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SUDDEN TWIST

LYNN Z NGIDI

A sudden Twist
Part 1

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Nokwazi Khwela
.
I am running late as usual, walking through the busy streets of Durban on
this very cold Monday morning. I so hate cold weathers, well i hate
working on cold days. I finally arrive at work and lucky for me my boss is
not here yet.
I work at a law firm as aa secretary, more like a personal assistant and
my boss is quite handsome but arrogant. It must be his profession plus
he has a very rude girlfriend. I am 23 years old by the way and i am
single. I share a flat with my high school best friend Xolile who works at a
clothing store as a manager.

My mom lives at Umlazi with my younger brother. She’s a hotel manager

and she has worked there for over 25 years. The issue about my father is
a no go area as she never wants to speak about him ever.
So back to me being single, i have had boyfriends but we’d break up as
soon as they want sex so in other words i am a virgin and very proud.
Xolile thinks i am being overly dramatic.
So i am at the office, i have already started working on the reports that
were left on my desk over the weekend. Mr Nqubeko Msomi must have
been working that’s my boss’s name by the way. He walks in to his office,
doesn’t even greet. I groan loudly and i follow him with his freshly brewed
cup of coffee.

I find him standing by his desk looking through his mail. I place the coffee
on his table and take out the diary tucked under my arm. He reads some
mail while drinking hiss coffee, totally ignoring that i am there. He does
that all the time so i am just used to it.
I stand there for what seems like forever and the finally he looks at me.
His eyes roam around my body and i must say; i have a body to die for. I
am medium height and light skinned. I have one dimple on my left side, i
have a round big butt, 36 waist 32 top. Today i am wearing a custom
made off shoulder black dress with navy strappy heals. I have a bob
weave and a touch of make up: I am gorgeous!

After some time he sits and opens his laptop, see the bullshit i have to
put up with everyday? Nxh but i need this job. We need to get Sanele
through university so o suck it up. He goes through his emails and coffee
and i just stand here. After some time he looks at me with a raised brow i
return it and he smirks.
Nqubeko: “ How does my day look like?”
Me: “ You have a conference call in an hour with Haziyard.”

Nqubeko: “ After that?”

Me: “ You have golf with Mr Ngwenya and that’s it” he frowned.
Nqubeko: “ Why does my day seem so short?”
Me: “ The conference call is 4 hours after that it’s your lunch with Miss
Nozulu after that lunch it’s the golf”
Nqubeko: “ Why didn’t you tell me about the lunch?”
Me: “ You always tell me that i shouldn’t remind you of your lunches
because you are always together”
Nqubeko: “ Yeah yeah. You look good by the way”

Me: “ I always look good big guy” he chuckles and i leave his office
strutting my big behind and i know he is looking.
I sit at the desk and start typing and making calls. Minutes later my phone
desk rings, its my boss.
Me: “ Sir?” he groans.
Nqubeko: “ Please come to my office”
Me: “ Yes sir” i hand up and fix myself and walk back in.
Nqubeko: “ Sit” i sit.
Me: “ How can i help you sir?”

Nqubeko: “ I need you to organise a dress for Carol and a suit for me. We
have a party to attend tomorrow”
Me: “ Which colour would you prefer?”
Nqubeko: “ Grey” i nodded.
Me: “ Anything else?”
Nqubeko: “ Book us in Hilton. I might just propose”
Me: “ Oh that’s nice. Anything else?” he raised his brow and chuckled.
Nqubeko: “ I ain’t getting any younger Miss Khwela”

Me: “ That isn’t my business.”

He looked deep in my eyes and i shifted uncomfortably
Nqubeko: “ Okay so my brother is coming in later and please don’t chit
chat. Do your work and don’t mind him.”
Me: “ Yes sir, anything else?”
Nqubeko: “ what is your problem?”
Me: “ I am staying on my lane like you told me last Friday. Is there
anything else?” he shook hiss head and i got up walked out of his office.

Insert 2
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Nokwazi
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I carried on with my day’s work and before I knew it Miss Nozulu was at
my desk asking for her boyfriend. See she no longer barges in like she
used to because one day she came in and ruined a big deal for Nqubeko
thinking that he was with a woman because I wouldn’t let her go in.
Nqubeko was so furious he nearly broke up with her.


Me: “ Good Day Miss Nozulu. Mr Msomi will be done in 20 minutes.

Kindly take a seat” I smiled at her but she just frowned and went to sit. I
stood up and went to her.

Me: “ Would you like anything to drink while you wait?”

Carol: “ I would like Evian; room temperature and a glass please” I

nodded and headed to the kitchen. I got her the water; rinsed the glass
and went to give her the water; she didn’t thank me. I continued typing
until my desk phone rang.

Me: “ Mr Msomi” Carol quickly stood up and walked to me.

Nqubeko: “ Please tell Carol that I will take another hour. Please tell her
to go wait for me at the hotel room. I’ll hold on the line while you tell her”

Me: “ Mr Msomi will take another hour; said I should tell you to go back to
the hotel and he will join you later” she frowned and clearly pissed.
Carol: “ Fine. I’ll wait here” I nodded and got back to Nqubeko.

Me: “ Mr Msomi she said…” he cut me off.

Nqubeko: “ I heard you. Please stop calling me Mr Msomi” I chuckled and
ended the call.

Me: “ Is there anything else that you would like Miss Nozulu?” she really
was angry.
Carol: “ You already gave me the damn water; why do you want to poison
me now?” I nodded and sat down on my desk.

I continued doing my work typing away. I just completely blocked her out.
The elevator doors opened and Nqobani; Nqubeko’s younger brother
stepped out of the lift. He looked really gorgeous with his olive green suit;
light blue shirt and brown loafers. That sounds ridiculous but he wore it
with such perfection plus he had a body to die for even though he had
nothing on Nqubeko.

Our eyes met and he smiled at me. I gladly returned the smile and looked
at my computer screen. He finally got to me after greeting all those
ladies; some hugging him.

Nqoba: “ How are you my wife?” I looked around then back to him.
Me: “ Who me?” I placed a hand on my chest dramatically and he
chuckled.

Nqoba: “ You’re still the same my love” he winked and I blushed. Carol
decided to ruin the moment.

Carol: “ Nqoba; a word” she stood up and walked down the hallway.
Nqoba looked a bit pisses but he stood and followed her after telling me
he is coming back. The disappeared for a few minutes and came right
back. Nqoba was very angry chewing on the inside of his mouth. I
decided not to get involved and made adjustments to Nqubeko’s diary.
Nqobani came and sat on my desk.

Nqoba: “ So when am I taking you out?” I chuckled shaking my head.

Me: “ Try never” we both laughed.

Nqoba: “ You break my heart” he stabbed his chest and Carol clicked her
tongue fighting with her bag. I looked at Nqoba and shrugged. Right that
moment Nqubeko’s office door opened and he came out with the people
he was in a meeting with. He looked at his brother and I and he frowned.

He walked his associates all the way to the elevator and shook their
hands. After they were gone he came back and Carol jumped in front of
him.

Carol: “ Baby! I missed you” she kissed his lips pressing hard and
Nqubeko lightly pushed her off his face.
Nqubeko: “ You saw me this morning” he held her hand and walked to my
table. All this time Nqobani was looking at me. I looked at him and shook
my head. Nqubeko and Carol finally came to us. He didn’t look pleased.
Nqubeko: “ Nqobani why are you here?” he asked but he was looking
right at me. I shifted uncomfortably.

Nqoba: “ Hau I came to see my brother and..” he cut him off.

Nqubeko: “ If you came to see me you know where my office is. Stop
making moves on my assistant” he shouted.

Carol: “ Ouch baby you are hurting my hand.” She pulled her hand and
rubbed it.
Nqubeko: “ Sorry baby. Please wait for me in the office” he kissed her
cheek. Carol walked to his office.

Nqoba: “ Bro will you just chill. You will die young” he got off my desk
fixing his suit.

Nqubeko: “ I will not repeat myself again and You just do your job and
stop flirting with my brother” he turned on his heel and walked to his
office. Nqoba and I looked at each other and laughed. We always do this
after a lecture from his. We shared a hug and he left. He went to one of
his girlfriends around the office and he thought I would be his girl.

I remembered that I had to prepare the hotel room for the couple. I
organised their outfits and confirmed everything. By the time I was done it
was knock off time. I went to knock at his office and I was told to come in.


I got in and Nqubeko was zipping up Carol’s dress and he was also in his
socks pants and vest.
Nqubeko: “ How can we help you?” he asked with so much venom and
Carol giggled.

Me: “ Everything is set for tonight and my time is up”

Nqubeko: “ It’s pouring out. Don’t you want my driver to…”

Me: “ Got it covered. Good evening Sir; Miss” I bowed and walked out. I
took my already packed bag from my desk and walked out. I got to the
ground floor and Nqobani was exchanging spit with the receptionist I
passed them and stood by the door. I felt someone hold me from behind.

Me: “ Nqobani…” I pulled away from him and he chuckled.

Nqoba: “ I will make you mine”

Me: “ Keep dreaming”

Nqoba: “ We are having a party tonight; come through and bring your
sexy long legged friend along”
Me: “ If I bring her; will you leave me alone?” he smiled like a kid with
candy.

Nqoba: “ Cross my heart” I laughed.

Nqubeko: “ You can’t stay away from her Nqoba” we turned and looked at
him. Carol wasn’t with him.

Nqoba: “ Brother please. Leave me and my wife alone. Baby; I will see
you tonight. Be extra sexy” I saw Xoli pull up at the front of the building.

Nqubeko: “ What’s happening tonight?” I ignored him and opened my
umbrella.
Me: “ Byeeee” I giggled away and ran outside to the car. I got in and it
was very warm. I leaned over and kissed her cheek.

Xoli: “ Hey babe. Isn’t that your boss and his brother?” I looked at the
building and they were both looking a our direction.
Me: “ Yep it is and we’re invited to a party tonight” she clapped her hands
and started the car.

Xoli: “ I am going to get laid tonight” I giggled.

Me: “ You love sex too much” she side eyed me.

Xoli: “ Virgin Mary please” I just kept quiet because she always makes
fun of my virginity.
Xoli: “ Friend; I’m sorry” I nodded lightly and my phone rang, I smiled
widely.

Me: “ Mommy” she giggled.

Mom: “ Hey baby. How are you?”

Me: “ I’m okay mommy. I miss you” I whined and she sighed.
Mom: “ You’re coming this weekend right?” I nodded.
Me: “ Yep I will come”

Mom: “ Good because we need to talk about something very important “

she sounded off.
Me: “ What is it mom?” I heard shuffling.

Mom: “ We’ll talk when you get here. I love you” she hung up. I looked at
my phone shaking my head.
Xoli: “ What’s up?” I sighed deeply.

Me: “ Just worried about mom but will see her over the weekend right
now let’s go home; freshen up and go party”
I just pray whatever is bothering mom is not that bad but for now I will just
let loose. I might score myself a guy; jokes.

Insert 3
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We got home and i headed straight to the bathroom. I needed a warm
bath because of the rain. Xoli said she would prepare light dinner before
we leave. No matter where we’re going, even if there is going to be food
provided we always eat because this one time we went to a party and we
didn’t get any food. It was so mouth watering but it finished before we
could eat so we decided from that day onwards that we will always eat
before leaving the flat.

I finished my bath and got out the bath tub; drained the water and tidied
up the bathroom. I wrapped a towel around my body and went to my
bedroom. I wore my white lace panties and a white bra lace vest. I went
to the kitchen and found Xoli busy fixing our dinner.

Me: “ Go bath i will finish up here” she looked at me shaking her head
and left the kitchen.
I can understand why. Xoli is; i wouldn’t say bisexual but she is very
naughty and she is very open minded when it comes to bedroom stuff.

So this one time we drank a whole lot of wine till midnight. We then
decide to download Fifty Shades of Grey XXX version. We were watching
the movie and laughing next thing we are kissing. We kissed taking off
each other’s clothes. We ate each other out and that was the very first
time i had an orgasm. The way she curled her tongue on my nub was
amazing.

She did me so good you could tell she was experienced. After eating
each other out the movie was still playing so we went for 69 and
scissoring damn it was heaven but the next morning i was full of regret
and we just promised each other that it would never happen again and it
didn’t.

She would sometimes try and talk about it but i really didn’t want to hear
it. Yes i enjoyed it but no thanks. I finished making the salad and put our
plates on the counter. She emerged from the bedroom in her panties and
bra. She was ultra sexy i give her that.

Xoli: “ So i’ll be banging Nqoba again tonight” i was shocked.

Me: “ Again?” she smiled wiggling her eyebrows.

Xoli: “ You jealous?” i chuckled.

Me: “ Do you baby girl. You are flames; slutty flames” we both laughed
and continued eating. When we were done we tied everything and went
to get dressed.

I stood in front of my closet not knowing what to wear when Xoli barged
in my room in a long flawless rose gold dress with a slit on her side that
goes right to her hip bone. You could clearly see that she wasn’t wearing
any panties she looked gorgeous. I whistled and she did a 360 for me.

Me: “ You look gorgeous” she smiled and bowed.

Xoli: “ I am going to give it to Nqoba so good i will come home with aa

ring on my finger” i laughed and went back to looking for something to
dress in. She pushed me aside and looked in. She gave me my silver
strap shoes and a silver club backless dress with slits on the side. I
looked sexy. This dress i bought and i never wore it.

Xoli: “ Maybe i should change i mean look at you. You look fantastic my
friend” i smiled and looked at myself again. She tried to apply make up on
my face but i said nope i only settled for the red lipstick. I fixed my curly
weave and took my bag.

My phone rang as i walked into the kitchen. It was Nqoba.

Me: “ Mangamahle” he chuckled.

Nqoba: “ You see why you should marry me, you melt my heart” i
laughed.
Me: “ What can i do for you Mr Msomi?” Xoli came in the kitchen and she
was all dolled up. Nqoba would definitely be taken with her.

Nqoba: “ I am downstairs to pick you girls up.”

Me: “ Oh okay. We are on our way” i hung up and told Xoli that Nqoba is
here. We left the apartment after closing all the windows and locked the
door. We took a lift downstairs and as soon as the doors opened Nqoba’s
jaw dropped. He quickly walked to us and hugged me whispering in my
ear.

Nqoba: “ Thank you” i was confused until he let me go and went to Xoli.
He kisses her senseless i even blushed on her behalf. They finally pulled
away and they laughed.
Xoli: “ Wow” she looked at Nqoba and you could see that she was in a
world of her own. I looked at Nqoba and he had the same look as well.

Me: “ Okay. Can we go now?” i walked ahead leaving them behind. I

heard Xoli giggle. I got to Nqoba’s car and his driver opened the door for
me i shook my head no and told him to open the front door. I didn’t want
to hold the candle for them. I sat in front and the love birds got in the
back. They completely shut out the outside world and we all over each
other.

The driver got in and looked at my thighs with his eyes wide opened. I
cleared my throat quiet a few times before he started the car clearly
embarrassed and drove away.

I looked ahead and i was excited about the party.

Nqoba: “ Baby are you okay?” i thought he was talking to Xoli but he
repeated.

Nqoba: “ My wife, are you well?” i turned and looked at him. His head
was on Xoli’s lap.
Me: “ I am okay my husband” i winked at Xoli and she blushed causing
me to laugh.

We finally arrived at the venue and it looked great. We got out of the car
and the couple walked ahead leaving me to find my way in.

The moment i stepped inside the hall and people turned to look at me. I
looked confused until Nqoba came and fetched me. I went to their table.
Me: “ What was everyone looking at?”

Nqoba: “ They were looking at how beautiful you are” i smiled and sat at
the table. His parents and Carol were there. I greeted and sat down.
Carol: “ Have you seen Nqubeko?”

Me: “ I last saw him at the office with you” she nodded tightly. His father
uncomfortably. The love birds were giggling away talking to Mrs Msomi.
Finally they asked for Nqubeko to come on stage and make the “special”
announcement. I figured he wanted to propose but he was nowhere to be
seen. Right that moment my phone rang and it was Nqubeko.

I excused myself and quickly went outside.

Me: “ Where are you? Everyone is looking for you!”

Nqubeko: “ You still have my house keys?” snarled clearly drunk

Me: “ Yes i do” he gave me his house keys long ago for when he was out
of town and needed some documents at his place.

Nqubeko: “ Please come.” He hung up leaving me dumb struck. As

queue Nqoba came rushing to me.
Nqoba: “ Please tell me that was my brother on the phone?” he looked
panicky.

Me: “ Yes it was and he sounded very drunk”

Nqoba: “ What? F#ck F@ck!” he shouted and put his hands on his head.

Me: “ What’s going on? I need to get to his place. He asked me to come
to him” he took out his phone and called his driver to come pick me up.

Nqoba: “ Make sure that he sobers up. Will try come by later. Take care
of my brother” he kissed my cheek and walked right inside. The driver
came around and i got in. He drove away with a highly anxious me.

On the way i kept thinking the worst and asked myself why doesn’t he
call Carol to come. Finally we got to Nqubeko’s house. I quickly jumped
off and rushed inside. I deactivated the alarm and took off my shoes. I
placed my bag on the kitchen counter. I ran upstairs straight to his
bedroom.


Me: “ Nqubeko!!!” i shouted.

Nqubeko: “ I’m out here.” He shouted from the balcony. I rushed there
and stopped on my tracks. He was sitting on a chair leaning back. He
had mid leg white socks and a grey sweat shorts; he was topless. He
looked freaken gorgeous. He had a bottle of Cîroc vodka on his hands.

Me: “ Nqubeko, what’s going on?” he looked at me with his half closed
eyes.
Nqubeko: “ You were dressed like that at a party?” he pointed at me with
his free hand.

Me: “ Why did you call me here Nqubeko” he sniffed. He had his head
bowed down i walked over to him.
Me: “What’s going on?”

Nqubeko: “ Can i trust you?” he wiped his tears.

Me: “ Yes you can trust me” he nodded and suddenly pulled me to his
lap. I was straddling him sitting right on his crotch. His eyes darkened.

Nqubeko: “ What would you do if i were to kiss you here; here and here?”
he trailed his finger down my throat right to the middle of my boobs my
breath caught. I tried getting off him but he locked me in. I regretted
sitting on him right that moment.

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I looked at this amazingly gorgeous man in front of me. I was locked in
his arms and I wanted to get away. He looked at me and pulled me to him
our chests touching. He tilted his head to the side and ran his tongue on
my parted lips. I jumped out of his lap so fast I nearly fell. I balanced
myself on the rails.

Me: “ Nqubeko; why am I here?” he stood up and walked towards me. He

was tripping and couldn’t walk straight. I backed away and I was came to
a dead end because my back was against the glass. I turned and walked
to his bedroom. I needed to create some distance. I got to the bedroom
and stood by the door.

Me: “ Nqubeko what’s going on?” he came to me but I screamed. I

seemed to have startled him.
Me: “ Stop! If you don’t tell me what’s going on with you I am going to
leave” he huffed and sat on the bed.

Nqubeko: “ They betrayed me. SHE betrayed me. How could they do this
to me?” he shouted and I jumped.

Me: “ Who did? What happened Nqubeko?” I went and sat next to him
but wit a bit of space.

Nqubeko: “ After work I took Carol to the room and we had early dinner.
Received a call from my father saying that a client was waiting for me so I
quickly dashed to where the person was but o remembered that I left
important documents at the hotel so I drove back there and I saw them”
his voice was breaking.

Me: “ You sae who?” I went to kneel in front of him.

Nqubeko: “ They didn’t even lock the door and she looked like she was
really enjoying herself. I couldn’t even breathe. I felt so betrayed”

Me: “ Who?” I shouted because he was speaking in riddles.

Nqubeko: “ Carol and my father!” he shouted back and I gasped. I was
utterly shocked.

Me: “ How…why…” he chuckled and drank his vodka.

Nqubeko: “ I think you know how. He was on top of her and they even
changed positions. That is when they saw me.”

Me: “ I’m so sorry Nqubeko. I’m really sorry.” He nodded and waved me
away.
Nqubeko: “ It’s okay. I mean I didn’t love Carol but I care about her you
know. I would have understood if it was someone else but it was my
damn father! He cheated on my mother”

Now I understood why Nqubeko was so messed up. He was a mommy’s

boy through and through. The thought of his mother being hurt must have
hit him hard because he always says that he would do anything to keep
his mother happy.

Me: “ I’m sorry. What are you going to do?” he shook his head.
Nqubeko: “ I don’t know” he put his hands under my arms and pulled me
to his lap again.

Me: “ Nqubeko we can’t” he placed his forehead on mine.

Nqubeko: “ Please make me feel good. Make this pain go away” he
whispered to my mouth.

He leaned over and kissed me. Like really kissed me at first I didn’t
respond but he deepened the kiss and I responded. I moved closer to
him and we kissed. We kissed till we ran out of breath. Suddenly he
stood up with me in his arms and flipped me over to the bed.

He took of my dress and my heart was beating very fast. I was left with
my lace panties only. He licked his lips before coming to me. He kissed
me again his hands all over my body. His kissed trailed down to my neck.
He got to my breasts and he groaned.

He held them together and his tongue went from one nipple to another.
He went down to my tummy and kissed me there. He took off my panties
and finally came to my nana. He sniffed and groaned. He then nuzzled
my nana and groaned again.

He swept his tongue from my anus to my nana. I slightly got up but he

pulled me down and he did it again. He kept doing that until he started
eating me out. He pulled my nub with his teeth I yelped. He pulled it in his
mouth and sucked. He sucked so hard I forgot my own name. I have had
oral sex but this was on another level.

He pulled back and looked at me; he shook his head smiling and he dove
back in. He pushed a finger in and I jumped. It was uncomfortable and a
bit painful. He looked at me with a questioning look. I just closed my eyes
and enjoyed the moment. His finger kept going in and out it was so
wonderful. He added his tongue in there and then I felt this shocking
wave taking over and my body shook uncontrollably.

He stood up quickly and took off his socks and pants. When I saw his guy
my eyes widened. He got in between my legs.

Nqubeko: “ I’ll be gentle” he said with his half closed eyes. He kissed me
and I could taste the vodka. He pulled my legs and positioned his guy. He
rubbed it against my cookie and I grinded right there with him. We were
so much in the zone that I even forgot that I was a virgin.

I remembered that when I felt him push in I screamed with my eyes wide
with shock. He shook his head and kissed.
Nqubeko: “ Relax” he whispered against my lips.


He then pushed so hard I screamed he covered my mouth with his and

kissed me. I pushed him trying to get him off me but he just pushed until I
felt something tear. I screamed louder with tears falling down on the side
of my face.

Nqubeko: “ I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m in” he started to move and he hissed.
He stopped for a second and started moving again. I was on pain but he
was busy groaning and breathing hard. I wanted it to be over. I felt him
picking up his pace and then he slammed hard into me and stopped. It
was like he was frozen on the spot after that he collapsed on top of me.

I wanted him to get off me because I was in pain; as if he could hear me

he got off me and looked at his guy. It had a white substance and some
blood. He pulled me to him and we went to the bathroom. We took a
shower with him bathing me. No one said a word to anyone we just took
a shower. After that he switched off the water and got out. He came back
with a towel around his waist and gave me one for my hair and another
one for my body.

He took my hand leading us to his bedroom. He lotioned my body and

gave me a t-shirt to wear.
Nqubeko: “ Sit. I need to change the sheets” I just sat and didn’t say
anything. I was too embarrassed to say anything. He changed the sheet.
I tried to stand and help him but he told me to sit. My nana was really
sore even my knees were shaking. He finished making the bed and
picked me up from the couch. He gently placed me on the bed and
walked to his closet. He came back in his boxers and he seemed very
sober. He kissed my forehead pulling me into his arms and we slept.

Insert 5

The morning after

I woke up next morning with a very sore body. I looked around the room i
was in and i realised that i was in Nqubeko’s bedroom. Events from the
previous night came crashing in and i panicked. What was i thinking? He
wasn’t even sober. He wasn’t in bed so i got out of bed and quickly went
to the bathroom. I peed and my nana was burning. I flushed and opened
the shower.

Nqubeko: “ Taking a shower so early” i was startled. I turned with a hand

on my chest.
Me: “ I have to so that i can go home and get a change of clothes. I need
to get to work ASAP” he came in the bathroom and he was dressed in
navy shorts and push ins.

Nqubeko: “ Come eat breakfast. You will shower afterwards” he circled

his arm around my waist and inhaled.

Nqubeko: “ You smell so good” he bit my neck and i moaned. He let go;
switched off the shower and pulled me to the bedroom. Right there in the
middle of the bed was a tray filled with food and a rose next to it. He took
my hand and led me to bed. He opened the covers and i got in. He went
around and also got in bed.

Me: “ This looks delicious” it really was mouth watering.

Nqubeko: “ Made by yours truly” i side eyed him and laughed.

Me: “ Yeah right” i helped my self to some eggs; toast and tomatoes.
Nqubeko: “ Bacon?” he asked holding it out. I just shook my head.

Me: “ I don’t eat pork” he frowned.

Nqubeko: “ You don’t know what you’re missing” he popped it in his
mouth and winked. Idiot.

Me: “ About last night...” he cut me off raising up his hand.
Nqubeko: “ Can we just enjoy breakfast and not talk about it just yet?” he
leaned over and kissed my cheek.

We continued eating over light conversation and joking around. After he

was done he took the tray downstairs. I sat in bed and just thought of
how stupid i was. How could i just give it up, to my boss even. I don’t
even know how i was going to work with him without thinking about what
we did. I was lost in my thoughts when i felt him snapping his fingers.

Nqubeko: “ Hey; where did you go?” he smiled and i smiled back.
Me: “ I was just thinking about...”

Nqubeko: “ Last night yes. Let’s talk about last night babe. It was
amazing and YOU gave me the nost precious gift” he kissed my lips and i
looked puzzled.

Me: “ It’s going to be awkward working for you plus Carol being there i
just don’t...”
Nqubeko: “ Please don’t mention her name. We are not even talking
about her. We are talking about us”

Me: “ How can i not mention her? Izolo you were ready to propose but
now it’s all over. Just like that?” he got out of bed and started to pace.

Nqubeko: “ She slept with my father.” He stopped pacing and looked at

me with eyes filled with rage.
Nqubeko: “ She is as good as dead to me” he turned and walked to the
bathroom. I heard water running and he came back. He stretched out his
hand to me.

Nqubeko: “ Come” i just looked at his hand and got out of bed on my
own. I limped to the bathroom and he sighed deeply as i tried to walk
past him. He pulled me by my arm and pulled me to his.

Nqubeko: “ I am sorry. I didn’t mean to shout at you okay?” he kissed my

forehead and i nodded. He picked me up and walked to the bathroom
with me laughing non stop.

Me: “ Put me down!” i giggled and he really did put me down. We shared
an innocent shower. He said he will let me heal for a few days after that
he will make love to me and i will enjoy it. Well i guess it seems as if we
will be seeing more of each other since he is promising to see me again.

We finally finished taking the shower and he did exactly the same thing
he did last night. I took the towels and wrapped my hand plus body. We
went to the bedroom and i sat on the bed. I put on my panties since i
washed them last night. I looked at my dress and Nqubeko also looked at
it.

Nqubeko: “ That dress is too revealing” i gave him a bored look.

Me: “ Finally” i raised up my hands and went for my dress.

Nqubeko: “ What?” he took 2 strides and took my dress.

Me: “ I met my father. All these years searching for you; you’ve been right
here. Thanks dad” Nqubeko chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ You know for that very smart ass mouth i am going to burn
this piece of cloth” i looked at him in disbelief.

Me: “ You wouldn’t dare” he started backing out of the bedroom and
turned on his heel out the door. I quickly followed him out and i found his
electric fireplace lit on. He was dangling the dress on his hand.


Nqubeko: “ Repeat that shit you just said i the bedroom?” he grinned.
Me: “ Nqubeko please” i stepped closer to him.

Nqubeko: “ Not miss smart mouth now; are we?” he went closer to the
fire and i screamed.
Me: “ Do you know how much that dress cost me? Please don’t throw it in
the fire. I beg you. I will do anything” he gave me a very mischievous
smile.

Nqubeko: “ Anything?” he asked wiggling his eyebrows.

Me: “ Yesss. Anything” i didn’t even know what i was agreeing to.

Nqubeko: “ We spend today in bed” my eyes widened.

Me: “ What about work? I can’t miss work”

Nqubeko: “ You can and you will. Boss’s orders” i rolled my eyes.
Me: “ I don’t know.i...” he cut me off.

Nqubeko: “ You don’t want to play naughty with boss?” he asked in an

Indian accent i burst out laughing.
Nqubeko: “ Plus i have already booked us off today. So what will it be?
You’ll go home naked or play naughty” i was really defeated.

Me: “ We’ll stay here the whole day”

Nqubeko: “ You naughty child” i laughed because he was actually bring

silly. Seeing him this carefree was something new. So we agreed to just
cuddle today. I don’t know what tomorrow brings but in the meantime i
will just enjoy this moment.
*
We really did stay in bed that day. We talked about our childhoods and
funny silly stories. We also went to cook dinner and we ate. He promised
not to touch me again but that we just forgot because we got it on again
and again and again.

Time came for me to go home. He gave me his sweatpants and t-shirt.

Nqubeko: “ I mean who wears a dress without a bra? Look at how pointy
your boobs are?” they were really pointy.

Me: “Leave me alone” i covered my boobs with my arms. I wore my

shoes and took my bag. He really did burn the dress and promised to
take me out for shopping to replace the dress.

We walked out of the house and went to his car. We got inside the
Mercedes and he drove away. Funny thing is that i never told him where i
live but he knew the way. We got to my place and he parked outside.

Nqubeko: “ Do you really have to sleep here tonight?” he sulked.

Me: “ Yep i have to. I’m sure Xoli is worried sick” he leaned over and
kissed me.

Nqubeko: “ This sucks. Take care of you self okay? See you tomorrow”
he kissed my nose and i giggled. I walked inside the building and the
security guy looked at me. I understood though. I was dressed i baggy
men’s clothes and heels. I got in the lift and got off my floor.

I opened the door and i was met with a very tight hug.
Xoli: “ Oh my god where have you been? I have been worried sick. I even
went to the police” i rolled my eyes and went inside. That is when i saw
that we had company.

Me: “ Nqoba” he chuckled.
Nqoba: “ My wife. Nice outfit” Xoli stopped talking and looked at me.

Xoli: “ What are you wearing? No scratch that, whose clothes are you
wearing?” i giggled and went to the kitchen. I poured my self a glass of
wine. I went to join the..

Me: “ How was last night?” Xoli just blushed.

Nqoba: “ Is he okay?”i nodded quickly and took a generous sip of my
wine.

Xoli: “ You don’t mind if Nqoba stays over right?” i giggled.

Me: “ Where did he sleep last night?” they looked at each such with
adoration.

Nqoba: “ We could always go back to my place” Xoli shook her head.

Me: “ Yes you guys can stay over. As for me i am tired i just want to
sleep” i yawned.

Xoli: “ What were you doing the whole day?” her eyes widened and she
came closer to me.
Me: “ What?” i looked at her like she was crazy.

Xoli: “ You gave up the eye last night didn’t you?”

Nqoba: “ The eye?” he looked confused and i just blushed.

Xoli: “ Your boss broke your virginity!” she beamed.

Nqoba: “ YOU WERE A VIRGIN?” he shouted and we both looked at him.

Me: “ Yeah i was. Anyways let me leave you love birds” i took my shoes
and walked to my bedroom. I switched on my phone and messages
flooded in. Most were from Xoli and Nqoba. I took off the sweatpants and
got in bed. I was drifting to sleep when my phone rang.

Me: “ Hmmm?”
Nqubeko: “ You’re sleeping already? I miss you baby” i quickly sat up.

Me: “ You do?” i was shocked.

Nqubeko: “ Of course i miss you” that is when the conversation started i
don’t know how long we spoke but all i know is that i passed out when i
woke up it was morning.

I quickly git ready for work because i was running a bit late. I went for a
quick shower and went to get dressed. I wore my cream chino pants and
a peach silk shirt with gold shoes. I fixed my hair and rushed to the
kitchen with my bag.

I found the love birds having breakfast. I wanted to take fruits and head
out but Xoli gave me a look so i sat down and had breakfast.
Nqoba: “ I am going to drop you off at work after that i will come pick you
up baby neh?”

Me: “ Baby? Wenana!” i chuckled.

Xoli: “ We have decided to give it a try” she blushed playing with her
hands.

Me: “ Like as in exclusive?” they both nodded looking all shy.

Me: “ Ncaaaw! That is so cute” i hugged them both and finished my
breakfast. I was finally done i took my bowl and washed it. Nqoba took
his car keys and we left. We got to his car and he drove me to work.


Nqoba: “ So you slept with my brother; the same night that he broke up
with his girlfriend of 5 years”
Me: “ Please Nqobani don’t judge me. If you’re going to do that please
stop the car i will find my way to work”

Nqoba: “ Relax kid. I’m just worried about you” i just kept quiet. The rest
of the way was quiet and i liked it. I finally got to work and i thanked him
for the ride before jumping off.

I got in the building and went up to my floor. I found a pile of files on my

desk and i was reminded that i didn’t come to work the previous day. I
started clearing up my table when the elevator opened and out came
Nqubeko with Carol holding hands i instantly became dizzy.

Carol was in high spirits whereas Nqubeko looked pissed and

uncomfortable.
Carol: “ Oh hello dear. Please get me and my fiance some breakfast”

Me: “ Fiance?” i looked at Nqubeko and he looked away clenching his

jaw.
Carol: “ Yes fiance. He proposed this morning. Isn’t that lovely?” i felt my
heart break into pieces.

Me: “ Very well Miss Nozulu. I will order your breakfast anything else?
Sir?” Nqubeko wouldn’t even talk or look at me.
Carol: “ No that will be all dear” they walked into the office and i sat down
nearly losing my balance..i finally let the tears fall.

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After crying eyeballs out i went back to my desk. I did order their
breakfast and went to the bathroom to lick my wounds. I got to my desk
and decided to block everything out. I started doing some work done. I
was working like a maniac i didn’t even see Carol leave.

I worked for a while before my desk phone rang.

Me: “ Mr Msomi” he sighed.

Nqubeko: “ Please come to my office” he hung up and i huffed. I calmed

my nerves down and went to his office. I found him standing by the
window looking outside. I just stood there waiting for him to turn around
because i knew that he heard me walking in. He turned around and
looked at me.

Nqubeko: “ Sit” his face was closed off. I stood up with my note pad on
my hands. He gave me a look but i just stood my ground. He sighed and
came around the table. He tried touching my hand but i yanked it off him.

Me: “ Don’t touch me” i hissed. He stepped back.

Nqubeko: “I’m sorry” i just nodded because i didn’t trust my voice to
speak. I was holding it in. I really didn’t want to talk about my stupidity.

Nqubeko: “ I know i hurt you. Baby i...”

Me: “ I am not your baby Mr Msomi. What can i do for you sir?” my vision
was now blurry.

Nqubeko: “ Cancel all my meetings today. I want to catch up with some

work and please ask Nqoba to come through” i nodded and turned. He
called my name.
Nqubeko: “ For what it’s worth; i love you” i quickly turned and looked at
him. I really wanted to slap him.

Me: “ You’re marrying her so that is just bullshit” he raised a brow and i
walked out. I was so angry i wanted to slap him.
Nqubeko: “ I’m sorry but it’s been her all along.” I nodded and left the
office.

I got to my desk and breathed out loud. I fanned my face; i seriously

needed to calm down because i was diabetic. I finally calmed down and i
made phone calls cancelling meetings. I finally called Nqoba and he
answered almost immediately.

Nqoba: “ My wife”
Me: “ Nqoba hey. Nqubeko said to call you. He wants you to come over
please” i said that on my most professional voice.

Nqoba: “ Aaah baby. Askies my love” he sighed.

Me: “ What time do you think you’ll be here?”

Nqoba: “ Give me an hour” i thanked him and ended the call.

I switched to pilot mode; i can bee a cold bitch if i want. I don’t even know
where i got it from because my mom was the sweetest person in the
world. I buried my self with work and after some time Nqoba came. He
had this pity filled look in his eyes.

Me: “ Mr Msomi is waiting for you. You can go through” he shook his
head and came around my desk. He pulled me in his arms and said
“Breathe” i felt my whole body shook. I felt him scoop me up. He moved
us to the boardroom and locked.

I fell on my knees and just cried. I let out the loudest cry and i am sure
that the whole floor heard me. He just stood there looking at me. When i
began to quietened down he pulled me in his arms rocking me. We heard
the loudest knock on the door.

Nqubeko: “ Nqobani open this fuckin door right this minute before i break
down this door!” he shouted banging the door. Nqoba looked at me and
gave me bottled water to drink.
Nqoba: “ You okay?” i nodded.

Me: “ I’m okay.” I whispered. My voice was gone.

Nqubeko: “ I am warning you Nqobani i will shoot down this door if you
don’t open” he looked at me and i nodded. He went to open the door and
Nqubeko barged in. He punched Nqoba and i screamed. He came to me
but i backed away and he stopped. He rubbed a hand over his face.

Nqubeko: “ Baby i am sorry. Believe me when i say that i love you but i
also love Carol and i want to marry her and her alone”

Nqoba: “ Why don’t you leave Nokwazi the fuck alone then?” Nqubeko
quickly turned and charged for his brother but i ran after him and held his
arm.

Nqubeko: “ Stay the fuck out of this Nqoba or else i really will fuck you
up” Nqoba looked pisses but he kept quiet.
Me: “Nqubeko i am happy for you. We should forget about what
happened and move on from what happened because you are marrying
someone else and i am the ex virgin that you used”

Nqubeko: “ Baby don’t say that. I love you” my tears fell and he cupped
my face kissing the corner of my mouth.
Me: “ Leave her then. Be with me. Give us a chance” he stepped back
and i sighed.

Nqubeko: “ I love her Kwazi” i chuckled but deep down inside i was
breaking.
Me: “ Okay fine. From today onwards you are Mr Msomi and we will
forget these last 2 days happened. We will never talk about it.”

Nqubeko: “ But baby i..”

Me: “ Promise me” i asked in my breaking voice.

Nqoba: “ Come my wife. Let me take you home” he held out his hand.
Nqubeko: “ I told you to fuckin shut up” he said blocking my way

Nqoba: “ You are going to fuck me up yes, give it your best shot but know
this you will not only lose Nokwazi but you will lose your brother as well.
So what will it be?”
He kept quiet for a long time i even thought he would fuck him up but he
finally let go. He got out of my way and i went to Nqoba and took his
hand.

