Interviewer: How do you relate to the topic of my music video?

Anonymous: I have previously had a very sour relationship with my mother, we have
worked hard to rebuild and now she is one of my closest friends. I think similarly to your
music video I have had the same fight with my mother for my entire life and it has always
ended the same way until we grew up and realised that we were just going round in circles.

Interviewer: What was your relationship with your mother like before you reconciled?

Anonymous: We didn’t reconcile until I was around 16 or 17 when lockdown hit. We fought
a lot at the beginning of lockdown because we were constantly treading on each other’s
toes. My mum was never stuck at home the same way we were because she is a front-line
worker. I was jealous of this because I had just turned 16, I was jealous that I couldn’t go out
and be with my friends, I had just gotten my first job and I had to give that up. I get it now
that she was definitely not living her best life, but that’s not what I saw then and there.
After a while we realised, we couldn’t keep living in this constant disarray because there
were three other people living in our house and not only was it affecting us, but it was
affecting those other people as well. We had always had the same argument growing up, it
has gotten to the point where I can’t even remember what the fight was about. I just know
that it always ended in a screaming match. We have just constantly butt heads for as long as
I can remember. She has never been a bad mum; she always loved my sister and me. I just
feel like we never got to know each other because she worked 12 hours a day, 6 or 7 days a
week. We were often like strangers living in the same house. I know she worked so hard to
give my sister and I the best life but when she began burn out, I felt like it was my fault. She
and my dad tried so hard to hide their burdens from us, but it never lasted long because
they would fight all of the time. When I was born my dad was a reserve in the RAF and
would be deployed or on training a lot. Shortly after he left the reserves he was laid off from
his job after the company went bust. This meant my mum had to work harder and my dad
was at home all of the time, so when I started to remember thing and develop relationships
my relationship with my mum lacked because I barely saw her and my relationship with my
dad was really good.

Interviewer: How did your dad being away affect your relationship with your mum?

Anonymous: I’ll be honest I was too young to truly remember, I always thought she
resented me as she was left alone right after I was born but after talking to her, I realised
that’s not necessarily the case.