NAME: Manlangit, Genry Angelo T.

YEAR/COURSE/SECTION: 1 BSE - D

LESSON 2.2: REFLECTIVE ESSAY

Uncertainties for Future’s Certainty

Being a consistent academic achiever in High school, I was bound to think
that I can always conquer deadline of submissions regardless of working it all a
day before the day of submission. I was into the idea that I can always make it
even if I think I can no longer bear with it. I can never be the number one, but
stepping on the same stage where our brightest classmate stood made me feel
like, I’m still into the spotlight, though not at the centre, but at least I made it there.
When I study, I do it basically and when I work on projects and/or assignments, I
do it in a cramming way. I know if I learn how to control myself, I’d be able to go
farther than where I have gone. I know, I was not boastful because I never wanted
to boast it off, but I am confident that I can conquer things that I need to conquer.
As I’ve gone to college, myself confidence faded and it devastated me to the
thought that I’m just a piece of trash compared to my classmates in this University.
I am no longer a conqueror of things but an achiever of frequent fails. I have
realized that college is a different thing. It is widely different from the usual school
I attend to. College for me is no longer a place for theoretical education, but a
place for training--- now I’m bound to think that this is not where I belong. I don’t
think I can make it any farther.

Dr. Jose P. Rizal’s journey about Academic Triumph in Ateneo Municipal,

upon his entry to the University and Being a Thomasian Student are the stories
which I can personally relate to. Rizal’s years in Ateneo Municipal were his most
successful and progressive years as a student. In here, he experienced being a
student of a little knowledge to Spanish yet he went through it and even made
himself in supremacy despite the challenge. But, when he was about to enter in
a University, He enrolled in a course he thought his father would like [Philosophy
and Letters] because he is uncertain of which career to pursue. And when he
received an advice from a priest, he then took a Medical Course, which also
drove his aspiration to cure his mother’s growing blindness. Being a student in Sto.
Thomas, he hasn’t been achieving much other than getting few low grades which
is caused not of being intellectually poor, but of Racial Discrimination.

Likewise, I was slightly eminent back then in Malandag, and upon my entry
to college, I am gigantically uncertain of what course to take and have my fate
drawn by that choice. I am in this course because of the following reasons: 1.) This
is what I believe is the best for me because this is what my parents have
suggested/claimed (of course I was claiming it myself, but then I’m very
uncertain) 2.) This is what we can afford. Being in a University gives us an
opportunity for free tuition, but I’m not really sure if I can make it here. 3.) This is
how I can make my parents even happier. These are my reasons which I’m bound
to doubt but not regret. I know this course is not my forte, I know that taking this
course will cause me so much heartaches and failures, so does choosing this
University. But I have said already that college is not a perfect place to learn
theoretical education, but of application and training. I might end up like Rizal’s
story being a Thomasian, or even worse for getting failing grades. I care! But I
can’t be sorry. This is my choice and I need to face it. I know someday it will do
me some good and better. I know that whatever I am facing right now, I’d be
able to surpass it and go beyond it more than what I can imagine. My choice is
a difficult path for me to take but I know, I’ll get to where I longed to be. Because
I believe that difficult roads leadeth to beautiful destinations and --- uncertainties
is part of the process for future’s certainties.