Nqoba: “ She is taking the rest of the day off” he circled an arm around
my body and we got out of the boardroom. When we got out people were
standing outside listening.

Nqoba: “ The Fuck? Don’t you have work to do?” he clicked his tongue
and we walked to my desk and took my things. He held my hand and we
walked to the elevator. All the time i was sniffing and crying. The lift came
and we got to ground floor.

We walked to his car and the driver opened for us. I looked out the
window and zoned out. We drove in this awkward silence.
Me: “ Thank you” i whispered.
Nqoba: “ It’s okay my wife. I’m you husband and i take care of what’s
mine” he placed a hand on top of mine and took out his phone making a
phone call.

Nqoba: “ Can you get home early? Nokwazi needs you” he nodded and
ended the call. I figured its Xoli. We finally got to my place and he walked
me in. I got inside and went straight to the kitchen and took out a bottle of
wine. He took it from my arm.

Nqoba: “ This is not the solution. Believe me i have been there and it’s
not a nice place to be in BUT don’t turn to the bottle” i rolled my eyes.
Me: “ Yea dad” he chuckled. I wasn’t feeling very good so i excused
myself.

Me: “ I need to sleep. My head hurts” he looked sad.

Nqoba: “ Go rest. I’ll order something to eat.”

Me: “ I am not hungry” he frowned.

Nqoba: “ I didn’t ask you” i clicked my tongue and went to my bedroom.

I took off my clothes and remained in my underwear. I got in bed and

tried to sleep but tears wouldn’t stop falling. I felt the door open and Xoli
cuddled me from behind.

Xoli: “ Baby...” she said that and i started crying all over again. She
kissed my head countless times. I felt so stupid. My first heart break; my
virgin breaker and my first love. I fell asleep crying i even had a
headache and hiccups but i managed to fall asleep cuddled in Xoli’s
arms.
I woke up later with a very heavy headache and a sore throat. I was in
my underwear so I wore my gown and went to the lounge area. I found
Xoli and Nqoba lip locking she was straddling and dry humping him. I
cleared my throat and she quickly jumped; she nearly fell and I laughed.


Xoli: “ I erm I err I was about to wake you” she cleared her throat looking
on the floor I cracked up even more.
They both looked at me with that look and I hated it they were ruining my
mood. I walked to the kitchen and took out 1litre bottle of water and a
glass. I went to join them. I poured myself a glass and burped.

Xoli: “ You are disgusting yazi” I chuckled.

Nqoba: “ How are you feeling kid?” he looked concerned.

Me: “ I’m very good bro.” he shook his head no.

Nqoba: “ I ordered dinner. You should eat. You haven’t eaten all day”

Me: “ Water is enough for me thank you very much” he chuckled but he
had a pissed expression on his face.
Xoli: “ Babe; you have to eat my love” she came and sat next to me
hooking her arm around my neck.

Nqoba: “ We ordered the sea food platter at John Dory’s.” I looked at Xoli
and rolled my eyes. She knew how much I love their seafood.
Xoli: “ What? You know you love their food” she smiled.
Me: “ I suppose I could eat a bite or 2” they laughed and I gave them a
sour look.
Nqoba: “ Will you be able to continue working for him?”

Me: “ If I quit; where will I find another job. I need this job to put Sanele to
school”
Nqoba: “ You could come work for me” I chuckled.

Me: “ You want me to shake my behind for thirsty men? No thanks”

Nqoba owned a gentlemen’s club.
Nqoba: “ You’ll do admin work and..”

Me: “ It’s fine Nqoba. If it gets tough I will leave and go somewhere else
or come to work for you” he nodded and the subject was closed. There
was a knock on the door. Nqoba stood up because it was dinner so he
had to pay. I was left with Xoli and she looked me.

Xoli: “ How are you feeling?” I shook my head as fresh tears made their
way down my cheeks.
Me: “ I’m tired if crying babe but it hurts and to make things worse he told
me that he loves me Xoli. He fucks me; goes and gets engaged and
come back to tell me he loves me.” I let out aa sob. I really was tired of
crying but I was truly hurt. I needed my mommy.

Xoli: “ What can I do to make it better?” I shook my head.

Me: “ There is nothing you can do. I want to die” she pulled me in her
arms and rocked me.

Nqoba: “ Dinner is…” he stopped mid sentence when he found us in that

position. I got up and went to wash my face. I came back and ate my
dinner. They tried getting me to talk but I just smiled faintly and ate. After
I was done I told them I needed to sleep so I bit them farewell and went
to bed.

I had just woken up not so long ago so it was going to be difficult to sleep
so I took a sleeping pills and got to bed. I listened to the pain until I fell
asleep.

Waking up the next morning wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be

because I set the alarm and woke up. I took a shower and got dressed in
my mid thigh navy dress with stockings underneath. I wore my 5 inch
navy stilettos and finished my look with a white formal jacket.

I tied my hair into a super neat but and sprayed some perfume on my
body. I took a deep breath before opening the door and walked to the
kitchen. The moment I appeared Nqoba whistled and I did a 360 for him.
Xoli also joined in clapping her hands.

Nqoba: “ I feel sorry for a mother fucker”

Xoli: “ You look dangerous” I winked.

Me: “ Well no use moping around. I need to pick myself up.”

Nqoba: “ Good for you baby girl” I kissed Xoli on the cheek.

Xoli: “ I’m happy for you my love” Nqoba cleared his throat.
Nqoba: “ So you erm you need me to come to work today?” I shook my
head.

Me: “ I’m good. I can take care of myself” he nodded tightly and
continued to eat. After breakfast we left him dropping me off work and
Xoli driving herself to work.

I got off the car after thanking my baby boo. I got in the building and the
reception lady looked at me.
R.L: “ Well damn! You look sexy” I blushed and thanked her. I continued
to the lift and got in. As it was about to close a hand stopped it from
closing. Nqubeko stepped in and his eyes widened. I just pressed the
floor number and looked ahead. He cleared his throat.

Nqubeko: “ Morning”
Me: “ Morning Mr Msomi” I replied coolly
Nqubeko: “ You look really nice”
Me: “ Thank you.”

Nqubeko: “ Please Nokwazi i..” I cut him off.

Me: “ Can we move on from this or better yet can YOU move on from this
because I have” he nodded and kept quiet. We got off our lift and I
walked ahead. I got to my desk and connected everything while Nqubeko
left for his office. I started my daily work and during lunch Carol came.

Me: “ I will call Mr Msomi for you” she took out something from her bag.
Carol: “ Please do I have news to share. I have to tell him that he is
about to become a father” I don’t know why my heart hurt like that but It
did. Lucky for me the door opened and he walked out. He saw Carol and
frowned.

Nqubeko: “ What are you doing here Carol?”

Carol: “ Baby” she ran to him and hugged him . They went to his office
and closed the door. I was called in by Nqubeko and when I got in he
looked very pissed and Carol was sitting on his lap.

Me: “ You called me Mr Msomi” Carol stroked his chin.

Carol: “ Actually Dear I called you. I need you to organise our
engagement party that will take place in 2 weeks”
Me: “ Excuse me?”

Carol: “ I said you need to organise the engagement party now go get
something to write on” I turned and walked out. My heart was bleeding.
He said he loves me; a part of me hoped that he would change his mind
and not go through with it. It’s time to accept it and start looking for a new
job. There is no way in hell I can work for Nqubeko after this. I wiped my
tears and looked at myself in a mirror.


Me: “ You are beautiful; you matter and you are enough” I kept repeating
that with my cracked voice. I didn’t believe it at all but I told myself that I
had to keep pushing and told myself that everything will be okay
*
It’s been 2 months since i last saw Nqubeko. Turns out i didn’t even had
to leave the building; i was moved to another department and my boss
was this amazing woman Smangele probably same age as my mom. I
shared everything with her and she made me forget sometimes.

I would sometimes see Carol but never Nqubeko and that was just okay
because i needed to move on and forget about him. Nqoba and Xoli were
still at it and they were quiet serious. I really was happy for them. So i did
go see mom and asked her what was going on and turns out she needed
money for Sanele’s school. It was urgent cash and Nqoba came through
for me.

So today was the executive’s quarterly meeting and i was going with
Mam Sma as i will be recording things for her and taking important
paperwork. She told me to dress extra sexy because she really doesn’t
want to out dress me so i just decided to wear my knee length off white
off shoulder dress and i noticed how i was gaining weight. I had to go
back to gym. I finished off my look with peach heels and a peach bag. I
combed my bob weave and i looked extra delicious. I was rather early so
i decided that i would grab an apple and be on my way.

I got out of my bedroom after tiding up my bedroom. I heard moaning

sounds and as i approached the kitchen there was Xoli and Nqoba
sexing on the kitchen counter. Xoli’s on leg was on the floor and the other
one was on top of the counter. She was holding her butt with her hand.
Nqoba was coming from behind and he looked rather huge.

I quickly turned and walked back to my bedroom and opened the door.
After that i banged it making sure that i make noise with my shoes. I
approached the kitchen yet again and the had pulled apart. Nqoba was
now sitting on a chair while Xoli had on her gown. She looked really
flushed.

Me: “ Morning family” i said in a very cheerful voice.

Them: “ Morning” i went to the fridge and took an apple.

Xoli: “ You’re up early. Thought i’d start on breakfast” i waved the apple in
the air.
Me: “ I’ll eat later. I have to get to work. I have a big meeting to go to”

Xoli: “ You can’t just...” i cut her off.

Me: “ Will grab something on the way.” I headed to the door and Nqoba
stopped me.

Nqoba: “ Why don’t i give you a lift?” he asked standing up making his
way to me.

Me: “ No you guys relax. I don’t want to interrupt you again. Finish off
your morning glory” i closed the door leaving them shocked. I giggled and
walked to the lift. I got to the ground floor and Mam Sma’s car was
already waiting for me. I skipped to it and got in front.

Me: “ Morning mah” she just smiled and pointed at her cheek.
Sma: “ Hey baby. I was just about to call you. You look stunning” i
winked.

Me: “ Well i had to represent” i said rubbing my shoulders. She started

the car and she drove to work.

On the way she was briefing me about what would happen at the
meeting. We drove thru McDonalds for breakfast after that we went to
work. The meeting was going to be early so we had an hour to get
everything ready. Mam Sma called me inside the office.

Me: “ Yes Mrs Vezi” she gave me a look and i chuckled.

Sma: “ Could you go downstairs and give this to my son. He is waiting at

the reception area.” She gave me a bag and i went out. I got in the lift
and went to the ground floor. I got off and he was seated by the window
in one of the couches. As i made way to him the doors opened and
Nqubeko walked in.

It’s been 2 months and he looked delicious still. He was looking at me like
really looking and i frowned. Simo stood up and i smiled. I hugged him
and he kissed my lips.

Simo was really handsome if you were to really look at him you would
see that he actually likes guys because he didn’t act like it but he was
always looking at me. He confirmed it when we went to lunch last month.

Simo: “ Hey my love” he had a rather deep voice. I snuggled close to him
and he chuckled..
Me: “ You smell good babe.” He brushed my hair and i pulled back.

Simo: “ Who is that sexy specimen staring at us?” i turned around and
Nqubeko was look at us with a very angry expression. I turned and
looked at Simo.

Me: “ Kiss me again. Just peck” he chuckled and he kissed me again. He

placed a long baby kiss on my mouth and suddenly someone cleared his
throat and i knew that it was Nqubeko. We pulled back and Simo wiped
my mouth and took the bag.

Simo: “ I will call you”
Me: “ Bye baby” he hugged again and he left.

I looked at Nqubeko and he was very pissed he was even breathing hard
and fast.

Me: “ Morning Mangamahle. How are you this morning?” i greeted and
passed him. He chuckled shaking his head and he followed me. We got
to the lift and we both got it. As soon as it started to move he stopped it.
Me: “ what the hell? Please stop messing around. I need to go et ready
for the meeting”

Nqubeko: “ Oh but i’ll just be a minute.” He pulled me to him and kissed

me. He picked me up pinning me to the mirror part of the lift. He lifted up
my dress and pulled my panties aside. He unzipped his pants and pulled
out his guy.

I felt him make an entrance and i screamed. Its been a while it felt damn
good. He started to move and it was fast and deep. We were groaning
and moaning. I felt my body heat up and i released. He also released
after me. He stayed buried in me but he pulled back and looked at me.

Nqubeko: “ I missed you. I missed being inside you” i pushed him off me
and he quickly gave me a handkerchief to wipe myself.
Me: “ Please release the lift. I’m sure people want to use it” he cleaned
himself slowly after he was done he leaned on the rail.

Nqubeko: “ Is that your boyfriend?” his face changed.

Me: “ None of your business. You have Carol and next time go Fuck her
and not me” he ran a hand over his face. Whenever he did that it showed
that he was frustrated.

Nqubeko: “ I haven’t slept with anyone since you. Let alone Carol i just
can’t” he looked at me shocked.
Me: “ WHAT??” I shouted but he just pressed the lift to go up and he
quickly got out leaving me with questions running through my mind. What
the hell just happened and what the hell did he mean by what he just
said?

Insert 7

After that quickie i just felt even more stupid. I was actually starting to
heal but i just had to sleep with Nqubeko. I got to my desk and took my
bag. I went to the bathroom and freshened up. I went out and got things
ready. I made a few calls and ordered things that were needed at the
office. When time came Mrs Vezi came and we went to the 5th floor. We
got off the lift i felt dizzy. Sma held my arm.

Sma: “ Hey easy there. Are you okay?”

Me: “ Yes i am okay but feel very light headed.” I held my head and i
sway again.

Sma: “No baby iza” she takes my arm and leads me to the nearest chair.
She disappears for a while and come back with cold water. She gives me
the water and i almost finish the bottle. I didn’t realise how much i needed
that.

Me: “Thank you” she nodded brushing my back.

Sma: “ You okay? Can you walk to the boardroom?” i nodded and i got
up.

We walked to the boardroom and passed Nqubeko’s office. Outside my

old desk there was a guy working there. I almost laughed. Mam Sma was
holding my files and we finally got to the boardroom.


We sat down and she got me another bottle of water.

Sma: “ When this meeting is done we will go see the Dr baby”

Me: “ Mah i...” she held up her hand.

Sma: “ I don’t even want to hear it. You are going to the Dr. End of
discussion” i looked ahead and i was pissed because nothing was wrong
with me. I didn’t want to go to the Dr. People started coming in and
Nqoba was also in that lot. He came over to me flashing a smile. He
kissed my cheek and sat next to me.

Nqoba: “ My beautiful wife” i chuckled.

Me: “ Handsome husband”

Nqoba: “ I’m sorry about what you saw this morning. You were not
supposed to see that” he rubbed his head.
Me: “ It’s okay husband. No harm done” he smiled and suddenly his
smiled turned into a smirk.

Nqoba: “ Did you see how big i’m packing” he licked his lips and i
laughed.
Me: “ Oh god you are disgusting” he chuckled. I grabbed my bottled
water and drank. I started fanning myself because it was suddenly so
very hot.

Nqoba: “ Hey. Are you okay?”

Me: “ It’s hot in here. Aren’t you feeling hot?” he looked at me and around
the room. Seems like i was the only one feeling this way.

Nqoba: “ No babe. It’s just you plus you’re sweating.” He took out napkin
for me to wipe my face. I stood up and walked towards the door and i
bumped into Nqubeko and Carol.

Carol: “ Oh Dear; you’re leaving already?” i nodded.

Nqubeko: “ Carol will you just stop. You got what you wanted so please.
Just stop it!” he voice was hard and his eyes were red.

Carol: “ What; i just wanted to invite her to our wedding. It’s in Cape Town
next month. Imagine. Nqubeko really outdid himself” she kissed his
cheek and went in. He looked at me with teary eyes and i was teary
myself. I felt very stupid i wanted to die.

I went out and mah Sma called my name but my vision was to blurry and
i was dizzy. My head was spinning and i was very sick. My eyes
darkened and then i fainted.

I woke up later and i was in bed. It smelled so fresh and good. The
perfume belonged to my boss though. The door opened and Simo got on
followed by his mom. I forgot to mention that Simo is a Dr. When Sma
saw me she ran to me and hugged me.

Sma: “ Oh my word. Are you okay?” i sat up and my stomach growled.

Me: “ I’m okay. Just hungry” she giggled and hugged me again.

Sma: “ Let me go get you something to eat” she went out closing the door
behind her. Simo walked to me and he was carrying a bag.

Simo: “ Friend i need you to pee on this glass and leave it on top of the
sink. I will take if from there. Can you do that for me before i locate what
exactly is making you sick?”
Me: “ How did i get here?”

Simo: “ Your sexy man’s sexy brother brought you here. He was with
mom. Luckily i was home when they brought you here” i nodded and got
out of bed. I noticed that i was wearing an over size t-shirt. I turned and
smiled at Simo. I got the transparent glass and went to the bathroom. I
peed on the glass and placed it on top of the sink. I washed my hands
and looked at myself.

I actually looked pathetic and i just hated myself for how i have been.
One kiss and i have my legs spread out for Nqubeko just like that. I was
actually very cheap and it hurt so bad.

I got out of the bathroom after washing my face and went to the bedroom.
I found Sma already back with a tray of food. I got in under the cover and
she placed the tray on top of me. I went right in it. It was ribs and some
chicken with rolls and wors. It was a lot of food but i ate ate ate and ate.

Simo took some things from his bag and headed to the bathroom after
putting on white gloves.
Sma: “ You must have been hungry hey” i looked at her and she was
smiling. I nodded.

Me: “ This food is delicious. I never knew ribs were this good” she looked
shocked.
Sma: “ You’ve never eaten them?” i shook my head.

Me: “ Not a fan of pork” i continued eating and i downed my food with a
glass of juice before i burped.
Simo appeared from the bathroom and he took a book from his bag.

Sma: “ What? What’s that look that you have on your face? What’s going
on?” he shook his head.
Simo: ‘ Mom please excuse us”


Sma: “ No she is my baby so i have to be here” she said shaking her

head.
Simo: “Mom please” he raised his voice a bit and she got up and left. I
looked at Simo and my heart was beating fast.

Me: “ What’s going on?”

Simo: “ Honey when was the last time you had your period?” he looked
concerned.

Me: “ I last had it in...” i couldn’t even remember and i looked at him.
Simo: “ You are pregnant my love” he sighed deeply and i laughed.

Me: “ Yeah right. Say something else.” I slept on my back looking at the
ceiling.
Simo: “ You are pregnant and i am guessing Nqubeko is the father”

I quickly sat up and i really couldn’t believe it. I placed a hand on my

tummy and Sma got in. She looked at my hand and she placed a hand
over her mouth.

Sma: “ Nqubeko; what have you done!” i felt my cheeks getting wet. I was
crying. I let out a sob and Sma rushed to me and held me in her arms.
What am i going to do? My head was swimming in thoughts and i was
losing my mind.

Sma: “ We will figure everything out” she rubbed my back rocking me.
Nqubeko is getting married. He doesn’t care about me and i don’t care
what happens but i was not going to have an abortion. I wiped my tears
and got out of Sma’s embrace.

Me: “ I need to go home” Her eyes widened.
Sma: “ Stay please. I have to make sure you’re okay”

Me: “ Please mah. I have to go home. We’ll talk later. I just want to rest”
She said okay. I got off the bed and she gave me jeans to wear. I wore
them and her slippers. After that i took my things and walked out because
Simo said he’ll take me home.

The drive home was quiet and i couldn’t stop crying. I wanted to die but i
had to keep going because my baby needed me to be alright. We got to
my place and i hugged Simo tightly and didn’t want to let go.
Simo: “ Please don’t do anything stupid.” I smiled faintly.

Me: “ I won’t. I love you Simo okay?” he gave me a concerned look.

Simo: “ I am not leaving you here alone” i chuckled.

Me: “ I am okay. I promise. I just need to be alone. I will call you later” i
hugged him again and got out of the car. I rushed inside the building and
got to my floor. When i got to our flat and it was empty. I took out my bags
and started packing. I really couldn’t stay here. I finished packing and sat
down to write some letters to Xoli; Sma; Xoli and Nqoba. I wrote another
one for my mother and i placed then on top of the kitchen counter. I
couldn’t stop crying and my heart was breaking. After wiping my tears i
took my bags and locked the door. I went downstairs and left the keys by
the security guys as mentioned in Xoli’s letter. The Uber driver loading
my bags an i got in. He drove away with a messy sobbing me. Bye Xoli,
Bye Mom; Bye Sanele, Bye Nqoba Bye Simo&Sma. Bye Nqubeko; I love
you.

Insert 8

Xoli


My name is Xolile Ntuli; Nokwazi’s best friend. We met in high school and
we have been friends since then. She helped me get through tough
times. My parents were killed in a tragic accident. Hiss family took
everything accept for the house and car. I didn’t have any money so i
sold the house and bought the flat that we live in. I looked for a job and i
am now a manager at a clothing store in town. I get by pretty well plus my
boyfriend takes care of everything.

I am currently going out with Nqoba and i met him through Kwazi. Nqoba
is quiet controlling but i like it. When i told him about me and Kwazi
having sex he sexed me so hard saying that he is fucking the
bisexualness out of me.

The way he messed up my nana i couldn’t even laugh. I love him and i
feel safe with him. So back to Nokwazi; i am worried about her. She
hasn’t been herself these last few months and Nqoba is also worried.
When i first got together with him i thought he felt sorry for mw because i
thought that he loves Kwazi but he assured me that he loves her as his
sister plus Nqubeko is the one who loves her but i doubt it.

I mean he fucked her and just discarded her just like that. So today i am
at work and i keep having this bad feeling that something bad is going
back. During my lunch break Nqoba came by and he looked really stress.

Me: “ Hey babe. You okay?” he shook his head no.

Me: “ What’s going on?” i asked because he just started the car and
drove away.

Nqoba: “ Nokwazi fainted at work and her boss took her. I can’t get hold
of her plus Nqoba is going ahead with his stupid wedding”
Me: “ My word! She must be devastated. Where did her boss take her?”

Nqoba: “ I’m sure she took her to the Dr and then home but her phone is
off”
Me: “ Strange. She never switches off her phone” he looked at me.

Nqoba: “ We should go check on her” i indicated that he should look out

front.
Me: “ Eyes on the road. If it won’t be trouble we could go”

Nqoba: “ Babe; don’t get me wrong i like that you have a place of your
own and you have a car as well but let me take care of you. I’ll get you a
new car and you move in with me”

Me: “ Huh? What will i say to Kwazi. I can’t just leave her alone” i was
really shocked.
Nqoba: “ I know baby but i want to be with you all the time and i want you
to go back to school” i started tearing up

Me: “ I can’t accept it Nqoba. Kwazi has been with me through thick and
thin. For me to leave her like that doesn’t make any sense and it’s not
fair.”

Nqoba: “ Can we talk about this later because i can see you’re not
hearing me.” He just drove faster. I was mad at him for being
inconsiderate. These last 2 months i only spent a week at my place and
the rest at his house. Yes i love him but if only he knew where Zee and i
come from he wouldn’t ask me to just move with him.

We drove to KFC and he got me wings. He knew how much i love them.
Trying to soften me up with food; sneaky man. We got to my place and
before going out he held my hand.

Nqoba: “ Babe i’m sorry. I didn’t mean to come off as selfish. I love you
and i want you to be happy. I don’t like you turning me down but i
understand why you want your own place but baby i love you and i won’t
leave you. I will always be here for you. I want what’s best for you my
love okay?” i nodded with tears running down my face.

Me: “ Okay. I will talk to Kwazi and see if we can work something out. I
love you too baby. Thank you” we kissed long and passionately. We
pulled away and his eyes told me to get out of the car and run. I got out
and went inside the building. One security guy called me.

Security: “ Good Afternoon lady. Your friend left these keys to give to you”
he gave me Kwazi’s keys.
Me: “ Why did she give you the keys?” he shrugged his shoulder.
Security: “ She had a lot of bags with her and...”

He didn’t even finish talking i ran towards the lift with Nqoba shouting my
name following me. We got inside the lift and Nqoba asked me what the
problem is.

Nqoba: “ What’s going on?” he was breathing fast.

Me: “ I don’t know. Can we just get to the flat and i will tell you for sure if
it’s what i am thinking” he nodded. The lift opened and i ran to the flat. I
opened and ran to her bedroom and nearly fell. I opened her closet and it
wasn’t empty. I closed it again thinking that my eyes were deceiving me. I
opened again and it was empty. Nqoba called me from the kitchen.

Nqoba: “ Baby. Get in here!” i ran to the kitchen and there were letters on
top of the counter. One was addressed to me. I fell on the floor before
Nqoba could catch me. I started crying.

Nqoba: “ Baby you need to calm down and read what’s in thee letter”
Me: “ Why would she leave me? Why?”
Nqoba: “ Just don’t jump to conclusions.” I nodded and took the letter.

Dear Xoli the one who holds my heart

I am sorry for doing this to you but i had to leave. Thing is my friend i fell
in love not realising how much danger i was putting myself in; my heart
and spirit broke. I don’t even know what to do with myself. You think that i
have healed and that i am strong but deep down i am breaking. I am
pregnant friend. I disappointed you and mom. I am sorry. Please find it in
your heart to forgive me.
Give me a month before coming to see me. Where our dreams are.
Please don’t tell anyone where i am. Especially Nqubeko. I just need time
on my own. I really am sorry Xoli. I will see you soon. I love you .

Kwazi

Londiwe Kheswa

My name is Londiwe Kheswa; Nokwazi and Sanele’s mother. I work for

Hilton Hotel as the manager. That is how i managed to put my kids
through school but Nokwazi couldn’t further her studies because she
wanted to help out around the house.

Sanele is now in Grade 10 and he is becoming a handful. His father is

not present in his life as he is a married man. That is my issue; both my
kids are of the same father but they don’t know it and so does he. He
doesn’t know that he has 2 children from me. Let me explain it to you
better.

Busani Mngomezulu is their father. I met him at the hotel. He would come
there on business and that it how we met. He came to the front desk for
his suite number and keys. I gave them to him but he held my hand
looking deep into my eyes.

Following that he requested for me to come to his suite. When i got there
he had this whole romantic set up. I was shocked because i didn’t know
what’s going on because this man was married.

Busani: “ Please join me for late lunch” i stood by the door looking
around.
Me: “ I am sorry but i can’t join you. I am on duty”

Busani: “ I already spoke to your boss and he doesn’t mind you joining
me”

I joined him for lunch and we have one too many drinks. I woke up next
morning with a burning cookie. I gathered my clothes and went home. I
went back to the hotel later that day and i saw him with his wife. He
passed me like he didn’t know me. After that i just vowed off men. 9
months later i had my baby girl.
8 years later the same thing happened and i had Sanele. From that day
onwards i moved to a different hotel and i never saw him again. Yes i am
getting judged for this but i loved him; i still do. He promised that i would
be his second wife but i couldn’t sacrifice my children because he straight
out told me that if i were to fall pregnant he will kill my child but i did fall
pregnant; twice.

Been trying to be a good mother to my kids but life gets so hard

sometimes. So today is Friday and i am waiting for Nokwazi to come
home; as per tradition. I heard a knock on the door and i frowned
because Nokwazi never knocks. I went to open the door and it was her
friend Xolile.

Me: “ Xolile hey my baby. Please come in” i made way for her to come in
and i peeped outside. I only saw a car parked outside our gate. I closed
the door and we made way to the lounge.

Me: “ How are you baby?” her eyes were red and puffy she looked like
she had been crying.
Xoli: “ I’m surviving mah”

Me: “ Can i get you something to drink?” she shook her head no.
Xoli: “ I came to give you this” she handed me a letter written “ To mom”

Me: “ What’s this? Where is Kwazi?” she just cried.

Xoli: “ I don’t know. Maybe she indicated in the letter where she might
be.”
I opened the letter and it read

To mom Queen Of My Heart ❤i

I am sorry for taking off like this. It is for the best that i go away for a
while. Mom i fell in love and i turns out all he wanted was to get into my
pants and i fell pregnant. Yes mom i am pregnant. I am sorry for
disappointing me. I will come back someday but for now please don’t try
and find me. I moved somewhere in the North Coast because something
told me that i will find peace there. I really am sorry mom. I love you.

After reading that note my heart broke into pieces but something else
dawned on me. She is moving to the North Coast. No no no no no.
Busani; Nokwazi = North Coast.

Insert 9

Xoli

After Nokwazi left things haven’t been the same. Nqoba and I fight a lot
and he has gone back to sleeping with random chicks. Its become so bad
that I told him we need a break. Its been 3 months since she left. I did go
to where our dreams are but all I found was letters for me and her mom.

Inside my letters was rent money and photo scans of the baby. Every
time when I left the place I always felt sad and it broke my heart more
because I thought I would never see my friend again.

Today I woke up feeling a bit out of it; must have been the wine. Its my
day off so I will just clean around the flat and catch up on some sleep. I
haven’t been sleeping well. Been thinking about Nqoba and he has been
shutting me out. So I woke up and had breakfast.

After breakfast I cleaned around the flat and took a shower afterwards
because I had done my laundry the previous night. Just when I was
about to sit down there was a knock on the door. I opened and it was
Nqoba. He looked horrible.

Me: “ What are you doing here Nqoba?”

Nqoba: “ Can I come in?” he had teary eyes. I made way for him and he
got in. I closed the door and walked to the lounge. I was wearing his t-
shirt and socks. He looked at me before sitting down.

Me: “ What do you want Nqobani?” he scratched his head before looking
at me. He had his car keys and phone in his hand.
Nqoba: “ I miss my baby. I miss you” I chuckled.

Me: “ It’s been 2 months. You busy fucking random bitches and now that
you have had enough you just waltz in here telling me you miss me? Get
out of here. Don’t make me laugh”
Nqoba: “ I am sorry Xolile ka Nqobani. I have been going through some
stuff and…”

Me: “ So you thought you’d hurt me by fucking around and come back tell
me that shit? It doesn’t work like that. It’s either you tell me what is
bothering you or just fuck out of here”
Nqoba: “ My mom is sick okay. She is sick and there is nothing anybody
can do right now. She’s holding on for Nqubeko. That’s all.

Me: “ What do you mean she is holding on for Nqubeko?”

Nqoba: “ She is holding on for his wedding” he sighed and knelt in front of
me.
Nqoba: “ I have been stupid. I regret it and I love you. I really love you
Xoli but I am going to need you to tell me where Nokwazi is.” I chuckled
in disbelief.

Me: “ Get out! Get the fuck out of here!” I shouted and stood up to open
the door for him.
Nqoba: “ You need to keep calm. Nqubeko would like to see her one
more time before the wedding”

Me: “ You mean fuck her and leave her like used condoms? Fuck you
Nqobani. Just leave”
Nqoba: “ Stop swearing Xolile” he was getting angry but I wasn’t backing
down either.

Me: “ Leave and go tell that dick brother of yours that he will never find
Xoli” he suddenly got angry and charged for me but he was stopped by
his ringing phone.
Nqoba: “ Bro” he listened and nodded his head after that he placed his
phone in his pocket.


Nqoba: “ Get dressed. You’re coming with me” I looked at him as if he

was crazy.
Me: “ I’m going nowhere with you Nqobani.” He got closer and cupped
my face.

Nqoba: “ Please come with me; after that I will leave you alone. Please
just this one last time” I walked to my bedroom and threw in my jeans
and an over sized hoodie that belongs to Nqoba and my push ins. I got to
the lounge and took my keys and phone.

We left and Nqoba locked the flat. We hurried downstairs and got in his
cars. He drove away in speed. I didn’t even want to ask him where we’re
going. After that reckless driving we finally got to Chief Albert Luthuli
Hospital. We specifically went to the Oncology department.

I walked slower but he pulled me like a child I was just irritated. We got to
this nicely decorated ward. First thing I noticed was a very depressed and
crying Nqubeko but what puzzled me was that his mom was sitting on the
bed reading a book.

I have seen her on the net and news papers but not in person and can I
just say that she is a freakishly gorgeous coloured lady. That is where
these guys get their complexion from. Nqoba was still holding my hand
and we walked towards the bed. She looked up at us and smiled.

Mrs M: “ Aaah you finally decided to bring her with” I was puzzled.
Nqoba: Come one Mom. I told you I’d bring her.” He kissed her cheek
and pulled me to him.

Mrs M: “Get away Quinton. I need to see this beautiful girl right here” she
pushed and he chuckled. He kissed my lips before walking to Nqubeko
leaving me with his mom.
Mrs M: “ Come closer. How are you?” she had the sweetest voice.

Me: “ I’m okay Mrs Msomi. How are you?” she smiled. She had dimples.
Mrs M: “ Call me mom. I am okay given the circumstances.”

Me: “ Do you need anything? Are you comfortable?” she placed her soft
warm hand on top of mine.
Mrs M: “ I’m okay baby. Come sit. I want to talk to you” I sat down with
her holding my hand.

Me: “ I see Nqoba is bringing in the big guns” she laughed.

Mrs M: “ I know my son can be a dick sometimes hell he is a dick but he
loves you. You are all he talks about and I know he hurt you buy I need
you to do something for me” I was now in tears because this woman was
speaking as if she didn’t have much time left.

Me: “ Anything” she smiled and wiped her tears.

Mrs M: “ Take care of him. Take care of my son when I am gone. He is

going to need you. I am sorry for doing this to you and I am sure if your
parents were still alive they wouldn’t allow you to get back together to a
man who has hurt you this much” I nodded and I was now sobbing.

Mrs M: “ Please stay with him. When Nqoba goes through something
tragic he tends to do stupid things but I need you to be strong for him. Be
there for him”
Me: “ You can’t leave yet. Please Nqoba and I just found each other. I just
met you and i..”

Mrs M: “ Shhh. Everything will be okay but I have one more request.” She
wiped my tears.
Me: “ I will do it”

Mrs M: “ Find your friend for me. Nqubeko is going to need her. He might
have made a fool of everyone else but I know my son. Find her. He will
need her. For now let me rest. I want to rest” I just cried and I felt
someone hold me. It was Nqoba. We stayed and spoke for a long time
before we went back to my place. We ordered food and cuddled. That
night Nqoba received a call that his mom had passed on.

Xoli

The following days were hard on Nqoba but Nqubeko was a weeping
mess. I could see that something was eating him but he just buried
himself at work. Nqoba was clingy. I even had to take leave at work
because he always had to have me by his side.

So today is Friday; the day we bring home Nqoba’s mom home. He has
been crying since we woke up and yes; i am over at his parents place.
We have been staying there since the passing of his mother. I not only
have to look after 1 guy no; i have to look after 2 guys. Nqubeko doesn’t
even know if we’re coming or going.

I got up from bed and took a quick but soothing shower and rushed back
to the bedroom. I wore my boob tube maxi tribal dress with a doek and a
cardigan. I wore my nude pumps and took my phone before kissing
Nqoba on his head. He cried till he fell asleep this morning. I am so late; i
was supposed to help start breakfast.

I got to the kitchen and it was only mam Thuli; the helper in the kitchen
with Nqubeko. He looked better. He was drinking coffee whole
concentrating on his phone.
Me: “ Morning” Mah Thuli just smiled and continued with what she was
doing.


Nqubeko: “ Morning” he smiled faintly.

Me: “ How are you holding up?” he nodded.

Nqubeko: “ As expected. I don’t even know what to do with myself

anymore” i went to hug him and we were disturbed.

Nqoba: “ Baby. Come” i turned around and he was pouting. I wanted to

laugh but i held myself. I followed him out and went to the bedroom. As
soon as i closed the door i was attacked with a breath taking kiss. He
pushed me to bed and started taking off my clothes. That’s when i
stopped him.

Me: “ Baby we can’t. We need to start getting things ready for your mom’s
arrival” he had tears in his eyes.
Nqoba: “ Baby please; i need to feel something. I need you baby please”
he let out a sob and it tore my heart.

I kicked off my pumps and took off the dress as the cardigan was long
gone. I was only left with my panties because i wasn’t wearing a bra.

He sat at the edge of the bed and pulled me to him. He placed his head
on my tummy and i held on to him. I kept brushing his head while his
hand went up my thigh. It came in contact with my panties and it stopped.
He moved it aside and his finger sank in. I moaned out loud because i
was already wet. He took on leg and put it on top of the bed Captain
Morgan.

His tongue swept over my nub and i threw my head back. He pulled away
and i looked down to him. He was looking at me with a smirk on his face.
His face changed to this hard look and he tore my panties causing me to
yelp because the material bit my on my skin.

He pushed his hand deep inside causing me to stand on my toes. He
pulled me back down and drew out his finger. He looked at me and
sucked on his cum filled finger. He took my leg and placed it on his
shoulder so fast i stumbled but he held me preventing me from falling.

He inhaled before his tongue swept in my num. He came back licking his
lips making that “mpa” sound. He turned me around and threw me in bed.
He spread my legs wide open before sitting on his legs. His eyes getting
smaller. He shook his head causing me to shudder.

He laid on his tummy and brought me close. My nana was right in front of
him. His tongue dove in but it wasn’t going as hard and fast. He was very
slow like he was French kissing my nana and it felt heavenly. He used his
fingers to separate my folds and his tongue danced on my very hard nub.

It was too much. I wanted to release but he pulled back and looked at
me.
Nqoba: “ Do you know how much i love you?” he dove back in this time
he picked up the pace because his tongue was going in and out of me
fast. I felt myself drawing near but he quickly pulled back and sat on his
legs.

Nqoba: “ I asked you a question my love” i tried getting up but he pushed

me back down.
Me: “ Nqoba please” my knees were shaking. I really needed to release.
He laughed. He took off his sweat pants and he was only left with his
boxers. He got on top of me and his guy was directly to my nana. He then
started dry humping me. I also started moving fast and furiously. I really
needed to cum but he caught on and got off me.

I opened my eyes and looked at him. His boxers had a big wet spot as
evidence of my wet and horniness. I really needed to cum. He got of the
bed and went to his closet leaving me on the bed like a chicken. He came
back and i heard a buzzing sound. When i looked up he was carrying my
mini purple vibrator. Where the hell did he get it from?

He took off his boxers and his guy popped out. I wanted to out my mouth
on him as he looked so yummy and tasty so i went on all fours and took
him in my mouth without using my hands. He pushed me back and also
got in bed kneeling. I continued giving him a messy but awesome deep
throat because i could hear it in his groans that i was doing a good job. I
felt the vibrator make an entrance in my nana and i jumped.

That gave him an opportunity to flip me over. It was so fast i didn’t even
have time to react as i felt him inside me. His guy was twitching inside me
and i instantly came. I screamed so loud he took a pillow and covered my
face. After that ground shaking orgasm he started again. It was as if i
fuelled him because he started moving hard and fast placing the vibrator
on my nub. I lost all my senses. I was speaking in tongues even i didn’t
understand what i was saying.

