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Sail back to me
Even the dark caught you
Even the sea swallowed
With the mighty tides.
I’m drowning in the
Vastness of emptiness.
To strive me to life
Sail back to me.
Aspiration
You sail back to me
With thousand sun
And with the beauty
Of a splendour moon.
You come in the
Chariot of clouds
To my dreams
Wakes me with
Kiss on my forehead.
August sixteenth, 2006, could not have been a colder day for
Gregory Donatello. His life of dirty work for the Mafia had
changed after being arrested in a no-name town for drunk and
disorderly behavior. And despite not knowing this town's name,
the local police force knew his name all too well. Though, they
did not have the courthouse to try him under. So instead, an
escort was phoned in to take him to the nearest city. Today is
the day that escort arrives. "It's not too late, officer." Gregory
spoke while confined to his cell. "The offer still stands."
"You and I both know your assets are frozen. Besides what
moron would let the prisoner go the morning a S.W.A.T force
is supposed to come collect him?"
"I was kinda hoping you'd be that moron." Gregory said while
leaning against his cell door. Marston simply glared up at him
before returning to reading his paper. "So that's it? You're not
even up for negotiation here?"
"Look at the shield, conman." Marston answered, pointing to
the sheriff's badge on his chest. "I sport it for a reason."
"In a no name town. Come on. I can make you a big deal."
And for the first time in two days, Gregory said something that
caught Marston's attention. The sheriff folded his paper up and
stood up from his desk. Slowly walking his way over to
Gregory's cell. "Go on." Marston told him.
"I know too much. Too many names. That amount of money
from that many pockets that go that deep... You're sending me
down the green mile before I even get a fair trial if you don't let
me out." Gregory pleaded.
"We can protect you. You just gotta work with us." Marston
offered.
"I get it Marston, you're a clean cop. Straight edge, make your
bed every morning. All that noise. But how many of them do
you think would've shot down the offer? Not just mine, but
those who will have me dead before I can speak?"
"Prisoner doesn't feel safe alone with you fellas. And I have an
obligation to protect him until he has his fair trial." Marston
answered.
"My squad car gets sixty-five on the gallon. Nearest city is six
hours from here. And tailgating isn't a crime."
"He likes you." West told the duo when he knew the
commander was out of hearing range.
All the while, the commander returned to his passenger
seat. The driver looked at him. "Carry on luggage?" He asked,
only for the commander to answer in silence. "You told him it's
a one way trip, right? We aren't his taxi."
"With all do respect, sir. You're an ass." The duo share a laugh
as they begin their way back down the road. Flipping a U-turn
with the squad car right behind them.
"No, no. This is great. We can all die together now." Gregory
answers. "You, me. The Men In Black here. And, oh hey, they
even provided a coffin on wheels for the special occasion."
"Sounds like they're having fun back there." The driver said.
"Try working with him." The officer seated next to West added
while pulling out a pack of cigarettes from his vest. "These'll
help take off the edge though. Anyone?" He offered.
"Oh!" West let out. "South could take a light for his cigarette
with that burn."
"Is now really the best time for that? In this place?" Marston
asked.
"I'm not the one who has issue with you smoking." Gregory
answered. "That's Andy Griffith over here." Marston turned to
Gregory to give him a glare.
"That'd imply we're working together. Or, at the very least, are
on the same team." Marston pointed out.
"Hey! The both of you knock it-" South stops as the four of
them then fly out of their seats.
The truck had flipped into a ditch on the side of the road.
Snow surrounding it. The doors to the back swing open.
Marston is the first to climb out. Then Gregory with West
tailing behind him. "What happened!?" West shouted. "North
you bastard, where'd you get your license!?" He panted heavily.
"Is this snow?" West asked as he caught his breath while
looking up.
"In August?" South asked while climbing out of the truck.
"Mountain man, is it usually this cold up here?... Mountain
man?" South received no answer as Marston was busy going to
the commander.
"Hey, hey! Stay with me." Marston told the dazed commander.
Blood trickling down his nose as some of it is smeared on the
deflated airbag in front of him.
"I know. I know." Marston assured him. "Can you tell me what
happened?"
