CHAPTER1.

Thisdayisnotsupposet obel ikethis.Whatis

supposetobet hehappi estdayofmypar entsli
ves
hasturnedouttobet hewor st.Justaweekbef ore
mysister'
s"socalledweddi ng"mustt akeplace,she
l
eftalett
erstati
ngt hatshe'snotpr egnantforthe
manshehast omar ry,shedoesn' tlovehim andshe
haselopedtomar rythef atherofherchi l
d.Wedon' t
knowwher eshei sandever yonehasbeencal l
ing
herbutherphonei sswi tchedof fbutIthinkshe
changedhernumber s.

Mymom hasbeencr yingnonst opallweekanddad

beinghi m hasbeenroar i
nglikeacagedl ion
becausehecanbepr ettystr
ictsomet i
mes...
.who
am Ikiddingmostoft heti
me, sot hi
sbehaviorfr
om
mysi stershookeveryonemost l
ymypar entscoz
she'stheappl eoft
hei reyes.Sot odayistheday
wher ethenegotiat
ionsmustconcl udeand
everyoneisonedgecozwedon' tknowwhatmy
dadi
sgoi
ngt
otel
lherf
iance'
sfami
ly.

I'
ml ungimazibuko, I
'm 25andI '
mt hesecondbor n,
ofThul iandsiphomazi buko.Myel dersisteris
nobuhl emazibukoshe' s30theonewhor anaway
andt henourlitt
lebrothert
hamimazi bukowho' s20.
Mydadi s57,mom i s50andwel ivecomf ortably
andwenotr i
chorpoor .Welivei
nMpumal anga
provinceStanderton.

Mydadi sacorrect
ionalofficeratt heDepar tment
ofCor r
ecti
onalServices.Mom i sat eacherata
pri
mar yschoolandmyol dersi sterwasori s
workinginJobur gforsomel awf ir
m asr egist
ry
cl
erkandIwor kasasecr etar yforsomer ealest
ate
companyandmybr otherisst udyingci vi
l
engineeri
ngatTUT.

Iknowwhyyou'
rewonder
ingwhyI '
m notli
vingat
myownplaceasI'
m 25wellItr
iedbutdadrefused
whenIt
oldhi
m andhesaidI'
lll
eavethi
shouset he
dayIgetmar r
ied.Ithinkit
'sbecausehewant edt
o
contr
olme.Theypr ovideuswi t
heverythi
ngwe
needbutithasneverbeenasecr ett
hatnobuhlei
s
thei
rfavour
it
echi l
d.Soyoucani maginet
heshock
theyfel
twhent heyreadthatlet
ter.

Mybr ot
herf
oundi t
,camet omyr oom andwer ead
i
tbeforewet ookittothem.Dadhasbeenbeen
mum aboutitthewhol eweekthinkingbuhlewi l
l
showupbef oretheweekendsbutshedi dn'tsohe
hadnochoicebutt ocallourunclesandtellthem
whathappend.

Pleasereacthi
tli
ke,
commentandshar
eto
everyoneyouknow
Cont
inualofChapt
er1.

Myuncl
esanddadhavebeendi scussingaway
f
orwar
dsincetheyarr
ivedi
nthemor ni
ngbecause
t
odaymysister
'si
n-l
awsarecomi ngtofinal
iset
he
Amal obonegot iati
ons.Iknowt hein-l
awsofmy
sist
erar eri
chandsoi sherfiancee.Ihavenever
seenhi m orhear dofhim butmaybemypar entsdo
butI'
m notsur ebecausemysi stercamehomeone
dayandannouncedt hatther
e'samanwhowant s
tomar ryher,he'srichandhear i
ngt hatmydad' s
earsstartedringingandheagr eedt ost ar
tthe
l
obolanegot iati
onsassoonaspossi ble.

Mom toldanyoneandever yonet hatherdaught eri

s
goingtomar r
yar i
chmanf rom Jobur gwholivesin
Sandton.Shewassoexci tedandst art
edto
i
ntervi
ewpeopl ewho'l
ldot hecateringanddecor
becauseherprincessdeservesonl ythebest.She's
i
nherbedr oom ri
ghtnowbecauseshesai dshe
thi
nksshe'sgoingtohaveahear tattack.

We'r
eintheki
tchenandit'
sme, mycousi
n
si
mphiweIcallherSi
mst henhermom whoismy
aunt
.Themoodi ssourandit'
sli
kesomeonehas
di
edandwe'reprepar
ingforafuner
al.
Si
ms:"Luh"

Me:"Sim"Il
ookatherasI
'
m busygr
att
ingt
he
car
rot
s

Si
ms:
"Buhl
ereal
lyr
anaway?"

Me:"Youheardityour
sel
fwhendadr
eadt
hel
ett
er
agai
ntoeveryone"

Sims:
"Shehasal
waysbeensel
fi
sh,
lookatwhat
shedi
d"

Me:"Shh.
..Youdontwantmommydear
estt
oher
yousaythat"

Si
ms:
"OhI
tser
vest
hem r
ight
"
Me:
"Obviousl
y"Webothgiggleandmom ent
ers
t
hekit
chenwhilewe'
regi
ggli
ng.

Mom: "Youarealll
aughi
ngbecausewhati
s
happeningi
sfunny?,whatar
eyoulaughi
ngat
?"
Sheasksangril
y

Sims:
"Sowemustnotl aughnowbecausebuhle
ranouraway?
,it
'snotourfaul
tauntt
hatshedi
d
yohn"

Mom: "Shutupsimphiwe!,youareallsojeal
ousof
her.Youknewt hatinthi
sf ami
lyshe'
st heonlyone
who' l
lbemor esuccessf
ul i
nanythi
ngmor et
hanall
ofyou"Shel ooksatmewhenshesayst hosewords.
Somet i
mesIwonderandaskmysel fwhydoesmy
mot herhatemesomuch.Ikeepqui t
e, l
ookdown
andcont i
nuewhatI'
m doing.
Si
ms:"Yeahrightshegotsuccessf
ulbygetti
ng
pr
egnantforanotherman"Shesaysr ol
lshereyes

Me:
"Si
m pl
easedon'
tsayanyt
hing"

Sims:"Auntshouldn'
tsayt
hat
.We'l
lalsobe
successfulsowhenshesaysthati
t'
slikeshe'
s
putt
ingacur seonus"

Mom: "That'
swhyyouhave2ki dswithdiffer
ent
fathers,i
t'
sthatbigmout hofyoursthatyouopen
l
ikeyourl egs.Wher earetheirf
athershmm? ,you
seewhatImean. ..
jealousy"Thatshutssimsupand
shet earsup.Mom l eavesthekitchenandmyaunt s
don'tsayanyt hi
ng,theyjustkeepqui etbecause
theyscar edofher.

Me:
"I'
m sor
rysi
ms,
youknowhowmom canbe"
Sims: "It'
sokaysisandshei sri
ght.Meandmybi g
mout hdon' tknowwhent oshutit"Ihugherandwe
continuet ocookinsil
ence.Wecanheart here'
sa
disagr eementintheli
vingroom aboutsomet hi
ng
andt henmyuncl ewho'sdadsyoungerbr other
says"Thi siswrongsipho"Thenatt hatmoment
wehearcar shootingoutsi
deandt hewhol ehouse
goesdeadqui et.

Li
keshar
eandcomment
CHAPTER2.

Dad:"Whyi severyonest i
lli
nt hekitchen, di
dyou
nothearthecar shoot ingout side?
,goout si
deand
welcomet hem"Weal lgoout si
deandst art
ulul
ating,
maki nghappynoi se.Mymom i si
nher
bedroom sleepingIt hink,Idon'tknowi fshe'
s
all
owedt obeout sideandshameIf eelverysor
ry
forherbutthere'snot hingIcandot omakeherf eel
bett
er.SimsandIl eaveouraunt sout sideandother
cousinsandwegot ot hekitchentopr epare
r
efr
eshment
sfort
heel
der
s.

Sims:
"Iwonderwhat'
sgoingt
ohappenaf
tert
hey
fi
ndoutthatbuhl
eisgone"

Me:"It
hinkt
hey'
l
ljustaskfort
heirmoneybackand
l
eave..
..
.Imeant
here'snot
hingtheycando"
.

Si
ms:
"Ihopesosi
s"

Wef ini
shprepar
ingdr i
nksandsnacksthenleave
them onthetabl
ef orourauntstotaket
hem tothe
l
ivingwhereeveryoneissitt
edthenwegot ositi
n
mybedr oom andmybr ot
herenter
sandclosesthe
doorbehindhim.

Thami:
"Guyswhyareyousi
tt
ingherei
t'
ssohot
,
youshoul
dbeoutsi
deundert
hetreeshade"
Me:"I
t'
salsohotoutsidethamiyohandwher
ewere
youbecauseIhaven'tseenyousincet
hemorni
ng.
"

Hi
m:"Iwenttoseemyfr
iendscoul
dn'
tst
andt
he
t
ensi
oninthehouse"

Sims:"Buhl
eandherdr
ama,
onedayshe'
sgoi
ngt
o
regr
etwhatshedi
d"

Hi
m: "Idoubtt
hespoi
ledpr
incesswi
llr
egr
eti
t"We
al
llaugh.

Me:"Let
'st
akeawalkandgot
otheshops,
it'
snot
l
ikewe'r
eneededher
e"

Thami:
"Yeahpl
usmaybewe'
l
lbuy12savanahand
hi
dethem t
henwe'
l
ldri
nkt
hem her
einyourr
oom
l
uh"
Cont
inualofChapt
er2.
Me:"I
'
llbuyt
hem buttheyshouldn'
tseeus"Itake
myR300onmypur sethencombmyaf r
othenlook
atmylongsl
eeveorangemaxi dressandIlook
goodthenweleave.

Thami:
"Awmybeaut i
fulyel
lowbonesi
ster,i
fonlyi
t
wasyouget t
ingmarr
iedIwouldbeenont opofthe
worl
drightnowreal
lyhappy!"

Me:
"Ughplease,
Ineedaboyf
ri
endf
ir
stt
henal
lof
t
hatwi
llcomelat
er"Wel
augh

Thami
:"whathappenedt
oPaulIt
houghtyoul
iked
hi
m?"

Me:"Hegott
ir
edofmebecausecauseyouknow
howdadisandsohecoul
dn'
tdealwithit
"
Thami:"Hedidn'
tdeser
veyouandit'
shisloss"He
putshisarm ar
oundmyshoulderandtheother
aroundsimsshoulderwecont
inuetowalk.

Me:
"Ncoohthanksl
ilbr
o"Ipi
nchhischeek,
he
smacksmyhandoffandwelaugh.

Thami
:"I
'mtal
lert
hanyousoI
'
m yourbi
gbr
other"I
rol
lmyeyes.

Thecar soutsideouryard,theyarehugeSUVsal lin

blackcolor,yohIhaveneverseensuchhugecar s.
Wepasst hem thengostraightdownt heroadtothe
shops.Wear elaughingmaki ngjokesandaswe're
walkingthere'sthi
shugePor schecarmar oonmat t
e
i
ncol ourandi tl
ooksabsolutelybeauti
fulandoutof
placebecausei tisj
uststandingthereonit'
sown.

Thewindowsar
eti
ntedandyoucan'
tseei
nsi
debut
youcanmakeoutt
hefigur
esint
hecar.Whent
hami
seest hecarhemakesal lkindsnoi sepraisi
ngthe
carandt al
kingaboutallt
hest uffithasanddoes
blah,blah,blahandwel aughathi m.Aswepasst he
caraboutf ewmi nutesthere'sthi
st hingthattel
ls
met ol ookbackandIdoandseet hewi ndowoft he
carwehavepassedhasbeenr ol
leddown.
Someonehasopenedi tandi tfeelsli
ket hey
watchi ngusandi tf
reaksmeout .

Me:"Guysmaybeweshoul
dgobackhome,
Idon'
t
f
eelsafe"

Thami
:"What
'swr
ongl
uh?"

Me:"Idon'tknow,
there'
sthi
sweirdf
eel
ingli
ke
somethingbadisgoingtohappenandi
t'sscar
ing
me"

Thami:
"Whydon'
tyouguysgobackandI'
llgobuy
thest
uff
.St
ayinyourr
oom andI
'
llf
indyouguys
ther
e".Heki
ssesmyf
oreheadt
henl
eavesandwe
headback.

WepassthatcaragainandIt
rytolookinsi
debut
i
t'
sdark.Wegethome, gotomyroom andwecan
heart
hefamil
iesargui
nganditdoesn'
tsoundgood
atal
l.

Sims:
"It
hinkthei
n-l
awshavebeentol
dthatt
hei
r
bri
deisM.I
.A"Shel
aughsbutIj
ustshr
ugmy
shoul
der
s.

Me:"Cousi
nIhavethi
sfeeli
ngatthepi
tofmy
st
omacht hatsomet
hingbadisgoingt
ohappen"

Sims:"Don'tworr
ysis,
theonl
ythi
ngbadt hat
happensi sgoneandsowedon'thavetoworry.
They'
lltakethei
rmoneyandgo.Simpleasthat"
Sheclapsherhands.
Me:"Ihopeyouarer
ightsi
s"Ri
ghtt
henmyaunts
comef ol
lowedbymydadandoneofthem i
scr
ying.

Me:
"Ncanewhat
'swr
ong?
"

Dad:
"Bothofyoutaket
heseblanket
sandcover
your
sel
fsandfol
lowyouraunt"

Me:
"Dadwhat
'sgoi
ngonyou'
rescar
ri
ngme?"

Dad:
"DoasIsayLunginow!
"

Si
ms:
"Mamawhat
'sgoi
ngon?
"

Her:
"I'
m sor
ryLungiIreal
lyam"Shetakesthebi
g
bl
anketsandcovermewi t
hitanddoesthesamet o
si
msandwe' rej
uststandi
ngther
edumbf ounded
notr
eall
yunderst
andingwhat'
sgoingon.
Shetakesmyhandandgivesitt
osi
msandwehol
d
handsandshetakesmi
net oher
s.

Her:
"fol
lowme"Shel eavesI '
mi nthemiddl
eand
si
msi sbehindme.Wef ol
lowhert otheli
vingroom
anditgetsquietandIfi
nallyreali
sewhatisaboutto
happenandmyhear tdrops...
..No!,
Goddon' tl
eti
t
beplease!
..
..Showmet hatI '
m wrong.

Tearsfal
ldownonmyf acebehindtheblanketandI
wipethem of
fbecauseIknowifdadseest hem,he'
l
l
bemadatme.Theysi tusdownt henIhearmy
uncl
et al
k.

Uncle:"Wehearyourdemandsandi ti
stheri
ght
thingtodo.Thesear ealsotheotherbeaut
if
ul
fl
ower syoucanchooset orepl
acetheonewho
disappointedallofus.Anyofthem wouldmakea
beautifuldaughteri
n-l
aw."OhmyGodi ti
sreal
ly
happeni
ng.Mydadanduncleshavedecidedt
hat
oneofusisgoi
ngtorepl
aceubuhle,howcanthey
dothist
ous?.Mytear
swon'tst
opf all
ing

Someone:
"wehaveanot
herr
equesther
e"

Uncl
e:"t
alk"

Someone:"Si
nceyourdaughterhasshamedusand
di
srespect
edourson,wewanthi mtochoosefor
hi
mselfwhowi l
lrepl
aceyourdaught
er"huh?
,what?

Dad:"Butwehaven'
tfi
nishedot
hermat
ter
s"Mydad
saysangri
ly

Someone:"Thatwi
llf
oll
owaf
terbutf
ornowwe
wantoursontocomeandchooseforhi
msel
f"
Dad:"Fine.Tel
lhi
mtocome!" .Theper
sonleavesto
gocallmysi st
er sfiancee.Imovemyhandunder
theblanketandsear
chf orsi
mshandandIf i
ndit
andhol ditf
ordearl
if
e.Ihearmyunclewhi
sper
nexttome

Uncl
e:"I
'
m sorr
ymydaught erbutIknowhe'
sgoi
ng
t
ochooseyou".Thi
st i
meIdon'ttr
ytohol
dback
t
hatI'
m cryi
ngandIjustl
etital
lout.

Dad:
"Don'
tyoudar
eembarrassemelikeyoursi
ster
.
DoyouhearmeLungi
?"Ikeepquiet

Dad:
"DoyouhearmeLungi
?"

Me:
"ye.
..Yesdad"

Dad:
"Wipethosedamntearsof
f"Idoashesays
butt
heyconti
nuetost
il
lfal
l.
Theat mospherechangeswhent heygeti
n.Ihaven'
t
seenhim butIfeel hi
m,hispresenceandauraistoo
strongyohIfellgoosebumpscover i
ngmywhol e
bodyandIshi ver.Igri
psimshandmuchhar der
thenIhearherwi ncesIloosenmygr i
p.

Heissit
ti
ngdownsomewher eonmyleftIthi
nk
becauseIcanf
eelhi
seyesonthelef
tsideofmy
headli
kehecanseemet hr
oughtheblanket.

Uncle:
"MaMt shalicomeonthissidesoyoucan
takeofftheblanket
sofft
heirheadssosonin-
law
canchoosewhohewant s"Ihearmyaunt
approaching

Person:"Cha"(No)t
heroom goesqui
etandIhold
mybr eaththi
nkinghedoesn'
twantanyofusand
thi
sandIcr ossmyf i
ngersandprayt
hatI'
mright
.
Uncl
e:"Whatdoyoumeanno?"

Hi
m:"Ngikhethal
ona"(Ichooseher)
.Idon'
tknow
i
fhepointedatsi
msormeandIj usthopeit
'ssi
ms
hwchose.

Uncl
e:"Okson,
maMt
shal
ili
ftof
fthebl
anketsohe
canseeher"

Him:"I'
lldoitmyself"Hisvoi ceisnottodeepbut
i
t'sscary.Ifeell
ikeI
'm goingt opassout.Ifeelsims
l
etti
nggoofmyhandandst andingupandIbr eathe
outdeeplyandI '
m abouttot hankGodt hathedi dn'
t
chooseme, whenIfeelthebl anketbei
ngtakenof f
myheadandIcl osemyeyesnotwant ingtoopen
them becauseIknowI 'm goingt oseethemanwho
hasjustturnedmyl if
eupsi dedown.

Hi
m:"Lungi
"HesaysandIf
allapar
t.
Hehguyskunzi
mashameIf eelf
orl
ungi
.Pl
easel
ike,
commentandshareandtel
l
ever
yoneyouknowabouti
t.Thankyouf
ortheli
kes
onthepage
CHAPTER3.

Me:
"No.
..
.Nodadpl
easedon'
ttot
his!
"I'
m cr
ying

Him:"Lookatme! "Hesayswi t
hsomuchaut horit
y
thatIopenmyeyesandl if
tmyheadt ol
ookathim
andseet hatheisstandingandmyf aceisont he
samel evelwi
thhiscrotch.IfIweretokneeli
nf r
ont
ofhim, hi
scrotchwoul dber i
ghtonmyf ace.Idon't
l
ookathi m,Ijustl
ookdownagai nkneel
ingthen
makemywayt omydad.

Me: "Baba.
..
Idon'twanttomar r
ymysi st
er'
sf i
ancee
pleasedadI'm beggingyou,Idon'
twantto!".Idon'
t
carethatI'
m creati
ngdramabutt her
e'snowayI '
m
goingtomar r
yamanIdon' tknow,evenloveand
wor
seamanwhol
ovesmysi
sterandhassl
ept
wi
thher
.

Dad: "Stopbei ngdramat i

c.Wehaveconcl udedt he
negot i
ationsandyouwi l
lstepi
nf oryoursisterand
mar ryintothisfamily,iti
stradi
tionandi thas
alwaysbeendone.Youandyourhusbandwi llgrow
theGumedef amilytreewi t
hmanychi l
dren.Doyou
hearmel ungi?"Ishakemyheadnol ookingathi m,
straightinhiseyez.Iknowdoi ngt hi
s,isvery
disrespectfulandinf rontofpeoplebecausei t
woul dseem t hatIdonotr especthim asmyf ather
andt heheadoft hewhol efamily.

Dad:"Ohsoyouaredi
srespect
ingmei nfrontof
people,
youri
n-l
aws!
.Youwantt hem tosayIdidn'
t
rai
seyouwithval
ues,
mor al
sandr espect
?."

Me:"Kodwababaaninandabaukuthmi na
ngi
funani
,whyningababuyi
sel
iimaliyabobabuyel
e
emuvalabaqhamukakhona?"(butdadyoualldon'
t
careaboutwhatIwant.Whydon'
tyougi
vethem
thei
rmoneybacksot heycangobacktowhere
theycomefrom?).

Mydadst andsupandslapsmeacr osst

hefaceso
hardIseestar
s.Icovermyfaceshockednot
bel
ievi
ngthatmydadhasl andedhi
shandsonme
l
ikethat
.

Dad:
"Itel
lyouwhatt
odoandyouwanttotel
lme
whatImustdo,who'
sthepar
enther
e?"Hetr
iest
o
sl
apmeagai nbutmyuncl
estopshi
m.

Uncle:
"Bafostop.Shei
sstil
linshockbecauseshe
didn'
tknowthatthi
swasgoingt ohappen.Lungimy
chil
d..
..
."hecomesandcrouchesdownnextt ome
andholdsmyf aceandwipesmyt earsandIhug
him cr
yingmylungsout.

uncl
e:".
..
..
shhhh,
don'
tcr
ymychi
ld.i
t'
str
adi
ti
on
arr
angedmar ri
ageshavebeendonesi ncethetime
ofourancest
ors,acceptyourhusband.Hewi l
llove
youandyouwi lll
ear
nt olovehi
mt oo.Hewi llt
ake
careofyou,t
reatyouli
keaqueent hatyouar e.The
Gumede'swilll
oveyouoncet heygett oknowwhat
anamazingyoungwomanyouar e."Iburymyf ace
onhischestandhehol dsmet i
ghter.

uncl
e:"Iknowt hi
sisveryhardtoacceptbutpl
ease
doandIpr omiseyou,youwon'tregr
etit
.Youare
ouronlyhopeandIhaveputmyf ait
hinyouso
pl
easedon' tdi
sappoi
ntus,youhearmeLuh?" .

It
'sdaysl i
ketheseIwishmyf at
herwast heone
holdi
ngmel i
kethisandsayingallthesethi
ngsbutI
know thatwillneverhappen.I
twillbealwaysbe
wishfulthi
nki
ngandIhopemyuncl eisri
ghtthatI
won'tregreti
t.

me:"yesuncl
eIhearyou.Iagreetomar ryhi
m andI
pr
omi seIwon'
tdi
sappointyou".Ihearsomeone
ululat
ingandt
henever
yoneont
hehousei
shappyI
thinkexcl
udi
ngme.

Myuncl ekisseamyf oreheadandst andsmeupand

allthewhilemy' husband' tobehasbeensi lentand
wat chi
ngthewhol ethi
ngandI '
m nowembar rassed
thathehadt owi tnesseverything.Myaunttakes
mebackt omybedr oom andwhenwepasst he
kitcheneveryonegoessi lent.Igett
omybedr oom
andIf i
ndmybr otherandsi mst her
e.Sheclosest he
doorandIj uststandt herenumb, mymi ndgoi ng
through1000di recti
ons.

Isli
dedownt hedoorandsi tonthefloor,headon
mykneesandar msar oundmyl egs.Simscomes
andhugsmeandmybr othertooandIl etital
lout.
Theydon'tsayanythingandj ustholdme.I 'm
thankf
ult
hatIhavet hem inmyl ifebecausewi thout
them,Iwouldn'
tknowwhatt odorightnow.

Thami
:"wegotyoul
uh.
..
usagai
nstt
hewor
ld,
the
t
hreemusket
eer
s"

Si
ms:"he'smarryi
ngustooyouknow,
because
we'
reapackage.Youcan'tmar
ryonewit
houtt
he
ot
hers"Igiggl
e

Thami:"Ewsims,I
'm notgaybutyeahwe'
rea
package,buyonegettwofree"welaugh

Thami :
"int
hiscaseheboughtoneandgot3f or
free.
..
.l
uckysonofagun"Ilaughloudthr
oughthe
tearsandthinki
ngwhathaveIgottenmysel
fint
o.
someonet ri
estoopenthedoorandwegetup, i
t
opensandi t
'smymot her
.

Mom: "yougotwhatyouwant edheh?..

..
my
daughter'
sli
fe.Ial
waysknewyouwer ej
eal
ousof
herbutthisi
st oomuch.youaregoingtoli
vethe
l
ifeshewasmeantt ol
ive?"Ihaveseenherangr
y
butthi
sissomet hi
ngelseandwhyi sshesti
ll
bl
ami
ngmef
orherdaught
ersbehavi
our
?.

Thami:
"mamat hi
sisnotri
ght
!,buhl
elef
tonher
ownandr anawaysowhyar eyoublamingl
uh?"he
askshergett
ingannoyed

Mom:
"shutup,
I'
m nott
alki
ngt
oyou"

Me:"whydoyouhat emesomuchmama, whatdi

dI
everdotoyoubecauseyouareal
lnowpuni
shi
ng
mef orsomet
hingIdidn'
tdo?"

Mom: "youaret hebi

ggestmi stakeofmyl if
elungi
andIwi shyouwer eneverbor n"Ifeell
ikeI'
vebeen
cutint
ot i
nypiecesbyaver yshar pknif
eandt ears
thatwerestar
tingtodryupf alldownagai n.

si
ms:"noooaunt
y..
.whyukhohl
akal
ekanjena?"
.
(noooaunt
y,whyareyouthi
swicked?"shesays
wi
tht
ear
sonhereyes

Thami:"i
t'
sbet t
ert hatl
uhisget t
ingmar ri
edsoshe
won'texper
iencet hisabusef r
om youanddad.I fi
t
wereupt omeshewoul dleavethishellwhol
ewe
cal
lahomet onightwi t
hherhusband" .mom cli
cks
hert
ongueandl eavesbangingthedoorbehi ndher.

Me:
"Canyouguysl
eaveI
'
dli
ket
obeal
one"

Sims:
"noluhwewon' tl
eaveyoualone"Isi
tonmy
bedandIfeelmyeyesgetti
ngheavybecauseof
thi
sheadachethatI
'
m suddenlyhavi
ng.

Thami
:"Si
mscanyougi
veusaf
ewmi
nut
esal
one?
"

Si
ms: "sur
e.Il
oveyoulungiandyouar
ethebest
si
sterI'
veeverhadandI'
m heref
oryouanyt
ime"
wehugandshel
eaves.

Thami:
"let
'st
akethisof
f,i
tlooksl
ikei
t'
sgi
vingyou
aheadache"hetakesoffmyheadwr ap

Me:"youknow.
..
somet
imesIthi
nkthatI
'
m adopt
ed
becausewhywouldmom anddadhatemesomuch?
"

Thami:
"Iusedtot
hinki
ttoobecauseyoudon'
tlook
l
ikeus,youhavet
hishugesoftcur
lyafr
oandplus
you'
reayell
owbone"hesmil
es

Me:
"yousai
dusedt
osowhatchanged?
"

Thami:
"unclelovesyouluhli
keyou'rehi
sdaught
er
andhecallsyou'Luhkababa'
.It
hinkmaybemom
hadanaffairwit
hunclethenshefellpr
egnantwi
th
you?"uhhholdup, whati
smybr othersayi
ng?
Me:
"maybebutmom?.
..
.no!
.shel
ovesdadt
oo
mucht
odothatt
ohim"

Thami:
"weshoul
daskuncl
eoneday,
Iknowhe'
l
l
tel
lust
hetr
uth"

Me:"t
hankyoubr
oIdon'
tknowwhatIwoul
ddo
wi
thoutyou"

Thami:
"goodt
hingI
'm her
eandwewon'tgettof
ind
out.mar
ri
edornotI
'
llal
waysbether
eforyou"we
hug.

Thami:"l
ungii
fyoudon'twanttodoitt
hendon'
t.I
'
ll
helpyourunaway,Ihavesomemoneysavedup
andyoucangot ocapetownoranywher ewher
e
theywontfi
ndyou"Iknowhe'lldot
hatforme.
Me:"Iknowyoumeanwel lthamibutImadea
promisetodadandunclethatIwon'tdi
sappoi
nt
them.Ifanyt
hingIdon'
twanttodisappoi
ntuncl
eat
all
"

Thami:"Iknewyouwer egoi ngt osaythatandt his

i
swhyIwantt osayt histoyou.Mar ryhim, be
happyandmakehi slifeal i
vinghellandt hebest
one.Hechoseyouf orar eason, hecoul dhave
chosenusi mphiwebuthedi dn'tsothatmeanshe
sawsomet hi
nggoodi nyouandhewant sitandyou
i
nhi sl
ife.maybei t'
sf atethatmadet hingst o
happenl i
kethis.lovehim andmakehi mr eal
ly
happysomucht hathe'llforgetthattherewer e
otherwomenbef oreyouespeci all
yoursi ster"

Me:"buthowdoIdot hat.Idon'tevenknowhim, hi
s
nameorwhathel i
kesandhesl eptwithoursi
ster
thami!
..
.howdoIevenbegi ntodot hatwit
hhim
knowinghedidt
hatwi t
hoursi ster
?"
Thami:
"eishthatishar
dbutyouarea
woman...
.you'
llknowwhatt
odo.Lookdon'tst
ress
aboutt
hatnowyou' l
lcr
ossthatbr
idgewhenyou
gettoi
t"

Me:
"Onl
yifi
twer
ethateasyt
hami"

Thami:"I
'
m sorr
yaboutwhatmom sai d.Sheshould
behappyandnott akingoutherangerandstresson
you,pr
omi semethatyou'l
lbehappywi thMbuso
andifhedoesanythingtohurtyouletmeknow
okay?"

Me:
"wai
t,howdoyouknowhi
sname?
"

Thami:"BecauseImethi
mthef
ir
stt
imet
heywer
e
here"

Me:
"okIpr
omi
seI
'
llt
ellyou.Sot
hisi
sit
..
..
i'
m
get
ti
ngmar
ri
edt
oMbusoGumedeIwonderwhen?"

Thami
:"youwantmet
oshowyouhi
spi
ctur
e?"

Me:
"wher
edi
dyougeti
t?"

Thami:
"out
sidewhenhewasent
eri
ngt
heyar
d,he'
i
stense"

Me:"yeahIf
elti
ttoo"thenwehearever
yoneint
he
houseshout
ing,clappi
ngandul
ulat
ing,
carhoot
ers
goi
ngonandof f.

Me:
"heregoesmyl
if
e..
..
Iguesst
heyar
edone"I
t
earup

Thami
:"l
etmegooutsi
deandsee"Inod,
heleaves
andIl
aydownonthebedandclosemyeyes.I
musthavefall
enasl
eepbecauseIfeelsi
ms
shaki
ngmeandhermom smi li
nglookingatme
wit
hmyot heraunt
.

Si
ms:"i
t'
sdone.
..
comenowsoyoucanhel
pus
di
shit
hefood"

aunt
:"Iknoweverythi
ngwentt otal
lydi
ffer
entand
wewer en'
texpect
ingitwil
lendlikethi
sbutI'
m glad
i
t'
syoul uhwho'sgoingtogetmar ri
ed"shekisses
mycheekt henhugsme.Ever yoneseemshappybut
notmeanddef ini
tel
ynotmypar ents.

Si
msmom: "gowashyourf
aceandholdyourhead
hi
ghwhenyougeti nt
othekit
chen,soyoucandish
upforyourhusband"
Ialmostrol
lmyeyes

Me:
"thankyouaunty"theyl
eaveusandwegot o
t
hebathroom andIwashmyf ace.Shetakesouther
makeupbagwhenI 'm doneandIlookather.
Me:"nomakeupsis,
Iwanthi
mt oseemelooki
ng
l
ikethi
ssoheknowsthatI
'
m nothappyatal
l"

Sims:
"he'
soneluckymantohaveyousisbecause
Iknowyou'
regoi
ngtomakehimr eal
lyhappyandI
knewhewasgoingtochooseyou"

Me:
"real
lysi
msandhowdi
dyouknowt
hat
?"Ir
oll
myeyes

Sims:
"don'
trol
lyoureyesatmeyoungl
ady"she
saysl
aughi
ng

Sims:"wel
lIknewcozhehasbeenwatchi
ngyou
thefi
rstt
imetheycamehere.Youdi
dn'
tseehi
m
becauseauntwasbuysendingyouupanddown"

Me:
"Inevernot
icedbutwhywoul
dhewhenhewas
goi
ngt
omar
rybuhl
e?"

Sims:"Idon'
tknowcousi nbutthewayhel ookedat
youwasdi ff
erenttohowhel ookedatbuhle.With
youtherewashungerandsomet hingel
seandwi t
h
herwhenIsawt hem t
alki
nglastti
mehel ooked
bored,annoyedandmost lyangryather
"shel aughs

Me:
"wit
hbuhlewellneverknowt
herealr
easonwhy
t
heyweret
ogetherandwant i
ngt
ogetmarri
ed"

Sims:"Ipeekedathi
m whenweweresit
ti
ngi
nthe
l
ivi
ngr oom andhiseyeswer
eonyouthewhol
e
enti
retime"Isnor
tandshakemyhead.

Me:"l
et'
sgobefor
eyourmom shout satus"Il
ook
atmyfaceandI'
mr ed.ear
s,nose,
cheeks,myeyes
redandpuf
fy.
pleaselet'
sgr
owthepage.l
ikeshar
e,commentand
tellever
yoneyouknowaboutit
.
Chapt
er3Cont
inual
.

Wegototheki
tchenandwef i
ndmbuso'saunt.
Whensheseesmeshesmi les,hersmil
eiswarm
andi
nvi
ti
ngandIcan'thel
pi tbutsmil
eali
tt
le.She
comest
omeandhol dsmyhands.

Mbuso'saunt:"IknowI '
m notyourmom ort ryi
ngt
o
takeherplacebutI'm hereforyoutoolungi.I'
m
mbuso'sauntwhi chmeansI '
m youraunttoonow
andI'm auntLwethu.Let'sgototheli
vingsowecan
giveyouthecl ot
hesyou'llwearwhenyouvi sit
oGumedecome" .

Ifol
lowhert
othel
ivi
ngroom andever
yoneist her
e
excl
udingmymom andhusband.Myauntul ul
ates
whentheyseemeandstartsi
ngi
ng,auntlwethu
si
tsmedownt hematandthenputsalovel
yl i
ght
bl
anketonmyshoul
der
s.

Auntl
wethu:"Wheneverwevi si
tyourhouseorwhen
youaregoingt ovi
sitanyoftheGumede
househol
dsyoumustal wayshavethisaroundyour
shoul
ders.
..."Ever
yoneagreesandInod

Auntlwethu:"
thisisal ovelyheadwr apwhi chf r
om
nowonyou' l
luset ocovert hatbeaut ifulhai
rof
yours.Sinceyouar eanewbr ide.Youwi l
lalways
havetheseonyousoever ymanoutt herewi l
lknow
youar etaken,you'resomeone' swi f
e" .Everyoneis
pret
tyhappysayi ngthingsl i
keIl ookbeaut i
fulandI
makeabeaut ifulMakot ihheht hesepeopl e.Ifeel
numb. .
..I'
m numb.Af tert hatshest andsmeupand
weleavet helivingroom andgot otheki t
chen.

Sims:
"Yohmtaseyoul
ooksobeaut
if
ul"Igl
areat
herandshel
aughs
Aunt
lwet
hu:"Come,yourhusbandi
swai
ti
ngforyou.
Hewantstoseeyou"Shesayssmili
ngandexci
ted.

Me:
"Auntkmel
esi
phake.
.."(wehavet
odi
shup)

Si
ms:"GomtaseI
'l
ldi
shup"SimshugsmeandI
l
eavewit
hauntl
wethuandI'
m soner
vous

Me:
"DoesmydadknowI
'
m goi
ngt
ohi
m now?"

Auntlwet
hu:"Don'tworryheknows"Iseemany
peoplesi
tti
nginthegar agedri
nkingandhavingf
un.
Wepasst hem andgoout si
detheyardandshe
takesmet othatPorscheIsawear l
ierandst
and
outsi
dethedoor .

Her:
"I'
l
lsendsi
mphiwetocomeandgetyouwhen
i
t'
stime.Uset
hist
imetogettoknowhi
m"Inod.
Bef
oreshecanopentheareadoor,
heopensi
tand
cl
imbsout
.

Mbuso:"Thankyouauntyforever
ythi
ng"Hesays
andhugsherthenlooksatme

Mbuso:"Ngena"(Getin)Hesaysl i
kehe'sangryor
annoyedGodIdon'tknowwhat 'sgoingonnow.
Heari
ngthatki
ndoft onejustshut
smedown, Iget
i
nthecarandseet here'
sadr i
ver.
..
.Reall
yhehas
someonewhodr i
veshi m?Yoh!

Aunt
lwet
hu:
"Walkmet
othegate"Shesayst
o
mbusohecl
osesmydoorandt
heyleave

Me:
"Sawubona"
(goodaf
ter
noon)

Dri
ver:
"YebomaGumede"(hel l
oMr sGumede)t
hen
hekeepsquietnohowar eyou?,orhel
lot
oyoutoo?
,somethi
ngel sebutnot
hingyoh.
AsI'minsidet hecarIcanseecl earlyoutsi
deandI
seembuso' sauntl wethutalkinglikeshe'sgivi
ng
mbusoal ect
ur e.Iwonderifit'
saboutmeorwhat .
Maybehedoesn' twantthi
st ooandhewas
for
ced.
....GodI 'm gonnabest uckwi thamanwho' l
l
hateme.Myt rainofthoughti sdisturbedwhenhe
getsi
nt hecar .Hebr eat
hesoutdeepl ythenlooksat
meandIdon' tlookathim, Ijuststareatthedriver
s
headgrippingmyhandst i
ght .

Him:"
dri
vet
her
e"Ther
e..
..Ther
ewher
e?ButIdon'
t
ask.

Mbuso:
"Youwantsomewat
er?"

Me:"Yesplease"IclearmyvoicebecauseIhate
howweakandscar edIsoundr i
ghtnow.Hegives
meabot t
leofwat er,It
akemakingsureIdon'
t
touchhi
m andIdr inkallofi
t.
Mbuso:
"Youmusthavebeenthi
rst
y"He'
slooki
ng
atmeandIdon'
tsayanyt
hing

Mbuso:"Lungi
.Lookatme!"Itur
nandlookathim
andIseehe'saveryhandsomewow.I t
'sli
keGod
andhisparent
stookti
met omakehim,liket
hey
weren'
tinanyhurr
ybutthere'
ssomethi
ngscary
abouthi
m.

Mbuso:
"IknowI'
m ugl
ybutcanyouatleastl
ookat
me,Iwon'
tbit
e"Ugl
ywho?,ni
kkapl
ease!

Me:
"Wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?"

Mbuso:"Areyouscar
edofmel ungi?"OfcosIam
butIshakemyheadnoi nst
ead.Hepuf f
sout,
shakeshisheadl
ikehe'
sgetti
ngfrust
ratedwel
lso
am Idude.
Thecarfinal
lystopsandIseewe'r
eatsomehuge
houseintown.Theopensandheget soutfir
st
extendshishandformetotakebutIignor
eitand
getout.Hesmirksandrai
seshisl
efteyebrowli
ke
reall
yyouignoredmygestur
e?.

Mbuso:"I'
l
lcal
lyouwhenIneedyou.Feelf reetogo
anywhere"Thedrivernodsandget sinthecar,
dri
vesoutandthegat ecl
oses.Het akesmyhand, I
tr
ytopulli
toffbutheholdsitti
ght.Wewal ktothe
houseandenterthroughthesit
ti
ngr oom thenhe
l
et'
sgoofmyhandandt urnsandlocksthedoor.

Mbuso:
"Ir
entedthehouse,
sodon'
tworryit
'sj
ust
t
hetwoofus"Liket
hatmakesmefeelateaseyoh

Mbuso:"Comel
et'
stothebedroom "OhmyGod!
.
Healr
eadywant
stosleepwithme?
Me:
"No.I'
m notgoingther
e"Ishakemyhead
f
uri
ousl
yandhel ooksatmelikehe'
sbor
ed

Him:"I
t'
seit
heryoucomebychoiceorImakeyou
andyoudon'twantt
hatt
rustme".Myheartis
beat
ingsofasti
nmychestIfeelli
keI'
m goi
ngto
passoutandthenmyheadachestart
sachingagai
n

Mbuso:"I'
m waiti
ng"Heput
shi
shandsonhis
pocketsandlooksatmeandIf
eelmytear
s
thr
eateni
ngtocomeout .

Mbuso:"I
'm goi
ngupstai
r s,
don'tmakemecome
andgetyou"Heleavesmest andi
ngther
eandIcr y.
Whydidmysi st
erhavetor unawayandwhydi dmy
dadal
lowthistohappen?.Il ookupst
air
sthenlook
att
hedoorwecamei nfrom andlookupstai
rsagain
andImakemydeci sion.

Runni
ngawaywoul
dhavebeenabet
terchoi
cef
or
mebutIknowi twouldhavegot t
enmei ntotroubl e
withmydadandIpr omi sedmyuncl eandhimt hatI
wouldn'tdissapointthem.Imakemywayupt he
stai
rsandIseeanopendoorandIgeti nthenIhear
waterrunningi ntheensui tebat
hroom andIthi nk
maybehe' st aki
ngashowerbutIonl yseehisj acket
i
nt hebedandIst andt hereawkwardlynotknowi ng
i
fIshoul dsitont hebedorwhatbutnopeI '
m goi ng
tostandrighthere,there'snowayI '
m si
tti
ngont hat
bed.

Hecomesoutoft hebathroom sti

llwearinghis
cl
othesbuthisshi
rti
sbloodyandhe' scarr
yinga
fi
rstai
dkitonhisl
efthandandhi srighthandis
bl
eedingandhe'scoveri
ngitwithat owel.

Me:"OhmyGodwhathappened?"Ir ushtohi m and

t
aket hefir
staidkitfrom hi
m andpul
lhim backto
t
hebat hroom andt henIseehebrokethevanit
y
mir
ror..
.Hepunchedi t
.Il
ookathi
m andhe's
l
ookingatmet henIt akehi
shandandpullofthe
towelandseehishandisgett
ingswoll
en.Iopen
thetapandtesti
tthewateri
scoldthentakethe
bloodyhandandrinseof
ftheblood.

Me:
"Idon'
tseeanyglassesst
uck.
..
.Doyouf
eell
ike
t
her
e'ssomesti
lll
eft
?"

Hi
m:"No"It akemyhandsandhi sbloodyoneand
f
eeli
fthere'
sanygl
asstherestuckinhisski
nbutI
f
eelnothi
ngthenIwashitoffunderthetapthen
t
akethetowelanddr
yit.

Me: "Sithere"Hesit
sont opoft heclosedt oil
et
bowlt henIkneelinfrontofhim andt aket hefi
rst
Aidkitanddowhatmymom t aughtmeoncel i
ke
cleaningt hewoundanddi sinfectit
.Icanf eelhi
s
eyesonmet hewholeentiretime,Ievenf orgotthat
Iwascr yi
ngwhenhewi pesmyt earsoffmyf ace
withhi sotherhand.Iwon'tlookathi m notwhenI
feelthisweakandvul nerable.Hishandsar estr
ong
andbi gl i
kehisonehandcancoverbot hofmi ne.
Me:"Nothi
ngisbrokenandtheswell
ingwil
lgo
down.Thecutsarenotthatdeept
heywon'tneed
st
it
chingbutIhavetocoveritsoi
twon'tbei
nfect
ed
"

Him:"Doit"That
'sal
lhesaysandIdo.WhenI
'
m
doneIstandup

Me:"I'
llgolookfort
hebr oom tocleanhere"Igo
beforeheevenanswer sandIl ookaroundt he
ki
tchenf i
ndthebroom, makemywayupagai nt
hen
fi
ndhi m si
tt
ingonthebed.Isweept heglassesoff,
got othekit
chenanddumpt hem inthebinandt hen
Istandthereforwhatfeelsl
ikeforeverbecauseI'm
scaredofgoingupt her
eagai n.Iwipemyt earsoff
andmakemywayt hereagain.Igetinandst and
nexttothedoorandhel ooksatme.

Hi
m:"Comeher
e"Hesaysbutnotsogent
ly
Me:
"Pl
ease.
..
.."Ibeghi
m

Him:"Fort
helastt
imelungicomeher e!
"Thi
sman
scaresme,hi
sauthor
it
ivevoice,
justhim.Myfeet
carr
ymet ohi
m andIstandnexttothebedthenhe
l
ooksatme.

Him:"Takeof fyourshoesandgetonbed"Myeyes
getbigl i
kebugseyesandIj ustwanttorunoutof
here.Hest andsupsof astIdi
dn'tseei
tcomingand
Ifal
lflatonmyasscr yingmor ebecauseofmy
embar rassmentnow.Het akesoffmysandalsone
atat i
met hentakesmyhandandhel pmeup.

Him:"GetonthebedI
'l
lbeback"Hegoest othe
bathr
oom andIgetmyassont hatbedthenhe
comesbackwi t
haglassofwaterandtwopill
s.

Hi
m:"Dr
inki
t'
sfort
heheadache"It
aket
hem and
myhandsareshakingandI'
mt hi
nki
ngwhati
fhe
want
stodrugmet henhavehiswaywit
hme?

Him:"Iwon'tdr
ugyouj ustdri
nkit"Itakehisword
anddrinkthem af
terI
'm donehet akestheglass
andput si
tonthedresserthentakesof fshi
rtand
hi
sshoesandl aysont hebedandl ooksatmeandI
crawltothemiddl
eofthebedl aydownf aci
ngaway
fr
om him.

Mybodyi sshakingandIcan' tsstopmyself.He

dragsmybodycl osetohi swithoutanywar ningand
Iletoutaloudsob, covermyf aceandt hatsob
turnsintoawhol elotofuglycrying.If
eelhimt ryi
ng
toturnmet of acehim butIrefuseandIf i
ghthim.
He'sstrongerthanmebecausehemanagest oturn
meandIkeephi t
ti
nghi m wi
thmyf i
stsandl egsbut
heput shislegsont opofmi neandcagesmeand
holdsmet ightandIf i
sthiswhi tet-
shir
tandbur y
myf aceonhi schestandj ustcry.
Hi
m:"I
'
m sor
ryIknowyoudon'
twantt
his"

Me:"Thenwhydoit.
..
.Letmegopl
ease,
I'
m notthe
oneyouwanted"He'
stheonl
ywhocanstopallof
thi
scharade

Him:"You'r
etheoneIwantandI
'm notl
ett
ingyou
go..
..Ever
"HesaysandIcryhar
d.

Him:"Shhhhit
'sokay,l
eti
tal
lout
"Hekeepssaying
thatoverandoveragai
nunti
lmytear
ssstof
all
ing
onlyhiccupsl
eft
.

Ifeelwar m,protected..
.WowIlovethisf eel
ingcoz
i
tf eel
sgoodandt hearmsthatareholdingmear e
holdingmet ightli
ket heydon'
twannal etmego.
Thisf eelsamazingandhmmm sof t,
itsmel l
snice
too.Ir ubmyf aceandIni ponthatski
nandi t'
ssof
t,
neverhadIeverhadt hi
skindofadream andIdon' t
wantt owakeup.Idon' tni
patitagai
nbutki ssit
thist
imeandIgetat i
nglyfeelingallovermybody
andIsighwhenIf eel somethingpoki ngmei nmy
stomachandt hatfeelstoorealnotl i
keadream.I
movemyhandt owar dsthatthingpoki ngmeandI
feelahandstoppingmeandt heni tdawnsonme
thatI
'm nothavi
ngadr eam,it
'sreallyhappening
andIfreeze.

Him:"Openyoureyesandlookatme"Ishakemy
headnobutheput shisf
ingerundermychinand
movesitupt henIf
eelhi
sbreathonmyf aceandI
swall
owt henopenmyeyesandseeI 'mfacetoface
wit
hhismout ht
hati
sful
landjuicyandIli
ckmy
l
ips.

Him:"Fuckdon'
tdot hat"Hesaysi
tli
kehi
smouthi
s
dry,Il
ickt
hem agai
n...Damnwhatam Idoi
ng.
..
Thisisnotme,nopenowaysbuti ti
smeandIhave
noideawhatI'
m doing.

Hi
m:"You'
repl
ayi
ngwi
thf
ir
eandyou'
l
lgetbur
ned"
Hisl
ipsar
eclosetomineandifIj
ustmovemy
headupagai
nal i
tt
leourl
ipswoul
dtouch.

Me:
"I'
m notscar
edoffi
re"It
ellhi
m..
.Hai
bolungi
.
Hebur
ieshishandonmyhairandgri
psti
ghtandI
maketheuhsoundbecauset
hathurt
.

Hi
m:"Youdon'
tknowwhatyou'
ret
alki
ngabout"

Me:"ButIknowenought
oknowt
hatyouwantme"I
poi
nttohisdickwi
thmyeyes

Hi
m:"I
'
llbr
eakyou"

Me:"I
'
m alr
eadybr
oken.Ther
e'snot
hingmor
elef
t"
Thephoneri
ngsbefor
eheanswersme.

Hi
m:"What
?..
,now?
...
.why?
...
.Ok.
..
.Yes"Hehangs
upandl
ooksatme
Him:"Wehavetogoback"Wegetofft
hebedandI
gofixmysel
fint
hebathroom t
henweleavet
he
houseandIseeit
'sal
readydar
k.

Me:"I
smydadmad?"Iaskhim andhepul
lsmeto
hi
m andIl
ethi
m Idon'
tknowwhyormaybeit
'st
hat
momentwesharedint
hehouse.Il
aymyheadon
hi
schest
.

Him:
"Hewon'tyoueverl
ayhi
shandsonyouagai
n,
your
eminenow."Ibreat
houtbutI
'
m st
il
lscar
ed.

Me:"Wi
llyouhur
tme?"Iaskhi
mlooki
ngst
rai
ghtat
hi
seyes

Hi
m:"
Iwon'
tint
ent
ional
lyhur
tyou.Ipr
omi
se"

Me:
"Thankyouf
ornotl
yingt
ome"Thenhedeci
des
toki
ssme.Li ghtl
yandsof t
lyandIgaspt henhe
goesinandki ssesmedeepl yandIki sshi m back
anditfeelsamazi ng.Hisl
ipsaresoftandhi smout h
i
swar m andi tdoest hi
ngstomybodyt hen
suddenlythedooropenswebr eaktheki ssandmy
mom i sstandingtherewit
hauntlwethuandIt urn
redallovermyf ace.

Aunt
lwethu:
"You'
vebeengonef or4hour
smbuso
andI
'vebeencall
ingyou!"She'
smad.

Mbuso:
"Wewer esl
eepi
ngandIdi dn'
theart
he
phoner
ing"Hesaysi tl
ikei
t'
snotabigdealand
worsei
falli
nfrontofmymom andshegaspsandif
l
ookscoul
dki l
l,
Iwouldbedeadrightnow.

Hopeyouenjoyed.Pl
easel
ike,
shar
e,commentand
t
ellever
yoneyouknowaboutit
CHAPTER4.
HereIam att hecourtroom withbothmypar ent
s,
youngerbrotherandsi st
ercousin,myuncl eandhis
wifethenMbusowi thhisparentsandot herfamil
y
member s.Ican'tbeli
eveI'
m get t
ingmar r
iedand
neverhaveIevert houghtthatitwil
lbeinacour t
room ful
lofstrangersandwor seI '
m gett
ing
mar r
iedtoamanI '
veonlymetonce, Idon'tknow
him anddonotl ove.

Tearshavebeenf al
li
ngnonst opsi ncetheweekend
becausemymot herblamedmef orbuhle'
s
disappearanceandwhenMbusosai dhedidn'
thear
thephonebecausewewer e"Sleepi ng"When
mbusoandhisf amil
yl eftandIgoti ntothehouseI
wasmetbyaf istf
rom myf at
herwhenmymom
toldherthatIhadal r
eadysl eptwi t
humbuso.They
didn'tevenletmeexpl ainwhatreal l
yhappenedand
Istil
lhaveabl ackeyef rom myf ather.

WhenMbusoandhisfami
lysawmetheywere
shocked.It
ri
edt
ocovert
hebrui
sebuti
twoul
dn'
t
l
etme. ..Beingayel l
owbonesuckssomet i
mes.I
wipemyf aceast hejudgeisbusyt al
kingabout
mar r
iageandal lyoucanf eelintheatmospherei
s
tension.Someoft hepeoplearehappybutmy
par ents,meandt hismanst andingnexttomewe
arenot .Icanfeelhisanger,hatredandalloft
hati
s
directedt ome.Ican' tbel
ievemypar entsdeci
dedto
sacr i
ficemej ustsot hei
rpreciousnamewon' tbe
draggedt hroughthemud.

Judge:"Pl
easefaceeachotherandrepeataft
er
me..
..Lookateachother"Wef aceeachother
,Il
if
t
myheadt henlookst
raighti
nhiseyesandIsee
annoyance

Judge:
"Nowsinceyoudon'thaveanyvowsyou
wrotef
oryour
selves,
pleaser
epeataf
terme"

Mbuso:"Canyouskipalloft
hatandj
ustgotot
he
partwher
ewesayIdo"Ihearmycousi ngaspi
n
shockbutI'
m notshockedatal
l.
Judge:"LungiMazibukoar eyouher eatyourown
freewil
landnoonei sf or
cingyout obeher et
o
mar r
ythisman.Ifsosayyesandi fnotsayno".The
temperatur
eintheroom changest oli
kezero
degreesdespit
ethatit'
ssummer .Ithi
nkaboutwhat
thejudgesaysand100℅par tofmedoesn' twant
thisatal
lbutmyf amilydidn'
taskf orthi
stoo.

Me:"Iam her
eonmyownf r
eewil
l"Ianswerand
hearloudsi
ghsandheasksmbusothesame
questi
onandalsogi
vest
hesameanswerIdid.

Judge:
"Ifther
eisanyoneherewhodoesn'twi
sh
theset
wot ogetmarri
edspeaknoworf or
everhol
d
yourpeace"Il
ookatmydadbeggi nghi
m onelast
ti
mebuthedoesn'tsayanythingj
ustl
ooksatme
withnoemot i
onwhatsoever
.

Judge:
"Pl
easet
akeherhandsandr
epeataf
terme"
Myhandswer etuckedundermyar mscozI '
m so
coldandshakingsoIpullt
hem outandhet akes
them andIgetshockedt
of eelt
hatt
heyar eso
warm.Ithoughttheywouldbecoldjustl
ikehowhe
l
ooks.

Judge:
"DoyouMbusowezweGumedet ake
uLungi
leMazibukot obeyourweddedwife.Tolove
andtocher
ish.Insicknessandi
nhealt
h.Ingood
ti
mesandinbadt i
mes.Forr i
cherandf
orpoor .Til
l
deat
hdoyouapar t?"

Mbuso:
"Ido".Hedoesn'tevenhesit
atebut
answer
slooki
ngatmelikehe'sbored.

Judge:
"DoyouLungi l
eMazi bukotake
MbusowezweGumedet obeyourhusband.Tol ove
andtohold.Insi
cknessandi nhealt
h.Ingoodt i
mes
andinbadtimes.Forri
cherandf orpoorer.Ti
ll
deathdoyouapart"I
'mlit
erall
yshakinglikeI'
m
goingfai
nt.
Me:
"I
..
.I
..
.Ido"Isaymbusohol
dsmyhandst
ight.

Judge:"Inowpr onounceyouhusbandandwi fe.

Youmayki ssyourwi f
e"Iknowhe' snotgoingt o
kissmebutI '
m wr ong.Hebr ingsmybodycl oset o
his,putshishandsonmyf aceandki ssssmebutI
don'tkisshim backcozmymout hi
sclosedbut
thenhebi tesmeandIgaspt henhet akest
hat
oppor t
unitytogethi stonguei nmeandf or
cesme
toreciprocate.Hiskissishar dbuthi
sl i
psareso
softandIal mostmoanbutt henhestops.Ihear
gigglesandIgetsoembar rassed

Judge:
"IgiveyouMrandMrsGumedeever yone"
Hestart
st ocl
apandsoonever
yoneintheroom
j
oinshim andtheyal
lcl
apt
hentheyleaveuswith
ourwit
nesses.Minei
smycousinsimsandhi s,
is
hi
sbrother.
Wesi gnourmar ri
agecer t
ifi
cateandyeswear e
mar ri
edi ncommuni tyofpr opert
y..
.Whichmeans
what '
smi neishisandwhat 'shi
sismi ne.Asof
todayI 'mr i
ch..
..Don'tknowhowr ichIam butIam
ri
chandt hatdoesn' tmakemef eelateaseatal l
becausef orallIknowhecoul dbecr i
minal.We
l
eavet heof f
iceandhe' swi t
hthesamedr i
verhe
waswi thonFr iday.Wesi tinthebackseatandt he
dri
verdr ivesof f
.Hei ssit
tingnextt omeandI 'm
l
ooki ngout sidethewi ndowaswepassbui ldi
ng
afterbuilding.

Mbuso:
"I'
m yourhusbandnow.Youbet
tergetused
t
ome"Iignorehim

Mbuso:
"Howmanyti
mesmustIt
ellyout
olookat
mewhenI'
mtal
kingt
oyou"

Me:"Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his.
..Whatdi
dIeverdot
o
you?"
Mbuso:"Yoursist
erfuckedwithawrongmanand
unfor
tunat
elyforyou,you'
retheonewho'sgonna
bepayingforhersins.If
eelcol
dchil
lsr
undownmy
backwhenhesayst hatt
henmyheadst art
sachi
ng.

Me:
"Wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?"

Mbuso:
"Thehot
elt
ohavelunchwi
thyourf
ami
ly
t
henaft
erwefl
ytoJobur
g"

Me:
"Fl
yhowbecausewedon'
thaveanai
rpor
ther
e?
"

Mbuso:
"You'l
lsee,
yourdadhi
tyouagai
n?"
.Yes
andi
t'
sallyourf
ault
.

Me:"Hedidn'
t"Hegivesmeohreal
lyl
ook.We
ar
ri
veatthehotelandmbusot
akesmyhand,Itr
yto
pulli
toffbuthegr ipsti
ghtthenopensthedoor.
Everyoneisher e,
theycameher eaft
ertheylef
tus
atthecourt.Ilookaroundandseei t
'sli
kesomesort
ofweddi ngrecepti
onbutit'
ssohear t
breaki
ngfor
mebecauseIneveri maginedthedayIgetmar r
ied
wil
lbet hesaddestdayofmyl i
fe.

Ifeelli
keapar
tofmedi edt
oday.Myparent
sare
si
tti
ngwi t
hmynowi n-l
awsandIdon'
tseemyuncle
andhi swi
feanywher
eandmyhear t
breakseven
mor e.Wegotothem andsi
tdown.

MaGumede:"Welcomet
othefamil
ylungi
.I'
m gl
ad
tohaveanot
herwomaninthefami
ly"Shehugsme
smil
ing

Me:"Thankyouma"Hi sdadsmil
esandl
ooksatme
l
ikehefeelssorr
yforme.Myparent
sdon'
tsay
anythi
ng,Ithi
nktheydon'
twantt
oandI'
m notsur
e
i
fIwantthem tosayanythi
ng.
Mbuso: "Iknowt hatthisi
sn'twhatweexpect edto
happenbutbecauseofbuhl e'
sact
ionsIhadt o
protectmyf ami ly'
snameandhonor .Sosincewe
don'tknowanyt hingabouteachot herwi thmywife
here,Iwast hinkingifyoual lcangiveusspaceand
ti
met ogett oknoweachot her,whenwe' r
ereadywe
woul dinvi
teallofyouoverandhaveaf amil
y
dinner"Hewasn' taskingforpermissionhewas
basicall
ytell
ingt hem.

MyDad:"Wewon' tbotheryou.Takeasmucht ime

asyouneed, evenyearsift
hat'
snotenough"I
coul
dn'texpectmorefrom him becauseIknowhe
doesn'
tcareaboutmeatal l.

Father
in-l
aw:"Weunder st
andson.Youandour
daughterin-
lawcantakeasmucht imeasyouneed
andwewon' tputpressureonyou"hismom agr
ees
MaGumede: "Butasformeandyourauntlwethu
youcancal lusanytime,especi
all
ywhenMbuso
givesyoutrouble.Fi
rstt
hinginthemorni
ngI'
l
lbe
there.Don'
thesitat
etocallus".

Me:"Thankyouma"Il
ookatmymotherandshe
l
ookslikeshewant
stost
ickakni
feonmyeye"

Me:"CanIbeexcused,
Iwantt
otal
ktomybr
other
andsist
er"

MaGumede:
"Goaheaddear,
mbusowil
lint
roduce
yout
oyourbrot
heri
n-l
aws"Wegot
otheirt
able

Me:"Goodaft
ernoon"Mybrot
herstandsupand
hugsmet i
ght
.Wehugf ort
helongestthenl
etgo
andIhugSimst oo.

Mbuso:
"Thi
sismybr
otherSi
yabongaandt
hati
s
Zi
phot
hel
astbor
n".

Me:
"Nicet
omeetyoubot
h"Il
if
tmyhandt
oshake
t
hei
rs

Si
yabonga:
"Nohugsf
orus?.
..
.Wow."hesays
pl
ayful
lyt
hengi
vesmeasidehug

Zipho:
"wear efamil
yandsowedeser vethosehugs
too.Comeher e"Myheartgetswar
m al i
tt
lebi
tand
Ismileforthefi
rstt
imet
oday.Hegivesmeaf ul
l
ti
ghthugl i
ketheonemybr ot
hergaveme.

Mbuso:"That'
senoughzipho.Getyoursel
fyour
owndamnwi f
eyoucanhugl ikethat"Theboys
l
augh.Wesi twit
hthem andtheguysar etal
king
andlaughi
ngandI '
m pl
ayingwithmyf ood.I
'm
hungrybutIcan'
teatandthisdamnheadache.
Si
ms:
"Madeyoudon'
tlookgood,
dri
nksomewat
er
"

Me:"Let
'sgot
othel
adi
esr
oom"Ist
andt
henmbuso
t
akesmyhand

Mbuso:
"Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?"

Me:"Tot hel
adi
esr oom.DoIneedpermissiontogo
t
here..
..CanI?"IknowI '
vedi
srespect
edhim,the
wholetableget
squi et

Mbuso:"Youdo.Go"Mxm weleaveandassoonas
Igeti
nsidet
heladi
esroom Ipourwat
eronyface.

Si
ms:
"Ican'
tbel
ievehesai
dthat
!".

Me:
"If
eell
iket
hisi
sonebi
gni
ght
mar
ethatI
'
m
havi
ng.Aseriesofbaddreamsthatcont
inuet
o
happenfrom t
helast2daysandtheyar
enotgoing
tostopanyt
imesoon"

Si
ms:
"Hel
ikesyoul
uh,
thewayhel
ooksatyou
wow"

Me:"Ar
eyouser
iousr
ightnowsi
ms?"She'
s
annoyi
ngmeri
ghtnow

Sims:
"Seri
ousl
yIhaveexper
iencewi
thmenandI
knowwhenamanwant sawomanandthatman
wantstobeinyourpant
ssobadb"

Me:
"Youknowwhat
?,Ican'
twi
thyour
ightnow!"

Si
ms:"He'
sgoi
ngtowantt
otapt
hatasst
oni
ght
whenyougett
oJobur
g"
Me:"OhmyGodj uststop!.Idon'tneedthisandI
didn'
taskforthi
s.Mypar entsdidn'tevencare
whetherIwanteditornot .I
tshouldhavebeenmy
choicenotthei
rsandyou' real
sobusyt ell
ingme
howmbusowant stotof uckme!...
"Iscream ather

Si
ms:"Ssshhh.
..
..I
'
m sorr
y.It
'snotf
airtoyousi
s,
I
'm sosor
ry"Wehugt henIcl
eanmyf ace

Me:"Canyougi
vemesomepill
stheachi
ngwon'
t
st
op"Shegivesthem t
omeandIdri
nk.

Sims:
"It
'
sjustst
resssi
s,you'
llbeokay,hol
donfor
meandbest r
ong.You'
l
lgetthroughthi
s"Weleave
andgobacktothem.

Mbuso:
"i
t'
sti
met ogoIsight
henSi
msandIhug
andIwi
petearsoffherf
ace.
Thami :
"I'
llseeyousoonokayandwel lt
alkonthe
phoneever yday"Hekissesmyforeheadandhugs
met oo.Igot omyparentsandhugthem toobut
theydon'thugmebackandi t
'sf
ine.

Mom;"Ihopehemakesyourli
feali
vinghel
lfor
st
eal
ingmydaught
ershappiness"

Me;
"Howcanyousayt
hatmama?
...
baba"

Dad:
"Justgo"

Mbuso:
"Comel
ungil
et'
sgo"Godhehear
d.

Me:"Iloveyoubothgoodbye".Weheadi nsidethe
andIsitdownandbuckl eupandcl osemyeyes.
Thecarof fi
tgoestosomewher ejustout
side
standertonl
ikeweregoingt
oBal f
ourbutwet akea
gravelroadt
hatleadstosomewher e.Heislooking
atmel
ikehe'
sst
udyi
ngme

Hi
m:"Howbadi
syourheadache?"

Me:"Toapointwher
eIcan'topenmyeyes"He
fi
shesoutf
orsomethinginthegl
ovecompact
ment
andcomesoutwithpil
ls

Him:"They'l
lhel
pwi ththeheadachedri
nk"Idri
nk
them t
henhepr essesabut t
onandmyseatmoves
backwardsmaki ngiteasierformetosl
eepthenI
seehimt aki
ngouthi sl
apt opandIcl
osemyeyes
aanddoseof f.

Thankyouguysf
ort
hel
ikes.Thepagei
sgr
owi
ng

Chapt
er4Cont
inual

If
eelsomeoneshaki
ngmesof
tl
y,Iopenmyeyes
andseembuso' sface.Ilookaroundandseet hat
we'r
einsideasmal lpr
ivatejett
hatcarr
iesabout4
passangers.Idon'
trememberget ti
nginsi
dethe
j
et.
..hemusthavecar r
iedmeandI '
m heavy.

Mbuso:
"Wakeup.We'
vel
anded"

Me:
"Di
dyoudr
ugme?"

Him:"Whywoul dIdothat
?,youhadaheadache
andIwast r
yingtogetyousomerest"Ij
ustnod.I
unbucklet
hengetupandmakeourwayt othecar,
mywhol ebodyissti
ffandtheonl
ythi
ngIwanttois
fal
lfacedownandsleep.

Hisphonekeepsr ingi
ngandhedecl i
nesallt
he
cal
ls.Iwon'taskwho'scall
ingbecauseit
'snoneof
mybusi ness.Icanfeelhi
seyesonmebutIdon' t
darelookathim becauseI'
m scar
edofwhat '
sgoing
tohappenwhenwegetwher eheli
ves.He'sso
si
lentl
ikehe'
snoti
nthecarwi
thmeoreven
br
eathi
ng,Idon'
tknowhowhedoest
hat.

Thedr i
vecont inuesforaboutfortyfi
vemi nut
es
thenweent eraposhnei ghborhoodofhouses, t
he
archi
tectureandl ight
ingofthehousesi soutofthi
s
worldandyoucant el
lonlytherichli
vehere.Once
weent erthegat ethedriveconti
nuesf oranot
her
tenminut esthent hecardri
vesst r
aightint
othe
garageandst ops.

Myhear ti
sbeati
ngsof astIfeell
ikeI
'
m goingt
o
haveapanickatt
ack.Heget soutofthecarand
Frankopensmysi deofthedoorandIgetoutand
j
uststandther
e.

Him:"Fol
lowme"Hel ooksatmeandIlookatFrank
andIdon'tknowforwhatreasonmaybefor
prot
ecti
onorassurance.He'swai
ti
ngbythedoor
andwhenheseesmecomi nghetur
nsandIfol
low
hi
m.
That'sal
lI'
vebeendoi ngsinceheturnedmyli
fe
upsidedowni stofol
lowhi m.WeenterwhatIknow
i
st hekit
chenbutIdon' tgettol
ookaroundbecause
he'
snotgi vi
ngmeachanceandmyheadi sbowed
downt oo.I'
m notr
eadyt ofacethi
sreali
tyt
hatI'
m
nowgoi ngtoli
vebutImadeachoi ceandIhaveto
sti
ckt oi
t.

Wegetont hestairsandIt r
ytobeasf astashi m
butmyl egswon' tl
etme, soIst opandt akeof fmy
wedges, hestopstooandwai tsf ormeandwhen
I'
m doneIf ol
lowhi m againthi
shousei shuge.We
stopatthisdoorandheopensi tandheadsf orme
toenterandthef ir
stthingIfeelishowt hickand
softthecarpetisandIal mostsi ghcozmyf eet
enjoyit
.

There'
sthishugebedi t
'saki
ngsizeandt he
headboardalmosttakesthewholewallandther
e's
somesor tofdecor
ationofst
eelbarsonthe
headboard,t
heyarepartofi
t.
..
.t
hat
'sweir
d.His
phoneringsagainandhedecli
nesthecal
lfort
he
el
eventhtimeit
'snotl
ikeIwascounti
ngandI
wonderwho'scalli
nghim.

Him:"There'
sanensuitebathroom andwalkin
closett
hereonyourri
ght,yourclot
hesarealso
therewit
heveryt
hingyouwi l
lneed.

Me:
"Ok"

Hi
m:"Ar
en'tyouhungr
ybecauseyoudi
dn'
teatt
he
whol
eday?"

Me:
"I'
m nothungr
yIj
ustwantt
osl
eep"

Hi
m:"Fi
neI
'
m goi
ngout
.Dontwai
tupdearwi
fe"
Me:"Idon'
tcar
e"Helooksatmeonel
astti
me
befor
eclosi
ngthedoorthenafewmi
nut
eslat
erI
hearasport
scardri
vingout.

He'sgoneandIsi ghdeepl ythenmakemywayt o

thebat hr
oom andt akeoffallmycl ot
hesandgetin
theshower .Thewat erisjusthowIl i
keithotsoI
scrubmysel fclean.Iwantt ocrybutI'
mt oo
drained..
.I'
m exhausted..
..Ifeelnumb..
.Iam numb.

Igetdoneshoweringthenwearmypj '
sthenthrow
themanypi l
lowsonthebedondi f
fer
entdir
ections
ofthebedroom t
hengetinbed.Thesheetsaresi l
k,
theysmellfr
eshandclean.Ibur
ymyf aceont he
pil
lowandsleepli
keI'
m deadonmyst omach.

I'
m st
illsl
eepywhenIheartheshowerisonandI
l
ookatt heclockonthewallandi
t'
s3am.Hejust
gotbackfrom whereverhewasatandnowhei s
washingoffsomewoman' ssmelloffofhi
m.Ihear
theshowerdooropeningandsoIlayonmy
st
omachagainandcl
osemyeyessohewon'
t
not
icet
hatI
'
m aler
tofhi
m.

Ican'tbel
ievehe'sgoingtosleepi nt hesamebed
I'
m sleepi
ngon, whycoul dn'
thej ustshowmet he
guestbedroom tousei tandnothavet oworryi
f
he'sgoingtotouchmeandt hatt houghtmakesme
panick.Heswitchesof ft
helights,get sinthebed
facingmeandIcanf eelhisfreshbr eathonmyf ace
andIknowhi sbodyi sclose,nott oocl osebutcl
ose
enoughbecauset hemomenthegoti nt hebedIfel
t
thi
swar mthfrom him.

IcanfeelhiseyesonmeandIdon'tknowifmay
he'swait
ingformetoopenthem uporaskhim
wherehewasatbutI '
m notgoi
ngtodothat.It
urn
myheadandf acet
heothersi
deandhesighsfaces
theotherwayandsleeps.

Idon'
tknowwhenIfel
lasl
eepbutI
'm awake
becausemybodyever
ydayat5:
30am automat
ical
ly
wakesmeup.Iopenmyeyesandseembusoi s
deepi
nsleepfacingme.Igot othebathr
oom and
domymor ningrouti
nethengotot hewalkincloset
andwearmyundergar mentsandl ongdressthen
l
eavethebedroom andmbusoi sstil
lsl
eeping.Isti
ll
rememberthewayt otheki
tchenandIgett hereand
fi
ndawomanwho' saboutinherlatefi
ft
iesstir
ring
somethi
nginthepotandshemustt hehelpIthink.

Me:"Goodmorningma"Shet
urnsandl
ooksatme
andsmilesandhersmi
lei
swarm

Her
:"Goodmorni
ngMrsGumede.Idi
dn'
treal
ize
madam wil
lbeupsoeear
ly"

Me:"I
'
m anear
lyr
iser
.Mynamei
slungimazi
buko,
ohsorr
ymait'
sGumedenow"

Her:
"Nicetomeetyoumadam andI'
m Sophi
e
dl
aminibutyoucancal
lmemadl ami
ni"
Me:
"Nicetomeetyout
oomaandyoucancal
lme
l
unginotMrsGumede"

Her:
"Mnumzanegavemest ricti
nst
ruct
ionst
hatI
mustcallyouei
thermrsgumedeormadam "Who
car
eswhathesai dbuti
t'
shishouseandstaf
fsoI
won'tar
gue.

Me:"Madam wi
lldo,
canIhel
pyouwi
thanyt
hing"
FornowIsaytomyself

Her:
"Si
rsai
dyou'
l
ltel
lmewhatt
odoar
oundt
he
house"

Me:"Justdowhatyou'
vebeendoingmabutI'
l
l
cl
eanourbedroom,dohisl
aundryandI
'
llal
socook
"
Her:
"Doest
hatmeanyou'r
egoi
ngt
ocutof
fmy
sal
aryandt
hedaysIwork?"

Me:"NomaIwon' tdothat
,you'l
lcont
inuet
ogett
he
samesal
aryyou'vebeengetti
ng.Howmanydays
doyouworkhere?"

Her:
"MondaytoFri
dayf
rom 5:
30am t
henont
he
weekends7am t
o2pm"
That'
scrazywhywoul
dmbusowor
kthi
swoman
suchcrazyhour
s

Me:
"Doyouhaveaf
ami
ly?"

Her:
"Idomadam.Ihave5gr andki
dst
hatIl
ivewi
th"
Shetakesoutherphoneandshowsmetheir
pi
cturesandtheyar
eallcut
e.

Me:
"Yourgr
andki
dsar
ebeaut
if
ul"
Her
:"t
hankyoumadam"

Me:
"Sowhenyou'
reher
ethi
sear
lywho'
swat
chi
ng
t
hem?"

Her:
"Theol
destwho's15.Theyunder
standt
hatI
havetowor
kforthem "

Me:"Wher
ear
ethei
rmot
her
'si
fyoudot
hinkme
aski
ng?"

Her:
"Theysomet
imescomehomeorcalland
someti
mestheydon'
tshowupf
ormonths"

Me:
"I'
m sor
rytoheart
hatma.Howmuchi
s
mbu.
..
.myhusbandpayingyou?"
Her
:"Eheishmadam maybeyoushoul
daskhi
m"
Whatissheaf
rai
dof

Me:
"Iwi
ll
.Whatdoyouusef
ort
ranspor
t?"

Her
:"It
aket
axi
smadam"What
?

Me:
"Wher
edoyoul
ive?"

Her
:"Sowet
oatsnakepar
k"

Me:
"Itt
akesyouhowmanyt
axi
stogether
e?"

Her:
"3madam someti
mes2"Youdoesmbuso
knowwheret
hiswomanlivesandwhyissheusi
ng
taxi
swhenhecangetsomeonetotakeherhome

Me:
"Excusemef
oraski
ngsoanyquest
ions.Ij
ust
wantt
oknowmoreaboutyousi
nceI
'l
lbestayi
ng
her
e.You'
vewor
kedhowmanyyearsforhi
m?"
Her;
"Iunderst
andmadam.I t'
sgoingtobeayear
now"Shest arst
oputeverythi
ngonthekitchen
tabl
eandmakesf reshcoff
ee.Ist
arttopl
atef or
myselfwhenIheardoorsopeningandclosing,
morelikesomeonebangingthem cl
osed,t
henhar d
thudfootst
epsli
kehe'si
nahur r
y..
.Li
kechilldude.

Heget sint hekit

chenandmybr eathi
ngstartsto
changebecauseIdon' tknowwhathe' sgoingtosay.
Wi l
lhesaysomet hingori gnoreme.Ifeelhim
standingbehi ndmet henhet ur
nsthechairI'm
si
ttinginandIseehe' sonl yweari
ngpyjamapant s
andhi schesti sbareandhehast hatv-t
hingmen
havet hatleadstohi scrotch.Hetil
tsmyheadup
withhisfingerandt hengi vesmeaki ssfullontt
he
mout h.Imi sshim backshockedathi saction.

Hi
m:"Mor
ningmyl
ovel
ywi
fe"
Me:
"Mor
ningmyhusband"Hesmi
rks

Hi
m:"Madl
ami
niunj
ani
"

Her
:"I
'
m goodmnumzane"Shel
eavesusal
onei
n
t
hekit
chen.

Hi
m:"Ithoughtyouwer
egone.IwakeupandI
'
m
al
oneinbed"

Me:"I
'm anearl
yr i
ser"Heturnstogositonthe
opposi
techairandIal mostgasploudbutIclose
mymout hfast.
..
.shockedatwhatI '
m seei
ng.

Apol
ogi
esagai
n
CHAPTER5.

Hi
sbacki
sful
lofscr
atches.
..
.nai
lscr
atchest
hat
canyouonl ygetfr
om awomanwhohasl ongnai
ls
duringsex..
.ohwowIdi dsuspectbutseeingthe
evidencethathecamehomel at
ebecausehewas
fuckingsomeone..
.ki
ndahurtalitt
le.HereIam
mar ri
edtohim,myl i
fehaschangedbutf orhimit
seemsasi fnothi
nghaschangedonhi sside.

Hepl atesforhimself,sitsdown, eatsandtotall

y
i
gnor esme.Iguesst hatkisswasf orshow.Imake
anor angej ui
ce,havescr ambledeggs, bacon,bread
andeat .Thesamedoorwecamei nyesterday
openst henIseehi sbr othersandpar ent
swal ki
ng
i
n.Igetupsof astfr
om t hechairthereali
zemy
headi snotcover edbutatl eastI'
m wearinga
dress..
.itshouldcountf orsomet hi
ng.

Me:"Goodmorni
ngbabanomama,sani
bonani
bobhut
i"Thebr
other
sgr
eetback

Fatheri
n-l
aws:"Makotiwamiomuhl
eunj
ani
"(my
beauti
fulmakotihowareyou)
Me:"Ngi
yaphi
lababawena?"(I
'
m gooddadand
you)

Hi
m:"Iwi
llbeonceIeat
"

Motherin-
law:"Yourdadi
salwaysgrumpyinthe
morning.Howar eyoumakoti
,wethoughtyou
mightbestil
lsleepi
ng"Shecomesandhugsme
andhugsmbusot ooandtheyal
lsi
tdown.

Me:"Iwashungrymathat'
swhyIwokeupear l
y"
Welli
tist
hetruthandIal
sodidn'
twantmbusoto
wakeupbeforeme.Mbuso,hisdadandbrot
hers
t
alkaboutwork.It
akethedi
shesandputt
hem in
f
rontofever
yone.

Me:
"WhatcanIdi
shupf
oryoubaba?
"

Hi
m:"Ever
ythi
ngt
hat
'sher
emakot
i"Ido
MaGumede:"I
'
lldi
shformysel
f,si
tdownmakoti
andt
hesetwowi l
ldi
shfort
hemselves"Isi
tdown
andweeat
.

Mbuso:"BabaIthoughtIaskedyout
ogiveus
spacebutyou'
reallher
e,why?"Thewhol
etabl
e
getsqui
et

Gumede:"We'
real
lherebecauseIwantedtotalkt
o
youaboutsomet
hingbeforeweleaveforCape
Townwithyourmom.We' r
etaki
ngami niholi
day
andmbusoyouwillnott
ellmewhenorwhennot
canIcometomysonshousesi yezwana?!"

Mbuso: "Yebobaba,Iwasjustaski
ng"Hesaysthen
standsup, tur
nshisbackandgoestoopenthe
fr
idgeandever yone'
seyesareonhisbackt
henhis
brotherslookatmelikeohIknowwhatyoudidlast
ni
ght ,hi
smom gaspsandhi sdadlooksatme.
..
.
Looksatmyhandsespeci all
ymynailsandIknow
heknows.Iqui ckl
yputthenonmyl apundert he
tableandlookdown.Icanf eelmyfaceheatingup
turni
ngr edbecauseoftheembarrassment.Mbuso
pourshi msel
fsomeappl ejui
ceandnot i
cesthat
everyoneissil
entwatchinghim.Hesitsdown
slowlylooki
ngathisdadt henathi
sbr ot
herswho
arelaughing.

Him:"Whatar
eyoutwoclownslaughi
ngat"It'
s
ei
thermbusodoesn'
tknowwhathisbacklooksli
ke,
ormaybehef or
gotorhesi
mplydoesn'tcar
e.

Gumede:
"Mydaught
eri
n-l
aw,
didyousl
eepwel
l
l
astni
ght
"OhGod

Me:
"Idi
dbaba"

Gumede:
"Hmmm.Canyoupleasepourmecoff
ee"
What
?,Ist
andupandt
aket
hef r
eshbrewi
ngcoff
ee
fr
om themachineandpouri
tforhi
m.I
'
m standi
ng
nextt
ohim andhe'sl
ooki
ngatmyhands.
..
.Oh
mbuso!

Gumede:
"Addt hecr
eameronl
y2t easpoons"Iadd
andst
ir
.Iookatmbusoandhelooksconfusedat
hi
sdadandhismom conti
nuestodr i
nkhertea
l
ooki
ngdown.

Me:
"CanIbeexcused?"

Gumede:
"Sitdownandfi
nishyourbr
eakf
ast
"Thi
s
man'
sbigvoicei
ssoscary.Isi
tmyassdown.

Mbuso:
"Babaissomet
hingwrong.
..
.di
dlungido
somet
hingwrong?"Hi
smothershakesherhead
l
ooki
ngathim

Her
:"Youar
eaver
ysmar
tmanbutsomet
imesyou
canbest
upi
dmbusoyoh!"

Hi
m:"Awmawhatdi
dIdonow?
"Hef
orgot

Gumede:"Youreal
lydon'tknoworyou'
rej
ust
di
srespect
ingushere.
..Especi
all
yyourwi
fe?"

Mbuso:"What ?
,Ireal
lydon'tknowwhatyou'
re
tal
kingaboutanddisrespectherhow?"Hisvoi
ce
star
tstogetloud

Gumede:"I
sthathownowyout al
ktomembuso? ,
rai
seyourvoiceeveratmeagainandI
'l
lpunchyou
unti
lyougetyoursensesback"He'
sascoolasa
cucumberbuthisvoicecar
ri
essomuchaut hor
it
y

Mbuso:"
I'
m sor
rybabai
twil
lneverhappenagai
n
butIst
il
ldon'
tknowwhatwrongIdid"
Gumede:
"Di
dyousharethesamewi
thyourwi
fe
l
astni
ght
?"groupopenusandswal
lowme.

Mbuso:
"Wi
thal
lduer
espectdadIcannotanswer
t
hat"

Gumede: "Thoughtasmuch, wel lanswermet his.I

s
shetheonewhoputt hosescrat chesonyourback?
"Mbuso'sf acegoesal lwhit
ethenhel ooksathis
mom,br ot
her sthenmeandIl ookdown.Hest ands
nexttothef r
idgeturnshisbodyandseeshi s
ref
lect
ionandhesaysf ucksoftly.Igoto"our"
bedroom andl ookforhisT-shirtinthecloset
,come
backwi t
hitandIgi veittohim andhet akesi
t,
wearsitandsi tsdownwi thhisheadboweddown.I
wouldthinkhei sashamedbutheyIdon' tknowt hi
s
man.

Gumede:
"Whattimedi
dhecomebacklungi?and
onet
hingyoushoul
dknowaboutyourf
atherinl
aw
i
syoudonotli
et ome.Wedonotli
einthi
sf ami
ly
wealwaystel
lthet
rut
hnomatt
erwhat
,doyouhear
me"Fir
stti
meIhearmyfat
heri
nlawcal
lmebymy
name.

Me:"Ihearyoubaba"Ilookatmbusoandhelooks
soguil
ty,si
tt
ingt
herel
ikeaschoolboyget
ti
ng
repr
imandedbyhisparents.

Gumede:"Whendi
dhecomehomel
astni
ght
?"To
l
ieornottol
ie

Me:"Iwasasl
eepbytheti
mehecamebackbutI
wokeupwhenIheardtheshowerwasonandI
l
ookedatthecl
ockanditwas3am"

Gumede: "Sothemomentyoul andedandgothome,

youl
ef tyourwifeal
lalonei
nt hishouseandleftt
o
dodisgustingthi
ngs.
..
..whi
leyouwer esupposedto
beherecomf orti
ngherbutyouwer eoutmaking
somewomanwho' snotyourwi f
escreamingyour
namembuso!
.At3am t
hat
'swhenamar
ri
edman
comeshome?"

Mbuso:
"Itwon'
thappenagai
nbaba.I
'
m sor
ry"

Gumede:"Thever
yfi
rstdayyougotmar
ri
ed,
you
l
eftyourwif
etogoandcheat?"

Mbuso:
"Ididn'
tcheatonher
.Wedon'
thavet
hat
ki
ndofrel
ati
onship"

MaGumede: "YouknowIcanj ustsl

apyourightnow
mbuso.Wasn' ti
tyouwhosai dyouneedti
met oget
toknoweachot her?
...
.oryouweret
alki
ngabout
sleepi
ngwiththosecheapwomenyoual wayssleep
withyeh?
...
.t
alkman!"

Mbuso:
"Butmo..
..
."
MaGumede: "Don'tmom meman! .Youar ea
mar r
iedmannowmbusogr owup.For getabout
yourbachelordayst heyar egone.Focusonyour
wifehereorelseyou' l
lloseoneoft hebestthings
thathashappenedi nyourl i
fe.Havi ngherasyour
wifeisgoodf oryou, youmi ghtnotseei tbutIknow
i
tmbusobecauseI 'm yourmot her .Changeyour
waysorl etthi
spoorgi rlgobecauseshehasbeen
putthroughenoughf orsomet hi ngshedi dn'
tdoor
askedt obepartof .Dor i
ghtbyher .Lungilet'
sgo
upstair
s"Hi smom doesn' twai tforhimt oanswer.
Shedr oppedalloft hatonhi m...Iwonderwhathi s
dadisgoi ngtosay.Wel eavet hemeni nthekitchen.

Ma:
"Di
dheshowyouar
oundt
hehouse?"
Me:"Noma, hewasgoingtoshowmet oday"Ilie.
Thewhol ehousehas8bedr oomswi thensui t
e
bathr
ooms, ourshasabeautifulverander,pr
ivate
l
oungef orwhatkodwayoh, col droom, pantr
yr oom,
l
aundryr oom, gym,si
tt
ing,
di ni
ngr oom thatleadsto
theki
tchent henbasementhasaver ycosyalmost
i
ntimatelikecinemaroom andgar agesout si
de, 2
cott
agesofwhi
choneoft
henmaGumedesaysi
t'
s
forsecur
it
y.

Me:
"It
'saver
ybeaut
if
ulhousema"

Ma:"AndIhopeyou'
l
ltur
niti
ntoahome"Il
ook
down

Her
:"Iwant
edtot
alkwi
thyousol
et'
ssi
t"Wesi
tat
t
hesitt
ingr
oom

Me:
"Okma"

Her:
"Iknowyoudi dn'
tchoosethi
sandt obehere
andit
'sokaytofeelangr
yandhurt.I
'm sorr
yyou
weredraggedint
ot hi
swit
houtanyoneconsideri
ng
yourfeel
ingsanditwasnotfai
rfr
om allofus"It
ear
up.
Her:"IwishIcansayal lthet
hingsthatwi
llmakeal
l
ofthisokaybutIwhatIknowi smbusocould'
ve
havewal kedawaywhenhef oundoutwhatyour
sist
erdidbuthedi dn'tbecausehesawyouand
knewt herewassomet hingaboutyouandhe
want edthatf
orhimsel f.Wewer eshockedasyou
werewhenhet oldust hatyou'l
lbetheonewho'l
l
takeyoursist
er'splace"

Her:
"Wemaynotknowwhathi sreasonsar eandif
ormaybehe' sjustbeingaselfi
shmanandmencan
beveryselfi
shlungi.Whathedi dl
astnightwasnot
ri
ghtatallandheowesyouanapol ogyIknow
you'
regoodf orhim andyou'r
eexact l
ywhathe
needsinhislif
e.Whatam t r
yingtosaylungiisgive
thi
sachancemychi l
d.Showumbusot hewayand
l
ethimi nt
oyourhear tandIpromiseyou, youwon't
regr
etit".

Me:"Idon'
tknowhowtodothatma.It'
sreal
lyhar
d
andIdidn'
taskf
oral
loft
his"I'
m cr
ying
Her:"SsshhhIknowi t
'shardandI'
m sorrybaby.It
's
goingtobeokay"Shehugsmecomf ort
ingmeandI
askmysel fagain,whycouldn'tmymot herbeli
ke
thi
sbutI '
m gladIhavef oundanothermother.Even
thoughshe'smyi n-
lawsheseemsl ikesheisavery
carryi
ngandl ovingwomanandI '
m gladtohavea
partofthat.

Her:"Everythi
ngisgoingtoworkout ,
justgi
veit
ti
me.Ubabai stal
kingwit
hyourhusbandandI '
m
surehe'llgett
hroughhim andhellchangehisways
andi fnot,I
'mjustaphonecallaway.Youcallme
anytimeyouhearme?"

Me:
"Iwi
llma.Thankyou"Shesmi
les.

Her:
"Youreal
lyar
eabeaut
if
ulwomanl ungiand
youaregoi
ngtomakemysonr eal
lyhappyandhe
won'
tknowwhathithi
m.BetweenthetwoofusI'm
gladi
t'
syouandnotyoursi
ster"HehIl
ookather
shocked.

Her:
"Ial
waysknewt heyweren'
tgoi
ngtolast
.Don't
l
ookatmeliket
hat....Lookathowredyouare.
..
Gowashyourface.You'l
lfi
ndmeintheki
tchen,I
'
m
sur
emyhusbandi sreadytogo"Shesmil
es

Me:
"Thankyouagai
nma.Ineededt
oheart
hat
"

Her:"Remembert hatI'
m alwayshereforbothof
you.Mar ri
agei shardlungiandyouar egoingto
needal lt
hesuppor tyoucangetandunf or
tunatel
y
foryoui t
'sgoingtobet hatmuchhar derbutIknow
youcandoi tandpul lt
hrough.Thefi
rstyearof
mar r
iageisalwayshar dbutaf t
ert
hateverythi
ng
getsbet t
erandbearable.

Me:"Yesma"Shestandsupandleaves.Igotoour
bedroom andwashmyfacequi
cklythenlookatt
he
mirr
orandyoucantel
lI'
vebeencryi
ngandIl
ook
l
ikeamess.Igodownst ai
rsandIfi
ndhi
sfamil
y
aboutt
oleave.

Gumede: "Mydaught
er,yourhusbandhas
somethingtosay"Il
ookatmbusot henhecomes
standsnexttomeandtakesmyhandsi nhis.

Him:"I
'
m sor
ryforwhatIdidanditwil
lnever
happenagai
n.Wil
lyouforgiveme?"Ilookatthis
manandwonderifhe'sdoingitj
ustf
orshowi n
fr
ontofhi
sparentsorhereall
ymeansit.

Me:
"If
orgi
veyou"

Hi
m:"Thankyou"

Gumede:"I
t'
sti
meforust
ogo.Youtwotakecar
eof
eachot
herwithl
oveandr
espect
.Wewil
lseeyou
soonandyouboysgi
vet
hem space"Theyagr
ee.

Ihugmymot herinlawandhi
sbrother
sand
surpr
isi
nglymyf atheri
nlawhugsmet oothent
hey
l
eave.It
'sj
ustthet woofusagai
n..
..
welland
madlaminitoo.

Mbuso:
"Whydi
dn'
tyout
ellmeIhadscr
atcheson
myback?"

Me:"Why?.
..I
'm nott
heonewhoputt hem t
her
e"I
gototheki
tchentocleanupbutfi
ndmadlaminihas
al
readycl
eanedsoIgoupst ai
rsandhefoll
owsme

Mbuso:
"Don'
twal
kawayf
rom mewhenI
'
mtal
king
t
oyou!"

Me:"Youdon'
tgett
otellmewhattodoorwhatnot
.
Iwanttosl
eepinaseparat
ebedr
oom "
Him:"I
'
mthemanofthishouseandyou'
lldoasI
say"Huht
hisman.
..Whatyeardoeshet
hinkthi
sis?

Me:"Okmanoft
hehouseIwantmyownbedr
oom
andpri
vacy"

Hi
m:"
whyt
hatbedi
sbi
genoughf
ort
hebot
hofus"

Me:"
Iwantmyownbedr oom soIwon'thearorsee
andsmellyou,
smel
li
nglikeyourgi
rl
fr
iendand
comingbackat3am t
hat'swhy"

Him; "Youaremywi f
eonpaperonl y.Don'
tyoudare
startacti
nglikewehavear el
ati
onshipbecausewe
willnot.Iwi
lldoasIpleaseasIhavebeendoi ng
beforeyou"Thathurt.
..Liker
eall
yhurtme.

Me:
"Thenwhyam Iher
e..
.Whydi
dyoumar
ryme?
!
"Iscr
eam athi
m

Hi
m:"Topayforyouandyoursist
erssinsandto
makesuret
hatshe'
sgoingtopay,I
'm goi
ngto
makeyourl
if
easmi ser
abl
easIcan"

Me: "What?,
Ineverdidanyt
hingbadtoyou.Ididn'
t
evenknowyouorevenknowaboutyouunt i
lshe
camehomeandsai dsomemanshe' sseei
ngwants
tomar ryher
.Whyar eyoupunishingmeforher
runningawayandget t
ingpregnantbysomeone
else".

Him:
"Stopl
yingbecauseyouknewandhel
pedher
.
Youbot
hstol
emy2mi l
li
onRands!
..
..
wher
eismy
money!
?"

Hopeyouenjoyedreadi
ngi
t.Let'
skeepgrowingthe
page.Li
ke,
shareandcomment .Il
oveheari
ngfrom
youandwhatyouthink.
Chapt
er5Cont
inual

Me:"What?,2mill
ionr ands?.
..Meandmysi ster
stol
e2mi l
li
onrandsf rom you?,t
hat'
scrazy.Idon't
evenhavehalfofthatkindofmoneyandIwoul d
neverdosomethinglikethatbecauseI'
m notat hief
.
Youcancheckmybankaccountandyou' llseejust
howmuchIhave" .I
'm soi nshock,
I'
mliterall
y
shaki
ngandsoIsi tont hebedhandsonmyhead.

Him:
"Yousuchagoodactressyouknow.
..
.t
heway
youpl
ayedmymom actinghurtandal
lwhi
leyou
knewitwasj
ustanact"

Me:
"Iti
snotanact
.Iam hur
tbyal
loft
his"

Hi
m:"Justf
uckenst
opi
tbecauseIhavepr
oof
!"

Me:
"Whatpr
oof
?..
.what
everpr
oofyout
hinkyou
haveonmei
snotr
eal
ort
rue"Hel
aughs

Him:"Ofbothofyoupl anni
ngthewholethingand
sweetheartyouaregoingtopay.Youwon'tsleepin
aseparatebedroom andyoubettergetusedtoit
becausewear egoingtosharethatbedeveryday
anddowhatmar ri
eddo...I
'
m goingtohaveyou
soon"Ifeelsicktomyst omach,howcanaper son
bethiscoldandheartl
ess

Me:
"Ididnot
hingofsuch.
..Idi
dnotst
ealyour
money!"

Him:
"Yout hi
nkI
'm st
upi
dneh,t
hatIwoul
dn't
i
nvest
igat
eandI'm maki
ngal
lofthi
sup?.
..Don'
t
youdarepatr
oni
ze!"

Me:"Ihat
eyoumbuso,
Ihateyou!
,Ihat
eyou!"I
scr
eam athi
m andhel
aughs
Him:"Thef eel
ingi smutual.Youmessedwi ththe
wrongmansweet heart"Het hengoestothe
bathroom notclosingthedoorandshower s.How
di
dmyl if
egett obet hi
scompl i
cat
ed,Idon'tknow
anythingaboutt he2mi ll
ionrandsJesus!.Whatdi d
buhledowi ththisman' smoneyandsomehow
i
nvolveme.It akemyphoneandgodownst airs
passingmadl ami nicar
ryi
ngf reshcl
eanlaundr y.

Me:"MaaboutwhatIsai
dearl
ieraboutmbuso's
l
aundry,youcanwashi
tandcleantheroom and
cookbreakf
astandl
unch.I
'
llj
ustcookdinner"

Her:
"Okmadam"Shetakesoutahandkerchi
efand
gi
vesitt
omewit
hpityonherfaceandItakei
t.

Me:"Thankyoumadl amini"Iqui
ckl
yleavebefore
sheasksmequest i
onsIhavenoanswer sto.Don't
getmewr ongshesoundsl i
keasweetwomanbutI
don'
twantherinmybusi nessbecauseshe'
llstar
t
gett
ingi
nvolvedandforgetshe'
sheretomake
thi
ngsmuchbet t
erf
ormbuso.Igot otheci nema
andswi t
chofftheli
ghtsandsitinthedar k.Ili
ke
bei
ngi nthedarkcozI'
m hidden.Noonecanseeme,
hurtmeandi tmakesmef eelinvi
sibl
e.It rytocall
buhlebutasalwayshernumberi sonvoi cemai l
andIli
veabunchofmessagesandt hel astoneI
l
eavehasmescr eamingatherandcr ying.I
conti
nuet ocr
yuncontrol
lableandendupf al
li
ng
asl
eepi nther
e.

Thesmel lofcookedmeatwakesmeup, mybodyi s

sost iff
.Imakemywayupst airsandgot oour
bedr oom andt akeallofmycl othesfrom thecloset
tot heotherbedr oom andputt hem inthecloset
sincei t
'sgoingtobemybedr oom f r
om nowonand
Idon' tcarewhathesai d.He'snother einthehouse,
hemusthavewentsomewher e.Itakeahotbat h
andt akemyt i
meandwhenI 'm doneIgot othe
kitchenandf i
ndmadl aminialmostdonewi th
cooki ng.Ilookatthetimeandi t
's2pm.
Me:
"Itsmel
lsamazi
ngi
nher
ema"Shesmi
les

Her
:"Thankyoumadam"

Me:
"Somuchf
oodf
orj
ust2peopl
e"

Her:
"Sirsaidhe'sgoingtocomewi thsomepeopl e
soImustcookmor ef ood"Inod.I
'
m goingt ostay
i
nmybedr oom becauseIdon'twanttodisturbhim
andhisfri
ends.Ieatmyl unchthenheadt omy
bedr
oom andgot hr
oughmyphone.

Nomessagesf rom si msormybr ot

herandwel lmy
parentswon' tbothercal l
ingme.Imustcal lthem
whichr emi ndsme, Igetonmyl aptopandt ypea
resi
gnat ionletterwithi mmediateeffecttomy
empl oyer.Theydi dn' tthi
nkaboutmyl i
fe,myjob
andmyf ri
endswel lt heonlyfri
endIhavei smy
cousinsi msbutst i
ll.EveryoneIknowi sthereand
everythingI '
veknowni nmyl i
feisallt
hewayi n
MpumalangaandIknowabsol
utel
ynooneher
e.I
ve
beentoJobur
gmanyt i
mesandIknowwheret
he
mall
sareandsoIdecidet
ogothere.

Idownl
oadtheUberappandquickl
ychangebef
ore
mbusocomesback,takemybagandrequestf
or
onewhi
leI'
m wai
ti
nganditsaysit'
s5minut
esaway.

Me:"Ma?
...
whendidhesayyoucanknockof
fsi
nce
he'
shavi
ngaparty?"

Her
:"Af
terIhavepr
epar
edever
ythi
ng"

Me:
"Howf
arar
eyou?"

Her
:"I
'
m al
mostdonemadam"

Me:
"Okaf
teryou'
redonepl
easegohomebecause
i
t'
salmostwi
nterandi
tget
sdarkquickl
yandIwant
youhomesafe.Fr
om nowonyou'
llknockof
fat
4pm andont
heweekendsyourof
f"MyUberdri
ver
i
shere

Her:
"oht hankyouver
ymuchmadam"She'
shappy
wit
ht hatdecisi
on

Me:"Okma"ThenIl eaveandheadst r
aightt
othe
mallofAfri
caImeanwher eelse.Ispendmywhol e
dayther
eandwi ndowshopt hendecidet ogoget
somethi
ngt oeatatt
hesteakhousebecauseIj ust
l
ovemymeatandor deraglassofwi neandhavea
l
ovelydinner
.

IgowatchJohnwi ckmovieandbyt hetimeit'

s
done22:30pm thenheadhomet ofacemyf ucked
upli
fe.Therearemanycarsparkedoutsideandt he
musicistooloud.GoshIhopeI'
llbeabletosleep.
Thesecurit
ystoptheUberdri
verandwhent heysee
i
t'
smet heytellhi
mt odr
opmeof fher
eandhe
agr
eesandleaves.Iseeacarcomi
ngthenf
rank
pul
lsupandopenst hedoorf
ormeandIgeti
n.

Me:
"Goodeveni
ngFr
ank"

Hi:"Eveni
ngmadam"Wedr iveinandIpr epar e
mysel ff
orwhatI '
m abouttoface.Igetofft hecar
andopent hedoorandtherearesomanypeopl e
thereandt hewomanorgi rl
salmostaoft hem ar e
halfnaked.Igetcuri
ouslookslikewho'st hisgirl
thatdidn'
tgetthememobecauseI '
mjustwear i
ng
j
eansandasweat er
.There'
sevenaDJpl aying,no
wonderi t
'ssonoisyanditlookslikeI'
mi nsidea
clubbutI'mi nt
hishouse..
.Myhouse? .

Ipasspeoplemakingmywayupst ai
rsbutthenI
seembusowi t
hthi
sgirlwhohasherar mswr apped
aroundhim andtal
kingtohim andhe'
slookingat
hersmili
ngthenheturnsandseest hati
t'
smet hen
hisfaceget
sf i
ll
edwithrage.Hepushesthegi r
loff
ofhim andwalkstowardsmeandIdon' tknowwhy
IdoitbutIr
unupst air
sknocki
ngoffsomepeople
butIdon'
tcarethengettomybedroom andl
ockthe
door.Mbusohast hi
sscaryt
hingabouthi
mthat
fr
eaksmeout .
..Hisauranj
escaresmetodeath.

Hi
m:"Openthi
sdoorri
ghtnowl
ungi
!"Hi
sbangi
ng
t
hedoorandIkeepqui
et

Him:"Openthi
sfuckendoorr
ightnow!"He'
s
gett
ingangr
y

Me:
"Mbusoplease,
IhadalongdayandIj
ustwant
t
osleep.Got
oyourpart
yandleavemeal
one".

Him:"Whot ol
dyout ocomeher e?
...
fuckoffand
waitformedownst air
s"Hesayst osomeoneandI
betit
'sthatgirl
.Hegetsquietforafewmi nutes
thenIseet hedoorhandl et
urnandt hedooropens.
Heclosesi tbehindhim andandstandsthere
l
ookingatmeshaki ng
Him:"Wherewereyou?.Whotoldyou,youcanleave
thi
shouseandwhogaveyout hatper
missi
on?"He
askscomi ngtowhereI'
m st
andingnownexttothe
dressi
ngtable

Me:"Idon'
tneedper
missi
onf
rom yout
ogo
anywhere"

Him:"YouforgetthatIownyouunt
ilIsayot
herwi
se.
SodearwifeIownever ythi
ngandImeaneveryli
tt
le
thi
ngaboutyoui sundermycommandandyouwi ll
doeveryt
hingIsay"

Me:"PleasembusoIdon' twantt hi
s.Iwanttogo
homeandbackt omyl i
fe.PleaseIdidn'
tdo
anythi
ngt oyou.Ineverstol
ef r
om you"Itearup

Hi
m:"Thesooneryouunderst
andthatYou.Are.Not
.
Goi
ng.Anywhere,
thesooneryou'
l
lgetusedtoit
andthosecrocodil
etearsdon'tmovemesot hey
won'
twor konme.Youst ol
emymoneyandI '
ll
showyout heproof"HethinksI'
m pr
etendi
ngthat
mytearsarefake..
.Whydi dbuhlest
ealthi
sman's
moneythatI'
m payingforrightnow?.
..
.Ihat
eher!

Me:"Pleasejustgo.Iwanttosl
eep"Ther
e'snouse
f
ighti
ngi t
.Thisismyreali
tyandIhavetoaccepti
t.

Him:"Youdi
dn'tanswermyquest
ion"Hesays
gett
ingcl
oser

Me:"Iwentt
othemal
l,
Ijustwant
edt
ogetoutof
t
hishouse"

Hi
m:"Lookatmeeveryt
imewhenyou'
retal
kingwi
th
meunderst
and?"Inodandherai
seshi
seyebrow

Me:
"Iunder
stand"
Him:"You'
l
lhaveadr ivert
omor rowwho'l
ltakeyou
anywhereyouwantt ogo.Wher everyougohegoes
wit
hyou.IfIeverf
indoutt hatyouwentsomewher e
wit
houthimthere'
llbehelltopay,doyou
underst
andme? !"

Me:"Yes"Iwi
pet
het
ear
sof
fmyf
aceandl
ookat
hi
m

Him:
"Whydi
dyoumoveyourt
hingsoutofour
bedr
oom?"

Me:"That
'snotourbedr
oom mbusoi
t'
syour
s.Ij
ust
wantmypr i
vacythat
'swhyImoved"

Him:"Yourpri
vacyhuh?,
whataboutmypr ivacyt
hat
youinvadedwhenyoustolemyf r
eaking
money? .
..
you'
vegotsomenervetalki
ngabout
pri
vacy"Hesayssocalml i
keit
'snothingt
ohi m.
Someoneknocksont
hedoorandgoest
oitand
opensi
tjustal
it
tl
e

Hi
m:"Fuckof
fMelI
'
m busy"Andcl
osest
hedooron
t
hepersonsf
ace

Me:
"Idi
dn'
tst
eal
..
.."

Him:"Shutthefuckup!
.Idon'twantt
ohearit.I
bett
erfindyouinthatbedroom whenIcomeback
oryou'l
lknowme"Het henleavesandIsitowna
l
it
tl
et henleavetohi
sbedroom.

Itakeoffmyclot hesandgeti nt
otheshowerand
maket hewaterhotandgetunderi tandscrub,
scrub,scr
ubmysel funti
lmyskinget sr
edandst ar
t
tohurtbutIdon'tleave.I'
m usedtopeoplebeing
hardandhat i
ngonmemeani ngmymom, dadand
sist
erandI'velearnedtodealwi t
hitandleavewith
i
tbutwhatt heydi dthi
stimeandmbusot reat
ing
thiswayi sallt
oomuchandIdon' tthinkIcantake
i
tanymor e.Icantakesomuchasaper sonbutwith
mbusoi swholeentir
ediffer
entlevelbecauseIthi
nk
he'stheonewho' sf i
nal
lygoingtobreakmecozI
feelli
keI'm neart
hatpoint.Igetout,dri
nkheadache
pill
s,brushmyt eeth,wearpj'
sthengeti nbedand
sleep.

Veryloudmoani ngandgroaningsoundswakeme
up.Thehousei squit
eandIt hi
nkthepart
yisover
butIguessitsnotoverforsomepeoplewhoar e
havi
ngl oudsexandIt hi
nkit
'smbusoandt hatgi
rl
.
CHAPTER6.

Igetupandgot othebathroom anddomy

businessthenIheart hebedr oom dooropeningand
cl
osingt henmbusoget sinthebat hroom andsees
me.Hei gnoresmet hentakesof fhisclot
hes
standinginfrontofme.Iqui cklyfi
nishupbef or
ehe
getsnakedi nfrontofme, thenwashmyhandsand
I'
m aboutt ol
eavewhenhebl ocksmywayout .
Him:"I'
m comi ngnow, don'tfal
lasleep"What ?
?, oh
hellno.Hekissesmyneckandl eavenotanswer ing
him.Igetinbedandf aceawayf rom hi ssideoft he
bedandcovermysel fupt omyneck.Themoani ng
andgr oani
ngsoundshaven' tstoppedandi fmbuso
i
sher ethenwhoar ethepeopl efucking..
.Maybehi s
fri
ends.Thewomani snowscr eami ng"Yesbaby,
fuckmehar der"Godi t
'sgonnabeal ongni ght
.I
seembuso' sshadowandIcl osemyeyesand
goosebumpsbr eakoutallovermybodyandmy
heartbeatsfast.

Him:"Fucktheyaresoloud"Heget si
nthebedand
swit
chesthesidelamponandt henIgetshocked
whenhedr agsmybodyt ohi
sinoneswi f
tmove
andIholdmybr eath.If
eelhi
snakedskinonmy
backcozmypyj amat ophasrisenupandt henhi
s
handgoesundermyt opandconnectswithmyskin
andIholdmybr eath.
Him:"Breat
houtsl
owl
yoryou'
l
lpassoutandwe
don'
twantthatnowdowe"Hesaysnexttomyear
anddamnmybodyshuddersandmyni pples
peeble.

Hi
m:"Clothesarenotall
owedinthisbedsweet,l
et'
s
t
akethem off"Hesaysgetti
ngupandmovi ngoff
t
heblanketsandGod. .
.HeisnakedandIcan'thel
p
mysel
fandl ookatthathappyt
railt
hatl
eadstothat
t
oolofmassdest r
uctionandIsuckmybr eat
h.

Me:
"Mbuso.
..
.Pl
ease"Ibeghi
m

Hi
m:"Ssshhhhh"Heki
ssesmyearandIf
eelhi
s
war
m breat
h

Me:
"I'
m notr
eady"Honest
lyI
'
m not
.

Hi
m:"You'
renevergoi
ngt
ober
eadysweet"He
sayssosweetandt enderthatasobescapesmy
mouth.Hetakeshishandsandr unsthem onmy
boobsanddownt omynect arandrubsitwit
hhis
ri
ghtthumbandIl ethi
m, i
tfeelsgoodandhe'smy
husbandri
ght?,i
twasonl yinpaperbutnowi t
's
goingtobeoff
ici
al.

Me:
"Justgi
vemet
imeandwe'
l
ldoi
t"

Him:"Youdon'tl
iket
his?..
..I
tdoesn'
tfeelgood?
...
.I
knowyourmi nddoesn'twantthi
sbutwhatabout
yourbody.
..
.ItwantswhatI '
m doi
ngtoitnowand
whatI'
m abouttodotoi t"
.

Myt opi
soffnowandhei spull
ingmypant soffand
hetapsonmyhi pssoIcanli
ftmybut tandIdoand
offt
heygoandI'm compl
etel
ynaked.It r
ytocover
mynectarbuthetakesmyhandsof fandshakehis
head.
Him:"You'
renotgoingtohideyour
sel
ffr
om me
sweet.We'
regoingtoconsummat eourmarr
iage
now.Light
son"Hesaysl oudandthewhole
bedr
oom getsbright
.Icovermyeyesandtheyare
wet.

Him:"Youaresobeaut
iful"HesaysoutloudandI
doubtthathemeanti
tformet ohearandIlookat
hi
m

Him:"YeahIsaidi
t.Evenabl
indmancanf eeland
seeyourbeautyandit'
sal
lminetodoasIwi sh.
Takeoffthosehandsonyourfaceandlookatme.
Alwayslookatme"Iwipemyf acebef
oremovi ng
myhands.

Him:"You'
reevenmor ebeauti
fulwhenyou
cry.
..
openyourlegs"Heget sbetweenmyt hi
ghs
androughl
ysepar at
esmyl egsasheget sbetween
them andl
ookingatmynect ar.Idon'
tli
keshaving
offal
lofmypubi chair
.Il
eavesomeofi tandnow
I
'
m embar
rassedasIseehi
mlooki
ngatmet
her
e.

Him:"justhowIl
ikeit"What?,hesaysproudl
yand
star
tstotouchmyl egsrubbi
nghishandsupand
downt hendoest
hesamet omyi nnert
highsandI
squir
m.

Hishandsmovet omynect arandIhol dmybr eath

whenhesepar at
esthel ipsofmypussyandIf eel
coolairther
ethenIf eelonef ingerther
ebrushing
myclitandIknowhef eelshowwetIam. ..
.my
tr
eacherousbody.Hegr oansandcont i
nuesto
brushmycl itwit
hhist humbt henhisotherhand
goest omyboobsandf eelsthem oneatat i
meand
myni pplespeeblehardt henhepi nchesthem atthe
samet imeasheent ersmewi thhisfi
ngerand
fi
ngersme.Mybodyget soffthebedar chi
ng.

Him:
"Youaresowet.
..
.Youwantt
hisasmuchasI
do"Mybodyhasit
sownplansandasmuchasI
don'
twantt
hisI
'
m enj
oyingi
t.
Hebri
ngshi
sbodyont opofmi
neandhisski
nisso
warm,hi
sfi
ngeri
ssti
lli
nsi
deofmemovinginand
outt
henheaddsanot
heronestr
etchi
ngme.

Me:"Aahh"Hei
skissi
ngmyneckandI
'
m sur
eI'
m
goi
ngtohavemarksonmynecktomor
row

Him:
"Final
ly,
shemakesasound"Hesaysaddi
ng
anot
herfi
ngerandt
hat'
s3yoh

Me:"aw.
..
."It
rytopullouthishandbuthet
akes
bot
hmyhandsi nhisandr ai
sestheovermyhead,
pi
nningt
hem t
heretight.

Him:"Ohsweetmyf i
ngersaresnuginhere.
..
.you
feelhowwetyouare?"Hei ncr
easeshi
space
movi ngt
hem indi
ff
erentdir
ecti
onsandrubbi
ngmy
cli
tandIstartmovemyhi psandIsweatbecauseI
knowI '
m aboutt
ohaveanor gasm
Me:"Mbuso. ..
..
ah"Het akeshishandof fofmine
andwr apsitaroundmyshoul dersli
kehe'sholding
medownwi t
hitandal souseshisbody.Het hen
presseshi sthumbonmycl itandImoanoutl oud
thenher ubsitsoft
lywi t
hhiswar m handandI'm
j
ustt hereifhecanj ust..
..
..
..
..t
henIfeelhi
m enter
mehar d,roughandf astandIscr eam andholdhi m
ti
ghtf eeli
nglikethebonesofmyl owerbodyhave
comeundonecozt hat'swhati tf
eelsli
ke,l
ikethey
j
ustgotbr oken,hefreezes.

Him:"Fuck!Fuck!Fuck!Lungi
,you'
reavi
rgi
n?"My
eyesareclosedti
ghtandIshakemyheadno
becauseIcan'tt
alk.

Hi
m:"Lookatmeandt
ellme!
."Hedemands

Me:
"I'
m..
.I'
m notavi
rgi
nokay"Heshakeshi
shead
Him:"Howmanyguyshaveyousleptwi
th?"He
askspull
ingoutt
hent
hrust
sali
tt
ledepeerthanhe
wasbefore

Me;
"What
?..
.Aaaww"

Him:"Howmanyguyshavefuckedyou?"Heasks
gett
ingangr
yandt
hrust
inghardtoo

Me:
"Nott
oohar
dpl
ease,
justoneot
hert
hanyou"

Him:"Howl ongwasthatandhowmanyt imes"I

can'tbel
ievehewant
st otal
kaboutanot
herman
fuckingmewhi l
ehe'
sinsi
deme...
whodoest hat
?.

Me:
"Idon'
twanttot
alkabouti
tmbusoj
ustf
ini
sh"
Hepul
lsoutandIwi
nce.
Him:"Getonyourhandsandknees.Facedownass
up"Hesaysser iousl yandIdot henIfeelhimjust
watchingmybehi ndt henf eelhisrockhardlong
dickonmynect arr ubbingi tupanddown.He
separatesmybut tcheeksandpoi ntshisrigi
d
membert hereandsl owl yentersmegr oaning..
.I
feelf
ullli
kehe'
sal linmeandImoani npleasure
andslightl
ypai
n.

Him:"Rel
axyourbody, I'
mj usthal
fway.Youcan
takeal
lofmei nyousweet .Justrelaxyourmuscles
andbody"Ilist
ent owhathesaysandt hemoment
Irel
axmybodyi tfeelsbett
erandhegr oansthen
pull
soutthenthrustsinhardburyinghimselfdeep
i
nmeandIgaspi nshock.

Me:
"Aaahhhh,
you'
rebr
eaki
ngme"

Hi
m:"Ssshhhhyouf eel
soamazi ng..
.f
uckl
uh"He
gr
oansthenmoveshi shipsupanddownandholds
mybuttcheekst
ightwithhisf
ingersdeepi
nmy
skinandf ucksmel i
keamant hatwasstarvingand
deniedf ood.Heconti
nuestofuckmeandI 'mj ust
l
osti nthepleasureandpai
n.Her ubsmyclit
maki ngmemor ewetandIar chmybackgi vinghim
allofme. .
..I
t'
sthatdamndickt hat'smaki
ngme
moani npl easur
eandhim groan.

Hi
m:"Howmanyt
imesdi
dhef
uckyou"

Me:"AaahhhIdon'
tknow..
.2or3ti
mesI
thi
nk.
..
.mmmm"Hesl apsbothmybuttcheekshar
d
thengr
absmywai stt
ightwit
hhi
shandsandI '
m
near

Him:"How.many.
fucken.
ti
mes?"
Eachwor
dhesays
hethrust
sandslapsmyasshard

Me:"Ahhh3ti
mesokay.Just3times2yearsago"
Hechangeshispaceandhi
tsthatonespotover
andoveragai
nandt hr
ust
shardagainandslaps
myassandt hatpushesmeoverandIf al
l.
..
..
Ihave
anoutofbodyi ntenseorgasm Ihaveneverfeltin
mylif
e.Iletgocal l
inghi
snameatt hetopofmy
l
ungs.Hegent lycatchesmei nhisarmscozmy
bodyfeel
sheavyt henhelaysmeonmyst omach
whil
ehe'sstil
linsi
demeandl ayshisbodyont opof
mywetoneandgi vesmesweetki ssesonmyf ace
andneckandeart henhegetshishandbet weenmy
l
egsandpl ayswi t
hmysensi ti
vebudawakeni ngi t
agai
n.

Me:
"mmmm ohGod"Isaymoani
ng

Him:"yessweetI
'm yourGod"Imovemyhi psand
meethi mthr
ustforthrust
.Igri
phisdickinsideme
usingmypussymuscl esandhel osesitandgi ves
met hefuckIwil
lneverforgetandIknowf orsure
I'
m notgonnabeabl etomoveof ft
hisbed
tomor r
ow.

Hi
m:"Howf
arar
eyou"Heasksandhi
sbodyst
art
s
t
oshake

Me:
"I'
m..
..
.I'
m aaaahhh"

Him:"Ohf uck..
..
.Comewi thmenow"Het hrust
sevenmor etimest henbi t
esmyneckandIcome
uncontrol
lablyhardwi t
hhi m atthesamet ime
call
inghisnameagai nthenhi sbodyfall
sonmi ne
withallofhisweightonmeanddamnhowi sitt
hat
hisskinisalwayswar m.Hepul l
soutandIwi nce
thenfeelhiswarm seedonmyt highsandt henit
dawnsonmet hatwedi dn'tuseprotect
ion.Heget s
upandgoest othebat hroom andcomesback.

Hi
m: "Turnaround"HesaysIopenmyl egsand
wincewhenhecl eansme.Ididn'
texpectt hat
, I
t
houghthe' llt
hrowthetowelatmet ocleanmysel f.
Hi
svoi cehasgoneverydeepandgr uffandIl ikei
t.
Ohl ookatmecat chingmefeeli
ngswhat 'swrong
withm.Hecl eanshimsel
fandIturntheot herway
whenheget sinbedandcoversuswi ththebl anket
.
Hi
m:"Doesi
thur
t?"Heasks

Me:
"Itdoes"Hebr
eat
hesout

Hi
m:"Good"If reezeandf eelmyheartdrop.But
whatdidIexpect?,t
hathewoul dchangeaf t
er
f
uckingme? .
..
.I
'm sonaive.I'
m notgonnacry.

Me:
"Ihat
eyou"

Him:"HatemeallyouwantIdon'tcarebutyour
bodyenjoysmyt ouchandwhatIjustdi
d.Thiswas
mebeingni cet
oyouandIwasget ti
ngat ast
eof
the2milli
onpussyandI'm goi
ngtoenjoyit"

Him:"IhopetoGodt hatt
hedaywhenyoulear
nthe
tr
uthandr eal
isewhatwrongsyouhavedonet
ome,
youwillr
egretit
".
Hedoesn'tsayanythingbutIknowhewant stoso
heturnsandfacestheot herway.Icl osemyeyes
andfightt
hetearsthatwantt ocomeoutbecauseI
don'
twanttogivehimt hesat isf
act i
ont hathehurts
me...
.Hiswordshurtsme.Iwasaf ooltothinkhe
wouldholdmeandcomf ortme.Ij ustfeelsoalone.
Hetakesmeupagai ninthef oll
owi nghour sand
aft
er3mor eroundshel et'
smesl eep.

Herei
tisguyscozit
'snotf
airt
oyouwhocan' tgo
t
hroughandthoseonfreemode.I
sazoqhubeka

Chapt
er6Cont
inual
.

Iwakeupandi t'
slat
erthanIusuall
ydoandt hesun
i
soutandI '
m alonei
nbed.Imaket hebedand
makemyselfabat hbecauseIfeelsosore.It
ake
mytimeandwhenI '
m doneIgot otheki
tchenandI
canhearvoicesasI'
m approachi
ng, mal
evoices
andafemaleone.
Igettotheki t
chenandthefi
rstthi
ngIseei sagirlI
meanwoman, Ithi
nkshe'
saboutthesameageasI
am.She' sskinnyandshe'
ssitt
ingont opofoneguy
andhe'ski ssi
ngherneckandtheot heroneis
kissi
ngheri ntheli
ps,Owow...
she'ssandwiched
betweent hem andmbusoiswat chi
ngt hem l
ike
he'senjoyingtheshowtheyareputtingonandI '
m
justshockedbecauseIhaveneverseensomet hi
ng
l
ikethisli
ve.

Me:"Goodmor ning"Isaycl
earingmyt hroatand
theyal
lt urn,
lookatmeandIj ustther
elooking
awkwar d.Mbusost r
etcheshi
shandf ormet ocome
tohim andIdot henheopenshi slegsformet o
standbet weenthem andIdo.

Hepull
smer ealclose,
handsaroundmywai stand
myfacenextt ohisandIcansmel lhiscof
fee
br
eathoverfacewhenhebr eat
hesandmybody
j
ustmelts.
..Idon'tknowwhy.Heki ssesmefullon
theli
pstaki
ngmybr eathawayandIkisshi
m back
andforamomentf orgetaboutt
hepeoplewhoare
watchingusdeadsil
ent.

Him:"Morningsweet,
didt
heywakeyouup?"He
asks..
..
concerned?

Me:
"Not
heydi
dn'
t"

Hi
m: "Letmei ntr
oduceyoutotheguys"heturnsme
ar
oundst i
llholdi
ngmet henIfeelhi
sharddickon
myass.DidIgi vehim abonerorhegotitf
rom
watchingt
hese3? ,
Idon'
tknow.

Him:"Thisguysit
ti
ngdowni sPaulandt heone
standi
ngupi sMike"Ilookatt
hem andseet heyare
tal
landdarkskinnedandalmostsamewei ghtnot
surebutPaulhasat att
oothat
'svi
sibl
eonhi sneck
andMi kehasalit
tl
escaronhisleftcheekandno
faci
alhair
.Sowho' sthegi
rl
?andPaulhast hesame
nameasmyex.

Me:
"HiI
'
mlungi
,ni
cet
omeetyou".

Thegi
rl
:"Hil
ungi
,I
'm Gugu"Shesayslooki
ngatme
upanddown,moreli
kesizi
ngmeup. .
okay.

Theguysar est
il
llooki
ngatmel i
kewhoar eyou
andwher eyoucomef r
om thenPaulstandsup
upruntl
yandGugual mostfal
lsbutbalancesher
sel
f
wit
hMi ke.HeapproachesandIdon'tknowwhybut
Ipullbacktombusoandhehol dsmet ight
.

Paul
:"Sot
hisi
sthesecr
etyou'
vebeenkeepi
ng"He
l
ooksatmeundressi
ngmewi t
hhiseyesandthat
makesmefeelver
yuncomfort
abl
e

Paul:
"Arewegoingt
osharehertoo?"Igaspi
n
shockandfr
eeze.Heisnowjustt
wostepsaway
f
rom met
henhel
if
tshi
shandl
ikehewant
sto
t
ouchme.

Mbuso:"TouchherandI
'l
lchopof
fbothyour
hands"Hesaysseri
ousl
yandPaullaughs.

Mike:
"ComeonG, we'
vealwayssharedandso
what'
sspeci
alaboutherothert
hanshe'sver
yandI
meanverybeauti
fulandsexyashell
"Sotheyshar
e
women?,doesthi
smeant heysharedbuhlet
oo?

Mbuso:"Touchevenonel i
tt
lehai
ronher ,notonly
wil
lIfi
rstchopoffyourhandsbutI'
l
lalsoputa
bull
etbetweenyoureyes"Thewayhesaysi t
soundslikei
tisn'
tevenhim andi
t'
ssoscary.Ifeel
col
dchi l
lsfr
om thenapeofmyneckt omyback.

Mi
ke:"She'
soneofthewomenyoualwaysfuck,so
weshouldal
sohaveapieceli
keweal
waysdo.I
meanweshareourgir
lswit
hyousoit
'sonl
yfairif
youdot
hesame"Mikesaysgetti
ngangryandI
'
m
get
ti
ngpal
efr
om t
hethingsI
'm hear
ing.

Mbuso: "Letitbethelastti
meyoubot hsay
somethingl i
kethismikeorsohel pmeGod.Thi sis
notsomepi eceofmeatl i
kethatcheapgi
rlbet
ween
thetwoofyout hatyoufuckedundermywi fe'
sroof.
Don'tevertalkaboutherlikethat
.Doweunder stand
eachother ?
!"

Paul
:"What
?,yourwi
fe.
..
.Whendi
dyougetmar
ri
ed?
"Heasksshocked

Mbuso:
"That'
snoneofyourbusiness,
apologi
zet
o
mywifeandI'
l
ltel
luSi
yabongayouwer ehere.
Apol
ogizet
omywi fet
henleave"Hesaysvery
angr
y.

Paul:
"Weapologi
zemaGumedewedidn'
tmeanany
di
srespect
.Ourol
dfr
iendher
edi
dn'
ttel
lust
hathe'
s
mar
ri
ednow.Pl
easeacceptourapol
ogy.

Me:
"Iunder
stand"

Mi ke:"Itwi l
lneverhappenagain.Gcanwet alkto
you?"Theyl eavethekit
chendraggingthegir
l
behi ndt hem whogi vesmeanevi ll
ook.Mbuso
standsupbehi ndmeandki ssesmycheekj ustas
madl ami nient
ersthekit
chengr eet
inggoi
ngtothe
storer oom.

Hi
m:"Ar
eyouokay?
"Hel
ooksconcer
ned.

Me:
"I'
m okayj
ustshocked"

Hi
m:"Whatshockedyou?"

Me:
"Thet
hingst
heysai
dandhowyour
eact
ed
t
owar
dsmei
nfr
ontoft
hem.It
hought
..
..
."

Him:"Mypri
vateli
feismybusinessandIdon't
wantthem i
nmybusi nessandyou'
remybusiness.
Theothert
hingstheysaidaboutmearenotyour
concert
"Heturnsmet ofacehi
m.

Me:"Whydidyoupretendtocar
eaboutmeandact
l
ikethati
nfrontoft
hem?"Onemi nut
ehe'
ski
ndand
t
henexthe'sascoldasice.

Hi
m: "OhbutIdocar eaboutyou,becauseyou'
re
wort
h2mi l
lli
onandsoIhavet olookaftermy
i
nvestment.Whenwe' r
ealone,youarethegir
lthat
st
olefrom mebutinfrontofotherpeoplewearea
marri
edcouplewho'sdeeplyinlovewitheachother
.
Doweunder standeachothersweet?"

Me:
"Idon'
twantal
lofthi
smbuso.letmegoorl
et
mefi
ndworkandI'
llpayyouback"
Him:"That
'snothowi tworksher
e.Imaket her
ules
andifIsayjump, youaskhowhigh.Ihavetogetal
l
mymoneywor th.YoudoasIsayort her
e'l
lbehe'
ll
topaysweet..
.don'tt
ryme" .

Me:"Pl
ease..
.."Mytear
sfallandnowIknowthat
I
'm apr
isonerhereandther
e'snothi
ngIcando.

Him:"Youwon'
tworkever.Theonlyworkyou'
l
lbe
doi
ngi sf
oll
owingmyinst
ructi
onsdoingasIsay.I
'
ll
beback,wehavesomethi
ngt otal
kabout"He
ki
ssesmeont hemouththenleave.

Ithi
nkaboutr unni
ngawaybutwherewil
lIgocozI
knowhe' l
lfi
ndmebutwhyisn'thesear
chingf
or
her?.
..
.Isi
tdownandcovermyf ace.

Madl
ami
ni:
"Madam ar
eyouokay?"
Me:
"I'
m okayma,
Idi
dn'
tsl
eepwel
l".

Her:
"Letmemakeyousomebr eakfastbecauset
he
vi
sit
orsfi
nishedi
tal
landyou'l
lfeelbett
er
af
terwar
dsbuthere'
ssomer ooi
bost ea"

Me:
"Thanksma"Idr
inki
t

Me:"I
'
m goi
ngt
olaydown.I
'
llhavebr
eakf
astal
i
ttl
e
l
ater"

Her
:"Okmadam,
doyouwantmet
owakeyou?"

Me:"Noma.Haveyourbr eakfastanddowhatyou
usuall
ydo"Shenodst henIleaveandhearvoices
thenhisvoiceinthest
udyandhesoundsver y
angry.Idon'tl
ist
enbutgotoourbedroom andsleep.
Ifeelki
ssesonmyface,neckandhandsonmy
boobsthenstomach.
..
.OhnoI '
m st
il
lsor
e.

Me:
"Mbuso.
..
.i
m st
il
lsor
e"

Hi
m:"
shhhhI
'
llbegent
le"

Me:
"youwer
eroughbef
ore"

Hi
m:"Letmemakei
tbet
tert
hen"

Me:"ButI.
..."Idon'
tgettofini
shasheundr esses
met henInoticedhe'snakedtoo.Helooksatme
thenseparatesmyl egswithhisshoul
dersandt hen
buri
eshiswhol efaceandmuf fsmel i
kecrazy,his
tongueonmynubbi t
ingandsuckingit
.Imoanand
holdhishead, movemyhi psandr i
dehisface.
Mybackar chi
ngnowandagai nandhearinghim
groandr i
vesmecr azyandIcomeal loverhisface
withmybodyshaki ng.Hemuf fsmetil
lIcome
downt henhet ur
nsmet olieonmyside,li
ft
smyl eft
l
eguphol dsmet i
ghttohi mthenburi
esallof
himselfdeepinmeandIcr youtinpainand
pleasure.Hedoesn'tgivemet i
metoadjusttohim
i
nsidemeandst art
st ofuckmehar dandI'm gr
ipi
ng
theduvetsot i
ghtcozhe' snothavi
ngmer cyonme.

Me: "Aaahhhh..
.be...
gentl
e..
."Heslowsdownt hen
pullsout.I
'minmybacknowandhe' sbetweenmy
thighs.Heinsertshisdickandl ooksattheparts
thatarenowconnect i
ngusagai nthenli
ft
shishead
andl ooksatmet henputshiswhol ebodyont opof
mi nethenhishandsonmyaf rogripmet ight
.He
kissesmet henf ucksmehar dwithlongdeep
strokesandIfeel li
kemywombi sgoingtoshift

Hi
m:"
ahf
uck!
,youf
eel
amazi
ngsweet
..
.Yourski
n,
thewayyoufeelandtast
ehowyouf
itmeme
perf
ect
ly.
..
ahfuck!"
Hesayst
hatget
ti
ngroughwithever
ystr
okehe
gi
vesmeandIstar
ttocrycoznowI'
m notenj
oyi
ng
i
t.

Him:"Ssshhhwedon'twantmadlaminit
ohearus
now,dowesweet"Hesaysmuf fi
ngmycr i
eswi t
h
hiski
sses.He'sgr
oaningandmoaningli
kehe's
eati
ngoneoft hemostamazingthi
ngshe'snever
tast
edhet henmovesmyl egst
ohisshoulder
sand
hishandstomywai st
.

Him:"Wrapyourl
egsar
ounddmyneck"Idoandhe
getsdeeper
.

Me:"Mbuso...
..
ah,you'
ret
oodeep"Idon'
tift
hat
excit
eshim butheputshi
sfaceonmyneckand
bit
eme, handsonmyass, nai
lsdi
ggi
ngonmyski n
thenrubsmycl i
tandIbui
ldupandmoan.
Hi
m:"YoutastesogoodandIcan'tenoughofyour
l
ovel
ypussyandit'
sallmine"Herubs,pi
nchest
hen
r
ubsmyclitagai
nandI '
m sowet.

Ifeelmyorgasm comingsoIunt angl

emyl egson
hisshoul
der sthenhest
rechesmyl egsfarapart
andbangsi ntome.We'r
ebot hsosweat y,
myski n
hotanddrippingofsweat.Hepinchesmycl i
tli
ghtl
y
thensoft
lyslapsit3moretimesandr ubsitandI
comehar dscreaminghisname.

Him:"Fuckbabymi lkthatdickwithyourgr
eedy
cunt.
..
yes..
..
ohshiii
iit
..
.ohfuck!"Hecli
maxesaft
er
met henhef al
lsontopofmet hensayssomethi
ng
butIdon'thearhim cozhehasf uckedmebackto
sl
eep.

Somet
hingi
sburni
ngmyskinsoIopenmyeyes
andi
t'
sthesunshi
ningonmyface.It
urnandI
'
m
sorebet
weenmyl egsandt heyaresti
ff.Ihear
cli
cki
ngsoundsandlookonmyr i
ghtandsee
mbusoonhislapt
opt ypi
ngf astandIcan'tstand
thesi
teofhi
m.Igetupgr oanandhel ooksatme.

Him:
"Youlookthoroughlyfuckedanditsui
tsyou"I
i
gnor
ehim, got
ot hebathroom andshowerquickl
y,
comebackandf i
ndhim stil
lonthebedtypi
ng.

Hi
m:"Weneedt
otal
k.Si
t."

Me:
"Canwet
alkl
aterbecauseI
'
m hungr
y

Hi
m:"Iwasn'
taski
ng.You'
l
leatwhenwe'
redone
t
alki
ng"Isi
tmyassdown.

Me:
"I
'ml
ist
eni
ng"
Him:"Letmetel
lyousomet hi
ngaboutme.Imake
therul
esandeveryonefol
lowsthem.Ever
yone
l
ungi.Noonedisagreeswithmeorsaynotome"Ok
he'sscar
ingme

Him:"Rul
enumber1:Anyt
imeIcal
lyoupickupthe
phone.I
tdoesn'
tmatt
erwhereyouareorwhat
you'
redoingorwhatt
imeiti
s"

"Number2:Thomasi syourdri
vert
otakeyou
anywhereyouwanttogo.YoudonottakeanUber
ortaxi
.Ifyougi
veThomaspr obl
emsyou'l
ldealwi
th
me"

"Number3:youwon'tdi
scusswhathappensher ei
n
thi
shousewithmyf ami
ly,yourbr
other
,yourcousi
n
andmymot her.
..
especi
all
yher"

"Number4:Iwi
llcont
inuet
odomybusi nessasI
pl
easeandyouwon'tquest
ion.Justaccepti
t"
"Number5:Iwi l
lhaveyouwheneverandwher everI
wantandyouwon' trefuseme.Wewi llplaythe
per f
ecthappycouplear oundeveryoneand
especiall
ymypar entssot heycanseehowmadl yin
l
ovewear ewi t
heachot her"Im si
tti
ngher e
l
isteningtothismant ell
ingmeabouthi sstupid
rulesthatIhavetofollow.Whyshoul dwepr etend?,
i
t'snotlikei
t'
severgoi ngtohappen...
.ri
ght? .Ihate
whathe' sdoingtome.

Him:"Andlastlylungiyoudonoteverquestionme,
notfol
lowmyr ulesoranythi
ngthatItel
lyoutodo
andyouwi llnevereverinyourli
fedi
srespectmein
fr
ontofanyoneorevenmeher e.Youwillr
espect
meandIdemandi t.Youhearme?"Hesays
seri
ously.

Thi
smanwho' ssitt
inginthebedIndi
anst
ylel
ike
he'
sgoingtoprayisscary.Thewayhetal
kstome
i
sverycoldanditsendschill
sdownmyspine.I
real
iset hatfi
ghti
nghimisnotgoingt ochangehi s
mindt obel i
eveme.Ijusthavetoacceptthatthisis
myr ealityandI '
l
lhavetopayforherdebts..
..
.that
s
whatf ami l
ydoesr i
ght
?,weprotecteachotherand
somet imest hatmeanstaki
ngtheblameandf allf
or
someone.

Me:"Ihearyou.I'
l
lfol
lowyourr
ules"Heseemsabi
t
shockedbutquickl
ymasksit.

Him:"Good.Nowthati
soutoft
hewaylet
'st
alk
aboutthemoneyyousayyoudi
dn'
tst
eal"

Me:
"Mbuso.
..
."

Him:"Ihavetheprooflungi
.Here"Hegi vesmethe
hisl
aptopandt hefi
rstthi
ngIseeismybank
accountstat
ement.Ilookclosel
yanditi
smybank
accountandstatementssomegoi ngbacktolast
year.Myemai l
s,mytextmessagesbetweenbuhle
andIf rom myphone. .
.Buthowno!.Ther eare
videosofmegoi ngt othebankal oneandinsome
I'
m withbuhl e.Videosandvi deos,manyemai l
s
talki
ng, aski
ngherhowf arsheiswi t
hforger
ingthe
document s,
transacti
onsf r
om mybackaccount
from R50kcasht ohundredsoft housands.
Everythingintherepointstome.Buti twasn'
tme. .
..
Howdi dshedoi t?.

Ican'
tbelieveit
.Ever
yti
mesheaskedmet o
accompanyhert othebanktowithdrawmoneyher
boyfr
iendsentsoshecoul dbuyherselfcl
othesand
food?,and..
..Howdidshegetholdofmyphonemy
bankpi nbecauseI'
venevert
oldher..
..How? .

Mbusoi swatchingmeasI 'm goingthrough

everythingandIf eelnumb.Ifeelsi
ck...Iwantto
vomi titIcan'
tmovemyl egs.I'
m shocked, ofallt
he
thi
ngshaveshehasdonet omeorIt houghtshe' s
capableofdoi ng,thi
swasn'toneofthem.Icl ose
thelaptopandsl owlygetoffthebedt henrunt othe
bathroom andvomi tonl
ywat ercozIhaven'thad
anythingtoeat.Igetup,brushmyt eet
handl eave
thebat hr
oom andf i
ndmbusosi tt
ingattheedgeof
thebed.Istandt heandlookathim andI'm so
scared.

Him:"Youstil
ldenyi
ngit
?"Iwrapmyar msar
ound
myselfandlookdown.Ishakemyheadnoandhe
standssofatsIalmostf
allonmyass.hewal
ks
sl
owl yt
owardsmeandIt akeastepbackunt
ilhe
hasbackedmeagai nstt
hewall.

Hi
m:"Ut
hini
?"(whatdi
dyousay?)He'
sangr
y

Me:
"I'
m..
..
I'
m notdenyi
ngi
t"

Hi
m:"Iwantyout
osayi
t.Saywhatyoudi
d!"He
r
oarsangr
y
Me:
"I.
..
west
oleyourmoney"Ichokeup

Him:"Damnyoul ungi!,
fucki
ngdamnyou!"He
doestheunthinkabl
eandwar pshishandar ound
mythroatchokingmeandIcr yandhol dhishand
andtrytopullhi
shandof fmythroatbutIcan't
.

Me:"You'
re...Kil
l.
..Kil
li
ngme"Isaygaspi ngforair
thenheli
ftshishandandf ormsaf istandIscream
andcovermyf acethinkinghe'
sgoingt opunchme
buthepunchest hewallnexttoyfaceandIhear
bonescrakingandIswearIpeedonmysel falit
tl
e.
Helet'
sgoandIf alldownandcr yhyst er
ical
ly.

Him:"Fuuuck"Heroar
sthenl
eavest
hebedroom
bangingthedoorandIwr
apmyar msti
ght
lyaround
mylegscr yi
ng.

Whoi st
hismanthatbuhl
estolehi
smoneyf r
om
becauseIdoubtt
heywerelover
s.Hedoesn'
tlook
l
ikeamanwho' shear
tisbr
okenbutamanwho
wantsRevenge.Bl
ood.
CHAPTER7.

Idon'tknowforhowlongi vebeensi
tt
inghereand
sti
llam whenIhearhim cominginandIgetscared
shitl
ess.Hestandsnexttomenotsayinganythi
ng
thenhebendsal mostli
kehewant st
ot ouchmebut
Igetscaredandscream buryi
ngmyheadonmy
l
egs.

Hi
m:“Luh,
LungiI
'
m ….
.”Het
ri
est
otouchmeagai
n

Me:"don'ttouchme, ”Iscr
eam thenstandupandI
knowhecanseet hatIpeedonmysel f.Igotothe
bathroom andtakeofmycl othesandgeti nthe
showersett hewat erreal
lyhot.Thefi
rsttouch
doesn'tsti
ngalotbutt hesecondonest i
ngsbuti t
's
bearable.Ij
ustsitdownandl etitfal
lonme.
Thepainonmyski nthatI
'mf eeli
ngfrom thehot
wateri
snothingcomparedtowhatIf eeli
nside.
NeverhaveIeverbeenscaredf ormyl i
feli
kethat
becauseIseri
ouslyt
houghthewasgoi ngt opunch
meonmyf ace.IsawanothersideofMbusot oday
andInevereverwanttoexperienceitinmyl i
fe.
Whatam Isayingbecauseit'
stheonlysidehehas
beenshowingmebutt odayit'
sdi f
fer
ent.Isawa
muchmor edarkersi
deofhim.

Iheart
heshowerdooropeni
ng

Him:“whatt hehellLungi!you'l
lgiveyour
selfburns
alloverbody…..,
fuckthiswat erishot!
”Hecur ses
thengetsint heshowerandwi nceswhent hewat er
toucheshim andt henheswi tchestheshowerof f.

Him:“comelet
'sgetyououtofhere”hesays
pul
li
ngmeupandoutoft heshowerandIlethi
m.
Hetakestheatowelwrapsitar
oundmeand
anot
heronehedr i
esmyhai r
.I'
m scar
edofhis
t
ouchbutIdon'twantt
oshowhim,Ij
ustwanthi
m
t
ostoptouchingme.I'
m onl
yhi
ccupi
ngnowwith
myeyesclosed.

Heli
ft
smeupandImoani npainthenhecar
riesme
t
othebedr
oom andgent
lyl
aysmedown.Iwi nce
whenmybacktouchest
heduvet.

Him:"sleeponyourstomachsoyoudon' thur
tyour
back."IturnaroundandIfeelthatmybody
especiall
ymybacki sinpai
nbutIdon'tsay
anythi
ngandj ustlayonmyst omach.

Ifeelsomet
hingreal
lycol
dandi
tmakesmewi
nce
andgr oani
npain

Hi
m:“I
t'
stheAloeVeragel
.Itwi
llhealyourski
nand
makei
tbett
er”hesays
Me:“willi
tmakemyhear tf
eelbet
terandnothurt
too?”Isniff
.Hestopsandtakesadeepbreaththen
conti
nuesapplyi
ngital
lovermybackandi tst
arts
tofeelali
tt
lebet
ter.

Him:
“whydidyoumakethewaterthathot
.You
coul
dhaveseri
ousl
yhur
tyour
selfyouknow..
..
.
Whatwereyouthi
nki
ngl
uh?”

Me:“Ij
ustwantedthepaintostop.Nothi
ngcanhurt
memor ethanyoudo”Ibur ymyf aceonthepi
ll
ow
andsni
ffsomemor e.Ifeelhim moveupthebed
l
ikehewantstolaynexttomeandhol dmebuthe
deci
desagainsti
t.

Him:
“Luh,I
'm sor
ry…..
iwasn'
tgoingtohityou.I
coul
dneverdothattoyou”hesaysitl
ikeithurt
s
himtoknowwhatheal mostdi
d.

Me:
“canyoul
eave.Iwantt
obeal
one.”
Hi
m:“No.Iwon'
tleaveyoual
onel
iket
his.”

Me:“don'
tpr
etendasi fyoucareaboutwhatyou'r
e
doingtomecozyoudon' t.Socanyoupleasejust
gi
vemesomet imetobeal oneorI'
lll
eavethi
s
bedroom!
.”Iscream athim

Hestops,getsupandIt hi
nkhe'slooki
ngatme
becausehei squietthenIhearthebedr oom door
cl
osesof t
ly.Igetoffthebedandgowearmy
pyj
amasandt hengeti nbedagain.I'
m sohungr y
butI'
m scaredofhowmadl aminiisgoingtolookat
mebecauseI '
m prett
ysureshehear dusar gui
ng..
..
Ohwhatt hehellthisismyhouset oo.

Igotothekitchenandlookf
ormyf oodi nthe
microwavethensitdownandeat.Madl aminii
s
probabl
ysomewher einthehousecleaningand
Mbusowel lIdon'
tcarewhereheis.
IhearMbusoshout ingformadl aminiandshe
respondssomewher einthehouset henIdon'thear
whathe' saskingherandi tgetsquietforawhil
e
thenIf eelhi
m behindhim. .
..
hissmellandIalmost
freeze.Hest andsnexttomer ealcl
oseandhe
smel l
sr eal
lynice.

Him:"Iwaslookingf
oryou.Whyaren'
tyoui
nbed?’
madlaminienter
stheki
tchengoestot
hepantr
yto
cookforl
unch.

Me:“Iwashungr y.”hesi
tsdownnextt
ome,
madl aminicomesbackandst ar
tst
ocook
pret
endingt hatwe'renother
eandli
keshe'
snot
feel
ingthet ensionbetweenus.

Her
:“canImakeyousomet
hingmnumzane?”

Hi
m:“nomaI
'
mfi
ne.”hi
svoi
cei
sdeepandwhen
he'sangr
yorshouti
ngi
t'
sveryscar
yandsexyat
thesametime.
..
.Godwhati
sgoingonwit
hme? .

Him:“doyouneedanythingel
seshecanmake?”I
shakemyheadnostil
llooki
ngatmyfoodandnot
athim.

Him:“whenyou'
redoneherecometomystudy,we
st
il
lneedtotal
k.”soyoucanhitmethi
sti
me?..
..no
dude.

Me:
“wecant
alkher
e,now.”Ieat
.

Hi
m: “
LungiwhatdidIsayaboutyouf
oll
owi
ngmy
r
ulesandinst
ruct
ions?”

Me:
“I'
m comi
ng!
”Ir
ollmyeyes
Hi
m:“now.”hesaysf
ir
mly

Me:“t
hanksma”Istandupandfol
lowhi
mtohi
s
st
udyandIsitdownopposi
tehi
m.

Me:
"whatdi
dyouwantt
otal
kabout
?"

Hi
m:“Idon'tl
ikeyourt
oneandl
oset
hatat
ti
tude.
”I
wantt
orollmyeyesbutIdon'
t.

Me:
“I'
mli
steni
ng”

Hi
m: “
Ithi
nkyoureali
sedt
heti
meswe' vebeen
i
nti
mat ewedidn'
tuseanypr
otect
ionandsoI'm
j
ust….”

Me:"I
'
m onbir
thcont
rolandyou'
ret
heonlyman
I
'vesl
eptwi
thwit
houtacondom sodon'
tworr
yI'
m
cl
ean..
..
.butareyou?’
Ithi
nkhe'
sshockedt
hatI
askedhimt hat
.

Him:
"ofcosI
'
m cl
ean.I
'
llbr
ingmyr
esul
tsf
rom my
doct
or"

Me:"Goodbecausemysist
erwasandi
sahoesoI
hopeuusedacondom everyt
imeyouf
uckedher
.
Ist
hatall
..
.canIgonow?
”

Hi
m:"whyareyouonbir
t hcont
roli
fyouwer
en'
t
f
ucki
nganyone,oryoul
iedtome? "

Me:
"Idi
dn'
tli
e.Iam becauseyouneverknowwhoI
mi
ghtdeci
detofuck"Isayglar
ingathi
m.

Hi
m:"Yout
aket
hatbacknow!
"
Me:"why?
,you'
ref
ucki
ngot
herpeopl
eandGod
knowshowmany,sowhycan'
tIdothesame?
"

Him:
"Iswearluhifyoudareletanothermantouch
youI'
l
lkil
lhi
mf i
rsti
nfrontofyout henyou'
l
lsee
whatI'
l
ldotoyou!"whydoIbel ieve?.

Me:"soyougett of uckot
herwomenandI 'm
supposetotakei tandkeepqui
et?..
..
no!.wehavean
openmar ri
ageright?,soi
t'
sfai
rifIalsogeta
boyfr
iend"hestandsupandcomest owar dsmeand
Igetuptoo.I'
mt iredofget
ti
nginti
midatedbythi
s
man.

Him:"Your eal
lyl
ikeget ti
ngundermyski nhuh
sweet? ,Idareyoutot r
yt hatandyou'l
lseewhatI'
ll
dotot hisbeautif
ulflawlessskinyouhave.Myhand
i
sevent witchi
ngf r
om want i
ngtospankyouri
ght
hereonmydeskt henf uckyousenselessunti
lthe
onl
yt hingyoucanf eel
, breathandthi
nkabouti
s
me.Yourpussywi l
lonlygetwetf ormeandnoone
else"
.ohfuckI
'
m getti
ngwet.whydoeshear
ing
thatt
urnmethefuckon?.Godhavemercyonme.
heseesmychestrisi
ngandfal
li
ng

Him:"youlooksofl
ushedri
ghton.IbetifIputmy
f
ingersinyourcuntI
'l
lfi
nditwet.i
twil
lclenchon
myfingersaski
ngmef uckit,
youwantmet ofi
nger
f
uckyousweetandmaket hatachegoaway. .
.you
wannacomeandscr eam myname? "

Me:"j
ustst
opitokay!
"hesmirkst
henst
epsback
r
aisi
nghishandsinsurr
ender

Him:
"Wheni syournextappoi
ntmentf
orbi
rt
h
cont
rol"huh?

Me:“why?”Iaskhi
m

Hi
m:“becauseIwantt
oknowf
orsur
ethatyou'
re
t
aki
ngyourpi
ll
sorwhat
evert
hatyouuse.”

Me:
"oh.
..
yout
hinkI
'
llt
rapyouwi
thababy?
"ishe
f
orr
eal

Him:"Yes.”hesayslooki
ngstrai
ghtatmeandI
gaspinshock.Icannotbel
ievehehasjustsai
dthat
.

Me:"don'
tworr
yIwon'tt
rapyouwithakidorkids.
I'
l
lbemadcrazytowantyoutobethef at
herofmy
ki
ds.Thefat
herofmykidswil
lbenothingli
keyou".
wowLuhyoust andi
ngupforyour
selfgoodgir
l.

Hi
m:"andwhosaidIwant
edtohaveki
dswithYou?
’heaskswant
ingtol
aughandi
nsideIr
eal
lywant
t
ocry.

Me:“t
hever
ysamemanwhofuckedmewithout
weari
ngacondom,
sodon'
twor
ryI'
l
lbekeepi
ngmy
eggslockedti
ghtwher
eyoursper
m can'
tfi
ndt
hem.
Isthatal
lyouwantedt
otal
kabout?”

Hi
m:“Yesi
tis.Fornow”

Me:
"canIgonowsi
r?'
her
aiseshi
seyebr
owand
smi
rks

Hi
m:“youcango”

j
erkimumbl etomyselfasIleavehisoffi
ceandgo
tothecinemaandwat chsomecartoons.Ilove
them andtheyalwaysmakemef eelbett
er.Ican'
t
beli
eveIwasr eadytol
ethimfuckmeagai n.

Aft
erthatinci
dentofhim almosthi
tt
ingme,hesl ept
i
ntheot herbedr
oom andl eftmeal
onenever
wantedsex.Mbusodemandssex, healwaystakes
i
tandf ucksmer eal
lyhar
dandhemakessur eI
al
wayscome.Atl
easthe'
snotbei
ngsel
fi
shi
nthat
depar
tment
.

I'
m boredoutofmymi ndduri
ngthedayandat
nightIal
waysgot obedbef oreMbusocomeshome
andwakeupwhenhe' sgonet owork.Sometimes
hecomesr eal
lyl
ateandI'l
lfi
ndmyselfwait
ingby
mybedr oom windowforhiscartopullupandwhen
hedoesI '
llqui
ckl
ygeti nbed.

Madl aminii
ssuspici
ousofourr el
ati
onship
alt
houghshewon' tsayanythingbutyoucant el
l
shewant stoobutdoesn'
twantt ooverst
epandI
respectthat
.IwishIcoul
dwor kbutMbusowoul dn'
t
hearnonoft hatwhenItr
iedtot alktohim aboutita
whileagosoIcouldpayhi m backf orthemoneyI
haveallegedl
ystol
enbuthepoi ntblankref
used.

Ital
ktoSimsandherki dsandtheyal
waysmake
mel aughandhappy.Ialwaysl
ookforwar
dtot
heir
call
s.Ihaven'
ttol
dheraboutwhatMbusois
accusi ngmeofbecauseIknowshe' llbeher eand
probabl ytellmyuncl eandt heywi l
lbeal lhereand
franklyI'm notr eadyf orthem t ocomeher ewhi le
thingsar est i
lltense.I 'm apat i
entper sonandI
knowsoonerorl aterMbusowi l
lknowt hetruthon
hisownandIhopef ormysakeI 'llbeabl etof orgive
him.Thamiwel lishavi ngthet imeofhi sli
feincape
townandwhathet oldmeshocked.Hesai dMbuso
rentedhi m anapar tmentofhi sownsohewi l
lfocus
onhi sst udiesandsohe' snotst ayi ngi nr es
anymor eandMbusoi salsogi vinghi m mont hly
allowanceandt heyt alkalmostever yday. .
.wowI
neversawt hatcomi ng.Idon' ttalkt omypar ent s
afterItriedmanyt imest ocal lthem butt hey
woul dn'tanswermycal l
s.somet hingi sgoingon
wi t
ht hem. .
.somet hingdoesn' tmakesenseandt his
thingofbuhl est ealingf r
om Mbusomakesmet hink
mypar entsmi ghtknowort heyknowsomet hing
abouti t.wasi tal lforshowwhenmymom
pretendedt obeupsetwhenbuhl er anaway, didshe
evenr unawayorar etheyhi dingher ?.
Thomast akesmet ot
hemal lwheneverIwantt
ogo
andsomet i
mest ocompanymadl aminiandit
odo
someshoppi ng.iti
stheonlytimeigettogetoutof
thi
shouse.Italktomybr ot
herandcousi nandI
missthem dearlyandIwonderi fmbusowould
agreeift
heycoul dcomevisitfort
heweekend.….I
j
usthavet oaskhi m.Someti
mesIwi shIhad
fri
endshere.

I'
vebeent hi
nkingaboutifmaybemadl aminicoul
d
knockoffearli
erthansheusuall
ydoessoshecan
behomemor eandspendt imewi t
hhergrandkids
butI'
l
lhavet otalkt
oMbusowhenheget shome
toni
ght.It
'smiddayandsoIdeci detobakesome
muffi
nsandmakeacar r
otcake,chocolat
eand
vani
ll
abef or
emadl aminiknocksoffsoshecant ake
somef orthekids.

Ilosemysel
fanddowhatIl
ovemostandbakeand
thewholehousesmel
lsr
eal
lydel
ici
ous.By3pm I
'
m
donesoipacksomeformadlami
niandtheki
ds,
l
eavesomeformbusothenputsomeinabeaut
if
ul
tr
ayandputi
tonadini
ngroom tabl
ewit
hthe
vani
ll
acaket
hentakemyphoneanddial
.

Hi
m:"Madam"

Me:“hiThomascanyoucomet
otheki
tchen
pl
ease?”

Hi
m:“comi
ngmadam ”hehangsupthenf
ew
mi
nutesaf
tert
hatheget
sint
hehouse"

Me:
"I'
mint
heki
tchen"Ishout

Him:"madam i
ssomethingwrong?"Thomasi
stal
l
butnottoMbuso'shei
ght,
he'sbuf
fli
kehewor
ks
outalot,
he'
scleananddresseswell
.
Me:"nothi
ngi
swrong,Ijustwant
edtoaskifyou
andtheguysatt
hesecurit
yroom woul
dlovesome
muffi
nsandcaketohavebeforel
unch?Withcof
fee
ort
eabecauseIdon'
treall
yknowwhodr i
nks
what?"

Thomasi ssur
prisedIguessf
orwhatI'
m doi
ngor
sayingIdon'
tknowbuthedoesn'tmaskthe
surpri
seonhisface.

Hi
m:“thankyoumadam t
heguyswi
llr
eal
lyl
ove
t
hem .
”Iwishhewoul
dn'
tcal
lmemadam

Me:"canyoucallt
hem tocomet othehouseand
eat
.Therearef
iveofthem excl
udingyouright
?"

Him:“Yesmadam butIcanmaket heteaandcoffee

andwe'lleatout
sideinthesecur
it
yroom ”ohwhy
doesn'
thewantt oeatinhereandImeant here'
sno
spacethere,howwillt
heyputeveryt
hingther
e.
Me:“Youwon'tmakeanyt eaorcof
feeandyou'
lleat
her
eont hatdi
ningtabl
e.Callt
hem ”It
urnar
ound
andleavehimthere.

Me:
“madl
ami
ni?”Ical
lher

Her
:"yesmadam "ei
shIhat
ethatwor
d

Me:“Youknowwhatt hesecur
ityguysdri
nk.Can
youhel
pmemaket hem someteaandcoffee”Iam
embarr
assedthatIdon'
tknowtheirnamesjust
Thomasonly.

Her:
"okmadam "apparentlyt
heyareallcoff
ee
j
unkiesandtheydri
nkitli
kecrazy.Weget
ever
ythi
ngreadyandassoonasweputever ythi
ng
downont hetabl
etheygetinl
iketheydon'tr
eall
y
wantto.Myheartdrops
Me:"Sani
bonani"Igr
eetf
ir
stIal
waysdoandI
'
m
usedt
oit.

Them: "yebomadam"t heyallsayli

ketheyar e
singi
ngt henInoticethattheyarewear ingallbl
ack
outfi
ts.Theirsui
tsandevenshi r
tsareal li
nblack
andt heyalll
ookcl eanandyoucant ellthosesuits
areexpensive.IwonderhowmuchMbusopays
them.IknowMbusoi srichlooki
ngatt hishouse
butIdon'tknowwhatki ndofwor khedoesasa
businessman.

Me:“pleasesi
tandenjoyyourselves.There'sa
bowltheret
owashyourhandsandl etmeknowi f
youneedanythi
ngelse”theysti
llstandingther
e
l
ookingawkwardandt hen?.

Them:“t
hankyoumadam ”theyal
lsayandIl
eave
sotheycanbefr
eebecausetheyl
ook
uncomf
ort
abl
ear
oundme.

Madl
amini:
"madam i
t'
smyknockoffti
mebutI
'
ll
wai
tfort
heseboyst
of i
nisht
henI
'
llgo"

Me:“nomai t'
sokayyoucangoandI'l
lwashthe
di
shes.Butbefor
eyouleavel
et'
shaveacupoftea
wit
hmuf f
ins”shesmil
esandgoestomaket het
ea
butIst
opher.

Me:"todayI'
m maki ngteaforyouma, youj ustsi
t
andenjoy"shedoes.Iheart heguysar et al
king
soft
yandIcan' thearwhattheyar esaying.Ihope
theyli
kethem.Iser vemadlami nihert
eaand
muf f
inswithasliceofcarr
otcakeandsi tdown
oppositeherandweeati nsilenceandit'snot
uncomf or
tabl
e.

Her:
“myki
dshavenevermademet ea.Onl
ymy
gr
andki
ds”shesayssmil
ingsadl
y
Me:
"wellI
'
llbegladt
omakei
tforyounowand
t
hen"Isaysmil
ing

Her:
"nomadam Iwasmakingaconversat
ion.
Thesemuffi
nsar
ereal
lygoodandthi
scakewow"
shegiggl
es

Me:
"thankyoumaandidon'
tmi
ndbuti
tsokay"

Thomascomest othekit
chenwi thanotherguyand
theypl
acetheempt ytrayandmugsont hesinkand
star
ttowasht hemugs.madl aminiandijustlookat
eachotherandIwantt ostopthem butsheshakes
herheadformet oleavethem.Theywashandwi pe
them t
henplacethem perfect
lythenlookatus.

Him:"wewantedt
osaythankyouforthemuf f
ins
andcakemadam theywer
ereal
lygreat"saysthe
otherguywho'
sli
ke21orsomethi
ng
Me:“I'
m gl
adyoul
ovedt
hem"t
hatmakesme
happy

Thomas:
"al
lofusr
eal
lyappr
eci
atewhatyou
shar
edwit
husmadam.Thankyou"

Me:"i
fyoukeeppr ai
singthem l
ikeyoudid,Imight
j
ustbakethem foryouguysever yweekandoh
bef
oreIforgetcanyoutakemadl aminihome"Isee
smil
esontheirfaceswhenIsayt hat.

Thomas:"
Per
cyher
ewi
llt
akeherhome"

Me:
“thankyou.”t
hent
heyl
eave.

madlamini
:“t
hankyoumadam butyoushoul
dn'
t
have.”
Me:"Ishouldmabecauseyoul
ivef
ar.Isavedsome
foryouandbakedyoutooachocol
atecaketotake
homet otheki
ds"

Her:“ohmadam t
hankyou, thankyouverymuch
theyaregoi
ngtolovethem andt hecakewow.”she
comesandhugsmet eari
ngup. madI'mtouched
becausetomethi
si sasmal lthi
ngIhavedone.

Me:"enjoyitwi
ththeki
dsandtellmetomorr
ow
whattheythoughtofi
t.’shesmil
esthenwashes
herteacupandgoes.I'
ml ef
tal
lalonei
nthi
sbig
house….Sigh.

Idecidetocookfordi
nnerbeforeIgoshower,soI
makedumpl ingsandmuttonstewandletitsi
mmer
whil
eIgoshower .ThegreensaladI'
l
ldoitbefor
e
pl
ating.
Ishowerqui cklyandInoti
ceint
hemi rr
orthatIlook
badlikeIhadl etmyselfgosi
nceI'
vebeenher eand
that
'sbecauseIhavenoonet oi
mpr essbutI
shouldn'
tletmysel fbethi
sdr
abperson.I'
m going
togot ot
hesal onanddomyhai r.

Mydumpl ingslookreal
lygoodandt hestewt astes
amazi ngitjustneeds30mi nutesthenitwil
lbe
perfect.It
akeoutmyphoneanddeci detoputsome
Sjavamusi candsi ngalongmaki ngthesalad.Ilook
atthet i
meandi t
's9pm andI '
m hungry.Mbusoi s
nothomeandIguessI '
m goi ngtobeeat i
ngal one
again.Idishupf orbothofus, puthisinthe
microwaveandeatmi ne.Ir eall
ywant edtotal
kt o
hi
m andi t
'snotli
keIcanj ustcallhim andsay" hey,
areyougoi ngt obehomet onightornot?".

WheneverIgotobedIdon' tswi
tchofftheli
ghtsi
n
thehouse,hedoesthat.Ionl
yswitchthem of
finmy
bedroom.Mbusohasn'ttouchedmef oralmosta
mont hnowandI'veseenlessofhi
m.Maybe10
ti
mesi namont hcozhecomeswhenI '
m asleep
andleavesbeforeIwake.Iswi
tchthel
ight
sof ft
hen
wearmypj sandgetinbedandf al
lasl
eep.

If
eelr
eal
lycol
dhandsandacol
dbodyandIgasp
i
nshockt
erri
fi
ed.

Him:“don'tbescaredi
t'
sme”hesaysli
kehe'
s
exhaustedandtir
ed.Ir
elaxandbr
eat
heout.

Him:“t
akeoffyourpjs.Itoldyounoclot
hesinthis
bed”Itakethem of
fandt hrowthem somewherein
thebedroom.Hegetsof fthebedandstandsatthe
edge.

Him:“comehereandgetonyourknees”ohGod
he'
sgonnaber ough.Idoashesaysgetonmy
handsandkneesandspreadmyl egsreadyforhi
m
toentermeeventhoughI'
m al
it
tl
ewet .Hedoesn't
entermebutwhathedoesinst
eadi sheslapsbot
h
mybut tcheekshardandf
ast6ti
mesandItearup
grabthesheetsti
ght.Her
ubsandrubsmycli
tthen
thrust
sintomehardandIcryout
.

Hei sn'
tgentl
eatal l,hefucksandf ucksandf ucks
met akingmybr eat hawayandI '
m hol dingtightt o
thosesheetsbur yingmyf aceont hemat t
ress.Hei s
angr yaboutsomet hingIcanf eelitonhi sthrust s,
thewayhe' sbreat hingandgr ippingmeandIr eali
se
he'stakingi
toutwhat everfr
ust r
at i
onhe' sfeeling
onmeandi nmybody.Mbusoi sver yvocalwhen
hef ucksmebutt odayi t
'sdif
f er
ent .Ireali
set hat
thi
si sabouthim want i
ngt oletgoofsomet hingand
getsomet hi
nginr eturnalso.

SoImakeitpossibleforhim alt
houghhe'sfucki
ng
meli
keI'm awhore….whost olehismoney.Irel
ax
mybodyandl ethim dowhat everhewantstodo
andhedoes.Het urnsmear ound, Il
ayonmyback
andhecontinueswherehest oppedandf ucksme.
I'
l
lbel
yingifIsaidI'
m enjoyi
ngbecauseI '
m not,
eventhoughI'
m wet.Icanfeelhei
snearbecause
hedigshisfi
ngersinmeandsl amsint
omeandI
wanttoscream butIdon'
t.

Helayshisbodyontopofminekissi
ngmehungr i
ly
thengroansbuti
t'
sli
kesomethi
ngisprevent
ing
himfrom fal
li
ngsoI'
l
lrel
easehi
m.

Me: “dowhat everyouwantt odot omei t'

sokay.I '
l
l
bef i
ne”hest opsandl ooksatmedeepi nmyeyes
andi swearisawr egretinhiseyes.heki ssesme
thenst art
st omoveagai ngent lythenhepi cksup
hispaceandf ucksme.Hei ssweat inglikecr azy
thenhewr apshi shandar oundmyt hroatand
squeezesl ightlywithever ythrustgroaning.He
squeezesagai nt i
ghtandIst ar
ttopani candsl ap
hishands.Thatseemst ot hrowhi m overt heedge
becauseIf eelhi m growmor einsideme.It hinkhe
l
ikesi tbecausehesqueezessomemor est il
l
fuckingmet henmyf ighti
ngi nsti
nctstakeoverand
Ihithishandst ryi
ngt ogett hem offmyt hr oatthen
hegroansver
yloudandcomesfi
ll
ingmewi
thhi
s
seedandit
'st
helastt
hingIr
emember.

Hecont i
nuest odot hesamet hinghe' sbeendoi ng.
Goi ngwhenI '
m stillsl
eepi ngandcomi ngback
whenI '
m sl eepingandhi mf uckingmedoggyst yle
ever ydayf orthewhol emont h.Ithi
nkhel i
kesitthat
wayormaybehej ustdoesn' twantt olookatme.I
havel ostwei ghtdr asti
cal l
yandIt hinkitsbecause
ofthest ressI '
vebeenf eelingandnotbei ngabl eto
talkt oMbusobecausehej ustfucksandt hen
l
eavesmei saddi ngt ot hatandhi m notsaying
anyt hingaboutt hef oodIal wayspr eparef orhi
m,
thecakesandmuf finsbecauseheal wayseat s
them butasi mpl eappr eciationfrom hi m wouldbe
niceandl etmet hinkt hathedoesn' tcare.

It'
sFri
daymor ni
ngjustaf t
er10andyeshecameat
nightt
urnedmeover ,fuckedmet henwenttosleep
i
nt heotherbedr
oom.Ihaven' tsl
eptwit
hMbusoi n
thesamebedf orthelastfourmonths.Heisli
ving
hi
sli
feasfunashewantst
obutI'm notal
lowed
andf
rankl
yIdon'
tcar
eanymore.Igetup,makemy
bedt
henshowerandheadt
othekitchen.

Ifi
ndmybr eakfastmadeandIsitdownandeat
thi
nki
ngaboutcal l
ingMbusosoIcanaskhi mifi
t'
s
okayforSimsandt hamitocomevisitbecauseI'
m
somiserableandphonecallsar
enotenough
anymoreandIf eelli
keI
'
m goingtolosemymi nd
anyminute.

Ifi
nisheati
ngmybr eakfastthenIdecidetogoto
themalltofi
ndgoodbookst oreadread.Isms
Thomast el
li
nghimt ober eadybefor
eget t
ingmy
bagupstair
s.Iseehimi nthediningroom l
ooki
ngat
mbuso'sfamilyphot
osandIt hi
nkhe'swonderi
ng
whyI '
m noti
nanyoft hem.

Me:
"hiThomascanwego?
"
Him:“yesmadam ”hesaysopeni ngt hedoor
,I
foll
owhi m outsi
dethenIsuddenlyfeelt
ir
edandhot
andIj ustwanttolaydownandcl osemyeyes.I
don'tknowwhathappensbutmybodygi vesout
andIf allbutThomasquickl
ycatchesmebef orei
closemyeyesandi tsl
ight
soutforme.

Thankyouf
oryourpat
ience
Cont
inuat
ionofChapt
er7.

Ihearasoundt hatkeepsonbeepi ngt henIbreat

he
i
nandt hatsmel lhi
tsmeandIr ealisethatI'
mi na
hospital
.Whatam Idoi nghereandhowdi dIget
here?.
...
.t
henIr emember .Iwasf eeli
nghotandI
musthavepassedout .Thomasi stheonewho
broughtmeher esoIlookaroundexpect i
ngtosee
Mbusobutt hereisnooneI '
m alone…asal ways.I
l
ookatmysel fandseet hatI
'm stil
lwear i
ngmy
cl
othessoIgetupandt akeoutthedr iptheyhave
i
nsertedinmet henthedooropens, adoctorcomes
i
nwi thanur se.
Him:"Mr sGumedeyou'reawake,
I'
m DoctorTambo.
Yout ookoutt
hedrip.
..
.naught
yarewe,howar eyou
feel
ing?"hesayslooki
ngatachartandsmi l
ing.

Me:
“If
eelgood.
..
.I
'mj
ustt
ir
eddoct
or”

Doctor
:“f
orhowl onghaveyou'
vebeenfeel
ingl
ike
thi
s?”hetakesthatl
ightt
hingandshi
nesitonmy
eyesoneatatime.

Me: “Idon'
tknow.Amont hmaybe.Isthere
somet hi
ngwr ongwithmedoc?”Idon' tli
kewhat
I'
mf eeli
ngnow, I
'mfreakingout.Hetakeshisfi
nger
placesitonmywr istthenfeel
smyhear tbeat
.

Doctor:
“wellhowdoIputt his.Youlookexhaust
ed
l
ikeyou'r
est r
essed,noteat
inganddef ini
tel
ynot
sleepi
ngatall.It
hinkyourhusbandshoul dbeher
e
beforeIt
ellyouthis”hesaysser i
ously..
.huh
what
'sgoi
ngonher
e?

Me:“doct
orI '
l
lbefine.I
'
vebeendeali
ngwi t
h
somethi
ngt hathasbeenst
ressi
ngmeoutbutI'
ll
takei
teasy.Youcant el
lmewhateveriti
sandI
'
lll
et
myhusbandknowwhenIgethome”

Doct
or:
“buti
tisi
mpor
tantt
hathei
sal
soher
ehe….
”

Me:“Doct
orplease!
.Wedon' thavethatki
ndof
marri
agewithmyhusbandandIser i
ouslydoubt
he'
sgoingtoshowupher e,sopleasejusttel
lmeso
Icangohomeandr est”Ishoutandbeghi m atthe
sametimelosingmycool,he'sshockedthengives
measadsmi le.

Me:“I
'm sorr
ydocIdidn'
tmeant osnapatyou”I
saycoveri
ngmyf acebecauseIf
eell
ikeeveryt
hing
i
sgetti
ngt oomuchforme.
Doct
or:“I
t'
spur el
yunder standabl
eMr sGumedefor
awomanwhoI spregnant.Congrat
ulati
onsyouare
6weekspr egnant”what?No!no!no!no!no! …….
I
can'
tbe!.

Me:“NodoctorIcan'tbepr
egnant
…..
I'
m onbi
rt
h
contr
ol!”t
ear
sfalldown.

Doct or“Theset hingshappenespeci allywhenyou

arest r
essedbecauset hestr
essaf f
ect syour
chemi calbalanceandsoanydr ugst hatyout ake
maybeaf f
ectedbecauseoft hest ress.I fGodhas
decidedt hatit
'st i
met henitis.Evensci encecan't
denyt hatbutyouknowyouhaveopt i
ons.I '
ll
prescribesomeant i
bioti
csandvi t
ami nsf oryouand
referyout oagyneawhowi l
lbeabl et ohel pyou
shoul dyoudeci det okeepthepr egnancyor
terminate.”Ican'tbelieveI'
m act uall
ypr egnat.Heis
goingt okillme, he'
sgoi ngtolosei t!
.

Doct
or:
“Mr
sgumedear
eyouokay”heasks
concer
ned

Me:“I
'
m….imfi
ne.It
'sjustthatIcan'tbel
ieve
someonei
sgrowinginsideofme”Iputmyhandon
mystomachandIhavemi xedf eel
ingsaboutthi
s.

Doctor :
“I'
m sur eyou'llmakeagr eatmot her.You'r
e
goingt oneedal lthesuppor tyoucangetwi th
what everdeci sionyoudeci det omake.Remember
Mr sgumedenost resspl easeandyoul ostahuge
amountofwei ghtandyouneedt ogetitbackso
youcanbeabl etocar rythatchi l
d.Nost ress,no
l
ifti
ngofanyt hingheavy.Eatandr est.Her eareyour
dischargedf or msandt hedet ailsofthe
Gynecol ogistandt hemedi ci
neyouhavet ogetfr
om
thechemi st,Goodl uck.”het henl eaveswi ththe
nursef oll
owingbehi ndhi m andI '
m allalone.

Ilookatmyhandbaganditsjustnexttomybed,I
getupandleavet
heroom andseet hatThomasi
s
talki
ngont
hephoneandhedoesn' tseemesoI
sneakout,goingtotheotherdi
rect i
onasquickl
yas
possi
ble.Il
ookf ormyphone, f
indi tthenr
equestan
uberandwi t
hin3mi nut
esitisher e.Igeti
nand
deci
det obookmysel fi
ntoahot elbecauseIneed
ti
met othi
nkaboutwhatI '
m goingt odo.

Ipayfort heni ghtthenImakemywayt omyr oom.I

getinlockingt hedoort henshower .Idon'teven
orderroom ser vice.Iswi tchmyphoneof fandgeti n
bedbutst ruggl etosleepbecausewhatI '
mt hi
nking
i
s, whatifMbusowast her eandhear dt hatI'm
pregnant,whatwashegoi ngt osayordo? .DoI
wanttokeept hispr egnancy, wi l
litchanget hings
betweenmeandMbuso? ,willImakeagoodmot her
l
ikeSims? ,
wi l
lIlovemychi l
duncondi tionallyand
doIknowwhatuncondi tionall ovef eelslike
becauseIhaveneverf eltitfrom myownpar ents
andthemanI '
m pr egnantf or.wi l
lheaccepthi m or
her,wil
lhebehappyt hatI '
mt hewomanwhom he
gotpregnant ?.Maybei fIsl eepiwi llwakeup
tomorrowandr eali
set hati twasal ljustani ghtmar e
andI'm notr eallypregnant .
Iwakeupt henextmorni
ngandIdon'
twanttol
eave
thehotelbutImust
.Ishowert
hencal
lanuberand
thencheckoutandmakemywayt oRivoni
a.

Itdropsmeof fout sidethegat eandthesecur i

ty
guysl etmei nthengetmei nacaragai nt hatdrops
meof fatt hefrontoft hedoor .Forsomer easonI'm
nervousandIknowi t'
sbecauseIdon' tknowhow
Mbusoi sgoingr eactbutIopent hedoorandf i
nd
him ont hephoneshout i
ngatsomeonet ol ook
harder.Iseet hatguywhowashedt hedisheswi t
h
Thomaswho' snamei sPer cywithtwoot her
securityguysandi nt hediningroom therear e3oh
sover ygoodl ookingmenandonei sont hephone,
theothert ypi
ngf uriouslyonhi slapt
opandt he
otherdr i
nkingwhi skeysoear l
ythismor ning.

Theystoptal
kingwhent heyseemeandMbuso
tur
nsalsoandl ooksatmef umi
ng,heisfucki
ng
madlikehehasn' tsl
eptt
hewholenight
.helooks
raged,angr
yandIalmostr
egr
etwhyIcameback.I
shouldhaveranawaythemomentIgotachance.

Mbuso:“Wher ehaveyoubeenLungi?”Hesounds
calmtoocalm buthispost
uresaysot
herwisewhen
he'saskingmethatanditscar
esme.Idon'tanswer
him.Iclosethedoorbehi
ndmeandf acethesemen.

Me:“Sanibonani"Mbusof
oldshi
shandsacr
osshi
s
chestandlooksatme.

Them:
“Sawubonankosazana”t
heyal
lsayatt
he
samet
ime….uhokay.

Me:
“CanImakeyousomet
hingt
oeat
?”Ihave
manner
syouknow.

Oneguy:“Madl
ami
niismaki
ngussomet
hingbut
wewouldlovet
ohaveyourf
amousmuff
ins”Inod
thenmakewaytothekitchenandIknowihaveto
passmbusoandI'm scared.Il
ookathi
m andhe
hasn'
tmovedeversi
nceIgoti n.

Mbuso:“youwantmet orepeatmysel
f…okayIwi
ll
.
Wherethefuckhaveyoubeen!?”he'
snowshouti
ng
andhisfri
endsIt
hinkgetsil
ent.

Me:“Mbusopl
ease,Ij
ustwant
edtogetoutofthi
s
houseandbr
eathe”Imovepasthi
m buthegrabs
mehalti
ngmeandIalmostscr
eam.

Hi
m:“getoutoft
hishouse!Whati
sfuckenwr
ong
wi
ththi
shouse?”tear
sfil
lmyeyes

Me:"l
etmegopleaseandwe'l
ltal
kabouti
twhen
wearealoneMbusonotnow.Iwanttomakethem
somethi
ngtoeat
".
Him:
“answerme.What
'swr
ongwi
tht
hishouse!
?”
heshout
s

Me:“You.Youareeveryt
hingthat
'swrongi
nt hi
s
houseandIwantedtobeasf arawayf r
om youas
possi
ble”thehouseisdeadquietyou'
dswearthat
i
t'
sonlymeandMbuso.

Him:“whatdidyoujustsay?
.Wher
edi
dyouGo?,
areyoufuckencheati
ngonmeLungi!
?”whathow
darehesaysthatwhenheknowsmyever
ymove.

Me:“fuckoffMbusoyouhearme.Fuckyou!”It r
y
topullawayf r
om him butheslapsmesohar d
acrossmyf aceandIf al
ldownt henmynosebl eeds
andI'm shockedthatMbusohasj usthitme.Il
ook
atmybl oodyhandt henlookathim andheisas
shockedasIam.Thatwasakl ap,theki
ndthat
makesyouseest ar
syoh.t ear
sblindmeandIf eel
myf aceheatingupf r
om theklap.
Him:‘'
Sweet……I'
m sor
ryI
'
mr eal
lysor
ry….I
"het
ri
es
totouchmet ogetmeupbutIholdmyhandsout
stoppinghi
m.

Me:“Iwentt oahot elafterIgotdischar

gedfrom
thehospit
alandsleptt herethenIcamest rai
ght
here.Iwantedtobeal oneatadi ffer
ent
envir
onment .Thi
sist oomuchf orme…."Iusemy
shir
ttowipemysel fasIgetup.

Me:“…..youdon' twantmet owor k,youdon' twant

met ohavef r
iendsandIhaven' tseenmyf ami l
yfor
almost5mont hsnow.I '
m al
waysi nthishouse, you
knowmyever ymovet henyouhavesomef ucken
nervetoaskmei fI'
m cheati
ngonyou? .Idon'tgive
yout r
oubl e,
Idon' taskyouanyquest ionswher e
you'vebeenandwi thwho.HaveIgi venyouany
reasont hatImi ghtbedoingsomet hingwi t
h
someonebecausei fIwasIwoul dn'tbethis
miserable.Youcameandt urnedmyl ifeoutside
downandf ort
hewor st
.Theonl
ythi
ngIknowand
haver ecei
vedfr
om youi spainandmiseryandit'
s
allbecauseofsomet hingIdi
dn'
tdo,t
hatyoust i
ll
accusemeofdoi ng.MaybeifIwascheatingt
hen
thatpersonwouldgi vemewhatIdon'thaveand
thatisLove.”Hel ooksatmeshockedandhur tnot
believi
ngwhatI'm saying.

Me: “youdi dn'

tcomet othehospitaltocheckupon
meandt ofindoutwhati swr ong.Youdon' taskme
i
fI '
m okayorwhyIdi dn'
tletyouknowI '
m notgoi ng
tobesl eepinghere.Ithasal waysbeenaboutyou
andwhatyouwantandyouhaveneveraskedme
whatdoIwant ,am Iokay,am IhappyorhowdoI
feelandi t'
sbecauseyoudon' tcareMbuso, you
don't.Yout akemewheneverandwher everyou
want .Youf uckmel ikeI'
m api eceofshi tyetsti
llI
giveyoual lofmeevent houghyoucont i
nuetohur t
meeachandever yt i
me.Ican' tdoitanymor e.Itried
tomaket hishouseawar m homebutyou' vemadei t
veryhar d.I'
vereachedmybr eakingpoi ntandI
knewi twasgoi ngtobeyouwhowi llf
inallybreak
me.areyouhappynowMbuso? .I'
m miserableand
youhavemadegoodandkeptonyourpr omiseof
makingmyl i
fealivi
nghell.congrat
ulat
ionsyouwi n,
youhavegot t
enyourrevenge.”Iruntomybedr oom
andlockthedoorthenwearmypyj amasandt hen
getinbed.Iholdmystomachandidon' tknowwhat
I'
m goi
ngt odo.Icrymyselftosleep.
CHAPTER8.

MBUSO.

