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أﺣﻼم ﻣﺴﺘﻐﺎﻧﻤﻲ
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ﺩﺍﺭ ﺍﻵﺩﺍﺏ
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ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻭﻕ ﻤﺤﻔﻭﻅﺔ
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ﺍﻟﻁﺒﻌﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ
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ﺸﺒﺎﻁ )ﻓﺒﺭﺍﻴﺭ( 1976
ﻜﹸﺘﺒﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﺼﻭﺹ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﺘﻲ 1974 – 1973
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ﺇﻫﺪﺍﺀ
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ﻷﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﻤﻨﺤﻙ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ
ﺘﺫﻜﹼﺭﻱ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﺤﺒﻙ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ
ﺇﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻟﺨﺠل ,ﻭﺃﻜﺎﺩ ﺃﻁﻠﺏ ﻤﻨﻙ ﺍﻟﻌﻔﻭ
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ﺭﺴﺎﺌل
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ل ﺍﻷﺴﻤﺎﺀ...
ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺩﺍﺌﻲ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻤﻨﺤﻨﻲ ﻜ ّ
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ﺇﻻ ﺇﺴﻤﻪ!
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ﻲ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺀ؟
ﻤﻥ ﺃﻴﻥ ﻋﺎﺩ ﻭﺠﻬﻙ ﺇﻟ ّ
ل ﻭﺴﻁ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺯﻥ ﺍﻟﺨﺭﻴﻔﻲ
ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﻁ ّ
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ﺃﻜﺘﺏ ﺇﻟﻴﻙ ﻭﺨﻠﻑ ﺸﺒﺎﻜﻲ ﺘﺒﻜﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ .ﻭﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘﻲ ﺼﻭﺭ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﻟﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ
ﻜل ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺍﺴﻡ.
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ﺘﺼﻭّﺭﺕ ﻗﺒل ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻗﺩ ﺃﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻭل ﻤﻌﻙ.
ل ﺃﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻬﺎ ﻭﺤﺩﻱ.
ﻴﺒﺩﻭ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺴﺄﻅ ّ
ﻻ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺠﻭﺏ ﺸﻭﺍﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭﻴﺦ
ﺃﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﻭﺠﻬﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﺎﺌﻊ ﺍﻟﻤﻼﻤﺢ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺠﻭﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﻭﺍﺡ ﻭﺍﻟﻐﺭﺒﺎﺀ
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ﻓﻲ ﻭﺠﻭﻩ ﺍﻟﺜﻭﺍﺭ ﻭﺍﻟﺯﻋﻤﺎﺀ.
ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘﻲ ﻋﺸﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺭﺠﺎل ﻤﻥ ﻜل ﻗﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ.
ﺠﺴﺩﻱ ﻟﻡ ﺘﺒﻕ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻤﺴﺎﺤﺔ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﻟﻡ ﺘﺘﻤﺭﻍ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺸﻔﺎﻩ ﺭﺠل.
ott ﺘﻐﺭّﺒﺕ ﺒﻌﺩﻙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ
ﻓﻲ ﻏﺭﺒﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺭﻯ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺠﻤﻊ ﺃﺤﺯﺍﻨﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜﻔﻴﻙ ﻭﺍﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺠﺯﺓ.
ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺴﺭﻕ ﻤﻨﻙ ﻗﺒﻠﺔ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺴﻴﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺩﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﻤﻊ ﻏﻴﺭﻙ.
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ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺴﻠل ﻤﻌﻙ ﻨﺤﻭ ﻋﻨﺏ ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻴل ..ﺃﻥ ﺃﺯﺤﻑ ﻤﻌﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ
ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺒﺔ.
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ﻭﺃﺴﻘﻁ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺠﻭﺍﺭﻙ ﻤﺘﻌﺒﺔ.
ﺃﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﻟﻘﻠﺒﻙ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻨﻲ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺨﻑ ﺍﻟﺤﻤل!
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ل ﺍﻷﺤﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺘﻜﺘﻤل؟
ﺃﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺤﻘﻕ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻜ ّ
ﻜﻡ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺤﺯﻴﻨﺔ ﺒﻌﺩﻙ
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ﻭﻟﻜﻥ ﺼﻭﺭﺘﻙ ﻭﺤﺩﻫﺎ ﺴﺎﻓﺭﺕ ﻭﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﻤﻌﻲ
ﺼﻭﺭﺘﻙ ﻭﺤﺩﻫﺎ ﻨﺎﻤﺕ ﻤﻌﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻨﺎﺩﻕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ
ﻭﺸﻔﺘﺎﻙ ﻭﺤﺩﻫﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﺘﺎﻥ ﺃﺭﺘﻌﺵ ﻟﻬﻤﺎ ﺠﺴﺩﻱ
ﺫﺍﺕ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺘﺎﻨﻲ ﺼﻭﺘﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺒﻌﻴﺩ
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ﻜﻨﺕ ﺴﺎﺌﺤﺔ ﻏﺭﻴﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺒﻠﺩ ﻏﺭﻴﺏ
ﺤﺎﻭﻟﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺭﺍﻙ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺘﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ
ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺤﻴﻔﺎ ﻤﺎﻁﺭﺓ ..ﻭﻟﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ
ott ﻓﺤﺴﺩﺘﻙ.
ﺃﻴﻠﻭل 1973
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ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺘﻌﺒﺔ
ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﻐﻠﻕ ﻜل ﺍﻷﺒﻭﺍﺏ
ﺃﺭﺘﺩﻱ ﺃﺤﻠﻰ ﻓﺴﺎﺘﻴﻨﻲ ﻭﺃﺠﻠﺱ ﻷﻜﺘﺏ ﺇﻟﻴﻙ
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ﺘﺘﺤﺩّﺙ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ ﺁﺨﺭ ﺍﻷﺨﺒﺎﺭ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻠﻭﻤﺘﺭ 101
ﻼ ﻋﻥ ﺭﻗﻡ ﻟﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﺩﺍﺀ
ﻴﺘﺤﺩّﺜﻭﻥ ﻁﻭﻴ ﹰ
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ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺀ ﻴﻐﻠﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺭﺠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺌﺔ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺃﻏﻠﻲ ﺒﺩﺭﺠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺌﺔ ﻭﻭﺍﺤﺩ.
