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Ammayude Sandeshangal
Ammayude Sandeshangal
( Am m a s m e ssage s & t al k s
published in Matruvani)
A KVS Reproduction
jMdin xEsh
EzpmxV>Upik]y `}]-vRuh nm]>h
mL `}}]v>uh axmyh monm]yi, av>v>ueT HZdyi- Eu[
zsiuk. |u[ |viETu[ pureT]N |>u `^}] mLuh |vieT
`iEc{>]N x]Dic{ii}. |u[ O>u Es]k a>Im]f[ k]futu[. ARuh
O>u Ed]Svuh xhBvi] >Itiyil atu kTu Ep]kuv]N p>m]]viEn]Tu
zp]Ri]h.
mE, `^}]iEyuh aTix[]nh vinyvuh myum]fu[. aenyu O>u
mn]fu[ nmuu Evtu[. ati^}]tuek]]fu[ |eney]eyu
zps[nL xhBviutu[. vinyvuh myumu O>u mn]fu[ nmuu Evtu[.
ADunik E^]kh O>u yum]yi m]riyi>iuu. |vieT buuh
xuHZuuh zpiyev>uh |^}. sztuL m]zth; p>x[p>h nsii]N
vYzgt pUu nilu sztuL m]zth. |E]L Oic{u niu[ mrup]E>]Tu[
yuh ecy{uh. piITu[ Biic{u niu[ p>x[p>h yuh ecy{uh |o k]<[cy]fu[
p^yiTi^uh k]futu[. xV]Rtyuh aH]>vuh mnuSYN bixin]i
m]iyi>iuu.
|ni muE]u nIL `eneyu[ pry]N vy{.
atin]l, me p>x[p>vuh myuh EHvuh visV]xvuh vRieyTu]N
zsmifh.
mL `}]v>uh kTc{[ a xmyh DY]niuk. |vieT mUu zp]vsYh O]h
jpiuE]L a>Iil Aek s]i niryut]yi xic{uek]u[
atin]yi mnx] zp]RnEy]eT `}]v>uh O]h mUu zp]vsYh ~u ec]}uk.
|vieT x[h Evzt |}]tin]l, mL p>m]vDi \ x[u[
Otuiyi>iuv]N zsmifh. |>i]N |Th ki]vR niuek]u[
zp]Ric{]uh mti. eviyil nilu mL evyiEl]ti>i]N tyil
tufiyiTEf.
mE |u nL bueT Ep>il bnx[>]yi>iuu ` xtYh
n]mriyui^}. bL Ev `^}, pE bilecu epTuE]L, A
vx[tuviEn] vYiE] nueT jIviti^u x[]nh n]h vYm]yi
mni^]uv]N zsmifh. p>x[p>h ariu bm]y]l m]ztEm
y]R
EHh
\Te^TuukyuU.
vYiEy]T]y]^uh
2
1996 January
(k<i ^h tuTRc{)
O>]zsmil O>u gu>uvuh kuer siSY>uh t]mxic{i>uu. gu>uvie xm]Diu
EsSh kuer]^h siSYR Oe]>umEy]eT k<iu. piITu[ av>ueT x]DnkL
kuru. jpDY]nL |^}]t]yi. p>x[p>h axUyyuh kusuuh vRic{u.
O]E>]>u>ueTyuh
^Yh
x[]n
m]nL
m]ztm]yi.
|Et]eT
Azsm]>Iinute m]m]yi. aviETu jnueT v>vuh kuru.
Azsmil O>u mUkt m]zth. x[]nm]nil zBmh v]l mnuSYN
zB]n]yi m]ruh. pie `u ecy{fh, ecy{>utu[ `tinu[ y]et]>u
niyvumi^}. Azsmie |o >Iti kiu[ atie^]>u siSYnu[ ve>
duKm]yi. aEHh aTuu vZn]y O>u mH]]vien ecu ku.
Azsmie^ viv>L D>iic{u. nUrukfinu[ jnL vuek]i>u,
divxvuh \Xv zptIti p>iyi>u Azsmh |u[ svruEp]e^
vijnm]fu[. siSYN pret^}]h Ektinu EsSh aEHh pru, 'niueT
kUil
O>u
mH]]vuu[.
aEHh
muvR
ariy]ti>iuv]N
EvSzpn]yii>iuky]fu[. niL aEHe anux>ic{]l niueT
Azsmh p<yti nup>iy]yi puE>]gmiuh zpsx[ti vRiuh. 'siSYN,
at]>]efu Ec]dic{E]E<uh, mrupTiyi^}. aEHh xm]Diy]yi.
siSYN Azsmie^i AE^]cny]yi. til A>]fu[ mH]]vu[,
p]ckh ecy{uvn]Ef]? avn]k]N v<iyi^}. avnu O>u x]Dnvuh n]yi
p]ckh ecy{]nri yi^}. avN k]>fh, `ei^uh >uciEy]eT k<ic{iu[
k]^Emery]yi. avenen mH]]v]kuh. Et]h En]uvn]Ef]? avnu
Oi^uh zsyi^}. `Tuu c]]>num]fu[. psue En]uvn]k]nuh
t>mi^}. aven]>u muNEk]piy]fu[. |en OE>]>ue>uric{u pryutu
Eki[ kUeTyu AL pru. nL `in[ av>ueT zpvRike
vimRsifh. mH]]e av>u eT zpvZikL En]i vi^yi>u]N pi^}.
av>ueT zpvZikL nueT n^} B]viuEviy]yi>iuh. av>ueT muil
vinyE]eT ni]^E^} nmuu zpEy]jnmuU. av>il nL etu k]f]N
p]Ti^}. atin]l nmuu O>u k]>Yh ecy{]h. nmuu[ Azsmi^u
`^}]vE>]Tuh vinyE]eT ep>um]r]h. mu v>ueT etu k]f]et
`^}]vE>yuh EHi]N zsmi]h. p<ytuEp]e^ ci p]^iukyuh ecy{]h,
aen avR `^}]vE>yuh EHiuv]nuh, xk^E>]Tuh vinyE]Tuh
`imEy]Tuh ep>um]ruv]nuh tuTi. |vR >uEpR p>x[p>h EHE] Tuh
vinyE]Tuh xkE>]Tuh ep>um]rutu kE]L muv>uh atuEp]e^
ep>um]r]N tuTi, aE]L `^}]vR uh xE]Sm]yi. Azsmil `E]<uh
10
1996 February.
O>u >]jYe En]u[, A >]jYu m]ztEm xVIk>i
ukyuU. me]>u >]jYu[ atinu vi^yi^}.
atie n>u Ep]y]l A >]jYu te
atinu vi^ nS[Tm]kuh. `]l, xVR
n]fyh
atuEp]e^y^}.
