Story Set- Up

Prologue
They’ve said Life is to short to be sad. Lurking about the dos of the future pretty sure is bad.
Making all those anxiety and fear build up to what will the today may found out, and the
yesterday nightmare and the futures outcome.
But hey, the world might be ending soon. But it isn’t yesterday, and it isn’t tomorrow. Maybe it
must be today. Who knows right? That’s why live your shit today. Cause today will be yesterday
and the key for tomorrow.
Live the Life. Be Positive. Do your wants. Know limits.
Enjoy breathing. Cause if all of those emotions once control you. You will be drawn into the lost
of the world and be overwhelm to the darkness of life, and no light of positivity may shine.
Yet life is full of happiness and sadness. Just learn to get used to it and forget it. Learn the
lessons that the old mistake did.
_
I’ve smile and pose and end the recording.
Yes I’m recording, at least I can remember the expressions and feelings that I have been
expressing to that one time of my life. When my future self would came, I would watch it and just
maybe for a second I could feel my old self telling me what I’ve been doing.
The growth and the process of my doings..
A documentation.
Idk anymore about it. I’ve been being an old soul.
I’ve been inlove for the growth to myself. Love for the process that I could make & when the
time to reach for the main goal for that process, and maybe that’s why I’m still living the life.
Cause all of my entire life. I’ve been surviving.
And now. I’ll be living.
There are difference between surviving and living.
And that’s why you’re here at my own story.

Chapter 01
“Ladies and Gentlemen, good afternoon. Welcome on board. This is Captain Dela Sar
Speaking..”
I’ve shrug. This is it.
A lady flight attendant smiles at me, as i look at her. I just smile back too.
I’m in the flight. And the destination is my dream place.
I can’t wait to step at there. The first step I’d land would be the dream.
The process going here, all of it. Becomes dream come true.
I’m Going to Amsterdam.
The dream at Amsterdam.
I want to scream at the exiting feeling, I’m leaving at my hometown. The one who I used to live
for many years of my life.
The one who’ve I’ve seen the dawn of the sun and the sunset. The breeze of the warm feeling
at the Philippines. And the cold one when it’s a rainy phase of the weather.
Damn, I can’t believe it.
I’d settle down for a while. I’d get my laptop and my headset since I’d want to listen some tunes
so I could feel the moment. And my camera.
I’d open it and press the recording.
I’ve scan and vlog the plane and the side of me. The window. WHICH
I saw the sunset falling down. I’d face the camera at me. And when the moment I’d saw the
sunset slowly falling down.
A tears gradually falls down at my checks.
OH MY GHOD, I’m crying!!!
It’s okay to cry, It’s a human nature. Crying..
anyways I’d wipe those tears away. Ghod it’s been such a long time to cry like this.
It’s a happy tears. I’m so fricking proud at myself of how I’ve become over the years and the
history that had been burned.
Then it was the time for the plane was taking off to the sky.
I am now flying. I’m now at the process to reach my fucking dream.
This is living!!!
After minutes. I’d set up my mini bed at the moment. Cause I know I’d fall asleep anytime and
would watch some movies. Also I stayed up with the camera again so I could document it.
Then once i’ve done. I start to talk again for the camera.
“Hi everyone. I don’t know what to say to this. But it feels weird yk. Living to the process that
would probably reaching your dreams, It feels like dreaming. But I know I’m not dreaming right
now! It’s happening.” I’ve said while smilling like an idiot while talking alone and with my camera
is recording.
When I’m at would be at my old self. I would be so anxious to talk at the camera. But it’s just I
don’t care anymore. People are just curious about it. And there perspective to it would probably
wash away the next day. You’re more likely wasting the opportunity to deal with it.
And mostly above all, confidence is attractive.
“It would be probably hours to land at my dream place. Maybe i should start posting it at my
youtube account. So it would be publicly. But anyways. If I would probably had some payment
at youtube. I would donate half the share to those people who need it.” I’ve said to the camera.
Helping people and the feels to say thankyou is unexplainable feeling in the entire human
emotions.
You should probably try too..
“So anyways peps who’s watching this. I hope your okay there. Life may be cruel but it’s
beautiful and wonderful, remember we have positive and negative. So choice wisely choice the
positivity. To fuster the happiness that it could bring to your life. Keep safe always and take care
of your physical and mental health!” I’ve smile and end the video and stopped the recording.
