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Front Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Author’s Note
Part One
One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six
Seven
Eight
Nine
Ten
Eleven
Twelve
Thirteen
Fourteen
Part Two
Fifteen
Sixteen
Seventeen
Eighteen
Nineteen
Twenty
Part Three
Twenty-One
Twenty-Two
Twenty-Three
Twenty-Four
Twenty-Five
Twenty-Six
Twenty-Seven
Twenty-Eight
Twenty-Nine
Thirty
Epilogue
Acknowledgments
Back Cover
For my brother, Daniel
Author’s Note
Dear Reader,
First and foremost, I would like to thank you for picking up After
We Were Stolen; I am so grateful for the opportunity to share this
story with you. In writing this novel, it was my goal to celebrate the
strength of the human spirit and the fortitude needed to break the
cycle of abuse and emerge triumphant.
In order to do that, the characters had to suffer many hardships. I
can tell you honestly, portions of this book were difficult to write,
and I understand they may be difficult to read as well. We are all
dealing with our own personal struggles, and it is not my intention to
cause anyone undue pain or discomfort. That’s why I would like to
be fully transparent about potentially triggering aspects of this novel.
After We Were Stolen is the story of a survivalist cult made up of
adults and children. The narrative contains instances of child abuse
(both physical and emotional), references to sexual assault, stillbirth,
realistic depictions of animals raised on a farm (including
husbandry), suicide, kidnapping, police interaction, and traumatic
death.
Everyone has their own demons to bear, and your comfort level is
paramount to me. I want you to experience this story without fear or
trepidation in your heart, and I hope this information will help you
prepare for the journey.
With love and best wishes, Brooke
Part One
One
He was the only baby I ever saw born, and he died ten minutes
later. We were all there, all the kids, shoulder to shoulder in the
smallest room in the compound. Mother told us the birth would take
hours, and it did: hours spent standing and sweating in the heavy air
just so we could be there the moment the baby emerged in a slick of
watery blood and blue cord. But he didn’t cry—not when he came
out and not when we took turns pounding his tiny back to try and
make him. When it was over, none of us cried either—we just stood
there looking around at the walls and each other. I guess we were all
hoping one of us knew how we were supposed to feel.
My brothers and sisters and I had all tipped half-cooked baby
chicks out of broken shells and watched runty piglets get crushed
under bigger hooves, so it wasn’t like we didn’t know it could
happen. The baby was born okay, but he didn’t get pink like he was
supposed to. He stayed purple and limp, his toes all spread out and
poking through the blanket. To my eyes it looked like living was
terrible, so the minute his painful gasps stopped, the minute his toes
quit bulging, I decided to be a little bit happy for him and a little bit
sad for us.
My father remained the most solid presence in the room, even
when the silence became absolute. Even so, none of us, not even
the little kids, ran to him—not to comfort or be comforted. We knew
better. As the other girls moved to help Mother, he placed the baby
in my arms and told me to take care of it.
I washed him first, dipping his tiny body into the tub of water we’d
been keeping warm. I wiped his face, trying to keep the water away
from his nose and mouth, even though it didn’t matter now. He was
covered in blood and something white and waxy that was hard to
rub away.
When he was clean, I brought the baby to the table we’d padded
with clean towels and wrapped him in a white blanket, tucking his
arms and legs tightly in the cotton. Once he was bundled up, it was
easy to pretend it had all gone okay.
I carried him to the barn next to the garden. Cole went with me.
The baby felt good in my arms, so I held him while Cole grabbed a
hammer and fixed up a box to bury him in. He was smart about it
too—he used the little bed we’d already made for the baby to sleep
in, and all it needed was a top. My job was harder—I forgot to put
gloves on before I started digging and the shovel rubbed my hands
raw, my palms bubbling with blisters.
The shovel refused to sink more than an inch or two into the
sunbaked earth, but I dug until the hole was waist deep. By then it
was nearly dusk. Cole had arranged the baby in the box, and from
my position, they were nothing but black shapes against the setting
sun. I shaded my eyes so I could see them. I asked, “That deep
enough, you think?”
“Yeah. Is anyone else coming?”
“No. You weren’t even supposed to come. Dad told me to do it.”
Cole shrugged and grabbed my hand as my feet scrambled against
the dirt walls. He kept the lid off the box until I was out. “You want
to look at him again?”
I didn’t, but I looked anyway. The baby’s skin was bluish and
mottled, and his nose was dotted with tiny white spots that looked
like pimples. But he already had hair, beautiful dark hair with
matching lashes that rested like feathers on his cheeks—he could
have been sleeping. I kissed the tip of my finger and pressed it to
the baby’s lips before Cole hammered the lid into place.
There were no clocks or calendars at the compound. We kept track
of time by the seasons. It was spring; my nineteenth year, I think,
though I can’t be sure when I started to count. When Mother had
gone into labor, it was still early morning cool, but by the time I was
finished digging, the sun sat low on the horizon. My chest and
shoulders were damp as I stretched out in the dirt next to the hole.
