Understanding the Self

GED 101

Act. 1 Knowing in
the Deef
 JOAN TRINIDAD MARFA
a.k.a SIMANG- short for simangot since I always have a
poker face according to my mom🤣. (her)
Future Pilot
Aviation is something that always
captivates my interest. Its not my
childhood dream but recently, it feels
like that this job is something that I
would enjoy. There are few female
pilots across the world, not because
of the expenses that this course it
would take but because of the stigma
that its a male dominant industry. I
want to become a pilot not just
because Of the satisfaction of
aviation but to also break the stigma
that men are the only ones who can
pilot an aircraft.
Core Memory
The core memory that I always want
to reminisce was the moment were
my friends and I made way back in
junior high school, for me that has
been always the best moment I have.
The bonds we do during lunch time
in where we only have one source of
lunch. Having to do projects and
practicing performance tasks here in
my house and they get used to
always go here. In whereas we have
lots of things to do in school, it does
not matter since we're enjoying it
together.
SELF Tagline
Ang AMBISYOSANG
CRAMMER ng TANAUAN
Advocacy
As a person who's an animal lover
and always have been pity seeing
stray animals across the streets,
especially those dogs and cats. My
main advocacy ever since was to
help those stray animals on the
street and be able to give them the
life that they deserved in where
they can feel love, cared and
treasured. Dogs and cats are not
just merely animals that you will
take care just because you just
want something to look over your
house when you're gone. They also
do not deserve the treatment people
will just left them and lead them
astray waiting for you to comeback
for them. These animals are not
made for that, they deserve all the
love and a home that they will
consider them as family, and that is
the goal of my advocacy.
How would you describe yourself ?(in general: physical,
social, spiritual, emotional)

As a person who grow who knows nothing but to

lock herself in her room, I grew up having a physical
appearance of being fat, people around me and even my
peers would always tease me about my weight and the
way I look, and by that I grew being so insecure about my
physical appearance. Having a huge round face, dark
skin tone, dark underarms and chubby cheeks. I
remember way back then that every summer break
during my elementary days, I would always attempt to
lose weight and having a vision that on the next school
year they would see a different Joan. However, I always
failed to do so.
Having been insecure on my physical appearance
does not hinder me to make friends, growing up, I have
numerous friends, people come and go, but the friends I
have now are all worth to be treasured. I was a born
leader, I was a former SPG and SSG president during my
elementary and high school days, that is why I'm
required to mingle with other people in all ages. I'm also
a type of person that doesn't want to make any situation
awkward that is why I always approach to people so that
they would be comfortable to me.
I was baptized as Roman Catholic at birth, but
starting high school I was introduced in Born Again
Christian religion. I believe that there is God, and we also
have his son Jesus Christ. I go to church and sometimes I
also attend in Christian church. I don't pray on man
made statue of saints, but rather I pray alone. I always
take time to have a conversation with God through
prayer everyday and sing some worship/Christians songs
to him.
I was a very emotional person, I always cry even on
the little things, I 'm also a very soft hearted person, my
mood constantly changes dependent on what the mood of
the person is giving me. I always lough even at serious
moment, you can make me lough easily.
 What was your environment like growing up? At present?

I grew up in a simple family in Tanauan City, Batangas,

growing up I was like this "bibo" kid that everyone is liking, however as
time goes by, that did change. I was always told to just stay on our house
and just study, my dad left for work when I was 7 years old and up until
now we're not with him. I understand that, however, we were left with
mom. I love my mom, don't get me wrong, but she has a lot of rules that
we needed to obey. I barely get a chance to hang out with my friends and
if I do, it must be on our house. With that routine, I became an introvert
whose space just circulates in school and at home. I was told to just study
and study and to strive to be the top student in our class. When I was in
elementary, I did like the praises and attention given to me, however, I'm
not enjoying it in my high school days.
I was pressured to do good with my studies, I sometimes argue
with my mom, she has lots of restriction that I need to follow my whole
life. There are things I couldn't and wasn't able to do because I have to
obey her. We were close but I never share my personal thoughts with her
knowing that we would just gonna have an argument.
My family is living in my dad side of the family, we have our
own house and our neighbors was my dad's siblings and family. They
were loud, they do not have the best attitudes, my mom have been in
conflict with my dad's family, so growing up, I'm constantly seeing my
mom suffer, but past forward, they were all right now. They still remain
the same, and as I get older I'm seeing more unexpected things.
The people that I grew up with wasn't perfect but I'm still blessed
to have a complete family, I found friends on my cousins. I discover that
there different kinds of people just by living with my family. I never
thought that there are things a family member could do to another family
member. My family may be loud, nosy, judgmental but they still a family
to me and I respect and love them as much as I could.
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Physically, where do you acquire your features? Comparing from a
famous personality, who would you say resembles you?

When I was a new born, my mom always tells me that I looked

like my dad, our neighbors used to call me "uta" since my dad's
nickname was "ute" but now, many people always tells me and my
mom that were much more a like, that were like sisters.
 me and
my mo
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My crush always tells me that I looked like Julia Montes,
actually he cannot identify the name of the celebrity that he's
referring, but he always mention that I look like someone in the
entertainment industry until he showed my pictures to his father and
tell him that I looked like Julia Montes. My mother's colleges also tells
me that I look like her.
 What kind of environment did you grew up with?

I grew up in a safe, happy but no freedom environment.

Growing up, I always told what to do and what to obey. I have a
complete and loving family and I was blessed with that, they were
supported in me, but they choose the things that they want to support
me on, they would not hold up for something that I would really love
doing. But I know that they love me and just wants the best for me.
Even though that I grew up skipping things that would make me
happy, it still made me what I am today. The environment I grew up
in, is just a normal set up where our neighbors are also within our
family. They were kind of loud and annoying sometimes but I'm used
to it.
Being with my friends is where I can really express myself in
which I know they would not judge me, in whereas in my home I
would get judge not just with my actions but as well as my mindset
and personality. These friends of mine that turned into family.
My teachers in junior high school also plays a huge part in
whom I am today, I was always inspired by their sacrifices and
perseverance, sometimes, I also opened up some personal matters to
them that I cannot mention in my home, and instead of judging me,
they always give me advices on how to overcome it.
Overall, my family is still everything to me, even though that I
didn't get the support I need from them, but I will always understand
and respect them with my whole heart. I will always be thankful for
them and to the people that were once strangers to me that are now
turned into family.
 Latest Family Picture

My Dad hasn't been home

for 5 years now, this
photo was taken way
back 2018, that was the
last he comes home due to
the pandemic and with
the strict restriction of the
country his been in.
What message would you like to give your: a. younger self
b. future self c. present self

Younger Self
Hi, younger self, you did some ridiculous things and you always been
hard headed at times, you were insecure with yourself all along but I
appreciate the things you did in order for you to make yourself feel
better. You did very well, you may have a lot of mistakes committed, I
know that you learned a lot from that, however, there's still a long way
to go. Thank you and I love you.

Future Self
Dear future self, I hope you're doing well and now in a place and phase
where you always wanted to be. You've been through a lot, you worked
hard and you deserved all the things you have now. I know you have a
good life now, that you were happy, contented and no longer insecure
and pressured. I'm proud of you, keep going, see you soon.

Present Self
Hello self, are you okay? I know you somehow weren't, you're now in
the process of making your dreams come true and building the life that
you want and your family deserves. You were pressured not just
because of the expectation of the people around you but because of the
expectation that you're putting yourself. But keep going, were going to
make it, be patient, our time will come and I know its going to be worth
it. Fighting.