Date: September 6, 2020

Name: Kyla Jean L. Castrodes

Journal Entry #: 2
Personal Reflection: Enneagram Test Result

Upon taking the enneagram test, I find it quite hard to answer however I still managed to

finish it and got my result. My enneagram result showed me that I belong to the loyalist.

According to the enneagram, those who belong to the loyalist are persons that are committed,

security-oriented type. Endearing and likable, forming string bonds with others. Reliable,

responsible and trustworthy but can also be too partisan and suspicious of others, creating “in”

and “out” groups. Defensive, contradictory, evasive and anxious: they run on stress while

complaining about it. Cautious and indecisive, but also defiant and rebellious, talking “tough”

and scapegoating others. At their best: Open-minded, stable, and self-reliant, courageously

supporting the weak and powerless.

I believe that what the result is saying coincides with my personality. I am really the type

of person that is committed to something once I started doing it or once I am told to do it. I do

not tend to refuse because I believe that it will come to a time that I will eventually like it or

appreciate it particularly if I find it interesting and beneficial. I am also the type of person who

wants to feel secure. I tend to think ahead of what I need to do so that I can make contingencies

if ever something doesn’t work out the way it’s supposed to be, however, most of the time I fail

to plan ahead so I usually struggle to figure out what I should do in order to make things okay. I

guess I’m not the type to take risks most of the time.

In terms of being endearing and likable, I guess I only get that on first impression but as a

person gets to know me I can hardly tell if he or she still find me endearing and likable however,

I don’t really put too much attention on how people see me as. For as long as there are some
people who still accepts me despite of my unlikable personality or attitude I’m good with that. I

know I can’t always please everyone and I don’t actually intend to. I prefer to have less people

around me whom I really give my trust than have dozens whom I’m not sure with.

In terms of being reliable, responsible and trustworthy, I can say that not most of the time

I embody those qualities however there would be times that I do especially when the situation

calls it.

Between being partisan and suspicious of others, I can say that I am more of the

suspicious one. I tend to be suspicious because I have been in a situation where I knew that a

person befriended me because that person needs something from me and I don’t want to be in

that situation again so I really tend to be suspicious towards someone even before he or she lay

his or her intention. From that certain experience I have learned to not let my guard down

however, I must not judge a person ahead just because my hunch tells me so.

Being defensive, contradictory, evasive and anxious are some of the qualities that I

possess that I really feels foreign but in a way familiar. I think that if I embody those qualities

every single time people would think that I have a problem which I believe I don’t and also it

seems not healthy to always exemplify those qualities specially that I intend to become a teacher

someday. Instilling those qualities I believe would not be good as I am supposed to be a model to

my future pupils.

As a person, I think being cautious and indecisive is normal. Whenever I make decisions

that I know that would really make difference in my life, I really like to think of it thoroughly so

that I won’t end up regretting choosing it. I tend to not make decisions when I know my

emotions are at its high because I know the result would be something that I would really feel

bad of.
 The qualities of being open-minded, stable, and self-reliant are what I wish to fully

embody and develop because I know that those qualities are really beneficial for me as well as to

my future profession as a teacher.

In conclusion, taking the test really helped me in knowing my self. I have realized a lot of

things after taking the test and somehow reflected on it as who am I as a person. I realized that

living in this world for a quite some time and experiencing things could not be the basis to say

that I knew who I am. Being alive and it’s accomplice of what is called life, is still incomplete if

I won’t be able to find my reason of why. I know that it would take a continuous self-reflection

to get to know who I am, and I know that this part of knowing myself will be a long journey and

the paths that I will be walking on won’t be easy as I embark on my path to self-actualization.

However, I believe that nothing outside of my self has any dictation of who I am or how I go

about with my life. I know that when I know my self, I will realize that life is simple and that I

control my own destiny, and that, knowing my self will always be more important than other

knowing who I am as I would lead me to my way to self-acceptance.