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African Masks Final
African Masks Final
I got off stage after belting the blues and Fingers handed me a note. He’s a regular at
the Cantab Lounge, the celebrated local dive bar in Central Square, Cambridge, that
hosts an open jam session on Sunday nights –and he has a few less fingers than the rest
of us. The note said: “You did a great song/I think you did great/all of us/You and
yours/We did appreciate/Keep your pretty voice/If we want to hear you sing again you
Signed,
Fingers
It was sweet, a sweet moment in a room smelling faintly of beer and Pinesoll, lit with
Christmas lights and the baseball game. All of a sudden, a millennial in the crowd
quickly videotaped the notebook page, capturing Fingers’ slurred benevolent writing,
and my face. The whole incident was broadcast into the virtual reality stream. Famous
for a minute, I guessed. Two vodkas under my belt and beginning to melt into
melancholy, I fold Fingers’ note, and stick it into my pocket and leave. The white-
haired over-weight bouncer with his thick black glasses wishes me well. “Anytime, you
Not the satisfied singer, all aglitter with applause, I walked quickly past the
businessman who I’d craftily directed to give the bandleader a five spot to let me sing.
He’d tried to pick me up but I told him I was involved with someone and had to wake
up early the next day. Billie Holiday’s gleaming white magnolia, her sassy smooth
delivery of one of her signature tunes, “Fine and Mellow” – was any of that in the
version which I’d just performed? I wondered as he faded…a figure in a navy suit and
yellow tie leaning against the 7-11, clutching himself in the cold. I proceeded on, past
the big granite post office, and the Medieval looking Episcopal church down Mass Ave.
And took a cab to your room. Your Caribbean blue room enclosed with the night and
to those African masks you hung up all around, sagacious and primitive and sacred—a
juxtaposed with the flag of Oklahoma which is your home state and is light blue like
your eyes
“Lola,” you said, rolling out of bed. “Are you all right?” “My God, it’s like 2 am or
something.’.
“Hey Blondie, I’m here,” I announce, buzzed and sad. I wanted to prowl against your
flat chest in those whole cotton pajamas you sleep in. I wanted a hot desert in a single
bed, just for a few hours, against the cold glow of performance. I wanted those masks
from Ghana to peer into my soul with their painted eye-slits and wooden cheekbone
You held me, still half-asleep, the masks enacting a ceremonial madness to my reverie.
But I couldn’t fall asleep. Did you love me then? Or was I taken in like an exotic
refugee? You said, “Just don’t make a habit of this, Lo. As the moon shone through the
uncurtained window, glinting its white beams, I dreamed about Billie Holiday singing
“All of Me” while the Masks grimaced and everyone by the bar at the Cantab danced in
front of the cash register with the tacky black velvet paintings behind—of a caged