May 16th, 2023

I came back to home as usual (6:10 or 6:20 pm) but I was very tired, and I don’t
know why but that day was getting dark faster than before. My Mom was making dinner
but at the same time she was crying. I asked her the reasons of her weep and she told me
that it was because my little brother (Joseph) was beating himself because he felt desperate.
Joseph could be an autism kid, he is smart, he likes to listen to music, watch Tv, books, he
is very organizing with all his toys but specially when he has cutouts in his hands, but he
doesn’t speak yet. Just some things such as: Mom, Dad, and many other things but in his
own language.

May 17th, 2023

I made the decision to stop teaching in the afternoon. I couldn’t handle it anymore.
I’m very tired and I don’t have enough time to do the HomeWorks and task from university.
I have two pending essays and two speeches. I don’t know if teachers will accept my work.
But I have to try.

June 10th, 2023

I miss teaching in the afternoon. The last week of teaching was so hard and difficult that I
was so close of giving up because I didn’t have any motivation, energy and I felt tired but at
the same time there was a contradictory feeling I felt myself as a soccer player who is going
to play the final game (he is so close to be the winner but he has to go through a
challenging path, he has to face the final battle to get the trophy). In my case, the final day
of the course means that you are going to give individual feedback to each student as well
as his/her certificates. Moreover, is a sharing time in which you can do some jokes and
have some fun and if you want, you can take some pictures with the group, and I did all
those things and I had a good time with those guys. However, I didn’t feel as a winner or a
champion neither as a looser or defeated man. NO! I just felt normal as usually but now
with the idea that there wasn’t any group waiting for me.

June 12th, 2023

I currently have more free time, but I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to lose my time
by watching videos on Facebook or YouTube I want to do something else. I want to learn.