Then a quite minute that I have to endure.
Sometimes silent was just like an amazing thing to do.
I’d look up at the sky and the down at the airplane. The city lights was amazing.
I think that’s probably PH CEBU light nights since. I’ve gonna take another plane to Manila and
to Singapore then Amsterdam.
I’ve smiled. That’s the place where I’ve get born to.
Cebu City.
My mom was still on her doctoral phase to get to be an doctor. Yet she was pregnant. And had
me. Maybe she wasn’t ment to be a doctor, but a teacher.
She didn’t take the schooling since she wanted to take care of me and build up her own family.
At the age of 27.
Not bad, but yet it feels unreal that you’re the one that make that dream stops. It feels
something.
And I’ve been sometimes healing that it is not my fault. It was their choice to make love despite
what could be the consequences of may bring. And they have said.
Babies are a blessings.
And that’s why maybe that I have a heart to be kind and amazing because I don’t know. I feel
like giving something like a responsibility and have a heart to give for it.
I smiled fakely. I miss my parents…
Then I shrug and called the Flight Attendant to get me some foods, cause I’m hungry for a
while. Then I just eat the Palabok that have been serve at me and my own option to eat
Ghod. It’s my fav and also my moms best recipe at the entire world.
I finish it faster, and I’m going to edit my videos that have left in my hometown so that I could no
longer do it and be homesick to the dream place.
Then I started to open my macbook.
This would be an long emotional ride. I’m gonna feel to it.
I’d get up my sd card from my camera and put it on to the another cable so I could edit it on my
laptop.
Then I’ve settle myself and began.
I bring up a deep sight so I could start now.
_
I’ve cluster my videos into files so It could be easier to find. And also I’m trying my best not yet
to open it so I could not get emotional right now.
Sometimes you must feel the emotions so you could forget it, and move on.
Then since I’m planning to make an youtube account, I’ve been setting up the yt profile.
Also I did my intro, and it’s binge intro with the quote of my name.
CELESTIA ARCHIVES VLOGS
“life with her, to be positive and happy at all times. Journey of forever with Celestia.”
24| Gemini – Single.
Chasing Dreams, honey. Also these videos and I’ve been planning the half of my payment to
donate to those people who needed help. So click the subscribe button, it means a lot to me.
Thnks. Xoxo Celestia.
_
Then after that. I’ve been editing it. I’d also was studying how to make a good angles so it would
be perfect. Since one of my hobbies is watching other peoples life vlog And just get inspired to
live for it. So that’s why I’m doing this and for a cause, and I’ve love doing it.
The first clip was all of the beautiful things that I’ve been vloging.
It was the dawn of the sun, the lake of my hometown Mainit. The dike street lights cause it
would be nostalgia to watch this in the future and also, the trees at Roxas Street which both side
of it has these trees and when it is 3p.m the sunkiss at the hotness could not felt by your skin.
I was biking. With a basket at front. And the angle of the camera was the trees that while
moving of the bike. And also the rice fields. There is no best feeling about that.
The feeling being at your hometown.
Our backyard. Which my lola’s plants was still there. I’d film it too for more like 4 seconds of the
film. The pizza of my hometown from Alicia.
The street foods. I’ve vlog that entire life. The streets which I used to walk to when I need to run
away from all those emotions that I have felt and I feel something that I could forgot by it.
Then the cementary, of where my lola, lolo, mama & papa was grieve. I was visiting them and
saying goodbye to them.
Now a tear drop of water felt on my skin.
I’m crying. And damn I miss my hometown so quickly.
“I should get myself back together. I am going to reach my dreams.” I’ve said to myself.
I’ve also talk to them, how I’ve settle the house. That I made that as an apartment to those who
wanted to live there, and my tita was the one who is on 24/7 looking at it..
And if anything would come. My first cousins would go I would let them.
Besides that house was filled with moments and memories that could never forgotten.
The way I’ve talk again to my close friends for a long time. Since I’ve cut them off due to the
anxiety and feels that I have felt to them.
And how the thoughts would grab my own neck and never ever let me to breath. How one of my
life my thoughts tries to handle my own brain & emotions. Not letting it something to stop. Cause
you are a stranger in that kind of feeling.
But now. I’m already a citizen to that.
It was this journey was such a big step at me.