atie
muzd
Ep]y]lUTi, atinu[ ~tu >]jYuh vi^ yuu[.
atuEp]e^y]fu DY]nh. DY]ninu[ ci^v]u
xmyh O>i^uh nS[Tm^}. `]l xVRinu[
p>imh
kUTi
v]l
`enyi>iuh?
atuEp]e^y]fu[ DY]nE] eT]h nil
k]>ufYh kUTi v]^e avx[. aEt] eT
|osV>kZpu[
niE^u[
zpvHiuv]nu
tTe ^}]h nIi kiuky]fu[ ecy{utu[.
p^ muh vu[ pry]ruu[, ave>niu[ kUET]zth ecy[tu. |ve>niu[
uzdh ecy[tu `uh muh. ati e^]uh mL visVxiE. muNpu ecy[t
kRueT P^m]fu[ |u nL anuBviutu[. atinu[ Ae>yuh p<i
priuk]>Ymi^}. jIvith xuK duKL nir t]fu[. atien xu^nh
ecy[tu muE]u Ep]kuv]n]fu[ AY]ikh mni^]utu[. viDi
`upryutu[, muNpu[ ecy[t
kRueT P^m]fE^}]. |tinRh
kRLu Evzt zp]D]nYh \e]fu[. atin]l mL mz v]dvuh muh
ecy [tu[ pfh ky]et, ~k]zgtEy]eT zp]R iuv]N zsmiuk.
aRHtevRu Evtu d]nh ecy{uk. |enyu xt[kRLek]u[,
Ev P^h ^Biukte ecy{uh.
s>iy]y
tpu
O>]Lu
m]ztEm
mzsiy]l
`ei^uh
P^iiuv]N x]DiU. nmuu[ Ed]Sh v>u uv]N k<iyU. xd[mzh
Ep]e^te duRmzvumuu[. `]l atinnux>ic{u[, P^v]uv]N piy
tpxVikL |]>uu[? atin]l mL |et]uh O]Ru[ ByeET ti^}.
jnn xmymnux>ic{u[ nil ci^ xmyil kS[TtkL k]f]ru[. ve>
cUTu xmyu[ ~k]zg tEy]eT Ouh ecy{uv]N k<iyi^}. ku kuTic{u
t^u mupiTic{vnu[ `]fu pryuetri yi^}. atuk]>fh mu v>ueT
eeky{il niuh aTi kiuh. |tuEp]e^ jIvi til jnnEn>h anux>ic{u[
ci^ xmyuu[. a vey Afu[ ec]v{, sni, >]Hu `e]e viiutu[.
|o ds]xikil DnnS[Th, apkTL, k^HL, E>]g L,
bumizt]dikLu[ kS[TtkL, `u tuTiy]^uh tTL, ecy{]
etukL ecy[etu[ EkLuk, |et] e |o ds]xikueT xVB]vm]fu[.
a^}]et A>uh kUET]zth ecy[tt^}. atie Ep>il ci^vu ecy{u pfh
ek]u[ mueT \ kTh vIuv]N k<iyuh. `]l n]h |o xmyu[
a^xM]>]yi>iuv]N p]Ti^}. |osV>en ~k]zgtEy]eT DY]niuv]N
zsmifh. xHzxn]m]R c{nkL muT]et nTfh. mzjph viT]et
tuT>fh. |et]ee]u[ |o ds]xi En>ie^ kS[TtkueT tIzvt
ve> kuruv]N k<iyuh. |vyil et]Uru st m]nvuh nueT zpyhek]u[
m]uv]N x]Diuh.
pie me]>u k]>Yh mL O]Rfh. anY>ueT mninu[ Evdnyu]u
O>u zpvRiyuh mil niumu]k >utu[. atu[ ve> Ed]Sh ecy{uh. nL
muve> Evdnii uE]L O>u pE avR etu ecy{]v>]yi>iuh.
avR E]! Bgv]en, w]en]uh arit^}e^}] av>ien prE}].
`ien HZdyh ep]i>u[ pryuE]L A x^[ph xU[m>Upil
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12
1996 April
jIvitil y]Rx[EnHh O>uvn[
AdYh
Biut[
ayil
nium]f[. O>[ piWukui En]Tu
x[EnHil
kh
k]fuv]N
k<iyi}.
y]et]>u
zptIyumi}]
x[EnHm]ft[.
ayueT
|o
x[EnHh
ek]c{ukuiyueT s>iy]y vRc{[
ve>
AvsYm]f[.
p]]tY
>]jYL buijIvikueT n]T] efu
pryuemi^uh
avieT
m]nxikE>]gikuh
D]>]muu[.
atinu k]>fh |o EHie
aB]vm]fu[. k]ril epEzT]L \eiuh, atu x[]R]kfemil b]ri Evfh.
atuEp]e, epyil niuh Biu x[EnHm]f[, nueT jIvitie
PoESN. `il Ec]diuh muv>ueT x[EnHh x[EnHmE} `[. atuh
EHh te. pE atie piil `E]<uh O>u zptIyuu[. B]>Y O>u etu
ecy[t]l BR]vu[ \Epi]ruu[. BR]vinu[ O>u pi< xhBvic{]l B]>Yyuh
viuEp]k]ruu[. |o EHh ecriy etinumuil Ep]^uh viupi>iyut]fu[.
|tu[ mZgmnukueT xVB]vm]fu[. psuvien x[EnHiut[ p]inu Eviy]f[.
p]u Biut[, Ou nile kurc{un]ukUTi vIil niRieyu v>]h.
piITtien |rc{i]>nu viluh. |tuEp]ey]f[ E]kie x[EnHh.
atien y]R x[EnHemu pryuv]N au k<iyi}. |o mZgIymnien
|osV>tViE^u[ \yRut]fu[ AY]ikt. B]>Y]BR]M]R til
EvRpi>iy]ruei^uh O>u t te kuien \Epi]N ty{]r]ki^}et]Urustm]nh tm]>uh. O>u kuiu[ te ecruil ayil niuh
^Biu EHm]fu[ atinu[ E^]kie EHh xVIk>iuv]nuh til \
EHe muvRu nlkuv]nuh sipk>utu[. m]t]vil niuh
kuuLu Biu x[EnHh nS[Tm]y]l, at[ A kuieyuh
>]jYieyuh n]sinu k]>fm]kuh `u[ mL O]Rfh.
|t[ buiyueTyuh yuiyueTyuh E]km]f[. HZdyie B]S mnuSYN
mri>iuu. p>x[p>h x[EnHiuv]nuh visVxiuv]nuh bHum]niuv]nuh
\ HZdyie B]Sy]f[ |u nS[Teuek]i>iut[.
