November 6, 2023 (Monday)

I planned to do my requirements today because I don't want to rush in the

coming days. But something came up. Somebody asked me to help her drive to Tarlac
for the things she needs to do. At first, I beg-off but eventually sinamahan ko din sya
kasi nakonsensya naman ako dahil madalang lang siya magpasama.
When we were having our lunch, I was sharing with her about what I am learning
in my training with Pastor Carol, until our conversation became deeper. She was
struggling with her anger at her family pala. She is my close friend and I know her
weaknesses. I listened to her and tried my best to guide her in exploring her feelings. I
understand why she is feeling that way kaya with no judgment, I wanted to let her feel
that what she feels is valid. Nung mahimasmasan na siya saka ko sya pinagsabihan at
natatawa na lang siya kasi tama naman sinasabi ko haha I knew hindi pa namin
nacocorrect at nafifix the way we manage things about ourselves. As I’ve shared sa
kanya, di ko pa din alam kung paano ko matututunan maexpress yung self ko nang
walang fear and hesitation and kung anu pa man yung gusto kong maimprove sakin,
but we are both happy that we are now becoming more aware of what we are and we
have a desire to overcome it.
Kaya naman, while we are on our way home, I tried to expressed how I felt nung
nag-usap kami kaya ako pumayag na samahan siya. Hindi kasi sya directly na
nagpapasama sakin talaga, and nung nagdecline nga ako through chat nagtampo na
nga siya, at madalas may sinasabihan siyang tao na nakakakilala din sa akin sa sama
niya ng loob at parang hindi na nga daw mauulit pa na papasama siya sa akin. I
explained her yung situation and tried my best to express how I really felt about it.
Madalas nagtatampo sakin to dahil sa miscommunication. Hindi na nga ako marunong
magexpress ng nararamdaman ko, mas lalo pa siya kaya madalas nagkakainitan kami
ng ulo haha pero ayun nga we both realize how to manage our emotion more hoping na
unti-unti matutunan namin i-communicate properly yung gusto namin sabihin.

November 5, 2023 (Sunday)

Last Sunday, I thought the Holy Spirit was not working, but I realized that it was
not the Holy Spirit which is not moving but it might be that I was just expecting what the
Holy Spirit needs to do. But today, I asked the Holy Spirit to move in our midst, to touch
our hearts and work for each one of us. Kahapon pa lang God has already been
preparing our hearts for this Sunday Worship. As we were preparing for the
remembrance of those who have gone before us, God impressed in my heart the lives
of the pastors who dedicated their lives for the ministry of Grace UMC. I was inspired by
their lives and was moved to continue to be an instrument to fulfill His missions for this
church. Sometimes, I put the Holy Spirit in the box and ended up being frustrated that I
didn’t feel it, but I was reminded to let it move freely into our lives and to the worship
experience today.
 After the worship service, we always stay at Ma’s house to have lunch together.
Our plan is to go home early to take a rest because Froi needs it before going back to
Manila. But the Spirit of the Lord moves in mysterious ways. While attending some
business with my niece, I heard Froi talking to ma, sharing what he had learned from
yesterday’s session at Bulacan while guiding ma to reflect on her emotions and assess
why she is feeling that way. He helped her process her feelings toward her other
children who are not in peace with her. Ma is so concerned about the welfare of her
children, but she has the tendency to dictate and decide things for her children. Sa
kagustuhan niyang turuan at iguide mga anak nya, she wasn't aware na tinuturuan din
niyang maging dependent sila sa kanya kaya naman nag-eexpect na din ang mga anak
niya na lagi siyang tutulong sa kanila, kaya kapag nagfe-fail sya sa mga anak niya,
nagkakaroon na ng gap. And now, she is again concerned about her apo sa
pagtungtong niya sa College. Froi guided ma’s decisions in helping her apo para hindi
na niya macommit yung mga mistakes nya before.
Our feelings and emotions are so rich and mysterious. If we don’t analyze and
reflect on how we feel properly, we can commit mistakes and make the wrong actions. I
am glad that we are becoming more aware of our feelings and becoming more careful
of our actions. This helps us a lot to have meaningful relationships with our family and
the people around me.

November 4, 2023 (Saturday)

My life gets more exciting everyday! Hihi 😇🫠 I have a lot of learnings today, and what I
really love about the things I am learning is that it helps me understand my confusions
and I am able to explore more why am I feeling this way. Today, I learned about how to
regulate my own emotions. I feel happy because I know that God is revealing to me the
things I need to improve and change about myself.
Last time, I felt frustrated about this Pastor because of what he's doing in the ministry of
the church, maliit na bagay lang naman but I got disappointed at him. I can't really
understand why I was feeling that way and I was trying to convince myself that that was
wrong and I shouldn't be feeling that way at hayaan na lang sya. I feel frustrated kasi
since malapit sya sakin and we have this usapan na magpaalalahanan sa bawat isa
and yet nalulungkot ako dahil ganon na lang niya i-take for granted yung ministries ng
church.
Today, I learned that every emotion that we feel has an underlying reason behind it.
While reflecting on what I've learned today, I realized that I was feeling frustrated and
dismayed not because he wasn't doing the right thing but because of my personal
standard on things. Hindi ko sya dapat questionin sa ginagawa nya dahil siya yun.
Because of that realization, nakahinga ako dahil napatawad ko na yung sarili ko at the
same time mas nauunawaan ko na yung taong yun. Ngayon, mas nagiging aware na
ako in understanding my own emotions. As what I have said, marami pang dapat ayusin
sa akin, and I entrust everything to the Lord. I know that he will refine me pa sa mga
kailangang mamold sa akin. I thank God for all the people He is using for me to grow
and mature personally and in the ministry.
During our choir practice, I appreciated those who attended the practice (laging konti
lang kasi nag-aattend), and I shared with them my learnings today. We have this one
member of the church who get frustrated and minsan nagagalit pa kapag yung mga
nagbibigay ng bulaklak na naka-assign ay kakaunti lang ang dala. I helped her realize
yung pinagmumulan ng kanyang frustrations and we all agreed with our new learning
that gaano man kalaki o kaliit sa paningin natin ang paraan ng paglilingkod ng kapwa
natin, hindi tayo ang huhusga doon kundi ang Panginoon. Maaaring sa pananaw or
standard natin hindi yun ang best, pero sa kanya pala ay yun na yung best nya, mas
kinalulugdan yun ng Panginoon at wala tayong karapatan na husgahan sila just like
yung babaeng naghandog ng kusing pero binigay nya na ang lahat ng nasa kanya para
sa Diyos.
Our emotions are so mysterious that it can reveal our inner feelings and motivations.
Being aware of this helps me become keen on my own emotions and process what
needs to be improved.

