Life After My Brother

0.00-1.45
Today I'm going to Nottingham to visit my mum, haven't been back there in awhile right now I just feel a bit, (tongue click) it’s
My
like a catch twenty-two, I miss my mum, but when I go to Nottingham I just think about what happened so, (pause) yeah.
brother was murdered in Nottingham. When Daniel died I was 11, so there's things that I remember,
and there's things I don't really remember. I’m taking myself back there now, umm, it was 2:30 in the
morning, becausssse, I remember hearing the noise (breath), and then, my mum, like, coming in my
room and screaming and shouting, (short breath in) and then my mum was like tryna wake me up
wake me up, and she said “oo Chanel, Chanel,” like jus saying my name over over again and then
looked at me quite straight dead on and said “Daniel’s gone he's dead.” At that same time my sister
was standing in the corner of my room saying over and over again “I knew this would happen, I knew
this would happen” and that always stuck with me because how, a- I- I always thought “what did she
mean?”, it's like I didn't take from my mum that she was saying Daniel was dead, it was what my
sister was saying, almost like, di- was thi- was this coming or something I don't know.

5.20-5.41
Letter his mum wrote
My dearest Daniel, I miss the way you used to smile at me hug me and tell me that you love me, you
were the son that every Mum could ever wish for, my baby boy you are now beside your maker, Lord
God Almighty, take care and enjoy the rest of your journey. God knows he takes the best, kiss kiss
kiss.

7.35-
Newspaper article
“During the court case, Cornelius, through his barristers, tried to make Daniel out to be the man who
carried knives and was violent” that part is just making me feel a bit protective, because, I know the
Daniel that I know. he was far from violent. I can understand that people might have like, in,
especially in today's society, when people are stabbed, the automatic assumption is that they could've
been carrying a knife also.

8.12- 8.54
When you're the sister of someone that's been stabbed and you've grown up with them, you've seen
them at their most vulnerable, you've seen them in the day in the night in the morning (breath in)
you’ve slept in the same room as them you've ate (et) dinner with them you've lived with them for 11
years of your life and then, to feel like, they, um, they’re someone that's capable of doing that, (breath
in) you, eh, you feel a sense of like screaming out and saying “ he’s not- he's not that person” I can
put my life on it, I can put my last pound on it (breath in) that he wasn't that person, and people may
want to call me naive and say “oo you don't know your brother cause you was only 11”, I know my
brother here, I know him here, I know what he was like.

9.30 I dont know how or why he died

12.47- 13.48
Daniels mate talking about him
I've known Daniel since nursery. Yeah, he was just a normal, typical boy, really ‘e was always just
laughing and joking, He was just always mischievous he- (laughs) he was just funny, he's a funny
guy, he was a funny guy, very funny. And he loved his family. I will never forget that day. it was funny
enough cos I seen him th- that morning, that morning, I seen both of them in fact, Cornelius and
Daniel, yeh that same day, when he, when he died. he came around to my house and I, I was just
talking to him and um, what it was he’s been he, he was kind of umm… I wouldn’t say- I wouldn- he
wasn't happy at the time.. because a lot of the bad things were happening.. around that time, I don't
really want to like get into um.. kinda- that stuff but, yeah that was the last, the last time I seen him,
went up the alleyway back to his flat, and um, yeh.

14.53
when he said that Daniels murder could’ve been prevented, that a conversation could have
happened, it makes me feel like, “why did this happen, then?” it didn’t need to happen.

15.15
a feud between Daniel and Cornelius
it makes me wonder if this was more than just a fight

17.29- 19.04
Sister at where he died
So this is like, um, Daniel lived at this one (points). (Sigh) this is a bit weird. (Deep breath) Okay. I
think this is where umm.. this is where he like fell.. when umm, when he got stabbed it was in that
area. (Sigh) Daniel left his flat over there, and went to a Caribbean food shop. He walked down here.
He was stopped before he could enjoy his final meal. I've always had this, this thought that my brother
died hungry it doesn’t feel fair at all. this was where he took his last breath. I feel the, the struggle I
feel the emotion, (breath) I feel everything that was happening on that night ,that's just, it's just
weighing down deep on me.

27.38-28.05
Angry learning it was planned
All I feel right now is angry because all I'm hearing is that you planned… uh- you wanted this to happen, you wouldn't have
drove there you wouldn't have got out of your car you wouldn't have waited in the bush and you wouldn't have taken my
brothers life if you didn't want to. I know that Daniel was involved in some low-level crime, but that shouldn't of been a reason to
die. (Voice breaking:) It just makes me sad because this is exactly what my mum and my sister went through and I didn't know.

33.20
I cant understand why you’ve killed my brother
My brother was murdered in Nottingham. When Daniel died I was 11, so there's things that I
remember, and there's things I don't really remember. I’m taking myself back there now, umm, it was
2:30 in the morning, becausssse, I remember hearing the noise (breath), and then, my mum, like,
coming in my room and screaming and shouting, (short breath in) and then my mum was like tryna
wake me up wake me up, and she said “oo Chanel, Chanel,” like jus saying my name over over again
and then looked at me quite straight dead on and said “Daniel’s gone he's dead.” At that same time
my sister was standing in the corner of my room saying over and over again “I knew this would
happen, I knew this would happen” and that always stuck with me because how, a- I- I always thought
“what did she mean?”, it's like I didn't take from my mum that she was saying Daniel was dead, it was
what my sister was saying, almost like, di- was thi- was this coming or something I don't know.

when he said that Daniels murder could’ve been prevented, that a conversation could have
happened, it makes me feel like, “why did this happen, then?” it didn’t need to happen.

a feud between Daniel and Cornelius

it makes me wonder if this was more than just a fight

So this is like, um, Daniel lived at this one (points). (Sigh) this is a bit weird. (Deep breath) Okay. I
think this is where umm.. this is where he like fell.. when umm, when he got stabbed it was in that
area. (Sigh) Daniel left his flat over there, and went to a Caribbean food shop. He walked down here.
He was stopped before he could enjoy his final meal. I've always had this, this thought that my brother
died hungry it doesn’t feel fair at all. this was where he took his last breath. I feel the, the struggle I
feel the emotion, (breath) I feel everything that was happening on that night ,that's just, it's just
weighing down deep on me.

I cant understand why you’ve killed my brother

Mum:
My dearest Daniel, I miss the way you used to smile at me hug me and tell me that you love me, you
were the son that every Mum could ever wish for, my baby boy you are now beside your maker, Lord
God Almighty, take care and enjoy the rest of your journey. God knows he takes the best, kiss kiss
kiss.
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So this is like, um, Daniel lived at this one (points). (Sigh) this is a bit weird. (Deep breath) Okay. I
think this is where umm.. this is where he like fell.. when umm, when he got stabbed it was in that
area. (Sigh) Daniel left his flat over there, and went to a Caribbean food shop. He walked down here.
He was stopped before he could enjoy his final meal. I've always had this, this thought that my brother
died hungry it doesn’t feel fair at all. this was where he took his last breath. I feel the, the struggle I
feel the emotion, (breath) I feel everything that was happening on that night ,that's just, it's just
weighing down deep on me.
when he said that Daniels murder could’ve been prevented, that a conversation could have
happened, it makes me feel like, “why did this happen, then?” it didn’t need to happen.
I cant understand why you’ve killed my brother
My mum wrote him a letter it said ‘My dearest Daniel, I miss the way you used to smile at me hug me
and tell me that you love me, you were the son that every Mum could ever wish for, my baby boy you
are now beside your maker, Lord God Almighty, take care and enjoy the rest of your journey. God
knows he takes the best, kiss kiss kiss.’