O>il O>u zI t]N `<utiy kvit te BR]vien k]fic{u. avR O>u
kvitey<uuk]>iy]fu[. BR]v]ke O>u s]x[ztnuh. B]>YyueT
niRb{h k]>fh, aEHh kvit v]yic{u. kvit, O>u kuiey
vRic{uek]ut]f[.
muKh
czenE]eyi>iuu,
kukL
t]m>dLEp]ey]f[. |en O]E>] v>iyiuh O]E>]ien \pmic{[
vRic{i>iuky]f[. kvit v]yic{i[, BR]vie aBizp]yh EkL]N
B]>Y k]Et]Ru niluky]f[. BR]v[ pryuky]f[, nI `]f[ |o
`<utiyi>iut[? Ek]Tifin[ pfh civu ecy[t[ cznil mnuSYN
Ep]yiute}, avieT `i>iuu? kuer p]reukL. v]yu Ep]umi}.
aenyu czen `Tu[ tyil evc{]l, piTi OTiyumE}]. |en
O]E>] kuuv]ukL pr[, aEHh A kvitey vimRsiuky]f[,
avx]nh xHiek[ B]>Y pru. ""niL[ |o kvit mni]kukyi}.
atiu tEU.BR]v[ A kvitey kt[ buiyilUTiy]f[. avieT
HZdyh \]yi>ui}. aEHinu[ cznie p]reu m]ztEm k]fuv]N
k<iuU. |ziyLek]u[ ariyutiE visVxiukyuu `uh pr[
mnuSYN, avniu niS[t nS[TeTuiyi>iuu.
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1996 June
QlHi zbx[]n zptiS[] mEH]Xvh k<i[ ayuhAzsm aE v]xikuh amZtpu>iyiE^[ mTuky]f[. ~e<u divxe y]ztyu[.
|tiniTyi^uh mueT x]Dnyuh mu cikuh muT]et a zpEtYkh
En]]ru[. pkl mu<uvN y]zt ecy[t[ xYEy]TTuu E]L Er]Q>iki^u
~eti^uh ndiyiE^] tT]kiE^] kuic{[ `^}]v>uh a[ cuumi>u[
DY]nvuh Bjnyuh nTu ky]f[ ptiv[. mU]h divxh eevkuE>m]yi.
kui]N xo k>Yinu ndiEy], kuEm] v<iyueT |>uvsvuh k]f] nu]
yi>ui^}. |[ kui]N k<iyi^}E^}] `[ ciic{[ `^}]v>uh viSmiutu
k[ a pru nmu[ kui]N p]et v>i^} mE.. `vieTeyi^uh
evh \]kuh. a pr tnux>ic{[ aTue]>iT[ vi nirui.
xmIpem]N ndi Ey] mE] \E] `[ n]uk]E>]T[ aEnVSic{u. |vieTey
uh ndiyuh tT]kvuem]umi^}. |t[ evinu ]mmu zpEdsm]f[. avR
pru. atu Ek[ a xm]D]niic{u. a^}^}, |vieT aTuute
evmue[ ayueT mn[ pryuu. niL OukUTi Ep]yi aEnVSiU
zbc]>ikL vIuh Ep]yi ti>i. aE]L ci^ n]uk]R pru O], s>i
|vieT aTu[ k^}uevieyTu x[^[ ecriy tT]kh Ep]e^ evh
niruni^[pu[.
avR prtnux>ic{[ ayuh xhGvuh a^[pdU>h nT E]L, eti
j^mu >u tT]kL kei. `^}]v >uh aEy]eT]h tZp[tiy]Ev]h
kuic{u. kui k<i[ mL au cuumi>u[ DY]nic{u. DY]ninu EsSh
`^}]v>uh aEy]eT]h Bjnyil puEcRu. a B]vmy]yi. eekkL
Ak]siE^uyRi me, O]Tiv], me O]Ti v]''-- `ien a
\c{il viic{u. a^[p En>h xRv{>uh nisb[d>]yi A anuBUtiyil mu<uki
|>uu. A x]zmon in[ aRvi>]mh kuric{uek][ Q]niEyl ` O>u
zPWu k]>N aEy]T]yi pru. aEy]eT]h kuiuE]L v^iy
Anh Et]uu. Him]^yilec{[ ghgyil kui c{Ep]^u anuBvh.
ayueT SiEks[ p>ip]Ti r]iy k]>fh ghgyie^ kui nS[Tm]yti^u
duKh |E]L tIRu.
a :- me, xd[gu>u^]Bh \]kutu ve>y]f[ Ezt uh
tIRuh x]D]>f]e> AY]ikvZiyiE^ [ ek]uv>]N
\pk>iut[. gu>uvil xmRfmuvN pie me]>u tIRvuh EtTi
Ep]Ekti^}. xRv{tIR uh pURn]y O>u mH]]vil xhgmiuu .
gu>u vxi u x[]nh k]siyuh aviTue p]dtIRh ghgyum]ef [
pryuh. gu>uvil xmRic{u nIiy]l xk^ tIRi ^uh ]nh ecy[ttinu
tu^Ym]f[. O>u mH]]vie x]i Yil `vieT kuic{]^uh at[
ghg]j^il kuiu tinu tu^Yh te.
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go>vh
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1997 February
(k<i ^h tuTRc{)
21
1997 March
(avx]nic{u)
1997 April
ayueT jMdin xEsh
xEsh
EzpmxV>Upikuh
AxV>Upikum]yi>iu
`}]vR uh nmx[]>h.jgdhbikyueT
mL `}]v>uh x[EnHie mURik]
yiI>fh.
xh]>e punzptiS[iuk
AY]ik
jIvikL[
jMn]uh
pn]uem]umi^}.
av
>et]e
viETv>]f[. mueT xE]Sin]yi
a |ti en]e |>uu t>uu. pe,
a[ xE]Sh \]kutu[ nueT xhx[]>h \Le]uek][, nueT
xh]>e punzptiS[ ecy{uh `[ mL |o divxh zpti `Tuu
ti^]f[. atnux>ic{[ jIviuti^]f[. |o O>u niyd]R Ym]f[
nmuu]Ekt[.
p>uh \yR]ru O>u Ec]dYmu[, n]h `E]E]f[ Ep]kut[?'' s>iy]f[,
SikueT n]T]y B]>th `E]E ]f[ ep]y[e]i>iut[? nL
O]E>]>u>uh nueT \iEu En]i Ec]diE O>u Ec]dYm]fit[. xmyh
eevki yi>iuu. |niyuh am]iuv]N p]Ti}. eevkiy]l, apkT m]f[. |t[
me ByeTuuv]N Evi a pryut}. xtYh turu pryuu `u
m]zth. |niyuh Asu vkyu[. apkTh muil k[, zsic{u nIiy]l tIRuh
atien m]i `Tuuv]nuh k<iyuh.
|t[ axtYieyuh aDRieyuh yugm]f[. viEvk bui nsic{ O>u
xmUHm]f[ |[ cuuh vRu ek]i>iu t[. v]vm]y]^uh ae^}i^uh
xmUHin[ m]RdRsik] yi>iE p^>ueTyuh Ep>[ |[ kei>iuu.