"They ain't come to save you, conman. But I did." Marston said
as he cocked the shotgun. Gregory looked at him in disbelief.
"I wear this badge for a reason." Marston finished as he took
aim at the figure in the distance once again. West and South
join him in forming their own fire squad between the stranger
and Gregory.
About the Author
I know, you may feel like to commit suicide. I know that life
has been a roller coaster for you. I know that you want to cry,
you want to scratch the walls around, you want to beat someone
to their death, you want to scream around. But it’s ok! It's ok
because I know how this feeling is; I know that how it feels
when your family members or when your friends are against
you. I know this feeling of loneliness. If you want to commit
suicide and end up your life, then go for it…. yeah just do it.
And I also know that you might be right or you might be wrong.
I won't stop you from doing anything. I know these all feelings
because we might be on the same boat or maybe not but just the
difference is the time gap. I won't say that everything will be ok
because long back ago, even I tried to suicide and also tried to
run away......but failed!! So, you can go and do that.... but before
that just remember one thing; just One single thing!!! If you
tried to harm yourself, it can happen that no one around you
will cry or it can also happen that someone will realize the
mistakes. But if you end your life then you won’t be able to
prove yourself and you will just let the cruel or should I say
devils.... you will just allow the devils around you to win and
nothing else. Just recall the day when you started realizing the
fact that people around you are cruel.
Recall that moment when you realized that the magic shows,
fairytales.... these all are just man-made illusions. Just recall the
moment when you realized that love does exist but only in
televisions, movies, books, or in our dreams. Now recall the
time when you started to go against the fact that GOD does not
exist in the world.
Now I am sure that lots of things might be running around your
mind. So let it run. Let it run and think.... just continue thinking
because these are the strengths that you need right now. You
can call it a lecture; you can call it a healer....
call whatever you feel like. But just remember one thing, “Not
for your parents or not for your siblings, not for your bf or gf,
not for the guardian around you...if you want to continue the
struggles just do it for yourself, not for any bloody show-off. If
you want to give up then just do it, and if you want to continue
then also it's fine.... whatever your decision is.... whether to die
or to survive... whatsoever it is, just be true to yourself." If you
continued this time, then just fight.... fight as much you can....
fight till your last breath and let your mind decide what's good
and what’s bad for you. Never let others decide it for you. Never
choose society on top of anything, choose the correct things....
many will oppose, many will try to rule your subconscious
mind, but don't let others rule your subconscious mind. Over
time, I just realized that the power of the subconscious mind is
as strong as the word love. Just the difference is love can be our
strength but only whenever we need it..... and our subconscious
mind is our strength throughout our life. Just trust yourself and
go for it. You can rule the world and change the customs of the
so-called society if you want.... yeah it will take time but it will
happen and that's for sure. Rule your tears and just don't dare
allow them to fall in front of anyone who doesn't value your
tears. You're are special and so your tears are. Just try to love
yourself and trust yourself.
Imperfectly Perfect
Some say, “You did great things leaving things behind, you need
to move on in life; you should get used to it because life is
tough.”
But no one ever says, “I don’t know how are you and I also don’t
know the process by which you are trying to overcome.”
Some people will say, “Stay here.... just go with the flow, time
will heal everything”. Try to ignore them. Try to ignore them
because sometimes going with the flow doesn’t work. Yeah, it’s
true that searching for some answer is tough but doesn’t mean
staying still in one direction and waiting for the opportunity to
arrive.
Some people say, “don’t run from the truth, face the truth; you
should always know the other side of the coin too.” Don’t listen
to them either. You can run from things if you want to run,
then run...run until you forget things. If going away from the
things which are bothering you is the only way for you at the
moment, then do run.
Some will say, “God will handle everything, don’t stress out
yourself too much. Stressing out yourself won’t help you.”
Avoid that too if needed. If you want to stress out yourself then
do it...if you don’t want to sleep then don’t. Sometimes giving
time to yourself and your thoughts is all you need.
Avoid people who say, “I know exactly how you feel.” Because
no one knows how you felt remembering something precious
and memorable. No one knows how you killed yourself every
single day. Yeah, the story might be the same, the healing
process of every person is different.
