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‫ﻧﺒﺬﺓ �ﻌﺮ�ﻔﻴﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﺗﺒﺔ ﻭﻟﺪﺕ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﻣﺎﺭﻏﺮ�ﺖ ﺩﺍﻝ �� ‪ 6‬ﻓ��ﺍﻳﺮ‪�� ، 1890‬‬

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‫ﻟﻮﺍﻟﺪﻳﻦ ﻧﺮﻭ َ‬
‫�ﺠﻴ�ﻥ؛ هﻤﺎ ﺑﻴﺪﻳﺮ ﺩﺍﻝ‬ ‫ﻣﻴﻥﻴﺎﺑﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺇ�ﻐﻴﺒﻮﺭﻍ هﻮﺟﺴﻱﺚ ‪َ .‬‬
‫هﺎﺟﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﺔ ﺭ�ﻨﺪﺍﻝ �� هﺪﻣﺎﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪،‬‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻣﻴﻥﻴﺎﺑﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﻋﺎﻡ ‪ 1880.‬ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﻋﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻃﻔﻮﻟ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺿﻌﻒ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃ��ﺎ ﺍﻣﺘﻠﻜﺖ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻋﺎﺭﻣﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ �� ﺃ�ﺸﻄﺔ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻣﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻤﺜﺎﺑﺮ��ﺎ ﻧﺝﺡﺖ �� ﺗﺤﻘﻴﻖ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺿﻌﻒ‬
‫ﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻟﺪ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﻜﺲ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻮﻗﻌﻪ ﻵﺍﺧﺮﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛﻤﻠﺖ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﻭﺣﺼﻠﺖ‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻣﻲ ‪ 1912‬ﻭ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﺒ�ﺎﻟﻮﺭ�ﻮﺱ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ �� ﻋﺎﻡ ‪ 1912.‬ﻭ��ﻥ‬
‫‪1922‬ﻋﻤﻠﺖ �� ﻋﺪﺓ ﻣﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﺛﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺍﳌﺎﺟﺴﺘ�� ﻣﻦ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ �� ﻋﺎﻡ ‪ 1923.‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻣهﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ �� ﻗﺮ�ﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ �� ﻭﺍﺩﻱ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺕ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﺎﺫﺓ ﻟﻸﺩﺏ �� ﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﻭﻏﺴﺘﺎﻧﺎ ��‬
‫ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ‪ ،‬ﺳﺎﻭﺙ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻣﺎﺭﺳﺖ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ هﻨﺎﻙ ﳌﺪﺓ ‪ 13‬ﻋﺎﻣﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻟﻘﺖ ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮﺍﺕ �� ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺔ ﺍﳌﺮﺃﺓ ﻭﺷﺎﺭﻛﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﺩﺛﺎﺕ ﻹﺍﺫﺍﻋﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺩﺍﺭﺕ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﺜﻘﺎﻓﺔ‬
‫ﻗﺪﻣﺖ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﺩﺍﻝ ﺇ�� ﻣﺎﻳﻮ �ﻠﻴﻥﻴﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﻟﺒﺙﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺔ �ﺥﺼﻴﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫�ﻞّ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺎهﺎ ﻭﻋﺮﻓهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻧﺝﺡﺖ ﻛﻄﺎﻟﺒﺔ ﻭﻛﻤﺪﺭّﺳﺔ ﻟﻠّﻐﺎﺕ ﻭﻷﺍﺩﺏ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ّ‬
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‫ﺿﻌﻒ ﺑﺼﺮهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻔﻘﺖ ﻋ�� ﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﺎ��ﺎ ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻃﻤﻮﺣهﺎ ﻟﻠﻨﺠﺎﺡ‬
‫ﻏﺮ�ﺰ�ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺪﻓﻮﻋﺎ ﺑﺈﺭﺍﺩﺓ ﻻ ﺗﻠ�ﻥ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺒﻘﺖ ﺍﺳﺘﺤﺪﺍﺙ‬
‫ﻔﻮﻑ ﻣﺨﺼّﺼﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺍﺑ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﺗﺖ ﻣﺘﺎﺣﺔ ﻵﺍﻥ‬
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‫ﻇﻞ ﺃﻭﺿﺎﻉ ﻣﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺫﻭﻱ ﻻﺍﺣﺘﻴﺎﺟﺎﺕ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻّﺔ �� ﻣﺪﺍﺭﺳﻨﺎ ﻷﺍهﻠﻴﺔ ‪ّ ��.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺨﻄﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺪﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻏ�� ﻣﺴﻤﻮﺡ ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺣﻘﻘﺖ ﻋﻼﻣﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻭﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻀ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﺗﺤﺪﺛﺖ ��‬ ‫ﺗﻜﻦ ﺣﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﻭ�ﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻋﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴﻨ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺳﺒﺎﺏ ﻣﺜﺎﺑﺮ��ﺎ �� ﻭﺟﻪ ﺍﻟﻈﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﻭﺋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺫﻟﺔ ﺟهﻮﺩﺍ ﻓﺎﻗﺖ‬
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‫هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻓﻄﺮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻷﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺯﻣﻼ��ﺎ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﺪ��ﺎ ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﻧﺏﻴﻠﺔ ‪.‬‬
‫َ َ ْ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﻋ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ُﺗﺒﺼﺮ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻓﺄﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻛﻢ ﺃﻛ�� ﺎﻥ ﻟهﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﻘﻖ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫�ﺴ��ﺳﻞ ��‬
‫!� ﺳﻨﻮﺍ��ﺎ ﻷﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﺻﺎﺭ ��‬ ‫ﺟﻴﺪ‬‫ﺑﺬﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﻭﺍﳌﺜﺎﺑﺮﺓ ﻣﻊ ﺇﻣﺘﻼﻙ ﺑﺼﺮ ّ‬
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‫ﺪﻭﺭهﺎ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺃﺡﺝﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﺏ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺭﺍﻥ ﻭﻷﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺤﻤﻠهﺎ ﻷﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﻠﻤﺲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ ��‬‫ﻭﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻣﻌ�ﻯ ﺍﻣﺘﻼﻙ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻀﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﻢ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻱﺲ هﺬﺍ هﻮ ﺳﺏﺐ ﺗﺄﻟﻴﻒ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ‪ُ.‬ﺨ�� ﻵﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺩﺍﻝ‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺍﺀهﺎ �ﻌﺒﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺔ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺣﻘﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﺎﺡ ﺭﻏﻢ ﻓﻘﺪﺍ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺗﺨ��‬
‫ﺭّﺳ�ﻥ ﻭﻷﺍﻃﺒّﺎﺀ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤّﺎﻝ ﻻﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴ�ﻥ ﺑﻜﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﺎﺡ �� ﻌﺎﻣﻠهﻢ ﻣﻊ ﻷﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻌﺎﻗ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﺗﺪﺭﺱ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳ�ﻥ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺫﺍﻙ هﻮ ﻃﻤﻮﺣهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭهﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ هﻮ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺠﺰهﺎﺻﺎﺣﺐ‪-‬ﻣﻘﻮﻟﺔ ﺩ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺘﺼﺎﺣﺐ ‪-‬ﻣﻘﻮﻟﺔ ﺭﺋﻱﺲ ﻗﺴﻢ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ �ﻠﻴﻥﻴﻜﺼﺎﺣﺐ ‪-‬ﻣﻘﻮﻟﺔ ﻭﻻﻳﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻣﺮ�ﻜﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻭﻝ‬
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‫ﻭﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇ�� ﺭﻭ ْ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺷﺴ��‬ ‫ﺍ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩ ّﺭﺱ ﻓ��ﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻧﺘ�ﻯ‬
‫ﻭ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻷﻓﺤﺺ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻋ�� ﺗﺮﺩﺩﻱ ﻋ�� ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ �ﻠﻴﻥﻴﻚ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻥ ﻋﺎﻡ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﻳﺔ �ﻌﻴ� ّﻱ‪ ،‬ﺻﺪﻳﻘ�ﻥ ﻣﻘﺮ��ﻥ ﻣ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺒﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻠﺬﺍﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺩﺃﺑﺎ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺎ ﻳﺮﻏﺒﺎﻥ �� ﺗﺒﺎﺩﻝ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﻣ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺆﺍ�� ﻋﻦ ﺳ�� ﺃﺣﻮﺍ�� َ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺣﺪﻭﺙ ﺧﻄﺐ ﻣﺎ ‪.‬ﺇﺫ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺣﺪﻕ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﻓﻄﻨﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺣ�ﻯ ﻻﺫ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﻤﺖ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫َّ ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﺬﺭﺍ�� ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺳﻨﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ‬ ‫ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ �� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺴﺎﺀﻟﺖ ّ‬‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺪﺙ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‬ ‫ﺗﺮ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﻭﺣﺪﻱ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ‪ ،‬ﻓﺠﻠﺴﺖ‬
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‫ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ﺿﻌﻴﻒ ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ �ﻌ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬
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‫ﻣﻐﻄﺎﺓ ﺑﻨﺪﻭﺏ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﺘﺤﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺗﻘﻊ �ﺴﺎﺭ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻼ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺷﺮ�ﻄﺔ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻗﺮ�ﻪ‬
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‫ﺟهﺪ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻗﺪﺭ ﺇﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺑﺘﺤﺮ�ﻜهﺎ ﺻﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺎﺭ ‪.‬ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻭﺃ ِ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﻤﺢ �ﺡﺎﻟﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﻮ ِﻝ ﺑﻴ�ﻱ ﻭ��ﻥ ﺃﻏﻠﺐ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﺸﺖ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻮﺓ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ –‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻧﺎﻓﻌﺔ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻭﻣﻔﻌﻤﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺸﺎﻁ‪ ،‬هﺬﺍ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺍﺧﺼﺎﺉﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ُﻳ ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺫﺍﺕ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻃﺐ‬ ‫ﺨ��‬ ‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻓﻮﺥ �� ﻓﻴﻱﻨﺎ – �� ‪ 60/4‬ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻤﺎ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ‬
‫ﻌﺪﻭﻥ ﻣﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﺪ��ﻢ ﻗﻮﺓ ﺑﺼﺮ ‪ّ �ُ 60/6‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ �� ﺫه�ﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺷﻌﻮ ٌﺭ ٌ‬
‫�ﺎﻣﻦ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﻮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻡ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻐﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻐﻠﺐ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺪﻭﺭ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺗﺒﻥﻴﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻣﺮﺣﺔ‪�� ،‬ﻴﺠﺔ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﺯﺍﺀ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺧﻀﻢ‬
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‫ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ ﺑﻴ�ﻱ ﻭ��ﻥ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻴﻘﻨﺔ ﺣﻘﺎ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ٍ‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻣ��ﻤﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻼﻥ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ ﺇﺯﻋﺎﺝ ��‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺸﻜ‬ ‫�‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺎ‬ ‫�ﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺄ�‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺟﻠﺴﺖ �� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻀﺮﺕ �ﻞ ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻣﺮﺭﺕ ��ﺎ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ �� ﺑﻠﺪ�ﻲ ِﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ ‪:‬ﺍﻟﺘﻌ�� ﺑﺎﳌﻄﺒﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻛﻄﺮ�ﻖ ﻣﺨﺘﺼﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺝﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺏ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﻠﻜهﺎ‬
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‫ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺻﻞ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﺣﺼ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ؛ ﺍﻟﺘ�ﻠﻢ ﺇ�� ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﻏ�� ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻗﺼﺪﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﻣﻌهﻢ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺸﻮﺩ �� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺟﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﻴﻠﻴﺏﺲ؛ ﺗﺤﻄﻴﻢ‬
‫ﻟﺸﺪﺓ ﻗﺮ��‪ ،‬ﺍﺷ��ﻳﺖ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻃﺒﺎ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ﻋﺪﺩ ﻛﺒ�� ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺃﻃﺒﺎﻕ ﺛﻘﻴﻠﺔ ﺯﺭﻗﺎﺀ ﻭ�ﻴﻀﺎﺀ ﻟﻼﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻣﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﺩﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ؛ ﻭﺣ�ﻥ ﺷﺮﻉ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ��‬ ‫ﺇ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻧ��ﺗﻪ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﻳﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﺻﻮﺗﻪ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺍ ﻭﻏ�� ﻃﺒﻴ��‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺷﺮﺡ �� ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻊ‪ّ «،‬‬‫«هﻨﺎﻙ ﺇﻋﺘﺎﻡ �� ﻋﺪﺳﺔ ﻋﻴﻨﻚ»‪َ ،‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﺇﺯﺍﻟﺘﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺳﺘﺼﺎﺣﺐ‬
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‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﻣﺨﺎﻃﺮ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺃ ﺑﺈﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺣﺔ ﻟﻌﻴﻨﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻌ�ﻥ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺷ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺷ�ﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺑﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺟﺪﻩ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺑﻤﺎ ﺳﻴﺤﺼﻞ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻜهﻦ ﺑﺄﻱ ٍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺈﺯﺍﻟﺔ ﺇﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺳﺔ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻭﺷﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻱ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﺟهﺎﺯ ﻃﻨﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺄﺑﻪ ﻟﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻛﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﻳﺄﺯ‬ ‫ﻧﻔﺲ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ‬ ‫ﺲ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻳﺕﻨﻔ‬ ‫ﺳﻤﺎﻋﻪ ﻭهﻮ‬
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‫«ﻋﻮﺩﻱ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻚ �� ِﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ»‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺻﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﻪ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ‪« ،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺭﺗ�ﻱ ﺃﻭﺿﺎﻋﻚ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺠﺪﻳﻦ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺑﺼﺮﻙ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﻮﺩﻱ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺳﻥ�ﻯ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﺄﻳﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻤﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻚ‪».‬‬
‫ﺳﺎﺩ ﺻﻤﺖ ﻗﺎﺗﻞ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻐﺾ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻋﻤﺎ ﺳﻴﺤﺪﺙ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ »ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪� ،‬ﻌﺪ ﺑﺮهﺔ‬ ‫« ّ‬
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‫ﻭﺟ��ﺓ‪ «،‬ﻓﺈ�ﻲ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﺳﺕﺘﺤﻠ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻟﺘﻮﺍﺻ��»‪. . .‬‬
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‫ﻭﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺍﻧﻀﻤﻤﺖ ﺇﻟ��ﻢ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺩهﺔ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ �ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺮﺍﻡ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺟﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻢ ﻣﻦ هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ﺑﺮﻓﻘﺔ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻨﻮﻱ ﻗﻀﺎﺀ ﻧﺰهﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺎ �� ﻣﻨ��ﻩ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺗﻀﻮﺭ ﺟﻮﻋﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﺝﻞ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ ‪...‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻨﺄ�ﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺑﻨ��ﺓ ﻣﺘﻔﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪�ّ :‬ﻤﺎ ﻟﻦ ﻧﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ ﺑﺎﺗﺘﺎ ﻋ�� ﺃﺣﺴﻦ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻮﺟهﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ« ‪:‬ﺗﺒﺪﻳﻦ ﻣﺘﻌﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺘﻤﺪﺩﻳﻦ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭ�ﻜﺔ هﻨﺎ ﻭﺗﺮﺗﺎﺣ�ﻥ ﺑﻀﻊ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﻏﻂ ﻭﺟهﻚ ﺑﻘﺒﻌ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻣﺴ�ﻲ – هﺬﺍ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﻏﺮﺍﺿﻨﺎ؟‬ ‫ﺐ‬ ‫ﻧﺮﺗ‬ ‫ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﺑﻱﻨﻤﺎ‬
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‫�ﺴﺏﺐ ﺻﺪﺍﻋﺎ �� ﺑﻘﻴﺔّ‬‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻜﻮ ُﻥ ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺳﻚ �ﻌﺪ ﻓﺤﺺ ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ ‪.‬ﺇﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻮﻣﻲ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ ﺳﺎﻛﻨﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭ�ﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺣ�ﻯ‬
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‫��ﻀﺖ ﻭﻣﺸﻱﺖ ﻣﻌﺘﻤﺪﺓ ﻋ�� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻤﻴﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻋﻤﻴﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻋﻤﻴﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻷﺗﺒ�ﻥ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻘﺪ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﻓﺘﺤ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻭ�� ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺔ ﻻ ﻳﺰ�ﺪ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻭ�� ﻣﻐﻤﻀﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ ْ‬ ‫ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ ﻓﻘﺪ ُ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﺃﺧﻀﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ��‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺘﻥﺘﺞ‬ ‫ﺳهﻞ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻴ�� ﺑﻴ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺳهﻼ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺇﻧﻤﺎ هﻮ ﺃﻋﺸﺎﺏ ﻭﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﻭ�ﺝ��ﺍﺕ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺖ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺰﺍهﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﺔ ﻋ��‬
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‫�ﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻋ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﺯهﺎﺭﺍ ﺃﻡ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ ﺻﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻟﺰ ّﻭﺍﺭ ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ ‪.‬ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻀﻮﺋﻴﺔ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻀﻮﺋﻴﺔ ﺍﺻﻐﺮ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻳﻤﻴ�ﻱ �� ﺻﺎﻟﺔ ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﻊ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺡﺝﻤﺎ ﻋﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺯﻝ ﺍﳌﺤﻴﻄﺔ ﺑﺎﳌﻨ��ﻩ ‪.‬ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻄﻮﻁ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻠﻮﻧﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺘﺨﻠﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻷﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﺸهﺪ‬ ‫ﺍﺧﻀﺮ �� ﺩﺭﻭﺏ ﺃﻭ ّ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠﻪ ﺿﺒﺎﺑﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻌ�ﻯ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ ﳌﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻓﻌﻠﻴﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺧ��ﻲ ِﺑﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻥ َ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ﺗﺬﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ ﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻘﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ّ‬‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻃﺮﺡ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﺎ‬ ‫ﺧﺒﺄﻩ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ ِ�ﺔ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﺩ‬ ‫ﻭﺻﺎﻓﻴﺘ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮ‬ ‫�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺳﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻮﻕ ﺇ�� ﺇﻣﺘﻼﻙ ﻋﻴﻨ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺎﺩ‬
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‫ﻛﺘﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮ ِﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻟﻶﺧﺮ�ﻦ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﻣﺸﻜﻼﺕ‬
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‫ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻣﺸ�ﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﻧﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇﻧﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ!‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻥ ﻋﻴ�ﻱّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ �ﺴﻌﻔ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺬﺍﻛﺮﺓ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‬
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‫ﻭﺟﻪ ﺍ�ﺥﺼﻮﺹ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻧﻤﺎ هﻮ ﺃﻣﺮ‬‫ﺳﺏﺐ هﺬﺍ ﺍﺧﺘﻼﻑ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﺼﻱﺒﺔ ﻋ�� ِ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﺻﺪﻳﻘ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩ �� هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺠﺐ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮﻝ ﺑﻪ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﺛﻴﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺒﺬﻝ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻟﻠﺘﻐﻠﺐ ﻋ�� ﺝﺰهﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻠﻌ��ﺎ ﻣﻌﺎ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟ��‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﺪﺓ �ﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻟﺘﺘﻌﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫��ﺝﻴﺔ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻃﺒﻴ�� ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ ‪:‬ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ُﻭﻟﺪﺕ‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻔﻌﻤﺔ ﺑﻤﻐﺎﻣﺮﺍﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‬ ‫ﻣﺸﻮﻗﺔ ﺇ��‬
‫َ ْ ْ‬ ‫ﻣﺨﺎﻓﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﻮﺗ�ﻱ ﻣ��ﺎ ��ﻱﺀ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻄﺎﳌﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ ﺇﻋﺘﺎﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻠﻖ �ﺸﺄ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ َ‬
‫�ﺎﻧ ْﺖ ﻋﺎﺟﺰﺓ َ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺟﺎﻟﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻓهﻢ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻦ‬ ‫ﻋ‬ ‫ﻷ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﻏﺮﻑ ﻧﻮﻣﻨﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﻟﺘﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻥ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻟهﺎ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ ﺇﻻ ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺗ�ﻱ ﻣﺴﺕﻴﻘﻈﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﺴﺖ ﻧﺎﺋﻤﺔ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫َ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪ِ :‬ﻟﻢ ِ‬
‫’’ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺴﺐ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’ﻟﻜﻦ ِﻟ َﻢ؟‘‘‬
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‫’’ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻣ��ﻱ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﻣﺴﻠﻴﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﺄﻝ ﺑﻔﻀﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺗﺕﺴﻠ�ﻥ؟ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻔﻌﻠ�ﻥ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻟهﻮ ﺑﺄﺷﻴﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫’’ ّ‬

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‫��ﻱﺀ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ �ﻌﻠﻤﺘﻪ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻊ‬ ‫ﺿ‬ ‫ﻭ‬ ‫ﺃ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ‬ ‫ﺧﻴﺎ��‬ ‫ﻋﺎﻟﻢ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺃﻋﻱﺶ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ – ﺃﺷﻴﺎﺀ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺎﻟﻮهﺎ �� ﺃﻭ ﺗﻔﻮهﻮﺍ ��ﺎ ﺇ�� ﺁﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺇ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ّ‬ ‫�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻗﺮﺃهﺎ ّ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺗﻮﺍ َﺭ َﺩﺕ ﺇ�� َﻣﺴﻤ��‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﻊ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫َ‬
‫�ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ �� ﻃﺎﺣﻮﻧﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﻼﺣﻈ ِﺘ ِﻪ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ – �ﺎﻥ �ﻌﺎﻭﺩ�ﻲ ﻟﻴﻼ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱ��ﻱ‬ ‫ﻣﺨﻴﻠ�ﻱ ﻭﺃﺻﻨﻊ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﻐﺎﻣﺮﺍﺕ ُﻣﺪهﺸﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﻋﻞ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺮ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺳﺮ�ﺮﻱ ﻳﻤ��ﻱ ﻗﺎﺭ�ﺎ ﻳﺄﺧﺬ�ﻲ َ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ��‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ‬ ‫ﻟهﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻐﺎﻣﺮﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝ ّﻦ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﻣ��ﺓ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﻄ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻯ‬ ‫ﺃﺧﺮ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻤ��ﻱ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ُ‬
‫ﻳ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺃﺭ�ﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺳﻠﺐ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺆﺩﻳﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺳﺮ�ﺮ ّﻱ ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻓ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﻣ��ﺓ ِ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺳﺮ�ﺮ ّﻱ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫��‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮﻓﻴﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻭ��ﻠﻤﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺑﻤﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎﻱ‬ ‫�ﺥﻢ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺟﻤهﻮ‬ ‫ﺎﺏ‬ ‫ﻟﺒ‬
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‫ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ �ﺥﻤﺎ ﺃﻃﺎﻟﻊ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻗﺼﺼﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺧ��ﺍ�� ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻛﻨﺖ ُ‬
‫ﺃﺟﺪ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ��‬ ‫ٍ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻨﺔ ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﻓﻘﺔ ﺍﳌﻼﺋﻜﺔ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﺑﺰ�ﺎﺭﺓ ﷲ‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ّ ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺩﺩﺕ ﻏﺮﻗﺎ �� ﺃﺣﻼﻣﻲ؛ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻘﻮﻟﻴﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ �ﻌﺪﻣﺎ �ﻌﻠﻤﺖ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻏﺪﺕ ﺃﻛ��‬ ‫ﺯ‬ ‫ﺇ‬ ‫ﻛ��ﺕ‬ ‫ﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻠ‬
‫ﻃﺮﺍﺋﻖ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺎﺭ ﻭﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻮﻧﻪ‪.‬‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﻓهﻢ‬
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‫ﺃﻟﺏﺴﺘ�ﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﺑﺘ�ﺝﺖ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﺧﺮﺝ �� ﻧﺰهﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ �� ﺍﻟ��ﺍﻡ’’ ‪:‬ﻧﺤﻦ ﺫﺍهﺒﻮﻥ ﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﺭﺟﻞ ﻟﻄﻴﻒ ُﻳﺪ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ‬
‫ِﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻗﺪ ﺳﺒﻖ �� ﺃﻥ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺑﺎﺳﻢ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ‪ ،‬ﻏ�� ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻟﻚ ﺃﻣﻮﺭ‬
‫ﻛﺜ��ﺓ �� ﻋﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺎﺭ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻋ��ﺎ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ �� ﺍﻟ��ﺍﻡ ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻮﺫﺕ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ‬
‫ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺘﺠهﻢ ﺍﻟﻮﺟﻪ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺗﺼﺮﻑ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﻣﺒ�ﻯ �ﺥﻢ ﺣﻴﺚ ﺭ ّﺣﺐ ﺑﻨﺎ ﺭﺟﻞ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺪﺕ ّﺃﻣﻲ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻛﺄ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﻪ؛ ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ �ﻌﺮﻑ ّ‬‫ّ َ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺐ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻲ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻣ‬ ‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ هﻮ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻛﻮ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻷﻣﻲ‪ّ «،‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﺗﺒﺼﺮ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺁﻣﻞ»‪ ،‬ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ّ‬ ‫«ﻟﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺴﻥﺖ ﺣﺎﻟ��ﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﺍﻟ�ﺎ�� ﻟﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟»‬
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‫ﺃﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ« ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﻮﺭ �ﺴ�� ﻣﻌﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺧ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‪».‬‬
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‫ﺃﻋﻄﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ ﺭﺯﻣﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﺃﻏﻠﻔ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ‪.‬ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻥﺸﻐﻠﺔ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻊ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺧﻔﻴﺾ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺪﻳ��ﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﻣﺸﻘﺔ ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﺯﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻮﺟﺪﺕ �� ﺩﺍﺧﻠهﺎ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻣﺤﻼﺓ ُﻣﺴﺘﺪﻳﺮ‬
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‫ﻭﻣﺴﻄﺢ ﺑﺡﺝﻢ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻧﻘﺪﻳﺔ ﻣﻌﺪﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻓﺌﺔ ﺍﺛ�ﻱ ﺷﻠﻦ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ �� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺸ�ﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﻛﻼﻣﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻏﺴﻞ‬
‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﳌﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺧﻦ ﻣ�ﻯ �ﻌﺒﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻦ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻓﻈﺔ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﺑﻘﻲ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﺭﺓ ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ‪.‬‬
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‫ّﺑﻴﻥﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ �� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ ﻃﺒﻱﺐ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﻳﺘﺎ�ﻊ ﺣﺎﻟ�ﻱ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﺄﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺨﺮ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ ﻹﻣﺘﻼ�ﻲ ﻃﺒﻱﺐ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﺎ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ْ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﻣﺜﻞ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﺗﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﻜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﺻﻄﺤﺎ�ﻲ ﻟﺰ�ﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺥﺝﻞ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‬
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‫ﻭﻣﺘﺠهﻤﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧﻪ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺇﻋﻼﻣﻪ ﺑﻤﺪﻯ ﺍﻋ��ﺍﺯﻱ ﺑﻜﻮﻧﻪ ﻃﺒﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﺑﻘﻲ ﻛﺜ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ‬
‫ﺅ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺻﻞ ﺇﻋﻄﺎﺉﻲ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﺣﻠﻮﻯ �� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺫهﺐ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻟﺮ �ﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻀﺖ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻋﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻋ�� ﺯ�ﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﺍﻭ�� ﻟﻠﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻧﻨﺎ ﺫﺍهﺒﻮﻥ ﻟﺰ�ﺎﺭﺓ ﻃﺒﻱﺐ ﻋﻴﻮ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺑﺎﻟ��ﺍﻡ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ هﺬﻩ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ؛ ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﺰﻟﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺮﻛﺒﺔ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﺎ �� ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺳﺎﻥ ﺑﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧ��ﺗ�ﻱ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﺎ �� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻨﺎ ﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ‬
‫�ﻌﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓهﻢ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﻮﻛﻤﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﻌﺘ�ﻱ‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﺠﺪ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻻ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪.‬‬‫ﻟﺪ��ﺎ ﻃﺒﻱﺐ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻮﻛﻤﺎﻥ ﺭﺟﻼ ﺃ�ﺥﻢ ﻭﺃﻛ�� ﻣﺮﺣﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﻈﺮ‪ ،‬هﻮ‬
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‫ﺍﺧﺮ‪ �� ،‬ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﺴﺘﺨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺸ�ﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺘ�ﺝﺒﺎ« ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺇﻟ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﻟهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃ�ﺝﻮ�ﺔ»!‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺧﻠﺴﺔ ﻣﻦ‬‫ﺃﺧﺬ�ﻲ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺁﻟﺔ �ﺥﻤﺔ ﻭﺟﻠﺲ ﻭﻧﻈﺮ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺟﻮﺍﻧ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﻈﺮ ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺧﺮ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﺎﻟﻚ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻚ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺎﺭﺳﺖ هﺬﻩ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺇﻧ��ﻴﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺭَ�ﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻮﻛﻤﺎﻥ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺭﺃ��ﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺒﻠ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻘﺐ ﺯ�ﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﺷ��ﺕ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺛﻘﻴﻠﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ ﻭﺫﺍﺕ‬
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‫ﺣﻮﺍﻑ ﺫهﺒﻴﺔ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺳﺎﻃﻌﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﻣﻨﺘ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﺏﺲ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ‬
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‫ﻃﺒﻴ�ﻱ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ‪.‬ﺇﺫ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻟهﻮ ﻣﻌهﻢ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺇﻣﺘﻼﻙ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻉ‬ ‫ﻭ‬
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‫ﻳﻀﻊ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺘ��ﺕ ّﺃﻣﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷ�ﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺸ ِﺮﺍﻛﺔ ﻣ�� ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃ�ﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﻛﻴﻒ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺷ�ﻞ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫��‬ ‫�ﺎ‬ ‫ﺃ�‬
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‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ِﻭﻟﺪﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻴﻨ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ﺩﺍﻛﻨﺘ�ﻥ ﻭﺟﻤﻴﻠﺘ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺇﻋﺎﻗ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ �ﻌﻨﻴ�ﻱ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺣﺪﻱ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻝ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﺼﺮهﺎ ﻣﺜﺎ�� ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺪﺍ‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻲ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺭﺗﺪﻱ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ – ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺩﺧﻞ ﻋﺪﺩﺍ ﻻ ﻳﺤ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺯ ﺍﺭ ��‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﻋﺪﺩ ﻻ ُﻳﺤ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﻦ ُ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ �� ﻗﻤﻴ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺧ��‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺳﺮﻭﺍ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻨﻮﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎ�� ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻭﺃﺣﺬﻳ�ﻱ – �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻭﻣﺎ ﺗﺘ�ﻠ ُﻢ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﻮﻡ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻮ�ﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻠﻤﺘ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪهﺎ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﻣﺮﺭ ﺃﺻﺎ�� ﻋ�� ﺍﺯﺭﺍﺭ ﺻﻌﻮﺩﺍ ﻭﻧﺰﻭﻻ‬
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‫ﻷﺗﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ �� ﺃﻣﺎﻛ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺗﺰﺭ�ﺮ ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻲ ﺃﺻﻌﺐ ��ﻱﺀ �ﻌﻠﻤﺘﻪ ‪.‬ﻓﺎ�ﺡﻠﻘﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺴﺘﺪﻳﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍﺀ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺜﺏﺘﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺝﻠﺪ ﺑﻮﺍﺳﻄﺔ ﺣﻠﻘﺘ�ﻥ ﻣﻌﺪﻧﻱﺘ�ﻥ ﺻﻐ��ﺗ�ﻥ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﻤﺎﻳﻞ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ّ‬
‫ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻯ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫هﺎ‬ ‫ﺷﺪ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺎ��‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻔﻠﺖ‬ ‫ﺗ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫�ﺎ‬ ‫ﺇ�‬
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‫ﻓﺮﺩ�ﻲ ﺍ�ﺡﺬﺍﺀ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﺴﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﺔ ﻋ��‬
‫ُ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻼﻣﺲ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﺤﻨﻴﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻧﻔﻲ‬
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‫ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻖ ﻣﺸﺒﻚ ﺍﻟﺰ ّﺭ ﺍﳌﻌﺪ�ﻲ ﺑﺎ�ﺝﻔﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ�� ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ ‪.‬ﻓهﺮﻭﻟﺖ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺧﺪﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﺘﺪﻟﻴﺔ ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﳌﺴﻜﺔ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ��ﺪﻭﺀ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺗﻠﻤﺴﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﺧﺮﺟﻪ �� ﻏﻀﻮﻥ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻛﺮ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺟﺎﺛﻴﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﺃ��ﻱ ﺑﺈﺣﺪﻯ ﻳﺪ��ﺎ ﻭ�ﺡﺒﺖ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﻠﺴﺘ�ﻱ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ ﻭﻋﺎﺀ ﻣﻸﺗﻪ ﺑﻤﺎﺀ ﺳﺎﺧﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺴﻠﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺸﺒﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ﻛﺮﺳ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻭﻣ�ﺡ��ﺎ ﺑﻘﻄﻌﺔ ﻗﻤﺎﺵ ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺟﻠﺲ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﻌﺪ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ‬
‫ﺗﺆﳌﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟»‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﻭ�� ﺗﺠﻔﻒ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫«ﻋﻴﻨﻚ ﻻ‬
‫ﺑﻤﻥﺸﻔﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ« ‪:‬ﻻ‪».‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ« ‪:‬ﺣﻤﺪﺍ �»‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﺟﻠﺴﺘ�ﻱ �� ﺣﻀ��ﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺄﻛﺪ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻣﺴﺎ�ﻲ ﺑﻤﺸﺒﻚ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻴﻥﺖ ��‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﻠﻘﺔ ﺑﺈﺣ�ﺎﻡ ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﻜﺔ ﺍﳌﺜﻠﺜﻴﺔ ﻟﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﻃﺒﺎﻋﺔ ﺗﺠﻌﻞ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﺪ ﺧﺸﻨﺎ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ‬
‫ﻻ ﻳﻥ�ﻟﻖ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﻁ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺪﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﺷﺮﺣﺖ �� ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻭﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻑ ﺍﺧﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ �ﺡﺒﻪ‬ ‫ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺇﺑﺮﺓ ﻣﻌﻘﻮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﻮﻝ ﺣﻠﻘﺔ ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻲ ﺑﺈﺣ�ﺎﻡ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻋﻢ ﺍﳌﻠﻤﺲ‬
‫ﺷﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﻠﻘﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺜﻘﺐ ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃﺔ ﻣﺸﺒﻚ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺛﻘﺐ ﺍ�ﺡﻠﻘﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺗﻠﻮ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧ��ﺍ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﺗﻤﺮﺱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ّ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﻠﻘﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﻌﻠﺘ�ﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﻠﻘﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﺘﺪﻳﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺗﻤﺎﻳﻠهﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﺘﻤﻠ ُ‬
‫ﺺ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺸﺒﻚ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻟﺴﺎ�ﻲ ﺍ�ﺡﺬﺍﺀ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺡ��ﺎ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻯ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺗﺜﺏﻴﺖ ﺩﺑﻮﺱ ﺍﻣﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﻳﺪ ّﺃﻣﻲ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺧﻼﻝ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ �ﻌﻠﻤﻲ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻠﻤﺲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺜﺏﻴﺖ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻤﻨﺎ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺎﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻤﺲ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ �ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﻓﺘﺢ ﻗﻔﻞ ﺣﻘﻴﺒ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﻓﺘﺢ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻥﺒﻮﺭ �� ﺍﳌﻐﺴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻔﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﺏ ﻓﺮﻥ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺟﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻠﻤﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺛﻘﺐ ﺍﳌﻔﺘﺎﺡ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺗﻔﻘﺪﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﺾ ﺍﺑﻮﺍﺏ ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺩﺧﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻔﺘﺎﺡ �� ﺍﻟﻘﻔﻞ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻴﻤ�ﻯ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻄﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ؛ ﻭﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﺋﻦ �� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﻭ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺘﻨﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﻛ��ﺎ ﻭﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺇﺩﺍﺭ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻳﺪﺍ ﺑﻴﺪ ﺃﺩﺧﻠﻨﺎ ﺟﻮﺍﺭ�ﺮ ﺧﺰﺍﻧ�ﻱ �� ﺃﻣﺎﻛ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺣﺮﺻﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻮﺍﺿﻊ ﺍﺧﺎﺩﻳﺪ ﺃﻭﻻ؛ ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ّﺛﺒﺕﻨﺎ ﺍﳌﺠﺎﺫﻳﻒ ﺑﺄﻗﻔﺎﻟهﺎ‬
‫�ﻞ �ﺥﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ �ﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺍهﺔ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻗﺪ �ﺴ�ﻯ‬ ‫ﻗﺒﻞ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺗﺜﺏﻴ��ﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬
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‫�� ﺃﻥ ﺃ�ﻌﻠﻢ ﻣﺜﻠﻤﺎ �ﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﻱ ﻃﻔﻞ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻣﻲ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺘﺌﺬ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﻴﺪﺭﻙ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫�ﺥﺼﻴﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺣ�ﻯ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺪﺍ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺑﺘﺆﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﻤﺘ�ﻱ‬‫ﻓﻌﻠ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺸ�ﻠﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺟﺪﻭﻯ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺪ ّﺭ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺗﺄﺩﻳ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﺧﺎﺻﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﺣﻞ ّ‬‫ﺃﻗﻞ �� ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ �� ّ‬ ‫ﻛ��ﺕ ﺑﺎﺗﺖ ُﺗﻤ��ﻱ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭﺣ�ﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫��ﺝﻌ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﻠهﺎ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﻷﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻱ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫�ﻌﻠﻤﻲ ﻛﻴﻒ �ﻌﺘﻤﺪﻳﻦ ﻋ�� ﻧﻔﺴﻚ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺻ��ﻱ‬ ‫ﺗﺮﺩﺩهﺎ ﻣﺮﺍﺭﺍ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫’’‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﻔﺪ ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﺃﻥ ﻟﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺒﻥﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﺩﻋﺘ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻟهﺎ ﻟ��ﻳ�ﻱ ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻗﺎ ﻣﻮﺳﻴﻘﻴﺎ‬
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‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃهﺪﻱ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ �� ﻋﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻼﺩهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﺫه�ﻱ»‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎﻟﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ‪.‬‬
‫«ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻱ ﻣ��ﺭﺍ ﻧﻈﻴﻔﺎ ّ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻟﻠﻤ��ﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍﺀﻩ ﺃﺭ�ﻄﺔ ﻋﺮ�ﻀﺔ ﻣﺸﺪﻭﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﻔ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓهﺮﻋﺖ ﺇ��‬
‫ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻟ��ﺑﻄهﺎ ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻤﺖ ��‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺭ‘‘ ‪:‬ﻟﻜﻨ ِﻚ �ﻌﻠ ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﻭ�� ﺗﺨﺮﺝ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﺩﻭﻧﺎﺕ ﻣﻨﻔﻮﺷﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰ�ﺖ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺎ��ﻱ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺷﺪ ﺍﺭ�ﻄﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻋ��ﺿﺖ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﺖ ﻣ��ﺭﻱ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ﻭ�� ﻌﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻘﻼﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ ﻟﺘﻌﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺔ« ‪ّ :‬‬
‫ﺷﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺪﺓ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺷﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺪﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﺮ�ﻂ‪».‬‬‫ﺍﳌ��ﺭ ﻻ ﻳﺨﺘﻠﻒ �� ﻱﺀ ﻋﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃ��ﺎ ﺇﻋ��ﻣﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﺏﺴ�ﻱ ﻣ��ﺭﻱ ﻓﺄﻋﻄﻴﺘﻪ ﻟهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫«ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺳﻨﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﻌﺎ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ« ‪.‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻟ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺷﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺪﺓ ّﺃﻭﻻ ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍﺀ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺍﳌ��ﺭ؟‪».‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ُﻣ ّ‬
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‫ﺘﻴﺏﺴﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺗﺼﺎﺭﻉ ﻣﻊ ﺍﺭ�ﻄﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ �ﺸﺎﺑﻜﺖ‪،‬‬
‫ﻧﺝﺡﺖ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﻣﺮ �� ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﺷﺪهﺎ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻨﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺷﺪ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‪».‬‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻣﺘﺠﺎهﻠﺔ ﺍﺭﺗﺨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﻁ« ‪:‬هﺬﺍ ّ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺃ�ﺴﺮ ﺑﻜﺜ��‪.‬‬