November 3, 2023 (Friday)

Inappreciate ko yung inaanak ni mother sa pagbisita nila sa kanya sa hospital.
As what I've said, yung bisitahin lang sya, alam kong masaya na sya. And I've learned
that they have been doing that already before basta mahospital si ma or tatang, they will
come to visit kahit maglakad lang daw sila papunta hospital dati. As we have our
conversation, we came across to mother's other children na hindi kumakausap sa
kanya. I know that they have their own reasons for not coming or talking with ma. Pero
honestly, nalulungkot din ako sa situation nilang yun.. It is our hope and prayer na
maresolve na anuman conflicts nila sa isa’t-isa.
Life is full of mystery. As much as we wanted to live our lives perfectly, in reality, there
would always be imperfections, and broken relationships. Most of the time, our
differences result in misunderstandings. But if we only knew how to regulate our
emotions, life would be better despite our differences.

November 2, 2023 (Thursday)

Early in the morning, Froi learned that ma was rushed in the hospital last night
dahil nanlalambot na sa pagdudumi at pagsusuka. We hurriedly went back to
Concepcion from Bamban to visit her. On our way home, I reminded Froi of the things
that we need to do like magpakarga ng sasakyan, muntik na niya malimutan din phone
nya then, muntik na din makalagpas sa gasoline station kung san kami nagpapagas.
Napataas na ng konti yung boses ko at sabing “Ano ba hon bat wala ka sa focus, ano
na naman ba iniisip mo?” Nabigla ako eh. And he answered na mejo pagalit na din, that
he was worried about ma. Napatahimik ako and told him that I was sorry about what
happened. Mandalas, hindi halata sa kanya sa nag-aalala sya. Akala ko okay lang siya
tulad ko na relax lang at nag-iisip lang kung bakit kaya nagkaganon si ma. Pero siya,
siguro dahil sa anak nga, he was really worried about ma. Isa sa mga challenges ko
nung ikasal kami ni Froi ay pag-aralan yung mga gestures niya. Unlike me which is very
expressive, siya iba yung way nya ng pag-express ng things. Madalas pa dati,
nagdedemand na pala ako sa way na dapat niyang ipakita sa akin. But eventually, I
learned how he communicates things. We always talk about things especially after we
encounter certain issues and it really works! We are both making some adjustments and
we are still learning our languages. And it helps us. Madalang na lang namin mamis-
interpret ang bawat isa because we communicate. Minsan nagiging insensitive pa rin
ako just like what happened today pero I also learned to accept my mistakes unlike
before na ako pa ang galit haha.

November 1, 2023 (Wednesday)

Napakaraming bagay ang nangyari ngayon and I would like to reflect on the
different happenings that I experienced today. We remembered our loved ones by
remembering our memories with them when they were still alive and honoring the good
things they have done. Napaisip tuloy ako, when I die, ano kaya ang maaalala ng mga
tao sa akin. With that, I came to realize that I wanted to leave a good legacy on this
earth. I want to be known as a good person who proclaims God’s word to people.
Sigurado maalala nila kung gaano ako ka-maldita noon pero gusto kong maalala nila
ako na binigay ko ang buhay ko para sa Panginoon. And that drives me not to stop
learning the word of God and proclaim His words to people. I want to inspire people that
in our weaknesses, God can be exalted.
We also grabbed this holiday to bond with my family. We spent the day at a
resort in Concepcion with my nephew and niece. During serious moments, Papa would
always appreciate our bonding as siblings together with the in-laws. Madali kaming
magkasundo-sundo sa mga bagay-bagay na may kinalaman sa family. What makes it
easy for us to make decisions is that because we know each other. We know the needs
of everyone, and we manage to accept and consider each other without putting too
much burden on others. Ang lagi kong prayers sa family ay mapanatili yung ganon
naming pagsasamahan kahit na nadadagdagan kami sa family dahil nagsipag-asawa
na kami. Madalas ko kasing naririnig at nakikita sa ibang family, nagkakagulo na sila
kapag may mga in-laws na. But I believe, we are in control of what’s happening to us as
we can break that kind of stigma in the family.
October 31, 2023 (Tuesday)
I would like to reflect on the importance of our family ties. After we went home to
Concepcion, I observed how the streets are so busy with many people coming around.
People gather together with their friends and family. Nakakatuwa kung gaano ka-strong
ang bond ng mga families ng mga Filipinos. And that's what I was thinking while going
to the house of my mother-in-law to have our dinner together. Magkalapit lang naman
bahay namin kaya madalas, pag di naman busy, we go there to have dinner. I
appreciate how God works through our family. Actually it was due to Covid-19 pandemic
nung naging malapit ako kina ma. We stayed at their house for a year kaya I'm glad for
that opportunity to get to know them well and I was able to serve them in small ways
kasi nga matatanda na sila. Hindi mababayaran ng anuman ang magandang samahan
na nabuo. Hindi mahal ang mag-invest ng magandang samahan sa isang pamilya,
kailangan lang ng panahon at mabuting pakikisama. Noon, hindi maganda ang naririnig
ko sa background ng pamilya ng magiging asawa ko, pero dahil tulad ng kasabihan,
hindi naman sila ang pakikisamahan ko kaya hindi ko din naman pinansin yun. Pero
napatunayang kong nasa mabuti at maayos na pakikisama lang talaga ang susi sa
isang magandang relasyon. Salamat dahil nagkaroon ng pagkakataon para mas
magkakilala kami ng lubos ng mga pamilya ng asawa ko. 🥰🤗 and I am glad that I have
this kind of bond with them. Ang sarap lang sa feeling ng may magandang relationship
sa mga members of our family; we help each other in times of need and we learn
together from each other’s experiences.

October 30, 2023 (Monday)

It's family time at Mudita Glamping Resort 🥰🤗. Oohhh how beautiful God's
creation is! The sound of the grasses and the chirping of the birds are sweet music to
my ears. 🤗 ang sarap sa pakiramdam lalo na yung fresh air. I loved the moment with
nature and all we did was to relax our mind. At syempre I grabbed the opportunity to
free my mind from whatever I need to finish and do. I live in the present, enjoying
laughter and good food together with our family. I thank the Lord for a happy family that
I have with Froi's side. Hindi lang naexercise katawan namin dahil sa mga lakarin, pero
maging yung muscles sa face namin kakatawa. I loved this moment. 🥰 I praise and
thank God for this opportunity to unwind, relax and enjoy His creation and His abundant
blessings to our family. Nakakataba ng puso yung surrounded ka with good people and
with good foods. 🤗 Kaya naman, looking back on the times that I was still learning to
know and reach them, ngayon parang magkakadugo pa kami sa samahan namin. Hindi
man maganda yung image ng pamilya ni froi na naririnig ko nun, I am glad na hindi
hinayaan ni Lord na maging basehan ko yun. Indeed, it’s all just a matter of acceptance.
I know their weaknesses and they know mine pero nagkakaintindihan kami at masaya
kami. Thank God for this love in our midst.