ﺴﺄﺨﻠﻊ ﺃﺤﻠﻰ ﻓﺴﺎﺘﻴﻨﻲ ﻭﺃﻜﺘﺏ ﺇﻟﻴﻙ ﻋﺎﺭﻴﺔ
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ﺴﻌﺩﺍﺀ ﺃﻭﻟﺌﻙ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﻤﺎﺘﻭﺍ ﻭﻫﻡ ﻴﻌﺘﻘﻭﻥ ﺍﻨﻬﻡ ﺘﺠﺎﻭﺯﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﺌﺔ ﻭﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻭﻤﻨﺤﻭﻨﺎ
ﺭﻗﻤﹰﺎ ﻤﻁﻠﻘﹰﺎ
ﺴﺄﻜﺘﺏ ﺸﻴﺌﹰﺎ ﻋﻅﻴﻤﹰﺎ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺀ
ﻅﺭﻭﻓﻲ ﺘﺴﺎﻋﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﻭﻥ
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ل ﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺒﺤﻜﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ
ﻻ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺸﺘﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﺠﺭﻴﺩﺓ ﻜ ّ
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ﻻ ﺯﺍﻟﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻫﺭﺓ ﺘﺘﺭﺩّﺩ ﻭﺒﻐﺩﺍﺩ ﺘﺭﻓﺽ ﻭﺩﻤﺸﻕ ﺘﻘﺎﻭﻡ ﻭﻋﻤّﺎﻥ ﺘﺘﻔﺭّﺝ
ﻭﺒﻴﺭﻭﺕ ﺘﺭﻗﺹ
ﻭﻻ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﻜﺘﺏ ﺇﻟﻴﻙ ﻋﺎﺭﻴﺔ
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ﺃﻜﺘﻭﺒﺭ 1973
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ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺀ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻏﺎﺩﺭ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻤﻌﺔ ,ﺠﺭّﺘﻨﻲ ﻤﻅﺎﻫﺭﺓ ﻁﻼﺒﻴّﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺸﺎﺭﻉ
ﺍﻟﻌﺭﺒﻲ ﺒﻥ ﻤﻬﻴﺩﻱ.
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ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺤﺎﺠﺔ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼﺭﺥ ..ﺤﺘﻰ ﻴﻐﻤﻰ ﻋﻠ ّ
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ﺘﺫﻜﺭﺕ ﺃﺤﺩ ﺍﻷﺤﻼﻡ ,ﺘﻤﻨﻴﺕ ﻟﻭ ﻨﺯل ﻟﺤﻅﺘﻬﺎ ﻤﺌﺔ ﻤﻠﻴﻭﻥ ﻋﺭﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻰ
ﺍﻟﺸﻭﺍﺭﻉ ,ﻟﻭ ﺯﺤﻑ ﻤﻼﻴﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻨﺤﻭ ﻜﺭﺍﺴﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﻭﻨﺔ.
ﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﺒﻴّﺔ ﻨﹸﺴﻔﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻟﺤﻅﺔ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ
ﻟﻭ ﺃ ّ
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ﻟﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭﻴﺦ ﺒﺩﺃ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﺩﺍﺀ
ﻟﻭﻤﺜﻠﻬﻡ ﻗﻠﻨﺎ )ﻻ(
ﻭﻟﻜﻥ ..ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﻫﺘﻑ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﺸﺒﺎﺏ
ott )ﺒﺎﻟﺭﻭﺡ ..ﺒﺎﻟﺩﻡ ..ﺤﻨﻜﻤل ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻭﺍﺭ(
ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺒﻜﻲ
ﺃﻜﺘﻭﺒﺭ
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ﻭﺍﻟﺸﻌﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻬﻡ..
ﻭﻜﺜﺭﺕ ﺍﻷﻭﺴﻤﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﺩﻭﺭ
ﺩﻴﺴﻤﺒﺭ
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ﺃﺴﺄل ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﻴﻥ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ..
ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺘﺫﻜﺭﺕ ﺁﺨﺭ ﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﺎﻟﺨﻭﻑ ﻋﻠﻴﻙ
ott ﺃﻋﻴﺩ ﻗﺭﺍﺀﺓ ﺭﺴﺎﻟﺘﻙ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩﺓ
ﺍﺘﻭﻗﹼﻑ ﻋﻨﺩ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻠﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ )ﺃﻨﺕ ﻤﻔﺎﺠﺄﺓ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ,ﺸﻌﺭﻙ ﺍﻷﺴﻭﺩ ﺒﻘﺩﺭ ﺤﻘﺩﻱ
ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭﻴﺨﻲ ﻴﺸﻜﹼل ﻫﺎﻟﺔ ﻗﺩﺴﻴّﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﻼﻤﺤﻙ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴّﺔ(.
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ﺕ ﻟﻭ ﺃﻨﺘﻤﻴﺕ ﺍﻟﻴﻙ
ﺘﻤﻨﻴ ﹸ
ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻱ ﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﺔ
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ﺨﻔﺕ ﺃﻻ ﺃﻨﺘﻤﻲ ﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﺒﻌﺩﻙ
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ﻜﻨﺕ ﺘﻤﺜل ﻋﻨﺩﻱ ﻗﻤّﺔ ﺍﻟﺭﻓﺽ ﻭﺍﻟﺜﻭﺭﺓ ,ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﺸﻲﺀ
ﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻲ
ﻭﻟﻜﻥ ﺨﺭﺠﻨﺎ
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ﻜﻨﺕ ﺘﻘﻭل" :ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻴﻀﹰﺎ ..ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻫﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻨﺘﻤﻲ ﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﻟﻬﺫﺍ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ
ﺃﺭﺤل".
ﺴﺄﻟﺘﻙ:
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ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺘﺤﺭ ﺭﺴّﺎﻤﹰﺎ ﻤﻐﺭﺒ ّﻴﹰﺎ ﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﻴﻭﻗﹼﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻟﻭﺤﺔ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ ﺘﻭﻗﻴﻌﹰﺎ ﺤﺯﻴﻨﹰﺎ,
ﻓﺄﻨﺘﺤﺭ.
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ﻜﺎﻥ ﻁﻴﺒﹰﺎ.
ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻟﻪ ﻤﻥ ﻫﻭﺍﻴﺔ ﻋﺩﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻔﹼﺱ.
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ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﻥ ﺨﻁﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻔﺱ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﺒﺩﺃ ﻫﻭﺍﻴﺔ ﻭﻴﺘﺤﻭّل ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻤﺒﺩﺃ.
ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ,ﻓﺄﻟﻘﻭﺍ ﺒﺎﻟﻐﺎﺯﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻤّﺔ ,ﻤﻸﻭﺍ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺩ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺏ
ﻭﻫﺎﺠﺭ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﻥ ﻴﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻭﻜﺴﺠﻴﻥ.
ﺠﺎﺀﻨﺎ ..ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻤﺎ ﺍﺴﺘﻁﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ.
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ﻓﻘﺩ ﺃﻜﺘﺸﻑ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺃﻨﹼﻪ ﻨﺴﻲ ﺭﺌﺘﻴﻪ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ
ﻓﺄﻨﺘﺤﺭ.
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ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻴﻤﺭﻭﻥ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻲ ﻤﺴﺭﻋﻴﻥ
ﺒﻌﻀﻬﻡ ﻴﺠﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﺸﻭﺍﺭﻉ ﺒﻼ ﻫﺩﻑ .ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺴﻴﺭ ﺒﻴﻨﻬﻡ.
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ﺤﻠﹼﺕ(.
