oTar WilaZe

godori
romani

oTar WilaZe
godori

redaqtori da bolosityvaobis avtori

malxaz xarbedia

teqnikuri momsaxureba
Tamaz CxaiZe

mxatvari
nana WilaZe

garekanze gamoyenebulia detali ieronimus bosxis naxatidan

Otar Chiladze
GODORI

meore gamocema. 2006

oTar WilaZe, 2003

"arete", 2006

Otar Chiladze, 2003

"Arete" 2006

ISBN 99940-54-46-5
 sarCevi

godori
pirveli nawili ......................................................... 7
I .............................................................................. 9
II ........................................................................... 55
III .......................................................................... 93
IV ......................................................................... 117
meore nawili .......................................................... 157
mesame nawili .......................................................... 247
I ........................................................................... 249
II .......................................................................... 287
III ......................................................................... 323

bolosityvaoba
mumlis burusi ....................................................... 353
 pirveli nawili

"da aRdgnen Svilni mama-dedaTa

zeda da mohkvlidnen maT"
maTe /10-20/

I
 roca romis papma piom bizantiidan osmalebis gandevna ganizraxa, ufro
sworad ki, erTxel kidev amaod scada nadirobebs, nadimebsa da turnirebs
gadagebuli evropis gamofxizleba, scada rogorme Seegnebinebina misTvis, Tu
ra Zneli mosarevi gaxdeboda xval da zeg, ramdenjer aatkiebda autkivar
Tavs aziis idumali, SeuRweveli sivrceebidan yvelasaTvis moulodnelad
gamomtyvrali jer kidev Cvili urCxuli, romelsac ukve egemna evropelis
CiCia da siamovnebiT ilokavda sisxlian tuCebs, rasakvirvelia, samoqmedo
gegmac Seadgina winaswar da, pirvel rigSi, saqarTveloSi afrina despani,
vinme ludoviko bolonieli, ramdenadac, aRmosavleTis qristiani
saxelmwifoebidan swored saqarTvelos politikuri da samxedro Tanadgomis
imedi hqonda yvelaze metad, magram Tavisi winamorbedebis, nikoloz mexuTisa
da kalis mesamis msgavsad, imasac kovzi nacarSi Cauvarda, verc dasavleTis
qristiani saxelmwifoebis SeSineba SesZlo, verc aRmosavleTis qristiani
saxelmwifoebis gadmobireba, ufro metic, ludoviko boloniels
saqarTvelo Tavis adgilze aRar dauxvda, anu, is saqarTvelo rainduli
keTilSobilebiTa da meomruli SemarTebiT saxelganTqmuli qveyana
romlis imediTac gamoevlo arc mTlad uxifaTo da sakmaod grZeli gza
(raki bosfori ukve osmalos ekava), faqtiurad, aRar arsebobda, magram
romSi ras ifiqrebdnen, monRolTa oraswliani batonoba samudamod Tu
daSlida da daaqcevda saxelovan, Tavmomwone, laSqarmraval da ymian
qveyanas, Tumca, didad wodebul aleqsandre pirvels, erTi piroba, ucdia
winaparTa saxelisa da gavlenis dabruneba, leSis sunze mocuxcuxebuli
mezoblebic daufrenia da saguSago cixe-koSkebic aRudgenia sazRvrebze,
magram mainc verafers gamxdara monobaSi garyvnilsa da gaqsuebul
sanaTesaosTan colSvilTan, ZmebTan Tu ZmisSvilebTan lamis masTan
erTad rom sxdebodnen taxtze da masTan erTad awerdnen xels nebismier
sigel-gujars... isic amdgara da, berad aRkvecila, miufurTxebia miwieri
cxovrebisTvis, sveticxovlis gverdiT ekvderi auSenebia da, aTanased
monaTluli, iqidan Tu gamoxedavda xolme Tavgzaareul, aRviraxsnil
qveyanas; aRarc coli sdomebia, aRarc Svili; aRarc rZali, aRarc siZe;
etyoba, grZnobda, ra miutevebeli, ra jojoxeTuri danaSauli Caidina
RmerTisa da qveynis winaSe, Tavebi rom ar daayrevina imaT da, etyoba, mzad
iyo, nebismieri tanjviTa da wamebiT moenaniebina Tavisi codva, magram, misda
bedad, male gardaicvala da ludoviko bolonieli rom Camovida
saqarTveloSi, misi memkvidreebi ukve dasanaxavadac ver itandnen erTmaneTs,
ukve mourideblad da garkveuli siamovnebiTac ki, glejdnen da aCanagebdnen
saerTo samSoblos, rogorc svavebi upatrono viris leSs...
 mas mere ingreoda, nadgurdeboda, Tvalsa da xels Sua qreboda winaparTa
sisxliTa da ofliT, xmliTa da wigniT, wviTa da dagviT naSenebi qveyana.
wyals mihqonda nafotiviT, qars mihqonda Tivis bululiviT, ori mefis, oTxi
mTavris, erTi aTabagisa da uTvalavi Tavad-aznauris ukudo ampartavnobas
gadayolili, maT sixarbesa da siverages vergawvdenili... yuriswamRebad
Rrialebda naRara, Rmuoda Rorototo, gminavda buki, gulze skdeboda doli
da diplipito... sofel-sofel, ezo-ezo grovdeboda stambolis monaTa
bazarze gasayidi gogo-biWebi... lagamaqafebuli, kbildakreWili, gagiJebuli
cxenebi avad abrialebdnen biliardis burTisxela Tvalebs... kvaris
WvartliT gamuruli mecixovneebi win da ukan darbodnen qongurebze, ar
icodnen, dRes visTvis gadaesxaT kupri da visTvis mierTmiaT cixis gasaRebi.
didyura grigolasi ar iyos, isinic qveyanas ki ar icavdnen mtrisgan, aramed
avazaks mdevrisgan. magram yvelaferze Zneli swored maTi garCeva iyo,
avazakisa mdevrisgan da mdevrisa avazakisgan, radgan dRevandeli mdevari
xval SeiZleba avazakad movlenodaT da piriqiT. amitom, Tvalze Tvali unda
gamoebaT da yurze yuri ver gaarCevdnen, zedmet Sars gadaeyrebodnen,
gaarCevdnen da, zedmets iSovnidnen da Seirgebdnen kidec. xolo, waldiTa da
fiwliT SeiaraRebuli mdevari, cota xans kidev iyayanebda cixis dagmanul
karTan da, emand, mec ar mimayolon xelso, kudamoZuebuli gabrundeboda
ukan, raTa erTi kargad dafiqrebuliyo, aewon-daewona da, raki Zvelma ar
gaumarTla, axal gzas dasdgomoda, anu, sxvaTa mdevari, sxvaTa sadevari
gamxdariyo Tavad. aRarc mteri arsebobda, aRarc moyvare, yvela erTnairad
mtermoyvare iyo, mterica da moyvarec erTsa da imave dros. dRes mteri,
xval moyvare, anda, piriqiT, mdgomareobisda mixedviT, Sen xar Cemi batoni...
mokled, winaswar aravin araferi icoda. ufro sworad, erCia isic ar
scodnoda, rac icoda. amitom, yvela erTnairad ibrmavebda Tvals, anu,
TvalTmaqcobda, sxvebTanac da sakuTar TavTanac, ris gamoc, kidev ufro
knindebodnen, kidev ufro iryvnebodnen, kidev ufro ixrwnebodnen yvelani,
didian-patarianad, kidev ufro maxinjdebodnen sulian-xorcianad, rogorc
erTmaneTis, iseve sxvaTa TvalSi. "mona RvTisa yma xonTqrisao" amayad
gaiZaxoda oridan erTi mefe, rasakvirvelia, ufro Tavisianebis
dasafrTxobad, vidre xonTqris Sesacdenad. arc meore mefes adga ukeTesi
dRe. erTi xeli iranis SahisTvis gaeSvira, meore rusTxelmwifisTvis, da
erTnairad madlieri iyo orivesi, rames daugdebdnen zed Tu
daafurTxebdnen, radgan mesame xeli ar hqonda, Coxa mainc CamoeqaCa
gaTavxedebuli qveSevrdomisTvis...

mokled, iqamde ver moegnen gons Cveni beddamwvari mefeebi, vidre

qarTveli aleqsandre pirvelis daSlilsa da daqucmacebul qveyanas rusma
aleqsandre pirvelma ar mouyara Tavi imperiis faSvSi, raTa momavalSi
mxolod imperiis ukana xvrelidan movlenoda saqarTvelo qveyanas,
ramdenjerac saWiro iqneboda da, TavisTavad cxadia, ukve sxva nivTierebad
gardaqmnili...

raz-dva-tri-da
Semotrialdi-da,
Tofi xelSi daiWire,
omSi wamodi-da...
 ukve rusul-qarTulad TamaSobdnen jariskacobanas qarTveli bavSvebi.
"gulisficari, aficari zed damekonoso" oxravdnen aRmosavluri rindiT
misavaTebuli qarTveli banovnebi, axals, ucxours danatrebulni, da raki
Jammac dahkra, arc axalma da ucxourma daayovna: ieneral-maiori grafi
gotlib kurt henrix fon totlebeni gamoecxadaT "sakuTari personiT". ra
SeiZleboda yofiliyo ufro axali da ufro ucxouri yarayorumebSi,
movakanebSi, jahanabadebSi gamovlili qveynisTvis?! yoCaRi, yoyoCi, yeyeCi
oficeri aficari imdroindeli qarTuliT. abanos orTqliT
saxegafuebuli da brWyviala epoletebiT mxrebdamSvenebuli, friad
odiozuri pirovneba, saqarTvelosTvis aseve ucxo xilis, frangi
aristokratis, moxalise agresoris de grai de fuas metad zedapiruli da
araseriozuli dakvirvebiT, samudamod Camketavi (ruseTisTvis) darialis
xeobisa, Tavisi siyoyoCiTa da siyeyeCiT, sinamdvileSi ki, samudamod
Semxsneli (saqarTvelosTvis) CrdiloeTis karibWisa, swored siyoyoCisa da
siyeyeCis wyalobiT. rom ityvian, sul saTiTaod aglejina balani patara
kaxs, fridrix didis samagaliTo gmirs, magram ukve siberemoreuls da,
qarTveli aleqsandre pirvelisa ar iyos, ukve Tavfexianad gaxlarTuls
ojaxuri intrigebis qselSi. ase rom, roca qarTvelTa herkulesic miicvala,
mis memkvidres saxeliRa SerCa mefisa. "raRas ucdi, Se mamaZaRloo
uyvirodnen, vin icis, misganve darigebuli da quCaSi gamosuli somxebi
droze gaauqme eg Seni qeciani samefo da SegvaerTe rusebso". isic adga da
SeaerTa. aba, ra eqna, rogor moqceuliyo, roca ase surda bedisweras?!
somxebi bedisweris neba-survils gamoTqvamdnen mxolod. magram, CvenSi rom
vTqvaT, roca Tavad gaqvs gasaxiznad saqme, sxva ar unda Seixizno, xolo, Tu
mainc Seixiznav, yvelafers bedisweras nu daabraleb. xoda, imis mere, ager
ukve orasi welia, funqciadakargul xeobaSi, mdinaresaviT (meore
mdinaresaviT), Seuferxeblad moedineba (pirveli mdinaris sawinaaRmdego
mimarTulebiT), "siyoyoCiTa da siyeyeCiT" miTvisebuli miwebis mtvriT
mundirgadaTeTrebuli aCrdili ieneral-maior graf gotlib kurt henrix
fon totlebenisa; xolo, misi Tanamedrove da Cveni Tanamemamule
mRvdelmTavari dosiTeoz nekreseli, erTmorwmune "mfarvelis" sisastikiTa
da uRmerTobiT SeSlili (gnebavT, gapoetebuli), magram mravalTa da
mravalTa msgavsad, mainc veraferSi ver garkveuli, batis wamaxul frTas
nela, saqmismcodnis sidinjiT awobs samelneSi, Cveulebriv Tixis jamSi,
romelSic mindvris yvavilebis wvenisgan monastruli wesiT damzadebuli
melani asxia, da (werisas rom ar moucurdes), marcxena xelis mtevniTa da
idayviT gakavebul pergamentis qaRaldze, msxvili, acabaca asoebiT gamohyavs:
"ara ars isreT tkbili, viT mamulis siyvarulio"...
 misi mamuli ki, ukve Saragzadaa qceuli: samxreTisa da aRmosavleTis
qveynebTan akavSirebs ruseTis Tvaluwvdenel imperias. raki gza gaCnda,
mgzavrmac ar daayovna. tyuilad xom ar uTqvamT, "Tafli iyos, Torem buzi
baRdadidan Camovao". Camovida kidec. samxedroebs poetebi mohyvnen, poetebs
diplomatebi, diplomatebs vaWrebi, vaWrebs cnobismoyvareni,
cnobismoyvareT fulisa da xifaTebis maZieblebi da erTmaneTs gadaebnen
etlebi, karetebi, oTxTvalebi, tarantasebi Tu drogebi... magram bunebas
yvela erTnairad rodi daujildovebia danaxvis unariT, miT ufro imis
danaxvis unariT, rac TvaliT ar Cans (vTqvaT, sircxvilis grZnoba,
mrisxaneba...), risi danaxvac, mxolod da mxolod, piradad Sens adamianur
Tvisebebsa da monacemebzea damokidebuli. umravlesoba aq Camosvlamde
yurmokruli legendis, Worisa Tu anekdotis tyveobaSi rCeboda bolomde da
arc ainteresebda, ramdenad Seesabameboda simarTles, rac gzadagza,
safosto sadgurebSi, fundukebsa Tu duqnebSi moesmina, ZiriTadad, gvelaZua
meduqneebisa da axali xelisuflebis vireSmaka Cinovnikebisgan. yovel
SemTxvevaSi, arc bavSviviT gabiTurebuli beberi mefis gulSi Caxedva ucdia
vinmes da arc dosiTeoz nekreselis gapoetebisa Tu gagiJebis mizezTa
dadgena. maTTvis aqac ruseTi iyo da aqaur aborigenebsac damtvreuli
rusuliT mimarTavdnen: "sabak, sabak, net kusaio". kacma rom Tqvas, arc
gaemtyunebodaT. aseTi gaxldaT sinamdvile. xolo, istoriuli
kanonzomierebis Sedegi iyo es sinamdvile, erovnuli sibriyvisa Tu
Cveulebrivi Ralatisa, es naklebad ainteresebda rogorc mogzaur poets,
iseve mogzaur diplomats. yvela Tavisi WogritiTa da monokliT
aTvalierebda am axal miwas, "velur mxares", finCxiviT gadabertyils
RmerTis kalTidan da, TbilisSi ganwesebuli safrangeTis konsulis Sevalie
Jak fransua gambas msgavsad, upirveles yovlisa, im saqonels aRnusxavda
Tavis samogzauro dRiurSi, romlis gatanac did mogebas miscemda piradad
masac da mis qveyanasac. mkvdris nivTebisa da tansacmlis ganawileba
saerTod miRebuli wesia civilizebul samyaroSi da cota vinme Tu
ukadrisobs am wesis aRsrulebas. magram, rasakvirvelia, iyvnen gulwrfelad
dainteresebulni da am uiRblo qveynisadmi keTilad ganwyobili mogzaurnic,
romlebsac gulubryvilod swamdaT da cdilobdnen sxvebic daerwmunebinaT,
"qarTveli tomi umSvenieresi rom iyo ara marto aRmosavleTSi, aramed
mTels qveyanazec". xolo, batoni diuma lamis gadmovardniliyo
tarantasidan, imdenad moexibla mTis ferdobze garinduli, kombals
dabjenili da CoxaSemofleTili mwyemsis "RvTaebriv garegnobas", romelsac
"dagvianeboda olimpze asvla" da Tavis mwyemsur fiqrebSi danTqmuli, vin
icis, verc amCnevda, sadRac, qvemoT, mis ferxTiT, xoWoebiviT gadabmul da
Savad mbzinav tarantasebs, etlebs, karetebs, oTxTvalebsa Tu drogebs...
 mwyemsi cota mwyralad gaxldaT WkuasTan, bevri araferi gaegeboda am
qveynisa, magram mainc afrTxobda da aSinebda mis samSobloSi SemoWrili
axali cxovreba, ufro sworad, ukve sakuTar kiserze ewvnia misi simZimeca
da simwarec, magram, sabednierod, bunebas uxvad daejildovebina
warmosaxvis, gardasaxvis, mibaZvisa Tu mimsgavsebis unariT da, avad Tu
kargad, amiT iqcevda Tavs. xan kaWkaWiviT Cxaoda, xan mgeliviT ymuoda, xan
ZroxasaviT zmuoda, xan arwiviviT yaSyaSebda... mokled, rad aRar
warmoidgenda Tavs, oRond, droebiT mainc daeviwyebina mTavari sadardeli.
sadardeli ki namdvilad hqonda. misi varaudiT, vidre Tavad Zroxebs
mwyemsavda da Rrublebs iTvlida caSi, mis cols, maincdamainc, maT
sofelTan gamarTuli saguSagos ufrosi, grZelulvaSa da kisermokle
"uradniki" daudioda. marTalia, jerjerobiT, es mxolod misi varaudi iyo,
magram, rac dro gadioda, miT ufro meti sababi eZleoda, varaudi eWvad, eWvi
ki simarTled CaeTvala. Tumca, colma yovelTvis Sors daiWira Tavi, ras
ambob, CemTan vis ra xeli aqvso; "uradniks" ki, saerTod ver ubedavda
dalaparakebas, ara marto eSinoda, rcxvenoda kidec, ena rom ar gaegeboda
misi. rasakvirvelia, mSvenivrad icoda, Tu ra unda miego sindis-namusis
SembRalavisTvis, magram, codva gamxelili sjobs, saamiso weli aRar
mosdevda. odesRac iaraRiT Tavmomwone qarTveloba ukve karga xnis win
ganeiaraRebinaT, ris gamoc, ara marto damcxraliyo, dajabanebuliyo kidec.
sxvaTaSoris, maT sofelSi swored "uradnikma" Camoiara kardakar, ramdenime
maRalqudiani saldaTis TanxlebiT, da Tuki sadme filTa Tofs, Jangian
xmalsa Tu pirCamtvreul xanjals miagno, fiCxiviT, amoRliavebuli gamozida
SiSisagan xmaCakmendil qoxebidan. elgujebi da maTiebi ukve yovel diliT,
binidan gamosvlamde, mxurvaled evedrebodnen stefanwmindis
mTavarangelozs, "gvixsen rusis Sarisgano". magram vin gadarCenia rusis
Sars, isini rom gadarCenodnen. samwyesuridan mobrunebul Wkuasust mwyemss
xan "uradnikis" yabalaxi xvdeboda taxtze migdebuli, xan TmaaCeCili da
xorcebdalilavebuli coli da, mTis ferdobze garinduli, kombals
dayrdnobili, marto imasRa fiqrobda, ra eRona, rogor moqceuliyo,
Tavfexianad gaxveuliyo Sig (SarSi), Tu vidre SeeZleboda, kvlavac
damalvoda aq, ZroxebSi, fiqrebsa da warmodgenebSi... jerjerobiT, emaleboda
da misi susti WkuiT, amiT kidev ufro aTavxedebda colsac da mis
sayvarelsac. "uradnikis" yabalaxis wasaRebad gamogzavnili saldaTi
tlanqad, daudevrad Semoexeteboda xolme mis fiqrebSi, arc salams ityoda,
arc moubodiSebda dabneulobisgan gulaforiaqebul maspinZels, utifrad
Sescinebda saxeSi, ufro sworad, yviTelsa da nafota kbilebs daukreWda,
TiTqos gangeb, kidev ufro dasafrTxobad, kidev ufro gasaRizianeblad, da
maRal qudze xeldadebuli da welSi odnav moxrili gadioda fiqridan, ra
Tqma unda, "uradnikis" yabalaxianad. coli ki (fiqrSic), erTsa da imaves
imeorebda sul: "buntis kacs" eZebdnen da Cveni qoxic rom gaCxrikes, albaT
maSin dauvarda yabalaxi im Sens "uradnikso". mTlad rom ar gadamcdariyo
Wkuidan, warmodgenebSi gadaWrili, viTom, rusTxelmwifesTan midioda
saCivlelad, kidev ufro gasacodavebuli (rasakvirvelia, rusTxelmwifeze
STabeWdilebis mosaxdenad) da misi sacodaobiT gulaCuyebuli da, amave
dros, "uradnikze" ganrisxebuli rusTxelmwife, viTom, cecxlebs yrida
Tvalebidan, rogor gabeda im kruxis palom Cemi erTguli moxeves
ganawyenebao, da viTom, misi kacebi ukanve, Tavis samSobloSi miaTrevdnen
yelze TokSebmul "uradniks", xolo moxeveebis namdvili gulSematkivari da
erTaderTi qomagi, romelic, samwuxarod, didi xnis mkvdari iyo ukve,
simarTlis gamarjvebiT gaxarebuli da sixarulisgan mkvdreTiT aRmsdgari,
viTom, lekurs uvlida gulgril, uintereso, arafrismcodne Zroxebs Soris
da mzeze abrWyvialebul xanjlebs zedized asobda "scenis" dampal iatakze,
ris Semdegac, yovelive amis warmomdgeneli da gamTamaSebeli Wkuasusti
mwyemsi didxans egdo xolme gulaRma balaxebSi, jer kidev orTqlian funis
"nazuqebSi", da ara marto daRlilobisgan, aramed bednierebis
SegrZnebisganac, gamalebiT aud-Caudioda mkerdi, vidre damSviddeboda,
daisvenebda, "rolidan" gamovidoda da kvlavac Coxagamomwvar mwyemsad
gardaqmnili, daubrundeboda misTvis esoden saZulvel sinamdviles. sxva gza
mainc ar arsebobda da isic iZulebuli xdeboda, isev sicrue emjobinebina
simarTlisTvis. Tumca, roca usmenda, sjeroda kidec colisa; imdenad hqonda
Zval-rbilSi "Zveli adaT-wesebi" gamjdari, verc warmoedgina, ase
usircxvilod Tu SeeZlo ecrua adamians, gindac dedakacs... magram arc isaa
gamoricxuli, Segnebulad rom isulelebda Tavs. Tavis mosulelebac
erTgvari saxeobaa brZolisa, miT ufro, roca sxva aRaraferi SegiZlia. misi
samSoblos msgavsad, ise daedamblavebina moyvrad mosuli mtris siverages,
gaxedvac aRar undoda misken, TiTqos, Tu ar dainaxavda, isic TavisTavad
gaqreboda. yovel SemTxvevaSi, vidre ar "ecodineboda", ra ubedureba
trialebda mis Tavs, verc colis dasjas moTxovda vinme da verc sakuTari
Rirsebis dacvas, Torem, saamisod, rasakvirvelia, is xistariani danac
ikmarebda, xSiri lesvisgan galeuli, sales qvasTan erTad rom ekida
qamarze. magram, etyoba, marTla Tavisi dro aqvs yvelafers arc adre
varga da arc gvian dahkravs Jami da mTeli Seni arsebiT igrZnob (ginda
Wkuasusti iyavi da ginda WkuiT gatenili), amisTvis xar saerTod gaCenili
amqveyanaze, es gevaleba, es aris Seni erTaderTi movaleoba, rac SeiZleba
magrad CabRujo danis tari, rac SeiZleba Ronivrad daawve, rac SeiZleba
Rrmad SeaRwio, danis meSveobiT, saZulveli adamianis arsebaSi, danis wveriT
miswvde mis mTavar suls da netarebiT igrZno, rogor SemogaSxefebs pirRia
Wriloba cxelsa da alisfer sisxls, rogor dagsvris im sisxliT
Tavfexianad... magram iqamde, vidre amis droc movidoda, cocxlad
eWmevineboda amazrzenad avxorcul Cvenebebs da yvelaze metad mainc imis
warmodgena zaravda, misi ori wlis Svilic rom uyurebda am sibinZures, am
sibinZureSi izrdeboda Tavidanve, gaCenis dRidan... "xeli rom ar SeuSalos,
albaT godorSi svams dedamisio" fiqrobda sinamdvileSi dabrunebuli,
kombals dabjenili, garinduli, olimpodan gamoZevebuli RmerTiviT. xolo,
misi naSieri (Tuki misi naSieri iyo) mSvenivrad grZnobda Tavs godorSi da,
rogorc TviTonve amtkicebda mere, ukve veterani, gansakuTrebiT ki,
Rvinonaylapi, yovelTvis didi interesiT uTvalTvalebda dedisa da misi
sayvarlis alerss godris WuWrutanebidan da, misda uneburad, ubzikdeboda
kidec...
 mezoblebi rom Semocvivdnen Wkuasusti mwyemsis qoxSi, is jer kidev
cocxali iyo. koWebamde idga adamianis sisxli. yovel SemTxvevaSi, aqa-iqaRa
moCanda miwis oRroCoRro iataki. misi coli karTan egdo, pirqve, Tumca, ise
daesaxiCrebina uTvalav Wrilobas, mainc gagiWirdebodaT cnoba. win
gawvdili xelebiT, ratomRac, "uradnikis" yabalaxi CaebRuja: an gaqceulma
"uradnikma" Seatova, an mkvdarmac ar dauTmo qmars, rogorc misi kaiqalobis
mamxilebeli sabuTi. Wkuasust mwyemss muceli gamoefatra, samuraiviT, da
sakuTar SiganSi ijda, zurgiT kedels miyrdnobili. Sigans alag lurjad,
alag mwvaned gadahkravda lorwovani sinaTle, ibuSteboda, italReboda da
uxsenebeliviT, irgvliv uvlida patrons. bavSvi godorSi fxakunobda.
nanaxiTa da gancdiliT aRgznebuli, xan erTi WuWrutanidan gamoaSuqebda
foladisfrad aelvebul Tvals, xan meoredan. Wkuasustma mwyemsma sisxliani
dana godrisken gaiSvira da Zlivsgasagonad Tqva: "im biWis mokvla
damaviwyda da Tqven mokaliT, madlia, magisgan kaci mainc aRar gamovao".
mezoblebs, rasakvirvelia, biWi ar mouklavT da verc moklavdnen, gindac
guliT sdomebodaT imis sikvdili. ruseTis imperiis ukana xvrelidan male
saqarTvelos axali saxeoba unda dabadebuliyo da is biWic im
saqarTvelosTvis yavda gankuTvnili gangebas. im saqarTveloSi unda
gamoeCina godorSi SeZenili midrekilebebi. tyuilad eSinoda sisxlSi
mcuravi mSoblebisac da misi sacodaobiT aviSviSebuli mezoblebisac.
drois pirmSo gaxldaT, Tanac gamorCeuli, iolad veravin xelyofda mis
sicocxles. piriqiT, mas unda daedo saTave sruliad axali modgmisTvis,
romelic TviTonve Tu amoWamda sakuTar Tavs, Torem sxva araviTari Zala ar
moiZebneboda bunebaSi misi momrevi. yovel SemTxvevaSi, godris kacs
raJden kaSels rogorc momavalSi moixsenieboda mis saxelze gacemul
nebismier sabuTSi arc im wuTas da arc axlo momavalSi araviTari
safrTxe ar emuqreboda. jer Tavad ruseTs unda damuqreboda safrTxe, anu,
erTxel kidev unda moemkvdarunebina Tavi, suleli msoflios
gasabriyveblad, raTa ufro Zlieri da Seupovari aRmsdgariyo "mkvdreTiT".
iqamde, erTmaneTs unda dareodnen partiebad dayofili, magram Tanamoazre
da Tanamesangre fanatikosebi da SinaomSi gaerkviaT, romeli maTgani
moaxerxebda Zveli, imperiuli miznebisa da zraxvebis ukeT SeniRbvasac da
SeniRbulis ukeT aRsrulebasac momavalSi. "aris aseTi partiao"
daiyvirebda lenini SeTqmulTa erT-erT morig Tavyrilobaze da momavali
saqarTvelos bedic TavisTavad gadawydeboda. aqac maSinve momravldebodnen
da afutfutdebodnen social-demokratebi, igive bolSevikebi da igive
menSevikebi, da qarTvelTa gadamrCeneli noec maSinve moimarjvebda
SalaSinsa da xeleCos, viTom, axali kidobnis Sesakowiweblad, sinamdvileSi
ki, istoriis CayviTlebul foliantebze saqarTvelos danatovari nebismieri
kvalis mosaspobad. pirvel rigSi, ilia WavWavaZes daeZgereboda, moCxubari
mamaliviT, da uwindeli saqarTvelos neStis Zlivs mogrovil nawilebs
daayrevinebda xelidan, viTom, me ufro mekuTvnis, me ufro mexerxeba ConCxis
awyoba da ybadaRebuli bibliis mixedviTac, qveyanas jer noe unda
moevlinos da mere vnaxoT, dagvWirdeba Tu ara saerTod ilia
winaswarmetyvelio. ase rom, yvelafers ajobebda, droulad amoeyvanaT
bavSvi godridan Wkuasusti mwyemsis mezoblebs, magram marto im dRes ki ara,
saerTod ver SesZles iqidan misi amoyvana niangis wiwiliviT ebRauWeboda
godris gamxmar kedlebs jer kidev ToTo klanWebiT da umal mokvdeboda,
vidre daTmobda Tavis yvelaze saimedo TavSesafars, romelmac erTxel ukve
gadaarCina mamis xeliT sikvdils. bolos, raki verc muqaram gaWra da verc
dayvavebam, godrianad waiyvana Sin vinme kesariam, bedisgan daCagrulma da
uSvilZirod gadagebulma qalma, TviTnakeTi TojiniT rom TamaSobda
dedobanas aqamde, qmrisuCumra. sulo codvilo da, Wkuasusti mwyemsis qoxSi
datrialebuli ubedureba, gulis siRrmeSi, gauxarda kidec erTbaSad
daoblebuli da galokili TiTiviT cariel-tariela bavSvi RvTis wyalobad
CaTvala ratomRac, im mxurvale, im gaunelebeli locva-vedrebisTvis,
uromlisodac lukmas ar Caidebda pirSi da Tavs ar dadebda baliSze.
viSviloTo, Seexvewa qmars da qmarmac ver uTxra uari, Seecoda
dedobaganucdeli meuRle, Tumca, meuRlisgan gansxvavebiT, naklebad
axarebda es ambavi. piriqiT, guli cuds ugrZnobda, vaiTu, TavSi sacemad
gamixados saqme mkvleli mamisa da unamuso dedis naSiermao... marTalic
aRmoCnda. magram kesariam, avad Tu kargad, mainc moaswro Tavisi yvelaze
sanukvari ocnebis aRsruleba, deduri mzrunvelobis gamovlena. rogorc ki
marto darCnen, qmars morcxvad gauRima, sakinZe swrafad Seixsna, godors
gadaemxo da ukve sakmaod moboSebuli, lurji ZarRvebiT daserili ZuZu
gaubedavad SesTavaza Svilobils. Svilobili ki, gaSmagebuli daewafa
dedobilis "mokrZalebul ZRvens", an kesariam da an misma qmarma ra icoda,
Torem, zustad ise, rogorc grZelulvaSa da kisermokle "uradniki"
ewafeboda xolme dedamisis ZuZus. gaSmagebuli kbenda, loRnida, wuwnida da
Tan orive xeliT zelda, comiviT. "amas deda ki ara, qali sdomebiao"
calybad gaixumra kesarias qmarma. cota ar iyos, Semcbarma kesariam
gulgareT gaicina, magram sicilzec Seetyo, ase fiqrobda TviTonac...

bunebam rom Tavisi gaitana da kesarias napatieb-naloliavebi raJden

kaSeli godorSi veRar daetia, ufro sworad, godorma rom veRar gauZlo,
veRar Seakava misi swrafadmzardi, ferxorciTa da dauxarjavi energiiT
savse sxeuli da zed Semoemsxvra, isic, ganTavisuflebisTanave, dedobils
eca da sacodavi kesaria Zlivs gamoglijes xelidan wivil-kivilze
movardnilma mezoblebma. zogi Tavsafarmobrecilsa da sakinZSemofleTil
kesarias abrunebda, zogi kesarias qmars akavebda da zogi sarebiT begvavda
soflis cxvirmouxocav aSiks. kesarias qmris rcxvenoda da imitom ar
axelda Tvals; kesarias qmari moZaladis mosaklavad ki ar iwevda, imaT
gaCerebas cdilobda, sarebiT rom cemdnen moZalades. mokled, iseTi yayani
da Rrianceli idga irgvliv, verafers agebinebdnen erTmaneTs, magram, ase
iyo Tu ise, im dRis mere raJden kaSeli aRaravis unaxavs. naWuWiviT moiSora
Tu ara godris narCenebi, maSinve cxovrebis mRvrie morevSi STainTqa da
aRarasodes dabrunebula mSobliur sofelSi, Tu ar CavTvliT TabaSiris
biusts, madlierma xelisuflebam rom daudga sikvdilis Semdeg, daaxloebiT
im adgilas, sadac Wkuasusti mwyemsis qoxi idga odesRac, ufro zustad
godori erTaderTi mSobliuri saxli, erTaderTi mSobliuri garemo
raJden kaSelisTvis, Tuki, rasakvirvelia, saerTod gaaCnda amgvari grZnoba,
Tundac, godris mimarT. Tumca, rogorc TviTonve ambobda, arasodes araferi
monatrebia ise, rogorc godorSi gatarebuli dro. sxvaTaSoris,
maincdamainc, arc is mousaklisebia sofelSi vinmes. egaa rom, kesariam
samudamod dakarga simSvide. gaCenis dResac wyevlida da dedobis momgonsac.
misi suniTa da siTboTi gaJRenTili Tojina, romelsac cocxali ufro
eTqmoda, vidre saTamaSo, cecxlSi Caagdo da dawva. magram veraferi
mouxerxa sazarel Cvenebebs. Rame ise ar gaivlida, erTxel mainc ar
wamomjdariyo sawolSi, cota ar iyos, mosayoladac saTakilo sizmriT
damfrTxali da aforiaqebuli. "miSvele, momaSore, aRar SemiZlia metio"
evedreboda, xelebs ukocnida qmars, magram qmari rogor uSvelida, roca
arc TviTon iyo ukeTes dReSi: amao qadiliTa da kbilTa fuWi RrWialiT
kidev ufro biTurdeboda, kidev ufro knindeboda, beCavdeboda da iZulebiTi
nebayoflobiT Sescqeroda colis ganuwyvetel, gauTavebel gaupatiurebas...
 xolo, misi colis maradiuli moZalade dRiTidRe izrdeboda,
iwrToboda, iwafeboda axali cxovrebisTvis: jer mawanwalobda, mere
qurdbacacobda, mere TaRliTobda, mere ki, aSkarad yaCaRobda xan
Saragzaze Zarcvavda xalxs, xan Sin uvardeboda arc SiSis grZnoba
hqonda, arc sibralulis; arc RmerTs agdebda ramed, arc kanons.
ramdenjerme daiWires, daWres kidec, magram verc tyvia aCerebda, verc
borkili. natyviars nerwyviT iSuSebda, nadiriviT, borkils xmeli
bublikiviT amtvrevda da isev Tavisas agrZelebda, nTqavda da aCanagebda
yvelafers, rac gzaze xvdeboda, rasac kbili moekideboda da brmad,
alalbedze mixoxavda sakuTari simdablis mwvervalisken. rasakvirvelia,
droc yvelanairad uwyobda xels, yovel nabijze uqmnida Sesafer garemos,
axali da axali SesaZleblobebis gamosavlenad. isic avlenda. erT xelSi
mauzeri eWira, meoreSi aryis "Stofi" da simTvralisgan TvalmoWutuli,
daumizneblad esroda yvelafers, rac moZraobda, rasac sicocxlis
niSanwyali kidev SerCenoda. erT dRes rom darbeuli ojaxis diasaxliss
aupatiurebda ojaxis sxva wevrebis Tvalwin, meore dRes iseve eqceoda
ojaxis mamasaxlissac... bolos ise gaiTqva saxeli, Tavisi SeupovrobiTa da
daundoblobiT, social-demokratebma daiamxanages da ramdenime seriozul
partiul RonisZiebaSic miaRebines monawileoba, ra Tqma unda, axla ukve
"Zmobis, erTobisa da Tanasworobis" saxeliT. ilia WavWavaZis savaraudo
mkvlelebidan, erT-erTs imasac asaxelebdnen, magram partiulma amxanagebma
droulad gadaxvewes ruseTSi, sadac internacionaluri ojaxi Seqmna,
massaviT upatrono da massaviT TavzexelaRebuli kazaki qali SeirTo
colad da ocdaerTis Tebervlamde aRarc gamouxedavs aqeT. es is droa,
roca ruseTis Tvaluwvdenel tramalebze sikvdilis qari qris da cecxlis
kevri trialebs: 917-Si revolucia moxda, anu, mefe gadadga, muSa aRsdga,
rasac Sedegad muSis gamxeceba da mefis ojaxis amoxocva mohyva. aman
ruseTis imperiis droebiTi, moCvenebiTi, ase vTqvaT, taqtikuri daSla
gamoiwvia da saqarTvelos kidev erTi, magram amjerad, marTlac
gansakuTrebuli saxeobis dabadeba ganapiroba. guberniebad dayofili
saqarTvelo demokratiul respublikad gamocxadda, xolo, qarTvelTa noe
premier-ministris savarZelSi Caesvena...
 magram, vidre premier-ministris savarZelSi Caesveneboda, bevri eldisa da
SiSis gadatana mouwia mSobliur lanCxuTSi, mamiseul saxlSi gamoketils
da trifoliatis maRali RobiT TiTqos samudamod gamoyofils
garesamyarodan. mtkiced hqonda gadawyvetili, samudamod aeRo xeli
politikosobaze da memuarebis weras Sesdgomoda, Tuki kremli ndobas ar
gamoucxadebda, Sidapartiuli wakinklavebis gamo, da federalistebs, anda
sulac "edepes" Caugdebda xelSi droebiT moSorebul teritorias, gnebavT,
jer kidev cariel sivrces, sadac, mxolod da mxolod, social-demokratiis
mtkice xeliT SeiZleboda moxazuliyo momavali saqarTvelos konturebi.
misi meuRle "sedloTi" seirnobda lanCxuTis SemogarenSi, mamamTilis
mamulSi (xandaxan, urekamdec Cadioda, zRvis haeris CasasunTqad) da bednieri
iyo, gansakuTrebiT misi cxenosnobiT rom trabaxobda adgilobrivi glexoba.
misi qmari ki, eklebze ijda da daSifrul depeSas elodeboda Tbilisidan.
depeSamac ar daayovna, sul axlaxans mourbenina Tavad fostis gamgem. "romi
keisris molodinSiao" ewera depeSaSi. keisari ki, TviTonaa. is depeSa,
ukve aTasjer wakiTxuli, win udevs mamiseul masiur sawer magidaze da
mamiseul masiur, maRalzurgian savarZelSi Camjdari, jer isev sasiamovno
mRelvarebiT imeorebs gunebaSi: "me keisari var". erTaderTi grZnoba,
romelic uSecdomod SeuZlia gamoacalkevos sxva grZnobebisgan da, amave
dros, sakuTari saxeliTac moixsenios, mainc gaocebis grZnobaa. Tumca, kacma
rom Tqvas, saocari araferi xdeba. mimdinareobs imperiis saukunovani
eqskrementis eqstremaluri eqspertiza, rac savsebiT Cveulebrivi ambavia,
aucilebeli proceduraa, raTa momavlisTvisac gaviTvaliswinoT, Tu ra
saxis sakvebs inelebs iolad da SedarebiT ra saxis sakvebis moneleba uWirs
imperiis kuWs. zogierTi afrikuli tomi ramdenjerme Wams erTjerad
saWmels, vidre mTlianad ar gamoaclis, rac ki ram sasargebloa Sig. asea
imperiac. Tu ginda, rom Zlieri iyo, sakuTari ZRneris Wamac unda SegeZlos.
SeuZlia kidec. Cvenc yovelmxriv mivexmarebiT, Cvenc davumtkicebT Cveni
mxridan, arCevani rom ar SeSlia. "kacma arcerTi saqme ar unda iTakilos da
rasac xels mokidebs, unda gaakeTos kideco" ambobda xolme mamamisi,
imitom rom, Tavad iyo aseTi, arafers Takilobda da yvelafers sxvebze ukeT
akeTebda. ubralo glexi, memamule gaxda bolos. lanCxuTSi meores ar udgas
imaTnairi saxli, myarad naSeni da lamazad moxaratebuli. mama yovelTvis
misabaZi magaliTi iyo misTvis, Tavisi SromismoyvareobiT, daudgromlobiT,
SeupovrobiT... erTaderTi survili hqonda mxolod, TviTonac mamasaviT
saxelovani da dafasebuli kaci gamosuliyo, yvelas scnoboda, yvelas
Tvali gaeyolebina quCaSi... marTalia, politikuri mrwamsis gamo, swored
mamas daupirispirda mamamisi memamule gaxldaT, TviTon ki, saerTod
uaryo mamuli magram es srulebiTac ar uSlida da arc axla uSlis
xels, pativi sces mamis Rirsebebs, miagos keisars keisrisa, miT ufro dRes,
roca ukve TviTon aris keisari da roca mamamisi aRar aris cocxali.
gaanaTlos ufalma, Tuki arsebobs ufali, Tuki rame arsebobs imqveyniuri.
mamamiss swamda. mamamiss RmerTis wamda da ar esmoda Svilisa. magram Svili
kargi cxovrebis winaaRmdegi ki ar aris saerTod, rogorc mamas egona
araviTar SemTxvevaSi! sxva Tu araferi, misi coli erT dRes ver gaZlebs,
"sedloTi" Tu ar gaiseirna haerze misi Svili mxolod socialuri
Tanasworobis momxrea, rogorc WeSmariti marqsisti, da rogorc ki Seudgeba
Tavisi axali movaleobis aRsrulebas, pirvel rigSi, im Tqvens mowonebul
qarTvel glexs ar Seayofinebs cxvirs sakuTar venaxSi. sjobs yunwze
daulpes mosavali, vidre saWiroze meti moiwios. sxvanairad ar gaswordeba
ZaRlis kudi. ar damkvidrdeba Tanasworoba. amitomac etira deda "edepes"...
kremli social-demokratebs endo da sworedac moiqca. rogori saqarTveloc
ruseTs unda, iseTi unda msofliosac, upirveles yovlisa, erovnuli
kompleqsebidan Tavisufali. gaaWires saqme, marTla da marTla. aRarc mefe
hyavT, aRarc miwa-wyali aqvT, aRarc TavianTi ena axsovT da mainc
qarTveloben, mainc patriotebi arian ararsebuli qveynisa. magram
Rormucela debilebisa da gesliani qvrivebis saqarTvelo aRar aris,
damTavrda. es ver Seagnebina Tavis oponents, didgula vaJbatons, romelic
marto kartSi wagebuli fulebiT miuyvanda wyals Tavis glexobas, marTla
rom yvareboda samSoblo, gamogonili da warmodgenili ki ara, namdvilad
arsebuli. visac marTla sjera, erT dRes mainc rom gasZlebs saqarTvelo
uruseTod, is, pirvel rigSi, saqarTvelos mteria, ginda poeti iyos, ginda
bankiri. amas imitom ki ar ambobs, aseTi pativi rom dasdes dRes
mSvenivrad icis, ra Zviri jdeba xolme amgvari pativi amas imitom ambobs,
sxvebze ukeT rom erkveva politikaSi. magram jer adamiania da mere
politikosi. erTi dRis keisroba urCevnia, mTeli sicocxle (raRa darCa?!)
keisrobaze ocnebas. da ai, asrulda! rac SemTxveviTi da moulodneli
SeiZleba mogeCvenos cxovrebaSi, is istoriuli kanonzomierebis Sedegia.
Tqvens winaSea axali (sruliad axali da ara ganaxlebuli) saqarTvelos
pirveli premier-ministri da, obieqturebi Tu viqnebiT, marto kremlis
wyalobiT ki ara, TviTonac daimsaxura, yvela gamocdas gauZlo, yvela
xvrelSi gaZvra, yvela wylidan mSrali amovida, roca sxvebi, masaviT erTi
dRis keisrobaze meocnebeni, an cixeebSi Calpnen an yaCaRebiviT CaZaRldnen
Saragzebze... es ki, mxolod axla iwyebs cxovrebas (mis asakSi!), xvalidanve,
TbilisSi CasvlisTanave... ramden xans gastans es "cxovreba", Zneli
saTqmelia, magram dResaviT naTelia, rogor damTavrdeba... magram rogorc ar
unda damTavrdes, es mainc premier-ministrad darCeba yovelTvis, mamiseul
savarZelSi ijdeba ase gabRenZili, Tu ufro seriozuli qveynebis premier-
ministrebis mosacdelebSi mouwevs yuryuti; mamamisiviT, isic "Sin", am ezoSi
daimarxeba, Tu trial mindorSi gauTxris saflavs Savi yorani. mTavari
kacobriobis naTeli momavalia da ara erTi kacis keTildReoba, vinc ar
unda iyos is "erTi kaci", momakvdavi, degradirebuli klasis
warmomadgeneli, Tu axalSobili qveynis premier-ministri. Cveni
egreTwodebuli "ganmanaTleblebi" piriqiT fiqrobdnen da xalxsac uaresad
urevdnen Tavgzas. samSoblos siyvaruliT yvelafris gamarTleba, ara marto
usvindisobaa, CamorCenilobacaa ukve. "samSoblo, dedis ZuZui", eto vzdor!
vzdor! da kidev erTxel vzdor! samSoblos siyvaruliT gaaCanages Cvenma
mefeebma TavianTi samflobelo. ucxom ki, Segvibrala, Cveni Txovna yurad
iRo, gulTan miitana da Segvikedla, dagvapura, tili mogvaSora... sapnisa da
dana-Canglis xmareba gvaswavla... TurqeTic gadaikida Cvens gamo da iranic...
ar davufasoT? arc davinaxoT? Cveni Tavi Cvenad unda gveyudneso... roca
gveyudnoda, ratom avutalaxeT kari, ariqa, miSvele, ariqa, modi da Sen
imefeo... iqneb, ase ar iyo? iqneb, esec social-demokratebis mogonilia? Cvens
enaze unda vwiroT da Cvens enaze unda vigaloboTo... roca wiravdnen,
Seismina ufalma? roca galobdnen, gaugoT vinmem? drom ukeT icis, ra
moiklos da ra miimatos. ra daWirdeba gzaSi da ra SeuSlis xels
siarulSi... SevignoT erTxel da samudamod. ai, magaliTad, Cemi meuRle...
viRaceebis TvalsazrisiT, isic ucxoelia, magram aba erTi SexedeT, ra
xdeba! amorZaliviT cxenze amxedrebuli rom gamoCndeba SukaSi, mTeli
lanCxuTi ZunZuliT mosdevs, aqeT-iqidan uzangebs Cafrenili. zogi Ceqmaze
kocnis, zogi galifeze... ufro ukanani ki, sulac mis cxens kocnian
gaoflil gavaze... "Cveno rZalo da Cveno rZaloo" Sehxarian, amayoben
gurulad. ese igi, ucxoc SeiZleba Seni iyos, Seniani, Seni siamayis mizezi...
erovnul naWuWSi gamoketva TviTmkvlelobaa. proletariats samSoblo ara
aqvs, magram mTeli dedamiwa misi saxlia. vinc aqamde ver Seigno es, axla
Seagnebinebs, rogorc pirveli premier-ministri nebismieri saqarTvelos
istoriaSi. axla ufro naTlad ganumartavs yvelas, ratom aRmerTebs, vTqvaT,
goeTes, da ratom emarTeba alergiuli krunCxvebi, vTqvaT, Tavadi WavWavaZis
wignis danaxvaze... marTalia, lanCxuTis sufTa haeri da pastoraluri
simSvide masac aiZulebs, ufro mimtevebeli da lmobieri iyos, ara marto
sakuTari Tavis, aramed sxvebis mimarTac, magram premier-ministri
kaTolikosi ar gaxlavT, mas ufro mtkice neba da ufro magari xeli
Wirdeba... "me premier-ministri var" imeorebs gunebaSi da mamis suraTs
Sescqeris kedelze, fotodan gadaxatuls ukve mamis sikvdilis mere, viRac
moxetiale mxatvris funjiT. is fotoc kargad axsovs, oRond, im fotoze
dedasTan erTadaa mama, deda udgas gverdiT, mis mxarze xelCamodebuli. am
suraTze ki martoa, savarZelSi zis, romelSic misi Svili mokalaTebula
axla. miminosaviT SemarTuli, didi memamule, daZabuli gadmoscqeris
proletariatis samsaxurSi gapremierministrebul Svils. albaT ukvirs da
uxaria kidec, misi Svili ufro didi memamule gamovida bolos, lanCxuTi ki
ara, sruliad saqarTveloa misi mamuli... savarZlis saxeluris gluv
zedapirze dasvenebuli marjvenis Sua TiTze waxnagovani zurmuxtis
didTvliani beWedi ukeTia. es beWedic axsovs, jer kidev bavSvobidan. axsovs,
rogor izidavda, rogor ajadoebda Tavisi momxibvleli medidurobiT. xelis
moZraobisas, aTasnairad icvlida fers lampis Suqze, roca mama nards
eTamaSeboda stumrebs... "me premier-ministri var..." eubneba gunebaSi, misi
memkvidre, misi genis matarebeli da gamgrZelebeli da, rasakvirvelia,
mwvervali, umaRlesi wertili yvela misi ocnebisa, survilisa, miswrafebisa,
natvrisa, ganzraxvisa, nafiqralisa da mainc, politikuri mowinaaRmdege,
SeiZleba iTqvas, mteric ki... arada, misi gazrdilia, man aswavla, rac icis,
da misi meSveobiT miaRwia, rasac miaRwia. "mama, mapatie... madlobT"...
CurCulebs gunebaSi, grZnobamoreuli da mamasaviT dinjad, auCqareblad
dgeba, oTaxidan gamodis da guruli oda-saxlis saxuraviani kibiT ezoSi
Cadis. maSinve Tavfexianad inTqmeba irgvliv gamefebul wyvdiadSi. wyvdiads
sveli neSos suni dahkravs. jer kidev gazafxulia. trifoliatis
gauCinarebuli Robis iqiT sunTqvaSekruli samyaro galursula, gurul oda-
saxlsaa moyuradebuli, ubralo Cqamic ainteresebs iqidan gamosuli, radgan
premier-ministris samyofelSi Cqamzec aRar iTqmis ubralo. TvalTan TiTs
ver miitan, magram premier-ministri brmis siTamamiT miuyveba terfebiT
damaxsovrebul biliks. cotac da, mieaxleba mSoblebis maradiul
gansasvenebels. erTmaneTis gverdiT wvanan isini sakuTar ezoSi. mkvdrebic
Sin arian. colma qmari "ar gadauSva ezodan" da bolos TviTonac amouwva
gverdiT. ai, ase gaCnda es mokrZalebuli, oradgiliani sasaflao... "mama..."
CurCulebs premier-ministri sibneleSi, gaubedavad, moridebiT, TiTqos Zils
daufrTxobs micvalebulebs. "deda..." agrZelebs cota xnis Semdeg, imave
gaubedaobiTa da moridebiT. magram saTqmeli unda iTqvas da isic ambobs,
mRelvarebisgan xmaaTrTolebuli: "Tqveni Svili premier-ministria...
gixaroden..." da TiTqos pirvelad axla igrZno am sityvebis damaqcevari Zala
da Semzaravi sidiadeo, maSinve facifuciT amatebs: "gamwires... daviRupe..."
swored am dros, wyvdiadSi Cakarguli oda-saxlis meore sarTulis erT-erT
sarkmelSi Suqi inTeba da premier-ministric iZulebulia, dabrundes. win
waxrili da sakuTari Crdilis msgavsad, arabunebrivad dagrZelebuli, aseve
arabunebrivad gazrdili wveriT lamis miwas miwvdenili, nadiriviT
uxmaurod miZunZulebs gafermkrTalebul wyvdiadSi. ar unda, misma
ucxoelma meuRlem ixilos es lirikuli intermedia, ase moumzadeblad
CarTuli diaxac rom daundobeli, gulqva, gulRrZo cxovrebis boboqar
dinebaSi... mainc aRaraferi Seicvleba, mosaxdeni mainc moxdeba. Tanac,
gacilebiT adre (sam weliwadSi), vidre mas gonia. vin daundia, is rom
daindos meZavma wuTisofelma. magram kacobriobis winaSe pirnaTelia.
gaugeben Tu ver gaugeben, es sxva sakiTxia. mas rac SeeZlo, yvelaferi
gaakeTa da, vnaxoT, vin ras gaakeTebs masze ukeTesad...
 marTlac, uceb gairbina premier-ministrobisTvis gankuTvnilma drom. misma
ucxoelma meuRlem wesierad verc ijera guli avWalis xriok gorakebsa da
saburTalos gauval ekalbardebSi jiriTiT, mliqvnel qveSevrdomTa amalis
TanxlebiT... bolSevikebis rkinis komisars ukve farajis gulis jibeSi edo
stalinis karnaxiT Sedgenili depeSis teqsti "Tbilisis Tavze wiTeli
droSa frialebso" romelic Tavisi saxeliT unda gadaegzavna
leninisTvis Tbilisidan, roca daTqmuli dRe dadgeboda da saqarTvelos
demokratiuli respublikis dedaqalaqi pirobisamebr daecemoda. ase rom,
saqarTvelos pirveli ledi cota xniT unda SeSveboda "sedloTi" seirnobas
da droulad gadaerCia "kidobanSi" Sesazidi nivTebi, rac emigraciaSi ufro
gamoadgeboda. warRvna yovel wams axlovdeboda. ukve amxanagi kirovic
Camovida sagangebod, istoriulad TiTqos axlobeli, magram geografiulad
mainc sakmaod Sori moskovidan. TavisTavad cxadia, madaTovze saqeifod da
Wreli abanoebis dasaTvaliereblad ar gamoivlida amxela gzas.
moskovisTvis qarTvelTa noe parizSic is iqneboda, rac TbilisSi iyo...
magram noes asakSi albaT mainc Znelia Tundac fiqtiuri premier-
ministrobis daTmoba, rac, cota mogvianebiT, Seetyo kidec. Tqven
warmoidgineT, patriotuli grZnobac ki gauCnda ukve ganwiruli, ukve
sasikvdilod gadadebuli respublikis mimarT, romelic, udReuri iyo Tu
ususuri, mainc mas ekuTvnoda, misTvis SeeqmnaT da, saca samarTalia, masve
unda gadaewyvita misi bedi... magram, rogorc sinanulis, iseve dagvianebuli
patriotizmis gamomJRavneba, rasakvirvelia, parizSi gacilebiT naklebad
saxifaTo iqneboda misTvis, vidre krwanisisa Tu tabaxmelas sanaxevrod
cariel sangrebSi. xolo, misi meuRle bulonis tyeSic moiklavda, rogorme,
cxenosnobis Jins da, raRa Tqma unda, arc iq igrZnobda ucxod Tavs; rogorc
msoflio moqalaqe, iqac Sin iqneboda, iqac TavisianebSi da, kacma rom Tqvas,
albaT naklebad ainteresebda is politikuri xrikebi da bataliebi,
romlebSic misi meuRle gaxldaT CarTuli Tu CaTreuli, radgan,
maincdamainc, arcerT normalur qveyanas ar gamoudia Tavi lanCxuTeli
premier-ministris dasacavad. rkinis komisari ki, ukve jars agrovebda
samxreT ruseTis bazrebsa da sadgurebSi, radgan swored mas, rogorc
qarTvel ianiCars, ergo pativi, sxva rom ar vTqvaT, metad binZuri da
sakmaod saxifaTo operaciis Catarebisa: saqarTvelos samwliani
demokratiuli respublika saqarTvelos sabWoTa socialistur respublikad
unda gadaekeTebina ganusazRvruli vadiT. "visac taniniani Rvino da xaliani
qalebi giyvarT, ukeTes adgils ver ipoviT qveyanazeo" mouwodebda,
aqezebda, aRizianebda jibidan gavardnil mawanwalebs, bazris TaRliTebs,
sadguris jibgirebs, genetikur loTebsa da mkvlelebs bazris moedansa Tu
sadguris plaTformaze saxeldaxelod gamarTuli tribunidan...
 iqidan iwyeba kaSelebis sisxliani dinastiis welTaRricxvac; raJden
kaSeli da misi meuRle klava erT-erTi pirvelebi Caewernen moxaliseebad
egreTwodebul meTerTmete armiaSi da Svilic 21-Si gauCndaT, zustad
Tbilisis aRebis dRes, ufro zustad, Tbilisis dacemisTanave, TiTqos
mxolod imitom daeca Tbilisi, klavas rom mSvidad moemSobiarebina.
sinamdvileSi, "kavkasiis safrangeTis" dedaqalaqi, maincdamainc, magari
kakali ver aRmoCnda. Tumca, verc Zabrisebur qudebsa da grZel,
CafarTxunebul farajebSi Cakarguli moZaladeebi daitrabaxeben rames:
Tbiliss aravin icavda, radgan, faqtiurad, arc hyavda patroni: qarTuli
jaris Seqmna Tavidanve aramizanSewonilad miiCnia kremlma, rasac,
TavisTavad cxadia, qarTveli premier-ministric usityvod daeTanxma. xolo,
daqiravebuli da, amdenad, mxolod da mxolod, premier-ministris neba-
survils damorCilebuli gvardia, imdroisaTvis, premier-ministris saZile
vagons miacilebda baTumisken, sadac premier-ministri qarTuli
emigraciisTvis sagangebod gamoyofil gemze gadajdeboda da msoflio
Wipisken aiRebda gezs, Tavis rCeul, anu, saemigranto siaSi moxvedril
TanamemamuleebTan erTad, isev da isev, ganusazRvreli vadiT... sangrebSi ki,
ZiriTadad, maswavleblebi, studentoba, fostisa Tu rkinigzis moxeleebi
idgnen da aqedan naxevarze mets Tofic ar hqonda, Tofiani TanamebrZolis
sikvdils elodeboda, Tavad rom SeiaraRebuliyo da, TanamebrZolis
sikvdilis molodinSi surdoSeyrili, sacodavad mobuzuli, rac SeeZlo,
maRla eqaCeboda paltos Tu serTukis sayelos... samagierod, Tbilisis
araqarTuli mosaxleoba, ukve morTul-mokazmuli elodeboda, rodis
Sewydeboda zarbaznebis Weqa-quxili, raTa ganjis karTan zurna-dudukiTa da
baRdadebis frial-frialiT, Sehgebeboda "gamanTavisufleblebs"...
 klavam Saragzaze imSobiara, sadRac, soRanluRsa da orTaWalas Soris.
Tavisuflad SeiZleba iTqvas, sabWoTa xelisufleba pirveli anton kaSelis
CxaviliT Semovida axal saqarTveloSi, rogorc misi tyupiscali da misi
bediRblis Tanaziari, rac anton kaSelis mamis, godris naSieris yovlad
auxsneli, yovlad gaumarTlebeli TavgamodebiT ufro moxda, vidre RmerTis
nebasurviliT. muceli rom astkivda, klava furgonidan Camoxta, gzidan
gadavida da, TiTqos Cveulebriv fiziologiur moTxovnilebas
ikmayofilebda, wuTSi moimSobiara, memkvidre mouvlina meuRles, kidev ufro
ganavrco, kidev ufro win gastyorcna meuRlis Tesli, kidev ufro Rrmad
drosa da sivrceSi... Saragzaze mimavali misi TanamebrZolebi aTasnair
uwmawurobebs eZaxdnen, ustvendnen, dascinodnen, amxnevebdnen... erTma qvac ki
esrola, rasakvirvelia, jariskaculi solidarobis gamosaxatavad. magram
klavas aravisTvis miuqcevia yuradReba, "CameT Cemi CuCuao" dudRunebda
cxvirSi qmrisgan naswavl qarTuls da Tan iqve, gzispira Txrilis
damyayebul wyalSi aRanRalebda Cvils (ar dagaviwydeT, zamTarSi xdeba es
ambavi, ocdaxuTi Tebervalia jer, Tanac, axali stiliT. Tbilissa da mis
SemogarenSi Tovs). mere Cvili mowyalebis dis wiTeljvrian TavsafarSi
gaaxvia da isev furgons gaekida. furgonze, misi meuRlis garda, sxva
jariskacebic isxdnen, msubuqad daWrilebi Tu simuliantebi, magram aravis
SeuSvelebia xeli. misi meuRle gazeTis naglejSi sqlad gaxveul wekos
abolebda da, colis siyoCaRiT gaamayebuli, wekos boliviT gawelil gzas
Cascqeroda lajebs Soris. saamayo ki namdvilad hqonda: es wuTia gaCenili
misi vaJi, ori wlisa, TvaldaxuWuli Slida da awyobda saomar SaSxanas.
xuTisam mezoblis ZaRli mokla im SaSxaniT. xolo, TxuTmetisa ukve xalxs
xocavda. ocdaTeqvsmetSi, ocdaCvidmetSi, ocdaTvrametSi, ocdacxrametSi,
marTlac rom saqveynod hquxda misi saxeli. cixeebSi xom fexis xmaze
cnobdnen. zRaprebs yvebodnen misi simkacrisa da sisastikis Sesaxeb. angareba
ki ar amoZravebda, umravlesobis msgavsad, SurisZiebis JiniT ki ar iyo
Sepyrobili, zogierTebiviT, "xalxis mtrebs", "kulakebs", anda "qarTvel
nacionalistebs" ki ar uswordeboda, rogorc WeSmariti bolSeviki
ubralod, sulerTi iyo misTvis, vis sisxls daRvrida, radgan am qveynad
yvelaze Zalian sikvdilis SiSiT wamxdari adamianis cqera uyvarda da
adamianis sisxli swyuroda ganuwyvetliv, rac Tavi axsovda. erTxel,
Soreul bavSvobaSi, Tuki rodisme isic iyo bavSvi, am sityvis Cveulebrivi
gagebiT, mamam daxvretili meamboxeebis gvamebiT savse manqana miayena Sin da
SuaRamisas, loginidan facafuciT wamovardnili, sanaxevrod jer isev
mZinare, manqanis Zaraze Sesva, ase vTqvaT, gamosawrTobad, "nervebis
gasamagreblad", "gvamis SiSis dasaZlevad". imas ki, iotis odenadac ar
SeSinebia amazrzenad saxegadafiTrebuli gvamebisa, piriqiT, maSinve jiriTsa
da buqnaobas mohyva da Zalianac moewona, mis fexqveS Wyapa-Wyupi rom
gaudioda ukve sanaxevrod Sededebul sisxls, araTanabrad rom ibuSteboda
aqa-iq, konservis TevzebiviT, erTmaneTze mWidrod dalagebul gvamebs Soris
da nazad, sasiamovnod rom uwinwklavda saxes TiTis mikarebisTanave
ukvalod gamqrali buSti. cota xnis mere, mis danaxvaze, ara marto
patimrebs, cixis administraciasac ekargeboda feri. patimrebi "eSmakis
mamals" eZaxdnen uTenia gamodioda "sanadirod", ratomRac,
motocikletistis maRalyelian xelTaTmanebs icvamda da mwvane SuSebian
saTvales ikeTebda (albaT konspiraciis mizniT), sxartad, xalisianad
Carboda enkavedes sardafis kibeze, mcodne da moyvaruli Tavisi saqmisa, da
rogorc ar unda gajiuteboda dasaxvreti, rogorc ar unda miyuJuliyo
sikvdilmisjilTa saknis kuTxeSi, gindac kedlis bzarSi SemZvraliyo,
jojosaviT, mainc wamSi gamoaTrevda iqidan: grZeltarian rkinis kauWs
marjved gamosdebda barZaySi, mxarSi anda ybaSi da isic (dasaxvreti) maSinve
kargavda brZolis xaliss, maSinve nebdeboda, SiSisagan Cafsmuli da
enaCavardnili mifratunobda sanaxevrod bnelsa da ukacur derefanSi, jer
kidev pirtitveli jalaTis win...
 colic adre SeirTo, bevrad ufrosi qali da, rac mTavaria, misi
klasobrivi mteri, "maRali sazogadoebis" erT-erTi TvalsaCino
warmomadgeneli "uwindel" saqarTveloSi kniaJna qeTusia etaloni
qaluri momxibvlelobisa, gulisxmierebisa da kdemamosilebisa... mamisa da
qmris gaunelebeli siyvaruliTa da yuradRebiT ganebivrebuli da Tavadac
fari da gvirgvini mamisa da qmris Rirsebisa da saxelisa... kniaJna qeTusias
mama tipiuri qarTveli Tavadi gaxldaT miminoTi nadirobda mwyerze da
nanadirevs miminos aWmevda. qmari ucxoeTSi ganswavluli da saqveynod
cnobili veqili, msajulTa da bralmdebelTa risxvad iTvleboda da, meti
rom ar vTqvaT, Zalzed uxerxul da, xSirad, gamouval mdgomareobaSic
agdebda imaT Tavisi moswrebuli sityviT. cxovrebaSi ki, uaRresad
moridebuli, Tavaziani adamiani gaxldaT da, dros Tu gaviTvaliswinebT,
savsebiT daucvelic. sifrifana pensnes atarebda mxolod,
garevolucionerebuli, anu, gamxecebuli cxovrebisgan Tavis dasacavad da,
Tqven warmoidgineT, garkveuli TvalsazrisiT, esec zrdida mis avtoritets
axali sazogadoebis TvalSi. ufrosklaseli gogoebi gakveTilebidan
iparebodnen da sasamarTlos civ darbazSi saaTobiT usmendnen imis
cecxlovan gamosvlebs, daZabulobisgan dacqvetilni da mRelvarebisgan
TiTebmomuwulni, Sescqerodnen TavianT kerps, romelic anton kaSelma
daufiqreblad miaxvrita, simamrTan erTad, mxolod imitom, maincdamainc,
misi coli rom undoda colad. marTalia, bolSevikebis meore Taobas
ekuTvnoda da adamianuri cxovrebisa araferi gaegeboda jer, magram rames
Tu ver itanda, rames Tu gamohyavda wonasworobidan, mxolod bolSevikuri
cxovrebis wess, bolSevikur yofas; Tuki ram Trgunavda, mxolod mSobliuri
garemo. pataraobisas (sxvaTaSoris, asakTan SedarebiT, yovelTvis patarad
gamoiyureboda), TiTebiT yurebdaculi, Zalad TvalebdaxuWuli da kidev
ufro dapataravebuli ijda xolme iatakze, sul erTi xelisdadeba oTaxis
kuTxeSi, sadac TiTqmis yovel saRamos lamis mTeli meTerTmete armia
iyrida Tavs da mSvenivradac eteoda, Tavis qalebianad, aryis bocoebianad,
moxarSuli kartofilis zvinebianad da qaSayiT savse kasrebianad... idga
erTi gauTavebeli xorxoci, Rriali da Rrianceli, anu, sufevda sruli
Tanxmoba, Tanasworoba da siamtkbiloba, aravin aravis mimarTavda, aravin
aravis usmenda da aravin aravis pasuxobda. ufro metic, ZaRladac ar
agdebdnen erTmaneTs. yvela Tavis Wias axarebda mxolod, cxovrobda Wiis
moTxovnilebebisa da miTiTebebis gaTvaliswinebiT, anu, imas akeTebda, rac
im wuTas undoda: svamda, mReroda, cekvavda, tiroda, icinoda, anegdots
yveboda, sadRegrZelos ambobda, cemda an efereboda Tavis qals, Tqvlefda
gaufcqvnel kartofilsa da gamouwelav qaSays, anda, iqve, kedelTan
mimdgari, yurebdacobili da TvaldaxuWuli bavSvis gverdiT Sardavda,
"sufrisken" kisermoRrecili da Sterulad momRimari, viTom, SemomxedeT,
rogori Wkviani var, arc sufras vkargav TvalTaxedvidan da arc zedmet
dros gasvla-SemosvlaSio. "klava, Se ZaRlis gagdebulo, klava, ar daiviwyo
perekopio..." Rrialebda galeSili raJdeni. "Came Cemi CuCuao" pasuxobda
aranakleb galeSili klava. xoda, TviTonac am wumpeSi rom ar Campaliyo,
yvela Rone unda exmara iqidan amosasvlelad. maRal mizans mxolod didi
siZneleebis gadalaxviT Tu miaRwevs kaci da mizani yovelTvis amarTlebs
yvelafers, rasac mis misaRwevad Caiden... anton kaSelma kniaJna qeTusias mama
da qmari jer "xalxis mtrebad" Seracxa da mere sakuTari xeliT daxvrita
enkavedes sardafSi. rac mTavaria, es ambavi arc kniaJna qeTusiasTvis
daumalavs, rogorc patiosansa da Tavis patiosnebaSi Rrmad darwmunebul
Cekists. xelis saTxovnelad rom eaxla Sin, jer is uambo, Tu rogor
"TavadiSvilurad" aResrula mamamisi da rogor "inteligenturad" Caisvara
misma qmarma. nadirobis motrfiale Tavadi arc sikvdilmisjilTa saknidan
gamoyvanisas gasZalianebia tyuilubralod da arc bnelsa da ukacur
derefanSi mohyolia uazro xvewna-mudaras. motocikletistis
xelTaTmanebiani da mwvane saTvaliani jalaTis danaxvaze, jer gascinebia,
mere xeli Cauqnevia da uTqvams: "roca SenisTana nabiWvrebi daepatronebian
qveyanas, Tavmoyvare kacs iq namdvilad aRar daedgomebao". samagierod, mis
siZes ar eTmoboda aqauroba. frCxilebiT, kbilebiT da, Tqven warmoidgineT,
wamwamebiTac ki, ebRauWeboda Turme betonis yru kedels. anton kaSelsac
mxolod mesame cdaze miuwvdenia grZeltariani rkinis kauWi safuZvlianad.
pirvelad, Sarvlis cali toti Semouxevia mxolod. meored pijakian-
perangian-xorcianad CamoubRortnia ferdi. mesamed ki, sazardulSi gamoudia
kauWis wvetiani niskarti da saxelganTqmul veqilsac maSinve dauyria
farxmali, muxlze davardnila da aqviTinebula, oRond nu momklavT da
yvelafers vaRiarebo, rasac kidev ufro ganurisxebia misi jalaTi, radgan
jalaTze ukeT arc Tavad braldebulma icoda, araviTari danaSauli rom ar
miuZRoda arc RmerTisa da, miT ufro, arc xalxis winaSe. colis Ramis
qoTani Tu gadabrunebia SemTxveviT, saZile oTaxidan gamotanisas, da maSinac
albaT Tavad mouwmendia daRvrili... "yvelaferi SemiZlia gavugo da vapatio
kacs, garda sicruisao" gulwrfeli utifrobiT ganacxada msxverplis
qvrivTan xelis saTxovnelad misulma jalaTma, oRond, Tavis
gasamarTleblad ki ara, aramed momavali meuRlis gasafrTxileblad.
saRamovdeboda. sadRac, Sors, an didubeSi, an navTluRSi, orTqlmavalma
Sehkivla. kniaJna qeTusia sarkmelTan idga (vidre anton kaSeli
laparakobda), mxrebze Txeli, ablabudasaviT sifrifana, orenburguli Sali
moexura, da quCaSi iyureboda, magram sarkmlidan, quCis magivrad, ratomRac,
soflis gzis patara nagleji moCanda mxolod (SeiZleba, mis xsovnaSi
CarCenili), arsaidan momavali da arsaiT mimavali. gzis naglejs balaxi
mosdeboda. balaxs urmisa Tu etlis naborblari etyoboda. naborblarSi
wyali Camdgariyo. wyals nemsiylapia dastrialebda. "vidre, Tundac, gzis es
patara nagleji arsebobs, es pawawina naglejio..." fiqrobda kniaJna
qeTusia da sul odnav, ZlivsSesamCnevad uTrToda laRad gaSlili,
uaRresad simetriuli, Zvliani mxrebi, rac, TavisTavad cxadia, arc anton
kaSelis fxizel Tvals gamoparvia, oRond, anton kaSelsac gauWirda
daedgina, sicils ikavebda misi momavali meuRle Tu qviTins...
 jvari orgzis gakreWilma (cxraasxuTsa da cxraasCvidmetSi) da samudamod
sulwawymedilma mRvdelma dasweraT. didxans uarobda, ar miyvebodaT
eklesiaSi, aRara var RvTis msaxuri, Cveulebrivi virismuSa varo, magram
siZis mayrebma Savad akrialebuli revolverebi rom daades Sublze,
saidanRac, anaforac gamoaZvrina uceb, oqromkediT naqargi olaric,
vercxlis veeba jvaric da borkiliviT mZime sacecxluric. ZiriTadad
uwmawur anegdotebs yveboda saerTod nefe-patarZlebis pikantur
Tavgadasavlebze da gulianadac acinebda meqorwileebs raJden kaSelisa
da klavas yofil TanamebrZolebs, meTerTmete armiis veteran jariskacebs,
da siZis, anton kaSelis kolegebs, damwyebsa Tu dasrulebul Cekistebs.
mxolod klava ar Ralatobda mxedrul disciplinas da mTeli
seriozulobiT ekideboda am ucnaur ceremonials. Cveulebisamebr,
uniformaSi gamowyobili da mxarze SaSxanagadakidebuli, kuStad idga,
rogorc postze, anda sapatio yaraulSi, da mazaris farTo lackanze erTad
daemagrebina Tavisi Tu meuRlis jildoebi. Tavad raJden kaSeli
amdroisTvis ukve mkvdaria. viRac aisorma mokla ori wlis win, Rvinis
sardafSi, malaknebis bazarTan. qilis namtvreviT gadauWra saZile arteria
da kibeze dalia codvili suli kaSelebis patriarqma, ver moaswro
sardafidan amoxoxeba. eklesiaSi ki, erTi usaSvelo gniasi da Rrianceli
idga. avazakur stvenasa da samsarTulian ginebebs damayruebeli baTqabuTqi
enacvleboda. isrodnen yvelanairi iaraRidan: mauzeridan, naganidan,
karabinidan da Cveulebrivi sabrZolo SaSxanidanac... lawaluwi gaudioda
xatebs, sasanTleebs... kedlebs feradi baTqaSi cvioda. gaognebulni, saxtad
darCenilni iyurebodnen TvalgamoTxrili, cxvirCaCeCqvili, yurwaglejili
Tu Sublgaxvretili wmindanebi... magram siZis nasrolma mainc yvelas ajoba,
sizustiTac da sanaxaobrivadac. siZem naganis tyviiT, ocdaxuTi nabijis
siSoridan, wiTeli RviniT savse Wiqa daamsxvria patarZals Tavze da roca
saqorwilo leCaqi Rvinom sisxlisfrad SeReba, patarZalma ki, gamarjvebul
nefes mdablad daukra Tavi, aRtacebis yiJinam lamis daaqcia eklesia...
 im dRis mere, wveuleba ar gaimarTeboda TbilisSi (bevri sagangebod
amitomac marTavda), isinic ar miewviaT. rasakvirvelia, marTlac Zalian
saintereso sanaxavia, Tu rogor amsxvrevs Tavze RviniT savse Wiqas
axalgazrda Cekisti arc Tu ise axalgazrda cols, magram albaT imis
faruli molodini ufro hqondaT, Tu rodis umtyunebda xeli
saxelganTqmul jalaTs da rodis gauxvretda (saxalxod) Subls Tavis
sulel partniors, romelmac mamisa da qmris damxvreti loginSi Caigora da
klasobriv mters wlis Tavze vaJi gauCina. magram qalaqSi moaruli Worebis
miuxedavad, miuxedavad klasobrivi da asakobrivi sxvaobisa, ufro
Sexmatkbilebuli wyvili albaT sanTliT ver moiZebneboda qveyanaze.
uyvardaT Tu sZuldaT erTmaneTi, es sxva sakiTxia, Zneli gasarkvevic, magram
aSkarad Zlieri grZnobebiT rom iyvnen dakavSirebulni, cxadia sikvdilis
suns avrcelebdnen irgvliv da garduvali ubedurebis SegrZnebas uCendnen
yvelas, visac Soridan mainc moekra maTTvis Tvali. kniaJna qeTusias an
marTla aRar hqonda sxva gza (garda sarkmlidan molandebuli gzis
naglejisa) da iZulebiT midioda sasikvdilod, Tanac, yovel saRamos, an
imdenad wyuroda, maincdamainc, misi uaxloesi adamianebis damxvreti
meuRlis xeliT sikvdili, sanacvlod yvelafers aitanda, da momxiblavad
momRimari, bednierebisgan dabrmavebuli qalis udardelobiT usworebda
Tvals naganis lulis Sav sicarieles, saidanac yovel wams SeiZleboda
gamovardniliyo nanatri sikvdili. xolo, misi meuRle imdenad
Tavdajerebuli gaxldaT, anda, imdenad briyvi, verc xvdeboda, Tu ra
safrTxeSi agdebda yoveldRiurad, ra iolad wiravda, gauTavebeli
revoluciebiTa Tu msoflio da samoqalaqo omebiT Zlivs mopovebuli
didgvarovani meuRlis sicocxles. magram, ase iyo Tu ise, maTi maradiuli
dueli eniT uTqmel siamovnebas aniWebda mayurebels, pirvel rigSi, brma
sikvdilis aseve maradiuli molodiniT. magram msgavsic araferi momxdara.
usityvod, sxeuliT esmodaT erTmaneTisa, rogorc sacirko nomerSi monawile
akrobatebs da, Tumca maTi "nomeri" nebismier sacirko nomerze sainteresoc
iyo da saxifaToc, yvela warmodgena erTnairi warmatebiT mTavrdeboda.
tyviis gavardnisTanave, yovelTvis erTnairad iRebeboda "sisxliT"
saqorwilo leCaqi (Cveulebrivi, Wrilobis gadasaxvevi marla, romelsac
albaT imitomac afarebdnen "patarZals" Tavze, SuSis namsxvrevebi ar
Cascvenoda TmaSi) da safuZvlianad aRelvebuli, magram gulis siRrmeSi
aseve safuZvlianad gawbilebuli mayurebeli am gaxangrZlivebuli
mkvlelobis aqts, SeiZleba gauTviTcnobierebladac, magram savsebiT
bunebrivad, revoluciamdeli cxovrebidan gadmoyolili adaT-wesebisa da,
kerZod, kanonieri qorwinebis sawinaaRmdego agitaciad aRiqvamda...
 vaJs babuis saxeli daarqves da godridan amosulma modgmam kidev erTi
nabiji gadadga win gaurkveveli momavlisken, kidev erTi TaobiT
gaixangrZliva dauokebeli Jini sicocxlisa, godridan rom amoiyola misma
patriarqma, romelic ukve biustad gardaqmnili idga mSobliur sofelSi,
skolis win, da sulerTi iyo misTvis, esalmebodnen Tu eWyanebodnen
adgilobrivi pionerebi. mowonda Tu ar mowonda, ase unda mdgariyo, sul
cota, oTxmocdacxra wlis aprilamde mainc, vidre igive pionerebi ZalayiniT
gadmoagdebdnen kvarcxlbekidan. iqamde ki, dedis ginebac unda moeTmina da
Sublze miWyletili namwvic, nerwyviT dambali da jer kidev mxrColavi
papirosisa. unda mdgariyo, bolSevikurad mtkiced da warbis Seuxrelad,
Tundac, mxolod sakuTari modgmis sakeTildReod, raTa pativi da yuradReba
ar mokleboda misians madlieri xelisuflebisgan. xelisuflebam, avia Tu
kargi, kanonieri Tu ukanono, xalxis msaxuri Tu xalxis mteri, mSvenivrad
icis, uangarod aravin moiklavs misTvis Tavs da isic icis, mada WamaSi rom
modis, yovel SemTxvevaSi, oqros wyalSi gavlebuli TiTbris ordenebiTa da
TabaSiris biustebiT veRar gaacucurakebs "xalxisTvis wamebul raindebs".
kaSelebis qviSxeTuri agarakis eleqtro-WiSkris sanaxavad, ara marto
mezobel soflebidan, cota ufro Soridanac Camodiodnen Suriani
cnobismoyvareni da pirdaRebulni Sescqerodnen, alibabas sezamiviT,
TavisTavad rogor iReboda rkinis cxaurebiani meseri, rogor Sedioda
aguris kedelSi, RrWialiTa da ZagZagiT, da ezos daburuli simwvanidan
TandaTan rogor ikveTeboda pompezurad pirquSi Tu pirquSad pompezuri
Senoba, sadac zafxulobiT mxolod erTi Cekistis ojaxi isvenebda, roca,
saWiroebis SemTxvevaSi, Tavisuflad SeeZlo mTeli sanatoriumis magivrobac
gaewia (adgilobrivi Tavadis bevrad ufro mokrZalebul saxlSi, sezonis
ganmavlobaSi, TiTqmis yvela uagarako mwerali aswrebda dasvenebas da,
Tanac, ojaxTan erTad). amdroisaTvis, ukve gagebuli hqondaT bolSevikebs
kargi cxovrebis gemo, magram burJuoba ar dagvwamon mtrebmao, jer kidev
cdilobdnen, diaxac rom, burJuaziul midrekilebaTa damalvas. jer
ganviTarebis meore etaps gadiodnen mxolod, roca Cveulebrivi abreSumis
matlic ki, ramdenime etaps gadis, saboloo saxis miRebamde, anu, kvercxidan
(igive godridan) gamoCekili, vidre peplad gardaiqmnebodes. sxvaTaSoris,
isic bolSevikuri SeupovrobiT miRoRavs, miiswrafis srulyofisken da
oTxjer mainc unda gamoZvres kanidan, kidev ufro gazrdil-gasiebuli, vidre
daWuprdeba, anu, sakuTar ganavalSi gamoemwyvdeva, gakoWili, saZraoba
warTmeuli, da mkvdari rom hgonia yvelas, swored maSin axdens saswauls
kaSelebis agarakis eleqtro-WiSkariviT, kidev erTxel, TavisTavad gaixsneba
misi mixakisferi kani da iqidan didTvaleba, qoCriani, mucelSeRinRluli
pepela amofrindeba. pepelac, ra Tqma unda, matlia, magram winamorbedis
sikvdiliT gakeTilSobilebuli. erTi SexedviT, TiTqos araferi aqvs saerTo
matlTan, mSobelTan, winaparTan, SemqmnelTan, arc garegnulad, arc
Tvisobrivad, jer erTi, yvelafers ki ar nTqavs ganurCevlad, yvavilis
neqtars miirTmevs mxolod da ki ar daRoRavs, dafrinavs, dafarfatebs,
zeimobs kvercxidan peplobamde gamovlil gzas, xoxviT mopovebul frTebs,
sakuTar srulyofilebas, matlobis dasasruls da... moaxloebul
sikvdilsac. magram, miuxedavad xanmokle sicocxlisa, kvercxis dadebas
mainc aswrebs da, amdenad, bunebaSi araferi ikargeba. ubralod, axali wre
iwyeba, axali kvercxidan (Tu gnebavT, godridan) axali matli iCekeba,
romelic didTvaleba, qoCrian, mucelSeRinRlul peplad gardaiqmneba
bolos da ase iqneba sul, usasrulod, ukuniTi ukunisamde... magram anton
kaSels bevri aklda peplobamde. ufro sworad, matlad unda momkvdariyo da
mokvda kidec. 1949 wlis 29 ivliss, elbaqiZis daRmarTze, Rvinis qarxnis win,
zustad 19 saaTsa da 59 wuTze, adgilobrivi droiT, trotuarze idga,
quCisken zurgSeqceuli, da gazeTs aTvalierebda. wami-wamze, megobrebi
gamouvlidnen, manqanaSi Caisvamdnen da tabaxmelaze avardebodnen "puris
saWmelad". misi manqana dRes kniaJna qeTusias emsaxureboda, uaRresad
qaluri RonisZiebebis Casatareblad: eqimTan unda Seevlo, maRaziebSi
SeeWyita, gadamyidvelisTvis raRac daevalebina, gripiani dobili
moenaxulebina, meore dobilTan esadila da ase Semdeg, ase Semdeg... anton
kaSelma Tavad dauTqva megobrebs paemani, maincdamainc, elbaqiZis quCaze,
maincdamainc, Rvinis qarxnis win, radgan barem Rvinis qarxnis direqtoric
yavda sanaxavi, eSmakma icis, ra mizniT da rasTan dakavSirebiT, magram
amdroisTvis, Rvinis qarxnis direqtors ukve meored afenda mdivani qali
svel tilos Sublze da meored asmevda valerianis wveTebs. anton kaSeli ki,
daniSnul adgilze idga da megobrebis molodinSi, viTom, gazeTs
aTvalierebda. sinamdvileSi, erT did sasmen organod gadaqceuli, mTeli
arsebiT isrutavda quCis xmebs tramvais borblebis RrWials, manqanebis
sayvirebis ganuwyvetel Wyipinsa Tu aRmarTze amsvlel-CamomsvlelTa
fexsacmelebis WraWunsa da baka-buks... magram, etyoba, mainc umtyuna
alRom, erTi wamiT mainc moaduna yuradReba, da, rogorc mere dadginda,
didi xnis Camowerili da teqnikurad gaumarTavi satvirTo manqana, swored
is, romliTac raJden kaSeli 24-Si daxvretili meamboxeebis gvamebs
ezideboda da erTxel Svilic abuqnava im gvamebze, mTeli ZaliT daejaxa
zurgidan, raki ubedur dRes gaCenilma mZRolma (mTeli Tvis ganmavlobaSi
ibeWdeboda gazeTebSi misi portreti, xan anfasidan da xan profilidan
gadaRebuli, rogorc "ucxoeTis dazvervis erT-erTi seriozuli agentisa"),
verafriT veRar daimorCila muxruWCavardnili da saWeamovardnili rkinis
urCxuli, eSmakis Seqmnili, misi colSvilis codviT savse manqana da
saqarTvelos leninis ordenosani sabWoTa socialisturi respublikis
Sinsaxkomis TvalsaCino da saamayo muSaki matliviT miaWylita Rvinis
qarxnis kedelze. Tavad anton kaSeli verc ki mixvda, ra SeemTxva. ubralod,
ukanasknel wams, sisxlis veeba, lamis aerostatisxela, TvalismomWrelad
mbzinavi buSti amoizarda mis Tvalwin da rogorc ki miado TiTi, maSinve
yuriswamRebi xmauriT gaskda...
 xolo, misi naSieri, ukve ormocdaaTs gadacilebuli da saqveyno saqmeebSi
gasuli kaci, biWiviTaa Seyvarebuli da, colis gverdiT gaSotils, rZlis
dabzekili ZuZuebi elandeba. magram imitom ki ara, mamaze naklebi kaSelia da
unari ar Seswevs, iqiT moalandos sxvebs Tavi, aramed sul sxva dros rom
mouwia cxovreba, dro Sexvda cudi, damyayebuli socializmisa, uZraobisa,
da TviTonac, Zalauneburad, daWuprda, gamoiketa, gamoixrCo molodinisa da
moTminebis uhaero parkSi... mliqvnelobisa da TvalTmaqcobis abreSumSi... imis
magivrad, kedelTan mieyenebina ideuri mteri (rogorc mamamisi moiqceoda),
dainaTesava da Tavic moaqvs imis naTesaobiT, imis saxels iSveliebs
waramara, rogorc mxdali meomari fars. magram TviTon ki ar aris mxdali,
droa usvindiso. winaprebisgan gansxvavebiT, amas ukve fexze myarad damdgar
qveyanaSi mouwia ZiriTadad cxovreba (am bolo ramdenime wlis gamoklebiT),
dasangrevi dangreuli daxvda, dasaxvreti daxvretili... "yoveli
mosaxveWeliRa" darCa mosaxveWi da isic ixveWs, rac SeuZlia, raki amas
avaldebulebs igive droc. ase ar aris?! Tu ar iparav, kaci ara xar. is ki
kacia. unda, kaci iyos. marTalia, jer aravin mouklavs, magram mamiseuli
nagani axlac gatenili udevs manqanis "bardaCokSi" (xval qviSxeTSi midis,
"bavSvebis" wamosayvanad) da saWiro Tu Seiqna, anu, imasac Tu gaubeda vinmem
manqanidan gadmosma, anda kabinetis aficvra, xeli ar aukankaldeba. cxovreba
win aris da, rogorc Cans, arc ormocdaaTi welia bevri, gindac
ormocdaTormeti iyos... mTavaria, guli gerCodes. imas ki, erCis... erCis da
mere rogor! erTi suli aqvs, rodis gaTendeba. xvalidan axali etapi iwyeba
mis cxovrebaSi. rac mTavaria, liziko ukve misi sakuTrebaa, ukve daibeva,
qviSxeTis cixeSi hyavs gamomwyvdeuli, iq atarebs Taflobis Tves, Tumca,
rasakvirvelia, imasac ucxoeTSi erCia. saerTod ucxoeTSi apirebda, Tavisi
WkuiT, cxovrebas. antonsac amitom gahyva albaT colad. qmris meSveobiT
daapira mamamTilis gamoWera, mamamTilis gavlenisa da SeZlebis gamoyeneba.
ratomac ara! dRes vinc rames warmoadgens, yvelas ucxoeTSi hyavs Svilebi
gaxiznuli da arc raJdens gauWirdeboda Tavisi Svilebis dabinaveba
romelime "normalur" qveyanaSi. magram, am SemTxvevaSi, cota sxvanairadaa
saqme. raJdens aq Wirdeba rZali da ara miunhensa Tu sanfranciskoSi. ase
rom, saboloo jamSi, yvelaferi piriqiT moxda, lizikom ki ar gamoiWira
raJdeni, antonis meSveobiT, aramed raJdenma liziko. gaeba Citi maxeSi.
axla ifrTxialebs, ifrTxialebs da bolos isic Seegueba beds, Tu ukve
Seguebuli ar aris. erTTviani izolacia savsebiT sakmarisia, bevr rameze
aexilos Tvali qals. qali eSmakia, yovelTvis kacze adre xvdeba, vis
uqicinos kudi da vis gamoenTos yefiT... roca raJdenma brZana... diax, brZana!
raJden kaSelis yoveli sityva, gansakuTrebiT sakuTar ojaxSi warmoTqmuli,
brZanebaa da misi Sesruleba yvelasTvis Tanabrad savaldebuloa... roca
raJdenma brZana, cota xniT, yvelam SevikavoT Tavi, jer dawynardes qveyana
da ucxoeTze mere vifiqroTo, pirveli liziko daeTanxma, radgan mamamisis
Svili, mainc ver moiqceoda sxvanairad da es yvelaze ukeT (albaT lizikoze
ukeTac) raJdenma icoda. gaWirvebis Jams samSoblos mitoveba da sakuTar
keTildReobaze fiqri swored elizbars miaCnia Ralatad, Torem,
sinamdvileSi, samSoblo iq aris, sadac ukeTesad grZnobs kaci Tavs da ara
iq, sadac mama-papis codvebis gamo, advili SesaZlebelia, Sen wagacalon
Tavi. magram raJdens Tavi imitom ki ar abia, antonisa da lizikosnairma
revolucionerebma waacalon, aramed Tavis nebaze rom ataros isinic...
asedac moxdeba. isemc mze maRla! rac Tavi axsovs, sul Tanamdebobis piria,
universitetSic ki, ukve sazogadoebriv da partiul davalebas asrulebda,
komkavSiris komitetis mdivani gaxldaT, reqtori ekiTxeboda Wkuas da bevri
naftalinwayrili profesor-maswavlebeli mowiwebiT uxdida gazinTul
Sliapas, roca misi tolebi (Tundac, igive elizbari), ludis smaSi
ejibrebodnen erTmaneTs da universitetis ezoSi gacilebiT met dros
atarebdnen, vidre auditoriebSi. xoda, axla viTom ra gauWirdeba iseTi, erT
axvar gogos ver mouaros, gindac yofil revolucioners... aki TviTonve
ganacxada erTxel, maTi morigi "saidumlo" Sexvedris dros, sul
tyuilubralod gavicie sakvercxeebi kibeebze jdomiTo... ioli ar aris,
magram SesaZlebelia. ar arsebobs cixe-simagre, romlis aRebac bolSevikebs
ar SeeZloT. mTavaria, gvaxsovdes perekopi... Tumca, dRevandeli axvrebi mainc
gansakuTrebulad axvrebi arian, ver miudgebi ekali asxiaT. verc iyidi.
ar ici, rodis ra wamouvliT. rac mTavaria, TviTonac ar ician, undaT Tu
ara saerTod rame... xval gairkveva yvelaferi. xval CaakiTxavs, rogorc
pedanti inspeqtori cixidan cixeSi gadasayvan da, rac mTavaria, Znelad
mosaTok patimrebs. amxela gzaze, Tanac am areul qveyanaSi, "bavSvebis"
marto mgzavroba saxifaToa. yovel SemTxvevaSi, "bavSvebma" unda icodnen,
nabijsac ver gadadgamen uimisod. vin icis, imaTac erTi suli aqvT, rodis
wamovlen iqidan. Taflobis Tve kargia, magram mterma gaZlo mTeli Tve
miyruebul sofelSi. ara marto funis suni, erTmaneTic amouvidaT albaT
yelSi. albaT ukve qongurmorRveul koSkze sxedan da iqidan
uTvalTvaleben, rodis gamoCndeba maTi patronis manqana. raJdeni nela,
auCqareblad gadmova manqanidan, ymawviluri mouTmenloba da mRelvareba
rom ar Seatyos lizikom. manqanis kars daudevrad wahkravs xels da kari mis
zurgs ukan TavisiT daiketeba TiTqos, ufrosis danaxvaze, yaraulma
quslebi sxartad miatyupao. sxva gza ar arsebobs. ar arsebobs. ganaCeni
sabolooa da kasacias ar eqvemdebareba. miT ufro, rom lizikom TviTonve
gamoutana aseTi ganaCeni sakuTar Tavs, anu, TviTon Tu ar endomeboda, sxva
veravin aiZulebda amgvari nabijis gadadgmas. mokled, aravin arafers
aSavebs. damnaSave mxolod droa. magram kaSelebi drosac ar epuebian da,
kacma rom Tqvas, jerjerobiT, arc aravin Txoulobs maTgan amgvar
daTmobaze wasvlas. rasakvirvelia, lizikoc magari kakalia da fefe
marTalia, roca ambobs, Cems dedamTils gavso, ese igi, kniaJna qeTusiasi ar
iyos, verc imas gatexen kaSelebi advilado, magram magasac vnaxavT. xolo,
obieqturebi Tu viqnebiT, liziko marTla gavs kniaJna qeTusias da ara
marto bunebiT, aramed garegnuladac. sakvirveli kia, ratom unda gavdes
elizbaris Svili raJdenis dedas, magram raki isic ukve kaSelia, sjobs isev
kniaJna qeTusias gavdes, vidre fefes, anda, kidev uaresi, klavas. fefes
mxolod sxvaTa samsaxuri da sxvaTa cxovrebis TvalTvali SeuZlia. klava
ki, arafers warmoadgenda saerTod. mTeli bavSvoba imis garkvevas moandoma
raJdenma da mainc ver gaarkvia wesierad, qali iyo Tu kaci bebiamisi. yovel
SemTxvevaSi, kaciviT icvamda, kaciviT ikreWda Tmas, kaciviT eweoda TuTuns,
kaciviT svamda arays da kaciviT igineboda, oRond, veravin ityoda
dabejiTebiT, romel enaze metyvelebda saerTod, gansakuTrebiT
simTvraleSi. samagierod, ZaRliviT erTguli iyo kaSelebisa da imitomac
moiSora kniaJna qeTusiam maSinve, rogorc ki daqvrivda, rogorc ki miabara
miwas erTaderTi momrevi da momTokavi, wamsve sagiJeTSi ukra Tavi
dedamTils, Tavad giJma da damTxveulma. arc TviTon ukiTxavs da arc Svili
gaugzavnia imis ambis sakiTxavad, vidre iqidan ar daurekes, waiReT Tqveni
mkvdario. misgan gansxvavebiT, fefe, ra Tqma unda, ar Takilobs kaSelobas,
magram, imave dros, SeuZlia moaxled daudges kaSelebis mtersac. bunebiTaa
moaxle. mokled, klavasaviT erTguli ar aris, magram sxvebze sandoa, radgan
gacilebiT meti moipova kaSelebis meSveobiT, vidre kaSelobis gamo dakarga.
ase rom, omi jer ar damTavrebula da arc damTavrdeba ase iolad. perekopi
ar Svelis am saqmes da, SeiZleba, arc soxumi eyos... amdens debili klavac
xvdeboda da sagiJeTis gisosebian sarkmelSi cxvirgamoyofili, mTeli
sanapiros gasagonad gahyviroda: "CameT Cemi CuCuao", vidre sabolood ar
darwmunda qveynis siyrueSi da xalaTis qamrisgan ganaskvul yulfSi ar
gahyo Tavi... omi grZeldeba, amxanago batonebo! visac kaSelebis mospoba
surs, isini moavlenen qveynad axal kaSelebs... visac kaSelebi sZuls,
iZulebulni Seiqmnebian, guliT Seiyvaron isini, viTarca xorci xorcTagani
da sisxli sisxlTagani... omi grZeldeba! romis papi pavle meore yovel
aRdgoma dRes qarTuladac auwyebs msoflios am udiades saswauls
qriste aRsdgao magram pirvandeli saxiT saqarTvelo veRar aRsdgeba.
qarTvelebs rom gulSi udevT, is saqarTvelo aRar arsebobs. is saqarTvelo,
jer kidev papi pios dros, misgan warmogzavnil vinme ludoviko boloniels
aRar dauxvda Tavis adgilze da axla, dabarebuliviT, saidan gamotyvreba
uceb?! aRar arsebobs... kaSelebma mouTaves xeli... misi mefeni ucxo cisqveS
ganisveneben, gzaSi gardacvlili mwirebiviT; misi asulni ucxo Teslisken
miikvleven gzas da misi vaJebi sxvaTa samsaxurSi iwyveten wels... aseTia am
uazrobis anatomia. magram omi mainc grZeldeba, anu, erTxel kidev
Cawixluli da wamxdari axalgazrdoba ukve Tavisufali da demokratiuli
samyaros wesebiT cxovrobs. rogor ggoniaT, ras niSnavs es Cvens enaze? Cvens
enaze es niSnavs grialsa da drostarebas, ara marto aq, am "dampal
TbilisSi", aramed ucxoeTSic, ZiriTadad ucxoeTSi, nebismier qveyanaSi,
razec adre vercki viocnebebdiT da riskenac axla Tavad xelisufleba
mogviwodebs aSkarad da araorazrovnad. ratom? ra mogaxsenoT.
xelisuflebas hkiTxeT. albaT omSi rom ar wavidnen axalgazrdebi.
ufrTxildeba, zogavs qarTvelebis genofonds. raJdenisa Tu ar gjeraT,
CarTeT radio, CarTeT televizori. wadiT. wadiT. wadiT... lomouris
katosaviT gaiZaxis kadrs amofarebuli diqtori da Cveni daqliavebuli
qajanebic midian, radgan wasvla sjobs warmavalisa... omi uimaTodac
mSvidobianad damTavrdeba. ese igi, mainc damarcxdebian, wavlen Tu
darCebian. ufrosma raJden kaSelma erTxel ki ar aiRo Tbilisi, aramed
erTxel da samudamod, anu, momavalSic imdenjer aiRebs, ramdenjerac saWiro
iqneba, vidre mTlad ar gakaSeldeba es Zirgavardnili qalbatoni,
maradiuli qvriviviT Camqral-CaSavebuli rom daskupebula mtkvris orive
napirze, erTdroulad, da uxmod, ucremlod glovobs mis wiaRSi, "viTarca
sawnaxelSi", babua raJdenisa da bebia klavas binZuri CeqmebiT CaWyletil
falavnebs... amitom, sjobs wavidnen da igrialon, dro ataron, sanam droa.
isinic midian da grialeben, sanam SeuZliaT, sanam mSieri aznauris
RobesaviTaa morRveuli am metiCara, verafriT verSemdgari saxelmwifos
sazRvrebi. mxolod amisTvis Txovdebian gogoebi (fasi Tu aqvs maT
gaTxovebas!) da mxolod amisTvis irTaven colebs biWebi (biWebi Tu eTqmiT
kidev!) iqneb, erTi Taflobis Tve mainc gavataroT Cvens gemozeo. oRond,
qviSxeTSi ki ara, lizikosa da antonis msgavsad, nuras ukacravad, antaliasa
da kviprosze... ar ekuTvniT? eg sxva sakiTxia. eg Cveni saqme ar aris. visac
fuli aqvs, ekuTvnis. visac ara ara. elizbarisa ar iyos... (rom icodeT,
didi Sebertyili ymawvilia, raRacraRaceebs xvdeba...) elizbarisa ar iyos,
Canafiqri, marTlac, satanuria, magram, unda vaRiaroT, genialuric. omSi
midian Tu qeifSi, an aRar brundebian ukan, an iseTebi aRar brundebian,
rogorebic midian. biWs gogo ar unda, gogos biWi. mokled, genofondic,
Tavdacvis fondiviT, Tvalsa da xels Sua qreba. fafu. aRar aris. buam Wama.
"daixarja daniSnulebisamebr". midi da eZebe. aba, rogor gindaT!
Tavisufleba Zviri siamovnebaa. gemo Tu gauge, raRas ar ikadreb imis
gulisTvis, veRar Seelevi. aki verc elevian. mouTmenlobisgan suli misdiT,
pirdapir asafren bilikebze gadian, vin icis ramdenjer garemontebul-
gadaRebili "mersedesebiT", "volvoebiT", "beemveebiT" da zezeurad
agrZeleben qeifs, fuWad rom ar dakargon dro TviTmfrinavis molodinSi
erT TviTmfrinavs Tu gvamebi Camoaqvs CrdiloeTidan, meore meqorwileebs
miezideba samxreTisaken musikac Tan daaqvT da purmarilic. manqanis
kapotze Slian "sufras" da arcTu iSviaTad, Sampanuris boTlebis zalps
ufro seriozuli zalpic enacvleba. amgvar naucbaTev qorwilebze rom
tyvia-wamali ixarjeba, savsebiT sakmarisi iqneboda afsuebis Tundac erTi
ieriSis mosagerieblad Crdilo-dasavleTis frontze. magram arc
aeroportis administracia fiqrobs amaze (imas Tavisi "tvirTebi" awuxebs),
arc gvamebis momlodine Wirisuflebi da, TavisTavad cxadia, arc Tavad
meqorwileebi... Zlivs Tvali aexilaT, gzaze damdgaran da axla xom ar
Caixocebian uazro omSi, eSmakmac rom ar icis, vin daiwyo da risTvis.
grZeli, friala, xalvaTad morgebuli italiuri pijakebis qveS mxariRliv
hkidiaT Sansiani da fulis mSovneli mama-biZebisgan skolis damTavrebisa Tu
"daojaxebis" aRsaniSnavad naCuqari iaraRi: monikelebuli pistoleti Tu
CaSavebuli, xorkliani revolveri. Tu ar ixmars, rad unda?! xoda, xmarobs.
adamianma ki ara, ZaRlma icis uSecdomod, ras apatieben da ras ara. mand
marxia ZaRlis Tavic. xelisufali amitomaa xelisufali, bolomde damalos
Tavisi mizani da rac ufro didxans damalavs, miT ukeTesi iqneba piradad
misTvis. ra wavageT, amden xans rom vmalavdiT?! piriqiT, umtkivneulod da
TiTqmis udanakargod movipoveT gamarjveba, Tundac, nawilobriv, jer
sanaxevrod, magram gana cotaa?! lizikos, sanaZleo, arc gaukvirdeba... imitom,
rom kargad damaluli ganzraxva Tavis saqmes ukeTesad akeTebs, ganuwyvetel
zemoqmedebas axdens ganzraxvis obieqtzeco, gvindoda gveTqva, Tundac
mxolod Tavisi arsebobiT, rogorc sadRac, betonis WaSi CanTqmuli
birTvuli iaraRi milionTa da milionTa guneba-ganwyobilebaze. karg
xelisufals gulSi sxva udevs, enaze sxva akeria. erTs ambobs, meores
akeTebs da yvelaze Zalian swored es abnevs sulel xalxs. ra Tqma unda,
lizikosac. modi da nu daibnevi! jer tvini gauxvrites, antons Tu ar
wahyvebi, mokvdeba, ganarkomandebao, bolos ki, ara, Citunia, antoni mxolod
nigvzis lebania, xafangSi Semosatyuebeli, me ki, antonis babuasaviT, anu,
mamaCemiviT, kaciWamia var da Sen unda Segaxramuno Tavfexebianado. ra
lizikos bralia, CvenSi rom vTqvaT?! liziko iseTia, rogoric mSobelma
gazarda. ra unda eswavla imis wignebidan, an imas sad ecala wignis
sawerad?! qirqilsa da Woriknobas gadaayola qveyana. sircxvili Tqven,
amxanago mweralo! icocxle kargia, trakze xelebdawyobili seirnoba
cacxvebis xeivanSi, magram axla ra vuSveloT Tqvens qaliSvils?! sxvebis
binZuri sacvlebis qeqvasa da paTologiur midrekilebaTa kvleva-Ziebas, ar
ajobebda, erTi patiosani Svili mainc gagvezarda?! haaaa-a?! Tqven
gekiTxebian. ratom CagiwydaT xma? davuSvaT da, marTla kaciWamia iyo
antonis babua, mere Tqven ra? amis gamo, Tqven angelozebad gamoCndebiT
pirsisxliani kaSelebis gverdiT? ver mogarTviT! angelozobisa ra
mogaxsenoT, magram bavSvisTvis tvinis gadabruneba, cecxlze navTis dasxma
da wylis amRvreva rom kargad gexerxebaT, Tqveni nawerebidanac Cans. visic
geSiniaT, sulel bavSvs miuqsevT xolme, magram rac im bavSvs dRe daadgeba,
erTad vnaxavT yvelani. imdeni Zala jer kidev SeswevT kaSelebs, TavianT
Wkuaze moaqcion swored Tqveni gagebiT wesier da patiosan ojaxSi
aRzrdili qaliSvili da ara Cveulebrivi Tbiliseli wiwkvi meZavi, aqeT rom
geteneba, rac ufro asakovani da gavleniani xar. magram es Cveni saqme ar
aris, es samzareuloSi Caberebuli, mobezrebuli colebis problemaa da ara
saxelmwifo mniSvnelobis RonisZieba. ase rom, jer marTla sakiTxavia, vin
vis dakidebs rusTavelis Wadrebze fexiT... sad aris poetebis dasangrevi
qveyana! vis unaxavs?! vis gaugia?! erTi kargi gamaTraxeba da, magaTi jani!
sxvaTaSoris, "bali" da "eniselic" erTgvari maTraxia. axsenebda Tu ara
raJdeni, damsvenebeli mwerlebic maSinve acqmutdebodnen, axvixvindebodnen,
abakundebodnen adgilze, rogorc cirkis cxenebi. imaT egonaT, pativs
gvcemen, gvafaseben da imitom gvpatiJebeno, raJdeni ki akninebda, dascinoda
da marTlac sasacilo sanaxavebi iyvnen, asakis mixedviT Camwkrivebulni rom
miuyvebodnen saqonlisa da dampali neSos suniT gaJRenTil orRobes
kaSelebis agarakisken, viTom "gamosasvlel", magram ukve sakmaod Selaxul,
dalaqul, gamoxunebul da dapataravebul kostumebSi gamowyobilni... raJdeni
rZlis gabzekil ZuZuebze ki fiqrobs, rac TqvenTvis, mwerlebisTvis,
moralistebisTvis, dasagmobi saqcielia, magram CvenTvis, kaSelebisTvis,
kaciWamiebisTvis, esec omia daundobeli, mZvinvare, samkvdro-sasicocxlo
xoda, Tuki qali qveynis saxea, rogorc Tqven amtkicebT, rogorc
werilobiT, iseve kerZo saubrebSic, vnaxoT, rogori saxe eqneba xval da zeg
Tqvengan Sekowiwebul qveyanas. kaSelebi seqsualuri maniakebi ki ar arian,
rogorc Tqven fiqrobT gulSi, malulad (gamxelisa geSiniaT), aramed
erTxel da samudamod micemuli ficis erTguli jariskacebi, erTxel da
samudamod dasaxuli miznis yurmoWrili monebi da dro-Jamis baton-patronni.
jer qalobisa araferi etyoboda lizikos, "sxva TvaliT" rom Sexeda
raJdenma pirvelad, oRond, imitom ki ara, Tqven rom ggoniaT, aramed bavSvis
jer kidev ucodveli sulis gadasarCenad, usafuZvlo siZulvilisgan
gasanTavisufleblad da ukve Tamamad SeiZleba iTqvas, am keTilSobil
mizans Sealia raJdenma TiTqmis mTeli Tavisi cxovreba. Zia raJden, Zia
raJden, marTla kaciWamia iyo antonis babua? marTla kaciWamia iyo? marTla
kaciWamia? magram am sulelurma SekiTxvam ki ar gaaRiziana maSin raJdeni
amis mets ras laparakobdnen qviSxeTSi dasasveneblad Camosuli mwerlebi
cacxvebis xeivanSi aramed amgvari SekiTxvisaTvis Tavad bavSvis, Tu
SeiZleba ase iTqvas, yovlad Seuferebelma garegnobam: cxvirsa da zeda
tuCze Worfli mosdeboda, dabuStuli tuCebi sisxlisfrad ubzinavda da
jer kidev biWur mkerdze odnav SeSupeboda ZuZusTavebi... im dRis mere, erTi
wuTiTac ar auRia raJdens xeli, imave mwerlebis gagebiT, "saTakilo" da
"aranormalur" ganzraxvaze, piriqiT, gaunelebeli mRelvarebiT elodeboda,
rodis dahkravda Jami da yvelafrisgan damcavi asakidan gamosuli liziko,
misTvisac rodis gaxdeboda xelmisawvdomi nebismieri TvalsazrisiT. oRond,
gulxeldakrefili ki ar elodeboda, mklavebdakapiwebuli Sromobda am
procesis dasaCqareblad, yvelaferze midioda, yvelafers kisrulobda, erTi
dRec rom ar ecxovra lizikos uimisod, ase vTqvaT, fsiqologiur transSi
hyoloda ganuwyvetliv aba, TvalxuWuna Tojinao, aba, naZvis xis
mosawvevebio, aba, Teatris bileTebio, aba, dobilebTan erTad, "iveriis"
kafeSi dapatiJebao da, ra vici... mokled, vidre lizikos mama, batoni
elizbari, cacxvebis xeivanSi qirqilebda, kolegebis gulis mosagebad, is
lizikos Sxamsa da gesls wovda sulidan, vTqvaT, xazgasmuli, gadametebuli
da, TavisTavad cxadia, jer arafriT damsaxurebuli yuradRebiT, rac,
sxvaTaSoris, yvela qals erTnairad siamovnebs, varikaa Tu kruxi, ubiwo
angelozi Tu Zirgavardnili meZavi... ase rom, TviTon lizikom SeiZleba verc
SeamCnia, zogadad kaSelebis potenciuri mteri, rogor iqca kerZod raJden
kaSelis "ganuyrel megobrad", Tanac antonis zurgs ukan... rasac liziko jer
kidev bavSvuri gulwrfelobiTa da ukve garkveuli qaluri sikekluciTac
uyveboda xolme raJdens, antons umalavda, radgan imis mosmena antonisnair
mamlayinwa mijnurebs araTu ar siamovnebT, arc SeuZliaT. raJdens ki, ara
marto usasrulod SeeZlo esmina lizikosTvis, aramed wamqezebluri,
wamaxalisebeli yuradRebiTac. qalebs uyvarT, roca usmenen da lizikoc
meti mondomebiT, meti xalisiT uyveboda samamamTilos, Tu vis mierTmia
misTvis "ormetriani" vardebi, satrfialo baraTTan erTad; vis SeeTavazebina
manqaniT gaseirneba Tbilisis SemogarenSi; vis daepatiJna "yvelaze modur"
kafeSi, duqansa Tu restoranSi da, bolos, vis eTxova xeli "mTeli
seriozulobiT"... raJdens, TavisTavad cxadia, naklebad aRelvebda lizikos
vnebani, mas Tavis saqme hqonda, msaxurobda, da cxeli yavisa Tu civi
Sampanuris wrupvac samsaxurSi eTvleboda. magram eniT auwerel siamovnebas
aniWebda imis gancda da SegrZneba, ganuwyvetliv rom ecemoda wylis done
misi usasrulo moTminebis zRvaSi, cxeli yavisa Tu civi Sampanuris yoveli
ylupis Semdeg. cotac da, fskeric gamoCndeba, qafiani SlamiTa da
lorwovani wyalmcenareebiT mofenili, da aseve bunebrivad gaSiSvldeba,
gamoaSkaravdeba misi ganzraxvac, rac unda amazrzeni da miuRebeli iyos
sxvebisTvis... eWvic ar epareba, aucileblad gaitans Tavisas. darwmunebulia,
amas elodeba misgan lizikoc da Tqvenc darwmunebuli brZandebodeT,
yvelaferi ise iqneba, rogorc kaSelebs aZlevs xels. sxva gza ar arsebobs.
ara, gzis meti raa, magram umal axali gzis maZiebeli moinaTleba
moRalated, vidre Zvelis erTguli mimdevari. iciT, ra uTxra erTxel
lizikom?! mamaze metad Tqven gendobiTo; mamasTan verasodes viqnebodi aseTi
Tavisufalio. ai, ra uTxra lizikom raJdens da, SegiZliaT sityvaze
dagvijeroT, savsebiT gulwrfelad, oRond, cota ukve SeWikWikebulma.
romeliRac axal barSi isxdnen (rasakvirvelia, "antonze saWoraod"), albaT
yofil perovskaiaze da Tumca barSi musikisgan yurTasmena aRar iyo,
saidanRac srolis xma mainc ismoda yrud. lizikos laparakisas
ganuwyvetliv eRimeba xolme, TviTonac rom ar icis raze, da sasmelisgan
gabrwyinvebul TvalebSi feTiani, dauqancavi Winkebi dauxtis...

