Story Set- Up

Prologue

They’ve said Life is to short to be sad. Lurking about the dos of the future pretty sure is
bad. Making all those anxiety and fear build up to what will the today may found out, and
the yesterday nightmare and the futures outcome.

But hey, the world might be ending soon. But it isn’t yesterday, and it isn’t tomorrow.
Maybe it must be today. Who knows right? That’s why live your shit today. Cause today will
be yesterday and the key for tomorrow.

Live the Life. Be Positive. Do your wants. Know limits.

Enjoy breathing. Cause if all of those emotions once control you. You will be drawn into the
lost of the world and be overwhelm to the darkness of life, and no light of positivity may
shine.

Yet life is full of happiness and sadness. Just learn to get used to it and forget it. Learn
the lessons that the old mistake did.

I’ve smile and pose and end the recording.

Yes I’m recording, at least I can remember the expressions and feelings that I have been
expressing to that one time of my life. When my future self would came, I would watch it
and just maybe for a second I could feel my old self telling me what I’ve been doing.

The growth and the process of my doings..

A documentation.

Idk anymore about it. I’ve been being an old soul.

I’ve been inlove for the growth to myself. Love for the process that I could make & when
the time to reach for the main goal for that process, and maybe that’s why I’m still living
the life.

Cause all of my entire life. I’ve been surviving.

And now. I’ll be living.

There are difference between surviving and living.

And that’s why you’re here at my own story.

Chapter 01

“Ladies and Gentlemen, good afternoon. Welcome on board. This is Captain Dela Sar
Speaking..”

I’ve shrug. This is it.

A lady flight attendant smiles at me, as i look at her. I just smile back too.

I’m in the flight. And the destination is my dream place.

I can’t wait to step at there. The first step I’d land would be the dream.

The process going here, all of it. Becomes dream come true.

I’m Going to Amsterdam.

The dream at Amsterdam.

I want to scream at the exiting feeling, I’m leaving at my hometown. The one who I used to
live for many years of my life.

The one who’ve I’ve seen the dawn of the sun and the sunset. The breeze of the warm
feeling at the Philippines. And the cold one when it’s a rainy phase of the weather.

Damn, I can’t believe it.

I’d settle down for a while. I’d get my laptop and my headset since I’d want to listen some
tunes so I could feel the moment. And my camera.

I’d open it and press the recording.

I’ve scan and vlog the plane and the side of me. The window. WHICH

I saw the sunset falling down. I’d face the camera at me. And when the moment I’d saw
the sunset slowly falling down.

A tears gradually falls down at my checks.

OH MY GHOD, I’m crying!!!

It’s okay to cry, It’s a human nature. Crying..

anyways I’d wipe those tears away. Ghod it’s been such a long time to cry like this.

It’s a happy tears. I’m so fricking proud at myself of how I’ve become over the years and
the history that had been burned.

Then it was the time for the plane was taking off to the sky.
I am now flying. I’m now at the process to reach my fucking dream.

This is living!!!

After minutes. I’d set up my mini bed at the moment. Cause I know I’d fall asleep anytime
and would watch some movies. Also I stayed up with the camera again so I could document
it.

Then once i’ve done. I start to talk again for the camera.

“Hi everyone. I don’t know what to say to this. But it feels weird yk. Living to the process
that would probably reaching your dreams, It feels like dreaming. But I know I’m not
dreaming right now! It’s happening.” I’ve said while smilling like an idiot while talking alone
and with my camera is recording.

When I’m at would be at my old self. I would be so anxious to talk at the camera. But it’s
just I don’t care anymore. People are just curious about it. And there perspective to it
would probably wash away the next day. You’re more likely wasting the opportunity to deal
with it.

And mostly above all, confidence is attractive.

“It would be probably hours to land at my dream place. Maybe i should start posting it at
my youtube account. So it would be publicly. But anyways. If I would probably had some
payment at youtube. I would donate half the share to those people who need it.” I’ve said
to the camera.

Helping people and the feels to say thankyou is unexplainable feeling in the entire human
emotions.

You should probably try too..

“So anyways peps who’s watching this. I hope your okay there. Life may be cruel but it’s
beautiful and wonderful, remember we have positive and negative. So choice wisely choice
the positivity. To fuster the happiness that it could bring to your life. Keep safe always
and take care of your physical and mental health!” I’ve smile and end the video and stopped
the recording.

Then a quite minute that I have to endure.

Sometimes silent was just like an amazing thing to do.