Then after that it like almost a minute of introduction and a trailer to the vlog.
The ending of the trailer was I was roading a bike, and its says “beginning at last” while I was
riding away from the video. Then it all started. The video was starting.
I put on a pump up and calm beat for the introduction.
The first to the second clip is all about how I’d wake up and the routine that I have been doing
for many minutes more like 2 minutes of it. And how I’d get the book of my own, reading and
having the camera angle got the shot for it. So I could remember it.
How I’ve cook my own food. How I eat alone.
How I water the plants. And everything. The next thing I does. I put on the second clip was
“2nd Day”
Then there. It was on our house of cousins and my lolo’s house where we usually spot. And I’ve
telling them about going on the other state of the country. Many have been crying and hugging
me. I also film at the up of the terrace since that was my fav spot among all spot in the “Big
House” and all the happenings at the moment.
It all caught up by the video that it has been taking.
We’ve been hanging out for the whole day and was doing a party and a sleep over. We talk and
talk about many things that we’ve been going thru in our lives.
They’ve been happy to my decisions. And so am I.
The next day. I ride my bike into my childhood spot.
Where my elementary school. All those memories that have been build up. The mini forest park
where I used to go there. Once I’ve been stress at the very young age.
Funny isn’t it. I am such in a young age but I can feel the sorrows and finding something that
could make me feel calm and safe at my own pace.
I shrug. And continue to the editing. The next thing was the clip of all the scene where I usually
go at my hometown. Then I drove alone with my car open wide. To feel the breeze going out to
my city.
I’ve been planning to book up a hotel so I could stay there for a while. And watch the city lights.
I’ve been into the mall and funny thing.
I bought food incase. I wanted to eat in the flight and also how I wanted to taste it for a while.
Then I’d come to my highschool school. Since which I was on the city learning from being
educated and to handle myself.
But funny and how ironic brings such a long responsibility at me. Bieng independent at such a
fine young age.
16 years old.
That phase which I almost give up.. Many nightmare had occur every night.
Killing my own good self and destroying my inner piece at a very moment.
It’s suffucitating I hate it.
If there would be a possible to do that to less something in mylife. The thing being a 16.
It’s been 15 minutes of editing my video. Still I continue so it would be much easier for later.
Then there was this video of the “Lipata Hills City Light” where I was going there by my own
self. Watching the sunset goes down.
When I was a child I thought everytime that the sun was being drown to deep down of the entire
universe. But I was wrong. It was just a core memory that I’ve always felt.
I’d read this book Aristotle & Dante Discover The Secrets of the Universe.
Qouted: “wait ako ra adto hanapon tapos ako ra diri I send.

Maybe that’s what I’m gonna look for.

A new universe for me to discover.
A new way of living.
Wishing that all the thoughts that would drown me, would be finally put into the wind of infinity of
disappearance on me.
A new beginning for me at last.
Chapter 2.
“Welcome to Amsterdam. Ladies and Gentlemen. Enjoy your stay at your own vacation.
Thankyou for choosing our Airline. “ said by the Captain.
It’s been a 16 hours ride and 23 minutes.
Damn this is it. My dream life. Dream Country.
The new beginning of my own living.
I’d step slowly and there I was. Stepping the land of my dreams.
The cold breeze finally touches my skin. Hovering me into freezing. This is so unreal.
I’’d walk from the plane to the airport. Going on the Process. While walking my eyes gathered
people walking. Doing there own life.
A lot of people was in here.
A lot of stories and perspective of this different human being. Doing their own life. Doing their
roles in this world.
Probably right now. I could feel my hands are with bullet of sweats. And my breathing rhythm is
in not normal mode. My heart is palpitating.
Damn this social anxiety.
I’d get myself quickly and hold my own hand firmly. At least a heat of something could do some
comfort.
A comfort by my own self would do.
But still I wonder how it feels when someone holds your hand when your world was in fear?
I would find no answer to my own question.
I basically would find some comfort room in here.
So Fast.
_
I’d ask the security guard at here, where’s the near comfort room is to be found.
Gladly he was kind and guided me the way.
“Thankyou sir.” I’ve said smiling.
“Your welcome miss. Have a nice stay at the land of Amsterdam. Don’t be such be with the
corrupt of the world here. Be yourself lady. Bonjour.” He said & waves at me and I could see his
retreating back.