The best teacher is “Life”
The people with whom we had our best of the best time. The
people with whom we created best memories once; Our heart
wants to love them until last breath,
But our mind ends up hating them for leaving us behind with
the best memories.
Our minds just wants to hate them so that they can be erased
from our hearts too.
Wanna Kill Yourself?
Just imagine this
You come home from school one day. You’ve had a pathetic
day. After coming home, you had a fight with your mom
too. You come to your room and are just ready to give up. You
are just ready to give up on everything and just wanna kill
yourself.
You close the door and take out the pen and paper and you pen
down every single thing so that no one is left behind with guilt.
You write about every single pain you went throughout this life.
And as now the suicide note is ready, you are not set to give up.
So here you go, you took out that small blade you kept inside
your school bag and the small bottle of pills. You took all of
them and now it’s time for you to go into a deep sleep. Laying
down, holding the letter to your chest with the bottle and the
blade next to you.
anything except hating himself for not telling you how beautiful
you are. And now let’s come to your best friend. She can’t
believe that the last time you discussed about this, you were so
damn serious. She knew what you were going through, but
didn’t knew that it would get this worse…. worse enough for
you to end up your life. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything.
She stands still as a statue for sometimes and suddenly walked
out of the assembly room and just sinks to the floor. Shaking,
wants to scream out loud but can’t do so. She didn’t had tears
in her eyes because she was shocked. Few days later, at your
funeral, the whole school and your so-called relatives who used
to taunt you for every single thing you did came. But this time
they had tears for you, because they were so wrong. Everyone
knew you, that girl with a bright smile can handle everything
including all the bullshit gossips and taunts of every stupid
people. Most importantly the immaturity that can take the most
matured decisions of life is no more.
Nightmares become worst when it converts into
daydreams.
There’s a saying, “when you think about it, you can also
achieve it.” So if we think about the bad things which didn’t
happened yet, it will not only affect our present but equally it
will affect our future, so try not to allow bad dreams come in
between the beautiful dreams…. try to think about something
positive and beautiful.
Childhood Memories
Not all the poems are written to be read. Some hold the
pieces of you.
Some hold the unsaid emotions.
They don’t have to know the hidden meaning of your pillow
talk.
They don’t have to know the back story of your scars.
Some poems are written to release the burden of emotional
storm.
Not all poems are written to be read. Some are written to be
heard.
Some are written to be healed.
Laugh little more.
Dance little more.
Life is beautiful,
Enjoy it little more.
Groove on your beat little more. Twirl little more.
It is your life,
Love it little more.
Roam little more.
Enjoy the rain little more. It’s your life,
Live it little more.
Do what you love little more. You are the sunshine,
Be happy little more.
In the process of making other happy don’t
Forget you too have a soul who wants to be happy, who wants
to fly.
Never hurt yourself for others who don’t value you.
About the Author
Abigail
A full stop is not a symbol of an end, it’s the
sign of a new beginning
Lynn was a young maid who lived alone in deep forests. All
she knew was, her little cottage, few robes for herself and the
little porridge that she fed herself daily. She had a routine to
wait for someone near the small door which regularly comforted
her saying, there would be none to come…. For quite a long
time her days passed this way.
For her great surprise she found a small lake which led to an
island. She got on to a small boat which was tied near the lake
and rowed the boat quite long to reach the island and in the late
evening she reached the island, after a long journey she was very
hungry and tired. She tirelessly walked further in the island. For
the first time in her life she saw a creature which looked like a
moving bubble coming running to her. She was frightened but
she doesn’t feel like getting back since for the first time she
found a hope. She stood and gazed at the big bubble and slowly
went close to the bubble. Her heart was panting fast and sweat
peeped out from every pore with anxiety. She was quite near the
bubble and starred at the bubble for a long time the bubble and
the maid starred at each other, gradually she saw many bubble
coming up from a deep can. Suddenly she realized, she was
surrounded by a huge family of big and small bubbles.
After a long pause one of the tiny bubbles came with some
water offering to the maid, with much hesitation she drank the
water and was still in a dilemma about herself. Gradually each
and every bubble started smiling at her and she felt comforted.
