Animal Urges: Women and Bestiality

Why would anyone want to have sex with anything other

than a human being? I scoured the Internet for female
bestiality performers and found lessons on desire and
deviance instead.

It's rumored that Linda Lovelace couldn't even say the word "dog" after she
was forced to fuck one. When Lovelace moved to New York with her infamous
pimp-husband, Chuck Traynor, she did 8mm films to earn the couple extra
money. Perhaps her most rare (and sought after by porn collectors) is her
bestiality 8mm.

"It was the lowest part of her life," said her biographer Mike McGrady in the
film The Real Linda Lovelace. "In all our dealings she could never say the
word 'dog' because of all that had been done to her in that 8mm film. She
would say 'd-o-g'; there's a 'd-o-g' over there."

Lovelace is the most famous female porn star to have ever participated in
bestiality on camera. There have been other semi-famous women to perform
sex acts on animals on film--like Chessie Moore and Kelly G'Raffe, as well as
transsexual star Monica Mattos--but none of these porn actresses were as
mainstream as Lovelace. Excepting communities of zoophiles, bestiality is as
taboo as pedophilia.

We all know the main argument for why inter-special mating between animals
and humans is wrong: common language. "Animals cannot talk, thus cannot
accuse the individual of forcing them to have sex with him/her against their
will," wrote Ramsis in his 1969 study, which is cited by sexual therapist and
author Dr. Hani Miletski in her book Understanding Bestiality and Zoophila.)
Furthermore, animals carry different diseases, genes, hormones; it's just too
obscure. Most people think it's biologically gross and morally wrong.

This is where I stood when I started this research. Why would anyone want to
have sex with anything other than a human being? But, as I logged into every
bestiality forum that would accept me, read all the comment threads,
uncovered all the theories from therapists, doctors, and sexologists, and
talked to some female zoophiles themselves, my thoughts changed. I'm not
for it, but their arguments started to seem...if not valid, at least
understandable. Did my nights on Beast Forum create a type of Stockholm
Syndrome? I mean, what's so wrong about desiring a reindeer? I found myself
thinking, horrified. How is having sex with a pig any crueler than murdering it
for bacon? What's worse, rape or murder? My logical self vacated for the sake
of an argument.

Why would anyone want to have sex with anything other than a human being?

Despite the perception of the practice as ethically corrupt, bestiality has

always been a part of human history, albeit quietly. According Dr. Miletski,
during the spring fertility of Babylon, men and women would use dogs (in
secret) for multiple-day orgies, exhausting the abused animal until it died.
Then, the dead dog's penis was cut off, hardened and dried, and used for
sexual escapades. The Egyptian Old Kingdom pharaoh Cheops, who is
famous for building one of the pyramids, often boasted about the passionate
sex he had with mares; one of the most famous orgies of ancient Rome
featured the goddess Bona Dea and a bunch of dogs. It's even documented
that one of Hitler's doctors at Auschwitz was obsessed with bestiality
experiments and tried to create a dog-woman hybrid from Jewish and Polish
females to use for manual labor. (We now know that, although a dog's sperm
will swim to a human female's egg, it cannot inseminate it.) According to
Miletski, it's also aggressively rumored that Hitler's wife, Eva Braun, had sex
with dogs for pleasure, which explains Hitler's fascination with his German
shepherds.

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In modern, post-war society, Denmark was the first country in Europe to

legalize bestiality, in 1969. Soon after emerged the queen of bestiality
pornography, Bodil Joensen, who grew up in rural Denmark with her religious,
abusive mother who did not allow her to communicate or converse with other
children.

Many would argue that this contributed to Joensen's sexual interest in

animals; Joensen was cut off from humans and found love in her family dog.
In a 1974 study on sexuality done for the Playboy Foundation, Morgan Hunt
said, "During early childhood, the human being is thoroughly imprinted and
taught to choose other human beings as love objects and, eventually, as sex
objects." So, Hunt argues, "most human-animal sexual encounters are
isolated or rare experiences of a primarily experimental nature, and are largely
confined to the early stages of life." Joensen saw her beloved dog as her only
friend and had her first sexual experiences with the animal as a teenager. She
left home at 15, eventually being taken in by a local farmer who let her help
out with the insemination of his pigs.

