It’s been 17 minutes from the MALNEIROPHRENIA I had. I am trying to
remember his face for the past 17 minutes. Well apparently instances of PRESQUE-VU tend to increase with age. For 2 days I have been experiencing ALYSM I have packets of chips and carton of sodas beside my bed, sometimes rest is good, I tend to remember those days when I had servants and kids running around the house now I am just a LONESOME- FRET not able to get off my bed. My life has been like this since he left I have this MISSLIENESS feeling for the past 20 years I don’t know when I am going to recover but I hope a better ending. My children are married and settled, I am happy to hear their voices on the phone sometimes when they call. I miss them, But well this is a busy little world, I hope they visit soon. Sometimes I really wish I would be hospitalized again, I remember the time when I got a heart attack. Every one of my children and grandchildren came running down to look after me. I was in a lot of pain but the second I saw my children’s faces everything normalized. My little grandson holding my finger saying “granny why do you have pipes in your wrist” I laughed. Life never goes the way you want it to go. I remember what he used to say “Pursue for excellence, success will chase you” well it’s really much true. Such a perfectionist he was.