Lovely Jane D.

Semodio

11-HUMSS A

“Funeral”

Having a big brother is everyone’s dream. Having a very protective but  a sweet brother is a blessing.My
kuya is my blessing. He is always that funny, good looking and arrogant guy, but he knows how to be the
best brother in town, or world rather.

He’s already 10 years old when I was born. He was a fresh college graduate when I entered high
school. I am 17 years old and he is 27 years old when he left me,not temporarily but permanently. I
remember when we were just a kids, my kuya is my one and only playmate. He is my playmate when no
one wants to play with me. He plays with me even if he doesn’t want dolls, because for him every doll is
a chaka doll. My kuya is also good at dancing and in ramping. Whenever we bath  together, he always
put the dipper on the top of his head and act like a beauty queen. He will also dance like, marimar aww. 
You see, my brother is one of a kind. One time, I fell from a tree and instead of helping me, he laughed
at me .I hate him that day, because he made fun at me. Kuya is also the one who taught me how to fly a
kite .I can clearly remember, what he said to me that day, that we humans is like a kite, we can fly high
with the control of our creator which is God. He told me to keep my faith to our Almighty God because
he will help me and lead me to victory until I achieved my goals in life. And he promise me, that he will
be with me in every milestone I take in life. When I graduated Elementary he’s so proud of me, and
when I entered high school he’s the one who eased down my anxiety. He’s always cheering me up when
I’m so down. And tell me motivational words to encourage me to go on and fight for my dreams. Last
week, Thursday , before my kuya left our house he saw me being nervous because of the upcoming
informative speech that I will perform on our school. He sat beside me and said " Philippians 4:13 You
can do anything through Christ who gives you strength" after that he kissed my forehead that is so wide
according to him, he pinched my cheeks so hard and made fun of me again and that makes me
annoyed ,then we bid  our goodbye. I didn’t know that, that good bye is a permanent good bye, If I can
just turn back the time, I will not just sit there but I will hug him so tight instead of being annoyed for
him. If I just can play with him all day again, i will do that just to make him stay beside me. I will let him
laugh at me whenever I fall from a tree because it makes me happy whenever I saw him happy. Kuya, I
can’t do this anymore.I can’t continue living this world without you. I know that you are now in the arms
of our almighty father. But kuya, I wish I’m a kite so that I can be close to you there in heaven. Kuya you
told me that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. But kuya, you’re the strength God
gave me. How can I be strong without you? How can I face tomorrow without seeing your smile, and
having your motivational words that keeps me going. It’s so suffocating not having you here. It feels like
I’m alive but I’m slowly forgetting how to breath, I’m alive, but not having you here, makes me feel like
I’m walking dead, heartless because my heart was taken away by the man I love the most next to our
father.

I can’t accept it, I can’t accept that you’re gone. And I guess i will not be able to accept it
because it feels like if i accept your death, I am moving on. And I don’t want to move on. If I’m going to
move on, I want you to be at my side guiding me. But I know you’ll always guide me and mama. I love
you kuya. I will never ever bid my good bye to you .It’s see you again kuya. Save a space for me there. I
love you .I love you more than the lightyears wide of the universe.