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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭ�� ﺗ ِﺮ�ﺖ ﻋ�� ﻛﺘﻔﻲ« ‪:‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺑﺄﻧﻚ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺭ ّ�ﻤﺎ ﺳﺘﺼﻌﺪﻳﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻢ ﺍﻥ ﻹﺣﻀﺎﺭ ﻣ��ﺭﻙ ﺍﻟﺰهﺮ ﺍﻟﻠﻮ ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﻱ‬
‫ﻧﻮﻋﺎ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻳﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ هﻴﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪».‬‬
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‫�� ﻏﻀﻮﻥ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ُﻋﺪﺕ ﺣﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﺍﳌ��ﺭ ﺍﻟﺰهﺮﻱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﺭ�ﻄﺔ ﻣﺸﺪﻭﺩﺓ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﻔ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﻣﺸﺎﺑﻪ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻟﻠﻤ��ﺭ ﺍﺯﺭﻕ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺗﻪ ّﺃﻭﻻ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣ�ﺝﻌﺔ« ‪:‬ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺩﻋﻴﻨﺎ ﻧﺮﻯ ﺇ�� ﺃﻱ ﻣﺪﻯ ُ‬
‫ﻧﺤﻦ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺗﺎﻥ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ �� ﺍﺑﺕﺴﺎﻣﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺷﺪ هﺬﻩ ﺍﺭ�ﻄﺔ‪».‬‬‫ّ‬
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‫ﻝ‬ ‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﻱ‬
‫ﺷﺪﺩﺕ ﺭ�ﺎﻃﻲ ﺍﳌ��ﺭ ﺍﻟﺰهﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ� ﻟﻴ�ﻱ ﻟﻨﻠهﻮ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ��ﺭ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬‫ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﺘﺞ ﺇ�� ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ �� ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍﺀ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﺼﻨﺪﻭﻕ‬
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‫ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ُﻋﻠﻤﺖ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺍﻋﺘﻨﺎﺀ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪ ،‬ﺻﺎﺭ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ ﺧﺎﺭﺟﻪ‬
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‫ﻣﻊ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ �� ﻣﺜﻞ ﺳ�ﻱ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻋﺒﺌﺎ ﻋﻠ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻻ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺍ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﺒﻮ ﻋ�� ﻳﺪ ّﻱ ﻭﺭﻛﺒ� ّﻱ ﻷﺩﻧﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺭﺽ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻷﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺭﺳﻤﻪ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮ�ﻌﺎﺕ( ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻠﺔ)‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺻﺎﺭ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺭﺳﻤهﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ �� ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮ�ﻌﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﺷ�ﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻠﻌﺒﺔ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻣﻞ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﺷ�ﺎﻝ ﺍﻟهﻨﺪﺳﻴﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺳهﻞ ّ‬ ‫�ﺴﻤﻮ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮ�ﻌﺎﺕ ﺍﻓﻌﻮﺍﻧﻴﺔ‪ُ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ �ﻌﻠﻢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺘ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﺟﺎﻓﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﺗﺼﺒﺢ ﺍﺷ�ﺎﻝ ﻗﺎﺗﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﺩﻋﻮ �ﻲ ﺗﻤﻄﺮ ﻟﻴﺕﺴ�ﻯ �� ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﻄﻮﻁ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻣﻞ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ �ﺎﻑ ﻷﻟﻘﻲ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﺮ‬
‫ﻣﺮ�ﻌﻪ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺐ‪.‬‬‫ﺇ�� ّ‬
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‫ﻝ‬ ‫ﻥ‬
‫ﺭﺍﻗﺒﺖ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﻭهﻢ ﻳﻨﻄﻮ ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﺪﺕ ﻣﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ� ﻭﻣﺎﺭﺳﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ‬
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‫ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ ‪�.‬ﻌ��ﺕ ﻭﻋﻠﻘﺖ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻞ ﺑﺎﺩﻱﺀ ﺍﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺎﻧﻱﺖ ﻣﻦ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻄﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺆﳌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻛﺕﺸﻔﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻐﻨﺎﺀ �ﻌﻴﻨ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺣﻔﻆ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻉ ﺩﻭﺭﺍﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻔﺰ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻟﻼﻧﻀﻤﺎﻡ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻻﺣﻈﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﺪﻳﺮ �ﺥﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ��‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻛﺔ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻷﻗﻔﺰ �� ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻈﺔ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺗﺤ�ﻱ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻓﺈ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃ�ﻌ�� ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﺛﻢّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻻ ﻳﺕﺒﻌﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﻂ ﺫﺍﺗﻪ �� ﺗﺪﻭ�ﺮ ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻞ‪،‬‬
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‫ّﺍﺩﻋﻴﺖ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺪﻳﺮﻭﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﳌهﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧ�ﻱ ﻧﻠﺖ ﺷﻌﺒﻴﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ �ﺴﺏﺐ ّﺍﺩﻋﺎﺉﻲ هﺬﺍ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺧﺎﺹ ��ﺬﻩ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻡ‬
‫ﻯ‬ ‫ﻝ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﺷ��ﻳﺖ ﺃﻛ�� ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺟﺎﻛﺲ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺘﺠﺮ ﻟﺒﻴﻊ ﺍ�ﺡﻠﻮ ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺇﺑﻘﺎﺀهﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻠﻤﻌﺔ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺑﺎﻹﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺭﺅ��ﺎ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﺭﻛﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺮﺻﺖ ِ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻗﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺭﻓﺎ�� ﻳﻤﻠﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺟﺎﻛﺲ ﻓﺎﺧﺮﺓ ﻛهﺬﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ �ﻌﻮﺯ�ﻲ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺷﺮ��ﺎ �� هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻘ��ﺣﻮﻥ ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﻣﻴﻨﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﺑﺤﺬﺭ‬
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‫ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺕﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﺗﺤﻮﻱ ﻧﻘﺎﻃﺎ ﺣﻤﺮﺍ ﺃﻭ ﺯﺭﻗﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺑﻴﻀﺎ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺧﻠﻔﻴﺎ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩ ‪.‬ﻓﺈﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺎﻁ ﺣﻤﺮﺍ ﺃﻭ ﺯﺭﻗﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﺳﻮﻑ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ‬
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‫ﻷﺷﺎﺭﻛهﻢ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﻴﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗﻀﻱﺖ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﻣﺴﻠﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺳﻮﻯ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻊ ﺍﻗﺮﺏ ّ‬
‫ﺇ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺨﻤ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻘﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﻣﺰ�ﺝﺘ�ﻥ ﻻﻣﻌﺘ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺮﻱﺴﻤﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﻟﻌﺐ ��ﻤﺎ‬
‫�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﺎﻣﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻌﺐ ��ﻤﺎ ﺧﺎﺭﺟﻪ ‪.‬ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﻋ�� ﻣﻠﻤﺲ �ﻞ‬
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‫ﺟﺰﺀ ﻓ��ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺩﺧﻞ ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﻓ��ﻤﺎ ﺩﻭ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ��ﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﺛﻢ ﺻﺮﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ ﻟﻼﻧﻀﻤﺎﻡ ﺇ�� ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ �� ﺑﺮﻛﺔ ﺍﻟ��ﺣﻠﻖ �� ﻋﻘﺎﺭ ﺷﺎﻏﺮ ��‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﻮﺍﺭ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺭﺟﺎﻝ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﻠﻮﻥ �� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﺘﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﻣﻸﻭﻩ ﺑﺎﳌﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻭﺟﻤﻊ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺗﻮﺟﻴﻪ ﺯﻻﺟ�ﻱ ﻓﻮﻗهﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻛﻮﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺜ�ﺝ �� ﻓﻨﺎﺀ ﺩﺍﺭﻧﺎ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻧﺘﻮﺀ ﻋ�� ﺳﻄﺤهﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﻷ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟ��ﺣﻠﻖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻧﺤﺪﺍﺭ ﺣﻴﺚ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻛ��‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﺭﺍﺕ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﺘﻐ�� ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺳﻨﺎ ﻳ��ﺣﻠﻘﻮﻥ ﺑﻜ��ﺓ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻐﻤﻴﻀﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺟﺮﻱ ﺃﻳ��ﺎ ﺍﻏﻨﺎﻡ ﺇﺟﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﺝ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﻄﺎﺭﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻤﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﺛﻨﺎﻥ ﺍﺧ��ﺍﻥ ‪ . .‬ﺇﻧﻄﻠﻘﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﻱ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ��‬
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‫ﺣﻴﻨﺎ ﺑﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺪ ﻋﺪﺍﺀﺓ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻠﻌﺐ ��‬
‫ﻓﻨﺎﺀ ﺩﺍﺭﻧﺎ ﺃﻭ �� ﻓﻨﺎﺀ ﺩﺍﺭ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍ�ﺝ��ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ �� ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻞ ﻟﻠﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺃﻭ �� ﻣﻼﻋﺐ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺠﻤﻊ ْ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻭﻏﺰ�ﻮﺭﻍ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺒﻌﺪ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺷﺎﺭﻉ ﻋﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺔ ﺍﺭﺽ ��‬
‫�ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻣﺎﻛﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﻐﻤﻀﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻮﺭﺳﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺏ �� ﺃﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﻻ ﺁﻟﻔهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈ�ﻲ ﺃﺟ�ﻥ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻭﺃﻧﺰﻭﻱ ﻭﺃ��ﺡﺐ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﺃﻭﻗﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﳌﺴﻠﻴﺔ �� ﻃﻔﻮﻟ�ﻱ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻔﻲ ﻋ�� ﺑﺤ��ﺓ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺘﻮﻧ�ﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻳﻘﻊ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺷﺎﻃﺊ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻧﻠﻌﺐ �� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ‪،‬‬‫ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ﺇ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﺯهﺎﺭ ﺗﻨﻤﻮ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﺗﻠﻘﺎﺉﻲ �� ّ‬
‫ﻏﺮﺱ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‬‫َ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﺒﺎﺗﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺜ��ﺓ ﻟﻼﻧﺕﺒﺎﻩ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭﺍ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺒﺘﻮﻻ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭﺍ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﻀﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻨﺪﻳﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺰ�ﺰﻓﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺭﺩﺍﺭ‬
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‫ﺍﻣ��ﻲ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ �ﺴﺘﺎﻥ َﻧﻤﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺡ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﺨﻴﻞ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺮﺯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ �� ﻃﻔﻮﻟﺘﻨﺎ ﻧﺄ�ﻞ ﺛﻤﺎﺭهﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻧ�ﺝهﺎ ﺑﻮﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﺑﻤﺤﺎﺫﺍﺓ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮ�ﻲ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺛﻤﺔ ﻣﺰﺭﻋﺔ ﻋﻨﺐ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴهﻮﻝ َ‬
‫ﻗﺮﺏ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻨﺤﺪﺭ‬
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‫ﺍﺽ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﻭﻟﺔ ﻭﺗﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﻖ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻮﺕ ﺍﺳﻮﺩ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺸﻤﺶ ﻭﺍﻟﺰ�ﻱﺐ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ﺃﺭ ٍ‬
‫ﻭﺣﺪﻳﻘﺔ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻠﻴﺌﺔ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﻀﺮﻭﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻟﻠﻤ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺮﻭﺝ ﺧﻀﺮﺍﺀ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺘﺪ ﻧﺰﻭﻻ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻨﺕﺸﺮ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﺸﺎﺗﻞ ﺃﺯهﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺷ�ﻞ ﻣﺼﺎﻃﺐ ّ‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﺎﺗﺎﺕ ﺗﺰهﺮ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻠﻤﻨﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺎﺣﺔ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﻘﻮ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻗﺪ ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯﺕ‬
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‫ﺍ�� ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺖ ��‬
‫ﺑﻀﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﺭ ّ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻥﺘ�ﻥ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺷﺎهﺪﺗ�ﻱ ُ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻮﻡ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﻮﻝ ﺑﻘﺼﺪ ��ﺝﻴ��‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺳﺒﺎﺣﺔ ﻣﺎهﺮﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻘﺪﻡ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﻦ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﳌﺠﺬﺍﻑ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻳﺪﺍﻱ ﺃﻗﺼﺮ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺼﻼ ﺇ�� ﺟﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺡﺒ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺎﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻓﺮﺍﺩ ﺃﺳﺮ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻋﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻟﺼﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ّﺃ��ﻢ ﻋﻤﺪﻭﺍ ﺇ�� ﺗﺮ�ﻲ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﺍﻙ ‪.‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﺇ ﻋﺎﺝ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺇ�� ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺍﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ‬ ‫ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻲ ﺗﺮﺟﻊ ﺇ�� ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ّﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺜﻴﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺗﺠه�� ﺻﻨﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﺑﻄﻌﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ��ﻗﺎﺕ ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺎﺏ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﺳﻄﺢ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ‪.‬‬
‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺪﻳﺪﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻄﻮﻋﺖ ﻟﻠﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﳌﻦ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻏ�� ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻣﺴﺏﺒﺎ‬
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‫ﺩﺍﺧ ِﻞ‬ ‫ﻯ‬
‫ﺃﺟﻠﺲ ﻭﺃﺷﺎهﺪ ﺍﺳﻤﺎﻙ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﺪﺓ ��ﺡﺐ ﺳﻤﻜﺔ ﺗﻠﻮ ﺃﺧﺮ ﺇ�� ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻺﺣﺒﺎﻁ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻹﺭﺗﻴﺎﺡ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎﻝ ﻣﺎ �ﺴﺎﻭﻱ ﻟﻘﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ُﺑ َ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺷﺎﻃﺊ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‬ ‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺁﺑﻪ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﳌﺒ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
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‫ﺧﺼﻴﺼﺎ ﻟﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺳﺏﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ �ﻌﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺟﺪ ﻣﺘﻌﺔ‬
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‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻣﻰ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻌﺐ ﱡ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻗﺼﺪﺕ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺡ ﺇﻻ ﻭﺃﻗﻤﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻱ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭهﺬﺍ �ﻌ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ ﺟﺜﻮﺍ ﻋ�� ﺭﻛﺒ� ّﻱ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻒ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺄﺭﺝﺡ ﻟﺪﺧﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺍﳌﻔﺘﻮﺣﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺥﺮﻭﺝ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻨﺤﺪﺭ‬
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‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺳﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈ�ﻲ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﻣ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻒ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻠﺼﺎﻝ ﻭﻟﻮﺣﺎ ﺭﻗﻴﻘﺎ ﻭﺃﺻﻨﻊ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮ�ﻌﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﻨﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺰ�ﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻌ�ﺎﺕ ُﻣ ّﺰ�ﻨﺔ‬
‫ﳌﺪﺑﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﳌﻘﻴﻤﺎﺕ ��‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻌﺪﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻘﺎﺕ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﺼﻠﺼﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﺑﻴﻌهﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﻔﻞ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻓ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﺳﻔﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻳﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﺇ�� ﺻﻒ ﻣﺪﺭ��ﻱ ﺃﻭ ﻣﺴﺮﺣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫ُﻳﺼﺒﺤﻮ ﺗﻼﻣﺬ�ﻲ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻋﻀﺎﺀ ﻓﺮﻗ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺜﻴﻠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃ�ﺴﻠﻖ ﺃﻋ�� ﺟﺬﻭﻉ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺳﻘﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﺧﻠﻊ ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻲ ﻭﺟﻮﺍﺭ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻜ�� ّ‬
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‫ﻟ�ﻞ �ﺝﺮﺓ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻮﻱﻊ‬ ‫ﻟﺕﺴهﻴﻞ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺕﺴﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻗﺪﻣ ّﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭ�ﺘ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ �ﺝﺮﺓ ﺯ�ﺰﻓﻮﻥ‬‫ﺑﺘﻠﻤﺲ ﺟﺬﻭﻋهﺎ ﺑﻮﺍﺳﻄﺔ ﺑﺎﻃﻦ َ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻔﻀﻠﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻗﻌﺔ ﻋ�� ﺣﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﻠﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺫهﺐ‬
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‫ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ ﻷﻓﻜﺮ ﻭﺃﺣﻠﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﻔ�ﺡ �� ﻋﻤﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ ُﻳﺼﻴ��ﺎ ﻗﻠﻖ �ﺴﺏﺐ �ﺴﻠﻘﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ؛ ﺑﻞ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺧﻄﺮ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻌ�ﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻧﻮﺍﺟهﻪ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﻧﻠﻌﺐ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﺨﺎﻃﺐ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻟﺘﻥﺒ��هﻢ ﺇ�� ّ‬
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‫ﺣﺜﺘ�ﻱ ﺑﺮﻓﻖ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺕﺘﻮﺧ�ﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺹ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ُﺳﻤﺢ �� ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻌﺐ ﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﻣﻌهﻢ ��‬
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‫هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺗﺎ ﻣﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ �� ﺍ�ﺡﻔﺮ �� ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﻝ ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻮﺽ �� ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻠﺔ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻑ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺮﻃﺐ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﻞ �ﻲ ﺗﻠﺘﺼﻖ ﺣﺒﻱﺒﺎﺗﻪ ﺑﺒﻌﻀهﺎ ﺛﻢ ﻧﻘﻮﻟﺒﻪ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻭﻛﻨﺎ �ﻐﺮﺱ ﺃﻏﺼﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺼﺎﻑ �� ﺍﺭﺽ ﻟﺘﻜﻮﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺷ�ﻞ ﻣﻨﺎﺯﻝ �� ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻌﺎ ِﺗﻨﺎ ‪.‬‬‫ٍ‬
‫ﺍﻟ��ﻳﺔ ﺍﳌﻨﺕﺸﺮﺓ �� ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻞ ﻭﻧﺰﺭﻋهﺎ ��‬ ‫ﺷﺘﻼﺕ ﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﻘﻄﻒ ﺍﻟﺰهﻮﺭ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺍﺕ ﺗﺮﺻﻒ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﻌﻠﻨﺎ ﺃﺻﺪﺍﻑ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﺭ ﻋ�� هﻴﺌﺔ‬ ‫ﺣﺪﺍﺋﻘﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻘﺎﻋﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻓﻀﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ �ﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺡ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻣﻮﺍﺝ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺬﻓ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻃﻲﺀ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻗﻮﺍﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺝﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﻋ�� ﺃ��ﺎ ﺭ�ﺎﺏ ﻭ�ﺤﺎﺭﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺳﻘﻄﺖ ﻣﻮﺟﺔ‬
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‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺡ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻨﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ �ﻐﺮﻑ ﻛﻮﻣﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺡ�ﻯﻯ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔ ﺗﺤﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ �� ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﻨﻄﻠﻖ �� ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﺑﺤﺮ�ﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻔﻀﻠﺔ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﻋ�� ﺿﻔﺎﻑ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫�ﺸﺪ ﻗﻄﻊ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﻭﻛﻴﺖ ﻟﻌﺒﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺎﺵ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﻀﺎﺀ ﻋ�� ﺟﻮﺍﻧﺐ ﺍﻗﻮﺍﺱ‪ ،‬ﻳﺼﺒﺢ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﺨﻠﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻗ�ﻥ ﻋﺎﺩﺓ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ هﺬﺍ ﻟﻢ ُﻳﻀﻌﻒ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻌﺐ ﻣ�ﻯ ﺳﻨﺤﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺻﺔ؛ ﺃﻱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻻ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻼﻋﺒ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺸﺏﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺎهﺮ�ﻦ �� ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﳌﻀﺎﺭﺏ‬
‫ﺗﻄﻮﻉ �ﺥﺺ ﻟﻠﻮﻗﻮﻑ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻗﻮﺍﺱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳ��ﺀ ﺩﻭﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ هﺬﺍ ﺃﻛ�� ﻋﻮﻧﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻮﻗﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ��‬‫�� ﻣﻦ ﻗﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺎﺵ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﻀﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻛﺮﺭ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺯ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎ��ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻻﺣﺘﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻏﻠﺐ ّﺃ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﺇﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺉﻲ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺑ�� ﺑﻼﺀ ﺣﺴﻨﺎ �� ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻭﺍﺕ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺤﺾ ﺿﺮ�ﺔ ﺣﻆ‬
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‫ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﻣهﻤﺎ ﺗﺄﻧﻱﺖ �� ﺍﻟ��ﺪﻳﻒ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺭﻣﻲ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻟﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺼﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﺎﻟﻌﺼﺎ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺸ�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺭﻓﻴﻌﺔ ﻭ�ﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﺟﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺐ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﺎﺷﻠﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ �� ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ ﻋﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻢ ﺗﺮﺩﻳﺪ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻉ ﻟﺘﻘﺪﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺍﳌﻼﻁ ‪:‬ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﺍﺛﻨﺎﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﺭ�ﻂ ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻼﺛﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭ�ﻌﺔ ﺃﻭﺻﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌ��ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺧﻤﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﺘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻂ‬
‫ﺳﺒﻌﺔ ﺛﻤﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺿﻌهﺎ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﺴﺘﻘﻴﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺘﺄﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺮﻏﻢ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺪﻭﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ��‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇ��ﺎ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻤ�ﻱ‬‫�ﻌﻠ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻣ‬ ‫ﺭﻏﻢ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻓﻌﻼ ﻭﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺛﻮﻥ‬‫ُ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻥﺴﻴﻖ ﺑ�ﻥ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ّ.‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻯ‬
‫ﻗﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺃﺧﺮ ﻏ��‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻛﻮ�ﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﻏﻠﺐ ﻣﺎ �ﻌﻠﻤﺘﻪ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﺍﻟﺘﺒﺎﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺍ �� ﺫه�ﻱ ﻣﻦ �ﻠﻤﺔ ﺗﺎﺑﻮﺕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻮﻓﻴﺖ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺳﺔ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ‪.‬ﺣﺼﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﻠﺐ ﻟﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﺃﻣﺮﺍﺽ ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻳ�ﻲ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻨﺎﻕ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻣﺎﺗﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺭﻭﺙ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺃﺳ�� ﻧﺘﻤﺎﺛﻞ ﻟﻠﺸﻔﺎﺀ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨﺎ ﺑﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﺿﻌﻴﻔﺘ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻧﻥ�ﻝ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ�� ﺇﻻ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺝﻨﺎﺯﺓ ‪.‬ﺣﻤﻠ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ �ﻲ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺭﻭﺙ ﻭ�� ﻣﻤﺪﺩﺓ �� ﻣﺎ ﺩﻋﺎﻩ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪«kiste».‬‬
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‫ﻳﻤﺾ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺗﻮﻓﻴﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﻭ�ﻠﺰ؛ ﺍﳌﺮﺃﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﻜﻦ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﻄﻠﻘﺖ ﺟﻨﺎﺯ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺑﻴ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ �� ﺑﻴﺕﻨﺎ ﻋﺪﺩﺍ‬
‫ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ �ﺡﺎﻑ ﻣﻠﻔﻮﻑ – ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﻭهﻢ ﻳﺤﻤﻠﻮﻥ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺍ �� ﻧﻈﺮﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺫﻭ ﺣﺎﺷﻴﺔ ﺯﺍهﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ ﻭ�� ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺔ ﺑﺠﺎﻧ�ﻱ ‪:‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻛﻔﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺇﻥ ﺟﺜﻤﺎ��ﺎ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ْ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ﺻﻠﺔ �� ﺫه�ﻱ ﺑ�ﻥ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﻭ�ﻠﺰ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧﺎﻟﻪ �ﺡﺎﻓﺎ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﻭﺍﻟﺼﻨﺪﻭﻕ ﺍﺷﺒﻪ �ﺴﺮ�ﺮ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ‬
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‫�ﺝﻌﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺭﻭﺙ ﻗﺪ ﺃ ِ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻘﺖ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺃﻭﺍﺋﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻣ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺯﻣﻴﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﳌﺎ ﻋﺎﺋﺪﺗ�ﻥ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻐﺬﺍﺀ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺃﳌﺎ ﺑﺄﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺮﻯ ﺛﻮﺏ ﺣﺪﺍﺩ ﻋ�� ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻧﻤﺮ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﻴﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ»‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻘﺖ ﺃﳌﺎ ﺑﺄﺳﻠﻮﺏ ﻧﺎ�ﺝ‪ «،‬ﻭﺳﻴﻜﻮ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﺯهﺎﺭ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻠﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻨﺪﺧﻞ‪».‬‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻨﻌﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺩﺧﻮﻝ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ّ‬‫ّ ّ َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻣﻲ‬
‫ﺇﺫ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻚ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺃﳌﺎ ﺑﺜﻘﺔ« ‪ّ :‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻨﻄﻠﺒﻪ هﻮ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻓﺎﺕ ‪.‬هﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻔ��ﺽ ِ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺩﻳﻦ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ﺥﺺ ﻣﻴﺖ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﻨﺨﺮﺝ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻗﻮﻟﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫هﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳﻨﺠﺪ ﻟﺪ��ﻢ ﻭﺭﻭﺩﺍ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺃﺗﻮﺍ ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺸﺘﻞ‪».‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻭﺭﻭﺩ ﺣﻤﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺸﺘﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ َﺃﺭ ﻣﺜﻠهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺇﻻ �� ﺟﻨﺎﺯﺓ ﺭﻭﺙ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ‬
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‫ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﻛﻔﺎﻳﺔ ﻷﻟﻘﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻓﺎﺣﺼﺔ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻷﳌﺴهﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﺫﻋﻨﺖ ﻟهﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺇﺻﺮﺍﺭهﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺍﺑﺔ ‪.‬ﻗﺮﻋﺖ ﺃﳌﺎ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺱ ﻓﻔﺘﺤﺖ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ �� ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‬ ‫ﻭﺍ�ﻌﻄﻔﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺭﺷﺪﺗﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺻﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎﻝ ﺭﺣﺒﺔ ﻭ�ﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﻏﻠﻘﺖ ﺳﺘﺎﺋﺮهﺎ ﺑﺈﺣ�ﺎﻡ ‪.‬ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ‬
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‫ﺑﻴﺪ ﺃﳌﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﻌ��ﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺭﻭﺩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻏﻄﺖ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻻﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍ��ﻱ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻠﻘﺎﺓ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺭ ُ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﺒﻖ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﻒ ّ‬
‫ﺍﺭﺽ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﺑﺎهﺖ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﺭ�ﺎﻥ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﻳﺖ‬ ‫ﻭ‬ ‫ﺍ‪،‬‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﺍ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺐ‬ ‫ﺳﺏ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺪﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍهﺎ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻋﺘﺎﻥ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺻﺪﺭهﺎ �� ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻕ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺷﺎﺑﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻟﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺳﻤﺎﻩ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‬‫ﺷ�ﻞ ﺳﺮ�ﺮ ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﻨﺪﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ُﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺭﻭﺙ ّ‬
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‫‪«Kiste».‬‬
‫ﻭﻧﺤﻦ �ﺴ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫«ﺗﺎﺑﻮ��ﺎ ﺃﻧﻴﻖ ﻓﻌﻼ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺃﳌﺎ ��ﺪﻭﺀ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﻣ�ﺎﻧﻪ ��‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﺎﺟﺄ ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺭﺅ��ﻱ ﻟﻠﺘﺎﺑﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺣﺪﺳﺖ ﺑﺪﺭ ٍ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ُﻭﺿﻊ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﺯهﺎﺭ ﻟﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺟﺎهﺰﺍ ﳌﻮﺍﺭﺍﺓ ﺟﺜﻤﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻳﺤﻤﻞ ﺇ�� ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﻥ� ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻄﻠﺐ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺻﺮﺕ ﻭﺃﳌﺎ ﻧﺪﺧﻞ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺗﺮﻯ ﺛﻮﺏ ﺣﺪﺍﺩ ﻋ�� ﺑﺎﺑﻪ؛‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻳﻔﺘﺢ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺃﻥ �ﺴﻤﺢ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺑﺈﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻓﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﺧﻼﻝ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺰ�ﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﺷﺎهﺪﻧﺎ ﺭﺿﻴﻌﺎ ﺻﻐ��ﺍ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺶ �ﻌﺪ ﻭﻻﺩﺗﻪ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺳﻮﻱﻌﺎﺕ؛ ﺻﺏﻴﺎ ﺻﻐ��ﺍ ﺁﺧﺮ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻋﻨﻪ ﺃﳌﺎ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻨﺘﻔﺨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺿﻌﻒ ﺡﺝﻤﻪ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴ�� ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻹﺻﺎﺑﺘﻪ ﺑﺪﺍﺀ‬
‫ﺃﻃﻠﻖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻟهﻴ�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻤﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟ��؛ ﻭﺭﺃﻳﻨﺎ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺕﺴﻘﺎﺀ؛ ﻣﺴﻠﻮﻻ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﺷﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺯﻣﻴﻼﺗﻨﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺗﻮﻓﻴﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺻﺪﻣ��ﺎ ﻋﺮ�ﺔ ﺗﺮﺍﻡ ‪.‬ﺟﻤﻴﻊ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺮﺓ ﻣﺤﺎﻃﺔ ﺑﺼﻔﻮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺯهﺎﺭ ��‬ ‫هﺆﻻﺀ ﺍﳌﻮ�ﻰ ﻣ�ﺝﻮﻥ �� ﺻﻨﺎﺩﻳﻖ �ﺸﺒﻪ‬
‫�ﻞ‬‫ﻏﺮﻑ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﺧﺎﻓﺘﺔ ﺍﺿﺎﺀﺓ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﻴﺪ ﺃﳌﺎ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺩﺧﻮﻟﻨﺎ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺓ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﳌﺎ �ﻌﻠﻖ �ﻌﺪ ﺧﺮﻭﺟﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺟﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺑﻮﺕ ‪.‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺄﻟهﺎ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺍﺑﻱﺖ ﺳﻮﺩﺍ ﻣﻊ ﺣﻮﺍﻑ ﺯﺍهﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺑﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ُ� ّﺝﻴﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺧﺸﻱﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺗ�ﺡﻚ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻹﺑﺪﺍﺉﻲ ﺟه�� ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺄﻝ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﻭ�ﻠﺰ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺗﻮ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺳﻴﻔﺮﺳﻴ ِ�ﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﻮﺯ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺟ��ﺍﻧﻨﺎ ﺍﻗﺮﺏ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‪ ،‬ﺫهﺒﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺃﳌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻹﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ﺭﻓﺎ ِﺗ ِﻪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺳﻴﻔﺮﺳﻴ ِ�ﻥ ُﻣﺴ�� ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻕ �ﺸﺒﻪ ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ ﻛﺼﻨﺪﻭﻕ ﺭﻭﺙ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﺪﺍ ّﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﻭﻛﺒ�� ّ‬
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‫ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻟﻚ ﺗﻼﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰهﻮﺭ ﻓﻮﻗﻪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺋﺮ ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺔ ﺟﺰﺋﻴﺎ ��‬
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‫ﺻﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺣﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﺿﺎﺀﺓ ‪.‬ﻓﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﺃﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺑﻮﺕ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻧﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺑﻮﺕ ﺍﺳﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ُ� ّﺝﻴﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﻭ�ﻠﺰ ‪.‬ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻓﺔ ﻣﻠﻮﻧﺔ �ﺎﻥ �� ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﺃﺯهﺎﺭﺍ ﺯﺍهﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺧ��ﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄﻥ �ﻠﻤﺔ ‪Kiste‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻣﺎ �ﻌﻨﻴﻪ �ﻠﻤﺔ ‪ coffin‬ﺑﺎﻹﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻟﻚ �ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻭﻋﺒﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺗﺼﻱﺒ�ﻱ ﺑﺎ�ﺡ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻣﻀﺖ‬‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻟ�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﺧﺮﻭﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻹﺣﺮﺍﺝ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻣﻌﺮﻓ�ﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﻣ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻌﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻢ‬ ‫ﺃ�ﻌﻠ‬ ‫ﺃﺷهﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻭﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﻗﺪﻣﺖ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺿﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﳌﻼﻗﺎﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﺴﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺫﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺃﻭﺳ�ﺎﺭ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺳﻨ‬ ‫ﺫهﺐ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﺍﻛ��‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺧﺮﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻨﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻟﻠﻀﻴﻔﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻭﺻﻮﻟهﺎ« ‪:‬ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻭﺃﻧﻚ ﺗﺘﻀﻮﺭ�ﻦ ﺟﻮﻋﺎ‪».‬‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻔﺔ ﺑﻤﺮﺡ« ‪:‬ﻻ ‪...‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻣﻀﻐﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻜﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ‪».‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺻﻌﺪﺕ ﺯ ﺭﻗﻨﺎ ﻣﺌﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭ ﻗﻂ ﺃﻱ ﻋﻠﻜﺔ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺧﻠﺼﺖ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻓﺎﺗ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﻟﻢ ُﻳﻄﺒﻖ �ﻌﺪ‪،‬‬
‫ﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺷﺎﻃﺊ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ﺑﺄﺳﺮﻉ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻭﺭﻛﺒﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﺑﻠهﻔﺔ ‪.‬ﺍﻧﺒﻄﺤﺖ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺑﺠﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﻭﻗﻌﺮﻩ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻠﻤﺴﺖ ﺑﻴﺪ ّﻱ ﺑﺘﺄﻥ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ‬ ‫ﺑﻄ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻟﺼﻘﺖ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﳌﺠﺬﺍﻓ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﻤﺪﺩﻳﻦ �� ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ ‪.‬ﺑﻞ ﻭﻗﺸﺮﺕ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺀ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭ�� ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻣﻘﺪﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺿﻌﻪ �� ﻓﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻇﻨﺎ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻋﻠﻜﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﺣ�ﻯ ﺑﺼﻘﺘﻪ ﺣﺎﳌﺎ ﺗﺬﻭﻗﺘﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺷﻚ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺿﻴﻔﺘﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣهﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺑﻠﻎ‬ ‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ‬
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‫��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺝﻮﻉ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ �ﺴﺘﺤﻴﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻭﺷﻜﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒ�ﺎﺀ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻭﻗﻔﺖ ﺑﺤ�ﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻜﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ ‪.‬ﻭﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﺑﺎﺗﺠﺎﻩ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻠﺔ ﻭ�ﺴﻠﻘ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝهﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻔﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻻ ﻳﺮﺍ�ﻲ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻭﻱﻌﺮﻑ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺻﻨﻊ‪.‬‬
‫ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﺣﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﺟﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﺭ�ﻜﺘ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﺃﻗﻠﻘﺘ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪.‬‬
‫�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ﻏﺮﻕ ﺭﺟﻞ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌﻱﺶ �� ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻒ ﻋ�� ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻣﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ �ﺝﺰ ﻋﻦ ﺇﻧﻘﺎﺫ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﺳﺒﺎﺣﺎ ﻣﺎهﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻌﺎﻃﻰ ﺍﳌُﺴﻜﺮﺍﺕ ‪َ .‬‬
‫ﻭﺳﺮﺕ ﺃﺣﺎﺩﻳﺚ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﻌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺻﻠﺘﻪ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻣﻌﺎﻗﺮﺗﻪ ﺍ�ﺥﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻋﺮ��ﺎ ﺁﺫﺍﻧﺎ ﺻﺎﻏﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻣﻦ ﺑ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻘﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺮﺟﻞ‬‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺛﻮﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺍﳌﺄﺳﺎﺓ ﺟﺎﺭﺓ ﺻﺎ�ﺡﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺳﻤﻌ��ﻢ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﻮ��‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ’ �ﻲ ‘ﻗﺪ ﺭﺃﻯ ﺧﻄﺎﻳﺎﻩ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧ��ﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻏﺮﻗﻪ �� ﺍﳌﺎﺀ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ‬ ‫«ﺁﻣﻞ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻣﻊ ﻳﻔﻴﺾ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴﻨ��ﺎ‪ «،‬ﻭﺣﻈﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺎ��‪ ،‬ﺑﻔﺮﺻﺔ ﻟﻴﺘﻮﺏ ﻭ�ﻨﺎﻝ ﺧﻼﺻﻪ‪».‬‬
‫�ﻌﺪ ﻏﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ �ﻲ ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺧﻠﺴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ�� ﻣ�ﻯ ﺫهﺒﺖ ﻟﻠﺴﺒﺎﺣﺔ ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﺇﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺧﻄﺎﻳﺎﻱ ‪ ��.‬ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‪،‬‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺖ ﺣﻮﻝ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺳﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺜﺖ ﻧﺏﺘﺔ ﺯﻧﺒﻖ ﻭﺳﻤﻜﺔ ﻣﻴﺘﺔ‬ ‫ﻓﺰﻋﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻮﻣﺔ ﺃﻋﺸﺎﺏ ��ﺮ�ﺔ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺷ�ﻞ‬‫ﻃﺎﻓﻴﺘ�ﻥ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺸﻌﺮ�ﺮﺓ �� ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﻟﻮ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﻄﻴﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟ�ﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳهﻞ �� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‪.‬‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﻧﻈﺮﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﺿﻌﻴﻔﺎ ﺃﻓﺰﻋ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻻ ﺁﻟﻔﻪ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺩﻧﺎ ﻣ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺇﻧﺬﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﺑﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﺩﺭﺍﻙ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﺑﻠﻤﺤﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ �ﺎﻷﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟهﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻥﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺧﻮﻑ ﺭهﻴﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺧ�ﻯﻯ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺏ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﻘ��ﺏ ﻣ�ﻱ �ﻠﺐ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ُ�ﺸﻌﺮ�ﻲ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩﻩ ﺑﻥﺒﺎﺣﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺯﻣﺠﺮﺗﻪ ﺃﻭ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﺃﻭ‬
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‫ﺷﻤﻪ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻻ ﻳﺤﺬﺭ�ﻲ ﻓ��ﺎ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﺷﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﻭﻗﻊ ﺃﺭﺟﻠﻪ ﺃﻭ‬
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‫ﺣﺮﻛﺔ ﺫﻳﻠﻪ �ﺸﻌﺮ�ﻲ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩﻩ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺔ ‪.‬ﻓ�ﻱ ﺗﺕﺴﻠﻞ ﺑﻼ‬
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‫ﺻﻮﺕ ﺛﻢ ﺗﻘﻔﺰ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ‪ّ .‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﻻ ﺗﻤﻮﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺗﻄﻠﻖ ﺻﻮﺗﺎ ُﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﺎﻋﻪ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ �ﻌﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻸﺗ�ﻱ ﺭﻋﺒﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺼﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺆﺫﻳ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻤﺴهﺎ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﺨﻠﻴ��ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻘ�ﻱ ﻟﻠﻘﻄﻂ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﻷﻣﺴﺪهﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻏ�� ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ �ﻌﻱﺴﺔ‬ ‫ُﻟ��ﻳ�ﻱ ﻛﻢ �� ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺘﻮﺳﻞ ّ‬
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‫ﻣ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﻳﺉﺴﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻗﻨﺎ�� ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺑﺤ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻓ��ﺓ ﺗﻮﺍﺟﺪهﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ‬
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‫هﻴﻥﻴ�ﻥ ﺑﻤﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻒ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻋﻘﺪﺍ ﻹﻋﺎﺩﺓ �ﻌﻴ�ﻥ ﻣﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻌﺔ‬
‫هﺮﺓ‬‫ﻋﻀﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﻋﺪﺩﺍ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺃﻗﺎﻣﻮﺍ �� ﻣﻌﺴﻜﺮﺍﺕ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ّﺑﺮ�ﺔ ﺃﺣﺪ هﺆﻻﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴﺎﺣ�ﻥ �� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺑﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﻟﺒﺚ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺎﺕ ﺑﺪﺍﺀ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﺐ ‪.‬ﺭ�ﻤﺎ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺎﺭ ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺛﻮﻥ ﻋﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﺍﳌﺄﺳﺎﻭ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺇﺯﺩﺩﺕ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻥ َ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻭﻗﻌﺖ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺧﻮﻓﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ �ﻌﺪ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ �ﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺃﻣﺴﻴﺔ ﺣﺎﻟﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﺭﻣﻰ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﻈﺮﻓﺎﺀ ﻋ�� ﻗﻄﺔ‬
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‫ﻛﺒ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻌﻠﻤﻪ ﺑﺨﻮ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ ‪.‬ﻓﺄﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﻤﺨﺎﻟ��ﺎ ﻣﻥﺸﺒﺔ �� ﻓﺴﺘﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻖ‬
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‫ﺗﺼﻌﺪ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺭﻗﺒ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻓﺮﻛﻀﺖ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﻇهﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻤﻌ��ﺎ ﺗﻤﻮﺀ ﻭ��‬
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‫ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﺣﺪهﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﺴﺎﻙ �ﻲ ﻭﺗﺨﻠﻴ��ﻱ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺡ�ﻥ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺭﺗﺠﻒ ﺧﻮﻓﺎ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻳﻘﻴﻢ �� ﺩﺍﺭﻧﺎ ﻭهﻮ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺎﻋﺪ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ �� ّ�ﻠ ّﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺐّ‬
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‫ﺑﺠﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺧﺬ �ﻌﻀﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺩﻣﻐﺔ‬
‫ﻭ�ﺄ��ﺎ ﻣﺤﻔﻮﻇﺔ �� ﻛﺤﻮﻝ ﺍ�ﺥﺸﺐ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻮﺡ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻮ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺘﻪ ّ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺃﺩﻣﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺤﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺳﺒﺏﺖ �� ﺍﺭﺗﻔﺎﻋﺎ �� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺍﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﻔﺮﻛﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺟﺴﻤﻲ ﺑﻘﻄﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺏﺖ ﺑﻥ�ﻟﺔ ﺑﺮﺩ ّ‬
‫َ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ٌ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺧﻀﺮﺍﺀ‬ ‫ﻗﻄﻂ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﻋﻴﻮ‬ ‫ﻓﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻳﺖ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫�ﺎﺑﻮﺱ‬ ‫ﺍﻭﺩ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺗﻠﻚ‬ ‫��‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﻝ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺤﻮ‬ ‫ﻠ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﺑﻠ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺪﻕ �ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺘﻤﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻨﺬ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺡ�ﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ �ﺎﺑﻮﺱ ﻣﺮﺭﺕ ﺑﻪ ﺇﻻ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻗﻄﻄﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﻼ ﺭﺅﻭﺱ‪ ،‬ﺗﺤﻮﻡ �� ﺩﻭﺍﺋﺮ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﻭﺧﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪� ،‬ﻌﺬﺑ�ﻱ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺑﺠﺮ��ﺎ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ ﻭﻗﻔﺰهﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻋ��‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺳهﻼ ﻋ�� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺇﺑﻘﺎﺉﻲ ﺣﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﳌﻠﺏﺲ ّ‬
‫ﻛﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ �� ﻋﺎﺋﻠ�ﻱ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻝ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺒﻘﺖ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭ��‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺛﻴﺎﺑﻪ‬ ‫ﺗﺒ��‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻧ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺔ‬ ‫ﺷﻘﻴ‬
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‫ﺇﻧﺘﻘﺎﻟﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﺿﻄﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺇ�� ﻭﺿﻊ ﻟﺒﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﻛﺮﺗﻮﻧﻴﺔ �� ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻲ‬
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‫�ﻐﺾ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻋﻦ ﻋﺪﺩ ﺍﺣﺬﻳﺔ‬ ‫ﻷﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻟﺏﺴهﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻭهﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﺼﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻟﺏﺴهﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺍﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﻮ�ﺔ �ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻳﻥ�ﺝ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎﻛﻴﻨﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﻛﺔ ﺳﻴﻘﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺍﺭﺏ‬
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‫�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ �ﺝﻮ ﺗﻜﻤﻞ ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﺍﳌﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺄﺻﺎ�ﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﻌﺐ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺑﺤﻴﺎﻛ��ﺎ ﻳﺪﻭ�ﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺯ ّﻭﺩ �ﻌﺪﺓ ﺃﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﻮﺍﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻏﺪﻭ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﺑﻼ ﺟﻮﺍﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺿﻄﺮ ﺇ�� ْﻟﺏﺲ ﺟﻮﺍﺭﺏ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺟﺎهﺰﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﻊ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﻳﺼﺒﺢ ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ ﺩﺍﻓﺌﺎ ﺑﻤﺎ �ﺴﻤﺢ ﺑﺎﺭﺗﺪﺍﺀ ﺟﻮﺍﺭﺏ ﻗﻄﻨﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﻤﻞ ﺡﺝﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺃﺻﺪﺍﻓﺎ ﻭﻣﻜﻌﺒﺎﺕ ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﳌﺮ�ﻌﺎﺕ ﻭﺣﻠﻴﺎ ﺭﺧﻴﺼﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ�ﺴﺏﺐ ��‬
‫ﺇﺣﺪﺍﺙ ﺛﻘﻮﺏ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ �� ﺟﻴﻮ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ��‬
‫ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ّﺃﻣﻲ ُﻣﺠ��ﺓ ﻋ�� ﺻﻨﻊ ﺟﻴﻮﺏ ﺯﺍﺋﻔﺔ ﻟﺜﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺃﺛﺮ ﺍﻟﺕﺴﻠﻖ ﻋ�� ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺍ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺳﺏﺐ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺝ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺻﻞ ﺑ�ﻥ ﻓﻨﺎﺋﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻓﻨﺎﺀ ﺟ��ﺍﻧﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﻣﺆﺳﻔﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﺻﻌﻮﺩ ﺍﺳﻴﺠﺔ‬
‫ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﺣﻮﻟهﺎ ﻭﺻﻮﻻ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺍﺑﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﻀﺒﺎ��ﺎ ﺗﺨ��ﻕ ﺗﻨﺎﻧ��ﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‬
‫ﱠ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُﻭﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺛﻘﻮ�ﺎ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﺫﺍﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺗﻮﺍﺯ�ﻲ ﻭﺳﻘﻄﺖ ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﻣﻌﻠﻘﺔ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌﻄﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺯﻣﻴ�� ﺭﺍﻏ��ﻴﻠﺪ ﻳﻥﺘﻈﺮ�ﻲ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺧﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺝ‬
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‫ﻓﺠﺎﺀ ﻹﻧﻘﺎﺫﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺻﺐ ﺑﺄﺫﻯ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻌﻄﻔﻲ ﺗﻠﻒ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛ��ﺕ �ﻠﻔﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻲ �ﻐﺴﻞ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻭ��ﻮﺋ��ﺎ ﻭﻛ��ﺎ ﻛﺸﻘﻴﻘﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫�ﻲ ﺛﻥﻴﺎﺕ ﺗﻨﺎﻧ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ُﻳﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺇﺻﻼﺡ‬ ‫ﺟﻞ ﻋﺼﺮ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ ��‬ ‫ﺃﻣ��ﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ ﻧﻈﺮﻱ ُ�ﺴﻌﻔ�ﻱ �� ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻠﺰﻡ؛ ﻭﺇﻻ �ﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﻃﻠﺐ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﻷﺩﺍﺀ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺃ�ﺝﺰ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ّﺃﻣﻲ« ‪:‬ﻻ ﻋﺬﺭ ﻷﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻻ �ﻌﺘ�ﻱ ﺑﻤﻈهﺮﻩ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺼﺺ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺳﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫�ﻌﻠﻤﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﺣﻜﺖ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺣ�ﺎﻳﺎﺕ هﺎﻧﺰ ﻛﺮﻱﺴﺕﻴﺎﻥ ﺃﻧﺪﺭﺳﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺳﺏﻴﻮﺭ�ﺴﻦ‬
‫�ﺴﺘ��ﻥ ﺑﻴﻮﺭ ْ�ﺴﻮﻥ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺼﺺ’’ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﻘﻰ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭ’’ﺻ�ﻱّ‬ ‫ﺭ ْ‬
‫ﻭﻣﻮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻴﻮ‬
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‫ﺳﻌﻴﺪ ‘‘ﻭ’’ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﻌﺔ ‘‘�� ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺺ ﺍﳌﻔﻀﻠﺔ ﻟﺪﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﺎ‬
‫�ﺸﺪ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﺪﺍ ّﺃ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ �� ﻗﺼﺔ« ﺍ�ﺡﻤﻘﻰ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ »ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺠﻌﻠهﺎ ّ‬
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‫�ﺥﻴﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﻧﻨ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﺿﺎﺣﻜ�ﻥ« ‪:‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﻔﻘ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺯﻭﺟﺘﻪ ﺗﺰﺭﻉ ﺍﳌ�ﺡ‪».‬‬
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‫ﺻ�ﻱ ﺳﻌﻴﺪ»‪� ،‬ﻌﺎﻃﻔﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻭ�ﻔﻴﻨﺪ ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ �ﺥﺼﻴﺎ ﻣﻮﻟﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺣ�ﺎﻳﺔ«‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻷ�ﻞ ‪.‬ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺣ�ﺎﻳﺔ« ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﻌﺔ »�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﺃﻋﻤﻖ ﺍﺛﺮ ��‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻐ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻟﻠﺒﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﻌﺔ ﻭﺣﻮﻟهﺎ ﺇ�� ﻭﺯﺓ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﻓ�ﺡﺖ‬ ‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻐ�� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‬ ‫�� ﺑﺚ ﺍﻣﻞ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻣ�ﺝﺰﺓ ﻣﻤﺎﺛﻠﺔ ��‪ ،‬ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟهﺎ‬
‫ﻷﺻﺒﺢ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺣﺒﺏﺖ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻭ�� ﺗﺤ�ﻲ ﻟﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻗﺼﺼﺎ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻋﻦ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ ��‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ُﻣﺪهﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺑﻄﻠ�ﻱ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺟﻌﻠﺘ�ﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻛﺮﺍﻋﻮﺙ �� ﺍﻧﺠﻴﻞ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺛﺎ ﻭﺍﺷﻨﻄﻦ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺧ��ﺗﻨﺎ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻋﻦ ﺫهﺎﺏ ّ‬
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‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻃﺒﻴ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻄﻔهﺎ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺑﺔ ﻭﺍﻗﺘﻼﻋهﺎ �ﺝﺬﻭﺭ �ﺝ��ﺍﺕ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻨﻤﻮ ﻓ��ﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺣﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺕ ﺃﺻﺒﺎﻏﺎ ﻟﺘﺤﻮ�ﻞ ﻟﻮﻥ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻴﻒ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺼﻨﻊ ﻣﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺝﺬﻭﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺻﻮﻑ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﺍﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩﻱ ﺇ�� ﺗﺪ ّﺭﺟﺎﺕ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﻷﺍﺯﺭﻕ ﻷﺍﺧﻀﺮ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻠﺰﻡ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺒ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺷﺮﺩﺕ ﺑﻘﺮﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺑﺎ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻴﻊ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ هﻮ‬
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‫ﺗﻘﻄﻴﻊ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻗﻤﺎﺵ ﻟﺘﺠﻔﻴﻒ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻋﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﺻﺎﺣﺒﺔ ﺍﺭﺽ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺵ ﺍﳌ�ﺡ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ �ﻌﻮ�ﺬﺓ ﻻ �ﻌﺮﻓهﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺮﺓ ﻗﺪ �ﺝﺄﺕ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﻗﻄﻊ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺇﻃﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺮﺓ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻴﻂ؛ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺮﺓ ﺳﺘﻌﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻴﻊ ��‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺪ ﺳﻮﺍهﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺕﺒﻊ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺮﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �� ﻋﻨﻘهﺎ ﺟﺮﺱ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻻ �ﺸﺮﺩ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ( ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬
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‫ﺳﻮﻯ �� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮ ﺟﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺍﳌ�ﺡ هﻮ ﺳﺏﺐ ﻋﻮﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﻗﻄﻴﻌهﺎ ‪).‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﺤﻠﺖ‬
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‫ﺑﻘﻮﺓ ﺧﺎﺭﻗﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻄﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺬﺋﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺠﻮﺏ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ ��‬ ‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻭﺳﺘ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻻ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻤﺎ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﺑﻞ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﺋﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗ�ﺝﻢ ﻗﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﻓﻨﻠﻨﺪﺍ ﺁﺛﺮﺕ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺇﻳﺬﺍﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺧﺮﺍﻑ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻌﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻌﺔ هﻮﻏﺴﻱﺚ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣهﻤﺎ ﺍﺑﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﺍﻑ هﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻮﻃ��ﺎ ‪ ��.‬ﺣ�ﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﺋﺎﺏ ﺗﻔﺘﻚ ﺑﺄﻋﺪﺍﺩ‬
‫ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﺍﻑ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﺰﺍﺭﻋ�ﻥ ﺁﺧﺮ�ﻦ �� ﺍ�ﺝﻮﺍﺭ ﻭﺗﻠ��ﻤهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺷﺒﺤﺎ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﻗﺘﻠﺖ ﻧﻔﺴهﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺕ ّ‬
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‫�ﺝﺪ�ﻲ ﺫﻋﺮﺍ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺍ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺍﺑ��ﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﷲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ﺗﻔﻜ��‪،‬‬‫ﺳﺏﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ ﻧﺪﻣﺖ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻌﺪﻡ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻴﺤﻤ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻈﺔ ﺍﺧﺘﻔﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺸﺒﺢ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﺯ�ﺎﺭﺗﻪ ﻟهﺎ ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻣهﻤﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺳﺆﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺸﺒﺢ‪ ،‬ﻻﺣﺘﻤﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻭﻻ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ؛ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻥﺸﺪ ﺗﺮﺍﻧﻴﻢ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ��ﺍﺗﻴﻞ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺛﺮ�ﺔ �ﻠهﺎ ﻣهﻤﺎ ﻃﺎﻟﺖ ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻌهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﻔﻈﺖ ﻋﻦ ﻇهﺮ ﻗﻠﺐ ﺃﺩﻋﻴﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﻼﻭﺓ ﺇﺣﺪﺍهﺎ �ﺎﻥ �ﺴﺘﻐﺮﻕ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻛ�� ‪.‬ﻭ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺳﻨﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻝ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ‬
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‫ﻭﺗﺘ��ﻉ ﺑﺜﻤ��ﺎ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺏﻴﻊ ُﻋﺸﺮ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﺍﻑ ﻭﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﺻﻨﺎﻑ ﺣﻠﻴﺐ ﺍﺑﻘﺎﺭ ﻟﺪ��ﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻺﺭﺳﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻱﻨﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺑﺎﳌﻨﺎﻃﻖ ﺍﺟﻨﺏﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ �ﻐﺎﺩﺭ‬
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‫ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﺎﺷﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﺎﻓﺮﺕ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺇ�� ﺃﻣ��ﺎ ﺧﻄﻄﺖ ﺟﺪ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻣﺮﺿﺖ ﻭﻣﺎﺗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﻳﺕﺴﻦ ﻟهﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﻯ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‬ ‫ّﻟ�ﺡﺎﻕ ��ﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭ�� ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻋﺘﺎﺩ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ �ﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺼﺺ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﻜ��ﺎ ﻟﻨﺎ �� ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﻠﺲ ﻭﺍﺿﻌﺎ ﺃﺻﻐﺮﻧﺎ ﻋ�� ﺭﻛﺒﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﻠﺘﻒ ﺍﺧﺮ ﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺼهﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﺣﻮﻟﻪ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻣﻤﻜﻨﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﻏﻠﺐ ﺣ�ﺎﻳﺎﺗﻪ ﻣ�ﺝﻮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﺗﻠﻮ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ‪.‬ﻭﺗﺤ�ﻲ ﺇﺣﺪﺍهﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺇﻣ��ﺍﻃﻮﺭ ﺻﻴ�ﻱ ﺫﺍﺏ �� ﺡﻤﻪ ﻷﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺣﺮﺍ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ �� ﺍﻟﺼ�ﻥ ﺣﺎﻣﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﻭﺗﺤ�ﻲ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻋﻦ ﻗﺰﻡ �ﻌﻱﺶ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺷﻼﻝ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫ﻭﺗﺼﻒ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﺂﺛﺮ ﻣﻠﻚ ﻧﺮﻭ�� ﻋﻈﻴﻢ ﻗﺘﻞ ﻋ�� ﻣ�ﻥ ﺳﻔﻴﻥﺘﻪ’’ ﺃﻭ ﻣ�ﻥ ﻻﻧﺞ ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻥﺒﺆ ﺑﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﺼﺔ ﻋﻦ’’ ﻧﻴﻮﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﻜﻴﻢ ‘‘ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞ‬‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ّ‬
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‫ﺳﻴﺤﺼﻞ ﻟﻠﻨﺎﺱ ‪.‬ﻭﻷﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﺤﺘﻢ ﻋ�� ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﺃﻥ �ﺴﺘﻮﻋﺐ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﻜﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﻣﻤﻠﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﺑﺄﺳﺮهﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻗﺒﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻗﻠﻥﺴﻮﺓ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺘﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﺎﻟﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻦ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺗﻤﻨﻱﺖ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺄ�ﻲ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺃﺯﻭﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﺭﺽ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬
‫هﺬﻩ �� ﺃﻗ�ﻯﻯ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻱ ﻗﺪ ﺟﺎﺀﺍ ﻣ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫�� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻭ�� ﻋﻠﻤﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻣﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺩﻳ�ﻱ �ﺎﻣﻠﺔ �� ﺍﳌﻥ� ‪.‬ﻭﺗﺤﺪﺛﺖ ﻋﻦ ﷲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌﺮﻓﻪ ﺧ�� ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺮﺳﺖ ﻓﻴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺄﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﻳﺤﺐ ﷲ هﺬﺍ؟ هﻞ ﺳﻴﻐﻀﺐ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ؟ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧ��ﺀ ﺇ�� ﺃﻣﻲ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺗﻀﻌﻨﺎ ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﻞ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤ�ﻲ ﻟﻨﺎ ﻗﺼﺼﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﺠﻴﻞ ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﻖ �� ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﺮﺗﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﻳﻥﺒ�� ﻟﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺨﻠﻊ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﻪ ﺃﻭﻻ �ﺎﻥ ﻟﻪ‬
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‫ﺳ��ﻭﻯ ‪.‬ﺣﻜﺖ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺺ ﺑﻠﻐﺔ ﺳهﻠﺔ ﻭﻣﺸﻮﻗﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃ��ﺎ ﺯ ﻋﺖ ��‬
‫ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻏﻢ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺻﻮﺭﺍ ﱠ‬
‫ﻣﺤﺪﺩﺓ ﻋﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﺫه�ﻱ َ‬
‫ﺷﺪﺓ ﺿﻌﻒ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫�ﻞ �ﺥﺼﻴﺎ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﻋﻠ��ﻢ �� ﺍ�ﺝﻨﺔ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺩﺧﻠ��ﺎ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﺴﻤﻮﻉ ‪.‬ﺗﺠﻠﺲ ﺣﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻧ�ﺝﻊ ﻟﻴﻼ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﺘﻠﻮ ﺻﻠﻮﺍ��ﺎ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺿﺎﻣﺔ ﻳﺪ��ﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺮ�ﺮ ﺃﺻﻐﺮﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻘﺮﺃ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺧﻔﻴﺾ ﻭﻭﺍ�ﺡ‬ ‫ﺭﺃﺳهﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﻳﺪﻱ‬ ‫ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ ﺳﻤﺎﻋﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﺍﺧﺘﻼﺱ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻀﻤﻮﻣﺘ�ﻥ ﻷﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻇﻨﻥﺖ ﺃ��ﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺃﺛﻮﺍﺑﺎ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﺃﻧﻴﻘﺔ ﻣﺮﻗﻄﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﺍﺳﻮﺩ ﻷﺍﺑﻴﺾ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻛﻤﺎﻡ ﻣﺸﺪﻭﺩﺓ ﻭﻃﻮ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﺃﺟﻌﺪ‬
‫ﺑﺪﺑﻮﺱ ﺫه�ﻱ ﻛﺒ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺮ�ﻠﺔ ﻧﻈﻴﻔﺔ ﻣﺮ�ﻮﻃﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺧﺼﺮهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ��‬ ‫ﻣﺜﺏ ْﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﺎﻡ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫�ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﻠﻮ ﺃﺩﻋﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻨﺪهﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺗﺪﺭﺝ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻨﺎﺟﺎﺓ ﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﺗﺮ�ﺪ‬
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‫ﻗﻮﻟهﺎ � ‪.‬ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ�ﻲ �� ﺃﺩﻋﻴ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ هﺬﻩ ﻭ�ﺴﺄﻝ ﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻤﻨﺤ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻱﺶ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﻧﺎﻓﻌﺔ ﻭﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻭﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻗﺪﺭهﺎ �� ‪.‬ﻻ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﺮﺍ ﺟﻴﺪﺍ‬
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‫ﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺗﺄﺛﺮﺕ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﺑ��ﺎﻻﺕ‪ ،‬ﻷ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻟهﺎ ��ﺪﻭﺀ ﻭﺛﻘﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺩﻋﺎﺀهﺎ‬
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‫�� ﺎﻥ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺎ ﻛﺴﺎﺋﺮ ﺃﺩﻋﻴ��ﺎ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﺃﻣﻮﺭ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺇﻟﺘﻤﺎﺳﺎ ﳌﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﺷﻘﺎﺉﻲ‬
‫ﺗﻜﺮﺭ ﺻﻼﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻠﻮﺍ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﺎ�ﻲ‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ �ﻌﻠﻤ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ ﻛﺄﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻧﺼ�� ﺑﺎﻧﺕﺒﺎﻩ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﻠﻮﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺕﺸﻮ�ﻖ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻟﻠﻘﺼﺺ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋ�� ِ‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ُﻧ ُ‬
‫ﺼﺒﺢ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ�ﻦ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺒﻠﻎ ﺑﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﻌﺎﺱ ﻣﺒﻠﻐﻪ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫�ﻌﻠﻤﻨﺎهﺎ ﻣﻦ ّﺃﻣﻨﺎ ‪:‬ﺍﻥ ُﺃﻏﻤﺾُ‬
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‫ﻓﺈﻧﻨﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻧﺮﺩﺩ ﻣﻌﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻼﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺗﻠﻔ ِﻆ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‬
‫ﻳﺎ ﺇﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �� ﺍﻋﺎ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻮﻻ�ﻲ ﺑﺤﻔﻈﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﻄﻴﺌﺔ‪ِ ،‬ﻣ َﻦ ﺍ�ﻯﻯ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﻄﺮ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺮﺳ�ﻱ ﻣﻼﻛﻚ‬
‫َﻣﻦ ﻗﺪ هﺪﻯ ُﺧﻄﺎﻱ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪َ.‬‬
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‫ﺁﻣ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻥ َ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬‫َ‬
‫ﺗﻠﻚ‬ ‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺍﻧﻄﺒﺎﻉ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺻﻠﻮﺍﺗﻨﺎ ﻭﺷﻌﺎﺋﺮﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺪﻳﻥﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ �� ﻟﻐﺔ ﷲ ‪.‬ﻋﻠﻤﺘﻨﺎ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺎﻗﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﺩﺭﻭﺳﻨﺎ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ ﺑﻜﺘﺏﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛ��ﺕ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﺕﺴ�ﻯ ﻟﻨﺎ‬
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‫�ﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﻟ�ﺝﺰﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ٍ‬
‫�ﺎﻑ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﻣهﻠﺘ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﺮﻉ �� ﺩﺭﻭ��ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ �� ﻭﺳﻌهﺎ ﺗﺄﺟﻴﻞ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﺄﺣﻀﺮﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻜﺘﺒﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻭ�ﺔ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ ﺻﻐ��ﺍ ﻏﻼﻓﻪ ﺑ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻣﺴﻜﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺪﻱ‬
‫هﺰﺍﺯ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥ��ﺭﺍﻥ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺍﳌُﺸﺮﻓﺔ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ ‪.‬ﺛﻢّ‬‫ﻛﺮ��ﻱ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺎﺩﺗ�ﻱ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺒ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﻭ��‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﻭ�� ﺗﻀﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ« ‪:‬ﺃ�ﺴﺎﺀﻝ ﺑﺄﻱ ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﺗﺮ�ﻦ هﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ؟‪».‬‬
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‫ﺣﻤﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺑ�ﻠﺘﺎ ﻳﺪ ّﻱ ﻭﺩﻓﻨﺖ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺿﺎﻏﻄﺔ ﺃﻧﻔﻲ ﻋ�� ﺻﻔﺤﺎﺗﻪ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ‬
‫ﺍﻭﻝ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ‪.‬ﺛﻢ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ��‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺭﻯ ��ﺎ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻑ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻭ�ﺰﺍﻭ�ﺔ �ﺴﻤﺢ �ﺴﻘﻮﻁ ﺍﻟﻀﻮﺀ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪.‬‬‫ﻭﺿﻊ ﻣﺎﺋﻞ‪ ،‬ﺟﺎﻋﻠﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻑ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ّ‬
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‫ﻋﺪﻟﺖ ﻭﺿﻌﻴﺔ ﺟﻠﻮ��ﻱ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﺍ ﺣﺮﻑ‘ ﺃﻱ‪’ ‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪ ‪.‬هﻞ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮ�� ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫��ﺝﻌ�ﻱ’’ ‪ّ :‬‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭ��‬
‫�ﻌﺪﻩ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻑ’ �ﻲ‪’‘‘.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ’’ ‪:‬ﺗﺎ��‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺮﻙ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃه�� ﻞ ﺣﺮﻑ’’ ‪��:‬ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﺇﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻑ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻛﺖ ﺃ��ﻱ ﻧﺤﻮ �ﺴﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ّ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬
‫ﻭﺛﺏﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ‬ ‫ﺣﺮ ﺭ‬ ‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺴﻄﺮ‬
‫ﺻﻒ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﺣﺮﻭﻑ‬
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‫ﺍﺑﺠﺪﻳﺔ �ﻠهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻓﻊ ﺃﻧﻔﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺇﻻ ﻟﻼﻧﺘﻘﺎﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻄﺮ ﺇ�� ﺁﺧﺮ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﻔﻈ�ﻥ ﺣﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﺑﺠﺪﻳﺔ ﺑﺈﺗﻘﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻵﺍﻥ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﻣ�‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭ�� ﺗﺄﺧﺬ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻧﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺣﺮﻑ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻧﺼﺎﺩﻓﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ‪.‬ﺗﻨﺎﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ‬ ‫ﻳﺠﺐ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻝ ﺣﺮﻭﻑ ّﺃﻭﻝ �ﻠﻤﺔ ﺗﺮ��ﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻗﺮﺉﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ٍ‬
‫ﺻ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺩﻓﻨﺖ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻳﻤﺪ ﻋﻈﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺑﺈﺣ�ﺎﻡ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻳﺘﻮﺳﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ّ‬ ‫ﻟ�ﻠﺐ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻪ ّ‬
‫هﺮﺓ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﻓﺄﺭﺓ ﺑﻤﺨﺎﻟ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺗ�ﺝﺌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺑﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺓ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﻮﻋﺔ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ �ﻞّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃ��ﻴﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺻﻮﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻤﻠﻜﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻟﺼ�ﻱ �ﺴﻘﻂ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺧﻔﻴﺾ ﻭ�� ﺸ�� ﺇ�� ﺻﻔﺤﺔ ﺃ�ﻌﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻀﻢ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼ�ﻱ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ �ﺝﺮﺓ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺤ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻋﻦ هﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺷﻘﻲ ﺗﺮﻙ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻭهﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻪ ّ‬
‫ﺻ�ﻱ ّ‬‫ﺃﺕ ﻋﻦ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻮﺟﻪ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺑﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻗﺮ‬
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‫ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺠﺐ ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻠﻪ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻣﺴﺘﻔهﻤﺔ ‪.‬ﺳﻘﻂ‬
‫ﺧﺪهﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺧﺪﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫��ﻱﺀ ﻃﺐ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺧﺪﻱ ﻭﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﻤﻨﺪﻳﻠهﺎ ﻭﻣ�ﺡﺖ ��ﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻭهﺬﻩ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺇﻳﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺄ�ﻰ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍ�ﺡﺴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺪﺗﻪ‬ ‫ﻗﺼﺔ ﻋﻦ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﺍﺳﻤهﺎ ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
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‫�ﺸهﻴﺔ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ‬ ‫ﻷ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺒﻪ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺇﻳﻤﺎ ﺍ�ﺡﺴﺎﺀ‬ ‫ّﺃﻣهﺎ ﻟﻠﻌﺸﺎﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣهﺎ ‪ّ :‬‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺇﻳﻤﺎ ﺟﺎﺉﻌﺔ هﺬﻩ ّ‬ ‫ّﺃﻣهﺎ ّﺇﻧﻪ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍ�ﺡﺴﺎﺀ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
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‫ُﻳ ُ‬
‫ﺼﺒﺢ ُﻣﺴﺘﻄﺎﺑﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﳌﺮﺀ ﺟﺎﺉﻌﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﺑﺕﺴﺎﻣﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﺗﺮ�ﻦ ﻓﻌﻼ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻘﺮﺃﻳﻨﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﺃﺧﺬهﺎ ﻟﻠﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻣ�ﻱ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺒﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻤﻌﺖ ﺣﻮﻝ �ﺝﺮﺓ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ‪.‬ﺩﺍﻓﻨﺔ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﺃﺳﺮﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﻣﻜﺘﻮﺏ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭ�� ﺗﻤﺴﻚ ﺑﺬﺭﺍ�� ّ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻘﺒﻠ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﺍ ﺭﺍﺉﻊ ﻳﺎ ﻋﺰ�ﺰ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺧﺸﻱﺖ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻻ‬
‫�ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ �ﺴﻤﺢ ِ‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻮﺟهﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍ�ﺥﺰﺍﻧﺔ ﻭﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﺣﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ ﺃﺻﻐﺮ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺰﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺣﻀ��ﺎ ﺛﻢ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﺮﺃ ﻓﻴﻪ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻓ ِﺮﺡ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﻥﺒﺪﺃ ﺑﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻟﻴﻢ ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻥ� ﺍﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻴﺔ ﺍﻭ��‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ّ‬
‫�ﻌ�� ﻋﻦ ﺩهﺸ��ﺎ ﻟﺘﻌﻠﻤﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫�ﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺃﺣﺪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺤﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺻﻐﻴﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‬
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‫ﺍﻛ�� ﻣ�ﻱ ﺳﻨﺎ ﻭ�ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺑﺘﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ �ﺥﺼﻴﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻣﻠﻚ ﺗﻔﺴ��ﺍ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺣﺼﻮﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺷﺘﻤﻠﺖ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺩﺭﻭﺳﻨﺎ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﺣﺪ ﻋ�� ﺣﻔﻆ ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻊ �ﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻟﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺪﻳﻥﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺴ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍﻧﺠﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻘﺮﺍﺕ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﺠﻴﻞ‬
‫ﻷ��ﺎ ﺃﺗﺎﺣﺖ �� ﺗﺪﺭ�ﺒﺎ‬ ‫ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮﺍﻧﻴﻢ ﻛﻥﺴﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ هﺬﻩ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﺉﻌﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺇﺣﺘﺠﺖ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ �� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ��‬ ‫ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻴﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻀﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺬه�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺪﻗﻴﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺗﺒﻌﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻧﻈﺎﻣﺎ ﻓﺬﺍ ﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﻓﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﺳﺮﺓ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﳌهﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ ﺇ�� ﻓﺌﺎﺕ ﺑﺤﺴﺐ ﺍﳌهﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻣﺔ ﻟﺘﻨﻔﻴﺬهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺻﻐﺮﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﺴﻤﺖ‬
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‫ﺳﻨﺎ ﺑﺄ�ﺴﻂ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻔﺌﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻋ��ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ�� ﻭﻇﺎﺋﻔﻲ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣ�ﺡ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍ��ﻱ �� ﻣﻄﺒﺦ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺮ�ﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﻤﻌهﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ �� ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺃﻛ�� ﺳﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻮ��‬
‫ْ‬ ‫هﺬﻩ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌهﻤﺔ؛ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺒﻄﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﻠﻨﺖ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺍﻓﻄﺎﺭ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻳﻮﻡ‬
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‫ﺳﺏﺖ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﺑﺪﺃ ﻣهﻤﺎﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍ��ﻱ ﻭﻭﻋﺎﺀ ﻣﻌﺪﻧﻴﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻣﻴﺎﻩ ﻓﺎﺗﺮﺓ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺘﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﺛﻢ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ‬
‫ّﺑﻴﻥﺖ �� ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻔﺼﻴﻞ ﻛﻴﻒ ُﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﻔﺮﺷﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻙ ﻭﺍ�ﺥﺮﻗﺔ ﻷﻓﺮﻙ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍ��ﻱّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺃﺛﻥﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺤﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ّﺃ��ﺎ ّﺃﺩﺕ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍ��ﻱ ﻭﻣﺮ�ﻠ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﻟﻨﺠﻒ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺗﺮﻛﺘ�ﻱ ﻭﺗﺮﻛﺖ‬
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‫ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﺇﻻ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﺣ�ﻯ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ ﻟﻮﻇﻴﻔﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻮﻇﻴﻔﺔ‬
‫ﺃهﻢ ﺑﻜﺜ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﻔﺨﺮ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﻻﺋﺘﻤﺎ�ﻲ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺗﺘ�ﺥﺺ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻈﻴﻒ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻄﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﺳهﺒﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪ�ﻲ �� ﺷﺮﺡ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺒﻮ�� ﺍﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ ﻟﺪﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ‪.‬ﺃﻭﻻ ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻒ ﻭﺍ�ﺝﺪﺭﺍﻥ ﻷﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ هﻨﺎﻙ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻣﻜﻥﺴﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﻨﻈﻴﻔﻪ ﻓﺮ�ﺎ ﺑﺼﻮﺭ ٍﺓ ﺷﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺭﻏﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﺑﻮﻥ‬
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‫ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﻭﻗﺎﺳﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﻓﺮﻏﺖ ﻋﺪﺓ ﺩﻻﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﺖ ﺍﳌﻜﻥﺴﺔ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﻗﻄﻊ ﻓﺮﻭﻉ ﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺛﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺸﻄﻒ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﻀﺮﺓ ‪�.‬ﻌﻀهﺎ �ﺎﻥ ُﻳﻘﻄﻊ ﺇ�� ﻗﻄﻊ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﻧﻮﻋﺎ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﻠﻖ ﻋ�� ﺟﺪﺭﺍﻥ ﺩﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ‬
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‫ﺑﻤﺴﺎﻣ�� ﺩﻗﺖ ﺧﺼﻴﺼﺎ ﻟهﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﺽ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺗﺒﻘﻰ ﻣﻦ ﻓﺮﻭﻉ ﻳﻘﻄﻊ ﺇ�� ﻗﻄﻊ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﻨ�� ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻓﺮﻛﺖ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﺧ��ﺍ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻮﺟﺐ ﺗﻘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻒ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﻣﻨﺘﻈﻤﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻮﺿﻌهﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻠﺒﺔ �� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺯﻭﺍﻳﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻧﻔﺬﺕ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺣﺮﻓﻴﺎ ﺑﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝ ّﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻻ ﻣﺒﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﻟﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻊ ﺍﳌﺘﻐﻀﻨﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺗﻼﺷﺖ ِ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺤﺸﻮ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻒ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻠﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃ�ﻠﻒ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻋﻨﺎﺀ ﺗﻘﻄﻴﻌهﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ّﻭ�ﺨﺘ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺃﻓﻌﺎ�� ﺗﻠﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫’’هﻞ ﺗﺮ�ﺪﻳﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮ�� ‪� ،‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻇهﺮﺕ �� ّ‬
‫ﻗﻮﺓ ﻧﻈﺮﻙ ﻟﺘﻌﻤ��‪ ،‬ﺑﺄﻧﻚ ﻗﺎ�ﻌﺔ ﺑ��ﻙ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺑﻚ ﺣ�ﻥ‬‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﻮﻗ�� ﻣ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻓﺨﻮﺭﺓ ِ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﻋ�� هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ؟ ﻻ‬
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‫ﺗﺨﻴﺒ�ﻥ ﺃﻣ�� ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻣﻤ��ﺓ ﻣﻘﺎﺭﻧﺔ ﺑﺕﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﺩﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ‪،‬‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻓﺮﻙ ﺳﻼﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ﺗﺮﻗﻴﺔ ﱠ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﻷﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺪﺃ ﺑﺎﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻓﻘﻲ �� ﺯﺍﻭ�ﺔ ﺃﺭﺿﻴﺔ‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ‪ّ .‬‬‫ْ‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ّﻧ��ﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺇ�� ﺿﺮﻭﺭﺓ ﺗﻮ��‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺬﺭ ﻭﺍﳌﺤﺎﻓﻈﺔ ﻋ�� ﺗﻮﺍﺯ�ﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﻤﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﺮﺣﺖ �� ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻣ�ﺡ ﺇﻃﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻓﻘﻲ‪� ،‬ﻲ ﻻ �ﻌﻠﻮﻩ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ ﻭﻱﺴﻘﻂ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺍهﻢ هﻮ ﻭﺟﻮﺏ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻥ‬
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‫ﻣ�ﺡ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺟﺎﺕ ﻟﺘﺠﻒ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ �ﻲ ﻻ ﻳﻥ�ﻟﻖ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻭﻱﺴﻘﻂ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻔﻚ �ﻐﺴﻞ ﺩﺭﺟﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮ‪،‬‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﻷ�ﻠ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﺘﻚ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺩﻗ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ��’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻮ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺪﻯ‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﺳﺘﺆﺩﻳﻦ ﻋﻤﻠﻚ ﺑﺈﺗﻘﺎﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻣ�ﺡﺖ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺟﺎﻓﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ �ﻐﺴﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺆﺗﻤﻨﺔ ﻋ�� ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻓﺮﺍﺩ ﺍﺳﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺳهﻤﺖ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ �� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ �� ،‬هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻟﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺛﺎﺙ ﻷﺍﺭﺿﻴﺎﺕ ﺩﺍﻛﻨﺎ ﻭﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﻠﻤﻌﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ﻗﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ ﻳﻈهﺮ ﻋﻠ��ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻤﺎ هﻮ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ»‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ �� ﻭ�� ﺗﻤﺴﻚ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫«‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺸ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺿﻊ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻏﻔﻠ��ﺎ‪ «،‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻻ ﻧﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺒﺼﺮ ﻛﺒﺼﺮ‬
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‫ﻧﺘﺤﻤﻞ ﻣﺰ�ﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻻﻡ �� ﻋﻤﻠﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﻈهﺮ ﺇ�� ﺃﻱ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺇﺗﻘﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﻠﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ �ﻌﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ �� ﻋﻴﻮﻧﻨﺎ‪».‬‬
‫ﻛ��ﺕ ُﺳﻤﺢ �� ﺑﺎﻹﺳهﺎﻡ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺴﻴﻞ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﺎﺩ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺍﻟ��ﻮﺽ ﺑﺎﻛﺮﺍ ��‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ّ ُ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻐﺴﺎﻟﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟهﻪ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺐ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﺃﻭﻻ‬ ‫ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﻐﺴﻴﻞ ﻭ�ﺸﻐﻴﻞ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﺇﻧﺰﺍﻟهﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ‬ ‫ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻏﺴﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﻭ�ﺸﺮهﺎ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﻭﻭﺟﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺮﺗﻀﻴﻪ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﻌﻠﻴﻘهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﺷﺎﻛﻴﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ّ‬
‫��ﻢ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﻈهﺮ ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓ�ﻱ ﺳﺘﺠﻒ ﻋ�� ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫’’هﺬﺍ هﻮ ﺳﺏﺐ ﻭﺟﻮﺏ �ﺸﺮهﺎ ﺑﺘﺄﻥ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ»‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ�ﻲ‪» ،‬ﻓ�ﻱ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺠﻒ‬
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‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﺍﻛﻤﺖ ﻓﻮﻕ �ﻌﻀهﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ �ﺡﻴﺤﺔ ﻭﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﺧﺎﻃﺌﺔ �� ﻓﻌﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺩﻳﻦ �ﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﺷﺪ ﺗﻄﻠﺒﺎ ﻭﺇﻋﺘﻨﺎﺀ ﻣﻤﺎ ﺳﺒﻖ ﺑﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﻭﻇﻴﻔﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﺛﻴﺎﺏ ﺗﺤﺘﻴﺔ‬‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﻮﺍﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﻣﻌهﺎ‬ ‫ﻧﻠﺏﺲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻧﺤﻦ‬ ‫ﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻨ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻔﻴﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﻴﻀﺎﺀ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻣﻌﺎ�ﺝﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺸﺎﺀ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺃﺷﻘﺎﺉﻲ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻭﻥ ﺑﻠﻮﺯﺍﺕ ﺭﺟﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺑﻴﻀﺎﺀ �� ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ�ﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺻﺪﺍﺭ ﺧﻔﻴﻔﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻏﺴﻴﻠﻨﺎ ﺍﺳﺒﻮ��‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺳﻴﻤﺎ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﻠﺏﺲ ﻗﻤﺼﺎﻧﺎ ﺑﻴﻀﺎﺀ‬
‫�� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻋﻤﻼ �ﺥﻤﺎ �ﺴﺘﻠﺰﻡ ﺃﺩﺍﺅﻩ �ﺥﺼ�ﻥ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺎ ﻳﻘﻔﺎﻥ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺴﺔ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ‪ �� ،‬ﺣﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﻣﻮﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺘﺠﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺍﺟﺒﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﻄﺐ �� ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻤﻲ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻭﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻣهﻤﺎ‬
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‫�ﻲ ﺍﳌﻼ�ﺲ �� ﻳﻮﻡ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻷﻥ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻋﺎﺭﺿﺖ ﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻔﺘﻪ ‪:‬‬ ‫ﺃﺧﺮﻯ �ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
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‫’’ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﺍﻕ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ �ﻠﻪ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺴﻴﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺟهﻮﺩهﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻔ�ﺡ �� ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﺎﻃﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﳌﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﻳﺆﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻻ ﻳﺪﻭ�ﺔ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻡ ﻋ�� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ �� هﺬﺍ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸﺄﻥ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺼ�� ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺝﺡ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻋ�� ﻣﺴﻤ��’’ ‪ِ :‬ﻟ َﻢ ﺗﺮهﻘ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺎﻓﺎﺕ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺤﺪﺓ ﻏ�� ﻣﻌهﻮﺩﺓ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﻩ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻟ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ‪.‬ﻟﻱﺲ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺟﻤﻴﻼ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻟﻸﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ ‪.‬ﻛﻴﻒ‬ ‫ﺗﺮﻛهﺎ ﺗﻜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤهﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺣﺎﻟهﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺣﻞ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺍﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻋ�� ﻧﻔﺴهﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﺎهﺰﺕ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺴﺔ ﺭﺟﻮﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻭﻭﺍﻟﺪ�ﻲ �ﻲ �ﺴﻤﺤﺎ �� ﺑﺎﻻﻟﺘﺤﺎﻕ ﺑﺮﻭﺿﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺻﺪﻳﻘ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﻴﻤﺔ ﺃﳌﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻘﺖ ﻓﻌﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺬﻟﻚ هﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪهﺎ �ﺎهﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﻤﺪﺍﻧﻴﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻟﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺒﺬ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﺘﻨﻜﺐ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺗﻠﺘﺤﻖ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻣﻲ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﺃﻣﺎﻣهﺎ ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺗﻘﺮﺃ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻟﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺪﻳﻥﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻚ ِ‬
‫ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ِ‬
‫�ﺎﻑ ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬هﺬﺍ ٍ‬
‫ﺗﻨﻜﺐ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ �� ﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺿﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻼ ��ﻱﺀ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻪ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ��ﺪﻭﺀ« ‪:‬ﻟﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﻱﺴﺎﻋﺪهﺎ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻋ�� ﺍﻋﺘﻴﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺗ�ﻥ ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻢ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ �ﺥﺺ ﻏ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺳﻤﻴﺚ ﻭﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺑﺎﻳ��‬
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‫ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺘﺎﻥ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺘﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﺃﻱ ﺿﺮ �� ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺡ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺎﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻭ ﺅ�ﺔ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍ��ﺝﺎﻣهﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪».‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻳﻤﺎﺭﺳﻮﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺒﺏﺖ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺿﺔ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻤﺎﺭﺳ�ﻱ ّﺇﻳﺎهﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺿﺔ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺃ�ﺴﺮ ﺑﻜﺜ��‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺘﺪ��ﺎ ﺃﺻﻼ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺫﺍ��ﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫�ﺴﺏﺐ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺋﺮﺓ ﺍﳌﺮﺳﻮﻣﺔ ﺑﺨﻂ ﺃﺻﻔﺮ ﺛﺨ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﻠﺴﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ُﻳﻈهﺮ ﻣ�ﺎﻧﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ ﻟ�ﻲ ﻧﺒﻘﻲ ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻨﺎ ﺿﻤﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ ﻧﺬهﺐ ��‬
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‫ﻧﺰهﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺒﻘﻰ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ �� ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﻣﺮﺝ ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ��‬
‫ﻣﺮ�ﻌﺎﺕ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻧﻠﺼﻖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻠﻮﻧﺔ ﻭﺩﻭﺍﺋﺮ ﻣﺼﻨﻮﻋﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻕ ﺍﻟﺰﺍ�� ﻋ�� ﺃﻟﻮﺍﺡ ﻛﺮﺗﻮﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧﺘﺎﺭ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﺍﺭﺟﻮﺍ�ﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺬه�ﻱ �ﺝﻤﺎﻟهﻤﺎ ﻭ��ﺎ��ﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺟﺎﺀﺕ ﺃﳌﺎ ﺑﺎﺣﺜﺔ ﻋ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ��« ‪:‬ﺳﻨﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﻟهﻮ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪».‬‬
‫ﺭ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ �ﻌﻨﻴﻪ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻣﺜ��ﺓ ﻟﻼهﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﻓﻮﺍﻓﻘﺖ ﻓﻮ ﺍ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ �ﻌﺒﻨﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻋﺪﻧﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺘﻌﻼ ﺣﺬﺍﺀﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻞ ﻭﻣﺮﺗﺪﻳﺎ ﺳﺮﻭﺍﻟﻪ ﺍﻟﻘﻄ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﺘ�ﻥ ﻭﻣﻌﻄﻔﺎ ﻗﺼ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻠﺪ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﺮﻭﻑ ﻛﺤﺎﻟﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﻌﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ �ﻌﺪ ﻳﻮﻡ �ﺎﻣﻞ ﻗﻀﺎﻩ �� ﻣ�ﺡ‬
‫ﺍﺭﺍ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻴﺤﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ��‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺟﺮﻱ ﻧﺤﻮﻩ ﻷﺳﺎﻋﺪﻩ ﻋ�� ﺣﻤﻞ ﺛﻼ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻮﺍﺋﻢ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ��؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺨﻔﺾ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻣﻞ ﺛﻼ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻮﺍﺋﻢ ﻟﻴﻜﻮﻥ �� ﻣﺘﻨﺎﻭ��’’ ‪:‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﳌﺎﺫﺍ؟ ﻟﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺤﻞ‬
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‫ﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮ ‪.‬ﺻﺪﻑ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺟﺮ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﻣ�ﺡ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ �� ﺟﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﺮﺍﻧ�ﻠ�ﻥ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻟﺴﺖ �� ﺻﻒ ﺍ�ﺡﻀﺎﻧﺔ؟‪‘‘.‬‬‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ِ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ �ﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ’’ ‪:‬ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺃﳌﺎ ﻧﻠﻌﺐ ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ّ ،‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻟهﻮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ��‬
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‫ﻣﺸﻮﻗﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺟﻠﺲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺟﺎﺕ ﻭ�ﺡﺒ�ﻱ ﺗﺠﺎهﻪ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺿﻊ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻣﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻴﻔﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﺃﻧﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺬه�ﻱ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫�ﻌ�ﻱ‬ ‫هﺬﺍ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻥ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ‬ ‫ﺍﻟهﻮ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺗﻠﻌ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻻ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺑﻠﻄﻒ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺤﺰﻡ’’ ‪ِ :‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﻮﻑ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻠﺖ �ﻲ ﺗﺬه�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺿﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻚ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺗﻮﺳ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﺇﻧﻚ ﺑﻥﺖ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﻭ�ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌ�ﻥ ﻓﻌﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻪ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻚ‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨ‬ ‫‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﺖ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻧﻚ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪ُ .‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻧﺤﻦ ��‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺙﺒ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺗ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺧﺮﻭﻥ ‪.‬ﻵﺍﻥ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﻧﻨ�ﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻧﺒﺪﺃﻩ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺫهﺒﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺿﺔ �� ﻧﺰهﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﻨ��ﻩ ﻣﻴﻨ��ﺎهﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﻋﻄﺘ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﻣﻠﻚ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻧﻘﺪﻳﺔ ﻣﻌﺪﻧﻴﺔ ّﺛﺏﺘ��ﺎ �� ﻣﻨﺪﻳ��‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪ�ﻲ ﻋﻠﺒﺔ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻃﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ‬
‫ﻷﺩﻓﻊ ﺛﻤﻦ ﺭﻛﻮﺏ ﺍﺣﺼﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺰﻣﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ �ﻲ ﺃﺭﻱ ﺃﳌﺎ ﻭهﺎ�ﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺬهﺐ ﻣﻊ‬ ‫ﻗﺶ ّﺑ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻌﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺯﺧﺮﻓ��ﺎ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻓﺔ ﻣﻤﻮﺟﺔ ﻭﺇ�ﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺏﺘﺔ ﺃﺫﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺄﺭ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻗﺒﻌ�ﻱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺣﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺇﻳﺎﺑﻨﺎ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻀﻱﻨﺎ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻥ�هﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺎﻋﺪﺗ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺳﻤﻴﺚ ﻵﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺑﺎﻳ�� ﻭﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺁﺧﺮﻭﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺚ ﻋ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﻣﻀﻄﺮﺓ ﻟﻠﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻏ��‬ ‫ﻧﺠﺪهﺎ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ �� ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺑﺎﻳ�� ﺭﺃ��ﺎ ﻣﻌﻠﻘﺔ �� ﺃﻋ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺃﻃﻮ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ �� ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗ��ﻉ ﺟﻨﺪﻱ‬
‫ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ ّﺑﺰﺓ ﺭﺳﻤﻴﺔ ﺯﺭﻗﺎﺀ ﻭﺫﺍﺕ ﺃﺯﺭﺍﺭ ﺫهﺒﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺑﺈﺣﻀﺎﺭهﺎ ��‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺘ�ﺝﺐ’’ ‪:‬ﻛﻴﻒ �ﻌﺘﻘﺪﻳﻦ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺳﻤﻴﺚ ّ‬
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‫ﻧﻜﺴﺖ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻮ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺮﺓ �ﻌﻴ��ﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫�ﺴﻠﻘ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﻗﺒﻌ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﻏﺼﺎ��ﺎ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﻓﻮﻗهﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺧ��ﺕ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ �ﺝﺮﺓ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺩهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ �ﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﺎﻣﺮﺓ �� ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ �� ﺍﻟ��ﺍﻡ ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻗﺒﻌ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ﺳﺎﳌﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫�ﺸﻮﻗﺖ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺇﻟﺘﺤﺎ��‬ ‫�ﺸﻮﻗﺖ ﻟﻼﻟﺘﺤﺎﻕ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺮﻭﺿﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪ ﺍﺳﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺘﺪ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ ﻛﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺿﺔ �ﺴﻤﻮ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﻭﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪،‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺫهﺒﻮﺍ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ‪� ،‬ﻌﻮﺩﻭﻥ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �� هﻴﺌﺔ ﺭﺻﻱﻨﺔ ﻭﺃﻳﺪ��ﻢ ﻣﻠﻴﺌﺔ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻷﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻘﺖ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﺘﺎﻱ ﺍﻛ�� ﻣ�ﻱ ﺳﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻳﻠ�ﻥ ﻭﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻛ�� ﺃﻭﺳ�ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺳﻤﻌ��ﻢ ﻭهﻢ ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺛﻮﻥ ﻋﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺭﻭﻋﺔ هﺬﺍ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ �� ﺟﻤﻴﻊ‬ ‫ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﺃﺟﺮﺍﺱ ُﻣﻠﻔﺘﺔ ُﺗﻘﺮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻵﺧﺮ؛ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﻮﻥ �ﻌﻠﻘﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻭ�ﻜﺘﺒﻮﻥ ﺃﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﻣﺜ��ﺓ ﻟﻼهﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺡ ﻟﻴﻥ�ﺥهﺎ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﻠﻮﻧﺔ– ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬ ‫ﺗﻀﻢ َ‬
‫ﺻﻮﺭﺍ ّ‬ ‫ﻷﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻳﻘﺮﺃﻭﻥ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ �� ﻛﺘﺐ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻱ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌﻠﻤهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺣﺼﻱﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ﻣﻨﺘﻈﺮﺓ ﺑﺪﺀ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍ�ﺝﻮ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻣﻈﻠﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﺏﺴﺖ ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻲ ﺍﻟﺒ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﳌﻮﻋﻮﺩ ‪��.‬ﻀﺖ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ ﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺬهﺒﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺷ��ﺍﻩ �� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﺜﻮﺏ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻒ ﻣﻦ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺒﺎﺀﺓ ﺑﻴﻀﺎﺀ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ّﺗﻮﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃ��ﺖ َ‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﻣﺒ�ﻯ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺷﺪﺗ�ﻱ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺇﻳﻠ�ﻥ ﺇ�� ﺻﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍ��ﻱ؛ ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻟﻠﻤ��ﻱ ﻣ�� ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷ�ﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻋﺘﻨﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ ﻣﻀﻄﺮﺓ‬
‫ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺑﺜﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟهﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻣﻜﺘ��ﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﻌ�ﻥ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺇ��‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺮﻓﻊ ﻧﻈﺮهﺎ ّ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻥﺸﻐﻠﺔ ﺑﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫«ﺍﺳﻤﻲ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﻣﺎﺭﻏﺮ�ﺖ ﺩﺍﻝ»‪ ،‬ﺃﺧ��ﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﻭ�� ﻣﺎ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗﻜﺘﺐ« ‪:‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟‪».‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﺎﺭﺓ« ‪:‬ﺍﺳﻤﻲ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﻣﺎﺭﻏﺮ�ﺖ ﺩﺍﻝ‪».‬‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺗ�ﺝﺌﺔ ﺍﺳﻤﻚ ﻟﻮ ﺳﻤﺤﺖ؟»‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺃﺧ��ﺍ‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫«هﻞ‬
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‫ﺑﺘ�ﺝﺌﺔ ﺍﺳﻢ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﻠﻤﺘ�ﻱ ّﺇﻳﺎﻩ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ‪.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﻤﺖ‬
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‫ﻋﺏﺴﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓهﻤﻪ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﻣﺮﻛﺰﺍ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﺯ�ﺝ�ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮهﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﻌﺪ ﺑﺮهﺔ« ‪:‬ﺃﺧ��ﻳ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮ�ﻦ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ هﻨﺎﻙ؟‪».‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﺑﻠ�ﺝﺔ ﺁﻣﺮﺓ« ‪:‬ﺇﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻔﻌﻠ�ﻥ هﻨﺎ؟‪».‬‬
‫’’هﺬﻩ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﻻ ﻧﻘﺒﻞ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻻ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﺻﺏﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻋﺮ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ‪:‬ﻟﻦ ﺃﻗﺒﻞ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ؟ هﺬﺍ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺘﺤﻴﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﺠﺐ ﻋ��ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ ﻭ�� ﻌﺎﻳﻨ�ﻱ ﻋﻦ ﻗﺮﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ﻟﻱﺲ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻮﺓ ﺑﺼﺮ‬ ‫ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻛﻔﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ‪�.‬ﺡﻴﺢ‬
‫ّ ْ‬ ‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ّ ،‬‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺷﺄﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺆﻭﻥ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ّﺃﻣﻲ �ﺴﻤﺢ �� ﺑﺘﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﻥ �� ﻞ‬
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‫ﻧﺆﺩﻱ ﻋﻤﻠﻨﺎ ﺑﺈﺗﻘﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻦ ﻳ�ﺡﻆ ﺃﺣﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ‬ ‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ �ﺎﻵﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺇﻧﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ �� ﻋﻴﻮﻧﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺃ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻧﺤﻦ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﻧﻨ�ﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻧﺒﺪﺃﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺇﻓهﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻱﺲ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ �ﻌﻴﺪﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺗﻮ�� ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻋﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﻄﻤ�ﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺗﻨﻈﺮ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﺻﺏﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻴﺄﺱ ‪.‬ﺇﺫ ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻋهﺎ ﺑﺄﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻋﻤﻴﺎﺀ؟ ﻭﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺭﺍهﺎ ��‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺣﻮ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺩﺧﻠﻮﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺔ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻒ هﻨﺎ؟ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫هﻨﺎﻙ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻏﺎﺭﻗﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻣﻮﻉ ﻭ�� ُﺗﻤﺴﻚ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺕﻨﻮﺭﺓ ّﺃﻣهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺃﻭﺷﻜﺖ‬
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‫ﻓﺴﺄﺑﺪﺩ ﺇﻣ�ﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺡ �� ﺑﺎﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒ�ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺑﻜﻴﺖ‬
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‫ﻱ‬
‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺴﻤﺖ ﺃﻣﺮ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﺑﻘﻰ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻣهﻤﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ �� ﻭﻣﻀﺔ ﻋ�ﻥ ﺧﻄﺮﺕ ﺑﺒﺎ�� ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ‪ُ ،‬ﺳﺮﺭﺕ ��ﺎ ﺇ��‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺧﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ ﺑﻴﺪهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﺮﺗﻔﻊ’’ ‪ :‬ﺃﺟﻞ ﺁ�ﺴﺔ’ ﺃﻱ( ‘ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺍﺳﻤهﺎ ﻋﺸﺮﺍﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﻋ�� ﺃﻟﺴﻨﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻟﺜﺆﻟﻮﻝ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻛ�� ﻣ�ﻱ ﺳﻨﺎ)‪ ،‬ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ !‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﻌﻠﻮ ﺃﻧﻔﻚ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻻ ﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﻣﺎ ﻋﻘ َﺒﺖ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﻗﻨﻌ��ﺎ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ هﻮ ﺃﻧﻪ ُﺳﻤﺢ �� ﺑﺎﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺧﺮﺟﻨﺎ ﻟﻼﺳ��ﺍﺣﺔ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤﺜﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺃﳌﺎ ﻭهﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﺗﺠﻮﻟﺖ �� ﺃﺭﺟﺎﺀ ﻣﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋﻠ��ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻋ�� ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻯ‬
‫ﻭﺩﻗﻘﺖ �� ﻭﺟﻮﻩ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻲ ﻷﺭ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭ ﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﺇ�� ﺃﻱ ﻣ��ﻢ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺪﺓ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ّﺃ��ﻢ �ﻌﺾ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﻗ��ﺑﺖ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫�ﻞ ّ‬‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﺨﻄﺌﺔ �� ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ‪�.‬ﻌﺪهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺝ‪ ،‬ﺧﻠﺖ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ‬
‫ﺻ�ﻱ ﻳﻘﻴﻢ �� ّ‬
‫ﺣﻴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺠﺮ�ﺖ ﻧﺤﻮﻩ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺭ�ﺕﺸﺎﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ّ‬
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‫ﺻﺮﺧﺖ« ‪:‬ﺭ�ﺕﺸﺎﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﻢ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺘﻚ؟ ﺍﺳﻢ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ’ ﺁﻱ‪‘«.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ �ﺡﻚ‪.‬‬‫ﺍﻟﺼ�ﻱ ﻣﺸﺪﻭهﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺇ��‬
‫َ‬
‫�ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻔ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺮ�ﺔ ﻣﻨﻪ« ‪:‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮﻭﺍ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺏﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﺣﺰﺭﻭﺍ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻧﺎﺩﻯ‬
‫ﺟﺎﺀ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻭ‬
‫�ﺴﻜﻊ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ ﺣﻮ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻘﻮﺍ ﻋ�� ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻓﺎﺣﺼﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻔﺠﺮ ﺍ �� ﺟﻮﻗﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘهﻘهﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺃﺣﺪهﻢ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﺮﺗﻔﻊ �ﺴﻤﻌﻪ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ’’ ‪:‬ﺧﻥ�ﻳﺮﺓ ﻋﻤﻴﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭﺻﺎﺡ ﺁﺧﺮ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻳ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﻴﺪﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺣﻮﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺛﺎﻟﺚ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮﻱ‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻔﺮﺩ �ﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ ﺫﺍ��ﻢ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ �� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺣﺼﺺ ﻣﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻈهﺮ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﺑﺈﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭﻱ‬
‫ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺍﺳ��ﺍﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺠﺮﻭﻥ ﺧﻠﻔﻲ �� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻳﺮﻭﻧ�ﻱ ﻓ��ﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻧﺘ�ﻯ ﺩﻭﺍﻡ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺪﻋﻮﻧ�ﻱ ﺑﺄﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﻳﻮ�� ﺎ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻣﺘﻌﺮﺟﺔ ﻟﻠﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�� ﻟﻠﺘﺨﻠﺺ ﻣ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﺧ��ﺕ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺎ‬
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‫ﺻﻌﺪﺕ ﺳﻠﻢ ﺍﳌﻥ� �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻭﺗﻮﺟهﺖ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻧﻮﻡ ﺃﻣﻲ ‪.‬ﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﺍﳌﺮﺁﺓ ﺍﻟﻴﺪﻭ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻝ‬
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‫ﺧﺰﺍﻧ��ﺎ ﻭﺻﻌﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻢ ﻣﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺗﻮﺟهﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﻴﺔ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﻷﻭﻝ ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺷﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻟﺼﻘﺖ ﺍﳌﺮﺁﺓ ﺑﻮﺟ�ﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺣﻴﺚ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺷﻜ�� ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﺃﺻﻐﺮ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻷ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻏﺎﺋﺮﺓ �� ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ‬
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‫ﺣﺪﻗﺖ �� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻭﺭﺃﻳﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﺮهﺔ‬ ‫ﻛﺘﻠﺔ ﺯﺭﻗﺎﺀ ﺑﺎهﺘﺔ ﻣﻴﺘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻓﺘﺢ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻥ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺑﻘﻌﺔ ﺑﻴﻀﺎﺀ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﺍﺯﺭﻕ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻻﺣﻈﺖ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺟﻔﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻀﻌﻴﻔﺔ ﻣﻐﻤﺾ ﺟﺰﺋﻴﺎ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﺩﺍﺋﻢ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﻓﺘﺤهﺎ ﻟﺘﻜﻮﻥ‬
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‫ﺑﻔﺘﺢ ﺟﻔ�ﻱ ﺑﺄﺻﺎ�� ‪.‬‬‫ﻣﺜﻞ ﺃﺧ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻟﻔﻴﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻋﺎﺟﺰﺓ ﻋﻦ ُﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻗﻤﺖ ِ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖ‬ ‫ﺇﻓﻼﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﻔﻦ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺳﺏﺐ هﺬﺍ �� ﺃﺫﻯ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺇﺿﻄﺮﺭﺕ ﺇ��‬
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‫�ﻠﺘﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻧﺝﺡ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﺑﺪﻭ‬
‫�ﺴ�ﻯ ﻟﻠﻨﺎﺱ ﺭﺅ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻧﺎﺋﻤﺔ ! ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺪﺩﺕ ﻋ��‬ ‫�ﺎﻵﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻣﻐﻤﻀﺘ�ﻥ ‪ٍ .‬ﺁﻩ ﻟﻮ‬
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‫ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻭﺗﻈﺎهﺮﺕ ﺑﺄﻧ�ﻱ ﻏﻔﻮﺕ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﺛﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻋ�� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻭﻋﻴﺖ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻇهﻮﺭﻱ �� ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺃﺟهﺸﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺒ�ﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺆﺛﺮﺍﻥ ﻋ�� ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ ّ‬ ‫ّ َّ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻱ ﺷ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻢ ﺟﻌ�� ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺇﻃﻼﻗﺎ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺍﺷ�ﺎﻝ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺇﺳ ِ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﻧﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ ﻣﺕﺸﺎ��ﺔ ��‬
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‫ﺑﺘﺄﻥ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﻟﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻤﺎﺛﻠﺔ ﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﺨﻴﻂ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ٍ‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺪ ﺻﻨﻌﺖ �� ﺑﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻋﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻼﺩﻱ ﺍﺧ�� ﺛﻮ�ﺎ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺃﺯﺭﻕ ﺳﻤﺎﻭ�ﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺯﺭﺍﺭ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﻣﺬهﺒﺔ ﻭﺩﺭﺯ ﺯﺧﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺘﻌﺮﺝ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﱠ‬
‫ﻓﺴﻤﻴﺘﻪ ﺛﻮ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺬه�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻥ‪� ،‬ﺴﺏﺐ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻦ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ �ﺎﻵﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻟﻮ ﻟﺏﺴﺖ ﺛﻮ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺬه�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ �� ﺍﳌﻠﻌﺐ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺪﻣﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﻓﻈﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ �� ﻧﻈﺮهﻢ ﺑﺎﺗﺖ �ﺥﺮ��ﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷﺪ ﺇﻳﺬﺍﺀ �� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎ ﺳﺒﻖ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯ��ﻢ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻭﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﻣﺒ�ﻯ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺔ �� ﻣﺪﺧﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﻗﻔﺘ�ﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺟﺘﺎ َﺯﻩ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻚ ﺍﻟﺪﺧﻮﻝ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﺮﻉ‬ ‫ﺠﺪﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺮﺕ‪» ،‬ﺃﻻ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ ّﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ُ‬
‫ﻳ‬
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‫«ﺃﺧﺮ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ»‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺱ ﺍﺧ��؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻣﺪﺧﻼ ﻟﻘﺒﻮ‪ ،‬ﻓﺪﺧﻠﺘﻪ ﻭﻧﺝﺡﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻮﻝ ﺇ�� ﺻﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻲ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ هﻨﺎﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺳﺔ‪،‬‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺪ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﻳﻦ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺑﻠ�ﺝﺔ ﺻﺎﺭﻣﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺩ‬
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‫ﺗﺘﻌﻠﻤﻲ ﺇﻃﺎﻋﺔ ﻗﻮﺍﻧﻴ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﺮ�� ﺣﺎﻻ ﻭﺍﻟﻌ�ﻱ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ُﻳﻘﺮﻉ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺱ ﺍﺧ��‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻇه��ﺓ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﺄﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺩﺧﻠﻮﺍ ﻣﺒ�ﻯ‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﻷﻥ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﻧﻄﻠﻘﺖ ﺭﺍﻛﻀﺔ ﺑﺄﻗ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻀﺎﻳﻘ�ﻱ ﺃﺣﺪ هﺬﻩ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺎﺕ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺧﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺻﻔﻲ ّﻭ�ﺨﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ﻟﺘﺄﺧﺮﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﻋﻄﻠﺔ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺍﺻﻄﺤﺒﻨﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧ��ﺕ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻪ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻓ��ﺟ ْﺘ�ﻱ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻣﻮﻉ ﺗﻥﺴﺎﺏ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺧﺪ��ﺎ ﺃﻻ ﺃﻋ��هﻢ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻴﺘﻔﻮهﻮﺍ ��ﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﻡ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺑﺪﺕ ﺛﻘ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺇ��ﻢ ﻻ �ﻌﻮﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺼﻨﻌﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻻ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬
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‫ﺑﺄ��ﻢ ﺳﻴﻜﻔﻮﻥ ﻋﻦ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻈﺎهﺮﺕ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻟﻘﻲ ﻟهﻢ ﺑﺎﻻ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﻔﻲ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺿﺪ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻛﻼﻣهﺎ �ﺡﻴﺤﺎ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻭﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ��‬
‫ﺇﺫ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋ�� ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻃﻴﺒﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ ﻣﻊ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﻭ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻛﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻗﺪ ﺳﻤﻌﻦ ﺑﻤﺸ�ﻠ�ﻱ ﻭ�ﺎﺩﺭﻥ ﺇ�� ﻓﻌﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﺣﻴﺎﻟهﺎ ‪�.‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻭﻝ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﻋﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﺰ�ﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺫﻻﻝ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺫﻛﺮ‬ ‫ﺍﻧﻘ�ﻯﻯ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻃﻔﻼ ﺿﺎﻳﻘ�ﻱ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ �� ﻣﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻞ ﺣﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺮ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻏﺮ�ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ هﺆﻻﺀ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺍﺻﻠﻮﻥ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓ��ﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ �ﻌﺮﻓﻮﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﺘﻮﺍﺟﺪﻳﻦ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺮ�ﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺧ�� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻣ�ﻯ ﺣﺼﻞ هﺬﺍ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ‪� ،‬ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮ�ﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﺗﻠﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﻢ ﻳﺆﳌهﺎ ﺃﻥ �ﺴﻤﻊ ﻋﻦ هﺬﺍ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻮﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻤﻠﻜ�ﻱ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺄﻥ �ﺝﻮﺉﻲ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻟﻱﺲ ﺻﺎﺋﺒﺎ – ﻣﻦ ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ‬
‫�ﺥﺼﻴﺎ ﻋ�� ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻜﻤﺔ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ﺗﺠﺮ��ﻱ ﻣﻊ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺍﻭ�� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻮﻣﻲ ﺍﻭﻝ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳ��ﺰﺍﺀ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ �ﻲ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻼﻩ ﺧﻠﻔﺎ �� ﺫﺍﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﻧﺪﻭ�ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺃﺳﺘﺤﻖ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﻳﻤﺤﻮهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﻥﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ �� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﺑﺄﻧ�ﻱ ﻻ‬
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‫��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺎ – ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ – �� ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺗ�ﺎﺏ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺑﺈ‬ ‫ﻣﺬﻧﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﻲ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺄ�‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻼﻃﻔ�ﻱ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻭﻱﻌﺎﻣﻠﻮﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣ��ﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ّ‬‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫�ﺴﻤﻴﻪ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻋ��ﺎ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻛ�� ﺳﻨﺎ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﺗﺤﺪﺛﻮﺍ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ �ﺸﻮ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺥﻮﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺨﺮ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺗﻤﻠﻜ�ﻱ ﻓﻀﻮ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﺯﺍﺀ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺫﻛﺮﺕ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺘﻨﺎ ��‬ ‫ﻝ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﺎ ﺳﻨﺠﺮﻱ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﻋﺼﺮ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ��‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮﺕ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺘﻠهﻒ ﺍﳌﻌهﻮﺩ‪.‬‬ ‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮ�ﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺑﻔﺮﺍﻍ ﺻ�� ّﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺎ ‪ ،‬ﻧﺤﻦُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﺟﺎﺀ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺟﺮﻱ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺔ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻧﺼﺮﺍﻑ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣ��ﻳﺔ �ﻌﻨﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻣﺎﻣﻨﺎ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ ﻣﺘﺄهﺒ�ﻥ ﻭ�ﺄﻳﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺃﻗﻼﻡ ﺭﺻﺎﺹ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺿﺪ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ﺻﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻕ ﺍ�ﺥﺸﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﳌﺴﻄﺮ ﺑﺨﻄﻮﻁ‬
‫ﺯﺭﻕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ« ‪:‬ﺗﺬﻛﺮﻭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻜﻢ ﺃﻻ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺘﻨﺎ ﻭ�� ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻨﺎ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ‬
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‫�ﺴﺎﻋﺪﻭﺍ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﻭﺃﻻ ﺗﺘﻠﻘﻮﺍ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻭﺃﻧﺘﻢ ﺗﺠﺮ ﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻘﻲ ﺑﺄﻭﺭﺍﻗﻜﻢ �� ﺳﻠﺔ ﺍﳌهﻤﻼﺕ ﻭﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻢ ﺗﻜﻮﻧﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻏﺸﺸﺘﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻴﻜﻮ‬
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‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﻊ ��ﺎﻳﺔ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍ‬ ‫ﻭ‬‫ﺗﺠﺘﺎﺯ‬ ‫ﻟﻦ‬ ‫ﻜﻢ‬‫ﺃﻧ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﻨﺤﻜﻢ ﺻﻔﺮﺍ �� ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﻴﻌ�ﻱ هﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺍ��ﻱ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺮﺅ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺕ ﻳﻤﻨﺔ ﺃﻭ �ﺴﺮﺓ ﻣﺨﺎﻓﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻈﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃ��ﺥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻕ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ�� ﻭﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﺑﻮﺭﻗ�ﻱ �� ﺳﻠﺔ ﺍﳌهﻤﻼﺕ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﺍﻟﻐﺶ ‪.‬ﻭﺭﻏﻢ ﺇ�ﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﻭﺃﺟهﺪﺕ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍ�ﺝهﺪ �ﻲ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺇ��‬ ‫�ﺎﻧ ْﺖ َﺗ ُ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﺣﻴﺚ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﻏﺪﺍ ﻣﻌهﺎ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺣﻮ�� ﺿﺒﺎﺑﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ ﻭﻟﻮ �ﻠﻤﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﺮ�ﺮ ﺃﻗﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﺮﺻﺎﺹ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﺘﻔﺖ‬
‫ﺟﺎﻧ� ّﻱ ﻭﻃﻴﻒ ﺭﺃﺱ ﺭ�ﺕﺸﺎﺭﺩ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺧﺮ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻃﻴﻒ ﺭﺃﺱ ﺛﻴﻠﻤﺎ �� ﺃﺣﺪ َ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻨﻜﺒ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﻋﻤﻠهﻤﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ﱠ‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺏﺸﻮ ﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻔﺘﺖ ﻧﺤﻮﻧﺎ ‪.‬ﺣﻨﻱﺖ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ‬
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‫�ﺎﻟﺒﺎﻗ�ﻥ ﻭﺗﻈﺎهﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ؛ ﻟﻜﻦ ﺧﻄﺮ ﺑﺒﺎ�� ﺃﻥ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺳﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﺑﺄﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺎﺩﻋهﺎ ﻣﺎ ﺇﻥ ﺗﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﻭﺭﻗ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺣﻤﺎﻗﺔ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ�ﺥﻄﻮﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺴﺪﺕ ﺛﻴﻠﻤﺎ ﻟﺴﻤﺎ�� ﻗﻠﻤهﺎ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻥﺘﻘﻞ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ﻭﺭﻗ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻮﺳﻌهﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺪ ﺳﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺗﺘﺬﻛﺮ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳﺘﺬ�ﺎﺭ ﺃﻣﻮﺭ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ �� ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺍﺳﺌﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺘﺏﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﺘﺠﻴﺐ ��ﺎ‬
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‫�ﺡﻴﺤﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﻜﺮﺕ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺟﻪ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ ﻷﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ؛ ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴ ّﺒﻮﺭﺓ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﻧﺤﻮ ّ‬ ‫ّ ْ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺕ ِﻏﺸﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻼ ﺑﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻭ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ‪ ،‬ﺗﺕﻨﺤﻨﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﻨﺬﺭﺍ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻗﺮ ﺕ‬
‫ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﻭﺿﻊ ﺑﺎﺉﺲ ﺣﻘﺎ ‪.‬ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﺎﺡ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ‪ �� ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﻱ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺃﺳﻮﺀ ﺃﻧﻮﺍﻉ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﺰ ّﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗ�ﺡﻖ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻱ �ﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺧﻔﻖ ﺍﺛﻨﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ �� ﺻﻔﻲ‬
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‫�� ﺍﺧﺘﺒﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻧﺠﻮ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺍﺫﻻﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﺎ ﻗﺪ‬
‫�ﺎﺑﺪﺍﻩ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻔ��ﺓ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻨﻴﺔ ﺗﻮﺷﻚ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻓﺎﺕ ﺍﻭﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴ ّﺒﻮﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻔﻌﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻳﺕﻴﺢ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﺮﺕ �� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﺳﺘﺠﻤﻌﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻮﺟهﺔ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ‬ ‫�ﻞ �ﺝﺎﻋ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺗﻘﻒ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ« ‪.‬ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺎ ﺑﻮ ﻏﻴﻠﺪ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﺮﺗﻔﻊ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﺑﺤﺮﺍﺟﺔ ﻭﺿ��‪� «،‬ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺨ��ﻳ�ﻱ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﺑﺄﻧ ِﻚ ﻻ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌ�ﻥ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺌﻠﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺴﻱﺖ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺘﻚ ‪.‬ﺃﺳﺮ�� ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻻ ﻓﻠﻦ ﺗﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻓﺎﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬
‫ﺇﻧﺘ�ﻯ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪».‬‬
‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﱠ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﻣ�� ﺇ�� ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻱ ﻭﺃﻣﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﺳﺌﻠﺔ ‪.‬ﺛﻢ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ �ﺎﳌﺠﻨﻮﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻼﻡ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺮﻉ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺱ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﻤﻲ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻠﻢ ﻣﻦ ِ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺃﻋ�� ﻣﻦ ﺻﺮ�ﺮ ﺃﻱ ٍ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻳﺼﺮ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﻃﻮ ِﺭ ﺇ��ﺎﺀ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺆﺍﻝ ﺍﺧ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ �ﺴﻠﻴﻢ ﻭﺭﻗ�ﻱ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻗ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻤﻠﻜ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺥﻮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺳﻨﻮﺍ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻓﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻑ ﺍﳌﻜﺘﻈﺔ ﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ��‬ ‫ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴهﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻋﺎﺟﺰﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﺬﻛ��هﻦ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺇﺣﺮﺍﺟﺎ �� ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻛﻦ ﻳﻜﺘ�ﻥ ﺍﺳﺌﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﺇﺿﻄﺮﺍﺭﻱ ﺇ��‬
‫�ﻦ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺒﺒ��ﻦ ﳌﺮﺍﻋﺎ� ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟ�� ﻋﻨﺪ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺍﺕ ﻟﻢ ُﻳﺰ�ﺝ�ﻱ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﻟﻄﻔﺎﺀ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻣﻲ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻋﻦ ﺩﻓﺎﺗﺮهﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫�ﺴﻤﺎﺣهﻢ �� ﺥ ﺃﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﺩﺭﻭﺳﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ��ﺥ ّ‬
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‫ﻳﺘﻱﺴﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃ�ﺴﻠﻞ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ّﺇﻣﺎ ﺑﺎﻛﺮﺍ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﺻﻮﻝ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ �ﻌﺪ‬
‫ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺣﻴ��ﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ �� ﻭﺳ�� ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺡ ﻭﺗﺜﺏﻴﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺗﻮﺟﺪ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍﺀ ﺣﻴﺚ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃ��ﺥهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳ�� ﺟﻴﺌﺔ ﻭﺫهﺎﺑﺎ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺮﻙ ��ﺎ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ﻳﻤﻴﻨﺎ ﻭﻱﺴﺎﺭﺍ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻨﻔﺲ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻄﺒﻮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺲ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ‪ ،‬ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﺃﺳهﻞ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﻭ��‬
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‫ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻏﺮﺍ�ﺲ ﺷ��ﻭ ﺩ‪� ،‬ﻌﺮﻑ ﺃﺳﺮ�ﻲ ﻷﻥ ﺃﺷﻘﺎﺉﻲ ﺍﻛ�� ﺳﻨﺎ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻗﺪ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺪﺭ ُﻙ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻣﺤﺪﻭﺩﻳﺔ ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺬﻟﺖ ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ��‬ ‫ﺩﺭﺳﻮﺍ �� ﺻﻔهﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻌهﺎ ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﻨﺎ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺘ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻓﻴﺘ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺍﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟ��ﺍﻭﺭ ﻣﻌهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻛﺕﺸﻔﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺃﻣﻮﺭﺍ ﻣﺸ��ﻛﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﺑﻴﻥﻨﺎ ‪ُ .‬ﻭﻟﺪ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ��‬
‫ﺷ��ﻭﻭﺩ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺃﺧﺖ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﺩﺓ ‪.‬ﺗﺒﺎﺩﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺺ‬ ‫ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻟﻶ�ﺴﺔ ْ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ُﻳﺤﺮﺯﻩ ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣ��ﻤﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻣﻨﺎ ُﻳﺨ�� ﺍﺧﺮ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺿﻴﻌ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﻋﻦ‬
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‫«ﺍﺑﺕﺴﻤﺖ ﻃﻔﻠﻨﺎ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﺪ�ﻲ �ﻐﺴﻠﻪ»‪ ،‬ﺃﺧ��ﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ‬
‫ﺷ��ﻭﻭﺩ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺃﺧ�ﻱ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﺣﺔ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ‪ّ «،‬‬
‫ﺗﺨﻴ��‬ ‫«ﻟﻘﺪ �ﻌﺮﻓﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ﺷهﻮﺭ ‪.‬ﺳﺄﻣ��ﻱ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻋﻄﻠ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻃﻔﻠﺔ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﺧﺎﻟ��ﺎ ﻭ�� ﻟﻢ ﺗﺒﻠﻎ ﺣ�ﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠهﺎ �� ﺍﻋﺘﻨﺎﺀ ��ﺎ‪».‬‬
‫ﻝ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ �� ﻣﻥ� ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻟﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺃهﺪهﺪ ﺃ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��‬
‫ﻭﺃﻋﺮﺿﻪ ﻟﻠهﻮﺍﺀ ﻭهﻮ �� ﻣهﺪﻩ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺷﺒﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﻮﺽ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻣﺎ�ﻊ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ‪ ،‬ﻣهﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻧﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﻨﺎﺩﻳ�ﻱ ﻷﻗﻮﻡ ��ﺬﻩ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌهﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺷ��ﻭﻭﺩ �ﺎﻥ ��ﺪهﺪ ﻣهﺪ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺃﺧ��ﺎ ّ‬‫ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ْ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻌﺮﺿهﺎ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬
‫ﺷﺄﻥ ﻛﺒ�� ﻛﻮ�ﻲ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﻤﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻡ ِﺑﻪ ��‬
‫ﻟﻠهﻮﺍﺀ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ�ﻲ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺫﺍﺕ ٍ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﻆ ﺣﻠﻴﻔﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺱ ‪.‬ﺇﺫ ﺇﻥ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺇﻓ��هﺎﺭﺕ‪ ،‬ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ��‬
‫ﻛﺤﺎﻝ ﻟ�ﺝ��ﺎ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﻣﻌﺴﻮﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﻡ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮ�ﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺩﺭﺳﻨﺎ ﺗﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ �� ﺻﻔهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻔﺎﺿﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺸﺮﺡ ﻋﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺏ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪهﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺧﺮ ﺻﺮﻱﻌﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﺎﺗﻞ �� ﺻﻔﻮﻑ ﺍ�ﺝﻱﺶ‬ ‫ﻷﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ‪.‬ﺃﺧ��ﺗﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ‪.‬ﻓﺸﻌﺮﻧﺎ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﺰﻥ ﻷﺟﻠهﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻧﻔﺪﺭﺍ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺟهﺸﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺒ�ﺎﺀ ﻭ�� ﺗﺤ�ﻲ‬
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‫�ﻌﻠﻤﻨﺎ �� ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺳﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮﺏ �ﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﺧﻄﺄ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﻛﺴﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﺪﺓ‬
‫ﻗﺪﻡ ﺟﻨﺪﻳﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ« ﻓﻮﺭﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻔﻴﺪﺭﺍﻟﻴﺔ ﻻﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻅ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺒﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﻭ��« ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻯ » ِ‬
‫ﺗﺠﺮ��ﻤﺎ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻣﺸﺎﺭﻛ��ﻤﺎ ��‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻄﻠﻌﺎﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﺘﺤﺪﺛﺎ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ُ‬
‫ﻭ�‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺳﻥﻴﻠﻴﻨﻎ »‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺘﺎﻝ �� ﺻﻔﻮﻑ ﺟﻱﺶ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺎﻝ ‪.‬ﺍﳌﺜ�� ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺇﻓ��هﺎﺭﺕ ﻋﺎﻣﻠﺖ هﺬﻳﻦ‬
‫ﺑﺰ��ﻤﺎ ﺍﺯﺭﻕ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺷﻱﺒ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺰ�ﻦ ﺑﺎ�ﺝﺪﺍﺋﻞ ﻷﺍﺯﺭﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺬهﺒﻴﺔ ﺑﺤﻔﺎﻭﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻠ�ﻥ‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ّﺃ��ﻤﺎ ﻗﺎﺗﻼ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﻮﻑ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺎﺗﻞ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺪهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺉﻲ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ‬ ‫�ﺸ�ﻞ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ ��‪ ،‬ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ‬
‫ﻏﻴﺘﻱﺴﺒﻮﺭﻍ ‘‘‪ ��1‬ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺇﻓ��هﺎﺭﺕ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ �ﻠﻔﺘ�ﻱ ﺑﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ’’ ﺧﻄﺎﺏ‬
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‫ﺟﺎﺀﺕ ﻟﺰ�ﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﻭ�ﻠﻤﺘ�ﻱ �ﺸﺄﻧﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﻤﺘﺎﺯ ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻟﻴﻨﻜﻮﻟﻦ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﺕ ﺍ�ﺥﻄﺎﺏ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ��’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﺮ ِ‬
‫ﻓﻌﻠﺖ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﻀﻊ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺣﺎﺳﻱﺲ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺇﻓ��هﺎﺭﺕ ﻣﺤﻘﺔ �� ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩهﺎ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺗﺄﺛﺮﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺹ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺗﺎﺣﺖ �� ﺍﳌﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻋﻤﻞ ��‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﻄﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ُﻳﻄﻠﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﻤﺜﻠ�ﻥ ﻟﺼﻔﻮﻓهﻢ �� ﻓﻌﺎﻟﻴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺣﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ﺍﺩ�ﻰ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﻊ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺮﺍﺕ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻣ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﺜﻞ ﺩﻭﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﻋ�� ﺃﻗﻞ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻋﻴﻮ��ﻢ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻄﻠﺐ‬
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‫ﻣﻼﻙ �� ﻣﻮﻛﺐ ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺢ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺮﺃﻧﺎ ﻋﻨﻪ ﻓ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺩﻭﺭ ِﺟﻨ ّﻴﺔ �� ﺗﺎﺑﻠﻮﻩ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺟﻨﺪﻱ �� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﻮﻟﻴﺔ �� ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺩﻣﻴﺔ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺍﺽ‬
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‫ﻋﺴﻜﺮﻱ ﺑﺎﻟ��ﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺯهﺮﺓ �� ﺑﺎﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﺰهﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﺮ�ﺔ ��« ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺮﺓ ‪».‬ﻭ��‬
‫ﺮﺳﻞ ﻓﻴﻪ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﺍﳌﺮﻛﺰ�ﺔ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ُﻳ َ‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﻦ ﻳﺄﺗﻮﻥ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �ﺎﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ ﻟﺘﻠﻘﻲ ﺩﺭﻭﺳهﻢ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﻈﺎهﺮﺓ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺪﻋﻮﺍ ﺇ��‬‫ﺃﻻﺣﻆ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻏﺔ ﻷﻭﻟﺌﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻗﺪ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﺤﻈﻮﻇ�ﻥ ﻛﻔﺎﻳﺔ ﻟ�ﻲ ُﻳ َ‬
‫�ﻌﻢ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺑﺄﺳﺮهﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺣﻀﻮﺭ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺗﻤﺜﻴﻠﻴﺔ ﺳﻨﺪﺭ�ﻼ ﻭﻗﻔﺖ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺡ ﻣﻤﺴﻜﺔ ﺑﺤﺬﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴﻞ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻓﻴﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺮﻗﺺ ﺑﺨﻔهﺎ ﺍﻟﺰﺟﺎ�� ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺟهﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﺻﻐﻴﺖ ﺇ�� ﺃﺩﻭﺍﺭ �ﻞ‬
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‫ﻥ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺜﻠ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﳌﻤﺜﻼﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻏﻀﻮ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﺣﺎﻛﻴﺖ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ �� ﺍﺳﻄﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺭ�ﺖ‬
‫ﺣﻴﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺃﺩﻭﺍﺭهﻢ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ �� ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺒﺎﻥ ﺃﺧﺮ ﻟﻴ��ﻮﺍ‬‫ﻧﻈﺮﺍ ﻟﻼﺯﺩﺣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﺋﺪ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺕﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﻞ ﺗﻼﻣﻴﺬ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﺎ�ﻊ ﺇ�� ٍ‬
‫ﻋ��‪� ،‬ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣ��ﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﺟﺐ ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻥﺘ�ﻥ ﺍﺧ��ﺗ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺃ�ﻌﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﻣﻌهﺎ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺰ�ﺪ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻴﻞ ﻷﺻﻞ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ َ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺮﻋﻮ�ﺔ �� ﻣﺤﻴﻄﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺎﺭ ﱡ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻷﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﻃﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻜﺲ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺷﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻓﻔﻲ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ ﺃﺻﻱﺐ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﺑﻤﺮﺽ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻴﻔﻮﺋﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺍﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻋ�� ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻨﺎ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺑﺄﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻧﻔهﻢ ﺇﺣﺪﺍﻧﺎ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﺍ�ﺥﻄﺄ �ﺎﻥ ﺧﻄﺉﻱ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺧﻄﺆهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧﺸﺎهﺎ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﺧ��هﺎ �ﻌﺪﻡ ﺇﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺍﺕ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﻓﺘﻘﺮﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻣﺔ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻃﻠﻌهﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻃﻠﻊ ﺃﻳﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﻋﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺣﺎﺟ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺐ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻷﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺇ�� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ �ﻲ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺑﺎ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻼﻣﻴﺬ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﺣﺪّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ْ ُ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻟﺒﺚ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺘ��ﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ٍ‬
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‫ﺳﻮﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻣﻐﻔﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﺮﺃ ﻗﺼﻴﺪﺓ ‪ �� The Courtship of Miles Standish‬ﺣﺼﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﻴﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﺇ�ﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﻮﺿﻌهﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺳ��ﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪.‬ﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ��ﻮﺽ‪ ،‬ﻓﻔﻌﻠﺖ؛ ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻟﺰﻣﺖ‬ ‫ﻓﺪﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻹﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻋ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺗﺼﺪﺭ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﱠ‬ ‫ﻝ ّ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻠﻐﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﺎ�ﻊ ﻭﻻ ﺗﺤﺴﻨ�ﻥ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻚ‬ ‫ﺇﻧ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﻮ‬ ‫�ﻌﻨ�ﻥ‬ ‫هﻞ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﺓ‬ ‫ﺑﺤﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺅ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬
‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺧﺪﻱ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺎ ﺳﺎﺧﻨ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺮ ﻭﺱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻓﻮﻗهﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻭﺭﺍﻥ ﺣﻮ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄﻧ�ﻱ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻟﺼﻘﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈ�ﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ �ﻠﻤﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺃ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺡﻚ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﻜﺒﻮﺕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺁﻣﺮﺓ« ‪:‬ﺭﺩﺩﻱ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻭﺭﺍﺉﻲ ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺖ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺟﻮﻥ ِ‬
‫ﺃﻟﺪﻥ‪ ،‬ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ‪».‬‬
‫�� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻈﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻗﺪﺭ ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﺘﻼﻉ ﺭ�ﻘﻲ ﻭﻻ ﻋ�� ﺇﺻﺪﺍﺭ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻠﻘﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﻠهﺎﺀ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﻻ ﺗﺤﺴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺑﺎﺷﻤ��ﺍﺯ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺇﻥ ِ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﻴﻞ ﺇ�� ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩ ّ‬
‫ﺑ�ﺡﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻔ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺸهﺮ ﺍﻭﻝ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺷهﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﻠﻴﺌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ �ﺸ�� ﺇ�� ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺧﻔﻘﺖ �� ﺩﺭﺍﺳ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ ﺍﻛ�� ﺳﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﻣ�ﻱ ﻟﺘﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎﻟﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺇﻥ ﺳﻠﻮ�ﻲ ﻗﺎﺩهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﻟﺴﺖ ﺫﻛﻴﺔ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺒ�ﻥ ﻟهﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ﺿﻌﻴﻒ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ �ﻐﻴ��‬
‫ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺳﻔهﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺻﻌﺐ ّ‬ ‫ٌ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﻭﺻﻔﺘﻪ ﺑﻤﺤﻨﺔ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ‪.‬ﺃﻋﺮ�ﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺎ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ّ‬ ‫ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺃﺻﺮﺕ ﻋ�� ﺭﺃ��ﺎ �� ﺃ�ﻲ ﻣﺘﺨﻠﻔﺔ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺤﺴﻦ ﻋﻘﺐ ﺯ�ﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ ﻟﻠﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺎ�� ﺷﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﺍﺻﻐﺮ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻧﺘﺎﺋ��‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻣﺮﺿﻪ ﻭﺻﺎﺭ �� ﻣﺴﺘﻄﺎﻉ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺇﻳﻼﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺃﺑﻨﺎ��ﺎ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺎﻳﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﻭﻧﻘﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺻﻒ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ �ﺸﺮﻑ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﺗﻨ��ﺖ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﺸ�ﻠ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻭﻛﻨﺎ �� ﺍ��ﺝﺎﻡ ﺗﺎﻡ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺿﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺿﺮﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﺰﺧﺮ ��ﺎ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺮﺍ�ﻲ ﻣﺘﺨﻠﻔﺔ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺎ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺃﻋﻀﺎﺀ هﻴﺌﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺻﺮﺕ ﻧﺎﻇﺮ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻼﺣﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﺎ�ﻊ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺔ ﺻ�ﻱ ﺍﺳﻤﻪ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ �ﺎﺭﻟﺴﻮ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ﻳﺘﺄ�ﺊ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻳﺒﺎﻝ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺐ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻦ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺷﻐﻮﻓﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ��ﻱﺀ‬ ‫ﺑﻪ‬ ‫ﻳﺠﺪﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻳﺮﺳﻢ‬ ‫ﻭهﻮ‬ ‫ﺴﺎ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ �ﻲ ﻻ ﺗﻀﺒﻄﻪ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻠﺏ‬
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‫َ ْ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺁﺧﺮ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﻦ �ﺎﻥ ﻧﻘﻄﺔ ﺿﻌﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻔﺘﻮﻧﺔ ﺑﻤﻮهﺒﺘﻪ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻧﺘﺎﺝ‬
‫ﺭﺳﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﺎﻝ ﺑﺒﻀﻌﺔ ﺧﻄﻮﻁ ﻋﺸﻮﺍﺋﻴﺔ ﻇﺎهﺮ�ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ﻗﺎﻡ ﺗﻼﻣﻴﺬ ﺻﻔﻨﺎ ﺑﺈﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﺃﻏﻠﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻜﺘﺐ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺎﺋﻴﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟ�ﻱ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﺸﺮﻭﻉ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ �� ﺍ�ﺝﻐﺮﺍﻓﻴﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ‪.‬‬
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‫��ﻱ �ﺎﻥ �� ﻧﻈﺮ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﺃﻭ ﻣﻮﺕ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻠﻎ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺟﺐ ﺍﳌﺪﺭ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﺍﻗﻪ ﻓﻴﻪ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺍ ﺟﻌﻠﻪ ﻻ ﻳ�ﻠﻒ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻋﻨﺎﺀ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺇﺧﻔﺎﺀ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﻋﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﳌﺘﻔهﻤﺔ ﺗﺮﻛﺘﻪ ﻳﻮﺍﺻﻞ ﻋﻤﻠﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮ�ﺨﻪ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ﻳﻥ�ﺥ ﻏﻼﻑ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ ‪Mrs. Wiggs of the Cabbage Patch‬‬
‫ﺍﻗﺒﺘﻪ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺮﺳﻤﻪ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ ﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻪ‬ ‫ﻷﻟﻱﺲ هﻴﻐﺎﻥ ﺭﺍ�ﺲ ‪.‬ﺭ ْ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻘﺮﺭ ﺗﻨﻈﻴﻢ ﻣﻌﺮﺽ ﻟﻸﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ‬
‫ﻓﻮﺯ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ﺑﺎ�ﺝﺎﺋﺰﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﻋﺼﺮ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﺧ��‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻘﺮﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺇﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻴﺔ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﻨﻘﻞ‬ ‫ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻇﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺍﻡ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍﺟﺐ �� ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﻐﺮﺍﻓﻴﺎ ﻟﻠﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ﻳﺮﺳﻢ �ﺎﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﱠ‬ ‫ﺯ‬ ‫ﻝ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻗﺪ ﺍﻧ��ﻴﺖ ﻭﺟﻤﻌﺖ ﻛﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩﺍ ﻟﻠﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ� ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻲ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮ ﻣﻨﻜﺒﺎ ﻋ�� ﻏﻼﻑ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺖ ﻷﻟﻘﻲ ﻋ�� ﻋﻤﻠﻪ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺃﺧ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃ�ﺡﻆ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻭﻋﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ �ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﻛﺘﺎﺑﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﺣ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺣﺮﻛﺖ ﻣﺮﻓﻘﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻒ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﻜﺄﺱ‬ ‫ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺎﻓﺔ ﻣﻨﻀﺪﺗﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﻌﺪﻧﻴﺔ ﻭ�� ﺗﺘﺪﺣﺮﺝ ﻋ�� ﻣﻨﻀﺪﺓ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﻭﻗﻌﺖ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻩ ﺃﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻋ��‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ّﺛﻤﺔ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺗﺼﺏﺐ ﻛﺮ�ﻪ ﻟﻠﻤﺎﺀ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗ�ﺥﺒﻄﺖ ﻛﻮﺍﻣ�ﻱ ﺟﻤﻴﻌهﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻓﻄﻨﺖ ﺇ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻀﺮﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺡﻖ �ﻐﻼﻑ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻭﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ ﺇ�� ﻓﻮ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ‪ ،‬ﺫﺍﺑﺖ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﺃﺭﺽ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﻭﻱﻐﺰ ﺍﳌﻐﻄﺎﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺮﻧﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻮﻧﻴﺔ ﺫﺍﺋﺒﺔ ﻭﻓﺴﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻢ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺧﻄﻮﻁ ّ‬
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‫�ﻐ�� ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ‪.‬ﻭﺟهﻪ ﺍﳌﻤﺘﻘﻊ‪ ،‬ﻋﻮﺿﺎ‬ ‫ﺗﺠﺮﺃﺕ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ‪.‬ﻻﺣﻈﺖ‬
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‫ﻋﻦ ﺳﻤﺎﺣﺘﻪ ﻭ�ﻌﺒ��ﺍﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻏﺪﺍ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺣﻤﺮ ﻭﻋﺎ�ﺴﺎ ﻭﺷﺮﺳﺎ ‪.‬ﺑﻞ ﺇﻥ ﻋﻨﻘﻪ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺤﺮﻙ ﻧﺤﻮ ﻃﺮﻑ ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻱ‪.‬‬‫ﻏﺪﺕ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻟﻮﻥ ﻗﺮﻣﺰ ّﻱ ﻏﺎﻣﻖ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻳﺪﻩ ﺍﳌﻘﺒﻮﺿﺔ ّ‬
‫’’ﻳﺎ‪-‬ﻳﺎ‪-‬ﻳﺎ‪-‬ﻳﺎ‪-‬ﻳﺎ‪ ،‬ﺩﺍ‪-‬ﺩﺍ‪-‬ﺩﺍ‪-‬ﺩﺍ‪-‬ﺩﺍ‪-‬ﺩﺍ‪».‬‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫هﺬﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺟﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻮﻩ ﺑﻪ ‪.‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﺇﻥ ﻓﺮﻭﺓ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﺍﺑﻴﺾ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺣﻤﺮﺍﺀ‪�� ،‬‬
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‫ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‪� ،‬ﺴﺏﺐ ﺍ�ﺝهﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺒﺬﻟﻪ �� ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺒ�� ﻋﻦ ﺭﺃﻳﻪ �ﺸﺄ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺑﻼ ﺣﺮﺍﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺄﻟﻢ �� ﺣﻠﻘﻲ ﻭ�ﺤﺮﻗﺔ �� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﺮهﺔ« ‪:‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻪ �� ﻭﻟﺴﺖ ﺃﻟﻮﻣﻚ ﻳﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﺗﺘ�ﻠﻒ ﻣﺸﻘﺔ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ‪.‬ﻷ��ﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺰ�ﺪﻙ ﺇﻻ ﺇﺳﺕﻴﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﻏﺐ ّ‬‫ﺣﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺃﺭ ُ‬
‫�ﺸﺪﺓ �� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﺟﺎﻓﺘ�ﻥ ﻭﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺣﻠﻘﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺯﺍﻟﺖ �ﻌﺒ��ﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻐﻀﺐ ﻋﻦ ﻭﺟﻪ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﺰﺭﻗﺎﻭﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺗﺤﺘﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻏﺎﻣﻘﺘ�ﻥ ﻭﺻﺎﻓﻴﺘ�ﻥ ﻛﺴﻤﺎﺀ �ﺸﺮ�ﻦ‪.‬‬
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‫«ﺃﻭ‪-‬ﺃﻭ ‪.‬ﺷﺎ‪-‬ﺷﺎ‪-‬ﺷﺎﻛﺲ ‪.‬ﻻ‪-‬ﻻ ‪-‬ﻻ ﺗﺒﺎ��‪ ،‬ﺑـ‪ -‬ﺑـ ‪ -‬ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ‪.‬ﻻ‪-‬ﻻ‪-‬ﻻ ﺑﺄﺱ»‪ ،‬ﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻮﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻥ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺮﺯ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺠﺪ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ �ﺥﺼﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺒﻪ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﺣﺒﺏﺘﻪ ﻋﺼﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ‬
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‫�ﻐ��ﺕ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻣ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﺎ�ﻊ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﺘﺘﻠﻤﺬﺕ ﻋ�� ﻳﺪ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ �ﺎﻛﺲ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ’’ ﺑﺎﺀ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ�� ﻳﺪ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺃﻭه��ﻥ‬
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‫�� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ’’ ﺃﻟﻒ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ �ﺎﻛﺲ ﺳﻴﺪﺓ ﻣﺴﻨﺔ ﺫﻛﺮﺗ�ﻱ ﺑﺼﻮﺭ ﺍﳌﻠﻜﺔ ﻓﻜﺘﻮﺭ�ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﻤﻠﻜﺔ‬
‫ﺗﺼﺮﻓﺎ��ﺎ ﻭ�� ﻣﻈهﺮهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﻣﺸﺎﻛﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﻘﻔﻮﻥ‬ ‫�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺒﺒ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺇﺟﻼﻻ ﻟهﺎ ‪.‬ﻏ�� ّﺃ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﺣﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﺯﺍﺩﺗ�ﻱ �ﻌﻠﻘﺎ ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻏﺒﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻋﺪﺕ �� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻤﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺣﻮ�� ﻭﺻﺮﻥ ﻳﻨﺎﺩﻳﻨ�ﻱ ُﻣﺪﻟﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻠﻘﺒﻨ�ﻱ ��ﺬﺍ ﺍﺳﻢ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫’’ﺳﺄﻟ��ﻦ’’ ‪ِ :‬ﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺣﻜ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﺎﺩﺕ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ �ﺎﻛﺲ ﻋ�� ﺍﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﻭﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﺴﺖ ��‬
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‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ ﺗﺪﺭﻙ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺃﻣﺮ هﺎﻡ ﻳﻤﻨﻌ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻭﻡ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﻭﺍﻋﻴﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ؛ ﻭﻋﻼﻭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺩﻗﺔ ﻣﻮﺍﻋﻴﺪﻱ ﻭﺍﺟ��ﺎﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃ�ﺝﺒﺖ �ﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬
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‫ﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺎﺡ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻐﻠﺐ ﻋ�� ﺇﻋﺎﻗﺔ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧ��ﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻼﻣﻴﺬ ﺃ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﻓﺨﻮﺭﺓ ﺑﻜﻮ��ﺎ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻼﻣهﻦ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺡﺔ‬‫�ﻦ ﺃﺻﺮﺭﻥ ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ� ّ‬‫ﺃﺻﺪﻕ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﻓهﻢ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﻔﺘﺨﺮ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ �ﺸﻌﺔ ﺍﳌﻨﻈﺮ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺗﻼﻣﻴﺬهﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﻨﺎﺀ ﻭﻗﻊ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎ ﺳﺒﻖ ﻟﻠﺴ�� ُ‬
‫ﻗﺪﻣﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫�� ﻗﻠ�ﻱ ﻭﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﺑﺬﻝ ﺟهﺪﺍ ﺃﻛ�� ّ‬
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‫ﺍﺩﺏ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱّ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺃﻭه��ﻥ ﺗﺤﺐّ‬ ‫ُ ّ ّ‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻧﻘﺪ ﻩ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﺻﺮﻧﺎ ﻧﺄﻟﻒ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﺁﺧﺮ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌﻠﻤﻨﺎ ّﺇﻳﺎﻩ؛ ﻭﻟﻮﻟﻌهﺎ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﺟﻌﻠﺘﻨﺎ ﺭ‬
‫ﻣﺏﺴﻄﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺇ��‬‫ﻣﻌﺎﻧ��ﺎ ﺑﻠﻐﺔ ّ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﻗﺼﺺ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺩﺏ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺳﻴ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺸﺮﺡ ﻟﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ �ﺴهﻞ ﻣﺘﺎ�ﻌﺔ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻪ ‪.‬ﺩﺭﺳﻨﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﻮﻟﻴﻮﺱ ﻗﻴﺼﺮ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ ّﺃﺩﻳﻨﺎ ﺗﻤﺜﻴﻠﻴﺔ �ﺝﺰﺀ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻭﺣﻔﻈﻨﺎ ﻓﻘﺮﺍﺕ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﻣ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺩﻋﺖ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺃﻭه�� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ �� ﺃﺱ ﻣﻮﻧﺘﻐﻤﺮ ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺪ �ﺎﻥ �� ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻥ‬
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‫ﻟﻴﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﺃ��ﻯﻯ ﺍﺛﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺮﻛﻪ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﻪ ��‬ ‫ﺳ��ﺍﺗﻔﻮﺭﺩ‪-‬ﺃﻭﻥ‪-‬ﺃﻓﻮﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻭﻗﻒ ﻓ��ﺎ �ﺥﺺ ﻳﻤﻠﻚ ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﺗﺘﺼﻞ‬ ‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﺗﻠﻚ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﺘﺤﺪﺙ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﺭﺁﻩ ﻭﺳﻤﻌﻪ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺲ ﻣﺎﻛﻴﻨ��‬ ‫ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮ ﺑﺪﺭﺍﺳ�ﻱ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫�ﺸ�ﻞ‬
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‫�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺭﻛﻮ�ﻪ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺍﺽ ﺍﻟﻨﺼﺮ �� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺏ ﺍﺳﺒﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﻧﻈﺮﻧﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺃهﻤﻴﺔ‬
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‫�ﺥﺺ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻥﺸﻖ ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ �� ﺳ��ﺍﺗﻔﻮﺭﺩ ﺃﻭﻥ ﺃﻓﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣ�ﻯﻯ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﻭ�ﺎﻥ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺵ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺷﻜﺴﺒ�� ﻣﻊ ﺁﻥ هﺎﺛﺎﻭﺍﻱ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻃﻔﺎﻟهﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺝﻌﺘﻨﺎ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺃﻭه��ﻥ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻣﺘﺔ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻛﺮﺕ ﻛﺘﺒﺎ‬
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‫ﺭﺃﺕ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻗﺪ �ﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺳﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﺍﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺃﺣﻀﺮهﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻧﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻭ ﺗﻮﺟﻴﻪ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﺘﻪ �� ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻭﺭﻏﻢ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﻣﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﻓﺮﻋﻴﺔ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ �ﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻭﻷﻥ ﺃﻣ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﻻ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺐ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺘﺎﺭ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ ﻣﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻳﻘﺪﻡ �� ّ‬ ‫ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻭﺿﻊ ّ‬ ‫ﻃﺎﻟﻌﺖ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ – ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﺢ �� ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺑﺄﺧﺬهﺎ ﻣ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻝ‬ ‫ﻝ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺇﻟ��ﻤ��ﺎ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ �ﻞ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﻘﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺰﺭﻋﺔ ‪.‬ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ �ﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻮﺍﻓﻖ ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﺎﺭﻭﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺜﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﺨﺘﺼﻮﻥ ﺑﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﺣﺪﺍﺙ‪،‬‬
‫ﺿﻤﺖ ﺍﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ – ﻓﻘﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺟﺪ ﺃﻱّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺆﻟﻔﺎﺕ ﺑ��ﺛﺎ ﻛﻼﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ ﺇﻳﻔﺎﻧﺰ ﻭﻣﺎﺭ ﻛﻮﺭ�� ﻭﻏ��هﻢ –‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺤﺪﺩ ّ‬‫ﺿﺮ ّﺭ ّ‬
‫�ﺴﺒﺏﺖ �� ِﺑ ِﻪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﺮﻣﻮﻗ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻗﺎ ﺋﺔ ﺳﺮﻱﻌﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �� ﺃ�ﺥﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻤﺮﺓ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﳌﻤﺎﺭﺳﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺿﻌهﺎ �� ﺣﻀ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﻌهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﻨﺤﻴﺔ ﻓﻮﻗهﺎ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬
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‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﺮ�ﺢ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﻛﺘﺐ ﺍ�ﺝﻐﺮﺍﻓﻴﺎ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺣﻤﻠهﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﻮﺹ ﻓ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣ�ﻯ ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺼﻌﺐ ﻋ�� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻣﺎ‬
‫�� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫�ﻞ �ﻠﻤﺔ ّ‬‫ﻋ�� ﻭﺿﻊ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻓﻮﻕ ّ‬ ‫ّ َ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ‬ ‫�ﺴﺏﺐ �� ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﳌﺸﻜﻼﺕ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ‬
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‫ﺍﳌ��ﻱ �� ﻗﺮﺍﺀ ِﺗ ِﻪ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﺴﺘﻠﺰﻡ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ��ﻛ�� ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﻳﻤﻨﻌ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻏ�ﻱ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺪ ﺇﺻﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺑﻤﺮﺽ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻧﻮﻕ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺗﻪ ﻏﺪﺍ ﻣﺒﺤﻮﺣﺎ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‬ ‫ﺻﻮ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﻨﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻮ ﻭﻧﻘﺮﺕ ﺑﺈﺻﺒﻊ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﻔﺎﺗﻴﺢ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺗﻘﺎﺑﻞ �ﻐﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻏﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﻏﻨﺎﺀهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﻠﻐﺖ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺳﻌﺔ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺘﻠﻘﻲ ﺩﺭ ﺱ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺰﻑ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻮ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺗﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺇﻻ ﺑﺘﻘﺮ�ﺐ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻗﺔ ﺍﳌﻨﺼﻮ�ﺔ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣ��ﺍﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ �ﻌﺰ ِﻓﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﻟ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺳهﻞ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺗﺤﺮ�ﻚ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ �ﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﻋﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺧﺎﺻﺎ �ﻲ ‪ّ .‬ﺛﺏ ﱡﺖ ﺃﻭﻻ ﺑﻀﻊ ﻧﻮﺗﺎﺕ �� ﺫه�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺮ�ﻦ ﻋ�� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺻﻤﻤﺖ ﻧﻈﺎﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺣﻔﻈﺖ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺗﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻮﺿﻊ‬ ‫�ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻋﺰﻓهﺎ ﻋ�� ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﻣﻔﺎﺗﻴﺢ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻮ ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺢ ﻟﻸﺻﺎ�ﻊ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺍﳌ��ﺍﻥ ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺇﺗﻤﺎﻡ‬
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‫ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌ��ﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻇﺒﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺣﻔﻈﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻄﺮ‬
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‫ﺍﻭﻝ �ﻠﻪ ﻋﻦ ﻇهﺮ ﻗﻠﺐ ‪.‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﻔﻆ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻦ ﺃﻋﺰﻑ ﺑﻱﺴﺮ ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﻨﻮﻋﺔ ﻟهﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺨﻤ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺗﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﻓﻘﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻨﺎﺳﺒﻪ ﻭﺇﺩﺭﺍﻙ ﺍﻟﺕﺸﻜﻴﻼﺕ‬ ‫ٍ‬
‫ﺗﻜﺮﺭ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺿﻤﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺗﺪ ّﺭﺏ ﻋ�� ﻋﺰﻓهﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻦ �� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫َﻭ َﺟﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﻟﻠﺘﺪ ّﺭﺏ ﻋ�� ﺍﺟﺰﺍﺀ ﺍﺻﻌﺐ ﻷﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺰﻓهﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﺧﻄﺎﺀ ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻧﻮﺗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ��ﻳ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺃﻣﺮ ��ﻱﺀ‪ ،‬ﻟﺼﻐﺮ ﺡﺝﻤهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻏﻔﻠهﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺗﺒﻊ ﺃﺳﺘﺎﺫﻱ هﺎﻳﻥ�ﻳﺦ ﻏﻮﻧﺎﺭﺳﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺗﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﻣ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺬﻝ ﺟهﺪﺍ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺩ ّ ﺳ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﻰ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺻﺎ ﻣﺔ ّ‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺟ�� ﺑﺎﳌﻄﺎﻟﺒﺔ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺃﻋﺰﻑ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ �ﺡﻦ ﺃﺧﺘﺎﺭﻩ ﺑﺪﻗﺔ ﻣﺘﻨﺎهﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻞ �ﺡﻦ ﺃﻋﺰﻓﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻲ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﻤﺎ ّﺃﻧﻪ ﻭﺟﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺣﻔﻆ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻘﺪﻣﻲ �� ﻌﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﻑ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻮ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺟﺪﺍ ّ‬‫ﺑﻄﻴﺌﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺩ ّﺭ�ﺖ ﺃﺫ�ﻲ ﻭﺃﺻﺎ�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ‬
‫ﺃﻛﺮﺭهﺎ ﻋﺪﺩﺍ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺰﻑ ﻗﻄﻊ ﻣﻮﺳﻴﻘﻴﺔ �ﺴﻴﻄﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﻭﺣﺴﺐ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﻤﻌﺖ ﺫﺧ��ﺓ ﻓﻨﻴﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﺘﺞ ﻣﻌهﺎ ﺇ�� ﻧﻮﺗﺎﺕ ﻣﻜﺘﻮ�ﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻛﻤﻠﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ ﺃﺩﻳﺖ ﻣﻌﺰﻭﻓ�ﻱ ﺍﻭ�� ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻮ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ« ‪:‬ﺣﻠﻢ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ �� ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ »ﳌﻴﻨﺪﻟﺴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﻨﻔ�ﻱ ﺍﺳﺘﺎﺫ‬
‫ﻏﻮﻧﺎﺭﺳﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻠﻤﻴﺬﺓ ﺍﻛ�� ّ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻮﻗﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﺣﺎﺩﺛﺘﺎﻥ ﺃﺧﺮ�ﺎﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﻟهﻤﺎ ﺗﺄﺛ�� ﻛﺒ�� ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻼﺣﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛ��ﺕ‬‫ﺍﻭ�� ﻣﻴﻼﺩ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺮﻯ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ﺻﻌﺒﺔ ﺍ ﺿﺎﺀ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺻﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻌهﺎ ﺃ�ﺴﺮ‪ ،‬ﺻﺮﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺃهﺘﻢ ��ﺎ ﻭﺃﻟﻌﺐ ﻣﻌهﺎ ﻣ�ﻯ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺣﺒﺒ��ﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺴﺴﻱﻨﺎ ﺭﺟﻼ �ﺴﻴﻄﺎ ﻣﺨﻠﺼﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻜﺒﺪ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻀ�� ﻟﻠﻤﻌﻤﻮﺩﻳﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺃﻟهﻤﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻣﺸﻘﺔ ﺗﻔﺴ�� ﻌﺎﻟﻴﻢ ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺢ ﻟﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺇﻳﻤﺎﻧﻪ ﻗﻮ�ﺎ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺍﻳﻤﺎﻥ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻣهﻤﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻟﻨﺎ‪ ،‬هﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻪ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻮﺟﻪ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻨﺎ ﻭﻱﻌﻴﻥﻨﺎ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺣ�ﻥ ﻧﻜﻮﻥ �� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺲ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻮﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺀ‬
‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻐﻴﺖ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪﻳﺜﻪ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺍﺱ �ﻌﺪ �ﻌﻤﻴﺪﻱ‪ُ ،‬ﻋ ّﻤﺪﺕ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ‪ُ ،‬‬
‫ﻭﺳ ّﻤﻴﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺇﻓﻴﻠ�ﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻢ ﺍ�ﺡﺮّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﺧ��ﺗ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺝﻠﺘ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻭﻝ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‬
‫ﺇﻟﺰﺍﻣﻲ �ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻱ ﺍﻭﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻋ��ﺿﺖ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻭﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﻗﺪﺭ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻢ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻻ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺑﺕﺴﻤﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻻ ﺗﺮ�ﻦ ﺃ��ﺎ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ ﻣﻤﺘﺎﺯﺓ ﻟﺘﺘﻌﻠﻤﻲ؟ �� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬هﺬﺍ‬
‫هﻮ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺍﺭﺱ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺭﺗﺠﻔﺖ ﺧﻮﻓﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ �� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻭ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺏ ﻣﻘﺘﺪﺭﺍ ﻭﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺑﺨﻼ�� ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻧﻄﻼﻗﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺪﻣﺖ �� ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻋﻮﻧﺎ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ّ‬‫ﺇﻥ ﻃﺮﺃ ّ‬‫ْ‬
‫ﺗﻄﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﺳﻮﺃ – ﺃﻭ هﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻋ�� ﺍﻗﻞ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺭﻧﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻋﻤﺎﻝ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ ﺍﺳﺘﺪﻋﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺲ ﻓ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺘﻨﺎﺳﺐ‪ ،‬ﺍ�ﺥﻄﻮﻁ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻮﺍ�ﺡ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻻ‬ ‫ﻟﺪﻳﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ��’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻱﺲ‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﻌ�ﻱ ِ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺮﺡ ﺑﻜﻼﻣهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻼﻭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ ﻭﺍﻓﻘ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻒ ﻣ�� ﺇ��‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﺧ��هﺎ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﺍﺷﺘ��ﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺍﳌﺴﺆﻭﻝ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﻮﻝ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﺴﺖ ﺑﻔﻨﺎﻧﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻯ‬
‫ﻣﺸ�ﻠ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻮ ﺟﺰﺋﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﺍﻟ�ﺎ�� ﻷﺭﺳﻢ؛ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻀﺏﺐ‬‫ﺣﺲ ﺍﳌﻨﻈﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ �ﻌﻴﺪ َﺗ َﺘ ّ‬
‫ﻗﺮ�ﺖ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﺎﺫﺝ ﺃﻓﻘﺪ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﻻ �ﻌﻮﺩ ﻟهﺎ ﺷ�ﻞ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺤﺪﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺭ ُﺕ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﺯ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻮﺟﻪ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺃﻭ �ﺎﺱ ﻧﺎﻇﺮ ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﻷﻃﻠﺐ ﻧﺼﻴﺤﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ‬
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‫ﺳﻴﺪ ﺃﻭﺯ�ﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ‬
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‫ﻟﻠﺘﺨﺮﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﺭ ّﺳﺎﻣﺔ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺳﺎﻭﺙ هﺎﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻢ ﺇﻟﺰﺍﻣﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻳﺮ�ﺪﺍﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺨﺮﺝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻤﺎﺫﺍ ّ‬
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‫�ﻌﺾ ﺧﻥ�ﻳﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻥ�ﻳﺮ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻘﻔﺰ ﻓﻮﻕ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫�ﺡﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺃﻭﺯ�ﺎﺱ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’« ‪:‬ﺍﻟ�ﻠﺐ ﻟﻦ‬
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‫ﺑﻘﺼﺔ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ‪‘.‬ﺃﻣﺮ ﺷﺏﻴﻪ‬
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‫ﺻ�ﻱ‪».‬‬
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‫ﺟﺎﺩﺓ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻚ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﻭ�ﺪﺃ‬ ‫ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﺑﺪﺭ ﻣ�ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺒﺄﻩ ﻛﻢ ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺑﺠﺪﻳﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﻭهﻮ �ﺴﺘﺪﻳﺮ ﻧﺤﻮ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪َ ،‬‬
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‫ﻟﻥ�‪ ،‬هﺬﺍ ﻣﺨﻄﻂ ﻳﺤﺘﻮ ﻋ�� ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ‬
‫ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﺑﺪﻳﻠﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻢ ﺇﺫﺍ ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﺑﻄﺮﺣهﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻤﺢ‬ ‫ﺳ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺩﺭﺍ��ﻱ ﻟﻠﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬هﻞ‬
‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﻝ‬ ‫’’ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ؟ ﺃﻧﺖ ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺔ �� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮﺓ ﺷهﺮﺍ ﺍﻥ ﻭ�ﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫‪،‬‬ ‫ﺛﺎﻧﻮ‬ ‫ﺍﻭ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫�ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺇﻟﺘﻤﺎﺱ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺩﻱ ﺑﻮﺳ��‪...‘‘.‬‬
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‫’’ﺇﻟﺘﻤﺴﺘﻪ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺠﺪ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ �� ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻥ ﺻﻒ ﺍﳌﺒﺘﺪﺋ�ﻥ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺪﺭﺱ‬
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‫ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﻓﻌﺎﻝ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻱﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﻌﻮ�ﺾ ﻣﺎ ﻓﺎﺗ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺍﻡ ‪.‬‬
‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫�ﻞ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺳﺄ�ﻌﻠﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺪ ﱠﺭﺱ �� ﺳﺎﻭﺙ هﺎﻱ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺳﻤﺤﺖ �� ﺑﻄﺮﺡ‬
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‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺮ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻧ ِﻚ ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻟ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟ��ﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺃﻭﺯ�ﺎﺱ ﻣﺒﺕﺴﻤﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﻳﻈهﺮ ﻋ�� ﺍﻗﻞ‬
‫ﻓﺮﻭﺿﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺩﺭﺳ��ﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺳﻥﺘ�ﻥ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺒﺏﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻗﻀﻱﺖ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ �� ﻌﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺷﻐﻮﻓﺔ ﺑﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺗﺨﺮ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻼﺗﻴﻥﻴﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ّ‬
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‫ﻓﻄﻨﺖ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‪ ،‬ﺧﺎﺻﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﻟﻄﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺩﻱ ﺑﻮﺳ��‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺬﻝ �� ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ ﺟهﺪﺍ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺇﻣﻀﺎﺋﻪ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ �ﺎﻣﻼ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ‬
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‫ﻣﻤﺘﻨﺔ ﻟﻪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻭﻝ ﺛﺎﻧﻮﻱ ﻣﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻤﻠﻜ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺥﻮﻑ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳ�� ﺍﳌﻤ�ﻯﻯ ﺍ�ﺥﻄﺄ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺩﺧﻮ�� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺟهﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﺤﺘﻢ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺓ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ‬
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‫��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺎ ُﻳﻈهﺮ�ﻲ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺃﺧﻄﺊ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻣﺨﺎﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﺏ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﻼ‬ ‫هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃ�ﺡﻮﻛﺔ �� ﻧﻈﺮهﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺄﺧﺮﺕ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ �� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﺧ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻭﻝ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺔ ﻷﻧﻪ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﻠﻢ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍ�ﺝ�� ﻋﻦ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓهﻤﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﺮﺕ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻷﺳﺄﻝ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺣﺐ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺔ ﺑﺪﺍ �� ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻟﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ �� ﻣﻘﻌﺪهﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟهﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﳌﻤ�ﻯﻯ ﻭﻣﺸﻱﺖ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺮ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻱ �� ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺗﺼﻔﻴﻘﺎ ﺑﺎﻷﻳﺪﻱ ﻭ�ﺡ�ﺎ �� ﺷ�ﻯ ﺃﺭﺟﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﻭﺟﻨ�ﻱ ﻭﺷﺪﺩﺕ ﻧﻄﺎ�� ﻭﻃﻮ�� ﻭﺣﺰﺍﻣﻲ ﻷﺗﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺇ��ﺎ ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺎﺣﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬
‫ﺗﻨﻮﺭ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺧﻠﻴﺔ ﻇﺎهﺮﺓ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻭﺿﺎﻉ �ﺡﻴﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇ�� ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﻷﺭﻯ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
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‫ﻭ‬
‫ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﻣﺎ �ﻌﻴﺐ‪ ،‬ﺷﺎﺭﻛ��ﻢ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻚ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺼﻔﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻣﺪﻋﻴﺔ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺃﺗﺤ�� ﺑﺮ ﺡ‬
‫ﺭ�ﺎﺿﻴﺔ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ ﻣهﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﻻﺯﻣ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺪﺙ �� ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ‪،‬‬
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‫��ﻴﺄﺕ ﻭ‘‘ﻭ��ﻱ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺠﻠﺲ �� ﺍ�ﺝهﺔ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ ��‪ ،‬ﻟﻠﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﻨﺎ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻧﺎ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﳌﻼ�ﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﺘﺠﻤﻌﺖ �ﺝﺎﻋﺔ �ﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻷﺳﺄﻟهﺎ ﻋﻦ‬
‫ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺳﺏﺐ ﺍﻟهﻴﺎﺝ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺟﻤﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺒﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺘ�ﺝﺒﺔ« ‪:‬ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺎ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ‪ ،‬ﻇﻨﻥﺖ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺍﺳﻤﻚ ﻭﺍﺳﻢ �ﺸﺎﺭﻟﺰ‬ ‫ﺻﺎﺣﺖ‬
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‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﻝ‬
‫هﻴﻜﺴﻮ�ﺲ ﻭﺃﺩﻳﻞ ﺃﻳﺪ ﺳﻮ�ﻥﺒﻮﺭﻥ ﻋ�� ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻑ ﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻭ ﺛﺎﻧﻮ ﻟهﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺿﺮ�ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻒ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺎﺣﻴ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺘﺤﺴﺴﺔ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ��‬
‫ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺳﺎﻭﺙ هﺎﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﺎﻣﻠﻮ�ﻲ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﺭ�ﻊ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﻀﻴ��ﺎ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺑﻠﻄﻒ‬
‫ﻭﻣﺮﺍﻋﺎﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺩﻳﻤﻘﺮﺍﻃﻴﺔ ﺣﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﺧﻼﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺮ�ﺔ ﻟﻠﻜﺜ�� ﻣ��ﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ ﻋﺎﺩﻟﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺔ ّ‬ ‫ﳌﻨﺢ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻌهﻢ �ﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﺎﻣﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻧﻠﺖ ﻋﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﻏ�� ﻣﺮﺿﻴﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻮﻙ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃهﻤﺲ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍﺟهﺖ ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺔ �� ﻣﺘﺎ�ﻌﺔ ﻃﺮﺍﺋﻖ ﺇﺛﺒﺎﺕ ﻧﻈﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟهﻨﺪﺳﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺡ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ �ﺸ�ﻞ �ﺎﻣﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣ�ﻯ �� ﺣﺎﻝ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﻄﻤﺌﻨﺔ ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﺗﺒﺎ��‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺡهﺎ �� ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺤﺔ ‪.‬ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﺈﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺀ ﺑﻀﻊ ﻧﻘﺎﻁ‬
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‫ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑ�� ﺑﻼﺀ ﺣﺴﻨﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ‪.‬‬
‫ﻧﻠﺖ ﺛﻨﺎﺀ ّ‬‫ﻱ ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺳﺏﺐ �� ﺇﺣﺮﺍﺟﺎ‬ ‫ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﺎﺟﺰﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺮ ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﻳﺎ ﺍﳌﺘﻮﺍﺯ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﻌﻴﺖ �ﺡﻠهﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌﺘﻤﺪ ﻋ��‬
‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺃﻏﻔﻠﺘﻪ �� ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﺣﺼﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ ‪.‬ﻭﻷﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪،‬‬ ‫��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺟﺎهﺪﺕ �ﺡﻠهﺎ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﺍﺭ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺣﻼ �ﺡﻴﺤﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﻃ ِﻠﺐ ﺇ�� ﺑﺮهﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ�ﺔ ﺍﺻﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺓ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﻒ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺇﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺤﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻧ��ﻴﺖ هﺘﻔﺖ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺳﻮﺍﻳﻦ’’ ‪:‬ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺎ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ‪ ،‬هﺬﺍ ﻋﻤﻞ ﻋﺒﻘﺮﻱ ‪.‬ﺇﻧﻪ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ �ﻌﻀﺎ ﻣﻨﻜﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺤﻤﻞ ﻋﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺚ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬ ‫ُﻳﻈهﺮ ﺗﻔﻜ��ﺍ ﺇﺑﺪﺍﻋﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﻤ�ﻯ ﻟﻮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺖ ﺃﺳﺄﻝ ﻋﻦ ﺭﺃﻱﻲ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﺻﻠﻴﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺣﺼﻮﻝ‬
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‫ﻷﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺳﻴﻄﻮﻝ‬ ‫ﺫﻟﻚ ﻗﺒﻴﻞ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍ��ﻱ ﻣﺼﺎﺩﻓﺔ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟهﻨﺪﺳﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻞ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﺕﺸﻔﻮﺍ‬
‫�ﻌﺘﻘﺪﻭﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ‪ ،‬ﺻﺮﺕ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺗﺄﺛ�� ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺇﻳﻠ�ﻥ ﻭﺍ�ﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻇﺮﺓ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ �� ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺩ ّﺭﺳﺘ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﻣﺌﺔ ﻃﺎﻟﺐ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﺩﺏ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ �� ﺻﻒ‬ ‫ﺍﻭ��‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺻﻒ ﺍﺩﺏ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ﺟﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺑﺎﻵ�ﺴﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺲ ﻋﻦ ﻗﺮﺏ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﺄﻟﻔهﻢ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻋﻤﻞ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺟﻌﻠﺘﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﺲ‬
‫ﻧﺆﺩﻳﻪ �ﻌ�ﻱ ﻟهﺎ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻟهﺎ ﺃﺳﻠﻮﺏ ﺫ�ﻲ �� ﺇﻃﻼﻋﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﻧﻘﺎﻁ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻮﺗﻨﺎ ﻭﻧﻘﺎﻁ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺿﻌﻔﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺻﻒ ﺍﺩﺏ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺇ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺿﺖ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺼﻴﺎﺕ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﺎﻟﻴﺔ ��‬
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‫ﺃ�ﺲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ﺗﻠﻜﻢ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺼﻴﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻥﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮ��ﺎ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻣﺆﻟﻒ‬
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‫ﻧﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ هﻮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ‬ ‫ﺔ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﻗ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬ ‫ﻲ‬ ‫ﺃ�‬ ‫ﻟﻮ‬ ‫ﻛﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻗﺪ ﺣﺎﻭ َﻝ ﺍﻓﺼﺎﺡ ﻋﻨﻪ �� ﻛﺘﺒﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺃﺩ�ﺴﻮ ﻭﺳﺕﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻓﺮﻏﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻋ��ﻤﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺼﺕﻨﺎ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮﺓ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺲ‪ ،‬ﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣﻨﺎ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﻟﻪ ﺻﻠﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﻛﻮﻓﺮ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺎﻛﻴﺖ ﺃﺳﺎﻟﻴﺐ ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻔ ِ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﺩﺭﺳﻨﺎﻩ ‪.‬ﻛﺘﺏﺖ ﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺴ�� ﺭﻭﺟﺮ ﺩﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺴ�� ﺭﻭﺟﺮ �� ﺣﻠﺒﺔ ﺗﺰﺣﻠﻖ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣهﻤﺔ ﻣﺤﺎ�ﺎﺓ ﺃﺩ�ﺴﻮﻥ ﻭﺳﺕﻴﻞ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻣﺘﻘﻨﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻳﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺲ« ‪:‬ﻟﻘﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ‪».‬‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ّﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﺄ�ﻲ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺗﺼﺒﺤ�ﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺑﺄﺳﻠﻮ�ﻚ ﱠ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋ��‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺕﺸﻜﻴﻚ ﻇهﺮﺕ ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﻷ��ﺎ ﺃﺿﺎﻓﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋ�ﻱ ﺣﻘﺎ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﺑﺪ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﻌﺪ�ﻲ ﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺲ ّ‬
‫ﻷ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺗﺠﺎﻣﻞ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻤﻨﻱﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺑﺈﺗﻘﺎﻥ �� ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺑﺪﺍ �� هﺪﻓﺎ ﺃ�ﻌﺪ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺁﻣﻞ‬
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‫ﺑﺘﺤﻘﻴﻘﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﺎ�ﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻓﻘﺖ’’ ﺟﻮﺭﻧﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻧﻴﻮﺭ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭ��‬
‫ﻣﻜﺮﺳﺔ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ ﻟﻘﺼﺺ‬ ‫�ﺡﻴﻔﺔ ﺗﺎ�ﻌﺔ ﻟ�ﺡﻴﻔﺔ’’ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﺟﻮﺭﻧﺎﻝ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌهﺘﻤ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﺸﺮ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﻗﺼ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ �� ﺇﺳهﺎﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﻨﺘﻈﻤﺔ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‬
‫ّ ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ �� ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ��’’ ﺟﻮﺭﻧﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻧﻴﻮﺭ ‘‘ﻭﻓﺰﺕ ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺋﺰ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻣﺤﺮﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻋﻴﻥﺘ�ﻱ‬
‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻣﺎﻱ هﺎﺭﻱﺲ ﺃ�ﺴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺮﺍﺳﻠﺔ ﻟﻠ�ﺡﻴﻔﺔ �� ﺛﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﺳﺎﻭﺙ‬
‫ﻋﺪ ّﺃﻳﺎ ﻣﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯﺍ ﺃﺩﺑﻴﺎ‬‫هﺎﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ �� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻤﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺲ ﺣﺎﻓﺰﺍ �� ﻷﺯ�ﺪ ﺟهﺪﻱ ﺍﳌﺒﺬﻭﻝ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻮﻓﺌﺖ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭﻱ ﺷﺎﻋﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺻﺪﺭ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﻱ ﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫�ﺸﺮﺕ ﻗﺼﻴﺪ�ﻲ ﻓ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻌﻴﺖ ﻟﻠﻤﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ �� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﻇﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﺎﺭﻛﺖ �� ﻣﺴﺎﺑﻘﺎﺕ ﺷﻔهﻴﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻘﺐ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻭﻝ ﺛﺎﻧﻮﻱ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ �� ﺃﺣﺪ‬ ‫ﺃﻓﺰ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺑﺈﺣﺒﺎﻁ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﺍﺳﺘﺪﻋﺘ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺲ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘ��ﺎ ﻋﺼﺮ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ��‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﺎﻣﺔ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﻗﺒﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ �ﺸﻌﺮ�ﻦ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ّﺃﻧﻚ ﺃﺧﻔﻘﺖ �� ﺧﻄﺒﺔ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ��’’ ‪:‬‬
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‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻡ ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻊ‬ ‫ﺳﻮﺍﺀ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺋﺰ�ﻦ‬ ‫ﻛﺄﺣﺪ‬ ‫ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ‬ ‫ﻳﻘﻊ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ﻷﻧ‬
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‫ﺧﺎﺹ ﺑﺎ�ﺡ�ﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺷﺎﺭﻛﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ‪ �� ،‬ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺭﺃﻱ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﺑﻘﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ �� ِ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻇﺒﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﺘﻠﺘﻘ�ﻥ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺑﺤﻜﻢ ��ﺝﺒﻪ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫�ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ‬
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‫ﻤﺖ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ ﺗﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ ﻟﻺﻧﺘﺼﺎﺭ ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﻷﻧﻚ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﻗﺪ �ﻌﻠ ِ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﻮﻟ�ﻥ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮ ﺛﻤﻨﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ �� ﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﺍﳌﺘ�ﻠﻤ�ﻥ �� ﺗﻤﺎﺭ�ﻦ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺯﻱﻊ ﺍﻟﺸهﺎﺩﺍﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫�� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻋﻘﺐ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺨﺮ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺖ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺟﺎﺭﺍﺗﻨﺎ ��‬
‫ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻳﻦ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﻣﺲ ‪ِ .‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺎﻟﺖ ��’’ ‪ِ :‬‬
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‫�ﻠﻤﺘﻚ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﺰﻭ��‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻔﺴﺎﺗ�ﻥ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺳﺎﺋﺮ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﺠﺎﺕ؛ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻇهﺮﺕ ﻟ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ﻛﻢ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﺕ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺠﻚ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺡﻔﻞ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ‬ ‫ﻛﻢ �ﺎﻥ ﺳﻱﺌﺎ ﺃ ِﻧ ِﻚ ﻗﺮ ِ‬
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‫ﺗﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻷﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺿﻌﻴﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮ ﺃﻧﺖ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﺿﻮﺍﺀ ﻣﻨﻌﻜﺴﺔ ﻋ�� ﻧﻈﺎﺭ ِ‬
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‫ﻳﻨﺕﺒﻪ ﺇ�� ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﻻ ﺃﻥ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﺮﺣﺖ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﻱ ﺑﻤﻼﺣﻈ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺘﻪ �ﺎﻥ �ﺡﻴﺤﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻠهﻔﻲ ﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟ��ﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﻮﻉ‪� ،‬ﺴﻱﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺱ ﺣﺬﺭﻱ‬ ‫ﻓﻔﻲ ﻏﻤﺮﺓ ّ‬
‫ُ ُ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ �� ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺭ�ﺜﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻷﻧﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﻨﺤﺘﻪ ﻋﻼﻧﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﻗﺪﺭ ُﺕ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ْ‬
‫ﻷﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺐ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻴﺢ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺻﺔ‪،‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻟﻺﺩﻻﺀ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻼﺣﻈﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺪ�ﻲ ﺃﻗﻠﻘ�ﻱ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺳﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻭ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩﺭﺱ‬
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‫ﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺎﺕ ﻓﻮﺭ ﻓﺮﺍ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺗﻔﺼﻞ ﺑ�ﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﺳﺮﺍﻉ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ �� ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍﺀ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻻﺍﻧﺘﻘﺎﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺁﺭﻣﻮﺭﻱ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺘ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻭﺟﺐ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﻓﻮﻟﻮ�ﻞ؛ ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺳﺕﺒﻘﻮﻧﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﺭ��ﻱ ﻹﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺪ�ﻲ ﻭﻟﻮ‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻟﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﻗﺮﻉ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻔﻌﻞ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺈﺭﺗﺪﺍﺀ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫�ﻌﺾ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﻏ�� ﻭﺟههﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺢ �� ﻏﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﺟﻌﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﺃ�ﺡﻮﻛﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻗﻴﺎﻣﻲ �ﺸﺮﺡ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ �� ﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ ‪.‬ﻓﺎﺭﺗﺪﺍﺀ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ �ﺴ��ﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻓﺒﻠﻤﺤﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺮﺁﺓ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺗﺤﺴﺲ‬ ‫ﺑﺘﺄﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺗﺪﺍﺀ‬ ‫ﺭ‬‫ﺍ‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ‬ ‫�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻣﻈهﺮهﻦ‬ ‫�ﻌﺮﻓﻦ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﻟﺏﺲ ﺛﻼﺛﺎ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﻣﺎ ﺟﻌﻞ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍﺉﻲ ﻟﺜﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺑﻄﻴﺌﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﺛﻴﺎﺏ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ّﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺣﺼﻴ��ﺎ ﺫﺍﺕ ّ‬
‫�ﻌهﺪ ّ‬‫ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ّ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺍﺯﻡ �� ﺧﺰﺍﻧ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﻧﻤﻮﺫﺟﻴﺔ ﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﻋﺎﺩﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﺑﻞ‬
‫ﻣهﻤﺔ �� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﻨﺎ �ﺡﻔﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﻱﺴﻤﺎﺱ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ ﺃﻧﻴﻘﺔ ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ‬
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‫ﺣﺼﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺡﻔﻠﺔ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ �� ﺣﻘﻴﺒ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ ﻭﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤ�� ﺃﻭﻝ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺭ�ﺎﺿﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺍﻟ��ﻓﺴﻮﺭ‬ ‫« ِ‬
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‫ﺷﻮﻣﻮﺍﻱ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺔ �� ﺝﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻏ��‬
‫�ﺝﻌ�ﻱ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﺎﻭ��‪‘‘.‬‬‫ّ‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺑﺎﺷﻤ��ﺍﺯ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻗﻄﻌﻨﺎ ﺷﻮﻃﺎ ﻃﻮ�ﻼ ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻳﺠﺪﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮ�ﻲ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺣﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺗﺤﻀ��‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻋ�� ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭﻩ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺿﻊ ﻃﻮﻗﺎ ﻭﻻ ﺯﻧﺎﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﺤﺰﺍﻣﻲ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻧﺤﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻻﺣﻘﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﻣﻀﻤﺎﺭ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺎﺭ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﻋﺼﻱﺒﺔ �ﺴﺏﺒﻪ ‪.‬ﺇﺫ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻀﻤﺎﺭ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻤﺘﺪ ﺑﻤﻮﺍﺯﺍﺓ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ُﻣﻀﺎﺀﺍ ﺑﺼﻮﺭﺓ ﺳﻱﺌﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺠﻮﺕ ﺑﺄ�ﺝﻮ�ﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ‬ ‫ٍ‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﻘﻂ ﻋ�� ﺭﺃ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺴﻴﺔ ﳌﺒ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻥ ّ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﻮﻱ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ ﻣﻊ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ‬
‫ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺑﺎﻛﺮﺍ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺇ�� ﺃﺭﻣﻮﺭﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﺻﻮﻝ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ ﻭﻣﺸﻱﺖ‬
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‫َ ّ ﺭ َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
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‫�ﻞ ﺟﺰﺀ ﺑﺪﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺒﻮﺕ ﻋ�� ﻳﺪﻱ ﻭ ﻛﺒ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻣﺎﻛﻦ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﻳﻥﺖ ﱠ‬ ‫ﺑﺒﻂﺀ ﺣﻮ َﻝ ﺍﳌﻀﻤﺎﺭ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﻷﺗﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻏﻔﻞ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃ�ﻌ�� ﺑﻪ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻗﺘﻨﻌﺖ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻀﻤﺎﺭ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻋ�� ﺳﺏﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮ�ﺔ ‪�.‬ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺤﺼﻞ �� ﺃﻱّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ِﺃﻟﻔﺖ‬
‫ﺣﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺧ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﻦ ��ﻱﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻨ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﺍﻭ��‪ ،‬ﻋﺎﻧﻱﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺎﺕ �� ﻋﻠﻢ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺜﻠﺜﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺇﻟﺰﺍﻣﻴﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﻣﺘﺎ�ﻌﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﺘﺐ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ‬‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭ ﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﺷ�ﺎﻝ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻏﺎﺭ�ﺘﻤﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﻄﺒﻮﻋﺔ ﺑﺤﺮﻭﻑ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﺟﺪﺍ �� ﻛﺘﺎﺑﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ّ‬
‫ﺩﻧﻮ ��ﺎﻳﺔ‬
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‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﺧﻄ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻮﺏ‪.‬‬‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ‬ ‫ﺿﻤﻦ‬ ‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﻔﻴﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﻃﻠﻌﺘﻪ ﻋ�� ﻭﺭﻃ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﺝﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻋ��ﺍﻑ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ‬
‫�� ﺭﺳﺏﺖ �� ّ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺍﳌﺸ�ﻠﺔ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻋ��ﺍﻑ ﻟﻮﺍﻟﺪﻱ ��ﺝﺰﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻔﺮ‬
‫هﺬﻩ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺗﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪ِ :‬ﻟﻢ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺨ��ﻳ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ؟ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﻨﺎ ﺃﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ �� ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﻣﻌﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﺮﺃ ﺃﻋﻤﺪﺓ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪ ّﺭ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻎ ﺍﺳﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻭﻱﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ��‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺍﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻏﺎﺭ�ﺘﻤﻴﺔ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ٍ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴﺎﺋﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﺳﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﻧﺝﺡﺖ �� ّ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻢ ﺍﳌﺜﻠﺜﺎﺕ ﺑﺘﻘﺪﻳﺮ ﺟﻴﺪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻚ ﻋ�� ﺍﺳﺕﻴﻌﺎﺏ ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻮﻉ‬ ‫ﺭ‬‫ﻗﺪ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﺣ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﻮﺍﻱ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺍﻟ��ﻭﻓﺴﻮﺭ ْ‬
‫ﺷﻮﻣ‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺒﺖ ﻋﻦ �ﻞ ﺍﺳﺎﺳﻴﺎﺕ �� ﺃﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ‬ ‫ﺃﻛ�� ﺑﻜﺜ�� ّ‬
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‫�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻭﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻨ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺒﻴﻞ ﺑﺪﺀ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺗﻮ��‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺇﺛﺮ ﺇﺻﺎﺑﺘﻪ ﺑﻨﻮ�ﺔ ﻗﻠﺒﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ هﺬﻩ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺍﻭ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﻓ��ﺎ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺑﺤﺰﻥ ﻛﺒ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌﺪ ﻭﻓﺎﺗﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺧﺴﺮﺕ �ﺡﺒﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻔﺔ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺍهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻟﻎ �� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻔﻀﻠﺔ ﻭﺟﻠﺲ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ُﻳﻨﺼﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﱠ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻟﻴﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﺷ��ﻯ ﻣﻌﺰﻭﻓﺎﺗﻪ ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻄﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ �� ﻓﺼﻞ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺰﻓهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻮﺟﻪ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺢ ‪.‬ﻭﺧﻼﻝ ﺇﻧﺘﻘﺎﻟﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻱ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻮﺟﻪ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ �ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻟﻱﺸ�� ﺡﻴﻔﺔ ﻷﺗﺒ�ﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﻗﺼ�ﻱ ﻗﺪ �ﺸﺮﺕ ﻋ�� ﺻﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﺟﻮﺭﻧﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻧﻴﻮﺭ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ‪.‬ﺭﺳﻢ �� ﺧﺮﺍﺋﻂ‬
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‫ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ �� ﺍ�ﺝﻐﺮﺍﻓﻴﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ‪.‬ﻭﺣﺜ�ﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﻋ�� ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻱ �� ﻭﺍﺟﺒﺎ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﻨﺘﻈﻤﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ �ﺴﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻻ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌ�ﻥ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻭﻟﻮ ﺑﻘﻠﻴﻞ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﺑﺤﻜﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﺆﺍﻝ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ �� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﻋﻼﻣﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺛﻤﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭ�ﺴﻌ�ﻥ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺗ�ﻥ »ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﺷﺎﻋﺮﺓ ﺑﺎﻷﻟﻢ ﻟﻌﺪﻡ‬ ‫«ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮﻩ �ﺝهﻮﺩﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺎﺀﺕ ﺍﺣﻮﺍﻝ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺭﺣﻴﻠﻪ ‪.‬ﺃﺻﺎﺏ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺣﺰﻥ ﻭﻗﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻤﺪﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻋ��‬
‫ﺃﺟﺮﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ ﻏﺮﻑ ��‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ �� ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻟهﺎ ﺍﳌهﻨﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ( ّ‬
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‫ﺗﻨ��ﺖ ﺇ�� ﺣﺎﺟ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﻛﺴﺐ‬ ‫ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ)‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ��ﺎ �� ﺭﻋﺎﻳﺔ ﺃﺑﻨﺎ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﻮ�ﻲ �� ﺃﺳﺮﻉ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻤﻜﻦ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻓﻘﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻟﻐﺔ ﺇﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺭ�ﺜﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﺎﻝ ﺷهﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺒ�ﺎﻟﻮﺭ�ﻮﺱ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺗﻠﻘﻲ‬
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‫ﺩﺭﻭﺱ �� ﺁﻻﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﺦ ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﻴﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻗﺪ ﺃ�ﺡﻘ�ﻱ ��ﺎ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻨﺖ ﺃﻛ�� ﻋﺪﺩ ﻣﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻼﻣﻴﺬ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬
‫ﻳﻮﺩﻭﻥ �ﻌﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﻑ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻮ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻞ ﺃﻣ‬
‫ﻷﺣﺼﻞ ﻋ�� ﺛﻤﻦ ﻛﺘ�ﻱ ﻭ�ﻠﻔﺔ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣ��‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺮ�ﺖ‬ ‫ﺗﺨﺼ��ﻱ ﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺣﺴﻢ ﺭﺃﻱﻲ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺅﺟﻞ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺩ ﺍﺳ��ﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫�ﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻷ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻔ��ﻳﺎﺀ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬
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‫ﺗﺘﻄﻠﺐ ﻋﻤﻼ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺎ �� ﺍﳌﺨﺘ�� ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻔ��ﻳﺎﺀ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ُ�ﺸﻌﺮ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻠﻖ؛ ﺇﺫ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻋﺪﺩ ﻭﺍﻓﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺼﺺ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻤﻜ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﻛﻤﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ��ﻳﺎﺀ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺤﻞ ﺣﺼﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ��ﻳﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ‪�� ،‬‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻞ‬
‫ﻣﻜﻤﻠﺔ ﻟﻠﻌﻠﻮﻡ‪.‬‬‫ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﺍﻟﻔهﺮﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻌ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺭ�ﻌﺔ ﻓﺼﻮﻝ �� ﺍ�ﺝﻴﻮﻟﻮﺟﻴﺎ ﻭﻟﻱﺲ ﻓﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺼﺺ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺐ؛ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﻣﺨﺘ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬ ‫ﺳﺎﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﺩﺭﺍﺳ�ﻱ ﻟ�ﺝﻴﻮﻟﻮﺟﻴﺎ ﻋ�� ﺧ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ ‪.‬ﻏﻄﺖ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﳌﺤﺎﺿﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻟﻘﺎهﺎ ﺍﺳﺎﺗﺬﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﻮﻥ ﱠ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺣﺘﺠﺖ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬‫ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻠﻪ هﻮ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎﺕ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺣﻮﻝ ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﺮﻓ ِﺘﻪ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﺿﺮﺍﺕ ﻭﺣﻔﻈهﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻇهﺮ ﻗﻠﺐ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻼﺕ ﺍﳌﻴﺪﺍﻧﻴﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻻﺭﺗﻴﺎﺡ‬ ‫ﺑﺎ�ﺝﻴﻮﻟﻮﺟﻴﺎ ﻭﺍ�ﺝﻐﺮﺍﻓﻴﺎ ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‬
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‫ﻷ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺃﻭﺷﻜﺖ ﻋ�� ﺇ��ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻜﻤﻴﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻏﺎﺭﻗﺔ �� ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺼﻴﺔ ﺟﻌﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﻥ‬
‫�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻡ ﻵﺍﺩﺍﺏ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﻨﻮ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﺒﻘﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺟﻴﺪﺓ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻭﻝ‬ ‫�ﺝﻠﺖ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ �� ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﺧ�� ّ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺑﺪﺕ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻘﺮﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﺮﻋﺖ �� ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﻤﻠﻮﺀﺓ ﺛﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻔﺲ ‪.‬ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪� ،‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ �ﺴﺎﻭﺭ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻜﻮﻙ؛ ﺇﺫ ﺣ�ﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟ��ﻭﻓﺴﻮﺭ ﻳﺤﻀﺮ �ﺥﻮﺭﺍ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ‬
‫ﻣﻜﻮﻧﺎ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺋﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ�ﻦ ﻋ�� ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﺍﺟﺎﺑﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﻱﺴﺄﻝ ﻋﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺤﺔ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺕﺴ�ﻯ �� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻳﻦ ﺣﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻋ�� ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎ��ﻢ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﻔﻘﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺷﺎﺑﺎ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺎ ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭﻱ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫�ﻞ �ﺥﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻋ�� ﻣﺤﺘﻮ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺮﻑ ّ‬
‫�ﻌﺮﻓﻪ ّ‬
‫ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻣﺮ �ﺴ��‪ ،‬ﺩﺭﺳﻨﺎ ﺫﻟﻚ �� ّ‬