I felt the next wave coming and it hit me hard like a ton of brick and he
wasn’t far behind. We were both shaking and moving still. I don’t even
know where the vibrator went but it was no longer there. We continues to
twitch until the wave passed over. We were breathing heavily and sweaty.
He got off me and collapsed next to me. We were both staring at the
ceiling. He turned and looked at me.

Nqoba: “ I love you. Thank you for being here with me during my time of
need. Baby i might not sat this much but you know that i love you. I do. I
am an idiot but you idiot and only your. What i need now is an answer”

Me: “ Answer?” i really was confused. He rested on his elbow and kissed
me before looking at me with a smile.
Nqoba: “ Look at your hand. Your left hand”
Oh my; what the hell???!


Nqubeko

My name is Nqubeko Clayton Msomi. Son of Dumisani and Cortney

Msomi. I am 27 years old and one brother Nqoba. I am sure you
have read about me so i will not bore you with the details but what i
can say is that i love Nokwazi more than anything in the world but
there are promises that i made to my mother that i cannot break.

On the day that she passed away she called me early morning to
talk to me. When i got to her ward she looked really beautiful like
she was going back home because she had even done her make up.
I walked closer to her bed and she smiled. Damn my mom is pretty. I
don’t know how she ended up with that monster of a man.

Mom: “ Why do you look so sad?” she asked in her angelic voice.
Me: “ You look ready to go home” she shook her head coughing.

Mom: “ You know that is impossible baby. Besides i get to be away

from that evil man” i sighed taking a seat next to her.
Me: “ Cortney why don’t you leave him?” he face changed.

Mom: “ You know very well why not.”

Me: “ I now have to marry that woman mama please. I can’t marry
her” she sighed.

Mom: “ What am i supposed to do Clayton. I am dying” she had

tears on her eyes.
Me: “ Mom i have to sacrifice my life because of your mistakes.”
Mom: “ Don’t you dare speak to me like that. Don’t you dare!”

Me: “ Ek is jammer ma” she rubbed my head. Clearly frustrated.
Mom: “ I might have something that can get you off the hook.” I
inched closer.
Me: “ What is it?” i was curious to know what it is.

Mom: “ It’s in a letter in YOUR safe. Now can we stop being gloomy.
I want to know about Nokwazi. It’s been 3 months son. You still
haven’t found her.” I was frustrated. Even Xoli didn’t know where
she is. I had people follow her but i couldn’t find her at all.

Me: “ I can’t find her mom. I have been turning the place upside
down” she chuckled.
Mom: “ Yey Clayton don’t piss me off. That is your happiness.” She
started breathing fast and the machines beeping. The nurses came
in and told me to wait outside. I called Nqoba.

Me: “ Please come to the hospital. It’s not looking good. Hurry”
I sat down and waited for the nurses. They came out in 20 minutes
smiling. I let out a deep breath i didn’t know i was holding. I went in
and sat by the window. I didn’t want to talk to her anymore but i
needed to be around her.

Nqoba finally arrived with Xoli. Xoli went to speak to mom while
Nqoba came to talk to me.
Nqoba: “ How is she?” he came and stood beside me.

Me: “ She is putting up a brave face but she is not well at all.” He
nodded and we fell silent.
Nqoba: “ Do you have to marry Carol” i looked at mom and smiled.
If i could keep this in just so she can be happy i will gladly do it.
Me: “ Yep. I love..”


Nqoba: “ Don’t lie. You and i both know that is not true. I know she
is sleeping with dad. Mom also knows so why marry her”

Me: “ Let it go Nqoba.” I said in a low tone.

Nqoba: “ I can’t just let it go. You are ruing your life and i will be
damned if i let you destroy it like that”
Me: “ I said let it go. I have to go. I love you bro” i kissed his head.
Yes kissed. He is my little brother and i love him. I will do anything
for him. Even if it means i marry Carol but i also needed someone in
my corner. I need Nokwazi. I know if i talk to her she will
understand.

I left and went back to my place. I smiled instantly. I remember that

day when she came here after leaving the party with her freakum
dress on. How i took her innocence. That was so special to me but
now i am left with this painful hole in my heart.

I went up to my room and took a shower. I wore my black Nike short

shorts and slept.
I was woken up by a ringing phone and when i looked outside it was
dark out. I answered the phone and it was the hospital telling me
that mom had passed on.

The following days Nqoba Xoli and i were planning the funeral. We
had family over and Carol had moved in to mom’s bedroom. One
morning i was summoned in the bedroom. I went in and they were
cuddling. Mind you mom wasn’t even buried yet.

Me: “ You called for me”

Carol: “ Yes dear. We no longer have to get married since your mom
made things easy for us and died” dad hissed.


Dad: “ Carol stay far from my wife’s name. We might not have been
happy these last 2 years but she will forever be my love” he looked
pained and i chuckled.
Me: “ Was that all baba?”

Dad: “ Yes and have someone bring your mam ncane breakfast” i
chuckled and left the room.
When i got to the kitchen i stopped dead on my track. Nqoba was
crying and Xoli was there comforting him. I felt so alone; mom left
me with a very tough burden. I got in and told mah Thuli to send up
breakfast.

Me: “ Xoli can i talk to you for a second?” she followed me and
Nqoba swallowed hard. Yes he is hard headed and rude but he
respects me and he knows i will beat up his ass if he tried any shit.
We went to the lounge and sat.

Me: “ I going to ask you this one last time. Where is Nokwazi?” she
looked scared.
Xoli: “ I don’t know. I really don’t know.” I knelt in front of her and
looked her in the eyes.
Me: “ I need you to help me locate her” she looked confused.

Xoli: “ How?” i sat back on the couch.

Me: “ After mom’s funeral. We will go find her” and i really was
going to bring her home with me. It’s been too long. I really miss
and need her.

Insert 10

Nokwazi

It’s been 5 months since I left. I am now 8 months pregnant. I heard that
Mrs Msomi passed away. I watched the funeral on t.v. Nqubeko was a
weeping mess. I saw Xoli was next to Nqoba all the time and Nqubeko
seemed lonely. I almost felt sorry for him but I just brushed it aside as her
hurt me.

Simo was coming to get me today. He wanted me closer to home when I

give birth; he is the only person who knew. So I woke up and took a bath.
I packed all my belongings putting them in my travelling bags. I went to
take a shower before taking a walk to a restaurant close by for breakfast.

I sat down by the corner and started eating my breakfast. I feel someone
looking at me. I looked around and people were eating and minding their
own business. I drank my water whilst waiting for breakfast. I looked up
and this freakishly beautiful woman with an afro was looking right at me. I
looked right back at her and she wasn’t backing down. I finally broke eye
contact and looked at the table.

I looked at her again and she was smiling while shaking her head. My
breakfast arrived and I started eating. She stood up and she walked over
to my table.
Lady: “ Mind if I sit?” I shrug my shoulder.

Me: “ It’s free country” she chuckled and sat down.

Lady: “ You have such a predictable schedule” my eyes shot up in shock.

Me: “ What are you talking about? Who are you?” I looked around the
restaurant.

Lady: “ Relax. I saw you a few months ago and I thought you look like
someone I know so I had you followed. You wake up in the morning; you
bath and come here for breakfast. You go back to the guesthouse and
take a nap. You wake up and eat KFC because those are your cravings.
You take another nap and you come back here for dinner. Go back;
watch t.v and pass out”

Me: “ Who are you? What do you want from me?” she smiled and leaned
back on her chair.
Lady: “ Your friend Simo. He is coming today to pick you up and you are
going back home. You know Nokwazi you are a mysterious woman. If I
wasn’t as connected I wouldn’t have found out who you really are” I was
shaking. I wanted to pee.

Me: “ I will scream if you don’t tell me who you are”

Lady: “ How is your mom and your brother?” I half screamed earning
some looks around the restaurant.
Me: “ Can you just…”

Lady: “ I am not trying to scare you but I would like you to meet my
mother. She will explain everything to you.”

Just then a middle age woman came in she was striking and gorgeous.
She was dressed in a below the knee dress and she also had an afro but
what drew me to her more was that we look so much alike. I was
puzzled. She sat down and smiled. She had dimpled just like me.

Woman: “ I don’t know what my crazy daughter said to you but you look
shaken. I apologise on her behalf. Let me introduce myself. My name is
Senamile Zulu; born Senamile Mngomezulu. I am the only daughter to 9
brothers one of them being Busani Mngomezulu. My parents are the king
and queen of the Mngomezulu kingdom. When my daughter told me that
she saw you I couldn’t believe it but you look so much like Busani I just
knew you were his.”


Me: “ What are you talking about? Who are you people?” she smiled and
placed her hand on top of my hand.
Sena: “ I am saying that your mother met your father when she was still a
young girl working at a hotel as a housekeeper. My brother saw her and
took advantage of her leaving her pregnant with you. He disappeared for
8 years and came back and your mother had your brother Sanele.”

Me: “ What exactly are you trying to say?” I was getting teary and I was
also breathing fast. This other lady stood up and got me sugared water
and I drank. I finally managed to calm down.

Sena: “ I am sorry for putting you in such a position but my father is very
sick. He would really like to meet you. He doesn’t have any much time
left”

Me: “ Could you stop talking in riddles and tell me what is going on?”
Lady: “ I am sorry for my rudeness but let me introduce myself. My name
is Sihle Dlamini; born Sihle Zulu and I believe we are cousins”

Me: “ Cousins?” she nodded.

Sihle: “ My uncle; the one is the king now Busani Mngomezulu is your
father. Like mom said he took advantage of your mother and told her if
she had you he will kill her. That is why she never talks about him
because she loves you guys and doesn’t want you pulled into this life”

Me: “ So you’re saying that my father doesn’t want me?” Sena nodded.
Sena: “ But we want you baby. We want to get you know you and…’

Before she could finish I heard a very painful kick on my tummy. I held on
to it until it calmed down.
Sihle: “ Are you okay?” she asked rubbing my back.

Me: “ Yes just that he kicked harder than usual. I need to go to the
bathroom..” I stood up and as I stood my water broke. It was too early. I
was only due in 3 weeks.

Sihle: “ Your water just broke” I wasn’t feeling any pain but I needed to
get to the hospital Asap.
Sena: “ Who can I call?”
Me: “ Please call Simo?” I was now starting to sweat. The people in the
restaurant were looking at me. Some taking pictures.

Sena: “ He is not answering” I shook my head no.

Me: “ Call Xoli” she dialled and waited but she also didn’t answer. I told
her to call Nqoba and it was the same response. I was sweating and I felt
the contractions come I screamed.

Sena: “ Please help us get her to the car” some waitress guy came and
carried me to the car. I was now screaming.
Sena: “ Who else can I call?” she was panicking and Sihle was driving.
Me: “ NQUBEKO! CALL NQUBEKO!!!”

Nqubeko

Life has been hard since mom died. I had no one but my brother but he
didn’t understand what i was going through. Let me take you back to the
Carol issue. When i found her screwing my father i was devastated
because i really liked her. I know i said to Nokwazi that i will propose to
Carol but that was just to rattle her. I hadn’t been with Carol for a while;
like as in sleep with her. I only slept with her that day at the office. After
that she told me she is pregnant. When i saw her with my dad i just knew
that he was the father.

Losing Nokwazi was aa bitter pill to swallow; very bitter. I wasn’t even
that concentrated at work. I was losing weight and i was just lost. I
wanted her in my arms. It’s been months of me searching for her and i
really couldn’t find her.

So today i have an important meeting that i had to attend. I woke up and

took a shower. Every morning i’d wake up and i always wished that she
was here with me. Waking up next to me. So i showered and got
dressed. I went downstairs and had my breakfast. I moved back to my
place. I couldn’t stay at my parent’s house because dad was playing
happy family with dad.

I stayed with Carol and proposed to her because i didn’t want mom
finding out about her and dad but it turns out mom knew long ago; before
me. So when we tried to cut ties with her she already knew some secrets
that dad told her when he was drunk. He regrets it every single day that
is why he caters to Carol.

I haven’t had time to read the letter. I was afraid of what i might find.
Nqoba is getting married in 2 months. I really can’t believe it. My meeting
was at 12h00 so i decided to catch up on my sports news.
Just as i say down my phone rang and it was an unknown number. I
immediately answered. As soon as i did i heard a scream in the back
ground.

Me: “ Nqubeko hello”

Caller: “ Hello my boy. You are speaking to Senamile Zulu. I am with
Nokwazi here and she...” i sprung up to my feet. I took my wallet and
keys.

Me: “ Where are you?” i heard Nokwazi scream again and it pierced in
my soul.

Sena: “ We are in R Bay. Come quickly. She is about to give birth” she
hung up leaving me shocked and frozen on spot. Kwazi is pregnant. I
quickly regain my senses and ran to my car. I started the car and called
Nqoba. I kept calling and calling. After some time he answered and he
sounded breathless.

Nqoba: “ You are interrupting me and my fiancé” he chuckled.

Me: “ I found her. I found Nokwazi.” I heard shuffling sounds and Xoli
asking Nqoba what’s going on.
Nqoba: “ How; where?”

Me: “ A woman called me and Nokwazi is in labour. She is in R Bay. I am

already on my way. So follow me already” i hung up and sped to where
she was.

I was very confused and when i counted it meant that the baby was mine.
I didn’t even have the right to be angry because i treated her like shit. I
will spend the rest of my life apologising. Had i told her what is going on
she would be here. We would be together and i would have been there
throughout her pregnancy.

I can imagine how she felt being all alone with people you don’t know. I
finally arrived and i made a call to the number.
Sena: “ Nqubeko where are you. She is very close”

Me: “ I need the name of the hospital” i was breathing hard.

Sena: “ The one in the city. It’s the only one” i heard Kwazi scream again
and i just went crazy. She hung up and i asked around for the hospital.
Turns out i was 5 minutes away.


I finally got there and i rushed in. I went to reception and they directed
me. I got to the labour ward and i immediately found her. She was with 2
ladies. When she saw me her face changed. I don’t know she hated me
maybe.

Kwazi: “ You came” she whispered. I went to her and kissed her sweaty
forehead.
Me: “ Of course i came. I had to come.” She nodded and held on to my
hand. She was squeezing the hell out of my hand. Just then a female Dr
walked in with gloves in her hands. They spread Nokwazi’s legs and i
nearly ran buy she pulled me to her.

Kwazi: “ You are going to stay asshole. You did this to me. You mother
fucker” the lady with the afro chuckled.

Dr: “ Okay we are ready. Miss Kheswa on the count of 3 i’m going to
need you to push for me okay?” she nodded blowing her breath.
Kwazi: “ I will do anything you want me to do. Just get the baby out of my
tummy”

Dr: “ Okay. One two three push”

Nokwazi pushed and pushed. It really was a struggle because she was at
it for 5 minutes before we saw any progress.

Dr: “ Okay i need one big push. I can see the head” she held on to my
hand and pushed screaming. I felt as if my bones were breaking.
Dr: “ That’s good. One more big push Kwazi” She pushed harder then
before and then the baby came out. We were welcomed by this tiny cry.

Dr: “ It’s a boy” Nokwazi smiled faintly and passed out.

Me: “ Dr she passed out” she came to my side and felt her pulse.

Dr: “ I will ask the nurses to clean her up and take her to her ward. For
now they are cleaning your son and you will see him shortly.

I stepped away from the bed and waited. I didn’t even acknowledge these
ladies that were with her. I was actually shocked. I found Nokwazi and i
also found out that she was pregnant. I am a father. The nurse came and
gave me the baby. He was covered in green hospital towels.

Nurse: “ He doesn’t have any clothes.”

Lady: “ I will go buy them” said the lady in an afro and she walked out.

Nurse: “ You want to hold him?” i nodded with my blurry eyes. She gave
him to me and i felt so emotional. That moment i just fell in love with this
boy. I just hope his mother forgives me. Lord knows how much i hurt her.
I will do anything and i mean anything even if it means telling her the truth
about everything.

Nokwazi

I woke up later with a very sore body. I looked around the ward and my
eyes landed on Nqubeko. He was crouching down by the baby cot; his
back facing me. He was making baby noises and i couldn’t help but
giggle. He quickly turned and looked at me frowning. He looked back at
the baby before kissing him and he stood up. He walked to me and took
a seat. We both fell into this awkward silence. Nqubeko cleared his throat
and i looked at him.

Nqubeko: “ I deserve me not knowing that you were pregnant. I deserve

not being there when he first kicked. Hell i don’t deserve to be here but
you are still the kind hearted woman i know” i lifted up my hand.

Me: “ Nqubeko i...” he stopped me.
Nqubeko: “ Can i just get this off my chest before you can say anything?”
i nodded.

Nqubeko: “ I hurt you. I hurt you so badly and i am sorry. I don’t even
have an excuse but allow me to tell you what happened and why things
turned out that way”

He stood up and walked to the window. He started telling me everything

not leaving a thing out. The way my emotions were playing with me. I
was sad and angry. I would cry but he kept talking until he was done. He
turned around and looked at me.

Nqubeko: “ I should have told you the truth. I know it was selfish of me to
do that but a lot of things were going through my mind. I couldn’t afford to
make a mistake but my biggest mistake was letting you go. I don’t
deserve your forgiveness but you knowing the truth makes me feel
better” his eyes were red from all the crying.

Me: “ So you’re saying that Carol knows all this, how did she find out?”
Nqubeko: “ She gave birth a few weeks ago by the way. She found out
when dad got drunk and slept with her. Their pillow talk was of that his
telling her everything” my blood started to boil.

Me: “You have selfish parents” he looked at me with his wide eyes.

Me: “ Seriously; they are selfish. How could they burden you with such?
It’s not your fight yet you took the fall for both of them. Now you are left
with this mess. Who protects you? Who is there for you?” his head hung
and he breathed out hard. I wanted to get out of bed and hold him but i
held myself.

Nqubeko: “ I have no one. It’s all my fault. I..” i interrupted him.
Me: “ It’s your selfish parents fault. What’s in the letter?”

Nqubeko: “ Leverage. I haven’t even read it. I was looking for you all
these months” i sighed.
Me: “ You even look like a grandpa. How have you been?” he looked at
me and chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ I’ll be alright. At least i know where you are and i will come
visit our son. Would you like to see him? We have been so consumed by
my problems you haven’t even met champ. He is adorable” he said
walking to his cot. He took him out and he cried. I smiled. Nqubeko had
this smile on his face; i have never seen it before. He walked to me with
the baby and he gave him to me.

Nqubeko: “ Careful with his head” i looked at him and he raised up his
hands.
Me: “ Chill daddy of the year” he chuckled.
I then looked at this beautiful tiny soul in my hands. He looked so much
like Nqubeko it was freaky. I looked at him and he grinned.

Nqubeko: “ I know. He looks like daddy” he winked.

I looked at my boy once more. He had so much hair no wonder i always

had heart burn. I kissed his tiny lips and he pouted. He even had
Nqubeko’s complexion: Yellow Bone. He really loomed coloured. Just as i
was having a moment with my son the door bursts open and in came
Nqoba and Xoli. Nqoba rushed to bed and kisses my cheeks.

Nqoba: “ Oh my god we have been looking for you! Don’t ever do that to
us. My brother even aged a bit” i wanted to laugh i really do but it was
awkward because of what Nqubeko told me. I looked at Nqubeko and he
mouthed “ Relax” i let out a breath before i giggled.
Me: “ I wanted to breath a different air” all this time Xoli was standing afar
and she was crying. I gave the baby to Nqoba and opened my arms to
Xoli. She was shaking her head and crying.

Me: “ Come here” Xoli is such a cry baby. She ran and threw herself in
my arms;ouch. The brothers looked at us then back to the baby.
Xoli: “ How could you leave like that? Aren’t we supposed to be sisters?”
she cried and i wiped her tears before cupping her face.

Me: “ I couldn’t stay. Don’t ask me why but i just couldn’t stay” she
nodded and i hugged her again. Nqubeko took his son and marched to
me.
Nqubeko: “ Baby we haven’t given him a name”

Nqoba: “ baby?” Nqubeko’s cheeks heated clearly embarrassed.

Me: “ Leave my baby daddy alone” we all laughed.

Me: “ What would you like to name him?”

Nqubeko: “ How about Siphesihle Austin” i liked the Siphesihle one but i
wasn’t sure about the Austin.

Me: “ Does he really need the 2nd name?” Nqubeko smiled shyly. He
really liked the Austin.
Nqubeko: “ Well if you don’t like it it’s fine” he chuckled nervously.

Me: “ Siphesihle Clayton Kheswa” he lifted his head beaming.

Nqubeko: “ I love it!” he kissed his son and Sphe cried. The nurse got it.

Nurse: “ Time to eat. Time for breast feeding mommy” she smiled.
I took out my boob getting ready to feed him. The nurse showed me how
and Sphe started sucking. He was sucking for dear life and it was very
painful. Conversation was flowing but Nqubeko just zoned out looking at
me breast feed his son.

Nqoba: “ I am going to the canteen. Does anyone need anything?” i

shook my head no.
Xoli: “ I’m coming with you” they left the room and it was just me; Sphe
and Nqubeko.

Nqubeko: “ Could you please keep what i told you to yourself; you can’t
even tell Xoli”
Me: “ I promise i won’t tell anyone but you need to get things off your
chest.” He shook his head no.

Nqubeko: “ I’ll be fine. As long as this stays between us i’ll be okay” i

looked at this selfless man and felt sorry for him. To carry such a burden
because of selfish parents. Xoli and Nqoba came back. We had a snack
and later they left.
Me: “ Can i talk to you about something?” he was looking at his son.

Nqubeko: “ Yes. We can talk” he wasn’t even paying attention to me.

Me: “ NQUBEKO!!” i shouted and he jumped causing me to laugh.

Me: “ Eyes over here” he looked at Sphe.

Nqubeko: “ Mommy is jealous already” he kissed him and walked to me.
Me: “ Can you get my mom for me? I really need to see her” he nodded.

Nqubeko: “ Okay. I will get on it right away. Simo called...” he walked

towards the window.
Me: “ Nqubeko it’s not what you think” he smiled.


Nqubeko: “ You don’t owe me any explanations. I hurt you so you are
allowed to move on. It’s your life and...”
Me: “ Nqubeko..” he didn’t hear me instead he continued talking.

Nqubeko: “ I mean you are beautiful; smart sexy. Any guy would be lucky
to have you”
Me: “ Nqubeko...” i called him again but did he answer? Nope.
Nqubeko: “ I messed up. I should be happy for you. I mean i will be
happy for you.”
Me: “ NQUBEKO!” i shouted yet again and he kept quiet.
Me: “ Thank you. Simo is not my boyfriend. He has been helping me with
everything and he is the one who helped me hide” i sighed.
Me: “ He is not my man. Nqubeko; Simo is gay” he looked at me his eyes
wide and what he did next was very unexpected. He did the gwara
gwara.
After that victory dance that Nqubeko did i couldn’t stop laughing. I don’t
know what’s going on between us and i wasn’t going to bring it up until he
does. I now understand why he had done those things he did but when
he told me he loves me not so long ago i felt like flying. I wasn’t going to
give in just yet; yes i understand his reasons but had to make him sweat
a little.

He was in love with Siphe it wasn’t even funny. The door opened and my
mom got in followed by Sanele. My heart nearly stopped. I know i asked
Nqubeko to call mom but i wasn’t ready to face her yet. As soon as she
saw me she rushed to me and hugged me. She just cried. All this while
Sanele was standing by the door biting on his hands.

Nqubeko wasn’t even paying attention to us. He was rocking his son.
After crying and hugging me ; kissing me all over my face mom finally
calmed down.


Mom: “ I am so glad you’re okay. I thought i lost you forever” she said
wiping her tears.
Me: “ I am sorry mom. I didn’t know what else to do plus i had
disappointed you”

Mom: “ Nokwazi you are 23 years old; you have a place of your own. I
had you when i was 19. I had no one but you; you have me. You chose to
run away. Why?” i looked down shaking my head.
Me: “ I was ashamed mom plus i thought Nqubeko didn’t want anything to
do with me and...” Nqubeko cleared his throat so much that he coughed. I
gave him a look and after that he walked to Siphe’s bed and placed him
in it.

Nqubeko: “ I’ll be outside. Call me if you need me” he walked out

pushing Sanele out with him and mom sighed.
Mom: “ At least he took Sane out of here. Poor boy has been devastated.
He hasn’t said a thing since we left home”
Me: “ I’m really sorry mom. I...”she put up her hand and walked to the
baby cot. She looked at Siphe and took him.

Mom: “ He looks just like his yellow bone father” i chuckled. She cuddled
him and went to sit again.
Me: “ I didn’t know what to do plus mom we are trying to put Sanele
through school and then here i am pregnant with a baby that i didn’t even
know if his father would want him. I am sorry mom”
Mom: “ Your sorries are just not enough. Didn’t i raise you to always talk
to me when something is troubling you?”

Me: “ You did mom and...” she raised up her hand to stop me from
talking.
Mom: “ I am still talking. You will shut your pap eating hole and listen to
what i have to say.” I quickly nodded while she looked at Siphe and
kissed his forehead.

Mom: “ Having you was unplanned but i told myself that i would never let
anyone hurt you. Your brother as well. I know you didn’t get everything
you wanted when you were young but i did try my best with you. For you
to run away like that...” she said shaking her head and her eyes were
glossy with tears.

Mom: “ I am disappointed in you. Not because you fell pregnant; hell you
could have gotten pregnant by an old men i don’t care but the fact that
you ran. You ran like i am a monster who was going to shout and throw
you out?” she was now crying and i felt very bad.

Me: “ I am so sorry mom. I really am” she shook her head laughing.
Mom: “ You should be glad this yellow child is handsome. I would have
slapped you back to virginity” i held my mouth and giggled.

After that we laughed and talked about things. How things have been and
how we missed each other.
Mom: “ Thank you for the money you sent every month. It helped a whole
lot.”

Me: “ I am just glad that Sma paid me still. I don’t know what i would have
done but Simo has been helping me a lot.” She gave me a look.
Mom: “ Hmmm Simo now” i laughed.

Me: “ Mom Simo is my gay friend. He is my boss’s very gay son. Don’t
worry mom. Nqubeko is the one i love. Not sure if he feels the same”
mom gave me a smile.
Mom: “ If only you knew. That man searched high and low for you. He
came to my house EVERYDAY asking the very same question since you
have been gone”

Me: “ Really?” i beamed and mom chuckled.

Mom: “ Look at you bitch clit dancing like car wipes” i laughed very loudly
but was interrupted by the rough opening of the door and in came this
handsome tall old man with 2 other buff guys behind him.

Mom: “ Busani” mom whispered and she looked really scared.

Busani: “ So it’s true. You really did give birth to your bastards”

Me: “ Excuse me what?” i interrupted but he gave me a scary look.

Busani: “ Was i talking to you?”
Me: “ Who are you calling a bastard?”

Mom: “ Nokwazi please. I will handle this” mom was shaking and this
man was walking to her slowly. She had my son is her arms and she
looked like she was about to drop him.
Me: “ Mom give me Siphe” she gave me Siphe and turned to this guy
swallowing hard.

Busani: “ I told you. Londiwe i told you that i don’t want kids. I told you to
kill them but you went and had them anyways. What the fuck is wrong
with you?” he shouted and i jumped.
Mom: “ I have never asked you for shit so please don’t come here telling
me crap about MY children”
Busani: “ Children?”

Mom: “ Yes. It’s Nokwazi and Sanele. You fucked and left me. TWICE. I
was young yet you took advantage of me.”
Busani: “ You wanted me just as i wanted you.”
Mom: “ I was 18. You were 26! You should have fucking known better!”
she was yelling and cussing. To be honest i have never heard mom cuss.

Busani: “ You were stupid and naive virgin. Did you think i would love
you? Me ; a Prince love you? A commoner?” mom marched to him.
Mom: “ I don’t give a shit who you were or are right now. You stay the
fuck away from my kids” he was about to answer when the door opened
and Nqubeko walked in.

Nqubeko: “ What’s going on in here? You guys we could hear you from
down the hall?”
Busani: “ And you are? Can’t you see we are talking?”

Nqubeko: “ Could you keep it down please?”

Busani: “ Do you know who i am? Boy you don’t get to tell me what to
do!” he shouted and pointed his index finger at Nqubeko. Nqubeko just
chuckled and walked towards me with Sanele right behind him.

Nqubeko: “ I don’t give a shit who you are. You watch how you talk in
front of my family.”
Busani: “ You don’t get to talk to me like that. I can...”

Nqubeko: “ I said i don’t care who you are. This is my family. All of them.
Watch how you talk or else there is the door behind you” Busani’s eyes
widened in shock while mom had that satisfied smile on her face. I was
also shocked and Sanele had a huge grin on his face. Nqubeko on the
other hand took his son from me and kissed him. This Busani guy looked
at Nqubeko clearly pissed. He clicked his tongue and stormed out.
To say i was stunned was an understatement i was beyond shocked and
Nqubeko was so chilled looking at his son. Mom giggled and i gave her a
look.
Mom: “ That man is dangerous. He could have you killed”


Nqubeko: “ Yeah yeah. I also have my connections so i will sort him out if
i have to. Don’t care if he is King. If he doesn’t show respect he must just
stay far away” he kissed Siphe’s forehead. Sanele cleared his throat.

Sanele: “ Errrr bhut Nqubeko could you teach...teach me that?” he gently

placed Siphe on his bed and turned to Sanele.
Nqubeko: “ Teach you what?”

Sanele: “ To stand up for myself like that and...” Nqubeko interrupted him.
Nqubeko: “ You and me are linked for life. Stick with me” the fist bumped
and laughed. Mom just smiled shaking hiss head.

Mom: “ Don’t you want to rest a bit baby? We’re just going to get coffee,
me and Sanele.”
Sanele: “ Mom i just came from...” she interrupted him.

Mom: “ I did not ask you. When i come back; you Nqubeko have a lot of
explaining to do. You might have saved the day by fixing Busani but you
and i are still going to talk” mom walked out followed by Sanele.

Nqubeko came and sat on a chair next the bed. He took my hand and
placed a kiss on the back of it sending chills down my spine. I looked at
out hands and mine seemed so dark against his.

Nqubeko: “ Look at me” he said in a low deep voice i almost didn’t hear
him. I looked at him ad damn damn damn. Nqubeko keeps getting cuter.
He blinked a couple of times before he looked down at our hands and
back to my eyes again. Let me tell you about his light grey eyes with his
eyebrows; pink lips and nicely trimmed beard.

Nqubeko: “ I can never apologise enough to you and i will spend the rest
of my life doing so. I meant it when i said i love you and i will wait for you
Nokwazi. I will wait until you are ready to forgive me. “
I looked at him smiling. He looked really nervous.

Nqubeko: “ I’m pouring out my heart to you and you find that amusing” i
laughed while he chuckled.
Me: “ I hear you Nqubeko. It’s too soon to say but give me time to
process all of this okay?” he kissed my hand again.

Nqubeko: “ That’s all i ask for my love. I love you” he stood up and placed
a long baby kiss on my lips.
Me: “ I love you too” i replied when he pulled back. He looked shocked.
Nqubeko: “ Don’t worry. I won’t rush you to anything. As long as you love
me” he smiled.
The door opened yet again and Sihle got in with her mother. I rolled my
eyes. Why do people keep invading my space so much today. Sihle
walked to where Siphe was and she was about to pick Siphe out when
Nqubeko cleared his throat. We all turned and looked at him.

Nqubeko: “ Please wash and sanitise your hands before touching my

son. Babe; i’ll go join your mom outside” he kissed my lips again before
he left. Sena looked at him until he walked out before she whistled. I
wanted to laugh but i was pissed at the stunt they pulled.

Sihle: “ Baby daddy is bitter” she didn’t even pick him up. She looked at
him and came to stand next to her mother.
Me: “ He should be bitter after that visit we got from Busani Mngomezulu”
both their eyes widened and they turned to look at each other.

Sena: “ How did he know?!”

Sihle: “ Grandpa probably asked him. You know how he can’t zip it these
days”
Me: “ Please tell him to stay away. He called my brother and i bastards”
Sena exclaimed.

Sihle: “ Mom tell your brother to stay away before i deal with him” i raised
up my hands.
Me: “ I don’t even want to hear it. I was fine without you guys. You should
just leave me alone. I am 23 years old. My mom has been taking care of
me and my brother all these years so you can go”

Sihle: “ But we..i...” i cut her off.

Me: “ No; you have done enough. Tell your grandfather i can’t come see
him. We can’t come see him. I don’t want to cause trouble and i don’t like
putting my family in danger.”

Sena: “ I will talk to my brother. Please just see my dad this once. Please”
i shook my head no.
Me: “ You should have seen how terrified my mom was. If anything i am
loyal to my mother till the end so no thanks. It was nice meeting you guys
but please leave” Sihle looked pissed but i really didn’t care.
Sena: “ Nokwazi we...” Sihle cut her off.

Sihle: “ Mom leave it. Let’s go” she took her mom’s hand and walked out.
I let out a breath that i did not know i was holding in. As in queue mom;
Sanele and Nqubeko came back. He was carrying a spur paper bag.

Mom: “ Baby we have to leave now. We are going to see you tomorrow” i
suddenly felt sad.
Me: “ Do you guys have to leave?”
Sanele: “ We’ll be back sis. Plus bhut Nqubeko said he...” Nqubeko
nudged him and he kept quiet. Mon laughed.


Nqubeko: “ Dr said he will discharge you tomorrow.” I smiled.

Mom: “ Yes and we can talk about damages.” My eyes shot up. Nqubeko
just looked at the floor. He took out his hands from his pockets.

Nqubeko: “ Yes Miss Kheswa” he looked so shy hehe i wanted to laugh.

Mom: “ Yes i want 8 cows” i shot up from bed. Nqubeko didn’t seem
fazed.
Me: “ Mom that’s too much!”

Mom: “ What do you know about damages?! You Nqubeko; i want those
8 cows. 3 for her virginity and 5 for Siphesihle.” She headed towards the
door.
Nqubeko: “ Yes mah. I will talk to my uncles.”
Mom: “ Oh that amounts to R112 000. I would like that in cash please.
Bye kids” Yoooh my mom

Insert 11

Nqubeko

The following day i woke up from the guest house that i booked in. Nqoba
and Xoli disappeared yesterday. Turns out they were banging each other
all day. So i got off the bed and took a quick shower after the shower i
dressed in cream chino shorts and a light orange H&B round neck t-shirt
and black sneakers. I wore my black cap and took my things. I went and
checked out. I headed to the hospital after going past the mall to get
Nokwazi some clothes.

I got to the hospital and went straight to her ward. I found her in bed with
her bags packed. She was wearing a gown and looked like she was
ready to leave. I walked over to her and kissed her.
Me: “ Morning” she smiled.
Kwazi: “ Morning. I am waiting for mom with my clothes” i gave her the
plastic and then took my son. She frowned.

Me: “ Your mom told me you need clothes so i bought you clothes” she
took the packet and got off the bed. She walked to the bathroom and left
me with my son. I looked at him; he was sleeping. He had to be the most
beautiful baby ever. He had curly hair and it was longer than it should be.
He smelled nice and baby. The door creaked open and her mom walked
in.

K’s Mom: “ Morning Nomndayi” i chuckled.

Me: “ Morning Mah. How are you?” she nodded.

K’s mom: “ Where is she?” she was referring to Kwazi.

Me: “ She went to get dressed.” She nodded again.

K’s mon: “ Nqubeko i meant what i said last night about the damages.” I
nodded.
Me: “ I understand mah. It’s not even enough; after the way i hurt
Nokwazi it’s the least i could do”

K’s mom: “ I wanted to talk to you about something: You know i live in a 2
bedroom house and it is not that fancy. Siphe cannot live in that flat in
town so i think that Nokwazi and Siphe should move in with you for time
being. If that won’t be an issue for you”

Me: “ Of course not mama. I would love it if they moved in with me. I
already have Siphe’s room ready. I had someone buy his things and sent
them to my house. I called this morning and she said the room is ready”

K’s mom: “ Let’s hope Kwazi will agree. She needs to be in an

environment where she can move around freely and your house is
ridiculously huge”

Me: “ It’s not child friendly mah. I don’t want to force Kwazi into being in a
relationship with me. Lord knows she suffered and she was all alone
these last 8 months so they will move in with me for time being. I will look
for a house for them and if she wants to leave she can.”

K’s mom: “ You really love her don’t you?” i chuckled.

Me: “ More than words” she giggled.

K’s mom: “ Well you have to work hard to get her back”
Me: “ I will work very hard to do so”

The bathroom door opened and Nokwazi stepped out. Damn. She was
so beautiful. I got her a body hugging knee length grey dress and
sneakers. She wears a size 4. Cute. She smiled when she saw her mom.
How i wish she could smile at me like that.

Kwazi: “ Hey mom” she walked slowly to her and they baby kissed.

Me: “ I have already signed the papers when i came here. Let us go” i
had Siphe in my arms. I covered him in his blanket and we walked out.
Sanele was outside waiting for us. As soon as he saw us he walked to us
and took the bags from his sister and mom.

We walked towards the car and i opened it. I placed the seat in the
middle and strapped him in. Kwazi and Sanele got in at the back. Miss
Kheswa got in front. I drove out of the hospital and headed to Durban.

Nokwazi: “ I thought we were going to start at the guesthouse i was

staying at”
Me: “ Simo took your bags back to Durban” she nodded and i continued
driving.

My phone rang and it was connected to the car speaker. It was Nqoba
calling. I answered.
Me: “ Nomndayi” he clicked his tongue.

Nqoba: “ Nomndayi my ass. We are at the hospital and you big head isn’t
here. They said you took your family. Where are you?” i chuckled.
Me: “ I am driving to Durban. Freeway right now”

Nqoba: “ You’re a pussy. Why didn’t you...” i cut him off because i knew
that he was about to start cussing one way
Me: “ Dude there are people in the car. They can hear you”

K’s Mom: “ Hello Nqoba” he chuckled nervously.

Nqoba: “ Hey Miss K. I will get you for this Nqubeko. Later!” he hung up
and i chuckled shaking my head. We drove past a garage and i asked if
they needed anything and they said no. Only Sanele was hungry. We got
our the car and went to buy him food. He bought 2 King steer meals
saying one is for the road. He ate and took the other one with him.

We finally arrived in Durban and i drove straight to Umlazi. I got to
Nokwazi’s house and she got off with her mom. They unloaded the
groceries that we bought along the way. I thought she was also staying
but noo. We took Siphe in and we stayed for a few hours. When it started
getting dark we also bid them farewell. I had a talk with her mother before
leaving.