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 liza, liziko, sada xar gogo! daiZaxa taso Zalom.
 raJdeni saswrafod moSorda lizikos da naWris savarZels daubrunda,
saidanac eswuTia wamomdgariyo, xolo, wamodgomamde, romeliRac didi
mtacebeli cxoveliviT, viTom sxvaTaSoris, viTom Tvlemamoreuli
uTvalTvalebda flostebSi fexwayrilsa da SiSvel tanze sarafangadacmul
rZals, romelic yavas iduRebda gazquraze da, rasakvirvelia, grZnobda
mamamTilis daJinebul mzeras, rac, cota ar iyos, abnevda da akvirvebda,
radgan arasodes ganecada msgavsi ram mamamTilTan dakavSirebiT, Tumca,
mSvenivrad icoda, "mTlad gulgrili"ar iyo mamamTili mis mimarT da gulis
siRrmeSi eamayeboda kidec, roca Suriani dobilebi aqeT-iqidan Casisinebdnen
yurSi, Svilze ufro, mgoni, mama gearSiyebao, oRond, es msubuqi,
zedapiruli, ase vTqvaT, nebadarTuli da, mxolod da mxolod, urTierT
simpaTiis gamomxatveli flirti, upirveles yovlisa, sakuTari Tavisadmi
pativiscemis grZnobas uCenda da sakuTar SesaZleblobebSi arwmunebda
qalobamoaxloebul gogos, yovelSemTxvevaSi, saSiSsa da saCoTiros
verafers xedavda Tavad, magram am erTi wuTis win, marTla mtacebeli
cxovelivivT uCumrad rom mieparnen uknidan da gavarvarebuli peSvebi
mxrebze Camoawyves, cotas morCa, guli SeuRonda, wesierad verc mixvda uceb,
ra moxda, ra SeemTxva uCinari xafangis kari elvis uswrafesad daixura
da sruliad marto, sruliad daucveli aRmoCnda moulodnelad SekumSul
sivrceSi, mtvrisa da dampali ficris suniT gajerebul wyvdiadSi magram
taso Zalom rom dauZaxa saidanRac, ki ar gauxarda, uaresad dafrTxa,
imanac ar gaigoso, da aqa var, yavas viduRebo upasuxa rac SeiZleboda
swrafad, daeWvebis saSualeba rom ar mieca misTvis, arada, acaxcaxebul
xelSi carieli Jezve eWira, isic acaxcaxebuli, xolo, ukve wamoduRebuli
da yavisfrad afofrili siTxe SiSiniT aSreboda gazquris qaTqaTa
zedapirs...
ki ar viduReb, vRvri daazusta maSinve, viTom, Tqvens aq aryofnaSi,
sxva araferi momxdara ufro mniSvnelovanio.
Ria karSi taso Zalom Semoixeda. mkerdze Tixis qoTani miexutebina.
qoTnidan patara kaktuss amoeyo xorkliani Tavi.
es qoTani dagrCa, Tu aq toveb? hkiTxa lizikos.
vtoveb, taso Zalo, vtoveb ratomRac aRelda liziko da mxarze
CamoCaCuli bretelis gasworeba scada nikapiT, magram maSinve gadaifiqra.
naxeT, ra momivida gamoxeda mxarszemodan saqme mogimateT
moubodiSa gulwrfelad.
momikvdes Tavi Seicxada taso Zalom yava ro gindoda?!
ara uSavs, TbilisSi davlev, mainc Zalian cxela daamSvida
lizikom.
 marTlac, Zalian cxeloda. mumliT gasqelebuli haeri udabnos silasaviT
italReboda irgvliv. sunTqva Wirda, magram mxolod aq ki ara, qviSxeTSi,
mTels saqarTveloSi. "ekipaJi mzad ariso" ezodan daiZaxa antonma.
raJdeni ki, isev savarZelSi ijda, mSvidi da uzrunveli, rogorc aqaurobis
baton-patrons Seefereboda, magram sinamdvileSi, lizikoze naklebi
Zalisxmeva rodi Wirdeboda garegnuli simSvidisa da uzrunvelobis
SesanarCuneblad. Tavis qebas kitris fasi aqvs, magram bevri ver gabedavda,
rac man es wuTia gabeda. gabeda da, rame Tu gaegeba saerTod qalisa,
gaumarTla kidec. vinc ar bedavs, arc Sampanurs miirTmevs, rogorc rusebs
uyvarT Tqma, xoda, erTi suli aqvs, rodis Caikoklozinebs pirs gambedaobiT
mopovebuli SampanuriT. esec male iqneba. aRdgoma da xvaleo. rac mTavaria,
veRaraferi daudgeba win. rasakvirvelia, eWvic ar epareboda, aucileblad
rom gaitanda Tavisas (axla ukve dabejiTebiT SeuZlia Tqvas, lizikoc
mxolod amas elodeboda misgan), magram mainc ar egona, ase uceb, ase
moulodnelad Tu eweoda sawadels... weRan, sruliad SemTxveviT, sul erTi
wamiT Sexedes erTmaneTs TvalebSi da mixvda, dayovneba aRar SeiZleboda.
aqve, axlave unda garkveuliyo, risi maqnisebi iyvnen, ras imsaxurebdnen
cxovrebisgan saerTod. mere araferi aRar axsovs. es mumli ki ar brunavda,
namdvili xanZari mZvinvarebda irgvliv da cecxlis daklaknil enebSi
zedized, ukvalod iferflebodnen mamaSvilobis, rZal-mamamTilobis, ufros-
umcrosobis da nebismieri adamianuri urTierTobis damadasturebeli
sabuTebi... aRaraferi aRar arsebobda, garda misi Jinisa, da imasac isRa
darCenoda, damoneboda sakuTar Jins... Tumca, wesierad TviTonac ar icoda,
ras sCadioda, radgan rasac sCadioda, gaugonari sigiJe da siTavxede iyo
misganac ki... magram, kacma rom Tqvas, ra Caidina amisTana?! mivida da Tavis
sakuTrebas daado xeli. ratomaa es saTakilo saqcieli?! gana lizikoc ukve
misi sakuTreba ar aris, iseve rogorc antoni, anda fefe, anda mamamisis
nabozvari taso, Tavis nabiWvrianad?! ki batono, liziko SeiZleba mTlad ar
iyos xelidan wasuli, magram bevrad ar gansxvavdeba dRevandeli
gogoSkebisgan. ufro iqiTaa, vidre aqeT. eweva kidec, svams kidec da, Sen xar
Cemi batoni... yovel SemTxvevaSi, mxurvale momxrea Tavisufali siyvarulisa
Tu siyvarulis Tavisuflebisa. am saqmeSi namdvili revolucioneria, ese igi,
ukve sakmao seqsualuri gamocdileba gaaCnia da albaT arc axlaa marto
antons miCerebuli. is ki ara, antonamdec moaswro raRac-raRaceebi... mokled,
magari gogoa, namdvilad Tanamedrove, da aseTi iyo yovelTvis. striptizoba
rom Semovida TbilisSi, antonis dabadebis dRes (warmoidgineT, sxvagan ras
izamda), pirveli eg avardeboda xolme magidaze da debili antoni yiraze
gadadioda, sxvam ar daiWiros Cemi gulisvardis nifxavio. xoda, axlac
Seunaxos namusi... mamakacuri alRo Tu ar atyuebs raJdens, liziko umal mis
sigiJes gaamarTlebs (mouwonebs), vidre gonierebas...
 antoni da didyura grigola SedarebiT iolad moiSora. jer manqanis
garecxva daavala imaT, mere bargis Calageba manqanaSi. taso Zalo ki, ufro
Zneli mosaSorebeli aRmoCnda, pepelasaviT, yvelgan erTdroulad
dafarfatebda, ezoSic, aivanzec, oTaxebSic... magram, kacma rom Tqvas, ra
moaxlis saqmea, ras Caidens batoni sakuTar saxlSi?! imas gindac exila,
mainc ar daujerebda sakuTar Tvalebs da gindac daejerebina, Tavcocxali
ver gaamxelda, isev sakuTari interesebidan gamomdinare. mokle ena msaxuris
keTildReobis garantiaa. rac Seexeba Jeleznis, TavisTvis iwva gamakSi da
Tu ar dauZaxebdnen, arc gamoixedavda aqeTken. iman icis Tavis saqme. ase rom,
Tuki vinme aferxebda raJdens, isev liziko, oRond, Tavisi miukareblobiT ki
ara, piriqiT, usityvo, magram aSkara TanxmobiT. ara marto xvdeboda da ara
marto uwonebda mamamTils ganzraxvas, exmareboda kidec ganzraxvis
aRsrulebaSi, Tavad gvirgvini ganzraxvisa. arafriT ar moSorda gazquras,
idga da elodeboda, gnebavT, idga da aqezebda, gabedeo, da swored es
usityvo mipatiJeba aeWvebda raJdens, SantaJs xom ar miwyobso. dRevandeli
gogoebisgan yvelaferia mosalodneli da ukadriss Tu ar ikadreben, is unda
gagikvirdes kacs. magram lizikos sarafans landi gasdioda da raJdens
uWirda saRad azrovneba. axla ki, guli gaxeTqvaze aqvs, oRond, imitom ki
ara, es ra Cavidineo, piriqiT, bolomde rom ver miiyvana saqme (etyoba, mainc
ar eyo gambedaoba). imas dardobs, imas ganicdis, vai Tu, wamieri sisustis
gamomJRavneba aRmoCndes es lizikosTvis da, vai Tu, sZlios am wamier
sisusteso, axlos aRar gamikaroso... marTlac, xom SeiZleba gadaifiqros?!
SeiZleba, jer verc xvdeba, ra Caidina. xoda, male mixvdeba, ra codvaSi
dgams fexs... da mainc, da mainc, da mainc... raJdenis upasuxod datoveba gana
naklebi codvaa?! vera, ver gabedavs raJdenis gawbilebas. eSinia raJdenisa.
qmars rom uTxras?! qmars rom sTxovos Svela, damicavi mamaSenisgano?! ar
sTxovs. saamisod zedmetad amayia... da arc araferi sWirs saSveli. saSvelad
rom hqonoda saqme, "sveckis" ki ar gaubamda taso Zalos yavasa da
kaktusebze, fexebSi Cauvardeboda. axla iZulebulia, yvelas daumalos,
pirvel rigSi ki qmars. sxvaTaSoris, raJdens wesierad arc axsovs, ra
moxda, ase vTqvaT, "ra doneze" daSordnen erTmaneTs. ufro sworad, mxolod
is axsovs, rogor mivida da rogor Camoado mxarze xeli, SeiZleba,
mamaSviluradac... Zalian cxeloda (rogorc axla cxela) da aqauroba
mumliT iyo savse (rogorc axlaa), TiTqos cecxlis alSi idga. suli
ekvroda alis simxurvalisgan. rasakvirvelia, Tavs ar imarTlebs, arc
ganzraxvaze iRebs xels, magram viRac sxva rom warmarTavda mis Wkua-
gonebas, cxadia. komunisti ambobs amas da ara viRac morwmune, gnebavT,
crumorwmune. arc is moiqca kargad, gaTxovili qalis kvalobaze arafriT
ar moSorda gazquras, am gagania sicxeSi. maincdamainc, amas daudga win,
lamis dediSobila. is sarafani ginda gcmia, ginda ara. mumli kidev calke!
raJdeni ki ara, taso Zaloa gaSterebuli, dedis tola qali, msgavsic
araferi minaxavso, pirjvars iwers ganuwyvetliv. imas yvelafrisa eSinia,
magram, ra ici, eSmaks ar Zinavs... amerikelebisgan yvelaferia mosalodneli.
iqneb baqteriebs avrceleben?! ra, ar SeiZleba?! Tu ar ikadreben?! albaT
mumlis gansakuTrebuli saxeoba gamohyavT saamisod. marTlac, ucnauri
mumlia, msxvili, dondlo, wyliani... avadmyofuri. mumli-raketa.
baqteriomzidi. Cveneburi bevrad ufro wvrilia da mouxelTebeli. mumlma
auria amasac goneba. yvelgan mumli yria, baliSzec, razec Tavi gvidevs, da
purzec, rasac vWamT. sasunTqi gzebica da saylapavi milic okupirebulia.
Sxami (haerTan erTad) Seuferxeblad Caedineba ganwirulTa SigneulSi.
yvelani mumlis webovan mtverSi arian amoganglulni... aman mxarze xeli
Camoado mxolod, is ki, giJiviT moutrialda da taso Zalo rom ar
gamoCeniliyo droze, albaT cocxlad SeWamda. erTi piroba, daibna kidec
raJdeni, uceb ver gaarkvia, TviTon daesxa Tu mas daesxnen Tavs. misma Svilma
jer ar icis, vis xelSia Cavardnili. gaigebs ki rodisme?! ara gvgonia.
imedia, qmarTan ufro TavdaWerilia. rac sayvarlebs moswonT, is qmrebs
aRizianebT. ukve icis albaT, ra bedauric yavs. am qveynisa araferi gaegeba.
wignSia TavCarguli, rogorc viri TofrakSi. magram viri qersa Wams,
Svrias, is ki arafers... tyuilebs, zRaprebs... dedamisma maTxovrobiT
daiwyo, is ki, maTxovrobiT daamTavrebs. wignis amara, Sors ver wava dRes
kaci. raJdens rame rom mouvides (avad gaxdes, moxsnan, daiWiron, anda, misi
winaprebis msgavsad, isic quCaSi moklas vinmem), erTi dRe ver gaitanen Tavs,
marTla gamaTxovrdebian. magram antoni mainc nametania. colsac mama unaxavs
da saerTodac, simarTle Tu gindaT, raJdenis saxelsa da gavlenas gayvnen
colad da ara raJdenis vaJis kokora ulvaSebs. ulvaSi arc amosdis, mgoni.
amitom, Svilis colze iseTive uflebebi unda hqondes raJdens, rogoric
sakuTarze aqvs. ase ar aris?! tarani TvliTaa. xoda, antonic erTi tarania
mxolod. ise moiqceva, rogorc mamasa da cols endomeba. vin icis, madlobac
Tqvas, Tuki am saqmeSic miexmareba mama. yovel SemTxvevaSi, "erTTviani
izolaciis" Semdeg, usityvo morCilebisa da usazRvro madlierebis meti,
veraferi amoikiTxa mis TvalebSi. weRandelsac Tu gaviTvaliswinebT, etyoba,
saerTod aseTia guSindel meamboxeTa guneba-ganwyobileba. Zalianac kargi.
mamis manqanis danaxva ise gauxarda, TiTqos qajeTis cixidan unda daexsna
mamamiss. TviTonac awveboda eleqtro-WiSkars, ufro male gaiRoso.
Taflobis Tvis gatarebac gauWirda umamod. yurebamde gawiTlda
sixarulisgan, SeiZleba sircxvilisganac. mamis zurgs ukan miRebuli
siamtkbilobisa Sercxva da im siamtkbilobisTvis ufro mamis madlieria,
vidre colisa. es unda raJdensac. mamaZaRli! ratom maSin ar wiTldeboda da
ratom maSin ar rcxvenoda, fexiT rom upirebdnen dakidebas mamamiss misi
TanamebrZolebi?! arada, mitingic ver gamarTes uraJdenod. isev raJdeni
patronobdaT. mTeli dRe mzesumziras aknawunebdnen mTavrobis sasaxlis
kibeze miyrilebi, RamRamobiT ki, saZile tomrebSi uZvrebodnen erTmaneTs. es
egonaT Tavisufleba da damoukidebloba... jer kidev sakiTxavia, vin vis
dakidebs, raze da riTi, magram bevri ram raJdenis bralicaa. ver moicala
Svilis gasawvrTnelad. qals miando es saqme da Sedegmac ar daayovna.
qalaCuna. wignSi emaleba cxovrebas. liziko ufro vaJkacuria da
cxovrebasac ufro uwyobs fexs: dausxam, dalevs. miawvdi, mowevs.
daurideblad Semogabolebs saxeSi. egaa rom, saferfles ar xmarobs. ufro
sworad, yvelafers xmarobs saferfled, racki xelSi moxvdeba, koka-kolis
boTlis xufsac, asanTis cariel kolofsac, ZabriviT daxveul qaRaldsac,
yvelafers, garda saferflisa, da, CvenSi rom vTqvaT, amasac cxovrebam
miaCvia. aseTebi arian yvelani, bunebiT mawanwalebi, usaxlkaroni... Cacmisa ar
iyos! amas Cacma hqvia?! bretelis gasworebac ezarebaT. tansacmeli
sasircxvos dasafaravad moigona adamianma da ara kidev ufro gamosaCenad...
megobroba megobrobad, magram qals mainc meti morideba marTebs mamakacisa,
gindac, mamamTilad ekuTvnodes... mis qmars ki wigni ver gaagdebines xelidan.
es weria im wignebSi?! mTeli bavSvoba Tavze sabanwafarebulma gaatara,
SeTqmuliviT. jibis fanris Suqze kiTxulobda giJi nikolozis wignebs. misi
tolebi tye-Rres iyvnen modebulni... maT Soris, lizikoc... is ki, WaWanaWam
indauriviT daborialobda oTaxebSi. ager naxavT, bebiamisiviT, egec
narkomani Tu ar gaxdeba bolos (ukve Tu ar gamxdara). iqneb arc aris
kaSeli?! quCidan ahyva albaT dedamiss. dedamisi quCidan moiyvana kniaJna
qeTusiam. yvelaferi mosalodnelia imisgan. zedmetad gulCvili da zedmetad
damTmobi qali gaxlavT. veravis veraferze ver eubneba uars. maSin xom, miT
ufro ver eubneboda albaT... samagierod, Zneli mosaSorebelia. ver
moiSoreb, bavSvobaSi gakeTebuli sviringiviT. unda aTrio mTeli cxovreba.
arada, rogori saTrevia?! televizors uyurebs tiris, aivanze Citebs
sakenks uyris tiris, auTavebs tiris, sayvedurs etyvi da, kidev ufro
uaresad atirdeba, gaskdeba tiriliT. samagierod, dedamTili wamSi mokla,
CitiviT. SeiZleba, ukve fexmZimed rom iyo viRacisgan, kniaJna qeTusiamac
imitom SerTo Svils ZalaTi, qmrisgan damcirebulma, Svili daamcira, Svils
gadauxada... viTom, esec metia TqvenTviso, godris gagdebulebisTviso... Tavis
TavadiSvilobas amadlida Svils, raki mamamiss, marTlac godris gagdebuls,
oflian fexsaxvevs urecxavda iZulebiT. magram mainc gakaSelda bolos,
imanac TviTmkvlelobiT daamTavra cxovreba, kaSelebis sxva rZlebiviT,
Tuki, rasakvirvelia, fefem ar SeuSxapuna momakvdinebeli doza. pirveli
morfinisti qali gaxldaT mTels sabWoTa kavSirSi. saxelmwifo amaragebda
wamliT, ufasebda mamamTilisa da qmris damsaxurebas da amkevinebda imaT
moweul yanas. ra icoda da gindac scodnoda, raSi ainteresebda
saxelmwifos, Tu ra araadamianuri siZulviliT sZulda mis pirvel
morfinist qals Tavisianebi, mamamTilic, qmaric, Svilic... saerTod kaSelebi!
marTla ki ar Seecoda samaTxovrod xelgaSverili oboli, koWebze Seatyo,
swored is rom gamoadgeboda amxanagad Tavisianebis winaaRmdeg wamowyebul
omSi. fe-fe. fe-fe. fe-fe. sul misi saxeli ekera pirze. nemssac mxolod
imas akeTebinebda da, mTlad rom gadacda Wkuidan, mxolod imis xaTriT
"akeTebda" fisi-fisisac da Wupa-Wupasac. fe-fe, fe-fe, fe-fe, CagvimateT
Tbili wyali, CagvimateT Tbili wyali... fefe taStSi rezinis Tojinas
ugdebda da bavSviviT abanavebda, rasakvirvelia, arc mTlad uangarod.
kaSelebis saxlis diasaxlisobas iyo albaT Sepirebuli da ausrula kidec.
umwifarsa da ugnur Svils jer ZaliT gaabaxebina, vin icis, sad ar naTrevi
Zukna, mere ki, aseve ZaliT, kanonier Tanamecxedred dauskupa gverdiT.
"icode, Cemi fexiT mival, komkavSiria Tu rac ari, da sul kinwiskvriT
gamovagdebineb Sens Tavs iqidano". raJdensac ra eqna, samudamod xom ar
daiRupavda Tavs morfinisti dedisa da mawanwala colis gulisTvis?!
yvelaferi winaswar hqondaT imaT gaTvlil-gaTvaliswinebuli, ukanasknel
wvrilmanamde, raJdenis gulubryvilobis CaTvliT. rom egona, moxerxebulad
mivimwyvdie bnel kuTxeSio, imas Turme, sadedamTilos xeliT Sedgenil
instruqciaSi ewera, rogor mimwyvdeuliyo bnel kuTxeebSi da rogor daeTmo
"ufrosi ZamikosTvis" yvelaferi. ase da amgvarad, "da-Zmuri siyvaruliT"
daorsulebuli "sabralo oboli" jer rZlis, mere dedis, mere ki,
diasaxlisis uflebebiT aRiWurva da samudamod damkvidrda kaSelebis
ojaxSi. magram mis Svils namdvilad araferi scxia kaSelebisa da esec
ufro raJdenis gulkeTilobis bralia, vidre fefes siveragisa. piriqiT, es
danaSauli ki ara, damsaxurebaa fefesi. esec gaTvaliswinebuli iyo rZal-
dedamTils Soris dadebul xelSekrulebaSi deda vutiroT kaSelebso,
gugulis kvercxi CavudoT budeSio, Signidan gavtexoT cixeo... magram jer
vnaxoT, vin izeimebs bolos. yovelSemTxvevaSi, raJdens srulebiTac ar
enaRvleba Svilis Rirseba, miT ufro, misi mamakacuri pativmoyvareoba. ratom
da, imitom. mainc ise moiqceva, rogorc lizikos endomeba. lizikos ki is
unda, rac raJdens. amaze ori azri ar arsebobs. da rac mTavaria, raJdeni is
sulswrafi, dedakacis suniT tvindabnelebuli ymawvili aRar aris,
dedamisma rom daixvia TiTze yaWis ZafiviT. ase rom, saWiro Tu Seiqna, jer
kidev SeiZleba imis garkveva, rac Tavis droze ar garkveula, mizezTa
sxvaTa da sxvaTa gamo. anu, srulebiTac ar gaukvirdeba raJdens, Tuki, erT
mSvenier dRes, swori aRmoCndeba misi varaudi. ese igi, sinamdvileSic
dedamTils gadayolili, dedamTilze mzrunveli da dedamTilis
mosiyvarule rZali ki ar aRmoCndeba fefe, aramed Cveulebrivi mkvleli.
marTalia, mis dedamTils nemsis gasakeTebeli adgilic aRar hqonda
darCenili, aRarc enis qveS da aRarc Tvalis gugaze, da, kacma rom Tqvas,
madlic iyo misi sikvdili, magram sayvarelma da saamayo rZalma uazro da
zedmeti tanjvisgan ki ar gaanTavisufla igi, risi mitevebac kidev SeiZleba,
aramed Tavad gainTavisufla sadedamTilo taxti cocxlad dampali
dedabris mZorisgan... aseTia raJdenis varaudi. magram jer namdvilad ar
scalia amis gasarkvevad. Tumca, mosalodnelia, droze adre gaxdes
gadasaxedi kaSelebis saojaxo arqivi, Tuki fefe bolomde ar daudgeba
qmars gverdSi. kaSelebis qalic kaSelia. unda Tu ar unda, moswons Tu ar
moswons, Tanaxmaa Tu ara Tavad... kaSeloba ki, ara marto yvelafris atanas,
yvelafris Cadenasac gulisxmobs. kaSeloba mZime tvirTia, udidesi
pasuxismgeblobaa kacobriobis naTeli momavlis winaSe... dalxinebuli
cxovreba usisxlod ar moipoveba, sisxls ki, kaSelebi Rvrian ZiriTadad,
rogorc sxvisas, ise sakuTars. wignsa da TeatrSi Tavis mokvlac advilia da
sxvisic, magram cxovrebaSi amasac gansakuTrebuli niWi Wirdeba. yvela ver
SeZlebs. kaSelebma SeZles. yvela maTgans hyavs kaci (xalxi) mokluli
(daxocili) da arcerTi maTgani ar momkvdara sakuTari sikvdiliT, TavianTi
qalebis CaTvliT. raJdenic, rasakvirvelia, Rirseuli STamomavalia Tavisi
winaprebisa. rogorc qveyanaSi am bolo dros mimdinare procesebis
gaanalizeba gviCvenebs, yvelaferi SeiZleba ganmeordes: ocdaerTic,
ocdaoTxic, ocdaCvidmetic, ormocdaTerTmetic, ormocdaTeqvsmetic da ase
Semdeg... obieqturebi Tu viqnebiT, jer sinanuli adrea. dRevandeli
SemTxvevac amas adasturebs mxolod. jer axla iwyeba cxovreba. gnebavT,
cxovreba axal gamocdas gviwyobs da Tavi ar unda SevircxvinoT, Cveni
eSmakobiTa da gamWriaxobiT piri unda davaRebinoT mousyidvel gamomcdels.
davaRebinebT kidec. isemc mze maRla! mTavaria, moulodnelma warmatebam
Tavbru ar dagvaxvios da adre ar davmSviddeT. avwon-davwonoT,
gavaanalizoT yvelaferi. rasakvirvelia, arc provokaciaa gamoricxuli.
dedas ver endobi kaci. Svili rom Svilia, isic sveli saponiviT gisxlteba
wamdauwum xelidan... iqneb marTla ar aris misi Svili?! ara, ar SeiZleba.
gamoricxulia. marTalia, coli ZaliT Setena dedilom, magram is xom mainc
icis, TviTon sad Seetena Tavisi sulswrafobiT. mainc ar unda iaros kacma
qalis Wkuaze. ar daartya, codoa, jer pataraa, sustia... ras hqvia, sustia!
ras hqvia, codoa! ratom unda iyos misi Svili susti da sacodavi?! aba,
riRasTvis CaixrCvnen kaSelebi sisxlis morevSi?! riRasTvis klavdnen da
ekvlevinebodnen ZaRlsa da mamaZaRls?! raJdeni amoiyris yvelas javrs...
yvelas erTad gauswordeba maTi saxeliT... colsac, Svilsac, rZalsac... rac
Seexeba rZals, gaTavebulia imis saqme. TbilisSi ufro advili iqneba masTan
ganmartoveba. fefem ki uyuros, ramdenic unda, vidre ar mobezrdeba... axia
imaze yvelaferi. Tavs daabralos. Tavidanve unda scodnoda, sad midioda,
Tanac, akrZaluli gziT. da isic unda gaeTvaliswinebina, sxvebsac rom
siamovnebT da masze aranakleb exerxebaT bnel kuTxeebSi mimwyvdeva. Tu
kaSelebTan apirebs darCenas, esec unda Caylapos, anda, daemSvidobos
yvelafers, rac kaSelobiT moupovebia: diasaxlisobasac, colobasac,
rZlobasac, dedobasac, sul axlaxan mimatebul dedamTilobasac da
orTaWalis izolatorisken, maaaar-SSS! dedamTilis mkvlelobisTvis
(usvindiso!), Zalauflebis xelSi Cagdebis mizniT (umaduri!). sad aris fefes
gasafuWebeli Zalaufleba! Zalauflebas veravis dauTmobs raJdeni, verc
cols, verc Svils, verc rZals... tyuilia. nuravis nu eqneba imedi. arada,
Zalaufleba yvelas uyvars, Tumca, yvelas rodi SeuZlia misi borotad
gamoyeneba. xolo, Tuki borotad ver gamoiyeneb, erTi Wkviani kacisa ar iyos,
maSin, rad ginda?! magram amas rom mixvde, jer Zalaufleba unda Caigdo,
rogorme, xelSi. amitomac eltvis yvela, Rirseulic da uRirsic, sustic da
Zlieric, mcodnec da uvicic, patiosanic da garewaric... adamiani
Zalauflebis maZiebeli cxovelia. rac Cvens Tvalwin axla xdeba, esec
ZalauflebisTvis brZolaa da meti araferi. rogorc ki raJdens dauwveba
liziko, maSinve Tavze daajdeba fefes. ki batono. magram lizikomac unda
icodes, raJdens rom ekuTvnian samiveni, TviTonac, antonic da fefec... jer
es aris da mere isini. totalitarul reJimSi icxovreben Tu demokratiulSi,
mainc raJdeni gadawyvets yvelafers da imasac vnaxavT, vin vis dakidebs
rusTavelis Wadarze fexiT... mwifes esrodnen, mkvaxe cviodao. liziko,
bolos da bolos, fefes problemaa, samzareuloSi Caberebuli colisa da
ara xelisuflis. raJdens mama-papis sisxliTa aqvs xelisufleba mopovebuli
da iolad ver Seeleva, saerTod ar Seeleva, SesaZlebeli rom iyos. piriqiT,
yvelafers ikadrebs, yvelaferze wava, kidev ufro rom ganimtkicos da
gaixangrZlivos... rogor ggoniaT, universitetis ezoSi, mTeli qveynis
dasanaxad, imitom dawva partbileTi, marTla rom Seecvala
msoflmxedveloba?! anda, imitom moinaTla, RmerTi rom iwama uceb?! araviTar
SemTxvevaSi. am ori uwmindesi aqtiT, kremaciiTa da naTlobiT, sakuTari
xelisufleba ganimtkica mxolod aTasobiT da aTasobiT axalgazrdis
suli ixsna, rogorc usafuZvlo siZulvilisgan, iseve brma rwmenisgan...
usafuZvlo siZulvili da brma rwmena aiZulebs axalgazrdas, quCaSi
gamovides da xeli mouReros xelisufals. magram raJdeni araviTar
SemTxvevaSi aRar dauSvebs amas. ucxoeTSic amitom ar gauSva Svili da
rZali, marTla ar ifiqron, nebaze varT miSvebulnio. qviSxeTSi ukra orives
Tavi, mama-papur cixeSi, radgan aq Wirdeba isini da Tanac swored aseTebi
meryevebi, moRalateni, misi xelis Semyureni da mis imedzeRa darCenilni...
Zalauflebis gareSe gind yofilxar, gind ara. mxolod Zalauflebam misca
raJdens SesaZlebloba, jer gverdiT daeyenebina, mere moeToka, mere ki, Tavis
Wkuaze moeqcia Svilic da rZalic, rac arc ise cotaa CvenisTana patara
qveynisTvis. rogorc ar unda ewyinos elizbars, lizikoc ukve kaSelia,
kaSelebs ekuTvnis, da esec mxolod imas adasturebs, gamosaCenic rom ar
aris mwerluri dideba xelisuflebis gverdiT. ufro naTlad rom vTqvaT,
visac xelisufleba aqvs, imis xelSia mwerlis bedic da ara marto bedi,
aramed Svilic. rasac elizbari Tavis wignebSi wers, cotas Tu esmis, magram
aravis Wirdeba. xolo, raJdenis cxovrebis wesi TiTqmis yvelas erTnairad
akmayofilebs, yovelSemTxvevaSi, ukmayofilonic amjobineben kmayofilebad
warmoaCinon Tavi. liziko, rasakvirvelia, yovelTvis aRelvebda raJdens,
Zilic bevrjer gastydomia da Zalianac datanjula imis dabuStuli
tuCebisa da SeSupebuli ZuZusTavebis gaxsenebaze, magram es sxvaa, ufro
swored, es ar aris mTavari, amas iolad moevleba, es arc misi ojaxisTvisaa
saxifaTo da, miT ufro, arc qveynisTvis. qveynisTvisac da ojaxisTvisac
SekiTxvaa saxifaTo, swored im tuCebdabuStulma, ZuZusTavebSeSupebulma
gogom rom dausva am aTiode wlis win, viTom sxvaTaSoris "marTla
kaciWamia iyo antonis babua?" xoda, Tuki xelisuflebis SenarCuneba
gsurT, pirvel rigSi, SekiTxvis geSinodeT, bavSvis piridan amosuli
suleluri SekiTxvisa. bavSvi sazareli iaraRia, Tuki aradaniSnulebisamebr
gamoiyeneben. bavSvis naTqvamze icinian. sicili ki, nebismier xelisuflebas
aryevs da nebismier avtoritets ayenebs Crdils. amitomac "ar aniWeben"
gansakuTrebul yuradRebas, yvelanairad aqarwyleben (rac kidev ufro
sacnaurs xdis masSi Cabudebul azrs), miT ufro, Tuki bavSvis SekiTxva
xelisuflebis warmomadgenels exeba, ris merec, TavisTavad dgeba
xelisuflebaSi misi yofna-aryofnis sakiTxi. da es yvelaze ukeT im gvelaZua
ufrosebma ician, amgvar SekiTxvebs rom aswavlian da azepirebineben
Sinaganad jer kidev sufTa, jer kidev gulubryvilo bavSvs. ai, ras unda
moeRos bolo, erTxel da samudamod, marTla Tu gvinda gadarCena orpira
mwerlebis qirqils cacxvebis xeivanSi da nebismieri bavSvis Sinagan
sisufTavesa da gulwrfelobas. ufrosebis vireSmakobasa da umcrosebis
sibeces... maTi Serwyma-SeuRleba gvaZlevs uazro msxverpls, ZiriTadad isev
dasaxiCrebuli, dadamblavebuli Tu sulac daxvretili bavSvis saxiT.
vireSmaka ufrosebs rom ar waeqezebinaT, romeli WkuaTmyofeli bavSvi
gaubedavda sabWoTa kavSirs TviTmfrinavis motacebas?! TavisTavad cxadia,
arc lizikos mouvidoda azrad antonis babuis gurmanuli midrekilebebis
garkveva, Tuki kaSelebis bliTa da "eniseliT" gasisinebuli kvimati pimeni,
viTom brZeni leonti, mofrangule diomide, naoficrali gobroni, marad
TuTunis kvamlSi danTqmuli mixako, anda sulac Cveni mZaxali, gulRrZo
elizbari ar ubiZgebdnen aqeTken. bavSvis gabriyveba advilia, magram mZime
danaSaulia. bavSvma SeiZleba pirdapiri mniSvnelobiT gaigos cuRluti
ufrosis naTqvami da samudamod daijeros, TiTqos raJden kaSelis mama,
ufrosi anton kaSeli, dana-CangliT miirTmevda, vTqvaT, mixeil
javaxiSvilisa Tu tician tabiZis xorcs... magram liziko ukve dasrulebuli
qalia da TviTon icis, vis daujeros da vis ara. arc arCevani SeSlia.
RmerTi-rjuli, Zala aravis dautanebia misTvis, Tavisi nebiT moeqca
"kaSelebis gavlenis sferoSi", anu, Segnebulad uaryo mSobeli, raki
veraferi gaugo imis iwilo-biwilos... aba, sxva ra aiZulebda, me Tqven
gekiTxebiT, ratom unda moqceuliyo ase? Tanac visTan! mamamTili xom igive
mamaa?! qmris mama Seni mamacaa, Senc Svili xar imis, visi Svilic Seni qmaria.
ase ar aris?! asea! xoda, frTxilad! magram Tuki antoni marTla ar aris
raJdenis Svili, maSin?! maSin, mainc frTxilad. eSmaks ar Zinavs. magram mainc
win, saboloo gamarjvebisken. arc iseTi sulelia fefe, erTi bozandara
gogoSkas gulisTvis erTbaSad gauSvas xelidan, rac kaSelebis wyalobiT
moupovebia wlebis manZilze. rogorcki marto darCeba raJdeni lizikosTan,
gaTavebulia imisi saqme. aqedan gamomdinare, Tundac mxolod Tavis
dazRvevis mizniT, qalbaton fefes "saqmec" daideba magidaze. amazea swored
naTqvami, gabmulxar, Cito, maxeSio. oi, rom icode, ra cudad gabmulxar.
Tumca, orivesTvis ase ajobebs. saerTo mamakaci ufro daaaxlovebT, ufro
sainteresoni gaxdebian erTmaneTisTvis. erTmaneTsac ukeT gaugeben da
ojaxzec ufro daedebaT guli. erTi ukeTesi rZali iqneba, meore ukeTesi
dedamTili. qalebs uyvarT TavianTi kacebis qalebi. yvelas eyvareba
erTmaneTi da kaSelebis ojaxi samagaliTo iqneba yvelasTvis. yvela
yvelasTvis da yvelaferi saerTo. meti ki araferia komunizmi! SiSi Seiqms
siyvarulsa. SiSi da mxolod SiSi. sxva yvelaferi tyuilia. SiSma Sekra es
qveyana. erTi patara kacis eSinoda yvelas. axla uSiSrebi gavxdiT da
gvetira kidec deda. jer sada xarT! unifxvo gogo gadmodgeba tribunaze da,
Zirs ruseTis imperiao. vin gapatiebs! erT godorSi Cagvtenian yvelas da,
ialbuzidan dagvagoreben, erTi Tqveni patronis dedaco... SiSi da morideba
ufrosisa! SiSi da morideba! rom SeeSinda, imitomac gauCerda weRan liziko.
ar egona, ar eloda. ver gamibedavso... me ukve damoukidebeli qali var da
nifxavs minda Cavicvam, minda arao. magram ver miarTves. Jezve gauvarda
xelidan... etyoba, marTlac, arc ise bevria ormocdaaTi weli. gindac,
ormocdaTormeti iyos... arc ise bevria, me da Cemma RmerTma...
 raJdenma muSti gametebiT dairtya barZayze da, yovel SemTxvevisaTvis,
maSinve gaiRima, Tumca, ukve marto iyo. lizikos xma ezodan ismoda.
gankargulebebs iZleoda kaSelebis didi saxlis patara diasaxlisi. axali
kadri, Zvelis mesaflave. raRacas eubneboda didyura grigolas, fuls
utovebda albaT. aba, ra! amxela saxlis movla-patronoba advilia?! Tanac
dRes. is ki, didyura, Cveulebisamebr uarobda, magram bolos mainc aiRebda.
rac ekuTvnis, Tavcocxali ar daTmobs. mamaZaRli. kaSelebiTa aqvs zurgi da,
mgoni, TviTonac kaSelad asaRebs Tavs, rogorc Citma moutana raJdens
ambavi. iqneb marTla kaSelia?! ra gasakviria viTom, mamamiss marto saxlis
mosavlelad ki ara, gulis gadasayolebladac hyoloda aq taso Zalo?! ar
iqneboda axalgazrdobaSi cudi qali... giJi colis xelSi, janmrTeli
sofleli gogo sworedac rom miswrebaa, yvela damamSvidebel wamals sjobs.
ese igi, ra gamodis didyura grigola raJdenisaTvis? ra gamodis da, Zma.
Tundac, naxevarZma. rac mTavaria, mamiT erTni arian. raRaca marTla aqvs
kaSelebis, im SeCvenebuls. magaliTad, Zalauflebis siyvaruli. adgilobrivi
sabaJoc egaa da sagzao policiac. leibis qveS uRvedo avtomats inaxavs.
Tbilisidan axalcixemde, mTeli trasa sakontrolo zonebadaa dayofili
adgilobriv mglebs Soris. yvela gzispira sofels Tavisi wvlili udevs
qveynis daSla-daqucmacebaSi. mokled, yvelaferi isea, rogorc unda iyos,
rogorc gegmiTaa gaTvaliswinebuli. dRevandeli mgzavroba am
TvalsazrisiTac saintereso aRmoCnda raJdenisaTvis. roca geubnebian, sxvaa
da roca Seni TvaliT naxav sxva. me mgoni, cota zedmetic ki mosvliaT,
sul gauCexavT gzispira xeebi da qarsacavebi. am gzaze navali kacisTvis
cota Semawuxebelia moulodnelad gamocarielebuli sivrce. ase, patar-
patara zonebad dayofili qveyana samarTavadac advilia da saZarcvavadac.
midi da moixmare, Tu SegiZlia. elizbari raRaceebs xvdeba, magram mainc ver
ijerebs, gegmazomierad Tu keTdeba yvelaferi... caSi aris gadawyvetil-
SeTanxmebuli... eklesiis zarebsa da wiflis morebs ki ara, bebiis danatovar
qinZisTavs ver gadaitan sazRvarze, gansakuTrebuli nebarTvis gareSe...
aravize naklebi mglebi ar arian Cveni biWebi, gveleSaps ar Seepuebian.
Tundac, igive Cveni didyura grigola... CvenTan igrixeba ase, gasaTxovari
qaliviT, Torem, SuaRamisas, Saragzaze, sul sxva cxovelia... uRvedo
avtomats mklavze gadaiwvens mTvrali boziviT, kombinezonis sayelos
qeComde aiqaCavs da zurgiT mieyudeba mdinaris qars. Tuki vinme ubedurs aqeT
udevs gza, urCevnia namdvil mgels Cauvardes pirSi. didyura grigolac imis
xmals iqnevs, vis pursac Wams. axla ar ikiTxoT, vis purs Wams Cveni sagzao
policia da sabaJo. sxvaTaSoris, yvelaze ukeT axalgazrdebi moergnen
"axali yaidis" cxovrebas. rasakvirvelia, sxvebze ukeTesni, axlomxedvelni
da SorsmWvretelni. Tumca, TviTona varT mowmeni, Tavidan arc isini
ibrZodnen amisTvis. umravlesoba xaxamSrali darCa da Sors rom ar wavideT,
ager aris ori saukeTeso nimuSi gawbilebuli, gabiTurebuli
revolucionerisa... nefe-patarZali... jer kidev ar itexen ixtibars, xval ki,
SeiZleba, quCaSic aRar gauCerdnen erTmaneTs... yvelaze Zalian erTmaneTisa
rcxveniaT da Tu vinmes abraleben, erTmaneTs abraleben TavianT marcxs... es
sworad warmarTuli muSaobis Sedegia da amazec iTqmeba erTi-ori sityva
Tavis droze. am sulelebs egonaT, nebaze varT miSvebulnio da gaaCaRes
taSfanduri. magram biWi yvelafers xedavs zemodan da yvelaze mkacrad imaT
sjis, visac weli aRar mosdevT, magram guli mainc erCiT. imaT sindiszea es
mcocavi omic, didyura grigolas zar-zeimi... narkobiznesisa da
prostituciis arnaxuli ayvaveba... "lekianobisa" Tu "ymaTa syidvis"
xaverdovani sezoni... warsuls ki ar bardeba marTla, rogorc bavSvebs
vatyuebT skolaSi, naRverdaliviT exveva istoriuli gamocdilebis nacarSi,
maSinve rom gamoCxrikos biWma, rogorcki dasWirdeba. meomari xalxi varTo,
gaviZaxiT, da, marTlac, nebismier tilian qarTvels daedeba fasi, oRond, Sav
bazarze, rogorc sarecxis sodas, kbilis pastas, prezervativsa Tu Sav
pilpils... axla, xelisuflebisgan waxalisebuli da saxelmwifo rangSi
ayvanili qurdobac daumateT amas da TviTonve TqviT, ra daemarTeba samgzis
ukve monelebul qveyanas... marqsizmi qurdulma moralma daamarcxa mxolod.
ubnis rwmunebuls zed ar afurTxebdnen ubanSi, qurds ki ZaRlic ar uyefda.
biWmac uyura, uyura da airCia: beladebi Tavdayira gadmoyara
kvarcxlbekebidan, qurds ki yvela gza gauxsna, qveynis umaRlesi eSelonebis
CaTvliT. icis biWma Tavisi saqme! antoni ki icinis, udardelad, arxeinad.
siZe-batoni. xmadaboxebuli. dadarbaislebuli. Taflobis TviT dakacebul-
dabrZenebuli (isemc ra vuTxari!). verafers gaigebs da gindac gaigos, ar
daijerebs. ise, rom gaigos ukeTesi iqneba misTvis, fass daadebs Tavis wils.
magram, vTqvaT da marTla gaigos, maSin?! gamoricxulia. gamoricxulia,
amxanagebo... me maswavliT Cemi Svilis ambavs?! mainc, mainc, nu, ramenairad...
bolos da bolos, xom SeiZleba, Tavs veRar moerios liziko da ukiduresi
siaxlovis Jams wamoscdes loginSi?! amxela ambavSi gaexva da arc Tqvas! aba,
ratom akeTebs?! qmarsac ar gaagebinos?! aba, Tu gamoicnob, visTan SeiZleba
gRalatobde... qalebs uyvarT cecxlTan TamaSi. lizikosnair qalebs.
tyuilad ki ar amsgavsebs fefe kniaJna qeTusias. isic mTeli sicocxle
cecxls eTamaSeboda. magram liziko Tu ar ityvis, veravin gamoicnobs, miT
ufro, qmari. xolo, Tu ityvis, pirvel rigSi qmari ar daujerebs. yvelaze
metad swored qmars gauWirdeba amis dajereba. marTlac, rogori
dasajerebelia, erTi Tvis SerTuli coli sakuTar mamasTan gRalatobdes!
ara, TqmiT namdvilad ar ityvis, arc aseTi gulubryviloa, magram advili
SesaZlebelia, saWiroebis SemTxvevaSi, marTla wamoicdinos. qalisgan, miT
ufro, lizikosnair qalisgan yvelaferia mosalodneli. amitomac
vfrTxilobT Cvenc. SeiZleba, undodes da ar Caidinos, anda, piriqiT, ar
undodes da Caidinos, radgan misTvis is ki ar aris mTavari, ra unda an ra
ar unda, aramed sxvebs daumtkicos, imis Camdenica var, razec Tqven mxolod
ocnebobTo, razec suli migdiT, magram ver gagibedavTo...

CvenTan ars RmerTi!

CvenTan ars RmerTi!
CvenTan ars Rme e e erTi!
 waiRiRina raJdenma popularuli simReris fragmenti da siamovnebiT
aRniSna gunebaSi, fexi aRar miZagZagebso. ese igi, Cveuli simSvidec
daubrunda. ase rom, ukve SeiZleboda daZruliyvnen. aq rac unda momxdariyo,
moxda. madloba aqaurobas, magram mTavari TbilisSi unda moxdes da moxdeba
kidec. amitom, win, Tbilisisken, amxanagebo! sadRac, tvinis romeliRac
ujredSi, rkinis komisris STambeWdavma saxem gaielva, bavSvobidanve
SeTvisebul-Sesisxlxorcebulma. "win, amxanagebo, Tbilisisken!" imanac
mouwoda afutfutebul, aCoCqolebul, azavTebul brbos. brboSi raJden
kaSelic dgas, oRond, ufrosi, am raJdenis babua. imasac, rkinis komisariviT,
grZeli, CafarTxunebuli mazara acvia da Zabriseburi qudi axuravs. erTi
suli aqvs, rodis daiZvrebian Tbilisisken. moenatra taniniani Rvino da
xaliani qalebi. win! win! win! raJdens, pataraobisas, Tanaklaselebi moyavda
xolme skolidan imis xmlis saCveneblad. Camoxsnida kedlidan da
qarqaSianad SemarTavda Tavs zemoT. win! win! win! sxvaTaSoris, sakuTari
rZlis damorCileba da sakuTari dedaqalaqis aReba, Tavisi simZafriTa da
mniSvnelobiT, erTmaneTis tolfas movlenebad aRiniSneba albaT kaSelebis
sagvareulo matianeSi da yvelaze naTlad daadasturebs papisa da
SviliSvilis suliersa da xorciel erTianobas, erTnairobas... aRiniSneba
isic, papa da SviliSvili, marTalia, sxvadasxva dros, sxvadasxva gzebiTa da
saSualebebiT, magram erTnairi suliskveTebiT aRgznebulni da erTi JiniT
Sepyrobilni rom miiswrafodnen Tbilisisken: dasapyrobad, dasarbevad,
dasamorCileblad... anu, Zveli qarTuliT rom vTqvaT, mosatyvnevad... magram
ubralo praqtikuli TvalsazrisiTac, aCqareba sjobda. rac ufro adre
daiZvrebodnen, miT ufro naklebad mouwevdaT mzeSi siaruli. arada, marTla
uCveulod cxeloda. marto kaSelebis agaraki ki ara, mTeli saqarTvelo
mumliT iyo savse. saiTac ar unda gagexedaT, mumliT gasqelebuli da
gawebili haeri mduRare badagiviT ibuSteboda, livlivebda, brunavda...
qviSxeTidan Tbilisamde mumlis erTi uwyveti da ukidegano mdinare
miacilebda maT manqanas, xolo, meore, zustad iseTive, win xvdeboda, gzas
uRobavda, akavebda SeZlebisdagvarad, da, amave dros, udrtvinvelad, TiTqos
mouTmeneli sixaruliTac esriseboda zed manqanis saqare SuSas...

saWesTan raJdeni zis. mZRoli gverdiT mousvams. liziko da antoni ukan

sxedan. miuxedavad Seupovrobisa, raJdenic iZulebulia aRiaros, masac rom
uWirs gzis gagneba uazrobis am koriantelSi. marTlac, ucnauri mumlia,
ucnaurad Tavxedi. ki ar gifrTxis, ZaliT gicviva pirSi. manqanaSic iseve
ireva, rogorc manqanis irgvliv. arc mis daxocvasa aqvs azri da arc
manqanidan mis gandevnas. ukve ramdenjerme gaCerdnen gzaSi, saqare SuSis
gasawmendad, magram mainc verafers gaxdnen, piriqiT, SuSac uaresad daibinda
da TviTonac uaresad amoiganglnen amazrzen siTxeSi. ise moewamlaT guneba,
gaxedvac ar undaT erTmaneTisken. antoni, dros gasayvanad, romeliRac
xalxur leqss ukuRma kiTxulobs gunebaSi; lizikos, razec ar unda
fiqrobdes, mamamTili epareba uknidan da SiSvel mxrebze gavarvarebul
peSvebs awyobs moulodnelad; Jeleznis Tiaqari awuxebs da cdilobs, ar
SeimCnios, radgan raJdens, maincdamainc, ar axatia gulze arajansaRi
qveSevrdomebi; xolo, Tavad raJdeni maT alaparakebas cdilobs mxolod,
ubrad rom ar isxdnen, naCxubrebiviT, Jelezni ar daeWvdes, ra xdeba, ram
daamunja es xalxi aseo. Tumca, Jeleznis mainc araferi gamoepareba, qvis
qveS ra devs, is icis. SeuZlia, ar mousminos da gaigos, ar Sexedos da
dainaxos... aseTi niWiTaa bunebisgan dajildovebuli da amitomac ver
Selevia raJdeni, urCevnia, misTvis agrovebdes is cnobebs, vidre mis Sesaxeb...
mamaZaRli!
 raikomi da prefeqti... ambobs raJdeni midi, gaagrZele Tvals
uSvreba Jeleznis Cvens Jeleznis leqsi dauweria... ar gainteresebT?
mimarTavs salons, Tavis moubruneblad.
me ara, kaco... biWebma Tqves garaJSi uarobs Jelezni.
xoda, Cvenc gviTxari ar eSveba raJdeni mousmine, liziko, nu
gZinavs... gamofxizldi... yava rom ar dalie, imitom... uRimis lizikos
manqanis sarkeSi midi-meTqi marjvena xelis idayvs mxarSi wahkravs mis
adgilze wamoWimul mZRols.
 lizikos SeakrTobs mamamTilis xma. imdenad ahyolia fiqrebs, aRarc
axsovs, sxvebic Tu sxedan manqanaSi, anda, TviTonac Tu manqanaSi zis im
sxvebTan erTad. arada, imaTze fiqrobs swored, antonze, raJdenze da, Tqven
warmoidgineT, Jeleznizec. "iman ukve icis yvelaferio" aiCema ratomRac,
albaT qmarze rom brazobs imitom. qmris miuxvedreloba da gulgriloba
acofebs, qmarma rom ar icis, rac, pirvel rigSi, man unda icodes, radgan
Tuki vinmes moeTxoveba, mas moeTxoveba colis dacva, sakuTari mamisganac ki.
moeTxoveba, magram naklebad ainteresebs es ambavi, sarkmelSi iyureba,
TiTqos pirvelad xedavdes aqaurobas. egaa rom, aTasSi erTxel, viTom
SemTxveviT, xels mouWers xolme xelze. lizikosac es agiJebs, es acofebs,
radgan jer kidev sisxlis gamyinavi sicxadiT grZnobs, rogor epareba
uknidan mamamTili, rogor awyobs mxrebze gavarvarebul peSvebs da rogor
kocnis kiserSi, rogori mouTokavi surviliTa da mamakacuri siuxeSiT... rac,
sulo codvilo da, ara marto Tavzars scems lizikos, aramed
SemaZrwuneblad sasiamovno SegrZnebasac uCens. es ki, Tavis mxriv, ufro
afrTxobs, vidre awuxebs, rogorc banaobisas SemTxveviT aRmoCenili saeWvo
jirkvali. iqneb marTla avad aris?! iqneb yvelaferi misi avadmyofuri
Cvenebebia mxolod da msgavsic araferi momxdara?! ra Tqma unda, avadaa,
kvdeba, aRar SeuZlia da aRarc unda am dampali haeris sunTqva. yvelani mis
winaaRmdeg arian SeTqmulni. yvelam gawira... elisomac, mamamac, qmarmac,
mamamTilmac... taso Zalomac ki... rac xdeba, misTvis sazianod xdeba, mis
gasamtyuneblad da mis dasaknineblad... ar aris saSveli da axia! ase
mouxdeba! taso Zalosi ki ar unda morideboda, imis dasanaxad unda Seesxa
saxeSi mduRare yava mamamTilisTvis da TavisTavad gairkveoda yvelaferi...
axla aravin aRar daujerebs... axla iZulebulia yvelas daumalos da,
pirvel rigSi, qmars... taso Zalom ki ar ixsna, mamamTilis Tanamzraxvelad
aqcia Zalauneburad. taso Zalos gamo gaCumda da raki dRes gaCumda, xvalac
gaCumdeba, xvalac uxmod, sityvis Seubruneblad gauCerdeba moZalades...
dumili Tanxmobis niSania. magram gana qmaric ar unda grZnobdes, rasac
coli grZnobs?! gana uTqmeladac ar unda xvdebodes, rac misi colis gulSi
xdeba?! aba, rogor arian erTni, erTsul da erTxorc?! gverdiT uzis da
masTan ar aris. imitomac uWers xelze xels, viTom, SenTan varo... coli rom
ar miuxvdes gandgomas... mamisa da Sofris zurgs ukan malulad earSiyeba
sakuTar cols, romelsac, imave dros, mamamisic aupatiurebs...
yovelSemTxvevaSi, TviTon arasodes ukocnia colisTvis ase Slegurad, ase
daundoblad... rac mTavaria, mamamiss meti saerTo aqvs mis colTan, gnebavT,
mamamiss ufro metad ekuTvnis misi coli, vidre mas... rac masTan akavSirebs,
is ukve warsulia, dResaviT naTeli da wakiTxuli wigniviT gverdze
gadadebuli, sadac aRaraferi Seicvleba, ramdenjerac ar unda miubrunde...
mamamisTan ki saidumloTia dakavSirebuli, mesaidumleni arian erTmaneTisa;
momavaliviT bneli, gaurkveveli da saSiSi saidumloTi arian erTmaneTs
gadabmuli da marto maT ician... ufro sworad, maTac ar ician, rodis ra
SeemTxvevaT kidev, rodis aexdeba saidumlos farda da ra mohyveba amas,
maTTvis ki ara, saerTod, yvelasTvis... mamamTils, rasakvirvelia, arc
amtyunebs, arc ubrazdeba. piriqiT, eWvic ar epareba, TviTon acduna, TviTon
misca sababi, yvelaferze aeRo xeli da am jojoxeTur gansacdelSi Caegdo
Tavi, Svilic fexebze daekida, colic, qveyanac da RmerTic... magram
TbilisSi moegeba albaT gons da iq amxels amis karg qalobas, ris Semdegac
veRarc es gaCerdeba imaTTan, rogorc ar unda uWirdes Sin mibruneba,
elisos gaxareba, mamis simarTlis aRiareba... ra Tqma unda, ZaRlis kudi ar
swordeba da yorani ar TeTrdeba, magram marto raJden kaSeli ki ar aris
ZaRlis kudi da yorani, aramed esec, albaT es ufro metad, radgan arc wess
dagidevT da arc elementarul zrdilobas pirdaubaneli, Caucmeli
gamotantaldeba da utifrad dagidgeba win... aba, ra qnas?! yava unda da
ratom moiTminos?! eg dro wavida. axla yvela Tavisufalia da rogorc
Tavad surs, ise cxovrobs, anu, fiziologiur moTxovnilebebs emoneba da
yvelafers uaryofs Tavisuflebis saxeliT zneobasac, ufros-
umcrosobasac, adaT-wesebsac... rac mTavaria, nebismier sxvaobas, maT Soris,
sqesobrivsac... arada, mamamTilic mamakacia. ufro sworad, jer mamakacia da
mere mamamTili. "Tavi unda moviklao" bolos da bolos, poulobs
yvelaze iol gamosavals mtanjveli, gamabiTurebeli, gamaognebeli
fiqrebidan, romlebSic Tavfexianadaa gaxlarTuli da marTla Tu ar
miexmara vinme, verafriT daixsnis imaTgan Tavs. misi qmari ki, sarkmelSi
iyureba arxeinad da turistiviT aTvalierebs garemos. araferi gaegeba am
qveynisa da bednieria, radgan jer kidev bavSvia. cols ki ar efereba,
eloliaveba, rogorc bavSvi sayvarel saTamaSos... eSinia rame ar vatkinoo,
rogorc cxenze pirvelad Sesmul bavSvs... samagierod, mamamisi ar daindobs
mis cols, ar dazogavs, imitom rom... imitom rom, imas uyvars namdvili
mamakacuri siyvaruliT... RmerTo Cemo! xom SeiZleba, marTla uyvardes?!
sakuTari rZali... Svilis meuRle... albaT amas hqvia RvTis risxva, TviTonac
rom ar ici, ras sCadixar... anda, ici da mainc ar ixev ukan... yvelafers
swirav daufiqreblad... esa da misi qmari siyvarulobanas TamaSoben, rogorc
saerTod axalgazrdebi, sulswrafebi da sulelebi... bnel oTaxSi
sunTqvaSekruli cekva hgoniaT siyvaruli, gaoflil xelze gaoflili xelis
moWera da Sampanuris wrupva erTmaneTis Wiqebidan. arada, es aris swored
bavSvoba, anda, bavSvobasTan gamomSvidobeba, bavSvobidan gamoqceva droze
adre, ubedurebis wina dRe, momzadeba ubedurebisTvis, risTvisac ibadebi
saerTod, Tuki bedma gagiRima da Rirsad CagTvala ubedurebis gancdisa...
ubedurebaa, aba ra aris?! Taflobis Tve wesierad arc dagimTavrebia, xalxiT
savsea saxli, is ki modis, gepareba, avazakiviT fexakrefili, CayvinTuliviT
sunTqvaSekruli, modis, giaxlovdeba, sikvdiliviT Seuferxebeli,
garduvali... modis, giaxlovdeba, TiTqos iZulebiT, TiTqos mxolod Seni
xaTriT, Seni gulisTvis, Sen rom ar gagawbilos, Sen rom dagikmayofilos
binZuri pativmoyvareoba, gindac, qaluri cnobismoyvareoba, da ori mduRare
peSvi, gavarvarebuli rkinis ori zodiviT, uceb, gaufrTxileblad Camogados
SiSvel mxrebze, TiTqos Seni mxrebis anabeWdebis asaRebad... gesmis, rogor
SiSinebs Seni xorci, rogor iwvis, rogor dneba gavarvarebul peSvebSi
momwyvdeuli gulamde gatans Svebis momgvreli tkivili, sircxvilsac
gaviwyebs, Rirsebasac, da taso Zalom Tu ar daiZaxa saidanRac, taso Zalosi
rom ar geridebodes, SeiZleba, kiserzec Camoekido Sens damRupvels,
daewafo imis sisxlian tuCebs da SeiZleba mokvde kidec, am sityvis
pirdapiri mniSvnelobiT, sanTeliviT CaiRvenTo da cvilis gubed dadge imis
fexebTan...
ver vitan! mezizReba! aRar SemiZlia! SesZaxebs uceb liziko da
bevrad uaresi Cvenebebis dasafrTxobad, manqanaSi mbrunav mumlis Rrubels
auqnevs xels uneburad.
ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe ambobs antoni.
ra Tqvi? uaresad ibneva liziko.
mumli muxasa gars exveoda mSvidad unmartavs antoni oRond,
ukuRma Tu waikiTxav sityvebs... mumli ilmum, muxasa asaxum, gars
srag, exveoda adoevxe...
amdeni xani amas fiqrobdi, Se debilo! moulodnelad brazdeba
liziko, magram, cota ar iyos, Semcbaricaa, imdenad ucxo, imdenad Secvlili
eCveneba erTi Tvis qmari da bavSvobis megobari, sadRac, usasrulod Sors,
sruliad sxva ganzomilebebSi CarCenili, jer kidev bavSvuri interesebiT da,
rac mTavaria, uimisod...
 antonic Secbeba uneburad, raRacis Tqmas daapirebs, albaT Tavis
lingvistur eqsperimentebTan dakavSirebiT, magram raJdeni ar daacdis,
sxvebze adre, is igrZnobs mosalodnel safrTxes da saswrafod wahkravs
mxars Jeleznis, raRas ucdio, am sisuleleebs isev Seni leqsis mosmena
sjobso da, amjerad, aRarc Jelezni gaipranWeba zedmetad, erTs Caaxvelebs
muStSi da, warCinebul mowafesaviT, sxapasxupiT warmosTqvams:

raikomi da prefeqti,
defeqti plius defeqti,
magram am orma defeqtmac
ver moaxdina efeqti.

marto raJdeni gaicinebs da isic yalbad, naZaladevad, ase vTqvaT,

tonusis asawevad, Tumca, Jeleznis leqsisa ar iyos, verc is SeZlebs
SeuZlebels. piriqiT. kidev ufro daiZabeba dumili. liziko ki, manqanis kars
gaaRebs uceb da mSvidad ityvis, Tu ar gaaCerebT, gadavxtebio... manqanaSi
gamlRvali asfaltis Sxuili da sicxisgan gaTanguli sivrcis yru guguni
SemoiWreba maSinve.
Tu ar gaaCerebT, gadavxtebi gaimeorebs ufro mtkiced, ufro
kategoriulad.
mama! dauZaxebs antoni raJdens.
Tan lizikos Sescqeris dabneuli, damfrTxali. ar icis, rogor moiqces,
ver ubedavs xelis mokidebas, vaiTu marTla gadaxteso, kargad icnobs
bavSvobis megobars...
fisi-fisi? sarkeSi ekiTxeba raJdeni lizikos.
axlave gaaCere! uyviris liziko.
 ki batono, vCerdebiT... uyvavebs raJdeni da amuxruWebs. manqana
sanaxevrod gadadis gzidan, gzispira xreSs aCxrialebs da Cerdeba. magram
vidre wesierad gaCerdebodes, liziko ukve mindorSi garbis. garbis, magram
ar icis, ratom an saiT. ubralod, garbis, xafangidan TavdaRweuli
cxoveliviT, romelsac brma instinqti karnaxobs, rac SeiZleba swrafad
gaiqces, rac SeiZleba Sors gadaixvewos misTvis egzom saxifaTo adgilidan.
gauvali, gauxeSebuli balaxi zogan welamde wvdeba, kans ususxavs, kabaze
ebRauWeba, magram is mainc garbis. mindvris boloSi qedi wamowolila,
ferdebCamobRortnili, da, ki ar axlovdeba, nel-nela ukan ixevs, TiTqos
misi jibriT. is ki mainc im qedisken mirbis, TiTqos imis iqiT iwyeba
samSvidobo, TiTqos iq aris sazRvari yofna-aryofnas Soris. "im qeds Tu
gadavivli... im qeds Tu gadavivlio"... facafuciT, bolomde gauazreblad
imeorebs misi aRgznebuli, agangaSebuli goneba. mere aRmarTi iwyeba, xrioki,
qvaRorRiani, aqa-iq xavsmodebuli... is ki, mainc garbis, gulamovardnili,
aqoSinebuli, araqaTgamoclili, radgan sxva mainc araferi SeuZlia, garda
gaqcevisa, verafers xedavs, garda Tavisianebis gaxviTquli, dawiTlebuli da
aranormalurad gadidebuli saxeebisa da araferi esmis, garda sakuTari
saxelisa, kvalSi Camdgari Tavisianebi rom mosZaxian. is ki, swored imaT
gaurbis, Tavisianebs, rogorc kurdReli dageSil mwevrebs, magram
kurdRlisa ar iyos, misi bedic winaswaraa gadawyvetili. mwevrebi
aucileblad daewevian, daiWeren, erTs gaqaCav-gamoqaCaven da Camokideben
batonis unagirze, rogorc leqsSi sweria, anu, isev raJden kaSelis manqanaSi
daabruneben da isic dabrundeba, Tuki iqamde ver moaswrebs qedis gadavlas.
magram qedze rogor gadava, roca yvela gza ukve moWrili aqvs. win
veragulad galursuli mayvlovani gadawolila, warRvnamdeli urCxuliviT,
uknidan ki, daqanculi, magram ukve gamarjvebaSi darwmunebuli "monadireebi"
axlovdebian. "ar grcxvenia, gogo, cxeniviT rom damarbenineb aRma-daRma, Cemi
trikis patrons" modudRunebs Jelezni. raJdeni gaSeSebuli, foladiviT
civad moelvare TvalebiT Wams. antons ki miwis feri adevs, amqveynisa
aRaraa, gaReRil perangs zurgs ukan ufrialebs qari da, ratomRac,
xelebaweuli modis, TiTqos ki ar iWers, tyved bardeba lizikos... liziko
mayvlovanSi Sevardeba, daufiqreblad Seuvardeba qveS aTasnairad
daxlarTulsa da dagragnil buCqebs, rogorc TviTmkvleli matarebels...
mayvlovani SeTrToldeba, aimrizeba, aifofreba, uxalisod gamoerkveva
saukunovani rindidan da jer bolqva-bolqva amoafrqvevs RumeliviT
mxurvale wiaRSi Caleqil mtversa da aTasnair mwers, mere ki, zanti, TiTqos
gangeb Senelebuli moZraobebiT SemoaWdobs daupatiJebel stumars Tavis
grZelsa da eklian sacecebs, erTad Caasobs yvela ekals da maradiuli
wyurviliT gamomSral-gamofituli, xarbad Seiwovs imis mCqefare,
daudgromel, cecxlovan sisxls... lizikos guli amovardnaze aqvs,
tkivilisgan dabrmavebuli, dayruebuli, gaognebuli ibrZvis alalbedze da
rac ufro mets ibrZvis, miT ufro Rrmad iZireba eklian, sulisSemxuTav,
gauval sicarieleSi... "ar momekaroT, ar momekaroT, ar momekaroT" yviris
gaupatiurebuliviT, dabRortnil-dakawruli, TmaaCeCili, kabaSemofleTili.
sacaa miwvdebian "monadireebi", romlebic, Tavis mxriv, gaSmagebulni ebrZvian
mayvlovans, fexebiT scemen miudgomel "urCxuls", qvebiT, joxebiT amtvreven
haerSi asavsavebul, gvelebiviT daklaknil sacecebs, romelTa nacvlad
axali sacecebi amodian maSinve. magram bolos "monadireebi" imarjveben da
Tavadac dabRortnil-dakawrulni, fexiT moaTreven lizikos mayvlovanidan,
anTavisufleben "urCxulis" brWyalebisgan, sinamdvileSi ki, ukanasknel
TavSesafarsac uSlian da ase mTavrdeba es moulodneli nadiroba. "ar
momekaroT, ar momekaroT, ar momekaroT" ZlivsRa xavis nacem-nagvemi,
qancgawyvetili liziko da antons aRar sjera, rodisme Tu gamoerkveva am
uazrobidan, rodisme Tu gamoixedavs TvalSi misi yvelaze uaxloesi
adamiani, isev erTad Tu iqnebian Zveleburad. guli ugrZnobs, raRac moxda
sabediswero, raRac daaSava uneburad, magram ver gaugia da verc verasodes
gaigebs, ra. lizikos an marTla aRaraferi esmis, an Segnebulad uyruebs,
arafrad aRar agdebs, danaxvac ar unda misi. sxvebmac araferi ician. aravin
araferi ar icis. "me ras mekiTxebio, Sens cols hkiTxeo" uyvira mamam da
esec iZulebulia, mowmesaviT uyuros Soridan, rogor miyavT, ufro sworad,
rogor miaTreven mis cols raJdeni da Jelezni. TiTqos TviTon araferi
esaqmeba imaTTan, anda TiTqos marTla mwevaria da, raki ukve pirnaTlad
Seasrula Tavisi movaleoba, axla rogorc SeuZlia, ise gamoxatavs amas
xan win uswrebs, xan ki ukan misdevs "nanadireviT" xeldamSvenebul
"monadireebs"...

amjerad, saWesTan Jelezni jdeba. antoni mis gverdiT ikavebs adgils.

raJdeni da liziko ukan Tavsdebian, radgan "ase ajobebs lizikosTvis",
romelsac axla "mxolod simSvide sWirdeba" da, marTlac, raJdenis mkerdze
umweod Tavmidebuls, aRaraferi etyoba weRandeli sigiJisa. raJdeni
daZabuli, moRuSuli, ybadaberili iyureba win. manqanaSi sruli simSvide
sufevs. liziko Tu amoislukunebs xandaxan, tiriliT CaZinebuli bavSviviT,
Tumca, rasakvirvelia, ar Zinavs, ubralod, Tvals ver axels da,
maincdamainc, arc cdilobs gaxelas, TvaldaxuWuli misvenebula mamamTilis
mkerdze. "yvelaferi kargad iqnebao" xSirxSirad umeorebs mamamTili da
kinkrixoze kocnis frTxilad. esaa da es. Tbilisamde xmas aRar amoiReben.
ubrad daamTavreben mgzavrobas. maincdamainc, arc TbilisSi gamouswordebaT
guneba-ganwyobileba. uxmod, uxalisod waixemseben da TavTavianT oTaxebSi
SeiZurwebian yvelani, ufrosebi calke, umcrosebi calke. iqaurobac
mumliTaa savse. fefesac bevri uomia, yvelanairad ucdia mumlis gandevna,
magram bolos imasac Cauqnevia xeli...
 raJdeni, Tavisi WkuiT, ki atyuebda cols, mZinavso, magram daZinebamde
bevri aklda. TvaldaxuWuli iwva sibneleSi da mumlis uneblie,
arasasiamovno Sexebac ver ufrTxobda gamomaTayvanebel Cvenebas da, rac
mTavaria, darwmunebuli iyo, namdvilad ekuTvnoda, rac elandeboda, rasac
mTeli sicocxle brmad eswrafvoda Turme da naRrZobi saxsariviT,
gaciebuli nerviviT, dampali kbiliviT awamebda axla. ukve veravin da
veRaraferi aaRebinebda xels ganzraxvaze, romelmac, upirveles yovlisa, is
gaagebina, Tu ramdenad araswori da bundovani warmodgena hqonda Seqmnili
bednierebaze. marTalia, Tavisi sakmaod xangrZlivi cxovrebis manZilze
arasodes mohklebia siamovnebis gancda, magram is cxoveluri siamovneba
yofila, bneli, tlanqi, garantirebuli da swrafwarmavali,
stiuardesebisgan, oficiantebisgan, sastumros morigeebisgan, kancelariaSi
momuSave Tu komkavSiris aqtivisti gogoebisgan miRebuli, gauTavebel
sxdomebs, Sekrebebs, konferenciebsa da yrilobebs Soris. xolo, rasac axla
ganicdida, araferi hqonda saerTo aw ukve gancdilTan. mTeli misi arseba
garduvali, ukve kars momdgari dResaswaulis SegrZnebiT iyo savse,
dResaswaulisa, romelsac bavSvuri mouTmenlobiT elodebi da
romlisTvisac Wirnaxuli kaciviT winaswar iWer Tadarigs. diax, am xnis
ganmavlobaSi, dRevandeli dRisTvis iWerda Turme Tadarigs. am eniT
uTqmeli mRelvarebis gansacdelad emzadeboda mTeli cxovreba. SeiZleba,
Seugneblad, magram mxolod amis gamo miiwevda ganuwyvetliv win karieris
molipul gzaze. yvelafers sCadioda, yvelafers kisrulobda, yvelaferze
midioda amis gamo da amis gamo ixveWda "yovelsa mosaxveWelsac". amis gamo
icvlida znes, saxes, mrwamss... amis gamo itanda fefes... amis gamo
emliqvneleboda ufrosebs da amis gamo Trgunavda xelqveiTebs, masze dabla
mdgomT... raTa erT mSvenier dRes, Sxamiani mumlis koriantelSi, sulis
SemxuTav sicxeSi, saagarako faca-fucSi, moulodnelad axeloda Tvali imis
dasanaxad, risi dasanaxi Tvalic yvela normalur adamians Segnebulad aqvs
dabrmavebuli. mas ki dRes aexila pirvelad. amaze meti saswauli ra gindaT!
aexila, ara marto rZlis dabzekili ZuZuebis, aramed sakuTari saxisa da
bunebis dasanaxadac WeSmariti saxisa da WeSmariti bunebisa! axla man
naTlad da myarad icis, vin aris, ra unda, ratomaa saerTod movlenili am
qveyanaze. man dRes sakuTari momavali aRmoaCina, romelic misi Wkviani
Svilis azriT, saerTod ar arsebobs Turme bunebaSi. man ki aRmoaCina,
sxvaTaSoris, misTvisac moulodnelad, ukanasknel wams da, maincdamainc, aq,
am areul qveyanaSi, sadac misi adgili (antons Tu SevekiTxebiT), TiTqos
aRar unda yofiliyo. axali daniSnulebac SeiZina uceb: maincdamainc,
sakuTari rZlis damorCileba, sakuTari rZlis gabaxeba... da gindac mamamisi
sagangebod adges saflavidan, raTa xeli aaRebinos ganzraxvaze, sulSi
CaafurTxebs imasac, radgan mama mainc guSindeli dRea, SvilTan SedarebiT
mainc qajia da SeiZleba uceb verc mixvdes, srulebiTac rom ar
ewinaaRmdegeba misi Svilis ganzraxva im saqmes, romelsac Tavad Seewira...
piriqiT, mamav batono, amxanago mama, piriqiT! sxva rom araferi vTqvaT,
Tqvens Svils marto mamakacuri Rirseba avaldebulebs, uyoymanod da
mourideblad miiRos, rac lizikom Tavad SesTavaza. es uazro sirbili da
buCqebSi Zromialic amis dadasturebaa mxolod. aba, gamomekideba Tu arao.
undoda, maincdamainc, raJdens daeWira, raJdens aetatebina, viTom
araqaTgamoclili, da raJdenis mkerdze eTvlima Tbilisamde... mamaZaRli...
raJdeni, ra Tqma unda, aiRebs, rasac sTavazoben. isemc mze maRla! aiRebs,
gindac saflavidan sagangebod wamomdgarma da, Cveulebisamebr,
motocikletistis maRalyelian xelTaTmanebiTa da mwvaneSuSiani saTvaliT
SeniRbulma mamam moulodnelad daaxalos naganis tyvia kefaSi. lizikos
damaTrobeli surneliT gabruebuli, fiqrSiac ar uSvebs, Tu ra sazarel
codvaSi vardeba, ra araadamianur borotebas sCadis imave lizikos mimarT,
Svilze rom araferi vTqvaT, romelsac saerTod ar agdebs saTvalavSi,
rogorc saqarTvelos nebismieri SesaZlebeli xelisufleba misi Svilis
partias. an Tu agdebs, arafrad Tvlis, rogorc uRirssa da uperspeqtivo
metoqes. raJdensac sjera da sxvebsac iolad daarwmunebs, yvelafriT rom
sjobnis metoqes, garegnobiTac, SeZlebiTac, gavleniTac, saxeliTac,
cxovrebiseuli codna-gamocdilebiTac... biWobiTac! da rom ase ar aris, anda,
es rom ar aris mTavari mama-Svilis urTierTobaSi, veRaravin gadaarwmunebs,
verc mkvdari mama da verc cocxali Svili...

ase rom, rogorc yvela didi borotmomqmedi, raJdenic mxolod sakuTar

moTxovnilebaTa gaTvaliswinebiT da mxolod sakuTari Sexedulebebidan
gamomdinare cdilobda sakuTari ganzraxvis gamarTlebas, vidre misi
uTqmeli, usaSvelo safiqraliT Sewuxebuli coli gadmobrundeboda da
hkiTxavda: "ra moxda, ras SfoTav, ratom ver iZinebo". raJdenic, TiTqos
mxolod amas elodebodao, CasafrebuliviT gamoenTo colis xmaze, TiTqos,
rogorc iqna, mainc miagno, mainc miakvlia gamosavals sakuTari avxorcobis
klanWebidano, da gaSmagebuli ekveTa Tanamecxedres, cxovrebis Tanamgzavrs,
meuRles, misi Wirvaramis usityvo moziares, misi yoveli meWeWisa Tu egzemis
dammalavsa da momvlels, facafuciT SemoafliTa gaoflili perangi,
znewamovliliviT dadorblilma, dauloSna, daukbina yel-kiseri, ZuZu-
mkerdi, muceli, barZayebi... da gonwasuli, yelSi SuSagamosmuliviT
axrialebuli, CainTqa, CaiRvara, Caiwrita colis ki ara, zogadad dedakacis
CauRwevel, Cauwvdenel wiaRSi...
 fefe ufro daafrTxo, vidre gaakvirva qmris amgvarma pirutyvulma vnebam.
verafriT ver daimorCila akankalebuli xel-fexi. gasusuli, mobuzuli,
sunTqvaSekruli iwva qmris zurgs ukan, qmris xvrinvas miyuradebuli, da
mTeli sxeuliT grZnobda, Tavad araferi esaqmeboda imasTan, rac es wuTia
gadaxdenoda Tavs. tani ugrZnobda, sxva qalis magivroba gaewia qmrisTvis.
coloba saerTod sxva qalis (qalebis) magivrobis gawevaa da es adrec
bevrjer ugrZvnia fefes, magram amjerad amis SegrZneba gacilebiT mZafric
iyo da Seuracxmyofelic. misi survilis gauTvaliswineblad, misi Tanxmobis
gareSe Seasrulebines sxvisi roli. sxvisi gasakeTebeli saqme gaakeTebina
qmarma. Tumca, rogorc ukve vTqviT, uCveulo da ucnauri araferi momxdara.
ubralod, Tavad maTi urTierToba iyo uCveuloca da ucnauric, da ara
marto im dRes, aramed saerTod, yovelTvis, Tavidanve, rogorc ki moikla
raJdenma Tavisi ymawviluri Jini bnel kuTxeebSi, zezeurad,
mouxerxeblad da facafuciT mas mere maT col-qmrul sawolze toli ki
ar euRleboda tols, gnebavT, mamri ki ar nerbavda mdedrs, aramed didi da
mniSvnelovani kidev erTxel iTvisebda da iTavisebda patarasa da
umniSvnelos, rac TavisTavad ukve SeuZlebels xdida orivesTvis erTnairad
sasurveli, anda, misaRebi urTierTobis damyarebas maT Soris. magram fefem
mainc Segnebulad amjobina qmris yurmoWrili monoba dedamTilis
danabarebis aRsrulebas ("isic... isinico"). oRond, dedamTilis
upativcemulobiT ki ar moiqca ase, aramed mkvdari mamis xaTriT, romelsac
sulis amoxdomamde sjeroda, aucileblad "mefistola kaci" rom waiyvanda
mis erTaderT qaliSvils colad (meore xunagma gauguda, sul ramdenime
Tvisa) da mxolod es usafuZvlo, magram macduri da gamabriyvebeli rwmenaRa
unarCunebda cxovrebasTan uazro bRlarZunis Jins, ver eleoda, rogorc
mSieri ZaRli masze ufro mSieri ZaRlebisgan, vin icis, ukve ramdenjer
gamoxrul Zvals. SimSilisgan aRgznebuli da saswaulis ganuwyveteli
molodiniT Sepyrobili, jiutad iTrevda fexs, ar eTmoboda aqauroba,
TiTqos misi "mefistola" sasiZo mxolod imitom igvianebda, gasaTxoveblad
jer kidev Zalian patara rom iyo misi qaliSvili. "droze gaizarde, Se
mamaZaRlo, aRar SemiZlia metio" ebuzRuneboda Svils. TbilisSi
gardacvlili iaponeli samxedro tyvis Zirebdalursmuli batinkebi
erTnairad ucurda Tovlzec da asfaltzec. imis fxakun-fxaWunze yefa-yefiT
gamoenTebodnen xolme ezoebidan gagulisebuli ZaRlebi, viTom, rogorc
iqna, CavigdeT xelSi qveynis simSvidis damarRvevelio. fefec imas abralebda
dedisa da dis sikvdils, oRond, Tqmas ver ubedavda. saerTod, orives
eSinoda gulaxdilobisa da erTi xmamaRla ocnebobda, gauTaveblad, anu, ara
marto Tavs imwarebda, sxvebsac umwarebda isedac gamwarebul cxovrebas,
meore ki, dumda, jiutad, da ara marto uasakobis gamo, aramed sakmaod
seriozuli da savsebiT arabavSvuri SiSis karnaxiTac: vai Tu, gabrazdes da
mec momklaso. sardafis obobebsa da virTxebTan marto darCenas, isev
meocnebe da ybedi mama erCia. samagierod, mkvdars ukanmouxedavad gaeqca,
mkvdari daufiqreblad miatova... bazridan mobrunebuls, taxtidan
sanaxevrod gadmovardnili rom dauxvda, jer gabrazda (ratom ar
damelodao), mere SeSinda (rogor unda davmarxoo), sikvdilis win
monatrebuli mawvnis qila gafSekil xelebSi miaCeCa da
cecxlwakidebuliviT amovarda sardafidan, sadac maTi ambavi, vin icis,
sasacilodac ar yofnidaT virTxebsa da obobebs, da diaxac rom
imsaxurebdnen dacinvas, imaTganac ki araferi gaegebodaT am qveynisa,
araferi gamosdiodaT xelidan, eg iyo rom, ixocebodnen, erTmaneTis
miyolebiT, xolo, maTi vai-ojaxis ukanasknelma warmomadgenelma (fefem),
saerTod uaryo, saerTod xazi gadausva danarCenTa, anu, ukve gardacvlilTa
saxsenebels. isic ar icis, romeli sad marxia. marTalia, dis damarxvaSi
TviTonac exmareboda mamas, magram maSin TviTonac TiTistola iyo da
veRarc sasaflaos miagnebs da, miT ufro, veRarc saflavs. ded-mamis adgil-
samyofeli saerTod ar icis da arc arasodes codnia. dedis cxedari
saavadmyofoSi datova mamam, mkvdar mamas ki, rogorc ukve vTqviT, TviTon
gaeqca Segnebulad, raki mainc ver SeZlebda mis damarxvas. uimisod ki,
imasac aucileblad gamouCndeboda dammarxavi, bolos da bolos, sakuTari
suni damarxavda Sewuxdebodnen da iZulebulni Seiqnebodnen, sadme
CaefloT, upatrono ZaRlis leSiviT. amitomac iTmenda fefe yvelafers da
kvlavac moiTmenda, raTa sicocxleSi gawbilebuli mama sikvdilSi mainc ar
gaewbilebina da radac ar unda dasjdomoda, "mefistola" kacis colad
darCeniliyo bolomde. magram rogorc ar unda eTvalTmaqca, isic
mamamisiviT ubeduri iyo, ubedurad Sobili, dabadebiT ubeduri da, amave
dros, mamaze ufro metadac, radgan mamisgan gansxvavebiT, ubedurebis yovel
wams mosalodneli da ganuxrelad mzardi dartymebisa ki ar eSinoda, aramed
bednierebis im iSviaTi da swrafwarmavali SegrZnebebisa, yovelTvis
moulodnelad rom gaielvebdnen xolme mis arsebaSi, rogorc gvirabis
naTurebi matareblis Cabnelebul kupeSi, da erTi wamiT ki gamoiyvandnen
wyvdiadidan, magram mere kidev ufro did wyvdiadSi ukravdnen Tavs...

ase iyo axlac: "ufro did wyvdiadSi" gadavardnils, qmris zurgs ukan
galursuls, dedakacis wyeuli xorci ugrZnobda, gacilebiT didi ubedureba
uaxlovdeboda, aqamde gadatanil yvela ubedurebaze sazarelic da
Semzaravic da ara marto misi ojaxisTvis, aramed saerTod, mTeli adamis
modgmisTvis. amis mauwyebeli iyo albaT mumlis warRvnac. magram
konkretulad ra ubedureba iqneboda es ubedureba, amdenis mixvedra,
samwuxarod, ar SeeZlo. mobuzuli iwva qmris zurgs ukan da mkvdar daze
fiqrobda, dis damarxvis dRes ixsenebda, Tavidan bolomde, radgan sxva
araferi hqonda gasaxsenebeli, ufro mniSvnelovani, samgloviaroca da
sazeimoc, erTsa da imave dros. axlac iseve martivad da bunebrivad
eCveneboda samyaros aRsasruli, rogorc im gulqva dRes; axlac
darwmunebuli iyo (da rogorc maSin, axlac Zalian undoda, marTla ase
momxdariyo), erTs daiWeqebda dedamiwa da mtvrad iqceoda yvelaferi, mtvrad
ganibneodnen yvelani haerSi, mkvdrebic da cocxlebic... magram Zneli
saTqmelia, ufro tanjavda Tu ufro Svebas aniWebda amis warmodgena.
ubralod, tanjvac Sveba iyo misTvis, Sveba ki tanjva, da gansakuTrebiT
mas Semdeg, rac raJden kaSelis biografiaSi, marTlac mtvris namceciviT
umniSvnelo misi arseba samudamod CaibeWda, rogorc raJden kaSelisgan
gamovlenili namdvili komkavSiruli gulisxmierebisa da solidarobis
damadasturebeli faqti da ufesvo da uZiro, upatrono da upovari
lumpenproletari kaSelebis rZali gaxda...
 axla, qmris zurgs amofarebuli, Tavis mkvdrebze fiqrobda da samives
fiqrSi uyrida Tavs, rogorc saerTo saflavSi. "me nu gamrevT am saqmeSi,
rac Cems Semdeg SegemTxvaT, me ar mexebao" civad ambobda saxegadaSlili
deda da cdilobda, rogorme, TviTonac Cateuliyo patara CemodanSi,
romelSic misi umcrosi qaliSvilis Tojinisxela gvamic Zlivs eteoda.
"cocxalma ikiTxos, Torem, mkvdars ra uWirs, daisvenao" ambobda mamamisi
da ris vaivaglaxiT icvamda xSiri recxvisgan dapataravebul batinkebs. erTi
wiTeli abreSumis sabani hqondaT da im sabnis pirSi gaaxvies dis gvami.
marTlac, TojinasaviT ido CemodanSi. TiTqos dasamarxad ki ar mihqondaT,
saCuqrad unda mierTmiaT viRacisTvis. yovel SemTxvevaSi, ase daamaxsovrda
fefes. mere Cemodani daketes da wavidnen, gauyvnen sakmaod damqancvelsa da
saxifaTo gzas. ramdenime tramvai gamoicvales da bolos erTvagonianma,
gansxvavebulma, gansakuTrebulma, miiyvanaT qalaqidan sakmaod moSorebul
sasaflaomde. vagonSi xalvaToba iyo da albaT yvelas TvalSi eCxireboda
maTi Cemodani. ase egona fefes. Cemodani mamas edo muxlebze, fefe ki mamis
gverdiT ijda, orive xeliT mamis mklavs CaWidebuli, rogorc wyalwaRebuli
xavss. SiSiT guli uskdeboda, ar gvkiTxos konduqtorma, ra gidevT mag
CemodanSio. konduqtori ar dainteresebula, ra edoT CemodanSi, magram
zedmeti bileTis aReba ki mosTxovaT, ramac mamamisi sabolood gamoiyvana
wonasworobidan. "ratom unda aviRo zedmeti bileTi, ra adgils es ikavebs,
an vis uSlis xelso" yviroda, TvalebgadaTeTrebuli, ybaacaxcaxebuli.
Tuki vinme ijda vagonSi, imaTken iyureboda. "uSlis Tu ar uSlis, bargi
bargiao" gajiutda konduqtoric. fefe ise Seepyro SiSs, aRaraferi
gaegeboda, gamwarebuli eCurCuleboda mamas yurSi, aiRe da aiRe bileTio,
magram mamas ar esmoda misi, konduqtorTan hqonda saqme codva-madli
aRara gaqvT, fulsa xarT yvelani erTnairad daxarbebulebio yrida
cofebs. fefe skamidan wamoxta, mamas Cemodani gamoglija da mTeli ZaliT
Caartya TavSi, ris Semdegac, araTu mamamisi gaCumda (gaiTiSa erTi-ori
wamiT), aramed konduqtoric daubrunda Tavis adgils SeiZleba, SeeSinda
fefesi, SeiZleba, Seecoda kidec es gaZvaltyavebuli mama-Svili da aRar
gamoiCina zedmeti principuloba...