I'
vebeenstuckint hi
sboardroom si
ncecomingt o
workinthemor ninghavingmeeti
ngswi t
hallthe
departmentheadsandt heshareholder
s.Everyone
bri
ngingmeupt ospeedsincewear eabouttostar
t
thenewannualbudgetmeet ingandi mpl
ement i
ng
thenewideastogr owthecompany.

Myheadisnotinthi
smeet i
ng.Ikeepthi
nki
ngabout
LuhandhowIleftherpeacef
ull
ysleepi
nginthe
morning.Isear
chmypocketl ooki
ngf ormyphone
andIdon'thaveit.Imusthavelef
titinmyoffi
ce.I
l
ookatmyassi stantSihl
ewho'ssitt
ingnextt
ome
typi
ng.

Me:
"Goandgetmyphonei
nmyof
fi
ce.Il
efti
t
t
her
e"

Her:"It
'sher
esir.It
ookitwhenyoul ef
titandputi
t
onsi l
entbecauseyousaidyoudi dn'twantany
dist
urbanceduringthemeeting"Ilookatherandtry
torememberwhendi dItel
lthi
sgi r
ltotouchmy
phone

Me:"whothehel
lgaveyouper
missi
ont
otouchmy
phoneandseti
tonsil
ence?"i
t'
sonl
yherwhocan
hearme.

Her
:"Si
rIt
hought
..
.."
Me:"Don'
tyoueverandImeanevert
ouchmy
phoneagai
n"

Her:
"I
'm sor
rysir,
itwon'thappenagain"Itakemy
phoneandlookati t
,nocallsj
ustemai l
sthatI
meeedtogot hroughthenIplaceitdownandas
soonasIdot hat,i
tfl
ashesani ncomingcallf
rom
ThomasandIf rown

Me:
"Thomas?"

Thomas:"Boss?
,madam fai
ntedandwe'r
einthe
hospi
tal"Ist
andupsofastthewhil
eroom get
s
qui
et

Me:
"what
?,when?
,wher
ear
eyounow?"

Hi
m:"Sandt
onmedi
_cl
ini
c"
Me:"I'
m comi ngnow"If eelsocoldr
ightnowmy
mindthinkingofdiff
erentreasonswhyshe
fai
nted.
...
God!.Frankcomesi nbargi
ngthrought
he
door.

Fr
ank:
"G.wehavet
ogo"t
heguysst
andupand
l
ookatme

Themba:
"Gwhat
'swr
ong?"

Me:"I
'
llexpl
ainl
ater
,wi
llyout
akeovert
hemeet
ing"
henods

Bheka:
"Youneedust
ocomewi
thyou?"

Me:
"I'
l
lcal
lyouguysi
fIneedyou"

Mandl
a:"we'
l
ltakeover
.gof
ixwhat
evert
hatneeds
yourat
tent
ion"Itakemyphoneandcal
lherandi
t
sendsmest r
aightt
ovoi
cemail
.

Me:"thanksguys"Il eavet
hem andf ol
lowFrank
thenweheadt oSandtonmedicli
nic.whenweget
tothehospitalIseeThomaslookingf r
anti
cand
scared.Igetoutofthecarbef
oreFr ankevenparks
andgot oThomaswho' scomi
ngt owar dsus.

Me:
"Takemet
oher
"

Hi
m:"Boss.
.."

Me:
"what
'swr
ongwi
thher
?,i
ssheokay?"

Hi
m:"Bossshe'
snother
e"

Me:
"whatdoyoumeanshe'
snother
e,yout
ookher
her
eri
ght
?"

Hi
m:"IdidbossbutwhenIwentt oherr
oom af
ter
t
hedoctordi
schargedhershe.
..
shewasgone"Ifeel
aver
ycoldchil
lgodownmyback.

Me:"what?,wereyounotsupposetowatchoverher
andprotecther
?"Ipunchhim hardthengoinsi
de
andlookfortherecept
ionar
eaandseeal adyther
e.

Me:"Hi,
MywifewashereMrsLungiGumede.I
wanttoseet
hedoct
orthatwastr
eati
ngher"

Her
:"aft
ernoonsi
r..
.uhm i
twasdoctort
ambolet
mecallhi
m"shedi al
sthespeaksf
orafewminut
es
t
hensomedoct orappear
s

Hi
m:"youmustbeMrGumede?"
Me:
"yesIam.whati
swr
ongwi
thmywi
feandwhen
wasshedi
schar
ged"

Him:"asItol
dtheothergent
lehere.shesignedt
he
papersaf
terIdi
schargedherthenIleftheri
nher
room."

Me:
"doct
orwhat
'swr
ongwi
thwi
fe?"

Him:"I'
m sor
rybutIcan'
tsharethati
nfor
mati
on
withyoubutyouneedtotakegoodherofher.she'
s
exhaustedandneedstorest
"fuckwhatdoesthat
mean?

Me:"Doct
orpl
easeshe'
smywife.Ineedt
oknow
what'
swrongwit
hhersoIcanbeabletohel
pher"

Hi
m:"Iunder
standsi
rbutIcan'
tshar
et hat
i
nfor
mationwit
hyoubecauseiti
sdoctorand
pati
entconf
idi
ti
ali
tyandsoIcan'tdi
closethat
.you
needtoaskher.I
st her
eanyt
hingelse?"This
doctorwon'
tsharewhat'swr
ongnomat t
erwhatI
say.

Me:"No.t
hanksdocforhel
pingher
"Ishakehi
s
handandheleaves.

Me:
"Frank.t
alkt
othesecuri
tyguys,paythem so
t
heycanshowyout hesecur
it
yfootage"

Him:"alr
eadydone.let'
sgo"I
'm sti
llpi
ssedat
thomas.howcanhebet hi
sstupid?.wegot othe
securi
tyroom andIgetinandtheguyspl aythe
videoandIseet hatshewaspickedupbyanUber2
hoursago.

Me:"taket
henumberplatesoft
heUberandsendit
totheguysint
hehousesowecanf indt
hatUber
dri
verandwherehedroppedherof
f"
Fr
ank:
"oni
tboss"

Me:"thanksguys.Thomasher
ewil
lpayyouf
or
hel
pingus"thesecurit
yguyssayt
hankyout
hen
welive.

Itrytocallherphoneagainbutitsti
llsendsmeto
voicemail.Theonlythinggoi
ngthroughmymi ndis,
wher eissheandi ssheokay.whatifsomeonetook
her..
.thatUberdriverhebett
erhavenotdone
anythingtoherbecauseweknowt herearesomeof
them whoar esickfucks.

Fr
ank:"boss,
theguyshavefoundwher
etheUber
dr
iveri
sandhe'swait
ingforus"

Me:"l
et'
sgotohim now"Thomasisal
readyt
her
e
wit
hthedri
veratFourwaysMal
l.He'
sayoungman
24Ithi
nk.
Me:
"Shomyout
ie"

Hi
m:"Shogr
oot
man"weshakehands

Me:"I
'ml ooki
ngformywife,t
heoneyoupi
ckedup
atSandtonmedi-cl
ini
c.Ij
ustwantt
oknowwhere
di
dyoudr opher
?"Itakemyphoneandshowhim
herpi
ctures

Hi
m:"Idi
dpi
ckherupgroot
manandIdr
oppedher
of
fatsomehot
eli
nbryanst
ongr
oot
man"

Me:"youwoul
dn'
tli
etomenowwoul
dyou.
..what
's
yournameagai
n?"

Hi
m:"that
ogroot
man"
.I'
l
levent
akeyout
her
e
mysel
fgroot
man"
Me:"I'
l
lri
dewit
hyou,Fr
ankandt homaswil
lfol
low
us"igeti
ntohi
sUberwit
hhim andweleave.

Me:"howdidshel
ookwhenyoufet
chedher,
was
shealoneandwasanyonewai
ti
ngforher
?"
Him: "shedidn'ttalkgrootmanandIdi dn'tsee
anyonewai ti
ngf orher"I'
m hopi ngandpr ayingthat
wellf i
ndhert here.wegett hereandheshowsus
thehot elwedr oppedher .Frankpayshi mthenhe
l
eaves.wegeti nsi deandiaskt her ecepti
onladyto
checkhernameandshedoesbuti tsaysshe
checkedoutaf teranhour .welookatt hesecur i
ty
footageandseeherwal kingoutanddi sappeari
ng
amongt hepeopl eont hestreet.Iaskthem tosend
usthef ootageandt heydowi thal i
ttl
ebr i
beandI
wonderi fmaybesomeonebr i
bedsomeonet o
framel ungi.I'
mf reaki
ngout .

IgohomebecauseIknowIwon'tbeabl
eto
concent
rat
eatwork.Igeti
nandfi
ndmadlami
ni
wait
ingforlungiIthink.shestandsupwhenshe
seesit'
sme.It hrowmyt i
eandj acketonthetabl
e
andsitdownbecauseI 'm sostressed.Whati
fLungi
hasfinal
lydecidedthatshehashadenoughofme
andleftme.Itakethevaseont het abl
eandthrowit
onthewal landitbreakintopieces

Me:
"Fuuuuuccckkk!
!!
!"madlami
niget
sscaredand
r
unsouttothekit
chenthenThomasandFrankget
i
n.

Me:"Thomasyouhadonej ob!,j
ustonej
ob!.Keep
mywi f
esafeatallt
imesbutwhatdoyoudoyou
heh.Youfuckenl
oseher!"Isayscreami
ng,
Ifold
myshirtsl
eeves.

Me:"Whati fshe'
sdisor
ientedwhereshei s,
hurt
,
hungry.whatifshegetskidnappedandr aped.
..
Fuuucckkkk!Thomas.Youbet terpr
aythatshe'snot
hurtwhereversheisorsohel pmebr ot
heryou'r
e
dead!"
Fr
ank:
"Gcomedown.we'
l
lfi
ndher
"

Me:"Don'
ttel
lmetocomedown.Myf uckenwifei
s
missi
ngandIhavenoi deai
fshe'
sokaywhereshe
i
s.howdoIpr ot
ectherwhenshe'
snothere?
!.

Frank:
"theguysareoutt
her
elooki
ngforherand
soonthey'
llf
indsomethi
ngandwe'
llf
indher"
.

Me:"shecan'tl
eavemeFr ank,
shecan't
.whatwil
lI
dowithouther?"Isitdownandcovermyeyesand
thi
stakesmebackt owhenIusedt oseehersi
tt
ing
downlikethi
sandi thurt
smeever ywhere,
mymi nd
andmybody.

Me:"yougoandl ookforheranddon' tyoudar e

comebackwi thouther.Fuuuuccckkkk!!
!!"Iscream
l
eavingthem andgot oourbedroom lookf orher
pyj
amasandt henholdthem tomyf aceandsmel l
them.Theysmellher
,ever
ythi
nginthi
sbedroom
smell
slikeher
.herscenti
severywher
e.Iwanther
back.

Itakeherpyj amasandgot omyst udythenopen

anothersecr etdoorandcl osei t.I
t'
smysecr etroom
thatnooneknowsaboutandi thasmanyscr eens
andf ootages.Ever yroom inthishousehashi dden
camer asexcl udingourbedr oom andmyof fice.I
searchf ortoday'sfootageandl ookatmywi f eas
shegoest otheki t
chenandhasherbr eakfastand
youcanseet hathermi ndissomewher eelse.she
goesupst airsthencomesl ooksatt hepictures
thomasi slooki ngat,withlongingandIf eel
ashamedbecauset here'snotevenasi ngl
epi cture
ofheri nthishouseandi tsallmyf aul
t.

Theytalkandt hent
homasopenst hedoorforher
andwhathappend. .
..
Iwillneverf
orget.Ipl
aythat
partofherfainti
ngoverandoveragainandt he
mor eIdoitisthemoreIhat emyself
.Isiti
nthere
forhoursandwat chFrankandt homasl ooki
ngf or
meal loverthehouse.Ical
lheragainandi tsti
ll
goest ovoicemail
.Iopenmyphoneandgot hrough
allt
hephot osIhaveofherandIr eal
lylookatthis
womenandknowt hatshe'
snotcapabl eofhurting
anyoneorevenst eal
ingsomet hi
ngthatbigf r
om
someone.shedoesn' thavethatinher.MyGod. .
..
whathaveIdone.Howcoul dIbet hi
sstupid?!.

Af t
ermidnightIf inall
yleavethet oom, headtoour
bedr oom andl eaveherpyj amaswher eIfoundthem
thengot akeaqui ckshowerandheaddownst ai
rs.I
findThomas, Frankmyot hersecur i
tyguys.Igoto
themi crowavet ot akemyf oodt henr emember
she'snother e.shedi dn'tcook.Igot othefri
dgeand
takeabot tl
eofwat erandsi tdown.

Me:
"Not
hingont
hel
ocat
ionwher
eshecoul
dbe?"

Percy:
"Not
hingboss.Itst
opsatthathotelandIst
il
l
thi
nkshe'
stherebecauseshetur
nedof fher
l
ocati
onaf
tert
hatUberdr
oppedherof
fatt
he
hot
el.
"

Frank:
"wewentther
eandsear
chedal
lther
ooms.
sheisn'
tther
e".

Thomas:
"BossI
'
m sosor
ry.i
twi
llneverhappen
agai
n"

Me:"ThomasIreal
lyli
keyoubrot
herbutr
ightnow,
youreal
lyneedtoshutupbef
oreIpunchyouagain
".

Weal lsiti
nsil
encewai ti
ngandwai t
ing.Thesun
comesupt henit'
s8am andmadl ami nii
sher e.She
greetsusandshecant ellthatl
ungiisnotback.She
givesmet hatdisapprovi
ngl ookthatparent sgi
ve
theirkidswhenevertheydosomet hi
ngwr ong.She
goest othekit
chenandst art
stomakebr eakfast
thent hedooropensandIst andupfastthi nki
ngit'
s
Luhbutit
'smyt
hreebestf
ri
ends.
..
.fuckIdon'
t
needt
his!.

Themba:
"She'
sst
il
lnotback?"

Me:"Noshe'
snot.shedisappear
edi
nthest
reet
whenshelef
tthathot
el.
"

Mandl
a:"andt
hedoct
ordi
dn'
tsayanyt
hing?"

Me:
"pat
ientanddoct
orf
uckenconf
idi
ti
ali
ty"

Bheka:"Isentmyguysaswel
ltol
ookf
orher
..
.
they'
l
lfindherGdon'
tworr
y"

Themba:"Ican'
tbel
i
evet
hefir
sttimewearegoi
ng
tomeether,wegonnameetherl
ikethi
s"
Bheka:"Whatexact
lywereyoudoingtot
hispoor
gi
rlforhert
ofaintf
rom exhaust
ion?"

Mandla:
"Hewasgi
vinghert
oomuchdi
ck,
not
gi
vinghert
imet
orest"t
heyl
augh

Me:
"Fuckyou!"

Themba:"She'
ssafe,
she'
llbeher
eandifnotweare
goi
ngonashoot i
ngspreestar
ti
ngwit
hthatUber
dri
ver"

Bheka:"Nah,west
artwi
tht
hisf
oolher
eThomas"
hepointsathim

Thomas:"I
'
vesai
dI'
m sor
ryboss.madam
outsmar
tedme"
Me:"Frankt
akethomasher ebef
oreweal lshoot
hi
m andgobackt othathot
elagain.maybeyou
missedsomethi
ng"t heyl
eave.

Themba:
"youokayG?"

Me:"mywi
..
..mywomani smissi
ngandyou'
re
aski
ngmeifI'
m okay?
...f
uckyouTee"
Theylaughat
me

Themba: "I
diot
.Ineedadr ink".Frankcallsagain
tel
li
ngmet heycan'tfi
ndherandt ellhi
mi fthey
comebackwi t
houthertheyar edead.Theybet ter
l
ookhar derift
heyvaluetheirli
ves.AsI '
m shouting
atFrankont hephone,thedooropensandher e
comesinmymi ssingwife.Ihangupt henlookat
her.

Me:“Wher
ehaveyoubeenLungi?
”Iaskhercal
mly
butI'
mfur
iousi
nsi
de.Shel
ooksatmescaredand
doesn'
tanswermei
nst
eadcl
osest
hedoorand
facesus

Her:
“Sanibonani"If
oldmyhandsacr
ossmychest
andlookather.

TheGuys:
“Sawubonankosazana”theyallsayat
thesameti
meandIgivethem whatthefucklook

Her
:“CanImakeyousomet
hingt
oeat
?”soshe'
s
goi
ngtoignor
emeandnotanswerme

Themba:“Madlaminii
smakingussomet
hingbut
wewoul dl
ovetohaveyourf
amousmuffi
ns”She
nodsthenmakeswayt ot
hekit
chenandI
'm
standi
ngherel
ooki
ngathertotel
lmewherethe
fuckshehasbeen

Me:
“youwantmet
orepeatmysel
f…okayIwi
ll
.
Wher et
hefuckhaveyoubeen!
?”Iaskherfur
ious
becausesheputherl
if
eindangerbybeingal
one
outther
ewithnoonetoprot
ecther.

Her:
“Mbusopl ease,Ij
ustwantedtogetoutoft
his
houseandbr eath”shetr
iest
omovepastmebutI
grabherstoppingherandwantingtof
uckenshake
herfornotgivi
ngadamnabouthersaf et
y

Me:
“Youwant
edtogetoutoft
hishouse!What
's
wr
ongwit
hthi
shouse?”

Her:
"letmegopleaseandwe' l
ltal
kaboutitwhen
weareal oneMbusonotnow.Iwantt omaket hem
somethingtoeat
".Idon'
tcareaboutthesefucker
s
her
ebutaboutyoul ungiIdon'
tsaythat

Me:“answerme.What
'swr
ongwi
tht
hishouse!
?”I
shout.
Her:
“You.Youareeverythi
ngthat
'swronginthi
s
houseandIwantedtobeasf arawayfrom youas
possi
ble”t
heblooddrainsonmyf ace

Me:“whatdidyouj ustsay?
.Wher
edidyouGo?,ar
e
youfuckencheatingonmeLungi!?”Ahfuckno
whatdidIjustsay!.

Her:“fuckoffMbusoyouhearme.Fuckyou”she
tr
iestopullawayfrom mebutIdon' tknowwhat
happensbecauset henextt hi
ngIseeismyhand
connectingtoherfaceandIsl aphersohardacr
oss
herfaceandshef all
sdownt henhernosebl
eeds
andI '
m soshockedt hatIhavelayedmyhandon
her.OhI '
m deepshit
!.

Me:‘
'Sweet……I
'
m sor
ryI'
mr eal
lysor
ry….I
"Itryto
hel
phergetupbutshestopsmeputtingherhands
outi
ndefence.
Whenshecamet hroughthatdoort
heonlythi
ngI
wantedtodoistoholdher,
askherifshe'
sokay.I
s
shehurt
,hungryandwhatwr ongwi
thhersoIcan
fi
xit
.

Iwatchandl istenherasshepour sherheartout

andtellmehowmuchascr ewupIam andhowI
haveruinedherl i
fe.Ever ywordshesayscut sme
verydeepbecauseIknowi tistr
ue.Theonlyt hi
ngI
wanttodoi shol dherandl ethercryinmyar msbut
Iknowt hat'
st helastthingsheneeds.AllIhaveto
doislethersayever yt
hingshewant stosayand
takei
tlikeamanandt henf i
gureouthowI '
m going
tofi
xthismesswe' reinandmosti mport
antlyis
howam Igoi ngt oputt hepiecesofherheartthatI
havebr oken.

Icoul
dfeelshewasunhappyeveryt
imeItouched
herbutsheletmebecauseshet
houghti
tiswhat
shemustdobecausesheowesme.Lungihasno
meanbonei nherwhi
chbaffl
esmehowi sitthat
she'
stheonewhocameupwi t
hthisideaof
convi
ncingbuhletost
ealmymoneyandsheagr eed
becausesheknewIwoul dfuckherinmyof f
ice
thengetthei
nformati
on.Thatbi
tchisgoingtopay
whenIgetmyhandsonher .

Me“leaveus”IsaytoPercyandtheydo.I
'
ml ef
t
wit
hmyt hreebestf
ri
ends.Itur
ntogoupthestai
rs
butIdon'
tknowwhatI'm goi
ngtodaytoher.

Themba:“Don'
tgoupt her
e.Shewant
stobealone
andyou'
rethel
astpersonshewant
stosee”Isit
downandcovermyf ace

Mandl
a“You'
ref
ucked.Youf
uckedupbi
gti
me"

Bheka:
“She'snothersi
sterandshe'snothi
ngl
ike
herBafo.Youneedtofi
xthisbecausethatwoman
i
ntherelovesyou”
Me:"I
'veneverseenherl
iket
his.She'
sbr
okenand
i
t'
sallmyfault”

Mandl
a:“di
dyouseeheratalloryouj
ustsawt
he
womanwhoapparent
lystol
eyourmoney?

Themba:
“youdidsaythat
'sshe'
sgoi
ngtopayandI
thi
nkshehas.Lett
hepoorgir
lgoandli
veyourl
if
e”

Me:
“I'
l
lneverl
ethergoever
!.”t
hatt
houghtmakes
mewanttokil
lsomeone

Bheka:
“She'
sbeent
hroughenoughGl
ethergo”
her
eitgoes

Me:
“wear
emar
ri
ed.”t
heyar
eshocked

Themba:“wai
twhat
?,when,
howandwhydon'
twe
knowaboutt hi
s”It
ellt
hem whathappendfr
om
whenwegotatherpar ent
shousef i
ndi
nghersi
ster
goneandunt il
nowandmybestf r
iendsar
ereal
ly
disappoi
ntedinme.

Bheka:“Iknewt herewassomet hi
ngyouwehi di
ng
butneverdi dIthinkitwast hi
s”hesays
disappointed.Madlami nicomeswi t
hbreakfastand
setsitonthet ableandt heguysseatandeatandI
can'tstomachanyt hingbecauseI '
m sosickof
mysel f
.

Mandl
a“thi
ssi
tuat
ionismorefuckedupthanI
t
hought
.Youhidthisf
rom usbecauseyouknew
weweregoi
ngtostopyou.”

Themba:“howsureareyouthatshewasal
sopar
t
ofthepl
antostealyourmoney?”

Me“It
houghtIwassur
ebecauseshef
inal
ly
conf
essedbutnowI
'
m not
.”

Bheka:"
didshesayhowt
heydi
ditandwhy?"

Me:“No.Shej
ustsai
dyeswest
oleyourmoney.
”
t
heylookatmeli
keI'
m cr
azy

Bheka:"Whendidyoubecausethi
sst upi
ddick?.2
mil
lionrandsInothi
ngtoyou,hel
lit
'snoteven
worththishouseandhowmuchyoupayt heseguys
hereandyourcompany.Weallknowt hatthi
sisnot
aboutthemoney.sowhat'
sreall
ygoingonG?"

Mandla:
"It
'saboutyourdamnst
upi
d,br
uisedego"
heshakeshishead

Themba:“andt
hat
'swhenyoualmostpunchedher
butt
odayyoufi
nal
lydidi
t.Youhi
ther
.Ithoughtwe
di
dn'thi
twomenG?.”
Me:“Iregr
etitokayandi
t'
snevergoi
ngt
ohappen.
I
'm sor
ryguys”

Themba:"Ohnobr ot
heryou'
reapologizingtothe
wrongpeople.Youhavetoaskherf orforgi
veness
toher
.LookI '
l
llooki
ntothi
swhol e2milthingand
seewhatreall
yhappendandI'l
lletyouknow. "

Bheka:“Doyouloveher”what
?Igopourmysel
fa
gl
assofwhiskeythendri
nk.

Me:“Idon'
t.Idon'
tloveher
”Ishakemyheadf
ast

Themba:“i
fyouwer
etofindoutthatshedidn'
tst
eal
themoneyandsheasksyoutolethergo,wil
lyou
giveheradi
vor
ce?”

Me:“I
'
llneverl
ethergo.She'
smi
newhet
hershe
stol
eitornot.Shefi
tsmeper f
ectl
y,shebri
ngsout
theothersi
deofmet hatItryt
ohidefrom women,
butwithherit
'sdi
ff
erent.Ever
ythi
ngisdif
fer
ent
withherandIlovethat
.”

Mandla:‘
whatifshemeetssomeoneelsecozyou
t
oldheryourmarri
ageisonpaperonl
y.Whatifhe
f
all
sinlovewit
hanotherguy?"

Me:"I
'
llki
llanymanwhoevent
hinksoft
ouchi
ng
her
.I'
l
lfuckenki
llt
hem "

Mandl
a:"Yourt
wist
edsel
flovesherandyoukmow
youdo"

Themba:
"Sot
ellus.
..
.Isshe.
..Youknow"Weal
l
l
augh

Me:
"Yeahshei
s"Isaypr
oudl
y
Themba:
"youl
uckysonofagun"

Me:
"Damnr
ightIam"

Mandl
a:"Doesshehaveanot
hersi
ster
?"

Me:"Yeahhersi
stercousi
nbutshe'
sfai
styt
hat
one"

Mandl
a:"JusthowIl
iket
hem"

Me:"Thatoneist
hetypet
ochokeyouwhileyou'
re
sl
eepingifyoupi
ssherof
f"Welaughagai
n

Mandl
a:"I
'l
lfuckal
loft
hatfai
sti
nessoutofher
.
ManI'
l
lfuckhertosubmissi
on"Ishakemyhead
Me:"Shei
sprobabl
ygoi
ngt
opunchmewhenl
ungi
t
ell
sherwhatIdid"

Bheka:“wel
lyoudeser
veitandpl
easef
ixt
hismess
youcreat
edbefor
edadfindsout
.”

Me:“Iwill.”t
heyfi
nisheat
ingthenleaveandIgo
fi
ndmadl aminiandaskhertotaket
her estoft
he
weekoffandshehappi l
yagreesbutshe'sworr
ied
aboutLungiandIdon'tbl
ameherbecauseIknow
sheblamesme.Yeahmeandyoubot hma

Itakemyphonegot hroughmycont actsandlookat

thatnamest ar
ri
ngatmeont hescreen.Notmany
thingster
ri
fymeandscar emebutt herear e4
peoplethatabsol
utelyterr
if
yme.mypar entsand
theseother2peopleandIhavet ocal loneoft hem.
IdebateifIshoul
dcal lt
hatpersonbutIknowt hati
f
Idon'tsomeoneoutt heremight,soImaket hecall.
Them:
"juni
or.
"If
eel
myf
oreheadsweat
ing

Me:
"Imessedup.
..
ithi
nkIr
eal
lymessedup"It
hink
t
heyst
andup

Them:"Iwaswai
ti
ngforyourcal
l.Iknowshewas
missi
ng.Nowhowdidthefuckthathappen?"Oh
fuck

Me:
"shef
aint
edt
henwentt
othe.
..
."

Them:"Don'
tyoudar
etellt
hat!.Iwantt
oknowhow
di
dshesneakpastyourguy.Themanyou
promisedmewouldguar
dherl i
kehisli
fedepends
onit?
!."

Me:
"Itwasami
stake."Theylaugh.
..t
hatcol
dlaugh
t
hatIhat
eandmakesmybl oodruncold.
Them:"mi
stakeaboutherl
if
eindanger
?,doyou
knowwhatcouldhavehappenedbet
weenthose
hour
sofhermi ssi
ng?"

Me:
"I'
m sor
ryIt
akef
ullr
esponsi
bil
it
y"

Them:"DidInotaskyout oprotecther?,didInot
askthatyoudoever yt
hinginyourpowert omake
sureshe'
salwayspr ot
ectednomat terwhat ?.DidI
notaskyoutot akeheroutofthathellwhol eshe
waslivi
ngunderandt akecareofherf orme? .I
swearjuni
orifIhearthatyouhurtherordi dhur t
heri
nanywayyou' readeadmanwal king".myt hr
oat
get
sdr y.

Me:"itwil
lneverhappenagai
nIpr
omi
se"t
hey
chuckle

Them:"begl
adthatt
hereissomeoneel
sewho
watchi
ngoverhert
oo.Otherwi
sewecouldbe
tal
kinganotherdi
ff
erentst
oryandsomeonemight
bedead...
.youmaybe"andIknowt heymeani
t.

Me:
"who'
sal
sowat
chi
ngherandwhydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me?"

Them:"Imaket
her
ulesnotyou.wher
eist
hatbi
tch
buhl
e?"

Me:
"someonei
shi
dingherbutIf
oundal
ead"

Them:"Iwantherdead"t
henthephonegoesdead.
Fuck.I
t'
sti
meIf i
xedmymi st
akesandbeaman
andhusbandsheneeds.

MynameisMbusoGumedeI '
m 36yearsol
d,the
f
ir
stbor
nofNkosinat
hiandOwamiGumede.Ihave
t
woveryannoyi
ngbrother
sZi
phoandSiyabonga.I
r
unamul t
imil
li
onai
reITcompanyPhakat
hwayoIT.
Ihaveamast er
'si
nITComput ersci
enceand
Technology.Mybr ot
hersworkformeandmymom
runsherownNGOor ganisat
ionandmydadi sa
doctorwhor ecent
lyret
ir
ed.

Itakeaglassofwhi
skeyanddri
nk.Ihavet
ogo
upstai
rsandtal
ktomywife.WheredoIevenbegi
n.
Cont
inuat
ionofChapt
er8.

Mbuso.

OnedayIwasoutwi t
htheguysandwewentt othi
s
cl
ubt heyusual lygot obuti twasmyf i
rstti
me
goingt here.Isawt hisgirlshelookedgoodt henwe
start
edf l
ir
ti
ngandi thadbeenawhi lesinceiwas
withawomansot henIf uckedhert hatverysame
ni
ghti nt heclub.Eveytimewewentt othatcl
ubshe
wasal wayst hereandIwoul df
uckherever yti
me
andt henonedayIt ookhert omyhouseandf ucked
herther e.
Tom t oldmet ost ayawayf rom t
hatgi rlbecausehe
saidshewasagol ddi ggerandidi dseet hatbutI
didn'tcar ebecauseshewasagr eatl ayandt ome
thatwasi tbutittur
nedoutt obet hebi ggest
mi stakeofmyl i
fe,takinghertomyhouset hatis.I
shoul dn'thavedonei tbecauseshest art
edt ocome
tomyhouseunannouncedandi tdidbot hermebut
theni I'l
lbeusingmydi ckandnotbr ai nandI 'l
ltake
hert omyof f
iceandiwoul dal
waysf uckhert here,
unt i
lthisonet i
meIl eftherinmyhouset odealwi th
somet hi
ngandIt hi
nki ti
sthenthatshewent
throughmyt hingsandsawconf identialpapers.

Ididn'
tnoti
cethatsomethingwaswr onguntilone
daymyaccount antshowedupatmyof fi
ceand
askedmehowcan2mi ll
ionsrandsgettr
ansfered
fr
om myaccountandnoti nf
orm himtogetthe
papersready.Iwasshockedthendi dwhatidobest
andusedmyI .
Tskil
lsandboom al lt
hepapertrail
l
edt oBuhleandhersist
erLungi .Idi
dn'
tknowbuhl e
l
ikethatbecausewellwhatwehadwasaphysi cal
rel
ati
onshi
pandnot hingmore.Inevert
ooktimeto
i
nvesti
gateherandfindoutaboutherfamil
y.so
whenIdecidedtoinvesti
gat
eIfoundoutthatshe
hasabeautif
ulyoungersist
er.

Investigatedsomor eandt hemor eIi nvesti

gat edI
foundoutshocki ngt hingsaboutbuhl e'sparent s.I
sentf ranktogot oSt ander tonandf ollowlungiand
herpar entsandr ecor dt heirever ymove.Thepaper
trai
landmessagesst artedast hem j okingbet ween
themsel vest henitchangedwhenbuhl etoldlungi
aboutmeandhowr i
chiam t henl ungisai dtot he
message, itread"wel llet sstealhim andseei fhe
notices.ifhedoesntwe' llcontinuet odot hatunt il
wel eavehi m withnot hingonhi sper sonaland
businessaccount .Thenwhenheseeswhatyoudi d,
you'lldeclareyourundyi ngl ovef orhi m andt ellhim
youwant edt obet heonl ywomani nhi sli
feandso
whatyoudi dwasyourwayofget tinghi sattent i
on.
Thenhe' l
lhavenochoi cebutt omar ryyou"and
buhlebei ngagol ddi ggershei sagr eed.
Icoulnd'tbeli
eveitsoIcal l
edbuhl etocomeovert o
mypl aceandshedi d.Shet houghtshewasher eto
fuckbutIhadot herpl ansforher.Itookhertoguest
bedroom andt hemomenti 6cl
osedt hedoori
slappedher ,chokedherandki ckedheraf ewtimes
beforeItiedherupt hent ookmybel tandbeatthe
shitoutofheraski ngherhowt hehellshehasthe
gutstost ealfr
om meandshedeni edeveryt
hing
andbl amedi tonhersi st
er.Icouldfeelthej
ealousy
shehadf orhersisterandi twassi ckni
ng.

Buhl eisanescour tgirl.She'swhatot herscal la

sophi sticatedcallgirl
.shedeal sonlywi thrichmen.
Ididntknowatt hetimeimetherbutf oundout
duringt het imewewer efuckingandIdi dntcar e
becauseshehasneveraskedmef ormoneyandso
Iknewt hatshel ikedmemor ethanIdi dandwant ed
mor ef rom me.SoIt oldhert hatshewasgoi ngto
wor kf ormeasacal lgirlandpayal lmymoney
backandi fnoti'
m goi ngt oherfami l
yandi '
m goi ng
totakeever ythi
ngt heyownandt hentellthem that
she'sapr ostit
uteandnotwor ki
ngatal awf i
rm.She
beggedmenottoandi
nsteadoffer
edmehersi
ster
becauset
heywerei
nthi
stogether.

Shesai dherf atherisexpect ingar i

chmanf r
om
somewher et ocomeandbuyl ungiof f
.Basi call
y
whatshesai dis"Myf at
heri sgoi ngt oselllungito
somer ichmanwhosexpect edt ocomewi thinthe
nextf ewweeks" .IwassoshockedIcoul dntbel i
ve
whatIwashear ing.Howcoul dt hismansel lhis
owndaught erandIwasdi sgust ed.SoIcameup
withthi splant hatIwi llt
ellmypar entsthatIwantt o
mar rybuhl eandt heywoul dbel i
evemebecause
twicet heyf oundmei ncompr omisingsituat i
onwi t
h
herandsoi twoul dntbehar dt oconvincet hem.My
fami l
ywoul dthent aket hel ettertoherf ami lyandit
i
st hent hatshewi l
ltellt
hem abouthowr ichiam
andaf t
erthef irstti
memyf ami lycomesshewoul d
bet herebutt hesecondt imeshewi llgomi ssingon
theweekoft henegot i
ationst ocomeher et omy
houseandsoshecansi gnt hepaperwor kt hatshe
agreest owor kf ormeandt heni 'l
lsavehersi st
er
andal somakeherpayt oof orst ealingmymoney.
Imadehersi gnthepapersthenextmorning
becauseIdidn'
ttrustherandshedidthenduring
theweekitoldmyf amilyandthatiwasinahur r
yto
marryherbecauset heywanttomarryherto
someoneel se,
IloveherandIdon'twanttoloseher
ofwhichallofthatwereli
es.

Theydidntwasteanytimebecausemymom has
beennaggingmeaboutget tingmar ri
ed.butfir
stI
hadtogoandt alktoherunclebecausef ranksaid
theuncleisver
ycloseandpr otecti
veoflungiand
soIwant edtobesurethatlungiisreal
lythe
mastermindbehindsteal
ingmymoney.

(
Mbuso'
sfl
ashbackmeet
ingwi
thl
ungi
'
suncl
e.)

Wear r
ivetot
histownanditsokaynotbadatal
l.
Frankdri
vestothesect
ionwhereLungi'
suncl
e
l
ivesandstopsaf ewhousesuptheroad.
Frank:
"G.helivesatthathouse"frankpoint
st oa
bi
dhouse,ithinkithasabout6r ooms, agarage
andhasaver ynicelawnoutside.itsabeaut
iful
home.

Me:
"ishehome?"

fr
ank:
"yeahhei
s.Youwantmet
ocomewi
thyou?"
il
augh

Me:
"youdoknowicanpr
otectmysel
fri
ght
?"

Frank:"andi
tsmyj
obtoprotectyou.idontcar
e
thatyouknowhowto"ishakemyhead

Me:
"Okmrbodygaur
dlet
sgo"
wegetoutoft hecarandmakeourwaytothe
Mazibukohomeandwef i
ndthemanofthehouse
out
sidereadinganewspaper.Hest
opsreadi
ngand
l
ooksatust henstandsupandcomestous.

Hi
m:"Nother
e.let
sgo"j
ustl
iket
hat
?,f
rankandi
l
ookateachot
herconf
used

Me:
"Si
r,MrMazi
buko.
..
."

Him:"Peopleli
keyounevercomei nt hi
slocati
on
andespeciall
ymyhouse.soi tmeansoneofmy
twobrothersdaughter
sisint roubleorit
'smy
nephewwho' sgivi
ngyout r
oubl e.soifI'
mr i
ghtlet
s
getinthatcarofyourstogot alksomewher eandif
I'
m notfeelfr
eetoentermyt hisyar d.

Me:
"we'
l
lgot
omycarsi
r"wegeti
ntot
hecar
Him:"ahmrbodygaur d,f
eel f
reetodri
vearound"
fr
ankgi vesmewhatt hefucklookandialmost
chuckle.thi
smansi t
ti
ngnextt omeisvery
i
ntimidatingandidontgetint
imidat
edthateasi
ly.

Me:"si
rmynamei sMbusoGumedeandI'm her
e
aboutuBuhl
eyourni
ece"heshakeshi
shead

Him:
"awPhakat
hwayo.whatdi
dthatchi
lddo
now?"

Somet hi
ngtel
lsmethatIcantrustthi
smanandso
Idecidetot
elhimt
hewhol etruthabouthowImet
buhleandhowsheandheryoungersi sterst
olemy
money.Helooksatmewant ingtolaugh.

Him:
"Buhlehasandal wayswillbevery
manipul
ati
ve.She'saverygoodlierandwil
lsay
anyt
hingtogetoutoftroubl
e.Thetroubl
ethatchi
ld
hasdonewillshockyouandsot hisherst
eali
ng
yourmoneydoesntshockme"
.

Me:
"whi
chiswhyI '
mf indi
ngi
thar
dtobel
ievet
hat
i
twasal
lhersi
ster
'sidea".

Him:"Lungidoesnthaveameanbonei nherbody.
shedoesntevenknowhowt oli
e,shesabadli
er
andsoyouwantt otel
lmethatmysweetniece
stol
eyourmoney? ,areyouf
uckingwithme?"

Me:
"Si
rim ser
ious.
."

Him:"Boyl i
stent omeandl i
stentomegood.l ungi
di
dntstealyourmoney.buhl eistheonewhodi d
andshef ramedherandsomeonehel pedherdoit.
Nowi sthatal lyoucamet otalkabout?
"idontknow
i
fishouldt ellhimthis.Whatifhedoesntbeli
eve
whati'
m goi ngt osayaboutherbr ot
her?buthel
lI'
ve
gotnothingt olose.
Me:"ther
e'ssomethingelse.shesaidyourbr other
i
splanningtoselll
ungiforonemi ll
ionrandst o
somemenwho' sexpectedtoshowupont henext
comingweek"hesi t
supst rai
ghtlooksatmeand
thenextthi
ngIseeisagunonmyf aceandIhave
noideawheni tcamef r
om.Thenf rankstopst he
cartaki
nghisoutandpoi ntsitt
olungi'
suncle

Hi
m:"whatt
hef
uckdi
dyouj
ustsay?
"heasksr
aged

f
rank:
"putt
hegundownorI
'
llbl
owyourbr
ainsof
f
r
ighther
eri
ghtnow"

Him:"t
ellyourbodygaur
dheretodrophisgunand
cont
inuetodr i
veandifhedoesntI
'
llbl
owt hi
scar
ri
ghtnow" .

Me:"wewi l
lbeallblownthen.SirI
'
m seriousabout
thi
s.Frankputthegundown. .
.now!"hedoesandso
doeslungi'
suncle.Itaket
helaptopthat
'sinthecar
andshowhi mt hepartwherebuhl
econfesses
aboutherfaherandtheplanshehasforlungiand
whatIthi
nkwemustdo.Hei ssoangr
y,he'sfucken
raged.

Him:"sot hisiswhatwi l
lhappen.you' l
lshowupon
thesecondt imeoft henegot iati
onsandyou' llkeep
buhleatyourhousei nthemeant imesoshewon' t
showupf orthenegot i
ationsandr uineverything.I'
l
l
convincemybr othertoletyoumar r
ylungiinstead
soshewi llbesaf eandnotsol dtowhateversi ck
fuckhewant stosellhert o.I
'l
lgiveyouthemoney
andyou'lltakeitasthe2mi l
li
onbuhlestoleandt he
1mi l
li
onhewi llwant.
"

Whattheactualfuckisgoi
ngonhere?
.Whoist
his
manandhowt hehelli
shegoingt
ocomeupwith3
mi
ll
ionrands.Somet hi
ngisgoi
ngonhere.

Me:
"whoar
eyouexact
ly"
Him:
"justacl
eaner"t
henhel
aughs.il
ookatf
rank
andheisspooked.

Me:
"howareyougoi
ngt
ogett
hatmoneybecause
noof
fencesi
r.
..
"

Him:"youstopitri
ghtt
hereboy.Don'
task
questi
onsyouar enotr
eadytoheartheanswer
sof
.
I'
l
lbeintouch."heopensthedoor

Him:"Nextti
meyout ryt ofol
lowmef rankdon'tbe
seenorI'
llbl
owupt hatcar !
,andohbef or
eIf or
get
gotosomeonet otaket hatbombof fyourignti
on
keybeforeichangemymi nd"heclosesthedoor
l
aghingleavesuslookingdumf ounded.

f
rank:
"whot
hef
ucki
sthi
smanG"
Me:
"Ihavenof
uckeni
dea"l
etsgetoutofher
e.

Lungi
suncl
ewatchest
hem l
eavet
henhet
akeshi
s
phoneandmakesacal
l

Per
son:
"vi
ctor
"

UncleVi
ctor
:"Wehaveapr obl
em hewantstosel
l
hertosomeone"heli
stensastheotherper
sonon
thephonecursesandbreakthi
ngs.

Person:
"Tel
lmeever
ythi
ng"het el
lstheother
per
sonwhatmbusotoldhim andtheybothcomeup
wit
hapl anandt
henl
ungi'
sunclecall
smbuso.

Therewon'
tbeanyPOVofMbuso'sbecauseI'
llbe
givi
ngawaysomeofthet
hingst
hatmuststil
lhe
revel
eadt
oLungi.
CHAPTER9.
Myst omachkeepsgr owlingandIf eelsohungr y.I
forgotIhadn'teatenanyt hingsi ncelastnightand
whenIwokeupt oday.It ouchmyst omachandi t
hit
smeagai nthati am pr egnant .Godwhatam I
goingt odobecausehe' sgoi ngt okil
lme.Ir ol
lover
andl andonsomet hingorr athersomeone.Ihol d
mybr eat
hwhi l
eIopenmyeyesandseeMbuso
l
ooki ngstrai
ghtatmesmi li
ngandI '
m shocked.why
i
shesmi li
ng,whati shesohappyaboutbecause
i
'm nothappyandi canst il
lfeelthatklaponmy
face.

Ihaveneverseent hismansmi leandhissmi l

e
takesmybr eathaway.Hehasadi mpleonhi sl
eft
cheeckandt hosepinkf ul
lalmostpinkli
pst hat
drivemecr azywheneverheki ssesme.Hehasf ul
l
verydar keyebrowsandf ulll
ashesandI'm so
jealous.Hiscappucci nosmoot hskinboldheadand
thatbear dthathasfewsi lverhair
s.Mbusohasa
greatbodyhewor ksoutandhe' sverywelltoned
nott ootonedlikegym freaksbutwe' l
lenoughandI
l
ovehistal
lsexybodyt
hathasthatv-
thi
ngontheir
l
owerstomachgoingst
rai
ghttothatl
ongthi
ckdick.
God!
.

Him:“br
eat
heoutbefor
eyoufai
ntonme”his
breat
hhi
tsmyfaceashetal
ksandIswearIgetwet
orIwaswetbef
oreheevensai
danyt
hing.Ibr
eat
h
outandl
ookathi
m.

Him:“youmustbehungr y.Icanhearyourstomach
growli
ng”Ipanicandtakemyhandof fbuthepull
s
mever ycl
osetohim andIfeelhi
srigi
dmember
andIswall
ow.

Me:“Mbuso….
”

Hi
m:‘ shhhhlet
'sfeedyouf i
rst
, getup.’Idoandhe
br
ingsmeapl atefullofEngl
ishbr eakf
astwit
h
waterandjui
ceandIeat .He'slookingatme
di
ffer
entl
yandIf eelveryweir
dIj ustwishhewould
l
eavemeal
one.

Me"di
dmadl
ami
nimaket
his?
"

Hi
m:"noidi
d"il
ookathi
m shocked

Hi
m:"youdontbel
ieveme?
"

Me:“noidont
.ar
eyounothungr
y?”

Him:“No.Idi
deatsomet hi
ngearl
ier”Idon'
t
bel
ievehi
m soIcutapieceofpancakewithbacon
andeggsandtakeitt
ohismouth

Me:“open.”Isayandhesmi
les,
aful
lbl
ownsmi
le
Godhe'
ssobeaut i
ful
.

Hi
m:“youwantt
ofeedme?
"
Me:"Iknowyourehungrysoopenyourmouth"he
standsupandgoestothebathr
oom andcomes
withawetclot
hthentakesmyhandsandwipes
them t
hehewipeshistoo.

Him:"useyourhandst ofeedme"ohok.it akethe

foodandbr ingi ttohismout hthenheopensupand
iputitinhet akesi tfr
om myf i
ngerst henifeelhis
tongueonmyf ingersnibbli
ng.hedoest hesame
andf eedsmet ooandwe' r
ejustsil
enteatingthe
foodandwat chingeachot her
.Itfeelssoamazi ng
li
keitsthemosti ntimatethi
ngwehaveeverdonet o
eachot her
.Whenheswal l
ows,whenhedr i
nksthe
jui
ceandhi sadamsappl egoesupanddownIl ook
atitandijustwantt oputmyt onguei nthereand
feeli
tmovi ngupanddownmymout h,yeahim
crazy.Hefeedsmeunt i
lIgetf
ullandcan' teat
anythingmor e.

Me:
"I'
mful
l,
Icantswal
lowanyt
hingel
se"
Hi
m:"yousur
e?"

Me:"Iam".Webothgetsil
entandIknowwecan' t
i
gnoretheel
ephantinther
oom.Het akesthetray
offt
hebedandput si
tonthedressi
ngtablethen
goestothebat
hroom andIthehearwaterrunning
thehecomesback.

Him:"comeandgeti nthebath"igetupandt akeoff

mycl othesandIlookatmyst omachagainandI
knowi tstooearl
yforittoshowsohewon' tnoti
ce
anything.Igotothebathroom andgetinthebath
anditsmel l
snice.IsighwhenIgetinandcl osemy
eyes.

Hi
m:"canIj
oinyou?
"Ikeepqui
etandl
ookathi
m
Me:
"youcani
fyouwant
"
Him:"Iam aski
ngyoui
fIcanj
oinyouandi
fit
's
okay"

Me:"geti
nmbuso"het akesoffhi
sclothest
hen
j
oinsmeandget sbehindmet hendragsmybodyto
his,
mybackconnectingwi t
hhisfront
.Hewashes
mybackwi t
hhishandst henhishandscomet omy
fr
ont,r
apsthem ar
oundmeandl aysmyheadt ohi
s
chest.

Hi
m:"whatdi
dthedoct
orsay,
whatcausedyout
o
f
aint
"

Me:'
youarether
easonIf
aint
ed.Youst
ressme"he
br
eathesoutl
oud

Him:
"IknowIdoandIj
ustdontknowwhatt
odo
andhowtodothi
s"
Me:"t
hiswhat ?
, t
hismar ri
age?.I
'mtheonewhos
beendoingsomet hingtomakei tworkandwhati
sit
exact
lythatyoudidbesi deshurt
ingmeand
abusi
ngmeevr yt
ime? "

Hi
m: "abusi
ngyou?
,iwasn'
tabusi
ngyou.YesIwas
ali
tt
leroughsometi
mesbutIneverabusedyou
l
ungi"Ichuckl
e

Me:"ofcauseyou'
l
lsaythatbecauseanabuserwil
l
saythat.Tel
lmembusowhathaveyoudonet of
ind
buhlesoshecanalsopayasIam paying.wheni
s
shegoingtogetsl
appedandchoked?"

Him:"luhpl
easedonttal
kli
kethat.Sheisst i
ll
missingbutThembasaidhe'l
lcheckoutthisthing
ofthemoney.Therearepeoplewhoar elookingfor
herandshewi l
lbefoundandshei sgoingtopay
forwhatshedidasyousayshef ramedyou" .
Me:"letmet ellyousomet hingaboutmysi st
er.
she'sthetypet ogetanythingshewant sandshe'll
dowhat everittakesforthattohappen.Shest he
typeof' i
fIcanthavei t,
sowi llyou'
.everythi
nghas
tobeher sandher sal
one.She' ssmartbutusesher
smar t
nessf orwr ongthi
ngsandr easons."Imove
awayf rom him, t
urnandf acehi m.

Me:"Idontknowt hekindofrel
ati
onshipyouboth
haveorhadbutIknowyoudi dntloveher.Youare
notamansuf fer
ingfrom betr
ayalandabr oken
heartbutyouareoutforbloodandr evengeandI'
m
thetoolyouwil
luseunt i
lyougetitoutofyour
syst
em"

Hi
m:"yoursi
steri
sn'
ttheper
sonyout
hinkshei
s."

Me:"shesnotwhat
?.aliar
,mani
pulator
,aconni
ving
bi
tch,afr
aud,athi
ef.she'
snotal
lthosethi
ngs?
"
Hi
m:"shei
sal
lofthoset
hings.It
houghtmaybeyou
ar
egoingt
osaygoodthi
ngsabouther"

Me:"ohbutt her ear egoodt hingsIcansayabout

her.Sheusedt olovemewhenwegr ewup, would
l
ookoutf orme, did6ntwantanyboysar oundme.
Shewasmybi gsi sterandIl ovedher .Iwasher
ownper sonaldol l.Shewoul ddr essmeupandt ake
met oherf r
iendst oshowmeof f.Butt hings
changedshest artedpul lingawayf rom meand
changedt owar dsmeandIknewt hati twasour
mom' sdoing.Shehasal waysbeenj eal ousofour
rel
ati
onshipandherwi shhappendandwegr ew
apartwithbuhl e,butt hewer eti
meswhenshewi l
l
comebackf rom j obur gt akemeshoppi ngwi t
h
her,
soallthet hingssi sterswoul ddoandwe' l
lgot o
thebankt owi thdrawt hemoneyyousenther ,you
herboyfri
end.Whatpuzzl edmei sthatshewi l
l
alwayswi t
hdr awhugeamount sofmoneyandgi ve
somet omypar ent s.Mbusohaveyouasked
yoursel
fwhyourhousei sthatbi gandbeaut ifuland
bothmypar entsdr ivethel atestMer cedesandeven
buhl
edr i
vesaQ7andshe' sworki
ngatalawf i
rm
andshe'snotevenal awyer.Mymom'sat eacher
anddad'sawar derandyout hi
nkIst
oleyour
money".hestaysquietli
steni
ngtome

Me:"Youandbuhl ewouldhavemadeagr eat

couplebecauseyou' r
ebothfuckedup.Doyouever
regretthethi
ngsyoudot ome? ,doyoufeel
anythinginthatcoldhear
tofyour smbuso?.Doyou
rememberwhatyousai dtomewhenwel aidinbed
asiwascr yinginyourarmsthedaywef i
rstmet?"
helooksner vousthenmovesf orwar
dtomet riest
o
touchme

Me:"dontmbuso.doyourememberwhatIasked
youandwhatyousaid?"hestops.

Hi
m:"Isai
dalotoft
hingsthatday.Idont
r
emember?"Isi
ghdisappoint
ed.
Me:
"ofcauseyoudontrememberbecausei
tdi
dn'
t
meananyt
hingtoyoubuttomeitdi
d".

Him:"l
uhIdonthowtodothis,
itwasn'
tsupposet
o
beli
kethi
s"Isuddenl
ygetangry

Me:"Howwasi tsupposetobeli
kehmm? !,why
di
dntyoucallthepoliceandgetmearrested?
,why
ar
en'tthepol
iceinvolvedandsear
chi
ngf ormy
si
ster?"

Hi
m:"Idontdealwi
tht
hepol
ice.Idealwi
tht
hingsi
n
myownway"

Me:"whodoesn'
tdealwi
ththepol
ice?
,unl
ess..
..
.oh
myGod"Igetoutofthebat
hfastandalmostsl
ip
andfal
lthenr
untotheguestbedr
oom.

Hi
m:"whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
,youl
lhur
tyour
sel
f"he
saysrunni
ngaftermeandIcl
oset
hedoorandl
ock
i
tbeforehetr
iestoopeni
t.

Me:"youreacriminal
.Thati
swhyt
hepoli
cewere
neverinvl
oved.ohmyGodwhatdidigetmysel
f
i
nto?!"

Him:
"lungiI'
m notacri
minalokay?
.opent
hedoor
sowecant al
klikeadul
ts"

Me:"dontl
iet
ome.ifyou'
renotacri
minalt
henwhy
doyouhavebodyguar
dsanddr i
ver
s.Onlycr
imi
nal
s
dothat.
"

Him:"myj obisdanger
ousluh.Ihavet
ohave
peopleprotecti
ngmeatallt
imesandallt
hosei
..
i
careaboutt oo"

Me:
"youdontcar
eaboutme,
sowhyar
eyou
pr
otect
ingme?
"

Him:
"Idocar
eaboutyouandIal
wayswantt
okeep
yousaf
eandprot
ect
ed"

Me:"andwho'
spr
otect
ingmeagai
sntyoubecause
you'
reasbadast
heonesyouarebei
ngprot
ected
fr
om"

Him:
"Weallhavepeoplewhoarewatchi
ngoverus
l
ungiandasbadasthissoundsbutIam pr
otect
ing
you"

Me:
"wel
lthenanswermet
hishonest
ly"

Hi
m:"I
'
llt
ry"

Me:
"noyouwi
llanswermet
his.
"
Hi
m:"okIwi
ll"

Me:
"doyour
eal
lybel
ievet
hatIst
oleyourmoney?
"

Hi
m:"l
ungipl
ease!
."

Me:
"Noanswerme!
"Ishout

Him:"NO!.Idontokay?Fuck!"ist
andther
elooki
ng
atthedoorshocked.Iopenthedoorandseehim
standi
ngtherestar
knaked

Me:
"whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
"

Him:"Idontbel
ieveyoustol
ethemoney.Thi
swhole
thi
ngstinksofyourfuckensi
ster
"hesaysl
ooki
ng
atme
Me:"whendi
dyoucomet
other
eal
isat
iont
hatI
di
dnt?"

Him:
"I'
vealr
eadysai
denoughandI
'
m notgoi
ngt
o
sayanyt
hingmore"

Me:"Ideser
vetoknow.Thi
sismywhol
eli
fewe'
re
t
alki
ngabout"

Him:
"Ican'
ttel
lyouthatokay.j
ustf
uckenl
eavei
t!
"
hesaysget
ti
ngfrust
rated

Me:
"I'
m notl
eavi
ngi
t.t
ellmenow!
"iscr
eam athi
m

Him:"I
tsf
uckenbi
ggert
hant
hebot
hofusokay!
.
Fuckluh"
Me:"whatdoest
hatmean,
itsbi
ggert
hant
hebot
h
ofus?"

Hi
m:"youdontf
uckenl
ist
endontyou?
.Isai
dleave
i
t"

Me: "okI"
lll
eaveitt
hen.Iwantadi vorce.Iwantout"
Hel ooksatmel i
kei'
m crazyandst artt
olaugh.he
actuall
ylaughsadeepbel l
ylaught henstops.Tears
rolldownmyeyesasIseehi ml aughingtearsand
allli
kei'
mt i
ckli
nghim orheswat chingsomet hi
ng
funny.I'
mt hatsomethi
ngf unnybecausehe's
l
ooki ngatme.

Him:
"sweetyou'
renotgoinganywher
ebecauseif
youl
eavethi
smar r
iageandhouseyou'
redead"

Me:"thenyoumightaswel
lki
llmenowbecauseI
'
m
l
eavingthi
shouseandIwantadivor
ce"
.
Him:
"Imeani
twhenIsayyouwillbedead.I
t'
snot
goi
ngtobemewhokil
lsyoubutyourparent
s"

Me:"yousickf
uck! .Younowr eal
isethatIwant
nothi
ngtodowi thyout henyouthinkyoubetter
accusemypar entsofwant i
ngtokillmesoIwont
l
eaveyouandt hissham ofamar riage,whati
s
wrongwithyou?."

Him:"Theyarenotyourparentslungi"
.hesays
seri
ouslyandIl
ookathi m andlaugh.i'
6m t
heone
who'slaughi
ngnow.Ilaughandl augh.Hewat ches
met hencomesgetti
ngclosertomesl owl
ythenmy
l
aught urnst
ohiccupsthensniffsthencri
es.

Me:"youknowIt houghtmaybewe' l
lhaveachance
andmaket hisworkbutthemor eIgettoknowyou
i
sthemor eIgetdisgustedofyou.Howcanyousay
somethi
ngl i
kethat?
"
Him:"lookatyourselfandlookatthem,thewhole
famil
yl ungi
.Youl ookli
kenoonei nthatfami
ly.
Evenyourext endedfami l
ymember sand
grandparentslooknothingli
keyou".

Me:"maybetheyadopt
edme.Manyki dsget
adoptedandit
sokaybutyoudonthavetoaccuse
them ofwant
ingt
odosomet hi
ngli
kethis.
"Ichoke
up

Him:"theydidn'tadoptyou.Theyki
ll
edyourmother
andstoleyoul ungi.
"helooksatmeandIsee
sadness,regret,r
emorseinhiseyesandseethe
tr
uthtoo.

Me:
"Nooooooooooooo.
..
..
.Godno!
,No,
No!
"if
all
on
mykneesandcryandheholdsme.
Cont
inuat
ionofChapt
er9.

Thi
scan'
tbet
rue.Whywoul
dtheyki
llmymot
her
andnotki l
lmet oobutdecidetorai
semeasoneof
thei
rkids.Whatki ndofpeopl
ear et
hese?
.Where
wasmyf atherwhenallofthi
swashappeningand
whereisheandi sheevenalive.Di
dmymot her
's
famil
yknowaboutme?

Me:"IwantFranktogotoStander
tont
ogetmy
uncle.Iwanthi
m her
e..
..IwantSi
msandthami
heretoo"

Hi
m:"Ithoughtwewoul
duset
hist
imet
otal
kand
f
ixt
hingsbetweenus"

Me:"Tal
kmbuso?.There'
snot
alki
ng.Iwantoutof
t
hismarri
age.Wehadtimetot
alkandtrytofi
x
t
hingsbetweenusbutyouwe'
reoutandfucki
ng
Godknowshowmanywomenandnowyouwantt o
fi
xthi
ngs?.Hel
lno!
.

Hi
m:"Luhpl
ease!"
Me:"Iwantmyf
amil
yherebef
oret
heendoft
his
dayMbusodoyouhearme?"

Hi
m:"Whydon'tIsendFr
anktogofet
chsimsand
t
hamithenyouruncl
ewil
lcomeoveraft
ersome
t
ime?"

Me:"no.you'r
escar edthathe'
sgoi
ngtoseehow
you'
vebeent reat
ingmer ight
?,wel
lIdon'
tcare
mbuso.Iwantanswer sandIknowhe'stheonlyone
who'llt
ellmetrut
h.DoIhavet ocal
lhim mysel
for
you'
llgoandt el
lFrank.

Hi
m:"I'
l
lgo.l
et'
sgetyoudr
essedupandwar m"He
pi
cksmeupandt akesmetoourbedroom,
loti
ons
mybodythenIgoandwearmyclothesandleave
hi
m get
ti
ngdressed.

Igot
otheki
tchenandst
artpr
epar
ingdi
nnerf
ormy
f
ami
ly.Ikeepsni
ff
ingandwi
pingmyt
ear
sof
f

Him:"wecanordertakeaways.youdon'thavet
o
cook"hesayssi
tti
ngdownandwat chi
ngme

Me:
"leavemeal
oneandgetmyf
ami
lyher
e"

Him:
"don'tcutyour
sel
fpl
ease."Ii
gnor
ehi
m and
cont
inuechopping.

Helooksatmewanti
ngt
osaysomet
hingbutFr
ank
ent
erstheki
tchen

Hi
m:"af
ter
noonMadam "

Me:
"HiFr
ank"

Hi
m:"Ineedt
otal
ktoFr
anki
nmyof
fi
cebef
orehe
l
eaves"

Me:"ok"hesighsthentheyleave.Ibreat
heout
deeplyandputahandonmyst omach.whatam I
goingtodo.Iwantoutofthi
smar r
iageandmbuso
outofmyl i
febutnowI'
m pregnantf orhi
m.Am I
goingtokeepthi
spregnancy?,doIevenwantto
keepitandwhataboutthi
smar riage?"

Mytrianofthoughtisdi
stur
bedwhenIheara
phonevibr
atingandIlookupandseembusof orgot
hi
sphoneont hetabl
e.DoIlookatitort
akeitto
hi
m.Weal waysheardon'tevertouchaman's
phonebecauseyoumi ghtfi
ndandseewhatyour
l
ookingforbutwhatdoIhavet olose.
..
.not
hing.

Ilookaroundandseei fhehear ditorcomingt o

fetchitbutno,soItakeitandseet hathisscreen
saverisapi ct
ureofmesl eeping.Isl
ideacrossthen
Itunlocksbecauseitdoesn'thaveapi n.Who
doesn'tputapinont hei
rphone.Iseeamessage
f
rom anunsavednumbersoIcl
ickoni
tandi
tsays

Message: "Thi si
sget t
ingtoomuchf ormeandI'm
l
osingmymi nd.Thel i
eshavetostopsoIthinkit
's
ti
mewet ellheraboutus"If eelmyheartal
most
stopping.Ireadt hemessageagai nandagai
nandI
can'tbeli
evewhatI '
mr eadi
ng.Thi
shast obebuhle..
.
i
tisher .Theset wohavebeenpl ayingmeand
l
aughi ngbehi ndmybackandst r
essingmeout .

Him:"haveyouseenmyphone,It
hinki.
..
."Hesays
gett
ingintheki
tchenandseesmeholdi
nghisand
hefreaksout

Hi
m:"whatar
eyoudoi
ngwi
thmyphonel
uh?"

Me:
"Youfuckenbast
ard!
.howcanyoudot
hist
o
me?"Iscr
eam athi
m
Hi
m:"whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"

Me:"Thisyoufuckenbastard!"Ithrowthephoneat
him andheducksthenIthrowt hepan, kni
fe,
food
athim andherunsoutoftheki tchenducki
ngandI
scream l
oudandcr yuncontrol
lable.

Whydoesever ythinghavet obehar dforme.why

can'tIgetjustamomentofpeace.Foroncei nmy
l
ifeIjustwantt obel oved.Whydi dtheykillmy
mot her?,whatdi dt heygainf rom kil
li
ngherand
who' smyf ather?.Coul dmyuncl ebemyf atherand
i
st hatwhyhel ovesme? .OhGodI '
m notrelatedto
si
msandt hamimybr other.Ithurtsever
ythingjust
hurts.If
eelhim pi ckmeupandt akemet oour
bedroom andl aymedownont hebed.

Hi
m:"Dri
nkt
his.I
twi
llcal
m youdownandhel
pyou
sl
eep"
Me:
"Isi
thar
mful
?"

Hi
m: "Noit'
snot
.you'
l
ljustsl
eep"
.It
akei
tanddr
ink
i
tthenclosemyeyesandsleep.

Ifeelki
ssesonmyeyel idsandcheeksandt hat
smellandmyhear tmeltsandIgi ggle.Idi
dn't
real
isehowmuchImi ssedher .Iopenmyeyesand
seemybeaut i
fulcousinlayi
ngnextt omewi thher
beautif
ulsmil
eandbi geyes..
..yeahshe'snotmy
cousinandthatthoughtmakesmyhear tbr
eakand
Isniff
.

Sims:"I
'
m herenowsi sdon'tcr
y..
."It
urnandl ook
atherandtearsjustcl
oudmyeyesandIcr y.She
hugsmeasIcr yint
oherarms.Icanf eelherchest
movingupanddownandIknowshe' scr yi
ngwi th
me.IholdhertightandIknowthatwhet herwe' r
e
rel
atedornot.Simphiweisthebestsi
sterI'veever
had.
Me:
"Il
oveyoual
otyouknow"shel
aughs

Her:
"Of
causeyoudodummybecauseyouknowI
'
m
ver
yspeci
al.
"

Me:"Wher
eist
hami?"he'
sbusywit
hexamsbut
he'
sgonnabeher
eassoonashe'sdone"
.

Her
:"Imi
ssedyou,
youknow"shesayssni
ff
ing

Me:
"youdi
dn'
tcomewi
tht
hem?"Il
ookather
.

Her:
"Not heyarevi
sit
ingthei
rfat
hersandIwoul
d
havelef
tthem eveni
ft heywer
ewi t
hmebecauseI
knewyouwe' r
egoingt oaskmetocome".

Me:
"Imi
sst
hem "
Her
:"t
heymi
ssyout
oo.weal
ldi
d".

Me:"Iknowtheymi
ssedmeandmycooki
ng
becauseI'
mtheonl
ywhoknowshowtocook.What
wereyoufeedi
ngmykidsSi
ms?"webothlaugh

Her:"ohcomeont heyarest
il
lal
iveokandt
hefood
theyatedidn'
tki
llt
hem pl
uswewoul dt
akeaways
andf astf
ood"

Me:
"Ihopet
heyar
enotski
nny"Isaygi
ggl
ing

Her
:"ohpl
easet
heyar
efi
ne"

Me:
"wher
e'suncl
e?"

Her
:"It
hinkhe'
scomi
ngt
omor
row"
Me:
"Ok.I
'
m gl
adyou'
reher
e"

Her
:"wher
eyougo.Igo.Il
oveyousi
s".

Me:"of/
causeyoulovemebecauseI'
mt heonl
y
yel
lowboneyouknow"webothlaughthenweget
qui
et.

Her:
"What'swrongl
uhbet
weenyouandmbuso
becausewhenhecall
edmehewasfrant
icand
fr
eakingout?"
.

Me:
"whendi
dyougether
e?"

Her"t
wohoursago.Iaskedmbusowhat
'swr
ong
buthewoul
dn'tsayanyt
hing"
Me:"Ever
ythi
ngi
swr
ongsi
s.ever
ymessedup
t
hing."

Her
:"Tel
lmeever
ythi
ngsi
s"

Me:
"Wher
edoIevenbegi
n?"

Her
:"Wher
everyouwantt
o.Wehavet
ime"
.

Itel
lherever yt
hingt hat'
sbeengoingonbutnot
sharet hatI'
m pregnantandwhatmbusosai dabout
my...thepeoplet hatstoleme.Iwanttohearmy
uncleconf essthattomef i
rst
.Bytheti
meI '
m done
tel
li
ngherwhatbeengoi ngonshe'squietandthat
's
notlikeher.

Me:
"youar
equi
teandt
hat
'snotl
ikeyou"
Her:
"I'
m sadt
hatyouhadt ogothroughal
loft
hat
al
oneandyoudi dn'
tshar
ethatwit
hmet hewhole
ti
mewewoul dtalkonthephone"

Me:"IknewyouwouldbehurtandupsetandIdidn'
t
wantthat.It
houghtt
hingswi
llgetbet
terbutt
hey
di
dn't".

Her:
"I'
m goingtokil
lbuhl
ewhenIgetmyhandson
her
.Ican'tbel
ieveshesetyouupl
iket
hat
"

Me:
"Iknewshewasconni
vingbutt
hisi
sshocki
ng"

Her:
"andyoul
ostsomuchweightbecauseoft
he
st
ress.Iwi
sht
hingswer
edi
ff
erent"

Me:
"Ihadhopet
hatmaybet
hingswi
llwor
koutbut
t
heydi
dn't"
.
Her:
"Let
'sgomakesomewaffl
esandicecream,
l
et'
sgodrownoursel
veswi
thsomejunkfoodand
gowatchmovi
es.

Me:
"Ietmeshowyouar
oundt
hehousef
ir
st"Isay
aswegetup

Her:"bi
tchpl
ease!.youthi
nkIwouldwai
tforyouto
totakemear oundthehouse.Youknowit
'st
hef i
rst
thi
ngIdi dwhenhet ol
dmeyou'resl
eepi
ng.Iti
s
hugeandbeaut if
ul".

Me:
"IknowandIwouldn'
texpectanyt
hingl
ess
f
rom youSi
ms"Ishakemyhead

Her
:"youl
ostt
hewei
ghtbutyoust
il
llookgoodsi
s".

Me:
"thanksf
ortryi
ngt
omakemefeelbet
ter
.letme
gowashmyf aceandt
henwe'
l
lgodown"
Her
:"I
'
llgochangei
ntomypyj
amas"
.

Me:"oksis"Igot ot hebathroom anddeci det ot

ake
aquickshower .Thewat erisgoodandf ora
momentIf eelbetterandIt hinkithasgottodowi th
Simsbeingher e.Iturntowashmybackandsee
mbusosi t
ti
ngont opofthet oil
etbowlwat chingme
andseeinghim sitti
ngther eremindsmeoft hat
ti
meIwast endingtohisbl eedinghandbecausehe
punchedthemi rrorthensomet hi
ngcrossesmy
mind.Whenwewer eatthej udgesoffi
ceIdon' t
rememberseei nghi shandbandagedorl ooking
swoll
en.MaybeIwasst ressed.

Igetdonethenopentheshowerdoort
henhetakes
atowelandwrapsitaroundmybody.Il
ookathi
m
andsmile.

Me:
"doesi
thur
t?"
Hi
m:"ali
tt
lebutshepunchesdamnhar
d"Ishake
myheadwantingtosmil
e.

Me:"Youdoknowmyunclei
sgoingtogiveyoua
bl
ackeyeri
ghtandmaybebr
eakyourri
bs?"

Him:
"don'tremindme"hesaysi tl
ikeitscar
eshim
andheshoul dcausethatmanlovesme.Iwonder
agai
nifhe'smydad.Il ot
ionmybodyt hengotothe
bedr
oom.he' sfol
lowi
ngmear oundlikealostpuppy

Him:"Ior
der
edsomef
ood,
sinceyoudi
dn'
tfi
nish
cooking"

Me:
"wast
hatmessagef
rom buhl
e?"

Hi
m:"noi
twasn'
ther
"
Me:
"whoi
sshet
hen?"

Him:"I
t'
snot.
.."Si
msthenbargesi
nthebedr
oom
andIalmostwanttost
rangl
eherandmbusogives
heradeathst
are.

Her:
"wasworri
edaboutyou,
soIcamet ocheckif
you'
rei
nonepieceandnooneisputt
ingthei
rhands
onyouwheretheyar
en'
tsupposet
o"shesays
annoyi
ngl
ylooki
ngatmbuso.

Him:"knockwhenyouentersomeone'
sbedr
oom.
wecouldhavebeenfucki
ngyouknow"Hesays
annoyed.

Her:
"Ohpl
easesparethedet
ail
s,Idon'
twanna
know.l
et'
sgothefoodisget
ti
ngcold".
Me:"I
'
m coming,
mbusowasaboutt
osay
somethi
ng"
.

Him:"Ahem.it
'snoti
mportantgo".Si
msdr agsme
outofthebedr
oom andIlookatmbusoandhe
l
ookswei r
dli
kesomethingiswrong.Wegot ot he
ki
tchenandseetheyorderedfr
om "MrDFoods" .
mymout hwatersandwest ar
tplati
ngforourselves.

Her
:"Haveyounot
icedsomet
hingdi
ff
erentabout
mbuso?".

Me:
"what
?,he'
sever
ydaydi
ff
erentandIcan'
tkeep
upwi
thhi
m".

Her:
"Imeanphysical
lyandhedoesn'
thavethat
sparkl
einhi
seyes.TheoneIsawwhenhel ooked
atyou".
Me:
"maybei
tdi
edwhenwegotmar
ri
ed"
.

Her:
"he'
snotasscar
yandi
ntensel
iket
hel
astt
ime
Isawhim".

Me:"Youdon'
treal
lyknowhi
m si
mssoyoucan'
t
saythat"
.

Her
:"hmmm "
.
CHAPTER10.

Mybodyf eel
ssor elaxedandwar m hmm iloveit
.I
can'tremembert helastti
meisl eptlikethi
s
becauseitfeelssogood.Isi ght henopenmyeyes
andi seeapairofbr owneyesl ookingatmeand
thenaver yhardthingpokingme.That 'swhyIfeel
sogood, i
tsbecauseIsl eptont opofmbuso.He
kissesmynoset henmyl i
ps.
Hi
m:"goodmor
ningsweet"

Me:
"mor
ning,
howdi
diendupher
e"

Hi
m:"youfel
lasl
eepaf
tert
hesecondmovi
e,soi
t
ookyoutobedandweslept"

Me:
"okandhowdi
dIendupsl
eepi
ngont
opofyou?
"

Him: "wellyoukeptontouchingmydi
ckthenwhenI
tr
iedt otouchyou,youslappedmyhandsthenwhen
Istopandf i
nal
lygetsomesleepyoudeci
detoget
ont opofmeandsl eep"
.

Me:
"whydi
dn'
tyoumovemet
othebed?
"

Hi
m:"youl
ookedsopeacef
ulandr
elaxedandI
l
ovedf eel
ingyousleeponmyarms.Itremindedme
ofthatdaywhenyouwer ecr
yingasIheldyouand
yousleptinmyarmsandwhenyoust art
ednippi
ng
onmyneckt hi
nki
ngyouhavi
ngadr eam"Igiggle

Me:
"itwasni
ceadr
eam andi
tfel
tgood"

Hi
m:"hmmm "

Me:
"you'
reget
ti
nghar
d"

Hi
m:"I'
vebeenhar
dthewhol
eni
ghtsweet
.Why
won'
tyoutouchme?"

Me:
"Iam t
ouchi
ngyou"I
'
m pl
ayi
ngwi
thhi
sbear
d

Hi
m:"youknowwhatImean,whenwe'
rei
nti
mat
e"I
t
rytogetof
fhi
m buthehol
dsme
Me:"myuncl
eiscomingt
odayandI'm ner
vous"he
t
akesadeepbreat
hthenbreat
hesout.

Hi
m:"don'
tremi
ndmeanddon'
tchanget
hesubj
ect
"

Me:"youwon'tl
etmet ouchbecauseyoualways
fuckme.youdontwantt ol
ookatmet hat
'swhyyou
fuckmefrom behind"hequickl
ychangesposit
ions
andnowi'm beneathhi
m

Him:"Ial
wayswantt olookatyouwhileIfuckyou
butIcouldn'
tandwouldn'tal
lowmyselfbecauseof
theguil
tIfeelwhenIal
waysl ookatyou"
.

Me:"whatar
eyoufeel
ingguil
tyabout?
"hedoesn'
t
answermebutinst
eadkissesme.
Me:
"mb.
..
."

Hi
m:"sshhhl
etmet
ouchyouandmakeyourbody
si
ng"

Me:"l
ockt
hedoor"Iwantt
hedamndi
ck,
I'
m so
hor
ny

Him:"Idi
dlockthedoorwhenItookyoutobed,
wouldn'
twanttomaket hatmi
stakeofyourcousi
n
seei
ngmegi vi
ngyouwhatyouneed"

Hetakesof fallmycl ot hesthenlooksatmel i

keits
thefi
rstti
mehe' sseeingmenaked, t
hent akesoff
hispyjamapant sandhi sdickspri
ngsfreeandIsee
hisdi
cki sleakingwi thpr ecum andijustwantt o
runmyt ongueoni t.Ilookathim andhe' slooking
atmesmi l
ingandIsmi leback.Idontknowbut
somethingi sshift
ingbet weenus.
Icrawlandgetoffthebedthenstandnexttohim.
Heopenshisar msandhol dsme.westandt her
e
naked,myheadonhi schestlist
eni
ngtohis
heart
beatbeat.Hishandstouchmyasst henhe
l
ift
smeupl ikeIweighnothing.Iwr
apmyl egs
aroundhiswaistandarmsar oundhi
sneck

Him:"youwereasi
ze36andnowIt hi
nkyou'
re32.
youlostsomuchweightbecauseofme.I'
m sor
ry
sweet,i
'l
l.
..
."

Me:
"sshhhl
etsnotr
uint
hemomentandt
alkabout
t
hat"
Ibri
ngmyf aceandkisshim deeply.hemoansand
start
st okneedmyassgr abbingitti
ghtandgri
nds
hisdickonmycl itandimoan, hegroansandIhold
himt ightandkisstheli
vingdaylightsoutofhi
m.
Mybodyal waysmeltsathistouchandIcan'thel
p
mysel f.Feeli
nghisdickagainstmywetf oldsandit
touchi ngmycl i
tmakesmesowetandIknowhe
canf eelmywet ness.
Me:
"mmmm.
..putmedown"

Hi
m:"Babypl
ease.
..
"heput
smedownandIl
ookat
hi
m andsmil
e

Me:
"ssshhhh"

Igetdownonmykneesandcomef acetofacewi th
hisproud, protr
udingmemberf aci
ngupwar ds
abovehi sbel l
ybutton.Mbusohasat ypeofdi ck
thati
slikeal mostabananashape, itsthi
ckl ong
andohsover yyummy.Mymout hwat ersfrom just
l
okingati tandIl i
ckmyl ipst
hentakemyhandand
wrapitar oundhi sdickbutmyhandcan' twr apall
aroundit,justhalfofitandhestandsst i
ll
.

Hi
m:"Babyyoudonthavet
odoi
t"hesayst
ouchi
ng
myhandthat
'sonhi
sdick
Me:"Iwantt o"ipul
lhishandof fandlookathi m as
Imovemyt humbovert heheadofhi sdickandhe
swallows.Imovei taroundsmear ingthepr ecum all
overitthenmovemyhandal lthewaydownt ohis
pubichai rthenbri
ngmyf acedowncl osetohi sdi
ck
andswal l
owhi sdi
ckandi tstr
echesmyj awmaki ng
meopenmymout hwidet henImovemyt ongue
aroundi tandteasethatopeningonhi sdickhead
andhegr oans.

Ipullmyf
aceupandlookathim agai
n,thego
downonhim agai
nandhegroansthenIfeelhi
s
handonheadmakingmegodeeperandImoan
makingammmmm soundandhecur ses.
Itakemyot herhandandputitonhisball
sand
starttouchi
ngthem sof
tl
y,feeli
ngthem i
nmyhand
andi tfeel
ssogoodhavinghi minmymout hbuthi
s
pressingmyheadhar dmaki ngmest r
uggleto
breathal i
tt
leandhenoti
cesbecausehemoveshi s
handof fmyheadandbringsittomyfaceand
massagesmyj
aw

Him:"rel
axyourjawyourbabyandbreaththrough
yournose"idot hatandheconti
nuestomassage
myj awthenheflexishi
shipsandmovest hem a
l
itt
leatcontr
oll
edpaceandimoanagai n,movemy
headupanddownusi ngmyl i
psandtongueall
arounditanditf
eelssogood.

Icanf eelthati'
m verywet,myboobsf eel
sheavy,
myni pplesarehardandmybodyi sscreamingt o
getsomer el
easebutwhatI '
m doingisnotf orme
butforhim.Isuckt hatdickli
kei'
m eatingice-cr
eam
andmyf avouri
telol
lypopthenIpullitoutofmy
mouthandi tpopsoutmaki ngthatpopsound.
Me:"moveyourlegsapartalit
tle"hedoesandi
movemyheadagai nandtakehisball
sinmymout h,
sucki
ngthem soft
lyandhegr oansandicontinuet
o
suckonthem thenfeelhi
mt enseandsoi5stop,go
backtohi
sdickagainandt akehimtomymout h
wrappi
ngbothmyhandsar ounditmovingthem up
anddownandl osemyselfpl
easuri
nghim.Heholds
myheadandst arttomovehishi
psandf ucksmy
mouthsoft
lyandIenjoyeveryt
hrusthemakes,I
movemyhandsof fhi
sdickandputthem onhi
s
ti
ghtasswit
hmynai l
sandhegroans.

Hismovement sgethastl
yandImoanagai nmaking
thatmmmmm sounds, hegroans, goesdeepinme
andIfeelmynoset ouchi
nghi spubichair,
thenhe
comesf i
ll
ingmewithhistastelesscum andItryt
o
swall
owmostofi tbutsomecomesoutofmy
mouth.
Hebr eat
heshardli
kehe'sst
ruggl
ingtogetai
ron
hi
slungst henhepicksmeupandt akesmetobed
ki
ssingme, hi
stonguedownmyt hroatandIl
oveit
.
Helaysdownwi thmeont opofhi
m

Hi
m:"getyourbut
tonmyf
ace"huh?

Me:
"what?
"
Him: "fuckmyf acebaby" I
'veneverdonet hisbef ore
buthowhar dcani tbe,itwi l
lbel i
ker i
dindadi ck
ri
ght ?".Igetbothmyt highsonei thersideofhi s
head, lookdownandseet hathei sfacet of acewi t
h
mypussy.Myhandshol dont i
ghttot hest eelbar s
ont hebedt henibr i
ngmyassdownandt henif eel
hishandsonmyassbr ingingi ttohisf acet henf eel
histongueonmywetf oldsandImoan.Hehol ds
mywai stt
ightandeat sme, hi ssofttongueont he
entranceofmypussy, mycl it,al
lovermyvagi na
sucki ngmegoodandIcan' thel pmysel fbut
scream outl oudbecausei tf eelsgood, hisbear d
ti
cklingmeonmyass, tongueonmycl itsucking
mesof tlyanddamnimovemyhi psandr i
det hat
facehol di
ngtighttothosest eelbar sandnowi
under standwhyt heyar eont heheadboar d.

Heconti
nuestosucknyclitandif
eelmyself
get
ti
ngnearthenIfeelhi
sthumbgoingtotheback
doorandIal
mostfreezebuthebit
esmyclitali
tt
le
andimoan,herubsaroundoutsi
demybackdoor
pressesonitatthesametimehistonguepresses
onmycl itt
henmovesi tsi
detosideanditmakes
mel osecontr
olandIicomealloverhi
sface
screaminghisname.

Hetakesmet ohisarmst henl

aysmedownonmy
backwhileI'
m st
il
lfeel
ingmyorgasm t
henent
ers
meandl ooksatme.

Him:"Yourethebestthingthathaseverhappendin
myl i
fe"hesaysandt hr
ustsdeepandimoant heni
touchhisback,thoseshoulders,
armsandf i
nall
y
hisassandgr abitti
ghtpushinghim deepi
nme.

Him:"you'
reper
fecti
neverywayanddon'
teverl
et
anyonechangeyou..
.evenme"heconti
nuesto
thr
ustdeepandimoan

Him:
"I'
m sor
ryf
oreveryt
hingihaveputyout
hrough
"heki
ssesmeandiclosemyeyes
Hi
m:"l
ookatmebaby, don'
tshutmeoutplease"I
l
ookathi
m andseethatheissad,l
ikehewantsto
cr
yandthatmakesmehur t

Him: "IwishIcant ur
nbackt imefixthings, say
thingsIshoul dhavesaidsoIcanhavet hismoment
ri
ghther eandnowf orl
if
e.Wakeupt oi teverydayof
myl ife..
..
"hispacechangesandhest art stomove.
Hist hrustsaredeep,l
ongandhar dli
kehei sgivi
ng
meal lofhim andwantsnothingleftbehi ndandit
makesmecr ybecauseitfeelsli
kehei ssayi ng
goodbyet ome.Hewr apsbot hhisarmsar oundme,
kissesmewi thhiseyesclosedandi '
ml ookingat
him andseet ear
sonhiseyel i
ds.

Me:"mbuso..
..
"heshutsmeupwi thakissand
conti
nuestomakelovetomeandIcr yonhisarms
holdi
ngti
ghttohim andhecont i
nuestomakelove
tomeuntilwecomet ogether
.West ayl
ikethat
,
holdi
ngeachotherl
ikeit
'sthelastt
imebecauseit
f
eel
sli
kei
t.
CHAPTER11.

Mbusoget supandgoest ot hebathr oom anditurn

andfacetheotherwaywi pi
ngmyt ear sof
f.He
comesbackpicksmeupandwegeti ntot
he
showerandhewashesmywhol ebodyqui et
lyandI
dothesame.Wef inishgett
ingdr essedand
ever
ythi
ngandst i
llnooneist al
kingandi tmakes
mewonderwhati smyuncl egoi ngt osayt hat
mbusoknowsandi smakinghi m ner vous.

Me:
"whati
sitt
hati
sscar
ingyou?"

Him:
"wil
lyouhol dme"hel ookssovul nerableright
nowandIdontl i
keitatall
.Idon'tli
kethi
sweak
manthati
'm seei
ngi nfr
ontofme.Igot ohim and
wewehug.Heki ssesmeont hef or
eheadt hen
l
ooksatme,takesmyhandwel eavethebedr oom
andgodownst ai
rsandfindsimsst uff
ingherf ace
wi
thf
ood.

Her
:"gooddayl
ovebi
rds"shesayssmi
li
ng

Me:
"heysi
s"

Mbuso:
"hi"hesaysl
owandwebot
hlookathi
m

Sims:
"youlookbadmbuso,di
dluhnotgiveyou
somecauseIswearIhear
dherscream yourname
morethanonce"

Me:
"ewsi
msyouwer
eli
steni
ng?"

Her:
"hel
lnoiwaspassingbycomingt
othekitchen
andyoudeci
dedtoscream hi
snameatthatexact
moment.Yohluhyour
eloud"
Me:
"shutup"Isayget
ti
ngshyandmbusol
ooksat
meandsmiles,asadsmil
e.

Me:
"you'
reeat
ingyest
erday'
slef
tover
s?"

Her
:"i
t'
sfoodandi
tst
il
ltast
esgood"

Me:"youwantmet
omakeyousomet
hing?"Il
ook
atmbuso

Him:
"yeahbuti
'
llbei
nmyoffi
ce.Ihavet
ocallfr
ank
andfi
ndouthowfart
heyar
efrom her
ewithyour
uncl
e"

Me:
"ok"heki
ssesmycheekt
henl
eavesus.

Si
ms:
"whathappend,
hel
ookssosad?
"
Me:"It
hinkhewantsustobreakupandgeta
di
vorce"Itaket
hingsoutandst
artt
ocook

Her
:"what
?,why,
"

Me:"Idontknow.It
hinki
tissomethi
ngtodowi
th
uncl
eandIal sot
oldhimthatIwantadi
vor
ce"

Her:
"ohluh,Iknowhetreatedyoul
ikeshi
tbutdo
youreal
lywantthatdi
vorce?"

Me:"wedontl
oveeachothersi
msandit
hinkhei
s
hi
dingsomethi
ngsfrom me"

Her:
"maybehei
sst
ressedt
hathecan'
tfi
ndyour
si
ster"

Me:
"maybe.Ican'
twai
tforuncl
etogether
e
becauseIneedanswer
sandhe'
stheonl
yone
who'l
lgi
vethem t
ome"

Her
:"what
'sgoi
ngonl
uh?"

Me:
"Idon'
tknowsi
ms,
idon'
tknow"

Me:"si
mswhatdidyoumeanwhenyousai
dther
e's
somethi
ngdi
ff
erentaboutmbuso"

Her:
"thewayhel
ookedatyouthef
ir
stt
imenwas
di
ff
erentt
ohowhelookedatyounow"

Me:"maybeitwaslustandyoudi
dsaythathe
wantedtobeinmypant ssobadandsowhenhe
di
d,thatspar
klef
tbecausehegotwhathewanted"

Her
:"youguysmakeagoodl
ooki
ngcoupl
ethough
"

Me:
"that
'
sal
lwe'
regoodat"

Her
:"andhavi
nggr
eatsext
oo"

Me:
"shutupsi
msman"It
hrowt
hel
ett
uceather

Voice:
"thereareki
dswhowoul dgi
veanyt hi
ngto
havethatlett
uce"Iturnar oundandseemyuncl e
l
ookinggoodandsmi l
ing.Mbusoisstandingnext
tohim.Istandthereandl ookatthi
smani '
ve
alwaysadoredandl ovedandt houghtthatwheni
getmarriediwouldliketomar ryamanwhoi sl
ike
him.

Me:
"bab'
umncane"Ismi
leback
Hi
m:"Luhkababa"Iwal
ksl
owl
ytohi
m,st
andnext
t
ohim andl
ookathi
m.

Me:
"Howar
eyouuncl
e?"

Him:"I
'
m goodnowt hati
"m her
ewit
hyou"he
openshisar
msformeandIhughi m.I'
veal
ways
l
ovedhishugsbecausetheyarewar
m andf
uzzy.

Me:"Come,
let
sgetyouset
tl
edi
nandt
hengetyou
somethi
ngtoeat"

Him:
"Iwantt
otal
ktoyourhusbandf
ir
st.Wewi
ll
comeeatwhenwe'
redone"

Hi
m:"I
'
m sohappyt
oseeyou"
Me:
"namibaba"(met
oodad)hehugsmeagai
n
Him:"andyou?,ar
en'tyougoi ngtohugme?"he
sayslooki
ngatsmsandshecomesandhugshi m
toothenuncl
eandmbusol eave.Ther
eist
ensi
on
betweenthem andit
st ense.

Me:
"canyouhelpmemaket
hem sandwi
cheswhi
le
i
'
m sti
llcooki
ng"

sims:
"okay"simsmakescof feeandImake
sandwichesbecauseIdontwantmyuncl
etodi
eof
foodpoisoni
ngfrom si
ms.

Me:
"Iwonderwhatar
etheyt
alki
ngaboutt
her
e"

Her:
"Idontwannaknow.I'
m goi
ngt
otakeabat
h
andmaybeanap.Ifeelsoful
l"

Me:
"asyoushouldbecauseyoustuf
fedyour
sel
f
wi
ththatf
ood"sheleavesIt
akethetr
ayandputit
onthediningtableandthecof f
eeaswellthenhead
tombuso'sof f
ice.AsIgetcloserIhearsomeone
groani
nginpai n,myuncleisshoutingathim and
mbusoi squiet.

Iqui
etl
yopenthedoorandseemyuncl eholding
mbusobyhisthroatandbyt hewaymbusois
bi
ggerandtal
lerthanmyuncl eandIr
eali
sethat
mbusoislet
ti
nghi m beathi
m.Igetsoshocked
whenIseesomuchbl ood

Me:"Uncl
ewhatar
eyoudoi
ng?,
whyar
eyouhi
tt
ing
hi
m? "
mbuso'sf
acei
sbl
oody,
hiscl
othesandmyuncl
e'
s
aswel
l.

Him:
"getoutl
ungiandcl
oset
hedoor"hesays
angr
il
y

Me:
"whyar
eyouhi
tt
inghi
mthough?
"Iaskhi
m
knowi
ngver
ywel
lwhy

Him:"l
ookatyoul
ungi,
justlookatyou!,
youlost
weight
,yougomissi
ng,hehasaner vetoputhis
handsonyou,whothehelldoeshethinkhei
s?"

Me:
"he'
smyhusbanduncl
e.Theoneyout
oldmet
o
mar
ry!"

Mbuso:
"lungil
eaveus,
I'
m okay"hesaysst
ruggl
ing
t
otal
k

Me:"no,
i'm notl
eavi
ng.Iwantthet
rut
h.Thel
ies
andsecret
smustst opnow!."

Mbuso:
"she'
sri
ght
,ital
lmustst
opnow"

Uncl
e:"shutupmbuso.Lungigot
otheki
tchenwe
ar
ecomi
ngnow"

Me:"pr
omi
semeyouwon'
thi
thi
m agai
n"myuncl
e
nods

Me:"mbusogocl
eanyour
sel
fupt
hencome
downst
air
s"heal
sonods.

Il
eavet
hem andgot ot
heli
vingr
oom andsi
tdown.
Si
msshoutsfrom t
hekit
chen

Her
:"yourf
oodi
sbur
ningl
uh"

Me:"swi
tchoffthest
ovesi
ms"Idonthaveener
gy
tocookanymore.Shecomest
otheli
vingr
oom and
sit
snexttome.

Her
:"what
'sgoi
ngonl
uhandpl
easedon'
ttel
lme
youdon'
tknow"

Me: "we'l
lbot
hfindoutwhat'
sr eal
lygoi
ngon"
mbusocomesf ir
standhasshower edandchanged,
hisf acel
ooksreal
lybad.Hestandsnexttothefi
re
placeanddoesn'tsitdownthenmyuncl efol
lows
tooandhaschangedhi scl
othes.

Me:"afterIcamebackf rom thehospi t

al,Iwentto
thehotelandspentt henightthereandt henthe
foll
owingmor ningIcamebackhomeandwehada
fi
ghtandhehi tme.Itol
dhi m Iwant edoutt hatI
wantadi vorcebuthesaidIcoul dn'tleavebecause
there'
sapr i
ceonmyheadbymypar ents.Hesaid
thatmypar entsarenotmybi ologicalpar entsbut
peoplewhomur deredmymot herandt henstole
me. "si
msgaspsshockedl ookingatmyuncl e

Me:"sowhoam Iuncl e,whoar

emypar
ents,
why
wasmymot herki
ll
edandwhereismyf
ather
?"I
askhimlookingathiseyes.
Hi
m:wher
edoIevenst
artl
ungi
?"

Me:
"att
hever
ybeggi
ning"

Uncl
e:"Mbusoi
stheonewhoshoul
dst
art"

Me:
"st
artt
alki
ngmbuso,
i'
mli
steni
ng"

Him:"Iam ahackerlungi,I
t'
swhati '
m goodat.I
metbuhl eataclubandwest art
edhavi nga
physicalrel
ati
onshi
p..
..
."hegoest oexplai
nhowhe
andbuhl emetandhowiam i nvolvedinsteal
ingthe
2mi l
liom.

Mbuso:"Itdi
dntmakesensethatyouwouldsteal
mymoneyj ustf
orthefunofi
tandsobuhl ecanget
marr
iedtomeonceIf i
ndoutbecauseshewas
t
ryi
ngtogetmyat t
enti
onandthenIdecidedto
i
nvestigat
ewhobuhl er eal
lyi
sandIf oundoutthat
shehasbeenaski ngaboutme, whereIliveand
whereIhangout .
..
thingsli
kethat.SoIwenttosee
youruncleandtoldhim whathappendandhet old
met hatyoucouldn'
tdosomet hingli
kethatbut
buhleisverycapableofdoingitandmuchmor e" .

Me:
"soyouknewf
rom t
hebeggi
ningt
hatiwas
i
nnocent?
"

Him:"Iwasn'thundr edper centsuresoIdi gged

somemor eandf oundoutt hatbuhleclonedyour
phoneandlapt op.Shet ookyouror i
ginalphoneand
gaveyouaf akeonel ooki ngexact l
ylikeyoursand
hadeveryt
hingyouror iginalonehadanddi dthe
samewi t
hyourl apt op.That '
swhyt herewe
messagesfrom " you"butnotr eal
lyyou.Sheal so
madeaf akeI.dwi thyournamesanddat eofbirth
butusedherpi ct
ur e.Shemadeapr ivat
eback
accountsameasyouraccountnumberandt hat's
howshegott ot ransfert hemoneyf rom myl aptop
t
oheraccountusi
ngyourinfor
mat i
on.Sheis
wor
kingwit
hsomeonewhoi susedtodeali
ngwith
t
hesethi
ngsandwebelievethatpersontobethe
manyoucalldadwhoraisedyou"
Icannotbel
ievewhati
'
m hear
ing,
buhl
edi
dwhat
wit
hmydad?

Me:"howdi
dsheknowyourpasswor
dsand
ever
ythi
ng?
"

Hi
m:"Theyputahi
ddencamer
ainmyof
fi
ce"

Me:
"whynotcl
oneyourl
apt
opl
ikemi
ne?"

Him: "becauseI
'
m ahackerandIwouldhave
noti
cedandsheknewIdi dnthavecamerasinmy
off
ice"myheadi sspi
nni
ng.I
'vebeenli
vingwi
th
mur dersandthi
efs.
..
whoarethesepeopl
e?
Me:"shedi dallofthatandyousti
llwant
edtomar r
y
her?.
..
.itdoesn'
tmakesense"hel ooksatmet hen
l
ooksatmyuncl eandIlookatt
hem boththenmy
unclelooksdownandmbusocomesandsi t
sonthe
othersideofmeont hecouch.

Him:
"sheal
sosaidsomethi
ngel
sewhenI
conf
ront
edher
..
..
"hetakesmyhandsi
nhi
s

Me:
"whatdi
dshesay?"

Him:"shesai
dthatyour.
..
.herdadwasplanni
ngt
o
sel
lyoutosomemanf oronemi l
li
onr
ands"

"what
?!"bot
hsi
msandIsayatt
hesamet
imeandI
st
andup

Me:
"andyoubelievedher?
...
..
not
heywoul
dntdo
t
hatuncl
e?"Ikeepshakingmyheadno
Uncl
e:"l
ethi
mfi
nishl
ungi"

Mbuso: "sheswor ethatshe' stelli

ngt het r
uthand
shewasscar edf oryoul ungiandsosheof f
ered
yout ome.Wemadet hi
splant hati'
lltel
lmyf amily
thatIwantt omar r
yherandbecauset heyhad
foundushavi ngsexacoupl eoft i
messoi twouldn't
behar dtoconvi ncet hem, t
henmyf ami lywoul dgo
thefir
sttimef orthenegot iationsshewi llbet here
butthesecondt imeshewi llgomi ssingandcome
heretomyhousebutshenevershowedupandi s
stil
lmissing.Thent hatwi l
lf orceyourdadt oforce
yout otakebuhle'spl acebuti twasneverabouther .
Itwaswasaboutsavi ngyouandIt oldyouruncl e
whatbuhl esaid"ohmyGodIwasgoi ngtobesol d
foronemi ll
ionrandst oGodknowswho? ,tears
cloudmyeyesandf all.

Uncl
e:"whenmbusotol
dmewhatbuhl
edidand
whatmybr ot
heri
spal
nningt
odo,
Ioff
eredt
opay
hi
m backthe2mil
li
onandgivehi
mt heonemi l
li
on
hewil
lusetopayf
orthel
obolanegoti
ati
ons.
..
"

Me:"what?,di
dyoutakei
tmbuso?..
didyoutakeit
al
landstil
laccusemeofsteal
ingf
rom you?"iask
hi
m screaming

Mbuso:"Idi
dn'
ttakeanyofit
.Iref
usedandused
myownmoneyt opayf ort
helobolanegot
iat
ions"
hesayswithhi
shandsonhi shead

Me:
"Isi
ttr
ueuncl
e,her
eal
lydi
dntt
aket
hemoney?
"

Uncl
e:"Hedi
dn'
tlungi
.Heusedhi
sownmoney"
Me:
"Howmuchdi
dyoubuymef
or?"

Si
ms:
"lungidontsayt
hat"shesayscr
ying
Him:"Idi
dn'
tbuyyoulungi
.Iwast
ryingtosaveyou
butiendeduphurt
ingyouint
heprocess"

Me:
"howmuchdidhebuymef
oruncl
e..
.HOW
MUCH?"iscr
eam

Uncl
e:"cal
m downl
ungi"

Me"HOW MUCH?"

Uncl
e:"hepai
d2mi l
li
onr
andsf
oryou"
.Il
ookat
mbusoandhe'snotl
ooki
ngatme

Me:"Whywouldyoupaysomuchmoneyforme
mbusoknowingididn'
tst
eal
anymoneyfr
om you
oroweyouanythi
nhg,whydi
dyoumarryme?"
Uncle:
"wewerewor r
iedthat,
theper
sonwhowas
promisedyouwil
lcomebackandwantyouback
andsowet houghtt
hatitisbett
ermbusomar
ri
es
you"theydidwhat

Me:"Sotheydeci
dedtoplanmyli
fe.Whydidn'tyou
takemesomewher etol
iveot
hert
hanstanderton
andnottel
lanyoneuncl
ewhereIam i
ncaset hat
personcomeslooki
ngforme?"

Uncl
e:"wewer
enotsurewhowewer
edeal
ingwi
th
andhowconnect
edtheyar
e"

Me:"Thi
smarri
agethatwehavembusoisi
treal
or
I
'm st
il
lher
ebecauseyou'
repr
otect
ingmef
rom him
"

Mbuso:
"hei
snol
ongerapr
obl
em.Hei
sdead"
Me:
"howdoyouknowt
hat
?"

Mbuso:"becauseil
ookedf
orhim andki
ll
edhim"he
saysnotevenbli
nki
ngandIfeelcol
dchil
lsr
unall
overbodyandthehairont
hebackofmyneck
stand.

Me:"youkil
ledamanf
ormembusowhy?"ichoke
upcrying

Hi
m:"someonehadtodoi
tlungibecauseyou
woul
dn'
tbesafeandwhynotme"

Me:
"Doyou.
..
doyouhat
emef
orwhatyoudi
d?"

Hi
m:"Icoul
dneverhat
eyoul
uhnever"

Me:
"whathappenst
othi
smar
ri
agesi
ncehei
s
deadandInol
ongerneedpr
otect
ion"hel
ooksat
myuncle

Hi
m:"Therei
snomarri
agel
ungi?"If
eelapi
eceof
myheartbei
ngcr
ushed

Me:
"so.
..
..
soyouwantust
odi
vor
ce"

Hi
m:"noIdon'
twantt
hat"

Me:
"tal
kmbusoman,
howdoyoumean?"

Him:"wedi dn'
tgetmarriedluh,ever
ythingwasa
fake.askyourunclehere,he'stheonewhocame
withtheideaofusgettingfakemar r
ied"Ilookat
myuncl eandseet hetruthwrit
tenalloverhi
sface
andIf eelbet
rayaloft
hewor stkind.
Me:"whyuncle?,
whywoul
dyoudot
hist
ome?"I
askhim cr
ying

Uncle:
"wet houghtwewer epr otecti
ngyou.Itol
d
mbusoandheagr eed,i
t'
snotl ikehewasi nnocent
i
nallofthis.Thejudgei
saf riendandt hemar ri
age
cert
ifi
cat
eyousi gnedwasf ake.t hat
'swhyyou
nevergottherealonefr
om homeaf fai
rsorchange
yoursurname"

Me:"sot heonlythingrealher
eisthatamanwas
ki
ll
edf ormypr otecti
onandeverythi
ngelseisalie.
Mywhol elif
eisal ie,myname, mymar r
iage.
..
.I
coul
dhavewal kedawayf rom al
ltheabusei
endured,I.
..
."

Me:"Wai
t.
..
.whosentyout
hatmessagembuso?
"i
askhi
m

Hi
m:"yourbr
other"
Me:
"What
!.
..
.t
hami
?"

Hi
m:"yourr
ealbot
herl
uh"what
?

Cont
inuat
ionofChapt
er11.

Me:
"mywhat
?,.
..
.uncl
ewhati
smbusot
alki
ngabout
?
"

Uncle:"Lungidear,Ihavetotel
lyousomet
hingbut
beforeIdot hat
,therearepeopl
ewhomustbeher e
too"

Me:"no!
.Tel
lmewhat
'sgoi
ngandi
'
lldeci
dei
fthose
peopl
emustbeher
eornot"
Uncl
e:"l
ungiforyout
ounderst
andandhave
ever
ythi
ngoutintheopen,
theymustbeher
epl
ease
"hesayspleadi
ngwithme

Me:"okfi
ne"hetakesouthi
scel
lphoneandcal
ls
whoevert
hatis,
whetheri
t'
smyrealbrot
heror
someoneelseIdon'
tknow"

Uncl
e:"wher
ear eyouguys?
...
ok.
..
uhm notsur
e,i
'
m
comi
ng"hel ooksatmethenhangsup.

Hegoest othehal
lwayt oopenthedoor.Ikeep
pacingupanddownbecauseIdon' tknowwhatt o
dowi thmyself
.Whethertositdownorstandup.I
feell
ikei
'm goi
ngtofaintatanymoment .

Mbuso:
"si
tdownl
uh,
youdon'
tlookgood"ii
gnor
e
hi
m
Ican'tbelieveIhaveabr otherandtheyalldecided
tohidet hatf r
om meandwhatel sedoInotknow.
DoIknowmyuncl e?,doIknowt hemani 'vebeen
sleepingwi th,doIevenknowmysel f?.Ihear
footstepsofpeopl ecomingt otheli
vingroom andI
stoppaci ngandbr acemysel fforwhateveri'
m
aboutt oface.

ThefirstpersonIseei smyuncl efollowedbyt hese

twomenIdontknow, haveneverseenandmeti n
myl i
fe.Theyst andnextt omyuncl eandt heolder
manl ooksatmeshocked.Bot hofthem lookatme
shockedif eelsomet hinghappeni
ngi nmybodyand
ican'
texpal i
nit.Onei solderandhel impsal i
tt
le
whenhewal ksandt heot heroneiseitherthesame
ageasmbusoorol der.Theylookalike..
.l
ikefat
her
andsonandil ookliket hem.Hemustbemyf ather
andthatmustbemybr ot
her
.Wowt ear scloudmy
eyesthenihearsi ms

Si
ms:
"ohmyGod,
youl
ookl
i
ket
hem.
..
that
'sso
f
reaky"

Uncl
e:"shutupsi
mphi
we.Lungi
?"

Olderman:"noVict
or,l
etmetakei
tfr
om here".He
walkstowardsmeandIstandther
efrozen.He
sandsclosebutnottoocl
ose.

Him:
"mynamei sZakesNgcobo,Iam yourf
ather
andthi
sherei
syourolderbr
otherSi
celo
Ngcobo.
..
..
"

Me:
"whoam I
?"

Ngcobo:"Youar
emyone. .
..
..
oneandonl ydaught
er,
Lungil
eNgcobonotmazibuko.You..
..
.youandyour
brot
heraremyonlychi
ldr
en" .heget
st ear
y
Me:"whowasmymot her?,
whywassheki l
led?and
whydi dt heyst ealonlyme.Whydi d'tyout r
yt ofi
nd
me, doyouknowhowIgr ewup? ,t
heemot i
nal
abuseIr eceivedever ydayandconst antlybeing
hatedf orr easonsIdi dnotknow.Sl apsIwoul dget
fr
om t hewomanIt houghtwasmymot her ?
, whydid
youl etmeber aisedbymymot her
'skil
lers,why
didnttheyki l
lmet oowi t
hher,whydi dyoul etme
gowhy? !why!why!why!"Igetl oudwi thever y
quest i
on, screami ngathi m cr
yingloudand
uncont roll
ablet henIf eelhi
sarmsar oundme
comf ortingmeandicr yhard.

Ngcobo:"sshhhdon'
tcrymybaby..
..
I'
m herenow.
Alli
sgoingtobewell.Letssi
tdown"heleadsme
tothechairandwesitdownwithhi
mf aci
ngmeand
hewipesmyt ear
sof
f

Ngcobo:"IwasstudyingAgricult
uralSciencesand
onmyl astyearattheuni
versitywhenImetyour
motherandyoul ookexact
lylikeher.It
'sli
kei'
m
seei
ngherbutseei
ngyou".
Hesaysthatl
ooki
ngat
metouchi
ngmyf acewit
hbothhishandsand
ki
ssesmyforehead.

Him: "shewast hemostbeaut ifulgirlIhaveever

seen.SoIcour t
edher ,shegavemear unaround
forsomet i
meandt henshef i
nal l
yagr eedandwe
starteddat ingasyounowcal litthendur i
ngschool
holi
dayst hatsameyearIsentmyf amilytosenda
l
ettert oherf amilyi
nNewcast leandIpayedl obol
a
forher .Ididntwantanyguyt ost ealherf rom me
andsoImademymovequi ckly.Theyaccept edbut
saidshewi l
lfi
nishherst udi
esf ir
stbef orewe
concl udet henegotiati
onsandsoIwai tedandIwas
patient,wel lhalfofthetime"hesmi lesandyou
canseet hel ovehehadf orherandst il
lhasandit
warmsmyhear t.

"Shewasst udyi
ngteachingandshewasver y
passionat
eaboutit
.shewasaver ypassi
onate
personandit'
swhatIlovedmostabouther.She
washadt hi
sf ri
endt hatIdi dn'
tli
kebutyourmot her
wasaki ndpersonshedi dn'twanttoseethebadi n
people.Iwaswor ki
ngbackatourf ar
m andwoul d
tr
aveltoandf r
om Dur bantoseeherever yweekend
aft
erIgr aduated.Sheevent ual
lygraduat
edandas
soonasshedi dwef inishedpayingtheamalobolo
andwehadat radit
ionalweddi ngandaf t
erthata
whitetradit
ionalweddi ngtoobecauseshewant edit
andtomei tdidn'tmat terbecausewewer ealready
married."

Him:"Wegotourownplaceandshefoundaj obin
Ladysmi
thandwor kedt
hereasateacherandthen
wehadSicel
oafterayeari
nourmar r
iage.
..
"

Sicel
o:"wowdadyoudi
dn'
twast
eanyt
ime"hesays
chuckli
ng

Ngcobo:
"Scel
oman"
Ngcobo:"yourmot herwasst il
lfr
iendswi t
hthis
womanf rom j
obur gThulisi
leandshewi l
lalways
showupatourhouseunannouncedandIdi dmi nd
butshewasyourmot her
sbestf ri
endandIt oldher
thatIdi
dntli
kethiswomanandshesai dI'dontli
ke
anyonesoIletitgobecauseshebel i
evedeveryone
hadsomegoodi nthem thenonedayshecamet o
visi
twit
hherhusbandl at
eani ghtandwhat
shockedmewas, sheneveri nvi
tedyourmot hert o
herweddingandshemadanexcuseandsai di
t
wasaspar eofthemomentt hi
ngandyourmot her
washurtbutunder stoodandidi dn'tbel
ieveher."

"theyst ayedforabout3dayst henl ef

tandwoul d
notvisitforabout4mont hsandt henshowup
againandweneverwentt ovisi
tthem andidi dn'
t
wantt obecauseIdi dnttr
ustthatmanar oundmy
family.After5yearsli
vinginladysmi t
hthe
businesswasgr owi
ngf astonourf armsandt henI
decidedt ogot oDurbanandmanageever yt
hing
from theresinceIwast heolderbrotherandthen
webui ltouroffi
cesindurbanandImovedmy
famil
yther
ethenwhenSicel
owas12yearsoldwe
dici
dedtohaveanot
herbabyyouandthenyou
werebornwhenhewas13yearsold".

Ngcobo: "thuliandherhusbandSi phoshowedup

againatourdoor stepwhenyouwer e2year sandI
wasmadatyourmot herthatshetoldherwher ewe
li
vebutshesai dshedi dntandIj ustknew
somet hi
ngwaswr ongbecauset hatdayt hey
showedupshewasj i
tt
erylikesomet hi
ngwas
wr ongwi t
hher .Youwer efussythatdayf rom when
youwokeup.Iaskedyourmot herwhatwasr eall
y
goingonwi ththuliandshesai dtheywer ei ntrouble
andneededsomehel pwi t
hmoneyandt hat'swhen
ifoundoutt hatwhenevershecamet ovisitshe
woul dborrowmoneyf rom yourmot herandnotpay
itbackandt hetotalamountwasal mostR50000
andIwasl ividwithhersoIwentandaskedt hen
howmuchdot heywantandt heysai dtheyneeded
R20000andIgavet hem R50000andt oldthem i n
themor ningIwantt hem goneandoutofourl ives
forever".
"Wehaddi nnerandsl eptt henl ateatni ghtIhear d
yourmot herandt hulishout ingandf ight i
ngint he
houseandwhenIgott heret hulihadakni feand
hadj ustst abbedyourmot heronherst omachand
whenIt ri
edt orusht oheragunshotwer efir
edand
hitmeonmyar m andl egandif el
l.Iscr eamedand
tri
edt ogoyourmot herbutherhusbandshotme
againonmyot herlegandt hul icont i
nuedt ostab
yourmot hermanyt imest odeat handshedi ed
i
mmedi at
el y.whent heysawt hatIcan' tmove, t
hey
askedwher edoIkeept hemoneyIt oldt hem Ihad
givent hem al lthemoneyIhadi nthehousebutt hey
didn'tbelivemesot heywentt osicel o'
sr oom and
camebackwi thhim, withagunpoi ntedonhi shead
andhecr iedwhenhesawyourmot herdeadand
mebl eedingt odeat handIwassoscar edf orbot h
ofyou.It ol dthem Ihadasaf eandwher etofindit,
thulihadagunonsi celo'sheadandyouwer ei n
yourr oom cr yinghisterically"
Ngcobo:
"si
phophonedanot
herman,tol
dhimto
cometothehouseandwhenthatmanshowedup
hewascar ryingt wo20l i
trebottlesofsomet hing
andi tsmel ledlikepet rol.Ihaveneverbeent er ri
fied
i
nmyl ikehowIwast hatday.Isawmywi f
ebei ng
stabbedt odeat hbyawomanshet houghtwasher
bestf r
iedandnowt heywer egoingt oburnusal lin
thehouse, myki dswe' regoingt ogetbur nedandI
couldn'thavet hat .Siphol eftthuliandt oldthatman
tostartpour i
ngt hepet rolallovert hehouseand
thatmandi dthatandcamebackwi ththreeot her
20bot tlecont ainer sandpour edther estofi tint he
houseandonust oo.Si phot ookt hul iandt heywent
tothesaf etyboxt ogett herestoft hemoneyandi t
wasj ustmeandsi celoandsoIt oldhi mt ogoand
getyoui nyourr oom andr unawaywi t
hyou,
becauset hepol icewer egoi ngt ot akeal ongt imet o
gether e.Hewassoscar edbutgotupandl ef twi t
h
petrolalloverhi sbodyt ogoandgetyoubutt henI
heardagunshotandIknewt heyhadshothi m and
waspr obabl ydead, thent heycamebackr unni ng
andsai dt heyshotsi celohei sdeadt hent heyl i
tthe
houseonf ir
eandhadt ogetoutbef orethe
neighour ssawt hehousewasonf ir
et henheshot
meagai nt henl ef tusl i
ket hattodi e.
"Thef i
rewasappr oachi
ngfastandItr
iedtogetup
butIcouldn'tandsoIcrawledashardasIcanbut
thenthesmokewast oomuchandt hefir
ewashot
andIjustaskedGodt omakeyouandyourbr other
s
deathquickbecauseIdidn'
twantyoutof eelany
painandt hatwasthelastt
hingIremember ed"
Tearswerefl
owi ngdownhi sfaceandandmi ne.my
motherwasmur deredli
keananimal,sheconti
nued
tostabherevenwhenshesawshewasdead.how
couldshe?,
howcoul dIhaveeversai
dIlovedthat
womanandwant edherlovesobad..
.howcouldI
betr
aymymot herlike?"
Sicel
o:"Iwokeupatahospi t
alandIwasal lalone.I
hadlostmymemor yandIwast akentoli
veatan
orphangeandIgr ewupt hereunti
lIwaskickedout
at18.Theyusedt ocallmePhi l
asandeMsi ziIdon't
knowwhogavemet hatnamebutIusedi t
.Iusedt o
havenightmaresaboutf i
re,avoiceofachi l
dcying
andaman' svoicesayingIshouldt akemysi st
er
andr unaway.Ilookedforjobsandwoul dgetsmal l
one'sunti
lIgotaper manentjobasadr i
verfor
somebi gproducecompany.Ther ewasthisol
d
manIusedt odrivewit
h,hewouldaskme
questi
onsaboutwher ei'mfrom andwher eIgr
ew
upandIwi lltel
lhimthatIcoul
dn'tremember
growingandhewoul dsaythatIlookli
kepeople
from afamilyinLadysmithandhewoul doneday
takemet hereandhedi dwhenIwas25"
Ngcobo: "whenIwokeupIwasatt hehospi talin
l
adysmi t
handhadnoi deahowigotf rom dur banto
l
adysmi t
h.Theyt ol
dmeyouhadal ldi edandidi ed
toothatdaywheni heardyoubot hdi dn'tsurvive.I
couldn'tevenbur yyoubecauset hehousewas
burntbeyond, everythi
ngwasgone.WhenIl ostmy
familyIlosteveyt hing,thenyouruncl esdeci dedt o
gocol l
ectyourspi ri
tsandcl eanset heyar dand
thenmybr othert ookovert hebusi nessand
managedi tbecauseiwasamess.Yourmot her
wouldcomet omei nmydr eamsal wayscr yingand
whenIwoul dgoandconsul ttheywoul dtellmeshe
want sherkidsandcan' tfi
ndt hem.I twashar dand
everydayIt houghtaboutki ll
ingmysel fbecause
ther
ewasnot hingi wasl i
vingf orandIwant edto
hel
phert
oobyl
ooki
ngf
orourki
ds"
.

"ThenonedayIwokeupanddeci dedthati'
m goi ng
tokillmysel f.Ihadmygunl oadedandwentt o
anot herr oom andsatt hereforhour sandjustwhen
ihadt hecour agetopul lt
hetriggerIheardvoi ces
outsideandpeopl escr eaming.Ileftroom andIsaw
thisyoungmanbei ngsur roundedbymyf ami lyand
asIgotcl oserIcoul dnotbelieveIwasl ookingat
Sicelost andi ngther el
ookingshockedashesaw
meappr oachi ng.IthoughtIhadf inall
ygonecr azy
butIwentt ohi m andtouchedhi m.Hewasr ealthen
Ili
ftedhi st het -
shirthewaswear ingandlookedf or
hisbi rt
hmar kandsawi t
.Youhavei ttoojustbel ow
yourl eftbr east".

Sicel
o:"Iknewhewasmyf atherthemomentIsaw
him.Ifelti
tandIthinkyouf el
tittoo.Iowemyl i
fe
tothatmanwhot ookmet omyf amilybecause
withouthim Idon'
tknowwhatcoul dhavehappend
tome.Weboughthi m ahouse, 2car sforhi
m and
hiswi fethengavehi m 5cowsandher it
ir
edandI
stil
lvisithim.Acer emonywasdonef ormeandI
startedget ti
ngmymemor ybackbutt henIwoul d
alwayshearyoucr yi
ngwhenIsl eptandi twould
hauntme.Ist artedinvestigati
ngaboutmom' s
fri
endandherhusbandandf oryear st her ewas
nothingandi twasl i
ketheyneverexi st edbutI
didn'tgiveup.ThenonedayIhadal eadaboutt heir
daught erandIhadherf ol
lowedar oundandt hen
that'
swhenIf oundoutaboutyouandIknewyou
wer emysi sterbecauseyoul ookedl i
keourmom
theni hadyouf oll
owedt oobutIcoul dn' tgetyou
alonebecauset herewassomeonef ollowi ngyou
andonl yt ofindouti twasmbuso' sman, soI
appr oachedhi m andwemadeapl ant ogetyour
D.N.Aandf r
ankgoti tfrom somer est urantyou
wentt owi thyouruhm cousi nIguessandIhadi t
testedagai sn'tmeanddadandi tcameahundr ed
percentcor rectt hatyou'remysi st
erandt hat
's
whenIt olddadaboutyouandwecameandspenta
weeki nst ander tonwat chingyouandyounever
noticedusbutwewer ealsocar efulthatyoudonot
seeus. "
Scelo:"dadwant edtotakeyouawaybutwe
couldn'tbecausethatwouldmaket hemazibuko's
suspiciousbecauseyouwoul dhaveaskedt hem
aboutusandt heywouldfigur
eitoutthatweare
sti
llal
iveandnotdead.Aswewer estilli
n
standertonmydadsawamanhet houghthewi l
l
neverseeagai n,amant hatbr
oughtthepetroland
pouredi tal
loverusandt hewholehouseandbur nt
ourmot her'
sbodyt oashes"

Me:
"whoi
sit
?,whowasi
t?"

Dad:"i
twasthemanpret
endingt
obeyouruncl
e.
Vi
ctor"myfacegoeswhatandandif
eelmyheart
st
op

Me:
"what
?,no!no!no!
.uncl
etel
lmei
tsnott
rue?"

Uncl
e:"
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
."
Me:"t
ellmei
tsnott
rue!
..
..
..
,saysomet
hing!
,why
ar
eyouquiet
?"

Hi
m:"I
'
m sosor
ry.
..
Iwasyoungand.
.."

Me:"Shutup.Youburntmymot her'sbodytoashes,
youli
edtomyf aceeverydaysayi
ngyoul oveme
butyouwerebusynursingyourgultyconsci
ous..
..
howcouldyou?.Il
ovedyouandt ookyouasmy
fat
herbutyouwerealsopartoftheplantokil
lme
andmywhol efamil
y..
.."

Sims:"I'
m sosor
ryl
uh.IneverkneworIwoul
dhave
toldyouwhatwasgoingon.I'
m sosor
ry"shesays
crying

Me:"si
msIneedsomewat
erI
..
..
.Ican'
t.
..
.Ican'
t
br
eath,I
..
"li
ght
sout
.
CHAPTER12.

Mybl adderisfullandIf eelpressed,iremebert

hatI
fai
nted.Ican'tbelievemyuncl e.
..
he'snotevenmy
uncle.Ican'
tbelieveheandt hem bur ntmymother'
s
bodyt oashes.Iwant edt hemanIwasgoi ngto
marryt obejustlikehim becauseit houghthewas
anhonest ,l
ovingmanandl i
keaf athertome.I
openmyeyesandseet hatiam i nour
bedroom...
yeahr ightthere'
snot hingofminehere.

Voi
ce:"Mr
sgumedef
inal
lyyou'
reawake"Whendi
d
hegether
e

Me:
"Doct
orTambo.Howdi
dyougether
e?"

Doctor
:"wel
lyourhusbandsenthi
sment ocome
andgetme"II ookar
oundandseet hatmydad,
brot
her,mbuso,si
msandvictorar
eallher
e.
Me:
"uncl
ewhathappendaf
teryoul
eftusi
nthef
ir
e?
"

Mbuso:
"doccanyougi
veusafewminut
es,
si
mphiwecanyougoandmakehi
m somecoff
ee?"

Sims:
"fol
lowmeyummydoc"shet
akeshi
shand
andtheyl
eave

Victor
:"mybr ot
hert oldmet omakesur ethehouse
i
sbur ntdownwi thal lofyouinsideandtheyleft.I
wentupst airsandtookyouandyourbr otheroutof
thehouset henyourdadandyourmot her'sbody.I
putyoui nmycarandandwr appedyourmot hers
bodyinpl asticandduckt apeandputheri nthe
bootoft hecart hent ooksicelotoobecausehewas
sti
llbr
eat hi
ngandt henIcal l
edthepoliceand
ambul ancef oryourf atherandleft
.Idroppedsicelo
atahospi talanddr oveof f"
Me:
"whatdi
dyoudot
omymot
her
'sbody"

Victor:
"Ihadhear dthulisayshelivedinLadysmith
andheri n-l
awsl i
vedtheresoIdr ovetherethe
whol enightwithyoucr yi
ngandwhenIgott o
l
adysmi thIsawt herewasal ivestockfar
m andsoI
stoppedt hecarandt ookoutmyshovelandduga
graveforyourmot herandbur iedhertherebecause
Ihadhopedsomeonewi l
lfi
ndherandnot i
fyt
he
poli
ceandt henweleft"

Me:
"daddi
dyouf
indmom'
sgr
ave?"

Dad:"aft
erisawvictorhetookusther
e, wef i
rstgot
l
ostbecausehecoul dn'
trememberthenaf ter8
hourswef i
nall
yfounditandshewasbur i
edat
anotherfar
mf r
om af amil
yweknew.Wedugher
graveandgaveherapr opergoodbye,she'
sbur ied
atourfamilypl
otandwe'lltakeyout
here".
Me:"howdi
dIendupst
ayi
ngwi
tht
hem andnot
you?"

Vict
or :
"mygi r
lfr
iendthen,hel
pedmer aiseyouand
youst ayedwi thherfortwoyear sthenonedayI
wentt ovisi
tyouguysandmybr otherfollowedme
becauseaf terwhathappendt oyourfami lyIst ayed
awayf rom them.whenIgoti ntothehouseaf ew
minutesl at
erhegoti nandwhenhesawyou, he
wantedt okillyoubecausehet houghtyouwer e
deadbutIbeggedhi m andtoldhim you'rest i
lla
chil
dandwoul dn'tr
ememberandi twasei t
herIl et
youlivewi t
ht hem sot heycanwat chyouorki llyou
andIcoul dn'tletthathappenandsohet ookyou"

Me:"uncl
eIneedsometi
met opr ocesst
his
becauseIdon'
tknowwhatt
of eel"

Victor:
"Iundest
andl
ungi.Ihopethatonedayyou
willfor
givemeforwhatIdidtoyouandyou'r
e
family"hesays
Mbuso:
"pl
easet
ellt
hedoct
ort
ocome"

Uncl
e:"Iwil
l.Zakeswewi
llt
alk"t
heyshakehands
andheleaves.

Dad:
"howar
eyouf
eel
ing"

Me:"I
t'
sal
ottotakein"thedoctorget
sinsmi
li
ng
andibett
hatsmilehassimsalloveri
t

Mbuso:"Doctorfort hel astti

me, what'
swrongwi th
her?"Igetupbef oret hedoct oranswersandr unto
thebathr
oom andt hrowupnot hingbecauseIhad
noteatenanythi
ng.If eelti
redandI '
m exhausted.I
feelmbusobrushi ngmybackr emainingquiet
.I'm
soscaredoftell
inghi mt hati
'm expecti
nghisbaby
becauseIdon'tknowhowhe' sgoingtoreact.
Ifl
ushthetoi
letandgetupandbrushmyt eethand
mbusoi sst
il
lther
enotsayinganythi
ng.Il
eavethe
bathr
oom andIseethedoctor'
sdisappr
ovinglook
onhisfaceasIsitonthebed

Doctor
:"MrsGumedeItol
dyoutor
estandno
st
ress.whendi
dyoulastdi
dyoueat
?"

Me:
"Iwokeuplat
eandIwascooking,
Iwasgoi
ng
t
ohavesomethi
ngtoeatbutt
hen.
..
"

Dad:
"I'
l
lgoandmakeyousomet
hingt
oeat
.si
cel
o
come"

Me:
"babai
'
llmakei
t"hel
ooksatmeandsmi
les

Dad:
"youcal
ledmedad"
Me: "andforthefi
rsttimei
nmyl i
fei
tfeel
sright
?"i
saysmi li
ng.hecomesandgi vesmehugt hen
kissesbothmycheeksandsi celoki
ssesmy
foreheadandt heyleavemewithmbusoandt he
doct or
.

Mbuso:"I
'm wor
ri
edaboutyou,youkeepfai
nti
ng
l
uh,Iknowyousaidi
t'
sthestressdocbutwhat'
s
r
eal
lygoingon?"

Me:"I
'm pr
egnantmbuso.I
'
m havingyourbaby,
we
aregoi
ngtobeparent
s"hel ooksatmeshocked
thenl
ooksatthedoct
or

Mbuso:
"Ist
hest
ressaf
fect
ingt
hebaby.
..
mybaby?
"

Doct
or:
"Ifshekeepsget
ti
ngstr
essed,noteat
pr
operl
yanddoesn'tr
estshewil
lloset
hebaby"
Mbuso:"whatcanIdotomakesurethatdoesn'
t
happen?"i
sheexcitedt
hatwe'
rehavingthi
sbaby?
.

Doctor:"don'tst
ressher
.Sheneedst
ogainweight
andr est.Di
dyougetandt akethemedi
cineI
prescribedforyou?"

Me:"Iforgott
ogett
hem doct
or"hewr
it
es
somethingdown

Doct
or:
"hereistheprescr
ipt
ionandthegynae'
s
numberandrememberyouhaveopt ionsmrs
gumede.Goodluckandcallmeifyouneedanythi
ng
el
se"

Mbuso:
"thankyoudoc"heshakeshi
shandandt
he
doct
orl
eaves.

Me:
"I'
m sor
ry,
Ineverl
iedwhenIsai
di'
m onbi
rt
h
cont
rol
.Ij
ustdon'
tknowwhathappend,
Imean.
."

Mbuso: "stopluh.It
reatedyoul i
ket r
ashandIused
youf ormyownsel f
ishneedsbecauseI 'mli
ket hat.
Iusewomanandt hendi scar edt hem likenothing.I
knewyouwer einnocentf rom t hebeggi ngyetst i
llI
accusedyoubecauseatf i
r stIenj oyedwat ching
youlooki ngscaredofmeandi tgavemea
ki
ck....
that'
showt wist
eeIam.It r eat
edyoubad
becauseyouwer eslowlyget ti
ngundermyski nand
makingmef eelthi
ngsIhaveneverf eltandI t
scaresmet odeath"

Me:"you'
renott
wist
edmbuso.youj
ustdontknow
howtolove"
Him: "l
oveluh,myparentshavebeentogetherfor
45year sandmar r
iedfor20.I'
veseenhowmy
fathertr
eatedmymot herandhewor shi
pst he
groundshewal kson,helovesherandshel oves
him.Idon'tknowifIcandot hatandbethatperson
to.
..you"
Me:"youareyourownpersonandnotl i
keyourdad
mbuso.Ifyouwon'topenyourhearthowwillyou
knowthatyoucanorcannotbet hatper
son.What
areyouscaredofmbuso?"

Him:"I'
m scaredofyou.I'
m scar edthati'
llgi
veyou
myhear tandthenonedayyou' l
lwakeupand
real
isethatyoudeservesomeonewho' sbett
erthan
me.Someonewho' sneverlied,mani pul
ated,kept
secret
sandhi tyou.You'l
lreali
set hatI'
m not
worthyofyouandi tter
ri
fiesme.I '
m scar edt
hat
you'
llhurtmeandsoIhur tyouf i
rst"

Me:"youdi
dal lthosethi
ngsbecauseyouwantedt
o
pushmeawayandnotgetcl osetoyou,sowhenI
fi
ndoutthetruthitwil
lbeeasi
erformetowalk
awayfrom you?"

Hi
m:"Idi
dn'
twantt
otr
eatyougood,
makeyouf
all
i
nlovewi t
hmewhi l
eI'm keepi
ngsomanyt hings
fom youbutIcoul
dn'tst
ayawayf r
om you.Itriedto
justf
uckyouandnotcar ebutever
yti
meIdi dI
careddeeplyandi
thurtmet oknowthatIhur tyou
byjustfucki
ngyouandl eavi
ngyouandnotgi ving
youmyt ime"am Ifal
li
ngf orhi
m,haveif
allenf or
him?.

Me:"Itdi
dhurtme.
..
.al
ot.Somet
imesIwouldwish
thatyouwoul
djusthol
dmeal lt
hroughthetheni
ght,
l
etmesl eepi
nyourarmsandwakeupnextt oyou
andkissyougoodmorningbuti
tneverhappend".I
sighsadly

Him:"Iwouldcomebackaf t
eryouhavesleptandI
wouldwatchyousleepingever
yday.I
'
llt
ake
pict
uresofyouandlookatthem whenI'
m atwork.
I'
m sorr
yIcouldn'
tbethemanyoudeserve" .

Me:
"andnowwear
egoi
ngt
obehavi
ngababy"
Hi
m:"Iknowandwhat
everyoudeci
deI
'
llsupor
tyou
"

Me:
"whatdoyoumeanmbuso,what
everdeci
sionI
t
akeyou'
l
lsuppor
tme?,
don'
tyouwantthi
sbaby?"

Him:"Aft
ereveryt
hingIputyouthroughI'
l
l
underst
andifyoudon'twanttokeepthebaby.You
werealr
eadypregnantwhenIhityoul uhGodwhat
i
swr ongwithme?"

Me:"Iam keepi
ngthisbabyandwe' r
ehavi
ngi
t.You
werewrongt oputyourhandsonmeandyoubet t
er
notorel
semydadi sgoingtoki
llyou"

Hi
m:"butst
il
lIshoul
dn'
thavedonei
t"

Me:
"youdi
dn'
tknowIwaspr
egnantandt
hat
doesn'
tmeani
twasokayt
ohi
tme"

Hi
m:"Ipr
omi
seI
'
llneverdoi
tagai
n"

Me:
"Soyou'
renotmadt
hatI
'
m pr
egnant
?"

Hi
m:"notmadbutscar
ed."

Me:"I
'
m scar
edt
oo.Sowhatnow?
,whathappens
bet
weenus"

Him:"It
hinkweshoul
dst
opwhatevert
hatwas
happeni
ngandfocusont
hebabyandmepaying
thedamages"

Me:"Ithinksotoo.Howareyougoi
ngt
oexpl
ain
ever
ythingtoyourfamil
y?"
Hi
m:"I
'm si
ckoft
hel
iessoI
'
m goi
ngt
otel
lthem
t
hetr
uth"

Me:"yeahdothat
.Whydi
dyousendt
hamimoney
andgethim hi
sownapar
tment
?"

Him:"Idi
dthatbecausehe'sagoodkidwho'sbright
andlovesyouandIknewt hatyouwouldappreciat
e
i
tandIdidwi t
hsimsandherki dsbecauseyoulove
them.Iwouldhearitever
yti
meyouspokewi ththem
overthephone"

Me:
"thankyou"

Him:"not
hankyouluhf
ormaki
ngmewanttobea
bett
erper
son.I
'
m gonnabet
her
eforyouandt
he
baby"

Me:
"sot
hisi
sgoodbye?"
Him:"noitsnot.Iwantyoutogostayand
reconnectwithyourf
ami l
ybecauseyouneverhad
thatandnowt hatyoudoyoumustbear oundthem
andenjoyit.Behappyandnotcr ybutwhenyoucry
i
tshouldbet earsofj
oy"

Me:
"yeah"hel
aysdownandl
ooksatme

Him:"Iknowi t
'snotmypl acebutpleasel i
stento
me.forgiveyouruncle,hemademi st akesbuttri
ed
thebestheknewhowt ofi
xthem andi twasn'this
i
deai nthefir
stplacebuthisbrot
herandhi swife.
Forgivehim..
usf oryourpeaceofmi ndandbecause
you'r
enott hetypetoholdgrudges".

Me:
"Iknowandi
'
llt
ry"
.

Him:
"don'
tchangef
oranyonel
uhbecauseyouar
e
onei
nami l
li
onandI'
m gl
adIgotachancet
oknow
youeventhoughIblewitupbutI'
m happythatI
haveapartofmet hatwi
llawaysconnectmetoyou.
CanIfeelyourst
omach?"Inod

Me:
"thankyouf
orsayi
ngthatandI'
m happyt
hat
wearegoi
ngtohaveababytoget
her"

Hi
m:"butIf
eelnot
hingi
nyourst
omach"

Me:"i
t'
sjustaf
etusandnotyetababy"Isay
gi
ggli
ng

Him:"Il
ovei
twhenyoul
augh,yourwholeface
t
ransfor
msandyoursmi
lereachesyoureyes"

Me:
"st
opmaki
ngmebl
ush"Ismi
le

Hi
m:"sowhataboutaqui
cki
ebef
oreyouguys
l
eave"

Me:"ohnomister
.Takemetokit
chenandf
eedme,
yourbabyandIarehungr
y"keki
ssesmystomach
thenki
ssesmeandwegetup.

Hi
m:"I'
m gonnami
ssyouandyouknowyou'r
e
al
wayswelcomeher
eatanyti
meMr sgumede"I
l
augh

Me:"I
'
m gonnamissyout
ooMrgumede"webot h
l
aughandhugti
ghtandIl
ookatt
hisbedr
oom one
l
astti
meandweleave.
CHAPTER13.

Aft
erweleftj
obur
gwecamest r
aightt
oLadysmith
andsi
mscamewi t
hust oo.IwasscaredthatI
wasn'
tgoingtobeacceptedbutthewholefamil
y
wasexci
tedbecausemyf atherhadtol
dthem about
meandthatIwasaliveandnotdeadast hey
thought.Theyt ookmet omymot her'
sgraveandit
wasabet tersweetmomentbei ngt her
eandIdidn't
cryasmuchast houghtIwasgoi ngtobecauseI
wast hinki
ngaboutt hebabyandwhenIwast her
e
l
isteningtomydadandbr ot
hertellheraboutmeI
feltasenseofbel ongingandpeace.Isawher
pictur
esandyesIl ookedli
keher,Ihavehereyes
andsmi l
e.

Ihaveanauntandt wouncles, oneoftheunclesis

theonewhot ookovert hebusi nessafterdadand
theotheronel i
vesinJohanessbur ghandli
ngthe
businesst here.Ihave4mal ecousi nsand2f emale
cousinswhohave2ki dseachandmar ri
ed.Ihavea
goodr elati
onshipwi thalloft hem buti'
m most
closetomyauntanot herthanmydadandbr other
andshehasnoki dsandshet r
eatsmel i
keherown
daught er.She'sthelastborni nthefamil
yeven
thoughshe' s40, nevermar riedanddadi sver y
protectiveoverherandIcal lhermanotaunt y.
Therewasawel comi ngceremonyf ormeandt he
wholeNgcobof ami lywast hereincludi
ngt heir
businessassocci atesandi twasbeaut ifulandIt old
mbusoaboutt hecer emonyandhewashappybut
wouldn'tcomebecausehedi dn'
twantt odi sr espect
myf atherandt hewhol efami lywhilehei sst i
llhave
topayt hedamagesf ormeget ti
ngpr egnant .Iwas
scaredt otelldadIwaspr egnantbuthet oldmehe
suspectedt hatIwasandhewashappyandt ol dthe
restofthef ami l
yandIhavel i
ter
allybeent r eat ed
l
ikeababyoft hef ami l
yandI 'mlovingever y
moment .Mybr otherwel l
,hehadmi xedf eelings
aboutitandIdi dn'tblamehi m.

Ital
ktombusoever ydayandhewoul dsendme
R20000ever ymonthf ormyneedsandf orwhat ever
thebabywoul dwantasI 'm pr
egnant.Itoldhimi t
wasn'tnecessarybecausemydadandbr other
makesur eIhaveevr yt
hingIneed.Si
msl eftaf
ter
thewelcomingceremonyandImi ssher ,Itol
d
thamiaweekaf terIhaveleftwhathappendhewas
shockedandbr okedownandIhaven' tgottenhold
ofhim si ncethatdayandsoIdeci dedtogi vehim
somespacet oprocessever ything.Myf ather
i
nvi t
eduncl evi
ctorbuthedi dn'tshowupbecause
hest illf
eelsIhatehi m andwon' tforgi
vehi m butI
feellikeIhavef orgivenhim event houghIhaven' t
saidi ttohim butIknowIwi l
l,Ijustneedt ohave
courage.Yeshedi dhurtmebuthemadesur eIwas
alwayst akencareofandhonest lyifmyf athercan
forgiveandmakepeacewi t
hhi m, Icantoo.

Mybr otherli
vesinDur banandwor kstherebuthe
hasbeencomi nghomeever yweekendsinceIhave
beenher eandwear ebondingeveryt
ime.Todayis
thursdayandi t'
smyf ir
stappoint
menwi ththe
doctorandmbusoi scomi ngwithmet oseethe
doctor.I'
m goingtobeseei ngmybabyf orthefi
rst
ti
meandI '
m excited.I'm al
mostfourmont hs
pregnantandst artingtoshowandIhaven' tseen
mbusosi nceIl ef
t.Iwakeup, makemybedeven
thoughwehaveaunt ieswhohel pinthehousebuti
l
ikedoi ngthi
ngsf ormysel f.Idomymor ning
routi
neandgot ot hekitchenandfindmy
handsomedaddri
nkingt
eaandr
eadi
nga
newspaper
..
."I
sol
ezwe".

Me:
"sawubonababa"(
morni
ngdaddy)Ihughi
m
onhi
sshoul
dersandki
sshi
scheekandhesmil
es.

Baba:"I
'
m nevergoi
ngtogetenoughofhear
ing
thosewords,
mor ni
ngbabydi
dyousleepwell?"

Me:
"Idi
ddad.whatar
ewehavi
ngf
orbr
eakf
ast
?"

Hi
m:"askyouraunt
?,youwokeupear
lyt
oday
wher
eareyougoing?"

Me:"babaIt
oldyouonsundaythati
t'
smyfir
st
doctor
sappoi
ntmentt
oday,don'
tyouremember?"
myauntcomest ot
hekit
chensingi
ng
Her
:"Mor
ningbaby"

Me:mor
ningma.whatar
ewehavi
ng?"

Dad:"I
'
m comingwi
thyou"Il
ookatmahaski
ngf
or
herhel
pwithdad

Mah:
"Zakesyouknowyoucant
'go,
she'
sgoi
ng
wi
thherbabbydaddy"

Me:"babydaddymah?"Isayembarr
asedanddad
hasstoppedreadi
ngt
henewspaperl
ooki
ngatme
uni
mpr essed

Her:
"WellwhatdoIcal
lhim becausehe'
snotyour
boyf
riend"shesaysl
aughi
ng.Sheknowst hewhole
st
orybetweenmeandmbuso
Dad:
"whatexact
lyi
sthi
sboy'
sint
ent
ionswi
thyou?
"

Me:
"Idon'
tknowdad.Wemadeadecisi
ontobr
eak
upandsowecanbothfocusonour
sel
ves"

Hi
m:"Mydaughterwi
llnotr
aiseachil
dal
one.He
mustf
ixhi
mself
,manupandt akecar
eofhi
sfamil
y
"

Mah:"orelsewewillr
aiset
hischil
dandhewil
lnot
seeherorhim "igi
veheraren'
tyousupposet
obe
onmysi delook

Me:
"Ngi
yezwababa"(yesdad)

Mah:
"OhIcan'
twai
ti'
m soexci
ted,
Ihopei
t'
sagi
rl"
Dad:"metoo.Ican'
twaitt
ospoilheranddoal
lthe
thi
ngsInevergotthechancet
odof oryou"hesays
sadly

Me:"I'
m her
enowdadandwehaveasecond
chanceandI'l
lal
waysbeyourl
it
tl
egi
rl"It
akehi
s
hand

Dad:"that'
swhyIam t akingmybabygi rlt
oher
doctor'
sappoi nt
mentandI '
m goingtoseemyf ir
st
grandbabysi nceyourbr otherwon'tsett
ledownand
getmar ri
ed"mahl aughs, Igiveup.Atthatexact
momentbi gbrotherwalkst ot heki
tchenlooki
ng
l
ikehedi dn'tsl
eep.

Him:"morni
ngfamil
y"wegr eetback,heki
ssesme
andmahonourcheeksandher eakesofal
cohol
andbrushesourdad'
sheadanddadsl apshishand
offandwelaugh
Dad:
"don'tt
ouchmewi t
ht hosehandsbecauseI
don'
tknow wheretheywer eandinsideofwhat
yest
erday"mybr otherchokesonhiswat erandI
fl
ushsamet i
me..
..mydadguys.

Mah:
"bhut
i?,
wehaveachi
ldher
e!"

Dad:"She'snotachil
dandshe'spregnantandshe
knowswhati '
mtal
kingabout"butIthoughthewas
happythatIam

Si
cel
o:"Iwasonl
ydr
inki
ngdad,
idi
dn'
t.
..
."

Mah:"Ohpleasespar
eus,
wedon'
twantt
ohear
aboutyoursexl
if
e"

Me:
"mahI
'
m hungr
y"
Her
:"whatwoul
dyoul
iket
ohave?"

Me:
"canyoumakemeyourf
amoussof
tpor
ri
ge,
I
l
ovei
t"

Mah:
"okbaby"

Si
cel
o:"youmeant
hebabyl
ikesi
t"

Me:
"whendi
dyougether
e?"

Hi
m:"l
atel
astni
ght
,di
dn'
twantt
owakeyouup"

Me:"ncooohyoumi
ssedme"isaypi
nchi
nghi
s
cheek

Him:"youwi
sh.IcamebecauseIwantt
oseemy
nepheworni
ece"hesaystouchi
ngmyst omach
Mah:"Wellsinceeveryoneisgoing,Imightaswel l
gotoo"Isittherequi
etbecauseIcan' tbel
ieveI'm
fi
nall
yrecei
vingtheloveIhaveal wayslongedf or
andsomet i
mesi tf
eelslikeI'
l
lwakeupandal lof
thi
swouldbegoneandt akenawayf r
om meagai n.

Mah:
"babyyouokay?"sheasksme

Me:
"I'
m okaymah"

Dad:
"don'tyouwantust
ocomewithyou?"he'
s
hur
t,Ist
andupandgositonhi
slap

Me:"Iwantal
lofyoutheredaddyandI
'
m happyyou
wanttoexper
ienceever
ythi
ngwithme"Ihughim

Si
cel
o:"t
henwhydoyoul
ooksosadbabysi
s?"
Mah:
"she'
sscar
ed"Il
ookathersmi
le

Me:"I
'
m happyandscaredmah.If
eell
ikeIwi
ll
wakeupandf i
ndt
hatitwasal
ladream andj
ust
wi
shfult
hinki
ng"

Dad:
"don'tbescar
edbaby.Noonei sgoingtotake
youawayf r
om useveragainandal
lofthisi
s..
..
us,
i
tsareali
tyweneverthoughtwewouldli
vebuthere
wearetoday"

Me:
"I'
mthankf
ult
ohaveal
lofyoui
nmyl
if
eandI
l
oveyou"

Si
cel
o:"I
t'
sokayt
omi
sst
hamit
ooanduncl
evi
ctor"

Me:
"thamiwon'tt
akemycallsandIhaven'
ttal
ked
t
ounclevi
ctorbutIwi
ll"t
hamiwont't
akemycal l
s
andI
'
m wor
ri
edabouthi
m

Sicel
o:"I
'l
lgetsomenonet
olookf
orhi
m andseei
f
he'ssafe"

Me:
"Thankyou"myphoner
ingsandi
t'
smbuso"
Cont
inuat
ionofChapt
er13.

Me:
"uhmmm excusemeIneedt
otaket
his"Il
eave
t
hem andgot
othesit
ti
ngr
oom

Me:
"Hel
lo?"

Mbuso:
".
..
..
..
..
..
"

Me:
"mbuso?"
Hi
m:"hey,
howar
eyoubabymama?"igi
ggl
e

Me:
"ohr
eal
lynow?
,I'
m okaybabydaddyandyou?"

Him:"Ihavear
ri
vedandcan'
twai
ttoseeyouand
ourbaby"

Me:
"Ican'
twai
ttoseeyout
oo"

Hi
m:"whatt
imemustIpi
ckyouup?"

Me:
"uhmm aboutt
hat
..
."

Hi
m:"what
'swr
ong?"

Me:
"nothi
ngi
swrong.I
t'
sjustt
hatmah,
dadand
mybrot
herar
ecomingal
ong"
Him:"Iknewtheywouldwantt
oandIwoul
dhave
beenshockediftheydi
dn'
twantt
ocome"

Me:
"you'
reokaywi
thi
t?"

Him:"Iam baby,
theymissedoutonyourchi
ldhood
andforthem i
t'
sthei
rwayofmakingupand
cat
chingoneverythi
ng"

Me:
"yeahyou'
rer
ight
.Il
iket
henewyou"ismi
le

Him:"Iwanttobethemanyou' l
lbeproudof.Why
don'tyoujoi
nmef orbreakfastthenwe'
llgo
togethert
othedoctor.They'l
lfi
ndusthere"

Me:
"Idon'
tthi
nkdadi
sgoi
ngt
oal
lowt
hat
?"
Hi
m:"askyourbr
other
,hewon'
tsayno"

Me:
"he'
swor
set
handad"

Him:"hel
ovesyouandcan' tsaynotoyou.I'l
lsend
youthenameoft herest
urant"hehangsup.Mbuso
wantsmybr ot
hertopunchhim again.Igetupand
tur
nandseemybr ot
herstandingt
herewi t
hhis
armscrossed.

Me:
"bhut
'wamiomuhleengimthandayokakhul
u"
(myhandsomebrot
herthatIl
oveverymuch)

Hi
m:"no."hesayssmi
li
ngshaki
nghi
shead

Me:"butihaven'
tsai
danyt
hingandyou'
real
ready
sayi
ngno?"
Hi
m:"whatdoyouwant
?"

Me:
"canwegoandhavebr
eakf
astsomewher
e"

Hi
m:"mahmadeyourf
avour
it
epor
ri
ge,
theoneyou
want
ed"

Me:
"Idon'
twanti
tanymor
e"

Him:"Iknowyouwanttogoseembusoandwe'l
lgo
onl
ybecausether
e'ssomet
hingIneedt
otal
ktohim
about"

Me:
"what
'swr
ong?"

Hi
m:"j
ustbusi
nessst
uff"

Me:
"br
otherpl
easedon'
thi
thi
m agai
n"
Him:"Iwon'
t,
gotellmahanddadwe'regoi
ngout
,
I'
m goingt
ochange"Igototheki
tchenandmah
hasdishedupforme.Isi
tdownandeat.

Mah:
"babydaddyont
hephone?"

Me:
"mahpl
ease"ismi
leandeatmypor
ri
ge

Her
:"Iknewi
twashi
m whenasmi
lel
ityourf
aceup
"

Me:"heaskedmet
ogohavebr
eakf
astwi
thhi
m,
canigo?"

Her
:"whataboutyourappoi
ntment
?"

Me:
"youwi
llcomeandwe'
l
lmeett
her
e"
Si
cel
o:"huhyou'
reeat
ing?"

Me:
"I'
m done"

Mah:
"go,I
'l
ltel
lyourdadIsentyout
othemal
l"I
st
andupandkisshercheekthenwego.

Si
cel
o:"wher
ear
eyoumeet
inghi
m"

Me:
"her
e"Ishowhi
mtheaddr
essandwedr
ive
t
her
esil
ent
ly

Me:
"ar
eyouokaybi
gbr
other
?"

Him:"I'
m okayl
uh.I
t'
sjustt
hattheMazi
buko'
sare
i
nhi di
ng.Theyvani
shedthesamedaywecame
herebutIhaveafri
endofminelooki
ngf
orthem
andhejustsentmeamessageandsai
dtheyar
ein
Capet
own"

Me:
"ar
eweal
lsaf
efr
om t
hem?"

Hi
m:"ver
ysafe.Idon'
twantyouwor
ryi
ngabout
t
hem andst
ressi
ng.Promi
seme"

Me:
"Iwon'
tIpr
omi
se"

Wegettot
herest
urantandheadinsi
deandIdon'
t
seehi
m.Apret
tyyounggirlcomestous.

Her:"goodmor ningmynamei sthenji

we.Mr
Ngcobopl easegot othatdoorandyou'llf
ind
someonewai t
ingforyouandyouMi ssNgcobo
pleasefol
lowme"shesayssmi l
ing
Sicel
o:"you'
recrazyifyouthinkI'
m goingt osend
mysisterinthereal
one.ComeLuh, l
eadtheway
thenj
iwe"het akesmyhandandwef ol
lowherand
shetakesust othebackoft heresturantandit'
sso
beauti
fulbecausethereareflowersandwat er
fount
ainthereandsomepeopl ehavingbr eakf
ast

Me:
"wowt
hispl
acei
sni
ce"

Sicel
o:"I
'
veneverbeenher
ebef
oreandIl
ikei
t"she
showsust ot
hetableandwesi
tdown

Me:"canyougositsomewherebecauseyou'r
e
cr
ampi ngmyst
ylebigbrot
her"isaygiggl
ing

Him:"i
'
llleavewhenIseehim coming"Ir
ollmy
eyesandl aught
henmybr ot
herstopsandlooks
behi
ndmel andIfol
lowhi
seyesandIcan'thelpi
t
butsmile.
Him: "Isawthisbeauti
fulladyenteri
ngthe
restuarantl
ookingbeaut i
fulbutsomethingwas
mi ssingandIknewwhatwasmi ssing.This
resturanti
salsoaf l
ouristshopsoIaskedt hem to
makef l
owersforyoubecauseIknewyouwi l
llove
them"hegi vesthem tomeandki ssesmycheek.
It'
sawhol ebuckeeofl i
lli
esandt henhel ooksatmy
brother

Si
celo:"okf
ine,
I'
llbei
nsi
debutI'm notl
eavi
ng
wit
houtyouandyoubet t
erbehaveGumede"t hen
heleavesus.

Me:
"Thankyoufort
hef
lower
sIl
ovet
hem "Iput
t
hem onthesi
de

Hi
m:"Mynamei
sMbusoGumedeandyouar
e?"

Me:
"Lungi
leNgcobo,
nicet
omeetyouMrGumede"
Hi
m:"mrgumedei
smydad.Cal
lmembuso"

Me:"andyoucancallmeLuh"t henj
iwecomesand
weorderandIorderengli
shbreakf
astwit
houteggs
becauseIcan'
tstandthem andheorder
sthesame.

Him:
"beauti
fulnameanditsui
tsyoubecause
you'
rever
ybeautif
ulandgl
owing"

Me:
"Thankyou,
itmustbet
hepr
egnancy"

Hi
m:"wow,
who'
sthel
uckyguy"

Me:
"babydaddyi
sthel
uckyguy"

Hi
m:"t
hat
'shi
sname?"hel
aughs

Me:
"yeahmyf
ami
lycal
lshi
mthat"ismi
le
Hi
m:"i
shei
nthepi
ctur
eor
?"

Me:"Wedici
dedt
otobr
eakupandwor
kon
our
selves"

Hi
m:"whati
fhemi
ssesyouandwant
sthi
ngst
o
wor
koutbet
weenyout
wo"

Me:"I
fhehaswor kedonhimselfandsortouthi
s
i
ssuesandprovedtomet hathecanbet hemanI
candependon,tr
ustandwor t
hyofmet henwe'l
l
tal
kaboutget
ti
ngbacktogether"

Him:"I
'
m attendingt
her
apyluhandIt
oldmyfamil
y
thewholetruthandmymotheri
snottal
kingt
ome
andIdon'tblameher"t
hefoodcomesandIdigi
n.

Me:
"she'
l
lcomear
oundaf
tershehascal
meddown.
I'
m gl
adyou'
reat
tendi
ngt
her
apybeacuset
hat
's
veryi
mport
ant"

Him:"Ihadtofacesomethi
ngsaboutmel
ikemy
abusivebevi
ourtoyouand.
..
"

Me:"mbusoit'
sokay.If
orgaveyouandyouneedt
o
f
orgiveyour
selft
ooandletsomeissuesgo"
.

Hi
m:"myt
her
api
stsai
dthesamet
hingt
oo"

Me:
"mydadaskedmewhatar eyouri
ntensions
wi
thusbecauseIwon'
tber
aisi
ngababyal one"

Hi
m:"I
'
m her
eandI'
m notgoi
nganywher
e"and
mumbl
essomet
hingIcan'
thear

Me:
"whatwast
hat
?"
Hi
m:"not
hingbaby"

Wechat ,l
aughandtalkaboutmanythi
ngsandI'm
star
ti
ngtoseeasideofmbusoInevert houghtI
wouldeverseeandIlikei
t.I
t'
s12:30pm andour
appoint
mentisat13:00pm.

Me:
"Ihadawonder
full
unch,
thankyou"

Hi
m:"Ienj
oyedyourcompanyandl
uncht
oo"

Me:"l
etsgoit
'sal
mostt
imeandIdon'
twantt
o
upsetdad"

Hi
m:"yeahorhe'
l
lgi
vemet
roubl
enextweek"huh?

Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngonnextweek?"
Him:"Imeantnextt
imebaby.l
etsgo"It
akemy
fl
owerswithme,hepaysthebi
llandwemeetmy
brot
heroutsi
dehiscar
.

Hi
m:"fi
nal
ly,
dadandmahar
eal
readyont
hei
rway
l
etsgo"

Mbuso:"I
'
llmeetyouther
e, Iwantt
ohaveaword
wit
hyourbrot
her"hekissesmycheekandigetin
andopenthebackseatwindowandhearmybrot
her
say

Si
cel
o:"If
oundbuhl
e.She'
satmyhousei
ndur
ban"
CHAPTER14.

Ihavemi xedf
eeli
ngsaboutwhatI'
m heari
ng.I
'
m
angry,I
'
m hurtandIfeelmadather,
Iknowshel i
ed
andframedmeandt hathurtbutwhatifshedi
dn'
t
doallt
hosethi
ngswher ecouldIhavebeenr i
ght
now?.Icoul
dhavebeenl i
vingwiththatunknown
man,Iwouldn'
thavemetmbuso, Iwouldn'
thave
knownmyf amil
yandIwoul dn'thavebeencaring
thi
spreci
ouscargothatIl
ovesomuch.

Iwanttoseeherandconf r
onther
.Iwanthert olook
mei nt
heeyeandt ellmewhyshedi dt hethi
ngsshe
didtome.Woul dshelieandblameitonher
parent
s?,wil
lshesayt heymadeherdoi t.Iwant
hertoseethatIhavetoughnedup, I
'
m nol onger
thatmeekandsweetl ungisheknew,theoneshe
usedtowalkalloveronbecauselivi
ngwi thmbuso
mademehaveat hickskinandtaughtmeal otof
thi
ngs.

Sicelogetsi nt hecarandwedr i
veoutandI '
mjust
thinki
ngi f
,wi llIgiveherabitchslapwhenIseeher
orwi l
lIjustlistent ohertel
li
ngmeal lherlies.
..
.I
despiseliers,whycan' tj
ustpeopletellyouthetr
uth
andhur tyouwi t
hi tandnottel
lyouliesjusttomake
youf
eelbet
ter
..
.Ihat
eit
.

Si
cel
o:"you'
reawf
ull
yqui
et,
what
'swr
ong?"

Me:
"Br
otherwhatdoyour
eal
lyt
hinkofme?"

Hi
m:"Whatki
ndofquest
ioni
sthat
?"

Me:
"justanswerme"

Him:"It
hinkyou'r
eonetoughcooki
e,smartashell
,
haveakindheartandabigone,youdon'
tli
ketosee
peoplef
eel i
ngbadorhurt
.Youareveryf
orgi
ving
andseest hegoodinever
yoneandyoualways
hopeforthebestinever
ysit
uat
ion".

Me:"t
hankyouforsayi
ngthat,butdoyout
hinkI
'
m
weakandIletpeopl
ewalkalloverme?"
Hi
m:"wher
ear
eal
lthesequest
ionscomi
ngf
rom
l
uh?"

Me:
"justt
hinki
ngoutl
oud"

Him:"havingabi ghear tandbei ngaf orgiving

persondoesn' tmakeyouweakLuh.Somet imes
peoplewilluseyourki ndnessf ortheirownsel fi
sh
reasonsbutyoumysi st er,you'
renot hingl ikea
weakper son.Idon' tknowhowyougr ewupbut
from whatyout ol
dusl uhi twashar d.Notr eceivi
ng
anykindofl ovebutemot ionalabuseal waysi shar d,
i
fyouwer eaweakper sonyouwoul dhaver anaway,
thrownyour selftoever ymanandsol dyour self
.You
wouldhavet urnedintodr ugsandbeanal coholic
buthereyouar estrongandbeaut i
ful.Youhave
scarsthatstillneedtobeheal edandwear ehereto
helpyouhealever ystepoft heway.I ft here's
anyoneIknowwhodeser vesallthel oveand
happinessint hewor ldi t
'syoubabysi sandI '
l
l
makesur
easyourbigbrot
hert
hatyou'
real
ways
l
ovedandpr
otect
ed.Youandmyniece"Iwipea
t
earof
fandkisshi
scheek.

Me:"You'
rethebestbigbrotherever
.Il
oveyou"we
stopout
sidethedoctorsoff
iceandhegetsout,
comesandopensmybackseatdoorandIgetout
thenhetakesmeintohisarmsandhehugsme
ti
ghtandIhughim back.Mbusohasar ri
vedand
he'swat
chingusthenmahanddadpul luptoo.

Him:"IknowIdon'ttellyoueverydaybutIwantyou
toknowt hatIl
oveyouver ymuchandIdon' tever
wanttoloseyouagai n"t hat'
ssobeaut i
ful,sothi
s
i
swhypeopl egocrazyovert hei
rsibl
ingsbecause
oftheloveandprotectivenesstheyhavef oreach
other?
,IthoughtIhadt hatwiththamibutt hi
shere
i
st hebestti
ngeverandnotevencl osetowhatI
havewi t
hthami.

Me:
"justsoyouknowI
'
llki
ckanywoman'
sbut
tif
theyeverhur
tyoui
nanyki
ndofway"If
eelhi
m
smili
ng

Hi
m:"youandauntyaret
heonlywomenIl
oveand
i
t'
sgoi
ngtostaythatway"Igi
ggl
e

Me:
"fornow"wel
augh

Dad:
"IfIhadtodi
etomorrowI'
lldi
eaveryhappy
man.Iloveyoumychil
dren.
..
..
verymuch"Ibreak
t
hehugandgohughi mt oo.

Mah: "l
etsgoi nsi
deI'
m surethedoctoriswait
ing
forus"Ilookatmbusoandhe' sjuststandi
ngthere
l
ookingal lbroodyandsil
entandmyni pplesget
hard.It
'slikehecanseemeandknowswhatI 'm
feeli
ngbecausehewi nksatmesmi rksandIsmi l
e.
Mbusohast hi
sthi
ngofmakingmef eelshyli
keI'
m
sti
llateenager.
Weallgoinsideandmbusof ol
lowsbehindwi
thmy
br
otherandIgivemybrotherat hankyousmi
leand
herol
lshiseyesandIl
augh.

Dad:
"I'
m sohappyt
oseet
hatyou'
reexci
ted"

Me:"I
'vegotmywholef
amil
yheret
oshar
ethe
wholeexperi
ence,
whowoul
dn'
tbe"

Recepti
onLady:"Ohmy.
..
.uhm sorr
yGoodaf t
ernoon
andwelcomet oDRPrest
on'soffi
ceandmyname
i
sCandyandhowmayIhel pyou?" shesays
star
ri
ngatthemen

Me:"HiI
'
m LungiNgcoboandwe'
real
lher
eformy
13:
00pm appoi
ntment"

Her:
"al
loft
hem ar
eheref
oryou?"shelooksatmy
dadandIseesomethi
ngi
nhereyes.
..
hellnosi
smy
dadi
snotabl
esser

Me:
"yesal
lofus"shelooksshockedthenhereyes
movetomybrot
herandmbuso...
.Idon'
tli
kethat
.

Her:
"Pleasefoll
owme"shewal ksi
nfr
ontofus
shaki
ngherassandIl ookatmahandweboth
l
augh.Shet akesust
ot heof
fi
ceandwegetin.

Her:
"Pleasegotothatroom overther
eandwear
thi
s,peeinthecupandbr i
ngitwithyouandI'
l
llet
thedoctorknowthatyou'
rehere.CanIgetyou
anythi
ngelse,wat
er,t
eaandcof fee?"shepat
tsher
hair

Me:
"we'
ref
inet
hankyou"

Her
:"ohok,I
'llgol
ett
hedoct
orknowandremember
I
'mjustout
sideshoul
dyouneedanyt
hing"she
l
eaves

Mah: "whonamest heirchi

ldCandybecausethat
soundsl i
keastri
ppername?"meandmahl augh
andt hemenar equietyoh.Igot
otheroom she
directedmetoo,changethencomebackandsi ton
thatchairl
ikebed.

Thedoctorgetsinwi
thahugesmi
leonhi
sfaceand
helookssostyli
shandIsmi
le.

Him:
"Hifam,I
'm Doct
orPrest
onbutyoucancal
l
meDrPresandyoumi ssngcobomommyt obe
howareyoudoing?"Il
ovehim
Me:
"pleasecal
lmel uhandI'
m excit
eddoct
or,
t
hesearemypar ent
s,mybrotherandbabydaddy"
Hesmiles

Him:"ohmy..
.t
heyar
esomanly"mydadl ooks
uncomfor
tabl
eandtheguysj
ustdon'
tcar
eandme
andmahj
ustwant
stol
aughatdad.

Him:"Babydaddycomeandsi tnexttomommy
hereandhol dherhand,mommyl aydownandl
ets
seethi
slit
tlehuman"mbusol ooksatmydadfi
rst
l
ikehe'saskingforpermi
ssi
onandmydadnods
thenhesitsandt akesmyhand.

Doct orPreschecksmyur i
ne,writ
essomet hi
ng
downandt hestartt
otouchmyst omachandpress
downont hesidesnothardjustsoftandasksmeif
IfeelanypainsandIt el
lhi
m not hentakesa
stethoscopeandmovesi taroundmyst omachand
foramomentIgetscar edbecausehei svery
seri
ousandIl ookatmah.

Hi
m:"canyoupl
easel
if
tupt
het
op"Idoashesays

Him:"you'
l
lfeelsomecol
dnessf
rom t
hegel"he
spl
ashesitonmyst omachandi
tscol
dyoh
Me:
"ohi
t'
ssocol
d"

Him:"sorr
ydol l
..
..
.f
am pleasel
ookatthescreen"he
saysandt akesthatsonogram machi
nemouseasI
cal
litandmovesi taroundmyst omachandIsee
whatlookslikeababy'sbodyandIlookatmbuso
andhe'slookingatthescreenandhasalit
tl
esmi l
e
onhisfacet henhelooksatmeandmout hst hank
youandsqueezesmyhand.

Doctor
:"ohther
eyouare.
..whyareyouhidi
ng
yousel
f..
..
ohfam l
ookatt
hatli
tt
lebody.
..
"hepoi
nts
tothescreenwi
thhisot
herhandshowingusthe
headandbody

Me:
"ncooohmybabyi
ssucki
nghert
humb"

Mah:"t
hat'
ssocutebaby"shehast
ear
sonher
eyesandItearupt
oo
Doctor
:"let
sheartheheartbeat"hemovesthe
machineagainsearchi
ngfortheheart
beatand
fi
ndsitandIfeelt
hisover
whel mingl
oveIfeelf
or
herorhim.

Dad:"t
hatsoundri
ghtther
eisl
ife.Ali
fegrowing
i
nsideofyoubaby.Thankyouforshari
ngthis
momentwi t
hus"hepat smbusoonhi sshoul
der.

Doctor
:"whatal
ovel
yfami
ly,
youguysshoul
d
adoptme"hesays

Me:
"thankyoudocandyou'
repar
toft
hef
ami
ly
f
rom t
oday"

Him:"don'
tki
ckmeoutwhenIst ar
tshowingupon
sundayforl
unch.Al
lsevencol
ours"welaugh,
my
doctori
sextr
a
Mah:
"youcanvi
sitanyt
imedoct
or"

Him:"I
'l
lholdyoutot
hat.Nowtel
lmemommyand
babydaddy,doyouwanttoknowt hegendersoI
canstartt
oplanthebabyshower"huh?

Me:
"Idon'
twantt
oknow.Iwanti
ttobeasur
pri
se,
mbusowhatdoyout
hink"

Hi
m:"whateveryouwantbaby.
..
.uhImeanyeah,
I
wantwhatyouwant"

Si
celo:
"Whati
fweallwantt
oknow?
,dad,
mahyou
wanttoknowr
ight
?"

Mah:"NoIdontwantt
oknowbecauseassoonasI
doI'
m goi
ngtostar
tbuyi
ngcl
othesno".she'
sso
happy
Me:
"dad?"

Him:
"IwanttoknowtoobutI'
mt ooexci
tedandI
knowi'
l
ltel
lyouandstar
tthi
nki
ngofnames"
mbusogivesmeadoyouheart hatl
ookandigiggl
e

Me:
"ar
eyouokaywi
thmybr
otherknowi
ng?"

Mbuso:
"whatifthegooddoct
orher
ebl
urt
sitout
onedayoutofexci
tement?"

Doctor:
"I'
m goodatkeepi
ngsecretsandIswearon
mygr andmother
sgraveIwon'
ttellher
,scout
s
honor"

Dad:"sazesazif
akankos'
yam "(whathavewe
got
tenour sel
vesint
o)welaugh
Me:"okyoubr ot
heryoubett
erkeepitf
rom meandI
swearifigetevenanideafr
om youandthedoct
or
whatwear ehavingI'
m goi
ngtokil
lyou"

Si
cel
o:"Iswear
,scout
shonort
oo"weal
llaugh.He
movesthemachineagai
nandhest
opsandsmiles

Mbuso:"sothere'
snot
hingwr
ongwi
tht
hebaby,
ever
ythi
ngisfine?"

Doctor :
"Thebabyi sallfineandheal t
hyand
growing.Ir eadherfil
edrt ambosentmeandIsee
she'sdoi ngbett
ernowandwehavet ocontinuet
o
keepi tthatwayuntilthelitt
leonearri
ves.Eat
healthy,takeyourmedi cineandnost ressandyou
canhavesexmommywi t
hbabydaddybecause
that'
sheal thybutnotanyt hi
ngt ooroughthat
will
..
...
"ohmyGodcant hegr oundopenupand
swallowmei n.
Dad:
"that
'smycuet
ogo.I
'
llbeout
side"dadl
eaves
andmahlaughs.

DrPres:"oopsIforgotdaddyi
shere,sor
ryguys.l
et
mepr inttheseoutandyouallwantcopi
esright
?"I
nod.Hecl eansmyst omachandIgoandchanget o
mydr essandcomeback.

DrPres:
"her
e'stheprescri
ptionmedi cineyouhave
totakeandpleaseanytimeyout hi
nksomet hingis
wrongoryou'renotfeel
ingwel landoryouhaveany
questi
onspleasedon'thesi
tatet ocallme.Giveme
yourphone"Igiveittohim andsaveshi scont act
s.

Me:"Thankyoudocf orthewonderf
ulexperi
ence"
Hegivesust hepr
intoutofthebaby'ssonogram
andwhi sper
ssomet hingtomybrotherohyesthe
baby'
sgenderandt heybot hsmil
eandl ookatme
andIfrown.
Him:"t
hepl easur
eisal
lmine.I
'
llcal
lyousot
he
thr
eeofuscanhaveal unchsomet i
me"Ihughi
m
andwel eave.

Mbuso:
"whatj
usthappendi
nther
e?"

Si
cel
o:"br
oI'
m st
il
lconf
used"

Mah:"wehavejustgott
enoursel
vesanewmember
oft
hefamilyandIlovehim "webothl
aughandI
st
aybehindwithmbuso

Hi
m:"ar
eyouhappy?"

Me:
"I'
m sohappyandIf
eell
ikeI
'
m ont
opoft
he
wor
ld"Isayt
ouchingmyst
omach.

Hi
m:"t
hewor
ldi
syour
sbaby"het
oot
ouchesmy
st
omach

Me:
"ar
eyouhappyt
oo?"

Him:
"Spendt
henightwi
thmetomor
rowandI
'
ll
showyouhowhappyyouandmybabymakeme"

Me:
"Ican'
tsneakoutmbuso"

Hi
m:"Tal
ktoyourauntbaby,
she'
l
lmakeapl
an,
I
mi
ssyouLuh"

Me:
"okay,I
'l
ltr
y"Heki
ssesmycheekandIgot
o
myparent
scarandweleave.
Cont
inuat
ionofChapt
er14.

Todayi
sthedayI'm goi
ngtogetmesomelovi
ng
andhonest
lyIcan'
twaittoshar
emybodyagai
n
withmbusobecauseIcanseet hathei str
yingt
obe
abetterpersonandnott hemanIf irstmetandeven
thoughthingswe'r
enotgr eatatfir
stI'm gl
adwear e
atthi
spointinourlives.Ihaven'
ttalkedtomah
aboutaskingherifshecoul dmakeanexcusef or
met onotbei nt
hehousesodadwon' tbe
suspici
ous.

I'
m stari
ngatmysel finthemi rrort
ryingdif
ferent
dressestowearfort oni
ghtandI '
mj ustnotfeel
ing
them, t
heyal
ljustlookdr abandnotgoodatal l
.I
needt ogoshopping...
YesI '
llaskmaht o
accompanyt oshopandwe' l
lusembuso' smoney
becauseIhaven'ttouchedi tyet.

Ileavemybedroom andheadtohersandIhearher
singingandGodshehasabeaut i
fulandsheloves
tosingandIcouldl
istent
ohereveryday.Iopenher
doorandshe'ssort
ingouthercl
oset.

Me:
"mami?"shet
urnsandgi
vesmeherdashi
ng
smi
leandIsmi
leback

Her
:"mybeaut
if
ulbabi
es,
you'
rehungr
y?"

Me:
"I'
m st
il
lful
lmami
"

Her
:"what
'swr
ongt
hen?"shepat
tst
hebedf
orme
t
ositdown

Me:"not
hing,
Ijustt
houghtt
hatmaybeyou'dl
iket
o
goshoppingwit
hme.Ineednewclothesandwe
canspendmbuso'smoney"

Her:
"Il
ikethesoundofthatandnooffencebut
honest
lyyourwadrobedepressesme"Itakethe
pi
ll
owandt hrowitathersheducksandlaughs

Me:
"Huh,
mycl
othesar
efi
ne"Il
aughshe'
sri
ght
t
hough

Her
:"Luhyouhavetomat
chyourbankaccountand
l
ookli
keit
.youneedaser
iousmake-
over"thi
sis
mychancetoaskher

Me:
"uhmamiIneed,
canIaskyouf
oraf
avour"

Her:
"wellyou'r
epasttheageofushavi
ngyourfi
rst
sextal
k,you'
realreadypr
egnantsowecan'
ttal
k
aboutyoumi ssi
ngyourperi
odsandsooutwithi
t?"

Me:"I.
..
wellmbuso, heaskedmeifIcanspendt
he
ni
ghtwi t
hhi m andIdon'
twantdadtoknoworyou
butIcan'tsneakoutbecauseIdon'
twantto
di
srespectyou"

Her:
"Luhyouknowyou'r
eoldenoughtodoasyou
wantbutI
'm pl
easedt
ohearandseethatyou
r
espectusandyouwantourappr ovaleventhough
wedidn'
trai
seyou.AsmuchasIhat etosayit,
the
mazi
buko'sdidt
hisonethingr
ightwithyouand
t
hatisshowingr
espectalways"

Me:
"itwasunclevi
ctormah,wit
houthim bei
ng
t
hereformealways,Iwoul
dhaver anawayor
maybedidsomethi
ngelseworse.Imisshim"

Her:
"Callhi
m andIdon'
tworr
yyou'
llseebaby
daddyandspendthenightwi
thhi
m, Godknows
oneofusneedstogetlai
d"shesi
ghs

Me:
"mah.
..
"wel
augh

Her
:"what
?,I
'
m st
il
lyoungl
uhl
eavemeal
one"

Me:
"ewwIdon'
twantt
othi
nkaboutyouget
ti
ngl
aid
"
Her
:"l
etsgoshoppi
ngandspendmbuso'
smoney"

Wel eavet hehouseandgot otownandIt hought

we'l
lbegoi ngtot hemal lbutmaht akesmet osome
storeandIr eali
seshe'st akingmet oa
beatique...
wowI '
veneverbeent oone.Wegeti nsi
de
andf indthislovelymi ddleagedwomanandshe
l
ooksbeaut iful
.Shei ntr
oducedher sel
fandmah
tel
lsherIneednewmat er nit
yclothesandshet akes
met ot hefitti
ngr oom andIt ryfitt
ingdifferentt
ypes
ofclot hesandImustt heyar ebeaut i
ful
,youcant el
l
theyar eexpensi veandIf eelli
keami l
li
onr ands.

Aftershoppingmaht akesmet othespaandIget

pamper edandIcomeoutf eel
ingli
keabr andnew
personandIf eelli
kei t
'st
henewme.Wehaveal at
e
l
unchandmahbooksusi ntoahotelto"spendthe
night"andwegetahoneymoonsui twi
tha
bedroom andl i
vingroom, dini
ngroom inthesame
room.Shet olddadt hatwear ehavingagi r
lst
ime
andwantedt ospendsomet i
mealoneanddadat
fi
rstdi
dn'tl
iketheideaandsaidno,wecanhaveit
athomebecauset hehouseisbi
gandwewon' t
evennoti
cet hathe'st
herebutmahsaidno.He
fi
nall
yagreedaf t
erIpromisedhi
mt hatwe'
l
lcal
l
himifanythinggoeswr ong.

Ihavejustf
ini
shedbathi
ngandI 'm soexci
tedf
or
whatiswait
ingforme.Myaunthel psmeget
dressedandshecan'
tstopt el
li
ngmehowbeaut if
ul
Iam.Iphonedmbusoandt oldhim wheret
ofet
ch
meandhesoundedexci ted.

Me:"mahstoporelsemyheadwi
llgetbi
gand
expl
ode"shelaughs

Her
:"If
eell
ikeI
'm get
ti
ngyour
eadyf
oryourf
ir
st
dat
eandI'm aproudmami"

Me:
"Techni
cal
lyyouar
e.Ihavenevergoneoutona
dat
ewit
hmbuso,thiswi
llbeourseconddat
esi
nce
wehadoneyest
erday"

Her:
"Wel
lenj
oyyourdat
eandhavel
otsofsexbut
nott
omuch"welaugh

Me:"mah"t hedoorbel lri

ngs, Ilookatmysel fone
l
asttimeandl ookatmah, shesdr i
nki
ngagl assof
redwineandIcoul duseoner ightnowbecauseI '
m
nervousandexci ted.Shegoesandopenst hedoor
makingsurethef irstthingmbusoseeswhenshe
opensthedoori sme.Hei shol dingtobuckeeof
fl
owers,li
li
esf orandr osesf ormahandasmal lgi
ft
bag,hegetsinandst andshal fwayacr ossfrom me,
l
ooksatmef rom myf eettomyheadandhel ooks
i
mpr essed,hesmi rkst henlooksatmyaunt .

Hi
m:"t
hankyouauntyformaki
ngthisnightpossi
be,
t
heserosesar
eforyouandthi
sbagjusttosay
t
hankyou"myauntactual
yblushes..
.wow
Her:
"thankyoumbuso.LuhI'
l
ltaket
heseforyou"I
nodandshet akesbot
hfl
owersandhergi
ftbagand
goestothebedroom.

Him:
"Wowyoulookabsol
utel
ybeaut
iful
,di
dn'
t
knowyoucancl
eanupthi
swell"hesayscomingt
o
meandkissi
ngbot
hmycheeks.

Me:"thankyouandyesIcleanuppret
tygood.You
di
dn'tdisappoi
ntt
oobecauseyoulookamazing"
he'
swear inganavysui
tandablackshir
tandhe
l
ookshandsome.

Him:"Ican'
twaittori
pthatdressof
fyourbodybut
f
irstIhavet
of eedyouandmybabyl etsgo"Iam
wearingablacksil
kdressthatfi
tsmeperf
ectl
ynot
t
ightbutshowcasesmycur vesandbabybump

Me:
"mah?
,we'
rel
eavi
ng"shepeeksatusf
rom t
he
bedr
oom

Mah:"enj
oyguysanddon'
tmakeanotherbaby.I
l
oveyoubabyandmbusopl easebr
ingbackmy
chi
ldinonepeace"mbusonods

Me:
"wewon'tandIloveyout
oo"wel
eave,
geti
n
t
hecarandi
tdrivesoff
.

Me:
"wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?"

Him:
"somewher
e,whereitwil
lbejustt
het
woofus,
sonoonecanhearyouscream whenImakel
ovet
o
you"

Me:
"we'
renotal
onembuso"

Hi
m:"don'
twor
ryaboutf
rank,
he'
shear
dyou
scream mynamemanyt
imes"hechuckl
esandI
fl
ush.

Me:
"Ar
ewegoi
ngt
ohavedi
nnerf
ir
st?"

Him:"yesbabywe'
real
readyt
her
e.ar
eyout
hat
hungry?"

Me:
"yeahIam "I
'
m not

Hi
m:"I
'
m goi
ngt
ofeedyout
hef
uckyou"

Me:"i
fyoufeedmef
ir
st,
I'
m goi
ngt
ogetf
ulland
wanttosl
eep"

Hi
m:"t
ellmewhatyouwantmet
odot
oyou"

Me:
"mbusoI
'
m nothungr
y.I
'
m hor
ny"het
akesmy
handsi
nhi
sandchuckl
es

Hi
m:"wel
lthenbabyI
'
llgi
veyouwhatyouwant"

Thegat eopensandandthecarstopsoutsi
det
he
garage.Thenmbusogetsout,comesandopensmy
doortakesmyhandandwegoi nthehouseandif
l
ikeI'
m havingadejavumomentonl yt
histi
meit'
s
dif
ferent.

Me:
"thi
sfeel
sli
kedej
avu"

Him:
"fir
sttimewemetandIt ookyoutothathouse
i
nstanderton,yeahIfeel
itt
oo.I'
mr ecr
eati
ngthat
momentf oryouandwantt orepl
aceitwit
h
somethi
ngbet terandmorebeauti
ful"

Me:"Thankyou"heleadsmeupstai
rs,opensthe
doorandwegetinsi
det hebedr
oom andhecloses
i
t.Therearef
lowersandcandlesl
itandi
tsmells
amazing.Thecandleshaveanamazingscentand
theyaremakingmef eelar
ousedIthi
nk.

Mbusokneelsdownandt akesof fmysandalst hen

standsupandlooksatme.Het ouchesmydr ess
l
ikeit'
sapagehecan'twaitt
ot ouch,l
oosenst he
hooksanditdr
opsdownf lawlesslyonmyf eetthen
hetakesmyhandIstepoutofi t.

Him:"Icraveyourt ouchandl i
psonmyski n.I
hungerforyoursweetmel odicvoice,thatlaughter
thatget
smei ntranceli
keI '
m hypnotised.I'm going
totouchyouwi thmymi nd,touchyouandt ouch
youuntilyougivemeal lofyou.Iwantt odot oyou
whatspr i
ngdoeswi t
hthepeachest r
ees"hesays
taki
ngof fmydr essandar edflushcover smyf ace
andshoul der
s.

Hi
shandmovesovermyf aceasi
fhehasneverf
elt
i
fbef
ore,
handsunderbr
eastsandovert
hem.He
takesmetobedandIlaydownfacingupthenhe
caresssmycur
ves,
kissesmythighsupanddown
andIarchmybackandsighbecauseitf
eelsso
good.

Me:
"mbu.
..
..
."

Him:"ssshhhhh. .
..
Youf eelsogood, Iadoreyour
bodyandt hi
samazi ngskint hatIwanttodraw
mapsonandt henexploreeachandever ypl
ace"he
hasn'tkissedmej ustt
ouchedmeandI '
m wet,
Ican
feelmyar ousalonmyt hi
ghs.Heget sup,t
akesoff
hisclothesthenwedgeshi skneebet weenmy
thi
ghsandt hensli
pshisf i
nger sint
omeandImoan,
thenhet akesthem outagai nlif
tsthem tohi
slips
andtast esmet hengroans.

Him:"Ineverunderst
ooddesireunti
lIf
eltyourbody
beneathmine,yourbreast
stasteandsmel l
of
honey,thedanceofyournipplesonmyt ongueis
dri
vingmei nsane.YouaretheoneIyearnandlong
for.Thefir
stti
meimadel ovetoyou,Idi
dit
carelessl
y,l
ikeadogf i
ght
ingforaboneandI
taughtyouhowt ofuckquick,
dry,noeyecont
act
andIwantt oerasealloft
hat"OhGod!

