My Life, My Success

I always asked myself, “What am I here?”, “What’s the purpose of living?” and I always
thought that words will suffice the demand of healing every time ranging pain tries to drag me to
insanity.

In every time emptiness is killing my fainted entirety, I invariably let those spilled words
to fill an empty canvas on me; the paper that paints by different hue of hifalution formulas - rotten
while compelling thyself to be alive. The feeling of being judged, discriminated and criticized by
the society are very hard to endure the pain while trying to fix some parts of me that’s not totally
mended for almost 3 years. For years, I feel neglected to live freely without those judging stares,
unhearable whispers and unreadable smiles that was given me by the people surrounds me. I think
that’s one of the reason of stagnancy to those emotions flow in a wrong way to slap to me all the
realization that there’s always a clearer path to make this life meaningful; rest assured that there
will always be a high probability that I am going to survive the nightfall – a glimpse of an immense
cloudscape in a shrouded light. One thing I have learned from hiding in obscurity is when I have
had the courage to obliterate all the blockages, being alive is difficult but it will give me an extra
piece of rationality to stay firm, even if I am barely breathin’ in days that made me feel of darkness.
I am a single mom; a student mom that lives to continue life in behalf of all the negative things
happen on me. But one thing is for sure, this April 03, 2019 will be a success for me because finally
I’ll be able to step up in the next journey of my life. And here I am proving that they were wrong
despite all those negative feedbacks and a SINGLE MOM is still kicking in life. Life cause of
storms and tidal waves that it will perplex and catch me from where I am until I get lost but bear
in mind that this deadly living world will always put us in trouble, but it will never be a reason for
us to quit. Maybe it’s a steadfast voyage but at least, we keep on going. Slowly but definite process
is still a process – costly but it’s worth it knowing that at the end of every trials in life will be a
brighter beginning. Be a fighter in your own battle that education will serve as your own armor to
fight with. In experiencing near-death-situation is part of living. It may kill us on each part of the
process of success but it’s a form of saying that we’re still alive and continue pursuing our own
success.

Living our lives is painful but life without pain is merely not a life at all.