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Clipper murnrured something. Then he turned on his
side and looked at nre with bleary eyes. 'What do you think
'Definitely. And birds.' understand what they're saying, but I'm able to decode
she
'Flowers'l' their body language: he wants to continue sightseeing;
wants to smother hirn in his sleep They cross into
Unter
'Yep. Trees too, and bees.'
the cnd?
'Mmm.'Clipper's eyes drooped shut in pleasant den Linden, still bickering. Was that us' towards
ptrblic?
reverie. Shametessly exposing private tensions in
'And kites. Do you know what a kite is, Clipper?' I l'm the only ore lunching alfresco The tables and
perhaps in the
tumed to him but he was aheady asleep. My gaze shifted to chaiß have been assembled outside the cafö'
hope of igniting sunrmer. The mid-day sky
is unpromising'
the large figure on thc cross, which hung over thc altar. The
woman nailed to the beams, her hands bleeding, her face the colour of three-day old mushroom soup I drain my
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heavy-lboted jogger thuds past' pursued by
his
"...and cvcn as the Red Anrry rvas approaching, the A
to
waiters were still serving dinner in the banqueting hall. It panting chocolate Labrador lt still doesn't take much
was the oDly hotel... Oliver. are you listening?" take me back,
Floyd
lwasn't. Or, at the time, I thought I wasn't. IJut since He'd gone ovcr to borrow a blender from Maureen
last summer, Ray's ramblintss havc been cscaping tiom my and corne back with a German Shepherd'
subconscious like air liom a slow puncture. "He's called Smoky, isn't he gorgeous!" Ray was
struggling to contain the lirrry bundle in his amrs
There
The gusty rvind qarrics angry voiccs ovcr fiont Pariser
was no point in arguing. t knew it wouldn't
be long before
I)latz. Iranian cxilcs arc dcmanding retribution for atrocities
the cralt
committcd againsl their countryrnen. Bencath tricolours the dog -ioined the line of fads: the chcss club'
charged rvith the Shah's lion, they'rc brandishing larger- classes, that bloodY accordion'
than-lili photographs of their dead. In faimess, even after the cub had tumed into a woll''
came back
I took a photograph ol Ray over thcre, two years ago, to Ray was still playing the proud parcnt They
The dog
the day. It's the last one I have of him. his anns embracing one afternoon, atler two hours in Vesey Park'
basket'
one ofthe honey-coloured legs ofthe Brandenburg Gate. drained his water bowl and subsided into his
"lt's not every day you get to hug a national Ray caught rnY raised eYebrow'
was a bit ol camal knowledse denied to sixty-sorrethings'.)" He'd ignored the relnark and headed tbr the kitchen'
But the moment had passed, the photograph remained "l'rn just putting the kettle on"
un-takerr.
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"lt won't suit you. And no biscuits, do you hear? "Apart tiom dance", says Floppy Hair, "Pemilla hates
Raymond!" dance."
The domestic rh)1hms scemed so unrenrarkable. Now, Big Specs nods, "This dressing is very good isn't it")"
when one drops into my head it.s like an archaeological "Honey mustard", says l'loppy Hair' chasing a baby
find. I thought we were growing okl togcther Two old tomato round his plate.
quecns sailing into the sunset,
They have another discussion, this time about
conceptuäl an.
Shrieks of laughter fill rhe air. A hen pany is sexually "lt's sacrificial. isn't it']"
harassing two fäke East German guarcls. On the near corner
"Yes, but it's also a luxury."
olPariser Platz, a guard outside the American embassy I wish Ray was here.
yawns. Abovc him, thc Stars and Stripcs are at half-mast, "l want to bring my art to thc moment", says Ilig
lbllowing another massacre in tlre land ofthe f'tee. Specs," I don't want mercly to take photographs. I want k)
Two young men anive, placing thcir platcs on the table express mysell' photographically.
beside rninc. The tioppy haired onc is bigging-up sorneone ! loppy Hair points his fbrk at him.
called I'emilla. "Pemilla will lovc that. She's very pro that."