Healignsourmout hs,weki ss, ent

winedandI
shudderatthet ouchofmyf l
eshandhi sf l
esh.I
rockattheshockofhi scockbecausei tfeelsbigger
thanthelastt
imeIf el
tit.Istraddlemyl egsaround
hiswaistandinserthispr oudmemberi nmeand
mybr eathcat
ches.If eeltransparent,l
ightheaded.I
feelt
hepassiont hatbur nswi thinmyhear tandal l
overmybodyf orhim.Hebi tesmyl ip,
pul l
smyhai r
betwenhisthrustsandIacr hmybackandscr eam
hisname.

Icantastehi
slovewit
hhiskisses,hi
sbreathli
ke
he'
stakinghi
slastoneandhismoansl i
kehei s
fi
ri
ngagun.Goosepumbsbr eakoutofmyski nas
herunshishandsallt
hewaydownf r
om thebase
ofmyneckt otheendofmyspi neandgripsmy
waistgentl
yandcontinuetorockinme.Moansf i
ll
theroom,mybodyi sonf i
re,
hungerfeel
smy
passionsoItouchhim andtastehi
m andIgetl
ost
i
nt hesensati
onandIclimbsohi ghIexpl
ode
call
inghi
snameasIf allinhisarmsandhefoll
ows
met oo.

Ourbodi esarecover edwi t

hsweat ,
ourD.N.
A,
breathl
essandmybodyr emember i
ngwhat'
sitl
ike
tohavehi minme.Myl i
mbsfeelweekandsoI
softenthem andst retchthem t
henhi sl
egsgoover
andundermi ne.Wel ayi
nbedwi thourarmsaound
eachot herandl ookingateachother.Hepul
lsout
andhi sseedf ol
lowshi mthenlaysfaci
ngupand
pull
smeandl aysmyheadonhi schestand
searchesformyeyes.

Him:
"IknewIlovedyouasyoucr i
edinmyar ms
andIhel
dyou.IknewIl ovedyouwhenIwokeupat
ni
ght,
aft
eryouleftwit
hyourfamilyandIfoundour
bedemptyandIregret
tedthetimesIneverl
ayed
nexttoyouandwat chthemor ningsunr i
sehityour
face.IknewIl ovedyouwhenIf ollowedyout he
nextdayandspentaweekst alkingyou.Your
brotherchasedmeawayandt hr etenedtotellyour
father.WhatI'm sayingbabyi sIl oveyouandIneed
youbacki nmyl ifebecausenot hingmakessense
withoutyouini t
.Idon'twantt osneakupl ikeat hi
ef
i
nt henight,l
ikeI'm ateenager.Iwantt ohave
accesst oyouwheneverandwher everIwant".

Me:
"Il
oveyout
oombuso"

Him:"canIsendmyunclestocomeandt al
ktoyour
famil
y?"Ilookathi
m shocked,
tearupandlookat
him

Me:
"ar
eyouser
iousboo?"

Hi
m:"Iam ser
ious.Al
lyouhavet
odoi
ssayyes"
Me:
"Yes!yes!yes!"Iki
sshi
m al
loverhi
sface.
CHAPTER15.

BUHLE.

OhGodwhati shappeni ng,there'

ssomeone
defi
netl
eyfoll
owingandIhavenoi deawhoitis
becauseIhavecrossedsomanypeopl e.I
'minthe
mallal
oneandIwasher et odosomeshoppi ng,
whenInot i
cedsomeonewasi neverystor
eIwent
i
ntoandIknowi tcan'tbeacoi ncedence.Ihave
beenfoll
owingpeoplear oundandIknowwhatt o
dotonotgetnoti
cedandt hisguyisdoingagr eat
j
ob.

Igotothisbeat
iqueandlookaroundforclothes,
takeafewandgot othechangi
ngr ooms.Itakeoff
thecl
othesIwaswear i
ngandputt hem i
nsidemy
bagandputont henewonesf r
om thestoreand
openthedoorbutsomegi r
lbl
ocksmyway.
Her:
"OhI'
m sor
ryIt
houghtt
her
ewasnoone"she
gi
ggles

Me:
"whatcanIhel
pyouwi
th?"

Her:
"canyoupleasehel
pmeandzi
pthedr
ess,
i'
m
st
ruggl
ingwit
hit"

Me:"oktur
naround"shedoesandIzi
pthedr
ess
anditl
ooksgoodonher.

Her:
"thankyouver
ymuchandIal
mostf
orgot
something"

Me:"what"she'
sannoyi
ngmenow,
shet
urnsand
l
ooksatmeser i
ousandIfr
own
Her:
"t hi
s,youbi t
ch!"shebl owssomethingli
kea
powderonmyf acebl i
ndingmeandIscr eam
chokingfrom thatstuffbutshecoversmymout h
andnosewi t
hsomet hingthatsmel
lssharpand
real
iseshe'sdruggingmeandIl oseconsciousness.

Mybodyf eel
sheavylikeIwashi twi t
hat onsof
bri
cksandIcan'tmovemybody.Igr oanandopen
myeyesandseet hati'
m somewher eIdon'tknow,
I'
m sl
eepingonthi
sver yuncomf ort
ablebed.The
room i
ssmall,t
herearenowi ndowsandi t'
sdark
andthere'
salsoatoi
letinthere.Iknowt hatoneof
themanypeopleIhavescammedf inall
ytrackedme
downandI '
m scar
ed.

Idon'tknowhowt heyf
oundmebecauseIalways
changemyl ooksonoonecanrecognisemeand
fi
ndmebutwhoeverdi dmusthavebeenfoll
owi
ng
mef orsometime.Ithi
nkmbusofi
nall
yfoundme
andIknowt hathenowknowsthetrut
handhe's
goingtokil
lme.
Wher earemypar entswhenIneedt hem?,thet
disappearedonmeandl ef
tmeal onetofendfor
myself.Theyarenowr ichfr
om mybody, benefi
ti
ng
from i
t,I
'mlivi
ngthisli
febecauseIlear
nedf r
om
them.Atf i
rstIwasscaredbutthenmymot her
wouldtakemewi t
hherwhenevershehadaj obto
do.

Theystart
edcoachingmef r
om whenIwas16, I
soldmyvirgi
nit
yfortenthousandandeversince
thenIwashooked.Ididn'tknowmenpai dt
hat
muchf orsexandfordif
ferentt
hingsyouwouldlet
them dotoyouandIhavedonescar yandcrazy
stuff
.

Ifeelcol
dwaterbei
ngt
hrownatmeandIscr
eam
gaspinginshock

Me:
"whatt
hef
ucki
sthi
s?"
Voi
ce:
"thi
sisn'
tahot
el,
waket hef
uckup.Youbusy
daydr
eaming"saysavoiceIdon'
tknow

Me:
"whothef
uckar
eyouandwhatdoyouwant
f
rom me?"

Hi
m:"Bi
tchwhot
oldyout
otal
k?,
getup"

Me:
"Noonet
ell
smewhatt
odoasshol
e"

Hi
m:"getupandt
akeof
fyourdamncl
othes"

Me:"makemeasshole"t
hismot
herf
uckerl
aughs
andhedoesn'
tscar
eme

Hi
m:"don'
tmakemedoi
t"
Me:"orwhatyou'
l
lbeatmeup?
,gi
vei
tyourbest
asshol
e"

Hi
m: "cal
lmeasshol
eonemor
eti
meandyou'
l
l
r
egretit"

Me:"IcanseeI'
m getti
ngunderyourski
nasshole"I
l
aughandsuddenl yIfeelapunchonmyf aceandit
hurt
sbutit
'snotthatbadandIlaughathim.Idon't
knowwhot hi
smot herfuckeri
sbuthedoesn'tscar
e
menotevenonebi t"

Me:
"youpunchl
ikeabi
tch,
evenIpunchhar
der
t
hanyou"

Hi
m:"getupandt
akeof
fyourcl
othes"

Me:"comeandtakethem of
fasshol
e,youknowyou
wantto"Igetupandsitonthebed,
somehowt hat
punchdi
dsomet
hingt
omybody.

Hi
m:"I
'
m givi
ngyouonel
astchance.getupand
t
akeof
fyourclot
hes"

Me:
"readmyl
ipsasshol
e,FUCKYOU"

Hegr absmybr ai
dspul l
sitti
ghtandIcanf eelsome
comi ngoffwithmyhai randIscr eam.Hedr agsme
offthebedandIf al
ldownont hefloordamnthose
ti
lesarecold.Iscratchhishandwi thmynai l
st r
ying
tostophi m buthegrabst i
ghterandmor ebraids
comeof fwit
hmyhai rbutIdon'tcry,Iwon'
tgive
himt hatsati
sfact
ion.

Hel et
sgoandwal kstosomewhereinther oom,
takessomet hingthencomesbackandt hrowsthe
waterallovermybodyt henwhipsmewi t
hacane
hard,l
ikehei susingal
lofhi
sstrengt
honmeandI
scream andcr y.
Itrytocrawlawayf rom him butIf
eelhisrightshoe
onmybackst eppinghar d,
pushingmedownont he
floorcomntinuestowhi pmyass, mythighs, my
l
egst henmywhol ebackandmycl ot
hest earup.
Thecanenowi skissingmyski nandscream l oud
GodIf eell
ikeI'
m goingtopassout .He'snot
talki
ngbutcont i
nuest owhipmeandf inding
somewher enewwher ethecanehasn'ttouchedme.

Hestopsthent
urnsmear ound, Iki
ckhi m onhis
faceandhepunchesme, Ifeelmyj awsnappi ng.He
whipsmywholefrontandIt ryt
ocur lupli
keababy
buthewhipsmyar msmaki ngithard.Theonl y
soundyoucanhearinther oom isthecaneki ssi
ng
myskinandmescr eaming.Thismot herfuckercan
useawhipdamni thurt
slikehell.

Me:
"I'
m sor
ryf
orwhat
everIdi
dtoyoupl
easest
op"
Hi
m:"youwi
llbesor
rybyt
het
imeI
'
m donewi
thyou
"

Me:"I'
vehadenoughplease"thismot herfucker
hasnomer cyandbecausehei ssti
llwhippingme
andmywhol eboyi sf
eelshotandithur t
sandI '
m
bl
eeding.Il
aysti
llandtakeeveryst
rikehel ashes
onmybodyandIkeepsayi ngI'
m sorry.Hef i
nally
stopsandhedoesn'tsoundli
kehe'soutofbr eath
fr
om whathewasdoi ng.

Hewal kssomewherethentheroom getsbr

ightwi
th
l
ight
.Myoneeyei sswoll
enandmyf acefeels
numb.ImovemyheadsoIcanseet heperson
who'
sdoi ngthi
stome.Het urnsandlooksatme
andIgettheshockofmyl if
e.OhmyGODNO!Thi s
i
swor sethanIthought

Him:
"Catgotyourtongue?"Hesayslaughi
ngatme
andIl
ookathimt hebestIcanandseethatheis
bl
oody,hi
ssuiti
scoveredinmybloodandt hecane
he'
shol
dingisal
sodri
ppingofmybl ood.Helooks
madashellandIknowI'
l
lbel uckyi
fIgetoutof
her
eali
ve.Heisheref
orrevenge.

Me:
"w.
..
.whoar
eyou?"

Hi
m:"Whodoyout
hinkIam?"

Me:
"Lungidoesn'
thaveabr
other"

Him: "butshedoesnobuhl e"hesaysmynamei na

funnywayi ti
rr
it
atesme, i
t'
sli
kehe'smaki ngfunof
myname.Mypar entsnamedmenobuhl ebecauseI
am beaut i
fulbutthi
smanher edoesn'tevenget
struckedbymybeaut y.Mam lovemeandt hey
alwayst el
lmeIam beaut f
ulsowhyi sn'the
affected?.

Me:
"Myf
athersai
dthewhol
efami
lyi
sdead.You
ar
edead!"

Hi
m:"wher
ear
eyourpar
ent
s?"

Me:
"Idon'
tknow,
eveni
fIdi
dIwoul
dn'
ttel
lyou"

Hi
m:"Icanmakeyou"

Me:
"gi
vei
tyourbestshotasshol
e"

Hi
m:"youneverl
ear
ndoyou?"

Me:
"I'
vehadwor
se"hesmi
rks

Him:"Cel
este?"hecal
lsoutsomewomen'
sname
andawomanent ersandit
'st
hesamebi
tchthat
druggedme.shewinksatme
Her
:"t
hebi
tchi
sawake"shel
aughs

Him:"cut
toffal
lherhairt
hent
akehert osl
eepin
thetor
tur
eroom.Iwanthertosleepnexttothe
thi
ngsthatwil
lbeusedonherbodyandIwanther
wideawake.She'
saj unki
eandtomorrowshe'l
ldo
anythi
ngtogetafix"

Celeste:
"yesboss"shelooksatmebitesherli
ps,
fuckshe'salesbi
an.Icanseduceherandmaybe
fuckhersoshecangetmeoutoft hisplace.
..
yes
that'
swhatI'l
ldo.

Thismanhast hesamef eatureslungihasand

there'
snodoubtt hathe'
sherbr otherandhe'sal
ive
andcoul dt
hatalsomeant hattheirfatheri
sali
ve.I
s
thatwhymom anddaddi sappearedbecauset hey
knowt hatNgcobo'sarealive.Am It heonlywho
goingtopayandmaybepayf ortheirsins.
..
noi
t
can'
tbe,
Iwon'
ttaket
hef
all
.

Heleavesust henanot hermanent ersholding

sci
ssors,gi
vest hem tocel este,pressesmybody
downthencel estecut soffmybr aidswithmyhai r.I
don'
tcareIwi l
lgrowi tbackandsheal sot akesoff
mytornclothesof fme.Event houghmybodyi sr ed
wit
hbloodandhasl ashesal loverbutIknowIst il
l
l
ookgood, evencel esteislookingbatmewi thlust
i
nhereyes.

Celest
e:"I
'
m goingt
ocalladoctortomorrowwho's
goi
ngt ocomeandtakeoffal
lthatplast
icyouhave
onyourbody..
.damnyougonnal ookli
keamess.
Takehertothedungen"shelaughsandIhateher.

Thisguygr absmethenput
smeoverhisshoul der
thenleavest her
oom wi
thcel
est
eleadi
ngtheway.
Theywal kforsometi
mepassi
ngmanydoor sthen
sheopenssomedoorwi thakeyandwegeti tand
theyguyt hrowsmedownroughandIgroaninpain.
Cel
este:
"I'
m scar
edf
orwhat
'sgoi
ungt
ohappent
o
youtomorrow"

Me:"whati
fIhavesomet
hingyouwant
,thatcoul
d
getmeoutofhere?"

Cel
est
e:"somet
hingl
ikewhat
?"

Me:
"me.Bot
hofyoucanfuckmeanywayyouwant
t
henwhenyou'r
edoneyouletmego"shel
ooksat
t
heguyandtheybot
hsmile

Cel
est
e:"j
ustl
iket
hat
?,anyt
hingwewant
?"

Me:"yes.Youcanf
uckmeanywher
eanddo
anythi
nginandonmybody"
Celeste:"Iwouldf uckever ychickIhatethantofuck
thatrott
encuntofyour s.Iwouldrathergetstr
aight
thantof uckyoust upidbitch.Thebossdidsayyou
weregoi ngt oofferyourbodybecauset hat'
sthe
onlythingyou'regoodat .Dumbbi tch"shesays
thatthent heyleavel ockingthedoorbehindthem.

Ilookaroundt hatdungenandi t
'sfullofdif
ferent
tools,
someIhaveseenandsomeIhavenever .
Theyscar emet odeat
handf orthef i
rstti
mei nmy
l
ifeIam scaredbecauseIneversawt hiscomi ng.
ThatLungi'sfami l
ywoil
lfi
ndmebecauseIknew
mbusowi l
lgiveuponf i
ndingmeonceheget shi s
fullwi
thlungi.Iwonderwherelungii sandhowf ar
theyarewi t
hmbusobecauset hel astti
meIt alked
tomypar entst heysai
dsheisst i
llli
vingwith
mbuso.

Ithoughtthi
ngswil
lworkoutwit
hmbusobutIsaw
thathedidn'
tlovemeanditmadememad.We
couldhavebeenagreatcoupl
ebecauseIknowt
he
thi
ngshelikesinbed.He'safreakandmostofthe
ti
mewoul dfuckmewi t
hhisfri
ends.Heusedto
sharemeandIdi dn'tmindbecauseitwasmykind
ofthi
ngtoo.Hef uckedmeonl y3ti
meswheni twas
j
ustthet
woofusandIwoul dwantmor eoft
hat
mostofthet i
mebuthewoul dn't
.

Idon'tt
hinkLungicansat i
sfyhimthewayhewant s
andneedsbecauseshe' sbor i
ng.She'
sthetypethat
willwantamant otakeleadint hebedandnotlead.
Mbusowant sawomanl ikeme, whoknowshowt o
pleasur
eamanorwomen. ..
.Irememberthetimes
hewoul dhavemeandanot herwomanatt hesame
ti
mebutImostl ovedwhenhewasshar i
ngmewi t
h
someoneel seImisshisdick.

Tomorr
owI '
m goingtotelll
ungi'
sbrot
herthati
twas
al
lmbuso'sideabecausehewant edtofuckthe
bot
hofusandbei narelati
onshi
pwi t
hsist
ers.He
wil
lbel
ievemeIknow.
Cont
inuat
ionOfChapt
er15.
Mybodyhur t
sl i
kehel l
,i
thur t
severywhere.Idi
dn't
haveagoodni ghtbecauseIwassl eepingont he
fl
oor,theyfai
ledt oevengivemeasl eepi
ngsponge
tosleeponbecauset heywantt otr
eatmel ikean
animal.TheyforgetI '
m sti
llhumanlikeal
lofthem
andt heyshouldt r
eatmeassuchbecauseIdi d
l
ungiaf avorbyl yi
ngbecauseshecoul dhavebeen
soldtosomemonst erli
kemydadhadpl anned.

I'
m shaking,Ineedaf ix,I
'mthirst
yIwant
somet hi
ngt odr i
nk,I
'm hungrytooandIneedt ouse
thetoil
ettoo.Igetupandgobangont hedoor .I
keepbangi ngthedoorunt ilmyhandhur ts.Ineeda
bath,Ineedt olookgoodl i
kehowIusaul l
ydo.I f
onlythisasshol ewil
lcomeandI '
l
lofferhim my
pussybecausemenar eweak.Assoonast heysee
agoodl ookingbodyandyouopenyourl egst hat'
s
theonlythingt hey'
l
lthinkofandsee.Menl etthei
r
dickscontrolthem soI'm goingtodoever ythi
ngin
mypowert ogetoutofher .Mypussyhaswor ked
andmademesomuchmoney, i
thasn'tf
ailedme
andi
t'
snotgoi
ngt
ost
artnow.

Me:"openthi
sdamndoornow!
,Ineedtousethe
t
oil
etandhungry!"
.Ist
opandl
ist
enifsomeoneis
t
hereorevencoming

Me:
"Hel
p!.
..
..
..
somebodyhel
pme!"Il
ist
ennot
hing

Me:"someonewantst
okil
lme,hel
pmepl
ease"I
bangthedootagai
nbutnoanswer

Me:"whereisthatasshol
e?,
opent
hisdamndoor!"I
bangandbangandbangbutnooneanswer s.I
scream f
rust
rated.

Someonei sunl
ocki
ngthedoorandIknowwhoi ti
s,
i
t'
sthatlesbi
anbit
ch.Ibeti
fthatguywasaloneand
Iof
feredhim mypussyhewoul dhavet
akenitandI
wouldhavebeenhomebynowandatmyhouse
andIdon'tevenknowwher eI'
m at.Istandupand
wat chwho'sgoingtoopent hedoorandi t
'st
hat
celestebi
tchbuthe'snotalone.She'swithMbuso,
l
ungi '
sbrotherandother3guyst hathavesome
featuresl
ungi'
sbrotherhas..
..
whoar ethoseguys?.

WowIhaveseenmen. ..handsomemen, good

l
ookingdr opdeadgor geousmenbutt heyallhave
nothingagainstallthesemenher estandingbefore
me.Ther e'
st hi
sdar kaur athingsur r
oundingthem
anditgivesmecol dchillsthatmakesmyski ncrawl.
WasIf ullofmysel fyesterdayt hatIfai
ledtonotice
howt hismanl ooksandt hisdar kthi
nghehaswhen
helooksatme.Ir efuset oletthem inti
midateme,
I'
mt hewomanher eandIhol dallthepower...
yes
mypussy. ..
thepowerofpussy! .I'
m nakedandI
knowt heycanst i
llseet hatI'
m gi f
tedbecauseI
paidsomuchmoneyt ol ookthisgood.

MbusowalkstowardsmeandIcan'
treadhisf
ace.
Hehaschanged,helooksmor
erough,moremanly,
mor ehandsomeGodwhydidIstealfr
om hi
m.I
couldhavebeenwaki
nguponhi sarmseveryday.I
thoughtiwasgoi
ngtoli
etothatasshol
eabout
mbusoandbutnowIseet hatIcan'
t.

Mbuso:
"wemeetagai
nnobuhl
e"hi
shandsar
eon
hi
spocket
s

Me:"ThankGodyou'
reher
e,Iknewyouwoul dcome
andrescuemefr
om thi
smanmbuso"Ir ushtohi
m
sohecanhugmebuther oughlypushesmeandI
fal
ldownouch.

Mbuso:
"don'
tyoudar
efuckent
ouchme!"

Me:
"butmbuso.
..
."

Mbuso:
"Wher
ear
eyourpar
ent
s?"
Me:"Idon'
tknow!
,j
ustl
ikeIt
oldt
hatI
diotovert
her
e!
"Ishoutathi
m

Hi
m:"youknowveywellwheretheyar
e,sot
ellme
wher
ethefuckar
eyourparents!
"

Me:
"fuckyoumbuso.It
oldyouIdon'
tknow!"

Him:
"youknow,lungioncesaidfuckyoumbuso
andIsl
appedher,shefel
landbled.Nowimagine
whatI
'm goi
ngtodot oyou,whatwe'r
eallgoi
ngto
dotoyou"

Me:'
Idon'
thavetoimaginebecauseyouhavedone
i
ttomebefore.Youfuckedmewi t
hothermensoI
know"Ishakemyassandt heyalll
augh

Hi
m:"wor
stmi st
akeofmyl i
febutIgotoutoneof
t
hebestt
hingstoeverhappeninmylifeoutof
meet
ingyouandt
hati
sLungi"

Me:"she'
ssoongoi
ngt
oboreyou,shecan'
tgi
ve
youwhatyouneed,
whatyoucr
ave"Hisface
changes

Him:"ENOUGH! .Don'
tyouevert
alkaboutherlike
that
.She'smor ewomanthanyoucoul deverbe.
She'
snotapr osti
tut
eandnotajunkie.Celest
etake
hertothechair"

Me:
"nowhatchai
r?,
wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngme?"

Celest
etri
estotakemyhandbutIsl apitawayand
shesmi l
esli
keshewasexpect i
ngi tbecauseshe
thr
owsahugepunchonmyf aceandIst aggerback.
Thisbit
chwant safi
ghtandI'
llgi
vei ttoher,Idon'
t
carehowhur tmybodyfeel
s.I'm notgoingdown
wit
houtaf i
ght.
Me:
"youwantt
ofi
ghtmebi
tchcomeont
hen"

Cel
est
e:"ooohI
'
mmasmackt hatf
akegoodl
ooki
ng
ass"t
henmenlaughamused.

Shel aughs, t
hrowsanot herpunchonmyf aceandI
seest arsokIwasn'tready.Sheci rcl
esmel ikeI'
m
herpr eythenkickesmeandIf allandlandonmy
stomacht henshesitsonmybackandhi t
smyass
hardwi thheropenpal m, smackingmewher ethere
arebr ui
sesandi tsti
ngshar d.If
linchandandt ryto
getupbutsomeoneki cksmeonmyf aceandI
blackout.

Ifeelcoldt
hingsbeingplacedaroundmybodyand
Iopenmyeyesandseet hatguyf rom yest
erday
whot ookmet othi
sr oom placi
ngwi resonmybody.
I'
m sit
tingonachair,myf eetar
ei nsi
deast eel
basinthathaswaterinsideandmyhandsar eover
myheadcuf f
edont hesteelchairim sit
ti
ngon.No!,
theyaregoingtoelectr
icuteme.
Me:
"NO!
NO!
NO!
NO!
NO!
..
.pl
easedon'
t"

Mbuso:
"Shutup.Si
cel
otur
nthemachi
neon"

Lungi'sbrothert
urnsthemachi neonandIfeelmy
wholebodygetst ifffr
om theelectri
cshockthat
runsallthroughmyvei nsandbody.Iscr eam
becauset hekindofpainI '
mf eeli
ngcomparesto
nothingIhaveeverf elt
,Iscream andscream and
scream andt heydon'tstop.

Me:
"ok,
okok.st
opIhavehadenough"
.

Mbuso:"whohelpedyougetaccesst
olungi
'
s
account
sandcloneallherdevi
ces?"

Me:"Idon'
tknow, dadgotsomeonetodo
ever
ythi
ng.Ijustagreed"i'
m gaspi
ngforai
rto
br
eat
he

Si
cel
o:"wher
ear
eyourpar
ent
s?"

Me:
"Idon'
tknow,
IswearIdon'
tknow"

Mbuso:
"doyout
hinkt
hisi
saj
oke?"

Me:"If
uckent
oldyouIdon'
tknow,
getmeof
fthi
s
t
hingnow"

Sicel
o:"EYVOETSEKWENASFEBE"(FUCKYOU
BITCH)het ur
nsthemachi neonagainandnowi t
feel
swaywor set
hant hetfi
rstt
urneditonandI
scream sol
oudbecauseI '
mi nsomuchandIend
uppeeingonmyselfreleasi
ngeverydropI'
vebeen
holdi
ng.
Mbuso:
"I'
m goi
ngt
oaskyouonel
astf
uckent
ime.
Wherear
eyourpar
ent
s?"

Me:"I
..
.Idon'
tknow"mbusotakesouthi
sgun,
cocksi
tandthenpoint
sitonmyhead

Hi
m:"I'
m goi
ngtocountt
o3andifyoudon'tt
ell
me
wher
etheyareI
'
m goingtobl
owyourbrai
nsoff"

Si
cel
o:"bi
tchyoubet
tert
alk"

Me:
"Idon'
tknow"

Mbuso:
"KHULUMASFEBE!"(BI
TCHTALK!)

Me:"Idon'
tknow"mbusolooksatmel
ikehe'
s
goi
ngt ol
oseitt
henheshootsmeonmyt hi
ghandI
scr
eam
Me:
"youf
uckenshotme!"

Mbuso:
"andI
'l
lshootyouagai
nifyoudon'
ttel
lme
wher
etheyar
e"

Me:
"Idon'
tknowIswear"

Mbuso:
"it
'st
imeyoumetyourancer
stor
sbi
tch"he
poi
ntsi
tagai
natme

Me:
"nooooooooopl
ease"heshoot
smeagai
non
myshoul
derandIscr
eam

Me:
"GodI
'
m dyi
ng,
I'
m dyi
ng.
..
..
aaahhhh"Icr
y

Mbuso:
"youaregoingtodi
eifyoudontt
ellme
wher
eareyourfuckenpar
ents!"hei
smad, hei
s
l
ivi
d

Si
cel
o:"Juni
orst
op!
,you'
regoi
ngt
oki
llher"

Mbuso:
"andyoudon'twantherdead?
,wer
eyounot
t
hesameper sonwhowasbreathi
ngdownmyneck
want
ingherdead?"

Si
celo:
"Iwantherdeadt
oobutdeat
hr i
ghtnowwi
ll
betooeasyforher
.Sheneedst
osuffer"

Sbusiso:"wecan'tki
llher
,shef
ir
stneedst
ot el
lus
wherethatmor onsiphoandhiswif
eareatthenwe
ki
llherinfr
ontofthem "

Phil
ane:"Celest
elet
suncuf
fherandt
akeherof
f
thatchair"
Mbuso:"nol
eaveherther
e!.Tel
lmefi
rstwherethey
areornooneint
hisroom i
sgoingtosaveyou.No
one!"

Me: "Idon'tknow"hepoi nt
sitonmyf oreheadandI
heart heguysscr eam thenhepullsthetri
ggerandI
hearagunshotandIpeeonmysel fagai
nbecauseI
thi
nkI 'm deadbutt henIopenmyeyesandseeI 'm
sti
llalive..
..
.ohGodI '
m notdead,IswearIsawmy
whol el i
fefl
ashbefor emyeyes.

Mbuso:
"wher
ear
ethey?"whot
hef
ucki
smbuso?

Me: "thelastti
meIt alkedtothem theysai
dtheyare
vi
sitingthamif orafewweeksbecauset heyareon
l
eave.It r
iedcal l
ingthem butthei
rphonesareon
voicemail.Iswear"I '
mi npainandI '
m st
ruggl
ingt
o
breath..
..
I'm dyi
ngandnobodycar es

Mbuso:
"I'
m notgoi
ngt
oki
llyoubecauset
hat
's
easyandyousti
llneedtowor kforme.Remember
thecont
actyousigned?
...
.yesit
'slegi
tandbi
ndi
ng".

Me:
"I'
l
ldoanyt
hingpl
easedon'
tki
llme"

Mlungi
si:
"guyst
hedoct
ori
sher
eshoul
dIt
ellhi
m
t
ocomei n?"

Sicelo:"Cel
estegokeephi m company,wecan'
t
trustthisbi
tch..
.she'
l
ltal
ktosomeoneandmaybe
runaway"

Mbuso:
"don'twor
ryaboutthatIhaveaplant
o
makesureshedoesn'
t.Buhledoyouremembert
hat
t
imeyouwer e18andsomet hi
nghappend?"

What?
,noooooo,hecan'
tknow.Nobodyknows
evenmyparent
sdon'tknow.ImadesureIkepti
tto
mysel
f.
..
..
howdidmbusof i
ndout?"
Me:"pl
easembusoI'
m sorr
yaboutever
ythi
ngI
havedonetoyouandlungi
.I'
m sor
ryl
ungi'
sfami
ly,
I'
m sor
ry"

Mbuso:"I'
m goi
ngtosell
youbitch,l
ikehowyouand
yourparent
splannedt
oselll
ungi.Yourbuyeri
s
alr
eadyhereandwaiti
ngforyou"

Whatno!
,thi
sist
helastt
hingIwantt
ohappent
o
me.
..
Mbusocan'tsel
lme.

Me:
"mbusopl
easeyoucan'
ttr
aff
icmepl
ease!"

Mbuso:"I
'
m doingthesamet hi
ngyouandyour
par
entsdotootherpeople.I
'
m givi
ngat asteofyour
ownmedicine.Mlungi
si,
getthedoctorhere.You
won'
tdiebit
ch,notonmywat ch"
Sicelo:
"Ican'
twaittoseehowyou'
regoi
ngtolook
afteral
lthosei
mpl ant
syouhaveonyourbody
comeout ..
..
"helaughs

Sbusi
so:
"ugl
yassl
ooki
ngbi
tch"

Sicel
o:"al
lthi
ngsgettr
affi
cked,eventheplasti
c
youhavei nsi
deyourbodyistr
affi
cked.You'r
e
goingtoenjoybei
ngusedbecauseyoul ikeusing
people.Youli
keusingyourbodyandsmar tmout h
togetwhatyouwantbutnowi stheendoft her oad
foryou".

Whycan'tIjustdi
e.Whydidn'
tmbusojustki
llme
becausethereisnowayI'
m goi
ngtosurvi
vebeing
sol
dandt reat
edlikeasl
ave.
CHAPTER16.

MBUSO.
Iwantt oki l
lthi sbitchsobadbutIcan' tbecause
shehast opayf orever ythingtheyhaveeverdone
tolungi.Idon' tbeli
evet hatherpar entsarewi t
h
Thami ,af t
erever yt
hingI '
m doingfort hatboyhe
betterbenotmessi ngwi thmebecauseIwon' t
hesitat
et oki llhimi fhe'spr ot
ecti
ngt hem and
maybet hem bei ngtherewi thhim mi ghtexplai
nwhy
he'snotpi ckingupl ungi '
scalls.He'snotpickingup
evenmycal lsconsi deringI '
mt heonewho' spaying
forhisfeessi ncehi spar entsstoppedpayi ngthem
withoutt ell
inghi m orgi vi
nghi m ar easonwhy.

Hecal l
edmecr yi
ng, t
ell
ingmet heyarer efusi
ngto
rel
easehi sresult
sbecausehi spar ent
shavenot
paidforthewhol esemest erandhedi dn'tknowthat
theyhaven' t
.IhelpedbecauseIknewhewasone
personwhol ovedlungiandal wayspr otectedher
andsoIhopehehasnotbet rayedl uhbyhel pi
nghis
parentsbecausel uhtoldhim ever ythi
ngandhe
askedf orsomet i
met ofigur
et hingsoutandIhope
hewasn' tlyi
ngwhenhesai dt hat.Ihopehedi dn'
t
confr
ontthem becauseIthinktheywil
lgetanyone
outofthei
rwaywhot r
iedtocrossthem oreven
confr
ontthem.

Itakemyphoneandcal lhi
m agai nbutt histi
mei t
sayst henumberdoesn' texist
.ThamiIhopeyou' re
notint roubl
eoryouhavej oinedyourpar entsin
scammi ngpeopl ebecauset hatwi llkilll
ungiand
shewi llblameher selff
ornott ryingt opr ot
ecthim
andthengetst ressedandputherl i
feandt he
baby'dl i
feindangerandIcan' thavet hat.Ican't
haveherknowi ngt hatwehavef oundbuhl e
becauseshewi llwantt ocomet ogetanswer sand
whethersheget sthem ornot ,theyar est il
lgoingto
upsetherandIdon' twantthatf orher .I'
l
lprotect
herfrom everyoneandever ythingi fImust .

Iwatchluh'
scousinstakebuhl
et otheotherroom
togetthebull
etst
akenoutandt hosesil
iconesshe
hasonherbody.Iwonderhowi sshegoi ngtouse
herbodysincethedoctori
sgoingtotakeoutal l
thatpl
ast
icandhe'sal
sogoingtoinser
tachi
pin
hersowecanal wayskeepaneyeonherandknow
whereshe'
llal
waysbe.forsomeonewhonusedher
l
ookstogetwhatshewant s,t
hisi
sgoingt
obea
hugeblowtoherbeautyandthatdamnego.

Me:"GodIhat
ethatbi
tch,
Iwi
shIcanj
ustki
llher
andgetthi
soveranddonewi
th"

Si
cel
o:"Iwantt
oki
l
lal
loft
hem "

Me:
"Ineedadr
ink"

Si
cel
o:"met
oo,
weal
ldo"

Me:"butIneedt
owashof
fthi
sbl
oodf
ir
st,
canIuse
yourbathr
oom "
Sicelo:
"yeah,l
etmeshowyout ot heguestbedr oom
"heshowsmewher et
hebedroom i sthenleaves.I
takemyphoneandcal lfr
anktobr ingmemyext ra
clothesthatar
ei nthecar
.Igotot heshowerand
showerqui ckl
yandchanget omycl othesthatfr
ank
l
ef ti
nthebed.Igot otheli
vingroom andf i
ndthe
brothersdri
nking.Imakemyselfagl asstoo.

Me:
"wher
e'scel
est
e?"

Si
cel
o:"she'
swi
tht
hedoct
or"

Me:
"foundt
hami
yet
?"

Si
cel
o:"ml
uhwher
eist
hami?"

Mlungi
si:
"Heseemst ohavejustdi
sappear
dtoo.
Hi
sphonei snotworki
ngandhehasn'tbeen
at
tendi
ngclassesf
or2mont hsnow"
Me:"It
hinkt
heyt
ookt
hamibyf
orce,
hecan'
tjust
di
sappear"

Si
cel
o:"It
hinksot
oo"

Sbusiso:
"butwhywoul
dtheydot
hatbecausehe'
s
thei
rchil
d?"

Me:
"theymi
ghtusehi
mforsomet
hing"

Phi
lane:
"li
kewhat
?"

Me:
"tohur
tlungibecauset
heyknowshel
oveshi
m
"

Si
celo:
"Ijustwantthewomanwhost abbedmy
motherrepeat
edly,
Iwantherhusbandtowatchme
whil
eIpeelherski
nwhi
leshe'
sali
veandhearher
scr
eam,li
kehowmydadwat chedhiswi
febei
ng
ki
ll
edinf
rontofhim"

Sbusiso:"t
heycan'tdi
e,It
hinkweshoul
dmakehis
wif
eourwor ker
.Shesell
sherbodyandmakeus
money, wefeedherwithdrugsandmakehera
j
unkie".

Me:"we'
lldothat"myphoner
ingsandIlookati
t
andsmilebecausei
t'
smybeauti
fulpr
egnant
fi
ancee.

Me:"baby"shegi
ggl
es,
Ilovet
hesoundofher
l
aughter

Her
:"Phakat
hwayo"Igr
in

Me:
"Myl
ove"shel
aughs
Her
:"boo,
howar
eyou?"yepI
'
m herboo

Me:
"Imi
ssyoubaby,
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?"

Her:
"I'
minbed,
sti
llsl
eepy"Il
ookatt
het
imeand
I
't
s11:30am

Me:
"ar
eyouf
eel
ingokay?"t
heguysl
ookatme

Her
:"No,
I'
m notf
eel
inggood"

Me:"what
'swrong?,
isthebabyokay?"Ist
andup
andscel
ostandsnextmeput shi
sbigheadnextto
hephoneandlist
ensandIgivcehi
m whatthefuck
l
ook

Her
:"t
hebabyi
sokaymbusookay,
I'
mtheone
who'
snotf
eel
inggood!"huh.
..
I'
m conf
usedand
whyi
ssheyel
ling?

Me:
"okbabyt
hent
ellmewhat
'swr
ong"

Her
:"I
'
M HORNYOK!"

Si
cel
o:"ohf
uckno,
Idi
dnotwantt
oheart
his"

Me:"servesyour
ightf
orli
steni
ngt
omy
conversati
on"Il
aughathi
m

Luh:"ohmyGodmbusoyouhavemeonl oud
speakerandmybr
otherhear
d!"shescr
eams

Me:
"babyIdi
dn'
tputyouonl
oudspeaker
..
..
."

Her
:"That
'smybr
other
'svoi
ceIknowi
t,wai
tyou'
re
i
nDurbanwithmybrot
her?"Imout
hfuckyouto
herbr
othert
henl
eaveandgotot
heguestbedr
oom

Me:
"uhyes,
butbaby.
..
."shewon'
tletmef
ini
sh

Her
:"you'
ret
her
etoseeherar
en'
tyou?"

Me:
"seewho?"howdi
dsheknow

Her:
"youknowver
ywellwho,
Buhl
e!.Mybrother
t
oldyoushe'
sathi
shouseandyoubothkeptit
f
rom me"

Me:"babydon'tsayitl
iket
hat
,yesI'
m her
eandwe
kepti
tfrom youbecausewedidn'
twantyout
o
str
essthinki
ngabouther"

Her
:"whenwer
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lmet
hen,
aft
er
she'sdead?
.Areyougoi
ngtokil
lhert
oo"Fuck!I
knewIshouldn'
thavet
oldhert
hatIki
ll
edsomeone
forher.

Me:"Idon'
tli
kewhatyou'
ret
ryingtoi
mplyandI'm
notgoingt
ohavethi
sconversati
onwithyouover
thephone"

Her
:"but
..
..
"

Me:
"ar
eyoust
il
lhor
nyornot
?"

Her
:"don'
tchanget
heconver
sat
ion"

Me:"t
hereasonyoucal
ledmewast
otel
lmet
hat
you'
rehor
nyright
?"

Her
:"yesIwas"
Me:
"andnowyou'
renot"

Her
:"wel
l.
..
Ist
il
lam "

Me:"Icouldbefucki
ngt
hataccusati
onrightoutof
you,onyourhandsandknees.Golockyourdoor
andturnthet.
vvolumeon"Ilockminetoo

Her
:"I
'
vedonei
t"shesi
ghs

Me:
"whatar
eyouwear
ing?"

Her
:"I
'
m wear
ingnot
hing"Icanhearhersmi
li
ng

Me:"Layonyourback,br
ingyourkneesupand
openyourl
egs"herbreathi
ngischanging
Her
:"ok,
"

Me:"putthephoneonl
oudspeakerandputi
tnext
toyourheadsoIcanhearyoubreat
he"she
shuff
lesaround

Her
:"you'
reonl
oudspeaker"

Me:"okbaby,
Iwantyout
oli
stent
omeanddoasI
sayok"

Her
:"ok.
..
.ok"shet
akesadeepbr
eat
hinandout

Me:"Closeyoureyes,imagineI'
m nexttoyouand
l
ookingatyourbeaut i
fulbody.Takeyourhandsand
putthem onthoselovelysoftboobsandpl aywi t
h
them,pinchthosenippleswithyourindexfinger
andthumb. .
..
yesbabyj ustl
ikethat
,takeyourr i
ght
thumbandputi tinyourmout handsuckoni t.
..
..
yes
baby,nowt akeitoutandf l
ickyournippleli
keyour
switchi
ngt heli
ghtonandof f
..
.oohhhyes, now
squeezet hosenippl
esal i
tt
lehar dbutnottoo
much. .
..
youl i
kethatbaby?"f uckhersweetmoans
aremaki ngmydi ckhard,Igot othebathroom and
takeoffpantsandmydi ckspringsfreeleaki
ngof
precum fuck.

Her
:"yeeesIl
ikei
t"

Me:"t akeyourr i
ghthandandputi ti
nbet weenyour
pussyl ipsandopent hem withyourmi ddlefinger
andindexf inger..
..
yesbabyj ustli
kethat..
..your
dri
ppi ng,allthatwet nessfuuuckk!Icanf eelhow
wetyouar e, yourpussydr i
ppingallthatsweet
nectarj ui
ceandIj ustwantt oburymywhol eface
andsuckal lt hosesweetjuicesandf eelthem on
tongueandgodownmyt hroat"she'
smoani ngand
pantingIgr abmydi ckhar dandmovei tupand
down
Me: "playwi ththatcli
tbaby, rubitsof twithyour
mi ddlefingeryes...
..
.j
ustl i
ket hat
, pi
ncht hose
nippleswi thyourlefthand. .
.yestheyar ehard,they
wantmywar m mout htosuckl e,j
ustlikethatclit.I
t
want smywar m breath,mywar m mout ht onibble
andsuckl e.
..yes.Myt onguet ofl
ickitupanddown,
taket hosef i
ngersandsl i
det hem toyourwetpussy
thatwant smydi ck..
..
yesputt hem insideandgr ip
them t i
ghtusi ngyourpussymuscl esandmove
them i nandout ..
..
yesbaby, nowt akeyourt humb
andpl aywi thyourcl i
t..
.yesjustli
ket hat"

Her:"OOOHHHHyes! ,
ooohhhGod!"Iconcetrat
eon
herbreat
hingandthesoundsshe'smakingand
pict
ureherdoi
ngeverythi
ngI'
mt el
li
nghertodo
thengrabmydi ckmoreti
ghtandconti
nuetogive
myselfahandjob.

Me:"Yesbabyj ustli
ket
hat..
..
.f
uck!,t
akeyourother
handandputi tontopofyourri
ghthandandf uck
yoursel
f.
..
.yesbabyopent hoselegswide,
pict
ure
memovi ngi nandoutott hatwetpussy, fuckyes
moveyourl efthandt oyourcl
itandr ubitwhileyour
otherhandi sgoi nginandoutoft hatjuicy
pussy...
.yesbabyyoural mostthere,
rubt hatcli
t
fastandpumpt hosef i
nger
shar dinandout ..
..
.yes
babyj ustli
ket hat.
..
.you'
real
ostthere,rubthat
cli
t.
..
.yesbaby. ..
..
.FUUUCCCKKKCOMEFORME!"
Shecomesscr eamingmynameandmoani ngandI
squeezemydi ckandpumpi tthreetimest hen
comehar dallovermyhand. ..
,Fuck!.

Me:
"baby?"

Her
:"
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
"

Me:
"babyar
eyouokay?
...
..
..
..
."

Her:
".
..
..
..
..
."Ihearhersnor
ingsof
lt
yandIlaugh
sof
lt
ynotwaki ngherup.Ican'
tbel
ieveshef
ell
asl
eep.Itakeaquickshowerthengojoi
ntheguys.
Ifi
ndt hem eat
ingandayoungl
adycomesand
servesus.

Me:
"that
'
syourhousekeeper
?"

Si
cel
o:"shutupf
ool,wer
eyouj
acki
ngof
f?"t
hey
l
aughandIlaughtoo

Me:"nahIwasyoursi
sterscr
eam myname"t
hey
st
oplaughi
ngthenthr
owkni f
esatme

Me:"Ya'
l
lstar
teditandifthosekni
fesst
abmeand
ki
llmeyoursi
sterwillhat
eyou"

Si
cel
o:"Whathappendt
obuhl
ewhenshewas18?"

Me:
"Sher
anawayt
hencamebackayearl
ater"
Si
cel
o:"whydi
dsher
unandwher
ewasshe?"

Me:"shefellpr
egnantandwentt oli
vewit
hher
fri
end.Herparentsdon'tknowbecausethey
thoughtshewaswor ki
ngbecausesheusedtosend
moneyeverymont h.Iguessit
'sthemoneyshe
usedtosavesi nceshestarted'worki
ng'
"

Si
cel
o:"whydi
dntshet
ellt
hem shewaspr
egnant?
"

Me:"Idon'tknowbutmyguessi st
hatmaybeshe
wasscar edthatt
hey'
llmakehergoandhave
anabort
ion.Somaybeshet hi
nksit
'sbet
tertorun
away,havet hebaby,
andaskherfri
endtoraisei
tas
hers".

Si
cel
o:"whoi
sthebaby'
sfat
her
?"
Me:"Idon'
tknowwhothef
atheroft
hechi
ldi
sbutI
beti
t'
sdaddydear
est"

Phil
ane:"what
?,yout
hinkhet
ouchedher
?,hi
sown
daughter?"

Me:"he'snotherfatherandIthi
nkhef oundout
thenstart
edtouchingher,shegetsscaredand
doesn'
ttellmommyanddeci destorunaway"

Ml
ungi
si:
"nowondershe'
smessedup"

Me: "hersecr
etwassafeunti
lherfr
iendst
arted
blackmaili
ngherthenshegoestoherandfindsout
thatherfri
endhashiddenherchi
ldbecauseshe
refusedtopaythemoney"

Sbusi
so:"soherf
ri
endtookherki
dsomewher
e
wherebuhledi
dn'
tknow?"
Me:"yes.sheconf
ront
sher,theyfi
ghtandsheki
ll
s
herandpayssomeonet ogetridoft
hebody"

Si
cel
o:"howdi
dyouf
indout?"

Me:"wellIaskedsomeoneandtheysharedthe
i
nformationofwhenbuhledi
sappeareforayear.
TherestIhadt opayt
ogetpeoplet
ot al
k"

Si
cel
o:"t
hatf
ami l
yismessedup.I
'
m gl
admysi
ster
di
dn'
tgettwi
stedli
ket
hem "

Me:"t
heyshi
eldedheri
nsomewaysandI
t'
sVi
ctor
's
doi
ng"

Sicel
o:"hedidthebesthecoul
dtryi
ngt
omakeup
andI'
llalwaysbegratef
ulf
orthat"
Me:
"meandyoubr
other"

Si
cel
o:"wher
e'st
hechi
ld?"

Me:"sti
lllooki
ng"Iknowwher
ethechi
ldi
s,f
ornow
I
'm keepingittomysel
f.
Cont
inuat
ionOfChapt
er16.

LUNGI
.

Ibli
nkt hencl osemyeyesbecauset hesuni s
shinningbr i
ghtonmyf ace,Ismilethenrollover
andlookatt heloveofmyl if
eandt hinkofallt he
wickedt hingshedi dtomybodyl astni
ght.I
thoughtI '
l
lbet ir
edbutI'm not,I
'
mj usthungr y.Ikiss
himt henlookathi m andhedoesn' tsti
r.Igetoutof
bed,got hebat hroom andwhenI 'm doneIweara
robeandgodownst air
sandf indfreshbreakf ast
.I
l
ookaroundthehouseandt
her
e'snoone,
maybe
f
rankbroughti
t.

Itaketheeggsandcovert hem wit

hapl atebecause
Ican'tstandthatsmel lt
hensi tdownst ar
ttoeat .I
wasscar edwhenIf i
rstfoundoutt hatIwas
expectingbecauseIt houghtIwasgoi ngtogetsi ck
withmor ningsicknesslikesimsbutIhaven' tandI
guessI '
m oneoft heluckyone' swhodon'tget
mor ni
ngsi ckeness.IthoughtI'l
lhatembuso, cryall
thetimebutI '
m stil
lme.Iguessmybabyi sgoingt o
besweetl ikeme.Ihavet oaskdadki ndofbaby
wasI .

Ismileandgetsadatt hesamet i
me.Ihavenobaby
pict
uresofmeandmymom t ogether.Iknowshe
wasgoingtobet hebestgr andmot hereverbutI
havemyauntandI '
m blessedt ohaveheri nmyli
fe.
WhenIwasgr owingIal wayst houghtthatmeand
buhleweweregoi ngtoexper i
encepr eganancy
toget
herandshe'llt
ellmet hatshe'sgoingtobethe
bestaunt
..
..
butt
henli
fehappend.If
eelaki
sson
myhairandIsmile

Me:
"mor
ninghandsome"

Hi
m:"mor
ningbabyandmyot
herbaby"

Me:
"howdi
dyousl
eep"

Hi
m:"greatbabybutIwashopi
ngt
ogetamor
ning
gl
ory"

Me:
"Iwashungr
y"

Hi
m:"Icansee,
howdoyouf
eelt
hismor
ning"

Me:
"I'
m gr
eat"
Hi
m:"Youl
iket
hehouse?"

Me:
"Itl
ooksbeaut
if
ulandIl
i
ket
hatI
t'
ssur
rounded
byt
rees"

Hi
m:"Ibr
oughtitf
oryou"hesaysbi
ti
nganappl
e,I
al
mostchoke.

Me:
"saywhatnow?"

Hi
m:"Thehousei
syour
sbaby?"

Me:
"whydi
dbuymeahouse?"

Hi
m:"becauseIwantt
oandIcan"
Me:
"butIl
ikebei
ngatmypar
ent
shouse"

Him:"Iknow.l ookIbroughtt
hishousebecauseI
wantyout ohaveyourownspacewhenyouneed
sometimeal oneandwhenwecomet ovi
sityour
famil
yher e.Idon'twanttosl
eepinthesamehouse
yourfatherissleepi
ngin"Igiggl
e

Me:"heynowhe'
smydadandwhat
'swr
ongwi
th
sl
eepingi
nhishouse?"

Him:"babyIwontbecomf ortabl
e,I'
l
lbesleepi
ng
withoneeyeopenandIwon' tbeabl et
omakeyou
scream mynameandyouknowyour sel
fbaby
you'r
eascr eamerandnowi magine,If
uckyouat
nighttheninthemor ni
ngI '
llhavetolookyourdad
i
nt heeyeknowi ngIfuckedhi sdaughterunderhi
s
roofwhilehewast here.
..
.nobabyIdon' twanttodie
"Ilaugh
Me:
"okf
ineIhearyou"

Hi
m:"soyou'
renotmad?"

Me:"noboo,youhaveaval
idr
easonsbuthe'
snot
gonnali
keit"

Hi
m:"youdon'
thavet
otel
lhi
m now..
.j
ustaft
ermy
f
amil
yhascameandspokewithyourfami
ly"

Me:
"Butyoudi
dn'
tpr
opose"

Him:"babyIhavetogoandaskyourdadf
oryour
handinmarriageandI
'mter
ri
fi
ed"

Me:
"don'
twor
ry,
hewon'
tki
llyou"

Hi
:"ar
eyoudoneeat
ing?"
Me:"yes,
Ihavet
ogobef
oredadshow'
supatt
he
hot
el "

Hi
m:"frankbroughtyouchangi
ngcl
otheshegot
f
rom youraunt"

Me:"t
hankyouboo"Iki
sshim andgothebedr
oom
andhefol
lowsmeandItakeoffther
obe

Hi
m:"baby?"

Me:"nombusoIhavet
ogo"hecomesandst
art
ki
ssingmyneckt
ouchi
ngmyboobs

Hi
m:"I
'
llbequi
ckbabyIpr
omi
se"

Me:
"youbequi
ck?
,pl
ease"wel
l
...
..
..
..
..
Thr
ee
roundslat
erI
'mti
red.Mbusodropsmeof fatthe
hotelandmyauntisal
readywait
ingf
ormeandshe
l
ooksl i
keshehadagoodt i
mealonewit
ht hatwine.

Me:
"gooddaymami"

Her:
"heybabyletsgohome,
Ihaveaser
ious
hangoverandIneedsomemeat"

Me:"whydon'
twehavebr
unchher
ethenwe'
l
lgo
homelat
er"

Her:
"Youwantyourdadt ocomeandpi ckusupl
ike
we'r
ekids?,not
hankyou"Wedr i
vebackhomeand
Itel
lheral
laboutwhathappendandshe'sver
y
exci
ctedformeandI'm sohappy.

FEW WEEKSLATER.
Mah:
"Luh.
..babywakeupwe'
reher
e"

Me:
"al
ready?"

Mah:
"yeswe'
reher
e"

Me:
"dot
heyknowwe'
recomi
ng?"

Her
:"nobabyt
heydon'
tknow"

Me:
"whati
fmbusoi
snother
emah?"

Her
:"di
dyout
ellhi
m wewe'
recomi
ng?"

Me:
"Idi
dn'
t"

Her
:"t
hent
heywi
llcal
lhi
m andwe'
l
lwai
tbecause
hehast
obeher
e"

Wear eoutsidembuso' shomei nPi etermari

tzburg.I
don'tseethereasonwhywehadt ocomeher ebut
theysaidit
'straditi
onandamustsoI 'm her
ewi t
h
mahandmyot hertwoaunt swhoar emyuncl es
wives.Ourdr i
veropenst hedoor swegetoutandI
foll
owmyaunt swhoar eleadingt heway.They
coveredmewi ththishugebl anketthatiscovering
mybodyandf aceandi '
m sweat inglikecrazy.My
otherauntishol di
ngmyhandl eadingme.

West opandtheypresst
hegatebuzzerIt
hink,
then
Ihearsomeonetalki
ngontheothersi
deofthe
buzzer

Per
son:
"Yes?"

Mah:"canyoupleasel
etusi
n?,
wear
eher
eabout
oneofyoursons"
Per
son:
"comei
n"

Mah:
"whoi
sthatr
udeper
sonl
uh?"she'
sannoyed

Me:
"Idon'
tknowmah"

Theyletusi
nandwewalkforaf
ewmi
nut
est
henI
hearmbuso'
saunt
'svoi
ce.

AuntLwet
hu:"fol
lowme"shesaysrudel
yyoh!
.We
fol
lowherandwegetinsi
dethehouseandconti
nue
t
of ol
lowher.

Auntlwethu:"youcansitdown"t
heydoandIl
ook
aroundinsidemybl ankett
oseewher
emychairi
s
butthere'
snone.
Mah:"mydaught
erneedst
osi
tdownt
oo,
wher
e's
herchai
r?"

Aunt
lwet
hu:
"she'
l
lsi
tdownt
her
eont
hef
loor
?"huh?

Mah:
"what
?"

Auntlwet
hu:"si
tdownont hef
loorgi
rl
ie"myGodI
str
uggletositmyheavyassonf l
oort
henmyaunt
helpsmesitdownandi t
'sver
yuncomf or
tabl
e.

Mah:"Areyoucrazy?,youcan'tsitherdownonthat
col
dtil
efloor
!"mahcan' tbef
ightingwithmbuso'
s
auntbecauseshe'
ssoongoi ngt obemyi n-
lawand
Idon'
twanthertotreatmebad.

Auntl
wethu:
"thi
sisnothermot
her
'shouse,
it'
smy
br
othershouse"
Mah:
"wher
ear
etheot
hermember
soft
hisf
ami
ly?
"

Aunt
lwet
hu:
"they'
l
lbeher
eatanymoment"

Mah:
"pl
easet
ellt
hem t
ohur
rywedon'
thaveal
lday
"

Aunt
lwet
hu:
"You'
rewelcometoleaveri
ghtnowand
gobackt
owhateverwholeyoucrawl
edoutof"

Iwishmahwoul dj
ustkeepquietandnotentert
ain
mbuso'sauntbecausesheseemst obeinabad
moodt oday.she'
snothi
ngli
kehowIf i
rstmether.I
hearfootst
epsofpeoplecomingandIgetner vous.

Voi
ce:"Ohwehaveguest
showwonder
ful
,good
af
ter
noon"It
'smbuso'
sdadandt
heysi
tdown.I
wonderwher
eismbuso"
Mah:
"goodaf
ter
noonGumedef
ami
ly"

MaGumede:"thi
sisabeauti
fulsurpr
ise.Aunt
yyou
di
dn'
toff
erthem somet
hingtodrink?"mbuso's
mom askher

Aunt
lwet
hu:
"theysai
dtheyar
efi
ne"wow

Mah:"Shethreatenedtopoisonus,sonothankyou.
Wedon' twantanythi
ngofferedbyherandwe'rear
e
nothereforthat"Ial
mostgi ggl
e

MaGumede:
"Howcanwehel
pyout
hen?"

Mah:"Wear et heNgcobo'
sandwecomef r
om
Ladysmith.Thesear emybrot
herswi
vesandt hisi
s
mybr ot
hersdaught ert
hatwehavebroughthere.
Inj
ayenuseyi dleamaqandawethu"(yourdoghas
eat
enoureggs)wowmah

Auntl
wet hu:"don'
tcallmybrother'
skidsdogs!.
Lonondindwai ngabeuyazingempel aukuthi
l
enganeayi thweleeyalanaekhaya?"(isthisbi
tch
surethatthebabyshe' scarr
yingbelongstothi
s
famil
y?).I'm speechl
ess

Gumede:
"Lwet
hu!"

Mah:"Don'
tyoudarecallmydaught
erabi
tch.You
wi
llpaydearl
yforcal
li
nghersuchnames"

MaGumede: "pleasef or
givemysisterinl
aw.She
hasnofil
ter"thetilesarecol
d,I'
m very
uncomfort
ableandmybacki sst
artingtohave
crampsandt hi
sbl anketGodIjustwantt ogeti
tof
f
meandt hrowitaway
Gumede:
"wehavethr
eeboysinthi
sfamily.Di
dshe
saywhoi
sitt
hathasgot
tenherpregnant
?"

Mah:
"MbusoGumede,yourf
ir
stbornsonist
heone
t
hathasf
orcedhi
swayinmybr ot
herskr
aal"

MaGumede:
"howf
ari
sshe?"

Mah:
"She'
sfi
vemont
hspr
egant"

Aunt
lwethu:
"YOOOOH! ,
andshewai t
edallt
hist
ime
why?,di
dshetakethi
spregnancyandpointi
tto
anot
herfamil
ybecauseshewasn'tsurer
ight
?"she
cl
apsherhands,yohthiswoman.

Mah:"youshouldaskyoursonthosequestionsi
f
youdon'tknow"mycr ampsarestart
ingtogeta
l
itt
lei
ntesebutnothi
ngIcan'
thandle.Itakeadeep
breat
hout
Gumede:
"wher
eismbusomamakhe?"

MaGumede:
"letmecallhi
m babakhe"
mbuso'
s
mom st
andsupandleaves.

Auntl
wethu:"uncoveryoursel
fgir
li
e.Iwantt
osee
thegi
rlwhocl ai
msmbusohasgot tenherpr
egnant
"myauntt akestheblanketoffandI'
m sobl
oody
sweaty

Mah:
"babyar
eyouokay?"

Auntl
wethu:"Lungi
?,ar
en'
tyouandmbusomar r
ied
andsincewhenar eyouaNgcobo?"sheasks
shockedthennervousl
ygi
ggles

Me:
"I'
m okaymah"Iwi
pemyforehead.Mbuso'
s
mom comesbackwi
thmbuso'
sbrother
sandIdon'
t
seembuso

Mah:
"wher
eismbuso?"

MaGumede:
"he'
scomi
ng.
..
.oht
her
ehei
s"

Aunt
lwet
hu:
"mbuso.
..
..
"

Mbuso:
"baby?,.
..
..
.Mamahowcanyousitherdown
onthef
loorli
kethi
s?"heaskst
hengetsmeupand
si
tsmeont hecouch,damnmybackIbreat
heout
agai
n

MaGumede:
"It
houghtshewassi
tt
ingonamat
mbuso"

Me:
"I'
mfi
nembuso"
Mah:
"you'
renotf
inebabyyou'
resweat
ingandyour
f
acei
sgetti
ngred"

Me:
"I'
mj ustf
eel
inghotmaht
hat
'sal
l.Canwe
f
ini
shthengo?"

MaGumede:
"bongagogetl
ungiagl
assofcol
d
wat
er"

Mbuso:"dadweal lknowI
'mthereonewhogot
l
ungiherepregnantandIt
oldyouguys.Lungiwhy
di
dn'
tyout el
lmeyouwer ecoming"

Gumede: "t
heyhadt of ol
lowt r
adit
ionmbusosoour
ancestor
swi l
lrecognisethebaby, acceptitand
prot
ectitbecauseitisoneofourown"t hecramps
arestr
ongnowandI 'm struggli
ngtohidethepain.

MaGumede:
"Lungi
?,i
smbusot
hef
atheroft
hat
chi
ldyourcar
ryi
ng?"

Me:"Heisma"Il
ookatmbusoandhesmiles.
Si
yabongagi
vesmebott
ledwat
erandIdr
inkit.

MaGumede: "mbusodoyouacceptthatyou'
rethe
oneresponsibl
efort
hispr
egnancy,
thatthebaby
she'
scarryi
ngisours?"

Mbuso:
"she'
scarr
yingt
henextgener
ati
onofthe
gumede'
s.Mybaby"hekissesmyfor
eheadthen
l
ooksatmeworri
ngly

Gumede:"weacceptthatweareresponsi
bleand
havetopayfort
hedamageoursonhasdone.Our
famil
ywil
lbeincontactwit
hyourfamily"
.

Mah:
"thankyoumrgumedebutwehavet
oleave
nowmydaughteri
snotf
eel
ingwel
l"
Me:"t
akemetothehospit
al.
..
..
Ifeelcr
ampsonmy
backandar
oundmyst omach"Ihol dmyst
omach
andgroani
npai
n.
CHAPTER17.

Mah,mbuso' smom, myaunt sandmbuso' saunt

askmeabunchofquest ionsatthesamet i
meandI
don'
tknowwhi chonetoanswerf i
rst
.Mbusocan
seet
hatI'm gettingf
rust
ratedbecausehepi cksme
upquickl
y,carriesmeoutthelivi
ngandwal ks
somewheret henIhearthecarenginerunning.

Mbuso:
"wat
chyourheadbaby"hesayst henput
medownonthebackseatandIgroan.Mbuso's
mom andmahgeti
nthebackseatwithmeandmah
hol
dsmyhand.Thecarrever
sesandoffitgoes.

Mah:
"Canyouf
eel
thebabymovi
ng?"
Me:"I
'veneverf
eltt
hebabymovi
ng,
ist
hatwhyI
'
m
havi
ngcramps?"

MaGumede: "nol
ungisomebabiesstar
ttoplay
aroundt hei
rmom'sstomachwhent heyaresix
mont hsandsomef rom f
ourmonths,soplease
don'tstr
ess"mahwi pesmyforeheadandIcanf eel
she'stense.Thepai
nkeepsgetti
ngwor seandI
groan

Me:"pleaseGodIcan'tl
osemybaby.
..
.Ican'
tlose
mybaby"t ear
sfallandmbuso'
smotherstar
ts
prayingandwekeepquietandsayAmenwhen
she'sdone.

Mah:"youwon'
tloseyourbabyl
uh"shewi
pesmy
t
ears

Me:
"wher
eismbusomah?"
Mah:
"he'
sdr
ivi
ngl
uh"

Mbuso:
"I'
m her
ebaby"

Me"I'
m sorr
y..
..
.I
'm sosorr
y,It
ri
ednottost
ressand
worr
yandnowI '
m havi
ngcrampsandIdon'tknow
why.
..
..
Ididn'
tdoanythingwrongIswear"mybody
i
ssohotandf eelsl
ikeit
'sonfi
re

Mbuso: "Luhli
st ent ome.Noneoft hi
sisyourf aul
t
baby,youar east rongwomanandyouhavebeen
doingabsolutelygr eat.Iwantyout obet hestrong
womanIknowyouar ebecauseourbabyneedsus
ri
ghtnow.Thi nkofal lthepositi
vememor i
esyou
haveandj ustfocusont hat.Yourmom isr i
ghthere
nexttoyoubaby, allthepeopl ewholoveyou.
Nothingisgoingt ohappent oourbaby,she's
probablyjustplayingandwant sustonot i
ceher.
Everythi
ngisgoi ngt obef i
ne,youhearmebaby?"
Me:
"Ihearyouboo"Isni
ff

MaGumede: "ar
ewet hereyet?"t hecarst opsthen
mbusoshout s,
there'scommot i
onout side,mahand
hismom getoutoft hecart henIshi f
tandmove
closet ot
hedoort henmbusol if
tsmeandput sme
ont hewheelchairandt henurseswheelmei nme
andt akemet other oom, undressmet henIwear
thehospitalgown, Ilyedownt hent heyputadr ipi
n
met hentakesmybl oodpr essur e.Theot hernurse
askst hem abunchofquest ionsandwr i
tesdown.

Doctor:"Mi
ssNgcoboI '
m DoctorTim.Iseethat
yourfivemonthspregnantandyou'rei
npain,tel
l
mewher ei
thurt
s"Thedoct orchecksmypul se,
my
eyes,asksmet oopenmymout handsay'a'andI
dothenhei nj
ectssomethingonmyar m.

Doctor
:"Theinj
ecti
onIhavej
ustgivenyouisto
hel
pyourbodyt emper
aturet
obeati t'
snormaland
you'
l
lstartt
ocooldownandf eelbet
ter".
Me: "I
'mfeeli
ngpai
nonmyback, mywai stand
undermyr i
bsandmystomachhur t
s"het akeshi
s
stethoscopeandmovesi tonmystomacht hen
splashesagelonmyst omachtakestheultr
asound
machi neandmovesitaround

Doctor:
"Let
sseewhatwehaver ighthere,here'
sthe
heart
beatwowver ystr
ong,oht
hereyouar elitt
le
onesuckingyourthumbandhmmmm. .
."Ihearmy
baby'
sheartbeatandIfeel
ahugewei ghtbeing
l
ift
edoffmyshoul der
s

Gumede:
"whatwaswr
ongdoct
or?
,whywasshei
n
pai
n?"

Doct
or:
"thi
sli
tl
le.
..
..
."

Mbuso:
"docdon'
ttel
lust
hebaby'
sgender
,we
wantt
obesurpri
sed"
Doctor:
"andIal mostrui
nedthesur pr
ise.The
reasonyouwer einpainisbecauseyourbabyi s
growingandast hebabygrows, youruretasi
s
pushingunderyourribsmakingspacef orthebaby
togrowwel lsothat
'swhyyouwer einpainandyour
temperaturewasgoingtorisebecauseoft hepai
n
youwer efeeli
ng".

Mbuso:
"andherbackpai
n?"

Doctor:
"Yourhighbloodpressureishi ghandi ti
s
makingyourbabyt obeindi st
ress.Youar egoingt o
haveanear l
ylabourandhaveapr emat urebabyif
youcontinuetohavestress.Avoidstressful
si
tuati
onsandpeopl ewhost ressyou.I '
m goingto
havetoputyouonbedr estathomeandyour
doctorwil
lmonitoryouandseehowyou' redoing.If
yourhighbloodpressur
edoesn' tcomedownt hen
he'
llhavenochoicebutt ohospital
izeyouand
monitoryouthere"
Me:
"Ihearyoudoct
or"Idon'
twantt
obebedr
idden
i
nthehospi
tal

Doctor:"awordofadvisemi ssngcobo.Youseem
tobehol di
ngont osomet hi
ngandi tisstressi
ng
you,youneedt oforgi
vewher eyoumustandl et
thi
ngsgoandf ocusonlyonyourpr egnancyand
enjoyitandnotletanyoneruinthismomentf oryou
becauseyouar egoingtobebr i
ngingi nlif
e.Eat
healt
hyanddosmal lexecri
sesnot hingheavyand
str
ainiousandpleasefami l
ydon'tst r
essthese
people"

Mbuso:
"thankyoudoct
or"

Doct
or:
"I'
m keepi
ngherf
ort
heni
ght
.You'
l
ltakeher
hometomorrow"

"t
hankyoudoct
or"mahandmagumedesay
Doctor:
"I'
m goingtol
etdoctorpr
est
onknowthat
hispati
entishere.Pl
easeexcusemeandI'
m gi
ving
youjusttenminutesthenyouneedt
oleave"

Thedoctorl
eavesusandIl ookatmbusoandhe
l
ookssodownandst ressed.He'spr
obabl
yblaming
hi
mselfandthi
nksmaybeIhaven' tr
eal
lyf
orgave
hi
m andIdid.

Me:"mbusoI '
m worr
iedaboutt hamibecauseit
's
notli
kehi mtojustdisappearandyouwontt el
lme
whathaveyoudonewi thbuhlebecauseIknow,that
ti
meyouwer eatmybr other'
shouseshewast here
too.Bothofyouar ekeepi ngsecr
etsandIthoughtI
wantt oseeherbutIknownowseei ngheri
sgoing
toupsetmeandIdon' twantt ohavethi
sbaby
beforeti
me, soI'
vedeci dedthatI
'l
lseeheraft
erI
havedeliver
edourbaby"
MaGumede:
"You'
redoi
ngt
her
ightt
hingl
ungi"

Mbuso:"We'rest
il
llooki
ngf ort
hamiandIpromise
youI'
m goingtofi
ndhi m andbri
nghimtoyou.Are
youhungry?"

Me:"yesIam, CanIpleasehavehotchocolat
ewith
marshmal lowsandlotsofchocolat
ecream cookies
andwel lcookedbigjuicyst
eak,pot
atoeswithlot
s
ofbuttertheywaymahcookst hem andredgrape
j
uiceicecol d"

Mah:
"okbutwher
eam Igoi
ngt
omakeyoupot
aoes
l
uh?"

MaGumede: "don'tbesil
lywe'
refamil
yandyour
welcomeinmyhouseandyoucancookyour
famouspotatoes.Babakheherewillmakeyour
steakwhi
lembusost aysher
ewi t
hyou.Wewi llgo
homeandcookf oryouthenziphoandsiyabonga
wi
llbr
ingyouhotchocol
ateandcooki
es"

Mbuso:"butbabyt
hedoctorsai
deatheal
thy.
..
allof
t
hatfoodyouwantisnothealt
hy"

Me:'ar
eyoutr
yingtogetmeupsetmbuso?
.Your
babywantsal
lofthatokay?
,nowl
eavemealone"

Mah:
"mbusoshutup"

Me:
"Mahdi
dyoucal
ldad?"

Mah:
"oneofyouraunt
sdi
dandIcal
ledhi
m back"

Me:
"whatdi
dyousayandi
sheupset?"

Mah:"It
oldhimthatyouwere'
ntfeeli
ngwel
lsowe
deci
dedtotakeyoutothehospi
taljustt
obesur
e
thatnothingiswrong.Hewantedt ocomebutIt old
himt hatthedoctorwantstomonitoryouf ort
he
nightandi fanyt
hingchangesI
'l
llethim knowand
he'swor r
iedaboutyoubutunderstoodthatwe'll
see
himt omor r
ow" .

Me:
"ok"
.

Mah:
"wearegoi
ngnow,
getsomer
est"Inodand
t
heyl
eave.

Mbusositsont
heedgeoft
hebedt
henwel ookat
eachother
.Het
akesmyhandi
nhisthenki
ssesit
thensi
ghs.

Mbuso:
"Iwor
ryaboutyoubaby"

Me:
"I'
mfi
ne,
don'
twor
ry"
Mbuso:"I
'
mt hi
nkingofki
dnappi
ngyouandt
ake
youawayfrom heret
henwe'l
lcomecomeback
whenthebabyisborn"

Me:"dadwon'
tli
ket
hatandIwantt
obear
ound
ever
yone"

Mbuso:
"Iknow.Iwanttot
akeawayever
ythi
ngt
hat
i
sstr
essi
ngyouandf i
xwhatIcan"

Me:
"fi
ndt
hamiandbr
inghi
m homet
omet
hen"

Mbuso:
"I'
l
lfi
ndhi
m Ipr
omi
se"

Me:
"Ihopet
heydi
dn'
tdoanyt
hingt
ohur
thi
m.baby?
"

Hi
m:"
We'
renotgoi
ngt
otal
kaboutpeopl
ewhoar
e
goingupsetyou.Whateverquest
ionsyouhaveI
'l
l
gl
adyanswert hem af
terthebabyisbornbabyI
promise"

Me:
"that
'
sfourmont
hsf
rom now"

Him:
"Iwast
hinki
ng"r
eal
ly?hechangest
he
subj
ect

Me:
"about
?"

Hi
m:"wherear
ewegoi
ngt
oli
veonceweget
marr
ied"

Me:
"Idon'
thavear
ingonmyf
inger"Ismi
le

Him:
"Iknow.
..
aft
erwegetmar
ri
edwher
ear
ewe
goi
ngtoli
ve"
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
ogobackt
othathouse"

Him:"
okwe'
l
lbuyanot
herone.Your
eal
lyhat
ethat
house"

Me:"Idobecausei
tremi
ndsmeofbadt hingst
hat
happendbetweenusandIdon'
twantt
ol i
vein
Joburg"

Hi
m:"what
?,why?"

Me:
"Idon'
tli
kei
tandIwantt
obecl
osert
omy
f
amil
y"

Hi
m:"hmmm.
..
..
wher
ewoul
dyoul
iket
oli
vet
hen?"

Me:
"Dur
ban.Iwantt
oli
vet
her
e"
Hi
m:"t
henst
artl
ooki
ngf
oryourhouset
hen"

Me:
"real
ly?
,justl
iket
hat
..
..
you'
l
lmovet
odur
ban?"

Hi
m:"I'
l
lmoveanywher eforyouandwehave
of
fi
cesinDurban.I'
llmovet heheadquar
ter
sthi
s
si
deandaskthembat orel
ocatetojobur
gand
managethebusinessthere."

Me:
"Ican'
tbel
ievei
t.
..
whataboutmadl
ami
ni?"

Him:"t
hembawi l
lmovetot
hehousei
fhewant s
andmadlaminiwil
lwor
kforhi
m.Iwon'
tleaveher
wit
houtajob"

Me:
"thankyouboof
ordoi
ngt
hat"
Hi
m:"shemi
ssesyou,
youknow?
"

Me:"Imustcallherandi
nvi
teheroverwi
thher
grandki
ds.We'l
lspendsometi
meont hef
arm,I
'm
sureshewil
lloveit"

Hi
m:"She'
sgonnabehappyt
ohearf
rom you"

Me:"yeahIj
ustlef
twit
houttel
li
ngher..
..
.she'
s
gonnabesurpr
isedtoseethatI
'm pr
egnant"Ismi
le

Him:"callhert
omorrowwhenyou'
rehomeandIwil
l
alsocallthomasandper
cytogopickherupwi
th
thekids"

Me:"t
hankyouboo"Igi
vehi
m akissandwekiss
deepl
ythensomeonecl
ear
sthei
rthroatandwe
l
ookupit'
sthedoct
or
Doctor:"Nosexonthehospit
albed,I
'm ki
ddi
ngbut
pleasewedon'twanthertogettooexci
ted.I
want edtoaskhowyou'ref
eeli
ngmissngcobo?"he
checksmypul seagainandputsathermometer
undermyar mt ocheckmytemperatur
e.

Me:
"I'
m gooddoct
or,
Ifeel
somuchbet
ter"

Hi
m:"yourtemperat
urei
sdownandyourhear
tbeat
i
ssteady.Soever
ythi
nglooksgoodf
ornow"

Me:"doctorwhenam Igoi
ngt
ost
artf
eel
ingmy
babyplaying?"

Hi
m:"foreverywomanexper
ienci
ngthepregnancy
i
sdif
ferentbutI'
m sur
eyouaregoingt
ofeelthem
pl
ayi
nganyt i
mesoon..
..
"

"what?"mbusoandIsayatt
hesamet
ime
Doct
or:
"ooops.
..
sli
pofat
ongue"

Me:"doct
orI'
m havi
ngonebaby,
weevensawhi m
orheronthesonogr
am scr
een"I'
m shockedand
happyatthesametime

Doctor:
"him orherishidingthemselves.Ifel
ttwo
hearbeatsonthesonogr am.Itwast oostrongtobe
j
ustthatofonebaby, sowhenIl i
stenedcareful
lyI
noti
cedbot hofthem wer ebeati
ngatt heexact
samet i
meandatt heexactpace.I'veneverseen
sometingli
kethat,It
'sli
ketheonesucki ngthe
thumbi sprot
ecti
ngt heirsi
bli
ng"that'
ssobeaut i
ful
mybabi es

Mbuso:
"wowdoct
ort
hankyou"

Doct
or:
"mypleasure.Haveagoodeveni
ng"he
l
eavesusandwel ookateachot
hershockedand
wel
augh

Me:
"wowI
'
m car
ryi
ngt
wobi
gheads"

Mbuso:"youl
ovet
hisbi
gheadandt
hosebi
gheads
"welaugh

Me:
"ar
ewegoi
ngt
otel
lthem ?"

Mbuso:"l
etskeepi
tbetweenusandwe'
llask
pr
estontokeepitt
ohimselft
ooandnottel
lanyone
"

Me:
"gr
eati
dea,
I'
m soexci
ted"

Hefeel
smyst omachwithhishandsthenl
ayshis
headonitandstar
ttor
ecit
ehisclannamesandas
hecont
inuesIfeel
movementar oundmystomach
andmbusost opsandt
hebabiesstopmovi
ngt
oo
thenhecont
inuesandtheypl
ayaroundand
conti
nuetodoevenaft
erhestops.

Me:
"Il
oveyou"Iki
shi
m

Hi
m:"Il
oveyouandIl
oveyoumor
ebaby"hehugs
meti
ght
.

Hi
sphonevibr
atesandhetakesitout,
openst he
t
extmessageandItr
ynottolookbutIseet he
messageandi
t'
sfrom mybrotheranditsays

"Wehaveapr
obl
em,
cal
lme"Hesi
ghsandl
ooksat
me

Mbuso:"Ihavet
ocal
lyourbr
otherhesays
somethi
ngiswrong"Idi
dn'
tthi
nkhewasgoingt
o
tel
lme.
Me:"Okcal
lhi
m"Heleavestheroom andI'
ml ef
t
wonderi
ngwhati
sthathugeprobl
em theyhave.
CONTI
NUATI
ONOFCHAPTER17.

SI
CELO.

There'
sisnot hi
ngIwoul dn'
tforthepeopleIlove
especial
lymysi st
er,Iwi l
lmakesur ethatnothing
hurtshereveragaini ncl
udinghermbuso.I tisthe
onlyreasonwhybuhl eissti
llali
vebecausei fwekill
herluhwillneverforgiveusandIdon' twanthert o
tohatembusobecauseshel oveshim andt het wo
ofthem deservetheirhappilyeveraft
er.Wemoved
buhletosomewher esafewher eshewon' tescape
andwher eherparent swon'tfindher.

Ican'
tbel
ievebuhl
eisnotsipho'
sdaughterandhim
rapi
nghermightbethereasonwhyshe'sso
messedup.Hermot herwassupposetoprotecther
butshedidn'tandmadei tpossibl
eforthatperver
t
totouchher.Ihopehenevert ouchedluhbecause
deathisthelastthinghewi l
lwishcomesbef ore
we'reevendonewi t
hhim.Peopl ereal
lyhave
messeduppar entsli
kethatwhouset heirchil
dren
l
ikethatmaket hem thinkthatthei
rbodyistheonly
thi
ngtheyhavet hatisgoodanandt heymustusei t
togetwhattheywant .

IknowuncleVi ct
ormadesur ethatshe' salways
prot
ectedandevent hought heywant edtosellher
andcouldn'tbecausembusocameandsavedher
andkil
ledthemanwhowassupposet obuyherbut
Ican'
thelpandt hi
nkt hattheyhadot herpl ansfor
l
ungibecauseshe' stheonewhoi sn'ttheirchil
dand
she'
stheonewhowassupposet obel i
kebuhl e..
.be
messedupandever ything.Whatwer et heirpl
ans
exact
lyformysi ster
?...Myphoner ingsandi t
'sdad

Me:
"Maphol
oba"(t
hei
rcl
anname)
Dad:
"seun"(son)

Me:
"konkekuhambakahl
e?"(i
sever
ythi
ngokay?)
"

Dad:
"mycont
acthasj
ustcal
led,hesayst
he
mazi
buko'
sar
einnewcast
lestayi
ngwithsomeone"

Me:"what
?,t
heywer
ejustunderournosest
his
wholet
ime?"

Dad:
"theyknewt
hatwewer
enotgoi
ngt
olookf
or
t
hem ther
e"

Me:
"OK,
sowhenar
egoi
ngt
ogett
hem "

Dad:"Rel
ax,t
heyarr
ivedt
wodaysago.Wehaveto
l
etthem set
tl
einandmakethem t
hinkt
hatwewon'
t
come.Myguyi swat
chingt
hem t
went
yfourseven,
theywon'
tescapeusthi
sti
me"

Me:"dadthesepeopl
earesmar t
,wehavetoget
them nowbefor
etheygomi ssi
ngagainbecause
youknowt heywon'
tstayatnewcast
leforl
ong"

Dad:"I'l
lsendyoutheirpict
ures,theydidplasti
c
surgeryandyouwontbeabl etorecognisethem.
Theyt hinknooneknowsi t
'sthem sowemustbe
car
ef ulandlett
hem relaxthenwe' l
lcatchthem
whent heyleastexpectit"

Me:
"Howmanypeopl
ear
ewat
chi
ngt
hem?"

Dad:
"tenofourbestguysseun,
don'
twor
ry"

Me:
"keepmeupdat
edt
hen"
Dad:
"wher
eist
hei
rdaught
er?"

Me:
"she'
ssomewher
esaf
e"

Dad:
"mbusot
hatgi
rlbet
ternotescape"

Me:"shewon'
tdadIpr
omi
se.I
'
m onmywayt
her
e
nowtoseeher"

Dad:
"ok.we'
l
ltal
klat
ert
hen"

Me:
"sur
egr
andpa"

Dad:"youdor
eal
iset
hatyoural
mostf
our
tyandyou
havenothi
ng"

Me:"Ihavemycompanydad,Ihaveluh,
aunt
y,you
andmynepheworniece.You'
reallt
hepeopl
eI
need"

Dad:
"Youaregoingtodieanoldsadmanwhohas
nowif
eorkidsifyoukeeprunni
ngawayfr
om
commitment"

Me:"Dadyou'
rest
il
lsi
ngl
e,Ihaven'
tseenyouwi
th
anywomansincemom died"

Dad:"yourmom wasmysoul mat

eandIdon'
tthi
nk
I
'l
leverfindsomeonel
ikeher"

Me:"of
causeyouwon'
tf i
ndsomeoneli
keher,but
maybeyou'l
lfi
ndsomeonebetter
.Youdeser
veto
behappydadandIdon'twantyoutodi
ealone"

Dad:
"Ihavefoundallmyki
ds, I
'
m happyandnow
I
'mlooki
ngforwardtomeet
ingmygr andchi
ldt
hen
maybeGodwi l
lkeepmeuntilImeetyourki
dsand
t
henwatchbot
hofyougetmarr
iedandthenI'
l
ldi
e
ahappymanandbereuni
tedwi
thyourmother"

Me:"IwishwhenImeetsomeoneIwi l
lgetto
experi
encethetypeofloveyouandmom had.It
wasspecialandoneofaki nd.
..
Imissherdad
especi
all
lynowt hatwefoundmybabysi st
er"

Dad:"Imisshertooseunandshe' shappyt hatwe

areallunit
ed.Youneedtost ar
tlookingforaright
womanyouar enotgett
ingyounger .Youdon'twant
tostartpal
yingwit
hyourf i
rstbornwhenyourf our
ty
andsecondbor nfour
tyfive"

Me:
"Iknowdad,
Iknow"Ichuckl
e

Dad:
"we'
l
ltal
klat
ert
hen"

Me:
"okdad,
bye"hehungsupandIgr
oan.We
alwayshavet hesameconversationeveryt
imewe
tal
kont hephone.Ileavetheof
fice,getinthecar
anddr i
ve,Iwonderifbuhl
eandcel estehaven'
t
kil
ledeachotherbecausetheyfightli
keamar ri
ed
couple.Thesecuri
tyletsmethroughandIpar kthe
carandgeti nthehouse.

Thef ir
stthi
ngIseei sbuhlekneeli
ngdownont he
fl
oorandwi pingitweari
ngamai dsunif
orm and
celesteissitt
ingonthecouchdirecti
ngherwher e
towi pe.Theuni f
orm she'
sweari
ngi ssoshortyou
canact uall
yseehersaggi ngbut
tandshel ooks
blackandbl ue.Damnmbusomusthaver eal
lybeat
heruppr ettybadandshel ooksli
keherwholebody
hurts.

Me:"whatisgoi
ngon?"I
'm shockedbecauseI
wonderwhathappendt
hatgotbuhletobethis
obedi
ent.

Cel
est
e:"boss,
how'
sitgoi
ng?"
Me:"good,whyisshewipingt
hef
loor
?"buhle
doesn'
tevenacknowledgemeandconti
nuesto
wipethefl
oor.

Celeste:
"mbusohappend.Thatsonofaguncan
usesj ambokbossyoh!,youshoul
dhaveseenhim
beatingherupwit
hi t
.ForamomentIthoughthe
wasgoi ngtouseitonmet oo"sheshr
ugsherbody

Me:
"whendi
dhecome?"

Celeste:
"yest
erdaymor ni
ng.Buhlestart
edcal l
ing
him namesbecauseshewasupsett hatya'llt
ook
outherimplants,demandeddrugsthent hrewhot
coffeeonmbusoandhecal mlywentt ohiscarand
camebackwi thasj ambokandstartedwhi ppi
ngher .
Ithi
nkhewhi ppedoutherstubbornessandsmar t
mout hbecauseshest ar
tedcal
li
nghi m bhuti(
big
brother)mbusoandbeggedhi mt ostopandshe' ll
neverdi
srepecthi
m again.BossIhopeyoursi
ster
nevermakeshimt hatangry"

Me:
"I'l
lfuckenkil
lhi
mifheeverput
shi
shandson
mysisterli
kethat
.Didhegi
veheranymedi
cine?"

Cel
este:
"thedoct
orcameandgavehersome
medici
ne"

Me:"buhl
ecanyounotpissoffmbusobecauseI
'm
sur
ehei scl
osetoki
ll
ingyouandonemor esmart
commentoutofyoursmartmouthhe'
sgoingtoki
ll
you"shestopsandl
ooksatme

Buhle:
"IpromiseIwillbehave,
pleasedon'
tlethi
m
beatmeagain...
.i
t'
stoomuchnowandmybody
can'
ttakeanymor ebeat i
ngsandIlookli
keamess.
Nomanwi lleverlookatmeagai n"shesoundsso
sad
She'sri
ghtwhenshesaysshel ooksli
keamess.
Wet ol
dthedoct ort
ojusttakeouttheimplant
sand
st
it
chwher ehetookoutthesili
cones.Herbodyi
s
botched,skinsaggi
ngandbei ngacrackwhor ei
s
nothelpi
ngheratall.

Me:
"whendi
dyouhaveyourl
astf
ix?"

Buhle:
"shewon'
tgi
veitt
ome, shesai
dImustwi
pe
thi
swholefl
oort
henshe'
llgi
vemesome"

Celest
e:"MbusosaidIshoul
dn'
tgiveyouanybut
youbusyt wi
tchi
ngaroundmeisdr i
vingmeinsane
soI'l
lgi
veyousome.YouseeI '
mt heonlyni
ceone
here"buhlei
gnoresherandconti
nuest owi
pethe
fl
oor.

Me:"Icametoseeifyoutwohaven'tkill
edeach
otherandI
'm gl
adsomeonei sbehavingbetween
thetwoofyou.Giveherafi
xaftershe'sdoneand
givehersomet
hingl
ongt
ocoveral
lthatf
ucki
ng
saggingski
n"

Cel
est
e:"sur
eboss,
wher
ear
eyougoi
ngnow?"

Me:
"noneofyourbusi
ness"

Cel
est
e:"someoneneedst
ogetl
aid"shel
aughs

Me:
"I'
m outofher
e."

Ileavet heset woandgot oacl ubmeandmy

bother sfrequentatandf i
ndt hem alr
eadythere
sitt
ingatourf avouri
tespotwi t
hsomegi rl
sdancing
andt heyar eal mostwear i
ngcl osetonothingand
mybr othersar econcerntrat
ingont hesegirl
sand
youcant elltheylooklikehungr ystudent
s.Iignor
e
them andor dermysel fadr i
nkandl ookaroundthe
clubandI tlooksfull
.Mymi ndkeepsgoi ngtothe
conversati
onIhadwi thdadaboutmesett
li
ngdown
andIknowhei sri
ght.Ithasbeenwei
ghi
ngheavl
y
onmymi ndthatIneedt oset
tl
edownandhavea
famil
yofmyown.

WhenIgohomet her eisnoonetocometooandi t

feel
slonely.
..
.Idof eellonel
ysometi
mesandIwant
someonet oshar emyl ifewit
hbutwhenIthi
nk
aboutwhathapendt omom anddadandhiml osi
ng
hissoulmate,itscaresmet onthi
nkitmi
ghthappen
tomet ooandIdon' tknowifIcanhandl
ethatbutI
havetotrysomedayandhavef ai
th.

Ialwayswatchmbusoandseewheneverhet alks
aboutmysisterorreadmessagesshesenthi m, hi
s
faceli
ght
supandIcanseet hathereall
ylovesher .
Hecamet omeandaskedf orherhandinmar ri
age
andIpromisedtokillhi
m shouldsheevercr y
becauseofhim ordoanythingthatwillhurtheror
causeherharm,hepr omisedhewi l
ldohi sbestnot
tohurti
nanywayt henIagreedbecauseshel oves
him.Theonl
yproblem nowhei sfaci
ngi sgoi
ngt
o
askdadandknowingmydadhei sgoingtomake
mbusosweatitoutbeforehegiveshim his
blessi
ngst
omar r
yhisonl ydaughter
.

Iwonderi fsomeone' sdadwi l

laslomakemesweat
i
toutl i
kehowdadi sgoi ngtodowi thmbusobut
fi
rstInhavetof i
ndt hatsomeonet henwor r
yabout
therestlater
.Hewant stomakeherhi swi f
eas
soonaspossi bl
eandt hatsomehowmakesme
wantt ohavemyownf ami l
y.AsI'
m busyt hi
nki
ng
anddr i
nkingmyeyesl andont hesegir
lsthathave
j
ustent eredtheclubandIwat chthem,theyare
threeandt wooft hem lookli
ketheyarealready
drunk.

Myphonevibr
atesandItakei
toutandi
t'
sa
messagef
rom cel
este.

"Buhl
eishi
ghandshesayshehasachi
ldwi
th
mbuso"
Fuckno! .
..
I'
m goingtoki
llthatbi
tchifshe'
slyi
ng,
she'
snotgoi ngruinmysister'
shappinessnever
!.I
sendcelesteansmsandt el
lhertorecordbuhl
e
andI'
llseehertomorrowthensendmbusoanssms
tooandhecal l
s

Me:
"mbusowhatdi
dyoudo,
youf
ool?"

Hi
m:"whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"

Me:
"getyourassr
ighther
etomor
row"

Him:"Ihavet
otakeyoursi
sterhomet
omor
row
becauseshe'
satthehospi
tal"

Me:
"whywhathappendandwhydi
dn'
tyout
ellme?
"
Hi
m:"not
hingt
oworryabout
,thedoct
orsai
dbaby
waspl
ayi
ngthat'
swhyluhwasexperi
enci
ngpai
n"

Me:"aft
eryoudropheroffgetyourassher ein
durban"Ihangup..
.FuckIdon'tneedthisstr
ess
ri
ghtnow.Igulpdownmydr i
nkandor deranother
oneandcontinuetowatchthosegirl
sdancing.
CHAPTER18.

SOMEWHEREI
NDURBAN

I'
mr unningr eall
ylatethismorningandIwas
supposet ohaveopenedt heshopbynowi t
s6:30
am andweopenat6am, whenwehaveaf unction
topreparef orbutsomeonewasj ustbei
ngdi f
fi
cult
andIdidn'tsl eepatalllastni
ghtGodj ustt
hinking
aboutit.
...
letmenotgot her
e.Iparkmycarout side
theshopandseemyt wobestf ri
endsandco-
workershavear ri
ved.I'
m notgoingt oheartheend
ofmebei
ngl
ateagai
n.

Me:"guyssor ryI'ml at
e"Iunl ockt hedoorandwe
getinside,t
heydon' tsayanyt hingandIcanf eel
thei
reyesdr il
li
ngawhol eont hebackofmyhead.I
makemywayt ot hesmal lkitchenwehaveand
star
tpr epar
ingf ortheplattersfor40peoplewear e
supposet odeliverforat10am atsomeof fi
ce
wher etheyhavingabusi nessbr eakfastmeet
ing
andt heplat
tersar ealldi
fferent.

Me:"GuysIapologi
sednow..
.pl
easedon'tgi
veme
thesi
lentt
reatment"It
urnar
oundandl ookatt
hem
andtheyarejustst
andi
ngtherefol
dingthei
rar
ms.

Karabo:
"Ayandathi
scan'
tgoonanymor
e"she
saysandIsigh.

Me:"Notnowkar
abopl
ease.
..
.i
t'
sst
il
lear
ly"Il
ook
atbot
hofthem
Lil
ly:
"theti
meisneverr
ightwi
thyouaya.
..
lookat
you..
.you'
reamess"

Me:"Iknowf r
iend"Il
ookdownandcovermyf ace
beacuseIreall
yfeell
ikecr
ying.If
eelthei
rar
ms
huggingmeandIhugt hem back,
tel
li
ngmyselfI
'm
notgoingt
ocr y.

Me:"Iknowit
'shardguysbutpl
easedon'
tgi
veup
onmebecauseIr eal
lyneedyouandcan'
tdothi
s
wit
houtyou.I
'l
lfi
xitIpromi
seyou"

Lil
ly:
"WeknowyouwillbutIhopereal
lysoon
ayandabefor
ehef
ixesyouf orgood"that
'swhat
reall
yscar
esme

Kar
abo:"Butwe'
llki
llhi
m bef
oreheki
ll
syouand
we'
llhi
dehisbody"
Li
ll
y:"we'l
lbur
nhimfir
stthechophimtopiecesand
dumpt hem al
lar
oundsouthafr
icasonoonewi l
l
fi
ndhim "wealll
aughbecauseIknowthey'
lldoi
t
andIlovethem t
obit
s.

Me:"YouguysarecrazyandIl
oveyouj
ustt
heway
youare"webreakthehug

Lil
ly:
"whydon'tyoutakeacupofcof
feeandget
yoursel
ftoget
herthencomeback"

Me:"ThanksguysIoweyoual ot.
..I
'
llbeback"Igo
totheof f
iceweshar e,makecoffeeandgot hrough
myphoneandnomessagesf rom him.Isayasi l
ent
thankyout oGodt hatmyboyf ri
endhasn'tphoned
me....
yet.Idri
nkmycof feesil
entl
yt henfi
nshand
joi
nt hegirl
s.Wepr epareever
ythingquicklycause
yesterdaybeforewel ef
twehadsomepr eparati
ons
donesowewon' tdotoomucht hismor ning,andby
ni
neam wear
edone.

Me:"Letsl
oadupguysanddel iver
."Wear eexcited
becausethebusi nessisonl yayearol d,soget t
ing
cli
entssometimesi snoteasyaswehadhopedbut
we'rehopingthatsinceot herbusinessmanand
businesswoment hatwillbet herewherewear e
goingtodeli
verthepl at
ters,they'l
lenjoyourf ood
andaskf orustocat erf
ort heirfutur
ebusi ness
functi
onsaswel l
.

Wear ri
veattheoff
iceandar ecept
ioni
sttakesust
o
theothersi
deofboardroom andwepl aceallt
he
plat
ersanddr i
nkst
henl eave.

Recepti
onLady:
"Hereistheotherhal
foft
hecheck
andthankyouforyourservi
ces"

Me:
"Thankyouandpl
easedon'tf
orgett
o
r
ecommendourbusi
nesstootherpeopl
eandal
so
youguyscancal
lusanyt
imewheneveryouneedus
"

Recepti
onLady:
"we'
l
ldo"weshakehandswi
thher
andleave.

Karabo:
"Donef
ort
oday..
..sowhydon' twegoto
MugandBeanandhavel atebr
eakfast"she
suggest
sandweallagr
eeanddr i
vet hereandor
der

Li
ll
i:
"It
'sf
ri
daytodaysoanypl
ansguys?"sheasks
aswereeati
ng

Me:
"Nope.
.nogoi
ngoutf
orme.
..
Ineedt
orest"It
ell
t
hem

Li
ll
y:"Whathappendyest
erday.
..
.howbadwasi
t?"
Me:
"Sameasalways,i
twasn'
tthatbad"Il
iet
omy
f
ri
endsandIf
eelbad

Li
ll
y:"Idontunder
standwhycan'
tyouj
ustl
eave
hi
m"

Me:"Youknowl i
ll
ythatl
eavingaguyli
ketshepois
noteasy.
..
.hehangsoutwithgangst
ersandyou
knowhow. .
.howscaryhecanbe"Ibl i
nkfastso
theywon'
tseeI'mteari
ngup.

Karabo:
"Ei
shIknowgi r
l,Ij
ustwi
shheshowedyou
t
hatsideofhim whenyoufir
stst
art
edgoingout
"I
wishhedidtoo.

Li
ll
y:"Onedayhe' l
lmeethismat chandI
'mjust
surpri
sedthathehasn'tbrokensomethi
nginyour
bodyyet"Idon'tsayanythi
ngbecauseIknowfor
surehehasbr okenmyr i
bsandhephonedhi s
doctorfr
iendforhelpandgivemesomet hi
ngandI
hi
dthatf
rom t
hem.

Kar
abo:
"Maybehe'
l
lmeetmor
ethanhi
smat
ch"

Me:
"Icur
set
hedayImethi
m "Ir
eal
lydo

Karabo:
"hedoesn'
tdeser
veyou,
andyoumyf riend
onedayyou'
llmeetsomeonewho'l
lbewort
hyto
cal
lyouthei
rs.
"Ipl
acemyhandont opofhers

Me: "Yeahri
ght.
..
.t
hedayIgetoutoft his
si
tuat i
onshi
pI'
m notjumpingintoanyrelat
ionship,
I'
m goingtostaysingl
eforaslongasIwant"weal l
l
aughandwecont inuetal
kingabouteveryt
hing.I
don'tcheckmyphonebecauseIj ustwanttoenjoy
beingwi t
hmyf r
iends.

Me:"Youknowwhat.
..
.weshoul
dgooutand
cel
ebrat
e,I
't
sbeenawhil
esincewewentdanci
ng
andIthi
nkweshoulddoasleepoveraf
tert
hecl
ub"
Theysqueekandpeopl
elookatourt
abl
eandwe
l
augh.

Kar
abo:
"andIknowjustt
hepl
ace.
..
It
'snewand
t
heyopeni
ngitt
oni
ght"

Li
ll
y:"hellyeswear
eandl
il
lywe'
resl
eepi
ngatyour
pl
acet onight"

Karabo:"
sowhydon' twegoanddoal i
tt
leshoppi
ng
fortoni
ghtandtomor r
ow"weagreethenpaythe
bil
landleavebutfi
rstwegoandcheckshopand
tel
lsecuri
tyofthebuil
dingt
hatwe'
l
lbebackon
mondayandl eave.

Wegoshoppi ngaandIbuyabl acklongloose

sleevelessjumpsui
tandlil
lybuysaf r
eakem dr
ess
thatbar el
ycover
sherassandt handocauseshe's
tallshealsobuysafreakem dressthatexposesher
l
ongl egs.wel eavet hemal landheadt omypl ace
andIt akeallt
het hingsI '
m goingtoneedf orthe
weekendandl eavegoi ngtokar abo'spl
acesoshe'll
coll
ectherthingst ooandt hengot oli
ll
y'spl
ace
wherewear egoingt ospendt heweekend.We
arr
iveandt heygetst ar
tedont hewi nethatwason
l
il
ly'
sf ri
dge.

Li
ll
y:"Youwantagl
assofwi
ne?
"

Me:
"sti
llt
ooearl
y,I
'
m goingtonapguys.wakeme
upat5soIcancookbeforeweleave,
wecan'tdr
ink
onanemptystomachs"

Kar
abo:"wear
est
art
ingt
hepar
tynow"

Me:
"alcoholi
cs"wel aughandIleavet
hem andgo
t
othando'ssparebedroom.Lil
lyhasasugardaddy
t
hatpaysthisfl
atforherandhasaskedhertostop
wor
kingbecausehesayshe' l
ltakecar
eofherbut
youknowt
hesemant
heyar
eunpr
edi
ctabl
e.

Mynamei sAyandaSi bi
yaandI '
m 27,or i
ginall
y
from witbank,bothmypar entsaredeadandIwas
theironlychil
d.Ili
vedwi thmygr andmot herthen
shedi edandt henIhadt ol i
vewithmyf ather'
s
brotherwhot ookovermypar ent
'shousewhent hey
passedaway.Il i
vedwi t
hhi m andhi sf
ami l
yuntilhe
kickedmeoutt hesecondyearaf terIf
inishedmy
mat ri
c.Iwasdoi ngpiecejobsbyt henandIhad
managedt osavesomemoneyt hatIwilluset ogo
todur banandst artanewl ife.

Imetkar aboandl il
l
ywhenwewer eallworkingat
kfc.Mostoft hetimewewoul dwor kthesame
shift
sandsowebondedandbecamegr eatfri
ends.
WhenIt ol
dthem thatmyuncl ehasgi ventwo
weekst ogetoutofhi s'house'theywereshocked
andt henItol
dt hem thatIam leavingWitbankand
goingt obeli
vingindur banandt heysaidtheyare
comi ngwithmebecausewecomef r
om fuckedup
f
ami
li
esandnoonewi
llmi
ssus.

Withthemoneywehad, wemanagedt ogetapl ace

torent.West r
uggledtogetjobsbecausewewer e
knewi nthebigcit
yanddi dn'
tknowt hatmuchofi t
butwegetpi ecejobs,part
-t
imej obshereandt her e
andsomet i
meswewoul dgof or3mont hsjobless
andsomet i
mesoneofusorbot hwouldfindjobs.I
considerthesegir
lsmyf amilyandI'l
ldoanyt hing
forthem that'
showt i
ghtandcl osewear e.

Ilaterfoundaj obatJet,karabogotajobatKFC
andl i
l
lywaswor ki
ngSpur .Wemovedoutoft he
placewel ivedatwhenwef i
rstrel
ocat
edwhenwe
foundbet terj
obs.Ifoundajobatwool wort
hslat
er
thatyearandt heincomewasal it
tl
ebitbet
ter
causei tmadeadi ff
erenceandwewentt otheCI
CP
toregisteracateri
ngbusiness.

Thenoneluckydaywemetthisl
adywhowas
rel
ocat
ingtojobur
gandaskedusifwewant
edt
o
rentaf l
atandweagr eedbecausesheknewlil
ly
from workandsowemovedt oherpl
aceandwe
l
ivedt her
e.li
ll
ymethersugardaddyandhet ook
overandpayedt hefl
at6mont hsi
nadvanceandit
wasahugest ressrel
iaverandwewewer eso
ngrateful
.

Thisonet i
mewewentt omugandbeanandt here
weresomeguyssi t
tingbehindust heyarri
vedaf t
er
us.Whenwef inshedeat i
ngoneoft hem askedifhe
couldpayf orourbillbecausehesai dandIquot e
"Beauti
fulwomenl i
keyouar esupposet obe
spoil
eddinedandpamper edsopl easeladiesall
ow
met opayyourbi ll"andweagr eedlit
tl
edidIknow
whatIwasget t
ingmysel finto.

Heaskedt otakemeoutandhewaschar mingsoI

agreedandwedat edandthefir
st5mont hswere
goodt henonourseventhmonthheshowedmehi s
tr
uecol our
s.It
'sayearnowsinceI'
vebeenwithhim.
Myf ri
endsknowt hathephysi
cal
lyabusesme
sl
apsher eandther
ebutt heydon'tknowhowbadi
t
gets.I
tsoundseasywhensomeonesasywhydon' t
youjustgetoutandleavehim butwhensomeone
hasaholdonyouemot ional
ly.
..
younotgoi
ng
anywhere.

Hisnamei sTshepoandhei s37,hel i

vesathi sown
placeandwor ksforadel i
verycompany, they
deliverexpensi vefurnit
urethati
simpor tedby
privateclients,thecompanyhewor ksfor
speci al
isesint hat.Ihavemyownpl acet hatIr
ent
i
t'
snotf ancyj ustaonebedr oom fl
atwitha
ki
tchennet eandsi ti
ngroom aswellast he
bat hr
oom.

Ihearsomeonecalli
ngmynameandIcan'
tmake
outwhoi ti
s.Theyshakemer
oughl
ythi
sti
meandI
panickandscream
Lil
ly:
"ayanda!ayanda!,
It'
sme..
..
shhhhhdon'
tcr
y"I
feeldi
sori
ented,who'scryi
ngnow?
Me:
"Lil
lywhat
'swrongwhyar
eyoucr
ying?"her
f
aceisful
loft
ear
s

Lil
ly:
"youwerescreami
ngforhi
mtostop.
..
kicki
ng
you..
.youwer
escreamingi
npainaya"ohGodshe
hugsmeandcr ies

Me:"heyIwasjusthavingani ght
mare.
..
don'
tcr
y
now"Ilookaroundther oom andseeKarabo
st
andingtherel
ooki
ngatmel ikeshewantst
oki
ll
meandt earsar
efall
ingdownherf ace.

Me:
"kar
abo.
..
..
"li
ll
ycont
inuest
ocr
y

Karabo:"WHATAYANDAWHAT? !
...
.weknowhow
badhehi t
syouokay...
we'veseenthemar ksonyour
back...
yesweknow. ..
."she'
sshouting."youwant
tshepot okil
lyouandt akeyouawayf rom us
huh...
..
lookatyou..
..
youmi serabl
eeversinceyou
mett hatscumbagandyou' reproctecthi
m"
Me:
"whatNO!
,I'
m notpr
otect
inghi
m!"

Karabo:
"yesyouare!
,everyti
meweaskyoui fhe
hit
syouorwhat'sr
eall
ygoi ngon.
..
youli
e!l
ie!and
l
ie!
.Whyayandawhy!?"I '
veneverseenherthi
s
angry

Me:
"Youdon'
tunder
stand"Isayt
ear
srol
li
ngdown
myface

Kar abo:
"Thenmakeme...makeusunder stand
pleaseaya"Ilookatmyfriendsnomysi st
ersand
seewhatIhavedonet othem bybr i
ngingthisman
i
nt oourli
vesanditbr
eaksmyhear tknowingthatI
hurtthem bykeepi
ngthi
ngsf rom him.

Me:"hehasangeri
ssuesandhetakesthem outon
me.Idon'
tsayanythi
ngbecauseIknowit'
sgoingto
hur
tyouguysmor ethani
tdoesmeandIdon' twant
t
hatf
oryou.
"

Li
ll
y:"
butyouwanti
tforyour
sel
f.
..
ri
ght
?"

Me:
"No"Icr
y

Kar
abo:
"wellI'
m notgoingt
oloseasist
erandone
ofmybestf
riends,I
'
llbedamnedift
hathappens"

Me:"you'r
enotgoi
ngt
olosemeguys"I
'
m norsur
e
aboutthat

Karabo:"wealreadyhave.You'
renothappyaya,the
l
aughsandsmi lesyousharewit
husdon'treach
yourbeauti
fuleyes..
.youareal
waystenseand
panickwheneverhephonesyou"shebr eat
hesout
deeply,
wipeshereyesandget sonthebedwi thus
andwehol dhands
Li
ll
y:"youhavet
ochooseaya.I
t'
sei
theryourl
if
e
andusorhim."

Me:
"It
'syouguysal
ways"It
ell
them.

Karabo:
"thenbreakupwit
hhim andwe'l
leven
comewi t
hyousoyouwon' tbealoneandwon'tbe
abl
et oconvi
nceyouother
wise"

Me:" Iwil
l,onmondayI'l
lcal
lhimt ocomeatl i
ll
y'
s
place,Ipromise"Iknowitstherightt
hingtodoand
I'
m goingt odoit
.I'
mt i
redofli
vinmyl i
feinfear
.

Me:
"Il
oveyouguysandt
hankyouf
orbei
ngher
e"
wehug

Them:
"wel
oveyout
oo"
Kar
abo:"uhm i
sthi
stepartwher
ewear
esuppose
t
okissandfuckeachother
?"

Me:
"eeewwwww"Isayweal
llaughourassesof
f

Me:"l
etmegocooksowecaneatbef
orewehi
tthe
cl
ub"

Li
ll
y:"al
readydid.
..
it
'ssevenpm nowandyou
neededtherest"GodI'm bl
essedtohavet
hese
gi
rlsinmyl i
fe.

Me:"Thanksguysl et
sgoeatandgetready"we
l
eavet het
hebedr oom andeatst
eak,
gravyand
pap..
.heydon'
tjudgeus, wel
oveourpap.

Karaboandli
ll
ytaket
hebathroom f
irstandI'
mthe
l
astone,sobytheti
meIgetoutofthebat h,t
hey
al
mosthalfwaydoneandIstartget
ti
ngr eady
dressingupanddomymakeup.Ihearmyphone
beepandIknowi t
'st
shepoandf oraminuteI
panick.Ilookati
tsee3mi ssedcall
sfr
om him andI
delet
et hem andt
hemessagebef oreIevenreadit
becauseIknowi t'
snothi
nggood.

Karabo:
"Ayacomeout !
,wegonnafi
ndtheclubf
ull
i
fwedon' tl
eavenow"shecanbeimpat
ient
sometimes.

Me:"Comi ngI'
m almostdone"Ifi
nishdressi
ngup,
weari
ngmywedgesandal swi t
hmyj umpsuitand
t
henIt akemypur seandseeifallI
'm goingt
oneed
i
sinsideitthenleave.

Lil
ly:
"Iwishyou'
dweart i
ghtcl
othesyou
know...
.youhaveagreatbodyayali
kedamn.
..
.not
thatl
ooset hi
ngyouwearing"

Me:
"St
opi
t,Il
ovewhatI
'
m wear
ingandIf
eel
comf
ort
abl
e"

Li
ll
y:"But
..
..
"

Kar
abo:"nol
indil
eaveheral
one,
let
sgoguys"i
gi
ggle

Me: "Damnya' l
llookhotyeses"welaugh.Lil
lyistal
l
andshe' swear ingthatfr
eakem dr
essand6i nch
sti
lettosandaper uvi
anweavewow, andkarabois
shor t
,she'sasi ze32andal soweari
ngheel sbut
theynott allbecauseifshedoesn'
tweart hem
somet i
messhel ooksl
ikea18yearol dandshe
hatest hat.

Karabo:
"Youtool
ookhot.
..
nowlet'
staket
hese
shotsandgoshakeourasses"wedri
nkshotsof
vodkaneatandif
eelmythroatget
ti
ngwarm.
Me:"damnt hi
sisstr
ong..
..
theuberisher
e
guys.
..wearenotdri
vingbecausewearegoingto
getdrunk.l
etsgobit
chesandt ur
nup!"wescream
andleavetheapart
mentandt heuberdri
vert
akes
ustothe"MileHighClub"
.

Wegetther
eandt
hel
ineofpeopl
ewai
ti
ngt
ogeti
n
i
slong.

Me:"Ohlookatt
hel
ine.
..
ther
e'snowaysar
ewe
get
tingi
n"

Li
ll
y:"Rel
axIknowt
hosebouncer
s,j
ustf
oll
owme
bi
tches"

Karabo:
"I'
m notsur
pri
sed"shesaysandsowe
fol
lowli
ll
yandstandinf
rontoft
heothergr
oupof
gir
ls.
Li
ll
y:"Heyboys"shegr
eet
sthebouncer
sandt
hey
l
ookatus

"
heyyou!
..
can'tyouseethatyouhavetowai
tinthe
l
inel
iket
herestofus"sayssomegi r
lwhodi
dt he
whol
econtourthi
ngwrong.

Bouncer
1:"Ahmygi
rll
il
lyhowyoudoi
ngbaby?
"we
l
ookateachwit
hkar
abo

Li
ll
y:"Beaut
if
ulasal
waysyouknowme"shesays

Bouncer
2:"wesuredoandyourf r
iendsare
gor
geoustoo"helooksatusfrom headtotoeand
l
ooksatthejumperi'
m weari
ngfortoolongandi
st
arttof
eeluncor
fortabl
eandtheotherbouncer
el
bowshim

Bouncer
1:"Ihavej
ustt
heper
fectt
abl
efor
you..
.f
oll
owme"t henhepressesanear pi
eceand
tel
lssomeonetocomei nthefrontandtheothergir
l
l
osesitandcall
susallkindsofnamesbutwedon' t
hearaswegetinsideandwe'reswallowedbyt he
musicinsi
de.

Me:"Wowt hi
splacei
samazi
ng.
..
.i
tevenhasa
secondf
loor"kar
abosays

Bouncer
:"V.
I.
Ponl
yont
hesecondf
loor
"

Li
ll
y:"t
hanksmarkf
orgetti
ngusin"sothe
bouncer'
snameisMarkohk,It
houghthemight
haveascarynamesincehe'
sbigandstr
ong

Him:"anythi
ngforyoubabygi r
l"hesmilesatlill
y
andIgetasenset hatt
here'
smor egoingon
betweenthesetwoandwear egoingt
oaskher .He
takesusjustbelowav.i
.pareaaboveust hathasa
glasswallbutyoucan'
tseeinsidemaybei t
'sthe
of
fi
ceIt
ellmysel
f.

Mar
k:"Sor
rygi
rl
sIcan'
ttakeyout
othevi
p..
thi
sis
t
hebestIcando"

Me:"t
hankyoumarkwearegratef
ul"Ismil
eandhe
seemstolookatmel
ikehe'
stryi
ngtoreadmeor
seessomethi
ngandIdon'
tknowwhatandIj ust
don'
tli
kei
t.

Mark:"Letmeknowi fyouguysneedanyt hi
ng.I
'l
l
sendmygi rlt
inaheretogetyousomething,enj
oy
yournightl
adies"l
il
lyki
sseshischeekandthehe
l
eavesusandwesi tdown.

Kar
abo:
"okwhatwast
hatabout
?"

Me:
"pl
easedot
ellus"Ist
areather
Karabo:
"noImeanthi
mlooki
ngatyoul
iket
hat"
shecorr
ectsme

Me:
"Iknowi
tfr
eakedmeoutt
oo"Ihonest
lysay

Li
ll
y:"He'
sagoodguy.I'
veknownhi mforayear,
so
don'
tworryabouthi
m..
.he'
sjustpr
otect
ivet
hatsall
"huh?

Me:"pr
otect
iveofwhatl
il
ly?
...
.GodIhopeyoudi
dn'
t
t
ellhi
m anyt
hingaboutme?"

Li
ll
y:"I
tmighthavesl
ippedupokayandIwas
worr
iedandsoIendedupt el
li
nghim aboutt
shepo"

Me:
"Icoul
dki
llyour
ight!"

Li
ll
y:"I
'
m sor
ryokay.I
'
mjustscar
edofl
osi
ngyou
I
'
m sor
ry"

Me:"
Iknowyoumeanwell.I
'
m sor
ryf
orsnappi
ngat
you"damnli
il
yandt
alki
ngaboutmybusi
ness.

Li
ll
y:"Wecan'
tlett
hatscumbagr
uinourni
ght"

Kar
abo:
"ncooohlookatyouguys.
..
.gr
ouphug"we
l
aughandhugthenthewaitr
esscomesandwe
or
derabot
tleofchampagne,wecanaffor
dit
.

Weseet hegir
lswelef
toutsi
depassingbyusand
goi
ngt othevi
pareaandthei
rleadergi
vesusalook
andsmi r
ksandtheyal
llaughlooki
ngatour
di
rect
ion.

Li
ll
y:"
Idon'
tli
keher"
Karabo:"she'
sjustanuglybi t
chwear i
ngallt
hat
heavymakeupt ohidethatalcoholi
cfaceshehas
underthere.
"webur stoutlaughingreal
lyhar
d

Me:"letsnotmi ndt hem guys, wereareheret ohave

agoodt ime."wecl ickcheer stothatandr i
ghton
quet hedjplaysrihanna'ssongcheer stofreaking
weekendandwest andupwi t
hourgl assesand
startsi
ngingloudwi tht
hesonganddanci ngtoi t
too.TheDjkeepst hem comi ngpl ayi
ngoneaf t
er
anotherandwe' resi ngi
ngnon- stop.Mani tfeel
sso
goodt obeoutwi thyourf r
iendsandhavi ngagood
ti
meandnotst ressing..
..butdeepdownIam al it
tl
e.
Iknowt shepoisgoi ngtobepi ssedthatIdidn't
answerhi scall
sandcal lhim backandIam scar ed.

karabo:
"heydon'
tdot
hat
,don'
tthi
nkabouthi
m"
thi
sonesheknowsme

Me:
"I'
m not"sher
aiseshereyebr
owandIl
augh
Me:"okI '
l
lstop"wedon' tl
eaveourt able,wedance
ther
e, j
ustchil
li
nghavingagr eatt
imeandguys
comet oaski ft
hey'
l
ljoinusbutwedecl ineni
cel
y
andt heyleaveusal
one.I t
'snowmi dnightandwe'r
e
feel
inghungr ysoweor derameatpl att
er

Me:
"guyswhenar
ewel
eavi
ng?"Iaskt
hem

Li
ll
y:"2am "Il
aughshakingmyheadbecausei
fit
wasupt oherwe'
dstaytheret
hewhol
enightand
l
eaveinthemorning,
that
showmuchshel oves
cl
ubsanddancing.

Me:"I
'm goi
ngtot
heladi
estopowdermynose,
wouldyouladi
esl
iket
ojoinme?"Iaskt
hem
t
wanging

Kar
abo:"wegoodfornowma' l
ady"sheslur
s
t
err
ibl
yandwecr ackup.Iaskoneofthebouncer
s
where'
stheladiesr
oom andshowsmeandmake
mywayt hereandther
e'sali
neandIr
eal
lywanna
goIcan'twaitt
hatl
ong.

Icomebackandmakemywayt othev. i
.pareaand
askt hebouncerifIcouldusetheladiesroom there
buther efusesandIsighandt ur
nbackwhenhe
stopsmeandl etsmepasst ouset heladiesroom
thereandIgeti nsi
deanddomybusi ness, washmy
handst henleavethetoil
etandcoll
idewi t
ht hat
contourgonebadgi rlandshepushesmeoutoft he
wayandIj ustl
ookarher .
..
li
kehowol darewe? .

Ii
gnoreherandI'm aboutt
ot ur
nwhenIf eelt
his
shudderf
rom thebackofmyneckgoi ngallovermy
bodyandmyski ngetscoveredingoosepumbsand
Ifr
eezenotunderst
andingwhati sgoi
ngon
becausethisi
sadiffer
entoneandnott heoneIget
whentshepogetsnexttomeort oucheswherei
j
ustwantt ocr
awloutofmyski nandrunaway.
Thisonefeelsdif
ferent.Il
ookbehindmebutal lI
canseeisapassaget hati
sal i
tt
ledim andther
e
aredoors,Ishakemyheadandpushherandwal k
awayandgot owher ewear esi
tt
ing.Weeatt he
meatplatt
erandi t
ski ndaokaybuthey...
then
karaboopensanot herbott
leofchampagneandwe
conti
nuetodr i
nk.Ilookattheti
meandseei t1:
30
am andIknowwehavet ogonow.

Me:
"Guyswe'
redr
unknowsoi
t'
sti
mewegohome
"

Karabo:"yeah.
..
youri
ght
...
let
sgobit
ches"she'
s
drunk.Iwaiveatthewai
terandhecomesatour
tabl
e.

Me:
"uhm we'
dli
ket
opayourbi
ll"

Wait
er:
"ma'
am everyt
hingisonthehouse.
Someonepayedyourbil
l"whathel
lno,we'
regoi
ng
t
obekidnapedorowesomeoneandidon'
twant
t
hat
.FuckisitTshepowhohaspai
dthebi
ll
..
.Fuck,
I
'
mf ucked

Me:"
thankyoubutwehadalreadyhaveourown
tr
ansportandt
hankwhoeverpaidourbi
ll"henods
andleaves.

Thegir
lsandIl
eavet
heclubandwhenweget
out
sideweseemarkstandi
ngnextt
oahugeSUV.

Mark:"gir
lsI'
l
lbetaki
ngyouhome.Youruberdr i
ver
waspai dsodon'
tworryandI'
l
lsleepbet
terknowing
Il
eftyouhomewher eyou'r
esafe."

Me:"canwetrusthi
mli
ll
y?"Imightbedr
unkbut
notthatdr
unktogowit
hastrangerwhoj
ust
happenstooff
erusali
ft
Li
ll
y:"yeswecandon' tworryfr
iend"soweget
i
nsidewithmar kdr i
vingandhet akesushome.We
arr
iveatli
ll
y'
spl acewhi chhealreadyknows
becausehedi dn'taskfordir
ecti
onandweget
i
nsidetheelevatorandt hentheflat
.

kar
abo:
"thanksmar
kbaby"shesaysgi
ggl
ing

Me:"thankyoumar h,goodnightmar k"gosleepin

thesparebedr oom andkarabodosesof fassoon
asshe'sundert hecoversbutbef or
eIsleepIcheck
myphoneandsee8mi ssedcallsand10messages
from t
shepoandIdel eteallofthem,thenIhear
groaningsoundsandohdamnl il
lyandmar kare
fucki
ng...If
allasl
eephear i
ngthosesounds.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER 18.

Myheadi
spoundingandIfeell
ikeamessandmy
mout
hisdry,
itf
eell
ikeit
sbeenfil
ledwit
hcott
on.I
t
urnonmysidebutIcan'
tbecausekarabohas
t
akenmostoft
hebed.

Me:"Ughthat'
swhyIhateshari
ngabedwit
hyou
causeyoukick"shegi
gglesandIdot
oo.

Kar
abo:
"mor
ningsunshi
ne"shesays

Me:
"mor
ning,
howl
onghaveyoubeenawake?"

Her:
"notl
ong,
wasawakenbyyourphoner
ingi
ng
non-
stop"

Me:
"ught
shepo?"shenods

Her:
"youknowhe'
spi
ssedwher
evert
hehel
lhei
s"
shesays

Me:
"IknowandIcan'
tignor
ehi
mfor
ever
.Ihavet
o
br
eakupwi
thhi
mtoday"

Her:
"that
'smygi
rlandwe'
llberi
ghther
ewi
thyou"I
shakemyheadno,andgetofft
hebed.

Me:"nokarabo.Ihavet
odothi
salone,
Idon'
twant
hi
mt hi
nkingit
'syouguyswhowantmet obr
eakup
wi
thhim."

Her:
"I'
mjustscaredofwhathe'
l
ldot
oyouwhen
youtel
lhi
mi t
'sover"

Me:
"IfIseeanysignsthathe'
slosi
ngi
t,I
'
ll
i
mmediatel
ycallyouguys."

Her
:"andwe'
l
lbr
ingmar
kwi
thus"shesaysandwe
bot
hgiggl
e
Me:"Ihear
dthem l
astni
ghtgoi
ngati
t"Isay
bl
ushing

Her:
"ohmygodandImi ssedoutdamn"shecan
shockyousomet
imes.

Me:
"whatwer
eyougoi
ngt
odo?"Iaskher

Her:
"watchthem ofcour
se"webot
hlaught
henwe
hearl
il
lyshouti
ng

Lil
ly:
"St
optal
kingaboutmyescapedesandcome
eatyoushi
ts"welaughandwef i
ndherstuf
fi
ngher
facewit
hbaconanditsmell
samazing

Me:"l
ookwhogoti
tal
lthi
smor
ning"shesmi
lesnot
evendenyi
ngi
t
Karabo:"oh!oh!oh!markyesr
ightt
here,
yeeeesssss"shesaysmovingherhipsupanddown
thechairandwel augh

Li
ll
y:"karabowhyar
esoetxrayeah?"t
handoasks
her
,wel aughandIl
ookattheti
meit'
s11am

Karabo:
"Iam whatIam"shesayseati
ngbacon.I
l
eavethem andgotothebathr
oom andshower
qui
cklythenbr
ushmyt eet
hcomebackf i
ndthem
st
il
leati
ng,Isi
tdownandjointhem.

Me:"Af
terbr
unchI'm goi
ngt omypl acetobreak
t
hingsoffwi
thtshepo"Ibreatheoutdeeply

Li
ll
y:"youwantust
ocomewi
thyou?"

Me:
"nobutI
'
llcal
lyoui
fIseehi
mlosi
ngi
t"It
ell
t
hem
Li
ll
y:"noti
f,when.
"

Me:"I
'l
lbef
ine,don'
twor
ryandyoumi ssywhatis
happeni
ngbetweenyouandmark?"shelaughs

Lil
ly:
"not
hingi
sgoi
ngon.wehookupnowand
then"

Kar
abo:
"what
?..
.howcomewedon'
tknow?"

Lil
ly:
"becauseyouguysdon'tl
ivewi
thmeanymor
e
that'
swhy"sher ol
lshereyes

Me:"whataboutpapasmurf
?"wel aughcause
that
sthenicknameIgavehi
m.Lil
ly'
ssugardaddy
hassil
verhairandbear
dsoheremindedofpapa
smurfthecartoons
Lil
ly:"hewon'tfi
ndoutandifhedoessowhat ,he'
s
mar ried"sheshrugsandwedon'tsayanythi
ng.
We' vehadt hi
sconver
sati
onwithheraboutbeing
theot herwomanbutshedoesn'tmind.
..
.soyeahits
noneofourbusi ness.

Me:"LetmegoguysI '
llcal
landl
etyouknow"they
nodandIl eave.Igeti
nsidemycarandcheckmy
phoneandseehephonedagai nandsincei
twason
si
lentIdi
dn'thearitandit'
snotl
ikeIwasgoi
ngto
answeritanyway.

Idri
vetomypl aceandcal lhim ont hewayonl oud
speakerbutitringsandgoesst raighttovoicemail
.I
seehiscarpar kedout sidet heflatIli
veinandmy
heartdrops.He'ssitt
ingi nt hecarsmoki ngandhe
seesme.Ipar kmycar ,andgetout ,
takemybag
andtrytolocki tbutt
hekeysf allbecauseI'
m
tr
embl i
ng.Heal soget soutoft hecarandl ocksit
andwai tsformet ofinisht henIf eelhi
m standing
behi
ndmenotsayi
nganyt
hingandt
hatf
reaksme
out.

Hi
m:"youokbaby?"heasksmeandInod

Me:"yes.
..
I'
m okay"Il
ie.Hetakesmykeysandbag,
holdsmyhandandwegot othef l
at.Heunlocksthe
doorwegetinthenhecl osesitnotsayinganythi
ng
andtakesmet othebedroom.Thi sisunli
kehim
becausewhatIexpectedishim slappingmeont he
facethemomenthecl osedthatdoor .Hetakesoff
hisshoesandI'
mj uststandi
ngt herenotknowing
whattodo.

Him:"Comel
etsnap,
Ididn'
tsl
eepl
astni
ght
"he
getsonmybedandlaysdownfaci
ngupandlooks
atme

Him:"babycomeI
'
m notgoi
ngt
osl
eepal
one"he
says
Me:"Tshepoweneedt
otal
kI.
..
."It
ryt
otal
kbuthe
i
nterupt
sme

Him:"Canwesl eepfir
sttheneatandt henwecan
tal
k"hesaysbor edort i
redIdon'tknowsoIl etitgo
buttheotherpartofmybr aini
st el
li
ngmet otell
him nowthatit'
soverandt heothernotsosmar t
partofmybr ai
nignoresthat.I
'm weari
ngyoga
pantsandal ongsleevetopandsneaker ssoIt ake
thesneakersoffandgeti nbedwi t
hhim.Ilaywi th
mybackt ohisfrontandhedr agsmybodycl oset o
hisandItenseandshake.

Him:"Stopdoingthat,
everyt
imeItouchyouorhol d
you,youtenseupandIdon' tl
ikeit
"hesaysl i
kethat
hurt
shim..yeahrightl
ikei
tsmyf aul
tthatIfeelordo
that
.Hest ar
tskissimgmyneckandIf eelhi
sdick
gett
inghardandhepr essesitonmyass.GodI
don'
twantt odoi t
.
Me:"Tshepo.
..
..
"herol
lsmetomybackandget s
bet
weenmyl egsandinmymi ndI'
m scr
eamingno
don'
ttouchmeandIdon'twanttodothi
sbutmy
l
ipsremaincl
osed.

Him: "shhhImi ssedyouandIj ustwantt ofeelyou"

Itryt otal
kbuthesi l
encesmewi thakissand
doesn' tstop.Hetri
estotakeoffmyt opbutIgr ipit
tost ophimt henhelooksatmeandIcanseehe' s
tr
yingr eallyhar
dnott ogetbuthe'sdemeanersays
other wisesoIlethimtakeitoffalongwithallofmy
clothesandIl aytherenaked,sti
llwait
ingforthe
blowsbutt heynevercome.

het akesoffhi
sclothesaswellandthentakesouta
condom onmysi detabl
eandsheat heshimself
.He
opensmyl egsandgetsbetweent hem andstar
t
kissingmeandt hosekissesandt hewayhe's
holdingmer emindsmeoft hef i
rstt
imeweslept
togetherandIfeeltear
scoveringmeeyes.
Him:"I
'
m goi
ngt
omakeyouf
eelsogoodbaby"he
says

Hekissesmef rom mybr east

st omyst omachand
downt her
eandf orthef i
rstti
meeverhegoesdown
onmeandeat sme.It rytogetmybodyt orel
axbut
mymi ndwon' tletmebecauseIhat eever
ysingl
e
thi
nghe'sdoi ng.Iskwi rm andtrytopushoffhis
facebuthehol dsmet ightsti
lleat
ingmeandIf ake
myor gasm thenhequi cklymovesupmybodyand
enter
smesl owandIcl osemyeyes.Hebur i
eshis
handsonmyhai randki ssesmedeepl yandsofly
andIcant astemysel fonhi m, andhe'sst
il
lmoving
i
nandoutofmesl owly.

Me:"what'
sgoingon,
whyar
eyoubei
ngl
iket
his?
"I
askhimteari
ngup.

Him:"I
'mjustshowi
ngyouhowmuchIl oveyou"he
changest
hepaceandf lexeshi
shipsandassand
star
tstof
uckmef astandIstar
ttoshakemybody
faki
ngmyor gasm coveringmyf acethenhecomes
groani
ngloud.Welayt herenotsayinganythi
ng
thenhegetsupandgoest othebathroom t
of l
ush
thecondom,comeswi thawett owelandcleansme
andhe'sneverdonethatbeforeIalwaysclean
myself
.

Him:"Let
sgogetsomet
hingtoeatt
henwe' l
ltal
k"I
nodandhewearshiscl
othesandIwearmi netoo
buthestopsme."
Whydon'tyouwearthatdressI
l
ike"hesays

Me:"i
t'
snott
hathotf
ormet
oweart
hatdr
ess"It
ell
hi
m

Him:"Iknowbabybuti
t'
swarm out
sideandwe'
l
lbe
backbeforei
tst
art
sgett
ingchi
ll
y"

Me:"ok"Ikeepaski
ngmysel
fwhyhewantsme
wearthatdr
essormaybehe'
shopi
ngforanot
her
r
ound.

Iwearitandt hentakemybagcauseIknowmy
phoneisinsidethenwel eave.Wet akemycarhe' s
theonethat'sdri
vingandhepl aysmet rofm, t
he
ri
deissil
entwedon' tt
alkandI'
m gr owingvery
uncomfortablewitheverypassingmomentandIt r
y
toreadhimt oseewher ehisheadi satbutit'
slike
hehasclosedof f.Wegot onandosdr i
vethrough,
heordersforbothofusasal waysandt henwe
l
eave.Het akesthedi r
ecti
ontohi stownhouseand
mydangerr aidergoesf r
om 10t o100

Me:"Ithoughtweweregoingbacktomyplace
tshepo?"helooksatmesmi l
esandthehai
ronthe
backofmyneckst andsandIknowitsbad.
Him:"t
here'
ssomethingIhavet odo, i
t'
sgoi
ngt
obe
qui
ckandt henwe'l
lgot oyourplace"hehol
dsmy
handandkissesit
.Hedr ivesinandparkshi
scar,
getsoutandIstayi
ni nside.
Me:"I
'l
lwai
ther
e,yougoahead"helooksatmeli
ke
I
'm cr
azyandcomesonmysi deoft
hecaropens
t
hedooranddragsmeoutsi
deandIt akemyback
wit
hme.

Hi
m:"Iwantasecondr
oundt
oo,
pleasecome?
"

Me:"No!"Ishakemyheadandst andst i
llbuthe
holdsmyhandt i
ghtlyanddragmei nsidet hehouse
andlockst hedoorbehindme,Itrytopullmyar m
butit'
stoot i
ghtthenIfeel
ahotf ul
lslapacr ossmy
faceandIst aggerandseestars.Icovermyf ace
buthepunchesmyst omachandIf al
lonmyknees,
scream forsomeonet ohelpmebutIknow, noone
i
sgoi ngtohel pme.

Me:
''
Tshepopl
ease..
.don'
tbeatmeanymor
eIcan'
t
t
akeit
"Ibeghi
m cryi
ng

Hi
m:"
Youst
upi
dbi
tch(
punch)yout
houghtIwoul
d
j
ustleti
tgohuh"heconti
nuest
okickandand
punchmewher eeverhi
shandsandfeetl
andon
mybody.

Me:"I
t'
sovert
shepo.
..
I'
m donewi
thyou,youcan'
t
keepusi
ngmeasyourpunchingbag"It
ellhi
m

Him: "Youpi eceofshi

t!
,(punch)f
rigidbit
ch!
(punch) .
.wherethefuckwereyou?( ki
ck),Iphoned
you( kick)andyouignoremycal l
s( ki
ck)huh..
.l
et
meshowwhatIdot osomeonewhoi gnoresme"he
brutall
yki cksandpunchesmeal lover.

Icrymyeyesoutandt ryt
orunbutIf eelhisshoe
onmybackhol di
ngmedownt henIf eelakissofa
l
eatherbeltonmybackandIscr eam trytotugit
fr
eef r
om him buthe'
smuchst rongerthanme.He
beatsmebl ackandblueandIfeellikeI'
m goingto
die,I
'
mt ir
edoff i
ght
ingandbeggi nghimt ostopand
Ij
ustlaythereashecont i
nuesto...
.t
owhi pmewi th
hisbelt
,mybodyandf acehur
tssomuchandIcan' t
evenmove.

Him:"Answermeyoust i
nki
ngwhore.
..
"hel
aughs
andIcryhard.
..
hadnotaccept
edtogoonadate
wit
hhim Iwouldn'
thavemetthi
smanandbegoing
thr
oughthis.

Hecont i
nuest ocallmenamesandasksmewher eI
went,whydi dn'
tItel
lhim,whodidIf uckwithmy
coldvaginawho' dwantt hi
scoldvagi nali
keit
s
deadandIdon' tanswerhim whichpisseshim of f
evenmor e.Hebeat smeunt i
lmydr essistearedup
andstickingonmyski n.Ist
opcr yi
ngandj usttake
thebeating, If
eelveryhotandmyl ungshur tf
r om
j
ustbreat hingandInot i
cethatI
'
m cover edinbl ood
andthef loortoo.

Him"Il
oveyouandyouknowt hat
..
.I
t'
syouwho
makesmedot hi
s..
.i
t'
sal
lyourfaul
tandyouhavet o
makeituptome..
"Idon'
theartherestofwhathe
saysasIpassout
.
I'
m awakenwhenIf eelcol
dwat
erallovermybody
andIscream becausemywholebodyhur t
sandit
burnsverybad.Iopenmyeyesandseet hatI
'
mi n
hisshowerandoneofmyeyeswon' topenbecause
i
tsswollenshut.

Hi
m: "It
houghtyouweredead.
..
ohGodIthoughtI
ki
ll
edyou"Icoughoutbl
oodandithur
ts.

Hepi cksmeupr oughlynotcaringt hatI'

m hurtand
throwsmeont opofthebedf acingupandInot i
ce
thatI'm naked.Het akesoffhispant sand
under wearandget sontopofmeandIt r
yt omove
butmybodycan' tmoveatal landIj ustcry.He
entersmer oughlyandI '
m dryithur tssomuchand
hest artstor apemesor oughIt hinkI '
m bleeding
downt hereandt hencomesandst artl
aughi ngli
ke
crazyandal lIcandoi swatchhi m cryingmyeyes
out.
Him:"Atleastyourgoodforonethi
ng.
..
.opening
yourlegs"heslapsmyt hi
ghsandgetsoffthebed
andhegoesi ntotheshowerandshowers,comes
outandwear scleanclot
heslooki
ngatmel aughi
ng
andshakinghishead.

Him:"I'
llbebackj ustwaitt
here,exact
lyasyou
are..
I'
m goi ngtoseemywomanIbetshe' swor r
ied
aboutme, soIcan'tkeepherwaiti
ng"hethenleaves.
Ihearhiscardr ivi
ngoutandIt r
yt omovebutits
l
ikeever ybonei nmyf l
eshisbreakingand
broken...
.Godwhydi dIagreetocomewi t
hhim and
sleepwi t
hhi m..whydidIal
lowthismani ntomy
l
ife?,t
hisisal lmyfault
.

Itrymoveagainandt hi
stimeIdoandIf al
lofft
he
bedandwi nce.It
rytocrawlbutIj
usthurtmyself
mor e,
soIdragmybodyt othedi
ningroom onmy
stomachandt henseemybag.Igett oitaf
rai
dthat
tshepoisgoingtobehereatanymomentandki ll
met hi
stime.Iopenitandandlookformyphone
andwhenIdon'
tfi
ndi
tIpani
ckbuttr
yagainandI
fi
ndi
tthi
sti
meandIspeeddial1anditr
ings

Kar
abo:
"Ayanda?"

Me:
"HELPME!
..
.HELP.
..
.I
'M ATHI
SPLACECOME
NOW "
CHAPTER19.

MBUSO.

I'
m goingoutofmymi ndtryingtof i
gur eoutwhat
thehellsi
celoistalki
ngabout .Hecan' tbeupset
thatIwhipedbuhlebecauseshest arteditanditis
herfaultt
hatIendedupbeat ingher.Ihopet hatfool
i
snotdevel opingfeeli
ngsforbuhl ebecauseIwant
thatgi
tloutofmyl ifeandluh'sli
fe.Ihadt otel
lthe
peopleIwasgoi ngt osel
lbuhl et
oo, t
owai tandthat
I'
lll
etthem knowwhen.
Luh:
"boo?"

Me: "baby?"wear eatourpl acei nLadysmi th, we

arrivedtwohour sago.Af tertheydi schargedherI
tookmyf ami l
yanddr oveust here.Herdadcal led
herandgaveusf ewhour st henhe' scomi ngt o
fetchhi sdaughterandIst il
lhavet oaskhi mf orhis
blessingst oall
owmet omar ryherdaught erandhe
mi ghtsaynoandIdon' tthinkl uhwoul dmar ryme
withoutherf ather'
sblessi
ngandIwoul dn'twant
thateither.IfhesaysnoI '
lljusthavet opr ovet ohim
thatI '
m worthyofhisdaught er'
slove.Ilovet his
womanandI '
mt i
redofnotwaki ngupandshe' snot
nextt ome.

Her:
"mbusoyou'redoi
ngthi
sagain,zoni
ngout
whenI'mtal
kingwit
hyou"she'scut
ewhenshe's
annoyedIpul
lhercl
oseandkissher
Me:"I
'
m sor
rybaby,
It'
sthi
nki
ngaboutourfut
ure
andhowperf
ectIwantitt
obeforyou,
forusand
ourki
ds"

Her:"I
t'
supt oustomakei tper
fectboo.Wehaveto
beli
evei nourloveandknowt hatiti
sst r
ongandit
cansur viveanythi
ng.Wehavet obetrusteach
other,
haveeachot her'
sbacks,
bet r
uthfuland
honestwi theachot hermbusonomat terwhat"

Me:
"wher
ewer
eyoual
lmyl
if
elungi
le"

Her
:"f
ateboughtust
oget
her"

Me:
"buhl
e?,
nowaysbaby"shecr
acksup

Her:"noboo.Fat
eusedhertobringyoutomeand
thenitgavememyf ami
ly.Ihavetothankbuhl
e
becauseshesavedmylife"
Me:"whenourbabiesar
ebornthenyout
oocan
meetupandtalktoherbutf
ornow,I'
l
lmakesur
e
st
aysawayfrom you"

Her:
"pr
omisemeyouwon'
tki
llhermbusobecause
Iknowyou"

Me:
".
..
..
..
fi
neIwon'
tki
llher"

Her:"IloveyoumbusoandIdon' twantyoutogo
backt othewayyouwerewhenwef i
rstmet
.That
personwasangr yandIdon'tl
ikethatmbuso,
promisemeyouwon' tchangeandgobackt oyour
ol
dar rogantsel
f"shegi
ggles,manIl ovet
his
woman

Me:"Ipr
omi
seIwon'
tgobackt
omyar
rogantol
d
sel
f"
Her:
"that
'st
hesecondpromi
seyou'
remaki
ngt
ome
andyoubett
erkeepthi
sone"

Me:"IknowIoncepromisedyouthatIwasn'
tgoi
ng
toi
ntenti
onal
lyhur
tyouandI'm gi
vingt
hatpromi
se
agai
n.IswearIwon'thur
tyoueveragain"

Her
:"Ibel
ieveyou"

Me:
"Il
oveyouMashi
yamahl
e"Shebl
ushes

Her
:"Il
oveyout
oozdaddy"

Me:
"hmm.
..
I'
m yourdzaddy?"

Her
:"yesyouar
e"
Me:"comehere..
..
"weki
ssandI'
m abouttot
akeof
f
hercl
otheswhenherphoneri
ngsandIgroan
fr
ustr
atedbecauseIr
eal
lywantt
ogetsome.

Her:
"Dad.
..
..
.ok?"he'
sal r
eadyhere.
..
thi
sman
wantsmetodi ef
rom bluebal
ls,
shehangsupthen
l
ooksatmydi ckandlaughs

Me:
"ohyoul
aughi
ngatme?"

Her
:"dadi
sher
eout
side,
gol
ethi
minwhi
leIwash
myface"

Me:
"doesheknowt
hisi
syourhouse?"

Her
:"no,
het
hinksi
t'
syour
s"

Me:
"youhavet
otel
lhi
mluh"
Her
:"youboughtmet
hishouseandsoyout
ellhi
m"

Me:"l
etmegobeforehethi
nksI'
m bangi
ngyou"
shegi
gglesandIgetof
fthebedandfixmyhar
don
thenl
eave.

Iopent
hegateandhedr
ivesi
nwithhiscarthenI
meethi
m hal
fwaywhenhegetsoutofthecar.

Me:
"Goodaf
ter
noonMaphol
oba"

Him:"j
uniorgumede,howar
eyou?"weshake
hands,okthi
sisgood.

Me:
"I'
m goodandhappy"

Hi
m:"Iseebecauseyouhavemydaught
eral
lto
your
sel
f,youwanthert
ocohi
bit
atewi
thyou?"

Me:"Nosir
.Actual
lyIwant
edtot
alkt
oyouabout
somethi
ng.Iwasgoingtocomet
oyourhouseand
askyouSir
..
..
.."

Hi
m:"mbusot
alk?"

Me:
"canwegeti
nthehouseandsi
tdown"

Him:"t
hehouseyoubr
oughtmydaught
er?"f
uckhe
knows

Me:
"yessi
randIwasgoi
ngtotel
lyouabouti
tnow,
t
oo"heshakeshi
sheadl
ikehe'
sdefeat
ed

Him:
"fi
ne,
leadt
heway"wegeti nsi
dethehouse
andIl
eadhimtotheempt
yli
vingroom t
hen
strai
ghtt
othekit
chenbecauset
hat
'st
heonl
ypl
ace
thathaschai
rs.

Me:
"pl
easesi
tdown"

Hi
m:"whenar
eyouf
urni
shi
ngi
t?"

Me:"Itol
dhertohir
eanint
eri
ordesignerand
fur
nishitwhat
everwaysheli
kes.
..
what evermakes
herhappy"

HI
im:
"hmmm "

Me:"uhm sir
.Iknowmemeet i
ngyourdaughterwas
underveryunfortunateci
rcumstancesandthings
werejustmessedupandt herearemanyt hi
ngsI
coul
dhavedonet oavoidmostoft hethi
ngsIdi dt
o
herandIwoul dli
ket ofi
xalloft
hatanddot hings
theri
ghtwayi fyouwoul dall
owmet hechance"I
l
ookathi
m andhe'
slooki
ngatmenotevenbl
inki
ng

Hi
m:"I'
ml i
steni
ng,
conti
nue"t
hismani
sver
y
i
nti
midati
nglikemydad.

Me:"Sirwit
hyourper
missionI'
m aski
ngf oryour
daughter
'shandinmarr
iage.Iwouldl
ovet omarry
yourdaughterandmakehermywi feandbui l
da
homewi thherandmakeyouagr andfat
herofmany
grandki
ds"Iseeaghostsmi l
ewhenIsayt helast
part.

Hi
m:"ar
eyouser
iousaboutwhatyou'
reaski
ng
mbuso?"

Me:
"wi
thever
ybei
ngonmybodysi
r"

Hi
m:"andi
fIsayno,
whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo?"
Me: "itwouldbr eakmyhear tsirI
'm notgoi ngtolie,
butIwon' tgiveuponaski ngyouagai nbecauseI
willprovemysel ftoherandt oyout hatIloveher .I
willdoanyt hingt oprotectherandIwi llgi
ve
anyt hingt
oseeheral wayshappy.Iwi llprovet oyou
thatI '
m worthyt obel ovedbyherandt hatIdeser ve
hert obeinmyl ifebecauseIl ostheroncebecause
Itookherf orgrant edandi twast hewor sttimeof
myl ifeandIdon' teverwanttogot hrought hatever
again.Myl ifedoesn' tmakesensewi t
houthersi r
.
Pleaseal l
owmet omar ryyourdaught er".fuckI '
m
sweat ing,
Iwi pemyf oreheadandl ookathi m.

Him:"goandgetl ungi"Igetupandtur
nbutIsee
hercomingandshesmi l
esandhastearsinher
eyes,shewaslisteni
ng.Shecomest omeandhugs
met henlooksatmeandIwi pehert
ears.Shegoes
andkissesherdadont hecheekt
henwesi tdown
holdhandsandl ookatherdad.

Maphol
oba:
"Lungi
le,
yest
erdayIr
ecei
vedal
ett
er
f
rom theGumedef amil
y.Theyar erequest
inga
meeti
ngwi thmeandyouruncl esandIaccepted
t
heletterandtol
dthem wewillbeincontactwi
th
t
hem.Mbusohasaskedmef oryourhandi n
marr
iageandbef or
eIgivehim myanswer ,Iwoul
d
l
iket
ot alktoyoufi
rst"

Him:"Lungilemychi l
d,fi
ndingyouagai nhas
broughtjoyinmyl i
fethatInevert houghtIwillever
feelagainandIthankgodandmyancer stor
st hat
wef oundeachot heragainandi twasbecauseof
thi
smansi t
tingnextyou,themanwho' schild
you'recarr
yingandIdon' tknowi fIhaveeversai di
t
butthankyoumbuso.Thankyouf orsavingherand
doingwhatyout houghtwasbestandsor ryforthe
pressureIputyouon. "IneverthoughtIwoul dhear
l
uh'sf at
hersaythisandI '
m pleased.

Me:
"thankyousi
r"

Hi
m:"I
'
m al
sosor
rymychi
ldf
ort
het
hingswedi
d
toyouthinki
ngthatwe'r
emaki ngr
ightdeci
sions
butitwaswrongofust omakedeci sionswit
hout
thi
nkingaboutyourfeel
ings,sothat'
swhyIwant
youtotellmehowyouf eel aboutt
hismanwho
wantstomar r
yyou".

Luh:"If
orgivehim dadf oreveryt
hingandIhaveput
i
tbehindmebecausei tisourpast .ThemanIknow
nowi scompletelydif
ferenttothemanIknewt hen.
Iknowt hathelovesmewi thoutashadowofdoubt
andIbel i
eveinhim.Iknowhewi l
ldoeverythi
ngin
hispowert oalwaysmakeushappyandputusf ir
st
i
nhi sli
febeforeanythingelse.Irespecthim,Il
ove
him dadandIwantt obehi swife"I'
ml ooki
ngather
allt
histi
me, l
isteni
ngtoherandIbel i
evethatmy
ancerst
orscamet hr
oughf ormewhenImetl ungi
.

Him:"I
'm happytoheart
hatyouarehappymychi ld.
MbusouLungi l
eismychildandsopl easedon'
thurt
hereveragain,
shehastwodad's.Youknowshe
comesf r
om averyri
chfamilyeventhoughshe
didn'
tgr owupr i
chbutbutmydaught erfor
get st
hat
sheisr i
ch.Youknowt hatshecanhaveever ythi
ng
shewant sandneedsandshe'l
lneverwantf or
anything.She'sahumblepersonli
kehermot her
andt hatmakesherveryvunrabl
eandpeopl ewi l
l
takeadvant ageoft
hatandyoumustpr ot
ecther
from suchpeople"

Him:"whatyoubothwanti snotachild'splay.When
youdot hisyougoallthewayf orli
fe,tradi
ti
onal
weddi ngandawhiteonei fyoubothwanti t
.Idon't
wantt okeepbothofyouf rom bei
nghappyand
beingwi t
heachotherandIwantmydaught ertobe
happyandshechoosest obehappywi thyousoI
won'tdenyyouthat.I'
veli
vedal ongempt ylifeand
nowIj ustwantt
obehappywi thallofmyki dsand
thati
ncludesyoutoombusobecauseyouar epart
ofthisfamil
ynow.Youhavemybl essingstoget
mar r
ied.

Me:
"thankyouMaphol
oba,
thankyouveymuch!"I
st
andupandshakehi
shandbuthehugsme.
..a
manhug.

Luh:
"thankyoudaddy,
Iloveyou"shehughi
mtoo

Hi
m:"I
'
m goi
ngt
oaskonet
hingt
hough"

Us:
"anyt
hing"wel
ookateachot
herandl
augh.

Hi
m:"canyougetmarr
iedbef
oret
hebabyi
sbor
n?"
Il
ookatl
uhandshelooks

Luh:
"dadI'
m duei
nfourmont
hsandpl
anni
nga
weddi
ngisstr
essf
ul"

Me:"yourmom, mymom, simphiwe,youraunt

sare
al
lthereevenyourdoct
or.
..
tel
lthem whatyouwant
andleavetherestt
othem "
Maphol
oba:
"Ial
mostf
orgott
hedoct
or"heshakes
hi
sheadsmil
ing

Luh:"t
hat'
sagr
eatideapl usprest
oni
scomingt
o
checkuponmet oday.
..
.thankyoubooanddad
we'l
lhaveaweddingbefor et
hebabyi
sborn"

Him:"thankyou.Nowletsgo,youneedtoeatand
rest"Iwalkthem outt
othecarthenherdadgives
ussomepr i
vacy

Me:"Il
oveyouandt
hankyouf
orwhatyousai
dto
yourdad"

Her:
"ImeanteverywordIsai
dtohim.Il
oveyoutoo
"Iki
sshercheeckopenthedoorf
orher,
shegetsin
thecarandof
ftheygo.
Thatwentbet
terthanIt
houghtandahugeweight
hasbeenli
ft
edoffmyshoulders.NowIhavet
ogo
todur
banandf i
ndoutwhatthehelli
sgoi
ngon.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER19.

MBUSO.

TosayIj ustloveLungiisanunderstatement.I
real
lylovethatwomanandI '
llf
oreverbegrateful
thatshegavemeasecondchancet obepartofher
l
ifeagainandt hechil
drenwear egoingt ohave.I
meantever ywor dIsai
dt oherfat
herandIdon' t
wanttomakehi m di
sli
kemeornott rustmewi t
h
hisdaughterslif
e.I'
l
lmoveheavenandear thtogive
herwhatshewant sortakeawayever ythi
ngthat
hurtsorharmsher .

Idri
veintot
hehouseSicel
oandIboughtandwe
pl
acedbuhlether
ewit
hcelest
esoshecanwatch
herandthesecur
it
yguysandshebett
erbenott
he
reasonwhyI'm hereorwhateversicelot
hinksIdid
toherbecauseI '
m seri
ousl
ytiredofherandher
bull
shit
.Igeti
nt hehouseandf indsicel
ositt
ing
downandl ooki
ngmi serabl
e

Me:"what
'swr
ongf
ool
?,youl
ooksomi
ser
abl
e"I
chuckl
e

Hi
m:"f
ooli
syourass"

Me:
"what
'swr
ongbr
o"

Him:"I'
llt
ellyoul
ater
,rightnowwehaveapr
obl
em
orratheryouhaveapr oblem "

Me:
"isbuhl
edead?"

Hi
m:"noshe'
snot"
Me:
"thenwhati
sbr
o?"

Hi
m:"Iwasataclubl
astnightandrecei
vedatext
messagef
rom cel
est
etel
li
ngmet hatbuhlei
s
hi
gh..
..
"

Me:
"It
oldcel
est
enotgi
veherany,
whydi
dshedoi
t?
"

Him"brotheraskherokay,asIwastel
li
ngyou
beforeyoukindl
yint
eruptedme.Shesaysthatshe
hasaki dwithyou"Il
aughshakingmyhead
becausethisbit
chiswaymor edel
isi
onalt
hanI
thought.

Me:
"thi
sbi
tchi
sfuckedup.wher
ethef
ucki
sshe"

Hi
m:"doyouknowwhatt
hisshi
tisgoi
ngt
odot
o
l
uh? ,
browhydi
dyouf
uckt
hatbi
tchr
aw?"he
shout
s

Me:"manI'veneverf
uckedt
hatbi
tchr
aw!
..
..and
youbel
ievedherli
esbro?"

Him:
"shewashi
ghandyouknowhowi ti
swhen
you'
rehi
gh,
youst
artspi
ll
ingsecr
ets"

Me:"di
dInottellyout
hatI
nvesti
gatedthatbitch
andfoundthatshehasachil
danditdidn'tcross
yourmindthati
fIhadakidwithherIwoul dhave
foundoutandtoldyou?"

Him:"broyouknowhowconnivi
ngt
hisbi
tchi
sand
keepingsecr
etsi
sinherD.
N.A."

Me:"Idon'
thaveafuckenchi
ldwi
tht
hatbi
tch!and
wherethefucki
sshe!"
Hi
m:"br
ocomedownf
ir
stbef
oreyouconf
ronther"

Me: "don'ttel
lmet ocalm downscelo.Canyou
i
magi nei fyouhadwr it
tenwhatbuhl esaidont he
textmessageyousentandyoursi sterhappendt o
seei t
,woul dyoubet el
li
ngmet ocalm downscel o?.
Wecoul dbet al
kingaboutsomet hi
ngdi f
ferentnow
andt hedoct orsaidnottostressherandt hiswas
goingt omakehermaybel osemy...
fuuck!.buhle
getyourassdownher enow! !
!!
!"

Godwhydi dIpromiseluht
hatIwon'tki
llt
hisbi
tch
becauseherskeamingandconnivi
ngasswon' t
stopheref
rom spreadi
ngli
esandcausing
probl
emsbetweenmeandl uh.

Sicel
o:"I'
m sor
ryIbel
ievedherbr
obutyou
understandwhyIhadt oassumethat"
Me:"Sicelowe'veknowneachot heralmostt he
samet imeasIknewyoursi st
erandmeandyou, we
gotclose.Asaf ri
endandyourf uturebr otherin-l
aw
Ithoughtyouknewmebet terthant hat .Youhave
seenmef ucki
ngupwi thyoursi sterandIconf ided
i
nyoumostoft hethi
ngsmyt hr eebestf r
iends
don'tknowaboutbecauseyouunder standme
betterandIthinkyouknowmebet t
erthant hem too
duringthetimewehaveknowneachot her.IknowI
haveapastwi thbuhleandIr ealisethati tisalways
goingtohauntmef orther
estofmyl if
eButf oryou
tojustassumebr otherandbelievet hisshi tshe's
saying,i
tfuckensucks"

Sicelo:"Ipanickedbecausel
uhwast heonlyperson
Ithoughti sgoingtogethurt
.lookbroyou'
remor e
thanmysi stershusbandtobebecauseIconsider
youasmyot herbrother
,mybestfri
endtooandwe
areconnect edbybl oodnowwhi chmeanswe're
alwaysgoi ngt obeineachother'
scasesand
throats.I'
m sorrybro"wehugi tout
Me:
"youfuckenass,
Idon'
tneedthisst
ress.Ineed
t
obefocusi
ngonmywi feandkid,nott
hisbull
shit
!.
"

Him:
"fuckIknowokay,
let
sdealwi
thbuhl
ebutwe
can'
tki
llher"

Me:
"Iknow"Isi
gh

Hi
m:"weneedt
oteachheral
esson"

Me:
"maybeshe'
sdoingthi
sbecauseshewant
sa
r
eact
ionf
rom me,f
rom us"
.

Hi
m:"cl
ear
ly.l
etmegogether
,she'
ssl
eepi
ng"

Thi
sbi
tchwant
smetodi
eofstressbefor
eIeven
seemyki
dsandpl
aywi
ththem.Isitdownand
cl
osemyeyesandt hinkofmybeaut if
uland
pregnantwif
e.Shesai dyes,herbrothersaidyes
andherfathersai
dyessoyesshei smywi fe.Ij
ust
needtoproposeandgi veherar i
ngnotabi gone
becauseluhisnotflashyli
kelookatmeIhave
money.Ilovethatbutitdoesn'tmeant hatIwon't
givehermymoneybecauseIdoandIwanthert o
usemymoneyandbl owitonwhat evermakesher
happy.Ineedtofindar i
ngthatfit
sherl i
keaqueen
sheis.

Sicelo:
"shehasl
ockedher
sel
fint
hebat
hroom and
refusestocomeout"

Me:"andyoucouldn'
tki
ckt
hedooropen?
,dude
what'
swrongwithyou?"

Hi
m:"I
'
llt
ellyoul
ater
,let
sgett
hisbi
tch"

Weheadupst
air
sandhonest
lyIdon'
tknowwhat
's
goingonwi t
hscelobecausehi smindisnothere.I
needtotalkwithhim andfindoutwhat'sbother
ing
hi
m.Wegeti nthebathroom anditl
ookslikea
mess,li
keithasn'tbeencleanedinweeks.Itryto
openthebathroom doorbutit'
slocked.Iwonder
whatshe'sdoingthere,shebett
ernottrytokil
l
hersel
f.

Me:"nobuhl
eopenthedoor"Iaskherknocki
ngand
t
alki
ngcalm andnott
hewaysheexpected.

Her
:"I
'
mint
hel
oombusowhatdoyouwant
?"

Me:
"total
knobuhl
e.Ihaveamessagef
oryouf
rom
l
uh"it
'sali
e

Her
:"whatdi
dshesay?"

Me:
"youshoul
dreadi
tforyour
sel
f,opent
hedoor"
Her
:"Ihopeyou'
renotl
yingt
ome"

Me:
"I'
m notl
ying.opent
hedoornobuhl
e"

Iseethedoorhandl
eturni
nganditcli
cksopenthen
i
tslowlyopensandshepeeks,
lookingatus.Thi
s
bit
chisfucki
ngexhaust
ingmeseriousl
y.

Me:"comeoutandsitont
hebed"shelooksatus
suspi
ciousl
ythencomesoutandsi
tsonthebed.

Her
:"what
'sgoi
ngon,
whyar
eyouher
e?"

Me:"yousentforme.Youtoldsi
cel
othatt
her
e's
somethi
ngyouwantt oconfesst
omeandsoI '
m
her
et ohearwhatyouhavetosay"
Her
:"Ididn'
ttal
ktohi
m andwhatdi
dIsayt
hat
i
nvolvesyou?"

Me:
"sohe'
slyi
ng,
youdi
dn'
tsayanyt
hing?"

Her
:"Ineversai
danyt
hingt
ohi
m "shel
ooksdown

Si
cel
o:"you'
recal
li
ngmeal
ierbuhl
e?"

Her
:"Idi
dn'
tsayt
hat"

Me:"oklet
sstopthi
sbul
lshi
t.si
cel
ocallcel
este
her
enow"It akeoutmygunandpoi nti
ttoherhead,
heleaves.

Her
:"whatt
hef
uckdi
dyouwantt
osayt
ome?"

Her
:"not
hingIswear"
Me:"youhavefi
vemi nut
estotalkorel
seI'
m
bl
owingyourbrainsoff"Cel
estecomesinwit
h
mbusolookingl
ikeshehadar oughnight
.

Her
:"whyar
eyouwaki
ngme?"

Me:"whatdi
dthi
dbi
tchsayt
oyouwhenshewas
hi
gh?"

Her :
"oht hat
,letmegetmyphoneIrecor
dedher"
shel eavesandIlookatbuhl
eandshelooks
freakedoutthencelest
ecomesbackandt henpl
ays
thevi ocenote.

Voicenote:
"youknowcel este..
..
mbusowas
supposet obemine,I
'm supposet obeli
vingthelif
e
thatbuhleisl
ivi
ngnowcomf or
tableandr i
ch.(she
l
aughsl oud)Letmetellyouasecr et.
..
.t
hatisgoing
tostaybetweenus,(celesteagr ees)Ioncedid
somethingandt hatsomethingl
edmet obe
pregnantwi
thmbuso' sbaby(celesteasksbuhle
shockedwher e'
sthebabybutbuhl edoesn'
tanswer
herandcontinuestolaughandkeepsonaski ng
herbutbuhlecontinuestolaughl
ikeshe'smad).

Iclosemyeyesandt r
yt or ememberwhendi dIever
fuckherr awbutIcan'tr ememberbecauseInever
did.Ionlyfuckedher3t i
meswheni twasjustus
withprotecti
onbutt heot herti
mesevenwhenI
fuckedherwi thotherpeopl eIalwaysused
protecti
on.Iopenmyeyesandl ookatherandshe's
l
iteral
lyshaking.Iswitcht hesafetygunfr
om offto
onandgetcl oset oher .

Me:"BuhleI'm goingtoaskyout woquestionsand

youbetterthi
nkcar eful
lyaboutyouranswersandif
youvalueyourl i
feandst i
llwanttol
ive,
youwi l
l
answermet r
uthfull
yorIsweart oGodI'm goi
ngto
ki
llyouthisti
me.Doyouunder standme?"she
nods.
Me:"Celest
egoprepar
ebuhleabat
h,justwat
erand
don'taddanyt
hing"shenodsandgoestothe
bathroom.

Me:"BuhlehaveIeverf
uckedyouwi
thoutacondon
knowingy?"sheshakesherhead

Me:
"wor
ds,
Iwantyout
osayt
hedamnwor
ds!"

Her
:"No.youal
waysusedacondom ".

Me:"haveIeverfuckedyouwithoutacondon
unknowingly?"shelooksatmeandcrocodil
etear
s
fal
lofherfaceandshedoesn'tanswerme

Me:
"bi
tcht
alkIdon'
thaveawhol
efuckenday!"
Her:
"Yes,youdi
d"Ifeelmybl
oodgetcol
dandI
al
moststopbreat
hing.
..
.

Me:"how?..
..
.howdidthatf
uckenhappen!
?"she
star
tscr
yingloudthenscel
olooksli
kehewantsto
comeandsl apherbutIshakemyheadno.

Me:
"youwantmet
oki
llyoubuhl
e?"

Her
:"No"

Me:
"thenf
uckentel
lmehowdi
dIf
uckyour
aw
whi
leIwasnotaware?"

Her:
"I twast hel
astti
meyouwer eatthatcl
ub.I
don'tknowwhatyouwer est
ressedaboutbutyou
weredr inki
ngheavil
ythenmikecameandheasked
you,ifyouwant edtojoi
nusandyousai dno,soyou
askedf oranotherdr
inkandIgotanideatodrug
j
usttofeelyouski
nonski n.Idr
uggedyouwitha
dat
erapedr ugandmi kewasthereandknewwhat
wasgoingon, t
henI.
..Ihel
pedmyselfwithyou"

Thewhol et
imeshe'stalking,I
'mthi
nkingofone
thousandwaystokillher.Shedruggedme
then.
..
shefuck.Ist
andupandgost andnextt
othe
windowandl ookoutside,handsinmypocket.

Me:
"cont
inuebuhl
e"

Her:"aft
erIwasdone, mikehel pedmegetyou
homeandnoonewassuspi ciousbecauseyou
knowt heclubi ssecreti
veandt heyhaveseenus
togethermanyt imesevenf r
ankwasn' tsupri
sed
becauseyoucameal oneint heclub.Thenaf t
era
fewweeksIr eali
sedthatIwaspr egnantandyou
weret heonlyoneIhadsl ept..
.Imeandi ditwit
hout
protecti
onandIdi dn'tknowhowt otel
lyoubecause
maybeyouwi l
lfi
gureitout,whathappend" .
Me:"whereist
hechil
dbuhl
e?"It
urnandl
ookather
st
il
lstandi
ngbther
e.

Her:
"Idi
dabackdoorabor t
ionsother
ewontbe
anypapert
rai
l.Ihadachi l
dwithyouandwe
coul
dn'
trai
seittogethermbuso,wehadachancet
o
haveourownfami l
yandbehappy"

Ilookatbuhl eli
vidandaskmysel fwhatkindof
twistedmessedup, personisshe.She. .
..
she
druggedmet hent houghtwewer egoingtobe
happy? ,
whatt hef uckiswrongwi ththisbit
ch!.I
castmyeyest oscel oandhel ooksshockedand
celestetoo.Itakeof fmyt-shi
rtthatI'
m wearingand
throwitont hefloorandbuhl elooksatmeshocked.

Me:
"youmightwanttohelpmewit
hwhatI
'
m about
t
odonext
.takeoffyourt
-shi
rt"
Si
cel
o:"youdon'
thavet
oaskmet
wice"

Buhl
e:"what
..
.whatareyougoi
ngt
odot
ome?
,you
ar
egoingtorapearen'
tyou?"

Sicel
o:"youtwi
stedbi t
ch,noonei sgoi
ngtofucken
rapeyou.You'r
et herapisther
e"webot hdr
agher
tothebathroom kicki
ngandscr eaming

Me:
"let
sgetheri
nsi
det
hebat
h"

Sicel
o:"wear
edr
owni
ngyoubi
tch.youar
edyi
ng
today"

Wegetheri nsidethebathsti
llkicki
ngand
screamingandt hewateriscoldandIhol dherhead
andpushi ti
nt hewaterandscel oholdsherl
egs
downt hencelesteget
sinthebat handsi
tsonher
stomachandshekeepsonst r uggli
ngunti
l.
..
..
.
CHAPTER20.

SI
CELO.

Wear eint heli

vingnowandallourclothesarewet
fr
om drowni ngbuhle.Il
ookatmbusoandhel ooks
exhaustedanddeepi nthought.Whatbuhlesaid
anddidisr eal
lymessedupandIt hi
nk..
..
no,Iknow
i
treall
yf uckedmbusoup.Hel ooksdeepi nthought
l
ikehe'snotevenher eandI'
m wor ri
edabouthim
becausef i
ndingoutthatsomeoner apedyou,got
pregnantforyouandt henabortedyour
baby..
..
..
mant hat'
ssomefuckedupshi tandIsti
ll
askmysel fwhydi dn'
tmbusoletusdr ownthisbit
ch.

Me:"bro?,ar
eyouokay?"hel ooksatmeandhe
l
ookslikeshi
t,l
ikehehasnoi deawhatthehel
lis
goi
ngon.Celestelooksshakentooandkeeps
st
arri
ngatmbusoandshakesherhead.
Mbuso:"I'
mfi
ne.Ijustneedsoseel
uht
henI
'
llbe
f
ine.
..
.Iknow"Idon'tbel
ievehi
m.

Me:
"doyouwantt
otal
kabouti
t?"

Him:"Idon't!
.IwishIdidn'tpr
omi sel
uhthatIwon't
ki
llbuhlebecausethatbitchwoul dbedeadbynow!
"hethrowsagl assofwhi skeythathewasdrinki
ng
onthewal landitbreaksintopieces.

Me:"Lookbro,Iknowwhatshedi
dshookand
scaredyou.
.."

Mbuso:"don'
tyoudaretal
ktomelikeI
'
m avi
cti
m.
Maybethiskar
maf i
nall
ygett
ingbackt
omefor
whatIhavedonetoluh"

Me:"mbuso!
,don'
tsayt
hat
!,t
hatbi
tchf
uckenr
aped
you!"
Mbusot hrowst hedecadentful
lofwhi
skeyonmy
dir
ectionandIduck.Hei sshakenandverypissed
andIdon' tbl
amehi mf orwhathe'
sdoingbutifI
wasi nhisshoesbuhl ewouldbedeadbynow,
promiseornot .Cel
estescreamsandrunsoutofthe
l
ivingroom thenit'
sjustmeandhi m.

Me:"calm downbr o,l

uhcoul dcallatanymi nute
thenfeelorsenset hatyou' r
enotokay, whatdoyou
thi
nkthatwilldot oher ?.Iknowwear eallshocked
withwhatbuhl econf essedandIcan' ti
magi newhat
you'r
egoingt hroughbutyouneedt onotletthi
sget
youmbuso.Iknowyoumadeapr omiset oluhbut
somet i
mespr omi sesar emeantt obebr okenbro
andifyoucan' tkil
lherI '
llgl
adykil
lhermysel f
becauseIdidn'tmakeanypr omisetoher"

Hi
m:"youcankillherbecauseshe'
llthi
nkit'
sme
whoputyouupt odot hatandIdon'twantyouf
ight
wi
thyoursi
sterorcausepr obl
ems"
Me:
"thenwhatdoyouwantmet
odo?"

Hi
m:"justgi
vemekeyst
oyourhouse.
..Iwantt
o
r
estandchangesomecl
othest
hental
kt omybaby
"

Me:
"whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odowi
thbuhl
e?"

Him:"YourememberIt
oldyouIwassel li
ngherand
t
henIchangedmymi nd?,wellshe'
sleavi
ngtoni
ght.
I
'm goingt
ocallt
heguysthatipromisedtosel
lher
t
o,tocomeandgether"

Me:"aboutdamntime.LetsgoI'l
ldr
ive,we'l
lshower
,
getsomef oodandthengetfuckenwaisted"

Hi
m:"l
etsgoandI
'
llcal
lmyguysont
heway"
Me:"cel
est
e?,
we'
l
lbebackl
ater"Ishoutf
orhert
o
hear

Her:
"okay"thenwegetupandl
eavebutacal
l
comesthroughonmyphone.

Me:
"Sbusi
so?"

Sbusi
so:"manl
ist
en,
your
ememberoneofmy
bouncer
sMark?"

Me:
"yeah,
theoneIaskedt
otaket
hosegi
rl
shome?
"

Him:'
"yeshi
m, wel
lIwasher eatthecl
ubandhe
j
ustgotacallf
rom hi
sgirltel
li
nghimthatt
heyneed
hel
pwi t
honeofthegirl
s..
."Ii
nter
upthim
Me:
"whi
chgi
rlandwhathappend?"

Him:
"thegi
rlyouchecki
ngoutl
astni
ght
,theone
youshowedme"

Me:
"baf
ojustt
ellmewhathappend"(br
other)
mbusol
ooksatmefunny

Him:"hegotacallf
rom t
hischickheusaul
lyfucks
aski
ngforhelpandsaidherfr
iendisdyi
ngbecause
herboyfr
iendi
sbeatingherup"whatthehell
?

Me:
"areyousurei
t'
saboutt
hechi
ckIshowedyou?
,what
'shername?"

Him:"manheshowedmeherpictureandit
'sher,
hernameisAyandaMaseko.I
'm sendi
ngyou
marksgir
laddr
ess,got
hereandyou'l
lfi
ndthem
andwher
eyourgi
rli
s".

Me:"okay,
sendmeherpi
ctur
easwel
l
.Thanksbr
o"
Ihangupandsigh

Mbuso:
"what
'swr
ongbr
o?"

Me:"ther
e'sthisgi
rlt
hatIsawi ntheclubIwasat
l
astnght,shewaswi thherfriendsandIcoul dn't
keepmyeyesawayf rom her.Itoldsbuabouti tand
showedherandnowhet el
lsmet hatoneofhis
bouncersgir
lfri
endisfr
iendswi ththatgi
rlIsawl ast
nightandnowt hatsamegi r
lIlikehasaboyf ri
end
andapparentlyhe'
sbeatingherup"

Mbuso:
"youwantust
ogot
her
e?"

Me:
"No,
hesentmet
headdress.
.I'
l
lgoalone.Just
got
omyhouseandI
'
llf
indyouther
e.Youneed
somet i
metoprocesseveryt
hingt
hisbitchsai dbut
whatIneedyoutodoi stofi
ndouteverythingabout
AyandaMaseko,everyt
hingbronostonel eft
untur
ned".

Hi
m:"I'
l
ldothatbutareyousureyouwantto
i
nvol
veyour
selfinthatki
ndofsit
uat
ion?"

Me:"Idon'tknowbrobutIfeelsomethi
ngforher
andIcan'tleti
tgoandnotgett oknowher.I
fthi
sis
howI'm goingtomeetherandknowhert henI'
m
okaywithit"

Him:"ok,I
'
llcheckheroutaf
terIcal
lluhandwhen
I'
m doneshower i
ng"Igivehim mykeysandt hen
runoutofthehouseandgetinmycar ,
puti
nthe
addressonmyGPSt hendri
veoutli
keamani ac.

Igett
owher et
heyliveandI
t'
sanokayf
latbutI
hatei
tbecauseitl
ooksli
kej
unki
esandcri
minal
s
l
ivehereinthisneighbour
hood.Istopandparkmy
carwhenIseeMar kandtwogirls.
..
yestheone'
s
whol ookeddrunkintheclubarenowrunningtoget
i
nt hecar.Igetoutofthecarandruntomar k.

Me:
"Mar
kwher
e'sayanda?"

Somel
ady:
"whoareyou?"Ii
gnor
ehershe'
sshor
t
andl
ooksl
ikeat
eenager.

Mar
k:"bossyouknowher
?"Inod

Mar
k:"I
'
m dr
ivi
ngtherenow.Fol
lowmycar"Ir
unt
o
mi
neanddri
vebehindthem.

AYANDA.

Idon'
tknowi
ftheyhear
dmeandwhatIsai
dbutI
hopet heydid.Iwantt ocl
osemyeyesandsl eep
butI'm scaredthatIwon'teveropenthem upagain
i
fIt r
yt o.Ihearpoli
ceandambul ancesirensthen
footst
epsofpeopl erunningandt henthedoorgets
kickedopenandIheart hei
rgutrenchingcri
esit'
s
karaboandl i
ll
y.TheycutdeepbecauseIdi dthatt
o
met ousandIhopet hey'
l
lforgi
vemesomeday.

Li
ll
y:"Ayanda?
,awakeupayandai
t'
sus"shesays
shakingme

Me:
"I'
m sor
ry,
sosor
ry,
for
giveme"t
heycr
y

Karabo:
"Nooayano,i
t'
snotyourfault
"li
ndisays
andIclosemyeyesandtheyi
njectsomethingon
myar m

"Youhavetohur
ryshe'sl
osingconci
ousness,she's
goingtodi
edamnit"i
tsaman'svoicethatsaysthat
andit'
sthel
astt
hingIhearbefor
eIblackout
Icanhearpeopl
etalki
ngbutIcanmakeoutwhat
theyaresayi
ngorwhot heyare.It
rytoopenmy
eyesbuttheywon'
topen, It
rytogetupcauseI
knowI'minbedbutIcan'tdothattoobecauseI
knowI'minthehospit
alandIstil
lrememberwhat
happend,whatt
shepodid.

ImusthavemadeasoundcauseIcanhear
someonecall
inganurse.Iopenmyeyesandits
superbri
ght"
pleasecl
osethebli
nds"mymouth
feel
sli
kehasbeenstuff
edf ul
lwi
thcot
ton.The
personcl
osesthebli
nds.

"Youcanopent hem"Iopent hem andseeaman

standingther
e,hegi vesmeagl assofwatertodri
nk
andI doandthenIl ookclosel
yathim becauseI
thinkIknowhi m andit'
stshepo'
sbestfri
endpri
nce
andIpani ck.

Me:
"Whatar
eyoudoingher
e?.
..
.wher
eishe?.
..
oh
myGodhesentyout
okil
lmedidn'
the?"het
ri
esto
t
ouchmyhandbutIscr
eam

Me:
"Nur
se!nur
se!
..
..
somebodyhel
pme"

Him:"comedownayanda, Icametoseehowyou' r
e
doi
ng"Idon'tanswerhim andkeepscreamingthen
anur seandadoctorgeti
nf oll
owedbylil
lyand
karaborunni
ng.

Me:"Idon'
twanthi
m her
e,gethi
m awayf
rom me"
scr
eaming

Kar
abo:"whotol
dyouwhatroom she'
sin?
...
go
bef
oreIcal
lthecopsonyou"

Pri
nce:"I
'm sorr
yIdidn'tmeantoscareher,Iwas
j
ustwor r
iedabouther..
.he'
sworri
edtoo".OhGod
hesenthim,t hemachinesstar
tbeepingloudyandI
heareveryonescreamingthent
heyarepushedout
oftheroom andt
heyinj
ectmewit
hsomethi
ng
anditmakesmefeelgoodli
keI
'
m highandf
lout
ing
..
.Ifal
lasl
eep.

I'
m dreami ngaboutsomeonet ouchingmyhai r,
massagi ngmyscul pandi tf
eelssogoodandIt ur
n
myf acet othehandt hatdoest hatandpr essmy
faceoni t.Thi
sdr eamshappensf orthenext3days
ormor e,Ilostkeepingtrackafterthefi
rst3days.
WheneverIwoul dfeelthosefingersIwoul dtr
yto
openmyeyest oseewho' sdoingt hatbutthey
wouldn'topen.

It
'sr eal
lydar
kwhenIopenmyeyesandseet hatI
'm
sti
llinthehospi
tal
.Ilookatt heclockabovethe
doorandseei t'
s2am.If el
tt hosehandsbeforeI
becameawakeupj ustnow.Mybodyhas
goosebumpsal loverandt hisfeeli
ngofsomeone
wat chingmeisthere,ver
yi ntenseli
ketheper
sonis
i
nt hesamer oom asme.Il ookar oundandseea
fi
gur eatthecor
nersitti
ngdownl i
kethey'
vebeen
watchi
ngmethi
swhol
eti
meandf
unnyenought
hat
br
ingsmecomfort
.

Me:
"Whoareyou?"Iaskhi
m yesi
t'
samanIcan
makeoutt
hesi
lhouhet
e

Him:"Younotscar
ed"i
t'
sast
atementnota
questi
on.

Me:"Idon'
tknowwhyI 'm not..
.canIhaveagl assof
water"hestandsupandIseet hathe'stallandhe's
weari
ngblackcl othes,
jeansIt hi
nkorchi nosanda
l
ongsleevet-shirt
.Hegi vesmet heglassandIt r
y
tol
ookathisf acebutIcan' tseeit
,it
'sli
kehe
doesn'
twantmet oseei t.

Me:"youdi
dn'
ttel
lmewhoyouar
e"hegoest
osi
t
wherehewassitt
ing
Hi
m:"yesIdi
dnt
"heleansf
orwardandIcansee
t
hathehasabeardt
hat'
sal
lIsee.

Me:
"whyar
eyouher
e?"Iaskhi
m

Hi
m:"Iwant
edt
oseei
fyou'
reokay"hesayshuh?

Me:
"why?
,youdontknowme"heshr
ugs

Hi
m:"Idoknowyoubutyoudon'
tknowme"how?

Me:"
haveweevermetbef
oresomewher
e?"he
scr
atcheshi
sbear
d

Hi
m:"wedi
dbutyoudidn'
tseeme.
..
.orr
athernot
ice
me"what
?I'
m conf
used.

Me:
"okay.
..
.i
sityout
hathasbeenmassagi
ngmy
head?"

Hi
m:"
maybe,
didyouenj
oyi
t?"hesays.

Me:
"Idi
dIt
hink,
whywon'
tyoul
etmeseeyou?"

Him:
"beacauseIl
ikei
tthi
sway.Iseeyouandyou
don'
tseeme"

Me:"yousoundcreepyli
keastalker
..
..
didhesend
youtoo?"hedoesn'tsayanyt
hingforawhil
eand
thatmakesmethinkhedid.

Hi
m:"Youmeanyourboyf
ri
end?no."hesays

Me:"he'
snotmyboyf
ri
endanymor
e"If
acet
he
ot
herwayfrom hi
m.
Him:
"I'
m sor
ryhedi
dthat.Youdon'
tdeser
vetobe
t
reat
edli
kethat
.andyou'
l
lneverbetr
eatedli
ke
t
hat.
"

Me:"whatdoyouwantf
rom me?.
..
.didheoweyou
somethi
ngandnowyourheret
ocol l
ectf
rom me?"

Hi
m:"hedoesn'
towemeanyt
hing"

Me:"pleasel
eaveIwanttobealone"
.Hestandsup
notsayinganyt
hingandopensthedoorbutbef
ore
heleavesheturnsandlooksatme

Him:"I
't
sgoingt obeapl easureknowingyou
AyandaMaseko.I 'll
tel
lthenurseyou'r
eawakeand
someonewi llcomet obringyoufood.Goodni ght
Aya".Hecl osest hedoorbehindhim andleaves.
Truetohiswor dthenursecomeschecksonme
andtell
smet hedoctorwi l
lbeher
eint hemorni ng
andanothernur secomesi nwithfoodawhi l
el ater
sayssomeguywasaskedt
odel
ivert
hist
ome.

Ichecki tandseei tsachi ckennoodl esoupst i

llhot
andf reshbr ead...
.atthisti
mewher edi dhebuyt he
food? ,Ieatandf inishthewhol ethi nggr atefultot he
guy.Thenur secomesagai nandhel psme
shower i
ngsi nceIinsistedcauseIf eltreall
ydi rt
y
andst icky.WhenIgett otheshowerandseemy
faceandmybadl ybruisedbodyiweepbl ami ng
mysel fforallowingt histohappent ome.Thenur se
doesn' tsayanyt hingbutIcanj ustt ellshefeels
sorryf orme.Iwearcl eansi lkpyj amasandt hey
l
ooknewandver yexpensi ve.Ikar aboandl ill
y
boughtt hem t omakemef eelbetterIt hi
nkandI '
m
grateful.Iaskt henur setocal lthem i nthemor ni
ng
andt ellthem thatI'm awake.

