WEDNESDAY, APR 27, 2022, 22 39 • 4136 TIMBER VALLEY WAY, LAKELAND

Today was something else, I mean wednesdays always are. For the most part it was a good day. I woke
up late cuz my alarm didn’t go off so I had to shower at like 7. Honestly my hair dries fine in 20 minutes
so I guess you do learn something new everyday. Still no newspaper but I was never billed so I just made
a new account then was billed but was told the account was canceled, I’m very confused I’m just gonna
give it a week and see if I get anything. But school was great I had fun it wasn’t just a plain day. New
episode of moonknight was an awesome trip which basically had just Oscar Isaac the entire time, it was
spectacular. I then had to pick up Christian with luke and isaac in the car. That was all fine, forgot my
bass and subsequently in ears so I had to use the white fender mustang and Sarah’s in ears. It was all
good. Service was great, everything felt tight and it was hype. Small groups was good and so was the
message. However the issues come after service. Toria matt and ava just left for dinner like they usually
do, except we got a sort of heads up this time. Me kenzi and Chloe hung back because we usually do.
Chloe wanted Taco Bell so we headed there then to chipotle. I saw no problem with it like if you’re just
gonna leave knowing full well we will stay later don’t be mad if we come a little later than expected cuz
we wanted other food. I thought it was great I thought we were having a good time apparently makenzi
and Chloe didn’t think so but it’s whatever. They just up and left because what I presume to be Matt’s
curfew. So when it was just me Chloe and kenzi we kind of wrapped up and went to the church to eat
the rest of our food. Oh yeah I saw Zoe girard and her Lakeland highschool friends at chipotle.
ANYWAY. When we got to the church we started talking to the friend group and it just got me in a
mood. Like I started to remember the crappy times of like two weeks ago, Lol. But yeah it made me
remeber how suicidal and angry and sad I was all the time. It was literally the worst months of my life all
because I’d overthink and think no one wanted me. Which I’m still not sure if that’s true or not. I like
that I’m getting better slowly. I’ve started just giving out words of affirmation which I realized tonight is
my love language. I think it’s any guys, I take back any guy liking physical touch I mean most do but most
want words of affirmation. What I would kill for anyone to just tell me they appreciate me. That’s alI I
want, just one person to say that. I think that’s what I was hoping for from the friend group, shown by
how I literally asked toria for compliments like two or three times. But those ones didn’t feel real
enough. Like I want so badly to get a random text that just says “you’re wanted”. Which is one of the
reasons why I want a gf. Like not even to have her say those things to me but to be able to repeat those
things to this girl and make her feel the most loved, wanted, and appreciated girl ever. Ok wow didn’t
think that’s where this would go but here we are. Also Chloe mentioned michael again but what did I
expect, guess I truly just have to live with this. Welp I’m going to sleep in a kind of bad note but
hopefully I wake up to a paper!

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