana CXBaTl1Te p;a CTe XpOHl1'IHO aeacnasaua,

kap;a nOKYllI.aTe na nere BpaTWTe y iseros KpeBeT, 6l1heTe na HeBwl)eHl1M MYKaMa, kaol1yc' . 6 . BaKoJ )f(I1BOTHOj Cl1TyaU;l1jl1 xana je npeaaurrnhxaaa,e 0,[1pe,[la npo JIeM, 1<0}11 CTe l' Bl1 CTBOP"JIW. I1p06JIeM pelliaBaTe TaKO llI.TO ce nOBJIa'Il1Te WMaJIW ,[IWKTaop nOCTaJ'e CBe Ja'Il1, . t. . 6 . W3WI.UJIa. WJIWnpaBp;aTe ce 6 e TBpp;ellW KaKO Je aTWHa W3paJa C Be6116u . I<a lJIO lIaKO, na CTe l1CnaBaHW, 3ap;OBOlbHW, YBeK cnpeMHW p;a p;OJl1Te nere 1<0 Tpe6 City a, Y CBeCHOM craisy, xana I1 y sopy KOMyHwu;wpaTe ca 6e60M, a He y nony,KaAa BaM 6e6a caTWMa Byqe P;OjKy Wonosooee p;a joj ycrraBaHa MaMa He Tpe6a.

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CBe 6J1 6J1JIO JIaKIlIe na CTe rrpJ1XBaTJ1JIH J1CTHHYxojy BaM HygJ1M, ga nere go T e ronmre HeMa IlITa na pagJ1 rrpeg TB, rrpeg BJ1pTyeJIHOM CJIJ1KOM 6J1JIO KaK P ne . ' Borca xcaja, a KaMOJIH HeraTJ1BHor. Ila CTe Me rrOCJIYIlIaJIJ1 He 6H CTe MOpaJIJ1 np. 10.. ga npe3 IlITJ1uy)eTe nere on KOIlIMapHJ1X CHOBa, jep lbHX He 6J1 HH 6J1JIO. aJ13Mel)y, cTpY'IlbaKa , 3arOBOpHJ1Ka Bpalla~ I:. caao rrJIJ1IlIaHJ1X BaCnJ1T HJ1XMOAe_ a 6aTJ1He J1OHJ1XgpyrJ1x, 3arOBOpHJ1Ka ynorpeoe . JIa. Y CTBapJ1, OHJ1 cy aa J1CTO) CTpaHJ1, aa CTpaHJ1 aYTOpJ1TapHJ1X BaCnJ1Tlil1X MogeJIa. IlJIJ1IlIaHJ1 ~egar03J1 ce fiope rrpOTJ1B 6aTJ1He, a OHJ1 gpyrJ1 caMO nJIJ1lUa_ HHM MogeJIJ1Ma goga)y 6aTJ1HY. Y CBaKOM cnyxajy He aarsa HJ1jenno HJ1gpyr . 0, caMO IlITO je gpyro MHoro rope, ca HecarnegJ1BJ1M rrOCJIegJ1~aMa 3arOBOpH nJIJ1lUa_ HJ1X TBpge KaKO cy OHJ1 gpyrH aYTOpJ1TapHJ1, He cJIYTehJ1 ga cy J1 )'eITHJ1 gpyrl1
TllTTI Y1 . Y1 M To< 1

IlOCJIyIlIajTe

CMeIlIHe rrperrJ1pKe

HaCTaJIJ1 y KyXHlbJ1 aYTOpJ1TapHocTH. J1JIJ1uraprapenox, BOgJ1 Y anapxajy. rese csejenao je.

Ilpecypa je gpecypa,

rrOCTJ13aJIa ce llITanoM ogBJ1IlIe 6JIaro J1na OHO nerery jacae saxeMO~J10HaJIHO xap-

BpJIO 'IeCTO JbygJ1 MJ1CJIega je CTBapaJIa'IKO sacmrraise HJ1je TaKO. CTBapaJIa'IKJ1 KOjJ1 cy y CKJIagy ca lberOBJ1M MoryhHOCTJ1Ma.

BaCnJ1Ta'I nocrasrsa 3gpaBa,

. Y'IeHO ITahe YCKOPO BHXOpOM 6eca 611TH 3axBaheHH CBI1'IJIaHO. HI1)e I1CKJb 'M a}lce, T a ce BHIlIe He 3Ha KO je ogpacTao, a KO Je nere, Ha)KaJIOCT. Tana e 1l0p0fJ,l1u . ag 9)1 311Majy He)KeJbeHH TOK. cr9apl1 y aaau HeraTI1BHOCT He 3Ha'Il1 MHoro, YKOJIHKO HHCMO cnpeMHH eKI1HYTJIIJI ... Hl1paMO CTBapaJIa'IKe axuaje xoje he gOHeTJII rr03J1THBaH pacT fl P Opo'IHO nJIa . lla p.yr I1TeJby. AK~JlIje he 6J1ITI1y CKJIagy ca JIH'IHOllihy xoja HX crnapa, y )f p.e 'fe'fY 11pog KOMe)' e aK~I1)' a HaMelbeHa. Taxo nnp. aKO CMO peIlIHJIH na He yJIayca OHI1M cKllaP. eBHJII cyK06 ca CBO)'J1MgeTeToM, 360r iscronor neycnexa y yqelbY, o y cBaKOP.H 3)fM 6J1ITJII cnpexan ga y CBaKOM MOMeHTY Hygl1MO nerery novoh, na OHga MopaMO .' MI1 . y6aB rrpeMa V1-lelby, na 6e36po) Ha'II1Ha, KO)11yorrIlITe HJ1CYaesaJ MYpa3BI1)aMO Jb }l11aa IlIKOJICKOrpagJlIBO. . eKJlITTaMO HeraTI1BHe aK~J1)e nerera TaKO IlITO ra crasrsarrp IlITO Y1nl1 aKO Be M ahe YCKOPO he HaM ce BpaTJlITI1 [ax 6YMepaHr, BaH CBJ1XO'IeKJ1Balba. MOnpeg UPT<Ul , he 6J1ITI1na palTOCT aKO CMO caahy 6paTa J1 cecrpe rrpeKJlIHYJII1 seurro H M Pe3yn'faTI1 n Manl1IllaHa 3arrOCJII1JIJIIrrpalbeM TaTI1HI1X -rapana y xynarany, a lby rrpalbeM cyha BYMepaHra nehe 6J1ITJII.Bnhe Jby6aBI1 n03J1ITJlIBHe axuaje qEKAlbE. [PElliKE p.OHeTI1 n0311THBHe pe3ymaTe, sa AaJbI1 paCT. JpelliKa sanpaao JII3aXBaJIH~CTI1 CTBapaJIa'IKOM pomrrersy. xoje cy rrOTrrYHO HOHa nojasa Y )KJlIBOTY rroponnue

MOHJ130BaHa ocofia 3Ha na cy CBe J13BOpHe eMO~J1je 3gpaBe J1 norpetiae J1na caao KpY)Kelbe CBJ1XJ13BOPHJ1X eMO~J1ja npencrasn,a nerera HJ1~E J1 pogJ1TeJba. JegHJ1 gpyrJ1Ma 6PJ1)KHJ1, TY)KHJ1, 3aCTpaIlIeHJ1. rrp06JIeM OgJIy'IHO eMO~J10HaJIHy J1HTeJIJ1reH~J1jy 11 CTe JbYTJ1, pagoCHI1, crrOHTaHO. [PA3ap je MopaTe rrOKa3aTJ1 xana

nehe

YKOlIJ1KO ce He rrpJlIrrpeMJ1MO aa BE3YCJ10BHO He rroCTojl1 jep he pe3ymaTI1 6HTI1 YBeK y cxnany cy CBaKaKO yMaYKO-

xoje 'IJ1HJlIMOJ1lIJII'IHHe gpyrJ1, MopaMO rnegaTH xao nYTOKa3 a re crroc06HOCTI1

J13 re paBHJ1 rpetia J1 pearoaarn

ce Mopajy rrOCTaBJbaTJ1, aJIJ1 rpanxue

J1CKJbyqyjy J1 Ka3HY H Harpagy.

ca nCI1XO<pJlI3J1I'IKHM crrOC06HOCTJ1Ma nerera,

peha nerery,

xoje aac rrsasa, na CTe yMOpHJ1 J1 )KeJIJ1Te THIllI1nOCJIe xera here gaJbe MHoro 60Jbe capahasara. caao YKOJIJ1KOere sacnaraa,a. AKO ynpa)KlbaBa-

Hy J1 MJ1P HapegHJ1X norra cara,

lbeHe AyroroAHIlIlbOM rrpJlIMeHOM rrlIJ1IlIaHJlIX. Y HapeAHOM nornaszsy "BYKBAPA" nahy CTBapalIa'IKa peureisa np061IeMa. nHKO pOAJ1TeJb HlIJIInere HJlICYcrrpeMHH sa nOTnYHI1, AyropO'IHI1 06a311paTI1 ce na rpelliKe ca nap~HjalIHoM npJ1MeHOM CB. )J.ohJII he AO 36YlbJ1Balba nerera.

OBaKBa 3arrOBeCT, J1JIJ16JIa)Ke, MOJI6a, he 6J1TJ1 peaJIJ130BaHa, )KJ1BOTYTeMeJbJ1JIJ1 na npJ1H~J1nJ1Ma CTBapaJIa'IKOr sac aehe CJIYIlIaTJ1. Kazosaaahe

YlIa3aK y CB (He

jep cy OHe HeMI1HOBHe), He 611 6J11I0 rrO)KeJbHO na xpeny

re aYTOpJ1TapHOCT J1JIJ1,jOIlI rope, YKOJIJ1KO je KOM6J1HyjeTe ca CTBapalIa'IKI1M, geTe sac xana BaM je aajrezce, Ha)KaJIOCT.

J egHoM

here 611TI1

pacnOJIO)KeHJ1 sa craapaise

rr03J1TJ1BHJ1X eMO~110HalIHJ1X YClIoBa sautesr geTeTY, a 6J1ITH HeraTJlIBHO pacrrOlIO)KeHJII. Ty cseaox

nocnyurarse nerera, HI1pogl1rezsa jep ce y TOM KOIlIMapy He 3Ha KO KOMe I1IlITa spaha. Y CTBapaJIa'IKoj nopogl1AKo CTe y KOIlIMapy aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1 He oxexyjre xana BI1KHeMO, H3peKHeMO 11PY)KHY pe'I 11yBpegy. TaKBa JbygcKa eca peaxun]a, 11aKO je 6yge, He OCTaBJba TpayMy jep je OHa HeMI1HOBHa TOKOMnpOU e rpancdiopaannje ~e'IOBe'IHe y 'IOBe'IHY CBeCT. CBe rpaje KpaTKO, HeM a KPI1Blb e isa, HeMa nacnojaaarsa, HeMa 3arnaBJbeHI1X eMo~l1ja. JegHHo je 6HTHO: 3gpaBlb 11 )KJ1BOT nerera He csrejy 6J1TH yrpO)KeHH J.13aTO cnaxn ~11 Hl1je sa ocygy

y cneAeheM MOMeHTY here aa I1CTe caryauaje

HeMa nOM axa y Bacrrl1TalbY. Balli 360r rora IlITO je nere gyroroAJlIIlIlbl1

saure HegoclIegHocTH,
nerera.

xana My

6YAeTe 113HeJIJ1BaIllY OAlIyKy Aa here yhH y CTBapalIa'IKO BaCrrJlITalbe, gyro HaM Hehe BepOBaTH. )J.ohJ1 he go o36HJbHHX npoaoxamrja, og crpane 3HBaTH, npoBepaBajyhJ1 )J.eTe he Bac H3aHJlIje, rrorrpaBKa JlICTHHJ1TOCTsame OAlIYKe. CTBapalIa'IKO

ponarers Mopa npeTxOfJ,J{O

aKO aac He nOHece pOfJ,l'I-

~lUer MyqHor )KJ1BOTa. CTBapaJIa'IKO je HOBI1CTV1J1 Il03V1TV1BHO[,

na J13BPIlII1 notipy rrpoueHy

crrryannje, a TO je Moryhe

11l1BlbElhA

KOjl1 gOHOCJII,CBHM'IlIaHOBHMa noponxue:

QOBEqHO[ JlI311 rrCJlIXO-<p 'IKO 3ApaBJbe,

TeJbCKI1 ero ca KOjHM YBeK )KeJIJ.1Te611TI1 y rrpaBy. . BO IlpeKI1HyTI1 JIaHa~ HeraTI1BHOCTI1 je on 113Y3eTHor saaxaja aa g06ap pa3 ) C onpehenor norahaja y noponmnr. AKO g03BOJIHMO na 6ec nerera J13a30Be 6e - 256-

y6aB, PaAOCT, )J.06pOTY J1 CTBapaJIa'IKY JlIHTeJIJlIreHll;Hjy. BHneTe CHryPHH na CTe na g06pOM rryry aKO CBH 'IJIaHOBI1 Baiue rropogl1ll;e nO'IHy na gO)KHBJbaBajy pag xao 3agoBOJbCTBO H aKO noponxna nOCTaHe nOJIHrOH - 257-

aa KOMe ce CBl1 yrpxyjy .n;a crnapajy '-IOBe'lHe YClIOBe )f(l1BOTa ce611 11 JJ;Pyrt1~ ' KaKO 6 11JJ;01II1I0JJ;OlIOTnYHe CaMOCn03HaJe 11caaopeanasatraje 113BOPHl1X a, nOTPe6 raneaara 11CBeYKynHl1X noreanajana csaxor 'IlIaHa nopoJJ;l1u;e. TaKBa CTBapalla'l a, noponxua JJ;O)f(l1BJbaBa neuy, 6paK, nopOJJ;l1'1Hl1 )f(l1BOT, xao aajaehy 611ar I<;a ~ , OJJ;aTCll )f(l1BOTa. J.aKBOJ noponann Hl1CY nOTpe6Hl1 anemr sa nosehasarsex, HaTalll1Tel' Or anenn JJ;a6yJJ;y 3.n;paBl1, Hl1CY 11Mnorpetiae enyxauaje KaKO na unrapem ,all!(Ox a, lIY, nporir, HaCl1lbY 111111 npepaHOM ceKCY Ka)f(Y "He!"... o. TaKBa nopo.n;l1u;a .n;O)f(I1BlbaBa nere xao aajsehe rroponaxno 611aro , ys nYIi onronopaocr .n;a ce .n;eu;a pahajy snpaaa 11.n;a ce rronaxcy na Ha'-ll1H KOJ'I1. Y je I1l.J:Olle. Ky 11 Eory yronan. Craapanaxxo sacmrrarse ycnesa .n;a Ol.J:YBa11ynanpe JJ;11 3JJ;pa. azse '-IOBeKa 11113rpa.n;11Caecaocr TOlll1KO norpeony naaaunsev cBeTY M , , . HoroTora rpefia 3HaTI1, amr HaJ60lbe Je 3HaH>e KOJ'ehere CaMl1 CTl1'TaTI1 xao BlIaCT ~ ~~~
,

qMI-bABAMO [JIOEAJIHY1, 3aje.n;Hl1'-1Kl1 nnan pa.n;a 11CBaKO ca'll1H>aBa CBOj Z. CPI. qI-lM, .n;HeBHl1,He.n;elbHl1, MeCe'-lHlII, na 11ro.n;l1lIIlblil TIJIAH pa.n;a, aKTl1BHO}1M aTe lIIjanHlIIX norpeea, nenapua, rap.n;epo6e, nrpaxaxa, OMl1lbeHe xpane. CT~' ;OB~JbHO CE OAPV1qEMO TIJIY1IllAHE V1 CBAKE APY[E TIPV1HYAE. 3. ,nOD EAMO CBECHY TIPY1MEHY TIPV1HUV1TIA CTBAPAJIAqKOf BAC4. BE)I{ I-bA HAPOQV1TO TIPV1HUV1TIA AOEPOBOJbHOCTV1, EE3YCJIOBTA nUr ' QEKAI-bA, EECKOMITPOMV1CHV1X OAHOCA, 3AYCTABJbAlhA ~~I-IUA HEfATV1BHOCTV1 V1 HEITPECTAHO CTBAPAMO YCJIOBE 3A MBOT Y OACYCTBY AYTOPV1TAPHOCTV1. )I{OBY1X MECEU AAHA CBAKO BOJbHO CMAlh

YJE EPOJ CATV1 ITPO-

CTB~ Y pa.n;y ca CBOJ,OMnopo.n;I1U;~M. Ey.n;I1Te Opl1rl1HallHl1, He rnenajre KaKO Bawl'( npajarezsn pelliaBaJY "np0611eMe y onrajarsy, BI1 ce caao npxorre OCHOBHor Hal.J:e " na: "He ner! V1.n;ejenp"CTI1)f(Y.

IlPBA JIEKIJ;J1JA - nexa rpaje 6ap MeCeIJ, nana

Iloponaua je rrpanpesoseaa sa YlIa3aK y cTBapalIa'-lKO BaCnJ.1TaH>e YKOllJ.1KO cy CBW '-IlIaHOBJ.1nopo.n;l1u;e .n;06111111 3HaH>e nyTeM npenasarsa, KH>l1re, BJ.1.n;eosanaca wnw

y I1H.n;l1BJ.1.n;yalIHojnoponaxaoj

repannja. Ilpanpexe sa npl1MeHy 3HaH>a y npaxCJ.1rpajy OHOlIJ.1KOKOlIl1KOje nOTpe6HO CBaKOM '-IlIaHY nopo.n;J.1u;e. Y npouec paga ce YlIa311 aa 6a3J.1 .n;06POBOlbHOCTl1, HapO'-ll1TO aKO cy neua crapajer Y3paCTa. CBW cy 06aBelIITeHl1 .n;a he npBI1X Meceu; .n;aHa 611Tl1 BJ.1.n; npotie, KaKO 611 CMO gOHelIl1 KOHa'-lHY O.n;lIyKy 0 rpajaosr YCBajaH>Y W np"MeHl osor 3HaH>a. Hxje nO)f{e}bHO MelIIaH>e aYTOpl1TapHOr J.1crsapanasxor, jep TO .n;OBO.n;l1 JJ;O36YH>J.1BaH>a .n;eTeTa, oceharsa He.n;OClIe.n;HOCTl1,HenOBepeH>a y pOJJ;l1Telbe. Crsapanasxo Hl1je nOBpeMeHO excrrepaaearncan,e, TO je HOBJ.1Ha'-ll1H CBeCHor )f(l1BlbeH>a. Kana 113Hac nporoJ.1.n;eMO .n;a}be. BOPJ.1aYTOpJ.1TapHa CBeCT, He 3aMepaMO jenmr npynoca, onpaurrasrc, Bpno je 611THO,.n;aCBaKl1 'IlIaH nopo.n;l1u;e zcmeure: 1. JIV1CTY HEITO)l{EJbHV1X ITOHAiliAlhA V1 ITOCTYITAKA OCTalIJ.1Xt.!JIaHOBa nopo.n;l1u;e, KaKO 611 CBaKO saao na rpefia BOlbHO na pa.n;l1 ua YKI1.n;atbY npnnyzte 11rrmnnane npl1Hy,n;e Ha,n;OHl1M.n;pyrI1M. ITpaKTI1'1HO npaBI1MO HOBY 1I11CTY nopo.n;l1'1Hl1X npaBl1na, A CBaKl1 nOCTynaK l1nl1 nonauratse MOry ce noW BeCTl1 non jenan on ner ayTOpl1TapHl1X BaCnl1THl1X Mo.n;ena,
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5. ~EAEHY1X ITOPEA QYAA TEXHOJIOfY1JE, A 3ABV1CHV1MA OA BV1PTYEJIHE CTBAPHOCTV1 ITOMA)l{EMO AA CE OCJIOEOAE OBOf OEJIY1KA"APOfE", HAPOQV1TO AKO JE PEQ 0 HEfATV1BHV1M CAAP)!(AJY1MA V1fPY1UA, MY3V1KE ... (jennor nana lby.n;J.1he CXBaTJ.1TJ.1 .n;a '-Iy.n;a TexHonomje He rpetia na 3aY3J.1Majy u;eHTpallHO MeCTO y 3ajeJJ;HJ.1'-1KojmresHOj c06J.1 J.111J.1 Y C06J.1 caaxor xnaaa noponnue, seh rpefia na nocroja je.n;aH nOTnYHO OJJ;BojeH npOCTOp y KOjJ.1he CBaKJ.1'-IlIaH nopo.n;l1u;e 0.n;lIa3J.1Tl1xana rpeoa .n;a3a.n;OBOlbJ.1csoje caaaajne norpefie J.1norpetie JJ;oKOlIJ.1'-1apeH>a.Ha OKY 6J.1 xopao 611TJ.1'-IaCOBHJ.1KKOjJ.16J.1 nOKa3J.1BaO KOlIJ.1KOCMO Y KaHI,IaMa expana J.1KOjl1 6J.1HaM novorao na CXBaTJ.1MOKOlIJ.1KO BJ.1pTyelIHo xpane npaHanOMI1H>eM .n;aje BeOMa 611THO na roueno speve aauier )f(J.1BOTa. Iloceono p;albl1HCKl1ynpaBlba'-ll1 He 6yp;y na p;OXBaTpYKe nerera, MlIat)er on neaer ronnna, a na nere no Tpene ronaae )f(J.1BOTaHeM a lIITa na Tpa)i(J.1 npen expanost. 6. Y OBOM ITEPV10AY AKTV1BHO CE ITPOQV1TABA EYKBAP A CBAKA CE KPV13A OABV1KABAlhA OA CTAPO[ HAQV1HA )l{V1BOTA, JIAKillE ITPEBJIAAABA AKO IllTO BV1IllE EOPABV1MO Y ITPV1POAV1. 7. ITOCJIE MECEU )J;AHA HAITPABV1 CE AHAJIV13A CBEfA urro CE AEillABAJIO. Y01IV1 CE HAITPEAAK, AHAJIV13V1PAJY CE [PElllKE V1 AOHECE CE OAJIYKA)J;A JIV1 CE ITPABV1 ITAY3A V1JIV1 CE HACTABJbA CA ITPV1MEHOM OBOf 3HAlhA.

TIC: TIaY3Y npennaacea jep je, y npoce-nroj caBpeMeHoj noponnua HeCBeCHOCT O~OMH a 11jaarsa ' ' nonpace 3aMOp' jep npl1 paaanjarsy CBeCHOCTI1,6y,n;HOCTY3pOKYJe 1n1'1liy HaneTOCT, Mana O,n;MOPnehe lIITeTl1Tl1, HanpOTI1B. Beh sa nenersy, nse HaCTaBlt heTe o ca paJJ;OM, nOTnyHo OCBe)f(eHl1 11CBeCHl1jl1.
n

611'1HO Me mrrajy KOlIl1KO speaeaa Tpe6a Be)f(6aTl1 CTBapalIa'-lKO KaKO 611 CBe OTe!(ll It 0 ca naxoho. Y1CKYCTBO Ml1 xasyje na je TO penaTI1BHO. Ca ManOM ,n;eU;OM CBe Ae Ao6p o 11MYH>eBl1TO.Ca CTapl1)OM , ' Moryue to to .n;eU;OMMano reace, anl1 )e Bpaualbe
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H3BOPY Ben nocne HeKOlIHKO Mece~H, a Hajp;Y)Ke nocne rop;HHy nasa. Mopa

na yMy p;a ce H pomrren,a H CBH OCTalIH KOjH cy y npo~ecy ycsajarsa 3Ha I'll . fha C'I'lI panaxxor aacmrrarsa, spahajy CBOMe H3BOpy, H xplIe xa BPlIHHCKOM )KHB aOTy Ae cy 60)KHjH p;ap. OHH cy saura uranca na pacTeTe nyT lby6aBH, rryr CBeCHO~TI1.l\a

ce I1Ma

HA OBOM IlYTY IlPOEJIEMJ1 CY CJIJ1QHJ1, rOTOBO J1CTJ1

THe ClIUKe xoja aarascyje rOTOBO CBa naura qylIa, yI,I6eHHKY, xao e nOKpe 110(]I nHoj CTBapHOCTU, ce He npnnaax C panourhy. ~oj BupTye UTTop;aneisocr rena, CBecpp;HO HerOBaHa rryunx cep;aM romraa, ,..ce TOMe np ,..., . 6 ~I<O OlIY oHTTacy pesyrrrarx TaKBU KaKBU cy. AnH TO HU)e UO Balli aCKa Y WK ,..., ..de 110ll e TTO cep;Mor pa3pep;a. )];0 ny6epTeTa cy namora saum nmnnaJ'r Ilp06]1eM CB ,..., ropyt'lU Mano narpene. Mano npe3allITn1i.uBalha Y BUP;y rryrnx earn npo .of no Ka3He, 11)1. 1YJa Te U lherOB yI,16eHHK, y3 lherOBe cacrase, KOHTponHe, nHCMeHe, x y3 Bawe p;e .,e,nell" HaCTaBHJ1Ka, a nanan je Haj60Jba 0p;6paHa J1CTurOCTe y cep;MH, 1101lel<ap, Hanap; na

oerd"

pa3pep,.

"Moje geme je neteo, neoqioeopuo, He yttu u came upoeoqu ucupeo eKpaHa ... cc
oxajaor ponarezsa, KOjH Tpa)KH rtosroh sa csoje nere, CTapo TpUHaeCT, xerpaaecr U BUllIe ronmra. POp;UTeJbY cy nasenena np061IeMU npaBa aohna Mopa U rsesry je cana Haj6uTHuje p;a ce peunr 6allI OBUX H carao OBUX np061IeMa. 0 CBeMY OCTalIOM he MUClIUTU cyTpa. Oxexyje UHCTaHT MeTOP;y. MO)Kp;a U rrocroje TaKBe MeTop;e: osroryhare My npUBaTHor nporpecopa, narpannre ra aa CBaKU 06aBJbeHU neenah, a MallO sehy Harpap;y OCTaBHTe aa CBaKY nermry, Ka3HUTe ra xana He ypap;u 06aBe3e. J1CKYCTBO MU rosopa p;a CBe UHCTaHT MeTop;e rrpnnanajy HeKOM on nlIUllIaHUX Mop;elIa, a TO 6u 3HaqUlIO na he osaj np061IeM 6UTU "npeBa3uljeH", alIU he CBaKH cneneha 6HTU y60jl1Ti',jl1 H Te)KU aa pellIaBalhe. Y CTBapl1, np061IeMu HHCY 6HTHU, OHH cy casco nocJ!ep;Hua U P;OK ce He YKlIOHe rrznrurarrn, xao y3pO~11, 1I0nTH~a he caste MelhaTl1 BpeMe, MeCTO U 061I11K xcnozsaaaa,a. ,1J;aKlIe, crnapanasnco aacnaran,e ce He 6aBu pellIaBalheM nojep;UHaqHUX npo61IeMa. 3HalheM crsapana-rxor aacmrrarsa ponarers Hayqu p;a YKlIOHl1 nlIl1waHe, Hayqu na xesa aa npaBl1 HaqUH, p;a xexa p;a ce CBe "YBPHYTO" onapae a ca lbl1M ce xcrone U np061IeMu. Ha U3BOpy, a nanarse, aa BPlIHHCKOM rryry. CBe je lIaKO U neno. TIp061IeMl1 Kojl-i aac Myqe y rrernaecroj rOp;HHl1 )Kl1BOTa nerera, Heyqelhe 11aersocr 3aqenl1 cy ce ac~e p;aBHO, npe nonacxa y llIKOlIy. Ipeurxosr CTe p;onYCTl1lIU saiuesr MalIuwaHY p, rrposona npep; eKpaHOM. Bnpryenao je xanjasano norpeoy 3a Klbl1rOM, ClIl1KOBHW TW ~OM, JbYP;CKOM pequ. J1cToBpeMeHO CTe, H3 aaxra Hen03HaTl1X pasnora. npe3aW h noelle HBalIH same nere on pap;a H pep;a. 3ap CTe HaJ1BHOOqeKHBalIU na je Mory n e crexeae "KBa3H" MYP;POCTH, nYTeM ClIHKe 6Hnl3aJby6JbeH y Klbury, y yI,I6eHUK, Jla aTU, 6HO OH npenyH urapenax CTaTHqHHX ClIHKa. Hapasno, p;a he ra CBe TO eMa P
OBaKO peqeHH~a

rnacx

" 6e3 pap;a U BellITO ce 0)'" BOp;e "ycnexy se 1<. npoA-.ecopa CBe seha U jep;uHu~e, HeonpaBp;aHu qaCOBU ce CBa6"rdH")e,3axTeBH '' . 6 o hasajy TIpu TOM aac nere nazce, CKpUBa)ynu np061IeMe, Balli ec I<"rd p;aHOM YBe . . ce nJ1TaTe me je 3aXBalIHOCT saurer nerera na CBeMY llITO CTe yqUHUlIapaCTa )ep

BaWe p;eTe ce Y

MOPJ1lIO on

saute

p;pecype,

. ojaxano, casnanano rryre. orprno sauroj KOHTpOlIU. Ipanano CBe

' <PU3UqKU

n"

npemnxoncxoj A0611. Op;aKne KpeHYTJ1, njrrare repaneyra. On xpaja. 3a60paBuTe aa nmnnaHe, p;orOBopUTe ce ca p;eTeTOM na CTpnJbUBO xexare TOnJbelhe np061IeMa, 6yp;uTe cnpexaa p;a nere noaaszsa pa3pep;, U TO My pe~HTe, jep Huje U3BeCHO xana n~ ce
peBHTalIU30BaTU HarOH U Jby6aB npejaa HaKO Ba)f(HH pap;y, a pap; cy CBU KynHu HeMa nOClIOBU, )ep;-

sa lbera. .' TeK cana BH 36J1Jba J1MaTe npotinei KOjU CTe nanpasana jour y

xao

U pap; Kp03 yqelhe.

Bes npaor,

TIpaBHTe rn06alIHU KaKOCMOce Ben

nnaa norosopxna.

pap;a CBUX xyhaax J1cToBpeMeHO

nOClIOBa.

npyror, Ilere
a 06a

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CaqJ1lhaBa CBaKop;HeBHU lIUqHU

nnaH xoja Mopa 6HTU CUHXPOHH30BaH ca rn06alIHUM, HOMMecTy. BlbaTe na ce

xopajy

6HTJ1 aa BUP;-

Onpennre BpeMe nocne xojer nere He CMe BUllie na yqu, a lheMY OCTaycarnanraaa ca TUM BpeMeHOM. AKO je cTapujJ1ljaK MO)f(e na yqJ1 P;O 19 '1aeoBa. Ilpaaxah, najnazse no 17. xacosa. Hapenaax non a can BU ra npecrrauraBaTe,60Jbe peseno nposepnre aa 61IHlJ" KBalIUTeT snarsa, ynJ1llIeTe peamry o~eHy, 6e3 eBalje H crpaxa aKO je CBe nOBpllIHO U Hep;OBOJbHO.AKO )KelIU, nere MO)f(e p;a ~onpaBH rpeunce y napennoa cary, nocne xera ce ropfia Y3HMa. To HHje Ka3Ha. To je 6yljelhe CBeCHOCTU. Y TOKY yqelha nere je Morno p;a Tpa)KU nossoh, He caacsakall oArOBop. MO)KeTe p;a My YKa)KeTe na lIUTepaTYPY nperxonnor paspena, KaKO

6" lIaKlll

' e HayqHo nponyllITeHo.

l1eToBpeMeHo nere je HaqHHHlIO nnaa csoje P;OKOlIu~e. TIpBy sepsajy CaqUlhaBa AeTey . , 3 TIyHy clI060p;y. Ocrahere 3aTeqeHH iseroaoa HeCBecHollIny )ep e nanacaT" K n aKO CBaKO sexe rpetia na 6yp;e Ty nerne OKO xyhe, na 6u Morno na nezce OKO Ollonl1 It ' l1:aKOcyrpa yjyTpy up;e y uncony, p;a MO)f(e p;a u3Hlje ca p;pyrapu~oM UlIU "'PytOM rr , OKO 19'1. 6allI y apesre xana je, no rrnany, npecnxurasatse ...... a MO)Ke na

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J131Ia3J1rrpexo BJ1KeH~a J1na ~01Ia3J1 KytU1:rroczrs rroHohJ1, J1aKO J1Ma calvIOT eCT rO~J1Ha. He y36y1jyjTe ceo J1.eTeje saure orne~alIO. rO~J1HaMa My HJ1cy .. Pl1lia, BJbaHe rpaHJ1u;e, rra can rrpe~lIa)Ke )KJ1BOTY aHapXJ1tIHO). clI060~u. He rroBe3."OCT a, CXBaTa. He 3a6pJ1lbaBajTe ceo Y)e, lie Kana 3aBpllIJ1 CBOjrrpe~lIor OH~a here 3aje~HJ1tIKJ1 HahJ1 Mepy, alIJ1 YBeKY CI< ca J1CTJ1HCKJ1M rroTpe6aMa, Koje Mopajy 6J1TJ1y CKlIa~y ca Y3paCToM BallIer ITeTJIa.l1y MeTa He ca lK"!>aMa xoje cy y cKnaAY ca pa3MHIll'!>albHMa HlKelbaMa nnHlllaHe reHepa4.:: HanOKOH nere Ca"Hlbasa, cno60AHO, H3 paBHn TpeHYTHe nOlOIene, cnnca, ca~~ jJ1X MaTepJ1jalIHJ1X rroTpe6a. TeK here ce Ty J13HeHa~J1TJ1, jep BaIlIe ~eTe He B KOlIJ1KOcy lberOBe )Kelbe HepealIHe J1 HerrOTpe6He. TaKo he aa npJ1lvIep 3axTeY!Ai1 TJ1aa norryae M06J1lIHOr HeBepoBaTHY CYMy HOBu;a. 3a Ha6aBKY HOBor M06Y!}Jij BaOr, MO~epHJ1jer Tpa)KWne rrpeMHoro. J1.onycTwTe, ~a ce CY0'IWTe ca pe3YlITaTJ1Ma nJIi1urarror BacrrwTalba, a OH~a 3aje,qHJ1tIKW~OHeCWTe pa3YMHe o~nYKe. ITlIaH rroTpe6a rap,qep06e npasa ce ira nO'IeTKY csaxor rO~WllIlber ~06a, allY! ce ~eTe 06aBe3yje na rrpeTxo~HO nperpecs CBOj OpMap, w36au;w HeyrroTpe6lbJ1BO, a OCTaBWCBe IlITO MO)Kena HOCWWOBe cesoae. ITorne~a IlITa ca 'IWM MO)Ke~a I<OM6wHyje, rra TeK OH~a Ca'IWlbaBa cnacax peazmax rroTpe6a. ITpe Hero IlITO My ~aTe ~orOBopeHy CYMy HOBu;a, CTapwje nere je y 06aBe3W ~a 06J11je MeCTa y rpa~y r~e MJ1ClIJ1 ~a ce Hana3W rap~ep06a sa lbera. TaMO he 0~a6paTW IlITa )KelIW,y CKlIap;y ca CBOjWMCrrJ1CKOMITorrwcane uene WTeK Ta,qa J13Wnw npe~ pO~J1Telba. J1 Ty he BaM 3aCTaTW nax. Orrer noxzrerra WHeCBeCHOCT.3aje,qHW'IKW neTe KopwrOBaTW lberOBe npe~nore, CBeCTWWXna rrOTrrYHO pealIHy OCHOBY,xoja je y CKlIa~y ca ,qorOBopeHOM CYMOMHOBu;a J1BallIJ1M pealIHWM rrpWXO,qWMa. ITC: Hwje rra O~MeT na HarrOMeHeM KaKO 6e36poj cYK06a y noponnnn nacraje ynpaBo OKO rap~ep06e, O,qHOCHOnoure HaBWKe ~a ce rapnepoea paasrersyje, yHyTap nopo~wu;e Wunrpe. ITPBO je MajKa, KO3Ha 'IWMe MOTWBJ1CaHa, MO)K~a rrorpeoox ~a ~OI<a)Ke ,qa je Mna~a WBWTKaxao nepKe, ~03BOlIWlIa OBY J1rpy. ITOTOMje MlIalja cecrpa, jour nere, rrpepaHO yrrazra y rap,qep06y, CTapJ1je cecrpe J1MajKe. YClIOBU sa CBa1jy, OTWMalbe, npexope IlITO je HeKJ1neo rap~ep06e YHJ111ITeH,rrosajazsen npyrapJ1U;W, IlITO je neurro y rrplbaBOM BeIlIY, a onaj ~pyrw je O'IeKJ1BaO na ra CBe TO sexa vpenao CnO)KeHOy 0pMapy. CYK06wMa WCY3aMa Kpaja HeMa. CTapJ1p. ce CTpa 6allI ~aHac )KelIWTy XalbWHJ1U;y,alIW je BW,qJ1 aa CBOjOj CeCTpJ1 J1lIWcecrpmroj ,L(PYrapwU;U. CYK06 je fIeJ136e)KaH. MajKa, MlIa~a, zrerra, BWTKa, crrpeMlbeHa rnn-ron, 6au;a jour je,qaH nornen ~a
orne,L(alIo J1y O'Ia)albY rrpJ1MeTJ1 't'lIeKY, rra He,qaBHO KyrrlbeHO).. Ma)J1U;u. 'V rl-. mneKy HU)e

. e60M na ce pUBalIu ca MlIa,n;UMa, soheaa CBOaDa na) ' Bo1jeHa CBO)OMrroTp hy na ce roxnrna J1 rrpO)KrrJ1pe csaxojaxo cxrehe, lJ ,ne " JOMrroxnerrHOM cnem MelbJ1Balbe rap,n;epo 6e . OCUM IlITO cy cyK06J1 CBa)fa ldaMa je ,L(03BOlIJ1na:aa:Ba HaBJ1Ka HJ1je HU XJ1rJ1jeHcKa, HJ1 3,n;paBa. CBaKO DH" " HeJ136e)KHJ1 0 .e 36J1lba HeXJ1rJ1jeHCKJ1J1 He3,n;paBO HOCJ1TJ1~y1jy ,.oJ1.HeaH he J(OHCTaTOBaTJ1na J . . na MlIal;a ceCTpa KOHCTaTYJe,n;a er II 6 na JOIII Hepa3BJ1Je, 1) "";.epo6Y, Aa je Bpno O:::::)'HO Aeq70pMHcaHa, jep je crapnja cecrpa, O?JOMraP '''JbeHa xaJbJ1HWU; . 6YJ.Herpy,n;J1 Y 6aIII TaJ MUHJ1u. Oill ' 'e OM.. a na CMeCTJ1CBOJe n jOJ J TAKOHa H eKaKO MopalI . HeU36e)KaH. OBY TeMY caM sano...d C"7I rapnue rryT y naxao Je
M

II"" . Moryhe rrocnemrue MO)Ke~OHeTW ce y "rpy yneny J1npy 0 paasorcnare KOJe Jl.na ena ca )!(eJbOMp;a caMO Mall A xana q M pOp;J1TeJb nOCTaHe CBeCTaH, nere MO)Kep;a OTpeHa orrlIyKa pOp;WTeJba. seeM rersa 6 e caMO CTorraMa pop;u. uMyhHJ1 J. e p J. e nere nay-rnno na eCMW~ . ap;a cy po,n;J1TeJbU TIp 061IeM HaCTaJe K IT eua yrnaBHoM noaa BJbaJ.y nae pexenaue ca KOJJ1MapOP;J1ao ClIe Tpollelbe HOBu;a. h I-J,3HaM na WMaIII HOBu;a" U " ... a ce6J1 CJ1rocnoho, KyrrJ1lIa . ~ He saajy IIITa " 0 e." pJ1Te BplIO CTanO)KeH 0 , J.ep cana MelbaTe CTUlI )KJ1BOTa. r1CVnyraumy.. p;rOBO W"/ . pap;J1M T W heIII rr06J1TU OHOlIJ1KOKOlIJ1KOrrpWCTO"A", HOBu;a UMaM, Jep Ja J1. ce6J1 hy YBeK KyrrWTJ1KOnJ1~ 6 rrOXlIerrHJ1M)KeJbaMa,a jH TBOjuM rrOTpe asta, a He . .a B ezmo pap;J1M, a xana TJ1 6yp;eIII 1(0rpetia, y cxnany ca MOjWMnorpetiaaa, Jep ~eIII ~OHOCWTJ1OP;lIyKy". Kpaj! HeMa sapabxaao, sapahasana, 0 TaKBUM CTBapJ1Ma pyrapuu;a KOJ. a ce rrpaB,n;a J11IJ1 B CTe ponnrezs, a He ,n; , npenaparsa, rrpaB,n;alba. W Hy rpaHwu;y KOJynnanera He OJe nomno na orrac norryurra, Iloxnenao 'IOBe'IaHCTB . n aarahyje rrlIaHeTY p;a IT 'IKa CBeCTy TOlIJ1KOJMep 1) MO)l(esaure na nomrece. orpoura 'T' . an on rrYTeBa CMalbelba je 6aw OBaKaB pea aeonxonaa CBaKOJ . rroporrUU;J1 .LOJe Jep;
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sara~elba rrnane re. . aHeTY CBaKa J1rpa'Inn TOHe Mrpa'IaKa, rrlIaCTM'IHMX,6 ecrrOTpe 6HJ1XJe OTe)KalIO 6 6 h III .ayrnh aKO ce ( aKO 3J1HeIII Kon 3y apa P;O J1 e KOlIJ1KO ,he TOHa ka je MMalIa yllory uraprapene 6 h ) MO)KeTe 1IJ13aMMClIMTM AaHac He rysein y BpTMhy,n;o M eIII Ma'I . . sanpaao y kMlfeCKMX Mrpa'IaKa 6MTM nponara xana rreua ex sare ,n;aJe IIIapraperra HaVt.fMM . a Te6M 3J1HeM, ypa,n;M, J ILkXOBMM pYKaMa, rosopeha: "AKO MMelIMllI ,n;a J " 'T' HaIIIOJ.nna}',qaxlfeM Ba3p;yX )KMBMM ... oana TM MeHM xynx, na), . _ . ypa,n;J1.... .LellIKO Ife-rk ca HaMa HecBeeHMMf\. A CBe Je a ' . noxeno onor Tp eHYTKa xana Je cTpy'IHa JaB IfOCTlfeI<pJ1TM'IKM rrpJ1XBaTMlIa lIeranHY ynorpe 6 y nmnuanax BacrrMTHMXMop;elI ,
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HarrpaBwlIa OHa. Bee Y3paCTa, TopHa,qo rrO'IJ1lbe paHOM 30pOM. A CBeje rrO'Ieno J(aAa e3aje MajKa rrpBW rryr HarrpaBJ1lIa KlIaCJ1'IHYrpeurxy xojy 6J1 CMOrrorrsemr non rrp ro IlITJ1nJ1Balbe O~ pena. Bobena CBOjJ1MJ1MJ1TaTOpCKJ1M YMOM,(x rso] je lbeHa MaMa
1

a y cnaBaHJ1 caBpeMeHM ponarezsn cy casso cnen MlIM YTa6aHM rrYT. .ere .71<J1~aJi,eM ner aYTopMTapHJ1X BaCrrJ1THJ1X Mo,n;elIa , crrOHTaHO J1lIaKO cMalbYJ 0\, noX}J C MalbY rrOTp eny CBOjy J1noxnenv csora nerera. MalbeHa rr oxnerra ,n;OHOCJ1 omse 11.111. lbe CMalbelbe rrp0J13B HJ1M y, a MaJi,a nOTpOllilba ,n;OHOeJ1 CMalbelbe rrp0J13BO,n; . "OIfOCJ1ClvIaJi,elbe aaraheisa J1rnotiarmor aarpesarsa nnaxere. Bpnaere 0 pa,n;
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MeCTl1Ma, He 6pl1Hl1Te, npoMeHa aYTOpl1TapHe Y cTBapana'lKY CBeCT 6y 3a CaCBl1M HOBl1M paJI,Hl1M MeCTl1Ma, a norpetia sa Benl1Kl1M 3a JI,~Hehe n01'Pe_ Tpollielba, naurhe ua Ml1Hl1MyM, p JI,aMa, 3ap ~ KaJI,a JI,eTe 6yJI,e pa3YMeno cyllin-my )f(l1BOTa l1 naurer oncran KaJI,a 6yJI,e ocnotioheno CMpTHl1XrpexoBa 6J.1he HaJ'BehJ.1no xa aa nlIalie1'~ lb 6 Mara'l aa rryr Y aBl1 J.1CBeCHOCTl1, TaKBl1M renepauajasra Cpanourhy ypa380j'a ,..., MO)f(eMOOCTaB HeTY aa ynorpefiy, jep he je 'lYBaTJ.1 OJI,ce6e l1 Ca'lYBaTJ.1aa caoje n OTOMKe, lotTlot nna-

e'leHOM npJ.1p;op;aTe JilI1opOP;l1'lHO n030pl111ITe OTBopeHl1 cy BaM daJ1,a CBeMYP PAITOCT 3A ITOBOlbCTBO Ml1P l1 XAPMOHl1JY. I1030J' 'Jilp;OHoce iJ, , iJ, , , IJ~ l<0} e KOPJilCTJil, 6ap Y npBl1M Mece~JilMa pap;a, aa pa3Bl1}alby CBeCHOle 0P; BellJilK dJllll'fe} t.. 0 HellITO BJ.111Ie pehx 0 OBOj TeMl1, T 3a1'O 1,eM
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TIpBO 'lJ.1Talbe "TIOPOJI,J.1'lHOr6yKBapa" Ilpeaaaanaacerse ornopa rrpexa aaaisy xoje HyJI,J.1 "BYKBap" TeCT craisa BallIJ.1XeMO~J.1ja, MJ.1CnJ.1 J.1axunja Ay60KO pa3YMeBalbe J.1onpourraj CBOMpOJI,l1TeJbY OJI,nyKa 0 npl1MeHJ.1 craapazraxxor nacrnrrarsa y npaKCl1 xnaaoaa nopOJI,J.1~e 0 aauroj OJI,ny~J.1J.1casnarse Otiaseurrerse OJI,lbJ.1XnpJ.1JI,pY)f(l1TJ.1

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6J.1he JilHa}'JIaKWe ce J.1CKa3yje Kp03 my MY,AHaJIJ.13J.1pajTe ce6e y l<[e c~eHCKO TIpoMeHJilllJil CTe 6ap TpJil rnasne p;paMCKe YJIore Jilnecerax ens"aHaWlbeM p;aHY, Y CKJIap;y ca aYTOpl1TaPHOM, erOJ.1CTJ.1'lHOM cneuthy. AJ.1peKTOp CTe 30AHMX, t.. a CBe na cacTaHKY J.13BpIliHOr 0p;60pa OP;JIJ.1'lHO mYMJ.1Te, Op;JIyqHor, CTPOnpeAY3eUa J.1 Tor erOJ.1CTJ.1'lHOr'lOBeKa, Y CJIep;eheM MOMeHTY, P;OK caMJ.1cernrre Y ror'..sa 6 pJ.1HY , HTTeJIapJil}'Jil p;03HajeTe TeJIe<pOHoM na sac Jby6aBHJil~a aarryurra- TT u,BJ.1JIJ.1CBO}O} Ka ..., , H te, J1poeJ.1TeMpBJil~e Jby6aBJil, npeKJIJ.1lbeTe, 06ehaBaTe. Op;JIJil'laH CTe myMa~, Jil lIleKeJ1J.1pHe 6Jil Morao p;a HanJilllie c~eHapJilO aa OBy ~allIY y~ory, Ha nyT,! op; KaHCTe 3acToj y ca06paha}y, TIcy}eTe, neronyjere. TpyuenapJ.1je P;O Kyhe p;O)f(JilBeJIJil 6wre. Op;JIl1'lHO mYMJ.1Te HepB03Hor B03a'la, PenepToap Jilpa3HOJIJilKOCTYJIora ey
BaM

Teopajcxo casnanasarse saatsa CTBapana'lKOr nacrrxraisa Yna3aK y npaKcy, YKJ.1JI,albenpJ.1HYJI,e,n03J.1TJ.1BHOryczroarsaaarsa, npe3allITJ.1hJ.1.Balba, Bep6anJ.13Ma J.1snoynorpetie J.1MJ.1TaTOpCKor 06nJ.1Ka yqefua ,...,a3aYCTaBl1MO HeraTJ.1BHY axuajy J.1npeKJ.1HeMO Cnoc06HoCT JI,a ce CeTJ.1MOrr nanau HeraTl1BHOCTl1 Hera' h e HaM nOMohJ.1 JI,a 3aYCTaBJ.1MO Ilorpetia nocroj alba HeKOr 3HaKa KOJJ.1 Tl1BHy peaxuajy l1 HeraTl1BHY axuajy (nOJI,l1rHYTa pYKa, HeKl1 pe<ppeH necMe J.1CnJ.1'lHO) eMO~J.10HanHl1X ycnoBa sa caMopap; CBJ.1X Henpecrano cTBapalbe no 3J.1Tl1BHJ.1X ,..., ..." a nl1 npeTxOJI,HO MopaMo nOCTaBJ.1TJ.1 HOBa CTBapana<iKa xnaaoaa noporrl1TTe npasana, 'll1je he rrocnennue JI,OHOCl1TJ.1 MJ.1P,paJI,OCTJ.1XapMOHl1jy Y HaW p;OM, Henpecraao Hyt..elbe <) no 3l1Tl1BHe axunje, ' rpeayrno l1nJ.1oJI,nO)f(eHO Beaycnoano 'le,Kalbe JI,a ce ycnocraan XapMOHJ.1ja y BaMa J.1y CBJ.1M 'lJIaHOB~Ma noponaue He norxpaisyjre Tyl)y HeraTl1BHOCT, He JI,03BOJIl1TenojeJI,J.1H~JilMaJilJI~rpyn~ JI,aBpllIe npl1HYJI,y, ycnoszsaaarse, npesaurrxhanarse l1 Bep6aJIJ.13aM Hap; BaMa l1 naurosr p;e~OM, To He 3Ha'll1 JI,ahere ce caahara, Tyhl1, Haje<pJilKacH~j~ Ha<i~J-f e p;a :raKBe ~yp;e l136eraBaTe, aKO je l1KaKOMoryhe, Haje<pl1KaCHJ.1je, HajJ101'p 6Hl1)e l1 Ha)KOpl1CHl1je je 3aYCTaBJbalbe npanyne xoja Knl13l1 ca eKpaHa,
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ja'la CTpaHa, CTJ.1f1Il1 CTe KyhJil, AO'leKaJIa cy sac Cl1THap;e~a J.1KpynHa )f(eHa, CTaBJbaTe MaCKY aa naue, a J.13MaCKe nporOBapa rnac aYTOpJilTapHOr MyllIKap~a KOjJilp;eJIJilBep6aJIHeK crsapne nauxe, )f(eHJil Jilp;e~Jil, YeneJIJ.1 CTe p;a JilXce OTapaCJ.1Te, XaJIanJbJ.1BO npenacrasare HOBl1He xoje sac ysone Y yJIory xoaexa npase nOJIJ.1TJil'lKeCBeCTJ.1, .3ap OHK TO p;a xaacy npcrns CTpaHKe sa xojy ja HaBJiljaM J.1JIJil jour rope, 'KOjOj ja npananaa". Y rnasx CPPOHTOBJil,nonene. J.1HTepeCJil,npJilTJilCaK J.1HOBJ.1cneaapHO. Ilpenyuxare npeKJ.1p;ajyhJil pe'leHJ.1~e c~eHapJilja, J.1Jil3HeHap;a -ryjere MY3JilKY 8awer nermscraa. Y TOM TpeHyTKy CTe He)f(aH p;e'lKJilh, CehaTe ce HOCTaJIfJil'lHO ~BOjHXpomrrersa JilcnpeMHJ.1 CTe na saarpare ua p;acKaMa, p;orat)aj KOjl1 sac Be3Yje 6aw aa Ty necsry, CBH CMOMH Benl1Kl1 mYM~Jil, )KJilBOTje orpoMHa n030pHJil~a l1 3aTO CMO3aCJIY>l<HlIH na HMaMO csoje CTBAPAJIAqKO TIOPOAl1QHO TI030PJ.1111TE, xoje he haM nOMohJ.1JI,a6p)f(e yt)eMo. y CBeCHoeT, mep;ajyhl1 ce6e aYTOpl1TapHOr, na sennI(HMKOpa~l1Ma KpeHeMO y ocsajaiee cTBapana'lKe, 'lOBe'lHe CBeCTJil, OBO je He06l1'lHO n030pJ.1IlITe, saure n030pl11lITe xoje je y CPYHK~l1jJil n03JilTI1BhOrn paCT a l1 ocaajatsa 'lOBe'lHe CBeCTJilcsaxor xnaaa nopop;l1~e, 'Ull\epeTXOAHa nenana "BYKBapa" cap;p)f(l1 npwse 113)f(l1BOTa ayTopl1TapHe nopelotnpl1'Ie xoje p;ajy CTBapana'lKa pellielba p;aTor np06neMa, Hexa BaM 6allI Te
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nazosy na canpscaj ",opa l\ onrosapa cueax xojy myMl1Te. a YKOlIl1KO CTe crpaaau, a necsre Hl1CY nanacane, crsapajre CaMl1. I1l1lUl1Te . pe~11 KOJe he HOCI1Tl1 CYllITI1Hy saarsa CTBapalIaqKOr nacrnrrarsa, aa n03HaTe MellO . l\11)e xoje BOlle qllaHOBl1 same rroponaue. 3a cana l1MaMO caao U)J; ca neCMaMa sa no
rOBopHor . nOApyqJa. Po

noope MY311Ke 113aTO na)f(lbl1BO orneaajrs CBe nee Me 1(0)' EyKBapa. " C' saxa necaa Je aanncaaa aa n03HaTe e ,.,el(0l\ ga l1X rtesare xao COHrOBe y3 rroaopmuae Cu;eHe 0 11. necaaa jep canpxcaj HOCl1 CYllITl1HY CB 11 neCMa.~ 6pa.

Al1u;e cpncKor

rrrysrue, A06pe nenaxe, A06py My311Ky 11 A06ap Cu;elia. saurer je311Ka KaA CKOql1Te na n030pHl1u;y. OCTallO HaM je jour Aa nojaCHl1MO Aa crsapanasxo nOpOAl1qHO n030pl1llITe l1Ma YBeK ABa "ql1lia". KpaTKa cnena, npaxasyje norahaj I1lll1 CI1TyaU;l1jy 113 fIpBI1 "qI1H", 60lbe peqeHO, )f(l1BOTa saute, nOTnYHO, 111111 gelll1Ml1qHO ayTOpl1TapHe nopomrue. Y npyro, ql1liY np0611eMa. MO)Kga CTe ce nOTIlYHo 3ajeAHl1qKl1 here 113HaDl1 craapazrasxo pelliefue oClIo60Al1l1l1 aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1, amr CTe nOHeKaA y Al1l1eMl1 Aa 1111CBl1 saura xnaHOBl1 nOpOAl1u;e napacrajy y cTBapallaqKe 1I11qHOCTl1 11Hl1je na oAMeT ga np06JJeM pellIl1Te na n030pHl1U;11 11 OCBeTlIl1Te ra 113 yrna csaxor xzraaa noponaue. Ilourro HJ.1je peq HJ.10 xaxsoj nCJ.1XO-ApaMl1 BOAl1Te paqYHa na CBe Mopa 6J1TI1
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BeOMa AYXOBJ.1TO. AYXOBl1TOCT nOCTJ.1)KeTe npeTepl1BafueM, )KJ.1BOTa. AYXOBl1TOlliny je YBeK noaaxcere

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na cueny

113

IIEBAJTE 11 Y)l(l1BAJTE
allaqKor
n0611JJl1

na rnenaoua

CXBaTe anCYPAHOCT np0611eMa

KOj~1 CTe ynYTcTBO

nopogYf'lHOr
TT

n030pY1llITa,
M

Ballie

nocnennna

aYTOpl1TapHOCTJ.1.

AYXOBl1TOCT

je

Haj6olbl1

nyT

ga ee 113a30Be

csrex

J.1OTBOPl1 cpu;e Mopa

xosexa,

He 3a60paBl1Te

ga 06aBe3Ho

ogrnYMJ.1Te J.1gpyry

cuesy

xoja

Crsapanaxxor aacnararsa. 3Haql1, "EYKBap" ce Mopa notipo Hayql1Tl1. Ca naxohosr MopaTe rrpenoaaaaarn ayTOpJ.1TaPHe BaenJ1THe Mogelle 11 ocnotiaharn l1X ce y napennoj cueax, rparajyhn aa KOjl1 HaqJ.1H CTBaAaTJ.1 pelliefue, J.13paBHl1

para eMOU;110HallHe YClIOBe npenyHe PaAOCTl1 11Jby6aBJ.1. Bib aTe Bpno 6p30 here 3a60paBJ.1Tl1 npl1'lJ.1u;e ayropa 11 noxera CBe snure Aa era J1 eflana peneproap, aaurer nopomornor rrosopaurra, same 1I11qHe np0611eMe. 3H . eMU' Bl1Aelll1 KaKO nama neua, saura eynpyra, nama MaJKa, . AJ.1heTe ce xana 6y~Te , MOL\U)a urrsajy onnaxne HOBe cnene xoje ey J.1Aalbe y cllY)f(611 XapMOHJ.13aU;U)e e _ OTnJle Y CBJ.1X,Onyureaahere ce xana aauia cynpyra aa Cu;eHJ.1 y rnYMaqKOM 3aHoe _
ure
<pllaMeHro,

crsap t;..' iare Bpe HY1M eagp)KajY1Ma o 'leIlllle Hana)aT HAeje he 611Tl1 113Y3eTHe YKOllY1KO ce urr , , ajre ca CBO)OM geu;oM. CBHX BpCTa YMeTHOCTI1. Ileaajre Y1Y)KY1B. ' BaM nOKlIafua ayTOp ogY1)e Y1peqY1 KO)e mnuere noe3Y1jy", Y)KJ.1BajTe nesajyhn gY1BHe, n03HaTe xen "t;.. Y1nO'leTY1 na ClIY1KaTe, "nopomomor 6YKBapa. YCKOpO nere Y1B , ' Ha eTa3Y1 AYXOB. Y1BOTa 'lOBeK KO)Y1)e H a Kpajy osor nyTa nocrajere YMeTHY1K)K , aor pacra,

aa Kpel1pafue

nOPO]J,I1~HO n030Pl1IDTE
I1030pl1llITe llITO geqje

caney, xana

cynpyr,

y OKBl1PY l1MnpOB1130BaHOr naaa. El10e

BOpl1 npellene ce nOHOBO

CTl1XOBe, 113 AaBHl1X rl1MHa311jcKl1X 11 ojaxare BallIY lby6aB.

, U3fO cu;eHapU)a, J1,a a3JlOf TO HOBY1P

noponnue Y1OHl1X lbygl1 cpue Y1gaHaC l1Majy

'lyga, 3gpaBlbe, n0311Tl1BHOCT,

crsapahe

sarsytirrre

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)f<l1BOTJIerrOTOM OCYH'IaH. Hexana je Illexcnap I1rpao aa lbyp;e cyp;6l1He XaMJIeTa, JYJIl1je, OTeJIa, cyp;6l1HaMa lbl1XOBI1MKa311Bao 'IOBeKY KaKO ce 60lbl1 nocraje . Ilanac he Illexcnnp, rrorrryno HOB, I1rpaTI1 csyna )f(I1BOTCBOj yxeha ce6e, yql1he p;pyre p;a 60lbl1 )f(I1BOTcraapajy, snahe p;a JIeTe cpu;eM rrYT aseana on cpMe asesne CaTKaHI1. Hajseha nesozsa nerery je lUKOJIa, op;paCJIOM 'IOBeKY xaoc ueo, YMeTHOCTyqelba 11rrpaBor )f(I1Blbelba osne ce CTI1'1e, rrpl1XBaTa. fIo)f(eJII1, rrryMI1, rresaj 11xrpaj, nosopmure crsapaj, na Pap;OCT CBI1X!!!

[a BOJII1MU;BeT 1106JIaKe! Ja Bonl1M CBe! [a Bonl1M ByKa 11lbyp;e CBe!

nJ1TAM 3AIDTO
(Ka)f(11 3alUTO Me OCTaBI1 - H. ABTOBCKI1) fIl1TaM 3alUTO caM rpeuran ja, rroxnerraH J1nl1 axon, 3alUTO MP3J1M J1 npeaapcx )f(J1BOTMoj J1TBOj? CBI1 p;aHJ1 MOjJ1TY)f(HJ1cy 360r re paHe 60nHe. 3alUTO, KaKO, 'IeMY TO? 3Be3p;e cy TJ1Xe J1HeMe. CBe je notipo. KaKO je. fIpeKJ1HJ1 nanau Mp)f(lbe! Cpnea ocnYlUKyj )f(J1BOTCBOj! 3aXEanl1 nenora TOj!

IbYBAB IIOBE1)YJE (Xaoaaepa - apxja J13 orrepe .Kapsrea", )K. DJ13e) Ilpara Moja Maj'lJ1u;e, Cnyurahy Te, sepyj MI1. Mhl1 hy rrpaBo KOP; 6aKI1u;e, p;a Me He cpeTHe CTpalUHI1 BYK. Ami axo Te cperae ByK, hepxane MI1JIa, He 6p11HI1. TJ1 J1MalU MohHO opyzqe, Jep;J1HOxoje nofiehyje: Jby6aB~ Jby6aB ... [a BOJIJ1MHe60 11TpaBI1U;y. J a BOnl1M TaTY 11MaMI1U;y. J a BOJII1MU;BeT 1106JIaKe. [a BOJII1MByKa 11lbyp;e CBe. [a BOJII1Mcse!
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Tana ce xyno p;ora~a,

3Halbe oraapa rryre, CTa3a Jby6aBlby nocyra, Cpue xyua sa cpu;e. CBe je p;06po, KaKO je. I1peKI1HI1 nanau Mp)f(lbe! Cpnesr ocnyuncyj )f(J1BOTCBOj! 3aXBaJII1 JIerr~TI1 TOj!

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,1J;EQJECPU;E
(1)ypl)eBp;aH - HapOp;Ha necsra)

):(e'Ije cp~e nehe pe'Il1 rrpa3He, Pe'Il1 ropxe, pe'Il1 pY)f(He, Xone rnojy He)f(HY pyKy, He)f(HO cpne xohel He)f(HO cp~e, 'Il1Hl1 cpne He)f(Hl1M, MOJIl1MO JIVI,rrpeKJIVIlbeMO, CBaKVIKopaK KynyjeMO, 3Hany [a, Jby
1 . 6 aa HVIJe TO. 1 . 3Hanelll TVI,Jby 6 as HVIJe TO.

Paha sorsy, l1CKPY naznr. Pap; je l1rpa, cpue neaa, Hseroso l1 rsoje. Xeeej, cp~e 3Ha, cpne BOJIl1, cpue pap;l1, Cpue 3Ha, cp~e BOJIl1, cpue pap;l1,

TonJIVI, lbYP;CKVIYCJIOBl1, He)f(HVI, lbYP;CKVIOp;HOCVI, CMex VIpap; opnhe ce ran! 3Hane CBl1 Y Jby6aBl1 CMO Ml1.

Xeej, He)f(HOCT MajKo,

CBoMe 'Iep;y naj! Eyp;l1 )f(elby, cp~eM narnr BaTpy,

Hexa nere pap;l1 casso. Drenaj, xpatipa, rrpaTl1, aomr, qep;o csoje p;paro. (perppea) Hexa rpellIl1, rpellll1Tl1 je lbYP;CKl1. Xsana OHO xsane spenao. Benpo cpne rpelllKy 6pl1JlIe, Ipeurxe Hl1Kap; Bl1111e. (perppea)
He'HO cp~e 'Il1Hl1 cp~e He'Hl1M,

IIPOIDJIO JE (qaMa~ na TVICl1-

A. KpalbVIn)

KOJIVIKOnauac, BVIKaJIl1 CMO Ml1

A nOTOM HeMonHVI, TyKJIl1 CMO MVI Bepyjyhn - Jby6aB TO je Jbyrn,a naura p;OBOlbHa je Crpax je 6VIO - Jby6aB HVIje TO! KOllVIKO nanac HYP;l1JIVICMO MVI:
rrYTK~'IVIrpy,JIOnT~HOBa~,

Paha

.BOlb y,

l1CKPY namr,

Pap; je l1rpa, cp~e nesa

Illro urra Tpa~enVI Jby6aB HVIje - cana 3HaMO! Iloxnena je - jan VIMaMO. 3a Jby6aB cp~e nyra 3Ha. y Sapua OBOj B03l1MO ce

Iberoso l1 Tsoje. (perppea)

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Bepyjyhx .n;aMVI CTBapHO,

CTBapHO CPQeM BOllVlMO. All' can je npourno, rrpollIllo je CBe

Vi HVlKa.n;nmue aehe 6V1TVIxao rrpe. Cpne .n;o6po noxoh Hy.n;VI, Jby6aB rrpaBy cpue 6y.n;VI. 3a Jbytian cpue rryTa 3Ha.

onpOCTMnYTM,MAMA
(HeMoj rrTlaKaTVI, ropKe cy3e TlVlTVI- cnporpa.n;cKa

necua)

OrrpOCTl-1ny TVI MaMa, UlTO re .n;yro HeM a OrrpoCTHhy TH -rara, Taoje rpy6e pe'lH

IIPBA JbYBAB
(Maxenoacxo nesojxe - aaponaa necsra) Mana Moja Maj'lHQe, cnyuraj cpne csoje. Hesroj na Te sapotie crape HaBHKe. Bonn, BOllH, cpehaa 6y.n;VITVI, ja CaM cynue )1G1BOTaTsor
TH CVIKOCMOC MOj.

To je Jby6aB BaIlla, Jby6aB nenor CBeTa OHa Tyry H 60Tl ceje, p,el.\H cpl.\e BeHe.

[a 3HaM na je Jby6aB: He)!(HOCT H }J,06pOTa

nOBepetbe p,y60KO, Pa.n;OCTH TlerrOTa 3aTO KpeheM rrYTeM THM, rrYTeM 3.n;paBJba, Jby6aBH, Bac H )!(HBOT pa3YMehy, BOTlehy, orrpOcTHhy.

Cnyuraj 'reno Moje TH, HHllITa He 6pVlHVI! Kaxo, xana, urra VI rne, reno peha he. Berra, sona, cpehna 6y.n;VITH, J a caM CyHQe )!(VlBOTa Tsor
TH CVIKOCMOC MOj.

Hxxan Me He xaxosaaaj, OTKpH rajae CBe. Hxxana Me He nrraunr, nenorn HayqVl Me. Bona, BOllH, cpehaa 6y.n;VITH, ja CaM Cyaue )!(VlBOTa Tsor
TH CVIKOCMOC MOj.

MMJIA MAJKO, BYAM YBEK CPEnHA

(MHTla MajKo, llIaJbH Me aa sorry - Hapo.n;Ha necva)

Mana MajKo, 6y.n;H YBeK cpehua.

)KVlBOT je panocr, nHBa.n;a l.\BeTHa )!(VlBOTje 6YKeT HajnerrllIIDC py)!(a.

Hxxyna He )!(ypVl TH, rnenaj, Y)!(HBaj.

Ia CaM Vl3BOP Pa.n;OCTH,3apOHVI, ocerx!

BOllH, sona, cpehna 6y.n;H TH, ja caa'Cyaue )!(VlBOTa Tsor TVI CH KOCMOC MOj.

Mnna MajKo,

y .n;OMyrajH

Pa.n;oCT,

OTBOPVl cpue csoje H Moje, saneaaj necay, nesahy je .n;aJbe. Y rreCMVI TBOjOj, a H MOjOj, MajKo, nexa ce Be'lHO Kyrrajy asesne. omena CYHl.\e, a VI Mecel.\, MajKo. - 273VlCTVlHCKOj.

Mana Moja Maj'lVlQe, KpVllla na] MVI TVI,

Jby6aBVI HayqVl Me, npasoj,

Mana Moja Maj'lVlQe, cnyuraj cpQe csoje. Hevoj na Te aapotie CTape HaBVlKe.
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O,lJ,A,lJ,ETETY (Ona pa.n;OCTJ1 - OeTOBeH) CBe JIenOTe onor CBeTa y cp~y cy nerera. Ilere BOJIJ16llii.eM ~eJIJ1M, pa.n;OCHO J1 3aHOCHO. BOJIJ1 He60, ~BeT J1 pocy, CBaKJ1 TpeHYTaK )KMa csor, Pa.n;OCTje y cjajy OKa, Ji1rpJ1, neCMJ1 J1 nOKpeTy. Pa.n;OCTje y cjajy OKa, Ji1rpJ1, neCMJ1 J1 nOKpeTy. 3aTO ona jenaaa J1 npasa [e o.n;a aauresr nerery,

'fEMEJbE ,lJ,OMA )l{EHA HE)l{HA ql1Hl1 (Ce.n;UM Y je.n;HoM napJ1CKOM JIOKaJIY - K. KOBaq) TeMeJbe .n;oMa )KeHa, He)KHa 'IUHU DaMeTHa )KeHa npuxBaTa CBe TO. C Pa.n;ollIhy [axa )KUBOT U Jby6aB, nenoTY .n;oMa rpa.n;u, na Pa.n;ocT Jby.n;u CBJ1X. Pa3YMe crape. MJIa.n;e U ce6e, DonaKo OHU pa3YMehe lby. Mup U cnory TKa U3 csor senpor cpua. 3a MUP U cnory, )KeHY CTBOPU Bor, HUKor He Melba, OHa nona CnO)KHOM .n;OMY, CBU xpne Y 3arpJbaj. BOJbY, cuary, )KeHa aanasa Y 3.n;paBJbY, Jby6aBu ,lJ;OMacsor.
UX,

PA3rOBOP

O,lJ,OBPY

(",lJ;o-pe-MJ1" - MY3J1Ka J13 <pJ1JIMa"Moje necsie, MOjJ1 CHOBJ1") TO je 3,lJ;PABJbE CBJ1X TO je PA,lJ; H PE,lJ; TO je CPE1iA, sryj TO je JbYBAB, saaj )KHBOT je BE3 CTPAXA YIJ;EHA HE BA)KJi1 Ilotipo - PA,lJ;OCT, OCMEX BPA1iA CBe TO xohy, Mory ja, Panocr, OCMex, Jby6aB, 3.n;paBJbe, anpaszse, Jby6aB, OCMex, Panocr. ,lJ;06po ,lJ;06po Ilotipo ,lJ;06po ,lJ;06po ,lJ;06po -

3A CBAKOr MECTA HA CBETY l1MA (Xafianepa - apzja H3 onepe "KapMeH", )i(. BJ13e) 3a csaxor MeCTa aa CBeTY HMa Cyuue rpeje sa Jby.n;e CBe. CBH cy Jby.n;J1JIenH H .n;06pH Ji1 cBal)J1 HeMa MeCTa Ty. Kana HeKO He nH'IJ1 na Te6e Hexa Te6H He CMeTa TO. CBaKO CBOjy nenory HOCH OCllYllIHJ1 cpuess H OTKPJ1 TO. Jby6aB, Jby6aB ...

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TJ1 BOllJ1 )f(J1BOT J1Jby~e CBe

J(A)J,ACM n03MTMBAH,
("KMlIIHe cpu;a Ka~a CM n03MTMBaH, nen, xana"

nsn

Ilpae,

nnaae

J1nefiezre

- MY3MKa M3 <pMllMa)

C BellJ1KJ1M HOCeM, BOllJ1 J1Te6e

nexcaor sonehe.

Ta~a CM snpaa M qMO, 3HalII TO TM. Jep, 6MTM qMO, snpaa, TO, TO TM je, TJ1 BOllJ1 CBe TJ1 BOllJ1 )f(J1BOT J1Jby~e CBe TJ1 BOllJ1 CBe cpena npasa, TO TM je Pa~oCT.

DaMTM, jep xana CM n03MTMBaH, nen, Ta~a CM 3~paB M qMO, 3HalII TO TM, [ep, 6MTM qMO, snpas, TO, TO TM je, cpena npaaa, TO TM je Pa~OCT. Bepyj MM TO, suaj TO

Vi ~pyrl1 sonehe!

Te6e

M YBeK naMTM TO.

M
CEBEBOJUI (Hane Iloxa MY3MKa M3 <pMllMa "UMraHMlleTe y

aepy] MM M saa] TO TM,

M BOllM TO M )KellM TO.

aetio")

Jep, xana CM n03MTMBaH, nerr, rana CM snpaa M qMO, 3HalII TO TM

Ce6e BOllM Cpu;eM CBMM TaKaB KaKaB CM 6alII TM

Jep, 6MTM qMO, snpaa, TO, TO TM je

cpeha
Bepyj

npaBa, TO TM je Pa~OCT. MM TO.

Kana
Tan

CM 6e3 MaCKe saaj

CM CTBapHO aajnernux

CaMO pa3BM

cesre he

TO M3HMnM

qOBeK M3 Te6e

Boneheur
Ilpyre

Jby~e npMpo~y

nECMA JbYBABM (BJ1HCKa necxta M3 "TpaBMjaTe", Can 3HaM, ~a Jby6aB Jbytias je -ryno,
nenora je,

13. Bepna)

,D;06POTOM ~yrne )f(MBMlII TM BOllM KaKBM cy MX CMllOM MeJ-baTM

Hesroj

Crnapaj ronne YCllOBe Crpax he ce OTonMTM

HMKor

M Pa~oCT M 3~paBJbe CBMX.

Can

3HaM, na Jby6aB je, je xyno,

uesroj

KynMTM

lhy6aB

Hexaj ra M BOllM ra

Iloxnena

JIenOTa M 3~p~BJbe CBMX. Jep, Jby6aB xana ce pO~M, raoj )f(MBOT nocraje qy~o. M Pa~OCT cy Ty. lhy6aB xana ce pO~M nenora

6p30 aecraje

}l{MBOT Pa~OCT nocraje qOBeK xan ce paasxje Bepyj CBe je

cnaureao
nocraje

Can

3HaM, na Jby6aB je, je xyno,

Bnaro

npMpo~a

lhy6aB

Ko BOllJ1 )f(J1BOT paayxre TO

JIenoTa M 3~paBJbe CBJ1X

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OHAJ10H Macro nyTa peKlIa caM He CMern, HJ.1CaMHJ.1ClIYTJ.1l1a Ila caM Te TaKO rypalla OA ce6e. Ilnaunora J.1 JbYTJ.1l1a.

Macro rryTa npehyrno

qeKax naxosy, He)l(HOCTJ.1

VI

Kaxo na TO aaaur xana pe6po Tsoje

Iyunr ce y rOpAOCTJ.1.
CaA 3HaM na cpeha rrpasa He A

llPI1MEPI1 113 llPAKCE

nocroja AOK pe6po Tsoje cnoxoj J.1OCMex y OKY cja

HJ.1caM ja, J.1 nocrana caM Harne neue, HarnJ.1X nanaisa. YqJ.1l1a Me MaTJ.1na rmaxarn He CMeM, MyrnKapu;a craapana Cy3y 3aMeHJ.1X, norpnaraa lbeHJ.1M

Crpaxov OA npaurraisa.
He 3HaAOx Aa CBeT je nOCTaO OA MeHe, TJ.1OA pe6pa Mor Myxao TJ.1reno, npOrOHJ.10 nyury XyllJ.10 na Bora csor, CaA 3HaM Aa cpeha npaBa He nocroja AOK pe6po Moje HJ.1cJ.1 TJ.1,J.1 nocrana CJ.1 CaA CBaKO MO)l(e Aa OCeTI1 Taj neo CBeTa urro CTBOPI1CMO MI1.

AyTOp MY3J.1KeJ.1 TeKCTa AP Mapa BYKOBl1h

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YBOn
paanajasr .n;o xpaja, jep pa.n; na CBeCHOCTJIIM nOBpaTKY lby6aBJil je npouec KOjJII he CBaKO npOlIa3J11TJII na CBOj ocotiea Ha'lJIIH. Ty~JII npJIIMepJII cy noncrauajaa, 61IarOTBopHJII, alIJil sannr nYTeBJII npero'1eHJII y rrpaxe, cy JIICTJIIHCKOfinaro. ITpJIIHU;JllnJII cy JIICTJIIcaxo cy pa31IJllqJIITe )KJIIBOTHe cJIITyaU;Jllje JII pa31IJllqJIITJII Y3paCTJII xnaaosa noponnue. Ysepana caM ce, .n;a CBe aYTOpJIITapHe nopo.n;JIIu;e, HJIIKlIe aa npJIIHU;JllnJIIMa ner BaCnJIITHJIIX Mo.n;elIa, lIJllqe jeAHa ua .n;pyry. OHe "cpenHe", Tpa.n;JIIU;JIIOHalIHe, y KojJIIMa JIIMa nOBpeMeHe npJIICBe caBpeMeHe nopo.n;JIIHYAe JII lby6aBJII, nanac rOTOBO He nocroje. H(l)KalIOCT, ue lIMqe jenna aa .n;pyry, jep cy nocnenxua JIICTJIIX,nlIJIIllIaHJIIX BaCnJIITHI1X Mo.n;elIa, KOjl1 nponyxyjy rOTOBO JIICTOBeTHe nocnenaue. Oryna je caapeveao qOBeqaHCTBO
6poj HJIITJII CBaKJII npJIIMep .n;a rOTOBO KlIOHJllpaHO. CaMO cy

eHJII, KaO nJIICU;y OBJIIX penona,

je aa yTexy

UITO He Mopa

.n;a HaBo.n;JIIM 6e3-

npastepa,

craapanaxxe

nopozmne

nOTnYHO

pa31IJllqJIITe,

OpJllrJIIHalIHe,

a je.n;JIIHJII JII Ilotipo-

aaje.n;Hl1qKJII JIIMeHJIITelb JIIM je .n;a CBe llITO '-IJIIHe, qJIIHe J113paBHJII lby6aBJil Te. a l13

csor ynyrpaunser, nOTnYHO o-rysaaor noreauajana. 6J11ne peanaa npJllqa, aexe peaznre nopo.n;JIIu;e. ITOlliTO cy CBe naira~lbe nopo.n;JIIQe cnaxae, CBaKa nopo.n;JIIu;a he ce6e naha y CBaKOM npJIIMepy JII llITO je HajBa)KHJllje cxaarnhe nyT J1131IaCKa J113KPJll3e y xojy je sarrana, He CBOjOM BOlbOM. Ilopo.n;JIIQa xoja je ycnena .n;a yhe y crnapana-nco aacmrrarse, xoja je YTeMelbJII1Ja CBO)' )Kt1BOT na lby6aBt1 JII,[(06pOTJII nocrarra je Opt1rJIIHalIHa, HOB a, YBeK CBe)Ka, lienOHO 8 Blbt1Ba, clI060.n;Ha,YBeK y CKlIa.n;y ca 60)KaHCKJIIM npJIIHQJllnJIIMa, Paaysrehe eMe t1 npOlIa3He Bpe.n;HOCTJII xoje joj ce cana ayne, )KJIIBene ynope.n;o ca lDJIIMa, aP 1Jt1 Hen 6 6.. e l1Tt1 lDt1XOBa )KpTBa, HanpOTJIIB, 6Mhe y30p .n;pyrJIIM nopomruava, KaKO ., KBaHTt1 Ita TeT rtpepacrao y KBalIJilTeT. Cmapanaxxa nopo.n;JIIQa je npaBa clI060.n;CBaKl1 npJIIMep 60;OPo.n;t1Qa xoja Ht1Ka.n;a He snoynorpeozsaaa lby6aBlby ClI060.n;y jep je CTBapalIaqKa ClIOa YBeK "KOHTpOlIt1CaHa" t1 .u06POTOM.