Karabo:"Ayanda?,ar
eyou'
reawake?"shesaysand
IsmilebeforeIopenmyeyesandwhenIdoshe
l
ooksl i
keamess. .
whendidIfal
lasl
eep?
Me:"andIthoughtIlookedlikeshit"wechuckl
ebut
thenshestartscr
yingandIpul lhertomeand
comforther.Il
ethercryitoutuntilshe'
sdone.

Me:
"I'
m sorr
y..
.Ir
eall
yam karabo,yout
oldmenot
gogoaloneandIdidn'
tli
sten.
..
pleasef
orgi
veme.

Her:
"youknowIfor
giveyouandwhatt
shepodi
dto
youisnotyourf
aul
t".

Me:"youlooksougl
yyoh,whenwasthelastti
me
youbathed?"shel
aughsandIfeelal
it
tl
ebitbett
er

Her
:"
nyoushoul
dseel
il
ly,howar
eyouf
eel
ing
t
hough?"sheasks

Me:
"mybodyhurt
sandinpai
nbuti
t'
smuchbet
ter
t
hanthef
ir
stt
imeIwokeup"
Karabo:
"youareoneoft
hest
rongestpeopl
eIknow
andyou'l
lbef
ine.
"Inod

Me:
"wher
eishe?
"Iaskher

Her:
"wedon'tknowwhereheis.Thepol
icehave
beenlooki
ngforhi
m eversi
nce,i
tseemshe'
sjust
vani
shed..
..
whathappendaya?"

Me:
"notnowkar
abopl
easesi
s.Wher
e'sl
il
ly?"

Her
:"shedidn'tsleepatherplace..
.I
'vebeenstayi
ng
t
hereeversincethatnightand...
.Ithinkshe'
sback
t
odrinki
ngever yday"ohlil
ly

Me:
"Idi
dthi
s..
.Ipushedhert
othi
s"

Her
:"i
t'
snotyourf
aul
t.
..
noneoft
hisi
syourf
aul
t”.
Me:“she’
sdr
inki
ngandyouknowwhathappens
whenshedoesthat”

Her:
“shecan’
tkeepnumbingherpainbydr
inki
ng.
,
shemusttal
ktous..
.notdr
inkl
iket
his”

Me:
“whatdayi
sthi
s?”

Her
:“i
t'
swednesday.
..
why?”sheasksme

Me:“howlonghaveIbeenher
e?”shel
ooksatme
l
ikeI’
vel
ostmymi nd

Her
:“I
’
tsamont
hnowyou.
..
youdon’
tremeber
?”

Me:“noIdon’
t.
..Ican’
tremember?
...
”ther
e’sa
knockonthedoorandadoctorgetsinfol
lowedby
t
hepol
ice.

Doctor:
“MissMasekoI '
m doct
orSkhondo,your
doctorandthepoli
ceherehavesomef ew
questi
onsforyou,butaft
erIhaveexaminedyou.
canyouallpleaseexcuseus"t
hedoctorsaystothe
pol
iceandkar abo

Me:"Mysistercanstay"henodsthenstays.He
examinesmewi thanurseandstart
swriti
ngthi
ngs
downwhenheasksmehowi '
mf eel
ingheadaches,
chest
,painandallt
hat.

Doctor:
"wellmi
ssmasekoyou' r
edoi ngbettert
hanI
hadhopedandyourr i
bsarehealing.Threeofthem
werebrokenandtheswell
ingonyourheadhas
gonedowm.Whathappendt oyoui svey
unfort
unateandTher
e'snoheadt raumat hankful
ly
oranyswelli
ngonyourbrainbutifyouf eelany
di
zzynessorheadachesyouhavet ol etmeknow
i
mmedi atel
y"
Me:"Ionl
yfel
tdizzywhenIst ooduptogotot
he
bat
hroom butthenur sewastheret
ohelpme,i
t
wasforafewmi nutes.Sothere'
snoper
manent
damage?"Iaskhim

Doctor
:"wedi dthebrai
nscansandsof
ar
ever
ythingseemsgood.Doyour emember
ever
ythingthathappendandhowyougother
e?"

Me:
"Idor
ememberdoc"It
ellhi
m

Doctor:
"Mi ssmasekoIdon' tknowhowt osaythi
s
butyou'reveryluckyyousur vivedcausedomest i
c
vict
imslikeyourselfmostoft het i
meendupdead
andsomet i
mespar alysed.Iwoul dsuggestyousee
thehospitalpsychologisttotal kaboutwhat
happend.youneedt herapymi ssmasekoandf rom
theti
meyoucameher eunt i
lnowI '
vebeen
examiningyouandt her esul
tsf rom theex-
ray
machineshowsthatyourri
bshavebeenbr
oken
bef
ore".Helooksatmeexpecti
nganansweror
somethingandIj
ustshrugmyshoulder
s

Karabo:"she'
l
lseet
hepsychol
ogistdocI
llmake
sureofthat"kar
abosaysandthepoli
ceknockand
getin.

Poli
ce:"Doctorwealsohavesomequest
ionst
oask
you,don'tl
eavethehospi
tal"t
hedoct
ornods

Me:
"Whenam Iget
ti
ngdi
schar
ged?
"Iaskhi
m

Doctor
:"t
omorr
owyou'l
lbedi
schar
gedbutyou'
l
l
spendtheni
ghtformor
eobser
vati
on"

Me:
"okdoctor".Il
ookatthetwomaledet
ecti
ves
t
heylookl
iketheyarei
ntheirl
atet
hir
ti
esorear
ly
f
ort
ies.
"Missmasekoi'm det
ect
iveTshabal
alaandl
onau
dectect
iveShongwe"Inod

Tshabal
ala:
"Wehavesomequest
ionsf
oryou.do
youknowwhoattackedyou?"

Me:
"yesmyexboyf
ri
endTshepoMol
oi"It
ellt
hem

Him:"Whathappendmi ssmaseko?"Itel
lthem
ever
yt hi
ngf r
om usgoi
ngoutonfri
dayandgoi ngt
o
mypl acefi
ndi nghi
mther
eandgoingt ohi
splace
anddet ect
iveShongwenodsandwr i
tesdown

Ttshabalal
a:"hewasn'
tmadwhenyouf
oundhi
m at
yourplace"

Me:"nohewasn'
t,
Ithi
nkehepr
etendt
onotbe
upset"
Him:
"thenyouguyshadsexr
ight?"I
'
m ashamed
andIl
ookdownandkaraboholdsmyhand.

Me:
"yeswedi
d"

Him:"soyouri
ntentionwast
obreakupwi
thhi
m
butyouendedupsl eepi
ngwit
hhim mi
ssmaseko,
di
dhef or
ceyout o?"

Me: "I
whenitriedtobreakupwit
hhim,hedidn'
t
wantt ohearmesayi tcausehecoul
dtellsohe
saidwe'l
ltal
kwhenwewakeupandaf t
erwe'vehad
dinner"Itel
lthem

Hi
m:"soyouneversai
dnot
osl
eepi
ngwi
thhi
m?"

Me:
"no"
Shongwe:"yousl
eepwi
thhi
mthenyougooutand
orderandhesayswhat
?"

Karabo:
"detect
iveshealr
eadytol
dyouwhat
happend,sowhydoyouwanthert orel
ivet
hat
?"
karaboasksthengett
ingangr
y

Shongwe:"misswe'
rej
ustdoi
ngourj
obs,
wehave
tobesure."

Me:"hesaidt
herewassomet
hinghequi
ckl
yhadt o
do.Iref
usedt
ogetinsi
dehi
shousebuthedragged
met her
eandthemomentheclosedt
hedoorhehit
me."

Him:"andyoudi
dn'tscr
eam outsi
desothe
nei
ghborscanhearyou?"shongweasks
Me:"They'
vehear
dmebeforeaski
ngf
orhel
pand
not
hinghasbeendoneandsoiknewscr
eamingf
or
hel
pmei nanyway"

Hi
m:"andt
henwhat
?"

Me: "hehitmewi thhisfi

sts, kickedmewi thhi s
shoesandt henusedabel t.Ipassedoutandwoke
upatt heshowernakedt henhet ookmet ohi sbed
andr apedme...
.thenwhenhel efttoseehisother
gir
lfri
endIcrawledt othedi ningroom tolookf ormy
phoneandphonedmysi stersandt henIwokeup
here"Idon' tt
ellthem aboutmymyst eryman.
Karabohasbeengi vingmecomf ortandsilentl
y
l
istening.

Tshabal
ala:
"Wel lmissmasekoyourexboyf riendi
s
missi
ng,wedon' tknowwher ehei sbut
nwef ound
yourcarburntt
oashesj ustoutsidewit
bankont he
waytopretori
a."what?,
whatwashedoi ngtherebut
IknowItoldhimI '
m ori
ginal
lyfrom t
herebuthe
doesn'
tknowanyonet
her
e.I
tdoesn'
tmakesense
andthatdevi
lhowdar
eheburnmycar.

Me:
"Ihopeyouf
indhi
m"It
ellt
hem

Him:"wewi ll
.Wehaveopenedacaseofat tempted
murder,rape,domesti
cviol
enceandcartheft.a
rapekitwast akenandther
e'sver
ystr
ongevidence
agaisnthim sohe'l
lbefaci
ngallt
hosecharges."

Me:
"thankyou"

Tshabalal
a:"we'
l
lbei
ncontact.
..
andhere'
sour
cardsanyti
meyouhearanythi
ngfrom hi
m pl
ease
cal
lus."

Me:
"Iwi
lldet
ect
ive.
"theynodandl
eave
Doct
or:"I
'
m givingyou5minut
est
henyouneedt
o
l
eave"doctorsaystokar
abo

Her:
"okdoc"t
hedoct
orl
eavesandi
t'
sjustt
het
wo
ofus.

Her:
"I'
m sor
ryhedi
dthatt
oyoubuthe'
sgonnapay
onedaysis"

Me:"Idoubtthepol
i
cewon'
tfi
ndhi
m kar
abo.
.he'
s
ver
yr esour
ceful
"

Her
:"ift
hepoli
cedon'
tIthi
nkt
hatmanwhowas
wor
riedaboutyouwil
l".

Me:
"whatmankar
abo?"deepdownI
'
m pr
ayi
ngi
t'
s
mymyster
yman
Her:"apparent
lyhe'
sthemant hatpai
dourbil
lin
theclubandgotmar ktot akeushome.Hedidal lof
thatbecauseheisinterestedi
nyou"what?..
.he
wasi ntheclub?,
isthatwhyIdi dn'
tseehi
m andhe
sawme. .
.wow.

Me:"I
'
mt i
redsi
s,comegetmetomorrow.Gohome
andgetsomerestt
ooandtel
lli
ll
yIl
oveher"

Her
:"Iwi
lli
fshecomeshome.Il
oveyou"

Me:"Il
oveyout
oosi
s"sheki
ssesmyf
oreheadand
l
eaves.

Istayawakef orhourshopingmyst r
angerwi
ll
showupbuthedoesn' tandIstarttothi
nkmaybeI
i
magi nedthi
swhol ethingthattherewasnoman
massagingmyheadort al
kingtome.Maybeitwas
al
lthosepill
st heygavemebutdeepdownIknow
heisrealandIwantt oseehi m agaim.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER20.

Thatsmel l.
..
.Iknowt hatsmellandIknowt hose
handst hataremassagi ngmyscal p.Ilovehowhe
touchesmyhai rbecauseitmakesmef eel
somet hingIhaveneverf el
tbefore.Ismi leandopen
myeyesandseehi m st
arr
ingatme.I t'
sdar k,
why
doeshel i
ketovisitmewheni t'
sdar k?.Hesmel l
s
sogoodl i
kefreshmi ntandwat erandIj ustwantto
rubmysel falloverhim soIcansmel l
likehimtoo.

Me:"Iwantt
oseeyou"nopeIwant
edt
osayhel
lo
notthat
.

Him:"butyoucanseeme"hest opstouchi
ngmy
hairandmovesoffthebedtogostandinthe
windowfacingmesot heout
sideli
ghtshadowshi
s
face.

Me:
"Iwantt
oseeyoui
nthel
ight
,notl
iket
his,
dar
k
"

Hi
m:"whydoyouwantt
oseeme?"

Me:
"Iwantt
oseewhatyoul
ookl
ike"

Hi
m:"I
'
m afr
aidi
fyouseeme,
you'
l
lneverwantme
t
obecloset
oyou"huh?

Me:"whatdoest
hatmean,ar
eyounotahuman"he
chuckl
esGodhislaughi
ssexy

Him:"Iam humanbutI'
m ugl
yandabeauti
ful
womanl i
keyoudeservestobewi
thamanwhowi l
l
complimenthernotshameher"whatisheaf
rai
d
of.
..
maybehedoesn'thaveaneyeorhasanasty
scaronhisface.
Me:"Idon'
tcar
ebecauseIwanttoseeyouandyour
ugl
yself"Igi
ggle,
whatam Idoi
ng?

Hi
m:"ar
eyousur
e?"

Me:
"YesIam "

Hi
m:"you'
l
lst
il
lli
kemeaf
teryouseewhatIl
ookl
ike?
"

Me:
"Idi
dn'
tsayIl
ikeyou"Ibl
ush

Him:"youar
et al
kingwithamanyouhavenever
metandseenbutyou' retal
kingwi t
hhi
ml i
keyou've
knownhimf orawhi l
eandyou' r
eevenblushing
now.Doesn'tt
hatlooksli
keyoul ikeme.
..
.evena
ti
nybit"Igi
gglethisguy
Me:
"I'
mjustbei
ngni
cebecauseI
'
m ani
ceper
son"

Him:
"hmmm, don'
tsayIdidn'twar nyouwhenyou
seemeandt henrunoutofher eli
keacr azyper
son
i
schasingyou"Ican'thelpitbutlaugh.Maybehe
i
suglyandhast at
toesalloverhisfacemyGod! .

Me:
"what
'syournamebef
oreIseeyourf
ace?"

Him:"I
'
m Si
celoNgcobo.Hel
loAyandaMaseko"he
saysandswi
tchesthel
ight
sonandOHMYGOD! .

Thismani sallsortsofgor geousnesswr appedi n

one.He'
st allandwel lbuiltnottoomuscul inebut
damnIcanseemuscl esbeneat ht hattai
loredsuit
he'
swear i
ngandi tfitshim perfectly.Hehas
caramelskin,hasf ullpinklipsthatmakeyouwant
torunyourtongueont hem sucklingl i
keyourlif
e
dependsoni t,andt hatwe' l
ltr
immedbear d.
Myheadwoul dr eachhischestifIweret ost
and
nexttohi
m andI '
m medi um hei
ght.Iwonderhow
manywomenf allforhi
m.Ilookathi sfi
ngers
l
ookingforaringbutf i
ndnone.Hemi ghtbe
marri
edbutnotwearar ingmennowadaysdot hat
andthatthoughtmakesmef eelacertainway.

Icanseemysel flayingont opofhim andhewon't

mindbecausehel ooksl i
kehecanevencar r
ymy36
si
zeandt hereisnot hingugl yaboutthi
sman,
nothingatall
.Therei sabsol ut
elynowayt hi
sman
i
ssi ngl
e.Iref
uset obel i
evehei ssingleandhei
s
heremaybebecausehe' sinter
estedinme? ,
Hel
lno!,
Noway! .

Hi
m:"ar
eyouokay"Inod

Me:
"yesI
'
m okay"

Hi
m:"Youl
ookf
lust
ured"ohcant
hegr
oundopen
upandswal
lowme.

Me:"ther
e'snothi
nguglyaboutyou.Youar
eaver
y
handsomemanandI '
m confusedastowhyar
eyou
real
lyher
ewi t
hme?"

Hi
m:"Il
ikeyou"

Me:
"Youdon'
tknowme?"

Him:"Iknowt hatIsawyoui ntheclubyouwer eat

withyourfriendsandIcoul dn'tt
akemyeyesof fof
you.Ipaidyourbi l
l,askedmar ktotakeyouhome
soIcansl eepwel lknowingyoursaf e,t
henIgeta
callf
rom mybr otherandhet el
lsmet hatmarks
gir
lfr
iendisaski ngf orhel
pbecauseherf r
iendis
beingbeatenbyherboyf ri
end.Igotsoscar edand
drovetoli
lly'
spl aceandIf oundt hem inti
meandI
fol
lowedthem t oyourboyf r
iendsplaceandwe
foundyou....
."
Me:"itwasyourvoi
cet
hatIhear
dbef
oreIl
ost
consciousness"

Him:"i
twas,It
houghtyouweregoi
ngtodi
ebefor
eI
evengotachancetogettoknowyouandIt
hought
Godisplayi
ngabadgameonme"

Me:"I
'm compli
cat
edsi
cel
o,youdontneeddramai
n
yourl
ife"hecomesandsi
tsontheedgeofthebed
andtakesmyhand.

Hi
m:"t
hengetcompl
icat
ed.Gi
vemedr
ama"

Me:"Idon'
twantyoutogethurtbecausetshepo
knowsdangerouspeopleandhewi l
lcomeaf t
eryou
"hemoveshislipsl
ikehewantstosmi l
ebut
doesn'
t.
Him:"Don'tworryaboutme.Yourexistheonewho
shouldbewor r
iedaboutme.Willyouget
complict
edwithmeandgi vemedr ama?"hegives
mepuppydogeyesandIl augh

Me:
"Fr
iendshi
piswhatIcanof
feryour
ightnow"

Him:"AyandaIwanttobemor et
hanyou'refri
end
andbeyouronl yman.Iwanttomakeyousmi le,
makeyoul aughandmakeyouver yhappy.Iwantto
eraseever
ythingt
hatfooldi
dtoyou"

Me:
"Whati
fI.
..
..
"

Him:"st
opwiththewhati fs,
I'
m nother
etoplay
gameswi t
hyouayanda.IknowwhatIwantandI
al
waysgetwhatIwantandIwantyou.Ast ime
goesIknowI'm goingtoneedyouwi t
heveryt
hing
i
nme.I '
m nottr
yingtoconvinceyoutochangeyour
mindno,I'
m onl
yl ett
ingyouknowwher eIwantto
gowi
thyou"
.

Me:
"Ibel
ieveyou"Ibr
eat
hout
.

Him:
"Iknowi'
m nottheonewhohur tyoubut
pl
easel
etmet aket
heresponsi
bil
it
yt obetheone
heal
syou".wow,nomanhaseversai dthattome.

Me:"Ibel
ievewhatyou'r
esayi
ngandI'
llgiveyou
t
hebestofmeIknowhowbutIwantust otake
t
hingsslowly"hesmilesandbr
ingshi
sf aceclose
t
omi ne

Hi
m: "t
hankyouandIpr omi
seyou,you'
l
lnever
r
egretthisdeci
sion.Ki
ssme"hesayssmi l
ingandI
l
ookatt heti
meandi t'
salomst5am.

Me:
"Ihaven'
tbr
ushedmyt
eet
hthough"
Him:"I'
m goi
ngtobekissi
ngyouevenwhenyou
wakeupi nthemorni
ngwithyourmorni
ngbr
eat
h,
soletspract
isenow"

Me:
"Si
cel
o"Icovermyf
aceandl
augh

Hi
m:"pleaseyaya"Ilaughthenremovemyhands
onmyf aceandthehebr i
ngshisfacecl
oseand
we.
..
..hisphoneri
ngs..
..

Him:‘Sure…..
yesshe' s
awake…..real
ly?
...
hmmm. ...
sendital
louttel
lthem
whoeverget shimf i
rstwi
llgetR50kcash.Iwant
him al
ive”ohmyGodIhopehe' snottal
kingabout
tshepo.

Him:“
…yesIetmeknowofanydevelopments.
…sur
e”
hecutsthecal
lthenl
ooksme,'
'Youhungry?"he
seemstensenow.Iwonderwhatt
hepersonwho
wascall
ingsai
dt ohi
m.
Me:"yesIam butI
'
dli
ket
oshowerf
ir
st"he
pr
essesabutt
onnearmybedandanurseget
sin.

Him: “shewouldli
ketoshower
,ther
e'sabagi
nthe
bathroom wit
hherthings”t
henursenodscomesto
hel
pmegetof fthebedandmybodyf eel
smuch
better"

Him:“I
'
m goi
ngtogetyousomet
hingt
oeatI
'
llbe
back”hesays.

Me:"youpromise?”Isayt
henhesmi l
esgivesme
themostbeauti
fulsmil
eIhaveeverseen,Iheart
he
nursenexttomegaspsoftl
yandIdon' tbl
ameher
themani sgor
geous.

Hi
m:"al
ways"heki
ssesmesof
tl
ythenl
eaves.
Nurse:
“wowIhaveseenmanymani nmyl i
febut
thatmanispur
elyt
hemostgorgeoust
hingIhave
everseenhmm,let
sgetyoucl
eanedup”.

Idon'tsayanyt
hingbutf ol
lowher.Shehelpsme
showerandIdontl ookatmysel fi
nthemi r
ror
becauseIknowIl ookbad.Icanseebr ui
sesonmy
stomach,armsandl egs.He'stheonewhobought
met hosesil
kpyjamasnotkar aboandlil
lyandhe
boughtnewone'st odaytoowithsexylace
underwearandtheset hi
ngsareexpensivewow.

I'
m doneshower ingthent henurseputsanew
bandagear oundmyst omacht henIwearmy
under wearandi tsl aceboyshor t
sthi
sman
seriousl
yl ace?.Iwearmysi l
kpyjamasandt hey
feelabsolutelyamazi ngonmyski nanditsther i
ght
size.Wel eavet hebat hroom andhe'ssti
llisn'tback
andIf eelal i
tt
ledi sappointedbuthesaidhe' sgoing
togetmesomet hingtoeatsohewi l
lbeback.When
didIgetsocl i
ngyandneedy?"
Thebedhasnowf reshcleansheet s,thenur se
l
eavest hencomesbackaf teraf ewmi nutestel
ls
meIhavet ogodoaCt -Scan.Theywheel meouton
mybed, t
heydotheirbusinessandbr i
ngmebackt o
myr oom andwhenIgett here,siceloist here
fr
eshlyshowedandwear ingaj etbl acksui twit
ha
verycri
spywhi t
eshirtandhedi dn'tbut t
ont he2
buttonsfrom hi
sneck...
.wowhel ooksgood
str
aightoutoftheforbesMagazi nedamn.

Him:“Afteryou'
vehadyouf i
lll
ookingatmeyou
mightwannaeat”hesaysl ookingatmeamused.
I'
m embar r
assedthathecaughtmeogl inghi
m andI
wasn'tevenawarethathewasl ookingatme
watchinghim.Thenursetakesoutmyf oodand
putsitonthetabl
eandIdigin.

Hi
m:“yousti
llwantmor
eoryou'
ref
ull
?”If
orgothe
wasevenher
ebecauseIwassohungry
Me:“I'
mfullt
hankyouitwasdelici
ous.Haveyou
seenmyphoneIhavet ocallkar
aboandlil
ly.The
nursesai
dImi ghtbedi
schargedtoday”hegivesit
tome

Hi
m:"youst
il
lwantt
ogobackt
oyourpl
ace?"

Me:
"no.I
'
m gonnast
aywi
thkar
abo"

Him:"don'
tyouthi
nkit'
snotsafebecausehemight
showupatyourf r
iendshousebecauseheknows
wheretheyli
veandknowshe'llf
indyoueit
herat
l
il
ly'
sorkarabo'
splace?"

Me:
"kar
abowi
llbet
her
e,Iwon'
tbeal
one"

Hi
m:"Ok,Isavedmynumbert her
eandyouwi l
lcal
l
mewhent heygetyoudischar
gedsoIcantakeyou
t
okarabo'
splacebecauseyoudon'thaveacar
anymor
e"

Me:
"ok"

Hi
m:"Ihavet
ogot
owor
k,we'
l
ltal
k"

Me:
"thankyouf
ort
hecl
othes.Theyf
itmeper
fect
ly
"

Him:
"okyaya"heki
ssesmeandl
eaves.Isi
ghand
smil
etomysel
f.
CHAPTER21.

THAMI
.

Myli
feissofuckedupri
ghtnow,everyt
hingisj
ust
amess.Ihaven'
tbeenatt
endi
ngmycl assesfora
whi
lenowbecauseofallt
hethi
ngsI'veheardabout
mypar ents.ThepeopleIl ovewithalltheirflaws
andever ythingi
nmeevent hought heyt r
eatedl ungi
badbutasf ormeandbuhl eitwasn'tbad, Idon't
wanttol i
e.Iusedt ot
hi nkthereasont heyt r
eated
l
uhbadwasbecauseourmom hadanaf fairwith
unclevictorbutIfoundouti twasn'tthat.Theydi d
unspeakabl e,di
sgust
ingt hi
ngsthatmakemesi ck
tomyst omachandasmuchasIbel i
evel uhand
whatmbusosai d,Ist
illwanttoheart heirsideoft he
stor
y.

Ifishformydr ugsinmypant s,f

indt hem, empt y
them ont heli
vingroom tableandmakeal ineusing
mycar dandtakeanot eandsni ffthem inmynose.
Ilovethisfeel
ingofget t
inghighandal waysf eeli
ng
high.Idon'thavetousemymi ndandt hinkofmany
things.Itakemywhi skeyandpourmysel fadr i
nk,
openmyphoneandl ookatmyphot oswi t
hl uhand
Ismi l
e.She'sbeautif
ul,shehasal waysbeen
beautifulandnowt hatwe'renotr el
atedwi llIsti
l
l
l
ookatherasmysi sterluhorjustlungi?,
hmmmmm "Ismi l
etomysel f
Iinvi
temyf riendsoverint hehousetochi l
landit
endsupbei ngapar tybecausemanypeopl eshow
up.Webuymor ealcohol,foodandmor edr ugsand
wepar tyt hewhol enighthighanddr unk.Thisist
he
l
ifetobel i
ving, notthisfuckeduplif
eofdi scover
ing
yourpar ent sar eabunchoft hi
efsandmur der
es,
scammer sl iersandwhoknowswhatel se.Arewe
eventhei rkidsort heyalsost ol
eusf rom ourreal
famil
ies? ,theymessedupmyl if
eandi tledmet o
usedr ugsmor e.

Iam orwasanoccasi onaluserandI '

llonlyuse
whenI '
m studyi
ngforexamst oconcer nt
rate
becausest udyi
ngcivi
lengi
neeri
ngi shard,Itneeds
yout obeatyourbestalwaysandnoweversi nceI
foundoutwhatmypar ent
sdid,Istart
edt ouse
them everydayandnowIcan'tgowi thoutusingit
mor ethanonce.I'
m notanaddict,
I'm control
li
ng
thedrug,thedrugisnotcont
roll
ingme.
Iwakeupi nthemor ningandthewhol eplaceis
trashedandst inksofweedandt herear epeopl
e
whoar esti
llsl
eeping.Iwakeallofthem up,tel
l
them togot henaf t
erIsnif
fonel i
neandgoshower
quickly,getdoneandcl eanthehouse, make
breakfastandt hencallmymom' snumberf ort
he
hundr ethandhopet hatshewillanswerherphone
thisti
meandi tkeepsr i
ngi
ngunt i
lI'
m abouttohang
upt hensheanswer sit
.

Her
:"hel
lo?"

Me:
"mama.
..
."

Her
:"whoar
eyou?"huh?

Me:"whatdoyoumeanwhoam Iandwhyar eyou

answeri
ngthephonel
ikeyoudi
dn'
trecogni
semy
numberorvoice?"
Her:
"ohit
'syoumyboy,boyboy"shesoundsl
ike
she'
sscar
edandcan'
ttalk.

Me:"mom what
'sgoi
ngonandwhyar
eyounotat
homebecauset
here'
snooneher
e?"

Her
:"whendi
dyouar
ri
vei
nst
ander
ton?"

Me:
"yesterdayandIsl
eptreal
lywor
ri
edandyou
wer
e'ntansweri
ngyourphones.Whatisgoi
ngon?
"

Her:
"weareonavacationboyboyandwe'l
lbe
backsoon"Ihaveoutgrownthatnamebutshest
il
l
usesit

Me:
"mom don'
tli
etome,
Lungit
oldmeever
ythi
ng"
Her:
"thatbi
tch!,
she'
stheoneresponi
sbl
eforal
lof
thi
s!.Don'
tbel
ieveanyt
hingshesays,
youhearme
boyboy?"

Me:"Iwantt
ohearyoursi
deofthest
oryt
oomom,
soIcanunderst
andwhyshe'
slying"

Her:
"Ican'
ttel
lyouwher
eIam becauseyourdad
wil
lbefuri
ous"

Me:"mom IwanttohelpyouanddadanywayI'
ll
be
ablet
o.Pleaset
ellmewhereyouareandI'
l
lgeti
n
thecarandcomet oyouguys"

Her:
"Iseewhatyou'
redoi
ng,youwantt
otel
llungi
andthatst
upi
dfamil
yofherswhereweare?"

Me:"I
'
llneverdothatmom pl
ease,
youaremy
par
entsandIloveyou.You'
remyrealbl
oodandI
wantt
ohel
pyoupl
ease,
youknowIcan"

Her:
"Idon'
tbeli
eveyouthami
,youl
ovet
hatgi
rll
ike
she'
syourrealsi
ster"

Me:"that
'
sbecauseIdi
dn'
tknowshewasn'
tmyr eal
si
sterbutnowIdoandI'
m choosi
ngmyfami
ly.I
wanttohelpyoupl
ease"

Her
:"okI
'
llt
ellyoubutpl
easedon'
ttel
lanyone
t
hamimychild,youar
emyonl yhopenow"

Me:
"Ipr
omi
seIwont
,tel
lme"

Her:
"weareatNewcast
lebutwearemightl
eave
toni
ghtort
omorr
owmor ni
ng,sogether
ebefor
e
6pm "
Me:
"okgi
vemeyouraddr
ess"

Her:
"no,whenyougether
ecal
lmeandI
'
llt
ellyou
wheretomeeetme"

Me:"Okmom "shehangsupandIsi
ghshaki
ngmy
head.

Itaket hebagIcamewi t
handgeti nt
hecarand
drivetonewcast le.Ir
eal
lywantt ohatethem f
orthe
thingst heydidbutIcan'tbecausetheyaremy
par ents.Theydeservetobef orgi
venandgivena
secondchancebecauset heyarehumansandt hey
mist akesandt heyarenotperfect.

Onedayyouwakeupandl ear
ndistur
bingthi
ngs
yourparentsdidandthenyoudon'tknowhowt o
feelbecauseitdoesn'
tsoundli
ketheyarecapabl
e
ofdoingallthosethi
ngsandit'
shardformet o
beli
evethem, that
'swhyIwanttohearfrom t
hem
whatreall
yhappendandwhati sgoingon.Mbuso
hasbeenleavingmemessagesandcal l
ing.I
bl
ockedhisnumber s, l
ungi'
snumber s,
simphi we
andunclevict
or'
sbecauset ome, simsanduncl e
vi
ctorbetr
ayedtheirfamilyandsupportedst r
angers.
Sotheymeannot hingt omeatall.Iwon'tabandon
mypar ent
s,I'
m goi
ngt ogivethem thebenef i
tof
doubtandhopef orthebestandtwohour slaterI
'm
i
nnewcast l
ethencal lmom.

Her
:"youar
eal
readyher
e?"

Me:
"yes,
I'
m att
hemal
l'
spar
kingl
ot"

Her:
"sendmeyourlocat
ionandI
'l
lbether
eand
don'
tgetoutoft
hecarandlocki
tthami"

Me:
"ok"that'
swei
rd.Isendhermyl
oct
iont
hen
wai
tforher
.
Tenminut
eslat
ersomeonet r
iest
oopenmydoor
andIl
ookupandi t
'
ssomel adyIdon'
tknowand
shel
ooksbeaut
iful
.Sheknocksonthewindowand
Ij
ustl
ookatherwonderi
ngwhatthehellshewant
s.

Her
:"opent
hedoort
hami"what
?

Me:"mom?"t hat'
smymom? ,sheknocksom t he
windowagainandIunlockthedoor ,shegetsi
nand
Il
ookathershocked.Mymom l ookslikesomeoneI
don'tknowandifIweretoseeherwal king
somewher e,
Iwouldn'
tbeabletot el
lit
sher.

Me:
"whatdi
dyoudot
oyour
sel
f?"

Her:
"Ihadnochoicet
hami,mypasti
scatchi
ngup
wit
hme"shest ar
tscr
yingandIhugher
.

Me:
"don'
tcr
ymom I
'
m her
enow"
Her:
"it
'snotokay,ever
ythi
ngisjustamess.Thi
ngs
werenotsupposet obeli
kethi
s.Thisi
snotthel
ifeI
wantedformyselfthamiIswear"shecri
esagai
n
andIjusthol
dher.

Me:
"mom l
et'
sgetoutofher
e,wher
edoyoul
ive"

Her:"her eintownl etsgo, I

'
lldirectyou"Il ookatmy
mom st i
llshocked.Whoeverdi dhercosmet ic
surger ydidever ythingtomaket hem
unrecogni sable,newnosef ullcheecks,eyes, her
ears....
whol efaceandbodyandshenowl ooksli
ke
astr angerbutmymom.Shedi rectsmeandwego
tosomeal mostwar ndownhouses, aplacewher e
poorwhi tepeopl eliveandwest opoutsidesome
house.Wegetoutoft hecarandgeti nthehouse
andI 'm shockedt hatmypar entslivel
iket hi
s,they
l
ivei nthesl ums. .
.wow, t
hisInevert houghtIwi ll
see, them inthiski ndofsi t
uat i
onknowi nghow
extravagentt heyar e?,I
tistotall
yconf usingand
cr
azy.

Me:
"youl
iveher
e?"

Her
:"yeswel
iveher
e"shesi
tsdownandsi
ghs

Me:
"butwhydoyouliveli
kethi
s,whenyouhave
moneyt
obookyourselvesi
ntoahotelmom?"

Her
:"weli
veher
ebecausenoonewi
llt
hinkof
l
ookingf
orushere"

Me:
"no!
,mypar
ent
scan'
tli
vel
iket
hisIr
efuse"

Her:
"shutupandsitdownt hami,whenyou'r
ef at
her
comesbackandseest hatyou'r
eherehe'
sgoi ngto
bemadbutdon'tworryI'
llcal
m him downthenwe'll
havetotal
kthenl
eavethiscity"
Me:
"wher
eisdad?"

Her:
"hewentt
oseet
heguywhohel
psuswi
th
t
hingsweneed"

Me:"whati
sgoingonmom, ar
eallt
hethingslungi
sai
dyouanddaddidtrue?
.Didyoureal
lykil
lher
motherandsett
hehouseonfir
etokil
lal
lofthem?"

Her:
"it
'sal
lthei
rfault
!,weweregoingt
obehappy
butshehadtor ui
nitforme,shehadtotakeaway
theonl
ythi
ngt hatmatter
dtomeandIhat eher"

Me:
"whom ar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?,i
sit
..
..
.."

Her:
"DONTEVERSAYTHATBITCHESNAME
AROUNDMEEVERAGAIN,YOUHEARME? !
!!
!"she
saysscr
eami
ngsol
oudl
ikeshe'
sgoi
ngt
oloseit"
Me:
"yesmom "

Her:"getmeabot tleofal coholthereinthef

ridge"I
gotot hefr
idgeandopeni tandsee, si
x750ml
bott
lesofblacklabelandIt akeoneandgi veitto
hereandshet akesi tuseshert eethtoopenitand
dri
nksi t
.Mymomsdr inksaNgud( cot)ofblack
l
abelbeerandI 'm soshockedbecauseIhavenever
seent hi
ssideofherandhaveneverseenher
dri
nkinganythingothert hanwi ne"

Her:
"what?,
whyar
eyoul
ookingatmel
iket
hatboy
boy?"Isi
tdownt
henl
ookather.

Me:
"mom t
alkt
omepl
ease,
what
'sgoi
ngon?"

Her:"youwoul
dn'tunder
stand.Idi
dwhatIdid
becauseIhadapl ananditwasagoodanditwas
goingtoworkbutsiphohadtomessital
lupforme
andlookatmenow"shedr
inks,
bur
pst
henst
artt
o
cry.

Ihaveneverseenmymot herliket
his.Shel
ooksl
ike
sometownshipshebeenwomanandnotmy
sophi
sti
catedmot her
.Shelooksli
keamessand
seei
ngherlikethi
sbreaksmyhear t
.Imoveandsit
nextt
oherandt akeherbeeranddrinkit
.

Her
:"nobuhl
e"shet
henl
aughs

Me:
"wher
eisshe?"

Her:
"she'
snowapr
isonerofmbusoandt
he
ngcobo'
s"

Me:
"thei
rpr
isonerj
ustbecauseyoual
lfr
amedl
ungi
?
"
Her
:"t
hatandmor
eboyboy"

Me:
"whatdoyoumeanmom?"

Her:"youknowhowyoursi steri
sli
ke,al
ways
want i
ngt oshineandt
akethecentr
estageandto
betheonl yonewhoget sat
tenti
on,
wellshecoul
dn'
t
standl ungionceshef
oundoutthatshe'
snotyour
realsister
..
."

Me:"sheknewt
hatl
ungii
sn'
toursi
sterandyoual
l
kepti
tfr
om me"

Her
:"yesshedi
dandwet
oldhernott
otel
lyou"

Me:"al
lofyoulyi
ngandkeepi
ngsecr
ets"shel
ooks
atmeandl aughs
Her:
"letmet el
lyousomet hi
ngaboutyoursist
er,
shewaswor ki
ngasapr osti
tut
eandwouldgot o
somecl ubthenonedayshecomeshomeal l
exci
tedandsayst omeshemetaver yri
chmani na
cl
ubandt hatmanwant shert obehi
sslave.He'l
ldo
anyt
hingandever yt
hingintheworl
dforherbutonly
i
fsheagr ees"

Me:"buhl
ewasapr
ost
it
utemom andyouanddad
knew?"

Her:
"yes,nowletmef i
nisht
heconversation.your
si
stersaystothemanshecan'tbecauseshe
al
readyhasaownerbutshecangethi m someone
el
se,she'l
lsel
lthatper
sontohi
m atar easonable
pr
ice"

Me:
"ohmyGodmom,
whodi
dshesel
l?"

Her
:"t
heyagr
eeont
hepr
iceandt
hemangi
vesher
deposi
tcheckofa1.5mil
li
onrands,shetakesi
t
andtheotherr
emaini
ng1.5shewillgetwhenshe
del
iver
stheperson".

Me:
"mom di
dbuhl
epl
ant
osel
llungi
?"

Her:"asshewast el
li
ngmeyourdadwasl ist
ening
toust henheasksbuhl ewhodi dshet hi
nkshewas
goingt osellandbuhlesaysshewasgoi ngtosell
l
ungiandyourdaddi dn'tagree,
heabsol utel
y
ref
usedatf irstandIhadt oconvincehim andthen
hef i
nallyagreed"

Me:
"Icannotbel
ievebuhl
eisi
ntohumant
raf
fi
cki
ng
mom..
.youal
lare"

Her:
"wetel
lhertoarrangeameet i
ngsowecan
meetthemanf i
rstbutthenyourgr
eedyst
upi
dass
si
sterst
eal
sfrom mbuso, t
ell
susmbusowon't
not
icebutmbusof i
ndsoutwhatshedid.Hef
inds
herandbeat syoursi st
eralmosttodeathandthen
ourdealf all
sof fbecausebuhl ewastheli
nkthat
wasgoi ngt oconnectust othatman.Welaterfi
nd
outthatthemanwaski l
ledandwedon'tknowwho
didandt hel astpersonhewasseenwi t
hisbuhle
andnowt hosepeopl ear easloaft
erusandwedon' t
knowwhot heyar eandtheyar ebl
ackmail
ingus
andthey. ..".

Dad: "whatthef
uckaredoi
ngtel
li
ngthi
sboyall
theset hi
ngs?"heasksst
andi
ngatthedoorl
ooki
ng
sof uckenmad.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER21.

Hisvoicesoundslikehim buti
tdoesn'tlookli
ke
him.He'scarryi
ngaheavybagandheset sitdown
l
ooksmymom f uming,
thenhelooksatmeandI
knowhe' snothappywithmebei ngherebutIdon't
care.Theyaremypar entsandIwillhelpthem
whereIcan.
Dad:
"whatt
hehel
lar
eyoudoi
ngher
ethami
?"

Me:"IcametoseeyoudadandIwaswor
r i
edabout
you,youandmom bot
hhavesomeexpl
ainingt
odo
tome"

Him:
"Iam yourfat
hernotyourchi
ldthatneedst
o
expl
ainanyt
hingtoyou!"hesaysangri
ly

Me:
"soi
tist
rue,
thet
hingsl
ungit
oldmear
eal
ltr
ue?
"

Him:"l
ookathowst upi
dyoulookr
ightnow.You'
re
highandget
ti
ngdr unkwit
hyourmotherandyou
comehereuninvi
ted,whotol
dyouwher eweare?"

Mom:"somuchdr
ama,comedownsiphoandI'
m
t
heonewhotol
dhim wher
eweare.Imissmyki
ds"
.
Me:"Iwantt
ohel
pdad,anywayt
hatIcanbeofhel
p
you,t
hati
swhyI'
m her
e"

Hi
m:"whatdi
dyourmom t
ellyou"hesi
tsdown

Me:"thattherear epeoplel
ookingforyouot hert
han
l
ungi'
sf ami l
y.Didyoudot hethingslungitol
dme
aboutherf ami l
y..
..
didyoukil
lhermot hermom and
dad,youwant edunclevict
ortoburnal loft
hem i
n
thehouse?"

Him:"Yourmom isonet heonewhot ol

dmeabout
them andhowrichtheyare.She'
salwaysbeena
j
ealousofherbestfri
endandshe'sagr eedybit
ch
too,al
wayswant sever
ythingt
obeabouther ,she'
s
evenjeal
ousofbuhleherownchi l
d"

Mom:
"don'
ttal
kaboutbuhl
eli
ket
hat
!"
Me:"mymom isnotabitchdad,
she'
sabeauti
ful
,
wonder
fulandver
yclassywoman"helooksatmy
mom andthenmethenlaughsrr
eal
lyl
oud.

Him:
"Yourmom i
saprost
it
udeli
keyoursist
er,
al
wayshasandal
wayswil
lbe.WhenImethershe
wasthel
adyoft
heni
ghtandstudyi
ngatthesame
ti
me".

Me:"never!
,don'
ttalkaboutherl
iket
hatyou
miserabl
eprick"Istanduptogoandpunchmydad
butmymot herblocksmeandpushesmebackto
si
tbackagainont hecouch.

Mom:"thamidon'
ttal
ktoyourf
atherl
iket
hat
!,si
pho
whydidyoutel
lhi
mt hat
?"

Hi
m:"becausehedeser
vest
oknowwhatt
hisf
ami
ly
i
sreal
lyl
ike"
Me:
"mom i
sitt
rue?"

Mom: "yesokay!,everyfuckent
hingthatbi
tchsaid
i
strueokay.Ikill
edt hatwhoreofhermotherandI
wantedtokillt
hoseki dstooespeci
all
ythatlungi
wholookslikeher"

Me:"nomom! ,
no!.Youar
enotaki
ll
er.
..
whywoul
d
youkil
lhert
hough,why?"

Dad:"becauseshe'sakillerandi trunsinherblood,
she'sallofi
t,Pr
osti
tute,scammer ,thi
ef,
li
er,worst
mot heranddon'tt
ellmeaboutbei ngawi fe
becauseshei sworthl
ess.Sheseducesmen, sl
eeps
withthem andwhent heyf allforhershescams
them ".mydadsaysal loft heseshockingthingto
me.

Mom: "wher
ewereyoualltheset
imesIwasdoi
ng
al
lthosethi
ngsbecauseyouwerether
e!,
youwere
wit
hmeencour agingmeanddoi ngthesamet hi
ngs.
Don'tpr
etendasifyouri
nnocentinalloft
his
becauseyouarenotsipho!
"

Him:
"Youdidal loft
hatbecauseyoulovemeand
you'
l
ldoanythingtomakemehappy.Ineverhelda
guntoyourheadandf or
cedyout odoanyt
hing"

Mom: "Youar et
heonewhocameupwi th
ever
ything,I
'minalloft
hismessbecauseofyou,
I'
mrunni ngawaybecauseofyou.Eversi
nceImet
youmyl ifehasbeennothi
ngbutanightmar
e"

Dad:"Ididn'
tfor
ceyoutostay,i
fyouwerel
ivi
nga
night
mar eandsomi ser
ablewhydidyounever
l
eaveme? ,whydidyoustayandcont
inuet
oprove
yourloveforme?"

Mom:"I'
m sti
llher
ebecauseIloveyouandI'
l
ldo
anyt
hingforyourl
ove.Idon'
tregr
etmylif
ewithyou
becauseI'
l
lgi
veanyt
hingt
omakeyouhappy"
she
standsupandst
ager
sherwayt
omydadandsi t
s
onhislap.

Dad:"Ial
sodoever
ythi
ngf
oryouandImakeyou
happytoosowhyareyoubl
amingmefort
he
choi
ceswebothtookandagr
eedon?"

Mom: "I
'mti
redofthi
sli
fesi
pho,Iwantustostop.
Ourpastiscat
chi
nguponusandt heyal
readyhave
buhleandIt
'sonl
yamat t
eroft
imebef or
etheyfi
nd
ustoo"

Dad:"I
t'
stool
atetost
opnowwi f
e,t
hengcobo'sare
af
terusandthatman'
sfamil
ythatwaskil
led,
which
i
swhyIwentt omeetmiket
ogetourpassports.We
ar
eleavingt
hecountr
ytomorr
owmor ni
ng"

Imaybest
il
lhighanddr
unkbutIfeelsickt
omy
st
omachli
steni
ngtomyparent
stalk.Ican'
tbel
ieve
thesear ethepeoplethatraisedus,theone'
sI
l
ookedupt oandwant edtobel i
kethem whenI'
m
mar r
ied.Theywer ejustgoingtoleavethecountr
y
andf orgetaboutus?,whatki ndofparent
sare
these?.Myhear tfeel
sheavyandi tsober
smea
l
itt
le.

Me:"soyou'r
eleavi
ngt
hecount
ryandyouwer
enot
goi
ngtotellme?"

Mom:"it
'snotl
ikeyou'
resti
llachi
ldt
hami.Youare
amannowandyoucant akecareofyour
self"she
saysl
ikemyquestionannoyedher

Me:"I
'
m st
il
lachil
dmom, I'
m 21not31.Howam I
goi
ngtosurvi
vewit
houtyou?"

Mom:"mbusopai
dforyourf
eesandanapart
ment,
soyouj
ustneedt
ogetajobandfendf
oryoursel
f"
Dad:
"growupt hamiandst
ophi di
ngbehindyour
mother
'sski
rt
.AtyourageIwasal r
eadyworking
andhadmyownt woroom housebecauseIdi
dn't
wantanyhanddownsl i
keyou"

Me:"you'remypar ent
sandyoumustt akecareof
menotmbuso.Hedi dthatbecauseyoustopped
payi
ngf ormyf eesandsendi ngmemoneyandhe
al
sodidt hatbecauseIwasl ungi'
sbrot
her"

Mom:
"youwer
enevert
hatbi
tchesbr
other
..
.Ever
!"

Me:"andwhataboutbuhl
e?,
youweregoi
ngto
l
eavewit
houtf
indi
ngherandmakingsur
eshe'
s
okay,
howcouldyou?"

Mom:"yoursi
sterhasbeeninthi
sgamefort
oo
l
ong,she'
ssmar tandshe'
l
lfi
ndawaytoescape.
Sheknewhowdanger ousiti
sandwhatshe'
s
get
ti
nghersel
finto"
Me: "shedidn'taskyout omakeherwhatsheis
today!!
!!,
shewasj ustachil
dandyoumadeherdo
allyourcriminalactivi
ti
esandothersi
ckt
hings,
whatki ndofpar entsareyou?"

Mom:"theone'
swholoveyouandarenow
pr
otect
ingyouboyboybyrunnungaway"

Me:"whenhasrunningawaybeenanswermom? ,
i
sn'
tamot hersupposetoputherchi
ldr
enf
ir
steven
bef
oreherhusband?"

Mom: "Imetyourdadfi
rstbef
oreyou,he'
stheonl
y
per
sonIhaveeverloveduncondit
ional
lyandtome
he'
llawaysbemynumberbef oreyouandyour
si
sterandthati
snevergoingtochange".

Me:"mom please,
don'
tchoosethi
sli
feoverus,
don'
tchoosedadoveryouchil
drenpl
easemamaI
begyou"Ibeghercr
ying

Dad:
"weloveyousonbutwel
oveuswayt
oomuch,
you'
l
lunder
standoneday"

Me:"noIdon'
t,youaredoi
ngthisbecausewear e
notyourki
ds!
, i
fwewereyourchil
drenyouwoul dn'
t
l
eaveusandletpeoplewedon'tknowcomeaf terus.
Theycouldki
llmebecauseofyouandt het
hingsI
don'
tknowabout !"
.

Dad:
"ifwel
eavet
hentheywil
lst
opcomingaf
terus
andyouwon'
tbehar
medi nanyway"Icr
y

Me:"you'
drat
herbehappysomewherewithoutus
andyouexpectmetobeli
evet
hatyouloveus?,NO!.
Whoar emyrealpar
ent
ssoIcangoandl ookfor
them?,TELLME!"
Mom:"comedownt
hamiandst
opscr
eami
ng,
you
ar
eourchil
d"

Me:
"whataboutbuhl
e?,
isshemysi
ster
?"

Mom:"shei
syoursi
sterbutyourf
atheri
snother
f
ather"

Me:
"what
?,mom!
?.Daddi
dyouknow?"

Dad:
"Iknowt
hamiandIl
oveyoursi
ster"

Me:"doessheknowt
hatshe'
snotyourdaught
er?"
Helooksatmymom andmom looks.
..
Idon'
tknow
andIdon'tl
ikei
t.

Mom:
"shedoesn'
tknow"
Me:
"who'
sherf
ather
?"

Mom:
"Idon'
tknow"

Me:
"Idon'
tbel
ieveyoumom.Whatar
eyouhi
ding!
?
"

Dad:
"don'
ttal
ktoyourmot
herl
iket
hatt
hami"

Me:"I'
llt
alktoyouanywayIwant .Youarenott
he
peopleIthoughtyouwere,youevenchangedyour
l
ookssopeopl ewon'trecogni
seyou,youwere
goingtoleaveandforgetaboutus".

Mom:"weweregoi
ngt
ocal
lyouandl
etyouknow
t
hatwe'
resaf
eboyboy"

Me:
"youar
eli
ersandt
hief
sandmur
der
esandI
wantnothi
ngt odowithyou,youhearme?,
You
botharedeadtome.Iwoul drat
herbeanorphan
thanhaveparentsl
ikeyou".

Dad:
"youar
emadatusandweunder st
andt hat
youdon'
tmeananyt
hingyou'
resayi
ngrightnow"

Me:"tothinkIwasgoi ngtohelpyouandGod!t he
thi
ngsIwast hi
nkingofdoingt o.
..
,.
tot
heonly
personwho' severlovedmeuncondi ti
onal
ly.
..
how
couldIbetrayherlikethi
s?,Ishouldhavenever
cameher e!"

Mom:
"thamimyson.
..
"

Me:"don'
tcal
lmethat
!Ihateyou..
.Ihat
ebothof
youandIneverwantt
oseeyoueveragai nyouhear
me?"canthispai
ni'
mf eel
ingst
opandIcr y
Dad:
"son?"

Me:
"fuckbot
hofyou,I
'm cal
l
ingmbusonowand
I
'mtel
li
nghim wher
eyouare"

Dad:
"Iwoul
dn'
ttr
ythati
fIwer
eyou"

Me:"IhopetoGodIneveri
nher
it
edyoursi
ckand
twi
stedmental
it
y.Youdeser
veever
ythi
ngthati
s
comingyourway"Itakemyphoneout.

Mom:
"don'
tyoudar
ethami
!"

Me:
"what
?,what
!?,
you'
regoi
ngt
oki
llmet
oo?"

Mom:"maybeweshould"mybl oodr
unscol
dandI
act
ual
lybel
ievet
hatshewi
llshootme
Dad:
"notmysont
hul
i!"

Me:
"butmydaught
er?"

Me:
"whatdoest
hatmeandad?"

Dad:
"itmeansnot
hingt
hami.youneedtogoback
t
ostander
tonnow!,
youneedtoleavet
hami!"

Mom: "no!i
tmeanssomet
hingboyboy.Gi
veme
yourphonenow!"

Me:"no!
,I'
m cal
li
ngmbusonow"Iunl ocki
tgo
thr
oughmycont act
sthenIhearsomeonecocki
nga
gun.Il
ookupandi t
'smymother.

Mom:
"putt
hedamnphonedownnowt
hami
!"
Dad:
"thul
igi
vemet
hegunnow!"

Mom: "No!,Ihavesacri
fi
cedwayt oomuchtolet
thamigiveust othosepeopl
esiphonooooo!
,I
refuse.Youknowwhati sgoingtohappenonce
theygetus"Iscr ol
ldownthenseembuso'snumber
andIpr essonhiscontactandthenIunbl
ockhis
numbert err
if
ied

Mom:"yousonofabit
ch!,
youthi
nkIwon'
tki
llyou?
"Shel
aughsli
keshe'
slosi
nghermind

Dad:"thamiwi l
lnotcallthem babyIpromisemy
l
ove.Gi vemet hegunbaby, don'
tshootourson
thul
iplease!"Istandther eshaki
ngseeingasideof
mymot herIhaveneverseen.Il ookatherandlook
atmyphonet hentapthecal lbuttonandIseeit
dail
ingandIhol dmybr eathandhopetoGodi t
connect sandheanswer smycal l"
Dad:"nooooo!"IhearagunshotthenIfeelpainon
mychestandIl ookdownandseebl oodcomi ngout,
Ifal
landst r
uggl
et obreat
h.Il
ookatmymot herand
seeeyesofaki l
lernoymymot her
.Myownmot her
shotme, sheshotmebecauseshewant stokillme.
Ihearmydadscr eami
ng.
CHAPTER22.

MBUSO.

Iam somadatmysel ff
orlett
ingmygaur ddown
aroundbuhle,somucht hatshethoughtshecan
rapeme, getpregnantbymet henabortt
he
baby..
.mybaby.Idon' tknowwhatIcoul dhave
donehadIf oundoutt henbeforeshehadan
aborti
on.Thehat eIfeelforbuhlei
ssodeept hat
kil
li
ngherwi l
lgivemepeaceofmi ndknowi ng
she'sdead.

It
akemyphoneandsmi
lel
ooki
ngatmyscr
een
saver,l
uhsl eepingpeacefull
ywithmyhandonher
stomach.Ourki dsandherar et
heonlypeoplethat
mat t
erthemostt omenow.Iknowshemi ghtbe
sleepi
ngsoIsendheramessage"Il oveyouandI
can'twaittomar ryyourlovel
yass",Icalm down
thentakemyl aptopandst ar
tdi
ggingaboutAyanda
Maseko, thenaf t
erI'
m doneIcallmybr ot
her.

Hi
m:"Mbuso?"

Me:
"wher
ear
eyou?"

Hi
m:"what
'swr
ong,
I'
m home?"

Me:"cometodur
bannow,I
'l
lsendyoumyl
ocat
ion
andbringmemyclot
hes"

Hi
m:"I
'
m comi
ng"hehangsupandIsi
gh.
Housekeeper:
"SircanImakeyousomet hingtoeat
?
"Iwonderhowscel omanagedtohireagirlas
youngasher,tobehishousekeeperbecauseshe
l
ookslikeshe'
slungi'
sageorsomet hi
ng.

Me:
"what
'syournameagai
n?"

Her
:"I
'
m zamasi
r"

Me:"Canyougetmesomeofscel o'
sclothes,j
ust
sweatsandt-
shir
tandleavethem ontheguest
bedroom."Iwonderhowfarlungiiswit
hget ti
nga
housebecauseIcan'
tstayherewithscel
o, Ineed
myownhouse.

Zama:"oksi
r"sheleavesandIgot otheguest
bedr
oom andtakeoffmyclothesandgetint he
showerandjustl
etthehotwaterhitmytensebody
buti
tdoesn'
thelpbecausetheonlythi
ngthatwill
comedownisbur yi
ngmyselfdeeponl ungiandI
gethar dbutI'
m notgoi ngtojakeoffbecauseit
won' tsateme.Iswitchof ftheshowerandanddr y
mysel fthenopenthedoorandseezamal ef
tthe
clothesont hebed.Siceloisalmostthesamesi ze
asmesohi scl
othesfit.Igodownst airsandhear
voicesi ntheki
tchenandgot hereandf i
ndscelo
withhi shousekeeperandt here'
stensionbetween
them andt heystoptalkingwhent heyseemeand
shel eavesthekit
chen.

Me:"Rul
enumber1brot
her,
youdon'
tfuckt
he
househel
p"heshakeshi
shead.

Hi
m:"howareyoufeel
ingandwhydomycl
othes
l
ookbett
eronyou?"

Me:
"Il
ookbet
tert
hanyout
hat
'swhy"

Hi
m:"sayswho?"
Me:
"you'
resi
ster"het
akesanappl
eandhi
tsme
wi
thi
t

Me:
"doestaki
ngthi
ngsandt
hrowt
hem atpeopl
e
r
uninthef
amily?"

Hi
m:"shet
hrewsomet
hingatyou?"hel
aughsat
me

Me:"broafryi
ngpan, f
ood,knif
emanIhadt or
un
ducki
ngoutoft hehouse.I
twast hatmessageyou
sentaboutyouwantingustotellhert
hetrut
h"

Hi
m:"ser
vesyour
ight
,whodi
dshet
hinki
t'
sfr
om?"

Me:
"buhl
ebr
o"wel
augh

Me:
"manIl
oveher
,shecanneverknowwhatbuhl
e
di
d"

Hi
m:"Iagr
ee,
sowhenar
eyourguyscomi
ng?"

Me:"I'
m wai
ti
ngforsiyabongathenwe'
llcal
lthe
guysandIwantmi kether
etoo.Iwanthimfuckedin
theassunti
lhecan'tmovethenI'
m sel
li
nghimt oo"

Hi
m:"doesn'
thehaveaf
ami
ly,
anyonewho'
l
lni
ss
hi
m?"

Me:"notthatIknowof
,theyar
emybr
other
sfr
iends
andsoI'laskhim"

Hi
m:"thatbi
tchistwist
edman,
I'
veneverseena
messedupgirll
ikeher"

Me:
"Iwor
ryaboutl
uh,
Iwor
ryt
hatshe'
stoo
forgi
vingandmaybeshe' shi di
ngsomeoft he
thi
ngsshewentt hroughl i
vingwiththosepeople
anditterri
fi
esmet ot hinkmaybesi phohast ouched
hertoo.Ifhedidtouchbuhl ewhenshewasyoung,
maybei tmessedherupt obet hispersonshei s
todayandl ungimightbehi dinghedi dtohertooto
coverthetruamamaybeshewentt hrough.Iwant
hertogoseeat herapistaft
ershe'shadourchi l
d,
soshecandealwi theverything"

Hi
m:"Iwasthi
nki
ngthesamethingtoo.Lungii
s
j
ustl
ikeourmom,sof
tki
ndandver yforgi
ngandI
pr
ayandhopetoGodthathenevertouchedher"

Me:"Ithi
nkshewouldhavet ol
doneofusi fheever
di
dt ouchherbutt
hatthoughtref
usestogoaway
fr
om mymi ndandit'
sstressi
ngmet hefuckout"

Hi
m:"t
ellmeabouti
t"hesi
ghsdeepl
y
Me:
"whathappent
othegi
rlyouwentt
osee?"

Hi
m:"thatscumbagbeatherupagai
nwhenshe
wentt
obr eakt
hingsof
fwithhi
m,shelooksbad
manbutshe'sgonnamakeit"

Me:
"whenar
eweget
ti
ngr
idofhi
m ?"

Him:"assoonasIf
indhi
m,Iaskedsomeofmy
guystolookf
orhi
m 50kt
owhoeverfindshi
m al
i
ve
"

Me:
"makeit100k,
itshoul
dmoti
vat
ethem,
then
we'
l
lal
sosellt
hatbit
chwithmi
ke"

Him:"NowIfeelbet
ter,
Iknewther
e'sar easonwhy
Il
ikedyoucausewe'rethesamemot herfucker"we
bothlaugh
Me:
"ar
eyouser
iousabouther
?"

Hi
m:"hel
lyeahIam andI
'
m goi
ngal
lin"

Me:"thenyouneedt ogetr
idofzama.Shecan'
tbe
yourhousekeeperanymore"

Hi
m:"Iknowbutsheknowsmeandherwe'
rej
ust
f
ucki
ng"

Me:"don'tbestupi
dscel
owomenneverjustt
hink
you'r
ejustfucki
ngonl
y.Theywantmor
eoryou
didn'
tlear
nf r
om mysit
uati
onwit
hbuhl
e?"

Him:
"yeahyou'
rer
ight.I
'
lltel
lhert
oni
ghtbefor
eI
askayandat
omovei nwithme"Ilaughatthi
sfool

Me:
"bef
oreyoudot
hatr
ememberyouaskedmet
o
f
indouti
nfor
mat
ionaboutherandIdi
d"

Hi
m:"j
ustt
ellmebr
o..
..
isi
tbad?"

Me: "nothingbad, shecomesf rom wi tbank, she'san

onlychi l
dandwasr ai
sedbyhergr andmot herafter
herpar entsdiedt henwhenhergr and'sdiedshe
movedi nwi t
hheruncl einherf ather'shouset hat
shewaski ckedoutoft woyear saf t
ershef ini
shed
hermat r
ic.Herdadwaswor kingatami neandl eft
hersomemoneybutuncl eherf athermadehi s
brotherhergur diansohe' l
lbeabl et or ai
sehi s
daught erforhim butbrotherhadot herpl ansand
chowedal lhermoneyspendi ngi tonhi swi feand
kids.Theyl eftnothingforherandt hat'swhenshe
cameher eindur banwithhert wof ri
ends, struggled
af ewmont hsthenshegotaj obandst artedsavi ng
moneyandr egister
edherbaker ybusiness" .thi
s
foolsmi l
es

Hi
m:"hmmm I
'
mimpr
essed,
Ineverexpect
edt
hat
shehasabusi
ness,
Ithoughtsheworks
somewher
e.How'st
hebusinessgoi
ng?"

Me:"I
t'
sstruggl
ingbutI'
m sur
eyoucanhelpher
gr
owi tsi
nceshe'sgonnabepartoft
hisf
amily"

Hi
m:"yeahI
'
llhel
phereveni
fsher
efusesmyhel
p"

Me:"yougotitbadandyouhaven'
tevent
ouched
her
."Ilaughathim

Him:
"shutupfoolandspeaki
ngofher,Ihavet
ogo
andseeheragai
n.Ihopeshewon'tpr
esscahrges
agai
nsthi
m sowe'll
gethim"

Me:
"hercarwasr
epor
tedst
olen,
Iguesshet
ooki
t"

Hi
m:"anyt
hingel
se?"
Me:"that
'
sal
lbr
other
.Doyouhavet
hatr
ecor
dingof
buhle?"

Hi
m:"youwanti
t?"heasksmel
ikeI
'
m cr
azy

Me:
"Ido"

Hi
m:"ar
eyousur
e?"

Me:
"Iwouldn'
tbeaski
ngi
fIwasn'
tsur
e"wehear
f
oot
steps

Zama:"excusemesir
,ther
e'ssomeonewho'
'sher
e
toseeyou,he'
sint
helivi
ngroom "shel
ooksatme

Me:
"thatmustbemybr
other"scel
ofol
lowsmeout
oft
hekit
chenandi
t'
shi
m
Me:
"li
tt
lebr
other"heshakeshi
shead

Bonga:
"I'
m onl
ytwoyear
syoungert
hanyouf
ool"
wel
aughandhug.

Me:
"thi
sisl
ungi
'
sbr ot
herSiceloNgcobo,
scel
othi
s
i
smyyoungerbr
otherSiyabongaGumede"

Bonga:
"Maphol
oba"

Si
cel
o:"t
hat
'smydadMnguni"

Bonga:
"Mngunii
smydadt
oo"weal
llaugh

Si
cel
o:"ni
cemeet
ingyoul
it
tl
ebr
other
,let
sgot
omy
st
udy"
Bonga:
"notyout
oo"

Me:
"di
dyouj
ustr
ollyoureyesatus?"

Bonga:
"Ihaven'
tevenhadanythingt
oeati
nthi
s
houseandyou'r
ealreadygangi
nguponme?"

Si
cel
o:"that
'swhatbi
gbr
other
sdoi '
llf
indyoui
nmy
st
udy.Ihavetotal
ktomyhousekeeper"

Bonga:"t
hat
'syourhousekeeper
?..
..
manyoul
ike
tr
ouble"

Sicel
o:"notyoutoofool
,go"hegoest
ot heki
tchen
andwegot ohisst
udyandIporuswhiskey

Bonga:
"di
dn'
tyouaskl
uht
ogetyouguysahouse?
"

Me:
"she'
sst
il
llooki
ngIt
hinki
fshehasn'
tfor
got
ten
"

Bonga:
"what
'swr
ongwi
thyou?"

Me:
"whatyoumean?"

Bonga:
"mbuso?"

Me:
"it
'sbuhl
e"

Him:"whatdi
dthi
sbit
chdothist
imeandwhy
haven'
tyouki
ll
edherbrot
her
?"

Me:"
she'
sali
vebecauseofmypr
omi
set
oluhokay,
l
et'
swaitf
orsicel
o"
Him:
"youaregett
ingsof
tmbuso, meet
ingl
uhhas
madeyousoftandIli
kethatver
ymuchbutman
don'
tfor
getwhowear e"

Me:
"Iknow,shebr
ingsoutt
hesi
deofmeInever
t
houghtIhave"

Him:"youareourf at
her'
ssonandyout akeaft
er
him morethanusandyouknowhowshehashi m
wrappedaroundherf i
ngerandthat'
sluhtoyou.
Youloveherlikehowdadl ovesmom, youdon'
t
wanttodisappointherandIrespectt
hatbut
rememberf orluhtobehappy,atpeaceand
prot
ectedbuhleneedst odi
e"

Si
celo:
"that
'swhatI
'
vebeent
ell
inghi
m,i
fhewon'
t
doitIwil
l"

Me:
"shutupandpl
ayt
heaudi
oscel
o"
Si
cel
o:"ar
eyousur
e?"

Me:"i
fthere'
sanyoneIwoul
dwantt
hist
oheari
t'
s
hi
m besidesyou"

Si
cel
o:"ok"

Hepl aystheaudioandIl ookatmybr ot

herandhe
getspal ewit
heverywor dbuhlesaysandl ooks
real
lymad.Si yabongasaysI '
mt heonewhot ook
moref rom dadbuthedoesn' treal
isethatmeand
him areveryali
keinmyt hingsandIknowdeep
downheknowst hatandthatiswhyIwant edhimto
knowt hisbecauseIcan'tcarryitalone.

Bonga:
"wher
eisshe?"

Me:
"wi
thcel
est
e?"
Bonga:
"wear
esel
li
nghert
otheal
bani
ans"

Me:
"mi
ket
ooandt
shepo"

Bonga:"whot hef
uckistsheponow"wet ellher
abouttshepoandayandaandhel ooksatsicelol
ike
he'
scrazy."youhaven'tevenhadthepussyand
al
readyyouwantt omoveheavenandear thforher?,
whatiswr ongwit
hyout wo"

Sicel
o:"weallneedt
hatsomeoneatt
heendoft
he
daybrotherevenyou"

Bonga:
"fuckmanIknow"

Me:"getmikeher
eanddon'ttellhi
m whythenget
guyswhowoul dl
ovetotearhisassup,guyswit
h
hugedicksbonga"welaugh
Bonga:
"leavethatt
ome, buti
fwegetmiket
hen
paulpr
obablyknowswhathappendandhetoohas
tobehere.Ican'
tbel
ieveweoncef
uckedwomen
wit
htheseguys"

Sicel
o:"Ihopeyouwon'
tbeshar
ingmysi
sterwi
th
anyone"

Me:"you'l
lgodeafi
fyouknewhal ft
hethi
ngsyour
sist
erl
etsmedot oher.
.."hethr
owsabookatme
andIduck"butdon'tworryMydickist
heonlyone
thatwi
llalwaysmakeherscreem myname"

Si
cel
o:"f
uckyoumbuso"

Me:"thendon'
taskmeaboutwhatdowedowit
h
yoursi
ster
.Organi
seapar
tytheni
nvi
temi
keand
pault
healbani
ans"
Bonga:
"consi
deri
tdone"

Si
cel
o:"butseri
ousl
yguys,youusedt
ofuckone
womanatt hesametime?"bongaandIl
augh

Me:"hellnobrother,
I'
veneverhadat hreesome
somewi thhim buthewoul dbetherewatchingwit
h
mikeandpault henwhenI '
m donetheywoul dtake
over,
Ialwaysf uckfi
rstbutther
e'saguyIusedt o
haveshar ewomenwi t
handIstoppeddoi ngthat
whenIst art
edtocaref orl
uhandIst opped
cheati
ngonher" .

Sicel
o:"I
'
llki l
lyouifyoucheatonheragain.Onl
y
menwhoar en'ti
nti
midat
edbyothermendr eam
aboutwat chingtheirwomenwhileanotherman
fucksher."

Bonga:
"he'
smybr
otherandIl
ovehi
m andI
'
llki
ll
anyonewhothi
nksofharmi
nghi minanyway
i
ncludi
ngyousi
celobutwhenitcomestoluhI
'l
l
hel
pyoukil
lmbusotoo"wealllaugh

Me:"I
'vel
earntmylessonandIwon't.Scel
oso
you'
retel
li
ngmet hatyou'
veneverf
uckedtwo
womenatt hesamet i
meorsharedwi t
hanyone?"
.

Scel
o:"f
uckedtwogirl
satt
hesameti
meyes,
but
shar
ed?..
..manthat
'smydream "

Me:
"maybeayandawi
lll
etyou"wel
augh

Scel
o:"Shewon'
tagr
eeandIcant
ell"

Bonga:
"askhernowasyou'
reget
ti
ngt
oknowher"

Me:
"ar
eyouguysexcl
usi
vel
ikeyout
alkedabout
,
you'
reonl
yfucki
ngeachot
her
?"

Scel
o:"Iwasgoi
ngt
otal
ktoheraboutt
hatt
oni
ght"

Me: "Ihaveanidea,whydon'
tthebothofyouhere
fuckzamabef oreyoufi
reherandbeforeyoutal
kto
ayandabecausei fyoutal
ktoherandfuckzama
after,youar
egoingtobecheatingonher"

Bonga:
"who'
szama?"

Me:
"thehousekeeperhasat
hingf
orhi
m"

Sicelo:
"ifzamaagrees,
I'minonelastt
imebefor
eI
commi tfull
ytoayanda,whatdoyousayli
tt
le
brother?"

Bonga:
"I'
min"
Sicel
o:"Manwe'refuckedup"welaugh.Myphone
ri
ngsandI '
m expect
ingtoseemybaby'snumber
butI'
tsthami?,
wherethefuckhasthi
sbornbeenat
.

Me: "guysit'
st hami"t heygetsilentandIputiton
l
oudspeaker, "hel
lo?,thamiwher ear eyou?"then
wehearagunshotandaman' svoi cesceaming'no'
andcr ying.Sicelotakesouthisphoneanddi alsand
Iranoutoft hest udyandgot hel i
vingroom and
trackthami '
sphoneandhe' sinNewcast l
ethenI
hearsiphoaski ngthami '
smot herwhyheshot
thami .

Me:
"whatthef
ucki
swr
ongwi
tht
hemazi
buko
women?
!!!
"

Bonga:
"let
sgo,I'
l
ldr
ivet
otheai
rpor
t"si
cel
o
comesinrunni
ng
Si
cel
o:"dadsayshisguysheardt
hegunshot sand
ar
eintherenow.Theyhavethem andtheycal
ledan
ambul
ance,it
slooki
ngbadforhim brot
her"

Me:
"let
sgo"

Wel eavethehouseandI '

m worr
iedaboutthamibut
theonlypersonwhom I'mreal
lywor ri
edabouti
sluh
shouldthaminotmakei t
,whydidn'thecallme
whenhegott onewcastl
e!,
He'ssti
llyoungtodi
e,he
hashi swholeli
feaheadofhim,Goddon' tl
ethi
m
dieplease.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER22.

MBUSO.

Wear ri
vei nNewcastl
eandgostraighttowheret
he
mazibiko'sareatandther
earecars,manypeople
outsi
det hehousewhol i
veint
hesamest r
eetand
fuckthepol i
ceareher
e.Wegetoutoft hecarand
someguyseesusandwal
kst
owar
dsus.

Me:
"whot
hef
uckcal
ledt
hepol
ice!
?"

Si
cel
o:"Iknowt
hatguy,
he'
sacopdon'
twor
ry"

Me:
"he'
sonpayr
oll
?"

Si
cel
o:"dad'
spayr
oll"

CopGuy:
"Si
cel
o"heshakesourhands

Sicel
o:"
Alext
hesear
emyot
herbr
other
s,Mbuso
andBongaGumede"

Al
ex:
"bo,
Phakat
hwayo"weshakehandswi
thhi
m
Si
cel
o:"wher
ear
ethey?"

Alex:
"Iseparat
edthem,t
hewomanisinmycarand
themani satanot
herone.Don'
twor
ryaboutt
hese
guyshere,t
heyareundermesonooneisgoingto
repor
twhathappendhere"

Me:
"wher
eist
heboyt
hatgotshot
?"

Alex:
"Itwasbad, sheshothim str
aightinhi
sheart
andhedi dn'
tmakei t.Hediedinst
antly,
I'
m sor
ry
guysandt heparamedi csdidwhattheycouldbut.
..
"
theguyscurseandIpuncht hecarwindowhar d
anditbreaksint
opi ecesandIam fuckedmad.

Me:
"showmewher
etheyar
e!"It
akemegunout

Bonga:
"cal
m downbr ot
her
,peopl
earelooki
ngatus
andwedon'twantanyonet
otakeoutthei
rphone
andr
ecor
dus"

Me:"don'
ttellmetocal
m down! ,
thamiwasagood
ki
dandhewasal waysthererf
orlungi
!,
howthehel
l
am Igoi
ngt otel
lhert
his?!"

Si
cel
o:"t
hisisf
uckedupandwecan'
ttel
lherno
matt
erwhat!"

Me:
"don'
tyouf
uckent
hinkIdon'
tknowt
hat
?!"

Bonga:
"wher
eishi
sbody?"

Al
ex:
"Iti
sthehospi
talt
henIar
rangedsomeonet
o
t
akei
ttothemorgue"

Me:"Ineedyoutoarr
angeforhi
sbodytobe
t
ranfer
edtostander
tonatt
hebestmorgue,
give
bongayouraccountdet
ail
sandhe'l
ltr
ansfert
he
moneynow"Iwal ktowherethul
iandsiphoareand
scel
ofol
lowsme

Sicelo:"don'
tshootthem mbuso"ignor
ehim and
weseet hiswomanwhohascausedsomuch
troubleforeveryone.Shel
ooksatmesmi l
esevil
y
thenl ooksatsceloandisshocked.

Me:"letusi
n"Itel
ltheguywho'sst
andi
ngout si
de
thecarandhedoes.Webothgetinthebackseat
whereshe'ssi
tt
inghandcuf
fedandwesandwi ch
her.Whoeverdi
dthesurger
ymusthavecharged
them somuchmoney.

Her:
"wowsi celo,
youl ookjustlikezakesso
handsomemyboy"Icanf eelscelo'
sangerbuil
ding
everysecondandt henscel opunchesherhar don
hernoseandi tbr
eaks, shescreamshi st
eri
calyand
ther
e'sbloodonherf aceandneck.Il ookatthis
womanandIj ustwantt ochokehert odeat
hand
f
eell
if
eleavi
ngherbody.

Me:
"why.whydi
dyouki
llhi
m?"

Her
:"
..
..
..
..
."

Sicel
o:"f
oryearsandyearsIdreamedaboutwhatI
woulddowhenIf inal
lymeetyouagainandfi
nall
y
hereyouare.Hereweare.Thehorri
blet
hingsIwant
todotoyouar eunimagi
nableandIcan'
twait"

Her:
"bri
ngthem on"andthi
sti
mei
t'
smewho
punchesherandknockherout
.

Si
cel
o:"It
hinkyoubr
okeherj
aw"

Me:"andwest i
llhavemanybonest
obr
eak"weget
outofthecarandgot osi
pho'
sandhewasl
ooki
ng
atust
hewholeti
me.Wealsogeti
nagai
nandhe
l
ooksl
ikehe'
sbeencr
yingandhe'
sal
sohandcuf
fed.

Sicel
o:"wel
l,wel
lwel
l!
.Si
phoMazibukowemeet
again,l
astt
imeIsawyouyouknockedmeoutwit
h
agunt oburnmei nt
hehousewi
thmywholefami
ly
"

Sipho:
"Voetsek,masimbenjabokumel engabenfi
le
nonke!"(fuckyou,youpieceofshit
!,youwer eal
l
supposetodie!)Igetoutofthecarandl ookfora
stonebutIseeabr i
ckandt akei
tandgeti nthecar
withit
.Bongagetsinthebackwi t
hscel o

Me:
"gi
vemeyourhands"

Him: "no!"Sicel
oandbongatakehishandsand
theyputt hem onhisl
ap.Iopentheglove
compact mentandseeadi rt
ycloth,
takeitand
forceful
lystuffi
tinhi
smouthtogaghi m sohewi
ll
shutt
hehel
lup.

Me:"t
hisi
snotgonnahur
t"hest
art
stoscr
eam but
hecan'
tbecauseoft
hegag.

Me:"makesur ehedoesn' tmoveandki ckyou"t hey

holdhim sti
llandIt aket hebrickanduseal lmy
str
engthandhi thi slefthandandhescr eamst ri
es
tofi
ghtbuthest r
uggl est henIhi tt
heotherone
againandIheart hebonesoft heol dmanbr eaki
ng.
Hegr oansinpai nandt earsfallandbongalaughs.I
knockont hewi ndowandmot i
onf oral
extocome
andheget sint hecar

Him:"boza'
syouneedtoleave,
someonemi
ght
havealert
edmyotherboss"(boses)

Me:"lockt
hedoorandhel
pmehol dhislegs"he
l
ocksitandsi
phoisst
rongbutnotst
rongerthanus,
hetr
iestoki
ckbuthe'
sinsomuchpain.Hislegs
arest r
echedbetweenussowet akeof
fhisshoes
andsocksandIgi vescelothebri
ckandhedoesn't
thi
nkt wiceandjustbreakhiskneecapsthenItake
thebr i
ckagainandhithisfeethardandsipho
screamsl i
keacowbei ngsl
aughteredwit
hsnort
comi ngoutofhisnose.

Al
ex:
"remi
ndmet
oneverpi
ssanyofyouof
f"

Me:"beloyalt
oust henwewon'tki
llyou.Weneed
togonowt oladysmith,
bongabri
ngt hecarsowe'
ll
putthi
sfuckerinthebootandt
hatbitchwillsi
twi
th
us"

Alex:
"youcantakemycarthathasthewoman,I'
ll
gowithyoutoladysmit
h,i
t'
snotfarI'
l
lcomeback"
bongaleavest
ogetthecarwer ent
edthenwetake
si
phoandputhi mintheboot.

Si
cel
o:"bonga,
you'
l
lgowi
thAl
exandI
'
llr
idewi
th
mbuso"

Me:
"Al
ex?"

Hi
m:"boss?"

Me:
"havet
heymovedt
hebody?"

Hi
m: "he'
sst
il
lint
hehospit
alandt
heyar
edoneI
t
hinkdoingt
heautopsy"

Me:
"Takemet
ohi
m,Iwantt
oseehi
m"

Sicelo:
"br
otherwecan'
twhati
fhi
sbossi
sal
ready
there?"

Me:
"Iowehi
mt hatmuchscel
o.Iwantt oseehow
hel
ookssowhenthedayItel
llungiI
'
llbeablet
o
expl
aint
oher"

Scel
o:"f
inebutdon'
ttaket
ime"

Alex:
"ther
e'sadoct
orIknowatthehospit
alI
'
llask
himtogivemesomet hi
ngthatwi
llknockt
hem unt
il
youwankt hem up"

Me:"Imightjusthi
reyoutoworkwit
hfrankand
percy,l
etsgo"wegetinthecaranddri
vetomedi-
cl
inic.

Scel
o:"wher
eisf
rank?"

Me:"he'swatchingovermywi f
e"wear ri
vethen
alexandIgoi nsideasheleadstheway.weget
thereandhetalkst osomedoctorthenweleaveand
theygettot
heaut opsyr
oom andfuck!,
Ihavenever
caredaboutanyonewho' sdeadwhoi snotmy
familybutthami waslungif
amil
yandhewi l
lal
ways
wil
landi thurt
smet hatl
uhcan'
tsaygoodbyet
o
him soI'
lldoitforher.

Doct
or:
"her
ehei s,
youhavefivemi
nutesbef
ore
t
heytakehi
mt othemorgue"Inodandheremoves
t
hewhitebl
anketoffhi
sfaceandIl
ookathim and
mychhestt
ight
ens.

Me:
"canIcl
osehi
seyes?"

Hi
m:"yes,
theyar
edonewi
tht
heaut
opsy"

Me:
"thankyou"

Al
ex:
"bosswi
llgiveyousomeprivacy"Inodand
t
heyl
eaveandclosethedoorbehindthem.
Me: "Ididn'tknowyouf orlongt hamibutl ungihas
becauseyougr ewupt oget herandyoubot hwer e
alwayst her ef oreachot herandl ovedeachot her
l
ikebr otherandsi st
er.I'm sor r
yyoul eftusl i
ket his,
youdi dn'tdeser veitbecauseyouwer eagr eatki d
andt hebestbr othertol ungishecoul devert hinkof.
Irememberwhenyoucal ledmet henextdayaf t
er
wegotmar riedandyout hreatenedt okil
lmeshoul d
Imi str
eatheri nanywayandIdi dt reatherbadand
Iwoul dliket osayI '
m sor rytoyouf orhurti
ngyour
sisterandIhopeyougi vemet hami .She'spr egant
andwe' r
eexpect i
ngt wins, we'rebot hver yecxci ted
andIknowshewoul dhavel ovedf oryout obet here
andpl ayyourpar tast heiruncl e.I'm sorrybot hof
can'tsaygoodbyet oeachot herandIknowt heday
whenshef indsouti t
sgoi ngtobehar dforherbut
I'
llbecomf ortingher .I'
m her et ot hankyout hami
forcaringf ort hewomanIl oveandt osaygoodbye
toyouaswel l.Iwi l
lmakesur ethatyourpar ent spay
forhur ti
ngever yonet heycameacr oss.Mayyour
ancest orsandGodwel comeyouwi thopenar ms,
pleasewat chovermywi f
eandmyki ds"Icl osehi s
eyesandl ookupandcl osemyeyest oremovet he
t
ear
sthatar
ethr
eat
eni
ngt
ofal
ldown.

Iopent hedoorandl eave,alexfol

lowsmebehi nd
andgi vessceloani njecti
onandt heybothhold
siphoandscel oinjectshim andIgeti nthe
passengerseatandsi t.Alexgoest ohi
scarand
theyal soinj
ectthuliandtheygeti nthecarandwe
allleave.Wear esil
entont heyway,noonei s
talking

Si
cel
o:"Youokaybr
other
?"

Me:
"sayi
nggoodbyet
othatboywashar
dert
hanI
t
houghti
twasgoingt
obe"

Scel
o:"I
'
mt hankf
ult
hathewasal wayst
her
eforher
andwe'l
lgi
vehim apropergoodbye"

Me:
"wewi
ll
.Ihavet
ocal
lvi
ctor"
Scel
o:"dadtol
dhim andhe'
l
lbet
herewi
thhisot
her
fami
lywaiti
ngfort
hamianddadiswai
ti
ngforus
too"

Me:
"Ineedt
oseel
uhf
ir
st"

Scel
o:"she'
l
llookatyouandjustknowthat
somethingi
swr ongbro,
cal
m downt henyou'
l
lgo
andseeher"

Me:"Idon'tt
hinkIcanwait.Ineedherscel
o.Ineed
hertoholdme"Ihuf foutfustr
ated,
atextmessege
beepsandi t
'sscel
o'sphone

Hi
m:"canyour
eadi
t,I
'
m dr
ivi
ng"hesaysgi
vingme
t
hephone

Me:
"whati
fit
'sayandaorzamaandoneoft
hem
sentyouhernudesman?"

Hi
m:"offuckzamami
ght"her
eadst
het
ext
message

Sicel
o:"dadsayshewil
lmeetusatourot
herfarm
tokeepthuliandsi
phother
e,t
henwe'l
lgotoyour
house"

Me:
"fi
nebutaf
terI
'
m goi
ngt
oluh"
.

Icallbongaandt ellhimt ofoll

owusandwef i
nall
y
arri
veinladysmi t
handwegot ot hefar
m andthe
l
ivestocktheyhavei scrazyandIknowt heyare
goingtowantr eallivecowsf orlunginotmoney
andaghostsmi lefor msonmyl i
ps.Wef i
nd
Maphol obaalreadyt her
ewi thothermenandIcan't
readhisfacialexpression.
Us:"Sawubonababa"(goodeveni
ngdad)al
lfour
ofusgreethi
m

Hi
m:"sons,boystakethem i
nside"hesaystothe
menwef oundhim withandtheytaket
huliand
si
phowhoar esti
llknockedout

Mapholoba:
"AlexIknowyou'
renotmarr
iedbutdo
youhavealit
tl
echil
dyouli
vewith?"welookat
eachother

Al
ex:
"nosir"t
henmaphol
obatakesoutahuge
st
ackofcashandgi
vesi
ttohi
m

Hi
m:"we'
l
lcont
actyouwhenweneedyou"

Alex:
"thankyousir
,bossesi'
l
lwaitf
oryourcal
ls
andthatoffer"t
henheleavesandit
'sj
ustus.
Hi
m:"l
etsdr
ivet
oyourhousembuso"

Me:"yesdad"wedr
ivet
omyhouseandseet
he
houseli
ghtsar
eonandIpani
ck

Me:
"fuck!
,l
ungii
sher
e?"

Maphol oba:"it
'smewhowasher e.Lungiishome"
whatwast hisoldmandoi nginmyhouse, scel
o
andIlookateachot her.Whent hegat eopensIget
confusedast owhymydadi sher e?.Wegeti nthe
houseandIseemydaddr inki
ngwhi skeyand
someonecookedcozi tsmel lsreall
yni ceand
there'
sasmel lofsage?.thenmaphol obaj
oinshim
andpour shimsel fadrink.Wear esoconf usedasto
whatishappeni ngandwhatar etheydoi nginmy
wifeskitchen?.

Us:
"Sawubonababa"(wegr
eet)
Gumede:
"baf
anabamiandIseeyou'
vemetmy
ot
hersonSi
yabonga"(myboys)

Mapholoba:
"Iknowallofthem,
comeandshakemy
handsonandallofyousitdown"bongashakeshi
s
handthenwesit.

Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngpar
ent
s?"

Gumede:"Iknowwhathasbeengoingonmbuso
andyouhavet ost
opdoingt
hingsyourwayboys
andhidi
ngthem.Yoursoontobefather
-i
nlawher
e
cal
ledandtoldmewhathappendtodayandI
wantedtobehere"

Me:
"Idi
dn'
tmeant
ohi
det
hingsf
rom youdad"

Him:
"Ican'
thel
pyoui
fyoudon'
tcomet
omeand
askf
orhelp"
Me:
"Iwon'
tdoi
tagai
n,I
'
m sor
ry"

Maphol
oba:"whi
chiswhywehavet
ofi
nal
lygetr
id
oft
hemazibuko'
sandbuhl
e"

Me:
"lungidoesn'
twantmet
oki
llher"

Gumede:
"youdon'
tloveuLungi
lewena"(you)

Me:
"babahowcanyousayt
hat
?,youal
lknowIdo!
"

Maphol oba:"I'
m happyt ohearthatyourespectmy
daught erswi shesbutt hatgi
rli
sat hr
eattoyouand
buhl e.Kil
lhermbusoori '
l
ldoit"myf at
herin-
lawi
s
givingmeper mi ssi
ont okil
lsomeonewhoi sahuge
threattohi sdaught erandsowhoam It ogo
agai nstthat.
Gumede:
"sheneedstobeherewi
thherpar
ent
sso
wecanallf
inal
lyknowwhatt
hehel
lisgoi
ngon
wit
hthem "

Sicel
o:"I
'l
laskcelest
eandthesecur
it
ytobr
ingher
herebeforethesunrises"

Them:
"good"

Me:wit
hallduer
espectpar
ent
s,Ineedt
ogoand
seel
ungi"

Gumede:"youcan'tgoandseelungiwhil
eyour
hear
tisfi
ll
edwithangeranddarkness,bongago
getmethesageint hemast
erbedroom "bonga
l
eavesandcomesbackwi thitandmydadl ight
sit
andstar
ttal
kingthendoesthesamet osbongaand
scel
o.
Gumede:
"goshowert
hen"

Me:"uhm mapholobababa,
Idon'tmeantobe
disr
espect
fulbutIwasaski
ngifIcoul
d..
."Ihumbl
y
askhim br
ushingmehead

Mapholoba:
"gombusobutdon'thavesexwi t
hmy
chi
ldundermyroofandyoubetterl
eavebeforet
he
sunri
sesinthemorni
ng"Ilookathimlikewhat?

Him:
"takei
torl
eavei
t"Igoupst
air
sthenIhearmy
dadsay

Gumede:"youknowhe'smysonandhe'
sgoi
ngt
o
doexact
lytheopposi
te?"

Mapholoba:
"Iknowt
hatf
uckeri
sgoi
ngto.
..buthey
t
henit
'sgonnabemorecowsforme"theylaugh
andIshakemyheadandgoshowerqui ckl
yand
change.Igodownstai
rsandfi
ndt
hem eati
ngand
mymout hwatersbutIwantt
oseemybabiesfi
rst
.

Scelo:"comeandeatyouhungr
y"hesmir
ks,
oh
thi
sf oolIseewhathe'
sdoi
ngandIl
ookathi
m and
smirkback

Me:"nahI'
m hungr yforsomethi
ngelse"
mapholobaquicklygrabsaknifeandturnstome
andIleavet
heki t
chenr unni
ngwiththem laughi
ng
atme.Igetinthecaranddr i
veofftoseemybaby.
Int
enmi nut
esI '
mt hereandthesecuti
tyletsmein.

Bef
oreIevenknockt
hedooropensandi
t'
saunt
y.

Me:
"goodeveni
ngaunt
y"

Her
:"eveni
ngmbuso.Iwasi
nst
ruct
edt
hatyoueat
f
ir
stthengoandseeher
.She'
ssleepi
ngandpl
ease
mbusoIdon'
twanttowakeupdeaf"

Me:"Ipr
omiseI'
llgagher"shef
lushest
henqui
ckl
y
l
eavestheki
tchen.

It
'sbeefstewandpapandIt akeabit
eandknow
mywi fecookedthi
sfoodanddamnIdi dn'
treal
iseI
misshercookingthi
smuch.If ini
sht
hewholeplate,
dri
nkwat ert
hengot oherbedroom.

AssoonasIopent hedoorIseel yingtherenaked

themoonl ight
ingherwhol eroom, handsbot h
underherheadandshe' ssnoringsnof l
y.Even
thoughmyhear ti
sheavybutr ightnowI 'm enj
oying
thi
smoment .Beingclosetoherandt ojustseeher
i
st hebestfeeli
ngint heworld.Itakeoffmycl othes
thensitnexttoherandj ustwat chher.Thisishome,
sheismyhome, t
hisiswhatever ymanwi shesfor
themselvestohave. .
..
someonewhocompl et
esyou,
someonewhot akesyourbr eathawayand
someoneyouknowt hesunr isesandshineson
them.Ilayonthebedwi thherandbr i
ngherbody
closetomineandshest ir
sandsi ghs.Iburymy
faceonherneckandsmel lherandshet ur
nsas
bestasshecant henkissesmeont heli
psandlays
facingmeandIwr apmyar msar oundher.

Her
:"Il
oveyou"

Me:"Il
oveyoutoobaby"Thi
sishome.I
'm doi
ng
t
hisinthemorni
ngIcan'
twai
tanymore.
CHAPTER23

LUNGI
.

Iknowhei snotsleeping,i
t'
sli
kehe'smi ndis
somewher eelsebecausehe'sholdingontomeso
ti
ghtli
keI'm goi
ngt osli
poutofhisholdandhe
keepskissi
ngmyf oreheadsotenderli
keI'
m ali
ttl
e
baby.
..
hislit
tlebabiesanditdoesn'
thelpthathi
s
dickispokingmybabi es,he'
llscar
emybabi esfor
l
ife.Iwonderwhat'sonhi smi ndandwhat
happenedwhenhel eftmeher eandI'
m will
ingto
betthathewaswi thmybr ot
hervandhonestlyt
hese
twot oget
herthespelltr
ouble.

Ilovether el
ati
onshipbothmysoont obehusband
andbr otherhavebecauseIknowt hey'l
lhaveeach
othersbacksbecauset heyarebothver yimpor t
ant
tomeandIwoul dnevervwanttol
oseei therofthem.
Dadgi vingushisblessingmademer eallyhappy.I
couldn'tstoptel
li
nghim howmuchIl ovehi m and
he'sthebestdadeverandhevwashaapyandver y
excit
edt omeett hebaby,Ican'
twaitthedayIgi ve
birt
handt heyallreal
iseIam carr
yingtwi ns.They
aregoingt oloveit
.

Ireal
lyl
ovembusoandIdon' twantanyoneelsei
n
myl i
feeventhoughwhenwef i
rstmetour
rel
ati
onshipwasbasedonliesandsecr et
sandit
washar d,ver
yhardandIneverthoughtI'
l
lbeher
e
todaywit
hhimi nmyar msl i
ket hi
s.Ineverwantto
experi
encethateveragai
ninmyl ifeandIdon't
wishitonanyone.Ihaveforgivenhi m compl
etel
y
andwholeheartedlyandIknowI '
llal
waysforgi
ve
him agai
nandagai nbecauset hatishowmuchI
l
ovehi m.

Ican'twaittoseewhatki ndoffatherhe'
sgoi ngt o
bebutIknowhe' sgoi
ngt obethebestdadbecause
hisfatheristhebestf
athertothem andhel ooksup
tohim verymuch.Ihavecomet oknowt hi
sman
l
ikethebackofmyhandandIknowt hatsomet hing
i
swr ongandhe' snotgoi ngtot
ellbecausehe
thi
nksI '
m goingtopanickandfranklyIdon'tcar eas
l
ongasi t
'snotanythi
ngconcerningmybabi esor
him andmyf amil
y.Anythingel
secanwai t
,Isigh
andopenmyeyesandl ookathi m andhesmi l
es
andIsmi leback.

Hi
m:"whati
sthi
spr
ett
yheadt
hinki
ngabout
?"
Me:
"not
hing"

Hi
m:"r
eal
ly?"Isi
gh

Me:
"what
'swr
ongboo?"

Hi
m:"Not
hingbaby,
Ijustl
ovewat
chi
ngyou
sl
eepi
ng"

Me:"Ilovesl
eepi
ngknowi
ngt
hatyou'
rer
ighther
e
nexttome"

Him:"Ial
wayssl
eepbet
terwi
thyourwar
m naked
bodynexttome"

Me:"I
'
llst
artbel
ievi
ngt
hatyoulovemef
ormybody
onl
y"hetickl
esmeandIgiggle
Him:"Ihaveneverwantedanythingi
nthewor l
das
badasIwantyou, yourloveandwellyesyourbody.
ButIneedyourlovemostofal l"

Me:"youhavemylovemnguni,al
lofit"heki
sses
mepassionat
elyanddeepl
ythenlooksdeepinmy
eyes.

Hi
m:"whatIhavewi
thyouIdon'
twantwi
thanyone
el
se"

Me:
"Iwanti
tal
lwi
thyou"

Hi
m:"I'
m goi
ngt
omessup,makeyouupsetbut
pl
easepromi
semeyouwon'
tgi
veuponme?"

Me:
"Ipr
omi
seyou"
Him:
"Ipromi
setoal
waysbebyyoursi
de,
beunder
youandbeontopofyou"Igi
ggl
e

Me:
"you'
l
lletmer
ideyou?"

Hi
m:"yesyouwi
ll
?"

Me:
"Iwantt
ori
deyounow"hechuckl
es

Hi
m:"notnow,
Idon'
twantt
ohur
tmybabi
es"

Me:
"butyouwon'
t"

Him:"whent
hebabi
esar
eborn,
youcanf
uckme
anyhowyouwanti
never
yway"

Me:"Il
ovet
hesoundoft hat
.Iswhat
evert
hati
s
eat
ingyouhaveanyt
hingtodowithus?"
Him:"nobaby,ithasnot
hingt
odowit
husandI
hopeyouwillkeepanopenmindwhenif
inal
lyt
ell
you"

Me:"Iknowwhateverthatisyou' r
ehidi
ngf r
om me
i
ssomet hi
ngbigandyou'lltellmewhent hetimei
s
ri
ghtbecauseIbel
ieveyouri ntensi
onsformeare
alwaysgoodevenwhenIcannotunder standwhat
youdo"

Him:"youar
et hemostamazinggi
ftIhaveever
reci
evedandIpromisetocheri
shyou,val
ueyou
andappreci
ateyouforaslongasIli
ve"

Me:
"I'
mthankf
ult
ohaveyoui
nmyl
if
e"

Hi
m:"you'
vetaughtmemanyt hi
ngssi nceImetyou
l
uhandIvalueeachandeveryt
hingyou'vetaught
me.Yourt
houghtful
lness,
humbleness,ki
ndness
andyourcompassi
ont
owar
dsot
herpeopl
eandI
thankyou"

Me:
"youdon'
thavet
othankmebaby,
wear
eint
his
t
oget
her"

Hi
m: "pr
omisemewil
lyout
elli
fIst
artget
ti
ng
i
ntensewit
hyouagai
nandscareyou?"

Me:
"Ipr
omi
seyou"
.

Hi
m:"Iwantt
of uckyousobadr
ightnowandj
ust
j
ustl
osemyselfinyou"

Me:
"what
'sst
oppi
ngyou?"

Hi
m:"Idon'
twantt
ohur
tyou,
yourpr
egnant"
Me:
"Iknowyouwon'
thur
tme.It
rustyou"

Hedoesn'tanswermebutki ssesmer oughlyand

deepl
ystealingeverybr eat
hIt ake.Hecupsmy
boobsandpi nchest hem softl
yandImoani n
pl
easureandsl ightpain,hereachesbet weenmy
l
egsandf i
nger smesogoodt hatIpracti
call
ymoan
whenhisthumbr ubsmyer ectcli
tor
is.Hekisses
meandcont i
nueshi sonslaughtonmeunt i
lmy
pussycontractswithhishandi nmeandonmycl it
.

Me:
"Iwantt
ofeel
youi
nmymout
h"

Him:"t
ellmewhenyoust
ruggl
etobr
eat
he"Inod.I
getup

Hi
m:"don'
tgetup,
justl
ayl
iket
hatonyoursi
de"

Het
urnsandl
aysonhi
sot
hersi
dewi
thhi
sdi
ck
directl
yonmyf aceandIdr ool,hisdickhasvei ns
andi t'
srockhar dbutt heheadofhi sdi ckissoft,
smoot hl
ikevelvetandpr ecum i sleakingwi t
h
precum soIwi peitusingmyl i
psandt ongueandhe
groansandIswal l
owhi mi n.Itakemyhandt ohis
shaf tandbopmyheadupanddownj er ki
nghis
shaf tasImoveandhet astesamazi ngGodIl ove
hisci r
curmsizeddi ck.Hishipsst arttomovef ast
andhi sdickkeepsget ti
ngindeeperanddeeperand
Iremembert hatImustbr eaththroughmynoseand
Idot henmyt hroatopensandhegoesdeeperandI
al
mostgagt henhepul lsoutal it
tleandImoan.

Bothhi shandsar eonmyasskneedi ngandhi s

beardisteasingmyt highssoIst r
echthem openf or
hi
m andIf eelthatI'
m verywetandmycl iti
sver y
swoll
eni tneedshi mtotenderitbuti
t'
slikehe's
i
gnoringitonpur posebecausehebl owsai rtoit
andkeepski ssi
ngmyi nnerthi
ghsverycloset o
whereIwanthi m.Mycl i
tisbegginghimt ogiveit
att
entionbuthei gnor
esi t
,Isuckhim hardandt ryto
swall
owal lofhimi nmeandmymout handIf eel
him goingdeepandhe'
sjustpastmyt
hroatandhe
curses.Thi
sdickisgoi
ngtochokemetodeath
becauseitkeepsgrowi
ng,

Hi m:"fuuuckbaby! ,canyoubreathe?"It ryt onod

buthi sdickgoesdeeperagai nandIj ustmoanandI
canf eelmyneckandchestwetofmydr oolandhe
gr oans,Ipullhisdickoutalit
tl
esoIcanbr eathe.I
takemyhand, touchhisfaceandmout h, getmy
fingersinhismout handhesuckst hem thenImove
them t omycl itandyesohhel lyes,Istartpl aying
wi thitandItfeelssodamngood.Imovemyhi ps
i
nsyncwi thmyf i
ngersonmycl i
tthenf eelmbuso
mout hontopom handst hatareonmycl itandI
sweari t'
sthemostmout hwateri
ng, sexyander ot
ic
thingIhaveeverf elt
.Itr
ytomovet hem buthe
shakeshi sheadnoandIcont i
nuet opl aywi thmy
clitwhilehe'salsosuckingme.

Myfi
nger
skeepgoi
ngbackandf or
thonmycli
t,hi
s
mout
hinmypussyandIfeell
ikeI'
m oncl
oudnine.
Icanfeelhissackt i
ghtningandIknowhe' sgonna
come, Iusebothmyhandsandwr apthem t i
ght
aroundhisshaftandsuckhi m aggressi
vel yandhe
i
ncreaseshispacet hensmacksmypussywi thhis
handthennapsoni t,ni
psandsucksi thardt henmy
pussycontractsandIcomeal loverhim moani ng
thenIfeelablastofcum goi ngdownmyt hroat
spil
li
ngeverythi
ngi nmeandI tfeel
sgoodImoan
andswal l
owever ydrop.Ili
ckhim cleant henpul l
his
duckoutandi t'
sstil
lhardlikehedi dn'
tjustcome.

Me:
"you'
rest
il
lhar
d"

Hi
m:"I
'
m notdonewi
thyou"

I'
m sti
lllayingonmysi dewhenheget sbetweenmy
l
egssci ssor sstyl
eandpullsmyleftl
egupandt o
hischestt henhesl i
deshisdi
ckinmeandhef il
l
s
mewonder ful
lyful
lwit
hhisengorgedmember .I
burymyf aceont hepil
lowandgrabt i
ghttoi
tashe
sl
amsi ntomehar dknocki
ngmybr eathoutbutnot
tooroughandhemoans.Ilovethesexysoundshe
alwaysmakebeacuseIgetofff
rom them andt
hey
makemever ywet.

Him:"I'
m al
waysgoingtofuckyouhar der
.loveyou
harderandalwaysmakeyousmi l
e"hesays
i
ncreasingt
hepaceofhi sstr
okingmakingme
moan.Hi sl
eftl
egisonmyf rontandhisri
ghtoneis
onmybackt henhebringshisbodydownand
ki
ssesmemaki ngmylegtouchmyst omachand
bendonoverhisshoulder.

Thisstyl
emakesmycl itt
or ubwithhi
spubi chair
upanddownandi tdri
vesmecr azyandIcanf eel
myor gasm buil
dingagai nthenhegoesdeepand
fucksmevi ci
ouslyandIscr eam asmyor gasm hit
s
mel i
keit'
smyf i
rsttimeexper ienci
ngthisfeeli
ng,I
screaminghisnameandhemovesof fmet hen
fucksmehar dandvf astandyoucanheart he
soundofourwetbodi esofski nsmackinganot her
skin,hegroansandf i
llsmewi thhisseedandI
sweari
fIwasn't,
Iwouldhavegott
enpregnantnow.
Hegentl
yturnsmet olayonmyothersi
dethen
pull
soutandIfeelhi
shotseedspi
ll
ingdownmy
thi
ghs.

Hegetsof fthebed,goestothebathr
oom,comes
backgivesmeagl assofwaterandIdri
nkal
lofit
thenhecleansmet henl
aysfacingmeandkisses
meandIcl osemyeyeswi t
hasmi leonmyfaceand
l
etsleeptakeover.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER23.

Ireachforhim buthe'snotnextt
ome.Iwoul dhave
l
ovedt owakewi thhimi nmyarmsagai nbutI
guesshei sgonebef oredadfi
ndshim her e.I
expectedtofeelti
redwhenIwakeupbutI '
m not
.
Mbusoi sthesecondmanI '
vebeenwithandIcan' t
exactl
ycompar ehimt omyexbecausesexwasj ust
allabouthi
m butwi thmbuso, manheknowshow
topleasemeandt othinkheusedtodot hattoother
womenmakesmegetj eal
ousbuthe'
smi nenow, all
mi
ne.

Igetof fthebedandgot othebat hroom andshower

thenwearmydr essandImustsayIl ovemynew
wadr obet hatIhavenow.Igodownst airsandfind
allmyf ami l
ythereincl
udingmbusoandhi sbrother
siyabongaandi tl
ooksliketheyar ediscussing
somet hingser i
ousbeacuset heyar etalkingvery
l
owandIdon' tli
kethatatallbecauset heyar e
usuallyloudandwhati smbusost i
lldoinghere, dad
willt
hinkhesneakedi nandsl epthere,Jesust his
man! .

Me:"sani
bonani"(goodmor
ning)Igi
vemydad
andmom akiss.

Them:
"mor
ningl
uh"

Me:"Unclesi
yabongaIdi
dn'
tknowwewer
e
expect
ingyou?"
Bonga:
"Icametoseehowyouguysar edoi
ng,
how'smynepheworniecet
reat
ingyou?"

Me:"t
hankyouandI
'
m doi
ngokay,
thi
sli
tt
leonei
s
bei
ngveryni
cetome"

Bonga:
"Icantellbecauseyou'
reasbeaut
if
ulas
ever
,mybrotherisoneluckyman"

Me:
"andhebett
ernotf
orgett
hat"mbusogi
vesme
awhatt
hefuckl
ookandIignorehi
m

Si
cel
o:"andnownoki
ssf
oryourbi
gbr
other
?"

Me:
"no"Isi
tnextnextt
omydad

Si
cel
o:"
whatdi
dIdo?"
Me:"becauseyoutakembusoawayf r
om met hen
youguysgetupt onogood"Ihavethi
shuge
feel
ingthatmakesmewanttocryandIdon' tknow
whyandever yonei
slooki
ngatmeconf usedthen
mbusost andscomestome

Si
cel
o:"I
'
m sor
ryl
uh"

Mbuso:
"I'
m sor
ryluh,Idi
dn'
tmeant
ogof
orl
ong
butl
ookbabyI'
m herenow"

Me:"youalwaysleavemewhenyougetacal land
for
getthatI
'm pr
egnantandIneedyouherewith
me.Scelocall
sandupandgoandl eaveme
becausewhateverthati
syouhavetogotoismuch
moreimportantt
hanbeingherewit
hme,withus
mbuso"

Hi
m:"Idi
dn'
tknowknowyouf
eltt
hatwayl
uhandI
didn'
tgobecausei twasmuchmor ei
mportantthan
you.Not hi
nginthisworldcouldeverbemor e
i
mpor tanttomet hanyouandourki ds.Ipr
omi sed
toputyouf ir
staboveanythingelseandIthoughtI
wasdoi ngthatbutnowIknowt hatIwasinaway
neglecti
ngyou"ever yoneinthehouseissil
ent
l
isteni
ngt ous

Me:"Iworryaboutyouwhenyoul eaveanddon'ttel
l
mewher eyouar eandi
fyou'r
esaf e,
thenyourock
upinthemi ddl
eofthenightl
ikeeveryt
hingi
sfine"
tear
sfal
l,hewipesthem

Mbuso:
"I'
l
ldobett
erbabyIpr
omi
se,
what
everyou
needmetodoI'
l
ldoit"

Me: "t
henwhyhaven'tyouproposedt
omeand
givenmear ing?"helooksatmeandlaughsal
it
tl
e.
"what '
sfunny,measkingyouwhenareyougoi
ng
toputar i
ngoni ti
sfunny!
?"Icry
Hi
m:"uhm babyI.
...
..
..
..
"Irunoutoft
hekit
chenand
gobackt omybedroom andgetonthebedandjust
cr
y.Ifeelmymom' sarmsaroundmeassheholds
meandl etsmecry.

Mah:
"what
'swr
ongbaby?"

Me:
"I.
..
Idon'
tknow"

Her:
"Itmustbeyouremoti
ons,pr
egnancydoesthat.
Onemi nut
eyou'
refeel
ingf
ineandthenextyoucry
andwanttokil
lsomeone"

Me:"Idon'twannaki
llhim Ilovehi
m butIdon'
tli
ke
himrightnow"Icanf eelherwanti
ngtolaughbut
shedoesn't

Her
:"di
dwaki
ngupwi
thouthi
m getyouupset
?"
Me:
"no,
yes,
maybe,
Idon'
tknow"shechuckl
es

Her:
"it
'sokaytofeell
ikethi
s,t
her e'
snot hi
ngwrong
wit
hitbaby.Beingpregnantdoest hat
,itmesses
wit
hyouremot i
ons".Iwipemyt ears,
turnandlook
atherandshehasaver ysadl ookonherf aceandit
hurt
sseeingthatki
ndofemot ionf r
om her

Me:
"mah.canIaskyousomet
hing?"

Her:
"Iknowwhatyouwantt
oaskmebutask
anyway?"

Me:
"haveyoueverbeenpr
egnant
?"

Her:
"Isavedmyselff
oramanIthoughtwasthe
oneandIwasgoingtospendtherestofmyli
fe
wit
h.Wegotmar r
iedthenwestr
uggledtoget
pregnantandhebl amedmet henIwentandgot
test
edandwef oundoutt hatIcouldn'thavekids
andhedi vor
cedme.ThenImetsomeoneel seand
i
magi nemysur pri
sewhenIf oundoutt hatIwas
pregnantbutwhatIdidn'tknowwas, hewas
mar r
iedandhegavemesomet hi
ngt wicetomake
mel osemybabi es.Fi
rsttimeIwast hr eemont hs
pregnantandthesecondt i
meIwast womont hs
pregnantanditledmet onotbeabl et ohaveki ds
againbecausehegavemet oomuchofwhat ever
thatwas"ohmyGod!

Me:
"I'
m sor
ryma,
howdi
dyoudealwi
thi
t?"

Her:"Ipr
ayedtoGodalotandaskedhi
mfor
guidanceandtohealmeandthenonedayIwas
fi
nebyGod' sgr
ace"

Me:
"whathappent
ohi
m?"
Her:
"hiswif
elef
thim andhebecameadr
ugaddi
ct
andkil
ledhi
mself"

Me:
"Youhavemeandt omeyou'
reamot
herIknow
mymom wouldhavebeen"

Her:
"thankyoubabyandthat
'sthereasonwhyI
l
ovebabyingyoueventhoughyou'r
eat wentyfi
ve
yearol
dwoman.Ican'twaitt
ospoiltheli
tt
leone
you'
recarr
ying"

Me:"youar
egoi
ngtobet
hebestgr
andmot
her"she
l
aughandgetsi
lent
.
Me:"whydon'tyoudateorhaveaboyfr
iend
becauseyou'
resti
llyoungandbeaut
if
ul?"

Her:
"whosaudI
'
m notseei
nganyone?"Il
ookedat
hershocked
Me:
"whoi
sit
?"

Her
:"You'
l
lmeethi
m oneday"

Me:"oooohmyster
yman,ishehandsoneorol
dand
wr
inkleyst
ruggl
estowal
k?"

Her
:"hel
lno,
he'
sver
yhandsome?"

Me:
"mahyouhaveaben10?"

Her
:"
huhlungiaben10?,
never
!"shel
aughsout
l
oudandIjoi
nherwelaughhardandIal
mostpee
onmysel
f

Her
:"howdoyouf
eel
now?"

Me:
"If
eelheavy,
li
keIj
ustwantt
ocr
yhar
d,Idont
knowwhy.Myheartfeel
sheavyl
ikeI
'
m goi
ngt
o
recei
vebadnewsorsomethi
ng"

Her:"l
uh,youarepregnantandyouronl yconcer n
nowi syourheal
thandt hebabyt hatyou'r
ecarrying.
Don'tworryaboutmbusoandwher eheisbecause
youknowhewoul dneverdoanyt hingthatwould
takehim awayfrom you.Knowt hatwhateverhe
doesisbecausehel ovesyouandwant syoutobe
safealways.Yourbrothertooiswithhim andhe
won'tlethi
m dosomet hingstupi
dwhi l
ehe'sthere
withhim"

Me:
"Iknowma, doyouthi
nkmbusowillf
orgi
veme
f
orbei
ngdisr
espectf
ult
ohiminf
rontofal
lofyou?"

Her:
"neverapologiseforexpr
essi
ngyourf eeli
ngs.
Youwereconcer nedandyouhaveever yri
ghtt otel
l
ushowyouf eelandt heyhavetorespectt
hatand
acknowl
edgeit.Itwaswr ongofmbusot ojustleave
wit
houtgivi
ngyouanexpl i
nat
ionandyout ll
inghim
you'
reconcernsdoesn'
tmeanyouar
ebei
ng
disr
espect
ful".

Me:"buthel
eftaf
terwel
eftwi
thdadandst
il
l
managedtocomebackandseemeandspendthe
ni
ghtwithme"

Her:
"andwhatani
ghti
twas,
thankGodyou'
redad
wasn'
ther
e"

Me:
"youhear
dus?"

Her
:"Ihear
dyoubaby,
Godl
uhyou'
rel
oud"

Me:
"ma?"webot
hlaugh

Her
:"Iknowhecamebackt ospendt
henightbut
r
emembert hathe'
sst
il
llear
ningt
oobabybecause
hewasusedt odoanythinghewant satanyti
me
withouttel
li
nganyoneoryouwher ehewasbut
sincebothofyoudecidedtogi veyourr
elat
ionship
achanceagai nhe'sbeentryi
ng.Yessomet hings
aregoingtotakelongforhimtochangebutyou
haveseent hathe'
sabettermant oyounowt han
whathewast henandthat'
sallthatmatt
ers.You
don'tneedtolearnhi
severymovebutyouj ustwant
toknowi fhe'
sokay"

Me:"t
hat'
sallIwantmabecauseIcan'tdothis
wit
houthim.Iwantustoexper
ienceeveryt
hing
t
ogethersi
ncewear egoi
ngtobef i
rstt
imeparent
s
"

Her:
"openuptohi
m andt
ellhi
m,don'
thol
d
anyt
hingback"

Me:
"thankyoumommy"
Her
:"I'
m her
elungi
leandI
'
m notgoi
nganywher
e
f
orallofyou"

Me:
"becauseweneedyou"

Her:
"comelet
sgoandmakeyousomet
hingt
oeat
,
youcan'
tst
arvemygr
andchi
ld"

Me:"doyouwantmyki
dst
ocal
lyougogo?"we
bot
hl augh

Her:
"nope,
I'
m goi
ngt
oteacht
hem t
ocal
lme
gl
amma?"

Me:
"okgl
ammal
etsgoandeat"

Wegettot
hekichenandIfi
ndmbusosi
tt
ingalone
l
ikehe'
smindi
snothereandhe'
sdeepi
nt hought
.
Mahgoestotheopposit
edi r
ecti
onandgi
ves
mbusoandIspacetotalk.Heturnsandl
ooksatme.

Me:
"pennyf
oryourt
hought
s?"

Him:
"I'
mt hi
nki
ngthatIsuckwheni
tcomest
othi
s
communicat
ionthi
ngwithyou"

Me:
"youdon'tsuckboo,Iwasj
ustf
eel
ing
emot
ionalandItooki
toutonyouandI
'm sor
ry"

Him:"I
'
m happythatyoutol
dmet hatyoudi dn'
tli
ke
whatIdidbecauseIaskedyoutotellmei fImess
upandyoudid"heget smebetweenhi slegsand
putshi
shandonmyst omachandtheki dsstar
t
pl
aying

Me:
"butIshoul
dn'thavedonethati
nfrontofmy
f
amil
yespecial
lyyourbrot
her
.Hewi llthi
nkIdon'
t
r
espectyouasmyman"

Him:"Iwoul dhavelovedf oryoutotel

lmewhenwe
areinpri
vatebutal soitshowedyourdadt hatyou
arenotafraidtotel
lmewhenIdowr ongandI '
ma
manwhor eali
seshi smistakesandwi l
laskfor
for
giveness.Idon'twanthi mtothinkthatt
heonly
ti
meyou' r
eabl etotellmehowyouf eeli
swhen
you'
rearoundt hem.Pr omisemet hatyouwillcal
l
met otal
ki npri
vate?"

Me:
"Ipr
omi
seMnguni"

Him:"howareyoufeel
ingnowcauseyouleftcr
ying
thenIhear
dyouguyslaughing?"handst
il
lonmy
stomachfeel
ingt
hekidsplayi
ng.

Me:
"Ifeell
ikecr
ying,l
iket
here'
sthi
shugesadness
I
'mfeel
ingandIdon'tknowwhy"hesighsandhugs
meandIwr apmyar msaroundhim.
Hi
m:"i
t'
sthepr
egancybaby,mybi
gheadedki
dsar
e
maki
ngmommyf eelupset"

Me:"mykidswon'
thavebi
gheadsl
ikeyours"I
gi
gglehedoesn'
thaveabi
gheadIj
ustloveteasi
ng
hi
m

Hi
m:"you'
reever
ythi
ngt
omeyouknowt
hat
?"

Me:
"Iknowboo"

Hi
m:"andIwantf
oreverwi
thyou,
youknow?"

Me:
"si
ll
yman,
Iknowt
hatt
oo"Igi
ggl
e

Hestandsup,movesmeawayfrom hi
m al
it
tl
ethen
l
ooksatmel i
kehe'
sscar
edthenhegoesdownon
hi
sknee,pul
lssomet
hingoutofhi
spantsandi
t'
sa
boxr
ingandIgaspinshockandcovermymouth

Me:
"mbuso?
,what
?,how?"

Him:"Iwant edt othi

sther i
ghtway,theproposal .I
plannedt hi
sr omanti
cbr eakfastpi
cnicthatIwas
goingtot akeyout o,sweepyouof fyourfeetand
thenaskyout omar r
ymebutt henwhenyouasked
mecr yingwhenam Igoi ngtoputar i
ngoni t,Itold
myselff uckthisI'
m doingitnowbutt henyour an
upstair
scr yi
ng"

Me:
"I'
m sor
ryIr
uinedt
hesur
pri
se"

Hi
m:"youdidn'
tbaby,
bynowIshoul
dknowt
hatwe
dot
hingsourownspecialway"

Me:
"that
'
sdamnr
ight"
Him:"LungileNgcobo, mypr omisewitht hi
sr i
ngis
toonlyhaveeyesf oryou.Weart hi
sringwi t
hpr i
de
knowingyou' retheonlywomanwho' l
lbest anding
bymysi deandwhenyoul ookatt hi
sitIhopei t
remindsyouofmypr omisetoneverst oplovingno
matterwhatandIpl antomar ryyouver ysoon.I
l
oveyouver ymuchandIwantt ospentt herestof
myl i
febreathingwi t
hyou, Wil
lyousayyesand
acceptmypr oposalandmar ryme?"heopenst he
ri
ngandI '
mi nawe.I t
'sasquar eshapeddi amond
ri
ngandi tlooksobeaut if
ul.

Iknowheaskedmei fhecoul dsendhisf amil

yto
myf ami lyandhedidthatthenaskedf ormyhandi n
mar r
iagef rom mybri
theranddadandbot hgave
himt heirblessi
ngsandIthoughtitwasi tbecause
henevert al
kedaboutgett
ingar i
ng.IthoughtIwill
getar ingonmyweddi ngdaybuther ehei s
surprisingmeandpr oposinginmyf ather'
shousein
hiskitchen, whodoesthat
? .
Me:"I..
.Iwould'ttr
adethismomentr i
ghthere
for.
..
foranythingevenf orabreakf
astpicni
ceven
thoughI '
m sohungr ybecausetomet hisisper
fect
.
MbusoGumedeI '
llmar
ry,yesIl
lmarryyou!"He
getsup, ki
ssesmet henIhearloudcheersbehi
nd
meandi t'
smyf amil
yandmbuso' sdadisheretoo
wow.

Theymusthavebeenlisteni
ngtousandwait
ingfor
myanswer ,
Nowondermyauntgaveusspacei t'
s
becausesheknew.Everyonecomestocongr
atul
ate
usandIlookatmyfatherandeveryoneandt
heyall
l
ookveryhappyandI'm happytoo!
.
CHAPTER24.

MBUSO.

Sicel
o:"Ihopeshedoesn'
tst
aymadatmef
orl
ong
andIdon'tevenknowwhatIdidwr
ong"
Me:"she'snotmadatyou,she'sjustf
eeli
ng
emotional.It
hinkshecansensethatthamii
sdead
butshedoesn'tknowexactl
y,that'
swhyshe's
l
ashingoutonus"

Scel
o:"sowhatdowedonow?"

Me:"Ihavetocallsi
mphiweandt ellhernott
ocall
l
uht henIhavetoblockallhersoci
almedia
accountsi
ncasesomeonet agsherbecausethey
knowshe'sthami'sbrot
her"

Bonga:
"wehavet
ogot
her
eandseehowwecan
hel
pvict
or"

Si
cel
o:"wehavet
ogot
oday"

Me:
"Havet
heguysar
ri
vedwi
thbuhl
e?"
Sicel
o:"Yestheydidearl
ythismor ning.Theyarein
thefar
m andbuhl eisseparatedfrom them,her
parent
sdon'tknowt hatshe'sthereandsheal so
doesn'tknowthattheyarethere."

Me:
"andt
hedad'
s?"

Bonga:
"theywentt
ost
ander
ton"

Me:"ManIwant edtobet hereandhel

pyouguys
butIcan'
tleaveluhalone,she'
sneedsmeri
ghtnow
andImadeapr omise"

Sicel
o:"peopl
earegoi
ngtonot
icet
hatt
hami
'
s
parent
sandsi st
ersar
enott
her
e"

Me:"manIknow,buthi
spar ent
sdon'tdeser
veto
bur
ythamiandbuhlewellshemi ghtr
unawayifwe
l
ethergot
othef
uner
al"

Si
cel
o:"andshedoesn'
tknowhe'
sdead"

Bonga:
"Isaywet
elll
uhandl
etherdeci
dei
fshe
wantst
ogoornot"

Me:
"Ir
eal
lywantt
odothatbutI
'
m scar
edt
hatt
his
mi
ghtmakeherl
oset
hebaby"

Bonga:"Ithinkyouguysar eunderesti
matingl
uh.
She'
sast r
ongwomanandnotsomef r
agil
echi
ld.
Yesitwillhurtherbutshecanhandl ei
tandshe
won'tl
etitaf f
ectherpregnancy.Shedeser
vesto
know"

Me:
"thatwoul
dmeant el
li
nghert
het
rut
hthathi
s
ownmothershotandki
ll
edhi
m andwedon'
tknow
why"
Si
cel
o:"aunthast
obeher
ewhenwet
ellher"

Me:"I
'l
lcal
lmymom too,she'sgoingtoneedallthe
suppor
tshecanget
.Bongat elloneofthedr
iversat
hometobringmom her
e"

Bonga:
"letmecal
lmom "hegoesout
side

Me:
"wher
eisaunt
y?"

Sicel
o:"shewenttotown, Ihopet
heywon'tbemad
atyouf orwant
ingtotel
lluhwhathappend"

Me:"shedeservestobur
yhim becausei
fwedothi
s
wit
houther,I
'
m afrai
dshe'l
lneverf
orgi
vemeandI
don'
twanttoloseher"
Si
celo:
"you'
rer
ight
,thami
'
sdeat
hcameatt
he
worstt
ime"

Me:
"I'
m goi
ngt
ocallpr
est
on,
Iwanthi
m her
eunt
il
t
hefuner
ali
sover"

Him:"maybeIshoul
dcal
layandat
oof
ort
hemor
al
support"

Me:"youwilluseanyexcuseyouhavetoseeher,
plusshehasacat eri
ngcompany,l
etshi
rehert
o
caterf
orthefuneral"

Hi
m:"greati
deabutIdon'
tknowi
fshe'
l
lbeupt
oit
si
nceyouknowwhathappened"

Me:"cal
lherandfindout,
ifshesaysnowe'l
lget
someoneelsebutbeforeyoudothatwehaveto
hearwhatvict
orsaysthentakei
tfrom t
her
e"
Sicel
o:"Ihopewe'
renotmaki
ngami
stakebydoi
ng
this"

Me:
"meandyoubr
other"

Bonga:
"mom wi
llbeher
eint
wohour
s"

Si
cel
o:"i
fwe'r
eallgoingt
ostandert
onweneeda
pl
acetostaybecausewecan'tst
ayatt
hathouse"

Me:
"letmecal
lzi
nhl
etogetusahouset
orentf
or
t
heweek"

Bonga:
"whatdowedonow"

Me:"bothofyouneedt
ogoshoppi
ngf
orcl
othes
becauseyoudon'
thaveanyher
e"
Sicel
o:"Manthi
sismyhouseandIdohavecl
othes
herebutIthi
nkweneedt
ogoandbuyfoodfor
them t
ocookduringt
heweek"

Me:
"scelocanwet
rustt
heguysl
ooki
ngaf
tert
he
mazi
biko'
s?"

Him:"t
hosearedad'
smenandwecant
rustt
hem.
Theywon'tescape"

Me:"cal
lcel
esteandaskhert
ocomehereandt hen
gototownwithher,
she'
sawomanandshe' l
lknow
whatyouneedtobuy"scelogoest
otheki
tchen

Bonga:
"Idi
dn'tmeant
ooverst
epbr ot
herbutIt
hink
shewil
lsur
pri
seusandhandleitbett
ert
hanwe
thi
nkshewil
l"
Me:"Ipr
aytoGodthatshewon'tt
akei
tveryhard
butwhatdoIknowaboutlosi
ngsomeonecloseto
youli
kethat
,someoneyougrewupknowingisyour
brot
her"

Bonga:
"mant
hisi
shar
d"

Me:
"itsucksbr
other
,letmecal
lpr
est
on"

Bonga:
"whoi
she?"

Me:"luh'sdoctor
,youar
egoingt
olovehi
m "I
chuckle.Itakeoutmyphoneandcal
lhi
m

Pr
est
on:
"mybabydaddy"t
hisguy

Me:
"howar
eyoudoc"
Hi
m:"I
'
m gr
eatnowt
hatI
'
m hear
ingf
rom you"

Me:
"Ineedyourhel
p"

Hi
m:"i
smybabymamaok?"

Me:
"sheisbutIdon'
tknowforhowlongwhi
chi
s
whyIneedyoutobeheretomonit
orher"

Hi
m:"t
ellmewhathappendsoIcanbepr
epar
ed"

Me:"shelostherbrot
herandshedoesn'
tknowand
I
'm abouttotel
lher"

Hi
m: "OhmyGodI'
m sosorr
ytohearthat
,isitt
he
br
otheryoucamewi
thduri
nghercheckup? "

Me:
"noti
t'
snotscel
o"
Him:"okIal mosthadaheartat
tackbutmbuso,you
knowt hattel
li
nghermighthaveanegati
veimpact
onthepr egnancy?"

Me:"Iknow,
whi
chi
swhyIneedyouher
etokeep
aneyeonher"

Hi
m:"I
'
llber
ightt
her
enow"

Me:"Ineedyouforawholeweekher
ewithus.I
'
ll
payyouwhateveramountyouwantfort
hedays
youwon'tbeatyoursur
gery"

Him:
"youdon'
thavet
oaskmetwi
ce,j
ustl
ikeIsai
d,
I
'l
lberi
ghtt
her
esendmeyourl
ocat
ion"

Me:"packabagforawholeweekbecausewear
e
goi
ngt ol
eavel
ateaft
ernoon"
Hi
m:"ok"Ihangupandsendhi
mthel
ocat
ion

Scel
o:"wast
hatt
hegooddoct
or?"webot
hlaugh

Me:
"heal
mosthadahear
tatt
ackcausehet
hought
i
twasyouwhodied"wel
augh

Si
cel
o:"manhe'
scr
azy"

Me:
"hehasat
hingf
oryou"

Bonga:
"thedoct
ori
sgay?"

Me:
"yeah"

Si
cel
o:"maybehe'
l
lfor
getaboutmewhenhesees
you"weal
llaugh

Bonga:
"Ibatf
ort
heot
hert
eam man"

Me:
"wher
e'scel
est
e?"

Si
cel
o:"sheshoul
dbeher
eatanymi
nut
e"

Bonga:
"maybeweshoul
dinvi
tezamat
oo"

Us:
"hel
lno!"hel
aughs.Thesecuri
tyl
etcel
est
ein
t
hehouseandshelooksveryser
ious.

Her
:"mybosses"t
henshel
ooksatbonga

Me:
"heycel
est
e,t
hisi
smybr
otherSi
yabonga"
Her
:"sur
esmal
lboss,
how'
zit
?"

Bonga:
"gr
andyou?"(good)

Her
:"super
,wher
e'st
hebossl
ady?"

Me:"she'
ssleeping,
youguysshouldgosowecan
getreadywhenyoucomeback"Theyal lagreeand
l
eaveandI '
ml ef
twithonl
ythehousehel
persand
l
uh.Igot ocheckonherandfindherwat
chingtv.

Me:
"heybabyIt
houghtyoumi
ghtst
il
lbesl
eepi
ng"

Her:
"myphonewokemeup,
itwasr
ingi
ngnon-
stop
"God!

Me:
"whowascal
li
ngyou?"
Her
:"It
hinki
twaspaul"

Me:
"Paulwho?
,Bonga'
sfr
iends?"whatt
hehel
l?

Her
:"noboo,myexPaul"t
hatf
uckerI
'
m sur
ehe
wascall
ingaboutt
hami
.

Me:
"whatdi
dhesay?"

Her:
"Idon'
tknow,Idi
dn'
tansweri
t.Whyi
she
cal
li
ngmeaf t
ersomanyyears?"

Me:
"for
getabouthi
m.Howar
eyouf
eel
ing?"

Her
:"st
opaski
ngmet
hatI
'
m good"

Me:
"Ij
ustwantt
obesur
e"
Her
:"Il
ovemyr
ing,
it'
sper
fect"

Me:
"justl
ikeyoubaby"

Her
:"boo?"

Me:"yesmylove"sheblushesandget
sredal
lover
herfaceandget
sflust
eredandIknowwhatshe
wants.Igi
vehermybestsmi l
e

Her:
"canwehave.
..uhm "Isi
tnextt
oherandki
ss
herbet
weenherneckandshoulder

Me:"hmmm, askmewhatyouwantmyl
oveandI
'
ll
gi
veittoyou"

Her
:"Iwantyout
ofuckme"what
?shesai
dthat
?
Me:
"lovedi
dyouj
ustaskmet
ofuckyou?"

Her
:"pl
easeboo"

Me:
"tel
lmeagai
n"

Her
:"f
uckme,
I'
m hor
ny"

Me:"Il
oveitwhenyout
alkdi
rt
y,l
etsgot
othe
bat
hroom "

Her
:"youar
egoi
ngt
ofuckmer
ight
?"wegot
othe
bat
hroom

Me:"Iam,butIdon'
twantanyonet
ohearyou
scr
eam "
Her
:"I
'
llt
rynott
oscr
eam butyoumakei
thar
d"

Me:"I
'
m al
wayshar
dar oundyoul
oveandI
'
m goi
ng
tof
uckyouqui
ckbecausewehavetobe
somewher
e"

Her :
"where?"Il ockthedoorandswi tchtheshower
on.Ther e'
sahugemi rr
owont hewal landasof t
thickcarpet.Idragthecarpetclosetot hemirrow
andputi tthere.Ihel
phert akeoffherdr essand
fuckmanshel ooksbeaut
iful,
hertitshavegr own
andherassj iggl
eswhenIsmacki t.Itakeoffmy
clothestoot hentakeherhandandst andheri nf
ront
ofmef aci
ngt hemi r
row.

Me:"youaresobeauti
fulmylove,i
nsi
deandout .
Lookatusonthemi r
ror,don'
tcl
oseyoureyes.I
wantyoutoseehowwel ookwhenwe'reconnect
ed
toget
her"
Icupherbr eat
sfil
li
ngmyhandsheavyt henkissher
mout h,gotoherearthenneckandshemoans
archingherbacktomet hengobackt okissingher
neckandhermoansdr ivemecr azyfuck!.Imove
herlegsandstret
cht hem apartthentakemyhand
downt oherstomachandpl ungemyf ingersdeep
i
nsidehersweetnect arandwebot hmoanandher
kneesgetweak.

Me:"I'
vegotyou, Iwon'
tletyouf al
l"shenods, Ifi
nd
hersensit
ivehardbudandpl aywithi tandher
pussywal l
sgripmyf i
ngersandIknowherpussyi s
beggi
ngf ormydi cktobei nsi
deher .Ibendal i
tt
le
somydi ckcangetbet weenherasscheeksandi ti
s
sowar mthere,Imovemywai stt
hesamet i
meI
fi
ngerfuckherandcont inuethepaceofmyf i
ngers
andmywai standfuckitfeelsamazi ng!.

Me:
"lookatwher
emyf inger
sare,l
ookathowthey
moveinandoutofyoursweetdri
ppi
ngwetpussy
t
hatI
'm goi
ngtofuck"
Her:
"pl
easebaby"It
ellherki
ssi
ngt
hel
if
eoutof
her

Me:
"whatdoyouwantl
ove?"

Her
:"Iwantyoui
nmenowpl
ease"

Me:"wi t
hpl easuremyl ove"Icontinuetofinger
fuckingherandmydi cki sleaki
ngprecum andI
knowi tisn'
tgoi ngtotakemel ongtocum andI
can'thavet hat.Herpussygr i
psmyf ingersandI
knowshe' snearsoIpl aywithhercli
tori
sbr ushi
ng
i
tsof tl
yup, downandsi dewaysandt henIpl unge
myt onguei nherearandr ubhercli
tfastbutsof t
andherl egsst artt
oshakeandshecl imaxes
screami ngmynameandIhol dherti
ghtsoshe
won'tfall.

Me:
"kneelont
hef
loorandputyourhandsi
nthe
mi r
row"Ihelpherdownandmydi cksrockhar d
andmybal l
sf eel
heavy,t
heywantmet orelease.
Shebalancesherselfwi
ththemi r
rorandIlookat
herandjustseeeuphori
aal l
overfaceandi fIcoul
d
takeaphotoforthismomentr i
ghthereIwoul d.

Me: "lovelookatusandwhat everIdo, don' tmove

yourhandsof f"Imoveof fheral it
tle,takeherass
cheeksandsepar atethem thensepar ateherpussy
l
ipsandseet hatpinkpussygl isteri
ngwi thsweet
juicebeggi ngmet otastei
t.Ilookatheri nt he
mi rr
orandshe' spantingwithhermout hwi deopen
thenIl i
ckmyl ipsandbur ymywhol ef aceonher
from behi ndandmyf uckenGodshet astesbet ter
eacht imeIf eelherinmymout h.Isuckal lt hat
sweetj uiceandeatherl i
keitismyf irsttimef eeli
ng
awomani nmout hbecausei tfeelslikeit.Ieat ,suck
andf uckherwi thmyt ongueandshest retchesher
l
egsoutandar chesherbackgi vingmeherwhol e
selfthenshemovesandf ucksmyf aceandIgr oan
andpl aywi t
hherbudandshemoans.
Ican'twaitanylonger, Ihavet obeinsidehernowor
I'
m goingtocomeal loverherbackandshe' l
lbe
pissed.Iquickl
ygetup, t
akemydi ck,pointittoher
entrancethenslidehomel ookingatherint he
mi r
rorandhereyesar ecloseandshe' ssowetand
verywar m andshedoesn' tfl
inchwhenIsl ideall
theywayi n.Wej ustmoanandIgr indmyt eet hsoI
don'tcomeatt hatmoment ,
Ipulloutal i
ttl
et hen
thrustali
ttl
ehardandsheopenshereyesand
l
ooksatme.Igr abont oherwai standst arttofuck
herwi t
hcalculat
edst rokes

Her:"stopbeinggentleandj ustf
uckme!"It akemy
handsandgr i
pherhai rti
ghtandfuckher .Ilookat
hertitsandthebounceupanddown, herf acer ed
andhermout hswollenf r
om myki ssesf uckme! .I
continuemypaceandf uckherfastnotgi vinghera
chancet omoveandshescr eamsandIcansee
she'snowst ruggl
ingtohol dontot hemi rrorsoI
takehert omyar msandhol dhergentlyt henmove,
turnusandl ayheronhersi desoshe'llbef acing
themi rr
orandseememovi nginandoutofher .I
takeherheadandlayitonmyar mthenr
aiseher
l
egupandsl idebackinagainandGodwhatisshe
doingtomebeacuseIf eel
connect
edtoherina
wayIhaveneverfelt
.

Me:"lookatthemi rr
owandt ouchyourselfl
ove"I
movei nandoutofherandshet akesherhandand
movei ttohercli
tthenrubsi tandshemoansand
gri
psmydi ckandIdon' thol
dbacknowandf uck
herhardlikesheaskedmet oandshekeeps
gri
ppingmydi ckandI 'm gonnacome.It akemy
handt ohersandwer ubherclittoget
herwhi l
eI'
m
fucki
ngherandIf eel i
tcomi ngfrom myheadand
thebottomsofmyf eetandst rai
ghttomydi ck.

Me: "
howf arar
eyou?"shekeepsmoani ng,Imove
herheadsoshe' llfacemeandkissherdeep,
tonguedownhert hroatt
henpul
lmydi ckoutthen
thrustdeepinherhar dandshemoanst henfists
mydi cksqueezinghar dandIpr
essherclitand
smacki tthent
hr ustdeepandhardagainandt hen
spi
llmyseedi
nhergr oani
nginhermouthandher
bodyshakesf
rom herorgasm f
ucccck!
.

Welayl iket
hatforawhil
et henIgetupandl eave
heront hefl
oorandIcanseeshewant stosleep
agai
nandwecan' thavethat.Theshowerhasbeen
onthiswholetimesoIadj ustthewat ert
obeal i
tt
le
warmt hengetherupandwegeti ntheshowerand
Iwashherwhol ebodyandshel ookssobeautif
ul
thor
oughl yf
ucked.WegetoutandIdr yherupand
mosturizeherandlookforanot herdress

Me:
"lovewhi
chunder
weardoyouwantt
owear
?"

Her
:"gr
annypant
ies"

Me:
"theyl
ookgoodonyou"

Her
:"shutup"shet
hrowst
hepi
ll
owatme.Icl
oth
hert
hencl
othmysel
f.

Her
:"di
dyouf
eelt
heconnect
ionIf
elt
?"

Me:"Idi
dmyl
oveandi
t'
s.
..
Idon'
tknowhowt
o
expl
aini
t"

Her:
"Itwasl
ikeoursoul
smer
gedandwebecame
one"

Me:"yeahunbel
eivabl
e,comemyl
ovel
etsgoand
getyoufed"

Wel eaveandgototheki
tchenandmymom is
ther
e, l
uh'smom,myaunt,l
uh'sot
heraunt
,my
brot
her ,
sicel
oandcel
est
e.

Mom:
"hhaymbusono,
ngekephel
auzol
imaza
ulungiukhohliweyin'ukut
hiukhulelweusumkhali
sa
kangaka?"(Nombuso, di
dyouf orgett
hatlungii
s
pregantasyouwer ebusymaki ngherscream?)my
mom t hough,everyonelaughsandl uhgets
embar rasedandhi desherfaceonmychestandI
chuckle.Ineedtosoundpr oofourbedroomsi nour
houseandt hehousewe' l
lhaveinDurban.
CHAPTER24CONTI
NUAL.

LUNGI
.

Ican'tbel
ievembuso'smom j ustsaidthati
nfr
ontof
everyone.Ifeelsoembar r
asedrightnowbecauseI
didn'
treali
seIwast hatloudunlessshecamet o
l
ookf orusi nmybedr oonthenheardus.There'
sno
wayt hewhol ehouseheardusbecausei tisaver
y
bighouse, atl
eastmbusoi sherewithmebacauseI
wouldhavedi edofembar rasement.

Me:
"Sani
bonani"(goodaf
ter
noon)mbusol
eads
metosi
tdownandInoti
cethere'
saver
ybeaut
if
ul
al
mostt
omboyli
kewomansi t
ti
ngnextt
obonga,
maybei
t'
shi
sgir
lf
iendIt
hink.

Myauntbr i
ngsmemuesl iandyoghurttoeat
becausemostoft het i
meIeatt hat.Theyconti
nue
totalkandIeatbutt here'sthi
stensionandwhat
puzzlesmet hemosti swhyi severyonehere
besidesmydadandmyf at
herin-
law,ohyesthey
musthavehear daboutt heengagementandt hey
areheretocongr atulat
eusandIhadal soaskedmy
mom t ohel
pmewi thplanningtheweddingand
nowt heyareallhere.

Mbusoi st al
kingwithmybr otherandhi sbrother
andpr estonwentt othekitchenwi thmahandI
noti
cedhe' snothisbubbl ysel f
.Mbusokeeps
rubbingmybackandIj ustwantt omoancausemy
babiesandIar eenj
oyingt hatbackr ubandi tcan
putmesl eep.Igetdonest andupt ot aketheplat
e
tothekitchenbutmbuso' sauntt akesitthengoes
toki
tchenandtheyal
lcomeback,
sitdownandl
ook
atme.Okthisi
sweird.

Me:"IfIwasn'tgett
ingmar ri
edthenIwouldthi
nk
thi
sisani nt
erventi
onbecauseyou' r
eallher
e,wel
l
noteveryonebutyou' r
eherenotsayinganythi
ng,
j
ustlookingatme.What '
sgoingon?"Ilookat
mbusoandmybr otherthenmymom andshe
comes, si
tsnexttomeandt akesmyhandt hen
l
ooksatme.

Mah:"wehavesomet hi
ngt
otel
lyou,wel
lyour
f
ianceehastot
ellyou?"Il
ookathi
m

Me:
"ar
eyousi
ckordyi
ng?"

Hi
m:"nobabyI
'
m notsi
ckordyi
ng"

Me:
"thenwhati
sit
?"
Him:"Igotacal lfr
om t hamianditsoundedl
ikehe
wast al
kingtosomeonet henweheardagunshot ,
I.
.It
racedhisphonet onewcast l
eandwhenwegot
therewef oundoutt hathedi dn'
tmakeit
,hedied
baby"IlookatmbusoandIhavet hi
shugeurgeto
slaphim acrosshisf acet henIl
ookatmybrother
andhel ooksver ysorry.

Me:
"whoki
ll
edhi
m andwhy?"

Hi
m:"thulikil
ledhi
m andwedon'
tknowwhyand
whatexactlyhappend?"

Me:
"whendi
dthi
shappen?"

Hi
m:"yest
erday"sot
hat
'swhyhecoul
dn'
tsl
eep

Me:
"wher
eishenow?"
Si
celo:
"he'
sinst
andert
on.Dadandmbuso'
sdad
wenttoseeuncl
evi
ctor"

Me:"sothi
swholeti
me,Thul
iandSi
phowereher
underournosesi
nnewcastl
eandyoudi
dn'
tknow?
"

Sicel
o:"t
heywe'
ret
her
eforaf
ewdaysbef
oret
hami
showedup"

Me:
"soi
ttookt
hami'
sdeathf
oryoutofi
nal
lyf
ind
t
hem.Wherear
etheyort
heyranawayagai
n?"

Si
cel
o:"Idon'
tthi
nkyouwantt
oknowwher
ethey
ar
ebut..
..
."

Me:"pleasesi
cel
odon'tplaythatcardwit
hme,I
'
m
notstupidornai
ve.Weallknowt hati
nthisf
ami
ly,
theGumede'sandtheNgcobo'
swedon'
tlett
hel
aw,
thepoli
cesol
veourproblemswesol
vet
hem
oursel
vessowherearethey?"

Mbuso:"yourdadtookt
hem somewher
eandwe
don'
tknowwher e"ohplease!

Me:"Iknowyouknowwher etheyaresoplease
don'tl
ietomeandIdon'tcareaboutthem.Iasked
youmbuso, Iaskedyoutooscelothatpl
easefind
thamiformebef or
esomethingbadhappenst ohim
andwhatdidyoubot hsaytome? ,whatdidyou
promiseme?"

Si
cel
o:"we.
..
"

MaGumede:
"shutupandl
etherspeakhermi
nd
scel
o"
Me: "youhadonej ob, justonej obyouhadbot hhad
todobutf ail
edt odoi tandyouf ai
ledme! .Ilostt he
personwhomadel ivingwi t
ht hosepeoplebear able,
Ilostmybr other,mybestf r
iendandmyconf i
dant .
Bet weenthebot hofyouandt hemoneyyouhave,
youcoul dn'tfindoneper son?,a20yearol d
teenager!?andyoumbuso, you'reahackerbutyou
coul dn'
tfi
ndmybr otherbutyoumanagedt of ind
buhl eandyouwe' rebusygoi ngtoherbecauseshe
wasmor ei mpor t
antt oyout hanf i
ndingmybr ot her
right?"hel ooksatmel i
keIhavej ustslappedhi m
onhi sf
ace, helookshur tandIdon' tcar
e.

Him:"IknowIfai
ledyouandI
'm sor
ryIcoul
dn'
t
savehim andi
fIcouldIwoul
dbringhi
m backbaby
"

Me:"t
hel
asttimeIsawhi m andphysi
call
ytouched
hi
m waswhenIwassayi nggoodbyeandl eavi
ng
wit
hyouatthathotel
.He'sgoneandI'
m never
goi
ngtoseehim everagain"tear
swelli
nmyeyes
andIdon'twanttocryandupsetmykidsbutI
'm
real
lyhur
tingr
ightnowandIdon'twhattodo.

Sicel
o:"I'
m sorr
ybabysi
ster
,wetookhissit
uation
l
ightl
y.Ithinkhewentt
heretoconf
rontthem about
allt
het hi
ngstheydi
d"

Me:"i
t'
smyf aultt
hatheisdead,
it'
sal
lmyf aul
t!"I
heart
hem sayingnoIstandupandstartpaci
ng

Me:"yesiti
s!,
I'
mt heonewhotoldhim what
happendthenhegoesmi ssi
ngthenshowsup,
confront
shisparentsandt
heykil
lhim becauseof
me.Hewentt heretofi
ndthetr
uthformeandhe
diedfori
tbecausehechosemeandnott hem!.How
couldIdothi
st ohim,howcoul
dIgethi m ki
ll
edOh
God!"

Mbuso:
"lungil
ookatme!"hestandsi
nfr
ontofme
t
henputshishandsonmyf ace
Me:
"Iki
ll
edhi
m mbusoIdi
d!"

Hi
m:"babyl
ookatme"

Me:
"noIcan'
t,
Isenthi
mtot
hem "

Him:
"pl
easel
ookatmel
ungi
l
e!"Iopenmyeyes
andl
ookathi
m

Hi m:"it
'snotyourfaultbaby,noneoft hisisyour
faul t
,youareinnocentandsowast hami .Youwer e
tryingtowar nhimt obecarefulofhisparentsand
wedon' tknowwhathechoset odoandwe' l
lnever
know.Hemi ghthavewentt heretofindoutthet r
uth
orhemi ghthavewentt heretohelpthem, wedon' t
knowandwedon' tknowwhatexact lyhappendf or
hismom t oendupshoot inghim, i
tmi ghtbe
becausehef oundthet r
uthandwant edtowar nus
orf orust ocomeandgethi m,wedon' tknowbaby"
hehugsmeandIhol
dhi
mti
ghtandcr
y.

Sicelo:"wewi llgetj
usticef
orhim wepromiseand
event houghIhavenevermett hamiIknowhel oved
youver ymuchandhewoul dn'
twantyoutoblame
yoursel fforhi
sdeat h.Hewouldwantyouto
celebrat ehim andletgoofhiminpeace"

Me:
"Idon'
tknowhowt
odot
hat"

MaGumede:
"youprayl
ungi
,youprayandaskGod
t
oaccepthi
ssoulandf
orhi
mt ofi
ndpeace"

Mbuso:"youhavetwogurdi
anangelsnowwatchi
ng
overyou,yourmom andt
hami.Isawhim,Icl
osed
hi
seyesandaskedhi mtowatchoveryouandour
ki
ds"

Me:
"Hedi
dn'
tdesr
evet
odi
esoyoung,
hehadhi
s
whol
eli
feaheadofhi
m,i
t'
snotf
air"

Mbuso:
"IknowbabyIknow"

Me:"Iwantyout
opr
omi
semesomet
hing"Il
ookat
hi
m

Mbuso:"thatwomanhast akenonel astper

sonthat
real
lycaresaboutmef ort
helastti
meandshe' s
nevergoingtodoitagainbecauseIwantherdead
"Ihearshockedgasps

Mah:
"Lungi
!"

Scel
o:"youdon'
tknowwhatyou'
resayi
ngl
ungi
!"

Mbuso:
"youareupsetbabyandi
t'
sunder
standabl
e
t
hatyou'
l
lfeelt
hatway"
Me:
"I'
m notst
upi
dokay?
,Iknowyou'
regoi
ngt
oki
ll
t
hem!"

Mbuso:
"baby?"

Me:"scel
oyousaidthatyouwi
llgetj
usti
ceforhi
m
andthejust
iceIwanti
sherdead,Iwantyoutoki
ll
hersl
owlyandpainful
ly!"

Mbuso:"st
handwasam ngi
cel
aungi
lal
ele"(my
l
ovepleaseli
stent
ome)

Me:"youpromi sedmet hatyou'l

lprot
ectandthisis
mewant i
ngal lofyouprotect
edbecauseweal l
knowthataslongasshe' ssti
llbreat
hingwe'
llnever
getoverever
yt hi
ngthathashappend"

Scel
o:"Mahpl
easet
alksomesensei
ntoher"he
sayst
ombuso'
smom

MaGumede:"f
rom whatI
'vet
oldt
hatwomanhas
beennot
hingbutt
roubl
efort
hisf
amil
y"

Mah:"Iwantherdeadt
oo,shemademybrother
l
osehisfamilyandwe'
renotsupposet
oget
r
evengeafterhowmanyyears?.
..
No!"

Mbuso'
sAunt:"whatiski
ll
imgthem goi
ngt
obr
ing
t
hisf
amily?
,leeaveital
ltoGod"

Sicel
o:"I'
l
lhavepeaceofmi ndandI
'
llsleepbet
ter
knowingthepeopl ewhot
urnedourl
ivesupside
downar ealldead!"

Bonga:"wearehavi
ngal
lthi
stalki
nfr
ontoft
he
doctorher
e,whati
fhegoestothepol
iceand
report
sus?"
Preston:"Myfami l
ydi sownedmewhent heyfound
outIwasagaymanandeversi nceI'vebeenalone
unti
lthisfamil
yshowedupatmysur geryandthey
wereopenandl ovingandf orthefir
sttimeIfeltl
ike
Icanhaveaf ami lyofmyown, Icanchoosemyown
familyandwhenIi nvitedmyselftobepar tofthi
s
familytheyneversai danythingbadbutwel comed
me.SowhatI '
m sayingi syoursecretsar emy
secretsandifIhavet opr ovemyl oyalt
yIwi l
l"

Sicelo:
"youar eourbrothernowpr eston,your
l
oyal t
yandwor disyourbond,we' llprotectyouin
thisfamily,t
reatyouli
keeveryoneel seandwe' l
l
alwayshaveyourbackandwe' llgiveyout helove
everyoner ecei
vesanditmi ghtsuf focateyoujustto
war nyoubuti twil
lnotalwaysbel i
ket hisbecause
wewi l
lnotalwaysagreeont hingsandseeeyet o
eye.Wef ightagaisn'
totherpeopl enotwi theach
other"
Prest
on:"Ial
readyfeelt
heloveandIwan'tal
lofit
andthankyoubi gbrot
herandsothatmeansit'
s
handsofftoyout ooBonga?"Ican'
thel
pmyself
andIgiggle

Bonga:
"we'
l
lgetyouaboyf
ri
endpr
est
onyoh"he
shr
ugs

Sicelo:"whatwediscussedi
nthi
sr oom staysher
e,
Iwilltellt
heel
der
swhathappend, onlythem andno
oneel se"Theyallagreeevenmyot heraunts.

Mah:
"wehavet
oleavenowandgot
ost
ander
ton"

Me:
"isbuhl
egoingt
obeatt
hef
uner
al?"t
heyal
l
l
ookateachot
her

Mbuso:
"wewi
llhavet
oaskuncl
evi
ctor"Inod.
Me:"Iknowshel ovedt hamiandIt
hinksheshoul
d
beatthefuneralatleasttocomeandsaygoodbye,
hi
sherbr ot
hertoo"

Mbuso:
"okaybaby.Ar
eyouokay?"

Me:
"I'
m notbutIwi
llbe"

Mbuso:
"youknowthet
rut
handnowwehaveto
f
ocusonlayi
nghi
mt or
estandwewi
llal
lbet
her
e
wit
hyou"

Pr
eston:
"letmecheckyourhi
ghbl
oodpressure"I
si
tdownandprestonchecksmeandthebabies.

Preston:"yourbloodpr essurei
snormalbutI'
m
goingt obemoni t
oringyouandIwantyout orel
ax
anddonot hi
ngl etthegrandma'sdothework.If
youst artt
of eeleventheslight
estofpai
n,youtel
l
me"

Me:
"thankyoupr
es"wehugsme.

Me:
"whathappensnow?"

Mah:
"wehavet ogoandwhenwegetther
ewe'
l
l
f
indoutwhathelpt
hey'
l
lneedf
rom us"

Me:
"wher
ear
ewest
ayi
ng?"

Mbuso:
"Iforgott
oaskmyassi
stantt
ofi
ndahouse
f
orustorent"

Me:"l
etmecal
ltheoffi
ceIusedt
owor
kfort
hey
al
wayshavevacanthouses"

TomboyLady:
"gi
vemet
henumber
sI'
l
lcal
lthem
bossl
ady"Ismi
leandl
ookather

Si
cel
o:"t
hisi
scel
est
esi
sandshewor
ksf
orus"

Me:
"hicel
esteandI'
mlunginotbossl
ady,
you
maki
ngmef eelol
d"

Cel
este:
"you'
rebossesmrssoyou'
remyboss"I
gi
vehermyphoneandt henameandshegoes
out
side

Mah:
"lungimanl
et'
sgo,
wear
ewai
ti
ngf
oryou?"

Me:
"let
sgoguysbutwhataboutmycl
othes?"

MaGumede:
"Ipackedthem butdi
dn'
tfi
nishcause
youki
dswer
ekill
ingeachotheri
nthebathroom "
Mbuso:
"Mama?"shel
aughst
hiswomant
hough

Aunt
Lwet
hu:"l
etspraybefor
ewel
eave"Weal
l
st
andandshestar
tstopray.

Her:"HeavenlyFatherpleaseblessourfamil
ieswith
yourloveandpr otectusfrom harm.Gi
veusgr ace
toforgi
ve,strengt
ht oovercomet hedi
ff
icul
ti
eswe
face,andkeepust oget
herwhent heworldt
ri
est o
pullusapart.InJesusName, Amen."

Us:
"Amen"wegeti
nthecar
sandl
eave.

Ican'
tbreakdownnoweventhoughIwantt
ocry
becauseofthepai
nthatIf
eeli
nsi
debutIwon'
t
causeIhavetobestr
ongformykids.

Iknowthamiwoul
dn'tbedeadi
fonl
yIhadkeptmy
bigmouthshut
,hecouldbedoi
ngwhat
everi
twas
thathewasdoingandIhadt ogoandrui
nallofthat
.
Iregreti
tandIbl
amemysel fforhi
sdeat
h.Please
Thamif or
giveme,Ineverwat
edyoutodie.
CHAPTER25.

LUNGI
.

IneverthoughtI'l
lbebackher eeveragainbut
thami'sdeathhasf or
cedmet obeher eandImust
sayit'
sbitt
ersweet .I
t'
sbitt
erbecausehei sgone
andI '
m nevergoingtoseehi m agai
nbutont he
otherhandi t
'sgoodbecauseIgett ocelebr
atemy
brother'
sli
fewithsimsanduncl evi
ctor
.Thecar
stopsoutsidethegateandt hedooropensandmy
auntsallgetoutandIst aybehind.

Therearemanycar soutsideandIdon'tseemy
dad'soruncl
evictor
scar sanywhere,maybethey
areinsi
dethegarage.Myaunt swellt
hamiauntsI'
m
surearebusyinthekit
chenmaki ngteaandI'
m sure
mygr andmother..
.Imeant hami '
spartenal
grandmot herisorder ingt
hem ar oundanddr i
ving
everyonecr azy.Ineedt hestrengthtogetupandgo
i
nsidebecausemyl egsdon'
tseem t ofuncti
on, I
l
ookout si
deasever yonegathersoutsidethegat e
andt heystartsinging.Mbusoopenst hedoorand
l
ooksatme.

Me:
"canyougetsi
msf
ormepl
ease?"

Hi
m:"youneedanyt
hingel
se?"

Me:"j
ustwat
er"het
akesadeepbreathandl
ooks
atmeandhelooksr
eal
lywor
ried,
Igivehi
naside
smil
e

Hi
m:"I'
l
lgetpr
est
ontocomeandsi
twi
thyouwhi
leI
goandgetsi
mphiwe"
Me:"thankyou"Iwat chhim callprest
onthenIsee
acarst oppingnextt oust hensimsget sofft
hen
seesmbusoandshegoest ohi m andhehugsher
comf orti
nghert henpoi nt
satt hecarI'
mi nandshe
comeswi thprestonf ol
lowingherbehind.Mydad,
unclevictorandmbuso' sdadopent hegateand
thentheyal lgetinthehousest i
llsi
ngi
ng.Simsgets
i
nt hecart henpr estonandt heyclosethedoorthen
simsl ooksathiml i
ke,andt henyou?thenlooksat
meandIj ustsmi le

Me:"l
ongstoryshort,
thi
sispr
estonmydoctor
sl
ashadoptedbrotherandpr
estonthi
sismysist
er
andbestf
ri
endsi mphiwe"

Prest
on:"heysisterbestfr
iend,I
'm prestonhowyou
holdi
ngup?"pr estonaskshergi vingapuppydog
eyeslookandsimsl ooksatpr estonthenl ooksat
usandl aughsandwej ustlookatherlikeshe's
crazy
Sims:"I
'm Si
mphiwebutyoucancal lmesimsand
I
'm okaynowt hatyou'
rehereguys.YouknowI
thoughtIwasgoingtoballoutmyeyesandcr y
whenIseeyoul uhbutthenbrotherbest
fri
endher
e
j
ustmademesmi l
e"

Me:
"Iknowhe'
soneofaki
nd"Iwi
pemyt
ear
sof
f.

Sims:
"OhMyGodLuhmbusofi
nal
lypr
oposed?"
sheaskst
aki
ngmyhandandl
ooksatt
heri
ng.

Prest
on:"what
?!,
Letmeseeandhowdi dInotseei
t?
"hetakesmyhandf rom si
mst
henlooksatsi
ms
andtheybothscream myGodt
hesetwo

Me:
"guysnotsol
oud"

Si
ms:"areyouki
ddi
ngme,
you'
reget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed
bi
tch"Igiggl
e
Pr
est
on:
"whendi
dhepr
oposeandhow?"

Me:"Todaymi ddayatmyparent
'shouseanditwas
beauti
ful"It
ellt
hem abouthowheproposedand
whenI'm donewe'real
lwipi
ngourtear
soff.

Sims:
"Idi
dn'
tthinkt
hisdaywasgoi
ngt
otur
noutt
o
beli
kethi
sandIdidn'
tthi
nkyouwer
egoi
ngto
comeunti
lfr
iday"

Me:"It
hinkt
heywer
e'ntgoi
ngtot
ellmeand
someoneorsomet
hingchangedt
heirmi
nds"

Prest
on:
"theywer
eworri
edabouthowthami'
s
deathwasgoingt
oaf
fectyouandthebabi
es"

Si
ms:"what
?,you'
recar
ryi
ngt
wins?"Il
ookat
pr
est
onandhegi ggl
es
Him:"wel
lIhadtoshar
ewithsisterbest
fri
endbutI
swearnooneelsewil
lknow,waithowdidyouknow?
"

Me:
"thatdoct
orinPieter
mar
it
zbur
gleti
tsl
ip,
he
t
houghtwealreadyknew"

Sims:"wowthisi
sbl
essi
ngl
uh,
Ican'
twai
ttospoi
l
them "shehugsme

Me:"it
'sonl
ythefourofuswhoknowandpl ease
guyswewanti ttobeasurpr
isetoeveryone,you
bett
ersweartokeepitt
oyourselvesorelseyouare
notgoingtobemybr i
desmaides"theybothscream
andhugeachot her

Pr
est
on:
"ar
eyout
hinki
ngwhatI
'
mthi
nki
ng?"
Sims:"youbetIam "t
heyscr
eam agai
nmyGod
thesetwoaregoingtobeahandf
ul

Sims:Ican'
twaitt
of i
ndtl
ovetool
uh.I
'
m sohappy
foryoumysi st
erIreal
lyam "

Prest
on:"metoobecauseIonl
ymeetmenwho
wantmet ohelpt
hem fi
nanci
all
y,l
iet
ome,
useme
thenthr
owm melikeausedcondom "

Me:
"youwillf
indloveguys,
Inevert
houghtIwoul
d
bet
hishappywithmbusobutlookatus"

Si
ms:"t
hamiwoul
dbeveryhappyr
ightnowt
hathe
wasgoi
ngtobeanuncl
e"

Me:"thent
eachmykidstostealmeati
ntheoven,
eati
tthengoout
sidetodri
nkwatersonoonewi l
l
noti
ceandwhenhecomesbackhi sfacewouldbe
ful
lofgravyandwhenweaskhi m whathappenhe
wouldhesay(Ididn'
tst
ealandeatthemeatinthe
oven)"welaugh

Sims:"orthatt
imewhenhewassixandwantedto
playwithusandwet ol
dhimtogoandfet
chhis
shoesthenwer anawayandlef
thi
m behi
ndand
whenwecamebackhedi dn'
tsl
eepwit
husthat
night"

Me:"butwhenwewokeuphewassleepi
ng
peacef
ull
ybetweenusandmadeusapol
ogi
set
o
hi
m"

Us:
"sayaski
esmyappl
e,mybananaandI
'
llf
orgi
ve
you"wesayatt
hesameti
melaughandpr
eston
l
aughstoo

Si
ms:
"thet
hreemuskat
eer
s"
Me:
"hemadeuswatcht
hatmoviesomanyti
mes
t
hatweendedknowi
ngmostoft
heli
nes"welaugh

Pr
est
on:
"hesoundsl
ikehewast
hebestbr
other"

Us:
"hewas"

Prest
on:"I
'
m happythatInowhavesist
ersl
ikeyou
guys"thewayhesaiditmademet earupbecause
youcanhearthathewantstof
eellovedandbe
accept
ed.

Me:"prestonweacceptyouasyouar
eandwe'll
neverchangeyou.Il
oveyouasyouareandyou
don'tneedtobesomeoneyou'r
enott
otryt
ofiti
n
wit
hus"

Sims:
"Idon'
tli
kepeopl
eIdon'tknowaroundmy
spaceandci
rcl
ebutyou,you'
rethepuzzl
ethatwas
mi
ssi
ng"

Pr
est
on:
"Iwasscar
edyouwe'
renotgoi
ngt
oli
ke
mesi
ms"

Sims:
"It
hinkmeandyouaresi
mil
ari
nmanyways
andyou'
restuckwi
thusnow"

Me:
"IloveyouguysbutI
'
m pr
essed.Ineedt
ouse
t
heloo"

Si
ms: "we'l
lgett
hroughthi
sluhaslongasyou'
re
al
llhere,
we'l
lgett
hroughti
ttoget
her"

Preston:"let
shugbeforewego"wehaveagr oup
andandt akeafewmi nut
esofsi
lencethenweget
offthenIseeuncl evi
ctorst
andi
ngoutsideal
one
smoki nglookingatus.
Me:"guysyougoaheadIneedtotal
ktounclevi
ctor
"TheynodandIgotohim andhequickl
ytri
esto
squashitof
fwit
hhishandsbuti
tburnshisfi
nger
andIlaugh.

Me:"Idi
dn'tknowyousmoke"Isaysmil
inghe
l
ooksatmeandsmi l
es,
Ihonest
lydi
dn'
treal
isehow
muchImi ssedhim

Hi
m:"l
uhkababa"heopenshi
sar
msandIgoto
hi
m,hughi
mt i
ghtandhehugsmeti
ghtt
oo.

Me:
"Imi
ssedyoubaba"(dad)Imeani
t.

Hi
m:"met
oondodakazi"(mydaught
er)

Me:"If
orgaveyoudad,
Ijustdi
dn'
tknowhowt
osay
i
ttoyou"
Him:
"Iknowyoudidbecauseit'
sinyournat
urel
uh.
You'
reneveronet
oholdgrugdes"

Me:"Il
oveyoudad,youaremydadtooandIwant
youtobepartofmylif
eagai
nbecauseIst
il
lneed
you"

Hi
m:"thankyoumydaught er
,you'
resobeaut
iful
,
gl
owingandyourpregnancysuit
syou"hishugis
warm andl
ovingj
ustli
kehowheal wayshuggedme.

Me:"di
dIevertel
lyout
hatIl
oveyourhugs"Ican
f
eelhim smi
li
ngthenheki
ssesmyf or
ehead

Hi
m:"Inowdoknow"

Me:"Ist
il
lcan'
tbel
ievehe'
sgoneandIf
eelgui
lt
y"
hepull
smebackandl ooksatme
Uncle:
"Whatdi
dIt
eachyouaboutagui
lt
y
consci
ous?"

Me: "i tl
ivesfreei
nyourmindandheart,t
hati
teats
you, takesawayyourhappinessandchangesyou
tobesomeoneel sebutwealwaysaskfor
forgivenessi fwefeel
that
,whatwedidmakesus
feelver ygiult
y.Weaskwhoeverwedidwr ongto
forgiveussowecanmoveonwi t
hli
feandnotbe
stucki nt hatmoment"

Hi
m:"di
dyouf
orcet
hamit
ogoandseehi
spar
ent
s?
"

Me:
"no"

Hi
m:"di
dyoupul
lthet
ri
ggerandki
llhi
m?"

Me:
"no"
Him:"thenIdonotwantt ohearofthistal
kabout
youfeeli
ngguilt
yeveragain.Youwe' r
etryi
ngto
keepyourbrothersaf
eandunf or
tunat
elythi
ngs
didn'
tgoaswepl anned.Therearet wopeoplewho
areguilt
yhereandit'
shismot herandfathernotyou.
YouhearmeLuhkababa?"

Me:
"yebobaba"(yesdad)

Hi
m:"i
shet
reat
ingyougood"

Me:
"hei
sdadandhepr
oposed"

Hi
m:"yourdadt
oldme,
congr
atul
ati
onsbaby"

Me:
"youar
egoi
ngt
obeatt
henegot
iat
ionsr
ight
?"
Hi
m:"I'
l
lbet
heonecount
ingt
hemoney"webot
h
l
augh

Me:
"Il
oveyou"

Him:"Il
oveyoulukababa.Let
sgoinsi
deandgreet
ever
yonebecausetheyhavebeenaski
ngaboutyou
"

Ifi
rstgoanduset hel
oot hencomebackandgr eet
theeldersi ntheroom wheretheyaresitt
ingand
theymakemedr i
nksomewat erthatthami'
s
grandmot herstirr
edwi t
hherfingerthentheyask
met olaydownandcal lmahtocomeandt akecoal
ashfrom t hestoveandr ubitbetweenherhands
thensmeari taroundmyst omachandwhenshe
doest hatmyki dsstarttomoveandwecanact ual
ly
seemyst omachmovi ng.

Ihaven'
tseenmyal
lthedad'
s,mbuso,
scel
o,bonga
andot hermalesofthefamil
ysinceIgotinthe
house, t
heymustbebusywi ththepreparati
ons.No
oneasksaboutwher et
huli
,si
phoandbuhl eareat
andIt hi
nkthedad'ssai
dsomet hingaboutthem
missing.Ist
il
lwantthem dead,Iwasseriousabout
that
.

Wewoul dspendt henightatthehousewer ented

thenl eavei nt hemor ni
ngandcomebackwhenwe
havet osl eep.Ihavebeendoi ngnothingandj ust
helpingwher eIcan,Paulhasbeencal l
ingmenon
stopandIt hinktheysaidhecamewi t
hsomel ocal
choirandaskedf ormebutIwasasl eep.Itooksims
kidstosl eepwi thmebecauseshewasbusyand
wellbecauseMbusowi l
lcomewhenI 'm sleeping
andbegonebyt heti
meIwakeupandhewoul d
sleepl ikehe' sdeadandwhenhef i
rstsawt hem
sleepingi nourbedhesai dbutt hehousei sbi gand
hewant edt ocuddlebutthenweendedupsl eepi
ng
witht hem bet weenus.Heseemsr eallyti
redwhen
heget sinbedandIhopehe' seati
ngwel l
.
Fridaycomesandwehavet hemostbeaut if
ulnight
vigilf
orthami ,al
lhisfr
iendsfrom chi
ldhood, school
anduni versit
yshowupandsaybeaut if
ulthings
abouthi ml i
kehowhet hrewapartyhereint he
houseandi twaslikehewassayi nggoodbyecause
hekeptsayi nghel ovesthem andweal sohear
somet hingabouthi mtakingdrugsandIdon' tkeep
thatinmi nd.

Thedayoft hef uneralcomesandwegoandsee

thamiout sidetheyar dwheretheymadeal ovel
y
placetokeephi m becausehe'snotsupposet o
entertheyar dandIl ookathimf oronelastti
me
andit'
slikehewi l
lopenhi seyesandlaughandcall
mehi syel l
owbonesi ster
.Iwipemyt ears.

Me: "Youwereever
ythingasistercouldeveraskfor
i
nabr ot
herandIwillalwayscherishand
remembert heti
meswehadt ogether.Iwil
lmiss
yourloudpersonal
it
y,goofysideandadvent urous
side,Youwerenotafraidt
ogooutt hereandtr
ynew
thi
ngsandpissofyourparentsandyougotaki ck
outofi
t,youtookapeaceofmyhear twhenyoul eft
mebutIknowt hatGodhadot herplansforyouand
heneededyoumor ethanIdid.Pleasewatchover
meandsi msandourkidsbecausel if
ewillneverbe
thesamewi t
houtyouthami.Ihopeyouwi llf
orgive
meandt akeawaythisgui
ltthatIfeel
.Il
oveyou
brot
herandmayyoursoulr estinpeace".

Mbusot akesmyhandwegot ot hetentandand

waitfort heprogr
am tostartthenIseecel este
wheelingsomeonei nwithawheel chairandIl ook
closel
yi t'
sbuhleandshel ookslikeshe'snother e.
Shegoest owherethamiisandst ar
tscryingand
apologisingtohimthencomesbackandcel este
takeshert owheretheeldersar esit
tingandst ands
behindher .Il
ookatmbusot hroughmygl assesand
hekissesmycheek.

Theprogrammest
artandi
tgoeswel
landIwas
afr
aidthatt
her
ewi
llbesomehugedr
amabut
everythinggoessmoot hl
y.Wegot othecemet ery
andt heybr i
ngashovelt hathassoi landwet akeit
andt hrowi tonanot herempt yshovelandwhenI
l
ookatt hami '
scof f
ingoingdownt earsfal
l,
Ilookat
si
msandgot oherandwehugandIl etal
oudcr y
andwecr yineachot hersar ms.Icrysohard, Icry
andl eteverythingoutt hatIhavebeenkeepi ng
i
nsideabouthi sdeath.Ifeelsomeonewant ingt o
pullmeof fsimsbutIshakemyheadnoand
continuet ocr yandmbusobr ushesmybackwhi le
we'restillstandingandcr ying.

Mbuso:
"It
'sokaymyl
ove,
it'
sovernowl
etsgo"

Me:
"Idon'
twantt
oleavehi
m her
e"

Mbuso:
"pl
easebabyl
etsgo"

Me:"he'
sgoi
ngtobeal
lal
onembuso,Idon'
twant
t
oleavehim,
Ican'
t,
makehim comeback
please.
..
.wakehi
m upandt el
lhim Ist
il
lneedhim
please,
hecan'tl
eaveme!"Isobonsi msshoul der
andshe'salsocr
yingthenIfeelsomethi
ngcol dand
onmyar mt henIfeell
ikeI
'
mf loat
ingonairthenmy
eyesclose.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER25.

LUNGI
.

Hehasbeenawf ull
yqui etsi
ncewegotbackf rom
standert
onandIt hinkit'
sbecausehe' swor ri
ed
aboutmeandIdon' tblamehi m.Afterpreston
i
njectedmeIwokeupatt hehospi t
alinTrichard
andt heywerewor r
iedbutpr estonandt hedoct or
hewaswor kingwi t
hputmeonbedr estbecauseof
mybl oodpressur eevent hought hekidsarefinebut
theyarereall
ywor r
iedaboutmypr egnancy
becausenowt heysai dtheyar eatthepointofme
beinginhighr i
skifIcont i
nuet ogetupsetImi ght
l
oseoneoft hekidsorbot hofthem.
Mbusowasr eal
lyfreakingoutandhest il
lisandhe
won'tleavemysi de.Igotdi schar
gedt henextday
andwhenwegotbacki nstander
tonIwascl eansed
andmbusot oobecausewehadsexandwe
shouldn'thavedonet hatbecauseIwasmour ning.
Thami '
sgr andmother ,mahandmagumedeandt he
othereldersgavemesomet hi
ngtodri
nktopr otect
thekidssincemeandt heirdadhadsexandt hey
promisedmei twasn' tgoi
ngt ohurtt
hekidsandI
drankit,i
twast astelessandughi twasbad.

Weleftlaterthatdayandgr andmot hermademe

promiset hatI'
llcomebackt ovisi
theroncet hekids
areborn,shedi dn'twantmet oleaveandwasso
sadbutunder stoodthatIhadt ogoback.Iasked
si
mst or elocatewi t
htheki dsnextyearsowecan
al
lbei ndur banandshesai dshe'llt
hinkaboutit.I
t'
s
beenaf ewdayssi ncewe' vebeenher eandI'm at
myhouseanddaddi dn'tli
ket heideabut
understoodt hatmbusocan' tsleepi nhi
shouse
whil
ehei snotyetwel comedt raditi
onal
lyinhis
house.Wear esi t
ti
ngout sidethever anderandthe
bi
rdsar echirpi
ng,sunisshi
nninghotandthewind
i
sbl owingslowly.
..
.Il
ovethi
skindofweather,
Ilook
atmyf ianceeandhel ooksl
ikehe'
sdeepinthought
brushingmyhand.

Me:
"boo?"

Hi
m:"Iwasthi
nkingthatwegetahel
pertohelpyou
ar
oundthehousesinceyouareonbedrest"

Me:
"butmahhel
psus"

Him:"wel lt
echni call
yshe'smyauntt ooeven
thoughshe' s2year sol
derthanmeandi t
'svery
weirdthatIcal lheraunty,It
hinkI'
m goingtostart
call
inghergr annyt hatwayI'l
lthi
nkshe'sway, way
olderthanme.Ican' tbel
ieveyourgrandparents
werest i
llgett
ingi tontohaveachi l
dalmostt he
sameageast heirgrandson"wel augh
Me:"eeewwwbooIdon'
twantt
othi
nkt
hat"Ihi
t
hi
m withapi
ll
ow

Him:
"butser
iousl
ylove,mahisfami
lyandshecan'
t
behel
pingusli
keshe'sourhel
per"

Me: "Iknowandt
heyshoul
dallbefocusi
ngon
planningmyweddingandIdon'
tknowhowfarar
e
they"

Hi
m: "butIhear
dyouspeaki
ngt
osi
msi
nthe
morning"

Me:"Iaskedherandtheonl
ythi
ngshesaidi
s
ever
ythi
ngisundercontr
olbet
weenherandprest
on
andthegranni
es"

Hi
m:"Igavethem acar
dtouseonever
ythi
ngandI
t
oldt
hem theonlyti
meIwanttoknowsomethi
ngi
s
whent
heyar
egoi
ngt
otel
lmeaboutchoosi
ngsui
ts
"

Me:"hmmm Icanjusti
magineyouwear
inga
dashi
ngpi
nksuitprest
onchose"webothlaugh

Hi
m:"hel
lnobutIt
rustpr
est
onbecausehedr
esses
wel
l"

Me:"andhe'
snotyourt
ypi
calfl
amboyantgayguy,
whenyoulookathi
m you'
l
lneverknowhe'sgay
unt
ilheopenshi
smouthandstart
stal
king"we
l
augh

Hi
m:"prest
onisonef
reeandopenper
sonandIl
ike
t
hatabouthim"

Me:
"He'
sgonnabeher
eal
it
tl
elat
erf
orbr
unch"
Him:"whichi
swhyyouneedsomeonet ohelpyou
aroundthehouseandtoprepar
ebr
unch,askmah
togetyouanauntytohel
pyoubaby"

Me:
"hesai
dhewil
lbri
ngsomethi
ng,
butwegonna
bemovi
ngsoonsoIdon'
tseet
heneed"

Him:"soon?,
you'reonbedr
estandwecan'
tmove
outoftownuntilyougi
vebi
rt
handloveyouhaven'
t
evenlookedforahouse"

Me:"mbusoI 'm carr

yingtwopeople,I'
m always
hungry,hotandI '
m alwayshornyandI '
m onbed
restandgetti
ngahouset hatIreal
lywantistur
ning
outtobest r
essfulformesoIdon' tknow"

Him:"youarehotmyloveandver
yver
ysexyand
I
'm hornyaswel
l,ngi
phephel
ahaw"{pleasegi
ve
mesome}
Me:"wehadsexinthemorningmbuso, you'
renot
gett
ingsomebecauseI
'mtir
edandpr estontol
dyou
tostopsexi
ngmeandletmer est"Igi
ggleand
l
ightl
yslaphi
shandoff

Hi
m:"babythecl
othesyou'r
eweari
ngdon'thel
p,
l
ookathowhardIam rightnowandyou'
retheone
whoasksmet of
uckyouandIhavet odowhat
pl
easesmywoman"I '
m weari
ngaseethr
oughlight
l
ongdress,
nobra,noundewearandhemakesme
bl
ushwhenhesayst hat

Me:"gotakeacol
dshowerhoneyorjackof
f,
anywayasIwassayi
ngwhat'stheuseofgett
inga
hel
perherewhenwearegoi
ngtol i
veindur
ban"

Him:
"itdoesn'
tmat
ter
,whenwegetahouset
her
e
she'
l
lcomewi t
hus"

Me:
"whydoesourmai
dhavet
obeashe?"
Hi
m:"uhbecausemostmai
dsar
ewomen"

Me:
"Iwantamal
eone"

Hi
m:"what
?,hel
lno!"

Me:
"whynot
?"

Hi
m:"becausehewi
lll
ookatyou,
wantyouandI
'
ll
pr
obabl
ykillhi
m"

Me:"boonott
hosewor
dsar
oundmyki
dsandmen
al
wayslookatmeboo"

Him:"lookwhydon'tyoutakeoneoft hemaidsat
yourdad'shouse,youknowt hem andthey'
vebeen
workingforyourf
ami l
yforyears"
Me:"I
'
drat
herwehaveourownmai
dthatwecan
t
rust"

Hi
m:"butwho?"

Me:
"It
hinkmadl
ami
ni"

Hi
m:"shehasgrandki
dsthataregoi
ngt
oschool
,
whowil
ltakecar
eofthem whil
eshe'
shere?"

Me:
"shecanr
elocat
ewi
tht
hem ?"

Hi
m:"babyno,
shehasf
ivegr
andki
ds"

Me:
"exact
lyandsheneedst
hatmoney"
Hi
m:"Iknowshedoesbutthenwe'
l
lhavet
oget
t
hem school
s,buyherahouse"

Me:"yes,shecanr entt
heonei nsowetothent
he
onewe'llbuywillbepartofherpensi
onmoney,look
wedon'thavet obuyheraver yexpensi
vehousebut
j
ustenoughf orher,6bedroomsforherandeach
chi
ld,3bathrooms"

Him:"pr
opert
yisexpensi
vebabyher
eindur
banand
ahousewithasmanyr oomsasyouwantmightbe
over3mill
iom "

Me:"Iwor kedwi thpr

opertiessoIknow,booIcan
usemyownmoneyt hatIgetmoneyf rom my
sharesfrom allthebusinessthefamil
yhas,shar
e's
fr
om dad'sbusi ness.sharesfrom mybrot
her'
s
busi
nessandont opofthattheysendmemoney
ever
ymont h,yousendmemoneyt ooandit'
sall
j
ustsitt
ingt here"
Him:"Isometimesfor
getyou'
rer
ichmyloveandI
wishyou'dspendmymoneyl i
keallwomendo,
you'
llhavesharest
ooinmybusinesswhenweget
married.Canyou"

Me:"ohhoneyjustwai
tunt
ilIhavet
hesebabies
andI'
llshowyou.Soar
eweget ti
ngmadlaminiher
e?
"

Hi
m:"no!"

Me:
"whynot
,isi
taboutt
hemoney?"

Hi
m:"babyyouknowverywellit
'snotaboutt
he
money,
hellIdon'
tcar
eaboutthefuckenmoney!"

Me:
"you'
reget
ti
ngwor
kedup,
what
'swr
ong?"
Him:"I
'
m notget
ti
ngworkedup, i
t'
sjustt
hathavi
ng
herher
ewillr
emindmeofhowIusedt otr
eatyou
l
oveandIdon'twantt
hatforus.Iwanttofor
get
aboutt
hatti
me"

Me:"wearepastt
hatbooandI'
m suresheknowsI
f
orgaveyouandyousaidi
tyoursel
fthatshe
missesme"

Him:"Ioncefuckedhi sdaughterswhenshegot
si
ckt womont hsaftershestartedworki
ngforme,
onedayt hi
soneshowedupt ocleanandIfucked
herandthenextdayanot heroneshowedupandI
didthesame.Idon'twantt hem toshowupi nfut
ure
andcausepr obl
emsf orusmyl ovebecausethey
tr
ouble"Godmbusoanddi ckofhishekeeps
dippi
nginmanyt hingsmxm!

