“Good but ain’t enough”

August 19

We reported on one of
our subjects that day. We
thought we did really well.
Sadly, that’s only what we
thought. Although the group In the end, we all
worked as one team, it realized that we should have
doesn’t suffice the tried. Regardless if he'll
expectation our teacher had reply or not, at least we did
for us. our part to ask for his advice.
Yet again, I realized that
communication or trying to
Our professor told us
communicate is very
that we could have asked him
important even though it
about our report and the
doesn't seem that it will
details he would want to see
work.
in it. It's our fault on our
side that we didn't since we
are afraid because he
doesn't seem to be that
approachable.
 “HOPE ALL!!!”
August 20

So I just finished reading a

manhwa entitled "Our
Relationship Is". It is a story
about a boy and a girl who's
been best of friends since I think it's very
they were in middle school. relatable to teens around my
They entered college and it age since falling in love is
was only then that the girl kind of thing or a trend at
realized that she had fallen this phase. (Disclaimer: I
for her boy best friend. just really love reading
Manwha or Manga. I am not
really interested into that
kind of things.) It was
This type of stories are effective to the point that
pretty much popular because you'll sympathize with the
it hooks the readers, making girl and her unrequited love.
them feel like they're one How she gave way and how
with the main character. It she kept the feelings to
also gives them hope on their herself just not to ruin their
own crushes. That maybe friendship.
they also had a shot. Sana all!
 “To My Favorite”
August 21

Today was my youngest

sister's birthday. She's now
two years old. She's
becoming more annoying
since she keeps repeating
every single thing we told
For example, there are
her. Zamantha also has her times that I'll teach her
own way of dealing things.
about phonetics. She'll copy
There are times that I'll me at first but later on, I'll
found myself following her be the one following her lead.
lead instead of her following It's funny but it means a lot
me.
if you think about it deeper.
She's still young but her way
of communication already
affects us, the people around
She loves to copy other her.
people. That's why we're
very careful and selective on
the things that we'll show
her or how'll act around her.
 “No backing down on a debate”
August 22

Right from the start, I

actually have the same
thought as the other group
but I don't have a choice
since it's already been
decided and I cannot change
my group regardless of my
thought and opinion. While the discussion was
going on, it came to hit me
that it's really hard, no
matter how you try your best
to defend something you
don't believe in. Imagine you
This experience just taught
need to argue with the other
me a lesson that it's harder team but you're already
to fight with your own
having your own debate on
thoughts than fighting with the inside.
other people's ideas.
 “Mess”
August 23
Here comes another
song from my favorite artist
Chelsea Cutler. I'm really in
love with her voice, music,
genre and most importantly,
her lyrics. This song made a
huge impact on me when I
heard it because it's about
being a mess. Well, obvious I mean, every one of us
enough from the title but, must have felt that way on
yeah. some point in our lives. We're
we feel like every thing about
us or around us is in pure
chaos and you don't know
where to begin. Suffering
from depression and all, I
feel a lot that way. And it's
one of my ways in coping up.
Listening to songs that
expresses how I feel.
“Today, I don't feel like doing anything
(BUT I HAVE A LOT TO DO!)”
August 24
It's Saturday and we don't
have classes. But no, that doesn't
mean I don't have things to do. In
fact, there's a whole lot and it's
piled up already.
For starters, I'm a junior
officer at the academic
organization of the
Communication Research called
Circle of Research Enthusiasts
(CORE). Not only that I'm an
officer, we have this new project
at hand, which is Research Gence.
We're asked by the senior
officers to take one research
from COC and create publication
materials for it online that will
surely catch the netizens. It's
like taking a research and
changing it into a new form that
will excite the viewers and
audiences. Showing that
research can be fun.
The problem is that, we cannot
start working because the team
isn't functioning like a team.
Those designated to do the
research weren't responding,
leaving us, the production and
technical being problematic since
the deadline would be on Friday
next week. It's frustrating
because they're not even trying
to explain why they're not
responding. I mean, they could
give us a heads up that they
won't be able to do it, so at least,
we can come up with solutions.
WE AREN'T COMMUNICATING
AND THAT'S FRUSTRATING!
 “We Adore Your Dedication”
August 25

It's the opening ceremony

for the special units of the
ROTC. From medics,
multimedia and military. The
director of the NSTP was
one of the guess speakers
and she really inspired the
students undergoing the
course.
I, in all honesty, is
actually regretting it but
because of her
encouragement, I feel the
excitement filling my veins
again. The excitement to
train and to serve the
country when I'm needed.
The excitement to serve and
protect the people of the
Philippines. I realized that
from time to time, we need
this kind words and
motivations to keep us going
no matter how tired we get.
They told us that
choosing ROTC as our NSTP
was more than just a
requirement but a
commitment. We're required
to attend every Sunday
(which is tiring at times), we
have to stay under the sun
performing drills (not too
good for my skin asthma but
it improved my health so,
laban lang) and to wake up
early in the morning (the
greatest battle of all,
charot!).
 “Where do I begin?”
August 26

It's already Monday,
and we don't have classes.
Everyone who's active on the
group chat of the freshmen
officers were already
knocking their brains out to
come up with a solution.
We're running out of time.
We still need to find a
research to feature in our
first episode. We still need
to contact the authors of the
research for permission. We
still need to conceptualize
the theme. We still need to
prepare the publication
materials and the videos.
We still lack
communication to the other
officers. No matter how
hard the sender tries, if the
receiver is not willing, it will
be useless.
I know, the word 'we' is
redundant but you can't
blame me because it's also
the same people who were
replying to the group chat.
It's all us. The one who'll
panic. The one who'll comfort
who's panicking. And the one
who'll panic again.