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Hexa BaM OBI1 rrpl1Mepl1 rrOMOrHY na seh naaac, l1aKO JOUl )J(I1BI1TeHa . t; MOCh KO).11 )e cnoaa 113Me9Y rrpOUllIl1X BeKOBa 11rpeher Ml1lIeHl1jYMa, )J(I1BI1TeY xapM r, HI1)11KaKBYhe nocenoaam qOBeK 6Y!I,yhHOCTI1, 'IOBeK cTBapalIa'IKe CBeCT o. 11. Ha rrO'IeTKY osor rryra ycrrOCTaBJbalba paBHOTe)J(e MaTepl1jalIHor 11rry ,.., XOBliOt 'IOBeK ce Mopa oClI060!I,I1TI1 CBI1Xrrer ayTOpl1TapHI1X BaCm:lTHI1X MO!I,elIa ' , nOClle sera he ce ayroparapaa. He'IOBe'IHa CBeCT'IOBeKa TpaHc<pOpMI1Can:l y CTBa palla'!. KY,'IOBe'IHY CBeCT. Kana ce OBO!I,oro!I,11Cl1ryPHO ce rnrrare urra aac 'IeKa fA . .n!I,a~e here )eCTI1, CrraBaTI1, YQI1TI1,MOlII1TI1,UlI1TI1,rrl1TI1 11<ppaHU;YCKI1rOBOpl1TI1 , !I,O'Ie. KI1BaTI111I1crrpahaTI1 3eMJbOTpeCe, U;YHaMl1je,CMpT Haj!I,pa)J(l1x. CBe he 611TI1 MC " )ep h e CBe 6 I1TI1113paBHI1 lhy 6 aBI1 11,Q06poTe. To, a TOlIl1KO!I,pyra'Il1)e
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nosehaaarsa yHyTpaUlJ-be MOTHBaU;Hje or CHCTeMa, paA rra noxyurajroaa 06pa30BH'IeJ-be. HapO'IHTO ce Mopa 06paTHTH nazosa na CTaBKY KynoBHHe 'IYAa "pa.u J.1y .e <PYHKU;HjH cnozsaunse, peJIaTHBHO ycneUlHe KOHTpOJIe lbY1l11(~aMeteXHOJIOrJ1J ,Y CTeMI1 ysehaaan,e rrOJII1U;I1JcKor nJ'yTepCKH CH , rrpaherse , rrpaczryunoraaise, e J(OM p, a J1 CJI.). anapaT e'IeHe a KTI1BHOCTHryrajy orpowan HOBau;, a pe3YlITaTI1 HI1CYcrreKTaKY. C P Be a aKO cy J1 cneKTaKYlIapHI1 TO He 3Ha'IH MHoro, Jep neua pacTy C 11!I,OHOCe napH", Ha)f(H"Je . rrpo 6 lIeM e , J'OUl OrraCHI1)'e aa u;elIoKynHo !I,PYUlTBO. Be !I,OKce He HOBe,c e Y3POUJ1 caBpeMeHJ1X np06JIeMa, ner ayTopl1TapHHX BaCrrHTHI1XMo.n;elIa, OTJ(JIOH . Hl1 orposraa HOBau;, Hl1 caMonperopaH pan He noaoce cersexa to. TaKO KaKOJe. 6"ue. 6 rrOCJIEITJ1UAMA. EI1THa je CYUlTI1Ha, pa.n; na orxnaisaellleJ-ba Jep ce CBl1 ase
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Caapesrena rropo!I,l1u;a 11caapexreno !I,PYWTBOcy naaac y oTBopeHoM paTY, y KojeM cy CBI1ry6I1THI1U;I1. Je!I,HI1npyre orrTY)J(yjy aa rrp061IeMe y Kojl1Ma ce ryme, EaBe ce <popMalIHI1M, a He CYWTI1HCKI1M npoxesaaa. AYTopl1TapHI1 CI1CTeMce pacna!I,a, rrlIl1WaHI1 MO!I,elIl1npase xaoc, a !I,PYUlTBO11rropO!I,I1u;a ce I1CKJbYQI1BO 6aBe nOKywajl1Ma!I,a CMalbe raj xaoc, pewaBajyhl1 noclIe!I,l1u;e. Ha)J(alIOCT, pemasajyhi, jenny rroClIe!I,l1U;y,rrpl1MeHOM Ka3He 11aarpane, CTBapajy HeKolIl1U;I1HYHOBI1Xrrpotineaa, KOjl1ce BpeMeHoM MaHI1<pecTyjy xao JOUl Behl1 np061IeMI1. Kana nopozonra CXBaTI1 !I,a je cy!I,6l1Ha !I,pYUlTBa y lbeHI1M pyxaaa 11na je OHa ra O!I,xoje ce 1I0rl1'IHO O'IeKyjy CYUlTI1HCKe,'IOBe'IHe npoaeae CBeCTI1caaxor rrojenxnna, rana he !I,PYlliTBO rrO'IeTI1 !I,a ce 6aBI1 CYUlTI1HOM.,QOKce caBpeMeHa rropO!I,I1u;a He TpaHc<popMI111Ie y CTBapalIa'IKY, sprehesro ce y Kpyry. A KPyr HaM Hl1je 6aUl na KOPI1CT.Bazsa HaM yhl1 y cnl1palIY y xojoj CMO CBe 60Jbl1 1160JbI1, Y O!I,HOCYaa ce6e jyxe, aa ce6e y npoumoa rpeayrxy, El1lIO 611 HeonxO!I,HO rrOKa3aTI1, peanaosr pa'IyHI1U;OM, KOlIl1KOCBaKO caspexeHO !I,PYUlTBOTpOUlI1 HOBu;a CBOjl1XnOpeCKI1X 06Be3HI1Ka, na 6pojHe aKU;l1je, alia 11!I,PYWTBO1106Be3HI1U;I1, O!I,orposmor ynozceaor TpYlla, I1Majy BI111Ienrrere Hero KOPI1CTI1,jep ce 6aBI1 <P0PMOM. ,Q06pl1 eKOHOMI1CTI1 11excrrepra 6pOjHI1X 06JIaCTU he YCKOpOCeCTI1 aa ~TO 11113pa'IYHaTI1 KOJII1KI1cy MaTepl1jalIHI1 ry611U;11,!I,06pJ.1X, alIl1 jalIoBl1x axuaja, norry r pana na cMalbelbY HaCI1Jba, cMalbelbY aJIKOXOJIU3Ma, HapKOMaHl1je, 601IecTI1 3aBI1CHOCTI1,cMalbelbY Cl1pOMalliTBa, CMalbelbY 6po)a pa3BO!I,a, cMalbelbY M06I1Hra ... J/13pa'IYHahe MaTepl1jalIHe, alIl1 11ry611TKe lbYIICKUX pecypca, xana je y rrxrarsy pan aa rrosehan.y HaTalII1TeTa, rroneharsy KBaJIJ.1TeTa Me1)YJbYACKI1X onaoca, rroBehalbY panae rrpoAYKTI1BHOCTI1, pa!I, aa YHanpeljefbY
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OKa. EaBJbelbe rrocnenauasra Je <popMa. !by Y p llITBO Ml1ClIl1na je Haj6HTHI1je nlIl1UlaHOM 11peanaosr rrpl1Hy.n;OMycnocra,Upy perr TaJ' crrozsaunsn pe.n; je Bl1.n;Jbl1B, r roxcezsaa, amr B"T" cnOlbaUllbH ,..,. . He.n;OBOJbaH.
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HeMHp.,Cyurrmre HeMa !I,OKce He rrO'IHeMO 6aBI1TI1 lbOMe. t; Kalla ce noronx yHyTpaUllbl1 pe.n;, yHyTpaUllbH MHP, a OH ce norana y O!I,CYCTBY Ka rana cy cnorsannsx pe.n; H Ml1p caao lIOrl1'IHe nocnenxue. np~'JHy.n;eCBI1X06lI n,,.., Kaxo petIe orau Tanej: "CMI1Pl1 ce l1 CTOTI1HeOKOretie he ce CMl1pl1TI1 . Ilocroja 6e36poj rrpl1Mepa KOjl1 rrorsphyjy HCTl1HYna ce caBpeM~Ha .n;pYUlTBa, yrnaBHoM 6aBe <P0PMOM. Ilanac .n;PYUlTBO,11pa3BI1jeHI1x 11Hepa3BHJe.HI1X, TpOWI1 orpoany eaeprnjy, HOBau; 11BpeMe Melbajyhl1 06lII1K CBOjI1HI1,MelbaJyhl1 <P0PMY RHCTHTYU;l1jaMa,caarpajyha .n;a cy ayropnrapae <popMe maBHI1 KPI1BU;Haa xaoc Y APYUlTBY.Mersaise <popMe rrpaTI1 orpOMaH 6poj 3aKOHa, rrOrpeWHI1X xopaxa. . Je . y KopeHY CBaKor 3aKOHa 3aKOHI1 lIOMe Jby.n;e, noropuiasajy lbl1XOBe onaoce, Jep CRlIa, CBaKor cnozsaunser Melbalba, npI1Hy.n;a. CBe .n;06po, y lby.n;I1Ma caBpeMeHor APYUlTBa,ce nOHI1WTaBa xana ce H3MeljY'IOBeKa 11'IOBeKa YMehe Ka3Ha l1 Harpa.n;a, nmnuaHa I1lIl1peanaa rrpI1Hy.n;a. Hcroapeaeao, rrp06lIeMI1 ce YMHO)f(aBajy. lhY~H nare 11He BI1.n;e113lIa3 l13 !I,YXOBHeKpl13e, y xojy cy sananx. ,QYXOBHOj,MopalIHOJ H MaTepMjalIHoj Kpl1311ce He Ha311pe xpaj .n;OK y Jby.n;I1MaH Meljy lby.n;I1Ma He sasnana ton-Ip.A Ml1pa 11lhy6aBI1 aehe 611TI1.n;OKce CBeCHO He ontiane aYTopl1TapHH sacnl1THMMO!I,emr, y Jby.n;CKI1I'1 O.n;HOCI1Ma. .
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BPllO je Ba)J(HO pa3YMeTI1 !I,a he 3aKOHH nocrojarn JOUl nyro, BplIO nyro, Jep he 3aKOHM6l1TI1 norpetina CBe .n;OKI1Ma lby.n;H H nOpO!I,Hu;a ayTopwrapHe CBeCTH. l<a!I,ace aYTOpl1TapHa noponaua TpaHc<popMI111Ie y CTBapaJIa'IKY, xana CBeCTnOlIHl1 't 'Iapa, lIeKapa, cseurreaor JIHu;a 6y!I,e CTBapaJIa'IKa TaAa he maBHH KOHTPOJIO~", lhy6aB 11,Q06poTa 6HTI1 y nasra, a 'IOBeK KOjJ.1 )KHBH na npHHU;HnHMa Be'IHHX PeAliOCTMHe rroTpe6yje KOHTPOJIY3aKOHHMa.
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I1ome.n;ajTe KOjJ1 ce CBe 06JIJ1QJ1 nopop;J1Qa jaszsajy y CaBpeMeHOM . J1CTOBpeMeHO nopo.n;J1~a C .n;PY~t ny, KOJIJ1KO 3aKOHa nparn re npossene, P;OK je . HJ1)e . np06JIeM y <POPMJ1,Ben y CyWTI1HI1 1< Be Clla6 J..t}a . npynrrseaa J1HCTJ1TYQJ1)a. . a.n;alh aHC o 6yp;y Tp <p pMI1CaJIJ1 aYTopl1TapHY y CTBapaJIaqKY CBeCT,HeqOBeqHy y,qJ..t t:. HY,rana lie ce p;Orop;I1TI1CYWTI1HCKenpOMeHe. Haaeinhy ienaa npl1Me Y'IOBe IfE '. p. KOHOMCKa TpaH3I1QJ1)a Hepa3BI1)eHI1X sextazsa, naaac no.n;pa3YMeB a.n;a uezroxynna p;pYWTBeHa I1MOBI1HaMopa npeha y pyxe npl1BaTHI1Ka. CBe C rOto Bo . pymea.ea, paTOBI1Ma, TpaH311Ql1joM, CBe rpaje O.n;BI1Wenyro. CTpa eTO . 0ABJ..t)a rr M~Ylh~J..t pa3apa)y . ce nopo.n;l1l.\e, npacase, Bpep;HOCTI1,npJ1pop;a. He Ha3l1pe ce Kpa)' M ' . TaKO 611THo.n;a JII1je 06JIl1K CBO)'I1Herrp"\V YKaMa a onna, HeKO CXBaTI1.n;a11HI1)e ' . OBO.n;y60KO cXBaneHo 2008., xana je CBeT ynao M J".aBHI1l111J..t npl1BaTHI1. HapOql1TO je Y 6 . . .n;y OKY peQecl1)y KO)a y OCHOBI1nosasa na nOXJIenl1, KO)'ayspacra aa nOXJIen 6 . '. oraTJ..tx 11Cl1pOMaWHl1x. ,qoK)e nJII1WaHI1X 6l1ne nOXJIenHI1X, P;OK je nOXJIenHI1X eKoHOM_ CKa J1 MOpaJIHa xpnsa he Y3paCTaTJ1. He 6aBJ1MO ce KPl130M xao nOClIerrTKTr , M.~OM, He 6aBl1MO ce nOXJIenOM, TOje <popMa!
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aKJIeTBU. . ha ca caapeaeaov noponauoa, xoja je nOCJIaJIa CBO)Yp;el.\y, .n;a IUra ce Aoral) CBeCTI1.Tpowe ce npexre, cnara, HOBaQ, HepBJ1 n PYUITBOno MepTKnOXJIenHe rpaAe A . OHa)' 3aKOH 0 nOpOAJ1~J1. ,D:aJII1 he 3aKOH npasnara 6u ce U3fJIaCaO OBa) UJIJ1 11.a . t.iOceKcyaJIHY, sa H6paqHY 3a)'eAHJ1l.\Y,.n;aJIJ1he 6aTJ1Ha 6J1TJ1J13aKOHOMyKJ1HYXO HaBJ1pe XJ1 zsany np06JIeMa KO)'enazsa 3aKOHOMpeWJ1TJ1. Ha Kpa)y MHOrJ1qJIaM 6 . ra-. a OCTa)'y MpTBO CJIOBOna nanJ1py, a y peaJIHOM )l(J1BOTYnacnn,e HOBU3aKOH . . y)a. 3awTO? 3aKOHJ1 cy <popMa, xojy je CBe rexce nOlllTOBaTJ1. CYlllTJ1Ha )e pa3BO) CBeCHOCTJ1 Y KOjOjqOBeK Jhy6aBlby J1,D:06POTOMKOHTpOJIJ1lllece6e. Y npeJIa3HOM nepnozry 3aKOHJ1rpetia .n;aycnocTaBe HeKJ1pen, y omurev xao.cy. 3aKOHa, YCTaBa, )ep J~~~I ahe ce BeJIJ1KaJ1xecra norpetia aa npoaenosr J1nopanoa ayrOpJ1TapHJ1 MOp;eJIJ1KOMnJIJ1Kyjy )l(J1BOTJ1 OHO lllTO je Ba)l(J1JIO)yqe, He Ba)l(J1 p.aHac. Tpxa J13Me!)y 3aKOHa J1 -roaexa je CBe seha, aa lllTeTY J1 -rosexa J1 3aKo~a. 3aKOHJ1ce He rrourryjy, a orpovan 6poj lby.n;J1TPOlllJ1 .n;paroQeHe care CMJ1llllba)yhM HOBe J1HOBe 3aKOHe. MHOrJ1 rpoure care )l(J1BOTarpaaceha pyne y 3aKOHJ1Ma, Kp03 xoje he ce npoayhx fuJ1XOBanOXJIenHa CBeCT, a OHJ1najxpaopajn He xajy aa 3aKoHe, no QeHY zta sasprue, TaMO rne ce aaapurasa. 3aTBopa J1 3aTBOpeHJ1Ka CBe BMIDe,nJIJ1lllaHJ1X Ka3HJ1 orpovan 6poj. Orrer <popMa, oner Tpolllefue orpoxmor HOBQa, KOjJ1ce HeKaKO aanoxaan aacrpauryjyhou Ka3HeHOM, HOBqaHOM nOJIJ1THKOM. I1peCJ1nafue J13 urynzser y npasao. . I1pa3Ho J1 urynzse he 6J1TJ1CBe P;OK ce He sanoxae o36J1lbaH pa.n; na p;YXOBHO) TpaH3J1~J1jl1nopop;J1l.\e, Ma xojer 06JIJ1Ka nopo.n;I1Qa 6J1JIa. cDopMa noponnue 6J1ne ~ . pJ1Tap HeBa)l(Ha, Kap;a CBaKI1'IlIaH re I1CTenoponnne TpaHC,OpMJ1llle CBO)Yayro Hy Y CTBapaJIaqKY, qOBeqHY CBeCT. Ako ce He p;orop;11 rpaacdiopaauaja CBeCTI1aanr )l(J1BOThe ce npeTBOpl1TJ1 y nHcalbe 116pl1Cafue saxoaa J1osrexxearse, p;a 3aKOHop;aBCTBO,CYP;CTBO J1naparpa<pJ1 t.tory na pewe Hepewl-1Bo. Bahe amue lbyP;J1y 3aTBOpl1Ma Hero aa CJIo60p;J1, amue c e He p nHt1ka Y 60JIHl1QaMa Hero Y rropommaaa. I1p06JIeM He peurasa HI1 JIYKaBa, nOJOtenHa aYTOpl1TapHa CBeCT3aKOHop;aBQa 11JIeKapa. I1pBI1 caxynrsajy orposian If08a~, To60){{e XYMaHJ1jJ1MnpJ1CTyrroM y KojeM ce 3aTBopcKa Ka3Ha MO)l(e 3aMeIfMTM . rra OHO MaTept1jaJIHOM Ka3HOM. Ilpyra, JIeKapl1 he CHI1)l(aBaTI1Kpl1Tepl1)yMe,
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BaBI1MO ce YK1IafuafueM Y3pOKa nOXJIene, YKlIafuafueM nJII1WaHI1X BaCnI1THJ.1X MOp;eJIay nopo.n;J1l.\I1.Ka.n;a ce qOBeK BpaTl1113BOPYrana he 6l1Tl1 nOTnYHO CBeje,LIHO na 1I11 je cBojl1Ha npl1BaTHa 111I11 .n;pYWTBeHa. I1pl1Mep KOjl1caM o.n;a6paJIa ynpaso xasyje na J1 naaac, y noje.n;I1HI1M3eMlbaMa 11HeKI1McerMeHTI1Ma .n;pYWTBa,qOBeK nOKa3yje qOBeqHY CBeCT, na KOPI1CT11Cl1pOMaWHI1X 1160raTl1x. To casro nOTBp!)yje na ce qOBeK lIaraHO xpehe nYTeM CBeCHOCTI1,6e3 xoje Hac nehe 6l1Tl1 y TpeneM Ml1lIeHl1jYMY. Y "I101II1TI1QI1"on 28. cerITeM6pa 2005, y 'IJIaHKY "BaplbJ1Ba npaBI1JIa" ce xaxce KaKOje l.\elIoKynHo 3p;paBCTBO y CA,q-y npI1BaTI130BaHO, aJII1 na je 11nope,LI csera npecKyno, He.n;oBOlbHOKBaJIJ1TeTHO, Hee<pI1KacHO. I1pl1 CBaKOM nOMeHY Moryhe pe<popMe, rrrac nOXlIenHI1X ce .n;11){{e 11aaycraan.a cBaKY rrpoaeay xoja Hl1je y I1HTepecy 60raTJ1X, (2010 CMO6J1JII1cBe.n;O~11 KOJII1KI1 je 6110 ornop 60raTl1X na npenceaHI1K06aMa 113BPWl1KaKBY-TaKBYpe<popMy snpascraa). Heurro je I1naK yql1fueHO, ynpKoc orpoMHOM OTnopy nOXJIenHI1X. ,qa 1I11he 6l1Tl1 CYWTI1HCKI1X rrpoMeHa, BpeMe he HaM pehn). Y I1CTOspeae p;p){{aBHO3p;paBCTBO illBep;cKe je 113Y3eTHo KBaJII1TeTHO11jeepTI1Hl1je. AYTop HaBop;11Hl13 npl1Mepa KOjl1jacno yxasyjy p;a Hl1je crnap y 06JIl.1KY CBOjI1He,y <pOPMI1%1HCTI1TYQl1je Ben y CBeCTl1lby.n;11KOjl1ql1He Ty I1HCTI1TYQUjy. 3aMJ1CJII1TeKOJII1KO he 6l1Tl1 HeBa){{HO,jep;Hor nana, .n;aJII1I1p;eMOKO.n; rrpUBaTHor, I1JII1.n;p){{aBHOr nexapa, jep he CBI1JIeKapl1l1MaTI1 CTBapaJIaqKY, qOBeqHY CBeCT.OHU Hehe <popMaJIHOnOJIaraTI1 XMnOKpaTOBY3aKJIeTBY,OHI1he I1MaTI1CBeCTXunoKpaTa: IT . .... aaac naQI1)eHT crpaxyje . 11op; npnaarnor; 11on rrexapa KOjl1pap;11 yAP'"~~~ I1HCTI1TYQJ1jl1, rrl1Tajynl1 ce y ql1je pyxe craazsa CBOj){{I1BOT. ,qa JII1je yrrao y pyKe
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a JIWere TyKJIW, Bpe1)aJIW, Ka)KlbaBalIW?", ynnrax je. ",U DonITO je 6HJIa BplIO TBpp;OflIaBa, nonexan 6wx je WCTYKJIa,WJIWW3rpp;WJIa, W3
'60Jbe HaMepe , peKJIa Je MaTW. HaJ 6 (" ",Ua JIWCTe je rroTKyrrJbWBalIW p;a 6w jerra, yqwJIa WJIWHeIllTO ypap;wJIa, na w.... ,Ua caM WMalIa BWIlle HOBu;a pap;o 6wx TO qWHWJIa W Bw~e Hero IllTO caM qWHWJIa, jep caM Bwp;elIa na TO 6p30 P;OHOCWpesyrrrare. ClIaTKo Je TO Baine, KaKO ra Ha3W

MAMA 3JIATA J,1'REPKA MAJA

Caaoxpaaa MajKa 3naTa onraja hepxy Majy cTapy neraaecr ronaaa WMlIa1)y nese'roronaunsy COlbY. Pano ce passena, Bpep;Ho, nonrreno pap;w ycneaajyha na CBOjoj p;eu;w rrpwyIllTw COJIWp;aHcraunapn, Ilocsehyje WMce MaKCWMaJIHOWTBPP;Wna cy joj OHe CBe na caery, CBe nosxrse y TpeHyTKy xana je crapnja hepxa OIllaMapWJIa MajKY, jep caahox nnje ycnerra p;a w3Byqe )KelbeHY KOJIWmHY HOBu;a. Majxa p;O)KWBlbaBa IllOK. TIpl1suaje p;a je cyxotia 6wJIO Wpaanje, xao Wy csaxoj rropop;wu;w xoja WMa nytieprernajy, aJIW je qWTaBO paHo nermscrno rrpOTeKJIO peJIaTWBHO MWpHO. Majxa ce Tpyp;WJIa p;a nere He ocxynena HW y qeMy. Ilocaehasana joj je CBe csoje cnotionHO BpeMe W6wlIa xax Wcpehna IllTO ce 6a6e, p;ep;e WOTaU; He MeIllajy y BacmfTaise nerera. 3aTWqeM aenpajarao crarse y rropop;wu;w. Ilesoj-raua je npcxa, He )KelIWcapap;lby HWca KWM,ITa HWca MHOM. Capahyje ca ceCTpOM caxo xana joj rpetia, a rrOTOM je CypOBO op;6au;yje. Y Kynw HWIllTa He pap;w. Co6a y Hepep;y, He yqw, rrOBpeMeHO 6e)Kw on uncozre, 6e3 mrratsa KOPWCTW MajqWHY onehy WIllMWHKYxojy p;ape)!(JbWBO p;enw p;pymMa WlIWynponamhasa. Ca MajKoM qeCTO He rosopa, a xana joj Hep;Ocra. HOBu;a 3a "Kpep;I1T " WW3lIaCKe, xana Tpe 6 a na ce onpasnajy. qaCOBW, Kap;a rpe6a Je p;a ce WHTepBeHWIlle 3a oueny, He 6wpa HaqWH, rta TO nanyse on MajKe. ,[(PCKO je HarrYCTWlIa co6y, naxo je snana na caM oco6a xoja je p;OllIlla p;a WM nosrorae. Y rrpOlIa3Y je notiauana: "IloMo3wTe iso], a He MeHW! . ,,3arroQeJIa caM . . M' MorJIa capap;lby ca MaJKOM, amr cy BpaTa OCTalIa IllWpOM oraopena, Te Je aJa HeCMeTaHO p;a xyje u;elIy rrpwqy.
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sare , rrlIWIllaHO" nacazse. (" ",Ua lIW CTe je rrpe3alllTwnWBalIW on pap;a, pep;a W)KWBOTa. . ,,0, TO caM qWHWlIa nenpecraso, csrarpajyha na je TO W3pa3 MOJe p;y6oKe lby6aBH npeaa isoj. On lbe HwcaM HWlllTa saxrenana OCWMna yqw, xana je KpeHylIa y WKOlIy. Cana BWP;WM, P;OK Ba npxsare, sanrro Moja p;eBojqWD;a He 3Ha HW sa KaKaB pep;, jep pep; npoxcrxse caxo W3 pap;a. CKpWBalIa caM on ise KaKO TeIllKO sapahyjeM HOBau;, CKpWBalIa caM csoje 60JIeCTW Wcrpaxone, Tyry caMoxpaHe MajKe. OHa a p;oU;Hwje W MJIal)a hepxa, MopalIe cy p;a wMajy CBe W onna xana je TO 6WlIO npaxTH'lHO HeMoryne. Ilpe3alllTwnwBalIa caM wx on WCTWHep;a )KWBOTcaMoxpaHe MajKe HHje 6ajKa, on WCTWHena je HOBD;aCBe Malbe, op; WCTWHena Hwje CBe y <pOpMW,Ben y Jby6aBw xao jemmoj CymTWHW. Cana pa3YMeM p;a je rrpe3aIllTwnWBalbe 6WlIO HajrrpHcyTHwje y namea P;OMy. Pa3YMeM 3aIllTO je hepxa TOlIWKOnersa, ana He pa3YMeM saurro je TOJIWKOarpeCWBHa." J.1Mana caM rrpep; C060M cjajaor yqeHwKa. Majxa je WMalIa CHa)KHO naaheise aa CBojy Tpap;WU;WOHaJIHYrroponmry, na Bpep;HOCTWlbeHe noponaue WHaqWH sacrmTaiba. Y lbOj ce ca JIaKOnOM rrOCTW3ao pap; W pep; ca caao p;Ba nacmrrna Mop;elIa, 6aTl1HOM wnw Bep6alIw3MOM. Majxa ce rnrrana, KaKOje, W3TaKO [axe Tpap;wD;WOHalIlie nopop;wu;e, ynana y 3a'MKY narpahasarsa, y 3aMKY "rrJIWIllaHOr" HaCWJba, xana je 3Hana caMO aa <PW3WqKY WBep6alIHY Ka3Hy. Ha csoja mrraisa nasana je Wonronope. YTwQaj npyrxx MajKw, p;pyrwx noponnua ca KojwMa ce p;pY)KWlIa, TB eMwcwje, 'iaconw CW,'t'WJIMOBW.CBe rh t.. je noxeno 6aIll xana ce iseaa nepxa pop;wlIa. MaJ' . y l( xa je OTKpWJIa OTKYP;TOJIWKaarpecnja p;eTeTa. "IlJIWIllaHO " HaCWJbe, y BWP; YnOBl1HeWnpesaurrahasarsa hepxa je spahana Maju;w crsapmos HaCWJbeM.Jep;HoM
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je aacarse 6111I0 113pa3 rr06YHe HeCBeCHOr 116e30cenajHor nerera xoje je H 1I0 na My y >KI1BOTY rrp"rral1.a CBe. Hacarse hepxe je 6111IaHeCBeCHa 0 aY'ii1_ . ... cBeTa M . )ep )0) )e y He3Hal-bY 3aYCTaBlbalIa l1.YXOBHI1 paCT, a najxeurhe , hepxa )e ] arpec a)~i1 . 3al1.p>KaBa~a 11Ol1.p>KaBalIaCBOjrrapa311TI13aM 11npasaneraje. I1)O~ ",1J;a1I11 )e 6111I0Bep6alII13Ma y sacnaraisy?", yrnrrarra caM MajKy. KOpl1CTl1lIaBep6alII13aM ,,..., MOlIenl1)'e na 6y l1.eBpel1.Ha,noc "CBaKOl1.HeBHOcaa . unra, ocehajaa, Cana BI1l1.I1M l1.aje CBe TO 6111I0nexoryhe OCTBapl11'11,ys ynor ny_ 6 pe'leHI1X BaCrrI1THl1XMOl1.elIa." pe y Majxy je najamne 601IelIo llITO neaojsaua HI1)'e noxaaanana , Hl1 6 Pl1ry H He>KHOCT, HI1 Tyry xana .je MaTI1 6111Iay narrsa. Cana )'e Ma)'~ TTl1 6111I0)aCHI1)e . .' l1.aCe 11 3l1.paBa, 113BopHa eMO~I1)a MO>Ke pa3BI1TI1 11onaoce rrperryHe lhY6a. caao Kp03 parr ,...,,..., Bl1 11,1J;06poTe. CBe 113BopHe eMo~I1Je hepxa je rrOTI1CKI1BalIa . ' a OHna cy OHaKO I1CKpl1BlbeHe MonHO 113611Jane, y BI1l1.Y arpecaje, xoja je lIaKO npenaanna T . 6 Y HaCl1rse, a arpecaja 11aacnzse 111I11 cy l13l1.YBHI1 BeHTl1lIl1, KO)' e )'e hepxa rroBpeMeHo KOpI1CTl1lIa,6paHenl1 ce TaKO 110l1.601IecTI1. Haje 6111I00l1.KOPI1CTI1 TaKBO rrOHa. uraise, Jep ce YCKOPO11pa3601IelIa. Cstersasane cy ce norncrryra Tyra 11nacnojena zsyrisa. IIpBI1 3Ha~l1 BI1l1.elIl1 cy ce na KO>KI1. Hecre yrralle nnyha, 6111Iecy BepHI1 nparaoux ~eTeTa. TeK cana je MajKa CXBaTl1lIa KOlIl1KOje 03611lbHO iseao He3Haise, na 0l1.ra)I1l1.06po 113l1.paBOnere, "K~l1.a~e neaojsxua craszseaa rrpel1.TelIeBl130p" - 6111I0je Moje cnenehe nnraise. Majxa )e paHO YBI1l1.elIa na canpscaja Kojl1l1.01Ia3eca eKpaHa HeraTI1BHOYTI1'ly aa l-beHOnere 113aTO je CBaKI1CJI060l1.aHTpeHyTaK KOpl1CTl1lIal1.ace ca l1.eTeTOMI1rpa, l1.a~yl1.y y rrpl1pOl1.I1,l1.a ca l1.eTeTOM'll1Ta notipe Kl-bl1re. Majxa je 6p30 CXBaTl1lIa TPYl1.6110 3alIYl1.aH,y3 yrrorpeoy nmnuane 11peamre l1.a)e l-beH orposran YlIO>KeHI1 rrpl1HYl1.e.BplIO 6p30 hepxa je ca rrpe311poM 0l1.6aQl1lIa CBe llITOjoj je MaTI1'II1Tana, rrpa-rana. Kao rrpaBl1 nonomsax yrralla je y Mpe>Ky csoje Bl1pTyelIHe reHepaQl1je, rpaxceha casro rrporpaMe KOjl1cy 6111I11 y CKlIal1.Y ca l-beHI1MHe'IOBe'lHI1M pacTOM. Carta, ca rrernaecr rOl1.I1Ha,hepxa care 11care rrpOBOl1.11 y3 renenosene. Fashion Weex-ose . . . . ' ClIYllIa MY3 l1Ky KOJaHaClIOJaBa Tyry, rrOl1.CTl1'Ie arpecxjy, pl1alII1Tl1lll0Y ~O)Y311~a speve l1l1crrl1ja l1.yllIy, a aa cpejc6yKy je xao y CBOjOjPOl1.HOj Kynl1. MajU/if )e cana PCHO l1.ace CBOiseno 6aBlbel-be l1.eTeTOM,y3 xopaurherse CBI1Xner Bacn/lfTHl1X MOl1.elIa,mrje I1Crr~aTl1lIO. Banana je nere y sarpzsaj rpyrre BpllIli>aKa sa 'I/lfje ce Bpel1.HOCTI1 Maja lIaKO aanernora. El1lIl1 cy ClIl1'IHl1, BpllIIi>aUI1 11OHa. E/IflJIIIey rrOClIel1.I1Qa aYTOpI1TapHOCTI1.Ty ce passrersyjy I1cKycTBa, Ty ce y'le MOl1.elI/if nOHallIal-ba . n . pyrra)e. CBe jaxa, llITO cy neua ClIl1'IHl1ja. Ilpnrranara rpynn y neTHaecTO). rOl1.l1H . 113Ha'Il1lIO )e rrryBapl1TI1 nohy, CrraBaTJ1 rtarsy, YQI1TI1CBe Mal-be, a 3axTellaTl1 0l1.HaCTaBHI1Ka BI1COKeOQeHe, 3aXTeBaTI1 0l1.pOl1.I1TelbaHOBau sa cllaKY neT/Ife QY, 3aXTeBaTI1 na npannajy 1130CTaHKe l1 sprue yrnuaj aa HaCTaBHI1Ke l1.aCMatb
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. Me 3Ha'll1lIO)' e cel1.eTl1npen TelIeBl130pOM 11KOMnjYTepoM CaTI1Ma,TeJIeTep/lfJY , TOlIl1KOl1.yro, 0l1.ponxrezsa O'leKl1BaTI1 na 6'Yl1.ecrrOH30p KO)11ce JCl'~ l1eTO J..olil1paTI1 Of J{oHOMMopa YKPOTl1TI1. . ~ sa . J'Ul16l11I0 CBe [acno. Yl1.eon.eae Kpl1Bl1ue CTOJI1,ana Yl1.eo BpllIl-baKa, Cap,a . CBe llITO l1M . Je Maurraa KOjl1, HeKpl1Tl1'lKl1 11HecelIeKTI1BHO rrp"xBaTaJY ""Ja I1 p,py HO pa3BI1J'eHl1 CBeT J'e CTOCTPYKO . IT' Maja . I1MalIa snais e rde/-'I Ja'll1. f-J,aJe ene MaTep"JalI ' liard or BaCnI1Tal-ba, Jby6aB MajKe 611n06el1.l1lIa l1 npe6pol1.I1JIa CBe npenpesapaJIa'lK . CT ne CMO MaJ'Ka He Ol1.YCTaje0l1.csora l1.eTeTa, 0l1.Jby 6 aBI1. -c nepxa JOllI e Ty cMO, r,..., . . J{ . 03HaJ'e Jby6aB l1 3aTO ce 60pl1 npOTI1B MaJKe. lie npen

MajKa ce Haopy>KaJIa 3Hal-beM. IIpO'll1T~JIa j~ "EyKBap" HeKOJII1KO rrY.Ta,a rrOTOMje I1 ca'I/lfH/lfJIacrrl1CaKCBl1XnepKI1Hl1X aKQl1Ja KOJecy 6/1flle rrocnel1. Qa MaJ'll1HOr He3HaIba. To ce Mopallo 3aYCTaBl1Tl1,Y l1HTepecy nene rropol1.l1Qe. 'fiepKa He pal1.11HI1IllTa Y Kynl1. He YQl1pel1.0BHOl1 3aTO 3aXTeBa BelIl1Kl16poj rrpI1BaTHl1X'laCOBa. 3axTeBa na CBaKI11130CTaHaK 6Yl1.eypel1.HO orrpaBl1.aH - lIa>Kl1Ma,HapaBHo. 3a 113JIaCKe Tpa>Kl1nosehy CyMy HOB~a. 3a Mo6111IHl1 Tpa>Kl1MHoro, TBpl1.enl1l1.aje TO 06JIl1K l1.pY>Kel-ba caBpeMeHe renepauaje n na aa TO HOB~a Mopa 6l1Tl1. Maj-nory rapnepofiy l1 llIMl1HKy KOPl1CTl1,l1 nopen 3a6paHe. Kana He rrrysapa ca l1.PYllITBOM,rnysapx npen TelIeBl130pOM, aa KOMrrjYTepy, aa renerpoay, y3 npernacny My3l1Ky TpOllIenl1 HeKOlIl1KOearn l1.HeBHOaa TO. . APCKOce noaaura npewa CeCTpl1, Maj~l1, Maj'll1Hl1M rrpl1jaTelbl1Ma, rrpeMa rroJeAI1Hl1M npodiecopioaa. Y3HeMl1paBa YKynaHe, KOMllIl1je, Bl1KOM,TpeCKal-beM BpaTl1Ma, lIyrral-beM CTaKana l1 rrperrraCHOM MY3l1KOM. V13BlIa'Il1npeaernncy CyMy HOBua aa 6p3l1Hy l1 He npncraje na nenapau. npl1Cl1lbaBa MajKy na je,6Yl1.I1,KaKO611crnrna 6ap aa rroxerax l1.pyror xaca. He 3aHI1Maje rne ce MajKa HalIa311 y TOMTpeHyTKy. Mopare rrpl13HaTI1l1.a je CMI1Cnl1na CaCBI1M COnl1l1.aHpeneproap MyKa, na MajKy nosene l1.0nYl1.l1lIa.HeKo je noopKao nOH'll1ne. CBe Mopa 6l1Tl1noaeneao y pep;, rrpe Hero llITO ce Hael1lbe npersopa y rropOP;I1'lHI1"TepOpl13aM"11 rrpe Hero ce YMellIajy CTpy'lHe cnY>K6e, xoje 06aBe3HO crajy na CTpaHy ]J,eTeTa,jep nere je l1eKp"BlbeHO, aarsa ra lbYlbaTI1. Majxa je CBe cXBaTl1na 11
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. CPQeM KpeHyJIa y npeoopaxcaj. HJ.1CaM O'leKJ.1BaJIa 6p3e pe3YJITaTe, jep hepI<a li . i1)e

06aBeCTJ.1JIa rrpocpecope

p;a nepKM He rrOK7Iathajy OQeHe, rro QeHY caMO 3aTO

rrpxcrajana

aa Capap;thy.

'faJ{o1)eJe u p,a nOlIaBJba.

.e MaJ.1 orrpaBp;atha

urro

HeK07IJ.1-

AKo rrOMOrHeM MajJ.1 J.1 MajQJ.1, J.1aKO HeM a capap;the CBJ.1X, 6J.1he TO Hap;a aa . . 6 Olie rropop;J.1Qe, y KO)J.1Macy neua P;OBOlbHO o)a'laJIa J.1He )f(eJIe J.1JIO KaKBY rrpOMel-! CJ.1TyaQJ.1je. ,1J;oroBOpJ.1JIe CMOce, Typy 6yljetha Jby6aBJ.1.

urra

J.1 KaKO J.1 06e CMOpap;03HaJIO KpeHyJIe y

aBal-! -

HJ.1Kap;a He CMe KOPI1C Ti11'i1 KA3HY J,1]U1 HAfPA,1J;Y, rrpJ.1pelllaBathy onpehenor npotineva. rpaHJ.1Qe MOpa. . .. )Y 6 J.1TJ.1 6 ea ynorpe 6 e rrJIJ.1lllaHJ.1X. H ajrezce je )aCHO pacn03Ha1'11 ycnocraarseae, aJIJ.1

Majxa je MOpaJIa na casnana

naa reurxa sanarxa.

xana npep;y3eTa aKQJ.1jaHJ.1jeKa3Ha J.1JIJ.1 aarpana,

Ha CBaKY 6YPHy hepKJ.1HY

a JIJ.1'lJ.1 na TO.

~MO!IM!Ia je !IeKapKY na He p;aJ . J J.17Ia snpaae- ,1J;Olll7IO je BpeMe na MajKa 6 - 3"''' . 6 7Ia Y lllK07IM, MaKO Je,... . a ner era nOlll7IO je BepeMe p;a MajKa npe0 nalla lIJ.1Je M 1< f" OPlIOCT KOP; CBor,... . fJ, JlPo6YP,M op;rOB h. OJ e p;eTe pap;enJ.1 MeCTO isera CBe nrro nere MO)f(e na Jlpe3alllTJ.1 YJe CB , crall e f" rhecopa Kana 6yp;e yqM7Ia nexa spenno CaMO na 06aBM. ure npMBaTHMX rrpo,, . . . oP, p,alIac HeMa BM YMe AKo HM MaJKa He 6yp;e 3Ha7Ia p;a JOJTO )l(M urra TO He pa3 . ~ Ta'llIO 3aOKpy h x rrporhecopa, HajBMllle 'lac M7IJ.1 naa. e 06MTM rrOMO npMBaTHM '' o6jaClIM, MO)l( p; TM 06 e KOMllMje M7IM MaMMHe npMjaTeJbJ.1Qe. npocpecopM Mory 6M p; P TTHeBHO CMathYJ e BpeMe xoje npOBOp;J.1 y3 TB, nosyiue na CBaKO,... 6 _ Tpe6a!Io M, p;a a TTpora" ca xoje ce n07IaKO Mopa . .e TO BMpTye7IHa M ayp;MTMBH ,... MY3HKY, Jep J O~Ta7Ia p;06ap y~eHMK H CMHpeH ~OBeK. CKJ.1p;aTJ.1 na 6H n ehe "cenJ.1 J. ep Ka3He HeMa, a7IJ.16yp;e JIJ.1 .. . BMlle HJ.1Kap;aH n _ Ka67IOBe JOJ MajKa MY3HKOM HanM he ce HeKO ~OBe~HO Ma7ITpeTMpa7Ia nopop;J.1QY npemaCHOM pellelbe. a na onacxe: "focnolja je oner . 06 He CMe BMlle KOPMCTMTH, - MaJ'lMHY rapnep Y 6 I" . nehe pearoBaTH eMOTHBHO J.17IJ.1 KyrrH7Ia ce6M HOBM p;eo rapnepo e., MajKa arpeCJ.1BHO. a HOBu;a KaKO 6M H36ema Hcnythe- HJ.1Kap;a smue MajKa nehe 7IaraTM p;~ HeM K~Me npesta CBOM y3paCTY M the nepKJ.1HMX )l(eJba. HOBau; nOCTOJH, a7IM CBa nOTpe6aMa.

peaxuajy MajKa Mopa OCTant CMJ.1peHa, He CMe jo] Y3BpahaTJ.1 theHJ.1M opyxcjest, arpecajosr, OHa he TO cana JIaKO nocrah, jep joj je jacao KyP; rrJIOBJ.1osaj 6pop;. MajQJ.1 je jacno na je iseno nere eMoQJ.10HaJIHO
60JIeCHo.

Beh cyTpap;aH hepxa je rrJ.1CMeHOotiaseurreaa,

p;aHJ.1MaHe rOBOpJ.1 ca MajKoM, MO)f(e rrpoyqaBaTJ.1.

urra

joj

sazsa

'lJ.1HJ.1TJ.1, jep Ben J.1hepxa fa

a OCJ.1M rora rrJ.1CaHJ.1 3anJ.1Cje rpajan

Kaha je Ca3HaJIa: - na je MajKa cnpesma,

- rpelllKe

y J.1Mesnpase rropop;J.1Qe, na J.1cnpaBJ.1 csoje rpelllKe Ka3He J.1 Harpap;e MajKa he OCTaTJ.1 MJ.1pHa,jep 3Ha p;a je 60JIeCT, xoja YCKOPO BOP;J.1 Y

he J.1CrrpaBlbaTJ.1 6e3 yrrorpetie

- aa

cBaKY hepKJ.1HY HeraTJ.1BHY peaxuajy,

je OHa YBeJIa csoje p;eTe y ,,60JIeCT", a arpecnja MHoro rezce 60JIeCTJ.1

- P;OK He Ca'lJ.1HJ.1 npennor 6YI,IeTa, csor uenapua, HOBaQ nehe p;06J.1jaTJ.1

- na

BJ.1TPJ.1HJ.1 je oxaxea

nnan

pap;a y KojeM 6J.1rpetiana J.1 OHa, P;06POBOlbHO, p;a

3aoKpY)f(J.1 onpehen

6poj nOCJIOBa xoje he 06aBlbaTJ.1 y KyhJ.1 J.13JIaCQJ.1 rreTKOM J.1 cy6ocaMO

3aUtutUje upeg 6ypy

'lOBeK He HecpenaH).

- aa theH Y3pacT J.1 y CKJIap;y ca theHJ.1M 06aBe3aMa,

neTKOM J.1Cy60TOM?

TOM YBe'le cy P;OBOlbHJ.1,J.1 caxro he OHJ.16J.1TJ.1 qlJ.1HaHCJ.1paHJ.1. 3alllTO

Majxa joj je J.1OBO 06jaCHJ.1JIa, (neacnaaan

MO)f(e p;a y'lJ.1, arpeCJ.1BaH je, 6e)f(J.1 ca xacosa, YKOJIJ.1KOrrpeKplllJ.1

sesanoaozsaa

je,

npennor nehe

je Ka3HJ.1TJ.1, aJIJ.1he Ben HeKO pellleJ-be

rrponaha.

- nehe

je rrpOBepaBaTJ.1 TeJIecpOHOM, noxyurahe MJ.1PHOp;a cnana.

- nape sa TaKCJ.1 nehe p;06J.1jaTJ.1, jep Mopa na BOP;J.1 pa'lYHa xana ce J.1 KaKO Bpah KynJ.1

- Ca3HaJIa je p;a je MajKa 06aBeCTJ.1JIanporpecope p;athe -racosa.

Ilojaanhe

ce

casta,

aBy lllKOJIJ.1,p;a je He 30Sy 3a fIP 6 !I ecr u YKOJIJ.1KO ce npasnajy 'laCOBJ.1,3 6 or 0

11 a He MCKa3yje I,Ienapau;, a7IJ.1 Kap;a epK 6 OTTHOCJ.1 r a. He06J.1'laH MJ.1Py KynH Tpaje p;Ba naaa. . . n7IaHHpaHor yI,IeTa, rr ,... Je BJ.1p,eJIa p;a HOBau; He npHCTH)f(e, Jep HeMa H nepe~ 6MJIHOr Hep;eJbHO Tpa)f( ul1JIO je CBe HepeaJIHO. CaMO aa norryay MO, He nouier Ka O'lMTaBa nOC7Iep;J.1..., nnaua Ma J nyro aJIHY CBOTY HOBu;a. J,13 rrop,HeceHor .. T07IHKor HOBU;a HeKO ,... Bacnl1Tatha. 'Eepxa je Hepea7IHa, Jep He 3Ha na on . JIaTY HHu;a CTaHe y He'lHJY rr . aere npe)l(MBlbaBa J.1 p;a casro HeK07IJ.1KOTaKBMX HOB'la H .' h J,13aTO theHO rrOX7IenHO ,... i1Je ce J.1Crr7IaTJ.17IO Maj'lHHO npe3alllnt J.1Balbe., M . a J. e 3 . . " KOJJ.1 ce 30Be HOBau;. aJK aJep,HOca MaJKOM Mopa paspeurar r aj ,,'lBOP a. . pea7IaH Hep;eJbHJ.1uert caMa HarrpaBJ.17Ia "pe6a7IaHC" 6YI,IeTa J.1OCTaBM7Ia )0) ,
paQ Ha CT07IY.

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- 6ypa ce uoquina

e, 6a'f~H e pep; Mopao ycnOCTaBMTM. Kao lIITO hepxa cana P;PCKOCTaBJba pyKy y Maj'lUH
aJl~ c

HUKO Huje BUKao, KOMlIIMje HUCY Morne p;a npnjaae

BnaCTMMa "HaCUJbe",

He MMcnMTe BaJbJI,aJI,aje hepxa, 6e3 oTnopa, npMcTana JI,a)'0)' ce YCKpaTMMHoro . . UITO JOJ ce JI,OnYlIITanO nernaecr rOJI,MHa. He 60jTe ce, JI,parM pOJI,MTeJbM 6 Tor~, 6Mna 6e30nacHa, xao 6ypa y 'lalIIM BOJI,e ypa je , )'ep Ma)'xa HMJ'eOJI,yc rana OJI, nnaHa ' M OJI, aac he nOMMcnMTM JI,anexe OJI, Mepa nM'le na npMHyJI,y Ha K .. liorl1 . ' a3HY, anM IiMJe T caao nM'lM.,D;a nM Je Ka3Ha KaJI,a neKap npenMlIIe necer MHJ'eKTTMJ'a ..... BalIIeM 'leJI,Y aKO, . HM aasra He nana na nasrer JI,a OJI,YCTaHeTe0 KOJe ce pa3 6 oneno? HMtc.. xezry, JI, ne'Ielba . OJI,YCTaTM 3Ha'lM YUMy JOlII sehy 60neCT. CBe Mepe KOJ' e J'e MaJ'xa np eysena, aa n, Jep M3naCKa M3 aYTopMTapHor aacmrraisa, xa craapazra-ncora , sazsa CXBaTMTMxao ne YTy Kao lIITO ce JI,eTe 60pM ca MeJI,M~MHCKOM ceCTpOM, CY3aMa yJI,apTTMM 6 1<. b, 6 ' ..... a, e)f(albeM TaKO ce M nepxa OpM JI,a MajKy 3aJI,p)f(M y craisy HeCBeCHOCTM. ' Majxa je casro paJI,Mna na YKnal-balbY Y3pOKa lbMXOBMX nOpOJI,M'IHMXMyKa. KOH. xperae axmqe HMCYHMlIITa JI,pyro Hero "nnMlIIaHM" nperoxeaa y peannocr, AKO je . TO OJI,OHeCBeCHOJI,eTe TpolIIMno sa M06MnHM orpoaan HOBaTTajour necsecmrja MajKa 6paBana, OHJI,a).epe'l 0 npeaaurrabnsaa.y OJI,MCTMHe, JI,anOpOJI,M'lHM6YJ)eT TOHe MO)f(e JI,aM3JI,P)l(M, JI,a)e paCMnalbe HOB~a, no ~eHy MJI,ara MMaMOMnpeBMlIIe, HeJI,onycTMBO. YBoJI,ehM HOBa, 3JI,paBa npaBMna, uena nOpOJI,M~a ce nonaxo ann CMrypHO M3BlIa'lM M3 KaHI)M aYTOpMTapHOCTM. OBe npOMeHe neua najrezce nOJI,HOCe, jep cy OHM cano nOCneJI,M~a neanarsa pOJI,MTeJba. Majn je aajrezce jep OHa 'laK HMje narra HJ.1 npMCTaHaK JI,a ce npOMeHe JI,orOJI,e. IlOlIITO ce paJI,M 0 ManoneTHOM JI,eTeTY,TBPJI,OmaBOM M HeCB .. )e JI,OHena OJI,nyKy JI,a cava McnpaBM CBe csoje KpJ.1Be . e CHOM, MajKa ,D;pMHe. Bnna Je CBeCHa lIITa je -rexa, aKO je CTpax MnM HeJI,OCneJI,HOCT 3aYCTaBe aa CY)l(alb caora JI,eTeTa. OBOM nyTy. Ocrahe JI,O)l(MBOTHM
.....' Yl

raKO he cyTpa cno 6" OP;HO"Y3eTIiI CBe lIITO tc.. ne 3agoBOJbUH1 iseay noxneop~ap, .' 'e rroxnerra He 3Ha aa npenpeKe. I1pOCTUTy~Up U KpUMMHan MMaJY xopea y rtY,) p rapHO)' nnulIIaHoj, caBpeMeHoj noponxna. Kana aneTMTU noxnenae neue ~~ , . aY acry MoryhHoCTM nOpogMu;e TaJI,a ce yna3M y gpYlIITBO Y KOJeM cy rrpocrm yrt~~~U KpUMUHan nyTeBM 3agoBOJbelba noxnense CBeCTM.To je MajKa 3naTa CXBaU } a ~ ylllna y naBOBCKY 60p6y JI,acaoje nere BpaTM M3BOpy. Ha M3BOPYje Jhy6aB T11 . Jh 6 . npe~a pap;y, pegy, ~elby, nOpogM~M, )l(MBOTY a me Je y an Ty rrpocraryunje
IfP

1< J.1MJ.1Hana HeMa, Jep HeMa noxnene, HeMa nen.ocrn reaa, tc.. '1"" ., I,Ierrapa~ Hl1je 06HOBJbeH sa rexyny HegeJby . .LOJe BeOMa naxo, }ep Je HOBa~ y PYKaMa OHora KO spenao pagl1 l1 aapahyje. Ilnrare ce, KOnl1KOhe OBe MyKe rpajaT}1.MajKa [e KBap"na nernaecr ronxna, nexa CTpnJbl1BO l1CnpaBJba MaKap nernaeer gaHa l1nl1 TonMKO Mece~M. HeMa caabe y xyha, jep je sa csahy nOTpe6HO naoje, 'Iiepxa je 6Mna npeKo nO pe6Ha cnaha na 611 npasnarra CBOjy HaneTOCT. ql1TaBa hepxnaa crparernja T }1Mana je ynpaBO sa ~l1Jb JI,a M3a30Be MajKy na JI,B060j. Bana je xao M3BY'leHa M3 crpy]e. jep na CBe yBpeJI,e (pyxcaa Cl1, myna, Ce6l1'lHa, Hl1KaKBa Cl1MajKa), MajKa je ocrana nOTnYHO Ml1pHa. Kaxo Ml1pHa, mrrare ceo IlpBM rryr je MajKa capahnaana ca CBOjl1M JI,eTeTOM, aa npMH~l1nl1Ma Jhy6aBl1, a He l13 era, l13 ropJI,OCTl1. CBaKa csaha Malbe BOJI,l1naje xa 03JI,paBJbelbY iseaor JI,eTeTa. HaneTOCTl1 Malbe, 3JI,paBJba Bl1lIIe.

Tepqoinaeocta U3BOpHa eon-a

je UCKpUBlbeHa yUOPHOCW., UCKpUBlbeHa

HOBa ctupaiuetuja
KonMKO je hepxa ynopHa, y KOPMCT csoje lIITeTe, JI,pyra'lMje pexenc, KonMKO je TBpJI,OmaBa, xaayjy iseae OJI,nyKe CnpOBeJI,eHe y nezro, JOlII BMlIIe neH'lapM, 3HarHO Malbe yqM, MaKO ce npM6nM)l(aBa xpaj lIIKonCKe roJI,MHe. CBe seha 6poj earn npoBOJI,~ nopen TB-a, MY3MKa je jOlII rnacanja. Onehy M lIIMMHKy YHMlIITaBa, J)erra~ pau )e nOTpOlIIMna, Ben npBor JI,aHa M 360r Tora He M3na3M. Illra je y MajtH1HO) Moh M. ? M' . paJI,Mna Mcxnaisana aa lbOM OHonMKO KonMKO je 6Mno HeorrxoP;H~' a)Ka Je JI,ace He carmnhy npeKO CTBapM. 'Eepxy HMje orrosonsana, HMje BMKana. MupHO)e JI,OBena MajCTopa KOjMje HanpaBMO 6paBy M MajKa je KJbyqeM 3alIIrUTUJIa op;eny l'I ce6e. Oner here nOMMcnMTM na je pe'l 0 Ka3HM. Haje! Hnje, jep HIiIKOHuje p;o6J!fO

CBaKM'lOBeK ce paha ca JI,OBOJbHOM KOnl1'll1HOM BOJbe, rj. 3JI,paBe vnopnocra KaKO 611casnanao npenpeKe y )l(MBOTy. YnoTpe60M Bep6anl13Ma, BOJba JI,eTeTa, najxeuihe, naJI,a, JI,eTe He ycneBa JI,a npeoponx rrpenpexe. CBe ocraje na nenMM pe'll1Ma. YnoTpe60M septianae npanyne M Bep6anM3Ma BOJba MO)l(e l1 JI,a Y3paCTa, ann y lieraTl1BHOM cMMcny, y 60necT xoja ce 30Be TBpJI,OmaBocT. TaJI,a y MHaT JI,pyroM, 'lOBeK paJI,'MHaJBMlIIe npOTMB . cBOjMX 3gpaBMx narepeca. npl1 npaosi cycpeTY MajKa je peKna KaKO je hepxa TBpJI,OmaBa aa oua, a cana 3lia . sa hepKMHY TBpgomaBocT OHa KpMBa, xao lIITO je aa O'leBY TBpgomaBOCT I< Aa Je PI1Ba lberOBa MaTM na rO~l1liaMa je nacnojasana nepKIiIHY Tyry CBOjOMryrosc, MaKOce HeBelIITO Tpygl1Aa Je CaKpMje. HeKaJI,a ce Tyra JI,eBoj'llil~e TonMKO nacnojana, Te je nere ogna3MnO
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Y HeKH 06lIHK nenpecnje,

a xana 6H KlIaTHO OTHllilIO P;Oxpaja, p;eBOJ"U1TT. ... a je Ylla na Y n~TO~OIlIKH CTpax sa ce6e, 6paHenH ce He06jallIlbHBoM arpecHjoM. 3tot-

oprall

Majxa Je cana anana rrYT. Bep6alIH3aM, septianna npHHyp;a amue He nocro' csoje eMo~Hje, CTBapalIal.JKH pelliaBa' je a csoje npotineae. JYnl1 tot
H casra he nopap;HTH na xapvonaayje

H vqHTH nOBpeMeHo. Majxa je H lIeTlbH nenapau 3HaTHO rroneha1130BaTy< I . . aCTTH 6HTH l.JellInH 'Bepxa J' e rroKa3alIa BHP;HO3ap;OBOJbCTBO KOJeJe . ne I1 113lI ... . Jla Jep aheHO TajaHCTBeHHM OCMeXOM. 6Ji1l0 IlP
TK

JIeKU,uja ce scopa HayttUWU Kpaj WKOllCKe ioqune

"V13 HHaTa hepxa He yqH, Kel.JeBHce HH)KY, a xpaj IlIKOlICKe rOTTHHe J' e TY C a HeorrpaB_ 1-'0
p;aHHM l.JaCOBMMa Je crzrna p;o KpMTMl.JHerpaHMu;e, na crana, jep je Majl.JMHa"JIyP;OCT"

nocrana Ol.JMrnep;~a.Ilocnemsa aenezsa IlIKOlICKe ronmre je CTMrna.l1aHMKa na 6pop;y, ana na 6pop;y KOJMMrrrrOB~ hepxa, ,1J;a M3ry6M IlIKOlICKY romnry HMje rrpMcTajalIa. J.13ry6MlIa 6M Y Ol.JMMaCBOJMXp;pyrapa, MaMMHMX npnjaren,a, pohaxa, HacTaBHIiIxa, jep OHa sa lbMX rrpencrasn,a caCBMM notipo nere. CBM TYMal.JelbeHO nonaurarss xao nynocr MlIap;OCTM, rronauraise csoje neue, xao neo nponasnor nytieprera, CBe P;OK He p;06Mjy llIaMap on csor "p;06por" nerera, xao IlITO ra je p;06MlIa MajKa Bepa. 'fiepxa He 6Mpa cpep;CTBOp;a OCTBapMU;Mlb. On nporpecopa P;O nporpecopa, MOlbaxa, nOHM)KaBa ce, M3a3MBacaMMlIOCT, nnaxe. Ca ner xexeaa crnrna je P;O nsa, fIOXlIena je npopap;MlIa. AKO je ycnena p;a nonpaaa TpM xeua, rronpasnhe M OBa nsa. Am-I HMje CBe HM Y IlIKOlICTBY M3ry6JbeHo. J.1TaMO nocroje HopMalIHM nporpecopn KOjliI uerre ce6e, lby M OCTalIe yseaaxe. He p;ajy CBM ouene 6e3 pap;a. M cxpyureao n03MBa "MaMM~y" y Maja ry6M rrOHOC, rroracxyje rnpnomasocr novoh. Majaa HapaBHO He nana ira OHO"MaMMu;e" Ben joj ce M3BMlbaBa IlITO je npesaurrahaaarsea HanpaBMlIa on ise rrapa3MTa. Ofiehasa Maja p;a he csoje rpenn y BaCnMTalbY McnpaBMTM. ,1J;aHM ce ontipojasajy. HOBM Harrop rspnornaae Maje H casro jep;aH nporpecop ocrane "TBPP; opax" Ocrane caxo jenaa npep;MeT p;a ce yt.IH npexo nera, a CBMOCTalIM nnxana nehe 6MTM HayqeHH.

. ixa 36HJba "lIyp;a", jep CBH KOjH cY nanH aa nonpaBHH nehe HnH eBIllI1 p;aJe MaJ . . BHA K h .e norpelliHo npOTYMal.JHna osaj Majl.JHH xopax. 110MHclIHna Je na Je a MOpe, a a J IlonYlliTa J' . . 6 . II ep ce noxaj ana. Macnnna Je na Je AO Hna MaJl.JHHnpcr, a'!<aIlOl.Jenap;a ' 6 a ce 11360pH sa neny maxy. Oner H3ne)KaBalbe, Hanap;H, yBpep;e MJ Aa cap;a Tpe a p; a TB TTOBo"'elbeP;PYIliTBa I1 y3ypnHpalbe p;HeBHe cofie, TpecKalbe BpaTHMa. caTH y3 , 1-'0 1) M . . 6 o 0611J' en MaJl.JHHarapp;ep06a Je oner na aJI1. . OpMapJe n ,Ua 6H ce nexunja HaYl.JHna Mopa ce Be)K6aTI1 H 3aTO MaJK~ xnanno, na nHCTY rera CTaBJbaneK~Hjy "Be)K6albe nopOp;Hl.JHHX Op;Hoca , a He Mope. 06aBenpHOPH , . . . WTaBa hepxy H3 !<OjHX pasnora He Hp;e na Mope, 06jacHHBUH1 JOJp;a TO HHJe Ka3Ha.
TK

Op; p;aHac ce: YKHp;a nenapau, MajKa He cn~eMa, je~e ce IlITa KO.Halje Y KynH, CBaKO

ce carrnHne OKO BnaCTHTor aepena. xyrryje ce HaJHeonxop;HHJe. Mopa .ce urreneTH jep onpasxa pa3BaJbeHOr opnapa rronpHnHl.JHO KOIliTa. 11011ITOMaJH He nana aa naaer na ce npHXBaTH 6Hno xaxsor nocna, MajKa je Hal.JHHHna npaBH xopax. Ha6aBHrra je HOBY KOluapH~y sa MajHH npJbaBH sem, sa ~enoKynHY n.eny rapp;epo6y xojy cy P;O cana npana H rrernanH MaMHHH naTYJbU;H. Be)K6~ OCBellInHBalba hepxe na HCTHHCKH naTYJbU;H He nocroje. Morna je p;a no-me. MaJHHH HanaKHpaHMnpCTHnH Mopane YCKOPO na nOCTaHY nHl.JHH rraTYJbU;H. Mnaha hepxa je npaspeaeao npe6al.JeHa KOP; 6aKe, p;a He 6H HcrralliTana. On~T

here peha na je npnayna Y nHTalbY, ana HHje 6Hrro BHKe, Tyqe, Bpeljalba. JIe~U;HJe cy casnanaaane Y THllIHHH. Majxa je crerna cpue, a nepKa je cXBaTHna na MaJl.JHHY 0AlIYKY, na je nycTH aa Mope, HHje p;06po npoTYMal.JHna. BHp;erra je UITa ce cnpeMa, arrH rapnornaaocr, xao eMOU;HOHanHa 60necT, je HHje uanyurrane-

IIoupa8Hu

UCUl1W - a Mope?
je 6Hrra Majl.JHHHM noaaurarsess. fIOIliTO je Kana w..taJla

BUUle

80llUM ga lll'agyjeM, HelO ga sacynet pYKa8e

Hayxeaa na Ka3He H Harpap;e Kana je jenano crpenena na je MajKa nehe nYCT"T"

na Mope, 3anpenailineHa npotinezra xa KO)KH, 360r xera 6H joj Mope npajano, MajKa je peKrra p;a he fleKaTfiO KO caKynHTH HOBau; H nOClIaTH je na neroaarse. Ha nerosaisy he ce BepOBa - 294-

l'HlUHHa M MHp Y KynM, Hexomrxo naaa Maja je 6Hrra TBpp;ornaBa H HHje XTena ce6H Aa . h na ~~HrrpeMa xpaHY, HaKO je <ppH)KHp;ep 6HO nyH xpane. 110HH)KaBarra ~e l.J.e~aJY H JO)p;pyrapHu;a noaynsr cennaax. fpe6alIa ce 0 6aKHHe pyqKoBe. MajKa JOJnpsa nYTH HJep;p)KalIa . rrpenasarse 0 lIerrOM nOHallialbY - 295-

113 nOllynpa3Hor CTOMaKa H npa3HOr uerra ce npyrasnje MHClIH. DPBl1 ny hepxa ymrcyje y nnaa pap;a, otiaazsa no HeKOllHKO nocmrha, xao Mau;a penOM r ce pap;H. Ha osaj KopaK je npHCTalla jep BHP;Hp;a MajKa He onycraje on nllaHa 1/' alll1 . . l'\OllIa_ pHu;a ce nyHHlIa Ma)~HHM neurox, lheHH naTYlbU;H hyre, jep Maja l1CTpajaBa Ii OP;lIYU;H na ClIOMH Ma)Ky, a Y THlllHHH npaBH HOBYcrparerajy, He onycraje on Mopa. Tajao ce p;oroBa . . 3 . I:. pa ca ouest, p;a JOJ nnarn Mope. HaJYIlH p;a cy OqeBH HOBU;Hcxyna, sa CBaKH ClIvua)' . I' nl1llIe H nHCMO MaMHU;Hy KOJeM otiehasa Kylle H rpanose, casro p;a joj nnarn Mope C . peaehe 6HTH norpoureua na MOpy, a MaMa HHJ' e nana aa OHO M hOM, O'leBH HOBU;H " aMl1ue", Majxa He onycraje, jep oceha p;a he Maja YCKOPOnoxera na paayxeaa Maj'll1li nnan KOjHM ce CTH)f(e no Ilotipore H Jby6aBH, 3p;paBlba H xapxonaje Y nopop;l1U;l1. ,il;OKqHTaTe OBe pep;oBe CHryPHO ce npecnaurasare KO 6H CBe saxra nOKBapl10 KOHu;enT craapanaxxor aacmrrarsa. Ilene H 6a6e 6J1 KPHlllOM nonasarre HOBau, OTaU; 6H, H3 HHaTa BaMa, nJIaTHO Mope hepxa. Bepyjre p;a H OHH BOlle saure nere sxuie Hero lllTO Mp3e aac. BOlle ra na HaqHH KaKO BOllH ayTopHTapHa CBeCT J1 3aTO j~ notipo p;a HM norypnre osaj TeKCT KaKO 6H CXBaTHJIH urra pap;e CBOMnOTOMCTBY, KaKO 6H noxcenezrn p;a CBOjy "lby6aB" rpancdiopsorury y Jby6aB. 'Bepxa je CXBaTHJIap;a ce MajKa nmne He Hrpa sacrnrran,a (nac p;a - 'lac He na, 'lac rpp;H - na oana TO HCTOnorryurra). Majnna crparernja JIOMlbelha MajKe BHllle Hl1je nasarra pe3YJITaTe H Maja nOCYCTaje. Ha JIHCTHMajHHHx npHOpHTeTa xaurna cy ce pap; y xyha, yqelhe H nOBpeMeHH nenana, )KHBOT je nonaxo norexao on "lby6aBl1 H p;06pOTe" P;O Jby6aBH H Ilofipore. 'fiepxa je p;06HlIa rroaehanx l,Ienapau;, MajKa ce BpaTHJIa lllnopeTY y3 KOjMhe ce YCKOPOH hepxa naha, aKO )f(ellH. Cecrpnua ce BpaTHJIa, KaKO 6M Be)f(6aJIM y -rpoje. CBaKO otiann,a neo nocna y KyhH. )KHBOT re-te, P;OHOCM HOBe cnryauaje xoje san.a peurasarn. To HHCY np06JIeMH, jep )f(MBOTHHje np06JIeM. )KHBOT je JIenOTa, xoja cBaKY HOBY cnryauajy, pelllaBa YBeK y CKJIap;y ca CTBapaJIa'lKHM npHHU;MnHMa, 6e3 Ka3He H Harpap;e. CHrYPHO ce rnrrare urra je ca TB-OM. JIeTo je cjajao BpeMe na ce M3a1)e M3BMP7 ryamror CBeTa, Op;lIaCU;HMay npHpop;y (uierisa, nrnrnarse ... ). A nonpasna. a yqeH>e. Barnrre sa onrosopoxr. He y36y1)yjTe ceo To je Majnna cTBap - KaKO xaace M H>eHa MajKa. AKO je pelllHlIa na He H3ry6H romnry, nrraHOM H pap;OM ce CBe MO)l(e nOCTMhH. AKO OBYJIeKU;HjyHMje caananana, na je y'lelhe rsena CTBap, H3ry6Mhe rop;MHy. I1a urra? IIlTa cy jenao MOpe H jemra lllKOJICKaronnna, aKO u;eJIH )l(HBOT 6yp;e y}by6aBl1, ,il;06POTH. Bahe CBe notipo caao aKO MajKa, OP;HOCHO pop;HTelb HCTpaje, a l1CTpajane. DC: DpHMeTHJIH CTe na rOTOBO HMcaM cnosonsana MlIa1)e nere. ITOMHCJIl1JIl1 eTe na je nere notipo, caspureno, rucrajyha ce KaKOje TO Moryhe y3 MajqMHY H eeeTpl1J-1Y ayropxrapay CBeCT. HapaBHO p;a MHoro rora HHje noopo KOP; Coise, ami je t.[yAaJ-l
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. PMJ'HX aa MJIa1)e. MJIa1)e nere nocsrarpa H yqH aa rpeurxaraa cTapMjMx, l1UaJ CTa , hl1111Ta MO)l(e, a urra He MO)l(e na npohe. ,J{a)Y . Mala he CBe 6p)f(e ycnOCTaBlbaTH xapMoHHjy, H y cefin, My Op;HocMMa MajKa H . MHHOBHOp;OBecTH no xapaon]e H y MajHHoM )f(HBOTY, xapaonaje y eheTO He . , CB U;H CaMO ce san,a nOKpeHYTM. ITOKpeHHTe ce H BH Y HMe CBOJeneue: ~~~ . . uell. Ben nop;Y)l(e He jaarsa. 11 He rpefia, aKO Hp;e p;06po. A aKO Je op;YCTaJIa, .A'aJKaMH ce I:. 6 . h M BpaTHhe ce CTBapaJIa'lKOM sacnararsy Bell npn P;O HPlhY Be er, uITa cyMlha , Y . lllaMapa on onora 360r xojer Me je H norpasorna. CJ{a)l{HHJer '
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l1JIMJECl1, l1JIl1 Hl1Cl1

nO)l(elbHO je p;a CBH KOjH ysecrsyiy y op;rajalhY nerera !CBoje H npHMeHe npnaU CTBapallaqKOr BacnHTalha. Mano je lbYP;Hnanac KOJHcy cnpeMHH na npoweMne He, HapOqHTO xana je y mrratsy jep;Ha rroponnua. Masra he yhH y cTBaparraqKO, a TaTa? Maxa H rara he yha y CTBapaJIa'lKO, a nene, 6a6e? 11,~aK He CMeMO onycraTMMxana CMOCBeCHH p;a CTBapaMO on p;eTeTa "nOJIOBlhaKa casco 3aTO lllTO HeM~MOnonpurxy CBHX'lJIaHOBa noponnue, y onrajaisy nerera. TaKBo nere 36Hlba ~H~e CTBapaJIa'lKa JIH'lHOCT, aJIH cy urance aa paCT MHOrO sehe, Hero KOP; ocoee KOP Je )l(pTBa nOTnYHe aYTopHTapHOCTH. Haje JIaKO CTBapaJIa'lKOM qJIaHY nopomme KOjH ce onpenenx na aaarpa H.a xapry 'lOBe'lHOCTH, jep je MHoro OHHX KOjH pyille. ,To Mory 6HTH ocoee H3 HaJ6JIH)I(er oKpY)l(elha nerera: BaCnHTa'lH, neua y BpTHhHMa, npocpecopJ1, npyrapn H HapO'lMTO Mep;J1jH, P;PYlllTBO y u;eJIHHH. Ilyr je nyT no ocrnapersa xapMoHHje, xojy CBaKH 'lOBeK npH)I(elbKyje. Hnje nax nyr p;YXOBHOCTH jep Ty He aaxce npamora "nOJIOBlhaKa". Ha TOM rryry [eca.

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3a cyrrpyra HJ.1jerapaarcnana. J1 36J.1lba 6J.1lla je nonozsna caao J'eITH a CBel< npJ.1Mell,6 a:" MYUlKapu;J.1He rrernajy neneae!" J.1na y TOM Mllall,OM 'lOBel< P8i1lia ll,J.1 30B MYUlKJ.1X npell,aKa, Iloxena je na ra ,,60llJ.1 KJ.1'lMa re yMopa ' Y npoPa_ , ' H Je, Te naaac ocraje to.. ll,y)I(e na rrocny, 6ecKpajHJ.1 Tellerh OHCKJ.1paaroaopa n, C Be je ' To )\(YPi1 't' ' xcena npJ.1MeuJ.1Balla, J'ep Ka3HY Harpa MlIal\a , amr joj " je OCTallO casro ll,a ra xexa ,J.1 KOpJ.1CTJ.1lla, Hcrpajaaana Je najyha CBOj npJ.1Mep, ll,Y lii1je
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e ce xax HJ.1san qYBaJIa je neuy y KpJ.1lly nopoll,J.1u;e, CBe 11.0 uncone, HJ.1)' ~~ neua, paclla cy J.1neua pOll,6J.1He J.1npnj arersa ' LL TAX 6 acna cy J-bJ.1XOBa ~Vn OBa ll,eu;a C ' nna 3HaTHO CMJ.1peHJ.1ja,spemrrrja, 311,paBa J.1secena panosnana ,OPOll,J.1U;Vl Yn Y 11 no-reznr ca nOUlTOBaJ-beM ll,a rnenajy na Mllall,y )I(eHY KO)'a ' UlJ.1pe, CBJ.1 cy , , HJ.1JeOAY~Ta)alla 011. CBO)e neue, HJ.1011. cynpyra, Cynpyry cy no-rene ll,a rone npVlMell,6e npVljarersa J.1pohaxa J.1nonaxo je no-reo ll,a ce ceha KaKO je TO 6VlllO npe 6paKa Vlrrpe po?eJ-ba neue. HaY'leHO ce He sadopaazsa J.1CTaHKO je y6p30 6J.10 na nyTy na KOj HJ.1)e6J.1ll0 HJ.1"nllJ.1UlaHor HJ.1onor ll,pyror aacnzsa. eM 3ajell,HJ.1'lKJ.1cy nllaHJ.1pallJ.1 KaKO ll,a npJ.1npeMe neuy sa UlKOllY, y KOjOj MalIVluraaa xohe O~~He 6e3 pall,a, y xojoj ll,eBoj'lJ.1u;e xohe na 6yll,y Eap6J.1Ke, a ll,e'lau;Vl KeHOBVl,y ~OJOJ cy y30pJ.111,eu;J.1, jyaaua <pJ.1lIMCKe J.1MY3J.1'lKeecrpane. jyaaua najarpeCJ.1BHJ.1JJ.1X 3a ' , ,'t' rhVllIMOBa ,UlKOlIY Y KOJOJce npJ.1'la J.1npenpn-raaa KOlIJ.1KO je KO y6J.10 HerrpJ.1JaTelbCKJ.1X BojHJ.1Kay aajaonajoj J.1rpJ.1U;J.1, 3HalIJ.1 cy pOll,J.1TelbJ.111,a je MHoro J.13a30Ba KOjJ.1 6J.1MOmJ.111,acpyUle CBe YlIO)l{eHO y neuy, aJIJ.1cy peUlJ.1lIJ.111,a J.1CTpajy aa rryTy CTBapalIa'lKOr BaCnJ.1TaJ-ba,

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Ilena xpeaynre y UlKOlIY,Ben npsor naira nonase KynJ.1y cysaaa. Ileua cy J.1X TyKna, J.1CMeBaJIa,Yl.J:J.1TelbJ.1u;a I1x je rpll,J.1JIa,jep ll,eu;a 11Majy rrpJ.1Mell,6e na J-bJ.1X, pO,[lJ.1TeJbl'1 cy 6J.1JIJ.1 y qy,[ly, HapO'lJ.1TO MaTJ.1,"TOJIJ.1KO caM YJIo)I(J.1JIaTpY,[la, urra ce ,[IeIUaBa?" J111,aHJ.1MyKa cy KpeHyJIJ.1, fuJ.1XOBa neua, HapO'lJ.1TO CJ.1H'lJ.1n,rrOCTa,[lOIUe,[Ie)l{YPHJ.1KpJ.1BU;J.1. Hecrane OHa cjajna pall,03HaJIOCT, yryUlJ.1 ce sozsa aa Yl.J:eJ-beM, 'laY<CY neua BplIO 'leCTO MOllJ.1JIaMajKY, na HeKOllJ.1KOll,aHa He J.111,y y UlKOJIY,3a6pI1HyTI1,
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"AlIJif, CaMOnJ1'lJ1", p;op;ajeM ja. qeMY CBe OBOBOP;J1?". AKo poznrrezs OP;YCTaH eOAa nere he Bpno 6 ac, rnrrarsa 6e3 Ka3He J1Harpap;e onycrao je on csor nerera . TaKBO ,..., HayqJ1TJ1 CBe ope J1a30He ayTOpJ1TaPHe rpyne. Mopa 6p30 CBe HavuJ1T . Pao I' J1,)ep MO)f(e npe)f(J1BeTJ1 caao aKO CJ1J1CTJ1,xao CBJ1y rpynJ1. KyhJ1 aehe J1rpaT Ce J1 I1rp ue, anJ1 he 3aTO KPJ11I1OM cspaharn y J1rpaOHJ1~e J1KOnJ1KOcyrpa ny~aTJ1 J13ce 11padiana y ce6e, y neuy, y ponxrezse. Y nJ1TalbY je OnCTaHaK Manor, HecpehHor 611::X Mozena rara CTaHKO TeK cana pa3YMe IIlTa je yqJ1HJ10 CBOjJ1MOP;YCTaja!-beMoa. neue, op;Max no pohersy. Ilanac, nocne OBe npJ1'le J1 BaneHTJ1Ha J1 CTaHKO 3 .A acrpai HaJY na he e J1CTpa)aTJ1 aa CBOMnyTy. Kana "nonOBlba~J1 " nOCTaHY ~enOBJ1Te nJ1"H -,. OCfl1 HahJ1 he OHJ1CaMJ1 rryr, no cpua csaxor 'IOBeKa.

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3alIlTO rpyna neue He npJ1XBaTa "nonOBlbaKa" BJ1p;enJ1CMO. A op;roBop na rnrra. ise pOp;J1Telba: .Kaxo he ce Moje crsapanasxo nere cnaha y rpyna p;pyre neue?", je n03J1TJ1BaH. CHahJ1 he ce Bpno noopo, He 6pJ1HJ1Te. ,1J;06po je IIlTO cy BaneHTMHa J1 CTaHKO 'IynJ1 J1OBYnpJ1'Iy. Ilocne jenner ot; 6pOjHJ1X npenaaaa,a npJ1llIna MJ1 je J1CKYCHa,nofipa yqJ1Te}bJ1~a J1y )f(elbJ1 p;a Me otipanyje, peKna je: "MJ1nJ.1~e, OBYnopop;J1~y MopaTe yno3HaTJ1. Kao na je nsaurna J13 Bainer "EYKBapa". Ynoanana caM J1X.POp;J1TelbMHMCY 3HanJ1 aa MOjy KlbJ1ry, anM cy J1ManJ1 TOnJ1KOJby6aBM p;a cy MOrnJ1 p;a onraje rryx neue. Pop;J1nJ1 cy J1raje 'IeTJ1pJ1 npep;J1BHa nerera, On lbJ1X, npyurrsy P;OBOlbHO. OHO IIlTO caM BJ1p;ena, xyzra, OCeTJ1na 6J1na je 6allI npaBa npJ1'Ia 0 onrajatsy p;el\e 6e3 6aTJ1He, urapraperre, npeaaurrahaaarsa, Bep6anJ13Ma, 6e3 aerarnsaor yl\aja TeneBJ13J1je, xosmjyrepa. Ynoaaana caa J1XnpeKO npnpentie xojy cy, xao MCBaKe rOp;J1He,npanpeaanx aa onersencxe sajemome, KojJ1Ma cy npxnanana. Mana llIeCTOxnaaa sajennaua Bpep;Ho je rronasana 6J1HY, craszsana saaece, OCBeTlbelbe. Po,o:J1rezs, 036J1lbHJ1, CKPOMHO 06yqeHJ1, pe'IeHO Mop;epHMM je3MKoM "He y TpeH,o:y". Ileua, npaBa neua, y3paCTa on p;pyror P;O cep;Mor pa3pe,o:a OCHOBHeurxonc. TIpeno3HajeM p;a Mnat)a neua aoce onehy crapn]e neue. Hoce je npMpop;HO xao UITOHOce Mre p;e'IMje pM3ype Ha'lMlbeHe Maj'IMHOM PYKOM. CBe TO noce ca naKohoM KojOM npJ1H'IeBJ1 M rrpaauese aoce najnenury M najcxyrroueazjy onopy M HaKJ1T. ,Ua cy TaKO ofiyxeaa neua "nonOBlba~M", 6J1na 6J1 MCMejaHa, na HajoKpYTHMjJ1 Ha'IJ1H. Y ny6nJ1~J1 cy neua J1pOp;J1TelbJ1.MMpHO, cTpnlbMBo xexajy na nporpaM notU-Ie. BeCTapJ1 cy TO 3HaH~J1. 3Ha J1XMBOnJ1'IJ1TaBa uncona. "HJ1Ka,o:a MXHJ1CYTYKnJ1,J13 " sepxnx, J1CMejanJ1", HJ1Kap;aJ1MHMCYynyTJ1nM pe'IM nonyrfiydanaue", mnM){Tape ,
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TTJ1" manyhe MMvqJ1TelbJ1~a. Ilo'IJ1lbe nporpav. CBe WTO roaope, apmeBJ!l CY ha 1) ... I ca . rresajy npanana YMeTHOCTJ1xoja je Hap;)f(J1Bena BpeMe J1YTeMelbeHa Me tH1Ta)y, . rTfY ' 6aBJ1 J!lQOBe'IHOCTJ1. Kana 'IJ1Tajy csoje pap;OBe, xana rosope J1pe~J1TYJY je }la !bY enpona3He Bpep;HOCTJ1, xana rresajy, csapajy, ocehav p;a je CBe rtpoxcecrOBe H Tel< YTpalIllbOM XapMOHJ1)' OM. CBe je 06J!l'IHO, n03HaTO, a J1naK HOBO. tbWCOBOM yH 6 TO Mana nyfinaxa KO)' a xohe casio XapJ1 Ilorepa, nesarsxe, 60p y, J{aJ<o TO p;a ' rr MJ1PHOCep;J1J1CBe ynnja Cpanourhy, Kaxo TO? CBaKo nere MPOP;MCJ1Jbe,mYH,..." . Jb 6 }la 0 je CBO)'ecpue. YcnOCTaBlbeHa je eMO~J10HanHa XapMOHJ1)a. y as e OTBOpJ1n 6 T 06poTa pap;e sa lbJ1X. Y OBOM rpenyrxy HeMajy TpyHKy 3aBJ1c:J1, lby onope, }1 ,U C J1J!lMa)'ynany na J1OHJ1Mory nOCTaTJ1 TaKBJ1 xao IIlTO )e OBa nopomrI1aI<OCTJ1. B ua Ha)f(anoc T, CBe he rpaj aTJ1 Bpno xparxo. Kana ce aaseca crrycrn J1yrace cserna, . eaxe he ce nonyr IIlKOlbKl1 3aTBOpJ1TJ1. Moscna ce 11He 6J1 aarnopnrre tbMXOBeceM, , na Jby6aB J1IT06poTa pacTy caMO y O,n;CYCTBY ner BaCnJ1THJ1XMo,n;ena. I<a,o:a fJ., 6 M3Han J1,..., AnnaY3, 'IeCTJ1Talba. Hl1 TpyHKe 3aBJ1CTJ1, 6ap naaac. Kana onpacry, xana ra ny6nMKa CXBaTJ.1 ,n;aje rrponyc'rnna lIlaHCY na ce caaocnosaa J1 caMOOCTB~PM xao 'lOBeK M po,n;MTelb, aaairnehe CBaKOM 'IOBeKY KOjM l1X 6y,n;e noncerno, KO)l1 6y,n;e noponnue, naaac. " nMQMO,MnM 6y,n;e l1CTl1xao lby,n;J1OBe urecro-rnaae TIp"na31M Crronrronaisera 11noxnaaax rroponaux "TIOPO,n;M'IHM 6YKBap . qy,n;HO Merne,n;ajy, xao ,n;ace mrrajy na nl1 rpeoa na npOBepe ,n;anl1 cy 113 a IIInJ.1113OBe Klbl1re. Kao na xaacy: "Ml1 He rrpoaepasaao, Ml1 )f(J1Bl1MO11YBeK 3HaMO xana jecxro, a xana HMCMO. Kana "Hl1CMO", xcnpaszsaao ceo on CBe IIlTO 611 J1Xnxrana nenyje neyvecno, xao xana 611x, 'IOBeKa KOjl1 BM,n;M pobersa rnrrana: .Kaxo je TO Bl1,n;eTl1?" On CBl1Xrnrraisa 0,n;a611paM caao jenno: "JtiMaTe nJ.f TB 11 xosmjyrep?" "J1MaMo, 3alIlTO nnrare?" 36YlbeHO uacrasrsa: "lla KaKO neua ononesajy 60M6ap,n;oBalbY ca expanai" Onroaop je 6110 npnponan, cnOHTaH 11l1CTMHl1T:"TeneBJ1311ja 11KOMnjYTep cy ,n;l1BHl1113yMl1caspesrenor \{OBeKa, am! OHMnpananajy pOp;l1Telbl1Ma. Ileua KOp"CTe TB y Mepl1 y KOjOj je TO Y CKnap;y ca lbl1XOBl1MY3paCTOM, a OHO IIlTa neua rpeoajy na rnenajy, o,n;pet)yjeMo MM, pOp;l1Telbl1." Oner 36YlbeHa My~aM: "TIa aam Cl1Hje yqeHl1K cenraor paspena, ~Ma MHOpMaTJ1KY, Mopa na KOPJ1CTl1xosmjyrep. "TIa KOP"CT" ra, cana xana My Je nOTpe6aH na HayqJ1 OHO llITO ce on isera Tpa)f(l1 y urxomr. "A l1rpl1~e?", HaCTa8lhaM. "KaKBe l1rpl1~e? AKo rpetia na casnana pa,n; aa xosmjyrepy, 3allITO 6MCMO ra . ycnoBlbaBanl1 J1rpl1~aMa. TIpl1 TOM, nrpxue He aaxresajy aexe KOMnnMKOBaHe onepal\l1je. Hama hepxa, yxenaua urecror pa3pep;a, caapureno Ky~a aa KOMnjYTePY 116am cana HaM rroraaxce npl1 Ky~alby p;OKTOpaTa." "A na 1U1saura neua nanajy y l1CKywelbe na KPMllIOMo,n;yy MrpaoHM~y MnM xnaAI10HMl\Y?"OP;Max caM CXBaTMna KOnJ1KOje mrraise 6J1no nenpxvepeuo. jep Cxoisa ~M ~ . arapl\a ce He nana naxo. HeKO KO CBJ1pa Mouapra, KO Bell caM xosmoayje, ca
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3ajep;Ho cnaKOBaUle csoje n030pwUlTaHu;e rra CBe qeTBopo nei; e BecelIO 0 KYTaUle no CBO)WXBpUllbaKa. CBe je Wnazse 6wJIO MWPHO CBeqaHo .n;cl(a. . , , KaKO .n;01I~ . Kpa)y UlKOJICKe ronaae WJIWnOqeTKY HeKor HOBor >KWBOTa,>KWBOT f,.. l<YJe b, a Tpe1ler M~ HW)yMa y KO)eM lie CBaKa nopo,qwu;a 6WTWCTBapaJIaqKa a TO 3HaqTA lIe. , y nHOBa'OP~r ~. HaJIHa, rroceoaa. Je,qWHO he nere OCTaTWYBeK nere aa cpehy M, 11, BepaBa Me Becella U;WKaWrpaja 3a,qOBOlbHe ,qeu;e.
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Huje onaeo marry, h ar aM rrOKYUlaBaJIa na crrojuM pop,WTelbe, na 06aBWM rrpBu pa3roBOp, y Ky U .u~KH~rrpaBlbeH <pPOHT rrpOTuB MajKe (3: 1). He 6paHuM MajKY, aJIU Ben BUp,UM Je lie ,hpOHT (2: 1) - nsoje neue rrpoTuB oua, jep he My YCKOPO w3Bynu noczremsn qeKaJIe CMOCTprrlbUBO, na ce TO necx, . ~J{tlap. BO ca ouea je ofiaarsen. Ilpouec rpaucrpopaauaje CBeCTMpop,MTelba)e pa3ro pM 6 qYJIM rrpxxy CTBapaJIaqKOr aacmrraisa. I1poHaUlJIM cy ce e y CBMX cy ~q~ . no BacrrMTHMX MOp,eJIa. OP;JIyqMJIM cy p;a ce Melbajy, p;a.YCBO)e npnauane CTBapaneT M yrrYCTe ce Y 60p6y, p;a spare CBO)Y neuy ce6M, pap;y. lhy6alIa'lKor sa cmrrarsa Pap;oCTM M ,[(06pOTM. BU'Ka3Ha M narpana He rrocroje, p;orOBOpMJIM CMOceo .ITocTyrraK pap;a, .M3lIa>Kelba }{3 MpaKa aYTOpMTapHOCTM 6MO je CJIMqaH xao y cnysajy caaoxpaae Ma)Ke ~lIaTe 11 liepKe Maje, (npo-nrraj l). ITp06lIeMl1 cy TOlIl1KO CJIM~HM, p;a He Ka>KeMMCTI1)ep CBe ayTOpl1TapHe nopomrue lIMqe jenna na P;pyry (arpecnja, nacarse, neisocr, HerrOIlITO~ sarse pOp;I1Telba, rnyBapelbe, BMUleqaCOBHO ceneise rrpep; TelIeBl130pOM, renerpo Hupalbe, czryurarse aajrope My3MKe, onene 6e3 pap;a, noxnena M M3BlIaqefbe nosua op; pomrrezsa, xao u;eHTpalIHI1 npoonea CBaKe noponnue) .. CBe CTBapalIaqKe rropop;Mu;e (KaKBa he YCKOPO6l1TM 11OBa 0 KO)O)nMIlIeM) aoce aajnemny CTBapalIaqKY pa3JIMqMTOCT. CBaKa CTBapalIaqKa JIMqHOCT TaKBe CTBa. panaxxe rropop;Mu;e >KMBM M CTBapa y ciorany ca CBOjl1MrrOTeHU;I1)alII1Ma, a yB eK M3 paBHM lhy6aBM M ,[(06pOTe. Ho, BpaTMMo ce ponarersnva. CXBaTMBIlII1 p;a cy najrope Moryne nacmrraise, xao 11CBI1, npaxaariora xao HeUlTO nanpenao, Mop;epHo, p;eMOKpaTcKo, BMp;eBww noxne MX je TO p;OBelIO, no-remr cy ca panox. ,[(0 CKOPO OBO cy 6MlIM pOp;I1TeJbWKojM cy rrpaBMJIM <PPOHTOBe, OHaKO KaKO cy TO p;eu;a onpehasana. PeTKO cy Kap; MWClIl1lIM MCTO.Hnxana ce HI1CYcnarann, HMTMcy P;OHOCMlIM sajemnraxe onnyxe. Y.n;pY>KeHM, HaopY>KaHM crpnzsersea no syria, HaopY>KaHI1 3HafbeM, M3aIlI~11 cy npe.n; neuy, rrpM3HalIM rpeurxe, 3aTpa>KMlIM onpourraj on neue aa rpeunce KO)e cy 'IWHl1JII1 y He3HalbY. CBeqaHO cy 113jaBMJIl1p;a ce on nanac 60pe aa ce6e 11aa fbMX, CBojy .n;eu;y. HapaBHo.n;a MX neua HMCYpa3yMeJIa, HapaBHo p;a 11MHI1CYseposana na he M3P;p*ant y OHOMe IlITO npaxajy, HapaBHO na cy ce neua rpqeBUTO 60pMlIa p;a spare PO.n;~Telbey HeCBeCHO crarse. 3Hafbe je npooymoro 3aTprraHe porurrerscxe HarOHC. BOP6a aa .n;eu;y M ce6e je rroxezra, Tpaje. Ilsanecer romma cy KBapl1lIl1, Mopajy 6MTl1 Cl'pnJhl1Bl1 p;Ba.n;eceT nana, no naanecer Meceu;u. Ycrrehe cMrypHo, aKO He OP,YCTaBy. Pa.n;e Bpe.n;HO. Tpaace MOjy nosroh caxo xana cy y p,UJIeMU - p,a lIU je rrpep,y3e1'11l<OpaKKa3Ha MJIM narpana - UJIl1 caxro JIUql1 na TO. J1 OHU cy CaqMHMnU cnncax
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. Ila p;aHaUllba neua cy TaKBa, UITa ce Ty

MO>Ke".