Me:
"that
'
swhatyou'
reaf
rai
dof
?"
Him:"yesandyou'
llgetupsetandmaybeleaveme
becauseofmyfuckeduppast ..
.babyI
'
m sorr
yI
shouldn'
thavet
oldyout hat"

Me:"doIneedtopr
epar
emyselft
hatonedaysome
womanisgoingtoshowupandclai
mtohaveakid
orki
dswithyou?"

Him:
"nobabyIswearthat'
snevergoi
ngtohappen.
Theonl
ywomanIwantt ohavekidswithi
syou,
you'
ret
heonlyonewho'l
lcarr
ymyseedandbi r
th
mychil
dren"
.

Me:"don' twor
ryaboutmamdl amini
'
sdaughters,i
f
theythinktheycancomeandcausepr oblemsf or
usthent heyclear
lydon'
tknowyoumrgumedeand
Iknowt hatyouhaveapastandwecan' tchangeit.I
don'tcareaboutthefl
avorsofthemonthbecause
I'
,mthei tboo"
Hi
m:"yesyouar
e"heki
ssesme

Me:
"ar
etheyst
il
lal
ive?"

Hi
m:"babyno!"

Me:
"Iwantyoutonotki
llt
hem unt
ilIhavedel
iver
ed
myki
dsbecauseIwanttoconf
rontthem "

Hi
m:"babypl
ease!"

Me:"Iwasn'
tplayi
ngwhenIsaidIwantt
hem dead
mbuso,Iwantthem t
odiebutaft
ert
heyshehas
t
oldmeeverythingIwantt
oknow"

Hi
m:"Idon'
tthi
nkyourdadwi
llagr
ee"
Me:
"I'
l
ltel
lhi
m,wel
lI'
l
laskhi
m"

Hi
m:"whyi
siti
mpor
tantt
oyout
owantt
obet
her
e?
"

Me:"becauseIwantcl
osur
esoIcanmoveon
wholeheartedl
yfr
om t
hem "

Him:"wecanrecor
dthem andaskthem what
ever
youneedtoknow,youdon'thavet
obeinthesame
room ast
hem "

Me:
"butIwantt
olookatt
hem i
nthef
ace"

Him:"al
lthi
stal
kismaki
ngmehungr
y"andhe
changesthesubj
ect

Me:
"don'
tyoumi
sswor
k?"
Hi
m:"Iworkf
rom homebaby,
bei
ngabosshas
t
hoseper
ks"

Me:"butsomet
imesyoumustbeatt
heof
fi
cecause
you'
reneeded"

Him:"ar
eyoualr
eadybor
edwithme?"hesays
scrat
chi
nghisbear
dandpout
ingtr
yingt
olookl
ike
he'
shurtandIl
aughathi
m.

Me:
"nobaby,
Ienj
oyhavi
ngyouher
e"

Hi
m:"butwhat
?"

Me:"you'
reamanwhoenj
oysworkingandIcan
seethatyoumi
ssbei
nghandsoninyourbusi
ness"
Him:"maybeIdobutIl
ovebei
ngherewithyouand
asIhavetol
dyouthatI
'
llmovetheheadquart
esto
durbanf
oryouandI'
m busydoi
ngthat"

Me:
"what
?,when?"I
'
m exci
ted

Him: "Iboughtapieceofl
andandwel lsinceyour
brotherisanengineerandbongaisanar chi
tectI
hi
redt hem tobuil
dmyof f
icef
rom scratchandI '
ll
beseei ngthesecuri
tyst
uffwhi
chbringsmet othis
point"

Me:
"whi
chi
swhat
?"

Him:
"Iwantt
obui l
dyouahouseandandyoucan
desi
gni
twhateverwayyouwant ,Idon'
twanttol
ive
i
nahousesomeoneel sebui
ltbabypleasehoney
l
ove"
Me:
"wecanal
waysr
enovat
ethough"

Hi
m:"i
ttakesl
ong,
it'
sbet
teri
fwebui
ldi
ttheway
webot
hwant'

Me:
"okdoi
t.howl
ongdoyout
hinki
twi
llt
ake?"

Hi
m:"Ibought3housesi
nmount-egdecombeand
t
heyarealr
eadybei
ngdemol
ishedaswespeakand
wearegoi
ngtobuil
dahouseforthishugef
amily
wehave"

Me:
"Il
iket
hesoundoft
hat"Ismi
le

Him:
"canwet akeabreakfr
om ever
yoneandgo
awayforsometi
mej ustt
hetwoofusbeforet
he
ki
dsareborn?"
Me:"IwantthatbutIt
hinkweshoul
ddoi
twhent
he
negoti
ati
onsaredone"

Him:"that'
sfi
newit
hme.Ijuswantyoual
lto
mysel f
,nostr
essnoanyt
hingj
ustl
otsofsex,
food
andr est"myphoneri
ngsandi
t'
sanumberIdon't
recognise

Me:
"hel
lo?"

Voice:
"hel l
olungi"i
t'
samal evoi
ceIdon't
recogniseandhesaysmynamel ikeheknowsme
andthatscar esme,Iputmyphoneonl oudspeaker
thensignalformbusot okeepqui
etandhel ooksat
meconf used.

Me:
"whoi
sthi
s?"

Hi
m:"Iknowyoubutyoudon'
tknowme"mbuso
getsupandtakeshislapt
opandst ar
ttotypeandI
thi
nkhe'st
ryi
ngtotrackthecal
lthentakeshis
cel
lphoneandtypesagain

Me:
"canIhel
pyouwi
thsomet
hing?"

Him:"hest
oleyouf
rom meandIwantwhat
'smi
ne
back?"

Me:
"excuseyou?"Il
augh

Boo:
"whothef
uckist
hisandwhatt
hehel
ldoyou
wantfr
om mywif
e?"

Him:
"she'snotyetyourwife,youst
oleherfrom me!,
shewassupposet obecarryingmykidsnowbut
youandthatfamil
ystoleherandIwantherback"
mbusotakesthephonef r
om meget smeup, t
akes
thet
hrowblanketandcover smewithit
,takeshis
l
aptopgivesi
ttomet
akest
hecarkeysandI
'
m
l
it
eral
lyshaki
ng

Boo:
"tellmewhot hef
uckyouaresowecanmeet
andsortthi
soutmantomanandwhyt hefuckdi
d
youcallmywifeandnotme?"weleavet
hehouse
andgetinthecarandhedri
vesout

Him:"Iwantherback,
she'
smi
neandIwi
llgether
back!"

Boo:"Iwil
lfindyouwhereeveryouareandwhenI
do,youwi l
lwishyounevercal
ledmywi f
eand
scaredher.Iwil
lki
llyouwit
hmybar ehands"Il
ook
athim andseenoemot ionoranyt
hingandhe'
s
dri
vingfast

Hi
m: "noti
fIki
llyouf
ir
st!
,she'smi
negumedeandI
am goingtot
akeherbackjustwat
chandsee"hi
s
l
aptoppingsandIthi
nkhef oundt
hel
ocat
ion,
Isee
anothercardri
vingbehinduscloseandIstartt
oget
scared.Il
ookatmbusoandheseest hecarand
pressestheaccelar
atorandoffitgoesandIcan
seewe'realmosthomeandt hatcarissti
llf
oll
owing
us

Boo:
"we'r
ealmosthomebabydon'
tworry,
don'
t
pani
ck,
nothi
ngisgoingt
ohappentoyou"

Hi
m:"shei
smi
nenotyour
syouhearme!"

Boo:"Isweari
fmywif
elosesherkids,
Iwillki
llal
l
yourfamil
ymembersi
nfrontofyoubefor
eIkillyou
myself"

Him:"mightygumede,yout
hinkIdon'
tknowyou?
,
youthi
nkr ubbi
ngandrunni
ngshoulder
switht
hat
hugefamilyisgoi
ngtosaveyou?"
Boo:"soit
'snotaboutmeandmywi f
e,i
t'
sabout
them!,whatthefuckdoyouwantfrom me!
?"the
securi
tyhasalreadyopenthegat
eandwegeti n
andthecarthatwasf ol
lowi
ngusstopsoutsi
de

Him:"Iwantwhatwaspr omisedtome.Iwantmy
LUNGIBACK!"heshout sthi
sguyisapsychoI
'm
nowhi swhatthefuck!
?.Mydadisalreadywai
ti
ng
forus.Igetoutofthecarandgotomydad

Boo:
"whot
hef
uckpr
omi
sedyoumywi
fe?"

Hi
m:"you'
l
lsoonf
indoutgumede"

Mbuso:"Enough!,
thisst
opsnowl i
tt
leboy.You
l
ist
entomeandl i
stencaref
ully,youbetterrunand
hopetoyourfuckedupancer storsthatIdon'tf
ind
youcauseyou'r
eadeadmanwal ki
ng!"
Him:"ohhhhI'
m scar
edl
ookatmeshaki
ng"t
his
psycholaughs

Boo:
"Idon'
tmakei
dlet
hreat
s,Iwil
lfi
ndyouandI'
m
goi
ngtomakeanexampleoutofyoutoever
yonet
o
NEVEREVERFUCKWI THMEANDTHEONE' SI
LOVEMOTHERFUCKER!"

Him:
"comewi
tht
hem,
alloft
hem I
'
m notscar
edof
youal
l"

Boo:
"watchyourbackandsl
eepwi
thoneeyeopen
"hehangsupandlooksatme.

Dad:
"let
sgeti
nthehouse"

Me:
"thatcart
hatwasfol
lowingusi
sst
il
latt
hegat
e,
t
heywanttoenterwhati
fit
'shi
m?"
Boo:
"you'
resaf
ebabynot
hingi
sgoi
ngt
ohappent
o
you"

Me:"mbusowhycan' tmyl
ifebenormall
ike
everyoneel
se'
s?,j
ustwhenIthi
nkIcanbreathand
rel
axcauseallt
hepeoplewhomeantmehar m are
heldsomewhereandnowt hi
s?,whyme?"

Him:"it
'sokaybabydon' tworry,you'
llupsetthekids
andthispersoni st
alki
ngr ubbish.Don'tupset
yourself"he'
sright
,myki dscomef i
rstbutitseems
thattheuniver
sedoesn'twantmet ohavet hese
kidsImeanwhatel secoul ditbe?.

Dad:"we'llfi
ndwhoeveriti
sbabydon'tworr
y.Your
auntisint hehousego"Igetinthehouseandleave
them outsideandtheyIseethem goi
ngtothegate.
CHAPTER26.

AYANDA
Ihavebeenoutoft hehospi t
alandstayingat
karabo'
splaceandi thasbeengoodIguess
becauseIhaven'theardfrom tshepoandhei s
nowheretobef ound.Imovedbackt omypl ace
aft
erIstayedatkarabo'splaceforaweekandl il
ly
hasgoneonami niholidaywithpapasmur fand
shedoescal lt
oletusknowhowshe' sdoi ngand
whattheyar edoi
ngandshesoundsr eall
yhappy
anditmakesmewonderwhatl i
ll
yreall
ythinks
aboutthi
sr el
ati
onshipshehaswi t
hmar k.

Thebusi nesssufferedsinceIwasatt hehospit

al
andl i
l
lygonet oodidn'thelpatallbecause
everythingwasonkar abo'sshoul ders.Idon'
thave
acarbecauseoft shepoandi twasn' ti
nsured
becausei nsur
ancet hesedaysi sr eal
lyexpensi
ve
especiallyforsecondhandcar sandI '
m now
regr
ettingnoti nsuri
ngi tbecausei t'
sbacktotaxi
s
againf orme.
Thebr uiseshavegonedownonmybodybutmy
facehasn' texactlygot tenthememobecausemy
l
ef teyestil
lhasal tt
lebr ui
sethatcoverwit
h
makeup.Iavoi dedgoi ngoutespeci al
lyt
othemal l
causet hef i
rsttimeIwentt hereaft
erIgotback
from thehospi talthelookspeopl egavemeyou
couldseepi tyandj ugdementf rom ot
hersandIt old
mysel fI'
m goingt ol eavemyf latwhenI'
m allhealed
up.

Ikeptst ari
ngatmyphonewi shi
ngt hatscel
owoul d
callmeorevenshowupwher eIl
ivebutIhaven't
seenort al
kedt ohi
m sincethelasttimeIsawhi m
atthehospi tal.I
thurt
smewhenIt hinkabout
maybehej ustcouldn'thandlemydr amaeven
thoughhesai dhe'sseri
ousaboutmebutwi t
hwi t
h
ment hesedaysyoucanneverknowandIst i
llf
ind
i
thar dtobel i
eveagoodl ooki
ngmanl i
kehimi s
singl
e...
hemi ghtbebutIknowhe' sget t
ingsome
from someonecausehedoesn' tl
ookl i
kethetype
thatwillbecel ebat
e.
Karabo:
"It
hinkt
hatcount
eri
ssqueekycl
eannow
aya"damn

Me:"Iwasn'
tevenawaret
hatI
'vebeenwi
pingt
he
samespotagainandagai
n"Isigh

Kar
abo:
"what
'sbot
her
ingyou?"

Me:
"it
'sscel
o,Ihaven'
theardfr
om hi
m andIthink
maybehechangedhismi ndaboutmeand..
.."

Karabo:"IsawhimtwiceandIcan'texactlysayt hat
heisthatkindofper
sonwhoj ustwalksawayf rom
somethingtheywantwhichisyouandf r
om what
youtoldmeabouthim, hesoundsl i
keabusyman
andmaybehe' sbusywithworkandwi llcallyou
andseeyouwhenheget sti
meayandaman" .

Me:
"yeahmaybe"
Her:
"Ican'
twai
ttoseehi
m agai
nandj
ustl
ookat
hi
m"

Me:
"youcanl
ookbutdon'
ttouch"

Her
:"Ijustwantt
ogetj
ustonehugf
rom hi
m and
f
eelthosemusclest
henI'
l
lbefi
ne"

Me:"Ihopeyoudon'
tfant
asi
zeabouthi
m when
you'
resleepi
ng"

Her
:"me?
,never"shebl
ushes

Me:"youhai
ff
erIcan'tbel
ieveyou"It
hrowt
hedi
sh
cl
othatherandwel augh

Her
:"wehaven'
tgot
tenanyor
der
sforawhi
lenow"
Me:"IknowbutIhopesomet hi
ngwi
llcomeupsoon
orelsewear egoi
ngtostar
veorwe'
l
lhavetoshut
thebusinessandlookf
orjobs"

Her:
"IknowbutIhavefai
ththatsomet
hingwillpop
upanddon'tf
orgetwehaveapageonal lsoci
al
mediaandwereonthedatabasetoosodon'tworry
aya"

Me:
"Iwi
shIwasl
il
lynow"

Her:
"met oo"wegiggl
ethenwehearthedoor
openi
ngandwel ookupandit
'sscel
oandhelooks
absol
utel
ygorgeous.

Him:"goodaf t
ernoonladi
es"hesmi lesandmy
heartmelts,
he'swear i
ngblackshortandayel l
ow
pologolfshi
rtandt r
ackshoes,baseballhatandhe
l
ookssodamnsexy.
Me:
"hel
lo"Ismi
le

Him:"Imissedyou"thenhesmilesandIhear
karabosighandIlookatherandshelooksl
ike
she'sabouttodr
ooljesuskar
aboandher
wonderingeyes.

Me:
"scelot
hisi
smybestfri
endkar
abo,
Ithi
nkyou
r
ememberherandkarabst
hisi
sscel
othemanI
wastel
li
ngyouabout"

Her
:"Ist
il
lrememberhi
m aya,
howar
eyouscel
o?"

Hi
m:"I
'
m goodkar
abo"

Me:
"canyouexcuseuskar
abs?"
Her
:"sur
e,ni
cemeet
ingyousi
cel
o"

Hi
m:"l
ikewi
se"karabsl
eavesusal
oneandIj
ust
st
andt
hereandlookawkward.

Me:
"howar
eyou?"

Hi
m:"Imi
ssedyou"Ismi
le

Me:
"It
houghtyouf
orgor
taboutme"

Him:
"comeandki
ssmet
oremi
ndmewhoyouar
e
agai
n"

Me:
"that
'
snotf
unny"

Hi
m:"comeher
eandki
ssyourman"
Me:
"someonemi
ghtwal
kin"

Hi
m:"andyoucar
ebecause?"

Me:
"becausei
t'
smywor kpl
aceandIdon'
twantt
o
makeanyonef
eel.
.uhm uncomfor
tabl
e"

Him: "you'r
emaki ngmef eeluncomf or
tablecause
you' r
erefusingtokissme.Getyourcut ebut tover
here"Ismi leandleavethecount erandgot ohi m
andassoonasIst andnextt ohi m,hegrabsmy
wai standt hatmakesmeputmyhandsonhi shard
chestandIf eelmybodyr eact
ing.Hebr i
ngshi s
facedownandl ooksatmyl i
psandIi nvoluntar
y
l
ickt hem andheki ssesandIst andonmyt oesand
kisshi m backandi tf
eel
ssodamngood.If eelhis
handsgodownandt heygr abmyassandand
bringsitcloseandIf eelhishardgi r
thpokingmy
stomachandImoanandt rytopulloutfrom the
ki
ssbuthet
akeshisotherhandandhol
dsmyhead
andki
ssest
heli
vingdaylight
soutofme.

Me:
"scel
o..
."

Hi
m:"hmmmm"

Me:
"st
op.
..
."andhedoesandl
ooksatme

Hi
m:"I'
m sorr
yIgotcar
ri
edaway,
Ijustmissedyou
t
hat'
sall"hehugsmeandhesmell
sgr eatt
oo

Me:
"Imi
ssedyout
oo"

Hi
m:"canIuseyourbat
hroom qui
ck?"

Me:
"yeahsur
e,i
t'
sinmyof
fi
cef
oll
owme"
Hi
m:"Idon'
tthi
nkthat'
sagoodideatobeal
one
wi
thyouinyourof
ficebecauseIwantt
odoso
manythi
ngstoyou"

Me:
"okI'
l
lshowyouandleave"Ist
epbackand
l
ookathi
spant
sandhisdickispoi
nti
ngf
orwar
d.

Me:"youmi ghtwanttocovert
hatcauseIdon't
wantkarabot osee"hepull
shispol
oshirtoffhi
s
wai
standi ttr
iestocoveri
tbutyoucanstil
lseehis
di
ck

Hi
m:"yout
hinkshemi
ghtl
ikewhatshesees?"

Me:"shewi
ll
,yousawt
hewayshewasl
ooki
ngat
you"

Hi
m:"doIneedt
ogetwor
ri
edaboutyourf
ri
ends?"
Me:"no,
theywoul
dneverhitonyou"Igi
ggl
ewel
l
kar
abowon'tbutl
il
ly?
,I'
m notsosur
e

Hefol
lowsmetotheoffi
ceandthankGodkar
aboi
s
nott
here,
Ishowhim ourmi
nibathr
oom

Me:"areyougoingtojackoff
?"ohhel
lnoIdidnot
j
ustaskhimt hatandhelooksatmesurpr
isedand
shockedthatIaskedhimthat.

Him:"Iwasgoi
ngtojustpourcol
dwat
eronitbut
heyifyoucoul
dhel
pmeoutI '
l
lbemor
ethan
welcome"hesayslooki
ngatmeamused

Me:"here'
smyfaceclot
husei
ttowi
peyour
sel
f
af
terthecoldwat
erhascal
medyoudown.

Hi
m:"cl
oseandl
ockt
hedoor"hesaysunbuckl
ing
hi
spant
s

Me:
"scel
o..
."

Him:"doit"Ilockthedoorandtur
nandl ookathi
m
andIthinkhe'sgoingtowantusto.
...
.doIwant
that
?.Het akesoffhi
spantssamet i
mewi thhi
s
underwearandIseehi shugedi
ckspr i
ngingfr
ee
andIclosemyeyesbl ushing

Hi
m:"what
'swr
ongyaya?"

Me:
"uhmmm not
hing"

Hi
m:"t
henl
ookatme"

Me:
"uhm nope"
Him:"youmi
ghtaswel
llookcausethet
woofyou
soonaregoi
ngtobereall
ygreatr
oommates

Me:
"roommat
es?"

Him:"yeshe'
sgoi
ngt
obeli
vingi
nther
esoon"I
shakemyheadandsmil
e

Me:"canyoupl
easegot
othebat
hroom andhel
p
yoursel
f?"

Him:
"ar
esur
eyoudon'
twannal
ook,t
ouchand
smel
lhi
m?"gosht
hewayhesaysit

Me:"scel
oman"heputt hatthoughti
nmyheadand
I'
m surei
t'
stheonl
ythi
ngI '
m goingtobet
hinki
ng
aboutnow
Him:"okopenyoureyesmyyaya"Iopenmyeyes
andseehisver ycutebehindgoi ngtothebat hroom
andsomet hingheavyhangi ngbetweenhi slegsand
Iswall
owhar d.Hispantsandunder wearar eont op
ofmyt abl
eandIj usttogot her
eandt ouchhis
underwearandf eeli
t.Ihearthewat ersplashing
andhecur sesandIal mostgot herethinkingthat
maybehe'shur tbutnopeI '
m notgoingt here.

Me:
"ar
eyouokayi
nther
e?"

Hi
m:"yeah.
..
youwantt
ohel
pme?"

Me:"no!"helaughsthi
sfool
.Hecomesbackaft
era
f
ewmi nutesandIlookathim agai
nandhel
ooks
l
ikehe'
sstil
lhard

Me:
"di
dn'
tthewat
erhel
phi
m?"
Hi
m:"Idi
dunt
ilhef
eltyoureyesonhi
m agai
n"

Me:
"putonsomecl
othespl
ease"

Hi
m:"Il
ikewal
kingar
oundnaked"

Me:"kar
abomi
ghtknockandGodknowswhatwi
ll
shesee"

Hi
m:"am Imaki
ngyouf
eel
uncomf
ort
abl
e?"

Me:"yes"hetakeshi
sunder
wearandwearsi
tand
GodIjustwanttoputmyhandsi
nsidet
her
e..
..
they
ar
eitchi
ngformet odoi
t

Hi
m:"Ilef
tyourf
acecl
otht
her
e,di
dn'
tknowwher
e
t
oputit"
Me:"I'
l
ltakecareofi
t"Igotothebat
hroom,
seeit
andIpickinupandimaginehi
sdickandbal
ls
movingallovermyfacecl
othandIgetwetj
ust
thi
nki
ngabouti t
.

Him:"ar
eyouokayyaya?"I'
m daydr
eami
ngabout
scel
odickandbal
lswhatiswrongwit
hme?

Me:
"I'
m comi
ng"

Him:"noyayayouwon'
tbesayi
ngi
tli
ket
hatwhen
I
'm makingyoucome"

Me:
"youhavesuchaf
il
thymout
h"

Him:"andyouloveit"heput
shispantsonagain
andfixeshe'
sclot
hesandIgetali
ttl
ejealouswhen
Ithi
nkhecouldhavebeenwithsomeot herwoman.
Me:
"uhm youwantt
osi
tdown?"

Him:"Iwantt
otakeyououtf
orl
atel
unch,
areyou
guysbusy?"

Me:
"nobusinesshasbeensl
owsi
nceI
'
vebeen
r
ecover
ing"

Hi
m:"whatwer
eyourpar
tner
sdoi
ng?"

Me:"wellkar
absisamesswhenitcomest o
cooki
ngandshemost l
ydealswit
hpaperworkand
l
il
lywellshelef
twit
hherboyf
ri
endtheyareona
miniholi
day"

Hi
m:"mar
kwentonahol
iday?
,that
'ssounl
ikehi
m"
ohboy
Me:
"uhmmm,
it'
snotmar
k"her
aiseshi
seyebr
ow

Hi
m:"shehast
woboyf
ri
ends?"

Me:
"yeahl
etsputi
tli
ket
hat"

Hi
m:"hmmm "

Me:
"what
?"

Hi
m:"not
hing,
let
sgo"

Me:"canyouwai
tformeatt
hef
ront
,Iwantt
o
f
reshenup"

Him:
"butIfr
eshenedupwi
thyouher
e,whycan'
t
youdothesame?"
Me:"becauseI
'm notf
orwar
dli
keyou"hechuckl
es
anditsoundssexy

Hi
m:"youhaveasmar
tmout
hyaya"

Me:
"Iknow,
itcangetmei
ntot
roubl
esomet
imes"

Hi
m:"Ialr
eadyseet
hat
.I'
l
lgochatt
okar
abodon'
t
t
akelong"

Me:"ok"heki
ssesmet
henl
eavesandIt
akeadeep
br
eathout

Ilockthedoortakeoffmyclothesthent
akemy
toil
etr
ybackandqui ckl
ygetintheshowerand
showerfastusingmyf acecl
othscelousedtowipe
hisdick,
aft
erI'
m doneImost uri
seandlookformy
backofclothesthatIal
wayskeepwearf r
eshclean
underwearincase,wearmysummerdr essthenmy
sandalsandcombmyhai r,
putonmakeupt ocover
myeye, hugehoopear ings,per
fumethentakemy
bagandsungl assesandl eavetheoff
iceandIfind
karaboandscelotalki
ngt hentheyl
aughandhehas
abeautif
ulwhitefullt
eethsigh.

Me:
"Ihopeyout
woar
enott
alki
ngaboutme"

Hi
m: "wowyayayoul
ookbeaut
if
ul"hecomesand
ki
ssesmycheek

Me:
"thankyou"

Kar
abo:
"wowheevenhasapetnamef
oryoui
sn'
t
hej
ustamazi
ngyaya?"

Me:"wi
pethatdreamylookof
fyourf
acekarabo
andper
fectwellIdon'
tknowknowaboutt
hatcause
forallIknowhecoul
dbeawomanunder
neat
h"he
smirksandshakeshi
shead

Him:"t
hedayI'm goi
ngtofuckt
hissmar
tnessout
ofyou,you'
l
lknowI '
m amanbaby"hewhisper
sin
myear

Me:"Idon'tthi
nkyou'
lll
astmor et
hatfi
veminut
es"
hechucklesandIknowI '
m pushi
ngandIdon'
t
knowwhymaybeI 'm st
illpi
ssedt
hathehasn'
ttol
d
mewhyhe' sbeenmissingandnotcall
ingme.

Him:"I
'm notgoi
ngtotouchyouandfuckyouunt
il
youbegmet odoitandbabyi
t'
snotgonnabeeasy
toconvi
nceme"

Me:"hmm itt
ookyoulesst
hanfiveminut
estoget
har
dandyoual mostcameinyourpantski
ssi
ngme
sowe'l
lseewhowillbegwho"
Hi
m:"i
sthatabetmi
ssmaseko?"

Me:
"noi
t'
sapr
omi
se"

Hi
m:"you'
repl
ayi
ngadanger
ousgameandyouwi
ll
l
ose"

Me:
"weshal
lseet
hen"

Karabo:
"wow!,
youtwoarehavi
ngthi
sconversat
ion
i
nfrontofmeandyoudon'
tevencar
ethatIcan
hearyou?"

Me:
"you'
'
renotavi
rgi
nkar
abo"

Hi
m:"l
etsgo"

Me:
"lockupkar
abs,
I'
llseeyoul
ater"
Her
:"havef
unandusel
otsofcondoms"

Me:"byefr
iend"mbusolooksatmeandIf
eela
sl
ighttr
emoroffear
,damnmeandmybi gmouth.

Hi
m:"af
teryou"

Weleavet
hebakeryandgetinhi
scarwowi t
's
BMW M8thenhedr i
vcesof
fsil
ent
yandIlookat
hi
m andhelooksatmesmilesandthehai
ronthe
backofmyneckstands.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER26.

AYANDA.

Thewayhe'
sgri
pingthest
eer
ingwheeli
t'
slikehe'
s
pi
ssedandt
hatscaresmebecausei
tremindsme
ofhowt shepowoul dgetwhenervhewasupsethe
woulddot hesamet hingbeforeIfeelahotsl
apon
myf acebutobviouslyIdon'
tlearnbecausetheway
It
alkedtohimi nfr
ontofkaraboisnotokayatall
.

Me:
"wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?"Idi
dn'
twantt
osayt
hat

Hi
m:"we'
regoi
ngt
oeat"

Me:
"Iknowbutwher
e?"

Hi
m:"doesi
tmatter
?"hest
il
lwon'
tlookatme,
I
wanthi
mtolookatme.

Me:
"Iguessnot"

Hi
m:"ar
eyoui
nahur
ryt
obesomewher
e?"
Me:
"noIdon'
t"

Hi
m:"t
hencanIpl
easedr
ive?"

Me:
"don'
tsnapatme!"

Hi
m:"di
dIsnapatyou?"hel
ooksatmeannoyed

Me:
"yes,
thewayyouanswer
edme"

Hi
m:"i
sitt
hatt
imeoft
hemont
h?"

Me:
"whatno!
,whywoul
dyouevenaskmet
hat
?"

Him:"becauseyou'r
emoodyasf uckandnott
he
sweetwomanIl eftatt
hehospi
tal"
Me:"yeahthelastti
meIsawyouandyoudi dn'
t
evenbothert
ocal lmeandf
indouti
fI'
m okay"

Him:"whydidn'
tyoucal
lmetoo, tofi
ndoutifI
'
m
okay?.Icoul
dhavebeendeadandmyf amil
ywould
haveburiedmebutyouwouldn'tknowbecauseyou
di
dn'teventhi
nkofcal
li
ngme, didyoueventhi
nkof
doingthat?"

Me:"howwil
lIcal
lyouwhenIdon'tevenhaveyour
phonenumberscel
o?"helooksatmeshakeshis
headthent
akesouthi
sphone

Me:
"pleasekeepyoureyesont
her oad"heignor
es
methenhetapssti
lldr
ivi
ngandlookingatt
heroad

Me:"don'
tyouknowt her ul
esoft
heroad?,
no
dri
vingortext
ingortal
kingonthephonewit
hone
handwhiledri
ving"ugh!
Him:"I'
vebeendr i
vingevenbef
oreyouwerebor n"
hetapst henIhearmyphoner i
ngingandItakemy
bagandf i
shfori
t,f
inditandwhenIlookatthe
screenitsays{yourmani scal
li
ng}andIlaugh

Me:
"youar
esof
ull
ofyour
sel
f"

Hi
m:"i
nsul
tmeyayaagai
nyaya"

Me:
"fuckyouscel
o"hechuckl
es.

Idon'tknowwhyIactar oundhimt hiswayandI

can'
thel pmyselfbecausef ort
hef i
rstti
mehe
makesmef eelli
keIcanbemysel faroundhim andI
l
ikethatabouthim.Idon' thavetopretendtobe
someoneel se,Icanjustbemysel f.Ohmyf ucken
Godhe' staki
ngmet ot heShanduKaNdaba
Resturant,f
rom thefamousMbat haf amilyOhmy
GodIhaveal wayswant edtocomeher e.
Me:"wowscel
othi
spl
aceisamazi
ng,Ihavealways
wantedt
ocomeheret
hankyou"Ihughim exci
ted

Hi
m:"l
ookwho'
stouchi
ngwhonow"hesmi
rks

Me:
"fuckof
fscel
o"

Hi
m:"hmm"hechuckl
es

Me:"wai
t,don'
tyouhavet
obooki
nadvancet
o
comehere?"

Him:
"let
sjustsayIknowsomeonewhoknows
someone"

Me:
"wowi
mpr
essed"awai
tr
esscomes

Her
:"hel
loI
'
mthandiandI
'
m goi
ngt
obeyour
wai
tr
ess,di
dyour
eser
veat
abl
eorcanIgetyoua
t
abl
efortwo?"

Sicelo:"wehavear eservati
onsicel
ombat ha"Iwill
nevergetoverhowhepr onounceshisname,he
saysi tinf
ullnotscelobutsicel
oyoht hi
sman! .I
giggleandhel ooksatmeandourwat r
essherehas
hereyesal lovermyman' sbody.Shetakesouther
tabletanddoessomet hi
ng

Her:"ohhereiti
s,pl
easefol
lowmemrngcobo"we
fol
lowherandmygi rlherei
sshakingherbootyand
Ial
mostl augh.Il
ookatsceloandhe'slooki
ngati
t.
Iel
bowhi m andhepretendsthatIhur
thim.

Hi
m:"what
?"

Me:"dot
hatagai
nandI
'
m goi
ngt
otakeoutyour
eyes"
Hi
m:"ohhyouar
ejeal
ous"

Me:
"ohpl
ease!"Ir
ollmyeyes

Hi
m:"don'
twor
ryyaya,
yourassi
stheonl
yoneI
want"

Me:"ofcourseyoudocauseI '
mt heonlyonewho
canstandyou"hel aughsadeepbel l
ylaughand
meandt handilookathim.Idon'
tblameherbutshe
hastostopit,
it'
senoughnow.

Me:
"ist
hisourt
abl
ethandi
?"

Her
:"ohyesi
tis"shel
ooksf
lust
ered

Me:
"youcanl
ookathi
m buthi
sdi
ckonlyget
shard
f
orme,It
ookhi
mtomygr andmot
herandshedi
d
thethi
ngs.WatchwhatI '
m goingtosay.Babyyou
knowthatI'
mf uckingyourbestfr
iendandyouat
thesametimeandyou' reokaywiththatr
ight
?"God
whatam Idoing,sceloi
sgoingtokillme,hel
ooks
atmeandsmi r
ks.

Him:
"yesmyloveIknowandIdon'
tmi
ndbecauseI
shar
ewithmybrot
hers"

Her:
"wowsist
er,canyoupl
easehookmeupwi
th
yourgr
andmothertoo?"

Me:"remi
ndmewhenIl eave"shenodsthengives
usourmenusandIor derredmineandsceloorders
whiskeyt
henorderourfoodthensheleaves.We
l
ookateachotherinsil
encethenlaughourasses
of
fandsomepeopl elookatuslikewe'
recrazy.

Hi
m:"ohaya,
aya,
aya.Youar
etr
oubl
e"
Me:"that'
sbecauseyoubr
ingoutthebesti
nme"
helooksatmei nt
ensel
yandIstar
ttoget
uncomf or
tabl
e.

Hi
m:"your
eal
lymeant
hat
?"

Me:"yeah,
fort
hefi
rstt
imeinmyl
ifeIf
eelli
keIcan
bemyselfandi
t'
syouwho'smaki
ngmef eelthat
way"

Him:"I'
m gl
adtohearthatbutIcan'
ttakeal
lthe
credi
t.You'
ret
aki
ngyourl i
febackinyourhands
andyou'redoi
nggreatbaby"

Me:"thankyou"ourstart
ercomesandwedi gin,
thefoodinthi
splaceisoutofthisworl
d.Wet alk
andwel aughalotandIcan'
tremembert helast
ti
meIwast hi
shappyandcar ef
reenotworrying
aboutpissi
ngsomeoneof f.
Hi
m:"you'
ref
rowni
ng,
whatar
eyout
hinki
ngabout
?
"

Me:
"wher
ewer
eyou?"

Him:"AfterIleftyouatthehospitalwhenIgott omy
place,
mysi st
er'sfi
anceewast herewithhisbrother
,
Itakethem asmybr other
sthat'
showcl osewear e
andsowegotacal lthatmysister'
sotherbrother
wasshotandwehadt ogotonewcast l
eandwe
foundoutt hathedied.Hewasf r
om Standertonand
wehadt ogot hereandhelpwiththefuneralandmy
sist
erispregnantandsoherf ianceehadt otellher
andshet ooki tbett
erthanwethought"

Me:"wow,
I'
m sosor
ryforyourl
ossscel
o"I
ttake
hi
shandtomineandholdit
.

Hi
m:"Iwouldt
ellyousomeothert
imehowwe'r
eall
r
elat
edcausei
t'
sal ongst
ory.Mysist
eront
heday
ofthefuneralwascryi
nghardandsoprest
onwho's
adoctorinj
ectedhertocal
m herdownandshewas
takent
ot hehospit
alandshe'
snowonbedr est"

Me:
"Ihopeshe'
sokaynowandt
hebabyi
sfi
ne"

Him:
"sheis,she'sonestrongwomanandwhenyou
meetheryouaregoi ngtoseewhatanamazi
ng
womanshei s"hesmi lesandyoucanseet
helove
hehasforhi
ssi ster
.

Me:"Ican'
twai
t"Ireal
lymeani
tandIwonderi
f
she'
sanythi
ngli
kehim.

Hi
m:"youwantt
oseeher?"

Me:
"yespl ease"hetakesouthi
sphoneandhehas
api
ctureofherashisscreensaverandIfeelast
ab
ofj
ealousythati
tshouldbemet her
ethenIfeel
gui
lt
yhowcanIbej
eal
ousofhi
ssi
stermyGod
whatiswr
ongwi
thme?!
.

Heunl ockshi sphonewi thhisthumbt hengoesto

hisgallerythenheshowsmepi cturesoft hemost
beautifulgirlIhaveeverseen.Wowt hat'shissi
ster
andshel ooksl i
kehi m eventhoughshe' slight
skinnedandherhai risinsaneandshehasaver y
beautifulwar m, ki
ndsmi l
ethat'
sveryi nvit
ingandI
smi l
ebackandj ustlookingatherpictureyoucan
feelheraur ait'
sver ycalm andpoi sti
ve"heshows
meot herpi cturesofherandI '
mi nawe, thenhe
showsmeanot herpicturewhereshe' ssitt
ingand
l
aughi ngt here'
shi sdadandawomanandaman
whol ookingather .

Me:"wowshe'
sbeaut
if
ulscel
oandi
sthi
sher
f
iancee?"

Him:"yeaht
hat'
sMbusoandshe'
sLungi
lebutwe
cal
lherluhandthat
'smydadandmyaunt"he
chuckl
esandshakeshi
shead

Me:"wowthewayhe'
slookingatheri
t'
sli
kehe
seesonl
yherandnooneelse"

Hi
m:"who?"

Me:
"Mbuso"

Hi
m:"whydoyousayt
hat
?"hef
rownsandIgi
ggl
e

Me:"i
t'
shisbodylanguage,
hiseyes..
.hiswhole
demeanerthati
ntensel
ook,wowitis.
.."Iget
goosebumpsallovermybody

Hi
m:"unexpl
ainanbl
e?"exact
lyt
hat

Me:
"yes"hemustr
eal
lyl
oveher
Hi
m:"you'
l
lmeett
hem soonandt
hey'
aregongt
o
l
oveyou"

Me:"you'
resayi
ngt
hisf
ort
hesecondt
imescel
o,do
youmeani t
?"

Him:"Itoldyout hatIwantonlyyouandI'm seri

ous
aboutyousoyesImeanever ywor d"Ismil
eand
wecont inuetochatandImustsayIhaver eall
y
str
ongf eeli
ngf orscel
o..
..
Ireall
yli
kehim.Myphone
ri
ngs,ItakeitoutofmybagandIseeanumberI
don'tr
ecogni sebutIanswert hi
nki
ngitmightbea
potent
il
acl i
ent.

Me:
"AyandaMasekohel
lo?"

Hi
m: "Iseei
tdi
dntt
akeyoulongt
omoveonwi t
hout
mecauseyou'r
ealr
eadyoutanddat
ingsomefr
og"
If
reezethemomentIhearhi
svoi
ceandallt
he
col
ourl
eavesmyf
aceandt
henIst
artt
oshake.

Scel
o:"aya?
...
.aya?"Il
ookatscel
ocal
li
ngmyname

Me:"he'
shere,
he'sherescelo,
tshepoisher
e
watchi
ngus"Ilookaroundbutdon'tseeanyoneas
myeyeswellwithtear
s,Idropthephoneandscelo
pi
cksitup.

Scel
o:"youhavesomef uckengutstocallherwhi
le
youknowt her
e'saf uckenpriceonyourhead"
scel
osaysandIdon' thearwhattsheposaysbutit
seemsthatwhat everhe'ssayingi
spissi
ngscelo
moreandmor e.

Him:"youbet
terpr
ayandhopethepol
icefi
ndyou
befor
eIdo"hesaysthenhangsupandlooksatme.

Scel
o:"l
etsgetoutofher
e"It
akemybagandhe
t
akesouthi
swall
etandt
hrowsabunchofnot
eson
t
hetabl
ethent
akesmytrembl
inghandandl
ooksat
me.

Him"I'
vegotyouayanda,hewon'thurtyouever
agai
nIpromise"wel eavether
esturantandgoto
hi
scarandwedr i
veof f
.

Me:
"canyoupl
easet
akemet
omypl
ace?
"

Him"what?hel
lno,!you'
renotgoi
ngtoyourplace.
I'
m notgoi
ngtoleaveyoualonewhil
ethatsi
ckfuck
cancomeandgetyou"

Me:
"I'
l
lcal
lkar
abot
ocomesoIwon'
tbeal
one"

Him:"that'
swhyI'
mtaki
ngyout
oherpl
ace"Il
ook
outsi
det hewi
ndowandseewe'
real
mostt
here
damn.
Me:
"I'
l
lbef
inedon'
twor
ry"

Hi
m:"you'r
eshaki
ngayandaandIwantt
otakeyou
t
omypl ace"

Me:
"scel
opl
ease!"

Him:
"I'm yourmanandIwantt
oprot
ectyoubut
youwon'tletmeandIdon'
twantt
oforceyout
odo
anyt
hingyoudon'twantt
odo.come"Iusemykey
andletmyselfi
n.

Him:
"Ishoul
dn'
tleaveyoual
oneher
eyaya,
please
comewithme!"

Me:"Ij
ustwantt
obeal
onescel
odon'
tyougeti
t?!"
Ishoutathi
m
Him:
"fine,cal
lkar
aboandletherknowyou'r
ehere.
You'
ll
tellmewhenyouwantt oseeme"t henhe
cl
osesthedoorandleaves.

Ipourmyselfagl
assofwine,sitonthecouchgo
thr
oughmyphonet henblockthenumberthat
cal
ledme,fuckyoutshepoIhateyou!.
CHAPTER27.

SI
CELO

Thisgirli
sst ubbornandshedoesn'tunderstand
thatthatpsychoknowswher eherfri
endsliveandif
hedoesn'tf i
ndheratherpl acehemightcomeher e
andf i
ndher .AsmuchasIwantt ogobackt omy
placeandl eaveherIcan'tbecausehemi ghtshow
upandhur therandpossi blykil
lhert
histime.I
l
eavekar abo'scompl exandgot oagaragenear
whereshei s, par
kthereandcallcel
este.
Her
:"boss?"

Me:"I'
llsendyout helocat
ionofwher eI'
m at,Ithi
nk
ayanda'sexi sfol
lowingherandmi ghtshowupat
herplacelaterandhesawt hecarIwasdr i
vingsoI
l
eftheratherf ri
endsplaceandI '
m atthegarage
nowandIwantust oexchangecar sandtellthe
otherguystocomet oosowecancat chhimi fhe
showsup"

Her:"okaybossman"Isendhermylocat
ionand
waitand20mi nut
esl
atershe'
sher
e,shegetsi
nthe
carandsits.

Me:
"thatwasf
ast"

Her:
"Iwasn'
tbusy,Ineedherf
ri
endsaddr
esssoI
cansendtheguystowatchthepl
ace"Igi
vehert
he
addr
essandherpictur
eandkarabo'
scomplex
numberandshesendsi
t.

Me:
"she'
ssodamnst
ubbor
n"

Her
:"whydi
dn'
tyout
akehert
oyourpl
ace?"

Me: "shesaidshewant stobealoneandIdidn't

wantt ooverwhelm herandpushhercauseshe's
sti
llhurti
ngoverwhatherexdi dandmeput t
ing
pressureonher ewillj
ustpushherawayfrom me.
I'
l
lgi veherspacesheneedsandhopef ul
lyshe'
llcal
l
meonceshecomesdownIt hink"

Her
:"shesoundsl
ikeshe'
sahandf
ul"

Me:"t
hatshei
sandt
hatsmar
tdamnmout
hofher
s
"shel
aughs.
Her
:'can'
twai
ttomeether
?"

Me:
"you'
l
lli
keher"wegetoutoft
hecar

Her
:'youwantmet
ost
aywi
thyou?"

Me:
"doIl
ookl
i
keIneedababysi
tt
er?"

Her
:"yeahyoudo,youl
ookpissedandyoumi
ght
j
usthurtsomeone"shel
aughsatme

Me:
"getincel
esteandwhatIwanti
sf orayandat
o
doasIsayfol
lowmyr ukest
hat
'sal
l.
.."

Her:
"shedoesn'tsoundl
iket
het
ypet
ofol
low
someone'
srules"

Me:
"whenIf
ir
stsawheramdmetherIt
houghtshe
wast
hesubmi
ssi
veki
ndbutnowI
'
m notsur
e"

Her
:"youcanal
waysbendhert
othewayyouwant"

Me:
"I'
m notsur
e"

Her:
"letmegogetussomet
hingt
odr
ink,
whatdo
youwant?"

Me:
"justwat
er"

Her:
"areyousur
ecauseyoul
ookl
ikeyouneed
somethi
ngstr
ong?"

Me:
"Ido,
justgetmecanofhei
neken"

Her
:"nowt
hat'
smyboss"sheleavesandIt
akeout
myphoneandthi
nkofcal
li
ngayandabutIl
eavei
t.
Celesteget
sbackandwesiti
nthecarforalmost3
hoursandtell
smetheguystol
dherthatayanda
orderdubereat
sandtheguydel
iver
edandt henl
eft
.

Me:"I'
m goi
nghome, t
ellt
heguystochangeshi
ft
s
butIwantherwatched27/4andcallmeift
heysee
orevensuspectanyt
hing"

Her
:"I
'l
lstaybehi
ndtoo,
I'
lll
eaveatmi
dni
ghtj
ust
i
ncasethatpunkshowsup"

Me: "sur
e"Igeti nthecaranddri
vestrai
ghttomy
placeandt hesmel loff
oodhitsme,Ismil
eandgo
tothekitchenandf i
ndzamat her
ecooking.Iknow
sheknowst hatI'
m herebutshedoesn'
t
acknowlegdemypr esenceandconti
nuestocook
andIdon' tl
ikethat.

Me:
"hell
ozama"Isi
tdownandl
ookatherbehi
nd
t
hestove
Her
:"goodeveni
ngsi
r"what?

Me:
"zama?"

Her
:"yessi
r?"

Me:
"lookatme"shei
gnor
esmeandkeepsst
ir
ri
ng
t
hepot

Her:
"thef
oodi
sal
mostr
eady,
canIdi
shupf
oryou
si
r?"

Me:"willyoust opcall
ingmesirandlookatme"
shesti
llwon'tf uck!
,whati
sitwithwoment oday?.I
getof
fchai randgot owher
eshei sandtr
yt otur
n
hersoshe' l
llookatme
Her:
"pleasedon'ttouchme!"Ii
gnorethatandItur
n
herandseet hatherfacel
ooksredandpuffyli
ke
she'
sbeencr yingforawhil
eanditdoessomething
tomyhear t
.

Me:
"hey,
what
'swr
ong?
,whyar
eyoucr
ying?"

Her
:"not
hing,
canIpl
easedi
shupf
oryousi
r?"

Me:
"st
opcal
li
ngmet
hat"

Her:
"why?,wasn'
tityouwhotol
dmet hatt
hings
havetobeprof
essi
onal bet
weenus?"

Me:
"IknowIdi
dbutIdon'
twantyout
obet
hiscol
d
t
owardsme?"

Her
:"scel
owhatt
hehel
ldoyouwantf
rom me
exactly?,Ifoll
owanddowhat evert hatisyouwant
from mebuti t'
sstil
lnotenough.Ibeggedand
beggedf oryout oleavemeal onebutyouwoul dn't,
youkeptonper suadingmeunt i
lyoul eftmeno
choicebutt ogi vein.It ri
edt odat ebutyouwoul d
sabotaget hatandt hreatent hem t oleavemeal one
andIhavenol if
ebesi desbei ngyourpl ayt hi
ngt hat
youusewheneveryouwantt oandIdon' tcompl ai
n
becauseIgi vemysel ft oyou.Ihavepeopl ealways
foll
owi ngme, Ihavenof reedom causet heyr eport
toyouwhat everIdoorwher everIgoandIget
i
nt r
oubl eforwant i
ngt ohaveal ifeandt henyou
decidet hatyou'vehadenoughofmeandyout oss
meawayl i
keapi eceofshi tt hatyou' redoneusi ng
andImustj ustacceptandIdi dexact lyt hat!
.You
woul dbr i
ngwomenher eandf uckt hem wi t
hme
undert hesamer oofandyetst il
lInevercompl ained
becauseIknewmypl aceandIwoul dst i
llall
owyou
tobei nsideandnotcompl ainbutnomor e,it
's
enoughnow!" .hertear sfallhar dwi t
hever ywor d
thatstingsmyhear tandIj ustst andt her ebecause
everythingshesaysi st het ruth.
Me:"Iwasdoingallofthi
sbecauseIwant
edt
o
pr
otectyou,
Ithought..
."

Her:"thoughtwhatscel o?,thatIwouldn'tfalli
nlove
withyou, t
hati twouldn'thur tmewhenyout ellme
thatyou'vemetsomeoneandyou' r
eseriousabout
herandIhavet oaccepti tcausethere'
snof uture
withusandt hereneverwas? .Di
dyouevert akea
minuteandt hinkhowdi dIfeelwhenyout oldmeal l
ofthat?.Igavemysel ftoyouwi t
hmyhear t,body
andsoulbecauseIt houghtt hatmaybej ustmaybe
youwoul dseemeasawomanandnotj ustyour
housekeepert hatyouf uck.IknowI '
m noti nyour
l
eagueandI '
m nott het ypeofwomanyouwoul d
wantt obringtoyourf ami l
yandi t
'sokay,I
understandthatnow, butwhatIwantf rom yousi ris
toleavemeal one".

Him:"zamaIthoughtyoudi
dn'tmi
ndbecauseyou
neversai
danythi
ngwhyd. .
..
"myphoneri
ngsandI
l
ookatitandit
'sayandaf
uck!Il
ookatzamaand
sheshakesherheadandlooksr
eal
lyhurt

Her:
"answeritsi
rsomeoneelseneedsyou"she
goesandleavesmeintheki
tchenandIwatchher
gotoherroom andIst
andthereandlookather
.

Me:
"ayanda?"

Her
:"pl
easecomeandgetme"

Me:
"what
'swr
ong?"

Her
:"not
hing,
Ijustmi
ssyou"

Me:
"I'
m comi
ng"
Ilookatwherezamadisappearedcovermyf
ace
withhandsshakemyheadt hentakemycarkeys
andleavemyhouse.Igetoffthecarandgotoher
tokarabo'
sfl
atandknockont hedoorandIwaitf
or
fewmi nut
esthensheopensthedoor

Me:"youj
ustopenedt
hedooranddi
dn'
taskwhoi
t
i
s,areyoucr
azy?"

Her:
"ohplease,Iknewitwasyou!"sher
oll
sher
eyesandsher eeksofal
cohol

Me:"whydon'
tyoucareaboutyoursaf
etyayanda?
,
ordidyouf
orgetwhatt
shepodidtoyou?"

Her:
"becauseIknowhowheknocksokay,
Iwoul
d
haveknownifi
twashim"

Me:
"thatsoundsst
upi
dandver
yreckl
ess"
Her:
"Ididn'
taskyoutocomeher
esoyou'l
ltel
lme
abouthowrecklessandst
upi
dIam okay"

Me:"yesyouarer
eckl
essbecauseyou'
redrunk,you
openthedoorandyoudon'
taskwhoitis!,
Tshepo
coul
dhavebeentheonethatwasknockingandhe
wouldhavedonesomethi
ngtoyoueasil
ybecause
you'
redrunk!"

Her
:"don'
tyoudar
ecal
lmeeasyokay?
,I'
m noteasy!
"

Me:"ayandaIneversai
dyou' r
eeasy,Imeantinthe
st
atethatyouareinnowi tcouldhavebeeneasyfor
hi
mt ohurtyou,doesn'
tthatscareyou?"

Her
:"I
'
m notworr
iedaboutt
hatcauseyou'
reher
e
now"fuckt
hiswoman!
Me:
"howmanygl
assesdi
dyoudr
ink?"

Her
:"awhol
ebott
le,
I'
m aboutt
oopenanot
herone,
doyouwantsome?"what?

Me:"no,I
'm good,whydon'
tyoudr
inksomewat
er
soyou'l
lfeelbet
ter
?"

Her:
"don'
ttel
lmewhattodo,t
shepousedtothat
andIsworethatI
'
m notgoi
ngtol
etanothermantel
l
mewhattodosost opi
t!"

Me:
"whydoyout
alkt
omel
iket
hatusi
ngt
hatt
one?
"

Her:
"whatt
onescel
ogees,you'
resoupt
ightyou
needtol
osenup,
li
veali
tt
leman"wow
Me:
"wher
eiskar
abo?"

Her:
"Idon'tknowprobablyget
ti
ngdi
ckeddown
whereversheis"shelaughs

Me:
"okgetyourbagandl
etsgo"

Her:
"ok,
butl
etsgot
oclubaf
ter
,yestheonet
hat
yousawmeat"sheget
supstumblesandIhol
dher
.

Me:"no,
youneedsl
eept
hatwi
neof
fandwebot
h
hadalongday"

Her:
"youar
enof
un,
you'
rebor
ing"shesayst
aki
ng
herbag

Me:
"gi
vemet
hekeys,
I'
lll
ockup"shegi
vest
hem
t
omeandIl ockup,getheri
nthecaranddr
iveto
myplace.Shetalksabunchofthi
ngsandIjust
l
ist
entoher.

Maybeayandai snotreal
lyr
eadytobei na
relati
onshipwithmeoranyoneandIdon' tknowif
she'sact i
ngoutbecauseoft heabuseormaybe
she'sr eal
lyshowingmehert rueselfbutIthi
nkshe
needssomecounsel l
ingt
odealwitht hetr
umashe
exper i
encedandt henmaybeshe' l
lhealandbe
bet t
er.Iwon'tgiveuponher,sheneedsmyhel p
andI '
m goi ngtohelpherandbether eforherever
y
stepoft hewayasl ongasshel et
sme.

Her
:"don'
tignor
emeI
'
mri
ghther
e"shesl
urs

Me:
"I'
m dr
ivi
ngayandaI
'
m noti
gnor
ingyou"

Her
:"whenar
eweget
ti
ngt
oyourpl
ace?"
Me:"we'rehere"Idr
iveinandparkt
hecar,ayanda
getsoffIdotoothentakeherhandandl
eadherto
thefrontdoorandopenit.
"thi
sismyhome
welcome"

Her:
"wow,yourhouseisbigandi
tlooksver
y
expensi
veandnice,
Ili
keit"

Me:
"wel
come"

Her
:"whati
sthatsmel
l?"

Me:
"food,
you'
rehungr
y?"

Her
:"no"

Me:
"thenl
etsgetyout
obed"
Her
:"butIwantt
oseet
hehousef
ir
st?"

Me:
"you'
l
lseei
ttomor
row,
come"

Her:
"oohyou'
reinahurr
ytot
akeof
fmycl
othes
andfuckmearen'
tyou?"

Me:
"ayandacome,
you'
redr
unkandyoumustsl
eep
"

Her
:"ughl
etsgo"It
akehert
otheguestbedr
oom

Me:"you'
l
lsl
eepher
e,her
e'st
hebathr
oom andI'
l
l
getyousomethi
ngt
owearwhileyoushower"

Her
:"i
sthi
syourbedr
oom?"

Me:
"no"
Her
:"whydi
dn'
tyout
akemet
oyourbedr
oom?"

Me:"becauseIwantyout
ofeelcomf
ort
abl
eandnot
t
hinkthatIwantt
osleepwit
hyou"

Her
:"butIwantt
osl
eepwi
thyou"

Me:
"no,
notl
iket
his"

her
:"t
hengetoutandl
eavemet
osl
eep"

Me:"goodni ghtayanda, cal

lmeifyouneed
anythi
ng"shei gnor esmeandIcl osethedoorthen
standforafewmi nutesthenhearhermumbl i
ng
stufft
hensheget si nthebed.Iopenthedooral i
tt
le
andseet hatshe'salreadyknockedoutsleepi
ng.I
switchtheli
ghtsof fthencloset
hedoor .
Somehowmyf eettakemet ozama' sroom cause
that'
swhereI'm standingnow, ri
ghtoutsideher
bedroom door.I'
m aboutt oknockwhenIhearher
softcri
esandIst andthereandl ist
entohercr yi
ng.I
wantt ogothereandcomf ortherbutIdon'tknow
whatt osayandIdon' twantt ohurtherfurt
hersoI
swicthallt
helightsoffandgot omybedr oom take
offmycl ot
hes,shower ,geti
nbedandzama' s
wordskeeppl ayinginmyheadoverandoverunt ilI
fal
lasleep.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER27.

Ihardl
ysleptbecauseIkeptt ossi
ngandt urni
ngall
nightt
hinkingaboutayandazama.Iwakeup, go
showerthengoandcheckonayandat oseeifshe'
s
sti
llsl
eepingorawake.Iknocksof t
lyont hedoor
causeIdon' twantt
owakeherupi ncaseifshe's
sti
llsl
eeping,shedoesn'tanswersoIopent hedoor
andpokemyhead, she'sstil
lsl
eepingoffthewine.I
cl
oset hedoorandgot ot hekit
chenI'l
laskzamat o
makehergr
easybr
eakf
astcauseshe'
sgoi
ngt
o
wakeupwit
hahugehangover.

IgettothekitchenandInoti
cethatt
here'
snosmell
ofthefreshbrewingcoff
eeorbreakf
astmade.
Zamai susuallyawakebythi
sti
meandi scl
eani
ng
somewher einthehouseormaybeshe'ssickcause
Il
efthercryinglastni
ght
.Igotoherroom and
knocksof l
ty.

Me: "zama? ,
areyouokay?"shedoesn' tanswerme.
"canyouopent hedoorf orme? ..
..
..
..
okI '
m comi ng
i
n"Iopent hedoorandshe' snott here,herbedi s
perfect l
ymadet henIlookatherdr essingtableand
apict ureframeofhermom i snotont here,
wher eis
i
tcausei thasal waysbeent her e?.Asl i
ghtfearof
tremourhi tsme, Igotothebat hroom andher
femi ninetoil
etr
iesar enotthere.Iopenhercl oset
andi tsempt y..
..
.nowai t
!,she'
snotgone! .

Il
eaveherbedr
oom andheadt
othecot
tage,
maybe
shemovedoutoft hehouset ogivemeandayanda
space,yesI
'
llf
indherthere.Idon'tknockjustopen
thedoorandgetinhopingt ofi
ndherbutt he
cott
ageisal
soempt y.I
t'sinthesamewayI
rememberandshe'snott here,
shel ef
t,shefucken
l
eftme!.

Igotothehouse, getmyphonef r
om thebedroom,
gototheli
vingroom andcal lherphonebutitsays
thenumberdoesn' texi
stfuckzamawher ethefuck
areyouat?
!.Icallthesecurit
yguystocomet ot he
houseandtheygeti n.

Me:
"whendi
dzamal
eave?"

Dan:
"li
ket
wohour
sagoboss"

Me:
"whatwasshecar
ryi
nganyt
hingwi
thher
?"
Dan:
"onl
yherhandbagsi
r"

Me:
"wher
edi
dshesayshewasgoi
ng?"

Dan:
"shesai
dshe'
sgoi
ngt
othegar
aget
oget
somethi
ng"

Me:"andwhenandhourpassedyoudi
dn'
tfi
ndi
t
st
rangethatshe'
snotback?"

Dan:
"wethoughtt
hatmaybeshewentsomewher
e
ormaybeshemetafri
endther
e"

Me: "andyoudi dn'

tthi
nktogol ookf orherorletme
knowt hatshe'snotback?,gotot hatgarageand
fi
ndoutwher eshewentori fshe'sthere"theyleave
andIt rytotellmyselfthatshedidn'tleave,she'
s
sti
llatt hegaragebutdeepdownIknowt hatshe'
s
gone, shemadesur ethatshe'l
lleavewhi l
eI '
m st
il
l
sleepi
ngbutwhendi dshestartmovi
ngherthi
ngs
out?,wasitwhenItol
dheraboutayandaorwhen
wewentt ostander
ton?"Icallmbusocausehe'
s
theonlyonethatwil
ltr
ackherlastl
ocati
onandI
knowI '
l
lfi
ndher.

Hi
m:"Maphol
oba?"

Me:
"Mnguni
,how'
sitgoi
ngbr
other
?"

Hi
m:"I
'
m gr
eatmanbutIcoul
daskyousi
nceyou'
re
t
heonewho'
scal
li
ngme"

Me:
"wher
e'sl
uh?"

Hi
m:"myr
ib?
,she'
sri
ghther
esl
eepi
ngwhy?"

Me:
"manIneedt
otal
ktoyou"
Hi
m:"what
'swr
ong?"Ihearshuf
fl
ing

Me:
"foolar
eyouput
ti
ngsomecl
otheson?"

Hi
m:"yeahIhavej
ustputyoursi
stert
osl
eep"he
l
aughs

Me:
"manf
uckyou"

Him:
"brot
heryousoundmoodyyouneedt
ogetl
aid
"welaugh

Me:
"zamal
eft"

Hi
m:"howdoyoumean?"Ihearadoorcl
osi
ng
Me:"shepackedhert
hingsandl
eft
,shel
eftme"I
si
ghandclosemyeyes

Hi
m:"l
eftyou?,youguyswerenottoget
hersohow
di
dsheleaveyoubrother
,whathappened?"

Me:
"wel
lshet
oldme.
..
."It
ellhi
m whatshesai
dto
me.

Him:"okl
etmegett hi
sright,
youtoldherthatyou
guysarej
ustfuckingandit'
snothingseri
ousbut
thenyoucockblockherfrom guyswhowanther
andherfr
om theguysshewant st
odat e?
,ist
hat
whatyoudid?"

Me:
"yeahIcoul
dn'
tfuckherwhi
leIknewt
hatshe
wasfucki
ngsomeotherguy"

Hi
m:"yetyousai
dyou'
rej
ustf
ucki
ngbuti
t'
sonl
y
youwhoget stofuckot
herwomenandnotherand
youthoughtthatshewoul
dn'
tfeelacer
tai
nwayand
cat
chf eel
ings?"

Me:
"butwhydi
dn'
tshesayanyt
hing?"

Hi
m: "br
oyoumadet herul
esandshef oll
owed
t
hem becauseshethoughtt
hatmaybei fyoudon'
t
wanthertoseeot
herpeoplethenthatmeansther
e
mightbesomethi
ngbetweent het
woofyou"

Me:
"br
oIdi
dn'
tmakeheranypr
omi
ses"

Hi
m:"youact
ual
lydi
dwithyouract
ionsbutnot
wor
ds,howmanygir
lshaveyoufuckedsi
nceyou
mether?"

Me:
"many"
Him:
"anddidyousetgr
oundr
ulesf
ort
hem t
ool
ike
youdi
dforher?"

Me:
"noIdi
dn'
t"

Him:
"didyoupunishherwhenshedi
dsomet
hing
yout
oldhertonotdo?"

Me:
"Idi
d"

Hi
m:"whyherandnott
heot
her
syouwer
ejust
f
ucki
ngtool
ikeher
?"

Me:
"becauset
heydi
dn'
tmeananyt
hingt
ome"

Hi
m:"andzamameanssomet
hingt
oyou?"

Me:
"Iknowhur
therwhenIt
oldheraboutayanda
butIr
eal
lycar
eabouther
,she'
sagoodper
son"

Him:"yesyoudidhurtherbecauseshet houghtshe
mighthaveafuturewi t
hyoubutthenyout el
lher
aboutthi
swomanandsheaccept sanddecidesto
removehersel
ffrom thatsi
tuat
ionsoyoucanbe
withthewomant hatyouwantbutyou'reupsetthat
she'sgone?"

Me:"Ij
ustdi
dn'
texpecthert
oleave,
shedi
dn'
thave
t
oleave"

Hi
m:"soyouexpect
edthewomanwhoclaimst
o
l
oveyou,
watchyoulovesomeoneel
se?"

Me:
"manIdon'
tknow"

Him:
"brothershe'
srespect
ingyourchoi
ceand
deci
sionandmaybeyoushoul ddothesame"
Me:
"I'
m wor
ri
edaboutherbr
o,hel
pmef
indher"

Him:
"andwhenyouf
indher
,whatar
eyougoi
ngt
o
do?"

Me:
"Idon'
tknow,
Ijustwantt
oknowi
fshe'
ssaf
e"

Him:"i
fshewant edyout oknowshewoul dhave
tol
dyout hatshe'sleavingandwher
eshe' sgoing,
j
ustleaveherbr otherandfocusonyour
rel
ati
onshipwi thwhat'shernameagain? .
..
.yes
ayanda.FocusonhercauseIdon' tthinkshewould
l
ikeheari
ngal lthistal
kaboutfi
ndi
ngzamayour
housekeeper,thewomanyouwer efucking"

Me:"l
ookI'llsendyouhernumberbuti
tsaysi
t
doesn'
texistandheraccountnumber,
Ineedyout
o
tr
ackitandl etmeknowifshemakesany
tr
ansacti
ons"
Hi
m:"oksendt
hem,
hol
donyoursi
sterwant
sto
t
alkt
oyou"

Me:
"okl
etmeknowhowi
tgoes"

Hi
m:"sur
ebr
o"

Her
:"sawubonabhutiscel
o"{hel
lobi
gbrot
her}
manIalwayslovei
twhenshecall
smet hat
,Ismi
le.

Me:
"myfavour
it
ewomanandsi st
eri
nthewor
ld
t
hatIl
ovemorethananyt
hing"

Her
:"youronl
ysi
steryoumean,
howar
eyou?"

Me:
"I'
m good,
howi
sthebabyt
reat
ingyou?"
Her:
"thi
sli
tt
lepersoni
sthebest
,shelovesher
mommyandmakeshereatandsl eepandbeingon
bedr
esthasactuall
ymademegainwei ghtandget
l
azy"

Me:
"youshoul
dexer
cise"

Her:
"Idoenoughoft
hatwi
thmbuso.
..
.oopssor
ry"
shegiggl
es

Me:"heynowIdon'tneedt
ohearal
loft
hatbutI
'
m
happyforyousi
s,mbusoisagoodmanandhe
l
ovesyou"

Her:
"andIl
ovehi
mtoo.Yousounddownar
eyou
okay?"

Me:"Iam,
Ijustmi
ssyouguys,
Imi
ssbei
ngat
home"
Her:'
yeahyou'r
eallalonet
herewit
hnoone,you
shouldcomehomesowecanspendsomet i
me
toget
her,wecanhaveamemor i
albraaif
ort
hami
youknow, j
ustfr
iendsandfamil
y"

Me:"yeaht
hatwoul
dbeni
ce,
howar
eyouf
eel
ing
now?"

Her:
"Iforgavemysel
fandhadagoodcr ythatday
soI'
m great.I
'mj
ustreadyfort
henegot
iat
ionsto
star
tandbeover,getmarri
edandthenhavethis
baby"

Me:
"hangi
nther
esi
s"

Her
:"can'
twai
tforyout
obeanuncl
e"

Me:
"met
oosi
s"
Her
:"we'
l
ltal
klat
ert
hen,
Iloveyou"

Me:"Il
oveyoutoo"shehangsupandIshakemy
headandsmil
e.

Ayanda:
"whower
eyout
ell
ingt
hatyoul
ovet
hem?"

Me:
"goodmor
ningayanda,
didyousl
eepwel
l
?"

Her
:"Idi
d,whowasi
t?"

Me:"I'
m goodt
oot
hanksf
oraski
ng,
how'
syour
headache?"

Her
:"Iaskedyouaquest
ionscel
o,whowast
hat
?!"
Me:
"mysi
ster
,whatwoul
dyoul
ikef
orbr
eakf
ast
?"

Her:
"you'
rel
yingtomearen'
tyou,
itwasn'
ther
,gi
ve
meyourphonenow!"shesaysscreami
ngatme
andIlookather

Me:
"whywoul
dIl
ieaboutt
hat
?"

Her
:"becausei
t'
sthewayyousai
dit
!"

Me:
"howIsai
dit
?,howdi
dIsayi
t?"

Her
:"l
ikeyou'
resayi
ngi
ttoal
over"t
hisbi
tchi
s
f
uckencrazy!

Me:
"Idon'
thavet
imefort
his,
soear
lyi
nthe
mor
ningcomeoneayanda"
Her
:"t
hat
'sbecauseyouknowi
t'
sthet
rut
h,Iknow
menli
keyouscelo"

Me:
"menl
ikeme?"

Her
:"yest
hel
ying,
cheat
ingandabusi
ngki
nd!"

Me: "youdontknowmel i
ket
hatsopleasedon't
paintmei nthesamebr ushwit
hthatofyourex"I'
m
reall
ytryi
ngtonotletherwordsgetmewor kedup

Her
:"orwhatscel
ohmmm?"

Me:"not
hingayandaornot
hing.Whydon'
tyougo
showerthencomeback,I
'l
lmakeyousomethi
ngto
eati
nthemeant i
me"

Her
:"f
eel
inggui
lt
ycauseIcaughtyout
alki
ngt
o
yourl
over
!"

Me:
"fort
hel
astt
imeayandaIwast
alki
ngwi
th
mbusoandmysi
sterokay"

Her
:"t
hengi
vemeyourphonesoIcanseef
or
mysel
f"

Me:"Idon'
tfuckenoweyouanexpl anat
ionorprove
toyouwhoIwast al
kingwithbutI'
lldoitsoyou'
ll
stopnaggi
ngme"It akeoutmyphoneandputi ton
l
oudspeakersoshewi l
lhearforhersel
f,i
tri
ngsand
mbusoanswer s

Hi
m:"br
o?"

Me:
"di
dIcal
lyouj
ustnow?"
Hi
m:"yes,
why?"

Me:
"di
dIt
alkt
oluh?"

Hi
m:"yeahyoudi
d,what
'sgoi
ngonbr
o?"

Me:
"nothi
ngman, we'
llt
alklat
er"Ihangupand
l
ookather"yousati
sfi
ed,youhappynow?"

Her
:"what
everIknowhecover
edf
oryou"

Me:
"youknowwhatIdon'
tcar
ewhatyout
hink"

Her
:"t
rut
hhur
tsr
ight
?"

Me:"youwakeup,youdon'
taskmehowIam then
youaccusemeoftalki
ngtomylover
,cal
lmeal i
er,
acheaterandanabuser
.HaveIl
iedt
oyou,cheated
onyouandmosti
mpor
tant
lyputmyhandsonyou
ayanda?"

Her
:"butsoonyouwi
lli
t'
sonl
yamat
teroft
ime!"

Me:"r
eal
ly?
,that
'swhatyout
hinkofwhenyoul
ook
atme?"

Her:
"don'tactasifyou'
reper
fectandhavenever
donethosethings!"

Me:"IneversaidIwasper f
ectandyesIhavedone
thi
ngsI'
m notpr oudofbutIhaven'tdoneanythi
ng
toyou,f
oryout ocondemnmel i
ket hi
s.Ist
hishow
wearegoingt ostartar
elati
onshi
p, wit
hyoualways
argui
ngandaccusi ngmeofst uff
?"

Her:
"IknowwhatIhear
dandyoucandenyital
lyou
want,I
'
mt el
li
ngyouhowIf
eelandyoucal
lit
ar
gui
ng?
,fi
net
henIdon'
tcar
e"

Me:"weayanda, kuzokusizaukuthiumaukhul uma

namiuzehlise,ukhulumenamingenhl onipho
engikuboni
sayonasi yezwana?"(i twi
llhelpyout
o
knowt hatwhenyout alktome,youcalm downand
youshowmet hesamer espectIshowyouwhenI
tal
kwi t
hyou, doweunder standeachot her?)

Her:
"hmm causei fIdon'
tImightf
indmyselfi
nthe
hospitalagai
norprobabl
ydead"Ishakemyhead
fr
ustratedcauseshehasn'
theardanyt
hingIsai
dto
her.

Me:"youneedhelpayanda,
youneedsomeonet
o
tal
ktowhowi l
lhel
pyougetthr
oughthetr
aumayou
experi
enced"

Her:
"youwantmetot
alkt
oashr
inkbecauseyou
t
hinkI'
m cr
azy?"
Me:
"youknowforsomeonewho'
sabusi
ness
womanyousoundveryst
upi
dri
ghtnow"

Her:
"don'tyoudar ecal
lmet hatyousonofabitch!"
shepicksupagl asscentrepi
eceont het
ableand
thr
owsi tatmeandIcovermyf aceandithit
smy
arm andithur
ts.Ididn'
texpecthertodothat
becauseshedidi tsofast
.

Me:"don'
tyoueveri
nyourl
if
ecallmymot
hera
bi
tchandhitmemewi t
hanythi
ng!"

Her
:"f
uckyouscel
o,Idon'
tneedt
hisbul
lshi
t!"

Me:
"thenwhatar
eyoust
il
ldoi
ngi
nmyhouse?"

Her:
"Idon'
tneedyou,
youhearmeIdon'
tfucken
needyou!"
Me:"Ihear
dyou,
I'
ll
getoneofmydri
ver
stot
ake
youhome"IsendDanamessagetocome

Her
:"f
iner
unawayf
rom yourr
esponsi
bil
it
y"

Me:
"whatr
esponsi
bil
it
yar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"

Her
:"me!"

Me:"you'
renotmyrespobil
it
yayanda,Iwantt
ohel
p
yougetbett
erbuthowwillIdothati
fyoukeep
accusi
ngmeandi nsul
ti
ngme?"

Her
:"calli
twhat
everyouwantbutwebot
hknowi
t'
s
t
hetruth"

Me:
"youknowwhat
?,I
v'
ehadenoughoft
his.Her
e
i
st henumberoftheper
sonIar
rangedforyouto
see,shewi
llhel
pyou"Isendherthenumber.

Her
:"i
ssheoneofyourl
over
s,ar
eyouf
uckenher
?"

Me:
"ar
eyoust
il
ldr
unkayanda?"

Her
:"doIl
ookl
ikeI
'
m dr
unkt
oyou?"

Me:"yes,
doyouheart
het
hingst
hatar
ecomi
ngout
ofyourmout
h?"

Me:"youmeanmet el
li
ngyouwhateveryoneelsei
s
af
raidoft
ell
ingyou?"t
hisbi
tchi
sdelusional

Me:"f
ort
hel
oveofGodwomanst
opi
tokay?
!,st
op
i
t!"
Her:
"fuckyousceloIdon'tneedyou,
I'
m outofher
e
anddon'teverf
uckencallme.Meandyouar edone!
"

Me:"wedidn'
tstar
tanythingandI'
m gladyou
showedmeyourt r
uecol oursbef
oreIevenbegana
rel
ati
onshi
pwithyou.Tellmeayanda, t
hewomanI
metathospit
alwhoisshe, whereisshe,whydi
d
youchange?"

Her:
"yousawmeatt hecl
ubandtal
kedtomeatthe
hospi
talt
wiceandt
henyouassumedthatyouknow
me?"

Me:
"IguessIwaswr
ong"

Her
:"t
hisi
smebei
ngr
eal
,takei
torl
eavei
t"

Me:
"ther
eisnomanwhowant
stobewi
thsomeone,
whobelit
tlest
hem,showsthem nor
espectand
accusesthem oft
hings"

Her
:"t
henIguessyou'vemetwomenwhol etyou
wal
kallovert
hem butnotme,
richornot"

Me: "whatdoesmebeingrichhavetodowith
anyt hi
ngwe'ret
alki
ngabout?.Wecan'
tbetoget
her
unlessyouchangeyouratti
tudeandstar
tshowing
mer espect"

Her
:"r
especti
sear
ned,
youdon'
tdemandi
t"

Me:"Ineverdemandedanyt
hingf
rom yougoodbye
ayanda"

Her
:"goodr
iddancet
obadr
ubbi
sh"
Me:
"youcal
li
ngmer
ubbi
sh?
...yourdr
iveri
sout
side
"

Her:
"youar
egoi
ngt
oregr
ett
hatyoul
etsomeone
l
ikemego"

Me:"noIwont"Igetupandopenthedoorforher
andsheleaves,get
sint
hecardoesn'
tevenlookat
meandt heyleave.

Howcoul dIhavebeensowr ongabouther?,

wasit
themor phi
nethatwasinherbl oodthatmadehera
nicepersoncausesheisrightwhenshesaysIdon't
knowherbutIr eal
lywantedtogett onowher.I
thoughtshecouldbetheonebutwi t
hintwodays
sheshowedmewhosher eallyisandIhopetoGod
she'snothi
ngli
kebuhle.DidIinvit
etroubl
einmy
housecauseitsoundslikeIdid.

Ihaveneverbeensoi
nsul
tedbyoneper
soni
nmy
l
ifeandIst i
llcan'
tbeli
evethatIkeptmycool.
Ayandar eal
lyknowshowt ogetundersomeone's
skinandwhatconf usesmei s,ifshe'
sli
kethist
hen
whydidsheal l
owherext oabuseherl i
kethi
s
causeshesoundsl i
keshe'sthetypethati
fyouhit
hershe'
llhityouback.Isthathowherexgother
i
nlinebyabusi ngher?,wassheevenbei ngabused?
.

Isshetaki
ngoutherangerandf rustr
ati
onsouton
me,isthi
sthewayshe' sdealingwi t
hthi
ngscauseI
wil
lnotacceptbeinginsul
tedandaccused.Her
att
it
udeisbadandsheneedst ofixit
.Il
ookaround
myhouseandi tfeel
sempt ycausezamai sgone.
Therei
snosmel lofherper f
ume, thesmelloffood
anditf
eelsli
keshet ookal
lthewar mthfr
om the
houseandleftwit
hitandIdon' tknowwher esheis.
CHAPTER28.

MBUSO.
Ihavenoi deawhothismani s,whoclaimsthat
l
ungii shi
sandshewaspr omisedtohim causeI
knowf orsuret
hatIki
lledthemant hatwas
promisedlungi
.Iknowcauseheconf essedbef
oreI
kil
ledhim.ImadesureIkilledtheri
ghtpersonnow
thi
sonewhocl aimslungiishis,Ihavenoideawho
hei sandwhathewant sexactl
ywher ewasheatall
thi
st i
meandwhywashequi et.

Hedecidest oshowhi msel fnowwhenIt hinkal lof

thi
sisgoi ngtobeoversoonf orlungiandshewi l
l
l
iveherli
f einpeaceknowi ngthatever yonewho
meantherhar mi sdeadbutnowt here'
sthi
s
unknownper sonandIdon' tr
ecogni sehisvoicet o
haveani deawhohemi ghtbe.Di dbuhl epromi se
hertosomeoneel setooordi dsi phoandhi swi fe
makeadealoft heirownandt heywer egoingto
doublecrosst heguyIki l
ledandmaket hei
rown
money, f
uckt hesepeopl e!,wehavet ogetanswer s
soonandki llthem. Wecan' twai tforlungit
ogi ve
bir
thcausebyt henhowmanymor epeoplewi l
l
comef orwardandt hreatenherl ife?,i
t'
sbetterifwe
getanswer
snowanddealwi
thever
yone.

Maphol
oba:
"ar
eyousur
ethatyoudontknowwho
t
hatmanis?"

Me:"Ihavenoi
deaandIknowIki
ll
edt
her
ight
per
son"

Hi
m:"si
phobett
erhavenotpr
omisedmydaught
er
t
osomeoneelsethatwedon'
tknowabout"

Me:"It
hinkhemadeadealofhi
sownandnowt
he
per
sonisheret
ocli
am whathethi
nksi
shi
s"

Hi
m:"butwhycomef
orwar
dnow,
wher
ewashe?"

Me:"It
hinkhewast r
yingt
oreachsi
phobutwhen
hecouldn'
tgethol
dofhim,hedeci
destocal
llungi"
Hi
m:"butwher
edi
dhegethernumber
s?"

Me:"l
ungidoesn'
tknowhi
mt oo,whati
fit
's
someonecloseandwedon'tknowwhohei s"

Him:"t
hatmakeshim danger
ous,
hemi
ghtknowus
butwedon'tknowhi
m"

Me:"noonei
staki
ngl ungiawayfr
om me,ifi
t
meansIhavetoki
lleverymanthenthati
swhatI
wi
lldo"

Hi
m:"di
dyoucal
lscel
o?"

Me:"Iwi
lldealwi
tht
his,l
ungii
sgoi
ngt
obemywif
e
andashermanIshoul dbeabl
etof
ixt
hings"
Him:"andIr
espectt
hatbutrememberwer
edeal
ing
wit
hsomeonewedon' tknowandhemaybe
dangerous"

Me:
"I'
vedeal
twit
hwor set
hingst
hant
his
maphol
oba,i
t'
snothi
ng"

Him:"Ical
ledhi
m whenyouwer
eonyourwayhere,
he'
scomi ngmbuso.Weneedal
lhandsondeck"

Me:"l
etsseewhot heseguysar e"wegetoutoft he
carandtheydot oocausesecur it
ywouldn'
tletthem
thr
ough.Thefirstt
hi ngInoti
ceistheyare
bodygaurdscauset heyaredressedli
kemyman
andthesecuri
tyguysher e.Thesecurit
yhavet hier
gunspointedtothem andt heyrai
sethei
rhandsup.

Hi
m:"wear
enother
etof
ight"
Maphol
oba:
"whosentyou?"

Hi
m:"weweresentbyourbosst
ocomekeepyou
mrgumedesaf
e?"what?

Me:
"me?
,whot
hef
ucki
syourboss?"

Hi
m:"Sbusi
soMbat
hasi
r"

Me:
"what
?,sbusentyou?"

Them:
"yessi
rhedi
d"

Me:
"thenwhydi
dn'
tyoui
dent
if
yyour
sel
vesman?"

Him:"sor
rysi
r,wethoughtyoumi
ghtbeintroubl
e
causeyoulef
tinahurryandwecouldn'
tlet
anythi
ngbadhappensowehadt ofoll
owyoucl ose
"

Maphol
oba:
"guysputyourgunsdown"

Me:
"I'
m conf
usednow,whywouldhesendpeopl
e
t
owatchoverme?,okguysyoucangoI'
l
lcal
lhim"

Hi
m:"sor
rysi
rwetakeorder
sfr
om ourboss,
we'
l
l
st
andbackwhenhetel
lsusto"

Me:
"fi
nest
ayher
ethen"

Mapholoba:
"si
busi
sombat
ha,
oldmoneyf
amous
mbathafamil
y?"

Me:
"yessi
r"

Maphol
oba:
"howdoyouknowt
hesepeopl
e?"
Me:
"Iwor
kwi
tht
hem,
let
sgoi
nsi
de"

Hi
m:"whodi
dyoupi
ssof
fmbuso?"

Me:"Ihavenoideaunl
esshim sendi
ngsomeofhi
s
ment owatchovermeconnectswitht
hatguywho
cl
aimslungiishi
s"

Him:"i
tmightbe,youneedtocallhim andf
indout
whathappend,l
etsgot omystudy"wegeti nthe
houseandlungii
si nherr
oom.It akemyphoneand
cal
lsbusi
so

Sbusi
so:
"Mnguni
,Iwasexpect
ingyourcal
lbutnot
thi
ssoon"

Me:"ShanduKaNdaba,
whydi
dn'tyout
ellmeyou'
re
sendi
ngyourmentowatchmefool?"
him:
"onl
yyouwouldcal
lmethat,
you'
rest
il
lthe
sameasshol
eIknow"welaugh

Me:
"howar
eyou?"

Him:
"I'
m wor
kinghar
dbuthey,
how'
sthesoont
o
bemrs"

Me:
"youknowever
ythi
ngdon'
tyou,
what
'sgoi
ngon
man?"

Hi
m:"dudeyouf
uckedup,
youf
uckedupbi
gti
me"

Me:
"whatdi
dIdo?"

Hi
m:"t
her
e'sapr
iceonyourhead"
Me:
"whowant
smedead?"

Hi
m:"i
t'
sthebr
otheroft
hemanyouki
ll
ed"

Me:
"whatman?"

Him:"t
hemanwhowant
edt
obuyyourpr
egnant
f
iancee"

Me:
"howdi
dhef
indouti
twasme?"

Him:
"Idon'
tknowbutsomeoneleti
tsli
p,whower
e
youwit
hwhenyouwenttokil
ltheguy?"

Me:
"Iwasal
one"

Him:
"manthink,
yout
oldsomeoneandt
hat
someonet
oldhim"
Me:
"ot
hert
hanmyi
n-l
awsmyf
ri
ends"

Hi
m:"t
henoneofyourf
ri
endsbet
rayedyou"

Me:
"Inevert
oldt
hem t
henameoft
heguy"

Him:
"butyoutol
dt hem t
hedet
ail
s,oneoft
hem
f
igur
editoutandtoldtheguyi
nexchangef
or
money"

Me:
"whoi
sheexact
ly?"

Hi
m:"he'
sanobodybutappar
entl
yhehi
redaguyto
t
akeyououtwho'
satrai
nedki
ll
ermanandworks
f
orthegover
nment
"

Me:
"youmeanhewant
smedeadsohecant
ake
l
uhawayf
rom me?"

Him:"yesappar
entl
ytheywer
egoi
ngtohaveheras
thei
rslavebutt
henyoucameandchanged
everyt
hing"

Me:"I
'm notaf
rai
dofhi
m,l
ett
hem al
lcomeandI
'
ll
dealwi
ththem "

Him:
"Iknowyouhaveyourownt
eam butsendi
ng
someofmymenwi l
lhel
p'

Me:"youcanhelpmebysendi
ngyourment ohear
what'
sthewordoutt
here,
asfort
hekil
lerand
br
otherleavei
ttome"

Him:
"I'l
ldot
hatbutl
etmeknowi
fyouneed
anyt
hing"
Me:
"I'
l
ldot
hat
,thanksbr
otherf
orl
ooki
ngoutf
or
me"

Hi
m:"justret
urni
ngthefavour,di
dyourbr
other
i
nlawenjoyhisdateatourrest
urant
?"

Me:
"itwasgoodman,
thanksf
orhooki
ngt
hem up"

Hi
m:"don'
tfor
getI
'
mjustaphonecal
laway"

Me:
"Iwon'
tfool"wel
augh

Hi
m:"orbef
oreIf
orgetwi
llwehave.
..
."

Me:"manshutup.
..
..
ther
e'snowayi
nhel
lthati
s
happeni
ng"

Hi
m:"youscar
edshe'
l
lleaveyouf
orme?"webot
h
l
augh

Me:
"inyourdr
eamsman"

Hi
m:"she'
sit
?"

Me:
"yeahshei
s"

Him:"I
'
m happyforyoubrot
herbutl
etmeknowi
f
bothofyouchangeyourminds"

Me:
"foolwewon'
t,
notwi
thher"

Hi
m:"hopeI
'
llbeabl
etosayt
hatt
oooneday"

Me:
"youwi
ll
,keepmepost
ed"
Him:
'Iwi
llbr
other"hehangsupandIshakemy
head

Mapholoba:"whatdidhesay?"It
ellhi
m wellexcept
fort
hepartthatsbuwantsmet osharelungiwit
h
him andhaveathreesomeli
keweusedt owhichis
nevergoi
ngt ohappen.

Hi
m:"sowegett
hebr
otherandki
llhi
m"

me:
"whenIwastracki
ngt
heguyt
her
ewasno
ment
ionofabr
other"

Hi
m:"maybehe'spart
enalormaternalbr
othert
hey
di
dn'
tli
vetoget
herorcl
oseormaybet heydidn'
t
wantpeopl
etoknowtheyarerel
ated"

Me:
"maybe,Iwasthinki
ngt
hati
t'
sti
mewegott
he
mazi
buko'
zallt
ogether"
Him:"vi
ctori
scomi
ngont
heweekend,
hehast
obe
heretoo"

Me:
"heneedst
ogetcl
osur
e"

Him:"Ineedyout
ofocusonl
uhandl
eave
ever
ythingtous"

Me:
"but
..
..
"thedooropens

Sicelo:
"dadisr
ight,
I'l
ldealwi
thwhoevert
hatguyis.
Justf i
ndoutwohei sandwherewe'l
lfi
ndhim and
we'llbri
nghi
m here"

Me:
"youl
ookl
ikeshi
t"

Hi
m:"manyouhavenoi
dea.Maphol
obahowar
e
you?"

Maphol
oba:
"I'
m goodseunbutyou?"(son)

Si
cel
o:"Idon'
tknow"

Hi
m:"what
'sgoi
ngon?"

Me:
"woment
roubl
e"

Si
cel
o:"f
oolshutup"

Maphol
oba:
"tal
kseun"(son)

Sicelo:
"dadl
etsdealwithonet hi
ngatati
me,I
'l
ltel
l
allofyouwhathappendbutf ornowlet
sdealwi
th
thisguyandgethim outoftheway"
Me:"nextweekt
henegot
iat
ionsar
ebeggi
ningandI
don'
twantanyonet
odisr
uptthat"

Maphol
oba:
"that
'st
rue"

Sicel
o:"whower etheguysthatwer
efoll
owi
ngyou"
Itel
lhim ever
ythi
ngincl
udingthephonecal
l
betweenmeandsbu

Me:
"coul
ditbethatt
heverysameguywho'swant
s
medead,
istheoneaftersi
phoandt
hul
i?"

Scel
o:"i
tcoul
dbeori
tcoul
dbeot
herpeopl
ethey
pi
ssedoff"

Me:
"sowear
egoi
ngt
oki
llal
lthr
eeoft
hem?"
Scel
o:"yes,al
lofthem "Someoneknocksont
he
doorandit'
smyl ovel
ybaby

Me:
"baby?"

Her
:"di
nneri
sready,
ohyou'
reher
e?"

Scel
o:"t
hel
astt
imeIcheckedi
t'
smyf
ather
'shouse!
"

Maphol
oba:
"scel
o!?"

Luh:"I'
m sor
rybhut
iIdi
dn'
tmeani
tli
ket
hat"
(brother)

Scel
o:"l
uh?
...
..
"

Me:
"br
otherwhat
'sgoi
ngon?"
Hi
m:"Idon'
twantt
otal
kabouti
t"heget
supand
l
eaves.

Maphol
oba:
"tal
ktohi
m mbuso,
he'
l
ltel
lyouwhat
's
wr
ong"

Me:
"Iwi
lldad"

Hi
m: "l
etsgoandeat,we'
l
lfi
nisht
hisconver
sati
on
l
ater"weleavethest
udyandshe'
satthedining
r
oom wai t
ingf
orus

Maphol
oba:
"wher
eisyou'
rebr
other
?"

Her
:"Idon'
tknow"

Me:
"babyhedi
dn'
tmeant
osnapatyou"
Her
:"Iknow"

Mah:
"whathappend?"

Mapholoba:
"scel
oi shavi
ngwoment
roubl
eandhe
snappedathissi
ster"

Mah:
"whoi
sshe?"

Lungi
:"mbusoknows"t heyal
llookatmeandI
keepquietl
ikeIdon'
tknowanythingandhonest
lyI
don'
t.

Maphol
oba:
"nonkul
ulekocal
lscel
o"

Mah:
"whyme?"
Maphol
oba:"hewon'tsnapatyou"shecal
lshi
m
put
shim onloudspeaker

Her
:"wher
ear
eyou?
,wewantt
oeat"

Hi
m:"eatwi
thoutme,
I'
m somewher
eri
ghtnow"

Her
:"what
'swr
ongscel
o?"

Hi
m:"notyout
ooaunt
y"t
henhehangsup

Her:
"ohwellItr
ied"shesaysgr
aceandweeatand
haveli
ghtconversat
ions

Luh:"dadcanmbusosleepoverpl
ease?"Ist
op
eat
ingandlookather

Hi
m:"hecanbaby,
mor
ecowsf
orme"hesays
shaki
nghi
sheadandl
uhl
ooksatmesmi
li
ng

Me:"thankyoumapholoba"wefi
nishourdinner
thengotobed,Ical
lscel
obuthedoesn'
tpickup.I
wonderwhathappenedbetweenherandayanda,I
holdmybabyandwesl eep.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER28.

LUNGI
.

Dadandmbusol eftaft
erhavingbreakf
astandI
thi
nktheyaretryingtofi
ndoutwhowast hatman
thatcl
aimsI'
m hisandatt hi
spointIjustwantallof
thi
stobeover ,Iwantbuhleandherpar entsoutof
myl i
feandIdon'tcarewhattheydowi tht hem
causeIfeell
ikeittheyarekeptal
iveI'
m always
goingtohaveat argetonmybackandI '
llhaveto
l
ookovermyshoul derever
yti
me.

I
'
mlayi
ngont
hecouchandr
eadi
ngamagazi
ne
aboutpar
enti
ngwhenmybr otherwal
ksinlooki
ng
l
ikehedidnotsl
eep.Hestopswhenheseesme
andcomesandsitsnextt
omeandhesi ghsdeeply
l
ikehehastheweightoft
hewor l
donhisshoulder
s.

Me:
"ar
eyouokay?"wespeakatt
hesamet
ime

Him:
"I'
m sorry"wel
ookateachot
herandwebot
h
smil
ethenlaugh

Me:"I
'm notmadatyou,I
'
mj ustworr
iedaboutyou
causeyoudon'tl
ookli
keyoursel
f"

Him:"I
'
m sor
ryaboutyest
erday,
Idi
dn'
tmeant
o
snapatyou"

Me:
"it
'swat
erundert
hebri
gde,
comeandl
etme,
us
makesomet
hingtoeat"
Hi
m:"t
hankyousi
s,I
'
m hungr
y.Wher
e'smah"

Me:"shel
eftl
ooki
ngallgoodandsai
dsomet
hing
aboutmeet
ingsomeonef oradat
e"

Hi
m:"she'
sdat
ing"

Me:
"ofcour
seshei
s,she'
sst
il
lyoung"

Hi
m:"Iwonderwho"

Me:
"asl
ongasshe'
shappyI
'
m good"

Hi
m:"whatdoyouwantt
oeat
?"

Me:
"chi
ckenmayosandwichpleasebutcanIhave
mi
lkandcooki
esf
ir
st?"helooksatmeandsmi les
Him:"youknowwhenyouwer eli
tt
le,youusedt o
l
ovecookiesandmi l
k,you'l
ltakemyhandandl ead
met othecookiejarmom usedt ohaveandi twas
ful
lchocolat
echipcooki esthenI'l
lgiveyouagl ass
ofmi l
kandyoudi pthecooki eandsayyouwant
one"hesmi les"Iusedt ohateitatfirstbutthenit
grewonmeandi twassomet hingwedi dal
most
everyday.
..
.i
t'
sfunnycauseIhadf orgettenthat
memor yuntilnow"Ismi lewipemyt ear soff

Me:
"Iwi
shIhadt
hatmemor
y"het
akesmyhand

Him:"Ipr
omiseyouthatI
'l
ldoi
twit
hyourkidsand
you'l
ldoi
twithmykidsandwhenoneofusneeds
total
kwe'l
ldothat
,onlyt
hetwoofuswil
lknow"

Me:
"Ipr
omi
set
oo,
thankyouf
orgi
vingmet
hat"

Hi
m:"not
hankyouf
orbei
ngt
hel
ightwedi
dn'
t
knowweneededunt
ilyoucame"

Me:
"you'
regoi
ngt
omakemecr
y"wehug

Hi
m:"you'
veal
waysbeenacr
ybaby"

Dad:"j
ustl
ikehermom "dadsaywi
thasmi
leonhi
s
faceandmbusoi ssmi
li
ngtoo

Sicelo:
"I'
m sor
rydad,
I'
m sor
rybr
otherf
or
yesterday"

Dad:
"it
'sf
ine"

Mbuso:
"noapol
ogi
esneeded"

Me:"al
lmyfavouri
temeni
noner
oom andt
heyal
l
getal
ongI
'm solucky"
Dad:
"I'
m youronl
yfavour
it
eman"

Me:
"yesyouar
edad"Iwi
nkatmbuso

Dad:
"Isawt
hat"weal
llaugh.

Me:
"anyoneel
sehungr
y?"

Mbuso:
"you'
renotcooki
ng,
I'
llcook"

Me:
"Idon'
twannadi
e"

Him:
"babyI
'
venevercookedf
oryousol
etmeshow
youwhatmymamat aughtme"

Me:
"ooohyessi
r"scel
ogi
vesmemycooki
esand
milkandtheyhavebeerandt heyst
arttalki
ngabout
soccerandIjustwatchthem andagainI'
mt hankf
ul
tohaveallofthem becauseIknowthey'l
ldief
orme
andI'
lldi
eforthem too.

Mah:"wowsomeofusar eplanni
ngaweddingand
therestofyouar
echi
ll
ingandhavingf
un,
nostress
oranything"

Pr
eston:
"Imaginet
hedaywehad.
..
stressf
ul,
big
br
othercanIhaveagl
assofwhi
tewine"

Si
cel
o:"pr
est
onI
'
m cooki
ng"

Pr
est
on:
"youcancook?"

me:
"he'
smaki
ngmeachi
ckenmayosandwi
ch"
Mah:"doesheknowhowtomakeit"shel
ooksl
ike
she'
sgoingtogetsi
ckandweal
llaugh

Scelo:
"thel
adyf
rom or
phanaget
aughtmehowt
o
cook,soIknowmywayaroundhekit
chen"

Prest
on:"youl
ivedi
nanor
phanage?"heasks
shocked

Sicel
o:"yeahIdi
d"het
ell
shi
m howweallendedup
beingherenowandheisamesscryi
ng

Prest
on:"wow,youknowsomef amil
ydon'thave
thi
sunit
y,acceptstr
anger
s,beki
ndandtreatthem
l
ikethei
rown...
Imeantoeventhei
rownsons"he
saysgetti
ngteary

Me:
"youhaveusnow"It
ryt
oli
ght
ent
hemood
Pr
est
on:
"Idobutwhyhaven'
tyouaskedmewher
e
I
'mfr
om "

Dad:"becauseyou'llt
elluswhenyou'r
ereadyand
alsowedon'tletj
ustanyonenearuspr est
on.I
knowwher eyougr ewupandwher eyou'
refrom but
Iwhatmat t
ersiswhoyouar eri
ghtnowwi t
hus.
Don'tst
ressyourself"

Pr
est
on:
"canIcal
lyoubabat
oo"weal
llaugh

Dad:
"yesyoucanson"ncooohhhhegi
vesdada
manl
yhugandwel augh.

Mah:
"whoknewt hi
shousewouldbefi
ll
edwi
thso
muchloveandl
aughter
?..
.Godi
sgood"

Us:
"Amen"wesayatt
hesamet
imet
henl
augh
Me:"howisever
ythi
ngcomi
ngal
ongwi
tht
he
weddding"

Prest
on:"si
sprepar
etobeshocked"hesays
movinghisheadwitheachwor
dt hensnapshi
s
fi
ngers.

Me:
"Ican'
twai
t.
..
wheni
smyf
it
ti
ngf
ort
hedr
ess"

Mah:
"we'
l
lletyouknowdon'
twor
ry"

Si
cel
o:"andt
hecol
our
sfort
heweddi
ng?"

Pr
est
on:
"I'
mthi
nki
nggr
eensui
ts"hesaysl
aughi
ng

Mbuso:"hel
lno!,
there'
snowayI'
m goingt
obe
weari
ngagr eensui
tonmyweddi ngday"hesays
pani
ckingandweal ll
aughathi
m
Prest
on:
"I'
mjustpul
li
ngyourl
eg,
don'
tworr
ywe'
re
al
lgonnabehandsomeincl
udi
ngdadher
e"hesays
smili
nganddadshakeshi
shead.

Me:"dadcanwehaveaweddi
ngaf
terI
'
vegi
ven
bi
rt
h"

Him:
"no!
,IhadyouwhenIwasmar
ri
edandyou'
re
goi
ngtodothesame"

Me:
"butIdon'
twantt
olookf
at"

Mbuso:"babyyouhaveaver
y..
.excusemedadbut
shehasaverysexybump,myki distr
eat
ingyou
well"Ibl
ush

Dad:
"hmmm "hesays.
Prest
onendsuphel pingsi
cel
ocookafullmealand
i
tsmellsdevinebutIcan'
thel
pcravi
ngforthe
something.

Me:"uhm pr
estoncanyoumakemet oast
edbagels
wit
hcream cheeseandpickles,
li
keIwantt hewhol
e
j
arofsweetandsourpickles"everyonegoessil
ent

Si
cel
o:"wow"t
hent
heyl
augh

Mbuso:
"don'
twor
rybabyI
'
llgoandgett
hem "

Me:"nodon'
tleave,
mahcanyousendsi
s
nontobekot
ogetitplease?"

Mah:"pregnancywi
llshowyoufl
ames,I'
l
lsend
nontobeko"andri
ghtatthatmomentshecomest
o
thekit
chen
Nontobeko:
"Si
rthesecuri
tysayst
here'
sawoman
out
sidetoseeyouandtheywanttoknowift
hey
canletheri
n"shesayslooki
ngatscelo

Si
cel
o:"me?"

Her
:"yessi
r"

Si
cel
o:"di
dtheysaywhoi
tis?"

Her
:"nosi
r"

Hi
m:"coul
ditbezama?
,tel
lthem t
oletheri
n"

Mah:
"zamayourhousekeeper
?"
Si
cel
o:"shel
eftme"

Dad:
"shel
eftyouorl
eftherj
ob?"

Sicel
o:"nodad,shelef
tme,Ihurtherand..
..
."we
l
ookateachot herthennont
ocomeswi t
hawoman
who'smyageorol derandshelooksbeaut i
fulI
guesscauseshehassomuchmakeupi t
'scrazy.

Her:
"hieveryone"shesayscheer
fulandIl
ookat
mahandpr eston'
smouthisopenshockedandI
wanttogiggle

Sicel
o:"you!
,whatthefuckar
eyoudoi nghere?"he
asksherangril
yandIhaveneverseensiceloangry
orevenmadandr i
ghtnowhel ooksl
ikehemi ght
j
ustkillher
..
.i
sthi
szama?

Her
:"Icamet
oseeyouscel
oman"huhwhat
?I
l
ookatmbusoandheshakeshi
shead

Si
cel
o:"howt
hef
uckdi
dyouknowwher
eIl
ive?"

Her:
"uhm Ikindali
keaskedyourworker
satyour
houseandtheyt ol
dmeyouwenthomeandIt ook
thefi
rstt
axioutandIaskedaroundandwowImust
sayyouguysar efamous,ever
yoneknowsthi
s
famil
y"

Him:"youfuckenaskedaroundaboutmeandcame
tomyhomeuni nvi
ted?
,youbett
ertakethosebags
youcamewi thandgobackt owhateverholeyou
crawledoutfr
om "

Her:
"scel
ocal
m downsomuchdrama?"shesays
wit
hsomuchat t
it
udeandsher
ool
shereyes

Dad:
"nt
ombazanewhoar
eyou?"(gi
rl
y)
Her:
"mynamei
sayandamasekoandI
'
m si
cel
o's
gi
rl
fri
end"

Sicel
o:"she'
snotmyf
uckengi
rl
fr
iend"hesays
annoyed

Dad:
"hmmm "

Her:
"youmustbet heparents,l
ungi,andwow
mbusopicturesdon'
tdoyouj ust
icewow!andI
don'
tknowwhoyouar e"shesaysi gnori
ngpr
est
on
andIdon'
tlikethat
,Idon'
tli
kehercausesherubs
nethewrongway.

Mah:"nont
obekotakeherbagst
otheguest
bedr
oom andayandawouldyouli
ketofr
eshenup?
"
Her
:"I
'
mfi
ne,
butI
'
m st
arvi
ng"

Mah:"nontowhenyou'r
edonepl easegoandbuy
thesethi
ngsforl
uh"shenodst hentakesayanda'
s
bags.Shecomesandst andsnexttomeandl ooks
atmelikeshe'
sstudyi
ngmeandt hatfr
eaksmeout

Her:
"whenscelof i
rstshowedmeyourpi ctur
e,I
waslikeshe'
sbeaut i
fulthenIgoogl
edyouandsaw
yourpict
uresoninstagram butIdi
dn'tknowt hat
you'
repregnant
..
..
"shesayswant i
ngt otouchmy
stomach.

Me:"I
'
m goi
ngtopunchyoui
fyout
ouchmy
st
omach!"shest
ops

Her
:"Ij
ustwant
edt
ofeel
it"

Si
cel
o:"mahIwanthergone!"
Mah:"youwerenotraisedlikedthatscelo,wedon'
t
ki
ckguestsout.Ayandat hi
si sscelo'sdad,I
'
m hi
s
auntandthi
sispreston,scelo'sbrotherandyou
seem t
oknowmbusoandl ungi"

Her
:"j
ustbypict
uresonl
y,whydoesn'
thel
ookl
ike
l
ungiandscel
o?"

Me:
"hewasadopt
ed"

Si
cel
o:"I
'
vel
ostmyappet
it
e"

Mah:"si
cel
o,youaregoi
ngtofi
nishcooki
ng,
dish
upforever
yonethenwe'
llal
lsi
tdownandhave
di
nnerthengotobed"

Her
:"wowscelo,
nowIseewhereyougotyourgood
l
ooksfr
om "sheeyesmydadandwelookather
shocked,
Ial
mostwantt
osl
apher

Si
cel
o:"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"

Her:
"Icamet oseeyou,
Ifel
tli
kewehada
misunder
standi
ngandyouneedtoapologi
setome
t
hatyouwer ewrongandthenwe'
llal
lmoveon"

Si
cel
o:"youar
efuckencr
azy!"

Dad:
"beni
cescel
o"

Si
cel
o:"dadyoudon'
tunder
tsand"

Dad:
"Idoson,
cal
m down"

Mbuso:
"wher
eisnont
obeko?"
Me:
"she'
l
lbebackbaby"

Ayanda:
"wowsoyoul i
vewi
thl
uh'
sparent
s?,wowI
di
dn'tt
akeyoufort
hatki
ndofman"shesays
l
ookingatmbuso

Pr
est
on:
"Ihaveneverbeent
hisspeechl
essi
nmy
l
if
eandi
ttakesal
ottoshutmeup"

Mah:
"amen"

Ayanda:
"areyougayorbi
sexualpr
est
oncauseyou
gi
vemet hosevi
bes?"

Me:
"whydoesi
tmat
ter
?"

Her
:"Ij
ustwantt
oknow"
Si
cel
o:"ohl
ookher
eisnont
o,t
hankyousi
sinont
o"

Nont
o:"mypl
easur
esi
r"

Ayanda:
"ar
eyoufli
rt
ingwi
tht
hemai
d?"pr
est
on
al
mostchokesdr
inki
ng

Mah:"ayandawedon'tcal
lourhousekeeper
smai
ds,
wecallthem byt
hei
rnamesher e"Il
ookatdadand
he'
ssoqui etwat
chi
ngayanda

Her:
"butt
heyaremaids,
sowhat'
sthedif
ference?"
mbusoandsceloar
ehavingaqui
etconversati
on
wit
hthei
reyes

Dad:
"soshe'
sther
easonyoucamehomeupset
?"
Her
:"ncoohbaby,
youwer
eupsett
oo?"

Sicel
o:"GodwhatdidIdo?!"prestonmakesmemy
foodandwesi tdowninthelivi
ngr oom andeatbut
we'realll
ist
eni
ngtoayandatalkingabouthowr i
ch
wear eandsheknowshowr i
chmbusoi sanddamn
shegulpingthatwi
nenotdrinking,Itr
ytoeatbutI
havelostmyappetit
e.

Me:
"canIbeexcused?"

Her
:"why?
"

Me:
"I'
mti
redandmyf
eel
hur
t"

Her:
"butyou'
vebeensi
tt
ingdownt
hiswhol
eti
me
si
nceI'
vebeenhere?"
Me:
"dadcanIbeexcused?"

Pr
est
on:
"youf
eel
okay?"

Me:"yesi
t'
sjustmybackt
hat
'sal
l,
Ineedt
oli
e
down"

Mbuso:
"ar
eyousur
e?"

Her
:"shesai
dit
'snot
hingwhat
'st
hebi
gdealpeopl
e
"

Dad:
"it
'sokaybabygoandr
est"

Me:"pl
easespendt
heni
ght
?"Iaskpr
est
onandhe
l
aughs

Hi
m:"youdon'
thavet
oaskmesi
sI'
m st
ayi
ng"
Her
:"youdon'
tli
veher
e?"

Pr
est
on:
"yesIhavemyownpl
ace"

Her:
"whatdoyoudof
oral
ivi
ng?
...
ohdon'
tanswerI
know"

Pr
est
on:
"real
ly?"

Her:"yes,
youhaveari
choldgaywhit
emanwho
takescareofyou"wowthewholet
ablegoesdead
quiet

Prest
on:"knowayandaI'
vemetmanypeoplewho
havethatkindofmental
it
yandwholi
keto
ster
eotypepeoplel
i
keme.Idon'
thavehaveari
ch
sugardaddycauseItakecar
eofmyself"
Her
:"ohyou'
reast
ri
pper"

Pr
est
on:
"noI
'
m adoct
or"

Her
:"wow,
youdon'
tlookt
het
ype"

Sicel
o:"br
otherlet
sgooutsi
deandt
akeawal
k"
sceloandprestonleavet
hetabl
e

Me:
"goodnightdaddy"Ikisshi
m andhughi
m and
myki
dsplayandwebot hlaugh

Dad:"canIf eel
?"Itakehishandandhefeel
sthem
forthefi
rsttimeandhel ookssohappy."
wow. .
..
don'ttheyhurtyouwhentheydothat
?"I
giggle
Me:
"theydon'
t"

Dad:
"okbabygoodni
ght
,goodni
ghtmbuso"

Mbuso:
"goodni
ghtf
ami
ly"

Me:
"ni
ghtmami"

Her
:"don'tl
eavemewit
hhercauseIt
hinkI'
m goi
ng
t
okillher"shewhi
sper
sinmyearandIlaugh

Me:
"noyouwon'
t,
goodni
ghtayanda"

Her:
"night"wel
eavethenIseedadleavi
ngt
ooI
gi
ggle,
thenayandaasksaquesti
on

Her
:"wher
eisscel
obedr
oom "
Mah:"scel
owil
lki
llyouifhefi
ndsyoui
nhi
s
bedr
oom, st
ayawayf r
om him"
.
CHAPTER29.

MBUSO.

It'
sear l
yt heearlyhoursofthemor ningandshe' s
sleepingandIdon' twanttowakeherupbutIhave
tocauseweneedt otal
k,Iwant edtot al
ktoherbut
shef ellasleepthemomentshegoti nbed.Imi ssus
beingal oneatourhousebutf ornowt hi
swilldo
causeIhavet okeepherpr otect edbutIhavet ogo
andIdon' tknowhowshe' sgoi ngt otakeit
.Ilookat
thetimeandi t'
s2am andby3I 'm supposetol eave
andIdon' tknowwhenI '
l
lcomeback.

Me:"baby..
..
love?"Ibrushherfaceandshesighs
andsmiles,Ikeepbrushingherfaceandshe
doesn'
twakeupsoIbr ushmybear edonherface
andshemovesherf
acef
rowni
ngandIal
most
l
augh

Her
:"boo?"

Me:"wakeupbaby,weneedt
otal
k"sheopensher
eyesandlooksatme

Her
:"yousmel
lfr
esh.
..
.wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?"

Me:
"si
tupbaby,
sowecant
alk"

Her
:"di
dyousl
eept
hough?"

Me:
"noIwaswat
chi
ngyou"

Her
:"t
alkt
omeboo"
Me:
"Ihavetogobaby,
Ihavet
olookf
ort
heman
whowantsyou?"

Her
:"di
dyouf
indoutwhohei
s?"

Me:"yeahIdidbutIneedyout
obestrongforour
ki
ds,foryouandformebabycauseIcan'
tdot hi
s
knowingthatyou'
renotgoi
ngt
obeokay" .

Her
:"Idon'
thaveanyotherchoi
cebutt
obest
rong
mbuso,Iwantal
lofthi
stobeover"

Me:"met oobabyandIneedyout
oknowthatI
'
m
goingtodoeveryt
hingi
nmypowertokeepmy
famil
ysafe"

Her
:"whoi
she?"
Me:"it
'sthebrot
herofthemanIkil
led,
hewasn't
j
ustgoingtobuyyouforhimself
.Hewasgoingto
shar
eyouwi thhi
sbrotherbutt
henIkil
ledhi
m and
nowhewant syou"

Her:
"buthowdi
dhef i
ndouti
twasyou,
Imeanhe
coul
dhavebeenki
ll
edbyanyone?"

Me:"It
hinkoneofmyf r
iendsbet
rayedmecause
theyar
etheonlypeopl
ewhoknewexcl udi
ngyour
unclef
atherandbr
other"

Her
:"whocanwetrustmbusowhenpeopl
ecl
oset
o
uskeepbet
rayi
ngus?"

Me:"I
'm goi
ngtoendallofi
tcauseI
'm si
ckand
ti
redofallt
heli
esandpeopleshowi
ng.I'
m done
babyIjustwantsomepeaceandquiet"
Her
:"butdoyouhavet
ogo?"

Me: "Ihavetogoandel iminateever ythr

eatout
therethatwantstotakemyhappi nessaway.No
onei sgoingtotakeyouawayf r
om mel ungievenif
i
tmeansIhavet okilleveryoneoutt heretomake
thewor l
dasaf eandbet terplaceforyout henthat
's
whatIwoul ddo.Youwer emadef ormeandme
only,nooneelse" .

Her
:"Pr
omi
semet
hatyou'
l
lcomebackt
ous"

Me:"Ipr
omisebaby,pr
omisemethatyouwon'
tget
str
essandbeli
eveandknowthatI
'
m comingback
toyou"

Her:"Ipr
omi seyou,
Idon'
twannaloseyoumbuso
somakesur eyoucomebackbackinpeacewhen
theyarealldead"
Me:
"Il
oveyou"

Her
:"notasmuchIl
oveyou"

Me:
"You'
remywor
ldl
ungi
le,
youandmyki
ds"

Her
:"You'
remyever
ythi
ngmbusowezwegumede"

Me:
"Ihavet
ogobaby"

Her
:"youwantmet
owal
kyouout
?"

Me:
"Idon'
twantt
ogeti
nthecarandwat
chyou,
wat
chmeleave"

Her
:"gobef
oreIcr
y"Igetherupandhugheras
bestasIcanandhol dherti
ght.Ikissheral lover
herfacethengiveheral i
ghtkissonherl ips.Then
l
ayheront hebedagai nandl ookatherl ovely
stomachandki ssitthenwipetear soffhereyes,
takemyphonet hengo.Idon'tlookbackcause
seeinghercryi
ngbr eaksmyhear tandImi ght
decidenottoogo.

Her
:"mbuso?"

Me:"pleasedon'tt
ellmenott
ogo"Ihearher
get
tingupt henshelooksf
orsomet
hingt
henshe
comest owardsme

Her:
"t urnaroundandl ookatme"It ur
n."whenwe
wentshoppi ngf orgrocer
ieswithmahl astweekI
sawt hisshopandsomet hingluredmei nthere.I
t
wasaj ewel
leryshopandIt ol
dthem thatIhad
gott
enengagedandIwant edthem t
omake
somet hingspecialforyou,soher ei
tis"Iturnthe
l
ightsonandi t
'sar i
ngandi t'
sbronze,si
lverand
gol
dandIl
ovei
t.

Me:
"wowbabyIl
ovei
t,whendi
dyoucol
lecti
t?"

Her
:"mahandpr
est
oncamewi
thi
ttoday"

Me:
"thankyoubabyI
tmusthavecostaf
ort
une"

Her
:"noitdi
dn't,Iwantyout
oweart
hisandnever
t
akeitof
funtilyoucomeback"shesaystear
ingup.

Me:"I'
l
ltakei
toffwhenweyouputonmyweddi ng
ri
ng"sheputsitonmyringf
ingerandImustsayi
t
suit
sme

Her:
"Ilovethesoundofthat
,nowgoandget 'em
ti
ger"Ikissheragai
nthenclosethedoorandstand
behi
ndi tandli
stent
ohercryingsoft
lyt
henshe
st
opsandgoest
obed.

Si
cel
o:"i
ssheokay?"

Me:
"yeahshewi
llbe,
shegavemet
his"

Mmaphol
oba:
"itl
ooksni
ce"

Si
cel
o:"you'
reof
fi
cial
lyof
fthemar
ket"

Me:
"Iwasof
fthedayshegotmyhear
t"

Si
cel
o:"ar
eyousur
eyouwantt
odot
hisal
one?"

Me:"Bongawi
llbewi
thmeandsbusai
dhewi
llt
ag
al
ong"
Si
cel
o:"Ishoul
dbet
her
ewi
thyou"

Me:"Ineedyouher
etowatchovereveryoneand
hel
pdad, pl
usyouneedt
osortoutthi
si ssueyou
havewithayanda"

Maphol
oba:
"mbusoi
sri
ght,you'
renotinther
ight
f
rameofmindandyoumightgetyoursel
fhur
t"

Si
cel
o:"Iknow"

Me:"Ineedallofyout omakesur el
uhandt hebaby
ar
eokayandshe' snotstressedandwor ri
edabout
mecausei fweallleaveshewillnotcope"

Maphol
oba:"I
'
m gi
vingyout
woweeksi
fyoudon'
t
come,I
'
mt aki
ngyourdadwi
thmeandwe'
re
comi
ngtogetthem "
Me:
"don'
twor
rydadI
'
llbeback"

Si
celo:"keepi
ncont
actever
ydaybr
otherj
ustl
ike
wetalked"

Me:
"Iwi
llbr
other
,letmego"

Me:"ohbr ot
herIal
mostf
orgot
,ther
e'sapackage
thati
sgoingtocometomorr
owandIneedyout ake
goodcareofit"

Si
cel
o:"whati
sit
?"

Me:
"you'
l
lseei
t"

Hi
m:"okbr
othergoodl
uck"

Maphol
oba:
"mayyourancer
stor
sbebyyoursi
de
andmyGodpr
otectyouandbr
ingyoubackt
omy
daught
er"

Me:"thankyoumapholoba"wehugthenIgeti
nmy
carandgot omyhousewherebongaandsbuareat
.
Wedoourdai l
yri
tualwhenwegotohuntandwe
getdone.

Me:
"your
eadyguys"

Si
busi
so:
"Imi
ssedt
hisl
etsgo!"

Bonga:"hel
lyes"Wegeti
nthecar
,headt
owhere
theheli
copteri
sgoi
ngtopi
ckusupandthenhead
toPortEli
zabet
h.

AYANDA.
Ican'tletscelogoj ustl
iket hat
,he'stheonef ormeI
knowt hatbutIhavet okeepmysel finli
neandt r
yto
behavesowecanhavear elati
onship.Idi dn'
t
expectmyot hersidewillcomeoutt hissoon, I
thoughtIcoul dithiddenbutt here'ssomet hing
abouthi mt hatmakesmef eell
ikeIdon' thaveto
pretend.Whyshoul dIbet hispersonever yone
expectsmet obewhenIknowt hisisther ealme
causeevenmyf ri
endsknowme, t
her ealme.

Ihavet r
iedt ochangeandt otoneitdownbutdamn
Ican'thelpmysel f
,scelomadeapr omi setomeand
saidhe'sal li
nsohebet t
erkeephispr omisecause
I'
m notgoi nganywher eevenifitmeansIhavet o
pretend.WhenIgoogl edIfoundoutt hattheyarea
verycloseandver ypr i
vatefamily,
there'snotalot
aboutthem per sonal
lybutonlybusi nessstuffand
sowhenIf oundoutt hatheisrichandhi sfamilyis
ri
cht ooIhadt ocomeandt rytoconvi ncehimthat
wehavet obet oget
her .
AllIhavet odoi stobet hissweetyayahe
remember sthengethi mt ofalli
nlovewithme,
sleepwi t
hhi m andgetpr egnantthenhewi l
lhave
nochoi cebutt omar ryme.Ihavet ogetpregnant
andhavehi skidsthenIknowI 'l
lbesetforli
f e
causet here'
snowayI '
m goingtobepooragai n,not
whenIhavef oundmysel fatickettogetoutoft his
l
ife.Iknowhewi l
lhelpmebui ldmybaker ytot hey
wayIwantandhe' ll
usehi sconnect i
onstogetme
tendersandhe' llgi
vememoneyashi swifebutf i
rst,
Ihavet oplayni cetohissistercauseIsawt hathe
i
sver yfondofherandl ovesherandi fshedoesn' t
l
ikemet henIdoubthewi l
lwanttobewi thme.

Ihavetobeherbestfri
endandst artplayingnice
causeI'
m notgoingtolosescelot oanyonet hatI
knowandI '
l
lmakesur eIr emoveever ythr eatt
here
i
sstandinginmyway.Tsheposawt her ealmeand
hetoldmeacoupl eoftimest ochanget hewayI
speaktohim andmyat ti
tudebutIdi dn'tli
stenand
that
'swhenhest ar
tedgettingphysicalwi thmeand
karabowarnedmetochangemywaysorel
seIwil
l
getint
roubl
eandhedidkeept
ohi
swordandended
mei nhospi
tal
.

Iknowscel oisapowerfulmanandhewi l
lsor
t
tshepooutbecausehewi lldoanyt hi
ngtomakeme
happy, hehastoo,whathef el
tf ormecan'tj
ust
disappearli
keheitwasnevert here.TheonlywayI
willbr
ingthatsi
deoutofhi m againisformetobe
submi ssi
vetohimthenhewon' tknowwhathithim.
Godgi vemet hest
rengt
ht okeepmymout hshut
andbeni cesoallt
hesepeopl eher ewil
lli
keme.

I'
m onmywayt othekit
chenwhenIheart hem
tal
kingsoIl istentothem astheytal
kaboutmbuso
l
eavingf orsomewher eandsceloisgoingtostay
behindbutwhati sthatpackagethati
scomi ng
tomorrowt hatmbusowant sscelototakegood
careoff?,hmmm Iwonderormaybehebought
l
ungisomet hing.Mbusoscar esmeandIt hinkhe
wasgoi ngtoseet hr
oughmybul lshi
tbutnowt hat
heisnother
eIhavetomakesur
eIpl
aymycards
ri
ghtandmakescel
ofal
linl
ovewi
thmebef
ore
mbusocomesback.

Idon'tknowhowl ungigotamanl i
kembusocause
shelooksli
keshe'saweakper sonandshe'st
oo
softformyliki
ngandmbusoi sscarytheman
hardlysmil
esbutwai tmaybeIhavet obeli
kelungi
toososcelowi l
lbeli
evethatIhavechanged.Great
i
deaayanda, IsmiletomyselfasIgobackt othe
guestbedroom thatI'
m usi
ngf ornow,oper
ati
onget
scelobackstart
swhenIwakeup.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER29.

LUNGI
.

WhenIgett otheki
tcheneveryoneisawake
i
ncludingournoti
nvitedguest,
I'
m surpr
isedt
osee
mybr otherher
ecauseIthoughthewouldhaveleft
wit
hmbusobuthei shereandifhe'
sherewhodi d
mbusol
eavewi
th?
.

Me:
"goodmor
ning"Isi
tdown

Them:
"goodmor
ningl
uh"

Nont
o:"canImakeyousomet
hingsi
sluh"

Me:
"justyoghur
tandmuesl
i
,thanksnont
o"

Dad:
"ar
eyouf
eel
ingokaybaby"

Me:"I
'
mf i
nedad"Ikeepqui
et,
takemyf
oodandeat
andIfeelalleyesonme.

Mah:
"Luh?"
Me:
"mahI'
mf i
ne,act
ual
lyI
'
m not.Whydidmbuso
goal
onet
ofacethatmanwhereverhei
s?"

Sicel
o:"Idi
dn'tgowit
hhim causeIhavetomake
surethatever
yoneinthi
shouseissafeandhehas
bongaandhi sotherf
ri
endsbu,sodon'twor
ryabout
him"

Me:"howcouldInotworr
yscel
oIlovehim andnow
he'
sgonetolookforsomeonewhowant st
ohurt
me,I'
m al
waysputti
nghisli
fei
ndangerandwhatif
hedoesn'
tcomebackt omeandtheykil
lhim?"

Br
other:"mbusoisonetoughmanl uhandhewil
l
makesur et
hathecomesbackt oyounomat t
er
what,Iwouldn'
thavest
ayedbehindknowingt
hathe
mightnotcomeback.Don'twor
rysi s"

Preston:
"andrememberyou'
reonbedr
estandwe
don'twanttoupsett
hebaby"
Me:
"Iknow"

Dad:
"he'
sgott
hisbaby,
don'
twor
ryokay?"

Me:
"okdaddy"

Si
cel
o:"cooki
esandmi
lk?"

Me:
"maybel
ater"

Hi
m:"ar
eyousur
e?"

Ayanda:
"Iwoul
dlovesome"Ii
gnor
eher

Me:"Iam "Igi
vehi
m ahal
fsmil
e,heget
supand
comestomeandt akesmyhand.
Hi
m:"hehasatrackeronhi
m, weknowhi
sever
y
moveandshouldanythi
nghappenwewil
l
i
mmediat
elyknow"

Me:"t
hankyou"heki
ssesmyf
oreheadt
hengoes
backtohi
sseat
.

Ayanda:
"uhm, canIhaveever yone'
sattenti
on?"we
al
llookather."Ijustwantedtoapologi
sef ormy
behavi
ourlastnight,Idi
dn'
tmeant odisrespect
anyoneormakeanyonef eeluncomfortabl
e"

Mah:
"apol
ogyaccept
ed"

Ayanda:
"andI'
m sor
rybabaf
ordi
srespect
ingyou
andyourhouse"

Dad:
"hmmm "
Ayanda:
"nowthatyouhaveaccept edmyapol
ogyI
wouldli
ketocooklunchforyoutoshowhowsorryI
am andthehousekeeper
scanf ocusonot
hert
hings
whil
eIcookforyou"

Me:
"wedon'
ttr
ustyouandyou'
reneverevergoi
ng
t
ocookf
orus!"

Si
cel
o:"youwantt
opoi
sonandki
llal
lofus?"

Ayanda:
"what?no,I'
mjustt
ryi
ngt
oapol
ogi
sef
or
mybehaviourscel
o!"

Me:
"whatchanged?"

Her
:"nothing,Ij
ustl
ikescel
over
ymuchandIwant
ust
of i
xt hings"
Sicelo:"youthinkyoucanj ustdecidethatI'
llj
ust
forgiveyouandwe' llmagicall
yf i
xthingswhen
you'vedi sr
espectedmeinmyf ather'shouseand
calledmenamesnoonehaseversai dandyou
showupher eandyouthinkI '
l
ljustforgetabouti
t?"

Ayanda:"scel
oI'
m sor
ryokayIdon'tnowwhat
changedorwhathappendt ome,pleasegiveme
anotherchancet
obeyourgi r
lf
ri
endandyou' l
lsee
thatI'
l
lmakeagoodwi feandmot hertoyourki
ds"

Sicelo:"I'
m goingtosaythisonelastt
imeandyou
bettergett hatthr
oughthatfuckedupheadofyours.
NothingandImeannot hi
ngbet weenusisever
goingt ohappenbet weenusayanda, i
tended
beforei tevenbegan.Acceptitandmoveonwi th
yourl i
fe"

Ayanda:
"no!
,no!
,
no!
,
no!"shebangst
het
abl
ehar
d
shocki
ngever
yone

Mah:
"whyar
eyoubangi
ngt
het
abl
e?"

Me:
"yousai
dyougoogl
edusr
ightayanda?"

Her
:"yesIdi
d"

Me:
"why?"

Her
:"becauseIwant
edt
ofi
ndoutmor
eaboutscel
o?
"

Me:
"bef
oreoraf
teryouguysendedt
hings?"

Her
:"af
terokay!"
Me:
"andwhatdi
dyouf
indoutexact
ly?"

Her:
"thatyouguysareapri
vat
efamil
yandyou
havemanybusinessesandyou'
real
lri
ch"

Pr
est
on:
"AHHA!"

Me:
"sot
hat
'
sther
ealr
easonyou'
reher
eri
ght
?"

Her
:"uhhhyes,
Imeanno!
,howdar
eyouaskme
t
hat?"

Me:"let
scutthebull
shitayanda!,st
opthisfri
endly
l
ookingconfusedgir
lact.Idon'tknowyou
personal
lybutIcanreadaper sonandyousmel l
l
ikebadnews, t
here'
ssomet hingsinni
sterabout
youandi tsmel
lsbad"
Ayanda:"Idon'
tknowwhatyou'
ret
alki
ngabout
okay,I
'
m notabadperson!"

Me:"Ihearyoubutyouneedsomethingfr
om my
brot
herorus,whatisi
t,whati
stherealr
eason
you'
rehere?"

Ayanda:
"what
?,me?
,whatwoul
dIneedf
rom you
guys?"

Dad:
"samet
hingt
hatbr
oughtyouher
e"

Ayanda:
"wel
lIj
ustwantt
obescel
ogi
rl
fr
iendand
getmarr
iedt
ohim"

Dad:"andyou'
l
lli
vet
hel
if
eyounevert
houghtyou
wil
l"
Her
:"uhmm wellIguessbutIam scel
ogirl
fr
iendhe
madeapromisetomet hatheisalli
n,soIwanthim
t
okeepthatpr
omi se!"

Dad:
"asi
let
hiizi
ntombil
anaemzi
nikababaayanda,
si
let
haabomakoti""i
nmyf at
her
'shousewedon't
br
inggi
rl
fri
ends,webri
ngonlybr
ides"

Ayanda:"buther
eIam r
eadyt
obescel
owi
fe!"she
st
artstogetupset

Dad:
"whobr
oughtyouher
eayanda?"shest
ands
up

Her
:".
..
..
..
Idi
d"

Dad:
"si
tdownayanda!"
Her
:"I
'
mfi
nej
ustst
andi
ngt
hankyouver
ymuch"

Me:
"wow!"

Pr
est
on:
"theaudaci
tyayanda!"

Dad:"howmuchmoneydoyouwantsoyoucanget
outofmyson'
shouse?"shesmi
les

Her
:"r
eal
ly?"

Mah:
"OhmyGod!"

Dad:
"yesI
'
m ser
ious"

Me:"nameyourpr
iceayandacauseweknowyou
onl
ywantmoney"
Her
:"wel
l,Il
ovemoneymor
ethanyouscel
oso
hmmm letmethi
nk"

Si
cel
o:"youdi
sgustmeayanda"

Her:
"ohgetoveryour
sel
fthewor
lddoesn'
trevol
ve
ar
oundyou!"

Dad:
"br
ingmemycheckbookscel
o"

Si
cel
o:"dadno!"

Dad:
"gogeti
t"scel
oleavesandayandasi
tsdown
andl
eaves

Her
:"Ihavemademymi
nd.Iwantonemi
ll
ionr
ands
"
Prest
on:
"bi
tchyourf
uckenloco!
,you'
recoocoo!"
(bit
chyou'
ref
uckencrazy!)

Me:"ohmyGod"Il augh,alaughadeepbellylaugh,
thenprestonj
oinsmebutmahanddadar ejust
l
ookingatusl i
kewe'recrazyandayandalookslike
shewant stokil
lme,bit
chgetinli
neliket
her est
.

Ayanda:
"don'
tlaughatme!"

Me:"wear
elaughi
ngatt
heamountofmoneyyou
want!"

Preston:
"doyouknowhowhardyouhavet
owork
andhowmanyyear syouhavet
oworktomakeand
getthatki
ndofmoney?"

Her
:"Idon'
tcar
e,t
hat
'smypr
ice!"
Dad:
"thent
hat
'swhatyou'
l
lget"

Si
cel
o:"her
eiti
sdad"

Dad:
"doyouwantacheckoryouwantmet
o
t
ransf
ert
hemoney?"

Her:
"noIwantthecheckcausetr
ansfer
ingthe
moneywouldmakemybankaskal otofquesti
ons
anditwi
llt
akedays,soi
t'
sbett
erItakethecheck"
shesaysveryexci
ted

Pr
est
on:
"I'
m gonnabesi
ck!"

Dad:
"checki
tis"

Nont
o:"bhutscel
o,f
ranki
sher
etoseeyou"weget
qui
et

Si
celo:"t
ellhimtocomei n"shel
eavesthenafew
minuteslaterf
rankcomesandhel ookswor
ri
edand
myhear talmoststops.

Me:
"fr
ankwhat
'swr
ong?
,isi
tmbuso?"

Hi
m:"ahmadam howar
eyou?"

Me:
"Idon'
tknow,
tel
luswhat
'swr
ong?"

Hi
m:"nomadam t
hebossi
sokay,
uhm scel
o
mbusosentmet
ogetsomethi
ngf
oryou"

Si
cel
o:"whati
sit
?,wher
eisi
t?"

Hi
m:"i
t'
snotaat
hing,
it'
saper
son"
Us:
"what
?"

Sicel
o:"nohedi
dn'
t,
thatf
ool
!,
wher
eisshe?"he
sayssmi l
ingwowokay

Fr
ank:
"Ilockedherinthecarcausesheal
most
dr
oveoffwiththecar"scel
olaughsandwowhe
l
ooksexcit
ed.

Ayanda:
"uhm excusemewhoi shetal
kingabout
andwhydoyoul ooksohappy?"sheasksscelo
mad

Pr
est
on:
"she'
snoneofyourbusi
ness"

Me:
"ar
eyout
alki
ngaboutzamaf
rank?"
Hi
m:"yesmadam,"Ist
il
lhat
ethatname

Sicelo:
"If
uckenloveyourmbuso"hesaysand
hugsmet henleavesusintheki
tchenandf
rank
foll
owshim.

Me:"sombusoaskedf
rankt
ogol
ookf
orzamaand
br
ingherher
e..
.wow!"

Ayanda:
"whoi
sthi
szamawomanyou'
ret
alki
ng
about
?"

Mah:"t
heonewho'shopef
ull
ygoi
ngt
obeourbr
ide,
shehasscel
o'shear
t"

Ayanda:
"what
?!,
hel
lnoscel
oismi
neandmi
neonl
y!
"
Dad:
"no,t
hemoneyisyoursandher
eitis"she
t
akesthecheckandl
ooksati
tandscreamssmili
ng

Her:
"ohmyGod!
,ohmyGod!OhmyGod!
,i
tsal
l
mine!"

Dad:"nowtakeyourbacksandgetthefuckof
fmy
propert
yandyoubetternotsetf
oother
eeveragai
n
orcontactmyson.Doyouhearme?"mydad
soundssodiff
erentr
ightnow

Her
:"Ihearyousi
r"

Dad:"
ifyout
rytocontactanymemberofmyf
amil
y
orfi
ndyouorhearthatyouwereanywher
ecl
oset
o
them youwi
llbesor
ry!"

Her
:"I
,Ihearyousi
r,Iwi
llgonow"shestammers
t
akeshercheckandgoest ot
heguestbedr
oom t
o
packhert
hings.

Me:
"Idon'
ttr
usther"

Mah:"nontogoandcheckandseeifshedoesn'
t
st
ealanythi
ngofour
s"sheleaves.

Me:
"daddi
dyour
eal
lyj
ustgi
veherami
ll
ionr
ands?
"

Dad:"thatgi
rlr
emindsofthul
iandifhersurname
wasn'tmaseko,Iwouldswearshe'st
hulidaught
er
causet hewayshebehaves..
.she'
sobsessedwit
h
scel
o"

Me:
"wast
hul
iobsessedwi
thyoudad?"

Dad:
'nott
hatIknowofcauset
heonl
ywomanwho
hadmyhear
tandeyeswasyourmot
her"hmmmm.

Scelowalksinwi t
hawomanandshel ookslikeshe
hasbeencr yingevent houghherf aceisfaci
ng
downcauseshekeepswi pinghertear
sof f
.My
brotherl
ooksl i
kehei swor riedandIwonderwhat 's
goingonbet weenthem.Shel i
ft
sherheadand
she'sabeautifulf
ullcurvywoman, shelooksatus
andoureyesconnectandsheof fer
smeasi de
smileandIgi vehermyf ullone.

Sicel
o:"ahmahanddad, yourememberzama.
Zamat hisismysi
sterl
ungiyouhaven'tmetand
thisi
spr est
onmyadoptedbrother,
guysthi
sis
ZamaShanget hewomanIwantt obui
ldafutur
e
with"

Me:
"Hizamani
cet
omeetyou"

Her
:"sani
bonanibabanaweaunt
y,hiPr
est
on,
hi
l
ungi,ni
cet
ofi
nal
lymeetyou.Ihavehear
dsomuch
aboutyou"

Me:
"ni
cethingsIhopeandcallmeluh"shesmiles
hmmm Icanseewhymybr otherwouldl
ikeher

Ayanda:
"oht
hisi
sthet
rashyoul
eftmef
or?"

Sicel
o:"pl
easegoayanda!"zamalooksatscel
o
hurtandshetakesastepawayfr
om himt henscel
o
takesherhand

Ayanda:
"NoI'
m notgoi
nganywher
e!,
youwantme
gonesoyoucanbewi t
hher
?"

Sicel
o:"I
'
m gi
vingyouonel
astchanceayanda,
be
gone!"
Her
:"orwhatscel
o,whatwi
llyoudot
ome?"

Sicel
o:"Iwil
lki
llyouri
ghthere,
rightnowandno
one,Imeannoonewi l
leverfi
ndyourbody!"he
saystakingouthisgunandpointingitt
oherhead
andIseehershaki ngl
ookingscared

Her:
"youwouldn'
tdar
eshootmeinf
rontof
ever
yone"shesayssmil
ingmyGodwhosmi l
es
whentheyhaveagunpoint
edatt
hem?

Sicel
o:"ayandaItol
dyout ostoppushingmebut
youjustkeepdoingit,youwantmet oprovei tt
hat
I'
l
lshhotyoui nf
rontofeveryonet
henIwi ll"he
cockshisgunandi saboutt opul
lthetri
ggerandI
standthereshockedthinki
ngmybr otherisreal
ly
goingtoshootayanda.

Ayanda:
"youareaweakmanscel
o,weak!
.Thati
s
whyyoucan'thandl
east
rongwomanli
kemeand
t
henrunt
othi
spathet
iclookingthi
ngyoucal
la
womanyouwantt
obuildaf utur
ewith"

Mah:"t
hisgir
ldoesn'
teverknowwhentostop,
shut
upayanda!"sheshakesherheadf
rust
rat
ed

Me:
"justl
eaveayanda,
leaveusi
npeacepl
ease!"

Ayanda:
"ohshutt
hehel
lupl
ungiI
'
m nott
alki
ngt
o
you"

Me:
"don'
tpi
ssmeoffayanda,youwil
lnott
alkt
o
mybrot
hert
hatwayandcallhi
m weak!"

Ayanda:"wel
lheisaweak,
stupi
d, confusedl
itt
le
bo..
..
..
"shedoesn'
tgett
ofi
nshwhatshewasgoi ng
tosaycausezamacomesandgi vesherahotf ull
bit
chslaponherfaceandt
hatshut sherup..
..
wow!
Pr
est
on:
"yesgi
rl
!,
ohshedeser
vedi
t!"

Zama:"neverinyourl i
fewillyoucallhi
m weakor
anyotherkindofname.Igaveyouachancet ohave
thel
oveoft hiswonder f
ulmanandyoubl ewit!
,
Whenhet oldmeaboutyou, Ir
espectedhi
sdecision
andlefthi
m causet hat'
swhatIt houghthishear
tis
atandyesi thurtmewhenhet ol
dmeaboutanot her
womanbutIt oldmyselfthathesawsomet hi
ngin
herandknewt hathishappinessiswithherbut
obvi
ouslyitwasn' t
".

Ayanda:
"Iwashi
sfir
stchoiceandhel eftyouf
or
me,andhewil
lagai
n.Howdoesi tfeeltoknowthat
youwerehi
ssecondchoicenotfi
rst?"

Sicelo:
"shewasnevermysecondchoi cebecauseI
alwaysmadesur eshewast akencareofandhad
everythi
ngsheneeded,herhappinesswasmyf i
rst
prior
ityandyesIdidmanystupidthingscauseI
tookherf orgr
ant
edandyoucomi ngintomylif
e
wasawakeupcal l
Ididn'tknowIneeded.Yousee
ayandatherear
emanyt hingsIhavedonei nmyli
fe,
horr
iblet
hingsbutIrar
elyr egr
etthem butyouar
e
thegreat
estmist
akeIhaveevermadeandIr egr
et
knowingyouandallowingyout ocomei ntomylif
e"

Ayanda:
'youwi
llr
egr
ett
hisscel
o,Iswearyouwi
ll"

Si
cel
o:"t
hati
sifyou'
rest
il
lal
ive"

Ayanda:
"youknowwhatIam outofher
e,st
aywi
th
t
hisuglyfatbi
tch!"

Si
celo:
"begonebutalwaysknowt hatI'
l
lal
waysbe
watchi
ngandonest epaheadofyou,onewrong
moveI'
llki
llkar
abo,
thenli
ll
yandfinall
yyou!"

Dad:
"yougotyourmoneynowgoayandawhi
le
we'
resti
llaski
ngyou"
Ayanda:
"peasant
s!"shet
akesherbagsandl
eaves
t
hehouse

Me:
"wow!
,di
dyouaskf
rankt
otakehert
othet
axi
s?
"

Si
cel
o:"he'
swai
ti
ngf
orher"

Me:
"soshe'
sjustgoi
ngt
ogoj
ustl
iket
hat
?"

Dad:"she'
llbebackandcauseprobl
emsforyou
seun,dealwit
hhercauseIseeyouhavi
ngthesame
probl
emsIhadwi t
hyourmotherandwedon'twant
hist
orytorepeati
tsel
f"

Si
cel
o:"I
'
m oni
tdad!"
Me:"yohwhataday,
zamaI'
m sur
eyouwantt o
fr
eshenup,l
etmeshowyouyourroom andI
'
m
hungry"

Si
cel
o:"Ineedt
otal
kwi
thzama"

Me:"letherfr
eshenup,eatandr
estt
henyouguys
wi
lltalk,
findoutwher
embusoi sandtel
lhi
mtocal
l
me"It akeherhandandwego.
CHAPTER 30.

SI
CELO.

Ifol
lowluhandzamat ot heguestbedr oom,causeI
real
lywanttot al
ktoherbutIdon' tthi
nkshewant s
tohearanythingfrom me.Shedoesn' tdeservethe
humi l
ati
onIputhert hr
ough, Idi
dn'tstopherwhen
sheleftmeint hekit
chenandIwi shIcouldchange
thatmoment .Iwil
lregretnotstoppingheror
runningaft
erher,theygetinsideandluhshowsher
thebathroom andshet
akesherbagget si
nsi
deand
closesthedoorandshestil
lwon'tl
ookatmecause
Idisappoint
edherandIfeeldi
sappoint
edatmysel
f
too.

Me:
"luhcanwet
alk?"

Her
:"sur
e,whati
swr
ong?"

Me:
"Imessedup"

Her:
"yeahIthi
nkyoudi
deventhoughIdon'tr
eal
ly
knowwhat'sgoi
ngonbutIcanseethatshe'
shur
t,
Youhurther"

Me:"Idon'
tevent
houghwher
etost
artorwhatt
o
say"
Her:
"youstar
tbyapologi
zingt
oherandthenyou
l
ist
entoherwhenshesayssomethingcause
t
here'
salotIt
hinkshe'
sgoingt
osay"

Me:"butwhati
fshedoesn'
twantt
oli
stent
owhatI
havetosay"

Her:
"don'
tgetmewrongbrot
herbutf
rom whatI
pi
ckedup,sheusedt
oli
stentoyoual
otandmaybe
nowit'
sti
meforyoutol
ist
entoher"

Me:"howwi
llIt
alkt
oherwhenshewon'
tevenl
ook
atme?"

Her
:"youbegher"

Me:
"Imessedup,
Ireal
lyf
uckedupandhur
ther"
Her:
"yeahyoudi
d,brot
hernowomanwant stofeel
l
ikeshe'
ssomeone'
selse'
ssecondchoi
ceandI
t
hinkzamadidcauseyouchoseayandaoverher"

Me:
"butshe'
snotmysecondchoi
ce,
sheneverwas
"

Her:
"didyoutel
lhert
hatandmakeherf
eell
ike
she'
stheonlyone?"

Me:
"no,
Ineverdi
d"

Her:
"thenhowdoyout
hinkshef
eltwhenyou
choseayanda?"

Me:
"hur
t"

Her
:"youhur
ther"
Me:
"howdi
dyoudoi
t?"

Her
:"dowhat
?"

me:
"for
givembuso"shesmi
les

Her:"If
orgavehim causeIlovedhim andmyl ove
forhim overpoweredallt
hebadt hi
ngshedi dtome,
Ichoset ofocusonthegoodt hi
ngshedi d,
Ijust
wanthimt ocomebackt ome"

Me:
"Hei
scomi
ngbacksi
s"

Her
:"Iknow"
.

Me:"Iwantedtoaskyouifyoucoul
dborrowmethe
keystoyourhouse,Iwantt
otal
kwithhercausewe
needt
obeal
one,
sowecanpr
oper
lyt
alk"

Her:"hmmm don'tusesext ogethertof

orgi
veyou
scelo,thekeysar
ei ntheki
tchenIthi
nk"she
gigglesandIam planningt
odot hatt
oo

Me:
"Iwon'
tsi
s"

Her:
"youcanal
wayswinherbodybutbef
oret
hat
youhavetowi
nhermindfi
rst"

Me:
"HowdoIdot
hat
?"

Her:
"shehastot
rustyouwithherhear
tagai
nand
bel
ievet
hatyouwon'thur
theragai
n"

Me:
"thankyousi
s"
Her:"I
'
m alwayshereforyoubrother"zamaopens
thedoorandshelookssobeaut i
fulwith,howdidI
notseeher?.Shegoestositnexttoluhlikeshe
seeksprot
ectionf
rom herandIalmostl aughbuti
t
makesmehappyt oseethatshetrustsmysi st
er
eventhoughshehasjustmether .

Me:"come,
Iwantt
otakeyousomewher
esowe
cantal
k"

Zama:
"I'
m notgoinganywher
ewithyou"shesays
wit
hali
tt
lebitofatt
it
udeandIfol
dmyarmsand
l
ookather

Me:
"Zah.Now!"

Zah;
"I'
m donefoll
owi
ngyourr
ulesscel
o,I
'
m done"
.
Il
ookatluhtogiveussomespace
Her
:"It
hinkI
'
m goi
ngt
oeat
,hel
pmeupscel
o"

Zah:"I
'
llhel
pyou"shehel
pshergetupthenl
uh
givesmeani nt
imi
dat
ingl
ookshethi
nksbuti
t'
s
cuteandIlaugh.

Her:"don'
tmakeherdosomet hingshedoesn'twant
todocauseyou' l
lpushherawayandyoudon' twant
that"sheclosesthedooraf
tersheeleavesandI
sighandlookatzah

Me:
"Ireal
lywantt
ohaveatalkwit
hyoubutIcan'
t
dot
hatherewit
hever
yonearound"

Zah:"youmeanyoucan'
tfuckmet osubmi
ssi
on
causeever
yoneint
hehousewillhear?"

Me:
"thatt
oobutwehavet
otal
kfi
rstbef
oreyoul
et
mefuckyou"
Zah:
"Idon'
twantyout
ousemeanymor
esi
cel
o,I
can'
t"shesni
fs.

Me:"l
etsgot
oluh'sandmbuso'
shousesoyoucan
scr
eam atmeallyouli
keandt
hrowthi
ngsatme"

Zah:
"Iwon'
tdot
hat"

Me:"Iknowyouwon'
tbuti
fitwi
llmakeyouf
eel
bet
ter"

Her
:"noi
twi
llhur
tmemor
eifIhur
tyou"

Me:
"let
sgozah.
..
.pl
ease"

Her:
"I'
m scar
edofwhatyou'
l
ldot
omewhenwe'
re
al
one"
Me:
"Iwon'
thur
tyou"

Her
:"you'
reangr
yscel
oandIknowhowyouget"

Me:
"Ipr
omi
seyouIwon'
thur
tyou"

Her
:"butyoudi
d"

Me:
"IknowandIwantt
omakei
tri
ght"Isi
gh

Her
:"ok"

Me:"thankyou,come"It akeherhandwel eave

usi
ngt hebackdoorcauseIknowmyauntwi l
l
shoutatmef orwanti
ngt obealonewithzama.We
geti
nmycarandIdr i
vet ombuso'splace,andshe'
s
l
ookingoutsi
det hewindow.
Me:"I
'
m sorr
yIhurtyouzah,
Ishoul
dn'
thavel
eft
youandrantoayanda"

Her
:"whathappemdbet
weenyout
wo?"

Me:
"she'
snotwhatIt
houghtshewas"

Her
:"Ifshewasthepersonyout
houghtshewas
wouldIbeherer
ightnow?"

Me:
".
..
..
..
Ithoughtshewoul
dbel
ikeyou"

Her:
"youwantedsomeoneel
set
obel
ikeme,
but
notme?.
..
.wow"

Me:
"Idi
dn'
tknowi
tatt
hatt
ime"
Her
:"doyoul
oveher
?"

Me:
"Idon'
tloveher"

Her:
"butyout
oldmeabouther
,youweresosure
she'
stheoneandnowshe'
snot,whathappend?"

Me:"Isawheratt hecl
ubandIlikedher ,
payedfor
herbil
lthenaskedmar kt
otakethem homet henI
getacallthatherboyf
ri
endisbeatingherupand
wegett here,
takehert
othehospital.
..
.shelooked
bad"

Her:
"sothenight
syoucamelat
eandwouldwake
meupandf uckme..
.hur
tme,
wer et
heni
ghtsyou
wenttoseeher?"

Me:
"yes"
Her:
"thenwhat
?,youdecl
aredyourundyi
ngl
ovef
or
her
?"

Me:"noIdidn'
t,It
oldherIwantedt
ogettoknow
herandsheshoul dgi
veme,usachance.Shewas
sweetandIwasexci t
edbutthenwewentto
standert
onandwhenIcamebackIwentt oseeher
atherbakeryandshewaskindamad.Itookherout
forlat
elunchthenherexcal
ledandshefr
eakedout
"

Her
:"Iwoul
dtoo"

Me:"thenIt
ookhertoherfr
iendspl
aceandI
wantedtobether
eforherbutsheaskedt
obealone
andthenshecall
edthatt
imewhenyouwer et
ell
ing
meabouthowyouf eel"

Her
:"IwishIdi
dn'
t.Iwi
shIneversai
danyt
hingt
hen
whathappend?"
Me:"shestar
tedactingcrazy,cal
li
ngallsor
tsof
names,thr
ewt hatcentr
epieceyouloveatmeandit
broke,
shehurtmyar m"

Her
:"wowbutsheget
stol
eavewi
thami
ll
ionr
ands
"

Me:
"she'
snotgoi
ngt
ogeti
t"

Her
:"how?"

Me:
"youdon'
tcomet
omyhouseanddisrespect
myfat
herandhi
swhol
efami
ly,
she'
sgoingtopay"

Her
:"Iwi
shInevertol
dyouIloveyou"shesai
d
l
ovesoIsti
llhaveachance.
Me:
"Iwi
shyoucoul
dhavet
oldmeear
li
er"

Her
:"whyam Iher
escel
ocauseyoudi
dn'
tcome
l
ookingf
orme?"

Me:"Iaskedmbusotohel
pyoul
ookf
oryou,
Iasked
hi
mt otrackyoudown"

Her:
"Iknewt
hatyoumightrej
ectwhatIf
eelforyou
andwhenmyexactfearcametrueandhappendit
ki
ll
edme"

Me:
"Idi
dn'
trej
ecthowyouf
eelf
orme"

Her
:"youneversai
danyt
hingei
ther"

Me:"mybiggestmi
stake,
Itookyouf
orgr
ant
edand
I
'm sor
ry"
Her:
"If
eltsovunl
erabl
eopeni
nguptoyouand
st
upidaft
er"Iopenthegat
eanddr
ivei
nandclose
i
tthenl
ookatzah.

Me:"Ihaveknownyousi nceyouwer e19zama, I

tookyourvi r
ginit
y,t
hegr eat
estgiftanyonecoul
d
haveevergi venmeandyou' r
erightIusedyou.I
want edtopr ot
ectfr
om menwoul duseyouandhur t
youbuti twasmedoi ngthatverysamet hi
ngIwas
tryi
ngt oprotectyoufrom andI'
m sorry"Igetoutof
thecarandopenherdoorandt akeherhandand
l
eadhert othehouse.

Me:
"ar
eyouhungr
y?"

Her
:"no"It
akebot
tl
esofwat
erandgi
veherone.

Me:"Youdidever
ythi
ngIaskedyout
odowi
thout
quest
ioni
ngit"
Her
:"causeyoupr
omi
sedt
opr
otectmeal
ways"

Me:
"Ibr
oughtwomenandf
uckedt
hem whi
leyou
wer
e"

Her
:"i
thur
tmeever
yti
me"

Me:"andIwasselfi
shbecauseIdi
dn'tcar
eabout
howyouwouldf eel
,Ij
ustdi
dcauseitwasmy
houseandIcal
ledtherul
es"

Her :
"thenyouwouldaskmet omakethem
breakfastandcleanallyourmessesandthenI
woul dsti
llwel
comeyoui nmybodyandletyou
havemecauseIt houghtjustmaybeonedayyou
willseethatI'
m her
e,Icouldbethewomanyou're
searchingfor"
Me:"youarethatwomanzah, Iwantafutur
ewith
you.Iknowittookmelong,welli
ttookayandat
o
openmyeyest oseewhatafoolIhavebeentoyou
"

Her
:"whenyoul
ookatmesi
cel
o,whatdoyousee?
"

Me:"Inevershouldhavewalkedawayf rom you,

yougavemepeaceandIt ookitforgranted,you
mademyhouseahomeandIdon' tthi
nkIcan
for
givemyselfforthewaysIusedyouandI 'm sorr
y.
Youal waysputmyneedsf i
rstbefor
eyour s,youare
theoneIalwaysconf i
deincauseIknowmysecr et
s
aresafewithyou.Itr
ustyouwithmyl if
e"f uckthis
i
shar d.

Me:"whenIlookatyouIseeawomanwhoi s
str
ong,sel
fl
ess,putspeople'
sneedsf
ir
stbef
ore
hersevenhappiness.Iseeawomanwhohas
al
waysbeent hereforme,youcomfor
tme,youtake
al
lmyf r
ustr
ati
onsthatIt
akeoutonyouandyou
haveneveroncecomplai
ned.Youalwaysmake
suret
hatmeandmyhousewe' ret
akencareof
,I
l
ookthisgoodcauseit
'sbecauseofyou."

Her:
"noyoudothat
,youwor
khar
dsoyourhome
hasever
ythi
ngyouneed"

Me: "myhousei snotahomewi t

houtyou,whenyou
l
eftyout ookthewarmt hIalwaysfeelwhenIopen
thedoorandgeti n.Ialwayslookforwar
dtogoing
homecauseIknowyou' r
etherewaiti
ngformeandI
needyoubackhomecausei tisnotthesame
withoutyou.Ineedyoubacki nmyl if
ezamacause
withoutyouI'
mj ustlost"

Her:
"I'
m scaredsi
celo,
whatifyoumeetanot
her
beaut
if
ulgirlandt
hinkshe'
stheone?"

Me:
"Iwasst
upi
dthenandmyeyeswer
ecl
osed,
I
'vel
earnedmylessonandIknownowwhatt hey
meanwhent heysay'youneverwhatyouhaveunti
l
i
tisgone"Idon'twantt
oloseyouagainbecauseof
mystupidness"

Her:
"thenwhydoIf eelli
keI
'm yoursecondchoi
ce
causeift
hingsdidworkoutwithyouandayandaI
wouldbestil
lheart
broken"

Me:"maybet hingshappendt hiswaysoIcansee

thatyouar ewhatIneedi nmyl if
e,t
hewomanI
wanttospendt her estofmyl i
fewit
h...
."Igeton
bothnyknessandt akeherhandsi nmineandl ook
ather."Itookmel ongt oseeitbutIthi
nkIf el
l
i
nlovewi t
hyout hedayyouhel dmeasIcr iedand
tol
dyouIhavef oundmysi ster.Doyour emember
whatyousai dtome?"

Her
:"no.
..
."
Me:"yousai
dIhavenowf oundt hemi ssingpiece
thatwasmissi
ng,soIcannowst optryingtorun
awayfrom l
ovecauseIt hi
nkIdon' tdeserveit.I
l
ookedatyoudiff
erentfrom thatdayandi tscar
ed
mecauseIstart
edtof eelt
hingsIdi dn'twantto
admit"

Her
:"Iunder
stand"

Me: "nozahyoudon't
,Itr
iedtorunawayfr
om the
l
oveIf eelf
oryoucauseitscaresme,i
tmakesme
feelli
keIcan'
tcont
rolmyselfwhenI'
m ar
oundyou
andyouknowt hatIexcersi
zecontr
oli
nallt
hings"

Her
:"getupscel
o,don'
tkneelf
orme"

Me:"akingkneelsbefor
ehisqueen,
heronl
yandno
oneelse.I'
m notgoingtor
unanymor e"
Her
:"t
hendon'
trun"

Me:"pl
easegi
vemeanot
herchancet
omaket hi
ngs
r
ightbet
weenusandgi
vemeyourheartagai
nto
l
ove"

Her
:"I
'
m scar
edscel
o"

Me:"IloveyouzamashangeandIwantt oadore
youfortherestofmyl ife.Youdon'thavet osayyou
l
ovemeoranyt hingbutpl easegivemeanot her
chancet oshowyout hatIcant reatyout hewayI
knowyoudeser ve, IreallydoloveyouandIpr omise
notbreakyourhear tormakeyouf eellikeyou'remy
secondchoicecause, youar etheonl yoneIwant ,
myonl ychoice,myonl ywomant hatIl oveandwant
togetpregnantassoonassheshel etsmei ntoher
heartagain"shel ooksatmeandsmi les

Her
:"Il
oveyousi
cel
obutpl
easedon'
teverchoose
someoneel
seagai
n"

Me:"Ipr
omisezah,
thereisnooneelsebutyou.I
meanitwhenIsayIloveyou.I'
m notsayi
ngthi
s
causeIt
hinki
t'
swhatyouwantt ohearno,you
knowmeandyouknowIal waystel
lyouthetr
uth"

Her:
"di
dyoumeanitwhenyousai
dyouwantt
o
shar
emewithmbuso'
sbrot
her"whatt
hehel
l!

Me:
"youwer
eli
steni
ngt
ous?"

Her
:"noIcametogiveyouf
oodbutt
henIhear
d
t
hatandIquickl
ylef
t"

Me: "Imeanti
tbutonlyi
fyouwoul
dagree"she
blushesandlooksdown."doyouwantustohavea
threesomewithbonga?"
Her
:"askmewhenIcompl
etel
ytr
ustyouagai
n"

Me:
"youneversi
ezet
oamazemezah"

Her
:"i
t'
sal
lyourdoi
ng"
smi
le

Me:
"youf
orgi
veme?"

Her
:"If
orgi
veyou,
doyouf
orgi
vemet
oo?"

Me:
"forwhat
?"

Her
:"f
ornott
ell
ingyouear
li
erhowIf
eelaboutyou"

Me:"Idi
dn'
tmakethi
ngseasyf
oryoubabybutI
wantyoutoal
waysknowonethi
ng"
Her
:"what
?"

Me: "don'teverdoubtyourplacei
nmyl i
feormy
hear teveragainandIwillnevermakeyoufeell
ike
youhavet odoubtitorproveyourl
oveformecause
youal waysshowedmet hatyoulovemeandme
only.Nowi t
'smyturntopr ovemylovef
oryou"

Her
:"butyouhavei
nyourownway"

Me:
"how?"

Her:
"si
celoyout
ookmet oschool,I
'm goi
ngtobe
gr
aduati
ngnextyearandi
t'
sallbecauseofyou"

Me:"t
hatisnot
hingbaby,I
'
m goi
ngt oshowyou
whatthi
smandoesf orsomeonetheylove"
Her:
"youdon'
thavet
opr
oveanyt
hing,
yourwor
dis
enoughforme"

Me:
"Iam goi
ngt
oshowyou"

Her
:"okf
ine,
getup"

Me:
"DoIhaveper
missi
ont
otouchyou?"

Her
:"noscel
o,i
t'
stoosoon"

Me:"Ij
ustwantt
ouchyou,Iwon'
tfuckyouormake
youdoanythi
ngyoudon'
twanttodo"

Her
:"ok"

Me:
"what
'syoursaf
ewor
dbaby?"
Her
:"Fi
re"

Me:
"takeof
fyourcl
othes"Isayget
ti
ngupand
t
aki
ngmyclothesof
ftoo.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER30.

SI
CELO.

Whenshe’ sdonet akingherclothesoffIt

akeher
handandbr ingherbodycl osetomi neandlookat
herbeaut i
fulcurvesandr unmyhandsonherass
andi tji
ggles.Herbodyi ssowar m,Il
eadher
upstai r
stotheguestbedr oom.Thi shouseisnotyet
full
yf urni
shedandI ’m wonderingwheni sl
uhgoing
tofurnishthiswhol ehouse.IlookatZahandshe
l
ooksl i
keshe’sscar edthatImightherandIdon’t
blamehercausesheknowsIcangetr oughand
l
osef ocuscauseIhavedonet hatbefore.
Me:
“Iwon’
thur
tyoubaby”

Her
:“don’
tmaket
hatpr
omi
sescel
o”

Me:
“Iwantyout
ost
opt
aki
ngpi
ll
s”

Her
:“scel
o,youdon’
tmeant
hat”

Me:“Ido,Iwantt
ogetyout
ohavemybabi
es”she
shakesherhead

Her
:“I
’
llt
hinkabouti
t”t
henshel
aughs

Me:
“youhavenochoi
ce”

Her
:”t
her
eisnobedher
e“
Me:
”wedon’tneedabed,
I’
m goi
ngt
ofuckyouon
t
hefl
oor“shegasps

Her
:”wel
latl
eastt
her
e’sacar
petont
hef
loor

Me:“ wai ther e,I’m comi ng“Igot oluh’

sbedroom
andt aket hef leecebl anketont hebedt hengot o
theli
vi ngr oom t akemybel toffmypant sandpick
upherunder wearandt akei twithme, thencome
backandl ayt hebl anketont hefloor,l
ookatzah
thent akeherhandandl ayherdownont hebl
anket
andsheopensherl egsf ormeandIseet hatsweet
gli
steni ngjuiceandmymout hbegsmet oburymy
faceandeatt hatsweetj uice, Icansmel lher
arousal ,herscentcal l
ingmet otakeherandmakes
mymi ndl oseal lrationalthought .Ibri
ngmybody
downont opofher sandki ssherdeepl y,mycockis
hardandt hrobbi ng.

Me:”I
’
m goingt
odevouryouandtearthatpussyup
“shel
icksherl
ipsandIgr
oan.Ii
nsertmytwo
fi
ngersdeepint
oherpussyandf eelallt
hat
wetnesswit
hmyf inger
sandfingerfuckherkissi
ng
herdeepl
yandshemakest hosesweetnoi sesthatI
l
ove.Shespreadsherlegswi
demaki ngmyf i
ngers
godeepintoher.

Shetakesmydi ckandgraspsitandst r
okesithar
d
smearingthatpr e-
cum al
lovermydi ckandIcan’t
waitanylongerIhavet obeinsi
deher .Ikeep
ki
ssingherfullplum l
ipsthenputpressureonher
cl
itwit
hmyt humbandshest ar
tstoshakeandI
knowshe’sgoi ngtocomeatanymoment

Me:”don’
thol
dbackbaby…..comeforme“Ipump
myf i
nger
sfastanddeepint
oherandshet hrows
herheadbackandscreamscall
ingmynameand
gri
ppingmyfinger
sinherti
ghtsnat
ch.Ikeepfinger
fucki
ngherunti
lshecomesdownf r
om herhigh.

Me:”openyourmouthandgivemeyourhands”
shedoesandlooksatmefl
ushedt
henItakeher
under
wearandputiti
nhermouthgaggi
ngherthen
taket
hebel
tandbindherhandst
ightwi
thi
t.“does
i
thurt
?“sheshakesherheadno

Me: ”rai
seyourhandsoverhead“shedoesandt hat
makesherbr eaststorai
seup.Mymout hwaters
j
ustl ooki
ngatthem andseeingthosedar kni
ppl
es.I
bringmyheaddownandsuckt hem andshesighs
andIwonderwhatt heywouldtast
elikeifshewas
pregnantandmi l
kcomi ngoutofthem, mydickgets
reall
yhardwhenIt hinkthat
.

Itakemydi ckandpointittoherent ranceandl ook

atherandhereyesar eshut ,
mout ht ight
lyshut.I
grabherlegsandr am int
oherhar dandi mpaleher
deeplyandshet ri
estoscream butsher eal
lycan’t
causeherunder weari
smaki nghar dandIgr oan
andhermuscl escontractti
ghteningt hegri
ponmy
dickandIthrustint
oheragai nthenImovemy
handsfrom herhipsandgr abherasscheeksand
spreadthem wideandf ucktheshi toutofher ,
have
nomer
cyonherpussy.

Ibringmyheaddownandt akeherni ppleintomy

mout handsuckoni tthenbiteithar dandshe
groanst hendoi tagaint oherotherni pplethenshe
usesherel bowst ot apmyshoul derandIl ookat
herandseespi tdrooli
ngf rom hermout htoher
neckandIl i
ckitthem t akehermout hint
omi neand
kissherl i
pswi t
hherunder wearstillinhermout h
andhersmel lont heunder weardrivesmef ucken
crazy.Ikeept hrusti
ngi ntoherhardl ookingather
faceandshel ookslikeshe’sstruggl i
ngt obreath
andt hatmycockswel l
shar dinher .

Me:”canyoubr
eathbaby?“shenods,weare
sweati
ngli
kewehavejustgotoutoft
heshower
andit’
sdamnhotout
sideandhavingsexwhi
let
he
weatheri
shoti
ssofuckenamazing.

Imovemyupperbodyoffofherandlookather
pussyt
henpul
lmydickoutthentakeiti
ntomy
handandhi thercli
twit
hitafewti
mest henslipthe
headinagainandf uckherwit
hitandherpussy
cont
ract
sandshemovesherhi psfast,Ipul
litout
agai
nthent hrustdeepi
ntoherandhithercervi
x
andshegr oansloudandthenshecomesand
squi
rt
sal loverme.Shehasneverdonet hatbefore
andit
’sfuckensexy

Me: ”OHbaby…. fuckyes“Ipullouttheunderwear

fr
om hermout handi t
’swetandIhearhersweet
noisesasshe’sscr eamingandIf uckhert
hrough
heror gasm watchingherfaceandbiteherneck
l
eavi ngamar kthere.

Her
:”OhGod,
OHHHH!“

Me:“youl
ooksof
uckenbeaut
if
ulbaby,
your
eadyt
o
comeagain?”

Her
:“yesIam ”Ipul
loutmydi
ckoutf
rom herwar
m
snatchandshemoans.Ikneelbet weenhert hi
ghs
thenmovebackwar dst henburymyf aceonher
pussyandwor shipitl
ikeitdeser
ves.Shegr absmy
head,gripshert
highsonmyf acetightthenshe
fucksitandIfuckenloveit.

Itonguefuckherthenmovemyhandsandgripher
waistsoshewon’ tbeabl
etomoveherhi
psand
pl
aywi t
hherclitusingmythumbwhi
lest
il
leat
en
herandshemoansandscr eamsl
oudandcomes
again.

Me:“getupandtur
naround”Ihel
phergetupt
hen
unf
astenthebel
tonherhands.

Me:“getonyourkneesfacedownthengiveme
yourhands“shedoesthenItakeherhandsand
fast
enthebel
tnottooti
ghtagainandtheyst
ayput
onherback.
Ispreadherasscheeksandseet hatr
oundpi nkr i
m
ofherassandf oramomentIt hi
nkofgetti
ngmy
dickintherebutIknowitwillhur
thercauseI
haven’tprepar
edherforthatbutIam….Iam goi ng
tohaveherasssoon.It akemyhandandsmackher
assandpussyhar dandshewi ncesandgroansi n
painandt hatmakesmydi ckgethardandpr e-cum
l
eakesf rom mydick.

Ikeephi tti
ngitoverandoveragai nusingallmy
strengt hthenwhenherski nstartstoturnreal
lypink
andpussyl ooksswol l
enandwetIst opandpoi nt
mydi ckinher ,grabt hebeltthatisbetweenher
handswi thmybot hhandsandt hrusthardint
oher
snat chandshescr eamsandIf uckherhar dnot
givinghert imet obr eath.Ifuckherhar dand
mer cilesslynotgi vi
ngaf uckaboutt hecri
esshe’s
maki ng.

Me:
“youwantt
osayyourpasswor
dbaby?”
Her
:“no….
.No”

Me:“t
hat
’smybaby,
keepyourhandsr
ightt
her
e
anddon’
tmovet
hem ”

Imovemyhandsf r
om thebel tt
ot hecheeksofher
ass,
spreadt
hem asIthrustintoherhardt hentake
mythumbandbegintor i
mt het i
ghtopeningofher
assandasIdothatshebeginst oshake,vibrat
es.

Her:”ohGodyes,yes”heari
nghersaythatIpush
againsthersphi
nct
ermuscleandtheti
pofmy
thumbent er
sherandIpushiti
nandoutofher
fuckingherasswit
hmyt humbandshemoans.“oh
fuck!,f
uckme!”

Me;
“youf
uckenl
iket
hatdon’
tyou?
!”

Her
:“f
uckyes!”
Me:
“youwantmydi
cki
nther
e?”

Her:”yes,
ohGodyes! , I
’
m cummi ngohGodI’
m
cummi ng”Igr oanasIf uri
ouslypumpi
ntoherand
groandeepasherpussycl enchesandmi
lksmy
dickthenIfeelthatt
elltal
esigninmynut
sthatI’
m
goingtocomeandI ’
m goingtocomehard.

Me:;“Baby,I
’
m gonnacum!Fuckbaby!
Fuuuuucckk”Igroanasmynut sandcockgethar d
andswel l
sdeepi nsi
deherandIspi l
lmyseeddeep
i
nsideherwar m cocoonmakingmedi zzyand
l
osingmybr eathandherlegsgi veoutandshef al
ls
andlaysonherst omach.Iunfastenthebeltthen
massageherhandswher ethebeltwasandl ayon
topofhersoftbody.

Me:
“thatwasamazi
ngbaby”
Her
:“mmmmmm”

Me:
“Il
oveyouZama”

Her :
“mmmmmmm ”Ichuckl eandl ookatherand
shehasf al
lenasleep.Ipulloutfrom her eandmy
seedcomesoutt ooandIsmi l
e.Iwat chherasshe
sleepsandsheknowsI ’m notdonewi t
hher .Il
ook
atherassandseemyhandpr int
sl ookingredand
l
ovel yonherskinandmydi ckget shardagai n.I
’m
givinghert
hirt
ymi nutestorestabi tthenI’m going
tofuckheragain.Igot hekitchenandmyphone
ri
ngsandi t
’smbuso.

Me:
“br
other
,how’
sitgoi
ng”

Him:“manI’
mtheonlymanwho’
sal l
owedtowal
k
nakedint
hathouse,
putsomecl
otheson!”
Me:“Ifuckenf
orgotaboutt
hecamer
asI
’
mthe
house”webothlaugh

Hi
m:“how’
smybabydoi
ng”

Me:
“she’
sokay,
how’
sever
ythi
nggoi
ngt
her
e”

Hi
m:“Percyisher
etooandwemanagedt
ogethi
m
t
oworkfortheguysasagar
dener”

Me:
“mant
hat
’sgr
eat”

Hi
m: “Ineedyoutobeonthel
ookoutf
ort
hehi
red
ki
ll
er,I
’l
lsendyouhi
spict
ure”

Me:
“doi
tbr
other
,tel
lmewhenyouguysf
indhi
m”

Hi
m:“Per
cywi
llputcamer
asi
nhi
shouse,
wej
ust
needhimtoseducethehousekeepersohe’
l
lbe
ablet
ocheckift
hereareany”

Me:“manit
’snotevenadayyou’
vebeent
her
ebut
youhavemanagedt ogetPer
cyaj
ob”

Him:
“I’
lldoanythingmanforluht
ohavepeaceand
knowthatshe’ssafeandnoonewillhur
ther
.Just
wantal
lofthistobefuckenover”

Me:“Ihearyoubrother,youhavet
obebackbefore
thenegoti
ati
onsstartcauseluhwi
lll
osei
tifyou’
re
notbackbythen”

Hi
m:“Iwi
llbr
other
,letmecal
lher”

Me:
“okbr
other
Hi
m:“andsi
cel
odon’
thavesexi
nmywi
fe’
ski
tchen
”

Me:“Iwon’
tfoolandt
hanksbrotherf
orget
ti
ng
zamahere,
Ireall
yappreci
atei
t”

Hi
m:“t
hat
’swhatf
ami
lydoes,
lat
erbr
other”

Me:
“besaf
e”

Him:“youtoobr other”Ihangupandt akebott

lesof
wateranddrinkone.Igot otheguestbedroom and
watchZamat akinganapandshel ookssoyoung,
everyt
hingsheknowsaboutsexshel earnedfrom
me.Sheknowshowt opleasebothinbedandout
ofbedandnowIhavet obet heonet opleaseher
andshowhert hatIreal
lyloveherandwon’ tbreak
herheartagainbutasf orayandaI’m notdonewi t
h
thatbi
tch.
Iam goingt
oshowherwhathappenswhen
someonedisrespectsmyfat
her, meaandmy
famil
y,she’
sinforahugesur pr
isecauseshe’
smot
gonnagetanymoneyf rom mydad.Ihopef r
ank
tookherwhereItoldhi
mtot akeher.
CHAPTER31.

MBUSO.

Wear est ayi

ngatahot elandPer cymanagedt oput
thehiddencamer asi nt hatf oolshouse.Thewhol e
hotelroom hassur veil
lancecamer asandwe’re
watchingt hi
sf oolsever ymove.He’ sonedge
becauseheknowst hatI ’
m comi ngaf terhim,onlyif
hewoul dknowt hatI ’
m al readyher e.Afterweleave
thi
splaceI ’m goingt odealwi thsi phoandhi swife
causei t
’stimenowt heyf acet hemusi c.

BongaandSbuareoutfol
lowi
ngthatfool
,hewant
s
l
uhtouseherashissextoyandf
ulfi
lhissi
ck
desir
eswi thher ,
Themani safuckenlunaticcause
thethingsIfoundi nhispersonalcomput ermade
mef eeldisgusted.Heismar ri
edandhaski dswit
h
hiswifebutf r
om whatwesawhe’ st r
eatingherli
ke
ananimalcauset hethingshedoest oherandhi s
kidsmakemet hi
nkthattheywoul dratherli
ve
happil
ywi thouthimthanl i
veli
kethis.

Iknowt hatwhenhedi eshiswifewoul dli

veaver y
comf or
tableli
f ewithouthim causeshewoul dget
allt
hemoneyf orherandherki ds.I’
llbedoinghera
favourbyki l
li
ngt hi
sf uckenlunati
candIdon’ twant
towastet i
mebusyf ol
lowinghim, Iwanttodoi tas
soonaspossi blebutIknowIhavet ol ear
nallhis
movesbef or
ewet akeaction.Percyopenst hedoor
andgetsi n.

Me:
“youbackear
lyt
oday?”

Hi
m:“Iam boss,
appar
ent
lyonFr
idayst
hegar
dener
wor
ksahalfday”
Me:
“how’
sthewomanandt
heki
ds?”

Him:“shelooksbadboss,Iheardhertell
ingher
housekeeperthatshewantst
ol eaveherhusband
butshe’safr
aidthathewil
lki
llherortakeherki
ds
andshellbeleftwit
hnothi
ng”

Me:
“welll
uckyf
orherthencauseI
’
m aboutt
o
maket
hingsbet
terf
orher”

Him:“doyout
hinkt
hatmaybeweshoul
dgethert
o
hel
pus?”

Me:“don’teventhi
nkaboutt
hatPercycauseshe
mightfr
eakandt el
lhi
m orworsewhenhe’sdead
getthecopst ocomeaft
erus.Shehastobeli
eve
thathediedcauseofanaccident”
Him:“Ihearyouboss,
sowhenareweactual
ly
doi
ngi t”t
hisboyhe’
ssoeagert
ogethi
shands
di
rty

Me:“I’
l
lbetheonegetti
ngmyhandsdirtynot
anyoneofyou,youknowwhatyouhavet odobuti
f
Iwantyoutodosomet hi
ngel
seI’
l
lletyouknow”

Hi
m:“Iknowboss,
wher
ear
etheot
her
s?”

Me:
“fol
lowi
nghim butt
heyshouldbebackcause
t
heyhaveal
readyputatrackeronhi
scar”

Him:
“bosswhataboutt
heguywhoi
ssentt
oki
ll
you,
doyouthi
nkheknowswereher
e?”

Me“ifhedid,Ngqakulawouldbever
ycar
efuland
morealer
t,bothofthem havenoi
deawe’
rehere”
Hi
m:“t
hat
’st
rueboss,
youwantabeer
?”

Me:“I’m good”hegetsupt henSbuandbongaget

i
ncl osi
ngt hedoorbehi
ndthem andtheylookl
ike
theyhavej ustgot
tenl
ucky.“whatareyoubothso
happyabout ?”

Bonga:“manyouseet
hewomendownont
hel
obby
wait
ingforus”

Me:
“youhavewomenwai
ti
ngf
oryou?”

Sbu:
“wedo,
att
hebarandI
’
m notgoi
ngt
her
e”

Bonga:
“whyt
hehel
lnotnow?”

Sbu:
“youcangowi
thper
cy,
Iwantt
osl
eepman”
Me:“yeahyoucameat4am,
shekeptyouupal
l
ni
ght”welaugh

Hi
m:“mor
eli
keIkeptherupal
lni
ght”

Me:“guyscanweagr
eet
hatyou’
renotgoi
ngt
o
br
ingwomenhere?”

Bonga:
“ohcomeon!”

Me:“nobrot
her,i
fyouwantt
ofucksomeonet
hen
getaroom.Rememberwhywe’reher
eandwedon’t
needanydestr
ucti
ons”

Bonga:
“thenl
etmegoandgetsomeonel
astt
ime”

Per
cy:
„I’
m comi
ngwi
thyou”
Me:“t
wohoursguys,that
’sal
lyou’
regett
ing”sbu’
s
phonebeeps,
hetakeshisphoneandreadsit

Sbu:
“nopeyouguysar
enotgoi
nganywher
e,we
havet
ogosomewhere”

Me:
“wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?”

Sbu:“let
’ssui
tupguys,
oneofthemenwehi r
edhas
sentmeanaddr esswhereNgqakul
ali
kestovi
sit
,
hethinksther
emightbesomethi
ngthere”

Me:“It’
stooear
lyforustogonow, wehavet ogo
midnightsonoonewi l
lseeusbuttel
lthatguy
we’r
ecomi ngbuthewon’tseeus,we’
llseehim”

Sbu:
“gr
eati
dea“hecal
lshi
m
Me:
“youguyscangoandgetsomebutbebacki
n
t
wohours”

Bonga:“nopeI’
m good,
myadrenal
inei
salr
eady
pumpingjustthi
nki
ngaboutwhatwemightf
ind
oncewegett her
e”

Per
cy:
“I’
m goodt
ooboss”

Me:
“I’
m gonnacal
lmywi
fei
nthemeant
ime”

Bonga:
“mybeauti
fulsi
steri
n-l
aw,
manyougot
real
lyl
uckywi
thher”

Me:“shutupfool
,myunder
groundgangr
eal
ly
l
ookedoutformewhenImether”

Bonga:
“lookathowhe’
ssmi
l
ingmanI
’
m gonnabe
si
ck”

Me: “greeni snotyourcol ourbr ot

her”weal ll
augh.
Ileavet hem andgot omyen- suit
ebedroom.It ake
myphoneandcheckt hecamer a’
sinl
uhhouset o
seei feverythi
ngisst i
llokay, t
henIseet hatfool
walkingnakedi nmywi f
e’shouseandIl augh,what
thehel lisheevendoi ngt here?.ThenIremember
Zamai salreadythere,whi chmeanst heyar eatour
house.Ical lhim.

Hi
m:“br
otherhow’
sitgoi
ng”

Me:“manI ’
mt heonlyonewho’sallowedtowal
k
nakedinthathouse,putsomeclotheson!”we
l
aughandt alksomemor e.Ihangupandcallmy
babylove.I
tringsandshedoesn’ttal
kforawhi
le
andIstartt
ogetwor ri
ed

Her
:“st
handwasam ”Ismi
le
Me:“youmakemefeell
ikeI
’
m st
il
layoungman,
youknow?”shegi
ggles

Her
:“ohdoI
?”

Me:“yesyoudocauseI’
ml ayi
ngonthebednow
faci
ngupandsmili
ngtal
kingwithyoul
ove.Howar
e
youbaby?”

Her:
“I’
m good,
IwasmadIt
houghtt
hatyoul
eft
al
one”

Me:
“butIhavemybr
other
sher
ebaby”
Her:
“Iknowthatnow,
scel
otol
dme,
areyousaf
e
andokay?”

Me:
“Iam baby,
howar
emyki
ds”
Her:
“theyar
egood,
whenyou’
redoneyou’
re
comingbackhomeri
ght
?”

Me:
“yesbaby,
toyou”

Her
:“wher
ear
eyouandwher
ear
eyoust
ayi
ng?”

Me:“we’
reatatahotelbabyandIcan’tt
ellyou
whereIam butdon’
tworryal
lofyoutherearesaf
e”

Her
:“okIhavet
ogonow”

Me:
“wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?”

Her
:“t
ogetsomet
hingt
oeat
,I’
m hungr
y”
Me:
“tel
lmehowyourdayi
s”

Her:
“ohmyGodbaby, you’
renotgoingtobeli
eve
t
his!
,dadgaveayandaamill
ionrandstostayaway
f
rom scel
o”

Me:
“what
?,asi
ncash?”

Her:
“no,hewrot
eheracheckandshewasso
exci
tedyoucoul
dswearshewonthelot
ter
y”
hmmmm

Me:“wowandsheki
ndadi
d,Iwonderi
fthatcheck
i
srealournot”

Her
:“yout
hinkdadgaveheraf
akecheck?”

Me:
“Idon’
tknowbabybutIwi
llaskyourbr
other”
Her:
“Idon’
ttr
ustt
hatgi
rl
,ther
e’ssomet
hingver
y
wrongwit
hher”

Me:
“I’
l
lgetf
rankt
owat
chher”

Her:
“Ihopeshewon’tcomebackandcauseus
pr
oblems,Il
ikeZamathough”

Me:
“sheseemsl
ikeshe’
sani
ceyoungwoman”

Her
:“shedoes,
boocanIaskyousomet
hing?”oh
whatdoesshewantt
oknownow?

Me:
“whatdoyouwantt
oknowl
ove?”

Her
:“doyouknowwho’
sthemanmahi
sdat
ing?”
ohf
uckno
Me:
“ahbaby,
whydon’
tyouaskher
?”

Her
:“Ihaveaf
eel
ingt
hatsaysshewon’
ttel
lme”

Me:“babyshewon’
tli
etoyou,
askherandshe’
l
ltel
l
you”

Her
:“okbooI
’
lldot
hat”shesi
ghs

Me:
“Il
oveyoubaby”

Her
:“Il
oveyoumor
e”

Me:
“Ihavet
ogonowbabywe’
l
ltal
klat
erokay”

Her
:“okboo,
besaf
e”
Me:
“al
ways”shesi
ghsandhangsup.

