SHE WHO STUMBLED

I scored 56 out of 60 on the final exam. How are you? I instantly turned my attention to my
classmates who were gloating about their high grades in the rear.

It is obvious that I won't be able to contribute to the discussion on academic success.

I am one of the students that takes a while to process new information; I consider myself to be a
slow learner.

I'll confess that there was a moment in my life when I envied my classmates who were intelligent,
participated in class, and got high marks despite not having prepared for a test. What if a review
was conducted? They would probably do well on the tests and any other tasks.

As I consider this, I come to the idea that it is wrong for me to feel envious of them and that
instead, I should use this as motivation to continue with my studies.

One of my students questioned me, "Jane, how 'bout you? What score did you earn on the test?"
I took a leisurely look at the exam paper that was on my desk and focused on the smudged 30/60
at the top.

I felt the sincerity of what my classmate said, but I only gave him a bitter smile in response.
"That's okay! We will still have more tests to come! You will definitely redeem your scores. If
you need our help, don't be shy to ask, got it? We are just one call away," he said, turning to
look at my test paper.

I can thank God for having a kind and kind classmate if there is just one thing in the world.

Our group is a whole package, consisting of thoughtful people.

And I believe I've simply lost my way in this part.

"Everyone, return to your individual seats," our next subject instructor remarked as she entered
the classroom, prompting my classmates to return to their seats and begin listening.

But then everything changed.....

COVID-19 appeared, a pandemic occurred, and online courses were launched. I was at a loss
for what to do.

I'm attempting to improve myself by being a better student. I studied all night, drank a lot of
coffee to keep awake at morning, didn't eat anymore, till I ignored myself... However, it did not
seem that this was sufficient, and the problem has worsened as a result of my mental health
concerns caused by online courses and others.

That is, until I discovered...

I don't need a perfect score on every test or quiz, and I don't need to put pressure on myself to be
one of the best students in our class; as long as I get a passing mark, I'll be happy. Because my
mental health is the most essential thing.

Now I've told myself that I'll be a better student and graduate from college with good mental
health.