In few days Lynn got lots of friends and she was almost into a
new family her wish came true, she was no more a single lonely
maid, but she had a big bubble family. She was so happy that
she wanted this to be her life forever. Days and months passed;
she was now a part of the bubble family.
There was a giant huge bubble who was the chief head of the
bubble family, he had gone on hunting for a long time and he
returned back after a very-very long time. This huge giant
bubble was a cunning hunter, he was greedy that he wanted to
kill Lynn and eat her. He never expressed his thought to
anybody in his family instead he welcomed the girl with much
love Hearing this, the grandson of the Giant Bubble felt
suspicious, as he knew that his grandfather was a cunning
bubble man and could never be loving to anybody.
The lil bubble told Abigail about his cunning grandfather, but
she refused to believe. The whole clan got to know the state of
Lynn and forced her to go away back to her town.
Now Abigail was lost in the jungle knowing not where to go.
She had lost the way to her cottage.
The sun shone the next morning, the day started as usual. The
morning was beautiful and pleasant.
She found a clear lake nearby. She fetched herself some water
and started playing in the water. As the day headed, she was now
pondering about her state.
She heard someone speaking and she felt that the language was
somewhat familiar to her. She ran towards the place from where
the sound came and she found none. Meanwhile she found a
colorful fruit, she plucked it and started to eat. She again heard
the same sound of a human. She again ran to see who it was.
She failed this time also. She was now confused if she was
dreaming or if she really heard the voice. She sat thinking and
hoping to hear the sound again.
By evening she again heard the same voice very close to her. This
time she did not run towards the voice but she ran in the
opposite side and found a beautiful lady cladded in a colorful
robe talking to a small baby. She was happy that she found
someone whom she could speak to, but she was scared too.
She was now in a dilemma, the beautiful lady saw Abigail and
dragged her to the lake nearby. Confused Lynn started crying
aloud thinking she was in danger. She could not rescue herself.
When they approached the lake, she stopped crying and there
was a great silence for a long time.The beautiful lady looked
herself and Lynn into the lake and found that they both looked
alike.
Abigail now realized that she found her mother whom she
thought was dead. Abigail bubbled with joy and her mom
embrassed her and kissed her.
It was a great moment of love joy and gay. Lynn, her mom and
her little sister lived together forever happily
It was a great hope for Lynn to find a new bubble family but it
was not permanent for her. When she was forced to leave the
clan, it seemed to be the end of all but, it wasn’t really an end.
It actually let to a new beginning of a permanent story.
एक तनू े ही नही,
मेरे लदि ने भी धोखा लकया है,
मझु े मेरे लजस्म में रहकर,
मेरी लिन्दगी को उसके नाम लकया है....
इश्क तेरे नाम का
हाूँ मझु े पसंद है तेरी नादालनयाूँ, हाूँ मझु े पसंद है तेरी मनमलनयां,
वो तेरी जल्ु िों का बादि, तेरे नैनों का काजि,
हाूँ मझु े पसदं है, मेरे लकस्सों में शालमि तेरी हर कहालनयाूँ
वो लबन बात तेरा लबगड़ जाना, वो लबन बात मझु से रूठ जाना,
हाूँ मझु े पसंद है तेरी आूँखों की हर गस्ु ताखीयाूँ
और कुछ हो ना हो तेरे मेरे दरलमयान,
कम्बख्त लहचलकयों का लसिलसिा अब भी जारी है,
वक़्त ठहर जाता है तेरी यादें देखकर,
लक यादों में अब भी वही खमु ारी हैं!
मेरी सोहबत में रह कर, मेरे रंग में रंगने िगे है,
थे खामोश से जो िफ्ज, आज मझु से कहने िगे है,
तनहाइयां भी लखि उठती है, जो हौिे से मसु कुराते हो तमु ,
लदि के समदं र में अब वो, लकसी दररया सा बहने िगे है
लखिलखिाते आगं न का अरमान है बेलटयाूँ ,
ममता भरे आचं ि में, शलक्त का वरदान है बेलटयाूँ,
इन्रधनषु के रंग सी वो, नदी के लनमदि जि सी वो,
कभी जननी, कभी साथी, कभी पगड़ी का अलभमान है बेलटयाूँ