Cole handed me the box, and as I placed it at the bottom, I felt
happy for the baby again. We’d chosen a spot near the vegetable
patch, right next to the path we took to pick corn and lima beans. It
would be a nice place to sleep.
“I wish we had something to mark it with,” Cole said as I patted
the last of the dirt into place.
“We don’t need anything. We’ll remember.” I tucked the shovel
under my arm and examined my palm. Blisters bloomed across my
hands. Our tiny brother was the eleventh baby to come out of that
small, dark room, but he was the first we’d had to bury. We’d all
been born there—I was the second and Cole was the fifth. Cole had
been born en caul, and that’s lucky. He emerged like an egg, fully
cocooned in the watery sac that held him for nine months. My
grandfather was still alive then, and he named him Nicholas because
a caul-bearer meant victory, a sign we were moving in the right
direction. The caul had been dried and buried somewhere in the
middle of our land, like a blessing. A tiny piece of Cole tasked with
protecting all of us.
I thought about that as I looked at my hands; thin, shiny
membranes had bubbled up to shield the wounded skin underneath.
“Don’t break those,” said Cole. He grabbed my wrist to keep me
from working a grimy fingernail into one of the blisters. “You’ll get
an infection. You have to wash them out and put a bandage on.”
“I’ll rinse them before I go to bed.”
“Do you have soap?”
“No.”
“So do it inside.”
“They won’t let me back inside.”
He looked at me for a beat without blinking. “I’ll bring you soap,”
he said, dropping my wrist.
I nodded. If I thought he’d get caught, I’d have said no, but I
knew he wouldn’t. Cole was like water—he could slide around no
matter where you put him.
The light was turning gold as we walked back to the barn, and the
setting sun found every auburn streak in his dark hair. He was quiet.
Normally he never shut up. The silence was nice after such a loud
day, and he seemed so lost in thought that I left him there. It was a
long time before he spoke. “What are you going to do now?”
“I might work in the vegetable rows for a while. The beets are just
about ready to pull. My hands’ll be worse tomorrow.”
“You need to wash them with soap and—”
“You said that already.”
“Oh.” Cole rubbed his eyes. He got headaches often, sharp,
stabbing pains that arrived without warning and settled into a dull
throb that lasted for hours. He opened and closed his mouth a few
times. “Avery?”
“Yeah?”
“Did you know? That the baby was coming today?”
“No, but I knew it would be soon.”
He stopped walking and got in front of me so I had to stop too. I
used to be able to tackle Cole to the ground with one arm, but he
was nearly a full head taller than me now, the skin on his cheeks
just starting to roughen. Over his shoulder, the barn was a splash of
red paint against the sky. “Were you scared?” he asked.
“No way, kiddo, that’s not allowed—”
“No, really,” he said. His eyes locked on mine, tired and dusty like
everything else. “Were you?”
I was going to disappoint him. Really, I wasn’t scared at all, but
Cole wasn’t like me. I’d spent my whole life being hacked and
gouged into a workable chunk while he was carefully sanded into
something much softer. His edges weren’t as rough. “It’s nothing to
be scared of,” I told him.
“It scared me.”
“When he came out?”
“No,” he said, flailing his arms at everything at once and nothing at
all. “It was just—it was just happening, and then he—he died, Avery.
We were all there, and we couldn’t stop it.”
“We tried.”
“But we couldn’t. And we’re supposed to be able to do anything.
We’re supposed to be prepared.”
When he said that, I got it. And I was surprised at the pain that
rose in my throat. I didn’t know who it was for. “But Cole…he—the
baby—it isn’t important,” I told him. “We need to be ready for what
is. This only feels important because it’s happening now, but when
the real time comes, we’ll know what to do. He…” My voice wavered,
and for a moment, my next words were true of all three of us. “He
was weak.”
We walked the rest of the way to the barn in silence, and by the
time we got there, some of the worry had left Cole’s forehead. I
hooked the shovel onto a peg while he laid the hammer in the
toolbox. In the corner of the barn, the heifer, heavy with her first
calf, stood in the hay, looking at me hopefully. I pulled out the
banana I’d hidden in the bib of my dress and fed it to her in two
chunks, patting the top of her head.
“When do you think the calf’ll come?” Cole asked me.
“She’s dry,” I said, smiling into her sad brown eyes. “It’ll be soon.”
“Are you sure?” His forehead wrinkled again. “It’d be awful to lose
a calf.”
“She’ll let me know when it’s time.”
“But you’ve never delivered a baby before.”
I lost my smile and turned so Cole wouldn’t see. I’d never buried
one either. But that was our lives, filled with never-haves. “I’ll figure
it out. I’m going to ask Dad if I can move into the hayloft so I can
keep an eye on her.”
“Okay. I’ll get you some stuff for those blisters. Don’t break them!”