At this time Denmark was becoming a hub for outrageous pornography, and
its spearhead was director Ole Elge. Joensen acquired her own farm (which
she dubbed "Insemination Central"), populated it with every type of animal you
could imagine, and eventually called up Ege to do some work with him.
According to the 2006 British documentary "The Dark Side of Porn: The
Real Story of Animal Farm," Joensen herself suggested that Ege film her
fucking one of her animals. During 1969 to 1972 she made over 40 bestiality
movies, with Ege and another documenter eventually teaming up to film
Joensen's life on the farm in a film, "A Summerday" (called Animal Lover in
the US). The film was set to Beethoven and showed Joensen living amongst
her rabbits, cat, dogs, pigs, and horses as though she was an animal herself.
It won the grand prize in Amsterdam's Wet Dream Film Festival in 1970,
turning Joensen into an unlikely underground celebrity.

However, after years of allowing sex tourists to visit her farm and do they
pleased, the world lost interest in the "queen of bestiality." Joensen eventually
faded from prominence, lost her farm (due to neglect), and even spent time in
jail. After police killed her beloved dog Spot, she got into prostitution and
turned to cherry wine and sedatives to cope with her depression.

"In my situation it's very hard to turn down the most disgusting propositions,"
Joensen said in an interview before her death, referring not to sex with
animals but to paid sex with men. "For me, staying alive in the hooking
business is hell." She wore a locket sporting a picture of Spot around her neck
until the day she died.

When I started this research my goal was simple: to talk to a woman who has
had sex with an animal for either pay or pleasure. Male zoophiles dominated
Miletski's statistics (she had 80 male participants and 11 female), and I wasn't
interested in interviewing yet another pale German man about all the
"beautiful, reciprocal" lovemaking he shares with his mutt.

I chased every connection in the porn world I had, following leads that left me
dead-ended in the same place: Any female performer who had done bestiality
porn was dead, had mysteriously fallen off the map, or was working in Brazil
and unresponsive to my requests for contact. I met a friend of a friend who
had leads to female bestiality performers in Germany, but he lost touch when
the girls were weary of talking. Chessie Moore (the MILF porn star who moved
to quiet Kansas after her breasts erupted) was too busy webcamming to
return my pesky messages about her past in dog films.

Defeated and without a subject, I turned my focus to those who fucked

animals for pleasure, not pay, and dove deep into Beast Forum, the biggest
international zoophilia chatroom going. The interface was outdated, like an
Angelfire site from the early 2000s, but thousands of people are active daily.
When I originally signed up for a profile, I forgot to change my gender to
female and was shot down by almost any woman I approached in a chat
room. I was honest about why I was there and batted down constantly. "I have
no interest in talking to you for your work," one lady retorted. This was the only
place I was going to find an experienced zoo, so I filled out my profile page
accurately as though I was on OkCupid and hit the chatrooms the next night. I
offered my thoughts in public threads and spent hours integrating myself into
the site. Suddenly, a few females were willing to open up with me. I quickly
discovered women were mostly about having a relationship to animals rather
than having sex with them, as Miletski would attest.

"I'm generalizing here, but in my clinical studies women are less interested in
sexually deviant behavior," Miletski had told me over the phone weeks before
my foray onto Beast Forum. "The women that were in my [bestiality] study
actually cherished the relationship to their animal partner. That was a big part
of the whole appeal to these women, and all their partners were male dogs."

Zoophilia and bestiality are, by definition, different. According to most

dictionaries, zoophilia is defined as "extreme love for animals, specifically
abnormal sexual attraction to animals," whereas bestiality is not about love,
but just sex: It is "any sexual relations between a person and an animal."
Zoophiles will often proudly acknowledge they are just that, while some
people who sodomize animals are very careful to define they are not, nor ever
will be, zoophiles.

I logged into Beast Forum at night, when most of the action happened, and I
trolled discussion groups: "Does Your Partner Know You Are Into Bestiality?",
"A Wife's Priority: To All The Married Ladies Out There," "Hey Housewives,"
and pages and pages of forums on the stigma facing zoophiles who keep their
sexual orientation secret from the "normals" in their lives. For some, it is just
that: a sexual orientation. They argue they could not change even if they
wanted to (and most do not.) For a lot of women in the discussion groups,
their zoophilia started with some kind of fucked-up rejection from humans.
One girl confessed that when her older boyfriend humiliated her after his wife
caught her blowing him, she wished men were more like her loving dog, and
then just ended up making the dog her boyfriend. Others wrote about life after
divorce and finding calm, comfort, and great sex in their animal lovers.

The women that were in my [bestiality] study actually cherished the relationship
to their animal partner.