The first person who I’ve talk gives me an advice.
Was the society here would be a corrupt? I’d guess I would found out.
We all have different perspective. Maybe I would use that advice as a warning I guess to this
new beginning of me.
I was now in the comfort room and looking at the mirror right now
My wavy end ponytail and bangs makes me more younger than I expected.
I have this chinita cat eye. And a chubby checks with the pale pinkish lips.
I’ve been kinda pale because I don’t even go out for a while & It’s been my own born skin.
A role of different kind of beauty that may can give. Maybe our own attitude, style or personality.
It’s just in between the people who wanted to see the beauty of their standards.
I’ll let myself calm before going back again to the sea of many people. There is such no time to
feel like this. It’s been a limit to feel my emotions once again.
I’ve exit the comfort room and proceed to the lobby.
My best tita promised me that she could lend me her old apartment for a while. Since they have
been moving from the past 1week from this day.
It’s been such a pleasure to settle it right away. It’s been such a great chance above all.
Minutes later. A phone call occur.
I’d form a smile and answer it.
“Welcome sweetie to Amsterdam! I’m really sorry I can’t meet you at the airport and the one to
show to you for the apartment but I already settle it with my people.” She said.
I’m kinda sad that she wasn’t be able to meet me here. I was expecting her to be with me for the
time. So we could scroll down to the city.
Guess this would be my me time.
“Oh no worries tita. I’m good to go & Thankyou for everything that you have done to me.” I said.
“Naku iha. Walang anuman. Just be aware at all times okay? Love you! Theres an coffee café
near in your apartment. It’s new and I’m really sure you would like it there.” She said.
Omy gosh! A near café. Really this would absolutely take time to scroll in the city of Amsterdam.
“Thankyou again tita. I’m looking forward to the café that you recommended. I’m going now na
po.” I said.
“Okay sweetie. I’ll send you the profile of our driver & by any chance he had this banner with
your name on it.”
Then she ended the call afterwards.
I smiled. This is it.
Before I like to walk, I’d set up my camera and turn it on.
I’d like to film myself for the moment.
“Hi world! I’m finally at the dream land Amsterdam!” I was giggling and smiling. My own self
appearance showed in the screen of the camera. Which I had the sunglass and the part of my
turtle neck showed up and my broad shoulders.
“So before I get to vlog myself. I had an anxiety attack a while ago. But I’m better now. I’ve calm
my thoughts that bugging my head. The some typical reasons for the cause of my own anxiety.
But anyways let’s not just get too hard at ourselves. We all have our own weakness.” I’d explain.
“So now. I would find and kindly meet someone that would come and pick me up at the airport.
And btw heres the airport!”
I showed the camera about how the things that have appeared. I am now in the middle of the
airport. And it could see here the full view of it.
Then I’d face it again and talk.
“So. I would show you next after I’d see the driver that had requested me to pick up.”
I’d smile and yet I did what I’ve said.
_
I was gazing and looking for someone. I’m in the outside now looking.
And then a group of teenagers bump in with me. Only the white cardigan girl comes with me
and said.
“Omygosh I’m really sorry. Were such in a hurry. Are you hurt?”
Her friends left her behind.
“No, I’m fine actually sorry I wasn’t looking at my way.” I’ve explained.
She just smiled at me and said. “I wasn’t looking neither. Your beautiful btw. And I really need to
go now.” She said and winked at me.
My heart flatter. That person is sweet.
If people in the Earth would be kind and be positive. The world would be like this beautiful word
that is a powerful word of meaning.
I wasn’t had any chance to say thankyou.
Wow really..
Then when I turned around someone was standing next to me with the banner.
“Welcome to the dream land Celestia!- Aunt Ophelia.” It said.
I’ve smiled. This is the man that would pick me up.
He was wearing an formal attire which usual driver attire wears.
“Seems like your madam Celestia isn’t?” his voice is low and smiled at me.
“Seems you’re the boy that picks me right now. Hi I’m Celestia, and it’s nice to meet you by the
way can I take a video of you standing there just for a little bit of documentation. It’s okay if you
don’t want too. No hard feelings Sir.” I’ve said.
He just look at me and said “a pleasure to do madam.” Then I’ve on once again my camera.
And film him. Then he did a wacky pose and I was laughing due to it because it was funny.
“Wow thankyou. You’re doing great.” I’ve said while turning off the recording.