Hncy

Tpa>KUlIU

noxroh, CBe p,OK

XBaJIa Y'fWTelbwU;WUlTO Me je n03BaJIa na BW,qWMCTBapaJIaqKO Bacn TK nnlbe~ neny, K ana OBY npwqy WCnpWqaM "nOJIOBlbaU;WMa" HWKOHe O,qYCTa;' e on . neue. H e O,qyCTaUle HWBaJIeHTWHa HWCTaHKO. CTBapa_ JIaqKOr, on CBO)e
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CBE JE CJIMlJHO, CKOPO MCTO

CaBpeMeHa cy nopo,qwu;a, >KpTBe CBWXrrer aYTopWTaPHWX BacnWTHWX Mop;ena. Y CBaKop;HeBHOM >KWBOTY WMajy xaoc. CWH, cpe,qlbOUlKOJIau;, npyr rryr rtonanzsao paspen. He yqW, 6e>Kw on UlKOJIe, rzryaapn, csaha ce ca cecrpov WOMeTa je Kap;Y'H1. Pop;WTelbe, aarrazra Bep6aJIHO a qeCTo W3aMaxyje PYKOM, rOBopenw: "Jep;Ba qeKaM na YMpeTe Wna MOry,qa ce UlWPWMy OBOM CTaHY!" CeCTpa, CTapwja HeKOJIWKOro,qWHa, cp,qaqHO Mp3W 6paTa. OHW wMajy sajenHW'IKY oncecnjy - KaKO w3Bynw UlTO BWUle HOBu;a on ponarezsa. Kana rrOCTWrHY U;Wlb, 3anOqWlbY HOBe caahe, OKOrora KOje ,q06wo BWUle. OnTY>Kyjy ponnrezse l:(a cy Hecnoc06HW ,qa 3apap;e BeJIWKWHOBan, y BpeMeHY y KojeM CBWKpap;y, a lbWMaje caxro HOBau; norpeean. BpXYHau; je ,qOCTWfHYTxana je hepxa, y 6ecy UlTO je MajKa cc6.w KY~WJIa jaKHY, nOJIWJIa HOBYjaKHy YlbeM. HacpHyJIa je na MajKY, OIlTY>Kyjynw)e,qa)e JIOUla MajKa, WMopa na 3anaMTW p;a ce rrpso xyrryje p;eu;w, rra oana ce6u. I10CJIe osor; Ben Bw~eHor HaCWlba, MajKa je HanYCTWJIa Kyny. HeMon' . . aa ~ Oqa)Ha 3~TPa>KWJIa)e nOMOn. Pa3rpHYJIa caM lbeHY aecpehy U OTKPUJIa na je y TO) rropop;WU;W 6vmo caera, W HaCWlba W "nJIWllIaHor HaCUlba ". ~OK cy POP;WT~':'WBpep;Ho pap;WJIW,neuy cy op;rajaJIw upraha, <PUJIMOBW, "BwpTyeJIHa ryBepHaHTa )ep cy pOp;WTelbWHaWBHO BepoBalIw p;a ce neua Malbe rrzraure xana cy caMa, a rnep;ajy TB. ~eu;a cy WMWTWpaJIaOHO UlTO je 6wJIO y CKJIap;y ca lbUXOBUM y3paCTOM. OBU p;06pw U CKPOMHWpOp;uTelbw, UlKOJIOBaHW,HeUlTO nocrapxjn, MucnunU
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mynOCTlt! KOj11cy l1.03BOll11ll11CBOjOj l1.eU;11 11ce6w. KpeHYll11 cy 0l1. 11 . rpuraxa, xao 11MajKa Bepa. Ha'f11H11ll11cy rrzraa CIlI1CaK HOB11Xnopo ~Pa~ ali:,a ' l1.I1'f~I1XllPa_ B11lla 11sanoseaa 60p6y aa lby6aB 11Map Y CBOjOj nop0l1.I1U;W. MQ)Kl1.a he 3llaTI1Ha hepxa Maja, I1MaTI1 cpehy na J'eTTHor TTaHaC peT~e }f, sor CI1Ha, 3aBOllI1 ra Jep ce CllI1'fHI1 npI1Blla'fe, 11Yl1.a3a Ibera. Bnaro IbI1Ma I1Xo_ CllI1X. BI1ne 11Mrraxo na Ol1.raje ciaiao, nlleMeHI1TO nOTOMCTBO KaKBO no; noM11_ rpeha MI1llemfjYM. Pe6Yje I1 I1C: He 'fYl1. Tece llITO H11CaMrosopana 0 l1.eTalbI1Ma KOJ'Mcy Be3aH 11sa 1131Ia3 OBe nopol1.I1u;e M3 aYTopMTapHocTM. I1p06lleMM cy CnM'fHM M3aBMce OTT al( Y3pacTa rrozra nerera, amr Je 3aTO cTBapana'fKa CBeCT pOl1.MTelba npe60raTa 11 Y CMMmlbalhY Ha'fMHa pellIaBaIba np06neMa KOjMMCKpCaBajy aa nYTY OTT aYToPMTap ~e l1.0 CTBa_ panaxxe caecrn, CBMX'fnaHoBa rtoponaue, aa nyTy 0l1. lby6aBMl1.0 lby6aBI1. O,llcy_ CTBOMaYTopMTapHocTM np06neMM ce pellIaBajy u;enoBMTO, a He napU;Mjan~o. Ka,lla ayroparapna CBeCTpOl1.MTelbaTO CXBaTMMnpMXBaTMrana He Tpa)f(M caner sa CBaKl1 MorynM M npMpOl1.aH np06neM, H~ nyTy Ol1.paCTaIba. Tal1.a He MHCMCTMpal1.a,llel..\a
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TTaM11Cll11 rrraaoxr Tpal1.11U;110HallHenOPOl1.11U;e. CBe je BJ.1111e aacnrsa *~J.1nM ~ ~ I1UaMa xoje cy nOIllTOBaHe, nourreae, notipe, KaKO J.1XMHo.rJ.1BJ.1l1,e. 0 ~y 0 1I P,n; KOJ'11 cy Clby6aBlbY no-rexana CBO)e nere 1111MaJY pa,n;HI1, l1.06p11 pOTT11Telb11 eTa y HaMepy TTa aa C060M OCTaBe 3l1.paBO J.1'feCT11TOnOTOMCTBO. J<peH '( AyTop11TapHa l1.eMOKpaT11ja, xoja je yrueTalla y CBe l1.oMoBe, YHeBllIJ.1 I< I1Bau " I1 P xxaoc, y3 nosroh ner BaCnJ.1THI1XMOl1.ella,y BMl1.Y "nnJ.1llIaHOr nacxzsa . nJ.11 Jf>11BaCnI1TaIb e J'e HaMeTHYTO caapexeaoj nop0l1.J.1u;a, nop0l1.J.1u;a ra HeKpJ.1TI1'IKJ.1 aHO w U~~U03~ eHY aa peanHy 11aepoaznry npMHyl1.y. Hacarse J.1nM"nn11llIa. IIP"XB cBeJ'eTTHoje YBeK nocroja pel1.. I1pBO ra pOl1.J.1TelbJ.1 n pJ.1MeIbYJY aCI1lbe 6 nan . 110 OMCTBOM, H ce 6yMepaHr spaha. Hxje nacazse caste xana sac nere M)e. a OHl1.a
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a He 113Byqe 11nOCneTTIbI1TT11Hapxana He yqM ,n;OKra He nOTnnaTI1Te, xana sac ere rheCOp11Ma J.1npajarezsaaa, II, xana no-nose na 0l1.611Ji KpaHY, xana 6pyKa ripen npO 't' T
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nOT . a TO 11CTOTTeTeCaTJ.1ManylIITa maCHY MY3MKY,xana BaM, ,n;OK He nanH CI1lbe)e xan

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Ben naaac npMoHy aa yserse. 3HaJY pOl1.MTelbMl1.a je lby6aB npeva yqeIbY yrymeaa npe nonacxa y llIKony, jep je y TOM nepM0l1.Y 6Mno TB cnMKe, a KIbMre MnpM'Ia O M p l1. Telba npexraao. 3aTo He )f(ype, 'feKajy na ce "Ol1.BpTaIbe" l1.orol1.11 npMpO,llHI1M pel1.0cnel1.0M. HajcTapl1jl1 np06neMMl1.0na3e aa pen HajKacHMje. Ben rrpse Be'fepM, xazta cy neua CXBaTMna l1.acy pOl1.MTelbM Ol1.nyqHMl1.a ce Metbajy, CMHnsa l1.aHa HMje jaazsao pOl1.MTelbMMa,rne je. TajHO cy l1.03HanM ,lla je aa cnrypHOM MecTY, HMCY3anOMaranM l1.ace BpaTw. BpaTMO ceo MMPHO cy HacTaBMllM, rne cy CTanM.

oAna311Y 6 one CT, xao 113na3 , xana nocraje He3aJ.1HTepeCoBaH aa )!(J.1BOT. aKO rroxaJf>e,anl1 aacxrse ).e YBeK aacarse casro MeIba 06n11Ke 11J.13BplII110u;a.

,l{a je 6UllO BUUle HOBu,a, He 6ux suao iuuia case oqiajuo

Ilpaxy nO'fJ.1IbeM on xpaja, Tp11 HOnJ.1ysacromro hepxa lIIaMapa oua, jep ce ycynao, Aa npB11 nyT aa IbeHI1X neaernaecr ronmra, xazce: . " He , He TTaMI"Iloxnerma hepxa je Tpa)!(J.1na B11lIIe HOBu;a, Hero lIITO je no CKOPO,n;06J.1jana. Herapre Be'fep11 hepxa . nena, ena lIIKonOBaHa , TeaTpanHo J.13jaB11:"J1Ma cnoH30pa cnyna OKOnac: I". M nana je, CBe BJ.1,n;ena na <P11nMY,0 CBeMY cy joj nOTaHKO rrpasane ,n;pyrap11u;e J.13yrnenaax t. KYua, a ca TaKBMMa ce casso 11,n;pY)f(11na. J1' OHa )e xao 11OHe BpeTTHOv-nora J _ , 6aBJ.1" 1Ia ce cnoproa, caapana, nnecana, 611na "neno" BaCn11TaHa, YBeK "CKOU;KaHa no nocne,llIboj MO,n;J.1, np11 TOM nocnyuraa, MaM11Ha J.1TaT11Ha, neaoj-nrua.
M M

HM HACMJIHMIJ;M HMCY OHO IIITO CY

HEKA)J;A EMJIM
Y pa3roBopy ca BaTpeHoM 3aroBopHMU;OM ayTopMTapHe l1.eMoKpaTMje ca3Ha,ll0X na je IbeHO l1.y60KO YBepeIbe l1.a ce HacMlbe, pOl1.MTelba Hal1.l1.eTeTOM 11,lIeTeTa Ha,ll O MT P l1. elbeM, l1.oral)a 11CKlbyqMBO y nop0l1.Mu;aMa npMMMTMBH11XlbYl1.11,nl1jaHa. . K ua, KOJM JOllI HMCY'fynM l1.aje 6aTMHa, xao BacnMTHO Cpel1.CTBOnpeBa311l)eHa, q~ M 3a6paIbeHa. Ol1.06paf3a OHa caxro 6nary npMHYl1.Y,aznr Tl1 HeCpenH11U;l1 He 3HaJY KaKO OHa 113rnel1.a. H11CaM)f(enena na YT11'IeMna IbeHe cTaBoBe 11npel1.pacY,lle jep Hac TO He 611,lIaJIeKO onsezro, am! je Moja 60raTa npaxca rOBOp11na l1.a ra ocotia He pasyae BpeMe Y
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nOCTojana je casto jenaa rpeunca. Orau je YBeK J.13Mel)y isenor pa,n;a .11Ibe CTaBlbao 11HTepec, HOBau; KOj11M je OHa Morna KynJ.1T11lIITaje xrena, CBe lIITOJe pamoia. paAl1na je ca U;11lbeMna HelIITO l1,0611je. lby6aB? H11je suana lIITa TO 3Ha'f11. Iloxnena je nOCTana IbeHa npyra npnpona. . BOBu;a je 6J.1BanO CBe MaIbe, jep ra je orau sapahaaao CBe rexce. TpOlII110 ra )e lIal(o, racen11 )f(el) noxnerme hepxe. ,I:(06po je lIITO je HOBu;a CBe MaIbe. Ila je 6J.1no Bl1. " HaC11 lbe He me ~OBu;a He 611 saao urra je onrajao. He 6J.1saao Aa ce "nnJ.1111aHO 30 Be lhy6aB. Carta 3Ha na ce MO)!(e l1,aTJ.1 casro OHO lIITO 11MalII. nepKa H11JeJ.1Mana Y 1h 6aBI1, 11YMeCTOlby6aBlby Y3BpaT11na je Ben11KJ.1M HaC11lbeM.
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Ienaa cycper ca u;eJIOM rrOpO,n;MU;OM 6MO je nosozsaa. CBM cy pa3Y llt-t Me Y3pO'l_ HMKe xaoca M peUmJIM na ce MeJ-bajy. Hxje rrOTeKaO Me,n;M MJIeKO all . , M He rpelU hepxe. OHa je caxio rrpOBOU;MpaJIa caora oua M na Ma3He pe-er: 'raTa I(o~ ." , Kyrrt-t MI1 OSy 6YH,n;MU;yM crrpeMMny McrrMT sa necerxyl", orau je nao na McrrMTY ITo
. rrYC1'I10 . rrnarno uex. 1iepKMHa noxzrena je HapaCTaJIa, jep y3 6YH,n;J.1U;y J.1,n;y Ha)'cK je 11 . yrrlbe U;l1ne eM aajcxyms rrap<p . Orrer xaoc, cyse, csaha, aacazse. ITOHoBlbeH cycp lIe, D 6 "" er ca Mlio~ " e3 pare, peKOX, "J.1,n;eMO ,n;albe! . "Ba>I<Ho je He O,n;YCTaTJ.1c: OXpa6pJ.1Balla caM . He 30BY Me Ben ro,n;J.1HYnaaa, BepyjeM ,n;acy aa ,n;06pOM rryTy on 6 11X. . cy OHM TO 3aCJIJ)KJ.1JIM. Jby6aBJ.1, )ep To cy ,n;06pJ.1 po,n;MTelbJ1,qM)'y)' e 3'" plby aBI1 A 0 rr Y3MYTJ1JIa ayropnrepaa rrJIJ1IlIaHa ,n;eMoKpaTJ1)a.MO)f(,n;a cy rrOHOBO'"rr aBY naMel' . allJ.1Y cali Mozena J1M)e 6M3HJ1Cxpeuyo, rra rrOHOBO roje rroxnermy 3Bep HJ.1caM p . . . . a,n;03Halla Illro ron na !e, notipo je. 3HaJ-be cy ,n;06J1JIM M yrroTpe6Mne ra Ka,n;- ran, MO)f(,n;an~ OBO snan,e, jenaor naaa KOPJ1CTMTJ.1 hepxa, y BaCrrJ.1TaJ-bY csoje zreue. I1C: OBY he rrpM'Iy MO)f(,n;arrpO'IMTaTM 6pOjHJ.1 po,n;MTelbJ1, 3arOBOpHJ.1U;J.1 llllJ.1urane ,n;eMoKpaTMje. HJ.1je CTBapaJIa'IKO aacmrrau,e rrpOTJ.1B,n;eMOKpaTJ.1je, jep llpaBo 3Ha'Ie~e pexa ,n;eMoKpaTJ1ja, je BJIa,n;aBMHaBenJ.1He. Ia caM sa CTBapaJIaqKY ,n;eMOKpaTJ.1)Y,y rr~po,n;J.1U;J.1 J.1 ,n;PYIlITBY, y KojJ1Ma CBaKJ.1 'IJIaH rropo,n;J1u;e, CBaKJ.1 rpal)aHJ1H rroce,n;y)e qOBeqHY CBeCT. 3aJIa)f(eM ce aa BJIa,n;aBJ1HYBenJ.1He, xoja CBeCHa, 'IOBeqHa, OrrJIeMeJ-beHa, a TaKBJ1 he 6J1paTJ1 caxro Haj60lbe CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacrnrraa,a

CMpOMaIlIHMM, neua cy spahana po,n;MTelbMMa nacnn,e xoje cy TprreJIM y aBHOM T 11 HMCY ce rrJIaIlIMJIa jep HMCY HM MMaJIa urra na aacnene. ana cy PO,n;M"ibCTBY. . " 0 ~ " ,o;03HaBaJIM IlITa 3Ha'IM OHa Hapo,n;Ha: "DaTMHa J.1Manaa Kpa)a . HaCMlbY y -reJb O,o;"1I;M BepOBaTHO ce rrpMXBaTaJIO xao HeMMHOBHOCT. 1I ce io-YTaJIO I10P ce CTBapM M3MeHMJIey noponaua. Hacazsa y BM,n;y6aTMHe aexra. Kaxcy TTaHaccy . 6' H . Po ie TaKO y P a3BM)'eHoM CBeTY, Ma,n;a nosrranox. ,n;aM TaMO Ta)HO M)y. a MO)e: ~a } . a6paJ-beHa 3aKOHOM, 3ap ce He 60)MTe saxoaonaaua, 3ap He cTpaxy6aT"Ha}e 3 " to. C neua y CTapOCTM ryha", ,n;06MX onrosop 036MlbHor, cpenosexaor . re ,o;aue Ba '" " . }e a qOBeKa M3 nanexor pasnajeaor CBeTa: "HE, aaxononaaau pa,n;MCBO), a)a CBO) ou , a nout TO MMaM )f(eHCKY ,n;eu;y,xojy senrro YCJIOBlbaBaM, y,n;apMM xana oeao, . aJIM J.1 II . Mene cnymajy aJIM 3HaM ,n;ahe cyTpa ryh CBO)e MY)f(eBe. IlITa ,n;ace opeTepa)y. J '" a,o;M, CBaKO crraurasa ce6e. " P 0,0; He,n;aBHO6aTMHa je satipaiseaa M y 3eMlbaMa y TpaH3M1I;M)M. 3a6paJ-beHa ~e uTelbY M HacraBHMKY CBM OCTaJIJ1cy je nojasana. IIlTa HaM rrpeocTa)e eaMO pO,n;n' " Hero na M,o;eMO YTa6aHMM nyrea pa3BJ1jeHJ1X, na onaj MJIJ.1 OHa) Ha'IJ.1H.Hacnrse )e je,o;HHOM3BeCHO. Barnaa je aaripaisena, jenau ne-norh casro paanajeaox . CBeTY, 0,0;He,n;aBHOJ.1 Hepa3BM)eHMMa, rracarse Mel)y MJIa,n;MMa,3aIlITO u;eJIO o,n;elb~~e
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he 6J.11'11

Mel)y C060M .

HHje jacao na aKO 6aTMHe HeMa 3aIlITO je nojasano M3 <pMHe rropo,n;Mu;e y TpeHy notiaje MaMJ1He sapjase
MJIM

.D;a6J1 ce CTJ1fJlOno TaKBe ,n;eMOKpaTJ1jeMopaMO rrO'IeTJ1 Ben naaac ca rrpJ.1MeHOM rj. CTBapaJIa'IKe ",n;eMOKpaTJ.1je" y rropo,n;J.1U;J1. 3a noxerrOCTaBJ1MO rpamrrre, HJ.1Ka,n;a He ynorpeoasura na je TO TaK rrOCTaBJ1MO HOBa npaanrra, HeI13Bo,n;lbJ.1BO y npaxcn,

Y'IMT~lbM1I;y.

O,n;rOBOpje jacan. Hacarse je 3aMeJ-beHO "rrJIMIlIaHJ.1M HaCMlbeM KO)e MMa )a'IMHY,

sehy on jasnae CTOCTPYKO

TaTMHor xamna. Hapaano na BMPHa~Mlba. y BMpTyeJIHe ca,n;p)Ka)e KO)M

HJ1jenan on rrer aYTOpJ.1TaPHJ.1X BaCrrJ1THJ1XMo,n;eJIa.AKO ce6J1 urarryhere onna 3HajTe,n;a He lloral)aTe

TyeJIHO M ay,n;J.1TMBHO nacxzse Y3MMa nanax, jep neua, )f(pTBe nmnuanor nopo,n;J.1U;J.1, HerrOrpeIlIJ.1BO KOH3YMJ.1pajy najoxpyrnaje

MeTy. Mera je y aaurev ,n;aBHO orpOMHOM ornopy

J13ry6lbeHoM aYTopJ1TeTY po,n;J1Telba. He 6pJ1HJ1Te J.1 TOMe J.1MaJIeKa. Hcrpajre na rrpMHU;J1rrJ.1MaCTBapaJIa'IKor. Pe3YJITaTJ.1cy M3BeCHM, ynpxoc BaIlIe pacrrYiliTeHe ,n;e'IJ1u;e.

cy y CKlfaAY ca J-bMXOBOMJ.1CKpMBlbeHOMrrpJ.1pOAOM. BMpTyeJIHJ.1M HaCMlbeM rrpaSHe BJIaCTJ.1TY HarreTOCT, xao rrOCJIeAMU;yrrJIJ.1IlIaHOr nacnn,a. HaCJ.1lbeneue je casro OArOBOp, J.1JIJ.1 jeAMHM HaqJ.1Hna ce OApaCJIMMa nomarse nopYKa,n;aje ca npecypoa Ibe Kp03 pap; He npecnpajy. xosexa saspmeao. na ce Jbytias, .D;06pOTa J.1 Ca~OOCTBap.ey CBJ.1M noponauaua. HeM a BJ.1111e HaMepy ,n;a Hacazse J.1 "rrJIMiliaHO" nacazse Mopajy y My3e) J.1CTOPM)e. J1Ma cavo rropo,n;J.1u;axoje J.1Majy notipy

JaCHOHaM je saurro je nanac nacazse npncyrno

,IJ;AHAC BI111IE HI111ITA HI1JE I13BECHO

.D;OKje caxro 6aTJ.1Ha, xao crrorsannss ,n;OJIa3J.1JIO je cyaue, MOTJ.1BaU;J.1OHO BaCrrJ.1THOcpencrso,

Ao6pHX H JIOlllJ.1Xnoponaua,

nOAl1rHY 3,n;paBo J.1 'IeCTMTO rrOTOMCTBO (a nesrajy aaarsa), J.1 rropo,n;J.1u;ay QJ.1jeMcy

6una Y
rpal)e-

>l<l1BOTY neua CJIyqajHJ.1rrO,CenlOU;J.1 (TaKBM saan,e HJ.1He rpaxce).

yrroTpe6J1 CBeje 6J.1JIO, tvIa KOJIJ.1KO HeCJ.1rypHO J.1 TeIlIKO, 6ap J.13BeCHO. Iloczre KUWe rrOCJIe cyaa pazrocr, rrOCJIe para MJ.1p,rrOCJIe pyurersa IDe, snao ce pen. DMO je TO CrrOlbaIlIJ-bJ.1,aJIJ.1irrrax pen. Ponarezs cy 3Hanu KaKO

AYTOpJ.1TapHM CJ.1CTeM je yMpO uresnecernx romnra naaneceror aexa, y Ha)paS8 . H l1)e l1jeM neny CBeTa, a naaac rrOJIaKO yMMpe y u;eJIOM CBeTY, aJIJ.1 aYTOpMTapHJ.1 8acnl11'HJ.1 MOp;eJIJ.1 J.1 aYTOpJ.1TapHa CBeCT,xao J-bJ.1XOBa nocnenaua, rpaje. MJ.1,nana1JI1b11 )f(J.1TelbJ.1 nJIaHeTe, CMOcaenoux YMJ.1paJ-ba aYTOpJ.1TapHOrCJ.1CTeMa, nonaranor ,.J... Oc 6 110 al)aIDa aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1X BaCrrJ.1THMXMo,n;eJIa, csenoua CMO TpaHc,,OpMaU;J.1)e YTOP J.1TapHey CTBapaJIa'IKY CBeCT, caenonx CMO MMpMca Jby6aBJ.1. a - 307-

na crrpexe nacazse neue aan fbMMa YCJIOBlbaBajynM MX, qeCTO no xpaja )KUBOTa Y peTKMM rropo,o;J,maMa, HaCJIe,n;CTBOM, xoje he MM rrperrMcaTM, MJIM He rrpenacarn. - 306-

ITo ~1Hep~HjH rrperxonaxx HCTOPHjCKHX rrepHOll,a, oxexyjesro ll,a he ca . M Cl1:C1' na ce OpraHH3YJe, na rrpHMHpH TpH, a nojaxa ABa aacnaraa MOll,eTIa, 6aTl1:li e~ 6aTIH3aM. To ce MpTaB.

rop.

. 6J1lIO 6aTHHe J1TIJ1BJ1Ke H 3aTO je lbHXOB aYTOpJ1TeT, 6ap ll,elIHMH'IHO 6HO tI~Je h EaTJ1Ha, Bep6alIJ13aM H rroapesrena lby6aB cy oMorynaBalIH Tpall,H~J10HalI-

3aTO Je

aehe

noromrra.

lhyll,H xexajy ,,[011.0 a " KOjH nehe

noha, jep ]e c pacra no,

Bep_ l1:e1'e'.
"l

CBe rrOCTaTIO HeH3BeCHO, HeCHrypHO

H 3aTO je jell,HHO Ba)f(

HOM rrOBpaTHTH orrTHMH3aM lbYll,HMa.l1,OTIa3H BpeMe ll,YXOBHor

osaj

paCT He

rpefia

HaM HH

jenaa

ayTopHTapHH

BacrrHTHH MOll,eTI.

l1:e1' 'l 11OBel<a a ' 3a

of'! . ~Telby ll,a J1Ma, KaKaB, TaKaB aYTOpJ1TeT. IIOrd poll. pOTTJ1TelbHeMa aYTOpJ1TeT J1 He MO)l(e ra J1MaTH jep KOPJ1CTH CBHX ner ,uaHaUllbH M MOTTelIa He ocraazsajyha npocrop. HJ1 lby6aBH. OCHM rora, BJ1pTyeTI' eJll1THJ<1X M sa ra KOPHCTJ1 TJ1X J1CTHX ner ayTOpJ1TapHHX BaCrrHTHJ1X MOll,elIa. POll,J1f'!BepHaH ' lIa ~HeJ1CTJ1pa xa jell,HJ1M a "ryBepHaHTa" na ll,pyrJ1M Bpell,HOCTJ1Ma, IlITO nonarno

AyTopHTapHH CHCTeM H iseroaa BacrrHTHH MOll,eTIH6HTIH cy HeorrxOll,HH . . w: ynepl1_ TT Oll,HMa pa3BoJa MaTepHJaTIHor . .IUlaTIa Bory, 3aBpllIHcMO raj BeTIHKH rroca . . o..... OUIno Je speae ll,a ce MaKCHMaTIHO pa3BHJe ll,YXOBHO 6TIaro y 'lOBeKY H TaKO yc noeTaBI1 paBHOTe)f(a J13Mel)y nyxosnor J1 MaTepJ1jaTIHor. Kana ce TO ll,orOTTJ1 MO""TT . M, ""Ma HaM HI1 MaTepJ1JaTIHO aehe TOTIJ1KO3Ha'lJ1TJ1, KOTIJ1KOnaaac , J'ep he 6J1TJ1 noxpen yre cse

reJb

. TTeQY.BJ1TKY sa nere 11.0 HJa "ryBepHaHTa . s6ylbYJe M ." aBpeMeHJ1 ponxrers He BJ111,J1 na Je "rrlIJ1l1IaHO Ha)l(alIO CT, C

6'"

nacarse

CTIaTKO,

~~Y~~~

AKO 6Yll,eIll MJ1paH, aKO Me He IllyTJ1paIll,

ll,OrrYCTJ1ny TJ111,a 6Yll,ellI

na

KOMrrJY-

cnare caao

yHyTap

Hac CaMJ1X. KOTIJ1KJ1cy ll,OMeTJ1 TJ1X ynyrpaunsnx

cnara

, MO)f(eMo HapaB-

ll,a HaCTIYTJ1MO. Onaxne KpeHyTJ1? all. 011.3HaIDa CTBapaTIa'IKOr

HO. KpeHyTJ1

noponnne, cnaxor lbeHor xnaaa, BaC[IJ1Talba, xoje npotineae peurasa

" sa cara KaA CTJ1rHeMO KynJ1", xaxce ponarers. UJ1lb je HaJ13rJIell, OCTBapeH. Tepy A .' " . ,uere Bac He IllyTJ1pa, OHO .Je "rrpJ1CTOJHO , aa OKOlIJ1H!: alIJ1 Je TO .caMO OAlIo)KeHO HaCJ1lbe, rrOTJ1CHYTO KOJe

uerro-

cro

BJ1TO, He rrapmrjanao.

he eCKalIJ1paTJ1 y ~eroBO:' jenanaecroj rOll,~HJ1, yMeneroj. Mozena 6J1 6J11I0 60lbe na Je ,,'IJ1P HCQYPJ10 Y neroj rOAJ1HJ1, MO)l(Aa 6J1CTe Ben rana rrOTpa)KJ1lIJ1 QelIOBJ1TO peurerse, jep napnajanno He nosiasaxe caMO aKO cy neo QelIOBJ1TOr CTBapalIa'IKOr BaCrrJ1T)l(e. nap~HjalIHa peureisa aor npoueca. CBaKO rrapQJ1jalIHo pellielbe, HapO'IJ1TO aKO je "rrlIJ1l1IaHO" TpeHyTHo
AaHac, y

,1J;EJIMMMQHO MJIM QEJIOBMTO PElllABAlbE TIPOEJIEMA

CpeTOX pomrren.a IlITO cy BaCrrJ1Ta'IJ1~y

raca noxcap,
Jby6aBH) Marne

carao HaJ13rJIell,. KOlIJ1KO caapesreax pOAJ1TelbJ1 HeMajy

aYTOpJ1TeT (jep HeMajy

HJ1 lby6aBJ1

HJ1

neue

rrpell,IlIKOTICKOr Y3paCTa.

CTIO)f(J1TIa ce ca MHOM ll,a cy

rrOCTaTIJ1 rOTOBO HeMOnHJ111,a 3aYCTaBe caMOBOlbY, J1 TaKO MaTIe ll,e~e, xao

Pexe ll,a npenopysyje pOll,J1TelbJ1Ma jenny, He TaKO noasaTy nenarourxy KlbJ1ry, y xojoj ll,OTJ1'lHJ1 rrenaror naje onrosope, KaKO na pOll,HTelb peui., KOHKpeTHe npofinezse. AKO aac je nere llIyTHyTIO nox ra 06YBaTe, Ty nCTe HanJ1 onrosop na saure mrraise: "lllTa ypanarn!" Mopare rrOKa3aTJ1 aYTOpl1TeT
y BpTJ1ny. pOll,J1Telba.l1,eTe Mopa 3HaTJ111ITa CMe, a IlITa He CMe. "CTIa)f(eM ce! l1,eTe Mopa 3HaTl1 IlITa CMe, a IlITa He CMe, aTIJ1 OBaKBJ1 CaBeTJ1 cy 6J1TIJ1 011.BeTIJ1Ke KOPJ1CTJ1 pOll,l1TelbJ1Ma KOjJ1 cy )f(J1BeTIJ170-TJ1X He Tpall,11~110HaJIBpeMe, ABa BaCrrJ1THa MOll,elIa, - BpeMe 6aTHHe J1 Bep6aJI113Ma.

neua

romnra nsaneceror sexa.

To

je speve

rroponnue, TO je xana je nere TIaKO rraMTHTIO IlITa CMe, a IlITa He CMe, MHTIOM J1JIJ1 CI1JIOM, nenov peujy J1lIJ1 6aTJ1liOM. TIPBO MopaMO pa3YMeTJ1 - IlITa je TO aYTOpJ1TeT ponarezsa? AyTopl1TeT pOAI<fTOrezsa nonpasyaesa lhy6aB, H Oll,YBeK je rrOll,pa3YMeBao. Saro, xana Ka)l(eUl a Y pJ1TapHOCT, MJ1CTIHIlI aa OACYCTBO lhy6aBJ1, HlIJ1 casro nospeaeno rrpl1cyCTBO
Bpesre lby6aBH. Tpall,H~J1oHaTIHJ1 ponarezsn cy 6Hmr y lby6aBH ca CBOjOM ll,e~OM, J{aAa

xasyje crpax 011.BlIaCTJ1Te neue, KojJ1 'IaK HJ1 He CKpJ1Bajy. POll,J1TelbJ1 ce csoje neue J1 OHe MlIal)e J1 OHe crapaje, Ilnaure HX ce J1 BaCrrJ1Ta'lJ1 H npocl>ecopH a ITlIaToH rrpe 2600 rOAJ1Ha pe'Ie na y aTJ1HCKoj AeMOKpaTJ1jH, CJ1HOBJ1He cnyrnajy oxese, yqeHHQJ1 He cnyurajy nenarore HJ1 HaCTaBHJ1Ke, Oll,paClIH ce nnaure MJIaAJ1x... Beine TO speae rpxxe AeMOKpaTJ1je y KOMe je TaKol)e naposano, CBJ1Xner BaCrrJ1THJ1XMOll,elIa. fbJ1Ma je 6J11I0 naxme, Xaoc ll,eMOKpaTJ1je npexnrtana je AHKTaTypa, H CBe ce rrpeTBOpHlIO y rrpJ1BHAaH peA. Caao HaJ1BHJ1 oxexyjy ll,a he ce AaHac AorOll,HTH TO HCTO. MHorJ1 oxexyjy 'IBPCTY pyKy na 3aYCTaBJ1 xaoc ayTopHTapHe AeMOKpaTHje. TaKBJ1 MallITajy 0 nexoj cnercxoj BlIall,J1 xoja he BlIall,aTH HeKOM 3TIaTHaM MJ1TIHjapll,OM rrpe)KJ1BeTIJ1X, xao P060BJ1Ma. To ce aehe ll,oroll,J1:TJ1, jep je ayroPHTapHJ1 CJ1CTeM MpTaB, a caMO CJ1CTeM J1Ma CHary, J1Ma Mon ll,a opraanayje lbYAe sa TaKO ueurro. qOBeK 6e3 cnare CJ1CTeMa ocraje casro 'lOBeK y HaJ1BHOM yBepelby Aa HeKJ1XTpJ1 CTOTJ1He lbyll,J1 MO)Ke na ll,P)KJ1 y rrOKOpHOCTJ1 nap MJ1TIHjapll,J1. CBe je TO cali lbYll,J1 KOjJ111,06J1Ille CTI060ll,y 6e3 lhy6aBJ1, a cana He saajy IlITa he ca IDOM. .Tal<Be J1ll,eje nporypajy Kp03 <pHTIMOBe, poxaae, "CTpY'IHY" mrreparypy, IlITO Hl1:JeA06po, jep norxparsyjy noxnerry 60raTHx, KOjH no-uosy na sepyjy na CBe TO totory na OCTBape, caste HM Tpe6a joni jaxe opyzcje. Ha cpehy, 0 rpehesr MHTIeHJ1jytot}'l1:naK Oll,lIyqyje Eor H Boroxoaex. Ornapanaxxa noponxua je aa noresy.
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Crsapx croje CaCBltIMnpyrasnje, xana nOpOlJ,ltIu;a yt)e y crsapanaq 6 6 6 KO Bac lbe, y op y sa Jby as npeMa pap;y, )f(ltIBOTY,3p;paBlby. CBltIMa y noporr nl11'a_ . ." ,."ltIU;11 no Je JacHa "TeXHOJIOrltlJa pap;a , aJIltI na TOM nyTy on lby6aBltI xa Jby6 aBltI ltICKPC C1'a_ . pOJHe )f(ltIBOTHecaryauaje xoje pOlJ,ltITelb ltIJIltIlJ,eTeMopa na paa peunr aa C1'B aBajy 6 . JIa'lKltI Ha'lltlH. 3aTo je aeonxonno lJ,a ce Kp03 npltlMepe npyrnx nOMorHe no apa_ ua na npesaaaby nocrojehy caryanzjy. p0lJ,11 M

OJJ~r
OJ}1

113BOpa. 3a caMO nsa cara pa3rOBopa, CltIHltI MajKa npenosnajy nenpajarersa YBYKao y lbltlXOB)f(ltIBOT,xoja nx je ca naKonOM pacranao (ner ayTopltlTapce

BacrrY1THY1X MOlJ,ena). JlJO'Op CTajy aa npOMeHe. Hehe 6lt1TltInaxo, anY1aKO He nO'lHY He MOry HltIpa3Be3aY1 CBO)'Y1X MYKa. Pap; ca lbY1Maje 6lt1o MHoro naKIIIltI Hero ca Bepox ltIKahcsi. ~q~ .' . P tll1l<OJIa capat)yje ltI OTBopeHO noxasyje WTa My Y TO) capamsx npencraszsa npo611eM.

Onacaocr nocroja aKO ce pOlJ,ltITelb ltIJIltInere npeamue OCJIOH e aa Tyt)a I1c j 0 I1MI11'11 Ky_ CTBa, aa Tyt)e Ha'lltlHe pewaBalba np06JIeMa. AKO ce TO noronx pex e'l Je lbY, 0 OCTaJalbY y OKBltIPYaYTOpltlTapHOCTltI. Craapanaxxa CBeCT He pa.. ltIMltITl1pa,Ka IIITO ltI CBaKO nosopoheno nere HltIJe He'lltlJa ltIMltITaU;ltIJ'aBaure nere i Opl1rl1Ha 0 Te Je n KOJltIO~ sac O'leKYJe OpltlrltlHaJIHa u;eJIOBltITapellielba, y npou;ecy onrajaa,a. Haje na OlJ,MeTnpO'lltlTaTltI KaKO cy HltIKOJIa ltIMaJ'KaHana na opnra ,." Yl YlHanaH Ha'Il1 pa3pelliltInltl np06JIeM aYTOpltlTapHOCTltI. H
M M .' M

a)'eTTHY1'lKY1 CMOHa'lltlHY1nY1 CnltlCaK noacersnax nposieaa. 3 _ )KY1BOT 6e3 Ka3He Y1narpane - pap;YJe ra _ p;a cnYllia My3Y1KyTltIIIIe, Y1nY1 ca cnyuranltlu;aMa - MO)l(e! _ p;a ce CKY1p;a ca BY1pTyeJIHe ltIaylJ,ltITY1BHe npore, cMalbyjynltl6poj
M

caTltIlJ,pY)l(e-

lba ca cnY1KOMY1MY3Y1KOM - MO)l(e. _ na ce YKY1HenpY1BaTHY1npoecop - HY1KaKo! _ p;a ce JIeTlbY1HOnHY1ltI3JIaCU;ltI cseny aa MY1HY1MyM, neTKOM, Cy60TOM Y1senelbOM _ "HeMa norpetie", xaxce OH. ,,]a MOry CBe lJ,a nOCTY1rHeMY1nopen nana)Kelba CBaKe HOnY1",Y13jaBlbyje caMoYBepeHo _ p;a opraHltI3yje csoje npyrape Y1 nO'lHY na )l(ltIBe p;alby - Ty cy ltI3neTltIIIITa, peKe

MAJKA HA,1J;A J!ICJ!IH HJ!IKOJIA

CyK06lt1 ltI3Met)y MajKe ltI cana rpajy p;aHltIMa. J1aKo je nao na nOnpaBHY1, Mna,n;J1 CpelJ,lbOlliKOnau; myBapltl aohy ltIlJ,ona3lt1 Kynltl y 30py. Cnaaa rOTOBO lJ,0 Maj'IltIHOr nOBpaTKa ca nocna. He pann mmrra. Saxreaa npltlBaTHe 'IaCOBe, a casr Klbltlry He lJ,OTltI'Ie. OKO ner earn npOBOlJ,ltI na xosmjyrepy ltI renerpoay, DpemaCHOM MyJJ1KOMMyqY1MajKy ltIrenrxo 60JIeCHY 6aKy (peKOX BaM na CBe nopOlJ,Y1u;enltl'Ie jelJ,Ha na ~pyry, HltICTe MltIBepOBanY1). YMopaH, neacnasaa CltIHje cnpeaan, na na CBaKY Ma~'IltIHY pe'I, pearyje lJ,PCKO.3aMaXHYO 6lt1 OH, anltl je jour MnalJ" jour My BpeMe HltIJe, TaKO pa3MltIllilba. Majxa ce 60pY1na, na caao isoj 3HaHe Ha'IltIHe. rlJ,e je HY1KOna, Ty je M06Y1nHY1, a na M06lt1nHOM Maj'IltIH rnac: ,~eKaM re, lJ,ot)ltI, peKao CY1lJ,O jenaa, cana je Ben jep;aH ltI ne cer "H . , ltIKOJIanpeKltIlJ,a seay. Y jenaa Y1rpanecer, Hmcona je ripen 3aKlbyqaHOM xanajosr. To je 6lt1no Maj'IltIHO pewelbe, jep je na rpaHltIU;ltI ltICTalbeHY1XHepasa, aencnaaaaa, oxajaa. CltIH rrponanaaa nerano y KOnY1Ma,on npyra, a 6ec pacTe. ATMocepa je noseneaa lJ,0 ycajarsa, K~lJ,a ra He Ka3HltI 3aKlbyqaHoM xanxjox, Ka3HltI ra 0p;Y3Y1MalbeMonora UITOMY je najaaxcrrrrje - I,Ienapu;a. Maj-nnra HeMon je CBe O'IltImelJ,HltIja, a 6ec CY1Ha paCTe ... "Mop.aTe HaM rrosroha", saaanana je MajKa Hana xoja HltIje ry6lt1na aany na CBOr caaa JelJ,ltIHu;aMO)f(e ltI3BeCTltIna npaBltI nyT. H~je 6lt1JIOJIaKO npltlBOneTltI caaa na CaCJIYIIIa MOjy npltl'Iy. "DpJ1Bep;eH je", jep je MajKa xauma "nnJ1WaHJ1" Ha'IJ1H p;a ra noaene aa nojarro, CJ1H je norrY10 BOp;e ca
M

6a3eHY1... - "MojY1 p;pyrOBY1TO He )l(ene." _ na My ce BpaTY1nenapau - op;YIIIeBlbeHO je npY1XBaTY10 _ p;a My ce He 3aKlbyqaBa xarnsja Y1 na MajKa MY1pHOcnasa, He ltIIII'leKyjynltl ra YCKlIY1KHYO je pap;OCHO _ p;a ce ynltlIIIe y nJIaH pap;a ltI otiasrsa nOCJIOBe y KynY1- "lliTO lJ,a He", nporoBOPltlOje KltICeJIO. lIITO ce p;OrOBOpY1CMO,sanacacsro. HltIKOJIa 3Ha IIITa My narsa 'lltlHY1TltI,ana MajKa Hana je na BenltlM MYKaMa 0lJ, caaa. vb Y1CKycTBa3HaM na ce y rrpaoj seneJbI1 nojaxasa ,,6e306pa3JIyK" nerera, a ltI OHO IIITO palJ,Y1nltl'lltl na CBe, ceM na palJ,. Tpe6a ltI3p;p)f(aTltIcenax nana Y1CelJ,aM HOnY1,a He nocerayrn aa Ka3HOM ltI narpaAOM,aa 6eCOM, sa CBat)OM - nehe 6lt1TltInaxo. Ilpsy nexuajy MajKa Mopa casnanaTI1 npBe aenezse, IIlTo Malbe HaneTOCTltI y lbOj Y1 OKOlbe, Malbe he 6lt1TY1 HaneTOCTY1 y HltIKOnltl, a 'rana xpehe CBe KaKO rpetia.

Iiegelba je apoxyjana
HapaBHO na je Haxona ltICKOPY1CTltIO CBOjy "cn060lJ,y", He aepyjyhn Maju;ltI p;a je cnpeMH n a aa nposseae. OlJ,YBeK je 6lt1na cnpesura casro na peopMe, na rameise rrO)f(apa, na napuajarnra peureisa. Cnenehy aenersy nponeo je y mYBapelbY, He OUl1'yjynltl rOTOBO HJ1WTa UlTO je otiehao, Tpaxcno je na ce nourryjy casso iserosa
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rrpaBa naroaapajyha ce na je TaKO pexna TeTKa MHlIHI~a HamaCHBW . 'H na 11'i BO .n;PYIliTBO CTO)H H3a isera, 60petll1 ce aa rseroaa rrpaBa l1apa3HT' l11'a_ . je MI1ClI 110.l\a ce CBeT BpTH OKO isera. YCKOpO ce nporpecop rrozcamro .n;aje HHKOlla 360r XpOHH'iHOr yM opa HeCD 6aH aa yqel'be. Pesynrara HeMa, a HOBaQ ce naje, OCo_

11ja yMeM KaO "MaUsa peUOM

Ilpueaiunoi i1pocfiecopa satiopaeu
Majxa My ce 3aXBallJ111 a J1J13BI1Hy_
0611J1K6yl;e=a ~.u romrne. ycrraBaH11X na Ka3HJ1 MaJ'KYHeyqefueM Majxa 3Ha na je 11TO

"

HJ1KOllJ1H rrpJ1BaTHJ1 npotpecop je ncrrnahea.

1IJ1je OBO Ka3Ha? BI1 rra, a Hnxony MJ1PHO 06aBeCTJ1l1a .n;a3a60paBJ1 na rsera. ,,1J;a ce rnrrare, . MajKa He. OHa 3Ha .n;aje OBO craapana-nor rroTeHQJ1)alla rseaor nerera. Mozena he CJ1Hnoxyiuarn . (TO Je rrp06~lIa J1Kana), ~6lbefueM jemre utxoncxe

a HJ1J' e 06aBlbao HJ1je.n;aH sanarax y KyhJ1. DJ1110 je nopraanao .n;ahe TJ1 M Clili ro.n;J1Ha . . J1TpalbaBo J111J1 norpeurao o.n;pa1)eHJ1,y noxerxy, Majxa ce HHJe ynsaaAaQI1 6 J1T . 6 3 aKO lIlTO J'e orryuresrseao xsamota J1OHO lIlTO HJ1Je6HlIO.n;0 po. YBeK ~a~~T . p na OHO lIlTO J'e noopo a aa CBe OCTallO Hy.n;J1l1a Je rrojaoh y BJ1.n;y casera, 6}{ rrOxBaJ1J1 M' . o 6J1OH caser xcertec. HJ1je xceneo caner, cyrecrxje, Jep Je J1rparsaso otiaszsen
aK

TKMaosa QJ!llb .n;aJ!l3HepBJ!lpa MaJKY J!IBpaTJ!I Je na no-teras. poeao n . Ma'qJ1Ha Mepa 6J!1l1a je OqJ1me.n;Ha nexuaja. Te aenezse MajKa je onaopana nerna!be seura. CBe

.'

lIlTO

ueaa ~eKQJ1Je)f(J1BOTa KOJY nere Mopa HayqJ1TJ1. A lIeKQJ1ja rnacn: "He yqH H11KOna MaJKe pana, Ben ce6e pana." Ba)f(HO je na MajKa He ry6J1 rrp11ce6HOCT nyxa 11 na He onycraje on QJ1lba - a QJ1lb je snpaso nere, snpaaa craapanaxxa noponmia. CHHY je 6J1110TeWKO .n;aCXBaT11.n;aMajq11Ha Mepa HJ1je Ka3Ha, seh xcnpaszsaCHHa H on yqefua, xao fue BlIaCTJ1THX rpeuraxa, xoje je HaqHHJ1l1a npeaaurrahyjyha 0611J1Kapana. CBe no cenvor paspena cenena je y3 isera, ,,)f(BaKalla" My lIeKQ11je, pamora My nosrahe sanarxe, aaxreaajyha on HaCTaBHHKa BJ1COKeouene aa TaKO MallJ1, ynozcea CJ1HOBlbeB rpyn, YCKOpO cy je 3aMeHJ1l1H rrpJ1BaTHH nporpecopa. Te aenezse CHH je npecrao na otiaszsa J1OHO MallO rrOClIOBa xoje je otiaazsao y KynJ1. DJ1110 je osnrro na je na raj HaqJ1H zcezreo na Ka3HJ1MajKY. CBaKa npaxa, CBaKo y6e1)HBafue caxo 611noseno no paarosopa myBHx, J13aTOje MajKa npezrysena HOBY cy ce rrpeKO pa36aQaHJ1X CTBapl1, Mepy. Flpecrarra je na pana y xyha. Canmrrann
jena cy KO je WTa npoaaurao na je aayxao y CPPJ1)f(J1.n;epy, KyrraTJ1110je 6J1110aaryureno BelIlOM, HJ1je6J1110 qJ1CTexaure, DHlIa je TO oxarrrenaa HaCTaBa, xojy je npacana MaMa. HI1KO)f(HBe y KynJ1. HJ1KOlla je KOHat{-

>KBaKalle". py6lbe

. 6' je ncnerzrana, a npnrranano je CJ!lHy, J1110 Je xao .n;acy "KpaBe je ype.n;HO CTaBlbeHO aa MeCTO, a xana je CJ!lHanneo neno MajqJ!l-

He nrxone, HJ!lje qaK J!lMaO HJ!IKOMeH:ap. 3Hao je urra My sazsa qJ!lHJ!lTJ!I .

Haeuxa je MYKa, a ogauKa gae

TIeTaK je. Orpowaa

Majxa CBa "H3ry)f(BaHa" H rrpeMopeHa CTJ!I)f(e ca nocna. Baxa ce rrpesaja y 601l0BHMa, a My3HKa.n;0 nacxe, JOlIl rrpe caao HeKOllHKO
He.n;elbaMajKa 6J1 noxena na BJ1qe, rpecxa a MO)f(.n;aJ1y.n;apa. AYTOpJ1TapHe cpope" J1CrrpaBlbafua csera jep he OBa Mepa xojy BJ1lle He nane. 3aMOllJ1l1a je MajKy na H OHa CTOJ!lqKHJ!l3.n;P)f(J1 je CMJ1ClIJ1JIa, 6HTJ1 y CPYHKQHjJ1crsapanaaxor lbeM J1CKpJ1BJ1l1a. My3HKa je yrnxayna, . OCBaHYlla je cytiora, rsrypna jep je J1OBY 30py CJ1Hnoxexao JalIJ1, MajKa no nacxe rryurra,
lIlTO

spyhaaa.

je He3Hano 14 '1,

HarrOKOH. ca .n;PYlIlTBOM. Hseao xeno CHOM lby.n;J1nOYCTaOHaKO MaMY-

J1 KHlIlOBJ1Ta, xao poheaa aa cnasarse

KaKO TO H3me.n;a xana naa napaanra

6y.n;aH, rnysapehn Y l'beroBoj

HO CXBaTJ10.n;ay fuJ1XOBOj KynJ1 He )f(HBe naryn.un, KOjJ1Bpe.n;HOpa.n;e .n;OKHI1KOJ1a lIeHqapJ1. HHKOlla je qy.n;HO rroxeo na rnena y MaMHHe pyKe. BH.n;eBWH .n;ace MatKa He uraznr, rrOKpeHYO ceo 3alllTO? Y KyhH Hl1je 611110 HarreTOCTH, BJ1Ke, yBpe.n;e. Y6p30 je paaysreo .n;ace HHlIlTa crrexraxynapao lllrropeTY

~MPTBJ1jeM" cnasa. Y npncrojao

spexe. xana cy CBJ1nopsranna

C06J1, CBOjy My3J1Ky. XHTpO J1311a3J1 ea

TepeHa KOjJ1 6H Morao rrOCTaTH 60jJ1lIlTe. CJ1H ce 6y.n;H ypllajyhH. Iiehe Ha oqJ1. Pa3YMeo je nexuajy.na

aehe .n;oro-

PaH, Tpa)f(J1 )f(pTBY, xoje HeMa. J1CKlbyqHO je MY3HKY, BpaTHO ce y xpeaer, ana can HHKO HeMa lby.n;CKOrrpaso .n;aTepa npyre OKO fuerOBOM :~6e, na cnywajy OHO IIITO rona casro l'beMY, jaqHHOM xoja je norpetina OlIelIOM cnyxy. - 313-

.n;HTHHH rrOIUTO ce rroKpeHYO na pan. I1pHXBaTJ10 ce KI'bHre, rro nnaay je 06allJbao H3a6paHe rroczrose, a MajKa ce y THllH1HH Bpanma jenaa MajKa rpetia

H CBeMY OHOMe J.I1TO 6 11 na 06aBH y OBHM YClIOBJ1Ma. Ha rryTy on lby6aBI1 .n;o]bY all - 312-

Cehajyhx

ce KaKO cy ce cYK06M OKO OBaKBOr rrpotinena

Ka61I0Ba, CMH ce 61IarO HaCMellIM p;MBenM ce MajqMHoj

'ielf:. p;OCeTlbl1BOCTl1. l1al<O e~ aK~MjM CBl1 cy nYTalI:l1Je

3aBpllIaBalIl1

ce

MOraO p;a sacna, YCTaO je rrOTrrYHO MMpaH, a 0 MajqMHoj CaMO M3 OBMX rrpMMepa pop;MTelb M nere pasysrejy

na rrpep; C060M l1Majy 036 . . 111},_ sanarxe, na y CBaKOM TpeHyTKy rrpo~elby)y p;a lIM je npe . b, AY3e_ ra Mepa Ka3Ha MlIM narpana, K asna M Harpap;a MOpa)y OTMuM y My3ej Kao llITo . Ben non a sexa y My3ejy ayTopMTapHM CMCTeM. AOllIlIO je apeae Kap;a CBaK" je 'illali nopomme Mopa na CMMllIlba HM3 qOBeqHMX axuaja, ca U;MlbeM na OHOM Apyro M, a TMMe M ce6M oxoryha paaaoj p;YXOBHOCTM,YClIoBe sa BlIaCTMTO caMooCTBapelh e. Kana y~eM y HeKY noponmry M M3roBopMM: "Op; nanac y OBOj KynM Hene 611TI1 HM Ka3He HM narpane", neua ce otipanyjy, a ponarezsn ynnaure. Aeu;a ce 06paAY_
He,

ana

M lbyp;CKe

jy, jep MMClIe p;a casro ponarezsn HeMa urra

ynorpetizsasajy

Ka3HY M Harpap;y MY3MKOM, pomrrezs,

M p;a OHI1 Ty HeY'!e-

na

qMHe. ArrM, HMje TaKO. 3ap ce

rnacaox nere
My

aepanoa,
a

lbeM, BMKOM, PY)KHOM peqjy,

noxnenox ... He xaxosana

nere
)KelIM

xana

je pOJ:\I1TeJb

noriap

M KyrrM MlIM 06aBM OHO llITO nonaurarsesr poznrrezsa.i

spaha, na

KpaTKO, yqelheM,

pap;OM, rrpacrojmea azsasarse,

... 3ap TO HMje Harpap;a,

MlIM rr0311TMBHO yClIO-

MlIM p;pecypa

TY)KHO je BMp;eTM pop;MTelba KOjM "llIeHI1" 0):1

pap;OCTM xana ra, p;aHMMa P;PCKOnere, yP;OCTOjH ca rrap He)KHMX peqMMlIM nornena.

Cana

cy HMKOlIMHOj MaMM 6MlIM

jacaxja

TpeHy~11 He)KHOCTM npcxor CI1Ha. Bana

je TO Harpap;a

aa

notipo

neno.

ITOTOM cy

aacrynana

p;aHM MyKa

xana

je

aa

Xl1lba-

P;y HaqMHa xaxosaaao

OBe nse CMpOTe zceae, npeaacmrraaajyha

MX rrpesia CBO-

joj MCKpMBlbeHoj rrpMpop;M. To KOlIO

remxo

je rrpeKMHyTM aKO ce He p;06Mje 3Halbe MajKa

crsapanasxor aacmrraisa y ~elIOCTl1. Ha cpehy qMHM. Ilpesacnarasa HMKOlIY rro MepM Honexa
lIM p;a orxpnje y ce6M DO)KaHCKO, M3BOPHO Bahe.

cana jaxo

notipo

3Ha IIlTa

MlIM jour nemue:

ITOMa)Ke HI1KO-

KA,1J;AKA)KEM CTBAPAJIAqKO, IJ;EJIY rrOPO,1J;J1IJ;Y

Mrrann 6paqHM rrap npen pa3Bop;oM.

MJ1CJIJ1M HA
HaKUle Malapu,y 6e~ cauapa
npenurxonapau. npasa MalIa Sapt.r

Ilenojsana

CIa cnep;enM paarosop

6MKa. CMH qeTBOpOrO~MllllbaK, nenx, MlIap;M. Cynpyxcaaua

rrpaBI1 MalIM I,IerrHM MOHCTPYM (rrOKeMOH). CBJ1 ~y p;ora1ja Ka)KY rta cy ce Y3elIM M3 lby6aBM M p;a MM ce HaqMHa na pellle.

HellITO lllTO He pasyaejy

M nesrajy

Ila 6MX MM nojaorna

p;aH BaH

MopaM qyTM lbMXOB rrp061IeM. OHa aese: "Mo)

xyhe,

xao p;a 6e)l(J1 on MeHe M neue.

Kana

MY){{ e caMac neua HMCY KOP; Moje MaMe

)eUeo

Y Ilper; C060M caM MMalIa . . . 6 urry BMP;MM p;a )e YMopHa, 6 Ao PY )KeHY Bpep;HY M rrO)KpTBoBaHY MaJKY, aKY M ra . , j,.. TalIHO lbYTMM Cy3P;p113pal)eRa, reunca MyqM je peYMa, ryra urro cY nepxa M 3eT C . . 't< ' . -hy na CKYBajy. AaHM JOJce aRK ORa lbMMa CBe, a OHM lbOJ HM ronny peq, HM xarp M c KeHp;M~e P;O lbeHor nOKalIa aC-foje y TpqalbY on CTaHa MlIap;MX, P;O csor CTaHa, P;O BM ,

nosens cy MajKY, "orraKY

"

raurr

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JiInoxana MlIa~eHau;a. "PaCna~aM ce O~ nocna, a HJilKO3a~OBOlbaH y nopo,rnlI.~i1<C yszraxoxr roBOPJil TaUITa. 'C EJillIO joj je nOTpe6HO caste HeKOlIJilKOpeqeHJilu;a JiI na notipa )KeHa CXB aTi1 aa Y3BpaT He ~o6Ji1ja Jhy6aB jep npeaaurrxhaaarse on pa~a, pena JiI)KJilBOTaHi1~a je Jhy6aB. Hseaa peqeHJilu;a je 6Ji1lIa jacaa JiIJil3rOBOpeHa ca 3a~OBOlbCTBOM' JI . " al<l1.re Marapu;y 6e3 casrapa." Beh cneneher MOMeHTa ca ryroa je nornenana hepKY n . ' OMa_ 1I0 crpaxyjyhz, KaKO he hepxa galbe 6e3 rsene nosroha. AKo je TO rryr Jby6a . ~i1 onpacrarsa, onzta aa Tyry HeMa pasnora. MJilClIHTe ga je 6Ji1lIO naxo MllagHMa ga rroczre cenasr remora 6paqHOr Mvu , I >Hor )KHBOTa KOjHje BOgHO xa paasony, nOqHY og ra-nee xana cy 6Ji111JilllygO3alby6 zse. HH, BepyjY~JiI na HX HHKOH HHlIlTa He MO)KepaCTaBHTH. Crpaxa HeMajy, jep HMajy aaarse. 3HaJY npHHU;Hne H 3aKOH ga ce ner BaCnJilTHHXMogella Mopajy 3a60paBI1_ TH. Tor gaHa cy seceno craarsann Klbyq y 6paBY, ~y60KO 3aXBallHH lbeHJilMpogl1TelbHMa lIlTO cy JilMoMoryhJilllJil ga He 6y~y noncranapn. On naaac he CBe 06aBe3e OKOCTaHa, rroxana, neue OHH 06aBlbaTH. Beposam., TpalbaBo y nOqeTKY, a caBplIleHo rrocne nexor BpeMeHa. )J;aHac cy 3HalIJiI na ce KOp; MaMe, fiaxe H raurre Hge no npHqy, no urerrsy, no nperplIlT panocra, no HCKYCTBO, na cnany, ga ce Jilge xana je 6aKa 6011ecHa. Ileua cy snana jour o~aBHO ga HenITO HJilje y pe~y xana TH 6a6a nOCTaHe MaMa a MaMa noxona, otiecna H nesanosozsaa gpyrapJilu;a. y naaaunse speae MallO je OBaKBHXMlIagHx noponaua xoje he ce onpeha xenoHJil3MaKOjH npY)Ka ponarezscxo npesaurrahxsan,e JiIn03HTJilBHO ycnoazsaaaise 11 3aTO ce sehaaa Mlla~JilX6paKoBa OKOHqa paasomoaa. CynpY)KHJilU;Hce MOry pa3BeCTJiI,allH Mory llH ce neua pasnecrx on CBOjHXponarezsa! He Mory H 3aTO je CBaKI1 passon 6011aH aa neuy JiIonna Kaga pogHTelbH MHClle na cy ocraapxna HOBe,ycneume 6paKoBe.

JIaTJ1BHO CBaKH clIyra Tpa)!(J1 csora cnyry, Mnane, nene nesojxe ft{aIllTBOpe ' OipO . na 60JIeCHOM TKJ1BYMaTopau;a J1IbJ1XOBOrHOBu;a. Mozena OHe casro J1Tl1 a3 paJY .' 6 nap a3J1THpaJ'y jep OHOlIlTO HM ~aJY MJ1ClIena Je MHoro MallO, a na ~O J1lie ga nap )lJ{C ure He 3HaJ'yhH na cy nane CBe, a HJ1CY~06J111e HHlIlTa. 3aYCTaBHlIe . ft{Horo BJ1 jaJY napa3HTHpalbeM CBOjgYXOBHHpaCT a 3aY3BpaT cy g06Hlle lIlapeHY Hepap;OM H . cY .' A-.YHKU;HJH xegoHH3Ma Y)!(HBalba KOJe Tpa)KH reno napa3HTa. Y xoja Je Y 't' ' 1Ia; J1qa xoja je npen BaMa he 6HTJ1 caMO jour npHMep BHIlle na je. napa3H.THp CBeTOM ana npaxa he BaM npY)KHTH nosy onTHMH3Ma Jep H HaJBeaft{3aBJIagao , 3 MO)!(e na ce TpaHC<popMHIlle y xoaexa, aKO My ce )KpTBa H3MaKHe HJIH rUf napa3J1T aKO ra HaV'-l"J1 rryry Jby6aBH. JOIll 6 0lbe , I M

nAPA3l1T KO J0 11BPE,UHE 113EEfJIl1:QE

BpegHa, CJIO)!(Hanoponaua. )J;Be crapnje hepxe ce 3a~eBojqJ11I1e, aJIH J136H paT. PaT O~Hece cas rpyn Bpe~HHX PYKY. Kao H36emHu;e, casco ca Bpe~HHM PYKaMa, npel)owe Y gpyry 3eMlbY. HaCTaBHIlle spenno na page H CTeKOlIle. Ionnae npohoure Y OHOM"caMO jour OBO,casio jour OHO..." H nse crapaje cecrpe OCTa~OlIle ycenemnte. HajMJIa1)a hepxa je HMaJIa gOBOlbHO spesseaa na Y Ty1)HHH npoaahe "lby6aB csora )f(HBOTa". EHO je TO Mlla~H napasrrr KOjH je nperxonno npOu;eHJ10 KOJIJ1KO cy nOpO~JilqHO "TeIIIKH", H npenane csoje cpue nenoj <paMHllHjH. CBH cy 6HJIJ1npecpehna WTOje H OBYxyhy orpejana lby6aB. Cecrpe cy ce HCKpeHO pa~OBalle lIlTO he Kp03 cecTpHHY ~eu;y peallH30BaTH ce6e xao )f(eHe H "MajKe". Ponarersa ~06J1we aany na ce orrsaurre aehe yraCJ1TH, a na he rpyn Bpe~HHx pyKy 6HTH ysehaa J1 OCTaBlheHnOTOMU;HMa.BH~ellJ1 cy YKyhaHH na cy ~06HllJ1 sera napaanra H HaHBHO eepoaaxy, ga he napaaar, rnenajyhn KaKO OHH page nOCTaTJ1 Bpe~aH. 3eT mtje TaKO MHCllHO, qaK HJ1je HH HMao npJ111HKe, ga ce y pagHy noponmry YKlIonH panox, CBHMa je 6HllO aenpnjartro na ra YBegy y pag. CBH cy xexana aa !berOBY notipy BOlbY, H He noxexaure je. PO~HIlle ce 311aTHaneua. CBH ce 3aXBaJIHure Bory H Mlla~OM napa3HTy. Ilpeyseure CBe aa ce6e, H 6pHry 0 ~eU;H, H3gp)f(aBa!be MllagHx. Y xyha je YBeK 6HlIO ronno, CHTOH HanHTO. Y 3aMeHY aa Jhy6aB, MlIagl1g06HllIe rtpesaumrhaaatse, "nllHlIlaHO nacnzse" xoje he ce YCKOPOBpan-IT" ct..' TBapHHM HaCHlbeM. qy~I1Te ce lIlTO rOBOpl1M y MHO)f(I1HI1?Mrraha cecrpa Je ~eh 6111IanOTeHU;HjallHH napa3HT, jep cy je ponnrezsa g06HlII1 BpllO KaCHO.I-bI1Ma je 6111I a Me3I1MI1u;a,a cecTpaMa llyTKa. 1(11 Y BpeMe TellIKHX paTHHx nana, y speae HeMaIIITHHe 11nOHOBHor xyheisa, llYT4a - Me3I1MJilu;aje Mopalla 611TJ13aIIITJ1heHa on csera. O~ rse ce KpJillIa nartsa
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llJIl1IJ1AHO HACl1JhE JE HA C:QEHl1 )Kl1BOTA

Y cBeTY MylIlKapau;a H )KeHa, y nopo~JilU;JiI, y ~pylIlTBy, onyaex cy ce BO~Jillll1npaBI1 MallJil paTOBI1 - KOhe napa3Ji1TJilpaTI1 na KOMe. Y nanannsoj nOpO~JilU;H xoja npep;cranzsa MOCT xa BpeMeHY y KojeM he ce lby~11 qy~I1TH 3alIlTO je HeKO )!(eJIeo p;a napaaarapa xa Ty1)JI{M nnonoaasra, CBe je sxure H smue napaanra jep "nmlllla~O " OKpa'fI1Je, nacarse ynpaBo cTBapa TaKBe lby~e. Ilanac, y BpeMe ayropxrapae ~eM " ., eHO y cae'fY HlIJiIjour npeU;H3HH)e y apesre aHapXHqHe ~eMOKpaTJiI)e, CBeJe ~03BOlb . . J1 xoja ce ~elIJiI aa HelIlTO MallO 60raTHX JiIorpoMHy sehnay CJilpOMalllHJ1X,rp;e Je
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xojy cy P;OHOCJ.1lIJ.1 paT, ceotie, craapaise yuryuncanatsexr. Ipeunca

j"

TaBi1ltr CTaBJ.1llIe non CTaKlIeHO 3BOHO lbY, aera J.1rpoje p;e'.nu.~e. e Ca BepOBalIJ.1 cy p;a he neua rrOCTaTJ.1 Bpep;Ha

J.13 nerrena. Kana ce ynane Hac

y KOpa~J.1Ma.

)KJ.1BeuJ.1y Bpep;HO) J.1'IeCTJ.1TO) noponaua,

l!( 'IeCTi1 y KOjOj cy casro MlIap;J.1 POP;J.1TeIbl!(6 'ta,

111I11 rrapa3J.1TJ.1. Ileua npso rnenajy y pomrrezse, y OpJ.1rJ.1HalI, J.1 nocrajy n pBa Kon . 11) a OpJ.1rJ.1HalIa. HJ.1cy spenena TeTKJ.1HJ.1CaTJ.1 'IJ.1Talba 31IaTHe lIl!(TepaTYP' . e, jep cy pop;J.1TelbJ.1 CTaBlbalIJ.1 na care npOBop;e y3 arpeCJ.1BHe <pl!(lIMOBe, uprab e, l!(rpvn~el1Jc . OHO MalIO BpeMeHa llITO cy neua npOBOp;J.1lIa ca lbJ.1Ma, rpefiano je . npOBec'tl1 naronno, He aaraxcyjyha ce6e. CaB pap; KOjJ.1cy neua ca paaourhy 06 aBIbalIa ca 6aKoM, p;eKOM J.1TeTKaMa TOnJ.10 ce C rOp;J.1HaMa. OpJ.1rJ.1HalI )'e 6l!(0 y30p ,a y30p cy pOp;J.1TelbM napa3J.1TJ.1. Y3 TaKBe ponarerse nocraje ce lbJ.1Ma ClIJ.1'IaH . BJ.1lIO6 l!(HOpMalIHO na cy J.1My30pJ.1 nOCTalIJ.1 6aKa, nexa J.1spenae TeTKe, alIJ.1, 360r Mop;elIa npe-

". ( nJIJ.1llIaHO nacarse . 4eCPehe ." TKM npeTTlIO)KJ.1M lbJ.1XOBOna rrpJ.1XBaTe J.11IJ.1 0p;6a~e. Ilpe.n;llO)K11:x.n;a P A . e )e .n;a n M ' h ~.OJ BOp ca Mlla TTJ.1Ma J.1lbJ.1XOBOM .n;e~OM. 3Halle cy na Mlla.n;J.1He e oryhe pa3ro M )ltf 0'" p. 11 HJ.1CYnpJ.1CTallJ.1, jep je 3eT napaanr XlIa.n;HO peKao: "KoMe TI1 fla pa3roBo " ..npcTa TAITe u3 xyhe MJ.1 CMO osne jep;J.1Ha rtpaaa nopo.n;J.1~a. Bana caM PI' o6po HeKa nM n IIPJe P. I1KO cy lby.n;J.1CKllOHJ.1na n06pKajy CTBapJ.1. Y KalbY3J.1 aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1X " etleHa KOlI saT a fie 3Ha ce BJ.1IlIe "KO KOCJ.1,KO BO.n;y HOCJ.1. . OP.1I0C. npep.lIO peIIIelba je 6J.10: "YKJ.1HJ.1TeJ.1MKOMYHJ.13aM. I1pecTaHJ.1Te .n;a najer Mo) M rlIaCOM xaxce: I1p06alIJ.1 CMO. Onna CMO .n;06J.11IJ.1 yBpe.n;e, HaCJ.1&< 'f'eTKa TJ.1XJ.1 ." ~ l' " e C aMOTa Hac je on KOMllIJ.1llYKa, on npajarersa. . . 1b 'M~j cllep.ehJ.1 npe.n;lIor pellIelba je rnacao: "HeKa MajKa y TJ.1IIIJ.1HJ.1 npo.n;a CBOJY

"-CTl~a. .1Itf1' e
IV

ce6J.1 y6J.1llIe
")

nazry. Iloeparmne

nany

xana rrpoHal)ollIe

Y3pOKe

sanrrahaaatsa

lbJ.1XOBJ.1X poznrrezsa TO ce HJ.1je p;OrOp;J.1lIO.

BOp;J.1lIa ce MpTBa TpKa. )KJ.1BehJ.1 y J.1CTOjKyhJ.1, 6aKa,

nexa J.1TeTKe cy YlIaralIl1

orpovaa TPYP;, p;a J.1Xnayse pap;y, pep;y, KylITypJ.1, 'IOBe'IHJ.1M Bpep;HOCTJ.1Ma. ,lJ,aBaJII1
cy ce6e, csoje apeve, CBOj TPYP;, alIJ.1 CBe ce, xao xyna on xapara, PYIlIJ.1lIO y 6pJIory CBOjJ.1Xponnrezsa KOjJ.1cy neua p;O)KJ.1BlbaBalla xao "paj". Ty ce Morno CaTl1Ma Cep;eTJ.1y3 KOMnjYTep, ys J.1rpJ.1~e, TelIeBJ.130p, npernacHy MY3J.1KY,Ty ce Morno neaTy ce Morno )KJ.1BeTI1

nena re J.1MOBJ.1He,Mlla.n;J.1MaoMaryhJ.1Te CKpOMaH CTaM6eHJ.1 npOCTOp HMOBI1HY. .n;M . TKX Hl13 peKy )KJ.1BOTa. Bac nse oMoryhl1Te MaJ~J.1, 3aCllY)KeHY MJ.1pHy CTaHnycTJ.1Ten up BJ.1lIa caM CJ.1rypHa .n;a MlIa.n;J.1nehe npOnaCTJ.1, na he ce HarOH aa pOCT, a ce 6 J.1Mn ." pOAHTelbcTBOM np06y.n;J.1TJ.1. Aona.n;e J.1Mce osaj rpehx caaer. TaKO HJ.1CYHJ.1Ka.n; pa3MI1IIIlbalIJ.1. Am1, 0 ~:KBOM
MI1Py ja TO rOBOpJ.1M xana he J.1MHeCpeTHJ.1~J.1 6J.1TJ.1HenpecTaHo y naaera:

E, na
nesra-

Apare Moje, MopaTe HayqJ.1TJ.1 nexuajy na aa CBe llITO ypa.n;J.1MO J.13He3Halba

'IapJ.1TJ.1, Ty ce Morno CBa~aTJ.1, TyhJ.1, xao IlITO cy ce csahana J.1TyKllJ.1 MaMa J.1Tan

xana 6J.1 OH 0p;lla3J.10 lby6aBHJ.1~J.1 J.1spahao

y xaocy, Morno ce npeCKaKaTJ.1 npeKo YKllOHJ.1lIe. Ty ce p;06J.1jalIa nponycHJ.1~a p;eMOKpaTJ.1je, a O'IeBa y3pe'IJ.1~a MJ.1ClIe MaTOpJ.1, na 6yp;eTe 06pa30BaHJ.1,

ce nony-najaa,

MO HH o.n;roBopHOCTJ.1. Kana snaise, xoje BO.n;J.1 peIIIelbY J.1MaTe, J.1MaTe J.1onrosop.' .' yryIIIJ.1llJ.1 HOCT.n;aI1M.n;03BOllJ.1Te.n;aOTKPJ.1JYCBO) orpOMHJ.1 noremnqan KO)J.1CTe BJ.1 .

CTBapJ.1, CBe P;OK J.1XHe 6J.1 6aKa J.1llJ.1 TeTKa

sa CBe lIYP;OCTJ.1aYTOpJ.1TapHe rrOpOp;J.1'IHe

Baaa ocraje na xpa6po

'lHTalba, Hrpe, yqelba...),

npJ.1XBaTJ.1Te CBe nOClIe.n;J.1~e same onrryxe. 6J.1TJ.1 [ennor naaa np06y~eHo

TH.n;a he CBe nofipo xoje CTe yrpa.n;J.1llJ.1 y

Mopare seposaneiry (a Tora je 6J.11I0 MHoro nonyr pap;a,

y lbJ.1Ma. )KJ.1BJ.1Tey Ha.n;J.1na .n;O'IeKaTJ.1 spejae

je 6J.1lIa: "Pap;J.1Te, neuo, OHO llITO CBJ.1pap;e. Illra <pJ.1HJ.1, KylITypHJ.1? KOMe jour TO Tpe6a?"

he ce TO rrp06y.n;J.1TJ.1, J.1na he nOTOM~J.1 BaIIIe nopo.n;J.1~e cnpeMHo

'lOBe'lHOCH1. " TIC: TeTKe MJ.1ce HJ.1Ka.n;aBJ.1IIIeHJ.1CY [aanne. He 3HaM IIITa cy yqJ.1HJ.1ne. Ja nOIIITYjeM npHH~Hn

Sauowe pacaaq uopoquue

Kana cy 6a6a, .n;ep;a I1 TeTKe J.13ry6J.1llH nany, xana cy BH.n;ellJ.1.n;aHeMajy KlbyqeBe KOjl1 V1u sone J.13na3Y, xana BJ.1p;ellIe J.1OCeTJ.1llIe MeTaCTa3e ana, aanoxe pacnan nopo.n; e. yHYKa, ,lJ,ep;a yMpe npBJ.1, on Tyre. Baxa ce pa3601IelIa rnenajyha nponanarse CBOjV1X

csora pap;a J.1He 30BeM OHara KO MJ.1je nouoh 3aTpa)KJ.10. JaBJ.1he ceo AKO ce H He jase, HeM a rrpofinexa, .n;06J.1lle cy ~enOBJ.1TO auaise, nyr J.1Mje OCBeTIbeH. MO)K.n;a ce jour Myqe, caKynlbajy xpaopocr. a caxo J.1Mxpa6pOCTJ.1 Tpe6a .n;a ce oClI060.n;e ropnocrn xoja TaKO cynTJ.1nHO pa.n;J.1nporxs nyxa n.yncxora. AKo cy KpeHYlIe y CBOj paCT, aKO cy oMoryhJ.1lle paCT CBHMa y noponaua. nofipo je. AKO 1i11cy? OneT je nofipo. Ilpnnanahe OHOj BellHKoj rpyna~J.1jH on 50 - 60 % 'IOBe'IaHCTBa KOJa . j" ne H3YMpeTJ.1 J.1OCTaBJ.1TH BellHKH npocrop onlleMelbeHI1Ma. 1.\ Ma KOlIHKOce Tpy.n;Hlla,.n;a Y cycpeTY ca HOBJ.1Mnoponauawa KOPJ.1CTJ.1M 'IJ.1lbeHHlie, pa3YM, CBaKJ.1rryT MJ.1Kp03 cp~e, aa rpeu, rrpOneTJ.1 HeKO Ce'IJ.1BO, rrpJ.1 rrOMJ.1CllJ.1

3fOTeTKe rrO'IeIIIe na ocehajy KpJ.1BJ.1~y. Ipeurxy rrpoaahoure seh npa npBOM pa JI JIO BOPY ca MHOM. Haxo je HaMepa 6Hlla notipa, "rrllJ.1IlIaHO" uacxzse HJ.1je P;03BO I1

ycrrex. CBe cy J.1Mname CBOj pap;, yCllyry, csoje cp~e, nnaheae pa'IYHe, flOBaU, I1 sa

norpetie J.1aa xcezse. ,lJ,ap;oIlIe J.1MCBe, a He PM\OIlIe HJ.1IlITa. He YBe.n;OIIIe I1Xy paP., p.oC1 He HaTepailie HX p;a sapahyjy CaMJ.1, sa ce6e J.1CBOjy neuy, Y6J.1IlIe y lbV1Ma pa
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a lieBHHy p;e~y. Ileua ce pahajy 'IJ.1CTa, nornyao crrpeMHa 3a nyr caMooCTBapelba, Ql1y PYKaMa aesuanaua, rrapasvrra, arpeCJ.1Ba~a, nOXlIerrHJ.1X, lla)KlbJ.1BJ.1X,ropna x .
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Y I-bHXOBHM pyxasra, KIIHu;a lhy6aBH

y3 yrrorpeoy

CBHX ner

ayropxrapnax

BacnHTH HX ~On "ella,

H ~06pOTe

ce HHKap;a

aehe

pa3BHTH.

noaaarsajyhx KaKO a Bume nehe 6HTH lbYT. TaKBH pomrrersx, P;OK Bpel\HO none CBOjy neuy JfJfJ<al\ " 6oTIlUllW, He xcane ce6e, caor Tpyp;a H HOBu;a casro na I-berOBH "BOlbeHH
Beh yjYTPY ce H3BHH>aBa, noxyrsen MOllH e3l\paBe. lIP y o'lUMa OKOlIHHe 36Hlba

sa onpourraj,

TIETAP J1 CO<DJ1JA
TaKO "ejiUH
cc

nenyjy xao

H3Y3eTHH lbYP;H H pomrren,a.

KOHa'lHO ~OK

6Jf ]JeKapH MopallH

p;a ce p;oceTe

na

nO'lHY. ca lIe'lelbeM

OBaKBHX ponarezsa.

1-f.06eK,a HaCUllHUK

nere xao lbHXOBY nocnenxuy, MopaJY sarroxerx nexerse H Tor ponxren,a, ]JeqeM ' . He nOCTH)I(Y ce pe3YlITaTH, P;OK ce He OTKlIOHe y3pOU;H. A y3pOU;H KOJH HaBo~e
. e O'leBe na OBY BpCTy MaJK n je TaKaB pop;HTelb Tpneo, aa
,6

~aHac MHorH ponarezsa, 6e3 063Hpa na TOlIHKe nprrse 0 3a6paHH KlI . . aCH'lHe npl1Hyp;e, HCTpaJaBaJY aa TOM BacnHTHOM Mop;elIY. HeKH Ka)f(Y p;a He )f(elle . . pa3~a)f(e_ Hy neuy, H Ty Je KpaJ. CBaKop;HeBHO 'lHTaMo 0 CBe sehev HaCHlbY KOJep OP;HTelbl1 spare Hap; p;eU;OM, H p;eu;.aHap; ponarezsxsra. 0 TOMe ClIYIlIaMO, 'lyP;HMO ce H nHTaMO p;a lIH TOMe HMa KpaJa.

npnayne

cy ayTopHTapHH

BacnHTHH

Mop;ellH KOJe ~

noory, aa

ylIHU;H, Me1)y rrpajaren.asra,

caoopaTPU;H

hajy, ripen TelleBH30pOM, CTJfQalbeM HOBQa.

y KlIap;HOHHU;H, y HrpaOHHU;H, iseroaa

y nOXlJenHoJ

Kana
na
YBeK

H!lneTOCT nOCTaHe HeH3p;p)f(HBa He 6Hpa

aa cpen-

CTBO p;a je ncrrpaana MY)l(y, MajQH,

CBOjHM "HajMHlIHjHM"

ocotiaxa

CBOjOj p;eU;H, )f(eHH,

o jep;HoM
HlIH rara,

061IHKY "THxor

aacazsa"

ce He rrpaxa.

Ibera

Mory p;a cnpOBop;e MaMa 0 ponarezsy, nansoa THXOM spurn

ouy.

saajy

rpaHHQY.

Ipaaauy

onpehyje nere, xana nc-onse

npHHyp;a He nOCTOHlIH

a p;aHac CBe xeurhe H rroonpaczro

rrere. OBO je npaxa

,tlace ryunr.
CaBpeMeHa nenarornja jH. Mopa p;a pa3YMe na notipoaaseepaa

HaCHlIHHKY Ilerap BpIlIH nacazse Hap; CoqmjoM aacazse Hap; C060M H neuox. ~aHac je MHoro notipo

H p;eU;OM,a Coqmja

Ilpasyna

je npHHyp;a, npHHyp;e,

6HlIa y 0611HKY 61Iare npHHyp;e, )f(eCTOKe npmryne csejemro je.

sacmrranax,

IlIKOlIOBaHHX H HHHX ponaren,a,

TaKBJ.1 HHKO He

"nnHIlIaHe"

septianae,

Ileo

CBeT

ocyhyje

CBaKO nacazse, He

He rrajy, He rryure, He TyKy, He CHlIyjy, rosopx, BepOBaTHO cMaTpajynH

amr

spure "THXO aacazse"

0 xojea

OCHMT3B. "p;06pOHaMepHe"

npHHyp;e H n03HTHBHor

ycnoBlbaBalba

aaajyha

p;a

p;a je pex 0 septiazmoj npaayna

npHHyp;H,

alIH H3 aajtio-

je pes 0 jep;HoM HCTOM na je CBe y BacnHTalbY lIH'lHTHM 06nHU;HMa.

naaac npHHyp;a, nacarse,

caao y pa3-

lbe HaMepe. TaKBa "p;06pOHaMepHa"

CBaKop;HeBHO ce ClIHBa aa xnaaoee 061IHK npasor aacazsa. naMeTJ.1,

nopop;Hu;e, ca nOClIep;Hu;aMa xoje nonpmrajy

Pex

je 0 THny ponarezsa,

MajKe HlIH oua KOjH Hcnop; MaCKe yxenocra, ce KOHTpolIHIlIynH,

6PH)f(HOCTH, nO)f(pTBOBaHOCTH, crporo

p;a npHHyp;a He

!HaC~lbe,
rora

npebe

CTalIHO OnOMHI-bY, OMalIOBa)f(aBajy,

spehajy,

HcnpaBlbajy,

nonpaan-a

3A CA,Il;A JE KPYf 3ATBOPEH

CBaKa HeopManHa rpyna, y KOjOj, Y p;Y)f(eM BpeMeHCKOM nepaony, y npHcycTBy aYTopHTapHOCTH, 'lOBeK na xoaexa Bpum jax eMOU;HOHanHH yrmraj,

JY, nCYJY, 6au;ajy, rpecxajy, cxpasajy

CTe)f(Y, npJ.1Te)f(Y, urxpryhy,

'lHTajy

6YKBHU;y. vf3a csera

CBOj 601IeCHH crpax,

uecnococnocr

p;a BOlle. To je I-bHXOB rryr npa-

)f(I-beI-ba HaneTOCTH. 3a TaKBe ce aexana MHoro MlIeKa, a onna CBe TO npocne. ~aHaIlIlbH ,,6PH)f(HH pomrrezsa"

rOBopHlIO p;a cy xao p;06pa KpaBa xoja I\a

raxohe

6H Tpe-

6ano
HcnpaBlbajynH xana rj. KpHBenH CBaKOI\HeBHO CBoje "Ja 6HX 6HO Haj60lbH
pOI\JI!Telb

na npHMeHH

npaanxne

craapanaxxor

BaCnHTaH>a. }KenHM

na YKa)f(eM aa aKYll-

nOTpe6y unrpen.a

saarsa crsapanaxxor

sacrnrran,a

y BpTHnHMa, urxonaxia,

Haj61IH)f(e, OTKpHBajy

CBOj np061IeM,

xazcy:

~eTI1Ma, 601IHHu;aMa, 3aTBQPHMa, nOllHTH'lKHM Ja~a. CBaKa OBa rpyna je csojespcaa

CTpaHKaMa, pap;HHM opraHH3aU;H-

na CBeTY, casro na CTe BH 60lbH". lbeMY HCKpHBlbeHoM,

xana HaHBHH rroxyurajy

I\a ce "KpHBe"

npe~a

06nHK "nopop;Hu;e".

Kana

TaKBa "nOpop;HQa" ce ycnoan

H>erOBO npaaoseise

je JOIlI ceurhe. TaKBH pOI\HTelbH He l\aJY

CBojHMa MlIeKa, OHH HM I\apyjy MHo To cy OHH ,,6PH)f(HH"

601IeCTH CBHX BpCTa. EOlleCT HH lbHX

irehe

MUMOa

lia}"!11 p;a KOMYHHU;Hpa 6e3 npHMeHe ner BacnHTHHX Mop;ena, crnapajy aa, TOll HKO )f(elbeHH, p;YXOBHH npenopon caBpeMeHor xoaexa.

IlITO cy

caaoh

6ecHellH,

spebamr,

oMallOBa)l(aBaTIU, cna3MaTWr-

nOTOM ce xajaznr, y THlilHHH, jep je re HCTe nor 6POHxHTHca.

noha

nere 1\06HlIO aanan

nYHl1X ner ronana, rrpoaocehx Cp6HjOM aaaise CTBapana'lKOr BaCnHTaH>a, YO'laBalI . . a caM, p;a Ben casro Jep;HHM npenaaarsesr, TeH3HJa narno nana, y rpynH ILYAI1, KOjoj ce ofipahasi.

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Ha rryTy, na KojeM CaM Tpa)f<HJIa rrOTBp,n;y M rrpoBepy Bpe,n;HOCTM CT . Bapan xor sacrnrrarsa aabox ce M y )e,n;HOM on KII3-a Cp6M)' e. IIocJIe )'enu a'l_ M or cyepe caM ce YBepMJIa na M KO,n;fbMX snanajy ayropxrapna 3aKOHM xao My' ra . . OHO) n BO), 6MOJIOlllKO) rropo,n;M~M. OBa rpyrra ce rrOMaJIO pa3JIMKOBaJIa on paM CBl1X,n; rMX rpyrra. pyY "pa,n;HO
,h

v peJlaTMBHO KpaTKOM
rp.r11i.f"rrM t : MaJll1 rrpeCTyrrHl1K
J1,,,
Ka I13 Marapene

BpeMeHY

aabox

ce rrOHOBO Y l1CTOM KII3-y.

AnM.

cana

JlMnapa" KaKO caM BOJIeJIa,n;a30BeM OHe Cl1THe rrpeCTyrrHMKe, 3Ha)ynl1,n;a " n l1crre'le 3aHaT y OBOj .rroponaua , 11Bpa ace nOHOBO y fby. II cDaKi.f OK rrorJle,n;OM llleTaM npMMeTl1X n03HaTe nnaae 0'111. pen03Hax oaor "onaKor

xnyne.

3a'ly1)eHa

caM, jep 3HaM ,n;aje CrrOMl1fbaO

nexe ronaae

speae"

,n;OKcy Ty (CTpOm

O'leBM) rrOJIM~aj~M M rtenarosi, Tpa,n;M~MOHaJIHe

Pa pe,n;, ,n;Mc~MrrJIMHa. MMJIOM MJIM CMJIOM, 6aTMHoM "TaTMHoM" MJIM JIerrOM A, " . "MaMI1_ HOM pe'l)y, cTBapa ce cnozsaunsa, npxsanaa pen. OBa ,rropo,n;M~a" ce , Y oeTa_ ,
JIO~ .,n;eJIY nana, .6p30

MaMe ) , CBM rpynxnaonaury

na

rrpMH~MrrMMa

noponMl1~e.