"Shc left the Arts Council to head-up the agency here. What t'un we could have had with this.
Shc's very VERY good at what she does." Ray: "I don't want mcrely to drink."
The onc with big, fäshionable, spectacles nods. ..1 can't Me: "No, I want to express myself alcoholically."
wait to work with her."
Thcy spend the next five minutes trying to deline We first met in that place on the Quays. Ray staned chatting
perfbmrance art, finally deciding it's an,,lhing that isn,t me up. When I told him my prot'ession, he'd taken my hand
static. melodramatically and held it against his chesl:
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"So, give me your expert opinion: am I still alive?,, A Floppy Hair is smiling down at me, breathless and
laugh like a sea lion in distrcss.
handsome.
I wasn't sure of him. He was on the plump side, even
"l think you left this," he pants.
then, and had hair like Worzel Gummidge.
I already had my I take the box and call out a thank you to his retreating
eye on the guy in tight trousers behind
the bar. But when a back. Big Specs is giving him the thumbs up. I look down
gang of lads came in to have a laugh
at the queers, Ray and at the box. What was I thinking?
I staned carnping it up: rny.lulian to his Sandy.
Ofcourse, it The queue for Madame Tussaud's isn't too bad. Ahead
ended in a fight, and I had to pay for
the window. The next ofme, three English ladies arc reliving past campaigns.
ntorning, when Iwoke up to his honey_coloured eyes, I
"No, Lillian, this is nothing. We queued for five hours to
knew - as my mother used to say
- therc was no use see the Queen Mother lying in state, didn't we, Jean?"
dancing round life.
Her little sidekick springs to life.
"Ooh, yes, Margaret, that was one olour best days out."
I check the tine. I,ve still another hour I could
stay here, "That's right. God bless the Queen Mum."
but a thuggish wasp is taking an interest
in my letiovers.
I wait at the lights, looking down Wilhelmstrasse.
The I'd been dropping heavy hints about Barcelona. lt was ages
British Iimbassy is there, a shrine to (.ool
Britannia: blond since we'd had a proper break. Visiting the caravan was all
stone and a zesty blackcurrant that I iust know pernilla right, but you couldn't call the odd weekend in Wicklow a
would adore. ln the middle dis(ance. block
upon block ol. holiday: Ray still had to take the dog out for his long walks.
unexceplional apartments occupy the site
ol Hitler,s I had one last go at seducing him with the prospect of hot
Chancellery, "...where the bureaucracy
of genocide was chocolate and chunos at Cafö Opera on Las Ramblas . He'd
enacted," Ray's voice reminds me.
looked up from his 700 page brick on the history ol
The little red man changes to a little green
one. but Cennany.
befbre I can step into the road there,s a hand at
mv elbow. "But what about Smoky?"
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desk is still
And that was that. But then, one aftemoon. solttewhere When I look up, the surly man behind the ticket
betwcen the fall ofNapoleon and the rise of Bismarck, hc'd waiting for a resPonse.
phobgraphy exhibition by an unpronounceable Hungarian. It's fbur years since our fißt visit Gone are Sarkozy
yesterday's men'
And thcn it was the waxworks. and, Pope Bencdict and Lance Anrstrong:
women
"Why do you want to go there?" My l'eet were m melted down and recast as some boy band But the
'Walter Ulbricht," Ray rcponed fron the caption, "Used other peoPle's stories?
to be the head of East Genrrany. IIe said nobody intended to l'm conlionted with a vision of
Oulside the waxworks,
build a wall. Then. he buill the Wall." the apocalrpse. Unter den Linden is in distress Great
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"The Zeughaus was once the imperial armoury and
is
gashes have been ripped into ils heart, uncovering writhing
pipes and twisted tramlines reminiscent of the photographs now the repository for German history'" Ray's running
Diet
Ray showed me of Berlin circa. 1945. Large signs explain commentary talks me through the Germanic tribes' the
that a new U-Bahn line is under construction. Through the of Wonns, the Peace of Westphalia, the Friedrichs' the
din ofindustry Ray's voice reminds me that during the war, Wilhelms, the Friedrich-Wilhelms.