ﻻ .ﺃﻥ
ل ﻗﻀﺎﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻫﻴﺭ ﺃﻭ ﹰ
ﻗﻠﺕ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻟﺼﺩﻴﻕ ,ﻓﺄﺠﺎﺒﻨﻲ :ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺤ ّ
ﻨﺠﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﺘﺸﺒﻊ ,ﺘﺤﺘﻤﻲ ﺒﺴﻘﻑ ,ﻭﺘﻠﺒﺱ ,ﻭﺘﺤﻠﻡ .ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻫﺎ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻴﺼﺒﺢ ﺒﺈﻤﻜﺎﻨﻬﺎ
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ﻻ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻓﺎﻥ!
ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻻ ﻴﺤﺘﻤﻲ ﺒﻤﻅﻠﹼﺔ ﻋﻨﺩ ﺴﻘﻭﻁ ﺍﻟﻤﻁﺭ؟ ﻟﻨﺨﺭﺠﻪ ﺃﻭ ﹰ
ﻋﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻤﻌﺔ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺨﻴّل ﻜﻤﻴّﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﻐﺭﻗﻨﺎ
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ﻴﻭﻤﻴﹰﺎ.
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ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﻨﻔﺘﺭﻕ "ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﻜل ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻲ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺸﻬﺩﺍﺀ ﻭﻤﺴﺎﺠﻴﻥ
ﻭﻤﻨﺘﺤﺭﻴﻥ ,ﻭﺤﺩﻱ ﺭﻓﻀﺘﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺠﻭﻥ ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻟﻲ ﻤﻭﻋﺩ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺕ ﻟﻡ
ﻴﺤﻀﺭ".
ﺕ:
ﻋﻠﹼﻘ ﹶ
-ﻟﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻨﻲ ﻓﺩﺍﺌﻴّﺔ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﺤﺒﻴﻨﻪ
ﻭﺃﻓﺘﺭﻗﻨﺎ.
ﻤ ّﺭ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻠﻘﺎﺀ .ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻕ.
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ﻭﻻ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺴﺄل ﻋﻨﻙ ﺍﻟﺭﻓﺎﻕ .ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻷﻗﻭل ﻟﻙ ﻓﻘﻁ ,ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺤﺒّﻪ.
ﻗﻠﺕ ﻷﺤﺩﺍﻫﻥ ,ﺃﻨﹼﻙ ﻓﺩﺍﺌﻲ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺘﺤﻀﺭ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﺯﺍﺌﺭ ﻜﻲ ﺘﻘﻴﻡ ﺒﻴﻨﻨﺎ.
ﻀﺤﻜﺕ ,ﻷﻨﹼﻬﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺘﺘﺼﻭّﺭ ﻓﺩﺍﺌّﻴﹰﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺴﺎﻤﺘﻙ .ﺭﺒّﻤﺎ ﻟﻡ ﺘﺼﺩﻗﻨﻲ.
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ﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺭﺏ ﺨﻠﻘﺕ
ﺃﻅﻨﹼﻬﺎ ﺘﺄﺜﹼﺭﺕ ﺒـ)ﺠﻤﻬﻭﺭﻴﺔ( ﺃﻓﻼﻁﻭﻥ ..ﻓﻬﻲ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺃ ّ
ﻟﺘﺨﻠﹼﺹ ﺍﻟﺒﺸﺭﻴﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﺤﻴﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺭﻀﻰ ﻭﻀﻌﺎﻑ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﻴّﺔ.
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ﻥ ﺸﻲ ﻏﻴﻔﺎﺭﺍ ﺃﻴﻀﹰﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻭﺴﻴﻤﹰﺎ ,ﻭﺃ ﹼﻨﻪ ﻟﻭ ﻋﻤل ﻓﻲ
ﻨﺠﺤﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻋﻬﺎ ﺒﺄ ّ
ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻟﺤﻁﻡ ﺃﺴﻁﻭﺭﺓ ﻋﻤﺭ ﺍﻟﺸﺭﻴﻑ.
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ل ﺠﺎﺫﺒﻴﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺠﻭﺭﺠﻴﻨﺎ ﺭﺯﻕ.
ﻥ ﻟﻴﻠﻰ ﺨﺎﻟﺩ ﻟﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﺃﻗ ّ
ﻭﺃ ّ
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ﺠﺩﻴﺩ .ﻭﺃﺭﻗﺎﻤﹰﺎ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺠﻨﻭﻨﹰﺎ ﺘﺩﻓﻌﻬﺎ ﻤﺩﺍﻡ ﺃﻭﻨﺎﺴﻴﺱ ﺃﺭﻤﻠﺔ ﻜﻴﻨﻴﺩﻱ ﺴﺎﺒﻘﹰﺎ
ﻭﺃﺭﻤﻠﺔ ﺃﻭﻨﺎﺴﻴﺱ ﺤﺩﻴﺜﹰﺎ ﻜﻲ ﻨﻅل ﺃﻨﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﺒﺸﺭﺘﻬﺎ ﻨﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﻭﻴﺒﺩﻭ ﻓﻤﻬﺎ
ﺃﻗل ﺇﺘﺴﺎﻋﹰﺎ .ﻭﻤﺒﺎﻟﻎ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﻻ ﺘﻘل ﺠﻨﻭﻨﹰﺎ ﺘﺩﻓﻌﻬﺎ ﺃﻤﻴﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﺭﺒﻴّﺎﺕ ﻭﺯﻭﺠﺎﺕ
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ﺒﻁﺎﻗﺔ ﻋﺎﺩﻴّﺔ
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ﺍﺸﺘﻘﺕ ﺇﻟﻴﻙ
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ﺘﺩﻓﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻓﺭﺍﺡ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﺇﻟﻴﻙ
ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ ﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﻋﻴﺩ ,ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺃﺨﺎﻑ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺡ
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ﻷﻨﻨﺎ ﻨﺼﺒﺢ ﺃﻨﺎﻨﻴّﻴﻥ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻨﻔﺭﺡ
ل ﻤﻌﻙ
ﻼ ﻜﻲ ﺃﻅ ّ
ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺤﺯﻥ ﻗﻠﻴ ﹰ
ﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺡ ﻻ ﻴﻠﻬﻤﻨﻲ
ﺜ ّﻡ ﺇ ّ
ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﺘﺏ ﺸﻴﺌﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺭﻕ ﻤﺩﺭﺴﻲ
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ﺃﻜﺭﻩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺭﻙ ﻜﻠﻤﺎﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﻁﺎﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻭﺭﺩﺓ ﻟﻸﻋﻴﺎﺩ
ﺃﺸﻜﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺤﺔ ..ﺘﻌﻤّﻕ ﺤﺯﻨﻲ.
***
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ﻟﻭ ﻜﺘﺒﺕ ﻟﻙ ﺒﻁﺎﻗﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﻟﻘﻠﺕ:
"ﻷﻨﻙ...
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ﻭﻷﻨﹼﻨﻲ...
ﺃﺘﻤﻨﹼﻰ ﺃﻥ"...
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ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻻ ﺒ ّﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻤﻸ ﺃﻨﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ..