He)f<Iie

DY a Ka3He. Pa3rOBapaMO npen CBl1Ma. Cpehaa, My~a neurro 0 3aXBaJIHO}t3AP)f(aBalb KaKO ce rrorrpaBMO, 0 TOMe KaKO ce HMKa,n;aBMilie uehe osne BpaTl1TM. cri.f, 0 TOMe . . J1,OK ra CJIYllIaM y MMCJIMMa MM je jenaa nJIaBM HeMMpKO KOJer cy MOJe KOJIere aJIe y Marapeny ioryrry, HeKl1 cy ra Ka)f(lbaBaJIM, a HeKl1 vnorpetirsasaqeCTOCTaB}b ,. J J1IlIaHO HaCJ1Jbe" TaKO IlITO cy ra Ben npBor cenreatipa CTaBJbaJIl1 y rroce6nI1"nJl " MYKJIYny rOBOpenl1: "Ao6J1neili nsojxy aKO tiynen; uene IlIKOJIC~e ronmte MJ1paH . . 'xpaH aJIJ1OCTao Heo6pa30BaH 11aecperaa. HJ1Ka,n;a Hl1Je cnosnao KOJIl1KO oJ10 Je Mn , Dpe,n;l1,a speneo je MHoro. "Mo)f(,n;a je J1OH Y HeKOM 3aTBOpy , nOMJ1CJIHX. qyjeM KaKO MJIa,n;J1nsese npl1'ly 0 TOMe, KaKO pa3YMe

rpaacrpopsonue

caapeveay

ayTopMTapHy

"rropo,n;l1~y"

KOJOJcy y orr~MJM CBHX )f(Ha

ner sacnarnax

Mo,n;eJIa. Ty je M 06aBe3HM TB,

ra

He1136e_

aacnaraxaua.

na

,n;MJIOBaTJ1 ,n;pory 3Ha'll1

6I1Tl1l1H,n;J1peKTHJ1 y6J1~a, 3Ha'lJ1 6MTl1

saacna xapaxa

y 3JIO'lJ1Hy. 3Ha'lJ1 l1CTMHY na ,n;OJIa3eosne, a BeJIl1KM rpajy, cpaKYJITeT, OCTaJIa cy Ml1

MMlliA
Bpyhaaa,
Y3HeMMpeHM rrOJIM~aj~M, IlIKpMrra TeIlIKMX

ra spara, aseuxajy

Kapl1Ka YBeK

nyua

J1na Tl1 CMTHM, MaJIM pacrypaxn

"Hl1Ka,n; BJ1IlIe!", MaIlIl1HKe,

xaxce MJIa,n;J1n..Kana

113a1)eM,saapiuahy

caao nsa
IIocJIe

McnMTa. IIOXJIene caM ce Ben OCJIo6o,n;110M crexao YCJIOBe,n;a)f(l1Bl1M

xao

IlIKpMrre KJbyqeBM y 3ap1)aJIMM 6paBaMa, a M3a "ce,n;aM" 6paBa, O'lM y O'IM ca CTpaIlIHMM "BYKOM". JIa ca O'lMMa

'lOBeK." Ha

Ilpsrsnajea na caM MMaJIa CTpax,n;O TpeHYTKa, csaxor -rnaaa re rropo,n;M~e, xojy je ran 'lMHl1JIO

,n;OK ce HMcaM cycpeTpM,n;eceTaK MJIa,n;l1X,

xpajy Me ynl1Ta: rommy nana oner

"Ba)f(l1 JIM OHa

nonynai Heaojre

Me 3a6opaBJ1TJ1."

caM y MCTOM KII3-y,

Me1)y "rrJ1JIMnapl1Ma". To cy

cana

HeKl1, MeHl1 Herr03HaTl1 Jby,n;l1.Tpa)f(MM nnase O'IM. Y3aJIY,n;Pexoure Ml1,,n;a ce jasuo,

snpanax, JIerrMX Jby,n;l1. HMKO HMje MMao nmne o,n;Tpl1,n;eceT ronana. Ilornena cy HaM ce cpena M cTpax je necrao, HeCTaHaK Mor crpaxa 6MO je YCJIOB,n;aOBl1 MOMl.t;l1, MOjy rrpl1'ly l1CrrpaTe C lby6aBJby. 3a casro car BpeMeHa KOJIMKOje .rpajarra rrpMqa o caapesreaoj noponaua 11fbeHMM MYKaMa, OBM MJIa,n;MJby,n;l1cxaarmue ,n;aje CBe
TO 11fbl1XOBa rrpM'la M rrpl1'la je CBe CJIM'lHO, fbl1XOBMX rropo,n;Ml.t;a, OHMX 113KOjl1X cy ,n;OIlIJIl111,n;a

na je ,n;l1rrJIOMJ1paO11na ce yqJIaHJ10 y Y,n;pY)f(efbe aa 6op6y nporna ,n;pore. Cpehaa caM 360r rora, jep 3HaM na caM 6ap ,n;eJIl1MJ1'lHOnonpiraena lberOBOM paasojy
CBeCHOCTM. )Kao MM je lllTO My He pex Be, aexa ce jaBJ1. pe 6poj renerpoua. aKO AKO 6y,n;e 'lMTaO OBe pe,n;o6y,n;eM

Mesena hy

ra M norpasorrx,

nxana

cnaxonana Kocpe-

oane, rne cy cana. Y rrpsoj KJIyrrM, pasnsojea, ycasosea, cena nen, nnaan MJIa,n;l1n. "Mopa ,n;aje orrax, 'll1M je onsojea on rpyrre", rrOMl1CJIl1X. CeTl1X ce Marapene xnyrre y xojy je l1CTOTaKO yql1TeJbM~a CTaBJbaJIa aexe MaJIe, nnase, HeMMpHe ,n;e'laKe. YrrMTaX ra,n;a JIM 6M, xana O,n;CJIY)f(M Ka3HY, l1IlIaO ca MHOM y CBeT na y 3aTBopMMa EBporre y KOjl1Ma je, Ka)f(Y, CBe 'lMCTO, ypenno 1160raTO, aJIM y KojMMa, l1CTO xao 11y l.t;eJIOMcBeTy, nyuta csaxor 3aTBop.eHMKa narn, IlIl1pl1MO OBO anaise. C panourhy y OKY, o,n;yUleBe BJbeHO pexe: "Aa!" Ha xpajy osor rrpBor cycpeTa rroyqMJIa caM l1X KaKO ,n;a)f(l1 11narrpase )f(MBOT JIerrIlIl1M 11CHOIlIJbl1BMjMM, Y YCJIOBl1Ma Y KojMMa cy ce HaUlJli.f, CBOjOM l1JIM Ty1)OM KPMBM~OM. Otiehaure MM TM "orraKM ayua" rta he rroKyUlaTi.f Aa
aacazse" jenaxx Ha,n;,n;pyrl1Ma.

aa Esporry, OBO je caao jenna

o,n;6pOjHMX rrpaxa

xojy

caM ,n;O)f(J1BeJIa y OBOj BPCTJ1noponn-

lie. A TeK

cycper
na

ca )f(eHaMa y

sarsopy

6J1 6J1JIa rrpermana Jby,n;cKa npaxa. CMJIHO npx-nr. IIpJ1'le J1CrrpM'laHe, casro rrpM'le

611x )f(eJIeJIa

He OCTaHe CBe casro

na

pa,n;M,nanac He

rpetiajy Jby,n;MMa;YKOJIMKO npaxa HMje y CpyHK~J1jJ1paCTa xoaexa, jep ,n;aHac cavo nena Jby6aBJ1 HaM rpetiajy. }1 3aTO pOMaHTM'lHO nepyjex na he jenlior naaa 3a3BOHMTM MOj TeJIecpOH J1 na hy 'lyTl1: "OB,n;e MMHMCTapCTBO MYII-a. )K C 6 . I" enenM 6MCMO ,n;acnposenevo CTBapaJIa'lKO aacrnrraise y 3aTBopMMa p J1Je. AOK ce ca ceTOM cehav CBMX~PHMX M rrJIaBMX nexaxa M3 Marapene xnyrte, aJIM 113
BpeMeHa Tpa,n;M~110HaJIHe ayTopMTapHe nrxone, KOjOj caM nOCBeTl1JIa ro,n;l-tHe )f(l1BO"fa 11pa,n;a, He MOry, a na ce He CeTl1M Mo,n;epHMX, nJIMlllaHMX, ~PHl1X M nJIaBl1X ,n;eqaka, nOTnYHO pa3JIMqMTl1X on nexaxa apesrena y KojeM caM pamora xao npoecop.

yKl1Hy 11aacazse 11"rrJIMiliaHO

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,D;06ap t)aK?! Tpa)KHM ra ca CBenOM. O,n;lIHKarn?! He Tpa)KHM ra.MMa Ilotipor I1X K'o 6 clIa6a

,[pag '"
MlIH

W1UOHallHa uacona - Moqepna uocona

U MUUl
6e sa npaaa

ropocutaC
haxa .
Tpa)KHM rrocnemsxx notipor

ner ronxaa.

CTBapHO HeMa. Tpa)KHM allH KO)H y'IH MaMe, C

haxa

(o,n;lIH'IHOr,

Jb 6'

Y aBJbY, KO)H He y'IH npodiecopa,

nanaxer,

na1'a . , lnl1 11J( BpllO notipor, rra I1 A06 . par), KOJH yql1 caMocTalIHO 6 MH

je cseha

noP

rare

H rrpHBaTHHX

Tpa)KHM

noripor

haxa

e3

KOjl1 HH)'e no

nan H HHje YCJIOBJbeH rnapraperrOM, KOjl1 He yqH 360r oaora xaa, ,n;06Hnern xosrrrjyrep, nerosaise, <pHpMHpaHY rapnepotiy, Xapn Ilorep-a", MOTOp. Teunco Halla3HM t)aKa KOjH ce yjyTpy
panourhy XPllH y rnKOJIy. He HaJIa3HM notipor

xne-

"aKO 6y,n;eur orr Mnl1KOMrrlIeT Klhl1ra 6y,n;11caM I1 KOjl1 C

CTBapH HAY Y CYHOBpaT. TOllHKO pa,n;a, a pe3YlITaTH cnafia. Heaoh 6 Y oopoAUUY, . 11.0 P KaKO H3anH H3 osor sasapaaor xpyra? Mopajy ce rrpBO carne_ orpOMHa. csJ.1X 3 OU;UKOjH noaoce TOllHKO necpehe CBHMa. Y3pO~H nezce y ayTopHTapHHM TU p.a Y p orrellHMa H aYTopHTaPHoj eBeCTH ponnrezsa, rrpo<pecopa, ,n;pylllTBa. cnUTHHM M M sa nanaa uixona xao H Tpap;H~HOHallHa noponzua H npyurrno KOPHCTHTpap;I<1U;UO HTalbY neue casro ,n;Basacrnrraa cpencraa, o,n;MorynHx ner, KOPHCTH]lJ.1cy Y sac rr I" ]lJ.1C 6aTHHY H Bep6allH3aM, Te ce rOBopHlIO: "OHnelll,n;06ap, MHlIOM HlIH CHlIOM. rrOCTHY a OHa)' Ha)'lIerrlllH neo y )KHBOTY urxone, noponaue H npyurrsa MHoro Tor, . BJby Jby6aBH HH)'e 6HJIO y H306HJbY, anx je 6HlIO. aao ce Jby6a . ilopOp;Hu;a, ancona H P;PYlllTBO Tpa)KHlIH cy o,n; t)aKa pa,n;, pe,n;, ,n;HCU;HrrllHHy cy je , HaKO ce MHoro rora rrOCTH3allO cnorsaunsxa MOTHBa~HOHHM H p;o 6 H)alln . cpep;cTBHMa. M3HyTpa je 6HlIO rrorrpHlIHqHO xaOTHqHO. OHHM CBO)HM ,n;ellOM,
TA

en UCKpeHe 60p

nerera

na

noepy

mxorry, na uncorry 6e3 HaCHJba, aa

haxa, oaor
rrernne

KOjH nope,n; O,n;lIHqHHX ouena H3paCTa y,n;o6por

xosexa. Hanasaa

onmrxaura

ca TpH mrna. Je,n;HolIH~e je

sa

npodiecope,

THM 1I11~eM KOjHM Mopa KOjH Haql1H a TO je OHO

H3BlIaqH o,n;nporpecopa

6e3 pa,n;a, ,n;pyro lIH~e je sa

H3Byrm HOBa~, Harpa,n;y, He noaaozsasajyhn je ,n;06HjeHa rrernna. HCKpHBJbeHO,

,n;apo,n;HTeJb rrpOBepH

ponarerse na
H yllH~y,

Tpehe haxa

JIH~e

je sa

,n;PYlllTBO spnnsaxa

anx

,n;pyrnTBeHo rrpH3HaTO JIH~e. To

Tpa)KHM ,n;06por yrnaaaoxr rrpetioraror

KOjH rrpaTH casro ce6e, a He

KJIHH~a KOjH

je mnte naxneae rrosropanue. aerarnaaor sohy onersersa, onpehyje cne, on Mo,n;e, rtonanratsa, npeKo
Hanaaasr onmrxaura KOjl1

KOjl1

je

6HO MOTHBHcaH Jby6aBJbY, t)a~H cy rrOCTH3allH

-ryna.

Y3 CBY

crporocr.
)e .rrpe-

y3 qeCTO spno BHCOKe saxrese je 61111a n06e,n;HHK.

pOp;HTeJba, yqHTeJba, ,n;pYlllTBa Y u;ellHHH, .Jby6aB

rora KO he 6HTH je na excxypanja

)KpTBa Met)y ,n;e~oM H HaCTaBHH~HMa. neurro caCBHM ,n;pyro

crpor" -

"nyn1

.Temxo rpanaso" cnyuraj", Y raxnoj

M3a THX

,,3arpej

CTOllH~Y" "HaCTaBHHK

uncona

6HlIO

je

MallO P;06pHX t)aKa, KO)H cy pap; H yrropHOCT. BenHHY p;BojKe,

nerera, on OHe "llllIHXTape" xoja rromraaourhy H CY3aMa H3BlIaqH zcerseae nerane. Hanaaax onnaxaura, KOjH no aaspurerxy MaType, nehe na rrosnpasa csora rrpodiecopa, xoja sa He3aClIY)KeHY nermry Ba,n;HHO)K, aacphe na nporpecopa ... TPa)KHM noopor haxa KOjH je, ys CBe nermie, cjajaa ,n;pyr, notiap CHH, 6paT, yHyK,
MHpHor, cKpYllleHor Je,n;HoM peqjy, Tpa)KHM yqeHHKa KOjH yqH C Jby6aBJby. HeKap;a H BI1p;I1M MH ce qHHH

on oaor

HMalll1 CBe nernue.

nernua,

KpHO ce orposraa

cy ql1HHlIH P;06PH t)a~H KOjH cy HMallH norrpaaax, HlIH H3ry6JbeHY

xersopxe, rpojxe,

ronaay, OHlIH cy TO P;O 6 pH

npyros,

nexana xexeae, . a

KO)H cy H3p -

crana
nent~e,

y notipe

Jbyp;e. ,D;aHHje 6HlIO OHe 6aTHHe BepOBaTHO 6H H OHH HMallH CBe

jep je 6aTHHa 3aYCTaBJbaJIa Jby6aB

xa

yqelby.

OHH H3 Marapene

xnyne,

MOMaK, xoxunaja.

3HaMO HX, allH He 3HaMO, p;a cy TO MornH 6HTH Haj60JbH t)a~H H JbYP;H. TaKBH cy nOCTajallH peBOllYUHOHapH ,n;eTe. Hexana je y 60p6H rrpOTHB 6aTHHe. YBeK

na nperepyjea

y BHt)elby CTBapHOCTH, a

oana

yt)eM y urxony

je

6aTHHa rr06ep;HlIa

noponxuv. BI1,n;I<1M xaoc, BH,n;HM<pPOHT nesanaahen y HCTOpHjH paasoja rroponaue. Habea ce Y p;pyurrny, na MeCTHMa rne ce aanase MlIa,n;H H oner BH,n;HM xaoc. BI<1,n;I<1M HeMon p;pyurrsa H 6e3rpaHHqHyt)aBOJbY cnofiony MlIa,n;HX xoja, H lbHMa H ,n;PYlllTBY ,n;OHOCI<1 MHoro aecpehe. Ty t)aBOJbY cnofiony, xoja HHje rrpaheaa Jby6aBJbY, ,D;06pOTOM 1<1
xaoc. BH,n;HM HeMon nporpecopa H Ha,n;Mon yqeHHKa. Yt)eM y KBalll1TeTHHM 06pa3'OBHHM HHBOOM, He 3aYCTaBJba KOp,n;OHMl<1lIH~l<1je. Ty"ClI ,n;y" saycraazsajy casro nerarrnaonana MapHxyaHa HlIH ype,n;Ho rrpeIIHcaHe 060Ol<1l1Y-

nere

notienano

6aTHHy H nocrajano

cjajaa

60pa~

sa

60JbH )KHBOT

HeKl1X HOBHX haxa, Jby,n;H. )KI1BOT

noraphyje

HCTHHHTOCT Moje rrpHqe.

Ilornenajre
npyurrsy

nena

t)aKa Tpa,n;H~H-

OHalIHe rnKOlle, HapOqHTO

nena

OHe

npse

rpyrre.

IlOHOCHMO ce Tpa,n;H~HOHallHOM Kp03 YMeTHOCT, xyn-

YMeTHornny, HaYKOM. OHH ,n;pyrH He nanoure snroro

Typy, HaYKY, ana cy 6HlIH rOpOCTaCH snatsa y O,n;HOCY na snarse l)aKa MHrna, l)aKa MOAepHe uncone. OHH " norneAaj nOHe KaKaB

ne ncaxxjarapa.
"ClI060,n;a " ce MO)Ke .rpaacrpopsorcarx nofipor

rpehx

cy ocrajann

xao npHMep

aa 3aCTpalllHBalbe

neue:

Tana he

113Met)y onznrxaura,

haxa

OI<1TatbeM. y ClI060,n;y, cTBapallaqKI<1M sac . KOCTJ!f 11noopor -tonexa 6l1TH 3HaK Je,n;Ha

hem

6HTH H KaKO heur )KHBeTI1, aKO He 6y,n;elll pa,n;l1o 1<1 yql1o. yrrpKoc CBeMY

"

KaJJ; cy 113paCTalll1 y ropocrace,

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M
oIU'a

je 6p30

BJ.1pTyeTIHa ryBepHaHTa

AOBena p;e'ljy CBeCT AO osor HJ.1B~a, lIITO lIIKOTIe, J.13aTO MopaJY CMJ.1. Y . KpJ.1TepJ.1)YM. TIarYJY ce TJ.1M

cy MornJ.1 na J.1CnpaTe. PaHO J.1Mje na race 'lUH p;a npJ.1ByKy

J.1MHoro naTJ.1nO 360r 6aTJ.1He J.1Bep6anJ.13Ma

KOjJ.1cy repazm

cJ1U HU

CTPYKJ.1)l(J.1BOTJ.1ABOCTPYKJ.1Mopan, re HeMopana J.1anconYTHe cn060Ae

anJ.1 J.1ABOCTPYKO je 60lbe OA caBpeMeHe y 3ny.

Y ABa_
I<alhy_

neuy

lIIKOTIJ.1.Crryurrajy

CKUHUMO KaHWe ca inaea, gOlla3u /{o6po

IIeAeCeTJ.1X rOAl1:Ha naaneceror sexa, y Hajpa3BJ.1jeHJ.1jeM Aeny CBeTa 3aBp . . . ' lIIeH Je pas BO) MaTepJ.1)anHor. II pBJ.1 nyr y l1:CTOPJ.1jJ.1, CpylIIJ.1 ce nl1:paMJ.1Aa , a 'lOBeK yocTaAeAa ce caM. 60pJ.1 ca. ner aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1X MOAena, ca nYAJ.1nOM CBO) e ayTOpl1:Tap He CBeCTl1 Taj ranac )e AO Hac, aexrazsa y TpaH3J.1I.\J.1jl1:, nourao nesenecerxx ron ,..., ,...,l1:Ha,a y.

cntt'fU sa apTTUMa TaKO lIITO lIIKOTIe npeTBapajy y TB - KYTJ.1je, y J.1rpaOHJ.1l.\e. HJ.1 . nOKOprrUMa ~ fIIllaf" Ila 6u J.1XrrY)l(e 3arrp)l(aTIJ.1 TaMO Tpe6a na J.1Xaa 6aBlba)y ie AOBOlbHO. 1-'0 n M ,..., , 1'0 aU) KO)J.1 rpeoa na 6YAY lIITO CTIJ.1'lHJ.1jJ.1 nory6lbeHJ.1M pOAJ.1TelbJ.1Ma. V1 cTaBHJ.1l.\J.1 ,..., IItt Ha U HaCTaBHJ.1K Mopajy na 6YAY )l(J.1BJ.1 TeTIeBJ.130pJ.1, AOBOlbHO. MalliTOBJ.1TJ.1 pOAU Telb . nere Y3J.1Ma)yhJ.1My aHJ.1MY - P;yllIy. HaCTaBHJ.1l.\J.1 MOpa)y 3a60paBJ.1Aa a HUMUP~Y"'" , 6 rrJ.1TelbJ.1 na nOBJ.1lIIeH TOH, npexop. Ka3HY, HeAOBOlbHe oueue a noce J(ao J.1P0f" ' " To ). e y perry caMO TOMe rpefia Aop;aTJ.1 J.1"nTIJ.1lIIaHO nacsose. TU, 6aTJ.1HY l' ,..., , 6 . aO e Mopa J.1vqJ.1TJ.1 HJ.1lIITa HOBO HJ.1je CMJ.1lIIlbeHO. YI,1 eHJ.1K)e J.1Aalbe J13 He'lera C J aTIJ.1MorrepHO p;eTe nOCTIe nOKpeTHe CTIJ.1Ke,npaheHe 60)OM J.13BYKOM, OOMaraTIo, ,..., ~ na npJ.1XBaTJ.1 nexa CTIOBa, xoja My rarpajy npen O'lJ.1Ma. einxo ce pe'lJ.1 e He MO)l( f" .y Y CTIJ.1KeBJ.1pTyeTIHJ.1yM je aTpo<pJ.1pao. AyTOpJ.1TaPHJ.1 J.13p;aBa'lJ.1 )l(J.1BO opeTBapa) . . 6 aise rryxa nerera J.1MnOTeHTHOCT Ae'ljer M03ra J.1J.13p;a)y yl,1 eHJ.1Ke - CTIJ.1opaTe CT lU f" M ' J(OBHJ.1l.\e.HJ.1 CTIJ.1KaHJ.1je P;OBOlbHO npJ.1BTIa'lHa, jep je HJ(1)1(aOA nOKpeTHe CTIJ.1Ke. MO)l{p,a he YCKOpO yI,16eHJ.1l.\J.16J.1TJ.16eTIJ.1x, npa3HJ.1X cTpaHJ.1l.\a. I1Ma TIJ.1 p,albe? V1Ma! ,[(e'lJ.1ja nyura Iba

ranacy

cy 6J.1nJ.1BacnJ.1THJ.1 MOp;enJ.1 xoje CMO MOpanJ.1 YCBOjJ.1TJ.1 J.1J.1MJ.1TJ.1paT TA " l1:.YlMl1TJ.1paIbe "rOTOBJ.1X aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1X np0J.13BOp;a no-rene je na CBl1:MHl1:BOJ.1Ma(nopoCraszseae cy HaM KaHTe

P;l1:I.\J.1, lIIKOnJ.1, npyurrsy).

na rnase, xaoc je HanpaBlbeH. ,[(eI.\y npep;ap;OCMO sapryenaoj BaCnJ.1Ta'lJ.1I.\J.1 nocne xera HJ.1jep;aH y'leHJ.1K He Mo~e p;a ce BpaTJ.1 HJ(1)1(eMBJ.1pTyanHoM npOJ.13BOp;y, rj. KIbl1:3J.1. "BaCnJ.1Ta'll1I..\a" 6lby)e rOp;J.1HaMa J.13 ce6e aajrtoramrje CTBapJ.1 xoje ryrajy manna neua, a ryrajy caehe, YCKOpO ra J.1CTaneua nO'lJ.1lbY na )l(J.1Be )l(J.1BOTOMnenoaaje. IIpBJ.1 aanarax CMO 06aBJ.1nJ.1. ,[(pyrJ.1 sanarax je aa CI.\eHJ.1,"nnJ.1lIIaHO" aacnzse y BJ.1p;yKynOBJ.1He J.1 npesaurrahaaarsa nerera crsapa noxnennor, a nersor haxa xojer P;PYlliTBO ynopHO "lIITJ.1TJ.1" on TaTJ.1HOr KaJ.1lIIa J.1MaMJ.1He sapjaxe, on HaCTaBHJ.1KOBe crporohe J.1
3aXTeBa. Pe3ynTaTJ.1 cy BJ.1P;HJ.1. 13aKa J.1Ma, ana p;06pJ.1x Mano. 0 3aBepJ.1 BenJ.1KJ.1XCJ.1na, Ty ce OP;Max nOKYIIIaTJ.1

nehe

jour

nyro

MohJ.1 Aa

nonnece

CBa nOHJ(1)1(e-

soja joj uarypa

op;pacTao

'lOBeK aYTOpJ.1TapHe CBeCTJ.1.CBep;ol.\J.1 CMO re P,YXOBp,el.\e, OBOTIJ.1KY KOTIJ.1'lJ.1HY nacazsa,

He n06YHe.

He naMTJ.1MO OBOTIJ.1KY arpecJ.1jy nTIJ.1lIIaHO HaCJ.1lbe

xao

onrosop na

xoje

spuie

pOp;J.1TelbJ.1J.1HaCTaBHJ.1l.\J.1 Hap, Ael.\oM J.1

BJ.1pTyeTIHO naciose He3anaMheHe ja'IJ.1He. 3a cana, pa3BJ.1jeHJ.1 CBeT, nJ.1J1YTIaMa J.1npecTpOrJ.1M QaHJ.1MKa3HaMa, npeTlbaMa je J.1cTBapHJ.1M 0p;Y3J.1MaIbeM

3aKOHJ.1Ma, BJ.1COKJ.1M HOB-

neue

pOp,J.1TelbJ.1Ma, CMJ.1PYCTIep;ehJ.1

peazranx

crsapa npaxa

nexor

arpecnjy haxa. xyhasra.

MJ.1 CMO jour

na

nOTIJ.1l.\ajl.\J.1MaJ.1KaMepaMa.

xopax

6J.1he

KOMJ.1TeTa KOjJ.1he

na ca

pacnyurraise HO y

TpJ.1 CTOTJ.1He 06pa30BaHJ.1X,

60raTJ.1X lbyP;J.1 y nOKopHOCTJ.1 AP)l{J.1 CBe nJ.1'lJ.1aa 3aBepy, anJ.1 aKO je 36J.1Jba

npexoraezry

MJ.1nJ.1japp;y HenJ.1CMeHJ.1Xp060Ba.

lIIKOTIa. Ileua he ce YMpe)l(aBaTJ.1 y BJ.1pTyeTIHe lIIKOTIe, cep,ehJ.1 ycaMlbe. . "(IIyna'lJ.1He he He MJ.1CTIJ.1Te sazsna na he yqJ.1TJ.1nOe3J(1)y y TO) lIIKOTIJ.1. ~ .

pe'l 0 3aBepJ.1 He'lOBe'lHJ.1X YMOBa He je sacrpanryjyhe, l1:,[(06po J.1Majy

rpetia

ce nnalIIJ.1TJ.1. CBe lIITO ce p;orat)a,

p;eny-

6l1:Tl1: rnasaa TIeKl.\J.1ja. Ila TIJ.1 cap,a o npl1:pOp,HOM

J.1CTOPJ.1jJ.1 je Hen03HaTO,

He BJ.1P;J.1 ce J.1CXOP;, lIITO 3Ha'lJ.1 p;a J.13no

eepyjere na HJ.1je pe'l npouecy KOjJ.1CTIep,J.1, no ynacxy y cnerry

HJ.10

xaxsoj

3aBepJ.1?

Pex

je

yTIJ.1l.\Y I1Ma TIJ.1 p,albe? V1Ma!

peanne mance. Ilotipo

J.1nopep;

he n06eAJ.1TJ.1. Eyp;J.1Te CJ.1rypHJ.1. )J{J.1BJ.1Tena

60)l(aHCKJ.1M npJ.1HI.\J.1nJ.1Ma J.1He 6pJ.1HJ.1Te. lhyp;J.1

naaac,

TOnJ.1Kl1:Xurxona,

ocrajy

He06pa30BaHJ.1

J.1nJ.1nonyo6pa3aBepece CTaBlba npep;

30BaHJ.1, a npJ.1 TOM J.1HeMOpaTIHJ.1. HJ.1je TO norsa HJ.1'lKe rpyne. nrapene To je ca~lO

nexor

KOMJ.1TeTa,

aexe

Bllafo OHUMa Koju' UpeJICU6e

OHl1: KOjl1:npe)l(J.1Be, a npe)l(J.1Behe 3ApaBY lbYAJ.1Hajja'ler p,yxa, jep he

penocnen

CTBapJ.1. [our y KOTIeBI.\J.1,nere

BJ.1pTyeTIHe CnJ.1Ke npenyHe

TyeTIHJ.1 CTapl.\J.1, a 'lJ.1'IJ.1lIIKOTIa He 'Il1:0.

" K.

nacan,a. IIOTIaCKOM y lIIKOTIY,p;el.\a cy seh BJ.1Prpetia. QJ.1'la je CBe "BJ.1AeO", "npO)l(J.1BeO", "HaYl.\a

ycnern na

O'lYBajy

nopomnry

J.1nOTOMCTBO. To cy OHJ.1KOjJ.1seh pellieIba

nanac

pa3yMejy

lIITa ce p,elIIaBa

axsa

cnosa,

KaKBJ.16pO)eBJ.1? ,[(el.\a xao Aa y3BJ.1Kyjy: "PYlIIJ.1Te lIIKOTIe, p;e

11KOjl1:HaTIa3e crsapane-nce KpaTl1:jl1, )l(J.1Be HeOKalbaHO.

na y aYTOpYlTapHoj .

KalbY3J.1, on MJ.1lba - p,eMo-

sac MOTIe!"

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TIOCTOj11MHOrO nYTeBa .n;ace nOCT11rHe oaaj ~11lb, aJI11jenaa on ecpl1K CTBapaJIa'lKO nacrnrrarse npxaerseno Y noponauasra CB11X06JI11K C aClil1l( J'e ~ 6 a. nap rroponaue ne Y P30 Tpa)f(l1Tl1 craapanasxe IllKOJIe. )];0611ne l1X JIaKO ie . alla'il(e paJIa'lKa P)e C'I'Ba_ . hIllKOJIa HaCTaJIa Y Cp611j11 1932. ronnae 11CTpnlb11B 0 xexa na ,) pealll1 )y. Illra e ce yq11T11y OBOj IllKOJI11?CBe no cana cTBopeHo MO)f(e no CTaTl1 n 3a~11_ yqelba, non YCJIOBOM .n;aHe 3aYCTaBlba .n;YXOBH11 pa3BO)' xoaexa . Iea epa~l1)e . ce peAMe'I' . . )Y HanO)11T11OH11MBe'lH11M Bpe.n;HOCT11Ma,KOj11X Y Tpa.n;11~110HaJIHO ) 3aoCTaBMOPa_ H11l1Ma .n;OBOlbHO. Kaxo he ce yq11T11?JIaKo )' e p neua nehe TK . . ' M..... ,.MaT11 l1CnpaHe 1lI'I'11_ KO)e 11M)e .n;OHeJIOner sacnaraxx Mo.n;eJIa l1 Bl1pTyeJIHa rysepaaara. YMOBe

.e HeBa)f(HO xana je y II11TalbY eMO~J10HaJIHa, .n;yxoBHa IIa J1MeHTaJIHa )) ecJ<J1 .. . 11 TX)' a TToJIa3J1BpeMe npaaor 3Halba. OHO rrOCTO)J1!)];OJIa3J1BpeMe npaJl~reHUY. 1-'0 e eHJ1Ka J1rrpaBMX yqMTeJba. OHM cy Ty. To CMOMM. CaMO HaM aarsa aYTOp11~ 'fICBeCT TpaHccpOpMMcaTM y CTBapaJIa'lKY. TpaHccpopM11CaHa CBeCT, ornapa -rapllY Ul}ba BpaTa M3a KOjMXcy: 11CTMHa,Jby6aB, orpOMaH MHTeJIeKTyaJIH11, eMOyaY'fpa rrYXOBHMrroTeH~MjaJI. Kana OCBOjJ1MOBJIaCT11TOYHYTpaililbe uapo}{aJIHMJ1 U}i aTHO he .n;oca.n;aIlllbe cTBapalbe aa rrJIaHY .n;yxa, HaYKe M YMeTHOCTM . c:r 80 ' BepOB ceHKY npen JIerrOTOM CTBapaJIailiTBa Y PM3HMUM11KOHe E O)f(M)e. 6}i'fM6atJeHO Y ,
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Ine he ce yq11T11?Y IllKOJIaMa 11yq110H11~aMa Y Koj11Ma ce 11naaac yq ". 6e3 .n;PYIllTBa He MO)f(e. PeKOCMO .n;aje cpopMa neaazcaa. " l1 jep Ae'I'e
Ko he neuy yq11T11l1 O~elbl1BaT11? Bahe TO caxopan, ys CTClJIHY novoh n 0 copa. CaMO 'lOBeK xosexa MO)f(ey'l11T11'lOBe'lHOCT11 l1 BpIll11T11np p <peA . . . . o~eHY HanpeTKa. KOMn)YTep, TB, 'ly.n;a rexaororajei Te CJa)He MaIll11He he nOCTaTTK to. rh n nOMOUHI1~11 rrporpecopasra 11y'leH11~11Ma y OHOj Mep11 y KOjOj OH11TO rpetia na 6 ra 6I1h' y.n;y. lJIaBH HOB11Ha e y canpscajaxa KOj11he YBeK 1111CKlbY'll1BO611Tl1Y KOPl1CTpacra 'lOBe'lHOCT11. To he ce JIaKO nOCT11n11,jep he canpzcaje rroxera na npoxasone lbYAI1 CTBapaJIa'lKe, a He ayTOp11TapHe CBeCTl1. TaKBa IllKOJIa je Moryna Ben nanac, Y npaKC11 caM je np11Melb11BaJIa nsanecer ronnaa. CaMO ce penocnen Mopa 11CnOIllTOBaT11.CTBapaJIa'lKY IllKOJIYMO)f(e npl1XBaT11T11 caao .n;eTe xoje .n;OJIa311 113craapanaxxe rroponaue. rO.n;11HaManOKYIllaBaM na ycnoCTaB11M Be3Y ca M11H11CTapCTB11Ma aa 06pa30Balbe 11n~po.n;11~y, H11KO Me H11je pa3YMeo urra np11'laM, jep CMO rOBOp11JI11pa3JII1'l11T11M)e311~11Ma. M11CJI11M.n;a11MH11je.n;oropeJIo.n;o HOKaTa, xao naaac. Mozena he Me YCKOPO'lyT11l1 pa3YMeT11, jep he npen03HaT11 CBOjy nopomonry 11CBOjy IllKOJIM

ynTJ1ME)JJt1J AJ1HlA )l(AEPO lbA

)laHac cy na MYKaMa 11rrop0P;MUa J1Ill~OJIa, a HajTe)f(e je .n;eTeTy. ?opo.n;J1~a MIllKOJIa npe6auyjy nere, xao spyh KpOMrrMp, )e.n;HM.n;pyrMMa. OIITY)f(y)y ce ysapMHO, Tpa)l{enJ1KpJ1BUa YBeK Y OHOM.n;pyrOM. 3aKOH je 3a6pamw rrpMHy.n;y san .n;eTeTOM,My rropo.n;MUM, My IllKOJIM.HMCY H11 npJ1MeTJ1JIM.n;acy MaM11HY11TaT11HY,BpJIO 'leCTO 6e30rraCHY npaayny, 3aMeHMJIM )l{eCTOKOM BMpTyeJIHOM rrp11Hy.n;OM.Po.n;MTeJbYM HaCTaBHMKY OCTaB11Ille apceaan "nJI11IllaHOr HaCMlba". Po.n;MTeJbYje naxure jep je HOBa~, OHO IllTO je HajBa)f(HMje nerery, y pYKaMa pop;MTeJba. TI03MTJ1BHMMYCJIOBJbaBalbeM pop;MTeJb MO)f(e narepaTl1 nere na 06aBM MHoro rora, IllTO He )f(eJIM. HaCTaBHMK HeMa BeJIMKM11360p. YMeCTO HOBua 11MacaMO HajBMilly OUeHY xoja je sascaa Op;JIMKailiMMa,jep aKO je p;oHecy KyhM, 6MBajy Harpa1)eHM. 3aTo HaCTaBHl1KMaHl1IIYJIMillep;euoM npexo ouena, 'leCTO npehyTHo MJIl1rOBopehJ1: "YKOJI11KO 6YAeTe p;06p11, Op;JIJ1'lHe oueae here A06MjaTJ1 6e3 MHoro pana." Y OBOj, HaJ13rneA, 6e3a3JIeHoj 113jaBl1, xpxje ce Mrr0311Tl1BHOYCJIOBlbaBalbe 11rrpe3aIllTl1hJ1Balbe. Pex je 0 "IIJIl1IllaHOM" HaCl1lbY, 'll1je nocnenaue Ben ocehaMo. Ko he Hac JIetJJ1TJ1,KOhe o6aBlbaTl1 CJIO)f(eHenOCJIOBe, xana cy CBe ouene A0611jeHe y3 BpJIO MaJIO pap;a. qaK M na cy YJIO)f(11JI11 TPYA, TO 3Halbe je BpJIO xparxor sexa, jep HJ1je CTe'leHO CJby6aBJb y. He Kpl1Bl1MH11pornrrerse, HJ1HaCTaBHl1Ke. OHl1 ce CHaJIa3e KaKO saajy 11YMejy, y >l<elbl1na caxyaajy 11eerie 11nere. CBe 11MMalbe rrOJIa3M aa PYKOM. CBe je rrO'leJIO KaAa je pomrrezs CTaB110 p;eTe ripen TB, p;onYCTJ1BIlll1 My na, rrpO)f(p;J1pyhM rOTO~e Clll1Ke, Ml1CJI11,CTaBOBe, l1CTl1He, JIa)f(M, rrOCTaHe napa3MT, rOTOBaH. Tparl1tJHO je IlITO je raj MaJI11napaaxr crexao naxory CJIMKy,na je )f(J1BOT6e3 CMl1CJIa, na je >l<l1BOT 6aIll TO IllTO HYAl1expan. MYllTl1MeAl1jaJIHl1 )f(p;epOlba nO'lJ1lbe CBe TO na )f(l1B11 y CTBapHOCTJ1.MallM )f(AePOtba OCTaBlba YTl1CaK naueraor, 06pa30BaHor, MYAPor, a na CBe TO nnje. OH je
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CKYnpl1'ly y cBeMY. Bxnehy! Mozena CBe OBO rpetia na nOHy.n;11M,11CTOBpeMeHO, TOM MaTep11jaJIHO 6oraTOM cBe~y, KOj11rp~a non TepeTOM ner aYTOp11TapH11X Mo.n;eJIa 11Y CBOjOj HeMOn11 Calba)y KaKO 611 611JIOneno nOKOp11T11'l11TaB CBeT, M11JIOM11JI11 C11JIOM. MO)f(p;a 11~eMajy JIOIllY HaMepy. Mozena caao He saajy rryT sa ycrreiliHy p;yXOBHy TpaH3J1~11)y. He iraxrehy OH11cBeTY nOBpIllHo otipaacaarse .n;a611 BJIap;aJI11HenJ1CMeHJ1Ma. Ilaaauns KBaJI11TeTotipasosarsa H11jey Be311 ca 3aBepOM, Ben ca HeMoryhHOilihy e yxenaxa, .n;a nOCJIe yrxuaja B11pTyeJIHe ryBepHaHTe, lbJ1XOBe pa3Y3.n;aHe rnaBJ1U npmre 611JIOurra .n;PY.I'o. . J1nOMJ1CJI11TJ1.n;a h [ ny.no )e HeKOCnpe'laBa KBaJII1TeTHOotipasoaarse Maca, MJ1CJIeBa 11.n;a)e TO nYT ananarsa Ha.n; lb11Ma. 3ap cy XP11CT, Anax 11Byna 6J1JIJ1o6pa30 H11?I-b11XOBO otipasosan.e H11je611JIOOBaKBor CBeTOBHor xapaxrepa, rra J1naK cBeTY pJ1 OCTaB11Ille nerra aa CBa spesreaa. Otipaaoaarse xoje ce Hy.n;J1nanac (KOMIIjYTe ,
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Tor HCTor nana YJIa3HM y MapKoBY nopo,o;H~y. XBaJIa llIKOJIHH l(eHTpy aa Co l.\t1jaJIHH pa,o; llITO cy MH OMOryOHJIH jenao HCKYCTBOamue. Taxio 3aTH'IeM MllaA ponarezse. nHTOMe, 3a6pHHYTe, KOjHTpa)f(e rpellIKy y ce6H H He HaJIa3e J' eO' e . 'IaJli cy jep BOJIe csora Mapxa, a OH ca ocaa rornma nocrane np06JIeM KOjl1 CTl1)1(e t1 seh BH,o;ecsor Mapxa y no no MHHHCTapCTBa. Y ~PHHM MHCJIHMa, ponarezsa npaB_ HOM ,o;OMY, na y sarsopy, 3a casro nOJIa cara, YTBp,o;HJIacaM ,o;acy TO BeOMa ,o;06pl1 po,o;l1TeJbl1 He , . T~y ra, rroaexan no ryaa, xan nperepa, He KynYJY ra na 611 y'Il10 H pa,o;l10, jep cy 11 caMH CHpo~allIHH, He npesaurrxhyjy ra, jep MH MapKO noxasa urra CBe pa,o;l1 y KyOH. BpJIO Je neacan npeMa po,o;l1TeJbHMa, cecrpa H 6aKH. ITa y qeMY je np0611eM? - pa,o;03HaJIO ce rrrrrare. MapKO je ceo npen qap06HY KYTHjy Y CBOjOj npyroj ronnaa. Y rseroso] rreToj ro,o;HHH, ponarezsx, 0,0; caoje CHpoTHlDe, onsojaure HOBa~, xymnue KOMrrjYTep, ,o;a 6H lDHXOBOnere 6ap rro nexe [6HJIO Mo,o;epHo H paBHO 60raTHM BpllIlDa~l1Ma. HaHBHH pororrezsa HHCY 3HaJIH urra he nere ca TOM crrpaaosr, aJIl1 snao je MapKO. Kynosana cy csaxonneano HrpH~e, HrpH~e, H casro Hrpl1~e. 0,0; OHl1X Y KojHMa ce "HeBl1HO" y6l1jajy narxe H MaqKe, rra ,0;0 OHHX HajKpBOJIOqHl1jl1X. Y nocnemse Tpl1 ronnne, MapKO nponona jenao panao spexie npen qy,o;HMa rexHOJIOrl1je. Ca espana nyuajy y isera, a OH ny~a y ce6e, y CBOjy noponmry, yql1rersauy l1 npyrose. 11 ,o;oro,o;l1ce qy,o;o. Y caxo je,o;HoM caTY rrpl1qe 0 y3POqHl1~l1Ma, osne je peq casro 0 je,o;HOMY3POqHl1KY, KOjl1je nanpaaao OBOJIl1KYnosrerrsy y )f(l1BOTYCBl1X, MapKO l1 po,o;l1TeJbl1 pa3YMellIe CBe. Ilexax 6e3 l1KaKBe rrpl1Hy,o;e nonece na CBOjl1M pyql1~aMa rrpeKo CTOTl1HaK,o;l1CKOBa,TaCTaTYPY xonnjyrepa l1 peqe: .Tara, ornreCl1 OBO na rrocao l1 saxzsyxa]." Mapxa CMOrrOBYKJIl1l13llIKOJIe Mece~ nana. CBa qy,o;a TeXHOJIOrl1je 6l1JIa cy noraureaa Tl1X Mece~ naaa, TOJIl1KOje norpetiao BpeMeHa na ce nere CKl1He ca BHPTYeJIHe ,o;pore. Y TOM rrepl1o,o;y 611JIOje MHoro ,o;pY)f(elDay npnpona l1 caMO peaJIHHX aKTl1BHOCTl1,ca llITO MalDe YMeTalDa Hrapa, rra xax l1 KlDl1ra 113Meljy ,o;eTeTa H pO,o;Hrersa. YCKOpO he ,o;OOl1speae xana he ce Mapxo, OqHllIOeH, BpaTHTH HopMalIHOM )f(HBOTYy KojeM jenxao nehe 611Tl1l1rpl1~a, a xana Hayql1 na npenosna 0,0;qera CBe MO)f(e rrOCTaTH 3aBl1CaH (KJIa,o;l10Hl1~e, HOBa~, alIKOXOJI, npora, ~HrapeTe, ceKC,..) aenorpemaso he rrpenosaara 31I0 113aycTaBl1Tl1 ce na BpeMe. Ilanac je Mapxo cjajaa, 3,o;paB nexax, nofiap hax, npetiamora CMO ra Y ,o;Pyr6 0 Y 0onezseise, 11aKOje CTapl1M ,o;pyroBHMa 6l11I0 xcao llITO Mapxo o,o;lIa3H. Her,o;e ,0; . 6 60JbJ<i KOcy ocehamr na je Mapxo 1160Jbl1 0,0;lDl1X.Ol1JIl1 cy y rrpaBy. Mapxo Je J<i0 0,0;lDHX,jep je 6110 cprsa casro Bl1pTyeJIHe ryBepHaHTe.
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rOTTl1He Ca Y)f(HBalDeM ce HrpaJIa nrpasxaaa pa3BJIaqeOH l1X a HMa qeTH P CaHAP. 6 3a TO speae CTe 6HlIH BeOMa 3a,o;OBOJbHH)ep sac je Cannpa OCTaBHelIO) CO H. . no TT06pa cara, Kana j e 3a,o;OBOJbHJIaCBO)Ynorpetiy aa HrpalDeM, XJIa,o;M HaMHpYABa '6 na pyry aKTHBHOCT He xajyh aa OHO llITO )e OCTaBHJIa aa CO OM, o .e npeUIlIa xa ,0;' " , H J oje carpali.eHe KyJIe He ,o;O)f(HBJbaBaxao saurap. To je isena Kpea~HJa KO)y CaHP,pa CB 1) 6J<i)KelIelIa ,o;aOCTaBl1 6ap jour HeKO spexre y ,,)f(l1BOTY . CTe He3aTTOBOJbHl1rrouauiatsexr csor nerera. CBe ,o;O)f(l1BJbaBaTe HapaBHO, B a lDeHY xpeauaiy xao saurap KO)l1llITO rrpe Mopa 611Tl1noaenea y pe,o;. Kao HeMa P , npO6alIH CTe aa 6e36poj Haql1Ha na joj CTBopHTe HaBHKY ,o;a, o,o;Max rro saspurer. 0 ' saurap" llITO rrpe YKlIOHH. Hexan Ml1lIOM,nexan CHJIOM,a Ha)qellI e KYl1rpe, CBO) " Ml1TOM.YKOlIHKOje nere TO H qHHl1JIO, qHHHJIO je 6e3 pa,o;OCTH, a ~eJIOM npouecy pap,a rrpeTxo,o;l1JIH cy 3arrOBeCT, nparoaapaise, norxynzsnnatse l1JIl1 CTe HeMOOHl1 TOo,o;pap,l1lIl1BH, reureha ce na he nere nocnarpajyha Bpe,o;Hor ponnrezsa H caxo
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nOCTaTH spenao, He carnenaaajyhx na je peq 0 npesaurrahaaarsy .. KOHaqHO CTe nponaunra saur "MeTO,o;",aJIH He MO)f(eTe,o;aHe rrpHMeTHTe,o;a CaHApa l1nan.e cxynrsa nrpaaxe 6e3 BOJbe, ca rrpHKpHBeHHM ornopoa, nospurao rrpH~ naaa OBOMql1Hy. Bac 6pHHe WTO je CBe TO TaKO xana ce TOlIl1KOpa,o;OBaJIa CBaKO) HOBOjHrpaqKl1. )K.ao BaM je llITO y ql1HY caxynrsaisa nrpa-raxa HeMa oaor saaoca panocrn xao y pacTypalDy. O,o;JIyql1JIl1cre na yhere y CB. ITpOql1TaJIH CTe "oyKBap" 11npenaaare ua npaxcy. Caanpa je 11naaac CBOjy xpeaunjy nrpe 06aBl1JIa KOpl1CTeOl1 ueny coriy. Bes pe'Il1 rrpeKopa, y~eHe l1JIH rrpe3allITl1011BalDa ,o;03BOJIl10eTe na l1rpaqKe OCTaHY TaMO rne l1Xje Cannpa OCTaBl1JIa. 0110e TO rrpaBl1 MaJIl1 1ll0K sa CaH,o;PY qy,o;Hoe ce BallieM HOBOM noirauraisy, He aepyjyhn na here rryro 113,o;p)f(aTl1,OBO je 6HlIa , CaMOjenaa 0,0;l1,o;eja xaxo na npexnuere JIaHa~ HeraTl1BHOCTl1, KO)l1ce CBa KOTTHeB
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ao nOHaBJba y aauresr ,o;OMy. Dl10 je TO noxerax 11 aKO 6l1CMO Ty crarra, nere 611 Bl1,o;elIO11casro na TO He BOAl1,o;06py, neh aaapxajn. Ilo rora aehe ,o;OOl1,na pa,o;OCTnerera, jep here aexepac BallIeM nerery npo-nrrara fJ10oAJ1H11 I1J1AH rrO)f(eJbHl1XKYOHl1XaKTl1BHOCTI1:KYBalDe pyqKa, nocrasrsaise CTOJIa,rrocnpeMalDe CTOlIa, npaise cyha, 6pl1Calbe npallIl1He, ycacaaarse, HaMelliTalbe xpenera, CAKYI1JbAlbE 11fPAqAKA, onna3al( y Kyrro~mHY, npalbe JIaBa60a, aannaan-e useha, YHollIelbe yrJba, ,o;e)f(ypalbe y
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nopomoraoa 6YTMKY,rrpnxarse rrpnsra MJIaljeM 6paTy M JOUl MHOro TO ra !UTO 6 cTBapHo MOpaJIO na ce 06aBM y p;OMY KaKO 6M )f(MBOTY lbeMY 6MO UlTO . l1 . Il' npW)aTl{ )M. pMHQl1rr Mopa 611TMjacaa. Ha crnrcax ce craszsajy 6pO)'He aKTMBH. l1OC1W(ca Mory 6 MTM YCMTlbeHe 360r Y3paCTa nerera), He 6MpaHe aKTl1BHOCTlK . 1.10 " KO)e 611 )f(eJIeJIMp;a HaMeraere AeTeTY, seh CTBapHe aKTMBHOCTM. 811 Cnl1CaK.aKTl1BHOCTM Mrpyoo peKJIM KaKOTpe6 . a na W3rJIeA lbl1XOB CaAp)f(a), rrpso norryurrare HajMJIaljeM AeTeTY p;a 0p;a6epe )f(eJb a . eHyaI<TW8 HOCT,KO)y he cyTpa 06aBl1TM. To MCTOyql1He CBM'lJIaHOBl1 rrOpOTTl1TTe K . O)WBOJbHo )f(eJIe Aa yqecTBy)y y CB. 06aBe3Ho Mopa p;a 6yp;e rrpen03HaTJbMBO urra . je KO0Aa6pao Aa cyrpa He 6M AOllIJIOAO aecnopaaysra 11csahe. Hexa CBaKO 6eJI e){(w CBO' 11360p npyros, 60jOM. Kana nere 3aoKpY)f(11 )f(eJbeHY aKTl1BHOCTOHOhe C ) aMO ca'lWHl1Tl1 MJ1HJ1 IlJIAH csoje aKTl1BHOCTl1. Kana, KaKO - op;JIyql1he casro, BOAehw pa'lyHa 0 JIOm'lHOM nopeTKy CTBapl1. CBl1 he OAMax npaxerxra Aa CaHApa Hl1je HI1 nornenana, a KaMOlIl13aoKpY)f(111Iaa:<Tl1BHOCT caxynzsarsa l1rpa'laKa. Be3 npwroBOpa, jenaa on ponnrezsa 111I11 crapajn 6paT 11cecTpa he 3aoKpY)f(l1Tl1 OBYaKTI1BH OCT. IlOUlTO Cannpa Hl1je HaBl1KHYTa aa OBaKaB, crsapana-nor rrpncryn pap;y, Hl1je HaBl1KHYTa na cavopan, OHa nehe 3HaTl1 Aa 113BpUll1pealIHy npOQeHY CBOjMX nCMXO113M'lKMX cnOC06HOCTM MMoryhe je na he M3a6paTM aKTMBHOCT xojy nehe Mohl1 na 06aBM y QelIOCTM.Cannpa je xsatipana neacypcrso y 6YTl1KY,MaKOCTeje yn030pMlIl1 p;a nexcypcrno rpaje ocaa earn 11p;a ce TaMO He MO)f(enrparrr, Hl1Tl1cenerx, Haha here Ha'll1Ha na CaHAPl1 oxoryhare n0311Tl1BHe eMOQ110HalIHe YClIOBesa peaJI113aQl1jy iseaor onaopaaor pana. Hexrojre joj 3aMepl1Tl1 YKOlIl1KOcyTpa nOTnyao rrpamonro nexcypa y 6YTl1Ky caxo ABa cara, nocne xera MCKpeHo xaxce na joj je nazse nexcypas,e TeUlKO. Hehere 1I11KOBaTl1 KaKO CTe joj Bl1 cxaoh peKlIM p;o xera he noha, HanpOTl1B, noxsanahere Caanpy aa KopeKTHO onpahea neo BpeMeHa, 3aXBalIl1Tl1 joj ce 11BpaTl1TMje xyhx. Beh aa HeKOlIl1KOnaira (jep ce nOClIOBH HaBeAeHl1 y rn06alIHoM nlIaHY 611pajy CBaKe Be'lepl1, 111I11 xa aenezsy naaa, KaKO ce AOrOBOpl1Te). Cannpa he OAlIl1'lHO nponersasara csoje cnoc06HOCTl1 11npeMa lbl1Ma 611paTl1 nocao. JOUl nyro ce aehe BpaTl1Tl1 caKynJbalbY l1rpa'laKa. J1 p;albe here xrpaxxe caxynzsarn Bl1, P;OK he y l1CTOspeae Caanpa HeBeUlTO npara cylje. Hehere rpaxorrn rpeurxe y CaHAPl1HOM pap;y KPl1Tl1Kyjyhl1 je, seh here rpeIllKY l1CKOPl1CTMTl1 xao rrYTOKa3 aa 60Jbe caszrahaaarse l1CTe aKTl1BHOCTl1cJIep;ehl1 rryT. Ca'lYBajTe rn06aJIHl1 nJIaH KOjl1CTe npasnna TOKOM jenner MeceQa 11nOIlITO CTe 06eJIe)f(aBaJIl1 aKTl1BHOCTl1csaxor xnaaa noponnue onpehenov 60jOM, 3ana3W1ere MHoro rora. ,1J;eTe6wpa aKTl1BHOCTl1xoje cy aesaae aa oco6y xojy BOJIl1.TaKO he CaHp;pa Cl1JIHOcenera na YBeKcnpesra cotiy crapnjer 6paTa. Ilecnhe ce 11o6pHyTO. CTaPl1jH 6paT, KOjMje YBeK xropao na 'lyBa MaJIOr 6paTa nyro, BpJIO nyro Hene H3a6 para HM)ep;aHrrocao . Be3aH aa Tor MaJIOr 6paTa. IlOUlTyjMO norpetiy CBaKor qlI aBa
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HUe Aa 1136erHe MOHOTOHMjy11nocany xoja ce CTBapaJIa HaMeTalbeM CTaJIHO JJopOAaKTHBHOCTl1.Ilpioaerxhere p;a he penarxsno 6p30 CBl1.'lJIaHOBMnoponaJfC"HJC o o6aBlbaTl1 OHO UlTO cy onaopana, UlTO npencraazsa noxerax pap;He p;eMoJle paA THje, qHja je OCHOBaJhy6aB rrpeMa pap;y (nornenaj TO nornaszse). a<paCaBApahe oCBajajyhl1 CBaKl1pap; CJhy6aBJbY, y jep;HoM MOMeHTYCXBaTl1Tl1p;a je I1yHOCBejep;Ho caxynzsara arpaxxe 111I11 npaTl1 cyhe. Ilpaxaarxhe caxyrrrsan,e JIOT . . K axa H Y TOMe HaJIa311Tl1paAOCT 11Y)f(l1Balbe, )ep )e TO lbeH CBeT. ao UlTO ce tifpaq alIa CpaAollIhy, TaKO he Cpanourhy npaTl1 cyhe, caKyrrlbaTl1l1rpaqKe, rrpnxara tifP C h 6 .. 6aTH I1pHQe, npaTl1 KOJIa11CJIl1'lHO. Be e ce aa OpaBl1Tl1 )ep )e pap; saacna - cnoeABa CTBap nOCJIe xoje ocrajy XapMOH1130BaHe exoua]e, a lbl1X he Caanpa nOHeTl1 ~ )l(HBOTH np06YAl1Tl1 rrpl1 CBaKOMpap;y. A IlITa CBe Hl1je pap; y naurexr )f(l1BOTY?!

nETAP 11 CTE<DAH
Ilerap je CTaP 'leTl1pl1 rOAl1He, a CTeaH ner ronmra. Bpaha cy ce )f(eCTOKOCyKO6111IaOKOxrpaxxe. 3aqYJIl1 CTe aarrosrararsa, jayxe, rrCOBKe. ,1J;ocap;allIlbl1 cQeHap110 CTe npl1MeHl1JIl1 6e36poj rryTa. YJIeheTe y cotiy, npexopeaare 11rpp;l1Te crapnjer Cl1Ha p;a rrorrycrn, p;a p;a l1rpa'lKy MJIaljeM 6paTY. CBe TO'lMHMTey TpeHyTKy xana je 6ec, pasjapeaocr KOP; neue M KOAnac aa BpXyHQY. Baunr npMrOBOpl1 caxo nojaxasajy saur 11lbMXOB6ec. Kpaj npnxe je CJIM'laH npM'laMa CBl1XnOpOAl1Qa. 060jMQa cy 113BYKJIa 6aTMHe, Ka3HY, hourax, KyrraTMJIO,l1JIM ce CBe CBaJIMJIOna crapnjer 6paTa, AOKMJIaljl1 znrxyje Mnorajno ce noncsreaa, YKOJIMKO CTe notipo rrpouenanx cHary saure neue 11YTBPP;l1JIl1na He nocroja onaCHOCT on noapehasan,a, npexnayhere nanau HeraTl1BHOCTl1 BplIO jenaocraaHO.Xnap;HO here HarrYCTl1Tl1npocropnjy, He pearyjyha na lbl1XOBa aarroxaratsa, A0311Balba, TY)f(6e. J13HeHaljeHl1 sauroa HOBOM peaxuajon otiycraanhe 60p6y 11 CTI1Ulahe 6ec. He nynare Hl1KaKBYnoxoh 11He pearyjre na cy3e. . YKOJII1KO CTe npOQeHl1JIl1 na je 60p6a HepaBHorrpaBHa, na je jenao nere MHoro )a'le M na AP)f(l1 "XlIap;HO opyxqe", xoje MO)f(e 03611JbHO na yrp0311 )f(l1BOTsaurer MaJIWlllaHa, pearosahere OAJIY'lHO 11 6p30. CHa)f(HO, 6e3 pe'll1 nparosopa 111I11 CTaBJbalba na 611JIOql1jy C'FpaHY, 11311'lKl1here paCTaBl1Tl1 MaJIl111IaHe,aKO rpetia OA8ojwheTe l1X y nae pa31I11'll1Te npocropnje. He pearyjre aa CY3e, He 113PMQl1~e CYA0 KPl1BQY.Casso l1X06aBeCTl1Te na Mory, xana CMl1pe csoje cpQe 11yTl1XHy ec, 113l1hl1113coria. DeTap 11CTeaH cy ce CMMpl1lIMM BpaTMJIMy cooy. BM CTe l1X Ml1pHO 3aMO1Il1I1W na op;rnYMe, aKO cerre, cnoje BMljelbe cYK06a. J.1CTMnp06JIeM I1Mane nna
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pa3JHflH1Ta cnenapaja, 06a HeraTHBHa. Carra CTe, nparx pomrrezsa Beh . 3ara3~ y CTBapalbe rr03HTHBHl1X aKQH)a H rr03HTHBHl1X eMOQHOHaJIHHXonno 6 ll~ ca e3l<0' HeMa CTBapaJIaqKOr aacmrrarsa. 3aje~HHqKH here npoaahn rr03J1TJ1 )tnc . BHOpeme KOJe he Kp03 rr030pJ1IlIHY cQeHY ~y60KO nonpern ~o csaxor nerera 3 ..}f,e ap je Je J1rpaqKa rrOBO~ aa csahy, J1JIHHrpaqKa rpetia na crraj a ~elTy( CBe he .., . TO MaJII1Alia HH BJ1~eTJ1H rpajao YCBOjHTJ1. lUaM M

TAMAPA
Tasrapa J1Maurecr rO~HHa. J13J1IlIJIHCTe ca Taaapov y He06aBe3HY rpanc Ky WeTlhy. J1 osor rryn BaM Je Taxrapa aaropxana )f(HBOT.J1aKo CTeje 6e36poj rryra vnosops. BaJIH ~a He ~J1pa HJ1IlITa pyxasra, j P je Y rpa~y CBe saraheao, ~a He ayse uran no 3eMlbH, ~a He craszsa rrpzsase pYKe y ycra, ~a YCHaMa He ~O~J1pyje CTaKJIa y ayro~y~y, na, ~a, na ..., HHIlITa HJ1je Bpe~eJIO. OHa J1osor rryTa 6aIlI CBe TO pamr, BaMa je Je~J1HO OCTaJIO ~a npxryuremor rnacoxr nperrynmr 6eca, rneaa, nperrse, onoMJ1lbeTe. Illrurrare je rajao, ByqeTe ,,6JIaro" sa KOCy. CBe TO qHHHTe ~O Mepe aa xojy 3HaTe ~a aehere HaTepaTJ1 nere na aannaxe, BPHIlITJ1 H 06pYKa Bac na jaaaosr MeCTYJ1JIJ1He ~aj 60)f(e, na ce OCOKOJIJ1 H noxae na BaM rrpeTH na he sac npajasaTH, jep BJ1yrpoacasare iseaa npasa. Hcrospeaeao, ~OK BH TJ1XOKlbyqaTe, HeMHp nerera je CBe jaqH a THMe J1 iseroao ,,6e306pa3Ho" noaauraise. I1peceo BaM je H osaj J13JIa3aK. J1MaTe caxo )f(elbY na CTJ1rHeTe KyhJ1 J1rrpecy~J1Te ~eTeTy. Kaxo] To BJ1 3HaTe. BaTHHoM, Bep6aJIHHM rrpJ1~HKaMa, osranoaaacanarsea, anexsarHOM Ka3HOM.
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rroi'.eTe Kyl'm cMHpeHo rrOHY~HTe~eBojqHQH noraoh OKOrrpalba PYKY,JIHQa J{ap;a M I} . uI<O)l(eJII1. qaK joj BeCeJIO npenzroxcare ~a orrepe CBOJman, IlITO he OHa pa~o yr.OJl Kap; ce HaqHHH ~OBOlbHa BpeMeHCKa ~HCTaHQa rrpe~JIO)f(HneTe Taaapa .r<IJiliUTU. . .n 1yMI1 MaMY a BI1 ~eBOJ'qHQY, Iby. O~rrryMHneTe CQeHY y KOJOJ ere xax olia rJl ' p.a nOHallialbe Tasrapnao. 3aqy~H:he Bac KOJIHKOhe Taaapa 036l1lbHO UI<UpaTn . . J(ap yJlory MaJ'Ke Mozena here na xpajy ~06I1TI16aTHHe. Bpeneno Je Jep CTe rJIYMUTn . op. TaMape ycrreJIH na carnenare ce6e I1 nOTrrYHO yqBpCTI1Te Baury O~JIyKy na opeI<O . h e y CB 3aJ'e~Hl1qKJ1 here HanpaBI1TH n03HTHBHH cuenapno H3 KOJer e 3arrJlUBaT . . V'lI1TI1KOJ'eCBe onaCHOCTH spetiajy, YKOJIHKO ce pa~11 CBe OHOIlITOJe Taaap;eTe Ha, . na y urerisx Je~HO xopare xao pO~J1Telb ynaMTHTH: 6aKTepHJe H Bl1pyCI1 pa pap;U . . OKOHac I1y HaMa aJlI1 HeKO peqe ~a HI1Bl1pyCJ1HJ16aKTepJ1Je He narranacyCBYp;a , jy TellO y KojeM KYQa BeCeJIO cpQe. Beha je IlITeTa on Bame npHHyp;e Hap; p;eTeTOM, Hero nOHeKap;, op; rrplbaBJ1X pyKy. YOCTaJIOM,p;a JIJ1CTe 6aIlI Cl1ryPHI1 na CTe npl1HYP;OM Hayql1JII1 nere rpajaora pep;y. Mozena ce npep; Baaa caspiueno nonaura. A UITapap;11113aBannrx neha, TOcaao OHa 3Ha, a BI1 ce cernre csor nermscraa, CeTI1re CBe urra CTe pap;l1l1H y OP;CyCTByponnrezscxe KOHTpOJle, He xajyhn, HH HajMa}be aa csoje 3p;paBlbe. Ilpeaa TOMe nJIHllIaHH He pahajy CBeCT0 nOTpe611 o-rysas,a snpaszsa, OHI1pasconesajy. CBeCT paha CTBapaJIaqKO nacrraraise.
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MJ1JlOIII
CI1HMY-JIOIliHMa mecr rOp;J1Ha, a BJ1 CTe II)'Hl1X mecr rOp;J1HaYHJ1IlITaBaJIl1lberOB "3BOPHH HarOH sa 3p;paBI1M CHOM.Ynopao CTe npeaahann norpeoy nerera na na apexe nenre J1aa speae YCTaHe. Op;jep;HoM, jep CTe ce ynJIallIJ1JIJ1 cxopor nOJIaCKa Y WKOllY,nonocare OP;JIyKyp;a MI1JIOllia nonenere y pen. Xaoc, cyse, ornop, BpI1CKa, HaCHJIHO6aQalbe nerera y KpeBeT, vcrajaise nerera, Tpa)f(elbe sorre, xohe npJ1qy, xohe p;a ra ycnaazsyjere y CBOMKpeBeTY, xohe na "Ae ywe, xohe orsopena BpaTa, xohe na nehe ... Kpaj npase je BeOMa TY)f(aH. J13yAapaHo, J13MOpeHo nere HarrOKOHje 3aCnaJIO jeuajyhn p;o sope. BJ1 rHeBHH, yMOpHI1I1pa30qapaHI1, ca rroTajHI1M oceharsev Kpl1BI1Qe H crpaxa on KOMIlIHja, na sac He npl1jaBe. OBO je jenaa OAnpoonexra KOjHnac Myql1 y rpenyrxy YJIaCKay nproaeay 3Halba. CaAa MopaTe TparaTH, CMHllIlbaTH 6e36poj CTBapaJIaqKHX rrpHCTyna np06JIeMY 1(0)'11 CTe AO Hep;aBHO pelliaBaJIH Ka3HOM HJIH narpanox. lour AOKje MHJIOIli pacnonoxcea, op;MopaH pehn here MHlIOIlIY p;a BH notipo 3liaTe na nehe 6HTH JIaKOnOCJIe urecr ronana nesnpaeor onnoca npeMa CBOMereny,
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CBe xoace na nsrnena ~pyraqHje CTJ1H Jby6aBH.

xana O~JIyqHTe na 3arrJIOBHTe peKoM CBeCHO-

I1pe Hero IlITO xpeaere y weTlbY ca Taaaposr xparxo H jacao here peha ~eTeTy na O~ naaac npecrajere ca nonaurarsess xoje OqHrrre~HO HHje ~aJIO rr03HTHBHe pe3YJITaTe. O~ naaac he Taaapa 6HTH onrosopaa sa csoje anpaarse. Hehe BaM BepOBaTJ1 ~a CTe O~JIyqJ1JIH ~a ce6e MelbaTe. Ibeae HeraTJ1BHe axujrje 6Hhe nojaxaae naaac. Ilpazorhe Bac no MaKcHMyMa, rrpoBepaBajyhJ1 Banry O~JIyKy J1crenen J13~p)f(lbHBOCTH.Y llIaJIH MO)f(eTe rroP;CTUQaTH nere ~a ~l1pa I1 K?HTejHepe, na crpna 06e pyxe y YCTa, H p;a CBOjuM llIaJlOM 06pHIlIe nposope ayrotiyca. Taaapa he Bac y He~oyMHQH rnenarx nl1Tajynu ce llITa aaaxe OBe HeCJIaHe mane, Plc'rospexreao iseao nocanaunse HeraTHBHO rroHallIaI-be he cnrrauneanarn. BH here Y)f(HBaTHy llIeTIbH IlITO H noxasyjere CBOjHMrroHaIlIalbeM, CBOjHMMHpOM.
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Ilpasnahere p;a CTe W3 , He3li p;onYCTWllW nerery p;a )f(WBWaohy, a cnasa p;alby jep je TO W Bajra OArOB aapall Otipaanozorhere Mazroury KpaTKO W jacno na nooap hax nehe 6WTW ax o. o HeM notiap W3p;paB can. Bahere jacnx ca rrpennorosr na npwnpeMy sa cnaBalbe a Tpe6 a p;a 06aBW y TOKY rpajau,a sexeprser TB p;HeBHWKa. IIOClle p;HeBHWKa y ITH , M eBlio' c06w here My npOqWTaTW lberOBY OMWlbeHY npwqy, a nOTOM ra, ya nOlby6aTT J ~ ABe_ CTWy iseroa xpeaer, [enna on wAeja MO)f(e 6WTW na Mnnonr npemlCTaBa Clll1 I<OB_ HWQe y KpeBeTY, jep CTBapHO Hwje naxo ypaBHOTe)f(WTW PWTaM cnaBalba n OClIe TOllWKO romnra. YKOllWKO )f(ellW BOAY, wMahe qarny nopen xpesera. YKOlll1I<Oxohe
1M

op;jep;HoM no-rerx ca n03WTWBHWM noaaurarsest.

yJ{A
. e HeJ{ollWKO nana npoxop;ao. Ynrao je y xapoean CBeT op;pacllwx. Mecellyt<a }~ Il~e ehw y KpeBeTY, caisao na p;oTaKHe TB, na rnmae cKynoQeHY Ba3Y, na IlJftda }e, p; KlbWry CBe TO)'e ceneo, jep je rseroa HarOH sa yqelbeM, casnaep;aOHYlllapeHY . J10fJ1 n03HaBalbeM CBeTa OKOce6e orpojaau. saJbeM ".~ JI xa na csoje aore W ca nYHo eHTY3wja3Ma xpeayo y mxony )f(WBOT~. lberOBe norpefie. 3a Bac, pop;wTelbe, OBO)e CTaO} Y BTKhere ocy)eTJ.1TW ~cr~n T lia ce JIyKy sarsa HavqWTW nrra CMe, a urra He CMe. y no-nuse " nepJ.10P;,Kap;a J 3J1aTaH TK}'eITa ce TO He 6w necnno, 3a60paBJ.1MO cppa3y ayroparapnor " IT ' Ji1 elbe xapMOHn . I-J, pytU . AeTe MopaMo urro npe BaCnWTaTWW HayqwTw pep;y. onaxo: Ma t!a~;!l::~;~~PQWMa, norpp;aMa, BWKOMJIaKO je W3p;pecwpaTW CBaKY )f(WBOTWlbY,a BpeM JI AllW TO ).e casro MexaHWqKW OP;HOCnpexsa 3axTeBWMa. Hn CBeCHOJ(aMonJ.1 yKy. HJ.1 ap;oCTWneaa, HWTWhe je 6WTW. cnt, p KTKpOlTWTelb nahx he 6e36poj HaqWHa na aa cTBapallaqKW HaqWH M CTBapanaq n lTeTeTY rra ncnpaaa rpeunce W uesnarsa, p;oHep;aBHo, ayTopwTapnOMorHe CBOM M M Hor pOp;WTelba CaQeKajMo na JIyKa nporosop CBe urro 6w Momo na yrp03w . WnOTnYHO Hac pa3YMe. CaqeKa)~O lberOB gpyrw

na mnuxa,

wMahe HOlllY ncnon xpesera.

P;OK

To cy CBe n03WTWBHe aI<Ql1je I<oje TpeW3BOPHWHarOH sa CHOM.MO)f(Aa

HyTHO rrouazcy,

ce nerery

He pesarazraayje

here My BW npOqWTaTW 06ehaHY npwqy, W nOTOM here nere nOlby6wTW W OP;lIyq_

HO HanYCTWTWlberOBY cotiy.

Hacre Balbp;a nOMWCllWlIWAa he Mnrrour nOlllTOBaTW aam npennor, saure l1p;eje, seh npBe ae-repn. Bnhere crrpesma aa TO W3aTO here ra yn030pwTW p;a nehe 6l1Tl1
cYK06a, HW cysa. Jep;HOnpaBWlIO ce Mopa nOlllTOBaTW. wP;y aa crrasan,e, a nerery TWp;a He OMeTa Bac, jep yjyTpy lbeMy. He 6pwHwTe, aeposarao OCTaBWTehe6e npw PYQw.

Kana pOAWTelbWonnyse na
je 0p;6wo Barn npeAy cpoTelbK CaMO My

HWrana He p;OlIa3Wcan na OqW, Ba here ra caao 3aMOlIl1MopaTe na nocao. Beposarno he TPW Hohw nere oncnaaarn sa crrasatse, ana CBeTO, 6e3 crpaxa npenYCTI1Te

pot)eHgaH. Ilo rana YKllOHWMO ca gOMaKa JIyKWHWX pyKy CBe urro )e cKynOQeHO W

nor na na spesre 06aBw rrparrpeue

iseros )f(WBOT (nexose, npalllKoBe: orpoae, caKc~je). 3aTBopwMO w3Bope crpyje, nogWrHWMO TB W MY3WqKe ypehaje BaH gOMarna)a nnozorre wx sa 60lba BpeMeHa, JIYKJ.1He pYKe, safiopamoao cromsaxe, inycraxne, OM
xana qOBeK casnana je3wK CBeTa y KOMe ce uaurao. . . eTWMa ITonYCTWTeMyga ripenTIoBpeMeHO yn03HaJTe JIyKy ca nO)egwHwM npegM . I-J, Tpa)'HO na 3agp)f(W noxaMeT onana, a He 06a3wpWTe ce na rseros rtnax xana )f(ellW M 3aHWnpenaer. Y6et)WBalba He spene. OH Bac He pa3YMe. Ba casro MWPHOY3MwTe npep;MeT W caxexajre na crrrracne JIyKWH 6ec. TKMace wrpa cy1'.eM. BJ.1He ,UonYCTWTe My ga ornapa opaane y KYXWlbW W earn !) 6PYIHeTe,jep CTe na speae nop;J.1mw cKynOQeHe cynone, a Hap;OMaK JIYKJ.1HepYKe ~ JI wrpaJ'yhw ce caTJ.1Ma,gOK OcraBWlIW crapo nocyhe WlIWnnacnomo. Y)f(WBalle YKa, mrre a WBarn ManJ.1rna BI1CnoKojHo KYBaTe W nesyurare My seceny neCMJ.1QY B WpaM . 0 CYlTOBJ.1Ma IToCTaBpegHO pana. Yn03Hao je.aonn CBeT. YqW 03 6 WlbHO JIeKQW}y M . lIl1 CTe MajCTOp y npWMeHJ.1CB. CYI<06a HeMa, JIyKa paCTe y 3gpaBor, secenor geqaKa.

Kan ra yjyTpy 6YAeTe sarexmr y cpoTelbw W3llOMlbeHor WYMopHor, He wCMeBajre ra, He xparxxyjre ra. Kana p;ot)e HOBO nexe, xa BpeMe noaymrre rrovoh MJ.1noury, non WCTWMYCllOBwMa. Ilourro CTe Ba YHWlllTWllW BplIO naxcan 6WOllOlllKW HarOH CBOMnerery, aehe ce naxo noh p;o ypasnoreacea,a Wxapaonaje. CBaKe BeqepW cMwrnlbajTe HeKY n03l1TWBHY axunjy KaKO 6w nere CTeKllO HOBWpJ.1TaMCHao Ienae aexepa ce op;peQl1Te Baine 3aBWCHOCTW on TB eKpaHa. YraCWTe TB WTaKO HaqWHWTe MWPHY nopop;l1QHY arsrocrpepy.

Ji1TO je KopaK xa 03p;paBlbelbY Barner nerera,

ra na TO.

YKOllWKO nere 0p;6wja p;a 06yqe nW)f(aMY W onepe 3y6whe He repajre

Ilpaxajre
TW, jep

My npwqwQY xojy CTe My otiehazra. AKO aacne 6arn na TOM Kayqy, He je BeJ1.WK W 3Ha nocnenaue

6YP;WTera, OCTaBWTera Ty. Yjyrpy he My 6WTWjacna rpelllKa.