“No worries madam. That’s all I’ve got. A piece of charm.” He said.
I laugh at it.
“I love your confidence huh. Keep it up.” I’ve said then he just smiled and now were walking.
“This way madam.” He said and then I’d follow him.
While I was recording his back.
For documentation purpose only.
_
Were in the parking lot right now. Many cars have park. Silly me what’s the use of the parking
lot if there’s no car nor other vehicle would use? O my gosh my brain.
Then after that the man opens the car door at me.
I smiled and getting inside.
It was just a 4 car seater inside.
And I was on the backseat. A big space for me.
“Do you have any errands at the moment madam?” The guy asked.
“No. I doesn’t have any plans at the moment. Let’s just straight to the apartment.” I’ve said.
He just nods himself.
I wanted to look at the apartment and search as some aesthetic things that I could buy.
To make myself comfortable. Since tita Ophelia was a stubborn generous woman. She gave me
a thousand dollar to add some decorations.
Imagine? How big that money is. If there would extra money for it. I’d like to donate it
somewhere.
I look at the car window. We are here in the streets of Amsterdam. Which no oddly traffic that
had occur.
“Excuse me, what time is it?” I asked the driver.
“It’s 9:30 A.M Madam.” He said.
“Oh thankyou.” I’ve said.
Looks like I would have a lot of time to suit myself in this dream.
I’ve open once again my camera as we our path involve the city. How those aesthestic pleasing
café. Those buildings. Everything around the corner of Amsterdam I have never imagine. I have
film it.
Once again I’d come to a little bit of confidence to vlog.
“So I’m currently at the car right now. With the precious driver. Where going to my apartment.
And I would love to decorate it with you guys imam make it as a content. Lol funny me. This
would be like the introduction for it. But anyways. As I promise I have this wonderful friend. Or
what you have called aunt. She gave me an 110k thousand dollar. Just to decorate my place.
And the rest for it. I would take it to the orphans. So children might would have a smile on their
faces.” I’ve said, then the driver said “Were almost there madam.”
And I smiled to him. I switch back again the view sight of my camera to the road. And I would
love to memorize this street and now. I should call it my own home.
_
Minutes later I found myself looking up at the tall building infront of me. And it says “Mi Casa
Hotel”
How come this would be my lovely home? How come I deserve this. Omy god~
This is such more than I deserve and more than I imagine. I called right away my Aunt.
Processing could be this be true? How could I was like in the verge of breakdown rightnow
because of the joy that I have felt.
“Ringing”

“Ringing”

“Ringing”

“Oh hello dear, Shock? Isnt’?????!!” She said giggling around the corner.
“Tita what the heck-“ I could finally say it. Enduring all the shock in my body.
“Oh iha, it’s just a good taste for you. I’m pretty sure you’re still in the open front door & you’re
aren’t in inside right now. But trust me the inside is much..” she pause. And I interrupted.
“Okay tita. Let’s ssssh our mouth for a second. I’m gonna go inside now talaga. God bless u”
I’ve said.
As I entired the hotel. A line of hotel crew was smilling at me and said had the line.
I mouted. “Could I vlog in here?”
They just giggled “Pleasure to be featured.” They all said in a chorus.
I am so shock right now.
I’ve record my cam quickly and there are all smilling at me.
How come this may be real? It’s breathtaking feeling like it’s such too much to bear.
No words could explain the thought of my feeling right now in between of them. Omy gosh.
_
I’ve recorded the beautiful venue. The huge chandelier. The everything scenary around the
hotel. Then we’ve come to this elevator.
I’ve come to the front deck at the second floor. Since it’s just a louge area
A big place. It’s so dazzling around here. I feel like a kid lurking about everything.
After minutes of looking around. I was no in my room.
It was a hell big room.
I look around and damn. There was this huge tv in the front. Kitchen and Sala. A master around
the corner from the back of the TV wall. Then when I look around, there was this door.
And a terrance. A view of the city. I am in the 27th Floor in the dorm hotel.
How could be this real?
I’ve come in the bathroom. And there was this bath tub and shower, the toilet the mirror which
you must do your make-up. Everything feels unreal.
They say money, can’t buy happiness. But it surely buys me.
How pretty is this. Damn it huhu.
There I goes again vlogging the entire place.
