I never knew that would be this painful, minsan naiisip ko na lang bakit ba

kailangan nating masaktan at malungkot, i saw him walking to my direction as he

holds her hands, i can see him happy, i can see how much that girl can make his day
complete, little did he know na ganun din ang epekto niya sakin, ang pag kakaiba
lang kaibigan niya lang ako.

'' Aley, sabay ka na ba nang lunch samin ni Shanzei? '' ngumiti ako at umiling,
there's no way i can eat properly seeing them being lovely infront me, then what? i
saw how he'll care for her? no way.

I grab all of my things and walks away, I shouted '' Eat well Lovebirds '' my tears
then started to fall, what now aley? iiyak ka? bobo ka ba? why the hell are you
crying stop! sita ko sa sarili ko, potangina up until now ang sakit paden, how can
you be so happy without me Lorence? damn. Sino ka ba kaibigan ka lang patuloy na
sita ng isip ko.

Andito ako ngayon sa library, wala talaga akong balak mag-aral ang pinunta ko
talaga dito ay ang pag tulog, i was about to take a nap when i heard some noises at
the back of the shelves, the hell? i heard some moaning ewan ko ba kung bakit kusa
tumayo ang mga paa ko at nagtungo sa ingay na naririnig ko.

Dapat pala pinigilan ko ang sarili ko, i can see them clearly, making out in the
shelves. fuck this, agad akong tumakbo palabas

'' Aley! '' rinig ko ang pag sigaw ni Lorence pero patuloy akong tumakbo, ngunit
walang silbi naabutan din niya din ako.

'' Ano ba '' i tried to act normal, pero kusang tumutulo yung luha ko

'' Why are you crying? '' tanong niya habang nagtatakang nakatingin sakin, I wipe
off my tears
nu
'' Nakakaiyak k-kasi yung nabasa ko '' sagot ko at pilit ngumiti, Ano ba Aley fix
yourself.

'' Ahm ano kasi, pwede bang favor? '' tanong niya

'' Yes naman, ikaw pa ba '' ngumiti ako ulit ng mapait, why are you so numb Lorence

'' Can you please keep it a secret? yung nakita mo sa library? I dont want Shanzei
in trouble please? '' great, siya na naman, ang swerte naman ni Shanzei

Lumipas ang mga araw at umiwas nako ng tuluyan sa kanya, pagpasok ko sa classroom
kita ko ang matalim niyang titig sakin, ano na namang nasa isip nitong lalaking toh

'' Mag usap tayo mamaya Aley '' tila tumindig ang balahibo ko sa lamig ng boses
niya, hindi pako nakaka upo ay ganto na agad ang binungad niya, at bakit naman siya
makikipag usap sakin, para din naman sa kanya ang pag-iwas ko

Well fuck oo una dahil gusto ko ng mawala ang feelings ko sa kanya, and second
it's for him naden naman, sinong gf ang matutuwang laging kang naka buntot sa
girlbestfriend mo? Kilala ko si Lorence hindi siya papayag ng lagi akong mag isa,
he know that i have no other friends than him, kahit ang mga tropa niya ay gustong
mapalapit sakin pero hindi ako mahilig makipag socialize, i rather choose to be
alone than to stay with some noisy group nor friends, ang iingay ng mga katropa ni
Lorence, and also lahat sila ay halos kilala at sikat sa school, at kung ako lang
ang nag iisang babae sa grupo nila that would be an issue.

Breaktime and i was about to leave the classroom when Lorence grabs my hand, i gave
him the *what do you need* look

'' Why are you avoiding me? '' his forehead creased

'' Ano? i dont ''

'' Yes you are '' giit niya, fuck you sigaw ng utak ko sa kanya

'' Look, im not avoiding you, it's just that you have your girlfriend already and
it is not necessarry anymore to stay beside you '' paliwanag ko sa kanya

'' WHAT!? You know that Shanzei would understand us, i already have you before we
dated and besides you dont have any friends Aley '' I shake my head, there's no way
hell she'll understand us

'' No Please Lorence, you dont understand i need to do that'' I pleaded

'' The hell why! '' students are looking at us now, fuck let me go Lorence

'' Let me go please? Stop causing a trouble '' i whispher at him

'' NO WAY! ''

'' Ano pa bang kinagagalit mo, ano ba ako sayo '' i asked him, He was shocked and
it took him a minute before he could even talk

'' Y-your my Friend '' humina ang boses niya ''My bestfriend '' pahabol niya pa,
tila lahat ng ekspektasyon ko ay nawala, why did i even expect things i know that
is impossible

'' She's the girlfriend '' i know he knows who am i reffering to

'' No! Your staying beside m- '' naputol ang tangkang pag sigaw niya when Shanzei
hold his arm

'' Love? what's wrong? people are looking to the both of you '' She said gently,
damn even her voice was soft, a thing that i wouldn't be

I run away, again. I saw how Shanzei stop him

I skip all my classes in the afternoon, it's already 8:30 pm now and i can't still
forget our argument this morning, damn a friend? yeah right what should i think,
he'll fucking love me?