I’d look up at the sky and the down at the airplane. The city lights was amazing.

I think that’s probably PH CEBU light nights since. I’ve gonna take another plane to Manila
and to Singapore then Amsterdam.
I’ve smiled. That’s the place where I’ve get born to.

Cebu City.

My mom was still on her doctoral phase to get to be an doctor. Yet she was pregnant. And
had me. Maybe she wasn’t ment to be a doctor, but a teacher.

She didn’t take the schooling since she wanted to take care of me and build up her own
family. At the age of 27.

Not bad, but yet it feels unreal that you’re the one that make that dream stops. It feels
something.

And I’ve been sometimes healing that it is not my fault. It was their choice to make love
despite what could be the consequences of may bring. And they have said.

Babies are a blessings.

And that’s why maybe that I have a heart to be kind and amazing because I don’t know. I
feel like giving something like a responsibility and have a heart to give for it.

I smiled fakely. I miss my parents…

Then I shrug and called the Flight Attendant to get me some foods, cause I’m hungry for a
while. Then I just eat the Palabok that have been serve at me and my own option to eat

Ghod. It’s my fav and also my moms best recipe at the entire world.

I finish it faster, and I’m going to edit my videos that have left in my hometown so that I
could no longer do it and be homesick to the dream place.

Then I started to open my macbook.

This would be an long emotional ride. I’m gonna feel to it.

I’d get up my sd card from my camera and put it on to the another cable so I could edit it
on my laptop.

Then I’ve settle myself and began.

I bring up a deep sight so I could start now.

I’ve cluster my videos into files so It could be easier to find. And also I’m trying my best
not yet to open it so I could not get emotional right now.

Sometimes you must feel the emotions so you could forget it, and move on.
Then since I’m planning to make an youtube account, I’ve been setting up the yt profile.

Also I did my intro, and it’s binge intro with the quote of my name.

CELESTIA ARCHIVES VLOGS

“life with her, to be positive and happy at all times. Journey of forever with Celestia.”

24| Gemini – Single.

Chasing Dreams, honey. Also these videos and I’ve been planning the half of my payment to
donate to those people who needed help. So click the subscribe button, it means a lot to
me. Thnks. Xoxo Celestia.

Then after that. I’ve been editing it. I’d also was studying how to make a good angles so it
would be perfect. Since one of my hobbies is watching other peoples life vlog And just get
inspired to live for it. So that’s why I’m doing this and for a cause, and I’ve love doing it.

The first clip was all of the beautiful things that I’ve been vloging.

It was the dawn of the sun, the lake of my hometown Mainit. The dike street lights cause
it would be nostalgia to watch this in the future and also, the trees at Roxas Street which
both side of it has these trees and when it is 3p.m the sunkiss at the hotness could not
felt by your skin.

I was biking. With a basket at front. And the angle of the camera was the trees that while
moving of the bike. And also the rice fields. There is no best feeling about that.

The feeling being at your hometown.

Our backyard. Which my lola’s plants was still there. I’d film it too for more like 4 seconds
of the film. The pizza of my hometown from Alicia.

The street foods. I’ve vlog that entire life. The streets which I used to walk to when I
need to run away from all those emotions that I have felt and I feel something that I
could forgot by it.

Then the cementary, of where my lola, lolo, mama & papa was grieve. I was visiting them
and saying goodbye to them.

Now a tear drop of water felt on my skin.

I’m crying. And damn I miss my hometown so quickly.

“I should get myself back together. I am going to reach my dreams.” I’ve said to myself.
I’ve also talk to them, how I’ve settle the house. That I made that as an apartment to
those who wanted to live there, and my tita was the one who is on 24/7 looking at it..

And if anything would come. My first cousins would go I would let them.

Besides that house was filled with moments and memories that could never forgotten.

The way I’ve talk again to my close friends for a long time. Since I’ve cut them off due to
the anxiety and feels that I have felt to them.

And how the thoughts would grab my own neck and never ever let me to breath. How one of
my life my thoughts tries to handle my own brain & emotions. Not letting it something to
stop. Cause you are a stranger in that kind of feeling.

But now. I’m already a citizen to that.

It was this journey was such a big step at me.

Then after that it like almost a minute of introduction and a trailer to the vlog.

The ending of the trailer was I was roading a bike, and its says “beginning at last” while I
was riding away from the video. Then it all started. The video was starting.

I put on a pump up and calm beat for the introduction.