P;OBOlbHO

Mopa je caM YBym Henpalba syria, rena W CllWqHO. Ee3Y-

TpeHYTaK xana he ce nerery BpaTwTw npwpop;Ha nOTpe6a aa CHO~' e J{oJe a nocne rora nere he ca naxohoxr wcnYHwTw l1 06aBwTw CBe rrorpetine pap;I-b cIlarpetia p;a ce 06aBe YOqW crrasarsa. Ocerahe CBY 6llarop;eT panor op;llacKa sa aarse Wnaxor ycrajaisa na spesre. - 339- 338-

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Hl1CTe nazsna, xxrajyha nperxonror rrpl1Mep, rrOMl1ClIl1lIl1lJ,anere 36 . l1lbaMO*e )f(l1Bl1 6e3 )aCHl1X npasrora, 6e3 nocraszsarsa rpamrna y OBOM sprr Aa . '0 I<OMnnt1l{ BaHOM MaTepl1)alIHOM cBeTY. HapaBHO na Ba)f(l1 rrpaBl1lIO na rrOCI<lI o, aIbaTe Mlior CTBapl1, lJ,0I<Balli MalIl1llIaH nporoaopn l1 nonpasyaesa ce na I<aI<O 0 lJ,eTe paC're caspena, paayaesa )e3l1I<, rpanmie rrocrasrsare 6e3 ynorpetie I<a3lie VI . t1 liarpaAe I1pl1 TOMBaM, y CBaI<OMMOMeHTY,Mopa 6l1Tl1 jacaa pa3lIJ1I<a l13Me"y I<a3 . lJ He t1lie'Ier llITO lIl1'll1 aa I<a3Hy. Kana ynapare lJ,eTe, jacao je na je pex 0 rhl13l1'lI(0)' I< . 't' a3lit1, I<aAa Bl1'leTe, ncyjere, spehare jacao BaM je lJ,aje y mrrarsy Bep6alIHO HaCJ1lbe , I<alJ, lJ,eTeTy He nare 06enaHY HarpalJ,y, pex je 0 6lIarO)' npxaymr. Hejacaohs Hac . J' Ta)y I<alJ,a rpetia lJ,a lIl1llIl1Te nere ae-rer, IbeMY nparor, a na BaMa l1 lJ,eTeTY 6ylJ,e iacao na ra Hl1CTe I<a3Hl1lIl1.
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AKo je same nere, y rrpo~ecy rrpenacxa, ca aYTOpl1TapHOr y cTBapana'lI<o sac. mrrarse, npexpunrno norosopeao, llITO je l13a3Bano Hl13 HeraTl1BHl1X rrocnelJ,VIua, nocrynnhere na crsapazasxa Ha'll1H, KOjl1'leCTO casro nl1'lVi na Ka3HY, a HVije Ka3Ha. ,D;any BaM rrpl1Mep. Harrpaaxrrn CTe noponx-mn lJ,OrOBOp na TB OCTaHe y lJ,e'll1joj C06l1 a nazse, KaKO 611ce nere norerreno CKl1lJ,alIOca srrpryenae 3aBl1CHOCTl1,cMaIbyjynl1 6poj CaTl1 nposeneaax l1crrpelJ, expana. ,D;eTeje nponemoro csoje caare, rspnehx na nehe rrorrycrrrrtr y yqeIbY, l1aKO he TB l1lJ,albe 6l1Tl1 y rserosoj C06l1. Baure He yzrehere 6ecHo y cotiy, smne ra He orrosonsere, Hl1CTelbyTl1 xana ra 3aTeKHeTe l1crrpelJ, expana, a He ca KIbl1rOM y pyxava, y 6ecy He cexere xatinoBe. OCTalIO BaM je na, rro lJ,OrOBOpy, 6e3YClIOBHO l1 crpnzsaso xexare pesyzrrare yxersa. YmaBHOM he pe3YlITaTl1 6l1Tl1 ropn 0lJ,OHl1XKOjl1cy 6l1lIl1, xana CTe CPYHK~l10Hl1CalIl1 aa npamnmasra Ka3He l1 aarpane, jep saure nere cana l1Ma clI060AY xojy jour He MO)f(e lJ,a KOHTpOlIl1llIe l13 pasmr Jby6aBl1. ,D;orrYCTl1TelJ,a nere yl)e y CBeCHOCTl1 noaezce neycnex y llIKOlIl1ca Bl1llIe'laCOBHl1M ceneisea rrpen eKpaHOM. YKOlIl1KOce lJ,orOlJ,l1lJ,al1lJ,albe rspnornaao aacrojx na sac y6elJ,l1 KaKOCBe TO HVije Hl1 y xaxsoj Be3l1 (a TO oxexyjre), rana jelJ,HOCTaBHOl13HOCl1TeTB, KOMrrjYTep W3 cofie, OrpaHl1'laBaTe sperae rnenan,a, HYlJ,l1Terrosroh y y'leIby. ,D;aKne, Ka3Ha je aKO He OTKlIaIbaTe Y3pOKe rrpotineaa, Ben 0lJ,Y3V1MaTe lJ,eTeTYOHOllITO My je HajMVlnwje. TB l1 KOMrrjYTep, KOjl1 cy aa lJ,OXBaTpYKe MalIVillIaHY, rropelJ, KOjl1Xnere ry6w lJ,paro~eHO spesre, a poznrren, HeMa KOHTPOlIYKaKBe canpacaje KOH3YMwpa lJ,eTe, y3 Ibl1X, xao Bl1llIy Bl1pTyelIHY CTBapHOCT,TellIKO Y3l1Ma KIbl1ry, xao HW)f(yBwpTyeJIHY CTBapHOCT, cy l1CTl1HCKl1 y3PO'lHl1I~l1 y3PO'lHl1~VI neycnexa y yqeIby. ,D;aJIW cy TB l1 xoxrrrjyrep, CMellITeHl1 y lJ,e'll1joj c06V1 YBeK Y3PO'lHWU;l1aeycnexa y lllKOJIW?He. AKo 611 nere 0lJ, poheisa 6WlIO BaCrrl1TaBaHO craapanasxa, 6e3 Ka3He, Harpap;e ...,
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YflllaHWX,OHO He 611 6l1no rrpl1jeM'll1BO Hl1 aa rrpelJ,yro KOH3YMl1paIbe Bl1P. mre CTBapHOCTYf,a nocetiao 6Yf YfMaMOKPl1TYf'lKl1OlJ,HOCrrpeMa canpacapnra. 'fye 3rrpaBo TelIO Yfsnpas lJ,yx Hl1KalJ,anehe l1nl1 rrpOTl1B csora 3lJ,paBlba, rrpo}berOBO ra rrYXOBHorpasaoja. Ilaxne, aKO eneKTpOHCKe HarrpaBe Hl1CYY3POK, 3allITO 'f}fD CDO TKX YKnaIbanl1 Yf3cofie csora nerera. AKO yTBPlJ,l1MOna cy OHYf y3PO'lHl1~l1, 6wCMOn . aMO wx 6ecKOMrrpOMl1CHO,l1rana HeMa noveaa lJ,a)e TOxaxosaaan,e nerera. O'fKJIalb CaBpeMeHW pOlJ,l1TelbMaHwrrynl1llIe lJ,eTeTOMYKl1lJ,aIbeM(xazosaaaisea) YfBpahalbeM (Harpal)l1BaIbeM) eneKTpOHl1Ke y )f(l1BOTnerera. 3a nrrmuano nere TB l1 KOM. P ca Ha)'HeraTl1BHl1)'l1McalJ,p)f(ajYfMa cy l1CKpl1BlbeHa norpetia Yfcersa. Kana JI)yTe , . TKTelb )f(enYfna rrocrnrae KpaTKOpO'lHe ~l1lbeBe, OH YCKpaTYf6allI OHO UlTO )e pOlJ,n HajMWJIl1je IberOBOM l1CKpl1BlbeHOMlJ,eTeTY,(xosmjyrep, uenapau, M06YfnHl1, nohae J{3naCKe). Kana nere 06aBl1 rrocao, nonpasn ouene, CBe ce spaha na CTapo l1 xexa cnelJ,enYfTpeHYTaK xana je MaHl1rrylIa~l1ja HeOrrXOlJ,Ha,Ml1ClIl1pomrrers. CBe je no-rene Bpno lJ,aBHO,y najpannjea lJ,eTYfIbCTBY. Ka3HOM l1 HarpalJ,OM CMO caxo MYfCnYfnYf na ycrrellIHo rrocraarsasto rpaHl1~e, a OHlJ,ace y jelJ,HOMTpeHyTKy CYO'lWMO ca 6pOjHl1M HeraTl1BHl1M nocnenxuaaa xoje l1lIl1 He 3HaMO lJ,a peunoeo, wnw l1XpellIaBaMO napuajanno, nojemoraxao. Maore caBpeMeHe MaMe cy, Ben AOlJ,pyre ronaae nerera, HarrpaBl1ne rrpaBl1 xaoc y )I(WBOTY 'll1TaBe noponaue. Ilere Ben y lIe)f(alb~l1 cena rrpelJ, urapemoa Cnl1KaMa TB, ca rOlJ,l1Hyl1 rro naaa, lJ,OK jenaa lJ,P)f(l1KallIl1KY,crrpeTHo lJ,P)f(l1xosmjyrepcxor MWlllaVIp;albVlHCKl1, lJ,OK ra eKpaH sacana peKnaMaMa, arpecaamea Wnearpecaamoa arpauava, uprahxaa, HaCl1lbeM CBl1Xspcra, a HapO'll1TO cexcyannaa aacnzsesr. Y lJ,e'lVljoj c06l1 nona cara Mopa na pOHl1Te rro rrnamraaxra l1rpa'laKa, KaKO 611 CTe H3pOHl1nVlnerenne, a l1rpa'lKe cy ymaBHoM y cpyHKU;l1jl1nponyxcea,a Bl1pTyenHor HaCVllba.CBaKl1 uprah l1Ma csoje jynaxe, xoje rrOTOMnoxnenax npoaaaohaxa rrpeTBapajy y nyTKy, npahany CBl1MCTBapl1Ma, norryr onena, Ma'leBa, KOCTl1Ma ... (cae je lial1BHO noxeno ca Bap6l1KOM, a rrOTOMce rrpeHeno rra OCTane lIl1KOBe, Mel)y KOjl1Ma je 6e36poj MOHcTpYMa. TaKBl1 He ocranzsajy BallIY neuy Hl1 aa TpeH. Ilpare l1X lJ,alby, npare l1Xnohy, yna3e y Ibl1XOBe KOlllMapHe CHOBe, a oana Mnap;e MaMe cnaBajy ca CBOjOMp;eU;OM,He 611 nl1l1X 3allITl1Tl1lIl1 0lJ,KOllIMapHl1XCHOBa, a lJ,aHl1 caae lie 3liajy lJ,acy OHe l1CKlbyql1Bl1 KPl1B~l1 sa KOllIMap, sa Xl1rrepaKTl1BHOCT,noxnerry, arpeCt1jy, HenOClIYllIHOCT csora nerera. y CTBapl1, OHe Hl1CYKpl1Be, OHe cy casro )f(pTBe ner rrlIl111IaHl1X,xoje cy nexpxTI1'II<VI rrpl1XBaTl1ne l1 aa Ibl1Ma YTeMelbl1ne aacmrratse caor necpernor nerera. nocneAVI~e cy BaH o-rexanarsa pOp;l1Telba, a 3arrpaBo aennxa sehaaa canperaeIiVlxPOlJ,l1Telbaje xcenena na 6yp;e notipa, lJ,ape3YlITaTl1 aacrnrrarsa 6yp;y 3a noxaany. l-Ia)f(alIOCT, rrocne casro p;Be ronmre, 0lJ,ynorpetie rrnl1111aHl1XMo,n;ena, 30BY Me ~~
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necperue MajKe. Y CJIYlliaJIHQH qyjeM rnac oxajnaxa: .Tocnoho, nOM03HTe li p;aM cm-yaunjosr, a nere MH jour HeMa HH nse ronaae", ' e Ella_ Hep;aBHO Me je n03BaJIa H HHKOJIHHa MaMa. Pexe na He anana CHT a . HHKOJI~ MaJIH "MOHCTpYM"(nOKHMOH), HHje jour npOCJIaBHO p;pyrH ;O~~:M' a ,/J;OqeKYJeMe na BpaTHMa H HHKOJIa. JIHqH MH aa MaJIOr -roaesryzsxa . C aB Jey<p . P;ali. . MHpaHOJ rapnepotia H ca HaMelliTeHHM OCMeXOM.Jbyfiaaao Me nosnpa I1p_ . . 6 BJba, CnOli COMnOKa3YJe CBOJYCO Y npenYHY HrpaqaKa H Y C06H p;eMoHcTpHpa . 0. 6 CBOJYnaMe KOP seurro apara MHllieM H p;aJbHHCKHM. Mano je aarexea lliTO HHllITa Op; Tor T He XBalIHM, aeh maCHO H3rOBapaM KaKO he 70% HrpaqaKa MopaTTA'na ce norp a Y xece, rra na raaanxe. na
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rra ra [e Harrap;alIa xana 6M 3ana311JIa na Hl1KOJIa cep;l1 nopen xayxa 11caM ce e6ord, I-" 6 6 a p;OK IbeH cynpyr aa xay-ry Ml1pHO ql1Ta HOBl1He. ITp113Hap;e na Je l1JIa y e6 JffP' 6e6y Hl1 J'ennor TpeHa He rpefia nYCTl1Tl1 na ce cassa satiasn.a l1JIl1 l1rpa. t;. }fa p;a "e . 6et..eHa p;a he yMpeTl1 on mana aKO nocne CBl1XKOHP;l1TOPCKl1X np0113BO6}111a Je y 1) . COKMha, p;eTe He nojene ueo 06pOK. p,a ~ M3Hap;e na cy npen paaaonox, p;a joj je My)K CBaKe Beqepl1 y Kaqmhl1Ma, ca p . . 'ep TA UlTBOM,na CyMlba p;a l1Ma 11p;eBOJKY,na Je.CBaKe Beqepl1.y CY3aMa, J B.np;11na p,py HTAJ' e OHaKO KaKOJ'e 3aMl1lliJbaJIa y CBOJI1MCHOBI1Ma,JOlli onna xana Je 6111Ia }fHUlTa 6eJ1oj, pacKolliHoj BeHqaHl1QI1. Onna je xcenena na ql1HOM seasarsa 6yp;e cnryp-

,/J;eTeTYhexo p;aTH nae HrpaqKe p;HeBHO, nse, TpH ClIHKoBHHQe HlIonT Y, a Olip;a CBaKe aenezse MelbaTH ca HOBHM nrpaxsaaa H ClIHKOBHHlTaMa to. ~ , KOJ'eneao Kynl1TH na aauresr TaBaHqeTY. Cnyura v HeBepHQH KaKO TB " KOMnJ'YTep nlIeJ. CTe)IlIli . I, MopaJY H3 iseroae cotie, BaH, qYJe a p;aJbHHCKHH MHlli Mopajy 6HTH nop; KOHT 01I0M poznrrezsa. P Cnyura IT<DKJbHBO KaKOamne HeMa QHpKyca xana no-nuse xparsen,e. Hesra rpxalba aa lb~M, MOJba~alba, nan Torr, H upraha Mopajy 6HTH YKlIOlbeHH ca CTOlIa, gOK OBe Kyhe).1iYTH CTpnJbHBO jep xexa MaMY, HHKOlIa jene (a TO.Je 6HO crreuajamrrer csor ap;B~KaTa KOJa he nO'IeTH p;a BpHlliTH fipaaeha rseroae 601IecHe npasanera]e, xao lliTO Je 6paHHlIa CBe TO, csabajyhn ce ca TaTOM. HaCTaBHCMO npH'IY aa CTOlIOM. ,/J;OKce T060)Ke Hrpa, smne Hero rra)KJbHBO ClIYllia H xyje MOj cneneha caner: "YKOlIHKO 36HJba MHClIHTe, p;parH pOp;HTeJbH, na yhere Y CTBapalIaqKO BaCnHTalbe KaKO 6H HHKOJIa nopaCTao Y cjajao, snpaso p;eTe, Mopa crrasarx Y CBOMKpeBeTY. MaMHH H TaTHH xpeser cy aa MaMY H TaTY. TaTH HHje MeCTO aa xay-ry, Y

a he Jby6aB TpajaTH BeqHO. A cana YMecTo Jby6aBHl1Ma PAT. 6 . . 6 }fa p; }:(OK je Y cysaMa rosopnna OlIHYI1CTJ1HY, cyrrpyr JYJe rnenao ca OlIHI1MOCMeer ce Ha3l1palla Jby6aB xoja Hl1je npecaxna. ~elIoKyrr, ce noronao sa TAcnon KOJ' xord,.. M cardO TpH cara p;pY)Kelba ca MHOM. OCTalIO MI1 Hl1je 6111I0 HI1 Ba)KHO. Kana, KaKO, KOJ1MKO p;yro he TpajaTI1 YKI1p;albe naorraxxx HaBI1Ka 11YBo1)elbe HOBI1XnpaBl1lIa, KOJ1MKO gyro he naKOBaTI1. opyzcje 11P;03BOlII1TI1p;a Jby6aB Me1)y lbl1Ma norese. aa MeHe Hl1je 6I1THO. CaMO [enno je Ba)KHO p;a HOBe Me1)e, HOBa npanana He 6yp;y ys Ka3HY11narpany, a TO Ba)K11sa CBe onnoce. TIoClIe HeKOlIl1KOMeceQI1 I1Xcperox sarprseae y urerisa. HI1KOlIa secerro TPqxapa OKOIbI1X. Cranoiue, crane HI1KOlIa. Ilornena Me npaBO y Oql1, HerrOrpellil1BO Me je npenosnao 11norryr aahena peqe: "naKa Ml1lIl1Qe, TI1 CI1 Moja nofipa snna, TI1CI1Moja Jby6aB!" Ilonpaxacao MallO, Hl1KOce He )l(alIl1, HI1KOBI111IeHe Tpa)l(11 caner. POp;I1TeJbI1 saajy urra 11Msazsa ql1HI1TI1 y CBaKOM rpeayrxy HI1KOlIl1HOr paCTa, jep ner nnaWaHI1X HI1CYBI111Ielbl1XOBI1 BaCnl1THI1 MOp;elIl1. Jep;I1HO HI1KOlIa He 3Ha na Hl1je 6aKa MHlIl1Qa iserosa Jby6aB, ja caM caao nossorna na 1136aQl1MO cxehe 113lberosor )i(I1BOTa,113iseroaor YMa, p;a exonaje XapMOHl13yjeMo, na 113Me1)yMaMe 11rare nOTe'Ie peKa Jby6aBI1, a rana KlIl1Qe Jby6aBl1 11,/J;06poTe yspacrajy, npahene rej311POMPanocrn. Pap;OCHI1cy 113ap;OBOJbHI1 11xana ce JbYTe na HI1KOlIY, xana ce JbYTe na npnjarezse jep nehe na npnxaare anaise craapanaxsor sacrnrraisa 11xana cy 3a6pl1HyTl1lllTO HI1KOlIa remxo npaxsara HOBO rrpaanno 11xana cy TY)l(HI1jep He l1p;e CBe TaKOJIaKO11xana cy y crpaxy na ce clIyqajHo He BpaTe nlIl1l1IaHl1Ma. JbyTI1 cy, 6pl1)l(HI1,TY)l(HI1, sacrpaureaa amr YBeK y Jby6aBl1 113ap;OBOJbCTBYjep CBe je TO neo AYXOBHorpacra, neo CTBapalIaqKe Jby6aBI1 ...

rpneaapajn"
HHcaM notipo HH aaapnnora peqeHHQY, a aaur yma~eHH nOKHMOH ce aaxpurnr, ycrane Op;lIY'IHO, rrpnhe MH, ynapa Me Y QeBaHHQY H Hapep;60p;aBHO petIe: "ne)KH, HP;H xyha, MaMa, orepaj OBY )KeHY!!" HHcaM BHllie 6HlIa HH 6aKa MHlIMua, HH nexa noopa rera, ana HH HHKOlIa HHje amue 6HO oaaj YMMJbaTMp;eqaK. J13 isera cy nporoaapann jYHaQH upraha, Masra aanperraurheao peqe: "lliTa he 6HTM xana HHKOlIa 6yp;e HanYHMO nerHaeCT rop;HHa? nHO je TO noxerax xpaja aYTOpHTapHOr, nmnuaaor BacnMTaIba M Y OBOj noponamr. IToTnYHO cnpeMHa Me 3aMOlIM na joj p;aM nerazsna ynYTCTBa 3a p;a~H pap;. 06eha p;a he-opony KOjMTOHe, CBOjOjnopop;HQH, npoMeHMTM KYpC, a sa TaJ naorraxn KYPC, peqe rta je OHa HCKJbyqHBH KpHBaQ. ITpH3Hap;e p;a joj je cynpyr nasao rOTOBO MCTecaaere xoje je qYlIa ot; MeHe, p;a cy ce p;aHHMa CBa~aJIM OKOBaCnararsa nerera, na ra je rypaJIa on ce6e, p;a ra je HCTepaJIa H3 csor xpesere. qMM ce a BpaTHJIa H3 nopomonrurra, na je 6axaTo saxreaazra na ce My)K HenpeCTaHO 3a6aBlb
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CTeBaH je rrpOCnaBHO .n;pyrH . . MaTeplbH )e3HK. Cana aacryna rroponnuy. nonacxa raparsea, rrymr. CBH Mopajy y IlIKony,

3Halba xoje nocerryjy

Mna.n;H pop;HTeJbH, CTeBaH je nanac .n;OBe.n;eH y CBOj HarOH rr03HTHBHe 60p6eHocTH H

J1
pohennan,
rrpHnHqHO .n;anere, qBPCTO xona rexcax, H COnH.n;HO je CaBn a~aO rrepHO.n; aa ue

J10~ep; KOjOj je Mopao H360pH

.n;ayrrorpeox

,J4Tyau:);/ce anH cnanax

3a ce6e. AOK je MajKa maCHO rrpa-rana

ca ~OMIlIHHHU;OM,

na aanasrre

H3Me~y .n;pyre H xernpre napoxaro

rra CB aa

ny e ~O

ttot<yl11 . HO norpetiy na nojaxa TB KaKO 6H 3ap;OBOJbHOCBO) HarOH aa yqeCTeBaH )e ocer op;rnep;ao u;pnh. Jf>eM~ . 6 ur j aCHO IlITa .n;Borop;HllIlbH CTeBaH pap;H npen TB, aKO CMOce norohe romme nere Tpe6a na yqH y peanHoM caery. Y1naK rrpHXBaTH~tn~ na no Tpe M 6 ) BOP. YCT YKonHKO) e TO caste noaexan H aKO )e cap;p)Ka) esaanen. t.. OBa) rrporr , lly . . 6una 6yp;Ha HH)e o-nrrana CTeBaHoBY norpeoy p;a yqH y rrOBOJbHHM Ma)Ka H~)e , . . npoTYMaqHna rserose norpefie H exouaje H CTeBaH)e pearoBao ca: cnoB~Ma, HH)e . h h Y t..YTHTe'" Majxa HH)e orrpocrana CTeBaHY, yep, IlITa e pe H KOMIlIHHH6yp;ane,1l . " . TB yrrapHna ra H H36aU;Hna H3 cofie. MO)Kp;a CTeBaH amne nxxana Yrac~ma)e ,M t.. rrOHOBHTH OBaKBO caoje noaamaise rrpep; p;pyrHMa, arm HHKap;a nehe CXBaHelle he i 6 B THTH urra My je MajKa H 3allITO TO ypap;Hna. CaMO e jenno HTH )aCHO H aMa H

HMa CHa)KHO H3pa)KeH HarOH aa yxerse,

11M11_

(H~)e

M~

aa caaaaaarsesr.

CTeBaHOB yM je OTBopeH, 3aTO naarrre HCKpHBHTe. Haxcazrocr,

qHMe ra

He .n;03BonHTe na Ty H3BOPHY nenory noponxue H yrnaBHoM nexonrponacano

~eTe caBpeMeHO

nere, nere nmnuaae cexcy, peKnaMaMa

rryHH yM HaCHJbeM, HaC11JbeM y 3allITo? Y3 HerrpeCTaHy 11aep.

6e3Bpe.n;HHM canpzcajioaa. ycnoarsasarsa,

ynorperiy
6anH3Ma,

6nare

rrpHHy.n;e, rr03UTHBHor

rrpe3allITHhHBalba

sa casco nse ronnne aa naaeneae

)KHBOTa CTBopHnH CMO ycnose nOCTaO je arpecasan,

na CTeBaH rrOCTanosrano rroxnenaH

ua-

He rrpHjeMqHB noxaayje y3pacTy

canpxaje,

3HaKe nersocrn He rrpHBnaqe

H xenon

3Ma, rrosrano nazce. ,lJ;OBOJbHo.n;ara rnena y expan,

seh

y OBOM xana-

KlbH)KHu;e, panaje

.n;ace, rrpeaphyhn

. HaqHlbeH) e xopax KOjH ra y.n;aJbaBa on ysersa, nanopnor narona ~eMy. . . nOIliTOBalba H caMorrOIliTOBalba, on xapnoaaje H Bac. Majxa je ynpxoc

sa yqelbeM, cBeMY pea-

ne, rrenorpeumso KOjH cnaxe

3aYCTaBJba aa canpzcajaaa

xoje npenosaaje

H y ceria, canpzcaja

rserosoj,

seh

ynpzsaaoj

.n;YllIHU;H. CBe My je .n;ocTyrrHO. OH je rocnoxana ce yM 3aTBOPH, OKO

rosana H3 ayTopHTapHe CBeCTH. CTBapanaqKH npnnaa nerery cnaja nere H pOp;HTeJba H 3aTO qHM CMOnpHMeTHnH na je CTeBaH rrojasao TOH, rrpeKHp;aMo nanan rmne HeraTHBHOCTH, TaKO IlITO 3aMOH.n;a OMoryhHMo CTeBaHY p;a nere He

.n;ap.n;aJbHHCKOr,a .n;aJbHHCKHOTBapa rraH.n;opHHy xyrxjy. ce.n;Meromme, peTHnH iseros

CTeBaHOBHM )KHBOTOM he .n;HpHroBaTH MaTepHjan KOjHM CMOorrreHeBHHH, .n;eqHjH YM. Mopa.n;a sna na CTeBaH y OBOM nepaony caor paasoja HMa jaxo

nHMO KOMIlIHHHU;y na pa3roBapaMo p;a onrnena

y rprreaapnja

nprah,

KOjH CTe My BH 0p;a6panH BHpTyenHe

jep CTe H p;aJbe y6e~eHH

Ilena

nopomma

MO)Kep;a xexa P;O Tpehe romiae Y nepnorry C06HOCT onnaraisa casnanano aopae norpetia. nonautatsa.

canpzcaje. nere pearyje nere pearyje 6ypHO, jep He~a cn~HeKynTypHo, yep HH)e

H3pa)l(eH HarOH rr03HTHBHe 60p6eHOCTH CTaHe na rryT y caxocnoaaaja rr03HTHBHe reannje, 60p6eHOCTH rseronax

KOjH he HCrrOJbHTH YBeK xana My HeKO H3BOPHHX narona.

M3Me~y p;pyre H xerapre

ronane

Osaj

H3BOPHH HarOH

Y OBOM nepnony

HHje HHIlITa .n;pyro Hero 06nHK eMOU;HoHanHe HHTem1-

Kana

KOMIlIHHHu;a one, rroHy.n;HheMo

CTeBaHY na

KOjOM .n;eTe y CBaKOM MOMeHTY, 3.n;paBOM H3BOPHOM eMoU;HjoM 6paHW TaKO Mano nere nocraae )KpTBa CBHX ner llJIHllIaHHX osaj rrpene-

6yp;e nytimrxa,
"MonHM

a MH heMo 6HTH myMU;H. CTeBaH he BHp;eTH csoje HeraTHBHO nona-

ce6e. YKonHKo

walbe H o.n;Max he My ce

nouymrra
6HTH.

rr03HTHBHO peureise.

,lJ;OBOJbHO je H3rOBopHTH:

rrH HarOH ce rpaactpopsonue CMellIHH

y CBOj HaKa3HH 06nHK, y arpecxjy

HnH aYToarpecHjy. HOBH CBeT, CBeT

sac, H3BHHHTe, He qyjeM

uprah,

p;a nH 6HCTe MornH Mano THllIe p;a pa3-

cy MH 3arOBopHHU;H .n;eqHjHx rrpaBa KOjH nporrarnpajy Kojer nerera,

rOBapaTe ...". Y1 cyxofia

nehe

no MepH nerera.

rrHTaM. ,lJ;eTeTa, HHHI,Ie KOplbaqe, .n;eTen rroKHMOjyaaxa, a HeMa nerera na 6enoM CBeTY KojH HHje

KynTYPHe HopMe noaauraisa 6yp;eTe nH CHCTeMaTCKH y6HjanH

CTeBaH he nonaxo, iseros nparonen

amr

cnrypno

caananarn,

anH

na, HnH 6Hno xojer )KpTBa anpryennor

BHpTyenHor HaCHJba.

HarOH rr03HTHBHe 60p6eHocTH norpetie, HMaheTe CBe,

HaCTojehH na nere 6P30" llIaMapHMa na CTeBaH, y OBOM nepnony H 3aTO My sazsa ojaoryhara caora pa3Boja, IJ,eTeKoje he no-rern na 11rne.n;albe na Mp3H yxcn.e,

HayqH p;a onnaace csoje

Iloponxua
lbe rrorpetia Ha

He CMe na 3a60paBH onrraraisa rrorpetia

Bac H ce6e. He 3a60paBHTe

p;a je yqelbe

HeMa crroc06HOCT

6p30 OCTBape-

KaKO 6H C~ H36erao

cYK06. )KpTBa csera peqeHOr, po.n;HTeJbH cy na rrYTY

upraha. Osa] npanuan here

rrpHMeHHTH

y CBHM caryauajasra ronane

y )KHBOTY CTeBaHa, y

cpehy

CTeBaH jour HHje nocrao

nep110lJ,y H3Me~y iserose Be MO)Ke .n;acaxexa

p;pyre H xerapre

)KHBOTa. CTeBaH je omap;Heo. pyqaK. Ee3 cyxotia, Bep6anH-

ynacxa y CTBapanaqKO sacnaraa,e, OBHX pO~HTeJba 6HTH nparoneao

rryTy aa KojeM ce rrpBe rpeunce, rra he HCKYCTBO H .n;pyrHM pomrrezsroaa.

BallIHX nona can

na sanpunrre HnH

3Ma, rroHy.n;HTe nerery

HCeqeHO, CBe)Ke rrosphe

sohe, Inan

he 6HTH YTHllIaHa,

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a nere he rrocne nona cara 6HTH rrOHOBOcrrpeMHO sa Ball pvqaK YKOllHKOere r rroHyp;HllH 'IHrrC, xoxoaany, rpHcHHe, HarrpaBHllH CTe nne rpeunce . H e3p;paBo ~y xpaaare. a H rrpHrrpeMHllH CTe TepeH aa cYK06, jep CTeBaH aehe Mon ra .' H na norlie jeno, a KaMOlIH p;a ra rrojene nocne BHCOKOKalIOpH'IHHX KOHTTHTOPC KHXrrpOH3 Aa p;a. Iloaynare CBe)Ke Bone, nosphe H cYK06a nesca. BO>

JACMI1HA 11 BJlA)J;A

KAllA
Kana HMa TpH ronnae. Ilocne BHllIe'laCOBHe Hrpe y P;BOpHllITy ynehe y Kyh Y H 6 axacc 6 TO "P;pCKO,. es rr03p;paBa, 3aXTeBa on MajKe p;a joj p;a rrOKlIOH KO)'H)'0)' )e . P;OHelia KyMa, a KO)y OHa He )KelIH HH p;a rr03,lpaBH. ~ajKa rrpep;lIa)Ke p;eTeTY na ylje y xyhy, rr03p;paBH rourhy a rrOTOMhe p;a P;06Hje CBO).rrOKlIOH. Kana He onycraje on csoje aasrepe. JIyrra BpaTHMa, yp;apa rro HaMellITa)~, BpHllITH, rrlla'le,. rrcyje. Majxa He rronnoca "BacrrHTHH rropas", fuy He HHTepecy)y 'IHlbeHI1u;e na )e nere MO)Kp;a rrpeMopeHO, p;a je narosopeao na nonece rrOKlIOHy P;BopHllITe H KO3Ha urra jour. Majxa He )KelIH na O'lHTaBa iseae norpetie, HlIH eBeHTyalIHe xapose. Kpaj nprrse je ClIH'IaH xao y MHorHM p;oMoBHMa. BHKa, ~p;apU;H, cyse, HaCHlIHO csna-rerse nerera H yrepxaaise y xyhy, Kaha nehe 6HTH )aCHO llIT~ joj MajKa pana H urra joj ce rreurasa. Jep;HO je jacao, - xapxoaaja MajKe H p;eTeTa)e aapyurena. Crsapanasxa peurersa YBeK nocroje. J1 rropep; rora llITO je MajKa nonymora nerery na aeurro nojene, p;a ce OP;MOPH,Kana H narse ocraje arpecasna. Ynopao xohee CBO)rroxnoa. csoi Y rrHTalbY je 6ec, llITO He MO)KelIaKO p;a OCTBapH )KelbY, p;a yp;oBOlbH p;eU;HH3 nnopaurra. Majxa je rrpeKHHylIa nanau HeraTHBHOCTH, TaKO lIITOje OP;lI)"{HO OTBOpHlIa BpaTa H 3aMOlIHlIa Kahy na H3Hlje H3 cofie H BpaTH ce y Hrpy 6e3 rrOKlIOHa. Hnje 6HllO HH T)"{e HH yBpep;a, re ce KanHH 6ec aMopTH30Bao. IlOClIe, oTrrpHllHKe jenaor cara, Kana ce BpaTHlIa H3 Hrpe. Majxa He crrOMHthe . nere HaxpalbeHO, " HHU;H near ". "T' rex nourro )e nourro ce OP;MOPHlIO,MajKa - myMenH Kahy, CYO'laBa nere ca lbeHHM PY)KHHM noaaurarsesc. Y6p30 joj naje rr03HTJ.1BHO peuterse, na xoje ce Kana 3ap;OBOlbHO CMeWH. DHO je nosozsaa jep;aH KYlITypaH nosnpas, jemro "MOll11'M",jenao .xsana" H )KHBOT rexe nazse. TOllJ.1KOje MallO norpetino 3a cpehy lbYP;H, a TO MallO ce ocraapyje HOBHM'IOBe'lHJ.1M BacrrHTatheM, aacnararsea y KOMe p;pecypa He nocroja. Kana arnue HHKap; nehe rrOHOBHTH OBY PY)KHY cueay, a y3 TO HMane CBeCT 0 a TOMe na xyzrrypae aopsre nonaurarsa HHCY rnyrrocr H He'lHjH Xl1p Ben rroTpe6
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JaCMI.fHaje H3Y3eTHo MpllIaBa, rOTOBO HeyxpalbeHa p;eBeTorop;HllIlba p;eBoj'lHu;a. Hap; thOM MajKa BpllIH BplIO CHa)f(HYnpnnyny rOTOBOy CBeMY,a HapO'lHTO y HcxpafleTe p;a)'e ornop CBeMY,a xana je xpaaa y nararsy CHalIa3H ce aa CBOj nerarnflJ.11-\ Bafl fla'lHH. AelIH xpaHy ca Ma'lKOM, 6au;a xpaHy rrpeKO Tepace, spaha y ureprry H CJlJ.1'1HO. Kana 6yp;e YXBaneHa p;0611je 6aTHHe H MopalIHe rrpHp;HKe. Kana MajKa BHp,lt na HJ.1 6anma He rrOMa)Ke, rana npenaaa na U;I1BHlIH30BaHHje Mop,elIe H TO caMO H3 CTpaxa na joj nere "He yMpe"op; rnana. Tana npxcraje na JaCMHHHHy yu;eHy: "AKO MJ.1ClIl1l1I p;a TJ1 neurro nojenest yKlb)"{11 Ml1 na HCTOBpeMeHO rnep;aM nprahe"! Mnah CHH, cep;Morop;HllIlbH nperojenx Bnana MaMHH "lby6HMau;" y'lH na rpellIKaMa csoje cecrpe. Y'IH Bnana H3 Bep6alIH3Ma csoje MajKe. 3Ha urra npaja, a nrra He npaja MajU;l1. C naxohosr he ClIHCTHTHCBe H3 raisapa p;a 6H 3ap;06HO Maj'IHHy noxaany, "lby6aB", He)KHOCT,narpany. Csaxor nana HCTHrrp061IeMH. JaCMI1Hy rpetia nareparn p;a [ene, p,a ),,{H, p;a neurro ypap;H y xyha, a H p;a ce yrnena na Bnany, Y3HeMHpaBa MajKy 11'IHlbeHHu;a p;a je Bnana netien.yua KOjH je rrOCTaO nonCMex neue, CBOjHx p;pyroBa. Majxa oceha HeMHp H 360r 'IHlbeHHu;e p;a ce 6paT H cecrpa nenpecrano ryxy, He 3Hajynl1 p;a je OHa ja6YKa pasnopa. Majxa je op;ll)"{HlIa p;a yhe y crsapanaxxo sacrncraise. Bpexe je p)"{Ky. Majxa CMHpeHO mrra p;eu;y p;a lIH p;a rrOCTaBH rarsape J.1sa lbHX. JaCMHHa he ce H3HeHap,I1TH,jep je MajKa npsa rrYT He npncnzsaaa p;a p)"{a, a Bnana, H3jelIJ.1u;a, Ben 3aBI1CTaHon xpaHe, npwrpsaaa CTOlIY.CBe'laHO je 06jaBl1lIa p;a je ca U;pTanHMa, y BpeMe pyxxa, on nauac, aaspureno. Hexa ce CBe onsaja rrpHpop;HO, crrOHTaHO y P;06pOM pacnoncosen-y. JaCMI1HH, xoja Hl1je rrpl111IlIa CTOlIY,here P;03BOlII1THna 3aTpa)KH pY'laK xan 6yp;e 6HlIa rnanHa, ys jacno yrr030pelbe,p;a ClIaTKl1l1IeHe MO)Kep,06HTH y 3aMeHY sa pY'laK r Kana ce arsrocrpepa y rrOpOp;I1U;Hrr03HTHBHO eMOU;l10HalIHO 060jM, MajKa he Ael.\HHCKpeHO peha rp;e je H KaKO npanana rpeunce y sacmrratsy, 06jacHHne p;eU;H nory6HOCT rrpHHyp,e H YCllOBlbaBalba y CBeMY,a HapO'lHTO y I1CXpaHH. 3a nere, OP;HOCHOJaCMI1Hy xoja HMa ornop rrpesia xpana, MajKa he CMHllIlbaTJ.1 Ayropo'lHe rr03HTHBHe axuaje, KaKO 6H ce peBHTallH30Bao H3BOPHH HarOH aa xpaHOM.JaCMHHHhe 6HTH nosaozseuo na rrpaBJ.1jelloBHHK sa Cllep;enl1 nair, rrollITyjynJ.1
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HapaBHO csoje norpetie sa onpeheaov BPCTOMxpaae. AKo )KenJ1, nOMarahe y lbJ1 J1CnJ1qHO. I<YXl1_ )J;e6enor Bnany he MajKa YBOP;J1TJ1 y rajae 3p;paBe J1CXpaHe, ya 06jaWlbe . . lbe P;a HJ1Kap;a BJ1UIeHe jene MaMJ13a Jby6aB, seh p;a cnYllla cBoJe reno xoje 3Ha WTa )!(elIl1 xana J1 KOnJ1KO.Kana Bnana 6yp;e casaao 0 peanHJ1M onaCHOCTJ1Ma KOJ' e no ' HOCl1 nperepana Te)KJ1Ha, a CypOBOCT CBOjJ1Xnpyrosa je seh OCeTJ10 aa CBOjOj KO)!(l1 caM he nOqeTJ1 p;a 3aY3J1Ma n03J1TJ1BaH CTaB npeaa J1CXpaHJ1. Pano he Be"'6 ' '" anI Y ronnoj rroponaxaoj aTMOC<pePJ1,YBeK y3 My3J1Ky. Pano he aa repeaxerv nJ1KaTl1 norrry ca TaTOM seceno nnJ1BaTJ1 J.1nJ1nparx xona, Bparnhe XapMOHJ1jy J13BOPHOM 6J10nOUIKOM narony J.1CXpaHe J1renecne aKTJ1BHOCTJ1. Ilp06neMJ1 he ce nospeveno jaBJbaTJ1. Majxa he, no J1Hep~J1jJ1, ynanaru y cTape 06nJ1Ke nonamarsa, anJ.1 He rpetia 6PJ1HYTJ1. CaMO ce narsa CeTJ1TJ1caoje op;nyKe p;a )KenJ1 snpaso nOTOMCTBO. Bp30 he npotinexe npeBa3J1na3J1TJ1. Ileua he TO 3Han-I p;a neue. HOBO snaa,e he yrpahasara y ce6e J1CBOjy neuy, BJ1he TO najseha KamITan KOjJ1he neua nOHeTJ1 y CBOj )KJ1BOTJ1 jenner p;aHa cnOHTaHO npeHOCJ1TJ1 aa CBOjy nopop;J.1~y.

floTnyHO CMJ1peHa, npennoaorna je Hesraisa na C!Tpa one 6e3 AOMaher y UIKOny, JI~ p;a ce yjYTPY paanje np06yp;J1 J1ypap;J1 caM CBOJY06aBe3Y Cana nexa onrnena Ji 'y oMJ1JbeHY TB cepajy J16e3 ocehaisa KpJ1BJ1u;eone na cnaaaise. 'JJO~eMalba ce 3aqyp;J10 J1 nOUITO HJ1Kap;a HJ.1jeJ1UIaO 6e3 p;oMaher y uncony, nna. vurao na npJ1cJ1nJ.1 MajKy na J1 aexepac MyqJ1 VI: ce6e J1 lbera, Hapep;Ha qeM Je nOK,aJ'Ka je op;nyqJ1na p;a My aexepac J13V1:lje y cycpeT, Jep Je 6J1na CJ1rypHa Ba caTa. M . p; Vl:HVl:TVI: CMVl:peHOVI: 6e3 cYK06a. Taxo Je J16J1no. Bp30 VI: e<pJ1KaCHOAOMaaneToyq . p;. hea VI: Heaaisa J'e MJ1PHO OTVl:UIaO na cnasaise qyp;ehJ1 ce MaJqJ1HOM neon~Je ypa') 6~1.JHOMnOHaUIalbY . . . CYTpaAaH, no nOBpaTKY Vl:3 uixone, a MaJKe ca nocna, MajKa Je J13nO)!(Vl:na HeMalbJ1 KOJ'eMhe nere 6J.1TJ1YBeAeHo Y caxooepasoaarse, y3 Many nosroh POAVI:TIJlaH,no TeJU Vl:JlVI: CTpyqI-baKa. Hexa ce He nJlaUIJ1 UITOhe peaynrarn y nOqeTKY 6V1:TJ1 cna6HjH, jep npBVI:rryr he TO 6J.1TVI: CTBapHO I-berOBJ1sanaua J.1I-berOBJ1pe3ynTaTVI:. AKO Tpe6a, J1aKO Hesrarsa )KeJlVl:,MajKa he peha J1CTVl:HY yqJ1TeJbJ1~J1, a OHa he cnrypM

HOHarpaAVl:TVI: npae necnrypae Majxa je xpa6po npnaaana

xopaxe caMoyqeI-ba. p;a je rOp;J.1HaMa npaBVl:na rpeUIKy VI: crnopxna

on

HEMAlbA
Majxa je nanac Bpno KaCHOnouma ca nocna, YMopHa J1HepB03Ha casnaje p;a Hesraisa, jenaaaecroronaurrsa nexax, HJ1je HJ1raxao KlbJ1re, HJ1TJ1ypap;J10 p;oMahJ1 sanaTaK aa cyTpa. J.1aKo je OHa KpJ1Ba~ sa CTBapalbe Manor napa3J1Ta, noxena je na BJ1qe J1 speha nere, orrryzcyje oua UITO He BOAJ16pJ1ry 0 nerery J1CnJ1qHO. Ibea 6ec yBehasa caaaaise UITO he 360r yqelba ca p;eTeTOM BeqepaC nporrycrxra OMJ1JbeHYTB cepnjy. )J;eTe je raxohe YMOPHO, yrrzraureao. Ilo-nnse "yqelbe". E<peKTJ1 yqelba cy BeOMa cna6J1. 3a cBaKY "HaMepHy" rpeuncy MajKa nOHJ1)KaBa nere, xyrra ra 3a KOCY J1YUIJ1. Ilere Tpa)KJ1 naY3Y, J.1p;e p;a naje none, TpqJ1 y KynaTJ1nO, -raxxa HOC,nOTnyHO je Op;CYTaH. CBe ce 3aBpUIJ1nO xao J1MHoro nyTa pamrje. Majxa ypap;J1 p;eTeTY sanarax, orepa ra y KpeBeT, a csahy HaCTaBJ1 ca MY)KeM. Majxa je YMopHa jep rOp;J1HaMa npesaurrahyje Heaaisy, paAJ1 ysrecro lbera AOMahJ1 J1nJ1 CaTJ1Ma cena Ropep; lbera, P;OK ce OH pa3BnaqJ1, onrraxce yqelbe. Pe3ynTaTJ1 HJ1CYTaKO nOUIJ1. CTJ1rHY OHJ1P;O aexe qeTBOpKe J1nJ1 aexe 3ajeAHJ1qKe neTJ1~e, ana MajKa CXBaTa y UITa ce HeM alba npeTBapa. Onny-rana je na ylje y CTBapana1.J. a KO, npoy-nora je iserone npJ1H~J1ne J1 xana ce npehaunsa cueaa nOHOBJ1JIa, MaJl< je na CBOj HaqJ1H npeKJ1Hyna nanau HeraTJ1BHOCTJ1.
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HeMaI-be napasara, nere xoje ne BOnVl: yqeI-be. [enanaecr rOp;J.1Haje HeKO ApyrJ1 6J10 oAroBopaH sa HeMaI-bJ1He 06aBe3e J.1ycnexe. Majxa je CXBaTVl:nana Vl:Ma jOUI y3pOxa 360r KOjJ.1X I-beHOnere He BOnVl:HJ.1uncony, HVI: yqeI-be. Heaaisa je CTaBJbeH ripen eKpaH Bpno paHO. YCKOpOje expaa n06eAJ10 KI-bVl:ry VI: Hesrarsa je cavo ryrao rOTOBe TB canpzcaje. Iberos M03aK ce YJleI-bJ1o J1 xana je nere nourno y UIKOJlYnocneAJ1~e cy nocrane BJ.1p;He.Hewaisa HVl:jenOp;HOCJ10yl,I6eHJ.1Kejep Y I-bJ1MaHJ1je 6J1J10 noxperne CnJ1Ke,3ByKa. CBe je TO HeMaI-bVl:6V1:JlO "CMOpHO". OCJ1Mrora neI-bH M03aK HJ1je Morao p;a npeTBapa cnosa, peqeHJ1~e y cnnxe, na noseayje pexeaaue y CMJ1caOHe uenaae, BJ10 je TO noxerax MyKa sa nere, ana J1aa MajKy VI: HaCTaBHJ1Ke. Kana je MajKa op;nyqJ.1na na ynene nopornnry y crnapanaxxo sacnararse, 6J1na je cpeTHa UITOHenarsa HJ1je Vl:MaO J1 seha npocnex. Iloacanana joj ce npJ1jaTeJbJ1ua KaKOI-beH CTapJ.1jJ.1 CJ1HHJ1je xreo rOAJ1HaMa caxr na yqJ1. Kana ce xaura npenana OABelIara je crpy-nsaxy xoja je spno 6p30 YCTaHOBJ10na CJ1HJ1Ma )J;J.1CJ1EKCJ.1JY (nopeMehaj y qJ1TaI-bY). Ko 3Ha UITa je p;yrorOAJ1UII-be cenerse npen expaxox yqJ1HVI:1I0 lbeHOM CJ.1Hy. Moxcrta.cy ce oneI-bJ1nJ.1n;eHTpJ1 KOjJ1nOMa)KY na QJ1TaMOJ16nVl:3Y l1 ita p;aJbJ1Hy. Pa3MaK OA expana je rOTOBO J1CTJ1,rOAJ1HaMa. Kana ce npeumo na CIIOBaM03aK HJ1je saao UITa ca CnOBJ1Ma.Majka je 6J1na cpehna UITOje Hevarsa caMO lIelb J1HeMa Jby6aBJ1 npeMa KlbJ13J1.Onrrysrana je na 0p;6a~J1 nnJ1UIaHO BaCnJ1Talbe. Op;rOBopHOCT npe6an;yje aa Hesran-y. POp;J1TeJbJ1cy npep;nO)KVl:nJ1nerery na, no nOBpaTKY J.13uncone, caMOCTanHO pap;J1 csoje sanarxe, a p;a HeypaljeHo OCTaBJ1 J1 1'0 caMo OHO UITO J1CTJ1HCKJ1 HJ1je pasyraeo. CBe 06aBe3e ce Mory pap;J1TJ1 casso P;O
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17q, nocne xera he ra nponwrar, rrpeme,n;aTH ,n;oMahe, ,n;aTHpeallHy oll;eHY, npe _ 1I0)KHTHMy ,n;aaa Hape,n;HH car snaise norryax, aKO )KellH. A YKOllHKOrrpe,n;lIor 6y,n;e 0,n;6HjeH, aexa He oxexyje HH Ka3HY, HH Harpa,n;y. Mopa_ he y IlIKOllY6e3 sanarxa, a nocnenaue Hepa,n;a cnocahe caM. Hapasno, HeMalha . )e H cyTpa noxexao po,n;HTeJbe 6es sanarxa. Bpeae je norpoureno, He,n;OBOJbHa . Ma)qHHa ouena nara, roptia aaxzsysaaa. YMecTo rrpeKopa, xaxosaaaisa, rrpe3aUIl"I1_ haaarsa, MajKa je seceno npennoaoora HeMalbH,n;a nohy y urerisy, Majxa je OCTalla nocnenna ce6H H HHje nosaonana na je Hesiatsa HaroBopH ,n;asajenao pane ,n;OMaha, na yqe cxyna, ,n;aMaMa rrmne cacraa, CXBaTHBIlIH 036HJbHOCT MajqHHe nasrepe, nere he MO)K,n;a je,n;HoM HlIH nsa rryTa OTHhH 6e3 nosraher sanarxa, IlITO je MalIa aeponarnoha. YCKOpOhe caCBHM onro, BOPHO nosern na pa,n;H caMOCTallHO, Y)KHBajyhH y noxrahoj aTl\lOCepH, 6e3 6YKe H BHKe, cpehaa IlITO y CBaKOMMOM'HTy MO)Ke,n;a3aTpa)KH o,n;ponxrezsa 06jauIlbelbe onora IlITO He pa3yMe. Majxa je ca Y)KHBalbeM rrpaTHlIa ocaxocrarsaaarse H npahaise nerera ce6H 11 CBOMH3BOPHOM HarOHY yqelba. Kana je YBH,n;ellalIYKaBOCTnerera, jep je TBp,n;HlIO na He 3Ha sanarax, a y CTBapH HHje rra)KJbI1BOqHTallO TeKCT, MajKa 611ra savomora na jour je,n;HOMmaCHO npoxara TeKCT H Cl1ryPHO he caxr naha pellielbe. Osaj Malm Harrop BpaTHO je Hevarsa casrorroysnaise, jep je rrpOHalliao pellielbe. Ilere HHje BHIlIe oxexaaano Harpa,n;y aa CBaKY ,n;06HjeHy nermry, xao no ca,n;a. 3a isera je aajseha Harpa,n;a 6HlIa O,n;CYCTBO Ka3He H nonapeaa cnotiona na onnyxyje xana, KOllHKOH IlITa he yqHTH. Hapasao na je MajKa rrOTrrYHOcsecaa na je rseroBO nocanaunse suarsenospumo H 3aTO je aa HH,n;HpeKTaH Haql1H sonana nere y HOBa saatsa. CBe IlITO My je Hy,n;HlIa H 3aIlITa ra je MOTHBHcalla je 6HlIO HeBe3aHO aa IlIKOllCKOrpa,n;HBO. Ca 3a,n;OBOJbCTBOM cy Heraarsa H MajKa rrpenacrasana enuaxnonenaje, lIHTepaTYPY 0 KOMrrjYTepHMa, 0,n;lIa3HlIHy n030pHIlITe, 6HOCKon, My3eje. Ilpexo BJ1KeH,n;a je uena rropo,n;Hll;a rrocehaaana 0611H)Klba 3HaMeHHTa MeCTa. Ca panourhy cy 0,n;a6HpallH rr03HTHBHe eMHcHje na TB, 3aje,n;HHqKH rnenana, OTBapalIH KopHCHe cajrose, a nOTOM KOMeHTapHcallH. OBaKaB rrpHHll;Hrr pa,n;a y rroponanx cy rrpHMeHHlIH H na HeMalbHHe 06aBe3e Y MY3HqKOj IlIKOllH, aa KypCy earnecxor jesxxa H TpeHHHr xaparea. To je 6HlIO caMO lberOBO. Morao je ,n;arrOTpa)KH nosroh H HHKa,n;He 6H 6HO 0,n;6HjeH. PO,n;HTelbHcy H ,n;aJbe MOTHBHcallH Henarsy aa 6pojHe aKTHBHOCTH. Ienae He,n;eJbe cy HanpaBl1l1 lIH MallY safiany sa ,n;pfroBe, na KOjOj ce rOBopHlIO casto enrnecxa. EHO je TO Hoa BH,n;MOTHBall;Hje aa yqelbe CTpaHor jeanxa. Pe3YllTaTH HHCYH30CTallH. Beh nocne nozra ronaae OBaKBe capa,n;lbe pe3YllTaTH cy 6HlIH BHIlIe Hero p;06pl1 Hesrarsa je 6HO CBe BHIlIe MOTHBHcaH sa IlIKOllCKe H BaHIlIKOllCKe aKTHaHOCTH l1 allO IlITO je najaazcrraje, C Jby6aBlby je yqecTBoBao y aKTHBHOCTHMa xoje je aalb
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'KTl1Y KyhH. Majxa je yrropHo, CBaKe BeqepH, npaanna rnotianan nnaa pa,n;a . t.'K Y isera pe,n;oBHe IlIKOllCKe06aBe3e, HeM alba ce rrpHKJbyqHBaO CBO)HM eyBOceun II lIaHOM. CBH cy Y)KHBallH y xapMoHHjH HOBHXonnoca y rroponxux. rd}{Bl1 IT

Ml1lIJ1Qa J1Mace,n;aM ronnaa H npHna,n;a nOpO~HQH K~ja je .CXBaTJ1l1aCyIlITHHy sacnl1Taaalba 6e3 Ka3He H narpane. Ha)KallOCT, )e,n;HHo )e Ma)Ka rrpHCTalla na y rrpaKCJ1npHMeHJ1 OBO aaarse. Cynpyr, CBeKpBa H caexap je He nonpzcaaajy. Jlose je y r ellIKaMa J1 ocyljyjy nOqeTHO necnanazceise isenor nerera H lbe y HOBOMCTHlIY :J1Blbelba. MHlIHQa je CXBaTHlIa MajqHHY onnyxy H BeOMa joj je saxsanna. 3Ha,n;a je npJ1Hy,n;e xojy cy CBJ1y noponann BPUlJ1CHcalbe npcra nocnenaua nyroronxunse JIJ1Hap; lbOM. Kana je MJ1l1J1Qa caaa ca MaMOM OHa He CTaBJba npCT y yCTa jep 3Ha p;a cy nocnennue rora HeraTHBHe aa lby. 3y6H cy joj H OHaKO nonepeaa, 3apa3e cy spzto xecre H MJ1l1HQa He )KellH p;a yaehasa csoje np0611eMe. HeIlITO, naxsrnen aeoojannsano, ce neurasa xana ce MHlIJ1Qa nahe y npHCYcrsy xnaaoaa noponaue xoja He nonpacasajy Hamy rrposreay nonaurarsa MajKe. qy,n;HO HM je ,n;a MajKa He yp;apa Mxnauy no npcraaa, na je He speha, na joj He crasrsa aohy JbyTy nanpaxy na rrpcr, p;a joj He nasna-or orlITPY pyKaBHQY YMeeTO OKPYTHHXMeTop;a MajKa je y TpeHYQHMa KpH3e Malle MHlIHQe 6HlIa H3Y3eTHO He)KHanpeMa iso]. Crasrsana 6H je y KPHlIO, pa3rOBapalla ca lbOM, rrpaxana npaxe i1JII1je jenaocrasno ysomora y pap; H Hrpy. Kana 6H norpefia sa CHcalbeM npcra nOCTalla BeOMa CHa)KHa MajKa 6H rosopana MHlIHQH p;a clI060P;HO, 6e3 ocehaisa KPI1BI1ll;e,yqHHH TO IlITO joj npaja. 3Halla je MajKa na he O,n;CYCTBO rrpHHyp;e speMeHOMpeIlIHTH KopeH npofinena. MHlIHll;a je saana aa OTrrop KOjHcy nanana CBI1OCTallH qllaHOBJ1 nopomrue npoMeHaMa, xoje je MaTH ysonana. Haje Morna p;a OP;OllH,p;a HX He H3a3HBa CHcalbeM npCTa. Iloncrnuana je lbHXOBY HeraTHBHOCT, lbHXOB 6ec HaKO je snana p;a he ce KOllacnOMHTH na isoj. Orau je BHKao, nOHH)KaBaO MHlIHQY, yp;apao je no npCTJ1Ma, a MajKa je y THM TpeHYQHMa narxna. CBaKe nexepa, xana 6H ce uena noponnua HaWlIa aa oxyrry, MHnHQa 6H noaasrsana cueny, MajKa je op;nyqHna,n;a npeKHHe nanau HeraTHBHOCTH. Otiaaecrnna je MHlIJ1U;y Aa joj uehe ,n;03BonHTH ,n;aH3a3HBa HeraTHBHOCT CBHXxnanona nopomnre H ,n;ahe jo], Ka,n;anpax rryT rrOHOBH caoje noaaurarse, ,n;aTHno saarsa na Mopa ,n;aaarrycrx C06y. Hajtiorse 6H 6HlIO na one y CBOjy cotiy H aKO )KellH na crasn-a y yCTa CBHXnecer
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npcrnjy, MO)l(e TO na y'U1HH. Bnhe TO lbeHa onnyxa, amr H onroaopnoc-, MajI<a . 6J1llIa nocnenaa H HCTe Bel.JepH je goroBop crrposena y neno. je EHlIO je gOBOlbHO na ce MHlIHQa aahe casro HeKOlIHKO rryTa casra y c06 Aa CXBaTH na je iseno H3a3HBalbe TaTe, 6a6e H AeAe 6HlIa aenourreua Hrpa I<11 .11 BHllle HHje rrOHOBHlIa. Pa3YMelIa je MHlIHQa na ce oApaclIH TelllKO MelbaJ'y M .oJY . aJ411 je OCTalIO na 6e3yclIOBHO xexa na MHlIHQa rroTrrYHo H3ry6H 3aBHcHOCT on . 3' ~ OBe nenpzjarne paAlbe. Halla Je na ne ce lbeHO xexatse nponyxorra jep H Kaga Ce hYTalIO aYTopHTapHO nacmrraise je crajano y Ba3AYxy. OApaClIH HHCY oily CTajanx OA CBOjHX3aCTapelIHx H rrorytinax rrpanuxna sacnaran,a. Pe3YlITaTt1 HrraI< HHCYH30cTalIH, jep lby6aB MajKe H nerera nexe cse, rra H cacarse npcra. MaMa 11 MJIllIJIlQa crpnzsxao xexajy Aa ce JIlOCTalIJIll.JlIaHOBJIlnopomrue rrpJllApY)l(e OBOM rrlIeMeHJIlTOM BacrrJllTalbY.
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najy HelllTO na TB. JeAaH OA Hal.JHHa na CMJIlpe J1BaHa, paanje cy BJIlAenH y J10fJIe,.,. aIllJ-1Balby. Ilnaunora cy J1BaHa Bafiaporasra, neurrnuasta, nourrapasra, CBOsaC'rp . 60J1eIllhy, CBOjOMcsrphy JIlCnJlll.JHO.0 noryoaocra snoynorpefie CTpaxa osne '0''' e 'fpe6a nOHaBlbaTJIl. tI Y OBOjnopOAHQJIl MajKa je npBa sannoaxna y CTBapalIal.JKO. J1BaH je, tcao 06Hl.Jo nocTao HeBepoBaTHo aanopan JIlnocanan, 6alll cana xana cy TaKO naacae BeCTJIl tI .., MajKa Je na BplIO JeAHOCTaBaH Hal.JJIlHrrpexnayna tla TB. YMeCTO sacrpanrxaaisa, " HeraTJ-1BHOCTJIl. 3Halla je Aa je iseao AeTe, iseroao nCJIlXo<pH3J1ll.JKO snpann,e JIatl a '" Ba)!(HJ-1je OACBJIlX BeCTH osora CBeTa. 3Hana je MajKa Aa je rseao nere Ba)f(HJIlje JIlOA IlOclIa KojJ-1 je ce6J1l 3aQPTalIa na ypaAJIl nocne AHeBHJIlKa.BecTJIl JIlHeorrpaHH TalbJllhe je cal.JeKaTJ-1, arrx ClIOj HeraTJIlBHOCTJIl xoja ce HaTalIO)f(H y lbeHOM AeTeTY ce He J-1 p . . MO)!(e06pJllCaTJIl. Ilpaunora ca aaxeurraja ce )eAHJIlMrrOKpeTOM pYKe MO)l(e yKlIOHJ-1TJ-1. HeraTJIlBHOCT ce TalIO)f(JIlJIlQeMeHTJIlpa a xana 6eTOH yxnaisare, MopaTe ra pa36J-1TJ-1, nocne xera HeMa HJIl6eTOHa HJIlnonnore. Majxa je HanYCTHlIa CBe JIlrrOCBeTJIllIa ce rrorrryno AeTeTY, aaajyhn KOlIJIlKO je J1BaH )!(elbaH a.eaor npncycraa. J1BaH je C panourhy rrpeAlIarao MajQJIl l.JJIlMeAa ce satiase. ITecMJIl, npnxa, paAoCTJIl HJIlje 6J1llIOxpaja, Te Bel.JepJll CBJIlcy CXBaTJIllIJIl Bexe je nposeneao y MJIlPY, Ba)!(HOCTrpajae ynorpetie CTBapalIal.JKOr sacmrraisa. xapaoanja. Majxa je re aexepa AOHelIa OAlIyKy na, y3 YKHAalbe nrnnnanxx, aarno CMalbJllCBe aKTJIlBHOCTJIl xoje cy nojaxasane J1BaHOBY XJIlnepaKTJIlBHOCT.CXBaTJIlna je Aa J1BaHa Mopa HayqHTJIl Aa 3Ha na 6YAe caM ca C060M, Aa 3Ha Aa ce JIlrpa caxr. Bana je carypna y ycrrex JIlpaAOBalIa ce TOMe. Tara je MHpHO OAflIeAaO CBe eMJIlcJIljeAO rroaoha, MajKa je 3aAOBOlbHO aaspurasana AHeBHe 06aBe3e AOKje J1BaH, neh OAaBHO 6J1lo aa ceAMOM netiy, Ilxraise je caao y KOMTpeHyTKy he ce AorOAJIlTJIl 06pHyTa cxryanaja y KOjOj he MajKa Y)l(JIlBaTH nopeA TB Hnp. a OTaQ he ce sa TO BpeMe JIlrpaTJIlca J1BaHoM, JIllIJIl he MJIlPHO 'II1TaTI1HOBJIlHe,AOKhe ce J1BaH MJIlPHOsadaszsara, nrpajyha ce cav. .IJ;ohl1he TO BpeMe, casro nazsa 6e3YClIOBHOl.JeKaTJIl oua H He saaepara My HJIllllTa jep HJIliseros OTaQ ce HJIlje nrpac C lbJllM. ITaMTJIlJ1BaHoB TaTa carao nasrpurreno nl14e csor oua, JIl6pKOBe xoja nojaxaaajy Ol.JeBY036J-1lbHOCT.J1CTJIlHa,JI1BaHoBrara 6pI<OBCHeMa, rra je JIlTO nanpenax. OCTalIO san,a l.JeKaTJIl. Ko paAJIl JIlcrpnn.aao -rexa, ra] AOl.JeKa.Mava je noxexana na ce orau nerro saoaBlba ca J1BaHoM, ana J1BaHOBJIlpOAJ-1TelbJll cy AOl.JeKalIHna MJIlPHOrnrjy xaqry, pa3tOBapajy, renedionxpajy, yjFPY ce MHpHO crrpesrajy 3a rrocao JIljour MHoro rora 0 'IeMy npyr ponxrersn carsajy, Ilpourno je HeKOlIJIlKO MeceQJIl orxana je noponnua YnnOBJlllIa y craapanaxxo. Hesra y ynorpetia HH jenaor nnmuanor Mogella. Kana ce pa3roBapa, JIlrpa, crrpeMa aa rrocao CBH eKpaHH hyre, Ilesajy cpua.
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J1BaH je crap ner rOAJIlHa JIlBplIO je HeMJIlpaH, lllTO JIl31Iyl)yje pomrren,e. 3alllTO je HeMHpaH onsmne, XHrrepaKTJIlBaH, KaKO ce nanac Ka)l(e? 3alllTO, mrramr cy ce ponarersa AOKHJIlCYA06J1llIJIlanaise CTBapalIal.JKOr sacnxran,a . .IJ;aHac snajy Aa cy Y3POQJIlne'r nmnuanxx y sacmrraa-y. AKO rr03J1lTJIlBHJIlM YClIoBlbaBalbeM rroKpeHere lIaBJIlHYzcezsa xoje npepacrajy y noxneny, rrpJll TOMAorrYCTJIlTeAeTeTY na CaTl1Ma cena npen expaaou, xonaysorpajyha peKlIaMe, OHAa je CaCBJIlMrrpJllpOAHOna je yM saurer nerera XJIlrrepaKTJIlBaHJIlHerrpeCTaHO ynocnen. HeMJIlpaH yw., HeMJIlpHO AeTe . .IJ;eTerro ueo AaH CMJIlllllba, l.JJIlMe Aa aac YClIOBJIl, xojy HOBYJIlrpal.JKyAa Tpa)l(H aKO BJIlMHClIJIlTeAa OH 6YAe A06ap, JIlTaKO penoa. J1BaHOBJIl pomrrezsa l.JJIlHejour jemry HecMoTpeHY rpelllKY. Herne cy l.JYlIJIl Aa XJIlrrepaKTJIlBHOnere rpetia Aa npaaaa HarreTOCT, re cy aenpecrano CMJIlllllbanJll axnnje. 06J1lna3HnH cy JIlrpaOHJIlQe,Tpl.JanH ca lbJllM,nyro ra ncnpnrsnaana BO)f(lbOM 6J1lQJIlKna,yrrJllcalIJIl ra na nnxsarse, na KapaTe, HerrpecTaHo ce 6aBJIlnJll lbJllMe, 3a6aBlbalIJIl ra, OHH JIllIJIleKpaH. XJIlrrepaKTJIlBHOCTce rrojaxanana AO re Mepe Aa AeTe HohJllMa HJIlje Morno Aa cnaaa. JeAJIlHJIlHal.JJIlHAa ce ycrraBa 6J1loje Aa ra Ayro B03e KOlIJIlMarro rpaAY. qJllM ce xona saycraae rrpeKJIlAa ce J1BaHoB can. aohy je rrnaKao, BpJlllllTaO JIlYBeK je ~aBplllaBao y MaMJIlHOMKpeBeTy. HJIlCYpa3YMelIJIl Aa je CBe OBO caxio turrar sa XJIlrrepaKTJIlBHOCT, l.JHjJll cY Y3POQJIlnmruraan, BaCrrJllTHJIl MOAenJ-1. Y]l1eCTOna CMHpyjy nere, yKJIlAajy nnmuane, pOAHTelbJll cy AOBOAHlIJIl nere AO nYAJ-1J1a. Hseros HeMHpnYK ce HapOl.JHTO rrojaxaaa y TpeHYQHMa xana pOAJ-1TelbJ-1 CWiHO cene ga aa MHpy nopasroaapajy, HlIH npo-nrrajy HOBHHe, Aa TelIe<p0HJ.1pajy J-1J1J-1
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KOHa'IHo CaBpeMeHM pomerersa rpetia na aaajy na p;eU;M He Tpe6a noc t. Belll1a TM CBaKM cexyan czrotionnor apesreaa, To crnaparra-rxa neua He O'IeKyjy 0 a. t. P; POAl1 Telb.a M3 npocror pasnora Jep HMCY orrrepenena cnMKOM ca expaaa nn , 111IIaHl1 BacnMTHMM Mop;ellMMa M aKTMBHOCTMMa KOjM nojaxaaajy XMnepaKTl1BHO ~ . CT AeTe_ ra. CaMO nocne Bl1pTyellHe Mrpapl1Je, nocne CBMXKapaKOHI,Iyna xoje 3aCTpalII . M3 expana, caxo nocrre Bl111IeCaTHMXjypuarsa rro MrpaOHl1u;aMa nena O'fe . YJY , KYJYAa J.1XHeKO aenpecraao satiaazsa, 6ap TOllJ.1KOycneunro KOllJ.1KO TO nOlla311 aa . PYKO~ BJ.1pTyellHOJ BaCrrJ.1Ta'fJ.1U;J.1 J.1lll1J.1rpaOHJ.1U;l1. POp;J.1TelbHJ.1Ka,n;a He MO)Ke611Tl1 6 sa aBaH KOllJ.1KO 11eKpaH npenyH urapenaura, amr nere TO He pasyae nere TP""'TK . CBOJY HerrOTpe6HY nopunjy. ,1J;eTeje BeTap, a xana ce BeTap ysehaaa HerrpeCTaHO . , rrpepaCTa y OllYJY, Y ropaano.
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Heseaa je He,n;aBHOaanyaana cenasmaecr rOp;J.1Ha.Yuma je y nyfioxy HeraTl1BHOCT (rrYIlIJ.1, 6e)f(l1 J.13urxone, y nonrexr je ,n;PYIlITBY,aohy 113lla31106J.1lla3enJ.1 CYMlbJ.1Ba MeCTa, a naisy nyro crrasa: Yililla je Y rrp paHe cexcyaznre onaoce, o,n;6J.1ja,n;aKOPJ.1CTJ.1KOHP;OM,aerrpecrano ce cnaha ca Mllap;J.1neM, ca pOp;l1Telbl1Ma, nporpecopxaa, MallTpeTJ.1pa pomrrerse p;oBo~elbeM HeBaCrrJ.1TaHe neue y xyhy, npernacnov MY3J.1KOM, neaxapersexr J.1CTallHJ.1Mrpaacersev HOBu;a). Heseaa HJ.1je cnyxajno 6allI OBaKBa KaKBOM CMOje npnxaaana. Ha lbOj je npVIMelbeH Hajrrory6Hl1jJ.1 06lll1K sacnrrran,a. Ha lbeHY maBY cpy-nro ce oxea Mo,n;ell rrpl1Hyp;e J.1Maj'Il1H Mop;ell rrpeaanrrahaaarsa ,1J;oaenasno, HeraTVIBHOCT ponnrelba je nojaxaaana HeranfBHOCT ,n;eTeTa a cana HeraTVIBHOCT nerera ysehaaa HeraTl1BHOCT ponarersa. J13 oaor Kpyra je reurxo J.13J.1nJ.1. ,1J;alll1 je Moryne J.1y oBaKBY rropo,n;l1u;y YBeCTJ.1CB? Orposraa 6poj po,n;VITelba KOjJ.1cy CBOjl1M He3HalbeM nosemr csoje nere p;o OBOlll1Ke HeraTVIBHOCTJ.1,TeIllKO he ce oztpehn csor BaCrrl1THOr Mop;ella, jep CBe rpaje onnmne nyro. Cep;aMHaeCT ronxna je P;OBOlbHO na ce rrO'IeTHO, naasrnen HaVIBHO nonaurarse pop;VITelba, rrpeTBOPJ.1y rraronornjy, nocrre xera ce rpeurxa He npxsrraje. ,1J;allVI TO 3Ha'IJ.1 p;a je Henena OTnVIcaHa? HVIKaKO! AKO Heaeaa 6yp;e VIMaJla cpehe J.1HeKO je yrrosna ca Mop;ellOM CB 6yp;J.1Te CJ.1rypHJ.1na he Heseaa spzro 6p30 113J.1nJ.1 113xaoca y KOjVI cy je 6aU;J.1llVI6allI lbeHJ.1 pOp;J.1TelbJ.1.Ilpecrahe HeBeHa p;a Tepa J.1HaTpOp;MTelbJ.1Ma jep he p;y60KO pa3YMeTJ.1 na je noaauraise lbeHMX pop;J.1rezsa nocnernnra nesnan,a. Monen aacrnrraa,a KOjJ.1cy YHellJ.1 y 6paK VInpeHeJl.J.1 na HeBeHY aacnemorn cY xao "KanMTall" Y CBOjMM noponauasra, a rroTOM MM )e
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nap;ajy TOj BPCTJ.1HeCpenHJ.1Ka. HeBeHa he 3aYCTaBJ.1TJ.1naaau BllaCTJ.1Te HeraTJ.1BHOCTJ.1TaKO llITO he CBeCHO P;OHOCJ.1TJ.1 onnyxe na He ynana y HeraTJ.1BHO ,n;PYllITBO J.1HeraTJ.1BHe aKU;J.1je.Ibeaa KpeaTJ.1BHOCTp;onJ.1he P;O rryHor napascaja y ,n;yrop0'fHOM CMJ.1llIlbalbY n03J.1TJ.1BHJ.1X aKU;VIjaJ.1rr03J.1TJ.1BHJ.1X eMOU;J.10HallHJ.1X YCllOBa 3a ce6e J.1csoje pomrren,e. Heseaa Ta'IHO 3Ha IlITa rona iso], IlITa romr Maju;J.1a urra OU;y.fbeaa cyp;6J.1Ha je cana y lbeHJ.1MpYKaMa. Torma pe'f yMOpHOj Maju;J.1,OrrpaHJ.1 CYP;OBJ.1, noxasaaa sorsa J.1 HaMepa,n;a ce onpexne rrYllielba, 6ap npen ouea, CMalbelbe 6poja aexeprsax J.13lla3axa, rrorrpaBlbalbe oueaa ... OTOrrJ.1necpue najoxpyrmrjer oua J.1HajHepB03HJ.1je MajKe. Tpyn KOjJ.1Heseaa 6yp;e YllO>KJ.1llay BllaCTJ.1TJ.1 n0311TJ.1BHl1paCT 6J.1ne xarnrrazr he YHeTJ.1y CBOjy lby6aBHY Be3Y, y CBOj 6paK J.1CBOjy neuy. Jep;HO je CJ.1rypHO: KOjVI HeBeHY Hl1KOHe MO>KerrpJ.1CJ.1llJ.1TJ.1 p;a y~e y CB. Bazsa joj rroHy,n;J.1TJ.1 anarse, a OHa he 113a6paTl1 snpann,e J.1llJ.1 60lleCT, rraTlbY J.1llJ.1 pa,n;OCT. Kap;a je y rrl1TalbY HeBeHJ.1H cnyxaj, OrrTJ.1MJ.13aM p;a he Heaena caaa ynJ.1 y rr0311Tl1BaHpacr je rrOTrrYHOpeallaH. 3allITO? Hesena jecre "rrpo6lleMaTJ.1'IHa", allJ.1Heaesa Hl1je yuma y Te>KJ.1 06llJ.1K 3aBJ.1CHOCTJ.1. OHa ce He p;porJ.1pa, HJ.1je amcoxomrsap, a nYlIIl1 oz; He,n;aBHO re je Moryne naxo onpanaise on U;J.1rapeTa. Mlla,n;J.1 KOjJ.1cy nOCTalll1 3aBJ.1CHJ.1 on p;pore, anxoxona Mopajy rrpBO 6J.1TJ.1 J.13lleQeHJ.1,rrOTOM yrro3HaTl1 ca rrpl1HU;J.1rrJ.1Ma CB a na lbJ.1Ma je na ce onpenene sa snpaan,e J.1llJ.1 60lleCT.

MAPI1JA, PAlliA

HJ1KIllA

Aaliac je, 11y nanro] 3eMlbl1, ormrra eydiopxja p;a rpetia pahara IlITO BenVI 6poj ~e~e. PO,n;l1TelbJ.1cy HecrrpeMHM aa TO a M YCllOBM >Kl1BOTacy TellIKVI, crannapn MM lie O~ t. oryuaBa naxo nonnaaise neue, He cnanase ce xana CXBaTe p;a cY rrllMillaHMM
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ynponaCn1JIM CBOjy neuy, Hecra je nojasa na pOp;MTeJbM aYT . .. Pl1_ TapHO O'IeKYJY, Tpa)f(e M 3axTeBaJY, p;a CTapMJa neua nOMa)f(Y Y nOp;M3al-by M JIal)e neue, lIITO P;OBOP;M P;O cryhersa Mel)y p;eU;OM M 'IeCTMX csaha M3Mel)y CTapl1J'e Ael.\e M pOp;MTeJba. nacnxraisesr

J)J\p})APA
. TyneHTKMfua npse ronxae cpaKYJITeTa. J1Mana je cpehy rta ce POP;M 6apa Je C M pap eTKoJ' nopop;MU;M xoja je BacnMTaBana nere 6e3 npnnyne, ycnoonpacTe y P .' 6 t1 M alllTMnMBafua, 6e3 Bep6anM3Ma. Bap 6 apa Je JOlli y 0 p;aHMIIITy Balba, npea . . slba OCTalIa neua npyra-m]a on ise, He 3HaJyhM na Je fuMXOBa Herana3UJIa p;a cy .' . . sa ACB TI06po ce CHalIa3Mna y caaxoj )f(MBOTHO) cMTyaU;MJM, SHOCT rroclIep;J.1u;a . i-'o TU. IIITI1TM on arpecnje npyrnx JbYP;M. HMJe ce cnabana ca nporpeaJIa )e na ce .' 3H . . ex pa3YMelIa. Haxana HMje 6MlIa He'IM)a )f(pTBa. Bnna je TO opJ.1Ma)ep J.1x)e yB .' C 'uMu;a KO)'a je M casra saana p;a O'IMTa eMOU;MJe JbYP;M. 3HalIa)e na 3ApaBa p;eBO) rrporl-ecopa MJIM npxjarezsa. Kana HM)e Morna nouohx JbYP;MO'IUTa rrOTpe 6 e 't'
"1

ronnaa, BelIMKe 06aBe3e y lllKOlIl1 M BaH I-be, IIITO POAI1TeJbMMa He CMeTa p;a saxresajy op; caoje hepxe na: BpllO 'IeCTO "rrpl1'IYBa" 6p hy a 61IM3aHu;e ('IeTMpM romnre), na ce carroaa Mrpa ca fuMMa, p;a MX 3a6aBJba, BOAI1 y urerrsy, BOP;M KOP; p;pyrapMu;e, p;a MX cnpewa aa cnasarse, na MX paaysre jep cy OHI1 MallM MTp;. Csaha, npeKopM, yBpep;e, nna-r, CTalIHM orrrop npeMa 6pahM M 06aBe3e aaropxaaajy )f(MBOT uenoj noponaua.
MMa 'IeTpHaeCT

Mapnja

Majxa je, xao rOTOBO CBe MajKe, MMaiia ayropMTapHY CBeCT y nepnony pal)al-ba neue. JIerro je MMaTM nyao neue rOBopMlla je cetia, He aaajyhn KOllMKa je op;rOBOpHOCT, KOllMKa 06aBe3a, KOllMKM pan, KOllMKO rpetia Jby6aBM M npanor aaaisa, p;a 611 ce orxpaanna M onrajnna TpM nOTnYHo nCMxo-cpM3M'IKM snpasa 'IOBeKa. EMllO je P;OBOJbHO na npohe cauo HeKOIIMKO ronnaa M na ce MajKa CyO'IM ca 6pojHl1M TelIIKOhaM a y onrajarsy TpM nerera. )K.elIella je p;a neua pacTy y Jby6aBM, xapxoaaja, 6e3 csaha, na BOlle pap; a on csera rora rOTOBO HM y 'IeMY Hl1je ycnella. Kana je 113ry6Mlla CBaKY nany, yrrosnana je CB, op;Max ra npMMeHMlla y npaKcM. Ilpexmryna je MyKe cnoje crapnje hepxe TaKO IIITO je npecTalla ca M3pl1u;afueM napehersa xana cy y nMTal-bY 06aBe3e y xyha M OKO 6IIM3aHau;a. Carta je CBe naxo. CBaKe Be'IepM npaBM ce rnotianan rrnan y KojeM 06aBe3Ho croje M nOCIlOBM OKO 6IIM3aHau;a. Mapnja je cpehaa IIITO joj je p;03BOJbeHO na 6Mpa nocao. Majxa je BeOMa CTpnJbMBa M nehe joj 3aMepMTM IIITO he MeceU;MMa 1136eraBaTl1 CBe aKTI1BHOCTI1aesaHe sa CBOjy 6pahy. Mapaja he M360pOM 6pOjHMX nOCIlOBa y nopomnra 11Te KaKO onaxurara MajU;M )f(MBOT, jep BI1P;MOHa p;a je uerra xyha na lIel)MMa MajKe. Majxa 3Ha p;a je yrrpaBo npxnynoi Hap; Mapajosr yracMlla fueHY Jby6aB npeMa 6pahl1 M 3aTO je TOllMKO CTpnJbMBa. ,n:OhM he TpeHyTaK xana he Mapaja CXBaTI1TI1 na ce CBaKI1 nocao 06aBJba ca Jby6aBJby YKOllMKO je 'IOBeK nocrnrao n03MTMBHOCT. Il03I1TI1BHOCT ce p;OCTI1)f(e YKMp;afueM npMHyp;e, YCIIOBJbaBafua XYMaHMX npMHU;Mna CTBapalla'IKOr OBe nacmrrarsa.
M

Ma, HMje MM op;MaralIa. Ha rrO'IeTKY cTYAMja 036MJbHO ce 3aJby6MlIa MonelIa npe3alllTJ.1hMBalba

M

. . y MlIap;Mna .KO)M Je 6MO

npoas-

BOA

O'IMTaBalIa IIITO "CBor MlIap;Mha. ,n:a 6M Jby6aB nnerana Mopalla Je 'IMHMTM CBe OHO "noTpe 6 e . ., je 'lI1Hl1lIa M MajKa MlIap;Mna. Y rrpOTMBHOM M3ry6MlIa 6M ra. To HMJe )f(elIelIa )ep )e

Y CBOjOj

noponann.

Bapfiapa

je

senrro

113a6paHMK 6MO 'IOBeK ca MHoro KBaJIMTeTa. J1crryfu~BalIa

j.e n.erose x~poBe,

cano

na

6M ra sanpacana.

OKOlIMHa ce 'lyp;MlIa KaKO p;eBOJKa KO)a 3Ha IIITa )e rr03MTMBHeraTMBHOCT

HOCT, neryje M norxpaisyje Mopalla 3HaTM,

csor

MlIap;Mna. AJIM MCTa Ta OKOlIMHa 611

na

cy uraace

BplIO Malle. OCMM

sa M360p naprnepa, KOjM je ClIM'IHO sacnaran xao OHa rora nesojxa ce 3aJby6MlIa My CBe OHO IIITO rrpep;CTaBJba KBaje y p;eTMfuCTBY Hay'IMlIa p;a Jbyp;e sarsa 'IeKaTM M y rr03MTMBHOCT. p;a MOMaK nOBpeMeHO

1I11TeTosor MlIap;Mha. Eap6apa

noaarara
311y

MM na npeby
jep

3HalIM cy CBe TO M pOp;MTeJbM, 3aTO cy P;03BOlIMlIM

xyhy

je

6MO M3

npyror

MeCTa.

[eo je,

crrasao

nosexan.

M rOTOBO ce

nonaonojaa-

n110.

'leCTO M p;yroTpajHo rrpMCYCTBO noxeno je na napyuiana Ml1p uene . . lIlK cereunco CHalIa3111Ia nopOp;Mu;e. 'fiepxa )e ocehana narrsy CBOJMXpOp;MTeJba, a n '. HlK)'e MMaJIa P;OBOJbHO y HOB11M)f(MBOTHMM OKOlIHOCTMMa. HM)e MMalIa MCKYCTBa, n CHare M aaarsa p;a ysene MOMKa y pagoM ce6M 06e36ep;M 3aTO je Eap6apa nOClIe cxreurraj,

Iberoso

Bep6allM3Ma

npMMeHoM

cran-e

rr03MTMBHOCTM. Tpa)f(I1TI1 Morao 6M 6MTM

on

MOMKa p;a Jby6aBM M "

npaamme sazsa rrpMMelbMBaTM M na oua M CTpnJbMBO ra 'IeKaTI1. ,n:onu he BpeMe na M OH CXBaTM na je 6aBJbel-beM CBOjOM p;eU;OMnajaehn nap a He PYTUHCKa 06aBe3a nasrerseaa MajU;M M Mapajn. Mapnja je cecrpa M OHa TO Mopa OCTa.TU' ,n:OhM he apesre xana he Mapaja 6MTM MajKa M TO noopa aaxsazsyjyhx CBOjOj MaJU;u .' MapMJMHa . KOJace aa BpeMe op;peKlIa aYTOpl1TapHOr Mop;ella aacnaraisa. p; eua HeM npohx
Kp03 OBO HeraTI1BHO MCKYCTBO,allM MajKa onrryxy na aannoaa

xpany,

noserax

xpaja
'IlIaHa

naTMlIa. nonnourersa arpeCMBHOCTM "He3BaHor nopop;Mu;e

nse ronxne

pogl1TelbM cy p;OHelIM Op;lIYKY

Mapnja

he P;OK )f(I1BM nOUlTOBa-

na smne He norxpan-yly a 11l-beHor ne-rxa. MOMaK je Mopao na HanYCTM xyhy rOAeTM xoje My je Taj P;OM npyxcao nofipe nae ronane. Aa ce POp;MTelbM nehe MelllaTM y fueH M360p napruepa,
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HeraTMBHOCT
M

csoje hepxe.

na

ce op;peKHe CBMX 61Iaje naro P;O 3Halba

Eap6apM

anM na OHM narraae M3 're

TM Maj'IMHy

y none CB. - 356-

Hrpe npeaanrrahaaarsa H aeronarsa rrapa3HTH3Ma. OHa Mopa CBe TO na pa3 peIIIH, ana BaH xyhe. JIOM je 6HO O'IeKHBaH H noronno ceo Eap6apa je HaCTaBHna na ce 60PH aa CBor H3a6paHHKa oKpeHyBIIIH ce rrpoTHB pomrren,a. Jbyrtsa, 6ec, cyse 6HnH cy He Ml1HOBH~ ~ao H yBpep;e H raxceise csera nerror IIITO je HMana, p;O)KHBena I1 YCBojl1lIa y CBOJOJnopomrux. Ha csoje HeraTHBHe peaxuaje HHje p;06Hna HeraTHBaH onroaop on POP;I1Telb a. Ilonyhena joj je nosioh y pa3peIllaBalbY eBeHTyanHHx npotinesra, anH cy pOP;I1Te_ lbH OCTanH npa CBOjOj onnyua. HapaBHO p;a rrosroh HHje npnxaarana. IbHXOBa aesa H p;albe rpaje. 'Bepxa je y xyha, ann rrpHnH'IHO oryhena op; 3611Balba y nopomma. Pomrrenor cy BeOMa cTprrlbHBH jep OHH suajy na he Mop;en sacrru. raisa CTe'IeH y nermscrsy xan TaP; 3a)KHBeTH. Oseroraan,a ponarersa cy n03HTI1BHa. Oxexyjy p;a he hepxa Jby6aBlby noaohx CBOMMnap;Hhy p;a rrpesaaahe BacrrHTHI1 Mop;en CTe'IeH y nermscrsy, YKonHKO H He ycrre y TOMe H sarrnoan y 6pa'iHe aone ca TaKBHM 'IOBeKOM pop;HTelbH cy cHrypHH p;a he, nonacxoa neue na CBeT, npopap;HTH CB Mop;en CTe'IeH y p;eTHlbCTBY. Bap6apa he 6HTH H3BpCHa MajKa, IIITOje H aajaaaonrje, saajy pop;HTelbH, Eap6apa he 3HaTH IIITa joj aazsa 'IHHHTH narse. A MO)Kp;ahe rronYT CBOjHXBpIlllbaKHlba, xoje HMajy caxo ceharse na Tpap;H~110HanHO sacrnrratse H Tpap;H~HOHanHe Bpep;HOCTH, H casra rrO'IeTH p;a ynpa)KlbaBa nnnmane Mop;ene Hap; CBOjOMp;e~OM. MO)Kp;a!? Y BacrrHTafbY nerera ycrrenH CMOYKonHKo p;O'IeKaMOp;a BHp;HMOcpehao H aanoBOlbHO csoje nere, csoje yHyqe H csoje rrpayHyqe. Ha)KanOCT, caspexrena Mnap;H poznrren,x H fbHXOBHponarezsn cy rrocnemse nse reaepauaje xoje nasrre rpanauaOHanHO sacmrran,e, nasrre HeKH H p;enHMH'IHO cTBapana'IKO sacmrran-e, anH rOTOBO CBHMnap;H pop;HTelbH ce OP;PH'Iy csor sacmrraisa H ycaajajy IInHIllaHO, jep TOpap;1<1 sehana. Byne nH Bap6apa jenaa op; fbHX aehe 6HTH 'Iyp;o jep rpanaunoaanna CBeCT He )KenH na ce paamixyje on rpyrre. AKO ce TO p;orop;H pomrrezsx he rraTHTH, Kao IIITO nare MHnHOHH fiaxa H nexa, arnr TO caao jep;Ha op; MyKa caspesreae rropOP;H~e. IlOIIITO je Bap6apa 36Hlba pacna y CTBapanalJKHM ycnoBHMa BHIlle je BepOBaTHO p;a he xazt, TaP; HcrrpaBHTH CBe csoje rpeIIIKe, aKO HX HarrpaBH.

eTfby. OBaKBe cnene rrOHOBHhe ce 6e36poj rryra, a p;a pomrrezs sanpa]la3e Y III 3 rra Hehe 3HaTH urra je Y3POK csabaaa. Hl'fI<al-' . H eO a MaJKa J.e HaY'IHna p;a ce p;aHac nouaura caCBHM p;pyra'IHJe. ay.uparaHHH . . TepMoperyna~HoHH CHCTeM isenor nerera canpuren, xao IIITO cy na Je p;a Je .. . 6 ql'f 6HonolllKH HarOHH. Cana je MajKa HaY'IHna na nourryje norpe e epllleHH CBH ca TaKO My 'IYBa xapMoHHjy noneceny na CBeT. 11 sexepac cy MaMa eora p;eTeTa H . . c nnore na Hrry aa canxatse. 3a MaJKY Je naa npoxnanan. 3a Ilpara.uparaHa pe Jt I MaJKa he 06yhH Ilparany cnojeanro H TaKO oMoryhHTH p;a ce 'I He 3Ha ceo f-J, }fy. 060rrH nenosa onehe YKonHKo ocern norpefiy aa THM. 3aBplllHHeTe ]laI<O ocn u 0611a'Iefba MajKa uehe 06aBHTH y rorrnoj C0611. Kanyr sarsa 06yhH nerery y y perrc06lbya xany 'IaK H nanorsy. Bepyjre CBOMnerery, Hnxana nehe xn:ap;HOMn na My CKHHeTe HH jenaa neo onehe, aKO My Je CTBapHO xnanno. 3p;paTpa)KHTi'f so reno HHKap;a He pap;H rrpOTHB ce6e, a ,I!;paraHHHO reno Je anpaao Jep OHa HMa
n M M M M ' M M

caMO TpH rop;HHe. ,I!;paraHHHa MaMa 3Ha CBe TO H na BpeMe je rrpexmryna nanau HeraTHBHOCTH. Ila Hl<1je TO yqHHHlla spno 6p30 6H CBOjHMnonaurarsesr yrrporracTHna repsroperyna~1<10HH CHCTeM,I!;paraHHH. Ilere 6H ce oryhnno on csora rena rra, H3Me~y ocranor, He 61<1 auano na O'IHTaBa norpetie csora rena. A xana TO He YMelll, oana CH OTBOpHO spara 60neCTH, rojasnocra, HecaHH~H. YKOllHKOBH, p;parH pop;HTelbH, HMaTe nere xojea CTe seh yrrporracTHllH TepMoperyna~HoHH CHCTeM, onna aa rroxerax, MopaTe p;03BOllHTH CBOMe nerery na onny-ryje urra he H xana 06yhH. Hexa ce H rrpexllap;H, 6Hhe TO uena y'Ielba t1 spahatsa cetia. ,I!;03BonHTe My na 6yp;e onronopno aa ce6e TaKO urro here 3a60paBHTH rrpHHyp;y, ycnonzsaaarse H septianaaax, H HayqHTH na rrpeKHp;aTe nanau HeraTHBHOCTH. Hay-rare na O'IHTaBaTe eMo~Hje H rrorpetie nerera, craapajre n03HTHBHe YCllOBe aa )KHBOT H pap; nerera H )KHBeheTe y MHPY, cn03H, snpaBlbY H pap;OCTH.