I dressed up, checked myself in the mirror looking like a hoe, wearing a strap
backless red tube dress that is only covering butt, the front of the tube dress is
already showing off the haft of my breast, a great posture now im ready to get
laid, i want to get lost, it's not like i dont have any experience before, i had a
one night stand before

Gusto ko munang makalimot, Gusto ko munang malibang, bumaba ako sa taxi at nag
tungo na sa club

I arrive at the club at exactly 9 pm, this is it

I went to the dance floor and swinng my hips sexily, i can hear all the boys
whistling at me, i wave at the waiter '' One tequila please? '' and when my drinks
arrive i drank it straighly and then dance again in the dance floor, i sway my
hips, moving up and down to the round iron bar that is on the stage of the dance
floor, i dance like there's no one who watching me, in the middle of my dancing an
arm grabs my waist, i grind my ass at him and make some sexy moves to turn him on

I can feel his hardness now, he grabs my chest and gently squeeze it

'' Wanna go to my place? '' he asked me

'' No, my please is not that far here, let's go their '' i shouted at him because
the noise of the sound is covering my voice

Hindi ko pa nabubuksan ang pinto ng Unit ko ay hinahalikan na ako ng lalaking

kasama ko sa akig leeg at pagka bukas na pag kabukas ko ng pinto ay tinulakna niya
ako sa gilid ng pinto ng aking Unit, he uses his feet to close the door and kiss
me, lalo pang lumalim ang kanyang mga halik, i kiss him back the way he did, the
same way how he moves his lips between mine, he then sucks my lowerlip that makes
my mouth haft open, he use that opportunity to enter his tongue inside my mouth
saka binaba ang mga halik niya sa aking leeg

'' F-fuck '' i grab his hair and watch him suck my neck, he moves his kisses down
to my collar bone then up again to my neck slowly kissing it and went to my ears,
he sucks earlobe as he was tightly squeezing my boobs that is still covered of my
tube dress

'' You smell so good lady, ahhh fuck '' his hand moves down to my skirt, he gently
massage my legs then to my sensitive part, i moaned as i felt his warm hand
massaging it, i look up to give him more access to kiss my neck, hickeys are
already covering my neck

The man was about to remove my dress but the door opened, niluwa nun ang nag
aalalang mukha ni Lorence

'' Aley i was worried your not ok- '' naputol ang sinabi niya ng mapansin niya ang
itsura ko, a man beside me who is still kissing my neck, i was pushing the man but
he dont want to stop
'' Who the fuck is this MAN! ALEY! '' galit na pasigaw niyang sabi, i tried once
again to push the man, he stop and then face Lorence

'' Who the fuck are you too Dude, your disturbing us '' I can see how mad is
Lorence now, sum up the words that this man spit to Lorence

'' I am his friend fuck you, who the hell are you asshole! '' sigaw ni Lorence

'' Dude the hell i care! just fucking go out and let me fuck her '' sigaw pabalik
ng kasama ko, tila napipi ako at hinayaan silang mag sagutan

'' WHAT! '' Now i know Lorence will probably punch him

'' I said dude i want to fuck her now real bad, now get lo- '' Lorence cutted him
off with his punch, and then kicked the guy on my floor now who's bleeding from the
punch of Lorence

'' Your the one who need to get lost fuck you asshole '' Lorence grabs his shirt
and punch him once again and then throw him out of the room

'' What the fuck Aley? what is going on with you, tangina naman? '' he shouted at
me, wala akong nagawa kundi ang tumungo habang nakasandal sa pader ng Unit ko

'' What the hell are you thinking? Kung hindi pa ako dumating you'll let him- '' i
cutted him off

'' Fuck me?, so what? Why do you care if i fuck him? Bakit gusto mo ba ikaw? You
want to fuck me? '' i shout back at him, im so frustrated why'd he have to act like
he fucking care for me

Nagulat ako ng hilahin niya ako patungo sa kama ko at ihagis ako, he then climb up
on top of me and kiss me harshly, I can taste the blood inside when he bite my
lips, i can feel the bitterness of his kiss, it made me feel dirty

I started to cry, that made him stop '' Im sorry, im sorry '' he said then kiss me
again, but now its gentle, his kiss are soft and sweet, and just with that i found
myself kissing him back, I wraps my hand around his nape and felt him press himself
more to my body, biglang nag init ang sistema ko

Parang balewala ang lakas ng aircon ng kwarto ko dahil sa init ng haplos ni

Lorence, dahan dahan niyang hinubad ang aking damit, bumaba ang kanyang mga halik
sa aking leeg pababa sa aking dibdib