Other women spoke of the secret oral sex their family dogs gave them when
their husbands went to work. "My hubby does not know and probably never
will," MochaMilkMaid explained. "It's very exciting to know that we will have
our fun. My heart is usually thumping a mile a minute before our time
together." Other husbands knew, watched, videotaped, and loved being
involved. There were public threads, years long, debating topics like jealousy
their boyfriend's felt over the animals, love, and basic bestiality techniques;
the animal lovers are always dogs, a disproportionate number German
shepherds. They spoke openly about how oral sex with a dog was
incomparable to sex with a human.

But despite the pages and pages of insider information, my mind was
breaking in half. Why animals? How?

"I've never fallen in love with an animal that didn't return the love," one woman
wrote. Most people on the message boards and in Miletski's study said the
same thing. People can reject you, tell you to fuck off; an animal can't
disappoint you the way a human being can. Your relationship to a dog can't
deteriorate over money problems or jealousy or sexual disinterest. It can't fall
"out of love" because it never was in what we define as love in the first place.
A sexual relationship with an animal is basic, simple, and never emotionally
exhausting. On the flipside, you cannot keep a person hostage under your
domestic rule the way you can an animal. Although no zoophile on Beast
Forum confessed to seeing her relationship as having a power dynamic, there
is no way it wouldn't be.

"People [on Beast Forum] are desensitized to the oddity of [bestiality],

because you all have this forum and each other," wrote lilknottyone.

It's weird folks, don't deceive yourself. Sex is seen as a subject for behind
closed doors no matter the [sexual] preference and zoophilia is one of the
oddest of sexual taboos. You can site stories from the past or say look at all
the members on this site, it's more common than you think, but you are only
foolin' yourself to make yourself feel better. Since most of the population see's
fucking an animal as not normal, it therefore is not normal. Like it or not
majority rules. [all sic]

That same user and I got to talking in a private chat. In fact, she was one of
the only women willing to talk with a curious writer, even though she refused
to disclose anymore than her username. It took days of coaxing. "I think you
might be quite disappointed with me," she wrote. "I believe normal to be a
mathematical myth. I will not embellish for your enjoyment nor will I answer
any question that I feel is too personally intrusive. That being said, I welcome
your questions."

Lilknottyone told me she is not a typical zoo; she eats meat and has "never
been in love with an animal," despite having had various sexual relations with
them since the age of 5, when she would play with the family poodle's penis.
"I am just highly sexual," she told me. "When curiosity hit, I would explore.
Kind of like masturbating, but with another. Ninety-nine percent of my sexual
activities involve other adult humans of both sexes. I am not an exclusive zoo
by any means."

Lilknottyone said only her partner knows about her bestiality and that they do
it together. ("To be honest, a man fucking a female dog [or] mare creeps me
out beyond belief. It makes no sense, but I don't know there seems something
wrong about it," she wrote to me one night when we got onto the subject.) She
doesn't tell anyone else in her daily life, and this chat room--no matter how
filled with deceptive folks looking for "attention or sexual gratification"--is still
appealing to her for community. (She's posted 865 public threads.) As
someone who partakes in bestiality and is not a full-on zoophile like Joensen,
she reflects somewhat objectively on her own inter-special sex as a taboo as
dark as pedophilia.

"Deviance may be a strong word, because it's wrong to some, but the
deviance behind it is the turn on," she told me. "But if I had not seen a dog
consent or even initiate sex, I too would think they are unwilling partners.
There are individuals who harm [other] animals, just like adult harm adult and
adults harm children, but most people don't. There are many reasons people
have sex with animals and not all stem from metal dysfunction...says the girl
who fucks dogs, haha."

Deviance may be a strong word, because it's wrong to some, but the deviance
behind it is the turn on.

Before our weeklong discussion came to an end, Lilknottyone warned me

about talking to other people on Beast Forum. "If this is really for a piece you
are working on, most [users] will think you are full of shit and either play with
you, or try to convert you, thinking you are secretly interested in fucking your
dog, or that you are an undercover cop. LOL. Use your instinct and gut feeling
about who is lying."

During her peek of acceptance and popularity, Joensen did a bestiality advice
column in SCREW magazine, helping other curious zoo females intimate sex
with animals safely. In one entry, a reader asked her what the point was in
sucking off a pig, since the semen "is so thick and clots so fast and it can stick
in your throat and choke you to death."

Joensen responded with a beauty tip in broken English. "But don't you know
the semen is making a beautiful cold cream compress for the shinningness
[sic] and smoothness of the face skin? No pimples any more I am having
since this wonderful discovery."