JJ:PAfAHA
Ipmsa, yp;ap~H, BpHCKa, nzrax H na xpajy saura notiena. Majxa je H onor nyra n06ep;Hna )J;paraHY xoja HMa casro TpH ronaue. Ycrrena je na je "HaTpOHTa", p;a joj, Y nperormoj C06H, HaBY'Ie Kp3HeHY xany, Torrne pyKaBH~e jep nanozsy narra CHer a oHi'f
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YKOnl1KOHMaTe nere no TpH ronane CTapOCTH HllH MallO crapnje H CTallHO My je Bpyhl1Ha HeMojTe ce satipxrsaaarn. Ilere je p;OBOlbHOMano H HHCTe CTHrJIl1 na My nOKBapHTe TepMoperyna~HoHH CHCTeM. IIlTa je y rnrraisy? 06paTHTe naxosy na l1cxpaHY nerera. BepOBaTHO y HcxpaHH p;eTeTa npeoanahyje Meco, a BenHKa KOJIH'1l1Ha 6enaH'IeBHHa Te BpCTe crnapa aenpzponay sarpejaaocr Tena. Koparyjre l1CXpaHYH nparsrre csoje nere.
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Alba t1Ma 15 ronrma. Ha I-boj cy ponaren,x ncrrpotiazra CBe rrpmnrarre aYT OPt1Tap nor sacnaraisa. Ilpnayna H Bep6aJIt13aM cy 6HJIH BpJIO '1eCTH t1 CHa>KHt1 y . . n~~ rogHHH g06HJIa )e 6paTa. Morten aacmrraisa ce Ht1je MeI-bao. Y nopogt1"t1 . ~ )e 6110 orrurnr xaoc. HH Tpara og npapomre xapsroaa]e. Kana je Aisa HarrYHt1JIa nernaecr ronnna a 6paT necer, 'IHTaBa rrOpOTTt1"a ,YKlby_ xyjyha 6aKe H nexe, je ogJIY'lt1JIa ,n;ayt)e y CTBapaJIa'lKO nacrnrraise . CJIO""xJI "' .., ace 11 Aisa ca OgJIYKOMH isoj je romoro HOBOrronauraise CBHX'1JIaHOBa rropogt1Qe n eM 'B t1JIa)e . OCJIO 6l>. P a I-b0). 01)eHa MYKa" A"" KO, "Mopa,n;a , "Hecrroc06Ha CH","He MO>Ke". OBe pe'lH HeCTaJIe cy H3 yrrorpetie. CBH cy ce YTpKHBaJIt1 ,n;aArsa OCeTt1 lllTO rrpe 6JIaroner CTBapaJIa'lKOr sacmrran,a, a OHa HM Ht1je ocrajana ,n;y>KHa.O,n;HOCt1t13Mehy MajKe t1 hepxe KOjt1 cy, rrpe YJIaCKa y CTBapaJIa'lKO aacmrrarse, 6t1JIH rra t1BI1'-\11 rrOCJIe xoje ce npnponao crnapajy naa >KeCTOKaPOHTa, aarno cy ce rrOrrpaBt1JII1. Heurro je t1 ,n;albe Myqt1JIO rropogt1QY. CBH cy YO'laBaJIH,n;a je Arsa rrOCTaJIa nporo.
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DpaT je npennoaoro na he pannje HJIH xacmrje casr pY'laTH KaKO 6H OCJI060P;HO !bY MyKa. To nehe p;O)f(HBeTH xao HeraTHBHOCT H xao ontiauaaaise. Hanporna, A je TO Haql1H na noxrorne CBOJO)ceCTpH. .. E' 6uo paT Je pa3YMeo A lbl1Hy MyKy H OP;JIyUO,n;aje lbeHa HeraTHBHOCT, lbeHH 3aXTeBH, rseae rrpHMep;6e He yBep;y y HeraTHB:OCT, y oCBeTY Alba je npennoxorrra p;a joj '1JIaHOBl11l0pOp;l1Qe najy HeKl1 3HaK xana UMeTe lbeH YJIa3aK y HeraTHBHOCT, KaKO 6t1 caaa ycnena TO na casnana. Aa.a je oP. ... 6 B no qeCTO J3l1MaJIa CBO)TalbHp H 0p;JIa3HJIa na 3aBpmH CBO)pyqaK y CBO)O)co H. P je CXBaTt1JIa KOJIl1KO)e .. nerarnsna, )ep l1aKO 6paTa Ht1)e . BHllle 6 l1JIO sa CTOCaMa }lOM,HaJIa3l1JIa je Ha'lt1Ha na p;pyrl1M '1JIaHOBHMa nopomrue 3aMepa noneurro, jep [e lbeHa HarreTOCT rpajana l1 p;aJbe. IlporroPQl10HaJIHO O,n;CYCTBY aYTOpl1TapHOCTt1, paC}la je Albl1Ha cnpesorocr na ce Mefua. Y6p30 je Afua 3aMOJIl1JIa 6paTa p;a ce BpaTl1, TaKO peTKOM He,n;elbHOMaajemnorKOM1l0PO,n;H'IHOMpyqKy. An.a ce rrpnjaruo H3HeHa,n;J1Jlajep je yo-nora na 6paT Ht1je BUllie HepB03HO ,n;pMao iroraxa, lllTO je 6l1JIO l1IlPHpO,n;HOjep je TO 6l1JIa nocnemrua lberOBor CTaJIHOr l1111'leKl1Bafua Arsmre arpecaje. Bpar HHje Bl1111e HaMepHO cpxao CYIlY,lllTO je sa Aisy 6l1JIO BeJIl1KOl13HeHat)efue. CBl1 cy CXBaTl1JIl1,n;aje 3ajep;Hl1'1Kl1pyqaK MeCTOl1 apeve xana cy rrozcezsrre npxjarae resre, ,n;aysehajy npnjarnocr osor 'IHHa l1 3aTO, xana 611 6l1JIO KOjl1'1JIaH ocehao HalleTOCT noaeceny crrozsa, OH ce mrje rrpl1Klbyql1BaO 3ajep;Hl1'1KOM pyqKy l1JIl1je sa BpeMe pyqKa hyrao . Ilpyr ra HHCYY3HeMl1paBaJIl1, rfuaBl1JIH, pap;03HaJIl1 ,n;anosnajy, 6alll y OBOMTpeHyTKy, pa3JIOr fuerOBe HarreTOCTl1. Hexana cy na '10BeK sanoaon,a CBOjy rrpl1MapHy 6l10JIOlliKYnorpetiy, a pasroaop l1 rrosroh OCTaBlbaJIl1 cy aa p;OQHl1je,YKOJIHKO raj '1JIaH 1l0pop;l1Qe rpaaor pa3rOBOp l1 noayheay rroxoh. CBt1 'IJIaHOBH noponaue cy 6t1JIH 3ap;OBOJbHl1 a HapO'lHTO MaMa xana je CXBaTt1JIa na je aa BpeMe rroraorna CBOjOj Aful1 na ce OCJI060p;l1 ayroprrrapaor MOp;eJIa BaCIlt1Tafua l1 TaKO crrace cnoje 1l0TOMKe on nacwsa 6yp;yne MaMe. Aisa he cxrypHO 1l0CTaTl1 jenaor nana notipa MajKa, aaxaazsyjyhn OP;JIYQHMaMe p;a yt)e y CB l1 HI1Ka,n;a He t13l1t)e l13 isera.

ran ayTOpt1TapHe "MaMe". KOMe? Afua jour Ht1je 6HJIa MaMa. CBOM 6paTY, uapasHO. 3aMepaJIa My je CBe lllTO cy isoj pomrren,a je, rpmora, OMaJIOBa>KaBaJIa, lbYTt1JIa ceo nexan saxepana, Hcnpaazsana ra

CBt1 cy 6t1JIt1 TOJIepaHTHt1, xana je My'lHJIa 6paTa, Mt1CJIent1 casro na rrOTpe6y ga ce Aisa lllTO rrpe H3BY'le, jep je OHa 6l1JIa najaeaanosorsmrja y noponaun. Hncy CXBaTl1JIt1 na Ha raj Ha'lHH noncrn-ry AI-bHHY HeraTt1BHOCT. OBe Herrpl1jarne CQeHe rpajazre cy t1 rroaaazsane ce HapO'lHTO sa apexe sajemnorxor nopo,n;H'IHOr pyxxa. Ponnrezaa cy l1 onor rryTa rrpl1MeHl1JIl1 rrpHHQl1rre CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacmrrarsa jep cy 3HaJIl1 ,n;aje '10BeK nerarxaan YKOJIHKOCBOjOM HeraTHBHOuihy l13a3t1Ba HeraTt1BHOCT npyror, qOBeK je raxohe HeraTHBaH YKOJIl1KOHe Hat)e aa-rmra ga rrpexane JIaHaQ HeraTt1BHOCTH KOjt1 yrpoxcana rr03l1THBHOCT CBt1XOCTaJIt1X. 3HaJIH cy pomrrezsx ,n;a cy HeraTl1BHH lllTO hyre, 3HaJIa je Alba na je aerarnaaa jep Bep6aJIHO KHful1 fipara: saao je 6paT ,n;aje uerarasan jep je hyrao; aJIt1 ce CBeTt10 na CBOj aaxxn, xana cy Aisa l1 OH ocrajana caMH. CBeTl10 ce 6paT, jep je ocehao nerrpasny lllTO ra po,n;HTelbl1 He urrxre on Alblt!He HeraTt1BHOCTl1. Majxa ce noceriora t1 npexxnyna aeurro JIaHaQ HeraTHBHOCTH, TaKO nrro je Y npajarso] nopomonro] aTMOCepl1 HarrpaBHJIa MaJIYrropo,n;l1'1Hy nosopauniy cL\eHY KOjOjce H Afua 'IaK csiejana carnenasura ce6e, nperroaaasura y ce6H ,n;ojyqepauHbY MaMy. Ep30 cy caxra neua aaurna rr03l1THBHO peurerse . .IJ:y60KO cy pa3YMeJIl1 AlbHH np06JIeM. AI-ba je CBO3HaI-berreTHaecTorogHllllber )f(HBOTa y ACB rrpHMelbHBa}la Ha 6paTY, rrpasaeha CBOjy HarOMl1JIaHY HarreTOCT.
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POMAHA
. t1Ma jenanaecr romma. Ben ronany nana, OTKaKO ce MaMa pa3BeJIa, y lhl1XOBOMp;OMYsnana cnora l1 xapxonaja jep CBOj )f(HBOT aacanaajy ua rtpxaunDI1Mac TBapaJIa'lKOr BaCIlHTaI-ba. Ilpanyna, YCJIOBlbaBaI-beH Bep6aJIH3aM cy sa lbHX AaBHo npOlllJIO spesee.
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POMaHa

OBHX naaa nexa MOpa rrpHTHCKa POMaHY a HeMHp je yurao Y iseao cp~e. npl1 6nH)KaBa ce nponehan pacrrYCT. Caaootipaaosan,e, caMopap;, panna p;eMOI( . . paTHJa ysenexa Je onasno H rrpHpop;Ha nocnennua cY POMaHHHe nerxne 6nT1CTas a xyha H POMaHHHO J1 MaMJ1HO3ap;OBOlbCTBO. Osor rryTa MaMa crrpeMa Po Mal{l1 npaso J13HeHa~elbe - rrYT Y Eyp;J1MrreIllTY, IllTO he 6J1TJ1caao KpYHa rr03l1 Tl1S_ HOCTJ1xoja snana y noponaua, Masra TO MO)Ke na npayurrx CBOMp;eTeTY .' ,anl1 Je neaanonorsaa Jep He BJ1p;J1pap;OCT aa JIJ1lJ;ycsor nerera, fIOTemJ1 cY CTape neh aatiopaszseae pe'lJ1 "TJ1 CJ1He3aXBaJIHa! [a caM Moma aa ner CTOTl1HaMapa- '
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xa p;a 06HOBJ1M nponehay rapnepotiy" J1CnJ1'1HO.POMaHa je J1Mana npase HOnl{e Mope paaxxurzsajyha KaKO MajKY osora rryTa p;a ysene y rr03J1TJ1BHOCTJ1npexn. He JIaHalJ; HeraTJ1BHOCTJ1. )J;OKje srajxa 6J1JIa aa rrOCJIY POMaHa je, rro KO 3Ha KOjU rryT rrpenJ1CTaBana "EyKBap" J1npoaauma peIllelbe y onezsxy "fIJIaHJ1paj TJ1, nnanapahy ja", CeJIa je J1 OP;JIytJHOaanpamora CBOj nnan aKTJ1BHOCTJ1 aa Hapep;HJ1X cenasr nasa xparxor nponehnor pacrrycTa, mrrajyha caxo csoje cplJ;e urra )KeJIJ1.POMaHa je )KeJIeJIana najaehx neo pacrrYCTa rrposene ca CBOjJ1Mp;pyrapJ1lJ;aMa, jep nyra 3J1Ma J1HarropHO ytJelbe HJ1CYp;03BOJbaBaJIJ1 norpetiy sa p;pY)KelbeM. fIo)KeJIeJIa je p;a ca npyrapJ1lJ;aMa J1p;ey 6J10CKOrr, aa KOHlJ;epTlbJ1XOBeOMJ1lbeHe rpyrre, )KeJIeJIa je na orrepe rrp030pe y CTaHY,)KeJIeJIaje p;a naa nana rrpOBep;e ca TaTOM, )KeJIeJIaje p;a ce ca P;pyrapanasra J1rpa y CTaHY J1y rrapKy. CBe IllTO je )KeJIeJIa CTaBJ1JIaje POMaHa y CBOj JIJ1'1HJ1nnan. Xpa6po je CBOjnnaa OCTaBJ1JIana CTOJ1OTJ1IllJIay IllKOJIy. Masra je sartnaxana on cpehe rrpO'lJ1TaBIllJ1 nocnemsy pesenany POMaHJ1HOr rrzraaa: "MaMa, xao IllTO CJ1aexana rrJIaHJ1pana m06anHO, a ja ce rrpJ1KlbytJJ1BaJIa CBOjJ1MMJ1HJ1rrJIaHOMy m06aJIHJ1 rrzraa aaure noponaue, cana, xana caM nopacna Ca'lJ1HJ1JIacaM CBOjJIJ1'1HJ1nzran, oxexyjyha p;a hem ce TJ1pano yKlby'lJ1TJ1 y isera CBOjJ1MMJ1HJ1rrJIaHOM. Taxo hem J1TJ1Me rrosroha na MOj nnaa ycneurao peaJIJ13yjeM. Massa, YKOJIJ1KO )KeJIJ1Illna rryryjeur y Bynxsmeurry, HeMa rrp06JIeMa. [a hy OCTaTJ1Y KyhJ1 ca 6aKoM, a CBOjnnan hy OCTBapJ1TJ1." Hapasno p;a MaMa BJ1Ille HJ1je )KeJIeJIa rryT y Eyp;J1MrreIllTY. Cpehaa IllTO joj je nere onpacno, naaerao J1caMOCTaJIHO,IllTO 3Ha p;a nourryje J1csoje aarone J1csoje cpue, cena je J1aanncana CBOjMJ1HJ1 rrnaa KOjJ1je 060raTJ10 POMaHHH rrnaa J1yHeO nperpurr lby6aBJ1 y p;OM. l. "Ja hy J13Bap;J1TJ1KapTe 3a KOHlJ;epT aa retie J1 rsoje p;pyrapJ1lJ;e. Op;BewOY aac rra KOHlJ;epT J1 y 06JIJ1)KlbOj rrOCJIaCTJ1'1apHJ1lJ;J1 sac Ca'leKaTJ1, jep MeHJ![ He npnja MY3HKa aaure OMHlbeHe rpyne." 2. "CKYBahy pyqaK aa Teb'e J1TaTY, KaKO6J1 BaM OCTaJIOIllTO BJ![IlleBpeMefla sa p;pY)Kelbe. "
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h 3eTH rop;HIlllbH OP;MOPKaKO 6HX TH ocn060p;Hna npocrop aa nrpy 3. ,,~ea ~: p,o~y p;pyrapHlJ;e. Ja hy 6HTH ua nocny P;OK ce BH nrpare, .a Hrra.K~y I< ~ peTxop;HO CBe p;a rrpHrrpeMJ![M KaKO 6H BaM 6HJIO IllTO rrpJ1JaTHHJe. M; :;eMO HOBYnorrry 3a nrpy y napxy H COKOBeKojItlMa heur rrO'laCTJ1TH 4." Y " CBo'e P,pYWTBOy naysa xrpe. . . J . 6HJIO xpaj a a TeK xana je POMaHa nouina H3 IllKOJIe pap;ocT JC 'A'rreJaMa HHJe, Ylf-' 3 . KOMaJIO rroTpe6Ho aa TOJIHKOpanocrn, rrJ1TaJIa ce I<na nOTOlJ;J1Ma." ap Je ra nOTe . 3a60paBlbana MaMHHY )KelbY - Eyp;HMneIllTY fIpep;JIo)KJ1JIa . a pOMaHa HJ1Je 6 MaJI< . J1orrMOp xana OHa KpeHe y IllKOJIYa lby he 'IYBaTH axa, . a MaMa Y3Me rOp;J1Illlb Je p, KpJ1JIe CY3aMa pap;OCHJ1lJ;aMaxana je CXBaTJ1JIaHece6J1'1HOCT M 'QJ1HeoQJ1 cy 3aJ1C aj eurry ynorpetiy npJ1HlJ;J1na CB no KojeM norpefie npyror sarsa ora p,eTeTa J1 B CB HerrpeKJ1rrHO CTBapaTJ1 n03J1TJ1BHe eMOlJ;J10HaJIHeYCJIOBe3a lbJ1XOYBa)J(aBaTJ1 J1 . Masra ce nJ1TaJIa y ce6J1 p;a JIJ1je Eyp;J1MneIllTa isena )Kelba By caMopeaJIJ13alJ;J1JY J1 cataa HJ1J'e3HaJIa na na onrosop. YocTaJIOM, BpeMe he Op,JIY'lJ1h J![nJ![ norpe 6 a. H TJ1.3a cana nocrol casro npnnpeaa aa ycneIllHO J1neno rrponenea npone HH pacM M M

nycT lbeHe hepKe.

BACI1JlI1JE
npH6JIH)KaBa ce 'IeTpp;eCeTJ1 po~eHp;aH a BacJ1JlJ1je je J1nazse OKOpeJIJ1He)Kelba. Haje 3aCTpaHJ10. BOJIJ1)KeHe, aJIJ1 ce HJ1aa jenny He seayje. He BOJIJ1o~ Jb~X, He BOJIe one isera rrpeTepaHo. Ilposeny ce neno, J1CnYHe jep;Ho npyroa JOIll Je~HO aexe H CBe ce 3aBpIllJ1 "P;06PJ1M ceKCOM" 6e3 o6ehalba J1 nane na he. ce 6ap JOIll jep;HoM BJ1p;eTH.BaCHJIJ1je 6paK He )KenJ1 HaKO J1Ma COJIJ1p;HeMaTepHJaJIHe yc~oBe aa noxerax. Y1Ma CTaH'IJ1h J1 He 6aIll BeJIJ1KY, aJIJ1 P;OBOlbHY rrJIaTY, KOJOM 6J1 Morao na 3arrJIJ1Ba y 6pa'lHe sone. Hanrpamsy J1Ma, aJIH 6a3e HeMa. Ea3Y y CTBapJ1 He )KeJIJ1,He )KenJ1 6paK, He )KeJIJ1noponauy, He )KeJIJ1p;elJ;y. CMa.Tpa na je )KJ1BOT6eCMJ1CJIeH J1 xana ra npOBOp;J1 cax, a KaMOJIJ1ynsoje H He p;aJ EO)Ke YTpoje,Y'leTBopo. . . . B orra Ofl CKJIorrlbeHJ1X rJIep;a J1rraMTJ1 J1CKycTBa CBOJJ1X npnjarezsa. mne pa3B 6paKOBa. Macro nanyurreae neue. Mucro seycneumax 6paKOBa KOJH onCTaJY 360r re neue. BHP;H Baca He3aXBaJIHY neuy on xoje pOp;J1TelbJ1 HHKaKBe KOPJ1CTJ1HeMajy. rOBOpJ1JIa je neno lbeMY lberOBa MaMa: "XpaHHJIa caM nca na Me Yjep;e". He )KeJIH Baca na OH HeKOMe TO rosopn cYTpa. He )KeJIH na 6yp;e POP;H. ., POP;HlJ;H Telh 360r xojer 6H iserosa neua narnna xao IllTO )e OH naTHO y CBO)O)no . npaBp;ao ce Baca, TeIllHO, noxyuraaao na Tac castohe, oTy~elba, KOMOp;J1TeTa,
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Ha~Bna~aTaCnOpO~HqHOrXaOca

".TaCnpHpO~e.TaCCPQa.

Il OCneCBerae

Pue

Cpue BaCHHOnpoaaurno je Ilopo~HqHH 6YKBap" H CXBaTHnona ce CBeyra llIeno MO)Kepa36YKTaTH H ~a nnaxrena H )Kapa y )KHBOTYnehe 6HTH ~OK He peaJII1_ syje CTa6HnHYBe3YH nopO~HQY Ilpecrao je Baca na passonuzsa KaKO~aHac HeMa ~eBojaKa cnpeanax sa 6paK. KaKOcy CBeHe3pene. CBe nyjKe". Pa3YMeo je ~a ce
CBeyqH Kp03 HCKYCTBO. a HHKO(HH OH) He MO)Ke6HTH cnpesran aKO ce61111 ~PY_ rOM He npY)KH llIaHCY H KOHKpeTHen03HTHBHe eMOQHOHanHe ycnose sa )KHBOT11 pa~. A CBeje pa~. H npHnpeMe aa 6paK xao H caM 6paK.

UKOMe HHje aasrepao aKO nenrro HHje ypaheao KaKO rpetia. IlOIliTOBatI~I<O H .. HHQHn CB no xojess rpelliKa. sanpano, H He rrOCTO)H.06aBJbeHH pa~)e P 1l~ cy n ael< 6uo y cxnany ca lbHXOBHM rrCHxo<pH3HqKHMMorynH~cTHMa H y cKna~y ca

BOM Barsano j e casro 6e3ycnoBHo xexaru. BaCHnH)e H 30pHQa cy 3HalIH ~Cl<yCT . Aa qeKajy je~HO npyro. .. . ,f.(aaalIHcy clI060~y jezmo npyroi snajyha na je cnofiona aajaehn p;OKa3 Jby6a-

a~. a a

xo ce OHasnoyrrorpetia

3HaqH ~a Jby6aBH HHje HH 6HlIO. Hxje ce BaCHnH-

[e omepenHBao IlITO je 30pHQa nerro se-re 6Hna. KaKOpeqe. KO~CBO)e~pyrapHQe. H~cy ra pa3p;HpalIe cyMlbe. Ila lIH ra je 30pHQa xoja je 6HlIa necer rO~HHa MlIat)a on lbera Morna HanYCTHTH?Cana je Bacamrje pa3MHllIJbaOnpyraxnje: sesa AKO Me 30pHna HanYCTHTOhe 6HTH notipo, jep Jby6aBH H3Me1)yMeHe H ise HeMa. a IlITa he HaM

Iloxeo je Bacannje na paascnnzsa 0 nesojua ca KOjOM ce nOBpeMeHO BHt)ao.

KOjOj ce spahao, xoja My ce YBeK aanasxna xana My je 6Hno nocanno, Ka~a je 6HO aaner H He3a~OBOJbaH. J1cTHHa.nepaapano ra je MHoro rora KO~rse. Pa3je~aJIeey ra CYMlbe. Jby60Mopa. rnrrajyha ce rne je 6Hna H IlITa je pazncra y naY3H lbHXOBor BHt)alba. Macro rora joj je 3aMepao. Hacrojao je na Melba nexe iseae HaBHKe.nOKyurasao je ~a je aarepa na MHcnH npyraxaje, anH OHace HHje nana. J1cToBpeMeHOce 6paHHO O~ lbe H isemrx CYMlbH H lbeHHX 3aMepKH. CBe ce saapurasano )KeCTOKOM CBat)OM.nOTOMHe)KHOllIny" H aa xpajy ceKCOM. Y Me1)YBpeMeHY. y naY3H BHt)alba ca OBOMnenojxov HMao je 6e36poj nesojaxa, Bpexre je nererro. )KHBOT H Jby6aBHe sese" qHHHne cy ce Bacanzjy H ~aJbe 6eCMHcneHe H npa3He.

6e3 Jby6aBH". 30pHQa HHje onnaaana jep ce on noripa He 6e)KH.

Jep;Hor nana 30pHQa 06aBeCTH Bacy na he YCKOPOOH nOCTaTH OTaQ. Cpeha H pap;OCTHHHje 6Hno xpaja. 03BaHHqHllIe Be3Y.He onoure na Me~eHH MeceQ. jep je CBHXOBHXnperxonnax nnanecer MeceQH 6HO Mep;eHHMeceQ. HOBaQ ca csan-

6e. HaKOra HHje 6Hno MHoro. OCTaBHllIe na CTpaHY na cnpeano ~OqeKajy 6e6y.
CBe IlITO je Hap;01Ia3Hno6Hno je HOBO.jour HenpO)KHBJbeHO HCKYCTBO H aa BaCHlIHja H 3a 30PHQY. )J,ora1)ajHcy ce MelbanH. amr npHHQHnH CB ocrajazni cy HCTH.Xpa6pHlIH cy jenao npyro, )KHBOTje HaCTaBHOna rexe

Ilpennoxoro je 30PHQH na npoBe~y HeKonHKO MeceQH HeBeHqaHH y iseronoxr

CTaHY)KHBenH no npHHQHnHMa CTBapanaqKOr sacrurrarsa xoje je seurro caszranao qHTajynH EYKBap". CBe je snao aa reopajcxou nnany, amt cana je xceneo y O~HOCHna CBe cnponene y npaKcy. YKHHynH cy npHHy~y H ycnoazsanaise

6e3 npHHyp;e H ycnoarsaaarsa, 6e3 saaena cy peqH onpas casco

palba jep rpeurxe cy HM 6Hne nYTOKa3 aa n03HTHBaH passoj, OqHTaBanH cy eMOuaje jenao p;pyroM H HHCYce KaqHnH sa peqH suajyha yHyTpallIlbe~ n03HTHBHe eMOQHOHanHeycnose sa caaopan, rrpoQec yqelba H pap;. 3ap;OBOJbCTBa HlIH He3a~OBOJbCTBa.CTBapalIH cy jenno npyroa CTpnJbHBO cy H gyro

Ma. CBaKYHeraTHBHY axunjy, Be)K6anH cy na 6p30 npeBa3Kna3e caahe H cyMlbe

npexnnajyha

seurro nanau HeraTHBHOCTH.Kan ron cy 6HnH JbYTH.6eCHH. xana 3aYCTaBJbanHcy ce6e H csoje

6e3ycnoBHo
je caao

HM ce yqHHHnO ~a no-nosy na Mp3e oaor ~pyror nH HH3 npajarnocra,

qeKanH na CBe p;o1)e na csoje MeCTO.Ipeurxe HHCYnocrojane.

Ilocrojao

pexa. Hexana na ce Y36ypKaHe H HeraTHBHe eMoQHje CMHpe a nOTOMCMHIlIJbaHH3 KOHKpeTHHXn03HTHBHHX axunja KaKO6H onaj ~pyrH 6HO IlITO 3a~OBOJbHHjH. qHTajynH Ilopo~HqHH 6YKBap" no KO3Ha KOjH nyr, nponaurnn cy KOjHMsacnOTpe6a. HeOCTBapeHHXH3BOPHHXnarona, cmrcax HCKpHBJbeHHXH3BOPHHXHarOHa nHTHHM THnOBHMa npnnanajy. HaqHHHlIH cy cnncax nepeanaaoaanax

Ilaaac Baca cnana rrenecern pohennaa,

a 30pHQa ce 61IH)KHqeTpp;eceToj. J13a

ee6e HMajy orpoMHo n03HTHBHO 6paqHO HCKYCTBO. Hcnpep; ce6e rreropo snpase, Beeene neue. J1 nazse saajy ~a nOpO~HqHO 61Iaro sazsa YBenaBaTH. Bnaro ce yBe-

hasa, pacre caao, npHMeHOMnpaauana

jy. xojy noaece )KHBOT.

CB aa cBaKY HOBYnOpOp;HqHYcHTyaQH-

rpynehn ce na CBaKOcaaxora nO~CTHqe. MOTHBHllIe na pa~ H caMocn03Hajy. OKO

nOClIOBa y KynH HHCYce cnopHlIH CBeje 6Hno aarracaao caste je Tpe6alIO 06ene)KHTH KOjH nocao he nanac KO ypa~HTH a nocao ce 6Hpao no cPQY. J!1cTHHa. MHoro rora HHCY3HanH ana. cy noraaramr jenno ~pyroM. OH je isy yqHO ~a neaa a OHa isera na nerrra KOIlIYJbe.OH fuy na 3aMeHH cHjalIHQY. a OHa rsera ~a 3arrp)KH nacyzs ~OKje OHaxa nocny, HHKO HHKora HHje npecmnuaaao IlITa je ypap;UO. - 364-

Baea rna~H csoje 6pKoBe. can.apn KaKOhe CHryPHO CTHnH p;anO)KeHHCHHOBe. y~a nepKe. p;06Hje yay-orhe. Carsapn Baca KaKOhe oCTBapHTH CBOjy Hecn03HaTY rroTpe6y H3 nermscraa, 360r xoje My HHKap;pap;oCTHHje 6Hna KOMnlIeTHa. Bap y3 jep;HO yny-re he HayqHTH na CBHpaxapMOHHKY.na MaKap HayqHo caao jenny rrecMy. rreeMy csora )KHBOTa.Kana HayqH na CBHpapaaayhx he xapMOHHKYH CPQeMsarreBaTH30po. 30pyne". Tlocne rora, H na yMpe. He 6H )KalIHO. nonaje Baca. - 365-

CJIA1)AHA M MMJIAH
Cnahaaa J1Ma nesernaecr roznnra a MJ1llaH nsanecer TPJ1. Cpena cy ce . ' 3alby611_ llJ1, aaaonenx. I-bJ1XOBa seaa Tpa)e Ben ronaay nana. Bpesre rrpse 3alby6 '. lbeHOCTI1 .)e npomno. CBe BpeMe KO)e He rrposone y crraBalbY nocsehyjy jenno TTpy ,..., rOM. AOI< ponarezsa pall.e OHJ1 nposone BpeMe y iserosoa J1llJ1lbeHOM CTaHY Ka . . 11. P0ll.J1Te_ JbJ1 oKyrrJ1pa)y CTaHOBe Czrahana J1MJ1llaH onnase y rroceTY CBO)'J1M rrpTK' . '. n)aTelbl1Ma nocehyjy Kaqmne, rnynape, )ep HOB~a sa KBallJ1TeTHJ1)' e J13llaCKe HeMa)'y C ' '. . MaTpallJ1 cy 11. a !e cramra yrryhenocr jenner xa npyro 1l.0Ka3 rrpase Jby6aBJ1. Aocall.a J1MOHOTOHJ1)a ce ysyxne y lbJ1XOB)KJ1BOT,Mall.a J111.aJbe'le)KlbJ1BO rrpJ1'lajy 0 6paI<y.

Jia JbJ1x? Hehe llJ1 yrrporraCTl1TJ1 CBOjy neuy 60pehJ1 ce na CBaKO yrpall.J1 6alII CBOj tdo,uell, jep jep;l1HO rsera noanaje. OlJ.lIY'lJ1llJ1cy ll.a J13BplIIe npJ1rrpeMe, Hayqe rrpJ1H~J1rre CB, CBe aayxeno crrpo-

e,uy Y npaKcy.

s Mo,uellJ1 aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1, y lbJ1XOBOMp;eTJ1lbCTBY,6l1lll1 cy BpllO jaKJ1. Kall. roll.

Mop;ell lberOBe MaMe, 611 OHa O,ullyqJ1lla na He rrOHOBl1 Mop;ell npeaaurrxhaaarsa, J1 J{a,uaje OH Mopao p;a pasaaja HarOH sa caaopanosr ueno iseroso 6J1ne ce 6YHJ1110.}::(aHl1CYsnana ll.a 3aYCTaBe ranac HeraTl1BHOCTl1, CJ1ryPHO 611 P;OlIIllO P;O y3ajaMHJ1XomY)K6l1 l1 11.0csahe, Ha cpehy 3HalIJ1 cy TO, l1 xan roll. 611 OCeTJ1lll1 p;a he ,uohJ1,uo cBat)e,,uo Mp)Klbe, 6eca OHl1 cy ce cxnaisanx a ocraszsana BpeMeHY na l1M ce HeraTl1BHe eMoQl1je rrpl1Ml1pe. Kana 611 ce opacnonoaconr J13lla3J1llJ1 cy jenno npe,u,upyro ca HJ130M rrpelJ.lIora J1n03J1TJ1BHJ1Xaxuaja, CBaKe sesepx cy rrpaBJ1llJ1 rn06allHJ1 nnaa pall.a J1cYTpallllbJ1X aKTJ1BHOCTJ1. OHa je CTpnJbJ1BO xexana na ce MJ1llaH 3aKa'lJ1 MaKap aa jenaa nocao, xexana je 6e3yC1l0BHOaaajyhn na je lbeMY CBe TO BpllO TelIIKO, jep y )KJ1BOTYHJ1lIITa HJ1je panao. Kana je MJ1llaH J1CTJ1HCKJ1 sasoneo Cnahany, HJ1je My 6J1llO remxo p;a joj nonpaaa rauray, CnpeMJ1 nopysax, onaece otiyhapy iseae uanene J1 CllJ1'lHO. IloHOCHO ce BJ1111e y KaBe3Y, KaKO ce He 60jJ111.a xsamro CBOjJ1Mp;pyrOBJ1Ma KaKO Cnaha He )KJ1BJ1 My ce OHa aehe BpaTJ1TJ1. XBallJ10 ce ll.pyroBJ1Ma KaKOje rrpeCTao na sasrepa Cllat)J1 na CJ1THJ1QaMa,jep cy My ra 3aMepalba sarop-raaana )KJ1BOT. Ylla3J1lIJ1cy CBe p;y6Jbe y ll.aTO saarse J1 CXBaTJ1lIJ1 p;a ynJ1 y rrpOCTope lby6aBJ1 J1 A06poTe, 3Ha'lJ1 osnanara rrpJ1MeHOMrrpJ1H~J1fIa craapazraxxor sacmrraisa, y CBJ1M 06llaCTJ1Ma)KJ1BOTa.060je cy rro'lelIJ1l1.Y60KOna paayxejy csoje pomrrezse. OrrpOCTJ1lIJ1 cy J1Maeaaaise xoje cy HaCllep;J1lIJ1 011. CBOjJ1X pomrrezsa J16J1llJ1cy CpenHJ1111TOce rrpJ1ponarezsa. EJ1llJ1cy CpenHJ1lIITO npeMajy sa 6paK KOjJ1aehe llJ1'lJ1Tl1aa 6paK lbJ1XOBJ1X he lbJ1XOBanena 6J1Tl1nonrreheaa narrse xojy cy OHJ1rrpO)KJ1BellJ1y CBOMp;eTJ1lbCTBy. Pall.OCT ce ycenana y lbJ1XOB)KJ1BOT.CXBaTJ1llJ1 cy KOllJ1KOcy lbJ1XOBJ1canaunsa Oll.HOCJ1 Ay60KJ1. JOlII nyro cy Be)K6allJ1 rrpJ1H~J1rre KOjJ1cy HOCJ10QJ1osor anaisa, npJ1MelbyjynJ1 J1X na CBe a3e csora aatiaazsaa,a J1 npanpenajyha ce aa 6paK l1 op;roj neue, xoja he paC~J1 y cpeha l1 3all.OBOJbCTBY.

Ona je saazra lIITa lbeMY onrosapa. HJ1je saana na je OH rrOCllell.J1~a rrpe3alIITJ1_ ~eHOCTJ1, anrr ~e notipo YBJ111.ella ~a ra J111.aJbesazsa rrpe3aIlITJ1nJ1BaTJ1. Yrat)alla My )e y CBeMYHJ1)e ce mrrana sa CBO)e rrorpetie, Oll.YBeK je saana ll.a ce y Jby6aBJ1 Balba 60pJ1TJ1 sa onor npyror, YOCTallOM TO je 'lJ1HJ1lla J1 rsena MajKa, caxro je Cllat)aHJ1 OCTallO aejacao 3alIITO cy J1MajKa J1OHa ocrane He3all.OBOJbHe. . Oaor rpeaa, xana je rroxcezrena na caaa one KOll. ll.pyrapJ1~e, Manan je rrocrajao HerrpeMOCTJ1Ba npenpexa, CBe je Cnahaay Y)KaCHO noncerxno aa OHO lIITO je ~Oll.J1HaMa1l.0)KJ1BJbaBalla y CBOM 1l.0MY: crazme aatipaae Kall. roll. je J1 KYll.a roll. 6J1 )e noseno rseao cpue, Kao lIITO ce Be'll1TO OTJ1Malla J1fiopana aa rrap'le csora cpua Y rroponxna TOje noxyurasazra J1cana. CBe je xarnenano npyraxaje Hero y Be3J1, y 6paKY CBOjJ1X pO~J1rersa, a oner je 6J1llO l1CTO.MJ1llaH je 6110 rrOCeCl1BaH, Jby60MopaH, OHa cnpeMHa na ra npesaurrxhyje. qaK je J13ry6J1lla l1 BllaCTl1Tl1 CTl1ll onesaa,a. Ji13ry6J1lla je Czraba y OBOj Be3J1 MHoro rora amr je aacrojana ll.a o-rysa CBOjy Cll06011.Y jep je aayxana Aa ce sa rrapxe nzrasor He6a 60pl1 xao lIITO ce 60pJ1lla J1y noponaua. CBaKJ1 noxyurai ll.a ce J1360pJ1 sa Cll06011.Y npahen je Ml1llaHOBJ1M cueaasra, rserosoa Jby60MOpOM l1 lberOBJ1M KOMrrpOMJ1CHJ1M peurersmaa. OH aehe sexepac l1hl1 rne je HaYMJ10, a OHa cnoxrzseaa J1 ,,3aJby6JbeHa" npacrahe Aa He BJ111.J1 ll.pyrapJ1~y. 060je )KJ1Be y y6et)elbY na je TO Jby6aB a ocehajy Aa ce ryure y TOj "rrpeBellJ1Koj Jby6aBl1", jep pe3YllTaT csera je He3all.OBOJbCTBO J1 Cnahrrtro l1 MJ1llaHOBO. I-bJ1XOBMJ1P J1cnora Tpajy ~eKOllJ1KO nana a onna oner cYK06l1, oner csaha, orrer cyse, OHJ1 cana CTarHJ1pa)y y rr03J1TJ1BHOMpacTy, jep BJ1111e cy rtocrana 3llJ1 jezmo rrpeMa npyroa Hero lllTO cy 1l.06pJ1. He saajy nazraa J13 KOlIIMapa KOjJ1cy ueanaisev CTBOPJ1llJ1. 060je cy npoxarana "EyKBap". Bprro 6p30 cy CXBaTJ1llJ1 KOjJ1MBaCnJ1THl1MTl1noBJ1Manpananajy. OHa je 6J1lla rroczrennua )KeCTOKenpJ1HYll.e, a OH MaMJ1Hnpe3alllTI1neHl1 CJ1H.Y TpeHy cy paayraezrn na aKO OBaKBJ1yt)y y 6paK, 6J1ne TO rrOHOBJbeHI1 xaoc BJ1t)eH y BllaCTJ1TJ1Mnoponanasra. A TeK neua? KojJ1 he Mop;ell rrpl1MeHI1TI1
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nOclIe BJ1lIIerOp;l1lIIlber safiaarsatsa Beene l1 Cl1Me, nornxao je cnenxo 6paK, jep cy TO Mllall.l1 JbYP;l1KOjl1 cy onpacraznr y Tpap;l1Ql10HallHl1M noponauasra, y KOjl1Ma'je 6 pax 6110 rrorpetia l1 HeMl1HOBHOCTY p;yrorOp;l1111lbeM aatiaszsau-y notipo cy
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yrrosrrana MHoro

CBe cna6e raxxe

jenao

npyror,

Bxno

je MHoro

He3ap;OBOJbCT

rora

pY)KHOr lllTO cy 3Hanw jeznro 0 y 6paK.

Ce e, na rJIep; spenan, p;a Tpa)KW p;a 6yp;e y ~eHTpy rra)Klbe a t.. . , p;a >I<elll1 na ra OHa npesaurranyje, p;a )e excnnosxnan, p;a npazosea,e HarreTOCTTI l Hana3l1 Y cBaljw, ITa W y 3aMaxMBalbY PYKOM, y xapraisy, y 6ecKpajHo nyro rnep;alb . . y Tene_ BW3W)e,y HaBW)albY M ncoaaisy aa TpM6wHaMa cranaoaa, y xadiana ca . . 't' P;PYllITBOM. 3HaO)e OH p;a)e OHa aanopaa, I,IaHrpM3aBa, nocanaa CBO)'WMM360pOM TeMa aa pasrosop, nocecxsaa, Jby60MopHa, na PY)KHO npaxa 0 lberOBO)' Ma)'TTM . '. ~ ,p;a)e Bpep;_ aa amr ~ocne T~ra Tpa)KM OBa~W)e, rrpWMeTMO )e CMMa p;a je BecHa Ce6M'lHa rrpeMa lberOBO) MnaljO) cecrpa, COBHa MnM amnemresna Bwnw cy y 6paK. JIaHal.\ nerarxaaocrn na HarreTOCT npasaa nypersa W hyrarsa, Kp03 3BoTTalbe cyse Kp03 ~ , , BMllle'la_ p;a, p;a, na ... 6e3 063Mpa aa CBe yrrzro.

CBe p;OBeCTWy pep; ynacxosr . . npyre neaojxe, na HW)e 6alll

npyross ana cy 6Mnw YBepeHM Bxnena je OHa na CMMa sozrx rrM

aa,

6 MJIo' p;a he le

6J1TJ1najseha npajarezs,

p;a

nere

MO)Ke J1 Mopa 6J1TW aajsehe rrOpOp;M'lHO

Ta HJ1T je sornora M nonena BeCHY no "Ilopop;w'lHor yKBapa. 6naro. . . BecHa je xpa6po yrrnoBwna y craapanaxxo. C~BaTMna )e na )e rrpBM rr03WTMpa l.\J1. Majxa P;OHOCW)KMBOT M snpaazse W p;Y)KHa )e rta ra O'lYBa M YHanpeJlOpop;J1 " He xaxce aapon yaanyn: "TPW crytia xyhe )KeHa P;P)KM, a 'leTBpTM MywKapal.\, H on . rn en aj p;OM M rrpenosaaheur P;yllly )KeHe y lbeMY." CBe je 6MJIO naxo xana HnJ1 "no M ie BeCHa p;y60KO pa3YMena na cy OHa, My)K M lbMXOBM pOp;MTeJbJ1rrpOM3BOP; ACB-a ~ na 'lJ1TaB xaoc Y 6paKy nonaaa yrrpaBo 360r ACB. je aesaarse H nOTe3 op;peljeH aa lbY, jep )KeHa, MajKa WMa Ha)Behy.op;rOBopHOCT 3a craise y

~~

"

Onpocrnna
lbeMY, ce6M

je aesaaise

isero-

PJ1MJ1CBOjJ1Mpop;WTeJbMMa, orrpocrxna npeKJ1Hyna je nanau HeraTMBHOCTM.

M KpeHyna y pacr, .

)J;O'leKJ1Bana je CJ1MY xao csor n03WTJ1BHe axuaje na ce OH crnapao

rrpMH~a

aa 6enoM

KOlbY CMMlllJba)yhw

TaKBe p;a ce

J1ocehao, xao npJ1H~. )J;a He 6M MMcnMO osor

je 6MO 3aYCTaBJbeH aa

casro

HeKOJIMKOnaira.

Beh

rrocJIep;cep;aM

"Hajena 6yHMKe" peKna My je sa rajne jJ1TJ1nayxene O'leKWBana. He)!<HOCT, ocxrex, pa3YMeBalbe

saarsa J1p;op;ana p;a he OHa rrpBa OCBO-

iser naaa Mep;eHor Mece~a spariorx

cy ce crapoxr

YTa6aHOM rryTy. IlocJIe

rrpJ1H~Mrre. CTBapM cy ce Melbane na 60Jbe, 6p)Ke Hero lllTO je

Becaa
jep CBe

MeCel.\M y )KWBOTje yurao MaJIM MMxajJIO, ,,~ap" KOjM je nasao lllaHcy W TaTW CWMW, p;a ocaajajy na xyMaHy

MaMW Becmf noxasara

CBeCT. BMJIO je TO WCTOxao cnernry

yqMHMnJ1 cy na CMMa Tp'lJ1 CBOjOj

xyha,

npoaahe

spara

W npaaa

rryr, CMMa M rseroaa

MaMa BepOBaJIM cy M y6eljMBaml CYTpa he MMxajJIO ca

TO mrje Hana3MO y 3ap;MMJbeHoj KacpaHM, y TajHMM aesaxa. oceharsa MopeH. KpMBMl.\e MohJ1 p;a rrpO'lJ1Ta HOBJ1He, oncnasa

Haje

sepoaao

na he 6e3

BeCHY na CMMMHO BpeMe aa O'lMHCTBO p;OJIa3MTeK xacanje. CWMOM na YTaKMMl.\e, y KacpaHe, a naaac je CBe aa BecHM.

car MnM p;Ba xana je rrpe-

Cana

CBe TO MO)Ke.

Kana

My je BeCHa YBe'le, pacrrOnO)KeHa, P;OK je rnotianna

Mnxaj'lyBa

Becrra je 3aXTeBaJIa p;a ce OTa~ aKTMBHO yKJbyqM y pap; OKO nerera, pana M lllTO eKOHOMCKM M3p;p)KaBa rropop;M~y rmaxaa, nonanano

a TO lllTO

no 6J10 y p;y60KOM

CHY, nonynana

nzran KyhHMX 06aBe3a If 06aBe3a OKO p;a cyTpa ueno norronne BepoBana

HMje P;OBOJbHO.BMJIa je JbYTa, nexan

M3

HeKap; ra je rrorpp;HMM pe'lMMa p;O'leKMBaJIa ca rrOCJIa, CMMM

xadiaae. Hzje

ce

Maxajna, Maxajna,

6Mna

je sarexeaa

xana je CMMa onatipao

npennosorsurx

p;a Becaa one KOP; p;pyrapM~e. p;a 06aBJba CBe saocrane ca

Haje

p;a je CMMa y

lllTO ra je BeCHa p;O'leKMBaJIa rryaa jena, osajarsa, Jby60MopHa, cnpesnra nanypeaa. aa crsaparse

YBeK YMopHa,

0p;a6pao Cy60TY rrpe rronae,

aKTMBHOCTM na-nosene

He3ap;OBOJbHa, aaxresaa, pa3YMeBalba, onpaurrarsa,

PeTKO MJIM rOTOBO HMKap;, rryna rr03MTMBHMX eMO~MOHanHWX

TOKY nenezse P;OK OHa 6yp;e urerana

Maxajnosr. Hxje
Maxajnosr.

BeCHa BepOBana p;a je CMMa nposope, P;OK

OP;BOjMO p;Be csoje p;HeBHM~e M lbMMa nnarno cy ce lbMX nsoje 3ap;OBOJbHO 6aBMnM

)KeHY, xoja je orrpana

YCJIOBa, crrpeMHa aa 'lMlbelbe eMOl.\Mje, a He lberOBe pexa. YBMljana je BeCHa p;a neurro ra, OHa y KJIMH, OH Y nnoxy. sa OCBeTY 3a rrap Mecel.\M

rr03MTMBHMX axnnja,

cnocooaa

na O'lMTaBa rserose

BeCHa je CMMlllJbana HM3 rr03M-

TMBHMX aKl.\Mja sa lbera, ce6e M HMje y pep;y. Y noponzua ce

M

Mnxajna.

3Hana je p;a je lbeHa HarreTOCT nonaanna 3aTO je cana, KopMCTehM jep je

cy 6Mna BMp;Ha nsa CPPOH-

ycnep; He3ap;OBOJbCTBa, ana M YCJIep; CPM3M'lKOr npevopa. npenop;HeBHM caa MMXajnoBo

Haanpao

rpehn

CPPOHT,jep ce BeCHa crrpeMana

Maxajna,

J1CTOBpeMeHo M OHa cnasana,

nohac

6p;ena y3 na

6e6y he "YTparrMTM"

Maj~M.

Ona

he p;OTepaTM nMHwjy, W

HMl.\albe rrpBMx 3y6Mha. 3Hana je na CJ1Ma Mopa apenno

M

J1nanopao

pajae ya pave

rrparnra

csor MY)Ka, 'lYBaTM ra na He onnenprua.

Ilpyro,

Tpehe p;eTe?

pap;M, p;a 6M eKOHOMCKM M3p;p)KaBaO noponmry

3aTO je Mopao MMaTM MwpaH can. sa XyMana BpaTWse-repy, y

He rrap;a joj xa rraxrer,

Oaa

na rroaehasa

HaTanWTeT sexrrse, He nonasa he cana noxyurarn

y 063J1p. aHa

TaKMM'lMnM cy ce y CTBapalbY n03MTMBHMX eMOl.\MOHanHMX ycnosa, HlI paCT onor npyror ITa M csor. YBwp;eo je
M

Hehe na 6yp;e )KpTBa 6paKa Wneue. KO ce CWMa wrraK He norrpasx ~ MJ1Xajno? ,,)KMBOT

Oaa

na O'lYBa 6paK a YKonJ1-

CMMa na user

W norsytiau

M He onpexae

CBOjMX CTapJ1X HaBWKa, cnena pa3BOP;. reunora ce OHa. )J;y60KO y ce6J1

Ma HWcy P;OBOJbaH3HaK Jby6aBw, Hep;eJbYone na rnrjauy, 'lyBa

he TO B;h HeKaKO ypemrrx",

aznt Mxxajna

aKO OH naaac rrpJ1rrpeMM xnanny P;OK je

Becna

KOP; cpPW3epa M CnW'lHO, p;a je

Je ocehana p;a 6paK Mopa W MO)Ke 6WTW HajrrpwjaTHwje

MeCTO na cBeTY, p;a cyrrpyr

To p;eo MCTWHCKeJby6aBW. J1cTMHcKa Jby6aB je, CXBaTJlO je CWMa, aKO He pearyjc

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aa Becmnre nenpajarne peqH, Ben OqHTaBa lbeHY norpetiy na ce OgMOPH H na n poMeHH aKTHBHOCT. CXBaTHlIa je BeCHa na je CHMHHO npHCYCTBO y gOMy Ba)l(HO, aznr HenpOg 1<_ . . 6 . Y TJ1BHOYKOlIHKOHHJe 3agoBOJbHO CBOJe nOTpe e, a 0 lbHMa HHJe Bpegello gI1CI<YTo_ BaTH. Haje BeCHa HMalIa npaBo na Melba iseroae HaBHKe TaKO 6p30. 3aTo je gaHac noasana iseroao MymKO gpyllITBO, onsena HX y co6y me cy cnotionno ralIaMHlIl1 rryuramr H rnrjyuxana ys Hrpy nperpepaaca, gOK je OHa caxo nOBpeMeHO YlIa311~ na noaocehn HM Me3e, npasaeha HM neneJbape H uranehn ce ca CBHMa. llOTOM 611 6p30 OAlIa3HlIa y co6y KOAMnxajna, yxomajyha y rseroaoa ryryTalby H 61Iaro rnaAenH CBOj CTOMaqHh jep ce nooaaaxna Apyra rpynaoha aasxpana. Caisapana je 0 nesjo] rpaja H paAOCTH xojy he gOHeTH YMHO)l(eHa cTBapalIaql<a Jby6aB. Haje joj na naaer nanano mrraise Aa lIH he MohH CBOjOj Ae~H ga o6e36eAH "HajKe", ,,6ap6HKe" H MHoro rora, 0 qeMY cy npxxana ApyrH pozraren,n, npaanajyh ce na 360r rora He Mory Aa HMajy smne neue. DlIarOAeT xojy HOCHH AOHOCHcraapanasxa rroponmia je aajsehe 61Iaro, a "HajKe" H ,,6ap6HKe" cy cnopenna crsap. KOlIa, xyhe, 06e36eAHhe ce6H neua caaa xana nopacTy. Cana cy CHMa H Becaa 3HalIH Aa je yHyTpallIlbe 6oraTCTBo aajaaxomje H ga he TO yHyTpallIlbe 61Iaro xoje nOAape CBOjOj Ae~H, nOTpa)l(HTH H naha cnozsaunse. 06pHYTO ce HHKag HHje norabano. qHTao~H, HapOqHTO MaMe BOlle npaxepe H3 )l(HBOTa noponnue. Ilpuaepa cy nOTpe6HH y nOqeTKY, gOK CTe aYTOpHTapHH, HeKpeaTHBHH. Kana ce Barna aYTopHTapHa CBeCT rpancrpopamue y crnapanaxxy, Taga ce noraha nenora. CBaKa MajKa, OTa~ spuajy on Hgeja KaKO na na CTBapalIaqKH HaqHH perne gaTy crrryauajy, J1Majy CTOTHHe Hgeja KaKO na 6e3 Ka3He H narpane ycrrocrase rpaHH~e. Bacnxran-e npepacra y BecelIY Hrpy, y Jby6aB, "a Jby6aB CBe 3Ha, CBe paayrae, jep ce He ropnn"

VII

IlJ1TAlhA J1 O~rOBOPJ1

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TO He Mory na rrpare CBJ1,jep cy CJIYlllaOI.J;J1, Jby,n;J1pa3JIJ1'lJ1TOr Y3paCTa, pa3JIJ1'lJ1Tor J1HTeJIeKTyaJIHOr, 06pa30BHor J1 COI.J;J1jaJIHOr HJ1Boa. HJ1CaM J1XnOCJIYlllaJIa, jep caa oceharra ,n;aMe CBJ1paayvejy. ,1J;aHac3HaM J1sanrro Me CBJ1CJIYlllaOI.J;J1 pasyaejy, 6e3 063J1pa aa Y3paCT, aa 06pa30BHJ1 HJ1BO. Ha CBaKOMnpe,n;aBalbY 6J1JIO je caao Moje ,1J;o6pe HaMepe na nOHy,n;J1Msnarse, no xojer caM nouma TpJ1,n;eceToro,n;J1llllbJ1M pa,n;OM J1lbJ1XOBe notipe BOJbe ,n;aTO -ryjy. OncyCTBOnpJ1Hy,n;e 6J1JIO xoje BpCTe OTBapaJIO je, 6e3 nanre BOJbe, npOCTope Jhy6aBJ1. CBaKO je y npJ1'lJ1, 0 ,n;YXOBHOM pacTy Kp03 CTBapaJIa'lKO BaCnJ1TalDe, npen03Hasao aexae Bpe,n;HOCTJ1y ce6J1. Be-me, Jby,n;CKeBpe,n;HOCTJ1xao J1 J1CTJ1HaHe nOTpe6yjy 06pa30BalDe J1JIJ1onpebeae romme je 6J1JIOy lDJ1Ma. CTaPOCTJ1. CBe lllTO cy 'lyJIJ1 on MeHe, Ben

HorJ1 npajarersa cy MJ1YKa3J1BaJIJ1 na HJ1je notipo lllTO aa npBOM npenasalby ,n;aMnpeanure l1HcpOpMaI.J;J1ja0 CTBapaJIa'lKOM BaCnJ1TalbY, rspnehu ,n;a

CaMO cy peTKJ1, Jby,n;J1J13pa:>KeHerop,n;OCTJ1, y CTpaxy na he caoryurasura npJ1'ly no xpaja, MOpaTJ1,n;a MelDajy ce6e, 6e:>KaJIJ1maBOM 6e3 063J1pa, Ben nOCJIe HeKOJIJ1KOpenenrrna xoje 6J1X J13rOBOpJ1JIa. JhYBAB oxexyje Y3BpaTJ1JIa. na joj ce CBe npyaci 6e3J1HTepeCHO, KaKO 6J1 6e3J1HTepeCHO

npJ1'la J1CnpJ1'laHa C Jbytiaarsy, C ,1J;06pOM HaMepOM, na 6J1JIa TO J1npJ1'la 0 jenHOMo,n;Ha'lJ1Ha npoaeue ayTOpJ1TaPHe y CTBapaJIa'lKY CBeCT,MO:>Ke ce casro J1caCJIylUaTJ1 C Jhy6aBJby. qaK J1 ,n;aHe paayweur pe'lJ1, ocehaur Jhy6aB J1 ,1J;o6py HaMepy, a TO je ,n;OBOJbHO. ,1J;aaa npJ1jeM osor aaarsa npenpeKa HJ1CYronnae, otipaaoaaise, xasyjy 6pOjHJ1 npJ1MepJ1. Cehasr ce neroronaunsaxa KOjJ1je CnOHTaHO, nourro je na)KJbJ1BO cacrryurao ueny npJ1'ly, HanYCTJ10 KpJ1JIOpoznrrersa, KpeHyo xa MeHl1, C pYKaMa na JIe1)J1Ma, rOBOpenJ1: "E, Moja Ml1JIl1I.J;e,cana 3HaM 3allITO je :>KJ1BOT JIy,n;HJ1I.J;a!" Hl1KO ce 'Ial( HJ1je HJ1 nacxcejao, jep cy TO 6J1JIe l1 lbl1XOBe pe'll1.
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[our nerrnnr rrpJ1Mep je J13 )KeHCKOr 3aTBOpa. ,D;eceTJ1He rrJ1CaHJ1XJ1MrrpeCI1' . )a )KeHa, AaTJ1Xnoczre rrpeAaBalba, Morno ce rrpeTOqJ1TJ1 y cavo )eAHy peqeHJ1U;Y' K . " ' ao Aa CTe BJ1 J13rOBapalIJ1 MO)e peqJ1. . Ill'ra ce nemasa nocne npenasaisa! HajclIa6J1jJ1 OAYCTajy OA Aalber pall ",a, Vl3 crpaxa OA neycnexa, J13 CTpaxa na 6J1 360r pa31IJ1qJ1TOCTJ!IMOrnJ!I6J!ITVIJ!ICMe' " )aHVI J!IlIJ1 oA6aqeHJ!I. Crpax y6J!I)a )Kelby, )Kelba y6J!I)a BOlby. Ilpyra OAYCTajy rrpJ!IrrpnOM noxyiuajy na rrpeHecy OHO lllTO cy qYlIJ!I,OAYCTajy qJ!IMxyjy: "He rlbaBJ!I, OrreT TI1 ca HeKJ!IMTBOjJ!IMJ1AejaMa!". Ty je xpaj, Ycrrenajy caao OHJ1KOjJ!Icy AOIlIlIJ1na rrpenasatse ca u;elIOM rropOAJ1U;OM.TaKBJ1Xje MallO, aa cana, AKO je TO TaKO, rpeoano 6J1 Aa AO)KJ1BJ1M pa30qapelbe J1 0AYCTaHeM. PeTKJ1 cy 6J11IJ1y craisy na noxpeay CBOjy rrOpOAJ1U;y,aKO HJ!ICycKyrra rrpJ1CYCTBOBalIJ1rrpenasarsy J11IJ1 aKO HJ1CYCBJ1rrpOqJ1TalIJ1 KlbJ1ry. Hnax, He OAYCTajeM,jep 3HaM na ce cnyiuarran OTBOPJ10, rrpJ1MJ10 CJby6aBlby anarse. J.1aKo ce nocne Moje npa-re 3aTBOpJ10, OH HJ1KaAa BJ1IlIe aehe 6J1TJ1J1CTJ1,xao rrpe rrpenasarsa. Ban-a caxto CaqeKaTJ!I TpeHYTaK, CaqeKaTJ1 YClIOBeAa ce snarse rrpJ!IMeHJ1. OHJ!I he qeKaTJ1 na ce cTeKHY YClIOBJ1sa YKJ!IAalbeaYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ!IY lbJ!IXOBJ!IM rropOAJ1u;aMa, a ja hy ,n;albe rrpJ!IqaTJ!ICBOjyrrpJ!Iqy KaKO6J1x rronorna cTBapalbY yClIOaa aa rrpJ1MeHY snarsa crnapanaxxor sacmrratsa rra HJ1BOYMoje 3eMlbe J1IlIJ!Ipe. To qJ1HJ1Mnacarsea J1OBe KlbJ1re. Y OKBJ1PYOBe KlbJ1re, rrJ1IlIeM nornaazse "IlJ!ITalba J!I OArOBOpJ1" , ca rrOTpe 6OM,n;a o,n;rOBOpJ1Mna nocraszseaa J!Inerrocraarsena mrrarsa lby,n;J1KojJ1Ma je snaise CTBapalIaqKOr sacrnrrarsa y cpu;y, lby,n;J1KOjJ1J!Inazse Bepyjy y nopomnry, y Jby6aB J1,D;06pOTy, y 6y,n;yhHOCT CBeTa J1xoaexa.

Ji! JiarpaAe, alIJ!I lbJ1XOB 6poj je 3aHeMaplbJ1B. AKO cy y rrOpOAJ!IU;J1 J1 ycnemr, 6e3 J(a3He Ji!HarpaAe, ra aYTOpJ1TapHa crpaunrna cy J!IXxexazra y crrozsaunsesr cBeTY, IlpOlllJ1peHJ1M rropo,n;J1u;aMa, y ApylllTBy. Y CpehoM TaKBOM )KJ1BOTYAOlIa3J!I xpaj, Bacrnrraise 6e3 Ka3He J!Inarpane J11IJ1 O[1.rojsa cTBapaJIalllTBO je rrpBJ1 BacrrJ1THJ!Ixoanenr KojJ1 He ,n;peCJ!Ipaxosexa, sapan Ji!JiTepeca APYiliTBa, KOjJ1He rrpaBJ1 crrozsaunsn, seh qYBa J1 ynarrpehyje ynyrpallllbJi!, MJ1p, peA Crnapa TaKBe YCJIOBey KojJ1Ma u;elIoKyrrHJ1 qOBeKOB rrOTeHU;J1jalI, [1.oHeceH po1)elbeM U;BeTa, Y3pacTa, aa pa,n;ocT xosexa, Apyror xonexa, npyurrsa Y

UeJIJi!HJ1, xa paAocT rrpJ1pOAe J!IEora. OBa KlbJ1ra je J1CTJ1HCKJ1 Byxsap, npsa CJIOBaxoja he HayqJ1TJ!Icaspexeaa rropo[1.Ji!Ua xoja he ce TpaHccpopMJ1CaTJ1 J13 ayTOpJ1TapHe, uexosesae, y CTBapaJIaqKY, tJoBeqHY

MHOiu cene ga snajy ga nu cau ja KOMUeWeHWHa ga UUWeM EYK6ap, WUpUM U UpOHOCUMlleuowy ciueapanauxoi 6aCUUWa1ba U yweMelbyjeM je sa 6ygyhHOCW.
Ila, KOMrreTeHTHa caa, oAroBapaM ca cnrypaourhy, He CKpJ1BajyhJ1 na caM on rrpo<pecopa jyrOCJIOBeHCKe J1 CBeTCKe KlbJ1)KeBHOCTJ1J!I3paCJIa y crsapana-ncor nenarora. Y unconasra Beorpana caM qeTBpT sexa, noxrarana CBOjJ1MyqeHJ1UJ1Ma na J!I3pacTy y CBeCHe lbYAe, rrperryHe Jby6aBJ1 rrpeMa KlbJ13J1 J1 lllKOJIJ1. Pa,n;J1JIJ1CMO aa rrpJ!IHU;J1rrJ1Ma CTBapaJIaqKOr sacnararsa xoje je YTeMelbJ10 noxojan nenosnaTI1J!IHerrpJ13HaTJ1 nporpecop IlETAP CABJ.1n, y CBOMAeJIY "HOBa IIIKOJIa", 1932. lJeTBpT sexa J1CKycTBa y paAY ca yqeHJ1U;J1Ma, HeKOJIJ1KOronnna J1CKycTBa y pa,n;y ca AeU;OMBpTJ!IhKOr Y3pacTa. IlocJIeAlbJ1X necer ronnna, on KaKO caM nanncalla "IloPOAJ1qHJ1 6YKBap" J!IYTeMelbJ!IJIa rrOpOAJ!IU;yJ1 rrOpOAJ1qHe onnoce aa CTBapalIaqKJ!IM rrpJ1HI~J1rrJ!IMa,na O,n;CYCTBY KA3HE J.1 HArPA,D;E, IIIJ!IPJ1MHeyMOPHOOBO aaarse aa caaxosr MecTY rne je qOBeK, a rne je jenan qOBeK Ty je uena rropo,n;l1u;a. IlpJ1 TOM casr J!IHayqHO YTeMelbJ1JIa OBO snarse, saxnarsyjyha snarsy o rreTO, IlIeCTO, ceAMO J!IOCMoelIeMeHTHoj eneprercxoj CTpyKTypJ!I xao J1saarse 0 l'P0J13BOPHOCTJ.1, xoje caM ,n;o6J!IJIaon rocnonnna Ilapxa (cana seh npenanyJIor reHJ1ja) J1 Bepe 1)op1)eBJ!In, iseroaor najycneunmjer yqeHJ!IKa. Iloaesana caM aYTOPJ1TapHe BaCrrJ!ITHe Mo,n;elIe ca OBJ1MeHepreTCKJ!IM CTpYKTypaMa J!IA06J1l1a OArOBope na Moryne cyMlbe po,n;J!ITelba J!Icrpy-nsaxa J!Irnrrarse xoje lIe6AJ!I Me1)y liaMa: ",D;alIJ!Ije Moryne sacmrrarse 6e3 Ka3He J!IHarpaAe, na 1IJ1je qOBeK crrpexian
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3aunuo eauia taeuia UMa y Ha3U6Y .Byxeap ': aqa 6aCUUWa1be uociuoju oWKaga je C6eWa U eexa, a 6yK6ap je uuax upea iaeuia, upea Cl106a?
HapaBHO Aa je peq "EYKBAP"rroTrrYHo y CKlIaAY ca OHJ!IMlllTO KlbJ1ra Hy,n;J1.0[1. rraMTJ1BeKa, rra cse no naaaunsnx nana qOBeK je cnorsa, ayTOpJ!ITapHO, BaCrrJ1TaBao cnoje rrOTOMKe, rrpanarohanao J1Xnorperiaaa J13aXTeBJ!IMa spesreaa J1,n;pYUITBay KojeM ce )KJ1BelIO.3aXTeBJ!I, MOpalIHJ1 Ko,n;eKCJ1 cy ce MelbalIJ!I, caMO cy aYTopJ1TapHJ!IMo,n;elIeoncrajanx, caao je qOBeK Mopao 3a6opaBJ1TJ!I aa ce6e, na cBoje yHyTp~unse norpetie, na CBOj, po1)elbeM ,n;OHeCeHJ!I rrOTeHU;J!IjalI,na rrorpeoy na pa3BJi!)a KJlJ.1QE JbYEABJ.1, PA;::(OCTJ.1, ,D;OEPOTE. lJoBeK je 6J10 y cpyHKU;J!IjJ!I ,n;pylllTBa. PeTKe rropo,n;J!Iu;ecy CJ!IrypHo ,n;elIJ!IMJ!IqHO ycrreBalIe na onroje CBOjy neuy 6e3 I<a3He
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BaTaJlJ1TeT
Jb

ce He noaehasa casto

paharsesc,

HaTaJIMTeT ce nosehasa O'IyBa-

etd )IUfBOTa J1 snpaarsa seh pohemrx.

YBeK ce ca TyroM CeTJ1M MJIal1.MX lbYl1.M y

. . J1 rrOMMCJlJ1Msaurro cy MCKlbY'IeHM J13 MMa y 6 OJlHJ1u;aMa, aa rrCJ1XJ1JaTpMJJ1 sa'fB op ' . )l<MBOTa, saurro HJ1CY Y CBOjJ1M noponauaraa rne rpetia na unrpe lby6aB J1 rrosehaBajy HaTaJlJ1TeT. nop0l1.J1u;a HJ1je rrpesasaheaa, J1 nehe HeCTaTJ1. MO)Kl1.a he J1MaTJ1 06JIJ1K KaKaB PeKJIa caM na he <popMa, MO)Kl1.a, 6J1TM J1CTa,

Ila nu je

Mofylie ga ce ciueapanauxo 8aCUUWa1be UpUMe . _. Ha HU80Y JegHol napoqa, Jep CaMO WO UMa CMUClla?
Me 'IeCTO: "JJ:a JU1 je Moryhe

ie MMaJla naTpMjapXaJIHa
HU rdJ.1CaTJ1ayTOpJ1TapHy

noponana.

~nJ.1he CBe CYlllTJ1HCKJ1 6MTM l1.pyra'IJ1je, jep he CBJ1'IJIaHOBM noponaue CBeCT y CTBapaJIa'IKY, BacnJ.1THJ1X MOl1.eJIa. MJ1CJIJ1M na je 06JIJ1K "naTpJ1japXaJIHe"

rpancdiop-

YKJ1l1.albeM CBJ1X ner aYTOpJ1TaPHJ1X

Ilxrajy

jenaor napona:

(" 3

na CTBapaJIa'IKO

6Yl1.e

rrpJ1MelbeHO

na HJ1B
oy CBeCT J1Ma

HaM J13alllTO Me TO narajy, Ilrrrajy,

jep ayTOpJ1TaPHa

xpaopocr l1.a rrpJ1XBaTJ1 caao OHO lllTO je rrpJ1XBaTJ1JIa BehJ1Ha. YBeK l1.aM rrOTBpl1.aH
Ol1.rOBOP, na 6J1 J1CTpajaJIJ1 y rrpJ1MeHJ1 J1JIJ1y 'IeKalbY. Carypna he. 3HaM l1.a npsa <pa3a unrpersa y3 rrozroh KaTJ1l1.a crpy-nsaun saarsa CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarsa

caa l1.aje TO MoryJ1l1.eBPJIO 6P30, Bazsa caseMO)Ke nacmrraa,e

nopomme aajnoneCHJ.1jJ.1 jep he ce y rsoj Ol1.BJ1jaTJ1)KJ1BOT 0l1. noserxa l1.0 xpaja. CBe renepaunje he 6J.1TJ.1 na oxyrry J1 nosrarara jenaa npyroj xana je HeonX0l1.HO. JJ:a 6J1l1.eTe onpacno nOTpe6Ho je ,,'IJ1TaBO cerro", nOTpe6HJ1 cy J1 6a6e J1l1.el1.e J1 CTpJ1He M yjne, CTapM 3l1.paBO M'IeCTMhe MMpHO HarrYUITaTM oaaj CBeT, 3HajyhJ1l1.a aa C060M ocraarsajy TO nOTOMCTBO. Iloponaua he na rpaje J1 CBe lllTO joj ce cana uenpnjarno neurasa [e npOJIa3Ha <pa3a xoje lbYl1.M He CMe na ce nname, Crpax je npenpexa Jhy6aBM a CTBapaJIa'IKJ1 MOTO rpeher MJ1JIeHMjYMa rpetia
l1.a rnaca: ,;iOBe'Ie, He 60j ce, CJI060l1.HO M xpa6po aacrnrrarse TpaHc<poPMMlllJ1 CBOjy aYTopM-

Mel1.J1ja, a sa l1.pyry <Pa3Y rpetia l1.06J1TJ1 rrOl1.PlllKY npyurrna, J1 rrOJIJ1TJ1'IapJ1 npenoanajy l1.a CTBapaJIa'IKO sacmrraise.

6J1TJ1 0l1. J1CTJ1HCKeKOPJ1CTJ1l1.PYlllTBY y u;eJIJ1HJ1. Ocraje HaM nana l1.a he l1.PYlllTBO rrOl1.p)KaTJ1 CTBapaJIa'IKO AKO l1.PYlllTBO rrol1.P)KJ1 OBO snaa,e, CTJ1, aJIJ1 he CBe J1hJ1 MHoro crropnje, 6J1he TO notipo 3a HapOl1. y u;eJIJ1HJ1. AKO ce

rapny CBeCT y CTBapaJIa'IKy.

JJ:a 6M ce CTBapaJIa'IKO rrpOlllJ1pJ1JIO y jel1.HOM HapOl1.Y CMryPHO je

TO He l1.0rol1.J1, lbYl1.J1he HaJIa3J1TJ1 rryrese

sa rpancrpopaauajy

ayTOpJ1TaPHe

CBe-

y3 BeJIJ1Ke ry6J1TKe. He!

jasnocr, aJIJ1 6e3 yrropHocTM csaxor 'IJIaHa nopomme J1 norpetie sa rrpOMeHOM CBeCTM nehe ce MHoro ypal1.MTM.
BeOMa 6MTHO l1.aCBe TO rrOl1.P)KJ1nOJIJ1TM'IKa J1 crpyxna IlYTeBJ1l1.0 Jhy6aBJ1 cy 6pOjHM. Macro je lbYl1.J1KOjM naaac rpasce eacnararse jeMo 6p30 je jenan
0l1.

Kao J1y u;eJIOM cBeTY, TaKO he J1 KOl1. Hac 6J1TJ1 BeJIJ1KOr J13YMJ1palba lbYl1.J1,nopol1.J1u;a. Kana nOMeHeM J13YMJ1palbe HapOl1.a MHOrJ1 rrOMJ1CJIe l1.a J1Xsacrpauryjea. CTBapJ1 cy onamue

rrYTeBe KOjJ1 BOl1.e npyurrsa,

l1.0

lby6aBJ1.

CTBapaJIa'IKO
l1.eJIy-

o-mrnenae. ner BaCrrJ1THJ1X MOl1.eJIa, l1.a

arpeCJ1BHJ1 nexa crpanayl)e l1.a J1Crrytbal1.a he noxnerma,

TJ1X nyresa KOjJ1 je CMryPHO notiap xana )KeJIMMO na

AKo je jenaa rrop0l1.J1u;a ycrreJIa C MYKOM, y3 nosioh

J1 e<pMKaCHO na onopasxy

jenaor aapona, Kp03 noponnuy,

onrajx CJ1Ha J1 hepxy, BpJIO je Moryhe

TJ1 y TyqJ1, 6p30j y npepaaa BO)KlbJ1,
0l1.

6MJIO xor 06JIJ1Ka.

aJIKOXOJIa, l1.pore J1 CJI. AKO hepxa 360r noxnene

cexc J13 MaTepJ1jaJIHJ1X J1HTepeCa, jep BJ1 He MO)KeTe amue

zcerse, BeJIJ1Ka je aeposarnoha

aare iseae

na he BpeMeHoM

l1.06J1TJ1 HeKY rrOJIHY

60JIeCT J1 nehe MohJ1 l1.a P0l1.J1.

Ila

Moryhe je l1.a CJ1H nocrane xosrocexcyanau, a hepxa JIe36ejKa, J1 He OCTaBe nOTOMCTBO sa C060M. MO)Kl1.a l1.pyrJ1 nehe 6J1TJ1l1.eBJ1jaHTHJ1, ami xehe )KeJIeTM 6paK J1 nOTOMCTBO, J13 CTpaxa J1JIJ1M3 erOM3Ma. Taxo J13yMJ1pe noponaua, TaKO M3yMMpe HaU;J1ja. IlOJIMTM'IapM Mopa na snajy na ce HaTaJIMTeT He nosehaaa aneJIMMa na ce rreua pal)a)y, I; . . MJIM casro HaCTO)albeM l1.a ce noseha crannapn MJIal1.Mx. HaTaJlMTeT ce nosehasa lby6aBlbY.
M

llU OgCYCW80 KYU08UHe qeuieuia snauu ga MaMa He CMe nuuaaa ga MU KYUU, nax HU uipawcei

~J.1Talbe je rrOCTaBMO OCMOrOl1.MllllbM nexax. HMcaM 6MJIa M3HeHal)eHa snajyh l1.a je JIJ.1'IHO 3a6pJ1HYT KaKO he M3rrrel1.aTM rseros )KMBOT xana ce rrpMMeHM crnapaJIa'IKO BaCrrJ1Talbe M y rserosoj nop0l1.MU;M. Hapasno l1.a he pOl1.MTelb KyrrMTM l1.eTel'y J.1rpa'IKY, aKO 3a Mrpa'IKOM MMa norpetie, aKO TO HMje 6eCMMCJIeHO 3aTpnaBalbe - 377-

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nerera CTBapHMa H HapaBHO aKO pOp;HTeJb HMa HOBu;a. DHTHO je na pop;wrelh xyna Hrpa'lKY, y3 YClIOB, p;a nere Mopa op;pap;HTH aeurro. Ba)KHO je He K lie . ~M~ nrpaxxy, KO)a npOP;Y)KaBa BHpTyellHH CTpax KOP; nerera. Kon xynoaane nerera cTBap HlIH HOBau; YBeK ce yMehy H3Met)y nerera l1 Oliora . lllTO nere rpetia p;a 06aBH. Ilere ry6H npHlIHKy p;a raj pap; 06aBH C lby6aB . ~~ Je ayTopHTapHH HHTepec, Ty HeMa lby6aBH. J1HTepec ponarezsa aYTopHTap HeCBe CTHje p;a nere ypap;H 6alll TO, fiaur TaKO, 6alll rana xana TO )KellH pomrrezs TA . . . Ylrpa'I_ xa )e caao nnauraao cpencrno na ce Ta) HHTepec oCTBapH. Morna je H Bap)'a'I a,Kao 0611HKHCT~HcKe npHHyp;e na 3aBplllH nocao, amr TOje 3aKOHOM3a6palbeHO. ~l1lh pOp;HTeJba Je OCTBapeH. MHlIOM HlIH CHlIOM, He Melba CTBap. J1HTepec HlIl1 CTPax jennaxo ryllle lby6aB npeMa pap;y H )KHBOTY. Hrpaxxa HHje HH y KaKBoj Pap; C lby6aBJby je 3aKOH CTBapalla'lKOr aacmrraisa. Be3H ca pap;OM.

MajKa ge4e OCH06HOWKOllCKOlY3pacwa KaJICega nuxaqa iij80peHo He YCl106Jba6a gewe ca OHUM.ttY6eHUM aKO... onu je Y gUlleMu ga nu uociuyua go6po jep sa ~6aKY ;o6ujeHY ue~u4Y' sa C6aKU go6po 06a6JbeHU uocao ge4u gaje H06a4, UOKllOH...
aBHO na je onne pe'l 0 cKpHBeHoM ycnOBJbaBalbY Beptiamro re He YClIOBJba. . M aKO ce narpana nonasrsa YBeK, y ClIH'lHHM CHTyaU;HJaMa, nere Je cnoxn aM, a ..' raHO YClIOBlbeHO. ]aCHO je na nere O'leKYJe narpany, a MajKa 3aY3BpaT O'leKy)e O,ll.nM'lHeOU;eHe, ansr ce TO 'lHHH npehyrao. Pomrrezs Mopa 3HaTH na je y'lelbe npou;ec KOjMnere Mopa 06aBlbaTM C lby6aBlbY, Te pap; y OBOM y3paCTy He CMe
tJ

pap

6HTH nnaheH.

ctnanno UOHa6JbaWe ga y ciueapana-ucosc 6aCUUWaHJY

neua naipaqe. Ila nu WO snauu ga je C6aKU UOKllOH U
C6aKa naipaqa geo YCl106Jba6aHJa?
Kana rOBopHMO 0 Op;CYCTBY Ka3He H narpane y BacnHTalbY, HHKOHeMa p;HlIeMYUITa
je Ka3Ha. Ca Harpap;OM CTOjH npyraxaje. Osaj onrosop je spno cmoraa nperxonHOM. Bmne je np0611eM y repxraxonoraja Hero y paayaesarsy CTBapH. Kana ron H3Met)y pap;a Mnerera nOCTaBMTe cTBap, HOBau;, mrrepec, otiehaise p;a 6M p;eTe ypaP;11110 6alll TO lllTO BI1xcernrre, 6alll cana, 6alll TaKO KaKO BM3aMl1llllbaTe, pe'l je 0 n03l1Tl1BHOM YClIoBlbaBalbY, "Harpap;I1". CBe lllTO je 113pa3 saure HaKlIOHOCTl1,lby6aBl1, norpetie na HeKOMe yql1HI1Te rrpajaraocr, aKO je TO 3HaK sanre semrxe 3aXBallHOCTl1 sa I1CKpeHOyql1lbeH TPYA, pe'l je 0 nOKlIOHY, "Harpap;I1" 111111 KaKO TO BI1seh Ha311BaTe. Yn030paBaM, p;a He MelllaTe nojssose MaTepl1jallHe aanoxaane xojy op;pacnH p;06l1jajy sa CBOjpap;. To je neurro CaCBI1Mp;pyro, TOje Ha'll1H KOjl1MP;PYlllTBOBpeAnyje He'll1jl1 pap; 11P;OXOTKOM ojaoryhasa TOM'lOBeKY p;a )f(I1BI1. Cpehaa je 'lOBeK KOjl1Hl1je y p;eTl1lbCTBY,y pap;y 11yqelby 6110 n03l1Tl1BHO ycnoBJbaBaH jep he CBOjnocao, xao op;pacTao 'lOBeK, H p;aJbe 06aBJbaTl1 Clby6aBlbY, KaO lllTO je y p;eTl1lbCTBYyql10 11pap;l1o C lby6aBJbY. Hecpehan je 'lOBeK KOjMje 6110 YClIOBJbaBaH y p;eTl1lbCTBY,jep 360r orpOMHe crexeae noxnene, aehe 6MTMHl'IKa,ll. 3ap;OBOJbaH, Ma KOllHKOMy p;allH HOBu;a xana onpacre H noxae na CTM'le.
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n~1Talbe MI1je nOCTaBl10 p;OTepaH, HaMl1pl1CaH, cpejtonexan MylliKapall;, nporpecop, KOjl1je nopen ce6e I1MaO 6YKeT npenerror useha. PeKOX na peTKI1 nocraszsajy rnrraisa nocne rrpep;aBalba, ana mrraise je crrOHTaHO naaumo 11336YlbeHe rnane osor rOCrrOp;I1Ha. Ha iseroao mrrarse yqeHI1ll;11cy pearosana TI1XI1MCMeXOMKOjl1MI1je 6110 rryr p;a p;aMrrpell;I1,!Hl1jl1 onrosop. "AKo CTe osaj 6YKeT HaMeHl1l1l1Bauroj cyrrpy3l1, xao 3HaK lby6aBl1, xao norpetiy na Baury npajaray rrOpOp;I1'lHY aajenmnry YKpaCI1Te 11uaehesi, onna TO Hl1je KyrrOBI1Ha", peKOX. "AKO je oaaj 6YKeT p;I1MHa saaeca aa Baury "lllBallepall;l1jy" oana 6YKeToM xynyjere Ml1p y noponxna 11pe'l je 0 ycnoBJbaBalbY", nonanox, "AKo CTe 6YKeT HaMeHl1l1l1lby6aBHI1ll;I1, Mop;epHoj cnousopyura, a O)KelbeHI1 CTe Ila 611 lby6aBHI1ll;a I1CrrYHl1na Baura OHp;aje TO rrpaBO rr03l1Tl1BHO ycnosrsaaarse. O'IeKI1Balba, jep TO He paAl1113 lby6aBl1, OHa Mopa 6l1TH nnahena (6YKeTOM useha, Be'IepOM, rrOKlIOH'll1hl1Ma, CBe 3aBl1Cl1on MaTepHjanHor craryca xoaexa KOjHTPa)f(H YClIyry). 3Ha'll1 na ce 113Met)yOBa nsa xoaexa YMeTHYOmrrepec. BM I1MaTe mrrepec na ce p;06po rrpOBep;eTe, OHa I1HTepeC na TO nannara. DYKeTje y cpyHKll;l1jHOCTBapelba Tor I1HTepeca. ", saapmax.

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J1uaK HaM ~ojacHuUle saupaeo HUJe Ka3Ha?

Kaga HeUlUlO UlUlO nunu Ha Ka3Hy,

.Kana MlIap;M yhy y cTBapallaqKO snarse CBe je lIaKO M 6e3 MyKe. Csoje nere Bacnl1_ raaajy 6e3 nmnuaaxx, He nprsajy M3BOP M nere pacre a ponxrezsa ce ys p;eTe B pahajy CBOMe M3BOpy. HMCY rrpMMeHMlIM rrmnuaae aacrnrrae Mop;ell, a sa CPM3MQKI1M M Bep6allHMM HaCMn,eM aesrajy norpetie, BellITO KOHTPOllMllIY yrrllMBMcaIbe Me,I:\l1ja y )KMBOTIbMXOBe neue M CBe ce onaaja KaKO rpetia, Ha)KallOCT, saarse craapanaxxor BaCIIJ.1TaIba He p;orrMpe P;O CBaKe rropO,I:\I1u;ey rrpaBO BpeMe. AKO sanre nere MMa neraaecr ronana, M BM J.1nere J.1MaTenperpUIT rrpofinesra KOjJ.1cy nocnenaua rrmnuanor sacnaraisa. Kana nere J.1pOp;J.1Ten,J.1 ,I:\ol)y na npenaaaise J.111J.1 nornenajy .D:B.D: J.111J.1 npoxarajy Byxsap nere je npso xoje rrozce. 1IJ.1npoxeae, a p;a HJ.1caao HJ.1je CBeCHO na he IbeMY 6J.1TJ.1 aajrexce. POp;J.1Ten,J.1 cy y He3HaIbY KPJ.1BJ.1l1J.1, arnr cana nere Mopa CMYKOMp;a J.1CrrpaBn,a IbJ.1XOBerpeurxe. Ilere P;06POBOn,HO xpene y HOBe omroce y KojJ.1Ma HeMa Ka3He J.1narpane ana J.1Ma pep;a J.1YClIoBa y KojJ.1Maje ojaoryhea pacT CBaKOM qllaHY nopomme, J.1MaYClIOBay KojJ.1Ma ce ca naxohosr yqJ.1 J.1panx. TIp0611eM ce nojaaz 6P30, rro P;06POBOn,HOj op;lIYU;J.1 p;a ce yl)e y crsapanaaxo aacmrrarse J.1pOp;J.1Ten,M He saajy KaKO p;a nocryrre, nnaurehn ce p;a He yrrap;Hy y 3aMKY Ka3He J.1narpane. Hajaehn rrp0611eM aacraje xana je y rrJ.1TaIbYonpauarse op; Mep;J.1ja,aa HeKO speae, KaKO 6J.1ce nere CKJ.1HYllO ca BJ.1pTyellHe 3aBJ.1CHOCTJ.1. YBeK nerery rroHyp;J.1M TaK03BaHY 1lI0K repanajy, na ce op;peKHe y rrOTrrYHoCTJ.1ClIJ.1KeJ.1 3BYKa y rpajaisy 6ap nse aenezse. TIO)Ken,Ho je Mecel.\ naaa )KJ.1Bn,eIba xao y myBOj c06J.1, 6e3 ClIMKe 3ByKa, J.1rpJ.1u;a,rra J.1MY3J.1Ke,KaKO 6J.1ce nere 0'IJ.1CTJ.1110 11ca rrYHOMcseurhy BpaTJ.1110eKpaHY Hap; KOjJ.1M je OH cana rocnonap, a He iserosa )f(pTBa, Ilere ce Y)KaCHe OBJ.1Mnpennoroa J.13aTO ce rOTOBO CBJ.1onny-re aa rrOCTerreHO CKJ.1p;aIbeon OBe 3aBJ.1CHOCTJ.1. Pe3YlITaTJ.1 6yp;y cpaHTaCTJ.1'IHJ.1 y rrpsoj Hep;en,J.1. .D:eTe CKOPO na HJ.1jey3 eKpaH, M03aK ce 6p30 qJ.1CTJ.1, nere naxure yqJ.1, allJ.1 xana p;ol)e P;O nana anpeaanmra, rana nere CBe BJ.1llIenosehaaa 6poj CaTJ.1rropep; expaaa, na 6H na xpajy p;pyre Hep;en,e 6J.1110CBe spaheao aa rroxerax . Ilere 3Ha, yHarrpep; p;a cy cana pOp;J.1Ten,J.1TJ.1KOjJ.1My Mopajy novoha. Tacrarypa ce Y3HMa rro p;orOBOpy, y3 O<IeKJ.1BaIbe 6ypHe peaxnnje nerera. PeaKU;J.1jaje HeBepOBaTHa . Ilere ncyje, BJ.1<Ie, Hene y craapanaxxo, MOllJ.1na My ce BpaTJ.1 TaCTaTypa, yp;apa, rrpeKlIJ.1Ibe, npern ... POp;HTen,J.1 ocrajy HeYMon,J.1BJ.1.OBO CKJ.1p;aIbeca BJ.1pTyellHe p;pore MO)f(e na 06aBJ.1 caMa Maj.Ka, 'lKO je nere xenon p;~ceT rOp;J.1Ha. Ca rreTHaeCTOrOp;J.1lUIbaKOM ce He Bpep;J.f yrryurrarn 60p6y, YKOllJ.1KO MajKa HeMa noxoh oua, yjaxa, CTpJ.1u;a, jep je p;e<IaI<, OB6~ yspacra, BpllO jax J.1arpeCJ.1BaH. Eop6a rpaje, J.13Mor J.1CKYCTBa, rro HeKonJ.fI<O

onna ce y MOMeHTY norona CMJ.1peIbe, nere xao na npornena H BpaTH ce ce6J.1. expany J.1aayscarJ.f, a ra HeMa npotinewa. Meceu nana nere aehe rrpJ.1l1a3J.1TJ.1 Oocne TO h M 3 ca3HaIbe p;a nrpxne y6J.1jaIba, HaCJ.1n,a HJ.1Kap;aBJ.1llIe He e J.1rpaTJ.1. 03ry JI~::a;a rrocnaTJ.1 Ta J.1HcpopMaU;J.1ja. Y rrpOTJ.1BHOM, HJ.1CMOMHoro aarrpenosana ce. 3aK crapa -rexanana J.1KOllJ.1KO ron p;a ra Ka3HJ.1Te na xexa 6J.1he MJ.1paH J.1 . P Je MO .. . Je TIa 1IJ.1 je OBaKBO 0p;Y3J.1MaIbe expana Ka3Ha? HapaBHO p;a HJ.1JeJep Je CBe rpIIn,MB. r'o C peTxoTTHM TT06pOBOn,HJ.1Ylla3aK nerera y crnapanaxxo BaCIIJ.1TaIbe, 6aBn,eHO y3 II ~e Ie J.1rpaIbe nrpaua J.1npenenax 6poj CaTJ.1y3 espan p;J.1peKTaH Y3POQHJ.1KcnaJ pJ cna6e KOHu;eHTpaU;J.1je, neyxeisa J.1ClI. OTKlIOHMlIJ.1CMOY3POK, nocne6~x OU;eHa, , ~Ua HecTaje. Ileo nocryrrax lIJ.1QMna Ka3Hy, amr Ka3Ha HMJe. , p; nornep;ajMo cana rrpMMep xana je Ka3Ha 36J.1n,a Ka3Ha . .D:o~HallJ.1CTe na Je saute p;eTe rr06erno ca HeKOllJ.1KOQaCOBa. JbyTJ.1 CTe, He J.1HTepeCYJY nac y3pOU;J.1 iserosor 6e)f(aIba. Jr13pJ.1QeTe Ka3HY onaxo. 0p;Y3MMaTe My uenapau MlIJ.1My J.13BlIaQM~ re Ka6110Be M3 3J.1p;a,y3 onacxy na Meceu; zrana HeMa rrp~lIa)KeIba expany. Y KaKBOJ Be3J.1je I,Ierrapau ca 6e)KaIbeM ca QaCOBa? HJ.1 y KaKBOJ. 3HaQM na ~allIe BaCrrJ.1TaIbe HMje cTBapallaQKo. To je aYTopMTapHO, cnozsaunse ~aCrrJ.1TaIbe Jep My Y3MMaTe HelUTO llITO My je Ba)KHO, a HJ.1jeY3POK rrp0611eMa 0 KOJeM rOBOpJ.1MO. .D:aCTe orsopeno J.1cMMpeHo pasroeapana ca p;eTeToM P;01lI1IJ.1 6J.1CTe no Y.3POQHJ.1Ka.Ilofierao je ca MaTeMaTJ.1Ke jep HJ.1je cnpeaan sa KOHTPOllHM nourro Je ueo npourna MeCel.\ J.1311a3J.10 J.1pap;HMM p;aHoM nanorse, p;o KaCHO TB.pp;ehM na TO He YTJ.1qe aa KBallJ.1TeT yqefua. Cana xana CTe nponaurna Y3POK, 3aJep;HO P;OHOCM:e Op;nyKy J.1nMcaMOCTallHO, aKO ce nere 6YHM, J.1J.1311aCU;J.1 rrpeKO nenerse ce YKJ.1p;aJY TI06YHe he 6J.1TJ.1, ana TO aac He J.1HTepecyje. HeM a BJ.1Ke,spehaisa, nperrse, norKyrrn,J.1BaIba, y6el)MBaIba, HeMa nnmnaaax. Taxo Mopa 6MTJ.1sapan paCTa saurer
M M

nerera, 3apap; paCTa Jby6aBJ.1 y noponnua. . Mana HJ.1KOlla je ycnoszsaaao cnoje ponnrezse TaKO llITO je ceneo na jene cajao non YClIOBOMna ce na CTO nocrasa nan-ron M IberOBJ.1 OMJ.1n,eHJ.1u;pTahM. POP;J.1Ten,M cana saajy na je BpllO onacao J.1Hep;orrycTMBo J.13Mel)y nerera J.16MlIO xaxsor 0611J.1Kapana rrOCTaBn,aTJ.1, YMeTaTJ.1mrrepec J.111J.1 HeKY crnap, HapOQJ.1TOTB . Ilere je P;06MlIO J.1HcpopMaU;J.1jyp;a on p;aHac HeM a BJ.1Ille crape HaBJ.1Ke360r rora J.1rora. . .' Ille ManJ.1 Ilere je Morno, allM M HJ.1jeMopallO na pa3YMe urra My npaxare Jep Je OP;BM . BI1 CTe raj KOjM cana pa3YMe IIITa je notipo, a IIITa He aa saure nere. . HJ.1KOlla je rrornenao MaMY J.1p;06J.10 norspny na BJ.1IlleHeMa u;pTaha P;OK ce Jep;e. Tara je rrOTBpp;J.10.HJ.1KOlla je OCeTJ.10IbJ.1XOBO jep;J.1HCTBO,IbJ.1XOBY QBPCTY OP;lIyKy H MeCTa rr06YUM HMje 6MlIO. TIa p;a je rr06YHe J.16MlIO, HJ.1jexpaj CBeTa. HeM a 6an1He, HeMa Ka3He, HeMa Harpat)J.1BaIba na 6J.1ce ycrtocrannne HOBe rpanaue, nere nonaKO, allJ.1 CJ.1ryPHO cnenx nanry OP;lIyKy. 3ap BaM je TellIKO na 6yp;eTe cTprrn,MBJ.1, na My nOMorHeTe na J.1CrrpaBMrpeurxy xojy CTe BM y He3HaIbY YQJ.1HMlIJ.1.
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Iianac epno

eciao ttyjeMo KaKO lbygU KaJICY: ,,080 cy U03umU8He, a 080 ueiaiuuene euouuje ': Ila llU je 080

)leTe MO)f{e HCKa3HBaTH He06HqHO jaxy pap;ocT, y p;yroM BpeMeHcKoM nepnony, ora je pop;HTelb YCJIOBHO:"EYP;H notiap y BpTHhy, H

nononae

Hp;eMO na KyrrHMo

ucupaeua uoqenai
Mopasr npasnara na caM cava rOBOpHlIa Y TepMHHHMa xoje npenosnaje CBe P;OK HHcaM ynosaana caBpeMelil1 qOBeK (rr03HTHBHe H HeraTHBHe exouaje), p;HHa Ilapxa, 3HaJIa na ryra )KaBa snpasn,e roc noKOjH rOBopH Y TepMHHHMa 3allITHTHe, H3BopHe eMOQHje. OP;YBeK caM HHje HeraTHBHa eMOQHja, aJIH aKO ryra sosexa rpaje p;aHHMa H TaKO yrpoonna je TO HeraTI1Bali vseise I

81< YTO." Ta BpCTa nacnojeue pap;OCTH OTe)f{aBa HopMaJIaH pap; aamer nerera y JlyTI<Y,a e . p Balli MaJIHllIaH aenpecrano MHcnH na otiehaao. TaKBo craise ra qHHH . . h h epTU h y, J 'oU! HeMuPHHjHM jep nere p;op;aTHo crpaxyje ocehajyhn na H.e e MO H na HCITyHH

J YellOB.