DRi e n]sh xRv{zt zpkTm]yie]i>iuu. pE]<uh a u
Et]]ru[, nmu[ O>u vip}vh te xZS[TiEtu[. |vieT O>u zpyh v>fh.
atin[ 2000-]m]u v>utuh k]i >iuky} Evt[. A zpyh, |E]L |vieT
evc{[ \]kfh. O>u nimiSh kUTi am]iuv]N p]Ti}. pE, a pryu A
zpyh mnie zpym]f[. nmue}]h mnu[, pE, mnx]iyi}. atin]l
|o mnie sucIk>fm]f[ |] vsYh. Sim]R nmu[ kni u nlkiy
v>zpx]dm]f[ AI yt. atu[ s>iy]yi mni]iyie}il nueT jIvith
te |>uTt]kuh. |o xhx[]>h n]h EvviDh \L e]i} `il,
nueT jIvith nsic{tinu tu}Ym]f[. mric{[ AIyt ari[ anux>ic{[ jIvic{]l
nueT jIvith aR pURvuh xu>vuh AnpURvum]yi tI>uh.
atin]l |o AIytey jIvitil \>iec{TuEt[ `uek]uh
AvsYm]f[. DRm]ku nueT m]t]vin[ |[ HZEzd]gh b]Dic{i>iuu. `ztyuh
ep[ O]ErSN ecy[t[ E>]gh m]Etu[. at]f[ nueT kTm. atinu
zpti |u te mL `Tufh.
B]>th DRBUmi
DRem v]uc{>i]N te |[ jnL mTiuu. B]>th DRie
BUmiy]f[. A DRh vis]tyueT ttVm] f[; x[EnHie ttVm]f[. B]>tDRh
AnyueT p]dh Ep] ey]f[ `u[ pry]ru[. "AnyueT k]^[p]Tinuil me}]
mZgueT p]dvuh ek]uh. azt vut]ft[. atu Ep]e, xRv{tuh
\Le]uv]N t vis]m]yt]f[, xRv{tuh \L e] ttVm]f[
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1997 May
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1997 September
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1997October
gu>u
]nh
m]ztm^};
kRvum]f[.
aHyi^}]
kRh
ne
^YE]TTuiuh. nueT ek]c{u ek]c{u AzgH Luh t]^[>YLuh
Evi nueT vYitVe mu>Ti i]et gu>uvie |[ pURm]yuh
xmRifh. gu>u vie a>hg aBi^]Se pURIk>iuvn]f[ y] R
siSYN.
a>il
gu>usiSYbh
\Le]u
jIviuk
`t]f[
gu>upURimyueT xEsh.
me]f[ a mL[ \pEdsiEt[? `^}] muh a yueT cuuh |>iuu
`u xliuk.
`^}] mLuh ayueTv]t[x^Y \. . . . .
O]mn me.. . . .
a O]Tiv>uu.
(gu>upURim]dinil viEdsu niuh a mLu nlkiy xEsh.)
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1997 November
(O>u |hg}IS[ m]xikuEvi a
nlkiy aBimuKh)
Ec]dYh:
ayueT
jIvitie
xEsh `]f[ ?
a: ayueT jIvith
te
ayueT
xEsh.
at[
EHm]f[.
Ec]dYh:
ayueT x]mIpYil `]N k<iiuvRe^}]h,
ayueT x[EnHeuric{[ `zt pr]^uh mtiy]kui^}. |eten
x]Diuu?
a:- a ariuek][ Ae>yuh zpEtYkic{[x[EnHi]ri^}. x[EnHh
`t[ xhBviuky]f[. xV]B]vikm]yi aen AyiI>ut]f[. a[
Ae>yuh evruuv]n]vui^}. a[ O>u B]S m]ztem ariyukyuu. atu
x[EnHie B]Sy]f[. xk^Ruh mni^]ku B]Sy]ft[. |[ E^]kh
anuBviu
kTu
d]>izdYvuh
xV]Rtyi^}]
x[EnHinu
Eviyut]f[.
xk^>uh EHeuric{[ xhx]>i]ru[. p>x[p>h EHiut]yi
pry]rumu[. `]l |tien y]]REHemu pry]n]vi^}. |[ nL
x[EnHem[ vic]>iut[ xV]RtyueT m]^inYh k^Rt]f[. xVRh
pUsiy AB>fh Ep]e^y]ft[. afiy]N ek]]h. `]l m]i^}. vi^yi^}.
kUTutl ni^nilukyumi^}.
axuKh mU^h Asupztiyil ek]uEp]y O>u kuiyueT k pry]ru[.
Asupztiyil niuh ek]u Ep]>u xmyh kui aEn]T[ pryuky]f[
""a] avieTyu `^}}]vRuh `E]T[ `e]>u |S[Tm]efE]. an[
av>ueT aztyuh EHmuE]? aviTue EQ]k[TRuh En<[xinuh
aNQRuh v]c{[m]nuh Oe `e]>u EHm]f[. `E]T[ viEsSL
Ec]diuh. `e `^}] k]>Yuh zsiuh, SI[ vi>ic{u t>uh, AH]>h
xmyinu t>uh, v<e]uh pryi^}. `]l anuh ayuh `e
`zty]f[ Bu pryut[.'' |o xmyh En<[x[ O>u EpR ek]uv[ aen
~lic{u. |tu k mkN aet]ef[ Ec]dic{u. aN pru, ""atu nI
|E]L priE^} av>ueT EHeuric{[. A EHinu bi^}}]fit[.''
