Holy Spirit Mass Reflection Paper

As we start a new school year, it has made me realize that indeed I am already
in my 3rd year in college. During our few meeting from our major subjects in
accounting, I find it hard to cope up and understand the lesson very well given
the fact that I wasn’t able to attend our summer class. I find it hard to adjust my
sleeping patterns and also it is hard to balance being a student and having
responsibilities at home at the same time. With just a span of one week, I saw
myself crying at 3am. Thinking about what could possibly happen to me this
semester. I ranted and told the Lord what my heart is feeling. As I listen to the
homily, I’ve realized one thing, so I questioned myself. “Is the Holy Spirit within
me?” as what Father said a while ago, even the apostles has its own share of
trials, even Jesus himself was challenged, even Jesus himself also did struggle
so who am I to be exempted? I asked myself “why am I still in my program?”, and
asked the Lord “What is your purpose in bringing me here?” “Is this really the
path you wanted me to take?” Weird as it is but then there is really something in
me that somehow knows the answer. It is so important to understand that a life
with Christ, a life accepting the Holy Spirit and a life committed to the Lord is
never easy. It takes a lot of discipline, courage and faith. Faith that is not blind.
Faith that knows how this life is not just full of colorful rainbows but also storms.
Faith that trusts, that even when you no longer know what your purpose really is,
still you believe that God placed in that position because he has plans and a faith
that comforts. Even when you don’t know why you’re breaking inside, still your
faith in him comforts the pain you are feeling.