TK Yl

,naurpa nTKTelborrpep;eJIHO sa rrpesaaxbeae

3HeHap;a MO)Ke p;a ra 06y3Me jaxa 6pHra, rrOTOM rrpeJaKa Tyra CXBaTHBllIH qKY He MO)Ke sapansrra. Hacraje npaaa eMoQHoHanHa 36pKa caMO 3aTO llITO sacmrrne MeTop;e. xana pop;HTelb YCJIOBH nere na p;06HhellI H

ce pon

CHTyaQHja

je jour rexca, a nanac TOJIHKO xecra,

HnH ce rpancrpopaaure

y nenpecajy,

rroqeTKY llIKOJICKe ronane l<oMrrjYTep, HhH

roaopeha:

"YKOJIHKO rrOJIO)KHllI Op;nHqH~~,

06JIHK OBe nerre H npexo

norpetine

eMOQHje, aJIH MH je CBe 6HJIO jacmrje Ilapx

ys

3Halbe

hem

na pespearnsrry

HaCTaBy ... TaKBa pap;ocT TpaJe JaKo nyro

OBe rrpeJIerre, aJITepHaTHBHe Mep;HQHHe, qHjH je rnopau

Ilae

By.

Mella ce ca eMOQHjaMa CTpaxa, 6pHre jep nere He 3Ha p;a JIH MO)Ke p;a ncrryna a UMa jaxy,

ycnoe,

Crnapanaxxo
rrorpetirnoa panocr, 6pHra,

sacrnrraa,e

cap; jacao rrpHna3H eMoQHjaMa, xao 3allITHTHHM, rrpeKo

senpccrany

)KelbY p;a 06ehaHO

p;06Hje. HapaBHO na he TaKBa eMoQHja pap;ocTH rpaje rrpep;Y.ro. qaK H na ce

eaeprnjaaa.

qOBeK ce

paha

ca 3p;paBHM H3BOPHHM eMOl\HjaMa (lbYTlba, rr03HTHBHHM rroTeHQHjanoM

p;oBecTH p;o 60JIeCTH, jep nacnojeaa

evouaja

Tyra H CTPax),

paha

ce ca orpoMHHM

p;eTeHe pa36oJIH, P;OBOlbHOje llITO, 360r eMOQHOHanHe p;HcxapMOHHJe, HeMa xapM~HH30BaHor YMa, HeMa lby6aBH He najy pe3YJITaTe y cxnany 3YMeBalbe rpanasa. npeaa yqelby. PaQHO H paQHOHanHa HHTenHreHQHJa rroreauajarroa

eMOQHOHaJIHe, MeHTaJIHe H zryxosae

HHTeJIHreHl\Hje. He )KeJIHM p;a rOBopHM 0 rr03Hcasro snpaae, ycno-

THBHHM H HeraTHBHHM eMoQHjaMa jep y H3BOPHOM 06JIHKy nocroje 3allITHTHe eMOQHje. Ilpe 6HX rOBopHna 0 nocrojaisy na sa pacr H xapsroaajy rr03HTHBHHX,

ca npxpomnoa

(cnatio
esrouaja

navhetse,

Hepa-

crsapanasnorx

OP;CYCTBO rtaxose

H cn.) Ilpennana

pap;ocTH nocrana

eMOQHja H 0 HeraTHBHHM, ayTopHTapHHM noracxyjy,

YCJIOBHMa)KHBO-

je HeraTHBHa caMO 360r nacmrrnor jacnaje

Mop;ena KyrroBHHe nerera,

Cana

BaM je Mano

ra y KojHMa ce H3BopHe eMOQHje nacnojaaajy,

KpHBe H rpaactpopaaury HHCY on

p;a CTe BH p;HpeKTaH KpHBaQ llITO Balle nere He sona uncony, llITO cy pe3yn-

y HaKa3He 06JIHKe (Mp)Klba, 3aBHCT, rraKOCT, lby60Mopa qOBeK pobeisea THBHe" rj. snpase

Bora

p;aTH qOBeKY).

TaTH )"-Ielba nernne,

P;OHOCHner OCHOBHHX eMOQHja. OBHX ner eMOQHja cy "rr03HYKOJIHKO HHCY aacnojene, HHCY rrOTHCHYTe, YKOJIHKO He rpajy

rrpep;yro H aKO CYY Op;HOCYQeJIHX, rrpOCTHX 6pojeBa. MOHHje.

(3: 2), a TO 3HaqH y crarsy xap-

Kana

qOBeK H3ry6H rrpep;yro,

BOlbeHY

ocotiy

caCBHM je rrpHpop;HO na HCKa)Ke aacnojena

ryry

cnafia, llITO je p;eTe aa xacy HeMHpHO, OP;CyTHO... Ilere he BaM p;OHeTH sapaheae aa HeKH HaqHH, anH he CBaKHM p;aHOM 6HTH CBe amne oryhea on norpetie na )"-IH C lby6aBlbY. Baine aeanan-e nocraje KoqHHQa pasaoja nerera. Ilaxne, H3Bop.He eMoQHje cy rr03HTHBHe, amr ayropxrapnn ycnoBH cy HeraTHBHH H KpHBe H3BopHe eaouaje, xoje cy 3allITHTHe H npexo norpetiae.

H na Tyra He rpaje KOjOj 6H yrp03HJIa

p;a He nocrane

HnH rrOTHCHYTa, y MepH y

na CTBa-

3p;paBlbe qOBeKOBO. HCKa)Ke 3p;paBY lbyTlby xao 3HaK seronoaarsa

llPHPOP;HO je na ponnren, pH y rroponaux He Hp;y KaKO

rpetia.

MO)Kp;a he CBe y TpeHyTKy

JIHqHTH H na 6ec, eMoQHoHaJIcTBapa3p;paBe. p;aje

He

ufpaj

ce ciupaxosc
H3BopHe eMOQHje y yHKQHjH 3allITHTe snpaarsa, je CBaKaKO Haj60lbH MoryhH qyBap qOBeKOB. p;yro.

aJIH TaMO rne je snpasa HO KJIaTHO ce spno 6p30

eMOQHOHanHa HHTenHreHQHja,

rne je lby6aB,

apaha

y rrOqeTHY TaqKY. Ilpodnesr ocrajy rr03HTHBHe,

ce paspeuraaa ocrajy

npHpop;a

je qOBeKY nonapana

JIaqKH, qOBeqHO H H3BopHe esroua]e Hopsranno je na noxazcere

xohy peha,

){(HBOTa. Crpax xa, aaura

Kana

He 6H 6HJIO cTpaaa peanHaM )KHBOT

pap;oCT y op;peljeHHM )KHBOTHHM cHTyaQHjaMa,

)KHBOTH He 6H rpajana

Crpax

je srtpaa xana pearyjesro cnare H cnaurasa

He CKpHBaTe, aJIH aKO caBpeMeHO nere y TOKY nana 6yp;e H3a3BaHO na p;eceT rryTa noxasce panocr, (crrOlballIlbHM), a panocr je eMOQHja xoja je YBeK rrpOY3pOKOBaHa HeqHM HJIH HeKHM BOP;Hnere y 60JIecT.

liy onaCHOCT. OH M06HnHllle l1nl1lUTHTH yrpoxceao KaCHO. Ilocne lienpecTaHoM

CBe Hallie yHyTpallIlbe

anpaarse. Taj CTpax, H 6e3 Halle crpax

sozse, Tpaje KpaTKO, a eH-

oana TaKBO craise

Ilere

y TOKY jep;HOr p;aHa

6YPHe peaxunje

ce 6p30 H naxo ce

npaha

y H3BOPHH 06nHK. eMoQHje. YM je y (qmnMoBH oMenqH

MO)Ke P;06HTH 6ap TpH HrpaqKe, MO)Ke ce panonarn cae TO aacnojaaa panocr, IIITO HHje nozcezsno.

nprahy,

qOKOJIap;H... MO)f{e... a

AaHac je noumo

no CTpaBHqHe

snoynorpefie

OBe npenaane

CTpaxy jep ra y TOM craisy

p;p)Ke cnozsaunsn

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CTpaBe W yscaca, HeBepOBaTHa BwpTyellHa aacxzsa Kp03 11:rpWTTeBeCT . . , w, wacp npasre 0 CMaKY CB Op_ MaQWJe, KBa3W-YMeTHOCT, eKOHOMCKaaecxrypaocr, . eTa,npeB COKe HOBqaHe Ka3He, KOJe ca naxohosr nponncyjy 3aKOHorraBTTw aa C 11Be WCBaUIT YMWllilbaJyhw,n;a Je TO nYT npaszsen,a pena y ,n;PYllITBy... ). CBe TO CMWllilbajy 6 a, CHWayroprrrapaa YMOBWlby,n;W,KOjWaa raj HaqWH npasae ce6e, a ,n;pyre Jb e OlIe_ CBOjWMcrpaxosxaa. vn nYlie
M ...,

pOp;J1TelbJ1 Mopajy 3HaTJ1 0 qeMY ce pa,n;J1. Kana nere He pearyje BJ1llIe HJ1 na BY nOCTojehy cnolbHY npaac, xoja 6J1 rpeoana na J13a30Be lIyqelbe anpeaanaaa, J(aJ< OHO 0,n;lIa3J1 y nenpecajy, noanaxeha ce J13 )f(J1BOTa y KojeM He BJ1,n;J1 CMJ1Cao. 'taP;a CMJ1cao nOKYllIaBa,n;a nahe y CBeTY KOjJ1My P;OHOCJ1,n;pora. Ilpory onrrazce YKOllWJ(o ce yMy nOHy,n;J1HOBa, jaxa ,n;pa)f( on nperxonae, xao llITO je Beorpan osor nera nOHyp;J10 MlIap;J1M 3aBJ1CHJ1U;J1MaeKCTpeMHe cnopTOBe.

Hanre rezro ce 6paHw CTpaxOM noxpehyha MWlIWOHHeKWX3rrpaBw X MaTepl1ja a jenaa on lbWX je W anpeaanaa KOjWlIyqw Ha,n;6y6pe)f(Ha )f(lIe3,n;a. Hw 6 ' ie no po aa nere Wxoaexa xana ,n;o~e no snoynorpetie crpaxa. HWJe snpaao xa na Te 1I0 MOpa Aa pearyJe na nenocrojehy onaCHOCT, aa BwpTyellHy onaCHOCT aa rl-.TAlIM " . , "'i'n OBe KOJe nyurra M03aK, nexana Wp;albY Waohy, HapOqWTO nohy npx KOlliMapHTKM CHOBWMa. Tello ce rana noaaura xao na je p;06wlIo KOMaH,n;yp;a pearyje na peaznry onacHOCT yM He npaan pa311WKY,He rrperrosaaj,n;alIWje ona~ YnaMTwMo na sacrpaurea CHOCTpeanna WlIWanpryenaa, OH casro )f(ellW ,n;a noxorae qOBeKY ITp . . wpo,n;a HWJe npensxnena OBYwrpy 601leCHor ayropxrapaor npyurrsa, xoje ce nenpecran., wrpa CTpaxOM. qOBeK sprro 6p30 nocraje sanacaa on npWCYCTBaanpeaanana y KpBTK h . . n, rpaxce WCBeJaqw WJaqw W3a30B na 6w narepao )f(lIe3,n;yp;a My y6pw3ra a,n;peHallWH YKpB. ITpwMe.TWlIWCTe KaKO nena, Y TpeHYQWMa P;OK WXrtnaunrre, wMajy WHeKY aerrpaPOP;HO nOJaqaHY panocr, )f(WBOCT.MaKO ocehajy nenpajaraocr 360r npWCYCTBa crpaxa OHWaac W3a3wBajy rpaacehx na nojaqaBaTe lbWXOBcrpax, jaqOM npaaor, To ce WCTOnoraha xana noxaere nere p;a ysonare y BwpTyellHe crpaxose, craszsajyY je,n;HoM hw ra npen reneaasop ca aenyrre nse ronane ... Iacno je qeMY OBO BO,n;W. rpeayrxy HeMa re npaaor, nesra Tor upraha, Tor cpWlIMa, re Ka3He, xoja 6w 3aCTpa~wlIa nere, sroaexa. TaKBw lbYP;W rroxynraaajy na npoaahy HOBe aKTWBHOCTW, HOBe, jase p;pa)f(W, xoje he noncrahx lIyqelbe anpeaazrxaa.
M M . n

HaMa

cy u fpo6lba g080lbHa

CBep;oQw CMO na cy aaura caspeaena KlIWHU;W npeaaaanma xopop-dncraose W MHore npyre, jour jaxe sapryeaae W peamre npaxor. ,ll;aHac WM Hy,n;e eKCTpeMHe crroprons, w3Me~y ocranor, Ta cnoprosn cy orracnn no )f(WBOTMlIap;or xoaexa, allw 6 . aur TO, je OHO llITO WXrrpasnasa. Ty je OHO llITO WMrpetia, a,n;peHallWH. illTO CW611W)f(W onaCHOCTW, llITO smue rnenaur CMpT y OqW, anpeaamra je jaqw. Ponarezs He pasyae urra je TO llITO ayxe nere TOM cnopTY W HeMO ra npaTJ1. IT . perryn Je crpaxa 3a )f(WBOTcaor nerera, allw nocraje )f(pTBa BlIaCTJ1TOr crpaxsCaMO nere je cpraa seh cre-reae 3aBWCHOCTW, na Wcastor BpllO jaxor WHeo,n;roBOPnor ,n;pYlliTBeHor nonynapxcaa,a nexer llITO je WnpOTl1B nerera J1 npOTJ1B POP;J1rezsa, npOTJ1B )f(J1BOTa. He,n;aBHO HeKO pexe na CMO cpehna llITO CMO ,n;06wlIW eKCTpeMHe cnopTOBe Y .. e orpa,n;y, Jep Je TO HaqWH uop6e nporna npore. Pexe: "A,n;peHallJ1HOM heMO ce 60pJ1TJ1 npOTJ1B npore!" Be
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EKCTpeMHJ1 cnoprona cy noayheaa, xao jour jenaa BpllO jaxa, HOBa, crrorsaunsa p;pa)f( xoja J13a3WBa )f(eCTOKOlIyqelbe anpeaanana, ys raj qYBeHw ocehaj na CJ1)f(WB TeK xana rnenanr CMpT y Oqw. YKOllWKOaecperna neua 6yp;y WMalla cpehy ,n;anpe)I(J1Bere "J1rpapJ1je", CWryPHO he nocernyrn sa nporon. YKOllWKO601leCHJ1 YMOBJ1 CMJ1ClIejour HeKY "J1rpwu;y" aa ~He npe)f(WBelle Y3wMalbe zrpore he ce jour jep;HoM Op;llO)l(J1TJ1. To rpetia na 6yp;e HaqWH 60p6e npoTwB p;pore. To Hwje nyr, TO je casro onnaraise ynorpetie p;pore. Ilyryjyha no Cp6wjw, sahox J1y MeCTa rne nena HWCY"J1Malla necpehy" p;a CBa 311aosor CBeTa cTwrHY no lbWX TaKO 6p30. OHO llITO je CTJ1rJIO csyna, TO cy naxa3HJ1 BJ1pTyellHJ1 canpacajn, wrpwu;e, J1rpaOHJ1u;e, llITO je npBJ1 CTeneHJ1K aa 3110Ynorpefiy crpaxa. J1 neua y YHYTpallilbOCTJ1 cy Yililla y 3aBJ1CHOCTon a,n;peHallJ1Ha. Y YHYTpallilbOCTJ1 aaure 3eMJbe KlIWHU;W MWce cazre llITO aeaajy OHO llITO J1Majy Eeorpa~aHW (eKCTpeMHe cnoprose J111J1 cesratpopeaa KojJ1Ma ce J1rpajy pYCKor pylleTa nnp.) J13aTO ce caanase, aa ce6J1 CBojcTBeH HaqWH. OTKPJ1l1W cy MJ1 J1rpy xojy arpajy. KaCHO, xan ycnasajy ponxrezse, KPJ1llIOM J1311a3e J13 CBOjJ1Xxyha, onnase aa rpodrse WTaMO no-nose HeBepOBaTHa snoynorpetia crpaxa, POp;WTeJbWMaHJ1je jacaa xecra nojasa na J1crapnja neua MOKpe aohy y KpeBeT. EPWHe WXllITO WMe~y MlIa,n;wMa J1Ma TOllJ1KO601leCTJ1 6y6pera J1 6ellIJ1Ke. Po,n;J1TeJbWMopajy 3HaTW ,n;a cy OBa naa opraHa non eneprajosr CTpaxa. OTKY,n;TOllJ1KO TYMopa KO,n; MlIap;J1X? Crpax BwpTyellHJ1 Y3J1Ma naaax. HWKo,n;a ce nocern aaurro reaepauaje MlIa,n;J1XJ1nopen )I(eJbe,n;a J1Majy nOTOMCTBO,OCTajy 6e3 isera. Kaxcy ,n;aCBaKJ1neTJ1 6paqHJ1 nap y aauroj 3eMJbJ1 He MO)f(e Aa p;o6wje nere J1aKO opraHCKe cxrertse He rrocroje. Mopa ce MlIa,n;J1Mapeha ,n;acy penpOp;YKTWBHJ1 OpraHJ1 non eneprnjoxr cTpaxa a OHJ1 aexa pa3MJ1ClIe xoje CPJ1l1MOBe crpaae J1yxcaca nyurrajy lbJ1XOBJ1YMOBJ1.Hexa ce cere urra cy CBe qJ1HJ1l1J1 y CBojoj MlIap;OCTJ1J1llITa aacraarsajy na qJ1He J1y 6paKY. Hexa ce cere Mo,n;erOllJ1X CTOMaKaJ16y6pera, KOjOj HJ1je ononeno HJ1jenao neaojxe, 3J1MJ1J1neTJ1. Care J1care
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MlIap;w npOBOp;e nopep;

to. to.

najcrpaiuaajxx

BJ1pTyellHJ1X

JyuJ1 BlIaCTWTY J13BOpHy eMOll;J1JY cTpaxa. HaCTaBlbaJYUW J1lbJ1X

canpacaja,

3110ynoTpe6Jha nOTO SaMl<e '

08a!<B

aKO 3aCTpallleHJ1

p;O'IeKyjy

na p;porJ1paJY

HaJropWM BJ1pTyellHJ1M cap;p)f(ajwMa,

op; Kones

xana pearyje aa peanHy onaCHOCT, 6paHe~: . 'IOBeKOB )f(J1BOT J1 3p;paBlbe. Y3 ynorpetiy CBJ1Xner aYTOpJ1TapHJ1X BacnWTHWX 1.1 Aena nocetino ce aacnojasa esrouaja crpaxa. AKO pOp;J1Telb 'IeCTO ycnoBlbaBa . CSOJe nere aa nyace CTa3e CTpax he 6J1TJ1 caaacaa, rpajahe zryro npaseha npaBy nycTolU aa KPBHOM CJ1CTeMY. Ofiehaisy, Harpap;w nere ce panyje, ana y3 nOja'IaHY Kon'l n'II1Hy crpaxa. Ilere ce nrraunr p;a aehe oCTBapWTJ1 YClIoBe xoje My je pomrrezs nOCTa_ BJ10 Ilere 06jeKTJ1BHO He BOllJ1 p;a yqJ1 J1 ll;J1lb nocraje CBe p;albW. Taj BWpTyenHl1
eMoll;wja je 3p;paBa crpax ce aa axpryenaoj na nexa onna pap;OCTJ1 pa3apa 3p;paBlbe nerera. To pOp;I1TelbJ1Ma Mopa na nerera, Hapo-

Ilaxne,

crpaxa

nocnenxua ynorpefie ner BaCnJ1THJ1X Mop;ella KOjJ1 cy Kana ce OBJ1 MOp;ellJ1 YKJIOHe )J;06po,na]lJ1 to. to. . Jby6aB he nOCTaTJ1 KOHTPOJIOPJ1 paaysra J1 CTBapJ1 ne P;OllJ1 na CBOJe MeCTO. ~J1 . BopMaJIHO je p;a CBaKJ1 nepJ10p; aaurer )f(J1BOTa J1Ma CB~JY p;OMJ1HaHTHY eHeprJ1. (3a nOCJIep;lbY eaeprnjy, eneprnjy CTapOCTJ1 HopMa~H~ Je MyP;pOCT xao noclIe~J1}Y O)f(J1BlbeHOr )f(J1BOTa) TY)f(HO je rnenarn nere KOJe Je non CHa)f(HJ1M YTJ1ll;aJeM ~~ . 8 pTyeJIHJ1X cap;p)f(aja nOCTaO BJ1pTyeJIHJ1 crapau, ca P;OMJ1~aHTHOM eHeprJ1JoM J1 ocn-t. )J;OBOlbHO je na crpax J1 MyP;pOCT nOCTaHY HaCJIoJeHJ1 J1 p;a nere HeMa "MYP;P . 3 ace p;a oCTBapJ1 eMOU;J10HaJIHY J1 MeHTaJIHY XapMOHJ1JY, rra TJ1Me HJ1 anonozswa .." CTBO, MJ1p xao nocnenauy XapMOHJ1Je. TY)f(HO Je rnenarz "MJIap;e crapne J1 cTape
o nOHalllalbe npJ1pOp;Ha

CJI060p;y pa3yMy

na

pap;J1 TO lllTO pap;J1.

xasce Cana

op;nyqe p;a lIW he ce J1rpaTJ1 eMOll;J1jaMa csora

BaCnJ1THe Mop;elle. p;a nonena aa n03J1TJ1BHe J1 HeraTJ1BHe KpJ1Blbelbe

MaJIe (CTapMaJIe). CJIJ1'IaH np06JIeM

ce

jasrsa

y CBaKOM )f(J1BOTHOM nofiy. YKOJIJ1KO'IOBeKHe OCTBa-

'IJ1TO

crpaxoa,

KOpJ1CTehJ1 rnynaBe

p
esrouaje
caxo nocrojn

J1 eMoll;J10HaJIHY XapMOHJ1jy HeMa MeHTaJIHe XapMOHJ1je na TJ1Me HeMa HJ1 3ap;0HJ1 Jby6aBJ1 naaac xao npJ1pOp;HJ1X

HaM je jacao

caxio
eMO-

BOlbCTBa, )J;06poTe, CBe lllTO nere saoaae.

nocnenaua onnrre

XapMOHJ1Je. CBeTY

y aYTOpJ1TapHOM Tpe60M

P;pylllTBy

xoje npemOCTaBlba

3p;paBJ1X eMoll;wja ynosnpase

p;06J1ja on

npyurraa, orpoxran
ce KpJ1Be,

y BJ1pTyeJIHOM J1 y peaJIHOM

601leCHJ1X BaCnJ1THJ1X Mop;ella. Y 3p;paBOM reny 3p;paBe y op;cyCTBy aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1.

nocroje

J1CKlbyqJ1BO ce TeMelbJ1 aa J1CKpJ1BlbeHJ1M J13BOPHJ1M eMOll;J1jaMa. CBaKJ1 J13a3J1Ba crpax,

ll;J1je xoje ocrajy

ll;pTaHJ1 <pJ1JIM KOp; nerera 3aBJ1111hy, oryheaourhy

npahea

6PJ1roM,

ryroa,

lbYT-

lbOM J1 OCTaJIJ1M J1CKpJ1BlbeHJ1M 06JIJ1ll;J1Ma J13BOPHJ1X esrouaja (MP)f(lbOM, rHeBOM,

...). EMoll;wje

rracnojasajy,

nOTJ1CKyjy

crnapajyha
J1CKPJ1-

npaBJ1 xaoc y P;ylllJ1 J1 TeJIY nerera.

Ilere

YCKOPO nocraje

3aBJ1CHO on csoje

OHO WWO je

qoseonseno
yh
nanexor, HeraTJ1BHe

satipaweno poquiuemy _ ,_
.eupuiyennoj
y

U HaCWa6HUKY
_ cc

}e

lY6epHaHWU
aa n03J1TJ1BHe J1 CBeT ce p;eKJIaJ1 HapO'IJ1-

rpaxceha CBe ja-ry J1jasy p;pa)f(. V1CKpJ1BlbeHJ1, OCJI060l)eHJ1 pasya CMJ1111lbaCBe jase J1 jase npazor. qOBeK aa OBJ1M np0J13BOp;J1Ma sapabyje na HaM ce paaaajaisa norpouraxxe CBeCTJ1. Ilere J1 'IJ1HJ1 p;a je CBe OBO HaMepHO y <PYHKU;J1jJ1 pomrrers 0 TOMe He paasiamzsajy, jep cy y MalllJ1HJ1 J13 xoje He BJ1p;e J13JIa3. szseae
npJ1pop;e

eKOHOMCKJ1 nanpeznror CBeTa, CTJ1)f(e HaM ra nonena

esrouaje

jour

jep;HoM KOHTeKCTY. JaBHO, raj aanpenax

pxure p;a CBe

y nOpOp;J1ll;J1 Mopa 6J1TJ1 n03J1TJ1BHO, HapO'IJ1TO

esrouxje,

TO eMOll;J1je neue,

Ilon

n03J1TJ1BHJ1M eMOU;J1jaMa OHJ1 MJ1CJIe na eMOll;J1je xoje cy Y

Poguwelb

- CUOH30P norpefiy, norpetiy

cnOH30p, na J1CKpJ1BlbeHe P;OKOJIJ1ll;e, xosce

<PYHKll;J1jJ1 Xep;OHJ13Ma. Xep;OHJ1CTJ1'IKY panocr He

Ilonpzcasajy
xoja lbyTlby,

OHJ1, a cana J1MJ1 (J1MJ1TaTOpJ1 J1MJ1TaTopa) CaMO

je y CTBapJ1 J1CKlbyqWBO Y)f(J1Balbe y MaTepJ1jaJIHOM. 6pwry, Tyry, na HJ1 CTpax. Ha

Ilere 3Ha

na CBOjy J1CKpJ1BlbeHY

nonpzcaaajy
p;a nere,

jasao

npyurrseno

nJIaHY

A06wTW jep;wHo on TI1M HOBu;eM

ce 60pe cy

y nOpOp;J1ll;W J1 lllKOJIJ1, 6yp;e HeraTJ1BHJ1M, He

saurraheao

on OBJ1X eMOll;J1ja xoje YKOJIJ1KOy CBaxapMOHJ1je. eMOll;J1ja. To y p;OKO~

rrpornaureae
Y

cxsarajyha

p;a 'IOBeK HJ1je snpas

KOM nepaony

cnor

)f(J1BOTa He nocenyje

noponamr

J1lllKOJIJ1 P;PYlllTBO npocTo CBe

extouxje, y craisy aafiparsyje pasaxjarse HeraTJ1BHJ1X

CBe J13BOpHe

J1CTO P;PYlllTBO neuy nJ1ll;J1 KOjOj ce naje HaMepJ1 na ce

KlbYKa TJ1M J1CTJ1M, 3a6palbeHJ1M

eMoQJ1jaMa

amtre npocTopa. PaHJ1je caM MJ1ClIJ1na na je pe'I 0 JIow~J CTBOPJ1lllTO nmue nOTpOllla'Ia, 60neCHJ1Ka. )J;aHac caM CJ1rypHa na Je
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MalllJ1Ha aa npasraetse aosua. rrpiryurra 3ap;OBOlbCTBO HaCJIojaBaI-ba eMou;wja xoje ce y peaJIHOM nOpOp;J1'IHOM )f(J1BOTY saoparsyjy, POp;J1Telb HJ1'IJ1M He CMe p;a J13a3J1Ba Tyry KOP; nerera, jep nere J1Ma npaBO casto na )f(J1BOT nperryx paAOCTJ1. Illra ce noraha xana yMpe fiaxa TO casro p;e'IJ1ja rryura 3Ha, jep ra Tap;a POAI1TelbJ1 cxnaisajy na He 6J1 p;O)f(J1BeJIO CTpec. BepOBaTHO, P;OK caxpalbyjy 6aKY, HaUl KpBO)f(ep;HJ1 yHyK J1rpa rryuaxane aa xosmjyrepy J1 YMeCTO pearme eMOll;J1je l'}'re P;O)f(J1BlbaBa BJ1pTyellHy Tyry.

pomrrezsa KOjJ1je nOCTaO pornrrers rpetia CBOM nerery

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HeCpeTHt1 po,n;t1Telbt1 He pasyaesajyha 3aIllTO TO ,n;PYlliTBO rro,n;p)KaBa lie" ",ajy cHary na ce cynporcrase TOM 3JIy. JaK pa3JIOr HeMOht1 je pomrrezscxa aYTOpl1_ rapaa CBeCT xoja, t1 xana 3Ha na aeurro Ht1je notipo, He naje OTrrop, rrJIalIIehll ce PA3JIJ1QJ1TO CTJ1. Ysrajarse "rr03t1Tt1BHl'OC"eMO~t1ja, xao jenao o,n;HajBa)KHt1jt1Xnpaaa ,n;eTeTa,B(l)f(11 caao y po,n;t1TelbCKOM ,n;OMy, sprxhy t1 IllKOJIt1.Onor MOMeHTaxana Tt1Mant1 aHapXi1'{_ Ht1KJIt1H~t1nopacry, yna3e y CBeTonpacnax, a y lbeMY je t1CrrOlbaBalbe Tt1X,36111baHeraTt1BHt1XeMO~t1ja aaopaiseao. Kora jour mrrepecyje IllTOje nopomrua, non rrpt1Tt1CKOM ,n;PYIllTBaHa'It1Ht1na nere, cana onpaoror 'IOBeKa, 3aBt1CHt1KOMon caBpeMeHl1X 3ana. Y CBeTY onpacnax ce saajy rrpaBt1JIa. Ty t1X-rexa nomunrja, Ka3He, 3aTBapalba, npe. sacrnrraaaisa, rre-rersa, ncnxajarpaja t1 spno Te)KaK rryT sapabaaarsa HOB~a. Mopahe ,n;ara sapane sa CBOjy ,n;e~y, aKOje 6y,n;y t1Mant1, t1JIt1caao aa ce6e ,n;a6t1 ce ne'Il1nt1. MOJIt1M po,n;t1Telbe na Hayqe OBY KpaTKy nexnajy, CBaKO nere ce paha ca anpa. Bt1Mt13BOPHt1M eMO~t1jaMa xoje MO)KeMOycnosno Ha3BaTt1 rr03t1Tt1BHt1M, jep HeraTt1BHe xao rrpt1po,n;He He nocroje. Y O,n;CYCTBY aYTOpt1TapHOCTt1 t13BOpHe eMO~t1je ocrajy snpase, XapMOHt1'IHe. Y O,n;CYCTBY ayTOpt1TapHt1X BaCrrt1THt1X xonena pasBt1ja ce rrpxponosr nara EMOUJ10HAJIHA J1HTEJIJ1rEHUJ1JA xoja he ce y3 crnapanaxxo sacnaraise pa3Bt1Tt1 6e3 OCTaTKa, YBeK t1 jemmo y snpaaosr xapvoHt1'IHOM O,n;HOCY 3: 2. Y XapMOHt1jt1 CTe aKO esrouaje KpY)Ke. Y je,n;HOMMOMeHTY MO)KeMO 6t1Tt1 6Pt1)KHt1 t1 TY)KHt1, ,n;OKcy rpn npeocrane esrouaje y nany, Ilpo6neM aacraje aKO 6t1 CMOce sarnaaamr aa OBe nse exroua]e, y ,n;y)KeMBpeMeHCKOM rrept1o,n;y. EMO~t10HanHa xapnoaaja rrpeTrrOCTaBlba CBaKt1,n;pym 06nt1K XapMOHt1je. TaMO r,n;e cy eMO~t10HanHa, MeHTanHa t1 ,n;YXOBHat1HTent1reH~t1ja HeMa 6oneCTt1, HeMa 60neCTt1 3aBt1CHOCTt1 HeMa arpecnje, HeMa saraopa. Ha BaMa je, ,n;parl1 ponxrezsx, ,n;at13t1~eTe t13 osor Kpyra na)Kt1 t1JIt1 OCTaHeTe y lbeMy. Ha BaMa je ,n;a ce BOlbHO t1 3Hana'IKt1 OCJI06o,n;t1Te BaCrrt1THt1XMo,n;ena KOjt1 Hac rypajy y CBe Bene sno. I1peCTaHt1Te ,n;arnyMt1Te crroasope, Bt1 CTe po,n;t1Telbt1.

nYTeBt1 rrpa)Klbelba cy 6pOjHt1. AKO je MajKa rsyra, t1cTyht1 he nere (axo CMe), BJ-fKane aa MY)l(a (aKO CMe). AKO je HeKO 6e3 pa,n;oCTt1, y nenpecxja, t1ht1 he y Ulorrt1Hr KOjt1he My BpaTt1Tt1 pa,n;OCT,aa KpaTKO... Caspeaeaa 'IOBeK je yo-mo na je }laj6p)!(t1 rryr npazosersa HarreTOCTt1 rrYTeM MeHTanHor cexca (cexcyanan 'It1H 6e3 lby6aBt1, a y yHK~t1jt1 rrpa)Klbelba HarreTOCTt1). Y He,n;OCTaTKYHOB~a na ce nobe ,n;o)!(elbel:Ior oojexra (sronae neaojxe, o,n;pacnor naprnepa), nocezce ce sa Haj6nt1)l{J-fMa.Kana HarreTOCT rrOMYTt1CBeCT, nocezce ce aa MaJIOneTHt1M ,n;eTeTOM,rra 'IaK J-fsa BJIaCTt1Tt1M,n;eTeTOM. HarreTOCT je ncnpaaoseaa, }larreTor 'IOBeKa. CaBpeMeHt1 paaanjeaa CBeT He norryurra aacarse CBe ocrano Ht1je Ba)KHO sa y rropo,n;t1~t1, xao Ha'It1H npaTO canosarsa nmne, TO

)l{lbelba HarreTOCTt1. IliTO OHt1 amne fipane, xaxosaaajy,

rre,n;OJ.flIt1je smne, TO xaoca na rrpeTeK. CaBpeMeHt1 crpysisaua Hy,n;e ~y~ny naacy YMeCTO"peanHor aacarsa" TaKO IllTO rrpe,n;na)l(y Ht13 Bpno ycneunrax TeXHt1Ka rrpa)l(lbelba HarreTOCTt1. .Kana Ct1lbYT, ynapaj jaCTYK, nanexo on CBt1Xypnaj, t1,n;t1na yraioorue, t136a~t1 HarreTOCT Bt1'Iyht1, rrcyjyht1, a aKO rrpeTepalli saaur urra re xexa, Cana BaM je jacno 3aIllTO paaaajemr CBeT t1HCt1CTt1pa aa KOHTpOnt1 eMO~t1ja y noponnua, y Me~ylby,n;CKI1MO,n;HOCt1Ma. Ha)KanOCT, TO nonarno craapa npoonen, jep ce esrouaje norncxyjy, a onna t13JIaae na rrOBpIllt1HY y jour ja'IeM HaKa3Ht1jeM 06nt1KY. Ilpa TOM, Y TOM pasaajeaov CBeTY, Ht1KOMe He nana na naaer ,n;aOTKnOHt1 rryisase, ner BaCrrt1THt1X Mo,n;ena, y nopomnnr, y ,n;pyIllTBy. OBI1M 'It1HOM rryrsersa, norncxxaan,a, rra rrpa)Klbelba, rrOCTt1)Ke ce TpeHyTHo

onaxuiau,e, ant1 ycnOBt1 ocrajy t1CTt1t1nt1 ropt1 QOBeKY je CBe resce t1 rezce, rrOTpe6a aa npaaoseisea je CBe jaxa t1 jaxa. 3aTO je OBO rryT KOjt1 BO,n;t1 Y xaoc, y,n;pory. ,il;OK ce ycnona He O'IOBe'Ie, KOpt1CTe t1 OBe TeXHt1Ke. KOnt1KO nyro? Banehere CaMt1.

K1-buJICape HaU3MeHU1.iHO 80gU

cy

Up!UYHe

uyieetee

U UpaJIC1tJe1tJe euouuja

- uyiu

KOjU

eMOl1UOHallHY 09 KOPUCUlU?

xn.uta na iueuy "KaKO pa38UmU uuiuenutenuujy" lecy nu HaM oee tcteuie

Y xaoc

Ilaaac spno 'IeCTO 'IyjeMo casere t1 JIaJ1Ka t1 cTpyqlbaKa ,n;aje noxcezsno Hat13M~Ht1'IHO npaxosea,e eMO~t1ja, xana ce xaura HeKOM eMO~t1joM rrperryHt1. Mo)!(,n;a)e . a J-f TO t1 ,n;o6po y aYTOpt1TapHt1M ycnOBt1Ma KOjt1, y3 nosroh ner BaCrrt1THt1X MO,n;eJI rryae 'IOBeKa aanerouihy, craapajyhz rrorpeoy na ce CBe TO ncrrpasax.
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DPO'It1Tana caM npxmoraa 6poj Klbt1ra na OBY TeMy. 3a noxsany je IllTO 6pOjHt1 aYTOpt1 rpaace rryT ycrrocTaBlbalba eMO~t10HaJIHe xapnonaje, rra Tt1Me t1 eMO~I1OHanlie t1HTeJIt1reH~t1je. Ycrteaajy 6ap ,n;ent1Mt1'IHO, aa KpaTKO, OHOJIt1KOKOnt1KO A03BOlbaBajy aYTOpt1TapHt1 ycnOBt1 )Kt1BOTa. Tpajnaje pellielbe He najy jep t1M je
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rrpMJIa3 norpeuran. Pane crrozsa, yxe xosexa MMWlbalheM nohy no cezseaor crarsa,

xaxo na onpehenm rrOHaWalheM ' pa3-

To HaY'leHO yornnre HMje eMOD;MOHaJIHaMHTeJIMreHD;MJ' a rrpe 6M ce . . 'peKJIO,ll;a .e pe'l 0 rroHawalhY M3 M03ra jep TM Je HeKO pexao ,ll;anotiap ,ll;pyr ,ll;eJIM 6 6 ) IT' OM OHe ca ,ll;pyrOM.... pyra rpeunca je WTO HMKOHe noxyuraaa ,ll;aOTKJIOHMY3PO'lHTK . nKe eM0U;I1_ OHaJIHe ,ll;MCxapMOHMJe,ner ayropxrapnax BacrrMTHMXMorreJIa Y YCJIO BMMa aYTO_ pMTapHOCTM, y rrpMcycTBy orpoxrne npnayne M "rrJIMllIaHe" rrpMHyrre He to M, MorYlle je pa3BMTM KJIMD;yeMOD;MOHaJIHeMHTeJIMreHD;Mje, xojy CMO ,ll;OHeJIM pohe . 1) lheM, KO)a Je y HaMa. To 6JIaro ce He npecnpa cnozsa, CaMO cy 'lOBe'lHM YCJIOBMrroTpe6HI1. CTBapaJIa'lKO sacnararse, OTKJIOHM Y3pO'lHMKe, Y36ypKaHe eMoD;Mjece Bpanajy y KOPMTO M 'ycrrOCT~Blba ce eMOD;MOHaJIHa xapaomrja. Iby rrpaTM eM0U;MOnpaponao HaJIHa MHTeJIMreHD;MJa,a rne je OHa, Ty HeMa ynapaisa, nryrnparsa, ncosan,a M 6y6alha narrasrer, ,ll;aCM notiap ,ll;pyr xana nocnemsy 60M60HY nonemnu ca ,ll;pyrapoM.
M

3aTO ce HeKO nocerno na CBaKl1 'lOBeK nocraae CBOj nomuiajau TaKO WTO he J{OpJ.1CTJ.1Tl1 cHary YMa, saycraszsajyha rrnl1My Ha,ll;OWJIl1X eMOD;l1ja l1 6YKBaJIHO l1X "rypaTJ.1 non rerrax", To je Tpl1K KOjl1naje pesyzrrare aa ,ll;y)f(l1l1JIl1xpaha nepnon. Pe3ynTaTJ.1 cy MO)f(,ll;a,aa KOP"CT ,ll;PYWTBY,aJIJ.1nojenxaan CTpa,ll;a, xan 'ran.

OHa U3

Illeajuapcxe,

OH ca

Snauauiopa

Kana BaCrrMTa'lMD;aBM,ll;M na je jenao nere ynapano ,ll;pyro, OHa He OTKJIalha Y3P0'IHMKeBen 3aXTeBa on arpecasna na ce M3BMHM M rrolby6M )f(PTBy. J1Ma JIM OHa CBeCT o rrocnemruaxra rpeayrno rrOTMCHYTMX eMoD;Mja M xon jennor M KO,ll; npyror nerera. ~MrYPHO,ll;a lhy He MHTepecyje 3aWTO je nere arpeCMBHO (xynyjy ra, npeaaurrahy. JY, cena rrpe,ll; TeJIeBM30pOM carassa). Iby He MHTepecyje HMzta JIM je cpraa 36Mlba xcpraa MJIM je M OHa BpWMJIa "rrJIMWaHO aacarse" Ha,ll; "arpeCMBD;eM". OHa HeMa cHary na Melha KlbyqHe CTBapM, Y3pO'IHMKe, OHa cnozsa Melha noaauran,e nerera. To HMje rryr paaanjarsa eMOD;MOHaJIHeMHTeJIMreHD;Mje. Je,ll;HoM pesjy, CBe re KIbMre M peurersa xoja OHe nyne HMCYJIOwa, nox ce He noxae panarn na OTKJIalhaIbY Y3pO'lHMKa (BacrrMTHMX MO,ll;eJIa).Tana nere cnoaTaHO McrrOlbaBa CBOjy eMOD;MOHaJIHY MHTeJIMreHD;Mjy,noneceay poheisea.

mytu, HUCaM lbym...': U myuoea he necuiauiu. Ila JlU je 080 uotyhe?

CaMO uonaensa]: "HUCaM
,ll;eMoKpaTMjy, y rraxery je ,ll;06MO ner BacrrMTHMX MO,ll;eJIa.I1PMHy,ll;y je, T060)f(e, OCY,ll;MO, a "rrJIMllIaHY npmryny' je npaXBaTMO,nonpzcao, He pasyaeaajyha na je CBe rrpMHy,ll;a M na cy rrocnenaue Ko6He. Y ~aKBMM YCJIOBMMa,rne CBaKO iran CBaKMMBPWM "rrpMHy,ll;y", evonaje eCKanJ1paJY noaone no onurrer xaoca, 3aTO je MO,ll;epHor xosexa sazsazro HayqMTM KaKO ,ll;a ~OHTpOJIMWe nacnojene esronaje. BalbaJIO je xoaexa HaY'lMTM KaKO ,ll;a rrOTJ1CKYje eMoD;Mje.
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Kana je pa3BMjeHM CBeT ywao y ayropnrapay

CenaM ce IIlBajD;apKJ.1Ibe xoja je ,ll;OIlIJIay Cp6J.1jy jep ce ynana aa Cp6MHa. EyrpoPJ1qHO je noaaarsana KaKO joj HeIlITO, osne KO,ll; Hac, y Cp6J.1jM, npaja, aJIl1 He YMe ,LIa06jaCHJ.1. Y pa3roBopy oTKpMBaM,ll;a je naanecer ronana pa,LIMJIaxao Me,ll;J.1D;l1HCKa cecrpa, BpJIO reunce rrOCJIOBe, 6pMHynl1 0 crapaaa. O,ll;YBeKje 3HaJIa na joj je TeIllKO, aJIl1 D;aKYHayqeHY y nexoj "pa,ll;l10HMD;l1"CTaJIHOje rronasrsana: ,,]a TO MOry, Hl1je Ml1 TeIlIKO, ja TO BOnJ.1M,ja caM KopMCHa, notipo aapahyjev M en" PeKJIa MJ.1je ,ll;ajoj je rrOJIa3J.1nO aa PYKOM ,ll;a OBaKO renrxe rrOCJIOBe pa,ll;J.1ca naxohov. I10CJIe nsanecer romma je noxena qeCTO J.1,,6e3pa3JIO)f(HO" na rmaxe, ,ll;a6eCHl1, rrospeaeao l1 rrporas csoje aozse, je,ll;HOMpexjy, Hl1je Moma BMllIe na ce KOHTpOJIl1llIe. I10CTajaJIa je CBe yMopHl1ja, 're je MOpaJIa ,ll;aY3Me jenaoronaunse aerrnaheao O,LICYCTBO. Ynoaaajev je y TaKBOM CTalhY, na nan senaarsa ca Cp6J.1HOM,Y MaHacTMpy 'Hemrje. JIaKo je 06jaCHl1Tl1 lheH rrp06JIeM l13 paBHl1 CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacmrraisa. CHarOM YMa je craszsana non "Terrl1X" lbYTlhY, 6ec, l1CTl1HY0 eKCrrJIOaTaD;l1jl1 xojy BpllIe 60raTl1l1 He3a,ll;OBOlbCTBOC060M jep joj noxnerra He nosnozsaaa na rrpOMeHl1 rrocao M pamr HellITO naxure, a Malhe nnaheao. CBe crrorsa je oCTajaJIO l1CTO,jOIlI l1 rope, jep je IbeHO TeJIO nocycrajano non TepeToM pa,ll;a M ronnna. Ibea cnozsaunsn Ml1p casro je 6MO MaCKa sa 6ype 6apYTa. "I1yKJIa je" - KaKO Ka)f(Y KJIl1HD;M, aJIl1 eKCrrJIO3Mja je 6MJIa ynyrpaunsa, He -ryje ce, aJIM ce Bl1,ll;M. <!>MHM, KyJITypHM 3arra,ll;IbaD;l1 He cMejy ,ll;anoxascy 6ec, lbyTIby l1,ll;a l1XcnonraHO M J.1CKpeHOncnpasae na HeKOM l1nJ.1rrpe,ll; HeKMM. Hucy joj amue 6l1JIl1 nosozsHMjacTyD;M y xoje je ynapana, 6aIlITa y KOjOj je ypnaJIa. Y TOM TpeHyTKy 036l1lbHe yHyTpallIIbe HarreTOCTl1, onny-ryje ce na 6paK ca Cp6MHOM, rrperrasn y rrpaBOCJIaBHY Bepy. 3a osaj xopax rpeoano joj je necer ronaHa rr03HaHCTBa ca OBl1M'lOBeKOM 3aulTO je rrpeuma y npaaoczrasn.e? OCeTl1JIa je na rrpaBOCJIaBHa D;pKBa l1Ma OHO Uno lheHa HeMa. Ilpasocnaan.e He KOP"CT" rrpl1Hy,ll;y y 6l11I0 KOM06nl1KY. 3aIlITO ce Y,ll;alIasa Cp6l1Ha? )1a Hl1CaM nosaaaana xoaexa, rrosorcnnna 6l1X na je OH 6110 ~o6pa nparnrxa rne he Mohl1 na oraopeno npasna HarreTOCT, na rroxaxce csoje
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eMOU;J1je. MO)Kp;a 6J1 nexana p;06J1lla J1 6aTJ1He. To 6J1 joj onaxurarro MyKe. Bl1lIo 6J1 TO sa KpaTKO jep CMOJ1 MJ13eMJba y TpaH3J1U;J1jJ1xoja Op;Hep;aBHO3aKOHOM CBe TO aatiparsyje. 3Halla CaM 3allITO ce ynana sa OBOr Cp6J1Ha. 0J10 je TO qOBeK, npasa CTBapalIa'I_ . xa lIJ1qHOCT xoja, He 3HaM KaKO, allJ1 HJ1je nosaasana 3aKOHe aYTOpJ1TapHor Cl1CTe_ Ma.l1pep; lbJ1M, CBaKOce ocehao xao npep; npJ1pOp;OM J1Borosi, cll060P;HO, 'IeCTl1TO y Jby6aBJ1 J1A06pOTJ1. ' Haxcanocr, seh nocne Meceu; nana npOBep;eHJ1X y Cp6J1jJ1, cana seh ynara HOBOrrexeaa npasocnaaxa, noxena je na KpJ1TJ1Kyje Hac, Cp6e, KaKO CMO llelbJ1, KaKO p;aHry6J1MO, He MJ1CllJ1MO0 pap;y, caao Cep;J1MOJ1Y)KJ1BaMO.Illra joj ce p;OrOp;l1lIO? Ilsanecer rOp;J1Ha je 6J1llO P;OBOJbHOp;a yhe y 3aBJ1CHOCTop; pana KOjJ1joj je ynpaBO ypap;J10 TO llITO je ypap;J1o. Kao llITO nYllIaq, xojea nanae HJ1KOTJ1H ncnon U;pTe, Mopa p;a aarrann U;J1rapeTY J1 na Hap;OMeCTJ1 KOllJ1qJ1HYOTpOBa y ce6J1, TaKO je J1 nama Illsajuapxatsa noxena p;a ce panyje nOBpaTKY aa CTapJ1 HaqJ1H )KJ1BOTa,KOjJ1 he joj p;J1hJ1anpenanaa. Pap;OXOlIJ1qap je rrpopanno y rsoj. OJ1llO MJ1je zcao naurer xoaexa. Onaene "npaBocllaBKa" Cp6J1Ha y pa3BJ1jeHJ1 CBeT. 1106ep;J1lIa je. KaKO My je TaMO, ca lbOM, iseroaa nyura 3Ha. Iberosa nyura MO)Kp;a naTJ1, nOBpeMeHO, alIJ1 casr CJ1rypHa p;a qOBeK OHaKBe p;YXOBHe cnare He MO)KenpOnaCTJ1. Hexahe OH lbY, MO)Kp;ajour ner rOp;J1Ha, a oana he cnrypao, nOHOBO, npecpehna, noha y Cp6J1jy J1 MaHaCTJ1p 'Benxje.

CrdJ.1pJ1TJ1. YM nanac He )KelIJ1 Mep;J.1TaU;J1jy. YM xohe J1CTJ1HY,a pau;J.1o xohe aaarse J<ojJ1M6J1 113BYKao xosexa J13 nyxoaue KpJ.13ey xojy je sanao. CJ1H p;aHJ1Ma BJ1CJ1y KlIap;J10HJ1u;aMa, a MajKa MJ1ClIJ1"rr03J1TJ.1BHO". "CBl1 TO pap;e, rrpOlIa3HO je, TO je lIyP;OCT MlIap;OCTJ1",rOBOpJ1 ce611. Jlanau HeraTJ1BHOCTJ1 ce HaCTaBJba. Ilere nocraje CBe rrpO)Kp;pJbJ1BJ.1je,noxnennaje, aanernje, He yqJ1, nonaBibao je, yp;apa rnaaosr 0 3J1P;xana ry6J.1, HaCJ1lIaH je y KyhJ1, 6J1je MajKY.. 'Ajr;' cap;', rdJ.1CJIJ1 n03J1TJ1BHO, 6yp;J1 TOlIepaHTaH! Ilyuaur no CBJ1MllIaBOBJ1Ma, jep pellIelbe HeMalll. AKO noxyuram p;a pellIJ1llI npoonea napuajanno - HaCJ1Jbe je na Cu;eHJ1. AaKlIe, MJ1ClIJ1TJ1 n03J1TJ1BHO 0 CTBapJ1Ma xoje HJ1CYn03J1TJ1BHe J1He yqJ1HJ1TJ1 HJ.1lllTap;a Te HeraTJ.1BHe nojaae OTKlIOHJ1llI,MelbajyhJ.1 aYTopl1TapHe YCJIOBe)KJ1BOTa y CTBapalIaqKe, je xpajise HeQOBeqHO. TOlIepJ1CaTJ.1HellITO lllTO BanJ1 aa npOMeHOM, 6e3 HJ.13anpep;Y3eTJ1X aKU;J.1ja na ce aesnpaao craise CTBapJ1 nonpana, je HeOp;p)KJ1BO. MJ1, xao rpahaua, MO)KeMO TOJIepJ1CaTJ1 rej - napane, aJIJ.1jennaa J1CnpaBHa TOJIepaHU;J1ja je anrascoaaaa TOlIepaHU;J1ja He YKJ1HeMOlIJ1 BaCrrJ1THe Mop;elIe KOjJ.1 cy y nopop;J1U;J1 J1nponyxoaamr OBO 3lIO, CTBOpJ1heMO aa xnzsane HOBJ1XlIe36ejKJ1 J.1 xOMoceKcyalIau;a TJ1M MlIap;J1MJbyp;J1Ma nehexo p;aTJ1uraacy na p;YXOBHOpacTY, a Cp6J1ja he OCTaTJ16e3 nOTOMaKa. CaMO anraacoaaaa craapanasxa TOlIepaHU;J.1ja TOlIepaHU;J.1je p;06po je "MJ1ClIJ1TJ1 je rryr aa pacT. AOK He p;o~e BpeMe craapanaxxe n03J1TJ1BHO", Map;a CBe janoaaje.

"MUCllU U03UtuUaHO" - cse

he tiuiuu y pegy

uuu ga

ypagu poquiuen. KOjU je gOJICuaeo ctuaapalla1-lKU upeuopoq, a qeiue He upuxeaiaa capaqiey ca 1bUM

Ilaaac je CBeT npennasn.ea TeXHJ1KaMa xoje ynorpefirsaaajy, allJ1 J13lloynOTpe6lbasajy orpoMHy cHary yMa. J1cTJ1Ha je p;a xana MJ1CllJ1llIn03J1TJ1BHO, xao na CJ1non nejcrsosr cenaraea.Ilocrajeur ronepanraa, MHoro rora npaxsaraur, rOBOpenJ.1 p;a je TO BepOBaTHO y pep;y J1p;a he npohx J.1lIJ.1 na je TO llITO je, CTBap onor p;pyror. CHary YMa 36J.1Jba je 6J.1lIOnaxo yrroTpe6J.1TJ.1 sa nOCTJ.13albe CMJ.1peHOCTJ1 y u;elloM reny Y spexre P;OK cy aa Cu;eHJ.1)KJ1BOTa 6J1llJ.1caao npJ.1Hyp;a J1 aeptianaaaa. l1oCTJ.13aJIJ.1 cy ce OP;llJ1qHJ.1 pe3YllTaTJ1 pa3HJ.1M Mep;J.1TaU;J10Hl1M TeXHJ1KaMa. qOBeK je Morao p;a npJ1XBaTJ1 CTBapJ.1TaKBe KaKBe jecy jep KOllJ.1qJ.1Ha sna, HJ.1je6J.1lla HJ1 6llJ.13YKOJIJ.1qJ.1HJ.1 31Ia nanac, Tana je 6J.1llOTellIKO, alIJ.1nOp;HOllIJbJ.1BO. . AaHac je MHoro rrpotineaa, xao rrocnenxna ner aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1XMop;elIa, CBe Je HeJ13BeCHOjep je aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1CJ.1CTeM cpYllIeH. lhyp;J.1 ry6e CMJ.1CaO )KJ1BOTa,jep He x BJ1p;e HaqJ1H na 3aYCTaBe nlIJ.1MYsna. TeK no yKJ.1p;alby aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1XBaCrrJ.1THJ.1 Mop;elIa, xana ce ycrrOCTaBJ.1 eMOU;J.10HalIHapaBHOTe)Ka, yM he ce J.16e3 y6e1)J.1Bafba
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POp;J.1TeJb MO)KeMJ1ClIJ1TJ1 rr03J1TJ1BHO0 HajHeraTJ.1BHJ1jJ1M nojasaaa y noponmra, xao nOClIep;J1U;J1 aYTOpJ1TapHOr aacmrraisa, reurehn ce6e p;a je CBe TO npOJIa3HO J.1p;a he ce CBe TO BpeMeHOM p;OBeCTJ.1 y pep;. Ha)KaJIocT, ner BaCnJ.1THJ1X MOp;eJIaKOMnlIJ.1KYjy )KI1BOT6e3 noxasarersa na cyTpa HeKI1M QyP;OMCBe MO)Ke 6l1Tl1 p;OBep;eHOy pep;. Cpena caM MHoro ponarezsa KOjl1 cy ce6e pap;J.1, J.1pap;11 csoje neue OCBOjJ1JIJ1 npl1HU;l1ne CTBapaJIaQKOr nacnaraisa. Ileua 11MHI1CYnana npJ1JII1Ky na TO npaMeHe y )KI1BOTYcsoje noponaue. Hsrnena ce non y CBOMceny 11p;aJbe He nocraje. MO)KP;a neua xazosasajy pomrrersa aa CBe BaCIIJ.1THenporrycre. MO)Kp;a cy ce CPOAl1lIl1ca CBOjJ.1M J1CKpJ1BJbeHJ.1M 6J.1heM. He )KelIe nposrene. POp;I1TeJb KOjl1 TpaHccpopMJ1llIe CBOjy ayroparapny CBeCT y cTBapallaQKY he 3HaTl1113lIa3 J13xaoca, allJ.1TO jour He 3HaQJ1 na he Taj J.13JIa3noacenern OCTalIJ.1xnaHOBI1nopomrue. Illra npeocraie TOM pOp;J1TeJbYJ.1llJ.1 HeKOM xnaay noponnue KojJ.1
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raxohe 3Ha J13na3. IherOBO je na nOHyp;J1aaarse CTBapanaqKOr aacrraraisa, y 01<BI1_ py TOr aaaisa pelllelbe, 6e3 J1KaKBenpJ1CJ1ne na ce noayheao J1npJ1XBan1. YKOnl11<O ce rronyheao 0p;6J1je pOp;J1Telb Mopa npJ1XBaTJ1TJ1passoj norahaa,a, anJ1 6e3 CTpaxa on sna xoje he caao HapaCTaTJ1 (onne J1CKlbyqJ1BOMJ1CnJ1Mna nopop;J1I.J;e ca Op;pa_ cnOM p;eQOM xoja He cene n03J1TJ1BHe rrpoxeae). AKO npeotipaaceax pOp;J1Telb He MO)I(ep;a npJ1XBaTJ1 TOKneuraaarsa npeOCTaje POp;J1Telb ce CBeCHO My p;a xanpaaa pe3 KOjJ1he CJ1ryPHO p;OBeCTJ1P;O pesynrara. noanaxa J13 BaCnJ1THOr npoueca J1 npenylllTa TO p;pyroM pOp;J1TelbY J1nJ1 He1<OM xnaay noponaue y xojer nere HJ1je J13ry6J1no nosepeise J1ca KOjJ1Mp;eTe 6ap Ha113rner; 60lbe KOMYHJ1QJ1pa.Ynanpen ce pomrrezs Mopa nOMJ1pJ1TJ1p;a pesynrarn Hene 6J1TJ1YKOnJ1KOraj HOBJ1BaCnJ1Taq KOPJ1CTJ1 CBJ1Xner BaCnJ1THJ1XMop;ena. Y TOM cnyxajy xexa ce nYHoneTCTBO nerera, KaKO 6J1 nere no-rene na pana J1 npeY3Me 6pJ1ry 0 ce6J1. Iloxcen.ao je J1J13J1qKO onaajaise op; pomrrezsa KaKO6J1 ce KOHaqHO npeKJ1Hyno yrrpa)I(lbaBalbe HaKa3HJ1X BaCnJ1THJ1XMop;ena, a Mnap;J1 qOBeK noxpeHyO na op;rOBopHOCT. <DJ13J1qKO onaajaise nerera on pOp;J1Telba KOjJ1je ymao y crsapanaxxo BaCnJ1raise He 3HaqJ1 0p;6aQJ1Balbe nerera, Ben je J1OBOCTBapalbe ycnoaa aa paasoj CBeCHOCTJ1 xoje nere HJ1je Momo p;a P;O)I(J1BJ1 y noponaun xoja ra je J13nesaarsa nosena P;O crarsa y KOMeje. Ilere, y HOBJ1MycnOBJ1Ma noxsnse p;a MJ1CnJ1CBOjOMmaBOM J1 6J1ne npJ1pOp;HO na aehe noayheay noaoh 0p;6J1TJ1(osne He MJ1cnJ1Maa MaTepJ1janay Ben P;yXOBHy nosroh). Ilanac ce pOp;J1TelbJ1, KOjJ1cy KaCHOp;OlllnJ1 no saarsa crnapanaxxor BaCnJ1Talba, Mopajy npJ1npeMJ1TJ1 J1sa OHO najrope J13aTO xazta ce TO najrope norona, CBY CBOjy CTBapanaqKY eaeprxjy Mopajy nOCBeTJ1TJ1npyroj p;eQJ1, CBOjOj, p;eQJ1 pobaxa, npajarersa. Ilarrsa He CMe p;a ce ztoroznr. Mopa p;a ce norona npaxaararse csera lllTO CMOHe3HalbeM HaqJ1HJ1nJ1a HeMOnHJ1 CMOna MelbaMO. Ocehaise KpJ1BJ1QeHe 6J1 csreno rta npaTJ1 Tor pomrrezsa jep je rpelllKe qJ1HJ10 J13neaaarsa, a He HaMepHO. Y npOTJ1BHOM, nyrorpajna narrsa J1ocehaise KpJ1BJ1Qe3aYCTaBJ1ne P;YXOBHJ1 paCT J1oaor xosexa J1OH amne HJ1KOMe,rra HJ1ce6J1 aehe 6J1TJ1 op; KOPJ1CTJ1.

_ hJ1pJ16a". EKCnepTJ1 cy CKOPOycnenx, y6ep;J1nJ1 cy Hac. IT~cTanJ1 CMO6eHCep;J1HC1<aHaQJ1ja. ,D;anJ1 CMO3p;paBJ1jJ1? He! ,D;anJ1 CMOcnOC06HJ1)J1 3~ ~elllaBalbe aKYT}fJ1Xnp06neMa nopomnre J1 npyurrsat He! Ila nJ1 CMO MJ1pHJ1)J1. To xexa CBaKO J(a)f(e caM ce6J1. . . lllTa pap;J1 moryna! AKO nesrare pap;OCTJ1, aKO CTe ynanJ1 y nenpecxjy, HayKa)e YTBpp;J1nana BaM aenocraje XOPMOHpap;OCTJ1.To je J1CTJ1Ha.AnJ1, HayqHJ1QJ1 HJ1CY nep;ar03J1 KOjJ1rpetia na ce 6aBe np06neMoM KaKO na :oBeK )I(J1BJ1.ynoponaun J1 p;pylllTBy p;a He J13ry6J1 pap;OCT. HJ1TJ1 J1XTO nnrepecyje, HJ1TJ1saajy p;a cy Y3POqH

J1QJ1op;cYCTBa pap;OCTJ1, aYTOpJ1TapHJ1 Mop;enJ1. . ~ ,D;OK ce nenaroaa He Y036J1lbe J1He nOqHY na orxnarsajy ~3pOqHJ1Ke, 't'~pMaQeyTJ1 he 3rpTaTJ1 orpoxan HOBaQ. He MOry na ce CnO)I(J1Mp;a je peq 0 HeKO) 3aBepJ1 J13Mel)y HaYKe J1 TOlIJ1KOnananaae apMaQeYTcKe J1HP;ycTpJ1je. T060)I(e, y )I(elbJ1 p;a sapane, np0J13BOp;e TOnJ1KOnexosa, xao J1rOMJ1lIYmoryna aa ~MJ1pelbe. He CTaBlbajy apMaQeyTJ1 name nere npen najrope BJ1pTyenHe canpacaje. OHJ1 ca~o npoJ13BOp;ernoryne p;a 6J1CTe BJ1J1 saute nere npe)I(J1BenJ1. OHJ1 caste pap;e CBO)nocao J1spno caM J1Maaxsanna, jep p;a HeMa J1TJ1Xrnoryna, nCJ1XJ1jaTpJ1je 6J1 6J1ne rryne, 60nHJ1Qe raxohe, a KpB 6J1 rexna 36m uacazsa xoje pacTe J13nana y nan, xao onroBOp na npmryny J1 "nnJ1lllaHY npmryny" y nopomma J1npyurrsy.

Iieua

eac Malle, He uyUl.Ul.ajUl.e

aunyne y iuxone

Ho, BpaTJ1MOce MJ1oncycrsy pap;OCTJ1,xao HaqJ1HY0p;6paHe op; HacnojeHe pap;OCTJ1, a lllTO je nocnenaua KynOBJ1He nerera y BaCnJ1TalbY. Ilornenajsro jep;aH ,,6e3a3neH crryxaj". rOp;J1HaMa xynyjeao nere sa CBe J1 caaurra. 3aMJ1CnJ1Te KOnJ1Kaje KOnJ1qJ1Ha pap;OCTJ1npacyrna casro y TOKYjenaor naira, Y3pOKOBaHa KynOBJ1HOMJ1rpaxaxa, mep;albeM QPTaHJ1X J1nMOBa, J13naCQJ1Ma, 3a6aBaMa, J1rpalbeM J1rpJ1Qa ... HacnojeHa pap;OCT yrpO)I(aBa J1 cPQe J1 ueo KPBHJ1 CJ1CTeM,TaHKO QpeBO, KPBHJ1 xana npJ1TJ1CaKnerera. Ham OpraHJ13aM je caspurea KOMnjYTep KOjJ1,y rpenyrxy, ce panocr npeamue aacnoja J1yrp03J1 reno, noxaace Hece6J1qHO qOBeKY EMOQJ1ja Tyre J13HeHap;a jaxa J1ofiapa panocr, CMJ1pyje reno, CBJ1 pomrrezsx snajy KaKOJ13mep;a xan ce jenno "XJ1nepaKTJ1BHO" nere J13HeHana YMJ1PJ1J1 CBe nOnpJ1MJ1 pa3Mepe 6nare nerrpecaje. AnJ1, urra ce Ty MO)I(e, peha ne aYTOpJ1TapHJ1 pOp;J1TelbJ1. ITa MJ1 J1MaMOcaora nCJ1XJ1jaTpa, npenacahe nereTy nl1nynJ1I.J;e J1 panocr he 6J1TJ1spaheaa (xao na je TO nexa J13ry6lbeHa J1rpaQKa). nl1nyna npotinesr pemana rrpnspexrerro. Ilere je )I(J1BHyno, cezsa pacre, noxnena je orter 'ry, pOp;J1Telb je ca Mop;enOM KyrroBJ1He HaCTaBJ10 rne je crao.
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IIouuj

uunyny

- 3aUl.UlO ce MY1-lUUI.?

CBe xeurhe HaM eKCnepTJ1 nasrehy xosmnexce, KaKOMJ1EanKaHQJ1, a HapoqJ1TO MJ1 Cp6J1, HJ1CMOY TpeHp;y. 3aOCT.anJ1 CMOjep He npJ1XBaTaMO MHoro rora lllTO HyP;J1 pa3BJ1jeHJ1 CBeT. YCTpyqaBaMO ce na KOPJ1CTJ1MO "nJ1nyne sa moryne", a OHe pelllaaajy rrpofinesr, npa PYQJ1 cy J1 HJ1CYTaKO HJ1cxyrre, pap;e aa npJ1HQJ1ny "nJ1pJ16y
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QeTBpn1Ha IUllIyJUIlI;e nocraje arsa. CBe no nraxe nWJIYJIa. Ill'ra

IT .

aenoaon.aa,

nenpecaja

sacxaxe, WCBe ce nOHa_

)e

Mo,n;eJIa. TOTaJIHa eMOU;WOHaJIHamrcxapsroaaja

BO,n;W CTalbY Y3HeMwpeHor

yMa.

je TY JIOIlIe? - nxrare ceo Ila BW,n;WIlI,n;aMy .

JIaKIlIe. f-I,a, JIaKIlIe My je, MO)K,n;a,aJIW aKO nOKYIlIa na ce OCJI060,n;w nWJIYJIa t . ' Helle ycrrern. JIelbw M03aK)e rrOCTaO rocno,n;ap. 3a60paBwo je na rrpaBw XOPMOH . paAoCTW,)ep ro,n;wHaMa YMecTo isera TO "lWHe nWJIYJIe. M03aK je rrocrao napasn T. f-I,a IT JIW je Moryne W onor rrapa3WTa W3JIe"lWTw? BepOBaTHO. KpeHWMO on CTBapaJIa'I_ KWX YCJIOBa)KWBOTa. ViMa JIWW3JIa3a, YKOJIWKOHaM He nohe sa PYKOM ,n;aOCJI060,n;WMOM03aK 3aan, CHOCTW on nWJIYJIa? Cnrypno na WMa. AKO rpetia, npezcanaheao OBe IlITO CMO yrrporraCTWJIW, a MHoro Y IlIKOJIW W sprahy, WX je. Vi 6whe wx CBe BWIlIe, aKO Y jemro]

on Hape,n;H~x

YMa Hwje y cTalbY Pa3YM 6e3 xapaonaaoaaaax esronaja W 6e3 xapsroxaaoeanor na ,n;aje KOHCTPYKTwBHa, xone-nra peIlIelba. TaKaB, Ha30BWMO ra eMOTWBaH "lOBeK, flwje y crarsy na peIlIaBa BJIaCTWTe,aajtiaaamrxje np06JIeMe, a KaMOJIWTy~e, npo6JIeMe rrpnjarezsa WJIW npyurrna. TaKBoM "lOBeKY He ocraje ,n;pyro Hero ,n;a6ecKpajno narn. Vi osne je peq 0 nonycaecaoj ocotia Hew3MepHe narrse, On lbeHe narise JI!cy3a CBWwMajy caao IlITeTe, a rroceriao OHa, jep he YCKOPOMO)K,n;aW 060JIeTw, Majxa 0 KOjOj je peq npwna,n;a OBOM Twrry eMoTwBau;a. Kana eMOTWBHa oco6a CXBaTW rne cy OMeTaqW, OHa WXJIaKO OTKJIalba ~ nocracTa6wJIHa oco6a, CBeCHa, Wy CBaKOM TpeHyTKy 3Ha KaKO nonoh je eMOU;WOHaJIHO ce6w W,n;pyroM, 6e3 YJIa)Kelba y
Hi. ~aHac

IlIKOJICKWX rornma BJIaCTW,n;03BOJIeJIeraJIHY ynorpetiy TaTW W MWHWCTap aa ofipasoaatse, HWKaKO Y IlIKOJIe.

nWJIYJIa sa cMwpelbe ,n;eu;e pa3y-

nyrorpajay rraTlby. Jby6aB 3Ha IlITa joj aarsa qWHW-

0 TOMe ce seh rrpaxa, aJIWpaqYHaM,n;a he osa] TeKCT npoxaW MWHwcTap aa rropo,n;wu;y. Ilpo-nrrarx,

MeTW W He ,n;03BOJIWTW rrWJIYJIey IlIKOJIaMa, Y WMe )KWBOTa. Ileua WXMOJIe, nWJIYJIe

mn-reaasajy eMOTWBU;W,W3 BpeMeHa Tpa,n;WU;WOHaJIHe noponnue, aaxreKOH<PY3HWeMOTWBHWlby,n;W. Henocrajy HaM OHW rrpBW, lbWXOBW cysa. IlpWCTW)Ky HeKW HOBWKJ1WHU;W, cysa ,n;peHOBWHa,HW cyaa nesrajy. rrOTOU;W
lbyjy WX xpajrse

Moja cyupyia je epno eMOUlU8Ha. Oceitoeuea je U saunaue 6p30. /(a llU je UlO upegHocUl UllU MaHa?
Y BpeMe Tpa,n;WU;WOHaJIHe rropo,n;wu;e, eMOTWBHOCTce TYMa"lWJIa xao nexa rroce6HOCT,Y BpJIO n03WTWBHOM CMWCJIY. HeKO je npeoceTlbWB sa npotineae ,n;pyrwx, 360r

Haiue geUle KaO ga neua euouuje, qenyje tiesocehajno, 6e3 tupaioea UaUl1Ve, yunauienu CMO,jep HeKaga OCenaMOga 6u 6UllO y CUla1VY,sapaq C80jUX uniuepeca, ga Hac YHUUlUlU.
Ep~)KHW orau BW,n;W na Hwje nofipa HW rrpeTepaHa oceTlbWBOCT iserose cynpy-

xera narrr. TaKBa, eMOTWBHa ocotia Tpa,n;WU;WOHaJIHe noponnue, je nopen ocehalba narrse 6wJIa W cnocotina ,n;anOMOfHe Y peIlIaBalbY np06JIeMa, 360r KOjWX je W naTWJIa. To je 36wlba 6wJIO aa rrOXBaJIY.
Ilon YTwu;ajeM

re, HW fieaocehajaocr lbWXOBor nerera. Pex je 0 caspeneaoj nopomnra, y KOjOj je y aacrnrrarsy CWHa, CBWX MajKa, non y'rwu;ajeM caspeaeaax TpeH,n;OBa KOpWCTWJ1a, rter ayroparapanx Mo,n;eJIa.OTaU; je yBw~ao na TO He BO,n;W ,n;o6py, aJIW MajKa H~je O,n;yCTajaJIa.Ce6e je nosena no craisa orposme narise ~ TOTaJIHe 6ecrroMonHocT~,
a C~Ha

cavo nsa sacmrrna

cnocofiaa

Mo,n;eJIaMHoro je JIaKIlIe 6WJIOOqYBaTWKaKBY,

no norrryae

6e30cehajHocTw,

xojy npaTW Bw,n;HaHaneTOCT.

CB~X ner Bacrr~THWX Mo,n;eJIa,B~,n;eJI~CMO.

TaKBY eMOU;WOHaJIHY paBHOTe)KY. CaMWM TWMWeMOTWBHaoco6a Tor speaeaa 6Wla je MHoro crariamnrja,

Ill'ra ce noronnno Maju;w, y3 ynorpetiy

na CMwpeHwjwM YMOM, 3,n;paBopa3YMCKW pellIa-

na np06JIeMe. Pex je 0 rrOJIYCBecHoj ocotia. EMoTwBHa oco6a Tor BpeMeHa WMaJIa je ymaBHOM jenay, BpJIO HaCJIojeHY esrousrjy. IDy Hwje XTeJIa HW na CKpWBa. qecTO je TY eMou;wjy ca nOHOCOM WCTWu;aJIa.3arrJIaKaJIa 6w aa CBaIlITa W TWMe rroKa3J1!BaJIa KOJIWKaje lbeHa Tyra. Hacnojeaa Tyra H~je crrpesasana eMOTWBu;a,n;aCBOj JI!
Ty~W np06JIeM peIlIW.

LJ;o~JIO je ,n;o nacnojeaocrn eMou;~ja W napanase snpasor paaysia. Mopare 3HaTW na jennaxo crpana W onaj KOjW yrrpa)KlbaBa Mo,n;eJleW onaj nan KOjWM ce OBW sacn~THW Mo,n;eJlWnpmrersyjy, Illra ce noroznoro Crpanamr cy W MajKa W CWH. CWHy? Hart CWHOMje BpIlIeHo orpoMHo

LJ;eTeHwje WMaJlO cnary ,n;yxa ,n;aCBe TO pa3YMeBalbeM aMopTw3yje.

uacan.e CBWX06JlWKa. EOJI je cxryp-

uo 6wo orpoxran,

nenomrourrsaa.

3aMWCJlWTecarao KaKaB je 6wo iseroa ,n;O)KWBlbaj

Ilanac 6w ce aa eMOTWBHY ocotiy npe Momo pehn na je nesperra. EMOTWBfla ocofia caBpeMeHe noponaue yrnaanosr ocraje aa HWBOYnarrse, npahene onlllTOM TpajHoM yaaesorpenoiuhy, CBe TO je nocnenaua ynorpetie CBWX ner BacrrJl!TflJI!)C
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CBeTa xana je CBe BwpTyeJlHO npWXBaTaO xao peanno. LJ;a6w nere <PYHKu;wOHWCaJIO, cnOHTaHO je ,n;OIlIJIOno rrOTWCKWBalba WCKpwBlbeli~xeM ouaja .. )ep)e . 6 OJI 6 wo npeBeJIWK. TaKBO nere nnxana He MO)Ke ,n;a,n;ecjH1HWIlIe - 397-

CBOjy eM01V'ljy, na BaM

xaxce urra oceha, Cana

MH je nOCTalIO jacno

3aWTO pa3BI1_ Bepo_

jeHH CBeT TOlIHKO nacroja BaTHO ce

na ce ca ,n;e~OM npWla

0 lbHXOBHM eMo~HjaMa.

oesocehajaocra, 0 KOjOj npWla OTa~ OBOr ,n;eTeTa. . Ta OrpOMHa 6e30cehajHocT, npaheaa aenpecrano HeMHpOM H O,n;CyCTBOM narrse, ,n;OBO,n;H nOBpeMeHO ,n;o aenxxor aacnrsa Ha,n; Haj61IH)I(HMa. Y nHTalby je
re OrpOMHe HeCBeCTaH qOBeK, a HeCBeCTaH He nara HH y TpeHyTKy npa)l(lbelDa HaneTOCTH. HH nocne najroper

nnaure

QY6aMO C60jy gelAsYY KPUllY CUlBapalla1f.Ke uopoquue. Caga uscajy tupu U aeta ioquna. Hescaxco BUUle YClloBa g!! ux gPJICUMO casco Y KPUllY uopoquue. )f:(elluMo usnaq ceeia ga 01f.Y6aMo U ynaupequuo CUle1f.eHO.He 3HaMO KaKO.
OBO je BelIHKH np061IeM 3,n;paBHX, CTBapalIaqKHX HHcTHTy~Hja H CTBapalIaqKHX

nacnn,a

xoje noqI1HeoceH na cy

noponnua.

Jit360p CTBapalIaqKHX najy y BPTHh, TaMO HX

OH ce 6paHH

eMO~HOHalIHOM

lby,n;H HHje BelIHKH. AKO KOjH cy

neuy

rrsxaomhy,

HaCHlbeM, ca nopYKOM

onpacmosa

,n;acy nerne

norpeunonr

cana OHH aa nOTe3Y ,n;a HcnpaBe lIlHO onaj np061IeM.

rpelllKe,

jep je OH

jour

MalIH na 6H caM

paspe.

,n;

OqeKyje rpaneceropo

MalIHlIlaHa

rrocnennua
npo

HX BaCnHTal.J:H~e xoje H

rra HH
yHHlIlTHTH, OHe ce

npO<peCHOHalIHe

caae remxo peurasajy npotinene He pemasajy

nonepe

6'

pel.J:eHHX Mo,n;elIa, ,n;Ol.J:eKyjy

lIeMe y BnaCTHTO)

noponnua,

na npaBH HaqHH. He nOMa)l(Y HM

,ll;a lIH eMO~HOHalIHa HeoceTlbHBOCT 3HaqH H O,n;CYCTBO eMo~Hja? He! Ji13BopHe

,n;yropOqHO, HH pa,n;HoHH~e sa "nonpaBKy" AKO crnapanaxxn cnMqHe po,n;HTelbH neny

neue.
6e6HcHTepKaMa, Mory OqeKHBaTH

evouaje crpax)

je HeMoryhe

caao Mory

HCKPHBHTH, H TaKO HCKpHBlberyra H

He nacnojnra

HlIH nOTHCHYTH. Ji13BopHe

cy 61Iaro xoje CMO ,n;06HlIH

exouaje (rsyra,a, panocr, 6pHra, pohersea, a xoje je po,n;HTelb, aeaaarsexr

cnryauaje.

Ileuy

MOry nOBepHTM 6a6aMa M ,n;e,n;aMa, KOjM cy nOTnYHo 36yTpa,n;M~HOHalIHO MlIM na ce npMKlIOHe

HCKPH-

fueHM M He snajy

na lIM na npMMeHe csoje

BHO, ynoTpe6HBWH

caepexene.

npesaurrzhaaaa,e, Bep6alIH3aM JitcKpHBlbeHe exrouaje ce HlIH aacnojasajy HlIH norxcxyjy, Ilere 0 KOMe je peq je y BplIO 036HlbHOM CTa,n;HjyMy eMO~HOHalIHor
xao nocnennna nOTHCHYTHX evonaja. HlIH MeHTalIHH HHBO.

sacmrrae 061IHKe (npnayrry, KynoBHHy nerera, H snoynorpetiy HMHTaTOpCKOr 061IHKa yxen,a). ofiozsersa,

Mo,n;epHOM 06nMKY TM crape

lby,n;e

sacmrratsa.

Ilpa

TOM je

nenourreno

M Ce6Hl.J:HOorrrepehxsa-

rrocnosaaa
jenno

6e6HCMTepKe.

Ponarezsx
cana na qyBajy

Mory CBOjy

neuy
Y

na OCTaBe M caMY y KyhM, OBOj

pa-ryaajyha

na cy CTa-

,n;pyro.

csrryauaja

HeM36e)l(aH je TelIeBM30p jep he H

YCKOpO he 601IecT ,n;ace lIlHpH aa <pH3Hl.J:KH nOKpeHYTH.

crsapana-nor Haxcanocr,

po,n;MTelb BpeMeHoM

nOKlIeKHYTM MMcnehM na ce nere

oceha

MalDe

Ponaren,n

ce Mopajy

Bor

HaM H cy3e nane. Ee3

ycaMlbeHO M na My BpeMe 6p)l(e npOlIa3M HH je,n;Ha on

v TB.
MoryhHocTM aa ner ronana

lbHX ce He MO)l(e A OBaKBO nere sa cy3e He 3Ha. Ma KOlIHKo,n;a je po,n;HTelbY Mopa BplIO 6p30 ,n;anpHMeHH nerera, ce6e H nopo,n;H~e.

reurxo na ce6e H nere H3Be,n;eH3 ayropxrapaocra, saarse crnapana-rxor aacmrraisa H He onycraue

o,n;pH~albeM on ner BacnHTHHX

xoje cy po,n;MTelbM ca on

rrpennoacemrx naxohoxr nOCTMrlIM,

aehe Ol.J:YBaTMpe3YJITaTe crnapazraxxor BaCnHTa-

isa. He

na HX

aehe

OqYBaTM, Hero he MX M yHMlIlTMTM, a na lbHXOBO MeCTO YCTOlIM-

qHTH ayropnrapae

YlIaCKOM y CTBapalIal.J:KO eMo~Hje ce nOlIaKO

nacmrran,e,

Mo,n;elIa,

3HaqH lIM ro na
61IeM nocrojn

sehnae. peureise He nocrojai

Bpe,n;HocTM pelllelba

He 3HaqM.

spahajy

y csoje npHpo,n;HO KOpHTO.

Hapasao

na HHje ,n;OBOlb-

nsaaaecr

H TpHHaeCTo

Iananua Ka)l(y,n;a sa CBaKH nponoraohno. MM EalIKaH~H MO)l(eMO

y npBMX

HO casro o,n;YCTaTH on BacnHTHHX Mo,n;elIa. Po,n;HTelbH Mopajy 036HlbHO caananarn rexaonornjy YlIaCKa y

naha crnapana-rxo sacnacnzse na 6H 3a,n;p)l(aO

6ap TpH. HeM a Tor HOB~a KOjM je Bpe,n;aHTOlIMKO KOlIHKO Bpe,n;H3,n;paBO,CTBaHaj6p)l(e

panaqKO nere, xoje ce ,n;YXOBHOpaaanja

naratse,
ponarerse

jep TaKO 6e30cehajHo

nere he KOPHCTHTH orpOMHO

Ienan

on npe,n;lIora 6M 6Mo,n;a onaj po,n;MTelb KOjH Malbe

y nOlIYCBeCHOM CTalDY, jep

casro

TaKO CHH MO)l(e H narse 3a,n;oBOlbaBaTH

ca ,n;e~OM najyha MoryhHocT je na

CBe csoje HCKpHBlbeHe

Oaaj

npo~ec

norpetie. rrpeoopaxcaja nerera

H ponarezsa HHje nax, ann cy nnonoaa

ClIaT-

KH. fIlIO,n;OBH cy eMO~HOHalIHa paBHOTe)l(a H nerera

H po,n;HTelba, xoja ,n;OHOCH reneMeHTalIHa,

CHO, MeHTalIHO H ,n;YXOBHO3,n;paBlbe. Kao lIlTO BH,n;HMO, eMO~HOHalIHa, renecaa H ,n;YXOBHa HHTem1:rH~Hja pel.J:eHe Mo,n;elIe cy y HaMa,

aenpouea.aax ,n;onpMHOC 3,n;paBOM ponarersa HaM3MeHMqHO, panehn y pa3nMqMTMM CMeHaMa, 6y,n;y nope,n; neue. Kan ce xohe, CBe ce MO)l(e. A rpeha sapnjanra, YKOlIMKO MMaMO MaTePI1janHHx MoryhHocTH, aaha heao noronay ocooy xoja he yCBOjHTH 3Halbe CTBapanaqKOr nacrnrraisa H npHMelbHBaTH ra y pa,n;y ca ,n;e~OM.
L[eTBpTa, pe3epBHa aapnjaara AI1~e (M3 KOMlIlHlIYKa, panaqKMX 6H 6HlIa xana 6M ce y,n;pY)l(HlIe cTBapalIal.J:Ke nopon03HaHH~H,

cenasr ronnna. aapahyje OCTaHe y KyhH paasojy noponnue. Ilpyra

CTOP, OTKlIOHHBlIlH je npasa pa31I03H.

sacnaraa,a.

caao HM aazsa oClI060,n;HTH npoTana cy3e TeKY, xana sa TO noCTO-

aprxha.