October 29, 2023 (Sunday)

I'm excited to go to church, I prepared early to be there 30 minutes before the
service. I also felt very happy to see and teach children because there were months
when we only had a few children attending church because of some conflicts among
members and kids were affected by that situation. But at the middle of the worship
service it feels like I can't feel the Holy Spirit working in our midst. Or it may be as if I
can't feel it deep within myself at that time. I can't do anything but to keep on praying
while the pastor is preaching and asking God's forgiveness if I have done something not
pleasing to him. Though at the end everyone feels happy to see each other pero ako,
parang restless or pagod ako.

In the afternoon, while I was doing my essay #2, my requirement on PCC, I suddenly
remembered my former late pastor, Rev. Joel and missing all the ministries I had with
him. The inspiration I had in my heart to continue what he has done is still alive in my
heart. I thank God for his life and I want to continue the legacy he has started for God's
glory. 🤗😇

October 28, 2023 (Saturday)

We had our follow-up check-up for our x-ray results. Our lungs are clear 🥰🤗
Praise God! 🤗 I feel relieved and happy that Froi is getting better too. 😌
I already missed the WSCS activity in our district so I just took the opportunity to rest
and finish all the preparations for tomorrow's worship service. Just want to reflect on
what happened during our choir practice this afternoon. My mother-in-law asked
somebody to install the ceiling fan she bought for the church. I appreciated his work and
gave him money. He didn't want to receive it at first so I insisted. I saw a big smile on
his face after that. And everytime we see each other in the community, he always gives
me that full smile. His smile gives me more joy. Each day, I ask God to give me
opportunities to be a blessing to other people. What I do is not that much but for other
people, it may mean a lot to them. Life is so hard for many people and I believe a small
act of kindness can change someone's life.
When I am feeling disappointed or discouraged, hindi din maipinta yung mukha kasi
very transparent sa mukha ko yung feelings ko. That's why sometimes, I try to
understand people who don't seem in a good mood, baka may pinagdadaanan lang ba
hehe
October 27, 2023 (Friday)
We had our check-up today. Froi has typhoid fever, and I have a low WBC count
and that means I have a weak immune system. And I have few reflections about our
situation today, actually it's our reflection as a couple hehe. First is that our body needs
a little break from not so good foods, be more aware of what we're eating and eat more
nutritious food though I always make sure that Froi eats healthy foods when he's home
but we thought that Froi got his typhoid fever from what he eats when he's in Manila for
work so we don't have control over it. Secondly, I thank God for giving us resources to
provide our needs. We just remembered our life when we were kids with our own family.
Napakahirap ng buhay nun. We don't even take medicines for cough or body pain
unless we have fever, at napakamura lang naman ng biogesic nun. I can still remember
that we only eat food from Jollibee or McDonald's when we are sick. That's why we are
so grateful for blessing us with what we need.

October 26, 2023 (Thursday)

Froi wasn't feeling well. 😞 He went home and I fetched him from Dau dahil di na
niya kaya.. I was worried about him dahil alam ko kung paano sya pag may sakit. I took
care of him to cool down his high temperature. I also need to manage my time as a
student and as a worker in our church. All things worked together naman and I was able
to do everything I needed to do. There are still a lot of things that I want to accomplish,
but I needed to take slow down and put first things first 🥰
I also felt how the holy spirit is working through me. Today, I noticed that I am becoming
more understanding to people, to irregularities and I’m making adjustments without
being frustrated. Mas magaan sa pakiramdam at mas nagiging okay and smooth lang
ang mga bagay. 😇🤗
I also feel happy for my work done in preparing for a narrative report on BarOn 😙
I'm feeling ready and confident to administer it and identify those who needed guidance
and assistance. A while back, I received a news from the school that there were two
students who attempted to suicide. It breaks my heart to hear this kind of news 💔😢 . We
have to really work hard and do everything to prevent this from happening again.

October 25, 2023 (Wednesday)

I am fully well today ☺️. I thanked the Lord for letting me experience His healing
physically and mentally. I woke up very early in the morning because I was having
trouble mentally about a situation. Life is so unfair, others make mistakes and it's fine
but when I make a mistake, it's a big deal. But this morning, I joined the daybreak, God
cleansed my thoughts and corrected my heart. I shouldn't worry about what others think
about me, I know may mga naging pagkukulang ako before but that won't define my
calling as a pastor. Life might be unfair, but the Lord impressed me to always do my
best in everything I do.
I am also praying to God to receive the right words and proper way to express my
thoughts to correct other people. Nagtatalo kasi sa isip ko lagi na lang ba ako
magreremind sa actions ng partner ko sa distino or hayaan ko na lang kung ganon
talaga sya and just accept na we have different style in serving.
Today, I received forgiveness and healing from these things that's troubling my mind
and focused more on building up my character and spirituality. I may not know the
answer to all my prayers but I know he has been shaping and molding me.

October 24, 2023 (Tuesday)

“Akala ko kaya ko na, hindi pa pala”. These are the words I ended up telling
myself today. I felt recharged after a long night's sleep, so I prepared my breakfast and
did some daily morning routine. But after I took my breakfast, I suddenly felt weak again
😣 Kaya ayun, rest mode ulit maghapon. 😢 But I took this opportunity to rest, take a nap
while there's no class to gain my strength. It's always a process. I was praying for
healing, but it always takes a process. I have to trust Him na gagaling din ako, maybe
not today but tomorrow. 🤗 Thankfully, we're just having our class online so I can still be
able to join the class, may times lang na nakakaidlip ako 😅
Just also want to add my reflection on our topic today in field education under Order of
parag. 340 of BOD. The most striking part for me was the part that we need to give
pastoral support, guidance and training to the lay leadership. Our role as pastors in
equipping lay is important. Lay members are thirsty from being trained. They want to
serve but they need guidance. As I always hear from other pastors, they tend to always
blame the members of the church for not growing, but sometimes I wonder if our
members are being fed, trained and equipped properly to be blamed for. Kaya naman I
am reminding myself to educate myself more in order for me to teach them.