mamamiss, etyoba, winaswar hqonda Segulianebuli ukve balaxmodebuli,

savaraudod upatrono saflavi, sadac Svilis damarxvas apirebda Cumad,
magram swored im upatrono saflavis gverdiT, viRacas marxavdnen kidev da
isinic iZulebulni gaxdnen, daecadaT. sakmaod bevr xalxs moeyara Tavi.
momRerlebic moeyvanaT. erTi maTgani TvaldaxuWuli mReroda da aman
gaakvirva yvelaze Zalian fefe, Tumca iqamde arc TvaldaxuWuli momRerali
unaxavs da arc TvaldaWyetili. sazafxulo, nasvretebiani Sliapa
acaxcaxebul xelSi eWira da fefes eSinoda, ar dauvardeso. meore xeliT
moWmuWnul cxvirsaxocs gadaisvamda xolme Sublze, magram mainc wurwuriT
Camosdioda ofli. saxe wiTlad uvarvarebda. SeiZleba, cxeloda; SeiZleba,
avad iyo. WerCamoqceuli ekvderidan CaquCis kakuni ismoda, saflavis qvas
Tlidnen albaT, da fefe erTnairi interesiT usmenda CaquCis kakunsac da
simRerasac da, rac mTavaria, orive siamovnebda. momRerlebs, etyoba,
sxvaganac elodebodnen da ugviandebodaT. morCnen Tu ara simReras, maSinve
gaecalnen iqaurobas. saflav-saflav, mokleze midiodnen, TvalSisacemad
saqmianni da mizandasaxulni. sicxisagan gamxmar da gamoyviTlebul
balaxidan bRuja-bRuja amocvivdebodnen xolme wvrili kutkaliebi. yvelaze
bolos fefes momRerali midioda. Zlivs miafratunebda fexebs. magram vidre
iasamnis buCqebs miefareboda, mainc moxeda fefes da Tvali CaupaWuna,
eSmakurad momRimarma, riTac samudamod daamaxsovra Tavi...
 mere xalxic male daiSala. magram axla mesaflaveebis wasvlas ar daadga
saSveli (kidev kargi!). saqmes rom morCnen, bar-niCabi da Tokebi erTad
dayares da TviTonac iqve miwvnen puris saWmelad. mxarTeZoze wamowolilni
iloRnebodnen, uxalisod, TavadiSvilurad. wesierad dajdomis Tavic aRar
hqondaT. fefem hkiTxa kidec mamas, egre ratom Wamen, ratom ar dasxdebian,
rogorc wesi da rigiao, magram mamam mxari auqnia mxolod (TviTonac Sioda
da ar hqonda laparakis Tavi), magram fefe rom ar moeSva bevr xalxs
marxaven da Zalian iRlebiano upasuxa kuStad. mesaflaveebmac mohkres
yuri maT laparaks, Tu sasaflaoze Cemodniani kacis danaxva gaukvirdaT,
Tavad gamoelaparaknen, xolo, maTi ambavi rom gaiges, Zalian Sewuxdnen,
mamas Rvino miawodes, fefes puri, da TvalisdaxamxamebaSi daamarxes
eswuTia damarxul micvalebuls fefes sabralo daikoc, wiTel pepelasaviT
rom amofarfatda uceb Cemodnidan da samudamod STainTqa orgzis gaTxril
samareSi. mesaflaveebma samaris borcvi xelaxla moaswores, yvavilebic
xelaxla daayares zemodan da axla ukve veRarc Wirisufali Seatyobda
rames, veRarc sasaflaos direqtori. "yvelaferi rigzea, saflavis kanonieri
patroni Tu ar gagvibrazdao" Tqva erT-erTma maTganma da niCabi Sors
moisrola. "ras ambob, kaco, madlobelic dagvrCeba, zamTarSi fexebi Tbilad
eqnebao" Tqva meorem. "ukve dedasTan ariso" amSvidebda fefes mSier
kuWze daleuli RviniT aRgznebul-aforiaqebuli mama. fefe ki, qmris zurgs
ukan iwva zafxulis Ramis CaxuTul, Caxurebul wyvdiadSi da avi
winaTgrZnobiT Sepyrobili, jiutad ar acilebda Tvals sibneleSi
gauCinarebul sarkmels, vidre ar aiZula, ukanve mobrunebuliyo, vidre
TandaTanobiT, isev ar gamoikveTa sarkmlis moTeTro-monacrisfro kvadrati,
vidre sabolood ar gaTenda da vidre isev ar datrialda oTaxebSi droebiT
Cabudebuli, droebiT damcxrali mumlis korianteli...
III
 "tyuis. tyuis... me magiJebs... me mixeTqavs guls" fiqrobs eliso. Tumca,
"saqorwilo mogzaurobidan" dabrunebulma lizikom rom daureka, arsad
gaxvide, salaparako maqvs SenTano, ukve icoda, ukve grZnobda, kargs arafers
etyoda sayvareli geri. magram rac es-es aris moismina misgan, rasakvirvelia,
yvelafers aRemateba, fiqrSiac ver gabedavda msgavsis warmodgenas, gindac
mTeli sicocxle lizikos sasiyvarulo Tavgadasavlebze efiqra mxolod.
miCveuli kia misgan aseT "ucnaur", "moulodnel" gamoxdomebs
Teqvsmetisac ar iqneboda, ori dRis gacnobil biWs "qaliSviloba rom
Caabara", yoymana da gaubedavi antonis jibriT. zustad ase uTxra elisos:
"momiloce, dRes qaliSviloba Cavabare im patiosan kretinso", ris Semdegac,
is "patiosani kretini", romelic fortepianos klass amTavrebda
konservatoriaSi da did momavalsac uwinaswarmetyvelebdnen
musikismcodneni, saerTod gadaixvewa saqarTvelodan da unda vivaraudoT,
ufro lizikos SiSiT, vidre drois karnaxiT. magram adre Cadenil araerT
sisuleles, ase Tu ise, mainc moeZebneba axsnaca da gamarTlebac, amas ki
ara. Tavad lizikosgan rom ar moesmina da gindac RmerTs eTqva, Seni geri
mamamTils yvarobso, tyuio Seubrunebda sityvas aRar gaimeoroo
gaaCumebda saerTod. magram rasac RmerTs gaubedavda, gers ver gaubeda.
piriqiT, geris am moulodnelma aRsarebam, pirvel rigSi, sakuTari umweobis,
uuflebobis SegrZneba gaumZafra, sakuTari simartovisa da daucvelobisa...
ki eubneba xolme elizbari (ra Tqma unda, xumrobiT), me erTi var, Tqven ki
orni, Tanac qalebi, da erTmaneTis tyavs ar daxevTo, magram
sinamdvileSi, isini iyvnen yovelTvis orni, elizbari da liziko, TviTon ki,
erTia da bolomde ase darCeba, erTi, yvelgan erTi, yovelTvis erTi, raki
sakuTari uaryo da sxvisas ver daepatrona, radgan arasodes ucdia
Secdomis gamarTleba, anu, mama-Svils Soris Cadgoma da maTi gaTiSva, miT
ufro, romelime maTganis gadabireba meoris sawinaaRmdegod. ufro metic,
elizbaris kanonieri coli ki gaxda, magram araferi moumoqmedebia
elizbaris gardacvlili colis danatovari sicarielis amosavsebad. imasac
did bednierebad Tvlida, Tuki, elizbarTan da lizikosTan erTad,
icxovrebda im sicarieleSi. sxvaTaSoris, lizikom mis gamoCenamde miiTvisa
gardacvlili dedis uflebebi da, rasakvirvelia, axla aRaravis daanebebs,
miT ufro, Tuki arc aravin moTxovs. liziko ukve Tavisufali,
damoukidebeli adamiania da ukve TviTonve Wedavs sakuTar ubedurebas
sakuTar samWedloSi. rasakvirvelia, esec problemaa da, elisos azriT, es
problemac Segnebulad Seqmnes TviTon, mSoblebma, Tundac, ufrosebma,
erTmaneTTan SeTanxmebiTa da erTmaneTis daxmarebiT, ara marto TavianTi
urTierTobis jer SesanarCuneblad da Semdeg gasaRrmaveblad, aramed
TavianTi keTilSobilebis gamosavlenadac, upirveles yovlisa, erTmaneTis
TvalSi, rac safrTxis SegrZnebas ki ara, madlierebis grZnobas badebda maT
gulebSi, isev da isev erTmaneTis mimarT, da fiqrSiac ar dauSvebdnen, maTi
Sexmatkbilebuli keTildReoba saxifaTo Tu aRmoCndeboda Tavad
lizikosTvis, visTvisac TavianTi WkuiT irjebodnen, anda Tavad liziko Tu
aRmoCndeboda maTTvis saxifaTo, Tundac, andazidan gamomdinare, anu,
moyvrad gazrdili, bolos mtrad Tu moekideboda Tavis gamzrdelebs da
orives saqveynod moWrida Tavs. arada, aseTi safrTxe, rogorc sCans,
namdvilad arsebobda da am safrTxis arseboba aiZulebda imaTac,
ganuwyvetliv eTvalTmaqcaT da emliqvnelaT cxvirmouxocavi Rlapis winaSe,
"naklebad mtkivneuli" rom yofiliyo imisTvis maTi piradi keTildReoba.
Tumca, saca samarTalia, qmris sikvdilis Semdeg, arasodes ufiqria pirad
keTildReobaze; TavisTavad, TiTqos uimisod moxda yvelaferi; verc ki
warmoidgenda, saerTod Tu SeiZleboda, "yovlad Cveulebrivi urTierToba"
hqonoda elizbarTanac, lamis abstraqtul cnebasTan, romelTanac, misi Rrma
rwmeniT, "sruliad sxva interesebi" akavSirebda, ase vTqvaT, cxovrebismieri
ki ara, wignismieri. "Tqvenma wignma gadamarCinao" eJRurtuleboda
gulwrfelad madlieri da ukve Tavadac daqvrivebuli, maTi "siyvarulis"
pirvel etapze, anu, gauTavebeli satelefono saubrebis Jams, da mavTulis
meore boloSi, RvTaebrivad, Rrmad, xangrZlivad dadumebuli elizbari,
warmodgenili cis binadari ufro iyo misTvis, vidre fexqveS myarad
arsebuli miwis mkvidri... maTi urTierToba srulebiTac ar gulisxmobda
amqveyniur keTildReobas, ufro sworad, arcerTi ar apirebda xelmeored
daojaxebas da erTxel kidev gadatanas imisa, rac ukve gadaetana; ubralod,
Zvel naiarevebs aCvenebdnen erTmaneTs, rac garkveul Svebas aniWebdaT,
magram bolos ise amouvidaT yelSi gauTavebeli satelefono saubrebi,
xelmouweravi "satrfialo baraTebi" da, rac mTavaria, yovlad uazro
kukumalaoba qalaqTanac da lizikosTanac, ukve daufaravad natrobdnen da
aRar egonaT, isinic Tu gaxdebodnen rodisme "Cveulebrivi adamianuri
cxovrebis" Rirsni. maRal grZnobebs, etyoba, mainc mdabali miznebi
ganapirobeben da, rogorc wesi, yovelTvis erTnairad mTavrdeba nebismieri,
gindac wignieri urTierToba qalisa da kacisa. isinic ufro miwieri
arsebebi iyvnen, vidre ciuri, da, amave dros, gacilebiT meti saerTo
hqondaT, vidre Tundac qvrivobaa. danaSaulis gaunelebeli, mouSorebeli
grZnoba gardacvlil TanamecxedreTa mimarT da am danaSaulisTvis
gankuTvnili sasjeli sindisis qenjna! ai, ra aerTianebda maT, Tumca,
araferi CaudeniaT gardacvlilTa sawinaaRmdego, miT ufro, maTTvis
momakvdinebeli, da arc gardacvlilebs CauTvliaT isini TavianT
mkvlelebad, piriqiT, Tuki vinmes umxelda, mxolod qmars umxelda Tavis
"giJur siyvaruls" da Zilis win, sawolSi ukiTxavda elizbaris leqsebs.
xolo, elizbaris meuRles sikvdilis win Cveuli sinaziT mouWeria ukve
ZalawarTmeuli TiTebi elizbaris xelisTvis, rogorc wveulebebze, anda
saerTod ucxo xalxSi iqceoda xolme, qadagad davardnili meuRlis
gamosafxizleblad. ase rom, Cveulebrivi urTierTobebis SiSma ufro
miiyvana isini erTmaneTTan, vidre Cveulebrivi urTierTobebis Ziebam. orive
maTgans sulieri megobari Wirdeboda, gnebavT, sulieri meTvalyure,
romelsac ara marto danaxva SeeZleboda meoris sindisis qenjnisa, aramed
gancdac... SeeZleboda Tvali miedevnebina am marTlac usastikesi
sasjelisTvis, CanasaxSive rom spobs nebismier survils, mizansa da ocnebas,
aqrobs sicocxlis xaliss da, amave dros, araferi aqvs saerTo sicocxlis
moyirWebasTan. piriqiT. sicocxle gwyuria (jer axalgazrda xar, bolos da
bolos), giyvars, genatreba, magram "ufleba ara gaqvs" miiRo, Caixuto, Sesva,
daTvre, gaileSo misi simSvenieriT, raki Seni meore naxevari ukve miwaSi
wevs, mxolod da mxolod, Seni miuxvedrelobis, anda, Cveulebrivi
TavkerZobis gamo: erTxelac ar dafiqrebulxar, pirvel rigSi, qmars rom
amcirebda da akninebda Seni moureveli, mouTokavi survili elizbaris
Tundac mwerluri avtoritetis gazrdisa, maincdamainc, qmris TvalSi... ase
rom, raki cocxali xar, damnaSavec xar, magram sxvebis ki ara, sulerTia,
cocxlebi arian isini Tu mkvdrebi, aramed sakuTari Tavis winaSe, da Tu
vinmes vneb Seni sicocxliT, sakuTar Tavs vneb, upirveles yovlisa. adamiani,
grZnobs Tu ver grZnobs TviTon, cxovrebis WaobSia yelamde Cafluli da
xelis Camwodebelic aravin yavs. amitom, rac ufro metad cdilobs Waobis
simyralidan amosvlas, miT ufro Rrmad efloba Sig. arada, arc yoymani, anu,
wignis anabara yofna daayris xeirs. yoymani sasurvelsa da savaldebulos
Soris motivtive liTonis ugrZnobeli birTvia, romelzedac SegiZlia cota
xniT daekido, sulis mosaTqmelad, radgan didxans mainc ar gagiCerebs,
mouxerxebelia saamisod, dasvenebis nacvlad, uaresad dagqancavs uazro
bRlarZuniT da xelebsac gadagatyavebinebs Tavis xorkliansa da slipina
zedapirze... elisoc mxolod imas cdilobs, Seeguos arsebuls, anu, rac
SeiZleba ukeTesad uqicinos kudi lizikos, ukeTesad ugoros kvercxi
elizbars, ukeTesad gaZvres nemsis yunwSi, gamoZvres sakuTari tyavidan,
daibrmavos Tvali, daimunjos ena, daixSos yuri da, rac mTavaria, arc
dainteresdes, erTxelac ar hkiTxos Tavs, ramdenad gamarTlebulia misi
saqcieli, borotebas sCadis Tu sikeTes. mTavaria, lizikom ar aiTvalwunos
da kidev ufro mTavaria, neba darTos uyvardes mamamisi. masac mxolod
siyvaruli amoZravebs da lizikos siyvarulze aranakleb "giJuri", oRond,
lizikos siyvarulisgan gansxvavebiT, mainc adamianuri grZnobis naSieri da
ara mdabali, cxoveluri survilisa, amitom, SeiZleba, ufro Zneli
dasajerebelic, miT ufro, dRes, roca yvela erTnairad qadagebs siyvarulis
Tavisuflebas da gulis siRrmeSi aRaravis aRar sjera am Tqveni
ybadaRebuli siyvarulisa, ar sjera, ar Wirdeba, ar gamoadga, ar gaumarTla,
radgan cxovrebasac grZnoba ki ara, survili warmarTavs Tavis Wkuaze da,
etyoba, ase urCevnia adamiansac, Tundac, erTis sirTulisa da meoris
simartivis gamo. elisos marto elizbari ki ar uyvars, aramed misi
naadrevad gardacvlili meuRlec da misi naadrevad daoblebuli Svilic
samive erTnairad da amdenad, vinmes ki ar enacvleba, vinmes ki ar ecileba,
ubralod, Tavisi "giJuri" siyvaruliT mopovebul adgils ikavebs
ganuyofeli sameulis gverdiT, rogorc maTi erTguli mcveli, maTi
sasaxlis bifiteri, oRond, sakuTari xorcis mWameli maT saameblad...
 siyvaruli Wkuas rom akargvinebs qals, TviTonac kargad icis, sakuTar
Tavze aqvs nawvnevi, magram xom unda arsebobdes raRac zRvari, romlis
iqiTac... Tumca, ara, ar SeiZleba. siyvaruls Tu zRvari daude, siyvaruli
aRar iqneba. siyvaruli, rogorc stiqia, TviTonve adgens sakuTar sazRvrebs
da rac am sazRvrebs miRma rCeba, arafers ar warmoadgens, arafers ar
niSnavs Tavad SeyvarebulisTvis. amis meti ra icis da arc lizikoze naklebi
gansacdeli dastydomia Tavs siyvarulis gamo. gaTxovil qals coliani kaci
Seuyvarda... ki batono, madlier mkiTxvels cnobili mwerali... magram,
usqeso mwerali sad gagigiaT?! ar arsebobs. tyuilia. siyvaruli SenTvis
ukeTesis arCevaa. magram lizikosaviT, Sin ki ar miuvarda imas, ginda Tu ara,
yvelaferze erTbaSad aiRe xeli Cemi gulisTviso, amdenis uflebas rogor
miscemda Tavs, lizikosTan SedarebiT, Tavis Sekavebac SeeZlo da grZnobebis
damalvac, magram lizikosgan gansxvavebiT, meore ukiduresobaSi gadavarda
uneburad, radgan Tavisi "giJuri", wignebidan amokiTxuliviT "gaugonari"
siyvaruli, pirvel rigSi, imas gaumxila, visTvisac unda daemala; imas
SesCioda Tavis gasaWirs, visganac mxolod risxvasa da siZulvils
imsaxurebda, ris gamoc, axla sinanulisa da danaSaulis grZnoba tanjavs,
rogorc maSin calmxrivi, marto qmarTan, rogorc erTaderT da guliTad
dobilTan gamxelili grZnoba tanjavda. ara marto damnaSaved Tvlis Tavs,
rogorc qmris, iseve elizbaris pirveli colis winaSe, aramed
damarcxebuladac, gabiTurebuladac... siyvaruli SenTvis ukeTesis arCeva kia,
magram, sanacvlod, samudamod kargav uflebas, rCeva misce sxvas. yovel
SemTxvevaSi, eliso namdvilad ar gamodgeba sxvebis Wkuis damrigeblad. da
mainc, uweso da saTakilo araferi Caudenia, saerTod ar Caudenia araferi,
radgan, sabednierod Tu samwuxarod, TavisTavad moxda, rac moxda, anu, jer
elizbaris meuRle gardaicvala, mere misi qmari da, Tuki vinmes
damsaxurebaa, mxolod mkvdrebis damsaxurebaa maTi gabedniereba. Tumca,
gabednierebam kidev ufro gaumZafra danaSaulisa da damarcxebis SegrZneba
(albaT elizbarsac): lizikom STaagona Tu TviTon mivida am daskvnamde,
gulis siRrmeSi marTla sjera, is da elizbari winaswar SeTanxmebulni,
winaswar Sedgenili gegmis mixedviT rom moqmedebednen sakuTari meuRleebis
mosaSoreblad. axla sjera imisa, rac sinamdvileSi ar momxdara. magram
sjera imitom, dasaSvebad rom miaCnia, marTla momxdariyo, marTla moekla
qmari, Tuki es iqneboda erTaderTi gamosavali im tanjva-wamebidan,
romelSic siyvarulma Caagdo, romelsac mxolod misi qmari xedavda da
ganicdida kidec yvelanairad uwyobda xels am sazareli seniT
Sepyrobils, uvlida, patronobda, rogorc Wkuanaklulsa Tu davrdomil,
xeliT Sesanax avadmyofs urCevda, rogorme moreoda Tavs, magram vin
morevia, eliso rom moreoda. dRisiT gaSterebuli ijda da, TiTqos
warTmevas upirebeno, orive xeliT ixutebda gulSi elizbaris wigns, RamiT
ki, SamfuriviT trialebda aranormaluri ganzraxvebis, araswori varaudebis
da Semzaravi Cvenebebis oxSivarSi... yvelafrisTvis mzad iyo ukve.
daufiqreblad dalevda dariSxansac da daufiqreblad Cauvardeboda
matarebelsac, Tuki mis siyvaruls raime safrTxe daemuqreboda... aseve,
fexebs daukocnida yvelas (pirvel rigSi, qmars), vinc gaugebda,
TanaugrZnobda, apatiebda am uneblie, gangebisgan Tavsmoxveul danaSauls...
da mainc, misi sigiJeca da danaSaulic gamosaCenadac ar Rirs lizikos
sigiJisa da danaSaulis gverdiT. moulodnelobisgan enawarTmeuli,
dadamblavebuli, magidaze dayril sakuTar xelebs dascqeris da
gamwarebuli fiqrobs, ra iRonos, rogor moiqces: isev mesaidumled,
megobrad daudges gers am sazarel codvaSic, Tu dauyovnebliv atexos
gangaSi; Seuvardes elizbars da maxviliviT aZgeros gulSi simarTle, Tu
axlac dazogos, gaCumdes, viTomc araferi momxdariyos... marTlac,
elizbaris oTaxidan isev sabeWdi manqanis Cveuli, lamis ukve Zval-rbilSi
gamjdari xma ismis, rac, cota ar iyos, ukvirs elisos, Tumca, am xmis gareSe
vercki warmoudgenia cxovreba. elizbarisTvis jer araferi Secvlila,
beWdavs raRacas TavisTvis. ar icis da imitom. ar codna, ar codvao. magram
rogor SeiZleba ucodveli iyos elizbari, roca misi Svili amxela
codvaSia Cavardnili?! kaci xelisuflebas eWidaveba, leqsebis nacvlad,
politikur traqtatebs wers, da erT cinglian gogos ver moeria, ver
gazarda Tavis Wkuaze. obolia... codoa... ra Tqma unda! magram axla ufro
obolia da axla ufro codoa marto dgas Tavis codvis morevSi
mamamisi ki, kodalasaviT akakunebs. qveyana Tavze engreva, is ki aTasnair
sisuleles igonebs Tavis niJaraSi Seketili. magram eliso ZaliT
gamoaTrevs iqidan da, raki sxva araferi SeuZlia, lizikosTan erTad,
gulxeldakrefili uyurebs, rogor gauskdeba imas guli, ufro adre, vidre
bolomde moismendes Svilis ambavs...
mere?! ra moxda mere? amoRerRa rogorc iqna, Tumca, TviTonve
grZnobs am SekiTxvis uazrobas.
rac mere xdeba, yvelaferi umniSvneloa ukve momxdarTan SedarebiT.
naklebad sainteresoc. mokled, isRa dagvrCenia, nacari daviyaroT Tavze da
fexebSi CauvardeT bedisweras, patiebis saTxovnelad ki ara, rac SeiZleba,
daaCqaros sasjelis aRsruleba. sasjeli ki umkacresi, usastikesi,
ukiduresi iqneba: Caqolva, cocxlad gatyaveba, xel-fexis daglejva,
gvelebiT savse ormoSi Cagdeba... imitom rom, Tavisi uaryo da sxvisas
daepatrona... imitom rom, Tuki adre, sakuTar kedlebs Soris, miuwvdomlis,
Soreulis gauziarebeli siyvaruli ukargavda mosvenebas da gulSi
Caxutebuli wignidan mis arsebaSi gaJonili sxvisi sidiadisa da siZlieris
SegrZnebiT damfrTxali daborialobda oTaxebSi, axla TvaldaWyetili wevs
xolme bnelSi, mkvdari qalis mouSorebel nivTebs Soris, gauCinarebul
sarkmels miSterebuli, da sizmris SiSiT ver iZinebs, radgan sizmarSi,
viTom cocxldeba misi qmari da, meored ar Caeqces sisxlio, es viTom
verafriT ver eubneba, tyuilad gacocxldi, aravis aRar Wirdebi, aRar aris
aq Seni adgilio...
axla magidaze dauyria xelebi, usargeblo nivTebiviT, da sakuTar xelebs
dascqeris, aTvalierebs gulisyuriT, ar icis, raSi SeiZleba maTi gamoyeneba.
"ramdeni xania, frCxili ar damiqniao" fiqrobs uazrod, dros gasayvanad,
radgan marTla ar icis, rogor moiqces, elizbari gamoaTrios niJaridan, Tu
es SeaTrios TmiT elizbarTan... "esec" Caylapos, rogorc ara erTi mware
sityva da usamarTlo braldeba Cauylapavs lizikosgan, "kargi urTierTobis"
SesanarCuneblad, Tu axla mainc iTqvas, gairkves, saerTod ra azri aqvs
urTierTobas an erTmaneTTan an sxvebTan, Tuki erTnairad sulerTia
yvelaferi, arc arafris morideba gvaqvs, arc arafris pativiscema... yvelaze
metad axla grZnobs uelizbarobas da, amave dros, yvelaze metad axla ar
unda elizbaris danaxva. arada, isic aqvea, or nabijze, yovel wuTas
SeiZleba Semoexetos. imave haers sunTqavs, rasac isini, da isic mowamlulia
ukve, imasac miRebuli aqvs momakvdinebeli doza Sxamisa, magram jer ar
icis... jer ar icis, ra elodeba, ra RvTis risxva daatexa Svilma Tavze, da
arxeinad akakunebs Tavis oTaxSi, rogorc kodala qviSxeTis gadayruebul
tyeebSi...
 xolo, misi Svili gacilebiT ukeTesad grZnobs Tavs, vidre aq mosvlamde
grZnobda. gulSi damalulma saidumlom gamosarwyavi muwukiviT gaawvala,
gaamwara, magram verc qmrisTvis SeeCivla Tavisi gasaWiri, verc
dedamTilisTvis. raJdenis danaxvaze ki, saerTod lenCdeboda, iTiSeboda, ar
icoda, rogor daeWira imasTan Tavi. ufro sworad, icoda, magram araferi
gamosdioda: brinjiviT ibneoda, blusaviT bluyunebda da aTasnair sulelur
mizezs igonebda, rac SeiZleba swrafad rom gascloda iqaurobas,
Seketiliyo oTaxSi, abazanaSi, sapirfareSoSi... sulerTia sad, oRond, aRar
egrZno mamamTilis daJinebuli, Zvalsa da rbilSi gamWoli mzera. eliso iyo
erTaderTi adamiani, romelsac andobda Tavis saidumlos, magram mainc
iTrevda fexs, eTakileboda, umweo da daucveli gamoCeniliyo imis TvalSi,
anda, kidev uaresi, Sescodeboda anda daetuqsa imas, rogorc ufross
umcrosi, mSobels Svili, dedinacvals geri... lizikos mxolod meore qalis
gulwrfeli, guliTadi Tanadgoma Wirdeboda, qaluri solidaroba, oRond
imisgan, vinc borotad ar gamoiyenebda mis gulaxdilobas da saerTod Tavis
zegavlenis qveS ar moiqcevda moCvenebiTi solidarobis sanacvlod. aseTi
mxolod eliso SeiZleboda yofiliyo, Tuki, rasakvirvelia, Cveulebisamebr,
maSinve ar ahyveboda panikas da uaresad ar daafrTxobda amasac. magram axla
mTavari Wiri ukve moSorebuli aqvs, saTqmeli iTqva, Sxami amoiRo da mis
sicocxles safrTxe aRar emuqreba. axla mxolod is adardebs, mTlad ar
daeces, mTlad ar damdabldes elisos TvalSi da, SeZlebisamebr,
"alamazebs" saqorwilo Tavgadasavals. magram rac ufro metad cdilobs
qviSxeTuri incindentis Selamazebas, miT ufro Semzaravi suraTi ixateba:
gaugebrobis msxverpli, anda, iuridiul enaze, "Zaladobis obieqti" ki ar
gamodis, aramed Tanamzraxveli, Tanamonawile, partniori, anu, ufro
adamianur enaze, kaxpa, Zukna, roskipi, bozi, meZavi... amas, pirvel rigSi,
elisos saxeze kiTxulobs da, pirvel rigSi, elisoze brazdeba, elisos
miuxvedreloba acofebs da, imis jibriT, marTla iaffasian meZaviviT iqceva,
aRarc ufros-umcrosobas dagidevT, aRarc dedaSvilobas, da rac ufro
ufarTovdeba elisos Tvalebi, rac ufro ebriceba saxe da ulurjdeba
tuCebi, miT ufro zeimobs gunebaSi, TiTqos aq, mxolod da mxolod, elisos
gasamwareblad iyos mosuli...
mSia. lukma ar Camsvlia dRes ambobs bolos.
rac gvaqvs, magidazea kuStad pasuxobs eliso.
magidaze puris kalaTi da Tixis yviTeli sakaraqe devs.
dana?! kiTxulobs liziko da aqeT-iqiT acecebs Tvalebs,
stumariviT.
aRar gaxsovs, sad vinaxavT danebs?! gabrazebas cdilobs eliso,
magram uSedegod.
saerTod gaocebulia sakuTari simSvidiTa da gulgrilobiT; arasodes ar
ifiqrebda, ase udrtvinvelad Tu Seegueboda Svilis (gindac geris!)
ubedurebas... ara, ki ar egueba, ar ukvirs, TiTqos mosalodnelic iyo
misTvis amgvari ram da ai, rogorc iqna, moxda, aRsrulda, madloba RmerTs.
madloba? ratomac ara?! gana ubedurebis ganuwyvetel molodins ar sjobs,
erTbaSad moxdes, rac mosaxdenia?! sjobs. sjobs. magram mainc codoa
elizbari, ase Tavgamodebuli rom akakunebs Tavis sabeWd manqanaze da,
bolo-bolo, mainc uSedegod, tyuilubralod... kodala aTasSi erTxel mainc
poulobs matls... ra azri aqvs adamianur sisusteTa aRweras, Tuki araviTari
zRvari aRar arsebobs dasaSvebsa da SesaZlebels Soris... Tuki adamiani ki
ar ewireba sakuTar vnebebs, misi vnebebi aRar arian adamianuri... amdenad, arc
TanagrZnobas imsaxureben... arc aRtacebas iwveven, arc sibraluls...
ra moxda-meTqi, mere?! gametebiT dahkra uceb magidas muSti.
 ai, Turme risTvisaa xeli saWiro. elizbaris rom ar eridebodes,
daamsxvrevda, mtvrad aqcevda aqaurobas, magram amis gamkeTebeli rom iyos,
maSin aRarc elizbaris moerideboda.
moxda, rac unda momxdariyo mSvidad pasuxobs liziko, radgan
elisoze naklebad, arc is grZnobs am SekiTxvis uazrobas. rac "mere" xdeba,
yvelgan da yovelTvis erTnairad xdeba.
dana ukve "upovnia" (karadis ujraSi), skamze muxlebiT dgas (ver
Ralatobs bavSvobidan gamoyolil Cvevas), idayvebiT magidas eyrdnoba da
yasidad daseriozulebuli, wkipad usvams karaqs purze. Tan, savsebiT
seriozulad afrTxilebs elisos, vidre ganaCens gamomitande, erTxel kidev
dafiqrdi, gaixsene, sad cxovrob, romel epoqaSi da, gansakuTrebiT, romel
qveyanaSio.
Cven sxva xalxi varT, eliso... ufro sworad, xalxi ara varT
agrZelebs niris Seucvlelad sxvaTaSoris, Tqveni wyalobiT... mSoblebis,
ufrosebis... Tu cxovreba ar SegeZloT, an aRar gindodaT, raRas gvaCendiT?!
imitomac garbian giJebiviT, Tavqudmoglejilni... Cemi katoc midis Turme...
erTaderTi dobili myavda da isic midis... avdgebi da mec waval...
gadavikargebi... meZebeT, ramdenic gindaT... uceb, TviTonve rom gaukvirda,
ise Zlier mounda, zrdilobisTvis mainc gawyromoda, calybad mainc eTqva
elisos, ra gvWirs gasaqcevi, me Tu ara, mamaSeni mainc dazogeo, da am
marTlac bavSvuri, gulubryvilo surviliT gulaCuyebuli, kidev ufro
agdebulad, kidev ufro gamomwvevad agrZelebs sworedac iqcevian... aba,
ra! araferi dagvitoveT gasafrTxilebeli da Sesanaxi, arc ZafSebmuli
pirveli kiWi, arc mklavmoglejili pirveli Tojina, arc cremliT
dalaquli pirveli satrfialo baraTi... araferi. arc cocxlis pativiscema,
arc mkvdris xsovna... es ki, Seni bralicaa, Cemo Zvirfaso dedinacvalo,
magram mainc didi madlobeli var Seni, ramdeni xania, ase gemrielad ar
miWamia...
xeli ar unda dagebana Wamis win?! datuqsa elisom.
xels arc qristes mowafeebi ibandnen, me ki Seni mowafe var...
gakenwla lizikom yvelaferSi daamata cota xnis Semdeg.
usvindiso uTxra elisom sakuTar xelebs.
adamians is ki ar bilwavs, rac piridan Casdis, aramed rac piridan
amosdis ambobs liziko TavisTvis, umisamarTod, da danas sapureze
agdebs, welSi imarTeba da erTmaneTze usvams gaSlil xelisgulebs
mokled, asea Cveni ambavi, Cemo Zvirfaso... didi madloba sauzmisTvis...
agrZelebs udardelad, TiTqos mxolod karaqiani puris saWmelad movida aq
da rasac laparakobs, Tavazianobis gamo laparakobs, maspinZlis
pativiscemiT, imasac rom ar aTqmevinos, mxolod karaqiani puris saWmelad
mosulao gamofxizldi, gamoiRviZe, bolos da bolos! brazdeba
moulodnelad droSi viwviT, ombre, dro aRar dagvrCa agrZelebs isev
Cveulebrivi xmiT erTgulebas dro Wirdeba, Ralati ki wamis saqmea...
ki magram... borZikobs eliso, magram liziko mainc ar aclis sityvis
damTavrebas.
amas ki namdvilad ver agixsni... SeniT unda mixvde icinis
naZaladevad amas yvela qali TviTon xvdeba. rac mTavaria, Senze ar aris
damokidebuli, Sen emorCilebi, an ar emorCilebi, magram orive SemTxvevaSi
erTnairad iRupebi. daRupva garduvalia. vaSa! Sen ra, yvelaferi dagaviwyda?
aRar gaxsovs, ra dReSi iyavi? kidev ufro naZaladevad icinis liziko
oooo-o, namdvilad didi Zalaa. boroti. miudgomeli. Sen ki, saTamaSo
Tojina xar da meti araferi...
ki magram, mamac ar gagaxsenda? mamac arafers niSnavs SenTvis? mainc
amTavrebs saTqmels eliso.
 Tan gulisyuri elizbaris oTaxisken aqvs, oRond garkveviT TviTonac ar
icis, ra urCevnia, ar gaigos elizbarma maTi laparaki, Tu piriqiT, gaigos
da barem moxdes mosaxdeni. magram elizbaris oTaxidan isev sabeWdi manqanis
kakuni ismis mxolod. ese igi, muSaobs, xolo, raki muSaobs, sxva aRaraferi
arsebobs misTvis, arc coli, arc Svili...
mamaCemi mweralia, gamigebs... valdebulicaa gamigos... sxvaTaSoris, Senc
valdebuli xar, Tundac, rogorc ombre kvimaturad iRimeba skamze
muxlebiT Semdgari da gulxeldakrefili liziko me Tu mkiTxav, arc
iseTi saSinelebaa, rogorsac Sen da mamaCemi mixatavdiT... ubralod,
namdvili mamakacia, mebrZoli, daudgromeli, jiuti... icis, ra unda da isic
icis, rogor moipovos, rac unda... dRevandel biWbuWebs ar gavs... an kargad
ar icnobT, an fexis xmas xarT Tqvenc ayolilni... mTavaria, arafris ar
geSinodes, ombre... gaxsovs?
 "ombre" elisom Searqva lizikos jer kidev maTi "dedaSvilobis"
gariJraJze, jer kidev damwyebma dedam, roca SiSiTa da mRelvarebiT dgamda
arc mTlad bunebrivi gziT mopovebuli dedobis pirvel nabijebs...
sadilobis droa, ombre! ombre, onkani dagrCa moSvebuli... Serqmeuli saxeli
ara marto TamaSis elferSi xvevda maT urTierTobas, aramed saSualebasac
aZlevda elisos, ufro uSualod, "araoficialurad" daeWira Tavi saxifaTo
SvilTan, romlisganac yovel wams yvelaferi iyo mosalodneli. SeiZleboda,
saxalxod ganecxadebina uceb, vTqvaT, avtobusis, troleibusis (tramvai ukve
aRebulia), anda metros vagonSi es qali Tavis Svilad ki masaRebs, magram
Cemi deda ar ariso. Serqmeuli saxeli lizikosac moewona da male yvelani
ombres eZaxdnen, ezoSic, skolaSic da, TavisTavad cxadia, qviSxeTSic...
elisos, ratomRac, mTeli sicxadiT daudga Tvalwin patara, myudro,
mwvaneSi Cakarguli sofeli-agaraki, gaaxsenda maTTvis gamoyofili, erTi
bewo, usarkmlo da lamis uhaero oTaxi, ufro patimris sakani an monazvnis
senaki, sadac elizbarisTvis saerTod aRar rCeboda adgili, isa da lizikoc
Zlivs eteodnen erTaderT sawolze da, erTmaneTis ofliT gaxviTqulni,
gaTenebamde SfoTavdnen, wrialebdnen zafxulis Rameebis CaxuTul
wyvdiadSi... da mainc, ukeTesi mosagonari araferi aqvs elisos. saerTod, rac
ki qviSxeTTanaa dakavSirebuli, mxolod sixarulsa da aRtacebas iwvevs
masSi da axlac kargad axsendeba: sagzuris Sovnac (bevri iyo msurveli),
matareblis bileTebis aRebac (arc es gaxldaT advili saqme), bargis
Calagebac, Calagebamde sarkis win triali da aTasjer mizomeba modidan
ukve raxania gamosuli sazafxulo tansacmlisa da ase Semdeg, da ase
Semdeg... rac mTavaria, zafxuls samivesTvis Sveba mohqonda: elizbari,
bolos da bolos, marto rCeboda Tavis sabeWd manqanasTan; eliso, bolos
da bolos, wydeboda gazis quras da, sxva mwerlebis colebTan erTad,
jdeboda cacxvebis xeivanSi, bruvdeboda sufTa haeriT, cacxvis yvavilis
suniT da usmenda, rogor "Woravdnen" sxva mwerlebis colebi sakuTar
qmrebs, anu, rogor uzrdidnen avtoritets erTmaneTis TvalSi... lizikos
iqauri gogo-biWebi Jivil-xiviliT dasdevdnen kudSi da yvelafer amas,
erTad aRebuls, ra Tqma unda, iqauri sakmaod ugemuri da TixasaviT webovani
katletis, uSaqro kompotisa Tu umarilo brinjis fafis CaTvliT (erTxel,
qalis Tmac egdo maTlafaSi), mainc bedniereba erqva, Cveulebrivi adamianuri
bedniereba, savsebiT sakmarisi, raTa pativs scemde Tavs da imave grZnobiT
iyo gamsWvaluli sxvebis mimarTac. magram ramdenad ukeTesi iqneboda, Turme,
yvelasTvis, saerTod ar gaegoT qviSxeTis saxsenebeli. bevrad ukeTesi
iqneboda, oRond, aRaraferi eSveleba ukve, gviania Tmis glejva da loyebis
Camoxokva. diaxac, valdebulia gaugos lizikos, rogorc lizikom "gaugo"
jer kidev xuTi wlisam, Tu SeiZleba ase iTqvas, misTvis yvelaze mZime dros,
nebayoflobiTi ymobisa Tu aSkara, gaxsnili mliqvnelobis periodSi, roca,
vin icis, raRas ar Caidenda, raRas ar daTanxmdeboda, oRond, xuTi wlis
obol gogos "gaego" da ar aeTvalwunebina, mieRo, Seefarebina, Tavisianad,
axloblad ecno... da lizikos sasaxelod unda iTqvas, miuxedavad uasakobisa,
mainc SesZlo qaluri sulgrZelobisa da keTilSobilebis gamoCena da
"gaugo" iZulebiT Tavdamdablebul qals, romelsac mis iqiT gza aRar
hqonda. samagierod, arc is darCenia valSi, imanac sulgrZelobiTa da
keTilSobilebiT daimsaxura, dedad Tu ara, ufros dad mainc CaeTvala im
obol gogos. gadahyva imis mwyemsvasa da devnas Tbilisis diskoTekebsa Tu
qviSxeTis tye-RreebSi... imasTan gaatara qmarTan gasatarebeli dro, patimris
sakansa Tu monastris senakSi, da davuSvaT da, marTla yurZnis siyvaruliT
kocnida Robes, rogorc liziko eubneba xolme gasabrazeblad, xom kocnida!
kocnida da sulSic iZvrenda da, kacma rom Tqvas, ra mniSvneloba aqvs, ra
amoZravebda, ra asazrdovebda mis suliskveTebas, mxolod yurZnis, anu,
elizbaris siyvaruli, Tu qaluri angareba... vis ra dauSavda amiT?! rogor
Tu vis? pirvel rigSi, isev lizikos... lizikos dauSavda, Tu dauSavda...
ymoba da liqni ampartavnebasa da garyvnilebas zrdis mxolod... marto
elizbars ramdenjer uTqvams. Tumca, uelizbarodac mSvenivrad moexseneba,
magram mainc ver gaugia, ratom unda momxdariyo aucileblad ise, rogorc
moxda da rogorc ar unda momxdariyo araviTar SemTxvevaSi...
sxva gza ar gqonda? Zala ixmara? uneburad xmas auwia elisom,
ufro sakuTari usiamo fiqrebis dasafrTxobad.
arsebobs, eliso, sxva gza? Sen gekiTxebi, arsebobs? zemodan daxeda
gulxeldakrefilma lizikom.
ar arsebobs? ar vici... albaT... gaurkvevlad upasuxa elisom.
Sen ra, niuansebic gainteresebs? eSmakurad mouWuta Tvali lizikom.
diaxac, mainteresebs aRmoxda elisos bavSvuri gulwrfelobiTa da
mgznebarebiT, da isev dahkra muSti magidas, oRond, amjerad, frTxilad,
gaubedavad, "simbolurad", razec TviTonve gaeRima da, ar minda mamaSenmac
gaigos Cveni laparakio, maSinve ganmarta Tavisi moridebulobis mizezi.
ki, batono daeTanxma liziko ese igi, me gazqurasTan videqi da
yavas viduRebdi... is ki, uknidan momepara... albaT momepara... veraferi gavige,
vidre mxarze xeli ar Camomado...
eliso TiTqos yuradRebiT usmens, TiTqos ainteresebs misi yoveli sityva,
magram, ratomRac, bevri araferi gaegeba mosmenilisa, ufro sworad, rogorc
ar unda gauZaliandes Tavs, mainc sakuTar ubedurebas axsenebs lizikos
laparaki, ara marto sityvebi, TavianTi idumali da moulodneli
mniSvnelobebiT, aramed xmac, Tavisi marad cvalebadi JReradobiT.
 Sesabamisad icvleba elisos warmosaxvebic. amJamad, magaliTad, momakvdavi
qmris saxe udgas Tvalwin. araferi Wirda mis qmars sasikvdilo, yovel
SemTxvevaSi, araferi etyoboda sikvdilisa da, rogorc yovelTvis, im dResac
usazRvrod, gnebavT, Slegurad, Tavganwirulad uyvarda Tavisi meuRle,
kidev erTxel da amjerad ukanasknelad daumtkica Tavisi maradiuli
swrafva da survili... magram saabazanodan gamosul elisos, sul sxva
adamiani dauxvda colqmruli, nebadarTuli siaxloviT jer kidev
aforiaqebul sawolSi: enaCavardnili, SiSisgan wamxdari, umweo, ususuri da
fosoebidan lamis gadmocvenili TvalebiT raRacis mavedrebeli. saswrafo
TiTqmis maSinve movida, elisom Zlivs moaswro kabis gadacma, magram SveliT
ki veraferi uSvela qmars, saavadmyofoSi misvlamde gardaicvala manqanaSi,
colis xels Cafrenili, rogorc wyalwaRebuli xavss, magram, sabednierod,
ukve gaTiSuli, ukve Seguebuli xvedrs... elisos mxolod imis eSinoda,
sakace ar gadabruneboda, anda qmari ar gadavardnoda sakacidan. misi qmari
mSvidad ki iwva, TvaldaxuWuli, magram aqeT-iqiT awyvetda Tavs. elisoc,
uneburad, orive xeliT afrindeboda sakaces. saavadmyofodan gamosulma,
elizbars rom daureka, es wuTia, davqvrivdio, jer kidev ubJuoda sakacesTan
naomari xelebi. samagierod, misi damfrTxali da gaognebuli arsebis
yvelaze Soreul, yvelaze bnel kuTxeSi TiTqos raRac Caesaxa, raRac
aucimcimda, usaxelo, jer aRmouCenel varskvlaviviT, da imis cimcimi
raRacnairad amSvidebda, imediT avsebda. SeiZleba, maSin ase ar fiqrobda,
magram maSinac aSkarad grZnobda, misma qmarma am moulodneli da uxmauro
sikvdiliT, TviTonve rom gauxsna gza elizbarisken... sicocxlisken,
Tavisuflebisken... qmari, rasakvirvelia, ecodeboda, uyvarda kidec, magram
ufro megobrad da mesaidumled Tvlida, vidre meuRled. marTalia, mxolod
is xvdeboda mis gasaWirs ecade, rogorme moerio Tavso magram rac
elisos Tavs xdeboda, uelisod xdeboda da axlac zustad aseTi grZnoba
hqonda, TiTqos sxva, uflebamosili da uCinari, warmarTavda mis cxovrebas,
anu, sakuTari cxovrebiT ki ar cxovrobda, sxvis cxovrebas TamaSobda,
magram gmiri ki ar iyo, razec ocnebobda bavSvobidan, aramed gmiris
Semcvleli meorexarisxovani msaxiobi, ufro zustad, uniWo: me var, eliso,
Tqveni Tayvanismcemeli, saavadmyofodan girekavT, es wuTia, gardaicvala Cemi
qmari... rogor unda moreoda Tavs, roca yoveli misi sityva da yvela misi
nabiji winaswar iyo gaTvlili viRacis mier. curvisa bevri araferi
gaegeboda, napirTan Wyumpalaobda, is viRaca ki, jiutad ubiZgebda,
aiZulebda, rac SeiZleba Rrmad Seecura zRvaSi. isic emorCileboda, magram
raki curva ar icoda, zurgze gawolili, jvarcmuliviT xelebgaSlili da
SeSliliviT umizezod momRimari, tivtivebda cxovrebis binZur wyalze...
imdenad iyo dabrmavebuli, SeiZleba, Tavisive gamogonili siyvaruliT,
sanaxevrod caSi gamokiduli kacis coloba egona sicocxle da
Tavisufleba. sinamdvileSi, erTaderT (albaT erTaderT!) Tayvanismcemels
iSorebda, raTa Tavad eca sxvisTvis Tayvani. sxvisTvis ki ara, sxvebisTvis,
mamaSvilisTvis, romelTagan erTi (mama), araTu elisoSi, nebismier wera-
kiTxvis mcodne adamianSi eZebda Tayvanismcemels, meore ki (Svili), arafrad
dagidevdaT im Tqvens Tayvaniscemas da, gardacvlili dedis sanacvlod,
yvelafris uflebas moiTxovda mamisganac da dedinacvlisganac... da aki
moipova kidec! vin dgeba skamze muxlebiT! Tavidanve aRizianebda lizikos es
Cveuleba, magram ver eubneboda, ar ewyinoso. Semdgara skamze muxlebiT,
amxela qali, da yveba Tavis sasiyvarulo Tavgadasavlebs. arc ki rcxvenia!
Tumca, maincdamainc, arc elisos awuxebs es ambavi. qmarTanaa. mkvdar
qmarTan. ufro sworad, qmarTan midis. TeTri kafeliT mopirkeTebul
miwisqveSa gvirabs miuyveba sacxedrisken. marto misi fexis xma ismis
gvirabis sakmaod grZel sicarieleSi. erTi mizniTaa Sepyrobili: rac
SeiZleba swrafad daibrunos qmris gvami, Sin waiRos, rac misi meSveobiTa da
mecadineobiT, misi miuxvedrelobis Sedegad aRmoCnda aq. sxva araferi SerCa
am qveyanaze xelis mosaWidi, aRaraferi aqvs namdvilad sakuTari, garda
qmris gvamisa. erTi iyo da axlac erTia. misTvis aravis ar scalia. yvela
Tavisi cxovrebiT cxovrobs: zogi TavisTvis akakunebs, zogs eSmakebi
ukakuneben TavSi. is ki, yvelasTvis zedmeti bargia, anda, yvelas ecodeba,
erTaderTi, namdvilad misiani rom moukvda, da amitom itanen mxolod,
mkvdris xaTriT. sakmaod didi SualedebiT dacilebuli naTurebi mkrTalad
anaTeben gvirabs, ris gamoc kidev ufro SiSismomgvrelad gamoiyurebian
kafelCamocvenili, damaxinjebuli kedlebi. gvirabi arafriT ar Tavdeba.
iqneb SeeSala? iqneb iq ar midis, saiTac gvirabs miyavs? viRaca mainc xom
unda idges, gza rom hkiTxo? Tumca, miwis qveS yvela gza albaT cxedarTan
migiyvans. magram rogor mixvdebi, rom Senia?! miwis qveS cxedris meti ra
aris, gacilebiT metni arian miwis zemoT darCenilebze. miwa maTi xorciTa
da sisxliTaa gajerebuli, maTi dafleTili gulebiT da daCutuli
filtvebiT, maTi daSlili RviZlebiTa da gaqvavebuli TirkmelebiT... da
qajic veRar gamoarCevs, romel gulSi esvena Seni xati, romeli filtvebi
ibereboda Seni amosunTquli haeriT... es gvirabic Cveulebriv, normalur
saavadmyofosTvis aucilebel sacxedreSi ki ara, jojoxeTSi Cadis da
elisoc iq aRmoCndeba male... Tavis fexiT Cava... iq aris misi adgili... am
sulelurma fiqrma ise SeaSina, cotas morCa, gamobrunda, cotas morCa, uari
Tqva mkvdar qmarze, wamieri sisustis Jams, magram mainc sZlia SiSs da fexs
auCqara, gaiqca... da axlac garbis. erTi xeli gulze miudia, amovardnaze
aqvs guli, meore magidaze udevs da sulelurad rom ar ifiqros isev,
Cveulebriv cxovrebiseul wvrilmanebze gadaaqvs yuradReba: "am dReebSi
marTla unda mivide dodosTan da davaqnevino frCxilebio... ar SeiZleba ase
siarulio... mec qali var, bolos da boloso"...
Tumca, mec amis molodinSi viyavi sul agrZelebs liziko
vicodi, ase moxdeboda... rogorc ki xeli Camomado mxarze, maSinve gazi
gamovrTe... mRelvarebisgan Jezve gadamibrunda da yava quraze dameRvara.
kargad vyvebi, Tu kidev ufro davwvrilmande? ambobs RvarZlianad. etyoba,
TviTonve Riziandeba sakuTari nalaparakeviT.
kargad hyvebi sxartad pasuxobs eliso, rogorc gakveTilze erTi
wamiT CaTvlemili mowafe maswavleblis moulodnel SekiTxvas, sxartad,
facafuciT, gadametebulad mowadinebuli, daeWvebis saSualebac rom
mouspos maswavlebels, Tuki iman mainc moaswro da SeamCnia misi wamieri
"gandgoma". rac unda fexebze gekidos, ra sasiamovnoa, "Zilisgudad" da
"bedovlaTad" Segracxon erTxel kidev mTeli klasis winaSe?! "meti raRa
unda dawvrilmandeso" agrZelebs gunebaSi, Tavadac gaRizianebuli.
sad gavCerdiT? ekiTxeba liziko mogonili udardelobiT.
Jezve gadagibrunda da yava dageRvara quraze axsenebs eliso.
sabednierod, saavadmyofos gvirabidan ukve gamosula da axla mTlianad
aq aris, sakuTar samzareuloSi, gerTan erTad, Tumca, jer kidev scems
saavadmyofos specifikuri suni. elizbaris oTaxidan sabeWdi manqanis kakuni
ismis, damamSvidebeli, rogorc kodalas kakuni qviSxeTis gadayruebul
tyeebSi...
amas ra mowmends-meTqi, gadamibrunda guli icinis liziko.
ra gacinebs? gulwrfelad ukvirs elisos.
Senc xom icini xolme umizezod?! kiTxvas ubrunebs liziko
mamasac ramdenjer uTqvams SenTvis, nu icini umizezodo...
mamas Tavi gaanebe! axla orive muSts erTdroulad dahkravs eliso
magidaze, gametebiT, mTeli ZaliT... "rodis iyo, umizezod vicinodio"
fiqrobs gacecxlebuli cocxlad damarxe... cocxlad dagvmarxe yvelani...
xmaSi cremli gaereva uceb.
 eliso?! elisuka... Seecodeba lizikos, miesiyvaruleba, magram erTi
wamiT, maSinve Cveulebrivad gaagrZelebs, mogonili udardelobiTa da
utifrobiT mere Semovtrialdi da vakoce... ara, iman makoca azustebs
niuansebs, ra Tqma unda, elisosTvis Tumca, ar vici, namdvilad ar
maxsovs... ra mniSvneloba aqvs?! albaT erTdroulad vakoceT erTmaneTs
askvnis bolos.
lizikos, rasakvirvelia, uyvars eliso, rac ar unda iyos, mainc imis
gazrdilia. rac mTavaria, kargi megobroba icis, uangaro, guliTadi; droTa
ganmavlobaSi, ise dauaxlovdnen da SeeCvivnen erTmaneTs, yovel dRe Tu ver
naxaven, telefonze mainc unda moikiTxon erTmaneTi. magram raki Tavidanve
arasworad gauTanabrda, araferSi ar daudo toli, anu, raki Tavidanve
sworad auRo alRo, yovelTvis mas abralebs, Tuki rame usiamovneba
SeemTxveva da yovelTvis masze iyris xolme javrs, sxvebze ganrisxebuli...
arafris Tqma ar SeiZleba SenTan viTom ebuteba dedinacvals
yvelafers kudi unda gamoaba, gabero... im kacma makoca, bolos da bolos,
xom ar vucemivar?!
liziko! uyviris eliso, viTom, gons modi, daukvirdi, ras
laparakobo.
ar ginda axla es bazari... tyuilad nu movigiJianebT Tavs... mitingze
xom ara varT... ar uTmobs liziko.
ras hqvia, movigiJianeb! rogor mibedav! Tavxedo! marTla brazdeba
eliso, sul cota, aTi-TxuTmeti wlis dagvianebiT. "mdogvi sadilis Semdego"
amazea naTqvami. magram saqme isaa, marTla rom cdilobs eliso Tavis
mogiJianebas, radgan Semawuxeblad, SemaZrwuneblad grZnobs, rogori civi,
rogori Soreulia lizikosTvis, romelsac, vin icis, swored misi "gagiJeba"
Wirdeba am wuTas wamlad. oRond, tyuili da gaTamaSebuli ki ara, namdvili,
gulwrfeli... darwmuneba unda, marTla rom hyavs gulSematkivari, misiani,
romelic gverdSi daudgeba (rogorc mkvdari qmari iqceoda) da ar miatovebs
arc WirSi, arc lxinSi... "ra damemarTa, ram gamomacariela, ram gamicia guli
aseo" ukvirs TviTonve. iseTi grZnoba aqvs, TiTqos sxvis ambavs uyveba
liziko, viRacis, ucnobis, da mxolod imas ganicdis, elizbari ar Semovides,
elizbarma ar SemouswroT, radgan elizbarTan ar SeiZleba amis moyola,
ufro sworad, elizbars TviTon unda mouyves es ambavi, Tanac, dResve ki
ara, mere, rodisme... ukve gvarianad gadakeTebul-gadmokeTebuli, Sekvecil-
SekreWili, Serbilebul-Selamazebuli... mwerlebs uyvarT uCveulo, ucnauri
ambebi. SeiZleba, gamoiyenos kidec Tavis wignSi. yovel SemTxvevaSi, arafriT
ar SeiZleba, lizikosgan moisminos imanac, radgan elisosaviT, isic
ugrZnobelobis, gulgrilobis zRvaSi ki ar Cayuryumalavdeba ixviviT,
aramed, adgilze gaTavdeba, sisxli Caeqceva, anda guli gauskdeba imasac,
elisos mkvdari qmariviT...
ar mogeridaT, ar SegeSindaT... Tqven xom martoni ar iyaviT?!
kiTxulobs, yalbad gakvirvebuli, yalbad damfrTxali es wuTia
warmodgenili sceniT, kidev ukeT rom SeuniRbos lizikos Tavisi sicive da
sicariele. magram, kacma rom Tqvas, marTlac ra mniSvneloba aqvs, ra
Seicvleba, aravisi rom ar eridebodaT imaT da imitom Caidines, rac
Caidines, Tu, mainc rom Caidines, miuxedavad viRaceebis SiSisa da
moridebisa?! araferi.
araferi ambobs xmamaRla.
araferi meqanikurad imeorebs lizikoc araferi ar unda meTqva
SenTvis fiqrianad amatebs cota xnis Semdeg.
liziko?! guli uCuydeba elisos imis sacodaobiT.
gamanebe Tavi! aRar axseno Cemi saxeli! uyviris liziko. cecxls
afrqvevs Tvalebidan.
 liziko! xmas uwevs, lizikos moulodneli da swrafi
cvalebadobiT, cota ar iyos, dabneuli elisoc mama gaigebs... mama Sin
aris!
gamanebeT yvelam Tavi! gamanebeT yvelam Tavi! yviris liziko da
cali TvaliT, ratomRac, danas eZebs magidaze, im danas, romliTac karaqi
waisva weRan purze, Tumca, TviTonac ar icis, rad unda dana, risTvis
Wirdeba. elisos mosaklavad?! eliso unda moklas?! ki magram, ratom? ra
dauSava? Tu vinme ar imsaxurebs misi xeliT sikvdils, swored eliso ar
imsaxurebs. es elisosTvis didi pativi iqneboda... Tavi unda moiklas?! diax,
Tavi unda moiklas, rasakvirvelia, Tavi unda moiklas. es aris erTaderTi
gamosavali. sxva gza ar arsebobs. magram aq, "scenaze", ki ar unda moiklas
Tavi, ase artistulad da isteriulad, aramed Cumad, kacobriobis zurgs
ukan, "Sin", kaSelebis bunagSi, sadac sakuTari nebiT Seexeta, sakuTari
keTilSobilebis gamosavlenad, sinamdvileSi ki, sakuTari umweobis,
uvicobis, sibecis wyalobiT. iq aris misi adgili, cocxlisTvisac da
mkvdrisTvisac. sxva gza ar arsebobs. gza ar arsebobs saerTod. gzisgan
patara naglejiRa darCa, arsaidan arsaiTken mimavali... balaxmodebuli... vin
icis, rodindel naborblarSi, vin icis, rodindeli wvimis wyali Campala.
dampal wyals nemsiylapia dastrialebs, aranormalurad gazrdili da
arabunebrivad mbzinavi, albaT arajansaRi wylisa da haeris gamo... ai, aseTi
"peizaJi" edga yovelTvis Tvalwin, roca momavalze fiqrobda Tavi unda
movikla! aRar SemiZlia meti... Tavs moviklav... Tqveni bralia yvelaferi!
yviris ukve mTeli arsebiT ayolili am uazro da usafuZvlo mrisxanebas
Cemi fexi aRar iqneba aq. ase gadaeci mamasac... gasagebia?! uyviris elisos
aRarc mikiTxoT... Torem... Torem... ena ebmis mrisxanebisgan, anda, ar
icis, ra Tqvas, ar icis, ras moimoqmedebs, Tuki gabedaven da mainc
moikiTxaven misianebi. ki ar gadis, TavpirismtvreviT garbis samzareulodan,
eliso skamidan wamodgomasac ver aswrebs da, uneburad, mainc krTeba
gajaxunebuli karis xmaze...
IV
 elizbars esmoda qalebis laparaki, rasakvirvelia, ainteresebda kidec,
raze laparakobdnen isini, magram Segnebulad ar gamodioda samuSao
oTaxidan, lizikos ebuteboda, ase uceb rom "gakaSelda" da aqamde ar
moikiTxa mTeli Tvis unaxavi mama, daukiTxavad ar Seuvarda "niJaraSi",
rogorc adre iqceoda xolme, Tuki rame Wirdeboda mamisgan, vTqvaT, taqsis
fuli, anda avtografiani wigni viRacisTvis. magram axla ise iyo saubriT
garTuli, SeiZleba, aRarc axsovda, mamac rom hyavda, mamamisic rom
cxovrobda am saxlSi. axal ojaxSi miRebuli STabeWdilebebiT iyo savse da
elisosac im STabeWdilebebs uziarebda albaT. Tumca, samzareulodan
gamosuli xmebis mixedviT Tu imsjelebda, misi qalebi ufro kamaTobdnen,
vidre saubrobdnen da ufro Cxubobdnen, vidre kamaTobdnen. elizbarsac es
abnevda swored, ra unda hqonoda sakamaTo da saCxubari erTi Tvis unaxav
deda-Svils, gindac, gersa da dedinacvals, romelsac Svilze metadac
uyvars Tavisi geri da amis ardanaxva, amaSi eWvis Setana, sxva rom araferi
vTqvaT, Tavxedoba iqneba, rogorc elizbaris, iseve lizikos mxridan. ra
amoZravebs Cvens qalbaton elisos, es sxva sakiTxia. yurZnis siyvaruliT
Robes kocnidneno da, isic albaT yurZnis, elizbaris, siyvaruliT kocnis
Robes, rogorc lizikom uTxra erTxel, sruliad usamarTlod, magram xom
kocnis?! kocnis ki ara, yvelaferi anacvala, elizbaris CaTvliT. kudi kudsa
aqvT gadabmuli da erTad uTxrian elizbars ormos. amiT imis Tqma surs
elizbars, umal elizbars rom gawiravs orive maTgani, vidre elizbars
miemxroba meoris sawinaaRmdegod. magram karis gajaxunebis xma rom gaigo,
kidev ufro daibna, es ukve marTlac metismeti iyo, lizikosganac da
elisosganac. lizikos meti morideba da pativiscema marTebs elisosi
(Tundac, rogorc masze ufrosi adamianisa), kari ar unda miujaxunos
cxvirwin, magram elisosac, Tundac rogorc ufross, meti sifrTxile
moeTxoveba, iqamde ar unda miiyvanos saqme, mSobliuri saxlis kari
gaajaxunebinos lizikos. ise, Cinursa Tu iaponur damwerlobaSi, ori qalis
ieroglifi Cxubis niSania. ori qali, Tanac erT samzareuloSi moxvedrili,
iSviaTad rom gamovides iqidan mSvidobianad. aseTia cxovreba. cxovreba ki,
ambanuri WeSmaritebebis jamia da sxva araferi. bayayi yiyinebs. ZaRli yefs.
yvavi Cxavis. Zroxa gvaZlevs rZes. mgeli mtacebeli cxovelia. guramiSvili
didi poetia. qriste aRsdga. zamTarSi civa. zafxulSi cxela (wels
gansakuTrebiT). Cemi Svili kaSelebis rZalia. futkari sasargeblo mweria.
wurbelac. rasac ver vityviT cicinaTelaze. samagierod, cicinaTelas
sakuTari ganaTeba aqvs, saqarTvelo ki bnelSi zis, ager ukve eqvsasi welia.
ratom? cicinaTelaze uvargisia? ar SeuZlia sakuTari eleqtro-energiis
gamomuSaveba? rogor gekadrebaT. gacilebiT meti SeuZlia, vidre sxvebs
hgoniaT da vidre Tavad sWirdeba. amitomac zis bnelSi. diax, mxolod
amitom. Secdomis Cadena SeiZleba, gamosworeba ara. ekonomikis enaze rom
vTqvaT, yvelas urCevnia muqTad gaWamos Tavisi dampali saqoneli, vidre
Senma jansaRma saqonelma Zlivs xelSi Cagdebuli bazari daakargvinos.
amitom iwyeba msoflio omebi. kaci kacisTvis mgelia. saqarTvelom rom erTi
cxovreba moaTava, anu, Tavis adgilze rom aRar dauxvda ludoviko
boloniels, imis mere msoflio aTasjer gadanawilda da mxolod imis gamo,
erTxel kidev rom mieca imperiis ukana nawlavidan cxovrebaSi dabrunebis
Sansi, aravin CaiCoCebs, aravin dauTmobs adgils. umal benzins miasxamen da
dawvaven, Wirianis loginiviT, vidre ganbanasa da ganwmendas daacdian. is
maSin daiRupa, roca didad wodebulma aleqsandre pirvelma qveyana Zmebsa da
Svilebs miugdo, TviTon ki berad daeyuda... ganudga qveyanas, roca unda
Sehxideboda... ki magram, ratom?! ra uflebis ZaliT?! murvan yruebis, Temur
lengebis, jalaledinebis gammklavebeli xalxi bolos ise daCaCanakda, Sinac
aRar aCereben, xan erTi stumari amohkravs Witlays, xan meore... ra Tqma unda,
elizbaric damnaSavea. elizbarsac garkveuli wvlili miuZRvis am saqmeSi,
imanac dauSva Tavisi wili Secdoma, romlis gamosworebac, samwuxarod, ar
SeiZleba, sulSi uzis obobasaviT, dRiTi-dRe izrdeba, nel-nela axrCobs
Signidan Tavisi grZeli, xaoiani fexebiTa Tu sacecebiT... elizbari ki,
yviris, xrialebs... batebo, batebo, Sin! mogvatyues. erTxel kidev
gavbriyvdiT. Ralatia. dabrundiT saswrafod. nu gaijaxunebT mSobliuri
saxlis kars. jer kidev SeiZleba gadavrCeT. jer kidev SeiZleba CvenTvisac
gamobrwyindes TviTmnaTobi naTeli, Seuxebeli qriste, mze simarTlisa, da
davceT simaRle mterisa macdurisa da aRvadginoT buneba kacebrivi... Sin!
Sin! saswrafod! magram ubedureba isaa, gadarCena rom aRar gvinda,
mogvbezrda sul erTi da igive... mters sixaruliTac ki vendobiT, moyvares
ki saTofezec ar vikarebT... Cvenianis gamarjveba gvaRonebs da mtris
gasamarjveblad weli gvaqvs mowyvetili. ara da, jer kidev marTla SeiZleba
gadarCena vinme Tu gamogviCnda SemZaxebeli... oRond, Cvenze ufro
guldamwvari qveynis bediT da gulSematkivari Cveni silenCisac da
silaCrisac... ki ar dagvcinebs, es ra xalxi yofilxarTo, gagvamxnevebs,
baraqala Tqvens gamZleobaso, amdenis gadamtanT, kidev rom gaxsovT ani da
banio. es aris ani, es aris bani... magram rad ginda, mainc ver viswavleT Wkua.
dro gadis, weliwadis droebi erTmaneTs enacvlebian, CvenTvis ki araferi
ar icvleba. qviT-qviT, qviT-qviT qviTqviTebs mwyeri Camwvar yanaSi
monadires elodeba, monadires uxmobs, agebinebs Tavis adgil-samyofels da
erTi suli aqvs, erTxel kidev, rodis daufleTs safanti Zlivs Sebumblul
frTebs... magram erTi mwyerisac da monadirisac... erTnairad Camwvara da
Canacrebula yvelaferi. bolos da bolos, marto elizbaris xom ar aris es
qveyana... oi, oi, oi, ra cudi biWuna xar, rom icode, Cemo elizbar. kacma rom
gkiTxos, mwerali varo... ar gekadreba. mwerali Tu xar, erTnairad unda
gecodebodes mwyeric da monadirec. orive SenTan unda Ciodes... mwyeri
gemrielia, monadires ki mwyeri uyvars. mwyeri Senc giyvars, magram nadiroba
gezareba da amitom brazob sxvebzec. iqneb gacduna cxovrebam? iqneb
gimtyuna nervebma? iqneb marTalia eliso? iqneb marTla sjobs, emigraciaSi
waxvide, cota xniT mainc gaerido aqaurobas? ki magram, aseTi advilia viTom
emigraciaSi wasvla? emigraciaSi dRes is mibrZandeba, visac guSin
mivlinebiT agzavnida saxelmwifo sazRvargareT. Sen ra gamodixar? ra
gamodixar da, mTxle... kaSelebis mZaxloba ar grcxvenia da emigraciaSi ra
naxe samarcxvino?! ise, raki sityvamac moitana, iqneb gagvego, ra moxda,
ratom daerivnen erTmaneTs liziko da eliso. magram amis gagebis rom
geSinia, imitomac edebi Robe-yores... guli cuds gigrZnobs. liziko rom
srul Wkuaze yofiliyo, Sens unaxavad rogor wavidoda, anda kars ratom
gaijaxunebda, Tu ara guliswyromis, sayveduris, sulac muqaris niSnad?!
magram iqneb es elizbaris gasarkvevi saqme ar aris? qalebi ukeTesad
morigdebian erTmaneTTan. saWiro rom yofiliyo, xom gaagebinebdnen amasac?!
simarTle Tu gindaT, elizbari aravis aRar Wirdeba, aravin arafrad aRar
agdebs, arc Sin, arc gareT. hoda, isic adgeba da wava emigraciaSi. imedia,
amaze mainc ar etyvis xelisufleba uars. rac ufro Sors xar, miT ukeTesi...
Tumca, marto mkvdari ZaRli ar ikbineba... magram elizbarisTvis ra
Seicvleba? araferi. aq vis ras ukeTebs? arafers. salaparakodac ver unaxavs
Svili... iqidan werilebs mainc gamougzavnis. werilebi Zvirfas qaliSvils,
romelsac saerTod ar uyvarda mama. samagierod, mamis sikvdilis Semdeg, mis
werilebs gamoscems da SeiZleba erTi-ori kapikic aiRos. esec xeiria.
amitom, elisosac gamougzavnis werilebs, meore cols, romelmac pirvel
qmars amjobina, magram bolos mainc geris mxareze gadavida. ras vizamT, esec
erT-erTi anbanuri WeSmaritebaa. mitomac wuTisofeli sul mudam
gvacodvilebsa. Cemi mxurvale salami prusiis miwidan, sadac, rogorc iqna,
mSvidad ganvisveneb fridrix didis meTerTmete ZaRliviT. xumroba iqiT iyos
da, elizbari aSkarad xels uSlis yvelas, Svilsac da colsac. Tavisi
arsebobiT borkavs imaT vnebaTa Relvas... SeiZleba, is ar apaties,
maincdamainc, didi azrisa rom ar aris kaSelebze?! magram awi raRa drosia...
qalis baRdadi iq aris, sadac unda iyos... "ras, ras ipovi aq, sazRvargareT..."
samagierod, mtrebi gaixareben. namdvili mtrebi. mowinaaRmdegeebi,
oponentebi, metoqeebi, mimbaZvelebi, moSurneebi... atydeba erTi ambavi,
CamoiReben telefons... diax, ar gaxlavT, emigraciaSi brZandeba. diax, Tavis
ZuknasTan erTad... verafers ver getyviT. SeiZleba, droebiT, SeiZleba,
samudamod... yvela didi mwerali yofila emigraciaSi, magram yvelas rodi
Rirsebia ukan dabruneba. ki batono, dante dabrunda, magram rusTaveli?!
arCil mefe?! vaxtang meeqvse?! Teimuraz meore?! sulxan-saba?! guramiSvili?!
besiki?! bagrationTa mTeli samefo dinastia?! fereidnelebi?! moskovuri
kolonia?! koloniebi?! ocian da ormocian wlebSi gaqceulebi?! bolSevikebis
gaSvebulebi?! ramdenime mkvdari Tu daabrunes, isic maTTan SeuTanxmeblad,
eg iyo da eg. xom meTanxmebiT? ara, ki ar mixaria, simarTles mogaxsenebT.
qarTvelebi Cveni nebiT ukan aRar vbrundebiT. mazoxistebi varT. gvsiamovnebs
nostalgiiT wameba. anda, emigrantul binas movrTavT qarTulad TuSuri
fardagiT, megruli ConguriT, SroSas jam-WurWliT da avtexavT erT
vaiuSvelebels, ai, ra dagvakargvines, ai, rogor gviyvars aq, rac arasodes
gvyvarebia iqo. Cveni erovnuli pativmoyvareoba amiTac dakmayofilebulia.
xom meTanxmebiT? sul amas eCiCineboda Tavisianebs da bolos, mgoni, pirveli
TviTon miipareba, qurdbacaca meliasaviT. sibrZnes vagrovebT, gamocdilebas
viZenT, magram gamoyeneba yovelTvis gvigviandeba, Tu saerTod ar gvaviwydeba.
gana Cveni naTqvami ar aris, suleli Tavi fexebs mosvenebas ar aZlevso; brma
qaTams hgonia, yvelgan xorbali yriao; frinvels budiT icnoben, kacs
mamuliTao; Wkua xanSi ki ara, TavSiao; beberi xaris gaxednas, ro dakla, isa
jobiao; wabaZulobiT vacic damakdao; yvavs uTqvams, Sav zRvaze Tu
gadavfrindebi, iq TovliviT TeTr kvercxs davdebo, magram roca
gadafrinda, iqac Savi kvercxi dado. movida SimSili, wavida sircxvili. ara,
elizbars jer ara aqvs ucxoeTSi cxovrebis ufleba. sabWoeTSi nacxovrebma
kacma, da aseve qalmac, jer saerTod ar icis, ras niSnavs cxovreba. iq
mxolod siZulvils, ukeTes SemTxvevaSi ki, zizRnarev sibraluls
daimsaxurebs, roca Sin, Camoqceul WerqveS da moryeul fuZeze, jer kidev
SeiZleba fexis mokideba, dakargulis dabruneba, oRond, gaqceviT ki ara,
moTminebiTa da sijiutiT... kbili kbilis wil... vidre qarTveli omobs,
saSiSicaa da angariSgasawevic, damcxrali da damSvidebuli Tavgzasac
kargavs da saxesac. mas mere, rac Tofi da xmali sxvas gadauloca, erTi dRe
aRar ucxovria am ubedur qveyanas mSvidad, ufro sworad, Tavis Wkuaze,
Taviseburad, Tavisi cxovrebiT, xan zurna-dudukze buqnavda baRdadurs, xan
sasule orkestris TanxlebiT swavlobda mwyobrad siaruls... raz-dva-tri
da, raz-dva-tri da, raz-dva-tri... elizbars ki vaciviT dauRerebia Tavi da
brma qaTamiviT anayavs niskarts molandebul xorbals... marTlac, suleli
Tu ar aris, ras aiCema es emigracia. Svils gaurbis Tu rogoraa misi saqme?!
misma qaliSvilma, marTalia, TviTon gadawyvita Tavisi bedi, magram jibrSi
xom ar Caudgeba es?! iqneb swored axla Wirdeba mama?! iqneb rame usiamovneba
SeemTxva qmarTan an dedamTilTan da imitom movarda elisosTan?! ar icis,
rogor moiqces... ki didobs, magram jer mainc bavSvia... suleli... Tumca,
elisos rom hkiTxoT, elizbars bevri araferi gaegeba qalebisa da es aris
swored misi yvelaze didi nakli, ara marto rogorc mwerlis, aramed
rogorc mSoblisac. verafriT ver Seigno (ver Seegua), lizikoc rom jer
qalia da mere Svili, mamis wesisa da mrwamsis gamtarebeli. qals ki, maT
Soris, rasakvirvelia, lizikosac, upirveles yovlisa, mama ki ara, megobari
Wirdeba, damoukidebel, srulyofil adamianad rom igrZnos Tavi da, rac
mTavaria, bolomde SeinarCunos qaloba. mama saamisod ar varga. mama sxvaa. ra
Tqma unda, mamac bevrs niSnavs qalisTvis, magram zogjer (xSirad)
gauTvaliswinebel dabrkolebad iqceva xolme misTvis. SeiZleba, isic ki
ifiqros, umamod ufro iolad da ufro ukeTesad moviwyobdi Cems pirad
cxovrebaso. qals Tavisi piradi cxovreba unda hqondes, raTa sakuTar
SesaZleblobebSi darwmundes da, saWiroebis SemTxvevaSi, ki ar gaeTelvinos,
Tavisi nebiT dauwves cxovrebas. magram vidre mamis Crdilsaa Sefarebuli,
amaze fiqric zedmetia. mamis arseboba, ufro ki, mamis miuxvedreloba swored
piradi cxovrebis mowyobas ukrZalavs qals. gana mama ar uyvars, uyvars ki
ara, giJdeba albaT mamaze, magram es Tandayolili, Cveulebad qceuli,
yovelmxriv Semowmebuli, yvelanairad sando grZnobaa da, amdenad, naklebad
sainteresoc im grZnobasTan SedarebiT, romelic ukve TviTon, mamis gareSe,
mamisgan damoukideblad da, rac mTavaria, mamisgan dafarulad unda
ganicados moulodneli, gaugebari, damaeWvebeli, damafrTxobeli da,
imave dros, yvela iqamde gancdili grZnobis gadamwonavi swored Tavisi
siucxoviT, uCveulobiT... "rogorc qviSxeTis katleti erCia, pataraobisas,
Sin damzadebul nebismier kerZso" xumrobiT ityvis xolme eliso, magram
saxumarod rom ara aqvT saqme, amdens uelisodac xvdeba elizbari...
elizbar, elizbar, elia... gZinavs? frTxilad CaekiTxa am dros
eliso.
ara. me mgoni, ara daibna elizbari.
aRar davibanoT Tavi? CaSra wyali damamSvideblad gauRima elisom.
elizbars aRar axsovda, Tavis dabanas Tu apirebda da elisom rom
Seaxsena, gauxarda, radgan, maincdamainc, ar siamovnebda elisosTan pirispir
darCena undoda Tu ar undoda, bolomde unda CasZieboda simarTles
magram raki oriveni saerTo saqmiT (misi Tavis banviT) iqnebodnen
dakavebulni, es met SesaZleblobas miscemda, saWiroebis SemTxvevaSi,
droulad aegdo sityva banze, sxva Temaze gadaetana saubari. lizikos
saerTod arxseneba, TavisTavad cxadia, ar moxerxdeboda. amitom, rac ufro
male amowuravdnen am "Temas", miT ukeTesi.
ra undoda Cems qaliSvils? ratom ar minaxula? agdebulad,
uinteresod hkiTxa elisos, Tumca, gulis siRrmeSi, mainc Relavda, mainc
cudis molodini hqonda da bevrad erCia, moetyuebina cols, vidre rame
cudi eTqva lizikoze.
araferi... erTi wuTiT Semoirbina... sadRac eCqareboda... mere movalo
sakmaod bundovnad da zereled upasuxa elisomac, anu, SeZlebisdagvarad,
icrua, raki meuRlec amas evedreboda TvalebiT barem, aqve mogban Tavs,
abazanaSi sarecxi maqvs Cambali moayola saqmianad.
 elizbari yvelaferze Tanaxmaa, oRond liziko iyos kargad. kargadac
iqneba. raki Tavisi fexiT Sevida urCxulebis bunagSi, imaT enaze laparaksac
iswavlis albaT. sxva ra gzaa?! meti ra darCenia?! mamis ena didi xania,
daaviwyda. didi xania, aRar esmis. magram esec elizbaris bralia da ara
lizikosi. liziko msxverplia. xolo, Tuki vinmea amaSi damnaSave, pirvel
rigSi, elizbaria, radgan Tavis droze, arasodes auxsnia misTvis
(msxverplisTvis), mikibul-mokibulad ki ara, naTlad da garkveviT,
kaSelebTan nebismieri urTierToba iseve rom aris saxifaTo, rogorc
maRali Zabvis denTan TamaSi, cofiani ZaRlis dapureba, mtkvris morevSi
banaoba Tu gaoflilze civi wylis daleva... ar auxsnia da verc auxsnida,
Tundac, imave antonis gamo. antoni gulwrfelad uyvarda da mxolod
kaSelobisTvis verc TviTon moikveTda da, miT ufro, verc Svils
aukrZalavda masTan megobrobas. piriqiT, elizbari yovelTvis moxibluli
iyo antonis jer kidev umwifari, magram uaRresad arakaSeluri
SexedulebebiTa da mosazrebebiT, romlebsac is gamoTqvamda xolme maTi
iSviaTi, magram sakmaod xangrZlivi eqskursiebis dros qviSxeTis
SemogarenSi, raime konkretul SemTxvevasTan dakavSirebiT Tu moulodnelad
Seqmnil viTarebidan gamomdinare. xolo, qviSxeTSi, sadac ZiriTadad
xvdebodnen isini kaSelebs, rogorc yvela damsvenebels, masac ara Tu
dasaSvebad, savaldebulodac miaCnda antonze bevrad msxvilfexa kaSelTanac
urTierToba, romelic, Tavis mxriv, sezons ar Caagdebda, erTxel mainc ar
miepatiJna qviSxeTis dasasvenebel saxlSi Camosuli mwerlebi Tavis
agarakze. qviSxeTi, saerTod, mistiur zmanebad, maradiul ocnebad ufro
aRiqmeboda damsvenebeli mwerlebisgan, vidre geografiul-geologiur-
geodeziur cnebad da iq gamefebul atmosferodan gamomdinare, Tavisuflad
SegeZlo, seriozuli mniSvneloba ar migeca da politikur aspeqtSi ar
gangexila Cveulebrivi saagarako, anu, aucilebeli urTierToba im
xalxTanac ki, romlebTanac Seni nebiTa da surviliT, araviTar SemTxvevaSi
ar "imegobrebdi" sxva drosa da sxva garemoSi. arc balsa da "enisels"
miirTmevdi imaTi xelidan da arc sasaubrod miujdebodi cacxvebis xeivanSi,
cisfrad an narinjisfrad gadaRebil merxze. magram qviSxeTs Tavisi
gansakuTrebuli adaT-wesebi gaaCnia da ara marto fizikurad ajansaRebs
adamians, aramed sulieradac asufTavebs, Tundac, cota xniT. sizmrisa ar
iyos, iqac bevrad iolia saswaulis dajerebaca da gadajerebac. roca
garewarze Soridan fiqrob, rasakvirvelia, upirveles yovlisa, mis mier
Cadenili sisaZagleebi gitrialebs TavSi, magram roca cacxvis Ziras, jer
kidev saRebavis suniT gaJRenTil merxze laRad gadawolili, fexi-fexze
gadadebuli esaubrebi imave garewars, SensaviT merxze laRad gadawolilsa
da fexi-fexze gadadebuls, laparakisas, fexis cera TiTze Camokonwialebul
flosts rom aTamaSebs Tan, rasakvirvelia, imasac saagarako yofis
idiliuri suraTis erT-erT Semadgenel nawilad aRiqvam mxolod, Tundac,
ferad laqad, umniSvnelo, magram aucilebel Strixad, uromlisodac suraTi
srulyofili ver iqneba da aseve ver iqneba idiliuric, miuxedavad Sens
garSemo guliviT mfeTqavi sicxisa, aTasnairad asisinebul-azuzunebul
buCqebisa, moCitebuli, dafrTianebuli, magram niskartis ZirSi jer kidev
siyviTle SerCenili bartyebis Jivil-xivilisa, mTvrali futkrebis bzuilisa
da moSorebiT, gancalkevebul merxze Camomsxdari colebisa, saqargavze
Tavdaxrilni, xmadabla, TiTqos saidumlo enaze rom saubroben erTmaneTSi,
qviSxeTuri mziT RawvebSefaklulni, da qmrebisTvisac ki, moulodnelad
gamSvenierebulni... qviSxeTi xom is zRapruli, SeiZleba sinamdvileSi arc
arsebuli samyaroa, sadac mxolod saukeTeso mogonebebi, Tavgadasavlebi
budoben da sadac, ukeTes SemTxvevaSi, weliwadSi erTxel SeuZlia ubralo
mokvdavs Casvla, anu, amoyuryumalaveba cxovrebis wumpedan, suli rom
moiTqvas da Tavi adamianad igrZnos (Tanac, mwerladac, raki Rirsad
CaTvales aqauri dasasvenebeli saxlis sagzurisa), vidre isev ukanve
Cayuryumalavdebodes ganurCevlobis, ganukiTxaobis morevSi. qviSxeTi sulis
mosaTqmeli adgilia mxolod, droebiTi bude, droebiTi bunagi, gnebavT,
droebiTi samare, sadac mSvidad, udrtvinvelad, flostebSi fexwayrili
"ganisveneb" aRdgomamde, anu, TbilisSi dabrunebamde, da sadac arc dro
arsebobs da arc cudi da kargi adamianebi. iq yvela erTnairad
"damsvenebelia" da, amdenad, yvelasTvis erTnairad saintereso,
mniSvnelovani, dasafasebeli, rogorc nekrologis subieqti... albaT amitomac
(da es aris misi mTavari danaSauli), arc elizbars aSfoTebda misi
qaliSvilis gansakuTrebuli siaxlove kaSelebTan. Tumca, mainc Tavzari
daeca, roca "erT mSvenier dRes", sxvaTaSoris Seapara elisom saubarSi,
mgoni, liziko da antoni xels aweren da sazRvargareT apireben wasvlaso.
magram raime seriozuli, amis aRmkveTi gadawyvetileba arc maSin miuRia, isev
Tavis niJaraSi, "meore sinamdvileSi" gaixizna da "ramed rom magdebdes
Cemi Svili, zrdilobisTvis mainc mkiTxavda Wkuaso" am sityvebiT
igeriebda elisos, romelic, rac marTalia marTalia, gakapasebuli
cdilobda mis gamoTrevas niJaridan, rogorc lokokinebze monadire beRura...
elisom tabureti da narinjisferi plastmasis taSti Semoitana oTaxSi.
tabureti elizbars daudga win, taSti taburetze dado da axla cxeli
wylisa da sapnis mosatanad gabrunda. elizbari uazrod iyureba cariel
taStSi, TiTqos iqidan amodis misi sagonebeli, anda iq inaxeba misgan
gansakurnebeli wamali. mere taSts yurebSi Caavlebs xelebs da aswevs. icis
rom msubuqia, magram mainc siamovnebs amxela taStisTvis TiTqos
Seuferebeli, moulodneli simsubuqe. TviTonac raRacnairad msubuqdeba,
Tavisufldeba raRacisgan, risic ar icis saxeli da rac majlajunasaviT
awevs gulze...
me emigraciaSi wamsvleli ara var... danarCeni Tqven iciT eubneba
oTaxSi Semosul elisos.
elisos Tmis bululi Sublze Camovardnia. mklavebdakapiwebuls moaqvs
orTqliT Tavmobmuli vedro. vedros taStiani taburetis gverdiT dgams da
doinjSemoyrili, yasidad kopebSekruli ambobs: ra iyo, ra mogelanda am erT
wuTSio.
cxeli wyliT savse vedros orTqli asdis.
me ar mecineba da, rom icode, arc mZinavs... arc is vici, raze
ilaparakeT Sen da lizikom Cems zurgs ukan, magram ise nu izamT, Tqvens
gamo Cavidino, rac xelisuflebamac ver Camadenina... buzRunebs elizbari.
elizbar, elizbar, elia! icinis eliso. amSvidebs, efereba,
uqarwylebs dafarul SiSs Sen rogorc saWirod migaCnia, ise moiqeci...
visi ra saqmea ambobs seriozulad.
me ver avyvebi im vigindarebs agrZelebs elizbari. Tan gamomcdelad
Sescqeris elisos TvalebSi, amowmebs ramdenad gulwrfelia, ramdenad
Seesabameba simarTles, rac es wuTia Tqva mocartuli garemo momindomes
am meored mosvlis Jams...
vin? gulwrfelad interesdeba eliso.
mSvenivrad ici, vinc... tyuian yvelafers. sakuTar mucelze fiqroben
mxolod... icocxle kargia, mocartul garemoSi triali, miT ufro, xelovani
kacisTvis, magram me ra meSveleba, me sabralos, me vin gamakulturulebs,
Tuki Cemi gazrdili xelovanic cxvirs amibzuebs da gameqceva?! usvindiso
qaTamzea naTqvami, Sin kakanebs, kvercxs ki gareT debso... Cveni usvindiso
xelovani kakaniTac sxvagan kakanebs da, TavisTavad cxadia, kvercxsac
sxvagan debs. xolo, ufro Tu davazustebT da cotas gavicinebT kidec...
perangi gavixado? ekiTxeba uceb elisos.
me rom ar giTxra, Sen ar ici, gaixado Tu ara? vin banaobs Cacmuli?!
icinis eliso.
elizbari perangis Rilebs ixsnis da agrZelebs:
 Cven am saqmeSic gansakuTrebulebi varT, Sin vakuebT, gareT vgalobT,
cuca odiSariviT.
sircxvili Sen, elizbar icinis eliso.
simarTle Tu ginda, esaa eRimeba elizbarsac cuca odiSars,
imedia, wardgena ar Wirdeba, erT-erTi saukeTeso sopranoa evropaSi.
berlinSi cxovrobs amJamad. dReobebze vxvdebodiT xolme axalgazrdobaSi.
boTls vabzrialebdiT dilamde. boTlobana iyo maSin modaSi.
daabzrialebdi da, visac boTli miuSverda tuCs, imas akocebdi. kazinos
krupieebiviT viyaviT daostatebulni am saqmeSi, biWebic da gogoebic. yvelas
hyavda Tavisi gulis vardi. rasakvirvelia, cucasac. hoda, erTxelac, daixara
Cveni saxelovani soprano boTlis dasabzrialeblad da daZabulobisgan
gasZvra, Seni mowonebuli... soprano namdvilad ar eTqmoda, ufro
waibaritonebda...
cudi biWi xar, cudi... ar gismen. ilaparake, ramdenic ginda icinis
eliso.
axla frau gaxlavT, rom Semxvdes, Tavs ar damikravs albaT icinis
elizbaric.
ai, eg dawere. RmerTo! an aqamde ras ucdidi?! ratomRac Riziandeba
eliso. odnav, ZlivsSesamCnevad uTrTis gadalurjebuli tuCebi.
ra? ra davwero? isev frTxeba elizbari, isev avi winaTgrZnobiT
ekumSeba guli.
rasac me meubnebi yoveldRe. dReSi aTjer, asjer, usasrulod...
uaresad Riziandeba eliso RmerTo Cemo, ar girCevnia, isinic Sewuxdnen
erTxel, Tundac usamarTlod, vidre marto itanjebode yoveldRiurad,
Tundac samarTlianad?! rac mTavaria, tyuilubralod... tyuilubralod...
daagde eg perangi iatakze amatebs ukve Semrigeblurad, TiTqos misi
meuRlis uSedego, arafrisTvis da arafris gamo tanjva-wameba aRizianebdes
mxolod.
elizbari wels zemoT titveli zis da Rrmad Cafiqrebuli usmens, TiTqos
rame axals ambobdes eliso. magram elisos xma, gaRizianebulic ki, mainc
aSkarad amSvidebs. saerTod, razec ar unda laparakobdes eliso, yovelTvis
raRac idumali, jadosnuri Zala gamosWvivis misi xmidan da Senc xmis
uxilav, magram Ronier dinebas mihyavxar TiTqos, maincdamainc, iqiTken,
saiTac iqamde uSedegod apirebdi wasvlas...
aba, Cayavi TiTi... cxeli xom ar aris?! eubneba eliso da isic pirvelad
maSin amCnevs orTqliT Tavmobmul vedros taburetis gverdiT. TiTs
gaubedavad yofs wyalSi.
me mgoni, ara uSavs ambobs fiqridan, jer kidev fiqrSi danTqmuli.
davxuWoT Tvalebi da rame kargze vifiqroT... jujRuns Tu daiwyeb,
gasapnuls dagtoveb, icode emuqreba eliso.
erTi xeliT sapons uqafebs Tavze, meoreTi wyals asxams kaTxiT.
uuuuuu-uh! kargia! ambobs elizbari.
eliso icinis.
visac unda, mibrZandes, saiTac moesurveba... me aqac mSvenivrad vgrZnob
Tavs... brrrrr frutunebs elizbari cxeniviT.
eliso icinis.
cuca odiSaris dedac... saponi Camivida TvalSi icinis elizbaric.
eliso kidev ufro icinis.
saponi Cauvida TvalSi bavSvs... ra gveSveleba! xom gagafrTxile,
magrad daxuWe-meTqi... saSiSi namdvilad ar aris amSvidebs bolos.
CvenTvis yvelaferi saSiSia, eliso, paaaatara qveynis Svilebi varT,
paaaaawawunebi varT Zalian exumreba elizbari Tavisi WkuiT.
 erTxelac wavisvaT da gveyofa awyvetinebs eliso ise, rom icode,
didi ambebia mosalodneli kaSelebTan moayolebs uceb.
taStze daxrili, Tavgasapnuli da dabrmavebuli elizbari isuseba,
iZabeba, grZnobs, rogor ucems guli, magram Tavi ise uWiravs, viTom arc
gaugia, anda yuradRebis Rirsad ar CauTvlia colis gadakruli sityva.
lizikos gamo? kiTxulobs sakmaod xangrZlivi pauzis Semdeg,
mRelvarebisgan xmadaxeuli, magram mainc sxvaTaSoris, viTom, saubris
gasagrZeleblad, am mSvidi, ojaxuri idiliis gasaxangrZliveblad...
lizikos gulisTvis! aRar zogavs eliso.
 batoni elizbari aw ukve gadaSenebuli mwerlebis im saxeobas ekuTvnis,
romlisTvisac profesia ganapirobebs cxovrebis wess da, piriqiT, cxovrebis
wesi ganapirobebs profesias, anu, roca ar wers, fiqrobs, ra daweros da
roca fiqrobs, erTi suli aqvs, rodis miujdeba sabeWd manqanas. amdenad,
wminda praqtikuli TvalsazrisiT, rasakvirvelia, bavSviviT moumzadebelia
realuri cxovrebisTvis. samagierod, sxvebze ukeTesad grZnobs nebismier
saxifaTo cvlilebas cxovrebaSic da bunebaSic... erTi foTolic rom
SeTrToldes zedmetad, anda naadrevad, isic ki aRiricxeba misi sulis
Skalaze. TavisTavad cxadia, sxvebze ukeT xedavs imasac, Tu ra didi
ufskruli devs mama-Svils Soris, rogor izrdeba is ufskruli
yoveldRiurad da, bolos, rogor STainTqmebian yvelani im ufskrulSi...
liziko Semovidoda dRes masTan Tu ar Semovidoda, es bevrs arafers
Secvlida mainc. isini ukve ufskrulis sxvadasxva napirebze dganan da, am
bolo dros, saerTod veRarc cnobs Svils, xolo, Svili saerTod aRarc
iyureba misken. Svilma balastiviT moiSora, raTa Tavi kosmiur
usasrulobisTvis mieca da amiT, upirveles yovlisa, ocnebis unari waarTva
mamas, anu, brZolis unari, radgan uSvilod, aRarc gadarCenasa aqvs azri,
aRarc aRdgomas. misi Svili sxva sivrceebma Seisrutes mtvris namceciviT da
im sivrceebTan veRarafers gaxdeba es, TavmokveTili mefisa da
ZuZuebdaglejili dedoflis aCrdilebis amara darCenili. piriqiT, is
aCrdilebic umal amas gaamtyuneben ra uyavi Svils, erTi kravi rogor
ver momwyemse, Se crupentelav da qosatyuilao, aba, riRasTvis davdeT Tavi
jalaTis kunZze movakanSi, anda, gavarvarebuli SanTebiT, riRasTvis
davaglejineT ZuZuebi jalaTs ispahanSio... magram imaT ar ician da verc es
etyviT, gadarCena rom aRar unda mis Svils (anda, misgan gaqceva rom hgonia
gadarCena), saxelebic ar icis mamisaTvis salocavi aCrdilebisa, arc "ca-
firuzisa" gaegeba rame da arc "xmeleT-zurmuxtisa"... sxvaTa firuzebsa da
zurmuxtebze rCeba Tvali... ver etyvis, ena ver moubrundeba imaTi
sacodaobiT, radgan imaT dRemde sjeraT, tyuilad rom ar gauRiaT
msxverpli, kidev rom arsebobs qveyana, romelsac anacvales Tavi da
romelic arc mtrebs waabilwinebs maT xsovnas, arc dro-Jamis dinebas...
sjeraT, erTxelac iqneba, imaTac aexilebaT maTi dasanaxi Tvali, vinc
sxvaTa WaRebis brdRvialma daabrmava, umeTvalyurod gamosuli mSobliuri
sibnelidan... sjeraT, isinic gaixseneben iavnanas, ufro sworad, iavnana
imaTac gaaxsenebT, ra aris ani da ra aris bani... gaaxsenebT, samSobloSi
RvTaebebiviT momxibvlelni rom iqnebian yovelTvis, Coxebdakonkilnic,
usamSoblod ki mRilni, araraobani, haeris buStebi, TiTis mikarebisTanave
rom skdebian da qrebian ukvalod... magram elizbari mainc ar miscems Tavs
uflebas, Caerios lizikos pirad cxovrebaSi. liziko ukve damoukidebeli
qalia da Tavcocxali aRar daTmobs Tavis damoukideblobas... pirvel rigSi,
mamis jibriT, ar damcirdeba mamis TvalSi, ar aRiarebs mamis simarTles da
umal yvelafers daTmobs, yvelafers moiTmens iq, "Tavisufal samyaroSi",
vidre kudamoZuebuli dabrundebodes ukan, Sin, "mSobliur cixeSi". magram
elisom rom "Seapara" weRan, SeiZleba didi Sexla-Semoxla moxdes
kaSelebTan lizikos mizeziTo, elizbari mainc dafrTxa, mainc daibna da
isic veRar gabeda, bolomde eTqmevinebina elisosTvis simarTle, anda, imanac
Tu ar icoda, damsxdariyvnen da erTad gaerkviaT, ra ganxeTqileba
SeiZleboda Seetana ojaxSi erTi Tvis miyvanil rZals. bolos da bolos,
nebismieri situaciidan arsebobs gamosavali, gamosvla Tu ginda, magram
meore mxriv, Sen rom gamosavali ggonia, bolos SeiZleba Cixi aRmoCndes,
radgan Tavad cxovreba Sedis CixSi rkinigzebian, matareblebian,
mgzavrebianad da male yvela gza moiWreba, yvelanairi kavSiri gawydeba
ara marto garesamyarosTan, aramed erTmaneTTanac. oRond, es arc elizbaris
brali iqneba, arc elisosi; arc lizikosi; Tqven warmoidgineT, arc raJden
kaSelis. veravin aRudgeba win am "bunebriv process", vidre, erTxel kidev,
TavisTavad ar Seikvreba mojadoebuli wre sikvdil-sicocxlisa da vidre
Tavad buneba, gnebavT, udiadesi qalbatoni eva, sawyisTa sawyisi, RmerTis
xeliT Seqmnili pirveli qali da pirveli adamianis dambadebeli, ar
gadawyvets, saWiroa Tu ara saerTod axali wris dawyeba, radgan amdenma
siyalbem, amdenma TvalTmaqcobam da amdenma pirobiTobam yvelaferi
gaaufasura maT "TeatrSi", ara mxolod grZnobebi da gancdebi, simarTle da
gulwrfeloba, aramed Tavad pirobiTobac, rogorc yvelafris SesaniRbi da
amdenad, Tavis dasacavi iaraRi, upirveles yovlisa, cxovrebisgan. mis
nacvlad, carieli, uazro, meti rom ar vTqvaT, cru sityvebi SerCaT xelT
da mliqvneluri manWva-grexva... amaRlebuli grZnobebi, vnebaTa Relva,
crupentelobam da qvena zraxvebma Secvala. msaxiobebi (igive elizbari,
eliso, liziko, antoni, fefe) ki ar moqmedeben, erT adgilze futfuteben
matlebiviT; ki ar cxovroben, sicocxles ixangrZliveben, sicocxles
ebRauWebian yvelanairad svamen, Wamen, tyuian, iTmenen, Ralatoben sakuTar
principebs da ai, ase, rogorc axla isa da eliso, yalbad uRimian, umizezod
emadlierebian, ebodiSebian erTmaneTs; ki ar amxelen, yvelanairad
amarTleben, rac umal maT sulier naTesaobas adasturebs, vidre, vTqvaT,
zneobriv simtkices. umiznod Semodian "scenaze" (rogorc liziko mobrZanda
weRan) da aseve umiznod gadian "scenidan" (imave lizikosaviT). TveobiT,
wlobiT ikargebian ucxo TvalisTvis uxilavi scenis xvrelebsa da
ormoebSi, raTa suli moiTqvan (daisvenon erTmaneTisgan) da isev
moulodnelad amococdnen, amofutfutdnen "scenaze", amoitanon TavianTi
sulis sardafebSi damarxul saidumloebaTa nesti da simyrale, radgan
swored aseTi "Teatri" Seefereba maT yofas... eqvsasi wlis win daSvebuli
Secdoma, etyoba, Tavis kulminacias aRwevs da amis bralicaa, erT dRes rom
cudad arian da meore dRes gacilebiT uaresad. ase iqneba sul, vidre
samarcxvino warsulis SmoriTa da zinzliT aqoTebuli maTi sabudari, maTi
samSoblo, maTi akvanica da sacxedrec, Tavis zRaprebian-legendebianad,
geografiul siyalbed, istoriul absurdad gamocxaddeba da araTu
TaRliTi kartografis Sedgenil rukaze, am codvil dedamiwazec aRar
darCeba maTTvis fexis mosakidi adgili. imitom rom... imitom rom, yovelTvis
icodnen, rogor unda moqceuliyvnen da mainc ise iqceodnen, rogorc ar
moiqceodnen, cota ufro metad rom yvarebodaT samSobloc da erTmaneTic...
imitom rom, RmerTis sasjelisa ki ar eSinodaT, Zlierisgan wyalobis
molodinSi amosdiodaT yovelTvis suli. vinc amxilaT, yvela moikveTes
gaaZeves, wveriT aTries anda tyvia daaxales SublSi xolo, vinc
mouwonaT siglaxe da umsgavsoba, mamuliSvilis gvirgviniT Seamkes da farze
Seaskupes maSinve... magram iqneb marTlac es aris mamuliSviloba da
elizbars ar esmis sworad?! iqneb sxvebze mxdalia da, SiSs ayolili,
yvelgan xafangsa da maxes xedavs?! SeiZleba. advili SesaZlebelia.
elizbarma erTi icis mxolod myarad, yvelaferi SeiZleba saerTo hqondes
kaSelebTan ojaxic, miwa-wyalic, haeric... sisxlic ki magram araviTar
SemTxvevaSi, simarTle! arada, Tuki ramea dRes saerTo, erTxel kidev
mkvdreTiT aRmsdgar qveyanaSi, mxolod simarTlea, wviTa da dagviT, tanjva-
wvalebiT, didi msxverplis fasad, magram mainc gamoTqmuli, gamotanili
samzeoze, TiTqos mxolod imitom, aTasnairi juris medroveebs, garewrebsa
da lazRandarebs erTbaSad rom gaeufasurebinaT, TavianTi qvena miznebis
SesaniRbad. erT simarTles iSveliebs msajulic da gansasjelic, erT
simarTles afrialeben droSasaviT, farulad Tu aSkarad dapirispirebuli
banakebi, magram elizbarisTvis kaSelis piridan amosuli simarTle, araTu
misi ar aris, aRarc simarTlea. rogorc ki daijerebs, erTxel kidev
daadasturebs sakuTar sibriyves, ndobas gamoucxadebs imas (aki gamoucxada!
Svili aCuqa, bolos da bolos), visac guSin da guSinwin fexqveS hqonda
amodebuli misi "adamianuri Rirsebaca" da "erovnuli siamayec", visac rkinis
kauWiani joxiT gamohyavda sikvdilmisjilTa saknidan, vinc mis gvamze
buqnavda da mis STamomavals narkotikiviT aCvevda zar-zeimiT aRniSvnas
sakuTari dacemisa da Sercxvenisa... diax, ase iyo da ase iqneba, gindac aTjer
gadatrialdes qveyana. ase iqneba, vidre saukuneebis manZilze dagrovili
istoriuli sibinZuridan, erT mSvenier dRes, pepelasaviT ar amofrindeba
maTi saerTo, saswaulad gadarCenili da, rac mTavaria, samaradisod
ganwmendili suli...

