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Is love really that complicated? ...and beautiful? (don’t mind this opening question haha…I’m
reading twilight for a while now and of course watching it.)
I dunno if I’m being productive or being self-indulgent today. This unproductivity thing always
happened every after I had a busy productive day just like yesterday. I read the twilight saga
book three and finished 100 pages, I didn’t even sleep a blink anymore after I refuse sleeping for
two days. I’m still fine, and feel in control so I’m not really that upset or depressed. I even think
that this mild frustration toward myself which I’ve been feeling is healthy and positively helping
me to be constant in my habits and strive more for development.
There are still many things I’m newly aware of, and need changing. But the good thing is I’m not
anymore pressuring myself lethally as I was months ago. I just filling my life with real peace
now. I’m enjoying my life in every possible way that I know. I’m getting better at expressing
myself. This is actually a really difficult thing for me before, I grow up an awkward worm with
only timidity and unbelievable cynicism. It doesn’t absolutely match. I couldn’t fit socially
without trying and struggling, it was so stupid and sad on my part but I’m handling better now. I
need a lot of growing, and recently I taught myself to stop overthinking about this. I want to
grow on my own pace right now, maybe behind but maybe not so behind, yeah still behind but it
won’t matter in the future.
Every time I feel sick with myself and suddenly upset on things, I just taught myself that all
humans experience being on downhill and its absolutely inevitable. We feel afraid, insecure and
pressured, then I think it will be up to us now how to respond on that. We are given almost the
same dilemma but still we made a hundred of ways to respond on that.
I understood things are not permanent, and I am certainly sure that I will be realizing new things
in the future and dismissing my past outlook. I’m still figuring on right things to be done to my
life and to others right now, the right words to be said to myself and to others, the right things to
believe and behold. I’m imperfect, but I’m glad to be walking on positive and certain step right
now, I felt so in control of my life. I truly believe that life is about up and downs.
WISHLIST
JEANS TOPS SHOES BAGS MAKE-UP/ SKIN
ACCESSORIES PRODUCTS
Jogging pants (green, fit blouse High flat back bag Eye-liner SP PACKAGE
orange) (white) heel (black gray) (face)
strapped
sandal
(white,
nude)
Mid-Waist Fitted Low-cut back bag Mascara Body Lotion
Jeans (blue) shoes (nude) (blue)
another
style
High-Waist loose Low-cut Body Scrub
linen (orange) high-flat
heeled shoes
(white)
High-Waist Fitted Facewash
Jeans (blue)
High-Waist wide Face moisturizer
legged Jeans (black)
Face soother
Body soap
Beauty is sure about money haha, except for the people who are gifted enough.
June 28, 2022
Well, nothing that much had happened today but I’m quite productive for my own good.
June 29, 2022
I’m nowhere productive today. I’ve been so impatient to myself lately, but overall I felt
accomplished for my own good. Tomorrow will be fine, what are the odds of certain scolding
right now.