K’s mom: “ I spoke to her about staying with you plus Thuli is there to
help her but i will come when i am off from work.”
Me: “ Thank you for this”

K’s mon: “ You better treat her good or else i will kill you with my bare
hands.”
Me: “ I won’t. I promise” i shook her hand and walked to the car. Nokwazi
was breastfeeding Siphe. He looked so adorable. I waited till she was
finished before driving to my house.

Nokwazi: “ You sure it’s okay if we stay with you?” i nodded. She was
seated at the back with her son.
Me: “ More than okay. I am happy. I get to seduce you” she looked
shocked but i wasn’t joking. I really did want her in my life and i was
going to do whatever it takes to have her in my life after that i will make
her my wife.

It’s been 2 months since Siphe’s birth. Nqubeko has been nothing but a
wonderful dad to his son and me. Always showering us with gifts but he
also has been torturing me. He would go around in his pants only. Did i
tell you that he has nice hands and feet? Yes; he is sexy. Even when he
watches tv and when he is holding his son. I love him. I really do and i am
ready to give him a chance. Its the 24th December. Festive season and
well my favourite time of the year.

Woke up and went to check on Siphe. I found him with his father; damn it
Nqubeko. He was dressed in boxers only. He turned around when i
walked in. He smiled and walked over to me. He kissed my forehead and
greeted.

Nqubeko: “ Morning” his voice was so deep my whole body vibrated.

Me: “ Morning.” I cleared my throat.

Nqubeko: “ You slept okay?” i nodded.

Me: “ Yes. I slept well. Thank you for staying up with him last night. I was
exhausted” i slept very late because i was wrapping gifts for everyone.
Christmas Lunch was going to be held at Nqubeko’s place because
Nqoba has a bachelor house and we can’t go to his parents house
because his father lives with Carol and their daughter.

Nqubeko: “ He’s my son too. So i had to take care of him. He just slept
now and i gave him a very warm bath. He will wake up around 11am.
Have you eaten?”
Me: “ Nope i haven’t. I need to shower first” i walked out the door with
him following me.

Nqubeko: “ Can i join you?” i coughed because it was so unexpected.

Me: “ You erm want to join me?” i spoke very fast and he laughed. He
walked to me and kissed me senseless. He pulled me closer to him and i
was even grinding my body. I moaned and we heard someone clearing
their throat. We both jumped and looked at mom.

Mom: “ We know its your house but go have sex somewhere else please.
Plus it’s too early in the morning to be watching live porn”
Me: “ Mom! We were not having sex!” Nqubeko was holding in a laugh.

Mom: “ Could have fooled me. All that dry humpimg...” she walked past
us to the kitchen. The minute she disappeared Nqubeko laugher out loud.
I was very embarrassed.

Me: “ Why are you laughing? Mom is impossible!” she arrived 2 days ago
because of the Christmas lunch. I needed all the help i could get. Xoli
was away on holiday with Nqoba. They were coming back tonight.
Christmas is a big deal to the Msomi’s.

We went to Nqubeko’s bedroom and he led me to his bed. I looked at

him. It was already made.
Nqubeko: “ Get in” i looked at him as though he was crazy.

Me: “ Thought we were going to breakfast”

Nqubeko: “ Yes but i want to talk to you first. Please” i sighed and got in
bed. He joined me.
Me: “ What do you want to talk about?”

Nqubeko: “ I want to make love to you” my breath caught and i just

looked at him.
Nqubeko: “ I want to make love to you so bad. I want to taste you all over.
I want to drink in your sweet juices. I want you to scream my name” he
said that running his hands all over my body.

Me: “ Make love to me then” he kissed the corner of my mouth.

Nqubeko: “ I will make love to you as soon as you agree to be my
girlfriend” i giggled and he kept a straight face. I looked at him and saw
that he was serious.
Me: “ Fine. I will be your girlfriend. I am your girlfriend now. Make love to
me” he kissed me deeply fisting his hand in my hair. He got in between
my legs. I was dressed in a night dress and very thin lace thong only. His
guy was direct on my nana. The moment we touched i gasped. He kissed
me grinding his man. I was so turned on when he suddenly pulled back
and got off the bed.

Me: “ What, where are you going?” he chuckled and walked to his closet.
He came back dressed in shorts and a black vest.

Nqubeko: “ I am famished. Let’s go have breakfast” i wanted to cry. Its

been so long. I needed some servicing.
Me: “ Are you really thinking about food right now?”

Nqubeko: “ Yes my baby. Come my love” he held out his hand and i
slapped it.

Me: “ Go have your stupid breakfast alone.” I pulled the cover over my
head and ignored his laughing ass. He pulled back the covers roughly
and pulled me by my legs to the edge of the bed. The look on his face
had changed. You could see that he meant business. He licked his lips
and slowly started to undress....

Insert 12

Christmas day came and the house was buzzing. Nqoba and Xoli arrived
last night and they were drunk. Mom and i stayed up all night preparing
for the next day. When i got to bed last night Nqubeko came to fetch me
and we finished where we left things off earlier.

I woke up and he was next to me awake. He was looking at his phone

and emotions running all over his face. I sat up and placed my head on
his chest. He put his phone aside and held me. He sighed deeply.

Me: “ Talk to me” he kissed my forehead.

Nqubeko: “ It’s my first Christmas without mom” i placed a kiss on his
chest and the turned to straddle him.


Me: “ We should go visit her grace with Siphe” he nodded before closing
his eyes.
Nqubeko: “ I would like that very much. Thank you” i placed my head ln
his chest and we sat there in silence.

Me: “ You’ll never tell Nqoba about what happened?” he shook his head
no.
Nqubeko: “ No babe i can’t. It would destroy him. I am just glad i got you
to talk to” he smiled.

Me: “ Let’s get out of bed and shower. We have a long day ahead of us”
We got out of bed and took a shower. Innocent shower after the shower
we got out and got dressed in matching black and green outfits.

Nqubeko: “ We look ridiculous my love” i laughed.

Me: “ It was your idea Mangamehle” he blushed. He always blushes
when i call him that.

Nqubeko: “ Come here” i walked to him and he hugged me tight.

Nqubeko: “ Thank you for being here; with me. For giving me a second
chance” he placed a kiss on my nose and we pulled apart.

Me: “ Let’s get going” i pulled him towards the door but he pulled me
back.
Nqubeko: “ Merry Christmas” i giggled like a school girl. He does that to
me.

Me: “ Merry Christmas baby”

We walked out hand in hand. We started at Siphe’s bedroom and he
wasn’t there so we went to the kitchen and we found everyone there.

Xoli: “ The power couple” she giggled before attacking me with a hug. We
pulled apart and looked at each other. No one said a word; our souls did
the talking. I saw tears fall down her face. I smiled and wiped them.
Me: “ You are my family” she pulled me in for a tight hug.

Xoli: “ I love you and Merry Christmas” she kissed my cheek and went
back to sit next to Nqoba. He pulled her to him and kissed her forehead.
Me: “ Merry Christmas everyone”

Mom came from outside carrying a nicely dressed but sleeping Siphe. I
walked to them and took him.

Mom: “ I have everything set up outside. The cooking will take place
here. I just need to finish a few things here and there but either than that
we are good to go. Thuli and i will cook since Kwazi made dessert and
salads last night”

Nqubeko: “ What do you need from me?” he said rubbing together his
hands.
Mom: “ I need you and your brother to set the tables” they looked at
each other and smiled.

Nqoba: “ We would like that very much. Mom used to make us do that
every Sunday. Back when we were young, when we were happy” he
looked down.
Nqubeko: “ When she was alive” mom nodded and wiped her tears.

Mom: “ It’s time for Joy! Now come! We have work to do!”
I gave Siphe to Xoli and i took Sanele with me outside. He was too quiet
for my liking.

Me: “ Talk to me” he looked down rubbing his head before he sighed
deeply.
Sanele: “ There is this girl...”

Me: “ Mhmmm” he chuckled.

Sanele: “ It’s not like that sis. She is from my class and i like her. Well she
has no one and i would love it of she joined us and...”

Me: “ Whoa wait. What do you mean she has no one?”

Sanele: “ Bothe her parents died last year. She lives alone at her home. I
called her this morning and she said that she will be alone. So i was
wondering...” i interrupted him.

Me: “ Of course she can come” he hugged me. I laughed.

Sanele: “ Thank you sis. Let me go and call her” he jogged to the house. I
looked around and it was a beautiful day. Nothing was going to ruin this
day. We were surrounded with family and love. Its going to be a beautiful
Christmas.

I went back inside the house and we started sorting everything out. The
guys were outside setting the tables. Xoli had a sleeping Siphe in her
arms and she was going around taking pictures until mom took him to
bed.

I moved the presents outside. All the presents. Some were very heavy
but the whole set up was intimate; cosy and very nice. After a while
Sanele went out and came back with this green eyed white girl. We all
kept quiet and looked at them. Sanele looked at us before clearing his
throat.

Sanele: “ You guys are being creepy. Anyways this is Denise. Denise this
is my family” she was shy and her cheeks turned pink. Mom went over
and hugged her. She hugged her for a long time until we heard sniffing.
They finally pulled back and mom wiped her face.

Mom: “ Welcome child”

I went inside the house and played a mix tape that i made a few days
ago. Babes- Umngan wami came on and i heard screams from outside. I
ran outside and the brothers were dancing. They were dancing the same
thing as if they practices. I took my phone and took a video. Sanele
couldn’t stop laughing.

It was not time for lunch. Mom called everyone outside because we were
now scatted around the house. We were in the lounge watching some tv
and the guys were playing pool. We went outside and it was beautiful.
We sat down with mom sitting at the head of the table.

Mam Thuli was on the other hand. I sat next to Nqubeko who had Siphe
next to him and he was in a car seat/pram. Xoli next to Nqoba and
Sanele with Denise. We were a small group but i was just grateful that i
had a circled of people who love me. Mom stood up before we ate and
she said a few words.

Mom: “ Merry Christmas everyone. Thank you for being here, well thank
you for inviting me to your home Nqubeko. I know that all of us here wish
that things were different. Some of us wish to be with our parents; some
of us wish to be with our partners and children but we are here. Together.
God made things this way. The least we could do is embrace it and
celebrate the birth of Christ. So stop mopping around and be Merry” we
laughed at the last part before raising our glassed. Next was Mam Thuli.

Thuli: “ I don’t even know where to start. Well i have no one. Well that is
not true. I have you; all of you but the family that i thought was mine
deserted me. I raised those kids and when that man came they didn’t
hesitate to leave. What’s worse was that he was away all these years
playing happy family. I worked my butt off putting them through school
but they chose him because he had a better life. I don’t know what i
would have done had Mr Nqubeko left me out in the cold. I was a
stranger but he took me in. I will never forget it. I am forever grateful.
Merry Christmas everyone” by the time she was done the ladies were
crying; me included.

Xoli: “ Well Nokwazi knows my life story but i thought i could share with
you. When my parents died they left me with this huge hole in my heart. I
thought that their families would take care of me but all they did was take
the money, sell their valuables and left me out in the cold. Nokwazi was
there through everything with mam Londi. They took me in and here i am.
I owe them my life. As if that wasn’t enough i got to meet this wonderful
man of mine. Who loves me so much that my whole body aches. He
loves and respects me. I am grateful that i got a second chance to life
and love. Thank you everyone. Merry Christmas and I love you” she sat
down and placed a long baby kiss on Nqoba’s lips.

Me: “ Well damn those are tough acts to follow i mean you guys have
said it all BUT i just have to add how grateful i am to my mom and
brother. We come so far you guys but we are still here. I am grateful to
my best friend that she came into my life and showed me the meaning of
what a good friend and sister is. I am grateful to Nqoba my husband.
Thank you for supporting me. Nqubeko; my love. I love you and you
make me so happy. Thank you for our son. Merry Christmas baby” he
stood up and hugged me. Trust Nqubeko for wanting to outshine
everyone.

Nqoba: “ Well i am not a man of many word but my thanks will show in
the gifts i bought for each of you. Merry Christmas” he sat down causing
Nqubeko to chuckle.

Nqubeko: “ I have been sitting and listening to everyone and all i feel is
love all over. I am grateful to each and everyone of you. It’s funny how in
life you lose the one thing/person that keeps you sane not knowing that
God already has someone to fill that void. I found family and love in all of
you but most of all i found lifetime commitments because as i was
listening to you i told myself that there is nothing i wouldn’t do for each
and everyone of you. Miss Kheswa thank you. Thank you for opening up
your goldmine and giving me this rare jewel Nokwazi. Thank you for our
son maKheswa. I know i say this everyday but thank you for giving me a
second chance to prove to you just how much you and our son mean to
me. I love each and everyone of you. Nqoba; when mom left i know that
things just went upside down and we lost dad bro but look around you
man. We are surrounded by love. We have love all over us. Thank you
and Merry Christmas.” Mom stood up and went to hug him.

The speeches continued and afterwards we had lunch over jokes and
laughter. We were still getting to the gifts part. If it was up the me the day
was going to end because it was perfect.

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Nokwazi

It was now time to exchange gifts. Yeey! My favourite. We gathered

around the tree and placed throws for us to sit in. Siphe was dirty from all
the chocolate cake that mom and his father gave him. I kept telling them
that they shouldn’t give him any solids but did they listen, no.

We all sat down on the throws/blankets that were placed on the grass.
1st up was mom as usual. She stood up and took out the gifts that she
bought for all of us. I felt bad for Denise because I didn’t get her anything.
Well no one got her anything. Except for Sanele of course.

Mom: “ Okay kids. Gifts time!” she clapped her hands excitedly. I giggled.
I sat cross legged next to Nqubeko and my skirt inched a bit higher. He
placed a hand on my thigh and it travelled up. I looked around to see if
anyone was looking and I saw Nqoba look away quickly. Weird.

Mom: “ First up is My beautiful boy, come baby” Sanele stood and walked
over to mom. She gave him his gift and sat down. Sanele was the only
one standing and he opened his gift; before we could even see what was
inside he threw it on the floor and started jumping around. He went to
mom and hugged her tight. I was anxious; I wanted to see what he got.
Mom was laughing and wiping her tears. She was happy that Sanele was
that happy.

Me: “ What did you get?!” I wanted to stand but Nqubeko pulled me
down.
Nqubeko: “ Sit” I giggled. He finally opened and he got a PS4 with
combat and car games. He has always wanted it but mom never had
enough money to buy it.

We proceeded with the gifts and I got a watch from Xoli; Shoes and a
bag from mom and a gift voucher from Nqoba.

Hehe I went to the house and got a pair of shoes that I bought and gave
them to Denise. They dent my account but seeing the look on her face
when I gave her the box was worth it. Nqubeko gave me a watch *rolls
eyes* he said I should wear it and start counting. I don’t even want to
know what he meant.

The dishes were washed and we were just chilling outside eating home
made fried chicken aka KFC. The door bell rang and Mam Thuli stood up
to go get it but Sanele quickly ran to open. Telling her to relax because
it’s Christmas. Xoli and mom were slowly getting drunk and Nqoba kept
stealing glances at me. It was so weird.

Sanele came back followed by Mr Msomi carrying a baby with Carol right
behind him. I saw Nqubeko’s face change. He stood up and I was right
next to him. Nqoba also came and held his arm.

Mr Msomi: “ Hello everyone and Merry Christmas” he smiled nervously.

Nqubeko: “ What are you doing here dad?” he looked pissed.

Mr Msomi: “ It’s Christmas and we always spend it together so I thought

we’d come”
Nqubeko: “ You came with her, today of all days” he spat.

Nqoba: “ Please bro. Let them be. Mom would have wanted us together”
Carol chuckled and Nqubeko charged for her but I stood in front of him.
Me: “ She is not worth it” I touched his chest looking up to him. He looked
at me and gave me a faint smile.

Nqubeko: “ One mistake Carol and I will fuck you up!” mam Thuli took
baby Naledi and placed her next to Siphe. Carol went and set down
leaving the brothers with their dad. Mr Msomi first hugged Nqubeko and
he was so cold I wanted to punch him. It was Christmas and his father
was here. Mr Msomi went on to hug Nqoba and the hug was long. He
kept kissing Nqoba’s head telling him he loves him. They finally pulled
apart highly emotional.

Me: “ Okay. Let me fix you guys a plate” Mr Msomi beamed.

Mr Msomi: “ With lots of chicken” I giggled. .

Carol: “ Keep your food. I don’t want to gain weight” Nqubeko huffed and
went inside the house. I followed him. I found him in the kitchen and he
was pacing.

Me: “Calm down babe” he sighed before pulling me in to his arms.

Nqubeko: “ Carol better not try starting shit. I will kill her baby. I swear”
this guy had his arms around my neck and I had to stand on toes. He
was just too tall I ended up getting tired.
Me: “ You think she will tell?” he pulled back like he remembered
something.

Nqubeko: “ The letter! I never got to read the letter!”

Me: “ Where is it?” I went to take out a plate for dishing up.

Nqubeko: “ It’s in my safe at home. Will go get it tomorrow. I hope Carol

behaves because I will fuck her up. Trust me” I hugged him from behind
because he was looking out the window.
Me: “ You need to relax and enjoy Christmas daddy” he chuckled and
turned around. He kissed my chin.
Nqubeko: “ I love you. Don’t stop counting” I frowned.

Me: “ What does that even mean?” he kissed my lips before leaving the
kitchen. I dished up for Mr Msomi; I placed everything on a tray and
walked out. I was welcomed by mom’s excited screams I nearly dropped
the tray. I rushed to her and she was jumping up and down hugging
Nqubeko. I gave Mr Msomi his food and he thanked me.

Me: “ What’s going on?” I asked rushing to mom but she was now crying.
Mom: “ Thank you God! Oh Thank You!” he was kneeling and I was very
confused at to what happened.

Sanele: “ Thank you bhuti” he was crying and hugging Nqubeko after that
he went and hugged Denise.
Me: “ Will somebody tell me what is going on?!” Nqoba chuckled.

Xoli: “ Nqubeko bought them a house! A house in Rose Hill” I was beyond
shocked I mean who does that.
Me: “ Huh?” I looked at him and he shrugged his shoulders.

The festivities continued. I was just too shocked to comment but as soon
as my head is in the right place I was going to talk to him about it. The
sun was now setting; mom and Xoli were now heavily drunk with Carol
right behind them. Baby Naledi and Siphe were in the house with mam
Thuli. Nqubeko suddenly stood and sat next to me.

Nqubeko: “ Have you been counting?” I shook my head no looking at my

watch.
Me: “ I don’t even know what I was counting” he took my hand in his.

Nqubeko: “ I was giving you time to count the hours before I clam my
stake” I laughed.
Me: “ What are you talking about?” all this time he was playing with my
fingers and I heard him pull up something on my ring finger. It was a
bloody huge rock. Everyone stood and gathered around us.

Nqubeko: “ Give me a chance to love you for the rest of our lives. You
have awaken some parts of me that I never knew I had. All I want now is
that I make you mine forever and just let me love you because that is
what I live for. Loving you and being a good dad to our daughter.” I was a
weeping mess and Xoli was sobbing.

Me: “ What exactly are you saying to me?” he knelt in front of me.

Nqubeko: “ I am not telling you my love. I am asking you to Marry me on

this Merry Christmas” I giggled while he wiped my tears.
Me: “ I will marry you on this Merry Christmas” everyone cheered and
clapped.

Carol clapped longer than anyone and she was kaak drunk.


Carol: “ Well well well. The brothers are getting married. They are going
to start their families now but Nqoba you can’t just get married without
knowing your family” shit!
Mr Msomi: “ It’s time to leave now Carol. Come” Nqoba rushed to her and
held her arm.

Nqoba: “ What did you just say?” he looked confused yet angry.
Carol: “ Oops! My bad. I didn’t mean to say that” she laughed and Nqoba
slapped her.
Nqubeko: “ Nqoba No!”

Xoli: “ Nqoba!” she screamed.

Carol: “ You think hitting me will make you a man? No it won’t. It will just
make you more of this useless thing that you are. No wonder you are like
this. Your mother must have resented you. I would too if I was her”
Nqubeko: “ Carol shut the fuck up!” he walked to her but Nqoba had
already placed her hand on her throat.

Nqoba: “ Talk bitch!”

Carol: “ You are pathetic Nqoba. Just like your rapist father” Nqoba let her
go and stepped back while Nqubeko fell on his knees.
Nqoba: “ What do you mean?” he said that in an almost whisper.

Carol: “ Mommy didn’t tell you? Mommy was raped and you came along.
You are a fucking rape product you stupid ass!” I looked at Nqubeko and
he was crying loudly his shoulders shaking. Mr Msomi was also a mess
while Nqoba zoned out completely. What a way to end Christmas.

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Nqubeko

I have been dreading this day. Hiding this secret was something I wanted
to take with me to the grave but Carol decided to ruin my first Christmas
with my family. The reason why we kept it from him is because Nqoba
has anger issues. He will just go self disrupt and that is not a good thing.

I was kneeling on the floor when I heard a scream. Nqoba was on top of
Carol strangling her. As much as I wanted him to kill her but I couldn’t let
that happen. Nokwazi was trying to get him off but he just pushed her. I
rushed to him and pulled him off Carol. I pushed him back and Carol got
up coughing and crying.

Carol: “ You idiot! I am going to sue your ass” she said rubbing her neck.

Nqoba: “ Shut up bitch before I kill you!” he shouted and he had turned
pink.

Me: “ Nqoba man you need to calm down” he turned and looked at me.
He looked so angry but I just didn’t care. He can huff all he wants but I
will beat up his ass if he tries and gives me shit.

Nqoba: “ Don’t tell me to calm down! Don’t fuckin tell me to calm down!”
he roared. He was even pacing and sweating.

Me: “ Dad; it was lovely seeing you but you guys have to leave. Take
Carol and Go!” dad stood up but Nqoba rushed to him and stood in front
of him.

Nqoba: “ Not so fast. You will tell me what this bitch is talking about!” he
was screaming and pointing at Carol who had not stopped crying. I
wanted to slap her. Nokwazi shame was sitting in a chair looking at the
floor. Xoli and Miss Kheswa were now sober. Sanele and Denise
disappeared in the house.

Dad: “ Nqoba son. Now is not the time. Let it go son” he said in a very
low voice. He looked defeated.

Nqoba: “ Now is the time. Tell me what she meant!” he was going crazy.
Dad just looked down shaking his head. Nqoba turned and looked at me.

Nqoba: “ Nqubeko….Bro….is it true?” I looked at Nokwazi and she was

crying. I looked at Nqoba again and my heart broke. He was breathing
fast. The look on his face had desperation all over it. He really wanted
this to be just a joke. He was hoping it’s not true. I just shook my head.

Me: “ I’m sorry” I was trying so hard not to break down.

Nqoba: “ I am a rape victim? Mom was raped and she had me? I am a
bastard!” he was now crying.

Dad: “ Don’t say that. You are my son. My beautiful boy. You are mine
Nqobani and I love you”
Nqoba: “ No dad. I am not yours. I am a bastard that was forcefully
dumped in mom’s stomach”

Dad: “ You are my son! Don’t talk like that”

Xoli: “ Baby; you need to calm down!” she tried to touch his arm but he
yanked it.

Nqoba: “ Don’t touch me Xolile.”

Me: “ Nqoba bro. You need to calm down. Please calm down”

Nqoba: “ Ey voetsek Nqubeko. You knew all this time. You knew that I am
not a Msomi but you kept it to yourself. I am sure you were busy
laughing. Stupid Nqoba; he doesn’t know that he is a rape victim!”

Me: “ Don’t you dare. Don’t you fuckin dare. I lost Nokwazi because of tis
fuckin secret. I had to sacrifice being with her to almost marry Carol
because I was protecting you and now you are turning this on me. Fuck
man!”

Kwazi: “ Baby no. Calm down please” I shook my head. I didn’t mean to
have that outburst. I was also hurting.

Dad: “ We need to sit and talk about this”

Nqoba: “ There is nothing to talk about because right now all I want to
know is who is my father and where is he”

Dad: “ Son please you are my son and…” Nqoba lifted up his hand to
silence dad.

Nqoba: “ Dad please. Stop lying to me. Tell me the truth”

Carol: “ Please tell him about his father. I am tired of all the dramatics. If
we could just…”

She was silenced by a very loud slap from Xoli. It was so loud even my
cheek hurt
Xoli: “ I don’t know why you’re still here. If you could kindly take your flat
behind and leave this family in peace”

Carol: “ Oh please orphan. What do you know about family? You have no
one. That is why you saw it best that you tried your luck with Nqoba
because parents left you broke and cold. Such a gold digger”

Me: “ How the fuck do you know all that?’ she looked shocked after
saying all of that and me questioning her

Xoli: “ Yes; how did you know?” she squinted her eyes.
Nqoba: “ I don’t even care what Carol says about who but all I want to
know is what happened to mom. Please you owe me that much.”

Dad: “ Sit. I will tell you” he motioned for Nqoba to sit on a chair.
Me: “ Dad don’t..” he lifted up his hand.

Dad: “ When I met your mother she was the most beautiful woman and
you could see even when you guys were growing up that she was very
beautiful. We met in college. I was doing my final year and she was on
her 2nd. We met and we hit it off. I was her first in everything. When the
time came for school to close I took her home with me and there she met
my family. The way my father was so impressed it was funny. I didn’t
notice or realise that my big brother was lusting over her. “ he wiped his
tears before taking a deep breath. Nokwazi had gone inside to get him a
glass of water.

Dad: “ So time passed; your mother and I were very much in love. I
finished school and stared working. I got my own place and things were
going accordingly. Your mother fell pregnant with Nqubeko. I had to marry
her and I was planning to marry her anyways. We got married, had our
first son and got a house. 2 years later I had a meeting to get to and left
the house in a hurry. Your mother was asleep due to Nqubeko keeping
her up all night. Lindani got in and he slept with my wife. At first she
thought it was me until he started getting rough. That is when she turned
and he started hitting her because she was fighting him off. He raped and
brutally beat her up. I came home that dad to a crying Nqubeko and
Cortney in a pool of blood. We searched for Lindani and he was arrested.
Three months later your mom got sick; we went to the hospital and she
was pregnant with you.” .

Nqoba: “ How do you know that I am his and not yours?”

Dad: “ That is because your mother and I were not sexually active.
Before the rape I was busy and after the rape we didn’t sleep together
because of the trauma but you are mine Nqobani. You are my
conqueror.”

Nqoba shook his hand a couple of time before shaking his head .
Nqoba: “ Where is he now? This Lindani guy”

Dad: “ He is in prison. He is about to be released. He has been hounding

me. He said he wants to meet you because our cousin went to tell him
that you were conceived.” Nqoba stood up and took his car keys. I stood
in front of him.

Me: “ Where are you going?”

Nqoba: “ I am going out. I need air. This rape product/ bastard needs
some air”
Xoli: “ Baby i..” he lifted his head.

Nqoba: “ Not now Xolile” he sighed and left. I wanted to go after him but
when I looked at dad crying I went to him and knelt in front of him.

Dad: “ I failed him. I failed my son” he was sobbing. In all the years I have
never seen dad cry that much. I pulled dad in for a hug, I was also
blinded by my own tears. Mom; why did you leave? Lord knows how
much I need you right now. How much WE need you.

Xoli

I saw how broken Nqoba was and it was rather very hard to be there for
him because he wouldn’t allow me to be there for him. Its been three
days and he wasn’t reachable. I have been to his place, work and even
called around his friends but I just couldn’t find him.

These last few days have been hectic and worse part is that today is my
birthday. I woke up to Nokwazi’s call singing me happy birthday with
Nqubeko. We had planned that we would go to the Durban Jazz festival
that was 2 days ago but we couldn’t as Nqoba was MIA.

After that phone call with Kwazi I took a shower and ate breakfast. Its
very strange how much I eat these days. After eating I cleaned around
the flat and took a shower. After my shower I got dressed in jeans and a
lose top with sneakers. I took my things and headed for the door but was
welcomed by this guy holding flowers.

Delivery guy: “ Miss Xoli Ntuli?” I raised my eyebrows.

Me: “ That’s me.” He gave me the box of roses.

D.Guy: “ Please sign here” he gave me that board to sign on and he left. I
closed the door and opened the card. Its read : “ Happy Birthday my
gorgeous girlfriend” it was from Nqoba. I wanted to cry. Where was he? I
placed the roses inside the fridge and left.

I drove straight to the cemetery. Ever since my parents died I spend my

birthday mornings cleaning up their graves. I got to the cemetery after
passing by the florist and bought flowers. I got out the car and walked to
where their graves were. I started cleaning; I had my bottled water since
it was hot. I cleaned and after cleaning I went back to my car and
changed my shoes. I took the picnic basket and went to sit in between
my parents graves. I poured myself juice and sighed.

Me: “ I miss you mom. I feel alone sometimes. Nokwazi has her own
family now and my boyfriend is missing. It’s my birthday today but I just
feel like crying and screaming. It hurts dad; I want you guys here with
me.” I spoke to them for hours crying. After getting sun burnt I finally took
my things and left.

I was very emotional because this was the one day I felt alone since my
parents died. I finally got to my place. I got in and took a shower. I spent
a long time in the shower reflecting on my life and crying. After the
shower I put on Nqoba’s t-shirt and retired to the lounge with a glass of
wine. I ordered pizza and watched movies.

I love action movies so I settled for Tears of the sun. My pizza arrived and
I had my food with wine and a nice movie. The bell rang as I was on my
last piece of pizza; you see I eat a lot these days. I went to open the door
and opened. Nokwazi was on the other side with Nqubeko. They started
singing. I giggled.

Nokwazi: “ Happy Birthday to you *kiss* Happy Birthday to you *kiss*

Nqubeko: “ Happy Birthday makoti wethu. Happy Birthday to you” I

laughed clapping like a little girl. I moved out of the way and they got in.

They had cake and goodies with them. I was so happy; they have just
lifted up my spirits.

Nokwazi: “ We bought goodies but looking at you now it was a mistake”

they looked at each other nodding.

Me: “ What are you talking about?”

Nqubeko: “ You should change because we are going out for a birthday
dinner”


Me: “ Really?” I was excited. At least someone cares. I didn’t eve wait for
them to confirm I ran to my bedroom. Now you’re probably wondering
hoe Nqubeko and I get along. Well truth is I only get jolly around him
when Nokwazi is there because Nqubeko is very tense. He hardly laughs
but when Nokwazi and Siphe.

I wore my mini dress with cream heels. I applied minimum make up and
we left. We went to Greedy Buddha in Gateway. When we got there there
was a table ready for us and the family was there. By family I mean Mam
Thuli: Sanele and Mam Londi. Nqoba and Denise were not there. I felt a
bit sad but I quickly removed those thoughts.

I hugged everyone and we sat down. Conversation was flowing. I had

one too many glasses of wine. I was laughing non stop.

Nqubeko: “ Can we talk Xoli?” he asked standing up. I tensed up

immediately. I mean this guys hardly speaks but now he wants to
privately talk to me. I looked at Nokwazi and she nodded smiling. I stood
up and followed him. I found him standing by the balcony with his hands
in his pockets. I cleared my throat and he just stood there. I went to stand
quietly next to him.

Nqubeko: “ How are you Xoli?” he wasn’t even looking at me. My insides
were shaking.

Me: “ I’m okay” he nodded and turned to look at me. He was so tall.

Nqubeko: “ I am sorry about your parents and Happy Birthday” why did
he mention my parents.

Nqubeko: “ I took another look into your parents affairs and it turns out
they left a trust for you. The trust has someone controlling it and they
take money out of it once a year. They take a lump sum because the
money accumulates every month because they made this trust to be self
invested. “

Me: “ What are you talking about?” I was confused what the hell is this
guy talking about?!

Nqubeko: “ You my dear are a millionaire, your uncle. Your mother’s

brother used to take care of your parents money. When they died he
managed to pull some strings so that you’d walk away without a cent. So
I called you out here to ask you what is it that you want me to do with this
information?”

Me: “ What can you do?” I asked leaning on the rails.

Nqubeko: “ Just say the word. I will make it happen.”

Me: “ Why are you helping me?” he looked at me and chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ My fiance loves you. You are her sister and I have to make
her happy plus you are my brother’s fiance as well” I rolled my eyes.

Me: “ Some fiance I am. I don’t even know where he is”

Nqubeko: “ It’s okay. I will let you know when he gets home. So can I do
something about your money?” I nodded.

Me: “ Please do” he pulled me in for a hug and he smelled so good but
nope. The guy is too tall and too intense.

We went back inside and enjoyed our dinner. I got tons of gifts from
everyone. I even got some diamond earrings from Siphe. Rich parents
kids. He’s not even 6 months old but he is already giving out expensive
gifts. The dinner finally ended and we left. Nqubeko drove to Nqoba’s
place and parked outside.

Nqubeko: “ Go; he’s home. We will wait for you here” it was Nqubeko and
Kwazi. The rest had gone home.

I hurried out of the car not waiting for them. I got in and the door was
opened. The lounge had bottles of beer, wine glasses and pizza boxes. It
was so dirty but all I wanted was to see Nqoba. I rushed to his bedroom
and as I neared I heard moans; sex sounds.

I regret opening that door because what I saw is something I will never
forget. Nqoba was laying flat on the bed; one girl was riding his dick and
the other girl was riding his face. At least he was wearing protection but
the girl was rubbing herself all over his face. I just froze on the spot until I
heard on of the girls say “ Want to join us?” that is when Nqoba sprung
up. He looked shocked.

Nqoba: “ Xoli..” the girl rode him hard and he didn’t even bother getting
her off him. I saw his eyes roll back that is when I ran out of the room and
I heard him growl. I ran outside and got in the car crying.

Nokwazi: “ What happened?”

Nqubeko: “ Did he hit you?” I shook my head.

Me: “Can we go please?” Nqoba came out running. He came to the car
and tried opening the doors but Nqubeko locked the door

Nqubeko: “ What do you want me to do?” Nqoba was busy knocking on

the windows and punching the windows.


Me: “ Let’s leave please” he nodded and started the car with Nqoba all
over the car. He stood in front of the car saying that he wants me to come
out. I am his and I have to come out. Nqubeko ran him over just a little
because he dove.

Nokwazi: “ Are you crazy?!” she shouted at him as we drove out. I really
didn’t care. I just wanted to go home; curl up in bed and sleep.

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Nokwazi

Seeing my friend crying and hurting like that hurt a lot because there was
nothing i could do to ease her pain. We got home and she rushed to the
guest bedroom. Locking herself in. Nqubeko said i should give her space
and i did.

I retired to the bedroom after checking on Siphe. I found Nqubeko on top

of the bed with his laptop. He was only dressed in boxers. I took a quick
shower and wore my silk summer pyjamas. I applied lotion and went to
sit on top of him. He leaned back and sighed.

Nqubeko: “ What a messed up day!” he leaned back bringing my head to

his chest.

Me: “ No scratch that. What a messed up week!” i snuggled closer to him.

Nqubeko smells nice you guys. Even his sweat smells heavenly.

Nqubeko: “ How is Xoli?” i groaned.



Me: “ Your brother is an ass. She is hurting yazi. She is crying. Xoli is the
strong one but now she is so broken”

Nqubeko: “ I will talk to him. He’s going through shit but man he messed
up”

Me: “ Let’s sleep.” I tried getting off but he held me firm.

Nqubeko: “ Sleep on top of me” he moved my pyjama bottoms on the

side.

Me: “ Nqubeko i...” he eased inside. Sweet lord he felt so good. I can
never get over how big and snuggly he is. He moved twice causing me to
moan.

Nqubeko: “ Sleep” his voice was hoarse.

Me: “ How will i sleep with you buried deep inside me like this?” i leaned
to kiss him and he placed a hand behind my neck pulling me to him. I
moaned moving my hips but he pulled back and he chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ Sleep” he shifted causing him to go deeper and i screamed.

Damn him.

I tried closing my eyes but it was difficult until he started drawing patterns
on my back. I started drifting to sleep when i felt Nqubeko push in. I
opened my eyes widely and he flipped me over. He started moving. He
pulled up my pyjama top and got off. He kissed me down my breasts and
placed a kiss on my womanhood before pulling away and pulled it off.

He came back to kneel in between my legs and he entered. I felt his

weight on me as he moved deeper. His rhythm matching mine. I was
breathing his air; it was blissful.

♡♡♡♡♡♡
I woke up the next morning and Nqubeko wasn’t in bed. My whole body
ached as we slept very late due to Nqubeko over sexing me. I sat up the
bed and Nqubeko walked in with a tray and Siphe strapped in front of
him.

They looked so cute because Siphe was only dressed in a short blue vest
and white shocks while Nqubeko wore navy shorts and a white vest. I
took my phone and took pictures of them.

I thought Siphe was asleep but as soon as Nqubeko placed the food on
my lap he woke up. Nqubeko chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ Sneaky boy” he unstrapped him and placed him on the bed
laying on his stomach.

Me: “ Morning baby” he kissed my lips and his hand travelled underneath
the cover. I was naked underneath. He found my womanhood and pulled
away.

Nqubeko: “ I need to eat you” he pouted and i laughed while his fingers
was moving in and out of me.

Me: “ Well you can’t have a taste. Your son is here and he wants my
attention” he groaned and pulled back his fingers. He sniffed them before
sucking on them with his eyes closed.

Nqubeko: “ You smell and taste good. Eat” i ate my breakfast over light
conversation.


Me: “ I was thinking that i’d take Xoli out for a spa day” i said wiggling my
eyebrows. He stood up and took his wallet.

Nqubeko: “ Here” he gave me a black card with my initials and surname.

Me: “ What is this?” i took the card looking at it. It was written “ Private
Wealth” haibo.

Nqubeko: “ It’s yours. I forgot to give it to you on Christmas day” i wanted

to jump to him but i remembered that i was naked.

Me: “ Thank you Thank You Thank You!” i beamed and he smiled. He
took his son and the tray. He walked out leaving me to pull my gown and
got out of bed. I made the bed before going to the bathroom. I opened
the shower before brushing my teeth with warm salted water and
Sensodyne. My teeth had a bleeding problem so i always had to take
care of them first.

After brushing my teeth i got in the shower and started taking a shower.
Nqubeko got in as i was washing off soap.

Nqubeko: “ You started without me” he took the soap from my hands and
started washing me. He washed me so seductively and all over my body.
After he was done i took the soap and returned the favour. We finished
our shower and headed out to the bedroom where Nqubeko had taken
out shorts and an olive body suit with Grey fenty push ins. I looked at him
and shrugged.

Nqubeko: “ Well Xoli is already dressed so i picked your outfit” i stuck out
my tongue to him and he pulled me to him cupping my face. We tongue
kissed and it was so nice i didn’t want to stop until he pushed me off him.