His feet made tracks through the sawdust. I followed them out. He
wouldn’t be back—not with the whole family inside, and I could rinse
my hands off under the pump just as easy. I ran through the barn
doors and back up the path. I could have brought the vegetable
basket with me, but I didn’t because what I said to Cole wasn’t true
—not really. Even if the baby wasn’t a big thing, burying him was still
important—important enough to be my only job for a little while.
The early spring sky had brightened to pink, shining strange light
over the western edge of the woods. To the east it was already dark.
My hands were stiff, caked with dried mud. It was nearing dusk,
still light enough to pull, but I was exhausted, and it hardly mattered
anyway. Harvest season had barely warmed, and the crops were just
moving into their prime. I had months of pulling ahead of me.
I weaved my way slowly through the rows. There were beets
poking out of the ground, their purple skins vying for my attention,
but I didn’t bother with them. I went for carrots instead, working my
fingers into the loose soil at the edge of the field. They were still on
the scrawny side, and the potatoes were worse—the handful I dug
up were barely walnut sized, but I tucked them into my apron
anyway.
The gush from the water pump was a bigger reward. I opened my
mouth to the first freezing wave that tumbled from the lip. It sent a
spike of pain through my forehead, but I didn’t move, letting the
water rinse the sweat and dirt off my face. I primed the pump again
to wash my hands, wincing a little at the sting. The blisters were
deep. I cleaned them out as best I could before I unhooked the
bucket and filled it to the brim.
I walked to the edge of the trees under the dying light until I
reached my tent: sheets of canvas stretched taut across aluminum
poles hammered into the earth. The structure was vaguely house
shaped, with a pitched roof that shooed away falling rain and
funneled it into the buckets set up in each corner. I checked the
buckets out of habit, even though it hadn’t rained in a while. The
weather was traitorous and changeable; you could run through
every season in a single day. By noon the sun was hot enough to
burn, hot enough to erase every trace of winter. But the air was still
thin, and when night fell, spring stood further away. It was always
cold.
When I got to the tent, I set the water on top of a flat rock beside
the canvas door, then I reached inside, groping for my fire-plow: a
long piece of rough-hewn wood with a groove down the middle. My
father and I carved it years ago, gouging our way through a heavy
chunk of bur oak as he preached the benefits of quality tools. My
skin was pebbled with goose bumps, but just trying for a fire would
warm me up, even if the board didn’t work. Fire-plowing was brutal,
and I hated doing it. I could do it—I’d plowed embers into flames in
the pouring rain, but it wasn’t ideal. What was ideal was getting
back to the tent before the sun went down. With sun, all it took was
a magnifying glass and a bundle of dry weeds. Fire-plowing took
forever. It made your hands hurt, and mine already did.
I scooped a panful of water from the bucket and dropped my
carrots and potatoes inside the pan. It was an optimistic gesture. A
few strips of muslin tied around my hands made a decent bandage,
and I kneeled in front of the board and set the spindle in the groove.
Then I pushed. Again and again, long firm strokes, searching for a
spark, a curl of smoke…anything. The sting in my hands turned into
an ache that spread to my wrists and then my arms, stretching
toward my shoulder blades until every muscle froze in refusal to
cooperate. I propped the board against the flat of my legs and
pushed until I felt my skin tear and split. Poppies of blood bloomed
on the makeshift bandages. The spindle fell to the ground.
I pulled the dripping vegetables from the pan and dropped them
into my apron before using the water to rinse the blood off my
hands.
The spindle looked feeble and spent lying in the dirt. I tossed it
back into the tent. No fire. That meant no cooking and no light—no
warning if something wanted to eat me, and there were plenty of
things that lived in the dark. It meant I couldn’t warm my bedding,
or read, even though my books had been read so many times, the
words would come if I needed them. And it wasn’t that cold. I could
see my breath where it met the air, but the trees were still.
I crawled into the tent, tied the door flaps shut, and stripped off
my damp clothes, hanging my dress and shirt from the pitch to dry. I
took off my boots, pulled on my thermals, and wiggled into my
sleeping bag.
The roof of the tent had a plastic window, something I’d put in
myself for the bad nights, nights when the fire didn’t come. I stared
at that tiny patch of sky full of pinprick stars—other suns warming
other places. It was enough to see them. I chewed my way through
the raw carrots, which were pretty good, and then the potatoes,
which were not.
Two hundred yards away, near the footpath to the garden where
the baby slept, stood the compound: three old warehouses that cut
black squares into the horizon. Empty boxes long dismissed by the
people on the outside who didn’t know they held secrets—hidden
rooms and underground tunnels and enough space to keep all the
chosen safe, no matter how the earth stopped spinning.
There weren’t that many of us. Not anymore.
Giant letters loomed above the brick and mortar, their long, skinny
shadows stretching like fingers, the blackened reflection of a single
word: CLOVELITE. I watched the shadows crawl toward me,
covering my tent like a blanket. My parents had kept me out here for
months.
But when the end came, I’d thank them for it. That’s what they
told me. Right before they shoved me outside and locked the door.
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