35
d>izde>yuh,
an]e>yuh
kUTut^]yi
1997 December
(O>u |hg}IS[ m]xikuEvi a nlkiy aBimuKh)
Ec]dYh: as>fe>yuh, d>izde>yuh, an]e>yuh a kUTut^]yi
x[EnHi]ruE]? *
a: Aien En]i x[EnHiuv]N ariyi^}. mu[ dIph etic{]l
avieTeyu `^}]vRuh O>uEp]e^ evic{h kiuh, y]et]>u ~urc{i^uh
\]vi^}. pE, v]ti^ukL aTc{u[ muriuil te |>u]l |>uil
k<iyuv]en x]DiU. avieTyi>uu ek][ evic{e p<i priu k]>Ymi^}.
evic{h Evfemil mnie v]ti^ukL tur[ purE[ v>uv]N
ty{]r]vfh.
xU>Ynu ku k]fuv]N em<ukuti>iyueT AvsYmi^}. ci^Ru[ |osV>N
mukie^vieTEy] |>iu AL Af[. A |osV>e zpIti]yi avR pfh
v]>iE]>i ci^vu ecy{uh. `]l
pfh ci^vu ecy[ttuek][ m]zth
|osV>zpIti EnT]n]vi^}. x]DuL[ Exv ecy{ut]f[ aviTuEu[ ~vuh
|S[Tm]y k]>Yh. Ek]Ti >Up[ ARB]Tm]yi \t[xvh nTutiEn]L kUTutl
aviTu[ zpItiyTyut[ O>u x]Duvien AsVxiiut[ k]fuE]<]f[. A
x]Duvie kI>u tuTuv]nu mnu k]fuE]<]f[, aenyu O>u mn[
`vieT k]^uh aviTuu[ avieT O]Ti vi>iuh. ~tu puemey]uh,
xVRxihH]xne]uh, Bgv]n[
|S[Tm]y |>iiTh k]>ufYh nir
mn]f[.
a mueT HZdyh m]ztem En]]ruu. xien uriEc{], Botik
cuup]TukeuriEc{] a cii]ri^}. s>iy]y O>uh te meuric{[
aen ciiuv]n]vi^}. `i^uh duKitn]y O>]L ayueT aTuu
v]l, ay]ueT duKil au[ k>uf Et]uh. ay]ueT duKh ayueT
duKm]yi au[ anuBveTuh. A duKitnu[ xm]sV]xEmkuv]N a Avtu
ecy{uh.
Ec]dYh: BRuEvi, |ztm]zth xmyh ec^v<iuE]L a[
Ifh Et]]riE^}?
a: EzpmmuiT[ Ifmi^}. te kuien t mfiUrukE]h `Tuu
ek]unTuu. kue]>u B]>m]yi tu Et]]ruE]?
Ec]dYh: a[ AdYk]^il D]>]h `tiRukL En>iETi
vt]yi pryuuE^}], atienuric{[ `]f[ pry]nut[?
a: at[ azt go>vmu k]>Ym]yi au[ Et]]ri^}. E^]kie xVB]vh
au[ ariy]m]yi>uu. ami[ ep]uh `riuek]u[ ni]l ewE
AvsYmi^}. kT^il nI]N pic{vn[ ti>kL[ nTuvi^uh nIi >xi]N
k<iyuu.
By[
t>ui^}.
E^]kie
xVB]vh
En>e
mni^]iyi>utuek][
`^}]
zptibuh
`il
Anh
\v]iyEtyuU.
avey]e
`iE^[
En]uv]nu
x]Hc>Yh
O>uuky]f[ ecy[tt[. `tiRu prvR `e k]Tiy]yiIRu. aen
m]ztEm
`nivey
k]f]N
k<iuu.
w]N
s>I>m]efu
ciiuE]<]fE^}] p>]tiyuh duKvuh v>ut[. A]vie E^]kil
duKinu x[]nmi^}. AxV>Upe ciic{E]L `niu mni^]yi, w]N
37
38
39
40
JANUARY 1998
Ec]dYh:
ayueT
Azsmil
Exvninu[
ve>Eyer
zp]D]nYh
nlkuuE^}].
s>iy]y
Avic]>inu[
kRh tTmE^}?
1998 FEBRUARY
Ec]dYh:- ayueT Azsmil Bi]Ef] zp]D]nYh? |o zp]Rnyuh muh
k]fuE]L O>u ES]Ep]e^ Et]uu.
a:- Em]n[ O>u k]muki \eu k>utuk, A k]mukiEy]T[ xhx]>iut[ Em]n[
O>u ES] AkuEm]? s>iy]y x[EnHmueil O>i^uh aen ciii^}.
`]l me]>uvn[ aet]>u ES] Ayi Et]]h. |tuEp]e^y]f[ |vieTyuh.
wLu[ |et]>i^uh O>u ES] a^}. wL[ aviTuE]Tu bm]f[
zp]Rn. zp]RnyueT O]E>] nimiSvuh wL anuBviut[ Anm]f[.
k]mukN k]mukiEy]T[ xhx]>ic{]^uh k]muki k]mukEn]T[ xhx]>ic{]^uh
avRtil An m]fu[. axhtZp[ti Et]ukyi^}. `zt mfiU r]y]^uh
vi>xt anuBveTi^}. |tuEp]e^yu O>u AxV]dnm]f[ zp]Rnyi^UeT
^Biut[.
zp]Rn `t[ s>iuh \ie^ k]mukiyum]yu xhB]Sfm]f[. nI
A]v]f[, nI O>i^uh duKiEvn^}, nI jIv]]v^}, p>m]]vute. nie
xV>Uph Anm]f[. |t]f[ zp]RnyueT aRh, a^}]et evruh p]<[v]uk^}
s>iy]y zp]Rn.
zp]Rnyuh
n]mxIRnvum]fu[
Em]N
Bi
`tuek][
\Esiuetil aet^}] mt i^uh k]fuv]N k<iyuh. mux}Ih mtil
zp]Rn yu[, nix[]>mu[. avR mey ^Ym]i yE^}, nix[>iut[?
zkiumti^uh zp]Rn yu[. avR zkiu>Upinu muiE^], kic{
em<ukuti>iu muiE^] Af[ zp]Riut[. eejnmti^uh, bumti^uh,
Hiumti^uh zp]Rnyu[. |o mtie^^}]h gu>usiSYb vumu[. p>>y]
zpv]cke> k]fuu[. atu te Biye^}? s]zL pic{vR Evd] tV
L mnnh ecy[t[ muE]u Ep]kuu. |tinu k<iyu t[ atiEn]Tu
Biek]E^}?