The first to the second clip is all about how I’d wake up and the routine that I have been
doing for many minutes more like 2 minutes of it. And how I’d get the book of my own,
reading and having the camera angle got the shot for it. So I could remember it.

How I’ve cook my own food. How I eat alone.

How I water the plants. And everything. The next thing I does. I put on the second clip
was

“2nd Day”

Then there. It was on our house of cousins and my lolo’s house where we usually spot. And
I’ve telling them about going on the other state of the country. Many have been crying and
hugging me. I also film at the up of the terrace since that was my fav spot among all spot
in the “Big House” and all the happenings at the moment.

It all caught up by the video that it has been taking.

We’ve been hanging out for the whole day and was doing a party and a sleep over. We talk
and talk about many things that we’ve been going thru in our lives.

They’ve been happy to my decisions. And so am I.

The next day. I ride my bike into my childhood spot.

Where my elementary school. All those memories that have been build up. The mini forest
park where I used to go there. Once I’ve been stress at the very young age.

Funny isn’t it. I am such in a young age but I can feel the sorrows and finding something
that could make me feel calm and safe at my own pace.

I shrug. And continue to the editing. The next thing was the clip of all the scene where I
usually go at my hometown. Then I drove alone with my car open wide. To feel the breeze
going out to my city.

I’ve been planning to book up a hotel so I could stay there for a while. And watch the city
lights. I’ve been into the mall and funny thing.

I bought food incase. I wanted to eat in the flight and also how I wanted to taste it for a
while. Then I’d come to my highschool school. Since which I was on the city learning from
being educated and to handle myself.

But funny and how ironic brings such a long responsibility at me. Bieng independent at such
a fine young age.

16 years old.

That phase which I almost give up.. Many nightmare had occur every night.

Killing my own good self and destroying my inner piece at a very moment.

It’s suffucitating I hate it.

If there would be a possible to do that to less something in mylife. The thing being a 16.

It’s been 15 minutes of editing my video. Still I continue so it would be much easier for
later.

Then there was this video of the “Lipata Hills City Light” where I was going there by my
own self. Watching the sunset goes down.

When I was a child I thought everytime that the sun was being drown to deep down of the
entire universe. But I was wrong. It was just a core memory that I’ve always felt.

I’d read this book Aristotle & Dante Discover The Secrets of the Universe.

Qouted: “wait ako ra adto hanapon tapos ako ra diri I send.

Maybe that’s what I’m gonna look for.

A new universe for me to discover.

A new way of living.

Wishing that all the thoughts that would drown me, would be finally put into the wind of
infinity of disappearance on me.

A new beginning for me at last.

Chapter 2.

“Welcome to Amsterdown. Ladies and Gentelmen. Enjoy your stay at your own vacation.
Thankyou for chossing our Airline. “ said by the Captain.

It’s been a 16 hours ride and 23 minutes.

Damn this is it. My dream life. Dream Country.

The new beginning of my own living.

I’d step slowly and there I was. Stepping the land of my dreams.

The cold breeze finally touches my skin. Hovering me into freezing. This is so unreal.

I’’d walk from the plane to the airport. Going on the Process. While walking my eyes
gathered people walking. Doing there own life.

A lot of people was in here.

A lot of stories and perspective of this different human being. Doing their own life. Doing
there Roles in this world.

Probably right now. I could feel my hands are with boulet of sweats. And my breathing
rhytm is in not normal mode. My heart is palpitating.

Damn this social anxiety.

I’d get myself quickly and hold my own hand firmly. Atleast a heat of something could do
some comfort.

A comfort by my own self would do.

But still I wonder how it feels when someone holds your hand when your world was in fear?

I would find no answer to my own question.

I basically would find some comfort room in here.

So Fast.

I’d ask the security guard at here, where’s the near comfort room is to be found.
Gladly he was kind and guided me the way.

“Thankyou sir.” I’ve said smiling.

“Your welcome miss. Have a nice stay at the land of Amsterdam. Don’t be such be with the
corrupt of the world here. Be yourself lady. Bonjour.” He said & waves at me and I could
see his retreating back.

The first person who I’ve talk gives me an advice.

Was the society here was a corrupt? I’d guess I would found out.

We all have different perspective. Maybe I would use that advice as a warning I guess to
this new beginning at me.

I was now in the comfort room and looking at the mirror rn.

My wavy end ponytail and bangs makes me more younger than I expected.

I have this chinita cat eye. And a chubby checks with the pale pinkish lips.

I’ve been kinda pale because I don’t even go out for a while & It’s been my own born skin.