WE ARE NOT COMMUNICATING AND IT'S FRUSTRATING PART 2!

 “Thank God, Yorme!”
August 27
I was on my way to
school already when Mayor
Isko cancelled the classes.
I'm really praying last night
(half-heartedly) that there
would be no class suspension
so we can go to the library
and do the research because
those who are tasked to do it
won't reply (not to promote
hate and all, but don't leave
other people hanging waiting
for you, 'kay?).
I'm not that far from
home yet, but I decided to
still head straight to school
(see how much I love the
organization? Charot!).
Thankfully, the library was
still open when I arrived and
my other classmates already
found a book worthy to be
featured for the month's
theme.
We all just want to
finish the project and get
over it. I'm blessed that my
classmates/org-mates love
CORE as much as I do. We
were all on the same page
that coming up with ideas and
agreeing on them wasn't so
hard.
Today's Lesson:
Communication is easy if you
and the people you
communicate with share the
same goal and objective.
 “Am I doing things right?”
August 28

The whole day of that all of me is in the same

Wednesday was spent with page and the same goal.
me conceptualizing how I'll
present our chosen research
into a video. My eyes were
kind of hurting already. I've
read the research more than
thrice but still struggle to
think of a way to express it
through digital art and
animation.
I will draw then later on
I needed to divert my redraw it again. I nearly have
attention away from doing 30+ drafts of digital
the project for a while. I sketches on my phone (too
needed time to communicate much for my phone's memory
with myself. It's probably to keep for too long). I don't
weird for other people but know if I'm doing it right. At
communicating with myself is this point, the time pressure
something I must do once in is too much to handle and I'm
a while. It's to recollect my having a conflict yet again
thoughts and to make sure from the inside.
 “Math, WHAT?!”
August 29
It's not like I hate
Math or anything. I'm
actually quite good at it,
competing for Quiz
Bees and having special
classes but I just don't
feel the way how things
are going now. It's very easy to
understand that way
The way
since we can apply it
Mathematics was right after we're
thought on me from taught. Unlike now, the
elementary to senior professor will teach us
high school is a whole lot everything at once,
different from our making it hard to
professor's approach remember the steps and
this time. Before procedures. Thankfully,
college, all my teachers' I found a way to counter
approach was to teach a it. I'll just have to copy
little then let us and take notes of
practice with examples everything then
for a while before practice and apply it one
continuing or adding by one at home.
another topic.
 “We made it?”
August 30
It's already August
30, supposedly everything
should be done by now
(referring to CORE's
Research Gence) and we
should only be waiting to
upload the content
tomorrow. However, due to
lack of people that works
together, we come short
with the production. Some
of us are really busy but we
tried to fit doing
everything in our schedule
but it was a bit too late.
I had to stay awake
until 3am in the morning
(August 31, but I'll still
count is August 30 since I
haven't sleep yet. Oh,
talking about logic.) I
waited for my other
classmate to pass her the
voice record for the voice
over of the video. I
understood why it was
already late. She had other
organizations, too. Probably
tired but still tried her
best to give life to the
narration.
Even with lack of
sleep, we still tried to
communicate and
collaborated our ideas.
Good thing that I'm
working with my friends and
we're still able to make fun
out of the situation even
though every one of us is
pressured beyond doubts.
Lesson: No matter what
you're into, fighting or
putting pressure won't
help at all.
 “We didn't make it.”
August 31

Around 5pm in the other officers did. They

afternoon, I'm already actually told me that we
finished with all did our best and what
everything. I already had happened was
edited the video and it's something beyond our
fully finished. It only control.
needs to be exported to
It was with their
MP4 so we can finally
understanding and
upload it to Facebook.
encouragement that I
Something didn't give up with the
happened and the video. I successfully
exporting of the video uploaded it that night
was interrupted. We though we won't be able
weren't able to meet to post it.
the time we're supposed I'm glad I had friends
to upload the video that
who knows how to
night. I was already understand and what
blaming myself. exactly just to say.
Thankfully, none of the
 “We did it!”
September 1
Gianne was able to
upload it Sunday
morning. We are
surprised how the
people loved and
appreciated our work. I wish we were able to
It's like we felt that we make our goal that
are successful as people may perceive
communicators (wow, research differently.
deep). We are able to That they will start
convey the message of thinking about research
the research (hopefully)
in a different light (by
in very entertaining way.
that, I mean, not
No matter how something that's boring
hard it had been, we or hard).
were able to make it
with proper use of
communication. If we
stopped communicating
somewhere in between
those hard times, I bet
we wouldn't make it
after all.