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I Need Time by Mel Baggs
I Need Time by Mel Baggs
I need time.
I need time.
I get there. But I need the time. If it seems fast it’s because I’ve
done it a million times already, many of them slowly.
It’s the way thinking works and the obstacles we face in the
outside world that determine our similarities and differences, far
more than what diagnosis someone decided to give us.
It has to do with the fact that societies plan for some people to be
there, take for granted that some people will be there, build
everything physical and social around the strengths and
weaknesses of that kind of person. And then other people aren’t
planned for or taken for granted and there’s all these obstacles to
our participation in society. We are the disabled people.
That isn’t the world’s best description but I’m trying. Most people if
they’ve heard of accessibility they’ve heard if things like curb cuts
and wheelchair ramps and elevators. Things that apply to
physically disabled wheelchair users mostly.
But it’s huge. Just like physical access it can be life and death.
None of those things are how real accessibility works. Because all
of those things treat me at best like I’m only welcome under
certain conditions. Like I’m only welcome because you’ve decided
you want to be nice to me today. That’s not welcome. And it’s not
accessibility. A wheelchair ramp that disappears and turns into a
staircase whenever a wheelchair user feels grouchy isn’t access
either.
Time isn’t always easy to come by. But we can’t just make our
brains run the standard way. We need more time than usual. Or
we need the time we have used different than usual. Or
something.
Mind you, until recently, using words or ideas like “time being
worth something” would never have occurred to me. I’m still not
sure it sits right in my head. And I’m not sure if it not sitting right is
for a good reason or not. It just isn’t a way I think of time. Not the
way they seem to mean it. Of course I barely understand time at
all. But this way still confuses me.
I need time.