Me: “ Xoli is waiting. Stop kissing me” i walked away leaving him
laughing. He’s the one who kissed me but i didn’t want it to stop. I was so
in love with this guy it wasn’t even funny. After i finished getting dressed i
walked out going to the lounge. I found everyone watching a movie there.
Sanele had friends over so i greeted and we left.

I could see that Xoli wasn’t there but i was going to make her have a
great time. We went to have a spa treatment at Umhlanga. After that we
went shopping. Xoli bought a lot of things and i wasn’t complaining
because she had that beautiful smile on her face so i was happy. After
shopping we retired to News Cafe and we had our lunch.

Xoli: “ It feels like a dream. I mean i thought he loved me. How could he
do that to me?” i reached over the table and held her hand. She was now
crying.

Me: “ I am sorry babe. I really am sorry babe. I don’t know what he was
thinking”

Xoli: “ It would be better if it was one person but it was 2 babe. The other
one was on his face. How could he?!” she shouted and everyone looked
at us. I went to the couch she was seated on and i pulled her in my arms
while she cried.

Xoli: “ Can i stay with you a while longer? I promise i won’t cause any
trouble.”

Me: “ Of course you can stay. When we get home i’ll ask Nqubeko to take
you to our place to gt a change of clothes.” She nodded and we
continued to eat. After eating we went home. When we got home the
guys, including Nqubeko were playing soccer outside on the grass and
they were barefoot. I was seriously drooling over Nqubeko.

Xoli: “ Stop drooling” she giggled and we went inside the house. I felt him
pull me to him.

Nqubeko: “ I missed you wife” he kissed my cheek.

Me: “ Where are the gogos?” i turned around to look at him.

Nqubeko: “ They left with Siphe to Umlazi”

Me: “ Xoli wants you to accompany her to the flat. She needs some
things there”

Nqubeko: “ Okay. We’ll go with the guys” he went to take a quick shower
and they left. Leaving me alone in this big ass house.

I went to take a shower and when i came out Nqoba was seated on top of
the bed. I was startled as to why was he in my bedroom and how did he
get in.

Me: “ Nqoba; what are you doing here?” he smiled and stood up walking
towards me. I stepped back and my back made contact with the wall.

Nqoba: “ You’ve always been beautiful. That is what draws me to you”

he got closer and he was caging me in.

Me: “ Get away from me Nqoba” i was facing the side when he licked my
cheek. That is when i kneed him. I tried running to my phone when he
pulled my leg making me fall. He slapped me so hard i got dizzy. He got
on top of me and took off the towel leaving me naked.

Nqoba: “ You were supposed to be mine!” he tried to kiss me but i bite

him. He lost it. He started hitting me punching me all over. I was starting
to get drowsy. He saw that as an opportunity to take off his pants. I stood
and ran towards the door but he got to me and threw me against the wall.
I felt my arm break but i kept fighting.

I told myself that no matter what, i had to keep fighting. He pulled me to

him by my leg and got on top of me. I felt him rub his manhood on my
nana. I was crying and begging him to stop when i suddenly felt him
being pulled away from me. I opened my swollen eyes and i saw
Nqubeko on top of him. That is when i closed my eyes; letting the
darkness consume me.

Insert 16

Nqubeko

We drove to Xoli’s place but on our way there i was feeling uneasy. On
the way something told me to go back home so i dropped Xoli off before
giving the guys money to go watch a movie and catch Uber back home. I
drove back to my place calling Kwazi but she never answered. Probably
taking a shower. I called miss K asking is if she is home or not but she
told me they are a long way from home.

I was very anxious to go home. When i got there Nqoba’s car was parked
in the drive way. I relaxed a bit because at least Nokwazi is safe but i
quickly rushed into the house when i heard screams.

Me: “ Nokwazi!” i shouted running towards the bedroom. When i got there
Nqoba was on top of a naked Nokwazi. There was blood on her face; she
was fighting him off. His pants were on his knees. Right that moment i
didn’t care that he is my brother. All i wanted to do was kill him. I got him
off her and i started hitting him.


He reeked of alcohol but i didn’t even care. I was beating him up and i
was not going to stop until he was dead but what caught my attention
was that the room was too quiet. When i turned around Nokwazi was
laying there; motionless; naked and bleeding. I stopped hitting him and
rushed to her side. I picked her up and i checked for a pulse. I hit her
cheeks very hard and she moaned. I breathed out in relief.

I took her gown and quickly covered her. I called for help and put her to
bed. Nqoba was laying there groaning. I wish i had killed him; i don’t care
what he is going through. All i care about is my baby. The police and
paramedics arrived and they attended to Nokwazi. Nqoba was sitting on
his butt by the door. They asked what happened.

Officer: “ Can anyone tell me what happened here?” i looked at Nqoba

and kicked his leg causing him to groan.

Me: “ Talk you piece of shit”

Officer: “ Hey back off!” he pushed me off him and i pushed back. I was
about to punch him when one guy came between us.

Guy: “ I’ll take it from here. Mr Msomi; please allow us to do our job” i
gave him a cold look.

Me: “ Do you job then and stop asking me shit. You can see my fiance
was attacked and this asshole attacked her” i kicked his leg again.

The older guy pulled me outside and that is when i saw Nokwazi being
pulled to the ambulance. I ran to it

Me: “ I’m coming with you.” The operator pushed me. I wanted to punch
him so badly.


Me: “ Get your fuckin hands off me you freak. My fiance is hurt. I am
going with her” i turned and looked at the cops all over my house.

Me: “ I better find everything as it was. I will sue your asses if you steal
even a teaspoon” i got in the ambulance and rode in it in silence.

Medic: “ Sir; which hospital are we taking her to?” i was holding on to her
hand, looking at her. That is when i saw how bruised her face was. Her
upper lip was busted, her left eye swollen. She had a cut on her
forehead. I got so angry i wanted to go back and snap Nqoba’s neck.

Me: “ Umhlanga hospital” i know its a bit far but i wanted someone who i
can trust as her Dr and i have a friend who works there. We rode in
silence with me kissing her hand all the way. My phone rang as we were
entering the hospital. It was Miss K.

Me: “ Mah?” i heard Siphe crying in the background.

Miss K: “ Nqubeko; what’s going on? We got home and its crawling with
police, i need hot water for Siphe’s bottle and we are not allowed in” my
son was wailing. It broke my heart.

Me: “ Something bad happened to Nokwazi mah. I am on my way to the

hospital and ...” she didn’t even let me finish.

Miss K: “ What happened to my baby? Where the hell are you Msomi?
You better answer me right now!” the nurses rushed to Nokwazi as she
was wheeled in.

Me: “ We are at Umhlanga hospital. I have to go mama.” I hung up before

she could shout some more. I put my phone in my pocket and followed
behind.

Nurse: “ Sir you need to stay here. We can’t allow you in” i gave her a
bored look.
Me: “ Yazi sisi ubanga iscefe. Ngifuna ukubona umfazi wami (You know
lady you ae being a nuisance. I just want to see my wife)”

Nurse: “ I understand. You will see her when we are done with her. For
now please stay out” i chuckled shaking my head. She turned around and
walked away shaking her flat ass.

I don’t know hey; ever since Nokwazi gave me a chance i don’t get
turned on by anyone but her. You could be wearing your shortest dress
and showing you fresh thighs but my baby’s creamy thighs. I sat down
looking at the magazine. I was trying to distract myself as i was going out
of my mind.

I saw Miss K rush to me an hour later. I stood up meeting her half way.
Behind her was a very worried Xoli and Sanele. Mah Thuli must have
stayed with Siphe. I hugged Miss K and she just cried. I couldn’t even
look at Xoli because she wouldn’t stop crying.

Miss K: “What happened to my baby?” i pulled back and looked at these

people around me. They had no idea that Nqoba is the one who put her
in hospital.

Me: “ What did you find at home? Who was there?”

Miss K: “ Just the police guys. Your bedroom had blood all over it. What
happened?”

Me: “ Erm she was attacked” i cleared my throat and Miss K could see i
was hiding something so she stopped questioning me. I looked at Xoli
and i just felt sorry for her. It was her birthday and now its her best friend.

We saw the Doctor approach and we all stood.

Dr: “ Who N-Khu-bhe-kho here?” that is how he pronounced my name.

Me: “Nqubeko; Nquthu and Nquma. I am Nqubeko” Sanele chuckled.

Dr: “ Excuse me what?” he looked confused.

Me: “ Never mind. What’s happening with Nokwazi?” Sanele just laughed
out loud and he walked away. The Dr frowned.

Dr: “ Okay she is heavily sedated at the moment but she asked for you to
come. She wants to talk to you. It is important”

Miss K: “ Sorry Doc i am her mother. Can i see her first?” he shook his
head.
Dr: “ She asked for N-Khu..yeah. She asked for him and you will see her
afterwards. Sir please follow me..” he walked away and i followed him. I
found my baby drifting to sleep.

Me: “ wife” she smiled faintly.

Me: “ How are you feeling?”

Nokwazi: “ I feel like i survived rape” she giggled and i was rather pissed.
Me: “ Not funny” she groaned in pain after that.

Kwazi: “ Could you keep what happened between us?” she closed her
eyes rubbing on her lip.
Me: “ Why would i do that?” i shouted. She winced.

Kwazi: “ Please. You know Nqoba’s condition and...”
Me: “ Whoooa; had he raped you. Would you have understood? Get out
of here Nokwazi i will not understand shit.”

Kwazi: “ Well he is your brother and you have a record of hurting me. So
don’t you dare” she blew the wind out of me. I stumbled back.

Me: “ You are comparing me to a rapist?” she tried touching my hand but
i backed away.

Kwazi: “ Stop being dramatic Nqubeko. Just keep this between us and
close the door on your way out” i chuckled before walking out the ward i
walked straight outside and went to look for transport home. My heart
ached and i needed to get away from this place. Nokwazi hates me. I
guess i deserve it because i am the one who introduced her to Nqoba. Its
all my fault.

Insert 17

Nokwazi

Can i just say i don’t know why i spoke to Nqubeko that way? He was
trying to be there for me and i blew him off. Thing is i am very confused.
Nqoba has Passive Aggressive Personality and seeing that he is going
through a lot right now i don’t want to add. On the other hand i want him
to get punished but not in the way that Nqubeko wants.

I feel sorry for mostly Nqubeko because he has to be strong for me, for
his brother, for Siphe, for his father; for Xoli. He has to be strong for
everyone. I just don’t want him to hurt anymore. My approach to all that
was bitchy but i was going to deal with it later. Right now i feel dizzy so let
me sleep.

I was woken up by mom shaking me; a banging headache; throbbing
body and an excruciatingly painful arm. I looked at mom and she was
crying. Sanele was standing by the door his hands in his pockets.

Mom: “ Baby. How are you feeling?” i tried sitting up but i ended up
groaning in process.

Mom: “ Easy there.” She helped me sit up and fixed my pillows.

Me: “ Hey mom” she kissed my busted lip and i closed my eyes. Tears
made their way down to my cheeks. I just wanted to let go. I hurt so bad
but the pain inside was worse.

Mom: “ What happened to you?” i looked at Sanele and he nodded

before heading out.

Me: “ Nqoba tried to rape me and Nqubeko got there in time” i sobbed.
She pulled me to her causing me to wince.

Mom: “ so sorry. That’s why Nqoba is in jail. He called Xoli and she went
to him. When i asked Nqubeko he just gave me a faint smile and minded
his son.” I wiped my tears.

Me: “ I didn’t speak nicely to him. I kinda compared them” i looked down
playing with my hands.

Mom: “ Compared who?” she asked backing up.

Me: “ I compared Nqubeko and Nqoba” he hand flew to her mouth.

Mom: “ I did not raise you like that” she was shaking her head.


Me: “ I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to...”

Mom: “ How could you even say that to Nqubeko? I really don’t know why
you’d speak to him like that” i just looked down. When mom starts
shouting at me its best that i keep quiet.

Mom: “ He did you wrong yes but there is no reason for you to rub it in his
face. Hasn’t he shown you how much he loves you?” i was a weeping
mess. I couldn’t even speak so i just nodded

Mom: “ You are going to call him and apologise. Hell this Nqoba guy is
stupid really, how are you going to give Nqubeko a blow job all banged
up like this?” that caused me to laugh and she smiled. She sat down next
to me and kissed my hand.

Mom: “ I’m not being cruel to you but baby men like Nqubeko come once
in a while. Embrace him. Now call him. Now!” she stood up and took her
back.

Me: “ Where are you going now?” she pouted and looked at me.

Mom: “ Police station. I need to kick some fucker. He really messed with
the wrong girl” she turned and walked out. I called out to her but she
didn’t come back. I looked for my phone and it wasn’t there so i buzzed
for a nurse. Instead of a nurse coming; Xoli came in with swollen eyes
and she was crying still.

Xoli: “ I am so sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry!” she cried and fell on her

knees. I wanted to go to her but i just couldn’t get out of bed.

Me: “ It’s okay. Come here” she shook her head holding on to her
stomach.

Xoli: “ My baby. My baby..” she looked like she was in pain.

Me: “ Baby? What baby? You’re pregnant Xolile?” she nodded.

Xoli: “ I found out this morning. I was going to tell you but now...”

Me: “ How did you find out?” she stood up and walked to me.

Xoli: “ He called me telling me to come to the police station. He told me

what he did to you. I didn’t realise it was this bad.” Her eyes roamed
around my body.

Me: “ It’s okay. I’ll be fine.” I closed my eyes and a nurse came in.

Nurse: “ You called me?” i rolled my eyes.

Me: “ I called you a few minutes ago and you’re only coming now?”

Nurse: “ I’m here now so what did you want?” i chuckled and Xoli
snapped.

Xoli: “ Get out of here bitch! Get out and get us someone higher than you.
I seriously hate talking to stupid bitches!” she groaned and i just laughed.

Nurse: “ What the hell? How could you talk to me like that. I...” Xoli
slapped her. Even i was shocked i held my cheek.

Xoli: “ You don’t know me, i don’t know you. If you value your job you’ll
get the fuck out of here” the nurse ran out of the ward.

Me: “ Xolile; that’s no way to behave. Especially now that you are
pregnant” she rolled her eyes.

Xoli: “ I can’t be fighting bitches on every turn” the door opened and
Nqubeko walked in with my weekender bag. He also had plastics of food
on the other hand. He looked yummy i just wanted to eat him up. He
looked tense.

Nqubeko: “ Hello. Hi Xoli” he nodded at her and she smiled.

Xoli: “ Hey bhuti. Bye bhuti” she took her bag and came to hug me. She
left after that.

Nqubeko: “ How are you?” he walked to the cupboard and placed my bag
in there. He took out the fruits and juice from the plastic along with a Spur
plastic.

Nqubeko: “ I got you food. Your pyjamas are in there. If you need
anything, let me know” he kissed my cheek and started walking away.

Me: “ Nqubeko” he turned and looked at me.

Nqubeko: “ Yeah?” he put his hands in his pockets.

Me: “ I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to..” he lifted his hand up.

Nqubeko: “ You’re not sorry. You meant everything you said because
deep down you know you haven’t forgiven me. I noticed how you call me
when i don’t come back home on time; you question my female clients
and ask if i saw Carol when i was home. You meant it. You think i am a
monster and that just broke me because i can now see that you don’t
know how much i love you” he sighed. He looked exhausted. While me
on the other hand i was crying.

Me: “ That’s not true Nqubeko i love you” he nodded.

Nqubeko: “ I love you too. More than life itself but i can’t just stand here
and be happy while you don’t fully trust me so it’s best that i leave you to
think”

Me: “ What do you mean? Are you breaking up with me?” he raised up
his hands in frustration.

Nqubeko: “ Have you been listening to a word i said? I said i love you.
Nokwazi you are wearing my ring. When i asked you to marry me i meant
forever. No other woman can take the space you occupy in my heart. I
love you woman and i am sorry that Nqoba did what he did to you but he
is going to pay.”

Me: “ Can we talk about Nqoba when i leave here. Right now j want to
know what you mean by your talk?”

Nqubeko: “ I love you. I will give you space to think about what you really
want. If you want to move on with me then fine but be sure to know that
we will leave every bad thing behind. We will leave it here in this room
but if you don’t trust me enough to hold you heart fully then it’s okay. I
won’t hold it against you but what i don’t want is for you to remind me that
i broke you heart. If you forgive me the forgive me and let us move on. If
you don’t forgive me that’s also fine. At least i’ll know where i stand. For
now i will leave you to think about everything. I love you” tears were
gushing downy cheeks and they wouldn’t stop.

Me: “ Please don’t leave me. I want to be with you. I love you” he kissed
me. The kiss was short and i wanted more.


Nqubeko: “ I am not leaving you. I am going home to our son. I am giving

you time to think because if after tomorrow you still want us nc nc baby
you better forgiven me fully because i will fuck you up so badly you’ll end
up with 7 children by the time you reach 30” i giggled and he smiled.

Me: “ Okay. Go home. I don’t want to be pregnant. Siphe is barely 3

months old.” He chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ I don’t mean now phela but think about what i said okay?” i
nodded and he kissed me again. This time the kiss was deep and yummy
i wanted to lay on my back and let him have me. We heard someone
clearing their throat. We turned to look and it was Sanele with Denise.
Denise was carrying flowers.

Nqubeko: “ Let me get going. I love you and if you decide on staying with
me i will wife you on your birthday.” My eyes shot up.

Me: “ But my birthday is in 2 weeks” he winked and walked to the door.

The hell? Nqubeko was giving me 2 weeks to plan our wedding? That’s
just insane and sweet. As sweet as that was we still had to deal with the
Nqoba issue. Honestly speaking Nqoba hurt a lot of people but that
doesn’t mean we should leave him out in the cold. He needed his family
and we are his family.

Insert 18

Nokwazi

The following days were okay. My bruises were healing and i was getting
out the following day. Today is Friday and its so warm inside here. I have
been complaining about the cold that they made my room super warm. I
had a cast on my arm and i could walk now.

It wasn’t as bad. I woke up and took a bath. I went to my ward and found
the caterers setting up my breakfast. I wore another clean set of pyjamas.
Nqubeko went overboard with those. I had about 10 sets and he said he’ll
buy more is i need them. I settled for a peach onesie and fluffy white
socks. I sat on a chair next to the bed as i was tired of being in bed the
whole day.

After the breakfast set up the left. There was a rose on the tray “ You are
beautiful. I love you” even though Nqubeko has been keeping his
distance he also has been amazingly romantic. He always checks on me
but gives me kisses on the cheek.

I haven’t given him his answer yet. I will give it tomorrow when we leave
the hospital. I love him and i want to spend my life with him.

I ate my breakfast and after that i went for a walk. I got out the hospital
and sat by the entrance. I could see Gateway a minute away. I wanted to
go but the attire didn’t allow me. I looked up and saw Nqubeko standing
in front of me with hands in his pockets.

Nqubeko: “ Morning” he looked down at me with blood shot eyes i stood

up quickly and tried to touch his arm but he backed away.

Me: “ Nqubeko; what’s going on?” he shook his head countless times.

Nqubeko: “ I’m fine. Why are you out here?” that hurt that he was
avoiding my question. He was pushing me away just like i did and that
hurt like hell.

Me: “ Why won’t you talk to me?” he chuckled before sitting next to me.
His hands were on his face and he kept doing breathing exercise.


Nqubeko: “ I’m fine really” he gave a faint smile.

Me: “ If you don’t talk to me you might as well leave” he chuckled and
stood up. He started walking away i went to him.

Me: “ Stop! Please stop! Tell me what’s wrong. Nqubeko please; i beg
you please tell me” his shoulders shook and i just knew that he was
crying.

Nqubeko: “ I have no one” he whispered that i almost didn’t hear him. I

took his hand and we headed back inside my ward. I got in the ward and
closed the door after asking not to be disturbed. I got in bed and made
space for him to sit.

Me: “ Talk to me my love” he pulled me to his chest and sighed deeply

before he started to speak....

Nqubeko

Today its Thursday and i plan on going to see my brother. I have been
putting it off for a while now so i think its time because he has been
asking for me. Xoli begged me to go. She is on his side and so is
Nokwazi. I woke up and went for a jog. I ran so much that i found myself
in La Lucia. I chuckled and walked back home. It took me almost 2 hours
to get there. I got home and mah Londi just got home from work. She
was having breakfast with Thuli.

Me: “ Morning” i greeted and went to the fridge. I took out milk and drank
from its container. I felt a slap on the back of my head that i chocked
coughing

Miss K: “ Sies man Nqubeko. Sies” she walked out of the kitchen and i
laughed.

Me: “ When is she moving to her house again?” Thuli just laughed.

Miss K: “ I heard that you moron!” i went to sit down and dished up for
myself. Siphe was safely strapped in his supportive chair. I enjoyed my
breakfast and i even had seconds. After that i went to take a shower. I
stepped out the shower and went to look for clothes to wear.

It was the damn festive season and i spent the New Year in my bedroom
which was 2 days ago. Sanele was probably locked up in his bedroom
with Denise. Those 2. I settled for Knee length shorts, maroon sneakers
and a black t-shirt.

I took my car keys and went to the nursery. Thuli was getting ready to put
Siphe to sleep i offered to do it. I took him and sat on his rocking chair. I
gave him the bottle which was filled with his mom’s breast milk. He
sucked on it as his eyelids started to close. I rocked him until he sighed;
that’s when i put him to bed because he was now deep in sleep.

I got out his room and went to check on Sanele. I knocked in his room
and he opened wearing sweatpants and socks only. I tried peeping in but
he stepped out and closed the door.

Me: “ What or who are you hiding in there?” he chuckled rubbing his
head.

Sanele: “ I’m not hiding anything or anyone” i smiled

Me: “ Don’t get her pregnant” his eyes widened.

Sanele: “ I swear we’re not doing anything. We just...” i raised my
eyebrows and waited for him to finish.

Me: “ You’re just what?” he shook his head looking down.

Sanele: “ Nothing” i chuckled.

Me: “ I had sex when i was 12 my man. So don’t feel embarrassed” his
eyes shot up. I was in stitches.

Sanele: “ We’re really not doing anything” i gave him a pat on his
shoulder before walking away

Me: “ At least tongue her dude” i said walking away.

Sanele: “ Already did” i heard the door close as i turned around. He was
no longer there. I smiled and walked to the garage. I decided on taking
the vrrr phaa today. After seeing Nqoba i was going to go Kwa Mashu to
see my mates; hence the outfit.

I drove to town, he was being kept at CR Swat. He is supposed to be in

jail right now but i asked a few favours from people that need to return
favours to me. I got there and i was placed in the interrogations room.
The door opened minutes later and he walked in.

He looked so awful and thin. He had lost so much weight plus the facial
hair was just too much. Nqoba is bald so seeing him with hair made him
look ugly. At least he had decent clothing which i think Xoli is responsible
for.

Me: “ Man you look like a hobo” i said as soon as he sat down. He gave
me a faint smile before looking down. Tears gushed down his cheeks and
i leaned forward.
Me: “ Not yet bro. No tears just yet. You need to explain to me. Why?” i
asked looking at him. I felt the anger rise.

Nqoba: “ I stopped taking my pills. When i found out about my paternity i

guess that’s when i lost it. I went as far as cheating on Xoli. I had sex with
2 women in front of her. That’s when i knew i had a problem” he sobbed.

Me: “ Why were you at my house that day?”

Nqoba: “ I was..” i cut him off.

Me: “ Look at me you piece of shit” he looked up at me and he looked so

broken.

Nqoba: “ I am sorry Nqubeko. I went to your house to look for Xoli. When
i got there Kwazi was in the shower and i was panicking. My heart was
telling me to leave but my head said i should go for it. I wasn’t thinking
straight. I don’t even like Kwazi that way. I remember i even said that she
was supposed to be mine but i didn’t mean it. I didn’t mean it at all
because i love my Xoli and i only see Kwazi as a sister. Nqubeko i need
help” he was breathing hard and fast.

Me: “ What do you mean?” i leaned back on a chair.

Nqoba: “ I need to go back to the facility and..” i shook my head.

Me: “ You need to be surrounded by family dude. You can’t just leave.
You have..” he also cut me off.

Nqoba: “ I’ll be back before Xoli gives birth. I spoke to Kwazi and she is
having me released as soon as she gets discharge. Will go to the facility
straight from here”


Me: “ You hurt me Nqobani. You should have came to me but instead you
chose to hurt me. You chose to hurt your family. Look at how things are
right now. I have been so angry at you; ready to cut you off but Nokwazi
and Xoli begged me to come see you. Seeing you like this hurts me
because i promised mom that i would take care of you. I am so
disappointed in you baby bro” he was shaking his head this whole time.

Nqoba: “ That is why i have to go. I have to get my act together and come
back. I’ll be good i promise” he said that with tears running down his
cheeks i also cried. I held his hand over the table.

Me: “ You’ll be okay” he sobbed yet again.

Nqoba: “ I am not your brother Nqubeko. Mom was raped and i am a

curse to society. I am so sorry Nqubeko. I wish mom was here i would
also apologise to her”

Me: “ It’s not your fault. He took advantage of mom. Dad loves you. You
are his son.”

Nqoba: “ He came to see me. He is the one who will book me in.”

Me: “ You see, your family loves you”

Officer: “ Times up” i looked at this ass.

Me: “ Voetsek wena! I fuckin pay your bosses boss. Fuck out of here”
Nqoba chuckled.

Nqoba: “ I am usually the one who says that. Bro i will see you in 7
months”


Me: “ I’ll come visit you” he shook his head no.

Nqoba: “ I’d rather you didn’t. Take care of your family. I love you” he
stood up and headed to the door.

Me: “ We are not done talking” he gave me a faint smile before walking
out. I sat there and i let the tears fall. After crying like a bitch i walked out
and drove home. I didn’t even go to Umlazi. I wanted to see dad.
I got there and he was with Naledi. She was so beautiful. I took her and
we walked outside.

Me: “ Hey dad. How are you?” i kissed Ledi and she giggled.

Dad: “ Son, how are you?” he looked troubled

Me: “ I asked you first but I’m fine. I just came back from visiting Nqoba
and he told me you will book him in” he nodded.

Dad: “ That’s correct and i will also go to New York afterwards” i looked at
him waiting for further explanation but he just kept quiet

Me: “ You are going on business?” he shook his head.

Dad: “ Actually i wanted to talk to you about that. You remember we

spoke of a merger” i nodded.
Me: “ Yes i remember but you changed your mind because you thought i
would screw up your business” he chuckled.

Dad: “ Yeah well you were still a boy then but now you’re grown up my
boy. You’re a man and i couldn’t be more proud of you” he looked down
smiling.

Me: “ Dad what’s going on?” i went to sit next to him.

Dad: “ Nothing son. I want that merger to happen. I will be leaving in a

few weeks”

Me: “ When are you coming back?” i inched closer to him.

Dad: “ Take care of my son Nqubeko. When he comes back make sure
that he is taken care of. I love you both so much. Well i love the 3 of you
very much. You, Nqoba and Ledi mean the world to me. Take care of
Nqobani.”

Me: “ You’re scaring me Dad. When will come back”

Dad: “ I’m not. Ledi and i are moving there permanently” he said that and
walked back into the house leaving me shocked and confused.

Insert 19

Nokwazi

The following day i got out of hospital. Nqubeko came to fetch me. He
really was heart broken about his family leaving him but i assured him
that Nqobani was going to come back and they would pick up the pieces
together. We went past CR to have Nqoba released and he left for the
facility straight from the police station.

It broke my heart to see Nqubeko suffer that way but there was nothing i
could do to convince his father and brother to stay. They both had
reasons that made them want to leave and the best that i could do was to
be there for Nqubeko.

We drove home in silence from the hospital. I looked at him and he

looked pissed. I decided not to even ask him. Wee got home and he took
the bags inside leaving me in the car. I sighed and opened the door. He
appeared again and lifted me up causing me to giggle. That put a smile
on his face.

Me: “ I can walk hey” i said leaning my head on his shoulder.

Nqubeko: “ I know. You just feel good in my arms” i blushed.

Me: “ Well I’m glad i still mean something to you. You won’t even look at
me” he kept quiet and walked to our bedroom. He got in and laid me
down. He went to close the door; he came took off my shoes and tucked
me in. He sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me.

Nqubeko: “ You’re okay with being here; in our bedroom?” he looked

worried.

Me: “ Why wouldn’t i be okay?” i knew where he was going with this but i
seriously was okay. I didn’t mind being here.

Nqubeko: “ This room holds bad memories for you” i shook my head no.

Me: “ No; I’m okay. I promise. Stop worrying” he nodded tightening his
jaws.

Nqubeko: “ You need anything?” his eyes were roaming around my face.

Me: “ Can i go sit outside please?” he frowned shaking his head.

Nqubeko: “ It’s raining babe. I can’t have you go outside” i let out a deep
breath that i didn’t know i was holding. He raised his brow.

Me: “ I never thought I’d hear you call me babe again” he chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ I’ve been having not so great thoughts. It just feels like the
world is on my shoulders”

Me: “ Hey. I’m here for you; with you. I promise babe.” He smiled and
looked on the floor.

Nqubeko: “ I wish mom was here. This is really too much for me to deal
with” i scooped closer to him and laid my head in his shoulder

Me: “ Your shoulders are wide enough for you to carry this burden. You
are strong Nqubeko. If it gets very tough come to me and fuck me
senseless” he looked at me shocked then burst out laughing.

Nqubeko: “ Oh I love you. You are awesome” i giggled.

Me: “ I love you too. I am here for you anytime you need me” he looked at
me wiggling his eyebrows.

Nqubeko: “ So 08 January is your birthday” i blushed.

Me: “ Yep. I’m turning 24”

Nqubeko: “ Plus you’re getting married on your birthday.” My eyes shot

up.
Nqubeko: “ What? I told you at the hospital that we are getting married on
the 8th” he said in a serious
tone.

Me: “ I thought you were joking” he chuckled. It was great seeing him like
that again. I have been so worried that he won’t be the same again.

Nqubeko: “ Besides; i have to marry you soon. At least dad will still be
here” he sighed. These people were hurting my baby boo.

Me: “ Why is he leaving babe? Make me understand why he’s leaving

you with such responsibility with the plan of giving you everything he
owns.”

Nqubeko: “ He is finally free of Carol. He wants to do what he’s always

wanted to do and that is to relocate to New York. They always spoke
about going there but i guess God had other plans.”

Me: “ Wait; he’s free of Carol? How?” he took off his shoes and t-shirt.
Haibo guys this guy was carved just for me to drool over him. Freakin
sexy and i want to run my tongue all over his body. I heard him clearing
his throat. I looked at him and bit my upper lip. He raised a brow with this
silly boyish smile.

Nqubeko: “ Stop raping me with your eyes and scoot. I want to cuddle” i
blushed as i made space for him to sit. He pulled me to his naked chest
that had my name and Siphe’s name on it .

Me: “ So...tell me!” he kissed my forehead and kept quiet for a long time. I
even thought that he was asleep.

Nqubeko: “ Mom and Carol’s mom were friends. They owned a business
together. When her mom died she left strict instructions that mom
handles Carol’s businesses including the money. Mom decided on what
Carol gets. Mom could see that Carol had a wondering eye so she drew
up pages of a “contract” not knowing that she is signing away all her
money to mom or me. So if Carol was to do anything stupid like sleep
with mom’s husband; which she did she will be left penniless. So as we
speak i own everything that was once hers. From her boutiques to her
restaurants. I own all of that. So dad found out and he just wants to take
his daughter somewhere new”

Me: “ Wait so all this time; you not reading the letter you actually had the
power to destroy Carol?” he nodded.

Nqubeko: “ Had i known earlier i would have stopped all the mess that’s
happening now. Why didn’t i do what mom told me Kwazi?” he looked so
sad.

Me: “ It’s not your fault” i kissed his chest and he breathed out loud. I
looked up to him and he was looking down at me. I looked at his dark
grey eyes and he just looked so handsome. I licked my lips and he
bowed his head kissing me. Its been so long since we shared a kiss in
this very bed. One moment we are kissing the next i am on top of him dry
humping him. I was moaning and him groaning until he gently pushed me
back.

Nqubeko: “ You just got home from the hospital. You need to get some
rest” he kissed my nose getting me off him.

Me: “ I need you babe. Please. It’s been so long” i whined causing him to
laugh. He stood up fixing his pants. There was a knock on the door and
he grinned.

Nqubeko: “ Saved by the knock but just to be clear. I am waiting for you
to remove that cast because i plan on fucking you till my dick comes out
of your mouth” i gasped and he chuckled. He wore his t-shirt and pulled
on flops before going to open the door. It was mom and Xoli”

Mom: “ I didn’t know you guys were busy. I could come back later if you
want?”

Nqubeko: “ No mah i was actually going out. You said we are running out
of Nappies and some milk for the house” Xoli just went past him and
came to my bed but she stood next to it.

Mom: “ Yes my boy. That’s all i need for now and butter for baking” he
looked lost before he nodded. I guess he was going to ask wherever he
was going for that butter. As soon as he closed the door Xoli jumped in
bed.

Xoli: “ How are you feeling? Are you okay? You’re not in any pain?” she
was touching me all over. Lifting up my t-shirt.

Me: “I’m okay Xolile. I promise i’m fine”

Mom: “ I have been keeping a close eye on her. Me and Thuli.” She rolled
her eyes causing me to laugh.

Xoli: “ You sure you’re really okay? I am so sorry about what Nqoba did
to you. I am sorry and i hope he doesn’t come back” i gasped in shock.
How can she say that? Nqoba is her fiancé.
Me: “ Hau Xolile how can you say that about your fiancé?”

Xoli: “ No man should do what he did to you. He’s an animal and i will
make sure my baby grows up without him.”

Mom: “ Xolile..” she raised up her hand to silence her but that’s when i
realised that she didn’t know about his condition”

Me: “ He didn’t tell you didn’t he? Where do you think Nqoba is right
now?” she folded her arms looking sideways.

Xoli: “ Obviously in prison” she answered with attitude.

Me: “ actually no. He is at a psychiatric ward” she looked shocked and

her eyes shined with tears immediately.

Xoli: “ What is he doing there? What i wrong with him? Is he crazy?” she
asked with tears rolling down her face.

Me: “ Nqoba has Passive Aggressive Personality and i only found out
because Nqubeko told me. I guess he didn’t want people know about his
condition”

Xoli: “ Will he be okay?” i nearly laughed at that because seconds ago

she didn’t want anything to do with Nqoba but now she is asking if he’ll
be okay.

Me: “ I don’t know. I really don’t know” i said shaking my head.

Mom: “ Well there is some good that came out of this. You are getting
married next week Saturday” she beamed.

Me: “ He told you guys?” they laughed.

Xoli: “ He told us? We are planning the whole thing”

We continued talking and Nqubeko came back. He said he’s going to his
study to do some work. I asked mom for us to move to the lounge area. I
wanted to chill and also bond with my son. As soon as we walked in the
lounge Siphe got excited. He was smiling and very anxious. I took him
and he placed his head on my chest. Aaah i missed him. We had lunch
and i took my meds. After that i fell asleep.

I was woken by mom crying and Nqubeko was shouting. I quickly ran to
the door and got the shock of my life.

Me: “ What the hell are you doing here?” my eyes were all out.

Him: “ I need to talk to you please. It’s important”

Seeing him standing on my door step made me so angry that o wanted to

puke. How could he show his face here; after everything that he said to
me. To us. I understand mom’s anger because he called us bastards
saying that mom’s guts are rotten. Mom went back inside leaving me with
this spineless man.

Me: “ What do you want?” he laughed showing his sparkling white teeth.
If he wasn’t such an ass i would have actually seen that he aged nicely
and he looked so much like Sanele it was actually freaky.

Busani: “ I’m here to see my family. Obviously” he put his hands in his
pockets.

Nqubeko: “ How did you get in here? This is private property” he laughed
again, that evil laugh.

Busani: “ I am the King. They had to open the gate for me” he smirked.

Nqubeko: “ I don’t give a shit who you are. This is MY property and i
suggest you get out of here”


Busani: “ I want to talk to my family” he sounded annoyed.

Me: “ What family Busani? Didn’t you call me and my brother bastards?
After that you called mom a bitch so what family man?” i was shouting
and Nqubeko tried to pull me back inside but i broke free. I wanted him to
explain what he wanted.

Busani: “ Watch how you talk to me. I am still your father” i spat in his
face.

Mom: “ Nokwazi noooo!” she shouted from behind me. I turned and
looked at her.

Me: “ Get him out of here mom. I want him gone. “ i walked back inside
the house and went to the kitchen. I got myself a glass of water. I was
busy pacing up and down. I was really pissed and angry. Nqubeko got in
and he took a seat. He kept quiet and looked at me.

Me: “ He called us bastards you know. He looked at us like we were

some disgusting things. He called us nobodies and now he wants to talk.
Who does he think he is?” he just nodded and looked at me.

Me: “ I mean i understand why mom kept us from him all those years
ago. He didn’t want us. He said she must abort or always be on pill. He
even left her alone to go marry a princess.” He still kept quiet.

Me: “ Mom loved him you know. That’s why she went back to him but he
doesn’t see that. Aaaarrrggg! I am so mad” i screamed. He stood up and
walked to me.

Nqubeko: “ You need to calm down. It’s not good for you baby. You jut got
out of the hospital. You need to rest.” He massaged my shoulders. It felt
really good because my arm was throbbing.

Me: “ I know. Why did he come here? What does he want?”

Nqubeko: “ Well you didn’t give him a chance to say what he wants” i
gave him an ugly look and he chuckled raising up his hands.

Me: “ You think he left? Let me go check” i hurried out the kitchen with
Nqubeko on my heels. I got to the lounge and Simba is sitting down with
mom; having tea. IN MY HOUSE. I stood and looked at them. Mom was
crying and Simba was saying something to her. Suddenly he stood and
knelt in front of her. Haibo.

Me: “ Whoooa Simba wait! Leave my mom alone” i walked to where they
were.

Busani: “ Simba?” mom and Nqubeko laughed.

Me: “ Yes. Lion King” i frowned and went to sit next to mom. She was
laughing through her tears.

Me: “ What did you do to her? Why is she crying?”

Busani: “ I just need a chance to explain. After that i will leave” he

seemed sincere so i looked at Nqubeko and he nodded. He also sat
down and Busani went to take his seat too.

Me: “ This better be good. You have 10 minutes”

Mom: “ Nokwazi Kheswa!” she shouted and i looked at her. I rolled my

eyes. Busani placed 2 fingers on his lips before he spoke.

