I want to be something special in my life but I cant because of people in my side or in my

life. I cant remember when I have a time to think about it. I feel alone and I don’t have a
friend to understand about my problem, im crying every night without my friend knowing
that im crying, but I feel alone every time even im in a crowded place. i don’t know what is
that feeling. But I fight to be a good person in the future, but that is very hard to change
who am i. I very tired in that place where I don’t wanna be. Please god listen to me, why are
you still sleeping. I crying typing this useless letter. But why I always lose everytime than my
friend. I want to be them who always succeed in any case. Why I lose every time. I want to
proud my parents and my family but I have to trying so much til I tired right now, and the
result is zero and useless. I don’t know for what I typing this letter but my heart feel better
after I pour out my heart ini this letter. I very confused about the way of my life. I feel
different and I don’t have achievement for a long time ago even though I am trying hard. But
its never enough. I always compared by my family. Why I born to be stupid. I want born to
be number 1 but I always be gratefull coz I have parents which proud of me. Everyone which
reads this letter please don’t share with anybody cos that is my problem which I don’t what
is that. But after that time I want to trying hard again and to be myself. I hand it over to
god.

I make this letter I don’t the reason why but I hope to you guys who read this letter can
remember that struggle there will be wisdom. But this letter for me. Coz in my brain want to
leave this world. And I don’t wanna be something, but sometime I want to be them. Thank u
to read this useless letter