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‫ﺗﻠﻘﻰ ﱡ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﻦ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺀ؟‘‘‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ‬
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‫ﻟﺘﻠﻘﻲ هﺬﺍ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻘﺮﺭ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﺗﻠﻘﻴﻪ ﺷﺮﻁ ﻣﺴﺒﻖ‬
‫ﻓهﻤﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺄﻧﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺪﺭ��ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺀ؟‘‘‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ �ﻌﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻮﻝ ِ‬
‫ﺍﻛﺘﻔﻴﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺤﺪﻳﻖ �� ﻭﺟهﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫هﺰ ﻛﺘﻔﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻣﺒﺎﻟﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺘﻘﻀ�ﻥ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﻣﺴﻠﻴﺎ هﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻧﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺔ ﻷﻛﻤﻞ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺍﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻤﻴﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺑﺏﺴﺎﻃﺔ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ هﺬﻩ‬‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻭﺟﺐ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻜﻤﻴﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ؟ ﺃﻟﻱﺴﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻷ�ﻌﻠﻢ ﺍﳌﺮﻛﺒﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﻟﻠ�ﺥﻮﺭ ﻭﺃﺟﻤﻊ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﻷﻧﺝﺡ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻘﺮﺭ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺴﺎﻋﺪﻙ»‪ ، ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻗﺎﻝ‪ «،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﺃﺷﻚ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻓﻜﺮ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ« ﻟﺪﻱ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﺭ�ﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻙ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﻧﺼﻒ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ‪».‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ« ‪:‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪».‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺍﻇﺒﺖ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﻋ�� ﺣﻔﻆ ﻗﻮﺍﺋﻢ ﻻ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﻟهﺎ ﻣﻦ‬‫ﱡ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﻀﺮ‬
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‫�ﻌﻦ �� ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻎ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ِ‬
‫ﺛﻼﺙ ﺣﺼﺺ �� ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻋﻠﻢ ﺍ�ﺡﻔﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺍﺳﻢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺮﺩ ﺗﺤﺘﻪ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻘﺮﺭ �� ﺍﻟﻔهﺮﺱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ�ﻱ ﻟﻠﻐﺘ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﻹﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﻄﻰ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﻠﻐﺘ�ﻥ ﺃﺟﻨﺒﻱﺘ�ﻥ َ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺮ��ﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫« ِﻟ َﻢ ﺗﺪﺭﺳ�ﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻜﺮﻱ ﻗﻂ �� ﻟﻐﺔ‬
‫ﻗﻮﻣﻚ؟»‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻌﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ‪Song Of the‬‬
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‫‪Creation‬ﻟ�ﺎﺩﻣﻮﻥ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ ﺑﺤﻴﻮ�ﺔ« ‪:‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺩﺭﺱ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ �ﻌﺪ‪ ،‬ﻓهﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﺳﺒﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻹﺍﻳﻄﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻭ‪...».‬‬
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‫ﻤﺘﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﻔهﻤ�ﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﻨﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺳﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻠ ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻃﻌﺘ�ﻱ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ« ‪ِ :‬‬
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‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻤﻜﻨﺔ ﻣ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ �ﻌﻠﻤﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺎﻗﻚ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ‬
‫ّﺇﻳﺎهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺳهﻼ‪».‬‬
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‫’’ﻟﻜﻦ ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺎ ّﺃﻣﻲ؟‪‘‘.‬‬

‫«ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﻟﺪ��ﺎ ﺃﺩﺏ ﺟﻤﻴﻞ ﻭﻟﻦ ﻳﻀ��ﻙ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ �ﻌﻀﻪ ﺑﻠﻐﺘﻪ ﺍﺻﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ»‪ ،‬ﺃ��ﺖ ﻛﻼﻣهﺎ ﺑﺤﺰ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺣﺒﺏﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ِ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﻚ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺧ��ﺕ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻛﻮﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺍﺩﻱ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻟﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﺇﺭﺿﺎﺀ ﻷﻣﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﺗﻤهﻴﺪﻱ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺃﺟﻨﺏﻴﺔ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺸﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻭﻉ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺧﺸﻱﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻻ ﺁﺧﺬ‬ ‫ﺗﻜﺒﺪ‬
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‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭﺍﺕ ﺗﻤهﻴﺪﻳﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺇﻥ ﻗﺪﺭﺕ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟ��ﻭﻓﺴﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﺛ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺭﺋﻱﺲ ﻗﺴﻢ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺭ�ﺪ ﺇﺿﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﻗ�ﻱ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭﺍﺕ ﺗﻤهﻴﺪﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﻮﻝ ﻧﺮﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺻﻐ��ﺍ ﺑ� ّﻱ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻋﺎ ﻋ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺘﻪ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻗﺮﺉﻲ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﻗﻮﺍﻋﺪ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ هﺬﺍ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻤﻜﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ‬ ‫ﻟﻨﻌﺮﻑ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻹﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺨﻀﻌﻚ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻨ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻮﺩﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻈﻨ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ ﺇﺷﻌﺎﺭﻩ ﺑﺎﻟﺪهﺸﺔ ﺑﻤﺪﻯ ﺇﳌﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺈﺣﺮﺍﺝ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ْ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﻓﻌﻞ ��ﻱﺀ‬
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‫ﺍﳌ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻣﺮ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻏ��‬
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‫ﻋﺪﺕ �� ﻏﻀﻮﻥ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺟﻠﺲ �� ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺑﺪﺀ ﺍﺧﺘﺒﺎﺭ« ‪:‬ﺍﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻﺣﻈﺘﻪ ﻭ�ﻨﻔﺮﺩ ﺑﻪ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺩﺍﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮ�ﻒ ﺗﺼﺒﺢ ﻻﺣﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻻﺳﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺪﻻﺕ‪».‬‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ��‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺕ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﺍﳌﻼﺣﻈﺔ ﺃﺑ�ﺝﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺳﺌﻠﺔ �ﺴﻴﻄﺔ‪،‬ﺃﻃﺒﻖ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﻣﺒﺕﺴﻤﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﺳﺘﺤﻀﺮ�ﻦ ﻏﺪﺍ ﺇ�� ﺻﻒ ﺍﺩﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺃﺩ ّﺭﺳﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ �� ﻧﻈﺮﻱ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﻤﺘﻌﺔ �� ﺍﺩﺏ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�� ‪.‬ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﺇ�ﺴ�ﻥ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﻴﻮﺭ�ﺴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻮﻧﺎﺱ ﻻﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓ��ﻏﻴﻼﻧﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻴﻠهﺎﻓ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻴﻨﻱﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻔﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺳﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﺆﻟﻔﺎﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺜﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﻤﺎ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻳﺘﺠﺎﻭﺯ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﻛﺒ��‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺇﺭﺿﺎﺀ ّﺃﻣﻲ �� ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﺩﺏ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�� ﺑﺎﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﺍ�ﺝهﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﻮﻯ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺮﻏﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻚ �� ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﻟﻮﻻ ﺩﻣﺎﺛﺔ ﺃﺧﻼﻕ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ ﻓ��ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺘﺎﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﻴﻤﺘﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻧﻴ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻠﻮﻙ ﻭﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺃﻭ��ﻍ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫��ﺘﻤﺎﻥ �ﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ﺗﺡﺝﺰﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﻘﻌﺪ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﻮﻑ ﺍﳌﻜﺘﻈﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺴﺎﻋﺪﺍﻧ�ﻱ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻌﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻼﻟﻢ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﻭﻏ�� ﺍﳌﺄﻟﻮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌ��ﺍﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎ��ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ��ﺥﺘﺎهﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺡ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺭﺅ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺤﺪﺩﺍﻥ �� ﺍﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﻷﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺳﺪﻳﺘﺎ �� ﺃﻟﻒ ﺻﻥﻴﻊ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻭﻓﺮﺕ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻭﺃﻏﻨﺘ�ﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺗﻜﺒﺪ ﺍﳌﺸﺎﻕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ﺗ��ﺎﻥ �� ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎﺕ �� ﺻﻨﺪﻭ�� ﺍﻟ��ﻳﺪﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻠﺼﻘﺎ ��‘ ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﻓﻮﻟﻮ�ﻞ ’ﻳﻘﻮ ﺇﻥ ﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺠﺘﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’ﺳﺄﺷ��ﻱ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻭ�ﻯﻯ ﺑﻪ ﺍﻟ��ﻭﻓﺴﻮﺭ ﻭﺍﻳﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﺣﺔ ‪ِ .‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ‬
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‫ﺗﺨﻄﻄ�ﻥ ﻟﻠﻘﺎﺀ �ﻲ ﻓﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﻼﻟﻢ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﻭﻧﺬهﺐ ﻣﻌﺎ ﺇ�� ﻣﺤﺎﻝ ﺑﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ؟‬
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‫ﺃﻟﻢ ﺗﻘﻮ�� ﺇﻧ ِﻚ ﺗﺮ�ﺪﻳﻦ ﺷﺮﺍﺀ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻣﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫’’ﻭﻭﺩﺭﻭ ﻭ�ﻠﺴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺣﺎﻛﻢ ﻭﻻﻳﺔ ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ ﻳﻠﻘﻲ �ﻠﻤﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ‪�.‬ﻌﺎ�� ﺑﺄﺳﺮﻉ‬
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‫ﺳﺄﺗﻮﺟﻪ ﻟﻠﻘﺎﺋﻚ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﻲ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺷﺎﺭﻛﺘ�ﻱ ﻧﻴ�� ﻭ�ﻠﻮﻙ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻔﻮﻑ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻮﻻﺕ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ �� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﻖ ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻄﻠ��ﺎ هﺬﻳﻦ ﺍﳌﻘﺮﺭ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻝ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﺍﺭﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﻏﻨﺎ�ﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻋﻦ ﺇﺟهﺎﺩ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺃ‬‫ﺮ‬ ‫ﺗﻘ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺇﻋﺘﺎﺩﺕ‬
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‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ّﺃ��ﺎ ّﺛﺒﺕﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻐﻄ��ﺎ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ �� ﺫه�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺘﺞ ﺇ�� ﻣﺮﺍﺟﻌ��ﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺇﻻ ﻧﺎﺩﺭﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﺴﻤﻰ ﺳﻴﻐﻤﺎ ﺑﻱﺘﺎﺱ‬ ‫ﺍﻧﺕﺴﺏﺖ ﻧﻴ�� ﻭ�ﻠﻮﻙ ﻭﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺇ�� ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ّ‬
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‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺳﻨ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺔ ﻣﻨﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻓﻘﺖ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻗﺪ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺛﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﺳﺎﻭﺙ هﺎﻱ‪-‬ﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺃﻭ��ﻍ ﻭﺁﻧﺎ هﺎ�ﺴﻮﻥ ﻭﻣ��ﺗﻞ ﺗﻮﺭﻧﻜﻮﻱﺴﺖ‬
‫ﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺇﺣﻀﺎﺭ ﻃﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻭﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﻪ ﻣﻌﺎ ��‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺇﻧﺨﺮﻃﺖ‬ ‫‪-‬‬‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻣﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺭ‬‫ﻧﻮ‬ ‫ﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺷﻴﻔﻠ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫�ﻌﺮﻓﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﻋﺼﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ �� ﻗﺎﻋﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻨﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﻦ ّ‬ ‫‘ﺳﻨ��ﺍﻝ ’ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻧﻀﻢ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ ﻋﺪﺩ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ‬ ‫ﻛﻦ ﻳﺠﻠﺴﻦ ﺇ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ‬
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‫ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﺎ �� ﺇﻻ ﻣﺪﺓ ﻭﺟ��ﺓ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺻﺮﻧﺎ ﻧﺘﻥ�ﻩ ﻣﻌﺎ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻧﻘﻴﻢ ﺣﻔﻼﺕ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺗﺤﻮﻟﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺟﻤﻌﻴﺔ ﻣﻨﻈﻤﺔ ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖ ﻋ�� ﻧﻔﺴهﺎ ﺍﺳﻢ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻈﻤﺔ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﻋﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﺳﻴﻐﻤﺎ ﺑﻱﺘﺎﺱ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺎ‬
‫�� ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﺃﻛ�� ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﻣﻌﻨﻮ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺑﺠﻌ�� ﺿﻤﻦ ﻓﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﻓﺎﺗﻨﺎﺕ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‬ ‫ﻛﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻨ��ﺎﺕ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻮ��ﻦ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻛﺒ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻳﻀﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﻣﺜ��ﺍﺕ ﻟﻺ�ﺝﺎﺏ‬
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‫ﺣﻮﻟﻨﺎ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻡ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣ��‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻱ ﺑﺮﻓﻘ��ﻦ‪ ،‬ﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃ�ﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﻣﻮ ﺍ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﺪ ﻣﻌﺮﻓ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ْ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫�� ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﻨﺎ‪ُ ،‬‬
‫ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻥﺘﻈﺮ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺤﻈﻰ ﺑﻤﻨﺎﺻﺐ‬ ‫ﻧﺤﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ﺘﺤﻤﺴ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﺭﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ َ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺎ ُﻣ ّ‬ ‫ﺗﺪﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺻﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺒﺎﺕ ﻭﺗﺒﺎﺩﻟ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺤﻘﻘﻦ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻱﺴﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻳﻤﻜ��ﻦ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺴﻪ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﺳﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻜﻤﻴﻠﻴﺔ ﳌﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺬﻛﺮﻧﻪ �� ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺒﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺃﺳﺎﺗﺬ��ﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴ�ﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺗﺤﺪﺛﻦ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺻﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﺼﻠﻦ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﺣﺎﺩﻳﺚ ﻣﻦ ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﺎﺭﻙ �� ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﻐﻴﺖ ﺇ�� ّ‬‫ُ‬

‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﺤﺎﺟ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ٍ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﺎﺕ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﻋﺐﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﺴﺐ ﻟﻘﻤﺔ ﻋﻱ��ﻱ ﻓﺎﻗﺖ ﺣﺎﺟﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻷﻥ ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻱ ﻭﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺇﺳ ِ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻣﻌﺎ �ﺎﻥ ُﻳﺜﻘﻞ �ﺎهﻞ‬
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‫ّﺃﻣﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﺎﻭﺭهﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﻭﺿﻌﻨﺎ ﺍﳌﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ �� ﺃﻥ ﺣﺰ��ﺎ ﻋ��‬
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‫�ﺸﺘﺪ ﺃﻛ�� ﻓﺄﻛ�� ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻓ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺇﻻ ﻭ�ﺴﺎﺀﻟﺖ ﺇﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‬
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‫ﺷﺄﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺳﻌﻴﺖ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﺳﺘﺠﻌﻼﻥ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﺻﻌﺒﺔ ﻋ�� ﻛﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﺎ �� ﻞ ٍ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻘﻴﺎﻡ ِﺑﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻋﺰﻣﺖ ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻟﺘﺄﻣ�ﻥ ﻣﻨﺼﺐ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻏ��‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺎﻗﺶ ﺧﻄﻄﻲ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺣﺪ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ ﻋ�� ﺻﻌﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺿﻴﻊ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ‪.‬ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻹﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻭﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ �� ﻭﺳ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺣﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ�ﺔ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﻮﻟﻮﺟﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﺄ‬
‫ﺻﻮﺭ‬‫ﺍﳌﺠﺎﺯﻓﺔ ﺑﺈﻳﺠﺎﺩ ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺎﺕ ﻻ ﺩﺍ�� ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺎﻹﺷﺎﺭﺓ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ �� ﻃﻠ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺎﻁ َ‬
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‫ﻓﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻴﺔ �� ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﻤﺮﺗ�ﻱ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻻ ﺗﻮﺻﻒ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺼﻮﺭ ‪.‬‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﺼﺎﺑﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻈهﺮ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺏﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻄهﺎ‬
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‫ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻛﺘﺎﺑ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ُﻣ ْﺮﺽ ‪.‬ﺛﻢّ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺗﺪ ّﺭ�ﺖ ﻋ�� ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ �ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺐ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇ�� ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺳﺎﺗﺬ�ﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴ�ﻥ ﻭﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﺘﺐ �� ﺗﻮﺻﻴﺔ ﻹﻛﻤﺎﻝ‬
‫ﻃﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺩﻳﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ �� ﻣﺠﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃ��ﻴﺄ ﻟهﺬﺍ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﺩﺧﻠﺖ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺣﺘﺎﺝ ﺇ�� ﻛﺴﺐ ﻟﻘﻤﺔ ﻋﻱ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ ﻭﻗﺪ �ﺴﺎﺭﻋﺖ ﺧﻔﻘﺎﺕ ﻗﻠ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻋﺸﺖ ﻣﻌهﻤﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻤﻨﻌﺎ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺨﺮﺝ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺩﺧﻮﻝ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﻩ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﻱ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﺻﺮ�ﺤﺎ ﻣﻌﻚ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺃﺷﻚ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺇﻣ�ﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻉ ّ‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮ ّ‬
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‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺠﻠﺲ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﻣﺪﻳﺮ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺑﺘﻮﻇﻴﻔﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ّﺃﻧﻚ ّ‬
‫ﻨﺖ ﻣﻨﺼﺒﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇ�ﻲ ﺃﺭﻯ‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﻣ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻓﺎﻟﻄﻼﺏ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻟﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺤﻤﻠﻮﺍ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ �ﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻧ ِﻚ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺘﻤﻜ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻅ ﺑﻪ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﻭ��ﺰﺅﻭﻥ ﺑﻚ؛ ﻭﺃﺧ�ﻯﻯ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﺳﺘﺠﺪﻳﻦ ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺔ �� ﻛﺴﺐ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻛهﺎﺗ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺳﻴ�ﺡﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻷ��ﻢ ﻟﻦ ّ‬‫ﺛﻘﺔ ﺍﺑﺎﺀ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻳﺼﺪﻗﻮﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﺍﻟ�ﺎ�� ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺄﺩﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫«ﻟﻜﻦ»‪ ،‬ﺗﻠﻌﺜﻤﺖ‪ «،‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻘ��ﺡ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ؟‪».‬‬
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‫ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻚ ‪.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤ�� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﳌﺸ�ﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﻓﻜﺮ ﻟﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺛﻢ ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺃﺟﺪ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﻓﻌﻼ ‪ِ .‬‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻗﻮﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ �ﻌﻠﻢ ﺑﻮﺿﻌﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺁﺳﻒ ّﺃﻧﻪ ّ‬ ‫ﻓﻔﻲ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ِ‬
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‫ﺃﺩﺍﺀﻙ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻘﻨﻌﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ؛ ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺑﺏﺴﺎﻃﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺃ�ﺝﻌﻚ ﻋ��‬
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‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻟﻦ ﺗﻜﻤ�� ﻓﺼﻼ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻋﻘﺐ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺳﺘﺎﺫﻱ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻃﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‬ ‫�ﻌﺎﺳﺔ‬ ‫ﺣﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ �� ِ‬
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‫ﻇﻨﻥﺖ ﻣﻌﻪ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻷﺳﻒ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻓهﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻱ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﺑﺎﳌﻄﻠﻖ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺤﺎﺷﻱﺖ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺃﺳﺎﺗﺬ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺇﺧﻔﺎﺀ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ �ﻲ ﻻ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃ�ﻌﺮﻑ ﻋﻠ��ﻢ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻊ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﻮﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﺨﻠﻴﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺟهﺪ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺟﻪ‬ ‫ﺑﺮﻣﺘﻪ �� ﻋﺼﺮ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ‪،‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮﺓ ﺍﺩﺏ‪ ،‬ﺳﻠﻜﺖ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻮﺩﻱ ﺇ�� ﺿﻔﺔ ﺍﻟ��ﺮ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﻤﺮﺍﺭﺓ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋ�� ﺭ�ﻮﺓ ﺧﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﻧﺎﺗﺌﺔ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺍﻗﺒﺖ ﺍﻟﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻱﻊ ﻟ��ﺮ ﺍﳌﺴﻱﺴﻴ�ﻱ‬
‫َ‬ ‫َ ْ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﻣﻮﺍﺟﻪ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺮﻑ ��‬ ‫ﻭﺇﻧﺪﻓﻌﺖ‬ ‫ﻳﻨﺪﻓﻊ ﻣﺎ ّﺭﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟ��ﺮ ﻣﺮﺗﻔﻌﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻭهﻮ‬
‫ﺇﻻ ﺑﺮهﺔ ﻭﺟ��ﺓ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺟﺬﺑﺖ ﺍﻧﺕﺒﺎ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺩﻭﺍﻣﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝهﺔ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ ﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺟﻠﻮ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﺎ ��‬
‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻘﺮ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺻﻞ‬ ‫ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺃ�ﻌﺪ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻖ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺘﺪﻓ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻴﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﺍﺭﺓ ﺃﻭﻗﻔﺖ ﺟﺮ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ‬
‫َ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺇﻛﺕﺴﺎﺣﻪ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺎ �ﻌ��ﺽ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﳌﺎﺫﺍ‪� ،‬ﺴ�� ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﻣ�� ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺍﺋﻖ �ﻌ��ﺽ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻲ ﺑﻼ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜ��ﺎ ﺇﻳﻘﺎ�� ‪.‬ﻟﻦ ﺗﻮﻗﻔ�ﻱ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﺢ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ‬‫ﺍﻧﻘﻄﺎﻉ‪ْ ،‬‬
‫ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣ�ﺡﺖ ﺩﻣﻮ�� ﻭ��ﻀﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﺎ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﳌﻨﻌﺶ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
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‫هﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ��ﺮ‪ ،‬ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇﺩﺭﺍ�� ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﻒ ﺍﺩﺏ ﺣﻴﺚ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ ﻋ��ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ ﺑﻤﻘﺒﺾ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻟ�ﺡﻈﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺩﺧﻮ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻮﺍﺟهﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺳﻴﺕﺴﺎﺀﻟﻮﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺳﺏﺐ ﻣﺠﻴﺉﻱ ﻗﺒﻴﻞ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺪ ّﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺛﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺇ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺪ ّﺭﺳﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﺍﺳﺘﺠﻤﻌﺖ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﻟﻠﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻭ�ﺘ�ﻱ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺪ ّﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﻏﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧ��ﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺗﺠﺮ��ﻱ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺳﻌﻴﺖ ﻟ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋ�� ﺗﻮﺻﻴﺔ �ﺴﻤﺢ ��‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﻈﺎﻇﺔ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺗﺮﻏﺒ�ﻥ ﻓﻌﻼ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺿﺮ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫’’ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ِﺑﻪ ��‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﺑﺈﻣﻌﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﻠﻄﻒ« ‪:‬ﺇﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫه�ﻱ ﻭﺍﻓﻌ�� ﻣﺎ ﺗﺮ�ﺪﻳﻦ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻋﺮﻓ��ﻦ ﺗﺪﻳﺮ ﺣﺼﺼهﺎ ﻭ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺪﺓ �� ﺟﺒ��ﺓ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻼ�ﻲ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺺ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻃﻼ��ﺎ ﺭﻣﻰ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺡﺝﺮﺍ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍ‪».‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻣﺘﻨﺎﻥ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ �ﺝﺰﺕ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻀﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﺭﺳﻞ ﺗﻮﺻﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫��ﻀﺖ ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﻜﺮهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ �� ّ‬
‫ﻗﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻟﻘﻴﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻨﺠ�� ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ‬
‫ﺳﺘﻔﻌﻠ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺖ ﻷﻧﺼﺮﻑ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻣهﻼ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﱡ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻚ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﺎﺭ�ﺎ ﺳﺎﻧﻔﻮﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﻭﺩ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻤﺘﻚ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﻣهﺘﻤﺔ ﺑﺄﻣﺮﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫�ﻌﺮﻓﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫�ﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ�‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫�ﺴﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ‬
‫َ‬ ‫َ ْ‬
‫ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻋﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪهﺸﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺑﺎﻧﺖ ﻋ�� ‪.‬ﻓﺮ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺎﺭ�ﺎ ﺳﺎﻧﻔﻮ ﺩ ﺃﻛ��‬
‫ﺭ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﱠ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺎﳌﺤﺒﺔ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻡ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣ�� ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻏ��‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺎﺗﺬﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴ�ﻥ ﺗﻔﻮﻗﺎ ﻭﺗﻤﺘﻌﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﺗﺪﻋﻮ�ﻲ ﻟﻠﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ��‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻌﻘﻮﻝ ّﺃ��ﺎ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﺣﺼﻮﻝ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﻨﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻠﺖ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻭ�ﺘ�ﻱ ﻃﻠ��ﺎ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺧ��ﺎ ِ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻣ��ﻱ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺚ �� ﻓﻮﻟﻮ�ﻞ هﻮﻝ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻭ�ﺘ�ﻱ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﻦ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻌهﻢ‬ ‫ﺃﻣ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ‪.‬ﺍﳌﻔ��ﺽ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻣﺎﺭ�ﺎ ﺳﺎﻧﻔﻮﺭﺩ ﻭﺟﻌﻠ��ﺎ ��ﺘﻢّ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺛﻥﺖ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫�� هﻴﺌﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ��ﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻣﺮﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻣﺎﺭ�ﺎ ﺳﺎﻧﻔﻮ ﺩ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺷﻌﺮهﺎ ﺍﺑﻴﺾ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﺜ�ﺝ‪ ،‬ﻣﻔﺮ ﻕ ��‬
‫َ ْ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻨﺘﺼﻒ‪ُ ،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻘﺎﻣﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻱ‪� ،‬ﺎﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺴﺮﺡ‬
‫ﺧﺎﻟﻴﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﺭﻛﺸﺔ ﺧﻼ ﻛﺸﻜﺶ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺃﻋ�� ﻳﺎﻗ��ﺎ ﺍﳌﺮﺗﻔﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻠﺴﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺬهﺐ ‪.‬ﺃﺻﻐﺖ ﺑﺎهﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﺎﻃﻌ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃ��ﻴﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﻮﻟﻪ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻛﺮﺳ��ﺎ ﻭﺍﻗ��ﺑﺖ ﻣ�ﻱ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻳﺪهﺎ �� ﻳﺪﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ��ﻀﺖ ﻋﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻣ�ﺎﻧﻚ؛ ﻷﻧﻚ‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻟﻮ‬ ‫ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﻠﻘﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﻋﻴ�‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻏﻨﺎﺉﻲ ﻋﻤﻴﻖ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻦ ﺃﺩﻉ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺎ َ‬ ‫ﻏﻢ ﺣﺎﻟ��ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛ�� ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺠﺰﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﺭ َ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺠﺰ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻣﻤﻦ هﻢ �� ﺳﻨ ِﻚ ‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ّ�ﻠﻨﺎ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺇﻋﺎﻗﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺇﻋﺎﻗﺎﺕ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧﻼﻗﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻭﺣﻴﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺇﻋﺎﻗﺘﻚ ﺑﺪﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺣﺴﺐ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫‪1‬ﺧﻄﺎﺏ ﺷه�� ﻣﻦ ﺧﻄﺎﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺲ ﺍﻣ��ﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺱ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺃﺑﺮﺍهﺎﻥ ﻟﻴﻨﻜﻮﻟ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺚ‬
‫�� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺎﻋﺪ ّﺃﻣﻲ �� ﻏﺴﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﻗﺒﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟ�ﻱ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻝ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻥ‬
‫ﺣﺼ�ﻱ ﺍﻭ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﺭ ﺟﺮﺱ ﺍﳌﻥ� ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻌﻮﺩ ﻋ�� ّﺃﻳﺔ ﺣﺎﻝ ﻷﺻﻨﻊ ﺍﻟﻥﺸﺎﺀ‪».‬‬
‫«ﺃﻧﺎ ﺳﺄﻓﺘﺢ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪» ،‬ﺇﺫ ّ‬
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‫ﺳﻤﻌ��ﺎ ﺗﻨﺎﺩﻳ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﻠهﻔﺔ’’ ‪�:‬ﻌﺎ�� ﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ �ﺡﻈﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺻﻌﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻢ ﻣﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ�ﺡﺔ ﻳﺪﻱ ِﺑﻤﺮ�ﻠ�ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺭﻛﺾ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻭ�� ﺴﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﻣﻐﻠﻔﺎ ﻃﻮ�ﻼ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ’’ ‪:‬هﻨﺎﻙ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻜﺮﺗ�� ﻣﺠﻠﺲ‬
‫ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﻌﺖ ﻓﺘﺤﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﺭﺗﺠﻔﺖ ﻳﺪﺍﻱ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻇﻨﻥﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺳﺄﺕ ﻓهﻢ ﻣﺎ ﻭﺭﺩ ﻓ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺳﻠﻤﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻷﻣﻲ ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻗﺮﺋ��ﺎ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺑﺮهﺔ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺳ��ﺳﻞ ﺇﻟﻴﻚ ﻋﻘﺪ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ‪.‬ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﻧﺎﻇﺮ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻳﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﺎ ﻭﺛﻴﻘﺔ ﻗﺎﻧﻮﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﺮﻓﻘﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺪ �ﺴﻌﺔ ﺷهﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺕﻨﺎﻟ�ﻥ ﺳﺘ�ﻥ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ ��‬‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋﺎﻝ’’ ‪ّ :‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸهﺮ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮ��ﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟهﺰﺍﺯ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺍﳌﻄﻠﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ‬ ‫ﺍﻧﻘﻄﻊ ﺻﻮ��ﺎ ﻭﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋ��‬
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‫�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﻒ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺷﺒﻜﺖ ﻳﺪ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﻤﺪﺍ �‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺟﻴﺏﺖ ﺩﻋﻮﺍ�ﻲ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺠﻠﺲ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺳﺎﻛﺮ�ﺪ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻭﺻﻠ�ﻱ ﻋﻘﺪ ﺁﺧﺮ ‪.‬هﺬﻩ ّ‬
‫هﺎﺭﺕ ﺑﻤﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮﻗ�� ﻋﻘﺪ ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ‪.‬ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ هﻨﺎﻙ‪،‬‬
‫ﺩﻋﻴﺎﻙ ﺇ�� ﺍﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﻣﻌهﻤﺎ ﻛﻤﺎ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺮﺗﺎﺣﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ﺸﺄﻧﻚ‪ ،‬ﺧﻼﻝ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ��‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﺍﻗﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﺑﻨﺼﻴﺤﺔ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﻗﺒﻠﺖ ﺍﳌﻨﺼﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ُﻋﺮﺽ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺧ��ﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺑﺎ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺣﻈﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﻴﺪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ �� ﻭﺳ�� ﻣﻨﺎﻗﺸﺔ‬
‫ﻛﻦ ﻓﻴﻪ – ّ‬
‫ﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺎﺀ ﺑﺎﻵﺑﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﻭﻣﺸﺎﻃﺮ��ﻦ ﺍﳌﺮﺡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻌهﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺻﺐ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺿﺒ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﺪﺭﺍﺀ ﻏﺮ��ﻱ ﺍﻃﻮﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺠﺎﻟﺲ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﳌﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﻴﺌﺔ – �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ّﺃﻭﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻱﻨﺎﻝ ﻭﻇﻴﻔﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺳﺎﺋﺮ ﺍﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻘﺒﻨ�ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺘﻌﺪﺩﺓ»‪،‬‬ ‫«ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﻣﺸﻱﺖ ﻭﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺃﻭ��ﻍ �� ﺍﳌﻮﻛﺐ ﺍ�ﺎﺩﻳﻤﻲ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺧﺪﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺒ�ﺎﻟﻮﺭ�ﺎ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺣﻔﻞ‬
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‫ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ �� ّ‬
‫ﻗﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﻣﺘﺎ�ﻌﺔ �ﻠﻤﺔ ﻣﻔﺘﺘﺢ ﺍ�ﺡﻔﻞ‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺟﻠﺲ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﺴﻦ ﻳﺎ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﺩﺍﻝ‪� ،‬ﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ ﺃﻭ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻧﺝﺡﺖ �� ﻗﻄﻊ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺩﻭ��ﻤﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺗﺨﺮ��‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻥﺸﻐﻠﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ‬
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‫ﻭﺿﻊ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻭﺇﺳ ِ�� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪،‬‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻛﻮ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﻘﺔ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﺳﺮﺓ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺮ�ﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﺑﺎﳌﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺟﻨﻱﻨﺎﻩ ﺇﺑﺘﻌﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﺎﻣﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺍﺩﺍ ﺻﻨﻌﺖ ﻣ��ﺎ ّﺃﻣﻨﺎ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻟﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﺏﺴﺖ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ ﺃﻧﻴﻘﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ‬ ‫’’ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺒﺎﻟﻮﺍ ﺑﻤﻈهﺮﻱ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺸﻐﻮﻻﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﻨ�ﻱ ﺻﻨﻌهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟ�� ‪:‬ﺷﺎﻝ ﺻﻮ�� ﺃﺳﻤﺮ‬
‫ﻭﻣﻘﻠﻢ ﻣﻊ ﺻﻮﻑ ﻣﺨﻤ�� ﺃﺯﺭﻕ ﻓﺎﺗﺢ؛ ﻃﻘﻢ ّ‬ ‫ﱠ‬
‫ﺑﺤﺎﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴ��ﺝ ﺍﺯﺭﻕ ﻣﻊ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻜﻤ�ﻥ؛ ﻃﻘﻢ ﺃﺯﺭﻕ ﺩﺍﻛﻦ ﻣﻊ ﺑﻠﻮﺯﺍﺕ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ‬ ‫ﱠ‬ ‫ﺟﺪﻳﻠﺔ ﺣﻤﺮﺍﺀ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻕ‬
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‫ﺗ َﻠﺏﺲ ﻣﻌﻪ؛ ﻭﺭﺩﺍﺀ ﻓﺮ��ﻱ ﻣﻨﻘﻮﺵ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﺘﻪ �� ّﺃﻭﻝ ﻳﻮﻡ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ �ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﺳﺘﺎﺫ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﺪﺭ ﻋ�� ﻣﻨ�� ﺗﻮﺻﻴﺔ ﻟﻨﻴﻞ ﻣﻨﺼﺐ‬
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‫�ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮ �� ﺃﺫ�ﻲ« ‪:‬ﻓﺎﻟﻄﻼﺏ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺘﺤﻤﻠﻮﺍ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ �ﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ ﻛهﺎﺗ�ﻥ‪».‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟهﺖ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﺇ�� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﻧﺤﻮ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺳﺖ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺻﺏﺖ ﺑﻨﻮ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻟﻨﻔ��ﺽ‬
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‫ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺃ�ﺡﻮﻛﺔ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﺘﻜﻮ ﺇﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺃﺧﺖ ﻣﺜﻞ هﺬﻩ ﻣﻊ ﺧﺎ��‬
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‫ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ ﺇﺣﺮﺍﺝ ﻛﺒ�� ﻟهﻤﺎ ‪ِ .‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �� ﺍﻣﺮ ﻗﺒﻼ ﻭﺃﺫهﺐ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﻻ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻱ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻷﻛﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻏ��‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺪﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﻦ ﻟﻮ ﺣﺪﺙ‬
‫ﺃﺳﻮﺀ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‪».‬‬
‫ﺗﺮﺟﻠﺖ ﻣﻦ‬‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟ��ﺣﻴﺐ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﺩﻕ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﺣ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃ��ﻯﻯ ﻗﻠﻘﻲ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ‪.‬ﺑﻴﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺴﺘﻠﻘﻴﺔ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﻣﻤﺎ ﺳﺒﻖ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﻠﺺ ﺳﺮﻕ ﻭﺍﺧﺘﺒﺄ �� ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﻟﻱﺲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺳﺎﺀ ﻭﺿ�� ﺃﻛ�� ّ‬
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‫ﺃﻱ ﺣﻖ �� ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﻣ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ �� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻧﻄﻠﻘﺖ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻓﺄﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻌﻠ�ﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﺉﻊ‪،‬‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫�ﺸ�ﻞ‬ ‫ﻋﻤﻠﻚ‬ ‫ﻳﻦ‬ ‫ﺳﺘﺆﺩ‬ ‫ﻚ‬‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ِ‬
‫ﺃﻧ‬
‫ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺠﺰ ﺍﻋﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻀﺎ ّﺭﺓ �� ﺳﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ‬ ‫�ﺥﺼﺎ‬
‫ُ ُ ُ‬ ‫ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺍ ﻭﺃﺯ�ﺰﻩ ّ‬
‫ﻘﺒﻠﺖ ﺑﺮﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺳﺎﺋﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﻭﻏﺒﺎﺭ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺳﺘ‬ ‫ﺃ‬ ‫ﺳﺔ‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺪ‬ ‫ﻭﺩﺍﺧﻞ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍ‬ ‫ﺣﺎﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺏﺸﻮﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟهﺖ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺼﺎﻓﺤ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺠﻴﺌﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻊ‬‫ﺃﺗﻮﻗ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫‪،‬‬ ‫ﺑﻘﺪﻭﻣﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﻙ‬ ‫ﺃﺧ��ﻲ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﺓ‬ ‫ﺑﻤﻮﺩ‬
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‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ّ‬
‫ﻱ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻟﻢ ﺃ�ﺡﻆ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺃﻧﻪ ﻭﺟﺪ �� ﻣﻈهﺮ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻏ��‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺗﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻠﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺗﺤﺖ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﺩﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﺎﻣﻠ�ﻱ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻌﺎﻣﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺇﺷﺮﺍﻓﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻧﺤﻦ ﻧﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺇﺗﺎﺣﺔ ﺃﺭ�ﻊ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻭﻝ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ��‬ ‫ﻭﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ’’ ‪ُ :‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﻦ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ �� ﺳﻨﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ‬ ‫ﺗﺎﺭ�ﺨﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺁﻣﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﻈﻔﺮ ﺑﺜﻼﺛﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺷﺒﺎﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭ�ﻌﺔ ّ‬
‫�� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﻨﺼﺮﻡ ﻟﻴﺒﻘﻮﺍ هﻨﺎ ﻭ�ﻜﻤﻠﻮﺍ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﻢ؛ ﺭﺍﻳﻤﻮﻧﺪ هﺎ�ﺴﻮﻡ �ﺥﺺ ﻣﺜﺎ��‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺗﺎﻥ ‪:‬ﺁﻧﺎ هﻮﻟﻢ ﻭﻣﺎﺑﻴﻞ ﺳﻱﺜ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺘﺎﻥ ﻣﻤﺘﺎﺯﺗﺎﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣ�ﻯﻯ �� ﺍﻟﻘﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫هﻮ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺳﻨﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ‬
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‫ﺳﺄﺗﻮ�� ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺗﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺿﺎﻑ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﺴﻨﺎ ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻣﻌﺘﻤﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺤﺼﻞ ﻃﻼﺑﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﻋﻼﻣﺎ��ﻢ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻨﺝﺡﻮﺍ �� ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﺩﺍﺅهﻢ ﺣﺴﻨﺎ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻴﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ‬
‫ﻣهﻴﺌ�ﻥ ﻟﻠﻨﺠﺎﺡ �� ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺧﻮﻝ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺎﺕ ﺍ�ﺎﺩﻳﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻗﺮﺭﻭﺍ‬ ‫ﱠ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺎﻕ ��ﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟهﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﺮ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﺘﺐ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﻥﺘﻮ�� ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺴهﺎ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﺪ ّﺭﺱ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺡ ﻗﺎﺋﻤﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻴ��ﻙ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺪﻡ ﻋﺪﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﻨﺎﻗﺸﺕﻨﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﺮ’’ ‪:‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻧﺒﺪﺃ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﺑﺎﻟ��ﺍﻣﺞ ﺍﳌﺆﻗﺘﺔ ﻟﻸ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﳌﻮﺟﻮﺩﻳﻦ هﻨﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺘﻮ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺹ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﻋﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﻟﻴﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﻳﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﻗﺒﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ‬ ‫�ﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺳﻨﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﺘﺨﺮﺝ �� ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤ�� ﺑﻤﺮﻭﻧﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﻣﻊ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻷﻧﻪ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﺤﺘﺎﺟﻮﻥ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺎﻣهﻢ ﻣﺕﺴﻊ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻟﺘﻠﻘﻲ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻔﺴﻨﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺗﻘﺮﺭ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﺣﺴﺐ‬ ‫ﺖ‬ ‫ﻣﺆﻗ‬ ‫ﻝ‬‫ﺟﺪﻭ‬ ‫ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻭﺍﳌﺪﻳﺮ‬ ‫ﻧﺝﺡﺖ‬ ‫ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ‬
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‫ﺃﺿﻢ ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧﺠﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻟﻄﻠﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻥﺘ�ﻥ ﺍﻭ�� ﻭﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ �� ﺻﻒ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺇﻧﺠﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﻭﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﻣﻌﺎ �� ﺻﻒ ﺁﺧﺮ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻴﻜﻮ ﺗﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ ﻟﻠﻠﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ ﻣﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺾ ﻣﻘﺮ ﺍﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﻟﻠﻤﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻌﺔ ‪.‬ﺍﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻣﺘﻮﻓﺮﺓ ﳌﻦ ﻳﺮﻏﺐ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻭﻝ ﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺍﳌﺒﺘﺪﺋ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﳌﻦ‬ ‫ﺻﻔ�ﻥ ّﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬‫ﱠ‬ ‫ﻭﺭ ّ�ﻤﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻀﻮﺍ ﺳﻨﺔ ﺃﺻﻼ �� ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺻﻒ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﺍﻗ��ﺡ ﻃﻼﺏ ﻛ�� ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻼﺗﻴﻥﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﻋﺪﺩ ﻛﺒ�� ﻣ��ﻢ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ‬
‫ﺳﻨﺎ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﻦ‬ ‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﺷﺎﺉﻌﺔ ﺧﺼﻮﺻﺎ �� ﺃﻭﺳﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻛ��‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺤﺎﺳﺒﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ِ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﺩ ﺍ��ﻱ ﺛﺎﻧﻮﻱ �ﺎﻣﻞ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺗﻪ ﺃﺭ�ﻊ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻘﻮﺍ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺳﻤﺎﻋهﻢ ﺧ�� ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻢ ّ ﺭ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺕﻨﻔﺪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻭﺟﺐ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺎﺩﺗ�ﻥ ﺍﺧ��ﺗ�ﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﺮ‬
‫ﺧﺮ ّ‬
‫�� ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻣهﺎﺕ ﻋﺼﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺣﻘﺎ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺅﻧﺎ ّ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺛﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ُﻳ��ﻮﺍ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﻢ هﻨﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﻭﺳﻌﻨﺎ‬‫ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪� ،‬ﺸﺮﻁ ﻧﺠﺎﺣهﻢ �� ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻥﺒﺬﻝ ّ‬

‫ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪ��ﻢ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫«ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺄﻣ�ﻥ ﺗ�ﻠﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻱ �ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺉﻲ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝ ��‬
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‫ﻣﺰﺍﺭﻉ ﺑﺒﺬﻟﺔ ﻋﻤﻞ ﺯﺭﻗﺎﺀ« ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻥ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ��ﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻟﻴﻼ‬
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‫ﻃﻌﺎﻣهﻢ ﻭﻣﺒﻴ��ﻢ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺗ�ﻠﻔﺔ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺩﻓﻊ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺍ‬
‫ﻣﻀﻄﺮ‬ ‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﻮ‬ ‫ﻻ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ �� ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺍ ﻋ�� ﺗﺄﻣﻴ��ﺎ‪».‬‬ ‫�� ٍ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻏﺎﺩﺭ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻃﺎﻟﺐ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣ��ﻜﺔ ‪.‬ﺟﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﻻ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗﺕﺴﻠﻞ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﻤﻮﺟﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﻓﺬ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﺘﻨﻌﻜﺲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺰﺟﺎﺝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺋﺮ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺾ‬
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‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﻥ‬
‫�ﻐﻄﻲ ﻭﺟﻪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻠﻮ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺍﺭ ﺍﺧﻀﺮ ﺣﻮﻟهﺎ ﺑﻠﻮ ﺫه�ﻱ ﺩﺍ�� ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ‬
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‫ﻗﺼﺎﺻﺎﺕ ﻭﺭﻕ ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﻋ�� ﺻﻔﻮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺿﺪ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻔﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ؛ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﻣﻜﻮﻣﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻭ�ﺔ ﻋﻦ �ﺴﺎﺭﻱ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺬهﺒﺔ ﻭﻟﻔﺎﺋﻒ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﺍﺋﻂ ﱠ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻤﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﱠ‬