43
44
MARCH 1998
Ec]dYh:
muvR
et]]l
si
nS[Tm]kuh `uh muh
ci^R
pry]ruE^}].
|tu[
`ztm]zth
s>iy]fu[?
ek]Tufh, vzh a^i e]Tufh. psu, AT[, t]r]v[, Ek]<i mut^]yv yueT
`^}] k]>Yuh En]fh. dmyiyey suzsUSifh. psuvinu pu^}u
ek]uv>]N Ep]kfh. aien >]vie^ n]^umfi mutl p]ti >]v]kutuve>
O]E>]t>h Ej]^iyuu[. |et^}]h k]>fh kS[Tt `e[ ecruil te n]
yi mni^]]N k<iu. psuvin[ ek]Tu]nu cInie]^i EsK>iutin]yi
prupt[ vITuk il Ep]kfh. O>u vIil ec^}uE]L Bfh k<i
c{uek]i>iuu. aTu vIil ec^}uE]L avi eT k<i]N Ouh |^}. evruh
pifi. kuikL vis u tRu kiTuu. O>iTu[ kuikL zp]Riu uau dIRG]yuu kiEf `[. me]>u vIil ec]l mui[ pry]nut[
kS[T]Ti eyuh avgfnyueTyuh k m]zth. A>uh `e En]ui^}. Bfh
n]y[Lu ek]Tuutu Ep]e^y]f[ t>ut[. vzh k<uki>]N A>umi^}.
`^}]v>ueTyuh Auh t^}uh m]ztEmyuu.
jIvitk]^h mu<uvN mLu Evi kS[Teu. avRu Evi aV]nic{[
AE>]gYh nS[Tm]yi. `]l v]RkYie^i avs>]yi kiTu E]L
xH]yin]>umi^}. O>iu evh nlk]N A>umi^}. av>ueT kS[Tt ki[, a
Bfh vIil niuh `Tuu ek]uecu ek]Tuuh. p^ muim]>ueTyuh
k]>Yh |tuEp]e^te.
ac[Cnm]>ueT dIRG]yuinu Evi zp]Ric{ mL[, piITu[ kuTuhbvuh
b]Ytyuh vu EcR ]l, pie zp]yh ec avR O>u s^Ym]f[. `ienyuh
O<iv]yi kiiy]l mti `]f[. `e i^uh ki]nuei^E^} avR[ EHh
v>U. psu vien x[EnHiut[ p]^inu Eviy]f[. p]^i e^}il psuvien tuh.
E^]kie^ EHem^}]h xV]Rtu Eviy]fu[ `u mni^]yi.
vITinTu[
O>u
kumu]yi>uu.
a
vy]y
tm]e>
avieT
kUie]uv[ kuiiuh, vzh nnc{uek]Tuuh. vis[ k>yu kuike
`Tuu ek]uv[ vIil niuh Bfh ek]Tu uh. |et]uh an[
|S[Tm^}]yi>uu. "nI `i n]f[, |o mUe]^iic{uek]u nTu kil k
pi]e> `Tuu ek]uv>ut[' `uh pr[ v<u pryuh.
|o kS[TtkL Oe En>il k]f]N k<i ti^UeT jnueT jIvith
pi]N x]Dic{u.
Ax[pztiyil ec]l, E>]giyueT Ep>uh vyuh muh `<uti cIu v]fh.
m>uin[ kurie<uti y]l te v]]N pfh `vieT? atinuEp]^uh
eepxyi^}]et viSmiu x]Due a ki u[. au Ej]^iu Ep]yi,
kiu eepx ek][ kS[Tic{[ O]E>] divxvuh ti nIuv >]f[ |viTuk]R.
O>u divxh Ej]^iu Ep]yie^} il kuTuhbh mu<uifiyil te. O>u divxh
E>]gh vu[, kiT]y]l m>uinuh pfmi^} AH]> inuh pfmi^}. guik v]]N
pfmi^}]et Evdn ek]u puyuve> k]f]h. O>u guik k<ic{]l mti. ~t]nuh
minuukLek][ Evdn m]ruh. `]l atinuEp]^uh pfmi^}. atuek][ divxh
mu<uvN Evdnek]u kiTupiTyuu.
p>I[, Epru v]]N eepxyi^}]et, `zt Ey] kuikL k>yutu
kiu[. \Tuie bF Ep]yi[ pk>h v]i ev]N eepxyi^}]tin]l
muu kuie]]f[ p^>uh x[Uil Ep]ku t[. |o kS[Ttke]e En>il
k]f]nuh EkL ]nuh anuBvi]nuh au ecruil k<i i>uu.
E^]kie xVB]vh ariy]N k<iu. `iE^u En]]N at[ Ezp>f nlki.
E^]ki ^uet^}]h `e gu>uv]yi m]ri. O>u \ru]ef i^uh aete
gu>uv]f[. a[ avE>]eT]h viSmtkL pitu ek][ |uh x]Due
k]fuE]L, pry]et te av>ueT EvdnkL a[ mni^]]N puu. |[,
|EtEp]e^ kS[TtkkL anuBviu `ztEy] Auk]f[ aey k]f]N
v>ut[. xu mL vic]>ic{]l |o x]DuueT kS[T]TukL O>vuve>
p>iH>i]N k<iyuh. |vieT v>u pf]>u mE]T[ a |t]vRic{u
pry]ru[.
46
APRIL 1998
47
48
MAY 1998
Ec]dYh:
AY]ikm]Ri
l
gu>u
AvsY
m]efu pryuu.
ayueT
gu>u
A>]fu[?
50
June 1998
O]mn mE,
mil
p^>uh
ciiEc{]h
Azsmin[
Asupzti
nTE
AvsYem]f[
`[.
mE,
Bgv]N
te
DnV>mURiy]yi avt]>
emTuiie^}.
cikiXyuh
m>uuh
AvsYm]ef[
aviTu[
k]i>ikye^}
ecy[tt[. s>I>h ni^niR
Et[ AvsYm]ef]f[
s]zh
pryut[.
|tuve>yu mH]]ueT c>izth `Tuu En]iy]^uh |tu xtYm]ef[
k]fuv]N k<iyuh. >]mkZS[fEdvnuh viEvk]nnuh >mfmHRSiyuh `^}]h
te axuKh v xmyil cikiXic{iu[. w]N zbm]f[ s>I>m^}
`u
pruek][
cikiXi]ti>uii^}.
axuKh
s>I>ie
xVB]vm]ytin]l Ev cikiX ecy[t[ s>I>h ni^niRE t[ AvsYm]f[.
virkueiE^ tIyu]vukyuU. atu Ep]e^ A]vien ariyfemil
\p]Di
ni^nilEt[
AvsYm]f[.
atuek][
Asupztiyuh
cikiXyuem]uh AY]ikin[ vi>um^}. mric{[ A]vien ariyuti
nu \p]Diy]y |o s>I>e ni^niRuv]N avey]e xH]ykvum]f[.
