ORIGINAL:

A Request of a Lover
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You will never know how much I live my life trying to keep your words. I wasn't
enjoying as you may think. I am feeling tired getting always misunderstood by you.
And at times I feel like I can never make you happy if I do anything without pre-
informing you twice or thrice and cry to just make you understand its importance or
significance. I cant even get angry on you. But every time you get angry and
disappointed on me at times when I need you to be with me, to be happy and smiling.
It's like I have such a dismay that I can never have you and your smile and your
grace when I need it. You can never understand what I am saying now. Even if you
understand, I guess we can do nothing about it. Yes. I need you and I miss you too.
But I don't want any of us to be in pain. You staying happy doesn't help me feel
you, you telling me all your happiness and problems doesn't make me connected to
you, it just helps me to be focussed and stay happy for the whole day. So now you
know, I also miss you. I just know that I can't be angry for bad circumstances,
because I may hurt you. But you get angry for the circumstances, you get angry on
me and on others... and I cry.

Understand the circumstances and please never ever say that I don't care for you.

If you have faith in me, then please start believing in me. I think of us and live
my life. I have very few moments when I do something without thinking of you and of
how you may react. I just want that you can also do the same, when you get tensed,
angry or are in pain. Think about what I would want, what my state is etc. Start
opening yourself. You have thought much about me and how much I care for you (only
if you agree that I care for you). Now I want you to think about what I think and
what I may think for your every step, every work, every action, every call, every
message. Just think. I am not telling you to change. Just think.