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‫ﺣﻴﺚ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ُﺟﻤﻌﺖ ﻟﻴﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﺮ ﻭﻛﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻮﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻚ ﻻﺍﺳ��ﺰﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻔ��ﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺛ��ﻩ �� ﺃﻭﺳﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺒﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ �ﺴﻱﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �� ﺍﻣﺮ ﻭﻟﻮ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍ�ﺸﻐﺎﻝ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺇ��‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻟ�ﺡﻈﺔ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺣ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺃﻭﻟﺌﻚ ﺍﺑﺎﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺪ ّﻳ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻣﺎ ﻭﻧﻱﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﺇﻟ��ﻢ – �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻌﻈﻤهﻢ ﺳ�ﺎﻧﺎ ﺇﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴ�ﻥ ﺃﺻﻠﻴ�ﻥ ﻳﻘﻴﻤﻮﻥ �� ﻣﻨﻄﻘﺔ ﺭﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻞ ﻣ��ﻢ �ﺸﻮﻗﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﺎﻭﻝ‬ ‫ﺭ�ﻔﺮ ﻓﺎ�� – ﺃﻣﺎ ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺅهﻢ ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ّ‬
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‫ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻤﻪ ﻟهﻢ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﻋﺪ ﺃ�ﺡﻮﻛﺔ �� ﻧﻈﺮهﻢ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ُﻳﻔ��ﺽ ��ﻢ ﺃﻥ �ﻌﺪﻭ�ﻲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻈهﺮﻭﺍ ﺇ�� ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﻤﻞ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇ�ﻲ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‬
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‫ﺑﺤﺎﻟﺔ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪� ،‬ﻠﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻊ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺑﺄ�ﻲ �ﻠﻤﺎ ﺟﻌﻠﺖ ﺃﻓﺮﺍﺩهﺎ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻭﻋﻴﺎ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ �ﺎﻥ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ‪،‬‬ ‫�� ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ �ﻐﻴ�� ﻣﻈهﺮ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻗﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﻔﻲ ﻋﻦ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ �� ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺣﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻀﻌﻒ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻝ ﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺎﻟﺘﻪ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺯ ُ‬
‫ﻟﺘﺨﺮ�� ﻣﻦ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍهﻤﻴﺔ ﺑﻤ�ﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺣﺬﺭﺓ �� ﺣﺼﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﺗ�ﺡ �� ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺿﻢ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺃﺭ�ﻌ�ﻥ ﺗﻠﻤﻴﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺻﻐﺮ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ‬
‫ﺳ��ﻢ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻴﻼ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺸﺎﻏﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺣﻔﻈﺖ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻇهﺮ ﻗﻠﺐ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺗﺮﺗﻱﺐ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺭﺅﺳﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ ﺑﺤﺴﺐ ﺍﻟﺕﺴﻠﺴﻞ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺰﻣ�ﻱ ﻟﺘﻮﺍﺭ�ﺦ ﺗﻮﻟ��ﻢ ﺍ�ﺡﻜﻢ ‪ .‬ﻭ�ﻮﺳﺎﻃﺔ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﺳهﻞ ﻋ�� ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ‬
‫ﺗﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ �� ﻋهﺪ �ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅﺳﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺍﺣﺘﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻮﻝ ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﳌﺪﺭ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺩﺭﻭﺱ ﻣﺘﻮﺍﻓﻘﺔ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﻔﻈﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﺩﺍﻋﻴﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫هﺬﻩ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ِ‬
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‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ �� ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻱ ﻷﺍﺩﺏ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻱ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺗﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻤﺰ�ﺔ ﻣﻤﺎﺛﻠﺔ ﻷ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺣﻔﻈﺖ ﺗﻮﺍﺭ�ﺦ ﻣﻠﻮﻙ ﺇﻧ�ﻠ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻔ ِﺮﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﺇ�� ﺟﻮﺭﺝ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺲ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﺑﺤﺜﺎ ﻣﺴهﺒﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻱ ﻭ�� ﺍﺩﺏ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺇ�� ﺻﻘﻞ ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎ�ﻲ �� هﺎﺗ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺎﺩﺗ�ﻥ ﻷﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺴهﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﻟﻄﻼ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻮﺟﺐ ﻋ�� ﺍﻋﺘﻴﺎﺩ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺤﺘﻮ�ﺎ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻤﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺗﻈﺎهﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣهﺎ‬
‫ﻟﺘﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻭﺍﺟﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ��‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﺳﻠﻮﻙ ﻃﺮﻕ ﻣﺨﺘﺼﺮﺓ �� ﺗﻨﻈﻴﻢ ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﺩﺏ ﺍﻣ��ﻲ ‪.‬ﻣﺜﺎﻝ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﺮ ﻣﺸ��ﻙ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻟﻠﺘﻔﻜ��‬ ‫ﺳﻌﻴﺖ‬ ‫ﻔ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺆﻟ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺣﻔﻆ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺑﻴ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻤﺪﺕ ﺳﻨﺔ ‪ 1809‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﻻﺩﺓ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﺿﻔﺖ ﺇ�� ﺫﻟﻚ ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻠﺰﻣﺔ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻟهﻢ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻳﺔ ‪ – 70‬ﺳﻨﺔ –‬
‫ﻷﺻﻞ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ‪ 1879‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ُﻳﻔ��ﺽ‪ ،‬ﻋﻤﻮﻣﺎ‪ّ ،‬ﺃ��ﺎ ﺳﻨﺔ ﻭﻓﺎ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺠﺪﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺀﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﺳﺒﺎﺏ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺑﻠﻮﻏهﻢ‬
‫ﻤﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺘﺪﻭ�ﻦ ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎﺕ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻋﺎﺷﻮﺍ ّ‬ ‫ّ ُ ُ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻗ‬
‫ﺃﻃﻮﻝ ﺑﻜﺜ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇﳌﺎﻡ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍﻣ��ﻲ ��‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻧ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴهﻞ ﺇﺩﺧﺎﻟهﺎ �� ﺴﻴﺞ ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ��‬
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‫ﻓ��ﺍﺕ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ �ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻨﺄﺧﺬ ﻟﻮ�ﻐﻔﻴﻠﻮ ﻋ�� ﺳﺏﻴﻞ ﺍﳌﺜﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻣﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻧﻄﺎﻕ ﻭﺍﺳﻊ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻭﺣ�ﻯ ﺃﻣﻜﻦ ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﺗﻮﺍﺭ�ﺦ‬‫ﺇﺣﺼﺎﺀ ﺻﺪﺍﻗﺎﺗﻪ ﻋ�� ٍ‬
‫ﺻﺪﻭﺭ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻟﻪ ﻭﻣﺎ ﻛﺘﺐ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻋﺎﺵ �� ﺯﻣﻦ ﺟﻤﺎﻋﺔ ﺣﻤﻠﺔ ﺍﻗﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻴﻤﺔ ��‬
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‫ﻛﻮﻧﻜﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻪ �� ﺎﻣ��ﺝ �ﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﻋﻦ ﻛﻮﻧﻜﻮﺭﺩ؛ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴ�� ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻﺯﻡ‬
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‫هﺆﻻﺀ ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺑﺘﺬﻛﺮ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺪﺩﺕ ﻗﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﺑﺎﳌﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻋﺎﺷﻮﺍ ��‬
‫ﻛﻮﻧﻜﻮﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻼ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻀﺎﺭ ﻗﺼﺺ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ��ﻱ ﺑﻤﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻣﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ ﻭﺃﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﺫﺍﺕ‬
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‫ﺃهﻤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺣﻔﻈهﺎ؛ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻼﻣﻴﺬ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ �ﺴﺘﻤﺘﻌﻮﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺼﺺ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺆﺍﻝ ﺛﻮﺭﻭ ﻹﻣ��ﺳﻮﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺳﺏﺐ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻣﺠﻴﺌﻪ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟ�ﺝﻦ ﻣﻌﻪ ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺩﻓﻊ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﻄﻔﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﻼﺉﻲ ّ‬
‫ﻛﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻀﺮ�ﺒﺔ؛ ﺭﻛﻀﺎﺕ ِﻭ َﺗ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺜﻱﺜﺔ ﺳﻌﻴﺎ ﻟﻠهﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻥﺴﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﻳﺘﺪﺧﻠﻦ �� ﺧﺼﻮﺻﻴﺔ ﺑﻱﺖ ﻋﺰﻭ ّ�ﻱ ِﺘﻪ؛ ﺻﺪﺍﺭﻱ ﻟﻮ�ﻐﻔﻴﻠﻮ ﺍﻟﺰﺍهﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﻋﻤﺎﻟﻪ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺐ ﺍﻟﺘﻼﻣﻴﺬ ﺳﻤﺎﻋهﺎ ﻭﻗﺎﻣﻮﺍ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺉﺸﺔ ﺣ�ﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﺭﻣﻼ ﻣﺜﻠﻴﺎ– ﺟﻤﻴﻌهﺎ ﻭﻗﺎﺉﻊ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺤﻔﻈهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ُﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻗﻮﺍﺋﻢ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺃﺣﺘﺎﺝ ﺇ�� ﻣﻌﺮﻓ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﺗ��ﺎ ﺣﺴﺐ ﺍﻟﺕﺴﻠﺴﻞ‬
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‫ﺍﺑﺠﺪﻱ ﺃﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃ�ﻌﻠﻤهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺣﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﺗﺎﺭ�ﺨﻴﺔ ﺃﺿﻌهﺎ ﺑﺕﺴﻠﺴﻠهﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺗﻠﻮ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺫهﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﺸﻴﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ‬‫ﺍﻟﺰﻣ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺗﻜﺮﺍﺭ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺮ ﺳﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺗﺜﺏﻴﺖ ﺍ�ﺡﻘﺎﺋﻖ �� ﺫه�ﻱ‪.‬‬‫ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍﺉﻲ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻭ ﻗﻴﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺄﻱ ﻋﻤﻞ ﺁ��‪ٌ ،‬‬
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‫ﺍﺧ��ﺕ ﻣﺪﻧﺎ ﺷه��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﳌهﻤ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ‬
‫ﻣﻤﻦ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺷﻮﺍ ﻓ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻇهﺮﺕ ﻟﻨﺪﻥ ﻭﺇﺩﻳﻨ��ﻍ ﻭ�ﺎﺭﻱﺲ ﻭﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ‬ ‫ﻷﺍﺩﺏ ّ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻴﻼﺩﻟﻔﻴﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ ﻣﻨﺎﺟﻢ ﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺫهﺐ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺳﺮﺩ ﺍ��ﺎﺭ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﺒﺤ��ﺍﺕ ﻭﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﻐﺎﺑﺎﺕ �� ﻗﻮﺍﺋﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭ�ﻂ ﺑﻴ��ﺎ ﻭ��ﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﻷﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻘﺪﻣﻪ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﺍﺋﻖ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺑﺪﺕ ﺑﻼ ﻣﻌ�ﻯ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻢ ﺗﻔﺎﺟﺄﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻛﻤﻴﺎﺕ هﺎﺋﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻷ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺁﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﻋﻮﻥ �� ﺗﺪﺭ�ﺐ ﺫﺍﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﻭ�� ﻭﺿﻊ ّ‬
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‫ﺷ�ﻞ ﻣﻨﻈﻢ ﻟﻺﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺁﺧﺮ‬ ‫��‬ ‫�ﺠﻴﺎ‪،‬‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺗﺪ‬ ‫ﺑﺘﺠﻤﻴﻌهﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﻮﻡ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎهﺰ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻄﻠﺐ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺃﺷﺪ ﺗﺮﻛ��ﺍ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻘﺎﺭﻧﺔ ﺑﺘﺤﻀ�� ﻣﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻷﺍﺩﺏ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﻌ�ﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺗﺮﺍﺟﻢ ﺗﻼﻣﺬ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺣﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﺎﻏﺔ ‪.‬ﻋ�ﻯ‬
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‫هﺬﺍ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻐﺮﺽ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺍﳌﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﻔﻆ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺳﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺩ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺴهﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻦ ﻇهﺮ ﻗﻠﺐ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺳﻴﻜﻴﺔ ّﺃﻭﻝ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﺟﺰﺀ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺀ ﺑﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺎﺩﺓ ﻳﻮﻣﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺣﻔﻈ��ﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻇهﺮ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺮﺍﺟﻌﺔ ّ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺔ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻤهﺎ ��‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺐ ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺗﺮﺟﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻟهﺎ ‪�.‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻓﺮﻍ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ‪Immensee‬‬
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‫ﻟﺴﺘﻮﺭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭ ‪Peter Schlemihl‬ﻟﺕﺸﺎﻣﻱﺴﻮ‪ ،‬ﻭ ‪A Happy Boy‬ﻟﺒﻴﻮ�ﺴﻮﻥ ﻣﺜﻼ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺁﻟﻔهﺎ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﺘﺒ��ﺎ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌهﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺃ�ﻌﺮﻑ ﺇ�� ﻃﻼ�ﻲ �� ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻤﻜﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻴ�� ﺑﻴ��ﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻗ��ﺍﺏ ﻣ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﻭﺟﺐ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻣﻌﺎﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜ�� ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺨﻄﻴﻂ ﻹﻧﺠﺎﺯ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺻﻔﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻴﺎﻓﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤ��ﺓ ﻟهﻢ ﺑﻮﺟﻪ ﻋﺎﻡ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ �� ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ‬ ‫ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻥ ّ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻋ�� ﺍﺻﻮﺍﺕ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻴ�� ﺑ�ﻥ‬ ‫�� ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻟﻐ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇ�ﻲ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ‬
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‫ﻃﻠﺒ�ﻱ ‪�� .‬ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻭﻝ �ﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﻋ�� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺃﺻﻮﺍ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ‬
‫�ﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﺇ�� ﺃﺻﻮﺍ��ﻢ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻭﻝ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ �� ﻣﻘﺎﻋﺪهﻢ ﺣﺴﺐ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﺑﺠﺪﻳﺔ �� ﻗﺎﻋﺔ‬
‫�ﺝﻞ ﺍﺳﻤﺎﺀ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻭ�� ﺻﻔﻮ��‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺤﻔﻆ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀهﻢ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ّ ُ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﻋﺪﺩ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻳﻮﻡ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺭﺕ‬ ‫ﻣﻌ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻼﻣﻴﺬﻱ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣهﻤﺔ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺗﻮﻟﻴﻔﺔ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺸهﺮﺓ ﻣﻊ ﺍﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻭ�� ‪.‬ﻣﺜﺎﻝ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺸهﺮﺓ ّﺃﻭﻻ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﻣﻘﺎﻋﺪ �� ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻘﺪﻣﺔ �� ﺻﻒ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ�� ﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺭ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺨﻄﻂ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﺈﻥ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ ﻋﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﻓﺮﻭﺷﻮﻍ ﻭهﺎ�ﺴﻮﻥ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻨﺎﺀ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻭهﻮﻟﻢ ﻭﺳﻱﺜ�ﻱ ﻭﺳﻮﻟ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ّﺛﺏ ﱡﺖ هﺬﻩ ﺍﺳﻤﺎﺀ �� ﺫﺍﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﺭﺣﺖ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ ﻋﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﺇﺳ ِ�� ﻓﺮﻭﺷﻮﻍ ﻭﺭﺍﻳﻤﻮﻧﺪ هﺎ�ﺴﻮﻥ ﻭﺁﻧﺎ هﻮﻟﻢ ﻭﻣﺎﺑﻞ ﺳﻱﺜ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﻛﻼﺭﺍ ﺳﻮﻟ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ُﻭﺟﺪ ﻋﺪﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺗﺕﺸﺎﺑﻪ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺷهﺮ��ﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺅهﻢ ﺗﺒﺪﺃ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﺮﻑ ﺫﺍﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﺳهﻞ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺣﻔﻆ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ‪.‬ﻷﺍﻣﺮ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‬
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‫ﻳ�ﺡ ﺇﺫﺍ ُﻭﺟﺪ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺗﺕﺸﺎﺑﻪ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺅهﻢ ﺍﻭ��‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻟﻚ ��ﻱﺀ ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻳﻤ��هﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺑﺈﻣﻌﺎﻥ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻷﺗﺒ�ﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﺇﻟ��ﻢ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻻ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﻥ �� ﻣﻘﺎﻋﺪهﻢ ‪.‬ﻓﺤﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ‬ ‫ﻭﻱﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﺭ�ﻤﺎ ��‬
‫ﺛﻴﺎ��ﻢ ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺻﻌﺒﺎ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﺍﻣﺘﻼﻙ ﺃﻏﻠﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻏ�� ﻃﻘﻢ ﺛﻴﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﺃﻭ ﻃﻘﻤ�ﻥ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻯ ﻛﺜ�� ﻣ��ﻢ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ‬
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‫ﻣﻠﺏ ِﺴهﻢ ﺃﻛ�� ﺑﻜﺜ��‬‫ﻣﻦ ﺻﻨﻊ ّﺃﻣهﺎ��ﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺗﻤ��ﺍ �� ﺧﺼﺎﺋﺺ َ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﻮ ّﺃ��ﻢ ﺇﺑﺘﺎﻋﻮﺍ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ ﺟﺎهﺰﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺭ�ﻂ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻭﺃﻧﻮﺍﻉ ﺍﻭ ﺍﻕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺴﻠﻤﻮﻧ�ﻱ ﺇﻳﺎهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﻴﺤﺖ �� ﻓﺮﺹ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷﻥ ﺗﺪﺭﻱ��ﻱ ﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﳌﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﺳﺎﺳﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻇﻦ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ‬ ‫ّﻟﻠﻐﺎﺕ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌ�ﻱ ﺇﻧﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻛﻮﺍﻡ ﻻ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﻟهﺎ ﻣﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﻠﻢُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃ�ﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﺑﻴﻘﻈﺔ ﺿﻤ�� ﻣﺒﺎﻟﻎ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻭ ﺍ��‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺟﺎﺯﻯ‬ ‫ﺑﺄ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﺠﻨ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺄﺷ�� ﺇ�� ﺃﺧﻄﺎ��ﻢ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻛﺴﺒﻪ ﻣﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﻋﻤ�� ﺑﻤ�ﺎﻓﺄﺓ‬
‫ﺗﺨﺺ ﻃﻠﺒ�ﻱ‪.‬‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ �� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﺤﺘﻮﻯ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻗﻴﻤﺔ ‪:‬ﺍﻟﺸ�ﻞ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﻣﺮﺍﺟﻌﺔ ﺃﻛﻮﺍﻡ ﻣﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺭ�ﻄﺖ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﺋﺢ ﺍﳌﻨﺒﻌﺜﺔ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻔﺤﺎﺕ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻃﻼﺏ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻴﻨﻮﻥ ﻗﺮ�ﺒ�ﻥ ﻣ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻣﺜﺎﻝ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﺒﻌﺜﺖ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﺤﺴﺴهﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺗﺒﻎ ﺭﺧﻴﺺ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺻﺏﻴﺎ ﻣﻤﺘ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺴﻢ ��‬
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‫ﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﻭﺛﻴﺎﺑﻪ ﻣﺸﺒﻌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺮﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺃﻧﻔﻘﺖ �ﻞّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﺮﺷﻪ ﻋ�� ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺼﺮﻭﻓهﺎ ﻋ�� ﻋﻄﺮ ﻗﻮ ّﻱ ﻣﺘﺒﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺋﺤﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻭﺭﻗﺔ �ﺴﻠﻤهﺎ‬ ‫ﻷ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﺗﻠﺏﺴﻪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻔﻴ�ﻥ �ﻌﻤﻠﻮﻥ �� ﺣﻈﺎﺋﺮ ﺍﳌﺎﺷﻴﺔ ��‬ ‫ﻭﻋ�� ّ‬
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‫ﺃﺳﺕﺸﻢ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺧﻔﻴﻔﺔ ﻣﻨﺒﻌﺜﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺛﻴﺎ��ﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻗهﻢ ��‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺍهﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫�ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺪﺩﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺄﺗﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻨﺎﺯﻝ ﻻ ﺗﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑ��ﻮﺋﺔ �ﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻﻧﺒﻌﺎﺙ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﻋﻔﻮﻧﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻗهﻢ‬
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‫ﻭﺛﻴﺎ��ﻢ ﺗﻮ�� ﺑﺄﻃﻌﻤﺔ ﻣﻄﺒﻮﺧﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﺎﺩ ﺻ�ﻱ �� ﺍﳌﻘﻌﺪ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻲ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻋ�� ﻣﻀﻎ ﺣﺒﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻧﻔﻞ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻭﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫�ﻌﻱﺶ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺼﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﺘﺎﺓ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻮﺡ ﻣ��ﺎ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺻﺎﺑﻮﻥ ﺁﻳﻔﻮﺭﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺃﺳﻤﻌﻪ ﻋﻦ ﻃﺎﻟﺐ ّ‬ ‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﻔﻆ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻌ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ �ﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻀﺎﺭ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺼ�ﻱ ﺃﻭ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ �� ﺫهﻦ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ّ‬
‫ﺻ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺤﻀﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮﺍ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ �ﻌﻴﻞ ّﺃﻣﻪ ﺍﺭﻣﻠﺔ ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﺘﻪ ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﻪ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﻌﺪﺍﺕ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ ﻭ�� ّﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ �ﺴﻨﺢ‬‫ﺻ�ﻱ ﺁﺧﺮ �� ﻣﺘﺠﺮ ﻟﺒﻴﻊ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻤﻞ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻪ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ ﻟﻴﺪﺭﺱ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺇﻻ ﻧﺎﺩﺭﺍ ‪.‬ﺷﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺗﺤﻀﺮ ﻋﺪﺩﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺼ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ّ‬
‫ﺷﺎﺏ ﻧﻤﻮﺫ�� ﺍﳌﺠﺘﻤﻊ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪ ﺃﺣﺪ‬ ‫�ﺝﺮهﺎ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﺯﻓﺎﻓهﺎ َﻣﻦ �ﺎﻥ ُﻳﻔ��ﺽ‬
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‫ﺻﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﺻﻔﻲ ﺑﺨﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﺘﺎﻥ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ �ﺎﻧﺘﺎ �ﻌﻱﺸﺎﻥ �� ﺃﺟﻤﻞ‬
‫ﺗﻢ ﺗﻨﺎﻗﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ هﻤﺴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ؛ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﺑﻱﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺗ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺗﻮﺍﻋﺪ ﺭﺟﻼ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣ��ﺎ ﺳﻨﺎ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺘ��ﻭﺟﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺝﺡ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻨ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﺄ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ هﺬﻩ ﺍﺧﺒﺎﺭ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻏ�� ﺳﺆﺍﻝ ﻟﺼﻐﺮ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﻭﻷﻥ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ �ﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ ﺧﺒﺎﻳﺎ �ﻌﻀهﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺼﺮ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﺮ ﺷﻴ�ﺎ ﺑﺮﺍﺗ�ﻱ ﻟﺸهﺮ ﺃﻳﻠﻮﻝ‪/‬ﺳﺏﺘﻤ��‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﻏ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻭﺃﺳﻌﺪهﻢ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃ�ﺡﻆ ﺃﻱ ﺗﻠﻤﻴﺢ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﺳﺘﺤﻘﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﺰﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻇﻴﻔﺔ �� ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﺅﺩ��ﺎ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺭﺍﺗﺐ ﺃﻗﺒﻀﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻻ‬
‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪ‪.‬‬
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‫هﺮﻋﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺼﺮﻑ ﻷﺻﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺸﻴﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺟﺎﺭ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﻮﻇﻒ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺳﺘﻀﻌﻴﻨﻪ �� ﺣﺴﺎﺏ ﺍﺩﺧﺎﺭ ﺃﻡ �� ﺣﺴﺎﺏ ٍ‬
‫ﻭﺗﺨﻴﻠﺖ �ﺴﻠﻴﻤﻪ ّﺇﻳﺎﻱ ﺳﺘ�ﻥ ﺩﻭﻻ ﺍ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﺑﺈ�ﺸﺪﺍﻩ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻓﻀﻴﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﺘﺤﺔ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺎﺭ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ ﺑﺘﻠﻌﺜﻢ’’ ‪:‬ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﺣﺴﺎﺏ ٍ‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻟﻦ ﺗﻀ�� ﻌﻀﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻎ �� ﺣﺴﺎﺏ ّﺍﺩﺧﺎﺭ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﺴﺖ ُﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ �ﻌﺪ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮ �� ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺔ ﺟﻠﺪﻳﺔ‬‫ﻛﺘﺐ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ �� ﺩﻓ�� ﺻﻐ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺿﻊ ﺣﺰﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺴﺎﺋﻢ ﱡ‬
‫ﻭﺳﻠﻤ�ﻱ ّﺇﻳﺎهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺳﺮﻋﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻷﺭﻱ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﺣﺴﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﳌﺼﺮ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﻣﻠﻚ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺣﺴﺎﺑﺎ ﻣﺼﺮﻓﻴﺎ‪.‬‬‫ﻓﺘﻠﻚ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻭﻝ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻚ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻣ ِﻚ ﺗﺘﻘﺎ�ﻯﻯ ﻣ�ﻱ‬‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ« ‪:‬ﺧﻤﺴﻮﻥ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻎ ِ‬
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‫ﻣﻨﻚ ﺃﻛ��‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﻘﺎ�ﻯﻯ‬ ‫ﻟﻦ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍﺕ ﻓﻘﻂ �� ﺍﻟﺸهﺮ ﺣ�ﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺩﺧﺮﺕ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﻟﺘﻐﻄﻴﺔ ﻣﺒﻠﻎ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﺳﺘﻮﻥ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ �� ﺍﻟﺸهﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺩﻓﻌﺘﻪ ﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳ�ﻱ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺑﻤﺒﻠﻎ ﺧﻤﺲ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷ��ﻱ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﺍ�ﻊ ﺍﻟ��ﻳﺪﻳﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺣﺘﺎﺝ‬
‫ﺇﻟ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺌﺎﺕ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺳﻞ ُﻷ ّﻣﻲ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﺃﺭ�ﻌ�ﻥ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ �ﻞّ‬
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‫ﺷهﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻠﻖ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﳌﺎﻝ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﻌ�ﻥ ﺗﻮﺯﻱﻊ‬‫ﻋﻤﻠﺖ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺸهﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻊ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺿﻌﻨﺎ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺳﻠﺴﻠﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻘﺎﺭ�ﺮ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺑﺮﺍﻣﺞ ﺍﻋﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﻟﺼﻒ ﺑﻴﺎﻧﻮ ﺍﺷﺘﺪﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺩ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ هﺬﺍ‬
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‫ﺑﺈﻳﺮﺍﺩ �ﺎﻑ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺃﻥ ﺇﺧ��ﺕ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻮ �� ﻣﻴﻥﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ��ﻧﺎﻣﺞ‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻠﺔ ﺗﺠﻤهﺮ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �ﻠهﻢ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﻐﻨﻮﺍ ﺗﺮﺍﻧﻴﻢ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ‪ّ .‬ﺃﺩﻯ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺍﺏ ﺩﻭﺭ ﺳﺎﻧﺘﺎ �ﻠﻮﺯ ﻭﻭﺯﻉ ﺍ�ﺡﻠﻮ�ﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﺔ‬
‫ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳ�ﻥ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ هﺪﺍﻳﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻃﻠﺒﺕﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ هﺪﻳ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺸﺎﺭ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ ‪.‬ﺗﻠﻘﻴﻨﺎ ُ‬
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‫ﻣﻠﻌﻘﺔ ﺗﺬ�ﺎﺭ�ﺔ ﻧﻘﺸﺖ �� ﻗﻌﺮهﺎ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﻣﺒ�ﻯ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻭﺍﺳﻢ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺟﺰ��ﺎ ﺍﻋ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺮﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻏﻤﺮﺗ�ﻱ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻻ ﺗﻮﺻﻒ ‪.‬هﺎ ﺃﻧﺬﺍ‬
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‫ﻋﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻟﻘﻀﺎﺀ ﻋﻄﻠﺔ ﻛﺄﻱ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺃﺧﺮ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺛﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﻘﺎﺋ�ﻱ ﻣﻠﻴﺌﺔ‬
‫ﻯ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟهﺪﺍﻳﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻠﻘﻴ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺳﺮﺓ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻋﻤﻠﺖ‬
‫�ﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﺇﻟ��ﻢ �� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ هﺪﺍﻳﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻟ�ﻞ‬ ‫ﻣﻌهﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ�ﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻓﺮﺩ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻓ��ﺿﺖ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺳﻌﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﺃﺩﻓﺄ ﻭﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﻣﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺧﻄﺮ �� ﺑﺎ�� ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻗﺪ ﻧﻈﻔﺘﻪ ﻭﻓﺮﻛﺘﻪ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺻﺎﺭ ﻳﻠﻤﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﻴﺪ ﺗﺠه�� ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻮ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺧ��ﺕ ﻭﻃهﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺃﺻﻨﺎﻑ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳﺬﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ ��‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩﺍ ﻟﻘﺪﻭﻣﻲ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬
‫�ﻞ ّ‬‫ﺃﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺄﺓ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺯﻭﺭﻩ ﻓ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺕ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻠﺔ ﻗﺪ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﻞ‪ ،‬ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻷﻣﻲ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﻊ ّ‬
‫ﻝ‬
‫�ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﻀﻴ��ﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻥ� ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻣﺎ�ﻊ ﺍﻟﺒﺘﺔ ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓﻔﻲ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺕﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺏﺖ ﺃﻣﺘﻌ�ﻱ ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻋ�� ﻭﺷﻚ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ ﺑﺎﻛﺮﺍ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻷﻛﻮﻥ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻭﺿ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ ﻟﺮﻛﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ �� ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ ﻧﺎﺩﺗ�ﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻌﺎ�� ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ‪ ،‬ﻓهﻨﺎﻙ ��ﻱﺀ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﻮﻟﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﻭﺩ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬‬
‫ﻱ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ �ﻲ ﻻ ﻧﺰ�ﺝ ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺃﻓﺮﺍﺩ ﺍﺳﺮﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﻇهﻮﺭ ﻋﻼﻣﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺃﻏﻠﻘﺖ‬
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‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﻮﻑ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺍﺑﺕﺴﻤﺖ �� ﺣ�ﻥ ﺭﺃﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺰﻥ ﻋ�� ﻭﺟههﺎ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻱﺲ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺎ �ﺴﺘﺪ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻠﻘﻲ �ﺸﺄﻧﻪ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺰﻣﺖ ﻋ�� ﻋﺪﻡ ﺫﻛﺮﻩ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺍﻥ – ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﺷهﻮﺭ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻔ�ﺡ –‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻚ ﺳﺘﻐﻴﺒ�ﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﺣﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺴﺐ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻧ‬ ‫ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﺎ ﺍ�ﺥﻄﺐ ﻳﺎ ّﺃﻣﻲ؟‘‘‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ّﺇﻧﻪ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻟﻱﺲ ﺑﺬﻱ ﺑﺎﻝ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻣﺮ‬
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‫’’ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻻ �ﺸﻌﺮﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻠﻖ ‪.‬ﻓﻜﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃ�ﻌﺎﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺄﺛ��ﺍﺕ ﻧﺰﻟﺔ ﺍﻟ��ﺩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﳌﺖ �ﻲ �� ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ ﺍﳌﺎ��ﻱ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺘﻮﻋﻜﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺣ�ﻯ �ﻌﺪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺰ�ﺎﺭﺓ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﻓ��ﺓ ﻧﻘﺎهﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻗﺒﻠهﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻓﺎﺳﺕﺒﺪ �ﻲ ﺧﻮﻑ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺇﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺪﺭ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﻣﺮﺿﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪،‬‬
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‫��ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺨ��ﻲ �ﺴﻮﺀ ﺣﺎﻟهﺎ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ��‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻧﺎﻋﻢ ﻭﺩﻣﻮﻉ ﺗ��ﻤﺮ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻣﻠﻚ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﻷﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ِ‬
‫ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺻﺮ�ﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ �� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻭﻋ�� ﻣﺮﺍﻓﻘ��ﺎ ﺇ�� ﻃﺒﻱﺐ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺟﻴﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻧﺖ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﺣﻤﻘﺎﺀ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺗﻜﻮ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻻ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻮﺓ‬ ‫ﻊ‬ ‫ﺗﺼﻨ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻭ�� ﺗﺤﺎﻭ‬
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‫��ﻱﺀ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ �� هﻮ ﻋﻮﺩﺗﻚ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﻗﻠﻖ‬
‫�ﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﳌﺎﻝ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﺪﺗ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﻃﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻨﻔﺴهﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ �� ﻟﺘﺨ��ﻲ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻝ‬
‫ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻢ ﺇﻳﻮ�ﺶ ﻋﻦ ﺣﺎﻝ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺣﺰ�ﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺧ��ﺕ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﺣ�ﻯ‬
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‫ﻭﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺳﺌﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻞ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﺳﻮﻯ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻷﺣﺪ ��ﺥﻴﺺ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺟﻪ ﺇ�� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺭ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‬‫َﻣ َﺮﺿﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﳌﺮ�ﺾ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ّ‬
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‫ﺇﺳﺘﻜﺸﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻘﺐ ﻋﻮﺩﺗﻪ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻥ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺧﻀﻌﺖ �ﺝﺮﺍﺣﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺿﻌﻴﻒ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺡ ﻭﺟﺪ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻣﺼﺎﺑﺔ ﺑﻤﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻃﺎﻥ �� ﻣﺮﺍﺣﻠﻪ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّ ْ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻊ ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻤﻮﺕ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪ْ .‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺝﺡ ﺃﻥ �ﻌﻱﺶ‬ ‫ﺣﻴﻮ��ﺎ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻲ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺳﺘﺔ ﺷهﻮﺭ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﱠ ْ‬
‫�� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﻜﺌﻱﺐ �� ﺎﻧﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‪/‬ﻳﻨﺎﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺩﻗﺖ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺻﺎﺭ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻧﺎ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﺑﻤﺰ�ﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟهﺪﻭﺀ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻗﺮﺭﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻓﻀﻞ �� هﻮ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻢ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺳﺘﻘﺪﻡ ﺇﻟ�ﻥ ﻭ��ﺛﺎ ﺳﻮﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ّ‬ ‫ﺷهﺮﻱ ﺷﺒﺎﻁ ﻭﺁﺫﺍﺭ ‪.‬‬‫ﺃﺳﺘﻤﺮ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺧﻼﻝ َ‬
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‫ْ ُ‬ ‫ّﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺎﻳﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻣﻲ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻭﻝ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻱﺴﺎﻥ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻋ�� ﺑ��ﺛﺎ ﺃﻥ �ﻐﺎﺩﺭ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﳌﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻤهﺎ �� هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺸهﻮﺭ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ ﻋﻮﻥ ﻛﺒ��‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺍﻓﻘﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺣﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﻣﻴﻥﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ‬
‫ﻃﻔﻠهﺎ ﻣﻌهﺎ ﻟ��ﺍﻩ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﺃﺩﺭﺍﺟهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﻛﻨﺎ ﻭﺣﺪﻧﺎ ﻣﻊ ّﺃﻣﻨﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋﺎﻝ ﻗﺼﺼﺎ ﻭﺭﻭﺍﻳﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﻗﺘﺼﺮﺕ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺐ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺪ�ﺴ�ﻥ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ �� ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﺪ�ﺲ ﺟﻮﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻊ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﺠﻴﻞ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﺮﺅهﺎ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻧﺠﻴﻞ �� ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻻ �ﻠﻤﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﺮ��ﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺪﺩ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ �� ﺁﺧﺮ ﺃﻳﺎﻣهﺎ ‪.‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋﺔ ّﺃﻣﻲ‬
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‫ﻣﻮﺭﻱﺲ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﳌﺪﻓﺄﺓ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ﺗﺄﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﻘﻴﻨﺎ �ﺸﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ ��‬
‫ﺍﳌﻮﻗﺪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻭﺍﺧﺮ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﺎ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻋﺎﺷ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﺧﺮﻭﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ ﻧﺎﺋﻤ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ‬
‫ﻭ�� ٍ‬
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‫ﺇ��‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻳﻥﺘ�ﻱ ‪ّ .‬‬‫ْ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻧﺎﻋﻢ’’ ‪:‬ﻋﺮﻓﻨﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﻛﻴﻒ ﻟهﺬﺍ ﺍﻣﺮ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﻋﻨﻪ ﻟﻱﺲ ﺳهﻼ ﻟ�ﻠﻴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻜﺘﺖ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻴ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ �ﺝﺰﺕ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﻡ ‪.‬ﺛﻢ �ﻌﺎ��‬
‫ﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅ��ﺎ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎهﺎ ّ‬‫ّ ُ‬
‫ﻣﺜﺒﺕﺘ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﻟهﺐ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻭﺗﻤﻜ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻌﻄﻒ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺟﻴﺪﺍ»‪ ،‬ﻣﻀﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ‪ «،‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻷﻧﻨﺎ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻧﺎ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‬ ‫ﻣﻨﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻓهﻢ ﺍﺧﺮ ّ‬ ‫«�ﻞ‬
‫ﺑ�ﺝﺔ ﻋﻈﻴﻤﺔ ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﻌﻠ ِﺘ�ﻱ �� ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ‬ ‫ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ِ‬
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‫ﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪».‬‬ ‫ﻟﻚ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﻮ ﻗﻮﻟﻪ ِ‬ ‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﻱ‬
‫ﻟﻚ �� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺣ�ﻱ ِ‬ ‫ﻋﺰﺍﺀ ِ‬
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‫ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﻗﺔ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺯﻣﻦ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫’’ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﻋ��‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﷲ‪ ،‬ﻣهﻤﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﺤﺮﺳﻚ ُ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺟﻠﻚ‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺩﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﻠ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻗﻄﺮ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺮﺷﺪﻙ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭ�‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫�ﻌﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﺃﻋﻠﻢ‬
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‫ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻙ ﻗﺪ ﺷﻔﻴﺘﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺻﺎ��ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺃﺧ��ﻲ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﺣ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﻓﻘﻂ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‬ ‫�ﺔ‬ ‫ﺅ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺗﺘﻤﻜ‬ ‫ﻟﻦ‬ ‫ﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺄﻧ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋﻤﻴﺎﺀ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻧﻚ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺮﺕ‬ ‫ﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﺎﻭﺱ ﺗﺮﺍﻭﺩ�ﻲ �ﻠﻤﺎ ﻓﻜ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﺮﺿﺘﻚ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺟﺮﺍ�� ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﻛ�� ﺃﻣﻼ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻨﻮﺍ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺗﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ��ﻢ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫’’‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﻤﻌﻮﺍ ﻋ�� ﺃﻣﺮ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺧﺬﺗﻚ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗ ِﺒ َﻞ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ‬
‫ﱠ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﻥ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻋ�� ﺣﺎﻟﺘﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺣﺬﺭ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻮ ﺍﻟﻨﺕﻴﺠﺔ ﻏ�� ﻣﺆﻛﺪﺓ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫’’ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﺍﺭ ﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺗﺤﻀ��ﻙ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﻓﻈﻴﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﻣﻞ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻳﻈهﺮ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻕ‬
‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻮﺛﻮ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻊ ﺟﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻳﺪﻳﻚ‬ ‫ﺗﻤﺪﻳﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ّ‬ ‫�ﻐ�� ﻓﻴﻚ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ّ‬ ‫’’ﻟﻢ ﺃﻻﺣﻆ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻋﻘﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺣﻤﻠﻚ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻏ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺪﻭﺕ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻭﻛﺄﻧ ِﻚ ﺗﻈهﺮ�ﻦ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺒﻜ�ﻥ ﺇﺫﺍ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺗ�ﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﺎهﻚ �� ﺃﺣﺪ‬ ‫�ﺡﻜﺖ ﻣﻞﺀ‬ ‫�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻋﻄﻴﻚ ّﺇﻳﺎهﺎ ﻟﺘﻠﻌ�ﻱ ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﺧ��ﺍ‬ ‫ﺇهﺘﻤﺎﻣﺎ ُ‬
‫ﺑﺎ�ﺡ ّ‬
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‫�ﻌﺮ�ﺘﻚ ‪�.‬ﻌﺪ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻵﺧﺬﻙ �� ﻧﺰهﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﻄﻔﻚ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻠﻥﺴﻮﺓ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ ِ‬
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‫ﺫﻟﻚ ﺯﺍﻟﺖ ﺷﻜﻮ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﺑﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫’’ﺃﺧ��ﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ ﺇﻥ ﺳﺏﺐ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻣﺠﻴﺌﻪ ﺣﺴﺐ ﺍﳌﻮﻋﺪ‪ ،‬هﻮ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ‬
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‫��ﻴﺄ ﻹﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻮ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻨﺝﺡ‬
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‫ﻓﺮﺻﺘﻚ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻗﺪ ﺿﺎﻋﺖ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻌ�ﻱ ﺑﺄﻥ‬
‫ﺄﺗﻚ ��‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺣﺪﻳ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ« ‪ّ :‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻔﻲ هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻧﺠﻠﺲ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻥ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﺑﺼﺮﻙ‪».‬‬
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‫ِ‬ ‫ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺎﺩ‬ ‫ﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺇﻧ‬ ‫ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻯ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺟﻤﺮﺍﺕ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻠهﺐ ﻗﺪ ﺧﻤﺪﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺕﺒﻘﻰ ﺳﻮ ﺑﻀﻊ‬
‫ﻗﺼﺔ ﻣﻌﺎﻧﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻰ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃ��ﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺣﺪﻳ��ﺎ �� ﻋﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺻﺎﻣﺘﺔ ﺑﻼ ﺣﺮﺍﻙ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺳﻤﻊ‬
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‫هﻤﺴﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻌﻴﺪ‬ ‫�‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻗﺒﻞ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﻛﻼﻣهﺎ‬ ‫ﻷﺳﻤﻊ‬ ‫ﺰ‬ ‫ﺃﺭﻛ‬ ‫ﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺧﺎﻓﺖ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬ ‫ﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻣ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖ َﺗﺮ�ﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻛﺮﻣﻪ ��‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭهﺎ ِ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﺮﻙ‪ ،‬ﺩﻋﻮﺕ ﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺒﻘﻴ�ﻱ ﻷﺭ ِ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻠﻴﻚ ‪.‬ﻵﺍﻥ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﺑﺄﻥ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﺠﺎﺑﺘﻪ ﻟﺪﻋﺎﺉﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﺮﻛﺘﻪ ﻋﻈﻴﻤﺔ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺃﻣﻮﺭﻙ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﻋ�� ﺧ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﻣﻀﻄﺮ�ﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗ ِﻨﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �� ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺘﻪ �� ّﺃﻣﻲ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺳﺎﻛﻨﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺩ ﻗﻮﻟﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺗﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﻷﻭﻻﺩ �ﻌﺪ ﺭﺣﻴ��‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﻋ��ﻢ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺳﺘﻤﺮ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﺠﺎﻭﺯ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺳﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﻭﺗﺼﺒﺢ ﱠ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣهﻴﺄﺓ ﻟﻜﺴﺐ ﻟﻘﻤﺔ ﻋﻱﺸهﺎ ‪.‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻤﻞ ﺇﺳ ِ�� ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗ�ﺡ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﻣﻌﻚ ﺇ�� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﺣﻴﺚ ﺗﺰﺍﻭﻟ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ‪ .‬ﻭﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ‬
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‫ﻟﻚ ﻧﺼﺎﺋﺢ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﻚ ﻭﺳﻴﻘﺪﻣﺎﻥ ِ‬‫ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﻟﻄﻴﻔ�ﻥ ِ‬
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‫ﺗﺤﺘﺎﺟ�ﻥ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺳﻴﺕﻴﺢ ﻣﻥ�ﻻ ﻟﻸﺑﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺎﺭ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﻳﻤﺘﻠﻜﻮﺍ ﻣﻥ�ﻻ‬
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‫ﺧﺎﺻﺎ ��ﻢ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﺪ��ﺎ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺃﻋﺘ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺬﻝ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﻭﺳ�� ﻷﺣﺎﻓﻆ ﻋ�� ﺷﻤﻞ ﺍﺳﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ �ﺴﺎﻭﺭ�ﻲ ﻗﻠﻖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﺍﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺗﺮﻛﻜﻢ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ‬
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‫ﺻﻐ��ﻳﻦ ﺟﺪﺍ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓهﻤﺎ ﻻ ﺰﻻﺍﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺻﻌﺒﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺘﺤﺒﻴ��ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﻴﻠﺒﻚ ﺫﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻴﺤﺘﺎﺟﺎﻥ ﺇ�� ﺭﻋﺎﻳﺔ ّﺃﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ ِﻚ‬
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‫ﺷﺒﺎﺑﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ ِﻚ ﺳﺕﻨﺎﻟ�ﻥ ﺑﺮﻛﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻣ�ﻥ ﺑﻪ �� ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻮﻓﻴﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻳﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭ ُﻭﺭﻱ ﺟﺜﻤﺎ��ﺎ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ �� ﻋﻘﺎﺭ ﺃﺳﺮﺗﻨﺎ ��‬
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‫ﻣﻘ��ﺓ ﻻﻳﻜﻮﻭﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻊ‬
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‫ﻟﻴﺕﺴ�ﻯ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺗﺄﺟ��ﻩ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﻭﻓﺎﺓ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺑﺮﺯﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻣهﻤﺔ ﺗﻔﺮﻱﻎ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺤﺘﻮ�ﺎﺗﻪ‬
‫ﻛﺒ��ﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺵ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻱ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺛﻼﺛ�ﻥ ﺳﻨﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺗﺮﺍﻛﻤﺖ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻣهﻮﻻ‪.‬‬ ‫��ﺎ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ هﺬﻩ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻗﻞ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﻋ��‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﻔﻞ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻝ‬ ‫ﻧﻥ�‬ ‫ﺛﻢ‬ ‫ﻴﺔ‬‫ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻠ‬ ‫ﻟﻨﺒﺪﺃ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﻷﻭﻟﻐﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻣ�ﻯ ﻧﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻧﺘﺼﺏﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺔ ﺧﺰﺍﻧﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺧﺸﺐ ﺍﺭﺯ ﻭﺿﻌﻨﺎ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﻨﺎ ﺍﳌﺼﻨﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺀ‬
‫ﻷﺍﻏﻄﻴﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺧﺰﺍﻧﺔ �ﺥﻤﺔ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ��ﺎ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺇﺳﻤهﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ‬
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‫‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺇﻧﺠﻴﺒﻮﺭﻍ هﻮﻏﺴﻱﺚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺯﻭﺍﺟهﺎ‪ ، 1881‬ﻣﻜﺘﻮ��ﻥ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺰﺍﻧﺔ ‪.‬ﺍﻣﺘﻸ‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺇﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﺰﺍﻧﺔ ُﺣﻤﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻗﻠ�ﻱ ﻳﺄﺳﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻏ��‬
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‫�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ �ﺸﻱﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺇﺧﺮﺍﺟهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺛﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻏ�� ﻣﻤﻜﻦ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻣﺮ‬
‫ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑ�ﺝﺮ ﻓﺮﺩﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺋﻠﺔ ﻭﺗﺮﻛﻪ ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺠﺪﺭ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺑﻤﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺍﻟهﻨﺪﺳﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷﺪ ﺇﻳﻼﻣﺎ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻻ ﺣﺼﺮ ﻟهﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻜﺪﺳﺔ ﻋ�� ﺭﻓﻮﻑ ﻣﻜﺸﻮﻓﺔ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺟﻮﺍﻧﺐ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﻃﺒﻘﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺨﻄﺮ ﺑﺒﺎﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﺑﻤﺨﻤﻦ‬
‫ﻟﺘﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻗﻴﻤﺔ ﻟﻠﻜﺘﺐ ﻭ�ﺎﻟﺘﺎ�� ﺑﻴﻌهﺎ ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻘﻠهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﺑﺎهﻆ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘ�ﻠﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻦ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﻧﺼﻨﻊ ��ﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻧﻘﻠﻨﺎهﺎ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺮﺭﻧﺎ ﺇﺣﺮﺍﻗهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﻳﻮﻣ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﺷﻌﻠﻨﺎ ﻧﺎﺭﺍ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺧ��ﺍ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻄﻠﻖ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﻭﺳﻌﺘﻨﺎ ﺟﺮﺃﺗﻨﺎ ﻟﻠﺘﺨﻠﺺ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺟﻤﻴﻌهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺨﻠﺼﻨﺎ ﺑﺄﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻕ ﺍﳌﻤﻜﻨﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻭﺟﺪﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻻ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ‬
‫ﺣﻤﻠهﺎ ﻣﻌﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﺤﻞ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻧﻘﻠﻨﺎ ﺁﺧﺮ �ﺡﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻏﺮﺍﺽ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺳﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻦ ��‬ ‫�ﺎﺩ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎ��ﻢ �� ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﺰﻣﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﻗﻀﺎﺀ ﻟﻴﻠﺘﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ ﻭﺣﺪﻧﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣ�ﺡﻨﺎ ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣ�ﻥ ﻓﺮﻏﻨﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺑﺼﻴﺺ ﻟﻀﻮﺀ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻼ�ﻯﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻳﻚ ﻟﻮ ﻧﻤ�ﺡ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺍﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﻓﺬ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﺎ ﺭ ِ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺕ ﻣﺼﺒﺎﺣﺎ �ﻌﻤﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟ�ﺎﺯ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺟﺎﺭﺍﺗﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺍﻓﻘﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻘﻞ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻮﺟهﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﳌﺨﺰﻥ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﻊ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻣﻨﺎ ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺎ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﻧﻤ��ﻱ ﻋ��‬‫ّ‬ ‫�� ﺃﺭﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‬
‫ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭ�ﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﻧﻨﻄﻖ ﺑ�ﻠﻤﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻇﻼﻟﻨﺎ ﺳﻮﺩﺍﺀ ﻭﻏﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺭﺍﻥ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻑ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻧﻤﺮ ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﺃﻥ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﻏﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﻤﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻏﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺍﻟهﻨﻱﺌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ‬
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‫ﻧﺎﻡ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻱ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻋﺪﻳﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺳﺪﻳﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ �ﺸﻐﻠهﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻱﻌﺪﻭ��ﺎ ﻏﺮﻓهﻢ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻏﺮ�ﺎﺀ ﻣﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﺳﻘﻄﺖ ﺇﻧﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺃﻋﻤﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ ��‬
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‫ﺍﺳﻔﻞ ﺣﻴﺚ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻟﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺣﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺤﺪﻳﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ‬
‫ﻋﻢ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ﻓﻴﻪ �ﻌﻮﺵ �ﻞ ﻣﻦ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﺃ�ﻲ ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺭﻭﺙ ﻭﺧﺎﻟ�ﻱ ﻣﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﺍﺑﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻧﻄﻠﻘﺖ ﺟﻨﺎﺯﺍﺗﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻷﻭﻟﻐﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻥﺴﺮﻉ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ هﻨﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺚ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺁﺏ ﻗﺮﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺜﺔ ﻋﺼﺮﺍ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﻨﺎ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ �� ﺍﳌﻮﻗﻒ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺪﺑﺮ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻭﻗﺖ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺘﻄﻊ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺃﻣﺲ‪ ،‬ﺧﻔﻨﺎ ﺃﻻ ﻧﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ‪ّ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺮ‬ ‫ﻣﺘﺄﺧ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻏﺮ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ’’ ‪:‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﻣ��ﺎﻟﻚ ﻓﻌﻼ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻘﻤﻦ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﻳ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺿﺎﻑ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﳌ�ﺥﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ ﻻ ﺗﺒﻌﺪ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻋﻦ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻧﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻻ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻜﻦ ﺣﻤﻞ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺧﻄﻮﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬ ‫ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬
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‫ﺗﺨﻔﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺮ�ﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺭﺍﻣﺰ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺒﺤﺚ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻜﻢ ﻋﻦ ﻓﺮ ﺟﻴﺪ‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻠﻴﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺒﻘ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻤﻄﺒﺦ ﻭ�ﺥﺎﻥ �ﻌﻤﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺤﻢ �ﺴﻌﺮ ﻣﻌﻘﻮﻝ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺸﺘﻌﻠﺔ ﻓ��ﻤﺎ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻷﺭﺿﻴﺎﺕ �� هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺯﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ ّ‬
‫�ﺴﺮﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺑﺎﻟﻎ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺀ ‪.‬ﺍﺣﺘﺎﺟﺖ ﺍﳌ�ﺥﺔ ﺇ�� ﺟهﺪ ﻛﺒ�� ﻟﺕﺸﻐﻴﻠهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺣﺮﺻﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻗﺘﺼﺎﺩ �� ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ �ﻲ ﻻ ﻧﻀﻄﺮ ﻻﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣهﺎ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺮﺣﺎﺽ ﻳﻤﺮ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺡﻈ��ﺓ؛ ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺧﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺀ ﺃﻥ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺗﺨ�ﻯﻯ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻑ ﺍﺭ�ﻊ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﻥﺴﺘﺨﺪﻣهﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‬ ‫ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫�� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺴﺮﻭﺭﺓ ﻟﻜﻮ‬
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‫ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﺟﻤﻴﻌهﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﺭ��ﻱ ﻭﻣﺘﺼﻠﺔ ﺑﺒﻌﻀهﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺑﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻨﻀﻊ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺳﺮ�ﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭ�ﻜﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻟﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻏﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﺳﺎﺑﻘﺎ ﻛﻐﺮﻑ ﻧﻮﻡ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﻭﻛﺌﻱﺒﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺳﻴﻤﺎ ﻟﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ �ﻌﻱﺶ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻤﻨﺎ ﺑﺨﺰﻥ �ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻻ ﺣﺎﺟﺔ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺑﻪ ﻓ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻧﺎ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺐ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺴﺘﻘﺮﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ’’ ‪:‬ﺧ�� ﻟﻜﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺒﻘﻮﺍ ﻣﻌﻨﺎ ﺭ�ﺜﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺳهﻼ ﻋﻠﻴﻜﻢ ﻭﺳﺕﺘﻤﻜﻨﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﺃﺳﺮﻉ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﻥﻨﻘﻠﻜﻢ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﻭ�ﻌﻴﺪﻛﻢ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �ﻌﺪهﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﺕﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻏﻤﺮﺗﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻟﻜﻮﻧﻨﺎ ﻗﺒﻠﻨﺎ ﺑﺪﻋﻮﺓ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺍﺩ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﻭﻣﺮﺕ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮ�ﻤﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﺟﺪﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ �� ﺍﺳﻔﻞ ﻣﻠﻴﺌﺔ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻏﺴﻠﻪ ﺑﺎﳌﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﺮﺗﻨﺎ ﻓ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﺮﻛﻨﺎ �ﺎﳌﺠﺎﻧ�ﻥ ﱠ‬‫ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺮﺗﺎﺡ ﻟﻮﺿﻊ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺼﺎﺑﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻤﻨﺎ ﺑﺕﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﺍﺟﺰﺍﺀ ﺍ�ﺥﺸﺏﻴﺔ ﺑ�ﻠﻮﺭ�ﺪ ﺍﻟﺰﺋﺒﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻋﻄﺎﻧﺎ ّﺇﻳﺎﻩ‬
‫ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻤﻨﺎ ﺑﺒﻌﺾ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪهﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻠﻤﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺗﺏﻨﺎ ﺃﺛﺎﺛﻨﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻑ ﻭﻋﻠﻘﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺭﺍﻥ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺋﺮ ﻋﻨﺪ �ﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﻓﺬ‪ ،‬ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ �� ٍ‬
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‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻟﻠﻌﻱﺶ ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺪﻡ‬ ‫هﺎﻳﺒ��ﻍ‬ ‫ﺃﻑ‬ ‫ﺟﺎﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ‬‫ﺣ�ﻥ ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺇﻧﺎﺭﺓ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﻹﺳﻌﺎﻓﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺭ ّﻭﺍﺩ ﺳﻜﻨﺔ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺭ�ﺪ ﺭ�ﻔﺮ ﻓﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺷﻴﺪ‬
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‫ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﻟﺘﻮﻟﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﻛﺐ ﺃﺟهﺰﺓ ﺇﻧﺎﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻣﺪ ﺍﺳﻼﻙ ﺍﻟﻜهﺮ�ﺎﺋﻴﺔ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻭﻭﺿﻊ ﻣﺼﺒﺎﺡ‬ ‫ﻛهﺮ�ﺎﺋﻴﺔ �� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﻣﻨﺎﺯﻝ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫�ﻞ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻏﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺍﺭ�ﻊ �� ﺍﺳﻔﻞ‪ ،‬ﺭﺍﻓﻀﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻘﺎ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﺎﻻ‬ ‫ﻣﺘﺪ�� ﻭﺍﺣﺪ �� ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺧﺪﻣﺎﺗﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺟﺎﺭ �� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ُ� َﻌﻴﺪ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﺎﻟﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻊ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻧﻮﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺕﺴﻠﻞ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﻓﺬ ﻭﻃﺮ�ﻘﺘﻜﻢ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻌﺔ ��‬
‫ﺇﺻﻼﺡ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺣﺼﺕﻨﺎ ﻣ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺋﺮﻱ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺟﻨﻱﻨﺎ ﺛﻤﺎﺭ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﻘﺔ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﻨﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺪﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺗﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺇ�� ﺭﻋﺎﻳﺔ ﻟﻴﺕﺴ�ﻯ ﻟﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺮﺍﺭ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﻣﺮ�ﺢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻳﻠ�ﻥ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮ’’ ‪:‬هﻨﺎﻙ ��ﻱﺀ ﻳﻘﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻉ‬
‫ﻟﺐ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﺎﺭ �� ّ‬‫ﺇﻥ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺛﻘﻮﺏ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻛﻮﺍﻡ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﻴﻘﻄ�ﻥ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺧ��ﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺮ ﻓﻘﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮ ﻣ��ﺀ ﺑﺎ�ﺝﺮﺫﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻮﺍ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻭﺇﻻ ﺳﺕﺘﻠﻒ ﺛﻤﺎﺭﻛﻢ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ‪ّ .‬ﺃﺩﺕ‬
‫هﺐ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪﺗﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﻮﺍﺩ ﻣﺒﻴﺪﺓ ﻟ�ﺝﺮﺫﺍﻥ هﺬﻩ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫�ﺎﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻨﻈﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺨﻠﺼﻨﺎ �� ﻭﻗﺖ‬ ‫ﻋﻤﻠهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺃﻛﻤﻞ ﻭﺟﻪ‬
‫ﻭﺟ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺫﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﻘﻠﻖ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ّﺃﻭﻝ ﺷﺘﺎﺀ ﺃﻣﻀﻱﻨﺎﻩ �� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻻ ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻤﺎ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺧﺸﻱﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟ�ﺎ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺘﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﻪ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻟﻼﻋﺘﻨﺎﺀ ��ﻢ ﻟﻮ‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ﻣﺮﺿﻮﺍ ﻟﻢ ْ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻢ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﺑ�ﻰ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﺃﻭ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﻜﻴﺖ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋ�� ﻗﻴﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻌهﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺘﻘﺪﻣﻪ ﻟهﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻗﺪﻡ ﻟهﻢ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭ�ﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ّﺃﻣﻲ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ �� ﻣ�ﻯ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺮ�ﺪ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﻋ��‬
‫ّ ُ‬ ‫�ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻨﺎ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺳﺘﺤﻀﺮ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻟهﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ �ﻠﻤﺎ��ﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺎ�ﺡﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪ ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺃﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣهﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪.‬‬
‫’’ﺍ�ﺝﻮﻉ ﺃﻣهﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺒﺎﺧ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫’’ﻣﺎﺩﺡ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻛﺬﺍﺏ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’ﻻ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻏ�� ﺟﺪﻳﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺜﻘﺔ ﻛﻤﺎﺀ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ �� ﻏﻮﺭ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺣﺴﻦ ﺍﻟ��ﺗﻱﺐ‪‘‘.‬‬‫’’ﺍﻟﺴﻜﻴﻨﺔ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﻻ ﻣﺤﺎﻟﺔ �� ّ‬
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‫ﻭﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻣﺜﺎﻝ ﺃﺧ��ﺕ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻨﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻌﺘﺎﺩﺓ ﻋ�� ﺫﻛﺮهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ‬
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‫ﺗﺘ�ﻠﻢ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻘﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻨﺼﺎﺋﺢ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﺪﺓ ﻟﻸﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻭﻟﻱﺲ ﺃﻧﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻭﺟ��ﺓ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻊ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﻣﻌهﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺁﺫﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﻊ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﻴﻢ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﺿﻄﺮﺭﻧﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻧﺘﻘﺎﻝ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻗﺒﻴﻞ ﻋﻴﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔ�ﺡ ‪.‬ﺍﺳﺘﺄﺟﺮﻧﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﳌﻥ� َﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻏﺮ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻨﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻗﺮﺍﺩﺍ‬
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‫ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻮﺟﺪ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﻏﺮﻑ ﻧﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺩ‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺕ ﺃﻛ�� ‪.‬ﺃﻏﻠﻘﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻱ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﻤﻨﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻟﺔ ﻭ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ ��‬
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‫ﺍﺳﻔﻞ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻧﺘ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍ��ﻱ ﺣﻴﺚ ﺑﺬﻟﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺪهﺎ ﺟهﺪﺍ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ﻟﻠﺘﺨﻠﺺ ﻣﻦ‬
‫هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﺸﺮﺍﺕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﺻ�� ﺍ�ﺡﻈ��ﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺭ ﻣﻸﺕ‬ ‫ﻣﻊ ﻗﺪﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺮﻭﺭ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻟ�ﺥﺮﻭﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﺃﻋﻄﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻮﺍﻋﺎ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻨﺠﺮ��ﺎ �� ﻣ�ﺎﻓﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﺻ��‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻓﻌﺎﻟﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺨﻠﺺ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻮﻡ ّ‬
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‫ﻭﻟﻮ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻘﻮﻟﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﺻ�� ﺗﺠﻠﺐ ﺍ�ﺡﻆ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﻴﺪ �ﺡﻴﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺪﺭ ﺑﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺍﻓﺮ ﻣﻨﻪ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺷهﺮ �ﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﺟﻔﺖ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻧﺤﺼﻞ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌ�ﺥﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺒ��ﺔ‬
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‫ﺑﺘﻠﻚ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺿﻄﺮﺭﻧﺎ ﺇ�� ﻧﻘﻞ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﻣﻦ ﻣ�ﺥﺔ‬
‫ﺟﺎﺭﺗﻨﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺗﺒﻌﺪ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺑﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﻋ�� هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﺟﺎﺀﻧﺎ ﺟﺎﺭ ﺁﺧﺮ‬
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‫ُﻳﺪ�� ه��ﻣﺎﻥ �ﻠﻴﻤﻴﺕﺴﺮﻭﺩ ﻟﻴﻘ��ﺡ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺣﻼ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻳﺘﻜﻦ ﺗﺤﻤﻠﻦ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﺃﻭ��‪ ،‬ﻭهﺬﺍ ﻋﻤﻞ ﺷﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺨﺎﺻﺔ ��‬
‫هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ‪.‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺷ��ﻳﺘﻢ ﺍﻧﺎﺑﻱﺐ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﺣﻔﺮ ﻟهﺎ ﺍ�ﺥﻨﺎﺩﻕ ﻭﺃﺻﻞ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻜﻢ‬
‫ﺑﻤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻘﺎ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﻨﻜﻢ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺳﻥﺘﺎ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﻣﻴﺎﻩ ﺟﺎﺭ�ﺔ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ‪.‬ﻭﻏﺪﺕ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ ﺳهﻠﺔ‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻧﺎﺩﺭﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻻﺣﻈﻨﺎ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻥﺒﻮﺭ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻢ ﻭﺿﻌﻪ �� ﺟﺪﺍﺭ ﺡﺝﺮﺓ ﺍﳌﺆﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻀﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻓﻘﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺩﻱ ﺇ��‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻧﻪ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺤﻦ ﻻﺳﺘﻌﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﻨﻔﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﻈهﺮ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ‬ ‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﻳﺘﻌ�‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻣﻀﻱﻨﺎﻩ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺟﺰﺯﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ﺃﻭﻻ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺑﻮﺍﺳﻄﺔ ﺁﻟﺔ ﺟﺰ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ‪.‬ﺻﻨﻌﺖ ﺇﺳ ِ��‪ ،‬ﺑﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ �ﻌﺾ‬ ‫ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃﺔ ﻣﻨﺠﻞ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣﻠﻌﺒﺎ ﺑﺪﺍﺋﻴﺎ ﻟﻠﺘﻥﺲ ﻭﻣﻠﻌﺒﺎ ﻟﻠﻜﺮ�ﻜﻴﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﺷ��ﻳﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺟﻞ ﺃﺻﻴﺺ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺍﳌﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﻧﺒﺎﺗﺎﺕ’’ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�� ‘‘ﺍﳌﻠﻴﺌﺔ ﺑﺎﻷﺯهﺎﺭ ﻣﻦ ِ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ �� ﻭﺍﺟهﺔ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺣﺎﻁ ﺑﺎﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺟﻮ ﻣﻥ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺕﻨﺎ ﺳﻌﺪﺍﺀ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ هﻨﺎﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺰ ّﻭﺟﺖ ﺇﻳﻠ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﺇﺳ ِ�� ﻭﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ ﻟﻠﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻭﺣﺪﻧﺎ �� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺎ ﻣﺠ��ﺪﻳﻦ �� ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻭﺍ��ﺝﻤﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﺎ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﺭﺍﺉﻊ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ��« ‪:‬ﻻ ﺗﺨ��ﻱ ﺍﻭﻻﺩ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻏﺴﻞ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ ّ‬
‫��ﻤ�ﻱ ﻧﻮﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺅﺩﻳﻪ‪».‬‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺘﻐﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻋﻄﻠﺔ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻷﺩﺍﺀ ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﺐ‬
‫ﻷﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ �ﺝﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺤ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﺮﻙ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ��ﻮﺽ �� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺾ ﻭﻏﻠ��ﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﺍﻓﻄﺎﺭ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ �ﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ �� ﻏﺴﻞ ﺃﺭﺿﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻣهﻤﺔ ﺗﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻑ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ ﻭﻓﺮﻛهﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺗﺘﻮ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺙ �� ﺍﺳﻔﻞ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻌﺔ ﻋﺼﺮﺍ ﻳﺼﺒﺢ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �� ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟ��ﺗﻱﺐ‬
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‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﻝ‬
‫ﻷﺍﻧﺎﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﺟﺎﻓﺔ ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻣﻌﻠﻘﺔ ﺣﻮ ﻓﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ‬
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‫ﺳﻱﺌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ ﻣﻐﻄﺎﺓ ﺑﺎ�ﺥ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺯﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻜﻌﻚ ﺍﳌﺤ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻔﺎﺋﻒ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻓﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺭ ّ�ﻤﺎ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻗﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﻧﺎﺕ ﺃﻭ ﻛﻌﻜﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻄ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻧﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺧﺬﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﻟﻠﺕﺴﻮﻕ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮﺟﻪ ﺇ�� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﻤﺎﻣﻨﺎ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺒﻮ�� ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺤﺕ��ﻱ ﻗهﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ ﺧﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻣﻀﻱﻨﺎهﺎ ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ؛ ﻟﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﺎﻭ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺑﺎﻛﺮﺍ ﻟ�ﻲ ﻧﺮﺍﺟﻊ ﺩﺭﻭﺱ ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺭﻭﺱ ﺍﻭﻻﺩ ﻭﺩﺭﻭ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺱ ﻟﻸﺣﺪﺍﺙ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻤهﻤﺔ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻞ ��ﺮﺟﺔ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻧﺘﻤﻴﻨﺎ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ��‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﻨﻱﺴﺕﻨﺎ �� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣ�ﻱ ﻟهﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ �� هﺬﻩ‬ ‫ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻷﺍﻛ�� ﺸﻮ�ﻘﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﻣﺮﺍﻗﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺭﺱ ﻭهﻮ‬
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‫�ﻐ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﺎهﻦ �� ﺍﻟهﻴ�ﻞ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻠﻘﻲ ﻋﻈﺘﻪ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻤﻴﺪ ﻭﺗﻮﻛﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻤﻴﺪ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﺃﻛ�� ﺥﺼﻴﺔ ﺍﻥ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺻﺎﺭ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﳌﺸﺎﺭﻛ�ﻥ �� ﺗﻠﻚ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺸﻄﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺋﻱﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻄﺔ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺛﺮ�ﺔ ﺗﻠﺘﻘﻲ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺳﺏﺖ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﻔﻈﺖ ﺍﻟ��ﺍﻣﺞ ﻋﻦ ﻇهﺮ ﻗﻠﺐ ﻷﻋﻠ��ﺎ‪� ،‬ﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺿﻄﺮ ﺇ�� ﺟﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻗﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻼﺻﻘﺔ ﻟﻮﺟ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﺍﳌﻠﻴﺌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺎﺱ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﺟﻊ ﺍﻟ��ﺍﻧﻴﻢ ﻣﺴﺒﻘﺎ ��‬
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‫ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ��ﺍﺗﻴﻞ ﻭﺃﻋﻠﻤهﺎ ﺑﻘﺼﺎﺻﺎﺕ ﻭﺭﻗﻴﺔ ﻷﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻮﻝ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ��‬
‫ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻠﺘﻘﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ّ ُ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟﺔ �� ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻣﺴﻴﺎ�ﻲ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻣﺮﺕ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺀ ﺑﺘ�ﺡﻴﺢ‬
‫ﺍﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﻭﺗﺤﻀ�� ﺩﺭﻭ��ﻱ ﻟﻠﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﻌﺪ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﻭﺳ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺀ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺳﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺄﻏﻠﺐ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﻔﻆ �� ﺡﻈﺎﺕ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻔﻆ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺍﺭ�ﺦ �� ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﻗﻮﻡ �ﻐﺴﻞ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻮﻥ ﻭﺗﺠﻔﻴﻔهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺣﻔﻆ ﻗﻮﺍﺋﻢ ﺍﺳﻤﺎﺀ �� ﺍﺩﺏ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻏﺴﻞ‬
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‫ﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﺟﺒﺎﺕ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭﺗﺐ ﺍﺳﺮﺓ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﻛ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﻔﻆ ﻣﻔﺮﺩﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺪهﺸﺎ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﻓﺮﺗﻪ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ �ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺟﻤﻊ ﺑ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻤﺎ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﻋﻤﺎ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻹﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﺮ�ﺼﺔ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺪﺑ�� ﺃﻣﻮ ﻧﺎ ﺍﳌﺎﻟﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﻋﻄﺎﻧﺎ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﺳﺎﺀﺕ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﺟﺪﺍ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﻋﺐ‬ ‫ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﻧﺼﺎﺋﺢ ﺛﻤﻴﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻤﺤﺎ �� ﺑﺈﻗ��ﺍﺽ ﺍﳌﺎﻝ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺕﺒﺪ �ﻲ ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ �ﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻋﻨﻪ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﺍﻣ�ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻉ �� ﱠ‬
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‫ﻣﻤﻦ ﻟﺪ��ﻢ ﺣﺪﺍﺋﻖ‪ ،‬ﻛﺮﻣﺎﺀ �� ﻋﻄﺎﻳﺎهﻢ ﻟﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻐﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺟ��ﺍﻧﻨﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﺎﺫ ﻣﺘﻘﺎﻋﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﻄﻦ �� ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻞ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺒﺪﺃ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ �� ﺣﺪﻳﻘﺘﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺑﺰﻭﻍ‬
‫ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻡ ﻋ�� ﻧﺎﻓﺬ�ﻲ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺿﻮﺀ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ‪.‬ﻭﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺕﻴﻘﻆ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺍﳌﺸﺮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﺎﺩﻳ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻳ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺩﺍﻝ‪ ،‬هﺬﺍ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺯﻻﺀ ﻟﻚ‘‘‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﻩ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺴﺔ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺒﻘﻰ ﺻﺎ�ﺡﺔ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﺁﺧﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺭ‪� ،‬ﻌﺎ�� ﻭﺧﺬ��ﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺬﺑﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻳﻘﺪﻣﻮﻥ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺕ ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻮﺥ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺡ ﻭﺍﻟﺮﺍﻭﻧﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﻴﻒ‬
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‫ﺗﻠﻜﻢ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺎﻛهﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺷ��ﺎ ﻭﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﻌﻠﻴ��ﺎ ﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻭﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﺮ�ﻯﻯ‬
‫�ﺴﺪﺩﻭﻥ ﻓﻮﺍﺗ��هﻢ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻛﺮ�ﻤﺎ ﻭﺯ�ﺪﺓ ﻭ�ﻴﺾ‬ ‫ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻒ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺩﻭﺍﺟﻦ ﻭ�ﺡﻮﻡ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؛ ﻭﻣ�ﻯ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﻭﺍ هﺬﻩ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﻳﺄﻣﺮ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﺑﺈﺭﺳﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺇ��‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ‪�� ،‬ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ �ﺴﻌﺮ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ‪َ .‬‬
‫ﻗﺒﻴﻞ‬ ‫�ﻌﻀهﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷ��ﻱ ﺧﻥ�ﻳﺮﺍ ﻭ�ﺝ��ﺓ �ﺡﻢ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺮ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﻔﻆ �ﻌﻀﺎ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻣﺠﻤﺪﺍ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﻠﺐ �ﻌﻀﻪ ﺍﺧﺮ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺫﻳﺐ �ﺡﻢ ﺍ�ﺥﻥ�ﻳﺮ ﻭﺃﻃ�ﻱ ﺭﺃﺱ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﻥ�ﻳﺮ ﻭﺃﺻﻨﻊ ﻧﻘﺎﻧﻖ ﺑﻮﻟﻮﻧﻴﺎ ﻧﺮﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫�ﺴﻤﻰ ﺭﻭﻝ ﺑﻮﻟ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷ��ﻱ ﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺭﻃﻼ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻃﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﳌﺰﺍﺭﻋ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻃﻼ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺭ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻔﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻮ�ﺪﻱ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﻞ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻃﻠﺐ ﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺭﻃﻼ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺤ�ﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺟﺎﻱ ﺃﻑ هﺎﻳﺒ��ﻍ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﺘﻠﻚ ﻣﻥﺸﺄﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻜهﺮ�ﺎﺋﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻃﺤﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷ��ﻱ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻛﻤﻴﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺸﺐ ﺍﺧﻀﺮ ﻭﺃﻃﻠﺐ �ﺸﺮهﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻘﻄﻴﻌهﺎ ‪.‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻭﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﺑﺘﺠﻤﻴﻌهﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻔﻲ ﻭﺗﺮﻛهﺎ‬
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‫ﻟﺘﺠﻒ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺑﺨﺰ��ﺎ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ �� ﺍ�ﺡﻈ��ﺓ ﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﻤﻴﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﺸﺐ ﺗﺘﻘﻠﺺ‬
‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻭﺍ�ﺡ ﻭ�� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﻥﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺸﻚ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺟﺪﻭﻯ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﺄﺷ��ﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﻄﺐ ﺍ�ﺝﺎهﺰ ﻟ�ﺡﺮﻕ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺑﺘﺎﻉ ﻣﺆﻭﻧﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺤﻢ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺛﻤﻨﻪ ﺃﺭﺧﺺ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻟﻚ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓ��ﺓ ﺇﻗﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺃﺑﻮﺍ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫�ﻌ�ﻱ ﺿﻐﻂ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ �� ﺍﻟﻨﻔﻘﺎﺕ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺮ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟ��ﻣﻴﻞ ﻣﻠﻴﺌﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺤﻢ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﻭﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺗﺎ ﻣﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺎ �ﻌﺸﻘﺎﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻟهﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﺇﻧﻨﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﻧﺎ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺻﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﻭﻗﺖ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻮﻗﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺎ �ﺴﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ �� ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﻃﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ‬
‫ﻭﻏﺴﻞ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺗﺮﺍﻗﺐ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻧﺘ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‘‘‪ �� ،‬ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ ﻓﻜﻨﺖ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻭﻝ‪.‬‬‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﺒ�ﻯ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻗﺮﻉ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺱ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻔﻠ�ﻥ �ﺎﻥ �ﺸﻌﺮﺍﻥ ﺑﺎﻹﻧﺰﻋﺎﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺎﺟ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﻭﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃ��ﻯﻯ ﻗﻴﺎﻣﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻟهﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﻐﺮﻕ ��‬
‫ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻌﺒﻨﺎ ﻭﻏﻨﻱﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻔﻼﻥ �ﻐﻨﻴﺎﻥ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﺰﻑ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺐ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﻰ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﻓﻘﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﻋﻄﻴﺘﻪ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺩﺭﻭﺳﺎ ﻣﻮﺳﻴﻘﻴﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﺃﺣ��ﺎ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺭ �ﺮﺕ �ﻌﺰﻑ ﻭﻱﻐ�ﻱ ﺑ�ﻞ ﻓﺮﺡ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻐﻴﻈﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻮﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﺨﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﺪﺟﺎﺝ ﺍﳌﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﻧﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ ﻓﻴﺪﻓﻌﻪ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺰﻋﻴﻖ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺕﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﻀ��ﺎ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺇﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺑﺮﻓﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻃﻼﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ّﺃ��ﻢ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺒﻮﻥ ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻱ ﻣﻌهﻢ ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻨ��ﻜﻮﺍ ﺣﺪﻭﺩ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺩﻳﺔ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻐﻼ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺗﺄﺩﻳﺔ ﻋﻤ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺳﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺑﻘﻮﺍ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺪ ﺳﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻋﺎﺩﻭﺍ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﺍﻛ��‬
‫ﻟﻴ��ﻮﺍ ﺳﻨ��ﻢ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﺤﺎﻓﻈﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺡ ﺍﳌﺮﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺋﺪﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻧ�ﺎﺩ ﻧﻥﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻏﺴﻞ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﻕ �ﻌﺪ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ‪� �� ،‬ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﺣ�ﻯ �ﺴﻤﻊ ﺟ�ﺝﻠﺔ ﺍﺟﺮﺍﺱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻝ‪،‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬ ‫��ﺘﻒ‬ ‫�ﺮﺕ‬ ‫ﻭ‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ‬ ‫»‬ ‫ﺝ‬‫ﺍﻟ��‬ ‫ﺳﺔ‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻳﺪﻋﻮﻧﻨﺎ‬ ‫هﻨﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻭﻻﺩ‪،‬‬ ‫�ﻢ‬ ‫ﺇ�‬
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‫ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻥ�ﻉ ﻣﺮ�ﻠﺘﻪ ﻭﻱﻌﻠﻘهﺎ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ ﺑﻘﺼﺪ ﺇﺧﻔﺎﺀهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﺻﻮﺗﺎ ﻳﻨﺎﺩﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ’’ ‪�:‬ﻌﺎ�� ﻳﺎ ﺁ�ﺴﺔ ﺩﺍﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻨﺤﻦ �� ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺫﺍ ﺃهﻤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬هﺒﻮﻁ ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﺇ�� ﺛﻼﺛ�ﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭ�ﻌ�ﻥ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﺷﺮ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪،‬‬ ‫�ﻞ ﺍﺣﻮﺍﻝ ‪.‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻧ��ﺣﻠﻖ ﻋ�� ﺳﻔﻮﺡ ﺍﻟﺘﻼﻝ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻧ��ﻴﺄ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻭﻧﺨﺮﺝ �� ّ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﺎ��ﻱ ﻳﻠﻔﺢ ﻗﺎﻃﻌﺎ ﻭﺟﻮهﻨﺎ �ﺎﻟﻔﻮﻻﺫ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ �ﺴﻘﻂ �� ﺃﻛﻮﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﺜ�ﺝ‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ّ‬‫ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ؛ ﻏ�� ّﺃﻧﻨﺎ �ﻌﻮﺩ ﻭﻧ��ﺾ ﺿﺎﺣﻜ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫�ﺸﻖ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻨﺎ ﺻﻌﻮﺩﺍ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺃﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻠﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻨ��ﻴﺄ ﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﺳﻔﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻞ ﻓﺮﺩ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﻭﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻒ ﺍﳌﺤﻴﻂ ﺑﺘﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺠﻴﺆﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸﺆﻭﻥ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺳﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻀﻴ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ هﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻛﺘﺏﺖ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ﻗﺼ��ﺓ ﻭﻋﺮﺿ��ﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻌﺎﻭﻥ ﻣﻊ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺇﻧ�� هﻮﻟﻢ‪ ،‬ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻷ��ﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺑﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‬‫ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﻨﺎ ﻏﺮﻓ��ﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺿﺎﻕ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺑﻤﻦ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻨﻈﻢ ﻣﺒﺎﺭ�ﺎﺕ ﻛﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ �� ﻣﺒ�ﻯ ﺷﺎﻏﺮ �� ﻭﺳﻂ‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﻀﺮ ﺣﺸﻮﺩ ﻛﺜﻴﻔﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻼﻋﺒ�ﻥ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ �ﻌﻠﻘﻮﻥ ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﻔﺮﺟ�ﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻂ ﺟﻤﻮﻉ‬
‫�� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺭﺣﻠﻨﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ‪.‬ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ‬
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‫ﻃﺮ�ﻘ ِﻪ ﻟﻺﻟﺘﺤﺎﻕ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭ ﺭﻭ�ﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻱﺶ هﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ �ﺎﻥ ��‬
‫ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ ﻟﻼﻟﺘﺤﺎﻕ ﺑﺎ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ �� ﻏﻀﻮﻥ ﺳﻥﺘ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻚ ﺍﻟﺴ�� ﺍ�� ﻧﻴﻞ ﻣﻨﺼﺐ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺠﺪﺭ ِ‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﻣﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞ ﻓ��ﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻓﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﺇ�� ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻟﻱﺲ ِ‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻭﻓﻖ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ‬ ‫ﻗﺪﻣﺖ ﻃﻠﺒﺎﺕ ﳌﻨﺼﺐ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ �� ﻣﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﺒﻠﺖ �ﻌﺮﺽ ﻟﻠﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ �� ﺇﻧﺪﺭﻟ�ﻥ ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ ﻧﻮﺭﺙ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺬهﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﻭﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ�ﻦ ﻋ�� ﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻅ ﺑﻤﻥ�ﻝ ﻳﺠﻤﻌﻨﺎ‬
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‫�ﻠﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﻨﺔ ‪ 1918‬ﺳﻨﺔ ﺳﻱﺌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ﻟﻠﻘﺪﻭﻡ ﺇ�� ﺇﻧﺪﺭﻟ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‬
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‫ﻣﻘﺮﺍ ﻟﺸﺮﻛﺔ ﺳﻜﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪ ﺳﻮ ﻻﻳﻦ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻜﺘﻈﺔ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﺍﻟﺰ�ﺎﺩﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻥﺸﺎﻁ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺎﺭﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻜﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺏ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﺃﺣﻴﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻗﻤﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻏ�� ﻣﺮ�ﺢ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﺷﺘﻘﺖ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺳﻜﻨﻴﺔ هﺎﺩﺋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻭﻗﻠﻘﺖ ﻋﻠ��ﻢ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻧﺕﺸﺮ ﻭ�ﺎﺀ ﺍﻧﻔﻠﻮﻧﺰﺍ ﺣﺎﳌﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺕﻴﺠﺔ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻋﺎ�ﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﳌﺪﺭ��ﻱ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻧﻘﻄﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺘﻪ �� ﺇﻧﺪﺭﻟ�ﻥ ﺍﻧﺕﺸﺮ ﻭ�ﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌ ْﻘﺪﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ ﺳﻮﺀ ﺍﻧﻔﻠﻮﻧﺰﺍ ﻭﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻢ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺮ�ﻒ ﺍﳌﺠﺎﻭﺭ ﻟهﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﻟﻌﻴ� ّﻱ ﺩﻭﺭ �� ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻜﻴﻔﻲ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪ ‪.‬ﻭهﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻓﻌﻼ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ‬ ‫ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫َ ْ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃ�ﻌﺮﻑ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﺇ�� ﺃﻋﻀﺎﺀ ﻣﺠﻠﺲ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺒﻞ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺿﺪﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺍﻭﻝ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﺕﺴﻜﻌﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻟﺴﻮﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻣﺘﺪﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﺮﺻﻴﻒ �� ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱ��ﻱ ﻳﺘﻤﺘﻤﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﻼﺣﻈﺎﺕ ﺟﺎﺭﺣﺔ‬
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‫�ﺸﺄﻥ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﺎﻋﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻡ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﺮﺍﺥ ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﻭ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺗ�ﻥ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ �� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻲ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ��ﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻀﺎﻳﻘﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ �ﻌﺪ ﻣﺪﺓ ﻭﺟ��ﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﻭﺟﺒﺎ�ﻲ ��’’ ﺫﻱ ﺑﻱﻨ��ﻱ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﻣﻄﻌﻢ ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺪﻳﺮﻩ ﺯﻭﺟﺎﻥ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎﻥ هﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻜﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻘﺎﺕ ‪:‬‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺭ�ﺪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﺄ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺭﺟﺎﻝ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺭﺷﺔ ﺗﺼﻠﻴﺢ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺟﺎﻝ ﺇﻃﻔﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣهﻨﺪﺳﻮﻥ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﺑﺢ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﺎﺗﺒﻮ ﺍﻟ��ﻗﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺮﺍﺳﻠﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﺴﺆﻭﻝ ﻋﻦ ﺣﺮﻛﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺪﻳﺮ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻢ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻛﺜ�� ﻣ��ﻢ ﺃﻗﺎﺭ َﺏ ﻟﻄﻼ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ��ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﻻ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺰ�ﺎﺋﻦ ﻳﺠﻠﺴﻮﻥ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺎﻋﺪ ﻣﺮﺗﻔﻌﺔ ��‬ ‫�ﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﺇﻻ �� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻋﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺩﻟﺔ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺑﻠﻄﻒ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ّ‬
‫�ﺴﺏﺒﻮﺍ �� ﺇﺣﺮﺍﺟﺎ ﺑﺎﻹﺷﺎﺭﺓ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻋﺎﻣﻠ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘ��ﻢ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﳌﺤ��ﻣ�ﻥ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺪﺛﻨﺎ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻭﻗﻄﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻜﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻣ��ﻢ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﺍﳌﺸﻮﻗﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﺼﻠﺔ ��ﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﻉ‪.‬‬
‫ّﻝ ّ ّ َ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻟﻱﺴﺘﺎ ﻋﺎﺋﻘﺎ ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎ �� ‬ ‫ﺇﻧﺪﺭﻟ�ﻥ �� ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺑﺪﺍ �� ﻓ��ﺎ ﻷﻭ‬
‫ﺟﻤﺔ ﺻﺮﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺃهﺐ‬ ‫ﻣهﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﻣﺎ ﻋﺎﻧﻱﺘﻪ ﻣﻌهﻤﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸﻜﻼﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﻳﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ‪.‬‬ ‫ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ّ‬
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‫ﺳﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﻣﺎﺭ�ﺎ ﺳﺎﻧﻔﻮﺭﺩ’’ ‪�:‬ﻠﻨﺎ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺇﻋﺎﻗﺎﺕ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻛﺕﺸﻒ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻥ ��‬
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‫ﻃﻼ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻ�ﻱ ُﻳﺤﻀﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻳﺪﺍﻥ ﺇ��‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻳﻮﺟﺪ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ��‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻣﺜﺎﻝ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻟ��ﻭﻱﻊ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻭﺿﻊ ﺿﻔﺪﻋﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﻔﺰﺕ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻟﺴﺔ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖ ﺻﺮﺧﺔ ﺃﺯ�ﺝﺖ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﻦ �� ﻗﺎﻋﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺍﻡ ﻭﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ’’ ‪ِ :‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﺍﺳﺕﺒﻘﻴﺖ‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻟﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻘﺒﻞ ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺪﻣﺎ �ﻠﻤﺘﻪ ﻣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﺑﻱﻨﻪ ﻭ��ﻥ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ُﻣ َ‬
‫ﺤﺮﺟﺎ ﻭﻧﺎﺩﻣﺎ ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺃﺭ�� ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ �ﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻌﻴﺖ ﻟﻠﻜﻼﻡ ﻣﻌﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻧﻔﺮﺍﺩ �� ﺍﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻗﺪ ﺳﺎﻓﺮ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺝﻌﺘﻪ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺳﻨﻪ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﺤﺪﺙ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ‬ ‫ﻳﺤﺪﺛ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ��‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ �� ﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺯﺍﺭهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ��‬
‫ﺻﻮﺭﺍ ﻟﻥﺸﺎهﺪهﺎ ‪:‬ﻣﺸهﺪ ﺟﻤﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺒﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻛ�� ﺍﻟﻜﻨﺪﻳﺔ؛ ﻣﺸﺎهﺪ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﻟﻨﺎ َ‬
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‫ﻟﺸﻼﻻﺕ ﻧﻴﺎﻏﺎﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻣﺎﺭﻙ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ �� هﺎﻧﻱﺒﺎﻝ ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ‬
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‫ﻣﻱﺴﻮﺭﻱ ‪.‬ﺗﺄﺛﺮ ﺯﻣﻼﺅﻩ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻭﻏﺪﺍ ﺑﻄﻼ �� ﻋﻴﻮ��ﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﻭﻧﺤﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺘﻄﻊ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﺳﻮﺀ ﺳﻠﻮﻛﻪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺻﻐ��ﺍ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ �� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﻻﺍﻧﻀﻤﺎﻡ ﺇﻟ��ﻢ �� ﺍ�ﺸﻄﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺜ��ﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﺤﺒﻮ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻭﺭﺛﻪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺣﺰﻧﺎ ّﺃﺩﻯ ﺇ�� ﺸﻮﺀ ﻋﻘﺪﺓ ﺩﻭﻧﻴﺔ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﻟ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻟهﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺥﺺ ﻣﻜﺘﻤﻞ‬ ‫ﻳﻨﻔﺲ ﺍﺣﺘﻘﺎﻧﻪ ﺑﺪﺃ ﺑﺈﺯﻋﺎﺝ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳ�� ﻟﻴﺜﺏﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻮﻟﺔ ﻻ ﻳﺨ�ﻯﻯ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺻ�ﻱ ﺁﺧﺮ ُﻳﺰ�ﺝ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ ﺍﺻﻐﺮ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺳﻨﺎ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻓﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ �ﺸﺄ ��‬‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﻋﻠﻤﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ �ﺴﻤﻊ ﻓﻴﻪ �ﻠﻤﺔ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ‪.‬‬
‫ّﺭ ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻥ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳ�� ﻷ�ﻠﻤﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻧﻔﺮﺍﺩ ﻗﺮ ﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻣﻌﻪ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﻓﺎﺋﻖ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺨﻴﻠ�ﻱ ﻷﻛﺕﺸﻔهﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﺪﺣﻪ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺃﻣﻮﺭﺍ ﻭﺟﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻏﻠﻖ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ �� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻮﺓ’’ ‪�:‬ﺎﻥ ﺇﺑﻘﺎﺅﻙ ﻟﻠﺒﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺎ ﻋﻤﻼ ﺟﻴﺪﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻭﻋﺏﺲ ﻣﻦ ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﻄﻖ ﺑ�ﻠﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻳﻠﻄﺦ ﻣﻌﻄﻒ ﺻ�ﻱّ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺣﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻂ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻃﺏﺸﻮﺭ ﻭﻣ�ﺡ ﻳﺪﻩ ﻭﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺧﺬ��ﺎ ﻣﻨﻪ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﻋﻴﺔ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻇﻨﻥﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺮ�ﺪ ﺇﻋﻄﺎﺀهﺎ ��‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺷﻜﺮ ﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺎﻁ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻄﺏﺸﻮﺭﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺪﻭﺱ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺃﺣﺪهﻢ‬
‫ﻭﻱ�ﺡﻘهﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻻﺣﻈﺖ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ّﺃﻧﻪ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﺧﺎﺭﺟﺎ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺆﺩﺑﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﻣﺘﻔﺎﺟﺌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ُﻳﺰ�ﺝ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺳﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺑﺤﺜﺎ ﺟﻴﺪﺍ ﻋﻦ ‪ The Man without a Country.‬ﺃﺛﻨﻱﺖ‬
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‫ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ �� ﺻﻔﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻣﻘﻄﻊ ﻗﺼ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺚ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻓﺎﺳﺘﻘﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺼ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫهﻠﺖ ﻟﺴﻌﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﺔ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻧﺎﻗﺸﻨﺎ ‪ A Message to Garcia‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﻪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺇﺳهﺎﻣﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻓ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺃﻳﻦ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻋﻦ ﻛﻮ�ﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻋﻤﻲ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺏ ﺍﺳﺒﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﺧ��ﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻋﻦ ﻛﻮ�ﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺍﺑﺕﺴﻢ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻗﺎﺗﻞ ّ‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻋﻠ��ﻢ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺎﻋﺪﺕ ﻃﻼﺑﺎ ﺁﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻟﻔﺘﺖ ﺍﻧﺕﺒﺎ�� ﻣﺮﺓ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ �ﻌﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ �� ﻧﻘﻠهﺎ ﺇ�� ﻣﻘﻌﺪ ﻳﻤﻜ��ﺎ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﺍ�ﻲ ﻭﺗﻘﺮﺃ ﺷﻔ� ّﻱ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺃ ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺔ ﻣﺠ��ﺪﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪهﻮﺭ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺼﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﻳﻄﻞ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻨﻌهﺎ ﺑﺈﻃﻼ�� ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺮﺽ ﺃﻣهﺎ ﺍﳌﺼﺎﺑﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻞ‬
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‫ﺍﺷﺘﺪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻮﺟﺐ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﻷﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ ﻭ�ﻌﺘ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻷﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﺻﻐﺮ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺪﻣﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺗﺪﺭ�ﺒﺎ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺎ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻃﻠﻌﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﻋ�� ﺣﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ‬
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‫ﻭ‬
‫ﺣﻘﻘﺖ ﻧﺘﺎﺋﺞ ﻣﺮﺿﻴﺔ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺃ��ﺎ ﻏﺎﺑﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ﺱ ﺃﻏﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ّ ُ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻗﻠ�ﻱ ُ‬
‫ﻧﺤﻮ ﻣﺎ‪� ،‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻭﻋ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺎﺭ‪،‬‬ ‫هﺆﻻﺀ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺸﻔﻖ‬ ‫�‬
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‫ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﺴهﻞ ﻋﻠ��ﻢ ﺣﻴﺎ��ﻢ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﻥﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺷﻌﻮ ٌﺭ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‬
‫ﻓﻌﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺤﻈﻮﻇﺔ �� ﺍﻧﺘﻘﺎﻝ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺇ�� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ ﻟﻠﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ��‬
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‫ﺑﻠﺪﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ �ﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﳌﺠﺘﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﻋﻨﺪ ﺣﺴﻦ ﻇ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻏﻠﺐ ﻣﻨﺎﺯﻝ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻄﻠﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﺑﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﺜﻠ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﺼﻠهﺎ ﻋﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ﻣﻐﻄﺎﺓ �ﺴﺘﺎﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺳﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻨﺏﺖ �� ﻓﻨﺎ��ﺎ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ �ﻞ ﺳﺎﻛﻦ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ُﻳ ّ‬
‫ﺤﺐ ﺍﺯ َ‬
‫هﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﺍﺋﻖ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺘ�� ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻭﺍﺋﻞ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻗﺪﻭﻡ ﺍﻟﺼﻘﻴﻊ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ‪.‬‬
‫�� ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻑ ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮ�ﻲ ﻟﻠﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱ��ﻱ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﻟﻮﺛﺮ�ﺔ ﻭﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻴﺜﻮﺩﻳﺔ‪ُ ،‬ﻣ ّ‬
‫ﺸﻴﺪﺓ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣ��ﻤﺎ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻞ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻓﻮﻕ ﻣﺮﻭﺝ‬ ‫هﻴﺎ�ﻠهﻤﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﻮﺏ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﺗﻥﺘﺼﺐ ّ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺧﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﻣﺘﺪ ّﺭﺟﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻛﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻥﺴﺎﺀ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺘ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﺗﻨﺎﻭﺏ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﱞ‬ ‫ﺗﻨﺎﻭ�ﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺘﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﺇﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﻗﺪﺍﺩ�ﺴهﻤﺎ �ﻲ ﻻ ﻳﻔﻮﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜهﻨﺔ �� ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﺎﺕ �� ﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻻﺕ ﺗﻮﺯﻱﻊ ﺍﻟﺸهﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺪﻋﺎﺀ ﻭﺍﻟﺘ��ﻳ�ﺎﺕ ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ ّ‬
‫�ﺥﺮ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺣﻔﻼﺕ‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ ﻣﻌﺘﺪﻻ �� ﺃﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﺭ�ﻌﺎﺀ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﳌﺘﺎﺟﺮ‬
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‫ﺗﻔﺘﺢ ﺃﺑﻮﺍ��ﺎ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮﺓ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﺳﺮ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﺭ�ﺎﻑ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺮ ﺗﻄﻠﺐُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺠﻀ ُﺮ ﻋﺸﺎﺀهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ �� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ‬ ‫ﺣﻮﻟهﺎ ِ‬
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‫َ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ �ﺥ‪ ،‬ﻳﺼﺪﻑ ﻣﺮﻭﺭﻩ ِ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻀﻤﺎﻡ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺷﺎﺉﻌﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺪﻋﻮ‬
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‫ﻣﺪﺑﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻮﻑ ﺇ�� ﻣﻨﺎﺯﻟهﻦ ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻠﻘﻰ ��‬ ‫ﻝ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ ﺍﳌﺆﺩﻱ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ّ‬‫ﺃﺷﻖ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻲ َ‬ ‫�ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺃﻭ ﺃ �ﻊ ﺩﻋﻮﺍﺕ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻔﻲ ﻟﻠﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺇﺫﺍ ﻃﺮﺃﺕ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ َﻣ َﺮﺿﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻥ‬
‫ﻛﻦ �ﺴﻮﺓ ﺍ�ﺝ��ﺍﻥ ﻳﺒﺎﺩﺭ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺍﺻﻞ هﺎﺗﻔﻴﺎ ﻹﻋﺪﺍﺩ‬
‫ﺗﺮﺗﻱﺒﺎﺕ �ﻐﻴﺔ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﺳﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﺔ �� ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ‪ ��.‬ﺣﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﻓﺎﺓ ّ‬
‫ﻛﻦ ُﻳ ّﺰ� ﱠﻦ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺪﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﻟهﻦ؛ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻘ�� ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺒﺎﺗﺎﺕ ﻷﺍﺯهﺎﺭ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ُﻳﺤﻀﺮ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻨﺎﺯ ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻘﺪﻣﻦ ﻟهﻢ ﺍﳌﺄﻭﻯ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﻟﻸﻗﺎ ﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻗﺪﻣﻮﺍ ﻟﻠﻤﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ �� ﺍ�ﺝﻨﺎ ﺓ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﺗﺮﺵ‬ ‫ﺛﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻮﻓﺎﺓ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ ﱡ‬ ‫ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻟﻚ ُﻣﺕﺴﻊ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﺑﺄﺳﺮهﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺮ ﺳ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﳌﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ �� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺧﺎﺻﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ �ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺗﻄﻮﻋﻮﺍ ﻟﻠﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻮﺍﺟﺒﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻣهﺎ ﺗﺤﺮﺻﺎﻥ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺇﻳﻤﺎ ﺛﺎﻧﺪﺍﻳﻞ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻱﻌﺪ َﻭﻧﻪ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻢ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻋ�� ٍ‬
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‫ﺍﻋﺘﻨﺎﺀ ﺑﺎﳌﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺩ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪ��ﻤﺎ ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺀ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻌﺾ‬
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‫ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺘﺎﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻳﻤﻀ�ﻥ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻣﻌهﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ‬
‫ﺇﺩﻳﺘﻮﺭ ﺟﻮ�ﺴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّﺃﻭﻝ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ �� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ �ﺸﺎﺭﻙ �� ﺍﻗ��ﺍﻉ ﻋﻘﺐ ﻧﻴﻞ‬
‫ﻣﺪﻭﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺷﺘﻠﺔ ﻓﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺑ�ﻞ ﻗﺎﻧﻮﻥ ﺑﺮﳌﺎ�ﻲ ﱠ‬ ‫ﻣﻠﻤﺔ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺃﺓ ﺣﻖ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻮ�ﺖ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺘﻌﻠﻢ ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩ ّ‬ ‫ْ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺻﻨﻒ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﻣﺎﻟﻔﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﻴﻠﺮ؛ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﺗﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﻋ�� ﻃﺎﻟﻌﻚ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﻛ��ﻛﻴ�� ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﻛﻮﺍﻣ�ﻥ؛‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻱ ﻃﻔﻞ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﻏﺐ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌﻤﻞ‬
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‫ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﺑﺘﺪﺍﺋﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺒ�ﻯ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻣﻥ�ﻟهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﺔ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺃﻳﺘﻚ �� ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ ﻳﺎ ﺁ�ﺴﺔ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻮﻥ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ٍ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﺮﺣﺒﺎ ﻳﺎ ﺁ�ﺴﺔ ﺳﻴﻢ ‪.‬ﺭ ِ‬
‫ﻟﻚ هﺪﻳﺔ ﻋﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻼﺩ ﻳﺎ ﺁ�ﺴﺔ ﺳﻴﻢ ‪‘‘.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﺼﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺩﺧﻞ ﻃﻔﻞ ��‬ ‫ﻡ‬ ‫ﺳﻴﻢ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻋﺎ�ﻰ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻋﺎﻗﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺍﺣﺘﺎﺝ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﻭﺗﺬﻛﺮﺗﻪ‬
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‫ﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻄﺮﻕ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺑﺎﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﺸﺮﻑ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻤﻜﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﻋﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺩﺭﻭﺱ ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺭﺟﻼ ﻭ�ﻠﺰ�ﺎ ﺿﺉﻴﻞ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ‪�،‬ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﻣﻌﻪ ﺇ�� ﺃﻣ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﻟ�ﺝﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻮ�ﻠﺰ�ﺔ ﻭﻭﻟﻌﻪ ﺑﺎﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﺜﻞ ﺟﺰﺀﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻠﻴﺪ �� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ﺣ�ﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ �� ﺃﺣﺴﻦ ﺣﺎﻻﺗﻪ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﳌﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ �� ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻨﻈﻤﻪ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ �� ﻣﺒ�ﻯ ﺍﻭ�ﺮﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺮ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱ��ﻱ �� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ ﻋ�� ﺑﺪﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻠﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﻒ ﺑ�ﻥ �ﺝﺮﺗ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺑﺎﺳﻘﺘ�ﻥ ﺩﺍﺋﻤ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺥﻀﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺗﻔﻮﺡ ﻣ��ﻤﺎ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺯﻛﻴﺔ‪،‬ﻭ ﻭﺟهﻪ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﻣﺤﺎﻃﺎ ��ﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ ﺍﺑﻴﺾ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﻮﺟﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻐﻨﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻱﺸﺎﺭﻙ‬
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‫��ﺥﺼﻪ �� ﺗﺮﺍﻧﻴﻢ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻪ �ﻌﺘﻤﺪ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻟﻠﻤﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺤﻴﻂ ﺍﳌﺘﻨﺎﻏﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﺛﺮ ﻛﺒ�� ﻃﻼﺏ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺷﻚ �� ﺃﻥ ﺍﻧﻀﺒﺎﻁ هﻨﺎﻙ �ﺎﻥ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ‬
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‫ﻓﻘﺮ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﻭﺳﻄهﻢ ‪.‬ﺳﻠﻮﻛهﻢ �ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫هﻨﺎﻙ‬ ‫ﻭﻟﻱﺲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺜ��‪،‬‬ ‫ﺑﺈﻣﺘﻼﻛﻪ‬ ‫ﻞ‬ ‫ﺪﻟ‬ ‫ﻃﻔﻞ ﻣ‬
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‫ﻳﺬﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﺑﻄﻼ�ﻲ �� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ‪.‬ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺑﻠﺪﺓ هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﺒﻖ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﺑﺠﻴﻞ؛‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﺭﺳﻮﺧﺎ ﻭ�ﻘﺎﺀ‪.‬‬‫ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺪﺍ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ‬ ‫ﺃ�ﻌﺮﻑ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﺒ�ﻯ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻭ�� ﻣ�ﻱ ﻃﺮﻗﺎ ﻣﺨﺘﺼﺮﺓ ��ﺬﺍ ﺍ�ﺥﺼﻮﺹ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻠﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﺳﺒﻖ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﻗﺪ �ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ��ﺬﺍ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺤﻔﻆ ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﺪﺭﻱﺴهﺎ ��‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻤﺘﻌﺖ ﺑﺮﺍﺣﺔ ﺑﺎﻝ ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺔ ‪.‬ﺳﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺟﻮﻟﻴﺎ ﺳﻮﻡ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ��‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ِﻛﻼ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻧ�ﻥ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﻭﻛﺄ�ﻲ �� ﻣﻥ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺑ�ﺝ�ﻱ �� ﻋﻤ�� ﻭﺳﻌﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺳ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫َ َ‬ ‫�ﺴﺏﺐ �� ﻗﻠﻘﺎ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ُ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺮﺍ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺳﻤﺢ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻳﻀﺎﻳﻘ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺄﻥ هﺬﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺻ ِﻨﻊ ﺧﻴﺎ��‪ ،‬ﺑﺄ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻮ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺘﺪ ﻋ�� ﺳ�� ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﻭﻓﻖ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺸﻱﺌ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻣﺘﻠﻚ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺴﺎ �ﺎﻓﻴﺎ ﻟﺘﻘﺪﻳﺮ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﺪ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺣﺼﻮﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﺳ�� ﻭﺭﺍﺀ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺸﻜﻼﺕ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻊ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺣﺎﻥ ﺍﻭﺍﻥ ﻟﻠﺘﻔﻜ�� ﺸﺄﻥ‬
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‫ﺗﻮﻗﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﻮﺩ ﻟﻠﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻭﺇﻗﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺃﺑﻮﺍ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺗﺤﺘﻢ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺮ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﻗﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺇ�� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫«ﺃ�ﺴﺎﺀﻝ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻯ ّﺃﻣﻚ ﻣﺎ�ﻊ �� ﺑﻘﺎﺉﻲ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺛﻨ�ﻥ؟»‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻵﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ‬
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‫ﻃﺮ�ﻖ ﻋﻮﺩﺗﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �ﻌﺪ ﺣﻔﻞ ﺗﺨﺮﺝ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻭﻧﺤﻦ‬
‫ﻝ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺗﺒﻘﻲ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺷﺉﺖ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺇﺫﺍ‬ ‫ﺃﻃﻮ‬ ‫ﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﺪ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻧﺤﺐ‬ ‫ﻓﻨﺤﻦ‬ ‫ﻻ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﺑﻠﻄﻒ‬ ‫ﺎ‬ ‫ﺁﻧ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﺎﺩﺭ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺛﻨ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺧﻄﻂ ﻟﺮﻛﻮﺏ ﺣﺎﻓﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ‬
‫ﺷﺴ��‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺘﻮﺟهﺔ ﺇ�� ﺭﻭ ْ‬
‫ﻟﺴﺖ ﺫﺍهﺒﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﺮ�ﻀﺔ‪ِ ،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺖ ِ‬‫’’ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺎ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ‪ِ ،‬‬
‫’’ﺑ��‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﺫهﺐ ﺇ�� ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ‪ّ ،‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ َﺗﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﳌﻌﺎ�ﺝ��ﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮﻓﻴﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺭﺃ��ﺎ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺯﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻗﻞ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫’’هﻞ ﺳﺎﺀﺕ ﺣﺎﻟهﻤﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺐ ﻋﻦ ﺳﺆﺍﻟهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺣﺪﺙ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ‬
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‫ﺣﻤﻞ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﻋ��ﻤﺎ ﺍﻥ ‪ِ .‬ﺃﻣﻠﺖ ﺑﺄﻻ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻭﻭﺍﻟﺪ��ﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻻﺣﻈﺎ ﻣﺪﻯ‬
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‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻭﺍﻟ��ﺎ��ﻤﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻻ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻤﺎ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﺷهﺮ ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ﺍﺣﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺃﻛ��‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ ﺗﺆﳌ�ﻱ �� ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﺎﺩ ﻣﻌﻪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺮﺥ‪.‬‬ ‫ٍ‬
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‫ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﺳﺘﻔﺎﺿﺔ �� ﻣﻨﺎﻗﺸﺔ ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺁﻧﺎ ﻣﺴﺎﺀ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺳ��ﺍﻓﻘ�ﻱ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ُ� ُ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺴهﻞ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺑ�ﻞ ﺍﻣﺘﻨﺎﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ‪.‬هﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ّﺁﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ُ‬
‫ﺃﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﺮﺿهﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺼﻌﺐ ﺗﺼﺪﻳﻖ ﺃﻥ ﺑﻠﺪﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﻮﻱ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺩ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺒﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺎهﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺷﻮﺍﺭﻋهﺎ ﻣﻜﺘﻈﺔ �� ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻭ�� ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺍﺕ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺰﺩﺣﻤﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻣﺘﺪﺍﺩ ﺣﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺻﻴﻒ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ �ﺴﻤﺢ ﺍﳌﺠﺎﻝ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺗﺒ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺮ ْﺃ��ﺎ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻋ�� ﻟﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻗﺪﻣﻮﺍ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻤﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ �� ﺃﺛﻮﺍﺏ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﺮﺍﺱ ﻣﺪﻭﻟﺒﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻧﺤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﺑﻤﺮ�ﻯﻯ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﻭﺣﻤﺎﻟ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺟﺎﻝ ﻭ�ﺴﺎﺀ ﺑﻤﻼ�ﺲ ﻓﺎﺧﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻛﺄ��ﻢ‬ ‫ﺑﻴﺾ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺟﺎﻝ ﺷﺮﻃﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻳﻤﻠﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺎﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺸﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﻨﺎ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻄﻮﺭ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ �� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﺷﺎﺭﺕ �� ﺁﻧﺎ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻣﻘﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﺳﻜﻦ ﻣﺸ��ﻙ‬ ‫ﻓﻨﺎﺩﻕ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻣﻄﺎﻋﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫ﻻﻓﺘﺎ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺓ‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﺩ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺎﻛﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ْ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦ‬
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‫ﺗﻘﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺳﻜﻦ ﺩﺍﺧ��‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﻮﺕ ﻟﻠﻨﻘﺎهﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻭﺳﻂ ّ‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﺕ�ﺝﻴﻞ �� ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ ﺇﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺪﺩﺕ ﻣﻮﻋﺪﺍ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﻣﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺩ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻃﺒﻱﺐ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ هﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺟﺒ��ﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻔﻲ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺪ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ﻗﺴﻢ ّ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻓﻘﻠﺖ ﻻ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺃﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺟﺒ��ﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺭﺅ�ﺘﻪ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺗﻱﺖ ﻻﺳﺕﺸﺎﺭﺓ �ﺥﺺ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺿﻴﻘﺔ ُ‬
‫ﺻﻔﺖ‬ ‫ﻭﻣﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻗﺴﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ ﻳﻘﻊ ﻋﻨﺪ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺭﺩهﺔ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺒ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻻ ‪.‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻭﺁﻧﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻛﻼ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻳﻦ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺠﻠﺲ ﻭﺭ َﺍﺀﻩ ﺇﻣﺮﺃﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺷﺎﺑﺔ ‪.‬ﺳﻠﻤ��ﺎ ﺍﳌﻐﻠﻒ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﻄﻮ�ﻲ ّﺇﻳﺎﻩ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫�ﺝﻠﺖ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﺟﺎﺀﺗ�ﻱ ﻭﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣ�ﻱ ﻣﺮﺍﻓﻘ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺭ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺓ ﻭ ﺟﻮﺕ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺄ�ﻲ ﻣ��‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺩﺧﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﺳﺕﺸﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﺎﺟﺄ�ﻲ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺟﺎﺅﻭﺍ ﻟﺮﺅ��ﻱ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﺟﺮﻯ‬‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺯﺟﺎﺟﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ّ‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮ �ﺥﺺ ﺃﺳﻤﺮ ﻗﺼ�� ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻣﺔ ��‬
‫�� ﺥﺺ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻓﺤﺼﺎ ﺃﺷﻤﻞ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺧﻀﻌﺖ ﻟﻔﺤﻮﺹ ﻋ�� ﻳﺪ ﺍﳌﺰ�ﺪ ﻣ��ﻢ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺍ ﻟﻜ��ﺓ ﻋﺪﺩهﻢ ﻭﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭﻱ ﺑﺎﻹﻧﺰﻋﺎﺝ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻧﻄﺒﺎ�� ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺁﺧﺮهﻢ ﺃﻛ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺒﺎﺳﺎ ‪.‬هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺗ�ﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻣﺄﻟﻮﻓﺎ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺧﻀﻌﺖ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﳌﺜﻞ هﺬﻩ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺤﻮﺹ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺯ�ﺎﺭﺍ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﻟﻠﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻨﺪﻳﻚ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻮﻛﻤﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﺰ�ﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺤﻮﺹ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻛﺄ��ﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﺷﺪ �ﻌﻘﻴﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫هﺬﻩ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺧﻀﻌﺖ‬
‫ﺳﺎﺑﻘﺎ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﻭﺣﺪﻱ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺒ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳﻦ ﺭﺃﻳ��ﻤﺎ ﺃﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺃ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺺ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻞ‬
‫ﺇ��‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ّﺇ��ﻢ ﺳﻱﺘﻤﻜﻨﻮ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻌﻞ ��ﻱﺀ �� ﻳﺮ�ﺤ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺍﻉ ﻭ�ﻮﻗﻒ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺏ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻮﺟﻮﺩ �� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻴﻤ�ﻯ ﻋﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﻊ ﻭ�ﺠﺐ ﺇﺯﺍﻟ��ﺎ ﻟﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﺧﻄﺮ ﻛﺒ�� ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻻ ُﺗﺒﺼﺮ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﺸﻮه�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺷﺄﻥ ﻋ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﺗﺆﺛﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺴﻦ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ �ﻌﻴﺪ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﺻﻄﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃ�ﺎﺩ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺪﻕ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻪ ��’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻈﻦ ﻓﻌﻼ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻴﻨﺎ ﺍﺻﻄﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺳﺕﺒﺪﻭ‬
‫ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺍﻥ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻱﺴﺖ‬ ‫�ﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ �� ّ‬
‫ﺃ�‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺸﺕﺒﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻚ‬
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‫�ﺡﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﺮﺗﺠﻒ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﺍ ﺭﺍﺉﻊ !ﻣ�ﻯ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺇﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺨﺪﺭ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ’’ ‪:‬ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﺃﻭﻻ ﺇﻥ ِ‬
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‫ﻧﻘﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ﻭﺃﻛ�� ﺇﺿﺎﺀﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻣﺮﺍﻓﻘ�ﻱ ﺇ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻗﺪﻣﻮﺍ ﻭﺫهﺒﻮﺍ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟهﻴﺎﺝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﻟﻌﺪﺩ‬
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‫ﺃﺟﻞ ﺇﺯﺍﻟﺔ ﻋ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧﻀﻊ ﻟﻠﻔﺤﻮﺻﺎﺕ ﻻﺍﺧﺘﺒﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻭ��‬
‫ﺗﻘﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻃﻠﺐ ﻋﺎﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪ ،‬ﻃﻠﺐ ﻋﺎﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺟﻞ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﺍﻧ��ﺖ ﺍﻟﻔﺤﻮﺻﺎﺕ ﻻﺍﺧﺘﺒﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻋﻄﻴﺖ ﺑﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﺩﺧﻮﻝ ﺇ��« ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﻭﺭﺍﻝ »ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺼﺮ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ُ َ ْ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻚ ِ‬ ‫ﺫ ِﻋﺮﺕ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺭ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ ﻭﺣﺪﻱ ِ‬
‫ﺗﺨﻀﻌ�ﻥ ﻟهﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﺘﺎﻙ ﻟﻦ �ﺴﺎﻣﺤﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺳﺎﺭﺕ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﻏ��‬
‫ﻣﺎ �ﺸﺘ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻄﻠﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺍﳌ��ﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﺴﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺳﻞ �� ﻃﻠﺐ ﺃﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ‬
‫��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻢ ﺗﻔهﻢ؟ ﺳﻱﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ هﺆﻻﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺣﻮﻥ ﻋ�� ﺇﺯﺍﻟﺔ‬
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‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺗﺒﺼﺮ ‪.‬ﻟﻄﺎﳌﺎ ﺃﻣﻠﺖ ﻭﺩﻋﻮﺕ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ هﺬﺍ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺅﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺣﻘﺎ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻤﻜﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻵﻧﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺒﺘ�ﺝﺔ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﺭﻗﺼﺔ ﺳﺮﻱﻌﺔ ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻏ�� ﻣﻘﺘﻨﻌﺔ ﻭﻗﻠﻘﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺃﻧﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻴﺨﻀﻊ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫�ﻌﺘﻘﺪ‬ ‫ﻗﺪ‬ ‫ﻳﺮﺍﻙ‬ ‫�ﺥﺺ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ‬ ‫‪!...‬‬ ‫ﺍﻣﺮ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ‬ ‫هﻴﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﻟهﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ‬
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‫ﺩﺍﻉ ﻟﻠﻘﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﺧﺬﻳ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺃﻓﺨﻢ ﻣﻄﻌﻢ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻱﺲ ﺃﻧﺎ !ﺍﺑ�� ‪...‬ﻟﻱﺲ هﻨﺎﻙ ٍ‬
‫ﺳﻨﺤﺘﻔﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪ ﺣﻴﺚ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺃﺧﺬﺗ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﻣﻄﻌﻢ ّ‬‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺃ�ﻌﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﺳﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﻨﺎ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﻟﺬﻳﺬﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟهﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ُﻭ ِﺿﻌﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ‬
‫ﻭﺟﺎﺀﺕ ّﺁﻧﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻟ��ﺍ�ﻲ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺩﺏ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻋﺮ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﺑﻔﻌﻞ هﺬﺍ‪».‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ« ‪:‬ﺳﺘﻘﺘﻠ�ﻱ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﺘﺎﻙ ﻟﺴﻤﺎ�� ِ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺻﻮ��ﺎ ﻳﺮﺗﺠﻒ ﻭ�� ﺗﺘ�ﻠﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻓﻘﺖ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻭﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻃﻠ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺮﺿﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﻀﺮ �� هﺎﺗﻔﺎ ﻷﺗﺼﻞ‬
‫ﺑﺪﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺗﺼﻠﺖ ﺑﺪﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻭ�� ﻣ�ﺝﻊ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﺩﺕ ﺗ��ﺎﺭ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺃ�ﻠﻤهﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﻗﻨﻌ��ﺎ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺻﺮﺕ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌ��ﺀ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ �� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‪،‬‬
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‫ﺩﺍﻉ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﻓﺮ�� ﺑﺰ�ﺎﺭ��ﺎ �� ﻻﺣﻘﺎ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻛ��‪.‬‬ ‫هﻨﺎﻙ ٍ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻧﻢ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺇﺣﺴﺎ��ﻱ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍ�ﺡﺸﻮﺩ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻟﻦ �ﺸ��ﻭﺍ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺑﺼﻔ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﺮﻋﺒﺘ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻭ ﺍﺳ��ﺰﺍﺀ �ﻲ �ﺴﺒ��ﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ هﺎﺩﺋﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬ ‫ﻳﻘﻮﻣﻮﺍ ﺑﺎﻹﺷﻔﺎﻕ ّ‬
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‫ﻛﺮ��ﻱ ﻣﺪﻭﻟﺐ ﻭﻧﻘﻠﺖ �� ﺍﳌﺼﻌﺪ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﻣﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ ﺑﻘﻠﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ ُﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ ��‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻊ ‪.‬ﺗﺮﻛﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺩهﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺭﺟﺎﻝ‬
‫ﻳﻤﺮﻭﻥ ﺑﺠﺎﻧ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ �ﻌﻀهﻢ ﻳﺨﺘﻔﻲ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺍﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﺍﳌﺰﺩﻭﺟﺔ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺴﺎﺀ ﺑﻠﺒﺎﺱ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﺿﻮﺍﺀ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﺒﻴﺾ ﺗﻮﻣﺾ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﻮﺕ ﺟﺮﺱ‬
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‫ﻳﻘﺮﻉ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺍ�ﺡ�ﻥ ﻵﺍﺧﺮ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺣﻴ��ﺎ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﺧﻀﻊ ﻟهﺎ ﻭ�ﺴﺎﺀﻟﺖ‬
‫ﻓﺎﻗﺸﻌﺮ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺄﻟﻢ �� ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻇﻨﻥﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﺳﺏﺐ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺍﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻥﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﺪﻡ ﻋ�� ﻣﺠﻴﺉﻱ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻤﺮﺿﺔ ‪.‬ﺳﺎﻗﺎ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺪﻡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻭﻥ ﻟﺒﺎﺳﺎ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ ﻭﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺳﻘﻔﻴﺔ ﻓﻮ��‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺳﻱﻱ ﺍﳌﺪﻭﻟﺐ ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﺍﳌﺰﺩﻭﺟﺔ ﻭﺻﻮﻻ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻧﺎﻓﺬﺓ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ هﺎﺩﺋﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺪﺩﺕ ﻋ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻀﻠﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﻮﺗﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺫ�ﻲ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﺟﻠ��ﻱ ﻟﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺪﺩ ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻓﺤﺺ ﺭﺟﻞ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﻟﺒﺎﺳﺎ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﺴﻦ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﻭﺿﻊ �ﺥﺺ ﻗﻨﺎﻋﺎ ﻋ�� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺗﻨﻔ��ﻱ �ﻌﻤﻖ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ هﺬﻩ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺧﺘﻨﻖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺍﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺃﻃ�� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃ�� ﺷﻱﺌﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺨﺪﺭ ‪.‬ﻟﺰﻣﺖ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻱﺌﺔ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺿﻌﻴﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﻓﻘﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻤﻠﻜ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺥﻮﻑ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺡ ﻳﻘ��ﺏ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﺎﻝ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻭ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ ﻣ�� ﺑﻀﻊ ٍ‬
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‫ﻭﺣﺏﺴﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻥ�ﻉ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﻭ��ﻴﺞ ﺍﻟﻢ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ �� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﻣ�ﻱ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻳﻤﺾ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻣ�� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫�ﻲ ﻳﺕﺴ�ﻯ ﻟهﺎ ﺍﺻﻄﺤﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻟﺘﻐﻴ�� ﺿﻤﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ ﻧﻘﻠ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻏﻮﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻮ�� ﺭﻋﺎﻳ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺭﺟﻼﻥ‬
‫ﺁﺧﺮﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻦ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ ﻭﺫﺍ �ﺡﻴﺔ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺑﻴﻀﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ‬ ‫ﺍﻭﻝ ﻃﺎﻋﻨﺎ ��‬
‫ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺒﻖ �� ﺃﻥ ﺭﺃﻳﺘﻪ ﺳﺎﺑﻘﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ّﺃﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﻓﻌﺮﻓﺘﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺧ��ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺨﺪﺭ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺥﻀﻮﻉ ﻟﻔﺤﺺ ﳌﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻤﻞ‬ ‫ﺍﻭﻝ ّﺃﻧﻪ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻭﺍﺛﻘﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺺ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻧﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﻣﺘﻠهﻔﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﻛﻼ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺏﺘ�ﻥ ﻣﻀﻄﺮ�ﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻋﻨﻪ ﺍﻧﻄﺒﺎﻋﺎ ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ‪.‬ﻵﺍﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﺒ�ﻥ �� ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺥﻢ ﺍ�ﺝﺜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻭ‬
‫ﺴﺘﻘﻴﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼ��‪،‬‬ ‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ّﺃ��ﻤﺎ ﺑﺪﺗﺎ ّﻭﻛ ّﺄ��ﻤﺎ ﺗﻨﻈﺮﺍﻥ �ﺸ�ﻞ ُ‬
‫ﻣ‬ ‫ﺣﺎﺩﺗ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨ�ﻥ ّ‬
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‫�ﻌ�� ﻋﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻭﺟهﻪ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻞ ّ‬‫َ‬
‫ﻗﻮﺓ ﻋﻈﻴﻤﺔ ﻭﻋﻦ ﻟﻄﻒ ﻛﺒ�� ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻄﻦ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺟﻠﺲ هﻨﺎﻙ �� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪ ،‬ﺭﺋﻱﺲ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺴﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻃﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ �� ﻣﺎﻳﻮ �ﻠﻴﻥﻴﻚ؛ ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ �� ﻣﻘﺘﺒﻞ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﺟﺮﺍﺣﺎ ﻋﻈﻴﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﺮﺗﻘﻲ �� ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻻﺣﻘﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﺼﺎﻑ‬
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‫ﺍﻗﻞ‪ ،‬ﻗ ّﺪﺭ ﻟﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺼﺒﺢ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ‬ ‫ﺗﺨﺼﺼﻪ؛ ﻭﻋ��‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﺯ�ﻦ ﻋﺎﳌﻴﺎ ��‬‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻮ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻜﻮ ﻟﻪ ﺗﺄﺛ�� ﻋﻈﻴﻢ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻓﺎﻕ ﺗﺄﺛ�� ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ‬ ‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﻣﺴﺕﺸﺎﺭﻱ‬
‫ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻏﻮﺱ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺩﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪ ،‬هﺬﻩ �� ﺍﳌﺮ�ﻀﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺫﻛﺮ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻣﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﺘﻘﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻓﻮﺵ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺁ�ﺴﺔ ﺩﺍﻝ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﺩ ِ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻱﻨﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻋﺪﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺷﺮﺡ‬ ‫ﻧﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺩﺧﻞ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻟهﻢ ﻭﻟﻠﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻓﻮﺵ ﺗﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺯﺍﺩﺕ ﺭﺟﻮﻋﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻒ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﺃﺱ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﺎﻍ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﺧ��هﻢ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺩﺧﻞ ﻛﺮﺓ ﺯﺟﺎﺟﻴﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺯﺍﻟهﺎ ﻟﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ ﺣﺸﻮﺓ ﺗﻤﻸ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﻮ�ﻒ‬
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‫ﺃﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺰﺟﺎﺟﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺗﺠﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ ﻣﺕﺴﺎﻭ�ﺘ�ﻥ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ِ‬
‫�ﻌﻀﻼﺕ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ ﻟﺘﻥﺴﻴﻖ ﺣﺮﻛﺔ �ﻠﺘﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺧﺎﻓﺖ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻨﺤ�ﻱ ﻟﻴﻠﻘﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻋﻦ ﻗﺮﺏ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺃﺣﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻞ ﻣﺪهﺶ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻠﺘﻔﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻓﻮﺵ’’ ‪:‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺳﺕﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺤﺮﻛﺔ‬
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‫ﺣﺮﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻓﻮﺵ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻄﻮﻻ ﻭ�ﺎهﺘﻤﺎﻡ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓهﻤﺖ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﺟﻴﺪ ﺟﺪﺍ‪».‬‬‫هﺬﺍ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺧﻼﻝ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺎهﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻀﻴ��ﺎ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ �� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ��‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺄﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﺻﻄﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﻭﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﻱﺒﺪﻭ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩهﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﻮﻡ ﻋﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺴﻦ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﺗﺤﺴﻦ‬‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻭ�� ﺗﻀﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺍﺀ ﻋ�� ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺣﺔ’’ ‪ّ :‬ﺇ��ﺎ �� ّ‬
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‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻻ ﺗﺘﻮﻗ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺜ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺬﻛﺮﻱ ّﺃ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺧﻄ��ﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟ��ﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻈهﺮ ﺍﳌﺡﺝﺮ‪ ،‬هﻞ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺗﺠﻮ�ﻒ ﻋﻤﻴﻖ هﻨﺎﻙ؟ هﻞ �ﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ ﺡﺝﻢ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ؟‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﳌﺡﺝﺮ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺟﻤﻴﻼ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺘ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﺟﺎﺑﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻔ��ﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗ��ﻱ ﺟﺰﺀﺍ ﻣﻦ �ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﺸﺪﺓ ﺣﻤﺎﺳ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺷﻔﺎﺀ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ّﻭ�ﺨﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺮﻉ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﺪﺕ ﻭﺁﻧﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺇ�� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟﻪ ﻧﺤﻮ‬ ‫ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﻧﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﻧﺕﺒﺎﻩ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺧﺰﺍﻧﺔ ﻭﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﺐ ﺍ�ﺥﺸﺏﻴﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ �� ﺩﺍﺧﻠهﺎ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻧﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺨﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺻﻔﻮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﺮﺗﺒﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﻮﺍﺗﻢ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺪﺑﺎﺑﻱﺲ ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻮﻧﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺘﺠﺮ ﻣﺠﻮهﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻋﻴﻮﻧﺎ ﺯﺭﻗﺎﺀ ﺑﺘﺪ ّﺭﺟﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻨﻮﻋﺔ ﻭﻋﻴﻮﻧﺎ ﺑﻥﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﺧﺮﻯ‬
‫ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖ ��‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻠﺐ ﻭ�� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ’’ ‪َ :‬‬
‫ﻟﻥ�‪ِ ،‬‬
‫ﺣﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﻋ�ﻥ ﺯﺭﻗﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺧﺘﺎﺭ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻭﻭﺿﻌهﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ ﺃﻋﺎﺩهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻠﺐ‬
‫ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ ﻋﺪﺍ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺓ ﺍﻋﺼﺎﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻨﺠﺮﺏ هﺬﻩ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺑﺄﺻﺎ�ﻊ ﻳﺪﻩ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ ﻓﺘﺢ ﺟﻔﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺧﻀﻌﺖ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻴﺪﻩ ﺍﻟﻴﻤ�ﻯ ﻭﺿﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺡﺝﺮ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺑ��ﻭﺩ��ﺎ ﻭ�ﻌﻮﻣ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻣ�ﻥ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺰ��‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻵﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻗﻮﻣﻲ ﺑﻤﺎ ِ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﺭﻓﻌ��ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬هﺬﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻵﺍﻥ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻵﺍﻥ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻴﻤ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ ّ‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺪﺍ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻭﻝ ﻭهﻠﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ �� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺟﻤﺮﺓ ﻣﻄﻔﺄﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺲ ��ﻱﺀ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺗ�ﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺛﻼﺙ ّ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺗﻮ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ ﻣﻄﺎﺑﻘﺔ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﻟﻠ�ﺝﺐ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ‬
‫ﻟﻸﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻵﺍﻥ ﺍﻧﻈﺮﻱ ﺇ�� ﻧﻔﺴﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﻣﺮﺁﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺻﺪﻗﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺟﻪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺭﺍﻩ هﻮ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻋ�ﻥ ﻻ ﺗﺒﺼﺮ‪ ،‬ﻏﺎﺭﻗﺔ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ‬
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‫ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻋ�ﻥ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻭﻣﻄﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ‬ ‫�� ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ﻭﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﺍﻟﻨﺪﻭﺏ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺧﻠﻮهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺑﻘﻌﺔ ﺑﻴﻀﺎﺀ ﻓ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ’’ ‪ّ :‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻡ ﻃﺒﺎﺑﺔ‬ ‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻦ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻋﺘﻨﺎﺀ �ﻌﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ ﺷهﻮﺭ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳ��ﺃ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻮﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﺡﺝﺮ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻘﺎﻗ�� ّ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻪ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﺮ�ﺢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺇﺧﺮﺍﺝ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ �ﻞ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﻹﺭﺍﺣﺔ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﻳﺘﻌ�‬ ‫ﺃ‬
‫�‬ ‫ﺗ�‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﺣ�ﻯ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﻗﺎﺋﻼ‬ ‫�ﻲ‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺣﺬ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻭﻣﺴﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﺇﻥ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻔﻌ�� ﻓﺴﺘﻌﻮﺩﻳﻦ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﻋﻼﺟهﺎ ّ‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺡﺝﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺠﺐ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟ�ﺥﻀﻮﻉ ﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺧﻀﻌﺖ ﻟهﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻱ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ‪.‬ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻴﻚ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻓﻈﺔ ﻋ�� ﻧﻈﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﳌﺡﺝﺮ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺷﺮﺡ �� ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﻣﺤﻠﻮﻝ َﺣ ْﻤﺾ ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺭ�ﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﻮﺭﺍﺕ ﻛﻮ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﻪ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻧﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﻦ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣ��ﻢ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺘﻠﺌﺔ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺩهﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻣﻊ‬
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‫ﻳﻥﺘﻈﺮﻭﻥ ﺩﻭﺭهﻢ ﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻋ��‬
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‫�ﺝﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣﺮﻩ ‪.‬ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺳﺮ�ﻲ ﻭﻋﻦ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ ﻭﻛﻴﻒ �ﺴ�� ﺃﻣﻮﺭﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﺪﺍ ﻣﺘﻔﺎﺟﺌﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﺠﺎﺯﺍﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﻘﻘ��ﺎ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﻈﻦ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻋﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻭﺩﻭﺩﺓ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﳌﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﻄﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﻭﻋﻨﺎﻭ�ﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻤﻦ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌﻮﻥ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ �� ﻋﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﺄﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﻛ�� ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺁﺧﺬ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﻭﻗﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﺸﻜﺮﺕ ﻟﻪ ﻟﻄﻔﻪ‪ ،‬ﻇﻨﺎ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺗﻴﺢ ﻟﻪ‬
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‫ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ ﻟﻴﺄﺫﻥ �� ﺑﺎﻻﻧﺼﺮﺍﻑ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨﻚ‪ ،‬ﺳﺘﺤﺘﺎﺟ�ﻥ ﺇ�� ﺷﺮﺍﺀ ﻋ�ﻥ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �ﻌﺪ ﺻﻤﺖ ﻭﺟ��’’ ‪:‬ﻧﻘﻄﺔ ﺃﺧ��ﺓ �ﺸﺄﻥ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ّﺃ��ﻢ ﻻ‬
‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ �ﻞ ﺳﻨﺔ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﺄﺟﺴﺎﻡ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺗﺤﻮﻱ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌ�ﺡ ﺇ�� ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺗﺰ�ﺪ ﻋ�� ﺳﻨﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﺍﻓ��ﺍ��ﻱ‬ ‫�ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌﻮﻥ ﺇﺑﻘﺎﺀ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﺻﻄﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻠﻌ�ﻥ ﺳﻥﺘﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺸﻌﺮ�ﻦ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﻜﺔ ﻭ�ﺰﻭﻝ ﻟﻮ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳﺘﺪﺭﻛ�ﻥ ﻋﻨﺪهﺎ ﺑﺄﻧ ِﻚ‬
‫ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﻋ�ﻥ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻧﻔﺬ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﺳﻤﺢ �� ﺑﻮﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺣ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ ﺣﺎﻝ ﻭﺻﻮ�� ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻋﻮﺩ�ﻲ ﺇ�� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﺪﻙ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ‬
‫هﻨﺎﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻵﻧﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺑﺄﺱ‪،‬‬ ‫�ﺡﻚ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺿﺮﺭﺍ ‪.‬ﺳﺕﺘﺄﻛﺪﻳﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻭﻓﺎ��ﺎ ﺑﻮﻋﺪهﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻳﺎ ﺁ�ﺴﺔ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻢ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫��ﻀﺖ ﻷﺫهﺐ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎﻝ ��’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺨﺘ�� ﻟﻚ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﺬﺭﺍ�� ﻭﻗﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺁﺧﺮ‪.‬‬
‫’’ﺩﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﺮﻯ ﻣﺮ�ﻀﺕﻨﺎ ﺍﻥ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺗﻘﺪﻡ ﻧﺤﻮﻧﺎ ﺭﺟﻞ �ﺎﻥ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺧﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻗﺼ�� ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺘ��‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺴﻢ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣ�ﻱ ﻋﺮﻓﺘﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﺮﺓ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻛﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻓﺤﺺ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻭﺻﻮ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻣﺒﺘ�ﺝﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﺻﻄﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺳﻴﻌﺘﻘﺪﻭﻥ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺘﺐ ﻋ�� ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﻣﻌﻠﻘﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺍﺭ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮ��ﻱ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫��ﻱﺀ ﺇﻻ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻑ ﺍﺳ��ﻼ��‪ ،‬ﺣﺮﻑ( ﺇﻑ ‪ّ ) F.‬‬
‫ﻭﺟﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻘﺔ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﺩﺍﺭ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺧﺮ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺣﺎﻻ ﺑﻘﻠﻴﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻱﺲ ﺑﺼﻮﺭﺓ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺟﻠﺲ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﺇ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺘﻪ ﻭﻛﺘﺐ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﻭهﻮ �ﺴﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﻣﻐﻠﻔﺎ ﺻﻐ��ﺍ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﻩ ﻭﺻﻔﺔ ﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻋﻄﻴﺖ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ �ﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺻﺒﻮﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺗﺄﺑ�ﻱ ﻟهﺎ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ ِ‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨﻚ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺳﺘﻌ�ﻥ‬ ‫�ﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺃ�‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﻭﺁﻧﺎ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ �ﻠﻴﻥﻴﻚ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺑﺪﺃ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ �� ﻋﺎﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺇﺳ ِ�� ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺎهﺔ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻭﺃﻓﺮﺍﺩ ﺃﺳﺮ��ﺎ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ﺇ�� ﺳﺎﻭﻙ ﺭﺍﺑﻴﺪﺱ ﺑﻤﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻋﺎﺷﻮﺍ �� ﻛﻮﺥ ﺻﻐ�� ﺑﻨﻮﻩ‬ ‫ﺍﻧﺘﻘﻠﻮﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻧﻔﺴهﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﻏﺎﺑﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﺗﻨﺤﺪﺭ ﺻﻮﺏ ﺍﻟ��ﺮ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻮ هﺎﺩﺋﺎ هﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻪ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻌ�ﻥ ﻭﺿﻊ ﺿﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﻋ�� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﺇﻻ ﻧﺎﺩﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﺳﻌﺪ�ﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻣﺘﺄﺛﺮﺍ ّ‬
‫�ﺸﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺧﺪﻱ ﺍﻳﻤﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻌﺎﻳﻨ�ﻥ �� ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ ﻗﺪ َ‬
‫ﻧ�ﺡ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻗﺘﻼﻉ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﺳﻨﺎﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﺣﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻗﺘﻼﻋهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺇﺳﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﻮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﻥﺒ��‬
‫�� ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻡ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺒﺎﻥ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻭ�ﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺍﻗ��ﺣﺎ‬
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‫ﻭ‬ ‫ﻝ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﻣﺪﺓ ﺳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ��ﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺬﻛﺮﺍ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﺣﻮ ﺿﺮ ﺭﺓ ﻋﺪﻡ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪ ﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺮﺍﻭﺩ�ﻲ ﻣﻨﺬ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ �� ﺗﻮ�� ﻋﻤﻞ ﺟﺎﻣ��‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫ﺍ��ﻱ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﺧﻼﻝ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺪ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺔ ﻟﻠﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺩﺭ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ �� ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ ﺑﻤﺮﺗﺐ ﺛﺎﺑﺖ ﺻﻐ�� ﺎﻥ ﻣﺠﻠﺲ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻓﻘﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺳﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ �� ﺇﻧﺪﺭﻟ�ﻥ ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ ﻧﻮﺭﺙ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺓ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺼ��ﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻟﻮﺍﺋﺢ ﺍﺧﺘﺼﺎﺻﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ �ﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺎ �� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ �ﻌﺪ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﺗﺮﻭﻕ ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻹﺳ ِ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﺫهﺐ ﺇ�� ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻳﺪﻓﻌﻚ ﻟﻠﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻣﺎ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﻭﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕ‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻟﺘﺤﻖ ﺑ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻇهﺮﺕ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺪهﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﺮهﺔ ﻭﺟ��ﺓ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻭﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻤﺾ ﻏ�� ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻋ�� ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺳﻚ ﺑﺘﺤﺴﻦ ﻃﻔﻴﻒ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﺤﺴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺗﻔﺘﺢ ﺃﺑﻮﺍ��ﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺷهﺮ�ﻦ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫’’�ﺡﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ‪ِ ،‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ ﺗﻠﺘﺤﻘ�ﻥ ﺑﺠﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ؟ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬
‫’’ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ ﻻ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺿﺖ ﻟﻦ ﺗﻜﻮ�ﻲ �ﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﺇﺫﺍ‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻦ ﺃﻣﺮﺽ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺗﺤﺪﺛﻨﺎ ��‬ ‫ﺳﻴﻠﻤﺮ ﺭﺍﻣ��ﻱ ﻟﻘﻀﺎﺀ ﻋﻄﻠﺔ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ِﻗﺪﻡ ﺻهﺮﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻓﻖ ﺇﺳ ِ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺃﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻤﺘﺎﺯ‪ِ ،‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ ﺗﺮﻏﺒ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬

‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ �� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻃﺎﳌﺎ ّﺇ�ﻲ ﺳﺂﺧﺬ ﺇﺟﺎ ﺓ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﻷ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺯ‬
‫ﻓﻠﺮ�ﻤﺎ ﻳﺠﺪﺭ �ﻲ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺣﻴﺚ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺳﻨﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺼﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﺍﻥ �ﺎﻧﺎ ُﻣﺘﺤﻤﺴ�ﻥ ﻟﻔﻜﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺎ�� ﺑﺠﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ‬
‫هﻤﺎ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻥ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ’’ ‪:‬ﺇ��ﺎ �ﻠﻴﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺘﻜﻮ ﺗﻤﻀﻴﺔ ﺳﻨﺔ �� ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ‬
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‫�ﻌﻴﻥﻴﻚ ﻟﻮ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺗﺆﺫ��ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟ�ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻀﺮﺭﺗﺎ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻣﻚ �ﺸﺄﻧﻚ ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻴﻤ�ﻥ ﻣﻌﻨﺎ هﻨﺎ ��‬ ‫ﻣﻨﺬ ﺯﻣﻦ �ﻌﻴﺪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ �ﺴﺎﻭﺭ�ﻲ ﺃﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻚ ﻛﻨﺖ �ﻌﺘﻤﺪﻳﻦ ﻋﻠ��ﻤﺎ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﺸﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻳﻈهﺮ ﺑﺄﻧﻚ ﺗﺒﻠ�ﻥ ﺑﻼﺀ ﺣﺴﻨﺎ ��‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ِ‬
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‫ﺃﻱ ﻋﻤﻞ ﺗﻨﻮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ِﺑ ِﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻧ ِﻚ ﺳﺘﻔﻌﻠ�ﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ �� ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺘﻚ ﺃهﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻚ ﻭﺣﺴﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻥ �ﺡ ِ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺣﺎﻭ�� ﺃﻥ �ﻌﺘ�ﻱ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻤﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺬﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﺑﻮﺍﻟﺪ�ﻲ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻚ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﻭﺟﻮﺏ ﻋﺪﻡ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ ﺑﺼﺪﻕ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻮﻻ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻣﺮ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺮﺹ ﻋ�� ﻭﺟﻮﺩ‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﻤﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬‫ﺇﻧﺎﺭﺓ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻧﺘﻘﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ �� ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺍﺧ�� ﻣﻦ ﺷهﺮ ﺃﻳﻠﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺍﻓﻘﺘ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﺁﻳﺪﺍ ْ‬
‫ﺗﻮ�ﺪ ِﺗﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺯﻣﻴﻠ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ �� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﺑﻥﺴﻠﻔﺎﻧﻴﺎ ﺑﻥﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﻟﻴﻼ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﺩﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺔ ﺣﺮﻡ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﻤﻪ’’ ﺫﻱ ﻛﻴﻨﻐﺰ‬ ‫ﺁﻳﺪﺍ ﻋ�� ﻓﻨﺪﻕ ّ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺍﻭﻥ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﺳﺘﺄﺟﺮﺕ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﳌﺒﻱﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻭﺣﺪﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋ�� ﻛﺮ��ﻱ ﻷﻟﺘﻘﻂ ﺃﻧﻔﺎ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺧﺸﻱﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﻘﻂ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ �� ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻋ��ﺍ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﻌﻒ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻣﻐﺸﻴﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺇﺑﺮ�ﻖ ﻣﺎﺀ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺥﺰﺍﻧﺔ ﻓﺼﺏﺒﺖ ﻛﻮ�ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ﻭﺷﺮ�ﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﺄﻣﺎﻣﻚ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧ�� ﻟﻚ ﺃﻥ �ﺴﺘﻐﻠ��ﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺗﻜﻮ�ﻲ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻓ��ﺎ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺟﻮﺍ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕ �� ﺃﺭﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻭﻓﺮﺷهﺎ ﻣﺘﻮﺍﺿﻊ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻤ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﺮﺭﺕ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺩﻟﻴﻼ هﺎﺗﻔﻴﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺑﺠﺎﻧ�ﻱ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺃﻛ�� ﺩﻟﻴﻞ هﺎﺗﻒ ﺭﺃﻳﺘﻪ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺮ�ﺘﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ‬ ‫ﺣﻤﻠﺘﻪ ﺑ�ﻠﺘﺎ َﻳﺪﻱ ﻭﻭﺍﺯﻧﺖ ﺛﻘﻠﻪ ﺑﺠﺴﻤﻲ ‪.‬ﺛﻢ ﻓﺘﺤﺘﻪ ّ‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻗﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﻠﺒ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻟﻴﻞ‬
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‫ﺃﺛﻘﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﻪ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ �ﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻷﻗﺮﺃ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﺻﻌﺪﺕ ﻋ��‬
‫�ﻀﺖ ّ‬‫ْ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺮ�ﺖ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻔﺤﺎﺗﻪ ﻛﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺭ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭ�ﺾ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﻷﻗﺮﺃ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺣﻤﻠهﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣهﻤ�ﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻋ��ﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ��‬ ‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺭ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻒ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺑﺤﺜﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﺳﻤﺎﺀ �� ﺩﻟﻴﻞ ﺍﻟهﺎﺗﻒ ﻣ�ﻯ ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻀﺮ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﺳﺘﻮ ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻓﺎﻧﺪﻳﺮ�ﻴﻠﺖ ‪.‬ﺑﺤﺜﺖ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﻣﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻛﺘ��ﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻣﻮﺭﻏﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺭﻭﻛﻴﻔﻴﻠﺮ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻦ ﻣﻤﺜﻠ�ﻥ ﻣﺸهﻮﺭ�ﻦ ﻭﻣﻤﺜﻼﺕ ﻣﻌﺮﻭﻓﺎﺕ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍ�ﺡ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻯ‬
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‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻥ‬
‫�ﻌﻀهﻢ هﻮﺍﺗﻒ ﻭﺇﻻ ﻓﺈ��ﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ �ﻌﻱﺸﻮ �� ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮ ﻙ‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻑ’’ ﺩ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﺃﺳﻤﺎ��ﻢ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻳﺤﻤﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﺳﻢ ﺩﺍﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻱﺲ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﺩﺍﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻼ ﻟﻮ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ �� ﺩﻟﻴﻞ هﺎﺗﻒ ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ��‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺡﻜﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻟﺸﺪﺓ ﺣﻤﺎﻗ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ‪:‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ ﺳﻨﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ �ﺸ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻌﺔ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻃﺒﻘﺖ ﺩﻟﻴﻞ ﺍﻟهﺎﺗﻒ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻢ‬
‫ﻭﺧﻠﻌﺖ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻭﺃﻃﻔﺄﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺭ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻄﻮﺭ ﻭﺻﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﺻﻮﺗﻴﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟهﺎﺗﻒ ﻣﻦ ﺁﻳﺪﺍ ْ‬
‫ﺗﻮ�ﺪ ِﺗﻦ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫ﺗﺤﺪﺛﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺷﺎﻏﺮﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻘﻴﻢ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎ��ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺎﻋﺔ‬
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‫ُﻣﺤﻜﻤﺔ ﻻ ﻳﺼﻠهﺎ ﺿﻮﺀ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻗﺒﻠﺖ ��ﺎ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﺑﻘﺮﺏ ﺁﻳﺪﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ ﻳﺪﺭﺳﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺮ�ﺾ ��‬ ‫�ﺴﻌﺪ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻼ�ﻲ ��‬
‫ﻭﻱﻌﻤﻠﻦ ﺑﺪﻭﺍﻡ ﺟﺰﺉﻲ �� ﻣﺮﻛﺰ هﻥ�ﻱ ﺳ��ﻳﺖ ﺳﺘﻠﻤﻨﺖ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻛﻦ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ ﻳﻄﺒﺨﻦ‬ ‫ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ‬
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‫ﻭﺟﺒﺎ��ﻦ �� ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ ﺍﳌﺸ��ﻙ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷ�ﻠﻦ ِﺭﻓﻘﺔ ﻣﺮﺣﺔ ﺗﺂﻟﻔﺖ ﻣﻌهﺎ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﻮﺿﻊ ﺗﺮﺣﺎﺏ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﻭﺳﺆﺍﻝ ﺃﺣﺪهﻢ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺮ�ﺖ �� ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺇﻣ�ﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻧﻴﻞ ﻗﺒﻮﻝ �� ﺣﻘﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﻟ�ﺥﺺ ﺃﻋﻤﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺣﺎﻟﻮ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﻗﺴﻢ ﻋﻠﻢ‬
‫ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻉ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ��ﻢ ﻭﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺴﻴﺔ ﻟ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﺳﺎﺗﺬﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﻮﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺗﺪ ّﺭ�ﺖ ﻋ�� ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ ُﻳﺒﺼﺮﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ‬
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‫ﻋﺸﺮ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥ��ﺓ �ﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻹﻗﻨﺎ�� ﺑﻘﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺇﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻻ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ّﺃ��ﻤﺎ ّ‬
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‫�ﺴﺏﺒﺎﻥ �� ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻧﻪ ﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﻲ �� ﻧﻈﺮهﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﺻﻞ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﻢ ﺭﺃﻭﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺣﺼﻮ�� ﻋ�� ﺷهﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﺰﺍﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻷ��ﺎ ﺳﺘﻌﻴﻨ�ﻱ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣهﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻧﻮﻉ‬ ‫ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺎﺟﺴﺘ�� ﻋﻠﻢ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻉ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﺄﺗﻮﻻﻩ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﻛﻴﻥﺖ هﻮﻝ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻗﺴﻢ ﻋﻠﻢ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻉ ﻛﻤﻦ ﻳﻤ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫«ﻻ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ �ﺴﺏﺒﺎﻥ �� ﺃﻱ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﺍﻥ»‪ ،‬ﻛﺮ ﺕ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺝﻠﺖ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ ﻛﻄﺎﻟﺒﺔ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺎﺕ ُﻋﻠﻴﺎ �� ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ �� ﻋﻠﻢ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ّﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻗﻼﺋﻞ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻉ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻴﻞ �� ﺇﻧﻪ ﺑﺈﻛﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺐ ﻭﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺃﻃﺮﻭﺣﺔ ﻣﻘﺒﻮﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻗﺘﺼﺎﺩ ﻭﺁﺧﺮ �� ﺗﺎﺭ�ﺦ‬ ‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭﺍ �� ّ‬‫ﻋ�� ﻧﻴﻞ ﺷهﺎﺩ�ﻲ �� ﺳﻨﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﺃﺧﺬﺕ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺻﻒ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺳ�ﺎﺭ�ﻮﺭﻭﻍ �� ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺺ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺓ‬
‫ﻷﻣﻸ ﺣﺼ��ﻱ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ�ﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻜﻴﻒ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﻈﻢ ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺔ ﻭﺍﺟه��ﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺷﺮﻭ�� ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻭﺿﻌهﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻡ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃ��ﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﻧﺰﻋهﺎ ﻭﺃﺿﻊ ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺇﻧﻜﺒﺎ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺡﻴﺢ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﻮﻋﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻭ�ﺡ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ��ﺎ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻀﻄﺮﺓ ﻟﺘﻘﺮ�ﺐ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻗﺔ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﺃﻛ�� ﻲ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﺍﺣﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻟﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺮ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺧﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ ﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻛﺘ�ﻱ �ﻲ ﺃﺗﺨﻠﺺ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻏﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﻟﺏﺴهﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭ�ﺞ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺃﻛ�� ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﺏﺴهﺎ �� ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ ﻭ�� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻓﻌﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻀﺎﺀ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺤﻴﻂ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻟهﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﻳﺘﺨﺬ ﺷ�ﻞ ﻣﻨﺤﻨﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧ�ﻯﻯ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﻱ ﺧﻄﻮﺓ ﻣﺨﺎﻓﺔ ﺃﻻ ﺗﻼﻣﺲ ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﺍﺭﺽ �� ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻊ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺢ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ‬
‫ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ‬ ‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃ��ﻯﻯ ﺧﻠﻊ‬
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‫ﺃﻏﺴﻞ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺗﻨﻘﻞ �� ﺃﺭﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺿﻌهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺷهﺮ ﺷﺒﺎﻁ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﺍﳌﺼﻌﺪ ﺛﻢ ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻟﺏﺴهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺟهﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﺘﺠﺮ ﺑﻘﺎﻟﺔ ﻗﺮ�ﺐ‬
‫ّ ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺣﺴﺐ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻠﻤﺴﺖ ﺧﻄﻮﺍ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﻵﺧﺬ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺟﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺆﺩﻳﺔ ﺍ�� ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺒ�ﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺸﻱﺖ ﺑﺤﺬﺭ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﳌﺘﺠﺮ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺣﺴﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﻆ‬
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‫ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﺘﺞ ﺇ�� ﺍﺟﺘﻴﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﻭﻋﺪﺕ ﺃﺩﺭﺍ�� ﺳﺎﳌﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﻟﺏﺲ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ �ﻠﻤﺎ ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﺘﺠﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻤﺮﻭﺭ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺷ�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ�� ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺎ ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺃﻛ�� ﻭﺛﻮﻗﺎ ﺑﻤﻮﺿﻊ ﺧﻄﻮﺍ�ﻲ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻟﺏﺲ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻋﺼﺎ�ﻲ ﺗﺘﻮﺗﺮ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ �� َ‬
‫ﺣﺮﻡ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺩﺭﺍﺝ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺧﺎﺋﻔﺔ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺣﻼ ﻟﻠﻤﺸ�ﻠﺔ �� ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻟﻚ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻮﻁ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫�ﻌﺪ ﺩﺭﺟﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻼﻟﻢ ��‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺆﺩﻳﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺒﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮﺍ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺟﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺍﺕ ّ‬
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‫ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﻋﺪﺩهﺎ �� ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻭﺍﺟهﺔ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﳌﺒﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺼ��ﺍ ﺟﺪﺍ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺷهﺮﻱ �ﺎﻧﻮﻥ ﺍﻭﻝ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻳﺨﻴﻢ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻧﻮﺭ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺣﻀﻮﺭﻱ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻠﻴﺎ ﻣﻊ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺇﻧ��ﺎﺉﻲ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺼ�ﻱ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺤﻈﻮﻇﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺃ�ﻌﺮﺽ ﻭﻟﻮ �ﺡﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪. .‬‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ �� ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﻘﻤﻦ ﻷﻭﻝ ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻦ ُﻳ َ‬‫ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻼﺉﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ‪.‬ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ ﱠ‬
‫ﻛﻦ ﻳﺪﻋﻮﻧ�ﻱ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻦ ﻳﻤﻀ�ﻥ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﻓﺮﺍﻏهﻦ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﺮﻭﺝ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﳌﺮﺍﻓﻘ��ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﺒﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﻋﻮﺍﺕ ﺟﻤﻴﻌهﺎ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﻟهﻔ�ﻱ ﻟﻠﻤﺸﺎهﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻮ�ﻲ‬
‫�ﻌﺪﺓ ﺭﺣﻼﺕ ﻣﺘﻼﺣﻘﺔ ﺯﺍﺩﺕ ﺛﻘ�ﻱ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﺧ�ﻯﻯ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﻭﺝ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﻗﻴﺎﻣﻲ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺧﺮﺝ ﻭﺣﺪﻱ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺭﻛﻮﺏ ﺣﺎﻓﻼﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺩﺓ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺴﺔ‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭ�ﺪ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻟﻼﻓﺘﺎﺕ ﻋﻨﺪ‬
‫ﺃﺭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻗﻄﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﺘﺬﺍﻛﺮ ﻳﺬ�ﻌﻮﻥ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻠﺔ ﻋﻦ‬
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‫ﻟﻴﺤﺪﺩ �� ﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻭ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻮﻝ ﺇ�� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﻣﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺃﺳﺄﻝ �ﺥﺼﺎ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺖ ��ﺥﺺ ﻟﻢ �ﺴﻤﻌ�ﻱ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﺟﻴﺪ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ �ﺸﺄ �� ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ّ‬
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‫ﻳﻮﺟﺪ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬ ‫�ﺴﻤﻌ�ﻱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﺝﻮﺀ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺑﺪﺃ �� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﺯ�ﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻣﻊ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺼﻞ ﻋ�� ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺄﻝ ﻋ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺻﺮﺕ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﻮﻓﺮ ��‬
‫�ﺎﻑ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺒﺪﻭﻥ ﻣﺜ��ﻳﻦ ﻟﻼهﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﻟﺘﻮﺟﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﺼﺪ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺖ ٍ‬
‫ﺇﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﺯ�ﺎﺭﺓ ﻗﺼ��ﺓ ﺑﺮﻓﻘ��ﻢ؛ ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺗﺠﺎﺭﺏ ﺭﻛﻮ�ﻲ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻠﺔ ﻣﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ ﻗﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺗﻄﻠﻊ �ﺥﻮﺿهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺭﻛﻮﺏ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻠﺔ �� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺃﺻﻌﺐ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭﻝ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺗﻨﻘﺾ‬ ‫ﺃﻏﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ ﻋ�� ﺝﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣﺮهﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻼﺕ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺃﺭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ ﻭﺗﺄﺧﺬ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺏ ﺛﻢ ﺗﻨﻄﻠﻖ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻉ‬
‫ﺍ�� ﻭﺇﻃﻼ�� ﻋ�� ﺭﻗﻢ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻠﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﻥ ﺣﺪﺙ ﺫﻟﻚ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ‬ ‫�ﺥﺺ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺎﻹﻧﺼﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﻣﺘﻌﺎﻗﺒﺔ ﺑﻱﻨﻤﺎ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺔ ﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﻓﺈ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺻﻌﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻠﺔ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻭﺟه��ﺎ ﻏ�� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺰﻝ‬ ‫ﻭ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﻼﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻮﻇﻒ ﺍﳌﺴﺆ ﻝ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﺣﺎﻓﻠﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻣﻤﺘﻌﺎ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺬﺭﻭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺇﻗﺼﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻼﺕ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳ��ﺪﻱ ﻻ ﻣﺤﺎﻟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺤﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻮ ﺇ�� ﺣﻴﺚ ﺃﺭ�ﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﻻﻓﺘﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ‬‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺻﻴﻒ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﻷﻗﺮﺃهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻣﺴﺘﺤﻴﻞ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍ�ﺡﺸﻮﺩ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﻣﺤﻴﻄﻲ �� ﺍﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺁﻟﻔهﺎ ﺟﻴﺪﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳهﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﻔﻆ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﺸ��ﺎ ﺑﺈﺣﺼﺎﺀ ﻋﺪﺩ ﺍﳌﺒﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻺﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻋ�� ﺇﺷﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺳ�� ﺍﳌﺸﺎﺓ ﺍﳌﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ��‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺩﺓ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻋ�� ﺇﺷﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﳌﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺒﺎ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻋﺒﻮﺭﻱ ﻟهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻗ��ﺏ ﻣﻦ هﺆﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻗﺪﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﺘﺼﻖ ﺑﻤﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ �ﻌ��‬
‫ﺗﺼﻮﺭ ُﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺋﻘ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫��ﻮﺭﺍ ﻟﻦ �ﻐﺎﻣﺮ ��ﺡﻖ ﺣﺸﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻣ�ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺍﺣﺘﺠﺖ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻟﻼﻋﺘﻴﺎﺩ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﻘﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴ�� ﺴﺮﻋﺔ‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﻼﻓﺘﺎﺕ �� ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺎﺕ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ؛ ﻭﺣ�ﻯ ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺴﺘﻄﺎ�� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻟﻼﻓﺘﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ ﻗﺒﺎﻟ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﻋ��‪ �� ،‬ﻏﺎﻟﺐ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭﻝ ﺇ�� ﺭﺻﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ �ﻲ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ‬ ‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﺑﻘﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﻴ��ﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﻗﺪ ﻏﺎﺩﺭ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺿﻄﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺴ�� ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺔ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺬﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌ�ﻱ ﻭﺟﻮﺏ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺄﻝ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻥﺒ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻛﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍ�ﺡﺸﻮﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺮﺍ �ﺴ��ﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺎﻃﺮﺓ ﻋﻠﻘﺖ �� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﻘﻴﺔ ﳌﻨﻄﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻳﻤﺰ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺍﺱ ﺃﻭﺻﺪﻭﺍ‬ ‫ﺳﻜﻮ�ﺮ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﺭﻭﺓ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍ�ﺡﺸﻮﺩ هﺎﺋﻠﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺍﺑﺎﺕ ﻹﺧﻼﺀ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﺑﺼﻌﻮ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �ﺴﻼﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺩﺍ�� ﻟ�ﻲ ﺃﻗﻠﻖ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻮﻝ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ��‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺮﻓﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﺛﺔ‬
‫ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻮ�ﺪ ِﺗﻦ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺫﺍهﺒﺔ ﳌﺸﺎهﺪﺓ ﻣﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ﻋﻨﻮﺍ��ﺎ ‪Will‬‬
‫�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺃﺧ��ﺗ�ﻱ ﺁﻳﺪﺍ ْ‬
‫‪ ،Shakespeare‬ﻭﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺭﺍﻏﺒﺔ ﺑﺄﻥ �ﺸ��ﻱ ﺑﻄﺎﻗﺔ �� ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ؛ ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺷﻜﺴﺒ��‪،‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻣهﺘﻤﺔ ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﻟﻮ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺜﻴ�� ﻣﺘﻮﺍﺿﻌﺎ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻟ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺟﻠﺴﻨﺎ �ﺎﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ �� ﺃﺭﺧﺺ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ �ﻠﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ ﺍ�ﻌﺪ ﻋﻦ ﺧﺸﺒﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺡ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﻟﻸﻭ�ﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣ�ﻯ ﻣﻊ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣﻲ ﻟﻠﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻋﻄﺎهﺎ ��‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻭﺟﻮﻩ ﺍﳌﻤﺜﻠ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﳌﻤﺜﻼﺕ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﻻ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺛﻴﺎ��ﻢ‪ ،‬هﺬﺍ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺀ ﺃﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﻼ�ﺲ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺮﺗﺪ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ��‬
‫ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ﺷﺎهﺪﺕ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻔﻮﻕ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﺎ ﺷﺎهﺪﺗﻪ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺩﻓﻌﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻧﺤﻮ‬
‫ﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍﺕ ﻟ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﻌﺪ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮ�ﺔ �� ﻣﺒ�ﻯ‬
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‫ﺃﻭ�ﺮﺍ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪� ،‬ﻐﻴﺔ ﻣﺸﺎهﺪﺓ ﻣﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﺭﺳﻴﻔﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﻨﺼﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺡ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ �� ﻣﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ‪Will Shakespeare‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻳﻤﺎﺀﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﻧﻘﺎﻁ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺳﺎﻋﺪﺕ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﺸﺎهﺪﻳﻦ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﱠ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻗﻴﻞ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﻓﺎﺗﺘ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻓهﻢ‬
‫ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﺑﺎﳌﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺪ ﻱﺲ ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺛﺖ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ �� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺻﻔﻮ�� ﻋﻦ �ﺥﺼﻴﺔ ﺁﻥ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺷﺎهﺪ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﺧﺸﺒﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺡ �� ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ‪.‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﻢ‬ ‫هﺎﺛﻮﺍﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻤﺜﻠﺔ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﻋ��ﺎ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ �ﺴﻱﺖ ﺍﺳﻤهﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ّﺃﺩﺕ ﺩﻭﺭهﺎ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﺟﻤﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﺑﻼ ﺭ�ﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻ�ﻱ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﻀﺮ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺣﺼ��ﻱ �� ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺩﺧﻞ ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺃﻓﻄﻦ ﺇ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺣﻤﺎﺳﺘﻪ ﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻧﺠﻠ��ﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﺔ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻛﺜ�� ﻋﻦ ﻣﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ﻭ�ﻞ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ��’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺁ�ﺴﺔ ﺩﺍﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺒﺔ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺷﻜﺴﺒ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺛ ِﺕﻨﺎ ﻋ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﺎﺗﺒﺔ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺇﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﺗﺪ�� ﻠﻴﻤﻥﺲ ﺩﺍﻳﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﺛﺮ�ﻦ‬
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‫ﻛﻮﺭﻧﻴﻞ �� ﺍﳌﻤﺜﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺩﺕ ﺩﻭ ﺁﻥ هﺎﺛﻮﺍﻱ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺳﺎﺋﺮ ﻣﺸﺎهﺪﺍ�ﻲ �� ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﳌﻌﺎﺭﺽ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻴﺔ �� ﻣﺘﺤﻒ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻦ �ﺸ�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺃﺷﺪ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﺇ�ﺝﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬هﺬﺍ ﻟﻱﺲ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﺇهﺘﻤﺎﻣﻲ‬‫ﺍﳌﻴ��ﻭ�ﻮﻟﻴﺘﺎﻥ �� ّ‬
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‫ﺧﺎﺹ ﺃﻭ ﻣﻌﺮﻓ�ﻱ ﺑﻜﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮﻩ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﻧﻤﺎ ﻷ�ﻲ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ‪ ،‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﺇﺧﻔﺎ�� ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻢ‬
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‫ﺃ�ﺴﺎﺀ ُﻝ ﺍﻥ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﺑﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺳﺎﻭﺙ هﺎﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺟﺎهﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺃ�ﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻓهﻢ ﻧﻘﺎﻁ‬
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‫ﺟﻴﺪﺓ �� ﻋﺸﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺭﺳﻤهﺎ ﻓﻨﺎﻧﻮﻥ ﻣﺸهﻮﺩ ﻟهﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧ�� ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺮﺣﻼﺕ ﺇ�� ﻣﺘﺤﻒ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻴ��ﻭ�ﻮﻟﻴﺘﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣ�ﻯ ﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ‪َ �ُ ،‬ﻌﻴﺪ ﺍﻓﺘﺘﺎﺣﻪ‬
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‫ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻗ��ﻱ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠﻪ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺃﻗ��ﻱ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ��‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴ�� ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﺭﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﻌﺎﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﻣﻨﺘﻘﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻷﻧﺘﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺕ ﺃﻭﺻﺎﻑ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﻧﻔﺴهﺎ �� ﻛﺘﺎﻟﻮﻏﺎﺕ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ��ﻛ�� ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﻦ ﻭﻛﺘﺒﻪ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻗﺮ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﺴ�� ﺍﻟﺬﺍﺗﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻔﻨﺎﻧ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺭﺳﻤﻮﺍ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﻨﺎﻗﺸﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺩﺍﺭﺕ ��‬
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‫ﺣﻴﺎ��ﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻣﺜﻠﻮهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﺷ��ﻳﺖ ��ﺥﺎ ﻣﻠﻮﻧﺔ ﻣﺘﻮﺳﻄﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﻴ��ﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻌﻴﺖ ﻷﺟﺪ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺎﻁ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻧﻮﻗﺸﺖ ��‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺃ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻌﺎﺭﺽ ﺃﺑﺤﺚ ﻋﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ‪ �� ،‬ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻒ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﻷﺗﻤﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﺎﻭ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﳌﻨﻈﻮ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ِﺃﻟﻔﺖ‬
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‫ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺗﺮﺍﺟﻊ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻒ ﺑﺒﻂﺀ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺘﺤﻀﺮﺓ �� ﺫه�ﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﻳﺠﺪﺭ �ﻲ ﺭﺅ�ﺘﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪ ﺑﻠﻮ�� ﻣ�ﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩﻱ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ‬
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‫ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗ��ﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺫﺍﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﻭﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ‬ ‫ﻣﺨﻴﻠ�ﻱ‪،‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﻋﻜﻔﺖ ﻋ�� ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻣﻊ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻠﻮ ّ‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺣﻘﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻌﺎﺭﺽ ‪.‬ﺇﻥ ﺍ��ﺝﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ�ﺡ�ﺎﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺮﻭ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻷﺍﺣﺎﺳﻱﺲ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺜ��هﺎ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﻒ‬
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‫ﻣﺤﺪﻗﺔ ﻓ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺟﻤﻴﻌهﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺇﺳﺘﻤﻌﺖ‬
‫ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻭ�ﺎﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺮﺃ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻻﺣﻘﺔ‪� ،‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﺏ ﺍﻭﺳﻂ ﺯﺭﺕ ﻣﻌهﺪ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻮﻥ ��‬
‫ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ �� ﺍﳌﻌﺎﺭﺽ هﻨﺎﻙ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺣﺐ ﺇ�� ﻗﻠ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺳﺎﺋﺮ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻤﺘﻔﺮﺝ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻒ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻲ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺔ ��‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻟﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺘﻚ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻴﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺑﺠﻔﺎﻑ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ هﺬﺍ ﻃﺒﻴ��‪ ،‬ﻓهﺬﻩ ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﻣﺴﻴﺢ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﺑﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺩﻓﻊ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻌهﺪ ﻣﺒﻠﻐﺎ �ﺥﻤﺎ ﻟ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺷﺒﺎﻁ ﺧﻀﺖ �� ﺣﺪﻳﺚ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻏﻴﺪﻳﻨﻐﺰ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺕﺸﺎﺭﻱ �� ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ‬
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‫ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﺧ��ﻲ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻳﻮ�ﻯﻯ �ﻲ ﳌﻨﺤﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﻭﺭﻭ�ﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﻮﺟﺌﺖ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻭﺍﺑﺘ�ﺝﺖ ﻷ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻓﺈ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭَ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﺭﺃﻯ �� ﺥﺼﺎ ﺃهﻼ ﻟهﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻑ‪ْ ،‬‬ ‫ُ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻣﻊ ﺗﻮﺻﻱﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬
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‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟ�ﺡﻈﺔ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻗﻴﻞ �� ﻌﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻭﺟ��ﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺳﻞ ﺷهﺎﺩﺍ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻴﻱﻨﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺐ ﺇ�� ّ‬‫َ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ ﺍﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻧﻴﺎﺑﺔ ﻋ�ﻱ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﺳﺘﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﻘﺪﻳﻢ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻃﻠﺒﻮهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺑﻘﻴﺖ �ﻐ�� ﺃﻣﻞ ﺑﺄﻥ‬ ‫ُﺳﺮﺭﺕ ��ﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﺄ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺠﻤﻌﺖ‬
‫ﻳﻔ��ﻱ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺇ�� ﻧﺕﻴﺠﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﺸﻤﺴﺔ �� ﻧﻱﺴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺟﺎﺀﺕ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻼ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ ﻭ�� ﻳﺪهﺎ �ﺡﻴﻔﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺳﻤﻚ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﻟ�ﺡﻴﻔﺔ ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ‬
‫ﺗﺎﻳﻤﺰ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻇﻨﻥﺖ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺗﻤﺎﺯﺣ�ﻱ ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺇﻧ ِﻚ ﺗﻤﺰﺣ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻭ�� ﺸ�� ﺇ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﻭ�ﻦ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺍ�ﺥ�� ﺡﻴﺢ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻣﻊ �ﺴﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺭﺟﻼ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻧﺤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻣﻨﺢ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻐﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺪﻭﻝ ﺍﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺙ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻧﺼﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﻴﺒﺔ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ّ‬‫ﻛﻨﺎ ﻻ ﻧﺰﺍﻝ ﻧﺕﺒﺎﺣﺚ �� ﺍﺧﺒﺎﺭ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﺗﺒﻠﻐ�ﻱ ﺭﺳﻤﻴﺎ ﺑﺘﻌﻴﻴ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺃﺳﻌﺪ �ﺡﻈﺔ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺕﺒﺪ �ﻲ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﻭﺗﻼﺷﺖ �ﺡﻈﺔ ﺍﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺳﻤﺎ��‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻴﻤ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﻋﺮﻓﻮﺍ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺳﻮﺀ‬ ‫ﻋﻦ ﺣﻈﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺳﻴﺤﺼﻞ ﻟﻮ‬
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‫ﻱ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻝ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ؟ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻗﻮﺓ ﺑﺼﺮ ﻻ ﺗﺘﻌﺪﻯ‪ ، 60/4‬ﻭﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ �ﻌ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻓﻘﻂ؟ ﻭﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻨﻔﻊ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺭﺗﺠﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻋ�ﻥ ﺍﺻﻄﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻭﺗﺨﺪﻉ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻋﻨﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮهﻠﺔ ﺍﻭ��؟‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺍﳌ��ﺀ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﺗﻄﻠﺐ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻠﻤﺖ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺮهﺎ ��‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ﻹﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ �ﺥﺼﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺫﻋﺮ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺗﺄﺟﻴﻠهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﺗﻮﺟﻪ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻓﻄﻨﺖ ﺇ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺣﻤﺎﻗ�ﻱ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﻘﺮ‬ ‫ﺑﺮﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺗﺼﺮﻑ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻃﺒﻴ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻻﺣﻈﺎﻷ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﺠﺮﻭﻥ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻮﺩﻭ ﺇﺭﺳﺎﻟهﺎ ﻓﺴﺄﻗﻨﻊ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺕﻴﺠﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺇﻛﺕﺴﺏﺖ ﺧ��ﺓ‬
‫ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ �� ﻛﻮ�ﻲ ﺧﺎﺳﺮﺓ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ �ﺴ�� ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ �� ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﻛﺮﻱﺴﺰ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻣﻘﺮ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ‬
‫ﻭﺩﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺿﻨﺎ ﺗﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﻗﻮﻡ ��ﺎ ��‬‫ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺮﺗ��‪ ،‬ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﻄﺎ�ﻲ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺗﻠﻤﻴﺤﺎﺕ ﺇ�� ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺤﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺗﺪﻱ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ‬
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‫ﺭﺳﻤﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻣﺘﻠﻜﺖ ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻥ ﺳهﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻤﺘﻨﺔ �ﺴﺏﺐ هﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺛ�ﻱ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ ﻋﻦ ﺍﺧﺘﻼﻓﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﺟﺪهﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻌﺎﻳ�� ﺍﻭﺭﻭ�ﻴﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ﺍهﻤﻴﺔ ﺑﻤ�ﺎﻥ ﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺃﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺗﻤﺜﻞ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺣﺬﺭ�ﻲ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺭ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﻮﻟهﻦ ﺑﻨﺎﺀ ﻋ�� ﺳﻠﻮﻛهﺎ �� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻥﺴﺎﺀ �� ﺑﻼﺩهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ ﺍﻧ��ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻓ��ﻀﺖ ﻟ�ﻲ ﺃﻏﺎﺩﺭ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺘﻚ ﺑﺄﻧﻚ‬ ‫ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺘﻚ ﻋﻦ �ﺡ ِ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺫﻛﺮﺕ ��‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﻛﺮ�ﺰ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻓﻮﺭ�ﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﺎﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻋﻤﻠﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺩﺍﺀ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻳﻤﻨﻌﻚ‬ ‫ﻟﻦ‬ ‫هﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﻧﻱﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ �� ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﻭﻛﺄﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺻﺏﺖ ﺑﺮﺻﺎﺻﺔ ‪.‬ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺑﺪﺃ �ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﺣﻮ�� ﻳﺪﻭﺭ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ�ﺔ‬
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‫ﻣﻐﺸﻴﺎ ﻋ��‪ّ.‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َّ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻄﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �� ﺃﺫ�ﻲ ﺣﺬﺭﺍ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﻗﻊ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺪﺩﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺽ ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﻌﺪهﺎ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻪ هﻮ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﱠ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺤﺮﺭﺓ �� ﺃﻣ��ﻳ�ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺑﺄ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ �ﺎﺭ�ﻦ ﻻﺭﺳﻮﻥ؛‬ ‫ﺍﻧﺤﻨﺖ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﻓﻮ�� ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺇﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺎﻥ ﺭ�ﻔﻴﻮ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ �ﻐﻤﻰ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻋﺎﺩﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫’’ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ ﺇ�ﻲ ﻣﺠهﺪﺓ ﻭﺣﺴﺐ ‪.‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭهﻖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻋ�� ﺃﻃﺮﻭﺣﺔ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺎﺟﺴﺘ��‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﻻﺭﺳﻮﻥ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﻈهﺮ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ �� ﺣﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺟﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻀﺎﺀ ﺳﻨﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﺳﻴﻔﻴﺪ ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻧﺤﻴﻠﺔ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫�ﺡ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺇﻥ ﻭﺯ��ﺎ ﻳﺰﺩﺍﺩ‬
‫ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻄﺮﻕ ﺇ�� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻳﺠﺮ‬
‫ﻟﻢ ِ‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺒﻴﻞ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭ�ﻲ ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺷهﺎﺩﺓ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺯﻣﻴﻠﺔ ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ ﺍﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻛﻮ�ﻲ ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺔ ﱠ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤ��ﺓ �� ﻋﻠﻢ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻣﺨﻮﻟﺔ ﻟﻠﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺳﻨﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪.‬‬ ‫ﱠ‬
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‫ﺗﺒ�ﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻴﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﺧﺼﺼﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺰﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺇﻋﺎﻧﺔ ﻣﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻣﻘﺪﺍﺭهﺎ ﺃﻟﻒ ﺩﻭﻻﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�� ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺘﺪﻧﻴﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻎ ﻋﺎﺩﻝ‬
‫ﺿﻌﻒ ﻗﻴﻤﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺣﺰ�ﺮﺍﻥ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺷهﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﳌﺎﺟﺴﺘ��‪ ،‬ﻏﻴﺎﺑﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺱ‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻟﻮﺡ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﻮﺭ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ« ﺑ��ﻏﻥ�ﻓﻴﻮﺭﺩ»‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻭﻁﺀ ﺭﺻﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﻴﻨﺎﺀ �� ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮ‪ ،‬ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﺪﺧﻮﻝ ﺩﻧﻴﺎ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﺎﻝ ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﻥ هﺬﻩ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟ��ﻳﺔ ﺑ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ �ﺡﺮ�ﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻴﻊ ﻟﻴﻌﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺡﻈ��ﺓ ﻣﻦ ّ‬‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻏﺮﺕ ﻓ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺣﻮﻟﺖ ﻗﻄﻌﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﺋﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺗﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻨﻠﻨﺪﺍ ﺇ�� ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﻭﺩ�ﻌﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺟﺎﻟﺖ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ ﺑﺄﻭﺳﺘ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﺗﺘﺨﻔﻰ ﺍﻗﺰﺍﻡ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﻼﻻﺕ ﻭﺗﺠﻌﻞ ﺍ��ﺎﺭ ��ﺪﺭ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺣﻴﺚ ﺳﺘﻘﻊ ﺍﺣﺪﺍﺙ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻥﺒﺄ ��ﺎ ﻛﻨﻴﻮﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﻜﻴﻢ �� ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﻭهﻨﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺒﺪ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ‬ ‫�ﺸﺄﺕ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﺃ�ﻲ ﻭﺗﺒﺎﺩﻻ ﻛﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﻐﺰﻝ ﻭﺗﺰ ّﻭﺟﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ��ﺎﺟﺮﺍ ﺇ�� ﺃﻣ��ﺎ ‪َ .‬ﻟﻢ ُ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﺑﻼ ﻟﻠﺘﺼﺪﻳﻖ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺃﻃﺄ ﺗﺮﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﻭﺃﻭﺷﻚ ﻋ�� ﺗﺤﻘﻴﻖ ﺣﻠﻢ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻗﻔﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﻗﺐ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺯﻟ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﻭهﻢ ﻳﻠﺘﻘﻮﻥ ﺑﺄﺳﺮهﻢ ﻭﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎ��ﻢ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻋ�� ﻃﻴﺔ ﺻﺪﺭ ﻣﻌﻄﻔﻲ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺒ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴﻞ ﻋﻘﺪﺓ ﺷﺮ�ﻂ ﺳﺎﺗﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺘﻪ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﺑﺈﺭﺗﺪﺍ ِﺋ ِﻪ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﺭﺟﻮﺍ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﺧﺎ�� ﺟﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺷﺎﺭ ّ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺿﻌﻴﻔﺔ �� ّ‬‫ُ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﺼﻴﺪ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﻭﺳﻂ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﻛﻢ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺸﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺔ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﻟﻦ ﺗﻔﻮﺗﻪ ﻣﻼﺣﻈ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﺩﺍﻝ؟‬
‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻲ �ﺴﺄﻟ�ﻱ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻟﻄﻴﻒ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ِ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺧﺎﻟﻚ ﺇﻟ�ﻥ هﻮﻏﺴﻱﺚ‪‘‘.‬‬‫ﺇﺫﺍ ِ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺕ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ‪ �� ،‬ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﺗﻠﺏﺲ ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﺧﻀﺮ‪ ،‬ﻳﺪهﺎ ﻭﺻﺎﻓﺤﺘ�ﻱ ﺑﺤﺮﺍﺭﺓ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫«ﺃﺭﺳﻞ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺃ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺗﺎﻛ��ﻱ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗﺘ�ﻠﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺼﻞ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﺃﻳﺖ ﺟﻼ ﺿﺉﻴﻼ‪� ،‬ﺸﺒﻪ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺑﻨﻱﺘﻪ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻳﺘﻘﺪﻡ‬ ‫ﺭ ﺭ‬
‫ﻧﺤﻮﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﺍ ﻳﺪﻩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺑﻚ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻱﺒﺔ ﺇﻧﺠﻴﺒﻮﺭﻍ‪ ،‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺑﺄﻧﻚ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺃهﻼ ِ‬
‫ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻠ��ﻱ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ هﻮ ﺍﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻗ��ﺑﺖ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺒ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻒ ﺫﺍﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺸﺒﻪ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺻﻮﺭﺗﻪ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻧﺘﺼﺏﺖ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻑ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﳌﻮﻗﺪ �� ﺻﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻤﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ ﺗﻥﺘﻈﺮﻧﺎ ﻭﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺪﺕ ﻟﻨﺎ ﻗهﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﻓﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻴﺔ ﻟهﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺷ�ﻠهﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﺎﺭﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻝ‬
‫ﻭﻧﺤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﺯ َﺍﺩ ﻓﺴﺘﺎ��ﺎ ﺍﺳﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻞ ﻭﻣﺮ�ﻠ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﻀﺎﺀ ﻣﻈهﺮهﺎ ﻃﻮﻻ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﺗﻀﻊ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺇﻃﺎﺭهﺎ ﻓ��ﻱ ﺯﺍﺩ �ﻌﺒ�� ﻋﻴﻨ��ﺎ ﺣﺪﺓ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺷﻌﺮهﺎ ﺍﻟﺒ�ﻱ ﻣﺸﻮ�ﺎ‬
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‫ﺻﺪﻏ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮ�ﺝ ﺩﺍ��ﺀ ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ‬
‫ٌ‬ ‫ﺧﺪ��ﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ‬ ‫ﺑﺨﺼﻼﺕ ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺃﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ �� ّ‬
‫ﺳﻦ ﺍﳌﺮﺍهﻘﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺘﺤﺴﺪﻩ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺟﻠﺴﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﺭ�ﻌﺔ ﺇ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺿﻴﺎﻓﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻟﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻚ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﺟﻮ ﻟﻚ ﻗﻀﺎﺀ ﺃﻳﺎﻣﺎ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻣﻌﻨﺎ هﻨﺎ ��‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺃهﻼ ِ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﺑﻥ ِﺘ ِﻪ‬ ‫ﺗﺘﺤﺪﺙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﻓﻌﻞ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﻛﺄﺳهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺷﻔﺘ��ﺎ ﻭ��‬
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‫ﺴﻜﺮ ﺣﺎﺩﺍ ﺟﺪﺍ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺇﺧﺘﻨﻘﺖ ﻭﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣﺎﺀ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺍ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺇﻳﻠ�ﻥ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌ ِ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻥ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺒﺕﺴﻢ’’ ‪�:‬ﺡﻴﺢ ﺇﺫﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻣ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺅﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻔﻴﻮﻥ‬
‫هﻨﺎﻙ ﻳﻤﺘﻨﻌﻮﻥ ﻓﻌﻼ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺤﻮﻝ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻈﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ﻣﺘﻮﺟﺔ ﻧﺤﻮ ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ ﻭﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻠ�ﻥ ﻛﻱﺴﺘ�ﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﻠﻄﻒ ّﺇﻧﻤﺎ ﺑﺼﻮﺭﺓ ﺭ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻝ‪.‬‬‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬ ‫ﺮ‬ ‫ﻳﻔﻜ‬ ‫ﻥ‬ ‫ﺟﻮ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺔ‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻴ‬ ‫ٍ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺏ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﺎ‬ ‫�ﺸ��ﻥ‬ ‫ﻚ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺤﺕ��ﻱ ﻗهﻮﺗﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺭﻯ ِ‬
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‫ﺣﺪﺛ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻥ ﻭهﻮ‬ ‫ﻭﺣ�ﻥ ُﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻭ�ﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﺮهﺔ ّ‬
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‫�ﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ �ﻐﻠﻴﻮﻧﻪ ﻋﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺟﻤﺎﻝ ّﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﺙ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻤﺎﻟهﺎ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺪ ﻏﻀﺎﺿﺔ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺘﻪ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺟﺮﺡ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺘﻌﺒﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻭﻣﺤﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻈهﺮ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺖ َ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻋﺰﻡ ﻭﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺴﻤﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻗﺎﻣﺎ �ﻌﻤﻞ ﺟﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﺷﺮ�ﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺮ�ﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﻭﺍ�ﺝﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ�ﻠﺖ ﺍ�ﺝ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﺳﻢ ﻭﺍ�ﺥ�� ﺍﳌﻐﻄﻰ ﺑﻄﺒﻘﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰ�ﺪﺓ؛ ﺳﻤﻚ ﻃﺎﺯﺝ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺃﺟﺮﻯ‬ ‫�ﺡﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﻀﺎﺭ؛ ﻭﺃﻃﻌﻤﺔ ﻣﻐﺬﻳﺔ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻥ ﺗﺮﺗﻱﺒﺎﺕ �� ﻲ ﺃﺟﺮﻱ ﺗﻤﺎﺭ�ﻦ ﺗﻘﻮ�ﻤﻴﺔ ﺧﻀﻌﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺈﺷﺮﺍﻑ ﺧﺒ�� ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﻧﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﺮﻍ ﻭﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺟهﻮﺩهﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺎﻣ�ﻱ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻧﺘﺼﺏﺖ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﻣﺤﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻈهﺮ ﻭﺯﺍﺩ ﻭﺯ�ﻲ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﻛﻴﻠﻮﻏﺮﺍﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺮﺕ ﺍﻥ �ﺸ��ﻥ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﻧﺮﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‬‫ﺗﻨﻢ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻯﻯ’’ ‪ِ :‬‬‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻥ �� ﻧ��ﺓ ّ‬
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‫ﺟﺌﺖ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺤﻤﻠ�ﻥ ﺳﻤﺎﺕ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻜﺜ��‬ ‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‬ ‫ﻭهﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﻮﺛﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫هﺎ‬ ‫�ﻠ‬ ‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻛﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺇﻧﺤﻨﺎﺀﺍﺕ ﺭﺷﻴﻘﺔ �� ﻗﻮﺍﻣﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟهﻨﻮﺩ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺮ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺇﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ �� ﺃﻣ��ﺎ‪� ،‬ﻐﺾ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻋﻦ ﺍﺻﻮﻝ ﺍﻭﺭﻭ�ﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﺍﺳﻴﻮ�ﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻓﺮ�ﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺸﺄﻭﺍ ﻣ��ﺎ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻜﺕﺴﺒﻮﻥ ﺳﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟهﻨﻮﺩ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴ�ﻥ‬
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‫�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻘﺘﻨﻌﺎ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﻄﻠﻖ ﺑ�ﺡﺔ ﻧﻈﺮ�ﺘﻪ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺎﻗﺸﺔ ﺑﺼﺪﺩ هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻟهﺎ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫�ﻐ�� ﺭﺃﻳﻪ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺃﻓ�ﺎﺭ ﺻﺮ�ﺤﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﺗﺤﺼﻴﻞ ﺍﳌﺮﺃﺓ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎ ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﻯ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻥ ﺇﻛﺜﺎﺭهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﻳﻘﻠﻞ ﻣﻦ �ﺡﺮ ﺃﻧﻮﺛ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ��ﺎ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻟﻮ ﻧﺎﻟﺖ ﻣﻨﺎﺻﺐ‬
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‫ﻣﻤﺘﺎﺯﺓ �ﻌﺪ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺗﻤﺜﻞ ﺿﺮﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻧﻔﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟهﺎ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻞ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺍﻧﺰ�ﺝﺖ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﻩ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻓ�ﺡ ﻋ��ﺎ ﺑﻼ ﻣﻮﺍﺭ�ﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻮ�ﺖ ﻣﻌﺮﻓ�ﻱ ﺑﺘﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺡﺝﻢ ﻋﻦ ﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭهﺎ‬
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‫ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﺠﻮﻝ �� ﺧﺎﻃﺮﻱ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻭﺣﺪﻧﺎ ﻧﺤﺕ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻱ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬
‫ُﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﻧﻮﺍﻓﺬ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻣﺮ ﺳﻱﺉ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻳﺎ ﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺳﺎﺋﺮ ﺑﻨﺎﺕ ﺃﺧﺖ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ‬
‫ﻓهﻦ ُ� َ‬
‫ﺸ��ﻦ ّﺃﻣﻲ‬ ‫ﺳﻴﺤﺐ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻛ��‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺟﻮﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺄ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣ��ﺎ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻱﺴﺖ ﻓ��ﻦ ﻣﻦ �� ﺩﻭﺩﺓ ﻛﺘﺐ ﻣﺜ��‪‘‘.‬‬‫َ‬
‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ ﻛﻮ��ﺎ ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﻴﻚ ‪.‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺍﻓﻖ‬
‫ﺧﺎﻟﻚ ِ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﻨ��ﺓ ﺟﺎﻓﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺗﻘﻠﻘﻲ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻩ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺗﺤﺼﻴﻞ ﺍﳌﺮﺃﺓ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎ ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺎ ﺑﻮﺟﻪ ﻋﺎﻡ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺑ�ﺡﻤﻪ ﻭﺩﻣﻪ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺣ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﺑﻚ‬
‫ﺗﺼﺒﺢ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻢ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺍﻣﺮ �ﺥﻴﻔﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻳﺒﺎ�� ِ‬
‫ﻻ ﺗﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ هﻨﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺫ ِهﻠﺖ ﻷﻧﻪ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺑﺎﻟﺬﺍﺕ ﺃﻋﻄﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮﺓ ﺣﻮ ﻣﺎ ﺩﻋﺎﻩ ﺇﻓﺘﻘﺎﺭﻱ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺍﻭﺳﺘ��ﺩﺍﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺮ�ﻀﺔ ﻭﻧ��ﺓ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻠﺒﺎﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻄﺮ�ﺔ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻋ��ﺽ ﻋ�� ﻟ�ﺝ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺻﻮ�ﻲ ﺍﻟ��ﺟﻮﺍﺯ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺇﻧﻪ ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻄﺖ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺘ�ﻠﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﻱﺉ �� ﺃﻣ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴ�ﻥ ﺍ�ﺝهﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺄﺗﻮﻥ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺃﺑﻮ ّﻱ ‪.‬ﳌﻌﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎ ﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ �ﺎﻟﻠهﺐ‬
‫ﺛﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ ْ‬
‫ﺑﺤﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﳌﻼﺣﻈﺔ ﻭﺗﺤﺪ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﺘﻚ ﺇﻧﺠﻴﺒﻮﺭﻍ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺭﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﻣﺜﻘﻔﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ْ ُ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺑﻠ�ﺝﺔ ﺍﳌﺠﺘﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ُﻭﻟﺪﺕ ﻭﺗﺮﻋﺮﻋﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺤﺴﻦ‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﺗ‬ ‫ﺗﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ‬ ‫�ﺎ‬ ‫ﺑﺄ�‬
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‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﻤﻠ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺗﺼﺪﻳﻘهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭهﺬﻩ �� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ‬ ‫ﻓهﺬﻩ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﻻ‬‫ِ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻟ�ﺝ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻣﺮ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺗﻘﺮﺃ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺗﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺗﻨﻔﻌﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫�ﻐ��ﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻚ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺃﺑﺖ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻭﺳﺘ��ﺩﺍﻟﻴﺔ ﻗﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻠﺒﺚ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺑﺪﺃ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻤﺰ�ﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺸﻄﺔ ﻣ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺈﻃﻼﻕ ﺗﻠﻤﻴﺤﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺃﻇهﺮﺕ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﺭﻓﻴﻘﺎﻥ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺻﺎﺭ ﻳ�ﺡﺒ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﺃﻭ ﺭﺻﻴﻒ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ �� ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻗﺼ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﺻﺎﺭ ﻳﺮﺍﻓﻘ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺡ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻴﻨﺎﺀ ﻣ�ﻯ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻗﺼ�� ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻣﺔ ﻣﻤ��ﱠ‬
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‫ﺑﺙﻴﺎﺏ ﺳهﺮﺓ ﺃﻧﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﺎﻣﻼ ﻋﺼﺎ ﻣﻄﻠﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻀﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺭﺟﻼ‬
‫ﺣﺪ �ﻌﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻔﻮﻗ�ﻱ ﻃﻮﻻ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺑﺄﺭ�ﻊ ﺃﻭ ﺧﻤﺲ ﺳﻨﺕﻴﻤ��ﺍﺕ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺷﻌﺮﻩ‬ ‫ﺍﻟهﻴﺌﺔ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﺭﻗﻴﻘﺎ ﻭ�ﺡﻴﺘﻪ ﱠ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺮﺣﺔ �ﻌﻨﺎﻳﺔ �ﺸﺒﻪ �ﺡﻴﺔ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﺭﺩ ﺷﻮ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳ�ﺡﺒ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻭ�ﺤﺪﺛ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﻭﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴ�ﻥ ‪:‬ﻣﺄﺛﻮﺭﺍ��ﻢ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻱﺴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺮﺗ�ﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻋﻴﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺒﻴﺔ ﻭﺗﺎﺭ�ﺨهﻢ ﻭﺃﺩ��ﻢ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺒﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺎﻥ �ﺴﺘﻌ�� ﻣ��ﺎ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ هﻮ ﻭﻭﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ ﻗﺎﺭﺋ�ﻥ ��ﻤ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻧﺕﺒﺎﺣﺚ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺮﺃﻧﺎهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻳﺄﺕ ﻋ�� ﺫﻛﺮ‬ ‫ﺃﻇﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻥ �ﺎﻥ �ﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻷ�ﻯﻯ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ِ‬
‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮ ﺇﻃﻼﻗﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺴﺘﺤﻴﻞ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻋ��ﻤﺎ ّ‬
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‫�ﻌﺮﻑ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺣﺎﺟ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺐ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ �ﻲ ﺃﺭﺍهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ��‬
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‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻠﺘ�ﻥ ﻭﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﺭﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻩ ‪.‬ﻭﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ �ﺥﺼﻴ��ﺎ ﺍﳌﺤﺒﻮ�ﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﺸﻊ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻟهﻤﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻛﻴﻒ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ �� ،‬ﺍﺳﺮﺓ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ُﻳﺪﻝ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻳﺔ ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎﺕ ﻋﻦ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺀ‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺯﻭﺟﺔ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺀ ﻋﻤﻮﻣ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻥ ﻣﻨﻈﺮﻱ ﺻﺎﺭ ﺣﺴﻨﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻛﺕﺴﺎ�ﻲ ﻭﺯﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﺗﻤﺘﻊ �ﺴﻤﺎﺕ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻣﺕﺴﻘﺔ ﻟﻮﻻ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻓ��ﻤﺎ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ �ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤ�� ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻧﻈﺎ ﺓ ﱠ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺤﺪﺑﺔ ﻓﻮﻗهﻤﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺍﺕ هﻮﺭﻧ��ﻟﺮ‪،‬‬ ‫�� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﻊ ﺭ‬
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‫ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﻤﻰ‪،‬ﻗﺪ ﺷﺎﻉ ﻃﺮﺍﺯهﺎ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﺏﺲ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻏ�� ﻋﺎﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﺃﻭﻝ‬ ‫ﺣﺼﺮﺍ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺎ ﻳﻼﺣﻈﻪ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ّ��‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻨﻈﺮﻭﻥ ﺇ�� ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﺍﳌﺤﺪﺑﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺳ�� ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ ‪.‬ﻭﻱﺸ��ﻭﻥ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ �� ﺗﻘﺎﺭ�ﺮهﻢ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻒ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺛﻮﻥ ﻋ��ﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻳﺘ�ﻠﻤﻮﻥ ﻣ�� ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﻧﺮﻭ�� ﺃﺻﻴﻞ ﻣﺎﺯﺣﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻋﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ ��‬
‫ﻣﻌﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺧﻠﻒ هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻨﻈﺎﺭ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻷﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺿﻌﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ‪.‬ﺇﺫ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ّ‬

‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮ( ﻛﺮﺳﺘﻱﻨﺎ ﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ )�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣ�ﺎﻧﺎ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻻﻕ هﻨﺎﻙ ّﺃﻳﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻀﺎﻳﻘﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ُﺗﺰ�ﺝ�ﻱ ﻋﺎﺩﺓ �� ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﺃﻭ �� ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺮﺋﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ﻭﻟﻮ‬ ‫ﻣﻄﻠﻴﺔ ﺑﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﺧﻀﺮ ﻣﺰﺭﻕ ﺯﺍ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺮﻛﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ��ﺍﻡ ّ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ �ﻌﻴﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﻻﻓﺘﺎ��ﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻤﺔ ﻣﻥﺴﺪﻟﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻘﺔ ‪:‬ﺳﺎﺟ�ﻥ ﺭ�ﻨﻎ‪،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻗﻒ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺯﻭﺍﻳﺎ ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ‬
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‫ﻏﺮ�ﻔﺴ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎﺟﻮ ْﺭﺳﺘﻮ�ﻦ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﻗﺎﻃ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺬﺍﻛﺮ ﺳﻴﺪﺍﺕ ُ� ْﻌ ِﻠ ّﻦ ﺑﺄﻋ��‬
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‫ﺃﺻﻮﺍ��ﻦ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺎﺕ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺑﻠﻮﻏهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ �� ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻘﻴﻢ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺭﻗﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺯﻝ‬
‫ﻣﻜﺘﻮ�ﺔ ﺑﺄﺭﻗﺎﻡ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺳﻮﺩ ﻋ�� ﻟﻮﺣﺎﺕ ﺑﻴﺾ ﺑﻴﻀﻮ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﺸ�ﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭ ُﻭﺿﻌﺖ �� ﺃﻣﺎﻛﻦ‬
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‫ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ��ﻭﺯ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺒﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻮﺗ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﳌﺒﺎ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﺗﺼﻄﻒ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺭﺻﻔﺔ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ �� ﻭﺳ�� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺃﺭﻗﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺯﻝ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻣ��ﻱ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﺽ �ﺡﺎﺩﺙ ﺍﺻﻄﺪﺍﻡ ﻓﺈﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻏ�� ﻣﻤﻜﻦ �� ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮ ‪.‬ﻓﺄﺑﻮﺍﻕ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺣﻮﻝ ﺇﻣ�ﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺣﺎﺩﺓ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻹﻳﻘﺎﻅ ﺍﳌﻮ�ﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﺋﺪﺓ ﻏ�� ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ‪.‬ﻭ��‬ ‫ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﳌﺮﻛﺒﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺘﺪ ﻣﻦ �ﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻭﻝ ﺇ�� ﻧﻱﺴﺎﻥ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ �ﻌﻠﻴﻖ ﺟﺮﺱ ّ‬
‫ﺑ�ﻞ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‬
‫ﻳﺠﺮ ﻋﺮ�ﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻧﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻧﻮﻣﻲ ﺗﻘﻊ �� ﺃﻋ�� ﺳﺎﺣﺔ ﻳﻨﻄﻠﻖ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻣﻮﻛﺐ‬ ‫ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻥ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ؛ ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻮ �� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ ﻋﺘﻤﺔ ﻧﺼﻒ‬ ‫ﻋﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﺛﻘﻴﻠﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺕﻴﻘﻆ ﻋ�� ﺝﻴﺞ ﻗﺮﻉ ﺃﺟﺮﺍﺱ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﻞ ﻭﺣﺪﻭﺍ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺪﺣﺮﺝ �ﺝﻼﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻕ ﺍﳌﺮﺻﻮﻓﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻥﺘ��ﻮﻥ ﺇ�� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻥ‬
‫�ﻐ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ �� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ �ﻌﺎﻣﻠهﻢ ﻣ�� ‪.‬ﻓﻌﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻲ ﺑﺄﺣﺪهﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻭﻝ‬ ‫هﺬﺍ ﻟﻢ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺃﺟﻨ�ﻱ ﻳﺰﻭﺭ ﺑﻼﺩﻩ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﻱ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ �ﻌﺎﻣﻠ�ﻱ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻃﺒﻴ�� ﻛﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ �ﻌﺎﻣﻞ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺩ ﻭﻛﺮﻣﺎﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﻣ��‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﻴﺖ ﻷﻛﻮﻥ ﻋﻀﻮﺍ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺴﻴﺪﺍﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬ ‫ُ ُ‬

‫�ﻌﺮﻓﺖ‬ ‫ﺩ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﻃﻠﻴﻌﻴﺎﺕ �ﺴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ‪ ��.‬هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭﺓ ﺇﻳﻠ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﻭﻣهﺘﻤﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻏﻼﺩﻳﺕﺶ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺴﻢ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺀ �� ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮﻭ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺥﺼﻴﺔ ﻻﻣﻌﺔ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺚ ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺪﺍﻡ ﻛﻮﺭﻱ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻋﺪﺓ �� ﻣﺨﺘ��هﺎ ﺑﺒﺎﺭﻱﺲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺑﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺩﻳﻮﻡ �� ﺍﻟﻮﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻤﻲ‪،‬‬‫ﻏﻼﺩﻳﺕﺶ ﻣﺮﺟﻌﻴﺔ ﻣﺸهﻮﺩﺍ ﻟهﺎ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ّﻳﺘﺼﻞ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻤﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺪ ﻧﺎﻟﺖ ﺷهﺎﺩﺓ ﺩﻛﺘﻮﺭﺍﻩ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻳﺎﻝ ﺑﺄﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻋﺮﻓ��ﻢ ﺗﻮﺍﺿﻌﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﺪ ﺗﻤ��ﻱ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻗﻼﺋﻞ ﻋ�� ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻱ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻧﺘﺨﺒﺖ ﻏﻼﺩﻳﺕﺶ ﺭﺋﻱﺴﺔ ﻟﻠﺮﺍﺑﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺴﻴﺪﺍﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺎﺕ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺳﺎﻓﺮﺕ ﺇ�� ﻣﻨﺎﻃﻖ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ ‪ ��.‬ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺇﻗﺎﻣ��ﺎ �� ﺃﻣ��ﺎ ﻗﺒﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻭﺗﺼﺮﻓﺖ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ّﺃ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺩﻋﻮﺓ ﻹﻟﻘﺎﺀ �ﻠﻤﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩ ّﺭﺱ ﻓ��ﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫�ﺸﺮﻓﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻋﻮﺓ ﻭﻟﻱﺲ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﻃﻼ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ�� ﺍﻣ��ﻲ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﻭﻭﻟﺮ�ﺕﺲ ﺳﻮ�ﻥﺴﻮﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻎ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺩ ﻣ��‪ ،‬هﻮ‬
‫ﺍﺧﺮ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺩﻋﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﺃﻗﺎﻣهﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻔﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﻛﺒ��‬
‫ﻓﺨﻢ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻠ�ﺎ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻷﺳﺮﺓ ﻧﻮ�ﻞ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻤﻨﺢ ﺟﻮﺍﺋﺰ ﻧﻮ�ﻞ ﻟﻠﺴﻼﻡ ‪ ��.‬ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‬
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‫ﺻﺪﻑ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻧﺤﻦ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﻘﻴﻤ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺩﻋﻮﺓ �ﺡﻔﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﺷﺎﻱ ﻋ�� ﻣ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﺭﺟﺔ ﺣﺮ�ﻴﺔ ﺃﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ ﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ �� ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮ ﻓﻴﻮﺭﺩ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺿﻴﻔﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻣ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻴﻨﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮ�ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺗﻮﺭﺩ�ﺴﻜﻴﻴﻠﺪ �� هﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺪﻋﻮﺓ‬
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‫ﺣﻀﺮﺕ ﻣﺄﺩﺑﺔ ﻏﺪﺍﺀ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺤﻴ�ﻥ �ﺸﻤﺎﻝ ﺃﻭﺭﻭ�ﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻟﻌﻤﺎﻝ ﺟﻤﻌﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺧﺎﺻﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺿﻴﻔﺔ ﺷﺮﻑ �� ﺍﳌﺄﺩﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮ�ﺔ ﻟﻠﻔﺮﻉ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�� ﻟﻠﻤﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﺇ�� ﺃﻧﺎﺱ ﺁﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﻭﻱ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﻮﺫ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ هﺎﻟﻔﺪﺍﻥ ﻛﻮهﺖ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺣﺚ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﻭﺍﳌﺮﺟﻊ �� ﺍﻟﺸﺆﻭﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺟﻴﺔ؛ ﻭﺍﻟ�ﺎﺗﺒﺔ هﻮﻟﺪﺍ ﻏﺎﺭ�ﻮﺭﻍ؛ ﻭ�ﻮهﺎﻥ ِ‬
‫ﻟﻮ�ﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺼﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﺮﻭﻓﺔ �� ﺃﻣ��ﺎ ﻟﻜﺘﺒﻪ‪The ، The Temple، The Great Hunger‬‬
‫‪Last Vikings‬؛ ﻭ�ﻴﺕ��ﻱ ﻛﻴﻴﻠﺴﺒﻮﺭﻍ ﻣﺴﺆﻭﻟﺔ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺘﻱﺶ �� ﺍﳌﺼﺎ�ﻊ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺧﻠﻴﻔ��ﺎ ﺁﺳﻼﻭﻍ ﺁﺳﻼﻧﺪ؛ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭﺓ ﻛﺮﺳﺘ�ﻥ ﺑﻮﻧﻴﻔﻲ ﻋﺎﳌﺔ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻴﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ هﻮﻏﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﻨﺪﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﻮﻃ�ﻱ ﻟﻮﺯﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺕﺸﺎﺭﻱ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺇﻗﺎﻣ�ﻱ ��‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺣﺮﺹ ﻋ�� ﻌﺮ�ﻔﻲ ﺑﺄ�ﺥﺎﺹ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺪﺭ �ﻲ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﻣﻨﺎﺻﺐ ّ‬‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺳﻨﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺮﻛﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺮﻑ ﺇﻟ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻟﻪ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺖ ﺑﻤﺪﻳﺮ�ﻦ ﺗﻨﻔﻴﺬﻳ�ﻥ �� ﺻﻨﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻮﻡ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺥﺼﻴﺎﺕ ﻣﺮﻣﻮﻗﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﻣﺎ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎﺱ ﻣﺤ��ﻓ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺴﺆﻭﻟ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺣﻜﻮﻣﻴ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺟﺎﻝ ﻣﺮﻣﻮﻗ�ﻥ ﻛ�� ﺍﳌﺠﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺮ ّﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪.‬‬
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‫ُﺩﻋﻴﺖ ﺇ�� ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ �ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻣﻨﻈﻤﺎﺕ �� ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮ ﻭﻣﺪﻥ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺤﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﻤﻌﻴﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺰﺍﺭﻋ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻨﻈﻤﺎﺕ ﺷﺒﺎﺑﻴﺔ ﺭ�ﻔﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﻤﻌﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺤﻴ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻼﻣﺬﺓ ﻣﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺣﻞ ﺍﺑﺘﺪﺍﺋﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻧﺪﻳﺔ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺴﻴﺪﺍﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ ﺻﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ ﻛﻥﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺧﺎﺻﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺧﻄﺎﺑﺎ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻋﺴ��ﺍ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻷﻧﻪ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫َﻭ َﺟ َﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜ�� ﺑﺎﻹﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺗﺮﺟﻤﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﻗﻮﻟﻪ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﺘﻊ‬
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‫ﺑﺒﺼﺮ ﻳﺕﻴﺢ �� ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﳌﻼﺣﻈﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻃﺒﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺻﻞ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﻓﻴﺔ �� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺻﺮﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻃﺒﻴ�� ﻛﺤﺪﻳ�ﻱ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ﻗﺒﻠﺖ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﺭﺳﻤﻴﺎ �� ﺻﻒ ﻃﻼﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﺴﻜﺮ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺃ�ﺎﺩﻳﻤﻴﺔ ﻧﺮﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ُ� ّ‬‫ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺧﺎﺻﺎ ﻻﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﻣﻮﻟﻮﺩﺓ ��‬ ‫ﻌﺪ ﺷﺮﻓﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﻀﻮ�ﺔ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ ﺟﻮ‬ ‫�ﺎﻣﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ �ﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﺇﻧﻪ ﻓﺨﻮﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺪﻕ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ‪،‬‬
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‫�� ﺍﻟﺴﺎ�ﻊ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻳﺎﺭ ﺟﻠﺴﺖ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ ﺍﳌﺡﺝﻮﺯﺓ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺷﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﳌﻠﻚ‬
‫ﻭﺍﳌﻠﻜﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺮ ﺍﳌﻠ�ﻲ ﳌﺸﺎهﺪﺓ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺍﺽ ﺗﻼﻣﺬﺓ ﻣﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻻ ﺑﻴﻮﻡ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻘﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪.‬‬
‫�� ﻏﻤﺮﺓ هﺬﻩ ﺍﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﻨﺪﺭ�ﻼ �� ﺍ�ﺡﻔﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﻗﺼﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺃﻗﺎﻣهﺎ ﺍﻣ�� ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺃ�ﻌﺪ َﻋﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻟﻔﺨﺎﻣ ِﺘ ِﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﺧﺸﻱﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺪﻕ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻻﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻤﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ُﻣﻌﻠﻨﺔ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺮ�ﻢ ﻣﻮﺭﻏﻴﻥﺴﺘ��ﻲ ﺫﻭ ﺍﻟﺸهﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﺑﻠﻮﻣﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﺣ�ﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺫﺍﺕ ّ‬