ﻥ ﻤﻬﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺭﺠل ﻤلﺀ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ
ﺃﺅﻤﻥ ﺃ ّ
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ﻲ
ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ ﺍﻷﺭﻀ ّ
ﻲ
ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ ﺍﻟﻜﻭﻨ ّ
ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠﺏ ﺇﻤﺭﺃﺓ
ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﻍ ﻓﻲ ﺠﺴﻤﻬﺎ
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***
ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻤﺘﻠﻰﺀ ﺒﻙ..
ﻴﻭﻡ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻭﻀﻌﺕ ﺤ ّﺩﹰﺍ ﻟﻠﺤﺯﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻟﻡ
ott ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺠﻤﻊ ﺼﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﺩﺍﺀ
ﻴﻭﻡ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻫﺫﺍ ..ﻗﻠﺕ ﺃﻨﻙ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﻤﺘﻼﻜﻲ
ﺍﻵﻥ ﺘﺭﺤل.
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ﺍﻵﻥ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﻌﻭّﺩ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﻭﻑ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺭﺼﻔﺔ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ
ﺴﺄﺫﻜﺭﻙ
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ﺘﻌﻠﹼﻤﺕ ﻤﻌﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻭﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺘﻲ
ﺏ ﺍﻟﺒﺴﻁﺎﺀ
ﺃﻥ ﺃﺤ ّ
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ﺏ ﺨﺭﻴﻁﺔ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻭﻁﻥ
ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺘ ّ
ﻑ ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺭﺍﺀ
ﻭﺃﻗﻑ ﻓﻲ ﺼ ﹼ
ﺩﻴﺴﻤﺒﺭ 1974
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ﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﻭﺯﻭﻨﺔ
ﻷﺭﺽ ﺃﻓﻘﺩﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻹﺘﺯﺍﻥ
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ﺍﻟﻤﺫﻜﹼﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ:
ott ﺇﻨﻔﺠﺭﻱ ﻴﺎ ﺨﺎﺭﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻬﺎﺭ
ﺍﻨﺴﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻀﺎﺭﻴﺱ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﻜﻴّﺔ ,ﻭﺤﻁﹼﻤﻲ ﻜﺭﺍﺴﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺭﺘﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻭﺭﺩ
ﺇﻓﺘﺤﻲ ﺃﺒﻭﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﺸﺩﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺠﻭﻥ
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ﺩﻋﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﺌﻌﺔ ﺘﺸﺒﻊ
ﻭﺩﻋﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺭﺍﺀ ﻴﻤﻸﻭﻥ ﺠﻴﻭﺒﻬﻡ ﺸﻤﺴﹰﺎ
ﺍﺒﻌﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻼﺀ ﻋﻥ ﻤﺴﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻤﺭﺩﻴﻥ
ﻓﺄﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻻﻗﺯﺍﻡ ﻟﻡ ﺘﺨﻠﻕ ﻟﺘﻭﺍﻜﺏ ﺍﻟﺜﻭّﺍﺭ
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ﺍﻨﺴﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺩﻭﺩ ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﺭﻙ ,ﻭﻟﺘﺤﺭﻕ ﺘﺄﺸﻴﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺩﺨﻭل ﻭﺍﻟﺨﺭﻭﺝ
ﻓﻨﺤﻥ ﺤﻭﻟﻙ
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ﻨﻁﻭّﻗﻙ ﺒﺈﺴﻡ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺠﺎﺅﻭﺍ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻨﺩﻙ ﻻﺠﺌﻴﻥ
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ﻨﺤﻥ ﻫﻨﺎ
ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻨﹼﺎ ﻤﻭﺯّﻉ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺃﻗﺒﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺴﻴّﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﻜﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺴﻜﺭﻴّﺔ
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ﺃﺒﻁﺎﻟﻨﺎ ﻻ ﻴﺼﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺠﻭﻥ ﻷﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﻤﻭﺘﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺫﻴﺏ
ﻭﻟﻜﻥ ﺜﻭﺭﺘﻨﺎ ﻟﻥ ﺘﻬﺩﺃ
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ﻭﻨﻬﺭ ﺍﻷﺭﺩﻥ ﻟﻥ ﻴﺴﺘﺭﻴﺢ
ﺤﻴﻥ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺭﺍﺌﺤﺔ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻋﻁﺭﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀل
ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﻟﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﺭﺍﺏ ﺃﺠﻤل ﻤﻥ ﻟﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻭﻥ
ﻭﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻜل ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻕ ﺘﺅﺩّﻱ ﺇﻟﻴﻙ
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ﺍﻟﻤﺫﹼﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ:
ﺕ ﺸﻬﻴّﺔ ﻜﺎﻟﺤﺯﻥ
ﺤﻴﻥ ﺃﺼﺒﺤ ِ
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ﻜﺎﻟﻔﺭﺡ ﺍﻟﻤﺅﻗﺕ
ﻜﺎﻟﺠﻨﻭﻥ
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ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻘﺎﻋﺩﻭﻥ
ﺍﺘﹼﻬﻡ ﺒﺎﻟﺠﻨﻭﻥ ..ﻷﻨﹼﻪ ﺃﺤﺭﻕ ﺤﺒﻴﺒﺘﻪ
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ﻤﻥ ﺴﻨﻴﻥ ﺃﻨﺎﻡ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﻠﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺘﻴﻘﻅ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻬﻴﺏ
ﺃﻗﺭﺃ ﻜل ﺼﺤﻔﻙ ﺒﻜل ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ
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ﺃﻗﺭﺃ ﻋﻨﺎﻭﻴﻨﻙ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺭﺍﺀ ..ﻭﻋﻨﺎﻭﻴﻨﻙ ﺍﻟﺴﻭﺩﺍﺀ
ﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺍﺕ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﻷﺤﻴﺎﺀ
ﺍﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻨ ِ
ﻓﻼ ﺃﺠﺩﻙ ﻫﻨﺎ ,ﻭﻻ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ
* * *
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ﺫﺍﺕ ﻤﺭّﺓ ﻟﻘﻴﺘﻙ ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻲ )ﺒﺭﻟﻴﻥ( ..ﺴﺎﺌﺤﺔ ﺤﺯﻴﻨﺔ
ott
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ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺭﻓﻴﻘﺘﻲ ﻤﻥ )ﺒﻭﺭﺘﻭﺭﻴﻜﻭ( ﺘﺤﺩﺜﻨﻲ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻁﺎﺭﺩﺍﺕ
ﺍﻟﺒﻭﻟﻴﺴﻴﺔ ,ﻭﺘﻜﺸﻑ ﻟﻠﻁﺒﻴﺏ ﻋﻥ ﺁﺜﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻀﺭﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺠﺴﺩﻫﺎ..
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ﻙ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﺒﺔ
ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺭﺤل ﻨﺤﻭ ﻤﻼﻤﺤ ِ
ﻙ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﻻ ﺘﺯﺍل ﻋﻴﻭﻨﻬﻡ ﻤﻔﺘﻭﺤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺭﻑ
ﺃﻏﻤﺽ ﻋﻴﻭﻥ ﻤﻭﺘﺎ ِ
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ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺫﻴﺏ ,ﻭﺃﺠﻤﻊ ﺭﺅﻭﺱ ﺭﻓﺎﻗﻲ ﻤﻥ ﺴﺎﺤﺎﺕ ﺍﻹﻋﺩﺍﻡ
ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺽ ﻴﺘﺎﺠﺭ ﺒﻠﺤﻴﺔ )ﺸﻲ ﻏﻴﻔﺎﺭﺍ( ﻭﺘﺴﺭﻴﺤﺔ )ﺍﻨﺠﻼ(
ﻭﺤﻁﺔ )ﻟﻴﻠﻰ ﺨﺎﻟﺩ(
ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻟﺜﻭﺭﺓ ﻟﻘﺒﹰﺎ ﻴﺸﺘﺭﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﺼﻴﻑ
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ﻜﻨﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻭﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺒﺎﻉ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺯﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻨﻲ
ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﺭﺨﺹ ﻤﻥ ﺴﻴﺠﺎﺭ )ﺸﺭﺸل( ﻭﺤﻠﻲ )ﻤﺎﺭﻱ ﺍﻨﻁﻭﺍﻨﻴﺕ(
ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺀ ﻜﺘﺒﺕ ﻟﻙ ﺨﻁﺎﺒﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺤﺩ ﻤﺴﺘﺸﻔﻴﺎﺕ ﺒﺭﻟﻴﻥ
ott ﻻ ﺃﺫﻜﺭ ﻤﺎ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻙ ﻓﻴﻪ
ﻓﻘﺩ ﺍﻓﻘﺩﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺯﻥ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘﻲ
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ﺍﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺃﻀﻴﻊ ﻤﻜﺎﻨﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺨﺭﻴﻁﺔ
ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻤﻭﺴﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺭﺤﺎل
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ﺘﻬﺎﺠﺭ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﻭﺭ ﻨﺤﻭ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ
ﻭﺘﻌﻭﺩ ﺍﻷﺴﻤﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻷﻡ
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ﻭﺘﺭﺠﻊ ﺍﻷﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺭ
ﻭﻴﺘﺒﺨﺭ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺀ ﻋﺎﺌﺩﹰﺍ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ
ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺍﻥ ﺃﻨﺴﺎﻙ ,ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻤﻭﺴﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺭﺤﺎل
ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺭﺤﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺌﻨﺎﺕ ﻨﺤﻭ ﺤﻀﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﻭل
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ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻟﺤﻨﻴﻥ ﺇﻟﻴﻙ ,ﻓﺄﻨﺕ ﺤﻀﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ
ﺍﻟﺤﻀﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻭﻫﺒﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻭﻟﻡ ﻴﺤﻀﻨﻲ ﺒﻌﺩﻫﺎ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ
ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺃ ،ﺃﻋﻭﺩ ﻨﺤﻭﻙ ﻤﻊ ﻤﻭﺍﻜﺏ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺌﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﺎﺠﺭﺓ
ott ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻗﻊ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼل ﺇﻟﻴﻙ
ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻟﺤﺩﻭﺩ ﺒﻴﻨﻨﺎ ..ﻭﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﺭﻙ
ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺴﺎﻓﺭ ﻨﺤﻭﻙ ﻭﻤﻼﻤﺤﻙ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺃﺸﻴﺎﺌﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ
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ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻙ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻯ ﻴﺨﺒﺄ
ﻼ ﺒﻙ..
ﻜﻨﺕ ﺤﺎﻤ ﹰ
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ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺤﺯﻨﻲ ﻗﺩ ﺠﺎﻭﺯ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺴﻊ
ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﺤﺠﺯﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻜل ﺠﻤﺎﺭﻙ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ,ﻭﻗﻀﻴﺕ ﻋﻤﺭﻱ ﻓﻲ
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ﻤﺤﻁﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻁﺎﺭ..
ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ,
ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻏﻀﺏ ﻭﺍﻋﺭﺽ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻱ ﻤﻥ ﻤﻼﻤﺤﻙ ﻟﻠﺒﻴﻊ
ﺍﻋﺭﻀﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻭّﺍﺡ ﻋﺴﻰ ﺃﺤﺩﻫﻡ ﻴﺨﻠﹼﺼﻨﻲ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻤﻠﻙ
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ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻡ ﻻ ﻴﺘﻭﻗﻔﻭﻥ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﺠﻤﻴﻌﻬﻡ ﻤﺴﺭﻋﻭﻥ ﻨﺤﻭ ﺍﻟﺤﻀﻥ ﺍﻷﻭل
ﺒﺎﻷﻤﺱ ﻋﺭﻀﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ )ﺍﻟﻬﻴﺒﻴﻴﻥ( ﺃﻥ ﻴﺄﺨﺫﻙ ﻫﺩﻴﺔ
ﻤﻨﹼﻲ..
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ﻼ ﻴﺭﺒﻁ ﺤﻭل ﺍﻟﺭﺃﺱ
ﺴﺄﻟﻨﻲ ﺍﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺯﻫﺭﺓ ..ﺃﻭ ﻤﻨﺩﻴ ﹰ
ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻪ ﺍﻨﻙ ﻤﻌﻁﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ
ﻓﻘﺎل ﻟﻲ :ﻨﺤﻥ ﻗﻠﹼﻤﺎ ﻨﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻟﺒﺭﺩ
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ﺍﻟﻤﺫﹼﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺭﺍﺒﻌﺔ:
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ﺃﻜﺭﻩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻲ ﺒﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻨﺸﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﺨﺒﺎﺭ
ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺃﻜﺭﻩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺴﻤﻌﻙ ﺘﻨﺘﺤﺭﻴﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺍﺝ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﻴﻠﺔ
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ﻭﺍﻟﻘﺼﻴﺭﺓ
ﻭﺠﻬﻙ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻭّﻩ ﻻ ﻴﺨﻴﻔﻨﻲ
ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻋﻨﻙ
ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻋﻀﺎﺀﻙ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻠﻭﻟﺔ ﻭﺃﻋﻀﺎﺀﻙ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻌﺎﺭﺓ
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ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺤﺎﻭل ﻋﻨﺎﻭﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﺠﺭﺍﺌﺩ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻤﻴّﺔ ﺍﻥ ﺘﺘﻤﺩﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ
ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ,ﻟﺘﺨﻔﻲ ﻋﻴﻭﺒﻙ ,ﻭﺘﺨﺩﻉ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺒﻴﻥ ﻟﻴﺫﻫﺒﻭﺍ ﻟﻠﻤﻭﺕ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺭﺍﻴﺘﻙ
ﺭﺃﻴﺘﻙ ﻋﺎﺭﻴﺔ
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ﻟﻡ ﺘﻜﻭﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﻙ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﻡ
ﻭﻻ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺘﹼﺠﻬﺔ ﻨﺤﻭ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺭ
)ﺍﻟﻨﻅﺎﻓﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻻﻴﻤﺎﻥ( ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻻﻴﺎﻡ ﻜﻼﻤﹰﺎ ﻓﺎﺭﻏ ﹰﺎ
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ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﺼﻭّﺭ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻭﺍﻴﺘﻙ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩﺓ ﺠﻤﻊ ﺍﻵﺜﺎﺭ,
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ﻭﺘﺒﺎﺩل ﺍﻵﺭﺍﺀ ﺤﻭل ﻜﺘﺏ ﺍﻻﺯﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺒﺭﺓ.
ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﺃﻫﺩﻴﺘﻙ ﻤﻜﺘﺒﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭﻴﺨﻴﺔ ,ﻭﺤﻔﻅﺕ ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﺏ ﻭﻤﻌﻠﻘﺎﺘﻬﻡ
ﻭﺠﺌﺕ ﺍﻗﺼّﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ )ﺃﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻭل( ﻭ)ﻗﺎﺴﻴﻭﻥ(
ﻻ ﺯﻟﺕ ﺃﺫﻜﺭ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺭﺃﻴﺘﻙ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻷﻭل ﻤﺭّﺓ ﺘﺘﻌﺭّﻴﻥ
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ﻟﻡ ﺘﻘﻔﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻴﻜﻭﺭ ﻤﺜﻴﺭ
ﺕ ﺒﺎﻷﻀﻭﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻓﻨﺔ
ﻭﻻ ﺍﺴﺘﻨﺠﺩ ِ
ﺕ ﺃﺜﻭﺍﺒﻙ ﺍﻟﺩﺍﺨﻠﻴﺔ ﻗﻁﻌﺔ ﻗﻁﻌﺔ ,ﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﻔﻌل ﺭﺍﻗﺼﺎﺕ
ﻭﻻ ﻨﺯﻋ ِ
ott )ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺭﻴﺒﺘﻴﺯ(.
ﻜل ﺸﻲﺀ ﻋﻨﺩﻙ ﻭﻗﻊ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ..ﻭﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﻋﻠﺏ ﺍﻟﻠﻴل
ﺘﻌﺭّﻴﺕ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ
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ﻭﺭﺃﻴﺘﻙ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ
ﻭﺘﺤﺩﺜﺕ ﻜل ﺍﻟﺠﺭﺍﺌﺩ ﺒﻌﺩﻫﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻤّﺎﻥ ﺘﺩﻓﻥ ﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺃﻟﻑ ﻓﻠﺴﻁﻴﻨﻲ
ﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﻋﺸﺭﻭﻥ ﺃﻟﻔﹸﺎ ﺘﻌﻭّﺩﻨﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻥ ﻨﺫﻜﺭﻫﻡ ﺒﺎﻟﺠﻤﻠﺔ.
ﻏﺭﻴﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﻌﻭّﺩ ﺍﻻﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻗﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ ,ﻭﻴﻨﺴﻰ
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ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻭﻥ ﺒﺒﻴﻭﺘﻬﻡ ﺨﻠﻑ ﺍﻟﻀﻔﺔ ,ﺤﻴﻥ ﺃﻏﺭﻗﺘﻬﻡ..
ﻭﻗﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺍﻜﺘﺸﻔﺕ ﻫﻭﺍﻴﺘﻙ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭﺓ
ﺕ ﺴ ّﺭ ﺘﺠﻭﺍﻟﻙ ﻋﺎﺭﻴﺔ ..ﻭﻨﺤﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻴﻠﻭل..
ﻭﺍﺭﺩﻜ ﹸ
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ﻙ..
ﺃﺴﺄﻟ ِ
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ﺕ ﺭﺍﻫﺒﺔ؟
ﻫل ﺃﻨ ِ
ﺕ ﻋﺎﻫﺭﺓ؟
ﺃﻡ ﺃﻨ ِ
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ﺕ ﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﻤﻥ ﻨﺎﺭ؟
ﺃﺍﻨ ِ
ﺃﻡ ﺃﻨﺜﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺜﻠﺞ؟
ﺕ ﻋﻴﻭﻥ )ﺍﻟﺴﺎ( ,ﻭﺴﻤﺭﺓ )ﺍﻨﺠﻠﻼ( ,ﻭﺘﺴﺭﻴﺤﺔ )ﻜﻠﻴﻭﺒﺘﺭﺍ(,
ﺃﻨ ِ
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ﻭﺼﻤﻭﺩ )ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ( ,ﻭﺘﺒﺭّﺝ )ﻭﻻﺩﺓ( ,ﻭﻋﻔﺔ )ﺭﺍﺒﻌﺔ(
ﻭﺘﻤﺭّﺩ )ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺭﺍ( ,ﻭﺼﺒﺭ )ﺒﻴﻨﻴﻠﻭﺏ ,ﻭﻏﻤﻭﺽ )ﺍﻟﺠﻭﻜﻭﻨﺩﺍ(..
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ﺕ ﻜل ﻨﺴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻙ ﻟﺴﺕ ﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ!
ﺃﻨ ِ
ﺕ ﺭﺫﻴﻠﺘﻲ ﻭﻓﻀﻴﻠﺘﻲ
ﺃﻨ ِ
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ﺕ ﺃﻤﻲ ﻭﻁﻔﻠﺘﻲ
ﺃﻨ ِ
ﺕ ﻜﺎﺒﻭﺴﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺯﻋﺞ ..ﺃﻨﺕ ﺤﻠﻤﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﻴﺩ
ﺃﻨ ِ
ﺕ ﻜل ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻭﻴﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺘﻜﺘﻤل
ﺃﻨ ِ
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ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻙ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘﻲ..