mokled, Cveni batoni elizbari, Cveulebisamebr, isev niJaraSi Seiketa. "me

ara var kaSelebis msajulio" uTxra elisos, mogonili gagulisebiT, da
ubodiSod daiTxova: albaT gvianobamde vimuSaveb da Zalian gTxov,
telefonTanac ar damiZaxoTo. magram veRarc samuSaos daudo guli (isedac
uWirda erTi xeliT sabeWdi manqanis klaviSebze kakuni da meoreTi
gaTavxedebuli mumlis mogerieba) da veRarc masze bevrad ukeTesi mwerlebis
wignebs. xan erTs gadaSlida, xan meores, iqneb rames gadavawyde Wkuis
saswavlebelsa da damamSvidebelso, magram msgavsic araferi ewera im
wignebSi...
Cais dasalevadac aRar gamosula Tavisi oTaxidan. uWmeli dawva da
sakmaod didxans eoma uZilobas, erTidan aTasamde da aTasidan erTamde
TvliTa Tu sakuTari da sxvaTa leqsebis deklamirebiT gunebaSi,
rasakvirvelia, saZile abebis miSveliebiT yovel TxuTmet wuTSi... eliso
ramdenjerme moadga garedan kars da ramdenjerme ikiTxa gaubedavad: "xom ar
dagiZaxiao", magram aman pasuxis Rirsadac ar Caagdo. samagierod, ukve
mtkiced hqonda gadawyvetili emigraciaSi wasvla. mokidebda xels Tavis
uxasiaTo Svils da saerTod gaaridebda aqaurobas... "ase ajobebs
yvelasTviso" fiqrobda am moulodneli da, rac mTavaria, misTvis yovlad
miuRebeli gadawyvetilebis miRebisgan aRelvebuli. oRond, ukve TviTonac
ver arkvevda, cxadSi xdeboda, rac xdeboda, Tu sizmarSi... Tu cxadSi
xdeboda, erCia sizmari yofiliyo, xolo, Tu sizmarSi cxadSic verafers
moifiqrebda ukeTess... TviTmfrinavSi ijda, elisosTan da lizikosTan
erTad, zustad ise, rogorc bevrjer mjdara borjomis matarebelSi,
qviSxeTs mimavali, da, sxvaTaSoris, axlac moagarakeebs ufro gavdnen, vidre
emigrantebs, Tundac, CacmulobiTa da bargiT.
elisos Wilis qudi exura, lentiani, da dakecili qolga muxlebze edo.
arc gamakis wamoReba daviwynoda. mWidrod daxveuli gamaki karTan
mieyudebina. TviTmfrinavis saloni mxolod maTi bargiT iyo savse, magram
elizbars arc is ukvirda, bargianad rom SemoeSvaT TviTmfrinavSi da arc
is, maT garda, sxva rom aravin ijda salonSi. etyoba, emigrantebisTvis iyo
is saloni gankuTvnili, emigrantebi ki mxolod isini iyvnen...
lizikos muxlebTan gadaWrili jinsis Sarvali da mamamisis Zveli,
modurad CaflaSuli perangi ecva. aSkarad siamovnebda mSoblebTan erTad
mgzavroba. dacqvetili ijda skamze da xan mamas Sexedavda madlierebiT
savse TvalebiT, xan dedinacvals. "gana SeiZleba, me rames vaSavebdeo"
ambobda mTeli misi arseba. elizbars arc ukiTxavs, ra moxda Tqvens ojaxSi,
ratom daerivnen erTmaneTs mama-Svilio, ar Caayena uxerxul mdgomareobaSi
da gamokvlevis nacvlad, amjobina saerTod amoegdo gulidan es ambavi,
rogorc SedarebiT naklebad saWiro nivTs amoagdeben xolme Cemodnidan
bolo wuTs, raTa Tavisuflad daiketos Cemodani...
 "mgzavroba kidev ufro dagvaaxlovebs da Segvayvarebs erTmaneTso"
fiqrobda elizbari da TviTmfrinavis iluminatorSi iyureboda. TeTri,
qaTqaTa Rrublebi uzarmazari aisbergebiviT nela, TiTqmis SeumCnevlad
iZrodnen TviTmfrinavis sawinaaRmdego mimarTulebiT. erT-erT maTganze,
iseve rogorc qviSxeTis dasasvenebeli saxlis ezoSi, erTad idgnen
elizbaris aw ukve gardacvlili ufrosi Tanamokalmeebi: batoni leonti,
batoni pimeni, batoni diomide, batoni gobroni, batoni mixako... cota
moSorebiT nikolozi garinduliyo, Cveulebisamebr, zurgze xelebdawyobili
da amayad Tavaweuli, TiTqos aqac gasaSrobad mzeze gafenil Tavis
daobebul wignebs darajobda, qaTmebma ar damisvarono...
uyure Sen! nikolozic momkvdara Seicxada elizbarma.
au, rogor ewyineba antons! Sewuxda lizikoc.
cocxalma ikiTxos, cocxalia codo! ratomRac gabrazda eliso.
am dros, TviTmfrinavis iluminators garedan raJden kaSeli moadga.
mocuravis wvrili saTvale ekeTa da mWidrod momuwuli piridan haeris
buStulebs uSvebda. Tan gamalebuli usvamda xel-fexs, bayayurad. mere erTi
xeli TviTmfrinavs moabjina, meoreTi Subli moiCrdila da iluminatorSi
Semoixeda. mZaxlebma uneburad Tvali gauswores erTmaneTs. raJdenma qamari
Seixsna, Sarvali Caiwia, adgilze Semotrialda da axla SiSveli ukanaliT
moebjina iluminators. elizbari Secba. uceb ver moisazra, rogor
moqceuliyo, ecno mZaxali da ramenairad gamoexata es, Tu Tavi ise daeWira,
viTomc verafers xedavda ucnaursa da gasakvirs.
nu miaqcevT yuradRebas... Cveulebrivi miraJia, turistebis gasarTobi
qarTulad uTxra stiuardesam elizbars. xelSi sasmelebis Camosatarebeli
langari eWira, magram amjerad, ratomRac, mkvdari ciyvi egdo zed,
calTvalgadmogdebuli...
qarTveli xarT? gaukvirda, gauxarda elizbars.
ara. viyavi. axla germaneli var. ukve mesame welia Tavazianad
upasuxa stiuardesam kanadeloba merCia, magram am adgils davxarbdi
gaagrZela xalisianad kargi samsaxuria, moulodnelobiT savse... me ki,
bavSvobidanve, eqskursiebze siaruli miyvarda da kidev karis
WuWrutanebSi Wyitini...
didi madloba Tqva elizbarma da mereRa gaukvirda, risTvis vuxdi
madlobaso.
ai, es iqneba Tqveni gidi uTxra stiuardesam da xeli mxars ukan
gaiSvira.
elizbarma imis xels Tvali gaayola da didyura grigola dainaxa: cirkis
mosamsaxuris uniforma ecva da, darcxvenili, uSnod iWyaneboda.
yvelaferi mzadaa, biZia elizbar, turniri oTxze iwyeba uTxra
elizbars.
aki samzeo! gacecxlda elizbari mamaZaRlebi... erTs amboben da
meores akeTeben...
amitom, Sin unda daetio Tqva elisom, Wilis qudi moixada da imiT
gainiava wamowiTlebuli saxe.
CemTvis sulerTia, samze daiwyeba Tu oTxze... CemTvis yvelaferi
damTavrda Tqva lizikom.
Sen is girCevnia, axla mainc mouyve mamaSens, ra moxda qviSxeTSi
SeuRrina elisom.
elizbars SeeSinda, marTla ar moyveso, da scada saswrafod ganemuxta
moulodneli daZabuloba.
axla amis dro ar aris... aq aravis ainteresebs Cveni piradi
usiamovnebebi SesZaxa paTetikurad.
Seni bralia yvelaferi uTxra elisom.
 bedad, TviTmfrinavi sahaero ormoSi Caezanya da mzis mocimcime laqa
dafeTebuli gadaxta erTi savarZlidan meoreze, raTa maSinve ukan
dabrunebuliyo. salonSi sufTa, grili haeris suni datrialda da lizikoc
maSinve gamoenTo mamis dasacavad.
dagaviwyda Seni leqciebi siyvarulis sidiadeze, siZliereze,
daumorCileblobaze?! uyvira elisos "es Senze ar aris
damokidebuli..." "Sen an emorCilebi, an ar emorCilebi..." gamoajavra enis
CleqviT marTali yofilxar. camde marTali. vaRiareb. magram emorCilebi
Tu ar emorCilebi, orive SemTxvevaSi erTnairad iRupebi. daRupva
garduvalia. gana Senc ase ar daiRupe?! sxvas mainc verafers gaawyob,
saTamaSo Tojina xar da meti araferi...
 TviTmfrinavi isev Cavarda sahaero ormoSi da, meore wuTas, ukve
matareblad gardaqmnili, dafeTebuli gamovarda gvirabidan, Tavfexianad
gaJRenTili gvirabisa da liandagebis suniT. radiom swrafad gamoacxada
Semdegi sadguri. vagonis kari xmauriT gaiRo da daixura. sadgurs SuSis
saxuravi hqonda. saxuravze mtredisa Tu yvavis Crdilma gadaiara zantad.
"cuca odiSari gvepatiJeba qarTul vaxSamze... xom wamoxvalT?" Tqva
elizbarma. "Cven aq qarTuli kerZebis saWmelad da qarTuli simRerebis
mosasmenad ar CamovsulvarT" Tqva elisom. "cuca odiSars erTxel
movusmine radioSi da ar momewona, magram karg vaxSamze, qarTuli iqneba Tu
germanuli, uars namdvilad ver vityvi" Tqva lizikom, elisos jibriT.
matarebeli ki miqroda. xan erTi matarebliT miqrodnen, xan meoreTi da xan
mesameTi... usasrulod gadadiodnen matareblidan matarebelSi da vagonidan
vagonSi da, rac mTavaria, yvela vagonSi maTive bargiT iyo Caxergili
gasasvlelebi. xan gamaki eblandebodaT fexSi, xan CanTa da xan Cemodani...
mainc jiutad miiwevdnen win, raTa bolo vagonSi ar aRmoCeniliyvnen
SemTxveviT. "bolo vagonSi ar axvideT, saxifaToao" afrTxilebdaT cuca
odiSaris xmac. Tavad ar Canda, Tumca, mis molodinSi iyvnen ganuwyvetliv
da, Tqven warmoidgineT, mis imedzec. magram gana ar ajobebda, yvela
matareblisTvis moexsna aqaur xelisuflebas bolo vagoni, raki,
maincdamainc, bolo vagonebs etanebodnen Turme aqauri jibgirebi da
xulignebi?! elizbars erTi suli hqonda, rodis gauziarebda xelisuflebis
romelime warmomadgenels sakuTar mosazrebas adgilobriv jibgirebTan da
xulignebTan brZolis Taobaze, da imasRa SiSobda, ar daviwyeboda iqamde.
"mokled, Tqven ukve zrdadasrulebuli qalebi xarT, Wkua ar geswavlebaT, me
ki, rogorme mivxedav Tavso" eubneboda Tavis qalebs. "verafersac ver
mixedavo icinoda liziko ena Tu ar ici, brma oidiposiviT umweo xar,
nabijsac ver gadadgam uCemod am qalaqSio". "rogor ubedavo" brazdeboda
eliso. erTnairad aRizianebda, rac ar unda eTqva lizikos. "Zalian gTxov,
nu Cagverevio" uxeSad igeriebda lizikoc. "rogorc mama, ra Tqma unda,
mxolod Sen gekuTvnis, magram rogorc mwerali, Cemic imdenivea, ramdenic
Senio" slukunebda satirlad gamzadebuli eliso. "me ar miTqvams SenTvis,
mamaCemis wignebi aRar waikiTxoo ar zogavda liziko me giTxari, ufro
sworad ki gTxove, mama-Svilis laparakSi nu Caerevi-meTqi". "uguloebi xarT
axalgazrdebi, lize, uguloebi... uceb iciT kacis gawirva" moZRvravda
Svils elizbari ayvavebuli cacxvis xeebiT SemosazRvrul ezoSi. samiveni
aRfrTovanebulni aTvalierebdnen maTTvis gamoyofil saxls, albaT
sayvarlisTvis aSenebuls gasul saukuneSi mdidari kapitalistis mier.
saxli patara gorakze idga, tbis piras, ufro sworad, mdinaris piras,
romelsac uzarmazari tba moegdo zurgze, rogorc lokokinas sakuTari
niJara. napirTan sasule orkestri samejliso musikas ukravda. navmisadgomze
radio raRacas acxadebda. albaT tbaze gaseirnebis msurvelTa
sayuradRebod. caze koRoebis usaSvelod didi gundi iklakneboda Savi
urCxuliviT, iklakneboda, brunavda, SiSismomgvrelad dastrialebda qalaqs.
didyura grigolasa da manqanis mZRols maTi bargi gadmohqondaT manqanidan.
"gamaki?! gamaki sad aris?" aRelda elizbari. "yvelaferi adgilzeao"
daamSvida didyura grigolam.
erTi aivanze gadiT, ra xdeba! raRa Cveni mumli da raRa amaTi koRo
ganacxada aivnidan Semobrunebulma lizikom.
nu gagvamkacrebs sakuTari ubedureba Tqva elizbarma zogadad.
TviTonac ar icoda, ramdenad miesadageboda misi aforizmi lizikos
gancxadebas. "Seqspirs gavs, magram advili SesaZlebelia, bolos Cemi
aRmoCndeso" gaagrZela gunebaSi.
 xalxi gund-gundad miiswrafoda mdinarisken. gzadagza, pirdapir
boTlebiT iyudebdnen aqafebul luds da madianad kbeCdnen msuqan
hamburgerebs, saidanac Cvilis ganavlis feri mdogvi wveTavda. "gladiatori
saqarTvelodan", "kavkasiis spartaki" ewera transparantebze, saiTac ar
unda gagexedaT...
aba, droze, droze! raRas uyureb? SeuZaxa elisom elizbars da
didi, narinjisferi taSti daudga win.
axla ar davibane?! gaukvirda elizbars.
Cqara, Cayavi TiTi, Seni nebiT Cayavi, Tu marTali xar! uyvira
elisom da majaSi Caafrinda, ZaliT wamoaRebina daZabuli xeli taStisken.
narinjisfer taStSi mduRare kupri ibuSteboda, TuxTuxebda, orTqlis
nakadebs afrqvevda. elizbarma jer gaubedavad Cayo TiTi mduRare kuprSi da
tkivilma elvasaviT dauara mTel sxeulSi. magram tkivili esiamovna da
axla mTeli mtevani Cayo majamde. siamovnebisgan oxravda, frutunebda da,
monacvleobiT, xan erT xels yofda taStSi, xan meores. "ise, TbilisSi rom
ekeTebina cuca odiSars qarTuli kerZebi da TbilisSi emRera qarTulad,
iqneb am dReSi aRar CavvardniliyaviT yvelanio" eubneboda elisos,
madlierebis grZnobiT gulaCuyebuli.
"am dReSi Cavardnili" rom ixila mama, liziko, erTi piroba, gaognda,
magram male moego gons da mSvidad, magram RvarZlianad hkiTxa elisos: ras
erCi, ra dagiSava, ase rom awamebo. "patiosan sityvas gaZlev, Tavs namdvilad
ar moviklav arc amis da arc Seni gulisTviso" upasuxa elisom. "aRu,
aRu, SeniT ver unda daibano Tavi, vera xedav, rogor hyavxar gamoWerili?"
uTxra lizikom mamas. elisom raRac upasuxa, elizbaris magivrad, magram
misi xma kateris RmuilSi Caikarga. napirTan samgzavro katerma daiRmuvla,
gaseirnebis msurvelebs mouxmo, erTxel gabmulad muuuuuu da orjer
mokled mu! mu!
Sen is gaRizianebs, deda rom ar damiZaxnia SenTvis. xom marTali var?
gverdulad gaxeda lizikom elisos.
samagierod, me ombre Segarqvi, pataraobisas... ombre, ombre, ombre... ase
geZaxda mTeli qviSxeTi. gaxsovs? miesiyvarula eliso.
RmerTo, rogor mejavreba iqauroba gulwrfelad aRmoxda lizikos.
nu sulelob! RmerTi gviwyens! mtkvari namdvilad feradi mdinarea:
diliT Savi modis, dRisiT yavisferi, saRamos ki lurji... fiqrianad Tqva
elizbarma.
majebs qvemoT xorci gasZvromoda da TiTebis nacvlad, uSnod
dakrunCxul Zvlebs aTamaSebda. "mtkiva. mtkivaa. mtkivaaa". tiroda
bavSviviT. "ra gatirebs, mama, ra gatirebs?! ase ukeTesad dabeWdav, ager
naxav" amSvidebda liziko. "elizbar, elizbar, eliaaa" tiroda elisoc.
Sen raRa gatirebs?! uyvira lizikom Sen ra genaRvleba?! SenTvis
mamaCemi mxolod mweralia, saxelovani, pativsacemi, dasafasebeli... masTan
erTad saamayocaa xalxSi gamoCena, gnebavT, emigraciaSi wasvla... salaRoboa
Tu rac aris, ukve emigraciaSi varT... es aris yvela qarTvelis ocneba.
mamaCemi rom ara, Senc TbilisSi ijdebodi axla da ara aq, vanzeeSi, tbis
piras, kapitalistis sasaxleSi...
vanzee tba ar aris, mdinarea, mdinaris gamonazardia, Tu SeiZleba ase
iTqvas, mdinaris anevrizmaa Seuswora elisom.
emigraciac Taviseburi anevrizmaa, oRond, xalxis sulisa Caeria
elizbaric.
mag poetur laparaks, girCevnia cxovrebas Sexedo TvalebSi dascina
lizikom.
elizbars ar upasuxia, TavCaRunuli ijda da cxvirs aqsutunebda,
surdoiani bavSviviT.
 da Sen apireb turnirSi monawileobas?! Sena xar taxis momrevi?!
tuCi aubzua gulxeldakrefilma lizikom.
"es aris asli migel de servantes saavedras Subisa, romlis dedanic
arsad ar inaxeba, ramdenadac ar arsebobs bunebaSi da arc arasodes
arsebula, mxolod da mxolod, mwerluri fantaziis nayofiao" Tqva
qalaqis Tavma radioSi da, imave wams, didyura grigolam foladis bunikiani
Subi elizbars miaCeCa xorcgaclil xelSi.
vficav! Tqva elizbarma mRelvared da Subs Tvali aayola SefarviT.
bunikis wvers mzis sxivi wamosdeboda, abreSumis ZafiviT.
lizikos aSkarad ewyina mamis uyuradReboba, erTbaSad wamoenTo da
warbebi TavisTavad gadaeWima Sublze. isic ki ifiqra, xom ar avdge da
wavide aqedano, magram sad unda wasuliyo amaze ukeTes adgilas. tbis
laplapa zedapirze feradi afrebi gamwkrivebuliyvnen, sxvadasxva mxares
gadaxrilebi... "spartak! spartak! spartak!" yviroda mdinaris piras
TavSeyrili xalxi. ludis gaxsnili boTlidan SiSiniT amovardeboda xolme
TovliviT qaTqaTa qafi da, madisaRmZvrelad dasvretili, zantad
Camoewuweboda boTlis yels. mdinaris piras, patara moedanze, maRali
balaxi xasxasebda mwvaned. CrdiloeTurad msuye da notio. moednis erT
boloSi ficris gomuri idga, Zveli da uferuli. karze daJanguli boqlomi
ekida.
aT wuTSi viwyebT CasCurCula didyura grigolam elizbars.
ki magram, jer vlaparakobT, jer ar dagvimTavrebia saubari... xom unda
vicode, ra SeemTxva Cems Svils qviSxeTSi?! SesZaxa elizbarma da
dabneulma miixed-moixeda, radgan uceb moeCvena, TiTqos xalxis zRvidan
viRaca raRacas aniSnebda neka TiTiT ramdenjerme moifxana Subli
magram verafriT veRar gaixsena axla, ras niSnavda neka TiTiT Sublis
mofxana, Tumca, gindac gaexsenebina, gana rame Seicvleboda?! ocdaTormeti
wlis SeTqmulebmac mSvenivrad icodnen niSnebis ena, magram ras miaRwies?!
moRalatem mainc Cveulebriv, ase vTqvaT, sasaubro enaze gasca isinic...
orkestri ki, TandaTan eSxSi Sedioda. haers zriali gaudioda. naxerxis
magvar silaSi titlikana gogo-biWebi TamaSobdnen. biWebi franis afrenas
cdilobdnen. frani jiutobda. cocxaliviT ki asavsavebda grZel kuds,
magram gauSvebdnen Tu ara xels, maSinve silaSi esoboda cxviriT.
xelixelCakidebuli gogoebi wriulad trialebdnen adgilze. adgilze
bzrialebda momakvdavi WriWinac. amaod Slida sifrifana frTebs da amaod
aCenda movardisfro iRliebs...
ki magram, ar SegeSindaT? ar mogeridaT mainc? martoni xom ar iyaviT?
ver malavda Tavis gaocebas eliso.
ra ginda, eliso, Cemgan? ramdenjer unda giTxra erTi da igive? ra
Tqma unda, SegveSinda gulubryvilo keTilsindisierebiT aRiara lizikom
Cemi dedamTilis garda, yvelani iq viyaviT... Cems dedamTils, maincdamainc,
ar uyvars qviSxeTi... didyura grigola da antoni bargs alagebdnen manqanaSi.
taso Zalom TviTonac ar icis, rodis sad aris... Jelezni gamakSi iwva...
magram ukve aRar vekuTvnodi Cems Tavs... xom giTxari?! gaRizianda uceb.
SeiZleba, Sercxva Tavisive nalaparakevisa, magram mainc gaagrZela, axla ukve
xazgasmuli paTetikurobiT ukve brmad, sityvis Seubruneblad
vasrulebdiT zebunebrivi Zalis neba-survils...
 usircxvilo, usircxvilo! gaawyvetina elisom, radgan mTeli
arsebiT igrZno uceb, rogor axrCobda mis qmars Zlivs moTokili sibraze,
rogor iTrguneboda Svilis siTavxediTa da usircxvilobiT ar daujero,
elizbar! gTxov! ar gatyde! miubrunda qmars tyuis yvelafers. me
magiJebs, me mixeTqavs guls... CemTana aqvs saqme... aqamde ver mapatia... dedaCemi
cocxali iyo, Sen rom mamaCems ekurkurebodio... Sen xom mainc ici, elizbar!
RmerTo Cemo! marto Cemma ubedurma qmarma icoda, ra cecxli trialebda Cems
gulSi da imitomac Caeqca sisxli. gavidodi Sua zRvaSi da ukidegano wyali
maryuJiviT rom wamiWerda kiserSi elizbar, elizbar, elia-meTqi
vyvirodi giJiviT... magram gindac gewyinos, gindac ara, simarTle mainc unda
iTqvas, Tundac aq, sazRvargareT... mamaSenis aRma xnuli kaSelebma daRma
farcxes... kaSelebis bdRvriala WaRebs isev Taflis wminda sanTeli gerCios
yifianebis walos xela senakisa, sadac me da Sen, monazvnebiviT, erTmaneTis
oflSi vixarSebodiT xolme zafxulobiT... aRar gaxsovs?
maxsovs fiqrianad Tqva lizikom yovel Rame mindoda damexrCve...
baliSi damefarebina SenTvis pirze da zemodan dagwolodi, vidre
gaigudebodi...
gesmis, ras meubneba? SesCivla elisom elizbars didi madloba.
metis Rirsi var Sengan miubrunda isev lizikos, magram maSinve xelebi
aifara saxeze da aqviTinda. Wilis qudi moebrica, magram amisTvisac aRar
miuqcevia yuradReba.
ra gatirebs, Se debilo? Sen raRa gatirebs? Tavi xom ar unda
momakvlevinoT, ra gindaT Cemgan? uyvira lizikom.
xom xedav, ra dReSia Seni Svili isev elizbars mimarTa elisom.
laparaki uWirda, magram Tavs Zalas atanda uSvele rame, sanam droa... mama
xar, gemudarebi, gevedrebi... codoa, elizbar, codoa... Cveni bralia, ver
gavzardeT, ver vaswavleT veraferi...
rogor ver maswavleT, Tqvengan vici, rac vici gaicina lizikom.
Sen rom Semiyvardi, ici, pirvelad vis vuTxari? Cems qmars!
gaagrZela elisom ici, romelia axla Cemi yvelaze Semzaravi sizmari?
viTom, Cemi qmari cocxldeba da, imis magivrad, mixarodes, Tavzardacemulma,
aRar vici, rogor vuTxra, ar gacocxlde, SenTan veRar vicxovreb-meTqi...
kai eSmaki xar, vinc ar gicnobs isev gaicina lizikom.
eSmakebi kaSelebSi moikiTxe gabrazda eliso. mobrecili qudi
gaiswora, Tvalebi xelis zurgiT amoimSrala da Cveuli xmiT gaagrZela
sxvaTaSoris, SemTxveviT ar Seadare weRan mamaSeni oidiposs... Tumca,
mamaSenze metad, Sen Segferis oidiposoba. egaa rom, oidiposma ar icoda,
ras sCadioda da mainc daiTxara Tvalebi, Sen ki, ici da mainc cdilob,
Tvali dagviyeno yvelas Seni ganusazRvreli, ganusjeli, ganukiTxavi
TavisuflebiT...
ra ginda Cemgan, eliso? ra gindaT Cemgan? mejavrebiT yvelani!
iyvira lizikom.
elizbar, elizbar, eliaaa isev aqviTinda eliso.
gaCumdiT! brZana elizbarma da Subis bolo xelmwifurad dahkra
iataks gaCumdiT gaimeora, ukve Semrigeblurad nu gadavrevT am
ucxo xalxs... nu vaTqmevinebT, es vin yofilano...
me aravisi ar mrcxvenia, rac undaT, is Tqvan gajiqda liziko.
elizbar, elizbar, elia a a moTqvamda eliso.
eliso, eliso, elisuka dauyvava elizbarma xom ici, arc miwisa
var, arc cisa... Sen mainc damzoge... nu mimatoveb gansacdelis Jams...
 ra ra davaSave me elizbar Svili Svili SviliviT miyvars Tavs Tavs
Tavs mirCevnia an Sen an Sen rogor unda migatovo ici ras meubneba xolme
Seni pirveli co o oli?! yoCaR qali Sen yofi yofil yofilxaro... rom miga
miga tovo ici ras metyvis?! fui fui fui Sens qalo qalo baso...
slukunebda eliso.
Sen ise Wri da kerav, rogorc xels gaZlevs Tqva lizikom da
sarkis win dabzrialda ui, raRacaSi Cavmjdarvar. naxeT, ras migavs
Sarvali!
rodemde unda iaro ase, Tbiliseli xuliganiviT, Caicvi kaba,
sircxvilia, stumrad varT mainc uTxra elizbarma da "saerTodac droa,
movemzadoT yvelani, mZime dRe gvidgas, damTavrda Jami qvebis mogrovebisao"
gaagrZela gunebaSi.
Tavs moviklav, Tavs moviklav, Tavs moviklav... aRar SemiZlia meti
Teatralurad Sehyvira lizikom da jinsis jibidan samarTebeli amoaZvrina.
gaxsnili samarTebeli mini elvasaviT gakrTa mis xelSi.
"droa" gaifiqra elizbarma da didyura grigola moiZia TvaliT, magram
versad miakvlia mis yviTel livreasa da mwvane Sarvals.
droa! Tqva xmamaRla da erTxel kidev dahkra Subi iataks...
 mere TavdaRmarTSi midiodnen da cdilobda mSvidad, auCqareblad
CaeTavebina daRmarTi, rac arc ise ioli saqme gaxldaT, radgan, yvela
sikeTesTan erTad, viwro biliki cocxal arsebasaviT sxmartalebda fexqveS.
qvemoT xalxis zRva tortmanebda. saswrafo daxmarebis manqana wivil-
kiviliT Sevarda xalxSi. etyoba, viRacas guli SeuRonda sicxisgan, anda
mRelvarebisgan... xalxis zRva yrud gugunebda, xolo mdinaris mxridan
moulodnelad orkestris xma SemoiWreboda xolme da aseve moulodnelad
Caikargeboda sadRac. mze brWyvialebda yvelaferze, rasac ki misi arekvlis
unari hqonda miniWebuli bunebisgan. namdvili zafxulis dRe idga,
qviSxeTuri. elizbars rom uyvars, iseTi. guliviT gaudioda bagabugi
dasicxul haers. yvela xe, yvela buCqi Taviseburad zuzunebda, bzuoda,
sisinebda, aTasnair mwerdaseuli. bibinebdnen mdeloebi, fardagebiviT
Cafenilni koromebs Soris. Sors, tbis sarkiseburi zedapiri
TvalismomWrelad brwyinavda. es wuTia gamskdari maSxalis naperwklebiviT
ireodnen erTmaneTSi peplebi, futkrebi, krazanebi, nemsiylapiebi, koRoebi,
xoWoebi... ciyvi naZvis girCs Seeqceoda gamalebiT, TiTqos dro aqvs
gansazRvrulio, TiTqos sadacaa, tyvia unda daaxalon TvalSio. da mainc,
mZime, amaforiaqebeli daZabuloba sufevda am, marTlac, zRaprul,
samyarosgan TiTqos Tavisi ganumeorebeli silamaziT gamoyofil miwis
naglejze... TiTqos raRac unda momxdariyo, kidev uaresi... anda, ukve
momxdariyo, magram jer aqamde ar moeRwia mis damaqcevar gamoZaxils... Tavs
ar izogavda WriWinebis orkestri zafxulis pewi magram, daxeT, alvas
ukve SehyviTleboda kenwero. "ra lamazia, es SeCvenebulio" mRelvared
gaifiqra elizbarma. ese igi, adre Tu gvian, es zafxulic miiwureboda.
moaxlovdeboda Semodgoma. Semodgoma yvelafers gadaTibavda. SsSsS... sSsSs...
SsSsS...sSsSs... antons uyvars celis xma. elizbarsac uyvars. "geSinodeT,
batonebo, Semodgomisao" fiqrobs gunebaSi. TandaTanobiT sicocxle
sikvdilSi gadaizrdeba. bunebisTvis kidev erTxel, elizbarisTvis da
misnairebisTvis erTxel da samudamod. rasakvirvelia, mtkivneuli
procesia. albaT bunebisTvisac, magram buneba ar imCnevs. mSvidad SfoTavs.
ufro sworad, xan Wotis piriT ambobs Tavis sawuxars, xan bayayis da xan
Zroxis... kuTavs, yiyinebs, zmuis... mtkivneuli procesia, SemaSfoTebelic,
Semawuxebelic. rac mTavaria, damaeWvebelic. "sad midixar, ro midixar?!"
fiqrobs elizbari. magram asea Tu ise, mainc mogiwevs seriozuli
gadawyvetilebis miReba. mTavaria, ar SegeSalos. meorejer aRar iqneba.
sjobs, gabiTurebuli daiRupo, vidre gadarCenili gabiTurde. sakmarisze
metia, rac daTme, rac moiTmine (Tundac, Svilis gamo). magram, gaTavda! aivso
moTminebis fiala. zedmet wveTs zRvac ver itans, isic gadmodis napirebze,
cofdeba, duJmoreuli misdevs WrelaWrula pirsaxocebiana da rezinis
gasaberi leibebiana wamocvenil da awivlebul damsveneblebs. gauTamamdnen
Zalian. Tavze daasxdnen. msaxurad gaixades. daaviwydaT, isic rom adamiania,
guli aqvs, Rirseba, siamaye... xoda, TviTon icis axla! imis nacvlad, xeli ar
CamoerTmia, zurgi Seeqcia samSoblos mZoris matlisTvis, Svili aCuqa,
Svili miugdo sajijgnelad. vinc samSoblos moRalates xels arTmevs,
Tavadac moRalatea. "es gadamdebi senia, megobrebo" fiqrobs elizbari.
SexebiTac gadadis. amitomac dalpa qveyana zezeurad. garCeva ar aris. yvelas
eSinia, ar ifiqron, eSiniao da, meore wuTas, ukve imaTnairia TviTonac,
misdauneburad, magram mainc Segnebulad, radgan icis, rogor ar unda
moiqces da mainc ise iqceva, rogorc ar moiqceoda, meti simtkice da Rirseba
rom SeenarCunebina. ki ar unda danaTesaveboda, Tavidanve unda moekveTa
(weli rom hqonoda!), rogorc dampali kiduri... amoeSanTa, rogorc wyluli,
simsivne... Rrmad, saimedod Caemarxa miwaSi, radiaciuli narCenebiviT...
"Raribi, magram patiosani cxovrebaa erTaderTi xsnao" fiqrobs elizbari.
mxolod is CauwynarebT yvela satkivars da, erT mSvenier dRes,
moulodnelad, eniTuTqmeli SvebiTa da netarebiT igrZnoben... Tumca, ara,
isini albaT ver igrZnoben, magram istoriuli sibinZuridan pepelasaviT
amofrindeba maTi gadarCenili da, rac mTavaria, ganwmendili suli...
"sityvas xom ar gvetyviT, vidre daviwyebdeTo" SeekiTxa elizbars
qalaqis Tavi, radios meSveobiT.
 diax. madlobT... aRelda elizbari. igrZno, uaRresad mniSvnelovani
wuTi dgeboda mis cxovrebaSi, friad sapatioc da friad saxifaToc...
arafris mcodneTaTvis unda waredgina arafris mqoneni arc saxelis, arc
wodebis, arc mamulis... misi oratoruli monacemebi namdvilad ar eyofoda
am saqmes, magram mainc unda eRona rame, nemsis yunwSi gamZvraliyo, cecxlSi
Cavardniliyo, miwa gaexeTqa, cisTvis kari Seeba da pirnaTlad moexada vali
ubeduri samSoblos winaSe diax. madlobT... gaimeora, dros mosagebad.
didi mniSvneloba hqonda pirvel frazas. Tu Tavidanve ver daainteresebda am
ucxo xalxs, ludis, mzisa da mdinaris suniT gaJRenTili, Tavadac
stiqiasaviT rom tortmanobda moednis garSemo, mere veRarafers gaawyobda,
araTu ar mousmendnen, SeiZleba kinwis kvriTac gaegdoT aqedan. facafuciT,
usityvod Seevedra gunebaSi yvela qarTul salocavs, warmarTulsac da
qristianulsac, da daiwyo: gilgameSTanac mikamaTia... (samariseburi dumili
Camovarda). troas cxenze vmjdarvar... (dumili kidev ufro daiZaba).
babilonis bordelSi miCxubia mTvrals... (atyda da ra atyda: stvena, yiJina,
taSi... da ufro Tamamad gaagrZela). Tqveni didi fridrixi Cvens patara kaxs
utolebda Tavs... (amjerad, ufro saxifaTod dadumda xalxi da elizbaric
saswrafod Seecada daZabulobis ganmuxtvas). me mindoda meTqva, Tqveni didi
fridrixi arasworad iyo informirebuli Cveni patara kaxis gabaritebis
Taobaze-meTqi... (xalxma gaicina). iciT, ratom? Cveni mtrebi atyuebdnen, raSi
Wirdeba Seni mixmareba, iqiT awiokebs sparseTsa da indoeTso... arada, skamic
ar hqonda, zed rom Camoedo ukanali (xalxma isev gaicina). axlac igive
grZeldeba. Tqven araferi iciT, radgan rac iciT, imitom iciT, is rom ar
icodeT, risi codnac aucilebelia CvenTvis (viRacam daustvina). ki batono,
moveSvaT politikas. magram mTeli Cemi pasuxismgeblobiT vacxadeb, anton
kaSeli mamis momrevi ar aris. erT saidumlos gagimxelT da Tavad gansajeT.
iciT, ras ganicdis? wesier da patiosan kacad ar CamTvalos vinmemo, imitom
rom... imitom rom, wesieri da patiosani adamiania. wesierebaa misi mTavari
nakli da patiosnebis gamo isjeba... imedia, mikerZoebaSi ar CamomarTmevT,
Tumca, Cemi siZea da vidre siZe gaxdeboda, guliTadi megobrebi viyaviT.
magram WeSmariteba megobrobaze maRla dgas. WeSmariteba ki antonis
sazianod metyvelebs. kosmopolitTan patriotia da patriotTan
kosmopoliti. iciT ratom? imitom rom, Tqvengan gansxvavebiT, usamSoblod
gaizarda, Tumca, fexic ar gaudgams samSoblos gareT. ubralod, ise kargad
SeuniRbes ufrosebma samSoblo, ver miakvlia, rogorc Sav katas bnel
oTaxSi. ufro sworad, qviSxeTeli biblioTekaris, giJi nikolozis wignebSi
miakvlia mxolod. amitom, arc TqvenTvis warmoadgens rames. TqvenTvis ar
arsebobs-meTqi, mindoda meTqva. Tumca, rasakvirvelia, namdvilad arsebobs.
aki giTxariT, siZea Cemi. ubralod, Tqven ver amCnevT, rogorc Sav katas bnel
oTaxSi... axalgazrdoba Cveni xvalindeli dRea, magram Cveni xvalindeli dRe
didad aris damokidebuli Tqvens dRevandel guneba-ganwyobaze. mTavaria,
gaerom dagvzogos, Torem evrobanki yovelTvis mogvcems samidan erTs... ufro
sworad, sams mogvcems, ors ukan waiRebs... ori TviTon, erTi Cven... im
erTisTvisac didi madloba... TiTqmis araferSi... magram mTeli Cemi
pasuxismgeblobiT SemiZlia mogaxsenoT, saqarTveloSi qarTvelis garda,
jerjerobiT aravin daCagrula. rac diqtaturam dagvaklo, demokratiam
SegviTava... mokled, Cven Sinidan gavrbivarT, sxvebi ZaliT gvivardebian Sin.
magram es visi ra bralia?! buneba sicarieles ver itans. da mTavaria, ar
dairRvas demokratiuli principebi; anu, arc Cvenians davuSaloT gaqceva da
arc ucxos Cvens WerqveS damkvidreba... moyvrad mosuli stumari ki ara,
vercerTi Cveni dauZinebeli mteric ver ityvis, kudamoZuebuli gamomabrunes
ukano... diax, Cven varsebobT, magram ar vCanvarT... vidre Cvens binebSic ar
ainTeba sinaTle... madlobT yuradRebisTvis...
 xalxs ufro Svebis oxvra aRmoxda, vidre TanagrZnobisa, Tumca, aqa-iq,
kanti-kuntad, taSic gaisma.
"madlobT, ufalo, Zala rom momeci da bolomde maTqmevine saTqmelio"
fiqrobda sakuTari TaviT friad kmayofili elizbari da elisosa da
lizikos daeZebda xalxSi TvaliT, magram ver xedavda, ise iyo dabrmavebuli
warmatebisgan. samagierod, isini xedavdnen, maRla aweul cerebs aCvenebdnen
da haerovan kocnebs ugzavnidnen Soridan. misi aseTi Wkvianuri da Tamami
gamosvliT moxiblulebs, ufro amayad da gamomwvevad eWiraT Tavi.
me ukve mzad var! Tqva elizbarma xmamaRla.
"gaaReT... gamouSviTo" maSinve iyvira qalaqis Tavmac radioSi da
didyura grigola TavpirismtvreviT gamovarda napirze gamarTul Ria
bufetidan. Tan gzadagza iReWeboda da xelis zurgiT iwmendda mdogviT
moTxupnul pirs. xis gomurTan miirbina, Jangiani boqlomi gaxsna da
siberisgan Tu sibrazisgan aRrWialebul-aWraWunebuli karis orive frTa
erTdroulad gamoaRo. TviTon, erT-erTi frTis ukan imaleboda, vidre
mwvane mindorze samkvdro-sasicocxlod erkinebodnen erTmaneTs elizbari
da misi gapirutyvebuli mZaxali.
ave, cezar, moruturi te salutant! SesZaxa elizbarma romaeli
gladiatoriviT da Subi Tavs zemoT SemarTa.
gomuris karis Wrilidan TandaTanobiT gamoizlazna CaxuTuli,
orTqliani wyvdiadi da uceb, sazarel, banjgvlian arsebad gadaiqca: erTsa
da imave dros, raJden kaSelic iyo da gareuli taxic, obol biWebs rom
gamoedevnebaT xolme SesaWmelad qarTul zRaprebSi, eSvebiani, talaxian
qeCoze jagaraSlili...
Sin veraferi damakeli, verc Seni jadosnuri savarcxliT, verc Seni
jadosnuri sarkiT, verc Seni sali qviT, da axla amaTi xeliT miswordebi
ara, Se sukis agento RvarZlianad SeuRrina elizbars.
vficav! mtkiced Tqva elizbarma da Subis wveri taxs miuSvira.
"drang nax osten!" iRriala xalxma.
 taxi cuxcuxiT uvlida moedans irgvliv da tlanqi, Ronieri CliqebiT
Txrida balaxs. taxis naCliqarebma erTbaSad daauSnova iqauroba. moTxrili
balaxis adgilas svelma, azelilma miwam gamoaWyita Savad. "olle, olle,
olle" Rrialebda xalxi, xolo, taxma, taxisgan moulodneli simsubuqiT,
kamara Sekra da elizbarisken gafrinda, eSvebalaplapebuli. elizbarma
gverdze gaxtoma moaswro, magram taxma mainc gahkra mxarSi eSvi da perangi
xorcianad gauglija. sisxlma maSinve CamouSava mTeli saxelo da dabneulma
elizbarma elisos gaxeda. "ar gatyde, elizbar, ar gatyde! balaxi moisvi da
mogirCeba"! dauZaxa elisom. marTlac, elizbarma balaxi moglija,
Wrilobaze moisva da Wrilobamac maSinve Seikra piri. xelis mtevnebzec isev
aesxa xorci. "ai, amitomac aqvT ucxoelebs kargi wamlebio" gaifiqra
gulmicemulma elizbarma da esiamovna sakuTari idayviT sakuTar neknebze
miWerili Subis taris mrgvali simkvrive. taxi wvrili, CawiTlebuli
TvalebiT uyurebda da albaT morigi SetevisTvis emzadeboda. "axla
gamoCndeba, varT Tu ara Rirsni Tavisuflebisao" gaifiqra elizbarma
mRelvare siamayiT. "maRla ki nu scem spilosa, dabla Semohkar rbilosao"
dauZaxa lizikom raJdens. elizbari mzad iyo saamisod. Zveli qarTuli
teqstebis mixedviT, mamasa da sayvarels Soris, qaliSvils aucileblad
sayvarlis mxare unda daeWira. magram mainc gakvirvebulma da, cota ar iyos,
gulnatkenmac gaxeda Svils, sul erTi wamiT, magram taxisTvis esec
sakmarisi aRmoCnda, yumbarasaviT rom dasZgereboda gulmucelSi da piraRma
gadaeqcia atalaxebul mindorze. elizbars Subi xelidan gauvarda. xalxis
zRvam yrud amoigmina. taxi wina fexebiT mkerdze Seadga waqceul elizbars
da dorbliani dingi mtkivneulad amohkra nikaps qveS. marcxena yuri lamis
aaxia eSviT. magram elizbars, ratomRac, esec esiamovna. "RmerTo, RmerTo, ra
kargiao fiqrobda sanaxevrod gondakarguli ra jobia, iwve ase
SenTvis, trial mindorSi... arc icode sad da arc icode ratom... Sors, Sors
yvelasgan da yvelafrisgan, mtrisganac da moyvrisganac, ucnobisganac da
nacnobisganac, tyuilisganac da simarTlisganac, gaavazakebuli
policielisganac da gapolicielebuli avazakisganac... yvelafrisgan...
RmerTo, didebulo... yvelafrisgan, rac Senamdec iyo da Sens merec iqneba...
gapartaxebul soflebisgan, gaCexil venaxebisgan, gaupatiurebul
gogoebisgan (da ara marto gogoebisgan), cocxlad damwvar biWebisgan (da
ara marto biWebisgan), Rrmad, tkbilad, myudrod mZinare mSobliuri
xalxisgan da qviSxeTuri zafxulebisganac ki... yvelafrisgan, rac
Segnebulad gvryvnida da gvamzadebda am SercxvenisTvis... am monuri
gancxromisTvis..." xolo, vidre elizbari ase fiqrobda, zed gadabotilma
taxma cxeli, orTqliani da myrali Sardi gul-mkerdze daaqcia. magram
elizbars esec esiamovna da siamovnebisgan Tvalebic ki daxuWa, CaiZira,
Caeflo am amazrzeni siamovnebis SlamSi. "mama, mama, mama!" Caesma uceb
Svilis xma da dafeTebuli wamovarda fexze. aranakleb dafeTebuli taxic
maSinve gverdze gaxta da gagulisebulma miwa moCiCqna dingiT. "kaxpav, kaxpav!
Sena xar Cems mkvlelebSi yvelaze meti mkvlelio" dauZaxa lizikos da
TavaRerili, eSvebaelvebuli, isev elizbars mietana. elizbarma Subis aReba
ki moaswro, magram wesierad ver moimarjva, Setrialebuli eWira, waRma-
ukuRma, da iZulebuli Seiqna, misken gamoqanebuli taxisTvis Subis tari
daekra dingze. gamwarebulma taxma Tvalebidan naperwklebi gahyara,
wonasworoba dahkarga da, aWyvirebulma, xalxis zRvisken gadauxvia. xalxis
SeSinebulma zRvam ukan daixia. magram elizbarma, amasobaSi, Subi gaaswora
da Subis wveri ataka taxs TeZoSi. taxma kidev ufro daiWyvira da isev
misken Semobrunda. "damWeri xom, Se dampalo... xelSi dagaWerineb nawlavebs..."
daemuqra raJdeni elizbars da, gamwarebulma, sam fexze Semourbina
moedans. meoTxidan sisxli sdioda. "olle, olle, olle" Rrialebda
xalxi. "ai, ase gesmiT Tqven Tavisufleba Tqva raJdenma yvelas cxviri
CaayofineT Tqvens sibinZureSi". "Zalianac kargi. yvelam gaigos, ra dReSi
varT" upasuxa elizbarma. Tan Tvals ar aSorebda da mTeli ZaliT
bRujavda Subis tars. kvlavac mzad iyo saomrad, Tumca, Tavfexianad
talaxSi amogangluli da taxis Sardis suniT aqoTebuli, ZlivsRa idga
fexze. "me Sen erTxel, marTla miyvardi, Se debilo" dauZaxa lizikom
raJdens. "Senc getireba deda, Zirgavardnilo gombio, ojaxis bozo... quCaSi
wagayudeben aq..." dorblTan erTad amoafrqvia raJdenma da brazianad
moCiCqna miwa wina fexebiT. "olle, olle, olle" Rrialebda xalxi.
titlikana biWebs, rogorc iqna, aeSvaT frani da axla, ukan gadazneqilebi,
silaSi koWebamde Caflulebi, daZabulobisgan daseriozulebulni ekidnen
gaWimulsa da gabrwyinvebul Toks. simiviT daWimul Toks elizbarma Tvali
aayola da antoni dainaxa. xelebgaSlili tivtivebda haerSi. Turme, frani ki
ara, antoni ekavaT titlikana biWebs TokiT.
anton! gaukvirda elizbars, magram maSinve aarida Tvali, ar
dainteresda zedmetad. jer erTi, taxTan dasamTavrebeli hqonda
orTabrZola, meorec erTi, ar undoda mis qalebsac enaxaT, franiviT, caSi
molivlive antoni. magram etyoba, imaTac SeemCniaT ukve:
Camodi Zirs, Se debilo! caSi avfrinde da, iqac damaban?! dauyvira
lizikom.
eg xvalindeli saqarTveloa, ar ayveba Tqveni fexis xmas, ar gadava
mamis gzidan! SesZaxa raJdenma da gaveSebuli gamoenTo.
 elizbaric mzad daxvda, Sig dingSi ataka Subis wveri da, Seni bedi, kacis
mokvla rom ar SemiZliao uTxra tkivilisgan gamwarebulsa da
daRlilobisgan aqoSinebul taxs. "xiii i xiii i xiii i" xixinebda taxi.
"polise verso" erTxmad SesZaxa xalxma. "magitom varT, mama, am dReSi,
kacis mokvla rom ar SegviZlia" dauZaxa lizikom elizbars da
qaliSvilis gadmobirebiT gulmicemulma elizbarma kvlav mTeli ZaliT
CabRuja Subis tari da Subis momlodine, molodinisgan uaresad
gabasrebuli buniki amjerad ferdSi aZgera taxs da Subis bunikma dampali
qsoviliviT iolad gaxia nadiris xorci neknebs Soris da wvetiani wveriT
miswvda nadiris guls da nadiris guli tkivilisgan erTbaSad SeikumSa da
veRar gaiSala da Subis tars rogorc ludis boTlis yels dasvretili
qafi moulodneli, mouTokavi siswrafiT Camoewuwa cxeli, alisferi
sisxli da, erTi wamiT, yvelaferi gadawiTlda irgvliv, sunTqvaSekruli
xalxis saxeebic, orkestris brWyviala instrumentebic, titlikana gogo-
biWebic, tbis zedapirze gamwkrivebuli ialqnebic, horizontic, caSi
molivlive antonic, Tavad cac... yvelaferi... da sisxlis Sededebuli,
erTbaSad ferSecvlili nafleTebiT moifina odesRac mwvaned moxasxase da
amJamad Savad gadaCiCqnili moedani da TvalgaSeSebulma, enagadmogdebulma
taxma odnav gaaqnia cisken aSverili, gaburZgnuli fexi da samudamod
gaqvavda. "pro publio bono" SesZaxa xalxma. "mama, mama, mamiko" yviroda
ganTavisuflebuli, gabednierebuli liziko da gaSmagebuli kocnida taxis
sisxlsa da talaxSi amoTxvril mamas. mkvdari taxis garSemo titlikana
gogonebi ferxuls uvlidnen. taxis eSvebze Camavali mzis sxivi cimcimebda.
taxis sisxlis gubes didi, molurjo-momwvano buzebi exveodnen. "taxis Tavi
qvrivisaao" Tqva elizbarma sulgrZelad. "did oTaxSi daikidos, buxris
Tavzeo" gaagrZela gunebaSi. "ras ganicdiT am wuTSio" hkiTxa
qeraTmianma Jurnalistma gogonam da uzarmazari, taxis fexiviT gaburZgnuli
mikrofoni axlos miutana pirTan. "arc mamaCemia romaeli gladiatori da
arc eg iyo gareuli, bavariis WalebSi gazrdili taxi, oriveni bedkrul
saqarTvelos Svilebi ariano" CasZaxa lizikom mikrofons, mamis magivrad.
"elizbar, elizbar, eliaaaa a" yviroda eliso, magram verafriT ver
miaxloveboda elizbars, piriqiT, xalxis amoZravebul, atortmanebul zRvas
sul ukan da ukan mihqonda, iTrevda Tavis wiaRSi da male saerTod
gaqreboda elizbaris Tvalsawieridan...
SeSinebulma elizbarma Tvalebi daaWyita.
"nu geSinia, elizbar... ukve yvelaferi kargad aris... es wuTia darekes
saavadmyofodan... lizikos venebi gadauWria" facafuciT uTxra elisom da
aqviTinebuli daemxo mkerdze...
meore nawili
 jer Ramea. erTaderTi Citi ustvens mxolod. isic gaubedavad.
xangamoSvebiT. magram misi xma foladiviT mtkice, maxviliviT basri,
andazasaviT mkafio mainc Slis, mainc arRvevs wyvdiads da jiutad,
TandaTanobiT gamohyavs iqidan cvar-namiT galumpuli, moulodnelad
ganTavisuflebul patimariviT dabneuli qveyana, iseTive "uxilav da
moumzadebel", rogoric guSin am dros iyo, guSinwin, guSinwiniswin, SarSan,
qristes Sobamde, warRvnamde, adam da evamde... yovelTvis. es is maradiuli da
idumali wamia, ufro zustad ki, is RvTaebrivi, gnebavT, RvTisgan
gamorCeuli monakveTia droisa, roca erTmaneTs ukiduresad miaxlovebuli,
pirispir darCenili, bolo zRvarze Semdgari dRe da Rame, sikvdil-
sicocxle, Zveli da axali, damarcxeba da gamarjveba Tavis
garduvalobasa da ganumeoreblobas adasturebs erTsa da imave dros, erTsa
da imave adgilze, erTi da imave saSualebebiTa da erTi da imave mizniT.
yrud, saidumlod feTqavs haeri, TiTqos es wuTia, Caikarga, Caiwrita
usasrulobis ufskrulSi ocsaukunovani SeZaxili jvarcmuli Zisa "mama,
mama, wamiyvane SenTan" da TiTqos sacaa, Tavad RmerTic unda gamoCndes,
Svilis wasayvanad Camosuli dedamiwaze, xelebi daikapiwos da erTxel kidev
(marto man icis, meramdened) xelaxla Seqmnas (rasakvirvelia, Svilis
CaTvliT), rac erTxel kidev davangrieT, erTxel kidev movspeT,
gavacamtvereT guSin... mere ki, yvelaferi gacilebiT swrafad xdeba, vidre im
wuTas warmogvidgenia Cvenive sulieri Tu fizikuri mdgomareobis gamo. jer
molurjo-mowiTalo zolebiT gadaserili ca gamoeyofa wyvdiads, TiTqos
kretsabmeli gaifxriweba taZrisa, Tavidan Ziramde, da aTrToldeba haeri,
gamkvrivdeba miwa, daCndebian kldeebi, micvalebulebs erTxel kidev SeZravT
samarxebidan wamodgomis Jini da Citis nacvlad, axla ukve mTeli laSqari
aWikWikdeba, aTasnair xmaze, ufro Tamamadac, SeiZleba iTqvas, ufro
Tavxeduradac, xolo, miwaze darCenili wyvdiadi saxlebad, kvartalebad,
calkeul xeebad Tu xeebis jgufebad (koromebad) nawildeba da bolos,
veris baRis auzis kideze mucliT gadawolili antoni, marTalia, bundovnad,
magram mainc arCevs sakuTar saxes sakuTari sisxliT kidev ufro uaresad
amRvreul wyalSi...

ese igi, cocxalia!

araTu arCevs, aramed cnobs sakuTar saxes da ara marto cnobs, grZnobs
kidec, aTasnairad daiarebuls, dalilavebuls, dasiebuls... mokled,
Tbilisurad galaxuls, Tbilisuri sisastikiTa da daundoblobiT, magram,
Tqven warmoidgineT, mainc bednieria, oRond, imitom ki ara, saswaulad rom
gadaurCa sikvdils, romeliRac Ramis baris aqoTebul sapirfareSoSi,
aramed, nagvemsa da nawamebs, isev Tavis sayvarel qviSxeTSi rom hgonia Tavi
TiTqos qviSxeTs zemoT, saTibebSi wevs pirqve, moTibul balaxSi,
moTibuli balaxis suniT gabruebuli da, rac mTavaria, jer isev bavSvia,
patara biWi, jer arc lizikos icnobs da arc mamis mokvla dausaxavs
cxovrebis miznad. pirqve wevs da mSviddeba. Zroxam SeaSina es wuTia.
gzispira buCqebidan gamovida moulodnelad. ki ar gamovida, uzarmazari
Wreli RrubeliviT nela, Zaldautanebeli sizantiT gamoizlazna, erTbaSad
gaavso iqauroba uaRresad sakuTari, mxolod misTvis damaxasiaTebeli,
sasiamovnod Tbili, TiTqos xaoiani surneliT, auCqareblad gadaWra gza,
adgilze gaSeSebuli, enaCavardnili bavSvis (antonis) win da, sakuTar
surnelSi, rogorc gamWvirvale gvirabSi gamovlili, aseve auCqareblad,
nawil-nawil STainTqa, Caiwrita daburul buCqnarSi, oRond, axla ukve gzis
meore mxares...
 ase iwyeba anton kaSelis maxsovroba, igive Segnebuli cxovreba, anu,
bolomde gaucnobierebeli da marad mzardi SiSi momavlisa, balaxis
bRujasaviT (balaxSi, rac yvelaze metad giyvarT, is SegiZliaT
igulisxmoT), mis cxvirwin rom konwialobs ganuwyvetliv, magram rogorc ar
unda aevsos piri nerwyviT, ver miwvdeba da rogorc ar unda auCqaros fexs,
verasodes daeweva... Wreli Zroxa ki, ase rom gauxeTqa guli patara antons,
cxovrebis mdore, magram saxifaTo da uwyveti dinebis gansaxierebaa da sxva
araferi. Tumca, anton kaSeli jer amdens ver xvdeba (sami wlisaa mxolod),
magram oci wlis merec amouxsnel gamocanad darCeba misTvis cxovreba,
radgan yoveli axali STabeWdileba, cxovrebisgan miRebuli, kidev ufro
gaumZafrebs, rogorc SiSnarev aRfrTovanebas, iseve, misgan TiTqos yovlad
warmoudgenel danaSaulis SegrZnebasac, xolo, yvela STabeWdileba erTad,
upirveles yovlisa, sakuTar SesaZleblobebSi daaeWvebs da sakuTar
sipataraves daanaxvebs... ase rom, oci wlis mere (ese igi, axla, dRes,
amJamad), araTu Tavis adgils ver miagno antonma cxovrebaSi, aramed ver
miagno Tavad cxovrebas, sadac albaT misTvisac aucileblad iqneboda
gaTvaliswinebuli, Tundac, sul umniSvnelo adgili, rogorc, vTqvaT, mis
Tvalwin mokluli ciyvisTvis, anda misgan gadarCenili matlisTvis... arada,
mokluli ciyviviT, isic viRacis (gindac, viRaceebis) xsovnaSiRa arsebobs
mxolod da misgan gadarCenili matliviT, isic morCilad asrulebs bunebis
wess, anu, freniT amTavrebs wina sami Taobis mier xoxviT gamovlil gzas.
gana marTla pepelasaviT ar gadmofrinda weRan Ramis baris sapirfareSos
sarkmlidan?! da aq rom gdia, saTibebSi (auzis kideze), esec erTgvari frenaa,
sakuTari umweobidan, sakuTari sibinZuridan amosvlis cdaa, Tundac
warmosaxvebsa da zmanebebSi. gaWuprebuli mamidan amofrenili pepela brmad
da alalbedze awydeba gauCinarebuli, gamqrali sinamdvilis xorklian
kedlebs, gauCinarebuls, ra Tqma unda, misi mizeziTac, misi, gnebavT,
sijiutis da, gnebavT, sibrmavis wyalobiTac da, CvenSi rom vTqvaT, meti arc
moeTxoveba erT Secdomas gadayolili qveynis Svils... misma winaprebma
imdenjer dauSves erTi da igive Secdoma, imdenjer Caylapes erTi da igive
ankesi, bolos mtersac yelSi amouvida maTi sibriyve, mobezrda maTTan
kukumalaobis TamaSi da saerTod amoSala isini saTvalavidan: maTi meocnebe
mefeebis ukanalebiT gadaxexil-gadacveTili taxti uremze daudo da, vin
icis, aqamde lpeba sankt-peterburgis romeliRac wyalCamdgar sardafSi... ai,
aseT sisaZagleebs esisineboda baliSze xativiT dasvenebuli da gveliviT
brZeni wigni bavSvobaSi da isic, mTeli bavSvoba, Tavze sabanwafarebuli,
jibis fanris Suqze kiTxulobda samSoblos nekrologs, nekrologebs,
magram wesierad ver wvdeboda samSoblos sikvdilis mizezs, ver aswrebda
garkvevas, ufro sworad, erTbaSad undoda Cawvdenoda simarTles da
Cqarobda, Relavda, radgan yovel wams SeiZleboda Semosuliyo mama
(daukakuneblad) da veRar moeswro gveliviT brZeni wignis damalva baliSis
qveS. "mamaSenma ar ginaxos es wignio" gansakuTrebulad afrTxilebda
yovelTvis biblioTekari nikolozi, magram ukve tyuilad eSinia nikolozs
mamamisis: dRes diliT, ara, guSin diliT, samzareulos culiT gaupo aman
Tavi sakuTar mamas. ase Tvlis TviTon, ase sjera, Tumca, arc miliciaSi
daujeres, sadac Tavisi fexiT gamocxadda danaSaulis asaRiareblad, da arc
duqanSi, sadac gamomZiebelma waiyvana misi saboloo, samudamo
ganTavisuflebis aRsaniSnavad. yovel SemTxvevaSi, Wupridan peplis amofrena,
upirveles yovlisa, matlis sikvdilis mauwyebelia. pepela suliviT unda
amoxdes matls, am SemTxvevaSi, Svili mamas, da ase unda damTavrdes
matlis miwieri arseboba, misi matloba... magram, ratomRac, nikolozze
naklebad, arc TviTon eSinia mamisa, Tumca, mSvenivrad icis, mkvdaria, mTeli
arsebiTac grZnobs imis sikvdils, da mainc, mainc ki ara, miT ufro, da am
mourCenel SiSs rom ar ahyves, isev wignSi miZvreba, mtverSi amogangluli
matliviT miiklakneba azrisgan daclil sityvebs Soris... amam ixalTaC imeC
ad iloc izob imeC airej siloc lavx afoy arite samam uT seRd...
sisinebs baliSze xativiT dasvenebuli wigni. mama saerTod ki ar uSlida
kiTxvas, aramed giJi nikolozis daobebuli wignebis wakiTxvas ukrZalavda
kategoriulad. is ki, mainc mweralTa saxlis nestiani biblioTekidan
ezideboda "akrZalul literaturas". nikolozs ramdenjerme unda gadaexvia
gazeTSi wigni, TvalSi rom ar moxvedroda vinmes, ris gamoc, amas kidev
ufro umZafrdeboda raRacis gagebis, raRacis moswrebis survili. bolos da
bolos, is mainc xom unda scodnoda, Seesabameboda Tu ara misTvis
gankuTvnil sasjels misgan Cadenili danaSauli, romelic, madloba RmerTs,
ukve moxdili sasjelis, anu, ocdasamwliani patimrobis ukanasknel dRes,
anu, guSin Caidina. sakuTari gambedaobiT amCatebuli, ezo-ezo, mokleebze
miiswrafis kaSelebis pirquSad pompezursa Tu pompezurad pirquSi
saxlisken. erTi suli aqvs, rodis gadaSlis wigns. vnaxoT erTi, amjerad
ras etyvis wigni. axlac iq aris, mSobliur garemoSi da celis xmac ki esmis,
sasiamovno, damamSvidebeli, martivi, magram Znelad misabaZi, miT ufro, mis
dReSi myofi kacisTvis gablantebuli sisxlic ver gadmoufurTxebia, ise
aqvs tuC-piri daseril-dasiebuli misi damfrTxali, galaxuli xorci isev
brmad, isev alalbedze, isev amaod daeZebs TavSesafars, mSvelels, mxsnels,
Tumca, es wuTia, dausxlta safrTxes, erTxel kidev iSva, amjerad safrTxis
saSodan da jer kidev ucxoa aqaurobisTvis, ucxoplaneteliviT, jer kidev
uWirs sinamdvilesTan dabruneba, gancdilisa da gadatanilis gacnobiereba,
da Tavisi xelmeored dabadebisa da saboloo ganTavisuflebis pirvel dRes
pirvelad ambobs (rasakvirvelia, gunebaSi) mis leqsikonSi ukve sakmaod
gacveTilsa da gaufasurebul sityvas: "meSinia". "meSinia. meSinia. meSinia"
imeorebs zedized, viRacis jibriT, raRacnairad aRgznebul-atacebuli,
gaalmasebuli, magram mainc safrTxis naSieri, safrTxis pirmSo, safrTxis
memkvidre da safrTxis gvar-jilagis gamgrZelebeli...
 samagierod, celis xma axlovdeba, Zlierdeba damamSvidebeli,
sasiamovno, martivi da mainc Zneli misabaZi. tyuilad daitanjebi, sul
sxvanairi piris Rrua saWiro amgvari xmis gamosacemad. s da S enacvleba
erTmaneTs ganuwyvetliv... SsSsS... sSsSs... ori Tanxmovani... SsSsS... sSsSs...
verc enas imorCileb, verc tuCebs uyri Tavs. magram bednierebisgan mainc
geRimeba. auzis fskeridan, rogorc mwvaned molivlive saTibidan, TandaTan
amodian mTibavebi, jer mxrebamde, mere welamde, mere muxlamde... erTad,
erTxmad iqneven (Sens dasanaxad) mzeze alaplapebul celebs. iribad,
gverdulad, TiTqmis SeumCnevlad moiweven win (Sensken). raki mayurebeli
hyavT, ufro mondomebiT Sromoben. siamovnebT ucxo Tvali. ufro lamazad
iqneven cels, gansakuTrebulad, yvela wesis dacviTa da cota
gazviadebuladac. Tan erTmaneTs usworeben, aswavlian, dascinian
gaqalaqelebulebi, Tibvas gadaCveulebi TiTqos ki ar Sromoben,
TamaSoben; TiTqos zamTarSi pirutyvis gamosakvebad ki ar irjebian, aramed
kaSelebis erTi usaqmuri bavSvis cnobismoyvareobis dasakmayofileblad.
"piri gaisvele, bWou, mogvklavs mamaSeni" eubneba erT-erTi maTgani da
fesvianad moglejil marwyvs awvdis. TiTebi TiTqos Tixisa aqvs, sicxisagan
Tu siZvelisgan dabzaruli. marwyvis Reros ramdenime mowiTalo, alag
mkrTalad CaTeTrebuli da kenWiviT mkvrivi nayofi hkidia. samkauls ufro
hgavs, vidre xils. antoni gaubedavad cicqnis wina kbilebiT da veluri
sijansaRis mZafri gemo maSinve nerwyviT uvsebs pirs. celgamosmuli balaxi
uxmod wveba patimris TaviviT araTanabrad gadaxotril mindorze. moTibuli
balaxi celis piris moyvanilobas imeorebs TiTqos. SsSsS... sSsSs... erTi da
ori. erTi da ori. haeri Tivis suniT iJRinTeba. celgamosmuli balaxi ukve
Tivaa. Tivis suni aTrobs, abruebs da es jmuxi, CaqviTkirebuli mTibavebi
marTla miwidan amozrdili zRapruli gmirebi hgonia antons. arada, isinic
Cveulebrivad bedSemomwyrali, cxovrebisgan dabeCavebuli glexebi arian.
kidev uaresi fuZemoSlilni da glexobadakargulni... aravin da aravisni.
adgilobrivma "xazeinma" jer mamapapur fuZidan ahyara isini, viTom,
uwylobis gamo, mere ki, maTve miayvanina wyali Zvel nafuZvarze, oRond,
xiznebisTvis, sxva tomis xalxisTvis. antons ki ar arToben, rogorc antons
hgonia, antonis gasagonad laparakoben TavianT umweobaze, usaxsrobaze,
TavianT saerTo ubedurebaze glexuri eSmakobiT iqneb, aman mainc
gviSvelos rameo, Tumca, Tavadac ar jeraT, marTla Tu arsebobs maTTvis
saSveli. amitomac gamoiyurebian ufro xnierebad, vidre arian. esec
cxovrebis bralia (Wreli Zroxisa), gaunelebeli sevdisa, daumsaxurebeli
damcirebisa, Cauwynarebeli tkivilisa, CaxSuli mrisxanebisa... cxovrebam
(Wrelma Zroxam) daimonaT da isinic morCilad, wynarad misdeven cxovrebis
wess... SsSsS... sSsSs... SsSsS... sSsSs... Cumad, mSvidad, wynarad. viTomc araferi
xdebodes saSiSi da saxifaTo. viTomc, miwaze daRvrili zeTiviT Tu
mazuTiviT, nela, TavisTavad, niangis moTminebiT, magram jiutad ar
mococavdes, ar mosrialebdes ucxo Tesli maTgan danatovari sicarielis
amosavsebad. itboreba maTi fexdanadgami, xelSenavlebi Robe-yore... cotac
da, saerTod waiSleba maTi kvali, viTomc ar yofilan. arc es saTibebi
yofila. arc antoni moazrovne, mgrZnobiare, meocnebe arseba warsuliT
gulmokluli, awmyoTi gabiTurebuli, momavliT damfrTxali... Wreli Zroxa
ki, dinjad, auCqareblad mouyveba Tavis maradiul gzas, "glexis fiqriviT
uboloos"... misTvis dro ar arsebobs. xamurabisa da asurbanifalis
boslebSic ucoxnia gulgamompali Cala, tutanxamonis qelexSic dauklavT.
misi yviTeli, qafiani nerwyviTaa morwyuli evraziis, amerikis, afrikisa Tu
avstraliis Tvaluwvdeneli vel-mindvrebi: stepebi, preriebi, savanebi... misi
rZiT gamozrdili Taobebi, ukve aTasnair mineralebad gardaqmnilni, fena-
fena wvanan dedamiwis wiaRSi, rogorc Tevzebi konservis yuTSi, da dRemde
erTnairi mRelvarebiT, erTnairi mouTmenlobiT elodebian saZovridan mis
mobrunebas asakisgan nikapdanaoWebuli, droJamis RumelTan warb-wamwam
Setrusuli dedabrebi TeTrkanianebic, Savkanianebic, yviTelkanianebic,
wiTelkanianebic da isic yovelTvis brundeba, flateze gadaiCexeba Tu
mglebi daglejen, mainc brundeba, mainc modis, viTomc araferi momxdariyos,
modis mkvdreTiT aRmsdgari, ufro sworad, ukvdavi; mis sakmaod uSnosa da
mouxeSav sxeulSi maradiuli mdedri, maradiuli qaluroba imaleba, rogorc
cecxlgamZle yuTSi ukvdavebis wamlis, anda sicocxlis erTbaSad
momspobi sawamlavis formula. modis, mSvidad, auCqareblad... verc teqnikur
revoluciebs SeuZlia misi Seyovneba, verc atomur fsiqozsa da verc
seqsualur TavaSvebulobas... araferi esaqmeba imaTTan, arc araferi gaegeba
imaTi. modis, jansaRi, bunebrivi, ukompleqso... modis, raTa Sinidan pirvelad
gamoparuli bavSvi erTi wamiT Seayovnos da daafiqros mosalodnel
safrTxeze. mTeli dRis naZovi balaxiT mucelgatiknuli, simaZRrisgan
axvneSebuli, modis, momlodine dedabrebis dasamSvideblad, erTxel da
samudamod gamozomili nabijiT mouyveba dedamiwis nebismier wertilze
gamaval gzas da arc ainteresebs visTvis reks zari, visTvis unda amoxdes
mze... rasakvirvelia, es wuTia misgan SeSinebuli biWis vinaobac ar
ainteresebs, matlia Tu matlis pepela, gvaris gamgrZelebeli Tu gvaris
mesaflave... bevri aseTi biWis maxsovrobaSi CarCenila samudamod, RmerTis
vnebis damacxrobeli da RmerTqalis simSvidis damrRvevi, RmerTqalis
metoqe, Tumca, rogorc ukve iTqva, misTvis sulerTia yvelaferi, ginda
RmerTi, ginda viRac Wkuasusti mwyemsi... modis, moabuybuyebs STambeWdavad
gaberil mucels, mSvidad fSvinavs da mSvidad zmuis, sakuTari simSvidiT
gakvirvebuli, Tuki SeiZleba rame ukvirdes Zroxas... funaSemxmari kudis
bolos ferdebze itylaSunebs da, rom ityvian, Tavi qudSi aqvs. misi Semyure
kacobrioba welebze fexs daidgams da zafxulSi balaxs ar moaklebs,
zamTarSi Tivas. yovel zafxuls mTeli dedamiwa iTibeba misi gulisTvis.
SsSsS... sSsSs... SsSsS... sSsSs... kidiT kidemde wvdeba celis xma, axal da
axal sivrceebs ipyrobs klasikuri musikis Tavaziani mourideblobiTa da
mouTokavi silaRiT... modis, moClaxunobs, sakuTari gamZleobiT Sewuxebuli,
Tuki SeiZleba rame awuxebdes, RmerTqalis miqseuli buzanklis meti. modis,
modis, mojadoebul wreSi moqceuli, wris binadari, sadac erTsa da imave
Rames erTi da igive dila enacvleba, landSafts landSafti, epoqas
epoqa, usasrulod, ganuwyvetliv, da sadac yvelaferi kvdeba, rac ibadeba da
yvelaferi ibadeba, rac kvdeba...
 gaSlili xelisguli gametebiT dahkra wylis zedapirs da uxilavi
Sxefebi saxeze miesxura. maSinve meore xelic miaSvela. esiamovna auzis
damyayebuli, dubela wyali. "ratom aiyareniT? ratom mamaCems ar gauCeCqveT
Tavi? me melodebodiT, me Tqveni deda..." uyviris, aginebs gunebaSi
mTibavebs da svel xels, uneburad, damskdar, dasiebul tuCebze idebs. "nu
aiyrebodi, Tu biWi xar..." pasuxoben mTibavebi auzis fskeridan, kidev
ufro sasacilod dajujavebulni, dabrecilni, atortmanebulni adgilze.
mere ukvalod qrebian. "Tqveni dedac... aginebT gunebaSi Rirsni ara
xarT gadarCenisa... iqneb ver movklavdi mamas, haa?!" gunebaSi uwevs xmas da
isev damskdar tuCebze ifarebs xels. TviTon arafris aRar eSinia. TviTon
ukve Tavisufalia. guSindlidan. imitom rom, gabeda. guSin moixada
ocdasamwliani sasjeli mamis mkvlelobisTvis. oRond, jer sasjeli moixada
da mere Caidina danaSauli. anu, guSin mokla mama. Tumca, arc isaa
gamoricxuli, sakuTari mamis mkvlelobisTvis, aseve, winaswar
daejildovebinaT ocdasamwliani sicocxliT. magram is ocdasami weli,
jildoa Tu sasjeli, mogonilia dRevandelTan, Tavisuflebis pirvel
dResTan, radgan arc danaSaulisTvis gankuTvnili sasjelisa Tu jildos
atana gasWirvebia ase da arc danaSaulis Cadena. Tavisuflebis mZafrma
SegrZnebam nanatri Sveba ki ar moutana, sasicocxlod ki ar aRagzno,
erTbaSad daaWylita miwas, matliviT; Rirsebis grZnobac daakargvina da
siamayec; gaapirutyva, gaamxeca da saerTod daukarga azri mis amqveyniur
arsebobas, anu, sulerTi gaxada misTvis, rodis ras moimoqmedebda bnel
survilsa da moTxovnilebas ayolili. ase rom, arc Tixis tafaze (kecze)
moTuTqul sokos hqonda misTvis gemo (ocdasamwlian patimrobasTan
gamosaTxovar sufraze mirTmeuls), arc xbos Caqafuls. rogorc
mosalodneli iyo, dedis rZec ar SerCenia mTeli sufra rwyeva-rwyevaSi
gaatara ki fiqrobda, wyaliviT vsvam am Rvinos, srulebiT ar mekidebao,
magram aivanze gamosvlas Zlivs aswrebda da moajirze gadakiduli, RmuiliT
arwyevda... duqnis garyvnili ZaRlebi facafuciT Tqvlefdnen narwyevs da
Tavaweulni, mliqvnelurad awkmutunebulni amoscqerodnen qvemodan. sadRac
bayayebi yiyinebdnen. "ra Tqma unda, qviSxeTSi varo", fiqrobda es
sulelurad. sxvaTaSoris, Wotmac Sehyvira ramdenjerme. qviSxeTis garda,
arsad gaugia Wotis xma. mere moajirs mamali daafrinda mis gverdiT da
cxeniviT daiWixvina. Tumca, ara. cxeniviT daiWixvina SarvalCaxdilma kacma
da samzareulos kedelTan wakuzul gogos SiSvel gavaze gametebiT dahkra
xeli. "dagimiwdes marjvenao", miawyevla wakuzulma gogom da amas ena
gamouyo, zustad lizikosaviT. maSin liziko eqvsisac Zlivs iqneboda,
fexSiSveli modioda qviSxeTis sadguridan da fexsacmelebs mkvdari
CitebiviT moaporwialebda haerSi, magram antonisgan mainc uweso saqcielia
zedmeti cnobismoyvareobis gamomJRavneba, miT ufro rom, lizikoca da misi
mSoblebic namdvilad ver iyvnen kargi sanaxavebi, vagonis buRSi
gamoxarSulebi, Zlivs moaTrevdnen fexebs. im wels pirvelad Camovidnen
qviSxeTSi dasasveneblad, antonisTvis ki, araviTar siaxles ar warmoadgenda
Tbiliseli damsveneblebi, magram, ratomRac, verafriT ver mowyvita Tvali
mSoblebis win yoCiviT momaval fexSiSvela gogos da iqamde uyura, vidre
ena ar gamouyo iman, savsebiT samarTlianad. lizikos dedas (deida elisos)
erT xelSi sakmaod mZime CanTa eWira (xelzec etyoboda), meoreSi ki
gauxsneli qolga, Tumca, mze daundoblad acxunebda. mTavari bargi mamas
(Zia elizbars) mohqonda: ori Cemodani da iRliaSi amodebuli gamaki. Tavze
kideebgamonaskvuli cxvirsaxoci Camoefxata, magram aSkarad ar eteoda..
dawiTlebul saxeze oflis msxvili wveTebi eyara. "rogor iqcevio"
gauwyra Svils da misi uwesoba rom mieCqmala, zrdilobisTvis hkiTxa
antons: xom sworad mivdivarT, ymawvilo, mwerlebis saxliskeno. xolo,
samzareulos kedelTan wakuzuli gogo erTi xeliT kedels ebjineboda,
meoreTi ki sakuTar muxls da sasacilod kisermoRrecili uyofda amas enas.
ezos naTuris mbJutav Suqze qonwasmuliviT ubzinavda SiSveli gava. naTuras
gagiJebuli peplebi exveodnen. TeTrCaCianma mzareulma qaTmis aqoTebuli
Sigani taStiT gamoitana da iqve, wakuzuli gogos cxvirwin dayara
kedelTan. ZaRlebi axla Sigans miesivnen. gawel-gamoweles binZuri nawlavebi
da Tavfexianad gaixlarTnen Sig, erTmaneTze aRrenilni. SarvalCaxdilma
kacma vaSlisa Tu qliavis xes foToli Seawyvita da wakuzul gogos SeurWo
ukanalSi. ufro sworad, ver SeurWo foTols yunwi ebriceboda da
arafriT ar erWoboda, sadac ZaliT upirebdnen SerWobas. amaze orives
ecineboda, Tan xiTxiTebdnen, Tan erTmaneTs uwyrebodnen viTom, ra ambavSi
xaro, nu aikeli aqaurobao, vera xedav, xalxi pursa Wamso... antonma Tvalebi
daxuWa da isev Tavbru daesxa, isev daubzrialda bneli, gaurkveveli qveyana...
"age ciyvio" daiZaxa Zia elizbarma. es maTi morigi eqskursiaa, "morigi
SeWra bunebis wiaRSi", rogorc Zia elizbari ambobs. wiTlad gaburZgnul
ciyvs mwvane girCa uWiravs wina TaTebiT da Tavadac dainteresebuli
dascqeris zemodan. yovel SemTxvevaSi, namdvilad ar eSinia maTi. Tumca,
eSmakma icis, ras xedavs, rad aRiqvams imas, rasac xedavs: WianWvelebad?
xoWoebad? matlebad? "ra xdeba mand, poetebis saufloSio" ekiTxeba Zia
elizbari. bavSvebi icinian. antonic. Tumca, ver xvdeba, ras gulisxmobs Zia
elizbari "poetebis saufloSi", an ras xedaven bavSvebi sasacilos am
sityvebSi. ubralod, karg gunebaze arian yvelani. erTad arian, mSoblebisgan
Sors (elizbari ar iTvleba, ufro megobaria, vidre mSobeli. Tanac,
iSviaTad, mxolod SabaT-kviras Camodis aq), saimedod Cakargulni bunebis
wiaRSi. lizikos biWurad SeukreWia Tma da muxlebTan gadaWrili, jinsis
Sarvali acvia. yvelaferi mziTaa gabrwyinvebuli: foTolic, balaxis
TavTavic, fiWvze mimxmari WriWinebis gamWvirvale gvamebic... yvelaferi
brunavs, bzrialebs: aSoltili, alisfrad alanZuli fiWvis xeebic,
gadakrialebul caze aqa-iq SerCenili Rrublis fTilebic da, TavisTavad
cxadia, ciyvic, fiWvis drekad Stoebze daskupebuli, gamomwvevad
kudaprexili, TojinasaviT TvalgaSeSebuli... bzrialebs, bzrialebs,
bzrialebs, TiTqos karuselis ciyvia, saTamaSo... magram am dros, avad
galursuli buCqnari gaipoba da iqidan yiJiniT gamocvivdebian
SubebSemarTuli, titlikana, muceldasiebuli, wyalmankiani, egzemiT
SeWmuli, kbilebCampali velurebi, kaciWamiebi, oRond, dRevandeli,
ocsaukunovani civilizaciis naSierni... etyoba, deda-Svili arian. raRaciT
gvanan erTmaneTs. raRaciT ki ara, yvelafriT. Tumca, qals lurji sportuli
piJamo da TeTri botasebi acvia, biWs ki warweriani maisuri da Sortebi.
ra Tqma unda, botasebic, oRond, feradi. qals xelSi haeris Tofi uWiravs,
biWs ki araferi, arc haeris Tofi, arc Cveulebrivi "ragatka" da, miT
ufro, arc Subi... saxeze saymawvilo muwukebi ayria. antonze ufrosia albaT,
magram jer kaci ar eTqmis. saerTod ar eTqmis kaci, arc adamiani... antons
lamis guli amouxtes saguledan, visac gindaT daeniZlaveba, Tavs dasdebs,
es Tu is barmeni ar aris, boTli rom daamsxvria weRan kbilebze, didi-didi,
am erTi saaTis win, Ramis baris sapirfareSoSi. "gicani Se dampaloo"...
rogorc iqna, amoixriala antonma da isev daxuWa Tvalebi. qalma Tofi
mxarze miibjina da sxartad gamohkra TiTi sasxlets. tyviam SxuiliT
gafxriwa haeri da Tvalgadmovardnili ciyvi sacodavad afarTxalda
gasisxlianebul balaxSi. "gicani Se arakaco... Seni deda... Seni gvar-
jilagio..." Rmuis, gminavs auzis kideze gadamxobili antoni. ciyvs Tvalis
adgilze veeberTela lorwovani buSti gamoebera. buStSi, rogorc mrgval
sarkeSi, TeTrCaCianma mzareulma gaiara, sasacilod gadasxvaferebulma.
qalma elviseburi, albaT ufro katiseburi simardiT mougrixa ciyvs kiseri,
celofanis parkSi Catena, albaT jer kidev cocxali, da parki
saxedamuwukebul Svils Caudo ubeSi. Zia elizbarma rom iyvira, ras
sCadixarT, es xom uwyinari arsebaao, kvalic gaqra imaTi. ciyvis sisxliT
dauSnovebuli balaxi rom ara, SeiZleba efiqraT, yvelas erTdroulad
mogvelanda es Semzaravi mkvlelobao. "ras sCadixarT, matlebo...
mkvlelebo"... axla yviris antoni da verafriT mouSorebia nikapze
Camowuwuli sqeli, webovani dorbli. yeli ewvis, uxurs, buxris miliviT.
xelebi sakuTar narwyevSi aqvs amoTxvrili. ezos onkanSi ki, wyali ar modis.
Smoris suni moaqvs iqidan niavs. SsSsS... sSsSs... SsSsS... sSsSs... amSvidebs
celis xma da isic mSvidad icdis, rodis gamoutans gogo wyals didi,
gamuruli CaidniT. "mama ki ara, coli unda mogekla, qalia yovelTvis
damnaSaveo" eubneba gogo da Tan saxesa da xelebs ulokavs eniT. amas
gogosi rcxvenia, sircxvilisgan fxizldeba da gogoc maSinve qreba Tavis
Caidnianad. samagierod, duqnis garyvnili ZaRlebi Semoscqerian wyliani,
sevdiani TvalebiT da esec iZulebulia, isev sufraze dabrundes. sufrac
yovelTvis aRtacebis SeZaxilebiT egebeba mis dabrunebas da yvelaferi
Tavidan meordeba. isev ajarimeben "sufris unebarTvod mitovebisTvis" da
amasac isev uCndeba kidev erTi "Tavisufali" sadRegrZelos warmoTqmis
survili. "mousmineT, mousmineT... iqneb rame Sevides Tqvens gogrebSi"
yviris Tamada da Rvinis grafinze akakunebs CangliT. "ara ars esreT tkbili,
viT mamulis siyvaruli" ambobs es xmaaTrTolebuli. cdilobs, kidev
ufro ukeTesad, ufro STambeWdavad Tqvas, vidre aqamde uTqvams. siamovnebs
misken mipyrobili, uazro, gamocarielebuli, magram molodinad qceuli
Tvalebi masze aranakleb mTvrali, oRond, misgan gansxvavebiT, am saqmeSi
ukve daostatebuli, kuWebamokupruli Tanameinaxeebisa. sufra
sunTqvaSekruli, anu, axvneSebul-aqsutunebuli usmens. magram moaTavebs Tu
ara sadRegrZelos, miiyudebs Tu ara verag Wiqas, sufrac maSinve bazariviT
ayayandeba, skasaviT azuzundeba, naxiriviT azmuvldeba... aRarc Tamadis
Canglis wkriali esmiT, aRarc erTmaneTisa. viTom, erTad sjian, erTad
arCeven axlaxan mosmenil sadRegrZelos, sinamdvileSi ki, laparaks ar
aclian, sityvas piridan glejen erTmaneTs, wewaven, welaven da rogorc
duqnis ZaRlebi qaTmis nawlavebSi, Tavfexianad ixlarTebian am mTvrali
debilis nabodvarSi, am crupentelas gamonagonSi... ratom ar dgas, viTom,
Tavis adgilas?! me piradad, Zalian momwons, Zmao... gansakuTrebiT cxeni.
cxeni yovelTvis cxens gavs, vinc ar unda ijdes zed. gagigiaT, vinmes
ekiTxos cxenze, ra cxoveliao?! mxedars ki kiTxuloben. marTlac, vin ra
icis, sinamdvileSi rogor gamoiyureboda esa Tu is istoriuli pirovneba.
arsebobs netav suraTi?! amas ecodineba. yvelaferi ician am nabiWvrebma. ise,
swori Tqva, Zmao, visac emsaxura, iman saflavi aufeTqa, Cven ki, sxvisTvis
mkvdari, isev cxenze SevsviT da isev xmali davaWerineT xelSi. eg arc
aRamahmadxanis gamCerebelia, arc orjonikiZisa, meti ar iyos Cemi mteri.
weRan, aqeT ro movdiodiT, mtredi ejda xmalze. cxenze amxedrebuli da
xmalSemarTuli ki ar unda idges krwanisSi, sadac, sul cota, orjer ukve
gvetira deda, aramed daCoqili, CamofleTil-Camoxeuli,
epoletebamZvrali, xmalgadatexili, usmel-uWmeli, kibosaviT ukusvliT
Zlivs CamoRweuli borodinodan krwanisamde... aseTia, Zmao, sinamdvile, ginda
Zveli iyavi, ginda axali, ginda mrgvali, ginda grZeli... am biWs ras erCiT?!
"me rac vicodi, vTqvi" Tavmdablurad iRimeba es, friad kmayofili
sakuTari TaviT, ufro sworad, ocdasamwliani patimrisTvis yovlad
Seuferebeli siTamamiTa da gulwrfelobiT. ai, amazea naTqvami, Txa da
mgeli erTad Zovdeso. imis magivrad, TmiT eTriaT, kbilebi CaemtvriaT,
TiTebi karis RriWoSi moewewkaT (risi ostatebic arian), qalaqis yvelaze
cnobil duqanSi sufra gauSales Cveulebriv mkvlels, Tundac,
araCveulebriv TviTmarqvias. gindac mogiklavs da gindac mokvla gdomebia.
SeiZleba, avma enebma isic ki Tqvan, mainc verafers gamorCeboda
marTlmsajuleba verc "dazaralebuls" da verc "eWvmitanilso", radgan, sxva
Tu araferi, oriveni kaSelebi arian, mama-Svili, da araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar
gadaixdian fuls imis misaCqmalad, rac fulis meSveobiT da, ufro metic,
fulis gulisTvis ar CaudeniaT, Tuki, marTla Caidines rame. xolo,
"eWvianobis niadagze" Svili mamas Tavs rom gaupobs, iq marTlmsajulebas
namdvilad araferi esaqmeba. amgvar "ojaxur mkvlelobas" yvelafris suni
SeiZleba asdiodes, samsaxuris dakargvisac, zemdgomi amxanagebis
gadakidebisac, fulisa ki ara. araviTar SemTxvevaSi. erTaderTi, rasac am
saqmidan SeiZleba gamorCes kaci (da es iTqva kidec sufraze,
araorazrovnad), "axleburad moazrovne" muSakis saxelia, rac TavisTavad
cota ar aris ("visac moxmara SeuZliao" sityva CaurTo Tamadam), miT
ufro, ortraka xelisuflebis TvalSi, dRes rom uaryofs guSindels, raTa
pasuxi xval mokiTxos dRevandels guSinwindelisTvis. magram swored
xelisuflebis ortrakobis gamo, Tamadis ar iyos, "naklebad rentabeluria"
es Tqveni axleburad azrovneba. eSmakma icis, rodemde mogiwoneben
"demokratiulobas" da ra dros mogTxoven pasuxs imave
"demokratiulobisTvis" (sxvebs dauyaron eg sakenki). marTlac, jer kidev
guSin, raJden kaSelisTana kacis mkvlelobisTvis, daxvreta Tu ara,
xangrZlivi (anu, uvado) gacimbireba namdvilad ar ascdeboda mkvlels,
gindac Svils; demokratiis gariJraJze ki, mkvleli, Tanac Svili,
daSxoSianad aqeifes kanonis cerberebma; magram imitom ki ara, kaci rom
gaufasurda, rogorc sufris erT-erTma busTvaleba wevrma Tqva, aramed,
gvami rom dafasda, kacis kvla fulis Sovnis wyarod da cxovrebis wesad
iqca, rogorc gamomZiebels miaCnia. marTlac, aba miixed-moixedeT garSemo,
ra xdeba: gvamic iseve iyideba, rogorc Zexvi, fanta anda prezervativi... Tu
fuli gaqvs da ar genaneba, leninis gvams gamogitanen mavzoleumidan.
samaCablosa da afxazeTSi xom cecxli ukidia kacis xorcs. fasi ki, mainc
dRiTi-dRe izrdeba. Wirisufali iZulebulia, nawil-nawil SeiZinos misTvis
Zvirfasi gvami. zog micvalebuls orive marjvena, an orive marcxena fexi
aRmoaCndeba xolme, magram es ra saxsenebelia im tanjva-wamebasTan, risi
gadatanac dasWirdaT, adamianuri wesiT rom miebarebinaT miwisTvis TavianTi
axloblis aTasnairad najijgni cxedari. magram yvelaze swori mainc
Tamadaa. aravin ar icis, ra iTvleba dRes danaSaulad da ra
damsaxurebad. ai, borotebis saTavec. vidre es ar gairkveva, veranairi
organo ver Seasrulebs Tavis daniSnulebas, tyuilad ifafxurebs, raki ar
ecodineba, vis CamouRos kbilebi da vis "auRos Cesti". jerjerobiT, arc
msajuli arsebobs da arc gansasjeli. Tu arsebobs, orive erT
Zirgaxvretil, uniCbo da uialqno navSi zis da cxovrebisgan wamxdari,
morCilad mihyveba dinebas. ar icis, romel meCeCze gairiyeba xval, anu,
axals moigoneben rames, Tu Zveli dabrundeba isev. amitom, Tuki raime
ainteresebs saerTod, seqsualuri bataliebi ainteresebs mxolod, magram
naklebad aRelvebs Semdgomi bedi am bataliebis monawileTa, Tumca, isini
(monawileni), kvlavac antikuri simSvidiTa da siamayiTac ki, elodebian
misgan Serisxvasac da, sulo codvilo, TanagrZnobasac. magram arc qvas
esvriT vinme, arc yvavils. yvela sakuTar siavkargeSi dgas yelamde,
sxvebisTvis ar scalia, da arc apirebs iqidan amosvlas, vidre qveyana isev
qveyanas ar daemsgavseba ("iqamde ar agidgeT gverdebio" gaicina
busTvalebam). "me miRalates Zvelma riTmebma, Zvel megobrebsac me vamCnev
Ralats" ambobs es mRelvared, grZnobas ayolili. orive xeliT uWiravs
acaxcaxebuli Wiqa. "araferia Ralatze amazrzeni" amatebs zizRnarevi
RimiliT saxedamanWuli. Wiqas sulmouTqmelad clis da yvelis naWers iRebs
TefSidan. odnav cicqnis wina kbilebiT, gaubedavad, TiTqos gaurecxavi
marwyvi moerTmioT misTvis mTibavebs. dauReWav lukmas SeumCnevlad iRebs
piridan da TefSis qveS malavs. mainc msubuqad, mainc xalisianad grZnobs
Tavs. erT rameze wydeba mxolod guli: misi simamri, Zia elizbari rom ar
usmens mis sadRegrZeloebs da ar uyurebs mis triumfalur svlas
Tavisuflebis Saragzaze... gunebaSi ecineba Zia elizbaris saxis
warmodgenaze. SiSisagan, SeiZleba infarqti daemarTos. rac Tavi axsovs,
erTsa da imaves umeorebs, afrTxilebs "mamaSvilurad" (sinamdvileSi
aSinebs), nurasodes nu irwmuneb, bolos da bolos, dadga simarTlis droo...
arada, dadga! amgvari dro saerTod ar arsebobs bunebaSio... arsebobs! vidre
xar, amgvari droc arsebobs. bolo amosunTqvamde gaqvs simarTlis Tqmis
Sansi. msgavsic araferi axsovs arcerT astronomiul kalendarso... aseTia
misi azri. antoni ki bednieria... bednieria, Zala rom eyo imis Casadenad, rac
Caidina, Tundac, imis saTqmelad, rasac meore dRea laparakobs... uangarod
da sxvaTa karnaxis gareSe, rac, pirvel rigSi, baton gamomZiebels ar sjera.
magram xom ar SeiZleba, sul raRacis gamorCenis Jini dagarbeninebdes win da
ukan, anda, kidev uaresi, sul viRacis uxilavi xeli warmarTavdes Sens
sulsa da gonebas?! ara, batonebo, ase cxovreba aRar SeiZleba. ukan dasaxevi
gza ar arsebobs. win, win, mxolod win, Tundac sikvdilisken. diax, rac iyo
da aris, imas sikvdili sjobs. nurc SeicxadebT, nurc gaicinebT. antoni
srul Wkuazea da araviTar fsiqoTerapias ar saWiroebs, araviTar
Zaldatanebas ar ganicdis arc garedan (ese igi, sufridan) da arc Signidan
(ese igi, sindisidan). saerTod usvindisoa. arafers nanobs. ufro sworad,
nanobs, rac ar Caudenia da ocnebobs Cadenilze. amitomacaa, amayad rom
aRiarebs: me movkali mamaCemio, da vidre ar daujereben, usasrulod
gaimeorebs igives, Tanac, nebismier enaze, nebismier kilokavze, nebismier
Jargonze, ase vTqvaT, nebismieri qveenis meSveobiT, quCuri iqneba Tu qajuri,
masmediuri Tu marTlmsajuluri... am SemTxvevaSi, albaT, marTlmsajuluri
yvelaze upriania. amiT, ra Tqma unda, saqmis arsi ar Seicvleba, magram ufro
gasagebi da xelmisawvdomi gaxdeba yvelasTvis, anu, yovelgvari damatebiTi
axsna-ganmartebis gareSec, rogorc iuridiuli sazogadoebis, iseve
borotmomqmedTa samyaros nebismieri warmomadgenlisTvis cxadi Seiqneba,
rom eWvmitanilma a. k-ma, ama wlis 25 seqtembers, dRis 11 saaTsa da 27 wuTze,
adgilobrivi droiT, gamovida ra mamis, r. kis kuTvnili binidan da
moZraoba daiwyo ra iv. javaxiSvilis saxelobis saxelmwifo universitetis
pirveli korpusis mimarTulebiT (misamarTze i. WavWavaZis pr. 1), iq moxvedris
mizniT, universitetamde ar misulma sruliad SemTxveviT daafiqsira, rom
misi safule "bumaJniki" zomiT 10 sm. 12-sm-ze, ar imyofeboda misTvis
gankuTvnil adgilze, ese igi, Sarvlis ukana marjvena jibeSi, ris
safuZvelzec eWvmitanilma a. k-ma saswrafod gaakeTa gadawyvetilebis miReba,
dabrunebuliyo Sin, ukacravad, saxlSi, da Savi xelovnuri tyavis safule
"bumaJniki" romelSic eWvmitanili a. k-is ukanaskneli monacemebiT,
moTavsebuli iyo 6 000 qarTuli kuponi, daebrunebina Tavis kanonier
adgilze, anu, Sarvlis ukana marjvena jibeSi, rac ojaxSi Seqmnili
gauTvaliswinebeli situaciis gamo, ar moxerxda... Tumca, is ufro
sainteresoa albaT, safulis asaRebad Sin mibrunebulma antonma,
samzareulos karis SeRebamdec rom icoda "mamisa da colis erotiuli
TanamSromlobis" Taobaze. magram romelman sityvam itvirTos, rac Tvalman
misman ixila da yurman misman moismina... Sen TviTon warmoidgineo
eubnebian, umtkiceben jiutad da davuSvaT, marTla TviTon warmoidgina.
ese igi, safuZvelic hqonda, ara?! mTavari ki, safuZvelia da ara nairsaxeoba
garyvnilebisa. Sen ra, esec ici? eg yvela gogom icis. mamamTili uknidan rom
mogepareba da mxrebze xelebs Camogawyobs, zrdilobisTvis mainc ar unda
hkiTxo, rame xom ar geSlebaTo, Tuki miCveuli ar xar mamamTilis amgvar
celqobebs?! aseTia antonis reziume, gnebavT, miseuli interpretacia am
saojaxo romanisa da arc Tavs iwonebs, arc Tavs isawylebs. ubralod,
masmediurad faqts afiqsirebs, marTlmsajulurad danaSaulis Sefasebas
akeTebs, qajurad tyemalze zis da quCurad Radaobs... mokled, meti
rom ar vTqvaT (antonisTvis esec sakmarisia), bolo samocdaaTi wlis
ganmavlobaSi, ZaRlmac da mamaZaRlmac yvelaferi ikisra, yvelaferi Caidina,
raTa maincdamainc amas, anton kaSels, swored 25 seqtembers, zustad dRis 11
saaTsa da 47 wuTze, samzareulos culi aeRo xelSi da fexebze daekida ara
marto mamis sicocxle, aramed mTeli kacobrioba, samyaro, mzis sistema,
Tanavarskvlavedi... rasakvirvelia, patara, sabralo samSoblos CaTvliT,
romelic isedac mkvdaria misTvis, Tundac, sasikvdilod gadadebuli, ukve
gvamis sundakruli... yovel SemTxvevaSi, aseTi samSoblo ixila man
nikolozis daobebul wignebSi... mTeli bavSvoba, im wignebidan amokiTxuli
ambebi dastrialebdnen Tavs, rogorc leSis moziares, leSidan wamofrenili
svavebi. sisxliani frTebiT scemdnen da sisxliani niskartebiT kortnidnen...
is ki mainc wignSi miZvreboda, wignis TvalCauwvdenel siRrmeebSi, sadac
nebismier saocrebas SeiZleba gadaeyaros kaci, sakuTari dabadebisa da
sakuTari dakrZalvis CaTvliT. wigni narkotikia. magram Tuki bebiamiss
warsulis dasaviwyeblad Wirdeboda narkotiki, is swored warsulSi
SeRwevas cdilobda wignis meSveobiT, Tundac, samSoblos naadrevi
sikvdilis mizezis dasadgenad... "amas mgoni miRebuli aqvs, xoici" gaicina
busTvalebam. "samSoblos sadRegrZeloa, viriSvilebo, daacadeT" gaicina
Tamadamac. "es qveyana yvelas gveyofa" Semrigeblurad icinis busTvaleba.
"me Cemi wili samSoblo raxania vixmare" Taviseburad oxunjobs sufris
kidev erTi wevri, arafriT gamorCeuli, Znelad dasamaxsovrebeli, ubralod,
sufris wevri kargi msmeli, kargi mWameli da oxunjobis moyvaruli,
TanamemamuleTa umravlesobis msgavsad. ki, batono! vixumroT, gavZarcvoT,
gavyidoT... Cven ki davgazoT ucxoeTSi... ki batono! yvela ise cxovrobs,
rogorc SeuZlia da ara ise, rogorc surs. sisuste amarTlebs siglaxes,
siglaxe amarTlebs tyuils. antonis peperam, "godris kacad" wodebulma,
arabebisgan ki ar gaanTavisufla Tbilisi, daviTiviT, aramed
Tbiliselebisgan. xolo, misi Svili (antonis babua, Tavadac antoni),
samSoblos mtrebis nacvlad, samSoblos erTgul Svilebs xvretda sukis
sardafebSi... imaTi xeliT daxocilTa gvamebis suni tanjavs antons gaCenis
dRidan... im gvamebis mumli exveva, magram ver uTqvams, miukib-moukibavad,
erideba mumlisa... aTas sisuleles igonebs... ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe...
"magrad gautia, ai" gadaxeda Tamadam gamomZiebels. "acale" mokled
mouWra gamomZiebelma. gvamis sunSia gazrdili, am suniTaa gaJRenTili yvela
misi fiqri, sizmari Tu ocneba... es suni ar aZlevda nebas, isic Cveulebrivi
bavSvi yofiliyo, tolamxanagebis msgavsad, imasac araferi scodnoda
qveynisa da marto imaze ezruna, Tu rogor Caegdo xelSi axali kaseta,
amerikuli sigareti, gasaberi kevi Tu warweriani maisuri... anu, yofiliyo is,
rac unda yofiliyo, rasac skola da ojaxi moiTxovda misgan mSobelze
uaresi da, roca dro mouvidoda, Svilze ukeTesi. es aris da es mTeli
sabWoTa ideologiuri kompoti... imas ki, mainc warsulisken gaurboda Tvali.
simarTle kvercxs warsulSi debs, rogorc ku silaSi, magram simarTlis
kvercxi TavisTavad ar iCekeba, viRacas unda Wirdebodes, viRacam unda
moiZios, Tundac misi nawili, sul umniSvnelo namceci mainc... axlac iqidan
brundeba, warsulidan, prozeqturidan, da axali gamokvlevis Zveli
monacemebi udevs jibeSi. misi samSoblo ki ar mokvda, naadrevad Tu udrood,
aramed mokles da kvalis mosaspobad, wignis SaxtSi Caagdes. iq gdia,
fskerze, dasaxiCrebuli, mravalgzis naRalatevi da yvelasgan erTnairad
ganwiruli, ori mefis, oTxi mTavris, erTi aTabagisa da uTvalavi Tavad-
aznauris ukudo ampartavnobas gadayolili, maT sixarbes ver gawvdenili...
"Tqven mokaliT, axalgazrdebma" burdRunebs kidev erTi Cveulebrivi,
arafriT gamorCeuli sufris wevri. "ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe" ambobs
es, magram lizikosgan gansxvavebiT, sufris kidev erTi wevri mSvidad ismens
am uazrobasac. lizikom ki, ara marto saxe, Wkuac dakarga erTbaSad, brmad,
alalbedze gadaeSva manqanidan, brmad, alalbedze SeiWra bunebis wiaRSi,
brmad, alalbedze Sevarda mayvlis buCqebSi, oRond aRar moesmina qmrisgan
amgvari sisulele. "aRar SemiZlia". "Tavi gamanebeT". "mZulxarT yvelani".
advili SesaZlebelia, liziko sababs eZebda mxolod. magram, obieqturebi Tu
viqnebiT, arc qmarma daukava sababi. ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe...
sxvaTaSoris, marTla ase egona antons, ase fiqrobda sadRac, qviSxeTsa da
Tbiliss Soris, yofna-aryofnis Sua, roca mis cols mumliT amovsebul
manqanaSi znem wamouara da sruliad umizezod iskupa manqanidan. rac ufro
Tavganwirulad ibrZoda, miT ufro safuZvlianad ixlarTeboda mayvlis
eklian sacecebSi. Zlivs miawvdines xeli mamamTilma da Jeleznim. amas
arafris Tavi aRar hqonda, oRond, ufro SiSisgan da nerviulobisgan, vidre
daRlilobisgan. mwevariviT enagadmogdebuli, wina TaTebiT ukana fexebis
muxlebze dabjenili, mowmesaviT uyurebda, jer rogor gamoaTries mayvlis
buCqebidan kabawamoxdili, WinWriT dasusxuli, WianWvelebis dakbenili da
eklebiT dakawruli misi meuRle TiTqos eklis urCxulis saSodan
aranakleb ekliani misi wiwili amoiyvanes da mere, amoRliavebuli, rogor
waaZunZules manqanisken, vidre mSobiarobis tkivilebiT gaognebuli,
dauZlurebuli urCxuli gons moegeboda... es ki, safuZvels gvaZlevs
vaRiaroT, jer kidev antikuri tragediis Takara mze rom acxunebs CvenSi,
Tbilisis misadgomebTan ki, troas cxeni Zovs. Tumca, batoni gamomZieblisa
ar iyos, SeiZleba, ise ar wvimdes, rogorc quxs ("msgavsic araferi miTqvams"
gaifiqra gamomZiebelma). miT ufro, Tuki colma yvelaferi patiosnad
aRiara, Tanac, yvelaze intimur garemoSi, sawolSi, sadac sityva, CvenSi rom
vTqvaT, zedmeticaa wonasac kargavs da fassac sawolSi sxva raRacaa
aucilebeli, gadamwyvetic, radgan mxolod misi gabaritebi da udreki buneba
gansazRvravs, anu, awonasworebs da arRvevs, amSvenierebs da amaxinjebs,
aZlierebs da asustebs, amcirebs da amaRlebs, akeTilSobilebs da ryvnis,
amtyunebs da amarTlebs yvelafers, rac SeiZleba SeemTxvas, gardaxdes,
Sexvdes, Seexos adamians erTi sawolidan meoremde. me Tu giRalateb,
mxolod mamaSenTan giRalatebo, ai, ra CasCurCula colma qmars yurSi,
ukiduresi siaxlovis Jams, erTi wamiT adre, roca jer kidev ar ekuTvni cas,
magram ukve aRarc miwisa xar. ra colis bralia, Tuki qmarma wesierad ver
gaigo colis naTqvami, anda ise gaigo, rogorc Tavad aZlevda xels. miT
ufro, im momentSi, cisa da miwis Sua gaCxerils. mamaCemi yvarebiao
SekuntruSda xbosaviT, radgan cols rom eTqva, ver vitan mamaSenso,
namdvilad etkineboda guli, Tumca, Zneli asaxsnelia, ratom. siyvaruli
siZulvilze ukeTesi mizezia mkvlelobisTvis, magram iotis odenadac ar
amarTlebs mkvlels. piriqiT, ufro amZimebs danaSauls. Tumca, amave dros,
raRacnairad amaRlebs da keTilSobilebis SaravandedSi xvevs damnaSaves.
marTlac, Tu ar giyvars, ratom klav? ra uflebiT? ufleba ki siyvarulia.
Tu es ufleba ar gagaCnia, mxolod maSin SegiZlia erTnairad miafurTxo
colsac da mamasac, rogorc batonma gamomZiebelma brZana ("vbrZane ro?!"
gunebaSi SeekiTxa gamomZiebeli Tavs). magram Tuki pativmoyvare egoisti,
kudabzika otelo da gaaznaurebuli mdabio xar, rasakvirvelia, ase ver
moiqcevi. verc antoni moiqca ase. aiRo culi da Tavi gaupo mamas, romlis
imediTac cxovrobda aqamde. coli amjerad dazoga. amdens ver gawvda
erTbaSad. duxi ar eyo, obsila, Tu, ar vici, ra hqvia qarTulad. samagierod,
mamas etira deda. Tu ver mokla, rogorc am saqmis specialistebi
adastureben erTxmad, samudamod moikveTa, culis erTi dakvriT is toti
moWra, romelzedac arxeinad ijda dRemde da xelis gaunZrevlad mosdioda
yvelaferi rac ki, erT Cveulebriv Tbilisel degenerats Wirdeba,
bednierad rom CaTvalos Tavi sasmel-saWmelic, jinsic, kurtakic,
botasic, firfitac, kasetac, cotaodeni jibis fulic da, TavisTavad cxadia,
colic, Tundac saziaro... ase rom, misganac SeiZleboda damdgariyo kaci,
Tanamedroveobis moTxovnaTa gaTvaliswinebiT mSobelze uaresi, Svilze
ukeTesi isic SeiZleboda mohkideboda rame sarfian saqmes... sxvaTaSoris,
teqnikuri gaunaTlebloba da Tandayolili simxdale Tu ar SeuSlida xels,
albaT arc mTlad urigo paparaci gamovidoda misgan. yovel SemTxvevaSi,
uaparatod da riskis gareSe, SeuZlia yovlad warmoudgenel situaciaSi
warmoidginos misi interesis sagani Tu obieqti, sakuTari colis CaTvliT,
da albaT TqvenTvisac saintereso bevri pikanturi kadri aqvs aRbeWdili
sakmaod garyvnil gonebaSi. ase mogwons, sayvarelo? xo, midi... "egeni moyevi,
dedas gaficeb" dauZaxa busTvalebam. magram Tavad mxolod poetad Tvlis
Tavs. TavisTavad cxadia, ugulebelyofil poetad. yvela WeSmariti poeti an
mkvdaria, an ugulebelyofili. vinc ibeWdeba, xelisuflebas emsaxureba,
radgan nebismieri xelisufleba mxolod imis dabeWdvis uflebas iZleva,
risi dabeWdvac, upirveles yovlisa, TavisTvis miaCnia sasargeblod da ara
poetisTvis. poetisTvis SeiZleba Tavis moWracaa, magram raki TviTonve iWris
Tavs, aRarc sindisi awuxebs, aRarc usindisoba. is ki, misnairTa msgavsad,
mxolod ocnebas emsaxureba, oRond, TiTis gaunZrevlad. ramkiani qurdiviT.
aRarc wers, aRarc kiTxulobs. Tavis qmnilebebs, nabiWvrebiviT, malulad,
saidumlod aCens gonebaSi da iqve marxavs cocxlad. magram mainc poetad
Tvlis Tavs da, dameTanxmebiT, aravis SeuZlia misTvis amis akrZalva. es aris
Senmieri, Sinagani demokratia da tankebiT ver miudgebi. Tumca, jer kidev
Soreul siymawvileSi, Jamsa gulubryvilobisa, roca gwams da gjera, erT
redaqciaSi misi, jer kidev cincxali, patarZlis dakrefili mwvaniliviT,
qorfa leqsebi, TavianTi Sexedulebebis Sesabamisad... meoreSi ki, aseve
TavianTi Sexedulebebidan gamomdinare... da mas mere aRarc gauxedavs
redaqciisken. saerTod aRar ucdia leqsis dabeWdva (gamomZiebeli nerviulad
SeiSmuSna skamze da asanTis kolofic nerviulad moisrola, etyoba,
axalgazrdobaSi TviTonac werda leqsebs). ar uzrunia miwieri didebisTvis.
piriqiT, mas mere, yvelanairad cdilobs mxolod SigniT, sulis sakanSi iyos
iseTi, rogoric sinamdvileSia. Tqven axla niRabs uyurebT, eSmakurad
SerCeuls da moxerxebulad morgebuls namdvil saxeze. amqveyniuri dideba
sasacilodac ar yofnis da gulwrfelad ukvirs, roca xedavs, ras ar
kisrulobs xalxi am wamieri TviTgabriyvebisTvis. emsaxureba ocnebas da
ocnebobs maradisobaze. dideba droebiTi sakvebia misTvis da imis
gulisTvis, rasakvirvelia, ar Rirs mamis mokvla. es versiac unda
gamoiricxos, erTxel da samudamod, TiTqos gagvaCndes saerTod raime
versia. didebis nafSxvenebs Turme yvavic ar akarebs pirs. saxifaToa
sicocxlisTvis. yvavs Tavis samaswlian simartoveSi urCevnia yrantali im
Tqvens didebas. samagierod, adamiani daufiqreblad Wams da kvdeba. ver
inelebs. ufro sworad, ver zomavs. zedmeti mosdis yovelTvis. zedmeti ki
yvelaferi erTnairad mavnebelia: saWmelic, sasmelic, narkotikic,
siyvarulic da Tavad didebac... antonis dedam, fefem, dedamTils kniaJna
qeTusias, zedmeti narkotiki SeuSxapuna; antonis colma, lizikom ki,
zedmetad didi siyvaruliT Seiyvara mamamTili, antonis mama, raJden kaSeli,
ris Sedegadac, erTis dedamTili da meoris mamamTili erTnairad gamoeTxova
wuTisofels, SeiZleba, umniSvnelod, magram mainc ufro adre, vidre RmerTs
surda. aqedan gamomdinare, rZali uSxapunebs dedamTils, Tu mamamTili
rZals, Sedegi erTnairad savalaloa... da mainc, mamis mkvlelobaze
mniSvnelovani, saintereso da, rac mTavaria, saWiro, araferi gaukeTebia
antons, araferi Caudenia da araferi moumoqmedebia mTeli Tavisi
ocdasamwliani sicocxlis manZilze. ocdasami weli uazrod, umiznod,
uinteresod, anu, uwylod da umiraJod miuyveboda mwirsa da xriok udabnos,
haeris gaberili buStiviT, mamis gvami ki (sulerTia, ipovian Tu ar ipovian),
igive balasti aRmoCnda misTvis. mamis gvamma haeriT gaberili buSti (romlis
msgavsic mravlad iyideba TiTqmis yovel nabijze), aerostatad aqcia da
mSvidobianad daabruna miwaze, Tundac mxolod imitom, mosalodneli
safrTxe rom euwyebia amas TqvenTvis. magram, ra?! Seayare kedels cercvi.
kvlav mSobliuri uzrunveloba da daasxi-dalie... "mTlad nu gadagvivli
axla" icinis Tamada. "mec maTqmevine, SeCema, erTi sadRegrZelo... rodemde
vusminoT am nesostaiavSi ubiicas..." brazdeba busTvaleba. magram
busTvalebam ar icis da aucileblad unda icodes, mamis mkvleloba
antonisTvis sazogadoebrivi movaleobis, yvelasTvis erTnairad sanukvari
ocnebis aRsrulebaa da ara marto maTi piradi urTierTobis garkveva... mamis
mokvliT sakuTar sicocxlesac usvams wertils, radgan mis sicocxles
mxolod iqamde aqvs azri, vidre mamamisi iarsebebs am qveyanaze misi,
rogorc aRuvsebeli sawyaulis, erTaderTi daniSnulebaa, dRiTi-dRe, wveT-
wveTobiT ivsebodes da ver ivsebodes mamis mokvlis dauokebeli JiniT. aman
ki ra-aaz! (rogorc mamas uyvarda Tqma) da ocdasamwlian uazrobas
erTbaSad mouRo bolo. amitom, afeqtze laparaki, riskenac batoni
gamomZiebeli ubiZgebda guSin SefarviT, cota ar iyos, uxerxulicaa ("Sen Tu
ityvi" dascina gunebaSi gamomZiebelma). erTaderTi, rac TavisTvis ver
upatiebia, isev gulubryvilo, isev umaqnisi sikeTis gamomJRavnebis survilia,
mamis pirispir darCenils rom daeufla bolo wams, moulodnelad,
sxvaTaSoris, meorejer. pirvelad maTi "dapirispireba" am aTiode wlis win
moxda, quCaSi, romeliRac sadarbazoSi da iseve moulodnelad, rogorc
guSin, samzareuloSi... sadRac iyvnen stumrad, qalaqgareT, da SuaRamisas
dabrundnen iqidan; Semovidnen Tu ara qalaqSi, mamam manqana gaaCerebina da,
aq dagvicadeo, daubara Jeleznis, TviTon ki, fexiT gauyvnen quCas, vidre
sakmaod ar moSordnen manqanas da vidre mamam lamis ZaliT ar Seagdo
sadarbazoSi, sadac jer pijaki gaixada, saTuTad dakeca da amas miabara, ar
damisvaroo, mere kedlisken Setrialda, pirSi ori TiTi Caiyo da
gadauxarSav-mounelebeli sasmel-saWmeli RmuiliT amoarwyia ukanve. eg iyo
da eg. sxva araferi Tqmula, arc momxdara mama-Svils Soris. sufTa, oTxad
gakecili cxvirsaxoci, romliTac iqamde tuCebi moiwminda, mamam narwyevze
daagdo, Svils pijaki CamoarTva da, viTomc araferio, ise gamovida
sadarbazodan. magram, Tuki maSin, narwyevis suniT aqoTebul sadarbazoSi,
namdvili, seriozuli SiSiT pirvelad SeeSinda antons mamisa da pirvelad
igrZno Tavi mis yurmoWril monad, romlis TandaswrebiTac yvelafris
ufleba SeuZlia misces Tavs patronma, guSin, samzareuloSi, aseve pirvelad
Tavis sicocxleSi Seecoda mama, ufro sworad, Semawuxeblad igrZno,
yvelafris ufleba rom hqonda am araraobis winaSe... arasodes enaxa aseTi
umweo, aseTi daucveli da aseTi amazrzeni (albaT sititvlis gamo) da
usaSvelod, autanlad mounda uceb, patieba eTxova imas. ara, piriqiT,
amisTvis epatiebina moulodneli gambedaoba, Tundac, Tavxedoba, ar gaewira
samudamod da Taviseburad eTqva: ras sCadi, briyvo, ras sCadi, briyvo,
briyvo, ras sCadio, radgan mamis nebismieri sityva, nebismieri toniT
naTqvami, umal culs daagdebinebda, vidre navTs dausxamda cecxlze da
kidev ufro gaumZafrebda Tandayolil sens, mourCenel avadmyofobas,
kerZod, mamis mokvlis Jins. magram, etyoba, mamamac icoda es aravin icis
Ze, garda mamisa da antonmac, jerjerobiT, erTi rame icis mxolod
naTlad: colTan Rlabucze metad, swored es dumili ver apatia mamas...
culSemarTulic arafrad Caagdo... TiTqos mkvleli ki ar idga mis win,
aramed misive landi, Crdili, haeris buSti... da ixila antonma saxilveli:
"udidesi gamocana" da "uRrmesi ironia", rogorc misi sayvareli poetebi
moixseniebdnen sikvdils, da, ra dasamalia, SeZrulia am didebuli
sanaxaobiT. SeiZleba, marTla moabezra yvelas Tavi, magram am Temaze
usasrulod SeuZlia laparaki. samagierod, srulebiT ar ainteresebs imis
dadgena, Tu "ra niadagze moxda" uTanxmoeba mamasa da Svils Soris.
mamaSviloba TavisTavad uTanxmoebaa, gaTiSvaa, gayofaa, gnebavT, gamoyofaa
zedmetisa da Semawuxeblisa. mama yovelTvis siamovnebiT iSorebs Svils da
Svilic yovelTvis Tavqudmoglejili gamorbis mamisgan, raTa dedis bnel
dilegSi moadinos tyapani da saimedod daculma, TandaTanobiT Seisxas
xorci, miiRos saxe, SeiZinos azri da wona, da nela, taatiT, uxalisod
gamovides samzeoze, sadac, upirveles yovlisa, mamas unda daupirispirdes
isev, TviTonac rom aRar axsovs, risTvis... gamomZiebeli ki, asanTis kolofiT
TamaSobs, rogorc Tavis kabinetSi TamaSobda, magram aq namdvilad ar
yofnis adgili, magidaze jguf-jgufad awyvia yvela zomis Wiqa da boTli,
erTmaneTze axvavia samnairi yvelis, ornairi xizilalis, xuTnairi lobios,
aTnairi mxalis, Zexvis, SaSxis, qinZmarSi Cawyobili loqos, nigvzis wvenSi
Cawyobili TarTis, niorwyalSi Cawyobili wiwilis, cocxalis, qababis,
xinklis, jigris yaurmis, Caqafulis, xaSlamis, Canaxis, sokosa Tu mwvadis
TefSi, maTlafa, jami da langari... asanTis kolofi an WiqaSi vardeba, an
saWmelSi RviniTa da aTasnairi wveniT galumpuli, daZenZil-
darbilebuli, xelSi aRar aiReba, magram gamomZiebeli mainc jiutad
agrZelebs TamaSs. "ese igi, mSoblebs Tu davxocavT, ukeT wava Cveni saqme,
ara?!" Sarzea busTvaleba. "me rac vicodi, yvelaferi vTqvi" jiutad,
mtkiced imeorebs es. sufris or Cveulebriv wevrs ukve dauZinia. Tavebi
gasayidi nesvebiviT dauyriaT magidaze da yelgamoWrilebiviT xrialeben. "ar
gaiSva magaTi daWerili kaci" icinis Tamada. magram antons marTla aRara
aqvs metis Tavi. yinwi wydeba. TavisTavad exuWeba Tvalebi. magram xuWavs Tu
ara Tvals, isev karuseliviT trialebs yvelaferi, erTmaneTSi areuli,
erTmaneTs gadabmuli, gaerTianebuli Tavbrudamxvev qrolvaSi, wreSi
moqceul drosa da sivrceSi: dalaqavebul-dabinZurebuli sufrac, sveli
samarilec, Rvinis WiqaSi Catovebuli Cangalic, lobios TefSze dagdebuli
Tevzis ConCxic, qonSeyinuli, CaSavebuli yaurmac, xinklis Wipebic, puris
naWerze daWyletili sigaretic, gogos SiSveli, foTolSerWobili gavac,
SarvalCaxdili kacic, moTaxTaxe Siganic, nawlavebSi gaxlarTuli
ZaRlebic, moajirze Sefrenili da cxeniviT aWixvinebuli mamalic, moyiyine
bayayebic (ufro maTi xma), sufraze dayrili da Ria pirebidan
lorwoCamoRvenTili, amazrzenad axrialebuli Tavebic... gana cixe amaze
uaresia?! sxva ra unda moxdes iq, ufro Zneli asatani?! piriqiT. iq droc
meti gaqvs da sivrcec... zixar SenTvis... saknis sarkmlidan, gindac
WuWrutanidan, albaT xrioki qedi da ukacuri, kaWaWgadavlili mindori
moCans... ra Seedreba am sanaxaobas?! Seedreba rame?! sikvdilamde rom uyuro,
ar mogbezrdeba. ara marto yovel dRe icvlis fers, aramed dReSi
ramdenjerme: mzis amosvlisas, mzis gulze, mzis Casvlisas... sul sxvanairia
wvimamde, wvimaSi, nawvimarze... sul sxvanairia qarSi: erTbaSad amoSlis,
amoafrqvevs iqamde damalul, gasaidumloebul ferebs... sul sxvanairia
Tovlis qaTqaTa sabnis qveS gauCinarebuli, galursuli da marad mzadmyofi
Tavisi erTxel kidev ganwmendili, gaspetakebuli siSiSvlis gamosafenad...
 antoni ki, mouxerxeblad wevs, pirqve, da orive xeliT scems amRvreul,
aqafebul, aqoTqoTebul wyals. perangisa da pijakis saxeloebi iRliebamde
dasvelebia. marTalia, jer seqtemberia, "patara zafxuli", magram RamRamobiT
ukve sakmaod civa. Tumca, es arc sicives dagidevT, arc sisveles
raRacnairi, gamomwvevi, nerviuli, kapasi sixalisiT Wyumpalaobs auzis
sundakrul wyalSi. enas ver atrialebs pirSi, am sityvis pirdapiri
mniSvnelobiT. xorxi naylapi sisxliT amoglesvia. gatexili cxviri haers
veRar atarebs wesierad. cali Tvali, mgoni, saerTod aRara aqvs da mainc,
araadamianuri Zalisxmevis fasad, nabij-nabij, namcec-namcec ixsenebs, ra
SeemTxva satusaRodan gamosvlis Semdeg. rac Seexeba satusaRos, iqauri
yvelaferi axsovs, yvelaferi, uzarmazari Wreli ZroxiT dawyebuli da
wuxandeli RreobiT damTavrebuli. arafers igonebs da arc cils swamebs
vinmes. SeiZleba, raRac-raRaceebs azviadebs, magram arc esaa gasakviri mis
dReSi myofi kacisgan, aqvs amis safuZveli, safuZveli Tu ara, gamarTleba
mainc, radgan jer kidev monaa, gindac gaazatebuli, da monur Tvisebebs ase
erTbaSad ver moiSorebs, Tuki saerTod SesaZlebelia maTi moSoreba.
sxvaTaSoris, wuxandel Rreobaze gaxda misTvis naTeli, Tu ratom ver itans
mona Tavisuflebas. imitom rom, monaa da, raki monaa, sxvanairad ar SeuZlia.
Tavisufleba monobas arTmevs, monoba ki, saSualebas aZlevs, ramdenic unda,
imdeni iocnebos Tavisuflebaze. ai, aseTi mona iyo dRemde, amasac ar SeeZlo
sxvanairad, magram bolos mainc SeZlo SeuZlebeli (ris gamoc, sxva
yvelaferi epatieba), sakuTar mamaze aRmarTa xeli da ukve Tamamad SeiZleba
iTqvas, am gauval wyvdiadSi, mxolod es warmoadgens "Tavisufal samyaros",
miuxedavad egzom savalalo Sesaxedaobisa...
 erTi cxadia, am erTi saaTis win (ra Tqma unda, misi metad arazusti
varaudiT), romeliRac Ramis baris sapirfareSos sarkmlidan gadmoxta, anda
gadmoagdes (amas ara aqvs arsebiTi mniSvneloba), magram sakiTxavi is aris,
rogor aRmoCnda jer im barSi, mere im baris sapirfareSoSi da ram aiZula
iqidan gadmoxtoma, an ram aiZula sxvebi, sigaretis namwviviT gadmoegdoT
sapirfareSos sarkmlidan. jerjerobiT, mxolod is axsovs, Tu rogor
gamovida diliT cixidan, anu, duqnidan, da ukve SuaRamisas, rogor gamoerkva
uceb magidasTan, TiTqmis cariel darbazSi. orTaWalaSi CayvinTa da
mTawmindaze amoyvinTa. xolo, vidre TavisuflebiT dabrmavebuli da
sunTqvaSekruli, alalbedze micuravda wyalqveS, eSmakma icis, ra moxda
qveyanaze. erTi kia, arc ase brmad mocuraves gadauxvevia Sinisken, Tundac
imis Sesamowmeblad, TviTon tyuoda Tu gamomZiebeli. arc monaniebisa da
arc SurisZiebis erTnairad verag survils ahyolia, Tumca, es ori
surviliRa akavSirebs TavisianebTan da, rac mTavaria, erTnairad
damakninebel SegrZnebebs uCens, rogorc warmodgenili monaniebis, iseve
warmodgenili SurisZiebis scena... TavSexveuli mama TvalSisacemad masiur
magidas uzis Tavis kabinetSi. magidazec masiuri nivTebi alagia, kriali
gaudis, uxmariviTaa. mama welzemoT SiSvelia. mkerdze da mxrebze
gansakuTrebulad Warbad mosdebia balani. majaze didi saaTi ukeTia,
kabinetis akldamisebur siCumeSi mkveTrad ismis misi xma, TiTqos uCinari
makrateli aseve uCinar buCqnars kreWs. es ki, karTan dgas, TavCaqindruli,
darcxvenili, da mRelvarebisgan dafxrewili xmiT Zlivs gasagonad
luRluRebs: "mapatie, mama, mapatie..." raRac balaxebi moawevines biWebma
universitetSi da TviTonac ar icoda, ras akeTebda... anda, aseve welzemoT
SiSvel mamas (Zalian uyvars mamamiss banjgvliani torsis demonstrireba),
xelebi zurgsukan dauwyvia, saaTiani xeliT meore xelis majas Cafrenia da
bolTas scems sasadilo oTaxSi. fefe da liziko erTmaneTs Caxutebian da
Semawuxeblad slukuneben. es ki, situaciis Sesaferisad daseriozulebuli
(gancdiliTa da gadataniliT dabrZenebuli, rogorc namdvil mamakacs
Seefereba), marqsizm-leninizmis leqtoriviT (provinciul aqcents rom
niRbavs met-naklebad), nawyvet-nawyvet da ReWva-ReWviT laparakobs, mamis
magivrad: bedisweras vin aRsdgomia win... mosaxdeni mainc moxdeboda da
kargia, rom moxda... is mainc gavigeT, rani vyofilvarT... magram Wkua ki ar
unda davkargoT uaresad, Wkuas unda movuxmoT, bolos da bolos...
SurisZiebaze ki ar unda vifiqroT, aramed monaniebaze... erTad Tu ar
viyaviT, axla unda gaverTiandeT... da Tu ar gviyvarda, axla unda
SeviyvaroT erTmaneTi... arada, monaniebisa da SurisZiebis es ori, TiTqos
erTmaneTis gamomricxavi, magram misi da misTanebis simdablisa da siyalbis
gamomaaSkaravebeli survili, ara marto uiolebda, garkveuli TvalsazrisiT,
sasiamovnosac xdida mis ocdasamwlian patimrobas. erTnairad
gabednierebuli, erTnairad aRelvebul-aRfrTovanebuli nebdeboda orives,
rogorc Tbilisur, iseve qviSxeTur saknis wyvdiadSi da, xandaxan, TviTonve
uWirda maTi garCeva, imdenad gavdnen erTmaneTs, anu, erTi meoresac
gulisxmobda yovelTvis da, amave dros, ufro mkveTrad, ufro mZafrad,
mTeli sisavsiTa da sidiadiT warmoaCenda sakuTar Tavs... magram es adre iyo.
axla, Tavisuflebis pirvel dRes, arc monaniebis survili awuxebs, arc
SurisZiebisa. yvelafrisgan erTbaSad ganTavisuflda, ganitvirTa. "Sen aravin
ar gyvarebia, Seni Tavis meti" eubneba liziko, oRond, sasaflaoze,
didubis panTeonSi... namdvilad didubis panTeonia, waramara TvalSi eCxireba
qvis natexze aRbeWdili poetis gacrecili saxe. cas ascqeris,
gulxeldakrefili. wamoagdes ukve SeCveuli saflavidan da jer mouwyobel,
daumTavrebel saflavSi ukres Tavi. axla viRa moiclis usaxlkaro
poetisTvis, hoda, isic cisken Tvalebapyrobili elodeba mfarveli
angelozis gamoCenas... "usaxlkaro me var, magas ra uWirs... icinis liziko
 aRarc qmarTan damedgomeba da aRarc mamasTan mimesvleba". saflavebs
mtvriani, sicxisgan gamoxunebuli balaxi mosdebia. balaxze, aqa-iq,
naadrevad Camocvenili foToli yria. "magram Sen mainc ufro ubeduri xar...
isic ar ici, ra ginda" ambobs liziko. "monanieba da SurisZieba" ambobs
es da Tan panTeonis meTvalyure qalisken iyureba, ar unda, imanac gaigos
maTi laparaki. qali moSorebiT, romeliRac saflavs asufTavebs mokle
focxiT. naadrevad Camocvenil foTols vedroSi agrovebs. Wilis qudi
axuravs, farflebiani. aqeTken arc iyureba, magram aSkarad esmis yvelaferi,
zedmetad daZabuli saqmianobs, zedmetad mowadinebuli... ese igi, liziko
unaxavs dRes, magram sasaflaoze ra undodaT?! Tumca, sxvagan sad unda
wasuliyvnen, sada aqvT adgili?! Tuki vinme yavdaT, yvelas moukvdnen, pirvel
rigSi ki, erTmaneTs. damarxvaRa akliaT. "momicade, momicade" misdevs
lizikos yviriliT, aravisi aRar erideba. liziko saflavebs Soris
darCenil viwro bilikze garbis. "aRar axseno Cemi saxeli" yviris isic,
ukanmouxedavad. rkinis meseri irxeva, JRriali gaudis. quCa xalxiTaa savse,
eklesiis ezoc... yvelas erTnairad Savi acvia... liziko ki, ar Cans. sad gaqra
ase uceb?! Tumca, ra amis saqmea, bolos da bolos. ra esaqmeba lizikosTan?!
araferi... ubralod, ainteresebs, sad Sexvdnen erTmaneTs, ase
dabarebulebiviT, rogor Sexvdnen... SeiZleba, es daxvda universitetTan,
magram aq ra undodaT, didubeSi?! "RmerTi mogcems Svilo, damexmare,
ltolvili var" gaubedavad uRimis viRac qali. liziko ar Cans. am Savma
xalxma uyo piri. SeiZleba, eklesiaSi Sevida. midi da eZebe... yvela erTnairad
ltolvilia, ginda mkvdari poeti da ginda mwerlis qaliSvili... "lizikos
xom ar gamouvlia aqeT?" ekiTxeba maTxovars. maTxovari gaocebuli
uyurebs. "aba, liziko?!" kiTxulobs bolos. liziko, amdroisTvis, patara
sagalanterio maRaziaSi dgas, aRmaSenebelze, da daxlis SuSis qveS
sanaxevrod gaxsnil samarTeblebs dascqeris. "gnebavT rame" ekiTxeba
noqari. "vnaxoT... jer vaTvaliereb" gaurkvevlad pasuxobs liziko. es ki,
jibeebSi iqeqeba tyuilad, araferi aqvs gasacemi. maTxovrisa rcxvenia, magram
is ufro ainteresebs, sad gaqra liziko ase uceb. mxolod lizikosgan Tu
gaigebs, ra undodaT aq, Tuki marTla iyvnen, mweralTa da sazogado
moRvaweTa panTeonSi... raze ilaparakes, Tuki ilaparakes saerTod... TviTon
araferi axsovs. arc is axsovs, rac lizikos sabolood dakargvis Semdeg
SeemTxva, sad ibodiala mTeli dRe, da bolos, ra mizniT Sevida,
maincdamainc, im barSi... Tumca, es SedarebiT advili asaxsnelia. albaT
Cveulebrivi (sinamdvileSi, araCveulebrivi, arabunebrivi) cnobismoyvareobis
dasakmayofileblad, anu, erTxel kidev dasarwmuneblad, arc patimarsa da
arc Tavisufals, arsad rom ar Seesvleba daukiTxavad, sakuTari, mSobliuri
saxlis CaTvliT. SeiZleba erTi Wiqis gadasakravadac, yvelafrisgan
(rasakvirvelia, lizikosganac) ganTavisuflebis erTxel kidev aRsaniSnavad,
anda, sulac wamlad aki gaafrTxila busTvalebam, RviniT mkvdars
mxolod Rvino mogarCenso magram davuSvaT da, duqanSi gadatanilis mere,
kidev gaebeda amas sasmelis pirSi CaSveba, mainc araferi uWyaoda jibeSi,
garda narwyevSemxmari cxvirsaxocisa da moyvaruli fotografis (didyura
grigolas) gadaRebuli suraTisa, romelzedac mSoblebTan erTad aris
aRbeWdili aTi wlis jer kidev gulubryvilo da spetaki ymawvili. magram
ufro savaraudoa, gauwafavi xeliT kedelze mixatulma isrebma daaintereses
da isev saTavgadasavlo romanis gmirad warmoidgina Tavi, rogorc
bavSvobaSi emarTeboda xolme. rasakvirvelia, isrebma gaityues
araTanabari zomisa da erTmaneTisganac aseve araTanabari SualedebiT
daSorebulma isrebma raRac axlis, dRemde ararsebulis, Tu dRemde
gasaidumloebulis, akrZalulis, miuRwevelis, vTqvaT, aralegaluri
bordelisa Tu legaluri samorines misaniSneblad rom gaCndnen am bolo
dros qalaqis kedlebze, ris gamoc qalaqic erTbaSad gaucxovda,
gaidumalda, am sityvis arapoeturi gagebiT, da narkotikisa Tu baqteriuli
iaraRis mwarmoebel uzarmazar da ukacur qarxanas daemsgavsa, amerikuli
filmebidan gadmoxatuls... ai, aseTma isrebma gaityues isic da bolos,
misTvisac moulodnelad, sacxovrebeli saxlis erT Cveulebrivad binZur
sadarbazoSi Seiyvanes, samxatvro akademiamde Tu samxatvro akademiis Semdeg.
magram, ase iyo Tu ise, erTi cxadia: amjeradac iq Sevida, sadac ar unda
Sesuliyo, iseve, rogorc sakuTar samzareuloSi. Tumca, CvenSi rom vTqvaT,
axlac ugrZno tanma, sworad rom ar iqceoda iq ar Sedioda, sadac unda
Sesuliyo, anda, piriqiT, iq Sedioda, sadac misi adgili ar iyo (aRar iyo)
da sadac aravis gaaxarebda misi moulodneli gamocxadeba. SeiZleba,
sisxlamdec misuliyo saqme da, aki mivida kidec... lizikom gareul katasaviT
afofrilma amoxeda qvemodan, TiTqos es gvamis warTmevas upirebda (Tuki
marTla arsebobs gvami da Tuki yvelaferi, rogorc gamomZiebelma uTxra
guSin, misive fantaziis nayofi ar aris). magram araviTari grZnoba ar
gasCenia colis mimarT: romeliRac, misTvis dRemde ucnob cxovelad ufro
aRiqvamda, vidre colad. miT ufro moRalate colad. arc Zulda, arc
uyvarda, arc afrTxobda, arc izidavda Tavisi demonstraciuli siSiSvliT.
piriqiT, aseTi ufro Seesabameboda garemos. situaciasac. ufro metic,
TiTqos pirvelad xedavda saerTod. yovel SemTxvevaSi, arasodes unaxavs
"aseTi", arc iqamde, vTqvaT, ZaliT gamoTreuli mayvlis buCqebidan, da arc
imis mere, moCvenebasaviT TavisTavad gamqrali didubis panTeonidan.
samagierod, mamis gvamis (Tundac mxolod mis warmodgenaSi arsebuli gvamis)
siSiSvle jiutad eCxireboda TvalSi, TqoriviT scemda cxvirpirSi da
rogorc wyalnaylapi da Tanac cudi mocurave, sasacilod abCenda pirs,
verc suli moeTqva, verc daelaparakna, cotac da, TviTonac mamasaviT
samarcxvinod gaiSxlarTeboda samzareulos iatakze. sisxliT iyo yvelaferi
irgvliv moTxvrili, ara marto iataki, aramed skamic, romelzedac mama ijda,
vidre es Sevidoda samzareuloSi (mamas vin ejda kalTaSi, uTqmeladac
naTelia), macivris karic, radiatoric... yvelaferi, alvis xis foTolic ki,
mamis gvamis gverdiT rom egdo iatakze. mogelandao, warmoidgineo
eubnebian jiutad, is ki, axlac naTlad xedavs, axlac iq aris (veris baRis
auzis kideze gadamxobili) da rogorc maSin, axlac ver axerxebs iqidan
gamosvlas. arada, namdvilad aRaraferi esaqmeba iq, sulerTia, mokla Tu ver
mokla mama. gvamis Semtevi, utifari, mouSorebeli siSiSvle rom moigerios,
alvis gayviTlebul foTols uyurebs. foToli mamis gvamis gverdiT gdia
(egdo) iatakze. ese igi, kidev erTi zafxuli damTavrda. rogorc TviTon
fiqrobs, misTvis albaT ukanaskneli. Tuki ram gadaxdenia, mniSvnelovani da
saintereso, mxolod zafxulSi da, amdenad, qviSxeTSi. qviSxeTi da zafxuli
erTi da igive cnebaa misTvis. lizikoc qviSxeTSi gaicno da Taflobis Tvec
iq gaatara sul axlaxans. ase rom, SeiZleba, mTel Tavis cxovrebas
gulisxmobs da imitomac ambobs gunebaSi aseTi xazgasmuli paTetiurobiT:
damTavrda zafxulio. ese igi, damTavrda cxovrebao. man xom es wuTia mokla
mama, culis erTi dakvriT erTbaSad gadaWra yvela Toki, romliTac naviviT
iyo mibmuli aqaurobas da ai, misi gaognebuli, dadamblavebuli arseba,
marTlac rom uniCbo da uialqno naviviT miaqvs gaurkvevlobis,
miusafrobisa da simartovis Roniersa da verag dinebas (sinamdvileSi,
arcTu ise did auzSi atrialebs nagaviviT). qurdbacaca fisuniasaviT
miipareba mamis sisxliT moTxvril samzareulodan, mewyerze SerCeniliviT,
SeumCnevlad micocavs araraobis ufskrulisken, Tumca, xmel foTols
Sescqeris, monusxuliviT, da culic jer isev xelSi uWiravs. Tuki rames
grZnobs, imis sasiamovno, damamSvidebel simZimes grZnobs mTel sxeulSi.
sakmarisia xeli gauSvas (ase hgonia TviTon), maSinve raRac SeemTxveva, kidev
uaresi, rac ukve SeemTxva, axlaxans, Ramis baris sapirfareSoSi. arada,
pirvelsave magidas ise udrtvinvelad miujda, TiTqos mdidari da
simdidrisgan znewamxdari kinovarskvlaviviT, maincdamainc, im magidasTan, im
skamze xvdeboda yovel alions. marTlac, darbazSi TiTqmis yvela magida
Tavisufali iyo. mxolod erT magidasTan isxdnen viRaceebi, darbazis meore
boloSi sami biWi da ori gogo, anda, piriqiT, sami gogo da ori biWi
arc es dainteresebula zedmetad imaTi sqesobrivi SemadgenlobiT da,
sxvaTaSoris, arc imaT gamouCeniaT gansakuTrebuli yuradReba mis mimarT.
SeiZleba, arc SeumCneviaT misi Semosvla...