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‫�ﺡﻜﺖ �ﺥﻔﺔ ﻇﻠﻪ ﻏ�� ﻣﻨﺘ��ﺔ ﺇ�� هﻮ�ﺘﻪ ﻭﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ﺑﺘﺤﻔﻈﻪ ﻭﻣهﺎﺑﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﻩ ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ �ﺸﻴﻄﺔ ﺃﺭﺳﻠ��ﺎ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻣ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﺒﺪﻳﻦ ﻛﻤﻦ ﺃﺷﻐﻞ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﻻ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﺗﺨﺸ�ﻥ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻥ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪ّ ،‬‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺑ�ﻞ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﺎﻻ��ﺎ ﻭﻋﻈﻤ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻧﺮﻭ�ﺞ ﺃﺣﻼﻣﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﺑﻴﺪ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺽ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺮﻋﺮﻉ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻱ ﻭﻋﺎﺷﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺭ َ‬
‫ﺟﺪ�ﻲ هﻮﻏﺴﻱﺚ ﺣﻴﺎ��ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻌﻴﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﻴﺚ ﺍﻗﺰﺍﻡ ﺟﻌﻠﺖ ﺍ��ﺎﺭ ��ﺪﺭ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺟﻪ ﺇ�� ﺃﻭﺳﺘ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ ﻷﺟﺪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ‪:‬ﺃﻭﺳﺘ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺩﻱ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻋ��‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺸﺮ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻤﺘﺪ ﻋ�� ﻃﻮﻝ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﻮ�ﺪﻳﺔ ﻣﻦ هﺎﻣﺎﺭ ﺇ�� ﺗﺮﻭﻧﺪهﺎﻳﻢ؛‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻼﻕ ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻒ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻭﺩﻳﺎﻥ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻣﺮﺻﻌﺔ ﺑﻘﻤﻢ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺗﻀﻢ �� ﺃﺣﻀﺎ��ﺎ ��ﺮ ﻏﻠﻮﻣ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟهﺪﺍﺭ؛ ﻭﺍﺩﻱ ﺍﳌﺰﺍﺭﻉ ﺍ�ﺥﺼﺒﺔ ﻭﺃﻏ�ﻯ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎهﻘﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺍﺣﺮﺍﺝ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﻭﺻﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺑﻨﺎﺕ ﻋﻤﻮﻣ�ﻱ ﺗﺪﻋﻮ�ﻲ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌ��ﺀ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﺃﻭﺳﺘ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ ﻟﺘﻤﻀﻴﺔ ﻋﻄﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻥ ﻋﺮﺳﺎ ﺳﻴﻘﺎﻡ – ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺮﻱﺲ هﻮ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺀ ﻋﻤﻮﻣ�ﻱ – ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﻋﺎﺋﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‬ ‫ﺟﻮ‬ ‫ﻟ�ﺥﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﺃﺕ‬ ‫ﻗﺮ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺘﻤﻮﺗ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ��ﺩ هﻨﺎﻙ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﻻ �ﻌﺮﻑ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺷﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ��ﺩ ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻔﻲ ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ﺣﻴﺚ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬‬
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‫ﻳﻘﻴﻢ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﺗﺘﺪ�ﻰ ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﺇ�� ﺧﻤﺴ�ﻥ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮ �� ﻌﺾ‬
‫ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻯ‬
‫«ﻟﻜﻨ ِﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺕﺴﻠﻘﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ ﻣﻊ ﺗﺪ�ﻲ ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﺇ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻮ »‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺟﻮﻥ ُﻣ ّ‬
‫ﺼﺮﺍ ﻋ�� ﺭﺃﻳﻪ‪ «،‬ﺇﻥ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺴ�ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺤﻠﻴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ‬
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‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻮﺻﻮﻝ ﺇﻟ��ﻢ �� ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺯﻻﺟﺔ ﻳﺠﺮهﺎ ﺣﺼﺎﻥ ﺟﺒ�� ﺻﻐ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻻﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﻭﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺃﻭﺳ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ ﺇﻻ �� ﺣﺰ�ﺮﺍﻥ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﻗﺘﻨﻊ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺨ�� ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ‪:‬ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻘﻴﻊ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺗﺤﻤﻠﻪ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺟﺪ�ﻲ هﻮﻏﺴﻱﺚ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺑﺪﺃ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺟﻮﻥ �ﻌﺎﻣﻠ�ﻱ ﻛﻄﻔﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻠﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎ�� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﻴﻥﺴﺖ ﺃﻭﺳ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻮﻟﺖ ﻣﺴﺆﻭﻟﻴﺔ ﺭﻋﺎﻳ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻋﺮﺍ�ﻲ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻣﻀﺖ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﻴﻢ ﻋ�� ﻌﺪ ﻧﺤﻮ ‪24‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫�ﻠﻢ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺧﻄﻄﺖ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺃﻣ��ﻱ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ﻣﻌﻪ؛ ﻟﻜﻦ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻊ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮ�ﻦ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﺗﺒﻠﻎ ‪ 55‬ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ ﺣﻤﺎﻗﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﺔ ﺑﺮ�ﺪﺍﻟ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﻌﻱﺶ ﻓ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺮﺍ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﻤﺜﻞ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﺟﺘﻴﺎﺯ ﺟﺒﻞ ﺷﺎهﻖ‬ ‫ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﳌﺠﺘﻤﻌﺎﺕ ﻋﺰﻟﺔ �� ﺃﻭﺳ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻮﺟﺐ ّ‬
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‫ﺳﺕﺘﺠﻤﺪ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﺒﻠﻮﻏهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻳﺪﺍﻱ ﻭﺭﺟﻼﻱ ﻭﺭ ّ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﻀﺎﺀ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺳﻞ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺮﺍ�ﻲ �� ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ ﺭﻭﺳ ِ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﻣ�ﻥ ﺩ ّﺭﺍﺟﺔ ﻧﺎﺭ�ﺔ ﺃﺫﻋﻨﺖ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﻋﻤﻲ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻥ ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺇ�� ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺧﻤﺲ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻹﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﺠﻤﺪ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺓ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﺖ ﺛﻴﺎﺑﺎ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺻﻞ ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃ�ﺡﻖ ﺑﻤﺆﺧﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺪ ّﺭﺍﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ�ﺔ ﺯﻻﺟﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﺪﺛﺮ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺭﺳﻠهﺎ �� ّﻋﺮﺍ�ﻲ ‪:‬ﻣﻌﻄﻔﻪ ﺍﳌﺼﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻭ‬ ‫ﻷﺟﻠﺲ ﻓ��ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻠﻴﺌﺔ‬
‫ﻷﺿﻌﻪ ﻓﻮﻕ ﻣﻌﻄﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺮﺍﻏﺮ؛ ﻭهﻮ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺟﻮﺍﺭﺏ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺔ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﻭﺳﻤﻴﻜﺔ‬
‫ﻓﻨﻠﻨﺪﻱ ﻣﺼﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻭ ُﻳ َﻠﺏﺲ ﻓﻮﻕ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻲ ﻭ�ﻐﻄﻲ ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻲ؛ ﺣﺬﺍﺀ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺼﻞ ﺇ�� ﻭﺭ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺮﺍﻏﺮ؛ ﻭﻣﻌﻄﻒ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻭ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺿﺎﻓﺖ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﻋﻤﻲ ﺇ�� ﻣﺎ ﺗﻘﺪﻡ ﺷﺎﻻﺕ ﻭ�ﻄﺎﻧﻴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ّ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻀﻤ�ﻱ ﻛﻄﻔﻠﺔ �� ﻣهﺪهﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﻣﻌﻄﻔﺎ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻌﺪﺗ�ﻱ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ‬‫ﺳﻔﺢ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ﻗﺎ ﺳﺎ ّ‬ ‫ﺻﻌﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺪ ّﺭﺍﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ�ﺔ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ َ‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻤﺾ ﻏ�� ﺑﻀﻊ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻔ‬ ‫ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﺃ�ﺝﺰ‬ ‫ﻛﺪﺕ‬ ‫ﺑﺤﻴﺚ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺔ‬ ‫��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻙ‬ ‫ﻧﺘﺤﺮ‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ ﺇﻧﻨﺎ ﻧﻮﺷﻚ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺒﻠﻎ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺔ ﻭﺇﻧﻨﺎ ﺳﻥﺒﺪﺃ ﺑﺎﻻﻧﺤﺪﺍﺭ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺟﺪﺍ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻣﻞ �� هﺬﻩ ﺍﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺑﺄﻻ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ‬ ‫ٍ ِ‬ ‫‪،‬‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ‬ ‫ﻝ‬‫ﺃﻃﻮ‬ ‫ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﺳﻨﻘﻄﻊ‬ ‫ﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﺇﻧ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺿﺎﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻧﺰﻋﺎﺝ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺷﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ��ﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺤﺮﻙ ﻳﻘﺮﻗﺮ ﻭ��ﺪﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺪﻭﻗﻴﺔ �� ﺴﺏﺐ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺻﺎﺭ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ﺗﺼﻠهﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺪ ّﺭﺍﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ�ﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺗﺒﺎﻃﺄﺕ ﺳﺮﻋﺘﻨﺎ ﻭﺧﻔﺖ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻗﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﻼ�ﻯﻯ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺤﺮﻙ ﻭﺗﻮﻗﻔﻨﺎ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ‪.‬ﺑﻘﻲ ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺪ ّﺭﺍﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ‬‫ﺻﻮﺕ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺜﻘﺐ �� ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﻮ�� ﺍﳌﺠﺪﻭﻝ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻏﻄﻰ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ‬
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‫ﻣﻨﺤﻦ ﻓﻮﻗهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻧ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺭﺍﻋ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺼﺮﻓﻪ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ �ﻌﻄﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻗﺘﻀﺎﺏ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺘﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﺍﺗﺠﺎهﻪ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻏﻄﻴ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺕﺸﺎﺑﻜﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ‬ ‫ﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻭﺛﻘﻴﻠﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺍﻙ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺑ�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻭﺗﻱﺖ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﺩﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺪ ّﺭﺍﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺕ�ﺡ��ﺎ ﺃﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺇﻋﺎﺩﺓ �ﺸﻐﻴﻠهﺎ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﻭﺳﻌﻨﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺑﺬﻟﺖ ﻭﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺤﺮﻙ ﺑﻘﻲ ﺻﺎﻣﺘﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺑﻠﻎ ﺍ��ﺎﻙ ﻣﻨﺎ ﻣﺒﻠﻐﻪ‪ ،‬ﻧﺼﺏﻨﺎ ﻗﺎﻣﺘ ْﻱﻨﺎ ﻭﻭﻗﻔﻨﺎ ﺑﻼ ﺣﺮﺍﻙ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﻥ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻛﻮ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺮ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺤﺸﻮ ﺓ �� هﺬﺍ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻭﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻘﺪﻡ ﻭﻟﻮ ﺧﻄﻮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺣ�ﻯ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﱠ ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﺼﺏﺒﺖ ﻋﺮﻗﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺩﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺪ ّﺭﺍﺟﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﻮ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟ��ﻭﺩﺓ ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻓﺨﺸﻱﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺰﻉ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺳﺮﻉ �� ﻃﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺄﺑﻘﻰ هﻨﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺻﻮﺍ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬هﻞ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺳﺕﻨﻘ��ﻱ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﺻﻮ�� ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ؟ ﺳﺘﻤﻮﺗ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ��ﺩ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺫﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺳﺮﻉ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ �ﺡﻜﺖ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻭﺗ�ﺡﻜ�ﻥ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ؟ ﺃﻧ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺎﺕ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺎﺕ ﻓﻌﻼ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺪﻭﻗﻴﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺭﺣﻴﻞ ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ ﻭﻏﻄﻴﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﺎﻻﺕ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻧﻴﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﳌﻌﺎﻃﻒ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻼﻣﺲ ﺑﺪ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺠﻤﺪ ﺣﻮ�� ﻣﺜﻞ ﻣﺸﺎﺑﻚ ﺛ�ﺝﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺧﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﺍ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻨﺝﺡ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﱠ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻖ ﻻﺷﺘﺪﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻌﺘﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺮﺅ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺓ‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﺩ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺪ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ‬ ‫�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﺘﻌﺎﺩ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ﺧﻄﻮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﻮﻗﻮﻓﻚ ﺑﻼ ﺣﺮﺍﻙ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺪﺛﺮﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﻭﺇﻻ ﺳﺕﺘﺠﻤﺪﻳﻦ‬
‫ﻭﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ’’ ‪ِ :‬‬
‫�� ﺍﻟﺜ�ﺝ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭ‬
‫�� ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ﻭﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻏﻄﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺇﺣﺴﺎ��ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟ��ﺩ �ﺸﺘﺪ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺮ ﺭ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪.‬‬‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺤﺮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻢ �ﺴﻤ�� ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﺣﻤﻘﺎﺀ‪ِ ،‬‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ’’ ‪ِ :‬‬
‫�ﺎﻑ ﻟﺘﺤﺮ�ﻚ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻋﺪﺍ ﺫﺭﺍ��‪ّ.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ﺣ��ّ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ��‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﺍ ﻟﻦ ُﻳﺠﺪﻱ ﻧﻔﻌﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ َ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺣﺴﺏﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﺭﺟ� ّ� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﻨﺪهﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺗﺤﺮ�ﻜهﻤﺎ ﺑﻼ‬
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‫ﻋﻮﺍﺋﻖ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺘﺤﺮ�ﻚ ﺭﺟ�� ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ�� ﻭﺃﺳﻔﻞ‪ ،‬ﺍﻭ�� ﻓﺎﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺮﻙ ﺟﺴﻤﻲ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﺮﺍﺭﺓ �ﺴﺮﻱ �� ﺟﺴﺪﻱ‬ ‫ﺫﻟﻚ ّ‬
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‫ﺩﺍﻉ ﻟﻠﻘﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ �ﻌﺒﺖ ﻭﺗﺒﺎﻃﺄﺕ ﺣﺮ�ﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﺟﺐ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻱﺲ هﻨﺎﻙ ٍ‬
‫ﺃﺟﺮ َ‬
‫ﺟﺮ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﳌﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻛﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺣﺎ�� ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻏﻨﻱﺖ؟‘‘‪ ،‬ﻓﺒﺪﺃﺕ �ﻐﻨﺎﺀ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻴﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻛﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺪﺳﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﺖ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻏﻨﻴﺔ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻴﺎ ﻟﺘﺤﺮ�ﻚ ﺭﺟ��‪ ،‬ﻓﻐﺎﺏ ﻋﻦ ﺑﺎ�� ﳌﺪﺓ ﻭﺟ��ﺓ ﺇﺣﺴﺎ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻌﺐ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﻏ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻱﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ ّﻱ ﺍﻭﻝ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﻓﺮﺩﺩﺗﻪ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺧﻤﺲ ﻭﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﻧﻘﻄﻊ ﺻﻮ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﺒﺤﻮﺡ« ‪:‬ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ ﺩﺍﻓﺌﺔ ﺑﺘﺤﺮ�ﻚ ﻓﻤﻲ‪».‬‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ‬
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‫ﻋﻠﺖ ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﻃﺒﻘﺔ ﺳﻤﻴﻜﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻘﻴﻊ ﺍﳌﺘﺠﻤﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺴﺒ��ﺎ ﺑﺪﺃ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻳﺘﺠﻤﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ‬
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‫ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺧﺸﻱﺖ ﺇﺿﺎﻋ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻧﺰﻋ��ﺎ ﻭﻣ�ﺡ��ﺎ ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺠﺪﻭﻝ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ‪.‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ ْ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻮ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻛ�� ﻋﺘﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﺣﻮ�� ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺰﻋ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻋﺮ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄﻥ‬
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‫ﺑﻜﺜ�� – �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﻗﺪ هﺒﻂ ﺃﺳﺎﺳﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻋﺮ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ��‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﺍﳌﻜﺴﻮﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﻘﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻥﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺳﺎ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺝﺰ ﻛهﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺇﺳﺘﺤﻮﺫ ﻋ�� ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﻱ ﺍﻥ ‪.‬ﻓﻤﺒﺎﺭﺣﺔ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺧﻄﺮﺍ‬
‫ﻋ��‪ ،‬ﻹﻣ�ﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻧﺰﻻ�� ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻘﻮﻁ‪ ،‬ﻓﻤﻼﻗﺎﺓ ﺍﳌﻮﺕ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻛﺔ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﺏﺐ �� ﺃﳌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺘﺨﻮﻓﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌﺎﻭﺩﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻛﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﺳ��ﻳﺢ ّ‬
‫ﳌﺪﺓ ﻭﺟ��ﺓ ﻭﺣﺴﺐ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺿﻴﻘﺖ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻠﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺥﻨﺎﻕ ﺑﻘﺒﻀ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻴﺪﻳﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺳﻜﻦ ﺑﺪ�ﻲ ﺣ�ﻯ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺮ�ﻲ ّ‬ ‫هﻴﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫هﻴﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ’’ ‪ّ :‬‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻢ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻋ�� ﻛﻔﺎ�� ﻟ�ﺡﻔﺎﻅ ﻋ�� ﺣﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﺟﺴﻤﻲ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺃﺑﺖ ﻗﺪﻣﺎﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀﻌﻴﻔﺘﺎﻥ ﺑﺏﺴﺎﻃﺔ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺤﺮ�ﺎ ﺳﻨﺕﻴﻤ��ﺍ ﺁﺧﺮﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺮ�ﻲ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻴﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻻ ��ﻱﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﺑﻠ�ﺝﺔ ﺁﻣﺮﺓ’’ ‪ّ :‬‬
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‫ﻋﻠﻘﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺠﺪﻭﻝ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﻭﺃﻭﻗﻌﺖ ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺳﺎﺭﻋﺖ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺚ ﻋ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺟهﺸﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺒ�ﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫«ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﻜﻮﺙ هﻨﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ ﻭﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ ﻋ�� ﻗﻴﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ»‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻣ�ﺡ‬
‫ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﺎﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺤﺴﺴ��ﺎ ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺘﺨﺒﻂ ﺑﺮهﺔ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺣﺎﺩﺍ �ﺎﻥ ﻋﺎﻟﻘﺎ �� ﺃﺫ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﻮﺱ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃ�ﺡﻚ ﻭﺃﺑ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺫﺍﺗﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺫﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﻋﻤﻮﺩ ﻓﻮﻻﺫﻱ ﺑﺎﺭﺩ �� ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻋﻤﻮﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺮﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺘﺤﺮ�ﻚ ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﺑﺒﻂﺀ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ« ‪.‬ﺃﻋ��‪،‬‬ ‫«ﺃﻋ�� ﻓﺄﺳﻔﻞ»‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺃﺳﻔﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋ��‪ ،‬ﺃﺳﻔﻞ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻛﺮﺭ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﺎﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﻜﺮﺕ �� ﺍﻟﺬﺋﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﺪﺛﺘ�ﻱ ﻋ��ﺎ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﻋﻤﻲ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﺄﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻮﺱ ﺳﻔﻮﺡ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ ��‬‫ُ‬ ‫ﻗﻄﻌﺎﻥ ﺟﺎﺉﻌﺔ ﻣ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺟﺎﺀﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻨﻠﻨﺪﺍ ﻭ�� ﻻ ﺗ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺃﻭﺳ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻋﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻪ ﺟﺪ�ﻲ هﻮﻏﺴﻱﺚ �ﺝﻌﻠهﺎ ﻃﻴﻌﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻭﺩ�ﻌﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻓﺮ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻯ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﻮﺍﺏ ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺘﺨ��ﻲ ‪.‬ﻭﻓﻜﺮﺕ‪ ،‬ﺑﺄﻥ هﺬﺍ �ﺎﻥ هﻮ‬
‫ﺣﺎ�� ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﺳﺘﻔﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺗ��ﻴﺄ ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﻤﺮﺍﺭﺓ« ‪:‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺗﺨﻮ�ﻒ ﺃﺭﻧﺐ ﺇﻥ‬
‫ﺳﺎ�� ﺗﺰﻧﺎﻥ ﺃﻃﻨﺎﻧﺎ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﺣﺘﺠﺖ ﺇ�� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﺟﺪﺍ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﳌﺠﺮﺩ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺳﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﻧﺎهﻴﻚ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻡ ﻟﺘﺤﺮ�ﻜهﺎ ﻓﻌﻼ‪.‬‬‫ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩ ﻟﺘﺤﺮ�ﻚ ّ‬
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‫ﻓﻌﺖ ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﺑ�ﻠﺘﺎ َﻳﺪ ّﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻓﺈ��ﻤﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺒﺪﻭﺍ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺧﻄﺮﺕ ﺑﺒﺎ�� ﻓﻜﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺭ‬
‫ﺛﻘﻴﻠﺘ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ �ﺴﺎ�� ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ ﻭ�ﺪﺃﺕ ��ﺡ��ﺎ ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ�� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺗﻮﺍﺯ�ﻲ ﻭﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﺳﻘﻂ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻕ �ﺴﻴﻞ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺳﺎﺋﺮ ﺑﺪ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫هﻤﺴﺖ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻤﺎﻟﻜﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﺣﺎﻟﻚ ﺍﻥ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺇﻧ ِﻚ ﻟﻮ‬
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‫ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺈﺧﺮﺍﺝ ﻗﺪﻡ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓهﺬﺍ �ﻌ�ﻱ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺿﻌ�ﻱ ﻻ ﻣﺤﺎﻟﺔ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻌﺎﺱ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻏﺎﺿﺒﺔ’’ ‪ّ :‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﺖ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣ��ﻜﺔ‪ِ ،‬‬‫ﺎﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﻮﻗﻔﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣهﻤﺎ ِ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺇﻳ‬
‫ﻣﻌ�ﻯ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻌﺎﺱ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟ��ﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺪﻑﺀ ﻣﺮ�ﺢ ﻳﻠﻔ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺇﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﻱ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﺮﻛﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻔﺼﻞ ﺑ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻭﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺧﻼﻟهﺎ‬ ‫هﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ �� ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺭﻏﻢ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﺼﻠﺐ ﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺘﺤﺮ�ﻚ ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ�� ﻭﺃﺳﻔﻞ �ﺎﻥ ﻃﻮ�ﻼ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺃﻇﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺪ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ‪.‬‬
‫ﻧﻠﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺮ�ﺪﻳﻦ؛ ﻗﻀﺎﺀ ﻋﺸﻴﺔ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ‪.‬هﻨﺎﻙ �� ﺃﺭﺽ‬‫ﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ِ ،‬‬
‫ﺃﺣﻼﻣﻚ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﺎﻟﻴﺔ؛ �� ﺃﻭﺳ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻱﺲ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍ��ﺎﺭ ﺃﻗﺰﺍﻡ ﺗﺠﻌﻠهﺎ ��ﺪﺭ‬
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‫ﺍﻥ ‪�.‬ﻠهﻢ ﺗﺠﻤﺪﻭﺍ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺭﺗﺠﻒ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻧﻔﻀﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﺛﺮ ﻋ�ﻱ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻭﻭﻗﻔﺖ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺔ ‪.‬ﻧﺰﻋﺖ ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﻭﺃﺟهﺪﺕ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟ��ﻛ�� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣﻮﺭ ِﺗﻦ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺻﻔ�� ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺢ ﻭﺣﺪﻩ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫«ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻣﻮﺕ»‪ ،‬ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺃﻋ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ «،‬هﻞ �ﺴﻤﻌ�ﻱ؟ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻣﻮﺕ‪».‬‬

‫ﻣﻤﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺮﺍ�ﻲ �� ﺑﺮ�ﺪﺍﻟ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ّ‬
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‫�� ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺇﺳﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻭﻋﻱﻱ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻋﺎﺩ ﻣﻮ ِﺗﻦ ﺇ�� ﺗﻴﻥﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺛﺎﺭﺕ ﺛﺎﺋﺮﺓ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻲ ‪ّ .‬ﺍﺗﺼﻠﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺎﻣﻠﺔ �� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟهﺎﺗﻒ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻃﻠﻖ ﺍﳌﺴﺆﻭﻝ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺇﻧﺬﺍﺭﺍ ّ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ّ‬
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‫�� ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺩﻱ ﺑﺄﺳﺮﻩ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻧﻄﻠﻖ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺪ ّﺭﺍﺟﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ�ﺔ ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺰﻻﺟﺎﺕ ﻭ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺰﺣﺎﻟﻴﻖ ﻭﻋ�� ﺻهﻮﺍﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﺎﺩ ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻗﺪﺍﻡ ﺑﺤﺜﺎ ﻋ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻗﻤﺔ‬‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﻊ ﺃهﻞ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻒ ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠهﻢ ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫ﺇ��‪ّ ،‬‬‫ﺍﻟﻨﺠﺪﺓ ﺧﻤﺲ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻟﻠﻮﺻﻮﻝ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ َ‬
‫ﻌ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ �‬
‫ﻗﺪﻣﻲ هﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﺍﻥ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻤﺪﺍ ﻓﺤﺴﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺣﺎﻟهﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺐ ﻓﻌﻼ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻌ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻛﺪﺕ ﺃ��ﻯﻯ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﺘﺏﺖ ﺇ��ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻋ�� ﺭﺟﻮ�� ﺇ�� ﺃﻣ��ﺎ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ ﺑﺎﺗﻮﺍ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺪﺭﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻋﻤﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻭﺳ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ �ﻌﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻣﻀﺖ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻋﺸﻴﺔ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ‬
‫ﺩﺍﻝ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻤﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺫهﺒﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺇ�� ﺃﻭﺳ��ﺩﺍﻟ�ﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ �� ﺣﺰ�ﺮﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ هﻨﺎﻙ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺎ ﻭﻗﺘﺌﺬ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ ﻣﻌﺘﺪﻻ ﻭﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺪﺏ �� ّ‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﺩﻋﺘ�ﻱ ﺁﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺍﺑﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﻣﻌهﺎ �� ﻧﺰهﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﻮﺭﻧﺎ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﺡ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺳﻌﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫��‬
‫ّ ّ ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻧﻄﻠﻘﻨﺎ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺟﺒﻞ‬ ‫ﺔ‬ ‫ﻗﻤ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻧﺤﺪﺍﺭ ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧﻨﺎ ﻗﻄﻌﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ ﺟﺮ�ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺁﻥ‬
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‫ﻣﻌﺘﺎﺩﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﻠﻜﻨﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺳﺮﺕ ﻭﺭﺍﺀهﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺐ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺧﻄﻮﺓ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻱ ﺧﻮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻮﻁ ‪�.‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﻤﻌهﺎ ﻭ�� ﺗﺨﻄﻮ ّ‬ ‫ّﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ّ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﳌﺲ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﺑﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻋ��ﺎ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻜﺬﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﻳﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺿﻊ َ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺋﻤﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﻀﺮﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻳﻥﺒ�� ‬
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‫ﺑﺨﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺯﻥ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ �� ﻣﻌﻪ ﺃﻥ ��‬ ‫ﻏﻄﺖ ﺳﻔﺢ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﻞ ﺃﻛ�� ﻃﻼﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻄ��ﺍﻥ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺑﺬﻟﺖ ﺟهﺪﺍ �ﺎﻓﻴﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺪﻓﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻮﻝ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﻋ�� ﺟﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﺴﺎﺭﻧﺎ ﻧﺰﻭﻻ ﻋ�� ﺍﻭﺩﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻘﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ َ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺁﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻓﺤﺴﺐ ‪.‬ﺳﺎﻟﺖ ﺷﻼﻻﺕ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ‬ ‫ﻗﺒﻞ‬ ‫ﺕ‬ ‫ﺪ‬ ‫ﺗﺠﻤ‬ ‫ﻗﺪ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫�ﺎ‬ ‫ﺃ�‬
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‫ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﳌﻨﺤﺪﺭﺍﺕ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﺫهﻠﺘﻨﺎ ��ﺪﻳﺮهﺎ ﺍﳌﻔﺎ�� ﻭ�� ﺗﺘﺪﻓﻖ ﻧﺤﻮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺩﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﻗﻤﺔ ﻣﻮﺭﻧﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ َ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻏﺮ�ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺭ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﻮ�ﺎ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻠﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪.‬ﺃﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﺁﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ‪.‬‬‫ﻭﺟﻠﺴﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺥﺮﺓ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﻭﺃ�ﻠﻨﺎ ﺍ�ﺥ�� ﻭﺟﺒﻨﺔ ﺍﳌﺎﻋﺰ ﻭﺍﺣﺕﺴﻱﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻘهﻮﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻃﻴﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﺍﻕ ﺗﻨﺎﺩﻱ �ﻌﻀهﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﻣﻦ ﻋ�� ﻗﻤﻢ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺤﻴﻄﺔ ﺑﻨﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﻜﻨﻨﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺃﺻﻮﺍﺕ ﻗﻠﺔ ﻣ��ﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻗﻮﺓ ﻏﻨﺎ��ﺎ ﺯﺍﺩﺕ ﺗﺪﺭ�ﺠﻴﺎ ﺣ�ﻯ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻤﻨﻌﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻴ�� ﺑ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺪﺍﺀﺍﺕ‬‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺟﻮﻗﺔ �ﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻣ��ﺎ؛ ّ‬
‫ﻹﺍﺟﺎﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﻨﻔﺼﻠﺔ ﻟﻠﻄﻴﻮﺭ ﻭ�� ﻐﺎﺯﻝ ﺃﻗﺮﺍ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﺃﻧﻔﺎﺳﺎ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ‬
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‫ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ُﻳﺨﺮﺝ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺷﺎﺋﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺋ� ّﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻨﻌﺶ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﻓﺔ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻣﻌهﺎ‬
‫ﻀﺏﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺭﺟﻮﺍﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻓﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺑﺪﺕ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻗﻌﺔ ُﻣ ّ‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺟهﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺬهﺐ‪ ،‬ﺑﺰﻏﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻠﻔﻨﺎ ﻭ�� ﺗﺕﺴﻠﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺟﺮﻑ ٍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻕ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻚ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺁﻥ ﻭ�� ﺸ�� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﺗﺠﺎﻩ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻟﺴﻮ�ﺪ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ ﻋ�� ﺍﻣﺘﺪﺍﺩ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ُ� ُ‬
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‫ﺸ�� ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﺁﻥ‪ ،‬ﻏ�� ﺇ�ﻲ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬
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‫�ﺥﺺ ﺃﻋﻤﻰ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻪ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻂ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﻇﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ‬
‫ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ��ﺬﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻧﺘ�ﻯ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺇﻗﺎﻣ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻐﺎﻣﺮﺓ ﻣﺠﻴﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﺣﺰﻧﺖ ﳌﻔﺎﺭﻗﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻝ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ �ﺎﻥ �� ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻒ ﻣ�� ‪.‬ﺑﻜﻴﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﻋﺒﺜﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺟﻮﻥ ﻭﺗﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻱﻨﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺧﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﺷﺎﻃﺊ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﻴﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻟﻢ ﻓﺮﺍﻕ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﺣﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺗﺮﻛ��ﻢ ﻭﺭﺍﺉﻲ ﺧﻔﺖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﻥﺘﻈﺮ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﺍﺭﺽ ﺍﻟﺼﻠﺒﺔ ﻟﻠﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﻋ�� ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻄﺄ‬
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‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃه�� ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻟﻌﻮﺩ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺑﻼﺩﻱ ﻭﻹﻣ�ﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻌﺎﻭﺩ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ �ﺥﺼﺎ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍ ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ – ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﳌﺮﺃﺓ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﺎﻣ�ﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻧﻴﻒ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻏﺎﺩ َﺭﺕ هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ﻣﺤﺒﻄﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ‬
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‫�ﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻱﺶ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻭ�� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺧ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺠﺮ�ﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﺎ�ﻊ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﺮﺟﺖ ﻋ�� ﺷﻴ�ﺎﻏﻮ‬ ‫ﺗﻤﻠﻜﺘ�ﻱ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ �� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺩ ﻣﻦ ﻭ�ﺎﻻﺕ ﺗﻮﻇﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ﻹﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻼﺕ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺪﺭﺍﺀ ٍ‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﻣﻨﺼﺒﺎ ﺟﻴﺪﺍ �� ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ��‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍ ��’’ ‪:‬ﺳﻨﺆﻣﻦ ِ‬
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‫ﺍﻗﻞ ﺑﻤﻨﺼﺐ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺛﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫�ﻌﺪﻙ ﻋ��‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻓﻴﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻴﺔ‪،‬‬‫�ﻠ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﻣﺪﺭﺍﺀ ﻭ�ﺎﻻﺕ ﺗﻮﻇﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳ�ﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻮﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﻡ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﺑﺈﻣﻌﺎﻥ �� ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻼﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ّﺑﺪ ّﺃ��ﻢ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﻢ ﻳﻨﻈﺮﻭﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﻏﺎﻣﺮﺓ �� ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻠﻖ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺍ�ﺥﻮﻑ‬ ‫ﺭﺍﺿ�ﻥ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻏ�� ﻣﻌﻘﻮﻝ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻤﻨﻌ�ﻱ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻮﻇﻴﻔﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺭ�ﺪهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻏﺪﺍﺓ ﺭﺃﺱ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﺷﺘﻐﻠﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﺑﺏﺴﻤﺎﺭﻙ ��‬
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‫ﻭﻻﻳﺔ ﻧﻮﺭﺙ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﳌﻨﺼﺐ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻛﺴﺐ ﺍﳌﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺳﻌﺪﺕ ﺑﻘﺒﻮﻟﻪ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺗﺪﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺗﺰ ّﻭﺟﺖ �� ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻠﺔ ﻓﺤﻠﻠﺖ ﻣ�ﺎ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻈﻴﻤ�ﻥ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ هﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺒﺏﺖ �ﺴﻤﺎﺭﻙ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻌﺪﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺭﺟﻠ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺑﻴﻮﻟﻴ��‪ ،‬ﻧﺎﻇﺮ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺳﺎﻛﺴﻔﻴﻚ‪ ،‬ﻣﺪﻳﺮ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ْ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ‬
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‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴ�ﻥ ﻭﻧﺏﻴﻠ�ﻥ ﺑﺄﺟﻤﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌ�ﻯ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻌﻠ َﻤ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺒﺏﺖ ﻋﻤ�� ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﺑﻘﻴﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ �� ﺻﻔﻮﻑ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ �ﻌ��ﺿ�ﻱ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻃﺎﻗ�ﻱ ﺳﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺇ�� ﺟﻌﻞ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺇﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻣﺸﻜﻼﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺎﺣﻴﺔ ﺍﻧﻀﺒﺎﻁ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺸﻮﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺯ ّﻭﺩﺗ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻥﺘ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺘ�ﻥ ﻗﻀﻴ��ﻤﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻔﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻤﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺩ ّﺭﺳهﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻗﺪﻣهﺎ ﻟﻠﻄﻼﺏ‪.‬‬‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺯ�ﺝ�ﻱ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺍﺭﻱ ﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻣﻨﺬ‬
‫ﺗﻠﻘﻴﺖ ﺑﻀﻊ ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮﺍﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺩﺭﺳﺖ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌهﺪ ﻧﻮ�ﻞ �� ﺃﻭﺳﻠﻮ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺆﺗﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﳌﻲ ﻟﻠﺴﻴﺪﺍﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺎﺕ هﻨﺎﻙ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧﻪ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺗﺤﻀ��ﺍ ﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺴهﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺃﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ‬
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‫ﻣﺘﻘﺪﻣ�ﻥ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ؛‬ ‫ﺑﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﳌﺠهﺪﺓ ﳌﺠﺎﺭﺍﺓ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ�ﻲ ﺃﺣﻔﻆ ﻋﻦ ﻇهﺮ ﻗﻠﺐ ﺃﻏﻠﺐ ﻣﺎ ﺩﺭﺳﻮﻩ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻗﻞ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻳﻥﺒ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺠﺪ‪ �� ،‬ﻣﺠﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻔﺮﺩﺍﺕ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺤﻔﻆ ﺩﺭﻭ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﻻﺳﺘﻼﻣﻲ ﻟﻜﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇ�ﻐﻤﺴﺖ ﻟﻌﺪﺓ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ �� ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﻓﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ﺻﺎﺧﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻓﺼﺮﺕ ﺃﺫهﺐ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻭﺃﺳﺮﺡ ﺷﻌﺮﻱ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺳﺕﻴﻘﻆ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻏﺴﻞ ﻭﺃﻟﺏﺲ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ؛ ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﺁ�ﻞ ﻭﺃﺷﺮﺏ ﻭﺃﺗﺮﻙ ﺍﳌﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ؛ ﻭﺃﺫهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺣﻱﻱ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ ﻭﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﻋ�ﻱ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻹﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻗﻠ��ﺎ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ ‪.‬ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻭﺍﺟﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻊ ﻣ��ﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺳﺏﺐ ��‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻔﻮ�� ﺣ�ﻯ‬
‫ﺇﺣﺮﺍﺟﺎ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﺎﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺤﺜﺖ �� ﻣﺨﺰﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻟﻠﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺳﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ‬
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‫ﺗﺎﻟﻱﺴﻤﺎﻥ )ﻟﺴﻜﻮﺕ ‪.‬ﺧﺎﺏ ﺃﻣ�� ﺴﺏﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ( ‪ The Talisman‬ﺫﻱ‬
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‫ﻣﻜﺜﻔﺔ ﻟﻄﻼﺏّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻏ�� ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ‬
‫ﺣﻞ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬ ‫ﺍﻗﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻱ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋ�� ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻓ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺬﻟﺖ ﱠ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺕ« ﺫﻱ ْ‬
‫ﺗﺎﻟﻱﺴﻤﺎﻥ » ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻋﺪﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺀ ﺑﺘﻘﺪﻳﻤهﺎ ﻟﻄﻼ�ﻲ ‪�.‬ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﻗﺮ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻮﻗﺔ ﻟهﻢ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﺘﺎﺋﺞ ﻏ�� ﻣﻌﻘﻮﻟﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺐ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺟهﺪ ﻣﻤﻜﻦ �ﺝﻌﻠهﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ« ﺫﻱ ﺗﺎﻟﻱﺴﻤﺎﻥ»‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺎﻗﺸﻮهﺎ ﺑﺤﻤﺎﺳﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﺳﻤﻮﺍ �� ﻣﻨﺎﺯﻟهﻢ ﺻﻮﺭﺍ ﳌﺸﺎهﺪ ﻣﺴﺘﻮﺣﺎﺓ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻟﻴﻌﺮﺿﻮهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺯﻣﻼ��ﻢ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺧﺎﻃﻮﺍ ﻣﻼ�ﺴﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻟﺪﻣﻰ ﻟﺘﻤﺜﻴﻞ �ﺥﺼﻴﺎﺕ �� ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺻﻨﻌﻮﺍ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺴﻤﺎﺕ ﺧﺸﺏﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﺒﺎ�ﻲ ﻷﺍﺳ�ﺡﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻓﺮﻏﻮﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺔ ﻛﺘﺒﻮﺍ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ﺑﻨﺎﺀ ﻋ�� ﻌﺾ ﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻭﺍ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﺇﺛﺎﺭﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣ�ﺝﻌﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺍﻥ ﻣﻊ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺠﺮ��ﻱ ﻣﻊ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺔ‬
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‫ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﻛﻼﺳﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﺃﺣ��ﺎ ﻓﻌﻼ ﻭﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻟﻄﻼ�ﻲ؟‬
‫ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻮﻇﺎﺋﻒ ﺍﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺴﺆﻭﻟﻴﺎ�ﻲ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺪﺭ�ﺐ‬
‫ﺗﻢ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭهﺎ ﺃﺻﻼ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟهﺎ ُﻣﺨﺮﺝ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﺳﻤهﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻋ�� ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﻣﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫‪Old Days in Dixie.‬ﻭﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﻮ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻨﻮﺍﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﻮﺩهﺎ ﺍﺟﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻣﺎ�ﺴﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﻟ�ﺝﻨﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻢ ‪.‬ﺗﻮ�� ﻗﺴﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎ ��ﻴﺌﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﻼ�ﺲ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّﺃﺩﺕ ﺩﻭﺭ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﻧﺤﺼﺮﺕ ﻣﺴﺆﻭﻟﻴ�ﻱ �� ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺭ ‪.‬ﻭﺗﺒ�ﻥ‬
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‫ﻭﺗﺘﻠﻤﺲ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻤﺜﻞ‬ ‫ﺗﺘﺤﺴﺲ ﻃﺮ�ﻘهﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺃﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻴﺎﺀ ﺧﻄﻔﺖ ﺍﺿﻮﺍﺀ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃ��ﺎ ﻣﻜﻔﻮﻓﺔ ﻓﻌﻼ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺣﺎﻛﺖ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﻣﺜﺎ�� ﺍﻳﻤﺎﺀﺍﺕ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﻤ��ﺓ ﻟ�ﺥﺺ ﺃﻋﻤﻰ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻦ ﻭﺗﺘﻤﺘﻊ‬ ‫��ﺝﺒﻮﺍ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﺭﺓ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺧﻤﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﺑﺒﺼﺮ ﻣﻤﺘﺎﺯ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺄﻣﻮﺭ ﻛهﺬﻩ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ �� ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻳﻤﺾ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻋ�� ﻋﻮﺩ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﺖ ﻃﻠﺒﺎﺕ ﻟﻠﺘ�ﻠﻢ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻈﻤﺎﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺪﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺗﺎﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟهﺎﻱ ﻭﺍﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ‪ ،‬ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﻗﺒﻠﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺪﻋﻮﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﻛﻥﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺟﻤﻌﻴﺎﺕ ﻟﻠﻤﻌﻠﻤ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ ﺑﻠﻘﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺗﻮﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﻣﻌهﻢ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻟﻐﺔ ﺃﺟﻨﺏﻴﺔ ﻓﻌﻼ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ ��‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻤﺎﺭﺳﺔ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬‫ْ‬ ‫ﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻋ� َ� ﻋﻦ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺑ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻇهﻮﺭﻱ �� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺗﻮﺟ َﺐ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﺔ ﺃﺳﻮﺓ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﻣﻨﺤ�ﻱ ﺛﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻔﺲ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺟﻌﻞ �ﻌﺎﻣ�� ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺎﺀ ﺃ�ﺴﺮ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ �ﺎﻥ ﺇﺩﺭﺍﻙ‬ ‫ﻏ��‬
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‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﺎ ﻋﺎﺩﺗﺎ ﻋ�� ﺫﺍﻙ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻠﻔﺖ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﺇﻧﺕﺒﺎﻩ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﻗﻔﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻃﻠﺒ�ﻱ �� ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺱ ��‬
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‫�ﺴﻤﺎﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﺩﺍﻋﻴﺎ ﻟﻠﺕﺴﺎﺅﻝ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻋﻦ ﺭﺃ��ﻢ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ّﺃ��ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣﺎﻟهﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ّﻳﻤﺜﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺴﻨﺎ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ﻭﻗﺘﺬﺍﻙ �ﻌﻴﺪﺗ�ﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻧﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺘ�ﻥ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﻣﻘﺎﺭﻧﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﺘ�ﻥ �ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ّ‬ ‫َّ َ‬
‫ﺗﺮﺣﺒﺎﻥ �ﻲ �� ﺻﻮﺭ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﺒ�ﺝﺔ ﻣ�ﻯ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ ﺍﳌﺮﺁﺓ ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇ�� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻨﻌﻜﺴﺔ ‪.‬ﺑﻘﻲ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ﺿﻌﻴﻔﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺎﺭ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻐﻠﺐ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ �ﻌﻴﺪ ﻋ�� هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﻮ�ﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ �� ﺃﻓﻌﺎ�� ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺤﻔﻆ‬
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‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ �� ﺫﺍﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ �� ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻻ ﻳﺪﺭﻱ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺣﺪ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻭﺟ ّﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ��‬ ‫ﻋﺎﺟﺰﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﻠﻴﺌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺪﻭﺏ ‪ُ .‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺗﻄﻮ�ﺮ �ﺥﺼﻴ�ﻱ ﺑﺄﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻼ ﺑﺄﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺒ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺍﻧﻄﺒﺎﻉ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻱﺉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻮﻟﺪﻩ ﻓ��ﻢ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ ﻟﻠﻮهﻠﺔ ﺍﻭ��‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻋ�� ﺃﺣﺴﻦ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ �� ﺴﻤﺎﺭﻙ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻏﺪﻭﺕ ﻣﻔﻌﻤﺔ ﺑﺂﻣﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺃﺅﺳﺲ ﻣﻥ�ﻻ ﺻﻐ��ﺍ �� ﺑﺄﺳﺮﻉ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻤﻜﻦ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻭ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻜﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﻧﻥﺘﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﻣﻨﺬ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﺣﻘﺎ ‪.‬ﺻﺎﺭ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺔ هﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻕ هﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﻨﺎﺩﻳﻖ ﺗﺤﻮﻱ ﻣﻤﺘﻠ�ﺎﺗﻨﺎ ��‬
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‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﻨﺎ ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻣ�ﺎ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻊ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻳﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﺃﻏﺮﺍﺿﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻧﺤﺘﺎﺝ‬ ‫ﺎ‬ ‫ﻛﻨ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣ�ﺎﻥ‬ ‫�ﻞ‬
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‫�ﺴﺘﻘﺮ ��‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻣﺘﻼﻙ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺃﺩﻭﺍﺕ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣهﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﻗﻞ ‪.‬ﺍﺷ��ﻳﺖ ﻗﻤﺎﺷﺎ ﻟﻠﻤﻨﺎﺷﻒ ﻭ�ﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺨﻴﺎﻃﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﻖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ��‬ ‫ﺣﻮﺍ��ﻱ ﻟهﺎ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻳﺪﻭﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺇﻥ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ﺟﻴﺪ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻠﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﻴﺎﻃﺔ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺤﻠﻴﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺼ��‪.‬‬ ‫ﺫﺍﺕ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺎﺿﻱﺖ �� ﺴﻤﺎﺭﻙ ﺭﺍﺗﺒﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺭﺍﺗﺐ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻘﺎﺿﻱﺘﻪ ﺳﺎﺑﻘﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻣﻨﺼﺐ �� ﻭﺍﺗﺮ ﺗﺎﻭﻥ‬ ‫ُﻣﻨﺤﺖ ﺯ�ﺎﺩﺓ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ُﻋﺮﺽ ّ‬
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‫ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﻣﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ �� ﻠﻴﺔ ﺻﻐﺮ ‪،‬‬
‫ﻯ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ ﺳﺎﻭﺙ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ ﺣﻴﺚ �ﺎﻥ ﻋﻤ��‪�� ،‬‬
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‫ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﺒﻠﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺮﺽ ‪.‬ﺫﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ ﻣ�ﺡﻮ�ﺎ ﺑﺄﺳﻒ ﻛﺒ��‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ‬
‫�ﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﺇﻟ��ﻢ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺇﻗﺎﻣ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺓ �� ﺴﻤﺎﺭﻙ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺣﺎﳌﺎ ﺃﻟﻘﻰ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﺮ �� ﻭﺍﺗﺮ ﺗﺎﻭﻥ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻓﺎﺣﺼﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﻕ ﻟﻪ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﺍﻻﻡ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ﻓﻌﺎﻭﺩﺗ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺳﺏﺒ��ﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻋﻘﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺇﺣﺴﺎ��ﻱ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﻴﺒﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺑﺪﺕ ﺍﻥ ﻣﻀﺎﻋﻔﺔ ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﻇﻨﻥﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺎ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺻﻒ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻔﻮ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺪﻡ �� ﺃﻱّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻌﻠﻖ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺰﺭ ﺃﻱّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻗ��ﺍﺣﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ �� ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮﻩ �� ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺧﻔﻘﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﻳﺪﻱ‬
‫ﺣﻴﻠﺔ ﺇﺯﺍﺀ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﺖ ﻋﺮﺿﺎ ﻟﻠﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺳﻱﺘﺎﺡ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻨﺼﺐ‬
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‫ﻋﻤﻼ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺎ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻣﺠﺎ�� ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟ�ﺡﺎﻓﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺗﺐ ﻣﻐﺮ�ﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺿﺮ ﻭﺃﺟﻤﻠهﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺘ�ﻥ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮ�ﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻥ��ﺝﺔ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﻗﺪﻣﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﺒﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ُ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﺠﺮ��ﻱ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ �� ﻭﺍﺗﺮ ﺗﺎﻭﻥ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻨﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺰﻣﻲ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺃﺯﻟﺖ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺍﺋﻖ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌ��ﺿ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﺳﺕﺴﻠﻢ ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﺣﺐ ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﺎﻟﺰ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ٌ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ْ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻥﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺣﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ �ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ �� ﻣﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻘﻞ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺇﺯﻋﺎﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬ ‫ٍ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺎﻣﻞ ﺑﺄﻗ�ﻯﻯ ﺩﺭﺟﺎﺕ ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ َ‬‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺩ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻹﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﻣﻌﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻣﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻗﺪ ﺧﻀﻌﺖ ﻹﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺗﻨﻈﻴﻢ ﺷﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺃ��ﺎ ﻣﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﻗﺪﻳﻤﺔ ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃ�ﺎﺩﻳﻤﻴﺔ ﻭﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻋﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﺇ�� ﻠﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻌﻠﻮﻡ ﺍ�ﺴﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪� ،‬ﺴﺘﻐﺮﻕ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎ ْ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﺮ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﳌﻄﻠﻮﺏ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺃﺭ�ﻊ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ّ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺻﻌﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﺒﺎ�ﻲ ﻭﺍﳌﻥﺸﺂﺕ ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺏﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺠه��ﺍﺕ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺧﻼﻝ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻳﻤﻜ��ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﺨﺮ ﺑﻜﻮ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺆﺳﺴﺔ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻴﺔ ﺗﻀﺎ��‬ ‫ﺃﺳﺒﻮ�� ﺍﻭﻝ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺑﺄﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ �� ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺁﺧﺮ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﺃ�ﺡﺖ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻣﺬﺑﺤﺎ ﻗﺪﻣﺖ ﻟﻪ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺑ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺍﺭﺗﻘﺎﺀ ﺑﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠهﺎ‬
‫ﻃﻼ��ﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺎﻧﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺪﺳﺔ – ﻏﺪﺕ ﻋﻘﻴﺪﺓ ﺩﻳﻥﻴﺔ ﻣ��‪ �� ،‬ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ‬ ‫ﻭﺭﻓﺎهﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺗﺄﺳﺴﺖ ﻋ�� ﺃﻳﺪﻱ ﻣﺴﺘﻮﻃﻨ�ﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﺋﻞ‬ ‫ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻓﺎﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻮﻣﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻣﻮﺍﺛﻴﻘهﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻮﺍﺛﻴﻖ ﻋﻘﻴﺪ�ﻲ ‪�.‬ﺴﺒﺔ ﻣﺌﻮ�ﺔ ﻻ ﺑﺄﺱ ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﻦ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻗﺪ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﺻﺎﻏﻮﺍ ﺳﻴﺎﺳﺎ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻛهﻨﺔﺇﻧﺠﻴﻠﻴﻮﻥ �� ﻛﻨﻱﺴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺆﻣﻨﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
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‫ﻝ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﻪ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻟﻔﺖ ﻧﻈﺮ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﻣﺆﻟﻔﺎﺕ ﺃﺩﺑﻴﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻭﺃﺣﺎﻭ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ��ﻢ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﻭﺣ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ُﻣﻘﺘﻨﻌﺔ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﺩﺏ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﺪ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﻪ ﺗﺄﺛ��‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮهﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻔﺾ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻮ �� ﺣﻴﺎ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﺁﻣﻨﺖ �ﺴﺎﻭﺙ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ – ﺑﺄﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟهﺎ ﻣﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞ‬ ‫ٍ‬
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‫ﻷﺍهﻢ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻧﻤﺎ ﺣﺒﻪ ﺑﺪﺍﺧ��‪ ،‬هﻮ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻋﻈﻴﻢ ‪.‬ﻷﺍﻣﺮ ﺍﺧ��‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺆﻣﻨﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺤﻀﺮﻭﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺣﺼ�ﻱ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﻳﻮﻡ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺳﺖ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻣﻘﺮ ﺍﺕ ﻣﺘﻨﻮﻋﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ‪:‬ﺍﺩﺏ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ�� ﻷﺍﻣ��ﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻱ �ﺸﻮﺳ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺭﺍﻣﺎ ﻋﺼﺮ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺷﻜﺴﺒ��‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻣﺎ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ ﺍﻟﻔﻴﻜﺘﻮﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﻏﺔ ﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﺡﺎﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﳌﺪﺭ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻛﺕﺸﻔﺖ ﺃﻥ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﻓﺎ��ﻢ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬‫ْ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺖ ﺳﺎﺑﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺧﻄﻄﺎ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻭهﺎ‬ ‫ﻳﺆﺩ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻔ��ﺽ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺳﻴﺎﻕ ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩ‬‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺩﺏ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻟﻠﻤﺪ ّﺭﺳ�ﻥ �� ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺣﻞ ﺍﳌﺪﺭ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﺘﻘﺪﻳﻢ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫هﺬﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻘﺮﺭ ﺣﻈﻴﺖ ﺑﺘﻌﺎﻭﻥ ﺻﺎﺩﻕ ﻣﻦ ﻭﻛﻼﺀ ﺑﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ �� ﻣﻨﻄﻘﺘﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤ�ﻥ‬
‫�� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻭ�� ﻣﻨﺎﻃﻖ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻄﻼ�ﻲ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺘﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﺃﺩﺏ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻗﺪﻣﻮﺍ ﻟﻸﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺍﻓﻀﻞ‬
‫ﻗﺪﻣﺘﻤﻮهﺎ ﺑﺄﺳﻠﻮﺏ �ﺴﻴﻂ ﻭﻭﺍ�ﺡ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻴﻘﺪﺭﻭﻥ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺳﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﺇﺫﺍ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺎﻳﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻣﺸﻮﻗﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺳﻨﺤﺖ �� ﻓﺮﺹ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻷﺟﻌﻞ ﻋﻤ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ‬
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‫�ﺝﻌﺖ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺚ ﻋﻦ ﻣﺸﺎهﺪ ﻻﻓﺘﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺴﺎﺭﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺿﺖ ﻟهﻢ ��‬
‫�ﻌﺮﺽ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﺳﺕﻨﺪﺕ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﺍﻓﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﻱﻨﻤﺎﺋﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻣ�ﻯ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ُ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫�ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻧﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋ��ﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﺳﻠﻔﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﺴﺮﺣﻴﺔ ﺟﺎﺩﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺗﺰﺩﺣﻢ ﺑﻄﻼ�ﻲ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﻋﺮﺿهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮ ﺍﻭ�ﺮﺍ‬
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‫ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇ�� ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺎﻋﺪ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺗﺬﻭ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻤﻪ �� ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ ‪.‬ﻧﺎﻗﺸﻨﺎ ﻗﺼﺺ �ﺎﺭﻣ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭهﺎ�ﺴﻴﻞ ﺃﻧﺪ‬
‫ﻏﺮ�ﺕﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﺎﻭﺳﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏ��هﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺴﺮﺣﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ُﻋﺮﺿﺖ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤﺜﻨﺎ ﻋﻦ ِﺳ َ��‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺸﻔﻨﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺫﻱ ﺷﺄﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﺼﻞ ﺑﺎﻷﻭ�ﺮﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺘﺤﻔﺰ�ﻦ ﻟﻺﺳﺘﻔﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃ�ﻌﻠﻤﻪ ﻣ��ﻢ ﺑﻘﺪﺭﻣﺎ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻤﻮﻧﻪ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺒﺔ‬
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‫ﻣ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺩﺭﺱ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﺎﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﻭﺟﻪ ﺍ�ﺥﺼﻮﺹ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻋﻴﻮ��ﻢ ﻭﺁﺫﺍ��ﻢ ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ هﻴﻮﻱ ﻟﻮ�ﻎ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪ ‪.‬ﺳﺄﺫهﺐ ﻷﺟﺮﻱ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺔ �� ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ« ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ّ‬ ‫ّ ْ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺎﺭ�ﺮ ﻋﻨﻪ‪».‬‬ ‫ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ ﻣﻌﻪ ‪.‬ﺃﻭﺩ‬
‫ﻋﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻟﺐ ﻋﺼﺮ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﻌﻪ �� ﻓﻨﺪﻗﻪ ﻭ�ﻘﻲ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ‬ ‫«ﺇﻧﻪ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝ‪» ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻝ ّﺇﻧﻪ ﻗﺪ ﺻﻨﻊ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺴﺆﻭﻝ ﺣﻜﻮﻣﻲ �� ﻭﻻﻳﺔ ﻟﻮ�ﺰ�ﺎﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻥﺘﻘﻞ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻭﺍﺷﻨﻄﻦ �� ﺍﻟﻔ��ﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻣﺸﻮﻗﺔ ﻋﻦ �ﺥﺼﻴﺎﺕ ﻣﺸهﻮﺭﺓ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺟﺎﻧﻱﺖ‬ ‫ﺟﺎﺀ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺁﺧﺮﻭﻥ ﺑﻘﺼﺺ‬
‫ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪﺯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ �ﻮﻥ ﺃﻧﺪ ﺳﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﺭﻝ ْ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻧﺪﺑﻮﺭﻍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺛﻴﻮﺩﻭﺭ ﺭﻭﺯﻓﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺘﻐﻠﻴﺖ �ﻞ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺗﻮﻓ��هﺎ �� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻒ ﻭﺍﳌﺠﻼﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﺤﻤﺴ�ﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺘﻴﻘﻈﺔ ﻷﻭﺍﻛﺐ هﺆﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻛﺕﺸﻔﺖ‬
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‫ﻭﻣﺮﺍﻋﺎﺓ ﻟﻠﻤﻈهﺮ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻣﺨﺘﺎﺭﺍﺕ‬
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‫ﺃﺩﺑﻴﺔ ﻭﻛﺘﺒﺎ ﻣﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻳﻘﺘﻄﻒ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻓﻘﺮﺍﺕ ﻟﻠﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪.‬ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻧﻮﻉ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺙ‬ ‫ﳌﺤﺎﺿﺮﺍ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﻦ ﺑﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻭ ﺑﻤﻼﺣﻈﺔ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻀﻴ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺃﻳﻨﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺻﺮﺕ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺷﻐﻮﻓﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍ�ﺝﻴﺪﺓ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺫهﺒﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺃ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻳﺠﻤﻌﻮﻥ ﺑﻴ�ﻱ ﻭ�ﻴ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻱﺴﺄﻟﻮﻧ�ﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺭﺃﻱﻲ ﻓ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ��‬
‫ﺃﺣﺐ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ‬‫ﺿﻤﺖ �ﻌﻀﺎ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ‪�.‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻇهﺮﺕ ﻣﻘﺎﻻﺕ ﻋﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺟﻌﺎﺕ �� ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻣﻴﺔ‘ ﺃﺭﻏﻮﺱ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻴﺪﺭ ’�� ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﺎﻟﺰ‪ ،‬ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﺎﺀ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ �ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻭهﻜﺬﺍ ﺻﺮﺕ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ �� ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ ﻛﻥﺴﻴﺔ ﺗﻀﻢ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﺍﺋﻒ‬
‫ﻭﺍﳌﺬﺍهﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﻥﺴﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺪﻳﺔ ﻣﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺟﻤﻌﻴﺎﺕ �� ﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﺧﺮ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻭ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮ�ﺔ ﺍﳌﺤﻠﻴﺔ؛ ﺩﻋﺎ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﻟﻠﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﻮﻑ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬ ‫ﻣﺪ ّﺭﺳﻮﻥ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﺪﺍﺭﺳهﻢ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻭﺻﺎﺭﻭﺍ ﻳﻨﺎﺩﻭﻧ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﺳﻤﻲ ﺣ�ﻥ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻼﻗﻮﻧ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﻌﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺘﻼﻣﻴﺬ ّ‬‫ّ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﺍﺭ ﺳﻥﺘ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺮﺽ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺎ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ �ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺛﻨ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﺃﺛ��‬
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‫ﺇﺫﺍﻋﺔ ﻛﺴﻮ �� ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﺎﻟﺰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﺖ ﻣﺌﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﺋﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺳﻤﻌﻮ�ﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺮﺽ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﺬ�ﻊ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺑﺪﺀ ﺑ�ﻱ ﻷﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻮﺩ ﻗﻮﻟﻪ‬
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‫ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺇﻋﻼﻧﺎﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﻭﻻ ﻟﻠﻤﺴﺘﻤﻌ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻧﺼﺎﺕ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻷﻧﻪ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﺗ َﺏﺚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻷﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺎﻝ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺝﺮﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺗﺮﻙ ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﺣﺪﺙ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻷ�ﻲ ﺫهﻠﺖ ﻟﺴﻤﺎﻉ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺬ�ﻊ’’ ‪:‬ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺩﺍﻝ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ هﻨﺎ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﺫﺍﻋﺔ �ﺎﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻱ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻧﻮﻉ ﻟﺕﺴﺘﺨﺪﻣهﺎ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ �� ﺴﺘﻌﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ‪.‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺍهﺎ ﻭﺃﺳﻤﻌهﺎ‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺗﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻋﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺁﺧﺮ َ‬
‫ﻟهﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺎﺋﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺷﺎهﺪ��ﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻠﺖ �� ﺍﺫﺍﻋﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﺡﺝﻢ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻌﺮﺍ��ﻱ ﺫﻟﻚ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﳌﻔﺎﺟﺄﺓ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺨﻄﺮ ﺑﺒﺎ�� ﺃﻥ َﻳ�ﺡﻆ �ﺥﺺ ﺑﺄﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗ�ﻠﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﺇ�� هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻋﺪﻡ‬ ‫ﻣﺘﻠهﻔﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ﺇ�� ﻟﻔﺖ ﺍﻧﺕﺒﺎﻩ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻌﻤﺎﻟهﺎ ﻳﻤﺜﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺑﻘﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺿﺖ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �� ﺗﻘﺎ��ﻱ ﺃﻣﻮﺍﻝ ﻟﻘﺎﺀ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌﺮﺽ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻣﺴﺘﻤﻌﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻣﺎﻻ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﺒﻞ ﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺪﻣﻮﻩ �� ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺗ�ﻠﻔ�ﻱ ﻣﺒﺎﻟﻎ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔ ﺇ�� ﻣﺼﺎﺭ�ﻒ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‬
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‫ﻣﺘﻌﻠﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﳌﻮﺍﺻﻼﺕ ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻘﺎ�ﻯﻯ �� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ‬
‫ﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﺿﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﻓﻀﻮﻟﻴﺔ ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺑﺎﳌﺎﻝ ﺍﺿﺎ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺧﺮﺕ �ﻌﻀﺎ ﻣﻨﻪ �� ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻕ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬
‫ﺧﺎﺹ �ﻲ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺟﻨﻱﺘﻪ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻎ ﱠ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﺎﻑ ﻷﺷ��ﻱ ﺧﺰﺍﻧﺔ ﻧﻔﻱﺴﺔ ﻭﻃﻘﻢ ﺃﻃﺒﺎﻕ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻨﻒ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺧﺮ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺪ‬ ‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬ ‫ﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﺪ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺪﺟﻮﻭﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﻤﻌﺖ ﻣﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺴﻠﻤﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻣﻦ ﻭﻛﻼﺀ‬
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‫ﺑﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻭﺩﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻥﺸﺮ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌﻄﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺮﺽ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺃﻣﺎﻣهﺎ ��ﺥﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺿهﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺘﺎﺟﺮ ﺑﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺗﻘﺪﻡ ��‬
‫ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ��ﺥﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺮﺿهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺃﺛ�� ﺍﺫﺍﻋﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ّﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﺷ��ﻳﺖ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺩﻓﻊ ﺛﻤﻨﻪ ﻭﺃﻛ��‪.‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻣﻦ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭ�ﻌﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﻷﺳﺘﻌﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻊ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ّ‬
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‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺆﺳﺴﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﺼﺎ�ﺡ ‪ Book Review Guild of America.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﻠﻔﺘ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻌﺮﺍﺽ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ( ‪ Gone with the Wind‬ﺫهﺐ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺡ )ﻋﻨﺪ ﺻﺪﻭﺭﻩ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻀﺮ �� ﻣﺴﺆﻭﻝ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺳﻼﺕ ��ﺥ�ﻱ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺣﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺮﻱ ﺣﻮﻝ‬ ‫ُ َ ّ ْ‬
‫ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺍ ﺇ�� ﺣﺼﻮﻝ ﺗﺄﺧ�� ﺇﺭﺳﺎﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻃ ِﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺟﺎهﺰﺍ ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ‪.‬ﻣﻦ ﺣﺴﻦ ﺣﻈﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺣﺼﺺ‬
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‫ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﺭ�ﻊ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻀﻴ��ﺎ �ﻠهﺎ �� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻳﺔ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺇﻧ��ﻴﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻧﻘﺪﻱ ﺍﳌﻜﺘﻮﺏ ﺟﺎهﺰﺍ ﻟﻺﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﺇ�� ﺎﺗﺐ ﺍﻟﻄﺎ�ﻌﺔ ‪.‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ‬
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‫ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ؛ ﻭﻣﻊ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﻭﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻢ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﺗﻼﻣﺲ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺮﺭ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻓﻮﻗهﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻥ‬ ‫ﺭﻣﻮﺵ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ُﻣﻠ��ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻣﺘﻌﺒﺔ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺇﻧ��ﻴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﺭ�ﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ‪ 1932‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ّﺍﺩﺧﺮﺕ ﻣﺎﻻ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺴﺪﺍﺩ ﺩﻓﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ�� ﻣﻦ ﺛﻤﻦ‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻋﺰﻣﺖ ﻋ��‬‫ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺒﻠﺖ ﺑﻤﻨﺼﺐ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻕ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ ﻟﻘﻀﺎﺀ ﻋﻄﻠهﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻔﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭ ّ�ﻤﺎ ﻗﻀﺎﺀ ﻋﻄﻞ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﻴﻼﺩ‬
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‫ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺑﻴﺕﻨﺎ ﻣﺘﻮﺍﺿﻌﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﺆﻟﻔﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻃﺎﺑﻖ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻔﻲ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﺣﺘﻴﺎﺟﺎﺗﻨﺎ‪ّ ،‬ﺃﻣﺎ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻣﻜ��ﺎ ﺗﺪ ّﺭ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻗﺘﺼﺎﺩ ﺍﳌﻥ�� ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺭّ�ﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﻧﻤﻮﺫﺟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺳﺎﻋﺪﺗ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﺃﺛﺎﺙ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻭﺟﻌﻠﻪ ﻣ�ﺎﻧﺎ ﻣﺮ�ﺤﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻋﺎﺋﻠﻴﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺷهﺪﺕ ﻭﻻﻳﺔ ﺳﺎﻭﺙ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺯﺭﻋﻨﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺣﺪﻳﻘﺘﻨﺎ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﻮﺳﻢ‬
‫ﺟﻔﺎﻑ �� ﺗﺎﺭ�ﺨهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﺷهﺪﺕ ﺃﻣﻄﺎﺭﺍ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻣﺘﻌﺎﻗﺒﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇﺟﺘﺎﺣﺘﻪ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺷهﺮﺍ �ﻌﺪ ﺷهﺮ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫��ﺐ ﺭ�ﺎﺡ هﻮﺟﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻣﺤﺮﻗﺔ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ ﻋ�� ﺇﻣﺪﺍﺩﺍ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﻣﻦ ﺁﺑﺎﺭ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﺣﺒﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ ﻧﺰﻝ ﺑﻤﻌﻈﻢ ﻣﺎﻟ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﻴﺢ ﻟﻠﺴ�ﺎﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﺭ ّﻱ ﻣﺮﻭﺟهﻢ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ّﺃ��ﻢ ﺃﻭﻗﻔﻮﺍ ﻛﻔﺎﺣهﻢ ﻭﺗﺮﻛﻮﺍ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺮ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻤﺮ ﻭﻧﻮ�ﺎﺕ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﻓﻨﻴﺔ ﻣﻨﺎﺯﻟهﻢ �ﻌﻄﺶ ﻭ��ﺖ ﻟﻮ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻧﻔﺘﺢ ﻣﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺮﺷﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻛﺮ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪�� ،‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ �ﺡﻤﺎﻳﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﻟ�ﺝ��ﺍﺕ ﻷﺍﻋﺸﺎﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﻔﺎﻑ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﺗﻠﻤﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺟﺎﺀﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺢ ﺗﺤﺮﻕ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻮ�ﺴﺮﻭﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺳﺎﻋﺪﻧﺎ ﻋ�� ﺇﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﺣﺪﻳﻘﺘﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺘﻔﻘﺪ ﺣﺎﻟﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻨﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻋﻠﻴﻜﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻔﺎ ﺟﺬﻭﻉ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺑﺄﻛﻴﺎﺱ ﺍ�ﺥﻱﺶ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺗﻥﺸﺮﺍ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺎﺵ ﺍﻟﻘﻄ�ﻱ ﻓﻮﻕ ﻣﺮﺟﻜﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ��ﻱﺀ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺒﻘﻰ ﺣﻴﺎ ﺗﺤﺖ ّ‬
‫��ﺐ ﻛﺄﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﻟهﺐ ﻣﻨﺒﻌﺜﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺎﺭ ﻣﺸﺘﻌﻠﺔ �� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﻖ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌُﺤﺮﻗﺔ هﺬﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺮ�ﺢ ّ‬
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‫�� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ُﻳﻔ��ﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺰهﺮ ﻧﺒﺎﺗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻴ�ﺝ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺪﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺕ‬
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‫ﻗﻄﻊ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻗﺬﺭﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻓﺮﻭ ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻱ ﺭﺙ �ﺥﺮﻭﻑ ﻓﺎﺭ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺯهﺎﺭ ﻣﺜﻞ ٍ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺴﻦ ‪.‬ﺗﺨﻠﺼﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻔﺮ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺍ�ﺝﻔﺎﻑ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺗﻈهﺮ �� ﻓﻨﺎﺋﻨﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺣﻒ ﻷﺍﻛﻮﺍﻡ ﺍﻟ��ﺍﺑﻴﺔ �ﺝﺡﻮﺭ ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﺪ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻧﺕﺸﺮﺕ �� ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺣ�ﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻋﻠﺖ ﺍﺭ َ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺯﺭﻋﻨﺎﻩ؛ ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﺟﺌﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻧﻤﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺽ ﻃﺒﻘﺔ ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ‬
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‫ﻣﻜﺴﻮﺓ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻖ ﺍﺧﻀﺮ ﺍﻟﺰﺍ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﺗﺖ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﻀﻌﻴﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻮﺷﺎﺉﻊ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺑﺄﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇهﺮﺕ ﺭﻗﻊ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻝ‬
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‫ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ ﻧﻈﻴﻔﺎ ﻭﺟﺬﺍﺑﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﳌﺴﺎﺀ ﺣ�ﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺢ‬
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‫ﺼﺒ ُﺢ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ �� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺮﺷﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ُ‬
‫ﻳ‬ ‫ﺗﺘﻼﻋﺐ ﺑﺮﺫﺍﺫ ﺍﳌﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﳌﻨﺒﻌﺚ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺣﻠﻮﺍ ‪.‬ﺍﺷ��ﻳﻨﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺛﺎﺛﺎ ﻟ�ﺡﺪﻳﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﺪﻧﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺗﻨﺎﻭ َﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �ﻌﺪ ﻣﻐﻴﺐ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﺰﻭﺭﻭﻧﻨﺎ ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻮﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ��ﻢ ﻳﻥﺴﻮﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫هﻨﺎﻟﻚ ﺟﻔﺎﻑ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﻥ �� ﺣﺪﻳﻘﺘﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ �ﺴﺘﻤﺘﻌﻮ ﺑﺎﳌ��ﺀ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﻜﺘﺐ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
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‫ﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﻣﻌهﻢ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ‪.‬ﻭﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﺪﻭﺍﺕ ﺗﺒﺪﺃ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﻮﺍﻋﻴﺪ‬
‫�ﻐﺪﺍﺀ ﺧﻔﻴﻒ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻴﺢ ﻟﻠﻔﺘﻴﺔ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ �� ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻴﺪ ﻗﺪ ﺫﺍﺏ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﻴﺪ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺸ�ﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺘﺨﺬ ﻣﻘﺎﻋﺪﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﻛﺮﺍﺱ ﻣﺮ�ﺤﺔ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ‪� ،‬ﻐﺪﻭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴ�� ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻀﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ّ��‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺝﻔﺎﻑ ّ‬‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﺛﻘ��ﻢ ﻭ�ﺨ��ﻭﻧ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷﺪ ﻭﻃﺄﺓ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﻳﺠﻮﻝ �� ﺃﺫهﺎ��ﻢ ‪.‬ﻋﻠﻤﺖ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﺑﺎﺀ هﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺪﻣﻮﻥ ﺗ�ﺡﻴﺎﺕ ﺑﻄﻮﻟﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺰﺍﺭﻋ�ﻥ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺳ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻹﺑﻘﺎﺀ ﺃﺑﻨﺎ��ﻢ ﻭ�ﻨﺎ��ﻢ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ‪ُ .‬ﻭ� ِ� ﱡﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺼﺺ ﺃﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺎﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺘﻤﻜ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺍﺟﺪ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺃﺻﻼ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻢ ﻧﻨﻞ ﻗﻄﺮﺓ ﻣﺎﺀ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻣﻄﻠﻊ ﻓﺼﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻴﻊ ﺍﳌﺎ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻳﻨﻘﻞ ﻣﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﺏ �� ﺻهﺮ�ﺞ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻀﻄﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻱﺲ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﻮﺏ َ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺎﺀ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻴﻠﻮﻣ��ﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺘﺏﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ �� ﺭﺳﺎﻟ��ﺎ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ّﺃ��ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻡ ﻟﻐﺴﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺍﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﻌ��ﺽ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻨﺎ ﻓﻈﻴﻌﺔ ‪�.‬ﺴﺒ��ﺎ ﻳﺼﺒﺢ‬
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‫ﻳﻀﻄﺮﻭﻥ ﺇ�� ﺇﺑﻘﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺼﺎﺑﻴﺢ ﻣﺸﺘﻐﻠﺔ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﻮ ُﻣﻌﺘﻤﺎ ﺇ��‬
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‫�� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺣﺸﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﻓﺬ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻄﻦ ﳌﻨﻊ ﺩﺧﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ّﺃ��ﺎ ﺃﻧﺰﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺋﺮ ﻭﻭﺿﻌ��ﺎ ﻣﻊ ُ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺏﺴﻂ ��‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻎ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺀ ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺻﻨﺎﺩﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ �ﻌﺪ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺟﺪﻭﻯ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻓﻈﺔ ﻋ�� ﻧﻈﺎﻓ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺗﻘﻮﻝ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﻝ �� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍ��ﻱ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺗﻤ�ﺡ ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻻﺕ‬
‫ﻣ�ﺎﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻴﻊ ﺇ�� ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺰﺭﻋﺔ �� ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺋﺖ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺼﺏﻴﺎﻥ’’ ‪:‬ﻧﻘﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﻋﻈﺎﻣهﺎ ﻭ�� ﺗﻥﺘﺄ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﺑﻘﺮﺓ‬ ‫ﺇﺫ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻩ ﺑﺏﺴﺎﻃﺔ‬
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‫ﺣﻠﻮ�ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﻱﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻃﻌﺎﻣهﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﻗﺪﻡ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�� ﺻ�ﻱ �ﻌﻤﻞ �� ﻣﺼﺒﻐﺔ ﻓﻮﺭ ﺇﻧ��ﺎﺀﻩ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﻠﻪ‬
‫ﳌﻨﺎﻗﺸﺔ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺮﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺼ�� ‪.‬ﺩﻋﻮﺗﻪ ﻟﻴﺕﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ ﻣ�� ﻓﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ �ﺸﻌﺮ‬
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‫ﺑﺎ�ﺡﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﻹﺍ��ﺎﻙ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻭﺻﻮﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻣﻄﻤﺌﻨﺎ ﻭﻣﺮﺗﺎﺣﺎ‪� ،‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃ�ﻠﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺘ�ﺝﺒﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺇﻟ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻣﻨﻈﺮ ﺭﺍﺉﻊ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﺃﺗﻤ�ﻯ ﻟﻮ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻭﺿﻊ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ‬
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‫ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﳌﺮﺷﺔ ﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻋ�� ﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺩﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﻱﻨﻴﺔ �� ﻓﻨﺎﺀ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﺍﻋﺘﺎﺩﺕ‬
‫ﻟﺮ��ﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ّ‬
‫��ﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﻨﻈﺮ ﻓﻌﻼ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺣﻤﻞ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ّ‬
‫ّﺃﻣﻲ َ‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺁﺣﺎﺩ ﺷهﺮ ﺃﻳﺎﺭ ﺯﺍﺭﺗ�ﻱ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺃﻭ��ﻍ‪ ،‬ﺯﻣﻴﻠ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫�� ٍ‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺗﺰ ّﻭﺟﺖ ﻭﺃﻗﺎﻣﺖ �� ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﺍﻟﻐﺮ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻌهﺎ ﺯﻭﺟهﺎ ﻭﻃﻔﻼهﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ‬
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‫�ﻠ��‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺍﺑ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ِﻭﻟﺪ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﺪﺀ ﻣﻮﺳﻢ ﺍ�ﺝﻔﺎﻑ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗ�ﻯﻯ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ‬
‫ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺥﻀﺎﺭ �� ﺑﻠﺪ��ﻢ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺡ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺎﺭ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﻼﻡ ﺟﺎﺀ �ﻠ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻣﺴﺮﻋﺎ ﻭهﻮ �� ﻏﺎﻳﺔ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺛﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋﺎﻝ’’ ‪ّ :‬‬
‫ﺗﺨﻴ�� ﻳﺎ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﻥ �� ﻓﻨﺎﺀ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﺃﻋﺸﺎﺏ‪ ،‬هﻞ‬ ‫ٍ‬
‫�ﺴﻤﻌ�ﻥ ﻳﺎ ّﺃﻣﻲ؟ ﺃﻋﺸﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪ��ﺎ ﺃﻋﺸﺎﺏ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﺸﺎﺑﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﻭﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ ﺑﺄﺩﺏ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ �ﺴﻤﺤ�ﻥ �� ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻭﺱ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻣﻊ ﺭﻓﻊ ﺍﳌﻌﺎﻳ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﻴﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺕ ﺗﻄﻮ�ﺮ ﺍﳌﺪ ّﺭﺳ�ﻥ �� ﺍﳌﺪﺍﺭﺱ ﺍهﻠﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﳌﺆهﻼ��ﻢ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﻴﺔ ﺿﺮﻭﺭﺓ ﻣ��ﺍﻳﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ �� ﺳﻨﻮﺍ�ﻲ ﺍﻭ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺑﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﻮﻑ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬

‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭﺍﺕ ﺇﺭﺷﺎﺩﻳﺔ �� ﺍﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﳌﻨﻔﻌ��ﻢ‬
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‫ﺍﺭﺷﺎﺩﻳﺔ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋ�� ﻌﻮ�ﺾ ﻟﻘﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﻋﻤ�� هﺬﺍ ‪.‬ﻓﺎﻟﺼﺪﺍﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻗﻤ��ﺎ ﻋﻨﺖ �� ﺃﻛ�� ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻘﺪﻣﻪ �� ﺍﳌﺎﻝ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻃﻼ�ﻲ �� ﺗﻠﻚ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻘﺮﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻋﺪﺍ ﺍﺳﺘﺙﻨﺎﺀﺍﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺻﺎ ﻧﺎ�ﺝ�ﻥ ﺳﻌﺪﺕ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻥ �ﻌﻀهﻢ �� ﻣﻨﺎﺻﺐ ﺗﻨﻔﻴﺬﻳﺔ؛ ﺳﻴﺪﺍﺕ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝ؛ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ��ﻢ؛‬
‫ﻭ�ﻀﻌﺔ ﺯﻭﺟﺎﺕ ﻃﻤﻮﺣﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﻌﻴﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﻟﺘﻄﻮ�ﺮ ﻣﺴﺘﻮﺍﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ﺃﺻﻴﺎﻑ ﻣﺘﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻟﺘﻠﻘﻲ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻻ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗﺪ ّﺭﺱ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭ��‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺗﻨﺎ ﺷﺮﻗﺎ‬
‫ﺻﻴﻔﻴﺔ �� ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺖ �� ﺭﺣﻼ�ﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﻣﻊ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ��‪ ،‬ﻛﻮ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﻣﺘﻔهﻤﺔ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻭﺳﺎﻋﺪﺗ�ﻱ ﺑﻄﺮﻕ ﻻ ﺗﺤ�ﻯﻯ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ‬
‫ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ُﻣﻨﺤﺖ ﻭﺃﺳﺘﺎﺫﺍﻥ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺎﻥ ﺁﺧﺮﺍﻥ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺇﺟﺎﺯﺓ ﻣﺪﻓﻮﻋﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘ�ﺎﻟﻴﻒ ﳌﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺎﺗﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ُﺳﻌﺪﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﺑﺎﳌﻨﺤﺘ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺘ�ﻥ ﻧﻠ��ﻤﺎ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻨﺤﺔ ﻋﻨﺖ �� ﻣﺎ هﻮ ّ‬ ‫ﺳﺎﺑﻘﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺃهﻢ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟﻮﻩ ﻋﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻧﺝﺡﺖ‬
‫ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﻋﻱﺶ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﻛﺮ�ﻤﺔ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻛﺄﻱ ﺭﺟﻞ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻮﺳﻂ‬ ‫ﻛﺄﺳﺘﺎﺫﺓ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍ�ﺎﺩﻳﻤﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺧﻄﻄﺖ ﻷﻣ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ �� ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﺑﻥﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺟﺮﺕ ﻣﻥ��‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ ﻟﻠﺬهﺎﺏ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻋﻨﺪهﺎ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﺖ ﺻﺪﻣﺔ ‪�.‬ﻌﺜﺖ �� ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ‬ ‫�� ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ ﻭ�ﺖ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻓﺤﻮﺍهﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ��ﺎ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﻣﻨﺤﺘ�ﻥ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ��ﻤﺎ ﺳﺘﺨﺼﺼﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻟﻠﺮﺟﻠ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳﻦ ﻣﻨﺤﺎ ﻣ�� ﺍﺟﺎﺯﺓ ﺍﳌﺪﻓﻮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺎﻝ �ﻌ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺜ��‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﺨﻮﺭﺓ ﺟﺪﺍ ﺑﺈﺟﺎﺯ�ﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻓﻮﻋﺔ ﻭ�ﻤﻨﺤ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ُ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺡ ﺍﳌﺄﻟﻮﻑ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻢ‬ ‫ﺍﻋ��ﺍﻑ ﺑﺠهﻮﺩﻱ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌ�ﻱ �� ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �� ﺩﺍﺧ�� ﻳﺆﳌ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﺃﺟﻞ ‪...‬ﺍﻓ��ﺿﺖ �ﺎﳌﻌﺘﺎﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺧﻼﺻﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ‬
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‫ﺑﺮﻣ��ﺎ ﺗﻜﻤﻦ �� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ �ﻌﺪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺃﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﻤﻞ ﺷهﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭﺍﻩ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻌﻴ� ّﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺑﺘﻐﻴ�� ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺭﺃ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﺄﺑﺮهﻦ ﻟهﻢ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ‬ ‫ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺳﻠﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ ﺟﻥ��ﻱ �ﺎﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ‬ ‫ﻳﻘﻞ ﻋﻦ ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯﺍﺕ ّ‬ ‫ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯﻩ ﻻ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻱﺲ �� ﺻﺎﻟ��‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﺄﺛﺏﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺟﻥ��ﻱ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﺳ��ﺎﻧﺔ ﺑﻪ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺄﺣﺸﻮ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‬
‫ﺑﺎﳌﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﺎﳌﻌ�ﻯ ﺍ�ﺡﺮ�� ﻟﻠ�ﻠﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻘﺐ ﻗﺪﻭﻣﻲ ﺇ�� ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺭﺍﻳﺖ ﻹﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﺗﺮﺗﻱﺒﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺩﻣﺜﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﺧﻀﻊ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺘ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ �ﺥﺼﺎ ِ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺳﻴﺎﻕ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﺑﺪﺃ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ‬ ‫ﻭﺟﻠﺴﻨﺎ ﻧﺘ�ﻠﻢ ﺑﺼﻔﺔ ﻏ�� ﺳﻤﻴﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺣﻮﻝ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻓﺒﺎﺩﻟﺘﻪ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﺑ�ﻠﺘﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺘ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﺑﺎﻷﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺩ ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﺗﺮﺗﻱﺒﺎﺕ ﳌﻮﻋﺪ‬ ‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ﻗﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺤﺪﺩ ﻟ�ﺥﻀﻮﻉ ﻟﻼﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﺑﺕﺴﻢ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻭﺍﻳﺖ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ»‪،: «vous avez passé les deux examinations‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺑﺎﻷﳌﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺮ�ﺴﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺿﺎﻑ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ �ﺴﺎﻭﺭﻧﺎ ﻗﻠﻖ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﻳﺠﻴﺪﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺜﻠﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ُﺃ ْﺑﻞ ﺑﻼﺀ ﺣﺴﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻟﻼﺗﻴﻥﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺧﻀﻌﺖ ﻟهﺬﺍ ﺍﺧﺘﺒﺎﺭ �ﺎﻥ ﻋ��ّ‬
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‫�ﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻪ ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺇﻟﺼﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ‬ ‫ﻭﻣﺤﺮﺟﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺎﻟ��ﺟﻤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺓ‬
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‫ﺑﻮﺟ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺕ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﻣﺘﺪﺍﺧﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺎﺏ ﻋ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻊ‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ْ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺴﺮﻭﺭﺓ ﺑﺎﻹﻧﻄﺒﺎﻉ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﺝﺡﺖ �� ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺮﻛﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ُﻭ� َﻌﻴﺪ ﺇﻧ��ﺎﺉﻲ ﻣﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﻭﺻﻠ�ﻱ ﺑﻴﺎﻥ ﻣﻜﺘﻮﺏ ُﻳﺒﻠﻐ�ﻱ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﻧﺘﺨﺒﺖ‬
‫ﺧﺮ�� ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﺑﺠﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺟﻤﻌﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻑ‬ ‫ﻟﻌﻀﻮ�ﺔ ﺍﺗﺤﺎﺩ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻘﺪﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻧﺠﻠ��ﻳﺔ ﺿﻤﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺎ هﻨﺎﻙ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻄﻠﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﻨﺎﻟﻮﻥ ﻋﻤﻼ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻭ�ﻜﻴﺖ ﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺷﺪﺓ ﻓﺮ��‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﻜﺮ�ﻢ ﻏ�� ﺍﳌﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ‬
‫�ﻌﻮ�ﺾ ﻋﻦ ﺧﻴﺒﺔ ﺃﻣ�� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺇﻥ ﺑﻼ ﺩﺭﺍﻳﺔ‪ �� ،‬ﺍﻧﺘﺤﺎﺭ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ﻯ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺣﺒﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪.‬‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺟهﺪﻱ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻗﺼﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﺑﺬﻟﺖ‬ ‫ﺧﻼﻝ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺳﺔ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎ ﻭﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺜﺔ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻄﻞ‪ ،‬ﻋﻜﻔﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺻﻮﺍ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﺍﺳﺘﻜ��ﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
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‫ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻄﻠﺒﻪ ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻤﺎﻡ ﻭﻏﺴﻞ ﺟﻮﺍﺭ�ﻲ ﻭﻣﻼ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺘﻴﺔ �ﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺴﻱﺖ ﻋﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺼ�� ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ �� ﻃﺎﺑﻮﺭ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﻓﺘ��ﻳﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺜﺔ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻣﻊ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ �� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺗﺒﺪﻳﻞ ﻗﻄﺎﺭ ﺍﻧﻔﺎﻕ‬
‫هﻮ�ﻮﻛﻦ ُﻣﺮ��ﺎ �ﻌﺾ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﻔﻞ هﺎﺩﺳﻮﻥ ﺇ�� ﻗﻄﺎﺭ ﺃﻧﻔﺎﻕ ﺑﺮﻭﺩﻭﺍﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﺎﺩﺭ‬
‫ﺳﻤﺤﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺃﺗﻮﻩ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﻧﺼﻒ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮ�ﻖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻋﺘﺎﺩ‬
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‫ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣ�ﻯ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮ�ﺔ ﻣﻨﺤﺘ�ﻱ ﻗﺪﺭﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻻﺳﺘﻘﻼﻟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻄﺎﳌﺎ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﻭﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺘﺎهﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺨﺮﺝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻳﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﻮﺍﻥ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﺮﻭﺩﻭﺍﻱ ﺳﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﻱ ‪‘‘.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﻋ��‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻲ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺩﻱ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ �� ﺷﺎﺭﻉ ﻛﻮﺭﺗﻼﻧﺪﺕ ﺳ��ﻳﺖ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ‬
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‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻠﺰﻣ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ هﻮ ﺇﺣﺼﺎﺀ ﻋﺪﺩ ّ‬ ‫ﻓﺈﻥ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻋ�� ِ‬
‫ﻣ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺤﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﻭﻻ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻱﻌﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇ�� ﺷﺎﺭﻉ‪، 116‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺔ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺚ ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺻﻼﺕ ﻟﻠﻮﺻﻮﻝ ﺇ�� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ �ﺴ��ﺍ ﺑﻤﺮﻭﺭ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺗﻠﻚ‬
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‫هﻮ�ﻮﻛﻦ ﻭﺩﻭﻓﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺮﻛﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻧﻔﺎﻕ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺤﻄ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ‬
‫ﺃ�ﺡﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ﻏﺮﻑ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺒﺄ ﺑﻤﻦ ﻳﺮﺍ�ﻲ ﺃﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻖ‬‫ﻷﻥ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ �ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ّﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ �� ﺫه�ﻱ ﻏ�� ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ؛ ﻭ�� ﺃﻥ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻲ �� ﻋﻤ�� ﺑﺎ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟهﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻮﻙ ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮ�ﻲ ﻏ�� ﻋﺎﻗﺒﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃﺻﺏﺖ ﺑﺎ��ﻴﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻋﺼ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺣﺪﺙ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺧﻀﻮ�� ﻟﻼﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﻔهﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺎﻟﻨﺕﻴﺠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻧﻞ ﺷهﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭﺍﻩ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺳﺘﺔ ﺷهﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺎﻳﺔ‬
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‫ﻷﺳ��ﺩ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ‪،‬‬‫ﻭﺍ�ﺡﻨﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺃﻭﻻ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﺡ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ �ﻌﺎﻓﻴﺖ‪ ،‬ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ �� ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﺮﺣﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪ ﻱﺲ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻧﺎﻓﻌﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ �� ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﳌﺮﺀ ﻣﻥﺸﻐﻼ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
‫ﻷﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﺎﻉ ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺮ ّ‬
‫�ﻌﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻌﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻧﺎﻓﻌﺎ ٌ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻌﻴﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻴﺎ��ﻢ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﻦ هﻢ �� ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﺇ�� ﺳﻨﺔ ُﻣ ّ‬ ‫ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺃﻏﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻤ��ﺍ ‪ّ .‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺴ�� ﻓ��ﺎ ﺃﺣﻮﺍﻟهﻢ ﻋ�� ﺃﺣﺴﻦ‬ ‫ﺑﻮﺻﻔهﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ّ‬
‫��ﻱﺀ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ‘‘‬ ‫ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﻨﻴﺔ ﺑﺮﺍﻭﻧﻱﻨﻎ’’ ﷲ �� ﻣﻠﻜﻮﺗﻪ ‪ّ :‬‬
‫�ﻞ ٍ‬
‫ﻭﻛﺄ��ﺎ ﻗﺪ ُﻛﺘﺏﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺧﺼﻴﺼﺎ ﻟهﻢ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺜﻞ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻒ ﻳﻨﻄﺒﻖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ‪ 1938-1939‬ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ‪.‬ﻻ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ‬
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‫ﺍﻣﺮ ﺑﻜﻮﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ �� ﺫﺍ��ﺎ ﻋﻈﻴﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺈﺣﺴﺎ��ﻱ ﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﻋ��ﺕ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻛﻥ� �ﻌﺪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ‪ّ .‬‬‫�ﺎﻥ ﻭﺿ�� ﺍﳌﺎ�� ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ �� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﻨﺼﺐ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺗﻘﻠﺪﺗﻪ ﻋ�ﻯ‬
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‫ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺯ�ﺎﺩﺓ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺗﺐ ‪.‬ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔ ﺇ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺟ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻣﺎﻻ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺎ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ �ﺴﻌﺔ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ �� ﻣﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺻﻴﻔﻴﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻭﻧﺔ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﺳﻨﺔ؛ ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‪�� ،‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﻘﺎ�ﻯﻯ ﺃﺟﺮﺍ ﻋﻦ ﻋﻤ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﻮﻑ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺟﻤﺎﻻ‪ ،‬ﻧﺎهﺰ‬
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‫َﺩﺧ�� ﻭﻗﺘﺬﺍﻙ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻣﺜﺎﻝ ﺩﺧ�� ﺣ�ﻥ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻣﺴ��ﻲ ﺍﳌهﻨﻴﺔ ﻛﻤﺪ ّﺭﺳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﺒﻖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬‫ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﻭﺿﻊ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﻣﺮ�ﺢ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﻣﺜﺎ�� ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺑﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ َ‬
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‫ﺳﻮﻯ ﺭهﻦ ﺻﻐ�� ﻣﺠهﺰﺍ ﺃﺣﺴﻦ ﺗﺠه�� ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺇﺑﺘﺎﻋﺖ ﺗﺠه��ﺍﺕ‬
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‫ﻟﻠ�ﺝﺎﺩ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﻏﺴﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺷ��ﻳﺖ ﻓﺮﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻛهﺮ�ﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺛﻼﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻜﻥﺴﺔ‬
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‫ﻛهﺮ�ﺎﺋﻴﺎ ﻣﺠهﺰﺍ ﺑﻤﺆﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺕﺴ�ﻯ �� ﻭﺿﻊ ﻋﺸﺎﺉﻲ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺫهﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻇهﺮﺍ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺟﺪﻩ ﺟﺎهﺰﺍ ﻟﻠﺘﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻋﻮﺩ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺃهﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺇﺣﺪﺍﻧﺎ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻛهﺮ�ﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺩﻗﺎﺕ ﻭﻱﺴﺘﻤﻥﺴ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋ�ﻯ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﺖ ﺇ��‬
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‫�ﻞ ﺳﻨﺔ ﺃﺩﺍﺓ ّ‬
‫�ﺴهﻞ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻗ��ﺍﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺿﻔﻨﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺃﻋﻤﺎ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻟﻴﺔ ﺳهﻠﺔ �ﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺻﻨﻌﺖ ﺯﺭﻛﺸﺔ ﻋ�� ﻗﻤﺎﺵ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﻥ ﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻮﻁ ﺍﳌﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﻭﻟﻐﻄﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺎﺋﺪﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﺎﻣﺮﺓ �� ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻠﻖ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻤﻨﻌ�ﻱ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻌﻞ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺰﻡ ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﺍﻧﺘ�ﻯ ﻣﻮﺳﻢ ﺍ�ﺝﻔﺎﻑ �� ﺳﺎﻭﺙ ﺩﺍﻛﻮﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻌﻞ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﺍﻋﺎﺟﻴﺐ �� ﻓﻨﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺑﻠﻐﺖ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﻷﺍﻋﺸﺎﺏ ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺗﻄﻠﺒﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ﻗﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺎﻳﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺭﻋﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﻌﺖ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻤهﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫهﺐ ﺇ�� ﻋﻤ�� ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﳌﺪﺭ��ﻱ ﺳﻠﺴﺎ ﻭﺳهﻼ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻋ�� ﺍﺷﺘﻐﺎ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺯﻣﻦ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺟﻤﻌﺖ ﻗﺪﺭﺍ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ‬ ‫ﺟﺪﺍ( ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﻋﺸﺮﻭﻥ ﺳﻨﺔ ﺑﻮﺟﻪ ﻋﺎﻡ )ﺇ��‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﻔﻈ��ﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻇهﺮ ﻗﻠﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣهﺎ �ﺸ�ﻞ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺗﺠﻞ �� ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ‪.‬ﺃﺗﻴﺤﺖ �� ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﻓﺮﺍﻍ ﺗﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﳌﺰ�ﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﻭﺧﺰ��ﺎ ﻟﻠﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺒﺎﺕ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻳﺡﺝﺰﻭﻥ �ﻞ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺪهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺣﺼ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﺳﻴﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺟﻌﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﺬﻛﻮﺭﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺍﺋﺢ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺕﺴﻠﻴﻤهﺎ ﻟهﻢ ﻣﻊ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ �ﻞ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺩﺭﺍ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﻮﺍ هﻢ ﻳﺆﻣﻨﻮﻥ �� ﺃﻱ ﻛﺘﺐ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻻﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣﻲ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻀﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻒ ﻣﺠﻠﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﺻﺎﺭﺕ هﻮﺍﻳ�ﻱ ﺟﻤﻊ ﺃﻧﻮﺍﻉ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﺗﺖ ﻣﻜﺘﺒ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻣﻌﻴﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ؛ ﻣﺜﻞ ‪:‬ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﺆﻟﻔﺎﺕ ﺷﻜﺴﺒ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺿﺎهﺖ ﺃﻱ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺍﺩ ﻣﺮﺟﻌﻴﺔ �ﺥﻤﺔ �� ﺍﻟ�ﺡﺎﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺎﺛﻠﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺎﺭ�ﺦ ﺍﺩﺑ�ﻥ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻱ ﻷﺍﻣ��ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻓﺘﺨﺮﺕ ﺑﻤﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻛﺘ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻜﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻭﻗﻊ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺃ�ﺡﺎ��ﺎ ﻭﻃﺒﻌﺎ��ﺎ ﺍﻭ�� ‪.‬ﻭﻋ�� ﻣﺪﻯ‬
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‫ﻭﺻﻨ ُ‬
‫ﻔ��ﺎ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ �� ﻣﻐﻠﻔﺎﺕ ﻣﻮﺳﻮﻣﺔ‬ ‫ﻋﺸﺮ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﺟﻤﻌﺖ ﻗﺼﺎﺻﺎﺕ �ﺡﺎﻓﻴﺔ‬
‫�ﻌﻨﺎﻳﺔ �� ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺧﺎﺻﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺪﺑﺮ ﺃﻣﻮﺭﻱ ﻋ�� ﺻﻌﻴﺪ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ّﺃﻧﻪ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ّ‬‫ﻷﻭﻝ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﺥ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﻗﻠﻖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺪﺏ ﺍﻟﺏﺴﻴﻂ ﻋ�� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻕ ��‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻢ ﺑ�ﻥ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ‪.‬ﺻﺎﺭ �� ﻭﺳ�� ﺍﻥ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺘ�ﺎﻟﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻣﺔ �ﺝﻌﻞ هﻨﺪﺍﻣﻲ‬
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‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻨﺼ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻳﻘﺘ�ﻯﻯ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﺃﺻﺒﺢ �� ﻣﻮﻋﺪ ﺩﺍﺋﻢ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪ ﺻﺎﻟﻮﻥ ﺗﺠﻤﻴﻞ ﻋﺮﻓﺘ�ﻱ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻓﺘﺨﺮﻥ ﺑﺠﻌ�� ﺃﺑﺪﻭ ﺣﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﳌﻈهﺮ ‪.‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺟﻤهﻮﺭ ﻛﺒ�� ﺣﺮﺻﺖ ﺃﻭﻟﻐﺎ ﻣﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭ��‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺰ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎ�ﻲ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﺍﳌ��ﺀ ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ �� ﻭﺿﻊ ﻣﺴﺎﺣﻴﻖ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺠﻤﻴﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ �ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﺎﻣﺔ‪-‬ﻣﻨﺤ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﺻﺎﻧﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺜﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻔﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻤﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﻣﺘﺤﺪﺛﺔ‪ّ -‬‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﻧﺠﺎ�� ﻛﻤﺪ ّﺭﺳﺔ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺻﻔﺘﺎﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻴﻤﺘﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ﺣ�ﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺎﺱ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻗﻤﺖ ﺻﺪﺍﻗﺎﺕ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻛﺜ��ﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻭ�� ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ ﺃﺭﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺼﻠ�ﻱ ﺭﺳﺎﺋﻞ ﺑﺮ�ﺪﻳﺔ �ﺸ�ﻞ‬
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‫ﺷﺒﻪ ﻳﻮﻣﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺳﺎﺑﻘ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺃﻋﺮﺏ �ﻌﻀهﻢ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮهﻢ ﳌﺎ ّﺃﺩﻳﺘﻪ ﻟهﻢ‬
‫ﺇﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻤﺪ ّﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺷﺎﺭﻭﺍ ﺇ�� ﺗﻄﺒﻴﻘهﻢ ﻟﻠﻔﻠﺴﻔﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺃﻋ�� ﻋ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ‪:‬‬
‫�ﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﺍ�ﺝهﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻮﺿﻊ ﺇﺟﻼﻝ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺬﻟﺖ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻤﻞ ﻣﺨﻠﺺ هﻮ ٌ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ �� ﺗﺄﺩﻳ ِﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻋ�� ﻋﻤ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﺳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺆﺳﺴﺔ ﻣﺘﻌ��ﺓ ﺇ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃهﻢ ﺍﻟﺼﺮﻭﺡ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺣﺎﻓﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺕ �� ﻣﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ّﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ْ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃ�� ﺇﻻ‬
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‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻗﻞ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩﺍ ﻟﻼﻋ��ﺍﻑ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻧﻪ‬ ‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻃﻔﻴﻒ ﺑﺄﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ ﻣﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻯ‬
‫ﺧﻄﺮ ﻋ�� ﺑﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﻥﺒ�� ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺼﺒﺎ�� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻳﻘﺪﻡ ﻓ��ﺎ �ﺥﺺ ﻟﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻕ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﻊ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ‬ ‫�� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ّ‬
‫ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧﻠﻂ ﺑ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ��ﻥ ﺍﻟﺏﺴﺘﻮ�ﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺒﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺯﻓﺎﻑ‬ ‫ﻛﺒ��ﻳﻦ‬
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‫ﺯ‬
‫ﺍﺛﻨ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘ�ﻥ ﺳﺎﺀ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻦ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻭﺱ ﺑﺪﺩﺕ ﻗﻴﻤﺔ ﺯ�ﻨ��ﺎ ﻭ �ﻨﺔ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺿﺮ�ﻦ �� ﻛﻨﻱﺴﺔ ُﻣﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻣﻌهﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸﺎهﺪﺓ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺣﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺰﻓﺎﻑ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﺍﺀ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺴ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ ﺃﻭ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﳌﺬﺑﺢ ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻓهﻢ‬
‫ﺷﺪﺓ ﺿﻌﻒ ﺍﻧﺎﺭﺓ �� ﺑﻴﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺳﺏﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﺘﻌﺎﻗﺐ �� ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻈﻴﻒ‬ ‫ﻧﻔﻀﺖ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ ﻋﻦ ﺍﺛﺎﺙ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻭﺃﺭ�ﻊ ّ‬
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‫ﻱ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻻ �ﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻱ ﺯﺍﺋﺮ ﻳﻘﺪﻡ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺑﺼﺮ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻨﻈﻴﻒ‬
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‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﺟﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﳌﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺇهﻤﺎ�� ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﺍﺷﻒ �ﻌﻠﻖ ��‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﺛﺎﺙ‬
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‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﻤﺎﻟهﺎ ﺛﺎﻧﻴﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ��‬ ‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻐﺴﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻐﺪﻭ ﻣﻤﺰﻗﺔ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻱ‬
‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻱﺲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻨﻄﻘﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮ ﻋ�� ﺝﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣﺮ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟ��ﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭ ّ�ﺨﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻟ��ﻲ ﺷﺮﺍﺭ�ﺐ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺎﺵ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺍﺕ ﻭﺣﻮﻝ‬ ‫ﺯﺟﺎﺟﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻜﺮ�ﻤﺎ �� ّ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ �� ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺣﺘﻤﺎ ﺃﺗ�ﺎﺳﻞ ﺇﺫ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ هﻨﺎﻙ �ﺎﻥ ﺳهﻼ‬
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‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﻤﺰﺍﺝ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻣﻨﺤﺖ ﺣﺪﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺗﺒﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﻣﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﺣﺪﺍﺋﻖ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﻋ��ﻑ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮ ﻟهﺬﻩ ﺍﻣﻮ ﺃﻱ ﺻﻠﺔ ﺑﺒﺼﺮ ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ‬
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‫ﺇ�ﻲ ﻛﺘﺏﺖ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻟﺘﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻮﻋﺪ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ �� ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ‬
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‫ﻣﺎﻳﻮ ﺑﺮﻭﺷﺴ�� ﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳ�� ﺍﺧﺘﺘﺎﻡ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﺫﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ُﻳﺼﺎﺩﻑ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻣﺲ ﻣﻦ ﺁﺏ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺔ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﺼﻒ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺣﻈﻴﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻧ��ﺖ‬
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‫ﺑﻤﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﻥ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻞ ﻣﻌهﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻘﺪ �ﻌﺚ ﺗﻮﺩ�ﻌهﻢ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺷﻌﻮﺭﺍ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ ��ﺥ ﻣﻦ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺣﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﺁﺧﺮ ﻣﺎ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻣﻐﺎﺩ ﺓ ﺍﳌﺒ�ﻯ �ﺎﻥ ﺗﻮﻗﻴﻊ ّ‬
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‫‪ ،Glimpses of Norway‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺒﺔ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﻭهﺎ ﻣﻌهﻢ ﻷﻭﻗﻊ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫هﻮ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺘﺏﺘﻪ ﻋﻦ ﺇﻗﺎﻣ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺞ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ�ﻱ ﺿﻤﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻌﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ ﺍﺳﻜﻨﺪﻧﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ �� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺭﺝ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻴﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻟﻚ �� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ﻣ�ﺡﺔ ﺧﺮ�ﻒ ﻣﺒﻜﺮ‪ ،‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ‬
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‫�ﺴﺏﺐ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺒﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﻨﺎ�ﺝﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺝﺎﻓﺔ ﻷﺍﺭﺽ ﺍﳌﺤﺮﻭﺛﺔ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻓﻼﺣ��ﺎ ��‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ ﺍﳌﺎ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺟﻨﻮ�ﻲ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﺩﻭ ﻭ�ﻲ ﺇﻧﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺗﻤﻨﻱﻨﺎﻩ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻣﺒﺘ�ﺝﺘ�ﻥ ﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﺣﻠﻮﻝ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﻧﻜﻦ ﻟﻨﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻄﻘﺲ ﺃﺭﻭﻉ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺣ�ﻯ ﻭﻟﻮ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﺑﻮﺍ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺇﺟﺎﺯﺗﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﺘﺢ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟهﻨﺎ ﺇ�� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ّﺃﻭﻻ ﻟﺰ�ﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﺎﺋﻠﺔ ﺳﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺭﺍﻓﻘﺘﻨﺎ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ ﺇ��‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺎ ُ� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻌﺪ ﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻋﻄﻠﺔ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ ‪.‬ﺃﻋﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ ﺳﻠﺔ ﻏﺪﺍﺀ ﻭﻋﺰﻣﻨﺎ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻥ�هﺔ �� ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻮﻋﺪﻱ �� ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺳﻌﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺗﻮﻗﻌﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺘ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ �ﻞ ﻓﺤﻮﺻﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺒ�ﻥ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺫهﺎﺑﻨﺎ‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺭﺍ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻓﻴﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺗﺄﺟﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻥ�هﺔ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠﻪ ﻟﻨﻘ��ﻱ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺗﺎ ﻣﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﻣﻌﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺣﺪﺛﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻣﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺑﺼﺮﻙ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﻮﺩﻱ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻥ�ﻯ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫’’ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺠﺪﻳﻦ ﺑﺄﻧ ِﻚ‬
‫ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮ ﻗﺪ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻮﺟﻪ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻴﺢ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺗﺼﺪﻳﻖ ﺃﺫ�ﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻌ�ﻯ �ﻠﻤﺎﺗﻪ ﻣﺮﻋﺒﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﺮﺗﺠﻒ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﺎ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺳﻮﺀ ﺣﺎﻟ�ﻱ؟ ﺃﻧﺖ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻀﻄﺮﺍ ﺇ�� ﺇﺧﻔﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻋ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻚ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻣﺪﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ ﺗﻜﻔﻲ �ﺝﻌ�� ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻚ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﺴﺖ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺖ ِ‬ ‫’’ﻛﻼ‪ِ ،‬‬
‫ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﺩ ﻗﻠ�ﻱ ﻳﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﻔﻘﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺣﺎﻓﻈﺖ ﺑﺼﻌﻮ�ﺔ ﻋ�� ﺭ�ﺎﻃﺔ ﺟﺄ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭﻱ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻓﻘﺪ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻣﻥ�ﻟﻚ �� ﺳﻴﻮﻛﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﺰ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﺯﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺘﻪ �ﻌﻨﺎﻳﺔ« ‪:‬ﻋﻮﺩﻱ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﺃﻭﺿﺎﻋﻚ هﻨﺎﻙ‪».‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺗ‬ ‫ﺑﺘﻤهﻞ‪ «،‬ﻭﺭ‬
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‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ �ﺴﺎﺅﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻣ�ﻯﻯ �� ﺣﺪﻳﺜﻪ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﺼﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﺳﻴﺤﺼﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ‬
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‫ﺳﺕﺘﺤﻠ�ﻥ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻟﺘﻮﺍﺻ�� ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫’’ﻳﺎ ﺩﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪ ،‬هﻞ ﺗﺮ�ﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﺻﺒﺢ ﻣﻜﻔﻮﻓﺔ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ ﺍﺧﺘﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ �ﻠﻤﺎﺗﻪ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺑﺮ ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ��’’ ‪:‬هﻨﺎﻙ ﺇﻋﺘﺎﻡ ��‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﺇﺯﺍﻟﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭهﺬﻩ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺗﻜﺘﻨﻔهﺎ ﺃﺧﻄﺎﺭ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺃ ﺑﺪﺃ ﺑﺈﺟﺮﺍﺀ‬ ‫ﻋﻴﻨﻚ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺣﺔ ﻟﻌﻴﻨﻚ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻜهﻦ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺟﺪﻩ ﻓ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻳﺨﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴﻨﻚ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪ ﺇﺯﺍﻟﺔ ﺍﻋﺘﺎﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’ﺃﻟﻦ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ �� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺮ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ‬
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‫ﻓﻴﻪ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺗﺰﻭ�ﺪﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻭﻃﺒﻱﺐ‬
‫ﺁﺧﺮ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ ﻭﺍﻗﻔ�ﻥ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫«ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻻ �ﺴﻠ��ﺎ ﷲ ﻧﻈﺮهﺎ‪».‬‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ هﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺤﺪﺙ ‪ّ .‬‬‫ْ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ‬ ‫�ﻐ�� ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﺇ��‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ‬
‫ّﻣ��ﺗﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺘﺠﻤﻊ ﻗﻮﺍﻱ ‪.‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﺻﺎﺏ ﺑﺎﻹﻏﻤﺎﺀ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺫﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﻮﻉ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺑﺪﺃ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻜهﻦ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺎ هﻮ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﺼﺮﺍﺥ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﺫﺍ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺳﻴﺼﻌﺐ‬
‫ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺼﻌﻮﻗﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ‬ ‫ﺑﻄﻮ�� ﺳﻠﻮﻙ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻄﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﻔﺲ هﺬﺍ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ �� ‪.‬ﻭﺭ ّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻋﺘﻴﺎﺩﻱ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻃﻔﻮﻟ�ﻱ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺷﺪﺓ ﺧﻮ��‬‫ﺇﺧﻔﺎﺀ ﺃﺣﺎﺳﻱ��ﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ‪ ،‬هﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﻨﻌ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻇهﺎﺭ ّ‬
‫ﻟهﺆﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ’’ ‪:‬ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﺬﻩ ﺁﺧﺮ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻟﺘﻔﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ‬
‫ﺃﺭﺍﻛﻤﺎ ﻓ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﺠﺪﺭ �ﻲ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻋﻠﻴﻜﻤﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺖ �� ﻭﺟ�َﻱ هﺬﻳﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻴﻤ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳﻦ �ﺎﻧﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮ�ﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﺣ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﻓﺎﻋ�� ﺧ�� ﻭﺻﺪﻳﻘ�ﻥ ��‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺎﺿﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﺃﺧﻀﻌﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻔﺤﻮﺹ ﺍﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻟﻠﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ‬
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‫ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺧﺎﻓﺖ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻦ ﻳﻄﻮﻝ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺑﺤﻜﻢ ﻳﻘﻈ�ﻱ ﺍﺗﺠﺎﻩ‬
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‫ﻣﺎ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍ��ﺎﺭﺕ ﺃﻋﺼﺎ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ �ﻌﺪ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﻼﺣﻈﺔ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ِﺃﻉ ﻣﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�� ﻻﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﺍﺧ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳﺕﺸﺎﺭﺓ ‪.‬ﻣﺎ ﻓهﻤﺘﻪ هﻮ‬
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‫ﻭﺗﻮﻟﺪ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺍﻧﻄﺒﺎﻉ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺳﻴﺤﺼﻞ �� ﻭﻗﺖ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻋﺎﺟﺰﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺎ �� ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ‪.‬‬
‫ﻷﻥ ّﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻣهﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺗﺎ ﺷﺮﺍﺀ‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﻋﺪﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺇ�� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﺫهﺒﻨﺎ �� ﻧﺰهﺘﻨﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺾ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺟﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﻠﺖ ﺇ�ﻲ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﳌﻌﺎﻧﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺻﺪﺍﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻏ��ﺕ ﺭﺃ��ﺎ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﻭﻋﺎﺩﺕ ّ‬ ‫ﺣ�ﻯ ّ‬‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺇ��‪.‬‬ ‫هﻤﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﻣﻊ ﺳﻴﻢ‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﻨﺎ ﻭﺣﺪﻧﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ‪...‬ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻓﻘﺪ‬
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‫ﺑﺼﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻧ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋﺖ ﻗﻮﻟﻪ‪.‬‬ ‫’’ﺃﻭﻩ‪ ،‬ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ‘‘‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ هﺬﺍ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑ�ﺎﺀﻧﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﻮﺩﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ ﺧﻔﻒ ﻋﻨﺎ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺴﺎﺣﻴﻖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃ��ﻤﺎ ﻗﺎﺩﻣﺘ�ﻥ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ �ﻲ ﻻ ﺗ�ﺡﻈﺎ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺧﻄﺐ ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻴﺎ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜ�� ﻱﺀ ﻋﺪﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ﻳﺰﺩﺍﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻓﺴﺄﻟﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ‪ّ ��:‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﻠﻤﺲ ﻣﺎ ﺣﻮ�� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ؟‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺿﻌﻔﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧﺎﻑ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﺎﺩﺕ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺗ��ﻙ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺭ ﻣﻀﺎﺀ‬
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‫�ﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻓﺰﻉ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﺳﺕﻴﻘﻆ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ �ﻐﻠﺒﺖ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍ�ﺥﻮﻑ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛ��ﺕ ‪.‬ﺭﻏﺒﺖ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﺥ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻭﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﺣﻮ��‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺣﻠﻤﺎ �� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﺎ��‪ ،‬ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ّﺃﻣﻲ �� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﻡ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﺎﻟﺴﺔ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺃﺭ�ﻜﺔ‬
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‫ﺧﻀﺮﺍﺀ �� ﺍﳌﻨ��ﻩ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻞ ﳌﻥ�ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻢ �� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﻗ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻣﺤﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺃﺱ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺗﺨﻴﻂ ﻗﻤﺎﺷﺎ ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺎ ﺃﺯﺭﻕ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺗﺤﺮﻙ‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺣﺴﺖ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩﻱ ‪.‬ﻋﺰﻣﺖ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺐ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ‪.‬ﻭﻻﺣﺖ �� ﻋﻴﻨ��ﺎ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ �ﻌﺎﺑ��‬ ‫ﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭهﺎ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﺕﻨﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬‫ﺭﺃﻳ��ﺎ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ �ﺴﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻗﻴﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ!‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻭ�� ﺗﻥﺘﻘﻲ ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﺴﺘﺨﺪﻣهﺎ ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺗﺮ�ﺪ ��ﺝﻴ��‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺳﻴﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﻛ��ﺕ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻷﻓهﻢ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻪ ��’’ ‪:‬ﺃ�ﻌﺮﻓ�ﻥ ‪ّ ...‬‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻳﺒﺼﺮﻭﺍ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﺟﻴﺪ �ﺎﻵﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺠﺮﺅﻭﺍ ﻋ��‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺜﺎﻟﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﻟﺌﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜ��ﻢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤ�� ﺑﺎﻟﺼ�� ﻻﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻞ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺠﺪ ﺃﻛ��‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻓﻌﻞ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻣﻤﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺑﺼﺮ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺼﺮﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺠﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺍﻳﻤﺎﻥ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﺎ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﻭﻥ ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻞ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻧﻨﻮﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻀﺮﻧﺎ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﻡ �� ﺃﺫهﺎﻧﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺧﻔﺎﻕ ﻣﺼ��ﻧﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺒﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﻣ�ﻯ �ﺝﺄﺕ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻟﺕﺴﻠﻴ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺪ��‬
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‫�ﺥﺺ ﻣﺎ ﺑﻤﻼﺣﻈﺔ ﻃﺎﺉﺸﺔ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ﻭ�ﺠﺮﺡ ﺃﺣﺎﺳﻱ��ﻱ ﺍﻟﻄﻔﻮﻟﻴﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ‬
‫�� ﻋﻴﻨ��ﺎ ﺍﻥ �ﻌﺎﺑ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻒ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻃﺎﳌﺎ ﺭﺃﻳ��ﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻨﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﻮﺍ��‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺳﺕﻴﻘﻈﺖ ﻭﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ �� ﺳﺮ�ﺮﻱ ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﺳﺕﺸﻌﺮ ﳌﺴﺔ ﻳﺪهﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ‪‘‘.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ��‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ‬ ‫ﺣﻀﻮﺭهﺎ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺣﻠﻢ’’ ‪:‬هﻨﺎﻙ ﻓﺮﻕ ﺷﺎﺳﻊ ﺑ�ﻥ ﺍﻣﺘﻼﻙ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﻣﺤﺪﻭﺩﻳ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ��ﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻱﺶ �� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺗﻤﺪﺩﺕ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜ�� ﺃﻣﻲ ﻭ�ﻜﻴﺖ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻭﺳﺎﺩ�ﻲ ��ﺪﻭﺀ‪� ،‬ﺡﻴﺢ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺭﺍﺷﺪﺓ ﺍﻥ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣﺎﺟ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ّﺃﻣﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺣﺎﺟ�ﻱ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﻣﺎ ﺟﺮﻯ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺿﺖ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺑﺪﻗﺔ ﺯ�ﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ �ﺸﺎﻭﺭﻱ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺒ�ﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﺍﻭﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺎ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻭﺷﻜﺖ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﺇ��‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﺍﺧ�� ﻣ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﻏ�� ﺫﻛﺮﻯ ﱠ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻮﺷﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻹﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺳﺔ ﻓ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻨﺪﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﻔﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻋ�� هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺟﻌﻠﺖ ﺇﺯﺍﻟﺔ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﺨﻮﻑ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﻄﻮﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻮﺍ�ﺡ‬
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‫ﻣﻀﺎﻋﻔﺎﺕ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬هﺬﺍ هﻮ ﻓﺤﻮﻯ ﻛﻼﻣﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺇﻧﻪ ﻻ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
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‫ﻗﺪ ﻳﺠﺪﻩ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ �ﺸﺮﻉ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻻ ﺭ�ﺐ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺣﻈﻮﻇﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺫهﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻧﻮﺭهﺎ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺼﺒﺢ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺟﺎهﺰﺓ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ هﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺳﺕﺘﻼ�ﻯﻯ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭ�ﺞ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻀﺉﻴﻠﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ ‪.‬ﺳﺒﻖ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺣﺎﺟﺘﻪ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺷﺪ ﺃﻋﺼﺎﺑﻪ ﻹﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻳﺨﺸﺎهﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺷﻔﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻟﺮﺍﺝﺡ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻠﺰﻣ�ﻱ ﺇﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺘ�ﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗ�ﻠﻠﺖ ﺍﻭ�� ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺠﺎﺡ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺒﺎﺣﺜﺖ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ �� ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺗ�ﺡﺖ �� ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻥﺘﻈﺮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ‬
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‫ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺭﺗﻴﺎﺡ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻪ ﺑﺼﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻋﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺳﻮﺀ ﻭﺿ��‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻴﺐ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜ�� ﻱﺀ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻷﺷﻐﻞ ﻋﻘ�� ﻋﻦ ﻣﺸﻜﻼ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻓﻔﻲ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺃﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﻟﺴﺖ ﺍﻟ�ﺥﺺ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺪ ﺗﺤﺘﻢ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻣﻮﺍﺟهﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻰ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺑﺄﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺻﺎ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻗﺪ ﻭﺍﺟهﻮﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺟﻌﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ��ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﺟﻠﺪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﺎﺷﻮﺍ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﻧﺎﻓﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ؟ ﻛﻴﻒ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻔ��ﺽ �ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﺻﻞ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﺑﺤﺴﺐ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻋ�� ﻳﻘ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ؟‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻮﻉ ﺇ�� ﻣﺆﻟﻔﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻏﺮ�ﺐ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻣﺮ‬
‫ﻷﺣﻘﻖ ﻃﻤﻮﺡ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﻤﻞ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ هﺬﺍ هﻮ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺑﺠﺪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ﻋ�� ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺭﻭﺍﻳﺔ ﻧﺮﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺃﻣ��ﻛﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �� ﺟﻌﻞ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ �� ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ �ﻌﺪ ﻓﺮﺍ�� ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤ�� ‬ ‫�ﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺣﺮﻓﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺑﺪﺃ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣ��ﻜﺔ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﻣهﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ ﺳهﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪.‬‬
‫هﺎﺯﻝ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻓﺖ‬‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺷﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﺪ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻳ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻭ‬‫ﻟﺮ‬ ‫ﺍﻭ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺮ�ﺏﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺓ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴﻮﺩ‬
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‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭﺍﺕ ﺇﺭﺷﺎﺩﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﻋﺮﺿﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻟﺪﻱ ّ‬ ‫ﺛﻮﺭﻥ‪ ،‬ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻟﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻼ�ﻲ ﻳﺪﺭﺳﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴ�� ﺑﺄﻥ ﺗﻄﺒﻌهﺎ ��‪ ،‬ﺃﺳﻮﺓ ﺑﻔﻴﻮﻟﻴﺖ ﺑﺎﻛ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻋﺮﺿهﺎ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻥ ﺇﻛﻤﺎﻝ ﺗﻠﻚ‬ ‫ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻃﺒﻌﺖ �� ‪ Glimpses of Norway.‬ﺑﻘﻲ ّ‬
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‫ﻟهﺎﺯﻝ ﻃﺒﺎﻋ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻯ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﺕﺴ�‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺍﻭ��‬ ‫ﺓ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺴﻮﺩ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺠﺪﻱ ﻧﻔﻌﺎ ﺍﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻋ�� ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺒﺎﻋﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺪﻯ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃ�ﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺎ�ﻌﺔ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻞ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺣﺴﻦ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﺑﺪﺃ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻭﻻ ﺣﻔﻆ ﺣﺮﻭﻑ ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﺍﳌﻔﺎﺗﻴﺢ‪.‬‬
‫‘‘‪’’z x c v b‬ﺑﺄﺻﺎ�ﻊ ﺍﻟﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻭ ‪’’n m‬ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺎﺻﻠﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻘﻄﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻂ ﺍﳌﺎﺋﻞ ‘‘‬
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‫ﺑﺄﺻﺎ�ﻊ ﺍﻟﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻴﻤ�ﻯ ‪.‬هﺬﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ��‪ ،‬ﻵﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫‪«a s d f g‬ﺑﻴﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ»‪ ،‬ﻭ ‪»h j k l‬ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺎﺻﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻨﻘﻮﻃﺔ ﻭﻋﻼﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻥﺖ »ﺑﺎﻟﻴﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻴﻤ�ﻯ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ �ﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻃﺒﺎﻋﺔ هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺗﻜﺮﺍﺭهﺎ ﺑﻼ ﺗﺮﺩﺩ ‪.‬ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﺍﳌﻔﺎﺗﻴﺢ ‪ّ .‬‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺟﺎﺀ ﺩﻭﺭ ﺍﳌﻔﺎﺗﻴﺢ ﺍﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺒ�ﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﺋﻞ ﺍﳌﺤﺘﻤﻠﺔ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﻣﻔﺘﺎﺡ ‪ �� shift‬ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺗﻠﻮ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ﻭﺳﻌﻴﺖ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻷﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﻭﻋﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻘﻴﻂ ‪.‬ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺮﺿﺖ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ّ‬
‫�ﺡﻔﻈهﺎ �� ﺫﺍﻛﺮ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻮﺿﻊ ﺃﺻﺎ�� ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺿﻊ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻧ�ﺡ ��ﺎ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ﻋ��ﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻧﻈﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﻤﺲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﺗﺒﺔ ﻻ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺪﺭ ﺑﺜﻤﻦ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ ﺇ�� ﺥﺺ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻋﺮﻓﺖ‬
‫��ﺝﺒﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺇﺿﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﻟﻮﻗ�ﻱ �� ﻣﺎ‬‫ﺃﻋﻤﻰ ‪.‬ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺭﺍﺟﻌﺖ ﺩﺭﻭ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺒﺎﻋﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻃﻠﻊ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻃﺮﺓ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﺎ ��‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻝ ﻷﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺴﺮﺓ ﻋ�� ﺃﺧﻄﺎﺀ ﺍﺭﺗﻜﺒ��ﺎ �� ﺍﳌﺎ��ﻱ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺠﺪﻱ ﻧﻔﻌﺎ ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ُْ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻣﺜﺎﺑﺮ�ﻲ ﺗﺆ�ﻲ ﺛﻤﺎﺭهﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻮﺍﺿﻊ ﺍﳌﻔﺎﺗﻴﺢ ﻣﻦ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜ�� ﻓﻴﻪ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺎ�ﻌﺔ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺣﻔﻆ ّ‬
‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﺗﺎﻡ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﺮ‬ ‫ﺃﻓﻘﺪ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻗﺒﻞ‬ ‫ﺫه�ﻱ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺟﻤﻴﻌهﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻨﻴﺎﺕ‬ ‫هﺬﻩ‬ ‫ﺥﺖ‬ ‫ﺇﺫﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺮ�‬
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‫ﺣﻴﻥﺌﺬ ‪.‬ﺳﺄﺳﺘﺨﺪﻡ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻓﺴﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﺪ ّﺭﺏ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﺕﻨﻘﺬ�ﻲ ﺣﺎﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻤﺲ‬
‫ﺣﺎﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻠﺰﻭﻡ ﻣﺎ َ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺳﻊ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ �ﻌﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ ﻟﻠﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻮﺟﺐ ﻋ�� ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﺼﻄﺤﺒ�ﻱ ﻣﻌهﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺮﺭﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻧﺨﺰﻥ ﺃﺛﺎﺛﻨﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻧﺆﺟﺮ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻭﻋﺪﺕ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﺼﻮ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺇﺫﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﻴﺎﺏ ّ‬
‫ﳌﺪﺓ ﺳﻨﺔ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺸ�ﻞ‬ ‫ﻓﻨﺎﺋﻪ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻭ��‬ ‫ﻝ‬‫ﺍﳌﻥ�‬ ‫��‬ ‫��ﻱﺀ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ�� ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺳهﻼ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻓﻠ�ﻞ‬
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‫ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺻﻠﺔ ﻭﺛﻴﻘﺔ ﺑﺤﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺙ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﺍﳌﺎﺿﻴﺔ؛ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﺰهﺮ�ﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃهﺪﺍﻧ��ﺎ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬ ‫ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﺭ�ﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﺮﺁﺓ �� ّ‬
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‫ﻗﺪ ﺃﻗﺎﻣﻮﺍ �� ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ُ� َﻌﻴﺪ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﺎ�� ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻭﺻﻨﻊ �� ﻭﺍﻟﺪ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻃﻼ�ﻲ ﺳﻠﻤﺎ‬
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‫ﺧﺸﺏﻴﺎ ﻧﻘﺎﻻ �ﺎﻥ ﺛﺎﺑﺘﺎ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻷﺟﺮﺅ ﻋ�� ﺻﻌﻮﺩﻩ ﻟﻠﻮﺻﻮﻝ ﺇ�� ﺃﻏﺮﺍﺽ ﻋ��‬
‫ﻭﻗﺪﻣﺖ ��‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮﻓﻮﻑ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮ�ﺔ ﻟ�ﺥﺰﺍﻧﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺎﻛﺖ �ﻨﺔ �ﺴﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﺮﺩهﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺢ ﻟهﻮﻓﺎﻥ ﻛهﺪﻳﺔ ﻋﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻼﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋﻠﻘ��ﺎ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺼﺔ ‪:‬ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻣﺆ ِ�ﺴﺔ ﻣﻊ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﻪ ّ‬‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺗﺮ�ﻲ ﻟﻜﺘ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﺻﻌﺐ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﺩﻳﺔ ﻣﺘﻼﺯﻣﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺩﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻥﺸﺮ؛‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻼﺀ ﺑﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ �� ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ؛ ﻣﺮﺍﺳﻼﺕ ﺑﺮ�ﺪﻳﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﻣهﺘﻤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﻥﺴﺎﺀ ﻭﻋ�� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺍﺟﻌﺎﺕ ﻟﻠﻜﺘﺐ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺇﺫﺍﻋﻴﺔ؛ ﻧﺪﻭﺍﺕ ﻣﻊ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﻭﺍ �� ﻛﺘﺒﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺻﺪﻑ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺷﺮﺕ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻋﺰﻣﻲ ﻋ�� ﺷﺮﺍ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍ ّﺇ��ﻢ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﻭﺍ ﺃﻥ ُﻳﻈهﺮﻭﺍ �� ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮهﻢ ﳌﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠهﻢ؛ ﺯ�ﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﳌﺆﻟﻔ�ﻥ ﻗﺪﻣﻮﺍ �� ﺥﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺆﻟﻔﺎ��ﻢ؛ ﻭﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺨﻄﻴﻂ‬
‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ّﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺮﺍﺀ ﻛﺘﺒﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌ�ﻥ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﻴﻨﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻻﺍﺳﺘﻐﻨﺎﺀ ﻋﻦ ﺷﺮﺍﺀ ﺃﺷﻴﺎﺀ �ﻲ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺇﻣﺘﻼﻛهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺟهﺰ ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻗﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻨﺎﺩﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺳﺄﻗﺮﺃ ّﺃﻳﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺍ �� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﺧ�� ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﻋﺎﺗﺏﺘ�ﻱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺫهﺒﺖ ﻷﻭﺩﻋهﺎ ‪�.‬ﺝﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺩﺍﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻱﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻓﺮﻉ ﺃﺧﻀﺮ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻋ�� ﺟﺬﻋهﺎ ﺍﻟﻄﻮ�ﻞ ﻭﺍﻟهﺰ�ﻞ‬
‫ﺨﻴﻢ ﺍﻥ ﻋ�� ﺳﻘﻒ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺬﺍﺑﻞ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﺗﻠﻚ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ُﺗ ّ‬
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‫ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺡ ﻹﺍﺟﺎﺹ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﻄﻔﺖ ﺛﻤﺎﺭهﺎ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺟﺎﻧ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺤﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻧﺏﺜﻘﺖ ﻓﺮﻭﻋهﺎ ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺎ �� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ‪.‬ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺋﻤﺔ ﺍ�ﺥﻀﺮﺓ ﻋ�� َ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺍ ﺟﻌﻞ ﺃﻋﺎﻟ��ﺎ ﺗﻠﺘﻘﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻔﺼﻞ ﺟﺰﺃﻱ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ ﻭ�ﻠﻎ ﻃﻮﻝ ﺟﺬﻭﻋهﺎ ﻭﻋﺮﺿهﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻗﻮﺳﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻒ ﺗﺤﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻳﺘﻜﻔﻞ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﻳﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻺﻗﺎﻣﺔ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺑﺘﻠﻊ ﺭ�ﻘﻲ ﺑﺼﻌﻮ�ﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﺣﺮﺹ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ‬
‫هﻨﺎ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻳﺮﻭ�ﻚ ﺑﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺮﺟﺖ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻕ ﻹﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﺍﻟ��ﺗﻱﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺋﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺣﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺟﻠﺲ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﺳﺕﺸﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺇﻓهﺎﻣﻪ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﺳﻴﺤﺼﻞ ﻟهﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻌﻴ� ّﻱ ﺑﺼﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ّ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﺟهﺪ ﻣﻤﻜﻦ‬ ‫ّﺃﻧﻪ ﻗﺪ ﺑﺬﻝ ّ‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻤﺘﻨﺔ ﻟﻚ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺟﻌﻠﺖ ﻣ�ﻱ �ﺥﺼﺎ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﻌﻠﺖ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻣ�ﺎﻧﺎ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ ﻟﻠﻌﻱﺶ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻟﻌﻴ� ّﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺣﻴﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ‬
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‫ﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﻣﺨﺎﻟﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃ�ﺴﺎﺀﻝ ﻋﻦ ﺭﺃ��ﻢ �� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺏﺸﻌﺘ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻱﺲ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻋﺎﺵ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﻣﻔﻌﻤﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺜ�� ﻣﻨﺬ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻣﻨﻚ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺘﻌﻠﻢ ِ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﻛﻼﻣﻲ ﻭﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪ّ ��:‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ هﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻚ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﺴﺖ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ هﺬﺍ ﻟﻱﺲ �ﺡﻴﺤﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺑﻜﻴﺖ ﻟﻴﻞ ��ﺎﺭ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ �ﻌﺪ ﻋﻮﺩ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﺟﻨﺪﻳﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻥ ﻓﺼﺎﻋﺪﺍ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﻟﺪﻱ ﺇﻳﻤﺎﻥ ﻛﺒ�� ﻓﻴﻚ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻔﺰ �� ﺍﳌﺤﻴﻂ ﺍﻃﻠ��ﻱ ﻧﺎﻓﻊ‬ ‫ﻳﺎ ﺩﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻟﻌﻴ� ّﻱ ﻓﺴﺄﻗﻔﺰ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ّﺇﻧﻪ ﺳﻱﺒﺬﻝ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﻭﺳﻌﻪ ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻷﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺻﺮﺕ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻳﻥﺒ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺟﻊ ﺇ�� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ﻣﻄﻠﻊ �ﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‬ ‫ﻣﻼﺯﻣ�ﻱ ﻭﺍﳌﻜﻮﺙ ﻣ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺇﻗﺎﻣ�ﻱ �� ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﺻﺮﻓهﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮﺓ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ ﺇﻥ �� ﻣﺠﻴ��ﺎ ﻣ�� ﻧﻔﻘﺔ ﻻ ﺩﺍ�� ﻟهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﻳﻚ �� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺳﻱﺴﻌﺪﻭﻥ ﺑﻔﻌﻞ‬
‫ﺃﺟﻠﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣﺠﻴ��ﺎ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺳﺆﺍﻝ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺩ‬ ‫��ﻴﺄﻧﺎ ﻟﻠﻤﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻠﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺄﻟﻪ ّﺇﻳﺎﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣ�ﺝﻌﺎ« ‪ّ :‬‬
‫ﺗﻔﻀ�� ﻭﺍﺳﺄ��‪».‬‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ّ‬
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‫ﺳﺘﻘﻞ ﺣﻈﻮﻇﻲ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ﺇﻥ ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﻛﺘﺎ�ﻲ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫’’هﻞ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ّ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻴﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻱﺲ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋﻴﻨﻚ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻳﺪﺧﻞ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫��ﻢ‪ ،‬ﻃﺎﳌﺎ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻨﻌﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ �ﺸﺎﺋ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺏﺐ‬
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‫ﺳﻴﻤﺮ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ﺇﺫﺍ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺑﺎﻋﺜﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺗﻴﺎﺡ ‪.‬ﻷﻥ ﺯﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ �� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟﺔ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺇﺗﺨﺬﺕ ﻣﻦ ِ‬

‫ﺑﻱﺖ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺁﻝ ﺗﻮﺗﻦ ﻣ�ﺎﻧﺎ ﻟﻺﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﻟهﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ‬
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‫ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻣﺰﺍﻭﻟ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ �� ﺩﻭ ِﻓﺮ ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ؛ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺟﺌﺖ ﻣﻌهﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﻗﻤﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ُ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴﻮﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺮﻭﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺷﺮﻋﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ��‬ ‫ﺇ��ﺎﺀ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﺳﺒﺎﻗﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺳ�� ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺁﻝ ﺗﻮﺗﻦ ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺑ�ﻞ ﻧﻮﺍ�� ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺰﺍﺭﻉ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻌﻴﻥﻴﺎﺕ‬‫ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ّ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻓﻮﺭﺱ ﻭﺍ�ﺥﺎﻟﺔ ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻟﺜﻤﺎﻧﻴﻥﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺻﻒ ﺃﻭﺿﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻒ ﺟﺰﺀ ﻣﻦ ﺭﻭﺍﻳ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃﺳهﻤﺘﺎ‬
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‫ﺑﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﺖ ﺇ�� ﻣﻌﺮﻓ��ﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻟﻴﻮ ﻋﺎﺷﻘﺎ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ﻟ�ﺥﻴﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ �� ﻭﺳﻌﻪ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺃﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﺃﻃﺮﺣهﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ �ﺸﺄ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻳﺪهﻦ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍ�ﺥﺸﺏﻴﺔ ��‬ ‫ﺍﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ�� ﺍﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﺍﻭ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﻀﻴ��ﺎ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻟهﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺪﺛﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻗﺼﺔ ﻋﻦ ﱠ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﺃﺧ��ﻲ ّ‬‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺪﻳﻪ ﻭﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﺇﺫﻧﻪ ﻻﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣهﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍ�ﺡ�ﺎﻳﺔ ﻗﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻧﻘ�ﻯﻯ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺯﻣﻦ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﻴ�� ﻓﺮﺻﺎ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﻟﻠﺘﺤﺪﻱ ﻭﺍﳌﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ �� ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺇﺳﺕﻴﻞ ﺃﻛ�� ﻋﺎﻃﻔﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺼﺎﺋﺤهﺎ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﺗﻄﻮ�ﺮ �ﺥﺼﻴﺎ�ﻲ �� ﺃﻭﺿﺎﻉ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ‪� ��.‬ﻌﺾ‬ ‫ﻓ��ﺎ ﻏﺎﺿﺒ�ﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺣﺰﺍﻧﯩﺄﻭ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﻱ ﺍﻧﻔﻌﺎﻝ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ �ﻌﻤﻞ ﻋ�� ﻣﺸهﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻣﻮﻋﻨﺎ ﺗ��ﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻧ�ﺡﻚ ﻋ�� ﺗﺄﺛﺮﻧﺎ‬
‫�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺷﻐﻮﻓﺔ �ﻌﻤ�� ﺇ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺒ�� ﻋﻦ ﺍﺳﺕﻴﺎﺉﻲ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺻﺎﺩﻓﺖ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺼﺮﻓ�ﻱ ﻋﻨﻪ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﺳﺎﻃﻌﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﻮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺸﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﻼ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻧﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺭﺳﻠ��ﺎ �� ﺑﺄﻣﺎﻧﺔ هﺎﺯﻝ ﺛﻮﺭﻥ ﻋﻘﺐ ﺇﻧ��ﺎ��ﺎ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫�ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻣﺨﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻﺣﻈﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻗﻀﻴﻪ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻳﻘﺼﺮ ﺑﺎﻃﺮﺍﺩ ﻣﻊ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ‬
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‫ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﺷهﺮ �ﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻭﻝ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﺇﻻ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ �� ﻛﺒﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﻇهﺮﺍ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺣﺴﻦ ﺣﻈﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ �� ﺩﻭ ِﻓﺮ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﻴﻮﻡ‪.‬‬
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‫هﺎﺯﻝ ﺃﺻﻼ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻃﺒﻌ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻣﺨﻄﻮﻃﺔ‬ ‫ﺻﻔﺤﺔ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺃﻛﺘﺐ‬ ‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﻃﺎﺋﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻋ�� ﺭﻭﺍﻳ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺮﻓﺖ‬
‫ﻳﺕﺒﻖ �� ﻣﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻯ‬ ‫ﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺑﺒﻂﺀ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ �ﺝﺰﺕ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻷﻛﺘﺐ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ﻟﻢ َ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺃﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ �� ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ ﺗﻘﻊ ��‬ ‫ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺪﺑﺮﺕ ﺃﻣﻮﺭﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺷﻮﺍﺭﻋهﺎ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻧﺤﺪﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﺪﺓ ﻓﻮﺭﺱ ﻭ�� ﻣﻦ ﻧﻮﻉ �ﺸﺎﻭ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﻣﺮﺍﻓﻘ�ﻱ �� ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺘﺎﺩﺕ ﻛﻮﻛﻮ‪� ،‬ﻠﺒﺔ‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻥﺘﻈﺮ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺩهﺔ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﺄﺧﺮﺕ �� ﻴﺌﺔ ﻣﻈهﺮﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺼﻌﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﻼﻟﻢ ﺑﺤﺜﺎ ﻋ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺎﻭﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺴ�� ﻃﺮ�ﻖ ﻣﻠﺘﻮ�ﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺿﻴﻘﺔ �� ﺃﺭﺽ ﻛﺜﻴﻔﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﺗﻘﻊ �� ﺍ�ﺝﻮﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻊ ﺍﺷﺘﺪﺍﺩ ﺿﻌﻒ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ ّﺃ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺴﺖ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﻭﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺗﺏﺘﻌﺪ ﻋ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺒﺏﺖ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ﺏ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﻀﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻔﺘﺘﺔ �� ﻣﻘ��ﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺷﺎﺭﺩ ﺳ��ﻳﺖ‬
‫ﻟﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﺭﺅ��ﺎ ﻭﻻﺳﺘﻮﺍﺀ ﺃﺭﺍﺿ��ﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﻮﻛﻮ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﺧﻮﻝ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻘ��ﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻋ��ﺿﺖ ﻣهﺘﺎﺟﺔ �� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﻋ�� ﺫهﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� هﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ﻣﻮﻗﻒ ﻛﻮﻛﻮ ﺍﳌﺘﻌﺎﻃﻒ ﻭﺍﳌﺴﺆﻭﻝ ﺍﺗﺠﺎ�� ﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﻋﺪﻝ ﻋﻦ ﺭﺃﻱﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺏ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺨﺼﺼﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻢ ﺗﺪﺭ��ﺎ �� ﻣﻮﺭ ْ‬‫ﱠ‬
‫ﻱﺴﺘﺎﻭﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻓﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﺭﺍهﺎ ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻭ�� ﺗﻘﻮﺩ ﺃ�ﺡﺎ��ﺎ ﺍﳌﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭ�ﻌﺪ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺭﺅ�ﺔ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺍﻥ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻗﻴﻤ��ﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ ﺇ�� ﺥﺺ ﺃﻋﻤﻰ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺷﺮﺍﺀ ﺃﺣﺪ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺏ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺪ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﺑﻞ ﻭﻓﻜﺮﺕ ��‬
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‫ﺯ�ﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺪﺭﺏ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻷﺣﺼﻞ ﻋ�� ﻌﺾ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﺴﺒﻘﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺓ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ �ﻌﺪ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻏ��‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﻮ�ﺔ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩﺍ ﳌﺎ ﻳﻥﺘﻈﺮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺎﺭ�ﻦ‬
‫ﻣ�ﺝﻌﺎ ﻳﺪﻋﻮ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﻧﻀﻤﺎﻡ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺱ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﻮﺗﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺔ �� ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻥ ّ ْ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﻳﻘﺪﻡ ﻋ�� ﺍﺛ�� ّ‬‫ﺍ�ﺝﻤﺒﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﱠ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻮﻗﺎ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻨﻥﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺳﻴﻜﻮ‬
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‫ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺇﺳﺘﻔﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺭﺷﺎﺩﺍﺗﻪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﻋ�� ﺃﺛ�� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍﻋﻴﺔ ﻳﻤﺜﻞ ﺗﺠﺮ�ﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇﻥ �ﺥﺼﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﺪ ّﺭﺏ ﺍﳌﺮﺣﺔ ﻭﺍﳌﺜﺎﺑﺮﺓ ﺟﻌﻠﺘ�ﻱ �� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﺃﺗﺒﻊ �ﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺗﻪ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ‬
‫َّ ﻭ ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻌﺘﻤﺪﺓ ﻋ�� ﻣﻮﺍﻓﻘﺘﻪ ‪.‬ﺣﻨﻱﺖ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﻭﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻤﻄﻪ‪ ،‬ﺣﺮﻛﺖ ِﺭﺟ�� ﻭ ﺍﺯﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﺩﺕ ﻋ�� ﻇهﺮﻱ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬

‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺔ ﻋ�� ﻗﺪﻡ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻭﻣﻤﺴﻜﺔ ﺑﺎﻷﺧﺮﻯ �� ﺍﻟهﻮﺍﺀ ‪.‬ﺗﻤﺪ‬
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‫ﻭﺭﻓﻌﺖ ِﺭﺟ�� ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺎ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻘﻠﺐ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺍﺀ ‪.‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﻭﳌﺴﺖ ﺑﺮ ﻭﺱ ﺃﺻﺎ�� ﺇ��ﺎﻣﻲ ِﺭﺟ��‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺑﺠﻌﻞ ﻛﻔ�� ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ ﻣﺤﻮ ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺅ‬
‫ﻣﺜﻞ ّ‬ ‫ﺝﺡﺖ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ َ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣهﺰﺓ ﻣهﺪ ﻗﺪﻳﻢ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻊ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﺭ‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺝﺺ ﺍﳌﺮﻛﺐ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻒ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧ�ﻯﻯ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺑﻘﻮﺓ ﺇ��‬
‫�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ��‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﻱﻐ�ﻱ ﻭ�ﺼﺮﺥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻳﻨﻮﻉ ﺣﺮ�ﺎﺗﻨﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻟهﺚ ﻭﺃﺷهﻖ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﺪ ّﺭﺏ ﻳﻼﻃﻒ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ ﻏ�� ﺍﳌﺮﺋﻴ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳ��ﻳﺢ ﻟ�ﺡﻈﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻋﺮﻕ ﻣﻊ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺤﺎﺳﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺩﻳﻮ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺎ�ﻌﺔ ﻭﻱﻌﻴﺪ�ﻲ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻷﻟﺘﻘﻂ ﺃﻧﻔﺎ��ﻱ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﺪ ّﺭﺏ �ﺴﺕﺸﻌﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺮ�ﻦ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﻔﺰ ﻋ�� ﻭﻗﻊ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻉ ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺏﺚ ﻋ�� ﺍﺛ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻣ��ﻜﺔ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ‪�� ،‬ﺎﻟﻜﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ ﻭ�ﻌﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺑﺄ�ﺥﻒ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻔﺎﺀ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻔﺰ ﻛﻤهﺮ ﺻﻐ��‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺪﺭ�ﻨﺎ ﻳﻘﺮﺃ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺭﺳﺎﺋﻞ ﺗﺘﻀﻤﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺘﻨ�ﻥ ﻳﺼﻔﻮﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻐ��ﺍﺕ ﺍﳌﺬهﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻧﻔﻌ��ﻢ ��ﺎ ﺗﻤﺎﺭ�ﻨﻪ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺷهﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺘﺎ�ﻌ�ﻥ‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ �ﺴﻱﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻃﻠﻘ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭ�ﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻌﻮﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺪ‬
‫�ﺏﻴﺔ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ��‪.‬‬ ‫ﻳﻥﺒ�� ﻟﻨﺎ ﻋﻤﻠﻪ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎ��ﻢ �� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ّﺃ��ﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺮﻭﺍ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ‬

‫�ﻞ ِ‬
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‫ﺃﺟﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻗﻀﻮﺍ ّ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﺷﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﺣﻴﺎ��ﻢ ﺷهﺮﻱ ﺃﻳﻠﻮﻝ ﻭ�ﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻭﻝ ��ﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺜﺎﻟﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺻﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻓﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺩ ُﻙ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﺅ��ﻱ �ﺝﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺸهﺪ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﻀﺎﺀﻝ ﺑﺎﻃﺮﺍﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺪﻣﺖ ﺇ�� ﺩﻭﻓﺮ ّﺃﻭﻝ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻕ ﺍﳌﺮﺻﻮﻓﺔ ﻣﺴﻮﺭﺓ ﺑﺨﻀﺮﺓ ﻛﺜﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺘﺤﻮﻟﺔ ﺇ�� ﻟﻮﻥ ﺃﺻﻔﺮ ﻓﺎﺗﺢ‪،‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫��ﺡﺐ هﺬﻩ ﺍ�ﺥﻀﺮﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭ�ﺞ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﻛﻼ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻧﺒ�ﻥ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺘﺤﻮﻝ �ﻌﻀهﺎ ﺇ�� ﻇﻼﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟ��ﺗﻘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺮ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺒﻥﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﺳﻮﺍﺭ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻃﺒﻘﺎﺕ ﺳﻤﻴﻜﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ ْ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻏﺪﺕ ﺃﺿﻴﻖ ﻷﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ ��ﺘﺖ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ‬
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‫ﺇﻧﺏﺜﻘﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺪﺩ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﺬﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﺒﺔ �� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺮﻭﻉ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺠﻤﻊ ‪.‬ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺠﻮﻟﺔ ﻋ�� ﻇهﺮ ﻣﺮﻛﺒﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻒ‬ ‫هﺰ�ﻠﺔ ﻭﺳﻂ ﻏﺸﺎﻭﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺲ ﺑﺪﻑﺀ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�� ﻧﻈﺮﻱ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ ﺧﺎﻃﻒ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺿﺒﺎﺏ ﻳﺘ�ﺎﺛﻒ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺣ�ﻯ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺷﻤﺲ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﺻﻴﻞ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺓ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ‪ُ .‬ﻭ� َﻌﻴﺪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻈه��ﺓ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ �ﺥﺼﺎ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻕ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻓﺘﺢ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻭﺃﻏﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﻋﻘﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﺳﺘﻥﺘﺠﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﺎ�� ﺍﻟ��ﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﻧﺰﻟﺖ ﻷﺗﺤﻘﻖ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺻﻮ ﺃﻱ ﺑﺮ�ﺪ �� ‪.‬ﺑﺮﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﺋﻞ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ‪ ،‬ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻻﺣﻆ ﺇﺳﻤﻲ ﻋ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﳌﻐﻠﻔﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﺍﳌﻐﻠﻒ ﻭﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺤﺘﻮﺍهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﻨﺼ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﻣﺡﺝﻮﺯﺍ ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍ ﺇﻥ ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ هﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﺘﺤ�� ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺇﺳﺘﻮﻋﺒﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺸﻱﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻑ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ�� ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﺑ�ﻲ �ﺸ�ﻞ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ‪.‬ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫هﺴﺘ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﻣﻀﻄﺮ�ﻦ ﺇ�� ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻱﺶ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻻ �ﻌﻮﺩ ﻟﺪ��ﻢ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺋﺪﺓ؟ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻟﻱﺴﻮﺍ‬
‫�ﻌﻱﺸﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺁﻩ ‪...‬هﺆﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﻻ ﻳﺪﺭﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺪﻯ ّ‬
‫ﺣ�ﻱ ﻟﻠ�ﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﻟﻄﻼ�ﻲ ﻭﻋﻤ��‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻻ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻤﺮ �� ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﺍﺩﺏ ﺭﻏﻢ �ﺝﺰﻱ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﻔﻌﻠﻮﺍ هﺬﺍ �ﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﺳﻴﺠﺪﻭﻥ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ �ﻲ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩ ّﺭﺳﻪ ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺣﻔﻈﺖ �� ﺫﺍﻛﺮ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻋﻦ ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ‪،‬‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻟﻠﻤﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﻣﻮﺍ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﻠﻴﺔ ﻛﻮﻧﻜﻮﺭﺩﻳﺎ ﺣﻴﺚ ﺩﺭﺱ ﺃﺑﻨﺎﺀ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ �ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺑﺮﻭﻓﺴﻮﺭ ﺃﻋﻤﻰ ﻳﺪﺭﺱ‬
‫�ﺎﻣﺒﻞ �� ﻗﺴﻢ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺃﺑﻘﺖ‬ ‫ﻗﺪ‬ ‫ﻣﻴﺕﺸﻴﻐﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺿﻴﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺓ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻨﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺑﻮﻝ‬‫ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺀ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ﻋﺪﻳﺪﺓ �ﻌﺪ ﻓﻘﺪﺍﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮ – ﺣ�ﻯ ﻭﺍﻓﺘﻪ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻴﻮﺷﻚ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻋﺎﺟﺰﺍ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻳﺪ ّﺭﺱ ﺍﻧ�ﻠ��ﻳﺔ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺨﻄﺌﺔ ﻓﻘﺪ ﻋﻤﻞ �� ﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﻧﺕﻴﻮﺵ ﺑﺮ ﻓﺴﻮ ﺃﻋﻤﻰ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ �� ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺗﻠﻤﺴﺖ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪ّ .‬‬‫ٌ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺗﺤﺴﺴﺖ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﺾ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﻔﺘﺢ ﻣﻮﺍﺳ�� ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺯ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺯ ّﻱ‬
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‫ﺇﺳﺕﻴﻞ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺇ��ﻢ ﺭﻛﺒﻮﺍ ﻓﺮﻧﺎ ﻛهﺮ�ﺎﺋﻴﺎ �� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﻥ� ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻓﺸهﻘﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋﺎﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻣﻞ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﺑﻤ�ﺎﻥ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻤﺪﺩ ﻋ��‬ ‫ٍ‬
‫ﺍﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﻻ ﺃﺳﺕﻴﻘﻆ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌ��ﺕ ﺑﺎﻷﺭ�ﻜﺔ ‪��.‬ﺎﻟﻜﺖ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣ��ﻜﺔ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺪﺩﺓ ﺑﻼ ﺣﺮﺍﻙ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻋﻘ�� ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﻣﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻘﻴﺖ ﱠ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻮﺷﺎ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ‪.‬ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻱ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻟﻠﺘﻔﻜ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺃ ﺫه�ﻱ ﻳﺼﻔﻮ �ﻌﺪ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺧﺘﻔﻰ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﺪﺭ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺛﻢ ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﻮﻑ ‪.‬ﻭﺣﺪهﻢ ﺍ�ﺝﺒﻨﺎﺀ‬
‫ﻛﻴﻠﺮ؟ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻗﺎﺭﻧﺖ ﻭﺿ�� ﺑﻮﺿﻌهﺎ ﻓﺈﻥ‬ ‫�ﺴﺕﺴﻠﻤﻮﻥ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ‪.‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻋﻦ هﻴﻠ�ﻥ ِ‬
‫ﺇﻋﺎﻗ�ﻱ ﻟﻱﺴﺖ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺇﻋﺎﻗ��ﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ �ﻌ��ﻑ ﺑﺎﻟهﺰ�ﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﺩﻣﻮﻉ ﺍ�ﺥﺰﻱ ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﺷﻔﺎﻕ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺬﺍﺕ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍ��ﻤﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﻴﻠ�ﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺣﻘﻘﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻨﺘﺼﻮﺭ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﺟﻴﺪﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻗﺪ ﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻧﺎﻓﻌﺔ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ُﺳ ِﻠ َﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎﺫﺍ �ﻌﺪ؟‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﻋ�� ﻗﻴﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟ ﺃﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﺟﺪ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻳﻠﺰﻡ ﺃﺩﺍﺅهﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺤﺜﺖ ﻋ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ��؟‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻣهﻤﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺑﺡﺝﻢ ﻭﻇﻴﻔﺔ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻌهﺎ ﺍﻥ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﺛﻨﺎﺀ �ﺎﻧﺖ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺬﻝ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻃﺎﻗ�ﻱ ﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ‪�.‬ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻢ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺳﺄﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﻪ ﺣﻴ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺼﺔ ﺣ�ﺎهﺎ ﺩﺑﻠﻴﻮ ﺃﻝ ﻣﻴﻮﺭﻭ �� ّ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻤﻊ �� ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻛﻮﻟﻮﻣﺒﻴﺎ �� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻗﺮ�ﺐ‬ ‫هﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺝﻌﺘ�ﻱ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻋﺘﻤﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻭﻝ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺝﻮ�ﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺪﻥ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻧﻈﺎﻡ ﺇﻃﻔﺎﺀ ﺍﻧﻮﺍﺭ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺭﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ ﺑﺈﻧ�ﻠ��ﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺪ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻣﺸﻘﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻘﻞ �� ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﻤﺔ ‪ ��.‬ﺇﺣﺪﻯ‬
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‫ﺍﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﺟﺎﺀ ﺭﺟﻞ ﺇ�� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﺫﺍﻋﺔ �� ﻟﻨﺪﻥ ﻟﻴﺨ�� ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻥﺒ�� ﻟهﻢ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‬
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‫ﻟﺘﺠﻨﺐ ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺧﺒ��ﺍ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻔﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﻷﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﻧﺠﺰ ﻣﻦ هﺬﻩ‬
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‫ﺇﻣﺘﺪﺕ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﺍﺭ ﺳﻨ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ّﺑ�ﻥ ﺑﻀﻊ ﻗﻮﺍﻋﺪ �ﺴﻴﻄﺔ ﻟهﺎ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺪ ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺴ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺘﻴﻢ ﺁﻣﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ّ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻢ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪ‬ ‫ﺣﺪ �ﻌﻴﺪ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻝ‪،‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺀ ﻣﺮﻓﻘﻴﻪ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻪ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪ ﻳﺪﻳﻪ ﻷﻥ ﺍﳌﺮﻓﻘ�ﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﻭﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺴﻢ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺩﻋﻤهﻤﺎ ﻟ�ﺝﺴﻢ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻋﻢ ﺍﻟﻴﺪﻳﻦ �� ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﺎﺩﻡ ﻣﻊ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺳﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻨﺼﺎﺋﺢ ﻷﺷﻘﺎﺋﻪ �� ﺍﻟﺮ�ﻒ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﺟﺘﻨﺎﺏ ﺍ�ﺡﻮﺍﺩﺙ �� ﺷﻮﺍﺭﻉ ﻟﻨﺪﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﻔﻴﻔﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺑﺼﺮﻩ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﳌﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻭ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻷ��ﺎ ّﺑﻴﻥﺖ �� ﺃﻥ ﷲ ﻳﺠﺪ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﻣ�ﺎﻧﺎ ﻟﻸ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ‬ ‫ﺃ�ﺝﺒﺘ�ﻱ هﺬﻩ‬
‫ﻳﺮﻏﺒﻮﻥ ﺣﻘﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻔ��ﺽ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﻀﺮ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻮﻑ ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ �� ﺁﺧﺮ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺃﺣﺪ ��‬
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‫ﺷهﺮ �ﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﻭﻝ ‪.‬ﺭﺍﻋ�ﻱ هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﺄﺯﻕ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺑﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﺻﻌﺐ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺍ�ﺝﺪﺓ ﻓﻮﺭﺱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻠﺘ�ﻥ �ﺎﻧﺘﺎ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺷهﺮ ﺃﻳﻠﻮﻝ �ﺎﻥ ﻭﺟهﺎ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻟﺔ ﺃﻟﻱﺲ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻠﺴﺎﻥ �� ﺍ�ﺝهﺔ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﺑﻠﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﺎﺋﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﻻﺣﺎ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ّﺃ��ﻤﺎ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﻣﻴﺎﻩ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺷﻮهﺖ ﻣﻼﻣﺤهﻤﺎ ﻭﺃﻋﺘﻤ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﺿﻌﻔﺖ ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬ ‫ّﺃ��ﻤﺎ ُﻣﻨﻌﻜﺴ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﻣﺮﺁﺓ ﺭﺧﻴﺼﺔ ّ‬
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‫ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﻭﺟه��ﻤﺎ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻓﺸﻱﺌﺎ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟه��ﻤﺎ ﻏ�� ﻓﻜ��ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻠﻴ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺻﺮﺕ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻏ�� ﻃﻴﻒ ﺍﻳﺪﻱ ﻷﺍﻃﺒﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻃﻌﺎﻣﺎ ﻻ‬ ‫ﱠ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺗﻤﻴ��ﻩ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺎﺵ ﺍﺑﻴﺾ ﻋ�� ﺟﺎﻧ��ﻤﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺎﺋﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﻮ��ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺪﻟ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻭﺟﻮﺩهﻤﺎ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﺃﻣﺎ ﻟﻴﻮ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻟﺲ ﻋﻦ �ﺴﺎﺭﻱ‬
‫ﺃﻣ�� ﺃﺷ�ﺎﻟهﻢ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻄﻌﺖ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺓ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬ ‫ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻭﺇﺳ ِﺘﻞ ﻋﻦ ﻳﻤﻴ�ﻱ ﻓﻘﺪ‬
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‫ﻭﺍ�ﺝﺪﺓ ﻓﻮﺭﺱ‪ ،‬ﺃﺷ�ﺎﻻ‬ ‫ﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻭﺟﻮههﻢ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﻟﺔ ﺃﻟﻱﺲ‬
‫ﻣ��ﻤﺔ ﻟﻱﺲ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺠﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻳﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﻣ�ﺎ��ﺎ ﻏ�� ﺃﺻﻮﺍ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺻﻞ ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻮﻑ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎﺀ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﺟﻠﺴﻨﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﳌﺎﺋﺪﺓ ‪.‬ﻓﻴﻤﺎ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻘﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧ��ﺗ�ﻱ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺧﺎﻓﺖ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﻦ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻟﻴﻮ ُﻳ ّ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻧﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﱠ‬
‫ﻳﻘﺪﻡ ﻭﻋﻦ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺃﻃﺒﺎ�� ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺎﺋﺪﺓ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻣﺴﺎﻙ‬
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‫ﻯ‬
‫�ﺸﻮﻛ�ﻱ ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺃﺻﺎ�ﻊ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮ ﻋﻮﺿﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ �� ﻱﺀ‬
‫ﺭﻃﺐ ﻭﺭﻗﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻓ�ﺡﺒﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻃﺒﻘﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺤﺘﻮﻱ ﻋ�� ﺷﺮﺍﺋﺢ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺡ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ﺇﻧ‬ ‫هﻤﺴﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺑﺄﺱ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﻄهﻮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻣﺴ�ﻲ ��ﺬﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻣﺴ�� ﻳﺪﻳﻚ ﺑﻔﻮﻃﺘﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻛﺮﺳﻱﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺍﺧﺮﻯ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺧﻔﻴﺾ ﻻ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻧﺤﻮ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﺗﺘﻮﺟ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺇﺳﺕﻴﻞ ﺗ��ﺾ‬
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‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ �ﺴﻤﻌﻪ ﻏ��ﻱ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﻩ ﻓﻮﻃﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﺳﺘﺄﺕ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻓﺴﺪﺕ ﻋﺸﺎﺉﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻄهﻮﺓ‪».‬‬ ‫ﻃﺒﻘﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺤﺘﻮﻱ ﻋ�� ﺷﺮﺍﺋﺢ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺡ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ﺇﻧ‬ ‫«‬
‫ﻯ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫«ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺠﺪﻳﻦ ﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺑﺼﺮﻙ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻋﻮﺩﻱ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ ﻭﺳﻥ� ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻚ‪».‬‬
‫ﺭ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬
‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺎﻩ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻋﺮﻓﺖ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋﻤﻴﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻞ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻭﺃﺟﺪ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ُﻣﻈﻠﻤﺎ ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﺳﺕﻴﻘﻆ ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﻓﻈﻴﻌﺎ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ ‪ ��.‬ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﺷﺒﻪ �ﺎﻣﻞ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻣﻜﻔﻮﻓﺔ ﺍﻥ ﺑﺎﺕ ﻗﻄﻌﻴﺎ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪّ‬‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻄﻦ ﺇ�� ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺃﺭﻋﺒ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﺑﺄﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻠهﺐ ﺍﳌﻨ��ﺓ ﻭ�� ﺗﺮﻗﺺ �� ﺍﳌﻮﺍﻗﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺧﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺮﻑ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺘﻮ�ﺝﺔ ﺑﺎﻷﻧﻮﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﳌﺴﻄﺤﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺳﻌﺔ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻳﻨﻌﻜﺲ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺄﺷﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻃﻌﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺷ�ﻞ ﻃﺒﻘﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻓﻀﻴﺔ ﻻﻣﻌﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻟﻠﻤﺮﺀ ﺃﻥ �ﺸﺘ�ﻲ ﻭﻗﺪ َ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻴﺢ ﻟﻪ ﺃﻥ �ﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺎﺋﺐ ﻟﻴﻞ ��ﺎﺭ؟‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺇ ﻣﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ �� ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻦ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ��‬
‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻨﺎ�� ﺇ�� ﺳﻤﻊ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻭﻋﺎﺋﻠﺔ ﺳﻴﻢ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﻏﺎﺩﺭ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻟﻴﺘﻤﻨﻮﺍ �� ﺣﻈﺎ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﺣﺎﻣﻠ�ﻥ هﺪﺍﻳﺎهﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻄﻮﺭ‬ ‫ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‪ ،‬ﺟﺎﺅﻭﺍ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‬
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‫ﻭﺣﻠﻮﻯ ﻭﺛﻴﺎﺏ ﺩﺍﺧﻠﻴﺔ ﺣﺮ�ﺮ�ﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺧ��ﻭ�ﻲ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺧﻠﻴﺔ ﺯﺭﻗﺎﺀ ﻭﺯهﺮ�ﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺛﻤﻨﺖ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻣﺘﻌﺔ �� ﳌﺴهﺎ ﺑﺄﺻﺎ��‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻓ�ﺡﺖ‬ ‫ﻭﺧﻮﺧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻋﻨﻪ ﺍﻟهﺪﺍﻳﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺇﺫ ﺇﺧﺘﻠﻴﺖ ﺑﻨﻔ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﺻﻠﻴﺖ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺩﻋﻮﺕ ﺃﻻ �ﺴﻮﺀ ﺍﺣﻮﺍﻝ ﻣ�� ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺤ�� ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻟﺘﺤﻤﻠهﺎ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺳﺎﺀﺕ ‪� ��.‬ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺑﺎ�‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺭ ّﺩﺩ ﺩﻋﺎﺉﻲ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻠﻔﻈﻪ ﺑ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
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‫هﺪﺃﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺭﻭ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺍﻗ��ﺍﺏ ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ��ﺎﻳﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﺮﺣﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﻤﺖ ��ﺪﻭﺀ ﻭﻃﻤﺄﻧﻱﻨﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺳﺒﻘﺖ ﺫهﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ�� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺖ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺣﺎﺟﻴﺎ�ﻲ �� ﺣﻘﺎﺋ�ﻱ ﻭﺃﻏﻠﻘ��ﺎ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﺗﺪﻱ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﻭﻗﻊ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ ﻛﻮﻛﻮ ﻭ�� ﺃﺛﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺗﻮ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺬﺭ �ﻲ ﻻ ﺃ�ﻌ�� ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﺎﺩ ﻟﻴﻮ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﻠﻪ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﻋﺪﻩ‪،‬‬‫ﻭﻗﺎﻡ �ﺸ�ﻯ ﺃﺷ�ﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻒ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟ�� ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ هﻮ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ �� ﻋﺪﻡ ﻗﺪﺭﺓ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﻨﻪ ‪.‬ﻭ��‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺩ�� ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ ﺃﻓﺮﻏﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺔ ﻳﺪهﺎ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻣﺤﺘﻮ�ﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺣﻘﻴﺒ�ﻱ ﻣﺘﺬ ّﺭﻋﺔ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺣﻘﻴﺒ��ﺎ ﺃﻭﺳﻊ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ ْ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ُ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺢ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻟﻔﺤﺖ ﻭﺟﻮهﻨﺎ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺗﻮﺟهﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺪ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻋﺚ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻜﺂﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻭﺍﺻﻞ هﻄﻮﻟﻪ ﻃﻴﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﺳﺒﻮﻉ ‪.‬ﺟﺎﺀ ﻣﺪﻳﺮ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ ﻭﻃﻠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺠهﺰ ﻷ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﻄﺎﺭﺍ ﺳﺮﻱﻌﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﺳﻱﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﺧﺼﻴﺼﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟ�� ‪.‬ﺳﻤﻌﻨﺎ ﺻﻔﺎﺭﺗﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ �ﻌﻴﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ��ﺪﺭ �� ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻭﺁﻝ ﺗﻮﺗﻦ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ ﻟﺘﻘﺒﻴ�� ﻗﺒﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺩﺍﻉ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻥ�ﻝ ﺍﳌﺴﺆﻭﻝ‬
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‫ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﻭﺳﺎﺋﻘﻪ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺻﻴﻒ ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻛﻮﺏ ‪.‬ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺑﻠﻐﺖ ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻱ‬
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‫ﺣ�ﻯ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺤﺮﻛﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﻭﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺭﺣﻠ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﻝ ﺃﻏﻄﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﻀﺮ �� ﻭﺳﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻟ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺍﻟﻜهﺮ�ﺎﺉﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
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‫ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻣ�ﻯ ﺇﺣﺘﺠﺖ ﺇ�� ﻱﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻭﺏ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ �� ﺍﳌﻀﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺋﻤﺔ ﻭﻗﺮﺃهﺎ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﻋﺸﺎﺉﻲ �� ﻋﺮ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻓﻘﻪ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﻝ ‪.‬ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ ﺇﻥ‬
‫�� ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ٍ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﻣﻘﻄﻮﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ‪.‬ﻓﻀﻠﺖ ﺍ�ﺥﻴﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺜﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﺃﻥ هﺬﺍ ﻟﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺨﻔﻒ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻇهﻮﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻴﺠﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﺃﺭﺗﺎﺡ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﺩ�ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﻝ ﺇ�� ﻋﺮ�ﺔ‬ ‫ﻗﺮﺭ ُﺕ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﻛﺮﺍ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻃﻮ�ﻼ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺍﺕ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺪﺩ �� ﺳﺮ�ﺮﻱ ‪.‬ﺧﻠﻌﺖ ﺛﻴﺎ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ �ﻲ ﻻ‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺃﺿﻴﻌهﺎ ﺑﺕﻨﻘ�� ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﺑﺤﻜﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺃﻟﺏﺲ ﻧﻈﺎﺭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﻌهﺎ‬
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‫ﻓﺮﺩ�ﻲ ﺍ�ﺡﺬﺍﺀ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺑﺘﺄﻥ �� ﻋﻠﺒﺔ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺣﻘﻴﺒ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻋﻘﺪﺕ ﺟﻮﺭ َ� ّﻲ ﻭﺩﺳﺴ��ﻤﺎ �� ﺃﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﻭﺭ�ﻄﺖ هﺬﺍ ﺍ�ﺡﺬﺍﺀ ﺑﺤﻘﻴﺒ�ﻱ ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃﺔ ﺷﺮ�ﻂ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺷﺒﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻥ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ �� ﻧﻔﺲ ﻃﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺗﻜﻮ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺣﺮﺻﺖ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﻊ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻮ�ﻚ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﻟﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻋﻠﻖ ِ‬
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‫ﺗﺤﺴﺴﺖ‬ ‫ﺳﻠﻤﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﺜﻮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﺘﺤﺔ ﻭﺟﺪ��ﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺋﺮ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻴﻜﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺤﻴﻄﻲ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻋﻄﻴﺘﻚ ﺑﻄﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ ﺧﺸﻱﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﺗﺠﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟ��ﺩ‪،‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ‬
‫ﻓﺎﻟﻠﻴﺎ�� ﺍ�ﺝﺒﺎﻝ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ��ﻭﺩﺓ ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﷲ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺁﺑﻪ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻟﻮ ﻋﻠﻢ ّ‬
‫�ﺸﺪﺓ ﺭﻏﺒ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣ�ﻯﻯ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻋﻮﺗﻪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻳ��ﺍﺀﻯ ��‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﻀﺮﻉ ﺇ�� ﷲ �ﻲ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺮﺩ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺑﺼﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻﺣﻈﺖ �ﻌﺪ‬ ‫�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ‪ ،‬ﺳﻱﺴﺘﺠﻴﺐ �� ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺮهﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﺩﻳﺪﻱ ﻟﺪﻋﺎﺉﻲ ﺗﺰﺍﻣﻦ ﻣﻊ ﻭﻗﻊ ﻗﺮﻗﻌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﻼﺕ ﻋ�� ﻗﻀﺒﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺔ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺭ ّﺏ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺭ ّﺏ‪،‬‬
‫ﺇﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ‪ ،‬ﺇﺟﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﺎ ﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺭ ّﺏ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺭ ّﺏ‪،‬‬
‫ﻳﺎ ﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺭ ّﺏ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺭ ّﺏ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﺭ ّﺩﺩ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺪﻋﺎﺀ ﺑﻼ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﻃﻠﻊ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺎﻝ ﺛﻮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺎﺀ �ﻲ ﺇ�� ﻣﻘﻄﻮﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﺍﻓﻄﺎﺭ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺎﺩ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﻤ ُ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺃﻣﺘﻌ�ﻱ �� ﺍﳌﻘﻌﺪ ﺑﺠﺎﻧ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﺒﺎﻃﺄ ﺳ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ �� ﺿﻮﺍ�� ﺷﻴ�ﺎﻏﻮ ﻭﺿﻊ ّ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻚ ﻣﻦ هﻤﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻟﻪ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﺳﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﻭﺿﻊ ﺃﻏﻄﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺭ��‬
‫ﺪﺑﺮ ‪�.‬ﻌﺎﻣ�� ﻣﻊ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﻭ ّ�ﺔ ﻭﺳﺘﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﻜﻨﺘﻪ ﺍ�ﺝﻨﻮ�ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴﻠﺔ ﺑﺎﻋﺜﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺗﻴﺎﺡ ﻛ�ﻠﻤﺎﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻋﺜﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻤﺌﻨﺎﻥ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻋﺮ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺩﺧﻞ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﻤﺎﻝ �ﻌﻴﻨ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭﻝ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺻﻴﻒ ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺑﺮﻓﻖ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﻧﻘﻠﻚ ﺇ��‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺪ‬‫ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻛ‬ ‫هﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﺳ��ﻳﺖ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺳﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﻻ‬ ‫ﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﺤﻄ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺩﺍﻝ؟ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺭﺋﻱﺲ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﺬﺭﺍ�� ﻭﻗﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺸﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻒ ﺣﻮ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻠﻘﻴﻨﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺮﻗﻴﺘ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﺎﺿﻴﺔ ﺑﺄﻧ ِﻚ ﻋ�� ﻣ�ﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ��’’ ‪:‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﻓﻠﻮ ﻭﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ �ﻠﻴﻔﻼﻧﺪ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻳﺤﻱﻱ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻘﻲ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺪﺛ�ﻱ ﺑﺄﺳﻠﻮﺏ ﻣﺮﺡ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ﻭهﻮ ّ‬
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‫ﻭﺳﺂﺧﺬﻙ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﻓﻠﺔ ﺑﺎﺭ ْﻣ��‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻥ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺳ��ﻳﺖ‬ ‫ﺳﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﻻ‬ ‫ﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﺤﻄ‬ ‫’’ﻧﺤﻦ ��‬
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‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮﺻﻴﻒ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺻﻴﻒ ﺍﺧﺮ ﻗﺼ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ �� ﺇﻻ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﺣ�ﻯ‬
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‫ﺳﻠﻤﻮ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺥﺺ �� ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﳌﺸ��ﻛﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ‪،‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﳌﻌﺎﻧﺎﺗﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺁﺳﻒ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺤﻄ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﻧﻤ��ﻱ ��‬
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‫ﺳﺎﻟﻚ ﺇ�� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ﺣﻴﺚ ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ‪ ،‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻨﻮﺍ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺇ‬ ‫ﻱ‬‫ﻳﺠﺮ‬ ‫ﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻧ‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺗﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻮﺻﻠ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﳌﻘﺎﻋﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻨﻚ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ هﻨﺎ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻄﺎﺭ ِﻙ ﻟﻱﺲ ﺟﺎهﺰﺍ �ﻌﺪ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳ��ﻳ��‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺭﺟﻮ ِ‬
‫ﻭﻻ ﺗﻘﻠﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺄﻋﻮﺩ ﻗﺮ�ﺒﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ �� ﻋﺮ�ﺔ ﻗﻄﺎﺭ ��ﺎﺭ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺳﺮ�ﺮ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻛ�� ﺇ��ﺎ�ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻤﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ�� ‪.‬ﻳﺪﺧﻞ ﺭ�ﺎﺏ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻐﻴ�� ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ �ﺸﺎﻁ ﺻﺎﺧﺐ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﺮ�ﺔ ﻭﻱﻐﺎﺩﺭ ﺁﺧﺮﻭﻥ ﻋﻨﺪ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ‪.‬ﺛﻢ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ ﺍﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺄﻟﻮﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﺳﺘﻥﺸﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﻥﺴﻴﻢ‬ ‫ﻭﻱﺴﻜﻮ�ﺴﻦ ‪:‬ﻣﺎﺩ�ﺴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺳﺒﺎﺭﺗﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻱﺴﺖ ﺳﺎﻟﻢ ‪ّ .‬‬ ‫ﻟﺒﻠﺪﺍﺕ ْ‬
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‫ﻭﺧﻤﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺴﻱﺴ�ﻱ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻨﻌﺶ ﺍﻟﺮﻃﺐ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻯ ﺍﺟﻮﻑ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ُ� َﻌﻴﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻧﺒﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺟﺴﺮ ﺳﻜﺔ ﺣﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻧﺪﻧﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺟهﺔ ﺍﻟ��ﺮ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣ�ﻯﻯ ﻗﺎﻃﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﺬﺍﻛﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﻭﺃﻋﻠﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﺳﻱﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻟﻴﺕﻨﺎﻭ ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺍ ﻳﻤﻨﻌ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺐ ﺑﻠﻎ �ﻲ ّ‬ ‫ُ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ‬ ‫�� ﻭ�ﻨﻮﻧﺎ ‪.‬ﺣﺴﺏﺖ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻣ�ﻱ ﻭﻋﺮﺿﺖ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﻀﺮ �� ﺷﻄ��ﺓ ﻭﻛﻮ�ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘهﻮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺒﻠﺖ ﺻﻥﻴﻌهﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻗ��ﺑﺖ‬
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‫ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺸﻜﺮ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﺭﻑ ﺗﺒﺎﺩﻟﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺰ�ﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻧﻘ�ﻯﻯ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺮﻉ‪.‬‬
‫«ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‪ ،‬ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‪ ،‬ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ‪.‬هﺬﺍ هﻮ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﻭﺝ»‪ ،‬ﻧﺎﺩﻯ ﻗﺎﻃﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﺬﺍﻛﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﻣﻘﺼﺪﻱ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻧﻮﺩﻱ ﺑﺎﺳﻤﻲ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﺭﺟﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺻﻴﻒ �� ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﺭﻭﺷﺴ��‬
‫‪،‬ﺛﻢ ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻳﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺩﻳﻦ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺟﻠﺴ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﻌﺪ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺗﻥﺘﻈﺮ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻣﺴﺘﻐﺮ�ﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻳﻦ؟ ﺃﻻ �ﻌﺮﻑ؟ ﺃﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ؟‪‘‘.‬‬

‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ« ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﻨﺪﻭﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﻧﻮﺭ ْﺙ ﻭﻱﺴ��ﻥ ﻟﻠﺴﻜﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ‪ُ ،‬ﻃﻠﺐ ّ‬
‫ﺇ��‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻧﻴﻮ�ﻮﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻲ ﺑﻚ هﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﺃﺣﺮﺹ ﻋ�� ﻧﻘﻠﻚ ﺇ�� ﺣﻴﺚ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺩﻳﻦ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ‪».‬‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺟﺴﻤﻲ ﺻﺎﺭ ﻳﺮﺗﺠﻒ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺓ ﺍﻋﺼﺎﺏ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻇﻨﻥﺘﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ»‪ ،.‬ﻛﺮﺭﺕ‪»،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻓﻌﻼ ﺇ�� ﺃﻳﻦ ُﻳ َ‬
‫ﻔ��ﺽ �ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫهﺐ ‪.‬‬ ‫«‬
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‫ﺣﺴﺏﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻔ��ﺽ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻠﺘﻘﻴ�ﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪».‬‬
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‫ﺃﻧﺖ �� ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺟﺮﺓ ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ’’ ‪ِ :‬‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ �ﺴﺮﻋﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺇﻥ �ﺥﺼﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﺳﻴﻠﺘﻘﻲ �ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﻧﻘﻞ ﺇ�� ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ؟‬
‫ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﻭﺭﺍﻝ ﻟ�ﺥﻀﻮﻉ ﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺟﺮﻯ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ‬
‫�ﻐ�� ﻣﺤﻴﻂ ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ﻣﻨﺬ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺡ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻗﺪ ّ‬
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‫ﺃﺑﺪﺃ ﺑﻤﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﻭﺭﺍﻝ ﺃﻭﻻ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻠﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﻗﻄﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻧﻮﺭﺙ‬
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‫ﺳﺄﺗﺪﺑﺮ ﺃﻣﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺎﺋﻖ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﺟﺮﺓ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﻘﻠ�ﻱ ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻭﻱﺴ��ﻥ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﻭﺭﺍﻝ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﻮ ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﻮﻇﻒ �� ﺭﺩهﺔ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻱﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ‬
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‫ﺡﺝﺰ ﺑﺎﺳﻤﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﺩ ﻗﻠ�ﻱ ﻳﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﻔﻘﺎﻥ‪ ،‬هﻨﺎﻙ ��ﻱﺀ �ﺝﻴﺐ �ﺸﺄﻥ ﻧﻘ�� ﻣﻦ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫�ﺥﺺ ﻏﺮ�ﺐ ﺇ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺪﺭ ﻋ�� ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﻣ��ﻢ‪ ،‬ﻵﺍﻥ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬
‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﻣﻊ �ﺥﺺ ﻟﻢ �ﺴﻤﻊ �ﻲ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﻮﻑ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺇﺧﻔﺎﺀ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺷﺪﺓ ﺧﻮ��’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺃﻧﺎ �� ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﺃﻡ ﻻ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖ �� ﻭﺭﺍﻝ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺑﻠﻄﻒ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪ِ ،‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺟﺮﺍﺣﻴﺔ هﻨﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’ﺃﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫’’ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺮ�ﻀﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻡ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﻔ��ﺽ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬
‫ﺳﺄﺧﻀﻊ ﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺟﺮﺍﺣﻴﺔ ﻏﺪﺍ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫�ﺴﺎﺀﻟﺖ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﻟﺪﻳﻜﻢ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﺒﻱﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺑﺎﻹﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺗﺮﺗﻱﺐ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻳﻠﺰﻣ�ﻱ ﺇﻳﺪﺍﻉ ﻣﺒﻠﻎ ﺧﻤﺴ�ﻥ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ ﻗﺒﻞ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺼﻮﻝ ﻋ�� ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺮﻋﺘ�ﻱ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺭﺿﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺣﻤﻞ هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻎ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ�� ﻧﻘﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﻭﺣ�ﻯ ﻟﻮ �ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﻣ��‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﳌﺎﻝ ﻷﺣ��ﻱ ﺍﳌﺒﻠﻎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻭ ﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺯﻭﺩﺗ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻓﻀﻴﺔ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺗﻤﻴ��هﺎ ﺑﻮﺍﺳﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻤﺲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﺒﻠﻎ ﺧﻤﺴ�ﻥ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ !‬ ‫ﺑﻨﻘﻮﺩ ّ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ �� ﺣﻘﻴﺒ�ﻱ ﺩﻓ�� ﺍﻟﺸﻴ�ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﺑﺎﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺩﻭ ِﻓﺮ ﻷ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﻤﺎﻟﻪ ﺇﻻ �� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻻﺣﻖ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ ﺳﺘﺄ�ﻲ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺘﻮ�� هﺬﻩ‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻹﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﺗﺄﺟﻴﻞ ﺩﻓﻊ ﺍﳌﺎﻝ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺡ�ﻥ‪ْ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺪﺍ‬ ‫ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﻋ�ﻱ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻤﻜﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻟﺲ ﺧﻠﻒ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﻏﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﺭﺗﺒﺎ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﺩﻓ�� ﺍﻟﺸﻴ�ﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﻋﺮﺽ ّ‬
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‫ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺩ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺷﻴﻚ ﺻﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻨﻀﺪﺓ ﻣﻞﺀ ﺷﻴﻚ ﻓﺎﺭﻍ ﻧﻴﺎﺑﺔ ﻋ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻗﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺼﺮ�� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﺻﻄﺤﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺳﺄﺟﺪ ﺩﻓ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸﻴ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻍ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺗﻤﻠﺆﻩ ﻋ�ﻱ ﻭﺃﺗﻮ�� ﺃﻧﺎ ﺗﻮﻗﻴﻌﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺮﺓ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ْ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻄﻖ ﻭﻟﻮ ﺑ�ﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻱﺖ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺆﺩﻱ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻌﻘﻤﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺩ‬ ‫ﺍﺋﺤﺔ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺷﻤﻤﺖ‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺪ‬
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‫هﺬﺍ ﺑﺎﻋﺜﺎ �� ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻤﺌﻨﺎﻥ ﻷ�ﻲ ﺻﺮﺕ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ �� ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ‪��.‬‬
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‫ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻓﺮﻏﺖ ﻣﺤﺘﻮ�ﺎﺕ ﺣﻘﻴﺒ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ ﺩﻓ�� ﺍﻟﺸﻴ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻀﺎﺉﻊ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ ﺇ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ‪.‬ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻸ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﻳﻥﺘﻈﺮ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺻﻄﺤﺒ�ﻱ ﻋ��‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸﻴﻚ ﻧﻴﺎﺑﺔ ﻋ�ﻱ ﻭﻭﺿﻊ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻔ��ﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﻗﻊ ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺳﻞ ﺑﺮﻗﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﺟﺮﻱ ﻣ�ﺎﳌﺔ هﺎﺗﻔﻴﺔ �ﻌﻴﺪﺓ»‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ �ﻌﺪ �ﺴﻮ�ﺔ ﻣﺴﺄﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺇﻳﺪﺍﻉ ﻣﺒﻠﻎ ﺍ�ﺥﻤﺴ�ﻥ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻤﻜﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺪﺑﺮ ﻛﻼ ﺍﻣﺮ�ﻦ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺠﻠﺲ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﱠ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﻠﻴﺖ ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﻧﺺ ﺑﺮﻗﻴ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ’’ ‪�:‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﺣﻠﺔ ﻣﻮﻓﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﻌﻨﻮ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﺒ ِﻚ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻭﺍﺟﻪ ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ �� ﺇﺟﺮﺍﺀ ﻣ�ﺎﳌﺔ هﺎﺗﻔﻴﺔ ﻣﻊ هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ‬
‫ﻣﺮ�ﺤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺳﺘﺼﻞ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﺑﺎﻛﺮﺍ �� ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺃﺳﻠﻮﺏ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻣﺮﺣﺎ ﻭﻋﻤﻠﻴﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﺎ ّﺃ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣ�� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻋﻤﻠﻴ�ﻱ ﺍﺧ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺭﺅ��ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﺑﺎﻋﺜﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺑﺎﻟﺜﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺔ ﻟﺘﺨ��ﻲ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻭﺻﻞ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ‬ ‫ﺟﺎﺀﺕ‬
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‫ﺳﻴﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺰ�ﺎﺭ�ﻲ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺠﻮﻟﺔ ﻋ�� ﻣﺮﺿﺎﻩ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﻋﺎﺟﺰﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ �ﺸ�ﻞ �ﺎﻣﻞ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺎﻳﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ’’ ‪ِ :‬‬
‫ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﺸﻱﺖ �� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﺪﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ ﳌﻐﺎﺩﺭ�ﻲ ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻷﻗﺺ ﺃﻇﺎﻓﺮﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻟﻮ��ﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺗﻠﻚ �ﺎﻧﺖ �� ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺫهﺒﺖ ﺇ�� ﺻﺎﻟﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﻤﻴﻞ‬
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‫ﻭﻷﺻﻔﻒ ﺷﻌﺮ ‪.‬ﻭ�� هﺬﻩ ﺍﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺭﺍﻗﺒ�ﻱ ﻟﻴﻮ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﺩ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ِﺑﻪ‬ ‫ﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺳﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺍﺟﺘﻴﺎﺯ ﺷﺎﺭﻉ ﺑﻼﻛﻮ�ﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺇﻥ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﺳﻌﺎﻑ �ﺎﻧﺖ �� ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭﻱ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺋﻖ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ‪.‬ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﻌﻤﻞ‬
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‫ﻣﻊ ﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﻧﻮﺭﺙ ﻭﻱﺴ��ﻥ ﻟﻠﺴﻜﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ �� ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺟﺮﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ‬
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‫ﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﳌﺴﻌﻔ�ﻥ �� ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﺳﻌﺎﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺗﺼﺎﻝ �ﻲ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﻛﻢ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻏﺒﻴﺔ ﻟﻌﺪﻡ‬
‫ﻗﻴﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺈﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﻣﻮﻇﻒ ﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﻧﻮﺭﺙ ﻭﻱﺴ��ﻥ ﻟﻠﺒﺤﺚ ﻋﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﻚ �� ﺇﺯﺍﻟﺔ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﻋﺼﺮ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻴﺖ ﻳﻨﺎﺳﺒ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫«هﻞ هﻨﺎﻙ ��ﻱﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ ﻏ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﺀ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻋﺎﺀ ﻳﺎ ﺩﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ؟»‪،‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ ﻭهﻮ �ﻐﺎﺩﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻠﺰﻡ»‪ ،‬ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﺑﻠﻄﻒ‪.‬‬ ‫«ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ ﻋ�� ﻴﺌ�ﻱ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﺟﺎﺀﺕ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻭﺫهﺒﺖ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻃﻴﻠﺔ ﻓ��ﺓ ﺍﻟﻀ��‪ ،‬ﻋﻤﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻧﺖ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻗﺎﺭﺏ ﻷﺍﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ ّ‬ ‫ّ ْ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻘﺮ��ﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﻥﺒ�� ﺇﺑﻼﻏهﻢ ﺑﻤﺠﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﺃﻣﻮﺭﻱ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺩﻭ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﻓﺮﻏﺖ ﺣﻘﺎﺋ�ﻱ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﳌﻼ�ﺲ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺘﻠﺰﻣ�ﻱ �� ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ �� ﺟﻮﺍﺭ�ﺮ ﺍ�ﺥﺰﺍﻧﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻊ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﺠﻴﻞ ‪.‬ﺻﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻣﺘﻼ ﻗﻠ�ﻱ ﻃﻤﺄﻧﻱﻨﺔ ﻭﺛﻘﺔ ﺑﺎ�‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ‬
‫ﺣﺎ�� ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﺭﻛﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺮﻗﻌﺔ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﻕ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺩهﺔ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻃﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﺪﻡ ﻟﻠﻤﺮ�ﻯﻯ‬
‫ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻏﻠﻘﺖ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺟﺜﻮﺕ ﻋ�� ﺭﻛﺒ� ّﻱ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺳﺮ�ﺮﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻠﺘﻪ ﻟﻌﻮ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﺃﺭ�ﺪ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻮﺓ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺑﻴﺪ ﻭﻋﻘﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺭ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺩﻋﻮﺕ« ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺭﺏ ﻛﻦ ﻣ�� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﺧﺬ ِ‬
‫ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻥ هﺬﺍ ﻏ�� ﻣﻤﻜﻦ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻣﻨﺤ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﻷﻭﺍﺻﻞ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ّ‬ ‫ْ ْ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻝ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﺑﺼﺮ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﺣﻮﺍﻝ‪».‬‬
‫ﻭﺁﻧﺎ ﺻﻼﺓ ّ‬ ‫ّ ّ ُ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺏ ﻣﻌﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﻛﺮﺭﺕ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺟﺎﺀﺗ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺔ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻥ �� ﻭﺳﻊ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺍﳌ��ﺀ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﻘﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺩهﺔ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ّ‬ ‫ُ ُ‬
‫ﺿﻴﻘﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺪﺩ ﻋ�� ﺃﺭ�ﻜﺔ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻧ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺔ ﻛﺏﺴﻮﻟﺔ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺳﺘﺠﻌﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﻋﻄﺘ�ﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ��ﻣﺖ ﻭﺁﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺪﻋﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺪﺭ �ﺝﻴﺞ ﺧﺎﻓﺖ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺭﺟﻞ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍﳌﻘﻴﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﻠﻚ»‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝ ��ﺪﻭﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫«ﻧﺤﻦ ﺟﺎهﺰﻭﻥ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﺎ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺎ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻮ�ﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭ�ﻜﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺒﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﺁﻧﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﺩ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍﳌﻘﻴﻢ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫هﺬﻩ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺮﺍﻓﻘ�ﻱ ﺁﻧﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻤﺪﺩﺕ ﻋ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺑﺪﺃ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺿﺮ�ﻦ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﻨﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﻭﺭﻏﻢ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﻇﻦ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ هﺎﺩﺋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﻐﻨﺎﺀ ﺃﺯ�ﺝ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﺑﺎﻧﻔﻌﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺐ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﳌﻮﺳﻴﻘﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ �ﺥﺺ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺮﺀ ﺃﻥ �ﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ �ﺡﺎ��‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﺠﺪﺭ �ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺪﺃ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺣﻔﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﻗﻊ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ ﺧﻔﻴﻔﺔ ﻷ�ﺥﺎﺹ‬
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‫ﻳﺕﻨﻘﻠﻮ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﺣﻨﻔﻴﺔ ﻭﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻣﺎﺀ ﻳﺘﻘﺎﻃﺮ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺘﺬﺭ ُﺕ ﻭﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻱﺲ �� ﺻﻮﺗﻚ ﻣﺎ �ﻌﻴﺐ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻣﺮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺓ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎ ﻭﻣﺘﻌﺎﻃﻔﺎ هﺬﻩ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ’’ ‪:‬ﺣﺴﺏﺖ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﻄﻴﻨﺎﻙ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣهﺪﺋﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ِ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺨﺪﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﻌﻄﻮﻧ�ﻱ ّﺇﻳﺎﻩ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺮﺿﺔ ﺑﺠﺎﻧ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﻧﻮﻉ‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺗﺨﺪﻳﺮ ﻣﻮﺿ��‪ ،‬ﻛﻮ�ﺎﻳ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﺬﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﺑﻘﻰ ﻣﺴﺕﻴﻘﻈﺔ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻭﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﻋﻴﺔ ﳌﺎ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻮﻥ �ﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ!‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺗﺤﺎﻭ�� ﻓﻌﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻚ ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ﱠ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺤﻜﺔ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺪﺩﺓ هﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺃﺟﻠﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻠﺰﻡ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻧﺰ�ﺝﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻷﻱ ﺳﺏﺐ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻠﻤﻴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻨﻔﻌﻞ ّ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻭﺟهﻚ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺣﺮﻛﺔ ﻣ��ﺍﻳﺪﺓ ﺣﻮ�� ‪.‬ﻣ�ﺡ ﺃﺣﺪهﻢ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﻭﻏﺴﻠﻪ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﻌﻘﻤﺔ ‪.‬ﺛﻢ‬
‫َ‬
‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ – ﺃﻭﻻ ﻓﻘﻂ �� ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺘﺨﻀﻊ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ��‬ ‫ُﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻗﻄﺮﺍﺕ ��‬
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‫ﻣﺡﺝﺮ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ُﺣﻘﻨﺖ ﺑﺈﺑﺮﺓ �� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺫ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺑ�ﻞ ﻋﻤﻞ ﻳﺮﺍﺩ ﺃﺩﺍﺅﻩ �ﻲ ﻻ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ ﻳﺨ��ﻭﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﺴﺒﻘﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﺫهﻞ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭ�ﻌﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍﳌﻘﻴﻢ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺎﺩ ﺻﻤﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺣﺮﻛﺔ ﺧﻔﻴﻔﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮ�ﻲ ﻣﺼﺪﺭ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍﳌﻘﻴﻢ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ِ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻚ ﺍﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﻄﻠﺐ ﻣﻨﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋﻮﻥ ﻛﺒ�� ﻟﻪ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺯﺍﺩ ﺗﺎ�ﺡﺮﻛﺔ ﺣﻮ�� ‪.‬هﺬﻩ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﻣﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ‪.‬ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻋﺪﺍ ﺫﻟﻚ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻟﻚ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﺻﻤﺖ ﻣﻄﺒﻖ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺃﻧﻔﺎﺱ �ﺥﺺ ﻗﺮ�ﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺟﺪﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺴﺘﻮ ﻣهﻤﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ ‪.‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮﻱ ﺇ�� ﺍﺳﻔﻞ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫�ﺸ�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ﺃﻋ��‪،‬‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻱ‬‫ﺗﻨﻈﺮ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺎﻙ‬ ‫’’ ّ‬
‫ﺇﻳ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ِ‬
‫ﻭﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺎﺭ ‪.‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﻜ��ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪ . . .‬هﺬﺍ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺳﻤﻌﻪ ﺍﻥ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﺑﺪﺃ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ �� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻠﻤﺴﺔ ﺧﻔﻴﻔﺔ ﻓﺤﺴﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ َ‬
‫ﺣﺏﺴﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻻ ﺗﺘﺤﺮﻙ ﺃﻱ ﻋﻀﻠﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻻ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺇﺧﺘﻼﺟﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺛﺒ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﺛﺒ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﺛﺒ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻨﺤﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ٌ‬
‫ﻣ��ﻱﺀ‬ ‫ﻭﺧﻴﻂ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪،‬‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻧﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﻛﺮﺓ‬ ‫ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‬ ‫ﻓﻮ��‬ ‫ﻇهﺮﺕ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ‬
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‫�� ﳌﺒﺔ ﻛهﺮ�ﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﻣﻨﺎﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫’’ﺭ ِﻃ�ﻱ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﻌﺘﻤﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺻﺎﺭ ّ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ُ ّ ُ َ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺭﻓﻊ ﻭﺃﻧﻘﻞ ﺇ�� ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺯ‬ ‫ﻝ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺃﻗﻮ ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺗﻮﻗﻌﻮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺛﻘﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻮ ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻳﺤﻤﻠﻮﻧﻚ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﺃﺧﺮﺟﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫«ﻻ ﺩﺍ�� ﻷﻥ ﺗﻘﻠﻘﻲ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ‪.‬هﻨﺎﻙ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻚ ﺑﻜﺜ��‪».‬‬
‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺃ�ﺥﻢ ِ‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ هﻮ ﻣﻦ �ﻠﻤ�ﻱ هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ُ َ‬
‫ﺳ��‪ّ.‬‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺎﺩﻭ�ﻲ ﺇ�� ﺳﺮ�ﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺿﻊ ﺃﺣﺪهﻢ ﺃﺭ�ﻄﺔ ﻋ�� ﺭ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ّ‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨﻚ ﻭﺗﺆﺫ��ﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺮﺿﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺇﻧﻨﺎ ﻧﺮ�ﻂ ﻳﺪﻳﻚ‪� ،‬ﻲ ﻻ ﺗﻠﻤ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ّ‬
‫ﺇ�� ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺛﻢ ﺇﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﻭﻛﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّﻣ��ﺕ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺍ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺇﺫﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ‪.‬ﻳﺎ ﺇﻟ�ﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺄﻟﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ُ ْ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ‪ ،‬ﺻﻮ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺣﺪﺙ ﻟﻪ؟ ﺃﺟهﺪﺕ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺭﺟﻔﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺟهﺎﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫’’ﻳﺎ ﺩﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪ ،‬هﻞ ﺳﺄﺑﺼﺮ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺪ ُﺕ ﺇ�� ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ ﻣﺌﺎﺕ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﺧﺮﺝ ﺍﻟﺴﺆﺍﻝ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ‪ .‬ﱡ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻱ‬
‫«ﻣﻦ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻧ ِﻚ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺒﺼﺮ ؟‪».‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺷﺮ‬
‫’’ﺃﺷﻜﺮﻙ ﻳﺎ ﷲ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ �� ﺩﺍﺧ��‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺘﺤﺎﻭﻟ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ هﺎﺩﺋﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ‬ ‫ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﺗﺤﺪﺙ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ّ‬
‫ﻗﺒﺘﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺭ ِ‬ ‫ﺐ‬ ‫ﺗﺼﻠ‬ ‫ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟ ﻻ ﺗﻘﻮﻣﻲ ﺑﺤﺮﻛﺔ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺤﻮﻝ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ّ‬
‫ﺭ‬
‫ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ �� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺇﻧﻪ ﺳ��ﺳﻞ ﺑﺮﻗﻴﺔ ﺇ�� ﺩﻭ ﻭ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺳﺘﺼﺪﻗﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ’’ ‪:‬‬
‫ﻟﻠﻌﻢ ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ‬‫ﳌﺪﺓ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺳﺘﻜﺘﺐ ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺪﻣﺖ ّﺁﻧﺎ ّ‬
‫َ‬
‫ﻭﻟﺸﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺇﺣﺴﺎ��ﻱ ��ﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺐ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ‪.‬ﻓﺤ�ﻯ ﺇﺭ�ﺸﺎﻑ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺒﺔ ﺑﺪﺍ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺅ‬ ‫ﻥ‬
‫ﻣهﻤﺔ ﺷﺎﻗﺔ ‪.‬ﺃ�ﺥﺎﺹ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻤﺸﻮ ﻋ�� ﺭ ﻭﺱ ﺃﺻﺎ�ﻌهﻢ ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺃﺣﺪهﻢ ﺇﻥ‬
‫َ‬
‫ﺷﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺇﺳ ِ�� ﻭﺇﻟ�ﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺪﻣﺘﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ ‪.‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋﺮﻓ��ﻤﺎ ﺣ�ﻥ ﻧﻄﻘﺘﺎ ﺑﺎﺳﻤﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﻴﻠﻤﺮ ﻳﻥﺘﻈﺮﻧﺎ �� ﺍﺳﻔﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫’’ﻟﻦ ﻧﻠﺒﺚ ﻏ�� ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪،‬‬
‫َ‬
‫ﺷﻘﻴﻘ� ّﻱ ﺑﺬ ﺍ��‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺗﺤﺮ�ﻜهﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻃﺒ َﻌﺖ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﻷ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﱠ‬
‫ﻣﻘﻴ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ‬
‫ﻓﻮﻗهﺎ ﻗﺒﻠﺔ ﻭﺳﻘﻄﺖ ﻗﻄﺮﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﻮﻉ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺳﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺘﻤﺔ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ �ﺎﻥ ﻟﻴﻼ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺫﻋﺮﺕ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ ‪.‬ﺁﻧﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﻴﺪﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺷﻔ�ﻱّ‬ ‫ﺃﻳﻘﻈ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻢ ‪.‬ﺍﳌﺰ�ﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺏﺴﻮﻻﺕ ﻭﺍﳌﺰ�ﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻢ ﻭﺿﻌﻪ ﻋﻨﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﺿﻄﺮ�ﺖ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻷﺭ�ﺸﻔﻪ ﺑﻮﺍﺳﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻋﺘﻤﺔ ﻭ�ﺴﻴﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
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‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ �ﺎﻧﺖ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺩﻭﺭﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺏﺴﻮﻻﺕ ﻭﺷﺮﺏ ﺍﳌﺎﺀ ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺘﻤﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻇﻞ ﺍﻟﻢ ﺻﺎﺣﺐ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﻤﺎﺭﺍﺛﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻢ ﻳﻠﻴﻪ �ﺴﻴﺎﻥ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺡﻈﻮﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﻟﺮﺅ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍﳌﻘﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﺎﻋﺪ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ��‬
‫ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺭﻓﻴﻘﺎ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺯﺩﺍﺩﺕ ﻣﻌﺮﻓ�ﻱ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮ‬
‫ﺯ�ﺎﺭﺍﺗﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫َ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺩﺧﻠﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻭﻏﺎﺩﺭ��ﺎ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺇﻻ ﺑﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻣهﻦ‬ ‫�ﻦ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺍﺕ هﻨﺎﻙ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﻌﺘﻤﺔ ‪،‬ﺳﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻭﻗﻊ‬ ‫ﻣﺸﻮﺷﺔ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄ� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫��ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻴ�� ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺘﺼﻠﺔ ّ‬ ‫ﻯ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﻴ��ﻦ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ‬ ‫ﺃﻳﺎﺩ��ﻦ ﻭﺃﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﺃﺧﺮ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺻﻮﺍ��ﻦ ﻭﻣﻠﻤﺲ‬
‫هﻴﻠﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺷﻱﻨﻚ‪ ،‬ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺭﻭﺯ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺴﺔ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﺳﻤﺎ��ﻦ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺎﺩﺍ��ﻦ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬
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‫ُ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺃﻧﺪﺭﺳﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺗﺎﻓﺖ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻛﻦ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎﺕ ﻭﻣﺘﻘﻨﺎﺕ ‪ ��.‬ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ‬
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‫ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻥ ﻇهﺮﻱ ﺍﻧﻘﺴﻢ ﺇ�� ﻧﺼﻔ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺑﺎﻷﻳﺎﺩﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﻮ�ﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭ�� ﺗﻔﺮﻙ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳ��ﻛﺰ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻢ ‪.‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻳﺎﺩﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﺎﺋﺪ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ �� ﺗﺠﺎﻭ�ﻒ ﺍﻟﺴﺮ�ﺮ �� ﺍﳌﻮﺍﺿﻊ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻻ ﺗﺘﻼﺀﻡ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻧﺤﻨﺎﺀﺍﺕ‬
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‫ﺑﺪ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻣ�ﺡﺖ ﺍﳌﺴﺘﺤﻀﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﳌﻨﻌﺸﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺮﻓﻘ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﻌﺒ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﺨﺪﻭﺷ�ﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳﻦ ﻗﺪ ﺇﻟﺘﺼﻘﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻮﺓ ﻟﺘﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻢ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺓ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ‪.‬‬‫ﻷﻭﻝ ّ‬‫ﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ُﻧﺰﻋﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺍﺕ ّ‬
‫َ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺭﻓﻌﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ ﻣﺴﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﺃﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺣﺎ�ﺴﺔ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ﺅ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻻﻣﺴﺖ ﺭ ﻭﺱ ﺃﺻﺎ�ﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﺧﺪﻱ ﻭ�� ﺗﻔﻚ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺄ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ �ﻐﻄﻲ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻤﺪﺩ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻮﺳﺎﺩﺓ ‪.‬ﺁﻩ ﻳﺎ ﺇﻟ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ‬ ‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻌﺘﻤﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ �ﻌﺪ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫�ﻞ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﻋ�� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﻗﻄﺮﺍﺕ �� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﺎﺩ ﻭﺿﻊ‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺗﺮﻛﻪ �ﻐﺎﺩﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺄﻟﻪ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’ﳌﺎﺫﺍ �ﺴﺄﻟ�ﻥ؟ ﺃﺟﻞ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺸﻚ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﺼﺮﻓﻪ ��ﻱ‬ ‫ﺗﺮﺩﺩ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺘ�ﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻨﻥﺖ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﺟﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻟﺮﺅ��ﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻪ ﺑﻠهﻔﺔ’’ ‪ّ :‬‬
‫ﺿﻤﺪ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‪ ،‬هﻞ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﻭﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭﻱ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺭﺟﺎﺀ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺗﻘﻠﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻋﻮﺩ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻪ هﺬﻩ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﺩ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻭﻣﻌﻪ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ‪ّ ،‬‬
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‫ﻭ��ﻥ ﻟﻠﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﺃﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﺯﺭﻗﺎﻗﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻼ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ُﻣ ْﺮﺿﻴﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ﺍﳌﺘﻮﻗﻊ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻣﺮﺓ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﻓﻊ ﻓ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺎﺩ‬ ‫�ﻞ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ّ �� ،‬‬
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‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﳌﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻻ‬
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‫ﺯﻟﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﻓﻌﻞ �ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻷﺣﺏﺲ ﺩﻣﻌ�ﻱ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﺧﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻣﻞ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺇﺳﺘﺠﺪﺕ �ﻌﺾ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻗﻠﻖ ﻣﺨﺎﻓﺔ ﺃﻻ ﺃﻗﺪﺭ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ �ﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻀﺎﻋﻔﺎﺕ ‪.‬ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻠﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺑﺮﻭﺯ هﺬﻩ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﻗﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺸ�ﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺭ�ﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﺑ��ﺎﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮ�� ﺗﺼﻨﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻨﻔ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ��‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﻳﺨﻔﻮﻥ ﻋ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺡﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻗﻮ�ﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺴﻤﺎﻋهﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ �� ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮ؛ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ هﺬﺍ �ﺡﻴﺤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺬﻟﻚ �ﻌ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﻮﺭﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻱﺌﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﺮﺭﺕ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‬
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‫ﻋﺮﺟﺖ ﻭﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ﻃﺮ�ﻘﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻕ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫’’ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﻨﺎ ﺇ�� ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣﺠﻴ��ﺎ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺑﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﺎ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍﺀ ﺑﻼ ��ﺎﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻭﺣﺪهﺎ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺣﺔ ‪:‬‬
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‫’’ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍ�ﺥ�� ‘‘�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻄﻤﺌﻨ�ﻱ؛ ﻭﺗﻔﺎﺅﻟﻪ ﻭﻣﺮﺣﻪ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻒ ﻣﻨﺤﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻣﻞ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺳﺄﺧﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ �� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺷﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺡﺝﺒ�ﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺑﺎ�� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ ﺇ�� ﻟﻮﻥ ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻱ ﺑﺎهﺖ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻘﺪ ﺫﻛﺮﺗ�ﻱ ﺑﻀﺒﺎﺏ ﺍ�ﺥﺮ�ﻒ ﺍﻟﺮﻃﺐ �� ﺑﻠﺪﺓ ﺳﺎﺣﻠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫هﺘﻒ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ« ‪:‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺮﻯ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ‪.‬ﻓﻠﻨﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻥ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻗﻮﺓ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭﻱ ﻛﻢ ﺇﺻﺒﻌﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺭﻓﻊ ﺍﻥ؟‪».‬‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﺑﺼﺮﻙ ‪.‬هﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﺒ�ﻥ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﺮهﺎﻧﺎ ﻋ�� ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺧﻤﻨﺖ ﺍﺟﺎﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺑﺎﻝ ﺇﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﺭﺁهﺎ ﺃﺣﺪ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﺳﺎﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﻮﻉ ﻋ�� ﱠ‬
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‫ُ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻊ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﻧﺰﻉ ﻟﻠﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﻋﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﺭﻯ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻔﺎﺕ ﺑﻘﺮ�ﻲ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻳﻦ ّﺑﺰﺍﺕ ﺑﻴﻀﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻮﺟﻮههﻦ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻳﺤﺎﺀﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻀﺒﺎﺑﻴﺔ‬
‫«ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺭﺅ�ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ؟»‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﺳﺘﺠﺎﺑﺔ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻟﻠﻨﻮﺭ‪.‬‬‫ﻣﻀﺖ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ ﺿﺎﺣﻜﺔ« ‪:‬ﻻﻛﻨﻔﺎﺭ ‪2‬ﻭﺳﻴﻢ‪».‬‬

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‫ﻣﺪﻋﻴﺎ ﺧﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻣﻞ’’ ‪:‬ﺇﺫﻥ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺁﺳﻒ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻹﺧﺒﺎﺭﻙ ﺑﺄﻧ ِﻚ ﻻ ﺗﺮ�ﻦ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﻥﺒ��‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ّ‬‫ُ‬
‫ﺟﺎﺩﺓ �� ﻣﺠﺎﻣﻠ�ﻱ ﻟﻪ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﻛﻮ�ﻞ ﺃﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻗﺪ ﺭﺃﻳ��ﺎ‬
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‫ﻭﻗﺘﺌﺬ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺃﻭﺳﻢ ﺭﺟﻞ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺷهﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺍ ��‬
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‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﺃﺯ�ﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺍﺕ �ﻠهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ �� ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻋﺪﺳﺘ�ﻥ ﻣﺪﺧﻨﺘ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻣﺴﺘﻮﺩﻉ �� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻱ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺭﺍﺣﺔ �� ﻟﺏﺴهﺎ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﺗﻤﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍ��ﺝﺎﻡ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻭﺍﳌ��ﻱ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ �ﻠﺐ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻼﺏ‬
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‫ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻜﻔﻮﻓ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻭﺍﻋﻴﺔ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ �ﻠﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻸﺍﺗ�ﻱ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﺎﻣﺮﺓ ﺇ��‬
‫ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﺑﺪﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ �� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ ﻹﻃﻼﻋهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﺧﺒﺎﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﻴﺒﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻧﻱﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺄﺧ�� ﻃﻮ�ﻞ �� ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﺑﺪﻭ ِﻓﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻝ ﻋﺎﻣﻞ ﺍﻟهﺎﺗﻒ‬
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‫ﻓﺈﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ هﻮ ﺍﻣﺴﺎﻙ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺥﻂ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﺇﻥ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻤﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺄﺗﺄﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫’’ﻳﺎ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﺃﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺗﻠﻮ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺃﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﺑﺼﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫�ﻞ‬‫ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺪﺩ ﻭﻣﺸﺎهﺪﺓ ﺿﻮﺀ ﺍﻟ��ﺎﺭ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺨﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺘﻤﺔ ﺣﻮ�� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻊ‬
‫ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﻣﻨﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻕ؛ ﻏ�� ّﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﻮﻉ ﺍﻭﻝ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺩﻓﻦ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻮﺳﺎﺩﺓ ﻟﻌﺪﻡ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻤ��‬ ‫ﻟﻠﺸﻤﺲ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺧﻂ ﺍﻓﻖ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺟﻢ ﻋﻦ ﻭ�ﺝهﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻃﻊ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻓﺤﺺ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻣﺕﺸﻮﻗﺔ ﻹﻣ�ﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻹﺟﺮﺍﺀ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ّ‬
‫�ﺸﻮ�� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ ﻹﺯﺍﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻤﺖ‬
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‫ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﳌﺪﻳﻨﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﺃﻣﻞ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻗﻮ ﻟﻠﻤﻤﺮﺿﺔ ﺑﺄﻧ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﻋﻮﺩﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺳﻱﺒﺪﻭ �ﺥﻴﻔﺎ ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺫهﺒﺖ ﻣﻌهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‬
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‫ﺣﻴﺚ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﻔ��ﺽ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﺤﺺ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺒﻖ �� ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮﺍﺟﺪﺕ‬
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‫�� هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﺑﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺘﻘﺮ��ﺎ ﺇ�� ﻭﺟ�ﻱ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ ّ�ﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺤﺪﺓ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺗﻔﻌ�� ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
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‫ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯ ِﺕ ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﻗﺼﺮ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃ�ﻌﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﻋﻦ ﻋﻴﻥﻴﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ ��‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻤﻴ�� ﺣﺮﻑ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺘﻮﺍﺟه�ﻥ ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺝﺡ �� ﻗﻴﺎﺱ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺎﺗﻚ ﺑﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺻ��‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﻤﻜ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻗﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﺷﺮﻋﺖ �� ﺇ�ﻌﺎﺩهﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭ�ﺞ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‬‫�ﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ّ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﻗﺮ‬
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‫ﺠﺪ ﻧﻔﻌﺎ ‪.‬ﺍﻗ��ﺏ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ ﻭﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ‬ ‫ﻳ ِ‬
‫ﱠ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﺍﻟﻜﺒ��ﺓ ﻣ��ﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻘﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺋﻂ‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺕﻴﺠﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻣﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﺣﺏﺲ ﺩﻣﻮ��‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﺃﻣﻞ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ‬
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‫ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺗﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ؟ ﺃﻧﺎ �� ﺃﻣﺲّ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺳﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻻ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺩ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ّﺃﻳﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻭﺿﻌهﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ‬‫ﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻱﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ �ﻌﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻊ ﻧﺘﺎﺋﺞ ﺍﻟﻔﺤﻮﺹ’’ ‪:‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﻟﻦ ﻧﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺰﻭ�ﺪﻙ‬
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‫ﺑﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻋﻴﻨﻚ ﺗﺘﺤﺮﻙ ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ�� ﻭﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺧﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭهﺬﺍ ﻳﺼﻌﺐ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻃﺎﳌﺎ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺩ ﻋﺪﺳﺎﺕ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻟﻚ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ؛ ﻭﺭ�ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭﺭﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻘﻮﻡ �ﻌﻤﻞ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻻﺣﻘﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺄﻧﻱﻨﺎ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺇﻧﻘ�ﻯﻯ ﺷهﺮ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ �� ﺭﻭﺷﺕﺴﺮ ‪.‬ﻭﻛﻢ �ﺎﻥ ﺷﻌﻮﺭﻱ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ �ﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ �ﻌ��ﺽ ﻋ�� ﻣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺿﻊ ﻓﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻭ�ﺡ ﺣ�ﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ‬ ‫ﻝ ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﻋﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ْ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﻮ‬
‫�ﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻋﻦ ﻭﺟ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻧﺝﺡﺖ �� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻴﻜﺔ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺳﺎﺕ ﺍﻭ��‬
‫ﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻋﺪﺳﺎﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ُﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻋ�� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫�ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﺃﻛ�� ‪.‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺤﺾ ﻗﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺳﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻋﻜﺴهﺎ ُﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﻓﺎﺭﻗﺎ ﻣﻠﻤﻮﺳﺎ �� ﻗﺪﺭ�ﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺟﺮﺏ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻓﺎﺕ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ �ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻟهﺎ ‪.‬ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺪﺩ ّ‬ ‫ّ ْ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺳﺎﺕ ﺃﺻ�ﺡ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ﻋ��‬
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‫ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻭﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻋﺪﺳﺎﺕ �� ﺇﻃﺎﺭ ﻭﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻀﻊ ﻗﻮﺳ��ﺎ ﺧﻠﻒ‬
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‫ﺃﺫ�ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﺮﺗﻔﻊ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺘﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻗﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻄﺮ ﺍﳌﻜﺘﻮﺏ ﺑﺤﺮﻭﻑ ﺳﻤﻴﻜﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﺭﺍﺿﻴﺎ ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻪ ﻳ�ﺡﻚ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺧﺎﻓﺖ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﺒﻄﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺄﻟﻚ ّ‬ ‫ّ ْ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﺗﺮ�ﺪﻳﻦ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺨﻠﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻱﺲ ﻋ��‬
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‫هﺪﻳﺘﻚ ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺣﺼﻠﺖ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻚ‬‫ﻟﻜﺮﻱﺴﻤﺎﺱ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ﺃﺭﻯ ِ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻧ‬
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‫ﺃﺭﺳﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺑﺎﻟ��ﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺭﻭﺷﺴ�� ﺇ�� هﺎﺭﻣﻮ�ﻲ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻴﻢ ﻣﻊ ﺁﻧﺎ ﺳﻴﻢ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻭﺍﻟﺪ��ﺎ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ �ﻌﺪ ﺣﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺨﺼﺼﺔ ﻟﻠﻨﻈﺮ ﻋﻦ �ﻌﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺸﻱﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺍﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﻋﻮﺩ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺮﺣﺖ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻟهﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭ�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺭﺅ�ﺘﻪ ﻛﺘﻠﺔ ﺑﻥﻴﺔ ﺿﺎﺭ�ﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩﻱ ‪.‬ﺃﻣﺎ ﺍﻥ ﻓﻘﺪ ﻇهﺮ ﺯﺭﻉ ﺑﻘﻲ �ﻌﺪ ﺍ�ﺡﺼﺎﺩ ﺍﺧ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻇهﺮﺕ ﺃﺟﻤﺔ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺃ�ﻌﺪ ‪.‬ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻤﻴ�� ﺃ�ﺝﺎﺭ ﻣﺴﺘﻘﻠﺔ ﻋﻦ �ﻌﻀهﺎ �� ﺍﺟﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺳﻘﻄﺖ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﺃﺯ��‬ ‫ﻟ�ﻞ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻓﺮﻭ ٌﻉ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻟﻮﻥ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻭﻉ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺃﺩﻓﺄ ﻣﻦ ﻟﻮﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻭﻉ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫«هﺬﺍ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﺉﻊ»‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﻠﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ‪» ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺔ ﺃ�ﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺃﻧﻪ‬‫ِ‬ ‫ﺭ‬‫ﺩ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﺍ‬ ‫ﺟﺪ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
‫ﺗﺆﳌﺎﻧﻚ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪� ،‬ﺝﻌﻠﺘﻚ ﺗﺮﺍﻓﻘﻴﻨ�ﻱ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺑ�ﻞ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻗﺪﻣﺎﻙ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻳﻥﺒ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ��ﻱﺀ ‪.‬ﻟﻮ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺿﻌﻚ ﺍ�ﺡﺎ��‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺘﻔﻞ ﻭﺣﺪﻱ‪».‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫�ﺴﺎﻃﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ��‬
‫ﻷﻥ ﻟﻮﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﺯ�� ﻣﻦ ﺑ�ﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻣﻠﻚ‪ّ ،‬‬‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺷﺎﻻ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﺏﺴﺖ ﻓﺴﺘﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﺣﻤﺮ‬
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‫’’ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﳌﻥ� ‪.‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺒ��ﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻱﺴﻌ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪».‬‬
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‫ﻣﺸﻱﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻢ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺎﺭﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇ�� ﻭﺍﺟهﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺤﻼﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺎﺭ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﳌﺒﺎ�ﻲ �� ّ‬
‫هﻠﺖ ﻟﺕﺸﻜﻴﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺒﻀﺎﺉﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻋﺮﺿهﺎ ّ‬ ‫ُ ُ‬
‫ﺣﺪ ﺫﺍ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﺫ‬
‫ﺻﻨﻌﺖ ﻣﻨﻪ ‪.‬ﺑﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﳌﺸهﺪ‬ ‫ﻭ�ﻞ ﻟﻮﺡ ُ‬
‫�ﻞ ﺁﺟﺮﺓ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺜ��ﺓ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ �ﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ّ‬
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‫ﺩﻋ َﻚ ﺩﻋ�ﺎ ﺟﻴﺪﺍ‪.‬‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻪ‬‫ﺃﻧ‬ ‫ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠﻪ ّﺑﺮﺍﻗﺎ ﻭﻧﻈﻴﻔﺎ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ‬
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‫ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺳﻴﻢ ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ ﻭﻓﺎﺀ ﺑﻮﻋﺪ ﻗﻄﻌﺘﻪ ﻟﻠﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻟﻮﺣﺪﻧﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺣﺒﺔ ﻛﺮﺯ‬ ‫ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻂ ّ‬ ‫ﺣﺒﺔ ﻓﺎﺻﻮﻟﻴﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻣﻮﺍ ِﺯﻧﺔ ّﺇﻳﺎهﺎ ﻋ�� ﺷﻮﻛ�ﻱ؛‬ ‫ﺑ�ﻞ ّ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ ُ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻌﺐ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺭ ُ‬
‫ﺍﻗﺐ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻖ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﻔﺮﻍ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭ�ﺞ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﻞ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺴﺘﺪﻳﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ �� ﻣﻠﻌﻘ�ﻱ �� ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺘﺤﻤﺴﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺄ�ﻠ�ﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻚ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ’’ ‪ِ :‬‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟهﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺳﻌﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﻃﻌﺎﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ْ‬ ‫ﻗﻀﻱﺖ ﻃﻴﻠﺔ ﻓ��ﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺮ �� ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺰ�ﺎﺭﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﺯﺭﺕ ﺃﻭﻻ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﺇﻳﻤﺎ ﺭﻭﺳﺘﻔﻮﻟﺪ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬
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‫ﻣ�� ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺪ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺳﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ��‪ ،‬ﻭﻟهﺬﺍ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌﺮﻑ ﻗﻴﻤﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻣﻜﺚ ﻋﻨﺪهﺎ ﻃﻮ�ﻼ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﺳﺮﺍﻉ ‪.‬‬ ‫هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ �� ‪.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﻭﺣﺴﺐ �� ﻞ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﻭﺃ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺑﺪﻭﺕ �� ﻧﻈﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺯﺭ��ﻢ‬
‫ﻟ��ﻢ ﻟﻌﺒ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﻛهﺪﻳﺔ ﻛﺮﻱﺴﻤﺎﺱ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﻄﻔﻠﺔ �ﺴﺮﻉ َ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ‪.‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﺇﻃﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺓ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪﻳﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺱ ﻓﻌﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮ �� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻟﻔﺖ ﺃﻧﻈﺎﺭ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺇ�� ﻞ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻋﻤﺎ ﻗﺮ�ﺐ’’ ‪:‬ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﺳﺎﻛﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺪﺳﺔ ‪‘‘.‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺳﻴﻐ�ﻱ ﺍﺧﺮﻭﻥ ّ‬ ‫ُﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺘﻪ ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻣﺸﺮﻕ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ ﻟﻠﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻟﻱﺴﻤﻌ�ﻱ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻊ’’ ‪ّ :‬‬ ‫ﺃﺻﺮﺥ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺍ ﻣﻨﻌ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺴ�� ‪.‬ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺃﺳﺮﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﻠﻎ �ﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺐ ّ‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺳﻠﻜﺖ ﻣﺴﺎﺭﺍ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﺃﺭﺩ ﺗﻔﻮ�ﺖ ﺃﻱ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ ﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ �ﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺭﺅ�ﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮﺍ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﺇ�� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻭﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺩﻣﻮﻋﺎ‬
‫�� ﻋﻴﻨ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻊ ﻣﻊ ﻋﺪﺳﺔ‬ ‫ﺗﺄﻗﻠﻤﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻣﻊ ﻋﺪﺳﺔ ﺍﳌﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﻴﺪﺓ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﺟﻴﺪ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻋﺪﺳﺎﺕ‬‫ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻋﻦ ﻗﺮﺏ �ﺎﻥ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺎ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ّ‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇ�� ﻋﺪﺳﺎﺕ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻘﻌﺮﺓ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻣﺤﺪﺑﺔ ﻛﺒ��ﺓ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻀﻌﻒ �ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺍﻋ��ﻯ ﻋﻀﻼﺕ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻷ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣهﺎ ﻣﺪﺓ ﻃﻮ�ﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ�ﺎ��ﻱ ﺃﺟﺰﺍﺀ ّ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻴﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺴﻤﻪ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩ‬ ‫ﱡ‬ ‫ﻋ�� ﺗﺪﺭ��ﺎ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﺪ ّﺭﺏ‬
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‫ﳌﻨﺎﻓﺴﺔ �� ﺭ�ﺎﺿﺔ ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺃﻥ‬‫ﻋ�� ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﺡﺝﻢ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ّ‬
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‫ﺃ�ﻌﻠﻢ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻤﻴ�� ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﻭ�ﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺋﻱﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻛ�� ﺡﺝﻤﺎ �� ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻒ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺣ�ﻯ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﻭ�ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺔ ﻣﺎﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻐﺮﻕ ﻭﻗﺘﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�ﺴﺎﺀﻟﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻟﻚ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﻃﺒﻊ ﺑﺤﺮﻭﻑ ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺍﳌﺴﺘﻮﻯ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃ�ﺸﺪﻩ ��(‪ Mother Goose‬ﺍﻭﺯﺓ ﺍﻡ ‪).‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺷﺮﻋﺖ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪ �� ،‬ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ‬
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‫ﺍﺑﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺓ �� هﺬﻩ ﺍﳌﺠﺎﻣﻴﻊ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻔﺔ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ‪��.‬‬
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‫ﺍﳌﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﺗﻠﻌﺜﻤﺖ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺤ�ﻲ ﻗﺼﺔ’’ ﺑﻮ�ﻲ ﺷﺎﻓﻠﻮ ‪‘‘.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﺖ‬
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‫ﺇ�� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﻷﻗﺮﺃهﺎ؛ ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃ��ﻴ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺣ�ﻥ �ﻌﺎ�ﻲ ﺇﺣﻤﺮﺍﺭﺍ ﻭﺣﺮﻗﺔ ‪.‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ’’ ﺑﻴ�ﻱ ﺗﻮ ﺷﻮﺯ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻧﺼﻒ ﺯﻣﻦ ﺍﻭ��‪،‬‬ ‫ﺗﺎ�ﻌﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺇﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ ﻣ�ﻱ‬
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‫ﻭﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ُﻣﺘﻌﺒﺘ�ﻥ ﻋﻘﺐ ﺍﻧ��ﺎﺀ ﻣ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﻭﻗﺖ ﻭﺟ�� ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ’’ ﻣﻮﺫﺭ ﻏﻮﺯ ‘‘ﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴهﻮﻟﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ��ﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻓ��ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺒﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺇﺻﺎﺑ�ﻱ ﺑﺈﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺛﻢ ﺑﺤﺜﺖ ﻋﻦ ��ﻱﺀ ﺃﺻﻌﺐ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ ﺗﻤهﻴﺪﻳﺎ ﻟﻸﻃﻔﺎﻝ �� ﺧﺰﺍﻧﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﺰﻣﺖ ﻋ�� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺗﻪ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﻭ�� ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻇهﺮﺕ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﻟﺼ�ﻱ ﻭﻓﺘﺎﺗ�ﻥ ﺻﻐ��ﺗ�ﻥ ﻭ�ﻠﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺳﻴﺎﺝ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﻋﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﺮﻋﺖ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪:‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺬهﺐ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺩﻳﻚ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮ‘‘‬

‫’’ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ��‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺳﻱﺌﺎ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺒﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺔ ‪:‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺟﺎﻳﻦ’’ ‪:‬ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮ!‘‘‬
‫’’ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺬهﺐ‪.‬‬
‫’’ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻭهﻮ ﻳﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ��‪‘‘...‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺳﺎ��’’ ‪:‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ��‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ��‘‘‪،‬‬
‫’’ﻳﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ��‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ��‪ ،‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻋ��‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻛﻮ�ﻲ ﺃ��ﻴﺖ هﺎﺗ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺘ�ﻥ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺃﺻﻐﺮ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺣﺮﻭﻑ’’ ﻣﻮﺫﺭ ﻏﻮﺯ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﺴﻥﺖ ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ ﺑﺎﳌﺜﻞ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ �� ﺁﻧﺎ ﻛﺘﺒﺎ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺴﻢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺷﺌﺔ �� ﺍﳌﻜﺘﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺮﺃ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭ�� ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻋﺮﺿﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻋ�� ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﺘﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻑ ﺍﳌﺨﺼﺺ ﻟﻠﻔﺘﻴﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﻛ�� ﺳﻨﺎ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ‪ Book of Marvels‬ﻟﺮ�ﺕﺸﺎﺭﺩ هﺎﻟﻴ��ﺗﻮﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ ﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃ�ﻲ‬
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‫ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﳌﺎ ﺍﺣﺘﻮﺍﻩ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻏﺪﺕ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﻣﺤﺾ ﺍﻟﺘﺪ ّ ﺏ ﻋ�� ّ‬ ‫َ‬
‫ﻓﻚ ﺭﻣﻮﺯ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻠﻤﺎﺕ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻥ ﻗﺪ‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺁﻧﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺭّ�ﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﺖ ﺟﺎهﺰﺓ ﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺣﺮﻭﻑ ﺃﺻﻐﺮ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻛﺘﺐ ﺫﻱ �ﻠﻤﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺇ��‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻌﻮﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﺕ‬ ‫ﺭ‬‫ﺍﺿﻄﺮ‬ ‫ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﺿﺒﺎﺑﻴﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﺻﻐﺮ‬ ‫ﻑ‬ ‫ﻭ‬‫ﺍ�ﺡﺮ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫�ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻃﺎﳌﺎ �ﺎﻥ �� ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟهﺪ‬ ‫ﻛﺒ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻗﺮﺃﺕ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺍﺯﺩﺍﺩﺕ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭ�� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺭﺕ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺏﺐ ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ ﺇﺭهﺎﻗﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ‪ّ .‬‬
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‫ﺣﻴﻥﺌﺬ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺮﺍﺀ��ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﻀﻄﺮﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻭﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻟ��ﻧﺎﻣ�� ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻢ �� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺟﻤﻠﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﺛﻥﺘ�ﻥ ﻓﻘﻂ �� ﺍ�ﺝﻠﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺣﺮﺯﻩ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺿﺎﻕ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ �� ﻌﺾ ﺍﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﻟﺒﻂﺀ‬
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‫ﻳﻤﺾ ﻋ�� ﺧﺮﻭﺟﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﻌ�ﻥ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺗﺘﻮﻗ‬ ‫ﻣﺎﺫﺍ‬ ‫‪:‬‬ ‫’’‬‫ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﺳﻴﻢ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﺏﺘ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻧ‬
‫ﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﺷهﻮﺭ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺳﺘﻤﺮ �� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻛﺘﺐ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﻣﺘﺬﻣﺮﺓ’’ ‪:‬هﺬﺍ �ﺡﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ �� ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺕ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﻟﻮ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﻤﻜ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﺪﺓ ﺳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﺘﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻗﺮ ِ‬
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‫ﺟﻴﺪ‪� ،‬ﻌﺘﻘﺪﻳﻦ ّﺃ��ﻢ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺘﻮﻗﻊ ‪.‬ﻛﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﻣﻤﻦ ﻳﺘﻤﺘﻌﻮﻥ ﺑﺒﺼﺮ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ ﻳﻔﻮﻕ‬
‫�ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌﻮﻥ ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻟﻌﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ِ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻣ�ﻥ ﺑﻪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺇﻥ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻴﺔ �� ﺍﻟﻜﻼﻡ ﺟﻌﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻭﺃﺗﺄﻣﻞ ‪.‬ﺭ�ﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
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‫ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺜ�� ‪.‬ﻗﻠﺖ �� ﻧﻔ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ��ﻱﺀ �ﺴﻤﻰ ﺍﳌﺨﺎﻃﺮﺓ ﻏ�� ﺍﻟﻀﺮﻭﺭ�ﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻨﻊ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯ ﺍ�ﺡﺪ ﺇ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺮﺝ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﺰ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻋﻠﻘﺖ ﻓ��ﺎ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ُﻳﺪﻝ ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻳﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ّ‬
‫ﺑﺄﻱ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫‪،‬‬ ‫ﺑﺘﺄﻥ‬ ‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻓﺤﺺ‬ ‫ﺁﺫﺍﺭ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺷهﺮ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﺩﺍ‬‫ﻣﺠﺪ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫�ﻌﻠﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ُﻳﺮﺳﻠ�ﻱ ﺇ�� ﻣﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮﺍ�ﻐ�ﻥ ﻟﻴﻔﺤﺺ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ‬
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‫ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺼﻮﻟﻪ ‪.‬ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﻧﻔ��ﻱ ‪:‬هﻞ‬
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‫ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺍ �� ﺃﺳﻠﻮ�ﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻡ ّﺃ��ﺎ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺨﻴﻠ�ﻱ ﺍﳌﻔﺮﻃﺔ ﺍﻟﻥﺸﺎﻁ �ﺴﺘﺄﻧﻒ �ﺸﺎﻃهﺎ؟‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺍ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺴﺮﻭﺭﺍ ﺑﺪﺭﺟﺔ ّ‬ ‫ْ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺴﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭ�ﺴﺎﺀﻟﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺇﺣﺘﻤﺎﻟﻴﺔ‬
‫ّ ّ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘﻪ ﻭﻗﻠ�ﻱ ﻳﺨﻔﻖ ّ‬
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‫�ﺸﺪﺓ ﺇ�� ﺣﺪ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺩﻗﺎﺗﻪ ﺗﺤﺖ ﻓﺴﺘﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﺯ ﻕ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺤﺒﻮﻙ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ هﻨﺎﻙ ﺧﻄﺐ ﻣﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻗﻨﻊ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ��ﻱﺀ ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻪ �ﺸﺄﻥ‬
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‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺟهﻪ ﺑﻘﻲ ﻋﺎ�ﺴﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﻱﺖ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻙ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ �ﻌﺪ ﺑﺮهﺔ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ِ‬
‫’’ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ِ ،‬ﻭﻟ َﻢ ﻻ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’هﻞ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻥ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‘‘‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ �ﻐﺎﺿﻱﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭﻩ ﺑﺎﻷﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻪ‬
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‫ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍ ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻗﻴﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺧﻄ ِﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬‫ﺗﺎ�ﻊ ﺗﻮﺟﻴﻪ ﺍﺳﺌﻠﺔ ﻗﺎﺋﻼ’’ ‪:‬ﻭﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻋﻦ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ِ‬
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‫’’ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ ،‬هﻞ �ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺗﻪ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺡﻚ ﻓﻮﺭ ﺳﻤﺎﻋﻪ ﺳﺆﺍ��‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻓ�ﻞ ﻣﻦ هﻮ ﻋ�� ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﺨﻄﻲ ﺳﻴﻔهﻢ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺗﻪ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎﺩﺓ �� ﺃﻳﺎﺭ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﻘﺔ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺯ�ﺎﺭ�ﻲ هﺬﻩ ﻟﻠﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ‪.‬هﻞ‬ ‫ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﻣﺴﺕﻴﻘﻈﺔ ﻟﻠﻴﺎﻝ ّ‬
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‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ؟ �ﺎﻥ ﺃﺳﻠﻮ�ﻪ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻷﺍﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‬‫ﺳﻴﺤﺪﺙ ��ﻱﺀ ﻓﻈﻴﻊ ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﻱ‬
‫ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻻﺣﻆ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺑﺼﺮ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺿﻌﻒ ﻣﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺳﺎﺑﻘﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫�ﻌﺪ ﺍ�ﺥﻀﻮﻉ ﻟﻔﺤﺺ �� ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﺘﻤﺔ �� ﺃﻳﺎﺭ ﺃﺧ��ﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺸﻜﻼﺕ ﻋﺎﻭﺩﺕ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‪� ،‬ﺎﻥ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻏﺸﺎﺀ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻳﻨﻤﻮ ﻓﻮﻗهﺎ ﻭﻭﺻﻔﻪ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻭﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ ﺷﺎﺉﻌﺎ �� ﺣﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻳﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ��‬‫ﺇﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﺛﺎﻧﻮﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ ﺳﻮﺀ ّ‬
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‫ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ �ﺎﻥ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻌﺎ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻭ��‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﻀﺮ ﺭﺓ‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺫﺍ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺔ ﻭﻗﺎﺋﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃ�ﺎﺩ ﺃﺑ�ﻲ’’ ‪�:‬ﺎﻥ ﻻ ّﺑﺪ ﻟهﺬﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ��‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻭﺍﺳﺎ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻮﻝ« ‪:‬ﺁﻩ‪ّ ،‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻟﻚ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺳﺘﻌﻨﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﺮ‬ ‫ﻓﻜ‬ ‫‪.‬‬ ‫ﺇﻧﻘ�ﻯﻯ‬ ‫ﻗﺪ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﻮﺃ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻦ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﺑﻤﺎ ّﺃﻧ ِﻚ ﺗﻘﺮﺃﻳﻦ �ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﺮ�ﺢ ﺍﻥ ﻓﺴﺘﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺧﻂ �� ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ ‪.‬هﺬﺍ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺳﺎﺭﺕ ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ؛ ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻄﺮ هﺬﻩ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﻟﻱﺲ‬
‫ﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﺧﻄﻮﺭﺓ ﺍﳌﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ‪».‬‬
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‫ّ‬ ‫ﺯﺍﺩ ﺳﻤﻚ ﺍﻟﻐﺸﺎﻭﺓ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﻊ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺗﻮ�� ﺍ�ﺡﺬﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﺧﻄﻮ ﺧﻄﻮﺍ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﺻﺮﺕ ﺃﻭﺍﺟﻪ ﺻﻌﻮ�ﺎﺕ ﻣ��ﺍﻳﺪﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻏ�� ﺭﺅﻭﺱ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ �� ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﻄﺒﻮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭهﺬﻩ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺗﺨﺘﻔﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺪﺭ�ﺞ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺕ‬
‫ﻋﺸﻮﺍﺉﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﻜﺘﻞ ﻗﻄﻨﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�� ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﻄﺎﻑ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﻞ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫�ﺸ�ﻞ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﻛﺄ��ﺎ ﻣﻐﻄﺎﺓ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ �� ﺍﻟ��ﺎﻳﺔ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫�ﻠﻴﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﳌﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫�ﻠﻤﺔ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﺮﺃهﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌ�ﻱ ﻣﻌﺎﻧﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺟﻢ ﻋﻦ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ ﺃﺛﺮ �� ﺃﻋﺼﺎ�ﻲ ‪.‬ﺻﺮﺕ ﻓﺎﺋﻘﺔ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺴﺲ ﺇﺯﺍﺀ ﺍﻟ�ﺝﻴﺞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻜﺘﺉﺒﺔ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﻋ�� ﺍﺑﺼﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺇﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﻣﺆﻗﺖ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺍﺉﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻋ�ﻱ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻋﺘﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺻﺎﺏ ﺑﺼﺮﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺭ‬ ‫ﺭ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺠﺎﺯﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ�ﻱ‬ ‫ﻛﻤﺎ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ‬
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‫ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﻮﻃﺄﺓ ّ‬ ‫�ﻞ ّ‬‫ﻋ�� ﺧﻮﺿهﺎ �� ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻋ��‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻳﺤﺼﻞ ﻓ��ﺎ ��ﻱﺀ ﻟﻌﻴ�ﻱ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻯ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍ�ﺡ ﺃ�ﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﺎﻗﻠﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ �� ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺳﻮ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ‬
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‫ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ‪.‬ﺇﺫﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻢ ��ﻤﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺨﻮﻑ ﻣﻤﺰﻭﺝ ﺑﺎﻟﻴﺄﺱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ‪.‬ﻭهﻮ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ‬
‫ﺷﻚ‬‫ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍ ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﺎﳌ��ﺀ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺒﻱﺖ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ هﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬ ‫ﻏﺪﺍ ﺍﳌ��ﺀ ﺇ�� ﻣﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ ﻭﺭﺍﻝ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻟﺲ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺍﳌﻨﻀﺪﺓ ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺮﺓ �� ﺇﻧﺕﺴﺎ�ﻲ ﺇ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫�ﻌﺮﻑ ّ‬
‫ﻋ��‬ ‫هﺬﻩ ّ‬
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‫ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﻭﺍﻳﺘﻱﻨﻎ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺩﻭﻧﺎهﻴﻮ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﺸﺮﻓﺘﺎﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ�ﻊ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﻷﺣﻀﺎﻥ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ �� ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﺄﻟﻮﻓﺎ ﻋ�� ﻧﺤﻮ ﻣﺮ�ﺢ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﻣﻠﺘ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿﺔ �� ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﻣﺤﻨﻜﺔ �� هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﺃﻧﺪﺱ �� ﺭﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﻤﺪﺩﺕ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺳﺎﻋﺪﺗ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﻋ�� ﺍﻃﻼﻕ ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﺳ��ﺧﺎﺀ ﻋ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﻭﻭﺿﻊ‬
‫ﺍ��ﺎﻣ�ﻥ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺑﺪ�ﻲ‪� ،‬ﻲ ﻻ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺨﺪﺭ ﻳﺪﺍﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﺇ�� ﻭﻇﻴﻔ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻴﻤﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺪﺩﺕ هﻨﺎﻙ �� ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺀ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺩﺑﻮﺱ ﺷﻌﺮ‬
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‫ﻳﻨﺨﺰ ﺭﺃ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺆﳌ�ﻱ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻟﻜﻨﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺰ�ﺝ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺇﻥ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺤﺮﻛﺔ ﻓﺠﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﻷﺭﻓﻊ‬
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‫ﺃﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﻧﻔ��ﻱ �� ﻭﺿﻌﻴﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﻠﻮﺱ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ �ﺎﻥ ﻣهﻴﺌﺎ ﻟﻠﺒﺪﺀ ﺑﺎ�ﺝﺮﺍﺣﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﻨ��ﺖ ﺇ��‬
‫«ﻭﺍﻭ»!‪ ،‬ﺻﺎﺡ ﺃﺣﺪهﻢ‪ �� ،‬ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﺻﺎﺡ ﻋﺪﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭ�ﺪ ﺃﻥ ّ‬
‫ﺃ�ﺡﺡ ﻣﻮﺿﻊ ّﺩﺑﻮﺱ ﺷﻌﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﻨﺨﺰ�ﻲ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫’’ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻤﻠﻪ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻱﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ِ‬
‫�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﺄﻟ�ﻱ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﺆﺍﻝ‪.‬‬
‫’’ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻤﻠﻪ ّ‬
‫ﺑ�ﻞ ﺗﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺗﻤﺪﺩﺕ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺍﺭ�ﻌﺸﺖ ﺑ�ﺝﺔ ﻣﻤﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ‪.‬ﺭﺃﻳﺖ �ﺥﺼﺎ ﺃﺑﻴﺾ ﻃﻮ�ﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﺘﻮ�ﺝ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺧﻮﺫﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺜ�ﺝﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﺽ ﻧﻮﺭ ﺳﺎﻃﻊ ﻣﺜﻞ َ‬
‫ﺻﻮﺭ ﻣﺸﻌﻞ ﺍ�ﺡﻜﻤﺔ ﺍﳌﺘﻘﺪ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ‬
‫ّﺃﻧ�ﻱ ﺷﺎهﺪﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺪﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤﺴﺐ ﺍﺳﻄﻮﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫�ﺸﻊ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﺐّ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﺒﻌﺜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺒ�ﺝﺔ �� ﻧﻔﻮﺱ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﺮ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﻧ�ﻥ �� ﻋﺘﻤﺔ ﺩﺍﺋﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺎ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺘﻐﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﻏ�� ﺩﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﻣﻌﺪﻭﺩﺍﺕ ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩ ﻓﺤﺺ ﳌﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ �ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺩﻭﺍﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﺮﺍﺣﻴﺔ ‪.‬ﳌﺴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫ُ‬ ‫هﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬
‫ﺗﻼﻣﺴهﺎ ﻣﻊ‬ ‫ﺃﻱ ﺃﻟﻢ �� ﺍﻟﻌ�ﻥ ﻋﻨﺪ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ‪.‬‬‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ‪.‬ﻭهﺬﺍ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ‪.‬ﺗﺮﻃﻴﺐ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ ‪.‬ﻇﻼﻡ ﺗﺎﻡ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻀﻌﻮﻧ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻌﺮ�ﺔ’’ ‪ّ :‬ﺇ��ﺎ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﺃﻳ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺮ��ﺎ ِ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺎﺩﻭ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺮ�ﺔ ﺇ�� ﻏﺮﻓ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧ��ﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﻗﻠﻘﺘ�ﻱ ﻭﺃﺧﺎﻓﺘ�ﻱ ﻛﺜ��ﺍ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎ�� ﻋﻨﺪ ﺧﺮﻭ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﳌﺴﺕﺸﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻤﺖ ّﺃ��ﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﻧﺎﺝﺡﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‬
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‫‪�2‬ﺥﺼﻴﺔ �� ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺭﻭﺍﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺴ�� ﻭﻭﻟ�� ﺳﻜﻮﺕ‬
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‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﻋﻤﻴﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺃﺭ�ﻌ�ﻥ ّ‬ ‫ﺭ ْ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﻣﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬ ‫�ﻲ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺻﺎﺭ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﻭ ﻱ‬
‫ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻳﺎﻡ ﻃﻴﻠﺔ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�� ﺃﻱ ٍ‬
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‫ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺗ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺘ�ﻥ ﻭﺻﻔهﻤﺎ �� ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﺮ�ﻐ�ﻥ – ﺍﻭ�� ﻟﻠﻤﺴﺎﻓﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺒﻌﻴﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﺴﺎﻓﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺮ�ﺒﺔ – ﺗﺰ ّﻭﺩﺕ‪ ،‬ﻋﻤﻼ ﺑﺎﻗ��ﺍﺡ ﺍﻟﺪﻛﺘﻮﺭ ﺑﻥﻴﺪﻳﻜﺖ‪،‬‬
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‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ‪.‬ﺃﻛ�� هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺍﺕ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪﺓ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻟﻠﻘﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻻﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣهﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ‬ ‫ّ‬
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‫ﺡﺝﻤﺎ �ﻐﻄﻲ ﺻﻔﺤﺔ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ �ﺎﻣﻠﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﻤﻠﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﺸ�ﻞ ﺍﳌﻨﺎﺳﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻥ هﺬﺍ‬
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‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﺃﺳﺮﻉ ﻭ�ﻘﻠﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺟهﺎﺩ ﻋ�� ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺻﻐﺮ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃ‬ ‫ﺮ‬ ‫ﺃﻗ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻣﻦ‬
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‫ﺡﺝﻤﺎ ﻭ�ﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣهﺎ �� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﻓﻘﺮﺍﺕ ﻃﺒﻌﺖ ﺑﺤﺮﻭﻑ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﺟﺪﺍ ‪.‬ﺃﺻﻐﺮ‬
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‫هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺃﻗﻮﺍهﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ �ﻌﻴﻨ�ﻱ ﻋ�� ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﺍﺋﻂ ﻭﺍﳌﺨﻄﻄﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍ�ﺝﺪﺍﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻨﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﻣﻦ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﻞ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻞ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻭهﺒﺖ ّ‬ ‫ﻷﻓﻜﺮ ّ‬‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮ‬ ‫ﺟﺪﻳﺎ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻮﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ �ﻌﺪﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﻵﺍﻥ ﺣﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬
‫ﻏﺐ �� ﻣﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺗﺨﺬ ﻣ��ﺎ ﻣهﻨﺔ ‪.‬ﻣﺎ هﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﺏﻴﻞ ﻷﻛﻮﻥ ﻧﺎﻓﻌﺔ ��‬ ‫هﺬﻩ ‪.‬ﺃﺭ ُ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؟‬‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ؟ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺳﺄﻛﺴﺐ ﺑﻮﺳﺎﻃ��ﺎ ﻟﻘﻤﺔ ﻋﻱ��ﻱ ّ‬
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‫ﺍﳌ��ﻱ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺨﺬ‬ ‫ﺷﻚ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ �� ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ‪.‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ �ﺴﺎﻭﺭ ﺫه�ﻱ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ّ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﻣ��ﺎ ﻣهﻨﺔ ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺆﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺟﺐ ﺃﺧﺬﻩ ﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺃﺗﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺎﳌﻮهﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﻓﻴﺔ‬
‫�ﺥﻮﺽ هﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻀﻤﺎﺭ؟ ﻭهﻞ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﺣﻘﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭهﺬﻩ �� ﺍﳌﺴﺄﻟﺔ ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻮﻋﺔ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺤﻚ‬
‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻨﺎﺱ؟‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻓﺎﺋﺪﺓ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﻥ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﺃﻱ ��ﻱﺀ ﻷﻗﻮﻟﻪ ﻭ�ﻜﻮﻥ ﺫﺍ‬
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‫ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬هﻨﺎﻙ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻻ ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮ�ﺔ‪.‬‬

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‫�ﺎﻑ ﻭ�ﻘﻮﺓ �ﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻷﻋﻤﻞ ﻋﺪﺕ ﺇ�� ﺭﻭﺍﻳ�ﻱ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺍﻧﻜﺒﺏﺖ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺑﺒﺼﺮ‬ ‫ﻊ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﻤﺘ‬ ‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺻﺮﺕ‬
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‫ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ �� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻃﺒﺎﻋ��ﺎ �� ﺣﺰ�ﺮﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻤﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬
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‫ﻭﺁﻧﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺳﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ��ﺝﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﻭﺷﺮ�ﻨﺎ ﻧﺨﺐ ﻧﺠﺎﺣهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺭﺳﻠ��ﺎ ﺇ��‬
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‫ﻧﺎﺷﺮهﺎ ﺍﻭﻝ ‪.‬ﺭ ّﺩهﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺷﺮ ﻛﻜﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺷﺮ�ﻦ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻷﻥ ﺍﺛﻨ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺷﺮ�ﻦ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺗﻜﺒﺪﺍ ﻣﺸﻘﺔ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﺭﺳﺎﺋﻞ ﻭﺩﻳﺔ ﻭﺃﺭﻓﻘﺎهﺎ ﻣﻊ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻹﺣﺒﺎﻁ‬
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‫ﻗﺼﺎﺻ�ﻱ ﺭﻓﻀهﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﺣﺴﺴﺖ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣﺎ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺃ�ﺝ��ﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﺟﺮﺏ ﻣهﺎﺭ�ﻲ ��‬ ‫ﻭﺧﻼﻝ ﺯ�ﺎﺭ�ﻲ ﻟﺸﻘﻴﻘ�ﻱ ﺇﺳ ِ�� ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺒﻮﻟﻱﺲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ‬
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‫�ﺴ�ﻯ‬ ‫ﺣ��ﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣﺮﻱ ﻧﻮﻋﺎ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻟﻮ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻱ‬ ‫ﻟﻜ�‬ ‫ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﻗﺼﺺ ﻗﺼ��ﺓ ‪.‬‬
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‫�� ﺍﻥ ﺃﺗﻠﻘﻰ ﺗﻮﺟ��ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺧﺒ�� ﺸﺄﻥ ﻛﺘﺎﺑ�ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻌﺮﻓﺖ‪ ،‬ﺑﺼﻮﺭ ٍﺓ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺘﻮﺍﻱ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎ�ﻲ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ’’ ‪ِ :‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ �ﺴﺄﻟ�ﻥ ﻣﺎﺭﺷﻱﺖ ﺷﻴﻮﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ‬
‫��ﻱﺀ ﻣﻦ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎﺗﻚ؟ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﻧﺎﻗﺪﺓ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﻋ�� ٍ‬
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‫ﺗﻈﻦ ﺻﺪﻳﻘ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻗﺪﺓ‬ ‫ﺟﻮﺕ ﺻﺪﻳﻘ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ُﺗﺨ��ﻲ ﻋﻦ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻗﺪﺓ ‪.‬هﻞ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
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‫ﺳﺕﺘ�ﻠﻒ ﻋﻨﺎﺀ ﻗﺮﺍﺀﺓ ﺃﻋﻤﺎ�� ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺤﺾ ﻣﺒﺘﺪﺋﺔ؟‬
‫ﻟﻚ ﻻ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫�ﺸ�ﻞ ﻣﺘﺤﻤﺲ’’ ‪:‬ﻻ ﺿ�� ﻋﺮﺽ ﺍﻣﺮ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ‪.‬ﻓﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪ��ﺎ ِ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺻﺪﻳﻘ�ﻱ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻚ ﺗﻈهﺮ�ﻦ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺑﻴﺎ‬ ‫ﻣﻮﻗﻔﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﺪ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻷﻥ‬ ‫ﺗﻘﺘﺼﺮ ﻋ�� ﺭﺃ��ﺎ ﺍﺩ�ﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻧﺤﻮ ��ﺝﺰ ﻋﻦ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻧﺎﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺩﻱ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻙ ﻋ�� ٍ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﺑﻤﺎﺭﺷﻱﺖ ﺷﻴﻮﺕ ﻭﻭﺍﻓﻘﺖ ﻋ�� ﻣﻌﺎﻳﻨﺔ ﺍﺛﻥﺘ�ﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺼ��ﻱ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺮﺿﺎ ��ﻤﺎ ﻷﻧ�ﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻣﻨﺤهﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬
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‫ﺍﻗﻞ ‪.‬ﻛﻤﺎ ّﺇ��ﺎ ﺳﺕﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺨﺮﺝ ﻣ��ﻤﺎ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﺎ��‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ��ﻤﺎ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻧﺎﻥ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻋ��‬
‫ﺑﻔﻜﺮﺓ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺃﺳﻠﻮ�ﻲ �� ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﻣهﻤﺎ �ﺎﻧﺘﺎ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺉﺘ�ﻥ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺑﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺷﺎﺑﺔ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻧﺎ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ �� ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﺒ�ﻯ ﺟﻤﻌﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﺘ�ﻱ ّ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻣﻮﻋﺪ ﻟﻠﻘﺎﺀ ﻧﺎﻗﺪ�ﻲ ﺍ�ﺝﺪﻳﺪﺓ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺴﻴﺤﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻮ ﺍﳌ�ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �ﺎﻥ ّ‬
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‫هﺰ�ﻠﺔ ﻭﺩﺍﻛﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺏﺸﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ�ﻱ ﻭﺟﺪ��ﺎ ﻓﺎﺗﻨﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ �� ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﻮﺳﻴﻘﻲ ﺧﻔﻴﺾ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺎﺭﺷﻱﺖ ﺷﻴﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺑﺄﻧ ِﻚ ﺍ�ﺴﺔ‬
‫ﺩﺍﻝ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ُ‬ ‫ﻗﺼ ّ‬‫�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺟﻠﺴﻨﺎ ﻋ�� ﺃﺭ�ﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﺈﻃﻼ�� ﻋ�� ﺭﺃ��ﺎ �� ّ‬
‫�ﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ��ﺗ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻋﺮﻓﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﻣﺜﺔ ﺟﻌﻠﺘ�ﻱ ﺃﺛﻖ ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﺻﺮﺍﺣ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﺧﺎﺻﺎ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ‬ ‫ّﺃ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺠﺪ ﻓ��ﻤﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺴ�� ﺇ�ﺝﺎﺑﺎ ّ‬
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‫ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺼ�ﻱ ‪.‬ﺃﺧ��ﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻌﺎﻧﺎ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺘﻮﻋﺐ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻓﻴﺾ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ �� ّ‬
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‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻰ ﻭﺗﺄﺛ��ﻩ �� ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻏﺮ�ﺒﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻥﺴﺒﺔ ��‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ُﺑﺤﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺑﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ‬
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‫ﺗﻜﻤﻦ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺎ �� ﻗﻠ�ﻱ – ٌ‬
‫��ﻱﺀ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ �� ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻛﺮﻩ ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ‬
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‫ﻋﻦ ﻋﻴ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﺎ�ﻲ ﻭﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺃﻣﻀﻱﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ �ﻠﻪ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ‪��.‬ﻀﺖ ﻷﺫهﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﺎﺭﺷﻱﺖ ﺷﻴﻮﺕ ﺇﺳﺕﺒﻘﺘ�ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻚ؟‘‘‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺔ‬ ‫’’ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ ﺗﻜﺘﺒ�ﻥ ّ‬

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‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﺝﻞ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ‪�.‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﺣﻤﺎﻗﺔ ﻣ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ��ﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﺣﺔ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﺎﺟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻻ ﻳﺄ��ﻮ ﻟﺴﻤﺎﻉ ﻣﺸﻜﻼﺕ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ‪ ،‬ﺇ��ﻢ ﻻ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺁﺳﻔﺔ ﻹﺯ ِ‬
‫ﻳﺮ�ﺪﻭﻥ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺎﻉ ﺇ�� ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻛ�ﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻣ�ﺝﻌﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﺑﺕﺴﻤﺖ �� ﺍﺑﺕﺴﺎﻣﺔ ّ‬
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‫ُ‬ ‫’’ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﺘ�ﻱ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻗ��ﺣﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺴﺏﺐ‬ ‫ﻭﻟهﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ‪،‬‬ ‫هﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﺴﺖ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﻟﺬﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻚ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻚ‘‘‪.‬‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋﻦ‬
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‫��ﻀﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ‪� ،‬ﻌﻴﺪﺍ �� ﺫﺍﻛﺮ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇﺳﺘﺤﻀﺮﺕ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﻣﻌﻠﻤ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ‬
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‫ﺬﻛﺮ�ﻲ ﺑﺎﳌﻠﻜﺔ ﻓﻜﺘﻮﺭ�ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺃﺧ��ﺕ ﺑﻘﻴﺔّ‬ ‫ﺍ�ﺴﺔ �ﺎﻛﺲ ‪.‬ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻼﻣﻴﺬ �� ﺻﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻳﻮﻡ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻏﺎﺋﺒﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺍﻋ��ﺍﺯهﺎ �ﻲ ﻛﻮ�ﻲ ﺃﺑﺬﻝ‬
‫ﻋﻴ�ﻱ‪ّ.‬‬‫َ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﺟهﻮﺩﺍ ّ‬
‫ﺟﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻷ�ﻐﻠﺐ ﻋ�� ﻣﺸ�ﻠﺔ‬
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‫ﻭﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺘﻪ �� ﻣﺎﺭ�ﺎ ﺳﺎﻧﻔﻮﺭﺩ �� ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺎﺷﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ��‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ’’ ‪�:‬ﻠﻨﺎ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺇﻋﺎﻗﺎﺕ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺘﻚ »‪� ،‬ﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺎﺭﺷﻱﺖ ﺷﻴﻮﺕ‬ ‫’’ﻓﻜﺮ �� ﺍ�ﺥ�� ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻘﺪﻣﻴﻨﻪ �� ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺭﻭ�ﺖ ﻗﺼ ِ‬ ‫ﻱ‬
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‫ﺗﻘﻮﻝ‪ «،‬ﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺫﻭﻱ ﻹﺍﻋﺎﻗﺎﺕ ﺳﻱﺘﺤﻠﻮﻥ ﺑﺎﻟ�ﺝﺎﻋﺔ ﻋ�� ﺃﻧﻤﻮﺫﺟﻚ ﻭﺳﻱﺘﻔﻜﺮﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻒ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﻵﺍ�ﺴﺔ ﺩﺍﻝ ﻣﺴ��ﺎ ﺭﻏﻢ هﺎﺗ�ﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻨ�ﻥ ‪.‬ﻭﺳﻴﻘﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪ ﻣ��ﻢ‪،‬‬
‫ﻇﻦّ ﺃﻧّ�ﻱ ﻗﺎﺩﺭٌ ﻋ�� ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﺸﻜﻼ�ﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ �ﻌﺎﻣﻠﺖُ ﻣﻊ ﻷﺍﻣﺮ ﻛﻤﺎ‬
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‫�ﻌﺎﻣﻠﺖ ��‪».‬‬
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‫ﻟﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ّ‬
‫ﻣ��ﺩﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺘﻚ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﳌﺮﺀ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺳﺘ ْﻘﻨﻌهﻢ ّ‬
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‫’’ﻤﺎ ﺃﻧّﻚِ ﺳﺕﺴﺎﻋﺪﻳﻦ ﻵﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻧﺎﻓﻌﺎ ﻭﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣ�ﻯ ﻭﻟﻮ �ﺎﻥ �ﻌﺎ�ﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻋﺎﻗﺔ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻈﻢ‬
‫ﻛﺄﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ‘‘‪.‬‬‫ﺩﻣﺎﺛﺔ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺇﻇهﺎﺭهﺎ ﻟﻪ �� ﻣﻌﺎﻣﻠﺘﻪ ّ‬
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‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﺃﺧ��ﺍ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﻴﺪ ﻣﺎﺭﺷﻱﺖ ﺷﻴﻮﺕ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ‪.‬ﻭﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
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‫ﺳﻱﺒﻘﻴ�ﻱ ﻣﻥﺸﻐﻠﺔ �� ﻣﻥ�ﻝ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ �� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﺍﺳﺘﻔﻀﻨﺎ �ﻌﺾ ﺍﻟ��ﻱﺀ �� ﺍ�ﺡﺪﻳﺚ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎﺗﻚ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺪﻳﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺇﺑﺪﺍﺀ‬ ‫ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺘﻪ‪،‬‬ ‫��‬ ‫ﳌﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ‬ ‫ﺓ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪ‬ ‫ﺳﺄﻟ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬هﻞ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻧ�ﻥ‬
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‫�� ﺣﻮﻟﻪ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﺫﻟﻚ؟‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ �ﺴهﻮﻟﺔ‬
‫ِ‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺴﺮﻭﺭﺓ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﺫهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺎﻟﻴﻔﻮﺭﻧﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺇﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﻓﺼﻮﻟﻪ ﺑﻮﺍﺳﻄﺔ ﺍﻟ��ﻳﺪ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱ ﻋﻤﻞ ّ‬‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺷهﻮﺭ ‪�.‬ﺎﻥ ّ‬‫ُ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺘﻨﺔ ﻭﺃﻛ�� ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ّ‬ ‫ُ‬
‫ﻋ��‬ ‫ﻣﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺇﺑﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯﻩ ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻊ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ‪ ،‬ﻭهﺎ ﻗﺪ‬‫ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﻴﻢ ﺍﻥ �� ﺗﻮ�ﻦ ﻓﺎ�� ّ‬
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‫ﺛﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﻋﺸﺮ�ﻦ ﺳﻨﺔ ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ �� ﺣﻴ��ﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺃ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﻣهﻨﻴﺔ‬
‫ٍ‬ ‫ﻗﺒﻞ‬ ‫ﺎ‬ ‫ﻛﻨ‬ ‫ﻋﺪﻧﺎ ﺇ�� ﺣﻴﺚ‬
‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﻘﻮﻡ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﺑﺕ�ﺝﻴ�� ﺍﻥ ﻋ�� ﺍﻳﻤﺎﻥ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ�ﻲ ﻋ�� ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯ‬
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‫ﻋﺰﻣﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ّ‬
‫�ﺝﻌﺎ�ﻲ ﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ ‪.‬ﻻ ّ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪ��ﺎ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ‬
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‫ﺃﻧﺠﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻕ �ﺡﻤ�� ﻋ�� ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩ ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﻣﺜﻞ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻧ�ﻱ �� ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻕ ﻗﻠ�ﻱ ﺃﻣﻴﻞ ﺇ��‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻣﺮ ﺍﳌﺪهﺶ هﻮ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﺃﳌﻌﻴ��ﺎ �� ﺧﺪﺍ�� ﺑﺄﻧ�ﻱ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺗﻘﺮ�ﺒﺎ ﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﻜﺲ ‪.‬ﻏ��‬
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‫ّﺗﺪ�� ﺑﺄ�ﻲ ﺃﻣﺜﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺗﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﻃﻤﻮ�� ﺑﺄﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ �ﺎﺗﺒﺔ هﻮ ﺃﻛ�� ﺍﻣﻮﺭ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ��‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّﺇ��ﺎ‬
‫ّ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋﺎﻝ ﻓﺼﻼ ﻣﻦ ّ‬
‫ﻗﺼ�ﻱ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ُﻣﺪهﺶ ‪.‬‬ ‫ٍ‬
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‫ﺛﻨﺎﺅهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﺤﻘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻨﺤ�ﻱ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﳌ��ﻱ �� ﻣﺴ��ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ�ﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪.‬‬
‫�ﻐﺴﻞ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﻕ �� ﺍﳌﻄﺒﺦ ‪.‬ﻭ�ﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﺳﺮ�ﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺎﻓ��‬ ‫ُ‬
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‫ﺗﺄﻭﻱ ﺇ�� ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺑﻱﺖ ﺍﻟﻄﻴﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺛﺏﺖ ﻋ�� ﻭﺗﺪ �� ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎﺀ ﺍ�ﺥﻠﻔﻲ ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ‬
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‫ﻣﻄ��‬ ‫ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ﻋ�� ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺑﻱﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺎﻓ�� ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﻗﺒﻞ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﺘﺎﺀ ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
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‫ﺑﻠﻮﻥ ﺃﺧﻀﺮ ﻻﻣﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﻛﺜ��ﺓ ‪.‬ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺔ ﺇﻟ��ﺍﺑﻱﺚ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻣﺴﻜﻦ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺴﺘﺔ‬
‫ﻋﺸﺮ ﺃﺳﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺎﻓ�� ‪.‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨ�ﻱ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺣﺮ�ﺎﺕ ﺍﺟﻨﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩﻳﺔ‪-‬ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍﺀ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻌﺼﺎﻓ�� ﻭ�� ﺗﻄ�� ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﺜ�ﺝ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﺕﺴﺎﻗﻂ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺇ�� ﻏﺴﻞ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﻕ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ُ‬
‫�ﺴﻴ��ﺎ �ﺴﺏﺐ ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﺍ�� ﻣﺮﺍﻗﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺎﻓ��‪.‬‬
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‫ﻳﺪﺧﻞ ﺧﺎ�� ﺇﻳﻨﻮﺵ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ��ﻱ ﻟﺴﻤﺎﻉ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ‪.‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﻧﻪ �ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺒ�ﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫�ﺸﻌﺎﻥ ﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺕ�ﺝﻴﻊ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻤﺸﺎهﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺎﻓ�� ‪.‬ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻩ ّ‬
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‫ﺗﻠﻤﺴﻪ �� ﻋﻴ� ّﻱ ّﺃﻣﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ�ﻲ ﻋ��‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺘﺪﺕ ّ‬ ‫ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍ�ﺡﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺄﺷﻴﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻟﻌﺐ ﺑﺮﻏﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﺑﻮﻥ �� ﺣﻮﺽ ﻏﺴﻴﻞ ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻏﻤﺲ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻓ��ﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻻﺣﻖ ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﻓﺄﻟﺘﻘﻄهﺎ ‪.‬ﺃﺣﻤﻠهﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻀﻮﺀ ﻭ�� ّ‬
‫�ﻞ ﻣ��ﺎ ﺃﺷﺎهﺪ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﺪهﺸﺔ ﻷﻗﻮﺍﺱ ﻗﺰﺡ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﺍﳌﻨﻤﻨﻤﺔ ﻓ��ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃهﻤﺲ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺭﱠ�ﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ �� ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺸﻜﺮ ﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺸﻜﺮ ﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﺑ�ﻥ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ‬

‫ُﻭ ِﻟ َﺪﺕ �ﻌ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻠﻴﺌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺪﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺋﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺷﺒﻪ ﺿﺮ�ﺮﺓ ﳌﺪﺓ ﻧﺼﻒ ﻗﺮﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ�ﻲ ﺗﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺅ�ﺔ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﻨ�ﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠ��ﺎ ﺃﻥ �ﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ‬
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‫ﻓﺘﺤﺮﻓهﺎ ﺇ�� ﺃﻗ�ﻯﻯ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺎﺭ ﺣﻴﺚ هﻨﺎﻙ ﻓﺘﺤﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ ﻏﺎﺋﺮﺓ ��‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻋﻴ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻱﺴﺮﻯ‬
‫ﺟﻔ��ﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻟﻠﻀﻮﺀ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻤﺮ ﻋ��هﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ �ﻞ هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻢ ﺭﻓﻀﺖ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺤﻞ ﺷﻔﻘﺔ ﺍﺧﺮ�ﻦ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﻈﺮﻭﺍ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ ﻋ�� ﺃ��ﺎ ﻣﻌﺎﻗﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺩ�ﻰ ﻣﻦ ﻏ��هﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﺬﻟﻚ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺼﺮ ﻋ�� ﺍﳌﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ �� ﺍ�ﺸﻄﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﻴﺎﺗﻴﺔ �ﻠهﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻨﺝﺡ �� ﻋﻤﻞ‬
‫�ﻞ ��ﻱﺀ ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺼﺮ ﻋ�� ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻌﺐ’’ ﺍ�ﺡﺝﻠﺔ ‘‘ﻣﻊ ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻷ��ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ‬
‫�ﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﻋ�� ﺍﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺬهﺐ ﺇ�� ﺳﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺐ �ﻌﺪ ﻋﻮﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺇ�� ﻣﻨﺎﺯﻟهﻢ ﻓﺘﻠﺘﺼﻖ ﺑﺄﺭﺿﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﻠﻌﺐ ﻭﺗﺰﺣﻒ ﻋ�� ﺍﻣﺘﺪﺍﺩﻩ ﻟﺘﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻼﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻭﺿﻌﻮهﺎ �� ﺃﺛﻨﺎﺀ ﻟﻌ��ﻢ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺣﻔﻈ��ﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸﺎﺭﻛ��ﻢ ﻟﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﺧﺒ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ﺗﺘﻔﻮﻕ ﻋﻠ��ﻢ �� ﻌﺾ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‪.‬‬
‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﺮﺃ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﻭﺗﺪﺭﺳهﺎ �� ﺍﳌﻥ�ﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﺘﻠﺼﻖ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﺑﻮﺟههﺎ ﺇ�� ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺭﻣﻮﺵ ﻋﻴ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ �ﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﺘﻚ �ﺴﻄﺢ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻗﺔ ﺣ�ﻯ ﺗﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅ�ﺔ ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻭﻑ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭ�ﺎﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌﺎﺭﺿﺔ ﺍﳌﻌﻠﻤ�ﻥ ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩهﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺇﻋﺎﻗ��ﺎ ﺃﻛ�� ﻣﻦ ﺇﻣ�ﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻧﺠﺎﺣهﺎ ��‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﺣﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻠﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃ��ﺎ ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻛﻤﺎﻝ ﻣﺮﺍﺣﻞ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ��ﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻌهﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﺪﺧﻠﺖ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻭﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋ�� ﺍﻟﺒ�ﺎﻟﻮﺭ�ﻮﺱ ﻭﺍﳌﺎﺟﺴﺘ��‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻘﺖ �ﺴﻠﻚ‬
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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﻭﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺃﺳﺘﺎﺫﺓ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ �� ﺍﻟ�ﺡﺎﻓﺔ ﻷﺍﺩﺏ‪ ،‬ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮﺍ��ﺎ ��‬

‫ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺪ�� ﺑﺄﺣﺎﺩﻳ��ﺎ �� ﺍﺫﺍﻋﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﺩﺏ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺘﺏﺖ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪�:‬ﺎﻥ �� ﺫه�ﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺷﻌﻮ ٌﺭ ٌ‬
‫�ﺎﻣﻦ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﻮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻡ؛‬
‫ﻭﻟﻠﺘﻐﻠﺐ ﻋ�� هﺬﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﻱﺶ ﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﻣﺮﺣﺔ ﺻﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﺒﺘ�ﺝﺔ �� ﻞ �ﺡﻈﺔ‪‘‘.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﻠﻐﺖ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍ�ﺥﻤﺴ�ﻥ �ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻄﺐ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻄﻮﺭ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪ��ﺎ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﺃﺟﺮ�ﺖ ﻟهﺎ ﺟﺮﺍﺣﺔ �� ﻋﻴ��ﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﻭﺻﺎﺭ ﺑﺈﻣ�ﺎ��ﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺮﻯ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺃﺭ�ﻌ�ﻥ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺣﺎﻟهﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺳﻨﻮﺍ��ﺎ ﺍ�ﺥﻤﺴ�ﻥ ﺍﳌﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻭﻋﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺒ�ﺝﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﻟﻢ �ﻌﺮﻓهﺎ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﻟﻢ ٌ‬‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﺋﺬ ﺍﻧﻜﺸﻒ ﺃﻣﺎﻣهﺎ ٌ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺫﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ ‪.‬ﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺗﺠﺪ ﺣ�ﻯ �� ﻏﺴﻴﻞ ﺍﻃﺒﺎﻕ ﺷﻱﺌﺎ ﻣ��ﺮﺍ ﻣﺜ��ﺍ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜﺘﺏﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ��‬
‫ﻛﺘﺎ��ﺎ« ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﺼﺮ’’ ‪»:‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻟﻌﺐ ﺑﺮﻏﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﺑﻮﻥ �� ﺣﻮﺽ ﻏﺴﻴﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟ�ﺡﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻻﺣﻖ ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﻓﺄﻟﺘﻘﻄهﺎ ﻭﺃﺣﻤﻠهﺎ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻀﻮﺀ �ﻲ ﺃﺷﺎهﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﺪهﺸﺔ ﻷﻗﻮﺍﺱ ﻗﺰﺡ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ��ﺓ ﻓ��ﺎ … ‘‘ﻭﺧﺘﻤﺖ ﻗﺎﺋﻠﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﺭﱠ�ﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ��‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺸﻜﺮ ﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺸﻜﺮ ﻟﻚ‪‘‘.‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﻓﻴﺖ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﺩﺍﻝ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺭ�ﻊ ﻭ�ﺴﻌ�ﻥ ﻋﺎﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﺎﺭﻛﺔ ﺧﻠﻔهﺎ ﻋﺸﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻻﻑ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺄﺛﺮﻭﺍ ﺑﻤﺴ��ﺓ ﺣﻴﺎ��ﺎ ﻭﺻﻤﻮﺩهﺎ ﻭﻧﻈﺮ��ﺎ ﺍﳌﺘﻔﺎﺋﻠﺔ ﻟهﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﻧﻴﺎ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺣﻠﺖ ﻣﻦ �ﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺧﻠﺪﺕ ﺫﻛﺮﺍهﺎ ﺑ��ﻛﺔ ﺃﺩﺑﻴﺔ ﺑﻠﻐﺖ ﺳﺒﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﺎ‪ ،‬ﺟﺎﺀ ﺁﺧﺮهﺎ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺖ ﻋﻨﻮﺍﻥ’’ ‪:‬ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺣﻴﺎ�ﻲ!‘‘‬
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‫ﺳ��ﺓ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﻣ��ﺮﺓ ﻭﻓ��ﺎ ﻛﺜ�� ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌ��‪ ،‬ﻓهﻼ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ �ﺸﻜﺮ ﺭ�ﻪ ﻋ�� ﻞ‬
‫��ﻱﺀ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻨﺤﻪ ﺇﻳﺎﻩ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ؟ هﻼ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﻤﺪ ﷲ ﻋ�� ﻌﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮ‬
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‫ﻭﻋ�� ﻌﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸﺎهﺪﺓ �ﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺍﻟ�ﻱ ﺗﺤﻴﻂ ﺑﻪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ �� هﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﳌ��ﺀ ﺑﺎ�ﺝﻤﺎﻝ؟‬
‫ﻟﻌ�� ﻻ ﺃﺑﺎﻟﻎ ﻟﻮ ﻗﻠﺖ ﺑﺄﻥ �ﺴﻌ�ﻥ �� ﺍﳌﺌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﳌﺮﺀ �ﺴ�� ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎ ﻋ�� ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﺸﺮﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺌﺔ �� ﺍﳌﺘﻌ��ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻳﺼﺮﻑ ﻋﻘﻠﻪ ﻭﺗﻔﻜ��ﻩ ﻭﻣﺰﺍﺟﻪ ﻭﻧﻔﺴﻪ‬
‫ﻭﺳﺎﺋﺮ ﺭﻭﺣﻪ �� ﺍ�ﺸﻐﺎﻝ ��ﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﺓ �� ﺍﳌﺌﺔ ﻣﺘﻨﺎﺳﻴﺎ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ�ﺝﺰﺀ ﺍ�ﺝﻤﻴﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻋﻈﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﺎ ﺻﺎﺣ�ﻱ؛ ﺩﻉ ﻋﻨﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺎ�ﺡﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ �ﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻹﺣﺒﺎﻁ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ﻷﻧﻚ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﻤﻠﻚ ﺣﺬﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻓهﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﺍﺕ ﻣﻤﻦ ﻻ ﻳﻤﺘﻠﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪﻣ�ﻥ!‬
‫ﺑﻘﻠﻢ ‪:‬ﺳﺎﺟﺪ ﻣﺘﻌﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﺪ��‬
‫ﻣﻘﺎﻟﺔ �ﺸﺮﺕ �� ﺡﻴﻔﺔ ﺍ�ﺝﺮ�ﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﻮ�ﺕﻴﺔ‬
‫�� ﺩ�ﺴﻤ�� ‪٢٠١٣‬ﻡ‬
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‫ﻣﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﻨﺪﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﺑﻴﺔ‬ ‫‪telegram @ktabpd‬‬ ‫ﻣﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺤﻲ ﺃﺣﻤﺪ‬

‫ﻧﺒﺬﺓ �ﻌﺮ�ﻔﻴﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟ�ﺎﺗﺒﺔ ﻭﻟﺪﺕ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﻣﺎﺭﻏﺮ�ﺖ ﺩﺍﻝ �� ‪ 6‬ﻓ��ﺍﻳﺮ‪�� ، 1890‬‬

‫ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻟهﻮ ﺑﺄﺷﻴﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫’’ ّ‬

‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺃ�ﺴﺮ ﺑﻜﺜ��‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺍ�ﺡﺮﻑ’ �ﻲ‪’‘‘.‬‬

‫«ﺍﺳﻤﻲ ﺑﻮﺭﻏﻴﻠﺪ ﻣﺎﺭﻏﺮ�ﺖ ﺩﺍﻝ»‪ ،‬ﺃﺧ����ﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﻘﺮﺭ ﺍﻟﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺀ‪‘‘.‬‬ ‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑ�ﻱ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻣﺮ �ﺴ��‪ ،‬ﺩﺭﺳﻨﺎ ﺫﻟﻚ �� ّ‬

‫’’ﻟﻜﻦ ﳌﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺎ ّﺃﻣﻲ؟‪‘‘.‬‬

‫�ﻞ هﺬﻩ ﺍﺣﺎﺩﻳﺚ ﻣﻦ ﻏ�� ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﺎﺭﻙ �� ّ‬ ‫ﺃﺻﻐﻴﺖ ﺇ�� ّ‬‫ُ‬

‫�ﻞ ﻣﺎ �� ﻭﺳﻌﻨﺎ‬‫ﺃﺟﺒ��ﺎ’’ ‪:‬ﺃﺟﻞ‪� ،‬ﺸﺮﻁ ﻧﺠﺎﺣهﻢ �� ﺍﻣﺘﺤﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻥﺒﺬﻝ ّ‬

‫ﻣﻜﻮﻣﺔ �� ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻭ�ﺔ ﻋﻦ �ﺴﺎﺭﻱ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﳌﺬهﺒﺔ ﻭﻟﻔﺎﺋﻒ ﺍ�ﺥﺮﺍﺋﻂ ﱠ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ�ﺥﻤﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﱠ‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝ’’ ‪:‬ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻣﻴﻨﻱﺴﻮﺗﺎ ﻣ�ﺎﻥ ﻣﻤﺘﺎﺯ‪ِ ،‬ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ ﺗﺮﻏﺒ�ﻥ �� ﺍﻟﺬهﺎﺏ ﺇﻟ��ﺎ؟‪‘‘.‬‬

‫ﺟﻠﺴﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺍﺭ�ﻌﺔ ﺇ�� ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺿﻴﺎﻓﺔ ﺻﻐ��ﺓ �� ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻟﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻷﻱ �ﺥﺺ ﺿﻌﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ‪.‬ﺇﺫ ﻟﻢ‬ ‫ّ‬

‫ﻋﻴﺖ ﻷﻛﻮﻥ ﻋﻀﻮﺍ �� ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻥ�ﻭ�ﺠﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺴﻴﺪﺍﺕ ﺍ�ﺝﺎﻣﻌﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭهﻨﺎﻙ ّ‬ ‫ُ ُ‬

‫ﺍﳌﺴﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺮ�ﻢ ﻣﻮﺭﻏﻴﻥﺴﺘ���ﻲ ﺫﻭ ﺍﻟﺸهﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﺑﻠﻮﻣﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﺣ�ﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺫﺍﺕ ّ‬

‫«ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻣﻮﺕ»‪ ،‬ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺃﻋ�� ﻣﻦ ﺫﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ «،‬هﻞ �ﺴﻤﻌ�ﻱ؟ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻣﻮﺕ‪».‬‬

‫ﺍ�ﺥﺎﺻﺔ ‪.‬ﻭﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺗﺪﺭﻱﺲ هﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﻮﻑ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ّ‬

‫�ﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﻭﺭﻭ�ﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺇﺗﺨﺬﺕ ﻣﻦ ِ‬

‫ﺩﺕ ﻋ�� ﻇهﺮﻱ‬ ‫ّ ُ‬

‫ﺣﻴﺎ��ﻢ �� ﻧﻴﻮﺟﺮ��ﻱ‪ ،‬ﻋ�� ّﺃ��ﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺮﻭﺍ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ‬

‫ﺑﺪﺃ ﺫه�ﻱ ﻳﺼﻔﻮ �ﻌﺪ ﻗﻠﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺧﺘﻔﻰ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺑﺎ�ﺥﺪﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﻠﺖ ﻣﺴﺘﻐﺮ�ﺔ’’ ‪:‬ﺇ�� ﺃﻳﻦ؟ ﺃﻻ �ﻌﺮﻑ؟ ﺃﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎﻳﻮ؟‪‘‘.‬‬

‫ﺃﻧﺖ �� ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺟﺮﺓ ﺍﻥ‪‘‘.‬‬

‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ ﺿﺎﺣﻜﺔ« ‪:‬ﻻﻛﻨﻔﺎﺭ ‪2‬ﻭﺳﻴﻢ‪».‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝ ﺩﻳﻚ’’ ‪:‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮ‘‘‬

‫ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍ�ﺡﺎﺩﻱ ﻋﺸﺮ‬

‫ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬هﻨﺎﻙ ﻃﺮ�ﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻻ ﻭ�� ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮ�ﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻚ؟‘‘‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻟﺘ�ﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺔ‬ ‫’’ﻟ َﻢ ﻻ ﺗﻜﺘﺒ�ﻥ ّ‬

‫ﺑ�ﻥ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻱﺲ ﻭﺻﺎﺭﺕ ﺃﺳﺘﺎﺫﺓ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ �� ﺍﻟ�ﺡﺎﻓﺔ ﻷﺍﺩﺏ‪ ،‬ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﻣﺤﺎﺿﺮﺍ��ﺎ ��‬

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‫ﺍﳌﺴﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺮ�ﻢ ﻣﻮﺭﻏﻴﻥﺴﺘ��ﻲ ﺫﻭ ﺍﻟﺸهﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﺑﻠﻮﻣﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﺣ�ﻥ‬ ‫ّ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻝ �� ﺫﺍﺕ ّ‬