after the zoo took a direct hit, Berliners had woken up to The second floor is devoted to the inhumanity of
crocodiles and snakes crawling through the streets. humanity: war, holocaust, from petty indignities to
unspeakable cruelry I to sit down, placing the box
have
Countess Markievicz and Patrick Pearse without some of Brandenburg Gate. The camera follows the line of Unter
den Linden, and reveals everything as a sprawling
rubble of
the gum rubbing off on you. Even the dog took second
After he sold the house, he colonised my linle flat with Behind me. a female voice breaks the silence'
his books on kings and pogroms and civil wars, and "So, now that we've got the kitchen done l want to
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tratllc island. I'rn looking at it now, and the täce still "l can sit anY'where'}"
people will cheerjust as loudly. Oliver. are you listening?" a word ofGerman?"
"Don't ask me. I'm stupid' rernember?"
here with
Not much has changcd in the cathedral cafd. The reddish "And what about me? Am I supposed to move
Telt me, does Berlin have a suddcn
deficit of retired
walls are now greenish walls, but it's all much ths same as you?
that last surnnrer. Bowie's on the radio, Not,4s&es to Asltcs, nurses who speak not a word of German?"
in silence for a
thank Christ. That woLrld be too weird. t try to bnttonhole a He didn't say an)'thing We'd simmered
young woman swishing past with a tray of used cups. while, then t tumed on him again:
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"Thc cows abroad have longer homs." them when I collide with a man in leathers. hair shaved t<t
I left the fätal volley to (he cnd. complexion is indecently healthy llc thumps his chest.
"And whar about the dog']" "The angina's under control and thc hlood pressure's
Suddenly, the anger on his lhce tunrcd to pain and he down. Still life in thc old dog!"
put a hand to his chest. tle nrgs playfully at my beard. I can't remember when I
last heard myself laughing.
I've tinally sbpped sctting thc table tbr two. After dinncr, "You always said I shottld grow one."
on Friday nights, I go down to that place on the Quays fbr a "Better late than never."
t'ew pints. Sorrrelimes I have a chat with the guy behind thc Ilis smile fades as he looks down at dlc tablc. We lift the
bar He's filled oul a bir now. but hc's still not a bad looker box together, and lor a second we'rc home again, the dog
IIis boytiiend's not bad. eithcr. belween us. He takes the box. lolds his arms around it.
"Poor baby. It broke my hcart to leave you."
l'rn checking ruy watclr rvhcn (hc door opens. I look up, but When he looks up, sadness is spilling liom his eyes
it's just a party ol'Spanish r()urists, loud and chaotic. They "Thank vou for this."
quickly decide the cafb is too small and unpack themselves
back into the street. ['m ge(ing up to close the door behind
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The vet kept telling me there was nothing wrong, but the
suoky coat tumed a sulky grey, and the food was barely
touched. Taking him out was a nightmare. Anyone seeing
Blood Red Oxfords. Size 39
me drag a half-starved, reluctant dog through Vesey park
Emily Cataneo
could have accused me of aniraal cmelty. It was almost
a
reliefwhen I carne dow[ to find he was ro more.
Maryam stumbles off the train and scans Hauptbahnhof for
a place to throw away her shoes.
I look into Ray's eyes. They,ve lost nore oftheir hold over The shoes are blood-red oxfords, size 39, and on the
me. I start to tell hirn I,m so glad we,re back in touch.
but ride that carried her away from her city forever, her feet
he's tuming away from me.
swelled up, the back of her right heel crackling with dried
"Andi, kornm r.cin, sei nicht schüchteml,, FIis German
blood and hard skin ridging up on the bottoms o[her fourth
sounds casy, assured.
toes.
The young man at the door steps forwarcl, pallid an<1 She wants new shoes. She \r'ants them right away. She's
shy. Ray throws a proprietary hand across his shoulcler.
worn these shoes for four days - the shoeman delivered
"Andreas, I want you to meet an old frieud olmine.,,
them to her family's lownhouse the moming she left home.
She spent four nights on a train in these shoes, not sleeping,
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