"mainc ver momWames fexebio" mis magivrad ambobs viRaca mis arsebaSi.

maxsovroba nel-nela iRviZebs da CaZiruli gemis namsxvrevebTan erTad,

damxrCvalTa gvamebic TandaTanobiT amodian zedapirze. magram jer bevri
ram burusiTaa moculi. ufro sworad, TviTonve uWirs swori urTierTobis
damyareba katastrofis narCenebTan... calkeul fragmentTan... magaliTad,
sinamdvileSi araviTari urTierToba ar hqonia im magidis wevrebTan, magram,
amJamad, darwmunebulia, swored imaT scemes, imaT Caagdes am dReSi da imaTi
misamarTiT ambobs: "mainc ver momWames fexebio". magram male yvelaferi
pirvelyofili saxiT aRsdgeba mis gonebaSi. SeiZleba, araTanamimdevrulad,
magram cxadad. marTlac, auzis siRrmidan, mTibavebis msgavsad, axla mamis
SiSveli aCrdili amozrdila, aTasnairad dabrecili, adgilze motortmane,
magram mainc TviTmpyrobelurad falosSemarTuli da mrisxaned
Tvalebdayvlefili. "saqarTvelo gawires!" ambobs mama. "vin? vin gawira?"
xavis es, iqneb axla mainc aTqmevinos mamas simarTle. daZabulobisgan
yelze lamis daawydes ZarRvebi. magram mama xeliT aniSnebs, damacadeo, da
agrZelebs: "yvela gza moWrilia, yvela saSualeba amowuruli...
daviRupeT.""amas Cven vambobT, mama, Cven... Sen is gviTxari, vin gagvwira?
ratom?" yviris es, xmadakarguli, yelgadaketili. "Tqven arafers ar
ambobT, Tqven mxolod imuqrebiT da iginebiT isev awyvetinebs mama aba,
erTi wuTiT dafiqrdi, gana SeiZleba erTsa da imave qvabSi ornairi kerZi
ixarSebodes erTdroulad?! mokled, Tuki Cvenze rasac amboben, odnav mainc
Seesabameba sinamdviles, maSin Cven araTu vtyuiT yvelas winaSe, aramed
saerTod ar varsebobT, saerTod aRar rCeba CvenTvis adgili, araTu
TaRliTi kartografis Sedgenil rukaze, aramed bunebaSi da Tqveni
ybadaRebuli "sruliad saqarTvelo" istoriuli miraJi gamodis mxolod...
mkvdari viris sizmari... televizia ki Civis, saqarTveloSi Sou-biznesi ar
arsebobso. RvTis risxvaa, aba, ra aris?! arc axla meTanxmebi? amasac
vigoneb? aRar mixseno erovnuli moZraoba! gaTavda! Tvalebi gamoiCiCqne...
qveyanas isev CemsaviT daobebuli komunistebi da SensaviT "erovnuli
moZraobidan" mosuli komkavSirlebi marTaven... magram isini (me da Sen) ki ar
arian (varT) moRalateebi, aramed Cven (isev me da Sen) ara varT
samarTlianebi imaT (ese igi, Cemsa da Sens) mimarT... Cven gvinda, isinic (Cvenc)
iseTebi iyvnen (viyoT), rogorebic CvenTvis (SenTvis, CemTvis) iqnebian
(viqnebiT) sasargebloni da ara TavisTvis (anu, SenTvis, CemTvis). daakvirdi,
ra gamodis? gamodis, rom Cvenve vaiZulebT Tavs gavxdeT moRalateni, radgan
Cven rom Cvens Tavs davudgeT gverdSi, pirvel rigSi, imas unda SevaqcioT
zurgi, visac mTeli sicocxle vemsaxurebodiT da visac axlac vekuTvniT
sulian-xorciana. gaige? gaige rame, batono edepe?" kbilebs akraWunebs
mama, ver SeatyobT, xumrobs Tu brazobs. "veraferi ver gavige, mama, araferi
ar mesmis. ufro garkveviT miTxari, Tu SeiZleba" exveweba, emudareba es
gunebaSi da daZabulobisgan xelaxla pirgaxsnili Wrilobebidan axali,
alisferi sisxli gadmosdis...
 ai, ase laparakobda mama. xolo, mamis sityvas yovelTvis kanonis Zala
hqonda antonisTvis. kanonisa ki ara, Tilismisa, Selocvisa, jadosi... mama
rom etyoda, tyuilad tiri, araferi aRar gtkivao, maSinve Cauwynardeboda,
kbili iyo Tu muceli... mamas rom eTqva, adeqi da gadavardi fanjridano,
adgeboda da gadavardeboda. ase rom, roca simwifis Jami daudga,
sasiamovnod SemaSfoTebel warmodgenebSi CaZiruli, seriozulad ganicdida,
seriozulad eWvobda, Seesabameboda Tu ara misi mamakacuri monacemebi
dadgenil normebs da saerTod moaxerxebda Tu ara, umamod, qalTan
urTierTobas, roca amis droc mouvidoda, anu, roca mama CaTvlida saamisod
momzadebulad. marTalia, mama rasac eubneboda, xumrobiT eubneboda xolme,
yovel SemTxvevaSi, aseTi wesi hqonda SvilTan saubrisa, magram amiT
srulebiTac ar kargavda misi nalaparakevi savalalo zemoqmedebis unars.
piriqiT, dRiTidRe kidev ufro metad sjeroda mamisa da kidev ufro
naklebad endoboda Tavs. magram colqmrul sawolSi gancdilma
siamtkbilobam ise gaaTamama, ufro sworad, ise gamoatutuca, colsac
gaumxila Tavisi faruli SiSi, Tavisi odindeli eWvi da sadardeli. colma
ki, lamis cxvir-piri daabRortna frCxilebiT. gaacecxla qmris sibriyvem
ase ifiqra maSin antonma Turme, ukve fexmZimed iyo da misi qmari axlaRa
arkvevda, SeeZlo Tu ara saerTod qalis daorsuleba. ise gabrazda, TiTqos
raRac saTakilo seni gadasdeboda qmrisgan. muxlebze idga awewil loginSi
da siyvarulis nazi ofliT jer kidev kandanamuli, baliSiT scemda saxeze
yasidad xelafarebul da gulSi aSkarad kmayofil Tanamecxedres. "aRar
gaimeoro eg sisuleleo" dahyviroda Tmaaburduli, saxealewili,
mimzidvelica da saSiSic erTsa da imave dros, rogorc Tavisi daudevari
siSiSvliT, iseve moulodneli da mouTokavi sianCxliT. dahyviroda, albaT
dedamTil-mamamTilis gasagonadac. ase fiqrobda antoni da arc TviTon iyo
winaaRmdegi, Tuki misi mSoblebic moismendnen amas. colis es sityvebi
malamod ecxeboda mravali eWvisa da SiSis gadamtan gulze, radgan maT
WeSmarit azrs, samwuxarod, gvian Cawvda, gvian gaxda misTvis naTeli colis
uecari gawiwmatebisa da gaafTrebis namdvili mizezi. rac col-qmrul
sawolSi misi mamakacuri Rirsebebis aRiarebad eyureboda, imaze ukve mwared
ecineboda miliciaSi. cixe didi skolaa da, etyoba, arc misTvis Cauvlia
mTlad uSedegod ocdasamwlian patimrobas. cixeSi kaci brZendeba, anu, zogi
gvian, zogi ki adre, unda ar unda, bolos mainc rwmundeba Tavis
sibriyveSi, xvdeba briyvad gauCenia RmerTs da, me rom mkiTxoT, arc amis
mixvedraa cota. esec erTgvari sibrZnea: ici briyvi xar da rac gemarTeba,
Seni sibriyviT gemarTeba. veravis gaamtyuneb... gana weRanac Tavisi sibriyvis
gamo ar gailaxa?! imdeni ixetiala uazrod, vidre zustad iq ar Sevida,
sadac araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar unda Sesuliyo. magram arc es aris mTlad
misi brali: albaT cols eZebda da, Tqveni azriT, sad unda eZebos kacma
gabozebuli coli, Tu ara Ramis dawesebulebebSi?! ra Tqma unda, cols
eZebda, poetiviT usaxlkaros, romelsac aRarc qmarTan daedgomeba,
moWarbebuli mgrZnobiarobis gamo, da aRarc mamasTan miesvleba, rogorc
TviTonve ganacxada panTeonSi. isic qalaqSi daZrwis albaT uTavbolod.
diaxac, imas eZebda, radgan sigiJemde undoda, swored imisgan gaego,
ramdenad Seesabameboda sinamdviles, rac Tvalman misman ixila da yurman
misman moismina... Tundac warmoidgina, anu, SesaZleblad CaTvala colisgan
msgavsi sisaZaglis Cadena, ra Tqma unda, arc mTlad usafuZvlod; yovel
SemTxvevaSi, ase vTqvaT, sagzao incidentis Semdeg, roca mamis mkerdze
gatrunuli ixila ekalbardebSi dabRortnil-dakawruli meuRle, erTi
wamiTac aRar ganelebia avi winaTgrZnoba da sawolSic bevrjer wamomjdara
sazareli sizmriT dafeTebuli, rZlisa da mamamTilis uaRresad
aramamaSviluri siaxloviT SeZrwunebuli, tkivilamde, cremlamde,
bRavilamde Seuracxyofili... diax, Tundac sizmriseuli SeuracxyofisTvis
pasuxis mosakiTxad eZebda cols, mxolod da mxolod, am mizniT, am
surviliT Sepyrobili... aba, deda arc gaxsenebia. qals qmari moukla da
imisTvisac ver moicala, misuliyo da eTqva: viziareb Sens mwuxarebas
Zvirfasi meuRlis dakargvis gamoo... anda, moemzade, Senc unda gagiyeno Seni
qmris kvalso... aseT dawyevlil varskvlavzea dabadebuli: imas ver ambobs,
rac unda Tqvas da daufiqreblad Sedis iq, sadac ar unda Sediodes. guSin
sakuTar saxlSi Seexeta da iZulebuli Seiqna, mama moekla; weRan ki, amodena
qalaqSi, maincdamainc, Ramis saidumlo barSi amoyo cixeSi gadaxotrili
Tavi (yovel weliwads ixotravs, patimars rom gavdes garegnuladac) da
lamis Tavad mokles. magram fexebi ver moWames mainc. imitom rom, isic ukve
imaTnairia. ocdasami weli arc imas gaucdenia fuWad. cota-cota ukve
yvelaferi gamocdili aqvs, sakuTar kiserze uwvnevia. wevda kidec, svamda
kidec da iCxiravda kidec, radgan sxvanairad ver gaZlebda cixeSi,
daiRupeboda, Tuki amas gadarCena hqvia. gadauvlida, miwasTan gaasworebda
cixe Tavisi mkacri, magram sicocxlisTvis aucilebeli kanonebiT. pirvelad
rom uTxra dedas, Sen iseTi TavSenaxuli qali xar, bebiaCemis maragidan
kidev geqneba darCenili da erTi-ori ampula momecio, dedamisma piri daaRo
gaocebisgan, verafriT ver mixvda, ratom unda dasWireboda mis Svils
davrdomili, dauZlurebuli Sizofrenikis gasaTiSi wamali. "gaige, deda, mec
beberi var, mec uZluri varo" uyvira aman, radgan marTla gaamwara,
gaacecxla dedis miuxvedrelobam Tu gulubryvilobam. gazeTi amaze
laparakobda da televizia, anaTlebdnen qveyanas, da marTlac, mTeli
Tbilisi sadarbazoebSi, sardafebsa da sxvenebSi iyuJeboda "miwier siameTa"
gansacdelad. dedamisi ki, isev profesionali diasaxlisis pedanturobiT
albobda sarecxs abazanaSi, gasaSrobad fenda ukve garecxils, auTovebda
ukve gamSralsa da fiqrSiac ar uSvebda, didi wvlili rom miuZRoda
Tavadac, Tundac, rogorc kaSelebis rZals, ara marto sakuTari Svilis,
aramed saerTod qveynis waxdenaSi... samagierod, misi Svili cixem gazarda,
cixeSi gamoiwrTo, gamoSuSda, rogorc amirani furis faSvSi. Zveli
antoni aRar arsebobs. tyuilad nu daelodebiT, nurc Zebnas dauwyebT.
mamikosTan erTad mokvda dedikos biWi, Tavaziani qalaCuna. morCa, damTavrda
rogorbrZandebiTqalbatono da dedammokiTxvaSemogiTvalaT da
TavsgaufrTxildiTo da jerkidevbevrsWirdebiTo da amgvari sisuleleebi.
aravin aravis ar sWirdeba. anda, erTxel sWirdeba mxolod. moklas an
moekvlevinos. adamiani erTjeradi SpriciviTaa dedisTvisac, mamisTvisac,
colisTvisac... misi zedmetad gamoyeneba saxifaToa, Sidsi icis, saerTo
gamoqliaveba, saboloo daqianTareba da cumparampa. amitomac, sanam jer
kidev dro aqvs, Znelad asaxsneli siamayiTa da, cota ar iyos,
gamaRizianebeli guliTadobiT adasturebs da kvlavac daadasturebs
(ramdenjerac saWiro iqneba, vidre ar daujereben, anda imas mainc ar
mixvdebian, Tu ramdenad keTilSobiluria misi suliskveTeba), mis mier
Cadenil Tu Casaden mkvlelobasac, colis Ralatsac, dedis veragobasac,
sakuTar sibrmavesac, siyruvesac, uniaTobasac... yvelafers, rac mas exeba,
seqsualuri midrekilebis, politikuri mrwamsis, socialuri mdgomareobis,
Tvalis ferisa Tu cxviris moyvanilobis CaTvliT, oRond, ar icis, ra ufro
sainteresoa Tavad marTlmsajulebisTvis, ukve Cadenili mkvleloba, ra
mizeziTac ar unda iyos is Cadenili, Tu arsi mkvlelobisa, Tundac, jer
Caudenelis... ufro sworad, marTlmsajulebam imitom miuteva, mkvlelobis
arss rom Caswvda da gaiziara kidec, Tu demokratiul gardaqmnebidan
gamomdinare, mainc miutevebda, gindac umizezod moekla amas mSobeli.
SeiZleba, saerTod arafrad Caagdo marTlmsajulebam, rogorc socialurad
usaqmuri, mSoblis kmayofaze myofi paraziti, magram gana axalgazrdobis
umravlesoba, anu, rogorc sabWoTa reJimis dasasrulsa da erovnuli
moZraobis dasawyisSi moixseniebdnen xelisufalni, "Cveni SesaniSnavi
axalgazrdoba", diaxac, rom uqnara da umaqnisi ar aris, rogorc sabWouri,
iseve saerTaSoriso TvalsazrisiT?! rasakvirvelia! magram Tuki saerTod
arsebobs samarTali, es yvelaze naklebad miekuTvneba usaqmurTa da
umaqnisTa am kategorias, radgan, ase Tu ise, mainc axdenda masze gaweuli
xarjebis kompensacias. bolos da bolos, colis naxevars uTmobda mamas.
marTalia, colic mamam SerTo, da albaT Tavidanve TavisTvis, magram raki
arc sabWouri da arc saerTaSoriso kanoni aranairad ar iTvaliswinebs
saziaro colis arsebobas, Tundac, koleqtiuri seqsis dasanergad
masobrivad gakulturulebul-gademokratizirebul ojaxebSi, sakuTrebis
ufleba amgvar delikatur saqonelze, pirvel rigSi, mainc qmars eniWeba
(miuxedavad misi usaxsrobisa) da ara mamamTils (miuxedavad misi maRali
myidvelobiTi SesaZleblobebisa). meore sakiTxia, ratom Seuwyvita Svilma
mSobels kompensacia, anu, ratom gaupo Tavi culiT, Tundac, Teoriulad. da
Tuki samarTali Teoriulad mainc arsebobs, Tuki marTlmsajulebaSi
amgvari cneba samuSao terminad mainc gamoiyeneba, maSin yvelaze metad
swored amis garkveva unda ainteresebdes imave marTlmsajulebas. eZebeT
gvami! gvami arsebobs da gacilebiT meti, vidre saqmisTvisaa saWiro. gana
xmeli foTolic gvami ar aris?! vin unda agos pasuxi foTlis
mkvlelobisTvis?! gana isic viRacam ar mokla?! marTlmsajulebam jer unda
irwmunos, araferi rom ar kvdeba am qveyanaze TavisiT, arc adamiani, arc
foToli, da mere gaarkvios, ra gansxvavebaa raJden kaSelsa da nebismier
alvis foTols Soris, Tundac, sargeblianobis TvalsazrisiT. gansxvaveba
namdvilad didia da, Tanac, foTlis sasargeblod. foToli Citisxela
Crdils mainc afens miwaze. sasiamovnod Srialebs Ramis siCumeSi.
momxibvlelad TrTis niavis yovel wamoqrolvaze... magram raJden kaSeli xar
Tu alvis foToli, mxolod maSin kvdebi, Tu gnebavT, mxolod maSin gklaven,
roca Seni dRe daileva, roca SenTvis gankuTvnili dro amoiwureba. vTqvaT,
da, anton kaSels marTla ar mouklavs mama, rogorc gamomZiebels hgonia.
maSin?! maSin, saerTod araferi Secvlila am qveyanaze, arc araferi
damTavrebula, arc araferi dawyebula da damoukideblobis deklaraciac,
demokratizaciac da es gauTavebeli mitingomaniac morigi oinbazoba yofila
da meti araferi. arada, anton kaSelis Rrma rwmeniT, dRes Tu ara, guSin
(albaT, ufro guSinwin), kaSelebis samzareuloSi erTad dailia, rogorc
alvis foTlis, iseve raJden kaSelis dRe. foTlisa ar iyos, adamiansac dro
klavs, saerTo msajuli, sayovelTao jalaTi... antoni imasTan saxsenebelic
ar aris, antonebi wvrilfexa da adgilobrivi mniSvnelobis qilerebi arian,
Tanac moyvarulebi, usasyidlod muSaoben, ufro sworad, drois miTiTebas
asruleben mxolod, anu, niaviviT exmarebian yunwgamxmar foTols
CamocvenaSi... magram foTolSi Tu zafxuli mTavrdeba, raJden kaSelSi
kaSeloba unda damTavrdes, saukunovani gza unda damTavrdes godridan
gamoCekili matlisa da es cxovrebiseuli, gnebavT, istoriuli
kanonzomierebaa da ara Cveulebrivi mkvleloba, mkvlelobisadmi
Tandayolili, genetikuri midrekilebis kidev erTi gamovlena, amJamad,
antonis mxridan. amitomac aarida Tavi miliciis win mis dasacavad, mis
dasaxsnelad gamarTul mitings da gamomZiebels wahyva duqanSi, organos
biWebTan saqeifod. garevolucionerebuli brbo ki ar gaixada
Tanamzraxvelad, brbos sunian wiaRs ki ar Seafara Tavi, sadac diaxac, rom
saimedod iqneboda daculi yvelafrisgan, marTlmsajulebis CaTvliT,
radgan Tavad marTlmsajuleba daudgeboda mcvelad, satabelo iaraRis
budeSi gazeTCatenili da sevdianad gulxeldakrefili, aramed aRviraxsnil
cxovrebas mieca, marTlmsajulebasTan erTad, rac TavisTavad ukve imis
dadasturebacaa, marTla rom Seicvala raRac. sxvanairad, verc pirad
damoukideblobas SeinarCunebda da verc Sinagan Tavisuflebas, rac
sruliad martom, sxvaTa dauxmareblad, vin icis, ris fasad, magram mainc
moipova, Tanac sul axalaxans, weRan, ufro weRan, vidre guSin Tu guSinwin,
mamis sisxliT moTxvril samzareuloSi, mamis gvamze, rogorc kvarcxlbekze
Semdgarma... diax, mamis mkvlelobaze Zneli, piradi damoukideblobisa da
Sinagani Tavisuflebis SenarCunebaa misTvis. ufro mniSvnelovanic. amis
bralia, amdens rom laparakobs. ufro sworad, amdens rom laparakobda,
vidre enas atrialebda pirSi. uazrod, uTavbolod edeboda Robe-yores, Tavs
awonebda gamomZiebels, viTom, arafris ar meSiniao, da marTlac, im
SegrZnebas, riTac mTeli misi arseba iyo gamsWvaluli, SiSs namdvilad ver
daarqmevdiT. piriqiT, imdenad aRegzno gancdils (Tundac warmodgenilisa),
imdenad gaeognebina sakuTar namoqmedars (Tundac sxvebisTvis daujerebels),
aRarc wess dagidevdaT, aRarc kanons. fexebze ekida yvelaferi (sicocxlis
CaTvliT). egaa rom, Zalian undoda gamomZiebelic SeeZra da Seewuxebina mis
nalaparakevs, dainteresebuliyo misi bediT, ufro, ubedobiT. magram,
samwuxarod, msgavsic araferi momxdara. gamomZiebelma ramdenjerme gaaCuma
kidec, arafrad Caagdo misi mgznebare aRsareba, xeliT aniSnebda, gvacaleo,
da sakmaod xangrZlivad da aSkarad arasamsaxureobriv sakiTxebze
esaubreboda Tavis TanamSromlebs, romlebic daukiTxavad Semodiodnen
kabinetSi da, rac mTavaria, vercki amCnevdnen, esec Tu imyofeboda iq, yovel
SemTxvevaSi, arafrad agdebdnen, ar eridebodnen da kabinetidan gasvlamde,
TiTqos savaldebulo wesiao, yvelani erTnairi mgznebarebiTa da sityvebiT
aginebdnen mTavrobas, gaqceulsac da darCenilsac... amas ki, gaCumebisTanave,
isev iatakze gulaRma gaSxlarTuli, Tvalebdayvlefili da
falosSemarTuli mama daudgeboda xolme Tvalwin da isev misi sisxlis
suni aRrCobda. mokled, itanjeboda. Tumca, sicocxleSi pirvelad grZnobda
Tavs swored rom misTvis Sesafer, misTvis gankuTvnil adgilze. arc dedis
Tbil kalTaSi, arc mamis kriala manqanaSi, arc yivanaxvelian bavSvTa bagaSi,
arc spermis suniT aqoTebul skolaSi, arc mzesumziraWamiebis
universitetSi, arc zRaprul qviSxeTSi da arc bozi colis loginSi ar
ugrZvnia msgavsi ram da, Tqven warmoidgineT, bednieria, gaamayebulia am
SegrZnebiT, radgan RvTis piridan gadavardnil TbilisSi, anton kaSeli ki
ara, jer Zeglic ar mdgara Tavis adgilze... etyoba, rogorc
brmanawlavgamskdari kaci aucileblad unda moxvdes saoperacio magidaze,
cxovrebas Tu apirebs, aseve aucileblad unda moxvdes gamomZieblis
kabinetSi mkvlelic, gindac misTvis sulerTi iyos da arc aravin
ekiTxebodes, surs Tu ara cxovrebasTan dabruneba. samagierod, ocdasami
wlis win dakargul da, bolos da bolos, Tavis kanonier adgilze
dabrunebuli nivTiviT grZnobda Tavs, Tuki, ra Tqma unda, nivTs SeiZleba
hqondes SegrZnebis unari. iq migiyvans fexi Seni, sadac aris bedi Senio.
WeSmaritad! araferi aqvs saerTo am SegrZnebasTan stiqiurobisa da nebaze
miSvebulobis SegrZnebas, Tavis tol-amxanagebSi rom eufleboda xolme...
rasakvirvelia, imaTTan ukeTesad grZnobda Tavs, mSvenivrad erToboda da
Zalianac siamovnebda, vTqvaT, mTavrobis sasaxlis kibeze jdoma Tavis
momaval meuRlesTan erTad (sxvagan arsad yofilan ukeTesad da ufro
axlos), magram Tavs moxveuli Tu xelovnurad gamZafrebuli Jini mSoblis
Crdilidan gamosvlisa Tu Tavis gamoCenisa Tu galiaSi mTvlemare urCxulis
gaRizianebisa Tu saerTod yvelasi da yvelafris fexebze dakidebisa,
samwuxarod Tu sabednierod, mas sxvebze adre Cauqra, radgan gegmazomieri
brZolisa da aseve gegmazomieri Sromis SedegTan ki ar hqonda saqme, aramed
uuflebobis, upasuxismgeblobisa da usaqmurobis niJaraSi gasaidumloebuli
da gaxangrZlivebuli ocnebis ukve qvad qceul nayofTan... gaxedvac aRar
undoda guSindel TanamebrZolebisken, rasac, sxvaTaSoris, rogorc ar unda
gagikvirdeT, yvelaze metad mamamisi bolSevizmis gaWuprebuli matli
ganicdida: samSoblos Ralatad uTvlida, Tavad samSoblos wambilwavi
boganos naTeslari; Straikbrexers eZaxda, mowodebiT Jandarmi (fexiT
Sesdga sakaces, romelzedac TviTmfrinavis gamtacebeli biWis cxedari
esvena) da, rasakvirvelia, yvelafers isev idioti nikolozis daobebul
wignebs abralebda, imaT agiries Wkua-gonebao. magram amas ukve pirad
Seuracxyofad miaCnda regularuli stiqiis morevSi triali: gauTavebeli
demonstraciebi, saCvenebeli mitingebi, mzesumziris knawuni da
SorisdebulebebiT kamaTi qveynisTvis saWirboroto sakiTxebze... marTalia,
amas yvelaze ukeT, arasasurvelis (sinamdvilis) Secvla exerxeba
sasurveliT (warmodgeniliT) Tavisuflad SeiZleba iTqvas, Tvalis
axelisTanave ZiriTadad am saqmiTaa dakavebuli magram mainc iolad
sZlia cdunebas, raTa Cveulebriv mkvlelad ki ara, Zvelis damamxobel da
axlis damamkvidrebel meamboxed gaesaRebina Tavi, risi uflebac albaT
nebismier Tanamomitinge-modemonstranteze meti Tu ara, arc naklebi aqvs
isini Tu jer mxolod imuqrebian, amas erTi ukve gastumrebuli hyavs
saiqios. Tumca, gamomZiebeli, guSinwindRidan, jiutad umeorebda erTsa da
imaves: mkvlelobis faqti ar dadasturda da ararsebul faqtze araviTar
SemTxvevaSi ar aRvZrav saqmeso. magram gamomZiebels sul sxva muclis gvrema
hqonda atexili, Tavisi gasWirveboda, ufro sworad, mxolod is ainteresebda
da, cota ar iyos, abnevda kidec (aba, ratom unda daepatiJna duqanSi
TviTmarqvia mkvleli?!), saqveynod cnobil da yvela xelisuflebisgan
erTnairad dafasebul kacis mkvlelobas ratom ibralebda misi vaJiSvili,
ver mimxvdariyo, ra amoZravebda, ra undoda Tavad vaJiSvils
araprofesionalizmSi unda emxila es, rogorc Zveli, sabWouri kadri, Tu
aqauroba daezvera partiis davalebiT... miliciis Senobaze ukeTess vercerTi
partia ver inatrebda saofised da ara marto politikur bosebs, bevr
axalgamomcxvar biznesmensac uWiravs Tvali am Zvelebur (mecxramete
saukunis ociani wlebi), kariaditebiT damSvenebul Senobaze. ase rom, arc
gamomZiebels gaemtyuneba amgvari eWvebi, oRond, amas araferi aqvs saerTo
raJden kaSelis mkvlelobasTan. Tumca, rogor ara... piriqiT, sworedac rom
sisxlxorcieladaa dakavSirebuli... Tuki anton kaSels raJden kaSeli ar
mouklavs, maSin yvelaferi miraJia da arc miliciis Senobas emuqreba
romelime partiis, anda romelime firmis ofisad gadakeTeba. ese igi, ki ar
quxs, magnitofonze Caweril quxils gvasmenineben SeniRbuli operatorebi.
Tumca, arc raJden kaSeliT amoiwureba yvelaferi. raJden kaSeli ki ara,
lenini gadmoagdes kvarcxlbekidan, magram qveyanas kvlav Cinosani
komunistebi da gamamuliSvilebuli komkavSirlebi marTaven. raJden kaSels
Svilma Tavi ki gaupo culiT, magram amiT kaSeloba ar moSlila. SeiZleba,
gaZlierda kidec... raJden kaSeli pirovneba ki ara, sistemaa, gnebavT,
zRapruli devis Tavi ramdenjerac ar unda mokveTo, mainc amova, zustad
iseTive da Tanac axali. axali cocxi kargad gvis. axalma kaSelebma damales
gvamic, xolo ra mizniT, es marTlmsajulebam unda gaarkvios, Tuki saerTod
apirebs ramis garkvevas. Tuki saerTod arsebobso, gvindoda gveTqva. fefe
erT wuTSi moasufTavebda iqaurobas. imitomac daxvda gamomZieblis
gagzavnil xalxs "obieqti" sufTa, fefe recxvis, xexvisa da moprialebis
ostatia, mere Jelezni gamoiZaxes albaT da isic, rogorc yvela erTguli
msaxuri, maSinve cocxlad darCenilTa mxareze gadavida, daufiqreblad,
Tumca, axali "xazeinebic" dapirdebodnen albaT raRacas, vTqvaT, manqanis
gadaformebas mis saxelze. gvami sqel, gaumWvirvale fardaSi gaaxvies, TokiT
Sekres, gakoWes, rogorc obobam matli, da manqanis sabarguliT waiRes an
JeleznisTan, an lizikos mSoblebTan, oRond, rasakvirvelia, araviTar
SemTxvevaSi ar etyodnen imaT, ra hqondaT gaxveuli "mafraSaSi".
sxvaTaSoris, arc isini hkiTxavdnen, ar dainteresdebodnen zedmetad, radgan
imdenad patiosnebi arian, fiqrSiac ar dauSveben, imaTac Tu CaiTrevs Tavis
binZur maqinaciebSi maTi sayvareli Sviliko. elizbari ambobs, adamiani cudi
ki ar aris, codoao. elisoc misi Wkuisaa. aqamde ver upatiebiaT
erTmaneTisTvis, "guli rom atkines", "bavSvoba rom gaumwares" Svils, misi
dedis xsovna rom Seuracxyves TavianTi TavSeukaveblobiT. aseTi gulqva mama
da aseTi boroti dedinacvali hyavs mis cols, lizikos, Torem,
rasakvirvelia, arc titveli iWyumpalavebda mtkvarSi, biWebTan erTad, da
arc liqiors daakarebda pirs, arc sigarets. magram axla mTavaria,
daRamebamde damalon sadme gvami. RamiT ki, mtkvars gaatanen. albaT ukve
gaatanes. soRanluRs zemoT erTi patara riyea, didi, TeTri qvebiT
mofenili, mTvaris Suqze brZolis veli gegonebaT, oRond, Zveleburi
brZolisa, saakaZis droindeli, Tundac, bazaleTisa, ZmaTa momsvreli... qvebi
CaCqnebiviT bzinaven. mdinaris qari bubuniT gexveva, giTrevs, gisrutavs Tavis
civ, usasrulo derefnebSi da Senc midixar, midixar, Tavs Zalas atan, fexi
qvebze gisxlteba, RrmulebSi givardeba, qvebs Soris, borZikob, ecemi,
miforTxav da mainc win miiwev, mdinarisken... iq damTavrdeba Seni wameba.
mxolod mdinare CamogarTmevs amgvar tvirTs da mere TviTon mixedavs,
uSenodac... Jelezni gvamis mtvirTvelebs jibis fanriT unaTebs gzas. Tumca,
gza sad aris... Tu ar aris, gza ar aris swored. ubralod, mimarTulebas
uCvenebs mkrTali da mxdali sinaTlis meSveobiT. aanTebs, Caaqrobs, aanTebs,
Caaqrobs. frTxilobs, gamocdilia, bevri aseTi mafraSa gautanebia
mdinarisTvis. icis, rodis aanTos da rodis Caaqros fanari, saqme rom ar
gafuWdes. antons ki hgonia, mamis uCumrad, wigns kiTxulobs qviSxeTSi, Tavze
sabanwafarebuli. "cotac, cotac da mivediT. vso." amxnevebs Jelezni
qalebs. "Senc mokide xeli, aRar SemiZlia" eubneba fefe. liziko uxmod
itanjeba. amayi dumiliT uZlebs wamebas. "sad SemiZlia, qalo, Cemi trikis
patrons" icinis Jelezni. qari bubunebs. Zlierdeba. Tamamdeba, mdinaris
siaxloves, Tavis moedanze. mdinarec xmas uwevs TandaTan. ar Cans, magram
igrZnoba Ronieri, ZarRviani, mouxelTebeli, erTxel da samudamod
daZruli. TiTqos brazobs, ase gaufrTxileblad rom daadgnen Tavze, anda
uars ambobs amgvar ZRvenze, mobezrda, yelSi amouvida sul erTi da igive.
"yvelamTavismkvdarsmouarosyvelamTavismkvdars..." mibutbutebs Seuval
sibneleSi. sadRac Woti Sehyvirebs da samiveni SekrTebian (antoniviT). arada,
Woti antonis sayvareli frinvelia da, advili SesaZlebelia, eCvenebodes,
rogorc Tvalgadmogdebuli ciyvi, anda obobas Zafze dakiduli matli. es
misi maradiuli Cvenebebia. mouSorebeli. obobas Zafze dakiduli matli
axlac mis cxvirwin iklakneba haerSi. qalbaton araqnes ki, aSkarad
aRizianebs zedmetad cnobismoyvare vaJbatonebi, cxvirs rom yofen yvelgan,
sadac Casayofs naxaven. iZulebulia, gailursos, viTom, matli TavisiT
tivtivebs haerSi, viTom, Tavad araferi esaqmeba matlTan da viTom, ar
imsaxurebs am debil matls, Tundac, sazrianobisTvis. kacma rom Tqvas, arc
iseTi ioli saqmea albaT, Senze bevrad didi matli jer daiWiro, gakoWo da
mere xeze aitano, aranakleb sami-oTxi metris simaRleze. magram Znelze-
Znelia swori arCevani Rirseulsa da uRirss Soris. Zalian Znelia, rac
ufro maRalia SenSi adamianurobis koeficienti. rasakvirvelia, matlic
codoa TavisTavad, araviTari Sansi ara aqvs gadarCenisa, aravin hyavs, Sens
meti, mTel samyaroSi, visac misi Svela SeuZlia. magram imas, vinc,
maincdamainc, Sen gamogatara aqeT da, maincdamainc, axla, am wuTas,
erTnairad hkidia fexebze obobaca da matlic. imas Sen aintereseb, Sen gcdis
momaval adamians, bunebis gvirgvins, ganviTarebis yvelaze maRal
safexurze mdgar arsebas ras izam? rogor moiqcevi? miageb Rirseuls, Tu
ixsni uRirss, anu, matls dauTmob obobas, romelic namdvilad imsaxurebs
da aRtacebasac iwvevs Tavisi sazrianobiT, Tu xelidan gaagdebineb
damsaxurebul lukmas, anu matls, romelic sibralulis grZnobasTan erTad,
zizRis grZnobasac badebs Sens gulSi... airCie, sanam jer kidev droa! airCie!
adamians, gaCenisTanave, erTaderTi ufleba eniWeba da es ufleba Secdomis
Cadenis uflebaa. adamianis cxovreba mis mier Cadenil SecdomaTa jamia.
sxvanairad rom vTqvaT, nebismier eqstremalur situaciaSi uflebamosilia,
gawiros Rirseuli da ixsnas uRirsi... mtverSi amogangluli matli
gamwarebuli miiklakneba, TviTonac rom ar icis, saiT... isic patara mafraSas
hgavs. TiTqos imaSic mamaSenis gvamia gaxveuli, oRond, bavSvobisdroindeli.
rasakvirvelia, matlic igive mafraSaa gaizarda, gasivda, gaWuprda da
yaWis ZafSi gaexvia TavisTavad. amitomac ar dadasturda mkvlelobis faqti.
es mkvleloba ki ar aris, bunebrivi procesia. Svili amTavrebs mamas,
rogorc pepela matls... liziko ukve mdinareSi dgas. "kaba unda gamexada,
gasawuri varo" icinis yasidad. "ara uSavs, uceb gaSrebi, jer kidev
zafxuliao" amSvidebs Jelezni. "kargi mxiaruli zafxuli gvaqvs, me da
Cemma RmerTmao" buzRunebs fefe. samive icinis da namdvilad rom
sasacilod aqvT saqme: arc is Cans, rac mdinares unda gaatanon da arc
mdinare, romelmac, bolos da bolos, unda waiRos wasaRebi. gvami mainc
vardeba wyalSi, magram ver iZireba, jer axlos arian napirTan. aq wyali
meCxeria. samagierod, xmaurobs. aklebuli aqvs aqauroba. xmaurobs, magram
mainc saSiSia. Jelezni fanris SuqiT poulobs wyalSi Cavardnil mafraSas
da fexiT awveba. "ufro Rrmad unda SexvideT" ambobs bolos. "aRar
SemiZlia" Civis fefe. "wyeulimc iyaviT yvelani... wyeulimc iyaviT yvelani"
yviris liziko. "liziko, liziko, liza" bnelSi sisinebs damfrTxali
fefe. "wyeulimc iyaviT yvelani..." imeorebs liziko, magram ukve
damSvidebuli, xmaSi Rimilgareuli. "aba, erTxelac avwioT da movrCeT am
saqmes" aqezebs Jelezni. qalebs sveli mafraSa xelidan usxltebaT.
uCinari wyali dgafunobs, buybuyebs. TviTonac zed emxobian mafraSas, uWirT
Tavis Sekaveba wyalqveSa slipina qvebze. Tanac srul sibneleSi. sadRac,
ufro qveviT, bayayebi yiyineben. Zneli saTqmelia, axla ayiyindnen, Tu
ubralod aqamde ar esmodaT maTi yiyini. "bayayi wyalSi yiyinebs" ambobs
liziko, is rom ar Tqvas, risi Tqmac unda, rac enaze utrialebs. ukve
welamde dgas wyalSi. win gadaxrili da zurgs ukan xelebgaSverili eqaCeba
mafraSas. "mec ar CamartyaT rame TavSi, ar gamayoloT amas" ambobs viTom
xumrobiT. "ise, oriveni rom wavyveT, ajobebs, magisTvisac da CvenTvisac"
mxars ubams fefe. "ara, Cemi sikvdili ar SeiZleba. me qmari myavs da male
Svilic meyoleba" ambobs liziko seriozulad aRelvebuli, Cqar-Cqara,
facafuciT, TiTqos dro gansazRvruli hqondes, anda, marTla upirebdes
vinme mokvlas. ese igi, Tu vinme unda wahyves mafraSas, fefe unda wahyves,
radgan aRarc qmari hyavs da, imedi unda viqonioT, aRarc Svili eyoleba.
amdens fefec xvdeba, magram xmas ar iRebs, uxmod, mTeli ZaliT awveba
mafraSas. dro gviCvenebs, vin wava da vin darCeba. fefes laparaki ar uyvars.
fefes saqme saqmea. saqme unda akeTos sul, usasrulod, muxlis Cauxrelad...
verc inatrebda, iseTi ojaxis diasaxlisoba arguna bedma da beds ar
uRalatebs, ar aTqmevinebs, marTla ar yofila Rirsio. ojaxis gadasarCenad,
qmarsac damarxavs da Svilsac. ojaxis yurmoWrili monaa da mxolod ojaxis
ganusazRvreli, uvado samsaxuriT SeuZlia Tavis gamosyidva monobidan. saqme
rom ar hqondes, gaiCens. uqmad iSromebs da uqmad ar dajdeba. wyals
danayavs, qviSas gacris, haers mozels, qvas moxarSavs... Sromismoyvare ki ar
aris, Sromisunariania, am sityvis pirdapiri mniSvnelobiT. Sroma ubrunebs
ara marto garemos, aramed sakuTari Tavis aRqmis unarsac am garemoSi.
bunebiTaa aseTi. sxvanairad ar SeuZlia, rogorc Tevzs uwylod. xuTi
wlisa, mtkvarSi damxrCval mezoblis biWs TavTiT Caucucqda da vidre
sxvebi (ufrosebi) wivil-kiviliT iklebdnen iqaurobas, ar icodnen, ra eqnaT,
rogor miexedaT brezentis naglejze dagdebuli damxrCvalisTvis, man
TiTiT gamouCiCqna mdinaris fskeris siliT amoglesili yurebi. misTvis ar
arsebobs Zneli da ioli, sufTa da WuWyiani saqme yvela erTnairad
aucilebelia da misi gasakeTebeli... akeTebs kidec, TavCaRunuli da pirSi
wyalCagubebuli. ara marto moziarea kaSelebis codvebisa, aramed
damcvelica da gammarTlebelic... kaSelebi rom ara, vin icis, romel
sardafSi Cakvdeboda Tavis patara dasaviT, cxovrebis RvarZliT
pirdaTuTquli da yvelaferze TvaldarCenili. rac mTavaria, patara disgan
gansxvavebiT, imas dammarxavic aravin eyoleboda, CemodanSi mainc Caetena
misi gvami da Cumad, qurdulad Caemarxa viRacis saflavSi. misTvis kaSeloba
ki ara, romelime konkretuli kaSelis gavlena da pativia mTavari, Tundac
imave raJdenisa, Tumca, raJdenma ki ar SeirTo is colad, aramed kniaJna
qeTusiam SerTo raJdens ZalaTi da araviTari mniSvneloba ara aqvs misTvis,
ra mizniTa da mosazrebiT: maradiul mxevlad dauyena Svils, Tu potenciur
mkvlelad miuCina. raJdenis uerTgulesi coli kia, magram qmris, imave
raJdenis siyvaruli ki ar ganapirobebs mis erTgulebas, aramed
dedamTilisgan memkvidreobiT miRebuli SiSi da, rasakvirvelia, madlierebis
grZnoba am SiSisTvis. diaxac rom, madlieria dedamTilisa,
gabednierebisTvis, magram aseve diaxac, rom eSinia qmrisa, romelsac yovel
wuTas SeuZlia waarTvas es bedniereba. keTrovanis gverdiT ufro mSvidad
iwveboda, vidre qmris gverdiT wevs am xnis ganmavlobaSi, da nebismier
Seuracxyofas Caylapavs, nebismier damcirebas aitans, oRond araferi Seexos
mis keTildReobas, virTxebisa da obobebis dasacini ar gaxdes isev.
sanacvlod yvelafers gaiRebs, Svilis Rirsebis CaTvliT... antoni axlac
Rrmadaa darwmunebuli, pirvelma (ese igi, antonamde) iman waaswro qmarsa da
rZals... bazris dRe hqonda albaT da, misTvisac moulodnelad, droze adre
mobrunda Sin (wnevam auwia uceb, kuWi aeSala, fuli daaklda da ase
Semdeg...). Sevida samzareuloSi da ras xedavs: titveli alqajebi
dapatronebian iqaurobas da gamalebulni, gaalmasebulni nTqaven erTmaneTs.
verc verafers xedaven, arc araferi eyurebaT, TiTqos daniZlavebulan, aba,
vnaxoT, romeli romels SeWams ufro adreo. sulo codvilo da, sakmaod
saintereso sanaxaobaa, SeiZleba, saTakiloc, magram namdvilad rom
sasiamovno SegrZnebebis aRmZvreli. gawafuli, gamobrZmedili mamrisa da
simwifeSi Sesuli (gnebavT, adre damwifebuli) mdedris SiSveli sxeulebi
erTmaneTSi SeWrilan, erT arsebad qceulan, mimzidvelni da madis
aRmZvrelni, cxel tafaze daxlili kvercxebiviT... ra eqna sabralo fefes?!
rodemde mdgariyo ase pirdabCenili?! wyali aeduRebina saswrafod da, vidre
isini gons moegebodnen, daemduRra gadabmuli ZaRlebiviT?! (erTxel,
Soreul bavSvobaSi, maincdamainc, maTi saxlis win gadaebnen ZaRlebi da
antons axlac cxadad daudga Tvalwin erT-erTi ZaRlis patroni, Cia,
gaquculi dedaberi, romelic cali xeliT sayeloSi Cafrenoda Tavis ZaRls,
meoreTi ki, gaubedavad scemda gavaze jer Sin mivideTo, iq
mogelaparakebio emuqreboda sasowarkveTili, xmaSi tirilgareuli,
radgan erTnairad eSinoda cnobismoyvare, usaqmuri mayureblebisac
"adamianobisken" rom mouwodebdnen aqeT-iqidan da ucxo ZaRlisac, ase
gauTvaliswineblad, ase moulodnelad rom SemoWriliyo mis cxovrebaSi da
erTbaSad daerRvia TiTqos daurRveveli, gare samyarosgan TiTqos saimedod
daculi misi bebruli simyudrove). wivil-kivili aetexa mezoblebis gulis
gasaxarad?! SvilisTvis exmo?! (mainc ar movidoda, ar eyofoda gambedaoba).
araviTar SemTxvevaSi! ar gcnobiaT fefe da egaa "yvelas moaxle",
"yvelasgan davalebuli", magram, amave dros, erTaderTi diasaxlisi
kaSelebis bunagisa, kaSelTa sulis samalavis klitis mflobeli... uCumrad,
bazris CanTianad, gamovida did oTaxSi da savarZelSi Cajda, arc
gadmouferTxavs mkvdari peplebi, azri ar hqonda da imitom, blomad eyarnen
yvelgan, savarZelSic, magidazec, sarkmlis rafazec, iatakzec... mumli ki
trialebda, trialebda, WaRis garSemo, fefes Tavzec, magram ukve aravin
aqcevda yuradRebas bunebis am saocrebas. raRacas rom auwyebdaT buneba,
faqtia, magram imdeni da imdennairi saocreba xdeboda yovel nabijze,
udReuri mumlis Semoseva salaparakodac ar Rirda maT gverdiT. yovel
SemTxvevaSi, fefesTvis namdvilad aRar hqonda mniSvneloba, ras auwyebda
buneba uaresi da ufro mniSvnelovani mainc aRaraferi moxdeboda mis
ojaxSi. mokled, savarZelSi Cajda, raTa imaTTvisac ("gadabmulebisTvis")
mieca gonze mosvlis, mowesrigebis saSualeba da TviTonac mSvidad aewon-
daewona "moulodnelad" Seqmnili situacia, romelsac moulodneli
namdvilad ar eTqmoda, radgan raRac amis magvaris molodini TviTonac
hqonda (antonisa ar iyos), rac axla, mxolod da mxolod, pativiscemis
grZnobas uCenda sakuTari Tavisadmi da damamSvidebel malamod ecxeboda
gulze. bazris CanTas qinZisa da rehanis mZafri suni asdioda da esec
raRacnairad amSvidebda, sasiamovnod abruebda... isini ki, "gadabmulebi",
facafuciT icvamdnen kars iqiT (imedia!) damfrTxalni, dabneulni,
gaanCxlebulni, da CurCul-sisiniT abralebdnen erTmaneTs TavianT
sulmdablobas, TavSeukaveblobas Sen Tu ara maSin xom mec ar... vidre
fefe dedofaliviT mSvidad ijda savarZelSi Tundac, ltolvili
dedofaliviT, romelsac bazris CanTaSi Cautevia mTeli Tavisi avladideba,
mTeli Tavisi qveyana da erTi suli hqonda, rodis ixilavda maT saxeebs.
"ras hgavs es, ras gviTvalTvaleb, jaSuSoba daiwye am sibereSi!"
uyvirebda albaT raJdeni, Cveulebisamebr, yasidad gabrazebuli, radgan
mxolod aseTs, yasidad gabrazebulsa da, amdenad, viTom marTalsac,
SeuZlia aiRos xelSi nebismieri situaciis sadaveebi da SeinarCunos jer
kidev siymawvileSi, komkavSirul RonisZiebebze gamomuSavebuli toni
erTpirovnuli mbrZaneblisa, raTa Cveulebriv movlenaTa rigs miaTvalos es
sakmaod araCveulebrivi movlenac. magram amxanagi raJdeni ver xvdeba (ver
xvdeboda) da verc verasodes mixvdeba (verc mkvdari da verc cocxali),
swored "erTpirovnuli mbrZaneblis" toni rom amxels (amxelda) mis
siyalbes da aaSkaravebs (aaSkaravebda) mis sibeCaves. magram ufro
mosalodnelia, vidre isini ("gadabmulebi") Caicvamdnen da cota gons
moegebodnen, fefes CasZineboda kidec fumfula, mxolod da mxolod, sapatio
stumrebisTvis gankuTvnil savarZelSi, sadac, sxvaTaSoris, arasodes mjdara
iqamde (yovel SemTxvevaSi, antons ar unaxavs). es ufro axloa simarTlesTan.
yvelafers rom Tavi gavaneboT, ise iRleba, erTi wamiT Tu Camojda sadme,
maSinve nibliasaviT eZineba. nibliam (albaT freniT daqanculma), sarze
daiZina da alalis lukma gaxda, fefes alali ki, raJdenia. "ra mogivida,
fefe, gZinavs?" gamomcdeli sifrTxiliT CaekiTxeba cols. "ici, ra miTxra
dedaSenma sikvdilis win?" daiwyebs wamsve gamofxizlebuli fefe, magram
raJdeni aRar daamTavrebinebs sityvas. isedac yvelasTvis cnobilia, ra
daubara dedamTilma fefes sikvdilis win. raJdeni zemodan dascqeris cols
da Tan perangis Rilebs ikravs. "yvelaferSi marTali xar, rac ginda,
gviTxari... ramdenic ginda, imdeni gvagine... Rirsni varT oriveni... nurc me
damzogav da nurc imas... Svili dazoge... Cven davaSaveT da unda davisajoT
kidec..." mxurvaled inaniebs raJdeni da, "Cemi saaTi xom ar ginaxavs
SemTxveviTo", moayolebs sxvaTaSoris. Tan marjvena xelis TiTebs marcxena
xelis majaze aTamaSebs. majas aSkarad etyoba nasaaTari, saaTis danatovari
mkrTali zoli. ese igi, amjerad ar tyuis. "Sen Svils rom hkiTxo, Zeglic
ar dgas Turme am qalaqSi Tavis adgilze" gabrazdeba moulodnelad
(mainc gabrazdeba, yovelSemTxvevisTvis). "sad gaqra, is oxeri! fexi aidga?!"
uyviris WaRis irgvliv mbrunav mumls. "etyoba, samzareuloSi moixsenio"
Seaxsenebs fefe da raJdenic, viTom saaTis mosaZebnad, isev samzareuloSi
Sebrundeba, oRond, gabrazebuli da, aqedan gamomdinare, marTali kacis
kvalobaze, TvalSisacemad frTxilad Seiketavs kars zurgs ukan. xolo,
cota xnis mere, ukve lizikosTan erTad gamova iqidan. igiveni da liziko!
gmiri qali am samarcxvino speqtaklisa da, obieqturebi Tu viqnebiT,
brwyinvale Semsrulebelic Tavisi rolisa... daudevrad gaunaskvavs
saabazano lurji xalaTis qamari. titvel tanze Semoicva uceb. fexebi ki,
ratomRac, fefes flostebSi wauyvia, SeiZleba, SemTxveviT, mRelvarebisgan,
SeiZleba, gangeb, fefes kidev ufro gasagiJeblad. magram albaT pirveli
versia ufro Seesabameba sinamdviles: rac ar unda iyos, mainc Relavs
albaT, jer axali rZalia da siucxovis grZnoba, garkveuli TvalsazrisiT,
mainc aferxebs, mTlianad gamoamJRavnos Tavisi SesaZleblobebi. fefe ki,
mojadoebuliviT Sescqeris. rogorc yovelTvis, axlac aSkarad moxiblulia
misi garegnobiT. TiTqos saerTod pirvelad xedavs, TiTqos lamis mis
Tvalwin da mis xelSi ar iyos gazrdili. rogorc yovelTvis, axlac Surs
misi, radgan gulis siRrmeSi, aseTi undoda yofiliyo TviTonac. oRond,
Tavxedi da gamomwvevi ki ara, rogoradac liziko aCvenebs axla Tavs, aramed
momxiblavad Tamami, rogoric sinamdvileSia. rac mTavaria, nebsiT Tu
uneblied, liziko imas akeTebs, yovel SemTxvevaSi, imis gakeTebas cdilobs,
risi gakeTeba Tavadac undoda, magram ver SeZlo, mizezTa sxvaTa da sxvaTa
gamo, rac srulebiTac ar aris lizikos brali. "ui, Tqveni flostebi
Camicvams SemTxveviT... mapatieT" ikriWeba liziko. TiTqos flostebis meti
araferi mieTvisebinos imisi. arenaze gamoyvanili cirkis cxeniviT, jer erT
fexs aiqnevs, momxibvleli sisxartiT, mere meores da gaxdilsa Tu
moSorebul flostebs fexis wveriT frTxilad miuCoCebs savarZelSi
dedofaliviT CabrZanebul dedamTils. erTi flosti amotrialebuli gdia,
pirqve. vidre liziko am martiv, magram metad mniSvnelovan operacias
atarebs, raJdeni Tvals ar aSorebs fefes. fefe ki, Tavis mxriv, isev
monusxuliviT Sescqeris lizikos. raJdeni fefes, fefe lizikos,
liziko lizikos, sakuTar gamosaxulebas, sarkesaviT moprialebul
iatakze. iataks, ramdenime adgilas, misi SiSveli terfebis mkrTali
anabeWdic atyvia. "Seiwyale ufalo suli monaTluli komunistisa da friad
codvilisa monisa Senisa raJdeni-i-i-saa" mRvdeliviT waimRerebs raJdeni.
swored am dros, TiTqos kveri daukrao, kedlis didi saaTi samjer zedized
daigrgvinebs da yvelani erTbaSad Secbundebian, aCqardebian yovel wuTas
SeiZleba Semouswros antonma, im brucianma batma, iman... verafers mixvdeba,
magram mainc... visa aqvs amdeni manWva-grexis Tavi! "aba he, madloba vuTxraT
dedilos yvelafrisTvis da pirobac mivceT, aRarasodes gavimeorebT am
sisaZaglesTqva" aswavlis raJdeni lizikos. Tan, viTom ZaliT aCoqebs,
mxrebze awveba didi, Ronieri xelebiT. lizikoc viTom uZaliandeba (ase
arian albaT SeTanxmebulni), magram bolos mainc "tydeba" da raJdenis
mtkice xelsa da nebas dayolili, morCilad iCoqebs dedamTilis savarZlis
win. mityupuli xelisgulebi nikapTan miaqvs, Tavs lamis iatakamde xris da
bavSvurad xmadawvrilebuli, sxapasxupiT warmosTqvams "iaponurad": fefe san,
fefe san, madlobeli var Cemi saxeliTac, antonis saxeliTac, Tqveni
meuRlis saxeliTac da saerTod, gzasamcdari kacobriobis saxeliTo.
raJdeni aSkarad kmayofili dascqeris zemodan. xandaxan colsac gaxedavs
xolme da Tvals uzams, Tumca, Zneli dasadgenia fefesTvis, risi Tqma unda
amiT mis meuRles: "meti ra qnas am sabralomo" Tu "meti ra moekiTxeba am
sulelso". mere, dedamTilis win daCoqilsa da "gulwrfelad" monanie
lizikos iRliebSi Seucurebs xelebs da erTbaSad wamoayenebs fexze.
lizikos muxlisTavebi daswiTlebia. TiTqos odnav CaWyletia kidec.
dacqvetili dgas, TiTqos raJdenis morigi replikis molodinSi, da raJdenic
ar ayovnebs: "mec madlobeli var da patiosan sityvas gaZlev, msgavsic
aRaraferi ganmeordebao" (antons Tu moelandeba rame, es ra misi
bralia?!) eubneba savarZelze dedofaliviT dabrZanebul meuRles.
"zurmuxtis taxtzed dajda zafxuli" igesleba liziko. oTaxSi mumli
ireva, iseve rogorc mTel saqarTveloSi. mTel saqarTvelos dastrialebs
mumli, rogorc gadamwifebul xilsa Tu sidamplegamjdar bostneuls... mere
albaT Tavlafdasxmuli antonic movida, quCis axali ambebiT daxunZlul-
daborialebuli, da, Cveulebisamebr, erTad isadiles, mere erTad ivaxSmes,
mere, cota xans, vidre Suqi gamoirTveboda, erTad uyures televizors,
fefes gareSe, klasikuri samkuTxedis mTavarma wevrebma, fefe am dros
samzareuloSi WurWels recxavs xolme, da kvlavac or banakad gayofilni,
TavTavianT wabilwul sawol oTaxebSi Seiketnen... meti arc araferia ojaxi.
miuxedavad usityvo SeTanxmebisa, anda, swored usityvo SeTanxmebis gamo,
aravis ar unda da mainc yvelas xels aZlevs erT WerqveS cxovreba. Cveuleba
rjulze umtkicesia. Cveulebas, SeiZleba, Tavi anacvalo, Svilis Rirsebaze
rom araferi vTqvaT. CveulebaTa dasacavad gadavida fefec misi Svilis
SemginebelTa banakSi da, vin icis, darajaTac edga misi "sikeTiT"
gaTavxedebul qmarsa da rZals, oRond yovel dRe erTad esadilaT, erTad
evaxSmaT, erTad (uimisod) eyurebinaT televizorisTvis da, rac mTavaria,
sxvebis TvalSi isev erT ojaxad darCeniliyvnen. magram ra damalula, es
rom damaluliyo. yvela saidumlos, adre Tu gvian, exdeba farda da yvelas
miezRveba RmerTis nebiT. diax, es RmerTis nebaa, Torem, raJden kaSelis
Svils guSindlamde msgavsic araferi Caudenia, kaci mouklavs ki ara,
matlic ver gauwiravs, matlic Sescodebia, da arc guSin eyofoda sulis
simtkice imis Casadenad, rac Caidina. is RmerTis iaraRia mxolod. RmerTis
neba aRsrulda misi meSveobiT, radgan verc mrgvalebi da verc grZelebi,
verc mwvaneebi da verc cisfrebi verafers gaxdebian, ufro sworad, isinic
TandaTanobiT komkavSiris magvar organizaciebad gardaiqmnebian, Tuki
raJden kaSelis saxsenebeli erTxel da samudamod ar aRigveba pirisagan
miwisa. amitomac (albaT amitomac!), viRac aisors ki ar unda gamoeWra
imisTvis yeli SuSis namtvreviT, isic manqanas ki ar unda gaeWylita quCaSi,
mawanwala ZaRliviT, aramed, maincdamainc, sakuTar Svils unda gaepo misTvis
Tavi samzareulos culiT, radgan aravin icis mama, vidre Zem... asedac moxda!
am TvalsazrisiT, antonic Rirseuli kaSeli aRmoCnda, sisxli sisxlTagani
da xorci xorcTagani, dabadebiT mkvleli, Tavidanve mkvlelad movlenili
mamis zRvargadasuli siTavxedisa da dedis mdabiuri eSmakobis wyalobiT...
ki uTxra dedam, Sen ver gaasworeb am qveyanaso, magram rac im erT wamSi
ganicada aman, imis fass verafers moipovebs dedamisi, verc maTxovrobiT,
verc mamamisis colobiT, verc misi dedobiT da verc lizikos
dedamTilobiT. TiTqos yvelaferia da mainc arafers warmoadgens arc
qmrisTvis, arc SvilisTvis, arc rZlisTvis mtvris gadasaferTxi Cvari da
iatakis mosaprialebeli qeCis nagleji, naRalatevi coli da moRalate
deda... qmars ver itirebs, Svils ver TanaugrZnobs... aseTia misi xvedri.
magram ra eqna sabralo Cioras, erTi bartyisTvis gadaeyolebina mTeli
ojaxi?! isic adga da Svilis Rirsebis wambilwavTa banakSi gadafrinda
maSinve, xelebs ulokavda znewamxdar qmarsa da Zirgavardnil rZals, iqneb
cota mainc dazogoT Cemi bartyio, iqneb, mTlad ar gaasworoT miwasTano...
Tumca, saca samarTalia, Tavis pirdapir movaleobasa da daniSnulebas
asrulebda mxolod. Tavidanve amisTvis Semoiyvanes am ojaxSi, Tavidanve
Seatyves, marto amisTvis rom ivargebda, hoda, ivarga kidec! ara marto
Svili gawira, aramed qmaric da rZalic, yvelani, ojaxis yvela wevri, raTa
uzrunvelad icxovros TviTon kniaJna qeTusias danatovar SiSsa da
siZulvilSi..."gaanebe Cems Svils Tavio" uyvira lizikos, SeiZleba,
mxolod antonis warmodgenaSi, radgan autanlad mounda uceb antons,
Tundac ase dagvianebiT gamoqomageboda deda, Tumca, TviTonac ar icis,
ufro metad, rogorRa unda gaanebos lizikom Tavi. lizikomac
gakvirvebulma Sexeda dedamTils, Sepasuxebac daapira (sainteresoa, ras
ityoda!), magram swored am dros, samzareuloSi saswrafos eqimebi
Semovidnen da orive ZaliT gamoiyvanes iqidan. mere, zewargadafarebuli
raJden kaSelis gvamic gamoagores borblebiani sakaciT da ase dasrulda es
ambavi. sinamdvileSi, daiwyo! sikvdili aCens sicocxles. gnebavT, sikvdils
sicocxle enacvleba yovelTvis. raJdeni mokvda, magram kaSeloba grZeldeba.
fefe fefed da lizikomac aranaklebi rZloba gauwia kaSelebs, Tanac,
gacilebiT mokle droSi. diaxac, Rirseuli memkvidre aRmoCnda Tavisi didi
winamorbedebisa. kaSelebs saerTod ar eTqmiT sayveduri TavianT rZlebze.
tols ar udeben erTmaneTs. fefes dedamTilma (antonis bebiam), lizikosgan
gansxvavebiT, Taflobis Tve qviSxeTSi ki ara, fsiqiatriulis karTan
gaatara, fexi ar moucvlia iqidan, vidre misma dedamTilma, cxonebulma
klavam (antonis peperam), Tavi ar CamoixrCo fsiqiatriulis fexsadgilSi.
samagierod, roca TviTon Cavarda loginad, misi rZali (antonis deda),
sikvdilis angeloziviT daadga Tavze da, rom ityvian, civ niavs ar akarebda,
vidre, erT mSvenier dRes, yelSi ar amouvida Wkuidan gadamcdari dedabris
uazro bJuturi da "bolo siamovnebis" baraqiani doza erTbaSad ar
SeuSxapuna enis qveS Tu Tvalis gugaSi, radgan sxvagan aRar hqonda im
ubedurs nemsis gasakeTebeli adgili. xolo, Tavad mas (fefes), sakuTari
rZali (liziko), upirveles yovlisa, sawolSi Seenacvla, rogorc
keTilSobil ojaxSi aRzrdil mandilosans moeTxoveba (mwerlis qaliSvili
gaxlavT, bolos da bolos), daasvena, suli moaTqmevina dedamTils... ai, ase,
erTmaneTze ukeTesad gamoiyurebian isini kaSelebis saojaxo albomSi da
saerTodac, kaSelebiviT sastiksa da gulRrZo kacebs, etyoba, yovelTvis
aseTi saTno da gulisxmieri qalebi unda hyavdeT gverdiT. aseTia
dauwereli kanoni bunebisa, sadac msgavsi msgavss ara marto spobs, aramed
warmoSobs kidec. es aRelvebs (aRelvebda) antonsac, amis Tqmas cdilobda
guSin mTeli dRe, vidre sabolood gaiTiSeboda. kvalis abneva ki ar undoda,
rogorc gamomZiebels egona, aramed guliT iyo mowadinebuli, kvalze
daeyenebina Zieba, ara marto TavianT ojaxur sibinZureSi Caexedebina, aramed
ufro seriozuli, sayovelTao ubedurebis wyaroc mieTiTebina da misi
Tavidan acilebis gzebic eswavlebina. magram, magram da kidev magram... aw
gardacvlili kaSelebi (iqamc yofilan), saSiSni aRar arian. risi gakeTebac
SeeZloT, gaakeTes. magram geSinodeT imaTi, vinc maT Semdeg modian. anton
kaSeli sakuTari mamis mkvlelobisTvis ki ar aris sazogadoebisTvis
saxifaTo "elementi", aramed ziari coli rom hyavs mamasTan, Tanac,
fexmZime! vinc ixilos mama, ixilos Zec... magram es ki ar aris mTavari,
mTavaria axali ubedureba aviciloT rogorme Tavidan. quCa-quCa xetialiTa
da droSebis frialiT araferi gamova. aucilebelia, ara marto antonis
colma, aramed yvelam, sruliad saqarTvelom, saswrafod moiSalos muceli,
ufro gasagebad Tu vityviT, gaikeTos aborti daunaneblad, daundoblad,
rogorc ar unda dairRvas Cveni genetikuri fondi, gamoifxikos Tavisi
wiaRidan, igive warsulidan, anu, gonebidan, sulidan saidanac gnebavT
kaSelis Tesli, erTxel da samudamod, ukuniTi ukunisamde, Tuki marTla
apirebs gadarCenas. kaSeli gvari ki ara, senia, da antonze ukeTesad aravin
icis, ra Tvisebebi gaaCnia am sens Tavis dasacavi, garemosTan Sesaxamebeli,
ufro zustad ki, nebismieri garemos, klimatis, amindis, feris, znis,
garegnobis, sulis, gonebis, enis, rjulis, miznis gardamqmneli yvelasTvis,
visac Seeyreba misive sibriyvisa Tu uiRblobis gamo. amitom... amitom,
saswrafod unda gaerTiandnen da yvelam erTad eZebon, ara marto raJden
kaSelis gvami, aramed anton kaSelis colic. Tavad antoni, ra dasamalia da,
yvelaze mZafrad swored ucolobas grZnobs axla. ese igi, ver aRiqvams
colis Tundac mis wil naxevars. xolo, ufro gulaxdilni Tu viqnebiT,
sakuTar ereqcias grZnobs, colis reaqcias ki vera. eZebeT iblisis meZavi,
Tavis marad Ria, marad mSier, marad yvelafris mSTanTqav saSoSi rogorc
alqimikosis sinjaraSi amTqvefi, Semzavebeli, gamaerTianebeli mamisa da
Zis Teslisa, arnaxul, argagonil homunkulusis Sesaqmnelad, romelic
misTvis, erTsa da imave dros, Svilic iqneba da mazlic, misi qmrisTvis ki
Svilic da Zmac; xolo mamamTilisTvis Svilic da SviliSvilic...
sxvaTaSoris, lizikoca da antonic Taviseburi homenkulusebi arian,
pirvelebi, pionerebi, xelovnurad, laboratoriuli meTodiT Seqmnilni
sabWoeli alqimikosebis mier, ideologiis wiTeli kvercxidan gamoCekilni,
rasakvirvelia, arc mTlad patiosani mizniTa da ganzraxviT. Tumca, mizani
da ganzraxva ukve yvelasTvis naTelia: maT unda mouvlinon qveyanas axali
saxeoba kaSelisa, winaparze saSineli da uSTamomavlo erTjeradi
urCxuli ara marto qveynis amomWami, aramed sakuTari Tavisac. antoni
Zmac iqneba da biZac sakuTari Svilisa, liziko dac da mamidac... magram
aqamde ar unda mivides saqme, anu, antonis kanonierma meuRlem da ukanono
tyupiscalma rogorme unda sZlios qmrisa da Zmis daCagvris, dakninebis Jins
da amoigdos Tavidan, rac jer kidev Canasaxobisas, jer kidev kvercxis
binadars Caunerges, gnebavT, nemsiT Seuyvanes, da gadaifiqros, rac mis
gaCenamde didi xniT adre Caifiqra dosiTeoz nekreselis gampoetebelma Tu
qviSxeTeli biblioTekaris gamgiJebelma... mokled, qalbatonma kaSelma, sanam
jer kidev ar dagvianebula, saqveynod, yvelas dasanaxad, telekameris win
unda moiSalos muceli, Tundac savaraudo, Teoriuli saSiSroebac rom
moispos kaSelTa xelaxali aRzevebisa, rasac albaT pirveli TviTon ar
dauSvebs, rogorc antonis tyupiscali, magram rogorc antonis meuRle,
didi siamovnebiTac gauCens qmars, erTsa da imave dros, da erTi da igive
arsebis saxiT, Svilsac, Zmasac da disSvilsac... bunebaSi ar arsebobs Zala
misi gamCerebeli...
 Citebi ki JivJiveben, stvenen, WikWikeben, aRgznebulni, atacebulni
sakuTari xmebiT, erTmaneTs ayolilni, mondomebulni, mowadinebulni
erTmaneTis wamxedurobiTa da, vin icis, marTla darwmunebulnic, maTi
erToblivi ZalisxmeviT rom Tendeba es ukuneTi Rame... SeiZleba, antons
tuqsaven, ar uwoneben saqciels ras gavxar, ras Wyumpalaob mag
aSmorebul auzSio SeiZleba, wyevlian kidec, mSoblis gametebisTvis da
erTxmad mouwodeben, vidre jer kidev droa, gons moegos, dabrundes Sin,
moinanios, ganiwmindos, gasufTavdes, isev adamians daemsgavsos da keTili
inebos, kvlavac daicvas bunebis wesi, Cadges rigSi da mihyves CitisTvisac da
adamianisTvisac erTnairad savaldebulo dro-Jamis dinebas... magram amaod
irjebian. antoni veRarasodes gaxdeba iseTi, rogoric iyo da ukve zustad
iseTia, rogoric unda yofiliyo Tavidanve, rogorc bunebis, ise cxovrebis
wesidan gamomdinare. ufro sworad, araviTar wess ar emorCileba. misi bedi
caSi ki ar aris gadawyvetili, rogorc nebismieri sulierisa, aramed
kabinetSi. man ukve Ralatis simwarec igema da mkvlelobis siamtkbilobac.
aRarc guli aqvs, aRarc mizani, aRarc Rirseba, aRarc samSoblo da isev
mamamisis sayvareli sityva rom moviSvelioT, aRarc ideali. misi ideali
sikvdilisTvis sikvdilia. arafris gamo da arafrisTvis. amitom gaaCina
dedam, amitom awova ZuZu (Tuki awova saerTod), amitom zrdida, amitom
umarTavda grandiozul dReobebs, namcxvris mTebiTa da limonaTis
mdinareebiT, amitom ukuWavda jibeSi fuls, mamis uCumrad, da amitom
ukeTebda nemss, "xandaxan", "iSviaTad", "wamlad", gansakuTrebiT, "cud
amindSi", roca ZaRlic ar gaigdeboda gareT da erCia, Sin, ojaxur siTbosa
da simyudroveSi mjdariyo misi Svili, vidre sxvenSi an sardafSi... Svilmac
daufasa amagi. magram vinc mamas klavs, is SeiZleba nebismieri vigindaris
xeliT moiklas. jer ki cocxalia. jer veraferi daakles misi mokvlis
msurvelebma, ese igi, namdvilad misianebma, misnairebma. isini ukve mravlad
arian da, RvTis wyalobiT, xval ufro metni iqnebian, mamebisa da dedebis
xelSewyobiT, xelisufalTa usityvo TanxmobiT, zezeurad Camompalni
aTasnairi seniTa da sibinZuriT, maradiuli tusaRebi, cixeSi Tu cixis
gareT, plantaciebSi qancgawyvetili zangebiviT Cacucqulni sadarbazoebis
win, trotuarebis gaswvriv... uazro, umizno, uSedego aRsasrulis
molodinSi... erTmaneTisa rom esmiT, Tanac kargad, imitomac xocaven
erTmaneTs. Tumca, amjerad xeli moecaraT. magari kakali SexvdaT, Tavadac
mkvleli, Tanac genetikuri, Tmis Ziridan fexis frCxilamde. aSkarad
cocxalia. ai, sisxlic mosdis... ai, ras ugavs saxe... kbilebze boTli
daamsxvria im faRaraTma... svel xelebs frTxilad isvams SeSupebul saxeze,
nela, gaubedavad iSorebs boTlis wvril namtvrevebTan erTad mimxmar
sisxls da Wrilobebi maSinve axali sisxliT evseba. mere isev wyalSi
afarTxalebs xelebs, farflebiviT, da uaresad amRvrevs, aqafebs binZur
wyals. gegonebaT TamaSobso, Tavs iqcevso, da asedacaa, sxva arc araferi
evaleba, arc araferi moekiTxeba. valic gaistumra da mosaxdelic moixada,
ybayurisa da yivanaxvelis CaTvliT. jerjerobiT, sxva aranairi saymawvilo
seni ar Seyria. sxvaTaSoris, arc veneriuli. am mxriv, maTi ojaxi namdvilad
sanimuSoa, yvelani mkacrad icaven sisufTaves da ucxos aravis aWaWaneben
ojaxur seqsSi. magram simarTle Tu gindaT, amas araferi aRar ainteresebs,
aRarc colis simarTle, aRarc mamis tyuili. saerTod arafris codna ar
unda, arc ludoviko bolonielis CaSlili misiisa, arc dosiTeoz
nekreselis leqsebisa... arafris... surs, uvici da ucodinari iyos sxvebiviT,
danarCenebiviT, radgan codna zedmeti bargia, xelis SemSleli da, SeiZleba,
damRupvelic, roca marto Sen ici, risi codnac yvelasTvis erTnairadaa
savaldebulo, miT ufro mkvdar qveyanaSi, sadac araTu simarTles ar
amboben micvalebulze, aramed saerTod ar axseneben micvalebuls, TiTqos
arc yofilao. marTlac, veraviTari swavla-ganaTleba ver moutanda albaT
iseT sulier kmayofilebas, Sinagan simSvides, siamayis SegrZnebas da, rac
kidev ufro metia, iseT saxelsa da pativs (ara marto borotmomqmedTa,
aramed samarTlis damcvelTa Sorisac), rogoric mamis mkvlelobam moutana
erT Cveulebriv debils, Tumca, samwuxarod, arc mTlad Cveulebrivs,
Cveulebrivze dabla mdgoms Tavisi zneobriv-moraluri doniT, radgan jer
kidev SenarCunebuli aqvs da verafriT mouTokavs impulsuri sibralulisa
da aRSfoTebis unari, rac, upirveles yovlisa, xels uSlis WeSmariti
bunebis gamomJRavnebaSi, ris gamoc naklebad mimzidveli, Tundac, naklebad
saintereso Canda yovelTvis tolamxanagebis TvalSi, magram rogorc ki
culi aiRo xelSi, rogorc ki orad gaupo Tavi sakuTar mSobels, umal
didebis Saravandedi daadga Tavze, sufra gauSales "xeivanSi" da yvelam
qvemodan dauwyo laquci, duqnis garyvnili ZaRlebiviT. mkvleloba
winaprebisgan memkvidreobiT miRebuli Tvisebaa misi da ara facafuciT,
saxeldaxelod, iZulebiT SeZenili xeloba, drois moTxovnilebaTa
gaTvaliswinebiT. piriqiT, swored drois moTxovnilebebma SeuSala albaT
xeli, Tviseba xelobad eqcia, Tavis saxelovan winaprebis msgavsad.
Tavisufleba da damoukidebloba, miT ufro zemodan Tavsmoxveuli da,
eSmakma icis, ra mizniT gaTamaSebuli, ara marto pirveli moTxovnilebis
saqonels aqrobs daxlebidan, aramed udanaSaulo msxverplis deficitsac
aCens misdauneburad, rac Tavis mxriv, araTu romantiul momxibvlelobas
ukargavs jalaTis profesias, aramed saerTod saTuos xdis mis arsebobas,
ris gamoc asobiT da aTasobiT TvalsaCino profesionali quCaSi rCeba da
Cveulebrivi durglisa Tu santeqnikosis msgavsad, sanagveze gadis sarCos
mosapoveblad... magram, rac marTalia marTalia, man gacilebiT meti SeZlo,
vidre misma saxelovanma winaprebma, Tumca, yvela maTgani saxelmwifo
mniSvnelobis mkvlelad iTvleboda da "upragonod" xvretda xalxs marjvniv
da marcxniv. mainc mxolod man gabeda mSobelze xelis aRmarTva. SeiZleba,
imaT ver moaswres, ar dascaldaT, iqamde daixocnen, vidre mixvdebodnen,
mSoblebi rom unda moeklaT jer, Tuki marTla undodaT qveynis gasworeba
pepera CxubSi mokles, papa manqanam gaitana magram arcerT maTgans
gunebaSic ar gauvlia mSoblis mokvla da es Tu vinmem icis, mxolod aman
icis, radgan zRaprebis magivrad da yvela zRaparze ufro wvrilad, imaT
ambebs uyveboda xolme bebia, uyveboda mrisxanebiT anTebuli, aRgznebuli,
agangaSebuli, uzomo sasmelisgan da narkotikisgan xmaCaxrinwuli,
klanWebad qceuli TiTebiT Cafrenili SviliSvilis majas grZnobda
kidec, rogor gadmodioda bebiis sxeulidan mis sxeulSi, rogorc erTi
WurWlidan meoreSi, gaunelebeli SiSi da siZulvili sakuTari jilagisa,
sakuTari sisxlisa da xorcisa cxovrebisgan dasaxiCrebuli, masac
asaxiCrebda uneburad (narkotikiT hqonda tvini SeWmuli), SurisZiebis fuWi,
cvedani, arafris maqnisi JiniT Sepyrobili da ukve yvelafris Camdeni, risi
Cadenac saerTod SeuZlia qals... Tavadis qali bolSeviks Cauwva loginSi da
qmrisa da mamis damxvrets Svili gauCina... SviliSvilisTvis ver epatiebina,
rac Tavad Caedina, gulqva, ubiri, ugemuri sicocxlisTvis, da imasac ZaliT
iTrevda Tavis binZur, samarcxvino warsulSi, im uhaero, oflian da bnel
droSi, Tavze tomaraCamocmulma rom gaatara qviSxeTuri agarakis sardafSi,
ase vTqvaT, "repeticiebze", brma sikvdilis ganuwyvetel molodinSi, vidre
misi meuRle da amis papa, amis didi sexnia, srolaSi varjiSobda da naganis
tyviiT amsxvrevda Tavze ablabudian qilebsa da boTlebs... mokled, aravin
icis, ris fasad, magram amas mosaxdeli ukve moxdili aqvs. ase Tvlis
marTlmsajulebac. "Cemze rom iyos rame damokidebuli, SenisTana biWs ki ar
davsjidi, davajildovebdio" uTxra guSin gamomZiebelma kabinetSi, roca
zerele, "formaluri" gaCxrekvisas misi pijakis gulis jibeSi aRmoCenil
suraTs ubrunebda. is erTaderTi suraTia, romelzedac mSoblebTan erTad
aris gadaRebuli da axlac pijakis gulis jibeSi udevs albaT, yovel
SemTxvevaSi, ramdenadac axsovs, jer is suraTi amoiRo Sardis wumpedan da
mere gadmoxta Ramis baris sapirfareSos sarkmlidan. ase rom, is ocdasami
weli, avi iyo Tu kargi, ukve istorias Cabarda. cotaa Tu bevri, aman is
moixada, rac miusajes. TavisTvis araferi miusjia, arc ocdasami weli, arc
ocdasami saaTi. azri ar hqonda da imitom. azri ar hqonda imdenad,
ramdenadac arc iqamde CauTvlia Tavi damnaSaved da arc imis mere.
nebismieri borotmoqmedi winaswar iTvaliswinebs, kanonis romeli muxli
Seesabameba mis mier Cadenil danaSauls, icis raze midis, amasTan ki sul
sxvanairadaa saqme, amas jer sasjeli unda moexada da mere unda daedgina,
rogori danaSauli ufro Seesabameboda misgan ukve moxdil sasjels.
amdenad, aman isic ki ar icoda, sCadioda Tu ara rames. ufro sworad, imas
sCadioda, rac gangebas, RmerTs (romelic, etyoba, marTla arsebobs, raki
mamamismac iwama), winaswar hqonda gaTvaliswinebuli, Tu rac impulsuri
mrisxanebis Jams moepriana. rac mTavaria, aman isic ar icoda,
borotmoqmedeba Tu iyo, rasac sCadioda. piradad mas, piriqiT egona. asedac
gaifiqra, sikeTes vSvrebio, roca culi ukve mTeli ZaliT hqonda daqneuli
da veRaraferi gaaCerebda. culic, ra Tqma unda, RmerTma Caudo xelSi.
TviTon erTi wamiT, Tvalis umciresi nawiliT aRiqva imis momlodine, civi
elvareba da mere verc miliciaSi da verc sufraze gaixsena, rodis mivida
magidasTan culis asaRebad. axla TviTonac ecineba, magram isev mamis
meSveobiT rom Seecada am ucnauri, uCveulo gansacdelidan gamoZromas
faqtia da mTavar faqtze aranakleb samarcxvinoc. "mamaCemi moagvarebs
yvelaferso" gaifiqra samzareuloSi SesvlisTanave, TavisTavad cxadia,
uneburad, rogorc bavSvobaSi emarTeboda xolme, met-naklebad seriozul da
saxifaTo sitauciaSi moxvedrils. raRa Sors wavideT, im dResac ase
gaifiqra zustad, roca gulamovardnili misdevda lizikos trial mindorSi,
mamasTan da JeleznisTan erTad, da imis garkvevas ki ar cdilobda, ratom
unda gadaxtomoda coli manqanidan, aramed, "mamaCemi moagvarebs yvelaferso",
imSvidebda Tavs. Tan, gulamovardnili garboda da imis mere, ase garbis.
suli exuTeba, cecxlis perangi acvia TiTqos, Rilebi ki ver Seuxsnia, ver
imorCilebs TiTebs da, gamwarebuli, tanze ixevs perangs. awyvetili Rilebi
kutkaliebiviT mixtian maRal balaxSi. mindvris boloSi pirquSi qedi
wamowolila, magram ki ar axlovdeba, nel-nela ukan ixevs TiTqos. liziko
ukanmouxedavad garbis. fexSiSvelaa. fexsacmelebi xelSi uWiravs da mkvdari
CitebiviT miakonwialebs. garbis, garbis, TiTqos sikvdils gaurbis. eseni ki,
enagadmogdebuli mwevrebiviT misdeven. "zemodan mouare, zemodan" uyviris
mama Jeleznis da esec elodeba, ra miTiTebas miscems mama. magram amaod. mama
ZaRladac ar agdebs, arada, mTavari esaa. ufro sworad, amis cols misdeven
dasaWerad da Tuki vinmem unda daiWiros, aman unda daiWiros, pirvel rigSi.
"me TviTon, me TviTono" yviris sunTqvaSekruli, gulamovardnili, saxeze,
mkerdze, mklavebze oflSi azelili mumli gadaglesvia. am sazizRari
fafiTa aqvs amovsebuli piris Rruc da nestoebic. cotac da, gaigudeba,
mokvdeba. magram mainc jiutad miZvreba ekalbardebSi, sadac liziko Sevarda
es wuTia. miZvreba, matliviT micocavs lizikos nakvalevze, Tumca, TviTonve
grZnobs, ra uazrobaa misi Tavgamodeba. sabediswerod daagvianda ukve. anu,
gindac miwvdes, daiWiros liziko, mainc veRarasodes daibrunebs ukan. aqamde
ar unda mieyvana saqme. waRma-ukuRma ki ar unda ekiTxa misTvis leqsebi,
aramed rac SeiZleba Sors da rac SeiZleba swrafad unda gascloda
aqaurobas, imasTan erTad. ar unda mieRo mamis nawyalobevi Tavisufleba,
radgan mamam marTla ki ar gaanTavisufla, rogorc qviSxeTSi egona, colTan
marto darCenils, aramed misi colic Caigdo xelSi, misi meSveobiT. droebiT
daTmo dapyrobili teritoriis erTi goji da ori miimata samudamod... es ki
ekalbardebSi miZvreba. ras eZebs? ra daukargavs? aq lizikos ra unda?!
liziko raxania gamoaTries aqedan mamamisma da Jeleznim. aq mxolod
lizikos danatovari sicarielea, lizikos sundakruli, ekliani, CaxuTuli,
mumliTa da mtvriT amovsebuli. lizikos danatovar sicarieleSi miRoRavs
matliviT da sakuTar xorcs atovebs mayvlovanis eklebs. misi sisxliT
wveTaven mayvlovanis eklebi. "liziko, liziko" misi xmiT yviris,
Rrialebs mayvlovani. lizikos saxeli sasuleSi gasCxeria TiTqos da
rogorme Tu ver amoanTxevs ukanve, isic amasaviT gaigudeba, daixrCoba,
mokvdeba... "ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe" mSvidad ambobs mamamTilis
mkerdze Tvalmilululi liziko. imasac mTeli saxe dakawvria. nakawrebSi
sisxli Casdgomia, magram, gaWirvebiT, mainc axels cal Tvals, Zalian
ainteresebs, ra zemoqmedeba moaxdina misma naTqvamma, da SedegiT kmayofili,
enas uyofs amas. es ki icinis, imdenad umweoa iRonos rame, yvelaferze
ecineba, siyvarulzec, veragobazec, yvelaferze... imazec ki ecineba, imaT
magivrad rom rcxvenia, ufro sworad, lizikos magivrad mamisa da mamis
magivrad lizikosi. mamamisma liziko farad daiyena win, culSemarTuli
Svilis mosagerieblad, lizikom ki, erTad moboWili sacvlebi (iqamde,
ratomRac, mkerdze hqonda mixutebuli orive xeliT), saxeSi miayara da
uyvira: "damartyi, raRas ucdi, Se laCaroo". magram yvelaze naklebad
liziko imsaxurebs misgan sikvdils da es mamamismac icoda. Tu icoda, iman
icoda swored, da Tu undoda, swored imas undoda, arCevani SeSloda amas.
imitomac dumda. dumiliT agiJebda orives, erTmaneTs rom dareodnen bolos.
sxvaTaSoris, yvelaze naTlad, is dumili axsovs. is dumili iyo yvelaferze
amazrzenic da Seuracxmyofelic. sul ramdenime wams gagrZelda albaT,
magram aqamde ver daarRvia verafriT. miliciaSic Sehyva, duqanSic, Ramis
barSic... SeiZleba sikvdili imdenad ar undodes, ramdenadac im dumilisgan
ganTavisufleba. im dumilis gamo unda albaT sikvdili. im dumiliT kidev
ufro monusxa da gamoaTayvana mamamisma, magram arCevani mainc ar SeSlia,
mamasa da cols Soris ki ara, aramed mamis CrdilSi matliviT RoRvasa da
gafrenis im wamier SegrZnebas Soris, culis daqnevisTanave rom daeufla
uceb da erTbaSad aamaRla sakuTari uZlurebis, sakuTari umweobis,
sakuTari simdablis mwvervalze, rasac jer jojoxeTuri Rreoba mohyva, mere
klinikuri sikvdili da bolos koSmaruli sizmari, romelmac, samudamod Tu
ara, RmerTma icis, ramdeni xniT gamoaTria sinamdvilidan, rkinis
grZeltariani kauWiviT, romliTac papamisi morig msxverpls gamoaTrevda
xolme sikvdilmisjilTa saknidan. ase rom, misi miwaze dabruneba ukve
SeuZlebelia. is ukve caSia, maRla, sakuTar Tavzec ki, da swored im wamieri
Tavisuflebis wyalobiT, im wamieri Tavisuflebis gamo, im wamieri
TavisuflebisTvis, sruliad martom, damoukideblad rom moipova mamis
sisxliT moTxvril samzareuloSi. mamis arsebidan sakuTari warmomavloba,
sakuTari fesvi amoZirkva da, CvenSi rom vTqvaT, es aris misi pirdapiri
daniSnulebac, amisTvisaa saerTod movlenili qveyanaze. matlis pepelasaviT,
sakuTari gvar-jilagis aRsasrulis mauwyebelia da aqeT-iqiT uazro
farfatiTa da freniT farfatiTa da freniT amTavrebs winaprebis mier
xoxviT gamovlil gzas, matlis fiqriviT uferulsa da uRimRamos... Ramis
baris matlebi amasTan ver movlen. isini kidev ufro uaresi matlebi arian,
sapirfareSos wumpeebis binadarni... matlebad darCebian bolomde. imitomac
ver moWames fexebi. verasodes ganicdian, rac aman ganicada, radgan is ki ar
adardebT, vaiTu, Zala ar gveyos mosaklavado, aramed, vaiTu, Cvenze Zlieri
aRmoCndes, da aqeT dagvxocoso. ufrTxildebian TavianT matlur sicocxles,
gauTavebeli laybobiT malaven TavianT matlur SiSs da ganuwyvetliv
daeZeben maTTvis arasasurveli situaciebidan gamosaZrom xvrelebs, Torem,
ra mniSvneloba aqvs, vis klav, qilers Tu qristes, Tuki misi mokvla
dagisaxavs miznad, Tuki misi sikvdili migaCnia erTaderT xsnad, Tu mTeli
qveynierebisTvis ara, SenTvis mainc. gana aman uyoymanod, ulaparakod ar
dahkra mamas culi TavSi?! Tumca, srulebiTac ar gaukvirdeboda, liTonis an
qvis birTviviT, aesxlita mamis Tavs misi culi. mama ukvdavi iyo misTvis, ara
marto bavSvobaSi, roca jer bevri araferi gaegeboda sikvdilisa, aramed
merec, roca Tavad ixila, igrZno da iwvnia yvelafris warmavaloba. mxolod
mamamisi rCeboda ucvleli, Seuvali, miudgomeli, rogorc zebunebrivi, iseve
bunebrivi da qvebunebrivi ZalebisTvis. vis ar xsnidnen, vis ar iWerdnen, vis
ar klavdnen is ki (mamamisi), erTi kabinetidan meoreSi gadadioda, Tanac
ukeTesSi, ukeTesi avejiTa da mdivniT gawyobilSi. amaoeba amaoebaTa da
amaoa yoveli, magram mainc nu hgoniaT im debilebs, cxvariviT rom
gauCerdebaT es. marTalia, sikvdils iqiT daeZebs, magram marTla cxvari xom
ar aris?! SeiZleba, mamamisisTvis cxvari iyo, ufro sworad, cxvris magivrad
es Seswira mamamisma Tavis kerps, magram es mainc ufro adamiania, vidre
cxvari: raRaceebi axsovs (magaliTad, Wreli Zroxa, Tvalgadmogdebuli
ciyvi, misgan ganawyenebuli oboba...), raRacaze guli wydeba (pirvel rigSi,
qviSxeTSi gatarebul dReebze), viRac uyvarda (vTqvaT, liziko)... ase rom,
jer TavianTi upiratesoba daumtkicon, yvela gza mouWran, ar dautovon
gadarCenis araviTari Sansi da, ki batono, mere ginda marTla cxvariviT
gamoWran yeli, ginda tyvia daaxalon kefaSi, rogorc papamisi eqceoda
"samSoblos moRalateebsa" da "xalxis mtrebs". magram vidre cocxalia, esec
yvelafers iRonebs, raTa erTxel kidev gadarCes, imitom ki ara, sikvdilis
rom eSinia, aramed mamas rom ar Sexvdes sikvdilis saufloSi, simZafre da
sicxovele ar daukargos erTxel ukve gancdilsa da gadatanils (Tundac,
warmodgenils), radgan iqac, sikvdilis saufloSic, iseve moeqceva mamas,
rogorc aq moeqca, samzareuloSi Tavs gaupobs culiT... Tavs gaupobs
culiT erTaderT adamians, romlisac swamda, romelic eimedeboda da
romelsac simbolod Tvlida saerTod adamianobisa, vidre iman branwi ar
daanaxva, ai, Seni rwmenac, ai, Seni imedic da ai, Seni adamianobaco... amitom,
misi ukanaskneli survilia, gadarCes, anu, arasodes aRar Sexvdes mamas.
arada, am erTi saaTis win, imdenad axlos idga sikvdilTan, xviTqiviT
gadasdioda saxeze mkvdari mamis suniani, webovani amonasunTqi... axia! metis
Rirsia! egre mouxdeba! viRacis, marTla debilis, wera-kiTxvis ucodinaris
gauwafavi xeliT dajRabnilma acabaca isrebma gaabriyves, gaityues da
sakuTari fexiT SeabrZanes xafangSi...

es saidanRa gaiCiTa, e?! gulwrfelad gaukvirda barmens.