October 23, 2023 (Monday)

October 22, 2023 (Sunday)

October 21, 2023 (Saturday)

October 20, 2023 (Friday)

My heart is sooo full! Sobrang saya ko today! It's my first time to join ptr. Carol in her
ministries. God really works through His amazing ways. I was just praying for this after
my board exam and I can't believe that this is already happening. I am glad for this
opportunity to learn and be exposed to the ministry that God has been preparing for me.
I know he has good plans for me and I want to be molded by You, Lord. Use me as an
instrument and your vessel to give hope and life for other people. I am excited for what
he planned for me. I know there are still lots of things that I need to learn but with His
wisdom and guidance, I know I could make it.
Today, God already revealed to me what kind of ministry he is preparing for me. Serving
other people to address a lot of concerns but also, there would always be hindrances or
people who will not be with the same spirit as we have. I know this is the reality of
ministry, but for the Lord, magpapatuloy pa rin! 🤗

October 19, 2023 (Thursday)

For the morning session, we heard testimonies of different workers from different
places. I was inspired by how God moved to their lives and their families. Truly, when
we commit our lives to God, He will use us and become effective to the ministry he has
called us. The AMC also ended with Closing Worship led by our Bishop. His message
was so simple yet challenging. As we go back to our own appointments, we carry the
hope from the Lord that He will be with us while we are carrying out His mission here on
earth. And the inspiration that God is with us even during the toughest times of our lives.
Thanks to the people whom God is using to inspire us. May the Holy Spirit dwell in me
as I meditate on His words daily and see the wider ministry ahead. I know marami pang
dapat matutunan at maranasan, but I am willing to be used by God for his mission. For
now, I will equip and train myself to prepare where God would send me.
P.S I am also grateful for the new friends I've met during the Conference, their stories
about their ministries inspired me.
I really thank God for everything he has taught me during our Aldersgate Mission
Conference.

October 18, 2023 (Wednesday)

Today, we learned the whys and hows of discipleship. We were taught an
effective discipleship system. John Wesley has started the act of discipleship and
modeled an effective way to do it. Unfortunately, many of our churches nowadays fail to
do it. With the on-going issues of the United Methodist Church around the world and
specifically to a lot of churches in our places, I think the immediate thing we can do is to
go back to basics. That’s one of my advocacies now. To be honest, as a worker, I am
not that confident about our beliefs and Christian theology and so what more our
members. That is the reason why I really want to educate myself to the basics of the
UMC so that I will be able to pass this to our members. There are lots of things that we
need to do for the growth of the church. And there are also a lot of things that I need to
know not just in knowledge but by experience to make more disciples of Jesus Christ.
Another lesson I would like to carry when I get home is to “declare” good things
to people and to the church. Malaki ang hope ko para sa aking church appointment
though napakalaki talaga ng kinakaharap nitong struggles, pero there were also times
na parang susuko na ako at mawawalan na ng pag-asa na may mangyayari pa sa
ibang mga members na di namin nakakasama. But tonight, God reminded me, just like
Ezekiel, to prophesy and declare good things for them so that they may receive life just
as how God gave life to the dry bones in Ezekiel 47. I believe that through me, God
would also give life to others. 🙂

October 17, 2023 (Tuesday)

Just got my Guidance Counselor PRC license! :) Yey! Syempre sobrang saya :)
all the hardworks, cries and sleepless nights paid off.. Nagflash back nung unang
inimpress sakin ni Lord yung pagtake ng Guidance and Counseling; it was all for His
ministry and I know He will use me to minister more people. 😀 I’m excited how God will
use me through this license. Hihi
Tonight is also the first night for the BEA Aldersgate Mission Conference. One of
the remarkable lessons I’ve remembered was “we can gain a habit of discipleship by
waiting”. Hindi minamadali ang lahat ng bagay, kasama na dun ang pagdidisipulo. As a
Deaconess, part of our training is to train other people too. As for my experience, hindi
lahat nagsstay, karamihan hindi na nagpapatuloy. Nagpapasalamat pa rin ako na may
isang nagpatuloy sa paglilingkod at siya’y magpapastor na ngayon. I know that it was
God’s work who is touching our lives. On the other hand, I also learned that and I
believed it is the right thing to do- make discipleship intentional. That is what God has
commanded us, and we need to fulfill it intentionally, hindi yung puro programs lang at
masabing may program sa church. This is the inspiration that I am holding to and
hoping that I will also be able to fulfill on my church appointment.

October 16, 2023 (Monday)

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October 10, 2023 (Tuesday)

October 9,2023 (Monday)

Pampered day! :) It's good to see and be with old friends hihi I like this kind of
opportunity to just enjoy the day with good food and good people ☺️ I always look
forward to talking with people whom I can learn a lot.. 😁😀
Also, sooo blessed for God's lots of opportunity. I always believe that when God wants
me to do something, he will work through other people and things around me. And Yes!
God answered one of my prayers today 😊 Sobrang nagagalak yung puso ko and I'm
excited to be trained and learn about the ministry that I am exploring. I want to learn
more about counseling.. Ngayon, unti-unti kong nakikita yung leading ng Panginoon. I
prayed for this as soon as I passed the board exam and what I always do is to wait for
God's timing. And he did! He is opening more opportunities for me. Indeed, when you
entrusted everything to God, he will reveal things in His perfect time. 🥰

October 8,2023 (Sunday)

I feel so blessed for another year God has given me. 🙏🥰 grabe yung taong nagdaan,
may mga paghihirap pero andaming surprises ni Lord this year 😭
I can still remember those years before na I'm waiting for other's surprise on my
birthday and malulungkot ng konti pag wala hehe but now I came to the point na I really
treasure what I have.. God has given me a very understanding husband.. Indeed, he is
a perfect gift for me.. 🥰
I have two great families whom I really care for and love. I value every little effort people
do for me. Hindi matatawaran yung love na nararanasan ko and I really thank the Lord
for giving me such a family like this. Habang tumatanda, I feel like I'm becoming
younger. Dati, maraming fears, hesitations and doubts to do things, but now all I know is
when it is for the Lord and if it makes me happy, I will go for it. 🤗 . Maaaring may
konting takot pa rin in trying new things but I know, makakaya ang lahat. 🥰
I'm so excited for God's revelation to me for this year 🙏😊
Ang tanging prayer ko ay pagyamanin pa nya ako sa lahat ng aspeto ng buhay at
gamitin sa kanyang ubasan tulad ng aking sermon knina. 🤗

