Favoritism

   "Favoritism "That is the cause of resentment in the family. I will admit that I
was jealous and resentful of my parents because I was always the one they saw as a
servant and always saw something wrong. I have a lot of resentment towards them. I
don't know why I'm always the one they see as doing something wrong. I'm jealous of
my brothers and sisters because they have new things I don't have, but it's fine
with me mixed with resentment. I can only ask in my mind, why am I really their
child? That's the kind of tiredness because they just finished ordering, but they
will order you anyway. The feeling is painful. There are times when I curse my
parents because of anger. Sometimes I think of giving up. That's how I am in life.
Those times when I was still immature to think--maybe I can say that because I was
young. I don't know what the purpose of life is, but the pain is there.
When I matured, my mind was no longer the same. I regretted it because I
remembered all the things I did and all that was wrong. I blamed my family for
everything I did wrong. I cried all my anger out and I forgave myself and my
parents.Jealousy is gone because that was just a part of my childhood; that's
normal for a child. Now I understand the purpose of life even more. No matter what
happens, they are the ones you will run to when you have a problem. They are the
only ones who will sympathize with you. Nothing else, envy, jealousy, anger, that's
natural in life, it's important. Don't let your family break up and fall apart just
because of jealousy and anger. As long as it's early, love and take care of your
family.
The mistake I made that I really regretted a lot was when I made my mother cry
because I raised my voice to my mother and my father beat me because of what I did
because I was a reprimanded child. Then the other day I had a fight with my older
brother and my father beat me again. At that time I wanted to be angry with my
parents even though I was the one at fault. I wondered at that time why I was still
the one angry while I was the one at fault. I changed myself at that time and
regretted what I had done and asked for forgiveness from my parents for the sins I
had committed. Since then I did not do foolish things and I just obeyed my
parents,the mistakes we make will make us stronger and we will become mature in
everything. From every mistake, we can learn something.