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ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﻫﻭﻴﺔ
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ﺇﻨﹼﻬﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻓﺭﻨﺴﺎ
ﻻ ﻟﻴﺘﻔﺭﺠﻭﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻅﻤﺔ )ﺒﺭﺝ ﺍﻴﻔل(
ﻭﻻ ﻟﻴﻜﻭﻨﻭﺍ ﺃﻗﺭﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻁﻭﺭ ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻭﺤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺩﺭﺓ
ﻴﻭﻡ ﺠﺎﺅﻭﺍ ﻓﺭﻨﺴﺎ
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ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺠﺒﺎل )ﺍﻻﻭﺭﺍﺱ( ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﻥ )ﺒﺭﺝ ﺍﻴﻔل(
ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺭﺍﺌﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﺩﻡ ﺃﻗﻭﻯ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻁﻭﺭ )ﺭﻭﺸﺎ( ﻭ)ﻜﺭﻴﺴﺘﻴﺎﻥ ﺩﻴﻭﺭ(
ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﻻ ﺘﺴﺎﻭﻱ ﻟﻭﺤﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﺎﺌﻁ )ﺍﻟﻠﻭﻓﺭ(
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ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﺤﻠﻤﻭﻥ ﺒﺭﻏﻴﻑ ﻨﻅﻴﻑ
* * *
ﻤﻨﺤﺘﻬﻡ ﻓﺭﻨﺴﺎ ﺸﻭﺍﺭﻋﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺴﺨﺔ,
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ﻟﻜﻥ ﻻ ﻴﺸﻘﻴﻪ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻠﻁﺨﺎ ﺒﺩﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﺏ ﻭﺍﻷﻓﺎﺭﻗﺔ
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ott ﺇﻨﹼﻬﻡ ﻻ ﻴﺼﻠﺤﻭﻥ ﻟﻸﻋﻤﺎل ﺍﻟﻘﺫﺭﺓ ﻓﻘﻁ
ﺒل ﻫﻡ ﻴﻤﻠﻜﻭﻥ ﻜل ﻤﺅﻫﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﻴﺩ ﺃﻴﻀﹰﺎ:
ﺍﻟﺴﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺍﻟﻘﻭﻴّﺔ ..ﺍﻻﺨﻼﺹ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤل ..ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺠﺔ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺭﻏﻴﻑ
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ﻏﺭﺒﺘﻜﻡ ﻻ ﺘﺴﺎﻭﻱ ﺭﻏﻴﻔﹰﺎ ﺃﻴّﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺤﺒّﺔ ﻭﻜل ﺨﺭﺍﺌﻁ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻟﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ
ﻭﻁﻨﹰﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺴﻘﻁﻭﻥ
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ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ ﻨﻘﺭﺃ ﻓﺎﺘﺤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺸﻭﺍﺭﻉ ﻤﺭﺴﻴﻠﻴﺎ ,ﻭﻨﻤﺸﻲ ﺁﻻﻓﹰﺎ ﺨﻠﻔﻜﻡ
"ﻟﻨﺄﻜل ﺘﺭﺍﺏ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻭﻻ ﻨﺄﻜل ﺨﺒﺯ ﺍﻟﺫل ﺨﺎﺭﺝ
.co
ﺍﻟﺠﺯﺍﺌﺭ".
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ﻋﻴﺩ ﺴﻌﻴﺩ ﺃﻴّﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ
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ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺜﺎﺌﺭﹰﺍ ﺴﻘﻁﻭﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﻋﺭﺒﻴّﺔ..
ﺭﻤﻴﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻟﺭﺼﺎﺹ
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ﻙ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ
ﻨﺤﻥ ﻨﻤﻭﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠ ِ
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ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻘﺘﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺜﻭّﺍﺭ
ﺃﻷﻨﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻨﺘﻌﻠﹼﻡ ﻨﺤﺒﻙ ﺒﻌﻨﻑ
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ﺩﻓﺎﻋ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ )!(...
ott
ﺃﻴّﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻭﻁﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺭ..
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ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻜﺘﺏ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻲ
ﻭﺃﺘﻌﺭّﻯ ﻟﻠﻤﺭﺁﺓ
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ﻫﻡ ﺃﺤﺒﻭﻙ ..ﺃﺼﺒﺤﻭﺍ ﺯﻋﻤﺎﺀ
ﺘﻌﺭّﻭﺍ ..ﺃﺼﺒﺤﻭﺍ ﺃﻏﻨﻴﺎﺀ
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ﺭﺍﺠﻠﺔ ﺃﻗﻁﻊ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ..
ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻭﺍﻟﺭﺼﻴﻑ
m
ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﻭﻀﻭﺀ
ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﺭﺼﻴﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﺭﺼﻴﻑ
.co
ﻋﺸﺭﺓ ﻤﺴﺎﻤﻴﺭ
ob
ﺃﻤﻠﻙ ﺭﺨﺼﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺴﻜﻊ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻤﻲ
ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻠﻭﺱ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺩﺍﺌﻕ
ott ﺃﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﻋﻤل
ﻤﺅﻫﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻨﻭﻥ ﻻ ﺘﻔﻴﺩ
ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﻭﺍ ..ﻭﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻨﺭﻴﺩ
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ﻋﺸﺭﺓ ﻤﺴﺎﻤﻴﺭ
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ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﺭﺼﻴﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﺭﻏﻴﻑ
ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﻭﻀﻭﺀ
.co
ﻟﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻻ ﻨﻤﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻴﻕ
ob
ﻭﻻﺘﺭﺠّﻠﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﻡ
ﺒﺈﺴﻡ ﺭﻓﺎﻕ )ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻌﺔ(..
ﺘﺴﻘﻁ ﺍﻷﻫﺭﺍﻡ..
ott
ﺒﺈﺴﻡ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﻟﻡ ﻴﺼﻔﻘﻭﺍ ﻟﻨﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻔﻴﻕ
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ﺒﺈﺴﻡ ﺇﻨﺘﻔﺎﻀﺔ )ﺍﻟﻌﺒﻭﺭ(
ﻻﺒ ّﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺨﺘل ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﻭﺭ
ﻭﺤﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻁﻭﺍﺭﻯﺀ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻤﻴّﺔ
ob
ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﺴﻠﹼﻕ ﺍﻟﺜﻭﺭﻱ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻘﻭﻁ
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ﺃﺭﻓﺽ ﻤﻌﺎﺩﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺭ
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ﺼﻭﺕ ﺁﺨﺭ..
ﺭﻓﺽ ﺁﺨﺭ..
ﻤﻭﺕ ﺁﺨﺭ..
ﺯﺍﺩﺕ ﻗﺎﺌﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﺩﺍﺀ ﺸﻬﻴﺩﹰﺍ
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ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺌﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺭﻭﻓﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﺎﺌﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺭﻴّﺔ
ﻟﻠﺸﻬﺩﺍﺀ
m
ﻭﺍﻀﻌﺔ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺘﺼﺭّﻓﻜﻡ
ﻤﻜﺘﺒﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭﻴﺨﻴﺔ ..ﻭﺨﺎﺭﻁﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﺒﻴّﺔ
.co
ﻓﻸﻤﻨﺢ ﻓﺭﺼﺔ ﺘﺤﻭﻴل ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ
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ﺏ ﻴﺴﺎﻭﻱ )ﻜﻠﻴﻨﻜﺱ(
ﻭﺍﻟﺤ ّ
ﺃﺭﻓﺽ ﻤﻌﺎﺩﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺭ!
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m
ﺘﺼﻭّﺭﺕ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻁﺄ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﺍﻟﻌﺭﺒﻴّﺔ ..ﻟﻠﻤﺭّﺓ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ .ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺘﺭﻜﺕ
ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﻀﺎﺩﺓ ﻋﻨﺩ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﺭﻙ .ﻭﻜﺂﻻﻑ ﺍﻟﺴﻭﺍﺡ ﺴﺂﺨﺫ ﺤﻤﺎﻡ ﺸﻤﺱ,
.co
ﻭﺃﺤﺘﺴﻲ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻱ ﻭﺃﻋﻭﺩ ﺒﺤﻘﺎﺌﺏ ﻤﻤﻠﻭﺀﺓ ﻋﺒﺎﺀﺍﺕ.
ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻜﺎﻟﻤﺭّﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ,ﻋﺎﺠﺯﺓ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺠﺭّﺩ ﺴﺎﺌﺤﺔ.
ﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﻭﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﺭّﺓ ﺴﺄﻗﻀﻲ ﺃﻴﺎﻤﹰﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻀﻴﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻟﻜﺔ.
ﺃﻱ ﻤﻐﺎﻤﺭﺓ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺨﻠﹼﻰ ﻤﺭّﺓ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻋﻥ ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﺃﺅﻤﻥ ﺒﻪ.
ob
ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﻨﺎﻭل ﻏﺫﺍﺌﻲ ﻭﺨﻠﻔﻲ ﺯﻨﺠﻴﺎﻥ ﺒﻘﻔﺎﺯﺍﺕ ﺒﻴﻀﺎﺀ ﻴﺤﺭﻤﺎﻨﻨﻲ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻟﺫﺓ
ﺘﻘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺨﺒﺯ ﺒﻴﺩﻱ.
ﺃﻥ ﺁﺨﺫ ﺤﻤﺎﻡ ﺸﻤﺱ ﻓﻲ ﺸﺎﻁﻰﺀ ﺨﺎﺹ ,ﻴﺭﺍﻗﺒﻪ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﺍﻟﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ
ott
ﺤﺎﺭﺴﹰﺎ ,ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻨﻲ ﺠﺎﻜﻠﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﺯﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻫﺩﺍﻫﺎ ﺇﻴّﺎﻫﺎ ﺯﻭﺠﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺭﺍﺤل
ﺃﻭﻨﺎﺴﻴﺱ.
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m
.co
ﻱ ﺃﻏﻨﻴّﺔ ﺃﺭﻴﺩﻫﺎ ﺒﺼﻭﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻐﻨﻲ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻭﺒﺈﺒﺩﺍﻉ ﺃﻭ ﺒﺘﺼﻨﹼﻊ
ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺘﻤﻊ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃ ّ
ﺃﻜﺜﺭ.
ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻱ ﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﺔ ,ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻭﺠﻭﺩﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺭ ﻤﺤﺽ
ob
ﻓﻀﻭل ﻁﻔﻭﻟﻲ.
ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻗﻲ ﺃﺤﺘﻘﺭ ﻜل ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﻨﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻴﺕ ﺒﻬﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﻅﺭﻭﻑ.
ﺘﻨﺎﻗﺸﺕ ﺒﻌﺩﻫﺎ ﻤﻊ ﺃﺤﺩﻫﻡ .ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﹼﻪ )ﻤﻠﺘﺯﻡ(.
ott
ﻗﺎل ﻤﺒﺭﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﺠﻭﺩﻩ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ "ﻤﺎ ﺭﺃﻴﻙ ﺒﻌﺒﺩ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻴﻡ؟ ﺇﻨﹼﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻅﺔ ﻴﻐﻨﻲ
ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺭ ﺍﻵﺨﺭ!".
ﻗﻠﺕ " ﻗﺩ ﺃﻏﻔﺭ ﻟﻌﺒﺩ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻴﻡ ﻷﻨﹼﻪ ﻟﻴﺱ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺩ ..ﻫﻭ ﻻ ﻴﻐﺎﺩﺭ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺭ
alk
ل ﻤﻥ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ
ﺃﺠﺎﺏ ﺒﻬﺩﻭﺀ "ﻻ ﺘﻨﺯﻋﺠﻲ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﺇﺫﻥ ..ﻓﻠﻜل ﺒﻼﺩ ﻤﻠﻜﻬﺎ .ﻜ ّ
ﺘﻭﺠﻴﻪ ﺍﻹﻨﺘﻘﺎﺩ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ..ﻫﻭ ﻤﻠﻙ".
ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺼﻭﺍﺏ ..ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺴﺘﺴﻠﻡ.
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ل ﺒﺘﺤﺭﻴﺭ ﺃﺭﻀﻨﺎ" ,ﻗﻠﺕ "ﺒل ﺒﺘﺤﺭﻴﺭ ﺍﻹﻨﺴﺎﻥ
ﻗﺎل ﺃﺨﻴﺭﹰﺍ "ﻫﺫﻩ ﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﺴﺘﺤ ّ
ﺃﻭﻻً".
ob
ﺘﺫﻜﺭﺕ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻋﺎﻡ ,ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻤ ّﺭ ﺒﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﺎﻭﺭ ,ﻭﺇﺫ
ﺒﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺘﺘﻭﻗﻑ ,ﻭﺠﻤﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﻔﻼﺤﻴﻥ ﻴﺴﺭﻋﻭﻥ ﻨﺤﻭﻫﺎ ﻟﻴﻠﺜﻤّﻭﺍ ﻴﺩ ﺭﺠل ﻴﻨﺯل
ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﻭﻴﻤ ّﺩ ﻴﺩﻩ ﻨﺤﻭﻫﻡ ﺒﻜل ﺒﺭﻭﺩﺓ ﻭﺘﺠﺎﻫل..
ott ﻗﺒﻠﻬﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺜﻭﺭﺓ.
ﻴﻭﻤﻬﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺒﺈﻤﻜﺎﻨﻲ ﺘﻐﻴﻴﺭ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﻤﻭﻗﻑ ,ﻓﺄﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﻟﻥ ﺘﻤﻨﺢ
ﺭﻏﻴﻔﹰﺎ ﻟﻔﻘﻴﺭ .ﻭﻻ ﻫﻲ ﺴﺘﺭ ّﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺭﺍﻤﺔ ﻟﺭﺠل ﻤُﻬﺎﻥ .ﻤﺎ ﻋﺎﺩ ﻴﻜﻔﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺜﻭﺭ..
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ﺁﺨﺭ ﻗﺼﻴﺩﺓ ﻜﺘﺒﺘﻬﺎ ,ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻋﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺃﺭﺴﻠﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﺩﻭﺩ
ﻷﺴﺒﺎﺏ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺤﺭﺒﻴّﺔ.
m
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ob
ﻟﻭ ﻗﺭﺃﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﻡ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ!
ﻻ ﺸﻲﺀ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ..
ott
ﻟﻥ ﺃﻤﻭﺕ ﻭﻟﻥ ﺃﺴﺠﻥ ,ﻓﻘﻁ ﺴﻴﻅﻨﻭﻥ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺠﻨﻨﺕ ﻷﻨﺘﻘﺩ ﺤﺎﻜﻤﹰﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻗﺼﺭﻩ.
ل ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ.
ﺃﺨﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﻡ ﻗﺼﻴﺩﺓ ﺭﻤﺯﻴّﺔ ,ﻓﻬﻤﻬﺎ ﻜ ّ
ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﻴﻭﻤﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺭﻤﺯﻴّﺔ ﺨﻴﺎﻨﺔ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﺠﺒﻥ .ﺃﻀﻔﺕ ﺇﺴﻤﻲ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻗﺎﺌﻤﺔ
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