October 7,2023 (Saturday)

I just can't contain how happy I am today. Finally, froi decided to attend the church
activity today. It's our 2nd District Meeting and our church is the host. Kala

October 6, 2023 (Friday)

October 5, 2023 (Thursday)
October 4, 2023 (Wednesday)
October 3,2023 (Tuesday)
One remarkable lesson that I learned today is the task and responsibilities of a pastor. It
is true that one of the basic requirements of a worker is to know and preach the
scripture as we lead people to become God's witnesses and so forth. During the time
when I was praying about my calling to become a pastor, I am fully aware that it will be
more challenging because of bigger responsibility. Actually, I have a lot of plans already
for my career hehe but when God confirmed his calling to me, I surrendered everything
to Him and entrusted him with all my plans. And now that I'm here, I am more excited
about what lies ahead of me. Yes, it may seem hard, but in my heart, I am excited 😊
Alam kong di nya ko pababayaan 🥰

October 2,2023 (Monday)

Today is just like any normal day. I did my personal morning routine and
household chores like washing my clothes as scheduled. Admittedly, parang ayaw ko
magtrabaho because of so much work during weekends but I have to follow my
schedule, kaya bawal tamarin at magkakaroon yun ng domino effect. 🙂 Discipline is
very important but being kind to myself is also my consideration. So, despite following
my daily schedule, I still find time to enjoy it and find some time to rest. Anyway, I’m also
happy today. I had the chance na magbasa sa ulan haha Halos patapos na ako, then it
rained suddenly. I got stucked sa kubo where I hanged some of the wet clothes. Kaya
naman, I decided na i-enjoy na lang yung ulan hehe and I really enjoyed it kahit saglit
lang.

October 1, 2023 (Sunday)

September 30,2023 (Saturday)

September 29,2023 (Friday)

Today's my 1st day at Gapan City College! I was introduced to other faculty members
and I felt their warm welcome to me. I feel happy to have this opportunity to help
students and be part of this school's mission. I know I am not that equipped yet but I do
my best to take this as an opportunity to explore and learn more about Guidance and
Counseling.

September 28,2023 (Thursday)

For how many weeks, the Israelites' life has been part of our lectionary text during our
worship services. Now, we discussed in the Old Testament some part of the leadership
of Moses to the Israelites. God has shown his love and mercy to them and led them out
of Egypt from slavery. BBut despite what God has done, they still keep on complaining
about what they are experiencing and they even wanted to go back to Egypt as
slaves. 😞 During our discussion, Rev. Mones said that it was hard for them to move
forward because they still have this slave mentality. 😔 This is also true in our generation
today. God wants to deliver us and free us from what's holding us back, but we need to
accept His offer and trust him on his plans. I was once a slave of my own sins. It's really
hard to get out of it, but because of God's grace I was able to receive forgiveness and
freedom. I have to be courageous in taking the first steps, mahirap kasi nasanay na sa
maling attitude but unti-unti God helped me to overcome it. God is so faithful. He doesn't
want us to suffer at malugmok dahil sa ating kasalanan. Bilang pinalaya na ng
Panginoon, I need to let God change the way I think and follow what he has prepared
for me. At talaga namang kapag hinayaa natin palayain tayo ng Panginoon sa
gumagapos sa atin, mas nakita ko yung magagandang plano nya sa buhay ko.

September 27,2023 (Wednesday)

A school in Gapan City asked me through Deaconess Rose Anne to work as a
Guidance Counselor. I’ve learned that I need to administer Psychological tests to the
students. I knew that they have Psychometricians kaya ang alam ko, hindi naman ako
ang mag-aadminister ng mga tests. Alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi pa ako ganon ka-
familiar sa mga psychological tests kasi honestly, isa ito sa mga parts ng GC na hindi
ko gusto. Aside from wala akong ganong experience sa mga tests ay puro theories or
knowledge lang alam ko dito. But today, I learned that the school’s Psychometrician is
not really exercising its work so I have to do the work. Nagtanong-tanong ako sa mga
kilala ko kung ano ba yung practices nila sa pag-administer ng mga tests, natatakot din
naman ako na gawin yung isang bagay na hindi ako sure. I talked to ate Rose Anne
about my hesitations and asked what we should do about it.
Hindi ako mapakali, I know that I am not qualified to do that because I lack
training on this. Sana pumayag ang school sa proposal ko para maprepare ako sa mga
dapat gawin. I am happy that I was given the chance to practice what I’ve studied but I
want to start things right. I was praying na bigyan ako ni Lord ng wisdom for me to

September 26,2023 (Tuesday)

I finished all my requirements in my M-Div class today, and I also finalized my
report for tomorrow. May dumating pang isang kailangan ko ding asikasuhin. Buti na
lang I already started some of my requirements last week hehe Kasi alam kong may
possibility na magkasabay-sabay nga mga dapat kong gawin. :) God has entrusted me
to another ministry now kaya hindi ako pwedeng tamarin at mag-waste ng time. Though
I also make sure na nakakapag-unwind at refresh pa rin ako ng utak haha I still give
time to watch netflix and today, I went out to eat at Mcdo 🙂 napiga utak ko eh, so I
deserve this. Plus, today I was able to wash my clothes pa! Hehe I just feel so
productive today. I hope I will still be able to manage my time sa mga susunod pang
panahon. Today, I also enjoyed our discussion on Field Education with Ptr. Fajardo as
I’ve learned a lot to the biblical foundation of why we do our ministry. Feeling ko
narerecharge ulit ako sa mga learnings ko ngayon. That is why lalo akong
nachachallenge pagdating sa ministry ngayon. My reflection today is that I need to do
my best in everything that I do and that’s also a way of serving the Lord.

September 25,2023 (Monday)

My cousin died today. 🥹 We were all shocked to hear the news because it was a
sudden death and he was still young. He died due to a heart attack. Honestly, I do not
know what to reflect on my experience today. I went home para makiramay. He’s my
aunt’s eldest son among her three children. Yung dalawang anak nyang iba ay parehas
na nagttrabaho abroad at itong namatay lang yung kasama nya sa bahay. I really am
more concerned about auntie now. I just hope and pray that she will overcome the
process of grieving and maging strong pa rin siya. The day before he died, one of my
aunties called me regarding our reunion that usually happens in December. She asked
me when we would celebrate our reunion because the last time we talked about the
schedule they were planning to move it to summer. Di ko alam out of nowhere she
asked me about the schedule so I just responded na sila na bahala dahil sila naman
yung host. This summer, hindi natuloy yung plan nila kasi may mga conflict yung iba
naming pinsan sa isa’t-isa. Tapos ngayon, one of our cousins died and nagkaroon tuloy
kaming magkakamag-anak ng reunion, sa patay nga lang 🙁 This is the most saddening
part of life. Parang aantayin pa na may mamatay para magkasama-sama ulit ang
pamilya.