“Oh my ghod. I feel like crying and I just can’t express the gratitude that I have this day, The
passing hours have been such unbelievable. The energy that I have been enduring, Everything.
I am going to strive for more about sending it to the orphans and people who is having hard
time. I am so happy and this would probably gives me inspiration to strive for more and
motivation to work harder, to give happiness too from the other people. “ I’ve said
“To my tita Ophelia. Thankyou so much. You’re such an heaven in the universe tita. Btw I’m
might show to you her. She was such an kind soul guys. And you must meet her. I would talk
about this matter pretty soon to you. And I have so many ways to introduce to you guys, the
new world of me.”

“Be with me in this kind of journey” I’ve said and smile. Then I’ve finally stop the recording.
I’ve roam around the room. Can’t imagine what life was supposed to feel by this way.
It was such so different from back then. Where I was surving.
And in this case. I am doing my best to live. Cause this was my price for surviving the chaos of
life waves that have given to me.
Life was like an sea of problems and you’re in there trying to overcome to learn to swim or end
up drowning.
But In my case.
I was learning to swim.
To reach the shore.
A shore where peace may fuster happiness and positivity.
I’ve smilled back again.
I think I’m gonna take a rest for a while and put back this things in where I should put. And go on
shopping to buy some clothes.
_
After that first nap in the master bedroom. I’ve alarm so I could get up and do my work. It’s so
funny I thought it still afternoon still because of this jet lag feeling.
And it’s now 8p.m
Now omg I think I really should start to make myself in the routine to where I should sleep and
wake up.
And the night could not stop me to wanting to go to the mall.
I know I think. There would be such a different mall out here.
And I must go on to google maps so I could not lost my way.
And I look at the fridge, and there are just snacks din naman. But I would like to take some
groceries and look for some Filipino foods.
This would be on another vlog, I film the entire night. Looking for groceries. And I was lucky that
I have bought some Filipino snacks. And also some things that I could eat for the week. I also
plan to go out next day so I could buy some things and renovate the dorm. But I think that would
be so early to renovate that much.
Let’s just take things slow.
And now it’s been 10:30 p,m in Amsterdam.
I’m booking a cab, from what service my Aunt Ophelia told me, since she just trusted that
service in her entire life.
I’m planning to buy some coffee and to read in the coffee shop, and probably go out after I
would get my laptop so I could also edit there, and post a video in youtube so far.
_
I’m now on the elevator going out, and taking where my aunt Ophelia told me that she
recommend me that café.
It’s been such a walking distance.
It’s like been an 180 steps to go there.
Then I found the café. It called, “Rex Café” the ambience is such a mood setter to be
productive. That color orange bulbs and the smell of the coffee. There was such a lot of people
around here. It look somehow an Korean café.
I love Korean café.
Then there this book corner. Like a library and had books around it. There were people around
there and I would love to be there too.
I took a picture at the café and posted it on my Instagram story. And after that i’ve come to the
counter.
“Hi Goodevening, what can I get for you?” she said smilling at me.
“Hi goodevening too, one iced coffee pls and that chocolate moist cake also.” I’ve said as
looking at the cake and my tummy is craving for it.
“Okay. We would call for you, what’s your name?” she said
“Celestia.”
“What a nice name, it suits you. Okay Celestia. Just wait for a bit. Find some comfortable spots
around the corner ;). Thankyou for ordering.” She said
I’ve just smiled as a response
I’ve sit around the libarby coffee corner. There were group of teenagers along the way and
some I think same age as me.
I’ve roam around for a second time.
My eyes stayed at that broad shoulder man, Who had this white t-shirt and black pants belt. His
style is an Filipino aesthestic man.
What the f?
What if his such an Filipino guy? Lalandiin ko ba?
I laugh. I just admired him I think.
Then after a minute, he just stayed at there for a while. Then the lady called my name.
“Celestia”
Then I’ve come to get it.
I was walking straightly while my hair was on my shoulder moving gradually as the way I’ve
move.
My eyes was looking at the counter.
Then when my gaze look at the man.
He was staring at me, like I was such an piece of art.
After that, i get my order with the tray then this man move closely to me.
And now were facing together. His height is such to tall and I’m on his shoulder.
Omy ghod. My heart beat double as I look at those eyes, and as he looks at my face too. The
way that he smile.