me ra vici. me rom movedi, eg ukve ijda Tqva lidam.
xelovnuri, grZeli wamwamebi Savad ubzinavda. aSkarad zedmeti mosvloda
saRebavi.
ra gnebavT, genacvale? marto xarT? dauyvavasaviT barmenma antons
kari vin gauRo? miubrunda lidas.
me ar gamiRia. me rom movedi, eg ukve magidasTan ijda Tqva lidam.
kargi ra, Seni Wirime... auqnia xeli barmenma naRdi Seni klientia,
boziSviliviyo...
erTxelac ityvi da waval... meyofa yoveldRe erTi da igive...
gabrazda lida, magram barmenma ar acala:
radiboga! oRond, mere xvewna aRar damiwyo daeTanxma da daemuqra
kidec, erTsa da imave dros.
me aravis arafers ar vexvewebi... aseT samsaxurs yvelgan viSovni... aqeT
Semexvewebian kidev ufro gagulisda lida.
vso! movrCiT. magaze mere vilaparakoT. axla klients mixede
saqmianad Tqva barmenma SeukveTeT, rac gindaT miubrunda antons.
 antonma pirvelad maSin Sexeda safuZvlianad. ocdaaTs Zlivs iqneboda
gadacilebuli, magram bevrad xnierad gamoiyureboda, albaT naadrevi
siqaClisa da saTvalis gamo. aSkarad mowadinebuli iyo, zrdili, Tavaziani
kacis STabeWdileba moexdina "klientze", magram xelovnuri, naZaladevi
Tavazianoba kidev ufro mdabiursa da arasasiamovno elfers aZlevda mis
garegnobas.
ra gaqvT ro? hkiTxa antonma agdebulad.
e, rogor Tu ra gvaqvs... Cven yvelaferi gvaqvs. SeukveTeT rac gindaT
da lida yvelafers gaaCens... ara, lida? daimowma melam kudi. magram,
marTlac, meliis kudiviT gafumfulebuli oficianti, romelic albaT
meZavadac muSaobda SeTavsebiT am gaugebar dawesebulebaSi, jer kidev
ebuteboda. yovel SemTxvevaSi, aSkarad yelSi hqonda amosuli Tavisi orive
xeloba.
arafersac ar gavaCen... movrCi muSaobas ganacxada kuStad.
ar gaaCen da... ras hqvia, ar gaaCen! ar gamomiyvano, Se nabozvaro,
moTminebidan... moTminebidan gamovida ki ara, gamovarda, gamoenTo barmeni.
ei, muwuk... ar grcxvenia? rogor elaparakebi qals... mSvidad uTxra
antonma.
barmeni moulodnelobisagan gaognda, damunjda. anda, Segnebulad
daimunja Tavi, dro rom moego, saswrafod aewon-daewona Seqmnili situacia
da mereRa emoqmeda, situaciidan gamomdinare.
jer laparaki unda iswavlo da mere gaxsna bari... gaagrZela
barmenis dumiliT gaTamamebulma antonma aq unda iswavlos
gamoqliavebulma axalgazrdam, rac skolaSi ver iswavla... mobrZandiT.
dabrZandiT. madlobT. ukacravad. kargad brZandebodeT... ar miafsaT magidis
fexs... ar miaWylitoT kedelze sigaretis namwvavi... nu CaufurTxebT
mezobels yavis finjanSi...
Seni saqme ar aris, Cven ras vetyviT erTmaneTs gaawyvetina lidam.
etyoba, tanma safrTxe ugrZno da xazgasmuli familiarulobiT scada
daZabulobis ganmuxtva Tqvi, ra ginda, ra mogitano? Tan, marjvena
xelis grZelfrCxilebian TiTebs, albaT mRelvarebis dasafaravad, magidaze
aTamaSebda, lamis antonis cxvirwin, marcxena ki, gamomwvevad, Semoedo
TeZoze.
antons, ratomRac, guli dawyda, egona (Tavs daabralos!), oficiants
esiamovneboda misi gamoqomageba, madlierebis grZnobiT ganimsWvaleboda
misdami, moiglejda foTlisxela winsafars, saxeSi miagdebda saTvaliani
gveliviT galursul barmens da, Tundac, meZavuri, oficianturi RirsebiT
miatovebda aqaurobas... masTan erTad.
Sens adgilas, frCxilebsac Savad SeviRebavdi... dagxatavs... erTbaSad
gaizrdeba klientura... mende sityvaze. kargad vicnob am debil qalaqs
Tqva yalbi guliTadobiT.
saRlabucod ar mcalia, Seni Wirime, Tqvi, ra gnebavs? aifxora
lida. Tan frCxilebze daixeda uneburad.
oraluri siyvaruli miaxala antonma mSvidad, warbis Seuxrelad.
rao? ra mnebavso? rogorc iqna gamoerkva barmeni. sakuTar yurebs
ar daujera da isev Semobrunda, wasasvlelad gamzadebuli.
sisaZagles meubneba raRacas daabezRa lidam klienti.
oraluri siyvaruli SevukveTe uTxra antonma barmens imave
simSvidiT Tqven ar TqviT, rac gindodeT moiTxoveTo?!
SarSi nu gamxvev, Zmao, Seni Tavi ara maqvs daiZaba barmeni.
sroki momixdia, Zmao, gamige ra! xmaSi ahyva antoni.
 wadi, miSas dauZaxe... kenWosac. droze qeni, ras miyureb, Se idioto?
oriveni movidnen axlave uTxra barmenma lidas adeqi. morCa. vixurebiT.
aRar vmuSaobT mklavSi mokida antons xeli.
xeli gamiSvi Tqva antonma mSvidad.
barmenma maSinve gauSva xeli. antonma adgoma daapira, orive xeliT
daeyrdno magidas da skamic fexiT gaaCoCa ukan, magram am dros, isinic
movardnen, miSa da kenWo, da ra xdeba, ra ambaviao, aqoSinebulebi daadgnen
Tavze aqeT-iqidan.
vin aris? fuls ar ixdis? ikiTxa miSam.
Sarzea viRacaa... meZvelbiWeba aq... mineti moTxova lidas Tqva
barmenma.
vah! gulwrfelad Seicxada kenWom.
mere? gaqvs magdeni fuli? dainteresda miSa.
fuli saerTod ara maqvs. dRes gamovedi cixidan Tqva antonma.
fuflo xar? ese igi, fuflo xar daaskvna kenWom.
fuflo ki ara, mkvleli. gnebavT, qileri daazusta antonma.
gvaRadavebs, boziSviliviyo Tqva barmenma.
mec ara vTqvi, vakelebi movidnen-meTqi... Tqva miSam.
ra ici, rom imaTi mogzavnili ar aris? aRelda barmeni vin xar,
Zmao, ra ginda? aq barderi ar aris, aq baria miubrunda antons.
es ra baria... Tqven ra, videoSic ar ginaxavT bari? Caicina antonma
da demonstratiulad moatara xeli sivrceSi.
marTlac, iqauroba Cveulebriv sasadilos ufro gavda, vidre Ramis bars.
erT kuTxeSi iataki odnav aemaRlebinaT da zed skami daedgaT, albaT
musikosisTvis, magram axla aravin ijda im skamze amerikuli sigaretis
moWmuWnuli kolofi daegdo viRacas zed xolo, darbazis meore boloSi,
sigaretis kvamlis RrubelSi SeyuJuli sami biWi da ori gogo, anda, sami
gogo da ori biWi, kidev ufro amZafrebda isedac usicocxlosa da uferul
garemos. saerTod ar iRebdnen xmas. albaT anaSas eweodnen da garindulni
elodebodnen mZafr SegrZnebebs. arc gaugiaT, rac darbazis am boloSi
xdeboda.
kaifob, jigar? uTxra kenWom antons, cudad SeniRbuli sibraziT
egre rogor SeiZleba... egre ar gamova, Zmao...
kaifob ki ara, qeifob. qarTulad qeifia gauswora antonma,
yuradReba ar miuqcevia imis cudad SeniRbuli sibrazisTvis, TiTqos
mSobliuri enis maswavleblad moewviaT aq da pirvel gakveTils utarebdaT
bayayi wyalSi yiyinebs... kapiki gakapikebula... sartyeli mivirtyi-movirtyi,
mortymuli daviarebi... da kidev ramdeni aseTi margaliti gvaqvs, RvTis
wyalobiT. ase ar aris? magram Tqven Tu aRar mogwonT, me vin msjis viTom...
Tavi qvas gixeTqiaT... sxvaTaSoris, marTla vqeifob, ori dRea, qeifSi var, ar
gamomnelda arafriT... ase rom, mec TqvenisTana nagavi var... Tu ar gjeraT,
misuneT...
aSkarad, cudad iyo atexili, weras hyavda atanili, cecxls eTamaSeboda,
magram siamovnebda cecxlTan TamaSi, gamabrueblad, gamomaTayvaneblad,
rogorc gamwiravi dedis, anda, moRalate colis alersi...
giJia, boziSviliviyo Tqva barmenma.
wadi, Zmao, masti naxe qurdulad mouqcia kenWom.
Cemi masti ar arsebobs... erTi patiosani mkvleli var, suls iqiT
araferi mabadia Tavi moisawyla antonma.
geubnebiT, giJia Tqva barmenma.
 ade, adeqi! gavideT, gareT vilaparakoT xmas auwia kenWom da
mklavze waetana, undoda ZaliT wamoeyenebina skamidan, rogorc mTvrali,
gajanjlebuli klienti, magram antonma daaswro, yvelasaTvis moulodneli
siswrafiT wamodga fexze, gadayiravebuli skamic aseve swrafad,
ukanmouxedavad moiSora fexiT, Tan pijakis gulis jibeSi xelis Cayofac
moaswro da ki ar iyvira, daisisina: adgilze gagaTavebT samiveso... etyoba,
lida ar Caugdia saTvalavSi, marto mamrobiTi sqesis warmomadgenlebi
igulisxma.
girCevT, sityvaze damijeroT daamata cota xnis Semdeg, ukve
agdebulad momRimarma.
daZabuli dumili Camovarda. TiTqos dacxa kidec. lida moSorebiT idga
da gulxeldakrefili iyureboda aqeTken. SeRebili Tval-warbi Savad
ubzinavda. gegonebodaT, Cveulebriv, mobezrebul sanaxaobas uyurebs
iZulebiT da erTi suli aqvs... ara, piriqiT, sulerTia misTvis, rodis an
riTi damTavrdeba es morigi maimunobao.
es bazari mindoda axla me?! barZayze xeli dairtya barmenma.
gvasiabandebs Tqva kenWom vin Wams magas...
geubnebiT, mkisrebelia Tqva barmenma.
mkisrebeli var... yvelafris mkisrebeli var daeTanxma antoni
mamasaviT, mamis mamasaviT, mamis mamis mamasaviT... marjvena xeli isev
pijakis gulis jibeSi hqonda Cayofili.
vso. movrCeT bazars. Tqvi, ra ginda da wadi Seni gziT saqmianad
mouWra barmenma.
Sen cota vera xar, ai... yasidad moiRuSa antoni aki giTxari,
arsad mimesvleba-meTqi... patiosani, mkvleli ki ara, poeti aRar unda aravis...
amis meti araferi mabadia. es aris mTeli Cemi avladideba moayola
auCqareblad da pijakis gulis jibeSi Cayofil xels suraTi amoayola,
Cveulebrivi suraTi, friad gavrcelebuli saojaxo albomebSi: ded-mama
TavianT SvilikosTan erTad. ojaxis wevrebi ojaxur garemoSi.
barmenma mtacebeli cxovelis simardiT gamostaca suraTi xelidan. jer
xarbad daaSterda, mere ramdenjerme gadaatriala waRma-ukuRma, bolos,
mgoni, dasuna kidec, magram mainc veraferi gaugo.
eseni vin arian? rad ginda? hkiTxa antons daufaravi interesiT
Sen ra, marTla mkvleli xar? qileri xar? eseni unda daxoco? zedized
miayara SekiTxvebi, zedmetad aRelvebulma sakuTari, jer kidev
dasazustebeli varaudiT.
suraTi ori TiTiT eWira, wkipad, TiTqos es wuTia gaumJRavnebia da
aSrobso.
magaTgan erTi ukve movkali uTxra antonma da xeli gaiSvira,
suraTis CamosarTmevad, magram barmenma suraTiani xeli ganze gaswia.
minetisTvis xalxs xocav, SeCema, ar grcxvenia? Tqva kenWom.
TvalgaSeSebuli, gafiTrebuli, sadRac, antonis Tavs zemoT iyureboda,
daZabulobisgan ybaCamozrdili da, etyoba, antonisgan gansxvavebiT, is
namdvili iaraRis tars bRujavda jibeSi. ver gadaewyvita, ahyoloda Tu ara
uecrad gaCenil ganzraxvas, anu, amoeRo Tu ara iaraRi, radgan Tuki
amoiRebda, mere iZulebuli Seiqneboda, exmara kidec.
 antonma isev barmens Sexeda, viTom isev suraTis CamosarTmevad gauwoda
xeli, magram, imave wams, kenWosken Semobruda da moulodnelad, vidre is
yoymanobda, mTeli ZaliT xeTqa muSti saxeSi. kenWo gadaqanda, erTi-ori
areuli nabijic gadadga ukan, magram ar waqceula. waqceviT antoni waiqca,
radgan miSam Savad alaplapebuli naganis tari Caartya kefaSi... "adrec Tu
mogsvliaT erTmaneTSi usiamovnebao" maSinve hkiTxa gamomZiebelma da
asanTis kolofi isrola magidaze. "me da Cems colso" Seubruna kiTxva
aman. "mama mokali Sen Tu colio" gaicina gamomZiebelma da "age,
ciyvio" gaiSvira TiTi. aman gamomZieblis TiTs Tvali gaayola da marTla
dainaxa ciyvi, oRond, xeze ki ar ijda, barmenis ubidan iWyiteboda. uceb
cali Tvali gamoebera, gamoebera, gamoebera da aerostatis xela rom gaxda,
sazareli xmiT gaskda. imis lorwovani nafleTebi Tvalebzec aekra antons
da imave wams sapirfareSoSi amohyo Tavi. lidas garda, yvelani iq iyvnen.
suniT mixvda, suniTa da gansakuTrebuli, sapirfareSoseuli sigriliT.
amqveynisa aRar iyo, fexze ver idga, miSas ekava uknidan, ufro sworad,
fexebwarTmeuli, ilajgawyvetili da miwaze CvariviT moTreuli ekida miSas
rkinisebur mklavebze.
mowuwne, Se dampalo... vis veubnebi! mowuwne qarTuli mompasi
eubneboda kenWo da TviTonve icinoda sakuTar xumrobaze. cota qveviT
dawie, simon, xom xedav, ver vwvdebi uTxra miSas.
es jer ver mixvda, ras ambobda, raze icinoda, ras akeTebda kenWo, magram
uceb SemaZrwunebeli sicxadiT igrZno, rogor mouTaTuna iman tuCebze
amazrzenad dondlo, nelTbilad aqoTebuli asos Tavi da maSinve wamoazida,
sisxliani dorbli Camoewuwa nikapze.
zed damarwyia, am CaTlaxma! iyvira kenWom.
axla miSam da barmenma gaicines, erTdroulad, Sexmatkbilebulad, TiTqos
mouTmenlad elodebodnen am replikas.
tyuilad fafxurob da imitom. xom xedav, ar gidgeba moayola
sicils barmenma.
ra gxia mainc amisTana ahyva miSac Sen isa Tqvi, samudamod Tu
dagakargvina kacoba...
dediTqvenisam, diax! aba, lida Semovides... me am banZze ar midgeba
Tqva kenWom, yovelgvari xumrobis gareSe, da imave wams, kidev erTi
araadamianuri tkivili elviseburad gaiklakna antonis SiganSi,
erTdroulad miswvda Tavisi cecxlovani sacecebiT gulsac, RviZlsac,
tvinsac... da mere ferdSi, neknebs qvemoT gaqvavda, eklis gorglad qceuli...
 gamomZieblis kabinetis orive sarkmeli yurTamdea moRebuli, magram haeri
mainc ar Semodis. antoni lamis daixrCos. Tanac, peperas CafarTxunebuli
faraja acvia da budionovka axuravs Tavze. suli exuTeba. cotac da,
danaRmuli saaTiviT iWeqebs misi guli, nafleTebad iqceva. "ar dagaviwydes
perekopi!" uyviris pepera. iman da dideda klavam Camarxes es marilSi,
perekopTan, dabadebamde didi xniT adre, ufro sworad, TavianTi mkvdari
Tesli SaSxiviT Seinaxes marilSi, samomavlod, da marTlac, marilis
gaqvavebul zvirTebSi wevs TiTqos axlac, marilis akvanSi, marilis
artaxebiT gakoWili, kandaSaSruli, tvingamomSrali... erTi ylupi haeri
CaasunTqeT da yvelaferze Tanaxmaa: Tbilissac aiRebs Tavidan da, Tu
gindaT, Zia elizbarsac miayenebs kedelTan, biblioTekar nikolozsac,
dosiTeoz nekreselsac, ZuZuebdaglejil dedofalsac da TavmokveTil
mefesac... sarkmlidan, haeris magivrad, moaxlovebuli demonstraciis
gaurkveveli da SemaSfoTebeli xmebi Semodis. gamomZiebeli iZabeba, magidaze
sasrolad momzadebuli asanTis kolofi xelSi uSeSdeba. xan antons
Sexedavs gamomcdelad, xan sarkmels. antonsa da demonstracias Soris
farulad arsebul kavSiris dadgenas cdilobs. Zveli Cekistia, gamoqeqili,
Sebertyili. magram antons aRaraferi akavSirebs demonstraciasTan. "gaaReT
sarkmeli! yviris gunebaSi vixrCobi..." marTla ixrCoba, Tumca, sarkmeli
Riaa. sasule aqvs gadaketili. misi jalaTebi ki, aq xiTxiTeben, Ramis baris
sapirfareSoSi...
naRdi qileria. Tu ginda, sanaZleo Tqva barmenma da kenWo gverdiT
gaswia. kenWo ar gasZalianebia. vin icis, gauxarda kidec. magram mainc nel-
nela, viTom uxalisod, viTom iZulebiT ikravda Sarvals eseni vin arian?
Tavze dahyvira barmenma antons da suraTi cxvirwin autar-Cautara
ramdenjerme. demonstracia ki, wami-wam axlovdeba. demonstracias mumlis
Rrubeli dastrialebs Tavze, rac ukve Cveulebrivi sanaxaobaa TbilisisTvis.
xalxi gabezrebulia mumlTan uazro brZoliT. Zlivs moSorebulTa adgils
iolad movlenilni ikaveben. antonis adgils vin daikavebs? antonis adgili
raxania dakavebulia. ludoviko bolonielis Camosvlamde. antons adgili
ara aqvs. saerTod, arafers ar warmoadgens, haeris buStia, genetikuri
uazroba, anaqronizmi... ki magram, mama Tu ar mouklavs, ras morboda,
maincdamainc, miliciaSi da ratom ar mivida, vTqvaT, germaniis saelCoSi?!
damicaviT, gTxovT, mSobliuri agresiisgan... rogor, Tqve-e-enc? mamaTqvenis
Svi-i-li? diiiax, Cve-e-enc, mamiCvenis Svili! nu gjeraT feriscvalebisa!
ramdenjerac dasWirdeba, imdenjer icvlis fers da ramdenjerac ar unda
icvalos feri, mainc is darCeba, rac aris. "vixrCobi... davixrCvi... budionovka
mainc momxadeT, Tqve arakacebo" yviris, igineba gunebaSi,
sasulegadaketili...
mgoni, raRacas geubneba mxari wakra kenWom barmens.
rao? ar mesmis. garkveviT Tqvi! jer yurSi Cahyvira barmenma antons
da mere TviTon miutana yuri pirTan.
antons undoda eTqva, gamaxsendi, gicani, vici, vinca xaro, magram araferi
gamouvida, sasacilod Clifinebda, tuCebgadmobrunebuli, da dorblis
Sxefebs afrqvevda mxolod.
 "Tqveni deda..." yvelas erTad aginebs gunebaSi, vinc mis dacemas Seuwyo
xeli, vinc am aqoTebul sapirfareSoSi miiyvana misi cxovreba. futkris
bzuili zRvis dagubul gugunSi gadadis TandaTan. ufro da ufro imuxteba,
iZabeba haeri. sarkmlis minebi Semawuxeblad wkrialeben, TiTqos miwa iZrao.
gamomZiebels cali yuri quCiskena aqvs, Zalian ainteresebs, ra xdeba gareT,
kidev ra "fokuzs" unda elodes quCisgan. guli ugrZnobs, raRac kavSiri
marTla arsebobs TviTmarqvia mkvlelsa da fexebzemkidia demonstracias
Soris. am goims hgonia, Senobis warTmevas upireben. magram raRac kavSiri
namdvilad rom arsebobs antonsa da moaxloebul demonstracias Soris, amas
antonic grZnobs. grZnobs ki ara, Tavs dadebs. daZabuli elodeba, rodis
axrialdeba megafoni, da ai, isic! "Tavisufleba sindisis patimars"
xrialebs, xixinebs, ixrinweba megafoni. antoni lamis wamovardes skamidan,
magram ver ganZreula, daWedilia skamze. "lizikos xmaa... lizikoa" uxaria
antons. rogorc ar unda daamaxinjos, gaauxeSos megafonma, maSinve icnobs am
xmas da yovelTvis ase gauxardeba, rogori gabrazebulic ar unda iyos da
rogorc ar unda ejavrebodes Tavad liziko. celis xmisa ar iyos, es xmac
misi sakuTrebaa, misi saidumlo saganZuris erT-erTi uZvirfasesi eqsponati.
magram vidre megafoni xrialebs, xixinebs, ixrinweba da filtvis
nafleTebiviT isvris gauazrebel sityvebs "Tavisufleba", "sindisi",
"patimari" gamomZiebeli isev gamomcdelad uyurebs antons, ar jera, ar
SeuZlia daijeros, amxela speqtakli, mxolod da mxolod, adamianuri
simartovis, adamianuri umweobisa da uimedobis demonstraciaa da meti
araferi...
vin arian-meTqi, ar gesmis?! isev dahyvira Tavze barmenma.
"vin arian? romeli partiaa?" ekiTxeba gamomZiebelic. "Cemi colia...
lizikoa... liziko Cemi colia" Clifinebs es gunebaSi. "ade, ade, wavideT.
kargi pur-marili gvelodeba... me rom magaTi ambavi vici, dilamde aRar
gaaTaveben..." ambobs gamomZiebeli da asanTis kolofs magidisken isvris...
xedav am suraTs? xedav? Tavze dagaxev, icode! brazdeba barmeni.
"mtkiced sdeq! Saosnebi ukve modian.. Rvinis pirveli qarxnis muSebic
CvenTan arian" xrialebs, xixinebs megafoni. "Tavisufal saqarTvelos
gaumar... Tavisufal saqarTvelos gaumar...jos. jos. jos." Rrialebs quCa.
"ra ginda mand, Se debilo, axlave gamoeTrie gareT" isev xrialebs, isev
xixinebs, isev ixrinweba megafoni...
romeli mokali? kaci? qali? bavSvi? Tavze dahyvira antons barmenma.
 ra Tqma unda, bavSvi. bavSvi mokla antonma. Tavisi damarilebuli bavSvoba.
mkvleli ki ara, TviTmkvlelia, ufro sworad, aRaraferi ar aris. xmeli
foToliviT agdia gamomZieblis gverdiT, gamomZieblis sakmaod Selaxul
fiatSi, da krwanisisken miiswrafis, saxelganTqmuli duqnisken, oRond,
ganTavisuflebis aRsaniSnavad ki ara, sakuTar qelexze. aRarc Tavs ekuTvnis,
aRarc mamas, aRarc cols da aRarc aravis... misi dRe dailia. mgzavriviT,
gindac patimariviT, ki ar zis manqanis savarZelze, xes momwydari da qaris
Semogdebul foToliviT agdia. manqana ki, zedized ezanyeba TiTqos
sagangebod mis gasamwareblad gaCenil Rrmulebsa da ormoebSi da,
miuxedavad am seriozuli dabrkolebisa, mainc axerxebs sivrceSi
gadaadgilebas. ai, gascda metexis xids, Wrel abanoebs, balneologiurs,
TaTrebis saCaies, daCoqil firosmans... "arc eg ar dgas Tavis adgilzeo"
niSnis mogebiT ekiTxeba gamomZiebeli. ra Tqma unda, ar dgas, magram antons
fexebze kidia yvelaferi. "Tavi qvas uxeTqia yvelas... Tavi qvas uxeTqia
yvelas... am Cems fexebs..." xrialebs gaguduli, miSas xelebze dakiduli,
rogorc dakluli xbo rkinis kauWebze... magram, misTvisac moulodnelad,
suraTze aRbeWdilma aTi wlis antonma umcros ZmasaviT Semoxeda uceb, ar
vici, sayveduriT, ar vici, TanagrZnobiT, da isic suraTs waetana uneburad...
araferi aqvs im suraTze Zvirfasi, gasafrTxilebeli. im suraTis wyalobiT,
mTeli ojaxi erTad ixdida sasjels, erTi da igive motiviT, erTsa da imave
sakanSi. ufro metic, erTsa da imave narze, marTalia, simbolurad, magram
samarTlianad, Tundac mxolod antonis TvalsazrisiT. ojaxma Sva Tavis
wiaRSi ara marto Jini mkvlelobisa, aramed sababic, wamqezebelic,
aRmsrulebelic da... msxverplic. arc araferi usesxia, arc araferi SeuZenia.
yvelaferi TviTon "awarmoa", wlebis manZilze, sagvareulo damRiT, radgan
am mizniT iyo saerTod movlenili godridan... es evaleboda: ojaxuri
masStabiT warmodgena momavali msoflio masStabis katastrofisa,
kacobriobis xvalindeli dRisa, kaSelebis dinastiis Tavdauzogavi da
TiTqmis saukunovani moRvaweobis kanonzomieri Sedegisa... miliciaSi guli
uskdeboda, vaiTu, aRar damibrunon suraTio, da, netav, marTla ar
daebrunebinaT iq ufro gadarCeboda ideboda TavisTvis mtvrian
saqaRaldeSi, sxva miriad gauxsnel saqmesTan erTad... "pirvelad vnaxe, kaci
jibiT atarebdes mSoblebis suraTs da Tan culiT dasdevdes mosaklavado"
Tqva maSin gamomZiebelma da es iyo erTaderTi swori daskvna, rac ki iman
saerTod gamoitana "kaSelebis saqmidan". diaxac, siyvarulis gamo mokla,
siyvarulisTvis da siyvaruliT. coli ki ara, mama. mizezi ki ara, mizani.
coli mkvlelobis sababis erT-erTi Semadgeneli nawilia mxolod da,
garkveuli TvalsazrisiT, isic msxverplia. amdenad, araviTari mniSvneloba
ara aqvs, konkretulad vin iqneba is, liziko, niniko Tu anano... abstraqtuli
cnebaa da, aqedan gamomdinare, sxvac bevri vinme SeiZleboda yofiliyo
antonis coli. marTlac, ra gansxvavebaa, romeli maTgani gamoglejs
xelidan SampanuriT savse Wiqas, gacnobisTanave, da sanacvlod Tavisas, ukve
fskeramde pirwmindad amowovils, mogaCeCebs... romeli maTgani ar gkiTxavs
saxels, zrdilobisTvis mainc, da romeli maTgani dagimtkicebs uecarsa da
yvelafris gamasworebel siyvaruls maSinve, iqve, iqve Tu ara, meore oTaxSi
mainc, anda, sadarbazoSi, garaJebs ukan, manqanaSi, xis Ziras, buCqebSi...
sulerTia, sad, yvelgan, sadac amuris sakmaod dablagvebuli isari daeweva
da droebiT gaTiSavs, gaabruebs, rogorc saSiSsa da Znelad
mosaTvinierebel mtacebel cxovelebs abrueben da TiSaven mecnierebi,
savaldebulo gamokvlevisa Tu aucilebeli mkurnalobis Casatareblad... mama
ki, mxolod is SeiZleba iyos, vinc aris, vinc gaCenamdec Sens mamadaa
Cafiqrebuli RmerTisgan da sikvdilis merec Sens mamad darCeba, ginda Tu
ara Sen, gsiamovnebs Tu ar gsiamovnebs. rac mTavaria, colis Ralats, ase Tu
ise, mainc SeiZleba mounaxos gamarTleba da, adre Tu gvian, mainc Seeguos
kaci. eSmakic ver daTvlis, ramdeni kdemamosili qalbatoni Ralatobs qmars,
Tundac, am wuTas, vidre amas ase oralurad aupatiureben sapirfareSoSi.
coli RalatisTvis aris Seqmnili da ZiriTadad Cvenve, qmrebi, vaiZulebT am
nabijis gadadgmas. Ralati ki ar ukvirT colisgan, aramed erTguleba,
radgan nebismieri qmari nebismieri colisTvis bunebrivi dabrkolebaa,
raRacaSi xelisSemSleli da, Zalauneburad, yvela coli cdilobs da,
bolos da bolos, yvela coli axerxebs am dabrkolebis gadalaxvas, vin
SfoTiTa da ayalmayaliT, vin mSvidad da uxmaurod... magram roca mama
giRalatebs, abuCad agigdebs, araTu gapatiebs, piriqiT, Sens dasaknineblad,
Sens gasabiTureblad gamoiyenebs, vTqvaT, Sens sisustesa da uasakobas, anda,
rame fizikur nakls (miT ufro rom, Tavad Segqmna aseTi nakiani), araTu
Svilad gaRiarebs, saerTod arafrad Cagagdebs, Tundac, rogorc sulier
arsebas, romelic xedavs, grZnobs, ganicdis da romelsac, imisda mixedviT,
Tu rogor garemoSi, ra magaliTebiT gazrdi, SeuZlia, daufiqreblad dados
SenTvis Tavi da aseve daufiqreblad gagipos Tavi culiT amis gageba da,
miT ufro, amasTan Segueba, aramarto Znelia, dauSvebelicaa, Ralatia mTeli
kacobriobis winaSe, ramdenadac yvelaferi modis mamisgan, da aravin icis Ze,
garda mamisa, da aravin icis mama, garda Zisa! es ukve katastrofaa,
apokalifsi, samyaros bolo dRe, armagedoni... mama uaryofs Svils, Svili
klavs mamas. wre ikvreba. xafangi ixureba da gvaris ukanaskneli
warmomadgeneli, uhaero sivrceSi gamomwyvdeuli, amaod abCens pirs, amaod
daeZebs gamosavals garduvali da samarTliani aRsasrulidan. mamis mkvleli
sworedac sapirfareSoSi unda moiklas da sworedac rom vigindaris xeliT...
egec Sen! axia! ylape sakuTari sisxli... roca Senma didma peperam, "godris
gagdebulma", rogorc rZali eZaxda, internacionaluri ojaxis Sesaqmnelad
ruseTs miaSura, maSin Caeyara safuZveli Sens dRevandel savalalo
arsebobas, arafrisgan arafrisTvis gamomdinares, oRond, Senze gacilebiT
Zlierisa da mniSvnelovanis damagvirgvineblad movlenils. Sen gazis
ukanaskneli buStula xar mxolod, TavisTavad gamoyofili Tqveni saerTo-
sagvareulo, oRond, ukve mkvdari organizmidan, erTs sacodavad amoifSven
da ukvalod gaqrebi, ganqardebi haerSi... haersac ver gaafuWeb wesierad, erTi
nabijis radiusiT...

gamwarebulma gaibrZola mTeli Tavisi avladidebis (suraTis)

dasabruneblad, magram uSedegod. umweoa, rogorc dakluli, gamoSignuli,
gatyavebuli da mTeli bazris dasanaxad, rkinis kauWebze Camokiduli xbo.
samagierod, im suraTze aRbeWdili saxeebica da garemoc pirvelyofili
sicxadiT udgas Tvalwin. TviTon mkvdari kia, magram is dro da is xalxi
Cveulebisamebr agrZelebs cxovrebas misi tvinis mkvdar ujredebSi, misi
maxsovrobis darbeul, danagvianebul scenaze...
 zafxulia (maSinac!). qviSxeTSi arian, kaSelebis agarakze, pompezurad
pirquSsa Tu pirquSad pompezur saxlSi, romlis badalic araferi eguleba
am qveyanaze. TbilisSic sigiJemde monatrebia iq Cabudebuli sunebi, xmebi,
ucnauri landebi... es ki, utyuari niSania siyvarulisa. aseve uyvars iqauri
Sinaymebic, taso Zalo da misi Svili (ukanono), grigori, didyura grigola,
ganusazRvreli vadiT daqiravebulni saxlis mosavlelad... magram jer amdeni
ar esmis, jer mxolod aTi wlisaa. ivnisis miwuruli, anda ivlisis
dasawyisia. cacxvi yvavis. magram oqro jer ar gadasxmia mwvane gumbaTze.
samagierod, jer kidev dahkravs haers Cinuri iasamnis mZafri, motkbo
surneli. Tavad Cinuri iasamani suraTze ara Cans, is cota ufro qvemoT
dgas, ezos boloSi, msaxurebis CeCmisken mimaval bilikze. ase rom, CeCmaSi
mimavlebma, Zalauneburad, orjer unda moidrikon qedi mis winaSe, iqiTobas
da aqeTobas. samagierod, Sxapi aRar daWirdebaT, rogorc Jelezni ambobs,
isedac Tavfexianad iwuwebian "naturalni duxiT". ar Canan futkrebic, magram
suraTidan aSkarad ismis maTi mTvrali, gauTavebeli bzuili. sxvaTaSoris,
ar Cans Jeleznic gamakSi isvenebs ar Cans didyura grigolac am
suraTs iRebs da ar Cans WroRaTvaleba, tuCnikapdanaoWebuli, magram
ufrosebis gadmocemiT, odesRac lamazi taso Zalo, maTi diasaxlisi
(sinamdvileSi, moaxle), magram antoni mainc xedavs, qaTmis sakenkiT
kalTadamZimebuls, erTi wuTiT Seyovnebuls Svilis zurgs ukan. iq SeCerda
saqaTmisken mimavali, xeli ar SeuSala Svils fotografobaSi da "netai,
marTla icode rameo" dascinis yasidad, Sefaruli, monuri siamayiT. mama
maisuris amara dgas dedis ukan. msxvili, banjgvliani mklavebi skamis
sazurgeze daubjenia. skamze deda zis, sadad Tmadavarcxnili. CiTis
ubralo, saSinao kaba acvia da yalbi margalitebis ganuyreli mZivi da
sayure ukeTia. dedis ferxTiT, miwaze, dapobili SeSa yria. mamam daapo
weRan. qviSxeTis bazarSi nayidi culi gamoscada. "culi es yofilao"
Tqva bavSvurad aRtacebulma axali SenaZeniT. mokletariani basri culi
beber kunZSia Casobili. es culis tars Cafrenia da amaod cdilobs mis
amoZrobas beberi kunZidan. aTi wlisaa jer. magram cameti wlis mere, zustad
am culiT moklavs sakuTar mamas da erTaderTi, rac mkvlelobis Semdeg
siamovnebiT gaaxsendeba Tavisi ocdasamwliani cxovrebidan aSmorebuli
auzis kideze gadawolilsa Tu ayalo miwaSi gaTxrili sangris marad notio
fskerze Camjdars swored es dRe iqneba, ayvavebuli cacxviTa Tu
gadayvavebuli Cinuri iasamniT, azuzunebuli futkrebiTa Tu dapobili
SeSiT, dedis yalbi margalitebis brWyvialiTa Tu beber kunZSi mamis
Ronieri xeliT TiTqos samaradisod Casobili culiT, romliTac cameti
wlis mere, daufiqreblad gaupobs mamas Tavs "eWvianobis niadagze", rogorc
sagamomZieblo oqmSi Caiwereba, ufro sworad, ver Caiwereba, saqmis
aRsaZvrelad arasakmarisi samxilebis gamo. magram amisTvis erTnairad
sulerTia, ras weren da ras ver weren masTan da mis ojaxTan dakavSirebiT,
radgan mainc aravin icis da verc verasodes gaigebs, Tu ra eniT uTqmel
netarebas ganicdida, ra bednieri iyo beber kunZSi Casobili culis tars
Cafrenili aTi wlis biWi, Tundac, im erTi, mxolod suraTis gadasaRebad
sakmarisi wamis ganmavlobaSi...
 da ai, misi erTwamiani cxovreba, gnebavT, erTaderTi naTeli wami mTel
mis cxovrebaSi, saswaulad gadarCenili, kaSelebisTvis Seuferebeli
daudevrobisa da uyuradRebobis gamo, amoyuryumalavebuli sibnelis,
sibinZuris, siZulvilis Waobidan, anda, sulel iasaviT, misTvis yvelaze
Seuferebel adgilze amosuli, axla viRac axvars, saxeldaxelod
gabiznesebul sabWoTa saqmosans, egreTwodebul "delecs", TviTmarqvia
revolucioners, socialisturi uZraobidan erovnul moZraobaSi
gadmococebul parazits, uwignur demokrats, mowodebiT brakoniers, ciyvTa
Semmusvrels uWiravs xelSi da amas, gasaskdomad gamzadebul gazis
buStulas, araTu ver waurTmevia, ver daubrunebia misi kanonieri sakuTreba,
imis Tavic ara aqvs, dauCoqos, bodiSi mouxados, patieba Txovos, Seevedros,
bolos da bolos, mowuwnos, ris mowuwvnasac daavaleben, oRond, daanebon,
ris gareSec marTla gazis buStulaRa iqneba es da rasTanac araferi
esaqmebaT imaT...
romlis mokvla dagavales? kacis? qalis? bavSvis? ramdeni aiRe?
isev CasZaxebs yurSi barmeni da, moTminebidan gamosuli, suraTs saxeze
miaWmuWnis, rasakvirvelia, yvelafrianad, rac zedaa aRbeWdili.
 is suraTi axla sapirfareSos iatakze agdia, aqa-iq TeTrad gadamskdari,
da svel, binZur filaqanze nela, fiWvis kevis sizantiT wveTavs iqidan
erTmaneTSi azelili, fafadqceuli qviSxeTuri mze, mTvrali futkrebi,
Cinuri iasamani, ayvavebuli cacxvi, Ronieri mama, lamazi deda, yalbi
margalitebianad, da, rasakvirvelia, TviTonac, culianad. culis laplapa
pirzea miglesili, mamis sisxliviT. "ara! ara!" yviris, Rrialebs mTeli
misi arseba, magram xmis nacvlad, isev sisxliani dorbli gadmosdis piridan.
Tumca, saswaulad, xmac rom daubrundes da laparakis unaric, albaT mainc
ver gaagebinebs imaT, Tu ras niSnavs misTvis es suraTi. verafriT
Seagnebinebs, radgan isini, misgan gansxvavebiT, Tavs ubedurebad ar Tvlian,
ar ician, ubedurebi rom arian. arasodes hqoniaT da, etyoba, arc arasodes
eqnebaT aseTi suraTi reJimis yurmoWril msaxurTa daudevrobisa da
wamieri sisustis Sedegi vercerT dRes ver daimaxsovreben TavianTi
cxovrebidan, roca iseTebi ar iyvnen, rogorebic yovelTvis arian, anda,
rogorebic SeiZleboda yofiliyvnen, Tuki sxvanairad, ukeTesad, sulac
bunebrivad warimarTeboda maTi cxovreba, Tuki antonis mama-papa yvelafers
ar iRonebda maT dasasaxiCreblad, dasasaWuriseblad, dasamdableblad...
cixeSi amboben, bednieria, vinc bednierebis fasi ar iciso. maT ar ician
bednierebis fasi, raki arasodes ganucdiaT da, amitom, erT bednier dRes
(romelic, miuxedavad yvelafrisa, mainc SeunarCunebdaT uflebas,
adamianebad CaeTvalaT Tavi), uTvalavi, miriadi, erTnairad bneli, binZuri,
usinaTlo, uhaero, uweso, uadaTo, uTariRo dRe urCevniaT, raTa ugulod,
uinteresod da auRelveblad akeTon marad, rasac akeTeben da usiyvarulod,
upasuxismgeblod moklan, visac moklaven... amas ki, jer kidev aTi wlisas
uyvarda da jer kidev aTi wlisa grZnobda pasuxismgeblobas yvelafrisTvis,
rasac momavalSi Caidenda. yovel SemTxvevaSi, Tuki vinmesi rcxvenia,
imdroindeli lizikosi rcxvenia swored da amis bralia albaT, axlac, am
aqoTebul sapirfareSoSic, imdroindeli liziko rom udgas Tvalwin
gverdze Tavgadaxrili da calTvalmoWutuli Semoscqeris, Tvalebze
CamoSlil Tmas sulis SeberviT iSorebs waramara da damcinavad iRimeba.
mzemokidebuli saxe ofliT danamvia albaT morboda, gasaWirSi
Cavardnil megobris saSvelad da, vin icis, raRa ar warmoidgina, vidre
sakuTari TvaliT ixilavda gasaWirSi Cavardnil megobars. magram nanaxma
yovelgvar molodins gadaaWarba da, raki antonis saSveli namdvilad aRar
arsebobs, isic damcinavad momRimari Sescqeris Tavisi megobris samarcxvino
aRsasruls. paWua cxvirsa da oqrosfrad SeRinRlul zeda tuCze Worfli
mosdebia, mkerdi jer isev biWisa aqvs, magram ZuZuebi ukve SeSupebia odnav,
rasac albaT arc miaqcevda antoni yuradRebas, mamamissac rom ar aReniSna
ufro adre, ramac, cota ar iyos, daafrTxo, TiTqos lizikosTvis (da
amdenad, misTvisac), metad arasasiamovno, metad saxifaTo ambavi Seetyo
mamisgan... magram swored am dros, viRacam brazianad moakakuna sapirfareSos
karze. "romeli xaro" frTxilad, daZabulad ikiTxa barmenma. "droze
gamodiT, movidneno" kars iqidan daiZaxa lidam. "movdivarT, movdivarTo"
aCqarda barmeni da antonmac igrZno, rogor erTbaSad gauSva miSam
marwuxebiviT xelebi. maSinve, gamskdari tikiviT, CaifuSa, Cailia, Caiqca
sapirfareSos svel iatakze. isini ki, aCoCqolebulni gacvivdnen
sapirfareSodan da kari garedan gadaketes. antonic, TiTqos iqamde Tavs
imkvdarunebdao, sxartad wamovarda fexze, daWmuWnul suraTs dastaca xeli,
isev pijakis gulis jibeSi Caitena da gafoTebuli miawyda sarkmels.
rogorc iqna gaaRo da mTeli taniT gadaekida rafaze, TiTqos unda
arwyioso, TiTqos Zlivs Cawynarebulma gulisrevam isev wamouarao.
sinamdvileSi ki, imis dazusteba scada, Tu romeli sarTulidan apirebda
gadaxtomas. xom SeiZleboda, miwamde arc dahyoloda suli?! magram sibnelis
gamo veraferi dainaxa. Savma, Seuvalma sicarielem uneburad Seayovna, magram
axla yoymanisa da marCielobis dro namdvilad ar iyo. sxva gza ar hqonda
da saerTodac ar arsebobda "sxva gza". yvela adamiani Tavisi sakuTari,
erTaderTi, ganumeorebeli gziT ibadeba da Tavcocxali ver gadauxvevs im
gzidan. amdeni ukve icoda. esec cixeSi SeZenili codna gaxldaT da
gadamowmebas ar saWiroebda. ris vaivaglaxiT Semojda rafaze da fexebi
Savsa da Seuval sicarieleSi gadaitana. mere, ratomRac, Tvalebi daxuWa da
ase TvaldaxuWuli, brmad gadaxta kidev ufro did sibneleSi. magram
TiTqmis maSinve, Savi, Seuvali sicariele mtkivneulad, gamaognebeli
simkvriviTa da siuxeSiT daeZgera qvemodan, mkerdsa da saxeSi, da isic, isev
brmad, isev uneburad, isev alalbedze CaebRauWa am gamaognebel, miudgomel,
xorkliansa da mtkivneul simkvrives, anu, sibneleSi gauCinarebul tots, da
aranakleb SeSfoTebulma, aranakleb aforiaqebulma totma jer SxuiliT
Cafxriwa wyvdiadi, rasakvirvelia, antonTan erTad, mere ki, ramdenjerme
daiqnia gafofrili bolo, TiTqos moulodnelad gamomtyvrali tvirTis
mosaSoreblad, magram amdens veRar gauZlo, WaxaniT gadatyda welSi da
sakuTar qerqze Camokonwialebuli, tvirTianad miexeTqa xis ugrZnobel
tans...
 ararsebobis, aryofnis sulisSemxuTavma, damafrTxobelma SegrZnebam
erTbaSad gamoaRviZa da, sawolSi wamomjdari, dafeTebuli aTvalierebs
iqaurobas. ukve gaTenebula. rac mTavaria, yvelaferi adgilzea, yvelaferi
isea, rogorc datova. colic gverdiT uwevs, zurgSeqceuli. imis SiSveli
zurgi Caxurebuli Tonis kedeliviT varvarebs... antons siamovnebs am
simxurvaleSi Cawva da Caferflva... ukve mTeli Tvea, misi kanonieri meuRlea
liziko. aq, TavianT sayvarel qviSxeTSi atareben Taflobis Tves. atareben
ki ara, gaatares da egaa yovel wuTas mosalodnelia, mamam CamoakiTxos
da waiyvanos TbilisSi. imisTvis jer isev patarebi arian, jer isev xeliT
Sesanaxebi... isinic mouTmenlad elodebian patrons. liziko qmarze win
mixtis lodidan lodze, warsulis daxavsebul nangrevebze,
qongurmorRveuli koSkis kibeze, raTa qmars aaswros da ufro adre
dainaxos, rogor gadmouxvevs mTavari gzidan mamamTilis vercxlisfrad
mbzinavi manqana, rweva-rweviT rogor gadmova rkinigzaze da zvigeniviT
rogor Semocurdeba soflis dabindul simwvaneSi. antoni ki, monusxuli,
aRtacebuli Sescqeris colis Camoqnil wvivebs, gamomwvevad gamobzekil
ukanals, romelsac srulebiTac ver ufaravs patara, friala qvedakaba.
piriqiT, niavs ayolili, yvelanairad cdilobs, rac SeiZleba ukeTesad
warmoaCinos es marTlac STambeWdavi da Tvalwarmtaci sanaxaoba. "nu
miyureb" eubneba liziko ukanmouxedavad, nabijis Seuneleblad da,
marTalia, antons rcxvenia colis (Tumca, ar icis, ratom), mainc siamovnebiT
eRimeba amis warmodgenaze. sarkmlis orive frTa yurTamdea gamoRebuli,
rogorc gamomZieblis kabinetSi. sarkmlis WrilSi Tbili haeris Wavli
livlivebs. sarkmlis frTebSi ki, xSirfoTlovani, Tavze oqrogadasxmuli
cacxvi irekleba. krazana amaod cdilobs macdur minaSi SeRwevas, "juji-
juji-juji" eZaxis qaTmebs taso Zalo. haers wyalnapkurebi miwis suni
dahkravs. ismis celis xma. axla ufro mkafiod, magram Zveleburad martivi,
damamSvidebeli... ara, piriqiT, amaforiaqebeli. ese igi, ki ar daesizmra,
cxadia. anu, rac daesizmra, sinamdvileSic arsebobs, Tundac arsebobda... ese
igi, antonic arsebobs. jer kidev aris. oRond, cota sxvanairi. mamis sisxli
sisxlTagani, magram ara marto Sesaxedavad, Tvisobrivadac gansxvavebuli
misgan, rogorc msuqani, mixakisferi matlisgan didTvaleba, qoCriani da
mucelSeRinRluli pepela. dafarfatebs Tavis sayvarel garemoSi, uaxloes
megobarTan, uZvirfases adamianTan erTad, papiseul saxlSi, papiseuli
saxlis pompezur sipirquSesa Tu pirquS pompezurobaSi misive warmodgenebiT
Seqmnil sruliad axal, gansakuTrebul samyaroSi, saidanac gamosvla
TiTqmis momakvdinebelia misTvis, sadac dro saerTod ar arsebobs, miT
ufro, warsulad, awmyod da momavlad dayofili. Tavadaa dro da moZraobs
saaTis isris sawinaaRmdego mimarTulebiT, sakuTari nebasurvilis
Sesabamisad. unda warsulSi gadaiCexeba, rogorc Wreli Zroxa ufskrulSi,
unda momavalSi SeiWreba, rogorc ltolvili daumTavrebel, mouwyobel
binaSi, da unda awymoSi itrialebs, paloze dabmuli viriviT biologiuri
anaqronizmi, genetikuri absurdi, logikuri uazroba da mainc
damfrTxali, daZabuli elodeba, rodis CainTqmeba mTeli arsebiT misken
daZrul sinamdvileSi, rogorc ki mxedveloba daubrundeba... afofrili
talRis yru guguniT moiswrafis misken sinamdvile da isic sunTqvaSekruli
elodeba usastikes wams sinamdvilesTan SeuRlebisa. ararsebobis SegrZnebas
xelmeored dabadebis, aRdgomis, sakuTar arsebaSi ganmeorebis cxoveluri
Jini enacvleba. SsSsS... sSsSs... SsSsS...sSsSs... Tavisken eweva celis xma,
rogorc obobas Zafi saimedod gakoWil matls. celis xma exmareba,
Svelis xelmeored dabadebaSi. balaxi Tivad gardaiqmneba. grZnobs, rogor
iSleba Semborkavi, damTrgunveli kvanZi sadRac, mis arsebaSi. magram
sinamdvile jer eWvis TvaliT uyurebs mainc. rac unda mokle sizmari iyos,
drois TvalsazrisiT, sakmarisia mis gadasagvareblad. sinamdvile veRar
cnobs, daaviwyda kidev erTi, Tundac, sizmarSi gadaxvewili uZRebi Svili.
erTbaSad ver gauRebs kars. jer unda Seamowmos, SeiSveba Tu ara saerTod
Sin. vinc SeuSva, yvela aujanyda. yvela Tu ara, umravlesoba... umravlesoba
Tu ara, bevri... zogierTi mainc... zogierTi Tu ara, erTaderTi, rCeuli,
sxvebze urCi da suleli... mas ki, mTeli sxeuli uTrTis SiSiTa da
mRelvarebiT. colis zurgis simxurvalec afrTxobs, abrmavebs, rogorc
saxeSi minaTebuli "iupiteris" bdRvriala Tvali telestudiaSi Casawerad
misul axalgazrda poets... ar hgavs meamboxes. yovelTvis ase TrTis xolme
sinamdvilis pirispir darCenili, vidre imis ganuyofel nawilad ar igrZnobs
Tavs. magram, jerjerobiT, ver grZnobs. bevri ram uSlis xels: Tundac, es
wuTia, gadatanili safrTxe (romeli erTi?). jer imas unda moswydes
mTlianad, rogorc nayofi saSos, xolo, misi xelmeored (meramdened!)
dambadebeli safrTxe ukanmouxedavad unda gaiqces, gaekidos Tavis
aTqrialebul jogs, faras, naxirs, xrovas, remas, arvesa Tu, eSmakma icis,
ras, da Tavisi umweo, jer kidev saSos orTqliani pirmSo upatronod,
umeTvalyureod daagdos warmodgenil saTibebSi... ocnebebSi, fiqrebSi,
sizmrebSi, CvenebebSi...
mesame nawili

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 "erTi, ori, sami" gunebaSi Tvlis elizbari, magram ki ar dgeba, kidev
ufro Rrmad miZvreba loginSi. logini maSin aris Zneli dasaTmobi, roca
adgoma aucilebelia. oRond, elizbars adgoma ki ar ezareba, droze adre
gaeRviZa, Tuki eZina saerTod, da raki ar icis, rogor moklas zedmeti dro,
Cveulebisamebr, fiqrobs, gnebavT, nebivrobs... bolos da bolos, omSi midis
da, vin icis, rodisRa miecema, an miecema Tu ara kidev, amgvari "nebivrobis"
saSualeba...
jer adrea. erTnairad bnela Sin da gareT. maRviZara saaTi Tavgamodebuli
qaqanebs Ramis naTuris magidaze, patrons amSvidebs TiTqos, maxsovs, vici,
rodis unda "avfeTqdeo", magram saaTi ras gaigebs, ra cecxli trialebs
elizbaris gulSi...
liziko, RvTis wyalobiT, gadarCa, magram am qveynisa rom aRar aris,
cxadia, sacodavi sanaxavia, yinwmowyvetili da majebdabintuli... Tumca, mainc
antikuri gmiris sijiutiT igeriebs Tavisianebis yuradRebasa da
TanagrZnobas... rogorc oreste sisxlismsmel eriniebs... mamis danaxvam
kidev ufro gaaRiziana. elisos rom hkiTxoT, saerTodaa aRgznebuli,
saerTod rcxvenia yvelasi da elizbari gamonaklisi ar aris. magram
elizbars srulebiTac ar gaukvirdeba, araTu rcxvenodes, dasanaxadac ver
itandes sakuTari Svili. "Sen gaimarjveo" Zlivs amoiknavla
tuCebgadalurjebulma, magram maT Soris gamarjvebuli ar arsebobs. mama-
Svilis omSi gamarjveba damarcxebis tolfasia. ukidures SemTxvevaSi,
imarjvebs is, vinc marcxdeba. gamarjvebuli sxvaganaa, sxvaa, mesame,
romelsac Svilic iseve hkidia fexebze, rogorc mama... ori manqana mcvelebis
TanxlebiT Semogrialda saavadmyofos ezoSi da elizbari jiqur rom wavida
misken, silas mainc gavulawuneb saxalxodo, mcvelebma gza gadauketes, ar
miuSves mZaxalTan, moyvaresTan, qaliSvilis mamamTilTan da arc imas,
moyvares, uTqvams mcvelebisTvis, eg gamouSviT, eg Cemianiao... piriqiT,
modRlezili, ormetriani debilebis zurgebs amofarebulma dauZaxa: jer
dawynardi da mere vilaparakoTo, Cvenma Svilebma provokacia momiwyveso, es
politikuri aqciaa da male Senc darwmundebio... elizbarmac gacla
amjobina. erTxel kidev daujera xalxur sibrZnes da ai, saomrad emzadeba
mxcovani mwerali, troas omSi midis, oRond, ukve beberi odisevsi... raxania,
afrebic dauSva da viric dabmuli hyavs bagaze... magram dro mainc sakmarisze
meti aqvs, Tavisuflad SeuZlia, ara marto moemzados omSi wasasvlelad,
aramed gadaifiqros kidec omSi wasvla...
 ase rom, adgoma ki ar ezareba Cvens elizbars, erTxel kidev amowmebs,
ramdenad sworia misi gadawyvetileba. raki zedmeti dro aqvs da ar icis,
rogor gamoiyenos, erTxel kidev wonis yvelafers, ukanasknel wvrilmanamde
(vTqvaT, rogor Seegueba iqaur saWmels, wyals... rac mTavaria, uunitazobas...),
isev sasacilo rom ar gaxdes Tundac imave lizikosTvis, romelmac erTxel
ukve amxila misi "TvalTmaqcoba", megafonis saSualebiT, saqveynod, eg
saerTo-sayovelTao danaSaulis kvleva-ZiebiTaa dakavebuli, sakuTari,
piradi rom miCqmalos rogormeo. marTlac, mis asakSi saomrad ki ar midian,
miT ufro, roca aravin eZaxiT wamodio, odesRac gadatanil omebs ixseneben
(Tundac, sizmarSi gadatanil omebs!) da memuarebs weren. arc is dawerda
sxvaze naklebad, dasaweri rom hqondes rame. araferi aqvs siamayiT
mosagonari. arasworad icxovra da bevrad ajobebs, rac ufro naklebi
ecodineba STamomavlobas misnairTa Sesaxeb. Tumca, saca samarTalia, isic
ise cxovrobda, rogorc yvela. ise ki ara, rogorc Tavad surda, aramed
rogorc SeeZlo, metnaklebad sufTa rom gamosuliyo cxovrebis binZuri
Waobidan. magram axla Tavis marTleba igive Tavis mosulelebaa da
aranakleb amazrzenic, vidre ganavaliT (Tundac, sakuTari ganavaliT),
SemTxveviT dasvrili TiTis Cumad galokva... es "omSi wasvlac", ukve
yvelanairad dagvianebuli, raRacis monaniebisa da raRacis gamosworebis
amao cdaa mxolod. marTlac, ra Seicvleba, erTi saaTiT adre avdgebiT
dRes, Tu erTi saaTiT gvian?! piriqiT, rac ufro Sors daiWer Tavs am
omisgan, rac ufro Soreul qveynebSi gaemgzavrebi sabozaod da
samamaZaRlod, SeiZleba ufro dagifasos xelisuflebam da, televizors Tu
daejereba, SeiZleba, zedmeti asi kilogrami tvirTi ufasodac
gadmogataninos qalis windis TvaliviT gaqceul sazRvarze. magram elizbars
arc spekulantoba exerxeba, arc sutenioroba, ubralod, Sin metis
gamkeTebelia, vidre gareT da araviTari mniSvneloba ara aqvs piradad
misTvis, marTla qmnis rames faseuls, Tu tyuilad imtvrevs TiTebs sabeWdi
manqanis klaviSebze, tyuilad itkiebs Tavs uazro kakuniT. yvelafers rom
Tavi gavaneboT, srulyofil da Tavisufal adamianad mxolod maSin grZnobs
Tavs, roca sakuTar WerqveS, sakuTar skamze zis, sakuTar magidasTan,
sakuTar flostebSi fexebwayrili, da sakuTari nagavi gadaaqvs erTi
sakuTari sanagvidan (tvinidan) meore saerTo sanagveze (furcelze). misi
mwerluri pativmoyvareoba amiTac kmayofildeba da, bodiSi mogviTxovia,
fexebze hkidia, ras ityvis masze STamomavloba. STamomavlobis saTqmeli
ukve wamoscdaT dRevandelebs, romlebic STamomavlobas ki ara, saerTod
axal, xvalindel saqarTvelos qmnian da, pirvel rigSi, masTan
SeuTanxmeblad... elizbarisTvis aravis araferi ukiTxavs, rogorc guSin ar
ekiTxebodnen arafers... dResac isaa, rac guSin iyo, egaa rom, dRevandelebs
urCevniaT, kidev ufro Rrmad SeZvres, Seiketos Tavis niJarasa Tu bakanSi,
gaaCnia, lokokinad Tvlian isini, Tu kud...
 magram, rogorc ar unda iTrios fexi, adgoma mainc mouwevs, Tundac, am
abezari, Semawuxebeli fiqrebisgan Tavis dasaRwevad. marTlac, utifrad,
mourideblad exvevian, rogorc buzebi leSs, oRond, buzebisgan
gansxvavebiT, imaT cocxali "leSi" izidavT, sicocxlis raime niSanwyali
unda etyobodes maT lukmas, vTqvaT, amTqnarebdes, gverds icvlides
sawolSi, nebismier uazrobas burdRunebdes TavisTvis, xels afaTurebdes
Ramis naTuris magidaze, sulerTia, ris mosaZebnad, mTavaria daadasturos,
jer kidev rom udgas suli, jer kidev rom gauZlebs wamebas. danarCeni
TviTon ician, rogorc ar unda gauZaliandes, rogorc ar unda
moimkvdarunos Tavi, mainc SeaRweven mis arsebaSi, bolo-bolo, isev misi
xelSewyobiT cixe yovelTvis Signidan tydeba da mere TviTonac ver
gaigebs, rogor gaixlarTeba aTasnairi varaudis, eWvis, SiSis, sazrunavisa
Tu sadardelis mojadoebul qselSi, saidanac ramdenime wuTis, anda sulac
wamis win, Zlivs daaRwia Tavi... "raz, dva, tri" axla, ratomRac, rusulad
daTvala elizbarma, magram arc amjerad ganZreula, ZvelisZveli,
bavSvobisdroindeli leqsi moayola uceb:

raz, dva, tri da,

Semotrialdi da,
Tofi xelSi daiWire,
omSi wamodi da...
 TviTonve gaukvirda, ise miesadaga es makaronuli uazroba mis imJamindel
ganwyobas. enis gasatexi orenovani bavSvebisTvis. erT enaze Tvli, Tundac,
samamde, meoreze ki, sisuleleebs tlikineb, tlikineb imas, risic araferi
gagegeba, rac Seni saqme ar aris. arc Tofia Seni da arc omi. Sen sxva xar
sxvis omSi, magram brZeni ki ara, briyvi, radgan sxvis oms Senad Tvli da
rac namdvilad Senia, sxvisi ggonia. amgvari, viTom uazro leqsebi,
sinamdvileSi, didi azris matareblebi arian, did Canafiqrebs anxorcieleben
enis CleqviT, da did miznebs emsaxurebian "gulubryvilod". Zalac didi
aqvT. Signidan angreven adamians, miT ufro, Tuki Tavidanve, dedis rZesTan
erTad Seapareb, anda, sulac dedis rZis magivrad miscem bavSvs. maTi
meSveobiT, bavSvs SeuZlia mSobliuriviT Seisisxlxorcos, rac arasodes
unaxavs TvaliT da ZaliT SemoCeCebuliviT Seijavros mSobliuri.
mravalgzis nacadi iaraRia, naRdi, wyali ar gauva. Sedegic garantirebulia.
gavardeba Tu ara Tofi, samSoblos mters miugdeb da Tavad mtris WerqveS
Seafareb Tavs. raz, dva, tri da, raz, dva, tri... mas Semdeg, rac qarTveli
aleqsandre pirvelis daSlil-daqucmacebuli, rusma aleqsandre pirvelma
imperiis stomaqSi gaaerTiana, mumli gveseva, mumlis mofarfate siyviTle
gvartyia irgvliv. ariqa! alyaSi varT. Tavs uSveleT. viRupebiT. Tumca, Cven
rom gvgonia viRupebiTo, kidev erTxel vibadebiT Turme. amis bralia es
gauTavebeli areuloba, demonstraciebi, mitingebi, TviTgvema,
TviTlikvidacia, TviTneboba, TviTmmarTveloba, anu, ZmaTa omebi, yrmaTa
mosvrani, diacTa gankacebani da sul axali da axali sodomebi da
gomorebi... cxinvalis Rvelfi da Radari soxumSi Rvivis... raz, dva, tri da,
raz, dva, tri... gaxseni feradi liTonebis, Zveleburi xaliCebis, nebismieri
narCenebis Semsyidveli punqti da, kaci xar! es qveyana mainc ingreva. magram
amisTvisac madlobT Sen, ufalo! yvelanairi cvlileba, sulerTia,
ukeTesobisken Tu uaresobisken, sicocxlis dadasturebaa, upirveles
yovlisa. CvenTvisac es aris dRes mTavari. liziko kargad iyos da TavSi qva
uxeTqia yvelas. diaxac, hopla! diaxac, Cvenc vcocxlobT! Cems danaxvaze
Tvalebi aenTo. xelebis damalva scada, magram ver moaxerxa, sabani ar exura
(rogor daixuravs am sicxeSi), sakuTari xelebi examuSeboda, magram mainc
ver iSorebda, rogorc patiosani qurdi moparul nivTebs. ara uSavs.
mTavaria, gvindodes gadarCena. ra senic ar unda Segeyaros, mainc jansaRi
xar eqimze, romelsac Seni gankurneba eTakileba. es mcocavi omic icocebs,
icocebs, erTxel kidev gadaZovs aqaurobas da RadariviT gaexveva daviwyebis
nacarSi, vidre xelaxla dasWirdebodeT. hopla! imperia iWinTeba, Cven
vibadebiT. televizia cocxlad damwvari biWebis gvamebs gviCvenebs, gvaSinebs,
magram Cven mainc vcocxlobT. arc zrdiloba dagvikargavs jer. amwinebze,
viRac taqsis mZRols mgzavrebisTvis moubodiSebia, zurgiT vzivaro. hopla!
magram axia Cvenze. Cems mZaxals rom hkiTxoT, yvelafers sxvebs vabralebT
Turme. tyuilia! rogor gekadrebaT! ras brZanebT! jer erTi, sxva ar
daibralebs, meorec erTi, vin dagijerebs?! marTlac, rogori dasajerebelia,
erTmorwmune qveyanam eklesia abanod gadagikeTos... mfarvelma da megobarma,
mtrebi ki ar mogaSoros, mtrebs moaSoros Seni Tavi, saerTod gadagrecxos
rukidan, rogorc Wrel abanoSi meqise gadarecxavs xolme sapnis WuWyian
qafs qvis taxtidan... erTi kaTxa wyali da misi jani. Slu-up, da gaTavda,
viTomc ar yofila aTsaukunovani samefo dinastia. bagrationebis taxti
aqamde lpeba sankt-peterburgis romeliRac wyalCamdgar sardafSi. magram
elizbars yvelaze did ubedurebad, kaSelis Teslis aRzeveba miaCnia mainc.
gayide samSoblo da SeiZine mooqrovili unitazi... ha, Cqara! ar CamorCe
mezobels! ar gajobos naTesavma. mainc ingreva es qveyana... raz, dva, tri da,
Semotrialdi da... magram erTi eSmakiskenac vTqvaT. Cven rom ar
mivxmarebodiT, Cven rom ar Cagvedina, rac CavidineT, Cven rom ar gvekadra,
rac vikadreT, mainc gadagvaqcevda laboratoriul eqskrementad?! raz, dva,
tri da... Cveni batoniSvilebi ucxoel akademikosebad daixocnen... raz, dva,
tri da... Cvenma Tavad-aznaurobam ara marto orientacia, enac Seicvala da
znec... raz, dva, tri da... sxvis omSi sikvdili did pativad miaCndaT
yovelTvis... raz, dva, tri... magaliTebis CamoTvla Sors wagviyvans. jer
marto ramdeni Cveni mefe mokvda gzaSi, sankt-peterburgs mimavali
samaTxovrod, Tu sankt-peterburgidan momavali, kidev ufro uaresad
gamaTxovrebuli. buasiliT ukanalgamofufqulni, cxenidan Camouxdomlad
miuyvebodnen cru dapirebebis, yalbi imedebis gzas da im gzis piras
daimarxnen kidec, moxetiale mwirebiviT. raz, dva, tri... CamodiT da
gvipatroneT... raz, dva, tri... pativi dagvdeT da gviymeT... raz, dva, tri...
imdenjer wavuweqiT, imdennairad wavucekveT, bolos mainc mivaRwieT Cvensas,
aRsrulda, Cveni mzec aRmoxda, oRond, iluzionistis yuTidan; Cvenc
mogvevlina mxsneli, oRond, ieneral maiori grafi gotlib kurt henrix fon
totlebeni, Zma da piris ziareba, yoCaRi, yoyoCi, yeyeCi aficari, dRevandeli
eniT, Juliki, TxasTan mgeli, mgelTan Txa, Sebertyili ymawvili, ereklec
gagvicucuraka, aRmosavlurad fexmorTxmulma, da qarTvelTa noec,
evropulad fexi-fexze gadadebulma. am bolo dros xom, nametani mouxSira
stumrobas, tele-varskvlavad iqces lamis. kidev raRacas gvipirebs albaT,
ufro uaress. yurebamde pirgaxeuli gviRimis ekranidan, rogorc sulel
bavSvebs aranakleb suleli ufrosi, da sxartad arbis TviTmfrinavis
trapze. miabakunebs priala Ceqmebs. rac icis icis. rac exerxeba
exerxeba. ver waarTmev. iqiT wagarTmevs, risi warTmevac miznad dausaxavs. ra
gaxda, biCo, es afxazeTi! gaCime gamoCime, erTi pliaJia, bolos da bolos.
sircxvili Tqvens saqveynod ganTqmul stumarTmoyvareobas da
xelgaSlilobas... da, Tqven warmoidgineT, telemayurebelTa umravlesobas
marTla rcxvenia, marTla damnaSaved grZnobs Tavs da, rom SeeZlos,
siamovnebiT aaxevda yurs im lawirakebs (da im asakovan kretinebsac),
moxaliseebad rom garbian afxazeTSi, TaviT vardebian cecxlSi, viTom
samSoblos siyvaruliT, viTom Rirsebis gadasarCenad, sinamdvileSi ki,
sagrialod da samamaZaRlod undaT, nemss gaikeTeben, undaT, oynas vin
eyolebaT ufrosi! magram uceb kidev ufro did sircxvilSi Cacvivdebian
yvelani, Cveni bedi ra vTqvi me... ieneral maiors aeroportis qari quds
mostacebs da mrude borbaliviT gaagorebs lilos Tvaluwvdenel mindorze.
rasakvirvelia, gamcilebelTa mTeli armia gaekideba quds, yvela erTnairad
mowadinebuli, magram rogorc yovelTvis, axlac erTi ajobebs yvelas, ris
gamoc samudamod gadaimterebs danarCenebs da Zvirfas nadavls, romelsac
gzadagza asufTavebs mtvrisgan da xiwvebisgan, mowiwebiT aurbeninebs trapze
momlodine grafs. gotlib kurt henrixi, madlierebis niSnad, Sinaurulad
dahkravs mxarze xels da guliT Seaqebs: molodec bratec aida CernoJopi...
magram sxvebs rom guli ar dawydeT, TviTmfrinavSi Sesvlamde, erT
TavSesaqcev Tavsatexs imaTac gadmougdebT fon totlebeni: ager naxavT,
federaciuli Tu ar iqneba Tqveni respublikaa Tu rac ariso. atydeba da ra
atydeba? xom vambobdio da Tqven ar gjerodaTo da me yovelTvis federaciis
momxre viyavio da aba me babua myavda federalistio da me Tu mkiTxavT
TviTon ar icoda, Torem yovelTvis federaluri iyo es Sav dRes gaCenili
qveyanao...
 elizbari erTi Ronivrad gaiwvarTa sabnis qveS da saswrafod wamoxta.
aRarc qarTulad dauTvlia, aRarc rusulad. uceb Caicva, yazarmaSi
Caberebuli jariskaciviT, Tumca, sibnele gvarianad uSlida xels.
usinaTloba plus uwyloba, rasac zamTarSi sicivec emateba, dameTanxmebiT,
didi Zalaa nebismieri jiuti arsebis dasaCoqeblad. bolos da bolos,
marto tyvia xom ar klavs kacs?! ra madani auvidoda! magram raki,
maincdamainc, or zRvas Sua gagaCina gangebam, unda gauZlo, unda aitano,
unda Seeguo garemos, anu, gardaiqmna marad cvalebadi saarsebo pirobebisa
da marad ucvleli landSaftis Sesabamisad. gangebisTvis (da ukanaskneli
dakvirvebebidan gamomdinare, xelisuflebisTvisac), araviTari mniSvneloba
ara aqvs, adamiani xar Tu xvliki. gaCndi? hoda, Tavs daabrale. ufro
sworad, TviTon mixede Tavs. sxva aravin Sewuxdeba Seni gulisTvis. gaZarcve
samSoblo da Seimose sarcxvineli Seni... Senc, SeZlebisdagvarad, cdilob
gadarCenas, anu, ganuwyvetliv wirav suls xorcis sasargeblod. Tuki adre
(uwin, odesRac...), Tavze buzs ar isvamdi da aulagebeli sufra gqonda
Saragzaze gaSlili, amvlel-Camomvlelis dasapureblad, axla bazar-bazar,
daxlebis win, talaxis wumpeSi mogrovil kombostos furclebsa da
kartofilis nafcqvens xarSav sadarbazoSi, saziaro "keraze". kvamliT savse
sadarbazo preistoriul gamoqvabuls damsgavsebia, Sen ki pitekantrofs,
gauparsavi, TmagaCeCili, kbilebCacvenili... wvav, rasac cecxli ekideba,
wignsac (sakuTaris CaTvliT), suraTsac, parketsac, avejsac, kar-fanjarasac...
da Wam yvelafers, rac iReWeba.. Zviri dagijda RvTiSoblis wilxvedri
qveynis Sviloba. ukadrisi unda ikadro da Caudeneli Caidino, erTi dRiT
rom gaixangrZlivo sicocxle. mokled, an unda gajambazde, an
gafilosofosde, raTa erTad gauZlo yvela ubedurebas, rac ki pandores
yuTSi arsebula. Tanac, uamxanagod da uimedod. isRa dagrCenia, Tavi
gaipampulo, omobanas TamaSi daiwyo sibereSi, anu axla Seni nebiT Cawve
samareSi da miwac Seni xeliT waiyaro, erTxel ukve cocxlad damarxulma
Svilisgan... magram, Tuki marTla preistoriul gamoqvabulSi ar
davbrunebulvarT, raRacnairad mainc xom unda SeiZlebodes lizikos am
Tavganwiruli suliskveTebis axsna?! Zalas veravin daatanda, rac Caidina,
Tavis nebiT Caidina da mxolod TviTon icis, ra mizniT Caidina, rac Caidina.
magaliTad, dedamiss (namdvils, gardacvlils), araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar
gauCndeboda raime keTilSobiluri grZnobis, anda Tundac cxoveluri
survilis magvari ram, iseTi adamianis mimarT, rogoric raJden kaSelia,
magram Tuki rodisme qmris dasjas gadawyvetda, albaT swored amisTana
araraobasTan uRalatebda, ufro mtkivneuli da ufro damakninebeli rom
yofiliyo qmrisTvis misi Ralati. ase rom, mxolod saerTaSoriso
znedacemuloba da garyvnileba ar unda iyos yvelafris Tavi da Tavi. arc
Tavisufali siyvarulisa Tu siyvarulis Tavisuflebis ganuwyveteli
agitacia, wera-kiTxvis ucodinari gazeTebis mier... ase Tu vimsjelebT, ara
marto iolad daviZvrenT Tavs pasuxismgeblobis maryuJidan, Tavad faqtsac
gavaufasurebT da Cveulebriv movlenad vaqcevT maSinve, ojaxur
urTierTobaTa erT-erT saxeobad, normad, es ki, istoriuli faqtia, Cveni
istoriuli sinamdvilis nayofi, Cveni dRevandeli omis erT-erTi epizodi,
aTasi miwisqveSa dinebiTa Tu aSkarad momqmedi ZaliT ganpirobebuli... aq, am
patara epizodSi, mravalnairi vneba, grZnoba, gancda, mizani, survili da
urTierTobaa erTmaneTSi CaxlarTuli, saTakilo Tu savalalo, misaRebi Tu
miuRebeli, ara marto naTesauri, aramed zogadad zneobrivi da kerZod
politikuri TvalsazrisiTac. monoba da Tavisufleba, siyvaruli da
siZulvili, yofna-aryofna ai, isev am maradiul, oRond dRes ukve
sasacilod agdebul cnebebis gareSe verafers gavarkvevT am viTomda
"saojaxo dramaSi", aucileblad davikargebiT da samudamod CavrCebiT Sig,
rogorc labirinTSi, uZafod da uCiraRdnod. rasakvirvelia,
warmosadgenadac Semzaravia lizikosa da raJdenis siaxlove, magram
garkveuli TvalsazrisiT, garduvali aucileblobacaa, radgan aranakleb
warmoudgeneli gmirobaa antonis saqcielic, rac lizikos da raJdenis
amgvarma siaxlovem ganapiroba, mxolod da mxolod. mokla Tu ver mokla,
sxva sakiTxia. mTavaria, gabeda... da rac kidev ufro mTavaria, mixvda, visze
unda aRemarTa xeli, Tuki adamianad apirebda darCenas am qveyanaze... Tuki
marTla surda Tavisufleba! msxverpli didia aqeT antoni, iqiT liziko
magram umsxverplod omi vis gaugia! msxverpli kidev ufro gaizrdeba.
gana elizbaric am omis msxverpli ar aris?! ra mniSvneloba aqvs, sangarSi
ijdeba Tu sawer magidasTan, magram amjerad, sangarSi urCevnia TviTon.
SeiZleba, sasikvdilod daWrili Svili rom inaxula wuxel saavadmyofoSi,
iman aRagzno da aaCqara ase, magram gadawyvetileba mtkicea da aRar
Seicvleba, rogorc ar unda gaacinos mteri da rogorc ar unda gaagiJos
eliso, romelic axla lizikos adgas Tavze saavadmyofoSi da erTi guli
aqeTa aqvs, Tavis "bolo imedisken", qajuri winaTgrZnobiT SeZrulsa da
awrialebuls, radgan arafriT ar SeiZleba ar icodes, rac axla elizbaris
Tavs xdeba. ar gaumarTla elizbarma, mainc gauwbila imedi. simartovis,
miusafrobis okeanedan moulodnelad amozrdili kunZuli, alisferi
flateebiTa da marad mwvane gorakebiT (elizbaris erT-erTi,
siymawvilisdroindeli leqsidan gaxlavT es poeturi pasaJi), Cveulebrivi
miraJi aRmoCnda bolos, kidev erTi optikuri oini, kidev erTi xafangi
cxovrebis udabnoSi gzaabneuli qalisTvis... samumi Tu amovarda (amovarda
da egaa!), pirveli qmris saflavis borcvsac veRar moeWideba am ukidegano
sicarieleSi (arc aseTi uzneoa), xolo, elizbaris leqsebiT didxans ver
gaitans Tavs, verc SimSils moiklavs, verc siSiSvles daifaravs da verc
udabnos mxecebs daafrTxobs, ginda baliSis qveS hqondes amodebuli,
mfarveli avgaroziviT, da ginda sapyari Tu mkvdradSobili SviliviT,
atatebuli dahqondes sul... elizbars araferi aqvs sawinaaRmdego, piriqiT,
bednierad CaTvlis Tavs, magram erTxel gancdils meorejer veravin
ganicdis, miT ufro, sxvis mier gancdils, elizbars ki, Tavis leqsebSi aw
ukve mkvdari cxovreba aqvs dabinavebuli, ferfli da nacari, sadac sxvebs
araferi esaqmebaT, maT Soris, elisosac. sxva, vinc ar unda iyos is, gindac
eliso, zedmetia, rogorc miwisqveSa mRvimeSi pepela. iq Ramurebi
dafarfateben mxolod sibnele, nesti da SiSveli qvebi aseTia
elizbaris sulis landSafti da elisos usazRvro siyvarulic umweoa,
moaxdinos saswauli qvaze xorblis marcvali gaaxaros da sulis samyofi
puri moiwios. elizbarma ki ar Seifara gogonasaviT Seyvarebuli qvrivi,
navTsayudari ki ar miuCina dabneul suls, kidev ufro daabnia sakuTari
warsuli mouSala da arc Tavis warsulSi gamouyo adgili... rac Seexeba
leqsebs, elizbars im leqsebisa jer kidev maSin rcxvenoda, roca misi
Tanatoli damwyebi poetebi lamis mujlugunebiT iSorebdnen erTmaneTs
universitetis saaqto darbazis kaTedraze, is ki, simwris oflSi curavda
fexis suniT aqoTebul darbazSi, Cemi gvaric ar gamoacxadon da mec ar
amiyvanon scenaze leqsis saTqmelado... magram ukan dasabrunebeli gza ar
arsebobs, aravisTvis. arc Cven gvgonia, ukan dabrunebas apirebdes romelime
maTgani. piriqiT, win, Rrmad, rac SeiZleba Rrmad, radgan saSveli mxolod
iq aris, siRrmeSi, ufskrulebSi, usasrulobaSi... SeiZleba, arcerTs ar
undoda, magram ase gamovida bolos. mitevebac sasjelia maTTvis. mama
miutevebs Svils Tu Svili mamas, orive erTnairad daitanjeba, magram
saboloo jamSi, mainc araferi Seicvleba. miteveba ki ara, miutevloba,
mxolod da mxolod, miutevloba... esaa maTi wamali. maT Tu eSvelebaT,
mxolod maSin eSvelebaT, roca aRarafers apatieben erTmaneTs. magram
saamisod, jerjerobiT, mzad ar arian, jer monuri adaT-wesebiT cxovroben
isev, anu, imiT iwoneben Tavs, risic unda rcxvenodeT da imisi rcxveniaT,
rac jer kidev unarCunebT adamianobas. elizbaric amitom miipareba omSi ase
qurdulad: colisac rcxvenia da Svilisac. sagzals ki ar Caulageben isini,
gzas ki ar daulocaven, dascineben, raRa dros Seni omobanaao da, kidev
uaresi, TvalTmaqcobas daswameben... magram, sabednierod, saaTi qaqanebs, dro
gadis da yovel wams axlovdeba samaradiso gamoTxovebis Jami warsulTan.
gindac cocxali dabrundes omidan, Zveleburad aRar icxovrebs, saerTod
aRar icxovrebs, Tuki sxvanairad cxovreba ar SeiZleba. daikrefs gulxels
da mokvdeba. bolos da bolos, yvela kvdeba da imas ra RmerTi gauwyreba
viTom?!

sabolood rom gamovida saabazanodan, borjomis boTlebSi winaswar

momaragebuli wyliTa da ris vaivaglaxiT xel-pir dabanili, jer kidev
Seuvali wyvdiadi idga irgvliv. binis qurdiviT daborialobda sakuTar
binaSi. jibis fanris patara, moyviTalo sinaTlis laqa Tu nafleTi,
pepelasaviT, moulodneli, alogikuri TanamimdevrobiT gadadioda sagnidan
saganze, TiTqos ar icoda, ras eZebda, anda, sulerTi iyo misTvis, rasac
ipovida.
 samagierod, TviTon yovelTvis zustad icis, ras eZebs da ioladac
poulobs saWiro nivTs, oRond, ufro maxsovrobis wyalobiT, vidre jibis
fanris daxmarebiT. jibis fanari, kriminaluri eniT rom vTqvaT, mxolod
gvamis amocnobaSi Svelis, udasturebs, esa da es nivTi namdvilad esa da es
nivTiao. magaliTad, Termosi (elizbarma Termoss Tavsaxuri moxsna da
mduRare wyali finjanSi daisxa), anda, finjani, romelsac cali gverdi
mTel sigrZeze aqvs gabzaruli da rodis Cagatydeba xelSi, ar ici. sxva
aqamdec gadaagdebda sanagveze, magram elizbarisTvis uimisod saerTod
warmoudgenelia dilis trapezi. ara marto siamovnebiT miirTmevs Cais am
finjniT, aramed sakuTar vinaobasac udasturebs sakuTar Tavs misi
meSveobiT. raki, maincdamainc, es finjani uWiravs xelSi, ese igi, TviTonac
namdvilad TviTonaa. magram, samwuxarod, amJamad, kriWa aqvs Sekruli.
saerTodac uWirs bnelSi Wama, magram axla gansakuTrebiT. ra Tqma unda,
nerviulobs am metad arasasiamovno mgzavrobis win, magram Tavs Zalas atans
dauSaqrav CaiSi albobs xmeli puris Znelad Casaylap lukmas. mSieri kaci
karamde ar miiSvebao, is ki omSi midis. dilis sauzme colis mziTevs
jobiao, magram roca amas ambobdnen, mziTvisa ar iyos, sauzmec uxvi da
mravalferi hqondaT albaT. piris gemos mcodnes, SeiZleba, marTla
emjobinebina. erbokvercxio, xizilalao, SaSxio, Zexvio, yvelio
(ramdenimenairi), karaqio, xaWoo, araJanio, naRebio, Taflio, murabao... is ki,
xmel purs awobs CaiSi. TvaldaxuWuli zis (albaT sibnelis gamo) da
elisosaTvis dasatovebel werilebze fiqrobs, zepirad imeorebs gunebaSi,
Tan erTsa da imave lukmas ReWavs undilad, TiTqos ukanasknelad ki ar
sauzmobs Sin, omSi mimavali, aramed saZovridan mobrunebul ZroxasaviT,
mSvidad icoxnis boslis wyvdiadSi. wyvdiads navTis suni dahkravs.
gauqmebul gazquraze mkvdreTiT aRmsdgari navTqura dgas, navTquraze
Caidani, xolo, Caidanze elisosTvis dasatovebeli erT-erTi werilia wkipad
Camodebuli. Tu eliso navTquras ixmars, aucileblad SeamCnevs. mainc
SeamCnevs, gindac tyuilubralod Semoixedos samzareuloSi erTi wamiT.
meore werili saweri magidis ujraSi devs da eliso amas pirveli werilis
meSveobiT Seityobs. magram raki dro gvaqvs, araferi daSavdeba, Cvenc Tu
gadavxedavT erTxel kidev. sjobs, zedmetad gavisarjoT axla, vidre mere
vinanoT. maqsimalurad unda SevamowmoT yvelaferi, punqtuaciisa da
orTografiis CaTvliT. veravin ver ityvis winaswar, saidan gamotyvreba Sari.
tyuilad xom ar aris naTqvami, Saro, saidan moxvalo?! Tumca, uaRresad
uwyinari werilebia. pirveli, kacma rom Tqvas, arc aris werili, mSrali
cnobaa meore werilis Sesaxeb, imis meSveobiT unda Seityos elisom, sad da
rodis naxos mTavari werili werili-aRsareba, anda, werili-anderZi.
aRsarebaca da anderZic erTsa da imave dros. mokled, gulaCuyebuli bebris
bJuturi...
elizbars, erTi wamiT, elisos damcinavad momRimari saxe daudga Tvalwin
da aSkarad ar esiamovna. magram pirvel werilSi mainc veraferi naxa kudis
gamosabmeli. arc araferi ewera Sig. "Tu xvalamde ar gamovCndi, Cemi saweri
magidis ujraSi meore werili dagxvdeba da is agixsnis yvelafers. Seni e."
es iyo da es. eliso, rasakvirvelia, droze adre araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar
gaxsnis qmris ujras, magram gindac gaxsnas, amiT araferi daSavdeba.
ubralod, cotaTi adre gaigebs imas, rac, adre Tu gvian, mainc unda gaigos
da bevri araferi Seicvleba, saerTod Tu ar gaigebs. erTaderTi, "Seni e."
aRar moewona, yuric moWra da Tvalic sentimentaluri familiarulobiT.
saswrafod wamodga skamidan, finjanSi CarCenili Cai WurWlis sarecx
niJaraSi CaRvara, finjani lambaqze daapirqvava da werilianad Tavis samuSao
oTaxisken gaemarTa. jibis fanris yviTeli, uRimRamo gamonaSuqi mis win
mifarfatebda, raRacnairad daRlili Tu dabneuli, samyaros ukanasknel
pepelasaviT.
 meore werilma, rogorc guli ugrZnobda, gacilebiT seriozulad
Caafiqra. aaRelva kidec, TiTqos pirvelad kiTxulobda saerTod. TiTqos,
vidre sakuTar werils ar gadaamowmebda, kidev ar sjeroda, marTla ase
cudad Tu iyo maTi saqme. jer guli auCuyda, mRelvarebisgan aTrTolebuli
xeli gauazreblad gadaisva Tmaze, mere ki, sakuTar Tavs gaubrazda, aseTi
daundobeli gulwrfelobisTvis. SigadaSig, xmamaRla amoiZaxebda xolme
frazis calkeul naglejs: ... dro aRar aris... TviTonac xvdebi albaT...
aravis ara aqvs gansjis ufleba... yvelani uflisgan ganvisjebiT... oRond,
gaqcevad nu CamiTvli... de me viyo ukanaskneli... magram Cven rom Tavis
droze... iqneb ase ar momxdariyo... diaxac, ar moxdeboda, Tuki sxvanairad
(adamianurad) icxovrebdnen Tavidanve. da mainc kmayofili darCa
wakiTxuliT. araferSi SekamaTebia sakuTar Tavs. arc ramis Secvlisa da
gasworebis survili gasCenia. magram moulodnelad, elisos damcinavad
momRimarma saxem isev xanjlis piriviT gaielva sibneleSi da isic,
nirwamxdari da Secbunebuli, xelaxla Seudga werilis kiTxvas.
siyvarulic Taviseburi omia, gansakuTrebuli saxeobaa omisa da
dapirispirebisa, oRond, nebismieri omisa da dapirispirebisgan gansxvavebiT,
iq mxolod is imarjvebs, vinc marcxdeba, anu, visac daTmobis, gagebis,
mitevebis unari meti aRmoaCndeba. amitomac aris yvelasTvis da yovelTvis
gaugebari. magram, imave dros, mimzidvelicaa da Zlieric, swored imitom,
srulebiTac rom ar cdilobs gasagebi gaxdes vinmesTvis...
sinaTlis yviTeli nafleTi, frTanatken, anda sulac calfrTian
pepelasaviT, borZikiT, kankaliT, xan ki, sxartad, erTi naxtomiT inacvlebda
adgils sityvidan sityvaze.
mokled, imdeni ukirkita elizbarma, vidre koreqturac ar aRmoaCina ukve
aTvalwunebul werilSi, ramac umal gaaxalisa, vidre Seawuxa. "aha, kidev
erTi sabuTi Cveni uyuradRebobisao" SesZaxa gunebaSi, ufro werilisgan
miRebuli STabeWdilebis misaCqmalad, vidre sakuTari sifxizliT
aRtacebulma. ubralod, elisosi Sercxva isev da am yovlad gaumarTlebeli,
qveSevrdomuli moridebisa da mokrZalebisgan ganTavisufleba scada
uneburad. saqme saqmeze rom mimdgariyo, arcerT sityvas ar waiRebda ukan,
magram sakuTarma gulwrfelobam SeaSfoTa: imdenad susti da daucveli
gamoiyureboda colis TvalSi, Tavisuflad SeiZleboda, marTla
TvalTmaqcobad CaeTvala imas es werili-aRsareba Tu werili-anderZi, Tuki
waikiTxavda rodisme, rac ukve seriozulad eeWveboda Tavad elizbars.
werili magidaze dado, ganTavisuflebuli xeliT, fanris Suqze
abrWyvialebul kalmistrebis mTvlemare jogidan erT-erTi amoarCia da
saTuTad, sasoebiT, TiTqos TvalSi wamals awveTebs bavSvso, gamotovebuli
aso Caamata sityvaSi. "ai, ase! viyoT bolomde pedantebio" daamTavra ukve
gulwrfeli mRelvarebiT. aseTi bunebisa gaxlavT, ver egueba Secdomas da
nebismieris gamosworebas cdilobs, rac TavisTavad, danaSauli Tu ara,
sibriyve namdvilad aris. amitom, arc mas gamosdis rame. verc misi
pedantizmi amarTlebs am sruli ganukiTxaobis Jams. ai, Tavis droze,
rogorme Tavi rom SeekavebinaT makaronuli leqsebisgan, SeiZleboda kidev
gadarCeniliyvnen. axla ki, ukve gviania. omSi wasvla Cven gadavwyviteT dRes,
Torem, omi raxania mZvinvarebs. mas mere mZvinvarebs, rac romis papma piom
bizantiidan osmalebis gandevna ganizraxa da daxmarebis saTxovnelad vinme
ludoviko bolonieli afrina saqarTveloSi, rogorc qristian da, rac
mTavaria, Ronier qveyanaSi, romelic iqamde, didad wodebulma aleqsandre
pirvelma monRolTa monobaSi gapirutyvebul naTesavebs miugdo sajijgnad
da TviTon eklesiis ekvders Seafara Tavi...

raz, dva, tri da,

Semotrialdi da,
Tofi xelSi daiWire,
 omSi wamodi da...

araferi gauCenia RmerTs, Tavisi sakuTari ena ar hqondes: ZaRli yefs,

cxeni xvixvinebs, kameCi yoyinebs, viri yroyinobs, qaTami kakanebs, gveli
sisinebs, mgeli ymuis, arwivi yivis, yvavi yrantalebs, Zroxa zmuis, WriWina
WriWinebs, mwyeri qviTqviTebs, bayayi yiyinebs, Ramura wivis, koRo wuis, Tagvi
wripinebs, adamiani laparakobs, germaneli germanulad, Cineli Cinurad da
ase Semdeg, ase Semdeg... Sen ki, rusulad samamde Tvli da qarTulad laybob
aTas sisuleles. xolo, ufro gulwrfelebi Tu viqnebiT, verc qarTuls
flob, verc rusuls, sayvelpurod ici erTic da meorec da, rac ufro
savalaloa, amdensac ver xvdebi, anda, dabadebiT amayi xar da ar imCnev
uvicobas. anda, kidev uaresi, aRarafris grcxvenia vin Seityobso da
warbSeuxrelad, mxolod da mxolod, Seni pedanturobis gamo, sityvaSi
gamotovebul asos qveSevrdomuli mowiwebiT, monazvnuri saTnoebiT abruneb
ukan, rogorc SemTxveviT gadmovardnil bartys budeSi... magram Secdomis
gamosworeba ar SeiZleba. SeiZleba, aRar gaimeoro erTxel ukve Cadenili,
magram amis pirobasac veravin mogcems dabejiTebiT. Znelia. cduneba didia.
gariskva Rirs. adamiani SecdomisCamdeni cxovelia. magram arasodes ar icis,
TavisTavad cxadia, Cadenamde, ra aris Secdoma, miT ufro, Tuki Tavad
cdeba... amis garkveva ukve Semdegi etapia misi cxovrebisa, romelic an dgeba,
an ara. Secdomas ki ar ikvleven, aRnusxaven SeZlebisdagvarad, da xSirad,
Tavis mosawonebladac, miaxloebiT, daaxloebiT, radgan misi raodenoba da
nairsaxeoba amouwuravia. amitomac ar SeiZleba Secdomaze swavla. SeiZleba,
is iswavlo, rac aRaraferSi gamogadgeba da gamogrCes is, rac yovel
nabijze gamogadgeboda, Tuki gecodineboda. nebismier Secdomas, ara marto
misi Camdeni (yvelaze naklebad albaT Camdeni!), aramed yvelaferi
erTdroulad ganapirobebs: geografiac, istoriac, fizikac, qimiac, droc,
garemoc, amindic, guneba-ganwyobilebac, janmrTelobac, planetebis
ganlagebac, zodiaqos niSanic, haeris tenianobac, wylis temperaturac,
qarebis siCqareca da mimarTulebac, irgvliv myofTa biodenuri monacemebi,
naTesavTa sixarbe, siTavxede, sibriyve... ase rom, adamiani arasodes marto ar
cdeba, magram, samwuxarod, yovelTvis marto agebs pasuxs saerTo
SecdomisTvis... xolo, rac Seexeba elizbars, am abneuli fiqrebidan mxolod
is daskvna gamoitana, azri rom ar hqonda elisosTvis werilebis datovebas,
ar iyo saWiro elisos Careva am sisuleleSi. amitom, orive werili
daudevrad CaikuWa jibeSi da "moTvinierebuli peplis" megzurobiT, axla
zurgCanTis Sesamowmeblad gaemarTa. gzad, erTi-orjer, mSoblebis
gadidebul suraTsac mianaTa jibis fanari, TiTqos SemTxveviT, da imaTac,
gakvirvebulebma Tu daeWvebulebma, maSinve gamoxedes gauvali wyvdiadidan.
"am suraTsac Camoxsniano" zereled, zogadad gaifiqra elizbarma, aravin
ugulisxmia konkretulad, visac misi mSoblebis suraTis Camoxsna SeeZlo.
mwvane brezentis zurgCanTa, yavisferi tyavis samxreebiani, SemosasvlelSi
egdo karTan, sanaxevrod carieli. bevri araferi mihqonda Tan, radgan
wesierad arc icoda, ra unda waeRo, ramden xans mouwevda iq yofna, magram,
yovel SemTxvevisTvis, Tbilebic Caelagebina, saparsTan, saponTan, kbilis
jagrisTan, saerTo rveulTan, pastis ramdenime kalmistarTan, flostebTan
da wamlebTan erTad. jariskacis bargi mwiria, magram rac elizbarma
CamoTvala, ufro qviSxeTSi gamoadgeboda, mweralTa dasasvenebel saxlSi,
vidre sangarSi. TviTonve Sercxva am uaRresad samSvidobo aqsesuarebisa,
Tumca, umal omSi wasvlas gadaifiqrebda, vidre uimaTod wavidoda saomrad.
magram, mcire yoymanis Semdeg, flostebi ukanve wamoyara celofanis
parkidan. romeli WkuaTmyofeli iseirnebs wina xazze flostebSi
fexebwayrilio gaecina mwared da axla ukve damcinavad, RvarZlianad
dauTvala sakuTar Tavs:
 raz, dva, tri da,
raz, dva, tri da,
raz, dva, tri da...

iTvlida gagulisebuli, aRgznebuli, aforiaqebuli, ukve mixvedrili

sakuTari gadawyvetilebis uazrobas, magram ukve gzamoWrili, ufro sworad,
ukve gzaze damdgari, ukve omSi Cabmuli da, aqedan gamomdinare, aqaurobaze
metad, gaurkvevlobis kuTvnileba, sikvdilamdec da sikvdilis Semdegac...

