Allona G.

Reasol

November 28, 2014

Philo 15 YB

PHENOMENOLOGY OF TEMPTATION
Typically, parents always wanted the best for their children. They wanted them to grow
up as successful as they can be and live a life full of ease. Moreover, every parent dreams of
having the perfect son or daughter, the kind of which possesses traits likely responsibility, hard
work, compassion, good manners, tolerance, persistence, curiosity, obedience and more
importantly a religious faith.
This is likely what my parents and relatives sought me to be. I was raised by two
families, my biological family and my aunt & uncle which I also see as my second family. I was
the eldest, who I define the carrier of burdens, thats what I think of myself, well that whats
every eldest think, or so. Everybody expects more from me, like to excel in my studies and other
stuffs. So, I did what I can do best, be the good girl type, who always follow what my parents
tell me and have a good self-control. I was a product of ample expectations. My aunt, whom I
usually describe as prefect of discipline, wanted me to be woman of class, so she trained and
disciplined me, and now here I am.
And this is how my story starts, when I entered college, I never thought that it could be a
harsh world. Having to be mingle with people with a nature of different personalities. Right
before I entered college, I promised myself not to be tempted by temptation but it seems my
promised didnt last. As ignorant as I am, I havent tried a lot of things, like having a sleepover,
going out late at night and partying. Those things were new to me. As they say YOLO, you only
live once. Being so curious, one by one I unexpectedly did them. But those things are the stuffs
that my family hates me to do.
The first thing I did was having a sleepover at a friends house, it was something that I
have longed to experience, my parents didnt know about it as I kept it a secret, but secrets as
they are, they always find a way to be exposed. As expected they got mad and reprimanded me
not to do it again, and so I did. Everything was doing fine, until I did the other two things. Too
much temptations around me is the reason why I came to do those stuffs. Peer pressure also
contributed but mainly because of curiosity that leads to the eagerness to feel and experience

them. When my parents ask me why I have done those things, I would mainly answered,
Because I thought, that as I enter college I may freely explore and experience new and
interesting stuff, well thats what they told me, well not quite exact. They told me learn to be
independent and experience the real world well now that I have taken a glimpse of taste of it, it
seems like it was wrong.
I, getting all those harsh talks from my family of course with some little treats, got me to
stop and think. Realizing that the college is just an appetizer of the real world. It is where you
start to experience several temptations lurking around you, waiting. Everything, was a test, it
tests you how strong is your will on controlling yourself.
My primary reflection came when I realize that I am just a teenager, too curious and
ignorant. I can say that, I was just too eager to experience complete freedom and be on myself
because I was jealous of others being so free. I always asked myself, why? If they can do it then
you can. With this primary reflection, I felt an unexplainable feeling. A part of me was lost, the
real me. I never thought that I would turn out to be that kind of girl, I have lost control.
Further, I reflect and think of my previous actions, those comments from my parents
penetrated deeply to my heart and mind, realizing that I was wrong and they were right. I never
should have been impatient and wait for the right time. And that my father was right about one
thing Learn to say No just a word away and done. This leads to my secondary reflection, I was
too blinded by temptation, didnt know how to stop. I think of it an achievement but actually its
partly wrong. Now, that I have met the touch of losing self-control, I will slowly reclaim what I
was before and start anew. The world is so big and full of temptations, be careful of whats
around you because life is too short for to many mistakes. We shall have time to stop and think
of our actions before we do it. Temptation are always waiting, so be cautious not to be tricked.