It makes my heart fluster, what the hell?
am I having an attraction to this guy?
“Gags ang pogi mop paps.” I’ve said slowly while now looking at my order.
I stoped.
What the ef. It was supposed to be a thought on my mind, but I was uttering those words.
I think that would be okay right? Di naman siya Filipino.
“I know right Celestia.” He said now smilling. While our skin touch cause he get the tray at me.
“let me do it for you. Let’s go on your table.” HE said.
I was to stun to speak.
What the hell?????????
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Cyrus POV
Her beauty was such an art piece.
I was attracted to her.
How such this girl was so fine?
I didn’t know I was staring at her. While I was mesmerized at her beauty.
There are a lot of woman who had a beauty. But her was different.
As the cashier mentioned her name.
I could feel my heartbeat double the beat.
“Celestia”
What a beautiful name as this beautiful existence of her too.
I’m smiling like an idiot. While accompanying here to take that order to her at the table.
As much as she said “ Gags ang pogi mop paps” she didn’t knew I was a Filipino.
And I own this restaurant.
And I helped her, cause she is an customer.
But we all know that not just that. Because I was attracted to her too.
I’ve leave after that, at kinuha na ang order ko.
I thank my employee and proceed to my car. Going home.
Her face looks like home.
I’ve been such lost.
And my days are being in bad.
But looking at her.
It feels comfort.
Her existence is such a comfort.
Celestia. I think I’ve found my home
Never have I ever imagine at that interaction and beauty could make my heart beat like a
moron.
Chapter 3
The morning sunrays hits my soft skin. The heat that it felts makes my heart flutter.
A new morning, first morning here in Amsterdam.
I’ve get up my journal & my bible book journal too.
This is the way that I have the time to myself to reflect things above all. Espicially when I’m in
the midst of doubts of myself and the things that seriously could affect my negativity thoughts
around my head one time.
Journaling is like talking at the same time listening. It’s been such a rare felt of having that
aspects to feel in life. The story, the plot of your life is written there. To have that kind of idea
really changes me.
Everymorning I came to reflect what have happened yesterday & the must happening and
looking forward to what should happen in the today.
That’s have been making my life easier & in complete mental state.
Also the words of the bible inside was such a breathtaking feels above all. It feels like life was in
there. In times of happiness and sorrows, words that feels comfort are there to accompany you.
And the precious moment with growing faith to the creator of the universe feels so unreal.
I still remember the time when someone said this to me “You’re going on hard times, because
God was creating and growing your character into something, and it’s yours to found out what to
think during in that times. It’s your decision. So even when your in the midst of dying, everything
would come to change and there would be light. And that is God also gives. Because he finally
had the reason and the answer for changing your character. Without you noticing, This is just
my opinion. But everything happens for a reason. You have a reason in this world. You’ll be
able to found out soon. Slowly and one day at a time. Just trust the process to him.”
She was this grandma, that came by to our house. When she saw my breaking down in our
garden yard.
And slowly everything chages and makes me try to change my lifestyle and everything.
It’s not that fast, it’s been a slow healing process, but it’s still a process and you can’t even know
that you’ve been healing. It is time when you allow yourself again to do something that is
extraordinary and getting ready for a new getting away of your comfort zone.
And I believe that is life. Chaos and extraordinary and unexplainable feeling and having secrets
it. It’s been a chance to discover.
How sad, that you’re just given into an endless life and short one.
But just be thankful that you have the sense of feeling to live. To experience and to learn.
I’ve now staring to write.
Diary| o1 day at Amsterdam
Everything was such new, and I love it.
How things was so overwhelming and amazing, Unexplainable feeling to endure.
How come my life was been like this?
In the sorrows of sadness from the past years, into healing and now I’m into the living of a new
chapter to found out. Let’s just stay In the form of happiness ;)
The air, time. Smile of the people, the dawn of the sun, set, the place that I have been living. Is
such a unbelievable again. Its been such a long time since I’ve got an feels of something in my
life. That is having positivity and new changes to bring.
How do dear diary, I have been attractive to this damn guy.
And he even help me, carry my tray to my table. The damn smile of him. How come we cross
our path?
What’s gonna be the next thing that we’d do once we’ve meet again? Is it in café?
I don’t even know if I’d be able to see him again. But pretty sure it might be in the café right? We
doesn’t know right? But i’m tankful about wat append between us.
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