cota xnis mere ukve veris baRSi ijda da muxlebze dadebul zurgCanTas,
rogorc mTel Tavis avladidebas, gulSi ixutebda. sakmaod cioda, Tumca,
bususaSlil wyvdiads ukve gasCenoda bzari, saidanac moaxloebuli mziT
gabrwyinvebuli ca iRvreboda. Citebic erT ambavSi iyvnen, TiTqos pirvelad
Tendeboda saerTod. susxian bindbundSi TandaTan ikveTeboda baRis
calkeuli nawilebi. mas ki, mwvaneSi Cafluli qviSxeTi edga Tvalwin,
Tvalwin ki ar edga, iq iyo mTeli arsebiT gadasaxlebuli da, zurgCanTaze
nikapCamodebuls, ayvavebuli cacxvebis damaTrobeli sunic ki scemda.
srulebiTac ar iyo saomrad ganwyobili. CvenSi rom vTqvaT, an ra eomeboda
mis Svils sicocxle aRar undoda, gnebavT, ar Tvlida Tavs sicocxlis
Rirsad. ase rom, safrTxeSi Cavardnili sicocxlis gadasarCenad ki ar
midioda es, rac mtris TvalSic gaamarTlebda, aramed Tavlafdasxmuli
sicocxlis ramenairad misaCqmalad da misafuCeCeblad, risi gagebac albaT
moyvaresac gauWirdeboda. sakuTari Tavis rcxvenoda, Torem, siamovnebiT
mibrundeboda Sin, Tavis skamTan, Tavis magidasTan, Tavis sabeWd manqanasTan,
Tavis flostebTan... sindisis garda, araferi avaldebulebda am omSi
wasvlas. mosaxdeni uimisodac moxdeboda. amitom, mxolod is unda
gadaewyvita, rac piradad mas exeboda, anu, ase, mowafuri morCilebiT
daecada sxva moxaliseebisTvis, Tu, sanam kidev SeiZleboda, ukanmouxedavad
moecocxa aqedan. uazro msxverplis gaRebasa da axla ukve saqveynod
gapampulebas, isev Sin yofna jobda, "niJaraSi", isev gamogonil da mis
wignebSi Tavmoyril xalxTan kamaTi maradiul, mourCenel satkivrebze,
Tundac mxolod imitom, cxovrebisgan ukve damarcxebulni, damarcxebas
Seguebulni rom iyridnen iq Tavs da araTu televiziis diqtors,
mamazeciersac aRar SeeZlo maTi gabriyveba. iq zRaprebisa aRar sjeraT,
ufro sworad, sxva sibrtyeze da sxva ganzomilebebiT cxovroben: Cadenilze
ocneboben da Caudenels inanieben...
elizbaris mRelvare warmodgenebSi imqveyniurma, wiTlad abrialebulma
fiWvnarma gaiWriala uceb da imdenad cxadi iyo es Cveneba, fiWvebis tanze
cocxlad mimxmari WriWinebis gamofituli, gamWvirvale gvamebic ki SeamCnia.
magram, imave dros, sinamdvilesac daubrunda, radgan isic maSin SeamCnia
pirvelad, marto rom ar iyo baRSi. auzis kideze viRac gadawoliliyo
mucliT da guls irevda. anda, ukve gulareuli, Tav-pirs ibanda auzis
wyalSi. elizbari uneburad daiZaba, welSi gaimarTa da kidev ufro magrad
miixuta mkerdze brezentis zurgCanTa, TiTqos es ucxo adamiani, rogorc ki
Tavis saqmes moaTavebda, zurgCanTas waarTmevda, rac srulebiTac ar
gaukvirdeboda elizbars, magram arc ufiqria aqedan wasvla, an sad unda
wasuliyo, roca ukan dasabrunebeli yvela gza TviTonve moikveTa, yvela
xidi dawva, yvela Toki gadaWra... imitomac ijda axla aq da bebruli
sijiutiT elodeboda yvelafers erTad: gaTenebasac, moxaliseTa gamoCenasac
da ucnobTan urTierTobis garkvevasac...
 is ucnobi, Tqvenc mixvdiT albaT, antoni gaxldaT, Ramis barSi galaxuli
da bewvze gadarCenili sikvdils... gaWirvebiT wamodga fexze. pijakis
saxeloebidan wyali wurwuriT gasdioda. pijakic gaWirvebiT gaixada da
auzis kideze gadafina frTxilad. magram pijaks ki ar ufrTxildeboda
meti raRa unda damarTvoda uaresi moZraoba uWirda, odnavi ganZrevac ki,
autanel tkivils ayenebda, ris gamoc misi moZraobebi mSvidi da daxvewili
Canda Soridan. perangi da maisuri erTad gadaiZro da, ratomRac,
ramdenjerme gaaRanRala wyalSi. garecxa, Tavisi WkuiT. tkivilebisgan lamis
isev dakarga goneba, magram mainc mTeli ZaliT wuravda perangsa da maisurs,
vidre sveli qsovilis sakmaod sqeli morgvi ar SerCa xelSi. isic pijakis
gverdiT daagdo da, TiTqmis dediSobila, skamisken wamovida. sityvis
uTqmelad miujda elizbars gverdiT, gegonebodaT, siZe-simamrs winaswar
dauTqvamT, dilauTenia, maincdamainc, veris baRis am skamze SevxvdeT
erTmaneTso...
anton! gulwrfelad Seicxada elizbarma.
antonis danaxva, erTdroulad, gaukvirda da gauxarda kidec, magram isic
maSinve gaaxsenda, cota uxerxulic rom iqneboda misgan amgvari uSualo,
dadebiTi emociebis gamoxatva, radgan metad arasasiamovno da uaRresad
saTakilo viTarebaTa gamo, advili SesaZlebelia, saerTod ar sdomeboda
antons misi danaxva, uaresad gaeRizianebina paleosimamrTan Sexvedras da,
rasakvirvelia, arc Tavisi gaRizianebis gamomJRavnebisa morideboda. ase rom,
rac ufro TavSekavebuli iqneboda elizbari, miT ukeTesi. maTi warsulic
warsuls Cabarda. kacma rom Tqvas, arc iyo misi saqme, ra undoda antons
baRSi am dilauTenia. iqneb, isic moxalised midioda omSi?! aseve ar iyo
elizbaris saqme, ras apirebda antoni momavalSi da apirebda Tu ara
saerTod rames. msajulic sxvaa da gamkiTxavic... magram arc imis uaryofa
SeiZleba, brma SemTxvevasTan rom ar hqondaT saqme, gangebas surda ase da
iman miusva gverdiT am ukacur baRSi, garkveuli TvalsazrisiT, misi
mizeziTac gaubedurebuli kaci...
diax! daudastura antonma gana Cven vicnobT erTmaneTs?
miaSterda cali TvaliT. meoreTi ver xedavda, buStiviT gahbervoda da
lorwovani libri gadahkvroda zed aaaa! rogor ara, rogor ara
gaagrZela agdebulad, gaSarJebuli TavazianobiT me erTxel Tqveni siZec
viyavi... magram amas araviTari mniSvneloba ara aqvs, endeT Cems gamocdilebas.
naTesaobac borkilis saxeobaa da rac ufro male moiSoreb, miT ukeTesi. ase
gvaswavlis cixe. cixe dRevandeli modelia xvalindelisa. yvelanairi
Tanasworoba... sruli demokratia Tunuqis yuTSi... ai, naxeT ra miyves... magram
fexebi ver momWames mainc... piri SuSis mtvriTa maqvs savse, Torem getyodiT,
aucileblad... Tqven ar dagimalavdiT... boTlebiT mcemdnen, magram ver
mivarTvi... Camon Cemi CuCua, rogorc didi bebia klava ityoda, cxonebuli...
sjobs Seni eSinodes viRacas mainc, vidre Sen geSinodes ganuwyvetliv,
Tanac yvelasi... laCrebi... damplebi... jibeSi Caviyavi xeli da... samivem Caijva.
nabiWvrebi... yvela Tavisas miiRebs... mTavaria, sababi gqondes... ra Tqma unda,
Tqven ar gexebaT. Zalian gamixarda Tqveni naxva, magram rogor momageniT?
didxans meZebdiT? Cven xom arasodes vyofilvarT siZe-simamri... me Tqven
yovelTvis megobrad gTvlidiT... axlac mxolod Zveli megobrobis xaTriT
gekiTxebiT, rogor brZandeba Cemi kdemamosili meuRle? sicxeebma xom ar
Seawuxes am zafxuls? xom mSvidobiT moilogina? kidev erTi CemisTana jojo
Semata am dampal qveyanas, Tu Tavisnairi kaxpa? jojos isev kaxpa jobs,
RmerTia mowame. me, piradad, aTiaTas jojos erTi kaxpa mirCevnia... aTiaTasi
xom, miT ufro...
lizikom venebi gadaiWra gaawyvetina elizbarma Zlivs
gadaarCines moayola swrafad, radgan Seatyo, rogor SeakrTo antoni
misma naTqvamma.
 antoni, erTi wamiT, marTla gairinda, TiTqos acnobierebda elizbaris
naTqvams, magram maSinve Zveleburad gaagrZela:
Tqven gaimarjveT Tqva damcinavad momRimarma, Tuki SeiZleboda
ramenairi Rimili Sestyoboda dabegvilsa da dasiebul saxeze magram gana
Svils moekiTxeba mSoblis codvebi?! moekiTxeba da mere rogor moekiTxeba,
rom icodeT! unda moekiTxebodes kidec. swored Svils unda moekiTxebodes!
Svili rom ar yofiliyo, arc mSobeli waxdeboda... mSobels Svili aiZulebs...
mSobeli SvilisTvis codavs... Svilis gamo... laparakobda uazrod,
dabneulad, gamomwvevad, gamaRizianeblad, raRacnairad atacebuli da
aRgznebuli, Tumca, arc mTvrali iyo da arc narkotiki hqonda miRebuli.
"TviTonac ar icis, ras mied-moedebao" gabrazda elizbari. arasodes
enaxa aseTi antoni: RvarZliani, Tavxedi, damcinavi, daundobeli... piriqiT,
zedmeti moridebulobiTa da TavdaWerilobiT gamoirCeoda yovelTvis,
sxvaTaSoris, lizikosganac. ramdenjer uTqvams elizbars imisTvis,
antonisgan mainc iswavleo.
lizikomac ase miTxra Tqva uceb Sen gaimarjveo... gana Tqven
gebrZodiT?! ase gesmodaT Cemi?!
me ar vici, raze saubrobT xolme Tqven da Tqveni qaliSvili, magram
Tqven icodiT is, rac me ufro mWirdeboda, magram aravin maswavla
ukmexad miaxala antonma.
me rac vicodi, yvelaferi gaswavleT daixia ukan elizbarma.
ara! mTavari ar giswavlebiaT! uaresad aRegzno antoni.
ra? xeze asvla? Semrigeblurad gaicina elizbarma.
ara, xidan Camosvla! xeze asvla gadarCena ar aris. xeze asvliT,
SeiZleba, droebiT daaRwio gansacdels Tavi, magram xeze asasvlelad rom
gagixdeba saqme... gaicina antonmac. mRelvarebisgan Tu sicivisgan, jer
kidev ZagZagebda da kbili kbilze uxvdeboda laparakisas.
gacivdebi wamoscda elizbars.
me ukve gavcivdi, Zia elizbar... raxania mciva... gaCenis dRidan... cixe
sicivea. sul gciva, wevxar gciva. zixar gciva. dadixar gciva. ki ar
eCvevi sicives, amis SeCveva ar SeiZleba, TandaTanobiT, Senc sicive xdebi,
sicivis nawili... ai, damadeT xeli, yinuliviT var... paiki klavs mamas da
xdeba araraoba...
 elizbari isev daiZaba. ar gamosdioda laparaki am marTlac ucxo
adamianTan, romelic antons ki hgavda, magram, imave dros, araferi ecxo
antonisa. rasakvirvelia, mis dReSi myofs, veravin mokiTxavda Wkuasa da
zrdilobas, magram imdenad kargad icnobda elizbari, imdenad didi xnis
megobroba akavSirebda masTan, mainc uWirda antonisTvis amgvarad
damakninebeli, amgvarad Seuracxmyofeli metamorfozis dajereba. mamisgan
ganwirulsa da colisgan naRalatevs, TiTqos mxolod isRa gaamarTlebda
sxvaTa TvalSi, Tuki uzneobisa da gaxrwnilebis wumpeSi Caefloboda
TviTonac... esec aiZulebda elizbars, naklebad ahyoloda grZnobebs da
ufro fxizlad yofiliyo. sifxizle yovelTvis saWiroa, gansakuTrebiT ki,
amgvar sulelur situaciaSi, roca jer isic gasarkvevia, Tu ra saxis
urTierToba SeiZleba arsebobdes saerTod moxalise bebersa da sicocxlis
moZule axalgazrdas Soris. sifxizle aucilebelia, radgan yvela
axalgazrda, Svili iqneba Tu siZe (miT ufro, nasiZari), erTnairad
saxifaToa da saxifaToa, upirveles yovlisa, sxvaTa SexedulebaTa
gauTvaliswineblad Camoyalibebuli sakuTari Sexedulebebis gamo.
daukiTxavad dagiskupdeba gverdiT da Tanamzraxvelad, Tanamoazred
gagixdis isedac TviTmkvlelobamde misuli Svilis winaaRmdeg. magram,
sinamdvileSi, ra Tqma unda, ase ar aris. ufro sworad, imedia, ase ar
fiqrobs antonic. ubralod, jerjerobiT, ver agebineben erTmaneTs, Torem,
orivem mSvenivrad icis, gacilebiT mniSvnelovani movlenis monawileni
arian, vidre kidev erTi ubeduri siyvarulia, anda kidev erTi dangreuli
ojaxi... am saqmeSi, mTavari isini ki ara, raJden kaSelia. mTavaria, culis
moRereba rom gaubedes raJden kaSels sakuTar WerqveS, gnebavT, sakuTar
godorSi, rasac SeiZleba marTla mohyves seriozuli cvlilebebi, ara marto
damoyvrebuli ojaxebisTvis, aramed mTeli qveynisTvis da saerTod
momavlisTvis... es ki, mogexsenebaT, umsxverplod ar xdeba. Tumca, msxverpli
ukve sakmarisze metia gaRebuli da araviTari mniSvneloba ara aqvs, oriT
meti iqneba is, Tu oriT naklebi... mTeli Taobebi iRupebian zedized,
zezeurad... ukvalod inTqmebian dro-Jamis ufskrulSi, rogorc spigmentebis
qaravnebi veSapis xaxaSi. dampali xorci scvivaT gzadagza... CagixedavT maT
uZiro, gamocarielebul TvalebSi?! mogismeniaT maTi uazro blukuni?!
antonic, lizikosi ar iyos, erTi imaTTagania mxolod, anu, metastazia da,
amdenad, naklebad saintereso, Tundac, medicinis TvalsazrisiT. medicina
uZluria metastazis winaSe da uZluri iqneba yovelTvis, Tuki senis mTavar
bunags ver miakvlevs... hoda, dRes miakvlia, antonisa da lizikos wyalobiT.
araTu miakvlia, bunagSi mTvlemare mxecic SeaSfoTa safuZvlianad... Tundac
marto amitom, antonica da lizikoc, TavianTi ubedurebiT, umal
TanagrZnobasa da Tanadgomas unda imsaxurebdnen Cvengan, vidre zizRnarev
sibraluls... aseTia elizbaris azri, ase vTqvaT, "kaSelebis saqmesTan"
dakavSirebiT da amitomac zis axla aq, am ukacur baRSi, usaxlkaro
mawanwalasaviT... emigrantiviT... veris baRSi zis, auzTan, rogorc eqvTime
mjdara parizSi, luqsemburgis baRSi... TvalnaTliv warmoidgina kidec
mzemiSuqebul skamze Camomjdari TeTrad TmadaTovlili moxuci: qarisgan
daSaSruli xelis mtevnebi muxlebze dauwyvia, mzeze Tbeba, da isinic,
mSvidad, uZravad wvanan, Tvinieri da siTbos moyvarul cxovelebiviT.
majebgadaqeqili paltos sayelo maRla auwevia, magram mainc sciva, radgan
misi mSobliuri kera aqedan Zalian Sors aris, sul sxva samyaroSi, sruliad
sxva astronomiul Tu geografiul ganzomilebebSi... siberis cremliT marad
sveli Tvalebi gulisamaCuyeblad ubrWyvialebs, aRsasrulis moaxloebis
mauwyeblad, is ki gazafxulis mzes eficxeba, gulSi imedCasaxuli, da auzis
garSemo mogrovili bavSvebisa da maTi gadiebis cqeriT erToba. auzSi nagavi
ki ar tivtivebs, rogorc aq, veris baRSi, aramed feradafrebiani saTamaSo
xomaldebi dasrialeben, romlebsac erTnairi interesiT uyureben, rogorc
celqi, lamazi bavSvebi, iseve maTi xalisiani, sandomiani gadiebi... "kidev
erTi gazafxulio" fiqrobs mzes mificxebuli moxuci, uRaribesi
emigranti da, amave dros, ararsebuli qveynis ormocsaukunovani saganZuris
meWurWleTuxucesi. xvalis imediT, dRevandels uZlebs, guSindelis
gadasarCenad. elizbarma ki, misgan gansxvavebiT, arc icis, ra evaleba, ra
unda daicvas aq, samSobloSi, raRa darCa gadasarCeni... ki batono, elizbari
Tanaxmaa, mzadaa, eqvTimesaviT, isic sakuTari nebiT ecvas jvars samSoblos
golgoTaze, magram arc saWurWlis klite miucia vinmes misTvis da arc
saWurWlis adgilsamyofeli uCvenebia. eqvTimes daavales da imanac daivala,
yvelaferi gverdze gadado, yvelafers Seelia... elizbari Tu mweralia, is
Rvawlmosili mecnieri gaxldaT, auditoriebis, kaTedrebis, sxdomaTa
darbazebis, laboratoriebis, wignTsacavebis binadari, aborigeni, magram
rodesac bedma erTxel kidev dawiokebuli samSoblos saganZuris movla-
patronoba daavala da emigraciis eklian gzas gauyena, xis yuTebSi
Camwyvdeul samSoblos sulTan erTad, isic mkacr, mousyidvel da fxizel
darajad gadaiqca maSinve. ocdaerTis TebervalSi, ufrosi raJden kaSelis
sixarbesa da sisastikes gaarida mravalgzis gardacvlili, magram mainc
ukvdavi, dauleveli samSoblos ormocsaukunovani saganZuri, aTas
dampyrobels, qurdsa da avazaks, ZalRsa da mamaZaRls gadarCenili,
TavmokveTili mefeebisa Tu ZuZuebdaglejili dedoflebis wyalobiT. misi
meuRle, saRamoobiT, fortepianoze ukravda romeliRac kino-TeatrSi, ase
vTqvaT, "musikalur fons" qmnida munji filmebisTvis, magram is oride kapiki,
rasac kino-Teatris patroni uxdida, ganZis Sesanaxi qiris dasafaradac ar
yofnidaT. erTi Txa hyavdaT da imis rZiT ibrunebdnen suls. coli
fortepianoze ukravda, qmari ki, Txas mwyemsavda levilis zurmuxtovan
mindvrebze, Txas iyo miCerebuli, miliardebis patroni. erTi nivTi mainc
rom gaeyida im saganZuridan, nebismieri zomisa da wonisa, sakuTari kunZuli
eqneboda wynar okeaneSi, mTeli dRe gamakSi iwveboda, Zvel foliantebsa da
wignebSi Cafluli, da SiSveli veluri gogonebi palmis StoebiT
gauniavebdnen mecnieruli varaudebiT SeWmuxnul Subls... magram gulSic ar
gauvlia msgavsi mkrexeloba. rasakvirvelia, bevri mamuliSviluri saqmis
gakeTeba SeiZleboda am zRapruli simdidriT Tundac, dedaenis gamocema
TurqeTis saqarTvelosa da fereidanis qarTvelebisTvis, rom araferi
vTqvaT, ukve sanaxevrod gadajiSebuli emigraciis fizikur gadarCenaze
magram verc qarTvelTa noe Seacvlevinebda azrs da verc emigrirebuli
mTavrobis sruli Semadgenloba. misTvis, yuTebSi Caketili simdidre,
upirveles yovlisa, realurad arsebuli simbolo iyo, Tundac, imJamad,
realurad ararsebuli qveynisa. sakuTari Svili rom enaxa (miT ufro rom,
arasodes hyolia), lizikosaviT majebgadaxveuli da sasikvdilod
gadadebuli, imis wamlisTvisac ver Seeleoda TavmokveTili mefeebisa da
ZuZuebdaglejili dedoflebis xelSenavleb nivTebs. im nivTebSiRa
saxierdeboda misi ubeduri samSoblo da vidre is nivTebi arsebobdnen,
samSobloc arsebobda; vidre im nivTebs viRaca mainc patronobda, Tundac,
iqiT misaxedi da iqiT sapatronebeli moxuci, ese igi, arc misi samSoblo
iyo mTlad upatronod migdebuli. amis rwmena aZlebinebda levilis
gamoyruebul TavSesafarSi, sadac (colis sikvdilis Semdeg) marto
umklavdeboda usaxsrobasac, uZlurebasac, umegobrobasac, SiSsac,
SimSilsac, sicivesac, sensac, asaksac... yvelafers, rasac misi saganZuris
xelyofa SeeZlo, im yuTebis daSla-dabzarva, romlebSic samSoblos suli
hyavda Camwyvdeuli ukeTesi dRisTvis, im dRisTvis, roca usaSvelod,
usazRvrod momTmeni da samarTliani RmerTi, mis gacamtverebul samSoblos
erTxel kidev moagrovebda peSvSi, erTxel kidev gadazelda, erTxel kidev
aRudgenda pirvandel saxes da axla ukve samaradisod Cahberavda beberi
darajis sijiutiT gadarCenil suls... "eqvTi-meee! eqvTi-meee!" levilidan
eZaxda, afxizlebda Txa, gazafxulis mzeze Tvlemamoreuls. "madlobT, Cemo
amalTea... Sen mainc ici, ramxela saqmes vemsaxurebiTo" emadliereboda,
efereboda iqidan, luqsemburgis baRidan, ra Tqma unda, gunebaSi, giJi rom
ar hgonebodaT auzis irgvliv moTamaSe bavSvebsa da gadiebs. Txam icoda,
elizbarma ki ar icis, "ramxela" saqmes emsaxureba, saerTod, vis ra sikeTes
moutans misi omSi wasvla, Zveli saxeli da dideba daubrundeba amiT mis
samSoblos Tu mitacebuli miwebi?! jer marto gaxiznulebma ramdeni waiRes,
zogma muWiT, zogmac xurjiniT... mtersac da moyvaresac, maincdamainc, misi
miwa ar yofnis da saqarTvelos yoveli axali saxeoba, axleburad SekreWil-
Sekvecili, imdenad gansxvavdeba winamorbedisgan, xaTriT TuRa dauZaxeb
saqarTvelos. magram rac ar unda daknindes da dapataravdes qveyana, misTvis
fasdaudebeli, misTvis auwonavi saganZuri mainc darCeba. gana antoni igive
saganZuri ar aris?! ufro metic, antonze Zvirfasi dRes aRaraferi gaaCnia am
qveyanas da visac qveynis gadarCena surs, pirvel rigSi, antoni unda
gadaarCinos... amitomac, Tavcocxali, fexs ar moicvlis elizbari aqedan,
vidre moxaliseebi ar gamoCndebian (Tuki marTla mova vinme, masaviT
suleli), vidre sabolood ar gaTendeba da vidre qveyana isev qveyanas ar
daemsgavseba, Sesaxedad mainc...
ar gekadreba, Cemo anton, namdvilad ar gekadreba gaicina
elizbarma erTi Segaxeda, ras gavxar...
Tqveni ar vici... gaicina antonmac. Tan pirze ifarebda xels,
daxeTqili tuCebi tkioda (elizbarma mxolod maSin SeamCnia pirvelad,
mTeli saxe jer kidev Ria, sisxlCamdgari WrilobebiT hqonda imas daserili)
Tqveni ar vici, magram, piradad me, yelamde var TavisuflebiT... gonze ver
movsulvar... jer santeqnikosiviT damaTvres, mere bazris qurdiviT mcemes...
mgoni, arc Tqven ityodiT uars Cems galaxvaze, magram winaswar minda
gagafrTxiloT, ar miyvars, roca mirtyamen... ase rom, aRar vTamaSob...
meyofa... sakmarisia... isev mSobliuri cixe mirCevnia... magram iqac aRar
mimesvleba, Cemive sibriyvis gamo... me xom mama movkali... ar gagigiaT?! aRar
arsebobs CemTvis... arada, Tu rame iyo mSobliuri, is iyo... isic ki ver
gavarkvie, cols wavaswari mamasTan, Tu mamas colTan... magram aRarc
moraluri mxare mainteresebs am saqmisa, aRarc amoraluri... asedac movaxsene
Cems gamomZiebels... samZimrisTvis dagigviandaT, mitevebaze jer fiqric
adrea...
mTavaria, Rirseba SevinarCunoT aRelda uceb elizbari
yvelaferi vanacvaloT Rirsebas, colic... Tavic... uimisod aRarc sicocxles
eqneba azri... Rirseba igive samSobloa...
mTavaria, sababi gqondes, Zia elizbar... sababi! SesZaxa antonma da
tkivilebisgan uSnod daimanWa me mqonda sababi gaagrZela daZabulad,
frTxilad, sakuTar sxeuls miyuradebulma sababi namdvilad kargi
mqonda da imitomac gamomapanRures cixidan... gaiTvaliswines ra, rogorc
imaTi metad efeqturi, aseve Cemi aranakleb afeqturi mdgomareoba,
ocdasamwliani patimroba uvado TavisuflebiT Semicvales... roca minda,
sadac minda da rac minda... duqnebSi Zvel CekistebTan vqeifob, Ramis barebSi
damwyeb biznesmenebTan. mgoni, gavcisferdi kidec... yovel SemTxvevaSi,
koleqtiur seqssac gavuge gemo da jgufuri gaupatiurebis obieqtic
vyofilvar...
eg ar aris Tavisufleba... Senc mSvenivrad ici da tyuilad nu
isuleleb Tavs Seuwyra xmaSi Rimilgareuli elizbari
Tavisuflebamde jer kidev Soria. matli ki gaWuprda, magram Wupridan
pepela jer ar amofrenila... iqneb Sen xar is pepela, ha?! mTeli taniT
Semobrunda antonisken.
 matli namdvilad var... xelebi aswia antonma bavSvobidanve
matlis mxareze viyavi... erTxel obobas gavagdebine xelidan da imis mere
visjebi. is oboba Cems sulSia Cabudebuli da grZeli, ekliani sacecebiT
Signidan mikawravs suls, rogorc ki gavinZrevi...
 elizbars Jruantelma dauara, sulSi Cabudebuli obobis warmodgenaze,
magram araferi uTqvams. an ra unda eTqva?! riTi unda enugeSebina amgvari
anomaluri seniT Sepyrobili adamiani?! brezentis CanTa gaxsna da raRacas
dauwyo Sig Zebna. sinamdvileSi, ar undoda antonsac SeemCnia misi SekrToma.
"am qveynisa aRar ariso" fiqrobda SeSfoTebuli. arada, swored antonia
erTaderTi kanonieri da uflebamosili patroni am qveynisa da swored
iseTia, rogoric am qveyanas Seefereba: cota gadamcdaria Wkuidan
(Tandayolili aRgznebulobis gamo), mTvrali ar aris, magram mTvraliviT
laparakobs, uazrod da gauTaveblad, Tumca, rasac ambobs, marTals ambobs;
Tavs damnaSaved ar Tvlis aravisa da arafris winaSe, magram eamayeba
borotmomqmedisa da mkvlelis saxeli; winaswari ganzraxviT, arc aravis
mokvlas apirebs, arc aravis Semorigebas, magram erTisTvisac mzadaa da
meorisTvisac, gaaCnia, rodis ra gunebaze iqneba; ra Tqma unda, cota
xuliganicaa da mawanwalac, radgan aseTia TiTqmis yvela misi Tanatoli
biWic da gogoc, cxovrebis wesidan gamomdinare da msoflioSi dadgenili
eTikuri normebis Sesabamisad. xolo, Tuki filosofiur-poeturi
kategoriebiT vimsjelebT, giJis xelSi moxvedrili danaa, upirveles
yovlisa, Cvenive daudevrobisa da uxerxemlobis wyalobiT. marTlac danas
hgavs garegnuladac da Tvisobrivadac basria, civi, saxifaTo... magram
iqneb Sen gevaleba imis gadarCena, Tuki, ra Tqma unda, jer kidev
SesaZlebelia es?! esec Tan waiyvane... iqneb cecxliT ganiwmindoT oriveni?!
iqneb esaa Seni mowodeba da ar ici?! Tavi mwerali ggonia. arada, xom
SeiZleba, marTla winaswar hqondes RmerTs yvelaferi Cafiqrebuli?! aba,
maincdamainc, Sen ratom unda gagCenoda liziko da, maincdamainc, kaSelebs
ratom unda danaTesavebodi, genetikuri antipodi kaSelebisa; antonic,
maincdamainc, dRes ratom unda "gamosuliyo cixidan" da, maincdamainc, Sen
ratom unda mogjdomoda gverdiT, maincdamainc, am baRSi?! rasakvirvelia,
SemTxveviTobac gasaTvaliswinebelia, magram... araviTari magram! (gauwyra
Tavs elizbari). araviTari magram?! (gaimeora jiutad). erTi dabneuli kravic
rom daabruno faraSi, didi ambavia. Cakide xeli da daabrune. Tu marTla
xar ramis gamkeTebeli, gauwie eqvTimoba. rogori saganZuricaa, iseTi eqvTime
mainc iyavi, Tu marTla TvalTmaqci ara xar, rogorc Sens Svils hgonia.
magram elizbari TvalTmaqci ki ar aris, isic Cveulebrivi mRilia, uvnebo,
ugrZnobeli, da masze ukeT aravin icis, ris maqnisia, ra SeuZlia, ras
gaswvdeba misi Zala da goneba. marTalia, survilic ar aris cota, magram
marto surviliT ver Seabam katas eJvans. ara marto unda gsurdes, unda
SegeZlos kidec katis mokvla. pirdapir rom vTqvaT, elizbarsac Tavisi
samSoblos, Tavisi xalxis uZlureba sWirs, eldismieri, misi gadamylapavi
urCxulis nawlavidan gamoyolili. es maTi saerTo, erovnuli, istoriuli
uZlurebaa, eqvsaswliani sibnelis, uhaerobis, umoZraobis Sedegi, da erTad
unda daixsnan misgan Tavi, an erTad Seewiron. cal-calke ver moerevian.
ramac ar unda aiZuloT culis xelSi aReba, cal-calke verafers gaxdebian,
imis mokvlis Jinsac ver moiklaven, umal isev is CaibrunebT Tavis stomaqSi,
stomaqis lorwovan simJaveSi, simyraleSi da, SeiZleba, ukve samudamodac,
SeiZleba, aRar amoarwyios orgzis ukve Caylapuli, momzadebulad CaTvalos
mosaneleblad. elizbaric xom am uZlurebis dasaZlevad midis omSi, Tumca,
darwmunebuli ar aris (miT ufro, antonTan Sexvedris Semdeg), sasurveli
Sedegi gamoiRos aman. isini xom saerTo seniT arian dasneulebulni da
aTaSangiani col-qmariviT, cal-calke arc erTis mkurnalobas ara aqvs azri.
cal-calke maTi Tavganwirvac uazrobaa: afeqti, akrobatuli triuki,
sulisSemZvreli sanaxaoba... amitom, Cakide xeli da waiyvane. gana cotaa,
erTma uZRebma Svilma mainc gaigos, ra xdeba mis Tavs, ratom aris am dReSi?!
Cakide xeli da daayene gzaze, auxseni, dRes da guSin rom ar dawyebula
Tqveni ubedureba, bevri amgvari usindisoba rom gadagitaniaT, Tuki amas
gadatana hqvia. mas mere, rac romis papma piom bizantiidan osmalebis
gandevna ganizraxa da daxmarebis saTxovnelad gamogzavnil vinme ludoviko
boloniels saqarTvelo Tavis adgilze aRar dauxvda... da ase Semdeg, ase
Semdeg... marTalia, bevri dakargeT (Tundac, Tqveni kanonieri adgili
rukaze!), magram vidre ibrZodiT, xalxi gerqvaT. mainc angariSs giwevdaT
mteri. xolo, roca xmali qarqaSSi dagiJangdaT da Tqveni muzaradi
pristavis colma sawolis qveS Seidga, Ramis qoTnad, adgili ki ara, saxec
dakargeT... samagierod, sibrZne SeiZineT, gapoetdiT, andazebi SeqmeniT, Tqveni
uilajobisa da mtris siveragis Sesatyvisi. sxvaTaSoris, isic ganZia, imasac
sWirdeba Tavisi eqvTime. ai, is andazebi aswavle, daazepire, auxseni, ratom
moereva zurgwamxdar cxens patara koRoc, Tuki patara koRos didi mgeli
miexmareba. Tu omia, omi iyos! mere raa, amjeradac Tu damarcxdebiT.
damarcxeba jer kidev ar niSnavs dasasruls. dasasruli mSvidobaa. yvela
omi mSvidobiT mTavrdeba. samariseburi simSvide daisadgurebs irgvliv da
Senc mxolod maSin mixvdebi, yvelaferi damTavrebula SenTvis... magram amaze
iq ilaparakeT, wina xazze, bedisweris pirispir darCenilebma. axla
mTavaria...
axla mTavaria, rame CavicvaT Tqva uceb elizbarma.
antoni saswrafod wamodga fexze. etyoba, tansacmlis xsenebam kidev ufro
gaumZafra sicivis SegrZneba. mkerdze gadajvaredinebul xelebs gametebiT
ityapunebda SiSvel, ekaldayril xorcze. baRSi ukve Tendeboda.
damarcxebuli wyvdiadi uCumrad iwriteboda sakuTar bzarebSi.
fexebmoryeulma muyaos stendma gaubedavad gamoalaja saaSkaraoze. mkerdze
Teatraluri afiSa aekra. ufro sworad, ver aekra wesierad da uSnod,
usicocxlod ekida zed, frTebCamoyrili da sakmaod Selaxuli. elizbari
isev zurgCanTaSi iqeqeboda. SeiZleba, ase aridebda antons Tvals. dRis
sinaTleze, ara marto amazrzeni sanaxavi iyo, aramed gulisamaCuyeblad,
sulisSemZvrelad umweoc, daucveli... yovel SemTxvevaSi, srulebiT aRar
hgavda im antons, visac ase Tavgamodebuli ansaxierebda sibneleSi...
antonma afiSa daudevrad Camoxia da uxeSi, webomimxmari qaRaldi mxrebze
SaliviT moigdo, raki mTlianad ver gaexvia Sig. afiSa aSkarad patara iyo
saamisod. "ai, ras gvaswavlis cixeo" laparakobda TavisTvis
"yvelafris gamoyeneba SeiZleba aradaniSnulebisamebro". magram
aradaniSnulebisamebr gamoyenebuli afiSa beWebs uxexavda mxolod,
gaTbobiT ki ver aTbobda. mxrebze afiSamoxveuli da dedaberiviT welSi
mokakvuli, elizbars daudga win da daiCifCifa:
gaikiTxeT mSoblis mkvleli, inteleqtualuri aramzada... SemoseT
SiSveli, RmerTi giSveliT...
aha, Se sabralov! sul araraobas xom mainc ajobebs?! uTxra
elizbarma da erTi sakmaod Selaxuli perangi da Salis svitri gauwoda,
ris Semdegac TvalnaTliv SeTxelda misi isedac Raribi garderobi.
vaSaaa! gadavrCiT! iyvira uceb antonma da mxrebze mosxmuli afiSa
Tavs zemoT daitriala droSasaviT. afiSis sqeli, gafSekili qaRaldi
duned, uxalisod fxrewda haers...
Caicvi droze! geyofa maimunoba Sinaurulad Seuwyra elizbari,
kmayofilic da, cota ar iyos, gaamayebulic sakuTari saqcieliT.
antonma maSinve gauSva xeli afiSas da facafuciT gadaicva nawyalobevi
tansacmeli. afiSa baRis xreSmoyril bilikze egdo, mkvdari frinveliviT...
 samagierod, Cems suraTs gaCuqebT. Tu gadarCa, ra Tqma unda
laparakobda Tan vnaxoT, rogor gadaitana auzSi Wyumpalaoba. axlave
Sevamowmeb. sxva araferi maqvs... pijakis jibeSi unda medos wesiT. zustad
CemTvis mouqsoviaT Tqveni svitri. axla didi tansacmelia modaSi. meti
Canxar, vidre xar. SeiZleba, aRar xar, magram mainc Canxar, tansacmlis
wyalobiT ase, laparak-laparakiT, mivida auzTan, pijakis gulis jibidan
suraTi amoiRo, sisvelisgan damZimebuli pijaki isev auzis kideze daagdo
da, suraTianad, mibrunda elizbarTan. gzaSi ramdenjerme gadausva
xelisguli suraTs, daWmuWnuli da amoburculi adgilebis gasworeba scada
ai, saidan movdivar me! Tqva yalbi siamayiT saojaxo fotodan.
naxeT, ras vgavar. naRdi debili var. arc axla meTanxmebiT?!
elizbari zurgCanTis zonars kvanZavda, anda, antons aCvenebda, vkvanZavo,
viTom, xelebi dakavebuli maqvs da suraTs ver CamogarTmevo. daxedviTac
zereled daxeda, erTi wamiT, ufro gaubedavad, vidre uinteresod. TiTqos
axloblis gvams uCvenebdnen amosacnobad...
arc Sen ara gaqvs sxva gza Tqva moulodnelad, radgan uceb,
Wadrakis sasaxlis win, ramdenime moxalises mohkra Tvali da TviTonac ver
gaarkvia, ewyina Tu gauxarda imaTi danaxva. samagierod, erTbaSad
ganTavisuflda gaurkvevlobis marwuxebidan da damSvidda kidec me mgoni,
Sen geZeben is SeiaraRebuli biWebi uTxra antons da Tvalic Caukra
TanamzraxveliviT.
antonma uneburad ukan miixeda, Wadrakis sasaxlisken, imanac dainaxa ucxo
xalxi, magram ixtibari ar gautexavs, isev gauwoda suraTi elizbars da
Cveulebrivad gaagrZela:
amas qali rogor gaataneT, Zia elizbar?! es xom cxvirmouxocavi
lawirakia. aba, kargad daakvirdiT. araferi gaegeba am qveynisa. samwuxarod,
aseTebic ibadebian. maradiuli yvinCila. ubibilo da udezebo mamali.
Cveulebrivi qaTami, oRond, mamrobiTi sqesisa. Tumca, esec sakiTxavia ukve.
simwifis ZiZibi amouva cxvirze, anda nikapze, da aRar moeSveba, vidre ar
gamoirwyavs. im ZiZibTan erTad skdeba misi faruli ocnebebis feradi
buStic, anu, gulubryvilo warmodgena cxovrebaze, rac, sxvaTaSoris, Tqveni
didi mecadineobiTac Seeqmna jer kidev bavSvobaSi... aseTi laparakic
Tqvengan iswavla, mxatvruli, maRalfardovani... magram, sikeTesTan erTad,
cota gambedaobac rom moeca TqvenTvis RmerTs, aqamde ar mividoda saqme.
Tqven unda mogekaliT, Tanac, Tavis droze, da maSin yvelani gadavrCebodiT.
yovel SemTxvevaSi, Cems madls namdvilad moisxamdiT... xom gaxsovT?
styorcna simamrma, mokla man siZe! siZe-simamri sanadirod midian (omic
nadirobaa), Tovlian mTaze, sadac viRacam albaT amZuvnebulma barbarem
ia daTesa da vardi amovida. vardi sisxlis Sxefia, Tovlze gadasxmuli.
siZis sisxlia. Cemi sisxlia, romelic Tqven unda dageRvaraT da ver
daRvareT, Tumca, mxolod ase gadaarCendiT Svils... da ara marto Svils.
Svilo, barbare, me ra gaxaro, qmari mogikal, Tavs nu moiklav... barbareebi
Tavs ar iklaven... mkvlelebs aCenen...
sxva gza ara gaqvs gaawyvetina elizbarma, aSkarad gaRizianebulma
siZis interpretaciiT.
magram antonma isev mouyrua.
me araferi ar vici, batono mosamarTlev! gajambazda uaresad me
vici, rom gamaloTes, me vici, rom gamryvnes, me vici, rom gamaupatiures, me
vici, rom mokvlac undodaT Cemi, magram ver mivarTvi... Tqven ras mipirebT?
cudi araferi CaidoT gulSi, Cveni Zveli naTesaobis xaTriT. icodeT,
winaswar Tanaxma var yvelaferze...
 obmokidebul, damyayebul auzsa da Wadrakis sasaxles Soris ukve
jgufebad idgnen moxaliseebi, TavianT gamcileblebTan erTad. zogs
sanadiro Tofic gadaekida mxarze (CacmulobiTac ufro monadireebs
hgavdnen, vidre meomrebs), magram, miuxedavad xalxis simravlisa, ratomRac,
samariseburi siCume idga irgvliv. antons axla ufro aeburZgna kani, vidre
weRan eburZgneboda sicivisgan. swored aseTi siCume Camovarda am ori dRis
win maT samzareuloSi, roca iq sakuTar cols waaswro sakuTar mamasTan da
magididan, TiTqos sagangebod misTvis gamzadebuli, culi aiRo
acaxcaxebuli xeliT. Citebsac gaekmindaT xma. Tu SeiZleba ase iTqvas,
TvalSi sacemi, xelSesaxebi siCume idga, ismoda, igrZnoboda da Canda kidec.
gegonebodaT, aq mosvlamde, elizbarisa ar iyos, arcerT moxalises ar
sjeroda, marTla Tu movidodnen sxvebic, marTla Tu mouwevdaT
gamoucxadebel omSi wasvla da mxolod aq, TiTqmis ukanasknel wams,
SeegrZnoT TavianTi gadawyvetilebis seriozulobaca da, erTi SexedviT,
viTom gasarTobi, saTamaSo, memkvidreobiT gadmosuli omis mTeli
sisastikec. erT-erT jgufSi, ufrosebis ferxTiT, patara gogo Cacucquliyo
da mamas (SeiZleba, ufros Zmas) raRacas udebda Tu umowmebda zurgCanTaSi,
mTeli arsebiT danTqmuli am qalur, mSvidobian saqmianobaSi. ufrosebs ki,
daZleuli SiSis, faruli imedis, bunebrivi siamayisa da gaurkvevlobis
sazeimod amaRlebuli gancda dauflebodaT da imitomac dumdnen albaT,
rogorc morwmuneni taZarSi, anda, Tavisufali da fexze myarad mdgari
qveynis Svilebi saxelmwifo himnis mosmenisas. umravlesoba veRarasodes
Semovidoda aq, verc Tbilisuri papanaqebisgan Tavis dasacavad da verc
fexburTis axali ambebis gasagebad. saerTod veRar dabrundeboda mSobliur
qalaqSi, dasamarxadac ki, radgan egreT wodebuli "mcocavi omi" gacilebiT
seriozuli, Rrmad SeniRbuli da Sors gamiznuli RonisZieba gaxldaT,
vidre veris baRSi am dilauTenia TavSeyril moxaliseebs warmoedginaT...
II
 mziT gabrWyvialebuli sivrcidan, moulodnelad, krazana SemoiWreba
sangarSi germanuli droSis ferebiT moxatuli, braziani, moCxubari,
mouSorebeli da erTi wamiT isev gagikrTeba Zili, Tuki amas Zili hqvia
moSlili marionetiviT akantureb Tavs ganuwyvetliv da aseve
ganuwyvetliv, oRond, uSedegod cdilob, rogorme moaSoro erTmaneTs
TiTqos kudiani dedabris bangiT gawebili quTuToebi. mokled, arc gZinavs,
arc gRviZavs; arc mkvdari xar, arc cocxali. magram, sul cota, ormoci
saaTi mainc unda gaZlo aq, Tundac imis gasarkvevad, mkvdari xar Tu
cocxali. sangaric nairsaxeobaa samarisa, anda, sacdeli, savarjiSo,
mosamzadebeli samarea, magram srulebiTac ar aris aucilebeli, iqidan
pirdapir samaradiso samareSi gadainacvlo. savsebiT dasaSvebia, cocxalic
amoxvide ukan. qriste ormoci saaTi iyo damarxuli da aRsdga. magram
swored ormoci saaTis gaZlebaa Zneli. samaradisod yvelas SeuZlia miwaSi
wola, droebiT ki mxolod rCeulT. drng. mxolod iRblianT. drng. Cven
rom aq mogviyvanes wuxel pirveli sruldeboda oTxi gvami waiRes
aqedan. drng. kidev oTxi ukeTilSobilesi, mamulis siyvaruliT anTebuli
suli Seifare, ufalo, Sen da gananaTle ukuniTi ukunisamde. drng. guSin am
dros, vinmes rom eTqva antonisTvis, omSi waxval Seni nebiTo, siciliT
mokvdeboda albaT sasacilod ara aqvs saqme, magram mainc axla ki,
Tavis tola biWebSi Camjdara da, viTomc araferi, viTomc guSinac aq iyo...
viTomc, rac iq guSin da guSinwin gadaxda Tavs, aq daesizmra, sangris notio
fskerze migdebuls... drng. drng. drng... drng. es dazgis tyviamfrqvevia.
ucnauri xma aqvs. duned mkacri. duned mrisxane. Cven Capaevis droindel
tyviamfrqvevs gvasrolinebdnen gorSi, "maqsimkas". es Tanamedrovea.
msxvilkalibriani. ar dagitovebs gadarCenis Sanss... damwvar beteers moxsnes,
tlanqi, mZime, Znelad dasamorCilebeli. metyviamfrqveve ki, aSkarad
gamoucdeli Cans. anda, nabaxusevia da erToba. mowyinda uqmad jdoma da
gamocarielebul sivrces eomeba. drng. drng. drng. an "damsvenebelia". ori
dRiT wamovidnen biWebi Tbilisidan, ZmabiWebis mosanaxuleblad, ambis
gasagebad, da xom unda moaswros raRaca?! xom unda mohyves Sin, rogor
"ioma?!" drng. SeiZleba, nervebma umtyuna, ver gauZlo am daZabul, dasaWeqad
gamzadebul dumils. SeeSinda. ar eloda. ar sjeroda. verc ki warmoedgina.
vin icis, yovel SemTxvevisTvis, sacurao trusebic gamoayola xels. aq ki,
jojoxeTi daxvda. drng. SeiZleba, ase glovobs wuxel daxocil
TanamebrZolebs. drng. drng. ase uTvlis mters muqaras. drng. ar gegonos,
SegrCeso. drng. ar gegonos, damaviwydeso. drng. ras ambob, gio (vano, irakli,
Temo...), afxazeTSi ra ginda, Svilo? ise uqniaT, dauWamiaT erTmaneTi... ara,
deda. me ase cxovreba aRar SemiZlia. mas Semdeg, rac romis papma piom... da
ase Semdeg... sisxli eZaxis. xorci eZaxis. Zvlebi eZaxian. madlobT ufalo,
rameTu kvlavac vyofilvarT. ar dawretila Cveni Tesli. gonic SegvrCenia
da gulic. marto amis gasagebad Rirda Camosvla am jojoxeTSi. drng. drng.
hoi, dedano, marad netarno... drng. ramdeni xania, saqarTveloSi meomari aRar
gazrdila... mas Semdeg, rac "uradnikma" fiCxiviT amoRliavebuli gamozida
SiSisgan xmaCakmendil qoxebidan filTa Tofebi Tu pirCamtvreuli
xanjlebi... mainc vomobT. yvela qarTveli biWi Tavidanve meomradaa
Cafiqrebuli RmerTisgan. drng. ai, Cveni ukvdavebis saidumlo. mterma amoxsna.
Cven daviviwyeT. drng. or zRvas Sua ZvelTaganve saomari iyo mdelo (Tu
lelo?!)... drng. drng. tyviebi an iqve, aT metrSi esobian miwaSi, an caSi
mifrinaven, galiidan TavdaRweuli mercxlebiviT (mercxali da galia?!). ara
uSavs. iswavlis. gaiwafeba. Tuki iqamde, an Tavad ar mobezrda, an
xelisuflebam ar amoaTria sangridan yuriT, damTavrda omobanao. drng.
drng. drng. ar moisvenebs, vidre gumisTas gaRma, fiWvnariT Camolurjebul
ferdobze, xis Ziras Camjdarsa da mzisTvis saxemiSveril snaipers ar
gamoiyvans moTminebidan, Cvidmeti wlis murmanskel gogonas, romelsac
marcxena ZuZuze komkavSirelis lalisferi samkerde niSani ubrWyvialebs da
romlis angariSzec ukve rva aseTi mamlayinwa meomaria. qarTvelebze adrec
bevri ucnauroba gaugia, ras ar hyvebian, magram, cota ar iyos, mainc
gakvirvebulia: TiTqos ki ar omoben, amas awoneben Tavs. drng. erTmaneTs ise
hgvanan, erTsa da imave biWs klavs TiTqos ganuwyvetliv. drng. Tavze qoCori
gadahquxs, perangi gauReRia, avtomati luliT udevs mxarze da ikriWeba, aba,
Tu momartyamo. drng. rvajer ukve moartya. drng. drng. drng. es ki mainc
isvris. mTeli dRe rom ase isrolos, ar mobezrdeba. ai, raRac mainc rom
moZraobdes win, niSanSi amoReba rom SeiZlebodes, mTlad gaasworebda. Txac
aRar hyavT am SobelZaRlebs?! drng. drng. drng. samagierod, imaT mokles
amaTi Zroxa. guSinwin. plantaciaSi Seexeta, xeze mimWknari mandarinis
saWmelad da, bac, gaagores adgilze. axlac iq gdia. curidan damJavebuli
rZe mowveTavs. rZes didi, cerisxela buzebi exvevian, molurjo-momwvano. rac
mTavaria, ukve yars. qari Tu zRvidan uberavs, yrolis suni aqamde moaqvs. ar
daidgomeba. didxans ver gaCerdebi. verc Cerdebian. magram unda gavCerdeT.
drng. drng... drng. drng... drng. elizbars ki hgonia, karze ukakunebs viRac.
viRac ki ara, mZaxali. aq ki ara, qviSxeTSi. axla ki ara, adre, damoyvrebamde,
roca kidev SeiZleboda misTvis Tavis arideba. srulebiTac ar siamovnebs
raJden kaSelis stumroba, magram versad daemaleba. aivnidan xom ar
gadaxteba amxela kaci?! Tanac, gareT kokispirulad wvims. biWebs brezentis
dafxrewili karavi (nakarvali) gadauxuravT Tavze. qoTqoTeben, icinian...
siamovnebT zafxulis swrafwarmavali wvima. jer sadRac Sors, mTebSi
daigruxunebs da mere TvalismomWrelad ielvebs xolme. drng. drng. drng.
elva cecxlwakidebul ConCxsa hgavs. TiTqos elizbarisken morbis,
tkivilebisgan gamwarebuli. elizbari aivnis gamoRebul karSi dgas da
sunTqvaSekruli Sescqeris. arasodes ar unaxavs ase axlodan. didebuli
sanaxaobaa. erTdroulad, SemaSfoTebelic da lamazic. elizbari uneburad
ukan ixevs, TiTqos marTla miswvdeba cecxlwakidebuli ConCxi Tavisi
daklaknili, araTanabrad dagrZelebuli kidurebiT. "ar adge, elizbar, Tu
wevxar ambobs raJdeni kars iqiT grelandiis dedaqalaqi gamaxsene da
waval etyoba, krosvords avsebs, Cveulebisamebr xom gaxsovs, bali da
"eniseli"?! saRamos gelodebiT. vinc ginda, wamoiyvane" elizbars ar
axsovs grelandiis dedaqalaqis saxeli. Sewuxebuli, agangaSebuli,
aRelvebuli da, ratomRac, darcxvenilic eubneba kars: "mec rom ar maxsovs.
patiosnebas geficebi, ar maxsovs". "daswyevlos RmerTma, aravis ar axsovs"
icinis kars iqiT raJdeni da midis. elizbari ki, datuqsul mowafesaviT dgas
kars aqeT, xelebCamoyrili, nirwamxdari... raRa es undoda, isedac gaxeTqvaze
aqvs guli. xom SeiZleba ifiqros, icoda da ar miTxrao?! ar SearCens,
daumaxsovrebs da xalxSi wamoaZaxebs, xalxs gaacinebs, TiTqos elizbari
mwerali ki ara, geografiis maswavlebeli iyos. magram mainc ver mSviddeba,
adgils ver poulobs. wvimam erTianad Camoitana albaT cacxvis xeebidan
WriWinebis gauCumari, dauqancavi orkestri. zafxulis pewi. elizbarisTvis
saerTod ar arsebobs simSvide, rogorc Cans, arc samareSi. magram wvrilman
sadardels ZaliT gaiCens xolme, mTavarze rom ar idardos ganuwyvetliv,
mTavari rom daiviwyos cota xniT mainc. misma siZem misi Svilis gulisTvis
Tu ara, misi Svilis gamo, sakuTari mama mokla, is ki imas ganicdis, xval
cacxvebis xeivani damxrCvali, frTebdafleTili WriWinebiT iqneba
mofenilio. usvindiso TvalTmaqci. es wuTia, afxazeTSi iyo TiTqos, axla
qviSxeTSia. sinamdvileSi, arc isvenebs, arc omobs imaleba. emaleba
yvelas, nacnobsac, ucnobsac, Svilsac, siZesac, sakuTar Tavsac... aRara aqvs
xalxSi gamosaCeni piri. qveyana misTvis dRiTi-dRe ucxovdeba da isic dRiTi-
dRe ekargeba qveyanas. yvelasgan gadakargvis mets, verafers moimoqmedebda am
procesis SesaCereblad. sazareli Zalaa misi warmarTveli sakuTari
umweobisa da sakuTari araraobis SegrZneba. silac ver gaulawuna misi
Rirsebis Semginebels. magram uelizbarod qveyana gana ukeTesi iqneba?! iqneb
jer es gagverkvia da mere gveqeqa Zveli foliantebi. drng. ... da Caiara
uRmerToman murvan yru zRvis piri da gamoixuna cixeni da qalaqni zRvis
pirisani, da oxer da uval yo yoveli qveyana zRvis pirisa... drng. drng.
drng... rac Seexeba grelandiis dedaqalaqs, mgoni, arc arasodes scodnia.
magram marto es rom iyos misi danaSauli, sicocxles kidev eqneboda azri.
elizbaris danaSauli gacilebiT didia: Svili misca gansacdels da
gansacdelad mouvlina sxvebs. arafers ar niSnavs, Sen gjera Tu ar gjera,
qveyanas mainc ver aafareb pirze xels. erTaderTi xsna arsebobs mxolod:
yvelafris Tavidan dawyeba, Tavidan dabadeba saerTod, anu, daufiqreblad,
daunaneblad uaryofa garyvnilebisa da mkvlelobis daRdasmuli warsulisa
da aseve daufiqreblad da daunaneblad mokveTa SenTvis yvelaze Zvirfasi
adamianebisa, erTnairad Serisxulebisa RmerTisganac da kacisganac... ase
rom, Tqveni daRupva garduvalia, batono elizbar. drng. uwarsulod
arafers warmoadgen. drng. pastis kalmistari xar, oRond, drng, pastisgan
ukve daclili. pastisgan daclili kalmistaric ar xar, im eldis, SiSis,
damcirebis, tkivilis, sinanulisa da mrisxanebis gareSe, rac SenTvis
yvelaze Zvirfasi adamianebis wyalobiT gangicdia. es ara marto ubedurebaa
Seni, aramed bednierebac; ara marto sasjelia uflisa, aramed jildoc.
mTavaria, ramdenad xar Tavad mzad, rogorc erTis, ise meoris misaRebad.
Tavbedis wyevlasa da sxvaTa gansja-ganqiqebas, girCevnia Rirseulad Seifero
jildo da aseve Rirseulad Seegebo sasjels. biogenetikisa da biografiis
Secvlas, rasakvirvelia, isev mcocavi omis Rvelfsa da RadarSi Caferfvla
sjobs. sjobs. drng. drng. qviSxeTic sasjelisTvis momzadebaa da sxva
araferi. raJden kaSels ki ara, sasjels eTamaSebi iq kukumalaobas, anu,
raJden kaSelis meSveobiT, TandaTanobiT eguebi sikvdilTan Sexvedris
garduvalobas. drng. da yovelTvis sulelurad gixaria, xazgasmuli,
saqmiani guliTadobiT rom mogaxarebs xolme dasasvenebeli saxlis
direqtori, ramdenjerac ar unda Segxvdes dReSi, biWiviT gamoiyurebio,
TiTqos rac ufro axalgazrda iqnebi, miT ufro iolad gadaitan sikvdils.
imas mweralTan gamolaparakeba siamovnebs, TviTonac wers albaT Cumad da
Tavis inteleqtualur Wias axarebs, bevri araferi gaegeba Seni faruli
gancdebisa, magram aRfrTovanebulia, vTqvaT, Seni bolo weriliT,
"literaturulSi", da guli wydeba, uRirs xalxTan kinklaobaSi rom
flangav "RvTaebriv niWs". romanebi unda weroT. bevri unda weroT. xalxs
Wirdeba. tyuili. tyuili. tyuili. magram dalocvili tkbili sityva mainc
gabiTurebs. gvels amoiyvans xvrelidan. guls mogibrunebs cxovrebaze.
muSaobas mogandomebs. magram saamisod marto survili ar kmara. survilis
amara drng arc ifiqro drng furcelTan SeWideba drng. drng. wagaxdens.
Segarcxvens. araferi gamogiva, rogorc cvedans rac ar unda momxibvlel
qalbatonTan. am saqmeSi veravin mogexmareba. mamakacobasaviTaa Tu ar
amowurula, aucileblad aRsdgeba, xolo, Tu amowurulia, veRaraferi
aRadgens. zRvas qvebiT ver amoavseb. qudi unda daixuro da wabrZande. xolo,
wabrZanebamde, bodiSs Tu mouxdi sufTa furcels, rogorc tyuilubralod
gaSiSvlebul qalbatons, kargi iqneba, zrdilobaSi mainc CageTvleba. magram
sadac ar unda waxvide, mainc versad daemalebi sircxvils. sadac ar unda
SeiyuJo, erTi fexebzemkidia briyvi mainc dagadgeba Tavze "ras gviwerT
axals?" TiTqos Zveli Cabulbulebuli hqondes, TiTqos gaegebodes, anda
ainteresebdes rame, muclis garda. maSin sad iyo, roca TbilisSi wignebi
iwvoda? drng. imaleboda. aralegalur cxovrebas mihyo xeli, legalurad
gaTaTxulma. Tvals gaerida, droebiT, vidre scenaze lamis ZaliT
gamogdebuli axali xelisufleba Tavis SesaZleblobebs warmoaCenda
TviTSemoqmedebis doneze. lale, lale, divlidalalale drng Cemo lamazo
samSoblov, Sen ki genacvale drng. mZime cxovreba ki gvqonda, magram mainc
adre gamovSterdiT. ufro sworad, es RvTiT kurTxeuli kuTxe SesaniSnavi
saTburi aRmoCnda akakis Ramurebis mosamravleblad. wyvdiadisa binadarni
wyvdiadiTa suldgmulobdeT maradis, rameTu ase mibrZanebia Cven
nikolozsac nikalaisac da ubralod koliasac. nafleTi rame wyvdiadisa
Cavsvua me CarCoisa Sigan da davikido sakidelsa zeda raTa Tayvuani vsce
ukuniTi ukunisamde. amin. amin. drng. ai, mTeli Cveni istoria. vapirebT ra
qveynis ganTavisuflebas da vTavisufldebiT ra dampyroblis miTiTebaTa
Sesabamisad, mainc gvyofnis Tavxedoba, viTvalTmaqcoT, viTomc araferi,
viTomc Cveni mizeziT araferi daSavebula am qveyanaze. Tqveni meuRle Zroxam
SeaSina weRan. Zroxa xom mokles?! Cems meuRles aq ra undoda?! ara, nu
RelavT, aq ki ara, qviSxeTSi, dRes ki ara, adre... saerTod ar seirnobT, Tu
CvenTan ar kadrulobT seirnobas? Zroxa eZaxeT Tqven, rqebi xarisa hqonda.
hermafroditi yofila. anda, kidev uaresi, albaT sqesi Seicvala, kacis
wamxedurobiT. xari kacTan daabi, an znes icvlis, an sqessao... sqesi
Seicvala, rqebi ki xarisa SerCa. Tumca, Cveni mecnierebi amasac mouxerxeben
rames. magrebi arian am sferoSi. SeiZleba ver uswreben, magram arc
CamorCebian dros... uSTamomavlo kacobrioba gacilebiT ioli gasametebelia.
masobrivi sikvdili Seudareblad advilia... marTla cudad aris saqme.
kaxeTSi viri aRar yroyinobs. uviro kaxeTi raRa kaxeTia?! viri ki ara,
bavSvic ar gaviCereT. bavSvebic moviSoreT. xeli gavicaleT zedmeti
tvirTisgan. zogi kaSelebs vaCuqeT, zogi ucxoeTSi gavxizneT, raTa Cvenc
gavixiznoT imaT kvaldakval. jer isini, mere Cven. bavSvebi ukeT eguebian
ucxo garemos. Tevzni rionisani reinisa wylebs miveciT. baraqala. drng.
gemos gaugeben iqaur Slams, drng, SeeCvevian iqauri fskeris jurRmulebs,
farflebs gaimagreben da Cvenc dagviZaxeben drng. kargad meyoleT. drng.
aufiderzen. drng. drng. ase TandaTan gaveparebiT aqaurobas. drng.
aqaurobianad. drng. rogorc erTxel ukve gavepareT ludoviko boloniels.
kaci romidan Camovida, Cveni imediT, Cven ki adgilze aRar davxvdiT. axlac
gveZebs. drng. samarcxvino saqcielia, me da Cemma RmerTma. drng. ase rogor
SeiZleba, batono elizbar drng ase rogor SeiZleba drng es ukve nametania.
yvelaferSi cuds xedavT mxolod drng gana daviT aRmaSenebeli ar
agzavnida bavSvebs ucxoeTSi?! agzavnida drng, rasakvirvelia, agzavnida
drng magram daviTis gagzavnili bavSvebi gafilosofosebulni brundebodnen
ukan drng Cveni gagzavnilni ki, gagoTvernebulni brundebian drng rqebi ki
ar moaqvT TaviT drng rogorc bunebas daudgenia drng Tavi moaqvT rqebiT
drng. me rom mkiTxon drng me rom mkiTxon drng davaxerxavdi im rqebs da
drng SevTxridi funqciaSecvlil organoSi drng. es sxva saqmea, es
demokratiaa, genacvale drng ufro sworad drng visi ra saqmea, bolos da
bolos, drng yvelam Tavis traks mouaros drng. Tqven rom gisminoT kacma
drng yvelani moRalateebi vyofilvarT drng. axali ambavi! asea kacobrioba
mowyobili. an Sen Ralatob, an Sen gRalatoben. yvelafers rom Tavi
gavaneboT drng sakuTari drng maxsovroba giRalatebs drng erTxelac
iqneba. drng. drng da drng. nu gaamasxaravebT xolme yvelafers. bali da
"eniseli" xom ar dagaviwydaT navaxSmevs? gvaxsovs drng gvaxsovs.
vaxSmobamde jer didi droa. "balma" da "eniselma" gviqna yvelaferi.
simarTle ver giTqvams kacs. gindac ar geSinodes, gerideba, stumari xar,
maspinZelia... gamanebe Tu kaci xar, Tavi. ase yvelafris gamarTleba SeiZleba.
drng. hoda, Senc nu gaamarTleb. axla Ria werilebia modaSi. drng.
daxuruli werilebis dro wavida. drng. rac ginda, Tqvi. maSin isev elizbars
movusminoT, sul apirebs, apirebs, apirebs da ver daayena saSveli. didi
madloba da ar dagimalavT, vRelav. verasodes vifiqrebdi sityvis Tqma Tu
momiwevda Tqvens winaSe, miT ufro aq, am miwier samoTxeSi. ase vTqvaT,
komfortabelur da mkacrad limitirebul emigraciaSi. TiTqos samSoblos
SuagulSi xar da, imave dros, usaSvelod Sors samSoblosgan. erTi poetisa
ar iyos, es kelasuris Toliebi dasCxavian mtkvars, gviSveleo, Cven ki ar
gvesmis. raRac amis magvari amwinebzec vTqvi, mgoni, oRond sizmarSi... magram
ufro seriozul emigraciaSi, germaniaSi, vanzeaze... qviSxeTze fiqrma
damasizmra albaT vanzeac. Tumca, qarTuli patiosnebiT savse mzera ebraeli
qaliSvilisa imeds gvaZlevs, aucileblad rom gadavrCebiT, xelis
gaunZrevladac (yoCaR, elizbar, bravo!). marTlac Zneli dasajerebelia aq, am
miwier samoTxeSi, sisxli Tu iRvreba sadme. Tanac Seni. miwas cecxli Tu
ukidia. Tanac Sens miwas. arada, yvelani vicnobT zurabas. yvelas
siamovnebiT gviCvenebs xolme Tavis naiarevs yanyratos Ziridan patara
muclamde gadaWimuls, xelovnurad gaxleCili qveynis sazRvariviT.
gadmoyrili, miwaSi amogangluli Sigani TviTonve Caubrunebia ukan, vidre
gonebas dakargavda. goneba daubrunda da avtomatis magivrad, celi aiRo
xelSi. balaxs Tibavs qviSxeTs zemoT, saTibebSi. SsSsS... sSsSs... SsSsS...
sSsSs... Cvens dasanaxad iqnevs cels ase moxdenilad, viTom, es saqme ufro
mexerxebao. siamovnebs mayurebeli. erTaderTi jildo omSi gamoCenili
simamacisTvis, gnebavT, dRevandeli gagebiT, sibriyvisTvis. Cven ki, zurgze
xelebdawyobilni vaTvalierebT Soridan, rogorc samuzeumo eqsponats,
gadaSenebuli saxeobis ukanasknel warmomadgenels. SsSsS. sSsSs. gamxdari
biWia, magram ZarRviani. RvediviT moqnili. gayidulebi rom ar viyoT, aqamde
cxrajer gavidodiT fsouzeo yvelas ase SesCivis. wuxs. nanobs. dardobs.
Cven ki, viRimebiT, damsveneblebi. ar vujerebT. saerTod ar gvjera,
kurortze Tu daiWra ase saSinlad. avtokatastrofaSi moxvda albaT da
axla Cven gvawonebs Tavs, mamuliSvilobs, deputatobis kandidativiT.
mravalmniSvnelovnad vuRimiT erTmaneTs, mravlismxilvelni, gamocdilni,
gamoqeqilni aTasnair maqinaciebSi... gvixaria, arki gvjera. drng. wisqvilis
qva ar datrialebula Cvens Tavze, Torem, sxva araferi dagvklebia. drng.
batoni leonti jer kidev guberniobis droindel saqarTveloSi orjeraa
cixidan gaqceuli. erTxel miwisqveSa gvirabiT. TviTonac Txrida. hoda,
Txara, Txara da gamoTxara: qarTvelTa noes respublikaSi amohyo Tavi drng.
gaxarebulma, saerTod dakarga patimruli sifrTxilis grZnoba da augad
moixsenia policiis yofili Sefi drng yofili saqarTvelosi drng ris
gamoc, "daudgeneli pirebis" mier sastikad gailaxa quCaSi, Sinamde ar
misuli drng magram mainc ver aiyara guli ganaxlebul samSobloze da
bolos im vagonidan mouwia gadaxtoma drng RvTis SemweobiT drng
romelSic ocdaoTxis ajanyebulebi Cacxrila ufrosma raJden kaSelma
tyviamfrqvevebiT drng sisxli SadrevaniviT asxamda, Turme, natyviarebidan
da vagonSi gamoketili ajanyebulebi mravalJamiers mRerodnen drng magram
ufros raJdens gadarCenili, male ufros antons Cavardnia xelSi da
ubralo, Cveulebrivi "gasaubrebisas", wina ori kbili dautovebia imis
magidaze drng Tumca, sikvdilamde mxolod ramdenime TviT adre gaamxila es
ambavi cacxvebis xeivanSi drng marto es mimyveba dardaTo drng es ver
mipatiebia TavisTviso drng aRiara gulwrfelad. batonma pimenma ki, esec
gaubiaubra Cveulebisamebr, nugeSi sca Taviseburad kbilebs Civi aseTi
Wkviani kacio da marTlac drng kbilebi ki ara drng miwa ikargeba, zRva
ikargeba, ca ikargeba drng mze da mTvare (Cveni ded-mama), Tavis wvril-
wvrili varskvlavebiT (Cveni da-Zmani) drng sul raRac oras kilometrSi,
ori wlis daukrefav mandarinis plantaciaSi mouwvelavi Zroxis leSi yars.
SeiZleba, swored is Zroxaa, eliso rom SeaSina. aqac aris da iqac.
elizbariviT. aq nela, zantad, ganebivrebuli qalbatonis medidurobiT
gadadis asfaltmosxmul bilikze, sakuTar oxSivarSi danTqmuli, sakuTar
surnelSi, rogorc gamWvirvale gvirabSi mimavali mis gamo Seyovnebuli
damsveneblebis win da nela, zantad uCinardeba gzispira buCqnarSi. iq ki
mkvdari gdia plantaciaSi da ukve amJavebuli rZiT gawebil curze buzi
exveva. xolo, cota qvemoT, zRvis napirTan, mwvaned amRvreul wyalSi,
goliaTi meduzebiviT irwevian jer gaupatiurebuli da mere yelgamoWrili
(SeiZleba piriqiTac) qalebis gaberili, gasiebuli gvamebi. elisoc maT
Sorisaa. oRond, cocxalia. curavs. ki ar curavs, adgilze tivtivebs.
gamalebuli amoZravebs wyalmcenareebiviT daklaknil xel-fexs, magram ufro
gvamebis mosagerieblad, vidre wyalze gasaCereblad. "amodi axlave! ra dros
es aris!" uyviris elizbari. "me Zalian bevri dro maqvs, imitom rom
marTla upatrono var" pasuxobs eliso da, damsvenebeli qalis
sikekluciT, yasidad, yuradRebis misaqcevad Sehkivlebs xolme, gvams Tu
Seexeba uneburad. amitom, rogorc ar unda gewyinoT, mainc getyviT, raze
vmuSaob, riTi gipirebT "gaxarebas". kukumalaobis dro namdvilad aRar aris,
arc sikvdilTan, arc sicocxlesTan da, TavisTavad cxadia, arc raJdenTan.
swored raJdens minda mivmarTo, ase vTqvaT, presis saSualebiT. axla esec
SesaZlebelia. aqeT gexvewebian, oRond Tqvi, gulSi ra gidevs da gindac
ukanaskneli sityvebiT gvagineo. masiuri dakiTxvis axali meTodia erTgvari.
ginda Ria werili daarqviT, ginda daxuruli. ra Janria, mec ar vici.
SeiZleba, Txovnac erqvas. ufro Txovnaa, oRond, ukve gaazatebuli monisa,
ese igi, ufro eSmakis, gnebavT, ufro frTxilis, vidre gaazatebamde
iqneboda, raki araferi hqonda dasakargi. dRes ki, aqvs. Tundac, sityvieri
sabuTi misi gaazatebisa, Tumca, dResac imas ekuTvnis Tav-fexianad, vinc
sityvierad gaaazata guSin. gTxovT, radgan mxolod Tqven SegiZliaT ixsnaT,
visi mospobac miznad dagisaxavT. an arc dagisaxavT drng an arc dagisaxavT,
magram mainc spobT, uneblied, Cvevis gamo da yoveldRiuri, wvrilmani,
magram uaRresad piraduli problemebidan gamomdinare... (bravo, pisatel!).
macaleT, nu miSliT... isedac ver vlaparakob. Tqven ra genaRvlebaT,
gaaswariT. cocxlebma vikiTxoT... magram erTxelac iqneba, me Tu ara, sxva,
Cemze bevrad ufro... Tumca, ra azri aqvs, Tuki virebsa da bavSvebs ver
gadavarCenT... (marTla bravo, Zmao. ai, ras niSnavs sityvis ostati!). rac
Seexeba TxovniT mimarTvis ideas, TavisTavad daibada, rogorc yvelaferi
genialuri... CxubiT mainc verafers gavawyobdi. ar dagaviwydeT, ZilSi xdeba
es ambavi, ZilSi damebada amgvari idea. mogexsenebaT, Zils didi adgili
ukavia Cvens literaturaSi. gaiRviZe, nu gZinavs... sul Zili, Zili... mxolod
erTxel, isic ZilSi... da ase Semdeg. hoda, erT mSvenier Rames, mec am Wkuaze
gamomeRviZa ZilSi. teqstic gamzadebuli Camido viRacam TavSi, mZinares,
rogorc saerTod xdeba xolme. mwerlis oinbazoba Cemgan ar geswavlebaT.
rac SeiZleba zustad unda daimaxsovros ZilSi STagonebuli da rac
SeiZleba droulad gadaitanos qaRaldze, ar daukargos sicxovele. es aris
da es mTeli misi damsaxureba. visac ukeTesi maxsovroba aqvs da
damaxsovrebulis qaRaldze gadatana ar ezareba, ukeTesi mweralic is
gaxlavT. esec Tqvengan vici. Tavis qebasaviT ki gamomdis, magram mec
dauyovnebliv drng dauyovnebliv drng dauyovnebliv gadamaqvs xolme
qaRaldze, rasac zeciuri Zalebi STamagoneben mZinares. aseve dauyovnebliv
gadavitane am mimarTvis teqstic. marTalia, es arc nestanis ustaria da arc
avTandilis anderZi, magram Tvisobrivad mainc dasaSvebad migvaCnia misi
moxsenieba am maradiuli Sedevrebis gverdiT. yovel SemTxvevaSi, mizani aqac
igivea viRaca viRacas andobs Tavis sanukvar fiqrs, survils,
miswrafebas... da, imave dros, Seqmnil situaciidan gamosasvlel gzebsac
miuTiTebs, rasakvirvelia, sakuTari varaudebidan gamomdinare. gaaCnia, vin
vis aswavlis, anu, vis ra udevs gulSi da vin ras eswrafvis. amitom, vidre
teqstze gadavidode, erTxel kidev minda drng erTxel kidev minda drng (es
ra mogsvlia, Se kaco, mTlad gadamcdarxar Wkuidan) erTxel kidev minda
drng (Cven mainc dagvzoge. mkvdarma Tu ar daisvena, riRas mkvdaria). ara,
teqsti didi ar aris... nu geSiniaT... magram erTxel kidev minda, Tavad
mimarTvis gansakuTrebuli mniSvneloba aRvniSno, rogorc mkvdrebisTvis,
iseve cocxlebisTvis drng Tumca, araferi gamogviva, Tuki mimarTvis
adresatic ar agvibams mxars, anu, ar warmoidgens mosmenils drng da ar
ganicdis warmodgenils drng magaliTad, viTom, jurRmulSia moxvedrili da
asanTis erTaderTi ReriRa darCenia, wyvdiadSi gzis gasagnebad... anda,
mdevari mosdevs daundobeli, misi cocxlad Sesansvlis JiniT Sepyrobili
drng win ki Txrilia gadasalaxi, ukanaskneli mijna, romlis iqiTac
samSvidoboa. magram Txrili savsea misive ganavliT, racki mTeli cxovrebis
manZilze uwarmoebia, ganusjelad da dauzareblad. gadalaxavs Txrils,
gadarCeba. ara marto gadarCeba, xaxviviT SerCeba yvelaferi, rac Txrils
aqeT dauSavebia. ar gadalaxavs da, Tavs daabralos. ki magram, ratom,
maincdamainc, meo, samarTlianad ikiTxavs albaT adresati da Cvenc naTlad
da mkafiod vupasuxebT: imitom rom... imitom rom... sxva gamosavali ar
arsebobs... TviTon Caigdo am dReSi Tavi. Cveni marTlac da, bedkruli
samSoblos gadarCena, mxolod da mxolod, isev samSoblos moRalateebs
SeuZliaT. paradoqsia? ki batono, geTanxmebiT, magram, amave dros, rogorc
ukve giTxariT, es aris erTaderTi gza xsnisa. gadaarCen samSoblos,
gadarCebi, arada, ukve ici, rac gelodeba win. arCevani Senzea. gza gvirabiTa
Semova... mcvelebic mravlad arian, Tanac gansakuTrebulni, qajni Znelad
saomarni... magram mainc gzaa da xsnis gzad iqceva, Tuki mcvelebisgan
ganiwmindeba. vaJkacobac esaa. oRond, rkinis guli da xis abjari arafer
SuaSia. ubralod, amjerad, imas unda uRalato, vis gamoc moyvass
Ralatobdi aqamde. ase rom, me var Tu sxva, visac Ralati ukve midrekilebad
hqcevia da ukve yoveldRiur sayofacxovrebo saqmianobad Tvlis amas, erT
mSvenier dRes, mainc unda SeafurTxos eSmaks da uari Tqvas am samarcxvino
midrekilebaze... drng. maladec, elizbar, maladec drng naTesaobac amas
hqvia swored. ar Tqva axla, ra Seni naTesavi varo drng xar da egre! drng
ra moSlis awi Cvens naTesaobas... piriqiT, naTesaobis gamo SevalT
istoriaSi drng Cemi naTesavi rom xar imitom Tu gagixsenebs viRaca, Torem,
wignebis imedze tyuilad nu iqnebi drng meti ar aris Cemi mteri drng. drng.
Sen Tu ggonia, ver vxvdebiT, vis gulisxmob, vis esvri talaxs, Zalian
geSleba drng an am mkvdrebs rom momiqsev xolme drng waramara drng raRa
gadareva undaT mag ubedurebs, aqac dasabmelebi iyvnen yvelani drng. erTi
cocxali kaci maCvene, TqvensaviT fiqrobdes da, ar minda Tqveni araferi...
drng. drng. Ralati Tu Cemi midrekilebaa, Se dalocvilo, ese igi, Cemi
sakuTrebacaa, ara?! ase ar gamodis?! piradi sakuTreba ki, xelSeuxebelia. ar
dagaviwydeT, ras gvaswavlis demokratia. demokratiaa Cveni xsna, elizbar,
demokratia! yovel SemTxvevaSi, jerjerobiT, magra gviSvela. xom gaxsovT,
xeze gvipirebdnen dakidebas! magram branwi, branwi da kidev branwi. mwifes
esrodnen da mkvaxe cviodao. Tu demokrati xar, gaanebe kaSelebs Tavi,
xolo, Tu ar xar demokrati, maSin uaresi kaSeli gamodixar Tavad.
venacvale amis momgons! bali da "eniseli", batonebo! namdvilad gekuTvniT
navaxSmevs drng. daacadeT, aTqmevineT... mwerali laparakobs, bolos da
bolos. kargs arafers ityvis, endeT Cems gamocdilebas. drng. magram raRaca
rom unda vTqva, faqtia. sanam ar vityvi, verc cxadSi movisveneb, verc ZilSi.
Tumca, TviTonac veRar gamirkvevia, rodis mRviZavs da rodis mZinavs.
geubnebiT, davberdi-meTqi, da ar gjeraT. ise, kacma rom Tqvas, ratom
vlaparakob giJurad?! rasac vfiqrob, imas vambob. marTali brZandebiT, amas
hqvia swored giJurad laparaki, magram, Tu sizmarSi var, ar jobs sizmarSi
mainc vTqva, rac cxadSi ver miTqvams, diaxac rom naTesaobis gamo?! sizmari
cudad SeniRbuli cxadia. iqac imas ambob da akeTeb, rasac cxadSic ityodi
da gaakeTebdi, cota ufro guladi rom gaeCine RmerTs. magram mZinavs ki?!
aba, yvelaferi ratom mesmis?! sadili movidao, daiZaxa weRan viRacam, magram
sadili ar maxsovs. mere krazana bzuoda. damezara Tvalis gaxela. ise,
sasacilo kia, omSi waxvide da krazanam gikbinos. am sunSi daZineba ar
SeiZleba. mec Tvals vatyueb mxolod. gnebavT, Segnebulad vxuWav Tvals. ar
minda Tvali gavusworo sinamdviles. etyoba, Zalian daviRale. jer
aeroportebSi ramdeni gvayuryutes, TbilisSic da soxumSic. mere, rogorc
iqna, am Ria samareSi gvikres Tavi, magram sunma ar damasvena. nametani azizi
var, jariskacis kvalobaze. ufro emociuric. ufro sworad, mec "Cveni biWi"
var. jariskaci emociebisgan saerTod gantvirTuli sabrZolo erTeulia,
usaxo, usaxelo, uferuli, meqanikurad aRmsrulebeli nebismieri brZanebisa,
ragind briyvuli iyos brZaneba. sul miwas Txris, TxunelasaviT. sangris
CamobRortnili kedlebis mets verafers xedavs. arc unda. saaTobiT,
TveobiT, wlobiT SeuZlia ucqiros sangris kedlebidan WiayelebiviT
gamoklaknil fesvebs ukve aRar arsebuli xeebisa, da tkbilad ifiqros,
davuSvaT, TbilisSi darCenil znewamxdar sazogadoebaze, gawbilebul
meuRleze, gaubedurebul Svilze, daumTavrebel wignze... rogor fiqrobT,
rodis gavlen Cveni biWebi fsouze? rqebiT awveba gawripuli Jurnalisti
gogona savele meTaurs. nu mainc... miaxloebiT! aba, ra giTxra, Cemo gogoni,
ufrosoba win ar gviSvebs, biWebs TokiT ver vabamT... arc tyvia-wamali gvaqvs
sakmarisi. hm, hm... tyvias rusisgan vyidulobT, wamals afsuasgan... mokled,
vnaxoT. unda gavimarjvoT. sxvanairad ar iqneba. arada, sunTqvac aRar
SeiZleba. es mkvdari miwis sunia. miwisa da gadaWrili fesvebisa. ara mgonia,
SevZlo am sunSi daZineba. tazepami unda davlio. mezareba. zed vazivar.
rogor Zleben, rogor Zleben, rogor Zleben es bavSvebi am sinesteSi... weRan
viRacam saaTi ikiTxa. ori iyo. axla albaT samia. daaxloebiT. ramdeni
gamodis? TxuTmeti. ormocs TxuTmeti ocdaxuTi. ukeTes SemTxvevaSi, kidev
ocdaxuTi saaTi darCa. rac mTavaria, saSveli arsebobs. ufro sworad, ar
arsebobs gamouvali mdgomareoba. oRond, saamisod didi nebisyofa da
simtkicea saWiro. qajTa nebisyofisa da simtkicis gamtexi. ucnaurs da
SeuZlebels aravin arafers moiTxovs. gana gamosworebuli loTi ar
gvinaxavs? an meZavi? an narkomani? antoni ar aris cudi biWi. unda gadarCes.
aucileblad unda gadarCes. am oms Tu auRo alRo da gaiTavisa, gadarCeba.
ganiwmindeba cecxliTa da maxviliT. cecxliTa da maxviliT moinaTleba
axali cxovrebisTvis. bevri gzaabneuli kravi dapetelaobs aq. jer arc
ician, ra aris cxovreba. yvelas Svela unda. an egeni arian, an saerTod ar
arsebobs CvenTvis xvalindeli dRe. maT Soris, is Worfliani gogoc...
ubeduri. jer ded-mamis win gaaupatiures, mere Tvalwin dauxoces ded-mama.
gamarjobaT. Tqven vin brZandebiT? marTla mwerali xarT? ase miTxres
biWebma. saomrad CamoxvediT Tu Cvens dasaxedad? Cvenze unda daweroT? jer
ara gviSavs ra... me yvelaze Worfliani gogo var mTels sanapiroze... magram
xsna arsebobs. etyoba, simdablis mwvervals unda miaRwio, raTa xelaxla
aRsdge. xsna namdvilad arsebobs, sadRac aqve, axlomaxlo... SeiZleba, am
sangarSic, Cvens Soris... me TviTon vicnobdi erT gamosworebul narkomans.
Cemi megobris biZa iyo. imis SiSiT ubatonod xmas veravin gvcemda quCaSi,
studentobisas. axla cocxali aRar aris. Cven rom universitetSi SevediT,
is maSin gamovida cixidan ukanasknelad. cixeSi mieCvia narkotiksac. ase
gviyveboda TviTon. banditi Tu xar, narkomanic unda iyo. sxvanairad
gagiWirdeba bandituri cxovreba. magram aseve gagiWirdeba wesieri cxovreba,
Tu, banditobasTan erTad, narkotiksac ar SeeSvebi. mokled, ukanasknelad
rom gamovida cixidan da ifiqra, isev Zveli gziT evlo Tu sxva gzac ecada,
ufro sworad ki, erT mSvenier dRes, moulodnelad, erTi wamiT rom
gamofxizlda cixidan gamoyolili buranidan da uneblied garedanac Sexeda
sakuTar Tavs, ar moewona, ar moewona ki ara, Seawuxa, aRaSfoTa sakuTarma
simdablem. mwvervalze idga sakuTari simdablisa. TviTon Tqva, matliviT
SemaRoRda raRaca sulzeo. banditebs uyvarT poeturi laparaki. rac
mTavaria, jer kidev hqonda SerCenili Rirsebis grZnoba. es ki, aucilebelia.
uimisod, ra azri aqvs gamosworebas?! qveynisTvisac Rirseuli banditi
sjobs, vTqvaT, uRirs mecniers. wamlis miRebis dro rom mouvidoda, zurgs
ukan akvrevinebda dedas xelebs. Cemi TvaliT minaxavs. stumrad viyavi
imaTTan sofelSi. sxvas aravis endoboda. marto dedas. dedaCems Tqvenze
metad vecodebi da amitom, xelebsac Tqvenze magrad Semikravso. zurgsukan
xelebgakoWili, kidev ufro aRgznebuli, kidev ufro gacofebuli, kidev
ufro Wkuidan gadamcdari daZrwoda ezoSi, Tavs urtyamda xeebs, kbiliT
RrRnida totebs da Tavpirdasisxlianebuli Rmuoda, Rrialebda, mTeli
soflis gasagonad. ar malavda Tavis ubedurebas. ar rcxvenoda ubedurebisa.
TviTon Tu ar uSvelida Tavs, sxva arvin iyo misi mSveleli. esec Segnebuli
hqonda da kidev ufro gamZvinvarebuli ibrZoda simartoveSi. uamxanagod.
umegobrod. ueqimod. deda mxolod xelebis SekvraSi Sveloda. mere mkerdSi
mjiRs icemda da gaubedavad xaoda Svilis zurgsukan. Sviloo o, Sviloo o,
Sviloo o... TiTqos ukanasknel gzaze miacilebda. asedac iyo. misma Svilma
mainc Tavisi gaitana. ajoba am TiTqosda mourevel sens. xelaxla daibada.
xelaxla ki ar daibada, sruliad sxva, axali adamiani moevlina qveyanas,
misi samSoblosi ar iyos, oRond, Zvelze ukeTesi, keTilSobili miznisa da
Seuryeveli rwmenis nayofi janmrTeli, saRi, keTili, samarTliani,
gulisxmieri, sustis qomagi, gaWirvebulis gamkiTxavi... mezoblebi mis saxels
ficulobdnen. dedamisi gangeb, usaqmod gamodioda Sinidan, Svilis qeba rom
moesmina yovel nabijze. samsaxurSic Cadga, daojaxda kidec, magram,
samwuxarod, male daiRupa. gulma umtyuna. etyoba, wesieri cxovreba ufro
Zneli aRmoCnda, vidre egona. rac mTavaria, moaswro gamosworeba. daibruna
saxe da saxeli adamianisa da codvebisgan ganwmendili mieaxla ufals. ukve
mixvdiT albaT, ratom movyevi amsigrZe ambavi. rasakvirvelia, Cvenc SegviZlia
gamovswordeT, Tuki, TavisTavad cxadia, gvinda gamosworeba. ase viwyeb Cems
mimarTvasac. Seni mZaxloba ki ara, Seni Tanamedrove rom var, isic meyofa
sircxvilad da danaSaulad-meTqi. magram, rogorc ar unda gagikvirdes,
mxolod da mxolod, Sen SegiZlia gadaarCino is, risi daRupvac, mama-papis
msgavsad, xelobad gagixdia-meTqi. Ralatis Jini rom wamogivlis, Txove
vinmes an fefes, an Cems qaliSvils xelebi Segikran zurgs ukan, pirze
plastiri gadagakran, anda fexsadgilSi Cagketon garedan-meTqi. ar SeiZleba,
Senc ar gagimarTlos-meTqi. Senc aucileblad gamoswordebi, ese igi,
gadarCebi da gadarCenis Semdeg, gindac, male daiRupo, an yeli gamogWras
vinmem, an manqanam gagitanos quCaSi, mainc did Svebas igrZnob, mainc moaswreb
eniTuTqmeli, RvTaebrivi madlis gancdas, mkvdreTiT aRdgoma, Sin dabruneba,
Tvalis axela rom hqvia-meTqi. Sen xom virTxasaviT brmad da uazrod iRvwi
monuri pativmoyvareobis sibneleSi-meTqi. gTxov, gemudarebi, Cveni bavSvebis
xaTriT, scade mainc-meTqi... mzad var, dagiCoqo-meTqi... (elizbar! mama! Zia
elizbar!). es ca da miwa sad gageqceva-meTqi... gamosworeba ki, SeiZleba,
veRar movaswroT-meTqi... dro moRalatesac gansazRvruli aqvs bunebisgan.
moRalatec dros eqvemdebareba. ase rom, nu movityuebT Tavs, TiTqos
moRalateobiT ukvdavebis mopovebac SeiZlebodes. araviTar SemTxvevaSi. ra
Tqma unda, zogierTi Cvenganis, igive raJden kaSelis saxsenebeli, SeiZleba,
saukuneebs SemorCes, Taobidan Taobebs gadaeces misi wyevla da gineba,
magram amas araferi aqvs saerTo ukvdavebasTan. Cveulebrivi sikvdili
sanatreli gauxdeba. saflavSic ver eRirseba simSvides, saflavi Tu
SearCines, ra Tqma unda. iqac miwvdeba pativayrili, Seginebuli, daxvretili
xalxis risxva, STamomavlobiT gadamavali Taobidan Taobaze. drng. sanam
jer kidev droa drng rogorme CaviklaT es samarcxvino, damRupveli
moTxovnileba drng. sxva gza ar arsebobs Cveni xsnisa. drng. an samudamod
aviRoT Ralatze xeli drng an saswrafod vuRalatoT imas, vinc
moRalateebad gvaqcia drng. an vZlioT sixarbes drng an vTqvlifoT
samSoblos leSi da erTmaneTs vurwyioT jamebSi drng drng drng (mama!
elia! Zia elizbar!). erTad vuSveloT samSoblos! nu ganvudgebiT siRaribis
gamo. nu viukadrisebT sipataravisTvis. nu davuwunebT garegnobas. gana yvela
mSobeli erTnairad lamazi ar aris?! movuxmoT Wkuas da davbrundeT Sin,
gaqceulnic da gasaqcevad gamzadebulnic... bargze mjdomarenic... batebo,
batebo, Sin! Cvens dros iyo aseTi TamaSi. ufro sworad, ufrosebi
TamaSobdnen ase Cvens bavSvobaSi... pirvel rigSi, fuli SevagrovoT da patar-
patara wignakebad gamovceT Cveni andazebi, winaparTa sibrZne. Tavgadasavali.
jibiTa da ubiT vataroT Tan. locvaniviT vikiTxoT yovel dRe, dReSi
ramdenjerme. vzuTxoT, rogorc marqsizmsa da politekonomias vzuTxavdiT...
gindaT erTad, gindaT cal-calke. gindaT xmamaRla, gindaT Cumad, gunebaSi.
iqneb ase mainc vZlioT monur pativmoyvareobas... iqneb ase mainc gadaveCvioT
monobaSi monobiT kopwiaobasa da yoyloCinobas... davibrunoT gaxiznuli,
gaCuqebuli, gayiduli Svilebi da, maTTan erTad, Sin vxexoT fexsadgili...
sakuTari nagavi gavitanoT sakuTar sanagveze... da gulSi mainc vaRiaroT,
gaxvretili kapikianis fasic rom ara aqvs arcerT Cvengans usamSoblod. isev
Cven Tu avitanT erTmaneTs. isev Cven Tu mogvewveba guli erTmaneTze. isev
Cven Tu Segvawuxebs erTmaneTis siglaxe. Sin, Sin, Sinisken! drng. ara, amdens
vxvdebiT. amdeni Cvenc gvesmis. samSoblos uarmyofels yvelgan eWvis TvaliT
uyureben. amitomac vezidebiT mis namcecebs axal bunagebSi. mSobliur
garemos viqmniT ucxo cis qveS. Semfarebelsac vatyuebT ai, rogori
lamazi samSoblo dagvakargineso da uaryofil samSoblosac iqac
gvaxsovxar da gviyvarxaro. aba, rad gvinda, risTvis gvWirdeba gaquculi
TuSuri fardagi germaniaSi?! anda, dabzaruli megruli Conguri amerikaSi?!
anda, pirmotexili kaxuri kokura niderlandebSi?! Sin. Sin. SSin. drng. drng.
drng. drng. gveyo, rac viTvalTmaqceT da vimatrabazeT. me rom Zala mqondes,
me rom Rone merCodes, maTraxiT dagifrendiT yvelas, maTraxiT gagirekavdiT
win, anu, ukan, Seginebuli, gulmokluli, mitovebuli samSoblosken,
verafriT rom ver moigo Cveni guli, ver gvagrZnobina siTbo, ver dagvanaxa
sikeTe... Cvenc SeviZuleT da Svilebsac iqamde SevaZuleT, vidre Tvali
aexilebodaT, WkuaSi Cavardebodnen da TeTrisa da Savis garCevas
SeZlebdnen... baRis skamebiviT gadavRebeT axleburad, sezonis Sesaferisad.
ar davacadeT, bolomde Semosiliyvnen im bumbuliT, maTTvis gankuTvnil
garemos rom Seuxama bunebam. arCevanis ufleba wavarTviT. drng. uaresi.
drng. maT magivrad da maTi saxeliT Cven avirCieT CvenTvis ukeTesi. drng.
magram samSoblo ar motyuvdeba. imis gaCenilebi varT yvelani, moxarSuls
gvicnobs... sadauri qudic ar unda davixuroT, imisTvis mainc umaduri,
gzasamcdari Svilebi viqnebiT... mainc misi sapatronebeli. rogorc ar unda
viukadrisoT, rogorc ar unda ganvudgeT, bolos mainc iman unda migviRos
Tavis wminda wiaRSi, roca uazro wanwaliTa da damadlebuli puris loRniT
gamwarebulebs, erT mSvenier dRes, qalbaton cuca odiSaris kuiliviT
gagvZvreba es dawyevlili, Seginebuli suli... drng. drng. drng. esec ase!
madloba RmerTs da, rasakvirvelia, gansakuTrebuli madloba raJden kaSels.
gamaRizianeblis gareSe margaliti ar ibadeba, arc bunebaSi, arc
laboratoriaSi... axla mTavaria, qaRaldze gadavitanoT, rac SeiZleba
swrafad da rac SeiZleba srulad. amisTvis ki, sul cota, ori ram aris
saWiro: cocxlebi gadavrCeT da Tbilisi Tavis adgilze dagvxvdes. magram
asea Tu ise, Sen Seni Tqvi. axla Tavi qvisTvis uxliaT. Sen meti araferi
SegiZlia. ecade, marTla daiZino. anda, cota kargzec ifiqro. Tu kargi
araferi gaqvs, riRasTvis omob?! kargia Tu avia, namdvili saqarTvelo am
sangarSi zis. ese igi, cxovreba grZeldeba. omic amis dadasturebaa mxolod.
drng. rac mTavaria, swored iseTi dRea, Sen rom giyvars Cawynarebul-
Camyudrovebul-daZabul-daulevel sicocxliT savse, bayayis yiyiniT, Citis
WikWikiT, mwerisa da qvewarmavlis faCuniT gabruebuli. oRond, sad?! aq Tu
qviSxeTSi? arc amasa aqvs arsebiTi mniSvneloba. erTi da igivea.
moasfaltebul bilikze gaWyletil gombeSos WianWvelebi esevian. ai, vin xar
Sen! WianWvelasac arasodes ar Zinavs Turme. cota ufro qvemoT, gvelis
vercxlisferi kudi bzinavs. bavSvebs unadiriaT. magram Tqven Tu
dakvirvebixarT, rogor uxdeba fiWvis xes ciyvi! sainteresoa, ras fiqrobs,
roca qvemodan ascqeri. albaT gaginebs, wadi Seni mkvleli dedaco...
bolomde ar endoba kacs. kacze Wkviania. bunebisganaa gafrTxilebuli, ar
endo, bunebiT mkvleliao, ciyvsac iseve moklavs arafrisTvis, rogorc
kacso. msubuqad, iolad, uxmod mixtis totidan totze, xidan xeze, rogorc
cnobismoyvare, anda, ufro zusti iqneba, Tu vityviT, rogorc xarbi Tvali
sagnidan saganze, erTi Zvirfasi nivTidan kidev ufro Zvirfas meore
nivTze. cacxvis suni Zlierdeba. drng. Tu raRac iwvis?! Tu iwvis, kargi
raRac iwvis. drng. samSoblo. drng. yvelafers daTmobs kaci am
surnelisTvis. drng. samagierod, miwaSi Campal fesvebs, mSobliursac ki,
saSineli suni hqonia. masunTqeT Cemi samSoblos surneli. xurda ar minda.
sicocxles vixdi mTlianad. rac ar unda paradoqsulad JRerdes Cvens
droSi, samSoblos surnels ver gayidi. samSoblo iyideba, misi surneli ki,
ara. surneli mainc aq rCeba, gamocarielebul sivrceSi, nasamSoblarze...
drng. drng. drng. elizbar, elizbar, elia! sul cuds nu fiqrob Cvenze,
kargic ifiqre rame. ar dagaviwydes, navaxSmevs, mZaxalTan xar dapatiJebuli.
"eniseli" da bali. unda waxvide. aba, xom ar aTqmevineb, es ra ucxvirpiro
mSoblebi yolia lizikoso. drng. ise waxval, rogorc dagibarebia. iSfoTeb,
inerviuleb, gulsac bevrjer Seaskdebi amaod da elisosac, magram bolos
mainc wacunculdebi. verc amjerad ityvi uars. "eniseli" da bali
Cveulebrivi misatyuaria. gnebavs, bali da "eniseli". SesakrebTa
gadaadgilebiT jami ar icvleba. aseve aRaraferi Seicvleba, rogorc ar
unda gadaaadgil-gadmoaadgilo Sens mier (da xSirad, Segnebuladac)
daSvebuli Secdomebi. marTlac, ra Seicvleba, elisos daJinebuli Txovnis
Sedegad aRiare kaSelebis naTesaoba, Tu, iqamde, antonis xaTriT daxuWe
Tvali imave kaSelebis saqveynod cnobil "damsaxurebebze"... ra mniSvneloba
aqvs, Tuki saerTod SesaZleblad Tvli erT sivrceSi, erT droSi arsebobas
kaSelebTan erTad da Tuki Tavidanve, WkuaSi CavardnisTanave, ar dagisaxavs
miznad maTi saxseneblis amoZirkva, nebismieri msxverplis fasad... axla
sizmrebis axsnasa da CvenebebiT mkiTxaobas, gaCumeba sjobs. axla mainc nu
moityueb Tavs, TiTqos rames niSnavdes, TiTqos rames cvlides am sangarSi
yuryuti. jer is mainc auxseni bavSvebs, saidan unda daiwyon omi, anu, risgan
unda ganTavisufldnen pirvel rigSi, Rirsni rom gaxdnen Tavisuflebisa.
sad aris ZaRlis Tavi damarxuli? es xom mainc ici?! es ici mxolod, magram
swored es ver giTqvams. jer, viTom, antonisa da lizikos megobroba
gakavebda, mere raJdenisa da fefes mZaxloba, axla ki sircxvili...
sircxvili da imis SiSi, vaiTu aRar damijerono, vaiTu, borotebis (ase
usaSvelod dagvianebuli) mxileba, rac valdebulebacaa nebismieri
normaluri adamianisTvis, Svilis gaubedurebiT gamwarebuli mSoblis
SurisZiebad CameTvaloso... magram rogorc ar unda gavwel-gamovweloT,
damnaSave ukve marto Sena xar. yvela SesaZlebloba gauSvi xelidan. dro ki,
mkacri msajulia. kaSeli yovelTvis ise cxovrobda, rogorc unda ecxovra
da yovelTvis imas akeTebda, rac unda ekeTebina, Tavidanve risTvisac
moevlina am qveyanas; Sen ki, piriqiT, yovelTvis sxvis magivrad cxovrobdi
da yovelTvis sxvis gasakeTebels akeTebdi... Sedegmac ar daayovna. Tuki
vinmes mouspe simarTlis danaxvisa da garkvevis unari, Svils mouspe. amitom,
Tu vinmes sindiszea, Sens sindiszea misi Seginebuli Rirsebac da ganwiruli
sicocxlec... Sen TviTon gaaupatiure sakuTari sisxli da xorci... gindac,
Seni meSveobiT gaaupatiura sxvam, radgan Seni usityvo Tanxmobisa da
faruli mxardaWeris gareSe, es ar moxdeboda... majebdabintuli ar egdeboda
liziko axla uSuqod, ueqimod, upatronod darCenil fsiqiatriulSi,
Tavadac upatrono... aRarc qmrisa da aRarc mamisa... drng. veRarc elisos
Tavgamodeba da gulmodgineba uSvelis rames. fsiqiatriulis parketayril
derefnebSi win da ukan mgeliviT wriali da ymuili, gulisamaCuyebeli
rolia mSoblisa da ara movaleoba. elisomac unda Seignos es. rogorme
unda miawvdino xma. imisTvis dasatovebeli werilebi Tan wamogyolia. aqedan
ki, ver gaugzavni. soxumidan Tbilisamde yvela safosto ganyofileba
darbeulia. ra waiRes? Txis fexebi. es ar aris mTavari. mTavaria, gabedes.
neba misces Tavs, SeiaraRebuliyvnen da Seseodnen samSoblos. drng. ase rom,
ifiqre, ifiqre, rogor vuSveloT bavSvebs... SeiZleba Tu ara maTi Svela da,
Tu SeiZleba, saWiroa Tu ara... da Tu saWiroa, visTvis? SenTvis Tu
kaSelisTvis? vis sWirdeba aseTebi? Sen Tu kaSels? drng. uguloni,
urwmunoni, uzneoni, umweoni... drng. gaiRviZeT, batono elizbar! drng. bolo
sadguria. drng. gumisTa. drng. mandarinebSi mkvdari Zroxa gdia da yars. ori
wlis mosavali xeebs zed SeWknobia. samagierod, zRva Zveleburad
TvalismomWrelad laplapebs mzeze. Sen ki, sangarSi zixar, zurgCanTaze, da
yvinTav drng dedaenis gigosaviT. amdeni jer kidev gagegeba. ufro sworad,
ZilburanSi xar ganuwyvetliv. ver gagirkvevia, rodis gZinavs da rodis
gRviZavs. xuTi metris moSorebiT, sangarze joxia gadebuli. joxze
brezentis dafleTili karavia gadakiduli, Tanamedrove Teatralur
fardasaviT. fardis iqiT, vin icis, aq saidan moxvedril matrasze "mTel
sanapiroze yvelaze Worfliani gogo" wevs, Wkuasusti ingira, dediSobila.
fardis aqeT ki, biWebis rigi dgas. ufro zustad, zis. sxedan miwaze, ewevian,
ifurTxebian galajul fexebs Soris, enabilwoben, dascinian erTmaneTs da
mouTmenlad elodebian TavianT rigs. amjerad, fardis iqiT soxumeli
boriaa gasuli. "kai axla, boria, amdeni mteri gvyavs Se kaco, magas xom ar
unda Seakla Tavi" eZaxis Sorapneli vaxo. danarCenebi icinian, xrinwianad,
mouTmenlad, uxamsad. drng. drng. drng. sangris ukan, saswaulad gadarCenil
alvis xeze kodala akakunebs, Tavis kuTvnil matls daeZebs da srulebiTac
ar ainteresebs, ra xdeba miwaze. drng. antonic im biWebSi zis. SeiZleboda
oTxiT metni yofiliyvnen. wuxel oTxi gvami amoiRes marto am sangridan.
antonic elodeba sxvebTan erTad, magram sxvebisgan gansxvavebiT, yvelaferi
urCevnia im fardis iqiT gasvlas. agdebulad ekideba am ambavs, rogorc
nacixarsa da Zvel biWs Seefereba, oRond, garegnulad, mogonili
arxeinobiT. sinamdvileSi, Zalian ganicdis. ufro metic eSinia.
rasakvirvelia, icis vin wevs matrasze, fardis iqiT, magram, ratomRac,
Tvalwin ganuwyvetliv liziko udgas, aseve dediSobila. "gaxsovs?"
ekiTxeba liziko, kvimaturad momRimari. antons, rasakvirvelia, axsovs. beber,
farTod gatotvil naZvSi hqondaT samalavi mowyobili, xmeli wiwviT,
ablabudis nakuwebiT, mumliTa da lizikos gamabruebeli surneliT
amovsebuli sicariele. iq kiTxulodnen, ufro sworad, erTmaneTs ar
acdidnen wakiTxvas, xelidan glejdnen nikolozis biblioTekidan
wamoRebul wigns. "Cven dagvarqmeven bozT, meZavT, mruSebs da Cvens Svilebsa
nabiWvrebs, buSebs; saxeli gatydebis, qveyana astydebis Cvens saZraxavad". ase
agisruldaT yvelaferi kargi! antonisTvis liziko wevs fardis iqiT,
liziko acxrobs gadatanili SiSiTa da mRelvarebiT aRgznebul biWebis
vnebas. "ki ar giRalate, msxverplad Segewire Se debilo. mxolod ase
SemeZlo amexila SenTvis Tvali... ambobs utifrad gvari movsTxare da
naTesavi; sircxviliT davsWer suyvelas Tavi; saqme vqmen kaxpuri... ar
momekaro, ar momekaro, ar momekaro" yviris SeSliliviT da ufro Rrmad
miZvreba ekalbardebSi, kabawamoxdili, barZayebdakawruli... "uwmindurTa
qalTa oqro-qsovilT kalTa dahfaravs vera". diaxac rom kaxpa. Zukna. meZavi.
bozi diaci... "qmris saflavT lodi..." da mainc yvelaze sasurveli qali
misTvis. aseTia sinamdvile. aseTia samdRiani fiqris, gansjis, SfoTvisa da
TviTgvemis Sedegad gamotanili daskvna, gnebavT, ganaCeni, da gasaCivrebas ar
eqvemdebareba. drng. drng. drng. gumisTis gaRma, fiWvnariT dafarul
ferdobze, erT-erTi fiWvis Ziras komkavSireli gogona Camjdara da zurgiT
kandamskdar xes mibjenili, TvaldaxuWuli misCerebia mzes. irujeba
afxazuri mziT. Sin rom dabrundeba, Tavs moiwonebs tol-amxanagebSi.
daitrabaxebs. bevri arc daujerebs. bevrisTvis saqarTvelo legendaa,
zRapruli qveyanaa, TiTqos sinamdvileSi arc arsebuli. raRac saSualoa
samoTxesa da samTavrobo agaraks Soris. gverdiT optikuri SaSxana udevs,
sportuli. SaSxanis kondaxze frTebaprexili, sibrazisgan dakuzianebuli
krazana dacocavs. komkavSireli gogona murmanskidanaa Camosuli da erTi
masaviT moxalise, krasnodareli kazaki moswons. ki ar moswons, yurebamdea
Seyvarebuli. imis danaxvaze bluvdeba. imas ki, kazaks, skivridan amoRebuli,
albaT papis naqoni kazakuri qudi gverdze koxtad mougdia, aseve Zveli,
wiTel lampasebiani Sarvlis jibeebi moxaluli mzesumziriT amouvsia da
ganuwyvetliv aknawunebs TeTri, nafota kbilebiT. "erTi qarTveli erTi
muWa mzesumzira eubneba amas, komkavSirels, snaipers, Seyvarebuls
tyuilubralod, erT marcvalsac ar mogcem, icode. miyure da ylape
nerwyvebi" icinis sakuTari enamaxvilobiT kmayofili. "me mzesumzirisTvis
ar vklav" ZlivZlivobiT ambobs es, komkavSireli, snaiperi, Seyvarebuli.
Tvalebi cremliT evseba daZabulobisgan da kidev imitom, aTas sisuleleze
rom uxdeba laparaki, roca yvelafrisTvis mzad aris ukve. erTaderTi sityva
utrialebs sul enis wverze: "Steruka". "erTi amas damixedeT icinis
kazaki Sen ra, arZinbas gogo xar?" "me aravis gogo ara var. me sustis
mxareze var" slukunebs komkavSireli, snaiperi, Seyvarebuli. "ai, es
mesmis! yoCaR! CageTvala. aha, gamomarTvi (kazaki mzesumziriT savse muWs
awvdis, magram komkavSireli, snaiperi, Seyvarebuli ar arTmevs). gamomarTvi-
meTqi! viTom ubrazdeba kazaki es Cvens garigebas ar exeba. es
riggareSe premiaa" amatebs ukve momRimari da fiWvis xesTan Camjdar
gogosac tkbilad eRimeba am saubris gaxsenebaze. "Steruka. Steruka.
Steruka." eniT uTqmeli siamovnebiT imeorebs ramdenjerme, zedized. drng.
Cqara, batono elizbar drng gamoiqeciT drng Cqara drng sircxvilia drng
da elizbaric facafuciT dgeba, facafuciT isworebs moCaCul tansacmels
da TvaldaxuWuli garbis, TviTonac rom ar icis saiT. etyoba, gvarSi
mosdevT. amwinebze, misi Svilic ase garboda trial mindorSi, brmad,
alalbedze... arc is icis, qviSxeTSi garbis, cacxvebis xeivanSi, Tu
gumisTasTan, sangarSi. icis, unda gaiqces da garbis. rogorc jariskacs
moeTxoveba. aaaaaaaa! gasagebia yvelaferi. albaT stumari Camovida. Tanac,
sapatio. arc meti da arc naklebi, saxelmwifo sabWos erT-erTi wevri,
magram aranakleb mniSvnelovani danarCen orze. mwerlebs gaesaubreba,
gaigebs imaT guneba-ganwyobilebas. esec Cveulebrivi ambavia nebismieri
xelisuflebisTvis... gana ara? TviTonac miaqcia yuradReba
afusfusebulni iyvnen yvelani, gamalebulni asufTavebdnen teritorias.
amindi uSlidaT cota xels. ramdeni daxvetes bilikebi, imdeni gawvimda.
Camohqonda da Camohqonda wvimas, racki gamxmari da dampali hqonda xes.
wyalSi azelili cacxvis yvavili usiamod gadaglesila asfaltze. magram,
ase Tu ise, mainc sazeimod gamoiyureba iqauroba. aba, he, Cqara! iZaxis
mweralTa dasasvenebeli saxlis direqtori da garbis. garbis elizbaric.
sxvebic garbian, batoni pimenic, batoni leontic, batoni diomidec, batoni
gobronic, batoni mixakoc... garbian maTi colebic. mTibavebic... mokled,
yvelani. Wkuasusti ingirac garbis, dediSobila. oRond, dafleTili karavi
mousxams mxrebze. TavianTi rigis momlodine biWebic garbian. antoni ar Cans
mxolod. ara, age antoni! antonic maTTan erTad garbis. fefe borblebian
sakaces moagorebs. sakaceze raJdeni wevs da sakacidan gadmovardnili
xeliT branws uCvenebs qveyanas. "CeCnebi. CeCnebi" ismis yvirili. kaSelebis
agarakis eleqtroWiSkari nela iReba, ZagZagiT, RrWialiT, da ezoSi Savad
mbzinavi Zveleburi etli Semodis. erTi, ori, sami, oTxi... oTxi wyvili cxeni
ubia. cxenebs Tavze gafuyuli ponponebi ukeTiaT. ponponebi TavisTvis
cancareben ganuwyvetliv. etls mecxramete saukunis mtveri adevs.
imdroindeli saqarTvelosi landic aRaraa darCenili. mas mere,
saqarTvelos ager ukve mesame saxeoba gadis gamocdas. cxenebs mecxramete
saukunis (ese igi, samuzeumo) talaxi SexmobiaT ferdebsa da fexebze.
Zalumad sunTqaven. cxel orTqls afrqveven nestoebidan, gegonebaT, patara
orTqlmavali Camomdgara sadgurzeo, ra Tqma unda, namdvili, magram mainc
gasarTobi, saTamaSo, ai, rkinis komisarma rom aCuqa qarTvel pionerebs
soWis olqis, tao-klarjeTis, loresa Tu hereTis sanacvlod... etlis kari
iReba, dasakeci kibe ixsneba da kibeze Sevalie Jak fransua gamba Camodis,
safrangeTis konsuli TbilisSi, gasuli saukunis ocian wlebSi, da avtori
wignisa "mogzauroba amierkavkasiaSi". wigni xelSi uWiravs, "ganaTlebis"
gamocemuli, sakmaod uRimRamod. erTi wamiT kibis safexurze Seyovndeba,
etli odnav daizniqeba misi simZimis qveS, wigns gadaSlis da kiTxulobs:
saeqsporto vaWroba, maincdamainc, ver aris kargad ganviTarebuli, magram
uxvad iSoveba cvili, Tafli, saqonlis qoni, kanafi da ficari, kameCis tyavi,
xaris tyavi... hava zomieria, miwa noyieri. mosavlis misaRebad sakmarisia
odnav moCiCqnoT. aqauroba mdidaria zeTisxiliT, dafniT, murtiTa da
veluri leRviT. mravlad hyavT naxiri, irmis jogebi da Roris koltebi.
Tevzsac sakmaod bevrs iWeren: saucxoo TarTs, oragulsa da cvrinas...
mohyavT simindi, fetvi, Tambaqo... aSeneben vazs, broweuls, TuTas... tyeebi
savsea kopitis, Telis, wiTeli xisa da kaklis xeebiT... Cemi varaudiT, Tu
aqauri urTxmela eqsportis sagani gaxdeba, saSualeba mogvecema, avagoT
bevrad ufro gamZle xomaldebi, vidre Cvens tyeebSi umTavresad
gavrcelebuli muxisgan agebuli xomaldebia... kvernis tyavi 5-6 abazad
iyideba. daTvis tyavs igive fasi aqvs. yviTeli mela 2-3 abazi Rirs. turis
tyavi 1 abazi. kurdReli imdenad bevria, imis tyavs arafrad agdeben...
"moRalatev!" yviris elizbari. "dobropoJalovatszdrasste" esalmeba
raJden kaSeli sapatio stumars. keisarsa hgavs. TeTri zewari togasaviT
mouxvevia SiSvel tanze. SvilisTvis mainc mkvdaria. "icis rusuli?"
ekiTxeba batoni pimeni raJdens. "me vici franguli?" ubrunebs kiTxvas
raJdeni. "moRalatev! Zirs moRalate!" yviris elizbari. "es ukve
metismetia, batono elizbar!" Zveli, kabineturi rixiT tuqsavs raJdeni
mZaxals."moRalate?! ki magram, ratom? ukvirs Jak fransua gambas gana
rodisme mogeciT erTgulebis fici? garda amisa, roca me amas vwerdi, Tqven
ukve aRar arsebobdiT, anda jer ar iyaviT dabadebulni" amatebs
ganawyenebuli kacis medidurobiT. "Tqven, yvela sikeTesTan erTad, ruseTs
ganumarteT gagris olqis strategiuli mniSvneloba da amiT samudamod
gawireT saqarTvelo, mouspeT mkvdreTiT aRdgomis saSualeba" mgznebared
ekamaTeba elizbari. "me rusebs ki ar ganvumarte, saerTod ganvmarte. gnebavT,
ganvmarte imaTTvis, visac xelewifebodaT gagris olqis xelSi Cagdeba"
ambobs aseTi daxvedriT, cota ar iyos, gakvirvebuli batoni Jak fransua
gamba da mRelvarebis dasamalavad, wkipurtiT iSorebs meore xelis manJetze
davardnil cacxvis yvavils. "saqarTvelo gayidulia! bavSvebi da saxedrebi
SuaSi!" yviris elizbari. viRaca uknidan xelsa xvevs, viTom iqaurobas
unda gamoaridos, sinamdvileSi ki, yulfSi ayofinebs Tavs, veragulad.
elizbari grZnobs Tokis uxeS bususebs, magram ar imCnevs, TiTqos
uxerxulia, sxvebmac dainaxon Tavze yulfCamocmuli. drng. drng. da erTi
wamiT eRviZeba. krazana Sescocebia kiserze. SeiZleba, swored is, cota xnis
win, gumisTas gaRma, fiWvnarSi, snaiperis SaSxanis kondaxze rom dacocavda.
drng. ase dafrinavs, win da ukan, mTeli dRea. drng. magram aq ra xdeba?! ra
xmauria?! Tavs dagvesxa, viTom, mteri?! ara. uaresi. Cven daverieT erTmaneTs.
biWebi Cxuboben. Tanamesangreni iweven erTmaneTze. ufro sworad, antons
dasevian danarCenebi. magram antonic Tavganwirulad ibrZvis. Zirmomtvreuli
koka-kolas boTliT igeriebs danarCenebs. yvela erTis da erTi yvelas
winaaRmdeg. Tqveni dedao, aginebT gacofebuli, amaze mets, ras gaukeTebdnen
afsuebi am ubedurso, yviris TvalebgadaTeTrebuli, amisTvis xarT aq, Tqve
dampleboo, igineba ukanaskneli sityvebiT. daagde boTlio, uyvirian
danarCenebi, cota ar iyos, Semcbar-SeCoCqolebulni misi SeupovrobiTa da
SeudreklobiT. boria titvelia, marto batinkebi acvia. gaunaskvavi Tasmebi
miwaze dasTrevs. daagde boTlio, uyviris isic. sxva araferi aqvs saTqmeli,
magram ixtibars ar itexs. ise, ra antonis saqmea, CvenSi rom vTqvaT. Zalas
xom ar atanen eseni?! imasac is unda, rac amaT. imasac Tavis wvlili Seaqvs
omSi. ra Seni saqmeao, uyviris gawiwmatebuli. roca mzis sxivi ecema, asos
Tavze spermis wveTi ubrwyinavs, Zvirfasi TvaliviT. wiTlad alaplapebuli
cali yveri muxlamde Camozrdia. vin gkiTxavs Seno, uyviris antons,
nirwamxdari. elizbari sxartad dgeba fexze, mRelvarebisgan ukve daRlili,
ukve aqoSinebuli. wesierad arc gamorkveula Zilidan, magram grZnobs, raRac
unda moimoqmedos saswrafod, vidre mTlad ar gadamcdaran biWebi Wkuidan.
SeiZleba cudad damTavrdes es ambavi. biWebs omi swyuriaT. aba, risTvis
arian aq?! Selaxuli Rirseba awuxebT. galanZRuli saxelisa rcxveniaT...
magram sxvagan ficdadebuli da aq mokakane politikosebi ZaliT akaveben,
lamis cocxlad daalpon sangrebSi. mxolod ukan dasaxevad Tu amouSveben
iqidan. win ar SeiZleba. win "Zmaa", sxva tomis, sxva gvar-jilagis, magram
mainc "Zmaa", Tanac umcrosi, paaatara, susti, jer kidev upiro da ugulo,
magram TiTs Tu daakareb, ise aCxavldeba, mTel qveyanas Segiyris. qveyana ki,
isev Sen gagamtyunebs da marTalic iqneba. raRa maincdamainc imasTan iCen
principulobas?! TiTqos jer kenWic ar "gageCuqebinos", uariT
gagestumrebinos vinme. drng. drng. Tanamedrove ieneral maior graf gotlib
kurt henrix fon totlebenisa ar iyos, ra gaxda es ZRinkiani, mazuTiani
pliaJi?! sul ar Caval zRvaSi, bolos da bolos... biWebic mxrebs iCeCaven,
dabneulni, dafiqrebulni... uWirT mcocavi omis strategiasa da taqtikaSi
garkveva... arcerTi nabiji win da naxevari nabiji ukan. Cumad, SeumCnevlad...
ki magram, ratom! ramenairad rom moatyuo Seniani da yvelanairad Seuwyo
xeli mters... ratom-meTqi, ratom?! yelSi aqvs yvelas guli, sulerTia, visze
iyris javrs... iaraRis sasxletze udevs yvelas TiTi, sulerTia, rodis
gamohkravs da visTvis... viRacam ukve gaaCxakuna avtomatis saketi, avad,
gamafrTxileblad. magram antons araferi eyureba, TvalebgadaTeTrebuli,
boTlmomarjvebuli ibrZvis, gzamoWrili nadiriviT. elizbaric sangris
fskerze dagdebul koka-kolas cariel boTls iRebs da, TiTqos vinme
mosdevdes, farTxafurTxiT amodis sangridan. Zlivs sunTqavs. lamis
gauskdes guli. ukve daRlilia. RmerTma daifaros da, gasaqcevad Tu gauxda
saqme, daRupulia, Romsa da ajikaze gazrdili afsua ki ara, kuc daeweva.
"biWebo!" ambobs gaWirvebiT. "biWeboo!" yviris ganwirulis xmiT.
rogorc ar unda gagikvirdeT, biWebi Cerdebian da gaocebulni amoscqerian
qvemodan. elizbari miwis borcvze dgas, Tavze koka-kolas carieli boTli
udevs da, ar Camomivardeso, nela, gaubedavad Slis xelebs. boTli odnav
irxeva, jer inarCunebs wonasworobas. "SevinarCunoT Rirseba ambobs
elizbari avtonomiebs isedac SegvinarCuneben iRimeba daZabuli,
jvarcmuliviT xelebgaSlili es sangaria Cveni samSoblo...
gavufrTxildeT aqaurobas laparakobs mgeliviT kisergaSeSebuli,
jvarcmuliviT gakavebuli, maRla, boTlisken Tvalebapyrobili,
nikapacaxcaxebuli... uceb mTeli taniT Seqandeba da boTli maSinve sangarSi
Camogordeba. elizbari jer fexze dgas, magram ukve mkvdaria. natyviarSi
Suqi gasdis. "RmerTo, ra kargi yofila sikvdili... madlobT Sen, ufalo..."
fiqrobs bednieri, sakuTari TaviT kmayofili. rogorc iqna, daadga saSveli,
mokvda, aRar aris... samagierod, misma sikvdilma biWebi Seariga. misi
uRimRamo sicocxlis fasad, bolos da bolos, mainc gaerTianda
saqarTvelo, Tundac, mikro, Tundac, simboluri... "ar adgeT, Zia elizbar, ar
gabedoT, es Tqveni saqme ar aris!" uyviris antoni. danarCenebi antonze
iweven da Zalauneburad erTmaneTsac eZaZgurebian, ver etevian viwro
sangarSi. drng. drng. da elizbari sxartad dgeba fexze, amjerad ukve
namdvilad, agangaSebuli, aforiaqebuli, wesierad arc gamorkveula
Zilburanidan, magram grZnobs, raRac unda moimoqmedos saswrafod. "antoni
unda gadarCes, antoni unda gadarCes..." TiTqos viRac sxva fiqrobs mis
safiqrals, mis magivrad, radgan TviTon fiqrisTvisac ar scalia, rame unda
moimoqmedos saswrafod, vidre jer kidev droa. guli ugrZnobs, cudad
damTavrdeba es ambavi. yvela sababs elodeba da ai, sababic! SidaaSliloba.
axla maTTvis ukve sulerTia mteri da moyvare. arc SeirCenen, arc SearCenen.
elizbari ki, daRlilobisgan Zlivs sunTqavs, iseve rogorc CvenebaSi, lamis
gauskdes guli. "anton!" eZaxis antons. "biWebo!" xrialebs
sunTqvaSekruli, yelgadaketili. "wadi, biZia, daiZine, ra Seni saqmea..."
uxeSad iSorebs erT-erTi Tanamosangre. "ra ar aris Cemi saqme?! ra ar aris
Cemi saqme?! uaresad cofdeba elizbari erTmaneTi CaxocoT am sangarSi,
mtris gasaxarad, da Cemi saqme ar aris?!" xixinebs, xrialebs
Tvalebgadmokarkluli. "visia, biWo, es dinozavri? momaSoreT, Torem,
gadavWeri Suaze" yviris meore Tanamosangre da avtomatis lulas
mucelze aWers elizbars. "ras sCadixarT, briyvebo! mTeli qveyana Cven
gviyurebs..." xrialebs, xixinebs, ixrCoba elizbari. "qveyana gviyurebs ki
ara, sadili ar moutaniaT sami dRea" RvarZlianad icinis kidev erTi
Tanamosangre. "ei, matlebo, amomxedeT, ra gaCvenoT! bebiaCemis sacirko
nomeri!" yviris miwis borcvze Semdgari antoni. ki magram, rodis amoZvra
sangridan?! elizbaris ar iyos, yvelani gakvirvebulebi arian, pirdaRebulni
ascqerian qvemodan. "axlave Camodi Zirs, axlave Camodi!" uyviris
elizbari. icis, riTi mTavrdeba amgvari "nomrebi". daZabuli elodeba
srolis xmas. antons, Zirmomtvreulis nacvlad, koka-kolas sxva boTli
auRia meti ra yria sangris fskerze da Tavze idgams, rogorc
elizbarma daidga weRan, wamier zmanebaSi. isic, elizbariviT, nela,
gaubedavad Slis xelebs. boTli odnav irweva, rogorc zmanebaSi irweoda,
elizbaris Tavze. "CemTan xarT magrebi, Tqve damplebo ambobs antoni
magram fexebs ver momWamT mainc". zustad iseve laparakobs, rogorc
elizbari laparakobda zmanebaSi: daZabuli, jvarcmuliviT xelebgaSlili,
maRla, boTlisken Tvalebapyrobili, nikapacaxcaxebuli... uceb mTeli taniT
Seqandeba, oRond, elizbarisgan gansxvavebiT, namdvilad gangmiruli
snaiperis tyviiT. boTli sangarSi Camogordeba. TviTon ki, jer fexze dgas.
ar icis rom mkvdaria, magram ukve mkvdaria. natyviarSi Suqi gasdis. "anton,
Camodi! axlave Camodi! Camodi-meTqi!" uyviris damfrTxali, dabneuli
elizbari. danarCenebi pirdaRebulni ascqerian. zogs, vin icis, Surs kidec
imisi. antoni jer muxlebze daecema, mere gverdze gadmoqandeba da koka-
kolas carieli boTliviT Camogordeba sangarSi. sangarSi samarisebuli
siCume dgas. ismis, rogor akakunebs kodala sangris ukan saswaulad
gadarCenil alvis xeze. etyoba, miakvlia sanatreli matlis samyofels. axla
aRar moeSveba, xeSi gava, am sityvis pirdapiri mniSvnelobiT. arc icis da
arc ainteresebs, ra xdeba qvemoT, miwaze. araferic ar xdeba, rac ukve ar
momxdara da rac kidev ar moxdeba. elizbari Tavis zurgCanTaze zis isev,
magram amjerad antonis Tavi udevs kalTaSi. aTasSi erTxel, TiTqos
uneblied mousvams xolme natyviarze sisxliT gaJRenTil cxvirsaxocs. ar
icis, sxva ra moimoqmedos, riTi miexmaros mkvdars. natyviaridan sisxli jer
kidev moJonavs, magram TandaTanobiT deddeba, sqeldeba... antons mSvidi,
dawynarebuli saxe adevs, gegonebaT sZinavso. elizbari, repinis ivane
mrisxanesaviT, TvalebgaSterebuli zis. Tan Svilis Tavs ixutebs orive
xeliT. antonic misi Svilia. ras gauyvia antoni da liziko. garkveuli
TvalsazrisiT, lizikoc mokvda antonTan erTad... zis SvilTa mkvleli,
yrmaTa Semmusvreli... zis samaresaviT dadumebul sangarSi cocxlad
damarxuli da fiqrobs: xuTi wuTis win, antonis aq Camoyvana megona Cemi
erTaderTi movaleoba, axla ki, aRar vici, mkvdari mainc rogor gavarido
aqaurobaso; Tu rame mevaleba, esRa mevalebao... magram, davuSvaT da, marTla
waiRo aqedan cxedari, vis Cautanos?! ukeTur mamas?! ugunur cols?! Tumca,
antons aRarc coli hyavs, aRarc mama. misi coli sxvas misces, mama TviTon
moikveTa. da saerTodac bibliur garemoSi varT yvelani moxvedrilni. cis
frinvelni da velTa nadirni jijgnian gvamebs. udaburdeba mTeli qveyana.
raxania, buksac ayvireben da niSansac iZlevian, magram "boroteba da didi
ubedureba" Seuferxeblad moiswrafis CrdiloeTidan. sacaa dahkravs Jami da
aRar erqmeva am adgils afxazeTi, aramed sasaklao... vazs mtevani ar SerCeba,
leRvis xes leRvi... gavifantebiT Semodgomis foTlebiviT da,
Tavlafdasxmulni, movedebiT qveyanas, raki Cvenive nebiT mivatovebT, rac
mama-papisTvis ukuniTi ukunisamde miucia ufals... raki dididan pataramde da
winaswarmetyvelidan mRvdlamde, yvelani momxveWelebad da yalbismqnelebad
viqeciT... zereled vmkurnalobT qveynis Wrilobebs da arki gvrcxvenia
TvalTmaqcobisa. mSvidobaao, gaviZaxiT, da ar aris mSvidoba. gavimarjvebTo
da, aha, erTxel kidev davmarcxdiT... ki batono, ukvdavia samarTlianoba,
magram, jerjerobiT, usamarTloba zeimobs yvelgan drng usamarTloba sjis
da wonis drng znec aman Segvicvala da gzidanac aman gadagvacdina...
sinaTlisken ki ara, sibnelisken wagviZRva usamarTlod Semomwyrali ufali
drng tanjva-wamebis ormoSi Cagvyara da saukuno wyvdiadSi Cagvmarxa
mkvdrebiviT... ki ar agvxsna, kidev ufro dagvimZima borkili... mowamluli
wyali gvasva da abzinda gvaWama drng mxolod da mxolod imitom, didad
wodebulma aleqsandre pirvelma, Cvenma mefem, mefuri simtkice da
gamWriaxoba rom ver gamoiCina Tavis droze da ver daayrevina briyv Svilebs
Tavebi, Tvalebi ver amoSanTa xarb cols da ZmiswulTa gulRviZli ver aWama
gaTavxedebul Zmebs... axla raRa drosia! mkis dro gavida, gasrulda
zafxulic, da aha, mTeli Cveni Wirnaxuli, mTeli Cveni monapovari: mkvdari
antoni da majebgadaWrili liziko... drng... kodala ki akakunebs, akakunebs
gauCereblad. sangris zemoT, mokrialebul caze SiSveli angelozebi
dafrinaven, dasrialeben mercxlebiviT. drng. xesTan Camjdar komkavSirel
gogonas ki, cxela. zedmetad Tbilad acvia aqaurobisTvis. xamad aris da
imitom. Tavidanve unda gaexada, Tundac, welszeviT. magram, sxva dros... axla
ukve wasvlis droa. elodebian. ara uSavs, momavlisTvis gaiTvaliswinebs. omi
rom damTavrdeba, sagangebod Camova aq dasasveneblad. qarTvelebi, gindac
marTlebi iyvnen, sad gagonila samoTxis miTviseba?! samoTxe yvelasia. iman
ra daaSava, vinc murmanskSi daibada?! mokled, aravis awyens aq dasveneba,
ginda morwmune iyavi, ginda urwmuno. es sakavSiro mniSvnelobis samoTxea,
yvelas ekuTvnis. marTla Tu miscemen binas, saerTod darCeba aq, oRond,
Tavis SterukasTan erTad. komkavSirel gogonas saxe uxurs. isev
TvaldaxuWuli zis. damTxveuli qarTveli misken mofrinavs TiTqos,
xelebgaSlili, magram wamsve qreba es ucnauri Cveneba. afxazuri mzis
simxurvale Taflis sizantiT eRvreba sayeloSi da nel-nela, Semparavi
sijiutiT micocavs qvemoT. ZuZus kertebi TavisTavad iberebian, ivsebian
mSfoTvare, Wirveuli sicarieliT. haers moxaluli mzesumzirisa da
moweuli TuTunis suni dahkravs, swored ise, rogorc mis kazaks. Tvali rom
gaaxilos da is dainaxos, usityvod danebdeba. piriqiT, Seevedreba,
damipyario. vinc ra unda Tqvas... Tavfexianad Seiwovs, Seisrutavs Tavis
patara sxeulSi, mzesumzirisa da TuTunis sunianad. bage TavisTavad epoba.
nela, nawil-nawil swydebian erTmaneTs moulodnelad gawebili tuCebi.
ixsnebian sapasuxo vnebis misaRebad. arafers, aravis, magram mainc elian
mouTmenlad. TavisTavad iSlebian iqamde mWidrod mityupuli fexebic da
misi mtkice, utyuari, magram mainc qalurad lbili, mgrZnobiare xeli
TavisTavad miikvlevs gzas misi sxeulis yvelaze idumali adgilisken.
gveliviT iolad da mizandasaxulad micocavs perangis qveS, sartylis qveS,
qveda sacvlis rezinis qveS, miiswrafis akrZaluli netarebisken, notio
sinazisken, nazi usasrulobisken, nela, TandaTan, mTeli arsebiT, samudamod...
drng.
III
 xval Sin wavalT. eqims velaparake Tqva elisom da skamidan wamodga
aba, Sen ici. WkuiT iyavi. saRamos kidev moval...
lizikom ar upasuxa. isev Wers iyo miSterebuli. majebdabintuli da
gadajvaredinebuli xelebi mkerdze miexutebina, kesarias TviTnakeTi
TojinebiviT.
ei, ombre! Sen gelaparakebi Tma mouCeCa elisom, nazad, gaubedavad.
Zalian undoda ekocna, magram bolo wams mainc Seikava Tavi, ar icoda,
esiamovneboda Tu ara misi kocna lizikosac.
makoce uTxra lizikom me kocnis Tavi ara maqvs.
 elisom loyaze akoca, mouxerxeblad, ugemurad, da tirili rom ar
avardnoda, saswrafod gamovida palatidan. lizikoc maSinve wamodga, ris
vaivaglaxiT gaitana skami aivanze da dajda, fexebi ki, moajirs miabjina.
skami mxolod ori ukana fexiT idga filaqanze. aivani saavadmyofos ezos
gadahyurebda. ezoSi, mavTulis Robes aqeT, asfaltmosxmuli bilikis patara
naglejiRaa darCenili. bilikis gaswvriv, oRond, marto erT mxares,
ramdenime wablis xe garindula. asfaltze mwvane burZgliani wablebi yria.
mavTulis Robis iqiT mindori iwyeba, kaWaWgadavlili. mindvris boloSi
grZeli qedi wamowolila mxarTeZoze. lizikos egona, eCveneboda, da
uneburad Tvali daxuWa. isev Tavis samarcxvino gaqceva gaaxsenda. maSinac
zustad aseTi qedisken garboda, mamamTilis manqanidan gadamxtari, zustad
aseT mindorze. uneburad, kaWaWis mSrali, xorkliani Sexebac ki igrZno da
gaaJrJola. aseve mosdeboda kaWaWi misTvis ukanasknel brZolis vels, mis
vaterloos, romelic, savsebiT samarTlianad, usityvo da sruli
kapitulaciiT damTavrda bolos, radgan amisTvis emzadeboda, Turme, mTeli
cxovreba, damarcxebisTvis wvrTnidnen sul, rogorc Sin, iseve gareT, anu,
guls ki ar emsaxureboda, rogorc egona, aramed zed emsxvreoda, rogorc
nasroli boTli betonis kedels, da usasrulod itanjeboda erTi
bednieri dRis gansacdelad, Tumca, TviTonac mSvenivrad icoda, arasodes
gaTendeboda is "erTi dRe", romelic cxovrebaSi Sesatyuebeli sakenki
aRmoCnda da meti araferi. magram, madloba RmerTs, mosaxdeni moxda da
gasarkvevi gairkva. araviTari saidumlo ar arsebobs. Cvenve vasaidumlebT
yvelafers, ukve cxvirwatexilebma, usvindisod rom vimarTloT Tavi uxilavi
msajulis winaSe. amitom, sjobs pirdapir iTqvas saTqmeli: ver ivarga
lizikom! verc mSoblis molodini gaamarTla, verc qmrisa. garedan atlasi,
Signidan araferi, futuro aRmoCnda. ase rom, umal sicocxles moiswrafavs,
vidre sxvebs gadaabralebs sakuTar umaqnisobas, gnebavT, uzneobas. yovel
SemTxvevaSi, axla namdvilad aseTia. damarcxebam erTbaSad gamoamzeura
mTeli misi mankiereba, rasac Tavad, saboloo damarcxebamde, yvelanairad
Cqmalavda, malavda, ar epueboda, radgan jer kidev sjeroda gamarjvebisa.
axla ki, araTu gamarjvebaze, saerTod brZolaze fiqric sisulelea. win
aRaraferia. win kldovani da ukacuri kunZulia mxolod, sicarielis,
simartovis okeaneSi Cakarguli, rogorc es saavadmyofo am kaWaWgadavlil
mindorSi. TviTon ki, kldeze davardnili marcvalia (elisos gauvarda
niskartidan) da rogorc ar unda swyurodes sicocxle, an mzeze gamoifiteba
tyuilubralod, an elisoze Wkviani Citis CiCaxvSi aRmoCndeba da ukvalod
gaqreba am qveynidan. ukeTes SemTxvevaSi, skintlad gardaqmnili, TeTr laqad
daaCndeba am kunZuls. arafris mTqmeli, arafris maniSnebeli, arafris
damadasturebeli TeTri laqa iqneba qvis nacrisfer zedapirze. magram, nuTu
marTla misi bralia yvelaferi?! gana uimisod ukeTesi iqneboda samyaro?!
Tavs ki ar imarTlebs, ubralod, ainteresebs. sainteresoa. gana kacobriobis
mTavar sazrunavad, gansakuTrebiT, bolo aswleulSi, Tundac, Sefarulad,
araoficialurad, uadamiano adamianis Camoyalibeba ar iTvleboda?! iqneba
aman ver gaigo sworad?! magram gana mamamisic ki, mwerlur gamarjvebad ar
uTvlida sakuTar Tavs, rac ufro met simxecesa da sibilwes aRmoaCenda
adamianSi?! Sedegmac ar daayovna. esec saerTaSoriso, sakacobrio
eqsperimentis erT-erTi nayofia da sxva araferi. ara, codva, ra Tqma unda,
aqvs, Tundac uneblie, da sasjelsac imsaxurebs, es yvelasTvis naTelia da
ar sWirdeba zedmeti kvleva-Zieba, age, kaWkaWmac daadastura samjer
daiCxavla wablis xeze magram amas sul sxva raRacis Tqma unda da ver
uTqvams, narkomaniviTaa gaTiSuli wamlebisgan, ver mouyria azrisTvis Tavi,
ufro sworad, ver gaugia, ra SuaSia antoni! antoni ratom unda isjebodes
mis gamo. Tumca, ara, verc axla ambobs naTlad. rasakvirvelia, isjeba is,
magram, ratomRac, antonis meSveobiT. aseTi ucnauri sasjeli SeurCia
RmerTma, albaT yvelaze mkacrica da samarTlianic. ese igi, antonis saxiT
arTmevs dRevandelsa da xvalindels, guSindelis daviwyebisTvis. magram,
rac moxda, imave RmerTis nebiT ar moxda?! gana RmerTis karnaxiT ar gadaxta
mamamTilis manqanidanac, rac, upirveles yovlisa, sakuTari uuflebobisa da
mamamTilis uflebamosilebis aRiarebas niSnavda mxolod?! araviTari
mniSvneloba ara aqvs, vin ras fiqrobs gulSi. mTavaria, vin ras sCadis,
Segnebulad Tu misdauneburad. orive SemTxvevaSi, RmerTis nebiT sCadis,
radgan RmerTi ara marto msajulia, aramed warmmarTvelic Cveni
grZnobebisa. anu, wagvmarTavs, raTa dagvsajos. davujerebT dagvsjis, ar
davujerebT da, uaresad! saocari da sawyeni swored is aris, damjeri
gacilebiT mkacrad rom isjeba. aseTia RvTaebrivi samarTali, rasac Cven
(brmebi, sulelebi, umweoni) usamarTlobas veZaxiT da arcki vukvirdebiT,
ramdenad usamarTloni varT Tavad RmerTis mimarT. Cven xom RmerTs vaCeCebT,
rac Tavad gveCoTireba da RmerTisgan moviTxovT xsnas, satanjvelSi Cvenive
nebiT Cacvenilni. magram liziko, rasakvirvelia, amas ar ikadrebs. rogorc
ukve iTqva, umal TviTonve moiswrafavs sicocxles, vidre sxvisi, Tundac,
imave RmerTis imediT Caigdebs gansacdelSi Tavs. lizikosaviT amayi
adamianisTvis namdvilad rom didi Seuracxyofaa am saavadmyofoSi moxvedra,
miT ufro, Tuki SeuracxyofisTvis veravis moTxovs pasuxs da isev Tavs Tu
aumxedrdeba. magram arc amiT Seicvleba rame. mosaxdeni moxda. faqti ki
jiutia. ufro metic, faqts fexebze hkidixar saerTod, Seni gancdebianad.
iqiT gaiZulebs aRiaro da miiRo iseTi, rogoric aris. TviTon gojsac ar
dagiTmobs, iotis odenadac ar Seicvleba da arc imis saSualebas mogcems,
ukeTesad moemzado Tavis dasacavad (Tavis gasamarTleblad!), gaiTxaro
sangari (igive samare), moirgo bakani (Cawve kuboSi!). Tumca, gindac gadrovos,
rogor ginda gacveTili filosofiuri sentenciebiT gaamarTlo axal-axali
uazroba, sibrmave, sidample, sisaZagle?! riTi ginda daupirispirde sakuTar
araraobas?! da mainc... da mainc... da mainc... rac ar unda amazrzeni arseba
iyos, adamiani Secodebasa da TanagrZnobas imsaxurebs mxolod meore
adamianisgan, radgan meorec iseTivea, rogoric pirveli. sul sxvis
molodinSia, zogjer mTeli sicocxlec, da sul sxva SerCeba xolme xelSi.
xolo, mec Tu mkiTxavT, adamiani saerTod arafers ar aSavebs. yalbi fulis
momWrelic angelozia. adamians SeuZlia mxolod Tavs avnos da Tu isjeba,
amis gamo isjeba swored, sulerTia, RmerTisgan Tu sindisisgan. RmerTi da
sindisi erTidaigivea. yovel SemTxvevaSi, ar SeiZleba, usvindisos RmerTi
swamdes da uRmerTos sindisi awuxebdes. ai, rogor aris mowyobili adamiani
yvelaferze ifiqrebs, imaze rom ar ifiqros, ris gamoc am dReSia
Cavardnili... rac Seexeba kaWkaWs, Zalian uxdeba aqaurobas, Tu SeiZleba ase
iTqvas, acocxlebs, magram ranairi sakenkic ar unda dauyaro, siaxloves ar
gagekareba. lizikosgan gansxvavebiT, bolomde inarCunebs velurTa da
mouTvinierebelTa siamayes. magram, sabednierod, lizikosTvis yvelaferi
damTavrda. veluri, mouTvinierebeli kaWkaWiviT Caiqrola misma uazro
sicocxlem... arada, isic sul molodiniT iyo savse, gaurkveveli,
ararealuri molodiniT. iman daipyro, iman gaaogna, gamoTiSa, gamoacalkeva
danarCeni samyarodan da, umweo da umaqnisi, bolos umeTvalyureod miagdo
fsiqiatriulis erT-erT aivanze. axlac uqmad zis da elodeba, ar ki icis,
ras. kacma rom Tqvas, arc ainteresebs amis gageba. piriqiT, afrTxobs,
aSinebs, uaresad agangaSebs SesaZlebeli, Tundac pirobiTi dakonkreteba,
savaraudo dazusteba am yovlis momcveli da yovlis wamlekavi SegrZnebisa.
ufro zustad, kargs arafers elodeba. xolo, cudi imdenia mosalodneli,
urCevnia saerTod ar ifiqros amaze (Tuki es SesaZlebelia), urCevnia mTeli
arsebiT danebdes sakuTar umweobas da umaqnisobas, vidre kidev erTxel
gaibiTuros Tavi ararsebuli gzebis ZiebiT. Tumca, mamamismac rom ar
uTxras, TviTonac mSvenivrad icis, diaxac rom ararsebuli gzebis Ziebaa
adamianoba, Torem, misTvis arasasiamovno situaciidan, virTxac ki daeZebs
gamosavals. rogorc yovelTvis, mama axlac marTalia, magram lizikosac,
rogorc yovelTvis, axlac mzada aqvs pasuxi: ai, erTaderTi gza, romelic
man cxovrebiT daimsaxura arsaidan momavali da arsaiT mimavali gza
ki ara, gzis nagleji, gzis monarCeni, asfaltmosxmuli da wablis mwvane
burZglebiT mofenili...