Busani: “ I never meant to hurt you Londi. I was young and stupid. I never
meant to...”

Me: “ You never meant to fuck her twice and leave her pregnant twice
right?” i interrupted him and Nqubeko chuckled nudging him but Busani
just smiled.

Busani: “ You really are mine. The attitude stinks; just like mine. So as i
was saying before i was rudely interrupted by miss cute here. I was
young and under pressure of succeeding my father. When i met Londi all
i wanted was to be with you but my father wouldn’t allow it. He knew
about the kids but he never told me because he knew i was going to
leave home and come searching for you. When i said all those things at
the hospital i was afraid for you. My father knows that my niece and sister
know about you. He now wants to meet you. I don’t know what his
reasons are but all i want is for you and your brother to be safe” mom
was crying i wanted to slap the emotions out of her.

Me: “ Why are you here?” mom’s eyes shot up and she looked rather
shocked.

Mom: “ Nokwazi please. Could you please stop it?” Nqubeko was silent
and you could see he wanted to burst out in laughter.

Me: “ No mom no. I want to know what the hell is he doing here? Did
Mufasa put you up to this? Did he make you come talk to us before he
dies?”

Busani: “ I understand that you are angry and i would be if i were you but
please try and understand that had no choice. I had to stand by my
parents; my father. He was/is a difficult man”
Me: “ What exactly do you want me to understand? That you suddenly
grew balls? What are we supposed to do now? We’re supposed to
welcome you with open arms? Be a family and have dinner together?
What is it that you want us to do with what you’re saying?” i was now
crying and screaming. Tears and snot. Nqubeko pulled me to him

Busani: “ You don’t have to forgive me but please come and see my
father.”

Me: “ Why? Why should i bother?” i wiped my tears.

Busani: “ He’s dying. He would like to meet you” i stood up and looked at
him.

Me: “ Finish your tea Simba. Go back home and tell you father that i said
No. Tell him i said Rest In Peace” i walked out and went back to my
bedroom. I got in my bedroom and climbed in bed. The door opened and
Nqubeko walked in. He closed the door and locked it. He looked at me
and laughed. He laughed so hard he even had tears falling down his
face. I was really confused as to why was he acting like this.

Nqubeko: “ You are bad ass baby Simba” he laughed again till he felt like
he was running out of air. He then coughed and ran to the bathroom. I
races after him and found him vomiting. I knelt next to him with a glass of
water. He flushed and drank the water. He then looked at me and
laughed again.

Me: “ Arrg you are so juvenile” i stood up and walked to the bedroom.

Nqubeko: “ It’s the circle of life and it moves us all. Through despair and
hope. Through faith and love” he sang that Lion King song and i joined
him laughing.

Nqubeko: “ I’m glad i found you my little Lion” he laughed and then kissed
me.
Insert 20

Nqubeko

After that confrontation between Nokwazi and her father things went back
to normal. Today is Tuesday and i have to get to work. Nokwazi hinted
that she wants to come back but i told her to look for a school. 1. I am not
getting her pregnant again anytime soon; reason being is that i don’t want
to hold her back.

She needs to succeed and have something she calls hers. As much as i
provide for her i also want her to be her own woman. Which brings me to
my second point; i do not want her to go back to work for me. Yes, when
my father said we should merge it meant that i am taking over the whole
building.

I was the boss but now i am the big boss. Jokes; but it also meant that i
take over the Joburg and Cape Town business which both had CEOs. I
am just the owner. Kwazi not working also comes as an advantage to me
because on days where she is not at school she spends time with Siphe
plus we’ll get to travel a lot.

I woke her up at 3am today. She was busy rubbing her behind on my guy.
Now come on ladies if you do that, especially in the morning you know
what happens. I was flipping her over and over till she apologised and
said she’ll never do it again. It was as if she put fuel on an already big fire
because i pounded her harder. She knew what she was doing, i thought
that she was sleeping but she did it on purpose. She fell asleep after we
finished.

I went to take a shower and got ready for work. She was so tired she
couldn’t even wake up to help get ready. I got dressed in my black pants
and white shirt with black shoes. I went to Siphe’s bedroom. Little guy
was awake but he was just laying on his back looking at the ceiling. As
soon as he saw me he grinned. That toothless grin. I picked him up and
kissed him all over his face. He giggled. I changed his nappy; washed my
hands and went out to the kitchen with him.

We walked to the kitchen and mah Thuli was making breakfast. She
panicked as soon as i walked in.

Mah Thuli: “ I’m so sorry Nqubeko. I will get breakfast ready in a few
minutes” i frowned because she was talking fast.

Me: “ Relax, i’m early. It’s not even 7h00 yet. So chill. Just came for some
water.” I got bottled water and walked back to my bedroom now. Kwazi
was still sleeping. I placed Siphe next to her and he immediately went for
her hair. I just chuckled. I sat next to her and she kept turning her head
until she shouted.

Kwazi: “ Dammit Nqubeko can i just rest?!” Siphe froze and then seconds
later he wailed causing Nokwazi to sit up quickly. I stood up and laughed.

Me: “ I wasn’t touching you. Your son was and now you made him cry” i
said laughing.

Kwazi: “ You could have told me he was here” i gave her a look.

Me: “ He was making baby sounds. You should have heard him. You’re a
bad bad mother” i chuckled and walked to my closet to get my coat. I
went back to my bedroom and Siphe was sucking on his mom’s breast.

Me: “ You see? He missed the titty” she gave me the finger.


Kwazi: “ Fuck you” she said looking at Siphe. I walked to her and knelt on
the bed.

Me: “ What are you teaching my son?” i got under the cover and she was
still naked. My head went straight inside her thighs but she closed her
thighs causing me to pull back. I got out from the cover and looked at her.
She had this smile on her face. I got back under the cover and parted her
thighs. I held them in place and i was face to face with the kitty. It looked
soo nice i ran my tongue over it and she gasped. Mind you she was
nursing my son; i ran my tongue again but it was a couple of strokes till i
heard her moan. I pulled away and got out. I stood on my feet and went
to the bathroom. I fixed myself.

When i got to our bedroom Kwazi looked pissed. Siphe was now falling
asleep.

Me: “ You okay babe?” i gave her a kiss before taking my bag; wallet; car
keys and phone.

Kwazi: “ You’re really going to leave me like this?” she looked like she
was about to cry.

Me: “ Didn’t you say you’re sore this morning?” i winked.

Kwazi: “ You can’t do this to me” she huffed.

Me: “ Bye babe. I will see you later. I love you my wife” i blew her a kiss
and walked out laughing because she threw a box of tissue at me.

I walked to the kitchen and sat down. Mah Thuli served me before she
tried running away.


Me: “ Where are you going maMthethwa?” she blushed.

Ma Thuli: “ I erm well... i have to check on..” i stopped her.

Me: “ Nothing. Come join me. Sanele will eat his breakfast at lunch. He
came home late last night” she nodded and sat down. She dished up for
herself and started eating. She was looking down the whole time.

Me: “ How is everything at home?” she nearly choked.

Ma Thuli: “ They are fine.” She said that quickly. Ma Thuli’s family is
shitty. They only want money from her. They don’t care about her. My
jaws tightened.

Me: “ Are they still giving you problems?” she looked at me shaking her
head.

Ma Thuli: “ Please let it go. You’ve done enough” i was about to speak
again when Kwazi walked in looking all sorts of saucy. She was wearing
my navy gown but it was lose. I could see her sexy thing underneath.
She looked at me and smiled. Probably smiling at me drooling.

Kwazi: “ Morning mah. Morning baby” she kissed my lips. “Close your
mouth” i chuckled and looked down at my plate. I finished my breakfast
as Kwazi sat down.

Me: “ I have to bounce. I will see you later” i kisses the top of her head
and walked out taking my bag. I got in my car and drove to work while
listening to music. I got to work and parked in my personalised parking.
Next to it was Nqoba’s parking. I sighed, I’ve been trying to get him to
agree to the pass out and come to my wedding which is in 4 days by the
way.

I walked inside the building and took a lift to my office floor. Jady; my
assistant was already there. This bot had way too much energy.

Mr: “ Morning Jady” he nodded. He was on a call so i walked in my office

and connected everything. I unlocked my desk phone. Jady walked in
with my cup of coffee and his diary.

Jady: “ Morning Mr Msomi. Here is your coffee. Okay so today you have
a meeting with Marketing in an hour. After that a conference call with the
Cape Town and Joburg head offices.”

Me: “ How long will that be?” he paged through.

Jady: “ 3-4 hours. Depending on how well they are prepared.” I nodded.

Me: “ Jady Peters; i bought you a tablet for your work. What happened to
it?” he chuckled nervously.

Jady: “ I will bring it tomorrow.” He tried walking away but i stopped him.

Me: “ That’s not what i asked you. I asked you where it is?” he couldn’t
look at me. His eyes were wondering around.

Jady: “ Please don’t be mad at me.” He took a seat and placed the
notebook down.

Me: “ We’ll see. Talk” he cleared his throat.

Jady: “ We don’t have a computer at home. I am the first person to work

at home plus my mom is sick. My siblings get drunk and they don’t care.
So my younger siblings need something to do their work with” he took a
deep breath after that.

Me: “ Why didn’t you tell me?” he looked down.

Jady: “ You took me in when no one else would. You have done a lot for
me i don’t want to be of bother” i huffed.

Me: “ Fine. I will order some things for you and your siblings for home use
and i will also order for office use. Plus i am getting you a car as well. You
get here too early to be using taxis. I need to give a clothing and
groceries card. Strictly for that only so that you won’t run out of food and
always have warm clothes for your siblings. Give me your mom’s medical
records. Okay?” he was crying this whole time.

Jady: “ Yes. Thank you Mr Msomi” he wiped his face.

Me: “ Now stop crying and stop being a bitch” his mouth hung before he
laughed.

Jady: “ I knew it Mr M. You have that roughness in you. That thing nje...” i
cut him off.

Me: “ Go. I have a meeting to prepare for” i looked at my computer

screen and went through the report. The marketing department was way
too relaxed for my liking. They got in an hour later. It was 3 girls and 2
guys. 3 gorgeous girls but damn i was just ruined. Kwazi ruined me. They
got in and sat. One of the girls tried some shit but i quickly shut her down.

Her: “ I am Lisa and at your service Nqubeko. I..” i held up my hand.

Me: “ Whoa back up a little. I am Mr Msomi to you. We are not friends. I
am your boss’s boss so act like you’re employed by me. I don’t need your
services. The company does. Maybe if you did your job we would call
each other by name but before that you call me Mr Msomi. Okay?”

Lisa: “ Yes” she nodded.

Me: “ Say my name Lisa” the guys looked shit scared and the girls were
smiling. Probably because i put her in her place.

Lisa: “ Yes Mr Msomi” she fiddled with her hands.

Me: “ That’s better. Now; lets get down to business” i started on the report
and gave them a hard time. By the time we were done they were tired.
This Lisa girl was the first one to leave. She ran away and as soon as
she left her co workers laughed. I was confused.

Girl 1: “ You put her place. Thank you so very much” she laughed and i
had to chase them out of my office. I had an hour break before the
conference call started. Right in the middle of it, i was sitting on my chair
listening in on the Cape Town guy when the door opened. She came in
looking hella sexy. She was dressed in a peach maxi dress and some
sandals. She was so beautiful. She locked the door and placed her bag
on the couch. She slowly walked to me and i breathed hard. I wasn’t
even listening on the call anymore. I was taken by her beauty. She got to
me and gave me a deep kiss. It was so passionate and sweet. She pulled
back and opened my zip. She stroked me and i groaned.

Line 1: “ Mr Msomi, you’re okay?” i cleared my throat.

Me: “ Yes. I am okay; continue” she pulled me in her mouth and i nearly
jumped. She went up and down my length. I tried pushing her but she
went deeper. She finally pulled away and lifted up her dress. She didn’t
have any panties on. She straddled me and i slid inside her. I bit my hand
trying not to groan loud. She moved twice and got off. She pulled down
her dress and kissed my mouth.

Kwazi: “ See you at home” she took her bag and walked out.
Me: “ Fuuuuuuuck!” i groaned.

Line 1 & 2: “ Sir; Are you okay?” i just hung up closed my eyes and
leaned back on my chair. Damn!

Kwazi

After that bold stupid move in Nqubeko’s office i rushed to Umhlanga to

my designer to do the final fittings to my dress. I left Siphe with ma Thuli
and mom was sleeping as she was from work. She said she loves being
around family as it’s been a while. Her house is done and dusted but she
would rather stay with us. Sanele on the other hand said he has found
someone to talk to in Nqubeko.

I walked in the boutique and chilled inside waiting for Lydia; the designer
to bring out my dress. I got a phone call from Nqubeko. I giggled before
answering.

Me: “ Babe..” i said coolly and he chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ Do you realise what you’ve done?” he didn’t seem pissed so i

relaxed a bit.

Me: “ What did i do?” i asked sweetly and he laughed again.

Nqubeko: “ I am going to find you and when i find you; You better run as
fast as your sexy legs could carry you” he warned.


Me: “ What happens if i don’t run?” i challenged.

Nqubeko: “ I will find you and i will fuck you till you pass out” my breath
caught because his voice sounded a whole lot deeper. I cleared my
throat.

Me: “ I have to go. I love you” i quickly hung up and breathed out. Dammit
Kwazi; Nqubeko was really going to paralyse me. I was deep in thought
when Xoli walked in. Her baby bump wasn’t showing yet but she had that
extra glow plus she seemed happy. She greeted and sat down. She
couldn’t look at me in the eye.

Me: “ What’s up?” i inched closer to her.

Xoli: “ With what?” she said quickly and looked at her phone.
Me: “ You are acting weird” i frowned.

Xoli: “That’s because i feel guilty. I am so sorry. I couldn’t help it Kwazi, i

love him. He is the father of my child”

Me: “ What happened?” she was really nervous. .

Xoli: “ I went to see Nqoba and we ended up having sex. Plus i spent the
night there” i looked at her for a few seconds before breaking into
laughter.

Me: “ You have crazy sex” she looked at me confused and i laughed
louder.

Xoli: “ What the hell are you talking about?” she shouted and i laughed till
i had tears.


Me: “ Nqoba is in the loony so you guys had crazy sex” i laughed and she
caught on. She pushed me.
Xoli: “ You are stupid” she giggled.

Me: “ On the real though, what happened between me and Nqoba is in

the past. I forgave him and moved on. You should too. If he makes you
happy, I’m happy” she smiled.

Xoli: “ So where is Lydia, we’ve been waiting for her for soo long” i
laughed. .

Me: “ Now that’s a lie. She is sorting out some things and...” before i
could even finish my sentence she appeared. I looked at Xoli and she
rolled her eyes. She had a problem with Lydia because they argued
about everything. Xoli wanted to take over where as Lydia wanted every
decision to be made by me.

The colours that we are going with are Lilac and Rust. Xoli was to be my
one bridesmaid/Maid of honour. Nqubeko asked Sanele since Nqoba
couldn’t make it but i had to go see him and convince him to come.
I went to try on my dress. It was a simple white princess dress with a lilac
hem. Xoli’s dress was a knee length off shoulder lilac and rust dress. I
looked really gorgeous in my dress. I loved it. After our dress fittings we
went to have lunch in Gateway since it was closest.

Me: “ So you and Nqoba got freaky huh? How the hell did you manage
that?” she blushed.

Xoli: “ It’s amazing what people can do for you for money plus Nqoba is
resourceful. He knows everyone around him and their past. He said he
wasn’t about to spend months with stupids” i laughed.

Me: “ Says the biggest idiot. So how was it?” she coughed.

Xoli: “ He tied me up by the window bars. My legs dangling it was insane.

I was screaming and moaning that just drove him to fuck me more but it
was well worth it. I couldn’t even feel my legs this morning”

Me: “ Now that’s saucy” we continued to talk after that i drove back home.
I bought a few things for Siphe and drove home. When i got there
Nqubeko’s car was IN the garage which meant that he wasn’t going
anywhere. I got on the house nervous as hell. I got in; mom and Thuli
were drinking juice in the lounge and laughing their lungs out. When i
walked in they kept quiet and laughed again. Weird.

Me: “ Hello beautiful ladies” i kissed mom and picked up my sleeping son
from her arms.

Me: “ Mom i don’t want him to get used to being carried or sleep while
being carried”

Mom: “ You do it” i rolled my eyes.

Me: “ He’s my son and...” she cut me off.

Mom: “ He’s my grandson and you’re my daughter so beat it Lizzy” i sat

down on an empty couch.
Me: “ Where is Nqubeko?” i asked nervously.

Ma Thuli: “ He’s around the house. He was in a very good mood when he
came home. I asked him and he said “ Successful conference call” my
heart started to beat fast.

Me: “ Oh okay. That’s good.” Mom looked at me and laughed.



Mom: “ Go put Siphe down” i swallowed and stood up. I went to his
nursery and put him down. When i turned around Nqubeko was standing
by the door in his navy surf shorts and a white t-shirt. He was barefoot. I
nearly peed on myself.

Me: “ Hey baby” i smiled and he chuckled. He walked to me and i back

up till the baby cot stopped me. I had no where else to go. He came to
me and stood in front on me.

Nqubeko: “ Hello my wife to be” he pulled me in his arms and places a

long wet kiss on my lips. He let go of me and walked out but before he
left he turned and looked at me. He smiled shaking his head before
walking out completely. I let out a breath.

I went to my bedroom, stripped naked and took a long lukewarm shower

since it was blazing hot. After the shower i wrapped a big white towel
around my body after drying. I walked out and found Nqubeko seating on
the edge of the bed. I stopped on my tracks. He looked up at me and i
would have ran back to the bathroom if i could but i just decided to be
brave. I took of my towel and started to lotion. As soon as i put down the
bottle i was up in the air. I screamed.

Nqubeko: “ Shhhh. We’re going to have some fun. I told you to run my
love. I really did but you decided that you are a clever rabbit huh?” i tried
getting off him but he hauled me on his shoulder and walked to the bed.
He gently placed me on the bed and stepped back.

Nqubeko: “ You are fuckin sexy” he licked his lips. I tried to cover up but
he shook his head.

Me: “ Thank you” he kissed my toes. Eeew but it was actually nice. He
went up to my legs , my knees, right up to my thighs. I was moaning
mess.


Nqubeko: “ So i took leave. I am getting married in 4 days plus i am the

boss so i am in no rush to finish here but there are some rules.” I nodded
moaning.

Me: “ Mmhmmm yes...” he chuckled.

Nqubeko: “ You moan i start all over again.” I sat up quickly.

Me: “ What? How is that even possible?” i shouted.

Nqubeko: “ I want you to feel like you made me feel this morning” he
licked his lips.

Me: “ You also left me hanging...”

Nqubeko: “ Right; so the rules. You moan i start again or rather i don’t
stop. We can do this all night you know”

Me: “ Nqubeko....please don’t do this” i begged

Nqubeko: “ You moan and i add 10 more minutes.” I whimpered.

Me: “ I am sorry. I am sorry” idiot just grinned.

Nqubeko: “We could do this all day and night baby. You’ve got balls neh?
Deep balls to fuckin leave me hanging.”

Me: “ Forgive your beautiful sexy wife” he opened my thighs and looked
at my womanhood. He ran swept his tongue on it and i jumped but he
held me in place. I should have ran. I should have really ran; this man
was going to destroy me. My poor kitty. Lord; help me please.

Insert 21

Nqubeko

The moment she left the office i called the guys back and rescheduled. I
cut my day short and drove straight home. I knew that she wasn’t home,
she went for her dress fitting. I got home and greeted the ladies. I went
straight to my bedroom and got dressed in swimming shorts. I jogged out
and dove in. I really needed to cool down my body for what i was going to
do to her when she comes home.

I got out of the pool and went to take a shower. I changed into shorts and
a t-shirt. I walked around the house looking lost until Miss K called me. I
went to sit with them and Siphe.

Miss M: “ You look like you lost your balls. What happened?” i couldn’t
help but chuckle.

Me: “ Its nothing. I’m fine” she sipped on her juice.

Miss M: “ I wasn’t born yesterday. I can see you’re frustrated. I guess my

daughter is responsible for that” i sighed and sank on the couch.

Me: “ She is too sleek that one. Frustrating at times but i love her”

Miss K: “ Give her the pipe” i choked on the juice that Ma Thuli gave me.

Me: “ Huh?” i really wanted her to repeat or clarify that.

Miss K: “ Give her the dick. Fuck her straight. She will respect you. Do
her till she does the tortoise walk...jackpot!” i laughed so loud.

Me: “ Please excuse me” i stood up. I was running away. This was getting
awkward and weird.

Miss K: “ Don’t forget to bless her” i walked out quickly. Ma Thuli was in
stitches. I went to my study and got some work done. Hours later i heard
Zee drive in. I stayed a few minutes before going to our bedroom. When i
got there she was taking a shower so i waited for her to come back.
When she saw me she froze but quickly recovered. She lotioned, as soon
as she finished i picked her up and carried her to the bed. I told her the
rules but the no moaning one i knew that was impossible because Kwazi
is a screamer and a moaner.

Me: “ Take a deep breath my love.” She breathed in and moaned. I

chuckled.

Nokwazi: “ I will get you for this Nqubeko Msomi. I will...” i slid in a finger
and she cried out. I pulled it out and licked the finger.

Me: “ You taste so fuckin good” she gave me an evil look.

Nokwazi: “Fuck you”

Me: “ Oh i intend to” this time i ran my tongue a bit rough and fast. She
tried to hold back but she moaned so loud i pulled back. She was panting
and i was having the time of my life.

Nokwazi: “ Nqubeko please. Don’t do this. I am sorry. It won’t happen

again” she was shaking all over.

Me: “ I want you to do it again baby. Every day; all day. You just woke up
this hunger inside me that i never knew i had.”

I stood up and took off my shorts, t-shirt. She looked at me and gasped. I
looked down on my guy and his veins were popping i smiled.

Me: : “ Looky here; the beast is awake” i dove in bed and she giggled.

Kwazi: “ Get away from me you monster” she was laughing covering her
face. I got in between her legs and uncovered her face. She smiled;
dammit she’s a beauty. I leaned over and kissed her. I positioned and
entered her. I pulled away quickly and looked at her wide eyed. She also
had that shocked expression on her face.

Kwazi: “ What just happened? I swear your balls are inside my cookie”
she shook her head with her eyes closed. I pulled back and entered
again. She was even tighter.

Me: “ You gotta tone down on the Kegels babe. You feel so warm and
tight.” I started to move and she moaned. I didn’t care anymore because i
was groaning like a bitvh. It was the first time making love this intense.
°•○●°•○●°•○●°•○●°•○●

We woke up later that night and just cuddled in bed. Nokwazi kept
moaning about how sore her body was, not to mention her cookie. There
was a hard knock on the door.

Miss K: “ Yey wena Nqubeko; i said fuck her. Not kill her. You’ve been in
there for hours. Come and eat” we heard footsteps walking away. We
looked at each other and laughed.

Me: “ We need to get up before she comes back” Kwazi just cuddled
closer and closed her eyes.

Kwazi: “ No. Let’s stay like this forever” she sighed and i chuckled. I
entangled myself from her and she groaned. She slept on her stomach
smiling. I walked to the bathroom and prepared a bath. When i was done
i went back to the bedroom and she was fast asleep. I picked her up and
she giggled. Sneaky woman.

Me: “ You are sneaky” she laughed even more opening her eyes.

Kwazi: “ Don’t blame me for being predictable” i pretended to drop her

and she screamed.

Me: “ Dropping you isn’t predictable is it?” she giggled. We got to the
bathroom and i gently placed her inside. She made space for me and i
got in behind her.

Kwazi: “ 3 more days.” She placed her head on my chest.

Me: “ 3 days, you’ll be tied to me forever” she nodded.

Kwazi: “ I love you Nqubeko” my heart swelled.

Me: “ I love you Mrs Msomi”

After our bath we got dressed in matching outfits hers was written “ Mrs
Him” and mine was written “ Mr Her” she had these done. I thought they
were ridiculous but i didn’t want to make her sad. We went to have dinner
with everyone. We updated them on the wedding. Sanele couldn’t
contain his excitement. Everything was well until Miss K.

Miss K: “ Your father is coming to the wedding” the table suddenly got
quiet. Too quiet. I decided not to answer because i knew my dad was
coming to the wedding.

Kwazi: “ Whose father?” she placed down her utensils.

Miss K: “ Kwazi please. It’s your wedding and...” she cut her off.

Kwazi: “ Exactly that. It’s my wedding, respect it. Don’t ruin it for me by
bringing that man here. Please ma” Miss K’s lips tightened but she
nodded.

Miss K: “ Fine. I’ll tell him” i wanted to ask how but i continued eating the
delicious food. After that seeing it was still early we decided to go to the
beach. Sanele invited Denise to meet us there.

Me: “ Make sure you use a condom buddy” he chuckled. He was going to
do grade 11 this year.

Sanele: “ We won’t have sex yet; maybe in varsity but right now Nope” i
nodded. I was actually proud.

Me: “ That’s good. I’m glad”

We got to the beach and Siphe was already fast asleep so we had ice
cream and the kids had pizza. We ordered some to take home. We got
home very late and we headed straight to bed.

The following 2 days were hectic but i had everything done. Mom and
dad’s families were here. That meant trouble. Kwazi had left the previous
day with Siphe and Miss K. She really didn’t want her father coming to
the wedding.


We slaughtered the 2 cows and we had that mini braai after that. I was
dead tired. Sanele and i were very dirty. Dad had cow’s blood all over him
due to ukuhlinza. In the wee hours of the morning we finally retired to
bed. I took a shower and i was gone.

I was woken up by someone shaking me. I opened my eyes and got the
shock of my life. I quickly sat up just to be sure that i wasn’t dreaming.

Nqoba: “ Wake up bro, lets get you married” i don’t want to lie i just cried.
I didn’t think i’d see him anytime soon. He didn’t want me to visit him. He
looked like his old self. I pulled him for a hug, i was happy. Really happy. I
pulled back and looked at him.

Me: “ You’re here” he nodded trying to hold back his tears but he failed.
I’m sure we looked silly with red eyes and noses.

Nqoba: “ I’m really here; now get out of bed and let’s go make an honest
man out of you” i hugged him once again. Dad was leaving in a few days.
I was happy to have the people i love with me on this special day.

Insert 22

Nokwazi

Our wedding Day

I woke up on Saturday, 8 January. My birthday, my wedding day . It
was still very early because Xoli was sleeping next to me. When looked
at the time it was still 5h15. The wedding was at 13h00 at a Methodist
Church in Musgrave. After that we were going to go take pictures at
Botanic Garden. Lunch and reception at our house.

I looked at my phone screen and it flashed Nqubeko’s name. My very
own. I blushed thinking about how far we’ve come and how much i love
him. I answered.

Me: “ Morning Mr Msomi” he kept quiet for seconds and breathed out.
Nqubeko: “ I love you” i blushed.

Me: “ I love you too” i whispered. We went quiet. I’m sure we were
thinking about the times we had and how far we have come.

Nqubeko: “ I’ll see you later. When i make you officially mine.”
Me: “ You had me at Hello” he chuckled before clearing his throat.

Nqubeko: “ Erm Nqoba is here” i lit up.

Me: “ Really?” i was very happy and excited. I heard him release a shaky
breath.

Nqubeko: “ He came an hour ago. I am happy he’s here Kwazi. I am

sorry for everything he did to you and i am grateful to you because he
told me you are the one who convinced him to come back. Thank you
babe” he sounded so emotional.

Me: “ I’ll see you later my forever”

Nqubeko: “ Later” we ended the call and i laid on my back looking at the
ceiling. I was at home, Umlazi. Mom decided to call Busani to come over
and i really didn’t like it but she said it’s for my own good. Xoli steered
next to me and she opened her eyes. We looked at each other and
smiled.

Xoli: “ You’re getting married today!” she screamed.



Me: “ I’m getting married!” i said matching her excitement. We stood on

the bed and started jumping; singing, laughing. The door flung open and
mom walked in.

Mom: “ What in the world! Nokwazi man!” we giggled before falling on the
bed bouncing.

Xoli: “ Happy Birthday” she sounded breathless.

Mom: “ Happy wedding say” mcim. The way she is so excited it’s like
she’s the on getting married.

We got up after that and went to take a shower. During our shower we
were laughing and singing wedding songs. We finished and went to my
bedroom. I found mom with her friends. It was still early. We had 5 hours
before the ceremony so we chilled in our underwear and gowns.

Mom: “ So Kwazi we will advise you neh babe, well they will advise you.
Your father fucked and left me so i don’t know shit about marriage” the
ladies laughed and i just rolled my eyes. Trust mom to say that.

Lady 1: “ Well love times are different now. I don’t want to say things to
you that you will totally disagree with but what i can tell you is that
marriage is a partnership. You and your husband are partners so share
everything with him. The good and the bad but don’t ever lose yourself in
it” i shifted comfortably because i wanted to hear what she has to say.

Lady 2: “ What she is trying to say is as much as it’s a partnership always

stay true to yourself. Yes love and respect your husband but don’t let him
walk all over you. Give him what’s due to him. A great fuck and children.
Don’t leave him if he cheats, cheat as well and be sexy as hell” the room
erupted with laughter. The ladies were just like mom, no wonder they
were friends.

Lady 1: “ Baby marriage is hard, there will be women wanting to come

between you but as long as you trust your husband then do not mind
anyone else. Do not put a third person in and please please please give
that man his cookie. He paid for it” we laughed some more.

They continued talking, telling me about the importance of a woman in a

marriage. After that my glam squad came. They made way. I was left with
only Xoli. I didn’t tell her about Nqoba. She kept telling me how much she
misses him. We were now 2 hours away from the wedding at i looked
breath-taking. I would marry myself also.

Xoli: “ You look gorgeous. Nqubeko is going to faint” she was standing
behind me.

Me: “ I am nervous Xolile.” I turned and looked at her. She held my

hands.

Me: “ What if something bad happens and i end up not getting married?
What if...” she cut me off. My hands were sweaty and shaking.

Xoli: “ Would you relax? Nothing is going to happen. Everything is going

to go according to plan. You are marrying Nqubeko today. Okay?” she
hugged me and i nodded. She pulled back and looked at me cupping my
face. She inched closer and kissed me. I kissed her back but quickly
pulled back.

Me: “ No no. We are not doing this again Xoli. Not on my wedding day”
she smiled and walked away surrendering.

Xoli: “ I just wanted to help you relax” i frowned.



Me: “ Thanks Xolile but no thanks. I can’t cheat on Nqubeko. I respect

him too much to do that shit” she turned around so quickly.

Xoli: “ You’re saying that i am shit?” i chuckled shaking my head.

Me: “ Don’t put words in my mouth. I won’t cheat on Nqubeko and that’s
final” i walked to the door and shouted for my mom to come help me get
dressed.

Mom: “ Hhay man Kwazi, we know you are legally getting the freedom to
fuck your man but no need yo shout” oh God mom. I just shook my head.
I took off my gown and i got dressed in my beautiful gown and shoes. I
put on a veil but didn’t cover up. Xoli also get dressed and she looked
very beautiful. When we finished we moved to the lounge where mom’s
family was. Sanele was to give me away but since Busani was coming he
was going to do it.

Uncle Boh: “ Mshana we are very proud of you. We hope umkhonyana

will treat you well. Let us pray” my uncle is not a man of many words. So
we just prayed after that we checked if we had everything. We had an
hour left so we moved outside to the cars. The neighbours were standing
by the gate peeping in. I’m sorry shame but i only invited my mom’s
friends and their families.

In all my life that i have lived here these people didn’t give a damn about
us. I got in Nqubeko’s chocolate brown Porsche with Xoli and mom in
front. There was noise; cars hooting. Singing and mom ululating non
stop. The cars started moving out of the yard and we drove out. Xoli was
busy sulking.

Me: “ Stop sulking. If you don’t want to be part of the wedding then we
can drop you off but please stop it. Don’t try and ruin my day for me” she
huffed and folded her arms. My phone rang. It was Nqubeko.


Me: “ Babe” there was noise in the background.

Nqubeko: “ Where are you? I’m waiting here for you” i laughed.

Me: “ I’m 10 minutes away” he breathed out.

Nqubeko: “ I love you. I really do” he sounded so emotional. I kept quiet

and we listened to our breathing. We eventually hung up
.
Xoli: “ You shouldn’t be crying. You are ruining your make up” she wiped
my face. She took out the powder and fixed my face.

Xoli: “ There you go. Good as new” we finally arrived at the venue and
damn! The cars! The cars! The people. Our car hooted first and people
started ululating. We parked and Lydia came with Sindy the planner.

Lydia: “ You look beautiful dear. We need to get you inside. You have 5
minutes” rolls eyes. These fuckin accurate bitches. They helped me out
of the car. My dress fell on my feet and i felt so nervous but happy. I
looked up and Busani he was walking towards me; if i didn’t hate him i’d
actually compliment him on how good he actually looks. He walked to me
and kissed my cheek.

Busani: “ I know you hate me but could you let me be there for you
today?” i looked at mom and she was smiling. Traitor.

Me: “ You’ve already invited yourself to my wedding so it’s fine” i said

looking at him dead in the eye and he smirked.

Mom: “ Nokwazi!” she shouted.

Me: “ Can we go please?” i linked my arm on his and we walked towards
the entrance with Xoli walking in front. We approached the entrance and
Xoli screamed.

Xoli: “ Oh My God!” he hand flew to her mouth and i laughed. She was
seeing Nqoba and he looked good in a rust suit and a lilac shirt. They
smiled at each other. Xoli nearly ran to the front, she was walking so fast i
wanted to laugh.

Busani: “ Are you ready?” i rolled my eyes. Really this guy

Me: “ Yep. I am ready” a song started playing LaSauce – I Do feat

Amanda Black.

“K’dala Ndilindile, to say How much i Love you, I got this message for you
ndithi “I Do Ng’yavuma I”
K’dala Ndilindile, Nhliziyo yami yonkhei got this message for you ndithi ” I
Do Ng’yavuma i” I Do Ng’yavuma I Do”

I walked towards Nqubeko and he looked dashing in his navy and cream
suit. I finally got to him. I wasn’t even paying attention to my
surroundings. Nqubeko was the only person on my mind.

The priest started and Busani gave me away. He read the scriptures and
we said our vows.

Me: “ Thank you Mangamahle, Phingoshe. You have been nothing but
amazing. Meeting and having you in my life has changed a whole lot of
things including me. I love you and i plan to spend the rest of my life
showing you how much i love you” i continued with my vows and when i
was done i gave Nqubeko a turn.

Nqubeko: “ I cannot even begin to imagine life without you. These last
few days away from you have been torture. I love you Nokwazi. You were
made for me and i thank God for you....”

By the time we were done we were both in tears with everyone else. The
priest blessed the rings and we slid in the fingers.

Us: “ I, Nokwazi/Nqubeko take you to be my (husband/wife). I promise to

be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will
love you and honour you all the days of my life.”

Priest: “ Nokwazi and Nqubeko you have expressed your love to one
another through the commitment and promises you have just made. It is
with these in mind that I pronounce you husband and wife. You have
kissed a thousand times, maybe more. But today the feeling is new. No
longer simply partners and best friends, you have become husband and
wife and can now seal the agreement with a kiss. Today, your kiss is a
promise. You may kiss the bride.” We inched closer to each other and we
kissed. We were married. I was now Mrs Nqubeko Msomi and i was
happy. Complete.

Nqubeko

The day was absolutely beautiful, my wife yes my wife was absolutely
stunning. Gorgeous and all things nice. After the ceremony we drove to
Botanic Garden for the photo shoot.

I really didn’t want to but she insisted and wanted her pictures. I was
carrying Siphe the whole time. We took silly pictures. An hour later we
headed back home. Yes, lunch and reception at our house. We wanted
intimacy.

We were driving home, well i was driving my car. Nqoba followed behind
with Xoli. Siphe was fast asleep in the back seat, it was just me and my
woman in the car. Our hands were linked together on top of the gear.

Me: “ I am happy Kwazi Msomi. You have made me so happy

maKheswa” she giggled and kissed my cheek.

Kwazi: “ Its all you baby. You wanted to marry me when i had nothing to
offer you” i shook my head.

Me: “ Actually no, you forgave me after i hurt you over and over again.”

Kwazi: “ You had to babe. You were protecting your mom; your dad and
Nqoba. You took the fall for everyone and you were all alone. “ i
squeezed her hand.

Me: “ Thank you for another chance and for not giving up on me” we fell
silent after that listening to some music.

Kwazi: “ We are so weird though. We are going home now after our
wedding at a church” i kissed her hand smiling.

Me: “ We have our reception and lunch there with the people that we
love. Its nice and intimate”

Kwazi: “ That’s what i mean, you have all the money in the world...” i
interrupted her.

Me: “ We have all the money in the world” she rolled her eyes.

Kwazi: “ Yeah yeah. We have all the money in the world yet we settled for
simplicity. Xoli even said we are crazy. She wants to go all out; including
the media” i chuckled.

Me: “ Xoli and Nqoba are crazy” she sighed.

Kwazi: “ Did you see how Xoli flew through the isle? She couldn’t believe
he was here:”

Me: “ It’s all because of you. Thank you baby. I really appreciate what you
did for me, for us. Dad wept when he saw Nqoba”

Kwazi: “ Your dad, he’s still leaving?” my heart dropped. That’s a very
sore subject.

Me: “ He’s not changing his mind babe. I don’t know what to do. I have
begged and begged” i took a deep breath.

Kwazi: “ At least Nqoba is back home. That’s one thing to be happy

about”

We finally arrived at our house. As soon as i parked in Nqoba drove in

behind me and started making noise with his car hoot and everyone
came out of the house and started making noise.

I got out of the car and went around to open for my wife. She stepped out
and she was blushing. I then opened the rear door and took Siphe. The
minute i closed the door he woke up. He looked around and started
crying.

He might have gotten a fright. I chuckled and Kwazi looked annoyed. She
took him from me causing me to laugh out loud.

Me: “ This boy is a mommy’s boy” she gave me a stare. I took Siphe
from her and pulled her hand towards the house. We got to the door and
Miss K was singing her lungs out.

“ ungamushayi; ungambulali; mayekwehlula mbuyisele ekhaya.” She was

dancing and ululating i laughed my ass off. We walked inside the house
to our bedroom.

Me: “ I like looking nice and all but i really hate suits on a hot day” i took
off my coat and tie. I placed Siphe on the floor.

Me: “ Let me grab a quick shower” i stripped and rushed to the bathroom.
A minute later Kwazi walked in naked. I gave her a look.

Kwazi: “ Xoli took Siphe” she touched my chest and i backed away
chuckling.