Itakequi ckshowert hengoandj oi

nt heguysand
wet alkthenluhsendsmeasexypi ctureofher
nakedwi t
hfingersinherpussyandIsmi lecauseI
thinkshest r
uggledt otakethispictureandt he
thoughtofhert akingdi f
fer
entpicturesandposes
andseei ngherliket hi
smakesmydi ckhar d.Iget
upmaki ngsuretheguysdon’ tseemet hengot o
thebat hroom andt akeapictureofmyhar ddi ck
andsendi tt
ohert hent akeacol dshower .I’
m not
calli
nghercausewe’ r
egoingt oenduphavi ng
phonesex.Ij ointheguysagai nandwheni t’
s
midni ghtwegochangeandwearal lblackwi th
bulletproofvestsandputt hegunsi naduf felbag.

Me:“t
her
e’saf
ir
eescapedoorwewi
lluse”They
nod
Percy:
“canwetrustt
hoseguysandwhati
ftheyar
e
tr
yingtoambushus?”

Sbu:“t
hentheywoul
dbever
ystupi
dconsider
ing
theamountofmoneywe’
repayi
ngthem ”

Me:“we’lltaketwocar
sandt henwhenwe’renear,
wewillleavethem somewhereandwal konfooti
n
casei
t’sanambush”t heyagreethenweputthe
guns,l
ockupandgo.I tpaystohavemoneycause
youcanl it
erall
yhavej
ustaboutanythi
ngyouwant .

Me:“sendmethel
ocati
onofwher
ewe’ regoing”he
doessendi
ttomeandIlogiti
nont hephone,
l
aptopandonthecar
.Westandoutsidethehotel
befor
eweleave

Me:“t
hisi
sasuburbandi tl
ooksli
kether
eare
peopl
eli
vingt
hereandthehouseisunderthatf
ool
s
name.Okayguyswe’l
lleaveourcar
sakilometr
e
befor
ewegettothi
shousethencheckthesecur
it
y
andtryt
ogeti
nsi
dewithoutbei
ngnoti
cedbutifi
t
doeshappent
hatsomeoneseesus,youknowwhat
todo”

Bonga“hehasanel
ect
ri
cfence,
sohowar
ewe
goi
ngtogetin?”

Me:“t
hat
’seasyIwil
lcutofft
heelect
ri
cityfora
minut
eandbytheneveryonemustbei nsidethe
yar
dsotheywon’tbesuspici
ous,
they’
lljustt
hink
i
t’
spowerfai
lur
e”

Bonga:
“okbr
other”

Me:“rememberguyswe’
rej
ustgoi
ngtheret
osee
what’
sinsi
de.Ti
menowis1:15am by1:25am
ever
yonemustbehere”
Them:
“sur
e”

Sbu:
“I’
llt
akethefr
ontofthehousewi
thbongaand
youguystaketheback”

Percy:
“doyout
hinkhehasanot
herf
ami
lyl
ivi
ngi
n
ther
eboss?”

Me:“maybeormaybehehaspeopl eli
vingt
here
andkeepingthem asslaves,
yourearpi
ecesare
wor ki
ngr
ight
? .
..
.t
henlet’
sgoguys”Wegeti nthe
carsandthendriveout,whenwegettowherewe’re
goingtol
eavethecarsandst ar
twalki
nginthe
shadows.

Asweappr oachIseethatther
earetwoguys
guardingthehouseint hefr
ontgateanditmightbe
possiblet
hatt her
earemor epeopl
einsidet
heyard
andsowhat evert
hatistheyareguardi
ngisbig.
Me:“guyswemi ghthavemoreguysguardingt
he
house,becar
eful,
assoonasthel i
ght
sgooutjump
i
nanduseyourt hermalni
ghtvi
siongoggles”

Sbu:
“oni
t”

Me:
“Per
cyyour
eady?”

Hi
m:“Iam boss”

Wegot othebackoft heyar

dt hengett
othefence
andItakemyphoneoutandgeti ntot
hemuni ci
pal
databaseandswi t
choftheli
ghtsthenqui
cklyjump
andPer cyf ol
lowsme.Wecanhearsomeone
shouti
ngaski nganotheronetogocheckiftheback
upgener atorisworki
ngfuck!
.

Me:“guystheyhaveabackupgener
ator
,wehave
f
iveminutesthenweleave”t
hebackdooropens
andsomeguycomesoutl ookingli
kehe’sdrunkor
highthenwequi cklygeti nhouseandIcansee
peopleinbedr oomschai nedt obedsandt hereare
camer asandi nsomer oomst herearewomenand
menandt heyhavet hewomenchai nedandhaving
sexwi ththem…Whatt hef uck!
, wegotothecor r
idor
andIlookt omyr i
ghtandseeayounggi r
lor
womancr yinginthebat hroom andshel ooksl i
ke
she’schainedi nthere.Ilookatt hetimeandwe
havethr eeminutes.

Igotothebat hroom andopeni tsl

owlyandshe
get
sintheshowerandcr awlsback,howdoesshe
seecozit’sdark?.ItapPercyonhisshoulderand
moti
onf orhimt oleavethehouseandhedoes.Iget
i
nthebat hroom andt hegir
lbowsherheaddown.

Her
:“who’
sther
e?,
pleasedon’
thur
tmeagai
n!”

Me:“sssshhhyoudon’
twantt
hem t
ocomeher
e,
what’
syournameandhowol dar
eyou?”
Her:“I
’
m 18sirandmynameisnompumel
elo,who
areyoucauseyoudon’
tsoundl
iket
hemenfrom
here?”

Me:“shhnnnIcan’
tst
ayl
ongbuthowdi
dyouget
her
e?”

Her
:“Iwaskidnapped,
Iwantt
ogohomet
omy
f
amily”shecri
es

Me:“wearegoi
ngtocomeandgetal
lofyououtof
her
e,whatdi
dtheydotoyou?”

Her:“t
heygi
veussomet
hingt
hent
akevi
deosofus
nakedandthey…t
heyr
apeus”Il
ookatt
heti
me
fuckIhavet
ogo!

Me:
“Ihavet
ogonowbutpl
easedon’
ttel
lanyone
therewassomeonet al
kingtoyou,
youhearme
nompumel eloorel
seIwon’tbeabl
etocomeand
helpallofyouhere”

Her
:“Iwon’
tsi
r,Ipr
omi
seIjustwantt
ogohomet
o
myfamil
y.Pl
easecomeback”

M:“Iwil
l”Iquicklyleavet hebat hroom andalmost
runtosomeonebutt henIl ookandi t
’sPercyfuck
thi
sboyItoldhimt ogo.Wel eavet hesamewaywe
gotinandthemomentwej umpof fthefence,the
l
ightski
ckbacki nagai n….Fuckweal mostgot
caught!
.Ir
unandPer cyrunst oount ilwegettothe
carsandwhenwegett heresbuandbongacome
tooandtheylookliket heywer er unningtoo.

Sbu:
“fuckmant
hatwascl
ose!”

Me:
“let
’sgetoutofher
eguys”wedrivest
rai
ghtt
o
t
hehotelandparki
nthebasementandparkt
he
carsthentaketheel evat
ort
oourroom.Weget
i
nsideandweal lheardfort
heal
coholandwel
ook
ateachotherthenl augh

Me:
“wehavet
ogetal
loft
hosewomenoutoft
her
e
”

Bonga:
“IthoughtIhaveseensomewei
rdandsi
ck
thi
ngsbutthi
sno!”

Me:“wehavet
oki
llt
hisi
diott
omor
row,
hehast
o
di
e”

Sbu:“I
’
m wit
hyouonthatone.There’
snowayI ’
m
goingt
obeabletosl
eep,manIthinkther
ewasa10
yearol
dgir
lther
eandshewasf uckenchained”

Me:“anyoft
hosekidst
her
ecoul
dhavebeenour
ki
ds…thisi
ssofuckedup”
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER31.

MBUSO.

Wesi tdownandhavedr i
nks,everyoneisf ucken
shockedf r
om thethingswesawatt hathouse.So
thi
si swhathewant edtodot hewomanIl ove, chai
n
her,videot
apeherdoi ngsickthi
ngst oher…Iwant
tofuckenkillt
hisanimalandIwantt okillhim now.

Itakemylaptopandlookforpetshopsar oundP.E
onli
neandfindone,thenpayandclickcollectat
whatti
mecauseI ’
llsendPercytogoandcol l
ecti
t
andIsmilecausehe’sgoingtofr
eakwhenhesees
whathe’
llbecoll
ecti
ng.Igetonthehot elwebsit
e
andpayforthreeroomsthatwe’regoingtoneed.

Me:“sbugetyourguysr
eady,
tel
lthem t
ocome
herenow!,we’
regoi
nginnowbeforet
hatmother
fuckerwakesup”
Sbu:
“hel
lyes!
,I’
m oni
tbr
other”hedoes

Bonga:
“let
’sgethi
m causewewer
en’
tgoi
ngt
o
sl
eep”

Per
cy:
“I’
m st
il
linshock”

Me:
“Percydi
dInottel
lyout
oleavet
hehouseand
wai
tformeoutsi
de?”

Percy:
“BossIcoul
dn’tleaveyoual onethere,not
aft
erthethi
ngswesaw, Istayedatthedoorand
keptwatchsoIcanseei fthere’
sanyonewhowi l
l
comeandseeus.Youhi redmet oprotectyouandI
wasdoingmyj obbossandyouwoul dn’
thave
askedmet obehereifyouknowknewt hatIdon’
t
haveyourback”
Me:“Iknowanditwasn’
tthat
,Isai
dthatcauseI
coul
dn’tl
etusal
lgetcaughti
ftheydi
dsawus”

Hi
m:“butt
heydidn’
t,
youknowI
’m asgoodas
Fr
ankboss,t
hatwhyI’
m her
e”

Me:
“Iknow,
aret
heyher
eyetbr
other
?”

Sbu:“t
heymustbeher erightaboutnow”someone
knocksont hedoorandbongaopensi tandtheyal
l
getinandt heylookedshockedwhent heyseeall
thesurveil
lancecamerasintheroom andsome
l
ookner vousgood.

Me:“who’
sinchar
geher
eandhowmanyar
eyou
guys?”

Oneguy:
“Iam andther
e’s10ofus”hesays
st
eppi
ngforward”
Me:“wrong,
I’
minchar
geher
e!,
whatdot
heycal
l
you?”

Hi
m:“sor
ryboss,
theycal
lmej
ama”

Me:
“sbui
shet
heonewhosentt
hel
ocat
ion?”

Sbu:
“that
’shi
m”

Me:“okli
stentomever ycareful
ly,sbuandbonga
wil
ldevi
deyouguysandI ’
llj
usttakethet
woofyou
her
ewi t
hPer cyandtherestofyouwi l
lbedevi
ded
bet
weenmybr other
s”

Sbu:“okguyswe’ r
egoingtothatplaceagainand
wear egoi
ngt ogetalloft
hosegirl
sl ockedupin
ther
eandt akethem andbringt
hem t othishot
el
hereandtot heserooms”hegivesj amaand
anot
herguyskeys

Bonga:
“youwil
lnotmanhandleanyofthewomen
andchi
ldr
eninther
e,youshoott
okil
lanyoft
he
guar
ds”

Me:“butthemani nvolvedinthemakingofvideos
andwhoar er api
ngt hewomeni nther
eIwantt hem
al
ive,
youwi llshootthem wi t
hthesetranqui
li
zers
andgetthem i noner oom ”Itakeabagf i
ll
edwith
tr
anquil
izerdartsandgi veittothem.

Bonga:
“youwantmet
ocal
ltheAl
bani
ans?”

Me:“callt
hem nowandf i
ndoutiftheyhave
someonewhocant akeandholdthesesguys
somewher ecauseIwantthathousebur ntdownt
o
theground”hetakeshisphoneandcal lthem
Per
cy:
“whycan’
tweki
llal
loft
hem i
nther
e?,
bur
n
al
loft
hem?”

Me: “wecan’tcausetheneighborswil
lsmellhuman
fl
eshandcal lthecopsplushavingmanydead
bodieswil
lleadt omanyquestionsand
i
nvest i
gat
ions.Wear egoingtodothisthi
ngas
quietl
yaspossi bl
e”

Sbu:
“andremembert hatallofyousignednone
di
scl
osuredocumentsandwehaveal lyour
i
nfor
mationinther
e,yourfamilywives,gir
lf
ri
ends
andyourki
ds.Weknowever ythi
ngsoi fyoudon’t
wanttobepartofthi
sleavenow!”wel ookatthem
andnooneleaves

Bonga:
“your eal
lydon’
twantt
omesswi t
husand
youdon’twanttoknowwhatwillhappenshoul
d
youtel
lanyone,evenyourwi
feorpastorormother
.
Wewi l
lknowandwe’ l
lcomeaft
eryou”
Me:“wenotsur ewhatwe’ l
lfacewhenwegett her
e
andsomeofuscoul ddi ebutyouhavet ofi
ghtand
knowt hatyouhaveaf amil
yt hatisdependingon
youandyoucan’ taf
fordtol osethem.Butshoul dit
happent hatyoudie,don’twor r
ycausewel ookout
forourown.I ’
llmakesuret hatyourfamilyistaken
careofandt heycant akecar eofthemselvestoo.
I’
m goingt oaskyouagai n,i
st hereanyonewho
wantst oleavecauseyouar efreetogo?”

Them:
“noboss,
wear
enotl
eavi
ng”

Me:“okthenPercyandjamaandoneofyourguys
goandgetuspet r
ol25lit
reseachcont ainer,here’
s
themoneybuy20oft hem ”IgivePer cythemoney
causewedon’twantanypapert r
ailfoll
owi ngus
andIknowwhenwel eavethi
splaceI ’m goingto
wipeoutanyinf
ormationtheyhaveonusi nt hi
s
hotel
.“andguysavoidcamer asatthepet rolstati
on,
usethetruckwehaveinthebasement”
Per
cy:
“sur
eboss,
dowecomebackher
eagai
n?”

Me:“I’
llwaitf
oryouatt hatf
ool
shousedownthe
str
eetandj amayou’l
lgearupwhenyougetthere,
hurr
yupi t’
s2am ,Iwantust obet
hereInthi
rt
y
minutes”theyleavethensbuandbongadevi
det he
remaingeightguys.

Me:“gearupguys, herear ethegunswi thsi

lencer
s,
bull
etpr
oofvests,nightvisiongogglesandeachof
youmusthaveatl eastfivet r
anquil
izerdart
s”they
star
tgetti
ngready.

Sbu:“meandbongawi l
lgetthegir
lstosaf
etybut
I’
m worr
iedthatthatt
heymi ghtscr
eam whent hey
seeus,Ithi
nktheymightthinkwe’real
sothereto
ki
dnapthem ”

Me:
“yeahbutwhent
heyseet
hatyou’
ret
her
eto
r
escuet
hem,
theymi
ghtcomedown”

Bonga:
“theydon’
ttr
ustmenbr
other
,wemi
ghthave
todr
ugthem too”

Me:“wecan’
tdrugthem causet
hosesickfucks
we’
realr
eadydruggi
ngthem andtheymightendup
bei
ngaddict
s,”

Sbu:“we’
llusethosepoli
cebadgessotheywi
ll
thi
nkthatwe’r
especialcops”welaugh

Me:“It
hinkt
hewomeni nthewil
lcomfortthel
it
tl
e
onescauseIt
hinktheyknoweachothernowand
haveabondIthink”

Bonga:
“yeahthat
’st
rue,
manAl
excamet
hrough
wit
hthosebadges”
Me:
“Ithi
nkthatwil
lwor
k,pr
etendi
ngt
obecops,
t
hey’
l
lfeelatease”

Sbu:“theywi
llcausewehaven’
tseenanydi
rt
ycops
workingwit
hthatfool”

Bonga:
“hecan’
tbewor
kingal
oneandr
unni
ngt
his
thi
ng”

Me:“Icheckedandheus, r
ememberthi
sishisdir
ty
secr
etli
fehe’ sl
iving,
Ithi
nkweshoul
dgetallthe
cameraequi pmentsowecanseewhoel sehas
beeninthere,doingthesamethi
ngshedoes”

Bonga:
“we’l
ldothatbutareyousur
eyouwantt
o
goseethatf
oolalonebrot
her?”

Me:
“thesafetyoft
hosekidsandwomenis
i
mportant
,Ihavebeenthr
oughworsesi
tuat
ions
t
hant
hisone”

Sbu:“butassoonaswebr
ingt
hem her
eandseei
f
theyareokay,
we’r
ecomi
ngtoyou”

Me:
“okbr
other”

Bonga:“howar
ewegoi
ngt
ogetever
yonewher
e
theyl
ive?”

Me:“t
heyf i
rsthavetotelluswhotheyareand
wheretheyarefrom thenwe’l
ltakei
tfr
om ther
e?,
whatdidtheAlbanianssay?”

Bonga:“t
heysaidtheyhavepeopl
eincapeTown
andthey’
llbeher
einthemorningandI’
llt
ellt
hem
wheretomeet”
Me:“goodbr
other
,let
’sgoandendthissi
ckf
uck,
as
soonasIswit
chtheli
ghtsoffyougeti
n”

Sbu:“everyoneready?”theyallnodandwel eave
someusi ngthefireexi
tdoorandot hersusingthe
elevator
.Igetinthecar,sbutakesthetruckand
bongst akesanothercar
, wealll
eaveandItakea
diff
erentrout
etoNgqakul a'
shouse.Ipar kdownt he
roadfivehousesdownt henswi tchoffthel
ights
andcheckonbongaandsbu

Me:
“guyshowf
arar
eyou?”

Bonga:
“we’
real
mostther
e,j
ustwai
ti
ngf
oryout
o
gi
veusthegoahead”

Me:
“Per
cywher
ear
eyou?”

Per
cy:
“I’
m al
mostt
her
eboss,
jamai
sonhi
swayt
o
youbonga”

Bonga:“ohher
eheis,
doyouwantmet
osendhi
m
backtoyouguys?”

Me:“nohe’
sgoingtotake20mi
nut
esIdon’
thave.
Sbuareyoureadybrot
her?”

Sbu:“Iam brot
her,cutofft
heelect
ri
city”Isee
Percypulli
ngupbehi ndmewiththeotherguyandI
getouttootaki
ngt hebagIbroughtwithmet henI
don’tgi
vethem instr
ucti
onsIjustr
unt owards
Ngqakula’shouseandwhenI ’m atthegateItake
outmyphone, hackt hedat
abaseagainandswi tch
offtheli
ghts

Me:
“let
’sgetthem boys”Ij
umpovert
hefence,
t
hesetwofoll
owmeandwal kbesi
demeandwe
t
akeourgunsout
Me:“wearegoingt
oenteri
ntheki
tchen,
Per
cyyou
havethekeys?”Henods

Him:“you'l
lgettheki dsandl ockthem inone
bedroom Percysincet heyknowyouandyou, come
withme,let’
sgo, beforetheycal lt
hisfool”we
quickl
yandqui etl
ygoar oundt hehouseandgetto
thekit
chenandPer cyunl ocksthedoorandweget
i
nandIgoupst airs,gotot heirbedroom andopen
thedoorslowly.

Iseethem sleepingpeacef
ull
yandIsignalt
othe
guytokeepqui etandhivehimthebagandhet akes
i
t.Igothewi fe’
ssideofthebedandthenshakeher
soft
lyandsheopenshereyesandl ooksatus
shocked.Isignalforhert
okeepquietandgetoutof
bedandl uckyformeshedoesandshe’ slooki
ngat
herhusbandscar edandshe’snaked.

Themooni
sshi
ningbri
ghtout
sidesoshecansee
twomeni
nherr
oom, Per
cyopensthedoorandshe
seeshim andqui
ckl
yr unsandthr
owsher sel
fto
him….Ok.Ijumpont hebedandheget sstart
led
andopenshiseyesandi saboutt
oscream orsay
somethi
ngbutIdon’tgivehi
m achancecauseIj ust
punchhim wit
hmygunandknockhi m out .

Me:“Percycansheputsomeclot
hesonandmake
sureshetalkst
oherki
dsandtheydon’
tcal
l
anyone?,getmeadamnchairandgi
vemet hatbag
”

Her
:“whoar
eyouandwhatdoyouwantf
rom us?”

Me:
“we’r
eher
ecauseyourhusbandmessedwi
th
t
hewrongman”

Her
:“whatdi
dhedo?”

Me:
“doyouwantt
oleaveyourhusbandandst
arta
newli
fe?”shel
ooksatPer
cyforalongt
imet
hen
l
ooksatmenods,doessheli
kehi
m?

Me:
“sayi
t!”

Her
:“Iwantt
oli
vehi
m butIknowhe’
l
lfi
ndus”

Me:
“hewon’tcausehe’
sgoi
ngt
odi
e,doyouwant
t
owatchhi
m die?”

Her:
“yes,thi
ssonofabi t
chhasbeenmakingmy
l
if
eal i
vinghellsoyesIwantt
oseehim beggi
ngf
or
hi
slif
e”

Me:“thenit’
syourluckydaycauseyoumi ghtjust
getyourrevenge”Per cycomeswi t
hachai randwe
dragthisfatbust
ardandsithim onthechair.It
ake
outthehandcuf f
sandcuf feachlegonthechai r
andcuffhisfathands.“getmeabucketofwat erto
wakeupthisf
ool”shegoestothebathroom andI
l
ookatPercycausehehassomeexplainingtodo.
Shecomesbackwi t
hthebucketandshehasput
someclot
heson.

Me:
“brothershowfarar
eyouguys?Ineedt
oput
t
heelect
rici
tybackon”

Bonga:
“thewomenandt hekidsarealli
nthe
quant
um, andwe’
rebusydraggingthesementot
he
tr
uck”

Sbu:
“manweneedatl eastt
hir
tymi
nut
essowe
cangetal
ltheequi
pmenthere”

Me:“guyshurrybef
oretheywakeupandweneed
toburnthathousebefor
eIswit
chonthel
ight
s
agai
n,wor ksf
astbrot
hers”
Sbu:
“gi
veus15mi
nut
est
hen”

Me:“okt
hen,l
adygocheckonyourki
dsandmake
sur
etheydon’
thearanyt
hing”

Her
:“okbutIwantt
oher
e”

Me:
“whenhehi
tsyouwhatdot
heydo?”

Her
:“t
heygot
oourhousekeeperandsl
eepwi
thher
”

Me:“takethem t
hereanddon’
tsayanyt hingtoyour
housekeeper,
Percygowithher”theyleaveandI
taket
hebucketandt hr
owitallonthi
sf uckerand
hewakesupscr eamingandgaspingforai r
.

Me:
“wakeupmot
herf
ucker
,I’
m her
e”
Hi
m:“whot
hef
uckar
eyou?”Il
augh

Me:
“youwant
edme,
soher
eIam ”

Hi
m:“you!
,howdi
dyougether
eMbusoGumede?”

Me:“youdon’tgettoaskquesti
onshere!
,whatdi
d
youthi
nkwillhappen? ,
you’
ll
threat
entotakemy
wif
eawayf r
om met hensendsomeonetokillme
andyouthoughtI’l
ljustwai
tforyouandnotcome
aft
eryou?”

Him:
“youwon’tgetawaywi
tht
his,
hewi
llf
indyou
andki
llyou”

Me:“no,
I’
llf
indhi
mlikeIf
oundyou,
nobody
t
hreat
ensandgetsawaywit
hit”
Him:
“wher
eismywi
fe,
wher
ear
emyki
ds,
whatdi
s
youdot
othem?”

Her:
“ohI’
mri
ghtherehusband,
final
lyyouhave
metyourmat
ch,Ican’
twaitt
oseeyouneedf or
yourl
if
eanddi
e.!”shesaysget
ti
ngintheroom

Him:“youareworkingwit
hthem t
oo,howcoul d
youbetraymeyouwhor e!”shet
akest hesidelump
andthrowsitonhisfaceandhebleeds.Ilookatthe
ti
meandwear el
eftwith5minut
esbef oreIhaveto
l
ightagain.

Me:
“howt hehel
ldoyoulivewit
hyoursel
fyousi
ck
f
uck!
,howcouldyoukidnapandrapekidsand
makepornogr
aphicvi
deosofthem?”themother
f
uckerl
aughsandhiswifegaspsshocked.

Hi
m:“t
heyl
ovedi
t,eachandever
yoneoft
hem
l
ovedi tandtheymademesomuchmoney, their
videosareallovertheworldandtherearesome
streamingli
venow!”It akethebaseballbatfrom
thebagandhi tbothhiskneecapshar dwi t
hal lmy
strengt
handIf eelhisbonescracki
ngandhe
screams.

Me:
“youhavekidsyoufuckenpsycho,
howcanyou
dot
hist
ootherkidsandnotthi
nkaboutyourown?
!
”

Him:“Ihavenevertouchedmyki dsandIwillnever
butyou,mbuso,thatlovel
ylooki
ngpregnantfiancée
ofyourswouldmakemel otsandlot
sofmoney”

Me:“noonewi lldoanyt
hingtoher,
notaslongasI
l
ive!”Ihitbot
hhi sar
mswi t
hthebasebal
lbatand
theybreakandIseebonesst i
cki
ngoutofthem and
hescreamssohar d.
Me:“scr
eam allyouwantbutnoonei
scomingto
saveyou,yourhousei
sbigandyournei
ghbour
sare
far
.

Hi
m:“fuckyougumede, youhearme,
fuckyou!”I
l
aughandt akeoutthegastor
chandl
ighti
nandhe
l
ooksatitandscream.

Me:“Ihavesomethi
ngt
hatmighttakeawayt
he
pai
n,Icansaveyouandnotki
llyou”

Hi
m:“pleasedon’
tkil
lme,Icanchangeandst
op
whatI
’
m doingpleasemakethispai
ngo”

Her:
“no!
,youcan’
tdot
hat
,youpr
omi
sedmet
hathe
wil
ldi
e”

Me:“l
adyshutupandwat
ch,i
fheapol
ogiesand
pr
omisestostopt
henmaybehedeser
vesanother
chance”

Her
:“yousonofa….”

Me:“youbet
ternotsaywhatIt
hinkyou’
regoingto
sayandshutyourfuckenmout
hbeforeIshutitf
or
you.WherewasIokaysecondchance,t
ellme
whereist
hatsniperyouhi
redt
okil
lme?”he’s
groani
nginpai
na

Him:
“heisi
nLadysmithnow,
hecalledme5hour
s
ago,
givemesomethi
ngmanI’m dyi
ngher
e”

Me: “beforeIdothatI’
m goingtogi veyouan
addr essandyoutellhi
mt ogot herecauset hat
’s
wher ehewi l
lfi
ndme.Hewi llenterthef arm andgo
strai
ghttothebarncausewe’ l
lbehavi ngameet ing
there,youri
nsidecontactt
oldyout hat ,doyouhear
me!”he’ sinpainandIdoubthe’ l
ltellhim exact
lyas
Isaid.
Him:“ok.
,okI’
l
ldoitpl
easemandon’tburnmewi
th
thatt
hing”It
akemyphoneandcallsicel
oandhe
answersonthesecondri
ng

Hi
m:“what
’swr
ongcauseIcanseeyou’
rest
il
lal
ive?
”

Me:“thesniperisgoingtocometothefarm,Iwant
youguyst ober eadyforhi
m andcaptur
ehim, go
nowandt el
leveryonetogeti
nposit
ioncausehe’s
alr
eadythereandwearmycl ot
hesandwal kl
ikeme
sohe’llt
hinkyou’reme”

Hi
m:“youf
oundngqakul
a?”

Me:
“yeshe’
sgoi
ngtocal
lhi
m now,
mant
het
hings
wef
oundwil
lmakeyousi
ck”
Hi
m:“ki
llt
hatf
ucker”

Me:“youbetIam,besaf
e,wellt
alkl
ater”hehands
up.“guystal
ktome,howfarareyou?”

Sbu:
“we’
redoneandwe’
reont
hewayt
othehot
el”

Bonga:“I
’
mt aki
ngthemant ot
heplacethe
Albani
anssentmeandwe’llwai
tunti
ltheyshowup
andthehouseisburni
ngdownaswespeak”

Me:“okay,
Ibetterhur
ryupthen,
wher ei
shisphone?
”Iaskthewi f
eandshelooksforitandgi
vesitt
o
me.Itakehisthumbandunlockit“what’
shis
contact
?”

Hi
m:“sni
per”Il
ookf
ori
tthenl
ookathi
m
Me:“yousayanyt hi
ngel seI
’m goingtohavemy
guysherefuckyoui ntheassbef oreIkil
lyou,you
getme?”henodsandt hismotherisgoingtodie
soon,weakassf uckenpsycho.Idi alt
hesniper’
s
numberandi tr
ingsandIputi tonl oudspeaker.

Sni
per
:“bossman”

Ngqakula:“kil
ler
,Iwantyoutogo….”surpr
isingl
y
thi
smot herfuckertel
lshi
m ever
ythi
ngItoldhimt o
say,hereall
ythinksI’
m notgoi
ngtokil
lhim andI
smirkthi
sf ool.

Sniper:
“I’
l
lgobossbutwhyar
eyout
alki
ngl
ike
you’r
einpain”

Ngqakul
a:“becauseIwasfucki
ngmywi f
ebefor
eI
gott
hecallaandsheisbit
ingmefuck!”he’
seven
abett
eractorwow!.
Sni
per
:“okbossI
’
m goi
ngt
her
enowcauseIwas
sl
eepi
ng”

Ngqakul
a:“cal
lmewhent
hej
obi
sdone”t
henI
hangup.

Me:“youconvincedhi
m andnowyoudeser veyour
reward”It
akemyphoneandbr i
ngthepowerback
onagainandIlookattheti
meandit’s2:
30am.I
givet
heladythebasebal
lbatandshetakesit
l
ookingscar
ed.

Me:
“ti
met
ogetyourr
evengei
fyoust
il
lwant”

Her
:“Ihavebeendreamingaboutthisf
oryear
s,i
t’
s
t
imeyouetyourfuckedupancestorsmotherf
ucker
!
”

Ngqakul
a:“babypl
ease,
I’
m sor
rymyl
ovedon’
tdo
t
his!”

Her:
“goodbyemot herfucker,
thi
sisforme, myki
ds
andallt
hewoment hathavesuff
eredinyourhands
”sheswi ngsthebatli
keabaseballplayerandhi
ts
herhusbandont hefacehard,br
eaki
nghi sbones
andtheycrackandhescr eams.

Me:
“doyouwantt
ohi
thi
m agai
n?”

Her:
“noI’
m good”Inodandtaket
hegast
orch,
l
ighti
tandbri
ngitt
ohisface

Me:
“givemesomet hi
ngt
ogaghi m ”shegoesto
t
helaundr
yandcomesbackwi thhi
ssocksandI
t
akethem andputt
hem f
orcef
ull
ydownhi sthr
oat.

Me:“sayhel
lot
ohellforme”It
akethetor
chand
br
ingitt
ohischestandbur
nhim andthesmel
lof
humanf leshbur ni
ngisdisgusti
ng.Hescr eamsand
screamsandIcont i
nuetobur nhim unti
lIseehi s
ri
bbonest henIhearPercy,thewi f
eandt heguyal l
puking.Iburnhim andseehi sheartandIt ur
nt he
heatonandbur nhim unti
lhepissesandshi t
son
himselfthenstopsmovi nganddi es.Il
ookatt hem
andt heylooksick.

Me:
“nowi
t’
syourt
urnMr
s?”

Her
:“you’
regoi
ngt
oki
llmet
oo?“

Me:“youknowPercyher
eandyoumi ghtcal
lthe
pol
iceonus,sowhyshouldIki
llyout
oo?”

Her:
“pleasesi
r,Icoul
dhavedonet
hatbutIdi
dn’
t
andItr
ustPercycausehetol
dmeyouar eaanIcan
tr
ustandyou’r
eher et
ohelpi
s”
Me:“wellbewatchi
ngyoubutifsayanythi
ngto
anyoneI’
llcomeaft
eryoumyself,youunder
stand?
”amessageget sinandit’
sfr
om sicel
oandhe
saystheyhavecaptur
edthesniperandIsmil
e.

Her:
“Idosir”Ihadt
osaythatsoIcansurethatwe
cantr
ustherbutmeantwhatIsai
daboutcoming
aft
erhershoul
dshesayanythi
ngtoanyone.

Me:“thepolicearegoingtohavemanyquest i
ons
astowhathappenedher e,sowehavetomakei t
l
ikeyougotambushedandat t
ackedinyourown
home.Per cyisgoingtobeatyouupandyouhave
tobestrongt hisonelastt
imethenit
’sover
.Percy
j
usthithertwi ceonthefacebutdon’
tbreak
anyt
hingthenyoucanhi theronherbody”

Her:“Icantakeit”InodatPer
cyandhenods.He
punchesherhar dandshewincesbutdoesn’
tsaya
wordt henhepunchesheragainandshetearsup
thenhet akesouthisbel
tandhit
sherhardfi
ve
t
imes

Me:“okst
opPer
cyt
hat
’senough”hest
ops“l
ady
ar
eyouokay?”

Her
:“I
’
mfi
ne,
whatnow?”sheasksget
ti
ngup

Me: “wel eaveyoucallthepol i

cecr yi
nghyster
icall
y
andt ellthem yougotattached,theytort
uredyour
husbandcauseheowest hem moneyandt hey
didn’tgetanyi nthehouset henbeatyouupand
threatenedt okil
lyouandyourki dswhenyout ri
ed
torunaway.Per cywil
lcallyouaf teraweekand
pleasel adydoasIt el
lyou!”

Her:
“Iwi l
l”shel ooksatPercyandhemout hsI
’m
sorr
yandIt hi
nkt hesetwoli
keeachother
.Ipackal
l
myt hingsincl
udingt hebasebal
lbatandt
ake
ngqakula’scellphonet hent
aketheDNAOUT
Invi
siblesolut
ionspr ay.
Me:“youdon’ tknowus, wewer eneverherebut
we’l
lseeyouagai n”shenodst henkissesPercyon
themout hthenIt akethesprayandspr ayi
taround
thebedroom, kidsroom andwher ewewal kedwhen
wegoti nt
ot hehouse, thefencewej umpedt henthe
gateopensandwel eaveandr untoourcar sgeti
n
anddriveofftot hehotel.
CHAPTER32.

MBUSO.

Igetinsi
deourhot elsui
teandallt
heguysaret her
e
excludi
ngbonga, t
heyaretalki
ngsoftl
ybutget
si
lentwhent heyseeme.Il ookatal
lofthem and
somel ookshockedandshaken.Istandi nt
he
middleoftheroom andlookateachandever yone
ofthem intheeye.

Me:
“Iwantt
othankyouf
oraj
obwel
ldoneguys,
youdidgreatandyousavedt hewomenand
chi
ldrent
odayandwehavesavedt heirli
vesforthe
bett
erandnowwewi llr
etur
nt hem totheirfami
li
es.
Youshouldbeproudofyour selvesforthejobwel l
doneandyougetsomet hi
ngal it
tl
ebitextrainyour
bankaccountsbeforethedayendsbutr emember
whathappenedher e,
stayshereguys”t heynod.

Sbu:
“youcanleavenow,
welltakei
tfr
om herebut
j
amayou’l
lst
aybehind”theynodandleave.

Me:
“howmanywomenandchi
ldr
enwer
ether
e?”

Sbu:“fourwomen,fourteenagersandfivekids,
the
tworooms.Iwantedtodividethem theyabsolut
ely
ref
usedandt heyar
eafraidthattheyaregoingtobe
sol
dagai n”

Me:“yeahitmakessensebuthowaretheydoi
ng
nowthattheyareoutoft
hathouse?”
Hi
m:“mantheyarest
il
lscar
edandit
’sgoi
ngtotake
t
hem l
ongt
ot r
ustmenandbeoutinthepubl
ic”

Me:
“Idon’
tbl
amet
hem,
who’
sguar
dingt
hem?”

Hi
m:“
jama'
sri
ghthandman”

Me:“ok,I
’
mj ustgl
adthatt
heyal
lsaf
eandwi
ll
r
eturntothei
rfami
li
es”

Him:“mantheyar egoingtoneedl
otsandl
otsof
ther
apyespecial
lyt hel
it
tl
eones….ManI’
m somad
Iwanttofuckenkillsomeone!”

Me:
“you’
l
lgetapi
eceoft
hesni
perandt
akei
tout
onhi
m”
Hi
m:“youf
oundhi
m”

Me:“yeah,
Isetat
rapf
orhi
m andnowscel
ohas
hi
m”

Hi
m:“damnbr
other
,youdon’
twast
eti
me”

Me:“nobodymesseswithmyf
amil
yandget
saway
wit
hit,Per
cyt
ellmewhatthef
ucki
sgoi
ngon
bet
weenyouandt hatwoman”

Percy:
“boss…uhm t hefi
rstti
meIsawherwe
cl
icked,If
eltsomethingforherbutIdi
dn’
tshowit
andIwasj ustassurpri
sedasyouwhenshet hrew
hersel
fatmeandhuggedme”

Me:“not
hinghappensbet
weent
het
woofyou
bef
orethat?”
Per
cy:
“Iswearboss,
not
hinghappened”

Me:“I’m goingtot ellthi sforyourowngood, ifyou

aregoingt opursuear elationshipwithherknow
thatshewi l
lalwaysknowwhathappenedt oher
husband.Youwi llbet hatconst antreminder
especial
lywhenshel ooksatherki dsandwhen
theyaskedherwhoki lledtheirfatherandwhy,
obviouslyyoudi dn’tIdi dbutwhenyouguysar gue
onedayshemi ghtuset hatagainstyouandt hatis
verydanger ous.Iwi llnothesi tatetokil
lherifIeven
suspectthatshemi ghtbeupt osomet hing,I
’
ll
protectmyf ami l
yPer cyandyouar emyf ami
lyso
youbet t
erbesur ei fit’sheryour eall
ywant” .

Per
cy:
“IhearyoubossandI
’
llt
hinkabouti
t”

Sbu:
“you’r
efuckencrazyi
fyouthi
nkyoucanbuild
somethi
ngwi t
hthatwoman,wedon’tneedheri
n
ourl
ivescauseshe’
sgoingtobeaconstant
remi
nderandwhathappenswhenshemeet sluh
andluhfindsoutt
hatshe’
sthewi
feofthemanwho
wantedherashisslave…Comeonbrot
herthi
nk
aboutthat!”

Me:“she’
l
lbemadatmeandIcan’ thandlethat
,I
can’
tli
etoher.LookPer
cyIknowshe’sinnocenti
n
al
lofthi
scauseshetoowashisvi
ctim butIcan’
t
haveheraroundluh”

Percy:
“IgetitbossbutIst
il
lhaven’
tdecidedifI
wantherthatwayormaybei twasjustphysical
att
ract
ion.Wecan’tblameherforherhusband’s
acti
ons,i
t’
snotf ai
r”

Me:“Iwil
lnothavesomeoneinmyl i
fewhowi l
l
alwayshaveaholdonme, Idon’
tli
vemyl i
fe
l
ookingovermybackscaredthatsomeonewho
knowssomet hi
ngaboutmemi ghtshowupand
causeprobl
emsnotonlyformebutf oryoutoo
Percy”
Sbu:“youcanal
waysgetanot hergir
lwhohasno
baggagePercyandleavethiswoman, i
t’
sei
theryou
l
eaveheranddon’tcontacthereveragai
norweki l
l
her”

Jama:“orwekillyouPer
cy.Youhaven’
teven
fuckedherbuthereyouarebusyt
alki
ngallt
hisshi
t!
”

Percy:
“shutt
hef
uckup,
youwer
enott
her
ewhatdo
youknow?”

Jama:“Iknowt hatwefuckengetridofli
abi
li
ti
es
andsheisone.Ihavesomet hi
ngt hatwecangive
herandshewon’ trememberanythingthat
happenedlastnight”

Me:
“whatt
hef
uck?
,wher
edi
dyougeti
t?”
Jama:
“Iknowpeopl
ewhomaket
hisst
uff”

Me:“getitnowandyou?,
I’
m goingtobookhera
room andyou’r
egoi
ngtoaskhertocomeher eand
you’
llgi
veherthest
uff
.You’l
lactal
lconcer
nedand
worri
edaboutherandyou’
llgi
veitt
oher”

Hi
m:“shecoul
dbet
heonet
houghboss”

Me:“goandcal lher”hegoestothebedroom.“get
moreoft hatst
uff,I
’l
lpayandwe’regoi
ngtogiveit
t
oPer cytoo.Idon’twanthimtorememberanythi
ng
f
rom beinghereinP.Ecausei tl
ooksli
kehereall
y
l
ikesherandwecan’ thavet
hat”

Sbu:“gr
eati
deacausehemakesmewantt
ojust
punchhim”
Jama:“t
heysaythey’
l
ldel
iveri
tint
wohour
sand
theywantR20.000”

Me:
“whatt
hehel
l!
,howbi
gist
hatt
hing?”

Jama:“2lit
reboss,youj
ustuseadr opofi
tandin
15mi nut
esitwil
lknockt
hem downandt heywon’
t
rememberanythingandit
’snott
raceabl
eonthe
blood”

Me:“Ihopet
heydon’
tuset
hatt
hingondr
uggi
ng
andrapi
ngwomen”

Jama:“nosirt
heysel
li
tandusei
tonpeopl
ewho
havesever
ecasesoftr
auma”

Sbu:
“fuckman,
weneedt
owor
kwi
tht
hesepeopl
e”
Me:
“doest
hegover
nmentknowaboutt
hisdr
ug?”

Jama:
“nosir
,causetheyknowift
hegover
nment
fi
ndsoutt
heywil
ltakeitf
rom t
hem ”

Me:
“butyout
oldusabouti
t,why?”

Jama:“Isawyoubosseshowyouwor kandyou
carefort
hepeoplewhowor kforyouandIwantto
bepartofthatandsoIthoughtbri
ngi
ngthist
othe
tabl
ewouldbemywayofget ti
nginandbeingone
ofthemanyout rustt
oo”he’ssmart,
Ili
kesmart
man.Ilookatsbuandhe’simpressedtoo.

Me:“welcomet ot
hefami
lyj
ama”weshakehi
s
hands,
Per cycomesback

Per
cy:
“she’
scomi
ngboss”
Me:
“whoisshegoi
ngtoleavet
heki
dswi
thandi
s
t
hepol
icedoneatt
hei
rhouse?”

Per
cy:“shesaidt
hepol
icear
ealmostdoneandher
si
steri
salreadyt
her
eandthehousekeepert
oo”

Me:“goandgetar oom andkeephercompany.

Whent heydel i
verthedr
ugI’l
lcallyouthenhandup
andyou’llusethelandli
neandpr etendtoorder
somethingthenJamawi l
lcomeasawai terand
bri
ngyouguyschampagnet hatyou’l
ldri
nk,cause
you’
llaskjamat oopenitandpouri tthenJamawi ll
spi
keherdr ink,yougetme?”

Hi
m:“Ihearyouboss”

Me:“gothen”heleaves“drugthem bot
hbutwe
havetomakesurethatwegetherbackather
housebefor
ethedrugkicksin.We’
llcal
lherand
pret
endtobethepolice”Int
akeoutmyphoneand
cal
lbonga

Me:
“wher
ear
eyou?”

Hi
m:“I
’
llbet
her
einanhour”

Me:
“havet
heyar
ri
ved?”

Hi
m:“theyar
efl
yingininthi
rt
yminutest
henI’
l
lwai
t
f
orthem t
omaket hepaymentandthenI
’l
lbet
her
e
”

Me:
“weshoul
dbegonebef
oret
hesum r
ises”

Hi
m:“don’
twor
rysaf
eandI
’
llbet
her
e”

Me:
“okbr
other”Ihangup.
Sbu:“sowhatdowedowi
tht
hewomenand
chi
ldren?”

Me:“Iwasthinki
ngt hatwegoandt al
ktothe
womenf i
rstandfindoutiftheyknowwher et
he
ki
dsarefrom andt akeitf
rom t
herebecausewe
don’
twanttobecaughtwi tht
hem andbeaccused
ofhumant r
affi
cki
ng”

Sbu:
“let
’sgo,
Jamayoustayher
eandl
etusknow
whenyourpeopl
ear
ehere”

Jama:“sur
emybosses”Wel eaveandgotot
he
otherr
oom opposi
tet
ooursuit
eandknock

Hi
m:“yourboss,openup!”heopenst hedoorandI
l
ookthewomenandchi l
drenareal
lsit
ti
ngdownin
gr
oupatthecorner,handsaroundeachother
Me:“wearenother
etohar m you,youdon’
thaveto
beafr
aidofus.Wearegoingt otakeyoubackto
yourf
amili
es,who’
sspeaksforyou”

Girl
:“Ir
ememberyourvoicesir,
you’retheonewho
foundmei nthebat
hroom andpromi sedtogetme
outoftheandtakemet omyf amil
y…. .Thankyou
sir
,thankyou!”t
hechainthatwasar oundherneck
i
sgonebutyoucanst il
lseethebruisearoundher
neck.

Me:“youdon’
thavetot
hankuscauseyoudon’t
deser
vewhathappenedtoyoubuti
t’
sovernow,
whospeakersf
oryou?”

Voi
ce:
“Iwi
ll”

Me:“whoareyou”Iaskawomanwhol ooksso
ski
nnyli
keshewasbringst
arvedoff
ood.
Her
:“mynameisthandoandI’
mfrom Jobur
g,al
lof
t
hem foundmet
here”shesayssni
ff
ing

Sbu:
“howdi
dtheyki
dnappedyou?”

Her:“Iwascomingbackfrom workandtherewas
notaxisoOrequestedametertaxit
henthedriver
sprayedsomet
hinginthecarl
ikeairf
reshenerand
thenIwokeuptherenakedandchained”wow.

Her:
“Allt
hesekidsarefr
om ages8,
9,
10,
10and11
andtheyallhaveonethi
ngi
ncommon”

Me:
“whati
sit
?”

Her:
“theyar
eal
lor
phansandt
heyl
iveatan
or
phanageinAl
ex”fuck!
Me:“Fuckhewastar
getingorphanagescausehe
knewthatnoonewil
llookfort
hosekidscauset
hey
havenoone”

Sbu:
“hecoul
dhavedoneafakeadopt
ion,
pai
d
someonet
ofalsi
fyt
hedocument
s”

Me:“unl
essiftheorphanagei
sworki
ngwit
hhim,
weneedtoshutitdownandmovet heki
dsthatar
e
l
ivi
ngtherecausetheymightbesel
li
ngt
hekidsto
someoneelsetoo”

Sbu:“I’
l
ltakethem t
oDurbantomyfami
ly’
s
orphanage,t
heywilll
ivet
here”t
heki
dsstar
tcr
ying
andmani tbreaksmyheart.

Sbu:
“andyouladi
es?”t
hegi
rlwhor
emember
s
voi
cespeaks
Her:
“Iwascomi ngbackf r
om t helibrar
yatnight
whenIfeltli
kesomeonewaswat chingmet henI
r
anbutbumpedi nt
oanotherguyandhehi tmeand
t
henIwokeupatt hatpl
ace, I
’
mf rom Pr et
ori
aandI
wasstudyingatWitsUniversi
ty”

Theytellushowt heygotki dnapped,onewas

druggedatthecl ub, anotherwassol dbyhersugar
daddy,theotherwaspi mpedoutbyherf ri
ends,
anotherwashi tfrom t hebackatt hetoil
etinthe
mall,t
heotheronet oowasatt heclubwhenaguy
andboughtt hem dr inksthenf ol
lowedt hem where
theyli
veandt ookhercauset hat
’sthelastthingshe
remember sandt hel astonewaswal kingtothe
shopswhent heyt ookher .

Theytellustheyrapedthem andwouldfil
m and
str
eam itwhiletherapewashappeningandwe’ll
seeallofthatintheequi
pmentwet ookandtheytel
l
usthat,thatf
uckerNgqakulawouldgetrequest
s
from peopleandt heywoulddowhatt hevi ewswant
them todot othem andthethingstheysaymakeus
sicktoourstomachsandi tmakesmef eelli
keIcan
goandki l
lthatfuckeroverandoveragai n.Six
womenar efrom Joburgincl
udingthegirlandthe
l
adywhowast ell
ingisabouttheki
dst hent heot
her
twowomenar efr
om Bloemfontei
nandEr melo.

Jamacall
sandwel eavet
hewomenandgot
oour
room t
henbongagetsint
her
oom t
oo.

Him:“Damnyoul
ookl
ikesomeonehasdi
ed,
what
happened?”

Me: “you’
llwat
chandsee, Ineedyoutogowi t
h
j
amaandhewi l
lfi
llyouinaboutthedealIwantus
todot henyou’
llt
aket hatwomenbackt oherplace
thenyouguyscomebackandwer el
eavingthi
s
place,sbugetthejetreadyandIsawt hatt
heywere
dressedthankyoubr other
s”
Sbu:“wesawaclothi
ngstor
eopenedandwe
boughtt
hem cl
othes,
theycoul
dn’
twal
karound
naked”Inod.

Me: “goguysandgett hedr ug, drugt hem thent ake

herhomeandcomeback, doi tquick”bongaand
j
amal eavethensbucal l
sthepi lotthenwest art
packingupal lourequi pmentandj ama' srighthand
helpsusaswet aket hewomenandki dstot he
quant um andhekeepsguar d.Wepackever ything
i
nt heot herquant um alltheequi pmentf r
om
Ngqakul aandour sthenwi peoutal lD.N.Af rom
thesui t
ewewer eusi ngt otheonewher et he
womenwer epl acedandt heel evatort henj ama
comesdr aggingPer cywho’ sdr unkput t
inghi mi n
thecart hentheyt aket hewomenandputheri nt he
othercarandl eaveher satthehot elandt heydr ive
hert oherplace, they’llthi
nkshe’ sdr unkt henwe
sprayagai nthebasementt hengeti nourcar ssbu
dri
vingt hequant um wi thwomenandIdr i
vet heone
withPer cy,j
ama' smanandt heequi pment .
Wedrivet
ot hepr i
vat
eairportthenwewai tf
orjama
anbongatoar r
iveandwhent heydoIgetnmy
l
aptopandjackt hehotel
’
ssyst em andharddrive
andwipeeverythingmakingsur ethatt
here’
sno
tr
aceofusthenl oadtheequipmentandt hekids
andwomen, Percyintheprivatejet.

Me:
“youcancomewi
thusandst
ayf
oraf
ewdays
”

Jama:“Ihavetobeyoureyesandearsandsee
what
’shappingherebutwhenever
ythinghasgone
downI’l
ldefi
nit
elycomeboss”

Me:“t
hanksmen,you’
vebeenarealhel
pandI
’
ll
set
tl
eyourman'
saccountsandyours”

Hi
m:“Itr
ustyoubosspl
usIhavet
ocl
eant
hecar
s
werent
ed”
Me:“wel
lseeyouandyourmansoon”weal lshake
handswi
ththem andt
henweboar dt heplaneand
l
eaveP.Eandyoucanseether el
ievedfacesont he
womenandkids.LuhbabyI
’m comi nghome! .
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER32.

LUNGI
.

Mybrotherlef
twithZamaandIhopehewi ll
apol
ogizetoherproperlyandnotusesext omake
herf
orgivehim notIknowshef orgavehi
mf orwhat
hedidcauseshecameher e.Ihopemybr otherwil
l
fi
ndthelovehedeser vesactual
lybothofthem,I
hopeZamai snothinglikeayandaandIhopei twas
thel
asttimewesawt hatgir
l.Prest
onandMah
comeandsi tnexttome.

Me:
“myf
avour
it
epeopl
e,what
’sapp?”
Pr
est
on:
“wehavet
otal
kaboutyourdr
ess”

Me:“Ireal
lydon’
twantt
ogetmar r
iedpregnant
causeI’m goi
ngt
olookl
ikeafatcow,imagine
l
ookingatmyweddingphotosfi
veyearsf r
om now”

Mah:“t
hey’l
lbebeaut
if
ulbabyandyoucanal
ways
getmarr
iedagai
nwhent heki
dsareayearol
d”

Me:
“Pr
est
onjustmakemel ookbeaut
if
ulli
keI’
m
t
heonl
ygi
rli
ntheroom t
hatmbusowi l
lsee.”

Him:
“girlhaveyouseenhowt hatmanl ooksat
you?,
youcanbr i
ngnakedgirl
sandst andt hem i
n
fr
ontofhim andhewon’tevenseethem ”

Me:
“he’
samanpr
esandmenhavewonder
ingeyes
”
Mah:“mbusowil
lnevercheatonyouluh,
hel
oves
yout
hatmuchandl ookathim now,
he’st
her
e
fi
ght
ingforyou”

Me:“sometimesIfeelli
keIdon’
tdeser
vehim mah
causeallofthet
hingshe’sdoneandisdoi
ngfor
me.Ifeelli
kehewi l
lsayhe’
shadenough”

Pr
es:
“nowt
hat
’syouremot
ionst
alki
ngnotyou”

Mah:“he’
sdoingalloft
hatbecausehelovesyou
andbecauseyourwellbei
ngandsafetyishis
numberoneprior
it
y,tel
lmehowmanymenwoul d
gooutofthei
rwayt odothat
?”

Me:
“yeahIknowI
’
mjustbei
ngsi
ll
y”

Pres:
“you’
renotbei
ngsil
lyl
uh,he’
scomi
ngbackt
o
youandthekidsandyouguysaregoi
ngt
oget
mar
ri
ed”Isi
gh

Mah:
“I’
mjustgl
adt
hatayandagi
rli
sgone”

Pres:
“Idon’tknowmuchaboutherbutf rom what
bigbrot
hertoldme,hesaidwhenhef ir
stmether
shewast hi
ssweetper sonandnotthi
swomanwe
saw.Hesaidshechangedaf t
erherexcall
edher
andshe’sbeingli
kethatsince”

Mah: “yourbrot
herdidn’
tknowthatgir
latal
l,t
he
onlythinghesawi sherassandnot hi
ngelse.That
gir
lhasj ustsomethi
ngwr ongwit
hherandI ’
m glad
she’soutofourlivesbecauseIdon’
ttr
usther”

Pres:“Ithi
nkshe’sei
therbipolarandsheknowsbut
she’snottaki
nghermedi cationorherfamil
yhasa
historyofmentali
ll
nesses.Sheneedsver y
i
nt ensivet
her
apyt odeter
mi newhatiswrongwith
her”
Me:
“itmi
ghtexpl
aint
hewayshewasbehavi
ng”

Mah:“maybebutIst
il
lsaythosewerehertr
ue
col
ourswesawandyourbrotherbett
erbegladt
hat
sheshowedhim nowrat
herthanl
ater,byt
heway
whereissi
cel
oandZama”

Me:
“theywentt
omypl
acet
otal
k”

Pres:
“andweallknowwhatl
anguaget
heyar
e
goingtobet
alki
ng“welaugh

Mah:“heneedstotalktoherandapol
ogize,
ifIwas
herIwouldlethi
m anywherenearme.Iwould
star
vehim ”welaugh

Pr
es:
“ok,
ok,
let
’st
alkaboutyourdr
essesbabysi
s”
Me:
“okay,
haveyouf
oundsomeonet
odesi
gni
t?”

Pres:
“there’
saguyIknowwho’ sadesi
gnerand
he’sgoingtobeheretomorr
owandhisworkis
amazing,he’sgoi
ngtobedesigni
ngbot
hyour
tr
adit
ionalandwhitedress”

Me:“okwhataboutt
hebri
desmai
dandthegroom
andthegr
oom’smen, mydadanduncl
eVict
or?”

Mah:
“he’
sdoi
ngal
loft
hat”

Me:
“notever
yonei
sheremah,
howi
shegoi
ngt
o
t
akethemeasur
ement
s?”

Pres:
“moneytal
ksl
uhhe’
sgoi
ngtobeherefort
he
wholeweekt
hat’
swhyweneedatl
eastever
yoneto
behere”
Me:“Idon’
tevenknowhowmanygr oom'smen
mbusowant sandwho’sgoingt
obehisbestman….
Ineedtotal
ktohim aboutt
hat”

Mah:“who’
sgoi
ngtobeyourmaidofhonourand
howmanypeoplehaveyouaskedt
obeyourbrides
maid?”

Me:“Iwantsimst obemymai dofhonourbutI

haven’
taskedheryet,thenit’
sgoi ngt
obeyoumah,
andyoubrotherthenI’mt hi
nkingofaskingZama
toocauseIdon’thavemanyf ri
endsandbecauseI
thi
nkmbusoi sgoingtoaskbongat obehisbest
men,thenhisotherbrotherzipho,maybeour
brot
herscelothenhisotherfriendsbuthenwe’l
lal
l
havefoureach”

Pr
es:
“thankyoul
uhf
ori
ncl
udi
ngme”
Me:
“youdon’
thavet
othankmepr
es”

Mah:“I
’
mt hankfult
ooluh,
Ihaveneverbeen
someone’
sbridesmaidbef
oreandI’
m soexcit
ed”

Pres:
“oknowthatisoutoftheway,wefounda
venueandit
’sgor
geousandi tcanaccommodat
e
upto500hundredpeopleandsohowmanypeopl e
wouldyouli
ketoi
nvit
e?”

Me: “Iwishmbusowasher ebuthesai dt heonl

y
thi
nkhewant st oknowiswhenandwher esohe
willshowup.Iwantsomet hingsmallandpr i
vate,
fi
vehundr edpeopleiswaytoomuchf orme.Ionl y
wantourf amil
iesandclosefri
endsthat’sall
,so
maybel et’
ssaythreehundredcausembusohasa
bigf ami
lyandIdon’twantanyonetof eelexcl
uded”

Mah:
“I’
l
lcal
lherandf
indouthowmanypeopl
eshe
woul
dli
ketoi
nvit
e”
Me:“familyandonl ythei
rclosestfri
endsandabout
thevenuewel l
….Iwantt ogetmar r
iedatour
famil
iesfarm becauseitisbeautif
ul,thefi
rstti
me
dadtookmet hereIknewt hi
siswher eIwasgoi ng
togetmar ri
edandbecausemymom andal lmy
ancestor
sar eburiedtheresoIwantever yonelivi
ng
ornottherewi t
hmesot heycanpr otectme, my
kidsandmymar r
iage”

Dad:
“your
eall
ymeanthat”hesayssi
tt
ingnextt
o
meandhelookssoemoti
onal

Me:“ofcoursedaddy,Iwanttogetmar
ri
edthere,
t
radit
ionalandwhit
eweddingandyou’l
lbewalking
medownt hei
sleandgivi
ngmeawayt ombuso”he
t
akesmyhandandki ssesit
.

Dad:
“Itwil
lbemyhonourbabybutIwast
hinki
ng
somethi
ngelset
oo”
Me:
“whati
sit
?”

Dad:
“Ithinkyoushoul
daskyouruncleVi
ctort
oo,
sowe'l
lbothwalkyoudonet
heislecauseIthi
nkhe
hasearnedthatr
ightt
oo”

Me:
“ngempel
ababaandyoudon’
thaveapr
obl
em
wi
thi
t?”(r
eal
lydad…)

Him:
“hehasrai
sedyoutobethewonderfulwoman
youar
etodayandhedeser
vesthathonourtoobaby
”

Me:“t
hankyoudaddy,
thankyouver
ymuch”Ihug
hi
m andhesmil
es.

Dad:“nowletmeleaveyoualone,
I’
m goingtothe
far
m, I
’l
lseeyouguyslat
er”hesaysstandingup
Me:“baba?”(dad)helooksatme.“di
dyour
eal
ly
gi
veayandaonemi l
li
onr ands?”

Dad:
“formychi
ldr
en’
ssaf
etybaby,I’
l
lgiveawayal
l
t
hemoneyIhavecausei
twouldn’
treplaceyou”

Me:
“you’
ret
hebestdadeverandIl
oveyou”

Dad:
“thankyoubabyandIloveyouandremember
t
hatI’
mt hebestdadwhenthenegot
iat
ionsst
art”
whatdoesthatmean,heki
ssesmyforeheadt
hen
l
eaves.

Pres:
“that
’ssobeaut
if
ul,
thebondyouhavewi
th
eachother”

Me:“it
’st
hebondyou’
l
lhavet
oowhenyour
r
elati
onshi
pgrows”
Pres:“yeahIhopeso…”helooksli
kehewantsto
saysomet hi
ngbutdeci
desagainsti
t.It
akemy
handandhol dhisandhesmilesandwipesat
ear
off.

Me:
“whenyou’
rer
eadyt
otal
k,I
’
m her
eforyou”

Him:“Iknowbabysis,
I’
mj ustt
hankf
ult
hatyou
guyswelcomedmewi thopenarmsandIwon’t
di
sappointyouguys”

Mah:“ki
dsdisappointt
hei
rparent
sallt
heti
mepr es
butt
hatdoesn’tmeanweshoul dl
ovethem l
ess,
we
l
ovethem harderandshowthem theway”

Pr
es:“y’
allar
erui
ningmymake-
up,okaygr
ouphug
”presthoughIgi
ggle.Wegr
ouphug.
Mah:
“didyouhavecoloursi
nmindcausewe
t
houghtofchampagnethemeanddécor”

Me:“champagneandsomet
hingspar
klyl
ike
di
amonds”

Mah:
“youwantdi
amondsatyourweddi
ng,
real
di
amonds?”

Pres:“ohmyGodIl
ovethati
dea!”hesays
screamingandwel
augh

Me:“welltheydon’thavet
odiamondsbutIwoul
d
l
ovesomer ealone’
stobeincor
porat
edint
othe
wedding.Justsomet ocomplementt
hechampagne
col
our.

Pr
es:
“si
msi
sgoi
ngt
ogocr
azyovert
his”
Me:
“weshoul
dhavef
acet
imedher”

Pres:“she’
satworksi
sbutshe’
scomingonthe
weekendandwer ebri
ngi
ngheruptospeedwit
h
everythi
ng”

Me:“okI
’l
laskmbusot ofi
ndusdiamonds,
when
am Imeet
ingthei
nter
iordesi
gner”

Pr
es:
“babythere’
snowayinheI
’
m goi
ngtoal
low
mysi
ster
’sonlyweddi
ngt
obedonebysomeone
el
se”

Me:“what?
,presno!.You’
reworki
ngandwhenar e
yougoingtogetti
met omakeeveryt
hinghappen?
,
i
t’
sgoingtogettoomuchf oryou”

Him:
“Ihaveateam si
sbesidesmah,
here.I
’m
goi
ngtogiveyouever
ythi
ngyouwantinyour
weddi
ng”

Me:
“ncooohyou’
ret
hebestbr
otherever
!”

Pr
es:
“ofcour
seIam ”wel
augh

Mah:“thedesignercomeswit
hamake- upart
ist
,so
t
hat’
scoveredandt hethemetooforthet
radi
ti
onal
weddingisalsochampagnecolours?”

Me:
“isi
tpossi
ble?”

Pres:
“anyt
hingi
spossi
blewi
thmeandmoney,
we
havethebl
ackcardr
emember?”

Me:“ohIhadf
orgot
tenaboutt
hatcar
d,who’
s
cat
eri
ng?”
Mah:“wear
est
il
lforsomeonecausewewantt
he
best”

Me:“okaymah,I’
llleavethatuptoyou….”my
phoneringsandIlookati tandi
t’
smyhusbandto
be.“excusemeguys, i
t’
smymanIhavet otaket
his,
preshelpmegetup”

Mah: “t
heywayyourstomachkeepsgrowi
ng
everydayyou’
dswearyou’r
ecarr
yingt
wins”what
?,
Ilookatpresandheshakeshi
sheadlight
ly

Him:“orshemightbecar
ryi
ngabi
gbaby”we
l
aughheget smeupandIgot omyroom and
answerthecal
l.

Me:“sthandwasam ”(myl ove)Icanfeelhim

smili
ng,wetalkontheandImi sshim moreandhe
soundslikehe’
sexhaustedandit’
sont heti
pofmy
tonguetojustaskhi
mt ocomehomeandf orget
aboutt
hatkanbutIknowhewon’tdothat.Wehang
upanddecidetoshowhim somet
hingthatwi
ll
makehim smil
e.

Itakeof fmydr essandgost andinthemi r

rorand
trytotakepi csIst ruggleatf ir
standIl aughat
mysel fbutIf i
nallygetonet hatIknowhewi l
llove.
It’
smel ayi ngdownonmysi deonthemat ,facing
themi rr
orl i
kethatt imehef uckedmeher e,Iraise
myl eftlegupmaki ngsur eIgetther ightanglet hen
snapandsendandwai t.Itur nandf aceupl ooki ng
atthecei lingwhenat extget sinandwow, i
t’
sa
pictureofhi sdi ckandi t’shar d…nocapt i
on.Iget
wett hemomentIseei tandsoIt akemyhandand
playwi t
hmyhar dnub, lookingathisdi ckandi t
doesn’tt akemel ongt ocum t henIjustlaydown
therecausehowt hef uckam Igoi ngt ogetup, I
l
aughatmysel f.Iturngetonmykneest henhol don
tothebat htubandgetupandgoshower .
CHAPTER33.
AftertakingashowerIgoandj oinmahandPr eston,
theyar ehavi
ngadeepconver sati
onabout
somet hingandIguessit’
saboutt heweddingcause
Idon’thearawor dtheyaresaying.Iwonderwhat
thesetwoar etal
kingabout.

Me:
“whatar
eyout
wogossi
pingabout
?”

Pr
es:
“justweddi
ngst
uff”hesmi
leshmmm

Me:
“Idon’
tbel
ieveyou”Isaysmi
li
ng

Mah:“ok,wethoughtyoumightbehavi
ngphone
sexwithyourhusbandtobe”theygi
ggl
e

Me:
“mah,
youcan’
tsayt
hatandwewer
en’
t”

Pr
es:
“theywhyar
eyousl
eepi
ngl
ikeyouhavej
ust
t
akenashower
?”

Me:
“Idi
dcauseIwassweat
y”

Mah:“t
hewayyourbl
ushingsaysotherwi
se”I
smil
eandlookdowncausetheydon’twannaknow
whatIwasdoingt
omyself…Iwonderwhatmbuso
woul
dthinki
fItol
dhi
m.

Me:“l
eavemeal
one,
.MahIhavebeeneani
ngt
oask
yousomethi
ng”

Mah:
“goahead”

Me:“whydi
dnevergetmar
ri
edaf
tert
heyear
smom
di
ed”

Mah:
“you’
redadwasmessf
oryear
sandwhen
si
celocamebackintoourl
ivesagai
nhegotso
muchbetterandIt
houghtheightmeetsomeone
seri
ousandgetmarri
edagainbutheneverdid
causehealwayssai
dyourmot heri
shissoul
mate”

Me:“butheshoul
dn’tl
ivehisli
feal
onemah,he
deser
vestobelovedagain.Ishenotseei
nganyone
”shesmi l
es

Mah:
“nolungibabyIdon’
tknow,
woul
dyoul
ikehi
m
t
omeetsomeone?”

Me:“yeahIwoul
dli
ketoseehim havesomeonei
n
hi
slif
ewhowi l
lmakehi
mf eell
ovedagain”

Mah:“yourdadi
sol
dschooll
uh,
wher
ewi
llhemeet
someone?”

Me:
“It
hinkIhavesomeonei
nmi
ndandI
’
m goi
ng
t
oinvi
tet
hem t
otheweddi
ng”Isaysmi
li
ng

Pr
es:
“hmm doyout
hinkt
hat
’sagoodi
dea?”

Me:“I
’
mj ustgoi
ngt
oinvi
teherandl
ett
her
estt
ake
car
eofit
self,
somami”

Mah:“whati
sitnow”sheasksannoyedt
hen
l
aughs

Me:“whyar
eyouget
ti
ngannoyed?”Iaskher
l
aughing

Her
:“causewhenyoucallmethatyouusuall
ywant
t
oaskmef orafavourandifi
tincl
udesyourdad’
s
l
oveli
fecountmeout”

Me:
“it
’snotabouthi
m,i
t’
sact
ual
lyaboutyou”she
get
squi
et

Her
:“whataboutme?”

Me:“wellIj
ustwantedtoknowifyoudon’
tmi
ndme
aski
ng,who’sthepersonyou’
redati
ng”

Pres:
“uhmm I’
m gonnagoandmakesomet
hingt
o
snack,youwantsomeluh?”

Me:
“justwat
erpr
es”

Mah:“si
tdownPreston”shesaystohi
m witha
ser
iousl
ooktoherface.“whyisi
timpor
tanttoyou?
”

Me:
“I’
mjustcur
ioust
hat
’sal
l”
Mah:
“doesi
tmat
terwho’
stheper
sonI
’
m dat
ing,
?”

Me:
“noi
tdoesn’
tmah,
asl
ongasyou’
rehappy”

Mah:
“Iam happyandthat
’sal
lthatshoul
dmat
ter
t
oyou,notwhoheisandwhathedoes”

Me:“Iwasn’
tjudgi
ngmah,maybeI’
mj ustcur
ioust
o
know whywehaven’tmethi
m yetandyounever
tal
kabouthi
m”

Mah:“t
hat’
sbecausemypr i
vatel
ifei
smi neonly
andnotanyoneel
se’s.WhenIwantyoutomeethi m,
youwil
lmeethim ”shesaysgett
ingali
tt
lebitangr
y

Me:“whyareyouget
ti
ngupset
,itwasj
ustasi
mpl
e
quest
ion?”
Pr
es:
“maybeweshoul
d….”

Mah:
“I’
m agr
ownwomanlungiandIdon’
tneed
yout
obeaski
ngmesuchquesti
ons”

Me:
“mahyou’
reacti
ngl
ikeyou’
rehi
dingsomet
hing,
ort
heper
sonyou’
redat
ing.Doweknowhim?”

Mah:
“usuyangiphaphel
amanj
e!”(you’
rebei
ngt
oo
f
orwar
dwithmenow! )

Pr
es:
“aunt
yshewasj
ustaski
ng,
maybeyou….”

Mah:“shutupPr
est
onorI’l
lsl
apthebothofyouf
or
notmindi
ngyou’
rebusi
ness!”shesaysget
ti
ngup

Me:“I
’m sor
rymahIdi
dn’
tmeantobenoisy,
Iwas
j
ustaski
ng”shedoesn’
tsayanyt
hingandl
eaves
t
henZamaandsi
cel
ogeti
n.

Si
cel
o:“youl
ookangr
y,what
’swr
ong?”sheasks
mah

Mah:
“not
hing”shebangst
hedoorbehi
ndher

Pr
es:
“yoh!”

Me:
“whyi
sshekeepi
ngi
tasecr
et?”

Si
cel
o:“whathappened?”

Me:“Iwasaski
ngherwhoshe’sdat
ingandwhywe
haven’
tmethim unl
essi
t’
ssomeoneweknow”

Si
cel
o:“oh”
Me:
“whatdoest
hatmean”

Hi
m:“not
hing”

Me:
“youknowwhoshe’
sdat
ingr
ight
?”

Him:
“it’
snotmypl
acet
otel
lyoubutshewi
llwhen
she’
sready”

Me:
“doesdadknowhi
m?”

Hi
m:“hedoes”

Me:
“andmbusodoest
oo,
presdoyouknow?”

Pr
es:
“nobabysi
sIdon’
tknow”hmm Idon’
tbel
ieve
hi
m soIl
eti
tgo.

Me:
“ismyhousest
il
lokay?”

Zama:
“youhaveabeaut
if
ulhouse”

Me:“t
hankyouZama.Ihopeyout
wodi
dn’
tusemy
bed”shebl
ushes

Si
cel
o:“weusedyourf
leecebl
ankett
hat
’sal
l”

Pr
es:
“wedi
dnotwantt
oheart
hat
!”

Me:“ohtoomuchi nf
ormat
ionbrot
her”hegetsa
cal
landleavesus.“uhZamaifyoudon’tmi
ndI
wouldl
ikeyoutooneofmybr i
desmaids”

Zama:
“real
ly?
,OwowIwoul
dlovet
oo.Thankyou
f
oraski
ngme”

Me:“don’
tsweati
tI’
m goi
ngt
olaydownabi
t,you
guysbond”

Pres:
“okbabysi
swe'
l
lmakedi
nnerwhi
leyougo
andrestabi
t”

Me:
“thanksguys”

Igot omybedr oom, sitont hebedt hentakemy

l
aptopandst artorderingf urni
tureformyhouse
here,Iwantt hem todel i
verbef oretheendoft he
week.Ior derfrom thisgr eatfurni
tureshopt hat
maket hei
rownst uff,locallymadesoIor der
everythingfr
om ki t
chenut ensil
stobathroom
towelsandever yt
hingel seIwi l
lneed.Butt heti
me
I’
m doneIr ealisethatIhavespentsomuchmoney
andIsmi l
e,whoknewspendi ngsomuchmoney
canmakesomeonef eel sogood”
Imusthavefal
lenasl
eepbecauseZamawakesme
up.Il
ookatmyphoneandi t
’s8pm andseeift
here
areanymissedcal
lsf
rom mbusobutthere’
snone.

Zama:
“It
houghtyouwer
enevergoi
ngt
owakeup”

Me:“Iwasor
der
ingfur
nit
ureformyhousebutthen
Igotst
uckonwhattodofortheroom oft
hebaby,
I
wantmbusoandItodoittoget
her”

Her:
“that
’sni
ce,doyouguysknowwhatyou’
re
havi
ng”Ismile

Me:“heal
thybeauti
fulbounci
ngbabywit
hal
l
f
ingersandtoes,
thatallIwantZama”

Her
:“doest
hebabyf
eel
heavy?”Igi
ggl
e
Me:“nobutIdon’
tknowwhent
het
imegoes,
I’
ll
havetoaskpres”

Her
:“Il
ikehi
m,he’
sfunny”

Me:
“he’
samazi
ng,
didyouguyst
alk?”

Zama:“yeahwedi
dbutIcan’
ttel
lyoucausehe’
s
yourbrot
her”

Me:
“IknowbutI’mjustgl
adi
fyouguysmanaged
t
osortt
hingsout”

Her
:“met
oo,
let
’sgot
heyar
ewai
ti
ngf
orus”

Me:
“I’
l
lber
ightt
her
e,j
ustl
etmewashmyf
ace”
Her:“okay”sheleaves.Igetup, goandwashmy
facethenjoi
nmyf ami l
yinthelivingr
oom and
everyonehasseatedandIsi tnexttomydad.

Me:
“goodeveni
ngfamil
y”theygreetbackandI
l
ookatmahandshe’sl
ooki
ngdown.“t hefood
smel
lsni
ce,
whatareweeating?”

Pr
es:
“macar
oniandcheese”

Me:
“hmm yummy”

Si
cel
o:“ever
ythi
ngi
syummywi
thyou”wel
augh

Mah:“l
et’
ssaygrace”Ilookatherandshe’snot
l
ookingatme,Isighandclosemyeyes.“fatherwe
t
hankyouf ort
hef oodyouhaveblesseduswith
t
odayandweaskyouwat choverusandal lt
hose
welovewhoar enothereenj
oyingthemealwithus
t
odayAmen”

Us:
“Amen”Iopenmyeyesandever yonepl
ates
andweeati
nsil
entandI’
m wonder
ingifmbusois
eat
ingt
ooorhasheeatenhi
sfood.

Dad:“maShengewhenwehavedi nnerinthi
stabl
e
wear eusuall
yneverthi
squietbuttonightis
dif
ferentandIdon’
tknowwhy”Ikeepeat i
ngmy
foodlookingdown,Idon’
tdarelookatdadormah.

Si
celo:
“Ithinkweal
lhadal
ongdayandwej
ust
wanttorest”

Mah:“andmaybewesaidt
hingsweshoul
dn’
thave
sai
d”Iraisemyheadandl
ookathet

Me:
“Isai
dI’
m sor
rymah”
Dad:
“what’
sgoi
ngon?”heaskssi
tt
ingst
il
lthe
headoft
hetabl
econcer
ned

Us:
“nothi
ng”allofussayexcl
udi
ngZamathewe
l
ookateachothersmil
eandthenl
aughanddad
l
ooksconfused.

Mah:“I
’
m sor
ryf
orsnappingatyou,
Iknowyou
meantwel
landI
’l
ltel
lyouokay?”

Me:“If
orgi
veandasl
ongyou’
rehappyt
hat’
sall
thatmat
ter
stome”wesmilet
henconti
nuetobest
andtal
k.

Ileavethem andr
eti
r etomybecauset hemakeand
cheeseIhadwasgoodandIat etoomuchifitand
I’
m nowt ir
edandfeelingsl
eepy.Itakemyphone
andl ookatmbusoandIr eall
ymisshim.Itouchmy
stomachandmybabi esplay.Mahi sri
ghtmy
stomachgr owseveryday.
Ican’twaitt
omeetmyki ds,
touchthem ,holdthem,
smell t
hem andkissthem.Ican’ twaitf
orourl i
feto
star
tashusbandandwi feandparents.Iknow
mbusoi sgoingtobeanamazi ngcausehegr ewup
surr
oundedbybot hparentswithahomef i
ll
edwi t
h
l
ovebutf orme, I
’
m scar edofwhatkindofmot her
am IgoingtobebutwhatIknowf orsureismyki ds
won’tgrowupt hewayIdi dcausethey’l
lhavenot
j
ustmeandmbusoandhi sfamil
yonlybutmy
famil
yt oo.

Iwanttogetmar ri
edtombusoandshowhi m my
l
ovef orhi
m eachandever ydayofmyl i
fecause
thatmandeservesit.Ihavealloft
hisnow, my
famil
ybecauseofhi m.Noonei nthisworldwould
l
ovembusol ikethewayIl ovehim.He’smyYangt o
myYi ngandI’l
lconti
nuetoshowhi mt hathe’
sthe
kingofmyhear t
,myoneandonl ysoul
mat e.Isl
eep
withasmiletomyf ace.
I
’mint
hekitchenwhenZamawalksinl
ooki
nglikea
messl
ikeshedidn’
tsl
eepandhasbeencr
ying.

Me:
“goodmor
ning,
what
’swr
ong?”

Her
:“mor
ningl
uh,
Idi
dn’
tsl
eepwel
l”

Me: “hmmmybr otherkeptyouupal lnight”Igiggle

butshet ear
sup, Godwhatdi dscelodonow! ,“look
ZamaIknowyoudon’ tknowmeandI ’m scel
o
sisterandyou’l
lfeeluncomf ort
ablesharingcertain
thingswithandIunder standbutIwantyout oknow
thatifyoueverneedt ot alktomeI ’m here,I
’l
lli
sten,
Iwon’ tt
akesidesorj udgeyou”

Her
:“t
hankyoul
uh,
hel
eftl
astni
ght”

Me:
“lef
twhencauseIl
eftyouguysst
il
ltal
king”
Her
:“hel
efti
ntheear
lyhour
soft
hemor
ning”what
?

Me:
“di
dhesaywher
ehe’
sgoi
ng?”

Her:
“nohedi
dn’
t,hej
ustsai
dsomet
hingi
mpor
tant
hascomeup,
hehastogo”

Me:
“thenhej
ustl
eft
?”

Her:
“yeah,whati
fhel
eftmeagai
nandwentt
osee
ayanda?”

Me: “nohedi dn’

tgotoseeayanda, ifheleftt
hat
ti
met henitmeansit’
ssomet hi
ngt odowi t
h
mbuso… myGodwhathappened?”It akemy
phonecal lmbusobuti tt
akesmest r
aightto
voicemai l
,thenIcal
lsi
celoandi tdoesthesame.I
don’twantt othi
nkthewor stbutwhyi sn’
the
pickinguphi sphone?
Zama:
“luhar
eyouokay?”

Me:
“I’
mfinezamadon’
twor
ry”shegoestothe
f
ri
dgeandpoursmecol
dwaterandIdr
ink.

Her:
“Ithi
nkIknowwhatyou’rewor r
iedabout,
you
t
hinkyourhusbandi
shurtri
ght ?”Inod“ifhewasI
t
hinkyouwouldhaveafeeli
ngi nyourstomachthat
t
ell
syousomet hi
ngi
swr ong,foryoufeeli
t?”

Me:
“noIdon’
tbuti
tdoesn’
tmeansomet
hingi
sn’
t
wr
ong”

Her:
“don’
tworryyour
sel
faboutt
hatcausei
f
somethi
ngwaswr ongfr
om t
hatt
imeupunti
lknow,
youwouldhaveknownabouti
t”

Me:
“theycoul
dhi
dei
tZamabecauset
heyar
e
af
rai
dImi
ghtgot
oanear
lyl
abour”

Her
:“doyouhavel
eggi
ngsandal
ooseshi
rt
?”

Me:
“Ido”

Her:
“goandchangeandI ’
l
lmeetyouinyour
bedroom ”Igottomybedr
oom andchangethensi
t
onthebedt henaft
er10minut
essheknocksandI
openthedoor .

Her:
“doesyourdadknockwhenhecomest
oyour
bedr
oom?”

Me:
“al
ways”

Her:
“thengoodcauseIwasweari
ngthis
under
neathmydress”Igi
ggl
e,shetakesof
fher
dr
essandZamal
ooksgood

Me:
“whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odo?”

Her:
“yoga,
I’
m goingtoshowyouseesi mpleposes
youcandowhenyouf i
ndyourselfst
ressedor
aboutt
opanicanddon’tworrytheyaresafef or
yourpr
egnancy.”sheopensmydoorandcomes
backwit
htwomat slaysthem downont hefloor

Me:
“doyout
akeyogacl
asses?”

Her
:“yeahyourbr
otherpaysf
ort
hem ”

Me:“evenf
orpeopleoursi
zear
eal
lowedcauseI
al
waysseefitpeopl
ether
e”

Her
:“t
heoneIgot
odoesandI
’
llt
akeyout
her
eif
youwantaf
teryou’
vehadt
hebaby”

Me:“I
’dli
ket
hatver
ymuch”wegi ggl
ethenshe
showsmesimplemovesandIfol
lowherleadand
bytheti
meI’
m doneIf
eelsor
elaxedandcalm.I
l
oveyogamow

Me:
“thankyouf
orshowi
ngmet
hisanddoi
ngt
his
wi
thme”

Her:
“don’
tmenti
on,
letmegoshowerandchange,
I’
l
lmeetyouint
hekit
chenforbrunch”shehel
ps
megetupthenwearsherdr
essthengoestoher
bedr
oom ormybrot
her’
sI’
m notsureandwon’
task.

Me:“ok”Ilayonthebed,
takeadeepbr
eat
hout
andclosemyeyesanddoseoff
.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER33.
MBUSO.

Wef l
ewf oranhourandt hi
rtyminut esandwehave
beenher eforfivehour sandwel andedatt he
airportthenwentt oSbu’ shouse.Hecal l
edhi s
fami l
yt oletthem nowt hatwear ecomi ngandso
theyhavet ogetr oomsr eadyfort hekids.The
womenwhowor katt heor phanagecameandt ook
thekidsandl eftwi ththem andsur pri
singlythekids
didn’trefuseorcr y.Thewomenandt het eenagers
whol iveinJobur gar egetti
ngr eadyt obet akento
theai r
por tandbackt otheirfami l
iesandal sothe
onewhol i
vesinBl oemfontein,butt heonewho
l
ivesi nEr melowi llneverdr i
venther e.Thewomen
from theor phanagecameandbr oughtt hem
clothesandt heyar enowshower ingandget t
ing
readyt ogo.

SBU:“manyoudidgreattoday,yousavedallof
thesewomenandI’m sur
et hei
rparentsand
famil
iesar
efor
evergoingtobegr at
eful”
Me:“buti
t’syouwhomademeawar ethatsomeone
i
scomi ngafterme,
Icoul
dn’
thavedonethi
s
wit
houtallofyoubr
other
s”

Bongs:“wetakecar
eofourownbr
otherandwher
e
youdie,I
’l
ldi
ewithyou”Inod.

Me:“al
waysbrothers,
Per
cycoul
dhavefuckedthis
wholet
hingup,catchi
ngf
uckenf
eel
ingsforthat
women”

SBU:“I
’mjustgl
adt
hathewon’
trememberanyt
hing
aboutbei
nginP.E”

Me:“I’
mr eadyt
ogohomenowandseemywoman
butfi
rstIhavet
ogoandseet
hatsni
perbei
nghel
d
atthefarm”
Sbu:“I
’l
lli
ket
ogowithyoubutIneedadi
ff
erent
rel
ease,i
fonl
yyoucoul
dsti
llshar
e”hedays
chuckl
ing

Me:
“mant
hatwi
llneverhappen!”

Bonga:
“Icoul
duseonet
oo”weal
llaugh

Sbu:
“ther
e’ssomeoneI
’
m goi
ngt
ocal
l,
yougame?
”

Bonga:
“hel
lyes!”

Sbu:“youknowyouwat
chsi
nceyouwon’
tjoi
nus”
Ishakemyheadtheset
woaref
ools

Me:“nope,
thi
sdickonlyget
shardf
oroneper
son
andonepersononly”welaugh.
Sbu:
“manIdon’
tbl
ameyou,
Ihaveseenhowshe
l
ooksandi
tmakesmewonderhowshefucken
l
ookswhenshecomes”

Bonga:
“shel
ooksbr
eat
htaki
ngman”what
?

Me:
“Whatt
hef
uckSi
yabonga?
!”Hel
aughs

Bonga:
“rel
axbr
other
,I’
mjustki
ddi
ng”t
heybot
h
l
aughatme

Me:“i
fyouorevent hi
nkofwat chi
ngusSiyabonga,
IswearI
’l
lki
llyou!”wellIdon’
tmeanitl
it
erall
y

Sbu:
“canIcomeandwat
chyouguys?”heasks
l
aughing
Me:“manf
uckyouboth,noonei
sall
owedtosee
l
uhnakedorhowshelookswhenshecomes,
it’
s
onl
ymewho’sall
owed”

Sbu:
“asshol
e”t
heyl
augh

Voice:
“uhm ”wetur
nandl
ookandit
’st
hatyoung
gi
rlandOcan’tr
ememberhernameandshe’
s
l
ookingatus

Me:
“ar
eyoual
ldone?”

Her:
“theyar
eallal
mostdone,
Iwant
edtoaski
fI
canuseyourphoneandcal
lmyfami
ly”

Me:
“ohsur
e….”

Sbu:
“ther
e’saphonei
ntheki
tchen,
youcanusei
t”
Her
:“no,
Iwantt
ouseacel
lphone”shel
ooksat
me

Me:
“whyacel
lphonenotal
andl
inephone?”

Her
:“becauseIdon’
twantt
hem t
othi
nkIwashere
i
nDurbanallthi
sti
me”welookateachconf
used

Bonga:
“li
tt
legi
rl
,we’
regr
ownassmenhereandwe
knowwhatyou’
retr
yingt
odo!”shel
ooksdown

Her
:“whatam It
ryi
ngt
odo?”

Me:
“lookit
’sf
ineher
e’sthephonecal
lyourpar
ent
s
off
amilyandputi
tonloudspeaker”

Her
:“i
t’
sokaysi
rI’
l
ljustuset
hel
andl
ine”shegoes
t
otheki
tchen

Me:
“di
dImi
sssomet
hingher
e?”

Sbu:“t
hatli
tt
legi
rlhasacrushonyou”Il
ookat
them l
iket
heyarefuckencrazy

Me;
“what
?hel
lno!”wel
augh

Bonga;
“I’
veseent
hewayshel
ooksatyou”

Me:
“whatway”

Sbu:
“thel
ookt
hatt
eenager
sgi
vewhent
heyl
ike
you”

Me:“fucknoIdon’
twantt
hat,l
ookguysshe’
sjusta
confusedl
it
tl
egir
landshefeel
svul
nerabl
e.Iwon’t
ent
ert
aint
hatst
upi
dcr
ushyouguyssayshehas”

Bonga:
“whywoul
dshewantyourcel
lphonet
ouse
andnotuset
hel
andl
ine”

Me:
“I’
m nothavi
ngt
hisst
upi
dtal
k”wel
augh.

Lady:“wearealldonenowandreadyt
oleave”
thankGod,causeI’mreadyt
ogetthef
uckoutof
here.

Sbu:
“ever
yonei
sher
e?”t
heyal
lnod.

Lady:“wejustwantt osaythankyouf orsavi

ngus
fr
om thatmonst erandwe’llneverf
orgetwhatyou
di
df orus.Wellbeforevergratef
ul”wenod.

Me:
“justbecar
eful
andt
rustyouri
nst
inct
sif
somet
hingdoesn’
tfeel
rightcausei
twon’
tli
etoyou
”

Sbu:
“thewomenfrom theor
phanagegaveyouthe
i
nfor
mationanddetai
lsyouwil
lusewhenyouget
hometoseecounsell
orswhowillhel
pyou”

Me:“besafeouttherecausei
fithappensagai
nyou
won’tbethi
slucky,Iwi
shyouwel landIhopet
o
neverseeyouguysagainintr
oubl e”

Bonga:
“al
lofyouf
oll
owme”theytakethei
rli
tt
le
bagsandf
oll
owbongaoutt
henthatl
it
tl
egirlst
ays
behi
ndandcomesandst
andsnexttome.

Her:
“thankyousi
rforsavi
ngmeandI ’
llnever
for
getyou”shestandsonhert
iptoesandi sabout
toki
ssmycheekIt hi
nkbutIst
il
lhereandgr abher
arms.
Me: “holdi
trightther e!,
I’
m oldenought obeyour
fathersothiscrushyout hi
nkyouhaveonmebet ter
stopcauseI ’
m nott henicemanyout hi
nkIam li
tt
le
girl
.Wesavedal lofyoucauseyoucoul dhavebeen
ourdaught erorni ece.Gohome, l
iveyourl
if
e,be
carefulanddat eboysyourage, nowgo”.Shel ooks
atmeshockedt henl eaves.

Sbu:
“wet
oldyou”Ishakemyhead

Me:
“let’
sgo”weseethem get
ti
ngi
ntoacarand
t
heonet hatl
ivesi
nEr
mel
ogetsinanot
heroneand
t
heyleave.

Sbu:
“you’
real
sol
eavi
ngnow?”

Me:“Ri
ghtnowbutI
’
m goi
ngt
oseesicel
ofi
rst
bef
oreIgoseemywomanwho’swai
ti
ngforme”
Bonga:
“wi
shIcoul
dandenj
oytheshowbutther
e’s
someoneweneedt
ofuckf
ir
st”t
hisf
oolIl
augh

Hi
m:“i
t’
sni
cet
ohavesomeonet
ocomehomet
oo”

Me:
“br
other
,it
’st
hebestf
eel
ingever”

Hi
m:“we’
l
lI’
l
lseeyout
omor
rowt
hen”

Me:“wecoul
dallgonowandyoucant akethatgi
rl
wit
hyou,orf
indsomeoneel seatLadysmit
hthen
bookyour
sel
vesintoahotelcauseI’
m notaboutt
o
makemywi f
e’shouseafuckpad”

Sbu:
“l etmecallt
hisgi
rlman,
giveme10mi
nut
es
andthenshe’
llbehereandwe’
llal
lgo”

Me:
“Ifshe’
snother
eini
n15mi
nut
esI
’
mleavi
ng
yourassesbehind”wegeti nthehouseandthe
housekeepergi
vesusf oodandweeatandmymi nd
i
snol ongerherecauseIjustwanttoseemybaby.
Thir
styminuteslat
erthehousekeeperconest
othe
ki
tchenwithashort,darkski
nnedgirl
…..

Sbu:
“youmadei
t,Ial
mostl
eftwi
thoutyou”

Her
:“butI
’
m her
enow”shesayssmi
li
ng

Sbu:
“thesear
emyf
ri
ends,
MbusoandSi
yabonga”

Bonga:
“buyyoubabycancal
lmebonga”Il
ookat
hi
m bor
ed

Her
:“Hibongaandmbuso, I
’
m Karabo”IknewI
r
ecogni
zedherfrom somewher
e,she’
sayanda
f
ri
end…fuckenhell
.
Me:
“let
’sgoguys,
we’
ret
aki
ngt
wocar
sri
ght
?”

Bonga:
“no,
we’
real
lusi
ngonecar”f
uck!

Her:
“wowsbu,
younevert
oldmeyourf
ri
endsar
e
t
hishot
…Wow”

Me:“I
’l
lbeinthecar”Il
eavet hem andgeti
nthecar
.
Sbuisfucki
ngayanda'
sfriendandIhopet oGod
she’
snotcrazyli
keherf
riend.

I’
mi nthedriversseatandt heyallgetinandsi ti
n
thebackseatsandwi chingkarabobet weent hem,
i
t’sgki ngt
obeal ongdr i
ve.Iconnectmyphone
andlistent
ol uh’sfavouri
tesingerSjavaandsi ng
along.Imustonedayt akeherwhenhe’ splaying
somewher esoshecanwat chhiml i
ve.Ilookatt he
rearviewmir r
orandseet hatkarabo'stopis
unbuttonedandsbuhashi sheadbur i
edonher
chestandbonga' shandi sinsideherpantsbet ween
herl
egsandi
ski
ssi
ngt
hehel
loutofher
.

Me:“areyouguysser
iousl
ygoi
ngt
odot
hiswhi
le
I
’m dr
ivi
ng?”

Bonga:
“justdr
ivebr
other”

Me:“fool”Ishakemyheadandcont i
nuet odrive
butthesmel lofarousalistoomuchsoIsl idedown
thewi ndowandt urnthemusi cupcauseshe’ snow
screami ng.TheNN3i snotbusytodaysoIpr esson
theaccel eratoranddr i
veoffcauseIwantt obeout
ofthisdamncarandt woandhalfhourslaterwe
arr
ivei nLadysmi t
handt hegir
lcoul
dn’tstop
screami ngf rom beingfuckedbybothofthem and
suckingbot hdicks.ThankGodsbual wayskeeps
condomsi nhi scarorelsehmmm.Ist opoutside
thehot el.

Me:guysher
e’st
hehot
el,
I’
m dr
oppi
ngyouof
fher
e
causeI
’
m goi
ngt
othef
arm”

Sbu:
“wel
lseeyoul
aterbr
o”

Me:“notanyti
mesoon”t heygetof
fandt akethei
r
bagsandIdr i
veofftot
hef ar
m.Iparkthecarand
seesicel
o'scar,
mydad’scarandluh’sdad’scari
s
alsot
here.IgetoutandFrankcomeswhenhesees
me

Frank:
“bossyoulookl
ikeamess”wel
aughand
hugeachothert
ight

Me:“youhavenoi
dea,
Ijustneedl
uhabat
hand
somesleep”

Hi
m:“t
heyar
ewai
ti
ngf
oryou,
isi
tal
lover
?”
Me:
“notunt
ilt
hoset
hreear
edead”

Hi
m:“howi
sthatf
uckedupPer
cy?”

Me:“welef
thim atSbu’
shouseandoneofSbu’
s
guysiswatchi
nghim”

Him:
“Ishouldhaveaskedyout
otakehim wi
thyou,
hecouldhavefuckedupthi
swhol
ething”

Me:
“manIknow,
howyouhol
dingup?”

Hi
m:“manyoudon’
twantt
oknow”

Me:
“thatbad?”

Hi
m:“I
’
llsor
titoutbr
other”
Me:
“letmeknowi
fther
e’sanywayIcanhel
p.”

Him:“sure”I
’m wor
ri
edabouthim,Igeti
nsi
dethe
barnandseealloft
hem sur
roundi
ngwhatIthi
nkis
thatsni
perguy”

Dad:
“son,
you’
reback”saysmydadandwhyi
she
al
wayshere

Me:“Iam ”Ilookatt
heguyandhel
ooksl
ikehel
l
causether
e’sbloodever
ywher
e”

Maphol
oba:
“wher
e’syourbr
otherandf
ri
end”

Me:
“theywentsomewher
e”

Dad:
“taket
hat5l
it
rebucketandgodownt
her
iver
andwashyour
selfbef
oreyougoandsee
umaNgcobo”Inod

Si
cel
o:“youwantt
ohaveyourpi
ecet
oo?”

Me: “I
’m goodbr o,justki
llt
hemot herfucker”Itake
thebucketandl eavethem andfrankfoll
owsme.I
got otheriver,t
akeof fmyclothesandwashmysel f
withthatwat erwhi l
eI’minsi
dether unni
ngr i
ver.
AfterI’
m doneIoutmycl othesbackonagai nand
gobackt ot hefarm.

Maphol
oba:
“weneedtodealwi
thsiphoandt
hul
i
andyoumustdeci
dewhatyouwanttodowit
hher
butweal
lagr
eeheret
hatsheshoul
ddie.

Me:
“Iagr
eebutwhataboutherson?”

Dad:
“shehasachi
ld?”
Me:“yes,
shethi
nksheisdeadandhe’
sli
vingwi
th
ot
herpeoplewhoarer
aisi
nghim”

Maphol
oba:
“andyou’
ret
ell
ingust
hisbecause?”

Me:“It
hinkbuhleisVictor’
sdaughterandhe
doesn’
tknow.IthinkweshouldtakeherDNAand
matchitwit
hVictor’
stobesur ethenifwekil
lher
thenhecanbeabl etoraisehi
sgr andson”

Si
cel
o:“orwedon’
ttel
lhi
m andj
ustki
llher”

Dad:
“howol
dist
heboy?”

Me:
“12year
sol
d”

Maphol
oba:
“let
’sdoaDNAt
estf
ir
stt
henseewhat
t
heresul
tssaybutmbusoifthi
sgirll
ivesand
makesmydaughter
sli
fehellagai
nIwi llbl
ameyou
”

Me:“Iwon’
tlett
hathappen,
I’
m goi
ngt
oseeher
now”

Maphol
oba:
“themoneyIam goi
ngtofi
neyouf
or
sl
eepi
ngwit
hmydaughterundermyroof”

Me:
“Idon’
tcar
easlongasshe’
sgoi
ngt
obemy
wi
fe”Isaysmi
li
ng

Dad:
“don’
taskf
ort
oomuchmoneyNgcobo”we
l
augh

Me:“I
’m goi
ngt
otakel
uht
oourhouse,
I’
llseeyouI
don’
tknowwhen”
Maphol
oba:
“butshe’
sfi
neher
e”

Me:“Iwantust ogrowourki dswithoutwor r

yingi
f
someonewillhearus”weal llaughexcluding
Mapholoba.
.Het akesthebl
adeandshovesi ton
thesni
persthi
ghandt heguyscr eams.Igeti nmy
caranddri
vetoluh’sFather
’shouse.Ipar kthecar
thengeti
nwi t
houtknocking

Mah:“wher
ear
eyourmanner
smbuso,
whydi
dn’
t
youknock”

Me:
“hel
loaunt
y,haveyout
oldl
uhwhoyou’
re
f
ucki
ng?”

Her:
“fuckyoumbuso”Il aughandl eaveherl ooking
pi
ssedandgot oluh'sbedroom andf indher
sl
eepingpeaceful
ly.Ilookattheti
meandi t
’s4pm, I
si
tdownnextt oher,takemyhandandf eelmyki ds
andtheyplayandIsmi l
ewatchinghersl eeping.
Myphonevibr
atesandi
t’
sat
extmessagef
rom a
numberIdon’
tknow.

“thankyouf orsavi
ngmyni eceslife.I
fyouever
needanythinguset hisnumberandI ’l
lhel
p”how
didtheyknowi twasmeandwher edidtheygetmy
number ?
...
i'
l
llookatittomorr
ow.Ismi l
ethenlook
atluhandlaydownt henbri
ngherbodycl oset omy
mineandwhi speri
nherear“I’m homebaby”and
shesighs.
CHAPTER34.

LUNGI
.

SNL

Mybodyget
scover
edingoosebumpsandmyback
f
eel
ssohotli
keI
’m onf
ir
e,Ismi
leandwi
ggl
emy
asstombuso'sdickthatispoki
ngme.Mybooi s
backbutGodwhati sthatawfulsmel
lthati
sall
overmybedroom, smell
ingli
kesomeoneherbsbut
notni
ceones?.Iremovehi shandonmyst omach
sl
owlythenfaceandt ur
nt ohi
m andhe’swatchi
ng
mesmi l
ingandIgiggle.

Me:
“yousmel
lsobadbaby”Isayl
aughi
ng

Mbuso:
“that
’snotawaytogreetthemanyoul
ove,
l
ove”hesaystickl
ingmeandIlaugh.

Me:“whatdidyoubathwit
hcauseyousmellsobad
”hecontinuestoti
ckl
eme“mbuso, I
’m goi
ngto
peeonmysel fi
fyoudon’
tstop”Il
aughhardandoh
myGodI ’
m goingtopee

Him:
“I’
llst
opt
ickl
ingyoui
fyout
ellmewhatIwant
youhear”
Me:“I
’
m sohappyyou’r
ebackhomesaf
e,Il
oveyou
nowwillyoupl
easel
etmegopeeboo?”

Him:“Iknowal
lofthatbutyouknowwhatIwantto
hear”Ismil
eandlookathim “st
opbl
ushingand
tel
lme”hesayssof t
lytaki
ngmymouthandkissi
ng
meandImoan

Me:
“Iwantyout
ofuckme,
andf
uckmehar
d”

Hi
m:“Il
ovei
twhenyout
alkdi
rt
y”hesayski
ssi
ng
medeepl
y

Me:“youst
il
lsmellandIneedtopee,getupboo”
hegetsupandhelpsmegetupt hentakesmetot
hebathr
oom andIsitdownandpeeandhe’ s
wat
chingme.“areyour eal
lygoi
ngtowatchmepee?
”
Hi
m:“I
’
llevenwat
chyout
akeadump”

Me:
“whati
swrongwi t
hyou?”Iaskhi
mlaughi
ng,
I
wi
pemysel
fgetup,
flusht
henwashmyhands

Him:“t
hat’
swhatl
over
sdol ove,
Let
’sgot
oour
pl
acesoIcanfeastmysel
finyouandmakeyour
bodysing”

Me:“hmmm Ilikethat”hetakesmyhandandIt ake

mybagandwel eavemybedr oom andt
here’sno
oneinthehouse“whatt i
medi dyougetherecause
i
t’
snowdar koutside?”

Him:
“aroundfi
vepm,
let
’sgetoutofher
ebef
ore
someoneseesus”

Me:
“ar
en’
twei
nahur
ry?”
Hi
m: “yesweare”Ilaugh,wegetint
hecarand
dr
ivetoourhouse,
wel ockthegat
eanddoorthen
gostrai
ghtt
oourbedroom.

Me:
“let
’sgoandshower”

Hi
m: “i
fIshowerwit
hyouI’m goi
ngtofuckyou
t
hereandIdon’twantt
hat,soyoushowerfi
rstt
hen
I
’l
lshoweraft
eryouaredone”

Me:
“ok”

Hi
m:“f
ivemi
nut
esl
ovedon’
ttakel
ong”

Me:“Iwon’t”Itakemyclothest
hengetinand
shower .Af
terafewminuteshecomesandt akes
offhisclot
hesandwatchesmeshower .Hisdickis
standingproudfaci
ngupwi t
hvei
nsalloveritand
mymout hwatersandIpr
essmyl egshardtogether
.
Hegetsi
ntheshower
,takesmywashingcl
othand
washesmyback,myl
egsandass.Itr
ytotouchhi
s
di
ckbuthest
opsme.

Him:“pati
encelove”heclosesthetap,opensthe
doorthentakesmyt owelanddriesmeslowlyand
perf
ectl
yandIj ustwantyoufeelhishandsallover
mybody

Me:
“boo”

Hi
m:“shhhh”heshutsmeupwit
hakissandIt
ryto
t
ouchhim agai
nbuthest
opsme,whywon’
thelet
metouchhim?.

Me:
“Iwantt
otouchyou”hechuckl
es

Hi
m: “andyouwil
llove,
gotobedandwat chthe
t
elevi
sionanddon’
tchangethechannelbaby,
wat
chwhati
spl
ayi
ng”butIdon’
twantt
owat
cht
he
TV.

Me:
“ok,
whati
spl
ayi
ng?”

Him:“you’llseeloveandwhenyouar eonthebed
tur
nt hevol umeup”heki ssesmeagai nthentakes
thetowelof fandl ooksatmesmi l
ingandIshake
myheadsmi l
ingthengot oourbedr oom andIgo
str
aighttobed, taket heTVr emoteandsi tonthe
middleofthebedandt henwat chtheTVandohmy
GodI ’
m shocked! .Ilookatt hebathr oom door
expecti
ngt oseehi mt herebuthe’snot .MyGodhe
wantsmet owat cht his?,
…. .Itur
nt hevolumeup
andheart hosesof tsoundsofki ssesandmoans.

There’
sapor nmovi eofl
esbiansplayingandwow
I’
m speechlesscauseIneverexpect edt hatI
’l
lbe
watchi
ngt his.Itakethepi
llowsandputt hem
perf
ectl
ybehi ndmybackt henlaydownandwat ch
twogirl
smaki ngoutandImustsayi tisoneofthe
moster ot
ict
hingsIhaveeverseen.Thewayt hey
ki
sseachot herwit
hthei
rli
ps,howt heytoucheach
otherandohmannowonegi rli
slayingontopof
anotherandrubbi
nghersel
fagainstherlegwo!.

Ifeelmyhandsmaki ngt hei

rwaydownmyl egs
andIopent hem andpl aywithmycl itandI ’
m so
damnwetf rom watchingt wogirlskissi
ngeach
other,t
heothergi r
lisnowopeni ngherl egssot he
otheronecangetbet weent hem tomaket hei r
vaginastouchandoohhhGodt heyst artt
or ub
againsteachothersci ssorsstyl
e, cl
itoncl i
tand
Fuckmei tlookssodamnhot .Thesoundst heyar e
maki ngaremakingmef eelhotallovermybody, I
moanandr ubmysel f,closemyeyest henf eel
mbuso’ shandst aki
ngof fmyandIl ookathi m and
he’slooki
ngandmel i
kehe’ sgoingtor avishme, I
shakeal i
ttl
e.

Mbuso:“lookatthem anddon’
tst
opwatchi
ngand
don’
ttouchmel ove”hesayslayi
ngdoneonhi
s
stomachbet
weenmylegsthenbur
ieshishead
betweenmythi
ghsandeat
smel i
kecrazy.

Me:“I…Idon’tt
hinkIcanoooohGod!”heni
psmy
cli
tandsucksoni tt
hengoestomypussyholeand
tonguefucksmeandImovemyhi psthebestIcan
andfuckhisfacebutheholdsmedownonmy
waist.

Him:“I’m goingt ostopcauseyou’ renotwat ching

l
ove”hesayseat i
ngmel i
keawat ermelont he
groansandIl ookatt heTVagai nandnowt hegi r
ls
arebothki ssingandf i
ngerfucki
ngeachot herandI
moanl oudandpl aywi thmysensi ti
veboobsand
theyfeelsoheavy.Ipi nchthem thentakemyot her
handandgor ubmycl itwi
thitandI’m sosl i
pper y,
verywet .Imovemyhandbet weenmycl i
ttoi nside
mbuso' smout handf uckmehi smout hissowar m
andhi sbear drubbingmyi nnert
highsiscr eat i
ng
thatfeel
ingwhi chdrivesmecr azy
Him:“fuckyesbaby, rubyourself
!”Ir ubmycl i
tand
moant henheholdsmyassandr aisesTohi sface,
hisforearmsont hebed,myassi nt heairthenhe
separatesmyasscheeksandr unhi stonguef r
om
mypussyt omyot herholeandIf reeze.“youst op,
I
stopbabywat chthedamnTVl uh!”Iwat cht he
girl
sagai nandnowt heyareeat i
ngeachot her ’
s
pussiesandt hewayt heymovet hei rt
ongues
aroundt hecli
tmakesmef eell
iket heyaret heones
suckingmi nebutIstopwat chi
ngt hem causet he
si
ghtbef oremet akesmybr eathaway.

Iwatchasmbusof lexeshisassont hebed,moving

hishipsupanddownl i
kehe’sfuckingmebuthe’ s
fucki
ngt hebedwhi leeati
ngme…. ohGodt henhis
tonguesgoesbackagai nther
et omyt i
ghtri
ngand
tonguef ucksitgentlyandmybodyst artt
oshake
fuckmeI ’
m goingt ocome.Hegoest omycl i
tagai
n
andni psit,t
henr ubshischinsi dewaysonmy
pussyhol eandt onguesmycl i
tatt hesamet i
me
andIf orgetaboutwhathesai daboutnott ouchi
ng
him causeIr ai
semyl egsuphi ghandhol dhishead
downandhegr oansthenIfuckhisfaceandcum
screaminghi snameoverandoveragai nshaking,
thenhequi cklygetsup,j
erkshisdickupanddown
thenhishotseedshoot southotandheavyl anding
onmyst omach, boobsandsomeonmychi nandI
takeitwit
hmyf inger
s,bri
ngittomymout hand
swallowallofitandittast
esyummy.

Him:“rubitonyourbr eastsandst omach”hesays

groani
nglookingatmest il
ljer
kingoffthelastofhis
warm seed.Idoashesaysandhel ooksatmever y
proud.“doyouknowhowmuchIl oveyouLungi l
e?
”thewayhesaysi tremindsoft hatfir
stti
mehe
saidmynameandmyski ngetscover edingoose
bumpsandachi l
lrunsal lovermybody.

Me:
“Idoknow ”

Him:“youaremorethanmysoulmate,
youaremy
soullungi
,onl
yyouhavethepowernooneinthi
s
worldnoonecouldeverhaveandt
hatist
odestroy
me”

Me:
“ar
eyouokaybaby?”

Him:“I’
m blessedtohaveyoubaby, andourkids
areblessedtobecarriedbysuchanamazi ngand
wonder f
ulwoman”het urnsandlaysmeonmy
si
def aci
nghi mthenhet akesbothmyl egsand
putsthem overhisri
ghtthigh,
thenentersmesoftl
y
andwebot hmoan.

Him:”takemyhandandl ookatme”webi ndour

handst ogetherandhepl ayswithmyr i
ngf i
nger
whil
emaki nglovetomesosof tandtender,ni
ce
andslow.Hebr i
ngshisupperbodycl osetomy
stomachandst art
ssucklingonmyni pplesandI
moanhepi cksupt hepaceandt akesmyl egsinto
hi
sar msandhol dsthem toget
herthenfucksme
deepandhar dandIcr youtwit
hever ydeepstroke
hegivesme
Him:“di
dyouenj
oyi
ngwatchi
ngtwogi
rl
sfucki
ng
eachother
?”hesaysgoi
ngdeeper

Me:
“mmmmmm…….
.”

Hi
m: “t
ellmel
ovedi
dyou”heal
mostpul
lsoutthen
t
hrustsbacki
nagai
nhar
dknocki
ngt
heairoutof
mybody

Me:
“yeeeees,
yesIdi
d”

Hi
m:“di
dyouimagineanot
herwomensucki
ngand
f
ucki
ngthi
ssweetandjui
cypussybaby?”

Me:“ohGod….”Igr
abthesheet
scausehe’s
fucki
ngmesogoodandthethi
ngshe’ssayi
ngar
e
doingthi
ngst
omybody“yeeeeeesIdid”
Hi
m;“youwantt
orubyourcl
itagai
nstanot
hercl
it
l
ove?”

Me:
“no!….Yes!….No!….Idon’
tknow!
..
..
Mmmmm ”

Hi
m:“doyouthi
nkshecanf uckyouli
keIfuckyou?
”he'
snowfucki
ngmehar dandhi sbal
lsare
sl
appi
ngmyassf uckyes!

Me:
“never
!”

Him:“imaginehereati
ngyourpussy, beggingforit
,
beinggreedyfori
t,sof
tbreastsrubbi
ngagai nstyou,
hermout honyourmout h”het akesmyl i
psand
shoveshistonguedownmyt hroatandkissesme
steal
ingmybr eat
handImoan
Me:
“I’
m goi
ngt
ocum ”

Hi
m: “notyetlove,
watchi
ngtwogir
lstur
nsyouthe
f
uckonl ove!”Itwasn’
taquest
ionbutastat
ement
,
I
’m cl
ose!

Me:“pl
easeletmecomeboo!”hetakeshi
shands,
opensmylegsandIcanf
eelwetnessonmythi
ghs
andassthenherubsmycl
itandfucksme

Hi
m:“answermebaby!
,doeswatchi
ngt
wowomen
f
ucktur
nyouthef
uckon?hef l
icksmycl
itwi
thhi
s
t
humbandImoan

Me:
“yesitdoes!”hegroansthenaddspr
essur
eon
mycli
tandrubsitfastandsoft

Him:
“whatabouttwodicksl
ove,onei
nyourpussy
andanot
herone,st
uff
edandf ucki
ngt
hatpr
ett
y
mout
hofyour
s?!”t
hati
magi
neandt
houghtdr
ives
meovert
heedge

Me:“f
uckyeeeeeees!
,I’
m Cummi ng!,ohGodyes!”
Mybodyshakesandhepul lsoutandget smeon
mykneesandf ucksmehardgr abbingmyassand
sl
apsithar
dthenhecumsgr oaningloudfi
ll
ingme
wi
thhisseed

Hi
m:“If
uckenl
oveyouLungi
le!”

Me: “Il
oveyouMnguni”hepul lsoutthensomeof
hisseedcomesoutt oothenIf
eelfi
ngersi
nmy
pussyl i
kehe’staki
ngsomeofi toutt
henhisfi
nger
playswit htheri
m ofanyanusandImoancausei t
feelsforeignandweird

Hi
m;“rel
axbaby,l
etyourbodyr
elax.Iwon’
tpushi
t
i
n,howdoesitf
eel?”
Me:“i
tfeel
sweird,
li
keIwantyoutomoveyour
fi
ngerofff
rom t
here”hest
opstouchi
ngi
tandI
si
gh

Hi
m:“l
aydownbabyandr
elax”

Me:
“mmmmm ”

Hi
m:“youl
ooksobeaut
if
ull
ove”

Me:
“I’
l
lal
waysl
ookbeaut
if
ult
oyou”Isaygi
ggl
ing

Him:“howwoul dyoufeeli
fIt
oldyouthatther
ewas
someonewat chi
ngusnow?”It ur
nandl ookathi
m
notshockedasIexpectedbutsur
pri
sed.

Me:
“real
ly?”
Hi
m:“youdon’
tsoundshocked?”

Me:
“I’
m sur
pri
sedatmysel
ftoo,
ist
her
esomeone
wat
chi
ngus?”

Him:
“answermyquest
ionl
ove”hesayski
ssi
ngmy
assandIgi
ggl
ecausehe’
sti
ckl
ingmewithhi
s
bear
d

Me:“Idon’tknowhowIfeelaboutt
hatbutIknow
you’
llneverdosomethi
ngli
kethatwit
houttal
king
wit
hmeabouti tf
ir
st”

Him:“t
hetrustyouhaveinmeisamazingloveand
i
t’
smakesmef eelhumbledbyyou.Iwor
shipthe
groundyouwalkonl uhandbef
oreyouonlyI’
l
l
kneel”

Me:
“youmakei
teasyf
ormet
ogi
veyoual
lofmy
t
rustandl
ove,
wast
her
esomeonewat
chi
ngus?”

Hi
m:“nol
ove”

Me:
“doyouwanttoi
nvitesomeonet
owat
chus
whi
lewear
emakinglove?”

Hi
m:“nohoneyl
ove,
doyou?”

Me:
“Idon’
tknow”Isaysmi
li
ngandgi
ggl
e

Hi
m:“l
etmefuckyout
hencausei
tlooksl
ikeIdi
dn’
t
t
ir
eyouout”

Me:
“showmewhatyou’
remadeofboo”

Him:
“letmefuckthatmouthf
ir
st”heget
sofft
he
bedandstandsandIsitt
hent
akehisdi
cktomy
mout
handwebot
hmoan.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER34.

MBUSO.

SNL

Shesi t
sont hebedandtakesmycockt ohermouth
andswal l
owsmeandwebot hmoan,t
henshepul l
s
i
toutagainl i
cksmyshavedballswhil
estroki
ngmy
hardcock.Sheopenshermout handcont i
nuesto
suckonmycockwhi leherri
ghthandreacheddown
atplayswithhersel
fandfuckmeshel ooksso
beautif
ul.

Iwatchasherheadbopsupanddownandf eelher
tonguegoingaroundmydi ckandplayi
ngwithmy
swollenheadofacock,lovingt
hetasteofi
tdeepin
hermout h.Shethent
akesherotherbrandand
wrapsbot hofthem ar oundmydi ckandst r
okeit
andIf uckengroancauseIcanf eelmyself
throbbing,pul
singinhermout handi t
’smakingme
wantt ofuckhergr eedymout hhard.Igrabherhead
gentlyandt hr
ustdeepl ybutsoflyandshemoan
andt hatmoant ravelsfrom myhead,tomyf eet
thenstraightt
omyheavysackofbal lsandIgroan
l
oud.

Iwantt okeepf uckinghermout hbuyhert i

ghtgrip
onmydi ckandhermout handlipsinsi
deherwar m
fuckenmout hmakei thardandIf indmyself
holdingbackcauseIknowI ’l
lhurtheri
fI’
m not
carefulandI ’
m sof uckenhardr i
ghtnowIwanther
beaut i
fulpussywr appedt i
ghtaroundmydi ck.Igo
deeponhert hroatandhol dherthereforafew
secondswi t
hhernoser i
ghtonmysmal lpubichair
andshegagsal i
ttl
et henIpullbackherheadand
pullmycockf rom hermout hwithawetpopand
splashandspi tdroolsdownf r
om hermout htoher
neckandIwantt orunmymout handt ast
eallofit
.
Me:“getupbaby”It akeherhandandhelpherget
upthenmovet hemat t
ressandlit
tl
emakingsure
she’
llfeelcomf
ort
abl
el ayingherbodyt
here.“kneel
onthebasebabyandl ayyourstomachont he
mattressandshedoest hat

Me:
“ar
eyoucomf
ort
abl
elove?”

Her:
“uhhuh”l uhi
ssosof tevenwhenshespeaks
andrightnowshe’
ssohor nyitandgetsmydick
real
lyHardwhenshetalksli
kethiscauseIj
ust
wanttofuckherandneverstop.

Me:“pullbackal i
tt
le,ar
chyourbackandj ustlay
yourfaceont hemat t
ressthengr abyourass
cheeks”Ihelpherheyposi t
ionedandwhenshe
grabsthoseasscheeksandpul l
sthem apartandI
seeherwetgl ist
eningpussyandpi nkli
psandher
ti
ghtpinkringheranus, Igetonmykneesputmy
handsont opofher sandopenhersomemor ethen
suckonherpussyandshemoansandIgr oan.I
sweart oGodnot hingtastessweeterorbet t
erthan
l
uh'spussyandI ’
vehadmanybutr i
ghthereis
mannaf rom heaven.Ieatherpussymaki ngsur e
nothingi sleftbehindt hengoupwi t
hmyt onguet o
herpinkt ightr i
ng,goar ounditandgiveitmyl ove
asItonguet hefuckoutofi twhileIstr
okehercl i
tat
thesamet i
meandshest artstoshake
uncont roll
abl yandheranuskeepsopeni ngand
contractingmaki ngmegeti nalit
tl
eandIgr oan
causeshef eelsfuckenamazi ngandbr eatheshard
thenIf l
ickhercl i
tandbr ushitandsheshakes
somemor et henIpushmyt onguetohertight
opening, movei talit
tl
eandi t’
sdamnhoti nthere
andshescr eamsandcumsandIhol dher,don’t
stopf uckingherwi thmyt ongueandshepushes
myf aceof fofherassandIl augh

Her:
“ohpl
easegeti
nsi
demeandf
uckmeIneed
younow!”

Me:
“I’
m al
lyour
slove,
your
sal
one”Igetupand
precum i
sdri
ppingf
rom t
heti
pofmydickanditi
s
sohardbeggingmetoram i
nsi
deherpussyand
ravi
shher.

Me:
“grabthematt
ressandpushbackwhenIsl
ide
mycockinyou”shenods,“wor
dslove”

Her:“yes”Isli
demycocki ntoherwetnect
arand
pushmyheadi nandstopandt akeadeepbreat
h
causeIalmostcame.Herf uckenpussypul
sates
aroundmydi cksoIthr
ustmysel fi
nherhard“yes
fuckme!”shesayspushi ngbackmoaning.

Icanneversaynot othewomanIl ovewhenshe

tel
lsmet ofuckhercausei t’
smyj obt opl easeher
andthat’
swhatI ’l
ldo.Ipullmydi ckoutofher
l
eavingtheheadi nthendr i
vei tdeepi nsideherand
shescreams, andIfuckt heshi toutofherandl ose
myselfi
nher .IfuckhergoodandIf uckhersweet
l
ikehowshedeser ves.Myt hrustsgr owf aster,
less
coordi
natedasIkeepr ammi ngdeepi ntohermy
fuckenballsfeelveryti
ghtandheavyandmycock
getsmor ehardandwant stor
eleasethenshe
screamsandcumsal lovermycock, mybloodis
rushingallovermybody, Iam sweati
ngprofusel
y,I
l
eanf orwardandhol ddownhershoul der
sandf uck
herandIcanf eelherbodyshakingandIthi
nkshe’s
cryi
ngsof tl
y.

Ifeelmyor gasm closinginandIknowI ’

m goi ngt o
comehar dsoIsl am i
nherhar dandr eleaseal lthick
whi t
ecum l iquidingushesdeepi ntohergr eedy
cuntandshemi lksmeunt ilIst
op, br
eat hingheavi ly
Ipullout ,getherupandf ixthemat tr
esst henget
heri nbedbedandt akehertomyar ms.Hert ears
falloffhercheekst omychestasIhol dher ,kissing
herf oreheadandbr ushi
ngherbackandl etherl etit
allout.Shef inall
ystopscryingandl ooksatmeand
smi l
esandki ssesmychestandt henwej ustl ay
thereent winedineachot herarmsnotsayi ng
anyt hi
ngbutourbodi esdoingallthetalking.Iam
happy, Iam cont ent.
Me:
“ar
eyouokayl
ove?”

Her
:“Iam baby”

Me:
“didIhurtyouwhen….”shecover
smymout
h
wi
thherhand.

Her
:“no,
youwer
eabsol
utel
yper
fect”

Me:
“butyouwer
ecr
ying”

Her
:“causeyouwer
efuckenki
ngmesogood
Mnguni”

Me:
“andi
tmadeyoucr
y?”shegi
ggl
es

Her
:“yesbooi
tdi
d”
Me:
“Yousati
sfymei
neveryt
hingandever
yway
l
oveandyouaremor
ethanenoughforme”

Her:
“youareal
lthemanIneedmbuso,
nooneel
se
butj
ustyou”

Me:
“Iam cont
entwhenI
’
m wi
thyou”

Her
:“Iam compl
etebecauseofyou”

Me:“nomanwi l
leverexper
iencethel
oveand
happi
nessyoualwaysmakemef eel
.Youaremi
ne
andminealone,
youbelongt omeandonlyme”

Her:“You’r
emi nembusoandnowomanwi llever
succeedt r
yingtotakeyouawayfrom andourki ds,
thi
si st
heonl yplaceyouknowishomeandno
otherplacewilleverf
eell
ikei
shomewi thoutme
andyourki
ds”

Me:
“thi
sishomebabyandmydi
ckonl
yget
shar
d
f
oryou”

Her
:“I
’
llchopi
tof
fifi
teverdoes”

Me:“babyyourlovei
sli
keaporti
ont
hatkeeps
get
tingst
rongereachandever
yday”

Her
:“maybeIshoul
dgi
veyoual
ovepot
ion”we
bot
hlaugh

Me:“doi
tbabycausewit
horwithouti
t,I
’
m not
goi
nganywhere.Onl
ydeathwi
llt
akemeawayf rom
you”

Her
:“i
sitover
?”Isi
gh
Me:“yeahi
tis,
butwest
il
lneedt
odealwi
thbuhl
e,
si
phoandthuli”

Her:“Iknow,butmaybebuhledeservesanot
her
chanceboo”nott hisagai
n,Igetupcauseanyt
hing
thatremindsmeofwhatt hatgir
ldi
dtomemakes
mewantt oki
llher

Me:
“let
’sgoandt
akeabat
htoget
her”

Her
:“nowear
est
il
ltal
king”shesayssi
tt
ingup

Me:
“Idon’
twantt
otal
kaboutt
hem now”

Her
:“whenar
eweevergoi
ngt
otal
kabouther
?”

Me:
“lovel
ett
hisgopl
ease”
Her:“shesavedmeandyouknowt hat
,inher
fuckedupwayshedidandIt hi
nkIoweittohert
o
atleastgi
veherasecondchance”

Me:“Iwantt
hatwomanoutofourl
ivesf
oreverl
uh
andImeanit”

Her:
“Ihearyoubutt
hatdoesn’
tmeanshehast
o
di
ethough”

Me:“howmuchmor etroubl
edoyouwantbuhl et
o
causeluhcauseincaseyouhavej ustf
orgotten,t
he
manwhoIwentandki l
ledwasal sogoingtobe
usi
ngyouashi ssexslaveanduseyouf or
pornographi
cmoviesandot hersickt
hings.The
manwho’ sbrot
herbuhlepromisedyou!”

Her:
“butt
hatdoesn’
tmeanweshoul
dignor
ethe
oneri
ghtt
hingshedid!”
Me:“ar
eyoufuckenki
ddi
ngmer
ightnowl
uh?
,what
i
sthatri
ghtt
hingshedi
d?”

Her:
“shegavemeyou”shesaystear
ingupandI
si
ghandsitdownandt
akeherhandsandlookat
her

Me:“l
ove,meandyouwer edesti
nedtobet oget
her
andwewer egoi
ngtomeeteveni fIdi
dn’tknowher
causeIknowfat
esbroughtustogethernotthat
damngirl”
.

Her:
“IknowbutIdon’
twantherdeat
htobeonmy
consci
ence”

Me:“beli
eveit
’snotcauseonewayoranother
buhl
e'ssinsweregoingtocat
chuponherandi fi
t
wasn’tuswhogothersomeonesomewher ewould
havegottenherandshewouldbeprobabl
ydeadby
now,
soherdeat
hisnotgoi
ngt
obeyourf
aul
t”

Her
:“Ihearyou”

Me:“youhavetostopthist
hingofbl
amingyour
sel
f
f
orotherpeopl
e’sdeci
sionsandacti
ons”shesays
l
ookingatme

Her
:“Iknow”

Me:
“Ihavet
otel
lyousomet
hing”

Her
:“t
hatsoundsser
ious”

Me:
“iti
sbutI
’
m notsur
ehowyou’
regoi
ngt
otakei
t
”

Her
:“i
sitt
hatbad?”
Me:
“Idon’
tknowhowyou’
l
llookati
t”

Her
:“t
ellme”

Me:“Idon’
twantust
ost
artourmar
ri
agewi
thl
ies
andsecret
s”

Her
:“whatdi
dyoudombuso?”

Me:“whathappenswasbef oreIknewaboutyou
andIdidn’
tevenknowmysel funti
lthatt
imeyou
wereinthehospi
talatPi
etermari
tzburgwhenIgot
thatmessagefr
om yourbrother”

Her:
“I’
ml i
stening”shelookssoser
iousr
ightnow
andIdidn’
tthinkitwasgoingtobet
hishardtotel
l
her
.Ilookather
Me:“wellyouknowt hatwewerekeepi
ngbuhl eat
si
celo’
shousesohewasatacl ubwhenCel este
senthi
m at extmessagetel
li
nghimthatbuhleis
highondrugsandsayi ngsomethi
ng”

Her
:“whatwasshesayi
ng?”

Me:“sicel
othentel
lsmetocometoDur banandyou
rememberIleftt
hatdayandwentther
eandwhenI
gotthereCel
estepl
ayedmethevideo”

Her
:“wher
eist
hevi
deo,
Iwantt
oseei
t?”

Me:
“si
cel
ohasi
t”

Her:
“Iknowyouhaveitt
ooandyou’
l
lshowmei
t
butwhatexact
lydi
dshesay”
Me:“int
hevideoshesaidthatwehaveachil
d
toget
her”shetr
iestopul
lherhandsofff
rom mi
ne
butIgri
pthem t
ight

Her
:“mbuso,
letgoofme!”

Me:“no,wear
egoingt
osi
ther
eandyou’
l
lli
stent
o
ever
ythi
ngIhavet
osay”

Her:
“li
stentoyoutell
ingmet
hatyouhaveaf
ucken
chi
ldwithher?
,buhle?!”

Me:
“wi
llyoupl
easel
ist
ent
omeandst
opshout
ing”

Her
:“andi
fIdon’
t?”

Me:
“you’
l
lupsetmyki
dsandbehospi
tal
izedf
ort
he
r
estofyourpr
egnancyandI’
l
lbefor
cedtobeher
e
i
nthi
shouseallal
one,doyouwantt
hat?”

Her
:“goaheadI
’
mli
steni
ng”

Me:“shel
iedatfi
r stt
henwhenshesawhowmadI
wasandIf or
ceditoutofhershefi
nall
ysai
dthat
wehaveachi l
dtogetherandIcoul
dn’
tremember
theti
mewher eIfuckedherandnotusedpr
otect
ion
soIaskedher”

Her
:“youmean,
youwoul
dfuckherandnot
r
emember?”

Me:“l
uh,pl
easeletmefini
shtheyoucanj udgeme
al
lyouwant”thatshutherup.“Iforceditoutofher
andthat
’swhenshesaidthat,t
herewast hi
sone
ti
meintheclubandIwasst r
essedabout
somethi
ng,Ican’
trememberwhatt henshebought
meadr i
nkthatshespi
kedandt hendr uggedand
hadherwaywi
thme”

Her:
“wait
!,yousaybuhl
eboughtyouadri
nkthat
wasdruggedandyoudidn’
tknow,yout
ookitthen
passedoutandsherapedyou?!”

Me:
“yeahcauseIdi
dn’
trememberussleepi
ng
t
oget
herandthenshegotpr
egnantwi
thmychild”

Her
:“ohmyGod!”

Me:“Mikewast her
eandsohehelpedhergetmeto
thehouseaft
ershewasdoneandIwokeupt he
nextdaynotrememberanyt
hingbutonl
ythatIwas
drunktheni
ghtbefore”

Her
:“It
hinkMikeisthesamef
ri
endt
hattoldthat
manthatyou’
retheonewhoki
ll
edhi
sbrother”
Me:
“iti
shi
m”

Her:“wow,sohowcomeyoudi dn’
tknowaboutt
he
pregnancyunti
lnowcauseIt
oohaveneverseen
buhlepregnant”

Me:“shegotscaredwhenshefoundoutt
hatshe
wasandknewt hatIwil
lfi
ndoutandsoshehadan
abort
ionandkil
ledthechi
ld”

Her:
“yourchi
ldmbuso,sherapedyouthenki
ll
ed
yourchi
ld”shesayssosaidandsoft

Me:
“shedi
d”

Her
:“Ican’
tbel
ievebuhl
eist
hiswi
cked”

Me:
“youknowbutyoust
il
lwantt
oseet
hegoodi
n
her”

Her:
“I’
m sor
ryshedidal
lthoset
hingst
oyou,
why
di
dyoudecidetotel
lme”

Me:“causeIdi dn’
twantsecr
etsbetweenusand
becauseIhavet odoacleansingceremony,name
thechil
dsoi tcanbeknownbymyancest orsand
soitwon’tcauseharmt omyki dst
hatyou’r
e
carr
ying”

Her:
“howdoweknowsher
eal
lydi
dhavean
abor
tion?”

Me:
“ther
ear
e.Medi
calr
ecor
ds”

Her:
“her
eIthoughtt
hatIam goi
ngtobetheonl
y
womanwho’severgoingt
ocarryyourki
dsbut
buhl
ediditf
ir
stasal
ways”fuckno!
Me:“lookatmeandl i
stentomecarefull
yluh.You
aretheonlywomenwhowi l
lcarr
ymyki dsandnot
anyoneelsebefor
eyoumat ter
sespecial
lythatgi
rl
.
Thesearemyf i
rstki
dsandmanymor ewi l
lcome
outfrom t
hiswombonl y,
doyouunder st
and?”

Her:
“Iunderst
and,
howdoyouknowaboutt
his
cl
eaningt
hing?”

Me;“Cassi ebonga’sexgi r
lf
riendoncehadan
abortionwi t
houttel
li
nghi m andhest artedhaving
problemst helosthisotherchildthegirldecidedto
keepandwhenmyf amilywentt oseet hetradit
ional
healerhet oldthem i
t’
sbecauset hefirstchilddidn’t
wantt obeal oneandf el
tunrecognizedbyt he
ancest or
sandsoIdon’ twantthatformyki ds”

Her:
“thankyouf
ort
ell
ingme”butshesounds
downnowandIdon’twhatt
osaytomakeherfeel
okay.

Me:
“butyoudon’
tsoundokayl
ove”

Her
:“I’
mjustsadthatshevi
olat
edyouandher
eI
am busyaski
ngyounottokil
lher”

Me:“I
’m okaymyl
oveandIgetwhyyouwer
e
sayi
ngthat”

Her:
“I’
m goi
ngtobat
hnow,
canyouoveri
s
somethi
ngtoeat
?”

Me:
“youdon’
twantmet
ojoi
nyou?”

Her:
“nocausewel
lendupfucki
ngeachotheragai
n
andIneedyout
okeepyourhandst
oyourself
causeI
’Isor
e”
Me:
“okbaby,
youneedhel
p?”

Her:
“helpmewi
tht
hewat
ert
henwashmyback
andfeet”

Me:
“let
’sgo”Ihel
phergetupandshehugsme
wi
thourkidspl
ayi
ng,

Her:“shewi l
lpay”shesayssosof tandIalmost
didn’thearherandIlookatherandshekissesmy
chestanddr agsmet othebathroom andIwonder
whatshemeansbyt hat,Il
etitgofornow.
CHAPTER35.

SI
CELO.

Thesni
perdr
opsdeadi
nthef
loorandt
hel
if
e
drai
nsoutofhi m, wehaveki l
ledthelastperson
whoi sathreattomysi sterot
hert hanthe
mazibuko's.Ican’tbel
ievembusot hi
nksthatVict
or
i
sbuhl e'
sfather,Imeanwhatel sedoesheknow
thatwedon’ tknow.Theguyscl eanupt hemess
andgobur nt hebodyoft hesniper.

Me:
“arewegoi
ngtowat
cht
hevi
deosandf
oot
age
t
heguysbr
ought
?”

Dad:“Ican’
tlookthosevideosandseeyoungki ds
l
ikethat,
Ihaveniecesandnephewst hatageand
I’
m qbouttobeagr andfatherandIdon’twantl
ose
mymi ndwatchingthoset hingsandthi
nkwhatifit
happenstothem….I tcouldhavehappenedt oyour
sist
erhadmbusohadnoti nter
venedandsavedher
”

Me:
“itscaresmet
othi
nkt
hatmaybet
her
e’smor
e
wedon’tknow”
Gumede:
“whatIknowaboutmysonisthathewi
ll
moveheavenandear
thf
oryourdaught
er”

Dad:
“your
aisedagoodmangumede,
youshoul
d
bepr
oud”

Gumede:“yourchi
ldr
enaregr
eatmaphol
obaand
t
heytakeaftert
hei
rparent
s”

Me:
“thankyoudad’
s”t
heychuckl
e

Dad:
“nowt
hist
hingofBuhl
eandVi
ctor
,whatdo
wedo?”

Gumede:“wear estar
ti
ngthenegotiati
onssoonand
Iwanteveryt
hingtobesmoot handt hosepeopl
e
gonecausewecan’ tkeeppostponi
ngandwai ti
ng
formangcobot ogi
vebirt
h”
Dad:
“Vict
orwi llbeher etomorr
owandwewi llput
al
loft
hem int her oom andhearwhatsecr
etsthey
ar
egoingtot ellus.I’
mt i
redofknowi
ngthatthey
ar
esti
llal
ive.Iwanti tovertoo”

Mapholoba:
“ifbuhl
eisVi
ctor’
sdaughterthenthat
wouldmeanhemett hul
ifi
rstandgotherpregnant
butthenhowdoessheendupbei ngwi t
hhi s
brot
her?”

Me:“maybet
heywer
eplayi
ngtagteam ”t
heyl
ook
at
elikeI
’
m cr
azyt
henburstoutl
aughi
ng

Dad:
“whati
swr
ongwi
thyouseen?”

Maphol
oba:
“thet
hingst
heseki
dsdowi
llshockyou
”
Me:
“it
’sj
ustat
houghtdad”

Dad:
“nahIguesswewi
llf
indoutt
omor
row”

Me:
“di
dyour
eal
lygi
veayandaonemi
ll
ionr
ands?”

Hi
m:“yesIdi
d”

Me:
“whywoul
dyougi
vehert
hat
?”

Him:“sicel
othedayyouhavekidsyouwi ll
understandwhyyouwoul ddoanythingtomake
sureyourkidsaresafeandprot
ected,nomatt
er
howol dtheyare.Thatgi
rlyoui
nvi
tedinyourl
if
eis
goi
ngt ocausepr obl
ems”

Me:
“whenwetookawalkwit
hPr
eston,
hetol
dme
t
hatayandami
ghtbebi
pol
ar,
wel
lhesaidhe’
ssur
e
thatshehasbi
polarthat’
swhywhenImethershe
wasacompl et
elydif
ferentper
sont
hanwhatyou
guyssaw”

Hi
m:“whi
chmeansshest
oppedt
aki
ngmedi
cat
ion”

Me:
“iti
spossi
ble”

Maphol
oba:
“orshemi
ghthaveschi
zophr
eni
a”

Me:
“buthowmaphol
oba?”

Maphol oba:“peoplewit
hbipolarareusually
depressedandof tenisol
atethemselvesandmay
experiencepsychoticepi
sodesbutpeopl ewith
schizophreniaexperi
encedelusions,
halluci
nati
ons
andpsychosi ssosomet i
messchi zophreniamight
beconf usedtobipolar”
Me:“t
henshedefi
nit
elyi
sschi
zophr
eni
ccauset
he
del
usi
onalshewouldhavewer
etoomuchforme”

Dad:
“wher
edi
dFr
ankt
akeher
?”

Me:“she’
sr i
ghther
e,i
noneofther
oomsi
nthe
basement,nextt
owherebuhl
eis”

Maphol
oba:
“whatar
eyoupl
anni
ngt
odot
oher
?”

Me:
“IthoughtIwoul
djustkeepherl
ockedupand
maybeshe’
llst
rai
ght
enupandgeti nl
ine”

Mapholoba:
“youhavetoadmi
thertothehospi
tal
psychosi
scentr
esoshecantr
eatedbefor
eher
psychosi
sgetsworse”

Me:
“I’
l
ladmi
thert
omor
row”
Dad:
“nosi
cel
o,cal
lthem nowandt
heywi
llcome
andt
akeher”

Mapholoba:“noI
’l
lcal
lthem andgowit
hhert
othe
hospi
talcauseshehastobeevaluat
edbef
oreshe
canbeadmi tt
ed”

Me:“mapholobapl
easemakesureyoukeepher
ther
eforaslongasshecanstaycauseifsheget
s
outsti
llwor
seImighthavet
ogetridofher”

Dad:
“she’
llst
ayawayifsheknowswhat’sgoodf
or
her
,whatwasthetensi
oninthehouseabout
bet
weenyoursist
erandyouraunt
?”

Me:“sheaskedaunt
ywhoshe’
sdat
ingandshe
di
dn’tl
iket
hat”
Dad:
“wellshehastotel
lheratsomepoi
nt,
she
can’
tkeephidi
ngit”

Me:
“maybeshe’
saf
rai
dthatshewon’
taccepthi
m”

Maphol
oba:
“whom i
sshedat
ing,
doIknowhi
m?”
weanddadbot
hchuckl
e

Dad:
“ohyouknowhi
m ver
ywel
lmyf
ri
end”weal
l
l
augh

Maphol
oba:”l
etcal
lthehospi
tali
nDur
ban”heget
s
upandcal
lsthem.

Me:
“whendi
dyoul
astt
alkt
othemazi
buko’
s?”

Dad:
“yest
erday,
siphoi
sst
il
lbr
okenovert
hel
oss
ofhi
sson”
Me:
“yeaht
hamidi
dn’
tdeser
vet
odi
e”

Dad:
“wel
ltheyaredyi
ngt
oot
omor
rowandIhope
t
heygotohell”

Me:
“whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odot
hem ”

Dad:
“ther
atsar
eal
readyher
eandt
heyar
ehungr
y”

Me:“IhopeIdon’
tgetsi
ckwat
chi
ngt
hem get
ti
ng
eat
en”

Dad:
“it
’sgoi
ngt
obemusi
ctomyear
s”hel
aughs

Me:“Inevert
houghtwewi
llevergett
hisday,
get
ourrevenge”
Dad:
“it
’sf
inal
lyher
e”

Me:
“I’
m sur
etheyar
ener
vouscauset
heyhear
d
t
hatf
oolscr
eaming”

Dad:
“theyshoul
dbe”

Maphol
oba:
“fi
rstt
hingt
omor
rowmor
ningt
heywi
ll
beher
e”

Dad:
“let
’sgohomet
henandgetsomet
hingt
oeat”

Maphol
oba:
“Imi
ssmangcobo'
scooki
ng”

Me:“wearedef
ini
tel
ynotgoi
ngt
othei
rhouse”we
al
llaugh

Maphol
oba:
“mybeaut
if
ulshydaught
eri
nlaw”
Me:
“she’
snott
hatshywhenshe’
swi
thmbuso”

Them:“shutupscel
o!”Il
aughandgeti
nmycar
andtheyfol
lowbehi
ndme.Myphoner i
ngsandI
l
ookatthenumberit’
sbonga.

Me:
“wher
ear
eyouf
ool
?”

Hi
m:“manI
’
m havi
ngt
het
imeofmyl
if
e”huh?

Me:“havi
ngt
het
imeofyourl
if
ewher
eandwi
th
whom?”

Hi
m:“sbuandsomegi r
l,mbusodr
oppedusof
fat
t
hehotelbutwe’
redonehere?”

Me:
“ar
eyout
ell
ingmet
hatyouandsbuhada
t
hreesome?”Iaskedhi
m shocked

Him:
“thebest
,doneanddust
ed”Icanf
eelhi
s
smil
eandIchuckl
e

Me:
“youl
uckysonofagun”

Him:“wearegoi
ngtocomeandseeyou,
sowecan
tal
kaboutwhatwearegoi
ngtodotot
hefoot
age
andthator
phanagei
nNewcastl
e”

Me:
“okbr
otherI
’
m onmywayhome”

Hi
m: “ohsbuasksi
fyoudon’
tmi
ndi
fwebr
ingt
he
gi
rlwithus?”

Me:“asl
ongasyouwon’tcont
inuewher
eyoul
eft
of
fundermyfat
hershouse”
Hi
m:“manI
’
m notmybr
other”

Me:“hmmm, I
’
llseeyouguysj ustnow”Ihangup
andshakemyhead.Il eftZamasl eeping,di
dn’tcal
l
herthewhol edayandi t
’slat
enowandIknowshe’ s
verypissed.Igetintheyar d,parkmycarandt he
dadst ooparktheirsthenIgeti nthehouseandf i
nd
mah, ZamaandPr estoncooki ngandl aughi
ng.She
fi
tsper f
ectl
ywithmyf amily,t
heydon’ tseemesoI
gotomybedr oom andshowerqui cklyandchange
thenjointhem inthekitchen.Zamahasgot tenall
shyandi snownott al
kingbutj ustcookingandt he
onlythingmissingnowi sherbar efootand
pregnant,Ismiletomysel f.

Dad:
“dad’sl
oveson,i
tmakesyousmi
leal
onel
ike
you’
recr
azy”theyal
llaugh

Me:
“it
’st
hewomanwho’
scooki
ngourdi
nnert
hat
’s
makingmesmil
e”shelooksatmeal
it
tl
eand
smi
les…damnshe’
sbeauti
ful
.

Maphol
oba:“Iwonderwhatwi
llherf
amilysaywhen
t
heyhearshe’sal
readydoi
ngherwif
elyduti
es”

Me:
“Iwon’
ttel
l”

Zama:
“butIwi
ll”t
heyal
llaugh

Me:
“don’
tworr
ymaShengeI
’
m goi
ngt
osendmy
f
amil
ytoyour
saft
erl
uh'
sweddi
ng”

Man:
“ar
eyoupr
oposi
ngmar
ri
agesi
cel
o?”

Me:
“yesmah”Isaysmi
li
ng

Dad:
“wel
litl
ooksl
ikesoont
hishousewi
llbef
il
led
wi
thmanychi
ldr
en”

Maphol
oba:
“andyouPr
est
onwhenar
eyouhavi
ng
ki
ds?”hegoesqui
et

Pr
est
on:“we’
llbab'
uGumedeIcan’
texact
lyhave
ki
ds”hesayssadly

Maphol
oba:
“ar
eyoui
nfer
ti
le?”

Pr
est
on:
“nott
hatIknowof”hewi
peshi
sfor
ehead

Maphol
oba:
“thenwhati
sthepr
obl
em?”

Me:
“uhmmm dad”

Maphol
oba:“
shutupscel
oI’
mtal
kingwi
thyou”t
his
manisworsethanmydad
Pr
est
on:
“I…f
ormet
odot
hati
twoul
d…”

Maphol
oba:“Prest
onlookatmewhenI ’
mt al
kingt
o
you”Pr
estonisshakingnow,manIdon’tl
ike
seei
nghi
mt hisway,helooksatmaphol
oba.

Maphol oba:
“PrestonIknowt hatyouaregayandI
don’thaveaproblem wit
hi t
,Ionlyaskedyouwhen
areyouhavingkidsthat’
sall.ThisisanewSouth
Afri
caandgaymenar eallowedt ogetmarri
edandI
thi
nkyoucanadoptki dstooorbuyaneggcause
womennowsel lthei
reggst henhaveasurrogat
eto
carr
yyourchi l
dorpartnerschil
d.Don’tyouwantto
havekids?”Prestonbreaksdownandcr i
esthen
zamahol dshishandandmahhugshi m.

Prest
on:
“Idon’tknowwhattosay….I..Ihavenever
beenacceptedbymyf amil
y,t
heybeatitoutofme
andwhent hatdi
dn’twor
ktheyfor
cedmet ochange
anddat ewomenandst il
lIwasstil
lmet henthey
decidedtogetcriminalswhomuggedmeand
they…theyrapedmet hi
nkingIwil
lchange.My
fathersai
dhehi r
edt hosemant oshowmet hati
tis
somet hi
ngIdon’twantt hendisownedme, nowwhy
woul dIwanttobringkidst ot
hismessedupwor ld?
”

Maphol oba:“I’m sorryyourownf amil

ydi dthat
especiall
yyourf athePr eston.Kidsareagi ftthat
comesf rom Godandi tdoesn’ tmat t
erwhatshape
orformt heycomeoutwi th.Aspar entswemust
acceptandl ovet hem f orwhot heyarenotwhat
theyhaveandIam sur eyouhaver eali
zedt hatin
thi
sGumede-Ngcobof ami lywel oveandaccept
everyonewhoonl yhaspur eintenti
onsforthese
famili
esandyoubei ngher eisnotbyami stake.
Somet i
mest hefami lywechoosef orourselvesis
thebestonet hant heonewewer ebornwi t
hand
thesefami l
iesaref oryou.Youcl ai
medt hem and
theyclaimedyouback, wel lIdoast heheadof
Gumedenotyourbr othermbuso”weal llaugh, t
hat
wasdeep,
IhopeZamahear
d.

Pr
est
on:
“thankyoudad”hesayscr
ying.

Mapholoba:
“comeandgi vedearolddadahug”he
goestohim andtheyhug,dadpatsmeonmy
shoul
derandIlookathim andsmilethenl
ookat
zamaandmaht heyarewipi
ngtheirt
earsof
f.

Mah:
“whoneedssomewi ne”shesaysbr
eaki
ng
t
hetensi
onandweall
.Laugh

Me:“Ineedsomet
hingst
rongcauset
heonions
yourcutt
ingar
emakingmecry”welaugh
Mah:
“gosett
het
abl
escel
o”

Me:
“butmahsi
snont
oisgoi
ngt
osett
het
abl
e”
Her :“gomanscel o,i
sluhandmbuso, Ohnever
mi nd!”wel aughagai n.Igotothediningr oom and
star tset
tingthet ablewhenIhearbonga' sloud
l
aughi ntheki tchen,theyarealr
eadyher e.Iadd
threemor eplatesf orthosetwoandt heirguest.Igo
tot hekitchenandseet hosetwofool
s, wellIknow
ofsbubutwehaven’ tactuall
ymetandt hegi rl
sthey
camewi thisf acingawayf r
om mesoIcan’ texactl
y
seeherf ace.

Me:
“how’
sitguys”

Bonga:“br
other,
thi
sissi
busi
soMbatha,
mbuso’
s
fr
iendyou’
veheardabouthi
m…wellhe’
sourf
ri
end”
hesayswebr okehug

Sbu:“ni
cet
ofinal
lymeetyoubr
other”weshake
handsandbrohug

Me:
“met
oomanandwho’
syourl
adyf
ri
end”he
l
ooksatmeandIr
aisemyeyebr
owsandt
hreeof
usl
augh.

Sbu:“ohthisisourfr
iendkarabo”hh?,Ir
oundt
he
kit
chenislandandgost andnexttoZamaandsee
thekarabowhoi sinmyki t
chenisthesamekar
abo
whoi sayanda'sf
ri
end.

Me:
“kar
abo?”

Kar
abo:
“hiscel
o”shesaysshyl
ylooki
ngdownand
embar
rassed

Mah:“youknoweachot
her
?”Il
ookatzamaand
she’
slooki
ngatme

Me:
“uh.
.yesIknowher
,she’
sayanda’
sfr
iend”
Mah:
“ohJesus”Zamashakesherhead

Maphol
oba:
“who’
syourboyf
ri
endbet
weent
het
wo?
”heasksher

Kar
abo:
“wear
ejustf
ri
endssi
r”

Mah:
“hmmmm ”

Me:“wher
eisayanda?”IaskhercauseIwantt
o
knowwhatsheknowsandi fayandadi
dcal
lher

Her:
“Ihaven’
thear
dfr
om heri
ndays,
Idon’
tknow
wheresheis”

Me:
“whati
sreal
lywr
ongwi
thher
?”

Zama:
“whydoyoucar
e?”sheaskssof
tl
y
Kar
abo:
“whoi
sshe?”

Me:
“she’
snot
hingt
oyou,
answermyquest
ion”

Her:
“she’
snotsickift
hat’
swhatyou’
reaski
ngme,
shejustf
orget
stotakehermedi
cati
on”

Me“whatki
nd?”

Her:
“didyoudumpher
?,i
sthatwhyshewasact
ing
al
lcrazy”

Mah:
“soshei
scr
azy?”

Me:
“I’
mtheoneaski
ngquest
ionsher
e”
Her:“herfami
lyhasahistoryofmentali
ll
nessbut
she’staki
nghermedicat
ionandshewasdoi ngwel
l
unti
lshemettshepoandhest ar
tedabusi
ngherbut
thenshesaidyou’r
echeatingonherandmany
otherthi
ngs”

Mah:
“ar
eyoucr
azyt
oo?”

Her
:“noI
’
m not”

Mah:“hmm t
hecompanyyoukeepsbusi
so,
bonga
andyouscel
o…”

Me:
“but
…”

Her:
“ayshutupman,nont
ocanpleasefi
nd
somethi
ngthi
sgi
rlwil
lweart
ocoverhersel
fup
causeshel
ooksnaked”Il
ookatherandshe’s
weari
ngadresst
hathasherarmsandshoulders
bar
e,i
tst
opsjustaboveherchest,If
eelZama
ki
cki
ngmylegandIl ookathershocked

Me:
“whyar
eyouki
cki
ngme?”

Her:
“causeyoureyesarewondering”nontogi
ves
heroneofherdressapr
onsandi tlooksbi
gonher
andPrest
onlaughsthenstops.

Mah: “l
et’
sgotothedi
ningroom andhavedi
nner,
allofyouwashyourhandshere!”shesaysthen
l
eavest henZamaandPr est
onfoll
owhereand
karabostaysbehi
nd.

Karabo:“doesthatmeanyou’ r
enowsi ngl
e?”she
asksmeandIl ookatbongaandsbut odealwi t
h
her.Iwashmyhandst henleavethem andsitdown
whereIusuallysitandthedadscomeandsi ttoo.
Karabositsnexttomewher eluhusuallysi
tsand
Zamai soppositefaci
ngme, Ilookathersmili
ng
andshedoesn’
tlookhappy.

Mah: “let’
ssaygrace”wecl oseoureyesandmah
prayst henwedi dupandst ar
tt oeatwhenIfeel
karabof eeli
ngmydi ckandIal mostchokeonmy
dri
nk.It akemyhandandgr abher shar
dandIhear
herwi ncinginpainbutshestillwon’
tstopi
nstead
shegr ipsitti
ghtandstrokesitthr
oughmypans
andIf eelmydi ckgett
inghard.Fuck!

Plat
esar eandforksarecl
icki
ng,thedadsare
tal
kingandtheguysandf uckmekar aboconti
nues
tostrokemydickanditishardnowandget ti
ng
ti
ghtinmypant s.Igr
abherhandagai nandit
’sli
ke
thi
sgi r
lisi
ntol
erantt
opain.Iclosemyeyesand
thi
nkofwayst omakemyhar donnotsohar d

Kar
abo:
“so,
what
’syournameagai
ncauseIdi
dn’
t
cat
chit
?”
Zama:
“Idi
dn’
tthr
owi
t”

Kar
abo:
“soyoumustbescel
ocur
rentgi
rl
fr
iend?”

Pr
eston:
“wedon’
tbri
nggi
rl
fr
iendsi
nthi
sfami
ly,
we
br
ingbri
desandgr
ooms.Whichonear
eyou?”

Zama:
“no.”whatt
hef
uck!Il
ookupandseeherl
ike
shewant
stocry

Me:
“whatt
hef
uckdoest
hatmeanZama?”

Zama:
“canIbeexcusedbaba?”sheasksmydad
andmydadnodsandsheget supandIgetupt
oo

Me:“Zamawhatiswr ong?”shegaspsshocked
l
ookingatmy….Ohf uckme!!!
!!
!.Icovermyselfand
l
ookatherandshelooksshatteredthensheleaves
t
het
abl
ewi
thherheadhel
dhi
ghandIgoaf
terher

Me:
“Zama,
Zamawai
t,I
’
m sor
ry!”

Mah:“si
esscelo,si
esman!,whydoyouli
kemaki ng
afooloutofthi
sgirl
?”Ihearmahshouti
ngaf t
erme.
“andyoushoul dbeashamedofyoursel
f!
,i
fitisn’
t
yourfri
endit
’syouhhaymanandyoust upi
dboys
bri
ngsthesestupidwomeninmybrothershouse
bett
erbethelastti
me!”

Zamal ocksthedoorbeforeIevengett hereandI

knockandshedoesn’ tanswerinsteadIhearher
softcri
esdamn, I
’m suchascrewup, afterI
promisedherthatIwon’thurtheragainbutyet
againIjustdi
d”
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER35.

SI
CELO.
Ikeepknockingandknocki ngbutshest i
llwon’tlet
mei n.HowcanIbet hisweakandst upid.How
couldIembar rassthewomanIl ove?,Ibasi call
y
proposedmar r
iagetoherinf r
ontofmyf ami lythen
Igoandbecomeaweekl it
tleboywhohasj ust
gottenhi
sf i
rstexperienceofgettinghisdi ckfelt.I
fuckedup,Ireallydi
dandt her easonIdi dt hati
s
becausethepi ctur
eofbongaandsbuf uckingsome
womanatt hesamet imekeptonpl ayingonmy
mindandt hatisnotanexcuseast owhyIkept
l
etti
nghert ouchmydi ckcauseIdon’ twel lknowI
couldhavest oppeditatanyt i
me.

Igobacktotheli
vingroom andmahi sfuckenl
ivi
d.
Shehasneverlookedatmet hi
swayso
di
sappoi
ntedandIdon’ tblameher.Il
ookatthi
s
bi
tchandIjustwanttof uckenblowherbr
ainsoff
.

Dad:
“sothi
sisthemanmysonhascometobe?”
t
heygetqui
etandIjustst
andt
her
eli
keat
eenage
boythathasbeencaughtsneaki
ngbackf
rom
get
ti
ngdr unkwit
hhisfr
iends.

Me:
“ChaMaphol
oba”(nodad)

Dad:
“ar
eyoumanwhol
et’
shi
sdi
ckcont
rolhi
m?”

Me:
“nodad”
Mnguni:
“ist
hist
heki
ndofcompanyyoukeep
Si
yabongaandyouSi
busi
so?”

Them:
“ChaMnguni”

Mnguni :
“youarealladi
sappointment,l
ookathow
mbusohascl eaneduphisactandmannedup, you
allshoul
dfoll
owhisleadandst opthi
sthingof
yoursfuckenwomenatt hesamet i
me”whatt he
hell?
,welookateachothershocked.
Dad:
“youkidst
hinkwear
estupi
dandwedon’t
knowwhathappensi
nourki
dsli
vesheh?”wedon’
t
sayanyt
hing

Mnguni:
“wekeeptabsoneveryt
hingki
dsandyou
shoul
dalwaysknowthatwhat
everyoudoweare
al
waysonestepinfr
ontofyou”

Bonga:
“babawear
ejusthavi
ngf
un”

Mnguni:“bongahavingfunisushavingabr aaiand
dri
nkingwithourf
riendsandf amil
ythat’
shaving
fun.Usingsomeone’sdaughtertosati
sfyyour
urgesisnot.”

Dad:
“thi
sthi
ngyouaredoi
ngwasf unandgood
whenyouwereyoungmenbutgrownmendon’ tdo
t
hist
hing.Al
lofyouher
earesupposedtobe
marr
iedandhavi
ngyourownfamil
iesbutyoudon’
t
causeyou’rebusysati
sfyi
ngyourdicksanddicks
don’tgetsati
sfi
ed.Youcanhaverelat
ionswit
ht hi
s
girli
nthemor ni
ngandatmi ddayyouwouldwant
anotherone.Areyougoingtobethekindofmen
whoar econtrol
ledbythei
rurgesandwhattheir
dickswant?”

Mapholoba:
“doanyofyouhereseet
hisgi
rlas
someoneyoucouldmarry?”

Us:“No!.”karabolooksatusshockedand
embar r
assed.Iknowf orafactthatIcoul
dnever
wantanot hermant olookatZamanakedandgi ve
herthatkindofpleasure,i
twil
lkil
lme.

Dad:“gi
rl
ieyoushouldstoplet
ti
ngmenl i
ket hese
useyouast hei
rtoytheyusewhentherearebor ed.
Knowyourwor thanddon’tbesomeone’splay
thi
ng”shenodsl ooki
ngdownembar r
assed
Mah: “allofyouar ealmostf or tyf uckenyear sold
butyouar ebehavingliket went yt woyearol dsbusy
bri
ngi ngrubbishi nthi
shome! .Sibusisoyour
parent saregoingt obesodi sappoi nt
edwhent hey
hearwhatr i
ffraffyouhandar oundwi th.Sceloyou
proposedmar riagetothatgi rlanhouragobutyou
couldn’tpasst heoppor t
uni t
yt oembar rassher
again, i
twasayandaatf irstthenherf ri
end.What
thefucki swr ongisyou? !”Shesayst henleaves,I
haveneverhear dmahuset hef uckwor dbeforeand
seehert hismad.

Dad:
“leti
tbethel
astt
imeallofyoubri
ngwomen
her
eunlessyouknowtheyareyourf
uturewi
ves,
do
youunderst
andme?”

Us:
“wedomaphol
oba”

Me:
“I’
m sor
ryever
yone”
Preston:“Zamadeser
vesbet
tert
hant
hisbr
other”
he’sdisappoi
ntedt
oo

Me:
“pr
es….”

Pres:
“saveyoursorr
yforZama”hel eavesandI
knowhe’sgoingtoherandIhopetheydon’tcal
lluh
andtel
lherfuckshe’
sgoingtobesomad.Thedads
l
eaveandit’
sjustuslef
t.

Me:
“kar
abowhatwasyouri
ntensi
onexact
ly?”

Her
:“don’
tpr
etendl
i
keyoudi
dn’
tli
kei
t”

Bonga:
“whatexact
lyhappened?”

Me:“shewasgivi
ngmeahandj
ob,
Ist
oppedher
andshecont
inuedtodoi
t”
Her :
“andyoulikeditcausei
fyoudidn’t
,yourdi
ck
woul dgethar
df orme.Let’
sfaceitscel
oyouwanna
fuckmet ooli
ket hem.Sothequestion,
isdoyou
threewanttofuckmeoryouwantZamaandme
only?”shesayscomi ngtowardsme.

Zama:“t
ouchhim agai
nbit
chandyou’l
lseewhatI
’l
l
dotoyou!”IhearZamasayingf
oll
owedbyPrest
on

Karabo:
“you’
l
ldowantcauseI
’
m notscar
edof
you?!”

Zama:
“youdon’
twantt
oknow”

Karabo:
“bitchdon’tgetatej
ustbecausehi
sdi
ck
gothardforme!,dealwithyourman.”

Zama:
“ohbel
ievemeIwi
llbutnowIwantyout
o
stayt
hehel
lawayf r
om myman, getyourown
damnmant hatyoucantouchanddowhat evert
he
fuckt
hati
syouwant .”

Karabo:
“youkeepsayi
nghe’
syoumanbutIhaven’
t
heardhi
m cl
aim youashi
s”

Me:
“notthatyouneedt
oknowbutshe’
smi
neand
mi
nealone”

Karabo:
“youmeanshe’ syoursnowuntilyoumeet
someoneel secausei
twasn’tthatl
ongbeforeyou
werewithayandaandnowyou’ rewitht
hisdull
bit
ch!,
don’tmakemel augh”

Me:“shehasbeenwi t
hsinceshewas19, she’
s
beentherewit
hmet hroughi
tallnott
hatyouneed
toknow.Ayandawasj ustaphaseandaf or
gott
en
memor y,nowitwoul
ddoyoubet tert
ostoptal
king
nonsense.”
Sbu:
“acari
swai
ti
ngf
oryout
otakeyoubackt
othe
hot
elkar
abo”

Kar
abo:
“what
?,st
epyouguyscomi
ngt
oo?”

Bonga:
“nowear
egoi
ngt
osl
eepher
e”

Her:
“soyoubroughtmeallthewayf rom Durbant
o
swit
chmeherejustbecausemi sspiggyhereis
upsetandt
hoseoldmendi dallthosethi
ngs?”

Bonga:
“watchyourwor
dskarabocausethoseare
ourpar
ent
sandnoonedi sr
espect
sthem li
kethat”

Her:“butI
’m noti
nsult
ingthem causet
heyar eol
d
andyouar ebehavingl
ikeli
ttl
eboyssti
llwanti
ng
thei
rdaddiesapproval
,growthefuckup!.Idon’
t
playwithboys,Ir
ollwi
thmenwhoknowwhatt hey
wantandgoaf
teri
t.”

Zama: “that’
senoughkar abo,
youcl ear
lyhaveno
i
deawhatmenwantandneed.Thi spersonI
’m
l
ookingatwhi chisyouisahellfuckennoandI
don’tblamet hem.Tomeyou’ rejustasperm dish
theyuset otakeouttheirfr
ustr
ationsand
experi
menton.Youshoul dbewor r
iedsiswhen
menst artlookingatyouasat hi
ngt hanaperson”

Her:
“theywantmecauseIgivethem whatthey
wantandtheycan’
tgetenoughofmel i
kesbuhere
”Ilookathi
m andhelooksembarrassed.

Zama:“youmi ghtgi
vethem whatt heywantatt hat
ti
mebutwhataboutwhatt heyneed? ,whatyou
needkarabo.Howdoyouf eelwhent heyleaveyou
aft
ertheyhavehadt hei
rfeelofyouandgobackt o
thepeoplet
heyneedsomet hingfr
om.Doesn’ tt
hat
botheryoucauseitdoesbot herme”mywoman
Karabo:
“menar eneversati
sfi
edZamanomat t
er
whatyoudo, t
heywillal
wayslooksomewher
eelse
forsomethi
ngtofulf
ilwhattheycr
avet
hemost,
l
ookatyourmanher e”

Zama: “I’
m notstupidkaraboandyesscel ohas
madaf oolofmemanyt i
mesbutt hatdoesn’
tI
shouldallowitandl ethi
m dowhat everhepleases
becausehe’ saman.Youcan’ tkeepfeedingyour
cravi
ngsbecauseonedayt hey’
llbethedeathof
you.Howdoyouf eelkarabowhenyou’ r
ealoneand
l
ookingatyour selfi
nt hemirror
?,Areyouhappy
withthepersont hatisstari
ngatyouatt hemirr
or?”

Kar
abo:
“youdon’tknowme,
sodon’
tyoudar
etal
k
t
omel i
keyouknowme!”

Zama:
“youaterightkar
aboIdon’tknowyou
per
sonal
lybutIdoknowat r
oubledpersonwhenI
seeoneandbel ievemeI ’
m notjudgingyouforyour
l
ife’
schoicescauseatt heendoft heday,wedo
whatmakesushappyandIt hi
nkyoushoul dask
yoursel
fthiskarabo.Areyouhappywi thwhatyou
aredoingwi t
hyourlif
e,howyoul etotherpeopl
e
useyouf orthei
rownsel f
ishneeds.”

Pr
est
on:
“coul
dn’
thavesai
ditbet
termysel
f”

Sbu:“t
akeyourbagandgokarabo,don’tworr
y
aboutthehot
elbi
ll
,ever
ythi
ngistakencareof.
Someonewi l
lcomeandtakeyou.Backt oDurban”

Zama:“yousee?,
theyusedyouandnowt
heydon’
t
needyou.Sel
fi
shmen.”

Karabo:“f
uckyou!,f
uckal
lofyoumot herf
uckers!”
shesayst aki
ngherbagandleavi
ng.Bongaf ol
low
sandt hencomesbackafterafewminutes.
Bonga:
“she’
sgone”

Sbu:“f
uckme!,whatiswr
ongwiththatgi
rl
?,Ican’
t
bel
ieveshedi
dthat.ZamaI’
m sosorry”

Bonga:“I
’
m ver
ysorr
yZama,Iandnoideashe’
s
thatki
ndofper
sonandi
sayanda’
sfri
end”

Zama:
“yeahwel
lithappened”

Bonga:
“whydoweat
tr
actcr
azygi
rl
s?”

Preston:
“causeyou’
real
lfuckencrazy!
,Ican’
t
beli
evepeopleIl
ookuptoar ethi
s….Ugh!”

Me:
“babyI
’
m sor
ry,
I’
mreal
ly….”

Zama:
“let
’sgopr
es”
Me:
“wher
ethef
uckar
eyougoi
ng?”

Her:
“di
dyougetmybags?”fuckno!,
shecan’
t
l
eavemebecauseoft
hisst
upidthi
ng

Pr
est
on:
“let
’sgogett
hem ”

Me:“stopri
ghtt
her
ebrother
,therearenobags
l
eavingthi
shouse!
,youarenotfuckengoi
ng
anywhere!”

Zama:
“for
gett
hebagspresIdon’
tneedthem,l
et’
s
gounl
essyouwantt
ostaywithyourbr
other
s”

Pr
es:
“I’
mleavi
ngwi
thyousi
s”

Me:
“di
dInotmakemysel
fcl
earzah?”
Her:
“yourdaysoftel
li
ngmewhatt
odoar eover!
.
Theywereovertheminut
eyoul
ett
hatgi
rltouch
you!”

Me:
“If
uckenst
oppedherf
rom t
ouchi
ngme!”

Her:
“ist
hatwhyyourdi
ckgothar
dcauseyoudi
dn’
t
wanthert
otouchyou?”

Me:“Zahlbabyplease!
,Iknowwhathappenshur t
youandIdon’tknowhowt oexplai
nitbutIknowI
bet
rayedyourtr
ustnayandI ’m sor
ry”

Zahl
:“i
fyoucangett hi
seasil
yar ousedbyanother
womansi celothenthatmeansyoucaneasi lycheat
onme.Youdi dthati
nf r
ontofyourfamilyand
embarrassedme.Am Ienoughf oryousicel
o?”she
saysandt ear
sf al
l,
fuck!
Me:babyyouar emor ethanenoughf orme.ZahI
l
oveyouandIkeepf uckingupandhur t
ingyou
and…Ihat emyselfforwhatIdi d,Opromisedyou
thatIwon’thurtyouandi thasn’tbeenmorethan
threedaysandyetIf uckedupagai nandhurtyou.
Youcan’tleavemeagai nzah, YOUFUCKENCAN’ T!
”

Her:“Iwill,IcanandIwi l
l.Iwi l
lnotletyouhur tme
againandcont i
nuet omakeaf oolofme.I ’
m
walkingoutt hatdoorandyouwi llnotstopme.This
i
st helif
eyouwantt ol i
vescel o,fuckingwomen
withyourf riendsandsoIdon’ twantt ostand
betweenyouandt hatli
fe.Goaheadanddowhat
youwantt odocauseI ’
m notgoi ngt obeher e,
watcht hemanIl ovedoal lthoset hi
ngs.Youhave
myf ullblessingscel onott hatyouneedi t”she’
s
fuckingleavi ngmef orreal…noooo!

Me:
“Nooooooooooo!
,youar
enotf
ucki
ngl
eavi
ng
mezah,youhearme?”Shef
oldsherar
msand
l
ooksatme

Her:
“youar
egoi
ngt
odowhatsi
cel
ost
opmet
hen
beatme?”

Me:
“IfuckenloveyouandI
’m sor
ryImadea
mi
stake,pl
easeforgi
vemezah!”

Zah:
“Ihaveletmanythingsgoandfor
gaveyoubut
i
t’
ssti
llnotenoughcauseyoucont
inuetohur
tme
si
cel
oandIcan’ tt
akeitanymor
e”

Me:“zahpl
ease,youcan’
tli
veme.HowwillI
survi
vewit
houtyoubabyplease”f
uckIf
eelyhear
t
breaki
ngandmyeyes…no!

Zah:
“I
’ml
eavi
ng.Pr
esl
et’
sgo”
Me:“OVERMYDEADBODYYOUWI LL.I
’LLKI
LL
YOUANDTHENKI LLMYSELF!”Isaytakingmy
gunoutandpoint
ingi
ttoherandshelooksatme
scar
edshit
less

Sbu:
“whatt
hef
uckscel
o?”

Bonga:
“whatt
hef
uckar
eyoudoi
ng?”

Me:“youbet ternotcomeanywher enearmeorelse

I’
l
lfuckenki l
lher!,she’
smi ne,
she’
sfuckenmine.
Sheknowsnoot hermanbutmeandi ti
sgoingto
staythatwayunt ilwear ebothol
d,gr
eyandhave
grandkids!She’smi ne!”

Pr
est
on:
“Babaaaaaaaaaaaa!”hescr
eams.
CHAPTER36.

SI
CELO.
Me:“youarenotleavi
ngmeZahbecauseofsome
stupi
dmistakethatImade”Shelookssoscar
ed,
sheissoterr
if
iedandit’
sbecauseofme.

Her
:”r
eal
lyscel
o?,
youar
enowpoi
nti
ngagunat
me?”

Me:
“whatdoyouwantmet
odobaby,
youwantt
o
f
uckenl
eaveme!”

Dad:
“whati
swr
ongwi
thyouboy?”

Me:
“shewant
stol
eavemedadandshecan’
t!”

Dad:
“issheyourwi
fescel
o?,
areyouherf
ather
?”

Me:
“I’
m not
….”
Dad:
“thenwhoar
eyout
otel
lherwhatshecan,
or
can’
tdo?”

Me:“Imadeami
stakeandshedoesn’
twantt
o
f
orgiveme”

Dad:
“andpoint
ingagunonheri
sgoi
ngt
omake
herf
orgi
veyou?”

Me:
“….
.”

Dad:
“st
oppoi
nti
ngt
hatgunather”Il
owerthegun
andhet
akesi
t

Me:
“I’
m sor
ryZama,
Ireal
lyam ”

Dad:
“pr
est
akezamat
ombuso’
shouse,
theyar
e
expect
ingyou”

Me:“zama?..
..”shedoesn’
tevenlookatme,
pr
esidentt
akesherhandandt heyleave.

Dad:
“scel
owhatwer
eyout
hinki
ng?”

Me:
“Iwasn’
tthi
nki
ng”

Sbusi
so:
“youcoul
dhavej
ustl
ethergososhecan
cal
m down”

Me:
“If
uckedup”

Dad:
“growupsceloandst
opbehavi
ngl
ikeahor
ny
t
eenagerman!”hesayst
henl
eaves.

Bongs:
“weshoul
dn’
thavebr
oughtherher
e”
Me:
“Icoul
dhavest
oppedherbutI
…fuck!
,I’
m goi
ng
t
otal
ktoher”

Bonga:
“Idon’
tthinkthat
’sagoodidea,
she’
sscar
ed
ofyounowbrothercauseyoupull
edagunather”

Sbu:
“don’
tfor
cehert
ofor
giveyou”

Me:
“Iknow,
Ikeepmessi
ngt
hingsupwi
thher”

Bonga:“Ican’
thel
pbutf
eell
ikei
t’
ssomehowour
faul
tcausewear et
heone’
swhocamewi t
hkar
abo
”

Me:
“al
lthesewomenar
ealf
uckencr
azy!”

Sbu:
“she’
sabeaut
if
ul”
Me:
“getyourownwoman”

Bonga:“sodothi
nkshe’
l
lagr
eet
ohavet
he
thr
eesomewithme?”

Sbu:
“wai
twhat
?”

Me:“fuckno!,
ther
enowayinhel
lI’
m evergoi
ngt
o
al
lowanothermantoevent
ouchherli
kethat”

Bonga:
“manwhatchanged?”

Me:
“love,
Iloverher”

Bongs:
“goodbyezamaphatass”
Me:
“manf
uckyou!”wel
augh

Bonga:
“let
’sgoandsl
eep,
we’
l
ltal
kint
hemor
ning”

Me:“Iwon’
tbeabletosleep”t
heygotot
heirrooms
andIgotomine.Itakemyphoneandthi
nkof
cal
li
ngherbutIknowi t
’sabadi
deasoIdon’t
.

ATLUH'
SHOUSE.

LUNGI
.

Mbuso:“maphol
oba?.
..
.what
?,t
heyar
ecoming
now?,okI’
l
lopenup.”whyismydadcal
li
ngmbuso
thi
slat
e?

Me:
“what
’swr
ong?”
Hi
m:“yourbr
otherpul
ledagunonzama”

Me:
“ohmyGod!
,whywoul
dhedot
hatt
hough?”

Him:
“Idon’tknowwhatexact
lyhappenedbutyour
dadt
oldPrestontobr
ingzamahere,theyar
e
comi
ng”

Me:“babywedon’thaveabed,
theyar
egoi
ngt
o
del
ivert
hefur
nit
uretomorr
ow”

Hi
m:“f
ort
hewhol
ehouse?”

Me:
“yesIdi
dandt
heyar
egoi
ngt
odecor
atei
tthe
wayIwant
.”

Hi
m:“Pr
est
onwi
llhel
pyou”
Me:
“orhemi
ghtt
akeover”wel
augh

Him:“I
’l
laskyourdadtosendoneoft
hesecur
it
y
guystobri
ngthem aspongetosl
eepon.”

Me:“okbaby,I
’m wor
ri
edaboutzama,
scel
ocan’
t
keephur
tingherl
iket
his”

Hi
m:“wedon’
tknowexact
lywhathappened”

Me:“t
hatshouldn’
tbeexcuse,
topulloutagunand
poi
ntitatsomeoneyousayyoulove?..
.Nothat
’s
j
ustwrong”

Hi
m:“Iknowbaby,
I’
llt
alkt
ohi
m,l
etmegowai
tfor
t
hem ”

Me:
“let
’sgo”wel
eaveourbedr
oom andgot
othe
l
ivingtowaitfort
hem andthenwehearacar
drivi
nginthenmbusogoesandopenst hedoorfor
them, t
heygetinandPrest
ondoesn’
tlookokayand
zamal ooksli
keshehasbeencryi
ngthewholeway.

Me:“zamaareyouokay?”shecomestomeand
burst
sInottear
scryi
ngandIholdherasshecri
es.
“I’
m sor
ryhepoint
edagunatyou,heshouldn’
t
havedonethat”

Her:
“Iwassoscared…..It
houghthewasgoi
ngt
o
ki
llme”Ikeepcomfort
ingher

Prest
on:“sel
fishpr
ickthatscel
o,Imeanhe
di
srespectszamathenhehast hegut st
opointa
gunather?,whydidn’thedoitt
ot hatgi
rl
?”huh?

Me:
“whatgi
rl
?”
Mbuso:
“whathappenedpr
es?”

Pres:“sosbuandbongacamewi tht hisgi

rl
,
Amanda’ sfr
iendandt henshewassi tti
ngnextto
sceloandshewasgi vingahandjob, di
sgust
ing
bit
ch!,Imeanshedoest hi
sduri
ngt hepeoplewhat
i
swr ongwi t
ht hatgi
rl!Andohdon’tgetmest ar
ted
onthatscelo!.”

Me:
“wow,
heal
lowedt
hatt
ohappen?”

Pre:“heenjoyeditcausehishor
nydickwashard
andweal lsawi t
,imaginezamashockandhorr
or
thenhehast hegut stopul
louthi
sgunwhenzama
saidshe’
sleaving!”

Zama:
“Ij
ustwantedt
ogetsomeair,Iwasgoi
ngt
o
comeher
eLuh,Iwasn’
treal
lyl
eavi
nghim”
Me:
“maybeyoushouldleavehim,sohecansee
t
hatt
het hi
ngshedoeshurtyou.Youdon’tdeser
ve
t
obetreatedl
iket
hat
.Wher ei
sthatgi
rlnow?”

Pres:
“oht
hebi
tchl
eft
,shef
uckedbot
hofthem at
thesamet
ime”Il
ookatmbusoandhelooksso
guil
ty

Me:
“doyouknowanyt
hingaboutt
hisgi
rl
?”

Hi
m:“huh…howdoyoumeanbaby?”

Me:“doyouknowher..
.Wai
tdi
dyouguysdr
ive
downwiththatgi
rl
?”

Hi
m:“huh,
yeahsbui
nvi
tedher”

Me:
“andwher
edi
dyoul
eavet
hem?”
Hi
m:“ahbabydoesi
tmat
ter
?”

Me:
“answert
hequest
ionmbuso”

Him:
“whydoesitf
eel
li
keI
’
mint
roubl
efor
somet
hingIdi
dn’
tdo”

Me:“youwi
llbei
fyoudon’
ttel
lmewhatIwantt
o
know”

Hi
m:“okl
ove,
Ilef
tthem att
hehot
el”

Me:
“soallofyouar
eint
hist
hingoff
ucki
ngwomen
i
nthr
eesomes?”

Hi
m:“l
ungi
!”
Me:“whatmbuso?,soitmeansthatwhileyouwer e
dri
vingher
e,sbuandbongawer efucki
ngt hatgir
lin
thecarandyouheardandsawever yt
hing.Isthat
whyyouaskedmei fIwouldmindifIknew
someonewaswat chi
ngishavingsex,i
si tbecause
youwantedoneofthem tocomeandwat ch?!
”he
l
ooksatmeshocked

Hi
m:“canyouguysgi
veusamoment
?”

Me:“no!,yousawwhattheyweredoi
ngandi
t
remindedyouofyourpast,
thi
ngsyouusedt
odo,
doyoumi ssdoi
ngt
hatmbuso?”

Hi
m:“ar
eyouhear
ingwhatyou’
resayi
ngr
ightnow?
”

Me:
“Iaskedyouaquest
ion”
Him:“t
hat
’sast
upi
dquest
iont
hatI
’
m notgoi
ngt
o
answer”

Me:
“whycausei
t’
sthet
rut
h?”

Him:
“baby,
Idon’
tli
kewhatyou’
ret
hinki
ngr
ight
now”

Me:“doyoumi
ssdoi
ngt
hat
?”hel
ooksatme
annoyed

Him:“Idon’
tfuckenmissi
tokay!
,andwhyarewe
evental
kingaboutthi
sandwhyam Ithebadguy
now?”

Me:“hmmm justsoyouknowI’
llf
uckenleaveyoui
f
youevert
hinkofdoi
ngtheshi
tscelodi
d”
Hi
m:“don’
tpi
ssmeof
flove,
ist
hishowyout
alkt
o
menow?”

Me:“maybeyouwoul
dli
ket
ogoandj
oinyour
br
other
sinarms”

Hi
m:“ar
eyouki
cki
ngmeoutofmyhouse?”

Me:
“nobabybutI
’
llbesl
eepi
ngonmybedal
one”

Hi
m: “what?
,whyareyoupuni
shi
ngmef
oryour
br
othersacti
ons?”

Pr
est
on:
“uhl
uh….”

Me:“presyou’
remyonlyfavouri
tebrothernowso
pl
easedon’tsayanyt
hingthatmightremoveyou
fr
om thatl
ist”
Mbuso:“babylet
’sgotobedandsl eep.Pr
es
someonei sgoi
ngtocomeandbr ingyouasponge
tosleepon,I
’mtakingLuhtobed.ZamaI ’
m sor
ry
forwhatscelodi
d”hesaysandt akesmyhandand
wegot oourbedroom andheclosesandl ocksthe
door.Il
ookathim andheispissed.

Me:
“mbuso….
.”

Hi
m:“yesl
ove,nowcansaywhat
evert
hati
syou
wantt
osay,i
t’
sjustt
het
woofusnow.Sogoahead
l
ove”

Me:
“butI
…..”

Hi
m:“whatlove?
,youst
il
lwantt
oaccusemeof
moret
hings?”
Me:
“no,
it’
sjustt
hat
…..”

Hi
m:“haveIeversai
dtoyout
hatImi
ssmyol
dli
fe?
”

Me:
“no”Isayshaki
ngmyhead

Him:“haveIeversai
dtoyout
hatI
’
m nothappy
aboutoursexli
fe?”

Me:
“no”

Him:“haveIevermadeyouf
eell
ikeyouar
enot
enoughforme?”

Me:“no”it’
sbeenawhi
lesi
nceIhaveseenmbuso
t
hispissedandhest
art
ingi
tscar
eme.
Him:“I’
m opentoyouaboutoursexl i
fe,
Iaskyou
thi
ngsandIdon’ tdemandt hem fr
om youorexpect
youtodot hi
ngsyou’ renotcomfort
abledoi
ng.Your
happiness,l
oveandsaf etyismynumberpr i
ori
ty.
Doyouknowt hatlove?”

Me:
“Idoknow”

Hi
m: “t
henwhycouldn’
tyouwai
ttoaskmet
hose
t
hingsinpr
ivat
e?”

Me:
“I….
.”

Hi
m:“youwhatl
ove?,
youwantPrest
onandzama
t
oknowwhathappensinoutbedr
oom?”

Me:
“nobabyIdon’
twantt
hem t
oknow?”
Hi
m:“thenwhyaskmethi
ngswedoi
npr
ivat
ein
f
rontofthem Luh?”

Me:
“I’
m sor
rybaby”

Hi
m:“ar
eyouscaredt
otal
ktomeLuhaboutt
hings
t
hatbot
heryoui
nourbedr
oom?”