aeytu evc{uek]u m]zth Azsmil vu nilu D]>]h
mu[. |NQYyi^uh viEdsuh \ mu[. aUil EQ]k[TRmuh
ve>yDikmu[. avR[ ayueT kUeT nilfh. `i^vRriy]vu
Exvnh ecy{]nvx>h O>uie]Tu]h `[ ayuh k>uti. k]>fh
|>upin]^u mfiUruh DY]ni]N k<ivuvR `zt Ep>u[? aE]L
DY]nEsSh `u ecy{uh? evruetyi>u]^uh mnil p^viD cikL
vuek]E yi>iuh. atuh kRh te. atuek][ ARuem]>u
gufvumi^}. `il eekk]^ukL ek][ `ei^uh ecy[t]l atu
E^]kin[ \pk]>zpdm]kumE^}].
tL[ Em]h m]zth mti, Ever]uh Ev. cikiXyuh Ev. E>]gh v[
m>iueil m>ie `[ pryuv>u] yi>iuh. pE, avRu[ mui
kifemi^uh
aviTue kZp EvfmE^}]. A kZpeyfemil
ak>fsui v>fh. atin[ niS[]mm]y kRm]f[ Evt[. atilUTi
y]f[ avR aviTue kZpRH>]kut[. aenyu niS[]mkRh
ecy{]N
Evieyi^uh
E>]gin[
Ev
cikiX
nlki
s>I>h
ni^niREt]vsYm]f[.
O>u n]fyie >uvsh Ep]e^y]f[ ]nvuh Biyuh. `]l kRh
atie muzdy]f[. ~tu n]fyi nuh muzdyueiE^ vi^yu]vukyuU.
Biyuh kRvuh O>u piyueT >u cirkuh ]nh atie v]^um]f[. |tu
mUumueiE^ \y>iE^[ atinu pruv]N k<iyU.
puh gu>uku^il siSYR Ej]^i ecy[ti>uu. `]l atien avR
kRm]yi^} ki>ut[; gu>uExvy]yi]f[. v]vil gu>uvin[ Evi
ecy{u kRh kRm^}; at[ DY]nh tey]f[. Azsme gu>uvie
s>I>m]yi[ Exv ecy{fh `u pryuh. piIT[ |o E^]kee
gu>us>I> m]yi k[ EHi]nuh Exvi]nuh k<iyfh. at]f[ y]R
DY]nh. A tVe viT]et x[m>iutu te DY]nh.
51
54
jMdin xEsh
EzpmxV>Upikuh
AxV>Upikuh
Ayi>iu
`^}]vRuh
nmx[k]>h.
me^}]v>uh mEy]Tuh \X]HE]Tuh kUTi
|vieT `iyi>iuky]f[. |o myuh
\X]Hvuh mueT jIvit il \TnIh
ni^niR]N
x]Dic{]l
`^}]h
mil
`iEc{ >uh. k]>fh myuh \X]Hvum]f[
jIvitvijyin[ AD]>h.
ci^>il \X]Hh k]f]N k<iyuh.
pe myu]ki^}. mu ci^R[
myu]yi>iuh. `]l, \X]Hh \]ki^}. ecru ]>]y mil
90
stm]nh \X]Hmuv>]f[. pe, av>il azt k[ m k]f]ri^}. `u
Ek]^uh `Tuu c]m]f[. m yi^}]tin]l, p^E]<uh \Esic{t[ EnT]N
Avui^}. atu Ep]e^ zp]ym]y mil, 60-70 vy]yv>il, Evzt m
k]fuh. avR jIvit]nuBvil ni[ myuh viEvkvuh bui yuh EnTi. pE,
\X]Hmi^}. k]>fh Ec]dic{]l pryuh, s>I>i e si nS[Tm]yi,
vic]>iutu Ep]e^ muE]u Ep]kuv]N pui^} `[. |t]f[ |u ku
v>ut[. `]l, nL O>u ek]c{u kuiyiE^u En]uk, kui[ \X]Hvuh
myumu[. kui `<uEl]N zsmiuu. vI<uu. vIuh zsmiuu vIuh
vI<uu. `]l avN zsmh \Epiui^}. EdHh muri]^uh kui zsmh viTui^}.
\X]Hvuh myuh eekviT]etyu zsm ie P^m]yi avn[ `<uEl]N
x]Diuu. kuinriy]h t]N mriu vIf]l >i]N a aTuue[.
murivu piy]^uh >h tuTc{[ m>uu ev]N ayu[ `[. te zsmil
xH]yi]N a aTuutin]l vijyh tIRc{y] efu suB]p[ti
visV]xvuh A kuinu[. myuh \X]H vuh suB]p[tivisV]xvuh - |tu
mUum]f[ nueT jIvitie mzm]Ekt[.
~tu >hguh visV]xikL vijyiutuh avisV]xikL t>utuh n]h
k]f]rut]f[.
O>u ec>uu kni vin]yi dUe> O>u zg]miE^[ >u Epe> ayc{u. atil
O>]L avieT `i ~t]nuh divxLu il kniey viv>h ariyic{u,
|vieTyuvR Adiv]xik]f[. avR[ ec>uieni y]et]>u Eb]Dvumi^}.
atin]l |vieT ec>u[ vin ax]Ym]f[. atuek][ w]nivieT niuh \TEn
ti>ic{u v>iky]f[. |Et xmyh mEy]L kniey viv>h ariyi c{tieny]f[,
|vieT Adiv]xik]f[. |vR[ ec>uieni y]et]>u Eb]Dvumi^}. |vR
eciyi^]f[ nTutuh kiTu tuh. Ev arivu pkR]l, D]>]h
ec>uukL vi<i]N x]Ytyu[. atin]l, O>u E^]Q[ ec>u[ \Ten ayuk.
|o suB]p[ti visV]xmuvN vijyiukyuh ecy[tu.
|osV>N nE]eT]mu[. aviTu[ ~tu zptixiyi^uh xH]yinu[
`e]>u visV]xh v]l, ~et]>u zptib Eyuh atijIvic{u muE]u
Ep]kuv]nu \fRv{uh \EMSvuh ni^u]kuh. vijyi]N k<iyuem suB]p[ti
visV]xh ne vik^ukyumi^}.