MeCTO 60paBKa

pohaux, KYMOBH ...), npaseha neue 6H ce npeMeWTalIO, y

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HeKY BpCTY CTBa3aBHCHOCTH xoja

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je nopo;:vn~a y MoryhHOCTJ1 na opramrayje 6aBlbe}f,e TOM rpynoxr neue. El10 611 OBO J1BJ1,n; HOBor aanourzsaaaisa Mna,n;J1Xlby,n;J1.3aMJ1CnJ1Te TpJ1 Mna,n;e nopo,n;I1Qe, npajarerse, J1 Met)y }f,J1MaMna,n;y cTBapana'lKY MaMY xoja Y)KJ1Bay cTBapana'll(OM o,n;rajali>Y neue. I1PJ1KlbyqJ1BlIlJ1 joj ocrany neuy, a,n;eKBaTHOje MaTepJ1janHo Harpa_ ,n;J1BlIlJ1, nOCTJ1fnO 6J1 ce Haj60lbe Moryhe peuren,e, na KOPJ1CTJ13a,n;OBOlbCTBO CBI1X. ~y60KO aepyjesr ,n;ahe ce 6poj rroponaua xoje aacnarasajy ne, CBaKJ1M,n;aHOMYBehaBaTJ1, a TO 3Ha'lJ1 ,n;ahe npyurrseae 6e3 Ka3He 11Harpa_ 11npJ1BaTHe Bpnme

'lJ1HJ1TJ1crnapanaxxe noponaue, Y TaKBJ1M BpTJ1hJ1Ma he ce same nere ocehaTI1 xao KO,n;xyhe, jep he Bpe,n;HOCHJ1CJ1CTeM6J1TJ1 YTeMelbeH na Be'lHOM, HenpoJIa3HOM, na Jby6aBJ1 11~06pOTJ1. OHO HajBa)f(HJ1je lIlTO caM BaM XTeJIa peha je na He 6pJ1HeTe YKOJII1KOHeMaTe nocetiaa J13na3 J1 aKO je naure nere y BPTJ1hy. )KJ1BJ1MOY reurxov BpeMeHY xana ",n;pylllTBO", sapan nporpara J1 HeKI1X CBOjJ1XJ1HTepeCa, OTJ1Ma ponarezsa nereTy. Ilpynrrao he pa3BJ1jaTJ1 ycnY)KHe ,n;enaTHOCTJ1,orsapahe (BpTJ1he, J1rpaOHJ1Qe, poheanaoaxne, cnoprcxe aKTJ1BHOCTJ1,lIlKOnJ1Qe CBJ1XBpCTa). Poznrrezs nocrajs MalllJ1Ha sa aapahaaarse HOBQa, KaKO 6J1 nJIaTJ10 CBe, y urra ra je ,n;PYlllTBOy6e,n;I1JIo ,n;eje neorrxonao aa paasoj iserosor xena. CaMO My jenno HJ1CYpeKnl1, ,n;aCBe TO, 11 He 3Ha'lJ1 MHoro YKOnJ1KO,nere HeMa csoje po,n;J1Telbe ,n;OBOlbHOnopen ce6e. IlpylIlTBO rpa,n;J1 BpTJ1he, y KojJ1Ma ,n;eQanpOBo,n;e BJ1l1leBpeMeHa Hero y CBOMenosry, ana Jby6aB J1na)KIi>Y po,n;J1Telba He MO)Ke,n;aHa,n;OMeCTJ1 HJ1jenaa J1HCTJ1TYQJ1ja. To He Hcrpajaaajre, aacmrraaajyha 3Ha'lJ1,n;a onycranere on crsapana-rxor aacmrrarsa. ,n;eQYna npaBI1 Ha'lI1H. rana HJ1KOnl1'll1Ha BpeMeHa xojy nposonare nope,n; nerera HJ1je npecynsa. Baur Tpy,n; he 611TI1narpahen, Jby6aBlby xojy he BaM nere Y3BpaTI1TI1. Jby6aB xojy CTe yrpananx y nere no nonacxa y lIlKOJIy, He MO)KeHJ1KO11Hl1l1lTa nOHl1l1lTI1TI1.Ca O,n;HOCJ1Ma, y 'll1jl1M TeMelbJ1Ma je Jby6aB, ,n;OQHl1jeje CBe zraxure.

MgeTe, J1nl1 6J1no KOjJ1,n;pyrl1 xnaa noponaue YKnali>ajy Y3pO'lHJ1Ke KOjl1 cy nose]1Mgo BpJIO ,n;eBl1jaHTHJ1Xnojana. "Ee3ycnoBHo xexaise" 3Ha'lJ1 BpeMeHCKJ1HeorpaHWleHO 'IeKali>e,,n;a ce CBI1'IJIaHOBJ1noponnue o,n;peKHy CBI1Xner BaCnJ1THI1XMo,n;ena. Y nepxony" 6e3ycnoBHor qeKali>a" ce npe,n;y3l1Ma HI13 CTBapana'lKI1X axuaja, ga ce I1CKpl1BlbeHO J1CnpaBI1. AKQJ1je He csrejy 6J1TI1y BI1,n;yKa3He 11narpane, Ma,n;a'leCTO nl1qe na TO. To "nl1'le" ie HajBehJ1 npotinea 113aTO je casro y nO'leTKY paga norpetiaa neha capamsa ca JTepaneYToM J1nl1 xeuihe J1l1l'lJ1TaBali>e "EyKBapa " , gOK 6 e3ycnoBHo xexavro na ce CBeCT CBI1Xsnaaoaa noponaue, 113 aYTOpJ1TapHe rpaacdiopxonne y CTBapana'lKy. CBJ1 yqe HajTe)KY nexunjy. Y'le nexunjy craaparsa YCJIOBaaa 6yt)eli>e yHyTpannse MOTI1BaQJ1je, xoja HJ1je HJ1l1lTa,n;pyro seh 6yt)eli>e Jby6aBI1 npeMa pa,n;y, pe,n;y, yqeli>Y, npeMa ,n;pyroM 'InaHY noponxne, npesra CBOMreny, snpaazsy,

Ilanac uesca uopogUl1e y KOjOj nuje saiocuoqapuno

uetu

ayutOpUl,uapHUX eacuuiunux Mogella. MHutepecyje Me ga nu uociuoje YHU6ep3allHU UpUHl1UUU KOjU 6aJICesa C6e nanoee uopoquue U sa cee 0611UKeuopoquua, y upouecy ocnotiahaioa og peuenux Mogella.
HapaBHO ,n;a cy npl1HQl1nl1 craapanasxor aacnararsa YHJ1Bep3aJIHJ1 jep peKocMo na crsapanasxo aacrnrraise BO,n;11 ,n;YXOBHOM pacry, a xana je pe'l a ,n;yxy, rana HI1CYnpenpeKa HJ1ronnae HJ1o6pa30BHJ1 HI1J1HTeneKTyanHJ1 HJ1cOQJ1janHI1 HJ1BO. HapO'lJ1TO Hl1je cnopno ,n;anJ1 je HeKO y yn03J1 MajKe, CJ1Ha, oua, cecrpe, TalllTe, aera, TeTKe, CTpl1He, KOMlIlJ1HJ1Qe,3aTBOpeHI1Ka, 60neCHJ1Ka, np0<pecopa, y-reamca, ,n;l1peKTopa, npo,n;aBQa, neKapa, I1H)Keli>epa, caapaxa, nesa-ra, cnousopyure, nesfiejxe, xoxocexcyamta ... J e,n; 11 HO je Ba)KHO na CBaKI1 'lOBeK, npl1na,n;HJ1K aexe He<popManHe rpyne I1nJ1 nopo,n;I1Qe: - gy60KO pa3YMe aaurro je neonxonaa rpancoopaaua]a ayTOpJ1TaPHe y CTBapazraxxy CBeCT J1 urra he ce noromrra YKOnJ1KOHe 6ygy J1Manl1 cnare aa Ty

ga je y upouecy iupanopopnauu] uopoquue neouxoqno ,,6e3YCll06HO exatee ': III uta HaM ean.a 6e3YCll06HO nexaiuu?
Maorn po,n;I1TelbJ1 nOJ1CTOBehyjy npoQec cTBapana'lKOr aacnaraisa 11"CaMepxsrn", Y "CaMepXJ1ny" nere MO)Ke J1 HeKOnl1KO MeceQJ1 ,n;aB0311 611QI1Kn 11,n;ace He npl1Klbyql1 pa,n;y, y'leli>y. Mnorx ce HI1Ka,n;aHI1 He nOKpeHY aa pa,n;, Y'leli>e. CTBapanasxo Bpno 6p30 ,n;OHOCI1 pe3ynTaTe, jep rrocroja jacaa npouec pa,n;a. PO,n;I1Telb - 400-

'tectuo ioeopuiue

rpancrpopaauxjy
- CBaKO Mapa yhJ1 y npouec TpaHc<popMaQl1je na 6a3J1 ,n;06POBOlbHOCTI1 - HJ1Ka,n;aHe TPOlllI1TJ1 cnary aa orxnarsaise rrocnenaua, aeh Y3pOKa, Tpa)Kehl1 xopea Y3pOKa (jenaa on ner BaCnl1THI1X Mo,n;ena). - na CBaKJ1'lnaH noponaue CBeCHOnosraace OHOM,n;pyroM na ncrpaie na nyry 'rpaacdiopsrauaje CBeCTI1.Hexan je CBe TO 60nHo, arnr aeorrxonao. Haje naxo - 401-

nerery na noxae CaMOCTanHO na Y'H1 xana je O,n;YBeKTO paheao ys nOMon ponxren,a, I1nl1 npaaaraor nporpecopa. Hnje naxo sarpejarn CTOnl1uy ~ , alIl1 he pomrrezs naha CTOTI1HeHaql1Ha,n;a rrpofiyna Jby6aB nerera npesra )"IeIby.

MOJICga cy MU peuenu UpUHl1UUU Ujacuu, anu xaqa UOKYUla8aMO ga UX UpUMeHUMO y UpaKCU, C8e uge UleUlXO. Onaxiuajiue HaM UPOl1ecpaga, jep necuio He 3aUaJICaMOga je nexa naiua axuuja jeqan og ueUl UllUUlaHUX.
JJ:aHac je HaCI1Jbe I1 "llJIl111IaHO HaCI1Jbe" y BI1,n;yner BaCnl1THI1X Mo,n;elIa npoCTO cnyneno xoaexa I1 ql1HI1 My ce na 113Tor Kpyra HeMa 113naCKa. 3aTO Hl1je noure ,n;a Kp03 TeKCT KOjl1 cnena, carnenare ce6e I1 CBOjy nopo,n;l1~y xao >KpTBe OBI1XMo,n;ena, a y3 npl1Mepe xoje hy ,n;aTI1,nay-rare nyT 113naCKa 113nopomrsnor xaoca. Ilona nocna CMOypaznora axo CMOrrpenoaaana IlITa qI1HI1MO, IlITa npynr ql1He I1 ,n;aTO IlITO ce ql1HI1 rrpencraan,a jeztan on ner ayTOpl1TapHI1X, BaCnl1THI1X Mo,n;ena. Ha-nrHI1Te casro ner pyopnxa I1CBaKI1npotinev, CBaKI1 KOHcpnI1KT,CBaKY eMO~110HanHy Y3HeMl1peHOCT, xoja ce jaBI1, rronsemrre rronjenan on BaCnl1THI1X Mo,n;ena. YTBp,n;l1re ,n;anl1 npl1Cl1lIy spunrre BI1, Ha,n;,n;pyrI1M, Ha,n;C060M I1nl1 ,n;pym spunr npl1Cl1ny Ha,n;sasra. Peunrhere KOHCPlIl1KT aa Tl1nl1 -rac, jep pexocvo na cy Jby,n;11 CTBapanaQxe CBeCTI1, OTBOpeHI1, cnOHTaHI1, ,n;o6pOHaMepHI1 I1 HI111ITaHe rypajy non rernrx. [a hy BaM nonoha noaaazsarsea rrexuzje na naxure I1 6p>Ke npenoaaare Mo,n;en I1 oczrooonare ra ce c panourhy,

KAKO ITET BACITMTHMX MO,UEJIA ITPEIT03HATM Y ITPAKCM?

KpeHUMO og upuHyge (og

pohewa go uonacxa y UlKOllY)

Kana 6wx noxynrana na CaQI1HI1M1Il1CTYCBI1X06nl1Ka npl1Hy,n;e I1 "nlIl1l1IaHe" npl1Hy,n;e,xoje QlIaHOBI1jenae Mane noponzue ynorpetizsasajy je,n;HI1Ha,n;,n;pymMa, Tpe611 MI1Cl1rypHO HeKOnl1KO CTpaHI1~a. He >Kenl1MTI1Me ,n;ace 6aBl1M jep CBaKa cena I1 CBaKI1 My>K saajy IlITa pane jemro ,n;pyrOM. 3aTo hy Ha6a~aTI1 CnOHTaHO OHOsrera ce CeTI1M na po,n;I1TeJbI1pa,n;e nerery, Kpenyheuo on KlIaCI1QHe npI1Hy,n;e. Mopa nanojene CBe Y,n;apl1Mra no pyql1~aMa, aKO ,n;l1pa OHO IlITO caM My CTO rryra pexrra na He CMe YTOnJbaBaM ra, l1aKO ce 6paHI1 ITJbeCHeM ra sa CBe IlITO MI1ClIl1M,n;a He pa,n;11,n;o6po ... Iloxynx I1rpaQKe, I1HaQe He nzraxrr, y6l1hy re ... He CTaBJbaM ra na speae y KpeBeT, a onna ra npe6l1jeM jep ce neprsa ... Y6l1jeM Bora y I-beMYxan OHO ypa,n;11 BaH nome ... Pexao je 6a611 py>KHy peQ, ,n;o6110je nJbycKy ... Hl1je cnyurao BaCnI1TaQI1~y, Ka>KI-beHje ... IToTYKao ce ca ,n;pyrOM, 113BYKna caM My yura ... XI1Jba,n;y nyTa caM nOHOBl1na I1CTO,amr TO MOM KpeTeHY HI1WTa He spena.
6alIO

AKO nOKynl111I I1rpaQKe, notinheur ... Hesroj na ,n;l1palll TO, xynnhy TI1... AKO He 6y,n;ellI nnaxao, MaMa he 6l1Tl1 necena ... AKo 3aCnl111I 6P30, yjyTpy l1,n;eMOno KI1H,n;ep-jaje ... AKO naaac 6y,n;ew ,n;o6ap y apruhy, rrononae TI1 xyrryjexr MaQ...
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AKO 6y,n;ew OTBOPHO ycn sytiapy, Tan he TH KynHTH HOBY HrpH~y ... Xpa6po npHMH HHjeK~Hjy, H onsrax H,n;eMOy npo,n;aBHH~y na H3a6epew WTa xohe!U AKo ... AKo... '"

3JloyfwUlpe6a

UMUUlaUlOpCKOf

06JlUKa Y1.!e1-ba

[our on KOJIeBKe, ponxrers, He pa3MI1WlbajyhH, craszsa nere npe,n; Hajro~e ~HPTYeJIHe ca,n;p)Kaje, He aaajyhx na THMe 3JIoyrroTpe6lbaBa 06JIHK yqelba KO)H )e BpJIO jaK y cBaKOM nerery - Y'Ielbe HMHTHpalbeM. CBe WTO nere 6y,n;e BH,n;eJIOna eKpaHY, BeWTO he HMHTHpaTH. ITOWTO ca expaaa ymaBHoM KJIH3H 3JIO, nere he HMHTHpaTH TO 3JIO. _ On MaJII1X nory ponarezs KOPHCTH CBHX ner BaCnl1THHX Mo,n;eJIa 11CBe WTO pa,n;H Kp03 lbHX, nere ynaja, yqH H onna BpJIO 6p30 no-nose ro na HMHTHpa, ynpa)KlbaBajyhH TO I1CTOHa,n;po,n;HTelbeM. PaHO, jep MajKa pa,n;H I1JII1 He pa,n;H, onsone nere y BPTHh, Y rpyrry neue xoja ,n;OHoce on xyhe csoje aYTopHTapHe <pope H <pa30He. ,IJ;eTeTYHHje JIaKOjep Mopa,n;a HMHTHpa CBe WTO ,n;pyra neua pa,n;e, ,n;a611 rrOCTaO HCTI1xao OHI1. CaMO TaKO MO)Ke na rrpe)KHBH. J1aKo po,n;HTelb BH,n;Hna je nere CBe rope 11rope, yrropHo npoTypa npaxy 0 nexaxaoj norpefia couajamtsauaje 110 norpetia ,n;aojaxa, jep ra cyTpa y )KI1BOTYxexa jour sehe 3lIO. OBO je noapumo, aYTOpl1TapHO paasraunsarse po,n;I1Tersa. Hexana l1,n;ylIl1Hl1jOM Malber ornopa, jep 11Mje 6aBlbelbe ,n;eTeTOMBpJIO TeWKO, rrpaB,n;ajyhl1 csojy O,n;JIyKyT060)KlbOM CO~l1jaJII13a~l1joM. ITpaBI1 po,n;I1Telb he YBeK I1MaTI1 na yMy ,n;a ce npaa 11 npana couajannaauxja (yqelbe rrpaBI1JIHI1X onnoca Met)y lby,n;I1Ma) y'Il1 Y npasrapnoj rtoponxun. AKO je Moryhe, nozcezsno je na OHa rpaje no nonacxa y rrpe,n;WKOJICKy rpyrry. Kana xyjy Moje otipasnoacetse comrjarnraauaje, po,n;I1Telbl1 yrrOpHO rrponanase nonarne pa3nore, rronyr norpefie ,n;pY)Kelba ca neuosr, MHoro je nere ca o,n;paClII1Ma, satiopasrsajyha

CBe WTO MaJIH MaMHH ~ap nO)KeJIH, ,n;06Hja, HaKO 'IaK HHje HCKa3ao HH nOTpe6y, HH )KelbY (neua cy nanac 3aTpnaHa Hrpa'IKaMa, rapnepotiosr, xpanosr, Klbl1raMa, eJIeKTpOHcKHM ypet)ajHMa ...)OBI1M noaauraisea ,n;e~a ce npeaaurrahyjy on esenTyaJIHe "rraTlbe", xojy 611 nere Momo na HMa, aKO He 6y,n;e nocenoaano CBe !UTO nanac MO)Ke,n;a ce rroce,n;yje. Pe'I je 0 noxnemr 'IJIaHOBa noponaue H 0 nerery xao )KPTBH, xoje YCKOPOH caao nocraje rrOXJIerrHO. A nere He narn WTO HeMa Hrpa'IKY,nere nara WTO lby6aBH HeMa, rra I1rpa'IKOM cpue norryrsasa. - ,IJ;eTeje maBHO 11lbeMY ce CBe nonpehyje. I:heMY ce rrpso xynyje, OH ce npso XpaHI1, lbeMY ce onsaja aajnernue rrap'Ie Meca, Haj60lbl1 KOJIa'I 11CJI. - CTaJIHO ra aafiaarsaxro, HI1 aa TpeHYTaK Hl1je caa, jep je OH ~eHTap OKOxojer ce oxpehy CBI1.Cxyno nzrahavo HaMeTHYTY Te3Y rre,n;0~eHTpH3Ma, a nere He Tpa)f(J1 ,n;a6y,n;e ~eHTap CBeTa. OHO oxexyje na ra rryCTI1MO 11na ce caste aatiasn,a, rrOWTO ra BeWTO YBe,n;eMOy I1rpy I1JII1ra rrperrycTI1MO ce611 caMOM. Ha)KaJIocT, y canpeaeHOj noponaun je TO aexcryhe OCTBapl1TI1jep, rrOCJIeTeJIeBl130pa TeWKO KOy nopo,n;11~11 MO)KeTaKO BeWTO, nonYT TeJIeBl130pa, 3a,n;p)KaTI1naxos y nerera, TaKBO nere he Tpa)KI1TI1 CBe jaxy 11jasy ,n;pa)K 11y6p30 he po,n;HTelb 'IyTI1 OHO 'IYBeHO: "MeHI1 je TaKO nocanno!". - Iberoso je casro ,n;ace I1rpa, 11,n;anOKyrrl1 I1rpa'IKe 113a ce6e. - ,IJ;aHe ocxynena HI1 Y'IeMY, l1aKO HeMaMO ,n;OBOlbHOHOB~a aa OCHOBHenorpe6e noponxue.

na neiry 113KOMWI1JIYKa,neuy npzjarezsa,

KYMOBa.

Og

apeoi, (upunyqa

go uotteUlKa

cequo!

paspeqa

OCH06He UlKOJle

UJlU HefaUlU6HO YCJl06Jba6a1-be)

Bep6aJlU3aM Haje nerro na ... Haje nerro na 6a611 rOBOpl1W pY)KHe pe'Il1, ,n;pyra ,n;anrsyjeur. nI1Ta'IH~y ,n;awyTl1paw ... He aarsa na CTaJIHO cemnu npe,n; TeJIeBI130poM ... sac-

Y'II1, yql1, y'II1 ... Ilojenn OBO I1JII1hy re ... ITpeCTaHI1 ,n;a 6ylbl1W y raj TeJIeB1130p, xcxanahy TI1 Ka6JIOBe ... Xajne na yqI1MO, can I1MaM BpeMeHa ... He ,n;aHry611, Mapw y co6y H 'II1Taj HeWTO ... IIlTa je naaac 6HlIO y WKOJII1,jecn ,n;06110 HeKY nernuy? J1,n;11 nepH aytie 11Mapw ua cnanaise! Onepn pYKe, I1Ha'Ie hy re ... AKO rrOHOBO 6y,n;ew 6e)Kao 113WKOlIe, npetinhy Te ... Byneui JIH rrao na nonpasna. HeMa Mopa ... AKO He ypa,n;HW nofipo KOHTPOlIHH, HeMa H3lIa3aKa... He nonpaanur JIH oaor xeua, HeMa I,Ienap~a ... AKO He 6y,n;ew nofiap, pastionehy ce! AKo ... YMpehy.
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YCl106Jba6a1-be

AKO Bpe.n;HOyqHlll, H.n;elll nanozse ... AKo nojeneur OBO, nahy TH nape 3a ClIaJJ;OlIeJJ; ... MJJ;i4 JJ;O npo.n;aBHHu;e, KynH XlIe6, a ce6H qOKOlIa.n;HU;Y ... AKo nerneur aa BpeMe, CYTpa rrocne uncone H.n;eMOy rpaJJ; ... AKo 6y.n;elll MHpaH y urxonn, nosehahy TH I,IenapaU; ... AKo rronoxonu O.n;lIHqHHMxyrryjesr TH xosmjyrep ...

CBe HaBe.n;eHo H jour MHoro 'rora npe.n;cTaBlba npe3alllTHnHBafue on )l(HBOTa, on cTl1He .n;aje je.n;HHo Bpe.n;Ho )l(HBeTH on cnor pa.n;a, rrpexta CBOjHMMorynHocTHMa, ;a je Bpe.n;aH caste )l(HBOT HcnYfueH pa.n;OMKOjHje npahea ,1J;06POTOMH Jby6aBlbY

Bep6allU3aM
HJ1je ne no p;a ce ry-reur ca 6paTOM, na ce csahaui ca cecrposi ... He spehaj oua, . He 6yTTJ1 rpy6 npeaa .n;e.n;J1 ... Ilourryj HaCTaBHHKa ... Ey.n;J1notiap p;pyr ... He MaJKY... TpOllIJ1TOlIJ1KOHOBU;a ... MMaj ocehaisa sa MOJ?,narisy. CBe Je pe.qeHO 61Iaro, MJ1PHO, ca p;06pOM HaMepoM, alIJ1 je J1naK 061IJ1Kcaojespcnor nacnn,a Jep nere He MO)l(e.n;a
M .'

Ponnren.a, aajxeurhe

MajKe, pane y KynH CBe on ... P;O crrpesraa,a

p;eqHje cotie H npa

TOM CTalIHO xyxajy, ycnYT spureha H npHHyp;y. To je onacaa HaqHH npe3alllTHnHsarsa nerera op; pap;a y xyha, jep nere xoje He pap;H y noponann He BOlIH HH pan y lllKOlIH. Ponarezsx noason.asajy .n;eU;H na ce HenpHMepeHO nouaurajy y urxomr, na pohen.n;aHHMa, y rrocerasra, na ClIaBlbHMa ... 3alllTO? ITOlllTO ayTopHTapHH Mop;elIH npozryxyjy aa necerane nojana xoje 6H rpetiano xoparoaarn, pop;HTelbH je.n;HOCTaBHO onycrajy on aacrurrasarsa csora nerera, roaopehir: "HeKa HX, OHH cy jour MalIK ..". 3aMHClIHTe KOlIHKH TpyP; 6H Mopao na yrpoura po.n;HTelb xana 6H nOKYlllao .n;a HcnpaBlba CBe lllTO nere "CKHHe" H3 upraha, HlIMOBa, HrpHu;a ... Pex je 0 npe3aurrnhaaarsy on pe.n;a. Hexana ce roaopnno na nere xoje He 3Ha aa pep;, HeMa .n;OMaher aacmrrarsa. Ilauac neua pane TaKBe ra.n;OCTHxoje HHCYMorne BH.n;eTHon ponarezsa, Ben cy HX nOKynHlIH H3 BHpTyelIHe CTBapHOCTH, xojy BplIO 6p30 nOqHfbY na )l(HBe xao peamnr )l(HBOT. Haxo TO HHCYBHp;elIH on pomrrezsa, TBp.n;HM.n;aje peq 0 noponasHOM neaacnararsy, jep je CBaKH pomrrezs, KOjH csoje nere HeKOHTpOlIHcaHO CTaBlba npe.n; OBe HeraTHBHe canpzcaje H caa aeaacmrraa. "MaKO HeMaM P;OBOlbHOHOBu;a, ovoryhaaaa CBOMnerery CBe lllTO HMajy .n;pyrH, .n;aHe 6H naTHlIO, p;a ce He pasnaxyje on npyrnx ... 3ap;Y)l(HlIH CMOce, KynHlIH CMO My KOMnjYTep, jep ra y onersersy rpeher pa3pe.n;a CBH HMajy ... Ilnahaxo CBOM.n;eTeTy npnaarae nporpecope jep TO pa.n;e CBH a H xa qaCOBHMa je TaKBa lIyp;HHu;a .n;a nere HHlllTa He pa3YMe urra ce yqH ... Ilmneao My .n;OMane sanarxe, qHTaMO nexunje, npenpaxaaaao My nexunjy .n;OKje He yrraxrnr, .n;ajeMo My nazcna onpaBp;aisa, H3BlIaqHMO ra H3 urxone ripen reurxe KOHTpOlIHe H nHCMeHe sanarxe, nehe HhI4 6aKH xa caxpaHy na ce He norpece" (a jour y TOKYcaxpaHe urecrax nrpa nyu;aqI4He Ha xovrrjyrepy) ...
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OCTBapJ1 saure nene )l(elbe, y ayTopHTapHJ1M YClIOBHMa)l(HBOTa. KaKO nere na nourryje HaCTaBHHKa KOjH, 6e3 aennxor pa.n;a yxenaxa, p;elIH lIefuHBU;HMaOp;lIHqHe OU;eHe.KaKO p;a ra nourryje xana norryurra KlIHHU;HMa y CBeMY, nlIalllenH ce 3aKOHa J1pomrrersa. ,1J;eTe6H H 6e3 Bep6alIH3Ma po.n;HTelba nOllITOBa1I0 HaCTaBHHKa KOjJ1ce 60pH aa pa.n;, pep; H p;Hcu;HnlIHHY, Kp03 YKHp;afue ner ayTopHTapHHX BaCnJ1THHX Mop;elIa .

311oyuompe6a

UMUWamOpCKOf

0611UKa ytie1-ba

Canpzcaja anpryenne "ryBepHaHTe" yapacrajy y 31IY, nparehn P;YXOBHO saxpacsasarse neue. :,[YBepHaHTa" H.n;ecaao MallO Hcnpe.n; )l(HBOTa, amr .n;OBOlbHO, na .n;e~a snajy xojy cnenehy rnynocr, jasy on jyqepallIfue, rpefia CyTpa I4MHTHpaTH. HHJe ra BHpTyelIHa rYBepHaHTa TOlIHKOnaxerna. npe 6J1 ce peKlIO na je TO lIYKaBa mynaxaua xoja YOqaBa OHO lllTO he ce cyTpa HCnJ1lIHTH, H3 nauaunser crnapnor 31Ia, xao jour Bene 31I0. MlIJ1 [onr nyxannje, CKHHe 31I0 xoje ce Ben .n;oro.n;J1lIOy pa3BHjeHoM CBeTY, nonyna ra Hepa3BHjeHHMa KaKO 6H y 31Iy nOCTalIH pa3BHjeHHjH on pa3BHjeHHX. Peneproap CTBapH xoje nere MO)l(e na J1MHTHpa, cana p;01Ia3I4 I4 on pomrrezsa, KojH He KPHjy caahe, spehajy jenaa npyror, OTBopeHO ce xsane p;a ce H.ecnazcy, na MaMa HMa nexxa, a rara nesojxy.na je .n;e.n;a uaurao MaqKY neurro CTapI4JYon YHYKe, npeTe na he ce pa3BeCTJ1, orrryacyjy jenao .n;pyro H3BlIaqehH caa nprsas aeur ripen .n;eU;OM ... Oroaapajy pohaxe, npnjarerse, KYMOBe, He xpajy 3aBJ1CT, lby60MOPY": CHaxe oTBopeHo spebajy csexpa H cBeKpBY, llITO HJ1je n03HaTO Tpa.n;I4U;J10HalIHO) nopO.n;HU;H, OqeBH He nourryjy csoje oxeae, CBe xeurhe MlIa.n;H po.n;HTelbH sprue
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Bep~~lIHO iii~3Ii1'IKO rracnrse Ha,[l CBOjlilMpO,[lIilTelblilMa,HaCTaBHIiIU;1iI rnyMe "Apyrape rrpe,[l KOJIiIMace MO)Keaarramrrn unrapera, orrCOBaTIiI,HaCTaBHIiIU;1iI crrYWTa_ jy xparepajysre iii aKO yqeHIiIK ,,3Ii1He",[I061i1jerr031i1TIiIBHY ou;eHy. Ilena rne,[lajy I<aI<o "yme,[lHIiI" pO,[llilTelblilca naxohox norepyjy y pe,[l HacTaBHIiIKe, ,[IliIpeKTopa WI<OlIe rra 'IaK iii MIiIHIiICTpa.CBe TO neua BIiI,[Ie,-ryjy, cxnnajy iii ycsajajy, Kana PO,[llilTelb~ noxynrajy ,[IayKIiIHy npaaaneraje.na "peopMIiIIlIY" crarse y nopomnm, neua ycra. jy y O,[l6paHY csojax rrpaBa HaCliIlbeM nan pO,[llilTelbeM.

3aKOHoga6alAs nuje ueqaioi, a opao 6u 6UUlU 6ap cU16apallattKU poqutue

3aKOHO,[laBau; ce He rnrra 0 Y3pou;IiIMa, OH Ka)KlbaBa nocnemnry. Hnje 3aKOHO,[lasau rre,[\aror KOjlilrpetia .n;ayqlil ponarerse CTBapalla'lKOM sacrnrrarsy, OH CTBapa YCllOBe aa "MIilP" y 3rpa,[llil, rpa,[ly, 3eMlblil. Taxo je sa ca,[la: Jrf TaKO KaKOje, 60lbe je 0,[\ TOTallHor xaoca xoja 61i1HaM nourao rnase na HaM HIiIJe naurax CTporlilX 3aKOHo,[\aBau;a, Ilapyjy HaM KaKaB, TaKaB Mlilp. Jrf3HyTpa par, crrozsa Mlilp. Jlarana, allliI Cl1rypHa CMpT noponaue. IlpBO 3aMpy esrouaje, yM narn, nyura otiona. )KIiIBOT6e3 npOTIiIB 3aTBOpa, notia CBe lby6aBIiI nocraje 60lleCT, a OH TO Hlilje. HeM aM ja HliIllITa npOTIiIB 3aKOHo,[\aBaU;a, npOTIiIB caaxuaja,

Iieiue

je UCUeKllOsanatu

urecr pa3pe,[la OCHOBHe urxone iii lleTlblil pacrryCT, ,[10rrOllaCI<a y Ce,[lMIiI pa3pe,[l, ,[Ia nere caepeaese, ayToplilTapHe ,[IeMOKpaTCKenoponaue IiICIIe'Ie 3aHaT. A KaKaB anar, TaKaB je iii 3aHaT. Carta nere 3Ha IlITa xohe, a xohe MHoro rora, Ha llliICTIiIrrplilOplilTeTa aazraan My ce 60p6a sa tiearpamonry czrotiony, cno60,[ly na: He pa,[llil HIiIIlITa, y'Ilil IiIllliIHe y'lIil,,[Ia ncnorsaaa arpecnjy y CBIiIM06llliIU;liIMa, rta IiIMa HOBu;a y aeorpaaasemoa KOlllil'lIilHaMa, aa xpensrr, sa excxypanjy, aa liIpMlilpaHY rapnepooy, aa crsap-nme y rpeany, sa Be'leplbe 1i13llaCKe,aa ,[IHeBHO mYBapelbe, ,[Ia nposonx orpoMHo BpeMe nopen TB-a, rrope,[l xosmjyrepa, y IiIrpaOHIiIu;aMa, Klla,[lIilOHIiIu;aMa,,[Ia ca naxohov ,[I061i1ja,[I06pe ouerre, na My ce rrpaB,[Iajy 'laCOBIiI iii xana cy seonpasnau, na ce He xazosaaa iii 3a OHO, aa IlITa 61i161i11I0 HopMallHO,[la ce 6ap pearyje. Teurxo 1i1360peHY cnotiony 6paHlilhe CBIiIM Cpe,[lCTBIiIMa. AKO My HeKO CTaHe na nyr, y )!(elblil na My YCKpaTIiI61i1llOIlITa 0,[1pesenor, nere nehe npeaarx 0,[1sepfianaor, a rrOTOMiii 0,[11iI31i1'lKOraacnn,a. YKOllIiIKOnourreno rrpou;eHIiI na pO,[llilTelb He MO)Ke,[Ia My IiIcrryHIiIcersy, aehe ce YCTpyqaBaTIiI ,[IaTO nocrnrae Kpa~OM, "rr03ajMlbIilBalbeM", CliIllOM. ,1J;pY)Kehlilce, neua xao ,[Ia paspahyjy crparernjy KaKOna rrorxane pornrrezsa, y OHOM.n;ellyy KojeM saxononaaau TO Hlilje ycrreo, urnrreha nere 0,[1pO,[llilTelba. qecTo IiIMaMOYTIiIcaK,[Iare csoje ,[IOrOBOpe, npenoce 1i13 ,[IpYIliTBa y noponnny, TaKO imp. neua, xoja cana TO smne HIiICY,KOHTIiIHYlilpaHO,sepoanno sacrpauryjy pO,[lIilTelbe, nperehn IiIMiii CTBapHOM arpecajosr aKO rroxymajy ,[Ia neurro Melbajy. OCIiIMrora. OBIiIMnoaaurarsexr ce jacao naje ,[10aaaisa KOje rasna y Kyhlil. 0,[1 He,[laBHOrrpeTe na he npajanara pomrrerse Ilenrpy sa couajanaa pa,[l. Y OBOj a31i1, pO,[llilTelb je rrperryH cTpaxa. AKO rroKyrua napunjamro ,[Ia perul1 HeKIiI0,[1npotineva, otipy-r nyua, iiiYJIa31i1 ce Y HOBIiIKpyr y KojeM je HeBIiI~eH cyK06, IiI3Ii1'lKIiI06pa'IYH, y KojeM je nere, ,[10K je MallOlleTHO, YBeK n06e,[lHI1K, jep je 3aKOH na CTpaHIiI MaJIOJIeTHIiIKa.
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Bano je norpetiao

allliI IiIMaMnpOTIiIB He'lOBe'IHOr Blilpyca KOjlilje nanao )!(IiIBOT.Jrf 3aTO nexa 3aKOca IiICTIiIHOM na 'lOBeK caspeveaor Hlil rroc'roje, alIliI ce MopaMO CYO'lIilTIiI Malbe nourryje 3aKOHe, CBe)Keycsojeae, He 3aTO IlITO nehe, neh 3aTO IlITO He MO)Ke. IlllliIMa HaneTOCTIiI pacre. a xana 6paHa nyKHe sona he O,[\HeTIiICBe iii 3aKOHO,[laBua M3aKOHe M)KMBOTiii nopomnry, YCKOpO he ce noronarn neurro neno, y IiIHTepecy )!(MBOTa. 3aKoHo,[\aBu;IiI he sac-

nOCTaTM CTBapalla'lKM pO,[lMTelblilKOjMhe npso yKIiIHyTMner avroparapnnx

rnrraax Mo,[\ella y CBOjOj nopO,[\MU;M.Kana Jby6aB norese M3Me~y lbMX iii lbMXOBe neue snahe IlITa MMsazsa 'IMHMTM npoeCMOHallHO. Bnhe TO crsapana-nor 3aKOHO,[IaBU;1iI KOjMhe ce YCKOPOcstejarn 6pOjHMM o,[lpe,[\6aMa 3aKoHa 0 nopomnra. ,1J;acy IiIMallM)KMU;y craapanaxxor nenarora He 61i1 ra TaKO HeKpliITM'lKM npenncana He TpaHcopMMrue on pa3BMjeHMX.,1J;OK ce CBeCTsaxoaonasaua sazsa 3aKOH nourroaarn.

Hcrospeaeno hexo HayqMTM pO,[\MTelbeKaKOce onrajajy neua C lbYEABlbY a He C lby6aBlbY. A rne je Jb YEAB 3aKoH rorxana He ,[I061i1jenpMllMKy ,[Ia6Y,[lenpMMelbeH.

H06U

iasqa je uynoneiuan
urra xexa po.n;IiITelba KOjMje rrynnx

BpaTIiIMO ce MM nauroj TeMM. ,1J;anornenar-ro

ocasraaecr remora, KOPMCTMO ner ayToplilTapHIiIX BacnMTHMX MO,[lella. ,1J;aHallilblil MallOlleTHIiIK je ,[10 rrYHOlleTCTBa 3aIlITMheH iii 3aKOHOM, allliI OH BelllTO npMnpeMa pomrrerse aa cnenehy a3y 3aje,[lHM'lKOr )KMBOTa TaKO 1ll~0 Blil'le, rpecxa, TeJIeOHlilpa rrpeKO Mepe, nylliTa npernacuo MY3I1KY,Tpa)K1iICBOJa rrpaBa CBaKo.n;HeBHO.IloKa3yjyhlil CIiIJIY, naje no suatsa pO,[llilTelblilMa,[la ra ce nehe
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TaKO naxo ocnotiorrara 11~a he MOpaTl1 na HaCTaBe ca ycnyraMa xoje 11My paHOM nermscrny Hl1je Hl1 Tpa)f(110. Y TaKBOj My'lHOj cnryauaja noponaua ~O'leKyje rrYHoneTCTBO nerera, CaH pO~l1TeJba na ce ocnofione rrYHoneTHor HaCl1nHl1Ka ce He ocraapyje. IToxneOHY! rrapasxr je cana <p11311'lKl1 ja'll1 O~ pO~l1Te}ba 11Ty je Ta'lKa. J1Majy cpehy OHl1 60raTl1 pomrren;a, KOjl1pano OTKl1HYnotiap zreo cnoje l1MOBl1He, najy ra ~eU;l1, a ce611 Kyne Ml1p. ITO'lHy ca HOpManHl1M )f(l1BOTOM.JJ:oHe~aBHO caM ce 3rpa)f(aBana nojase y 60raToM cBeTY, rne ce neua 11ponarenor Bl1~e je~HoM romrunse 11TO na OO)f(l1hlbeM ,n;OpyqKy l1nl1 pyqKY, na aeyrpannosr MeCTY,y HeKoM xoreny, Ilanac TO pa3YMeM. Cl1pOMaWHl1 ocrajy My'leHl1U;l1, KOjl1Mopa,n;a nene CTaM6eHl1 npOCTOp ca CBOJOM ,n;eU;OM 11CBe ocrano xao ponarezscxa npasian,a, nenanjy, xpaHY, CBe, OCl1M pa~a. Pa3Bl1jeHl1 CBeT nOKywaBa na cnacx pO~l1TeJbe O~ aacnzsa caoje neue, rrapasara. Ilpennaxcy 3aKOH y J1Tanl1jl1 KOjl1he po,n;l1Telb l1MaTl1 npaso na w36aU;Wcsoje nYHoneTHo nere W3 xyhe. HeKl1 cy npoTwB, HeKl1 aa, a casta npxcasa He BW,n;l1 KaKO he HOBWM3aKOHOM OTBOPWTW6e36poj HOBWXrrporineva. IIlTa he napa311Tl1 pa~wTw na ynwu;w? OHW HWCYHaY'leHW na pa~e nOWTeHO, a TO 3Ha'll1 aa Mane nnare. Ocraje 11MnpOCTOp KpWMI1Hana, npocrsrryuaje 11~pore. To ocehajy po,n;l1Telbl1 113aTO 11~albe npeaaurrnhyjy, l1nl1 npeuasnaje ~yXOBHO y6l1jajy CBOjy neuy, CBe ,n;OKce He 6y~e YCBOjl13aKOH 0 06aBe3HOM npl1Melbl1BalbY CTBapana'lKOr aacmrraisa, 3aKOH0 3a6paHW n03WTl1BHOrycnoazsasan,a 11npesaurrahaaaa,a po,n;l1Telbl1 he 6WTWaa rrpaBl1M MYKaMa on TpeHyTKa xana noxnenaa napasxra craszsajy na rptiaxy pO~l1Telbl1Ma, jour jenaor, ce611 CnW'lHOr, (cyrrpyacnnxa). Ilpasa nohna Mopa nO'lWlbe ~onaCKOM nOTOMaKa na CBeT. Y TOM naxny on )f(WBOTa,y3 ynorpefiy CBI1Xner Bacm1THWXMo,n;ena, aacraszsa ce ynporraurhaaarse nOTOMaKa. Ilyua najcnafiaja Kapl1Ka, a TO je OHa rne l1Ma HajMalbe lby6aBI1. MY)f( 11xceaa ce pa3Bo~e, nosonpanouma ce spaha CBOjl1MpO~l1Telbl1Ma, a neua 6ny,n;e on jenae 6a6e ~o ~pyre, (axo cy )f(l1Be). CBe nenyje CypOBO, anw WCTWHWTO, WTO casro 3aTO WTO, xana CTe Mornl1 ,n;a CTBOpl1Te ~l1BHe Jby,n;e O~ saute neue, TO Hl1CTe 3Hanl1. Kana CTe xrenx, HI1CY BaM ,n;anl1. AKO CTe on neue ycneznr na CTBOpl1Te notipe Iby,n;e, no Mepl1 Tpa~J1U;WOHanHor po,n;l1TeJba, ,n;PYWTBOJ1XyBy'le y 6pnor caspexeae aYTOpl1TaPHOCTJ1. Onpa-ry ce 6e3 CTl1~a caera notipor, WTO 11MrrO~apl1CMO. Inac sehane je 3aKOH ayroparapue CBeCTl1. Kana CTe caanann "KaKO" MO)f(,n;a je KaCHO, Ml1Cnl1Te BI1. [a He Ml1Cnl1MTaKO.

HUKag

nuje KaCHO

y rrpaKCl1 caM npOBepJ1na na je Moryhe noponnuy 113BeCTl1113necpehe y KOjOjje,

. . ce rroHY,... l1 anarse crsapanaxxor BaCnl1Talba. Aa 611CMOnaxure rtmrnana aKO )0) KP03 npaxcy, yaehexo rrpWMep nopomme xojy 'lJ1HJ1Maj~a CTapa 54 rO~I1He 11Cl1H 30-oro,n;J1WlbaK. Onaj rroCTynaK Ba)f(l1 J1aa nopomnry KO)y 'lJ1Hl1 MHoro Bl1We xnaJT

HOBa pa3nJ1'll1TOr Y3pacTa. Basorn cy rrpl1HU;l1nl1. Majxa J1CJ1Hcy rra)f(lbJ1BOcacnyutamr cyurrmry npnae, anx npeaaurrnhena CJ1.H He )KenJ1 Hl1WTa O~ rora, He )f(enl1 nporaene y CBOM)f(l1BOTY,J1rrope,n; 'rora WTO )e yrr030peH, na, uprteha CHary pornrrersy, u;pnw J1ce611 CHary. Caaaao je na ce 3ayCTaBlba ~yXOBHl1 pacT J1napasara, J1onora KOnorxparsyje rrapa3J1T113aM. Hnje ra ,n;OTJ1u;ano. TIOWTOje pe'l 0 nsa rrynonerna xosexa, onaj KOce 0~ny'l113a rrpOMeHe (cxryppaanaajaise, HO ,n;aje y OBOMcnyxajy TO MajKa), raj he naha Ha'lJ1Ha aa <pJ1311'lKO 'lJ1Me he ce npexaayrn naaau "rrnJ1WaHOr aacxrsa", nocne xera he 060je xpenyrn y ,n;YXOBHl1 pacT. Moryhe je na he Mna,n;J1napaanr HahJ1 CBOjy HOBY)f(PTBy. Teunco, MHoro je napaanra. Ba)f(HO na ce MaKap jenaa cnacn. . AKO je pe'l 0 ManoneTHOM nerery, Ty pO~J1Telb o,n;ny'lHO Y3J1Ma crsap y CBO)e pYKe, TaKO llITO rrpBJ1 0~6au;yje CBJ1Xner aYTOpJ1TaPHJ1XBaCnl1THl1XMo~ena, 11TO jacno naje no aaaisa CBOMnerery,

Ilpouec

paga

nuje

na

oqsieiu

CWH06UUlU

nexuuiy

Tpaacrpopaauxja aYTOpl1TapHe Y craapana-rxy

CBeCT he J1hJ1 naxo YKOnl1KO 11 nere, nocne npenaaarsa l1nJ1 npoxaraae Klbl1re, ,n;06POBOlbHO npncraae na J13na3aK 113nOpO~W'lHOr xaoca. Mopare MY, xao pO~J1Telb, npJ13HaTl1 ~a CBe, WTO CTe BI1 lbeMY pa,n;l1nl1 y HajpaHl1jeM nermscray, cana TO l1CTOpa,n;l1 OH Baaa, 11na sa TO Hl1je Kpl1B. Haseiuheao npJ1Mep MajKe xoja l1Ma CJ1Hacrapor ce~aMHaecT ronnna, y-reaaxa rpeher pa3pe~a cpe~lbe urxone. 060je he Ca'll1Hl1Tl1, CBaKOCBOjy rafieny, na KOjOjhe 6J1TJ1cnacax csera, WTO y OBOMTpeHyTKy MajKa ~O)f(l1BlbaBa xao HaCl1lbe J1nl1 "rrnJ1WaHO aacmse " .O~ Cl1Ha W06pHYTO. Taxo he Cl1Hna CBOjy nl1CTY CTaBl1Tl1cnenehe 'll1lbeHl1u;e KO)e ~0)f(11azsaea xao aacnrse: - CTanHO Me OnOMJ1lbe na yql1M - 3aKlbY'laBa Ml1 xanajy xana ce He BpaTl1M na BpeMe
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- aenpecraao 3BOu;a 360r BJ1COKJ1X TeJIe<p0HCKJ1X paqYHa

- He naje MJ1AOBOlbHO HOBu;a 3a KpeAJ1T, aa

rapnepofiy, sa J13JIaCKe

ce jaBJ1TJ1 y HaCJ1lbY HeBJ1~eHJ1X paaviepa. )l{J1Be nohy, AOK pOAJ1TelbJ1 cnaaajy,

HecBecHo

je AOIlIJIO AO nojase

na MJIaAJ1

- aehe Aa Me 6YAJ1 yjyTpy 3a IlIKOJIY J1 nehe na MJ1 orrpasnaaa xacose - Tepa Me na cnpesraa CBOjy co6y
.:..CTaJIHO snoua KaKO HJ1IlITa He paAJ1M y KyhJ1, ryIlIJ1 Me AnJ1, CBe IlITO je HaBeJIa, AO)KJ1BlbaBaJIa je

na MJIaAJ1 cnasajy

AafuY, AOK pOAJ1TelbJ1 )KJ1Be.

Kana ce yKJ1Hy BaCnJ1THJ1 MOAeJIJ1, J13JIaCU;J1MJIaAJ1X he 6J1TJ1 TaKBJ1 KaKBJ1 npacrajy MJIaAOM, 3ApaBoM QOBeKY. Hesra Te CKynIlITJ1He rpana xoja he AeKpeTOM saopaaaTJ1 OBy nojasy. HJ1M MeCTJ1Ma. MO)KAa he ycnern na 3a6paHJ1 paA Ka<pJ1hJ1Ma y KaCHJ1M HohHJ1M caTJ1Ma, aJIJ1 TO aehe CnpeQJ1TJ1 MJIaAe Aa ce ApY)Ke y napKOBJ1Ma, na HenpJ1Mepe-

J.(OK ce He CMafuJ1 TeH3J1ja y AOMOBJ1Ma, MJIaAJ1 he 6e)KaTJ1 OA ponarezsa.

Majxxaa JIJ1CTa je 6J1JIa npyraxaja. xao nacazse HaA C060M.

- He yqJ1,

peba jeAJ1HJ1I~e
Me na My nzrahasr npJ1BaTHe nporpecope MY3J1KOM, BJ1IlIeqaCOBHJ1M

- 6e)f(J1 OA IlIKOJIe - npJ1MOpaBa - ryTa HOBau; aa TeJIe<pOHe, J13JIaCKe J1 CJI. - MaJITpeTJ1pa Me npemacnosr KOMnjYTepOM - cnasa

Ho, BpaTJ1MO ce MajU;J1 J1 CJ1Hy. CTBapJ1 cy TaKBe KaKBe cy J1 MajKa Mopa Aa

npJ1XBaTJ1 J13JIaCKe csora CJ1Ha. AKO je OTJ1IlIaO 6e3 TeH3J1je, aKO ra He npaTJ1, aKO AKO MajKa He npaBJ1

rroxyura Aa MJ1PHO crrasa (jep ce necpeha caste jeAHoM noraha) HaneTOCT J1 isena J1 cenersexr npen
fuerOBa ce CBe BJ1IlIe cMafuyje. MO)KAa y mrrarsy npesos,

ysfiyny KaA CJ1H3aKaCHJ1, jep je

notipa saoasa,

CJ1Hhe 6J1TJ1 BJ1IlIe Hero 3aXBaJIaH MajU;J1 je 36J1lba CTBapaJIaQKJ1 y aecrnapa-

- rnyBapJ1 aohy, a ja YMJ1peM, sexajyhn ra

sa TaKBO rroaauraise, Osaj 06JIJ1K noaauraisa hJ1 onaCHOCTJ1 xoje npaTe

narsy, saxrenajyha anCOJIYTHY TJ1IlIJ1HY - aacrpauryje Me BJ1KafueM, nperisaaa, nyrraisea BpaTJ1Ma

- HJ1IlITa He paAJ1 y KyhJ1

JIaQKJ1MYCJIOBJ1Ma)KJ1BOTa. CJ1H he TO 3HaTJ1 zta u;eHJ1 J1 CJ1rypHo he seurro J136e-

aohae J13JIaCKe.
Y u;eHTap

AKO MajKa He MO)Ke .n;anpJ1XBaTJ1 QJ1fueHJ1U;y na MJIa.n;J1J13JIa3e TaKO KaCHO, J1aKO OHJ1 HJ1CY KPJ1BJ1 sa TO, J1 OHa TO 3Ha, HaCTaBJ1he na MyqJ1 ce6e J1 nere. he CTaBJ1TJ1 BJIaCTJ1TJ1CTpax J1 ce6e, saaeaapyjyhn BpeMeHO, OHa aaycraszsa .n;YXOBHJ1pacr IlITBa, aJIJ1 3aYCTaBlba J1 paasoj peQ 0 npasoj rnaCHOM MY3J1KOM, Hnp. KOjJ1 csor

- rseroaa co6a je y HeBJ1~eHOM xaocy

- AOBJIaqJ1 APYiliTBO xoje 3aAJ1MJ1 ueny

xyhy

norpetiy csor MJIa.n;or nerera.

- lberOBa nesojxa je J1npeamue y aauroj KyhJ1, rrpasne <ppJ1)KJ1Aep, OHa ce Kyna KOA Hac, KOPJ1CTJ1Moje CTBapJ1 J1 CJI. - OH YBeK n06eAJ1 xana OAJIyqJ1 rta aeurro npaTJ1 aa TeJIeBJ130py, iserose cezse cy sa MeHe 3anOBeCT - HeAOJIJ1'IHO ce noaaura

Iboj je naxure .n;a AP)KJ1 nere na OKY, y KyhJ1, KaKO 6J1 OHa MJ1PHO cnasazra. J1CTOMJIa.n;or QOBeKa KOjJ1 He MO)Ke 6e3 .n;pysa 3.n;paBJ1M po.n;J1TelbCTBOM. Osne je naroaa

npJ1HYAJ1, xojy he joj CJ1HBpaTJ1TJ1 npJ1Hy.n;OM y .n;pyroM 06JIJ1KY, npe-

npeaa 6a6J1, AeAJ1, MOjJ1M npajarersaaa

JIJ1CTa 6J1 Morna 6J1TJ1 3HaTHO AY)Ka, aJIJ1 je CaCBJ1M AOBOlbHO nonaraxa xasyjy na ce Y nOpOAJ1U;J1 aeurro Mopa MefuaTJ1.

Pa3MeHJ1JIJ1 cy JIJ1CTe, BpIlIehJ1 aHaJIJ13Y CBaKe QJ1fueHJ1u;e, rrourryjyhn Aa aaseAeHO 36J1lba yrpozcaaa onor nparn npyror. JIaKo yBJ1~ajy Aa je CBaKJ1 06JIJ1K nonauraisa, casro jenan OA ner BaCnJ1THJ1X MOAeJIa. Majxa ,,3Bou;a" 360r HohHJ1X J13JIa3aKa, ra na Mo6J1JIHOM, HepB03HO ra J1IlIQeKyje, naTJ1, noxexyje ra BJ1KOM. JIaKo

3ajegHU11.KU oqpequuie

aueapuua U uonaiuatey Mepy

QJ1fueCBaKO sajenMepa

je YCTaHOBJ1TJ1Aa JIJ1je peQ 0 npJ1HYAJ1 J1JIJ1He. AKO CJ1H J1Ma cenaxmaecr roAJ1Ha, HOpMaJIHO je na, xao IlIKOJIapau;, J13JIa3J1 neTKOM J1 Cy60TOM. MJIaAJ1 He MOry 6e3 npyurrsa, He QJ1HJ1Aa ovoryha aJIJ1 je TY)KHO IlITO caBpeMeHO APYiliTBO HJ1111Ta OKO 20: 00, KaKO 6J1, 6J1JIJ1 KyhJ1 npe MJIaAJ1Ma na ce cacrajy

Beh, npa nornerry Ha'JIJ1CTe, J1 MajKa J1 CJ1Hhe ce CYOQJ1TJ1ca nerrpajarnosr HJ1U;OM.n;a 36J1lba yrpozcaaajy jemro npyroa MJ1P, snpaazse. BpJIO 6p30 he OA fuJ1X o6eJIe)KJ1TJ1 xera ce ca naxohosr MO)Ke onpehn. Ilperxonno ce Mopa 3anaMTJ1Te HJ1QKJ1 o.n;peAJ1TJ1 "Mepa" xojy Mopa na nourryjy o6e crpane.
HJ1je KOMnpOMJ1c. Mepa je YBeK J13pa3

norpetie. He J13JIa3J1 CJ1H neTKOM J1 cy6oMepa he MO)K.n;a6J1TJ1 ner

TOM na 6J1 MaMJ1 oxioryhxo ner MJ1pmtX HohJ1, seh 3aTO IlITO ce y3 OBa nsa J13JIaCKa MO)Ke OCTaTJ1 .n;o6ap l)aK. Y TOKY nerrser pacnYCTa J13JIa3aKa HeAelbHO . - 413-

nOHohJ1. MHOrJ1 he nOMJ1CJIJ1TJ1Aa je pe-r 0 aexoj 3aBepJ1 npOTJ1B noponaue. [a MJ1CJIJ1M na HJ1je. Ilocrrennua orposnre HeTpnelbJ1BOCTJ1 neue J1 ponarersa Morna 611 - 412-

CBe CTe pa3YMeJIl1 npeTxogHI1M npl1MepOM. Cenaauaecroromrunsax, gOK Tpaje IllKOJICKaronana, I1Ma npl1pogHy rrorpetiy ga 113a1)eneTKOM 11Cy60TOM, IllTO Hehe yrp03l1Tl1 npou;ec paga 11Y'Ielba. To je Mepa xojy MajKa Mopa g03BOJII1TI1, ys MaKCI1MYMCTBapaJIa'IKOr rronautaisa xoje CMOrope HaBeJII1. ronnna, lbeMY Mopa 6l1Tl1 ogpel)eYKOJII1KOsaute nere I1Ma casio jenanaecr na gpyra Mepa. Y TI1Mrogl1HaMa ce He 113JIa311 jep ... aJII1, saur paaaazcenxo he Bac ynopHo oncenarn, rosopeha: "CBI1 113JIa3e, urra je Te611?" Y TOM CJIY'Iajy, CMl1pena OH Hl1je "CBI1", na je OH saure BOJbeHO nere, 11nOCJIaTI1 ra HO here onrosoparn Ml1pHO na crrasarse. Ilpo6JIeMl1 Be3aHl1 sa peanaaaunjy onor CI1I1CKace jaszsajy xana nere Tpe6a na ncnourryje Mepy norosopa y CTBapl1Ma xoje cenaxaaecr romrna Hl1je 'II1HI1JIO, nrrp. na y KyhM 06aBJba aexe nOCJIOBe. )J,a y xyha 06aBJba aexe nOCJIOBe? Bxhe TO rrpaaa reper sa isera. Cana gOJIa311go Ji[3pa)f(aja BE3YCJIOBHO qEKAI-hE na ce CBJi['iJIaHOBJi[noponnne BOJbHOonpexny CBJi[X rrer HaKa3HJi[XBaCnJi[THJi[X MogeJIa. CaMO He g03BOJIJi[Te ce6Ji[ xao ponarezsy ga ce nOCJIe npBJi[X g06Ji[jeHJi[X n03Ji[TJi[BHJi[X pe3YJITaTa onycTJi[Te Ji[g03BOJIJi[Te ga ce CBe spara na crapo. AKO CJi[HypegHo aaoxpyzcyje y nJIaHY paga urra he cYTpa pagJi[TJi[, a rrnak TO He ogpagJi[, ponarezs he npenysera CTBapaJIa'IKY axunjy. Iyraxy TeJIecpoHCKJi[XJi[MnYJICace MO)f(eCTaTJi[na nyT, caao rpetia Ji[MaTJi[ xpa6POCTJi[Ji[MaIllTe. Ilpncrao je ga He snoyrrorpetirsaaa TeJIecpOH, aJIJi[je HaBJi[Kajaxa. Cneneha uenapau uehere My gaTJi[ y pYKe, seh he OH 6Ji[TJi[YTpOIlleH na BJi[COKJi[ pa'IyH. Mepe ce MOry nojaxaaara y BJi[gy npJi[BpeMeHor Ji[CKJbY'IJi[Balbarenerpoaa, y CPYHKU;Ji[jJi[ ocaemhea,a nerera KaKO 6Ji[ ncnourroaao goroBopeHY Mepy CTBaPJi[. AKO My je TeJIecpOH TOJIJi[KO norpetian nexa sapann, aexer ce onpexne Ji[TaKO nJIaTJi[ osaj JIYKCY3. fogJi[HaMa je ponarezs yqJi[O ca nererosr, nacao My nosrahe. )J,OU;HJi[je My je OMOryhao rrpasarne nporpecope, CBe je TO YHJi[IllTJi[JIO HarOH aa Y'IelbeM KOg nerera. On HOBe axuzje, ga smue He cemrre nopeg nerera, ga My YKJi[HeTenpasarne aKO CBe OCTaHe caao na YKJi[galbY npJi[BJi[JIerJi[ja. nporpecope, aehe 6Ji[TJi[KOPJi[CTJi[, Kana ra OCTaBJi[Tena caMOCTaJIHO Y'IJi[, nere he nOTnYHo ogYCTaTJi[ on Y'Ielba, jep He 3Ha KaKO ga yqJi[. KaKO 6Ji[ nsrnenao HOBJi[06JIJi[K paga y CPYHKU;Ji[jJi[ 6yl)eisa Jby6aBJi[ npesra yqelby? Ilahy BaM casio HeKOJIJi[KOnpJi[Mepa. YMecTo na My nnure're cacras nayxrrhere ra KaKO ce cacras rnrure. [a He 6Ji[X)f(aJIJi[JIana nJIan1M npodiecopa KOjJi[he ra HaY'IJi[TJi[OBOj BeIllTJi[HJi[,aKO je ja He rrocenyjev. qJi[Tanere cxyna 11aajenno here aHaJIl13l1paTl1 aexe CaCBJi[M gpyre canpxcaje KOjl1yonIllTe UJi[CYBe3aHJi[ aa IllKOJIY,60Jbe pehx, sa yI,I6eHJi[Ke. 3aMJi[CJII1TeKOJIJi[KO ce 60TaHI1xa MO)f(e 60Jbe HayqJi[TI1 11C Jby6aBJbY, aKO onere ca nererox go rrpJi[poglba'IKOr Myseja, aKO 3ajegHI1'IKI1, na MHTepHeTY Tpa)f(I1Te onpehene rerae, aKO rrpOY'IaBaTe
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6Ji[orpacpJi[je BeJII1KJi[X npxpornsaxa, YMecTo IllTO TepaTe nere na CaTJi[Manonaszsa TeKCT 113yI,I6eHJi[Ka. AKO onpahyjere CBe pexeao, nere he CBaKOM TeKcTY yI,I6eHJi[Kanprrha C Jby6aBJby Ji[Hay'II1TI1 ra ca JIaKOnoM. 3HaM ga here peha na MHoro O'IeKyjeM on sac. Mozena je TeIllKO, aJIJi[je osaj nyr npaBJi[, a pe3YJITaTl1 cy Jby6aB geTeTa npeMa y'Ielby 11Basra. OBO cy caste nexe on Mepa, aJII1 he CTBapaJIa'IKJi[ ponarers Ji[iseroso nere naha xl1Jbagy Ha'IJi[Ha ga npegY3eTO He 6yge aYTOpI1TapHO, seh CTBapaJIa'IKO.

KOllUKO je epescena uOUlpe6HO ga UOUleKY Ibytae U ,a06pOUla?

KOJIJi[KO je npesrena rrorpetino ga nOTeKY Jby6aB Ji[)J,06poTa, na )f(Ji[BOT y nopogJi[U;Ji[ nOCTaHe XapMOHJi['IaH, na noponaua nOCTaHe aajnpnjarnaje MeCTO aa OgMOP TeJIa Ji[nyure, xana nobevo Ji[3cnorsaunser; aYTOpJi[TapHOr CBeTa? Onrosop naje nenezsa, nerne HeKOJIJi[KO MeCeU;Ji[, JIaKO gaTJi[. Herne je gOBOJbHO caao HeKOJIJi[KO aJIJi[ja YBeK Ka)l(eM: "AKO CTe KBapJi[JIJi[cenasmaecr ronnna, CTpnJbJi[BO xexajre jegHJi[ gpyre, 6ap cenasnraecr ztana go cenasmaecr MeCeU;Ji[." MJi[CJIJi[M ga CTe g06Ji[JIJi[ Ji[Cu;pnaH onrosop, Kp03 KOHKpeTHe )f(MBOTHenpJi[Mepe Ji[na here CBe neurro npJi[MeHJi[TJi[ y sauroj nopogJi[U;Ji[. Kaxo 6ygeTe CaBJIagaBaJIJi[ aaarse CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarsa y npaxcn norpetia ga BaM HeKO onronapa na aaura mrraisa 6Ji[he CBe Malba. BJi[he TO Ji[3a30B Ji[onrosoPJi[TJi[ caM cefia, jep BJi[CTe CTBapaJIa'IKa JIJi['IHOCT,a CTBapaJIa'IKa JIJi['IHOCTcrsapa nrrrarsa, aJIJi[naje Ji[CTBapaJIa'IKe onrosope, xoje ogMax npoaepn y npaKCJi[. )J,aJbe, rnrran,a nocranrsajre, 6eJIe)f(Ji[Te, passonuzsajre 0 lbJi[Ma, a nOTOM Ji[X y npaxcn nposepaaajre. Hahx here npaBe onrosope, a onna Ji[3HeHaga smue He mrrare HJi[ce6e, HJi[aexor go ce6e. 3aCJi[rYPHo 3HaTe na na CBaKO rnrraise Ji[MaTe npasn, CTBapaJIa'IKJi[ onroaop, a jenaao TaKaB onroaop CPYHKU;Ji[OHJi[llIe y npaKCJi[. Ilpenosaajere Ji[CTJi[,Hy y ce6Ji[, Y3paCTaTe y CBeCHOCTJi[.

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PEKJII1 CY 0 IIOPO~l1qHOM liYKBAPY 11AYTOliI10fPA<llMJA

PEKJIJ!I CY 0 EYKBAPY

Byxeap, nporpecopa Ml1JIl1~e HOBKOBl1n, npencrasn,a l1CTl1HCKY npoaouajy anpaszsa. CTBapaJIa'IKO aacrnrrarse 'IyBa snpaan,e CBl1X'IJIaHOBa noponaue 11ynanpehyje reHeTCKl1 noreaunjan 'IOBeKa ,n;OHeCeHpohersev. Ilpanmma CTBapaJIa'IKOr sacmrratsa cy rrOTrrYHOy CKJIa,n;yca rrpnauarnoaa C30, xana je pex 0 nposrouaja 3,n;paBlba. 1986. ron. OTaBa noaersa C30, npencraazsa rrpBy nonpuncy rrpOMO~l1jl1 3,n;panrsa. OBa noaezsa jacno narnaurana: ,,3,n;paBlbe ce crnapa TaMO rne lby,n;l1)l(l1Be, BOJIe,pa,n;e 11rne ce nrpajy" 1996. Esponcxa aajenanua ,n;OHOCl1 Ilporpasr rrpovouaje snpaan,a aa Eaporry, Ienan on Tpl1 ~l1lba je na ce jaanocr oxpaopn, ,n;a6y,n;e CBeCHa p11311Karro 3,n;paBlbe, xao 11OHl1X<paKTopa KOjl1snpaazse ysehasajy, l1,n;ay TOMCMl1CJIY npeyane axunje. CTBapaJIa'IKO sacmrraise yrrpaBo TO 11'Il1Hl1, rrpe,n;O'IaBalbeM l1CTl1He,n;aayTopxrapna Cl1CTeMaacmrratsa y noponmnr yrpO)l(aBa 3,n;paBlbe y ~eJIOCTl1. J1CTOBpeMeHO, ayTop naje rrOTrrYHO rrpaKTl1'IHO peIllelbe 113JIaCKa113 aYTOpl1TapHOr Cl1CTeMa nacnararsa. YKl1,n;albeM rrpl1Hy,n;e, rr0311Tl1BHOr YCJIOBlbaBalba CTBapajy ce rr0311Tl1BHl1eMO~110HaJIHl1 YCJIOBl1 aa )l(l1BOT11pa,n; y rropo,n;l1~l1. IloponaxHl1 O,n;HOCl1 nocrajy 6eCKOMrrpOMl1CHl1(y Hajrr0311Tl1BHl1jeM CMl1CJIY) jep Hl1KOHe norxparsyje HeraTl1BHOCT ,n;pyror. )Kl1BOT nocraje 6e3KOH<pJIl1KTaH,jep ce yKl1,n;ajy CBl1<pPOHTOBl1KOjl1 cy (laMO nocnenaua ayTOpl1TapHe xajepapxnjcxe OpraHl1aauaje )l(l1BOTa y noponnua. Ha oaaj Ha'Il1H HeMa YCJIOBa aa snoynorpeoy crpaxa, HeMa HarreTOCTl1, Hl1 rroTpe6e 3a npaxosersea HarreTOCTl1 cpe,n;cTBl1Ma 3aBl1CHOCTl1l1JIl1 rryress arpecaje, ayroarpecnje. ,1J;aKJIeCTBapaJIa'IKa rropo,n;l1~a je 3,n;paBa noponnua jep HeMa norpeoy aa CTaJIHl1M cYKo611Ma, uxraperoxc, aJIKOXOJIOM,nporosr, npepaa axi 11 MeHTaJIHl1M cexcow, pa,n;oxOJIl1'IapCTBOM, xao 3a6opaBOM on rrp06JIeMal1 OCTaJIl1M3aJIl1Ma XX aexa.
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CTBapaJIal.J:KO nacrnrrarse naje pellIelbe 11sa jernry OA ner rnaaanx 06JIaCTl1 y OBOM Ilporpawy aa Esporry - aa 06JIaCT axmrje y npossouaja snpaarsa "Pa3BOj, crparernja IiIopraHliI3a~110He CTpyKType nponouaje anpasrsa", jep CTBapaJIa'IKO sacrnrraa,e l1Ma AeTepMl1HaHTe sa crparernjy 11OpraH113a~110Hy CTpyKTypy npoMO~liIje snpasn,a y nOpOAl1~l1 ,[(albe, y np110pl1TeTHliIM np06JIeMliIMa Ilpovouaje 3ApaBlba y Eapona xao cne. ~1iIIiI'IHIiIM nporpaMIiIMa (anp, 3ApaBIiI rpaAOBIiI), 3aTliIM CBYAarne ce "aKQeHTIiIpa pasnoj sajemraue, xao IiIpaasoj JIIiI'IHIiIXBellITIiIHa, aa ocnocofirsaean,e lbYAIiIna ce cpeTHY ca 1iI3a30BliIMa )f(IiIBOTa11Aa ce crapajy 0 CBOMsnpaazsy", CTBapaJIa'IKO aacnaraise 11Ma MOAeJIycneume npaKce KaKO OCTBapliITIiIB11COKeeTIiI'IKe IiIAealIe caspeaenor 'IOBeKa: eMO~IiIOHalIHO, MeHTaJIHO, 1iI31iI'IKO11cOQ11jaJIHOsnpaezse. CTBapaJIa'IKO aacmrraise HapYllIaBa eMO~110HalIHY paBHOTe)f(Y Y KOP11CT Ine cy n0311T11Bn03IiIT11BH11XeMOQ11ja, TOlI11KOnOTpe6H11X caBpeMeHOM l.J:OBeKY. He eMOQ11je, TY cy: Jbytias, snpaazse 11nOTnYHO 3ApaB 11nozcersaa OAHOCnpesra HaTaJI11TeTY,npeMa nOTOMCTBY.qOBeK CTBapaJIa'IKe CBeCT11 je CBe CTaBIiIOY YHKQ11jy onrajaisa 3ApaBor 11B11TalIHOr nOTOMCTBa. Craapanaxxa nOpOA11Qa je OArOBopHa, rsena CBeCT je eKOlIOllIKa, XYMaHa, a casro TaKBa CBeCT MO)f(e O'lYBaT11XapMOH11jy Y CB11McerMeHT11Ma aaurer )f(11BOTa. Y CBe pe-reao caM ce YBep110 np11CYCTBOBalbeM B11llIeMeCe'IHoj npeaearannja CTBapalIal.J:KOr aacmrratsa Y ,[(e'I11joj 60JIH11Q11Y HOBOM CaAY. B110 611x BeOMa sanosozsaa xao 'IOBeK 11nexap xazta 611 ce Y aajcxopaje BpeMe osaj XYMaH11nporpaM np11Melb11BaO llI11pOM BojBOA11He, Iyrocnannje, na A06po611T CB11XnOpOA11~a 11uerror ApYllITBa. Ilporp, AP Anexcaanap KpCT110, nenajarap, nporpecop MeA11Q11HCKOraKYJITeTa Y HOBOM CaAY

paAliIjy, Tp11611HaMa, npOMO~l1jaMa l1llITaMnliI ocraapyjyha ca nocseheisea IiIHeyMOPHO CBOj )f(11BOTHl1 nozryxsar nocrojan nperHyna Byxa Kapaunha, l.J:liIjy HarpaJ1.Y carypao aacnyxcy]e.

M11lI11~a HOBKOB11n je jenaa OA MaJIOr 6poja nporpecopa, xoja je CBOj )f(l1BOT nOCBeT110 llI11pelby snarsa CB, iseronoj npaKT11l.J:Hoj npliIMeH11 11CBaKaKO ycaBpIllaBalbY oaor anaisa, nparehn nojase y TpaA11~110HaJIHoj 11MOAepHoj nenarornj11, cynporc'ranrsajyha ce cBeMY "HOBOM". IllTO 3aycTaBlba AYXOBH11 pacT 'IOBeKa, na nO'IeTKY nsanecer npBor sexa. Ilerap CaBI1h je BOJIeO aa ce6e Aa xaxce Aa je OH rsopau CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacrnrrarsa, M11JI11QaHOBKOB11n 611 Morna na nonece 11Me CTBapaOQa Koj11je ueo )f(11BOTnpOBeJIa 60pen11 ce npOT11B aYTOp11TapHe nenarornje xao nayxe, 'I11ja je YJIora saspureaa, YJIaCKOMy rpehn M11lIeH11jyM11crsapaoua KOj11je panehx nyH11X 'IeTpAeCeT rOA11Ha y npaKC11, AOrpaA11JIa 11YHanpeA11JIa CaB11neBO AeJIO. Tpnneceroronaunse 11CKYCTBO cazcena je "IlOPOA11'IHOM 6yKBapy" nOCBeneHOM TpaAIiI~110HalIHoj 11caspeaeaoj nOpOA11~11,xao )f(pTBaMa npesaaaheaor aYTOp11rapaor C11CTeMaaacrnrrarsa KOMece eHepr11'IHO cynpoTcTaBlba snaise CTBapalIa'Ixor aacrnrrarsa, HOB- KOB, cnaCOHOCHor sa AYXOBHIiI paCT canaunsnx 116YAyn11X reaepauaja. CaM "IlOPOA11'IH11 6yKBap" je, no CBOjOj CaAP)f(11H11 11nopYKaMa BplIO KBalI11TeTHa Klb11ra, AparOQeHa y npouecy otiozsen.a 'IOBeKa, He casro aa Cp611jy, Ben 11 'I11TaB CBeT. Caspeaeaa nOpOA11Qa y l.J:11TaBOM CBeTY je y AYXOBHOjKp11311re 611 OBa Klb11ra 611lIa CB11MaOA BelI11Ke KOP11CT11. Ilporpecop, Bnanera ]epOT11n, aaur 'IYBeH11 nCI1X11jaTap, ce y HeKOlI11KOHaBpaTa, aajnoaorsnaje 113pa3110 0 crnapazraurrny M11lI11QeHOBKOB11n,y CBOj11MHaCTYn11Ma na TelIeB11311j1111na npOMOQ11jaMa caae Klb11re, y Beorpany, CY,[len11no KBalI11TeTY 11OnllITe-,[IpYllITBeHoM anaxajy, no YH11Bep3alIHoM 3Ha'lelbY, OBa Klb11ra 611 Morna nOCTaT116peH,[I Cp611je. To je npaKT11'IHa Klb11ra nacana np11CTyna'IH11M je311KOM 11jaCH11M CT11lIOM11MOry je 'I11TaT11rOTOBO CB11.To je KlbliIra xojy rpetia na nocenyje CBaKa rroponaua, 11Malla ,[IeQY11lI11He, jep CTBapanaxxo aacnaraise.ypehyje, na l.J:OBe'IaH Ha'l11H, O,[lHOCeMe1)y CB11Ml.J:lIaHOB11Ma noponnue, ,[IpYllITBa y ~elI11H11. KaKO CTBapalIa'IKO aacrnrraise np11na,[la canaunsocrn IiI6Y,[lynHOCT11"Ilopo,[Il1'IH116yKBap" sacnyzcyje csoje MeCTO y csaxoj noponaun, y csaxoj YCTaHOB11, 06pa30BHoj, Me,[l11~IiIHcKoj ... OBO AelIO YCKOPOMopa 611Tl1npnxaaheao 11OACTpaHe npOCBeTH11XBJIaCTIiI,OACTpaHe MIiIHl1CTapCTBasa nOpOAl1~y KaKO 61iITO nocrao 3BaH11l.J:HIiI yI,l6eHliIK 11npliIpyqHl1K HaMelbeH CBIiIMaxoja ce 6aBe nopOAIiI~OM, ne reTOM na CTBapalIal.J:KIiIHal.J:l1H,6e3 ynorpeoe cnon.aunsax BaCnliITHl1X MOAelIa.
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M11JI11~a HOBKOB11n je nporpecop KOj11je CBOj )f(11BOTnOCBeT11lIa CTBapaJIa'IKOM nacmrrarsy, "HOB-KO-B"-y, (HOBOMKOHQemy nacrrararsa), KOj11opM11pa OPIiIr11HaJIHe crsapaoue HOBor KOBa. To cY 3ApaBe 11ycneunre JI11'IHOCT11 'IliIj11ypoheH11nOTeHQ11jaJI AOJIa311AO rryaor napaacaja jep y lb11XOBOMsacmrratsy HeMa H11 jemror 061I11Ka np11HYAe. Canocnoaaaja 11paasoj BJIaCT11TOrnOTeHQ11jaJIa YTeMelbeHl1 cy aa Jby6aB11, PaAOCT11,,[(06POT11, re cy np11pOAHO 11lb11XOBanena, lb11XOB )f(11BOTnpOTKaH11 Jby6aBlby, Panourhy 11,[(06POTOM. Mamma npOHOCl1 snarse CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacrnrrarsa ca HajBenl1M eHTY31iIja3MOM IiI'IYAeCHOM eneprnjora rryryjyha no Cp6liIjliI, aacrynajyha na TeJIeB1iI31iIjliI,
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Kao ayTop "ITOPOp;W'fHOr 6yKBapa"

KOjW je CBOjWM pap,OM rrOCTWraO 3ap;WBlhy_

CTBapalIa'fKO

aacmrrarss,

HaCTalIO aa rny Cp6wje, aacmrrarse

npourno

Kp03 rrpaKcy WcrrpeM-

pe3YlITaTe MWlIWu;a HOBKOBWn aacnyxcyje .' )ep;WHCTBeH W aa CBeT 3Ha'fa)aH nonyxsar. Jby6wIlla

jyhe

jaaao

rrpasxaise

W noxsane 3a OBa'
)

HO 3a rrpwMeHY, je y cyIllTHHH

aa 3p,paBlhe, a aacrraraise

aa 3p,paBlhe je

sa

]OBaHOBwn, lIeKap W KfuW)!(eBHWK W3 BelIWKe ITlIaHe - ITWTafue Hap; rrWTafuWMa - BacrrWTafue p;aHac

crparerxja rrpoMou;wje sa snpaan,e xao IllTO je nposiouxja 3p;paBlha eceauajaznra crpareraja HOBor janaor 3p;paBCTBa H neonxonaa xosmoHeHTa aa nccrnaarse 3p;paBlha sa CBe rrOlIHTWKe 21. sexa." Ilourrosanau W cnenfieaax onor peBolIYU;woHapHor nena ,lJ;p Cnaanua ITpH6aKoBwn, xapnaonor W xosreonara, MajKa nsoje neue W 6aKa yHyKe POMaHe
C30 "eceHu;wjalIHa

CBeTCKa 3p;paBCTBeHa clIy)!(6y rnrjcxe

opranasauaja
a

je rrOCTaBWlIa

sanarax

rrpep; 3p;paBCTBeHY "Kap;a MaMe y~y y

W 3p;paBCTBeHe pap;HWKe, p;a y lIe'fefuY

WHTerpaTWBHO KopWCTe, CBe Tepa-

caao y U;Wlhy spaharsa anpasn,a 'fOBeKY. Y1Majyha OBO y BWp;y ocerxna caM 06aBe3Y na rrpOIllwpWM aaarse p;a 6wx onrosopnna 3ap;aTKY, He 360r C30, Ben 360r Bene e<pWKaCHOCTW y nexeisy, Y TparafuY aa MeTOp;aMa nexersa xoje HWCYurrerae a BWCOKOcy e<pWKaCHe, aanpxcana caM ce y XOMe-

MeTop;e xoje HWCYnrrerae,

crnapanaxxo

sacrnrrarse,

rana

)!(HBOT fueHOM

nerery

H isoj

nocraje necna".
POMaHa MHIllHn,

11 ron.

onarnja,

Cy 1)OK reparmja,

<pWTOTeparrwjw, MaKp06wOTWU;W. CBe OBe MeTop;e cy "CBaKH p;aH Kap; ce npotiynxa, MHClIHM

3aCHOBaHe

na

OCHOBHWM rrpWHu;wrrWMa WHp;wBwp;yalIHocTW W u;elIOBWTOCTW rrpw

aa

Bac, MWClIHM

na

najnemue

nosopmure

OTKlIafuafuY Y3pOKa rrpotineaa. IT porp.

na

cBeTY,

neo

p;aH

nesaa

rrecrae." 30Ka,

Manana

HOBKOBwn je

jw, rrOKlIOHWlIa MeTOp;y

na BelIWKY cpehy W panocr, 'fOBe'faHCTBY WCptiacrnapanaxxor sacnararsa, xoja e<pWKaCHOW rro rrpwHu;wrry
Y3POK HaCTaHKa npofinexra y <PYHK"ITOPOP;W'fHW 6yKBap" MW naje

10 ron, Beorpan

WHp;wBwp;yalIHocTW W u;elIOBwTOCTW, orxnaisa uaoancaisy rropop;wu;e. "ITOPOP;W'fHW 6yKBap"

I W II,jenaxo pa3YMlhwBO rpanaso sa cBaKY rropop;wu;y, xoja WMa rrp061IeM W xoja xohe na peIllw rrp061IeM na e<pwKacaa Ha'fWH. Casto xapMoHw30BaHo eMOU;WOHalIHO cran-e csaxor xnaaa noponnue noaaocof je YCIIOB aa notipo 3p;paBlhe W Harrpep;aK noponnue yornure. CBe rope aaaenene MeTop;e nexersa MOry HMaTW rpajnaje erpexre, carao YKOlIWKO ce lIe'feHW
rrojenmrau BpaTw y eMOU;WOHalIHO xapMoHw30BaHY aacmrran,e, nopomonry cpep;wHy. CTBa-

nany

p;a he

oner

6HTW lhy6aBw y cBeTY 30pwu;a

Ioanh, 13. ron.

"HajlIerrille crtpesrna

on csera

je IllTO

neua

H pop;wTelhw nayse KaKO na Haraura

nocrany

P;06pH lhyP;H,

p;a rrpHxBaTe CBe IllTO )!(WBOT noaece" CTHrrHn,

panaxxo

KOMe Hac yqw "ITOPOP;W'fHW fiyxaap", pasyxeaarsa W rronrroaarsa,

BplIO e<pWKaCHOP;OBOJby6aBH npesia

21 ron, CTyp;eHT
U;pBeHKa

P;W P;O pep;a, Me~yc06Hor

pap;y, rrpexia 'fOBeKY,

pasaajatsa

npapona,
p;yryjeM

OP;HOCHOP;OBOP;W P;O ypaBHOTe)!(eHOr

eMOU;WOHalI"CaM Bor Bac je nocnao. ycsoje CBWlhyP;H notipe )KelIwM p;a "ITOPOP;H'fHH 6yKBap" aozse H rrperropyqe p;pyrHMa". CBeTlIaHa MajKa p;eceTorop;HIllfue Tpaje p;yroBe'fHO, na ra

nor

crarsa

cane nopomnie.

Y3 BelIWKO npaanan,e

nporp.

MHlIHU;W HOBKOBHn W3aXBalIHOCT, jep caM cpep;CTBO y

p;06WlIa y pYKe BplIO e<pHKaCHO, lIaKO rrpWMefuHBO KOMrrlIeMeHTapHO lIe'fefuY xoje onroaapa 3aXTeBHMa CBeTCKe 3p;paBCTBeHe opratrasauaje.

Tposnannh,
p;eBojlmu;e

MHlIaHKa

BO)!(Hn, lIeKap H xoxreonara

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"Ilopo)J;J1'IHl1

6YKBap"

MOpa

nahn

csoje

MeCTO y

caaxoj noponaun,
Ml1JIl11\a Ml1JIOBaHOBl1n

17 ron,

PeCHl1I<

"OBO p;eJIO Mopa 611Tl1 nOKJIOlheHO CBaKOM napy

na nenxarsy".

Mnana

MajI<a, Be'Iej

AYTOEMO [PA<DI1JA

"Ilopop;l1'IHl1

6yKBap"

rpetia

p;a

npo-nrrajy

CBl1 JbYP;l1, na aKO ra He

rrpaxsare

He

rpetia na pahajy neuy, Baxa, 74 ron,

CpeMCKaMl1TpOBl11\a "XBaJIa na nOMOnl1 "BYKBapoM". KY1\ypCKl1 xojy

3
rne

here

npY)Kl1Tl1 MHOfl1M

rroponanava

11 nojep;l1H1\l1Ma

poheaa Bojaoanh. On Ml1Jba Me 30BY Mnpa, a TO Ml1 je 1111Me na KpwTelhy. Pohena caM y 3eMyHy 1947. ronnne. Hajnenure WTO nere MO)Ke na noaece y )Kl1BOT p;0611JIa caM y npenrpahy 1)aKoBa, caM 611JIa no caoje nere rornme, y Kpl1lIY noxojae 6a6a Ml1lIKe, crpnna )KapKa,
0BeM ce Ml1JIl11\a HOBKOBl1n, CTpl1Ha, KYMOBa ... 113 osor xpxna

Baunor

CTpl1'IeBa,

casr noaena

KlIl11\Y Jby6aBl1

npeMa

Mxpjaaa, 54

ron,

)Kl1BOTY 11'IOBeKY jep cy Ml1 Jby6aB

npY)Kl1lIl1 OBl1 p;06pl1 JbYP;l1 KOjl1 cy Me Henpe-

mmn.

eKOH., HOBl1 Cap;

CTaHO WTl1Tl1lIl1 TOnlIl1M )Kl1BOTHl1M YClIOBl1Ma. xao aexana y Maj'Il1Hoj nonena YTp06l1. cHary 11nperpWT

Bnna

casr carypna

11 saurrahena

y )Kl1BOT caM

n0311Tl1BHl1X eM01\l1ja xoje cy 113palhalle

npl1 CBaKOM cycpeTY

ca ClIl1'IHOM )Kl1BOTHOM can,

cnryanxjoa

xojy caM Bl1p;elIa 110)K11nere

Bella y CBOM npBOM P;OMy. OCeTl1lIa p;a OCeTl1, ~11P;1111 syje: 611CTap nOToK, ronno sope 11JbYP;CKY capap;lhy y nnaao
MlIeKO

Bl1p;elIa 11'IylIa CBe WTO jenao

rperia
pa3ro-

He60,

3elIeHY TpaBY, Bl1HOBY 1I03Y 113Hap; KOlIeBKe, TonOT

p;OK ce ClIl1Ba 113 Bl1MeHa KpaBe,

xorsa,

capormse.
CJIoj, snpase,

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IIlTa je 6111I0 p;OU;Hl1je? POp;l1TeJbl1 cy "Op;pap;l1lIl1" cy Haj60Jbe 3HaJIl1.

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