Sen Tu katlets ar SeWam, ludovikos Sevunaxav. mSieri mova is ubeduri.

vaCnaZis moedanze dgas, Sindis saxre uWiravs da moZraobas awesrigebs Tavisi
WkuiT. im dRes wavedi da vnaxe. aq ras udgexar-meTqi, vin mogca neba,
moZraoba awesrigo-meTqi. arc aravis aukrZalavso. meo, mowodebiT milicieli
ara var, magram vin var, aravin ar iciso... giJi kia, magram Wkvianicaa, sityvas
ver mougeb. adreo, didi kaci viyavio, saqveyno saqmeebi mekiTxebodao... ra
Cumada xar, go, cudze xom ar fiqrob isev? amoigde Tavidan. miafurTxe
eSmaksa... isev es gaZaRlebuli cxovreba gerCios... ("mirCevnia kidec",
gaifiqra lizikom). is qali Seni dedinacvalia, ara? ("dedaCemia" Tqva
lizikom). lamazi qalia. debs ufro gavxarT. rame rom mouvides, erT dRes
ar vicocxleb Tavso... egre vinmes vuyvarde da Tavi movikla? sad geCqareba?
iq ra, dol-garmoniT Segxvdebian?! iq kidev uaresia... erTi mezobeli myavs,
Seni xnisaa, Svidi Tvis gogo hyavs, ukanono, im dRes goris bazarze gauyvania
da aTas maneTadac ver gauyidia... gamskdara tiriliT, amasac movklav da
Tavsac moviklavo... vinc gagikeTa, jer is mokali-meTqi, me miqel-gabrieli
ara var-meTqi... sulelebi xarT axalgazrdebi, arafris fasi ar iciT. Tqvens
adgilas, ise gavuxdidi saqmes, TviTon daxociliyvnen. me ratom unda
movkvde?! xaxvi var, meoredac movide?! aba, uyure, mainc gaurecxavs im
tvingasarecxsa... maro! maro! saiTa xar? xom giTxari, mag fardags xeli ar
mokido-meTqi... or dReSi isev iseTi gaxdeba... ("Sen ra gsjis, qalo, zixar da
maslaaTob arxeinad" saidanRac dauZaxa marom). Tavi qvas gixeTqia.
saRamos adgilze iyos, Torem, ar vici... erTi-ori dRe gafenen, gaarideben
Tvalsa, mere gadaaxveven da Sin waiReben. ase gazides yvelaferi ("netavi
marTla SeiZlebodes tvinis garecxva" gaifiqra lizikom).
wablis xeze isev daiCxavla kaWkaWma.
Cagiwydes xma! ("ratom wyevli? es xom kaWkaWia?!" gaukvirda lizikos).
yvavis mamidaSvili gaxlavT. Tarsia, eg binZuri, ega... dacdili maqvs. eg ro
daiCxavlebs, ar SeiZleba rame ar mewyinos...
 yvelaze kargad antoni baZavda kaWkaWs. CavimalebodiT buCqebSi da
daiwyebda Cxavils. maSinve mofrindebodnen. qviSxeTSi bevri kaWkaWia.
Soriaxlos dasxdebodnen, dabneulebi, gakvirvebulebi, dainteresebulni.
esec xom me ar momigonia?! qvebze davdgebodiT xolme, Sua mdinareSi, saxes
cas mivuSverdiT, xelebs gavSlidiT frTebiviT, da uceb mogvwydeboda
samyaro, zedmeti tvirTiviT... kaWkaWi tyuilad ar Cxavis, raRacas gvauwyebs,
magram Cven ar gvesmis da verc verasodes gavigebT. Cemi neba rom iyos,
misnobis instituts aRvadgendi da sxva yvelanairs davxuravdi... vidre
bunebis enas ar viswavliT, nebismieri codna damRupvelia. eqimi rom
melaparakeba, Tan yuris bibilos isress, eqTans aniSnebs raRacas, rac me ar
unda gavigo. magram es saidumlo enaa da ara saidumlos amosaxsneli. me da
mamas gvqonda elisosTvis da me da elisosac mamasTvis. albaT imaTac
hqondaT CemTvis. ras mimalavdnen?! me imaTTvis araferi damimalavs. yvela
ojaxi Taviseburi saidumloa, magram bolos, advili SesaZlebelia, Tavad
saidumlo naklebad saintereso aRmoCndes sxvebisTvis. Cven TviTon
vazviadebT da vawvrilmanebT yvelafers. xom SeiZleba, meTevzes yvelaze
naklebad Tevzi ainteresebdes?! iqneb Tevzaoba uyvars, Tevzi ara?! iqneb
Tevzaoba Tavdacvis erTgvari xerxia misTvis?! iqneb mxolod ase axerxebs
sakuTari simartovis gadarCenas?! yvelas rodi SeuZlia saaTobiT yuryuti
xidze, mzeSi, wvimaSi... iqneb, Tevzs ki ar elodeba, cols emaleba?! Zia
gobroni mTeli dRe xidze idga xolme, TviTnakeTi ankesiT, da Zia pimeni
dascinoda, Seni colis meti, mainc aravin wamoegeba mag ankeszeo. coli, me
viqnebi Tu sxva, priapuli arsebaa da, TavisTavad, ukve peripetiaa nebismieri
kacis cxovrebaSi da mxolod punikuri keTilsindisierebiT asrulebs Tavis
movaleobas, radgan mowodebiT patronesaa da qmari misTvis, upirveles
yovlisa, TavSesaqcevi, patara da sayvarlad gaburZgnuli pekinezia, magram
TviTonac rom ver amCnevs, ise gardaiqmneba xolme ojaxis diasaxlisidan
penitenciaris zedamxedvelad... mamaCemi meTamaSeboda bavSvobaSi amgvar
sisuleleebs... mTavaria, erTsa da imave asoze iwyebodes yvela ucxo sityva...
didostatia amgvari Steruli TamaSebisa. ai, vin aris saidumlo! gamocana...
Seketilia Tavis xavsmodebul niJaraSi da akakunebs Tavis daJangul
"erikaze"... rom vuyvarvar, imitomac ver mitans. rogorc eliso ambobs, mets
eloda Cemgan. yovel SemTxvevaSi, imas namdvilad ar eloda, rac moxda...
mTeli cxovreba mglis Tavze kiTxulobda saxarebas. Cveni urTierToba
normaluri rom ar aris, bunebrivia, magram mizezi ar aris bunebrivi.
"keTilismsurvelebic" uaresad agiJeben Turme. mainc wamoscda elisos.
saerTod unda gadavWra telefonio. erTs daurekavs, etyoba, Tqveni
romanebidan iswavla aseTi kargi qalobao... is ki, mainc akakunebs. meTevzisa
ar iyos, isic Tavis simartoves ufrTxildeba. kakuniT icavs Tavs, kakuniT
afrTxobs keTil feriebs. magram mamaCemis mokvla ki ar undaT imaT,
ubralod ainteresebT, Sxamis ra dozas uZlebs saerTod adamiani da kerZod
mwerali. es aris da es. magram, amjerad, cota xniT mocda mouwevT. rogorc
eliso ambobs, mwerali saomradaa wasuli. vai, Cveni mtris brali! aba, amis
mere gabedos sxvisi miwa-wylis miTviseba! marTalia, es jer mxolod elisos
varaudia, magram Zalian hgavs simarTles. an aqamde rogor ikavebda Tavs.
iTmina, iTmina da bolos mainc gamovida moTminebidan. Cemi zurgCanTa wauRia,
bavSvobis droindeli. axla TviTon icis, rasac izams. jer gadamTiels
utirebs dedas da mere Sinaursac mixedavs. aravis ar SearCens... ras? ras ar
SearCens? iqneb Svilis gaubedurebas?! ara, mamaCemo! kaSelebs TavianTi
kaSelobac eyofaT satanjvelad da savalalod. SeiZleba, sxvebze ukeTesebic
aRmoCndnen bolos. iseTebi arian, rogorebic unda iyvnen. arc fers icvlian,
arc znes, arc Citobaze ocneboben da arc Tagvoba eTakilebaT. vinc sxvas
amtyunebs, Zalauneburad, Tavs imarTlebs. TavismarTleba ki, damnaSavis
Tvisebaa... saerTod, ras niSnavs damnaSave, icis vinmem?! an yvelani erTnairad
damnaSaveni varT, an yvelani erTnairad udanaSauloni, magram esec arafers
niSnavs, radgan saboloo jamSi, mainc yvela erTnairad itanjeba, mtyuanica
da marTalic... da ase iqneba, vidre marTla ar Seicvleba raRaca... viTom ki
ara, marTla, seriozulad... Tu aravin mogvemateba, viRaca unda mogvakldes
aucileblad. de, me viyo is viRaca... mkvlelebTan erT sufraze ar
davsxdebiTo, magram amiT xom Cemi upatronobac aRiares?! isinic ise
momeqcnen, rogorc upatronos ekadreba... Cems iqiT mainc aRar gaqvs gzao...
CitiviT xar maxeSi gabmulio... ukanaskneli naZiralac rom ver warmoidgens,
imasac vikadreb da Cemsas mainc gavitano... mamaSens plagiatorad da
samSoblos moRalated gamovacxadeb, Sens debil qmars Cveulebriv
Tanamedrove metraked, Sen ki, fulis bozado... mere iareT sasamarTlodan
sasamarTloSi da amtkiceT Tqveni simarTleo... magram imis gamarTleba ufro
SeiZleba, vidre Cemi... imas mizani hqonda da Tavisi binZuri miznis misaRwevad
aravis erideboda, arafers iSurebda, arc limonaTs, arc namcxvars, arc
naZvis xis mosawvevs da arc TvalxuWuna Tojinas... me ki, Worikana
dedakacebis SemeSinda da Cemi yvelaze ukeTilSobilesi movaleobis
aRsasruleblad, mamisa da qmris Rirsebis dasacavad, yvelaze uRirsi gza
avirCie... yvelaze iolic... kniaJna qeTusiasi ar iyos, mec maSinve loginSi
Caviwvine mamisa da qmris damxvreti... Tumca, sinamdvileSi, me movkali
oriveni, me mivayene saxalxod kedelTan mamac da qmaric... iman mxolod
iaraRis xmareba maswavla, rogorc ufrosma da Cemze metad gamowrTobilma
am saqmeSi... magram mec rom bunebiT mkvleli ar viyo, veranairi kaSeli ver
Camadeninebda amas... guSin... guSin?! SeiZleba, dRes. SeiZleba, sulac
qviSxeTSi... aRar maxsovs... ciyvma gairbina bilikze, raRacnairad uxalisod,
duned, ugangaSod, da vinc Tvali mohkra, yvela mosaklavad gamoekida,
avadmyofic, eqimic, sanitaric, mnaxvelic... albaT isic avad iyo da
wamlisTvis movida, moakiTxa adamians, bolo imeds... iman ki, Tofi daaxala
da Tvali gadmougdo... cota-cota yvelani mkvlelebi varT. mec, antonic,
elisoc, mamaCemic... imaTze rom araferi vTqvaT. jer marto me ramdenjer
mdomebia, Tundac, mamaCemis mokvla. imitom rom, arafriT ar SeiZleba, imasac
ar miuZRodes "iotis odena" wvlili dedaCemis sikvdilSi. is ki, arxeinad
mReroda. ra amRerebs adamians abazanaSi?! albaT sakuTari siSiSvlisa da
sipataravis SegrZneba. magram safrTxe rom elodebodes, xom ar
gaSiSvldeboda?! hoda, raxan gaSiSvlda, etyoba, arafris eSinia. martoa
sakuTar TavTan. zedmeti yvelaferi moiSora. Sin aris, mSobliur cixe-
simagreSi, oRond, mkvlelebTan erTad, rac jer ar icis da amitomac mReris,
magram male Seityobs da aRar eqneba samRerlad saqme. eli eli elisukaa waa
a miisvi zurgze saa a apo oo niii mReris arxeinad. elisukac mxolod
daZaxebas elodeba. droze qeni, Sebrundi, wesierad moixare, sad mcalia
amdenio uaresad abruebs, aRadavebs yalbi guliTadobiT da is debilic
rom daujerebs, ese igi, Setrialdeba da "wesierad" moixreba, gvelaZua
elisuka celofanis fardas Camoglejs uceb da Tavze gadaafarebs isedac
dabrmavebulsa da dabneul Tanamecxedres. Tanamecxedre jer gauZaliandeba,
gaubrazdeba, egoneba, mexumreba, meTamaSeba ukve arcTu ise axalgazrda
colio, magram male mixvdeba imis siverages da, rasakvirvelia, maSinve
mSvelels uxmobs. vin SeiZleba iyos mSveleli?! Tanac, sakuTar ojaxSi?!
TavisTavad cxadia, Svili. erTaderTi. ganumeorebeli. misi siamaye da imedi.
liza, liza, lizaaaa Rrialebs damfrTxali, Tavzardacemuli, wamxdari...
liza ki, rasakvirvelia, winaswar momzadebuli, karTan momlodine, giJiviT
Seuvardeba da xerxis pirian, puris saWrel dinas Cascems zurgSi, erTxel,
orjer, uTvalavjer... vidre eliso ZaliT ar gaagdebinebs xelidan mamis
sisxliT gazinTul danas... abazanis buRSi dganan, molandebebs hgvanan,
alqajebs... cxeli, qafqafa wyali, dRes egzom sanatreli, cxenis floqvebis
TqaraTquriT esxmeba celofanis fardaSi gaxveul gvams. cxenebis
dafeTebulma remam gadaTela, miwaSi Catkepna, Canaya Cveni saxelovani
mwerali... Rirsia. daimsaxura. oxunjobasa da enamoswrebulobaSi
ejibrebodnen mTeli sicocxle isa da misi Tanamokalmeebi erTmaneTs, vidre
Cven viryvnebodiT, vecemodiT, vnadgurdebodiT dRiTidRe, TandaTan da
safuZvlianad. xma ar amoeReba. hoda, gaCumdes. adamianis xeli ase ver
daasaxiCrebda. alibad esec kmara. sahaero katastrofis anda stiqiuri
ubedurebis msxverplni gamoiyurebian ase. Sesabralisad ki ara, amazrzenad...
abazanidan wiTeli qafiani wyali gadmodis da, gamalebuli, TiTqos sakuTar
Tavs unda Caaswroso, bzrial-bzrialiT mixrialebs trapis xvrelSi...

raze fiqrob, go? erTi saaTia gelaparakebi da, Senc ar momikvde... ar

gesmis Tu ar gsiamovnebs Cemi laparaki? ("arafers ar vfiqrob, gismenT"
Tqva lizikom). ra TqvenobiT melaparakebi, naCxubrebi xom ara varT?! lena
mqvian... ("deida lena... xom SeiZleba, deida dagiZaxoT? deida lena, iciT ra
aris mTavari? mTavaria, araviTari urTierToba ar gqondeT arc sityvieri
znedacemul, garyvnil adamianTan... gindac Seniani iyos... miT ufro
SenianTan... axlos ar gaikaroT meZavi, loTi da narkomani... mxolod ase
moereviT borotebas... miteveba ki ara, miutevloba... sxvanairad Tqvenc meZavi,
loTi da narkomani iqnebiT RmerTisTvis... gindaT? ar mogbezrdaT? me
mombezrda" Tqva lizikom). kargi, gena, rogorc gindodes... Tvali
geWiroso da, mec imitom vtrialeb Soriaxlos... ("Tvali geWiros da
itriale" gaawyvetina lizikom). egre rogor SeiZleba, gena... egre rogor
SeiZleba! cota mouWiT nervebs, kaci ver daglaparakebiaT, eklada xarT
qceulni... mSobelma gagalaRaT da imitom... egre rogor SeiZleba... magaliTad,
Tvals ratom ar axel? eg raRas niSnavs? ras uzixar ase TvaldaxuWuli?
Tvalebi gtkiva Tu grcxvenia? gvipasuxeT qalbatono... Sen gekiTxebian! ("ase
ukeTesad gxedavT" gaeRima lizikos).
 cota marTla unda movuWiro nervebs. magram rac moxda, aucileblad unda
momxdariyo. madloba RmerTs... Tundac, ase gaxsnilad, uniRbod rom
davnaxvebodiT erTmaneTs... ra iqneba, sulerTia, oRonod, is aRar iyos, rac
iyo. aramarto eqimi, sxvac bevri Seecdeba Cvens gacurebas... samkvdro-
sasicocxlo omi mZvinvarebs... mamaCemic ki CaiTria. gamoaZvrina niJaridan,
rogorc tkbilad moubarma enam... warmogidgeniaT! omSi wasula, Cemi
zurgCanTiT. yofna, ar yofna... ai, ra aris dRes sakiTxavi! anda, eqimma
marTla ar icis, ra mWirs. saidan unda icodes?! me bavSvi iqamde gavaCine,
vidre aq momiyvandnen. vin momiyvana? ra saocaria, araferi ar maxsovs. arada,
viRacam namdvilad momiyvana. ise rogor aRmovCndebodi aq?! viTom noqarma?!
rogor SeeSinda im ubedurs. ai, is momwons-meTqi da, yvela erTnairiao,
zomiTac da feriTaco. maSin, romelic ginda, is momeci-meTqi. vidre xurdas
damibrunebda, ukve gadaWrili mqonda orive maja. iqve. adgilze.
daufiqreblad. sad wavidodi ukeTes adgilas... mamasTan?! qmarTan?!
samarTebeli iatakze davagde, xelebi ki daxlis SuSaze davawyve, daxlis
SuSas vawvebodi majebiT, noqarma sisxli ar dainaxos-meTqi, magram sisxls
ra gaaCerebs... gamococda, gamococda, gamococda da uzarmazar gubed dadga
SuSaze. ra qeni, Se idioto, Se idioto, Se idiotoo... adamianis saxe aRar
edo im ubedurs. sxvaTaSoris, gaTxovil qals, gindac ganaTxovars, Tavis
mosaklavi adgili mainc unda hqondes, sxvaze rom araferi vTqvaT.
magaliTad, Cemi bavSvi WotorSia, katos didedasTan. ar icodi? mama xar, Se
marTla idioto... rasakvirvelia, menatreba. magram jer ver moxerxdeba Cveni
Sexvedra. rogorme xelSi unda aviyvano Tavi. marTalia deida lena. Zalian
gavlaRdiT am bolo dros. magram dedoba marto bavSvis gaCena ar aris.
elisos bavSvi ar gauCenia, magram dedaa. sxvaTaSoris, marto elisos
undoda, gameCina. magram iqneb eqimi marTalia?! iqneb marTla momeSala
muceli?! ki magram, rom maxsovs?! sul Tvalwin rom midgas imis saxe?! guSin
xom momiyvana elisom?! ra suleli var! guSin xelSi ar meWira! am saRamosac
momiyvans albaT. biWia Tu gogo? rasakvirvelia, gogo. ara, biWi. ar maxsovs.
eliso mova da metyvis. TavisTavad moxda ase. TavisTavad xdeba yvelaferi.
aravin ar Tqvas... Tumca, siyvaruli didi Zalaa. gaaCnia, vin giyvars. bevri
unda daTmo cotasTvis. ufro Sens sazianod, vidre sasargeblod. rac me
Cavidine, Tuki marTla Cavidine, sasacilodac ar eyofaT xvalindel gogoebs.
Cvens skolaSi pirvelad SaSubeSa Team gaixada da garicxes, magram meore
semestrSi ukve maswavleblebic ixdidnen. viRacis bneli mSobeli mogvivarda
benzinis baloniT, dedabudianad unda gadagwvaTo, arada, samneo
ganyofilebis gamge ukve fuls adebinebda SedarebiT gamosul mSoblebs
striptizisTvis saWiro inventaris SesaZenad. erTi Cveulebrivi epizodia
Cveulebrivi melodramisa. romeli erTi gavixseno. yvela erTnairia. magram
mainc is dro jobda. cotas vswavlobdiT da did gamocdilebas viRebdiT
mSobliuri rudunebiTa da pedagogiuri SorsmWvretelobiT SerCeuli video-
kasetebis meSveobiT. iyo erTi oromtriali, kasetebis gacvla-gmocvla,
gaTxoveba-gamoTxoveba, gayidva-gamosyidva, gadawera-gadamravleba... mTel
qalaqs movirbendiT xolme CvenTvis sasurveli kasetisTvis. mamaCemi
gafxorili dadioda. viRas axsovda wigni. an romel wignSi waikiTxavdiT,
rac am kasetebze xdeboda... xan, viTom, didad dafasebul saxelmwifo
moxeles narkomani meZavi uyvardeboda da, ra vici, raRas ar kisrulobda,
erT adgils Tu aalokvinebda is narkomani meZavi. aba, ra ggoniaT! Tuki
siyvaruli brZensac agiJebs, saxelmwifo moxele vin migdia... bolos
kontrabandistobac daiwyo Tavis dulcineas gulisTvis. narkotiki
gadahqonda erTi adgilidan meoreze. Sin ki, angelozi coli da sami
erTmaneTze bunCula Svili elodeboda. rodis mova, dediko, mamiko? ar
scalia, genacvaleT, mamaTqvens, saxelmwifo saqmeebiTaa dakavebuli. am dros,
marTla dakavebulia maTi mamiko. ufro sworad, gakavebuli hyavT narkomani
meZavis damqaSebs, dasorsolebul geroins tenian swor nawlavSi... magram,
erTxelac iqneba, geroini nawlavSi gaixsneba da magra daaqliavebs
saxelmwifo moxeles. aba ba ba ba... veRar atrialebs enas. saidan gaCnda
amdeni narkotikuli nivTiereba Tqvens swor nawlavSio aqeT-iqidan
ekiTxebian sabaJos, policiis, sasazRvro departamentis Tu uSiSroebis
TanamSromlebi iqneba, Cvenc gamovkraT xeli raRacaso is ki, aba ba ba
ba... anda, kidev ukeTesi, TeTrkanian keTilSobil qalbatons Savkaniani banZi
uyvardeba, Tanac, homoseqsuali... siyvarulzea gaTvlili yvelaferi,
sulerTia, kacis da qalis, kacisa da kacis Tu qalisa da qalis siyvarulze,
mTavaria, uyvardeT, anu, undodeT erTmaneTi... xoda, siyvarulis saxeliT, ara
marto sqess icvlis keTilSobili qalbatoni, aramed kansac... TeTrkaniani
Savkaniani xdeba, ubrundeba pirvelyofil sawyiss, cxoveluri idumalebis
gamoqvabuls, tamtamebis xmaze da saritualo koconebis mewamul
gamonaSuqze... ai, amgvar sisuleleebs gvatenidnen, fafasaviT, fafasTan
erTad... me, piradad, yelamde var... madlobT... magram Tuki marTla giyvars?!
xom SeiZleba, marTla giyvardes Cveulebrivi, normaluri, mama-papuri
siyvaruliT?! rac Zvelia cudicaa?! maSin, ratom daeZeben dRes antikvarul
nivTebs ase gamgelebulni?! ratomaa samarcxvino, vTqvaT, Zveli avejisa Tu
Zveli xaliCis msgavsad, Zveli siyvarulic ainteresebdes viRacas?! qali
iseTia, rogori kacic uwevs gverdiT. aravisze naklebi ar viqnebodi. ra Tqma
unda, xasiaTic Semecvleboda albaT, TandaTanobiT, nawilobriv mainc...
dedaCemic mZime xasiaTisa yofila. mamaCems rom wahyolia, dedamisi (bebiaCemi)
Tavs iklavda Turme, mTlad gadarevs im sawyal giJpoetaso... magram saidan
vici es ambavi me?! romelma Citma momitana?! deda, rasakvirvelia, ar metyoda,
patara viyavi Zalian. bebia dedaze adre mokvda. vis aZlevs xels, amgvar
informacias rom vflobde me?! mamas an elisos. an orives erTad. sabralo
eliso. isev eliso, yvelgan, yvelaferSi... imanac bevri daTmo siyvarulis
gulisTvis da, saboloo jamSi, mainc Tavis sazianod, vidre sasargeblod. me
maZleven wesieri col-qmrobis magaliTs, Torem cocxlad SeWamdnen albaT
erTmaneTs... eliso zedmeti msxverplia... sazarbazne xorci... me medidguleba,
Torem, bartyiviT umweoa. RmerTo, mimaniSne, maswavle, rogor vuSvelo!
aqedan gaval Tu ara, unda davelaparako, gulwrfelad, mSvidad, yovelgvari
scenebis gareSe... aRaraa amis dro. dedaze ufro dedao... vin Tqva? vis
uTxra? ar maxsovs. ar vici. araferi ar vici. rac ar vici, is vici mxolod.
orivem unda gavxsnaT frCxilebi. sul kvarcxlbekze dgoma ubedurebaa. vinme
mainc giyurebdes. vis raSi Wirdebi?! vin rad gagdebs?! xalxma ukve moinela.
axal-axali gmiri da msxverpli sWirdeba yoveldRe, cocxali, sisxliT
gatiknuli... moiZre gvirgvini, Camoibane grimi da Caujeqi mamamTils
kalTaSi... miyevi cxovrebis dinebas, iberiidan iberniamde da ukan, iberniidan
iberiamde... sanaZleo, koreqtura egonebaT da mainc ar gaasworeben, kidev
ufro didi Secdomis SiSiT. ase varT yvelani. Secdomas vamCnevT, magram ar
vasworebT (arc vamowmebT), gvrcxvenia, uaresi Secdoma ar davuSvaT... arada,
Secdoma TavisTavad ar arsebobs, Tu adamianma ar Caidina, ar dauSva... Tu
adamianma ar Tqva, maincdamainc, es aris Secdomao... gansxvaveba isaa, rom
rasac sCadis, TavisTvis sCadis, da rasac ambobs, sxvebisTvis ambobs...
amitomac, yvela xedavs, yvela maSinve amCnevs mis namoqmedars, misi naTqvami
ki aravis esmis... erTi. ori. sami. oTxi. xuTi. eqvsi. Svidi. rva. cxra. aTi.
TerTmeti. Tormeti. cameti... uyureT erTi, ra ambiT Cxavis! etyoba, micno...
ver vxedav, sad zis... ver vxedav, magram vgrZnob. rogor unda davinaxo
TvaldaxuWulma, haaa?! deida lena... Tqven gekiTxebiT qalbatono... ra saerTo
aqvs kaWkaWs yvavTan?! me Tu mkiTxavT, araviTari. yvavi debilia. Tanac
yrantalebs. es ki, Cxavis, CviliviT. ra gaCxavlebso, dahyvirian braziani
dedebi Cvilebs, ras yrantalebo ki ara, ra gaCxavlebso... ufro niWiericaa.
nebismier melodias imaxsovrebs Turme nebismieri qarTuli filmidan,
nebismier ginebas nebismier enaze, nebismier sazepiros ganaTlebis
saministroSi Sedgenil nebismieri programidan... rac mTavaria, uSecdomod
SeuZlia gamoarCios yalbi margaliti namdvili margalitebis zRvidan.
fefesaviT, imasac yalbi urCevnia da imitom. ufro brWyvialebs. me ki, asamde
ver davTvale uSecdomod... deida lenas laparakma yvelaferi gaafuWa, magram
isic vikiTxoT, deida lena ram gaafuWa ase uimedod. namdvilad me maniSnebs
raRacas. deida lena ki ara, kaWkaWi. magram raRa drosia! bolo yvelafers
agvirgvinebs. ToTxmeti. TxuTmeti. Teqvsmeti. Cvidmeti. yviTeli peplebi Tavs
ki ar imkvdaruneben, rogorc Cven gvgonia, ase ixocebian. uazro, umizno
freniT dauZlurebulni, gamofitulni cvivian da mere verafriT veRar
axerxeben afrenas. tyuilad afarfateben frTebs, notio mtvers ibertyaven
sikvdilis win. mec pepelasaviT var, sakuTar mtverSi vgdivar da amaod
vafarfateb frTebs... ara, veRarc vafarfateb, gulze maqvs dakrefili,
xelebiviT, da mival, miviparebi... Tvrameti. cxrameti... odnav Tu avcdi miwas,
maSinve gamsresen, fexiT, xeliT, qviT, joxiT... rac xelSi moxvdebaT...
ginaxavT, momakvdav peplis garSemo Cacucquli bavSvebi?! odesRac imaTnairi
bavSvi iyo eqimic, deida lenac, uCinmaCini maroc da am Tavgzadakarguli
cxovrebis moxalise regulatori ludovikoc... ocdaori. ara, ocdaerTi. fu,
isev SemeSala. imitom rom, sisuleleebze vfiqrob. gawafulni arian am
saqmeSi. ki ar arian, varT. Tavidanve viwafebiT yvelani. raRas ar vxocavdiT
qviSxeTSi, peplebio, xoWoebio, kaliebio, nemsiylapiebio, krazanebio,
bayayebio... gvelebsac ki... arafers ar vaWaWanebdiT irgvliv... mokle,
vercxlisferi gvelebi icis iq... arcerTi cxoveli ar iqneba bavSvze
cnobismoyvare da bavSvze daundobeli, miwis qveS Cayveba WianWvelas da iq
mouTavebs xels... erTi. ori. sami. oTxi. xuTi. eqvsi. samagierod, cxovrebac
ufro rTuli aqvs, ufro saxifaToc. xoda, Tavidanve iZens saWiro codna-
gamocdilebas. magram codna-gamocdilebis gamoyenebasac Sno unda, yvela ver
gamoiyenebs, rogorc antonma ver gamoiyena... Svidi. rva. SeiZleba, waxdes
bolo wuTas. cxra. aTi. erTbaSad daaviwydes. antonsac amitom ar gamouvida
araferi... Tavi Seircxvina... TerTmet. Tormet... Tormeti vTqvi. ara, ar
miTqvams. maSin axla vityvi. Tormet. camet. ToTxmet. TxuTmet... iman ki, me
damiyena win, farad amifara da ai, vin unda mokla, Sen rom marTla kaci
iyoo Wkua daariga, gzaze daayena Svili... magram antons araferi aRar
esmoda. Teqvsmet. gaSterebuli idga. Cvidmet. pirdaRebuli. Tvramet. orive,
oriveni-meTqi, vuyvirodi, magram rad ginda, ar esmoda. oci. oci ki ara,
cxrameti, Se kretino. culi ki gamovtace, magram iman xeli gadamitriala da
damagdebina... RmerTo, rogor mindoda, rogor mindoda... Cemi dedamTili rom
ar Semosuliyo bedze, imas rom ar aeRo culi da uknidan ar daekra TavSi
qmrisTvis, albaT guli gamiskdeboda... sisxli rom davinaxe, cota
davmSviddi... me movkali me movkali me movkali mamaCemio, marTla debiliviT
luRluRebda Cemi qmari. gadi aqedan, aravis aravin ar mouklavso, uyvira
dedam. dedamisma. deida fefem. iqamde arc gamigia imis xmamaRali sityva.
Caicvi da momexmareo, axla me SemomRrina, rogorc bordelis diasaxlisma,
Tanac, saeWvo reputaciis mqone bordelisa, Tavxedi, uzneo, ayalmayalis
moyvaruli klienturiT gamwarebuli, personalze rom iyris javrs...
imaTTanaa magari... yelSi amouvida aseTi cxovreba, sul SiSi, sul cudis
molodini, narwyevis mowmenda, dafxrewilis dakereba, damtvreulis dawebeba,
magram mxolod es icis, mxolod amgvari cxovrebisTvis varga da, RmerTma nu
qnas, rame Tu Seicvala mis cxovrebaSi, gindac ukeTesobisken, dards
gadahyveba. orasormocdaeqvsi... magrad gavutie, ai! Cveni gabednierebis dRes
Zirnayari xorci gvaWama. Tumca, me ar miWamia. me vicodi, magram sxvebi ar
gavafrTxile. sxvebi ki ara, Cemebi, eliso da mamaCemi, Zveli mSoblebi axali
dedamTilis xaTriT. namusi Sevunaxe dedamTils. SemTxveviT Sevixede
samzareuloSi da, iatakze daCoqili, gamalebuli igrovebda winsafarSi jer
kidev orTqliani sukis naWrebs. sufraze gamosatani langari xelidan
gasxltomia da me rom daminaxa, ar gamTqvao, miSveleo, Semevedra, momklavs
Seni mamamTilio. rasakvirvelia, ar gavTqvi da, rasakvirvelia, mivexmare
kidec, uceb movxvete langris namtvrevebi, salaTis dafleTil foTlebTan
erTad. aravis araferi gaugia. mSvenivrad miirTves. kargi qeni, win
dagxvdebao... me ki ar damiTria TmiT, qmars Caartya TavSi culi.
orimilioncxraasiaTasrvaassamocdacameti. Tqvenc iseTive yalbi xarT,
rogorc Tqveni margalitebi-meTqi, magram aRar maxsovs, rasTan dakavSirebiT
vuTxari. is ukve skamze ijda, mosulierebuli, TavSexveuli. safeTqelTan
odnav gamoSaveboda saxvevi. coli windebs acmevda, mis fexebTan Cacucquli.
ra momividao, ekiTxeboda cols... Tavs acodebda... uCveulod sevdiani,
fiqriani... mZime avadmyofiviT. araferic ar mogividao, atyuebda coli, cota
sisxli dakarge da cota xniT gonebao. noli. daviwyoT nolidan. pirvelad
iyo noli. marTla magrebi arian. Cven gvinda da ver vakeTebT, isini ki mainc
akeTeben, sulerTia, undaT Tu ara. jer akeTeben da mere arkveven, unda
gaekeTebinaT Tu ara, rac gaakeTes. noli Tu nuli? vwerT nuls, magram
vambobT nols. Cven imaTi momrevi ara varT. isev isini Tu moerevian
erTmaneTs. erTi batonobis dauokebeli JiniT, meore butaforiuli
keTildReobis cxoveluri erTgulebiT... romeli ufro Zlieria?! ar vici.
magram aseve rom ar vicode, rogor gamoiyureba sikvdili, ufro iolad
Seveleodi sicocxles. vidre cocxali xar, raRaciT mainc gamoirCevi
sxvebisgan, mkvdari ki, yvela erTnairia, erTnairad mkvdaria, adamianic,
ciyvic, pepelac... sxva gza ar arsebobs. mesame ara, merve! yovelTvis ori iyo
da ori iqneba. an xar, an ara. sicocxle opiumia. gaSterebs, gacdens,
gacdunebs... ggonia xar, magram sinamdvileSi didi xania aRar arsebob, arc
SenTvis, arc sxvisTvis. swored amis garkvevaa Zneli, xar Tu ara. me megona,
uceb gavarkvevdi, iqve, daxlTan, maRaziaSi, vidre noqari mobrundeboda,
magram, nuras ukacravad! yvelafers codna unda da Seni kuTxec unda
gqondes, wesierad Tu ginda Tavis mokvla, safuZvlianad, erTxel da
samudamod. sxva Tu araferi, noqarTanaa sircxvili. is ra SuaSia?! iman
ratom unda recxos... magram ras vifiqrebdi, amdeni sisxli Tu mqonda.
veraferi movuxerxe... erTdroulad micocavda yvela mxares, Wiayelebis
jogiviT... erTxel, kanalizaciis mili gagviskda da welSi gavwydiT me da
eliso, veraferSi CavtieT binZuri, qafiani wyali... modioda da modioda Cemi
sisxliviT... mTeli maRazia daitbora, daxlianad, noqrianad, da bolos, mec
gamomacala fexqveS miwa, mec cimcim gamitana quCaSi Cemi sisxlis niaRvarma...
quCac Cemi sisxliT iyo gadawiTlebuli... Cemi sisxlis gubeebSi
miSlapunobdnen gamvlelebi, miSxuodnen manqanebi... mere aRar maxsovs... ara,
rogor ara! mere, viTom, qviSxeTSi viyavi, oRond, uantonod... pirvelad Cems
sicocxleSi. qviSxeTi erTaderTi adgilia albaT, sadac siamovnebiT ver
movkvdebodi. Tumca, yovelTvis maRizianebda da mabrazebda, mamaCems Ramis
gasaTevi adgilic rom ar hqonda iq, imaT ki, sasaxle edgaT... gansakuTrebiT,
didi TeTri qvebis meCeCi miyvars, bondis qvemoT... cxenis ConCxiviT gdia
mdinareSi da Toliebi dastrialeben Tavs, svavebiviT... albaT mamis
jibriTac momivida, rac momivida... araferi gagikvirdeT Cemgan. SeiZleba,
elisos movuge niSni, Tvali davuyene, ai, Sen visTvis iklavdi Tavs da ai, vin
iklavs CemTvis Tavs-meTqi... Tavs ver davdeb, marTla ase moxda-meTqi, magram
cxadad maxsovs, rogor davusxlti xelidan, rogor gavxseni seifi, rogor
aviRe revolveri... ar gabriyvdeo, damiyvira Cemma Wkvianma dedamTilma. erTi
ki gavifiqre, esec xom ar mivayolo-meTqi, magram tyvia aRar damrCa. erTi.
ori. sami. oTxi. xuTi. eqvsi. Svidi... davcxrile saceriviT. SadrevaniviT
asxamda sisxls natyviarebidan. laCari. laCari... ver vitan laCar kacs. arada,
aravin meguleboda imis momrevi. bavSvobidanve ase gavizarde, ase mwamda.
yvelas eSinoda. CurCuliT laparakobdnen imaze... manqanidan rom
gadmovidoda, uneburad ukan ixevdnen. Svilis ki, SeeSinda. Svilma culi
mouRera da, aba ba ba ba... luRluRebda raRacas. aba ba ba ba... mwerlebis
dasapatiJeblad rom amovidoda xolme, atydeboda erTi aliaqoTi, ra
CavicvaT da ra davixuroTo... mRvdels WilofSi icnobeno, icinoda Zia
pimeni... jer kidev maSin meZaxda madam kaSels... mec swored magis meSiniao,
SfoTavda Zia diomide. aba, dasaxvretad Tu gveZaxis, sjobs titvlebi
mivadgeTo, seriozulad ambobda Zia gobroni... eSinodaT da xumrobdnen.
eSinodaT da mainc midiodnen. iman ki, maSinve gamwira, rogorc ki safrTxe
igrZno, me Semaxoca Tavisi binZuri xelebi, rogorc ki daufeTa Svilma
angelozebi. ai, vin unda moklao, me damiyena win, es damaSni bliadio,
rusulad Tqva, komunisturad... arcerTi tyvia ar amicdenia, Tumca pirvelad
meWira revolveri xelSi... eZebos, visac guli Sestkiva. sardafSi davmarxeT
me da Cemma dedamTilma, Zvelma dostebma. Tu vinmes moukvda, me momikvdao,
magram mainc ase jobdao. uceb Seicvala azri. garemoeba qmnis Segnebas.
Jeleznic gvexmareboda. noxSi gavaxvieT da sardafSi CavitaneT, Zveli
taxtiviT. antoni ki miliciaSi gaiqca. me gamiswora, Tavisi WkuiT. Tavis
Tavze aiRo. waiZvelbiWa. Tavi dado, dimitri TavdadebuliviT... ilmum asaxum
srag adoevxe. ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe... rame Tu SeeZlo, droze unda
gamoeRo xeli... vidre gaviryvnebodiT, vidre zezeurad davlpebodiT
yvelani... axla raRa drosia. axla aRarc mkvdari ainteresebs vinmes da
aRarc mkvleli... rac meti mkvleli iqneba, miT ukeTesi, ufro male
gamovuyvanT erTmaneTs wirvas... miWirs, magram vaRiareb, mamaCemi yovelTvis
marTali iyo! kaSelebma rac ikisres, Seasrules kidec, magram arc Cven
SegviSlia xeli... mkvlelebi, meZavebi, narkomanebi, loTebi da qurdebiRa
davrCiT... benzini rom gadagvasxan da cecxli wagvikidon, aravis gaukvirdeba.
gaxarebiT ki, SeiZleba bevrs gauxardes... finito komedia! axla es mindori
zRvad iqceva da aseve gadaveSvebi am aivnidan. vicureb, vicureb, vidre guli
ar SemiRondeba, vidre ukidegano wyali maryuJiviT ar wamiWers kiserSi...
erTi. Tumca, Sors mainc ver waval Cemi xelebis patroni... ori. venebi
gadaiWerio! sami. Tqven Tu ityviT! oTxi. viTom, ratom unda gadameWra
venebi?! xuTi. dedamTilma gadamiWra albaT. eqvsi. revolvers marTmevda.
Svidi. erTi mec masrolineo. rva. magram ar davuTme. cxra. xoda, gadamiWra...
aTi...
 ... ar gesmis, go? cudad xom ara xar? ginda, wyali mogitano ("ratom unda
viyo cudad?!" gaikvirva lizikom). ra vici, guli ki gamixeTqe da... me
vifiqre... cotas morCa, ludovikos davuZaxe. rasac Sen is glocavs, ar vici...
iseTi movida, sacodavi, dana pirs ar uxsnida. mgoni, nacemic unda iyos,
viRacas marTla daujerebia imis joxisTvis da did manqanas Seskdomia,
satvirTos... foToliviT dascvivda nomrebio... Seni katleti ZaliT vaWame.
gloca da gloca... Sen ki ar gifrTxildeba, aqaur saWmels ver Wams-meTqi,
ukeTessaa miCveuli-meTqi... arao, eg rom kargi adamiani ar iyos, aq
mosasvlelad ar gauxdeboda saqmeo... egao, etyoba, namdvili STamomavalia
Tavisi winaprebisao, aq ro winad xalxi cxovrobda, imaTio... Tqvenao, adre,
didi xalxi iyaviTo, didad dafasebulico, Tqven ro ara, vin icis, pirjvris
werac aRar gvxsomeboda dResao... aseTi ucnauri laparaki icis. ro ar
icnobde, verc ityvi, giJiao. kviraSi erTi dRe, Tqvens enaze galobdnen caSi
angelozebio, Tqven ki, erTmaneTsac veRar agebinebT miwazeo... aCrdilebic
aRara xarT imaTio, Zvelebiso... netavi gzaSi momkvdariyav da am dReSi ar
menaxeTo... bolnisidan varo, Tu bolinidano, ar vici, ver vimaxsovreb... Tan
laparakobs, Tan TviTonve tiris Tavis nalaparakevze da Tan Sens katlets
miirTmevs. es sikeTec imaTgan mogdevTo... Wiri imas da dozana... pirdaRebuli
Sevcqeri, suleliviT, da mec vtiri... Sen raRa gatirebs, Se ardasarCeno-
meTqi, veubnebi Cems Tavs, Sen raSi gekiTxeba Zveli ambebi-meTqi, guSin ra
Wame, is ar gaxsovs-meTqi... ("deida lena, me sakuTari mamamTili arajansaRi
siyvaruliT Seviyvare da sakuTari mama cocxlad davmarxe" Tqva
lizikom). rogor ara! Cvenc maSinve dagijereT... mamaTqvenic aq brZandeboda
da mamamTilic. mamaSenma yvelas xeli CamogvarTva, ludovikosac... mamamTilma
ki, dedabudianad amogJuJavT suyvelaso, amas ro rame mouvideso... gesmis, go?!
Cven ra SuaSi varT, Tu RmerTi gwams?! Cven vin ras gvekiTxeba?! is vaCnaZis
moedanze milicionerobs, me aq vdiasaxlisob... Cemi Tavis avadmyofica var da
eqimic... arc eqimia adgilze da arc avadmyofi... roca undaT, modian, roca
undaT, midian, zogi maTxovrobs, zogi qurdobs, zogi kide, ra vici, cirkTan
dganan Turme... ase ambobs ludoviko. erTi mec unda wavide da davdge,
vnaxoT, aba, Secdeba Tu ara vinme. Senc wamodi. erTad wavideT. orisTvis
advilia... Sen jvari gweria, gena, Cemi dasanaxi Tvali ki, didi xania
daubrmavda qveyanas. erTi, ise dabrmavebula, marTla ludovikos samarTavi
gamxdariyos... milicia Tu aRar gamodis quCaSi, Sen ra gsjis, Sen raRas
iwuxeb-meTqi Tavsa, ver daetie im Sens bolnisia Tu bolini-meTqi da, mec ega
msjis da mec magitom viwuxeb Tavso, mTlad upatronod rom ar darCes
aqaurobao, mterma ar Tqvas, marTla aRar yofilan, marTla damTavrebula
magaTi ambavio. uZaRlo qveyanaSi katebs ayefeben da mec katis magivrobas
vwevo. midi da mouge sityva, im SeCvenebuls. icode, marTla mogiva imis
locva. ise glocavda, ise glocavda, ro ar vici... kacis locva sxvaa, meti
Zala aqvs. RmerTi kacs ufro usmens... ("deida lena, Tqven Tu iciT, ras
niSnavs ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe?" hkiTxa lizikom). reebs mekiTxebi, go,
isedac areuli maqvs tvini... rao? soxumi daemxoo?! eg ra enazea? soxumSi
erTxela var namyofi, Cems siymawvileSi. mezobels wavyevi. gasayidad waiRo
raRaca da marto ar gavuSvi. RmerTi, rjuli, me iq zRva ar minaxavs.
matareblidan rogor ara, mTeli saaTi, Tu meti ara, napir-napir mivyvebodiT,
SemeSinda kidec, ar gadavcvivdeT-meTqi, qalaqSi ki, araferi, ra soxumi da
ra Telavi... ("ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe" gaimeora lizikom). rac ar vici,
ar vici. qali davberdi da msgavsic araferi gamigia... ("iciT, ras niSnavs?!
mumli muxasa gars exveodao. es leqsi xom gagigiaT? simReracaa. mumli
gvexveva, deida lena, mumlma SegvWama. ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe" Tqva
lizikom). ginda, cota namcxvars mogitan? dRes lukma ar Cagsvlia pirSi.
iseTi gemrieli namcxvari dagitova dedinacvalma... dedaSenma... TiTebs
Caayoleb ("Tqven miirTviT" uTxra lizikom). Cven ukve mivirTviT. ZaliT
unda Wamo. Tu ar SeWam, rogor morCebi?! ("me ar movrCebi, deida lena"
Tqva lizikom).
 ufalo, ufalo, gaanaTle mxevali Seni liziko... meSinia. meSinia?
arafrisac ar meSinia. TiTqmis aRarc var. Citma raRaca akenka Cemi skamis
fexTan da niskarti mSvidad gausv-gamousva filaqans, viTomc araferi...
imisTvis ukve aRar varsebob... SeiZleba, momeCvena, warmovidgine, magram amiT,
gana, rame icvleba?! damnaSave unda daisajos. magram Cven ki ar visjebiT,
vispobiT. imitom rom, RmerTs aRar vekuTvniT. imas vekuTvniT oriveni da
iseTebi varT, rogorebic imas vWirdebiT. es aris da es. borotma sZlia
keTils, erTxel kidev. damfrTxali meamboxeebi ki, aqeT-iqiT gaifantnen, vin
milicias Seafara Tavi, vin sagiJeTs, vidre cxovreba kalapotSi Cadgebodes
da milicias namdvili, patiosani borotmomqmedi, sagiJeTs ki, aseve namdvili
da patiosani giJi daubrundebodes. mokled, roca savaldebulo,
saeqsperimento Tavisufleba amoiwureba da isev is "kargi dro" dadgeba,
roca deida lenas yovel saRamos CanTebiT mihqonda Sin avadmyofTa
monarCeni saWmeli. magram Sen mainc meti moaswari da metic SesZeli, vidre...
vidre Tundac me. me Tavis mokvlac ver movaswari. sakuTari ZarRvic ver
gadaviWeri wesierad. magram orives erTnairad wamogvdindeba cxviridan es
wamieri TavaSvebuleba. Cven xom erTni varT, erTnairebi... ar SeiZleba Cveni
gaTiSva... miT ufro axla, sulieri ganwmendis Jams... rogoria?! me TviTon
Semrcxva. sulieri ganwmendis Jams! ise, CvenSi rom vTqvaT, vidre bilikis es
nagleji mainc arsebobs, arc Cven ara gvaqvs farxmalis dayris ufleba. Cven
bedma dagvamsgavsa erTmaneTs da sulerTia, vin sad imyofeba, gnebavs, vin sad
imaleba axla, miliciaSi Tu sagiJeTSi... magram Cven ki ar vimalebiT, yvelam
migvatova, raki erTmaneTi mivatoveT. axla ginda qviSiT vixexoT sulebi da
ginda cocxlad CavixarSoT kuprSi, saSveli ar aris. is kudiani dedaberi
mainc sad gaqra?! mgoni, saerTod marto damtoves amxela SenobaSi. kidev
kargi, kaWkaWi Cxavis aTasSi erTxel... rac mTavaria, oriveni erTnairad
zedmetni aRmovCndiT aqaurobisTvis. arafrismaqnisni da arafrismqoneni.
Tumca, ratom?! Cvenca gvaqvs Cveni saidumlo. namdvilad Cveni mxolod is
aris. mxolod imis mopoveba SevZeliT saerTo ZalisxmeviT. veRarc Cven
SeveleviT da veRarc is Segveleva, vidre bolomde ar amogvwovs sisxls...
amisTvisac madloba ufals. qali xarbia, magram cota yofnis... gana es
cotaa?! ramdens misdis albaT suli, SemoiWyitos, SemoZvres, Cawves, Caeflos
Cvens sibinZureSi, magram ver mivarTvi! rogori damamcirebelic ar unda iyos
Tavad saidumlo, mainc gamaRlebs sxvis TvalSi... saidumlo Tu ar gaqvs,
gindac ar yofilxar. CaTvale, ar gicxovria, ocisa xar Tu asocis.
saidumlom, SeiZleba, gagvamarTlos kidec da ara marto erTmaneTis TvalSi.
sanaZleo, Senc ase fiqrob. vin icis, erTi suli gaqvs, rodis moxval da
metyvi... valdebulic xar, moxvide. unda momce aRsarebis ufleba. gulze
xeli davidoT da vaRiaroT, Cven xom wesierad arc viciT, ra moxda da
rogor moxda sinamdvileSi... marTla moxda, Tu erTmaneTis jibriT,
erTmaneTze ganrisxebulebma, erTmaneTis dakargvis SiSiT, siZulvilamde
misuli siyvarulis zemoqmedebiT warmovidgineT yvelaferi, erTmaneTs
movugoneT, movalandeT, davasizmreT, raTa gzamoWrilebs, kuTxeSi
mimwyvdeulebs, kedelTan miyenebulebs, bewvis xidze Semdgrebs, bolos da
bolos, gagvebeda da raRaca mainc Segvecvala, Tundac uaresobisken.
daaxloebiT, asedac moxda. Sen maSinve culs dastace xeli, me ki
samarTebels... magram satanjvelad da sananeblad isic gveyofa, rac marTla
moxda. Senc dagsvare, magram me Signidana var binZuri. ase rom, mSvenieri
SemTxveva gaqvs, erTxel kidev ixsna uRirsi... arc iseTi susti xar,
rogoradac Tavi mogaqvs. ara, susti xar, magram sisustiTa xar swored
Zlieri... sisustem agaRebina culic... araferi ar minda, erTi amomabRavla
Cems gemoze. arada, mze momadga da ver avmdgarvar, skami rom CavaCoCo cota...
SvedeTSi, Tu sadRac, skandinaviaSi, amobRavleba yofila saukeTeso
saSualeba nerviuli stresis mosaxsnelad. gamoyof sarkmelSi Tavs,
amoibRavleb, amoiReb gul-RviZlSi Caleqil Sxams da isev Seiketav sarkmels.
xalxi midi-modis, Cveulebrivad, transportic Cveulebrivad moZraobs,
sarkmlebi ki zedized iReba, xan aq, xan iq... aravin aqcevs yuradRebas, yvela
am dReSia, zogma ukve amoibRavla, zogi cota mogvianebiT amoibRavlebs, miva
Tu ara Sin... me, ici, ra mSvelis?! Seni ilmum asaxum srag adoevxe.
usasrulod vimeoreb gunebaSi, vidre kidev ufro did uazrobad ar iqceva
da marTla mumlis korianteliviT ar damitrialdeba SiganSi... ilmum asaxum
srag adoevxe... ram mogafiqra, Se marTla debilo! mTavari sababiao... me
mSvenieri sababi maqvs da ver movmkvdarvar... yvelaze Zalian amis meSinia
swored, vai Tu, marTla ver movkvde. aki erTxel ukve ver movkvdi! magram
rodemde vijdebi ase, Seni WkuiT, xelebdabintuli... gailmum-gaasaxum-gasrag-
gaadoevxebuli?! matyueben raRacas. me Svili iqamde gavaCine, vidre venebs
gadaviWridi. ufro sworad, venebi dedamTilma gadamiWra, dedaSenma, gaanebe
Cems Svils Tavio. ra Cemi bralia?! me megona... xoda, rom megona, imitomac... es
aris yvelafris saTave. gvgonia, rom vcxovrobT, gvgonia, rom vicnobT
erTmaneTs... gvgonia, gvZuls, gviyvars, gvinda, ar gvinda... sinamdvileSi,
srulebiTac ar aris ise, rogorc Cven gvgonia. ufro metic, saerTod ar
varT, ar varsebobT bunebaSi... erTmaneTisTvis varsebobT mxolod...
erTmaneTis satanjvelad... CvenTvis gamoyofili dro ar aris namdvili,
astronomiuli dro, jibis droa, saTamaSo dagWirdeba, amoiReb, ixmar da
gadaagdeb... SeiZleba, amitomac gavaCine?! erTi wamiT mainc rom megrZno
namdvili, maradiuli drois dineba?! amitom gavaCine Cumad. vicodi, aravis
gaaxarebda misi gaCena. marTlac, rogori ambavia! ori mamis Svili, saerTo
Svili mama-Svilisa? sakuTari Tavis mamac da Svilic, erTsa da imave dros.
oidiposi vin migdia! gaugebari arseba... socrealuri simaxinje. magram es ra
Cemi saqmea?! warsulma agos pasuxi da momavalma idardos. Zalian kargi,
magram an deida lena sad gaqra, an eliso sad aris aqamde? bavSvs moviyvano
da TviTonac daikarga. ar minda aravin... rom icode, rogor kargad var,
rogor sasiamovnod vitanjebi, rogor momwons Cemi tanjva. sadRac wavikiTxe,
Tu esec mamam ar miTxra, kibos, Turme, Zalian siamovnebs, cocxlad rom
xarSaven... mec kibosaviT var, mec msiamovnebs cocxlad moxarSva... TavisTavad
Camomdis moxarSuli xorci da SiSvel Zvlebze haeri rom mexeba, tvins
RrWiali gaudis siamovnebisgan... cecxlis karuselze vzivar da vbzrialeb,
vbzrialeb, dabrmavebuli, dayruebuli, Tavbrudaxveuli... cocxlad
gatyavebuli da cecxlis mxurvale, Ronieri amonasunTqiT gaguduli... mTeli
samyaro mumladaa qceuli, romc gindodes, versad gaiqcevi, yvelgan
erTnairad dagaxrCobs mumliT gasqelebuli haeri... wlebis, saukuneebis
manZilze mzaddeboda es viTom Cveulebrivi aqti, viTom kidev erTi axali
sicocxlis dabadebisa... jer me unda gaveCine dedaCems aseTi znedacemuli,
da mere me unda gameCina aseTi gaugebroba. ise, Cemi azri Tu gainteresebs,
metis Rirsi arc aris es dampali kacobrioba. samagierod, eliso bebiobas
eRirsa Cemi wyalobiT. Cemo Sviliko, Cemo Zamiko, Cemo Zmiswulo da Cemo
batono mazlo-meTqi, veferebi, vemliqvnelebi da, rom icode, srulebiTac ar
mrcxvenia. yovel SemTxvevaSi, Seni namdvilad ar mrcxvenia... gvinda, ar
gvinda, erTmaneTisTvis varT gaCenilni, erTnairebi... sxvebi jer fiqroben da
mere akeTeben an ar akeTeben, Cven ki, jer vakeTebT da mere vxvdebiT, an
merec ver vxvdebiT, ra CavidineT... da mainc, Cvenze ukeT aravin icis, rogori
unda gaizardos bavSvi, Tuki unda gaizardos saerTod... aris uZaRlo qveyana
da aris uqveynod darCenili ZaRli... ZaRlebi... Tundac, me da Sen. ki vyefT,
magram visTvis? ratom? sicarieleSi vyefT, aravisTvis da arafris gamo.
qaravani ki midis. isic ar viciT, saiT midis, an saidan movida. alRoc
davkargeT, ynosvac da Sinisken mimavalT gzac ver gvipovnia... aRar gvaxsovs,
ras niSnavs "Sin"... vis akldeba amiT, ZaRls Tu qveyanas? orives. marTali
xar. magram ufro metad ZaRls. qveyana, bolos da bolos, axali ZaRlis
gazrdamde, katas daayefebs, magaliTad, ludovikos, ZaRlis saSveli ki ar
aris... mokled, es Tu aRsasrulia, arafers vnanob da aravis winaSe ar
vapireb Tavis marTlebas... mimifurTxebia aseTi sicocxlisTvis... rogorc
mamaCemi ambobs, iyo dro, roca Rirsebis SesanarCuneblad Cveni keTilSobili
dedoflebi ZuZuebs aglejinebdnen jalaTs, Cveni mefeebi ki, Tavisi nebiT
debdnen kunZze Tavs. Cven ki, piriqiT, Rirsebisgan gasanTavisufleblad
daviglijeT ZuZuebi da moviWeriT Tavebi saqveynod, samarcxvinod... damnaSave
ki ar arsebobs, radgan yvela damnaSavea... da mainc, wyeulimc iyos ukuniTi
ukunisamde, visic ar iTqmis saxeli, vinc ase ubedurad gagvabedniera
oriveni... magram, RvTis wyalobiT, damTavrda Cveni odiseac, damTavrda,
marTlac rom, brwyinvale damarcxebiT. guli ki mainc mSvidad micems,
TiTqos arafers aeRelvebinos, araferi Sexvedrodes jer zedmetad
asaRelvebeli... viyavi, var da bolomde davrCebi sakuTari gulis
qveSevrdomi... mirCevnia, isev iman momatyuos, vidre gamomZiebelma, anda
eqimma... ar vici, Sen ras fiqrob, magram darwmunebuli var, sworad fiqrob...
im qveyanaSi Sexvedramde, Cemo erTgulo megobaro... Sen ra ggonia, Sors ki
ar aris is qveyana, am mindors gadaivli da...
 lizikos sityva gauwyda, radgan mziT abrWyvialebuli sivrcidan,
misTvisac moulodnelad, ucnaurad Cacmuli kaci gamovida uceb da pirdapir
misken daaRera Tavi. farTo farflebiani qudi exura (Cveneburad, Sliapa!),
farSevangis frTebiT gawyobili. mrgvali sayelo ekeTa, TeTri abreSumisa,
naoWasxmuli da mxrebze horizontalurad ganfenili. gegonebodaT, sakuTari
Tavi moaqvs TefSiTo. Zowisfer mosasxamze (romelsac ZonZi ufro eTqmoda!),
birka da Zurwa ahkvroda. maRalyeliani, Zabris magvari Ceqmebi, siZvelisgan
danaoWeboda da araTanabrad CamoflaSvoda wvivebze. cxeni, etyoba,
mokvdomoda da unagiri, lagam-avSarianad, amoRliavebuli mohqonda.
mooqrovili uzangebi erTmaneTs exlebodnen da zanzalakebiviT
wkrialebdnen. aSkarad etyoboda, didi gza gamoevlo, ulvaSi da warbebi
mtvriT gadaTeTreboda, daRlilic Canda, magram mainc mxned gamoiyureboda,
yovel SemTxvevaSi, namdvilad ver ityodiT, es kaci, sul cota, eqvsasi
weliwadia, ase tyuilubralod daexeteba aRma-daRmao. ufro, mizandasaxuli
da Tavis TavSi darwmunebuli kacis STabeWdilebas tovebda mnaxvelze,
mSvenivrad rom icis, ras eZebs, da isic sjera, aucileblad ipovis, ris
sapovneladac eqvsasi wlis win wamosula Tavis qveynidan. "mogesalmebi
saqarTvelos mSveniero asuloo" SuasaukuneebisaTvis damaxasiaTebeli
maRalfardovnebiT mimarTa lizikos Soridanve, qudi mouxada da mdablad
daukra Tavi. lizikos gaeRima, magram xmaSi ahyva ucnobs da TviTonac
ZvelqarTuli sidarbaisliTa da kdemamosilebiT upasuxa: "mec siamovnebiT
mogesalmebi, keTilSobilo raindoo". "iciT! gaagrZela maSinve, axla ukve
metiCruli TavgamodebiT Cemi qmari Sin ar gaxlavT, arc mamamTili, da,
samwuxarod, ver SegipatiJebT, magram, Tu gnebavT, wyals mogarTmevT, anda
civ Rvinos, romelic gesiamovnebaT, mainc arcerTi ara maqvs". "nu Sewuxdebi,
keTilo feriav arc ucnobi CamorCa TavazianobaSi Tqveni pativiscemiT
isedac yelamde var... getyodaT albaT qalbatoni elene... Tqvenma katletma
didad masiamovna, risTvisac erTxel kidev gixdiT uRrmes madlobas... diax,
ludoviko gaxlavarT, bolonieli... odesRac aq arsebuli da aw ukve
ukvalod gamqrali qveynisTvis Seucvleli persona grata da romis papis, ase
vTqvaT, diplomiani despani..." "maSin, me udiplomo meZavad SegiZliaT
CamTvaloT gaicina lizikom es erTaderTi wodebaa, romliTac
Tanamedroveoba micnobs da momavali momixseniebs..." "eg naklebad
mainteresebs gaawyvetina ludoviko bolonielma me, piradad, imis
dadgena ufro mniSvnelovnad mimaCnia, Tu sad SeiZleboda gamqraliyo iseTi
aRorZinebuli, laSqarmravali, ymiani da saxelganTqmuli qveyana, rogoradac
Cems dros Tqvens samSoblos icnobdnen evropaSi da romlis imediTac
imdroindeli romis papi pio osmalebis gandevnas apirebda bizantiidan...
iqneb Tqven mainc icodeT rame amis Sesaxeb, axalgazrdebma?! Tqven xom jer
kidev gerCiT guli da arc momavlisken frena geSiniaT, arc warsulSi
Sebruneba..." "aRorZinebulio?! saxelganTqmulio?! warbebi Sewkipa lizikom
aba, ra giTxraT. pirvelad mesmis. aq davibade da aqve gavgiJdi, magram
msgavsic araferi msmenia. albaT gza Tu SegeSalaT... saidanac Tqven
moxvediT, ukacrieli mindvrebia mxolod, saerTod ar aris gza..." "ara,
geTayva isev gaawyvetina ludoviko bolonielma ludoviko boloniels
gza arasodes SeSlia. esaa misi xeloba, gzis gagneba. es icis mxolod...
marTalia, amjerad, sxva gziT momiwia wamosvla, albaT iciT, bosfori ukve
osmalos eWira da iZulebuli Seviqeni, ungreTisa da poloneTis SemovliT
Semovsuliyav CemTvis sasurvel qveyanaSi, magram..."
 ludoviko bolonieli moulodnelad gaCumda, TiTqos saTqmeli daaviwyda,
anda gadaifiqrao, magram cota xnis mere isev gaagrZela, oRond, amjerad,
ratomRac, leqsad:

...magram am kaWaWgadavlili mindvrebis meti,

aRaraferi aRar damxvda... gaqra qveyana,
keTili, zrdili, guluxvi da guladi xalxiT
dasaxlebuli... galavnebiT SemozRuduli,
cixe-koSkebiT mofenili, moyvris imedad
da mtrebis risxvad... ki batono, ra ar momxdara!
sofelic bevri wauRia zvavsa da mewyers,
qalaqic bevri daumarxavs vulkanis lavas,
qveyanac bevri aRugvia JamTasvlis borbals,
magram me mainc ver vijereb, rom saqarTveloc
aRar arsebobs... maTi xvedri gaiziara...
gaqarwylda yvela varaudi, gacvda kalami,
daSra melnis zRva, yvela vada amoiwura
da SeiZleba, verasodes mivagno marTla,
risi mignebac ase msurda, ase mewada...
magram jer far-xmals mainc ar vyri... arc davyri albaT,
radgan aseve SeiZleba, Sin dabrunebuls,
Tavis adgilze aRar damxvdes, araTu romi,
aramed... ara! Tqmac ki miWirs... sjobs sagiJeTSi
isev giJebis monarCeni katleti vWamo
da gavagrZelo dakargulis Zebna jiutad...
sagnis dakargva rodi niSnavs sagnis gaqrobas!
samaradisod da ukvalod is qreba mxolod,
ris dakargvasac veguebiT... magram Tu vigrZnobT,
rom Cvens sicocxles uimisod azri ara aqvs,
isic brundeba, ufro sworad, kvlav ibadeba,
da, erT dRes, rogorc wylidan miwa, an rZidan yveli,
pirvelyofili brwyinvalebiT amoizrdeba...

swored am dros, wablis xeze isev daiCxavla kaWkaWma da lizikom Tvali

gaaxila...
mumlis burusi

Tavidanve unda vaRiaro, rom "godori" erTi mxriv ideaTa romania, meore mxriv ki
romani-saga. masSi mZlavri publicisturi paTosi epikur, miTologiur, arqetipul
saxeebTanaa Sezavebuli da aseTi SezavebiT miRebuli enobrivi qsovili, cxadia
garkveul problemebs uqmnis komentators. mis yuradRebas xan romanSi ganxiluli e.w.
saWirboroto sakiTxebi ipyrobs, xan ki Txrobis miTopoeturi maqmanebi gaitacebs
xolme. veravin ityvis, romeli ufro rTulia, e.w. "godris kacis" publicisturi saxis
Camoqna, gamokveTa da realur, Tanamedrove situaciebTan misi misadageba Tu misTvis
zogadsakacobrio Tu yvela droisTvis gamosadegi paradigmis statusis miniWeba.
darwmunebuli var, es wigni ukve bevrma adamianma waikiTxa da saTaurmac albaT
ukve SeiZina garkveuli konotaciebi (godris kacebi, godris gagdebuli, godris
Taoba), miTumetes, rom igi Tavisi zemoqmedebiT, paradigmuli sizustiTa da
moqnilobiT "jayos xiznebisa" da "kvaWi kvaWantiraZis" gverdiTac SeiZleba daayeno.
 es rac Seexeba saTaurs da misgan gamomdinare mniSvnelobaTa rigs, Tavad teqsti
ki, Zalze efeqturi dasawyisis Semdeg, garkveul bundovanebaSi Ziravs am sizustesa
da moqnilobas (es gansakuTrebiT romanis meore nawils exeba). ra Tqma unda, aq
araferia gasakviri, es xom Tanamedrove romania da ara klasikuri, sadac avtori
avantiuruli an fsiqologiuri romanis Targze moWrida masalas. Tumca erTi ram
mainc iqcevs yuradRebas. saqme isaa, rom avtori Txrobas retrospeqciiT iwyebs
(mimaCnia, rom romanSi yvelaze Zlieri swored es monakveTia) da amis gamo umberto
ekos erTi saintereso SeniSvna gamaxsenda "retrospeqtuli Txrobis" Sesaxeb. misi
sityviT (da am SemTxvevaSi igi Jerar Jenets eyrdnoba), retrospeqtiva imis
kompensaciaa, risi moyolac avtors daaviwyda. Sesabamisad Txrobis retrospeqtiviT
dawyebam an momavali danaklisi unda aanazRauros (ekos enaze rom vTqvaT, is, rac
"avtors SemdgomSi daaviwydeba", razec igi yuradRebas aRar gaamaxvilebs) an
mkiTxvels unda Seaxsenos is, rac mas aRar axsovs.
arada qarTvel mkiTxvels wesiT kargad unda axsovdes, ufro sworad unda icodes
pirvel nawilSi aRwerili Tu miniSnebuli movlenebi (georgievskis traqtati,
saqarTvelos aneqsia, gasabWoeba da a.S.), Tumca retrospeqcias kidev erTi funqcia
aqvs, igi warsulis mimoxilvis saSualebas gvaZlevs, xels uwyobs mkiTxvels
warsulis movlenebis awmyoSi ganfenasa da masTan misadagebaSi. esaa imavdroulad
Txrobisa da komentirebis procesi, zemoxsenebuli publicisturi paTosic, rogorc
Cans, swored aqedan iSveba da WilaZis gamogonili personaJebic principSi am realur
viTarebas, realur movlenebs ukavSirdebian da monawileobas iReben masSi. aqedan
gamomdinare, romanSi xSirad monacvleobs realuri da SemoqmedebiTi plani,
istoriuli da miTologiuri saxeebi, romelic sabolood rTul, moZrav sistemad
yalibdeba.
CvenTvis pirvel rigSi miTologiuri plania mniSvnelovani da oTar WilaZisTvis
tradiciulad damaxasiaTebeli is xerxebi, romlebic safuZvels gvaZleven "godors"
romani-saga vuwodoT.
"godori" ojaxis istoriaa, romelsac saTaveSi erTi mwyemsis Svili, godorSi
gamozrdili raJden kaSeli udgas. marTalia manamde sxvebsac ucxovriaT godorSi,
qarTul literaturaSi sxva bavSvebisTvisac darweula es mownuli ormo akvnad,
magram kaSelebi pirvelebi aRmoCndnen, visac godris kacebi uwoda mweralma.
magaliTad kvaWi kvaWantiraZis mamas, silibistros, bavSvoba sanaxevrod godorSi
hqonda gatarebuli, misi Svili ki namdvili miTiuri gmiriviT moevlina qveyanas. mere
kvaWis devgmiruli bavSvobac gaixseneT, cxovrebasTan saziarebeli adaTebis mTeli
wyeba rom axlda Tan da sanam raJdenis ambavs movyvebode, is ambavic nu
dagaviwydebaT, qals rom pirvelad gausinja gemo kvaWikom, cviris, vinc dedasaviT
zrdida mas. amis Semdeg ki vin icis, iqneb vinmem "godris" interteqstadac dasaxos
"kvaWi kvaWantiraZe".
axla ki raJdens mivxedoT. am naxevradmiTiuri personaJis dedas Turme rusi
uriadniki daudioda sayvarlad da bavSvs, xeli rom ar SeeSala, deda godorSi
svamda xolme: "naSieri mSvenivrad grZnobda Tavs godorSi da, rogorc TviTonve
amtkicebda mere, ukve veterani, gansakuTrebiT ki Rvinonaylapi, yovelTvis didi
interesiT uTvalTvalebda dedisa da misi sayvarlis alerss godris WuWrutanebidan
da, misda uneburad ubzikdeboda kidec...". bavSvis mamis, "olimpodan gamoZevebuli"
mwyemsis SurisZiebis Semdeg godris WuWrutanidan gamomzirali, aRgznebuli,
foladisferi mzeris patara biWi godrianad waiyvana uSvilZiro qalma, kesariam.
raJdeni ki, roca wamoizarda, anu "godorma rom veRar gauZlo, veRar Seakava misi
swrafadmzardi, ferxorciTa da dauxarjavi energiiT savse sxeuli da zed
Semoemsxvra... ganTavisuflebisTanave dedobils eca da sacodavi kesaria Zlivs
gamoglijes xelidan wivil kivilze movardnilma mezoblebma".
ase iSva raJdeni, naWuWiviT moiSora godris narCenebi da cxovrebis gzas daadga,
raTa godorSi SeZenili midrekilebebi gamoeCina da axali saqarTvelos samsaxurSi
Camdgariyo. igi "alalbedze mixoxavda sakuTari simdablis mwvervalisaken", natyviars
nerwyviT iSuSebda, nadiriviT, da tyvias esroda yvelas da yvelafers, rac ki
moZraobda.
 ase da amgvarad, pirveli godris naSieri ukve Saragzaze gavida da aqtiurad Caeba
procesebSi, romelmac misi mamuli unda aqcios Saragzad. axlovdeba 1921 wlis 25
Tebervali da misi memkvidris Sobis dRec. raJdenis colma, klavam Saragzaze
imSobiara, "sadRac soRanluRsa da orTaWalas Soris", gzispira Txrilis damyayebul
wyalSi ganbana Cvili da TavsafarSi gamoaxvia. Svils antoni daarqves da cxadia,
isic, mamasaviT qveynis damCemebeli gamodga. misi Tve sxvebis wlebs udrida, ori
wlisa TvaldaxuWuli Slida da awyobda SaSxanas, "xuTisam mezoblis ZaRli mokla
im SaSxaniT, TxuTmetisa ki ukve xalxs xocavda".
gvamis sunSi gazrdili es sagvareulo kidev or Taobas gawvdeba, kidev erT
raJdensa da antons miscems dasabams da es personaJebi, ukve Cveni Tanamedroveni,
koTurnebze Semdgarni, antikuri tragediis TamaSs daiwyeben.
es antikuri niSnebi cxadad Tu dafarulad, bevr rames gansazRvraven romanSi da
SeiZleba iTqvas, konkretuli droisa da sivrcis sazRvars miRmac ki gahyavT
personaJebi. erTgan avtori ambobs "jer kidev antikuri tragediis Takara mze
acxunebs CvenSi, Tbilisis misadgomebTan ki, troas cxeni Zovs"-o da nel-nela
mkiTxvelic xvdeba Tu vinaa am romanSi oidiposi, vin io da oreste, vin ki
klitemnestra. moqmedebaSi axali gmirebi erTvebian, Zvelebis STamomavlebi, imave
saxelebis matarebeli mama-Svili, raJdeni da antoni, antonis coli liziko da
sxvebic. Cndeba Wreli Zroxac, Tavis droze cxovrebis simbolod rom gadaiqca
patara antonisTvis da masTan erTad movida gaunelebeli sevda da daumsaxurebeli
damcirebac, CaxSuli mrisxaneba da monoba. Tavad antonic, am ZroxasaviT, antikuri
miTebidan, moirweva Tavis cxovrebis gzaze. "...modis, moClaxunobs, sakuTari
gamZleobiT Sewuxebuli, Tuki SeiZleba rame awuxebdes, RmerTqalis miqseuli
buzanklis meti", modis mojadoebuli, galaxuli da ase manam ivlis, sanam mamamiss,
antonis colis, lizikos gabzekili ZuZuebisken ar gaeqceva xeli. swored am
adgilidan amodis tragediis Takara mzec, romelmac yvela personaJi unda dawvas
Tavisi mcxunvarebiT. erTi sityviT, "godorSi" incesti Txrobis mTavar meqanizmad
iqceva da avtori Tvalebis daTxris tragikul ritualsac xSirad Seaxsenebs xolme
Tavis gmirebs.
"maTi ojaxi namdvilad sanimuSoa, yvelani mkacrad icaven sisufTaves da ucxos
aravis aWaWaneben ojaxur seqsSi... marTlac, rogori ambavia! ori mamis Svili, saerTo
Svili mama-Svilisa? sakuTari Tavis mamac da Svilic, erTsa da imave dros. oidiposi
vin migdia!..." marad mSierma, yvelafrismSTanTqvelma saSom ki "unda aTqvifos da
Seazavos mamisa da Zis Tesli "arnaxuli, argagonili homunkulusis Sesaqmnelad",
saSom, anu lizikom, colma da rZalma, vinac TviTmkvlelobis mcdelobis Semdeg
antikuri gmiris sijiutiT unda moigerios Tavisianebis yuradReba da TanagrZnoba,
ise, rogorc orestem eriniebi, mamamisi ki, mwerali elizbari, "mxcovani odisevsi",
iZulebulia omSi wavides.
xolo rac Seexeba daTxril Tvalebs, igi afxazeTSi sabrZolvelad wasuli
mamismkvlelis, antonis xilvebSic Cndeba. erTxel maSin, roca fiWvis Stoze
Semoskupebul ciyvs erTi gasroliT Camoagdebs uxilavi xeli: "tyviam SxuiliT
gafxriwa haeri da Tvalgadmovardnili ciyvi sacodavad afarTxalda gasisxlianebul
balaxSi. ciyvs Tvalis adgilas veeberTela lorwovani buSti gamoebera" (buSti,
sadac samyaroc ki airekleboda). meorejer ki dakiTxvaze, roca gamomZieblis jibidan
gamomzirali patara ciyvi moelandeba: "uceb cali Tvali gamoebera, gamoebera,
gamoebera da aerostatisxela rom gaxda, sazareli xmiT gaskda."
am ciyvis TvaliviT gaskda mravalwliani tyuilic, antonis garSemo rom
grovdeboda.
didi xnis manZilze antonic, usinaTlosaviT, verafers xedavda, misTvis samSoblo
da saerTod, samyaro SeniRbuli iyo. versad miakvlia man am samyaros da mxolod
qviSxeTis mweralTa saxlis TanamSromlis, giJi nikolozas biblioTekaSi naxa xsna.
kiTxulobda bevrs, SesaZloa "Tebes tragediebs", "Zmeb karamazovebs", Tavisi goneba ki
vin icis, iqneb "danaSaulsa da sasjelze" alesa. mis mier mamis mxares moqneuli
culic am gonebis nayofia da swored amitomac Cans irealuri es mkvleloba, anu
mamiskvlis scena zmanebis saburvelSia gaxveuli, antonis bodvebiTaa Sezavebuli.
 avtori-mTxrobeli SeniSnavs antonze: "gvamis sunSia gazrdili, am suniTaa
gaJRenTili yvela misi fiqri, sizmari Tu ocneba... es suni ar aZlevda nebas, isic
Cveulebrivi bavSvi yofiliyo, tolamxanagebis msgavsad, imasac araferi scodnoda
qveynisa da marto imaze ezruna, Tu rogor Caegdo xelSi axali kaseta, amerikuli
sigareti, gasaberi kevi Tu warweriani maisuri... anu, yofiliyo is, rac unda
yofiliyo, rasac skola da ojaxi moiTxovda misgan - mSobelze uaresi da, roca dro
mouvidoda, Svilze ukeTesi."
raze mianiSnebs es sityvebi? nuTu antonis tragikuli Secdoma mamis gzidan
gadaxveva iyo? iqneb am gzazeve dabruneba iqca tragediad? igi xom qvecnobierad
kaSelobas, Tavisive arsebas ebrZoda, magram aiRo culi da Tavi gaupo mamas ("mamas
etira deda"), riTac kaSeloba ki ar moiSala, piriqiT, axlidan iSva, mis axal
cxovrebas daudo saTave.
am SemTxvevaSi nawarmoebSi aRwerili da antonis mier wakiTxuli erT sibrtyeze
Tavsdeba, es ori plani gadaikveTeba da Seqspiris "hamletis" principiT, "scena-
scenaze", erTmaneTs gansazRvravs. Tuki "hamletSi" daniis ufliswuli mamis
aCrdilisgan igebs ambavs da Semdeg axdens mis reprezentacias, aq Tavad antoni
iqceva landad ("culSemarTulic arafrad Caagdo... TiTqos mkvleli ki ar idga mis
win, aramed misive landi, aCrdili, haeris buSti...") da momxdari, mosaxdeni Tu
wakiTxuli ukve mis cnobierebis nakadSi reprezentirdeba.
amgvari cnobierebis nakadi Tu giJis monologebi mTels romans gamsWvalavs.
romani SeSlilobiT iwyeba da misiT sruldeba. am mxriv Zalze sainteresoa
patriotuli lirikis kavSiri sigiJesTan. roca avtori erekles Tanamedrove,
dosiTeoz nekreselze saubrobs, ambobs, igi erTmorwmune mfarvelis, ruseTis
sisastikiTa da uRmerTobiT iyo SeSlili, gnebavT gapoetebulio da dosiTeozic,
"mravalTa da mravalTa msgavsad, mainc veraferSi garkveuli, batis wamaxul frTas
nela, saqmismcodnis sidinjiT awobda samelneSi... da msxvili, acabaca asoebiT
gamohyavda: "ara ars isreT tkbili, viT mamulis siyvarulio"".
aq ori plani isev gadakveTs erTmaneTs, garusebuli (gnebavT, gasabWoebuli)
saqarTvelos realuri plani da dosiTeozi, Tavisi batis wamaxuli frTiTa da
yvavilebisgan damzadebuli melniT, romelic SemoqmedebiT mxareze migvaniSnebs. da
romanis mixedviT, am SemoqmedebiT, fiqciur saqarTvelos realuri saqarTvelo
Caenacvleba. sityvebi, "Rormucela debilebisa da gesliani qvrivebis saqarTvelo
aRar aris, damTavrda" swored imis momaswavebelia, rom oTaraanT qvrivebisa da
luarsab TaTqariZeebis qveyana istorias Cabarda da dadga dro, roca samSoblos
siyvaruli da poezia SeSlilobasTan unda gaigivdes.
rogorc giTxariT, romani venebgadaWrili lizikos monologiT sruldeba da misi
sityvebi, "aq davibade da aqve gavgiJdi" mware, finalur simarTled gaismis
nawarmoebSi.
sxva simarTles gvauwyebs mumli, romelic, vfiqrob, lizikosTan da sxvebTan
erTad, romanis erT-erT mTavar gmirad iqceva. mumlTan erTad Txrobac mdore xdeba
da zogadad, misi gamoCena SesaZloa Txrobis SeuZleblobasac ukavSirdebodes. mis
adgils, Tanamedrove literaturaTmcodneobis enaze rom vTqvaT, diskursi ikavebs,
gansja-monologebi da fabulas, erTi mxriv, mumli abundovanebs, meore mxriv ki
personaJTa anTebuli cnobiereba.
romanSi yvelgan mumlia, sizmarSic da cxadSic, mumli yria savarZelSi, sarkmlis
rafaze da iatakze, sawolSic da magidazec, pursac mumli ayria da baliSsac. mumli
"msxvili, dondlo da wyliani... avadmyofuri, mumli-raketa. baqteriomzidi... mumliT
gasqelebuli da gawebili haeri mduRare badagiviT ibuSteba, livlivebs, brunavs..."
mumli dafrinavs yvelgan, mTel saqarTvelos mumli dastrialebs, rogorc rame
sidamples, demonstrantebsac mumlis uzarmazari amala mohyveba da misi mofarfate
siyviTle artyia yovels.
mumlis siyviTle, SesaZloa Txrobis garkveuli fonic egonos kacs, Tumca es
mxolod erTi SexedviT Cans. romanSi igi Tavis folklorul bunebasac inarCunebs da
literaturul xerxsac warmoadgens, anu, rogorc zemoT giTxariT, igi raRac azriT
faravs ambavs, abundovanebs mas.
 literaturaTmcodneobaSi cnobilia, rom TxrobaSi bundovanebis, an masTan
dakavSirebuli metaforebis Semosvla, e.w. saspensisTvis gvamzadebs. gvkarnaxobs, rom
male kvanZi gaixsneba. "godorSi" ki kvanZis gaxsnis es procesi ganuwyvetliv vaddeba
da saspensi Tvalsa da xels Sua gepareba, ris gamoc iseTi STabeWdileba geqmneba,
TiTqos Tavad romansac mumli dastrialebs, igi faravs mis sityvier qsovilsa da
personaJTa xmebs. mas verc afxazeTis omis griali axSobs da verc mamis gvamze,
rogorc kvarcxlbekze Semdgari antonis, ubibilo da udezebo mamlis yivili.
samwuxarod, mumlis es nislovaneba Zneli gasafantia, avtormac am nislSi Catova
Tavisi gmirebi da verc Cemi es werili auxels sabolood Tvalebs literaturis
moyvarulebs. me mxolod erTis imedi maqvs, rom kidev bevri qarTveli mkiTxveli
Seabijebs Tamamad im saxifaTo burusSi, romelsac oTar WilaZis proza hqvia.

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