Me:“nobabyit
’sjustt
hatwhenpr essaid
somethi
ngaboutthatgirl
.Havingathreesomewith
bongaandsbu,itmademet hinkthatmaybeyou
wantedt
ohaveonewi thmeandsomeoneel seand
whenyouaskedmehowwoul dIfeeli
ftherewas
someonewatchingus,itmademef eelli
keyoumi ss
that”

Him:“yetyoucoul
dn’
twaitt
oaskmewhenweare
alonethenyouwanttoki
ckmeoutofmybedr
oom
forsomeonethatIdi
dn’
tdo”
Me:
“I’
m sor
ry”

Him:
“am Ial
waysgoi
ngtobepuni
shedf
or
somet
hingot
hersdi
d?”

Me:
“noboo,
….I
’
m sor
ry”

Him:
“doyouthinkIwoul
dtal
kaboutourbedr
oom
deal
ingwi
thanyone?”

Me:
“no”

Him:“causewhathappensi nt
hisbedroom orany
otherbedroomswearegoi ngt
ohaveandt he
roomsevenki t
chenI’
m goingt
of uckyouinis
pri
vate.I
tbeginsandstaysher
e,youdon’ttel
lpress,
Sims,orevenzama.SiyezwanaLungile?”(doyou
hearmel ungi
le?”
Me:
“yes…Ihearyou”

Him:“I
’m yourmanluhandI’m goi
ngt
obeyour
husbandandt hi
s,whatyoudidint
her
ebet
ternot
happenagain”

Me:
“itwon’
thappenagai
n”

Him:
“causeifi
tdoes,I
’l
lfuckyousensel
essand
notl
etyoucum andI’
l
lpunishyouinwaysthatyou
won’
tli
ke.”

Me:
“itwon’
thappenagai
n,I
’
m sor
ry”

Him:“I ’
mtryi
ngLuh, I
’
mt ryi
ngthebestIknowhow
andIwi shthatther
ear et
hingsinmypastt hatyou
didn’tknowbutyoudoandIcan’ tchangethat.I
can’tchangemypastbutI ’
m nolongert
hatmanI
wast hen.I’
m yourmanandIwantt obethebest
oneanddoeveryt
hingri
ghtbutsomet
imesIf
eel
l
ikeI
’m notdoi
ngenough.”ohmyGodno!,

Me:“mbusoIl oveyouj ustthewayyouar e,

youand
yourpastcauset hatmakesyout hemanyouar e
nowandIwoul dn’tchangeanyt hi
ngaboutyou.I’m
sorrythatImakeyouf eelli
keyoushoul dbet hi
s
perfectpersonanddomor e.Iknowt her
e’snoman
i
nt hisworldwhowoul ddot het hi
ngsyouhave
donef orme.It’smor et hanenoughwhatyoudof or
meanddowi sht hatonedayI ’
lldoforyouhalfof
thethingsyouhavedonef orme.”

Him:“youdot hatever
yti
meyoul
ookatmel i
keI
’
m
theworld’
sgreatestandt
hel
oveyoushowmebaby.
Mywor ldstar
tsandendswit
hyouLuh,onl
yyou
andourkids”

Me:“youar
emoret
hantheworl
d’sgr
eatest
.Words
ar
enotenoughf
ormetotel
lyouwhatyouarebutI
ll
al
waysshowyoueachandever
yday.”
Hi
m:“comehere”hetakesmycl
othesof
fandhi
s
t
oothenwegetinbedandhehol
dsme.

Me:“ar
eyougoi
ngf
uckme?”hel
aughs,
webot
h
l
augh

Hi
m:“ut
handaugwayiwena”(youl
ovemydi
ck)

Me:
“umnandimoes”(i
t’
sbestdi
ck)wel
augh

Hi
m:“It
hinkt
heseki
dsar
emaki
ngyoul
ovesex”

Me:
“nopei
t’
syouandyouramazi
ngdi
ckandsex
moves”

Hi
m:“l
et’
ssl
eep,
I’
m notf
ucki
ngyouormaki
ngl
ove
t
oyou”
Me:
“yourdi
ckdi
sagr
ees”

Hi
m:“he’
l
lbef
ine.”

Me:
“boor
eal
ly?”

Hi
m:“yesmyl
ove,
nodi
ckf
oryout
oni
ght”

Me:“l
etmegiveyouahandj
obt
hen”webot
h
l
aughloud.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER36.

LUNGI
.

I’
mi ntheki
tchenwhenpr estonwal ksinl
ooki
ngli
ke
ahotmess.Iwonderi ft
heydi dmanagetosleepor
theywerebusytalki
ng.If
eel badt hatIdi
dn’
t
comf or
theryest
erdayandt alkingtombusothat
wayinfr
ontofthem wasver
ywr
ongandIf
eelso
embarr
assed.

Me:
“goodmor
ning,
youl
ookl
ikeyoudi
dn’
tsl
eep”

Hi
m:“mor
ningsunshi
neIdi
dn’
tsl
eepatal
l”

Me:“wasshecr
yingt
hewhol
eni
ght
,damnIf
eel
so
bad”

Hi
m:“ohsunshi
nei
t’
swor
set
hant
hat”

Me:
“whatdoyoumean?
,isshef
eel
ingokay?”

Hi
m:“shel
eft
,shehasl
efthi
m”

Me:
“ohmyGod,
whendi
dshel
eave”
Hi
m:“f
ourhour
sago”

Me:
“ohpr
eswhydi
dn’
tyouwakeusup”

Him:
“sheaskedmenott oandi
twasherdeci
sion
Luh,
Ihadtorespectt
hat”

Me:“Iknow,
scel
obroughtthisonhi
mselfandyou
knowwhatIdon’
tfeel
sorryforhi
m causezama
deser
vebett
ert
hanthat”

Hi
m:“shedoes”

Me:“di
dshesaywher
eshe’
sgoi
ngandhowdi
dshe
l
eave?”

Hi
m:“shedi
dn’
tsaybutIdr
ovehert
oagar
ageand
afri
endofher
spi ckedherupandtheyleftandI
cameback.Sheaskedmet oapol
ogi
zet oyouand
thefami
lyf
orjustleavi
ngli
kethataf
tershewas
welcomedwit
hopenar ms”

Me:
“Iunderst
andandmaybet hisdist
ancebetween
t
hem wi
llgi
vethem cl
ari
tyandifit
’smeanttobe
t
heywil
lfi
ndtheirwaybacktoeachotheragai
n”

Hi
m:“Ihopesot
oo,
I’
m goi
ngt
omi
ssher”

Me:
“met
oo”

Mbuso:“youaregoingtomisswhocauseI’
mri
ght
here”hesaysstandingbehi
ndmeandkissi
ngme
“hell
obeauti
ful
,heybro”manthat
’smyman.

Me:“mor
ningbaby,
yousmel
lsoyummy”Isay
gi
ggli
ng,
wekiss
Pr
es:
“hel
loI
’
m st
il
lher
e”

Mbuso:
“gr
eeni
snotyourcol
our”wel
augh

Pr
es:
“don’
tfor
gett
hatsomeofusar
esi
ngl
eand
l
onel
y”

Mbuso:
“whoar
eyougoi
ngt
omi
ss?”

Me:
“zama,
shel
eft”

Hi
m:“oh,
what
’sf
orbr
eakf
ast
?”

Pr
est
on:
“you’
renotsur
pri
sed?”

Mbuso:
“Isawyouguysl
eavi
ngandsoIknewshe’
s
l
eavi
nghi
m agai
n”

Me:
“he’
snotgonnabehappy”

Mbuso:
“hewi
lldealwi
thi
t”

Pr
est
on:
“whatdoest
hatmean?”

Mbuso:
“exact
lyt
hat”

Me:
“ar
eyougoi
ngt
ohel
phi
mfi
ndheragai
n?”

Him:“nolove,It
riedtohel
plastt
imebutl
ookwhat
happened.Ifhereall
ywantshert
henhewillgoand
l
ookf orher”

Me:“uhm guys,
Iwant
edtosaysomethi
ng”t
hey
bot
hlookatme.“Iwantedt
oapologi
zetomy
fut
urehusbandabouthowItalkedtoyoulastnight
i
nf r
ontofZamaandPr est
on.Idisr
espect
edyouas
themanifthi
shouseandmymanandIshoul dn’t
havedonethat.I
’
m sorr
yMnguni”

Mbuso:
“thankyoul
ove”heki
ssesme.

Pr
est
on:
“okI
’
m goi
ngt
omakebr
eakf
ast”

Me:
“Ineedbot
hofyounottoleave,
theyar
egoi
ng
t
odeli
verf
urni
tur
eanyminut
ef r
om now”

Pr
est
on:
“fi
nal
ly”

Me:“shutuppr
ess”wel
augh,
hest
art
smaki
ng
br
eakfast

Mbuso:
“whenar
ewehavi
ngsomeonet
ohel
pus
ar
oundt
hehousel
ove?”

Pr
est
on:
“andyouneednanni
es”

Me:“Idon’
tknowbaby,
I’
llaskmaht
ofi
ndus
someone”

Him:“pl
easedo”t hegatebel
lri
ngsandsoasmy
phone,mbusopicksitup“hell
o?..
..Yesthi
sisher
husband,whatcompanyar eyoufrom agai
n?.
..
.Ok
gi
veusf i
veminutes”thenhehangsup

Me:
“theyar
ejustaf
urni
tur
ecompanyboo”

Him:“wecan’ttakechancesbaby,Ihavetocheck
thesecuri
tyfootagehowmanyar ethey.Idon’
t
wantstrangemeni nmyhousearoundmypr egnant
wife”heleavesIguesst odoabackgroundcheck
onthem andwel ookateachot
herwithpressand
hesighsandIshakemyhead.Hecomesbackaf ter
tenmi nut
esandopensthegatef
orthem.Igothe
l
ivingsoIcandir
ectthem onwher
etoputthe
furni
ture.

Mbusocomesbackandi sfoll
owedbytwowomen,
theyarewal ki
ngbehindhim andcl
ear
lychecki
ng
him out,
Ismi l
eandshakingmyhead.Idon’tbl
ame
them causeofIwast hem andsawthisfi
nemanI
wouldbeal loverhi
ml i
kewhi t
eonri
ce,hecomesto
met henkissesme.

Me:“hel
lol
adiesI’
mlungiandt
hisi
smyhusband”I
gr
eetthem smil
ing

Lady1:
“hel
lomr
s….”

Me:
“justcal
lmel
ungi”
Mbuso:
“I’
l
lbei
nmyof
fi
cel
ove”

Me:
“butIaskedyout
ohel
pout”

Hi
m:“don’twor
rytheyhaveenoughhandsandpr
es
i
sheretoobutt
ellmeifyouneedmyhelp”

Me:“I
’m sorr
ytobri
ngthisnowbutIwant
edt
oask
yousomet hi
ngconcer
ningpres”

Hi
m:“what
’swr
ong?”

Me:“Iwant
edtoaskofit
sokaywit
hyouthatwe
haveabedroom f
orhi
m,notj
ustaguestbedr
oom
buthi
sroom ”hesmil
es

Hi
m:“wi
llt
hatmakeyouhappy?”
Me:
“kakhul
u”(
ver
y)

Hi
m:“i
t’
sfi
newi
thmel
ove.”Ismi
le

Me:“thankyoubaby,I’
l
lbringyourbr eakfast”he
ki
ssesmet henl
eavesandIl olatt
het wowomen
andgosht heyar
eeyef uckinghim andt heysigh
aft
erheleaveswhatthehel l.“okl
adi es,whatare
yournamesagain?”

Lady1:
“thembi”

Lady:
“zonke”

Me:
“okyouhaveyourl
apt
opwi
thyour
ight
?”

Thembi
:“yesIdo”
Me:“oklet’
sgotot hekitchensoIcanseeIwasyou
howIwantt hewhol edecorated.”t
heyfoll
owmeto
theki
tchenandf i
ndpr esscookingastorm.“so
muchf oodpres?”

Hi
m:“t
heyar
ecomi
ngher
e”

Me:
“theywho?”

Hi
m:“t
hewhol
efami
ly”

Me:
“ohpr
eswher
eam Igoi
ngt
osi
tever
yone?”

Thembi:
“wecanstar
tputti
ngthef
urnit
urei
nthe
di
ningandl
ivi
ngroom ”shesayst
akingouther
l
aptop

Me:
“Ihopeyoudi
dn’
tsayanyt
hingaboutzama”
Hi
m:“hel
lno,
Iai
n’tsayi
ngnot
hing”

Me:“ok,uhm zonkecanyoutel
lthem t
ost
art
cl
eaningthel
ivingsi
ncewe’l
lst
ar tt
her
e”

Her
:“okmam ”

Me: “l
et’
swor kthembi”IshowherhowIwant
everyt
hingtobepl acedanddecor atedinthehouse
usingherandwhi chf urni
turetogotowhi chroom.I
hearthecleaningmachi nemaki ngnoiseandI ’
m
gladthatwhent heycomet odeli
verthefurnit
ure
youhavet heopt i
onofaski ngforhousetobe
cl
eaned.Thi r
tymi nut esdownwer ealmosthal fway
whenIdeci detoqui cklymakembusoasandwi ch
causepr esdit
chedbr eakf
astandi snowmaki ng
brunch.Iquicklymakei tf
orhimt hentakeittohis
offi
ceandhi sheadi sburi
edi npapersandl aptop
andhisphonekeepsr i
ngi
ng.Hel ookssosexy
wearingglassesandIjustwanttojumphisbones
butIgivehim hi
sfoodandl eavehim al
onesohe’
l
l
getbacktowor kandmet oobutf i
rstIgotomy
bedroom andlockitcauseIdon’twantanyone
snoopinginthere.

Igobackt
ot hekit
chenandcont
inuewher
eIl ef
toff
wit
hthembiandzonkeshowsthem wher
etoputi t
.
Myhouseisfinal
lybecomi
ngahomeandIl oveit.

Me:“Ibel
ievewearedone,
IhaveshowedyouhowI
wantever
yt hi
ngpl
acedint
hehousesodoyourbest
t
hembi”

Her
:“oksi
slungi”shel
eavesandj
oinszonke.

Me:“pr
esdidyoumeanmydad,
mbuso’
sdad,
mah,
bi
ngo,scel
oandsbu?”
Hi
m:“yessunshi
ne”

Me: “ohGod, I
’l
lbebackI’m goingtochangebefor
e
theygethere”Igot omybedr oom,deci
det ot
akea
quickshowert henleaveandgot omycl osetl
ook
foral i
ghtpresent
abledressandf i
nditthenmbuso
walksi nandhesmi les

Hi
m:“hmm per
fectt
imi
ng”

Me:
“forwhatboo”

Hi
m:“aqui
cki
elove”

Me:
“thehousei
sful
lofst
ranger
sboo”

Hi
m:“i
t’
sourhouseandIdon’
tcar
e”Igi
ggl
e
Me:
“noways”

Hi
m:“ar
eyougoi
ngt
oleavemel
ooki
ngl
iket
his”

Me:
“youhangi
ngpr
ett
ywel
lbaby”

Him:“youwantmetowalkaroundthehouse
hangingl
iket
hisandshowyourproper
ty?”we
l
augh

Me:
“youbet
ternot”

Him:“thenlet’
shaveaqui ckiel
ove,Ipr
omisewil
lbe
quick…please”Ismileshakingmyhead.Iturnand
faceawayf rom hi
m butlookathimt hr
oughthe
mirrorthentakeoffmyunder wear,
hesmi l
es,
comesandst andsbehindme.
Me:“I
’
mr eady”Isayshaki
ngmyassal
it
tl
eandwe
bot
hlaughandhespanks

Hi
m:“youknowhowt
odr
ivemecr
azyandIl
ovei
t”

Me:
“feedmemydi
ck”

Him: “yesmam, spreadyourlegs,ar

chal i
tt
le…yes
thenhol dontightbaby”hesayspul l
ingdownhi s
sweat pant
s,putshi sfingeri
nmeandf i
ndsme
alr
eadywetpl ayswi t
hmycl itthent
hrust
sinand
webot hmoan.“l ookatusl ove”Idolookandsmi le.
Thirstminuteslaterwel eavethebedroom andIfeel
great.Whichknewsexcoul dmakesomeonef eel
l
iket heyareont opoft hewor l
d,wepasstheladies
againandt hembif lushesredwhenshel ooksatus.

Me:
“di
dyouseeherget
ti
ngf
lust
ered?”
Hi
m:“no”

Me:
“booyoudi
dn’
tevenl
ookather”

Hi
m:“exact
ly”
Ilaugh

Pres:
“Iwasaboutt
ogoandlookforyoubutt
heI
rememberedi
foneofyoui
smi ssi
ngthen
somethi
ngisgoi
ngdownorupand…”

Mbuso:
“pr
esyouhaveabi
gmout
h”

Pres:
“:“Iwasjustsayi
ng,
I’
m hungr
ylet
’seatcause
theothersar
enotyethere”

Me:“I
’m hungr
ytoo,
pleasedishup”wehearl oud
malevoi
cesandohgodher eitgoes.“boocanyou
t
ellt
hem tocomethroughthegarageplease”
Hi
m:“okl
ove”

Pr
est
on:
“ar
eyour
eadyf
orwhenscel
oloseshi
s
mi
nd?”

Me:“ohpr
es”theygeti
nlaughi
ngandt
alki
ngt
hen
i
tgetsqui
et.

Boo:
“babyIwantyout
omeetmyotherbr
other
si
busi
soMbatha,sbut
hisi
smy…”

Si
cel
o:“ayshe’smybeaut
if
ulsi
sterl
ungi
leNgcobo
”wealllaugh

Bonga:
“he’
sbusylooki
ngforwordstodescr
ibe
whatshei
stohim butweallknow”
Si
cel
o:“hi
soneandonl
y”

Bongs:
“reasonforbreat
hing”weal
llaughbutwhy
ar
etheyembar r
assingmymanl i
ket
hi s

Boo:
“youar
eal
lsoj
eal
ous,
brot
hert
hisi
sthe
womanwhoownsmysoul”

Sibusiso:“hell
ofutureMrsGumede, i
t’
snicet
o
fi
nallymeetyouaf t
erIhavehear
dsomany
beautifulthi
ngsaboutyou.Youareindeedoneof
themostbeaut i
fulwomanIhaveeverseen”am I
blushingcauseIt hinkIam.Si
busisoisone
handsomemanbutnotashandsomeasmyman.

Me:
“ni
cet
omeetyout
oosi
busi
so”

Si
busiso:“mybrot
herr
eal
lygotbl
essedwi
thyou,
I
’m sojealous”
Me:“t
hankyou”hegi
vesmeali
ghthugthenl
ooks
atmbusoandki
ssesmycheekt
henruns

Boo:“I
’l
lfuckenkil
lyousbu”t heychaseeachother
aroundthekitchenl
ikeschoolboysandIlikeseei
ng
thi
scarefreesideofmbuso.

Me:“Pr
est
oncookedforus,anyonehungr
y?”They
st
opchasi
ngeachotherandsitdown

Bongs:“wearesohappyt
hatthehouseisfi
nall
y
gett
ingfur
nishedheywewer
et i
redofsi
tt
inginthe
ki
tchen”

Me:“noonegoesinmyli
vinganddini
ngr
oom
bonga,nott
odayt
hati
s”theyalll
augh

Si
cel
o:“wher
eiszama?
,isshehel
pingout
?”
Me:
“noshe’
snot”

Pr
est
on:
“she’
s…”

Si
cel
o:“she’
sst
il
lmadatme?”

Me:
“Iwoul
dtoo”Isayst
uff
ingmymout
hwi
thf
ood.

Mbuso:
“shel
eft”

Si
cel
o:“wher
edi
dshegot
oo?”hesaysl
ooki
ngat
Pr
est
onandme

Mbuso:“shehasl
eftyoubr
otherandIt
hinki
t’
sfor
goodthi
stime”
Si
celo:
“youmeantotel
lmet
hatzamal
eftandyou
al
lowedhert
oleave?”

Me:“al
lowedhert
oleave?
,doyouhearyour
sel
f
scel
o?”

Mbuso:
“Idi
dn’
tknowshehadt
oaskper
missi
on
f
rom metol
eave”

Pr
eston:
“she’
sagrownasswomanscelowho
makesherowndecisi
onsandi
sal
lowedtodowhat
makesherhappy”

Si
busi
so:
“shehasl
eftyoubef
ore?”

Pr
est
on:
“ohshehasandshe’
sdonei
tagai
n”

Si
cel
o:“br
otheryouknowhowmuchshemeanst
o
meandyouletherl
eavewi
thoutt
ell
ingmembuso
damnyou!”

Mbuso:
“youneedt
ocalm yourassdownbrot
her”
mbusosayssocal
mlywhil
emybr otheri
smadas
hel
l.

Me:“youcan’
tbemadatusf orwhatyoudid,zama
l
eftuseofyou”mydad, mah,mbuso’sdad,uncle
Vi
ctorwalki
nrightatmomentandwatchmy
br
other

Si
cel
o:“shutt
hehel
lupl
uh!”

Mbuso:
“don’
ttal
ktoherl
iket
hatscel
o!”

Dad:“scel
o!,
howdar
eyoudi
srespectmbusoathi
s
house!”
Scel
o:“kodwababa?”(butdad)

Dad: “i
sthishowwehaver aisedyousceloto
disrespectanotherman’
shome? ,yoursi
ster
’s
home? .Thever ysamehomeyouoft hemanyou
callyourbrother?”Mybrot
herlooksdown

Mah:
“whathasgot
teni
ntoyouscel
o?”

Si
celo:
“I’
m sor
ry,
I’
m sor
ryever
yone”hesays
cr
yingmyGodwhati sgoi
ngonwithmybrother
?!.

Dad:“Gumede,Mnguni
,boPhakat
hwayoplease
for
givemyson.Ihavet
ot akehi
m somewhere.
BabyI’m sor
ry”

Me:
“wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?”
Dad:
“I’
mtaki
nghimtothef
arm,
ther
e’smor
egoi
ng
onwit
hyourbrot
her”

Me:
“okdad”

Uncl
eVi
ctor
:“I
’
llgowi
thyou”

Mnguni
:“I
’
m comi
ngt
oo”

Dad:
“let
’sgoscel
o”

Mbuso:
“canwecomet
oo?”

Dad:
“noboysyoust
ayher
e.We’
l
lseeyou
t
omorrow”

Mnguni:
“Iwaslooki
ngforwardt
oeati
ngyourf
ood
MangcobocauseImissitbutpl
easecookf
orme
t
omor
row”Ismi
le

Me:
“Iwi
llbaba”(Iwi
lldad)

Uncl
eVi
ctor
:“I
’
llseeyoutomorr
owbaby”hesayst
o
meandtheyal
lleave.Weremai
nqui
et.

Mah:
“I’
m hungr
y”

Me:
“ar
eyouokaymnguni
?”

Hi
m:“ar
eyouokay”

Me:
“I’
m wor
ri
edaboutmybr
other”

Prest
on:
“Iknewhewasgoi
ngt
olosei
tbutnotl
i
ke
thi
s”
Bonga:
“manI
’
vebeent
her
e,ahear
tbr
eakf
ucken
hur
ts”

Si
busi
so:
“itwi
llmakeyougof
uckencr
azy”

Mbuso:
“Idi
dn’tbat
hthewhol
eweekst
alki
ngher”i
shakemyhead.

Mah:“I’
veseent
hist
hisbef
ore”shesaysshaki
ng
herheadandwealll
ookateachot
hert
henThembi
walksin

Her:
“uhm….uhm…sor r
yt odist
urbyoubutcanI
haveawordwi t
hyousi slungi?”shesayslooki
ng
atmethenlooksatbongaandsbuandshebl ushes.
Igetupandwegot othel i
vingroom andmyGodi t
i
sbeauti
fulIneedtorenovatemybedr oom when
mbusoisawaysoi tcanbeasur pr
ise.
Me:
“issomet
hingwr
ong?”

Her:
“uhm notexact
ly,
Iwantedtoasktheother
bedroom t
hati
slockedyouneversai
danything
aboutit”

Me:“that
’smybedr oom anddon’tworryaboutitI
’
m
goi
ngt orenovat
ei tmysel f”Isayt
ohersmi l
ingand
shenodst henstandsther eandIfeell
ikeshewants
tosaysomet hi
ng.“wast hatyouwantedtoask
about”zonkecomest ous

Zonke:
“twomor
ebedr
oomst
henwer
ear
edone”

Me:“youguyswor kfast
,Ili
ket
hatandmaybeI
mightjusthir
eyoutofurni
shmyhouseinDurban
whenit’sfi
nall
ydonebeingbui
lt”t
heysmi
le
Thembi
:“wewoul
dlovet
o”

Zonke:
“souhm…we,
aret
heot
her
ssi
ngl
e?”

Me:
“who?”

Thembi
:“yourbr
other
sorbr
other
sin-
law”Igi
ggl
e

Me:
“yest
heyar
esi
ngl
e”

Zonke:
“wow,
doyout
hinkt
heymi
ghtl
ikeus?”what
?

Me:
“uhIdon’
tknow,
maybe”

Thembi
:“howdi
dyoumeetyourhusband?”

Me:
“uht
hat
’saper
sonalquest
ionandyou’
reher
e
towor
kandnotaskper
sonalquest
ionsaboutme?”
Imeantheyar
eher
etoworknottocomparenotes

Mbuso:
“shestol
emil
li
onsofr
andsfr
om methat
’s
howwemet .Ar
eyoudone?”t
hembil
ooksat
mbusoshocked

Zonke:
“uhmm yessi
r”t
heyl
eaveust
her
e.

Me:
“whydi
dyout
ellt
hem t
hat
?”

Hi
m:“causet
heyar
enosy,
come”
CHAPTER37.

MBUSO.

Idon’tknowi
fscel
oissuffer
ingf
rom ahear
tbr
eak
orthere’
ssomet
hingser
iouslywr
ongwithhi
m
causeal osingthewomanyoul ovecanmakea
mangocr azyalmostasifhe’slosi
nghismind.I
’m
gladthefinisheddecorat
ingthehouseandl ef
t.I
l
ookatl uhandIknowshe’ sworriedabouther
brotherandwear eal
lworri
ed.

Me:“l
ovedoyouwanttogoshowsomeone
somethi
ng?”shel
ooksatmeconfused,
Imovemy
eyesfr
om hert
oPrest
onshethengetsi
tand
smil
es.

Her
:“ohpres,wehaveasurpr
isef
oryou”shesays
sosweetalmostl
ikesi
ngi
ng

Hi
m:“r
eal
ly?”

Her
:“yes,
fol
lowus”

Me:
“yougowi
thhi
m baby,
ther
e’ssomet
hingIwant
t
otal
ktot
heguysabout”

Her:
“okboo, mah,
preslet
’sgo”sheexci
tedIsmil
e
shaki
ngmyheadwat chingherl
eaveandherhips
swaying,
Ifuckenl
ovethem.

Sbusi
so:
“sot
hat
’swhati
tfeel
sli
ke?”

Me:
“whati
s?”

Hi
m:“bei
ngi
nlove?”Ichuckl
e

Me:
“thatandmor
ebr
other”

Bonga:“I
’
mr eadytoset
tl
edowntoo,
I’
mti
redof
fucki
ngdiff
erentwomanever
yti
me”

Sbusi
so:
“yeahi
t’
stoomuchandi
tcanget
exhaust
ing”

Me:“Iwishyoual lt
heluckbr
others”wel
augh.“I
gotamessagef rom anunknownnumbertaf
terIl
eft
youatthehotelandwentsoseel uh”

Sbusi
so:
“whatdi
ditsay?”

Me:“t
hankyouforsavi
ngmyni
ece’
sli
fe,
ifyou
needanyt
hingI
’
llbehappyt
ohel
p”

Bongs:
“mant
hisi
sbad,
soyout
hinkt
heyknowi
t
wasuswhowasther
e?”

Sbusi
so:“i
t’
sobvi
ouscausetheythankedmbuso.
Wecan’tbeworri
edaboutpeopl
ewedon’ tknowbut
whoknowt hi
ngsaboutus”
Me:“Idon’
tthi
nktheymeananyhar m causehe
thanksusandoffer
edhishel
pinretur
nshouldwe
everneedanyt
hing,t
heyarei
ndebtedtous”

Bongs:
“youknowwhot
heyar
e?”

Me:“It
rackedt
hatnumberi
t’
sthef
ami
lyoft
hat
gi
rl
…”

Bongs:
“ohf
uckno!
,thatgi
rlwhohasacr
ushon
you?”

Me:
“notsol
oudmanoryouwantl
uht
ohearus?”

Hi
m:“sor
rybuti
sither
?”

Me:“youcutmeofbef
oreIcoul
devenexpl
ainand
no,
notthatcr
azygi
rl
.It
’st
hefamil
yoft
heonef r
om
Er
mel
o”

Sbusi
so:“what
?,buthowdi
dtheyknowi
twas
exact
lyyou”

Me:“Ithi
nksheexplai
nhowIlookli
keandmaybe
theygotapi
ctureofmefrom t
heInt
ernet
.They
mighthavegott
enmynumber sfr
om someonewho
knowsme”

Bongs:“t
henwedon’
thavet
owor
ry”wehear
Prest
onscreami
ng

Me:
“Pr
est
oni
ssuchagi
rl”Isayl
aughi
ng

Bonga:
“what
’shappeni
ng”

Me:
“luhaskedmei
fit
’sokayi
fPr
est
onhashi
sown
r
oom her
eandIagr
eed”

Bongs:
“ncoooohyouguysar
emyr
olemodel
s”we
l
augh

Me:
“weai
mtopl
easebr
other”

Bongs:
“bi
ghead”

Me:
“shutupf
ool”wel
augh

Sbusiso:
“okt
elluswhatdi
dyouf
indoutabout
them ”

Me:
“theyownt
wocoalmi
nesi
nMpumal
angaand
amineint
heNort
hWest”

Bongs:
“real
ly”hesaysexci
ted
Sbusi
so:
“itl
ooksl
ikewef
inal
lyget
ti
ngwhatwe’
ve
al
wayswanted”

Me:“t
heymineUrani
um,Li
mestone,Gol
dand
Copperbutt
heymostl
ydealwi
thUrani
um andGol
d
”

Bongs:
“fuckyes!”

Sbusi
so:
“whor
unsi
t?”

Me:
“thebr
other
sandt
hei
runcl
e”

Bongs:
“youhavet
osetameet
ingwi
tht
hem ”

Me:“aftert
heki
dsar
eborn.Idon’
twantany
sur
prisespoppi
ngupnowandr ui
ningmyluh'
sli
fe.
Youguysshoul
ddealwi
thi
t”

Bongs:“manwe’ rest
il
lbuil
dinganent
ir
eempire
fr
om scratch,weneedallofustocometoget
her
wit
ht heparentsandtal
kabouthowwear egoi
ngto
approachthoseguys.”

Me:“I
’m payi
ngyouguysal
otofmoneysoyou
bet
terdeli
ver”

Bongs:
“andwepayotherpeopl
etoosodon’
twor
ry
br
otherwe’
vegotyoucover
ed”

Sbusi
so:
“doyout
hinkscel
oisgoi
ngt
obef
ine”

Me:“yeahIt
hinkso,youhear
dhi
sauntsayi
nghe
hasseenthi
sbefore”
Bongs:
“yeahshesai
dthat
,she’
saf
ineaunt
ytoo”

Me:
“manyou’
redi
sgust
ing,
she’
sol
dert
hanyou”

Bonga:
“butnoti
nbed”

Sbusi
so:
“ohhe’ssogoingtoki
llyouwhenhehear
s
yousai
dthatabouthi
sgir
l”wel augh

Me:
“thenweneedt
odealwi
thPaulandMi
ke”

Bonga:“ohbrot
herdidn’
tIt
ellyou?
,theyarecoming
here.It
oldt
hem thatwearethrowi
ngyouasmal l
goodbyepart
ysinceyourgetti
ngmar r
iedsoon.”

Sbusi
so:“Ican’
tbel
ievethosefool
sdi dthat
.We
needthoseidi
otst
oowhot ol
dthatfuckerabout
whatyoudidtohisbrother”
Me:
“whoevertol
dhim whatIdi
dknowsnowt
hathe
i
sdeadandtheyarescar
ed.”

Sbusiso:
“wewi l
lseethem dur
ingtheweddi
ngand
wewi l
lfi
ndoutwhobecameabi tchandsni
tched”
thewomengeti nthekit
chenandPr est
onhugsme
from t
hesideanditst
artl
esmecauseIwasnot
expecti
ngit.

Me:
“andt
hen?”

Hi
m:“thankyou,t
hankyou,t
hankyoubi
gbrotherI
l
ovemybedr oom!,
youguysaret
hebestoft
hebest
”Ihughim back

Me:
“you’
rewel
comepr
es”

Aunt
y:“wear
ehappyf
oryoupr
es”
Bonga:“andj
eal
oust
oo”pr
esst
ickshi
stongueout
atbonga.

Aunty:
“youareal
lalwayswelcomeher
ei nmy
housebutpl
ease,nocrazywomen”wel augh

Prest
on:
“letmecookyouguysdi
nnert
osayt
hank
you.”

Aunt
y:“
uhm guysIhavesomet
hingt
osay”

Me:
“wedon’
thavet
oher
efort
hatr
ight
?”

Aunt
y:“youdombuso”

Luh:
“issomet
hingwr
ong?”
Aunt
y:“no,
wel
lIdon’
tknowhowyouar
egoi
ngt
o
t
akeit”

Luh:
“ist
hisaboutt
heper
sonyou’
redat
ing?”

Aunty:
“yes,
wellIknowyouhavebeencur
ious
aboutwhoheisand….”

Luh:
“ar
eyouandbabavi
ctordat
ingmah?”huh?

Aunty:
“what?Ohhel
lno!
,I’
m noti
nar el
ati
onshi
p
wit
hvictorl
uh,
whatgaveyouthati
dea?”shesays
l
aughing

Luh:
“Idon’
tknowcauseyou’
vebeensecr
eti
ve
abouti
t”

Aunt
y:“Iwaskeepi
ngi
tbet
weenuscauseIwasn’
t
r
eadyt
oshar
ewi
thal
lofyou”

Luh:
“buteveryoneelseknowsaboutitexceptme
andthatmakesmef eelli
keyoudon’ttr
ustmeor
youdon’twanttosharecert
aint
hingswithme”

Aunty:
“Idi
dn’tknowyoufeelt
hiswayluh,
I’
m sorr
y
Imadeyoufeelthatwaybaby.Ithi
nkIwasscared
athowyou’l
llookatme?”

Luh:“lovi
ngsomeonei sagr eatgif
tandwe
shouldn’
tbeafraidt
ot ellpeoplewhowel ove.No
matterwhoyoul oveI’
llstil
lloveyouandlookatyou
thesame”t hat’
sabeaut ifulthi
ngshehasj ustsai
d.
Prestonisbusycookinganddoesn’ twantanyhelp,
welli
t’snotl
ikewewer egoi ngtohel phi
m

Aunt
y:“t
hankyoubaby,
sot
heper
sonI
’
m seei
ng
i
s…”
Frank:“i
t’
smemadam, I’
mthesecr
etboyfr
iendshe
hasbeenkeepingfr
om you”Il
ookatluhandher
mout hopensandshef
ormsanOwi thherli
ps

Luh:“mah,youandFrank?,wowIneverexpect
edit
andpleaseFrankdon’
tevercal
lmemadam Ihat e
thatword”shesayslaughi
ngandshakingherhead

Mah:
“soyoudon’
tmi
ndt
hatI
’
m seei
nghi
m”

Luh:
“what?Hel
lno!
.Ihadal
wayst
houghtt
hat
maybeFranki
sgay”

Us:
“what”wel
augh

Luh:“yescauseI’
veneverhear
dhi
mt alkabouthi
s
gi
rlf
riendsoIthought
…”shesaysblushing
Fr
ank:
“wellI
’m gl
adt
otel
lyout
hatI
’
m notgayandI
l
oveyourauntver
ymuch”

Luh:“I’
m happyf
oryouguys,
youl
ookgr
eat
together
.”

Aunt
y:“t
hankyoubaby”

Luh:
“doesthatmeanIhavetocal
lyouuncl
enowor
babaFrank?”what
?,wealll
aughl
ikecr
azy

Fr
ank:
“hel
lno!
,Fr
ankwi
llj
ustbef
ine”

Her
:“okbabaFr
ank”

Me:“babyFranki
sthesameageasme,
sot
hat
won’twork?”
“sayswho?”l
uhandPr
est
onsayatt
hesamet
ime

Mah:
“Iki
ndal
ikei
t…babaFr
ank”

Fr
ank:“ohyoucancal
lmet
hatbaby”aunt
y
bl
ushes

Luh:
“toomuchi
nfor
mat
ion”

Aunt
y:“sayst
hepeopl
ethatf
uckl
iker
abbi
ts”

Luh:
“huhmami !”shebl
ushesandever
yti
meshe
doesthatIj
ustwanttof
uckherhar
der

Me:
“leaveusal
one.”

Voice:“HoneyI’
m home!”whatt
hehel
l!
,l
uhand
Prestonscream t
heirl
ungsof
f
Luh:
“ohmyGodImi
ssedyou!”shesayscr
ying

Si
ms:
“Imissedyout
oosi
s”t
heyhugt
ightand
Pr
est
onj
oinsthem.

Mah:
“tookyoul
ongenought
ogether
e”

Si
ms:
“hel
lo,
I’
m si
mphi
wel
uh’
ssi
sterandyouar
e?
”

Sbusi
so:
“I’
m sbusi
sombuso’
sbr
other”

Sims:
“hmm notbad”sbusi
sogi
vesmewhatt
he
fuckl
ookandIshakemyhead

Luh:
“youcamewi
thuncl
evi
ctor?”
Sims:“yesIdidandbeforeyougetmadIwentto
meetwi t
hyourdesignerandI’m gl
adt
hatever
yone
i
sher ewellbesi
dessceloandyourdadswhereare
theycauseIexpectedeveryonetobeher
e?”

Luh:
“he’
snotokaysot
hedadst
ookhi
m
somewhere”

Si
ms:
“what
’swr
ongwi
thhi
m?”

Bonga:“whyareyouconcer
nedabouthi
m?”Il
ook
atbongasurpr
ised

Sims:“t
hishouseisamazi
ngguys,
Ilovei
t.Mbuso
thankyoufori
nvit
ingme”Inod

Luh:
“Youdi
dthatbaby?”
Me:
“Iknewyoumi
ssedher”

Luh:
“yout
hebest
,thankyoubaby”shecomesand
ki
ssesme

Bonga:
“Iaskedyouquest
ionsi
mphi
we!”l
uhl
ooks
atmethenbongsandsims

Sims:“youwanttoshowmearoundthehouse?”
sheignoreshi
m agai
nandsbusi
solaughs

Luh:
“uhyeah”

Pr
est
on:
“okgi
rl
slet
’sgot
omyr
oom ”

Si
ms:
“wai
tyouhavear
oom i
nthi
shouse?”

Pr
es:
“ohyesdar
li
ngyouar
egoi
ngt
olovei
t”
Si
ms:
“but
….”

Luh:
“youhavesomethi
ngbiggerthanabedroom,
wherear
etheki
ds?”whatdoesshemean? ,ohhel
l
no,t
hoseki
dsalwayswanttosleepwit
hluh

Me:“Si
msIloveyourki
dsbutI
’m notshar
ingmy
bedwit
hthem agai
n”luhl
aughs

Her
:“don’
tbemeanbaby”

Si
ms:
“theywentt
othei
rdads”

Bonga:
“whydi
dyoul
eavet
hem behi
nd?”

Sims:“t
heyaremykidsandnotyour
s”shesays
thatt
ohim andIact
ual
lyseemybrotherf
li
nch.Di
d
t
heset
wo?
,ar
ethey?
,

Pr
est
on:
“okwhatt
hehel
lisgoi
ngon?”

Luh:
“Iwoul
dli
ket
oknowt
hatt
oo”

Aunt
y:“ar
eyouguyshavi
ngasi
tuat
ionshi
p?”

Si
ms:
“ther
e’snot
hinggoi
ngon”

Bonga:“soI’
m nothi
ngt oyounow?” Iam so
confusedri
ghtnowcauseIneversawt hi
scoming.
Simsandmybr ot
her?.Sbusi
solooksatme
shockedandIshakemyheadwant ingtolaugh.

Sims:
“wej
ustf
uckedandt
hat
’sal
lwhati
twas,
get
overi
t”
Luh:
“maybeyouguyswoul
dli
ket
otal
kinpr
ivat
e?”

Bonga:
“wedidn’tj
ustfuckandyouknowit.Your
an
awayli
keascaredli
tt
legirlwhenyour
eal
isedyou
coul
dn’
thandl
eamanl ikeme”

Sims:
“youareri
ghtaboutmenotbei
ngableto
handl
eamanl i
keyou,ali
arandacheat
er.Idon’
t
wantthatki
ndofman”

Bonga:“howdidIcheatonyouwhenwearenotina
rel
ati
onship?”Si
msf l
inchest
oot
hentur
nsaround

Luh:
“comewi thme”shetakesherhandandt
hey
l
eavethenPrestonandauntf
oll
owthem t
oogi
ving
mybrothernastyl
ooks.

Me:
“pr
esyoucan’
tleaveyourpot
s?”
Aunty:
“babaFr
ankwi
llcook”shesaysandt
his
i
diotsmil
es

Fr
ank:
“youar
eint
roubl
e”hesayst
obonga

Bonga:
“Ineedadr
ink,
afuckenst
rongdr
ink!”

Me:
“whatt
hef
ucki
sgoi
ngonwi
thyout
wo?”

Bonga:
“youhear
dher
,wej
ustf
uckednot
hingmor
e,
not
hingless”

Sbusi
so:
“butt
her
eismor
e”

Bonga:
“Idon’
tknow…maybe”

Me:
“whydi
dn’
tyousayanyt
hing?”
Him:
“causeweagreedt
hati
twillst
aybet
weenus
andseei
nghernowmademef eelacer
tai
nway”

Me:
“whendi
ditst
art
?”

Hi
m: “wefuckedaf
terthami
'
sf uner
al,
shewas
st
ressedandworri
edaboutluhandtheylosta
br
othersowecomf ort
edeachother”sbusisoandI
l
augh

Sbusi
so:
“youmeanyouwer
etheonedoi
ngt
he
comfor
ti
ng”

Bonga:“Iwasandi twasgr eat.Icouldn’

tgetherout
ofmymi ndaf t
erthatsoIwentbackt oStandert
on
andwef uckedagainthenaf terthatshetol
dmet o
nevercomebackandIr espectedt hatandkeptmy
di
stanceuntilnow”
Me:
“butshecal
ledyouacheat
er?”hesi
ghsdeepl
y

Bonga:
“sheoncecal
ledmeandsomegir
l
answer
edmyphoneandwhileIwasi
ntheshower”

Fr
ank:
“youar
ereal
lyf
ucked”

Sbusiso:
“shutupFrank,
can’tyouseethemani
s
st
ressed”hesayslaughing,
thisfool
.

Me:
“doyoul
ikeher
,Imeanr
eal
lyl
ikeher
?”

Hi
m:“Ithi
nkIdo,seei
ngheragai
njustmademe
f
eelt
hingsforher”

Me:“whydowehurtt
hewomenwelove?
,Ihurtl
uh
whenImether
,Scel
ohur
tZamaandnowi t
’syou
Bongahur
ti
ngSi
ms.Whydowedot
heset
hings?”

Fr
ank:
“thi
sfoodsmel
lsamazi
ng”

Me:
“shutupf
ool”Isaychuckl
ing

Bonga:
“Idon’
tli
keyour
ightnowFr
ank”

Frank:
“youbonga,sbusi
soandscelo,
thi
sthi
ngof
pl
ayingaroundhastostop.You’
vehadyourf
un
nowi t
’st
imetofi
nall
ygrowup.”

Me:
“Ihopet
heyhear
dyoubr
other”

Them:
“wedi
d”

Bonga:
“Ihavet
ogoandt
alkt
oher”
Me:“youdon’
twantt
odot
hat
,ri
ghtnowt
heyal
l
hat
eyou”

Bonga:
“fuckme,
whyi
sthi
slovet
hingso
compli
cated”

Me:
“you’
l
lpul
lthr
oughbr
otherj
ustl
ikeIdi
d.”
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER37.

SI
MPHI
WE.

Luh,t
akesmet oherguestbedr oom andImustsay
shehasout doneherselfcauset hi
shousel ooks
absol
utelyamazing.It’
smyf irstbeinghereandI
al
readyloveit.Havi
ngheri nmyl i
fehasalways
beenablessing,causesheandourbr ot
herthami,
wewer everycloseandt hewhol efami l
yknewt hat
i
twasal waysusagai nsteveryone.Tomeshe’ smy
sist
er,
bloodornotcauseshehasal
waysbeen
ther
eformeevenwhenIhi dmypregnanci
esf
rom
mypar ent
s.

I’
m apr oudmommyoft woamazi ngboysandIl ove
them todeat h,myf i
rstbor nMel usiistenyear sand
myl astbor nKat l
egoi s8year syoungandeven
thought heyhavedi ff
erentdadsyouwoul dnever
saycausemyki dsl oveandar epr otecti
veofeach
other.Iwor kasar eceptionistatadoct orsurgery,
thelit
tleIear nIusei ttotakecar eofmyki dscause
thei
rdadssomet imescanbedeadbeatandeven
thought heydon’ tsuppor tthem Ial waysmakesur e
thatwhenevert heycome, theyar eabl etoseet heir
kidscauseIdon’ twantt obet hekindofmot hert hat
usest heirkidagainstt heirfatherjustbecauseI
don’tgetal ongwi t
ht heirdad.

I
’
m SimphiweMazibukoandI’
mthi
rt
yyear
sold,
I
l
ivei
ntownrenti
ngatownhousendI’
m si
ngl
ewell
I
t
hinkIam.Aft
erthami’
sdeat
hmeandbonga
fuckedandi twasgood,nopeI ’
mlyingitwasfucken
amazi ng.Ofal lthemenI’
vebeenwi thbongaisthe
fi
rstmant oact ual
lymakelovetomeandf uckmy
brainsof fandhecanhandl emyovert hetopself
.I
real
lylikehim butIknowt hathe’
saf uckboyandI
don’tthinkhe’st heki
ndofmant hatcancommi tto
awoman.

IknowIt oldhimt hatwej ustfuckedbutmat t

erof
factisIwantmor ewithhim butI’m scar
edt hathe
willbreakmyhear t
.Ihaven’tbeeninaser ious
rel
ationshi psinceIhadkat legocausewhenIt hink
aboutl ovingsomeoneel seagainandgi vingthem
myhear ttheycoul dstomponi t
.Datingasawoman
whohasdi ffer
entbabydaddi essocietytendst o
j
udgeyouandt hinkthatmaybeyouar e
promi scuousandl oosegirl
.IwasyoungandI
mademi stakesbutIlearnedandgr ewf rom them
andnowI ’
m agr ownwomanwhonowknowsbet t
er.

Iwoul
dneverchangemyl
if
eort
radei
tforanyt
hing
becausemyki dsar
emybi ggestblessings.I’
mt he
womanIam t odaybecauseofmyki dsandwhat
theyhavetaughtmeasayoungmot her.Iwoulddo
anythingandgi vet
hem thel
if
et heydeser veand
makesur etheynevergrowupt hewayIdi d.Iwil
l
givethem t
heki ndofl
ifeIwantthem tol i
ve.

WhenIphonedBongat hatdayandagirlanswered
hisphonei thur
tmever ymuchcauset omei t
seemedasi fwhatIsharedwithwasjustanother
fuckandIknowweagr eedt hati
twasn’tgoi
ngt o
happenagai nbutthenheshowedupatmypl ace,
wef uckedthenweagr eedthatitwasgoingtobe
thelastti
meandneveragai n.

Luh:
“si
swhati
sgoi
ngon?”Iwi
pemyt
ear
sof
f

Me:
“itwasj
ustsupposet
obeahookupbutt
hen…”

Luh:
“ncooh,
I’
m sohappyr
ightnow”
Pr
es:
“she’
scr
yingandyou’
rehappy?”

Luh:
“yescausewear
esi
ster
sandwear
egoi
ngt
o
besi
steri
n-l
aws”

Me:
“luhIdoubti
tisgoi
ngt
ogett
hatf
ar”

Luh:
“It
hinksocauseIsawhowhel
ookedatyou
whenhesawyou”

Mah:“thesegumedemencanbest upidbutwhen
theyl
ovet heylovehard.Lookathowmbusoi s
obsessedwi t
hl uhandhowmuchhel ovesher
,I
thi
nksiyabongal ovesyou”

Me:
“Idon’
tknow”
Luh:“Ithi
nkhedoestoocausewhywoul
dheget
upsetthatyoul
eftt
hekidsbehi
nd?”

Me:“youknowhecall
stheboysandt
alkst
othem
al
mosteverydayandt
heylovehi
m”

Luh:
“ncooht
hat
’ssobeaut
if
ul”

Pres:
“hemustloveyoucausewhywoul dhemake
aneffor
ttot
alktotheki
dsifhe’snotser
iousabout
youandonlywantstohi
tandr un”

Me:
“Idon’
twanthimtomakemykidslovehi
m and
t
henthenextt
hingt
henhedi
sappear
s”

Luh:
“he’
sal
readymett
hem?”sheasksmesmi
li
ng
andshe’
ssoexcit
ed
Me:“yeahwhenheshowedupunannouncedand
i
ntr
oducedhimsel
fasmom’sspeci
alfr
iend.
”We
l
augh

Luh:
“hedoesl
oveyou,nomanmakesaneffortt
o
gett
oknowyourki
dsifhedoesn’
tseeaf
uturewit
h
you”

Me:
“I’
m scar
edl
uh,
Idon’
twanthi
mtohur
tme”

Luh:
“that
’sachanceyouaregoi
ngt
ohavet
otake
i
fyoulovehi
m.Doyoul ovehi
m”

Me:
“ohsi
sIdon’
tknowcauseI
’
m conf
used”

Luh:
“It
hinkyouguysneedt
otal
kandcl
eart
hings
out”
Me:
“Idon’
tthi
nkhewant
stot
alkme,
youhear
dthe
wayhetal
kedtome”

Mah:
“wel
lwhenheaskedabouttheki
dsyout
old
hi
mtheyar
enothi
sandthathurthi
m”

Me:
“it
’st
hewayhesai
dit”

Luh:“j
ustt
alkt
ohi
m andknowwher
eyouguys
stand”

Prest
on:
“justhearhi
m outsi
sthent
akei
tfr
om
ther
e”

Mah:
“I’
m sur
eyouguyswi
llsor
tever
ythi
ngout”

Me:
“thankyouguys”
Luh:
“wear
egoi
ngnowandwe’
l
l…”

Bonga:“uhm sorryguyscanItal
ktosimphi
we?”
theynodandl eaveusalone,
hesitsonthebedwi
th
meandsi ghs.“I’m sor
ry”

Me:
“forwhatexact
ly?”

Hi
m:“f
orhur
ti
ngyou”

Me:“youdi
dn’
thur
tme”Isayl
ooki
ngawayf
rom
hi
m

Bonga:
“Idi
dandyouknowi
t,I
…”

Me:
“whyar
eyouher
eexact
ly?”

HiI
’
m:“causewehavet
otal
k”
Me:
“talkaboutwhatbonga?,
ifIdi
dn’
tcomehere
t
odaywereyougoingtocallmetoaskifwecan
meetandtalk?”

Him:
“howcouldIwhenyout
oldmewecan’
thave
anyt
hingbet
weenus?”

Me:“youagreedtoocausewedi
dn’
twantt
hingst
o
beawkwar dbetweenusandmakel
uhandmy
br
otherfeeluncomfor
tabl
e”

Hi
m:“whatwedoi
snoneoft
hei
rbusi
ness”

Me:“iti
scausel
uhismysi ster?,whatifwedeci
ded
tohavearel
ati
onshi
pthent hingsdon’tworkout
bet
weenusandt henever
yoneel sewoul dbeputin
anawkwardposit
ion”
Him:“wearegrownadul
tssimphiwenotsomekids
okayandhowwoul dweknowifthingswoul
dhave
workedoutornoti
fwedidn’
thaveitachance?,
whatareyouexact
lywor
riedaboutcauseIdoubti
t
i
nvolvesl
uh”

Me:“I
’
m scar
edokay!”Isayget
ti
ngupandhel
ooks
atmeweir
d

Hi
m:“scar
edofwhat?”

Me:
“youwoul
dn’
tgeti
tsi
yabonga”

Him:
“Idon’tgeti
tcauseyouwon’
ttel
lmewhat
you’
rescar
edof”

Me:
“I’
m scar
edt
hatyou’
l
lhur
tme”
Hi
m:“Iwon’
thur
tyoubaby?”

Me:“uncl
evict
ortol
dmet hatbabangcobocall
ed
him andt
oldhi
mt hatyouguysbroughtaguestwi
th
youandsceloendeduppointi
ngagunatZama”

Hi
m:“baby?
...”

Me:
“yousl
eptwi
thherdi
dn’
tyou?”

Hi
m:“yeahwedi
d”hesaysembar
rassed

Me:
“wow,
youandsbusi
so?”

Hi
m:“yes”

Me:
“hmmm ”
Hi
m:“ar
eyoumad?”

Me:
“no”

Hi
m:“wewer
enott
oget
herso.
.”

Me:
“Iknowandi
t’
sokay”

Hi
m:“haveyoubeenwi
thanyonesi
nce?
...
.”

Me:
“no”Isayembar
rassedandhesmi
les

Hi
m:“whynot
?”

Me:
“justbecause”
Hi
m:“ar
eyoul
yingt
ome?”

Me:
“no”

Hi
m:“l
ookatmebaby”

Me:
“I’
m notyourbabybonga”

Hi
m:“lookatmest
handwasam ”(l
ookatmemy
l
ove)

Me:
“I’
m notyourl
ove”

Hi
m:“youar
emyl
ove”

Me:
“ohpl
ease”Isayr
oll
ingmyeyes
Hi
m:“I
’
m notl
ying”

Me:“whydidi
ttakemecomi
ngher
eforyout
o
decl
areyourl
oveforme”

Hi
m:“Icall
edyoumyl
ove,
Ihaven’
tdecl
aredmy
l
oveforyou”

Me:
“si
yabonga!”hel
aughs

Him: “Iadmi tIwaswr ongtowai tt

hi slongf ormet o
tellyouhowIf eelandyesi ttookyouget t
inghere
formet orealizet hatIwantmor ewi t
hyoueven
thoughIdi dn’tshoworsayi ttherightway.WhenI
fir
stmetyouIsawt hisbeauti
fulbigbr ownski ngirl
whohasabi gmout handasmar tmout h.I
mesmer izedwi t
hyou.Youf asci
nat edmeandI
woul dfindmysel fthinkingaboutyoual otbutI
coul dn’
tdoanyt hingcauseyouar e.Luh’ ssisterand
Idel et
edt hoset hought sIhadaboutyouwr apping
yourthi
ckthi
ngsar
oundmyneckandIkeptmy
dist
ance.”

Me:“real
ly?”Isayli
keI
’
m bor
edbutdeepi
nsi
demy
skel
etonisdancing.

Him:“I’
m seri
ousbabyt henwhent hamidiedand
youandl uhstart
edcryi
ngatt hecemet er
yIwanted
totakeyouinmyar msandl etyoucr yinmychest
butIcouldn’
tagainandIwat chedyouasyouf ell
apartandithurtme.Iwantedt obeyourmanatt hat
ri
ghtmomentbutIknewi twasn’ttheri
ghtti
me.
Thenwhenl uhwenttot hehospitalandwestayed
behindandstarteddr
inkingt
henIt ookyouatyour
placeandwellyoushowedmef l
amesgi r
l”Igi
ggle

Me:
“itwasamazi
ng”

Hi
m:“wedon’
thavet
ost
opdoi
ngt
hatbaby”
Me:
“I’
m scar
edt
hatyou’
l
lhur
tmeandl
eaveme”

Hi
m:“Iwon’
tdot
hatbaby”

Me:
“Ihaveki
dssi
mphi
weand…”

Him:“IloveyouandIl oveyourboysl
iket
heyar e
myownandIpr omiseIwon’thur
tyouorthem.
Theyalreadyknowmebabyandourr elat
ionshipi
s
growingeverydayandt hati
swhyIwasmadt hat
youcameher ewit
houtmyki ds”it
’st
hefirstt
ime
I’
veheardhim saythat

Me:
“bonga…”

Him:
“nosimphi we,Il
ovet
hem li
ket heyar
emy
ownandtomet heyaremineandi thurtmewhen
yousai
dtheyaren’tmyki
ds.Don’tyoueversayt
hat
tomecauseItakecareofthosekidsli
kehow
mbusoandl uhdo”t earswel lonmyeyesandt hey
fal
l.Besidesluhandsi ncembusoandl uhstart
ed
sendingmemoneyever ymont hImovedmyki ds
andIt oanewpl aceandIr entat ownhouseandt he
moneybongast artedsendi ngmeaf t
erthefi
rstti
me
wehookedupI ’vebeensavi ngf ormykids
universi
tyfund.I’m blessedt othem i
nmyl if
e.

Me:
“I’
m sor
ryIsai
dthat”

Him:“wecanfi
ghtandal
lbutwewon’
tuseourki
ds.
Thisthi
ngofmykids,
mykids,st
opst
oday
si
mphi we,
youhearme?”

Me:
“Ido.”

Him:“youguysar
emyf
ami
lyandIwantal
lofust
o
betogether”
Me:“luhbroughtmeaf latinDurban,Ihaveonly
seentheplaceinpi
cturesbutsheboughti tandit’
s
i
nmynameandsheaskedmet omovet oDurban
nextyearwhentheyalsol eavet
ol i
vethere”he
smiles

Him:“t
henwe’l
lbutahouseandkeept
hefl
atf
ort
he
boyswhentheygrowupsotheycanusei
t”

Me:“you’
rescar
ingmewhenyout
alkaboutt
he
f
uturebonga”

Him:
“I’
m ser
iousaboutusandwhenluhgi
vesbi
rt
h
andever
ythi
nghassettl
eddownI’
m goi
ngtomarr
y
youandourkids”

Me:
“bongawai
t”

Hi
m:“I
’
vehadf
unandnowI
’
mreadyt
obeaf
ather
andhavesomeonet
ocomehomet
o,mywi
feand
ki
dsandnotanemptyf
lat”

Her
:“wi
llyourf
ami
lyacceptmeandmyki
dst
hough?
”

Him:“whywoul
dn’
ttheybaby,
haveseenyourcr
azy
sel
f”

Me:
“bongamam ”wel
augh

Him:“onaser i
ousbabytheyknowyouandt heyar
e
goingtoloveyouandIknowmom i sgoi
ngt ogo
grandmacr azyont heboys.Ihopel
uhgivesbir
tht
o
agirl”Ismiletootheyareinforasur
pri
seforwhen
shegivesbirth,Ican’
twait

Me:“Ihopesotoososhecanwrapmbusoar
ound
herl
it
tl
efingerj
ustl
ikehermom ”
Hi
m:“he’
sgonnabeabi
gsof
ti
e”

Me:
“doyouwantki
ds?”hegi
vesmeasadl
ook.

Him:“ther
ewasagi r
lIwasinar el
ati
onshipwit
h
andsheabor t
edourfi
rstchi
ldanddidn’
ttellme
thenthesecondoneshedecidedtokeepthebaby
butunfort
unatel
yshemiscarr
ied”

Me:
“I’
m sor
ryt
oheart
hat”

Him:
“soyes,Iwantust
ohavekids.AsmanyasI
’
ll
puti
nthatwombofyours”Il
augh

Me:“Si
yabongaIl
oveyouver
ymuchandpl
ease
don’
thurtme.”
Him:“hur
tyouandmisstheopport
unit
ytohear
yoursmartmout
htal
kinganddoingthi
ngstome
hmmmm neverbaby”

Me:
“Idon’
thaveasmar
tmout
hanymor
e,Ihave
t
onedi
tdown”

Hi
m:“smar
tmout
hornotbabyIl
oveyou”

Me:
“doesthatwear
enowexclusi
ve,
youaregoi
ng
t
ostopfucki
ngot
herpeopl
eandhavi
ngthr
eesomes?
”

Hi
m:“yesweareexcl
usi
veandnomoref
ucki
ng
ot
herpeopl
eandhavi
ngthr
eesomes”

Me:
“Iwantone”
Hi
m:“youwantwhat
?”

Me:
“at
hreesome”hel
aughsl
iker
eal
lyl
aughs

Hi
m:“babyno.
.Ar
eyouser
ious?”

Me:“I
’
m ser
ious,
I’
vedonei
tbef
oreyouknow”he
l
ooksatmeshocked

Hi
m:“what
?”

Me:“yesIhave,i
twasmeandt heguyIwasseeing.
Weinvit
edanothergi
rlweknew,shewasabisexual
andwehadi t”

Hi
m: “I
’m sof
uckenjeal
ousr
ightnowthatyouhada
t
hreesomewithoutmebaby”wel augh
Me:
“sowhatdoyousay?”

Him:“babyI’
lldowhatevermakesyouhappycause
attheendiftheday,Ij
ustwanttomakeyouhappy.
Doyouwantust ohaveitwit
hanothergi
rl
?”Il
ook
downandbl ushandhel aughs

Me:
“Iwantanot
herguy,
wecani
nvi
teagi
rlnext
t
ime”

Hi
m:“t
her
e’sgonnabeanextt
imet
oo?”

Me:
“yesmyl
ove”

Him:
“butwhenandi
fitget
stoomuchf
orei
therof
uswe’
llst
op”

Me:
“yeswewi
llbaby”
Him:“soyouwherear
egoingt
of i
ndanotherguys
causeithast
obesomeonewebot htr
ustandknow
thatwhatwedoinournedr
oom andsexli
festays
betweenus.”

Me:“Wedon’
thavet
olookf
urt
her”Isaysmi
li
ng
andhel
aughs

Hi
m:“ohr
eal
ly?
,whower
eyout
hinki
ngabout
?”

Me:
“thatf
ri
endofyour
s,sbusi
sobaby”

Hi
m:“butyou’
vej
ustmethi
mlove?”

Me:“exact
ly,
Idon’tknowhim andIdon’
twantt
o
knowhimlikethat
.Ijustwantustohavea
thr
eesome”
Him:“OkbabyI
’l
ltal
ktohim andwel
lal
ltal
kthen
aboutwhati
sexpected”

Me:
“thankyouyoubaby”

Him:“okl et’
sgoandt el
ltheothersthatwear e
off
icial
lyttoget
herbutkissmef i
rst”Ilaughthen
pullhimtomeandweki ssthenleavet heguest
bedroom.It houghthewasgoi ngtosaynoabout
thethreesomebutobvi ousl
yIwaswr ong.

Bonga:“ever
yonewear
eof
fi
cial
lyt
oget
her”t
heyal
l
getexcit
edforus.

Pr
eston:
“it
’sonl
ysbusi
soandItheoddmeni
nher
e
wi
thoutt
heirpar
tner
s”welaugh

Mbuso:
“wel
comemyf
utur
esi
steri
n-l
aw,
I’
m happy
f
oryouguysandourf
ami
lyi
sgr
owi
ng”

Sbusiso:
“canwegetsomewineandcelebr
atet
wo
rel
ati
onships?”t
heyal
lagr
eeandluhhugsme
exci
ted.

Mbuso:
“ther
e’snoal
coholi
nthi
shouse”

Aunt
y:“I
’
llasknont
otobr
ingi
t”

Me:
“anot
herr
elat
ionshi
p?”

Aunt
y:“yesbaby,meandbabaFrank”shesays
smil
ingandhekissesherwow!
,Ineversawt
hat
onecoming.

Me:
“congr
atul
ati
onst
ous!”
Them:
“hear
,hear
!”
CHAPTER38.

SI
CELO.

Wear riveinthef arm anddadt akesmet omy

grandpar ent
sbedr oom wher etheyusedt oshare.
Wel efttheuncl esoutsideandi t ’
sjustthetwoofus
now, helooksr eall
ywor riedandI ’
m scaredcauseI
havenoi deawhati sgoi ngonwi thme.Ijustbroke
downandcr iedcauseZamal eftmeandIdon’ t
knowwher eshewentandhowI ’m goingtofindher
causembusor efuses.Ican’tbel i
eveIt al
kedtohi m
thatway, howcoul dIdi srespecthi mlikethatathis
ownhouse.Ihavet oapol ogizet ohim andmysi st
er
andhi sdadt oo.

Me:
“babakwenzakal
aningami
?”(dadwhati
s
wr
ongwithme?)
Dad:
“don’tworr
ymysonyou’
l
lbefi
ne,t
her
e’s
someonewho’sgoi
ngt
ocomeandexpl
aint
oyou
whati
swrong”

Me:
“isi
tourt
radi
ti
onalheal
er?”

Hi
m:“i
t’
sourneighbourf
rom t
hatot
herf
arm,
you
r
ememberthatheisaseer?”

Me:
“yes”

Him:“hewil
lexpl
aineveryt
hing”hesayst
hatthen
someonesknocksont hedooranddadopensthe
dooranditi
shim,babauNgwende, heget
sinand
theycl
osethedoorbehind.

Me:
“sawubonababa”(goodmor
ningdad)
Ngwende: “sicelotakeoffyourshoesandshi r
t,sit
downcr ossingyourl egs”Idoashesayswi t
hout
askinganyquest i
onsanddaddoest hesame.He
sit
sdownf acingmewi t
habowl betweenust hen
l
ightswhitecandl esandasageand.Hel i
ghtsthe
sagethent akesmyl ef
thandandt ouchesand
star
tsprayingt hensaysourclannamesandIst ar
t
tofeelali
ttlebetter.Whenhe’sdonehel ooksatme.

Ngwende:
“whendi
ditst
art
?”

Dad:
“Itst
art
edyest
erdaybutIcoul
dbewr
ong”

Me:
“dadwhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?”

Ngwende:
“Isee,si
cel
ohasyourbi
rt
hmar
kbeen
i
tchi
ngtoapointwher
eithur
ts?”

Me:
“Idon’
tunder
standbaba?”
Ngwende:
“sicel
o,yourbir
thmarktheoneyoual
l
have,
hasitbeencausingyoutofeelpai
n?”

Me:“i
twoulddothat
,Iwoul
dscr
atchmysel
funt
ili
t
hur
ts.Doyouknowwhybaba?”

Ngwende:
“yourdadwhent
hroughthesamethi
ng
whenhewasmuchyoungerthanyousicel
o”

Me:
“I’
m st
il
lconf
usedbaba,
whathappenedt
oyou?
”

Dad:“youseemysonever ymani nthi

sfamilyfor
generati
onshasgonet hroughthi
sandyour
cousinswi l
lal
sogothroughitbecauseallofyou
havenotf oundyoursoul
mat es”

Me:
“what
?”
Ngwende:“yourfatherwhenhewasaboutt omeet
yourmotherheexper iencedsomethi
ngli
kehewas
havi
nganer vousbr eakdownbutthatwasnoti
t,t
he
samethi
ngt hathappenedt ohimishappeni
ngto
youanditwillhappent oyoursonstoo”

Me:“Ihaven’tmetmysoulmate?
,butIt
hought
zamawas, ismysoulmate.”

Ngwende:“Iseetwowomen, oneisaver yt
roubled
soulandtheotheroneyouhavehurt.Bothofthem
werenotyoursoulmate,yoursoulmateiswaiti
ng
foryou.She’
sprayingf
oryouthatyoufindherand
she’swait
ingforyou”what?

Me:“I
’
m st
il
lconf
usedbaba”whatt
hehel
lisgoi
ng
on!
.

Dad:
“si
cel
other
easonwhyyourbi
rt
hmar
khas
beenit
chi
ngandyouact
ingoutandcausi
ngtr
oubl
e
i
sbecausethet
imehascomeforyoutobeonewit
h
theper
sonyouweremeantt
obewi t
h.”

Ngwende:“ifyoudon’
tfindheryourbi rthmar kwill
growandcoveryourwhol ebodyandt hei t
chingwi l
l
getworse.That’
swhyyoual waysat tractcrazy
womenorwomenyouj ustuse,
att hisageyouwer e
supposedtohavemetherandgot tenmar r
iedand
haveafami l
y.Yourf
athermetyourmot hervery
earl
yandheknewshewast heone, youwi llknow
toowhenyoumeetherbutbewar nedsi celo.Ifyou
makeher ,
yoursoulmat el
eaveyou, youwi l
lgo
crazyj
ustli
keyourdadal mostdid”

Me:
“mom al
mostl
eftyou?”Idi
dn’
tknowt
hat
!.

Dad:
“shedidforamonthIcouldn’tfi
ndherandyou
andIwil
lnott
ellyouwhysheleftsicel
o”
Me:
“di
dyoucheatonmymot
her
?”

Dad:“Inevercheat
edi
nyourmot
her
,Il
ovedher
ver
ymuch!”

Ngwende:“t
elltheboywhysheleftsohewil
lknow
t
hatifheeverthinksofevendoi
ngsomethi
nghe
wil
lgocrazy”

Dad:“wewer ehavi
nganar gumentaboutt huliand
i
ttur nedintoaf i
ghtandIhi thersicel
o,Ihi tyour
mot hermyboyandI ’m notpr oudofthat.Iwasso
fr
ust rat
edcauseshecoul dn’tseethatthuliwas
usingherandIl osti
t.Shewassoscar edofmeand
di
dn’ tfeelsafesoonedaywhenIcamebackf r
om
wor kshewasgone.Shet ookasi ckleavef r
om
wor kandl eftwit
hyou.

Me:
“wher
ewer
ewe?”
Dad:“shel eftt
oseeheraunt ,Ihadforgott
enabout
herunt i
lyourauntremindedmet hatshestil
lhasan
auntlivi
ngi nfreest
ate.Iwascloset olosi
ngmy
mindsonwhenIf oundheragainandIwasamess.
Idon’twishf oryoutothroughwhatIwentt hrough.
”

Me:
“butwhydi
dn’
tyout
ellmedad?”

Him:“becauseIhadthoughtthatyou’
l
lmeether
andwhenyoudi dn’
tIthoughtmaybeit’
snotti
me.I
thi
nkapar tofmewasmaybewai ti
ngfort
hist
o
happensoIcanconfirmthatit’
snotZamacauseI
thoughtshecoul
dbeyoursoulmat e”

Me:
“thi
siscrazydad,
howl ongdoIhavetofi
ndher
?
”wheream Igoi
ngtostar
tandhowwi l
lIknow?

Ngwende:
“she’
sprayingf
oryouever
ydayson.You
wil
lknowi
tandfeeli
t.”
Me:“wil
lIgetworseandcont
inuet
ohavethese
outbur
stscauseIdon’
twantt
ohurtmyfamilyand
fr
iendsbaba?”

Ngwende:“Iwil
lgiveyousomethi
ngtodri
nk
ever
yday,bathwit
hsot heit
chi
ngwil
lstopandnot
hurt
.Ithi
nkyourbirt
hmarkhasgrownifyouhave
noti
cedbutwhenyouandherar efi
nal
lyone,i
twil
l
gobacktoitsori
ginalsi
ze.”

Dad:“what everyoudowhenyoumeetherson, be
tr
uthfulandhonestwithheranddon’tmakeher
l
eaveyoucauseonl yyouwillmakeherl
eaveyouby
youractionsandhowyout reather
.Lear
nfrom my
mistakesson.”

Ngwende:“youwillinher
itgoodthingswhenyou
meether.She’sgoingtobeabl essingt
hatyou
need.”hegivesmemyhandback
Me:
“Ihopeso.”

Him:“drinkthi
swaternowandt henyou’l
lusehal
f
ofitt
obat hhereinyourgrandparent
sbedroom.Di
d
yourdadt el
lyouwhyhebr oughtyouhereand
specif
icall
yinyourgrandparent
sbedroom?”

Me:
“hedi
dn’
tbaba”

Dad:“yourumbi l
icalcordwasbur iedont hi
syard,
thi
siswher eyourr ootsare,t
hisiswher eyouand
yourwifewillcomewhenyouf aceserious
probl
emsandneedhel pfrom thefamily.Notyour
fri
endssicel
obuther ewit
hNgwende, youraunts
andunclesandmeyourf ather.Doyouunder st
and?
”

Me:
“Idodad.”
Ngwende:
“goandwashyour
sel
f”

Me:
“canIasksomet
hingbaba?”

Ngwende:
“yebo”(goahead)

Me:
“soi
fIdon’
tmeetherandmaybemeetthe
wr
ongoneIwil
lspendt
herestofmyl
if
ecrazy?”

Ngwende:“youwil
ldieandl
eaveherandshewi
ll
neverexper
iencel
ove.”

Me:“IthoughtmaybeIwassuffer
ingfrom abroken
heartbutbabathi
sisshocki
ng,
I’
m sti
llshocked.”

Dad:
“Iwastoowhenyourgr
andfat
herand
ngwendeexpl
ainedt
omewhatishappeni
ng.Now
youwi
llexpl
aini
ttoyoursons.

Me:“dadisthatwhyyousaidhereathomeweonly
bri
ngbr i
desandnotgi
rl
fr
iends,youweret
alki
ng
aboutthi
sthing?”

Dad:“exact
lymyson.Onl
ybr i
desoft
hisf
ami
lyar
e
welcomed,youwi
llseei
ttoo.”

Me:“t
hankyoudadandthankyoubabangwende.I
f
eelbett
ert
hanwhenIfi
rstgother
e”

Ngwende:
“don’
tthankussi
cel
o,i
t’
sal
lupt
oyou
now.”

Me:“letmeleaveyou.”Igetupandgotomy
bedroom t
akingthewaterwit
hme,fi
llt
hebat
hwi t
h
waterandaddt hi
sonengwendehavemeandt hen
getinandbath.Ilookatmybirt
hmar
kandheis
ri
ghtcauseithasgrown, j
ustthi
nki
ngabout
meetingsomeonenewandIdon’ tevenknowwhen
andwhereandhowwear egoingtomeetstr esses
me.Igetdonet hencleanitandgot omybedr oom
andwearmyot herclothesandgot otheli
vingr oom
andfindtheunclestherewithdad,ngwendehasl ef
t
Ithi
nk.

Me: “uhm babaMnguniI’

m sorryfordi
srespecting
youandyourson’ shouse.Itwasnevermyi ntenti
on
andIdon’thaveanexcuseast owhyIdidit.Ihope
allofyouwillf
orgi
veme, daa,uncl
evict
orI’m sorr
y.
Pleaseacceptmyapology.”

Mnguni
:“youar
efor
givenson,
yourdadexpl
ained
whati
shappeni
ng.”

Vict
or:“si
cel
ogrowupman, youar
enotgett
ing
youngmyboy.Youdon’ twanttobeafourt
hf i
ve
yearoldmanbusyr unningaf t
erhi
soneyearold
son,you’l
lbetoool
d”t heylaughatme
Me:“whathappenedtodayopenedmyeyesuncl
e
andmademeseel i
feinadif
fer
entway”

Dad:“thi
siswhatIwashopi
ngyouar
egoi
ngt
osay.
I
’m proudofyouson.”

Me:“t
hankyoudad,
I’
m goi
ngt
oseembusoandl
uh
andapol
ogi
ze”

Dad:“buyherfl
owersandl
otsofchocol
atechi
p
cookies,
she’
llf
orgi
veyou”Ismil
e

Me:
“Iwi
lldad.”

Dad:“tel
ltheboystobeher eatni
ght
,toni
ghti
sthe
nightwebr i
ngsiphonedandhisfami
lyunderone
roofandhearwhatt heyhavetosay”
Me:
“shoul
dIt
ellmbusot
oo?”

Mnguni
:“t
ellhi
m,mangcobowi
llbef
ine.”

Vi
ctor
:“Icamewi
thsi
mphi
wesoshewi
llbef
ine.”

Me:
“ok,
I’
lll
ethi
m know.”t
heynod

Me:“dadtellauntIt
ookhercar,oneoft
heguyswi
ll
br
ingitback.”HenodsthenIleave.

Igotot ownandgobyf l
ower sforthewomen
i
ncludingPr eston,
byl uhl i
li
esthengobuyt heguys
whiskey.AsIpassIseeabeaut yspasoIgeti nand
askaboutt heirser
vicest henpayandgi vethem
l
uh’saddr essandl eave.Igeti nthecarandtakemy
phoneandcal lZama, Ireallyhopesheanswer s.I
cal
lagai nfi
vemor et i
mesandt henshefi
nall
ypicks
up.

Her
:“si
cel
o”

Me:
“hey,
areyouokay?
.Ar
eyousaf
ether
e?”

Her
:“yeahI
’
m okay.Youdon’
tsoundl
ikeyou’
re
mad”

Me:
“IwasbutI
’
m bet
ternow.”

Her:
“ther
e’ssomethi
ngdi
ff
erentaboutyou,
you
sounddif
ferent
.”

Me:“ZamaIwant edtoapol
ogi
zetoyou.Ihave
usedyoufrom t
hemomentImetyouandIwas
wrong,IwasverywrongandI’
m sor
ry.”
Her
:“wowsi
cel
o,Inevert
houghtyouwoul
dsay
t
hat”

Me:“Ifi
nall
yreali
zedthatItreatedyouli
keIowned
you,l
ikeyouwer emypr opertyandnotahuman
bei
ngandsor r
yf ort
hattoo.I’
m sorryIpoint
eda
gunatyout oobutIwasnevergoi ngtoshootyou
zahinpromiseyou.”

Her:
“Ifor
giveyousicelo.Youdidmanygoodt hings
tometoothanthebadt hi
ngsandforthatI
’
llnever
for
getyou,yougavemesomet hi
ngthatnoonewi ll
evert
akeawayf r
om meandt hati
seducati
on.
ThankyouMaphol oba.”

Me:“apartofmewil
lal
waysloveyouandcare
aboutyouZama.Wheneveryouneedanyt
hingdon’
t
everhesi
tat
etocal
lme”

Her
:“Iwi
llal
waysl
oveyout
oosi
cel
obutweneedt
o
cutal
lti
esbetweenussowecanmoveonandnot
beremindedofthepast
.”

Me:“youar
erightmaShenge,
butmyoff
erst
il
l
st
ands.Anyt
imeZama”shechuckles

Her:
“okIwi
ll
.Takecar
eofyoursel
fandt
reatt
he
nextwomanyoumeetbet
tert
hanallt
hewomen
youhavemetsi
cel
o.”

Me:“Ihopethemanyouwill
meetwil
lknowwhata
bl
essingyouareandnott
akeyouf
orgrant
ed.”

Her
:“I
’
lll
ethi
m know”wel
augh

Me:“I’
m goi
ngtosendyoumoney.Iwantyoutoby
yoursel
fahouseZamaandacarandnotdependon
anyone.Thi
sismygiftt
oyouforal
lthet
imes
you’
vebeenwithmeandstuckbyme.”
Her
:“t
hankyouMaphol
oba.Iwi
lldot
hat”

Me:
“takecar
egi
rl”

Her:
“youtoohomeboy”webothl
aughandIhang
up.If
eelsomuchli
ghter
.Idr
ivet
oluh’
spl
ace.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER38.

SI
CELO.

Ithoughtt
hatshemi ghtbemadatmecur seatme
orevenscream andtellmehowmuchshehat esme
butshedidn’tcauseshe’
snotthatkindofperson
andshehasneverbeen.Ir eal
lythoughtshemi ght
betheonebutshe’ snotandaftert
alkingtohermy
heartnewandImadepeacewi thit.Idri
vetoluh
andmbuso' splaceandIhopeIhaver ui
nedmy
rel
ati
onshipwiththem.ThegatesopensandIdr i
ve
i
nandpar kaunt
scarthentakeallthefl
ower
sand
whiskeyt
hengetint
hehouse.Pr estoni
sthefi
rst
onetoseemeandhesmi leslookingatthef
lower
s

Preston:“arethoseforallofus,causeIlove”he
sayst aki
ngt hem,putti
ngthem ont hetabl
e.Il
ook
atluhandshel ooksatmewor r
ied.Igotoherand
giveher ,
herf l
owersthensheget supandhugsme
ti
ghtandIwhi sperI
’m sorryandshenods.Igive
auntherf lowersandkisshercheekt henPrest
on
andSi mscauseIknewshewascomi ng.

Mbuso:“youf
eel
ingbet
terbr
other
?”heasks
concer
ned.

Me:
“I’
m okayIguess”

Him:“what
’sgoi
ngon,
ther
e’ssomet
hingdi
ff
erent
aboutyou”
Me:
“I’
l
ltel
lyoual
labouti
tlat
er.
”

Him:“okman,
asl
ongyouar
efeel
ingbet
tert
henI
’
m
okay.”

Me: “uhm guyscanIhaveyourat tention?”Isee

Simswi thbongaandI ’
m surpri
sed.Iknowt hey
hookedupi nSt andert
onbutIdi dn’tthinkthey
talkedaf t
erthat.Theyalllookatme.“Iwoul dli
keto
apol ogi
zet oyouMbusof ordisrespect i
ngyoui n
yourhouse, Ishouldhavenevert alkedt oyouthat
wayasamanandasyourbr other.Inevermeantt o
notr espectyouast hemanofyourhome.I ’m sorry
l
uhf ortalki
ngtoyout hatwayandt akingmy
frustrat
ionsandangeroutonyou.Ipr omiset o
neverdot hatandI’m sorrytoeveryonef orshowi ng
disrespectandt oshowyouhowmuchI ’
m sorryI
boughtal lofyout hoseflowersandyouguyssome
whi skey.”

Mbuso:
“wef
orgi
veyoubr
other”weshar
eaman
hugandt
heyguyst
oo

Luh:“If
orgi
veyoubi
gbr
otherI
’
m gl
adyouar
e
feel
ingbett
ernow”

Mbuso:“somet
hingi
sdi
ff
erentaboutyou,
you
sounddif
fer
ent”

Aunt
y:“I
tshoul
dn’
thavet
akenyouthi
slongsi
cel
o
butI
’
m gladyouar
egoodtoo”Inodather
.

Bonga:
“youlookl
ikeyou'
vegrownsincewelast
sawyouinthemorning.
”Theylaugh,
thesemorons

Me:
“If
eeldi
ff
erent
.”It
rul
ydo.

Si
busiso:
“it
’sl
ikeadi
ff
erentmani
sst
andi
ngbef
ore
us”Ichuckl
e
Me:“nahi
t’
sthesameol dme.SobongaandSims?,
howthehel
ldidt
hathappencauseIthoughti
twas
ahi
tandrun”wel augh

Bonga:
“shehadmeatwear edoi
ngt
hisf
ort
hel
ast
ti
meandIwaslikehel
ltot
heno!
.”

Me:“youdoknowt hati
fyoudoanyt
hingtohur
ther
she’
sgoingtokil
lyouandburyyou”fit
sof
l
aughterfi
ll
sthewholeki
tchen.

Bonga:
“manIl
ovehercr
azyass”

Si
ms:
“Il
oveyout
oobaby”shesayssmi
li
ng.

Me:
“ourfamil
yisgrowi
ng,
itwasl
uhandmbuso,
mahandFrankthennowwehavebongaandsi
ms.
”Isayt
akingaseat.
Mah:“i
t’
sonlyyoutwoboyslef
tandt
imei
srunni
ng
out”shesaysthatl
ooki
ngatmeandwebothknow
whatshemeans.Inod.

Me:“uhthedadswant
stoseeal
lofusguys,
excl
udi
ngthewomen”

Luh:
“what
’sgoi
ngon?”

Mbuso:
“pr
epar
ati
onsf
ort
henegot
iat
ionsl
ove”

Her
:“ok.”

Bonga:
“theywantt
oseeusnow?”

Me:
“theysai
dlat
erbutwecangonowt
oo”
Mbuso:
“I’
l
lgochange,
let
sgol
ove”

Her
:“I
’
m goodbaby”weal
llaugh.

Mbuso:
“babyIneedyout
opi
ckoutsomet
hingf
or
metowear”

Her
:“si
ncewhendoIpi
ckoutcl
othesf
oryou?”

Mbuso:
“butbaby?
...”

Her:“ohwealmostfor
got,
thedesi
gneri
scomingt
o
takeyourmeasurement
ssoyouguyscan’tgoj
ust
yet.Ist
hatokay?”

Me:
“yeaht
hat
’sok,
wecanl
eaveaf
terwear
edone.
”
Bonga:
“pl
usI
’m wai
ti
ngforMikeandPaulandt
hey
shoul
dbeher
eintwohours.”

Mbuso:
“wellt
henI’
l
lgochangealone”hesaysthe
l
astpar
tlooki
ngatl
uhandshelaughs,hel
eaves.

Luh:
“di
dyouf
indoutwher
eZamai
s?”

Me:
“yeah,
Ical
ledherandwet
alked.“Isaysi
ghi
ng.

Si
ms:
“Iwasl
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtomeet
ingher”

Me;
“wel
lthat
’snotgoi
ngt
ohappen.”

Pr
est
on:
“shedi
dn’
ttel
lyouwher
eshei
sdi
dshe?”

Me:
“shedi
dn’
tandIdi
dn’
taskher”
Si
busi
so:
“whydi
dn’
tyou?”

Me:
“causewebot
hknewt
hati
tisoverbet
weenus.
”

Luh:
“ohmyGodbr
otherI
’
m sosor
ry”

Me:“I’
m sor
ryt
oobuti
t’
sfort
hebestcauset
hings
wouldn’
thavewor
kedoutbet
weenus.”

Pr
est
on:
“butyoudon’
tknowt
hatf
orsur
e.”

Mah:
“hedoesknowcausehegotawakeupt
oday”
t
heyl
ookatajt
henme

Luh:
“whati
sthatsupposedt
omean?”
Me:“wewenttoseeatradi
ti
onalheal
erorseeri
f
youcancal
litt
hatandhetoldmesomet hi
ng’st
hat
madesenseandopenedmyeyes.

Luh:“wel
lthenI’m gl
adheputt
hingsi
nto
perspect
iveforyou.”

Me:“met oosis.Webothtal
kedandIapol
ogizedfor
thethi
ngsIdidt ohert
hathur
therandsheforgave
me.Itoldheranyti
mesheneedsmeorsomet hi
ng
shemustl etmeknow.”

Luh:
“thankyouf
ort
hatbr
other”

Pr
eston:
“youar
egoi
ngt
obeshor
tofonebr
ides
maid”

Me:“I’
l
laskt
woofmycousi
nst
heni
twi
llbef
ive
each.”
Mbuso:
“thatremindsmeofwhatIwant
edt
oask
youbr
other.”hesaysl
ooki
ngatbonga

Bonga:
“whati
sit
?”

Mbuso:
“wi
llyoumybestman?”

Bonga:
“forr
eal
?”

Hi
m:“yeahmanf
orr
eal”

Bonga:
“thenIacceptwhol
ehear
tedl
y”hehugs
hi
m exci
ted

Me:“f
oolst
opgri
nni
ngl
iket
hat
,you’
l
lscar
eSi
ms
away”hechuckl
es
Mbuso:
“thet
hreeofyouandzi
phowi
llbemy
gr
oomsman”

Me:
“yourbr
otheri
sver
yscar
ce”

Him:“he’
s23enj
oyi
ngl
if
enothangi
ngar
oundol
d
people”wel
augh

Luh:
“thenI’
l
laddanothercousi
nthenthat
’si
t.I
havetocal
lthem andgett
hem her
e.”shetakesout
herphoneandcallst
hem.

Me:“plusIcamewi thaunt
scar,
theymightbein
town.Callthem andletmeknowwheret heyaresoI
cangoandf et
cht hem whi
lewearest
il
lwaiti
ngfor
thedesigner.”

Luh:
“no,cal
lthem t
henaskoneforthesecur
it
ies
guystogofet
chthem andbabypleasecal
lzi
pho
andaskhimtogotosomeonewhowil
ltakehi
s
measurement
sthensendt
hem t
ous.”

Mbuso:
“I’
l
ldot
hat”

Pr
eston:
“I’
l
lcal
lthedesi
gnerandf
indoutwher
ehe
i
s.”

Me:“Ican’
twai
tfort
henegot
iat
ionst
ost
artandget
youguysmarri
ed.”

Luh:
“thenafterwear
eget
ti
ngyoumar
ri
edSi
ms”
Simsblushes.

Me:“br
otherwear
etheonl
yone’
ssi
ngl
eint
his
house”

Si
busi
so:
“notf
orl
ongcausemaybeImi
ghtj
ustf
all
f
oroneofyourcousi
ns”

Us:
“no!
.”me,
luhandmahsayatt
hesecondt
ime.

Si
busiso:
“whynotguys”heasksconf
usedt
hen
l
aughs.

Me:
“theyareallmarri
edsoi
t’
sano.”It
ellhi
m and
hel
ooksdisappoint
ed.

Hi
m:“ohman.
”Wel
augh

Pr
eston:
“he’
sout
sidet
hegat
e,canyouopenup?”
mbusonods.

Me:
“luhwher
ear
ethey?”

Her
:“si
sthandi
eandkhet
hiwear
eint
ownatt
he
mallt
hensisnt
ombenhl
eisatherhousebutshe’
s
coming.”

Me:“ok,
letmequickl
ygof et
chuthandinokhet
hiwe
whi
lethedesi
gnertakesyourmeasurementsandI’
l
l
bebackbefor
eheevenf i
nishes.”

Luh:“pl
easedo”Igi
veheranassurancesmil
e.
Mbusocomesi nfol
lowedbyonemenandt wo
l
adiesandhelooksli
kehe’
spissed.

Sims:
“Jamesyouf
inal
lymadei
t”sot
heguyi
s
James

James:“t
oldyou.HiguysI’
m JamesZwaneand
theset
woar emyassistant
s.“hedoesn’
tsayt
hei
r
names.

Me:
“br
otherwal
kmeout
.”mbusonods,
wel
eave
t
hehouseandstandoutsi
demyaunt
scar
.“okout
wit
hni
t,what
’swrong?”

Him:
“didyouseethatguy?
,he’
stheonewho’
s
goi
ngtobetouchi
ngluh?”

Me:
“ist
hatwhathasgot
tenyoupi
ssed?”

Hi
m:“wel
lIt
houghti
twasawoman.”Ichuckl
e.

Me:“i
tdoesn’
tmat
tercauset
hatguyovert
her
ei s
goi
ngtomakeyourbri
detobelookver
ybeaut
iful
.”

Hi
m:“Idon’
tthi
nkIwanthi
mtot
ouchher”

Me:“jeal
ousar ewe?,lookmanluhhaseyesforyou
andyouonl y.Thatguyisheretodohisjobandifhe
star
tsgett
ingoutoflinetheyyou’
lldealwi
thhi
m.”
Me:
“manheiscauseit’
spar
tofhi
sjob.Stopbei
ng
soj
eal
ous,
shelovesyou”Il
aughatthi
sfool.

Hi
m:“Iknowt
hat
.”

Me:“Ihavetogof et
chmycousi nsf
rom t own,Ibe
backandwel lt
alkandputasmi l
eont hatface.“I
geti
nthecaranddr iveouttotown.,Igot othemal l
andit
’sfull
.Iparkmycart hensendkhet hiweat ext
messagewher etheywillf
indme.Isitint hecarfor
fi
ft
eenMi nutesthentheyshowupandgeti nthe
carandIdrivethem tol
uh’splace.

Wegett hereandtheyarealli
nthel i
vingroom
aamdsi skhethi
weisalsothereandt hewaymbuso
i
swat chingjamesissofunny.Hei sMeasur ingl
uh,
oneladyi smeasuri
ngmahandt heotheri swri
ti
ng
downt hemeasurements.Onebyonet heydothat
unt
ilweal ldoneandexhausted.Prestonshows
them outaf
terwear
edoneandt
heyl
eaveatar
ound
19:30pm.

Me:“guyslet
sgoi t
’slat
e.“theynod.Bongakisses
Si
ms, fr
ankkissesmaht hem mbusoandl uhkiss
br
iefl
ythenweal ll
eave.

Mbuso:
“fi
nal
lywear
eget
ti
ngever
yonei
noner
oom.
”

Me:“manit’
sbeenl
ong,
thedayi
sfi
nal
lyher
eandI
wantal
ltheanswer
s.

Mbuso: “metoo.”
wecontinuet
odr i
veunti
lweget
i
nt hefarm.Theli
ghtsi
nthebarnareshini
ngbr i
ght
.
Wegetoutandmakeourwayt hereandgot othe
basementandf i
ndthedadssit
ti
ngdownand
l
aughinglikewhatweareabouttodoisnothingto
them.
Maphol
oba:
“atl
astyouar
eal
lher
e.”

Us:
“yebobaba”(yesdad)

Maphol oba: “wel lthenguysbr i

ngt hatf uckenshi t
siphof i
rstandbr ingmet hatboxIgaveyouear li
er
andt hoseot hert hings.”hesayst ooneofhi sguys
andt heygoandcomebackwi thast eelboxandi t
soundsl iket herear erat
sint here.Whatt hehel l?
.
Theot herguyscomewi thsiphoandt heysi thi
m
downi nt hechai rt hati
sinthemi ddle,haschai ns
oni tandt heyl ockt henaroundhi slegs, waist,
wr i
ststhenoutahugest eelchokerar oundhi sneck
thathasal argechocker .

Mapholoba:“t
akeoffhisbl
indfold.”t
heguyt akesit
offanditt
akesawhi l
eforsiphotogetusedtot he
bri
ghtli
ghtinthebasementcausewher ehewasi t
wasdark.Hef i
nal
lyseesclearl
ythenlooksshocked
athisbrot
her.
Si
pho:
“Vi
ctor
?,youar
epar
toft
hist
oo?”

Victor:
“Iwasapar tofiti
nthebeggi ngandnowI
am apar tofitintheend.It’
syourendt onight
.”
sipholaughsandl aughshardlikehe’scr
azy.Me
andt heguysl ookateachot herconfusedcause
thisisnotthedepr essedmanwel efther
eatthe
farm.

Sipho:“wellthenofiti
stheendofmeandI ’
m going
todieandmeetmysont henIbettertel
lyouthis
Victor
.Buhlei syourdaught
erandhermot her
pimpedhert omet hat
’showmuchshef uckenloves
meandIenj oyedpoppingthatcherryandfucking
hereverychanceIgot .”hesayslaughingandIl ook
atVictorandhel ookssoshockedandmad.f uck
me!.

Vi
ctor
:“youbust
ard!
,youf
uckensi
ckbust
ard!
,how
coul
dyoudot hat?
!.”hesaysscr
eamingandgoes
punchessi
phohar donhisfacet
wiceandbl
ood
gushesoutofhisnose.

Sipho:“becauseevenaf teral
ltheseyearsshe
couldn’tsti
llforgetthedayyouf uckedherandgot
herpregnant .Shehat edthatbabyshewascar rying
andIdi dyouf avourandconvincedhertokeept he
babycauseIhadpl ansforherandcal m Idi
d”
uncleVi ct
ortakesoutakni f
eandi sabouttoStan
si
phobutmbusoandFr ankstophim.

Dad:“youcan’
tki
llhi
m Vi
ctor,notnowatl
ease
causeweallneedanswer
’s.”

Victor
:“buhl
eismydaught erandshe’ssomessed
upbecauseofmybr ot
her,
herownbl oodanduncle
rapedherrepeatedlyandIdidn’tknow!
.”hesays
cryi
ngt hi
sshiti
sf uckenhard.
Maphol oba:“goandbr i
ngthul i
.”dadsaysandhe’ s
pissed.Everyonei stenseandwewantbl ood.Sipho,
thuliandbuhl e’
sblood.Idon’ tcarethatbuhleis
Victor’
sdaught erthatbit
chi sdyingeveni fIhaveto
doi tmyselfcausewhi leshe’sst i
llal
ivemysi st
er
willneverbesaf eandIcan’ thavet hatandIknow
mbusowi l
lagr ee.Theykil
ledmymot hersoI’
m
goingt oki
lltheirdaughter
.It’
sal lfai
r.
CHAPTER39.

MBUSO.

Ialwayssuspectedthatsi
phodidsomet hi
ngt o
buhleandhearinghim nowconfessthatheraped
herandtookhervirgini
tymakesmesi cktomy
stomach.Howcant hul
ial
lowthi
stohappent oher
owndaughterandwhodi dshemeetasVi ct
oris
buhle'
sfat
her?.Couldtheboyherfri
endsraisedand
besipho’
sson? .
Theguysbringintheannoyi ngandscr
eamingthul
i
wholooksveryscaredrightnowandwhenshesees
howbadlybruisedupherhusbandi sshelossesi
t
andcursesus.Ifuckenhat ethi
sbit
chandher
daught
er.Al
lthreeofthem deservetodi
e,Idon’
t
gi
veaf uckt
hatshei sVictor’
sson.

Me:
“Maphol
obai
sthevi
deoon?”

Hi
m: “i
tisondon’
twor
ry”l
uhwillseethi
svi
deo
af
tershehasdri
venbi
rt
htoourkidsnotbef
ore.

Me:“doesn’
tbuhl
eneedtoheheret
oot
ohearwhat
ascreenupofamothershehas?”

Dad:
“youareri
ght,sheneedst
oheart
hiswi
thher
ownears.Br
ingherboys.”

Maphol
oba:
“Vi
ctorI
’
m sosor
ryf
orwhathas
happenedtoyourdaught
er.Nochi
lddeser
vest
ogo
thr
oughalloft
hat.”

Vict
or:
“Iunder st
andsakes,it
’sf
ine.”sohedoes
knowt hatbuhlei
sgoingtodietoothatwecan’tl
et
herli
ve?,hmmmm.Theybr ingbuhleinandshe
l
ookslikeshehasl ost10yearsofherli
fe.She
hasn’
tbeenget ti
nganydrugsandnowshel ooks
l
ikeast r
eetkid.

Buhle;
“mom anddad?,
youarebothhereandeven
youuncleVict
or?
.Si
phowhathappenedtoyou?,
areyouokay?”

Thul
i:
“ohmyGodsi phowhatdi
dtheydotoyoumy
l
ove?,canyouhearme?”si
pholaughsl
ooki
ngat
hi
swife.

Si
pho:
“tel
lthem,
tel
lthem howyoubat
hedand
pr
epar
edyourdaughterf
ormetopophercher
ry
youwhore!
.Youkil
ledmyson!
,myonl
ychi
ld.”
he
saysscr
eamingather.

Buhl
e:“mom soi
twasyouwhoki
ll
edmybr
other
?”

Thuli
:
“hewasn’
tyourbr
other
,hewassomewhor
es
son.”

Vict
or:“whydidn’
tyout
ellmet
hatyouwer
e
carr
yingchil
dthumb?”

Thuli
:
“becauseIwant edt
oabortthatl
it
tl
ebi
tchbut
thensiphoconvi
ncedmet okeepthebabyandrai
se
i
tandIdi dj
ustthat
..Whyarenotyouhappy?”

Buhl
e:“uncl
eVi
ctori
smydadandyouwant
edt
o
abor
tmemom, howcoul
dyou!”
Thuli
:
“Ishoul
dhavekil
ledyouthedayIfoundout
causeeversi
nceyouwerebornyouhavebeen
nothi
ngbutadamnedcurseinmylife!”

Buhle:
“youwerejustj
ealousbecausehelovesme
mor ethanhel
ovesyou!.Youcouldn’
tst
andt he
at
tenti
onhegavemet hatiswhyyouwer ealways
bi
tterandsad!
.”what?

Thuli
:“love?
, youtel
li
ngmethathelovesyou?.
Siphodoesn’tlovebabyhedest
royseveryt
hinghe
touches.”

Buhle:“butyoulethimtouchme.Youof
feredmeto
him andspecifi
call
ytoldmetodoanyt
hinghesay
sohecanbeHappy.Youpi mpedmeouttohim,
yourowndaught er
!.”

Thul
i:
“myownmotherdi
ditt
omesowhyshoul
dn’
t
Idoi
ttoyouaswel
l
?”
Vi
ctor
:“t
omybr othert
hul
i?
!,herowndamnuncl
e!”
hesaysfur
iousl
y.

Buhle:“i
tdoesn’
tmatt
erbecausewel
oveeach
other.Si
pholovesmeandIlovehi
m,tel
lthem t
hat
baby!”whatthefucki
sbuhlesayi
ng?
.

Sipho:
“Idon’tloveanyofyou, t
heonl ypersonI
haveeverlovedisLungi.Iwasgoi ngtotakeher
awayf r
om allofyouandstartmynewl if
ewi t
hher
butdamnyoubuhl eformakingadealwi ththis
devil
.”mybl oodboil
s,I’
mf uckenlivi
d.Thulil
aughs
l
ikeshe’spossessedandbuhl elooksatsiphohurt.

Mapholoba:“whatdidyouj ustsipho?”helooks
enragedl
ikehecanspanhi sheadof fhi
sshoulders.
Mydadopenst hatboxwear i
ngagl ovethenpull
s
outahuger atl
ikeAlexandrarats.Mapholobathen
takesastealbucketthentheybot hgotosiphoand
dadput
stheratint
othebasketat
tachi
ngi
tby
put
ti
ngthebasketagai
nsthi
sstomachandhi
m so
hewon’
tmovear oundandhesobersupsameti
me.

Dad:“bri
ngt hegaslightert
orchboys.”theybringi
t
andandt heylighti
tthendadst ar
tsheati
ngt he
stealbucketandther atscr
eamsi nsi
decauseitis
getti
nghotandt hatmakessi phoscream too

Sipho:
“hheeeyyy,
hhheyystop!
,stop!
,theratwant
s
toeatmyst omachpl
easestopI’
lltel
lyou
everyt
hingyouwanttoknow.Hesaysscr eaming
andcrying.

Mapholoba:
“yousi ckbust
ard!,
youthoughtyoucan
runawaywithmydaught erandyouf uckenlove
her!
.Af
teryoukill
edhermot her
!”hepuncheshi m
onthefacerepeatedl
yunti
lmydadpul lshim of
fof
him.
Si
cel
o:“t
alksi
pho,
youdon’
thaveal
otoft
ime.”

Buhl
e:“pl
easedon’
tki
llhi
m,Il
ovehi
m!”

Vict
or:
“stopt
hisnonsenserightnowbuhl
e!”he
repr
imandsherandshecries.

Thul
i:
“Iknewyoul
ovedt
hatl
it
tl
ewi
tch,
Iknewi
t!
.”

Me:
“wher
ewer
eyougoi
ngt
otakel
ungi
?”

Sipho:
“Iwasgoingtoaskhert
ocompanyme
somewher et
hendrughert
henleavet
hecount
ry
withher.”

Buhle:
“isthatwhyyouneverwant edtosel
lher
becauseyoul ovedherandnotme? !
.Aft
er
everyt
hingIhavedonef oryouandsacri
fi
cedyou
weregoi
ngt
ochooseherandnotme? .Howcould
you!
.”wear
ealll
ist
eni
ngtowhattheyaresayi
ng
andwearemad.Iwantsi
pho’
sbloodonmyhands.

Thuli:
“ohshutupyoul it
tlet
ramp, t
hisisallyour
fault
.Whydon’ tyout el
lthem thatitwasyouwho
cameupwi ththeplantoselllungi? .Zakes,buhle
youal lknowi sapr osti
tuteri
ght?,soonedayshe
comeshomeandsayst omeshemetamanwho
toldhert hathewant sherbuhl e,t
hi sonet obehi s
slave.Shet oldhim shecan’tcausesheal r
eadyhas
aownerwhi chissipho,soshet ellsthemant hat
shecansel lhim someoneel seatar easonable
priceandt heyagr eetoapr i
ceof3mi ll
ionbutthe
mangi vesheracheckof1. 5mi ll
ionr andsandt he
restshewassupposedt ogetitwhenshedel ivered
yourdaught ert
ohi m”whatt hefuck!

Me:“youbi
tch!,youl
iedt
omeandt ol
dmethati
t
wassiphowhowant edtosel
ll
ungiwheni
twas
act
uall
yyouridea!”
Sipho:
“Iwaslist
eningtothem andIdi
dn’twant
them t
osellherbecauseshewasmi ne!
.Thuli
beggedandbeggedmeunt ilIagr
eedbutthenbuhl
e
hadtostealfr
om youmbusot henwedidn’
tgett
o
meetthemanbecausebuhl ewast heonlyonewho
knewhim.”

Fr
ank:
“boss,
PaulandMi
kear
eher
e”

Dad:“bringthem insotheycanwatchwhatwedo
t
opeopl ewhobet r
ayus”Frankleavesandcones
wit
ht hem andt heyseethemazi
buko'sandthey
l
ookshi tscared.

Thuli
:“t
hereareotherpeoplewhoareaf
terus
causetheywereblackmaili
ngusdemandingmoney
causetheythi
nkthatwear etheoneswhokil
led
thatman.”
Me:
“I’
mtheonewhoki
ll
edt
hatman.”

Si
pho:
“Iknewi
twasyou!”

Me:“shutt hefuckupsi pho!Andyoubi t

ch!,you
wantedt oselll
ungithenyoudr ugmeandr apeme,
getMi ketohelpyout henyougetpr egnantand
abortthechildIneverknewexi stedorhowi tcame
toexistbecauseofwhatbuhl e!”Iroarinanger

Dad:
“shedi
dwhat
?.”

Mi
ke:
“she’
slyi
ngmbusoIneverdi
dthat
!”

Me:“exact
lywhatI
’
m sayi
ngdad.VictorI
’m sorr
y
butther
eisnowaybuhlei
snotdying.I’
m goingto
ki
llt
hisbit
ch!”
Thuli:
“kil
lher,
killt
hatbitch.Shehasbeennothing
butjealousofever yone.Shechangedwhenshe
foundoutt hatlungiwasn’thersi
sterandst
arted
beingjealousofher .”

Buhle:“IwasjealousbecauseIsawhowsi pho
l
ookedatherandwhenIaskedhi m whyhel ooked
athert hatwayandnotmehet hentoldmet hat
l
ungii sn’tmysisterbutshe’
sadopted.Idi
dn’tknow
thattheyboth,allthr
eeofthem ki
ll
edhermot her.”

Thuli:
“allofyouruinedmyl i
fe,allofyou.YouVi ctor
Iwasf uckingyourbrotherbehindyourbackf ora
whil
ebef oreyoufoundoutabouti ttheIleftyouf or
him andlikethedumbf uckyouar eyousi mplygave
i
n.Zakesyouar etheonlymanIhaveeverl oved
andI ’
mt heonewhosawyouf irstandnot
samkel i
siwe.Shetookyouawayf r
om meandl ived
myl i
feandIl ett
hathappen, Icouldn’twatchher
l
ivemyl ifebefor
emyeyesandbehappyf orherso
shehadt opay.”
Mapholoba:
“Il
ovedherandnotyou!
.Themoment
myeyeslaidonherIknewshewastheoneforme
notyou!
,youki
ll
edhercauseyouwerej
eal
ousthatI
l
oveherandnotyou!”

Thuli
:
“yesIwasj ealousandIwasgoi ngtomake
sur
et hatIcauseasmuchpr oblemsbet weenyou
twoaspossi bl
e,t
hent hat
’swhenIt ol
dsiphoabout
youandhowyourf amilyi
srichthenwecamewi t
h
aplantotakethemoneyandki l
lallofyou”

Si
celo:
“andyousucceededcauseyoukil
ledmy
motherandt
oreourfamil
yapart.Youbi
tch!”

Buhle:
“she’
sadogaf uckendogandIbl ameyou
thul
iforal
lmyproblems!.”Ilookatluh'
sdadand
thewayshe’swatchingthulimakesmyskincrawl
andit’
ssomethi
ngt hatneverhappenstome.
Thuli:
“wel
lyouar
ejustli
kemebuhl esi
ckand
twist
edbaby.Wearecutfrom t
hesameclothand
youcan’tr
unawayfrom that
.Ever
ythi
ngyouknow
I’
mt heonewhotaughtyou.”

Sipho:
“Ishouldhaveneverall
owedyoutoconvi
nce
met ostealf
rom t
hem causeattheendoft
heday
youbetrayedmetooandki l
ledmyson.Myonly
son”

Thul
i:
“hewasweakj ustl i
keyoubutItoler
atedyou
si
phoanddidmanyt hi ngstokeepyouhappybut
youwereneversati
sfiedbecauseallyouwanted
wasthatbi
tchlungi
,justli
kehowyouwant edher
mother
!”

Sipho:
“shewasspeci
altomeandIwasgoi
ngto
takeherandt
hamiandleaveyout
woal
one.”

Thul
i:
“don’
tmakemel
aughsi
pho,
shewasspeci
al
t
oyou?,youthi
nkshewasj
ustgoi
ngt
oal
lowyout
o
makeheryourt
hing?”

Buhle:
“Igaveyouever
ythi
ngsipho,mybody,my
mindandmyhear tandmysoulbutitwasnever
enoughevenwhenIgotpregnantforyousi
pho!”

Vi
ctor
:“what
?!”

Thul
i:
“whatthehel
lareyout
alki
ngaboutbuhl
e!,
youdon’
thaveachil
dwi t
hmyhusband!.”

Buhl
e:“butIdomommydearest
,Igavebi
rt
htoa
boyandIlefthi
m wi
thmyf
ri
endandshedied”

Me:“r
ememberwhenshewas18andr anawayf or
ayear?
, shewasalr
eadypregnantandshegave
bi
rt
htoababyboyt henl
eftthebabywit
hherfr
iend
wholaterstar
tedbl
ackmail
ingheraboutt
hechi
ld
thenbuhlegoestoherdemandstoseehersonbut
herfr
iendref
usescauseshehashiddenherchi
l
d
andthentheyfightandbuhl
eki
ll
sherandpays
someonet ogetridoft
hebody.
”

Buhl
e:“howdidyouf
indoutcauseImadesur
eno
oneknows!”

Me:“Ial
waysgetwhatIwantbuhl
e,It
houghtby
nowyoualreadyknowt
hat.”

Si
pho:
“wher
eismysonbuhl
e?”

Buhl
e:“Idon’
tknow,
mbusopl
easet
ellmewher
ehe
i
s”

Me:“he’
ssomewher ewher
ehewon’
tbet
ouchedby
yourevi
lness.Hei
srai
sedbyaf
amil
ywhoadopted
him.”
Buhl
e:“Ineedt
oseehi
m pl
easej
ustonce.”

Victor
:“never
!,youwillnotseehim bot
hofyouwil
l
neverseemygr andson!.”t
hulil
aughsli
keshe’
s
crazy

Thul i
:“ohthisi
ssogood, lookatyousi pholooking
alltouchedandwhatnot .Zakesyoucoul dhave
beenmyhusband, thefatherofmyki dsandyou
whatIdi dagoodt hingbuymaki ngsurethatyour
othert wokidsdon’tseet
hel ightofday!”ohmy
fuckedGod! .MikeandPaull ookl i
ketheywould
ratherbeanywher eelset
hanher e.

Mapholoba:
“uthi
ni?
!”(whatdi
dyoujustsay?)he
asksherfur
iousandsi
cel
ocurses.

Thul
i:
“itwasl
uckIthi
nkcauseeveryt
imeIwentt
o
seesam shewoul
dsuspectthatshe’
spr
egnant
,so
Iwoul dpoisonherdrinkorfoodthenthenextday
shewoul dhaveherper i
ods.Idi
dthattwiceaft
er
siceloandsheneversuspecteditthatdumbbitch!”
maphol obatakesthegastorchli
ghterandgoest o
thuliandburnsherfaceandshescr eamsinagony
andwest andther
eshockedatwhatshej ustsaid.

Sicel
o:“youki
ll
edmysi ster
sorbr ot
hers!
.Why!,
why
wouldyoudot hat!”hesaysscreaming,hi
sdad
stopsburni
ngthulionherfaceandt hewhole
basementsmel l
slikebur
nedflesh.”

Thuli
:“burnsi
photoocausehet ouchedluh,f
rom
theagesof5,6and7hewoul ddr ugherthenfi
nger
her.That’
swhyshedoesn’tknoworr emember
becausemostoftheshewasoutofi t”ohGodno!,
mywor stfear
shavebeenconf i
rmed.Siphousedto
molestluhwhenshewasl i
ttl
e.

Welookateachotherwi
thsi
cel
oandi
t’
sli
kehecan
r
eadmymi nd.Iseeahammerandnai
lsandIt
ake
i
tt hengotosiphopointthenai
lstohisthi
ghthen
hiti
thardandIhearhi sbonecr
ackingandIdot he
samet ohisotherthi
ghandhescr eamsbutIwant
todosomuchmor et ohim.Si
celocomeswi t
ha
contai
nerofacidandpour si
tal
loversiphoandhe
screams,t
heyallscream.

Me:“l
et’
sswit
chthecamerasoff
.”mapholobanods
andhi
sguyswi t
chedi
toffandImakesurethati
tis
i
ndeedoff.

Dad:
“isther
eanythi
ngelseallofyouwoul
dli
keto
saybefor
eyoudie.”si
phogroaninginpai
nand
can’
ttal
kandthul
iiscr
yingtoo.

Thul
i:
“zakesIj
ustwant
edyou,
Iwant
edt
obeyour
wif
e.”

Buhle:
“pleasef
orgi
veme!
,Ineedt
oli
vef
ormyson
I
’m sorr
y!.”
Me:“t
hul
iwhowashel
pingyouwi
tht
hepl
anst
o
ski
pthecount
ry?”

Thul
i:
“itwast
hoset
wo,
MikeandPaul”

Paul
:“mbusobrothershe’sl
ying.Idi
dn’
thelpt
hem I
havenoideawhattheyar et
alki
ngabout.”hesays
scar
edandlit
eral
lyshaking.

Mike:
“Idon’
tknowthesetwopeople,Ihavenever
metthem i
nmyl i
fe.
,Iswearmbuso!,
bongamy
f
ri
endyoubelievemer i
ght
?”

Bonga:
“fuckoff
,yout
hinkyoucanmesswithmy
fami
lyt
hegetawaywithit?
,youobvi
ousl
yforgot
whombusoi s.”

Maphol
oba:
“anyl
astwor
dssi
pho?”
Sipho:
“justki
llmeandputmeoutofmymi
ser
y,I
’
m
doneandIdon’ tcar
eanymor
e.”

Maphol
oba:
“andyout
hul
i?”

Thul
i:
“Il
oveyouzakesal
waysknowt
hat
.”

Sicel
o:“doyour
egr
ett
het
hingsyoudi
dtoour
famil
y?”

Her
:“noIdon’
t.”

Dad:
“Vi
ctoryoudon’
thavet
ost
ayandwat
cht
his”

Vi
ctor:
“shehashadenoughoft hiswor
ld,
letme
t
akeheroutofitplease.Shedeser
vest
orestnow.”
I
’m sor
ryforVi
ctorbutnotforbuhl
e.
Mapholoba:“she’
syourdaught
erVi
ctorsodoi
t.”
Vict
orpull
shisgunoutandpointsi
tatbuhl
eand
shecri
es.

Vict
or :
“IwishIknewyouwer eminecauseIwoul d
havet r
iedtoprotectyouf r
om thet hi
ngst hesetwo
didtoyou.Youdeser vet orestnowcauseyou’ ve
hadal onghardlifemychi ld.
”Hesayst henpulls
thetri
ggerandshoot sherpoi ntblankonherhead
andt wiceonherhear tandIseet earsfalli
ngdown
hisface.Thathasgott obet hehar destthingsI
haveeverseen.Hedr opsthegunt hensitsdown
andcr i
es.Fuck!.

Mapholoba:“boysgi vemet hepetr

ol”theydoand
i
t’s3twentyfiveli
tresofpetrol
.Igoandhel phim
pourital
loversipho, si
cel
oanddadpouri tover
thul
i.Mapholobat henopenst hi
sdoort hat’
sonthe
cornerofthebasementont hefl
oorandt heyhelp
him pul
lthedoorupandopeni t.“l
et’
sgett hem i
n
ther
e”wedr agt hem andt
hrowthem downthe
deepwhol ethenwepourtheremainingpet
rolover
them.“sicel
owoul dyouli
ketodothehonours?”
weallgatheraroundthewholei
ncludingVi
ctorand
wewat chthem

Sicelo:
“whol ehear tedly”het akest hemat chlights
i
tt henlooksatt hem andt heyl ookscar ed.“youar e
theonest odayt hatwilldiebur ningandyou’ llburn
i
nhel ltoo.I’
llsleepbet terknowi ngmymot her’
s
kil
lersarenol ongerr oami ngt her oadsoft hi
sear th
andawor ldisabet t
erpl acewi thoutyout woi nit.
”
Hesayst hent hrowst hemat chandt heyscream
wrenchi ngcriesast heybur n.Mayt heyrotinhel l
.
Wecl oset hedoorandt heircriesarenol ongerl oud
butyoucanst i
llhearthem.

Dad:“ki
llthesetwoandthr
owt heirbodi
eswher e
peoplewi l
lfi
ndthem.”hesaysthenbongaand
FrankshootMi keandPaulsofasttheydidn’tseeit
comingt hentheguyswhowor kformaphol oba
wr
apt
hem i
npl
ast
ic.

Me:“dr
opt
hem somewher
ecl
oset
oJobur
gandnot
her
e.”

Them:
“okboss.”t
hent
heydr
agt
hei
rbodi
esout
.

Me:“I
’m sor
ryyouhadt
odothat.”Isayt
oVi
ctor
,
welaybuhlebodydownandwrapherwit
ha
bl
anket.

Hi
m:“I’
m sor
rytoof
orallt
het
hingsshedi
dtoyou.
Toal
lofyouI’
m sor
ry.

Dad:
“whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odowi
thherbody.”

Him:“Ihavet
oburyher
,I’
l
ldr
ivedownwit
hher
bodynowandt omor
rowmorningwewi
llbur
yher
.”
Dad:
“wewi l
lgowithyou,nowguystakeherbody
andputi
tinthatbodybagwithl
otsofice.”t
hey
nodandleavetaki
ngbuhl
e’sbody.

Hi
m:“t
hankyou.”

Maphol oba:“youknowwhatt i
met ocheckont hem
thenpourt heacidtomakesur ethatnothi
ngislef
t
behi nd.Tomor rowNgwendewi llcomet ocl
eanse
thebasementandal lofus.Vi
ctorcanyoucollect
alltheirsouls.”hetell
soneoftheguysandVi ctor
thenIgot othecomput erandremovet hehard
drivesofal lthefoot
age.

Si
cel
o:“yeahmant
akei
t,wecan’
taf
for
dtohave
l
oseends.”

Me:
“Iwil
linst
allanewsecur
it
ysyst
em j
ustt
obeon
t
hesaf
eside.”
Bonga:
“manseei
ngVi
ctorcr
ygotme.”

Frank:
“ther
ewasnohopef orbuhl
e,shewasa
damagedsoul.”dad,maphol
obaandVictorcome
backandweal lst
andther
e.

Mapholoba:“whathappenstoni
ghtst
ayswi t
hus
onl
y.Noonewi l
lknowaboutwhathappenedhere
butonl
yt hepeoplewhowerehere.MbusoIknow
youdon’twanttoliet
oluhbutthi
smysoni snot
somethi
ngyouar egoingtotel
lher
.Wewi l
lcome
upwithapl anastowhathappenedtobuhlebut
whenshehasgi venbirt
h.Shecanneverknowthat
si
phomol estedherwhenshewasyoung.”

Dad:“it
’sablessi
ngindisgui
sethatallt
heseyears
shehasnothadvi vidmemoriesofthatti
me,but
shoulditeverhappenorevensuspectwewi l
lhave
todosomet hing”
Me:
“it
’sf
orherowngooddad,
Iknow.”

Mapholoba:
“wear
edone,nomor
eloseendsor
peopl
ewehavetokil
lri
ght
?”

Me:“myf r
iends,
Ithinkoneoft
hem bet
rayedme
notI’
m notsurewhichone.”

Si
cel
o:“wethinkt
hatoneofthem t
oldngqakul
athat
i
twasmbusowhoki ll
edhisbrot
heranditwasonly
usandthem whoknew.”

Dad:“wewil
lsor
tthatout,
fornowwehavetogo
andbebackbeforemiddaytomorr
owortheywi
l
l
star
tcal
li
ngandgetti
ngsuspici
ous.”

Me:
“okdad.”
Vict
or:
“af
terever
ythi
nghassett
ledwi
llyoupl
ease
showmewher emygr andsoni
s?”

Me:“don’
twor
ry,
Iwi l
ldothat
,he’
sbei
ngt
akencar
e
of
,Imadesureofthat.”

Hi
m:“t
hankyoumbuso.”

Me:“don’
tthankmeuncl
eVictor
.Allofyouhere
gavemel ungi
leandt
hat
’swhatI’
l
lforeverbe
grat
efulf
or.”

Mapholoba:“l
et’
sgot
oSt
ander
tonguys.”weal
l
hugVictor
.

Me:“Ihopet
hisi
sthelastt
imewear
egoi
ngt
o
St
andertont
oburysomeone.”
Vict
or:
“Ithi
nkI’l
ltakeluhonheroff
erandmove
fr
om therecausethatplacenowhasonlybad
memor i
esforme.Mysi st
ersar
etheresot
heywi
ll
t
akecar eofmymot her
.”

Me:
“youneedaf
reshst
art
.”

Maphol
oba:
“atleasewehavesomet
hinggoodt
o
l
ookfor
wardto,
thenegot
iat
ions”

Si
cel
o:“youar
egoingt
opayl
obol
aforl
uhagai
n,
mysi
sterisl
uckyman”

Me:“I’l
lkeepdoi
ngitoverandoveragai
n.No
amountofmoneycoul dmeasureupt oher
.She’
s
wortheverydoll
ar,
randsandpennyIhave.
”They
l
augh.Themoodl i
ft
salit
tl
ebit
.Wegeti nt
hecars
thenleave.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER39.

LUNGI
.

Wear ehavi ngdinnerinthekit

chen,theyare
drinkingwi neandI ’
m drinki
ngmygl assofappl e
j
uice.I ’
m sohappyt hatSimsishere,thedesigner
hast akenal lofourmeasur ementsexcludingmy
dad, uncleVi ct
orandmbuso' sdadbutmah
promi sedt otaketheirmeasurementsandsend
them t othedesigner .I
’
m soexcit
edt hatfi
nall
y
everythingseemst obegoi ngwell
,thenegotiati
ons
aregoi ngtobegi nandI ’
llbembuso'swi f
elegall
y
andt raditi
onall
y.

Me:“mahIwant edt
oaskyouifyoucanhelpusby
gett
ingsomeonewecant r
usttohel
paroundthe
housesincei
tisnowfurni
shedandmbusohas
beencomplai
ningaboutusgett
inghel
p.”
Sims:
“whycan’tyouguysgetacl
eani
ngcompany
tocomeandcleanthehouse.
”

Mah:“she’spregnantSimsandneedssomeonet o
beherealltheti
me.Ithinknontoshoul
dcomeand
hel
pyouguyssi ncewet r
ustherandshehasbeen
worki
ngforusf oryears.
”

Prest
on:“that
’sagreati
deaandIst il
lhavet
ofi
nd
younanniesthatyouguyswilli
ntervi
ewandagree
oncauseIknowmbusowon’ tletanyonehedoesn’
t
tr
ustaroundyouandhi ski
ds.”

Mah:
“theyal
lwon’
t.”

Me:
“thankyoumah.
”

Mah:
“doyouwanthert
oli
vewi
thyouguys?”
Me:
“yesshehast
oandsowi
llt
henanni
est
oo.”

Prest
on:
“goodthi
ngis,
ther
eisacot
tageout
side
thatt
heycanal
lli
vei
nandnotint
hehouse.”

Me:
“what
’swr
ongwi
tht
hem l
ivi
ngi
nthehouse”

Sims:
“theymi
ghthi
tonyourhusband,
youhave
seenhowmbusolooksr
ight”

Me:
“Itr
usthi
m andIknowhewi
llnevercheaton
meSims”

Sims:“Iknowbutmencheatwhenyouar epr
egnant
butI’
m notsayi
ngthatmbusoischeati
ngonyou.”I
cannotbeli
eveshehasjustsai
dthat
.

Mah:
“Si
mswhat
’swr
ongwi
thyou?Howcanyou
evensayt
hat
?”

Preston:“mbusolovesluht
oomuch, themani s
basicall
yobsessedwithherandthenyouthinkhe
mightevenlookatanotherli
kehowhel ooksatluh
si
mphi we?”heasksherget t
ingannoyed.

Me:“ar
eyout
ryi
ngt
otel
lmesomethi
ngsi
ms,or
youwantmet
ostar
tbei
ngpar
anoi
dandsuspi
cious
ofhim?.”

Her:
“noluhIwasonlysayingthatmostmencheat
whenawomani spregnantthat’
sal
l.Imeani
t
happenedt
ome.”

Me:“Iknowithappenedt oyoucauseIwast her

e,
yourexperi
enceswer eonlyyour
sandi tdoesn’t
meant hatwhathappenedt oyouwil
lalsohappent o
met oosimphiwe.Iknowmbusoi snotper fectl
ike
therestofusandyeshehasmademi stakesinthe
pastbutheisnott
hemanwhowaswhenIf i
rstmet
him.HehaschangedandIthoughtt
hatyousawit
toocauseyouhaveseenwhathashappened
betweenus….”

Her
:“Iknowbut
…”

Me:“nol etmef inish.MymbusolovesmeandI

knowhewi l
lneverhurtmeli
kethatbecauseIt rust
him compl etel
yandIknowt hathewoul dratherdie
thathurtmeagai ninanyway.Whateverthatis
goingwi t
hyoui nyourheadyoubet terstopit
becauseIwi l
lnothaveyouspeakingbadt hings
aboutthemanIl ove.”

Her:“I’
m sor
ryluh,
ever
ythingIsai
dwascomingout
fr
om agoodpl acenotbecauseIwantt
ocause
problemsbetweenthetwoofyou.”

Mah:
“ifIdi
dn’
tknowbet
terIwoul
dsayyouar
e
j
eal
ousSi
ms.
”

Sims:“whatno?Howcanyousaythat?
.Luhi
smy
si
sterandIloveher
,Ij
ustdon’
twantt
oseeherhur
t
againthat
’sal
l.”

Preston:
“lookather,
she’sgl
owing,she’
shappy
andshe’sinloveisabouttogetmarri
edtot
heman
shelovesandt heyar
eexpecti
ngkids.Whatwould
hurtherorratherwhowouldhurther?”

Her
:“Iam notj
eal
ousofher
!.Iwoul
dneverhur
tthe
onl
ypersonwholovesmeandmyki ds.”

Mah:
“goodthenbecauseifyoudombusoand
si
cel
owil
lkil
lyoujustsoyouknow.Evenbonga
won’
tpr
otectyou.
”

Me:
“Si
mswhat
’sgoi
ngon?
,tal
ktome?
.Di
dyour
t
alkwi
thbonganotgookay?
.”

Her:“i
twentokayandwet al
ked.Idon’tknow
maybeI ’
mjustscaredthathewillcheatonmeand
hurtme.I’
m sor
ryluh.Iknowmbusor eallyl
oves
youandwoul dneverdoanythingtohur tyou.”

Mah:“Simsl ist
en,youandl uhcouldbesisteri
n-
l
awsi fbongamar r
iesyouandsowhenhedoes
somethingyoucan’ tmakel uhthi
nkthatmbuso
mightbedoi ngthesamet hi
ngtoocauseyouar e
goingtoplantaseedofdoubti nherheadand
causeproblemsbet weenthem.Luhlovesyouand
tr
ustsyou,youropi nionmatter
stoher.Talkto
bongaandt ellhim yourfear
s.”

Her
:“Iwi
llaunt
yI’
m sor
ryguys.”

Prest
on:“luht
oldmehowshemetmbuso, didyou
feelr
eject
edbyhim whenhechoseherandnotyou?
”

Sims:“noIdidn’tbecauseIknewhewasgoingto
chooseher.Hehasbeenwat chi
ngherf
rom thef
ir
st
dayhesawher .”

Preston:“hmm Idon’
tknowbecauseIt hinkmaybe
apar tofyouwishesthatwhatcoul
dhavehappened
i
fhechoseyou? .Youcouldhavebeenlivingtheli
fe
l
uhi slivi
ngandsomaybeyouar eali
tt
lebi tj
ealous
don’tyout hi
nk?”

Me:“pr
esshe’snotj
eal
ousofmecomeon.”Isay
def
endingherandshel
ookshur
t.

Her
:“I
’
m notj
eal
ousofherl
if
ePr
est
onokay!
.”

Preston:
“Imeanhechoseluhnotyouthenwef i
nd
outthatyouandbongaar
esleepi
ngtogetherI
mean…. .I
fyoucan’tgett
hemanyouwantwhynot
settl
eforhisbr
other”whati
shesayi
ng?
!.That
’s
crazy.

Me:“Prest
onpleasestopokay!.Juststop.She
apol
ogizedandIknowt hatshedoesn’twantmbuso
orevenlooksathi
mt hatway.”Ibelievethat
.

Mah:“Prestonhasapointthough,
whydidn’tshe
tel
lyouthatshesleptwi
thbonga?.Youguysar e
bestfr
iendssowhydi dshekeepthati
nfor
mat i
on
awayfrom you?.”

Sims:“becausealotwashappeni ngtoherandshe
wasoutonbedr est
.Iwillnotall
owyouguyst o
makemet hebadguyandaccusemeofwant ing
mbuso.Shet akescareofmeandmyki ds,bothof
them do.Idonotseehi mt hatwayandchoosehis
brotherbecausehedidn’twantme.Bongaist he
onlymanIwantwhet herhei smbuso'
sbrotheror
not.”Ilookatherandshesoundshur t.
Pr
eston:
“ifi
tlooks,
smel
lsl
ikej
eal
ousyt
heni
tis
j
eal
ousy.”

Me:
“pr
esst
opi
tpl
ease.Mahpl
ease.”

Mah:
“presl
eavei
tal
one.”shesaysandIsi
gh.I
l
ookatt
heti
meandit’
s11pm.

Me:
“ar
eyouokay?”IaskSi
ms?

Her
:“I
’
mfi
ne”butshedoesn’
tsoundf
ine.

Me:“you’l
lusethebedr
oom nextt
oPr est
on’
sand
mahyou’ l
lusetheoneopposi
tePrest
on’s.I
’
m goi
ng
tobed,Idon’tt
hinkt
heguysaregoingtobeback
anyt
imesoon.”
Mah:
“ar
eyouokayl
uh?”

Me:
“I’
mfi
nemah,
goodni
ghtguys”It
ellt
hem

Pr
eston:
“youwantmet
ocomeandcuddl
ewi
thyou?
”Ilaugh

Me:“mbusowon’ tl
ikefindi
ngyoui nhisbedand
Simsistheonewhocoul dusesomecuddl i
ng.You
twoshouldtal
k.Nightnight
.”Il eavethem andgot o
mybedroom.Icloset hedoor,got omybat hroom
andshower.Getinbedandsl eep.Iwon’ tentert
ain
whatSimssaidandwhatPr estonandmaht hink.

Mor ningcomes,Iwakeupaloneinbed.Mbuso
didn’tcomebackhomel astnight
.Ikeyphoneand
callhim buti
tputsmeonvoi cemail
.

Me:
“heybabyar
eyouokay?
,youdi
dn’
ttel
lmet
hat
youwon’tnecomingbackhome.Ihopeyouare
safecal
lme.”Ihangupandgoshower .Igett
othe
ki
tchenandmyhousesmel l
sdevi
neandIsmi le.
“hell
osisnont
oyouarealr
eadyhere?”Iaskher
si
tti
ngdown.

Nonto:
“mor ni
ngsisluh.Whenaunt
yphonedme
l
astnightandaskedmei fIwant
edtocomeand
workhereIaccepted”

Me:
“thankyou,Ij
usthopedadwon’ tbemadthat
wet
ookhisfavouri
tehousekeeper”shesmi
les

Her
:“hewon’
tmi
ndplustheothert
wol
adi
esar
e
t
hereandt
heywi
llmanage.”

Me:“wewil
ltal
kaboutyoursal
aryandbenef
it
s
whenmbusocomeshomebutt hewhol
ehouseis
yours.”
Her:
“youhaveabeaut
ifulhomesi
sluh,
I’
llmake
sur
eintakecar
eofi
t.”

Me:“t
hankyou,ther
e’sacott
ageoutsi
dethatyou
wil
lusei
fyouwantt oli
vehereorwecanarrangea
t
ranspor
ttofet
chyouf r
om yourpl
ace.”

Her:
“I’
llbest
ayi
ngatmypl
acesi
sluh”shesays
bl
ushingokshehasaman.

Me:
“okt
hen,
aret
heot
her
sawake?”

Her:
“onlyyouraunt
,she’
stheonewhol
etmei
n.I
t
hinkshe’sshoweri
ng.”

Me:“itsmell
sdevi
neIhere,
butIwantpapandox
l
iversisnont
o”shelaughs
Her
:“pr
egnancycr
avi
ngs.I
’l
lasktheguysout
side
t
ogobuyanoxl i
verwhi
leIcookyoupap.”

Me:
“whendi
dtheygether
e?”

Her
:“Idon’tknow,
whenIgother
etheywer
e
out
side.”Inod.

Me:“l
etmegogetthemoney,I
’
llbeback.”Igoto
mybedroom,t
akethemoney,
comebackandgi veit
toher
.Simscomesinl
ooki
nglikeshedidn’
tsl
eep
atal
l.

Her
:“mor
ningl
uh”

Me:
“mor
ning,
youl
ookl
ikeyouhadar
oughni
ght
.”

Her
:“yeahIdi
dn’
tsl
eepwel
l”
Me:
“why?”Iaskhereat
inganappl
e.

Her
:“t
heydi
dn’
tcomebackl
astni
ght
.”

Me:
“Iknow.”

Her:
“di
smbusot
ell
youwher
etheyar
eorwhatt
hey
ar
edoing?”

Me:
“no.”

Her
:“hmm ”

Me:
“Si
msdon’
tst
art
!.”

Mah:
“st
artwhat
?”
Me:
“not
hingmah,
goodmor
ning”

Mah:“mor
ningbaby,
mor
ningSi
ms”sheki
ssesmy
cheek.

Prest
on:
“morningfam,todayi
sabeaut
if
ulday”he
sayssmil
ingandIgiggl
e.

Me:
“don’
tyouhaveasur
ger
ytor
un?”

Hi
m:“Iwil
lgoandseei
ftheper
sonIl
efti
sst
il
l
managi
ng.”

Me:
“Ineedt
owor
kaf
terIgi
vebi
rt
h.”

Mah:
“oryoucanst
artyourownr
ealest
ate
company”
Me:“Iwasthi
nki
ngthesamethi
ngtoo,
Simscoul
d
hel
pwiththepaperwor
kandyoutoomah.”

Her:
“nope,
I’
m goodmanagi
ngourf
armt
hankyou
ver
ymuch.”

Sims:
“Iwoul
dlovet
hat
.”shesmi
lespl
ayi
ngher
food.

Pr
est
on:
“andwhataboutme?”

Me:
“sor
ry,
wedon’
townahospi
tal”wel
augh

Mah:
“whyar
en’
tyoueat
ing?”

Nont
o:“shewant
spapandanoxl
iver”
Mah:“di
dyoutel
ltheguystogot
ooursuper
mar
ket
but
cheryandgett
helivert
her
e?”

Her
:“Idi
dandi
tshoul
dbeher
eI’
m 10mi
nut
es.”

Me:
“mahdi
dyouhearf
rom dad?”

Her
:“Ididandtheyallsl
eptathishousebutIt
hink
t
heywillbeher
el at
eintheafter
noon.

Me:
“isever
ythi
ngokay?”

Her:
“iti
sbaby,appar
ent
lytheyal
lgotdrunkand
deci
dedtosleepsonowtheyarenursi
ngtheir
hangover”

Me:“men”Isaychuckl
ing.Myl
iverget
sdeli
ver
ed
andit
’sawhol
ecowsl i
vermyGodI ’
m sogoi
ngto
eatituntilIgetfull.Nont ocoolsitanditsmells
wonder ful.“canyout ellt
heguyst ocomeandhave
breakfast?”shel eavesandcomesbackwi ththem,
theyareonl yt wo.Theygr eet
,nont opl
atesforthem
andt heyeat .Shecookst heliverformeandi t
smel l
samazi ng.Idigi nwhenmypaphascool ed
down.Theguysf inishedt heyfoodandt hanksme
thenleave.

Thereisawkwardsil
encebetweenmah, Prest
on
andSimsandIhat eit
.I’
m notgoi
ngt oaskthem or
whatistheuncomfort
ablesil
enceaboutbecauseI
thoughtever
ythi
ngthathappenslastni
ghthasbeen
forgot
ten.Myphoneringsandit
’smyman.

Me:
“mor
ningbaby”

Hi
m:“l
ovear
eyouokay?”

Me:
“Iam boo,
how’
sthehangover
?”hechuckl
es
Hi
m:“badbutI
’
llbef
ine.Di
dyoumi
ssme?”Ismi
le

Me:
“Idi
dbaby”

Him:
“Idi
dtoo,
butI’
l
lbether
esoont
oshowyou
howmuchImissedyou”Igi
ggl
e

Me:
“Ican’
twai
t.”

Hi
m:“t
her
earepeopl
ewhoareout
sidenow.I
’
llt
ell
t
heguyst
oopenfort
hem ”

Me:
“whatki
ndofpeopl
e?”

Him:“somet
hingyourbr
otherdeci
dedt
odof
oryou.
Ihavetogobaby,Il
oveyou”
Me:
“ok,
Iloveyoumor
e.”hehangsup.

Me:“nontocanyougoopent
hel
ivi
ngr
oom door
andlett
hosepeoplei
n.”

Si
ms:
“what
’sgoi
ngon?”

Me:“si
cel
odecidedtodosomet hi
ngformeandI
guesswe’
llseewhatthati
s.”Igetupandgotot
he
l
ivi
ngroom,lookout
sidemywi ndowandseea
tr
uckandIsmi l
e.

Mah:
“hi
swayofsayi
ngsor
ry?”

Me:
“iti
s.”nont
olet
’st
hem i
n.

Lady:“hiwear
efr
om par
adi
sebeautyspaandaMr
Sicel
osentusher
etocomeandgiveyou,yourown
spadayi
nyourhome.”Weal
lscr
eam.

Me:
“youcansetupher
eandcal
luswhenyouar
e
r
eadyforus.”

Lady:“herear eyourowngowns, pl
easegoand
changei nt
ot hem.”thefourofusleavet oour
bedroomsandchange.Mybr ot
heristhebestandI
haven’tbeeni nabeautyspaforyears.Itakemy
phoneandt ype“thankyoubigbrother,youar
ethe
bestandIl oveyou.”andsendi t
.

Chapt
er40i
ntheeveni
ng.
CHAPTER40.

Ireal
lyenj
oyedthemassages, layingont hatbed
thatcanal
soaccommodat epregnantwomanhas
beenwonder f
ul.Iam agoingtot hisagainfor
myselfandmbusot oo,yes!
.Ihaveani deawhat
goingtodo.Hecouldreall
yuset her estbecausehe
hasbeenrunningaft
erpeopl
ef oral
ongti
menow
andIjustwantmymant orelaxandnotworr
yabout
anythi
ngelse.Event
houghthemassageswer e
greatt
hemoodi snotri
ghtandIhavetoaddress
thi
s.

Nont oispr epar

ingalatelunch,mahi ssomewher e
ont hehouseandPr estonlettocheckouthis
business, Simsdecidedtot akegoandt akeanap
aft
ert al
kingt ot
heboys.I ’
mi nmyl i
vingwatching
TVwhent hedooropensandi t
’smybaby.Igetup
andr untohi m wrappingmyl egsaroundhim, he
catchesmel aughing.

Him:“nowthisisawel comehomeIwasl ooki

ng
for
wardtoo.”Iplantki
ssesal
loverhi
sfaceandhe
chuckl
es.

Me:
“Imi
ssedyou”Isayki
ssi
nghi
m
Hi
m: “Imi
ssedyoutoobabybutcomeandfeedme
I
’m hungr
ythenl
ateryou’
l
lshowmehowmuchyou
missedme”hespeaksbetweenkisses.

Si
celo:“pleasest
opIdon’twantt
obebl
ind.
”Ilook
onthesi deandsmile.Mbusoput
smedown, Igi
ve
mybr otherabighug.

Me:
“Il
ovedt
hemassaget
hankyouver
ymuch.”

Hi
m:“i
twasmywayofsayi
ngsor
rysi
s.”

Me:“youwer
efor
givenbutt
hiswast
hei
cingont
he
cake.”

Si
cel
o:“wher
e’sever
yone?”

Me:
“Si
msi
staki
ngnap,
mahI
’
m notsur
ewher
e
shei
sthenPr
estonwentt
oseehowt
hingsar
e
goi
nginhi
ssurger
y.”

Mbuso:
“comeandf
eedme”hesayst
aki
ngmy
hand

Me:
“nont
oiscooki
ngbutIt
hinkshe’
sal
mostdone.
”

Hi
m:“she’
sher
e?”

Me:
“yes,
she’
sournewhousekeeperbaby”

Hi
m:“si
syout
alkabouthersal
aryandot
hert
hings?
”

Me:
“It
houghtwewi
lldot
hatt
oget
her”
Him:“loveyou’r
ethewomanoft hi
shouseand
whateveryoudecidei
sfinebyme.Justgivemeher
bankingdetai
lsanddocuments.”wegeti
nt he
ki
tchenandsi tdown.

Them:
“Hisi
snont
o?”t
heygr
eether

Her
:“goodaf
ter
noonsi
rs”

Mbuso:
“thankyouf
oragr
eei
ngt
owor
kforus”

Her
:“mypl
easur
esi
r.”

Si
cel
o:“whatar
eeat
ing?”

Her:“f
oodsi
celo”welaugh.“youwil
lbehavi
ng
sevencol
ours.Ar
etheotherscomi
ngormustIdish
foronl
yyou?”
Sims:“goodafter
noon,
Iwoul
dli
kesomef
ood.I
’
m
famished.”Ismil
e.

Si
cel
o:“ar
eyousi
ckorsomet
hing?”

Her
:“nowhy?”sheasksf
rowni
ng

Sicel
o:“youwer et
akinganap.TheSimsIknow
wouldhavedr ankthewhiskeywelef
tbehi
nd”hei
s
ri
ghtweal ll
augh.

Her:
“manIf
orgotabouti
t.ButcanIpouryouguys
one?”

Mbuso:
“I’
m good,
Ijustneedf
oodandsl
eep.”

Si
cel
o:“I
’
llhaveonet
oo”sheget
supandf
ixedt
he
bot
hoft
hem adr
ink.

Me:
“wher
ear
etheot
her
s?”

Mbuso:“t
hedad’
swentt
oseesomeone,
bonga,
sbu
andfr
ankaresmoki
ngoutsi
de.”

Si
ms:“Ihat
ethathesmokesbutIlovet
hesmel
lof
ni
cot
ineonhim.”shesaysbl
ushing.

Me:
“haveyoueversmokedbaby?”

Hi
m:“neverl
ove”

Me:
“andyoudon’
thavet
att
oosei
ther”

Him:“Idonat
ebl
oodsoIst
aycl
earofanyi
nkonmy
body.”
Me:“t
heywoul
dhavel
ookedamazi
ngonyourski
n”
hechuckl
es

Hi
m:“doyouhaveat
hingf
orguyswi
tht
att
oosl
ove?
”

Me:
“Ihaveat
hingf
oryouonl
y”Ibl
ushheki
sses
mycheek.

Si
cel
o:“guyswear
est
il
lher
e”

Si
busi
so:
“I’
m goi
ngt
othr
owup”wel
augh

Bonga:
“heyguys, heybaby?”Simssmiles,she
real
lyl
ookshappy.Sheshouldjustt
alkwithbonga
andtel
lhim herf
earsaboutthei
rrel
ati
onship.
Si
ms:
“hel
lo”t
heyki
ssl
ight
ly

Me:
“ohhhh”wealllaugh.Fr
ankandmahjoi
nus
t
henprestooj
oinsus.“Simscanyouhel
pmeput
t
hedishesont
het abl
e?”

Her:
“suresis”welookateachot
herandgi
ggl
e.We
putthepl
atesonthetabl
e,hel
pnont
odishupt
he
foodandsitdown.

Mah:
“si
mscanyousaygrace?”Il
ookatherandI
f
eelmbusol
ooki
ngatme.

Sims:“let’
scloseoureyes.FatherIt hankyouforall
theblessingIhaveinmyl i
feandt heblessi
ngyou
arestil
lgoingtoblessmewi t
handIt hankyoufor
blessi
ngmewi ththi
sf amil
ythatIhaveandI
apologizeforoff
endinganyone.Thankyouf orthi
s
foodsisnont opreparedforusAmen.”shesays
andshesoundshur tandIdon’ tl
ikethat.
Us:“Amen.”Ilookatherandshegivesmeaside
smile.Il
ookdownandeatmyf ood.Thewhilet
abl
e
i
squi etonl
ythesoundsofplat
esandknives
cl
icking.

Mbuso:
“okwhati
sgoi
ngon?”

Sicel
o:“causewhenwel ef
tther
ewasnot
ensi
on
betweenallofyoubutnow?.”

Bonga:
“babydi
dyouandl
uhf
ight
?”

Her
:“nowedi
dn’
t”

Mbuso:
“lovewhat
’swr
ong?”

Me:
“not
hingboo”
Prest
on:“si
msmi ghthavesai
dthatyoumi
ghtbe
cheat
ingonluh.”

Me:“shutupPr
est
onshedi
dn’
tsayt
hat
!.”Ishout
athi
m

Bonga:
“yousai
dthat
?”

Si
ms:“Idi
dn’tsaythatmbusoi
scheati
ngonher
,I
j
ustsai
dmostoft hetimemencheatonthei
r
pr
egnantwives.”

Mbuso:
“andImi
ghtbeoneoft
hoseman?”hesays
socal
mly

Mah:
“that
’swhatshei
nsi
nuat
ed”
Bonga:
“whatmadeyoucomet
othatconcl
usi
on
baby?”

Me:“wewer etal
kingaboutmeandyouhi r
ing
nanniesandthattheywoul dhavet olivewithi
si n
thehouseandSi mswasconcer nedthatt
heymi ght
hitonmbusoandIt oldthem thatItr
ustyouand
somehowmahandPr estonthoughtthatshemi ght
bejealousofmewhi chshei snot.Shewasj ust
concernedaboutmewant i
ngotherpeopletolive
withusinthehouse.”

Prest
on:
“itwasthewayshesaiditthought
hat
suggest
edthatshemightbej
ealousofluhandyou.
”

Mbuso:“youdon’tknowthekindifrel
ationshipl
uh
haswithSims.Theygrewupt ogetherthethreeof
them wi
ththamiandIam pr et
tysurethatifshewas
j
ealousofluhshewouldn’tbesit
ti
ngher ewi t
hus.”
Mah:“thensheshouldn’
thavepl
ant
edt
hatt
hought
ofdoubtinherhead.”

Me:“mahst op.Shedi
dn’tpl
antanyt hi
nginmyhead
orinsinuatedthatmbusoischeating.Itr
usthim
andt hat’
sthat.Si
msismysi sterandbestf r
iend
andsheknowsshecant el
lmeanyt hing,shareher
fearswi t
hmebecauseshet r
ustsmeandIwon’ t
j
udgeher .Whatshesaidcamef rom agoodpl ace
andshemeantnohar mt omeormbuso.”Isee
simst reati
ngupanditbreaksmyhear t
.

Sibusi
so:“PrestondidSimssayi
tthatmadeyou
thi
nkshewasj eal
ous? ,
wasshesayi
ngbadthi
ngs
abouttheirr
elati
onship?”

Pr
est
on:
“nobutmaybeshef
eel
sli
ke…”

Me:
“st
opi
tPr
est
on!
.Sheexpl
ainedagai
nandagai
n
toyouandmaht hatwhatshesai
dcamef r
om a
goodplaceandapologi
zedtoyoutooandtomebut
yousti
llwanttomakethi
sthingabigi
ssuewhen
i
t’snot
hing.”

Mah:“thenwhydidshenotsayanyt
hingt
oyou
aboutherandbonga?”

Me:“enoughwi ththi
sbullshittal
k!.Shehasever y
ri
ghtt osharewhatshewant smet oknowandwhat
notlikeIdo.Si msdoesn’towemeanyexpl anati
on
andIwi llnotletyouandPr estoncomebet weenus
andcausepr oblems.Shei smysi sterwhet hershe
doesgoodorbadandIl ovehert hesame, whatshe
saidmeansnot hingtomecauseIknowshemeant
nohar m andshewasj ustbeingsherl oudmout h
self
.Iknowher ,youdon’tknowher ,Igrewupwi th
herandIwi l
lnotletyoumakeherf eel
uncomf ortableandunwel comedi nmyhouse.
Prestondon’ teverspeakforSimsl ikeyouknowher
mor ethanmeandmahwhatsi mssai di smy
businessandmi neal oneunl essIcomet oyou
aski
ngf orhelp.Thi sisthel astti
mewewi llhave
thi
sconver sati
onandyouwi l
lnotmakeSi msf eel
l
ikeshe’snoti mpor tanttomecauseshei s.I’
ve
knownhermor ethanal lofyoucombi nedi nthis
tabl
eandIwoul dknowi fshewasj ealousofme.
Noneofyout het hingswewentt hroughandhow
manyt imesshehaspr otectedme.Youhur ther ,al
l
ofyoui nthistableyouwi l
ldealwi t
hme.I ’m Lungile
Ngcoboandnoonemesseswi t
hthepeopl eIlove.”
mbusol ooksatmewi t
hpr i
dei nhiseyessmi li
ng
andIsmi l
eback.Si mst akesmyhandi nhersand
wehol dherstight .

Sibusi
so:“whoknewyoubeneat hal
lthatsweet
,
submissivewomanwasabadasschi ck.ManIlove
you”hesayspal minghischeekandmbusot hr
ows
aknifeathim andwealllaugh.

Me:
“youandFr
ankexcl
udedf
rom whatIsai
d.”
Frank:
“foramomentthereIthoughtyouwer
e
goingtokickal
lofusoutofyourhouse.”

Me:
“Ial
mostdi
dthat”Imeani
t.

Mbuso:
“doyouf
eel
thr
eat
enedbyt
hei
rrel
ati
onshi
p?
”

Hi
m:“uhm noIdon’
t.Iwasj
ustl
ooki
ngoutf
orl
uh”

Me:“Prest
onIam agrownasswomanandIdon’t
needtobelookedaft
erf
rom myownsi
sterl
ikeIam
aGoddamnchi ld.
”

Sibusi
so:
“ormaybeyouar
etheonewhoi
sjeal
ous
ofluhandSims.
”

Hi
m:“noI
’
m not
.”
Si
cel
o:“am Iint
roubl
etoo?
,causeyouar
escar
ing
me.”Igiggl
e

Me:
“noyouar
enot”

Sicel
o:“t
hankGod!
.”hesayswi
pinghi
sfor
ehead,
I
shakemyheadlaughi
ng.

Me:
“bot
hofyouneedt
oapol
ogi
zet
oSi
ms.
”

Mah:
“I’
m sor
rysi
mphiwe,Oroom t
hist
hinga
wr
ongwayandIapologi
ze.”

Prest
on:
“I’
m sorrysi
mphiwe,Idon’
twantust
ofi
ght
andhaveprobl
ems.Allofyouherearemyonl
y
famil
yandIdon’twantt
oloseyou.I’
m sor
ryl
uh.
”I
nod.
Mbuso: “Iunderstandwher ealloft hati
scomi ng
fr
om.Si mphi weit
’sbecauseyouknowhowIwas
withl
uhandmehur t
ingher,didhur tyoutooand
maybeIneverapol ogizedtoyouf orhurt
ingyour
si
sterbutIam nowandIam sor ry.Whateverthatis
mybr otherdidtohur tyouIapol ogizeonhisbehalf
becausehecanbest upidsomet imesbutr est
assuredt hatIwil
lnevercheatonl uhandyesyou
areri
ghtaboutushavi ngnanni esl i
veinthehouse.
Babyt hat’
snotgoi ngtohappenher eoni nDurban
orwhichevercitywear egoingtohaveahousei n.
Theywi lll
eaveout si
dei nt
hecot tage.”

Me:
“okbaby.”

Sims:“t
hankyouallofyouandIapologi
zetoal
lof
youtooforspeaki
ngwithoutt
hinki
ngfir
st
sometimes.
”Ismile
Me:“myr
ideordi
e.”shelaughsnowt hi
sisthesi
m
Il
ovewho’
salwayscaref
ree,speakshermind.

Si
ms:
“thankyouf
orhavi
ngmyback.”

Me:“al
waysandi
t’
sti
meIl
ookedoutf
oryouasyou
havebeenwi
thme”

Bonga:
“I’
m sorr
yforhurt
ingyouandIapol
ogi
zef
or
allt
hemanwhohavehur tyouandmadeyoufeel
l
ikeyouareenoughbecauseyouaret
omeandI
l
oveyoujustthewayyouare.”

Si
ms:
“Il
oveyout
ooSi
yabonga.”

Me:“soIwast hi
nkingthattomor
rowwehavea
l
itt
lebraaiwit
hourclosefri
endsandfamil
yand
cel
ebratethami'
sli
fe.Tosaygoodbyeproper
lyhi
s
way.”
Si
ms:
“danceandgetdr
unk!
,Iam al
lfort
hat
.”

Mbuso:“butloveIwant
edtor
elaxandgetsome
sl
eepjustthetwoofus.”

Me:“wecansti
lldot
hataf
tert
omor
rowbaby.I
’
m
notgoi
nganywhere”

Sicel
o:“wecoul
dreal
lyuseabr aaiman,j
ust
tomorrowonlyt
hem wewillal
lbeoutofyourhair
andletyouguysgrowyourchil
dreninpeace.”
Mah:
“luhandmbusohavesexf
oral
lofus.”

Me:“butmahyoucan’
tsayt
hati
nfr
ontofbaba
Fr
ank”wel augh

Fr
ank:
“shei
tri
ght
,thet
woofyouar
ewor
set
hanal
l
ofus.”

Mbuso:
“theyar
ejeal
ousbaby.”

Preston:
“isyourbedr
oom soundproofbecauseI
don’twanttobescarr
edforli
fe.”

Me:“canyouguysst
opt
alki
ngaboutoursexl
if
e!”
geez.

Mbuso:
“yespl
easest
opi
t.”

Mah:
“wewil
lseeyout
omor
rowguys,
Ihavet
ogo
andt
akear
eofmyman.”

Si
cel
o:“t
oomuchi
nfor
mat
ionaunt
yyoh!”

Si
busi
so:
“wedon’
tneedt
oknowt
hat
.”
Fr
ank:“l
onel
yman,If
eelf
oryouguysbutdon’
t
worr
ysoonyouwil
lbecuf
fedtoo.Lat
er”t
heygo.

Sicel
o:“l
et’
sgoandgetdr
unksbu,
Prest
onyou
coming?”

Pr
est
on:
“Icoul
ddowi
thmanydr
inks.”

Si
busi
so:
“I’
m comi
ngt
oo.”

Si
ms:
“youbonga?”

Bonga:
“hel
lno.Iwantt
osl
eep.”

Me:
“babygoandj
oint
hem,
I’
llseeyoul
ater”
Mbuso:
“ar
eyout
ryi
ngt
ogetr
idofme?”

Me:“noboo,Ithoughtt
hatmaybeyouguyswoul
d
l
iketost
il
lchil
l.”

Hi
m:“wedidl
astni
ghtandnowIwantyoual
lto
mysel
f.”

Me:
“okbaby.”Ismi
le.

Si
cel
o:“Iguessi
t’
sonl
yusesi
ngl
eboys.Let
’sgo.”

Me:“ar
eyouguysgoi
ngt
osl
eepher
eoratdad’
s
pl
ace?”

Si
celo:
“thi
shouseisfi
nal
lyf
urnishedsoyoubetwe
wi
llbecominghereandsl
eeping.”
Mbuso:
“don’
tbr
inganywomani
nmyhouseguys”

Me:
“ormenPr
est
on”hel
aughs.

Pr
eston:
“unl
esshetakesmehome”hewi
nks,
we
l
augh.Theyl
eave.

Sims:“excuseustoo,wewil
lseeyoul
ater
.”she
takesbonga'shandandthel
eaveus.

Me:
“si
snont
owhenwi
llyouknockof
f?”

Her
:“Idon’
tknowsi
sluh.”

Mbuso:
“shewillknockof
fat5pm andbutyouwil
l
wor
keverydayandsomedayswemi ghtneedyou
t
oworkal i
tt
lel
ate.”
Her
:“yessi
rIunder
stand.
”

Mbuso:“Iknowyouknowwhatishappeni
nginthi
s
fami
lyandIknowwecant r
ustyoubutIwil
lst
il
l
needyoutosignthenondi
scl
osur
eagreement.”

Her:
“noprobl
em si
r.Si
sluhdoyouneedmet
oo
cooksupper
?”

Me:“pl
easedocausemybr
otheri
sgoi
ngt
ocome
backhungr
y”

Mbuso:
“hert
oo.”

Nont
o:“okIwi
llcooksupper
.”shesaysandl
eaves
t
hekit
chen.

Me:
“yourki
dsar
emaki
ngmehungr
y”
Him:“ar
eyouokayt
houghwi
thwhatt
heywer
e
sayi
ngaboutSi
ms?.”

Me:“Idi
dn’
tli
keitandI
’
m act
ual
lyannoyedatt
hem
butI’
l
lnefi
ne.”

Him:“youknowthatIloveyouverymuchl
uhand
bel
ievemeIwillnevercheatonyou.”
Me:
“IknowandIt
rustyoumyl
ove.It
rustSi
mst
oo.
”

Hi
m:“okbaby,
let
’sgot
obed.”
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER40.

MBUSO.

“I
’
m sor
ryt
heygotyouupset
.Theymadeabi
gdeal
outofnothi
ng,It
hinkmaybet
heyar
ejeal
ousof
yourrel
ati
onshi
pwi t
hSi
ms.”

“that
’scrazythough.Whatcoul
dbethereasonfor
them t
obej eal
ousofher.Imeanwewelcomed
Prest
oni nourfamil
ywithbotharmsandmah,she’
s
myaunt .Il
oveherandnothingisgoi
ngtochange
that
.”shesayssi t
ti
ngonthebed.

“theymetyouagai nasanadult
,theyst i
lldon’
t
knowmanyt hingsaboutyoubutonl ySimsdoes.
Maybeshef eel
slikeshemissedoutonmostof
yourchi
ldhoodandshe’sfeel
ingthreatenedbyyour
rel
ati
onshipwithSims.”

“thensheshoul
dtel
lmehowshef eel
sandnot
accuseprobl
emsbetweenmeandsims.Ihat
ethat
.
Noonei sgoi
ngtocomebetweenmeandsims.”

“Iknowbaby.I
’
m goi
ngt
orunusabat
h.”
“areyouokaycauseyoul
ookal
it
tl
edown?”she
asksmeconcerned

“I’
m okbaby,
Ithi
nkIdr
ankwayt
omucht
hanI
shoul
dhavedone.”

“ohk.“Iknowshedoesn’ tbelievemecauseoft he
wayshe’ slooki
ngatme.Lungiknowsmeandshe
knowst hatI’
m notokay.Ikeept hinki
ngaboutwhat
thulisai
daboutsiphomol esti
ngl uhfor3yearsand
drugginghersoshewon’ tbeawar e.Thatmakes
mesomad.I tmakesmewantt oki l
lsi
phoagain
andagai n.Iwanttopunchsomet hingsobaduntilI
feelnumbandmybodyhur ts.

“babyareyouokay?”sheaskstur
ningt
hetapof
f.
Fuckthewaterwasal
mostfulli
nthebat
h.

“I
’
m okayl
ove,
wasj
ustt
hinki
ng.”It
aket
hebat
h
salt
s,bubblebathandoilspourt
hem i
nthewat er
.It
hastherighttemperat
ure.“i
sthewaterokay?”she
test
sthewat erandnods.

“comeandjoinme”Iundr
ess,t
akeherhandwe
bothget
ti
nginwit
hmebehindher.Ipul
lhert
omy
chest
,putmyhandonherstomachandmykids
move.

“whenar
ewehavi
nganot
herul
tr
asound?”

“nextweekbaby.”

“Ican’
twai
ttomeett
hem ”

“Ican’
twai
ttohol
dthem,
breast
feedt
hem and
smellt
hem.”
“youaregoi
ngtosmellourbabi
es?”shegi
ggl
es
andthatmakesmefeelali
tt
lebet
ter
.

“youar
egoi
ngtodoitt
oo.Babiessmel
lgr
eatandI
usedt
osmel
lkat
legoandmelusi.”

“Ihopeourki
dswilll
ookli
keyou.”sot
heycan
wrapmearoundtheirl
it
tl
efi
ngersl
iket
hei
rmom.

“butIwantt
hem t
olookl
ikeyou”shesayswhi
ning
andIchuckl
e.

“theyar
egoingtolookl
ikeusbaby.Whatmat
ters
i
swear egoingtohaveheal
thybounci
ngbabi
es.”
that
’sal
lIwant.

“Ihopesi
mswil
lbeher
ewhenIgi
vebi
rt
h,your
mothert
oo.”
“don’tf
orgetauntl
wet
hucauseI
’m sur
eshe’
s
probabl
ygoingtomoveinwit
hus.”

“yout
hinkso?”

“Iknowsol
ove.”

“I’
m afi
rstt
imemot herandsoI ’m goingt
oneedall
thehel
pIcanget .Il
earnedmanyt hingsfr
om Si
ms
asshewasr ai
singherchi l
drenbutIknowit’
snot
thesameforeveryone.IjusthopeI’l
lbeagood
mothertomykids.”

“youareagreataunt,
I’
veseenyouwit
hsimskids.
Youaregoi
ngt obethebestmom andi
tisgoi
ngt o
dri
veourki
dscrazy.”

“wear
egoi
ngtobegreatpar
ent
sandifwehave
pr
obl
emsal
ongtheway,wehaveourpar
ent
sand
wecanal
waysaskf
oradvi
se.”

“t
hat
’sr
ightbaby.”

“youknowthataf
terI
’
vegivenbi
rt
hwearenot
goi
ngtohavesexforl
ikesi
xmonths”shesays
l
ookingatme.

“lovedon’
tjokeaboutt
hiscausei
tisnotf
unny.”
shelaughs

“I’
m seri
ousbaby.Nosexf orsi
xmont hsandof
yourauntisgoi
ngt obehereshe’
sgoi ngt
omake
surethatwedon’tdoit
.”that
’scrazy!

“wholesi
xmonthsl
ovethat
’sabsur
d!.Whocame
wit
hthesest
upi
drul
es?.”
“Ihavet
ohealdownher
efi
rstbef
oreweget
i
nti
mateagai
n.”

“t
hat’
sli
kehal
fayearofmenott
ouchi
ngyou.”she
l
aughs

“wecandoot
hert
hingsbutnopenet
rat
ionofany
ki
nd.”

“soyouwon’
tevenbl
owmel
ove?”shel
aughsf
it
s
ofgi
ggl
es.

“t
hatoneyouwi
llget
.”

“wowIcan’
tbel
ieveI
’
m goi
ngtohavet owai
tsi
x
monthsf
ormetomakelovetoyou.That’
snotf
air
l
ove.”
“i
tiswhati
tisbaby.”

“youhaven’
tst
art
edwi
tht
henur
ser
yfort
het
wins.
”

“Iwasthi
nki
ngofaski
ngsimstodecoratei
tcause
shel
ovesdecor
ati
ng.OhwaitIt
hinkIhaveanidea
whatt
hebothofusaregoi
ngtodo.”

“okwhatar
eyoupl
anni
ng?
.”

“wellIwasthinki
ngthataf
terIhavegivenbir
thI
shouldregi
stermyrealest
atebusiness.Iwantt
o
gobackt oworkbutIwanttobemyownboss.”

“youwanttoworkri
ghtaf
teryouhavegi
venbi
rt
hto
ourki
ds?”she’
scrazy
“I
’
llwor
kfr
om homeandwewillhaveal
lthehel
p
wecanget
.Ourfami
li
esandt
henanniesbaby”

“soyouar
egoi
ngt
oleaveourki
dsandgot
owor
k?
”

“nobaby,
Icanworkfrom homeunti
ltheki
dsar
e
grownmaybewhentheyturnayearol
d.”

“sohowdoessi
msf
iti
nal
loft
hat
.”

“shelovest
odecor ateandIthinkshemissedher
cal
lingasanint
eriordesi
gner,soIwasthinki
ngthat
si
mscandecor atethehouseswi l
lbesel
li
ng.Some
ofthepeopl
ewantt omovei nandnotwor ryabout
decorat
ingt
hehouseandt hat
’swheresi
mscome
i
n.Wecanbepar tnersandr unourbusi
ness.”

“Il
iket
hatl
ove.Ihaveani
deat
oo.”
“whati
sit
?”

“Icanbuyyoul and,getbonga’scompanytodesi
gn
thehouses,yourbrot
her '
scompanytobuil
dthem
andmycompanywi l
linstal
lst
ateoft
heartsecur
it
y
syst
em inthehouse.Yousel lt
hem andsi
ms
decorat
esthem.Whatdoyout hink?”

“OwowIl oveit.I
fyoudothatwhatwil
lyougeti
n
ret
urnfrom ourcompany?.Areyoucominginasan
i
nvestororwhatcauseIwantourcompanyt obe
100percentownedbyj ustmeandsims.”

“looklovest artingthatkindofcompanyfrom
scratchneedsl otsofmoneyandyouhavei tbut
youst i
llneedi nvestorsinyoucompanytohel pi
t
growandbet hewayyouwanti ttobe.Si
msdoesn’t
havet hatkindofmoneyandsoshemi ghtfeela
certai
nwayaboutowni ngacompanywi t
hyou
equall
ywhenshedi dn’
tputanyamountoni t
.So
youhavet oconvincehert hati
t’
snotaboutthe
moneybutaboutt hetwoofyoubui l
dingalegacy
foryourkids.That’
swher eallofuscomeinand
i
nvestinyourcompany.Iwoul ddoitalonebutI
knowt heywon’thavet hat
.”

“your ightbaby,youknowIdi dn’

tlookatitthatway
andkowi nghershewasn’ tgoingtoagree.Shewas
goingt osayit’
sbetteri
fshewor ksformeandI
don’twantt hat
.Iwantust obepar t
nersequally.So
willyoubuymel andanywhereIwantandi nany
province?.”

“yesloveanywhereyouwant.Consi
deri
tasmygif
t
toyouforcarr
yingmybabiesandmakingmethe
happi
estmanont hi
sear
th.”sheki
ssesme

“t
hankyoubaby.Webuyi
nganempi
ref
orourki
ds.
”
“yeswear
e.What
evert
hatmakesyouhappy,
makesmehappyt
oo.”

“wear egoingtobuyalreadybui
lthousesand
buil
dingstoo.Renovat
e,decorat
eandt hensel
l
them.”

“myhotbusi
nesswoman.Youaretaki
ngmy
sur
namewhenwegetmar r
iedr
ight
?”

“hellyes.Iwantt
obeMr
smbusoGumede.Ican’
t
waitbaby.”

“met
ool
ove.”

“let
’sgetoutofthewater.Youwil
lcatch
pneumonia.”Ihelphergetoutofthebath.Wedr
y
oursel
ves,moist
urizeandgotothebedroom.
“i
t’
ssummerandi
t’
shotout
sidebaby,
Iwon’
tget
si
ck.”

“Iwon’
ttakechanceswi
thyourheal
th.”wel
ayon
topoft
heduvetfaci
ngeachother
.

“mbuso?”shesaysmynamesosweetandgent
ly.

“yesl
ove.”

“ar
eyour
eal
lyokay?”she’
swor
ri
edaboutme.I
si
gh

“whydoyoukeepaski
ngmet
hat
.”Iki
ssherl
ips.

“youdon’
tsoundl
ikeyour
sel
f.Yousounddown.”
“I
’
mfi
nebaby,
not
hingi
swr
ong.”

“Iknowyoudi
dn’
tdr
inkl
astni
ght
.”what
?

“howdoyoumean,
Iwasdr
unkl
astni
ght
.”

“youwerenotdri
nkingl
astni
ght
.Youwer
en’
t
feel
ingofal
cohol
.”

“Idr
ankalotofwat
ercauseIdi
dn’
twantt
oreekof
al
cohol
.”

“whyar
eyoul
yingt
ome?”

“I
’
m notl
ove.Getont
opofme.”

“noyouar
eavoi
dingmyquest
ion.”shesays
st
ernl
y.
“whatquest
ion?”

“didyounotmakeapr
omi
set
omet
hatyouwi
ll
neverl
iet
ome? .”

“Idi
dandIam notl
yingt
oyou.”damnwhywon’
t
shel
eti
tgo.

“youar
elyi
ngt
ome.Wher
ewer
eyoul
astni
ght
.”

“It
oldyouwher
eIwasandwhatweweredoi
ng.
Whatmoredoyouwantmet
osayluh?
.”

“thenifyouweredri
nkingal lni
ghtandnur
singyour
hangoverthi
smor ni
ngt henwhydi dyousmelll
ike
theti
meyoucamebackf rom ki
ll
ingt
hatman?.”
fuckno!.It
houghtIdidn’tsmell
.
“yout
hinkIwasoutl
astni
ghtki
ll
ingsomeone?”

“I
’m aski
ngyouwher
ewer
eyouandwhyyouwer
e
smell
ingli
ket
hat
.”

“isn’
tmywor denough?,
don’tyoutrustmenow
whenItellyouwhereIwasandwhatIwasdoi ng?.
Youdon’tbeli
evemeandyouquest ionmel ungi
thenyouaccusemeofbei ngoutlastnightki
ll
ing
someone? .”

“Ididn’
tsayyouki l
l
edsomeone, j
ustthatt
hesmel l
,
odourwast hesameasl astt
ime.Itr
ustyouand
youknowt hat.It
rustthatyouwillt
rustmeenough
totel
lmet hewholetruthnomat t
erhowdi f
ficul
tit
i
s.”

“Iknowt
hat
.”
“Idon’ tt hinkyout rustmeenought ot el
lmet he
truth.Mbusowear egoi ngt obemar riedsoon, we
aregoi ngt obehusbandandwi fe.Youcan’ thide
thingsf rom me.Idon’ tcar ewhatmydadoryour
dadsai d.Wear egoi ngt obeone, thismar riagei s
our snott heirsandyoucan’ tkeept hingsf rom me
becauset heysai dso.Youar egoi ngt obemy
husbandandIshoul dn’tbel eftbehi ndi nthedar k.
I’
m notsomenaï vel i
ttlegi rlthatneedst obe
protect edal wayscausemaybeal lofyout hinkI ’
m
fragil
ecauseI ’m not !.”shesaysget tingupf rom the
bedandIsi tup.“Iwasr aisedbyt hul i
, t
hatcol d
womanandyout hi
nkshecoul drai seaweakl ingof
achi ld?No! .Shei scol dandhear tlessbutwhatshe
taughtmei stobest rongandnotl etanyonewal k
alloveryou.Youcan’ tfightf orwhatyouwantand
believei ni t.Weaknessi sn’tpar toft hatwoman’ s
vocabul ary.Yesshet reat edmeandbutal sot her e
goodt hingsIl earnedf rom hert oo.Soal lofyou
shoul dst opmaki ngdeci sionsonmybehal fand
thinkt hatyoual lknowwhati sbestf orme.Iam
si
ckandt
ir
edofallofyoudoi
ngthatandi
thasto
st
op!
.”wherehasthiswomanbeenhidi
ngcause
mybabyi
scomingoutofhershel
l.

“noonei smaki ngdecisionsaboutyourl

if
elove.”
I
real
lydon’twanttohavet hi
sconver
sati
onbutIsee
thati
thasbeenwei ghi
ngheavi l
yinhermind.I
thas
beenbotheringherandl ungiisnott
hetypeof
personwhot alks.

“youar e,allofyou.I
t’sli
keyouar edictatingwhatI
shouldknowwhatnotIshoul dknowandI ’m sickof
i
t.Thisismyl if
eandnoonehasanyr ightt odeci de
whatisbestf ormebutonl ymembuso! .Youar e
goingtobemyhusbandandweshoul dmake
decisi
onst ogethernotletmyf atheroryourf at her
tel
lyouwhati sbestformecauseIknowt hatyour
daddoesn’ thideanythingfrom yourmot herandmy
dadwoul dn’thideanythingfrom mymot herifshe
wasst i
llhere.Ifyouarekeepingt hi
ngsf rom me
nowwhi l
ewear enotmar r
iedthenwhati sgoi ngt o
happenwhenwear
emar
ri
ed?”

“IknowbabyandIgetyourpoi ntandnooneis
dict
ati
nghowyourl i
feshouldbe.”shei
sri
ght
though,Ihavel
ett
hepar ent
smakemostoft he
decisi
onsandthathastostop.

“whenyouar ehidingbadt hingsf r

om met hatare
happeningthati
sdi ctat
ingmbuso.Whosai dIonly
wanttoknowgoodt hingst hatar ehappening
aroundus?.I’
m notf r
agileorweakoranaï ve.I’
m
fuckenpregnantt
hat ’
sal landIwantyout obet he
mant hatIknowyouar eandl eadyourhouseand
makesdeci si
onsforyourf amily.Ourparents
shouldtakeastepbackandl etusdowhatwet hink
i
sbestf orusandifwef ailthenthat’sf
inecausewe
l
earnandwewi l
laskf orhel pwhenwewanti t.”

“I’
m sor
ryloveIdi
dn’tr
ealisethatIwasdoingt
hat
.
MaybeIwasbusyt ryi
ngt omakeupf orthebad
thi
ngsIdidtoyouandf orthem toacceptmeas
yourman.
”

“I’
m happyt hatyouwant edthem toacceptyouas
mymanbuti twoul dn’tchangethingsbetweenus
whethertheyaccept edyouornotcauseIdoand
that’
swhatmat terstome.Theywoul dhavehadno
choicebuttoacceptyout oocauseIl oveyouand
thatisnevergoingt ochange.I’m her
ewi t
hyou
mbusof orthegood, t
hebadandt heuglyandscar
y
thi
ngs.”

“onet hi
ngIwillalwaysbegr atef
ulfori
sthatyou
gavemeachanceagai ntobepar tofyourl
if
eand
ourkidsli
ves.Ilovehowyoul ovemeandonl yme.
Yourloveandf ait
ht hatyouhaveonmemakesme
feell
ikeIcandoanyt hi
nginthewor l
djustt
osee
youhappyandsmi ling.Iwal
kt al
landproudcause
youmakemef eel l
ikeI’m af
uckenking.”

“youar
ethekingofthiscast
le.Onl
yyouandno
oneel
se.Don’
tletanyonetel
lyouother
wisecause
wher
eyoul
eadIwi
llf
oll
ow.”

“yourlovehumblesmelungi
.Itmakesmef
eell
i
ke
I
’m notdoingenought
oshowyouhowmuchyou
meant ome.”

“youhavedonemor ethananyonewoul
dhave
downforme..I
’
mt heonewhoshoulddomoreto
showyouhowbl essedIam t
ohaveyou.”

“marr
ymet omorrowthenIdon’
twantt
owai
t
anymore.”shelooksatmeshocked.
CHAPTER41.

LUNGI
.

Helooksatmeexpect
ingananswer .I
’
m shocked,
wearegoingtogetmarr
ied.Ij
ustdon’
tunderst
and
whatisthehur
rynow.
“babywearegoi
ngt
ogetmar
ri
ed.Wear
epl
anni
ng
awedding”

“don’tt
ellmeaboutthatwedding.Iwantt
omar r
y
youtomor r
ow.Ican’
twait.”helookssohandsome
ri
ghtnow.

“your
eal
lyar
eser
iousar
en’
tyou?”

“haveyouknownmet
ojokeaboutser
ioust
hings?”

“nope.”

“babyIcan’tt
hinkst
rai
ghtwi
thyoust
andi
ngt
her
e
naked.Ineedmyanswernow”

“IgaveyoumyanswerwhenIaccept
edyourr
ing
boo.”hekneel
sdownononeknee.Looksatme
smil
ing.

“lungileNgcobomyr ib.Myeverythi
ng.Icansayall
therightwordstherearebuttheonlywor dsIwant
tosayt oyounowi s.Willyoumarrymet omorrow
mor ning?.Iwantt
hesunt osett
omorrowwi t
hyou
asmywi fe.”

“Ican’ttakeyouseriouslookingli
kethat
.Youare
aroused,yourkneeli
ngdownnakedandt heonly
thi
ngI ’
mf ocusingonisthatheavysackbetween
yourlegsandt hatharddick.”Isaychuckl
ing.

“soyouwantmet oproposetoyouwhil
eI’
mi nside
ofyou,
makinglovet
oyou? .Icandot
hattooyou
know”hesmilesGodhe’ssohandsome.Ilovethis
mam.

“I
’
llmar
ryyouevennowi
fitwaspossi
blebutIwi
ll
mar
ryyoumbusoGumedet
omor
row.
”

“youknowwecanmaket
hathappenr
ight
?”

“what
?Getmar
ri
ednow?No!
.”

“tomor
rowiti
sthen.Comeher eandletmemake
youhappy.Wemissyou.”hesaysmovi nghishi
ps
upanddown.Hisdickbouncestooheavil
y.

“whatar
eyoudoi
ng?”Iaskhi
mlaughi
ngmyhead
of
f.

“gett
ingreadyforyoubaby.I
’
m aboutt
oloveyou
toni
ght.”hedoespushups

“wellmist
ersi
ncewearegetti
ngmarri
edt
omor
row
thenIhavetol
oveyouandleaveyou.”
“whatdoyoumeanl
ove?”heget
sup.

“wellt
hensayit
’sbadl
uckforthegroom toseehi
s
bri
detheni
ghtbefor
ethewedding.SoI’
m goingto
putmyclot
hesonandI ’
l
lseeyoutomor r
owasmy
dadandunclevi
ctor
ywalkmedownt heisl
e.”

“nol
ovedon’
tjokel
iket
hat”Il
aughoutl
oud.

“I’
m ser
iousboo.”Il
eavehi
m andgot
othecl
oset
andwearmydr ess.

“Your
eal
lyar
eser
ious.”

“wehaveaweddi ngt opr

eparefortomorrowsi
nce
webothcan’twaitanymore.Youwilll
oveme
tomorr
owasyourwi f
e.Iwil
lcal
lyou,keepyou
phoneclosetoyou.”
“babythenlet
’sdoaqui
ckiepl
ease?
.Lookathow
hardIam.”hegrabshi
sdickandIseeprecum
l
eakingJesus!
.

“goandt
akeacol
dshowerboo,
you’
l
lbef
ine.”

“youar
enotbei
ngf
airr
ightnow.”

“Wewi llhaveal
ltheti
meinthewor
ldtomor
row.
Rightnowwedon’ tcausewehavealott
opr
epar
e
for.”

“lookbabyit’
snoteven5pm sowecanst i
llget
someoneont helastminute.Iwon’
ttakeeven30
minutesIswear.”helooksatmel i
keheissadbut
he’sreal
lynot
.He’sjusthorny.

“myl
oveI
’
m notgoi
nganywher
e.Tomor
rowyou
candowickedt hi
ngst
omeasl
ongast
heywon’
t
hurtmybabies.”

“okf
ine.Ihat
ethi
s”Igi
ggl
eandki
sshi
m.

“cal
ltheot
hersandt
ellt
hem t
ocome.I
’
llbei
nthe
l
ivi
ngroom ”

“wher
ear
eweget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed?”

“sincei
t’
sjustgoingt obeourf amil
iesonl yt
henI
thi
nkwecandoi tatmyf ather’
shouse.I thasabi
g
backyar
dthatcanaccommodat eallofusand
mbusopleasecal lyourbrotherandtellhimtoget
hisassri
ghthere.”

“Iwil
lbutbabywhycan’twejusti
nvi
teourfami
li
es
onl
ythenar ever
end.Iwi
llgi
veyouyourdr
eam
weddingaft
erthekidsar
eayearold”
“myf i
rstweddingwasasham, mysecondweddi ng
willnotbet hewayIhadenvisi
onedcausemydad
want smet ogetmar r
iedbef
oretheki
dsar ebor
n
thenyouwantust ogetmarri
edtomorrow.Am I
evergoi ngtohavetheweddingofmydr eams
mbuso? .”he’
sgett
ingmeupset.

“babyIswearyouwi ll
.Let
’sgetmarri
edt omor r
ow
thenwef ocusonthetradit
ionalweddi
ngandt hen
afteryoucangocr azyandpl anyourweddi ng.You
haveayeart odoallyouhaveeverwant ed.Theway
youpl annediteventhedressbabyandyou
hopefullywontbepr egnantbythen.”i
st hisman
crazy?.

“Iwi l
lnotbepregnantbythenmbuso.Ourki dswil
l
sti
llbeyoung.Ican’tf
ocusonmanyt hi
ngsthen
havet oworr
yaboutbei ngpregnant
.I’
m goi
ngt o
takebirt
hcontrol
.”
“hellno!
.Youwon’tbet
aki
nganybi
rt
hcont
rol
!.”he
putshisclot
heson.

“okt
henwewi
llusecondoms.”

“don’
tpi
ssmeof
flungidon’
t!
.”

“t
henwhatdoyousuggestwedo?
.”

“weconti
nuehavi
ngsexandl
etnat
uret
akei
t’
s
cour
se.
”

“finethere’
snoarguingwit
hyou.”Iam goingt
o
takebirt
hcontr
olafterIgi
vebir
th.Ihavetomake
surethathedoesn’tfi
ndoutatleastunt
ilt
heki
ds
are2or3year sol
d.

“good.”
“t
henl
et’
stal
kaboutsomet
hingel
se.”

“no!
.”

“youhaven’
tevenhear
dwhatIwantust
otal
k
about
.”

“Iknowyouwantustotal
kaboutthepr
enupt
ial
agreementandt
heansweri
ssti
llno!
.”

“whynotmbuso.Ifanyt
hinghappenst
ousGod
for
bidwhatwi
llwedo?”

“youandt hekidswillsur
viveandli
veaver y
comfortablel
if
e.Imadesur eofthat.Ihave
accountsluhallovertheworldwit
hdi f
ferentnames
shouldanythi
nghappent ome.Wecanwakeupt he
dayaftertomorrow gobankruptandIwoul dst
il
l
havemoney.Youwoul dsti
ll
havemoneyandnot
worryaboutanyt
hing.Idounder
standyourfear
s
babycausewedon’ tknowwhatcouldhappen
tomorr
owsoher e’
swhatwear egoingtodo.”

“I
’
mli
steni
ng.”

“whatImadebef orewegetmar r
iedismine,t
hat
appliestoyout oo.Themoneyyouhavei syours.
Butfr om tomorrowt hemomentwesi gnour
mar r
iagecer t
if
icat ewhateveramountofmoneywe
bothmakei sour s.I’l
laskmyl awyerstodrawup
thepaper snowandyoucanaskyourcousi nto
l
ookatt hem andseei fever
ythingisaswehave
discussedandl egi t.Deal?”

“dealMrGumede.”weshakehands.

“Iwantyout
ounder
standthatIwi
llnotshar
e
somethi
ngwit
hyouregar
dingmywor kbaby.It
’s
notbecauseIdon’
ttr
ustyoubutit
’sbecauseIhave
tobediscr
eetandI’
m al
soprotect
ingyoushould
anyt
hinghappencauseIdon’twantyoutobeinany
tr
ouble.Doyouacceptt
hat?
.”

“IdobutyoumustknowthatIwil
lnevert
ellor
bet
rayyoumbusonomat t
erwhattheycandot o
me.Iwil
ldiepr
otect
ingmyfamil
yandIwillkil
lfor
myfamilyt
oo.”

