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Diary Entry A Suicide Note
Diary Entry A Suicide Note
Dear Mom:
Finally, it comes to the end. I apologize for my selfishness and for leaving without saying
goodbye just like my father did, but I really can’t take this anymore. As a first-generation
university student who is from a rural area that is not that developed, I have always been feeding
myself during my entire university, and I have done that so perfectly, however, everything has
changed because of the existence of Covid-19. The pandemic has made my life even more
difficult than before and I’m experiencing serious anxiety. I have never told you about this
because I know that your life is as hard as mine. I’m so grateful that you raised me, so I don’t
Today is the 10th day of my quarantine, I have no money to purchase any food that is
necessary for me because of being able to do my part-time job since I’m in quarantine. The
inflation rate is so high that we have to pay much more money to get what we want than before.
That is so cruel to university students who do not have stable economic support like me.
Another reason of my anxiety is that students who are in quarantine like me will
definitely face the problem of lacking social contact with each other. I have always been
considering myself as someone who is outgoing. It’s killing me for staying in a small room with
nobody that I can talk to and I can’t even ensure that I have enough food. It feels like being
isolated from the whole society. Although I can keep in touch with all my friends through social
media, I still feels lonely because when I turn off my phone nobody is with me. The truth that we
for this semester, however, as a student who majors in art, I would need plenty of materials to
finish my design. All these materials that I need have been left at my dormitory in university,
where I’m not able to be back to for a long while. I can do nothing by thinking about it for my
final project, with no doubt, I can not finish my design and turn it in to the professor on time. I’m
not sure whether full credit would be given if I turn them in late even though I have an
appropriate reason. I’m too nervous about that and even suffering from insomnia.
I did search for methods to relieve my anxiety. I saw that some of the psychologists
suggest the university to hold some activities for students to join, however, although it is a good
idea, it is still too difficult to realize that since we are all having online courses right now and the
This will be my final diary, and I don’t know if anyone could see this and bring this to
you. I apologize again for my selfishness. Wish you have a happier life without me.