September 24,2023 (Sunday)

Today is the launching of our District Discipleship System, the STar Disciples
(Submissive, Teachable, Available, Reliable Disciples). It is our fervent prayer that
somebody would answer the call of God for discipleship. Gladly, there were two. Kaunti
mang mag-uumpisa but what’s important for me is not the quantity but the quality. I can
sense their willingness to be used in the ministry of the church and I’m so glad that they
are willing to commit themselves. As I was reflecting today, I realized that there are lots
of things that we need to do in the ministry of the church, but sometimes few want to be
part of it. So, I always ask God to help me realize what else to do in order to fulfill his
mission here. During this moment that I am entering the pastoral ministry, I am blessed
that it's as if God is renewing and refreshing my commitment to the ministry again.. I
need all these learnings na natututunan ko ngayon. It opens a door for new vision
again.

September 23,2023 (Saturday)

I love how my husband and I are having our devotion together. 😊 Iba pa din yung
magkasama kami mismo na nagbabahaginan ng aming reflection and we can only do
that when he comes home on weekends. I also learn a lot from him, he has this
"kakaibang perspective" that I think really makes sense. That's why I enjoy our
discussion until we come up with one conclusion. 😇 This is one of my prayers before,
and I'm happy that we constantly do it already. 🙏
I believe God has been preparing us for something for the ministry of the church.
I am just really grateful that he involves himself in the ministries of our church. I feel
blessed that God gave me a husband who would not only understand my ministry but
will be part of my ministry in the church. This is really what I’ve prayed for, and I am
really grateful that we serve together.

September 22,2023 (Friday)

I'm so excited about the upcoming happenings of my life. Hehe But despite all
these things, I still need to continue and focus on the things that I need to do, especially
my requirements at school. That's why I decided to prepare my reports in advance and
finish existing requirements little by little. As I and my husband always say, doing our
best in whatever God entrusted us is one of the ways we can show our gratitude to Him.
This is also true to our ministries at church.
Today, I am happy to meet the young people for our regular bible study. (Just a
little bit of background: Most of the young people in our church were affected by their
parents' conflict with one family of our church. Naiipit sila kaya it was really hard for
them to attend church activities. Anyway, it's a long story po). It's as if we're starting
over again. But I am still hopeful that the others who remained will find in their hearts
their purpose in life. We never gave up praying and teaching them and I know somehow
and someday they will remember all God's goodness in their life and they will find the
meaning of what's happening to them and continue to be faithful no matter what.

September 21, 2023 (Thursday)

When God takes away something from us, He will surely open another door for
us! Yeah! This is exactly what happened to me today. 😀 Last week, I was telling God
that I wanted to use what I've learned from my Master's degree. And I entrusted
everything to the Lord believing that if he wanted me to be used by Him using this
profession, siya na bahala.. It was also last week that I decided to turn down all my
tutees in which I earn 2,700 a week, enough to provide some of my needs because of
conflicts in time since I am having face-to-face classes once a month. I never had any
regrets about my decisions. Amazingly, God answered my prayer today. Someone
called me asking me to work at their school as Guidance Counselor in my convenient
time. They will adjust to my schedule and I won't compromise any of my schedule at
school and at church. I was so grateful. 🥰 It didn't even enter to my mind that this would
happen. Kaya talagang God is really good and He really works in mysterious ways.

September 20,2023 (Wednesday)

I became emotional during our discussion today. God reminded me again of his
goodness in my life and the forgiveness he offers. I know that sometimes matigas din
ang ulo ko at mahina, but I let God process this until I become better. I cannot hide
anything from him and I know how He still shows his care. Kaya naman, magpapatuloy
pa rin. I can feel his care and love even when I am not okay. And what's amazing is that
He always reminds me of His goodness. Kaya pala He brought me to this class today.
Iba yung feeling ko eh, as soon as I learned that our appointment today was canceled, I
immediately decided to go back to WDS.
Alam ko naman na He has plans for everything. Maaari kaming madisappoint ng
asawa ko dahil di natuloy ang lakad, but we chose to see the positive side of things.
In life, we may not be able to get what we wanted to happen, but when you have a
positive outlook in life, we will see the beauty of all things. 🥰
Another thing that is remarkable for me today is to do my best to study my bible and be
able to practice what I've learned. 😇

September 19,2023 (Tuesday)

While I was driving home, I had a conversation with one of my classmates about
her struggles in giving birth. She lost her two babies due to blood incompatibility with
her husband. She shared how much she struggled during those times.. And we have
concluded that all of us have different struggles and challenges to face.
We've also been praying to have a baby.. Our laboratory says that it will be hard for us
to have a baby. I also remembered my struggle during those times that I really wanted
to conceive. Buong taon yata I was really crying whenever my monthly period come.
Until there comes a time na, suko nako. There is still hope na magkababy kami mismo
pero dumating na ko sa point na isurrender na kay Lord sa right time na ipagkakaloob
nya yun. But, we also decided na mag-adopt na din while waiting. And I'm excited na ☺️
feeling ko malapit na ibigay ni Lord..
Hindi ko man mareceive yung pinagppray ko sa anyo na gusto ko, pero happy pa
rin ako that God will answer it sa kanyang way.
In life, sometimes yung di natin ineexpect na mangyari ang siyang binibigay ni Lord. But
what's important is I entrust everything to the Lord.