55
AUG 1998
nueT jIvith ku [ Ep] e^y]kfh `u pryuh. k]> fh, kin[ k]<[csi
zkme Tu]N k<iyuh. O>u vu dUe> y]efi^uh aTu]efi^uh k[
atinnuEy]jYm]yi k] <[c zkmeTuuh. atie P^ m]y]f[ nmuvey
k]fuv]N k<iyut[. atuEp]e^, jIvit il ~tu x]Hc>YE] Tuh
|fiE]k]N k<iyu O>u mnieny]f[ n]h vRi eyTuEt[. |tin[
k<iyut[ AY]ikh ariyuti^UeT y]f[. |o >Itiyil x]Hc>Y E]T[
|ffemil nu eT HZdyil s]iyu]k fh. s]iyu mniEn x]H
c>YE]T[ Ou Ep]kuv]N k<iyU. DY]nil niu[ m]ztEm s>iy]y s]i ^BiU.
ne]e |E]L anux >fyu O>u yzh Ep]e^ A yi>iuu. at^}
Evt[; viEvkvuh \fRv{uh \ mnu SYn]yiI>fh. a p^E ]<uh pry]ru[;
DY]nh xVRh Ep]e^ mU^Ymut]ef[. Bo tik e`sV>Yinuh, muiuh,
s]iuh DY]nh n^}t]f[. atin[ ec^v]u xmyh O>i ^uh nS[Tm^}.
x]D]>f jIvith Er]Qil UTi vi O]TiutuEp]e^ y]efil,
AY]ikjIvi th vim]nh prutuEp]e^ y]f[. k]>fh Er]QilUTi O] Tu
v]HnL[ BUmiyi^^}] et, ahEp]^uh \y>iE^u[ Ep]kuv]N x]Diui^}.
` ]l vim]nh, aeny^}, Er] QilUTi O]Ti \tiE^[ \y>uky]f[
ecy{ut[. \y> il ec^}uE]L ~tiEnyuh x]iy]yi vIiuv]nu si
nmu[ kiuh.
p^>uh pry]ru[, w]N a riuek][ O>u etuh |tuv e> ecy[tii^},
`iuh, |o k S[Ttey]e anuBviEiv E^}] `[. O>u k]>Yh tIRc{ y]f[,
nL ecy[t kRi e P^h m]ztEm nL anuB viuuU. atie P^h
O>i ^uh t]N k<iyi^}. Ayi> fin[ psuueT mYi E^[ O>u
psuiT]vien a<ic{u vi]^uh, at[ atie tyu eT aTu[ te eceuh.
avnvN ecy[t kRie P^h avnve aTul e veuh.
|osV>N Ae> yuh mnpURv{h sii]n]yi xZS[Tic{ii^}.
O>u kuTuhbil mUu kui ku]yi>uu. av>ueT m]t] pit]L m>ic{u. mUu
Ep>uh Qi zgi `Tuv>]f[. pE, Ej]^i ey]uh Ayi^}. av>ueT kS[T tyil
kniv[ Et]iy O>u pf ]>N ave> mUu Epe>yuh te vIiE^[ kUie]u
Ep]vukyuh, mUuEpRuh Ej] ^i ek]Tuukyuh ecy[tu. OE> Ej]^iy]f[ mU[
EpRuh nl kiyt[. atil O>]L Ej]^iyil |>uuek][ eekU^i v]] N
tuTi. m]EnjR p^ zp]v sYh t]Itu ecy[tu. ay]L anux>ic{i^}. avx]nh
57
58
exp[thbR 1998
ayueT
aTul
vivi
D
xVB]v]>]y `ztEy] AukL v>uu.
p^ kuTuhbzp s[nuh ni]>k]>YL
ek]
u]kut]f[.
ah
m
yueil, `ztEy] zps[n L nmu[
O<iv]]N k<iyuh. O>il, O>u B]>Yyuh
BR]vuh kUTi ayueT aTul vu.
B]>Y[ ci^ xmyil mni e xmni^
ah etuh. `e i^uh eTNSN
\]kuE]<] f[ |tu xhBviut[.
pie
avR
`]fu
pryuet[
avRu teyriyi^}. avR [ BR]vien v^iy EHvu m]f[. |tri[ a
A Em] En]T[ pru, Em]N kurec{]u zsic{]l mti. A Em]L `e i^uh
aviEvkm]yi pr]l UTi atie axuKh ek]] ef[ mni^]i Em]N
mi fh. zkEmf |o axuKh m]riiukyuh ecy{uh. pE, A Em]ntu
kU]iyi^}. "w] eninu viuek]Tufh? av L `e B]>YyE^}?' |t]f[ A
Em]e B]vh. |tie P^m]yi `u xhBvic{u? vIil sf[ kUTi. avR[ axuKh
vRi c{u. B]>Yey av>ueT vIuk]R kUie]uEp]yi. A Em]e jIvitm]ek
tkRu. mdYpn] yi. xu mu<uvN kuTic{utIR u. jIvith n>km]iIR u.
B]>YyueT axuKeu ric{[ mni^]i, atinnux>ic{[ mEy]eT, EHE]eT
ep>u m]riyi>uuevil |tu xhBvi i^}]yi>uu. atin]l mL, O]E>]
x]Hc>Yvuh mni^]i nIfh.
eviyil Ep]kuE]L avi eTyuvR Ec]di]ru[, B]>t il, zIke
aTimk]i vc{i>iukyE^} `[. a avE>]Tu pryuh, O>i^uh aeny^}.
B]>til B]>Y] BRZbh EHil ni uh \Te^Tut]f[. B]>Y[ mUu
gufL \]kfemu pryuh. tyueT B]vh, kUuk] >iyueT B]vh, B]>YyueT
B]vh. |o mUu B]vvuh avRu] kfh. B]>Y |Et Ak]vU `u[ nL
pry>ut[. pu>uS n]ku ecTic{iyil vRu vZm]k>ut[ zI. k]>fh
ecTic{iyie^ vZin[ v] En]h v>]N Avukyi^}. Ev >ukL a>i>i[
atien tRuky]f[. atil O>u ki i[ kUT[ ek]n]ki^}. atien] >u P^vuh
nlk]n]vi^}. ecTic{ iyil v>u ecTi duRb{^m] f[. `]l atiente mi
E^[ m]i nuEn]uk. atie vRc{yuh k<ivuh nmu[ k]fu v]N k<iyuh.
|tuEp]e^y]f[ zI duRb{ ^y]efu pryut[. av>il siyu[. atien
v>]N a nuvdic{]l mti. Ev>ru[ ecTi c{iyil Otu]et, atie s i
ke]N anuvdic{]l m]zth mti. zI, kuTuhbinuh xmUHinuh
>]Sz[Tinuh t f^]yiI>ut[ nmu[ k]fu v]N k<iyuh.
nL, O]yiI>fh. |o O>u B]vm]f[ nL vRE t[. jIvith
eekm]r]nut]f[. xVm]]nut^}. |t[ pryu E]L a O>u k O]Ruk
y]f[. O>u kuti>y]>nu ]yi>uu. atie^ zBmh ek] [ ay]ueT
bixine^}]h n S[Tm]yi. ay]L vIie^i B] >YEy]T[ pru `e bixin
e^}]h nS[Tm]yi. |ni nL `u ecy{uh? B]>Y pru | ni au[
kuti>yin[ Ep] Ek. \ pfh ek][ nmu u jIvi]h.
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