Me: “ You do not want to do that baby. Its our day and i don’t want you
walking around uncomfortably. Its been 4 days since i’ve been inside you.
Don’t make me paralyze you because once i start you are not leaving this
room” she quickly stepped away and faced the other way causing me to
laugh.

Kwazi: “ Sorry. I didn’t realise” i chuckled. We finished bathing and we

walked out. Her dress was on the bed and it was a different one. I got
dressed in my navy slim fit pants and a vest underneath a white shirt with
brown shoes.

I helped her get dress in her mermaid backless white dress with bead
detail on the side of her tummy. We looked good. We took a selfie and we
headed out. The moment we opened the door Miss K was standing there.

Miss K: “ I didn’t think that there was anyone who loved fucking like i do
but i can see now that my daughter took after me” Nokwazi gasped in
shock and i held a laugh.

Me: “ Miss K, we didn’t do anything. We were just taking a shower” she

rolled her eyes.

Miss K: “ Yeah right and i just fingered myself pregnant. Come, people
are waiting for you” she then walked away. I looked at a pissed Nokwazi.

Me: “ Babe, relax” i rubbed her shoulders.

Kwazi: “ She still has sex?” in everything she said that’s all she heard!
Me: “ Let’s go baby.”

I took her hand and we went outside. We stepped outside and people
started clapping and i bowed causing them to laugh. Late lunch/ dinner
was served. There were speeches in between and dancing. I got up from
my chair because i was pressed. I walked to the guest bedroom seeing
that it was closest because Kwazi took our bedroom key. I opened the
door and stopped on my tracks! Jesus!! They both turned to look at me.
They were very shocked. I quickly closed the door and walked outside.
Jesus!

Londiwe Kheswa

The resurfacing of Busani really messed me up. It was taking its toll on
my work and also at home. I liked that we only met when there were
people around and the looks he gave me sent chills down my spine. It’s a
few days before Kwazi’s wedding and i am on night shift. It’s very quiet
tonight so i went to my office to catch on some files and my Mills and
Boon reading. I had finished with the reports when there was a knock on
the door.

Me: “ Come in” Nelly from front desk walked in. I smiled at her and she
looked down. Beautiful young girl.
Nelly: “ There is a problem in room 706 and he is asking for a manager” i
frowned.

Me: “ Get Charles babe” she shook her head.

Nelly: “ He went and he refused to speak to Charles. He said he wanted
someone higher than Charles and Miss K that’s you” i sighed and leaned
back on my seat closing my eyes.

Me: “ Can’t a girl get some rest around here.” She shrugged.

Me: “ You can go Nelly. I’ll take care of it.” She went out. I stood up fixing
my skirt and shirt. I took off my pumps and put on my 6 inch black heels. I
took my tablet and walked out locking my office. I got in the lift and went
to floor 7. I finally got there and walked to room 706 wondering what the
problem was.
I knocked on the door and there was no answer. I knocked for 5 minutes
and then i heard moving from inside. The door unlocked from the inside
and opened. Busani was standing right in front of me.

Me: “ Oh hell no” i turned on my heel and walked away. I felt a hand go
around my waist and pulling me off the ground. I screamed and we
walked in the room with me kicking and screaming. He closed and locked
the door before putting me down. I turned around and looked at him. I
started walking to the door and he stepped in front of me. I went the other
way and he was right there.

Me: “ Get out of my way Mr Mngomezulu” i gave him an angry look. He

smirked.
Busani: “ No need to be formal my love. You.. “ i lifted up my hand to stop
him from talking.


Me: “ Stop right there. I am not your anything Busani. Tell me what you
want so that i’ll go back to work” he tilted his head looking at me. His
eyes smaller.

Busani: “ I wanted to talk. Would you like anything to drink?” i shook my

head no. He walked to the bar and poured himself a glass of whiskey.

Me: “ Busani, can i just leave? Please open the door” i tapped on my foot
and he turned around. He looked at me from head to toe. He smiled
licking his lips. If it was any other time i would melt but i really didn’t want
to be here.

Busani: “ You really do look sexy. I don’t know why i didn’t marry you” i
rolled my eyes.

Me: “ You are daddy’s boy so why would i marry you?” he seemed
annoyed.

Busani: “ Sit.” I just stood and looked at him. He downed the whiskey and
walked to me. He looked dangerous i nearly ran but then i remembered
what i went through because of this man. He walked to me and towered
over me.

Busani: “ Londi i said SIT!” he said and gritted his teeth. He looked so
angry and i went to sit down.

I sat down and pulled down my skirt that rode up to my thighs. He sat
right next to me and we were touching. I moved away and he moved
closer. I groaned in frustration.

Me: “ I am now sitting on the couch. Talk ke Busani. What do you want
from me” i rolled my eyes again.

Busani: “ I want you.” I looked at him and laughed out loud. I thought he
was going to laugh but he looked serious.

Me: “ You are crazy” i stood up and walked to the door. I started banging
on it for them to open up for me but Busani picked me up again. He
walked to the bedroom and placed me on the bed. He locked the
bedroom door as well. He took off his shoes and shirt. I felt my
womanhood moist. This man is dangerous; sexy and beautiful. I quickly
got out of bed and tried to put on my shoes but he pulled me back and i
laid on my back. He got on top of me and looked at me.

Busani: “ I want you Londi. Please let me have you” he was looking at my
lips.

Me: “ Busani....” i whispered. He licked my lips and pulled on my bottom

lip with his teeth. He then sucked on it. I almost fell for it but i pushed him
off but he didn’t budge.
Busani: “ Babe please. Let me have a taste please. This is my pussy. Let
me have it. I know you haven’t gotten some since Sanele” i looked at him
frowning.

Me: “ How did you know about that?” he leaned on his side with his
elbow. He scratched his head furiously.

Busani: “ I know. I have been keeping an eye on you all these years.” As
soon as he said that i pushed him with so much force he got off me but
didn’t fall off the bed.

Me: “ You knew about them? All these years of pain and suffering Busani,
you knew?” my voice was shaky.

Busani: “ I couldn’t reach out to you. My father was going to find out
and..” i shook my head no.

Me: “ No Busani. You knew you had children. You knew that i suffered yet
you didn’t reach out to me; to them. You left me all alone to raise the kids
alone. Do you know how hard it was? Do you?” i was now screaming and
crying.

Busani: “ Baby please. Let me explain” i pushed his chest. I walked to the
door but remembered he locked it.

Me: “ Open this door James Mngomezulu” he chuckled.

Busani: “ I need to explain babe. Please can i just explain. After that i will
let you go. Please” he begged me and i went to sit on the bed.

Me: “ Don’t come anywhere near me. Stand there” he nodded and took a
chair. He sat opposite me and started to explain what happened before.

Busani: “ My father knew about you. He knew how much i love you. Yes, i
love you and i always will. He knew that getting to me he would use you
because you are the most important person. When i found out about your
pregnancy he told me to ask you to abort but i didn’t. I kept my distance.
Yes; you can fault me. You have to but i was scared of him. I came back
7 years later and you had Sanele afterwards. You have no idea how
much i wanted to reach out but my father knew my every move. Every
cent and rand i had to report. He kept tabs at me and i couldn’t move. I
only started looking for you guys when he got sick. That’s when he
started asking about the kids. He is dying Londi but i don’t want him near
my children” he looked so sad.

Me: “ Why don’t you want him near them?” he looked at me then back at
the floor.


Busani: “ He is evil Londi. I don’t believe the i am dying story. He is up to

something.” I nodded.

Me: “ So what is it that you want from me” he stood up and knelt in front
of me. He opened my thighs and got in between them.

Busani: “ I would like to come to the wedding. I..” i cut him off.

Me: “ I can’t force Kwazi to accept it. It’s...” he placed a finger on my lips

Busani: “ Please talk to her. I am begging you please” he looked at me

pleadingly

Me: “ I am not promising anything. I’ll see what i can do” he nodded and
cupped my face. He looked deep in my eyes and i got lost in his eyes.

Busani: “ I want you Londi. Not just the sex but i want all of you. I want to
be with you. I want to love you”

Me: “ Busani i..” he kissed me. We shared that slow arousing kiss and it
was fantastic.
Busani: “ I need you baby. Please. I am miserable without you” i frowned.

Me: “ You stayed 23 years without me and you need me now. Get out of
here you dirty old man” that made him laugh. Damn it this man. Even his
laugh is gorgeous.

Busani: “ Its that fire in you that makes me love you even today. You are
so strong” his hands travelled up my thighs.

Me: “ What are you doing?” i whispered.

Busani: “ Please baby. I need you” he stood up and pushed me gently to

bed. He got on top of me and immediately went for my neck. I moaned.
He kissed my mouth again and pulled back looking at me. He was
searching for an answer and i nodded. It’s been so long and Busani was
about to sex me good. I was more than ready.
Insert 23

Miss K

After 4 rounds of satisfying and wonderful sex we finally slept. Well he

slept while i took the keys from his pants and walked out. I got dressed in
the lounge and went out. I headed straight to my office and got in. I
locked and went to take a shower. I changed to a white shirt and navy
pants. I wore my shoes, fixed my hair and make up. After that i looked at
the clock and it was 1h34. I started doing some work that i had put off
doing.

I worked till i heard the knock on the door. I stood up and opened, it was
Nelly.

Me: “ Yes Nelly?” she looked at me and stepped back a little.

Nelly: “ Miss Kheswa we are leaving now. The day staff has arrived” i was
so shocked.

Me: “ When did they get here? Wait, what’s the time?” i turned and
looked at the clock. It was 7h10am. I was very shocked. I lost track of
time, i didn’t even sleep.

Me: “ It’s okay Nelly. I’ll catch a ride home, i live on the other side of town
anyways” she smiled.

Nelly: “ You scored yourself a millionaire son in law” she said giggling.

Me: “ You have no idea. I will see you later Nelly. Let me pack up and
leave” we shared a hug and she left. I put everything to where it belongs,
tiding my office. After i was done i took my bag and jacket. I walked out
and greeted the front desk. When i walked out Busani was standing
outside his car. He looked delicious but i just didn’t have appetite. I tried
to walk past him but he pulled me back by my arm causing me to roll my
eyes.

Busani: “ Don’t do that. Don’t roll your eyes at me” i turned and gave him
a straight face.

Me: “ What do you want Busani?” he seemed surprise by that question.

Busani: “ You left. I woke up and you were gone.” I gave a sarcastic
laugh.

Me: “ That means i fucked you good” he chuckled and i broke free of his
hand and started to walk away. I felt a hand go around my waist and i
jumped. We were in front of my work place.

Busani: “ I thought we reached an understanding yesterday”

Me: “ What understanding is that?” i rolled my eyes and his face

changed.

Busani: “ That you and i will work on things. I thought we were going to fix
things baby” i laughed.

Me: “ What things Busani? This is how we have always had. You fuck
and you leave me pregnant. You come back years later and the same
things happen.”

Busani: “ This time it’s different. This time...” i cut him off.

Me: “ What exactly changed this time? Nothing. You are still the same old
selfish man who i will always love. That’s the problem here. That i love
you even after you screwed me over time and time again. Last night was
just sex yeah and thank you for scratching the 15 year old scratch in my
pussy but it ends there Busani. Me and you we will never be” he was
shaking his head all this time.

Busani: “ I will make things right. I’ll even step down from being King
baby. I just want to be with you and our children. My love i am sorry baby.
I really am” i was now crying.

Me: “ Had you said all this 23 years ago we’d be happy together but now
it’s just over. It’s just not worth it anymore. We can never have anything
more than sex” he stepped closer to me cupping my face.

Busani: “ I want you and our kids. I need you my Londi. I really do my
tulip” i smiled. He used to call me that. If it was back then i would have
fell for it but now its just too late.

Me: “ I’ll always love and care for you but go home Busani. No one needs
your here” i kissed the corner of his mouth and walked away. I won’t lie
and say my heart wasn’t breaking but honestly i was just fed up with him
and his lies.

I arrived at home and i was bone tired. Everyone had left except for
Sanele. I went to knock in his room.

Sanele: “ Mom” his face lit up as soon as he opened the door. He pulled
him in his room and closed the door. His room was freakishly neat and
tidy. It even smelled nice. He took off my shoes and went out. He came
back and gave me my pyjamas. I gave him a questioning look.

Sanele: “ I just want to cuddle with my mom. I’ll leave when you’re
asleep.” I laughed.

Me: “ Why can’t we go to my bedroom” he shrugged.

Sanele: “ We are here now so get changed. I’ll go make you tea” he
kissed my cheek and walked out. I changed to my pyjamas and got in his
bed. He came back and gave me my tea. I drank and he took the cup
back to the kitchen. He came back and we cuddled. Him in front and me
at the back. His head was on my chest.

Sanele: “ Ever since we moved here we hardly spend time together” i

kissed his head.

Me: “ You don’t like it here?” he turned around quickly and faced me.

Sanele: “ I love it here. I’m the one who has been neglecting you. Its just
that being around Nqubeko is really fun and he gets me mah. He really
does. He said he will buy me a car if i secure aa bursary when i pass my
Matric” i laughed.

Me: “ That’s a risky bet. You and i both know that you’ll do that in your
sleep. Did he tell you the model of the car?” he laughed.

Sanele: “ Nothing more than a million” hehe Nqubeko.

Me: “ Okay. Prove this mother fucker wrong and get that million rands
car” we both laughed. I cleared my throat sitting on my butt. He also sat
and took my hand playing with my fingers.

Me: “ How would you feel if your father was to come back asking to meet
you guys?” he scoffed.

Sanele: “ We’ve already met.” He said coldly. It was the first time i heard
him speak in that tone.
Me: “ Oh?” i wanted to know more.

Sanele: “ Don’t act like you weren’t there mom. He called us bastards so
no thanks. I don’t want to see him again” he kissed my forehead before
getting out of bed.

Sanele: “ Get some rest.” He walked out closing the door.

Busani put me in a very difficult position because i had a fight with my

kids. They were refusing to see him and i had to beg them to see him. On
top of that he wanted to walk Nokwazi down the isle. On the day of the
wedding he came looking really good but i told my clit to behave.

I wasn’t about to let him in again but that all failed after he begged me
that he wanted to talk. We went to one of the guest bedroom and talking
turned into fucking. I was butt naked and he only had his vest on when
Nqubeko walked in on us. I thought he would stop but he pumped me
harder and i thought my vagina will break. After we were done we got
dressed.

Me: “ This needs to stop Busani.”

Busani: “ You love it as much as i do” he smirked and that made me

angry.


Me: “ You are taking advantage of my love for you. From now on i don’t
want us to talk unless it’s about our children” he finished buttoning his
shirt.

Busani: “ Baby, come on” i slapped his hand as he was trying to touch
me.

Me: “ Don’t touch me. I see now that i didn’t make it clear to you all those
years ago. Let me say it now. It’s over Busani. We are through” my heart
was breaking because this was the only man i have ever loved.

Busani: “ Londiwe don’t do this. Please. Give me a week and i’ll be all
yours” i chuckled.

Me: “ If you really wanted me like that you would have came to me saying
you are ready to be with me but now you have to go to daddy first. I’ll
never be a priority to you, my kids and i will never matter to you that
much. You are just happy that you still get me weak enough to fuck you
but the truth is as much as i love you i don’t want anything to do with you
anymore” i cried

Busani: “ Can i explain? Please just don’t leave me.” He tried getting
closer to me but i backed away.

Me: “ I’d listen if it was years ago but now your time is up. It’s been up.
You need to leave me alone now. You have broken me enough, let me be
happy now. Let me go James. Please let me go” i let out a sob as i
backed away to the door.

Busani: “ I am sorry Londi that i caused you pain all those years ago but
trust me when i say this i will you back again and i will make you mine.
Forever. Best believe it” he cupped my face and kissed me. After that he
pulled out and walked out the door. When the door close, my heart broke
into a million pieces because i knew that he was never coming back
again. Busani and i, we were finally over.

Insert 24
Nokwazi

The festivities of the reception continued and i looked at my husband who

seemed uncomfortable and couldn’t look at me in the eye. Ever since he
came back from the house he was uneasy. Busani had to leave but he
thanked me for allowing him to come to the wedding. Nqubeko didn’t
even come to shake his hand. He just sat on his seat concentrating on
his phone. When i walked back to him i touched his a and he jumped.

Me: “ Okay, what is going on with you?” he looked nervous.

Nqubeko: “ Nothing.” He gave a nervous laugh. I gave him a bored look.

Nqubeko: “ Promise not to throw a fit” i turned on my seat and looked at

him with a raised brow..

Me: “ Depends on what that is now talk” he chuckled shaking his head.

Nqubeko: “ You don’t get to talk to me like that. You really need to watch
your tone” i was getting annoyed but i decided to keep my cool.

Nqubeko: “ I found your mom and father having sex in one of the
guestrooms” i was shocked. Like i ran out if words, he continued eating
his cake and i just zoned out. I saw mom going in the house. I quickly
stood and followed her with Nqubeko close behind. I caught up with her
as she was entering her bedroom.

Me: “ Have you no shame?” Nqubeko got in and closed the door. Mom
just sat on the bed looking down.

Mom: “ I am sorry Nqubeko for disrespecting your home like that. It

wasn’t even supposed to happen” she sounded down.

Nqubeko: “ It’s okay mah. As long as he took care of the itch” he winked
at mom and she gave him aa faint smile.

Mom: “ Its not okay. This is the man who fucked and left you with kids,
twice. Now you open up your legs for him the very first chance you get?
You behaved like a cheap horny slut mom. Who the hell are you? I sure
as hell wasn’t raised by this shameless woman! This is not even your
house yet you go around fucking people in YOUR son in-law’s house!”

Nqubeko: “ Enough!” he shouted causing me to jump. He wasn’t one to

raise his voice, ever.

Nqubeko: “ I don’t care if this is how you grew up talking to your mother
but you will not do that in front of me. People have sex Nokwazi, get over
it. This is Miss K’s home as much as its ours. I invited her to stay here
because she is like a mother to me. I was supposed to knock. You need
to get over yourself. Your parent’s relationship is non of your business
just like ours is non of theirs” jeez. He really shut me up. I was shocked
and listening to him dishing out facts to me.

Nqubeko: “ Always talk about loving your mom; are you that blind to see
that she has been crying? Or rather see that she has been going through
some things over the last few weeks. You have been so focused on
yourself to see that she is drowning and its all because of the man she
loves. You of all people know how its like to love someone like that. The
minute they touch you your whole being surrenders to them. So get off
that horse Mrs Msomi. Its really not you”

He went to hug mom and kissed her cheek. That opened up the taps
because she started crying very loud and hard. He pulled her back in her
arms until she was better.

Mom: “ Thank you Nqubeko but i think it’s best that i left. When you come
back from your honeymoon i’ be long gone” she walked to the bed, sat
down and took off her shoes. All this time my heart was bleeding about
how wrong i was.

Me: “ Can you give us a moment Nqubeko?” he frowned.

Nqubeko: “ If you hurt her, you’ll get it Nokwazi” he kissed her cheek and
gave me a perk before walking out.

Mom: “ I’m going to shower and get some rest” i held her arm as she was
standing up. She looked so sad and broken. I immediately regretted
talking to her like that.

Me: “ Mom please. Can i talk to you?” she sighed before sitting down.
This wasn’t my mother. My mom would have slapped the living shit out of
me.

Me: “ What’s going on mom? Talk to me” she shrugged her shoulders
and i just snapped. I don’t know why i had to beg her to talk to me.

Me: “ Seriously mom, talk to me already. It’s my wedding day. I can’t be

sitting here baby sitting you” she looked at me in disbelief.

Mom: “ No one asked you to be here. Leave if you want to leave. Oh yes
i forgot. This is your house. I am just a guest. Hehe thatha Nokwazi.
Living the high life now makes you talk to me like I’m a piece of shit. You
sitting there judging me for loving your father. You don’t know the things i
went through to raise you and your brother. I am sorry that i didn’t have
enough money to take you to school. I am sorry i am not your ideal
mother. I will move out of your house tomorrow. Now if you could excuse
me i want to shower and rest” she was crying and breaking. I was also in
tears. I felt like such an ass.

Me: “ Mom i...” she cut me off.

Mom: “ Okay. I’ll go to the hotel. I’ll stay there until i can move to our
place.” She went to her closet and started packing.

Me: “ You don’t have to go mom. Please; i am sorry” my whole body was
shaking. My mom was hurt and i had added to that.

Mom: “ It’s okay Kwazi. I understand. I should have respected your

house. I will come back during the week for the rest of my stuff. Sanele
will move in before school starts. Thank you for letting us stay at your
home but as you said i have overstayed my welcome” she closed her
travelling bag and wheeled it to the door. At that moment i was a sobbing
mess.

Me: “ Mom i’m sorry” she gave me a light peck before walking out. She
left me heart broken. Not because of her but because of me. Of the
person i have become. I was so ashamed. I decided to go back outside
after washing my face. To my surprise everyone was gone. It was just
that small circle that was left. Nqubeko saw me walking towards them
that he rushed to me.

Nqubeko: “ Are you okay?” i nodded quickly. There was this lump on my
throat.

Nqubeko: “ Come.” He took my hand leading us back inside. We went to

our bedroom and he helped me out of the dress. He turned me around
and pulled me in his arms. He started to rock me; that’s when i really
cried. I cried until i felt my knees giving in but Nqubeko was there.

He scooped me up in his arms and led us to bed. I even had hiccups. He

went to get me water. I drank the water and cuddled him. A few minutes
later i was fast asleep.
.
I was woken up by Nqubeko roughly shaking me. He was getting dressed
in his jeans.

Me: “ What’s going on?” he walked to the closet and came back with his
long sleeved light orange sweater.

Nqubeko: “ Get up we have to go” he threw a dress at me. He was

moving like a mad man.

Me: “ What’s happening? Why are you walking like that? What is going
on?” i sat on my butt rubbing my eyes.

Nqubeko: “ We have to get to the hospital baby. Please get dressed” he

came and pulled me out of bed.

Me: “ What’s going on?” my heart was now beating fast.

Nqubeko: “ It’s your mom. She’s been in a car accident and it’s not
looking good.”

Busani

Growing up was very hard for me because i couldn’t play like other kids. I
was being prepared to be King. I am the 5th born son of 10 children. 9
boys and 1 girl. Yeah i know; you probably thought i am the oldest but no
i am. Don’t ask why they made me king because all i know is that my
grandfather said the 5th son is to be King. If the first born was to be a girl
she’d automatically be queen.

My father had never been a nice man. Had it not been the love mom
gave us, i would be very cold hearted. Yes, i was a prince from a filthy
rich family but i was never happy. I agreed to everything he said, i didn’t
want to disappoint him. It got to a point where my younger sister
Senamile ran away with her now husband. When she ran away, our
mother was devastated, she hardly ate and she hardly slept. She would
sit by the gate waiting for her to come home. I tried to look for her but i
couldn’t find her. She only resurfaced years later but that also did not
change my father.

Right now he is “sick”. After her heard the story about my children. *sigh*
My beautiful children, where do i even start explaining..

It all started when i met Londiwe, the most beautiful woman i have ever
met. Still is the most beautiful woman. I could tell that she was straight
out of school because she looked so young. She was captivating and
sexy. She had that thing about her that drew me to her. When i went to
the hotel to stay there i started asking her out and she didn’t give me the
time of day.

I only got her number after a month of asking her out and that was the
house phone number. She gave me times when to call her. That
frustrated me because i wanted to hear her voice all the time. After that i
got my first kiss after a month. Mind you i was doing my 4th year at
UKZN studying Medicine. Yep, i am a qualified Dr but we will get to that
some other time. I finally tastes the honey after 6 months.

She was aa virgin and i wanted to do right by her and her family. I gave
her a ring, she wears it even today. I told my father that i wanted to marry
her when we found out about the pregnancy. The things he said to me
that day still make my blood boil. He said that if i leave i will lose
everything. I didn’t care about that but he also said that if i leave he will
make sure that he kills Londiwe and the baby. He even showed me
pictures of her where about.

I had to let her go and marry the woman that my father chose for me. I
couldn’t bring myself to touch her, i have never touched her. I have had
sex with different woman during the years but i never slept with my wife
which always made me wonder who made her pregnant 4 times. Those
kids look like me but they sure as hell ain’t mine.

I was there when Londiwe gave birth to Nokwazi and i stayed with the for
6 months. When she came home one day from work with a minor stab
wound on her shoulder i knew i had to leave. I knew i had to go back
home and be with the wife that i didn’t love. When i got home he showed
me pictures of Nokwazi in her day care. Close pictures and one of him
holding her. I had to let go of Londiwe but when Bheki came along i knew
that was my big break because i knew that he would help with protecting
my children.

Bheki told me that my father is more powerful then we thought but he

hooked me up with Mr Evans, he’s the old man that trained him. He was
in South African because of his grandson being shot.

Things are starting to come together but i know that it’s too late for me
and my children because when i first met them i was a shitting jerk. I had
to so that they would hate me. I would give anything to have a
relationship with them but i would never risk their lives for me. I really
love Londiwe and she is my soul but now i can see that i came too late.

After we got caught by Nqubeko she said goodbye to me but i also said
Goodbye to my family because i went back to the hotel and had a
meeting with my sister and her family.

Sena: “ What exactly are you saying bhuti?” she sat at the edge of the
chair because she wanted to know what i meant by what i just said.

Me: “ I called Jerry when i left home last week. I told him to serve my wife
the paper together with paternity papers. Either way Nokwazi is the next
queen, if not it’s Sanele. Baba is pretending to be sick; he wants to meet
the children and have them killed. I’ll be damned if i let something like
that happens.”

Bheki: “ Whoa wait, your father has been pretending all this time?” his
eyes were all out. Sena just chuckled.

Me: “ Yep. He has been pretending so that he can continue controlling

me. I know you think i am weak but i really couldn’t leave. Even if i did,
how would i have supported my family because he was going to blue list
me?”

Bheki: “ You would have started over somewhere else” he half shouted
and i understood.

Me: “ How? He showed me a case file that had all the evidence and it
was pointing out to me. If i moved i would have been the most wanted
man. Imagine being in jail and not being able to do anything at all. So i
struck a deal with him, i’d stay and take over as king” Sena gasped; her
hand flew to her mouth. She started to cry. I sighed and walked over to
where she was seated.

Sena: “ You have been so alone, taking care of mom and watching your
family from a distance. You couldn’t be with them” she sobbed.

Me: “ I’ll make everything right i promise.” I rubbed on her arm and she
rested her head on my shoulder. My baby sister.

Bheki: “ Do you need anything my man?” he was seated next to Sihle
who seemed deep in thought. She was totally zoned out.

Me: “ I need 24 hour protection around them. Things are about to get
messy” he nodded his head. My phone rang and it was Londiwe.

Me: “ My love” Sena raised her brow causing me to chuckled but i quickly
frowned when i heard Londi crying.

Me: “ Talk to me baby, what’s going on? What happened?”

Londi: “She hates me. She hates the idea of us” she was talking so fast i
hardly heard her.

Me: “ Baby where are you?” i asked because i could hear that she was
crying.

Londi: “ I am driving to a friend’s house in PMB. I’ll be back in...”

scrrrrrreaaach!! And the i heard a loud bang. I knew that she had been in
an accident. We all took our things and rushed to the scene. What i saw
there will forever be in my mind but they managed to get her out of her
car. I travelled with the ambulance which took her to Westville hospital. It
was then that i asked the nurses to call her children.

When Nokwazi and her husband came she looked at me with so much
anger and i deserved it. We sat there waiting for them to be done with
her. The Dr finally told us we could go in after 8 hours of surgery. She
looked so pale yet so beautiful and peaceful. I went to her side and held
her hand kissing it.

Kwazi: “ Why are you here?” i was a bit confused by her question.

Me: “ I don’t get what you’re trying to ask me or rather where you want
this conversation to go”

Kwazi: “ You have been hiding wherever you were and now you came
her to fuck her again before disappearing. I don’t know what she saw in
you but then again she fucked you twice and both fell pregnant during
those times. Goes to show what kind woman she is.” I got pissed.

Me: “ You’re angry yes; i completely understand but don’t talk about her
like that. Not in here. You want to shout and swear at me; fine i will
welcome that but your mother is laying here, in this bed. Could you
respect her at least, the rest will follow” she rubbed her nose.

Kwazi: “ Respect is earned. Who has sex in her son in-law’s house on
her daughter’s wedding day.. that is just disgusting!”

Me: “ ENOUGH! Like i said throw insults at me and i will gladly welcome
them but this woman raised you to be this woman that you are now. Don’t
let your hate for me delay your mother’s healing process. I will leave you
alone and will come back later when it’s safe to come around. I will come
back and this time i am here to stay. Whether i live or die. I will come
back to her”

Kwazi: “ What does that mean?” she sounded worried. I gave her a faint
smile.

Me: “ Don’t worry yourself about it. I should be on my way” she nodded. I
went and kissed Londi on her forehead and walked out. This was a very
dangerous thing to do but its time i stopped running and fight for what is
mine, fight for my family but most of all fight for the love of my life.
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Nokwazi


Can I honestly say that I do not have any idea as to why I am being so
rude? My mom, I love her. She is my whole world and I don’t know what
I would do without her. The fact that Busani is here and he hasn’t left her
side for the past 72 hours that is how long she has been out. 3 full days,
Sanele is a mess. I eat a lot and I snap anytime, poor Nqubeko he has
been here an tolerating me through it all. Today it’s the 12th we have to
get things one for Sanele. He is going back to school in a week and I
have to buy the uniform and stationery.
Last night I had stayed up because I couldn’t sleep and Siphe is teething
so I ate a whole lot of food which made me wake up and vomit in the
morning. Nqubeko came in as I was seated on the floor because I felt
like my guts were coming out.
Nqubeko: “babe, are you okay?” asked rubbing my back. I was feeling
very dizzy so I shook my head.

Nqubeko: “Do you need anything?” again I shook my head no. He sat on
the seat and waited for me to talk to him.

Me: “I am hungry” I looked at him and his eyes laced with concern but
when I gave him a smile he relaxed a little and he exhaled.
Nqubeko: “What would you like to eat Mrs Nqubeko?” he grinned
wiggling his brow.

Me: “Stop it, I don’t want sex, I want real food” he laughed out loud
throwing his head back. He kissed my cheek and helped me up.

Nqubeko: “I’ll get Mah Thuli to make you something light” I shook my
head quickly.

Me: “I need lots of grease on my plate and freshly squeezed orange

juice” he smiled. Heee leli coloured shame.

Nqubeko: “I will do that. Take a shower so long, you don’t look or smell
pleasant” he said that and dashed out the door laughing. I smiled shaking
my head before stripping from my pyjamas. I got in the shower and too a
long a well-deserved shower. It was soothing and I found myself sighing.
I ended up seating on the floor because my fee couldn’t take it but my
body needed the shower. I don’t know how long I was before I felt myself
being picked up from the floor.

Nqubeko: “Really baby, sleeping in the shower. The water was starting to
get cold, you want to end up in hospital too?’’ he sounded annoyed and I
just rolled my eyes. He placed me on the floor and went back to the
bathroom. He came back with towel and he helped me dry. After that he
tucked me in bed and made me eat. I wasn’t hungry anymore because
he scolded me.

Nqubeko: “Eat” he said with a commanding voice, pushing the food to my

lap.

Me: “I’m not hungry anymore’’ I pushed the plate hard and it fell on the
floor. He chuckled shaking his head.

Nqubeko: “Siphe and I are going for a walk. I will see you later but only if
I find you here. Bye” he kissed my cheek before walking out. I feel so
stupid and ungrateful that I just pulled he cover over m head and cried,
like really cried. I blame myself for what happened to mom. I pushed her
drive in the state that she was after speaking to her that way on my
wedding day. I really wasn’t mad at her but I was mad at the way she
loves Busani. She always caves in when he comes around, I was in no
position to judge her because I would have done the same for my
Nqubeko but the fact that he toys with her feelings just doesn’t sit well
with me.

I must have fallen asleep because I was woken up by Nqubeko shaking

me.


Nqubeko: “get up you need to eat” he was holding a plate of food filled
with my favourites.

Me: “I am not hungry” lord knows how hungry I was but I just didn’t want
to bother him plus i was still embarrassed.

Nqubeko: “Nokwazi, we need to go see your mother so get up and eat

the damn food” I started to cry again, he gave me a bored look and I just
wailed loudly. I cried so much that I had hiccups and Nqubeko was just
looking at me. I got up and walked to the bathroom, I looked at my face
and my eyes were swollen. I washed my face and freshened up, I then
walked to the closet to look for something to wear. I settled for my 3
quarter skinnies and a grey t-shirt with grey pumps. I wore a maroon
sunhat and went to our bedroom. Nqubeko was seating on the bed
looking at me.

Me: “We can go” I whispered. Tears started to fill my eyes all over again.

Nqubeko: “You’re really not going to eat?” he waved the plate in the air
and I just shook my head.

Me: “I’m not hungry so can we go, please?” the stupid tears made their
way down my face. He stood up and walked out. I followed him out and
he went to the kitchen to put the plate in the fridge. He came back with
juice and gave it to me.

Me: “Thank you” he nodded and walked out. He didn’t even open the
door for me and I jst said fuck it. I got in his car, fastened the seatbelt and
he drove out. The drive to the hospital was silent and I liked it that way. I
didn’t want to talk but I was really hungry. When we got to the hospital we
had an hour to kill. Busani was there so Nqubeko went and spoke to him.
This gave me time to go to the canteen and look for food. I settled for a
plateful of biryani and sambles with chilly salsa. I was eating and enjoying
my food when I felt a presence over me. I didn’t even have to look up
because I knew that scent and it belongs to Nqubeko. He placed bottled
water in front of me and I nodded.

The time to see mom finally arrived and I walked to the ward and when I
got in I had the shock of my life. Mom was awake and the machines were
gone. She was oiled up against the pillows. I ran to her and almost threw
myself at he but I remembered that she was injured so I stopped.

Me: “Mom I am so sorry. I am the worst daughter ever. I am so sorry that

I said all those things to you, I will understand if you hate me and never
want to see me again. I was horrible and I hate myself too. I am so sorry
mom” I cried holding her hand. She squeezed it and I looked up at her.

Mom: “It’s okay, I am happy to be alive. Now stop crying.” I wiped my

tears and smiled at her.

Me: “Oh mom, I can’t believe you had an accident on my wedding and on
top of it it was my fault that you had that accident” mom patted my hand.

Mom: “Now Now, stop the tears, the accident could have happened to
anyone and it would have happened whether we fought or not. You need
to stop blaming yourself. Look at you now your face is all swollen and
pale. I hate it when you cry. Now tell me, how is married life treating
you?” I sighed and looked around the ward. I realised that it was only the
both of us inside it.

Me: “Mom, how long have you been awake?” I asked suspiciously and
she smiled.

Mom: “I woke up a few hours ago and before you throw a fit I asked for it
to be like this. I wanted you to find me like this and I also wanted us to
talk.”


Me: “okay and to answer your questions things are horrible” I made a
face and buried my head on the bed. She put her hand on my head and
started giving me a massage. It felt so good.

Mom: “Why are thing so horrible for you?”

Me: “Well first I was rude to you on my wedding and birthday. You had an
accident. I had a talk with Busani, he is back you know and he loves you.
He wants to try with you. He said he is not sure about me but he seems
to be getting along with Sanele, I mean who would want me anyways
only you can tolerate and love me whole heartedly. Another thing is that i
eat a lot and I am moody. I cry like a baby. Just this morning Nqubeko
had breakfast made for me but I behaved like a diva and I threw it on the
floor. He is no longer talking to me and he hates me. I am sure he now
wants a divorce because I am rude and disrespectful mom. I love him
and I don’t want to lose him”

All this time I was talking with my head bowed down and I was crying so
much that I did not realise that there were people inside the room now. I
felt someone rub my back, when I looked up it was Busani and he smiled.
Hee Thixo ka Duduzane, I didn’t realise how much I look like his mad. I
took mom’s complexion but I look exactly like Busani it’s actually freaky.

Busani: “Can I get a hug?” he opened up his arms and I went to him. I
gave him a hug and we pulled apart after a while he cupped my face
making me look at him whilst wiping my tears.

Busani: “I love you and I want you to open up just a little space for me i
your life. No matter how small that space is but I would love it. I just need
to know that even though it will take time, you will give a chance to fix
things between us. All of us” I sniffed and looked at Nqubeko who had
that pained look on his face.

Me: “I suppose we could try you know, I am not promising anything” we
hugged again and Sanele joined in the hug.

Mom: “Okay, enough. Can I sleep now, I would really love it if I were to
rest. My back is killing me.” I walked over to her to say goodbye,
promising to see her later that day. Sanele and Busani stayed behind, we
walked out to the parking lot in complete silence. As we were
approaching the car we heard Sanele shouting for me to stop. We
stopped and waited for him to catch up with us.

Sanele: “Can I erm, can I spend the remaining days of my holiday with
our father please?’’ I was very surprised by this because I knew how
angry he had been at Busani. I looked at Nqubeko and he nodded.

Me: “You really want to do that?’’ I asked clearly concerned and he

nodded quickly.

Sanele: “Yes please, I really want to please sisi” he gave that cute look I
just giggled.

Me: “Take care of yourself and behave.” He jumped at me and hugged

me. After that he quickly ran back to the hospital. I looked at him smiling.
When I turned around I looked at Nqubeko and he was also smiling at
me, I quickly frowned and he did the same. Wasn’t he mad at me? Mxim
We got in the car and this time around he opened the door for me. I got it
and I immediately fell asleep inside the car.

I only woke up later and I looked around I was in our bedroom dressed in
his t-shirt. I saw him sitting crossed leg on the couch with my kindle
reader on his hands. I lay back down the pillow and seconds later I felt
the bed dip on his side.

Nqubeko: “Get up we need to talk” I sat up because I was just tired of his
tension and I knew that if I didn’t get up he was going to fuck me up. Can
you imagine, we haven’t had our husband and wife sex?

Nqubeko: “Don’t you ever, not even for a minute think that I would ever
want a divorce from you and you better pull you attitude together Kwazi
you hear me? I know that I am the one who spoiled you but damn, have a
little respect please.”

Me: “I am sorry Nqubeko, I don’t know what is wrong with me these days
but I promise that I will speak to you as my husband and with respect.”
He nodded and pulled me to him. He kissed my head countless times
before breathing out.

Nqubeko: “Baby, can I ask you something and please don’t take it the
wrong way?’’ he cleared his throat and he seemed serious.

Me: “sound serious” I tried sitting up and he just held me.