September 18, 2023 (Monday)

It was so good to be with my Divinity classmates. 🥰 Ang saya sa puso na may bagong
family na naman ako.. 😇 It was as if kilalang kilala na namin ang isa't-isa.. Isa to sa
nilolook forward ko sa Seminary 🤗 When we arrived, we are unsure of a lot of things..
"How can we sleep here?" "Is there a bed..? an aircon..?" Siguro nasanay kami sa
comfortable houses namin at we need to have some adjustments now. Siguro, isa na
ako dun hehe (are you not sure about it?)
But as I reflected on what we had experienced today, I realized that this is like ministry.
We were sent out in the midst of wolves unsure of everything. But, God has given us
strength and power to overcome obstacles in life. It is just how we make meanings in
our situation. Just like now, we may blame other people (I am inviting you to speak on
your own and refrain from generalizing the experience) for what he had experienced but
we chose to make some adjustments and a little bit of effort to carry some electric fans
and foams. Hehe
Sabi ko nga kay ptr. Daff, mga girl scouts and boy scouts naman kami and she doesn't
have to be sorry for all the inconvenience.
As we (this is your personal reflection) reflect on our lesson a while back, we were
reminded of our own philosophies in life. This is what drives us to having a happy and
fulfilling life regardless of our situation. 🥰

September 17,2023
I preached to two churches today since we are celebrating CE Sunday. The text was a
bit challenging, at mejo may kaba sa heart ko.. but as what I have said, it might be
difficult for us to forgive (is this true to you) but because of God's faithfulness and grace
for us, kakayanin natin.
This is also a message for me.. May konting sama ako ng loob sa mga decisions ng DS
ko or should i say, on how he makes decisions (how are you going to address this?) but
God allowed me to experience self forgiveness through the sermon that I have prepared
(it seems to me that your message help you process your disappointment). Grabe yung
experience ko during sermons, God really works maging sa mga di nating inaasahang
pagkakataon.

September 16, 2023

Andaming pangyayari this day. One of the remarkable one was when we were sa lamay
ng tatay ng isa sa mga naging kabataan namin na di na active ngayon.
Sobrang bigat sa puso. His children are still young.. I told tita that I really don't know
what to say and how to comfort her.
But I continued listening to her stories. I may not be able to say any words to give her
assurance to what she is experiencing now, but I hope that I was able to send God's
comfort to them through our presence. (What lesson can you get from this experience?)
It is in my heart now that we will do our best to be available for these young people
during this tough moment of their lives.

September 15,2023
"I've got peace like a river in my soul"! 🎶🎵 yeah! I know there's no assurance when
things will be okay with my husband. But I have a positive feeling that everything will be
alright with him..
Just like what I always think wherever I am experiencing confusion and pain, I know that
God is working in His mysterious ways.
I don't have the assurance of all things but as I can also see kay hubby, alam kong
when he comes back, stronger na sya. Yun din naman pinag-uusapan namin.
Kaya I really thank the Lord na siya ang kaantabay ko sa ministry.
It seems to me that you have no time to reflect and write your journal

September 14,2023
Sa upper room discipline devotion ngayon, biglang nagflash sakin yung sinabi ng isang
worker sa akin na sinabi daw ng isa pang worker sa kanya na "Bakit daw ako pinayagan
ni DS magpastor e pabago-bago ako ng desisyon, kaya tignan natin kung tatagal sya
ngayong taon". I really felt disappointed na nagmula pa sa "respetadong worker"
magmumula yun (Using your educational background, how are you going to address
this? What is this telling you? As a counselor, how can you best approach the
situation?) Yeah, maybe I'm not that matured enough yet, I consider my family when it
comes to my decisions and di ko kayang hindi i-prioritize sila habang naglilingkod din
naman ako. Pwede ko naman pagsabayin eh, para sakin di ko kailangan bitawan ang
isa.
Pero sabi nga sa Romans, we should not judge those who are weak in spirit (How are
you going to apply this on your situation?).
Inaamin kong marami pa akong pagkukulang at mga bagay na dapat matutunan sa
ministry. Kaya, anumang paghahatol man maranasan ko, naniniwala akong mas
pinapatatag lang ako ni Lord at di nya ko pababayaan (be mindful not to jump into quick
fix)..

September 13,2023
Hindi talaga kaya ng emotional aspect ng buhay ko. Kaya I asked froi to come home.
His mere presence gives me comfort.
Kaso, my concern now is his situation. Siya ang nacompromise sa naging decision
ko. 😢
He wants to have a space/ distance himself sa church. He has personal battles within
himself. Sobrang masakit sakin yung decision nya. Di ko sya mapigilan at maturuan..
nafufrustrate ako.. I don't what to do anymore kasi kahit anong encouragement and
explanation ko sa kanya, buo na decision nyang di muna magsimba (What other
options can be done?). I hope mareconcile nya agad sa sarili nya yung mga concerns
nya sa sarili nya.. I know, pag balik nya, mas matatag at malakas na siya.

September 12,2023
I don't really feel okay today. I had my devotion and I know it was really the message for
me.
Just like Israelites, though they are not worthy of it, God rescues and saves them. I may
not also be worthy enough in God's eyes, but I know that He called me and I want to be
part of His mission here on earth.
I sang the song "Trust His heart". Di ko man naiintindihan anong plan nya for me and
my husband but I know, magagamit ko ang lahat ng mga experiences na to as my
testimony of God's goodness in my life.

September 11,2023
So, I decided to talk to my superior again and shared what me and my husband had
agreed upon. Pero, di niya din pala tatanggapin, 😞. Ininsist pa rin niya yung side nya. 😢
While he was sharing again his past experiences in the ministry, sobrang nagrerebelde
na yung mind ko.. puno ng questions at sama ng loob.
But in the middle of it, God just spoke to me. I can still remember the word "blocks".
Pinaalala ulit sakin ni Lord yung mga struggles ko when I was studying at Harris.
Napakadami ding blocks along the way and He reminded me that I was able to surpass
all of it because of His faithfulness in my life. Kaya naman, I decided to continue my M-
Div at WDS at ipagpatuloy kung saan akong university now. (Me and my husband were
requesting to continue my study at PCU Manila sana for personal reasons). Pero ayun
nga, I knew that it was God's conviction to me.
When I got home and told everything that happened to my husband, he was
disappointed that I wasn't able to stand on what we've talked about. Nakapagdesisyon
ako nang di ko na sya naconsider 😢😭 It broke my heart na sobra ko syang nasaktan. In
everything I do, he was on my side supporting me pero I neglected him. And nagdulot
ito ng matinding pain sa kanya that caused him to question his faith too and his loyalty
in following our leader.. may sarili kasi siyang principles na sobrang seryoso at
committed sya.
I know, I couldn't bring things back anymore. I have already decided and I need to face
its consequences.
Honestly, di ko na alam gagawin ko.. puro iyak na lang ako kay Lord. I don't even know
what to say to Him.. I am inviting you to look at it from other perspective.

