Aljean Altheo L.

Artillo BSN-3B

ANXIETY LOG

In the summer of 2017, a huge life event occurred that had a significant impact
on my life. I was already inebriated with a group of buddies at 8 p.m. We had a good
time and were enjoying the night. When I was nearing the end of my bottle of beer, an
old acquaintance who I was not generally close to came me and said hello. It was one
of my happiest high school friends. We discussed life and how things were going. We
were having a good time. "Do you think I'm ready to see the stars soon?" he said,
which seemed strange coming from him. I just scowled at him because we were both
intoxicated and said, "I think so, we're both drunk that I can fly and reach it now." I
observed a pretty cold smile and laughed after a few seconds and proceeded to chat
and laugh. It was tomorrow after the night had passed. I got out of bed and checked
my phone. My pals were talking about something, and I was quite interested. Later, I
discovered that my old acquaintance with whom I had spoken the day before had been
confined to a mental hospital in Bacolod and had a history of depression. Her mother
observed her tying a rope to the ceiling and committing suicide.

It gave me a lot of anxiety because what if I was the one who pushed him to
commit suicide? Was I being too hasty and inconsiderate with my words? I was too
careless, and if I hadn't been, I wish we'd talked about how he was feeling or if he
needed to vent about something, but I kept smiling and drinking my drink. The event
had a great impact on me because I learned that not everyone has the same
perspective and that I should be sensitive to the individuals I encounter. I always think
twice before communicating.