Nqubeko: “Don’t you think that maybe you are pregnant? I mean your
mom and Mah Thuli think you are….”I didn’t even wait for him to finish. I
elbowed him really hard that he let go of me grunting. I stood up and
threw a pillow on him.

Me: “That is what you think? What are you, Drs now? If I am pregnant
who the hell pu the baby inside me Nqubeko? Huh? Who put the fucking
baby in my stomach?” I turned and looked at him because I was throwing
everything I could get my hands on at him.

Nqubeko: “I didn’t say that you are baby, I was just asking” he said
ducking the cushion that I threw at him.

Me: “Ahh fuck off Dr Msomi, you know what. Get out! Get out! Out!”


I went over to him and started pushing him to the door. He tried to explain
but I just wasn’t hearing that. I finally got him out and closed the door. I
wiped imaginary dust off my hands and walked over to the bed but I
stopped when I smelled pizza.

I looked around and saw 2 boxes on the dresser. I took one and sat on
the bed. I ate a whole box in a matter of minutes. After that I drank the
juice and burped. I took off his t-shirt, I picked up 2 pillows and place
them on the bed. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I looked at
myself in the mirror and my stomach was very flat. I shook my head
thinking about what Nqubeko said.

Me: “Bloody ass, he wants me to get pregnant again. Idiot” I pulled the
cover and I slept.

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XOLILE

Nqoba is back, I am very happy that he is back home but we have so

much to talk about and I don’t even know where to start. He has been
walking around with this frightened look on his face. I am glad he knows
and feels that we have serious things to talk about but we will talk later
when we come back from seeing Miss K. speaking of Miss K she woke
up a few days ago and she really looks good. We got to the hospital and I
was met by a very angry and emotional Nokwazi. I looked at Nqubeko
and he just shrugged his shoulders and turned away. He walked away
with his brother, I pulled my girl to the side to find out what the issue was.

Me: “Hey whats going on? Is your mom okay?” she nodded wiping he
tears.

Me: “Talk to me, what seems to be the problem?” I brushed her back
since her tears were coming hard.

Kwazi: “Nqubeko…he…he…he…” she couldn’t even speak, she was just

crying and I just assumed the worse.
Me: “what did he do to you? Is he cheating on you?” she looked at me
with her eyes wide open in shock.

Kwazi: “No, he is not cheating on me” she looked at her hands while
sniffing. I was starting to be impatient, so I stood up with hopes of finding
Nqubeko and him telling what exactly the problem is but Kwazi stopped
me.
Kwazi: “Where are you going?” she stood up as well holding my hand.

Me: “ I am going to look for Nqubeko and find out exactly what he did to
you because you have been crying since got here and you can even get
a word out.”

Kwazi: “He thinks I am pregnant” I gasped and looked at her. I noticed

the glow plus her face was getting fuller but judging from the look on her
face she was in denial and I didn’t want to add to her anger so I just had
to play along.

Me: “Siphe is only 4 months old.” That just seemed to make things worse
because she wailed. I looked around and people were watching us.

Kwazi: “I know and that just makes it whole worse. Don’t get me wrong, I
love Nqubeko and I would like more children with him but I think that he’ll
see me as this woman who doesn’t love herself. I mean who falls
pregnant so early after giving birth, not that I am pregnant but I am just
asking.”

Me: “have you spoken to him?’’



Kwazi: “And say what? I don’t really have anything to offer him plus he is
my boss so I don’t have a clue what to say”

Nqubeko: “We can start with taking the test and take it from there” she
jumped when she heard his voice because he came from behind her and
she could not see him.
Kwazi: “Nqubeko i…” he held out his hand to her and she took it. She
turned and looked at me.

Kwazi: “I will call you, thank you for the talk” we hugged and they left. I
turned to Nqoba and he also held out his hand. We headed out the
hospital and I didn’t even get to see Miss K.

Me: “How is Miss K?” I asked him as we were headed back to his place.
He looked at me and smiled.

Nqoba: “She okay, she was sleeping. We will see her later.” I nodded and
we fell into this comfortable silence. I wasn’t even paying attention to
anything because I felt his hand on my stomach and I felt tingles all over
my body.

Nqoba: “we are home” he looked nervous, he knew that we had to talk
about serious stuff.
We got out of the car and walked inside the house, I rushed to the
bathroom as I wanted to pee so badly. I peed and washed my hands. I
ended up taking a 2 minutes shower because I was very sweaty so I just
wanted to cool off. I got out and applied lotion, after that I wore my
underwear and his shirt.

I found him outside in the garden. He had changed to his shorts and he
was shirtless. This crazy ass looks really sexy that it’s actually freaky. I
went and sat on chair next to him and he just looked t me with his eyes
pleading but I was not about to give up that easily. I was going to make
thing shard for him before I can actually forgive him.

Nqoba: “I would like to apologise and I really am sorry that I put you
through that. What I did to Nokwazi must have hurt you so bad and I am
sorry for embarrassing you like that. I ruined us I know and I am really
sorry baby. I love you and I don’t know what came over me but can I
honestly say that you are my soul mate. I don’t even like her that way. I
just need you not to give up on me, not give up on us. I am working on
myself and I would love it if you were there with me. For me.”

Me: “why didn’t you come to me for help Nqobani?” I was getting teary
but I told myself not to give in because I was going to end up in his arms
and I didn’t want that until we spoke.

Nqoba: “I honestly don’t know plus I had stopped taking my pills things
got messy. Yes, I know you are probably thinking that I wanted her. Can i
be honest with you about my feelings?’’ he looked deep in my eyes and I
swallowed, I was freaked out because I knew that he was going to say
something that would break my heart.

Me: “Please don’t hurt me though” he came and knelt in between my leg,
he then held my hands kissing the tips.

Nqoba: “I love you and I mean it. For the last 3 years I always thought
that I liked Nokwazi and that I wanted to be with her but I could see that
she was in love with my brother so I kept pushing till I met you. The first
time we met we slept together that night and you instantly got under my
skin. I ran away, I didn’t want that. I still wanted to fuck around and you
were going to get in the way of that. I moved on with my life but as soon
as I saw you again on the night of the party, you brought down all my
defences and that is when I knew that I had to have you in my life. I
started seeing that what I had for Nokwazi was nothing compared to the
love I have for you. I know that it is going to take some time before you
trust me again but baby, please. Whenever you are ready, find it in you to
forgive me.” He was also crying and cute, I could eat him up in one go.

I cleared my throat and looked at him, I wanted to forgive him because I

heard all that he said plus I love his crazy ass. I squeezed his hands and
smiled. He picked me up and spun me around.

Me: “Stoooop, you are making us dizzy but before I forgive you I need
you to promise me something” he quickly put me down and looked at me
nodding.

Me: “Promise to come to me when something is troubling you, also

promise not to let anyone come between us. If it gets too much you will
go to Nqubeko and talk to him”

Nqoba: “I promise baby and I am really sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you. I
didn’t mean for any of this to happen. From now on you will be the
happiest woman on earth” he kissed the inside of my palms.

Me: “Well I suppose I can give you another chance you know” he smiled
widely and picked me up again.

Me: “Don’t spin us around” I screamed but instead he carried me to the

house. We got in out bedroom like the speed of light.

We took off all our clothes and we made love for hours, the way we made
love our souls spoke to each other. Promising each other a new start. We
finally tired each other out and we fell asleep.

BUSANI

I have got to be the luckiest and happiest man alive. Well first let me start
with home, what has been happening there. I served my wife with divorce
papers and my father called me threatening to disown me. I told him how
much of an old man I am so he can do what he feel sis right for him. Mom
also called me and told me that she is proud of me.

Turns out that the kids that my wife had were my brother’s kids. Londiwe
is okay, when I first saw her on that bed I wanted to die because I don’t
know what I would have done if I lost her. When she woke up she was
very surprised to see me and she told me that I smell. I should go home
and bath. When i came back the kids were less angry at me. So the other
day Sanele asked his big sister if he could stay over for the remaining of
his holidays.

Today is Monday, only a day left before we go back to school. We were

having breakfast and having a chat.

Me: “Do you like the school that you go to?” I asked because I wanted to
move him to a better school. It was going to be difficult but I had to try. I
had lost a lot of years being a coward.

Sanele: “It’s alright, I mean there is sports and everything so it’s okay” I
nodded and continued eating while he looked at me. My children look so
much like me, Sanele is worse because he even took my complexion.

Sanele: “Why are you asking?” he asked with his mouth full of food and I
gave him a look. He chuckled and gulped down a glass of juice. The way
this boy eats.

Me: “I haven’t even spoken to your mother yet but I wanted to ask how
would you feel if I were to move you to another school?” his expression
changed, he lightened up.

Sanele: “Which school is that?” he inched closer to the table and

chuckled.

Me: “Crawford maybe but you could always…”he stood up and fisted the
air.

Sanele: “Are you kidding me, I would love to go there.” He was dancing
around the place.

Me: “I haven’t spoken to your mother yet” did he listen to me, no he

didn’t.

Sanele: “Wait but I am going to be doing grade 11. Will they allow me to
go there, I mean I don’t think they would take me” he sat down looking
worried.

Me: “relax and don’t worry about that but I would like to talk to you for a
minute.” He looked curious.

Sanele: “Sounds serious” I chuckled and he relaxed a bit.

Me: “I am going to try and be the best father to you and Kwazi. I know I
wasn’t around all those years ago but I would like for you to give me a
chance to prove to you how much I love you. I know you probably think
that I am trying to buy your love but I am doing this because I want what
is best for you. I am not saying that your mother didn’t give you the best.
She did a great job with you guys and I am not here to take over. I just
want a chance to love you guys. I mean you are the only children I have.”
He seemed shocked by what I said.

Sanele: “Don’t you have any other kids? I saw a picture of you on Google
with your wife and kids, they look just like you” I chuckled.

Me: “They are not mine; they are my brother’s kids. That is why they look
like me, thing is I never slept with my wife. I always knew that those
children aren’t mine” he looked at me like he wanted to laugh.

Sanele: “I am sorry old timer but that is what happens if you mess with
Londiwe Kheswa” I frowned and he laughed out loud causing me to frown
more.

Me: “I have to marry your mother you know but I will have to ask you and
your sister properly for her hand in marriage. I hope she says yes, lord
knows how much I love her and how much pain I put her through” he
nodded and rubbed his chin.

Sanele: “You need to be packing some in that wallet because I will make
sure we dent it” I raised my brow and tried to speak but he stopped me.

Sanele: “And don’t even think about threatening not to send me to

Crawford because that is where I am going. You promised me. Now get
up, we have to go see your girlfriend and you tell her your brilliant plans
of getting her a new Porsche and a house in Ballito” he took an apple and
strode out whistling. I was left in disbelief, what have I gotten myself into.

2 YEARS LATER

Insert 27
Nokwazi

Nqubeko drove us home after buying three pregnancy tests at the

hospital pharmacy. I was crying all the way home and i just knew that i
really was pregnant because of the mess that i was.

Nqubeko: “ You hungry?” i just shook my head and he continued driving

home. He took the longer route and if he thought i would say anything he
was in for a big surprise. I fell asleep along the way and was woken up by
him placing me on the bed. I wanted to pretend to be sleeping but i had
to get the test over and done with. I got out of bed and took the packet
with the tests. I went to the toilet and Nqubeko followed me. I turned and
gave him a look but he just shrugged his shoulders. I took out test and
peed on all 3 of them. I washed my hands and got out. I went to shower
and wore my pyjamas. All this time Nqubeko was seated on the bed with
the tests in his hands. He looked up at me and he had tears in his eyes.
He held out his hand and i took it. He pulled me in his lap and buried his
face in my neck. I felt his tears go down my chest.

Me: “ What’s wrong baby? Are you okay?” he nodded and sniffed.

Nqubeko: “ I am happy. Thank you Nokwazi” i rolled my eyes and rubbed

his back.

Me: “ How far long are we?” he pulled back and looked at me with a huge
smile on his face.

Nqubeko: “ We are 6 weeks pregnant baby and i know you think Siphe is
very young but i am happy baby. I am very happy.” I rolled my eyes and
he pinched me causing me to jump.

Me: “ I am sorry i was such a bitch. I don’t even know what came over
me. I am sorry Nqubeko” i was emotional all over again. .

Nqubeko: “ I love you and i completely understand my love. It’s okay.” He

kissed my lips and stood up. He placed me gently on the bed. He took off
my pyjama bottoms and threw them across the floor. He took off the top
as well causing me to shudder. He smiled and kissed me. He kissed me
with his hands going all over my body. I suddenly felt very hot like i
needed him deep inside me.

Me: “ Nqubeko” i whispered.

Nqubeko: “ Hmmmm” he put his finger in my nana, i jerked up the bed

and he gently pushed me down the bed again. He pulled out his fingers
and pulled back. He stood up took of his clothes slowly. I pulled my
bottom lip and looked at this sexy man in front of me. He finished taking
off his clothes. He walked to the closet and i sat on my butt. I was about
to follow him when he came back with a tie. I giggled and put my hands
in front for me. He gave me a lazy smile and shook his head.

Nqubeko: “ Stand up” his voice was deeper than usual. I stood up
giggling. He pulled me to him almost roughly and turned me around. He
placed the tie around my neck. His hands went to my breasts and he
caressed them. I moaned and he bit my ear hard causing me to scream.
He groaned and pulled the tie from my neck. He pulled my arms and tied
them from behind.

Nqubeko: “ You need to learn how to speak to your husband. You gotta
respect me Nokwazi” my breath caught because his voice was much
deeper.

Me: “ I respect you...” he spanked and made me kneel on the bed i

yelped in pleasurable pain. I slept on my tummy but he pulled me back
up. He made me kneel and held me in place. He licked me from my
nana to my other hole and up my spine. He got to my ear and bit me
again. I cried again, it was so good and i was now dripping wet. I wanted
him inside me but i guess he was going to take his own time.

Nqubeko: “ I love you” he whispered as he went down my body. He lay

on his back and made me climb on his face. The minute i sat on him face
his tongue went to my nana. I started rolling my hips because i wanted to
cum fast. He held me in place and took his tongue eating me out. He
pushed in a finger and my juices just flowed harder. He groaned very
loudly and his pace went up. I couldn’t even touch him because my
hands were tied behind me.

I felt myself build up and just as i was about to burst he lifted me up from
his face and i just screamed. At this time i was just weeping. I really
wanted to cum. He made kneel again and he pushed roughly into me i
screamed.

Nqubeko: “ I love you” i wanted to see and touch him but instead he just
pulled a fist full of hair and pulled me to his chest. He was drilling in me
and whispering erotic words in my ear that my dam just broke. I shook
uncontrollably while he held my arms keeping a slow pace.

He untied me and turned me around to lay on my back. He entered me

again and my back arched. He linked our hands together and rode in that
slow pace, he rolled his hip and i opened my legs wider. He threw back
his head while licking his lips but he kept at that slow pace until we both
came. After that we were sweaty and panting.

Nqubeko: “ Next time i won’t take it easy on you” my eyes shot up even
after tiring session.

Me: “ Easy, that was easy? I don’t want you going hard on me at all” he
chuckled and got out if bed. I heard the shower running i groaned
because i knew that he was coming for me too. Not a second later a felt
him pull me by my legs.

Me: “ Can’t you like, go alone?” he chuckled and pulled me in his arms.
He lifted me up and we got to the bathroom. I thought that he was going
to put me down but nope, he pushed me to the wall and entered me yet
again.

Me: “ Are you trying to kill me?” i whispered as i moved my hips together
with his rhythm.


Nqubeko: “ No, you just feel so warm and snuggly. Its been days since i
had you plus this is our first love making session as Husband and Wife”
he leaned in and kissed me. The warm water from the shower falling on
our bodies, the sound of sex noises and this wonderful man all over me i
climaxed again. He pulled out and we finished washing. I saw his guy
was still standing.

Me: “ Don’t forget that i am still pregnant” he chuckled and pulled me for
a hug. We were wrapped in our towels.

Nqubeko: “ I am giving my baby nutrients. I want a big fat baby girl from
here” his hand went to my nana i backed away laughing.

Me: “ No no, i am tired Nqubeko let’s go sleep” we went to our bedroom

and we lotioned. We got in bed naked. He slept behind me with his guy
poking my ass. He slightly opened my legs and i complained.

Me: “ Nqubeko” i whispered and he started to move.

Nqubeko: “ Yes baby” i could ‘t even continue talking because he was

doing me so good that i heard myself saying deeper. He moved in that
same slow pace like before and then he stopped. He kissed the back of
my head.

Nqubeko: “ Sleep” i immediately fell asleep.

I woke up much later and Nqubeko wasn’t next to me. I checked the time
and it was just after 20h00. I took my phone and called mom. She
answered and she was giggling. I rolled my eyes because i knew that she
was with dad. Wait...; did i just say dad? Well she was with Busani. *rolls
eyes*

Mom: “ Hey baby, i didn’t see you later today, what happened?” i cleared
my throat.

Me: “ I had something to take care of and...” she giggled again.

Mom: “ Nqubeko was scratching an itch” i heard a stern voice saying “

Londiwe”

Mom: “ We’ll talk tomorrow sweetbun. Give my baby a kiss. I love you”
she hung up and i looked at my phone. I am the one who called her, I
wanted to know how she is but i guess she is good judging from all that
giggling.

Nqubeko walked in dressed in his pyjama bottoms and a vest. I pulled my

bottom lip in my teeth. He looked at me and smiled

Nqubeko: “ Don’t start because i can do you all night so please” that
wiped that smile off my face. I then started eating the food that was in the
tray that he placed in front of me. I have never had food that good. He
just sat there amused. I finished the food and downed it with the glass of
water. He took the tray and came back. He went to his closet and came
back with his t-shirt. He helped me put it on and we cuddled.

Me: “ Hello Mr Msomi” he chuckled and kissed my head.

Nqubeko: “ Hello Mrs Msomi” i was so full that i dosed off again. I was
woken up by a phone call it was mom. I sat up quickly causing Nqubeko
to also sit up.

Me: “ Mom are you okay?”

Mom: “ Your father asked me to marry him and i said yes.”



Insert 28
Londiwe

I woke up in a hospital bed with a pounding headache I wanted to

scream, I tried lifting up my head but I couldn’t since it felt heavy. I
moaned and second slater I saw Busani right in my face. He had aged a
lot and I knew it had to do with me being here.

Busani: “You’re awake, thank god. I was so worried about you. You
feeling okay?” I just groaned as tears fell down on the side of my face.

Busani: “Let me go get the Dr for you.” I held his hand as he was about to
turn away.

Me: “You are also a Dr nje” he gave me a weak smile before giving me a
long baby kiss. I felt my cheeks dampen, he was crying. He finally pulled
back and kissed my forehead before he went out the room. I lay in that
bed thinking how stupid I was driving in that state, I should have just
gone to the hotel but I guess I needed someone to cry with, hence the
PMB trip.
Busani came back followed by a Dr, his friend from way back. I know this
because he used to cover for him when we disappeared. His name is
Lunga.

Lunga: “Miss Londi, I see you are still driving my boy crazy here” I rolled
my eyes.

Me: “Well your boy is the reason why I am here in the first place” he
looked down in shame and I felt really bad instantly. Lunga just chuckled.

Lunga: “Both of you need to grow up. Your business is exhausting

because both of you are my family plus I love my kids oh so much” he
calls Sanele and Kwazi his kids. Busani and I just kept quiet but I could
see how pained he was. I wasn’t going to let him off the hook that easily
though. Lunga checked me out, just to see if there are any damages in
the body.

Lunga: “You need plenty of rest and to take it easy. You do not need the
stress Londiwe, considering you condition”

Busani: “What condition?” we just looked at him and ignored him.

Lunga: “Right, take it easy and I will see you later” he squeezed my
shoulder and walked out leaving me with Busani glaring at me.

Busani: “what condition, what I he talking about?” he fixed my pillows

helping me sit up. It was so painful.

Me: “I am hungry Busani, please get me some food” he looked defeated.

Busani: “won’t you talk to me, please?” he was at a brink of tears.

Me: “Get me food baby and I will tell you everything you need to know
okay?” I had to give him the soft tone because he was just going to mope
around and I wasn’t about to have a grown ass, big dicked man moping
around while I am in so much pain.

He looked at me and nodded. He gave me this long look I shifted

uncomfortably he gave me a side smile before kissing me again. He
pulled back and wiped my lips. He face was inches from my face.

Busani: “You have always been mine, I will make sure that I do
everything in my power for you to forgive me. I love you and I am sorry
that you are in here because of me. I will make it right, I promise you I
will make it right” he kissed me yet again before heading out. The minute
the door closed I let out a deep breath. What is this man doing to me? I
started dosing off, the injection that Lunga injected in the IV line was now
starting to work but I didn’t even get a chance to sleep because the door
burst open again. It was my children. Sanele looked so scared and
Nokwazi looked so broken I wanted to pull them in my arms.

Nokwazi: “Why didn’t you call us mom, as soon as you woke up?” I just
smiled.

Me: “I wanted you to find me awake; I guess that is why you found me
like this. How are you though?” she just started crying and I just knew
from that extra glow that she had that she was pregnant again. Thatha
Nqubeko.

Nokwazi: “I am so sorry mom, I really am. I didn’t mean all those things I
said to you. You are the best mom in the whole world and my world is not
complete without you in it. I am so sorry” I opened my arms and they both
ran into my arms. I comforted them and I just felt like home. We stayed in
that position until the door opened again, Busani came in. I saw a bit of
excitement in Sanele’s face but when he turned to look at his sister she
gave min an ugly look.

Busani: “Hello everyone” only Nqubeko replied and Sanele just smiled
looking at the floor.

Nokwazi: “We will see you late mom.” Busani just looked down with a sad
look on his face. Nokwazi kissed my cheek and walked out followed by
Nqubeko. Sanele also followed them but not before giving his father a
quick hug. He rushed out of the room leaving us confused.

Busani: “I got you your favourites and a fruit salad” I smiled because he
still knew exactly what I needed after all this time.


Me: “Are you sure that I am allowed to eat all this junk?” I opened the
packets that he bought and there it was strawberries and cream yoghurt.
My favourite double cream yoghurt. I took it out first. I looked at Busani
and he smiled, I held out my hand to him and he took out the spoon from
his back pocket. He pulled a chair and sat next to me watching me eat,
before I could even start the door opened and Sanele walked in slowly.

Sanele: “Mom, is it okay if I spend the rest of the holidays with dad? I
mean he is my dad and I would like to get to know him you know but only
if he wants to. I can’t force him to love me hey but if he does can he
please give me a chance to spend some time with him. I that he is busy
and…”Busani stood up and charged to Sanele like the speed of light. He
pulled him is his arms and they both cried together. The rest of the day I
spent it in bed sleeping because the guys had left, apparently they had
some things that they needed to talk about.

Later on I was woken up by them walking in and making noise with all
that laughing. Sanele couldn’t stop laughing and Busani kept pushing
him, causing him to laugh harder.

Me: “What’s going on?” the both turned and looked at me. Sanele gave
his father a push and you could see that he was forced. I wanted to laugh
so bad because he looked a school kid that had done something bad,
now he was scared of getting a beating.

Busani: “ I wanted to erm…. To ermm tell you something and…and…”

Sanele laughed harder holding on to his stomach. Busani was starting to
sweat and he turned to push Sanele off. They really looked like kids it
was starting to annoy me.

Sanele: “what old man dad here is trying to say is that he would like to
buy you a house and he has already bought you the Porsche. He was
going to give it to you on New Year’s Day but…” his father rushed to him
a put a hand over his mouth to stop him from talking. I could see that
Sanele was dead with laughter.

Busani: “This boy is lying, will you just stop?” he asked in between
laughs.

Me: “Don’t you want to buy me a house and the Porsche” Busani let go of
his son and walked to the bed with me. He took my hands in his and
kissed them. Sanele just hid his face before shouting.

Sanele: “eeeeew baby in the room” Busani took the roll of tissue and
threw it at him. Sanele ducked and laughed at him.

Busani: “Will you just stop, you are ruining the moment” Sanele just
placed a finger on his mouth but he wouldn’t stop giggling so he chose to
run out of the room and Busani let out the laughter he was holding in.

Me: “I forgot how childish you can get” he smiled and cleared his throat.

Busani: “I know that Nqubeko bought you a house so we will renovate it

and you will open your posh bed and breakfast. The house that I will but
you, we will make it our home. Londiwe I want to come home baby. I
know that I took long so please forgive me.” I had tears rolling down my
face.

Me: “I suppose I could give you a chance and you know...” I shrugged my
shoulders and he smiled. Sanele walked back in again but he first
showed his hand.

Sanele: “Are you guys decent?” he waved his hand and Busani chuckled,
he ran and stood behind the door. When Sanele pushed in the door his
father was already behind him. He shouted at him and Sanele screamed.
They both fell down on the floor laughing, aarrg they looked really stupid.


They were rolling on the floor until I threw a pillow at them.

Me: “You guys are such kids you know” Sanele stood up quickly and
came to me. He held my hand and kissed my cheek. I felt him slip
something on my finger.

Sanele: “So what’s left now is for you to say yes and marry him” I looked
at my finger and there was a ring but not just any ring. The ring that he
once gave me when we were young, I gave it back to him the last time I
saw him when I fell pregnant with Sanele. I rose up my eyes and looked
at him. Both of them were kneeling and I couldn’t help nor stop the tears
gushing down.

Me: “Yes you idiots, I will marry him”

Insert 29
Nokwazi

I woke up the next morning and i was very tired. My body hurt all over.
Nqubeko did a number on me. I looked to my side and he wasn’t next to
me. I groaned and went back to sleep. Just as i was about to sleep the
door opened.

Nqubeko got in with a tray on one hand and Siphe on the other arm. I
pulled up the sheet but Siphe started to cry as soon as he saw my boobs.
I got up and wore my gown. I took a 2 minutes shower. I soaped once
and i rinsed. I dried with ab big towel. Siphe was still crying. I wore my
panties and Nqubeko’s t-shirt. I sat on the bed and took him. As soon as
he started sucking his eyes started to close. As much as my son drinks
formula; he loved his breast milk.

Me: “ Morning” he smiled and gave me a deep kiss i had to push him off
laughing.

Nqubeko: “ I love you, you know that right?” i gave him a look and he
smiled. He went to take his shower. By the time he came back Siphe was
fast asleep. I put him in his other bed that was in our bedroom. I made
the bed; Nqubeko came and stood behind me. He started grinding me. I
was still sore from last night so i ran.

Me: “ Please stop. I am still sore” he frowned.

Nqubeko: “ I didn’t mean to go all hard on you. Let me see?” i giggled

shaking my head.

Me: “ You are sneaky Nqubeko Msomi but nope; i’ll be fine.” He nodded
and got dressed. We were going to see mom at the hospital. I really
wanted to hear what she meant last night when she said she is marrying
Busani. I went to take a now long deserved shower. I finished and found
Nqubeko seated on the bed. I started to lotion my body and he was
staring at me.

Nqubeko: “ You are fuckin sexy it’s not even funny. I mean i want to take
you to bed all day” i wore my jeans but he said i shouldn’t wear
something that will put strain on the baby so i wore a dress just to get him
off my case.

Me: “ Shouldn’t i be the one with a big sexual appetite? You just want to
get freaky any time now.” He laughed.

Nqubeko: “ I always want to get freaky but i don’t want to scare you off. I
will show you when we come back from the hospital” i looked around and
my breakfast was no longer there.

Me: “ Where is my food?” i was really hungry.



Nqubeko: “ In the kitchen, come your mom called. We should get going”
he pulled my hand and we went to the kitchen. We found mam Thuli
there. She warmed up my breakfast and i ate.

Me: “ Mah please take Siphe from my bedroom” she looked down
blushing.

Mah Thuli: “ Can you take him please? I am not supposed to enter your
bedroom sisi” she blushed some more and i chuckled. I looked at
Nqubeko and he went to take Siphe.

Mah Thuli: “ I see you have finally found out that you are with child” i
nearly choked.

Me: “ How did you know?” she just smiled and carried on with her
business. I finished eating and went to brush my teeth. I met Nqubeko at
the hallway as he was from putting Siphe to sleep in his room. We took
our things and headed for the hospital.

I was really hoping that i wouldn’t see Busani. I wasn’t in the mood for
him. I was lost in my own thought until i felt Nqubeko picking me up. I
screamed and laughed asking him to put me down.

Nqubeko: “ Where did you go?” he was smiling and i was still in his arms.
Imagine this, he was holding me in his arms at a hospital parking.

Me: “ Put me down baby” he kissed me and then put me down.

Nqubeko: “ What were you thinking about?” he took the flowers out of the
backseat. Mom said she doesn’t want any food. She wants flowers and
gifts.


Me: “ Busani. I am not in the mood to see his ugly face” he chuckled and
looked at me.

Nqubeko: “ You look just like him” he smiled and i gave him an annoyed
look. He pulled my hand and we headed inside. Did i mention that the
hospital we are in is owned by non other than our lovely Busani.

Nqubeko: “ Don’t be so hard on him and try to relax for...” i gave him the
hand.

Me: “ Nqubeko, please..” he nodded his head and we headed inside. We

got to mom’s ward and she was giggling away. There in the corner was
Sanele and Busani playing card games. When Sanele saw me he ran to
me and we hugged.

Me: “ I missed you” i brushed his head and he smiled.

Sanele: “ I missed you too sis. I will come see you tomorrow. Dad said
he’ll bring me” i rolled my eyes and went to mom. I totally ignored Busani
when he greeted me.

Mom: “ You really need to forgive and let go baby” i shook my head
countless times.

Me: “ Mom please; i didn’t come here to talk about that least of all him so
please can we just don’t...”

Sanele: “ What is your problem sis? Why won’t you give him a chance..” i
gave him the hand.

Me: “ Stay out of this Sanele. I didn’t come here for him unless you want
me to leave...”

Busani: “ Nokwazi i...” i saw red and i screamed.

Me: “ DO NOT TALK TO ME!!” i startled everyone and mom placed her
hand on top of mine.

Mom: “Let go baby. Give him a chance” i started crying. I felt Nqubeko
pull me in his arms.

Sanele: “ I really don’t know what your problem is, he is here and...” he
pushed too hard.

Me: “ Okay, you want me to let go. I will let go..” i took off my coat.

Mom: “ Baby, don’t...” i waved my hand at her.

Me: “ No mom, let me let go. I cannot forgive you Busani. Every time i
see you i think about how much my mother suffered. Wena Sanele, you
don’t know shit. How mom would give you her last bit of money for you to
eat. You would get “new” clothes but mom stole those clothes from
guests at the hotel just saw you could be happy” mom just wailed.

Me: “ I remember....i remember how mom would sneak in bread in our

bags just so we could eat. Her torn underwear that she would hide and
be embarrassed when i got inside her bedroom. She stole and she
suffered for us! Where were you Busani?” i was now crying. Sanele was
on his knees. Nqubeko tried to touch me.

Nqubeko: “ You need to calm down baby” i shook my head.

Me: “ Where were you when mom gave us food and watched us eat while
tears were rolling down her face? When she nearly lost her job because
she had to take a day off as she gave her last cent to us? When he
manager asked her for sexual favours just to giver her a raise? I should
forgive you???!! My mom suffered because of you. We had nothing and
you were just watching us. This excuse that you were always guarded is
just that, an excuse. You never cared about us and you know how much
mom loves you so...so....so...” my chest started to tighten and my
breathing was very fast. The room started spinning.

Nqubeko: “ Nokwazi!” i fainted afterwards

I woke up in a bed and Busani was next to me holding my hand. He was

kissing it. I cleared my throat and he lifted up his head. He had been
crying and i had a headache.

Busani: “ You scared me. Don’t ever do that again” he kissed my

forehead and i just let him. I no longer had the power to fight him off.

Me: “ Where is my husband?” he kissed my hand.

Busani: “ I asked him to give us time and some space” i huffed.

Me: “ I am hungry” he smiled and pointed with his eyes on my side. There
was a spur packet i quickly sat up. I started to eat, i offered him and he
shook his head. I ate and finished. He gave me a glass of coke.

Busani: “ This is a once off” i nodded and gulped it down. I burped after
that.

Busani: “ I heard you baby and i intend to make things right but i need
you to give me a chance. You mom has. All this time i thought i had done
your mother wrong the most but i hurt you very deeply. I am sorry my
angel. Please give me a chance to prove to you how sorry i am.”

Me: “ I am really tired and...” he hushed me.

Busani: “ One chance. That’s all i am asking baby. One chance” i

groaned.

Me: “ one chance. If you ruin it i won’t give you anymore. Trust me i will
shoot you” he engulfed me in a warm fatherly hug. I heard the door
open.

Sanele: “ Ncoooah happy family” we pulled apart laughing.

Busani: “ I am going to make you a daddy’s girl. Just watch and see” he
pinched my nose and i giggled. Trust me. He really did make me a
daddy’s girl.

Insert 30 season Finale

Nokwazi

Today marks 3 months since we started on building a relationship with

my father. He made it so easy because he was always on my case.
These hormones got the better of me and he suffers because i cry when
and call him. He comes running with my demands. Mom is also pregnant,
yes. They are expecting a child and she is 6 months pregnant and i am 4
months pregnant with twin girls. Today is also my parent’s wedding day.

Mom demanded to sleep with me much to dad’s frustration because they

haven’t been separate since the accident. Dad was frustrated because
his bed was vey cold and Sanele kept laughing at him. Those 2 are a
pain, dad and Sanele. They are forever laughing and joking around i just
get so angry. Siphe is now 8 months and he started holding on to the
coffee table attempting to walk. He is such a cute chubby baby, a yellow
fat boy like his father. Xoli and Nqoba had beautiful twin boys. So twins
run in the family.

Mom woke me up and she was rubbing my tummy. She does that all the
time. Why doesn’t she rub hers, i wonder. She was giggling and the
twins were kicking. I turned and looked at her. She had her eyes closed
so i closed my but seconds later i felt her tongue on my nose.

Me: “ Eeeww Mom!” She giggled hiding her face. She looked so beautiful
and so young. Oh did i mention that dad bought the hotel that mom used
to work in and gave it to mom as a birthday present? She was so happy
she cried the whole day.

Mom: “ Morning Bunny” i smiled and she kissed my cheek.

Me: “ Morning beautiful” she blushed. Yerr dad just made mom a sissy i
tell you. She is just too sweet and too much of a lady these days. She
hardly swears and she told me that dad fucked her to submission heee
the way i ran. I didn’t want to hear about it at all.

Mom: “ I am so happy Kwazi.” She started tearing up and covered her

face with her hands. I pulled her in my arms and we hugged.

Me: “ Dad is probably panicking. We need to get you ready” she huffed
and we both got out of bed.

The wedding was to take place at 11h00am and it was very close and
intimate. Only aunt Sena and her family were attending from dad’s side.
Mom’s siblings wanted to come but when mom went to see them it was
very emotional she ended up telling them they were better off dead.

We got out the bed and went to take a shower. We shared a shower and
we were slashing water all over.

Mom: “ You got a Brazilian!” she touched my nana and i slapped her
hand.

Me: “ You also got one” she winked.

Mom: “ I am getting married” i laughed.

Me: “ My husband loves it...” she put her hands on her ears.

Mom: “ Nooooo!” she screamed and i laughed.

We finally finished the shower and we dried our bodies. We went to the
bedroom and Xoli was already seated on the bed. I forgot to mention that
dad bought mom a house, in Ballito. As soon as we got in the room Xoli
started dancing and ululating

Xoli: “ Umakoti Ungowethu.(the bride is ours)” Mom was blushing non

stop.

Me: “ Uma Ethanda(if she wants to)” she gave me a weird look.

Xoli: “ Ungowethu ngampela(she is really ours)” she was even doing the
gwaragwara.

Me: “ Uma ethanda” she started getting angry.

Xoli: “ Uzosiwashela asiphekele(She will wash and cook for us)”

Me: “ Uma ethanda sitho yelele yelele uma ethanda” she stopped and
looked at me
.
Xoli: “ You are ruining the song yazi” she sat down afterwards fanning
herself.

Me: “ You are such a gogo though” we laughed and started getting ready.
My husband called me.

Nqubeko: “ Hello Mrs Msomi” i blushed.

Me: “ Hello my love. I miss you” he groaned because i used the tone that
made him melt.

Nqubeko: “ I miss you too. Are you guys anywhere near ready? Miss K
has her phone off and your dad is losing his mind baby” i giggled and i
heard dad in the background.

Dad: “ Is that Kwazi? *i heard shuffling* Kwazi baby, is your mom there?
She didn’t run away?” he sounded stresses shame.

Me: “ She is right here. You should see her dad. She is so beautiful dad”
he chuckled.

Dad: “ I can’t wait to see her. Tell her that i love her”

Me: “ I will tell her” there was silence.

Dad: “ I love you” he said it in a low tone. I understood because i knew

how difficult for us to get here.

Me: “ I love you too daddy” we hung up and i went back to mom.


Me: “ Your boyfriend is panicking” she turned around and she was breath
takingly beautiful.

Xoli: “ Well damn. I better hold on to my Nqoba” she giggled and covered
her face.

Me: “ You look so beautiful mom!” i hugged her.

We finished getting ready and Sanele knocked right on time. We were

having the ceremony right in our yard.

Sanele: “ I came to collect the most beautiful woman on earth.”

We went out and everyone was already waiting for us outside. Xoli and i
walked ahead. Dad was a weeping mess. I saw my husband and i
winked. Suddenly people stood up and Shania Twain Still the One started
playing:

Looks like we made it

Look how far we've come, my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday
They said, "I bet they'll never make it."
But just look at us holding on
We're still together, still going strong
(you're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(you're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

I must say dad picked well he said that he will pick the song and it was a
perfect one. Mom finally got to him; he was walked down by Sanele. Her
make up was ruined.

They started saying their vows and it was beautiful taking us back to how
they met and how far they have come. Everyone was in tears. They
finished and were announced as husband and wife. They sealed it with a
very long kiss i had to pull mom away. Everyone laughed

We took photos inside the house. In the kitchen, the lounge and by the
stairs. We also took some in the garden. I was so tired with the big
stomach and mom as well.

We had the reception and dancing. We were standing in a circle. My

parents and Nqubeko’s dad, Nqubeko; Nqoba and Xoli. We were making
noise and dancing.

Nqubeko was now getting drunk together with the guys and suddenly
mom gasped and her glass slipped from her hand. We all turned and
looked at the tent entrance. There was a man who looked exactly like
Nqoba but much darker. I saw Nqubeko’s dad’s face changing. All of a
sudden Xoli screamed; mom had fainted and there was a lot of blood on
her feet. She was losing the baby. She lost the baby.
THE END.