September 10,2023
Everything happened as we had expected. But it wasn't the one that we wanted to hear.
Sometimes I cannot really understand why our superiors tend to insist on what they
think is right and do not give room to understand the context of why people are doing
things.
Yup, I know na since they are our spiritual leaders, they will support all their thoughts
with bible verses and talk about how they decided things before because they always
say na "we've been there already", thus, we have to do what and how they did things
too.
Mejo may rebellious side lang sa heart ko na bakit kailangan biblical ang approach at
hindi man lang nila nakikita yung human needs din namin.. 😢 (is the biblical approach
not suited to human needs?) There's this confusion in my heart na, hindi naman literal
na kailangan iwanan ang pamilya para sumunod kay Lord, pero ganon pa rin thinking
nila.. nagtatalo sa isip ko na, "yes, hindi ko naman talaga pwedeng i-expect sa isang tao
na maintindihan ako/kami. Pero ang hirap lang talaga.. but we hold on to what our
leader said na "Kayo pa rin ang magdedesisyon". How are you going to decide? When
you decide to obey, may you realize its your decision still.

September 9,2023
Today, I am making a big decision about the track I am taking on. I usually do not find
difficulty making decisions when it comes to myself; about what course to take in
college, and in Master's Degree, in my calling or any other matter especially when no
one gets affected. Usually, maraming gustong plans din ang ibang tao para sa akin.
Dati, my parents are hesitant in sending me to Harris, but I insisted on my calling. Nung
mag-take naman ako ng Master's ko, gusto ng mga older Deaconess sa District namin
na mag-take akong Educational Management, but I pursued my calling to take GC.
Mejo matigas siguro ulo ko hehe pero sa mga ganong decisions ko, di ako
nagdadalawang isip, and I am not afraid to pursue it.
But now, someone's a little bit involved in what I plan to do. Though I know that person
full well at di naman sarili niya ang iisipin nya dun, pero nahihiya lang talaga ako sa
kanya.

Honestly po, hindi ko alam kung ang track na patutunguhan ko ay Elder or Deacon..
pero as advised by my DS, i-push ko na daw ang M-Div. At mas okay kung Elder na.

Nung sinagot ko yung calling ko to be a Pastor, I surrendered everything to God. At

hinayaan kong sya ang maglead sa akin. Kaya, tadaaa I am taking my M-Div. at WDS..

But due to a lot of circumstances that I need to consider for my family, mukhang
kailangan ko talagang mag-adjust at magbago ng plans.

Going back to my plans, hmm I can feel that this kind of changes that might happen to
my future is God's way of redirecting me.
Ang galing lang, I never thought this would happen but I know whatever it is I am
planning to do, God will still guide me to His wonderful purpose in my life.

P.S thank you po for this opportunity, since di ako mahilig mag-open ng problema sa
ibang tao, through this, nakakapag-express ako ng sarili ko without hesitation. And
feeling ko gumagaan din pakiramdam ko.. salamat po ☺️Thank you for sharing.

September 8, 2023
We had our class in Christian Education today. It gave us the opportunity to recall our
personal meaning of the church and its strengths and weaknesses in the church. This
made me remember my late former Administrative pastor, Rev. Joel Patio who really
values CE inside the church. I can still remember the effort he made during the time that
he was already suffering from his illness. In order to have statistics, he constructed a
questionnaire to assess the members' understanding of their Christian faith and
participation in the ministry of the church.
He was my 1st pastor on my first and current appointment. My passion to do Christian
Education was also influenced by him.

Since he was in critical condition that time, he wasn't able to tally the results and come
to a conclusion about it. I wonder what would be its result. Actually, I may not have the
statistics that would give us empirical evidence on their current situation but what's clear
to me now is that I know that there is really a need to focus on CE of the church.

I am currently appointed to a small church in Concepcion. I have stayed in the church

ever since I was appointed here. Soak ako sa situation ng members. I became close to
them and I heard their clamors hehe and their thirst in the words of God. I also know
their personal struggles and those that affect their life in the church and in their
community.

I know, napakalaking hamon ang kinakaharap namin or natin sa church. But, I want to
help. I want to be God's channel to fulfill His missions on earth. Marami pa kaming
pwedeng gawin para mas maturuan pa sila at matuto mula kanila.

Hindi ko alam kung gaano pa kabigat yung mga maaring pagdaanan ko in the future
especially that I am not entering to other path- becoming a pastor. But I know and I
believe, God will be with me and He will work on me and through me.

Hmmm opo, mejo mahina yung loob ko, full of doubts and worries kung makakaya ko
ba (mukha lang matapang) hehe, pero I have this strong courage to fulfill what lies
ahead and what God would want me to do. 🥰
Kaya, fighting! 😍

May you learn the art of sorting out thoughts and feelings and have a clearer
perspective and priority

September 7, 2023
I have a lot of things in my mind today. There are still lots of changes on our class
schedules. And one news that really bothers me today is our upcoming face-to-face
classes. I am not worried about the classes itself, of course I'm excited to attend the
class in person 'coz I learn better with the way, but I am worried about leaving my five
kittens. They're coming 2 months old this September 14. Just to give a short
background, within 3 months, my three cats were lost. 😭
The first one, just didn't come back after going out one early morning. Then, when I left
the house for a week for our face-to-face review and board exam proper, I lost another,
my sweetest cat. The mother cat, unfortunately, just suddenly disappeared too. 😔
It was really heartbreaking. So, leaving my five kittens makes me feel afraid of losing
them again. 🥺

Another thing that bothers me is that my husband doesn't also want me to stay at
WDS 💔 We already discussed this matter and I understand him. But I really don't know
what to do now. I'm praying that he will change his mind. What is your God telling you
about your situation?
I know things seem to be unclear yet. But I know, I will get through it too. I'll be able to
fully accept the loss of my precious cats. And I'll be able to deal with my situation in the
seminary.

September 6, 2023

Woooh! It was a tiring yet a meaningful and productive day! Today’s load is full..
We had classes the whole day in M-Div, finalizing requirements from other subjects, lots
of reading preparations and bible study. It also happened that I hosted our Bible Study
today. Immediately after the class, I hurriedly fetched my mother-in-law and other
members to have a ride going to the house. Yup, it was a little bit physically tiring but it
was also fulfilling! 😀 Siguro dahil sanay lang din ako sa ganito karaming loads since we
were at Harris, hehe But actually, this is what I really love to do. For me, I am productive
whenever I do something for my personal growth, and for others.
In our class, unti-unti na akong kinakabahan hehehe I don’t know if I just have
high expectations for myself (just like what other Deaconesses say about me) (I hope
you’ll be able to clarify it soon) or it’s just because I want to give my very best in what I
do. Gusto ko may alam ako and I’m not really satisfied whenever I know that I don’t do
anything to be prepared for something. Anyway, whatever it is, as for me, I am happy
doing these things for His glory.
P.S I’m so excited to learn in our class 😀 And I’m glad that my classmates are not
hesitant in sharing their ideas and experiences. Hihi I’m just excited about the new path I am

taking now and to where God would lead me through this.