kA High School Star
Making it big was always a dream that I
hoped to reach. Which came super fast
midsummer when I was barely entering my
junior year of high school. I had somehow
grabbed the attention of many people
around the world that started to change my
life. How?...you may be asking yourself.
Well, I owe it to some of my friends who
introduced me to a platform where
influencers were creating videos. I
honestly felt like it was pretty retarded
because everything I was focused on was
school and scholarships. My idea of making
it big was playing for an NCAA Division
one basketball team and then going into
the WNBA. Little did I know that wasn't
God's plan for me.
As summer went on I was somehow convinced
to start posting and my number of
followers continued to grow. Honestly, I
didn't know how to feel. There were now
new opportunities for me that had a choice
to do. Now that I look back to it I wished
I would have declined everything and
continue on the path was already on. But
as a teenage kid when all you think about
is money and helping your parents out you
would obviously go to the easy things
first.
Especially when you're growing up in a
household full of people that are living
on top of each other. I guess you could
say that was my drive of making it big. It
had gotten to the point that I couldn't
handle being in the same home with 10
people. Yet that wasn't what people saw
And yeah sure it probably my fault for it
being like that, didn't let anyone in. I
don't know if I was embarrassed or what it
was. But my drive to make my parents get
out of what they were living in was my
only point. This is why was thankful for
every opportunity that came my way. Until
I was stabled enough with what I had to
work on. Which was the spark that brought
all the "change" within months..
As a teenager in the industry, it becomes
difficult to manage everything around you

within the first couple of months.
Especially when you are being contacted
from everywhere since you're at the top of
your peak when barely starting. It
honestly got to the point that I couldn't
even see my hometown friends anymore and
they thought I was changing. Changing in
the sense of not doing videos with them so
they could build their brands as well. But
something that most of them didn't
understand was that I was under management
that was helping grow a certain type of
brand. So I didn't control or make choices
on my own. It honestly made me feel like
they were fake because as my friend would
suspect them to stay with me and
understand. Unfortunately, that wasn't the
case so I had to somehow brush it off. But
All I remember seeing in my comments is
people bashing me for trying to live.
Comments such as:
 "All for the money”
 "She made it big but I hope it comes
down"
 "Who even is she anymore"
 "Could have been a star but isn't"
 "I don't know here anymore; fame
changes people"
The older I got I noticed it was always
something managers tried to push away
because you're bringing in money. Little
did I know all the happiness I thought I
was feeling was just for the camera. Yes,
there was a good part, don't get me wrong.
But it got to the point that I couldn't
even go out to eat with my family or
"friends" because I would be stormed from
every angle. Don't get me wrong it's great
to have support but demanding people is
what starts to make things worse. Slowly
noticing I was no longer the kid from
Inglewood but a "Hollywood" kid, that does
anything in front of the camera because
that's what you're suspected to do. It's
always: "smile for the camera." I still
had somewhat of a "normal" life by going
to school but it just wasn't the same.
Cameras were on me every step that I was
taking. Always capturing everything you
are doing and it's honestly scary because
you feel owned since you're followed
everywhere. There was no way to get rid of
them or tell them to go away. Since any of
that would make you look like a terrible
person. just like you. I'm a player like you, I'm
not special." "shoves her
My friends were no longer feeling safe
around me because they were limited to say
anything when around me to people. Since Cameron: "Not special, are you sure about
they knew what was going on behind the that. Because if you haven't forgotten all
scenes since I would open up about it. It the cameras are here for you. So yeah sure
was terrible. That eventually one day you weren't doing it for everybody out
after losing a game I was told about there. Tell us when you aren't, you always
hogging the ball for everything we were make yourself look great. But let me tell
doing on the court. Which led to a whole you something this team is running because
argument that was somehow released into we have the power not because of you."
the world. Making me believe that was the
person in the wrong even though what I
thought was privacy wasn't...
Me: "What are you talking about? It's not
my fault I didn't ask for this. Maybe if
you were open
Cameron: "This one is on you. If you
wouldn't focus on looking great for the
camera we would still be UNDEFEATED. You
you could have gotten it but you weren't
are the one that this and I hope you like
now were you."
the cameras still."

Cameron: "That doesn't matter. This is not

Me: What are you talking about, I wasn't
the first time it's happened and I'm sure
doing ** for the camera. I'm here playing
it won't be the last. So tell me when I
a game
have my friends back. I'd like to hear
from her again."
Honestly, it could have been worse now
that I remember about it again. But the
fact that my privacy within the team was
lost I decided to give up on the team that
gave me an actual reason to be happy.
Everything Cameron had told now began to
feel real. Which made me question
everything I was doing. didn't want to
just smile in front of the camera because
I had to. Yet I was stopped because it was
hammered into me that it wasn't the best
idea. After all, I would lose everything
according to my management people. So held
the pain in until one day it came to be
bad that led to very terrible decisions.
Somehow one of my high school friends
named Kaylee came to notice my new actions
which got her worried. Although it was too
late...
In all honesty, I thought I was on my own
for the rest of the ride from here. I
imagined doing things that I never thought
I'd get to do. According to me, I had my
life already planned out and that was to
play ball. But this influencer industry is
what changes everything in a person if you
don't have support in the way that you
need it. Yeah, it seems fun but you are
sometimes overworked and are asked to say
okay with anything anybody asks you to do.
That's just the way it is because you
never know when it's all going to stop.
Until no one came to ask how I was deep
down inside. Which came to be very
eventful in the upcoming years....
August 18, 2047
Reporter: Christian...
Reporter: Christina Ross.....
Reporter:....Overdosing on what some are
saying could be cocaine according to many
people
she is close to....
Reporter:...Now she is stable but doctors
are saying that these next 24 hours could
be a challenge due to everything they
see....
Reporter: Everybody now asking themselves
if this popstar is going to make it as she
receives
a lot of love and prayers her way...
Reporter: The family has asked for
everyone to calm down and not to worry but
obviously that never works with such a big
star... especially when they are on a
hospital bed fighting for their life.....
41/2 months pass...
Friend: "How do you feel..?"
Me: "Seared. I don't....I don't know what
to do..."
Friend: "You got this don't worry..."
Me: "I haven't been on camera for a while
now....
I was going to be okay. "Okay" to me just
wasn't it.... I had somehow survived what
I went through and there is still pain. I
know I hurt myself but most I hurt the
ones I loved because all they saw was me
laying on a bed hoping I woke up. Little
did they know....
I wasn't the person they once knew. I had
suffered so much damage after being in
that bed. It was very difficult to move on
at first. But I eventually did start over
and began to remember who I was. Turns out
some of my high school friends had asked
to see me but they have declined that
chance. All due to me saying no. There was
just pain there I would have thought they
would keep up but it just wasn't meant for
me to be with them.

So they were eventually shut out of my

life for the better according to my new

management. Although my voice was being

heard now with all the opinions I had. It
wasn't enough for when I would break down.
That just led to a relapse of what I once
went through. This time the call to my
dealer would be different and something no
female should ever go through. I had just
lost everything when in reality...

Damage was just there forever.....