“Iknowbabyanditscar
esmetodeat h.It
hinkI
’
m
bei
ngabadinfl
uenceonyou.”Ichuckle.

“it
’si
nmybl oodbaby.Youkeepawakeni
ngme
fr
om thesl
umberIwasi n.”

“Idon’
twantyout
ochange.”

“andIdon’
twantyout
ochanget
ooj
ustbecause
youwanttoimpressmyfami
ly.I
’m yourr
ideordi
e.
Yourwoman.I’
llst
andbyyouevenifever
yonetur
ns
thei
rbackonyou.”

“Queenofmycast
le.If
uckenl
oveyoubaby.”

“Iloveyoutoo.Let
’sgoandplanourweddi
ng.Cal
l
yourlawyer
,ziphoandmam Dlamini
.Iwantt
hem
allher
e.Ohandyoubet t
ercal
lyourmom andaunt
.
”

“sonoquicki
e?.”Il
augh,
leavehi
minourbedr
oom.
Iknockonsimsdoor
.

“whoi
sit
?.”

“It
’sme.Comet otheli
vingroom.Wear egett
ing
mar r
iedt
omorrow.”Ihearshuffl
ing.Il
eaveandgo
tothekit
chen,
findsi
snot oabouttoleave.
“youar
eleavi
ng?”

“Iam si
sluh.Doyouwantsomet
hing?”

“wear
eget
ti
ngmar
ri
edt
omor
row”

“real
l
y?,Owow!.I
’
m sohappyf
oryou.It
hought
youwereget
ti
ngmarri
edlat
er”

“yeahwellmbusocan’
twai
t.Canyoucomeali
tt
le
bitear
lyt
omorrowtohel
poutwit
hfoodandst
uff.
I’
l
lpayyoudouble.”

“don’
tworryaboutt
hef
oodwehaveitcover
ed.I
’l
l
asksomeofthemaidsf
rom t
hef
arm andyourdads
housetocomenowsowecanprepar
e.”
“real
l
ysisnont
o?,
thankyouandt
ellt
hem t
heywi
ll
bepaid.”

“Iwi
llsi
s.”

“here’syourshoppi
ngcar
dt hatyouwillusetobuy
thefood.Themeatwewi l
lgetinfrom t
hef ar
m butI
don’tknowcausedadisgoingtogetaf it
.Ihaveto
callhi
m.”

“goodl
uck”shesaysgi
ggl
ing.Isitdownandcall
mydad.Her
eitgoes.Hi
sphonerings.Hepicksup

“Mangcobo”

“sawubonababaunj
ani
?”(goodaf
ter
noondad,
howareyou?)
“I
’
m good.Whati
sthemat
ter
.”

“ar
eyouhome?”

“I
’
m att
hef
arm.Why?”

“Iwant
edt
otal
ktoyouaboutsomet
hing.”

“youcant
alknow.Whati
str
oubl
ingyou?”

“uhm Iknowt
hatyouaskedust
ogetmarri
ed
bef
oreIhavet
hebabyandweagreedbutnow…”

“nowwhat
?,youhavechangedyourmi
ndl
ungi
le?
.
”

“Ihavebababutnotl
iket
hat
.”
“expl
aint
hen”Ihearhi
m si
ghi
ng.

“Iwanttogetmarri
edt
omor r
ow.”Iholdmybreath
causeIdon’
tknowwhathemi ghtsayandwhatif
hesaysno?.Ihopehedoesn’
tsayno.

“youwantt
ogetmar
ri
edt
omor
row?”

“yebobaba.”yesdad.Helaughs.Youknowt he
kindoflaught
hatsays(t
hesekidsarecrazy)yep
thatone.

“ohmychi
ld.Ar
eyousur
e?”

“Iam dad.Ireal
lywantt
omarryhim.Iknowt hi
sis
nothowthingsaredoneandI’
m sorr
y.Wear enot
tr
yingtodi
srespectyouandIwoul
dunderstandif
yousayno.”
“your
eal
lywantt
omar
ryhi
m andspendt
her
estof
l
if
ewit
hhim?”

“Idodad.”

“youaccepthi
mforwhohei
sandwhathei
s?.”

“Iloveal
lofhimj
ustthewayheisandIwoul dn’
t
changeanythi
ngabouthi
m.Iwouldn’tchangehow
wemetandhowweendedupher erightnow.
Pleasedadall
owmet omarr
yhim pl
ease.”

“i
fIsaynowoul
dyoust
il
lgoaheadandmar
ryhi
m?
”

“I’
m sor
rytosayt hisbutIwoul
ddad.Iwoul
dmarry
hi
m evenifyousai dno.”Imeani
t.Wewouldel
ope
andgetmarried.
“Iknowyouwould.Youhavemyblessi
ngst
omar
ry
hi
m.I’m happyf
oryoumychil
d.”

“t
hankyouyoudaddy.”Ismi
le

“okbaby.Wi
lltherebeani
sle?Am Ist
il
lwal
king
youdowntheisle?”

“whydon’
tyoudadscomeher
eatourhouse.”

“wear
ecomi
ng.”

“t
elluncl
eVictort
hegoodnews.Ican’
twai
ttosee
hi
m.Imi ssedhim somuch.”

“Iwi
llbaby.I
’
llseeyoul
ater”
“thankyoudadbye.”Ismil
e.I
’
m aboutt
ohangup
whenIhearmbuso’sdadsay“Itol
dyouhewasn’
t
goingtowaitt
hatl
onggivememymoney.”Ican’t
beli
evetheyputabetonus.

“youwouldreal
lymarr
ymeagai nstyourf
ather
s
wishes?”heasksst
andingbehi
ndme.Ialmost
scream.

“don’
tsneakuponmel
ikethatmbuso,
youknowI
hat
ehowyoumovesometimes”helaughs

“sor
ryf
orscar
ri
ngyoul
ove.”heki
ssesmycheek.

“yesIwoul
dmar
ryyoueveni
fmyf
athersai
dno.”

“Iwasgoi
ngt
oki
dnapyoui
fhesai
dno.”
“Iwasthi
nkingt
hatwewouldelopeifhesai
dthat
.”
welookateachothert
henbur
stsint
olaught
er.

“Icall
edalloft
hem andt
heyareonthei
rway.
Percyiscomingwit
hmam dlamini
.”

“Ican’
twai
tfordadt
omeether”

“babydon’
tpl
aymat
chmakerpl
ease.”

“I
’
m not
.Ij
ustsai
dI’
m exci
tedt
hat
’sal
l.”

“hmm.”

“okl
et’
spl
ant
hisweddi
ng.”si
mssay

“whycan’
twegetont
hei
nter
netandf
indsomeone.
Whatgooddoesi
tdot
ohavemoneyandnotspend
i
t.Peopleneedjobsandthi
ssomeonesomewher
e
i
slookingfort
hisopport
uni
ty.”

“oklapt
opsandphonesout.TheWi -
Fiisf
reeso
st
artworki
ngs.Thef
oodisalreadysort
ed.Wher
e
aret
heothers?”

“youguysaresuchmoodkil
lers.”saysmah
l
ookingl
ikeshewasbei
ngravishedhmm.

“wearehereguys”saysPrest
on.“youguysar
e
ser
iousl
ygett
ingmarr
iedt
omor r
ow?”

“yesPr est
on.Cal
lyourpeopl
eandlet’
scompar e
notes.Andfindabeauti
questor
eforallofus.”

“Iknowsomeonewhoalwayshasreadymade
cl
othes.Hecancomeher
e.”si
busi
sosays.
“pleasetellhi
mt obri
ngever
ythi
ngandt
ellhi
mthat
thebrideispregnant
.”

“yesma’
am ”hesays.

“wher
ear
eweget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed?”

“mydad’
shouse.”

“Prestonitisl
ungi'
sweddi
ngandmine.Our
salone.
Youar enotgetti
ngmarr
iedtome.”mbusosays,
everyonelaughs.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER41.

LUNGI
.

Luckyf
oruswehavethr
eedif
fer
entwedding
pl
anner
sthatar
eworki
ngrat
herwonderf
ultoget
her
.
Eachoneoft hehast hei
rownspeci fi
cjobtodo,
Prestonandsi msar emaki ngsureofthat.Icannot
beli
eveeverythingiscomi ngtogethersowonder ful
atsuchashor tperi
odoft i
me.Mydadsai dwecant
sl
aught eracowbecauset heGumedef amilyhave
notpaidmybr idepri
ce.Mbuso’ smom coul dn’t
stopcryingwhenshegother ebecauseoneofher
ki
dsi sfinal
lygetti
ngmar ri
edforreal.Wellaunt
l
wet huwhenst art
edbur ni
ngthesageal loverthe
housechasi ngbadspi ri
tsawayatourhouse.

Iam happyt hattheyar

eallexci
tedeventhough
theylecturedusaboutr ushi
ngthings.Accor
dingto
them theyt houghtmaybewhenI ’m 8months
pregnantthat ’
swhenwewi l
lti
etheknotbutthey
knowt heirsoni sveryi
mpatient
.

Wearenowatmypar ent
’shouseandwhatdaddi
d
whenhecamet omyhousewast akemet ot
he
far
m,toourgr
andpar
entsroom andburnedt
he
sagewit
hbab’Ngwendeastheyconnectedt
omy
ancestors.Theyalsot ookmet oallthei
rgraves
i
ncludingmymom’ s.I’
m gladmyauntwast her
e
withmybr otherandot herauntsasdadt alkedt
o
herbecauseIgotemot i
onalandstartedcryi
ngbutI
fel
tthiswonderfulsenseofpeacel i
keshewas
therecoveri
ngmewi t
habl anketi
nherar msasmy
aunthuggedme.

Wel efttomyf athershouse.WhenIgott hereitwas

crazy, f
ill
edwithallkindsofpeopl egoingupand
down.Car soutsidetheyar dandt r
ucksi nli
keit’
s
crazy.Ihaven’tseenmbusosi ncewel eftourhouse
butIknowhei sher ear oundsomewher e.Dad
i
nstr uctedmet ogomybedr oom andnotcomeout
untiltomor r
owofwhi chiscr azycausewear enot
havingat r
adit
ionalweddi ngjustasimpl ewhite
weddi ng.ButwhatIsawout sideisnothingsimple.
Thepl annersar edoingt hei
rbestandIknowf or
suret hattomorrow.I’m goingt obeinawe.I ’
m
l
ayingi nbedwhent hedooropens.I t
’smyhusband
tobe.Ismi l
e“whatar eyoudoi ngherebaby?”
Hedoesn’
tsayanythi
ng.Helockst
hedoorlooksat
meandsmiles.“Icametospendsometi
meal one
wi
thyoubeforewegetmarri
ed.Howdiditgo?”

Iwonderi
fscelotol
dhim Iwascryi
ng.“Igotali
tt
le
emoti
onalt
hinki
ngabouteveryt
hingandhowf arwe
havecomeinlessthanayearbaby.It
’scr
azy.”

Thewayhel ooksatmeashesi tsandturnstheTV

volumedownmakesmef eelli
keheislookingdeep
i
nmysoul .It
’sdi
ffer
entandmakesmyski n
breakoutingoosebumps.“youhavebeent hrough
al otl
ove.Wehavebeent hroughalotmyl ovebut
allofthatl
edust obeheretoday.Ther
ear ethi
ngsI
wishIcoul dhavedonediff
erentl
ovebutIcan’t
causet heyhappenedandIcan’tchangethem ”

Mbusost i
llcarr
iesal otofgui
ltf
orthethi
ngshedid
andIreal
isenowt hathehasn’tt
rulyf
orgi
ven
himsel
f.“mbusoyouneedt ofor
giveyoursel
fIhave
tol
dyouthi sbefor
e.Whathappenedi sallint
he
past.Youneedt oleti
tgo,closet
hatdoorandt hr
ow
awayt hekey.Idon’twantyouregrett
inganyt
hing
becausethatwouldmeanyour egretmeeti
ngme.”

Helooksatmel ikeI
’
m crazyshaki
nghishead.“no
manwoul dregretmeeti
ngyoubaby.If
oronehave
noregretsl
ove.”hesaysclai
mingmymout hli
kehe
hasn’
tkissedmei nalongti
me.

“baby,st
opbef or
edadcomesi nhereknocki
ng.I’
m
pret
tysuretheyknowthatyouareherewit
hmeand
theywil
lthi
nkthatweareprobabl
yhavingsexright
now.”Isaygiggli
ng.

Layi
ngonhisbackfaci
ngupwardshesigns.He
pl
ayswithhi
sr i
ngt
hatIgothi
m smil
ing.“weare
gett
ingt
omorrowandwedon’thaver
ings?”we
l
augh.

“i
t’
sal
lyourf
aul
tthatwedon’
thaver
ings.”It
ell
him.Heshakeshi shead.Wel ayi
nt hebednot
sayinganythingincomf ort
abl
esilence,i
neach
other’
sarms.Hi shandonmyst omach, anotherone
aroundmyshoul der
.Myl egisbetweenhi s,
headon
hischestli
steningtothesteadyhear t
beatinhis
chest.“i
naf ewhour sti
meyou’ l
lbeMr sGumede”

Ican’
tremembert helastti
mewel aidl
ikethi
sin
comfort
abl
esilence.Ilovethisfeel
ing,
Ireall
ydo.
“youhavetogobaby”hegr oans“IknowIdon’ t
wantyoutoleavetoo.Ican’twaittocallyoumy
husband.”

“Il
oveyoubaby.”

“Iloveyoutoo.”hekissesmeagain.Ki
ssesmy
stomach.“I’
llseeyoutomorr
owlovedon’tbelat
e.”
Igiggl
e.“youar et
heonewhobetterbethereon
ti
me.Babypl easedon’
tdri
nk?”hechuckles.He’
s
abouttosaysomet hi
ngwhensomeonehol dsthe
doorhandleandknocks.“Iwon’
tdri
nkbabyI
promi se.”heopenst hedoorandl eaves.Sims,
Prestonandal lmycousinsgetinholdingbottl
esof
champagne.Theyj oi
nmei nbedandscr eam
excitedthatt omor
rowI’m getti
ngmar ri
ed.They
offermeagl assofnonal coholi
cchampagne, play
musi cdanci ng.Themomsandaunt sjoinusandit
turnsoutt obeapar t
yf orallofusinthebedroom.
Theyshar ewi t
hmehowhappyt heyarethatI
’m
fi
nallymar ryingmbuso, whatImeant othem anda
whol eofthings.

TearsaresharedtooasIt el
lthem howgr atef
ulI
am foreachandever yoneofthem.Theydr inkup
unti
launtlwethutel
lsthem t
ost op,t
heywi l
ldrink
againaftert
hewedding.Theyunder stand,l
eavemy
room butSimsstaysbehindandsl eepswi t
hme.“I
knewt hi
sdaywi l
lcomef oroneofus.Iknewt hat
onedaywewi l
lbehappyandgett helovewe
deserve.”shesaysslurri
ng.

“wear
egoi
ngt
obesi
steri
n-l
awsIcan’
twai
t.”Isay
exci
ted.Shegi
gglesli
kesomeoneisti
ckl
ingher.
“whowoul dhavethought
,thatwewoul
df al
lfor
brot
hers?”shesays.

Sheisr ightcauseneverinami l
li
onyearshaveI
everthoughtt hatWewoul dfallforbrot
her
soreven
getmar riedtothesamef ami l
y.Ihopebongawill
onedaypr oposetoher.“I’
m gladt hought
hatI’
m
mar r
yingi nt
oal ovel
yfamily.Imagineifhi
smother
didn’
tlikemeandhat eme?”

“I’
m scar
edthatshemightnotli
keme.”shesays
sadly.
.Il
ookatherandseethatitbot
her
sher.“di
d
shesaysomethingtoyou?”

Sheshakeshernolooki
ngatme.“noshehasn’ t
butIhavetwoki
dswi t
hdiff
erentbabydaddiesand
bongadoesn’
thaveanykids.Whati fshewantshim
tobewithsomeonewhodoesn’ thavekids?”.It
ake
herhand“she’
sanicewomansi sandsheknows
you.Sheknowsthatyouareagr eatmom toyour
ki
ds,wedon’tknowifbongahassai dsomet hingto
heraboutyouguysbutyouwillcrossthatbridge
whenyougetthere.It
hinkbongadi dt
ellyouhel ost
hi
skidssoIdon’tthi
nkshecanj udgeyouf orthat.
.
”

“yeahyouar eri
ght.Ihopewhatwehavewi t
h
bongawi l
lgrowintosomet hingbig.Il
ookupt oyou
guysyouknow.Youandmbusoar eani nspirat
ion
andyouhavebeent hroughal otbutever ydayyour
rel
ati
onshipgetsstrongerandst r
onger .Mbuso
l
ovesyoul uhandyouar etheonlywomanhesees
nooneel se.Hewor shi
pst hegroundyouwal kin
andwilldoanythingtomakeyouhappyandt hat
makesmehappycauseIknowyouwi llal waysbe
safeandpr ot
ected.Your ememberwhenIsai dthat
ther
eissomet hi
ngdi ff
erentaboutmbusot hatheis
notthemanIf ir
stmet .Hei snotint
ensel ikebefore?
”

Ihat
edt
hatwhenshesai
ditbutInevert
oldher
.
“yeahIr emember .”shedr inksagai nstraightfrom
thebot tl
et henlooksatme.“hewasn’ ti
ntensel i
ke
beforebecauseIt hinkhef i
nallyf oundl ove,you
changedhi ml uh.Hei sn’tasscar yashewasbef or
e
becausewhenhei swi thyouhei sacompl etely
dif
ferentper son.Yout amedmbusoandI ’m not
sayingt hisbecauseIt hinkIknowhi m nosi s.I’
m
sayingt hisbecauseaswewer ehel pingout sidehe
hast hisaur aofdon’ ttal
kt ome, Idon’ tsmi l
eand
I’
m ver yscar y”shesaysi mi t
atingmbuso’ svoi ce
andIl augh.“butwhenhei swi thyouhei seasily
approachabl e,smi l
es, l
aughsandt alksal ot
somet hinghedoesn’ tdowhenyouar enott here,ok
maybewi t
hhi sbrothersIdon’ tknowbutyouget
whatImean.”Ido.

“hehast ootoughenedyouupal otandIlove

seeingthisdon’
tmesswi t
hmel uhperson.Iwish
yout heverybestl
uh,IhopeGodwi l
lbl
essyouwi th
everythi
ngyouhaveeverwantedandwi shtohave.
Iwishyout hebestinyourmarr
iageandasyou
star
tyourf amil
ywithmbuso.Godwi l
lwatchover
yout woandal waysknowt hatnomat t
erhow
dif
ficultthi
ngsgetyouhaveashoul dertocr yon
causeI ’m al
waysgoingtobeher enotgoi ng
anywher e.Butfi
rstyoutalktoGodandi nvit
ehi m
i
ntoyourmar ri
age,heistheonl yt
hirdperson
all
owedi nyourmarri
ageandnooneel se.Ithank
youf ornotcutti
ngmeof ffrom yourlif
ewhenyou
foundyourr ealfamil
ybecauseIwasscar edthat
youwi llnotneedme.Thankyouf oreverythingyou
havedoneandkeepdoi ngf orus.I’
m blessedt o
haveyouasmysi st
erandIpr omiseyou, noonewi l
l
breakorcomebet weenthisbondwehave.Il ove
you”

Iwipetearsoffsitup,hi
ghhertightpouri
ngmyl ove
forher.Bl
oodornotsi msismysi st
erandIwi l
l
alwaysmakesur esheli
vesthelif
eshewant stol i
ve
withherkids.Theyaremyf amilytoo.“youhave
alwayswat chedovermeandnowi t
’smyt ur
nto
takecareofyouandyourki ds.Iloveyousomuch
sis.Thankyouf oral
waysbeingmyr ockand
shouldertocryon.”wewi peeachot her’
stearsoff
t
henl
augh.

Wet al
kallni
ghtli
keweusedt ountilIfal
lasleep.
Someoneshakesmeal i
ttl
eandIal mostthinkit’
s
simskidsbutit
’smybrother.Hesmi l
es,Igroan,he
l
aughs“whydi dyouwakemeupt hough”Idon’ t
l
ikehimrightnow.Il
ookatt het
imeandi t’
s6am.
“lookattheti
mescelo”Isaywhi ning.“getup,I
wanttotakeyousomewher e.”

“I’
m notrunningawayscelo!
.I’
m mar
ryi
ngmbuso
okay!.”helaughssodeepsimsendsupjoi
ninghi
m
andtheylaughatme.“youar enotamorni
ng
personsis.”hesayssti
lll
aughi
ng.

“sheneverwas.Shewaswor sewhenwehadt ogo

toschoolduri
ngwint
er.Shewasalwayslate.”
simssayandIr emember.Welaugh.“t
here’sonl
y
onepersonwhoi smissi
nghere.”mybrothersays.
Wegetqui et
.
“hewoul dbesoexcitedri
ghtnow.Hewouldhave
wokenusupl i
keyoudid.Hewouldhavewoken
everyoneinthehousewithsomuchnoisetel
li
ng
everyonewhocaredtolist
enthathi
syell
owbone
si
sterisgett
ingmarri
ed.”hewouldhavedone
exactl
ythat.

“Imisshi m youknowbutIknowhe’ shappyand

watchingoverusf r
om upt here”Itel
lthem t
hey
nod.“wher earewegoi ngbrother
?”Hesmi l
esand
helpsmegetup.I ’m weari
ngjustmyni ghti
e,he
gi
vesmemyr obeandIputi nonandwearmy
sl
ippers.“I’
m goingtopeeI ’
l
lbeback.”Igot othe
bathroom.Domybusi nessthencomeback.“l et’
s
go.”

“si
msyoucancomet ooandjoinus.”sheshakes
herheadnoandcovershersel
fwithablanket
.The
houseisst
il
lpacked,f
ullwi
thotherpeopl
eIhaven’
t
met.Wegreetthem t
hengetinthecaranddri
veoff
headi
ngtothefar
m.Hestopst
hecar,opensmy
doorandIgetout
.“whatar
ewedoinghere?”

Hesmi l
est akesmyhandandIf ol
lowhi m ashe
conti
nuest owal kupunt i
lwegett othishil
lor
somet hingnott oohi ghformebutwi thmybr other
s
helpIfinal l
ystandont opofi tandseesomuch
greengr ass, tr
eesandar i
verflowingitlooksso
beautiful.Wegot othistr
eeandIseet hathehas
madeapi cnicbr eakfastforus.Ilaughhuggi nghim.
“whoeveri sgoi ngt omar ryyouisgoi ngtobet he
happiestwoman.”hesmi rks.“thankyourf or
preparingt hisforus.”

Thef oodlaiddownhasever ything.Whoevermade

thi
sthoughtofever yt
hingandIj ustwanttoeatall
thethingsI’
m herecauset heyl ookdelici
ous.“I
wantedt otakeyououtf orbreakf astandtal
kbefore
yougetmar r
ied.”Isi
tdown, hepour smecol d
applejuiceandittast
esgr eat.“Iwant edtotalkt
o
youaboutmbuso.Iknowyoul ovehi m and
ever
ythi
ngbutIwantt
obesureasyourbrothert
hat
youknowwhatyouareget
ti
ngyoursel
fint
oby
marryi
nghi
m.”

“brotherIknowt hatyouar el ookingoutf ormeas

yoursi sterbutyoushoul dn’ twor ryyour self.
Knowi ng, li
vingandl ovingmbusohast aughtme
manyt hings.Hehasopenedmyeyest oseet hat
thelifeisn’tjustcoloursofr ainbowbutal sodar k
andver yscar y.Iknowt hathehaski ll
edpeopl efor
mebutIdon’ tknowhowmany.Iknowt hathewi ll
doi tagaini fsomeonet hreat ensmysaf etyorwant s
tohar m hi sfami l
y.Hewi llalwayshavet hi sdark
auraar oundhi m causehei si tandIl ovehi mj ustas
heis.Iwi l
lkillf
orhi m,takeabul letforhi m and
makesur ethatwhoevermeanshi m harm doesn’ t
seet hel i
ghtofday.Youal lkiller
ssi cel
o, I
’m not
goingt opr etendt hatIdon’tknowt hatsi deallof
youhave, thatitdoesn’texi st.Hei smi neandIam
his.Noonewi l
ltakehim awayf r
om me. ”
“I’
m gladyouknowt hatcauseIdidn’
twantyou
walkingI’m bl
ind.”hesaysandthat’saproblem.
“youneedt ostopdecidi
ngwhatisbestforme.My
mistakesaremi netolearnandgrowf r
om them.I
knowt hewi l
lcomeat imewherembusowi l
lleave
thi
sot herli
febehindbutfornowIam goingt o
suppor thi
mi neveryway.”

Helooksatmewi thsomuchrespectl
ikemaybehe
di
dn’texpectallt
hesethi
ngstocomeoutofmouth.
“butifhehurtsyouagainIwon’
thesit
atetof
ight
back.”

Iknowhewon’ tandIdon’ twantthat.Idon’tknow

whatt hef utur
eholdsf ormeandhi m butI’
m going
tostressaboutwhati fsituat
ions.“I’
m goingt o
needal loft ost
epbackandl etusf i
gurethingsI’m
ourmar r
iage.Whenweneedhel pwewi l
lletyoubut
sceloyouhavet oknowt hatinrel
ati
onshipsand
mar ri
agest ootherearepr oblemsthatwef aceand
sti
llaregoi ngtoface.Ineedyouasmybr ot hert
o
bejustt
her eformeandnotgeti nvolvedt oomuch.
Wedon’tfightwitheachot herscelo.Wef ightwi t
h
peoplewhowantt ofi
ghtwi t
htheNgcoboand
Gumedef amilythat’
sall.”I’
m sayingal loft hese
thi
ngsstuffi
ngmyf acewi t
hfood.“youhavegr own
upluh,f
rom thet i
meImetyouagai nandnow, you
havegrownsomuchandmbusoi sr ubbingof fof
youreal
lywellcauseyouneedt obet oughand
str
ongasmbuso’ swifeandnotl etanyt hingshake
youdown.Youf aceitheadonanddealwi thit.”I
nod.

“Iwishyout hebestsis.Iwishmom washer eto

sharethisbeauti
fulmomentwi t
hyou.Dadis
probablygoingtocryhiseyesout .”hesaysandwe
l
augh.“mbusobet tercr
ytooorI ’
m goingbackand
walkdownt heisleagainuntilhecri
es.”weboth
l
aughoutl oud.
CHAPTER42.

LUNGI
.
Whenwegotbackf rom mybreakfastpicnicthatmy
brothermadef orme, t
hehousewasi nchaos.Iso
badlywant edtogot othebackyardandseehowf ar
theyar efr
om fini
shingbutsimsandPr estonwoul d
havenoneoft hat.Iwenttoshowerandwentt odo
mymakeupandhai rforalmost4hour sandbyt he
ti
met heywer edoneIwasoveri t
.Thephot ographer
andvi deographerrecordeverythi
ngfrom the
momentIst eppedi nthehouse.

Mahcameandhel pedmegeti nmydr ess.

Whenevershewoul dtrytotal
ktear swoul djustfall
down, ItoldherIknowhowshef eels,she’spr oud,
maybescar edbutf orsur
ehappyf orme.Weshar ed
alongtighthugt henshel ef
t.Mbuso’ smom came
toowithauntl wethuandt heyexpr essedhowhappy
theyaret hatI’
m goingtobepar toft heirfamilyand
fortamingmbusowel aughed.Theywi shedust he
bestinthej ourneywear eabouttot akeandt hen
shegavesomet hi
ngbor r
owedwhi chwashert i
ara
thatshewor ewhenshegotmar riedt ombuso’ sdad.
I
t’
savint
ageti
araandIappr
eci
atei
tver
ymuch.I
t
hankherandt
heylef
twitht
ear
sinhereyes.

I’
m standi
ngi nf
rontofthemi rrorwat
chingmysel f
andIlooklikeacomplet el
ydiffer
entperson.Ihave
neverseenmysel fl
ookingthisbeauti
f ul
.The
makeupar ti
stPrest
onf ounddi danamazi ngjob.He
didn’
tputtoomuchmakeupbutenhancedmy
natur
albeauty.Mbusowon’ tknowwhathi thim
whenIwal kdownt heisleandhebet tercry.

SibusisoisaGodsentbecauset hedesignerhe
knowsf r
om Durbancamepr eparedlikehehas
cl
othesf orplussizewoment ooandIwassohappy
becauseever yone,includingthedadsgot
somet hingtowear .Hesai dhehadt opullsome
stri
ngswhenhehear dt hatthebrideispregnantto
getadr essandOhmyGodi tisbeautif
ulandI
couldn’tbemor ehappi er.Ididletthedesignerwho
i
smaki ngmydr esst hatI’m getti
ngmar ri
edbuthe
shouldn’tworrycauseIam st il
lgoingtoneedhi s
servi
cesandheunder
stood.Ican’
tbel
ieveI’
m
reall
yget
ti
ngmarri
edtothemanofmydr eams.
.I’
m
fi
nallymar
ryi
ngt
hismant hatIl
ovever
ymuch.

Thegi rl
sar ealll
ooki ngamazi ngwi ththeir
bridesmai ddressesevenPr estonbutIhaven’ tseen
thatmenatal landI ’
m wonder inghowt heyact ually
l
ook.Si mshasbeenamesscr yingnonst opmaki ng
mecr ytoo.Shegavemesomet hingbluef ormet o
wearandi tisabl uelacegar t
erandi tfit
sme
perfectl
y.Wehel deachot herandcr i
edt earsofj oy.
Themake- upar t
istfinal
lyhadenoughofuscr ying
andki ckedsi msout .Itwassof unny.

Someoneknocksont hedoor.“Comei n”Isayit’

s
uncleVict
or.Helookssohandsomewi thhis
champagnesui tandcream shir
t.Helooksatmy
bri
desmaidandt heynod,leavetogi
veussome
pri
vacybutthevideographerandphotographerst
ay
behind.Hestandsnexttomeandwi pesmyt ear
s
offgentl
ywithhishandkerchief
.“wedon’twant
Prest
ontokil
lisnowdowe?”hesaysandhe
soundsandlookssoemotional
.“nowedon’t
.
Thankyouforbeingher
e.”hesmilest
akesmy
handsinhi
s.

“Iam sopr oudofthewomanyouhavebecome.

Yearsagoyouwer ejustt
hisl
it
tl
ebabyrunning
aroundinfrontofmebutl ookatyounow.Allgrown
up,expecti
ngmygr andki
dandgetti
ngmar r
ied.I
knewt hi
sdaywoul dcomeandIt houghtIhad
preparedmyselftoletyougobutnowI ’
m notsure.
”at earfal
ldownhi scheek.

“youhavebeenaper fectdaught
erlungile.You
havenevergivenmet r
oubleorwellothert hanthat
ti
meyougotr eall
ydrunkandwoul dn’tl
eavet he
cl
ub”webot hlaugh.“butyouhavebeena
disci
pli
nedchi l
dandIam pr oudtocallyoumy
daughter.WhenIt ol
dyout hatt
imet hatIknew
mbusoi sgoingt ochooseyouIhadhopet hatyou
guyswoul dreall
ymakei tandaftereverythingyou
havebeent hroughyoudi d.Yout woar emeantf or
eachot herandnoonecansepar ateyou.Whenyou
needmeal waysknowt hatIam her eandIwi ll
continuet odoanyt hi
ngaf atherdoesf orthei
rkids.
Lovembuso, r
especthim asyourhusbandandt he
headofhi sfamily.Whent hingsgett oughyouask
foraf amilymeet ingandnott al
kt oyourfri
ends
babyaboutyourmar ri
agepr oblems.Wat choutfor
yourf amilyandmakeuspr oud.St andyourgr ound
andl etmbusooranyoneknowt hattheycan’twalk
alloveryou.Il oveyoumychi l
dandIwi shyoual l
thebest .”Ihughi mtight
.

“Iloveyoutoobaba.Thankyouf ort headviseand

wisewords.Thankyouf orbeingther eandr ai
sing
met obethewomanIam t oday.Mychi ldisgoing
tohavethreeveryoverprotect
ivegr andfather
s.I
hopeshe’sagirltodri
veallofyoucr azy.Thankyou
baba.”Iwipehistearsoffsmili
ng, wel augh.“I’
ll
seeyouwhenwewal kyoudownt hei sl
e.”hesays
andkissesmycheekandl eaves.
Whewt hatwassoemot ionalandt ouching.I’m
worri
edabouthi mthoughbecausehewast oo
emotionalli
kesomet hingwaswr ongwi thhi m but
maybei t
’sjustmyi magi nat i
onandhe’sr eally
emotionalcauseI ’
m gettingmar ri
ed.Ther e’
sa
knockagainandt hedooropensandwowi t
’szipho.
TheGumede' slastborn.“wow!Wow!Wow! .My
brot
herisgoi ngtofaintthemomenthel ayshi s
eyesonyousi sluh.Youl ooksobeaut if
ul.Ihave
seenweddi ngsandhavebeent omanybutIdon’ t
thi
nkIhaveeverseenabr ideasbeautif
ulasyou.
I’
mluckyt ohaveasi steri n-l
awwho’ ssover y
beauti
ful
.”t hisonehasal waysbeenachar mer .

“thankyouzi pho,youl ooksohandsomeandIbet

manywomenhavet heireyesonyouwai ti
ngforyou
toaskt hem out.”hechuckl essmi l
ing.Helooksli
ke
he’sbrother
sbutyoucanseet hathei sasmoot h
tal
kerandwoul dchar m anygi r
l.“Ihaveal i
tt
le
somethi ngf
rom mybr other,hesai dhehopest hi
s
willmakeupf orwhathecoul dn’tgi
veyout oday.”
hesays.okwhati sthat?.Hef i
shesf orsomethi
ng
i
nhisbreastpocketandtakesoutvel
vetbox.“what
doyouhaveint her
e?”Iaskhim smil
ing.He
chuckl
es,helookscute.

“hesai dthisissomethingnewandhehopesyou
willl
oveit.Heaskedmet oputitonyoui fthat’
s
okay.”Inod.Heopensi tandshowsmet hemost
beautif
uldiamondneckl aceIhaveeverseen.I thas
di
amonds, ahugeonei sinthemi ddleandt hesmall
one’saresur r
oundingitandwowi tabsol
utely
breathtaking.

“wowzi pho,Iloveit
.OhmyGodIcan’ tbeli
evehe
gotmeadi amondneckl aceanditissobeaut if
ul.
Thisdiamondi shuge.”It el
lhi
m.Abeaut i
ful
womanl ikeyoudeser vesonlythefinestthingsin
l
ife.Turnar oundandl etmeputi ton.”It urnaround
andheput sitonmeandi ti
scoldasi ttouchesmy
war m skin.Il
ookatmysel fi
nthemi rr
orandi tsui
ts
me.Zi phoi salmostast al
lashisbrother sbut
mbusoi stall
erthanthebot hofthem.
“pr egnancylooksbeaut i
fulonyou.Ourchi l
dis
treati
ngyour eall
ygoodandIcan’ twaittomeethim
orher.”zi phot houghhesaysl ooki
ngatme
throught hemirror.Ismil
e.“canIt ouchyour
stomachandf eelit?”Inod.Heput shishandand
mybabi esmoveandhechuckl es.“doesithur
ts
whenshedoest hat?”Igiggle.“ashe?,noshe
doesn’ t.Il
oveitwhensheorhemovesandpl ays.”
Ireallydo.

“wow! .Thi sisbeautif

ul.I’
m goingt ospoilherandI
real
lyhopei t
’sagirlsoshecandr iveherdadcr azy
”webot hl augh.“l
etmegobef oremybr otherkill
s
mebutbef oreIleaveIwantt osayt oyout hankyou
forbri
ngi ngchangei ntohislif
eandmaki nghi ma
bett
erbr other,abettersonandabet t
ermant hanhe
wasbef or eyoucamei ntohisli
fe.Thankyousi s
l
ungi.”Hesays, ki
ssesmycheekandl eaves.Ist and
ther
el ookingatmydi amondr ing.I’minawe.
Theonl ythi
ngnowl eftissomethingoldandI
wonderwhoi sgoingt ogiveitt
omeandwhati si
t.
Mydadcomesi nwi thhissonfoll
owi ngbehindand
theylookver yhandsome.“myt wof avouri
temenin
thewhol ewidewor ld.Areyoureadyt otakeme
downt heisle?”Iaskt hem smili
nganddadi s
l
ookingatmewi t
htear sinhi
seyes.“dadpl ease
don’tcry.”hehast earsinhiseyes.

“youwer ethisl
ittl
ebabyt hatlovedtosmi l
eand
fol
lowherbigbr otheraroundwher everhewentand
i
tusedtodr ivehim crazy.Thenonedayourl i
ves
changedandIl ostallofyout henfoundyouagai n.
WheneverIlookatyouIst il
lseemyl it
tl
egi r
lbutI
knowyouar eagr ownwomannowandsomet i
mes
i
tishardformet oaccept.”hest opsandt akesa
deepbreath.“I’
llwil
lalwaysbeyourl it
tlegirlbaba
nomat t
erhowol dIget.”hesmi les.

“nobaby.Youareawomanwhoi sget
tingmar
ri
ed
i
nafewhour st
ime.Ihaveseenyougr
owingup
thesepastfewmont hsandIam ver ypr oudofyou
l
ungile.Ipr
omi set
ost andbackandl etyouand
mbusodot hi
ngsyourway, Iwontinterf
ereinyour
mar r
iageunti
lyouaskmet o.Yourbrothertol
dme
thatyoufeell
ikewear egetti
ngoverinvolvedin
youraffai
rsandIagreeevent houghIdon’ twantto.
Ialwayswantt oprot
ectbecauseIcoul dn’tal
lthese
yearsyouwer en’
there.”

“dadwhathappenedweal lhadnocont roloverit

andIdon’ twantyout of eelguilt
yorf eellikeyou
havetomakeupf ornotbei ngi nmyl i
fe.WhatI
needfrom youbot hist ospoi landbet her eforher
orhim.Youwi l
lnotmi ssanyt hingimpor tantthat
i
nvolveal lt
hekidsIam goi ngt ohave.Yourki dstoo
si
celo,wewi llnotmi ssanyt hing.Ilovet hebot hof
youverymuchandt hankyouf oraccept ingmbuso
asanothersonoft hisf amily.Ineedyousi cel
oto
watchhim andpr otecthi mlikehei syourbr ot
her
becauseIknowhewi l
ldot hesamef oryou.Iwi l
l
notsurviveifanythinghappenst ohim.Ineedhi m
i
nmyl ife.Hei stheonl ymanIwi llal
waysl oveand
needi
nmyl
if
e.”

“don’
tworrysi
s.Mbusoi smybrotherandIwillnot
l
etanythi
nghappentohim nomat t
erwhat.”Inod.
“wehavesomethingforyoubutweneedyout o
cl
oseyoureyes.
”Iclosemyeyesgi ggl
ingexci
ted.
“whatdoyouhaveforme?” .Ihearshuff
li
ng,a
dooropeni
ngandclosingthensi
celostandsnextto
me.

“Iwishshewasher ewi thust odaybutIknowi n

spiri
tsheis.Iknowshewoul dhavel ovedtogive
yout hi
sher selformaybesomet hi
ngel sebutI
thoughtyouwoul dreallylovethissomet hingold.I
tookittoyouruncl e’
swi fecauseshe’ sthebestat
thesethingssoshecanbr i
ngsomel if
eintoitand
wellyourauntsai ditlooksbeaut ifulbutIdon’t
knowi fi
twi llmatchwi thyourdr ess.Sonhel pme”
hesays.If eelsomet hingbeingpl acedovermy
headandi tf al
lsdowncover ingmyar msandback.
Tearsfil
lmyeyesasIr ealisethatitismymot her
’s
vei
l.I
’
m goingt
owalki
ngdowntheisl
eweari
ngt
he
sameveilmymotherhadwhenshemarr
iedmydad.

“openyoureyesbabyandseehowbeaut i
f ulyou
l
ook.”mydadsays.Iopenmyeyesandseebot hof
them standi ngonmysi desl ookingatmeatt he
mi r
ror.Mymot her’
sveillooksbeaut i
fulandi t
almostmat chesmycr eam dr ess.Tear sofj oyf all
downmycheekscauseIam wear ingsomet hi ngold
thatbelongst omymot herandi tmakesmef eelso
muchcl osert oherthanIhaveeverf elt.“thankyou
babaf orgi vingmet hisveilthatmom wor e.Iwi ll
cherisht hi
smomentf orasl ongasIl iveandIwi ll
passi tdownt omykidst oowhent heygetmar r
ied.
Iloveyouguys.”Isaychoki ngup.Dadhugsme
andmybr ot hert
oo,Iwr apbot hmyhandsar ound
them.“wel oveyout oobaby.I ’m sureyourgr oom
i
swai t
ingf oryoubabyl etusnotkeepyou.”

“thankyouforbei
ngt
hebestpar
entf
ormebaba
andIpromiseIwil
lmakeyoupr
oudandnot
di
sappointyou.”.“
Iknowyouwi llbaby.The
Gumedef amil
yisveryblessedtohaveyouast hei
r
daught
ertoo.Youbuildthatfamilyandmakeit
str
ongerthanithaseverbeen.”.“Iwil
ldad.”t
hey
bothki
ssmycheeks.

Thedooropensagai nandi t’
smywhol efami l
y.My
uncles,aunt s,cousi
nst hewhol eNgcobof ami l
yis
herewi t
hSi ms,uncl
eVi ctorandPr estont oo.They
getinandcl osethedoor .“st andi nthemi ddlebaby
wehavet opr ayforyou.”myuncl eswi fesays.I
standint hemi ddle,
theyf or m aci rcl
ear oundme
andt hensi ngJoyousCel ebration-Uni kiwe”wi th
myauntl eading,shecansi ngt hatone.Wesi ng
whi l
eI’m standinginthemi ddlewi t
ht hem
surroundingmeandwhent hesongends, they
stret
cht heirhandstome.Wecl oseoureyesand
everyonebegi nst opray.If eeltheirl ove,pr ot
ecti
on
andbestwi shes.

Whenwear
edonepr
ayi
ngt
heyal
lleave,
leavi
ngme
alone.Ilookatmyselfonelastt
imethenl eavemy
father’
sbedroom.Si msgivesmemybeaut if
ul
bouquet .Wewal kunti
lwestopwheremydadand
uncleVictorarewaiti
ngforme.Shewal ksfora
whi l
e“okaydadswhent hemusicplays,youwalk
herdownt hei
sle.”Prest
onsays.Il
ookathi m and
hebl owsmeaki ss.

Themusi cplays, t
heybot hholdmyar msandwal k
medownt heislebutmi ddayuncl eVi ctorst ops,we
stopt ooandIl ookathi m.Heki ssesmycheek
throught heveil.“yourdadhasi tcover edf rom here.
”Inod, l
ookatmydadandcont i
nuet owal k.Iwas
l
ooki ngdownt hewhol etime.Ilookupandmyeyes
l
andonmbusoandhel ookslikehehasj ust
steppedoutofahi ghendf ashionshoot .Mybabyi s
dropdeadgor geouswear i
nghi scream ori vorysuit
Idon’ tknowwhatcol ouriti
sbuthel ooksamazi ng.

Ilookathisf
aceandseet
hosebeaut
if
ult
ears
fall
ingdownhisf
acetohi
sbear
d.Hecovershi
s
eyesandhisshoulder
sshakeashecr i
es.His
brot
herclampshisshoul
dercomforti
nghim.We
stopnexttohi
m andhewipeshistearsoffand
l
ooksatmydad.

“whogivesawaythi
swomant
omar
ryt
hisman?”
ther
everendasks

“Ido”mydadsays.Hegi vesmbusomyhand.
“loveher,prot
ectherandhonourher .Ifyoufail
to
dot hatoryoufeelli
keyouhavehadenoughpl ease
bringherbackhome.Youputyourhandsi nher
everagainIwillki
llyouandshewi llmournyou.
Goodl ucksonIwi shthebot hofyouthebest.”he
says.“Iwillmakeherver yhappymaphol oba.”
Theyhugandmydadl eaves.

“youl
ookbeaut
if
ulmaNgcobo”Ismi
le.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER42.
MBUSO.

Sheisandwi l
lal
waysbet hemostbeaut if
ulwoman
Ihaveeverl
aideyeson.Shel ookssobeaut i
full
ike
I’
m seei
ngherfortheveryfi
rstwife.Ican’
tbeli
eve
sheisallmi
ne.Shegivessimsherbouquet ,Itake
herhandsinmineandlookather .Thesestupid
tear
swon’tstopfal
li
ngandIdon’ tcarecausethey
aretear
sofjoy.Iputmyhandunderhervei l
,wipe
hertear
soffandshekissesmypal m.

“Iknewhewasgoi ngtotouchher”mymom says

soloudweal ll
augh.Shelif
tsherhandt ooand
wipesmyt ear stooandIdot hesameandki ssher
softpalm.Shef lashesmeherbeaut if
ulsmi l
eandI
can’thel
pmysel fIgri
nandwi nkather.Ihear
peoplecooing, t
hatmakesluhbl ush.Iforget
somet i
mest hatshecanbeshy.

“Wear eal
lheret
odayt
ocelebr
atet
herel
ati
onshi
p
ofLungi
leNgcoboandMbusowezweGumede,tobe
witnessesandsuppor t
er softhecommi t
mentt hey
sharewi t
honeanot her.Toget heryouar eagr oupof
themosti mportantpeopl eintheirli
vesandt hey
havebr oughtyouheret opubl i
callyrecogni
zet hat
youhaveal lpl
ayedsomespeci alpartinthelove
theyshar et
oday.”Ther everendsays.Iwonder
wher etheygothim unl
esshei sluh'sauntrever end.
butIthinkmoneyal sopl ayedaver yimpor t
antr ole.

“Mar ri
agegi vespermanenceandst ructuretoa
couple’sl ove.Marriageist ell
ingt hepersonyou
l
ovet hatyouar enotgoi nganywher e.Agood
marr i
agemustbebui l
tont hef oundat i
onoft r
ust
andcommi tmentt oeachot her.Lungiandmbuso
donotgot obedandsl eepangr ywi t
honeanot her.
Marr i
agei saboutst andingt oget herandf aci
ngthe
world,youf orgi
veeachot herandf orget,youdonot
holdgr udges.Li t
tl
et hi
ngsmat t
eri nmar riageli
ke
saying“ “Iloveyou, holdhands, howwasyourday
andImi ssyou”t hoset i
tlesar ever yimpor tantand
donott aket hem f
orgr antedoreachot her .
”I
promiset odot hatandmor e.Iwi llshowhert he
wor
ldandbr
ingt
hewor
ldt
oherasl
ongasIl
ive.

“Ther oadthathasbroughtLungiandMbusoher e
todayhasnotbeeneasy.I thasbeenf i
ll
edwit
h
chall
engesthattheywe’renotpreparedfor
.But
toget
hertheystoodstrongandf acedevery
chall
engetogetherasoneandusedt hose
experi
encestostrengthenthei
rloveandnot
weakeni t
.”

“LungiandMbuso.Thevowsyouar eaboutto
makear eawayt oshar eyourl ove, t
rustand
commi tmenttoeachot herinyourownwor ds.
Thosevowsar eawayofopenl ydecl ari
ngyour
promi sestoeachot heraswel lasyourf amil
yand
fr
iendswhoar eheret ocelebratet hi
sbeautiful
union.”Hesays.Iwi sht hereverendwoul dskip
everythingandjustgot othepar tofourvows.ButI
don’twantt hatbecauseever ythinghast obe
perfectforher.Hersecondweddi ngisgoingt obe
betterandmor ebeaut i
fulthant his.
“Beforeyoudecl ar
eyourvowst ooneanot her
,I
wantt ohearyouconfir
mt hatiti
sindeedyour
i
ntent i
ontobemar ri
edtoday.Mbusowezwe
Gumededoyoucomeher efr
eelyandwithout
reservati
ontogiveyoursel
ftoLungil
eNgcoboi n
mar r
iage?Ifso,
answer“ Ido.
”

“Ido.
”It
ellt
her
ever
end.Shesmi
les…myhear
t.

“Lungi
leNgcobodoyoucomeher ef
r eel
yand
wit
houtreser
vat
iont
ogiveyour
selft
o
MbusowezweGumedeinmar ri
age?Ifso,answer“I
do.”

“Ido”shesayssmi
li
ng.Theycl
aphands.

“MbusoandLungi,
havi
ngheardthatitisyour
i
ntenti
ontobemarr
iedt
oeachother,Inowaskyou
todecl
areyourmar
ri
agevows.Pl
easef aceeach
ot
herandholdhands.Mbusoyouwillst
art.”Fi
nal
ly
whew.Itakeadeepbreat
hbecauseIfeelso
emoti
onal.

“Thewhol eni ghtIwasawaket hinkingaboutmy

vows, thinki ngwhatam Igoi ngt osayt oyoubut
thenIreal isedt hatwheni tcomest oyouIdon’t
havet othi nk.WhatIwantt odowi thyouorsayto
youcomesnat urall
y.Luh, youknowmebet tert
han
anyoneel sei nt hisworld,youknowal lmyflaws
andmyi mper fect i
onsbutsomehowyoust i
ll
managet obel ieveinme.Youar emyoneandonl y
truel
ove.Mybestf ri
endandsoulmat e.Ist
il
lcan’
t
beli
evet hatwear estandingher et odaygett
ing
mar r
iedandI ’
mt heluckymanwhoget stomarry
you.”FuckI ’m suchamess.Igi vehermy
handker chi efcauseshe’ scr yi
ng.

“nothingwil
ldi
videusbecauseIknowthatwith
yourloveIwil
lal
wayshavestrengt
h.Withoutyou
mylifehasnomeani ngIpr
omisethateachkisswil
l
bef i
lledwi t
hl ovethant helastone.Ivowt odevote
myl ifet oyouandal waysbet rue.Letusbui lda
home, alif
eandaf amilythatwehaveal r
eady
startedt obui ldfrom ourbondsoft ruelove.Take
myhear t,l
ovemef oreverandIwi llneverleaveyour
side.YouandIar eone.Ineverknewt hatl i
fecould
beadr eam unt i
lImetyou, Iwi llcomf ortyou, hol
d
youcl ose,prizeyouaboveal lot hersandr emai n
fait
hf ultoyoual lthedaysofourl ives.Iloveyou
l
ungi le.Iam your sandyoucanhavei tall
.”The
wayshe’ slookingatmeasIsaymyvowst oher ?,i
t
feelsl i
keshe’ shear i
ngmet ellhert hatIloveherf or
thever yfir
stt i
me.She’ sacr yingmess.I ’m sureshe
wipedof fhermakeupwi tht hathandker chiefIhave
her.

“bridesayyourvowst oyourgr
oom ”herfacei
sso
redfrom cr
ying,Idon’
tknowisshe’
sgoingtobe
abletosayallofthem.

“whatyousai
dbabywasbeaut
if
ul.Il
oveyou,
I
real
lydo.WheneverIam wi thyouIgett hisfeel
ing
thatIcannotdescribeandi ti
ssomet hingIwoul d
hatetolose.Ivowt oal waysupl i
ftyouevenwhen
youmakememadbydr i
nkingmi l
kst raightfrom
thecarton.”laughteristheonl ysoundwecanhear .
Eventhebi r
dschi r
pi nlaughing.“Ivowt obe
alwayshonestwi thyouevenwheni t
’shar dtohear,
Ihatethatyoual waysl eavethetoiletseatup.Ther e
i
snomani nthisworldl i
keyoumbusoand
fort
unatelyformeIhavet hebestone.Sor rydad
anduncl evictor
.”manIl ovehervows.Ichuckl e.

“allthatIhave,al
lthatIam, Ioff
ertoyouinl ove
andi njoy.Iadmirehowyouactt owardsyour
family,fr
iendsandcompl etestr
angers.Youhel ped
met ogr owasawoman, Thankyouf orboosting
mysel fconfi
dence,foralwaysremindingmet hatI
am asmar t,
beauti
fulwoman.Youar emyt r
uel ove,
myr ockandmypeace.Igi veyoumyhear tandmy
soul.Ipromi set
ocher i
shyou, l
oveyou,honouryou
andr espectyou.Ipromisetoalsocar eaboutyou,
protectyou,comfortyouandst aywithyouf or
eter
nit
y.Ipr
omi setosubmi ttoyouasmyhusband,
buil
dawar m homef oryouandourchi l
dren.In
goodtimesorbadt i
mes.Iwi llwaysbet hereas
yournumberonecheer leaderevenwheni t
’shard.
”
Shestopsandt akesadeepbr eath.Ibr
ushher
handsencouraginghert ocontinue.

“Mbusomybody, mysoulandmyhear tareal l

yours.Everythi
ngthatIhaveandever yt
hingt hatI
am belongedt oyoulongbef oret oday.Ipr omi se
yout hatIam yoursforever
.Iwi llfoll
owyou
anywher eyougoandanywher eyoul eadmet o.
Handi nhand.Hear ti
nhear t
.Si debysi de.Let’sget
onwi ththissothatwecangr owol dandgr ey
together!
.”shesayst helastpar tveryexci ted.She’
s
goingt obeaver yhotgrandmot herandbyGod’ s
graceIhopeIwoul dst i
llbehitti
ngi thar d.She
blusheslikeshecanr eadmyt hought s.

“Thebr
ideandgroom wi
llnowexchanger
ingst
o
symbol
izet
hei
rcommi t
ment .Ar
ingi
scustomar
il
y
wornonther i
ngf i
ngerbecauseitistheonlyfinger
wit
htheveinrunni ngdir
ect
lytotheheart.Your
weddi
ngr i
ngar etheoutwardandvi si
blesignoft he
i
nwardandi nvisi
blebondwhichal r
eadyuni t
esyou
twoheart
sinl ove.Whereareyourringsgroom? .”I
l
ookatluhandshel ooksembarrassedlikereall
y
baby.

“babyyoudi dn’
tthi
nkIwoul
daskyoutomarryme
wit
houtactuall
ygivi
ngyouaringdi
dyou?”Iask
herchuckl
ing.

“Ithoughtwewouldact
ual
lyandIwasokaywi
th
that.”youseewhyIl
oveher?
!.

“boyst heri
ngsplease.”si
msboyscomeandgi ve
thereverendtheri
ngs.Hetakesthem andpr
aysf or
them withbothourhandsont heBibl
eandhishand
ontopofour s.
“Mbusopl
acether i
ngonLungis’
sfi
ngerandr
epeat
af
terme…”thereverendsays.

“Igiveyout hisri
ng.Wearitwithloveandjoy.As
thi
sr i
nghasnoend, Myloveisal sof
orever
.”I
repeataftertherever
endsli
ppingadi amondringon
herf i
nger.Shelooksattheri
ngt henatmei nawe.I
willnevergettir
edofseeingherlookingatmel i
ke
that.

“l
ungipl
acet
her
ingonmbuso’
sfi
ngerandr
epeat
af
terme…”

“Igiveyouthi
sring.Wearitwit
hloveandjoy.As
thi
sr i
nghasnoend, Myloveisalsof
orever
.”She
sli
psmyr i
ngthatshemadef ormeonmyf inger
.I
l
ovet hatr
ingandIdon’tt
hinkIwanttochangeit.

“Maytheweddingr
ingsyouexchangedtoday
remi
ndyoualwayst
hatyouaresurroundedby
endur i
ngl ove.Iwoul dli
ketoof ferthesegood
wishest oyouonyourspeci alday.Mayyourl i
fe
togetherbef i
ll
edwi thProsperit
yandgoodheal th.
Mayyoucher isht hehomeandf ami lyyoual ready
havecr eatedt oget hermayal ltheyear stocomebe
fi
ll
edwi t
hmoment stocelebratelifeandl ove.May
yourlovebef ullofexci t
ement ,cont entment ,
affecti
on, respect, anddevotionf oroneanot her.
Andsonowbyt hepowervest edi nmeRever endS.
Mt shali
,itismyhonouranddel ightt odecl areyou
husbandandwi f
e.Youmayki sst hebr ide.”Ilook
atourf ri
endsandf amilyandseehowhappyt hey
are.Ilaughshaki ngmyhead.Ist retchmyf i
ngers,
getdownanddof ivepushupsandt heylaughat
me.I ’
m get ti
ngr eadyt okissmywi f
e.Mybeaut if
ul
wife.Igetup, l
if
tupherl ongvei landseemy
beautifulwi f
e.

“ngi
yakut
handamamabant wanabami
.”(Ilove
youmotherofmychi
ldr
en.)Ibr
ingmyfacedown,
pul
lhercl
osetomeandkissmywi f
eshortand
sweet
.Idon’
twantt
oscarmyf amil
ypl
usmyaunt
wouldmakesureIneverheart
heendofi
t.Ikissher
f
oreheadandhughertightt
ome.She’
smi ne.She’
s
mine.

“ladi
esandgentl
emen, Iam pleasedtopresentthe
newlyweds.MrandMr sMbusoGumede!”Wef ace
ourfamil
iessmil
ingastheyclap,cheerandululate
happil
yforus.

“She’
smine!
,She’
smywif
efi
nal
ly!
.Wef
inal
lydi
dit
”Ishoutf
orthewhol
ewor
ldt
ohear.

“myhusbandl et
’sgot othehouse.Wehavet ogo
andsignourmar r
iagecertif
icat
e”shesaysraisi
ng
hereyebrow.Shehasj ustcall
edmeherhusband
andshe’salr
eadytell
ingmewhatt odo.Iloveit!
.

“leadthewaymywi fe.Ican’twaittosaytothe
guys’ I
’l
lhavet
oaskmywi fe,mywi fesaysno,my
wifeis’
…”shelaughsadeepbel lylaugh.
“canyoubeseri
ous”she’
sstil
llaughinghard.
That’
swhatIwantt
osee,herhappy,tearsofjoy.I
’l
l
makesureImakeherl
aughalways.Wegot ot he
house,si
tdown.

“t
het
ermsar
est
il
laswedi
scussedr
ight
?.”

“theyar
emywi f
e”shesmi l
es,Igr
in.Il
iedand
gaveher80per
centofever
ythi
ngIown.

“canyouconfi
rmthat?”sheasksherlawyer
.He
nods.Shel
ooksatme, smi
lesandsignsour
marri
agecer
ti
fi
cateandIdot hesame.

“guysi
fyouaredonecanyouf ol
lowme?”Si ms
saysaf
tershesignsasthewit
nessandbongat oo.
Wegetupandf ollowher.Wegototheloungeand
ourwholefami
lyisther
eokwhatisgoingon?.
“getinthemi ddleandkneeldown.”mom says.
There’sacushionf orl
uht okneel on.Ihel
pher
downandkneelt oo.Theyf orm abigcircl
earound
us.“wear egoingt oprayforbot hofyout oaskfor
blessi
ngsandpr otecti
onf oryourmar ri
age.Please
prayforyourselvest oo.Let’scloseoureyes.”I
entwinebothourhandst ogether.Laymychi non
herheadassher estsherheadonmychest .

“GodIknowt hatIam asinnerandaki ll

erandI
don’tthi
nkIdeser vetobeunderyourpr esencebut
I’
m nothereaski nganythingf ormebutf ormywi f
e.
Helpmet olove, cheri
sh,respect ,
ador e,andpr ot
ect
herthewayt hatshedeser ves.Iwi l
llaydownmy
l
ifeforher.PleaseGoddon’ tletmescr ewupand
hurtherbutt eachmet obeabet terhusbandt oher
everyday.Pleasecont i
nuet owat choverherasyou
havedonebef ore.Thankyouf orblessingmewi t
h
her.Amen.”I ’m done.Aft
eraf ewmi nuteseveryone
el
sei sdonet oo.
“wearegoingtogi
veyousometimealone.Si
ms
wil
lcomeandgetyouguys,gotoluh’
sroom.”luh’
s
auntsays.Wenodandgotoluh’
sbedroom.

“goodaf
ter
noonmywi
fe.”shebl
ushes.

“myhusband”t
hosewor
dsgost
rai
ghtt
omyhear
t.
CHAPTER43.

LUNGI
.

“Il
ovet hesoundofthatcomingfr
om yoursweet
l
ipslove.Ican’
tbeli
eveweareactuall
ymarri
ed.
Holl
yshi twefuckendi
ditbaby”Ilaugh.

“wearereal
lymarr
iedf
orr
ealt
hist
ime.Nof
ake
marr
iagebaby.”
“di
dItellyouhowmuchIl
oveyouandproudthat
youchosemeandyougettocal
lmeyourhusband?
”

“nopeIdon’
trememberbutyoucant
ellmeagai
n.”

“si
rdownbaby,
doyourf
eethur
t?”

“noI’
m wear
ingsl
eeper
s”Isaygi
ggl
ingwesi
ton
thebed.

“yourlovehumbl esmeMr sGumede.Youar eone

i
nami l
li
on.Yourbeautyshinesfr
om wit
hinandit
makesever yt
hingaroundyoubeauti
full
ikeyouare.
”hesoundssoemot i
onalr
ightnow.I
nbr ushhi
s
face.

“youmakei
teasyf
ormet
oloveyou.Iwoul
ddo
t
hiswithyoualloveragai
n.Wear
enotj
oined
t
ogetherforl
if
e.”hesmi l
es.

“t
heonlyt
hinglef
tnowist
ogett
het
radi
ti
onal
weddi
ngouttheway.”

“canwenotdot
hataf
terI
’
vegi
venbi
rt
htot
heki
ds?
”

“no.Theplanner
sarealreadypl
anni
ngitbaby.I
wantever
ythingdonesowecanf ocusont hebi
rt
h
ofourki
ds.Iwanttofocusonyouandnot hingel
se.
”

“ohGod.Whendi
dtheysayt
heycangeti
tdone?”

“you’
llhavetoasksi
ms,
she’
stheonehandl
ing
ever
ything.”
“getti
ngmar ri
edwhileyourpregnantisexhaust
ing.
Ireal
lyhavenoenergyofgoi ngthroughanother
weddi ngbutIknowwehavet odoitsosinceyour
wholef amil
yisher
,whydon’ tyouguysst ar
tthe
negotiati
onstomorr
owcausewear eal
ready
mar r
ied.”

“wowbabyyouwon’ tbeli
evethisbutwehad
act
ual
lyt
alkedaboutitanddecidedthattomorr
ow
wewil
lhavethenegotiat
ions.”t
hatisgreatt
hen.

“I’
m gl
adthenthatweareonthesamepage.”
someoneknocksinthedoorandIt
hinki
t’
ssims.

“comein.”si
mspokesherhead.Wegetup.I
’
m so
hungr
ythough.

5“Congrat
ulat
ionsyouguys!
.Youfi
nal
lygot
marri
ed.”she’
ssoexcit
ed.Shehugsmeandhugs
mbusotoo.
“thankyousi
msforbei
ngther
eforl
uhal
lthi
sti
me.
Thankyou”myhusbandsays.

“she’smysi st
erandIknowshewoulddothesame
formet oo.wearereadyforyouMrandMrs.
Gumedeandpr epar
etobebl own.
”shesaysmi
li
ng
clappi
ngherhands.

Wegetupandf oll
owherandshet akesust owhere
wear egoingt oshootourweddi ngpict
uresandthe
spacetheycr eatedisabsol ut
elybeautif
ul.The
famil
yistherewai ti
ngf orus.Wesi tposeanddoal l
kindsofthingstakingphot oswi t
heveryone.An
hourlat
erwear estil
ltaki
ngpi csandIam sodone.
It
’shot,
thedr essisstarti
ngt ofeelheavyandIam
hungry.Itrytobepat ientbyt hi
rtyminuteslat
erI’
m
done.

“okwehavet
akent
housandsofpi
ctur
eandt
hey
areenoughguys.I’
m hungry.Canwegoandeatso
Icangoandrest.”Theylaugh.

“okguysyouseet hathugefr
amet entovert her
e?,
pleasegotoi
t.Thebrideandgroom willfol
lowyou
j
ustnow.Let’
sgoguys, comeon.”Pr estonsays.
Theyleaveusandaftera10mi nut
eswef ol
low
them.

“canweskipt
her
ecept
ionandgohome?
.”t
hey
bothl
augh.

“t
hatwoul
dber
udel
ove.”

“i
sther
eapr
ogr
am?”Isi
ms.

“Prest
onmadesurethatt
her
eis.”j
ustgr
eatIhope
theywon’
ttal
kforl
ong.
“who’
stheMC?”mbusoasks

“it’
sbonga.”shesays.West andout si
dethe
mar quee.Themusi cisplaying,ourfamil
iesare
l
aughi ngenj oyingthemselvesandt hefoodsmel l
s
absolutel
ydi vine.I’
m sur
e.Si snontoandt heother
l
adiesout donet hemsel
ves.Pr est
onseesusandhe
sayssomet hingt osomeoneont heearpiecethen
there’
ssilence.

“okguys,
goahead.”

Wewal kandt henthecurtainsopenandIam i nawe.

Iam soshockedbecauseIdi dn’tthinkthi
swas
possibleI’
m onlyjustoneday.Notevenawhol e
day.Ilookatmyhusbandandhe’ sasshockedasI
am.Theyal lstandupandcl apf orusasBonga
i
nt r
oduces.Ilookar oundandi t’slikeI
’min
someoneel se’sweddi ng.Oneoft heplanner
s
guidesust ooutchai r
sandwesi tdown.The
reverendopenswi thapr ayert hent heprogr
am
begins.Bothourfamili
essharethei
rlovelywi
shes
forus,ourfri
ends,bestmanandt hemai dofhonour
.
Weeat ,weshareourf i
rstdanceashusbandand
wife,wit
hmydad.Wecutt hecake,
feedeachother,
givetheothertohismom andhegi vestheother
onet omah.

Thet imetot hrowthebouquetcomes, allthesingl

e
l
adiesl i
neup.Icheckt oseei feveryonesi ngl
elady
i
st hereandwhenIseeever yoneisther eIt hr
owt he
bouquett henwat chandseesi mscat chi t
.Ireall
y
want edhertocat chit
.Isi tdownandi t’smbuso' s
turntotakeof fthegarter.Hekneel sdownget s
i
nsidemydr essandki sseshi swayupmyl egunti
l
her eachesthegar t
ernuthekeepski ssi ngmyl eg.
I’
mj ustgladt hathi
shandsar enott her e.Idon’t
knowwhymbusodoest hisbecauseheknowsI
blusheasi l
y.Icovermyf aceandt heyal ll
augh.

Hegrabsi
twithhi
smouthanduseshi
steethtopul
l
i
tdownmyl egandfi
nal
lyemer
gesfr
om undermy
dress.Hegri
nsthekissesme.Li f
tsthegar terup
andalltheguysli
neup.Het hrowsitbutsomer un
awaywhenhedoesandi tlandsonsi busiso.He’s
theonewhocat chesit
,hegr insthenputsi taround
bonga'shead.
.Ok.Weal llaugh.Bongagoest o
simsandkissesherandsheget sshy.Si msget ti
ng
shy,whoknew? .

Wet hankeveryonef orcomingandsuppor t

ingusi n
everyway.Bongacl osest heceremonywi that oast
tousandourf r
iendsandf amilyjoi
nhi m.Wegot o
thedanceflooranddancef oronlytwosongst hen
meandmyhusbandl eave.Theyallgatheroutside
formingtwolinesandwewal kbet weenthem as
theycheerandt hrowf l
owersonus.Wegeti nthe
carwr i
tt
en“justgotmar r
ied”withf r
ankasour
chaperone.Het akesushomeandl eavesust here
andt hegateclosesafterhimthenmyhusband
picksmeupandIal mostscr eam.

“whatar
eyoudoi
ngbaby,
I’
m heavy.”Iaskhi
m
gi
ggl
ing.

“carryi
ngyouovert hethr
eshol dwife.Steal
ingyou
from yourfamilyandbegi
nninganewl i
fewithme
asyourhusband.”hesayswal kingtot heli
ving
room dooropeni ngi
tandclosesi twithhisl
eg.He
walksincar r
yingmeandcont inuest owalkonunt i
l
heput smedownonourbed.Isi ghcauseImi ssed
mybed.Il ayonmysi deandl ookathi m.Hegoest o
l
ockupandcomesback.

“I’
m goingtorunusabat h.Don’
tsl
eepbaby.”he
saysandIlaugh.Hegoest othebathroom then
conesback.“getup.”Idoashesays.“t urnar
ound
mylove.”Ido.Het akesofft
heveilandmyhead
feel
sloose.Ididn’
treal
isei
twasthattight.“wher
e
didyougetthisveill
ove?”

“dadsai
ditwasmom’s.Ifor
gottoaskhi
m where
hegoti
tcauseIt
houghtever
ythi
nggotburnt
.”
“maybei
twasl
efther
ebef
oret
heymoved.”It
hink
sot
oo

“Iwonderi
fherdressi
sheretoo.I
’
llhavetoask
dadcauseifi
tist
oothenIwantsomeofi tt
obe
i
ncludedi
nmyweddi ngdr
ess.”hekissesmynape.

“thatwoul
dbelovel
y.Youl
ookedbeaut
ifuli
nthi
s
onetoo.”heunzi
psmydressanditf
all
sdown.He
chuckl
es.

“what’
sfunnymyhusband”webot
hlaugh.GodI
’
m
ti
red.

“Iloveseei
ngyoui ngrannypanti
es.”It
urnand
pokehiml i
ght
ly.“I’
m seri
ousbabyyoulookhotin
them.YourbreastshavegrowntooandIlovethem.
CanIsuckleont hem?”
“youwantt
otast
ebr
east
smi
lk?”

“yeahwhynot?.I
t’
sheal
thyandIr
eadi
ttast
es
good.”Il
augh.

“goshIcan’ twithyou.”hekneelsdownandt akes

mygr annypant i
esof f
.HestandsandIhelphim get
outofhisclothes.Wegot othebathroom andgetin
thebathtub.Ilaymyheadonhi schestandwest ay
sil
entjustli
steni
ngt oourheart
sandenjoyingthe
moment .

“Il
ivebei
ngher
eli
ket
hiswi
thyou.”

“Il
oveitt
oobaby.Doyout
hinkwear
ebor
ing?”I
askhi
m

“ngekebabykunganiushonj
alo?”(nobabywhydo
yousayt
hat
?.)Wel
augh.

“Imeanl
ookatus.I
t’sourweddingday,welef
tthe
par
ty,
camehomesoi tcanbejustthetwoofus
andwearei
nthebathtubsi
tt
ing.”

“wear ehavingapreci
ousmomentIwoul drather
havet hatthandanceanddr ink.Youarepregnant
baby,youneedmeandyouar estil
lonbed.The
ti
mesf orgoingoutandtakingyout odi
nner,
spoi
lingyoul i
keyoudeservewi l
lcomebaby.
There’snothingbori
ngaboutus.”hesot houghtful
wheni tcomest ome.I
t'
soneoft hethi
ngsIl ove
abouthi m.

“t
hankyouf
ort
hisPhakathwayomyeniwami
.”
(t
hankyoumyhusband.)

“let
’sgetoutandgoresti
nbed.”noweddingsex
forus,ImeanI’
m notcomplai
ningcauseIr
eal
ly
wantt
osl
eep.

“ar
ewegoi
ngt
ohavesexboo?”Iaskhi
m smi
li
ng.

“youwantmet osexyoul ove?”Igiggl

e.Hegetsup,
helpsmegetupt ooandwegetoutoft hebath.He
dri
esmeandwr apsthetowelaroundmet hendr
ies
himsel
f.Itaket
hetissueoilandbri
ngitwithmeto
thebedroom.

“baby?”

“yeslove?
.”hesayspul
li
ngt
hepi
ll
owsof
ffr
om t
he
bed.

“canyoubri
ngmeacl
eantownandlayi
tdownon
thef
loor
,her
eint
hemi
ddle?”Hebr
ingsi
tandl
ays
i
tdown.
“laydownbabyI ’
m goi
ngt ogiveyouamassage.
Youhadal ongdayandyoudi dn’tsl
eepatal
llast
night
.”hegrins,t
hisi
diot
.IchangetheTVchannel
andputtheradioonandplayRadi o2000.It
urnthe
l
ightstodi
m andt ogi
veitthatromanti
c
atmospher
e.

“Ihavenevergott
enamassagebef
ore.Thi
swi
llbe
myf i
rstti
meloveandIl
ovet
hemusic.”he
chuckles.

“Ihopeyourf irstt
imewi l
lbever ymemor abl
e.Lay
onyourbackbaby.”hel aysdownandIsi tont opof
him.Idrizzl
etheoi lal
loverhi sbackandbegi nt o
massagehi sbr oadshoulder sandhisback.My
handsmovesl eekandsof tlyonhi sski
n.Imassage
eachandever ymuscl eandher el
axeshisbody
groans.Imovedownt ohi scut eShapleybutt
ocksI
giggl
e.Imassaget hem,hishar dharrythi
ghst oo,
l
egsandf eet
.Themmm soundshemakesvi brate
fr
om deepwi thinhim andt heymakemewet .
“turnoverbabymyl ove.”helaysonhi
sbackand
he’sful
lerect
.“ohhellother
eMrGumede,youso
ohyummy.”hel aughs.

“heneedssomeat tenti
onl ove.”Ismi rk.Isitont op
ofhim andmyvagi naont opofhi sdickf acingup
andoverhi sbell
ybut ton.Idr i
zzletheoi lagain,
massagehi sneck, arms, hischestGodhi schest.I
moveof fal i
fesoIcanbeabl etomassagehi s
stomach, Idosoavoi dinghi sdickt hati
sonmy
face.Igetoffhim compl etelyandgodownwar d
massagi nghislongl egsandf eett henmoveup
againandgi vehispr oudmembersomeat tenti
on.

Ipullhi
slegsapartandmassagehisball
s.Theyar e
soheavy,hardandIwantthem inmymout h.Ileave
them andatt
endhisproudmembert hat’
sleaki
ng
pre-
cum wrappedmyhandsar ounditandlookat
him.Hekeepsbiti
nghisli
ps,hiseyesarefocused
onmeandhi sdi
ckgetsharderandharderthemor e
Ikeepjacki
nghim off.Il
oveseei nghimlikethis
l
etti
nggoandgi vingmecont rol.Igetup,sitontop
ofhimthenlif
tmyhi ps,t
akehi sdickinmyhands
andeasemysel fi
nhimt akingever yi
nchofhi m one
atatime.Webot hgroan,Ili
ftmyhi psupagai nand
godownt aki
ngallofhimi nmeGodi tfeelssogood.

Ibegi nthetemposl owl yofmemovi ngup, down

andsi dewaysever ywaypossi bl
e.Myboobs
bounceupanddownandIgr indont opofhi m.He
l
iftshi sbodyupandcl aimsmymout h.Het astesso
goodl i
ketheglassofwhi l
ehedr ankear li
er.We
kisshungr il
y,desper atetofeeleachot her .Iwantto
bei nsidehisskin,deepi nhissoulandt akeover .I
pushhi m backtohi sbackandpl acemyhandson
hisst omachandmovemyhi psandwai st.Hisdick
feelssogoodbur ieddeepi nme.Hi spubi chai r
brushi ngagainstmi nemakesmybl oodboi l.Iget
up, turnandsheat hmysel finhi m againf acing
awayf rom him sohecangetapr operl ookofmy
assandhi sdickcomi ngi nandoutofme.Ihol don
tohi skneesandmovemyhi ps, assandbounceon
hi
sdick.If
uckhimrever
sestyl
eandhelovesit
.He
gr
untsandgroansmakingmeshakethatasshard.
Hespanksitandcur
ses.He’
slovi
ngi
t.

Hegr absmywai standt akesoverandf ucksme

thatwayhi tt
ingever yner vei nandoutofmyvagi na.
Icanf eelmysel fgett
ingr eadyt ocum butIdon’t
wantt o.Ipullhisdickout ,tur nandtakehi minme
againwi t
hmeont opofhi m.Ibounce, grindand
makei tclapasmuchasIcanwi t
hmyt wobabi esi
n
me.Hegr absmywai standt akescontrolagai
nand
Ialmostl augh.Hef li
cksmycl itonce,
twiceandi t
’s
enoughf ormet ocum, mypussymuscl es
contracti
ngal laroundhi sdi ck.Fucksexi sfucken
amazi ngwhenyou’ redoi ngi twithsomeoneyou
l
oveandt heyl oveyouback.

Hepicksmeup,takesmet
oourbedandentersme
fr
om thesi
de.Wemakesweetpassi
onat
eloveas
husbandandwif
e.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER43.
LUNGI
.

TWOMONTHSLATER.

Thel asttwomont hshavebeenhect i

cforusafter
theweddi ngcauset henextdaytheyheldthe
negot i
ationsandmyf ami l
yaccept
edthelobola
money.Ihavenoi deahowmucht heyaskedformy
handi nmar r
iagebutitmademehappyt hat
everythingwentwel l.Thenextweekwehadour
tradi
tionalweddi ngandImustsayi twasthe
l
ongestdayofmyl i
fe.Bythetimewewer edoneI
wasoveranddonewi thitcauseIwasexhaustedso
youcannowcal lmeMr sGumedeof f
ici
all
y
tradi
tionally.

Ourweddingwasreall
ybeauti
fulandseei
ngmbuso
doinghi
stradi
ti
onaldancewastheici
ngonthe
cakeandonbeingsmear edwi
ththebil
eandtast
ing
i
tevent houghitisbi t
terandal mostmademevomi t
butothert hanthatever ythingwasj ustaper f
ect
pricel
essbeaut if
ulmoment .Ther ewer esomany
peoplei nourweddi ng, itwascr azy.Ihavenoi dea
whoi nvitedthem butt hegi ft
swer eceivedwer e
crazy.Wel lIdidmynewbr idedut iesathi sparent
s
housef oraweek.Wel lIwoul dn’tcalli
tmy“Makot i
”dut i
escauseal lIdidwasj ustmaket hem teaand
sandwi ches.Myi n-lawsdi dn’twantmet odo
anythingbutIdi dhel pouti nt hehousewhent hey
wer enotar ound.Iam l uckyt hatImar riedint
oa
goodf ami l
ycausemostpeopl edon’ tgettohave
thatkindofexper ience.

I’
m 7mont hspr egnantnowandwel l
thesecr etis
outthatwear ehavingtwinscausePr eston
blabbermouthtoldeveryonewhenwewer ehaving
l
unchandmbusoal mostkil
ledhiml i
teral
ly.Idon’t
knowi fi
t’
sthewi nehewasdr inkingormaybehe
doesn’tknowhowt okeepthingst ohimself.It
mademewor riedthatifhecan’tkeepsuchasmal l
thingtohimselfthenwhataboutt heotherthingshe
hasheardandmaybesawi nthisfami l
y?.Ihopewe
won’
tregretwelcominghimintoourf amily.I
wonderifmbusoknowswher ePrestoncomesf r
om
andwhyhe’ sr
eallydi
stancedfr
om hi sfami l
y..

“sisl
uh?,t
hesecur
itysayst
herear
ecopsoutsi
de
thegat
e.”nont
osays.Cops?,whyaret
heyhereand
whatdotheywant?
.

“di
dhecal
lmyhusbandandl
ethi
m know?
”

“Idon’
tknow.Icanaskhi
mthough”

“uhm I
’
llhi
m nonto,t
ellhi
mtolett
hepol
icei
n.We
don’
twanttokeepthem wait
ing”

“oksi
sluh.”Ical
lmbuso.
“l
ovey,baby,
sweet
ie,
mybeaut
if
ulwi
fe.Mi
ssme
al
ready?”Igi
ggl
e

“Isawyouinthemor
ningbaby.Mbusot
her
ear
e
copsout
side.”

“what
?,whatdot
heywant
?”hi
stonechanges.

“Idon’
tknow.Itol
dnontotol
etthem i
ncausewe
don’
twanttokeepthem wai
ti
ng.Wherear
eyou?”

“youdidgood.Lett
hem i
nbutdon’
tsayanyt
hing.
I
’l
lbether
eintenminut
es.”

“ok.”Ihangup.Iwonderwhatcoul
dthepol
ice
want.

“si
sluhher
etheyar
e.”shesaysbehi
ndme.
“pleasetakeasea…”Isayget
ti
ngupandt ur
ning
butIdon’tgett
ofini
shcauseI
’m shockedasIsee
thepersoninfr
ontofme.Whatthehell?.

“Paul?”that
’smyexPaulfrom st
ander
ton.He’sa
cop.He’swithhi
spar
tnerDumisani
.Whatarethey
doinghere?.

“hell
olungi,
wowyou’repregnant
?”hesayslooki
ng
atmeshockedthenhesur pri
sesmeandhugsme.I
standther
eawkward.Idon’tr
etur
nhishug.

“whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?”Iaskhi
m andhel
ooks
atmeandsmil
es.

“wear
eheret
oaskyousomequest
ions.”says
Dumi
sani
.
“youcansi
tdown.Questi
onsaboutwhatcauseI
don’
tli
vei
nStander
tonanymore?”theysi
t.

“aboutyourpar
ent
sandsi
ster
.”whatt
hehel
l!
.

“t
heyar
enotmypar
ent
s.Whathappened?”

“theyar
emi ssi
ng.Al
lthr
eeofthem aremi ssing
andnoonehasseent hem i
nmont hs.Thel astti
me
wesawbuhl ewasatyourbrot
hersfuneralwi t
h
somestrangemenandyourpar ent
swer enott here
”

“It
oldyout
heyar
enotmypar
ent
s!.”

“Lungiwhat
….”

“t
hat
’sMr
sGumedet
oyounotl
ungi
.”I
’
llneverget
usedtohim doi
ngthat
.Heisfol
lowedinbymy
brot
herandfather
.PaulandDumisanist
andup.

“MrGumede, MrNgcobo,MrNgcobojunior
.I’m
detect
iveNkabi
ndeandthi
sismypartnerdetecti
ve
Hlongwane.”heknowsmyf ami
lysowhatisPaul
pl
ayingat?.

“sitdown.Whatcanwehel pyouwi th?”hesi

ts
nexttome.Mydadsi tsnexttoPaulandsicel
osit
s
nexttodumisane.Theyarecagingthem i
n.
Dumi sanel
ooksatthem nervousl
y.

“MrGumedewear
eher
etoaskyourwi
feabouther
par
ent
s.”

“t
heyarenotmyparent
sPaul
!,
howmanyti
mes
mustIt
ellyout
hat
?”myhusbandl
ooksatmet
hen
l
ooksatthem.
“whi
choneofyoui
sPaul
?”

“Iam PaulNkabinde.Iguessshet
oldyouaboutme?
”thi
sfoollaughs.Doesheknowwhombusoi s?
.

“Iam herf
ather.Heronl
ypar
ent
.Thosepeopl
ear
e
notherpar
ents.”

“weknowthatyouar eherfat
herbutwecan’t
i
gnor
ethefactthatsheusedt ol
ivewitht
he
mazi
buko'
sandt heywereherpar ent
s.Wehave
somequest
ionstoaskher .”

“askt
henwhatar
eyoubusywast
ingourt
ime?”

“l
uh.
.MrsGumedewhenwasthel
astt
imeyousaw
Mrmazi
buko’
sandhi
swif
e.”
“Ilastsawthem whentheymar r
iedmeofft
omy
husbandhere.That
’sthelastt
imeIsawthem or
tal
kedtothem.Whyar eyouaskingmeaboutthem?
”

“wearet
heone’
saski
ngt
hequest
ionsher
enotyou
l
ungi
.”

“thi
sisherhouse,shewi
llaskwhat
everquest
ions
shewantstoaskifyouwantanswer
stoyour
questi
onstoo.MrsGumede.”

“okMrgumede.Mr
sGumedewhendi
dyoul
astsee
your
…ubuhl
e?”Dumisaniasks

“Isawheratthef
uneral
.Wedidn’
ttal
kcauseshe
l
eftwit
hthemanshecamewi thandnoIdon’tknow
thatmanorhaveseenhi
m anywher
eelsebefore.”
“whydidn’
tyouaskvi
ctorabouthi
sbr
otherand
deci
dedtocomehere?”

“wecameherebecausevi ct
ordoesn’
tknow
anyt
hing.Wedidaskhim quest
ionsandhedoesn’t
knowthewhereabout
sofhi sbr
otherandhi
swife.”

“andyout
houghtmysi
sterwoul
dknow?”

“wedoi ngani nvestigati

onherecausehismot her
report
edhi m missing.Lastweekandwehavebeen
i
nvestigati
ng,peopl edon’tj
ustl
eaveeverythi
ng.
Theirjobs,houseandcar sandfamil
ythen
disappear.Somet hinghappenedandbuhl e'
s
behaviouratthefuner alwasverystr
ange.”

“wel
lasshetol
dyoushedoesn’
tknowwher
ethey
ar
e.I
sthatal
l?”mbusosays.
“act
ual
lyt
hat
’snotal
l.Doyouknowwheret
heyar
e
MrGumede?”what?Dumisaniaskshi
m.

“whywoul
dIknowwher
etheyar
e?”

“MrGumedeeversinceyoucameintol
ungi’
sli
fe
manystr
angethi
ngshavebeenhappeningwit
hthe
mazi
buko’s.Thi
ngsthatmakenosense.”

“t
hingsl
ikewhatdet
ect
iveNkabi
nde?”Iaskhi
m

“li
kethami'
sdeath.Thenthedisappearanceofthe
mazibuko’
sfamil
y.Everyonei
smi ssi
ng,onei
sdead
buttheonl
ypersonwhoi ssti
llaroundisyoulungi
.”
Paulsays.

“whatt
hehellar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osay?
.”IaskPaul
.
Thi
sfucker
.
“itseemslikesomeonei sgett
ingr
idofpeopl
efrom
yourpast.Theywantt oeli
minatet
hatpar
tofyour
l
ifeli
keitneverexi
sted.”

“someonel
ikewhoNkabi
nde?”hei
spi
ssi
ngme
off
.

“i
tcoul
dbeyourhusbandoryournewf
oundf
ami
ly.
”

“that
’senough.Shehasanswer edyourquestions
butIwil
lnotletyouaccuseusofdoi ngsomethings
topeoplewehavenoi deaofwheret heyare.I
fyou
haveanyquest i
onsyouwillsendthem toour
l
awyer.”

“wearesti
lli
nvest
igati
ngMrGumedeandwewi l
l
fi
ndthetr
uth.Wewi l
lbeback.”hesaysthent
hey
getup,
Paullooksatmeandt henleave.
“wher
ear
etheybaba?”

“whobaby?”

“Uthul
inosi
pho,
nonibuhl
e?”t
heygetsi
lent
.Il
ook
atmbusoandhesighs.

“theyar
edeadl
ove.”I
’
m notshocked.Iexpect
ed
that
.

“ubuhl
e?”

“she’
sdeadt
oo.”

“Ican’tbel
ieveallofyou.IthoughtIaskedyout
o
notki
llthem unt
ilIgivebir
thbaba.”

“wecoul
dn’
ttaket
her
iskofkeepi
ngt
hem al
ive
unti
lyougivebi
rt
hbabycausewetheywere
l
iabi
li
ti
es.Theyhadt
odie.”myhusbandsays.

“welldi
dyouatl
eastr
ecor
dever
ythi
ngl
ikeIasked
you?”Iaskhi
m.

“usrecordi
ngwouldmeantherei
sproofofus
ki
ll
ingthem.Wedon’tl
eaveanyevi
denceluh,
you
knowthat.”mbusosays

“di
dsher
eal
lyhavet
odi
ethough?”

“shewasl
ostcausebaby.Wehadt
o.”mydad
says.

“Iguessitdoesn’
tmat t
ernow.”Ifeelhur
tthough
thatshe’
sdead.Isti
llhadhopeforher.
“whatdi
dyoudowi
tht
hei
rbodi
es?”

“webur
iedbuhl
einSt
ander
ton.”si
cel
oanswer
s

“di
dshedi
equi
ckandpai
nless?”

“wemadesur
ebaby.”mydadsays.

“t
heot
hert
wobodi
es?”

“Luhyoudon’
tneedt
oknowt
hat
.”

“dadthepoli
cewer ehereandt heyar
e
i
nvesti
gat
ingallofus.It
’snotjustmeandmbuso.
Theyarei
nvestigat
ingallofus.Whatifnextt
ime
theycomewithasear chwarrantfort
hefarm.Wil
l
theyfi
ndanythi
ngsuspicious?”
“t
heywon’
tluh.Ipr
omi
seyou.”si
cel
osays.

“wher
ear
ethei
rbodi
est
hen?”

“weburnedt
hem andgotr
idofanyt
race.”mbuso
answer
s

“whydidn’
tyouj
ustkil
lthem t
henleavet
heir
bodi
essomewhereforsomeonetof i
ndbaba?.
Causenowtheyar
esuspectingus.”

“wedi
dn’
tthi
nkoft
hat
.”

“youdi dn’tcauseyouhidthingsfrom me.Iknow

I’
m pr egnantbababutthatdoesn’tmeanyoushould
hidesomet hi
ng’sfr
om me.Youneedt ofi
ndtwo
bodi esthatwereinvol
vedinanacci dentorf
ir
e,
unr ecognizabl
eandplanttheirDNAsot heywil
l
thinkit’
sthem.Ihavenoi deawher eareyougoing
t
ofi
ndt
hei
rDNA.”mbusol
ooksatmespeechl
ess.

“Iknowsomeonet
hatmi
ghthel
puswi
tht
hat
.”my
brot
hersays.

“I
’
llf
indt
hebodi
es.”mbusosays.

“noyouwon’
t.Dadandsi
cel
owi
llf
ixt
his.Ineed
youher
ewit
hme.”

“I’
m sorr
ybaby.Iknowyoust il
llovedherand
wantedhertobebetterandyoudi dn’
tgetthe
answersyouwantedf r
om her.I
’m sorr
ywet ook
thatawayfr
om you.”

“I’
m hurtmbuso.Ithurtsmet oknowthatshe’
s
reall
ydead.Shewasonceagoodper sonandshe
l
ovedme.Somet hingchangedandmadeher
diff
erent
.Butshe’satabetterpl
acenow.”heholds
me.

“shei
sheal
ingbaby.Butshel
eftsomet
hingbehi
nd.
”

“whati
sit
?”

“achild.He’s12year
soldandheliveswi
thanot
her
famil
y.Victorhasmethi
m andtheyarebui
ldi
nga
rel
ati
onship.”

“Iwouldl
iket
omeethimt
oo.Who’
shi
sfat
her
?”
theyl
ookateachot
her
.

“wedon’
tknow.”mydadsays.

“noyouknow.Tel
lme.”
“si
phoi
shi
sfat
her
.”

“ohmyGodher apedher
?!.Nowonderbuhl
ewas
thi
smessedup.”

“shesai
dtheywer
einar
elat
ionshi
p.”

“theywer en’
tinar elat
ionship.Buhleusedt ocr y
whenshewasal onewi t
hsi pho.Iwasl i
ttleandsoI
thoughtsiphowaspuni shinghercauseshedi d
somet hingwrong.Hewoul dt akehertot hei
r
bedroom andl ockthedoort henafterIwoul dhear
hercrying.Iwouldaskhert henshewoul d
somet i
messayIwi llknowt oosomedayt hat’
swhy
Inevercausedanyt roublecausei tscaredmet o
thi
nksi phowoul dpunishmel ikehepuni shedbuhle.
”Iwi pemyt ears.

“didheevertouchyoui
nwayt
hatwoul
dmakeyou
feelscar
ed.”
“mbusomanwhatthef
uck!
.”si
cel
osaysget
ti
ng
up.Il
ookatmydad.

“noIdon’tr
emember,
Idon’
tthi
nkhehasorIwoul
d
haveknownandtol
duncl
eVictor
.”Il
ookatmydad
andhesighs.

“he’
sdeadnow.Hewon’
thur
tanyoneel
seever
agai
n.”

“ar
eyougoi
ngt
obeokay?”dadasksme.

“Iwil
lbeoncePaulandhi
spar
tnergetof
four
backs.Dealwi
thhi
m.”

“wewil
l.Sonl
et’
sgo.Wewillseeyoulat
er.”Ihug
hi
m andhugmybr ot
hert
hentheyleave.
“youwantanyt
hing?”heasksme

“noboo.”

“ar
eyoumadatmet
hatIhi
dthi
sfr
om you.”

“ali
ttl
ebutIknowthatyouwoul dhavetol
dme
somet i
me.Iknewthatdaythatsomethingbad
happenedwhenyoucamebackandIaskedi fyou
areokayandyousaidyes.Ithi
nkIknewt hatthey
weredeadcausewheneveryougot akecareof
someoneyoucomebacksl eepingthatsmell
.”

“Ilovehowyouknowme.Idon’
tevenhavetosay
anythi
ngtoyouandsayI
’
m notokay.Youj
ustknow.
”

“l
ikehowyouknowme.”heki
ssesme.
“l
et’
sgocuddl
ethen.”

“l
et’
scuddl
eher
eont
hecouch”

“Idon’
twantt
ogetaboneri
nfr
ontofsisnont
o
l
ove.Let
’sgot
oourbedr
oom.”Igi
ggle.Wegoto
ourbedr
oom

“I’
m nothavi
ngsexwi
thyouwhi
lesi
snont
oisi
n
thehouse.”

“sheknowsyouar
epregnantandlovessex.”we
l
ayonthebedandfaceeachother
.

“canIt
ellyousomet
hing?”

“yousoundser
iousbaby.”i
tis.
“promisemeyouwil
lnott
olookatmedif
ferent
ly.”
I
’vebeenkeepi
ngthi
stomysel
fandorscaresmet o
tel
lhi
m abouti
t.

“youknowallt
hethi
ngsIdol oveandyouhave
neverl
ookedatmedif
ferentl
y.Whatyout el
lme
wouldnevermakemeloveyoul ess,
respectyou
l
essoradoreyouevenless.”hepalmsmycheek.

“Ithi
nkIwassi xorsevenwhensi phowouldbath
mehewoul dfi
ngerme.I tusedtohurtandhe
wouldtellmenott otellanyoneorelsehewould
takemesomewher eandleavemeal onetobeeaten
byaliont henhewoul dmakemepl aywithhi
sdick
unti
litgothard.ItusedtoscaremeandIdi dn’
t
knowwhatwashappeni ng.”Isayshakingmyhead.

“I’
m sosor
rybaby.I
’m sor
ryf
oreveryt
hinghedidto
you.Iwi
shIcankil
lhi
m overandoveragain.”he
br
ushesmyst
omach.

“Ican’
trememberwheni tst
oppedbuti
tdi
daf
tera
fewmont hs.Henevert
ouchedmeagain”

“I’
l
lkil
lanyonewhoevert
ri
estotouchyouorour
ki
dslikethat
.Noonewouldeverhur
tyouagai
n.”I
bel
ievehim.

“Iknowyoumyl
ove.”

“sot
hat
’syourex?”hesaysl
aughi
ng,
Ilaught
oo

“hei
s”

“Ican’
tbel
ieveyoudat
edt
hatski
nnyguy”he
l
aughs
“Iwasyoungok”wel
augh.

“butyouupgr
adedbaby,
Imeanl
ookatme”Il
augh.

“damnr i
ghtIdi
d.”welaugh.“canwekeept
his
betweenuswhatItol
dyou.Idon’twantmyf
amil
y
toknow.”

“youdon’thavetoaskmebaby.Yourmywife,my
responsi
bil
it
y.It
hinkyoushoul
dtal
ktosomethi
ng
though.”

“It
hinksot
oo.”

“I
’
llf
indyouagoodt
her
api
st.”

“oklove.”heentwi
nesourhandsandwel
ookat
eachother.Il
ovehi
m.
CHAPTER44.

SI
CELO.

Seei
ngmysi st
ergetti
ngmar r
iedt othemanshe
l
oveswast hebestdayofmyl ife.Sheishappywit
h
hi
m andtheybothloveeachot her.IknowIdon’
t
havetoworryabouthercauseIknowmbusowi ll
moveheavenandear t
htomakeherhappyandshe
wil
ldothesame.

“whereareyougoi
ngt
ogetsomeonewhowi l
lhel
p
uswiththei
rDNA?”mydadasksasweleavethei
r
house.

“wehavet ocallvi
ctorandlethi
m knowt hatthose
det
ectiveswerehereandhemustgot otheirhouse
andgiveusanyt hi
ngthathastheirDNA.I’l
lsend
oneoft heguystogocollecti
tcauseIhavet ogoto
Durbant ot
alktotheguywhowi llhel
pus.”
“okson.Ijustwonderwhyvi
ctordi
dn’tcal
landlet
meknowt hathismotherr
epor
tedsiphomissing.”

“Ort
heguycoul
dbelyi
ngdad.Doyouknowhei
s
l
uh'
sexboyf
ri
end?”Il
augj

“hei
s?,
whi
chone?”

“t
heski
nnyone”webot
hlaugh.

“thatboyhasadeat
hwi
sh,
goi
ngt
ombuso’
shouse
l
ikethat?
.”

“Iknow.”wear
ri
vehome

“I
’m goi
ngtocallAl
exi
nNewcastl
eandtel
lhi
mto
watchoutf
orthosedet
ect
ivesi
ncaset
heyshowup
t
her
eandst
artaski
ngquest
ions.”

“okdadI
’
m goi
ngt
opackupt
henl
eave.”

“areyouokayson?Eversi
ncengwendet
oldyoual
l
thosethi
ngsyou’
vebeendi
ffer
ent
.”

“itopenedmyeyesdad, thatIcan’
tli
vemyli
fel
ike
abachelorforever
.Ihavetohavemyownf amil
y
andseeingluhandmbusogetmar ri
edmademe
l
ongf orthatki
ndoflovetoo.”

“don’
tputtoomuchpr
essur
eonyour
sel
fson.You
wil
lmeether”

“thanksdad,l
etmegoandpacksoIcanl eave.”he
patsmybackt henleaves.Igotomybedr
oom and
beggingtopack.It
aket hebagstomycar
“Ihavephonedvi
ctorandhesayst
hatpoli
ceman
i
slying.Noonecametomaskhim anyquesti
ons
andhisfamil
ydi
dn’tr
eportsi
phomissi
ng.”

“t
henwhatar
etheypl
ayi
ngat
?.”Iaskhi
n

“hesaidhewil
lgett
ot hebot
tom ofi
tandhewil
l
sendsomeoneheretodaytobri
ngthi
ngsthatwi
ll
havethei
rDNA.”

“okdad.Letmegot
hen.”

“dr
ivesaf
esonandcal
lmewhenyougethome.”
mydadsays.

“Iwi
ll
.”Ihughi
mthengeti
nthecaranddr
iveof
f.
.

Si
nceever
ythi
ngi
sal
mostbackt
onor
malIhavet
o
focusonfini
shingbui
ldingmbuso’ scompanywi t
h
bongathenfocusonmycompany.Thi syearalot
hashappenedandI ’
m gladthatmostoft hethi
ngs
areoverandwecannowal lmoveandf ocusonour
l
ivesbutthenthosedetecti
vesjustcameoutof
nowhereunlesssomeonei sfeedingthem
i
nformati
on.

Icallzamaandseehowshe’ sdoi
ngcauseI ’
m st
il
l
keepingtapsonher .Iknowsheboughtahousein
Joburgandacarl i
keIt ol
dher
.Shesti
lldoesas
she’
st ol
d.Itr
ings.“sawubonamapholoba”(hello)
Ichuckle.

“maShengeunj
anisthandwasam?”shel
aughs.
(howareyoumylove?)

“ngi
yaphi
lasthandwasam wena?”(I
’
m goodmy
l
oveandyourself
?)
“I
’
m goodt
oo.”shesi
ghs.

“Youdon’
tsoundl
ikeyouar
efi
ne?”

“j
ustt
hinki
ngal
otIguess.Howar
ethi
ngsgoi
ng?”

“thi
ngsaregoinggreat.Iboughtahouseandacar
andIthi
nkyoual r
eadyknowt hat.Myfamil
yli
ves
herewit
hme, Irel
ocatedthem ”Ichuckl
e..

“I’
m happytohearthat
.Isever
ythi
ngokay?
,doyou
needanythi
ngelse?”

“I
’m graduati
ngnextyearsodon’
tworryaboutme.
ButI
’m struggl
ingt
ofindajobher
e..I
t’
snotaseasy
asIthought.”

“ZamaIt
oldyout
oletmeknowi
fyouneed
anyt
hingf
rom me.Doyousti
llhavemoney?”Idon’
t
wanthert
ostr
ugglenotwhenIcanhelpher.

“Idohaveenoughmoneyt otakecareofever
yone
si
cel
ostopworrying.Ij
ustneedajobcauseyou
knowI’
m st
il
lgoingtostudypartt
ime.”

“givemeaweekandI
’l
lhavesomet
hingf
oryou.
Othert
hant
hatar
eyouokay?”

“Iam maphol
obaandt
hankyouver
ymuchf
or
ever
ythi
ng.”

“I
’
mjustl
ooki
ngoutf
ormyhomegi
rl”wel
augh.

“Thankshomeboy.Howi syoursist
erdoingcauseI
sawhert r
adit
ionalweddi
ngpi
cturesonher
Inst
agram andshelookedsobeauti
fulsi
cel
owow.”
Ichuckle
“i
twasabeaut
if
ulceremony,
she’
sgr
eatandshe’
s
wai
ti
ngt
ogivebir
th.”

“Iwi
llcal
lherandsendmycongr
atul
ati
ons.”

“shewoul
dreal
lyl
iket
hat
.”

“t
hanksf
orcal
li
ngandchecki
ngoutonme.”

“r
ememberI
’
mjustaphonecal
laway.”

“Iknowt
hat
.I’
l
lwai
tforyourcal
lthen”

“OkmaShenge.We’
l
ltal
klat
ert
hen.”

“bye”Ihangup.Shesoundshappyandgoodand
that
’swhatIwashoping.It
hinkaboutayandaandI
knowshe’ sget
ti
ngthehel
psheneedsf r
om the
hospit
al.Ical
loneofmyguys.

“boss?”

“di
dInotaskyout
ofi
ndt
shepof
orme?”

“youdi
dbossbutt
henCel
est
etol
dust
odr
opi
t”

“doyouwor
kformeorf
orCel
est
e?”

“Foryouboss.”

“t
henf
indmet
hatguy!
.”Ihangup.DamnCel
est
e.

I
ntwoandhalfhour
sI’
mi nDurban.Igostr
aightt
o
myhousecauseIwantt
or el
axandcallt
heguyt o
prepareameet i
ngwithhim.Myguysletmeinbut
theylooknervous.
.Idri
veinandseemanycars
parkedinsi
demyyar d.Whatthehel
lisgoi
ngon
here!
.

Ifindspaceandpar kmycar .Igetoutandgot othe

frontdoor,
openi tandseemanydi f
ferentwomanof
allshapes,si
zesandski ncolour.Istandt hereand
l
ookatt hem andt heyarehavingapar ty.Inmy
house, i
tsmell
sofal coholandci garetteandIdon’ t
evensmoke.Il ookar oundandIdon’ tseeCeleste.I
am t heonl
ymanher esot hi
smustbeal esbi
an
par t
yorsomething.Iwal kbetweenbodi esandf i
nd
thesoundsystem.

Itakether
emoteandswit
chitof
fandtheyallmake
noiseandsomelookatmeli
kewhoinvit
edthis
man.

“hey!Hey!Hey!,
Itol
dyouguysnott
oucht
hesound
syst
em!.”Celest
eyell
sfr
om somewher
eand
soundsli
keshe’
srunningtowar dsmeandwhen
sheseesmeshest opsandlooksatmeshocked.
EventhoughI
’mtal
lerthanallthesewomenher
e,I
standontopofmycoffeetable.

“Ifyouknowthatyoudon’
tli
veherepleaseGet.
The.Fuck.Out
.Of.My.House.Now!!!
!”Ishoutand
theylookatmeli
kethi
smani scrazy!
.

“boss?”Celest
esays.Thesewomenthi
nkI’
m
playi
ng.Ok!
.Ipulloutmygunandcor
kitandwhen
theyseeitt
heyallgooutr
unni
ng.

“butboss?
!”

“I’
lldealwit
hyoul ater
!.WhenIcomebackIbet ter
fi
ndmywhol ehousecl eanandspotl
essorelseyou
wil
lknowme! .”Igetoffthet
ableandleavethe
house.IgetinmycarandIdr i
veoffunti
lIfi
nd
mysel fatt
hebeach.Ipar kmycarandwal ktothe
beachandsi
tdown.It
hinkI
’
llst
ayunt
ilt
hesunset
s.

Iclosemyeyesandl i
stent ot hewavesandf eelthe
seabr eezeonmyski n.I’
m gl adI ’m wearingshorts
causei tishot.It akeof fmyr unni ngshoesandf eel
thesandbet weenmyt oes.Icl osemyeyesandj ust
feelt hebr eezewhenIheart hissof tvoicethat
keepsl aughing.I tst opsandl aughsagai n.Iopen
myeyesandl ookatt heoceanandt herear epeople
ther eplayingbutt hevoi cedoesn’ tcomef r
om there.
Itlaughsagai nandIwearmyshoes, st
andupand
followherl aughter .Iwal kaboutf ewmet reswhenI
seehercauseshe’ sl aughingagai n.Isitdownand
wat chherasshepl ayswi t
hherki ds.Theyar e
playingsocceronei sagi rlandt heotherisaboy
andt heylookl iketheyar e7and8year sol d.They
areal lplaying, passi ngt hebal ltoeachot her,
l
aughi ngandt heysoundsohappy.

If
indmyselfsmil
ingl
ooki
ngatthem andwanti
ngto
j
ointhem.She’
sweari
ngal ongf
lor
aldresst
hat’
s
coveri
ngherbodyanditfi
tsherwell.She’saf ul
l
fi
guredwomanandhasabeaut i
fulwai st
li
ne.She
hasdreadl
ocks,ni
ce.Theyst
oppl aying.Sheopens
herbagandtakesoutatowelandshel aysitdown
andtheyal
lsitonitwi
thherinthemi ddle.
.

Shelooksforsomet hi
ngandt akesoutachocol ate
andsharesitbetweenthethreeofthem andt he
kidsl
ooksohappy.Theyeati twhi
lewat chi
ngt he
sunsetandI’
m wat chi
ngthem.Shewr apsher
handsaroundbot hofthem andbringsthem closer
toherchestandtheylaytheirheadsinherchest .
Thisi
sbeautiful
.

Ilookatherfaceandseethatshe’
sl ookingatme
fuck!.Myheartsbeat
ssofastIquicklylookaway
butsomet hi
ngpullsmetolookatheragai nandI
do.Shei sget
ti
ngupandpacki nghert owel.I
quicklygetupandgot ot
hem.

“Mryouhavebeenwat
chi
ngusf
rom t
hemoment
yougothereandyouarebegi
nningt
oscareme.”
shereal
lysoundsscar
ed.Shedoeshavealovel
y
voi
ce.

“I’
m sorr
yIdidn’
tmeantoscar
eyou.”sheignor
es
meandt akesherki
dshandsandtheywalkaway.I
fol
lowthem.“canItal
ktoyouplease?
.”

“no!
.Pl
easel
eaveus!
.”

“letmetakeyoubackt oyourhot
elcausei
tisnot
saferi
ghtnow.It
’sabouttobedarkandyoudon’t
wanttobealonewiththekidsonthestr
eet
s.”Itel
l
her.Welli
tisnotsafe.

“si
rpleaseyouar
escar
ri
ngmychi
ldr
en.Leaseus
al
one.”

“l
adyl
etmewal
kyout
oyourhot
elandIpr
omi
se
aft
erIseet
hatyouareal
lsafeIwil
lleaveyoualone
causeIwon’
tforgi
vemyselfi
fanythinghappensto
you.”

“whydoyoucar
e?”

“Icar
ebecauset
heyneedyouandyouneedt
hem.
”shestopsandl
ooksatme.

“okbutnof
unnybusi
ness.”Ichuckl
e.

“nofunnybusiness.Leadt
heway.”Iwal
kbesi
de
thel
it
tl
egir
l.“socanIaskwhatyournameis?”

“youdon’
tneedmyname,
youar
ejustwal
kingus.”
ohk.

“mamawedi
dn’
tgr
eetuncl
e.”t
heboysays.Ismi
le.
“He’
snotuncl
e,he’
sast
ranger
.”

“butyouar
etal
kingtohi
m andyoual
wayst
ellus
thatwemustgr
eetadul
ts.”

“andItaughtyounott
otal
ktostranger
stookagi
so
”theboylooksatmethenlooksdown.

“mynameiskamohelo”saysthelit
tlegi
rlwi
thher
fr
onttwot
eethmissi
ng.Westopwal ki
ngandI
smil
eandcrouchdowntoherlevel
.

“hel
lokamohelomynamei
suncl
eSi
cel
o”she
smil
es,she’
sador
abl
e.

“mi
nei
skagi
souncl
e”t
heyar
ecut
e.
“howar
eyouchamp?”

“I
’m gooduncle.Mom t
ellhi
m yourname.”she
smil
esshakingherheadandIlaugh.Igetupand
l
ookather.

“wel
lar
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lmeyourname?”
“nope.”

“IguessI
’
llcal
lyoumom t
hen”shel
aughsIl
ove
herl
augh.

“pl
easedon’
t!
.”

“t
ellmet
hen.”

“f
ine.Iam l
esego.”Ismi
le.
“beautifulname.Soourki dsareal lgoi
ngtohave
sothonames? .”shewal ksonandl aughs.Ijoi
n
them andkamohol dsmyhand.Il ookatherand
shesmi les.Thisisbigcausei fkidsdon’tli
keyou
theydon’ tandyouwi llknowcauset heydon’t
pretend.Herhol di
ngmyhandmeansal ottome.
Causei tshowst rustandaccept ance.

Wewalkuntilshestopsout
sidethishot
elandit
l
ooksdodgy.Idon’tli
ket
hisplace.“wearebooked
her
e.Sothankyouf orwal
kingus.”

“l
etmeatleastwal
kyout
oyourdoorcauset
his
pl
acel
ooksdodgy.”

“Iknow.I
t’
snothi
nglikehowitwasonthei
rwebsit
e
butIcan’
tdoanyt
hingcauseIhaveal
readypai
dthe
money.”

“l
et’
sgo.”Wegeti
nsi
deandt
hispl
acel
ooksl
ike
prost itut
esl i
veher eandt hatmeansdr ugsand
differentmencomeher e.Wegeti nt heel evatorand
therear epeopl einside.Ipickupkamoandput
kagi soi nfrontofme.I tstopsont hesecondf loor
andt hesmel lofcigarettesandal coholi svery
strong.Shegoest oherr oom, unlockst hedoorand
wegeti nandi t’
sevenwor se.Ilookatt hedoorand
i
tlooksl ikeitdoesn’tlockf r
om t heinside.Iput
kamodownandgot othebat hroom andi t’
sokay
butnotf itforkids.Ilookatt hewi ndowsandsome
arebr okecover edwi thpl astic.Andt hebedl ooks
oldandwor nout.

“howmanynight
shaveyousl
epther
e.”she’
s
l
ooki
ngathersui
tcase

“wegotheretoday.It
hinksomeonewentt
hrough
ourt
hings.”

“di
dtheyt
akeanyt
hing?”
“Uhmm no,butIdi
dn’tl
eaveourt
hingsl
iket
his.”I
swit
chthet
vonandl ookforacar
toonchanneland
okayitf
ort
hekids.

“kidsgoandwat chTV,Iwantt otalkt

oyourmom.”
theygoandsitont hebed.Ipul lherawayfrom
them.“Iknowyouhavej ustmetmeandyoudon’ t
trustmeorknowmebutl esegoplease!
.Youcan’t
sleepherewit
ht hekids.Thedoordoesn’tlockfr
om
theinsi
de,l
ookatt hebathroom andsomeonewas
hereandwentt hroughyourt hi
ngs.Thispl
aceisnot
safeforyouandyourki ds.”

“Iknowthat..Idon’thaveenoughmoneyt obookis
i
ntoanotherhotel.Iaskedforarefundandtheyt
old
meIcan’tgetitbackcauseIhadal r
eadypai
dand
agreedt
ot heconditions.”shesi
ghs.

“l
etmet
akeyouandt
heki
dst
omypl
ace.Youwi
ll
besafethereIsweartoyou.I
’
m notacrimi nalandI
wil
lnotdoanythingdodgytoyou.Icangiveyoumy
famil
y’
sphonenumber sandyoucancal lthem and
askthem anyt
hingyouwant.”

“honest
lyIwasscar
edt
osl
eepher
ewi
thmyki
ds.”

“thenl
etmet akeyout
omypl
ace.You’
l
lst
ayt
her
e
andyou’
llbesafe.”

“yourwi
fewon’
tmi
nd?”

“Idon’
thaveawifeorgi
rl
fr
iend.Ihaveawoman
whowor ksf
ormeandshe’salesbianandIfound
herhavi
ngapartyi
nmyhousewi t
houtl
ett
ingme
know.It
oldherwhenIcomebackIbet t
erfi
ndmy
housecl
ean.”

“doesshel
ivewi
thyou?
.”
“hel
lno.”shel
aughs.

“Ichooset
otr
ustyouSi
cel
odon’
tmakemer
egr
et
i
t.”

“Ipromiseyou,youwon’
t.”Shepackssomeoft
he
thi
ngsthatwereonthebedthenIhel
phercar
ryt
he
bag.“

“ki
dswearegoi
ngtogowit
huncl
eSicel
otohi
s
pl
ace.Wear
enotgoi
ngtosl
eepher
e.”

“butmom yousai
dhe’
sast
ranger
?”

“he’
snotastr
angeranymor
e.He’
sagooduncl
e
who’
shelpi
ngusokay?”
“okaymommy”t
heyar
esowel
lmanner
ed.

“i
sther
eat
vinyourhouseuncl
e?”Il
augh

“ther
eisabi
gone.
.You’
l
lwat
chal
lthecar
toons
youwanttowat
ch”

“canIpl
aywi
thmybal
lout
sidet
hest
reet
?”

“you’
l
lpl
ayinthebackyard.Let
’sgoguys.”lpi ck
upkamoandtakethebag.Lesegot akeskagiso’s
handandweleavelockingt
hedoor.Shelooksat
meandIwinkather.Wecheckoutoft hehoteland
wewalktomycarforlike15minutes.

“wowmamasuchabi gcar !
.ABMW mamayoh”
kagi
sosaysandwel augh.Iputkamointhe
backseatandputthesafetybel
tonanddot he
samet okagi
so.Ioutthei
rbagi ntheboott
henopen
t
hedoorf
orl
esego.

“af
teryoumadam ”

“thankyou”sheget
sin.Iwalkt
othedr
iver
ssi
de,
getinthendr
ivet
omyplace.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER44.

SI
CELO.

AllthecarsaregonebutCel este’scari sstil

lhere
withacleaningcompanycar .Shehi redsomeonet o
cleanmyhouse.Ipar ki nthegar aget henlookat
kidsandtheyhavesur pr
isedexpr essionont hei
r
faces.Theyhavebeenqui ett hewhol ewayher e
andIdon’tknowi fit
’sbecauset heyar escaredbut
whatInot i
cedi st
heyar ewel lbehavedki ds.She’
s
doingagr eatjobrai
singthem.Il ookatl esegoandI
thinkshefeelsuncomf ort
abl ecauseshekeeps
grippi
ngherhandbag.
Iplacemyhandont opofher sandshel ooksatme.
“what ’swrong?”Iaskher ?
.Sheshakesherhead.
“thisismyhomeandyouar ewel comedher e.You
andt hekidsaresafehereandyouwi l
lst ayuntil
yougobackhomeokay? .Shenods.Igetoutoft he
car,openherdoorandshebl ushes,Ismi le.I
unbuckl etheki
dsandcl osethei
rdoor s.“come
guys.”t hi
stimeit
’skagisowhot akesmyhandand
mant hatdoessomethingtomyhear t
.

“Ar
ewenott
aki
ngt
hebagwi
thus?”sheasks.

“someonewi l
lgetit
.Come”Iopent hegar
age
doorconnecti
ngtothekit
chenandkamohelogasps
i
nshock.Ichuckle.“ar
eyouguyshungry?”of
courset
heyarewhyam Iasking?.Theyl
ookatthei
r
mom fir
stthenlookatmewhenshenods.

“wear
euncl
e.”t
heybot
hsay.
“okkids,youneedt
ogoandbat hfi
rstt
henwewill
gooutandhavesomet hingtoeatwhatdoyousay?
”theylookateachotherexci
ted

“yespl
easeuncl
e.”t
heybot
hsay

“mom i
sthatokaywi
thyou?”Iaskher

“ar
eyounott
ir
ed?”sheaskst
hem.

“pl
easemom.Wesl eptt
hewhol
ewaycomi ngher
e.
Canwealsogetsomeicecr
eam pl
ease?”

“okwewi
llgooutt
hen.”t
heydoahi
ghf
ive.

“l
etmeshowyouyourr
ooms.”
“Iwouldli
keforustosl
eepint
hesamer oom.I
f
that
’sokay.”she’
sscar
edandIunder
stand.

“Iunderst
and.Come.”weleavethekit
chenand
Cel
esteisbusypoi
nti
ngandt al
kingnonst
optothe
cl
eanersandthemachinesmaki ngnoi
se.

“cel
este.
”Shehearsmecauseshet
urnsandl
ooks
atmethenlooksatl
esegoandt
heki
ds.Shecomes
towar
dsme.

“why?ar
etheyst
il
lnotdone?”

“boss,
giveus20mi
nut
est
hent
heywi
llbedone.”

“10.
minut
esCel
est
eandbr
ingmet
hebagi
nthe
car
.”
“himynamei
sCel
est
eandIwor
kformybossher
e.
”

“shei
slesegoandthesear
eherki
dskagisoand
kamohel
o.Gogetthebagsweneedtotal
k.”

“bossI’
m sorr
yaboutthepart
y.”Ilookatherand
sheshutshermouthandleaves.Iwalkonandthey
fol
lowme.Itaket
hem totheroom opposi
temine.

“wow!
.”t
heyal
lsay.Theyl
ikei
t,t
hat
’sbet
ter
.

“youl
ikei
t?”

“i
t’
sabeauti
fulbedroom.Thankyousi
cel
of oryour
ki
ndness.MykidsandIreal
lyappr
eci
atei
t.”Inod.

“t
hebat
hroom i
sthatsi
deandIt
hinki
thas
everyt
hingyoumi ghtneedinthere.”Celest
e
knocksandbr i
ngsint hebagandl eaves.“I
’l
lletyou
guysgetonit.I’
l
lbei ntheki
tchenwhenyouar e
done.”shenods.Ileaveandcl osethebedroom
andgot hekit
chen.

“Cel
est
ewhodoyouwor
kfor
?”shel
ooksatme.

“f
oryoubosswhy?”

“doesmyst
affwor
kforyouandt
akeor
der
sfr
om
you?”

“nounlessyout
oldmetot
ellt
hem somet
hing.
What’
sgoingonboss?”

“whogaveyoupermi
ssi
ontot el
ltheguyst
ost
op
l
ooki
ngfort
shepo?”sheshakesherhead.
“bossIthoughtt
hatmaybesi nceyouandayanda
arenolongert
ogetherthent
herewasnoneedf or
ustokeeplooki
ngf orhi
m.”

“doIpayyoutomakedeci
sionsf
ormeorpayyou
todowhatIt
ellyou?
.”

“whatyoutel
lmeboss.I
’
m sor
ryandwewi
llkeep
l
ooki
ngf orhi
m.”

“nowtel
lmehowthehel
ldoyoudeci
detothrowa
part
yher
einmypr
ivat
ehouseCel
estenoteventhat
onemeandmbusobought?
!”

“bossIwast r
yingtoimpressthi
schickboss.She
hasbeengivi
ngmet herunaroundandIjust
wantedhertoseethatIrollwi
ththebigdogs.”I
shakemyheadl aughing.
“don’
teverdot
hatagai
n.Notinmyhouseorthat
housecausembusowon’tbesoni
ceabouti
tand
under
standi
ng.
”

“yesboss.”

“wehaveaprobl
em.Thepoli
cearei
nvest
igat
ingus
aboutt
hedi
sappear
anceofbuhl
eandherparents.”

“what?,
howdot heythi
nkyouar ei nvol
ved.”It
ell
herever
ythi
ngthathappened.“thereissomeone
l
eakingi
nformati
ontothepolice,someonei nour
ci
rcl
e.”

“It
hinksotoobutwhocausei thast
obesomeone
whohearsever
ythi
ng.”It
ellher

“doyout
hinkyourhousesar
ebugged?”
“what
?,hel
lno!
.Mbusowoul
dknow”f
uckno.

“al othasbeengoingsicel
owiththem,whenwas
thelastti
meheupgr adedthesecuri
tysyst
em?Or
allofyousearchedthehousesforanybugssince
allofthesepeopl
ehavecamei ntoyourli
ves?”

“whatar
eyousayi
ngCel
est
e?”

“siceloIhaveknownyouandwe’ veworked
togetherforyears.It
rustyouandyoutrustme.
Whoi sPrestonandwhati shi
sdeali
nthisfamil
y?.
Noneofyouact uall
yknowexactlywherehecomes
from.Lookathowhebl abbedandtoldeveryone
aboutluhexpect i
ngtwins.”

“youthinkheistheonel
eaki
ngt
hei
nfor
mat
ion?”
I
’l
lfuckenkil
lhi
m
“l
ook,I
’l
linvest
igat
ehim andbef
oret
heweekends
I
’l
lhaveaf i
leonhim.”

“dothat
.Ihavetogoandshower
.I’
mtaki
ngt
hem
outf
ordinner”

“She’
sbeaut
if
ul.Whoi
sshe?”

“myfut
urewi
feandmot
hert
omyki
ds.”webot
h
l
augh.

“yout
hinkshe’
stheone?”

“Iknowshei s.If
oundher.”Il
eaveherlooki
ngat
meshocked.Ishowerquicklythenchangeandgo
downstai
rs.Ifi
ndthem i
nthelivi
ngroom wai
ti
ngfor
me.“haveyouguysbeenwai t
inglong?”
“j
ustaf
ewmi
nut
es.”shesays

“haveyouseenCel
est
e?”

“noIhaven’
t”

“Cel
est
e?”

“I’
mr i
ghthere,whyareyoushout
ing?”shesays
comingfrom theki
tchen.

“youar
ecomi
ngwi
thus.”

“bosspleasedon’
tmakemebabysittheki
ds,I’
ll
takeanypunishmentbutnotwat
chi
ngthekids.”

“youare.”shemumbl
essomet
hingt
henl
eaves.
Lesegolaughs.
“whyi
sshecomi
ngwi
thus?”sheasks

“sowecanhavesomet i
metotal
k.Youl
ook
beaut
if
ul”shebl
ushesandl
ooksatme.

“Thankyou.
”

“ar
eyouguysr
eadyt
oeat
?”

“Yesss”t
heysayexci
tedl
y

“wher
ewoul
dyoul
iket
oeat
?”

“canwegot
oMcDonal
d’suncl
e?”

“butIwantt
ogot
oSpur”kamosays
“butmom t akesustoSpurkamo.Let’
sgoto
McDonal d’
splease?”herbr
otherbegsheraandI
smile.I
tmakesmet hi
nkofl
uhandhowInevergot
toknowherwhenshewasatt hatage.Wewere
robbedofthat.

“hey,
areyouokay?”sheasksmet
ouchi
ngmyar
m.

“yeahI’
m okay.Theyr
emi
ndmeofmeandmy
si
ster
.”

“weshouldl
etmom deci
dekamo.”kagi
sosays.
Theseki
dsaresmar
t.

“okmom wher
ear
eweeat
ing?”Iaskher
,she
bl
ushes.

“l
et’
sgot
oSpurt
oni
ghtsoyouguyscanpl
ay.”
“oohman”kagi sosaysandIl augh.Wegetinthe
caranddriveoffwi thCel
esteandtwooft heguys
foll
owingus.IdrivetotheoneinUmhl angaandthe
kidsareveryexcited.“mom maywegoandpl ay?”
theyaskherwhenwear eshownt oourtabl
e.

“youmay.Butpl
aywher
eIcanseeyou.”shesays.

“Thankyoumommy”t heysayandrunt
othepl
ay
ar
ea.Weorderandsheorder
sfort
hem.

“youdon’
tdr
ink?”sheget
sshy.

“Idobutmaybewhenwegethome….Imeanyour
house,
I’
llhaveagl
assi
fyouhavesomewi
net
here.
”

“Ido.Whenar
eyoupl
anni
ngt
ogobackhome?”
“Ihadbookeduntili
twasSunday.Iwoul
dhave
checkedoutSundaymorni
ngthentookabushome
wit
ht heki
ds.”

“howwast
her
ideont
hebuswi
tht
heki
ds?”

“ughi
twasstr
essful.Idon’
twanttodoi
tagai
nbut
i
twasanexper
ience.”Iani magi
ne

“whoislesegoandwherei
sshefrom?”t heybri
ng
usdri
nks.Webothchosesodasandjui
cef ort
he
ki
ds.Idon’
twanttodr
inkwhil
eI’
m dri
vingwiththe
ki
dsinthecar.

“I’
mf rom f
reestat
einBet hlehem, Il
ivewithmy
parent
sMrandMr sMot aung, have4ot hersi
bli
ngs.
I’
mt hemiddleone.Mybr otherthusoi stheel
dest,
thenit
’smysi st
ermapaseka, meandmyyounger
i
tumelengandt helastbornmybr othermpho.My
brot
herandsi
sterar
emar r
iedt
heni
t’
sus.Iwor
kat
theki
dsschoolasacler
k.”

“youhaveabi
gfami
ly.”

“yeahweare.”theki
dscome,dr
inkt
hei
rdr
inks
thengoandplaywit
htheot
herki
ds.

“youaredoi
ngagreatjobwit
hthem.Theyareso
wellmanner
edandrespect
ful
.Youareagreatmom.
”

“Thankyou.I
tmeansalott
ohearthat.Wear
e
st
ranger
sandyoutookustoyourhousewhy?”

“becauseIsawt hatpl
aceanditwasn’tsaf
eforyou
andthekids.Ihaveasist
erl
ungi,she’
spregnant
andIthi
nkifmaybeshewasi nthesameposi ti
on
youwereinthatmaybesomeonewoul dhelpher.I
knowt hesedaysit
’snotsaf
ebecausewomenget
ki
lledandrapedandsot hat
’st
hefir
stthoughtt
hat
camei ntomymi ndandwhenIsawt hatthedoor
didn’
tlockfr
om theinsi
de.I
tscar
edmehonest ly.”
shenods.

“soyouhaveonl
yasi
ster
?”

“i
t’
smydad, meandmysi st
er.Wecallmyaunt
maheventhoughshe’
sli
ketwoyearsoldert
hanme.
”shel
aughs.“thenmyunclesandtheirwi
vesand
mycousi
ns.”

“yoursi
sterl
iveswi
thyourdad?”

“noshe’ smarr
iedandtheyareexpect
ingt
winsshe
i
sl ungiGumedenowandIam si cel
ongcobo.She
l
iveswi t
hherhusbandbackathomei nLadysmit
h
buttheyaregoingtor
elocat
etohere.Theare
current
lybui
ldi
ngthei
rhouse.”
“that
’sreal
lyni
ce.Soyouarenotinany
rel
ati
onshipanddon’
thaveanykids?”

“Iwokeupsingl
ebutt hatchangedwhenIsawyou.
Iwoul
dliket
obei nar el
ationshipwit
hyouandnot
besi
ngleanymore.Andki dsuhm IthinkIhavet
wo
now.Aboyandagi rl”shel aughs.

“don’
tsayt
hat
.Don’
tjokel
iket
hat
.”

“
I’
m notj
oki
ngl
esego.”

“youpr
onouncemynamesobeaut
if
ul”

“Ilovethesoundofmynameonyourl i
ps.I
tmakes
mewantt otastethem.”heatcr
eepsupfrom her
necktoherface.Thewaitr
esscomesandgi vesus
ourfood.Shestandsandgoestocallt
hekidsandI
l
ookatherandshehasabeaut
if
ulbodyandbehi
nd.
Myki
ndawoman.Fullfi
gur
ed.Shecomesbackand
t
hekidssi
t.

“let
’scl
oseoureyes.Kamosaygr
ace.”Icl
osemy
eyes.

“thankyouGodfort
hisfood.Formom t akingusto
Durbanandwesawt heseaandf ormeet i
nguncle
uhmmm…uncl e.
.uhmm thankyouf oruncleamen.”
shesaysandwesayamen.Bei ngincludedi nher
prayermakesmyheartmelt
s.

“thankyouangelofi
ncl
udi
ngmei
nyourpr
ayer
.”
shesmiles.

“you’
rewel
comeuncl
e”Ichuckl
e.

“Mom saysweshoul
dal
wayst
hankGodf
orwhat
wear egratefulfor.”sayskagi
so.(Shepr aysfor
youandi swai ti
ngf oryoutofi
ndher.Youwi l
lknow
whenyoumeether .
)Ngwendewastalkingabout
her.She’smi ne.Mychosenone.Ient wi
nemyhand
withhers.Shel ooksshockedbutIknowshef eel
s
theconnect i
onIf eelforher
.

Weal ldi
ginandeatandt heytellmeaboutt heir
schoolandf ri
endsbutmost lytheytellmehowt hey
hatewakingupi nwintert
ogot oschool .Theymake
mel aughandIcan’tremembert helasttimeIhad
thismuchf unandlaughedt hismuchandCel este
givesmeat humbsup.Sheappr oves.Theyeattheir
i
cecr eam buttheydon’tf
inishitcauset heyare
getti
ngsleepy.

“let
’sgobefor
etheysleepont
hetable.”shef
ishes
forsomethi
nginherbagandtakesoutherpur
se.
“whatareyoudoing?”

“payi
ngourbi
ll
.”
“pl
easeputt
hatpur
sei
nsi
de.Ial
readypai
dthebi
ll
.
”

“youdi
d?”shedoesn’
tbel
ieveme.
.

“Idid.”Ipickkagi
soupandt helitt
lechampwr aps
hishandsar oundmyneckandsl eeps.Myheart
feelsli
keitwasempt ybef
orebutnowt hoseempty
spacesar ebeingfi
ll
edbythem.Ical lCelest
eover
,
shecomesandIgi veherthebil
l.Shelaughs.
Lesegopi cksupkamoandwel eave.Iplacehim
nicelyinthecarandfast
entheseat beltandshe
doest hesame.

Idri
veoutslowlyandswitchtheradi
o2000on.The
tr
affi
chasclearednowandnotashect i
c.Lesego
seemst obedeepinthoughtandIdon’twantt o
dist
urbher.Ihopeshedoesn’tt
hinkthatIwantto
harm herandthekidscauseIwouldnever.Itake
herhandinmineandshesqueezesi
tli
ght
ly.Idr
ive
unti
lIgethomeholdi
ngherhand.

Wet akethekidst
oherbedroom andIhelpher
dressthekidswit
hpyjamasandweputt hem t
obed.
Shekissesthem goodni
ghtthenlooksatme.

“youar
esl
eepi
ngt
oo?”

“no,Iwouldst
il
lli
ket
ohavethatgl
assofwine.”I
takeherhandandweleavet
hedoorsli
ght
lyajar
andgot othel
ounge.

“whi
teorr
edwi
ne?”

“canIhavesemisweetwhitewineplease?”Igoto
theki
tchenandcomebackwi t
habot tl
eofit
.“it
wasinthefri
dgesoit
’schi
ll
ed.”Ipourheraglass
andmyselfaglasst
oo.
“thankyouf
ort
oni
ght
.Theki
dshadawonder
ful
ti
me.”

“Ididtoo.”Isi
tdownnextt
oher
.“whatwer
eyou
thi
nkingabouti
nthecar?”

“Aboutyou,showi
ngupandsavi
ngtheday.Ikept
wai
ti
ngf ormyguttowar
m meandtellmethat
maybesomet hi
ngi
swrongbuti
thasn’t
.”

“Iknowyoudon’ttr
ustmeandit’
sokay.IhopeI
haveshownyousomehowt hatyoucantrustme
butI’
l
lkeepshowingyout
hat.
”

“whatdoyoumeanyou’
l
lkeepshowi
ngme?”

“dancewi
thme?”
“what?”Igetup,swi
tchont
heradi
oandpl
ayr
adi
o
2000.It
akeherhandandpul
lhercl
oset
ome.
She’
safrai
dtotouchme.

“Ijustwanttodancewithyou.”sherelaxesher
bodythensnakesheronehandar oundmywai st.
Herforeheadisnexttomymout h.Iki
ssher
for
ehead,Ientwineourhandsandplacet heother
oneonherbackandwedancet okci-j
ojoallmyl i
fe.
Isofl
ysingthelyri
csofthesongtoherunt i
lthe
songends.

“thankyouf
orthedancebutIwoul
dli
ketogoto
bed”sheyawns.Idon’
twantthi
sni
ghttoend.

“youhadalongday.I
’mjustgladthatIhavetwo
moredayswit
hyoubeforeyougobackhome.
Tomorrowi
sFridaysowewi l
ltakethekidst
o
Ushakamari
ne.Theyaregoi
ngt oloveit
.”
“t
heywi
ll
.Thankyousi
cel
oforever
ythi
ng.”

“Ihaven’tdoneanyt
hingyetbuti
fyoul
etmeIcan
domor e.”

“si
cel
o….
.”

“shhhhh.Wellt
alkt
omorrow.”Itakehert
oher
bedroom andwestandoutsi
dethedoor.

“goodnightsicel
o.”sheget
sinandi
scl
osi
ngt
he
doorbutIstopher.

“lesego?”shelooksatme.“I…goodni ght
.”she
cl
osest hedoor.Il
ookatthedooraftershehas
cl
osedi tt
henleave.Iam goi
ngtomakesur ethat
sheandt heki
dshavet hebestt
imeher einDurban.
Iknowshe’stheonef ormeandI’m notlet
ti
nggoof
her.I
’m notgoi
ngt
ospendanot
hermi
nut
ewi
thout
herinmyl i
fe.
CHAPTER45.

SI
CELO.

I’
minmyof f
ice,
goi
ngthroughsomepaper
swhen
someoneknocksonthedoor.“comei
n”Itel
lthem.

“myboss,
howi
sit
?”

“goodCel
est
e,youar
eear
lyt
oday?”

“I’
m worki
ngboss”shet akesaseatandshe’
s
carr
yingabigenvel
ope.Hasshealreadyf
oundout
i
nformati
onaboutPrest
on.Ileanbackonmyseat
andfoldmyarmsonmychest .
“whati
sinsi
det
her
e?”

“Ohthi
s?,yourdadsmanwasj usther
enow.He
sai
dthi
sisfrom yourdadandyouwouldknowwhat
todowit
hit.”

“thanksCel
este.”It
aket
heenvelopefr
om herand
putiti
nmysafe.“haveyoufoundtshepoandwhat
aboutPrest
on?”sheshakesherhead.

“Ihaven’
tboss.Ther
e’snothingabouthim other
thanheownshi ssur
geryandhe’ sadoct or
.”she’
s
huff
sfrust
rat
ed.“butI’
m st
illinvest
igat
ing.”

“Idon’tt
hinkhe’sori
ginall
yfrom Ladysmit
h,maybe
he’sf
rom surr
oundingar eashereinKZNorJobur g,
butweneedmbusoont histofi
ndinformati
on
abouthim.“he’stheonlywhocanf i
ndwhor eal
ly
prest
onis.
“yout
hinkt
hat
’sagoodi
dea?”

“f
orluh'
ssafetyandallofusi
tis.Let
’sgoand
makethem breakf
astbefor
etheywakeup.”

“ohournewbr ideisawakeandshe’smakingus
breakf
ast.Shethoughtyoumightsti
llbesl
eeping
andmyguessi sshewant edtoserveyoubreakfast
i
nbed. ”Shewiggleshereyebr
ows.

“I’m notent ert

ainingyournonsenseCel est e.”the
smel lofbaconhi tsmynoseandmyst omach
grumbl es.Wegeti ntheki t
chenandt hef i
rstthingI
seeisherbeaut ifulbehindandf uckmecausemy
dickinstantlyget shard.She’sbusyst i
rr
ing
somet hingint hebowlandherasskeepsj iggl
ing.If
Ihadt ospanki t
,itwillj
iggl
eandwi ggleni ceonmy
handsandal sowhenIam f uckingherf rom behi nd.
It
’stheT- shirtshe’swear i
ngt hat’
shasaknotont he
backexposi ngherski nandt hosedamnl eggings
she’swear ingcauset heyfitherperfectl
yt hatar e
maki
ngmehar
d.

Iturnmakingsur eCelestedoesn’tseemeandf i
x
myhar don.Igoar oundt hekit
cheni sland,stand
behindherandcageheri n.Shef r
eezesandher
breathi
ngchangesbecauseIcanseet hepul seon
herneckandt hedeepbreathsshe’st aking.Imove
myheaddownt oherear“goodmor ningbaby”I
whisperinherearandsheswal lowsai r.Ikissher
cheekandIt hinkIheardhermoan.“ar en’
tyou
goingtosaygoodmor ningtoo?”Il ookatherhands
asshegr i
pst hebowlt i
ght.

“goodmor ningsicel
o,di
dyousleepwell?”she
sayswit
hhersweethoneydr i
ppingvoi
ce.Ireal
ly
wanttotastethathoneydri
ppingoutfr
om hervoice.

“t
urnar
oundandl
ookatme.
”It
ellher
.

“Ican’
tcauseyouhavecagedmei
n.”
“am Imakingyouf eel
uncomf ort
able?”Ikissher
nape.Shefuriouslyshakesherhead.“t hent ur
n
andlookatmel esego.”shet urnsandherass
makescont actwi t
hmydi ck.Iknowshef el
tthat.
Herbreastsaret ouchingmychestandshe’ s
blushi
ngbeaut i
fully.“youlooksobeaut i
fulwhen
youblush.”

“Thankyou”shesaysbi
ti
ngherl
ip.

“lookatme.”shel if
tshereyesandtheyl
andonmy
mout hfi
rsttheneyes.Sheli
cksherl
ipsandbit
sher
bottom l
ip.“stopdoingthat
.Bi
ti
ngyourli
p.”

“why?”sheasks.Imovemybodycl osert
oherso
shecannowr eal
lyfeelwhatishappeningonmy
body.Herbr
eathhitchesandhermout hopensand
for
msanO.Ohf uckthis!
.Iclai
m hermouth,ki
ss
herandtast
ethathoneyt hatdri
psonhersweetli
ps
whenshet alksorl aughs.Shet astesr eallygood.
Sheput sherhandsonmyT- shir
tandf i
stsitpulli
ng
met oher .Igodeepont heki ssandshemoansi n
mymout hf uckme! .Ili
ftherupandputheront he
kit
chencount ernotbr eakingt hekissandshe
wr apsherl egsar oundmywai st“wai ii
ii
ityou
guys! !
!.I’
m st i
llhere.Youar enotgoi ngt ohavesex
i
nf r
ontofmeandi nt hekitchenwher etheki dscan
wal kinandcat chyout wol ikethis!
.”ohf uckenhel l
!.
ItotallyforgotaboutCel estebei ngher ei nthe
kit
chen.West opki ssingandshe’ sbr eathless.Ican
seeherni pplest hroughherT- shirt
.Shei snot
wear ingabr a.Shebl ushesf ur
iouslyandhi desher
faceonmyneck, Ichuckleandpl antaki ssonher
hair.“youl ooksobeaut if
ulwhenyoubl ush.It
makesmewonderwher eelsei nyourbodyar eyou
blushi ng.”shel aughs.

“I
’m wetsi
cel
o”shewhisper
sthengi
ggl
e.Ohf
uck
whydidshetel
lmet
hat
.
“Iam sohar dri
ghtnowcauseIcansmel lyour
arousal
,thefeelofyourbodyandthesweetki sses
yougiveme.Iwantt of uckyousohardri
ghtnow
andlosemysel fi
nyouandmakeyouf eell
ikeyou
tookecstasycauseyouwi llbesohi
ghandl ostin
ourlovemaking.Wi l
lyouletmetouchyouanddo
thi
ngstoyou?”shel ooksatmeandnods.

“yes”shesays.Iki
ssherl
ight
ly.

“gowi pethatwetnessbetweenyourl
egsandwhil
e
you’r
edoingthatimagineit
’smouthwipi
ngallt
hat
sweetwetness.Doyout ouchyoursel
fwhenyouare
alone?”sheblushesagain.

“Idobutnotal
ways.”

“whenyougetinthebathroom youwi
lltouch
your
selfandt
hinkthat
’sit
’sme.Youwillimagi
neal
l
thet
hingsyouthi
nkIwilldotoyouunt
ilyoumake
yoursel
fcum.Lateryouar
egoingtotellmewhat
youthoughtaboutwhenyouwer et
ouchingyoursel
f
anditbett
erbegoodcausethat’
sthelastti
meyou
areevergoingt
otouchyoursel
fwhil
eI’m nott
here.
Doyouunder st
and?”

“Ido.”shesayswhi sper
ing.“butwhataboutyou
andyoursituat
ion?”shecallsmyhornydicka
si
tuat
ion?.Ichuckl
e.

“don’tworr
yabouti t
.I’
lljustlookatCelesteandmy
sit
uati
onwillresol
veitself.”shelaughsatmy
answer.“go,thekidswi l
lbeawakeatanymi nut
e
now.”thisti
meshesur prisesmecauseshet akes
myf acebetweenherhandsandki ssesmehar d
thenshejumpsof fthecount erandr unstothe
bedroom.

“Iwoul
dtapt
hatassatanymomenti
fshewas
bat
ingf
ormyteam.”
“getyourowndamngi
rl”shel
aughs.

“shei
shotthough.2kidsandshelooksli
kethat?
ManIdon’tbl
ameyouf orwant
ingtofuckthathot
mamarighthereandnow.”shesighsandIchuckle.

“makesomefoodandstopt
alki
ngaboutmy
woman.”yeahshei
s.Cel
est
elaughs.

“Ili
keherf oryou.From whatIhaveseenand
observed,she’sagreatmotherandyouMrngcobo
aregreatuncletothem.Thosekidsarer eall
ytaken
byyou.Youwoul dmakeagr eatdadsicelo.”that
meansal ot.

“t
hanksmyr
ighthandwoman.”webot
hlaugh.

“goodmor
ninguncl
e.Goodmor
ningaunt
y.”t
he
ki
dssay.

“heykids.
”Cel est
esaysdr i
nki
nghercoff
ee.Itur
n
aroundandlookatt hem.Theyhaveal
readybathed
buttheyst
il
llooksleepyorti
red.Igot
othem and
crouchdownt othei
rlevel
.

“mor ningpri
ncess”Ihughershegi ggles.
“mor ningchamp”Ihughi mt ooandwedoaf ist
bump.Il ookattheirmotherandwi nkather.She
smi l
es.“whydidyouwakeupsoear ly?”Iaskt hem.
Isitthem onthechairs.Theyarewayt oohighand
theyar enotsaf
ef ort
heki ds.Ihavetochanget hem.

“wewerealreadyawakewhenmom camet othe

bedr
oom uncle.”kagi
sosays.Lesegocont
inuest
o
makebr
eakfast.

“ok.Sowhatar
ewedoi
ngt
oday?”Iaskt
hem.
“Canwegot oShakaMar i
neandt henswi
m and
thenwatchmovies?”t
heyaregoingtobeti
redby
theti
mewewat chmovies.Kagi
sosaysandhis
sist
ernods.

“mom whatar
ewedoi
ngt
oday?”Iaskher
.

“Don’
tyouhavet
ogot
owor
k?”

“noIdon’
t.Ar
eyouget
ti
ngr
idofme?”

“I’
m not
.Idon’twantt
okeepyoufr
om doi
ngt
hings
andbabysitus.”shepl
atesf
oral
lofus.

“Iwantt obeherewi
thallofyouifyouwoul dhave
mel esego.”shesmi
lesandnods.Shesi tsandt he
kidssaygraceandweeat .Theytellusabouttheir
fri
endsandhowmucht heyaregoingt obejealous
thattheywereinDur
banandst ayingatabighouse.
ButwhatInoti
cet houghist hattheydon’ ttal
kabout
thei
rgrandpar
entsoruncl esandaunt s.Event heir
cousins.Ki
dslovetheirgrandpar ent
sandt hey
wouldneverstoptell
ingyouaboutt hem andi t
makesmewonderwhatt heirli
vingsituationislike
athome.Ihavet otal
kt ol
esego.

Herphonehasn’tri
ngedsinceshehasbeenher e
andshehasn’tphonedanyonet ol
etthem know
howshe’sdoingandt heki
dsandwher esheis.
“haveyourparent
scal l
edyouandfindouthowyou
andthekidsaredoing?”shestopseati
ngandt he
ki
dsgetquiettoo.

“Ital
kedtothem i
nthemorningandtheycan’twait
forustocomeback.”Iknowshe’slyi
ng.kagiso
dropshisfor
kandlooksathismom angri
lythenhe
j
umpsof fthechai
randruns.“kagi
so?!
,kagiso?!
Kagiso?!”shecal
lsaft
erhi
m, webothrunaf t
erhi
m.

“what
’sgoi
ngl
esego?”sheshakesherhead.We
openthedoort
hebedr
oom doorandkagi
soi
s
si
tti
ngdowncryi
ng.Whati
sgoingon?.

“kagi
so?”shekneel snextt
ohim andtoucheshis
shoul
derbutkagisoshakesoffherhand.He’sangr
y
ather
.Ikneelnexttohimtoo.

“champwhat ’
swr ong?”he’ scr yingsoftly.Hel i
fts
hisheadup.Thent hrowshi msel finmyar mscr ying.
Ihughi mt i
ghtandcomf orthim.“i t’
sokaychamp.
Letital lout ,
wear erightheref oryou.”l esegohas
tearsinhereyesandshewi pest hem.Hi slit
tl
ecr ies
arebr eaki ngmyhear t .Il
ookar oundandseet hat
kamodi dn’tfoll
owusandsomaybekagi sowilltalk
aboutwhati sbot heri
nghi m.“doyouwantt ot alk
aboutwhati smaki ngyoucr y?”heshakeshi shead
no.“okchamp.Whatcanmeandmom dot omake
youf eelbet t
er?”hest opscr yi
ngbutdoesn’ tl
etgo
ofme.“Mom want stoholdyou.I sthatokay?”he
doesn’ tsayanyt hingf orawhi l
et henhenods.She
takeshi m, cl
oseshereyesandt earsf al
landshe
apol
ogi
zest
ohi
m.

Isherfamilyabusi ngherandt hekids?Arethey

tr
eati
ngt hem diff
er ent?Ormaybemyquest ion
upsethim? .GodIhavenoi deawhatt hehellis
goingon.Igetupandgi vet
hem somespacet otal
k.
Igotot hekitchenandseeCel esteandkamoeat i
ng
i
cecr eam inthelivingroom andlaughing.Ineeda
housekeeper.Isitdownont hecouchandshe
comesandsi tsnextt ome.

“heypri
ncees,ar
eyouokay?.”shenods.Cel
est
e
mouthswhat’swrongandIshakemyhead.

“i
smybr
otherokay?”she’
swor
ri
ed.Idon’
tli
kei
t.

“heis.He’
stal
kingwithmom.”shenodsagai n
“canIhavesomei cecream t
oo”shegiggl
es.We
si
tdownaroundt hecoffeet
ableandeati
cecream.
Lesegoandkagi
socomedownandj oi
nus.He
l
ooksali
tt
lebet
terbutIknowhe’
snotokay.Lesego
hast
otel
lmewhat ’
sgoingon.

“areyouguysr eadyt
ogotoShakamarine?”t
hey
nod.“telltheguystober
eady.You’
recomingwit
h
too.”ItellCel
este.

“l
ikeIwasgoi
ngt
ost
aybehi
nd.”sheget
supand
l
eaves.

“Dotheyhavetheirswimmingcostumes?”she
nods.“goandgett hem sowecanleaveandplease
l
ookf ormyswimmi ngshortsi
nmycl osetandmy
wall
etonthedressingtabl
e.”shegetsupandwe
conti
nuetoeaticecream.

“uncl
e?”kagi
socal
lsme.

“yeschamp?”
“I
…..Il
ikei
ther
e.”Ismi
le.

“Il
ikei
ttoosi
nceyouar
eal
lher
e.”Ibr
ushhi
shead.

“Iwi
shwecanst
ayher
ekagi
so”Kamosays.

“wellyoucanvisi
tmeasmuchasyouwant
.You,
yourbrot
herandmom cancomeher
eandvi
sitme
anyti
meyoumi ssme.”

“don’
tworryuncl
eIwil
lcal
lyouwhenImi
ssyou”
shesmil
es.Ichuckl
e.

“Iwil
lcal
lyout
oopr
incess.Ipr
omi
se.”Iassur
e
her
.

“butwedon’
thavecel
lphonesandal
lourf
ri
endsat
schoolhavecel
lphones”kagi
sosays.Theyar
etoo
youngtohavecellphones.

“I
’
llcal
lyouonmomsphoneokay?
.”

“yesuncl
e.”theybot
hsay.Lesegocomesback
andiscar
ryi
ngabagwi t
hher.

“here’
syourwal
letandphone.Wecangoi
fyou
guysaredoneeati
ngicecr
eam.”

“ki
ds,
got
othecar
.”Theygetupandr
unt
othecar
.

“don’
trun!
.”l
esegosaysandt
heyst
opandwal
k.

“what’
sgoi
ngonlesego?,whydidkagisogetangr
y
whenImenti
onedyourparent
s?”sheavoi dsmy
eyesandt
ouchesherneck.She’
snervous.
“not
hingi
sgoi
ngon,
hej
ustmi
ssest
hem.”

“Don’
tli
etome.Dot
heynotl
ikeyourki
ds?”

“ofcour
set
heydo.Theyar
ethei
rgr
andki
ds.”

“thenwhatisgoi
ngon.Iknowyouarelyi
ngabout
them cal
li
ngyoucauset
heydidn’
t.Nooneinyour
famil
yhascall
edyouandfindouthowareyouand
theki
ds.”

“si
cel
opl
easel
eavei
t.”It
ouchherf
ace.

“tal
ktomebaby.Idon’
tli
keseei
ngt
heki
dsupset
andcryi
ng.What
’sgoi
ngon?.”

“Iwi
llt
ellyouokaybutf
ornowcanwegoandhave
f
unandf orgetaboutwhathappened?.Icamehere
wit
hthekidssot heycanbehappy,haveagr eat
t
imeandf orgetabouthomeforawhi l
e.Canyoudo
t
hatfort
hem?”Iwi pethet
earsthatarefal
li
ng.

“okaybaby.Wheneveryouar ereadytotalkyou
wil
ltellmeandI ’l
lli
sten.Ijustwanttomakeyou
happyl esegoandloveyouwi thyourkids.Ineed
youtogi vemeachancesoIcanbet hemanyou
wantandneed.”shehugsmeandcr ies.Iholdher
ti
ght.Sheki ssesmyl i
pst hentakesmyhandand
weleave.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER45.

SI
CELO.

“shewon’
tletgoofme?”webothgi
ggl
esoftl
y.
Kamohasadeat hgr
iponme.Shewon’
tletmeput
herdown.
“letmehel pyou.”l esegotakesherfrom meand
kamoeasi lylet’
sgoandsl ipsherarmsawayf r
om
me.Shel ooksdeadt ir
ed.Bothofthem aret
ired.
Kagisofellasleepthemomenthegoti nt
hecar .I
helphertakeof fkamo' sshoesoffthenshelaysher
downont hebed.

West andandwat cht hebothofthem sl eepingand

theylookliketheyar eatpeace.Theyr eallyhada
greattimeatt hemar inaandswi mmi ngobvi ously
madet hem t
ired.Theyenjoyedpl ayinginthewat er.
“Let’
sgobef oreshewakesup.”shet akesmyhand
andcl osesthedoor .She’sbeendoi ngthatal ot
todayandI ’m notcompl ai
ning.Ifuckenl oveit.

Wegodownst ai
rs,si
tonthelongue.I
t’
sjustthetwo
ofusnow.IsentCelestet
ogoanddel i
verthe
packagetomyguywho’ sgoingtohel
pisgett he
mazibuko'
sDNA.“canImakeyousomet hingto
dri
nk?”shelooknervousri
ghtnow.
“I’
m good.Talktomel esegobaby.Whati sgoing
onwi t
hyouandt hekids.”shekeepst ouchingher
neckandear ,she’snervous.“hey.Youcant al
kto
me.Iwon’tjudgeyou, Ijustwanttoknowwhati s
goingsoIcanhel pyou.Idon’ tl
ikeseeingthekids
upsetandyout oo.”Ibrushherface,myphone
ri
ngsbeforeshecananswerme.Iwantt oignoreit
butIcan’
t.ItakeitoutandseeSi msnamepoppi ng
upandshe’sf acet i
mingme.

Thisbet
terbegoodbecauseshehasjust
i
nterr
uptedme“Si ms?”shesmil
es.“heybhut
i
si
celohowar eyou?”Ismil
eback.“I
’
mf i
neSims.
What’swrong?”

Shelooksatmeshockedl i
keIhavej ustoffended
her
.“can’tIcal
lmybi gbr
otherthatIlovesomuch.
”Ilaugh“nowIknowyoudef i
nitelywant
something.Spi
titout
.”webothl augh.Ilookat
l
esegoandshel ooksuncomfort
abl e.“baby,are
youokay?”IaskherandshenodsbutIcansee
she’
smovingawayf rom t
hephonesoSi
mswon’t
seeher.Whichisf
inebymecauseIwanthert
o
meetluhfi
rst.

“whoareyoutal
kingt
o?”sheasksmel eaning
for
wardtoseewhoI’mtal
kingto.“SimsI’m ver
y
busysotel
lmewhatyouwant .”Itel
lher

Shesi ghsdi sappointedandIl augh.Iknowt hatif

sheseesl esego, l
uhwoul dknowandsoont he
whol efami lyandIdon’ tthinkshe’sr eadyforthat.I
am readyf orthatthoughbutIdon’ twantt oscar e
heraway.“wel lIam pl
anni ngont hrowi ngluhand
mbusoababyshowerbutIwanti ttobemor elikea
photoshootbet weenthem andt hefami lyt
henwe
willallhavel unchordinner .Theyhavebeen
throughsomuchandIj ustthankt hem andsur prise
them wi t
ht his.”

“thatsoundsgr
eatsi
msbutwheredoIf
iti
nal
lof
thi
scauseyouhavePrest
onIt
hinkandmah?”she
keepsqui
etforawhi
leanddoesn’
tsayanyt
hing.
“what’
swrong?”shesi
ghssadly

“wellyouknoweversi ncetheybothaccusedmeof
beingjealousofluhandwant i
ngtobeli
keher ,
our
rel
ationshiphasnotbeent hesame.Iwantt odo
thi
sf orthem becausetheyhavedonemanyt hi
ng
formeandmyki ds.Ineedyout ot
akethem away
whileIpr epar
eeverythi
ng.”

Idi
dn’
tknowthi
ngswerethatbadbetweenthem.
“wher
eareyouplanni
ngonhavingthatphotoshoot
?
”

“atthei
rhouse,youcantaket
hem tovi
sityourdad
orsomethi
ngwhi leIpl
anever
ythi
ngthenI’l
lcal
l
youwhenI ’
m done.”

“Icandot hat.Whenareyouplanningonhavi
ngt
he
photoshoot?”Ihopeshedoesn’tsaytomor
row
causeI
’
m notgoi
ngt
oagr
ee.

“wellIwasthinki
ngnextweekendcauseIt hi
nk
theyhavetogot oPi
etermari
tzburg.Wil
lyoube
avail
abl
e?”Ilookatlesegoandshel ooksatme.
“yeahI’
llbeavail
abl
eandIwi llevenbri
ngsomeone.
”Isaysmi l
ingandlesegolookatmeshocked.

“OwowIcan’
twai
ttomeether
.”shesaysexci
ted.

“doyouneedmoney?”Iaskherandshel aughs
shakingherheadfuri
ously.“ohnomi st
er.I
’
m good
butifIneedanythi
ngelseIwi l
lletyouknow.Sicel
o
canwekeept hisbetweenus?”

“don’
twor
ryabouti
t.Wel
ltal
kthen”Iassur
eher
.

“byepret
tyl
ady”Simssayslaughi
ngandIhangup
andlookatl
esego.“Comeherebaby”shebl
ushes.
Iopenmyl egsandshegetsbetweenthem.Ipul
l
herfor
wardsoshecanlayherheadi nmychest.I
brushherbackandshesighs.

“that’
sani cethi
ngshewant stodo.Whoi sshe?”
that’
sal ongstor
yandIwantt ohearherstorynow
nottellherour
s.“I’
llt
ellyouaboutal lofusbutf
or
nowIwantt ohearyourstory.”Shetakesadeep
breathoutthendrawssomet hingonmychest .
.

“Imett hefatherofmyki dswhenIwas18andwe

datedforaf ewmont hsandIf ellpregnantwi th
kagisowhenIwas19.WhenIt oldhimt hatIwas
pregnanther anandl ef
tmel i
ket hat.Iwast hree
mont hsthattime.Mypar entswer everymadatme.
Theywant edmet ohaveanabor t
ionbutIr efused.
TheykickedmeoutandIwentt olivewithmy
grandmot herthenamont hlatermypar ent
scame
andaskedmewhowast hefat herandIt ol
dt hem.
Myuncl eandmom’ ssistertookmet othut
o's
houset otellt
hem thathei mpr egnatedme, my
mom anddadcamewi thusbutt
heystayedbehi
nd
i
nthecar.Whentheysawthatt
huto’
sfamil
yiswell
oft
heystar
tedbeingni
cetome.”

Icannotbel ieveherpar entswant edhertoabor t

kagisoandt hentheyki ckherout ?.“wegoi nside
hishouseandhedeni edt hathei stheonewhogot
mepr egnant.Hecal l
edmeal iarandIwantedt opin
thispregnancyonhi m causeIwantt oruinhis
futureandIdon’ tknowwhogotmepr egnant.They
chasedusoutandIwasbr okenaftert
hat.The
whol efamilyt ur
nedonmeandcal ledmea
disappointmentandal lsor t
sofnames.Icont inued
tostaywi thmygr andmot herunt i
lIgavebirt
h.No
onecamet oseemeatt hehospi t
alorhelpmewi th
thebaby’ sclothesandIbl amedmysel fcauseIput
mysel finthatsituati
on…..”shesni ff
sandmyhear
breaks.Ihol dhercloset ome.

“mygrandmot
hercameandtookmehome.She
hel
pedmebutshewasalsoafr
aidcausemymom
threat
enedt ocutheroffifshespendshermoney
onmebutshewoul dhelpmewi t
hmostt hi
ngs.
Theynevercamet oseethebaby, al
lofthem andI
knewIhadmygr andmotheronlytohelpme.Iwent
andappl iedforachil
dsupportgrantandwoul ddo
piecejobssoIcanbeabl etotakecareofmyson.
Kagisowas9mont hsifI
’
m notmi st
akenwhenmy
familyshowedup.Iwaswashi ngourclothesand
theywal kedinhappyandpr et
endedlikeeveryt
hing
wasf inebetweenus…”

“Imadet hem tea,mydadt oldmet ositdown

causehehasgr eatnewsf orme.Appar entlythuto
camewi thhisfami l
ytopaydamagesandt oclaim
kagisoashis.Theyaccept edt hemoneyandnow
theywereher etotakemebackhomebecause
tomorrowtheMaboaf amilywi llcomet oseekagi so.
Iwassohur tandf eltl
ikemyf ami l
ybetrayedme
becausethisboydeni edt hepr egnancyandcal l
ed
meawhor einfrontofever yonebutt heyf orgot
aboutthatcauset heysawmoney.Idi dn’twantt o
gobutmygr andmot herfor cedmet ogowi t
ht hem.
”

Justl i
ket hat,themot herfuckerwasf orgiveneven
thoughhet ar
ni shedhername.Theydon’ tcomeand
seeherandchi ldandf i
ndouti ftheyar est illal i
ve
andwel l?.Thati smaki ngmef eelr ealmad.“Iknew
Iwasgoi ngt or egr etleavingwi ththem butI
l
istenedt omygr andmot her,packedourcl ot hesand
l
ef t
.Wegothomeandwepr etendedt obet his
happyf ami l
yt heyevenhel dkagi soandpl ayedwi th
him.Nextdayhi sf ami l
ycameandhadbr ought
kagisocl othesandever ything.Thut owaseven
theretoo.Idi dn’ twantt obet herecauseever ythi
ng
justfeltwr ong.Iwant edmygr andmot her.My
mot heraskedmet ogobuysomet hingi nt heshops
andi twasl at
esot hutoof feredtot akemet her e
withhiscar .Wel eftandonourwayhedr ovepast
hishousecausehesai dhef orgotothercl ot heshe
hadbr oughtf orkagi soandaskedmet ohel phi m
carryitandst upi dmedi dn’tseeanyt hingwr ong
withthat .Howcoul dIcausewhenwet alkedabout
kagiso, hewasni ce.Iwashur tthathecoul dn’ teven
sayI’m sorryforlyi
ngandaccusi ngyouofwant i
ng
totr
apmewi ththepregnancy.Wewal kedinandhe
wentt ohisbedr oom andcamewi t
hkagiso'
sot her
clot
hes.Iwasgl adthatIwasn’tgoi ngtobeheref or
l
ong, soIhel pedhim carr
yt heclotheswhenIf elt
him grabbingmyhai rfrom behindandt hrowingme
onthecouch.If oughthim ofbuthewasst r
onger
thanme…. ”Fuckno!No!No!No!

“hepi nnedmedown….. .r
aisedmyski rtup,toremy
underandt henhe, he…..
……f orcedhi mselfi
nme.I
haven’tbeenwit hamansi nceIwaspr egnantandi t
hur t
.Iwassoi nshockandIcoul dn’tdoanyt hing.
Mybodywenti ntoshock.Icoul dn’tmoveorspeak.
Hedr aggedmet ohisbedroom andf orcedmet o
takeof fmyclothesandshower .Ididthent henIput
mycl othesonandwel eft
.If orgotaboutwhatmy
mom askedmet obuy.Het oldmei fItol
danyone
thathewoul ddenyi tandtellthem t hatIoffered
mysel fbecauseIwashor nyandwant edtof i
x
thingsbetweenusandheagr eedcausehewant sto
maket hemotherofhischildhappy.Igotoutoft he
carandwentinthehouseandwhenmymom saw
thatIdi
dn’
thavewhatshesentmetobuyshewas
angry….”

Hercr iesbr eakmyhear tandIwantt okillthatson

ofabi tch.“shesmel l
edmeandf eltIwassmel l
ing
ofwat ershesl appedmeandaccusedmeof
openi ngmyl egsf ort hatobecauset hat’
swhatI ’
m
goodat .Itr i
edt ot ellherwhathappenedbutshe
woul dn’ tlistent ome.Hi m andhi sf ami l
yl eftali
ttl
e
l
at erandmymom t oldmydadt hatIsl eptwi t
h
thatoandhebeatmeup.ThenextdayIr anaway
withkagi soandwentt omygr andmahouseand
theycamet of etchmebackbecauset hutocame
andt ol dt hem t hatwehadsexandnowI ’m
accusi nghi m ofr apingme.Theybel ievedhi m and
notme.It ol dmydadever ydetailthathappenedbut
mymom sai dithappenst omostofusandImust
dealwi thi t.HowcanIaccuset hef at herofmychi ld
ofr apingme.Theyt ookmehomeandwhenI
discover edt hatIwaspr egnantagai nwithhi schi l
dI
l
osti tsi cel o.Idi dn’tknowhowIwasgoi ngt odeal
witht hepr egnancy.Notonl ydi dher apemebuthe
i
mpr egnat edmet oo.Idi dn’ twantt ohavean
abort i
oncauseIwasscar ed.Itscar edmesoIhi d
thepr egnancyunt i
lIcoul dn’ twhenIwasf ive
mont hspr egnant .Iwentandt oldmygr andmot her
andshet oldt hem.Theyonceagai nt unedonme
andst artedbei ngabusi vewi thwor dsandhi tti
ng
me.Mygr andmot herdi edandi t’
swashar df orme
causeIknewt hatIwasr eallyalonet hist i
me.They
wentt ot el
lhi sfami l
yandheagr eedandt heyalso
foundoutt hathewasget t
ingmar r
ied.Mydadwas
somadwhenhehear dt hatcausehet hrewmeout
ofthehouseandt heybui ltashackf ormet oli
vein.
Igavebi r
thandt heydi dt hesamet hingt okamo
thatt heydi dt okagi so.NoonecameandIwas
alone.Ist r
uggl edunt ilIgotaj obasacl eaneratt he
school , Iwor kedunt iltheyof feredmeaj obasa
clerkatt heschool .Isavedmoneyandbui ltmysel f
aoner oom bedr oom wi thaki tchent hatIl ivein
withmyki ds.Ipayr entf orel ectrici
tyandwat eror
elsei fIdon’ tpayt heyswi tchi tofffrom me.I ’m
expect edt obabysi ttheirki ds, washt hei
rl aundr y
andcont ri
but etot hehousebutmyki dsar enot
all
owedinsi
dethehouseoreveneatthere.When
thut
oseesmeandt hekidshepassesthem li
kehe
doesn’
tknowthem.”

Ihaveneverf el
tsomanydi fferentemot i
onsal lat
once.Shehasbeent hr oughal otandI’m proudof
her.Iam somadbecauseoft hethi
ngsshe
experi
encedandIwantt oshieldherf r
om itand
makeever ythi
ngbetterforher.Her apedhert hen
l
iedtoherf amil
y!.Hmm Thi sboy!.“kagisoisawar e
andknowswhati sgoing.That ’
swhyhegotupset
whenIaskedaboutyourpar ents?.”

Shewi peshertears.“heknowsandseeshow
everyonetr
eatsthem, usdif
ferentf
rom ever
yone
el
se.Iusedt ohidethatfr
om them andalways
comeupwi t
hexcusesbutashegr owsuphe
watchesandl i
stens.”

“Baby?”shecocksherheadupandl
ooksatme.I
ki
ssbothhertear
yeyel
idsthenwi
nehert
ear
swith
myt humbs.“l etmei nyourhear tandl etmet ake
careofyouandyourki ds.Letmel oveyouand
them.Letmebeyourman, husbandandl etmebe
thefathert othem.Iwantt hem toknowand
experiencet helovet hatwast akenf rom them t he
l
ovet heynevergott ofeel.Iwantt obeaf atherto
them.Iwantt hem t ocallmedad, babaorpapa.I
wantyout oleanonmeandknowt hatIwi lltake
careofyourourki ds.Letmef ixthisandl oveyoui n
everywaypossi ble.Iknewyouwer emi net he
momentIhear dyourl aught er.Ical l
edont omeand
Iknewt hatIhavef inall
yfoundmychosenone.I
canpr omiseyout hemoonandt hest ai
rsand
everythingbutwhatIwantt opr omi seyounowi s
thatIwi l
lloveyou, cher i
shyou, ador eyou, respect
you.Putyourneedsandt heki dsneedsf i
rstabove
myown.Iwantt ohaveahomewi thyou, havemor e
kidswi t
hyouandl oveyoul ikecrazy.Ineedyoui n
myl i
felesegoandIneedyout obepar tofmy
family.WillyouhavemeLesegoMot aung?”

Shebur
iesherheadonmyneckandsobs.Myeyes
wellwit
htearsandonet earfall
s.Iquicklywipeit
andkissherforehead.Ihol
dhert i
ghtt omeand
comfortherasshecr i
es.“I’
m scaredsi cel
o,Ireal
ly
am.”shesayssobbi ng.“Iknowyouar escar ed
babybuttrustmeandl etmei n.Ipromiseyou, you
won’tbesorry.”Thatboyisgoingpay.Al lofthem.

“promisemethatyouwil
lneverdi
scr
imi
nat
emy
ki
dsandt r
eatt
hem dif
fer
entl
ywhenwehaveki
ds?”
Ismil
e.

“ourki
ds.Theyareourki
ds.Ilovethem l
iket
hey
aremyownandt hatwil
lneverchange.”

“whataboutyourf
amily?Whatar
etheygoingto
sayaboutmehavingtowkids?Whati
ftheysayI
mustleavet
hem behi
nd?”

She’
sscaredandIunder
standbecauseIwould
havethesameconcer
nsshedoes.“theyaregoing
toloveyouandIwoul dneverletyoul eaveourkids
behindt hattoxi
cenvironment ,
evenifi twasn’t
,I
sti
llwoul dneverall
owyouoral l
owanyoneel set o
expectthatofyou.Mydadi sgoinglovet hem and
spoilthem li
kecrazyandmyauntshe’ sgoingto
l
ovet hem toobutl uhshe’scrazyaboutki ds.She
l
ovest hem andt heyloveher ,
she’sgoi ngtobet he
bestaunt y.”Ismilethinki
ngaboutal lofthem
meet i
ngherandt hekids.

“Ihearyoubutdon’
tmakemechoosebet weenyou
andourkidscauseIwoul
dneverexpectt
hatfr
om
youtoo.”

“Ihearyoubabyandwhenwef ightdon’tsaymy
ki
dscausethatwillj
ustpissmeof f
.”shesmi l
es.
“that
’smoreli
keit.”Ipeckhercheek.“Ineed
somethi
ngfrom you.”

“whati
sit
?”
“Ineedyoutol etmedealwiththut
o.Myownway
wit
houtinvol
vingthepol
ice.”shelooksuncer
tai
n.

“whatdoest
hatmean?”

“Iwon’
tki
llhi
mifyouar
ewor
ri
edaboutt
hat
.”

“I’
m notworr
iedabouthi
m.He’
sbet
teroffdead
thanali
vei
nmyeyes.ButIdon’
twantyourhandst
o
befil
ledwi
thhisbl
ood.”

“t
ellmewhatIwantt
ohearl
esego.”shegi
ggl
es.

“What
?”It
ickl
eherandshel
aughs.

“Iam yoursSicel
oNgcobo.Allofme.Meandt he
ki
dsar
eal lyoursnow.Youcanhaveus.Iam your
woman.”shebl
ushes.

“let
’sseali
twi
thakiss”Idon’
twaitf
orhert
o
answercauseIcl
aim hermout
handdevourherl
ips.
Someoneorpeoplearegoingt
odie.
CHAPTER46.

SI
CELO.

“baby?”wear esti
llonthecouchcuddl
ing.Idi
dn’t
knowcuddl i
ngcouldbethismuchfunandIt hi
nk
I’
m goingtolovedoingt
hatandalotofthi
ngswi t
h
her.“yesbaby?”shegiggles,
Iki
sspeckhercheek.

“canyoushar ethebedwithme? ,Ij

ustwanttofeel
youknowmyar msandIpromiseyouwewi l
lnotdo
anythi
ngunt i
lthebot
hofusarer eady”Idon’tknow
whatI’
m askingherbecauseIknowf orsureI’
m
goingtohaveabonert hewhol
eni ght.Shel
ooksat
meunsur e.“I’
m aski
ngyoutotrustmeandknow
thatIwon’
thur
tyou.IwantyouIfeelyouonmy
armsandwakeupnexttoyout hat
’sallIwantbaby.
”

ShegetsupandIt hinkshe’
sgoingtorefusemebut
shetakesmyhandagai nandIgetupandwegot o
mybedr oom.Wegett her
eandshemovest he
pil
lowsoffthebedandplacesthem neatl
yand
openstheduvet.“canIuseyourbathroom and
shower?”hercheeksgetpinkandIsmi l
e.

“youcanbaby.”It
ellher
.Shetur
nst
oleavebutI
st
opher.„wherear
eyougoi ng?”

“t
ogetmypyj
amasandt
oil
etr
ybag.”
.

“ok,
I’m goingt ousetheshowerintheotherguest
bedr
oom.Feelf reet
ot akeyourt
ime.”shenods
andleaves.Itakemyt hingsandgototheother
bedr
oom andt akeacol dshower
.Ishowerquickl
y
causeI’mtryingt onotletimagesofl esego
shower i
nginmybedr oom f i
llmymi nd.Ipassby
thekidsbedr oom whenI ’
m doneandt heyarest i
ll
sleepi
ng.Iswi tchtheli
ght stoalit
tledi m butsti
ll
l
ightincasetheki dswakeupandhal fcloset he
door.Iopenmybedr oom doorandnotcl osei t
.Igo
totheclosest,throwthet owelinthel aundrybasket
andwearat ankt opandbasket ballshor t
s.It
’sbeen
yearssinceIhavesl eptwear ingclothesandIhope
theywon’tchokemeatni ght.

Thewaterissti
llrunningi ntheshower ,
she’snot
doneyet.Igeti
nbedandwai tf
orher .Myphone
keepsbeepingandIknowsomeonesentat ext
message.IignoreitcauseIknowi fi
t’simportant
theper
sonwoul dbecal ling.Ithinkaboutever ythi
ng
shehassaidandIam pi ssed.Ihavet ot al
ktot he
guyscauseIam goi ngtoneedt heirhelp.Iam not
goingt
oki l
lhi
m butIwanthi m, hisfami l
yand
l
esego'
sf amil
ytoseehowhappyIam goi ngt o
makeherandourki ds.Ihavet ot el
ldadabouther
andtheplansIwantt odo.I fit’
smoneyIwi llhave
t
ocoughoutthenthat
’snot
hingcauseI’
m goingto
makesur
ethattheyar
eallmineandthatthutoguy
won’
tonedayshowupandcl ai
mt hem ashis.

Shecomesoutwear ingat inypyj amasetand

closesthebat hroom door .Howt hehel
lam Igoi ng
toignoreallthatski nandcur vesandt hoseni ppl
es
pointi
ngatme? .Damn! .Iclosemyeyesandt akea
deepbr eath.Shegoest ocl oset hebedroom door .
“babydon’ tcloset hebedr oom door .”shel ooksat
meconf used.“wehaveki dsi nthehouseandt hey
arenotyetusedt oal lt
her ooms.Theymi ghtwake
upatni ghtandnotf indyoui nbedandpani c.We
havekidsi nthehousenowandsoourbedr oom
doorisal waysgoi ngt obeopen. ”Iexplai
nt oher
andIdon’ tknowi fsheunder st ands.

“butwhataboutwhenwe…. .”sheasksgetti
ngin
bedandshesighs.Ichuckl
eandpullhercloset
o
me.“whataboutwhatbaby?”Iwanthert osayit
.
“whataboutwhenwear ehavingsexandtheyhear
usorwor
secat
chus.”

“wellIguesswewoul dhavetobenotsol oudand

haveasmuchsexaspossi bl
ewhent heyareat
school.Areyouloudbaby?”hercheeksgetpink
wit
hbl ushes.“Idon’
tknow….Idon’tremember.”
shesays.

“don’tworry,wewi llf
indoutsoonandi fyouar e
thenIwil
lhavet ogagyou.”herbr eathhit
chest hen
shecoversher sel
fwit
ht heduvetl aughi
ng.Iputmy
handsundert heduvetandt ickleherandshe
l
aughssol oud.“shhhyou’ llwaket heki
dsup! .”I
conti
nuet otickleher“stop…Imeangoi ngtopee
onmysel fsiceloI’
m veryticklish!
.”shesays
l
aughingandki cki
ngtheduvetandexposi ngher
l
egs.Istopandcoverusagai n.Shecatchesher
breat
hthenl ooksatme.

“youknowtheonl
ytimeIlaughli
kethis,
iswhen
wearealonei
nourroom andtheytel
li
ngmefunny
stor
iesfr
om schoolormaybewear ejustwatchi
ng
TV.Thankyouf orthissicel
o,foreverything.
”Ipul
l
hertome.“Ihaven’ tevenstart
eddoi nganything
foryouandt hekidsbutyouwi llseeandexper i
ence
i
t.Itakecareofever yonewhoi sclosetomyhear t
andyouandt hekidsar emynumbernow.”she
drawspatternsonmychest .

“youknowIusedt oprayandaskGodt oaskmy

soul
mat etofindmeandsavemef rom t
hemi sery
I’
mlivi
ngunderwi thmykids.Iwouldprayeveryday
andthenIbegant osavesomemoneycauseI
wantedtotakemyki dstoDurbancausethelast
ti
meIwentwaswhenIwast heirageandInever
wentagain.Myf amil
ycomeher everyyearandever
si
nceIfellpregnantIwaslef
tbehind.I
fIknew
soonerthatcominghere,Iwasgoingtomeett he
l
oveofmyl i
fethenIwouldhavecameyear sago.”
shesays.

“It
hinkt
hiswast
her
ightt
imef
orust
omeetcause
webot hneedeachot her.Ihavenotbeent hebest
partnertothepeopleIwasdat i
ngbutIhavegr own
from mymi st
akesandl earnedal otfrom them.DoI
haver egretsonhowIt reatedt hem yesbutt here’
s
nothingIcandoabouti tnow.WhatIcandot hough
i
sbeyourbestl over,part
ner ,bestfriend,husband
andadamngr eatdadt oourki dsl i
kehowmydadi s.
Mydadhast aughtmemanyt hingsandi fIcanbe
halfthemanandf atherhei stoust henIwoul d
knowt hatI’m doi
ngagr eatj obcauset hatmani s
thewor ld’
sgreatestandhei sgoi ngtoembr ace
kagisoandkamoandwel comet hem wi t
hopen
armsandl ove.”sheentwi nesourhands.

“tellmeaboutyousi cel
o.Whoar eyou? .”Ismi l
e
andl ookather .“youshouldhaveaskedmet hat
bef oreyouagr eedtobemywoman.”shepi nches
mychestl aughing.“babystopplaying”Ichuckl e.I
tellhereverythingaboutmegrowi ngupwi t
hmy
par ents,
luhandhowwegotsepar atedthenf i
nding
allofeachot heragainandhow.Mybusi nessand
whatIdo, It
ellherabouttheguys, f
rank,mah, Sims
thenzinhleandayanda, butIdon’tt
ellherabout
howt hemazi buko’
sincludingbuhlebeingdeadand
Ijusttel
lhertheywentmi ssi
ngandIdon’ tsaywho
kil
ledthamiandohPr estonalso,
howcanIf orget
.
Sheknowsever yt
hingaboutmebutnott heill
egal
stufft
hatwedo.

WhenI ’
m doneshei sspeechl ess.“wow, allofyou
guyshavebeent hroughal ot.Thet hingsyouwent
throughandf i
ndingeachot heragai ni sbeaut i
ful
andr are.Ithi
nkI ’
m goi ngtol ovebei ngpar tofyour
fami l
y.Ijustwishmypar entswer el i
ket hattoo.Al
l
ofust oobet ightandhaveeachot her ’
sbacksbut
that’swishfulthi
nki ngbecauset heyal readyhave
thatwi t
heachot herj ustnotwi thme.”Ihat ethat
theyt r
eatedherdi fferent.“i nourf ami lywehave
l
otsofl ovet ogivebaby.I ncl udingl uh’sinlawswi ll
wel comeyouandl oveyout oo.Wewi llalwayshave
yourbackandnomat t
erwhat .”shesqueezesmy
hand.
“Thankyouf ortell
ingmeaboutever yone.Ifeell
ike
Ialreadyknowt hem.”Ican’ twaitforthem tomeet
herandknowhert oo.“Youwi l
lbaby.”Iyawnf uck
I’
mt ired.Shel aughs.“let’
ssleepbef oreyou
swal l
owmyhead”shesaysandmymi ndgoes
thereandbl oodr ushest omydi ck.“seewhatyou
dot ome, t
alkingaboutswal l
owingheads.”she
l
aughs, Igetupt urnthelight
stodi m, pi
ckupa
pil
lowandgeti nbedandputi tbetweenussoshe
won’ tfeelmyhar don.“goodni ghtbabykascel o.”
sheyawst oo.“goodni ghtmaphol oba.”Ikissher
headandspoonher .

Ihearsof tgiggl
esandl aughs.Softl i
ttl
ehandsar e
brushingmybear d.Ismileinsi
decauseIknow
thosesmal lhandsbel ongstothoset womaki ngme
feelold.Iopenmymout hwideandyawnl oadthen
chewonai r.Theylaugh,Iwanttol aught oobutI
don’twantthem t oknowt hatI
’m awake.“mamai s
goingshoutatusf orwakinguncle”kamosays
giggli
ng.“noshewon’ t.She’smaki ngbr eakf
ast
andshet hi
nkswear ebrushingoutt eeth.”kagi
so
says.

“doyout hinkuncl eisgoingt olosehisteethl i

ke
me?”Ial mostl augh.Ipeekatthem andseet hem
onbothmysi des.Theyar eonmychestl ookingat
eachothert alkingaboutmel ikeI’
m nother e.“no
kamo.He’ sagr ownupandgr ownupshavet eeth.”
heshakeshi shead.“butt hatgrandpafrom school
hasnot eethl i
keme?”kagi soshakeshi sheadand
palmshischeek.“hei soldandol dpeopledon’ t
haverealteet h.Theywearf aketeeth.”kamogasps
i
nshockt hem t heygetquietforawhi l
e.“kagi so?”

“hmm?”

“doyouthinkuncleusgoingtobeourdadandhe
wil
ldri
veustoschoolandpi ckusl
iket
heotherki
ds
whohavedads?”t hatbreaksmyheart
.Iwantto
hearwhatkagi
so'sresponseisgoi
ngtobe.“
Idon’t
knowkamo.Iwi shhewasourdad.”
“doyouknowourdad?”sheaskshi m andIwonder
i
flesegohaseverhadt hi
stalkwit
hkidsbutIguess
notcausei fshehast
hentheywouldn’tbetal
king
aboutit.“Idon’
tknowhim.”theykeepquiett
henI
openmyeyesandyawnl oudagain.Istar
tl
ethem
thentheylaugh.“goodmor ni
ngkids?”

“goodmorni
nguncl
e”theybothsaysi
ngi
ng.I
smil
e.“di
dyouhaveagoodsleep?”

“
wedi
duncl
e.Mamai
smaki
ngbr
eakf
astf
orus.”

“yummyandIam sohungr y.Ifeell

ikeeati
ng
someone. ”Theybothscream laughing.
”whatwer e
yout wodoingplayingwit
hmybear dwithyourli
ttl
e
handshmmm? ,I
’
m goingtot i
ckleyouunti
lyou
havehai ronyourfacetoo”Igr abbothofthem and
tickl
ethem andtheylaugh.Iletthem goandthey
jumpof fthebedandr unout.Igetupandf oll
ow
them andt heyar erunningt otheirmotherlaughi ng.
Ihearherr eprimandingt hem tost oprunningi nthe
house, t
hest air
sandi nt hekitchen.Shei sright
causet heymi ghtgetbur ntwi t
hsomet hing.Ir ound
thekitchenislandandseet hatshe’ swear i
ngmyT-
shirtandherpyj amabot toms.Shel ooksso
freaki
ngsexy.“goodmor ningmommy”shel aughs.
Ikissheront heli
psbef oresheevengr eetsback.
Theki dsgigglelookingatusandt hei
rmom bl ushes.
“reall
y?Inf r
ontoft hekids?”Ipeckhercheekand
theyallgiggle.“theyhavet ogetusedt ouski ssing
andshowi ngphysicalcont actli
kehugsandki sses
soi twil
lnotbeawkwar df orallofuswhent heysee
usdoi ngthat.”shenods.“ki dslet’sgotot hel i
ving
room andhaveameet ing.Mommyswi t
cht hest ove
off.”shedoes.

Weallgototheli
vingr
oom andwehel pt hekidssi
t
down.“soonceaweekwear egoingtohavea
meeti
ngandeveryonewil
ltellushowwespentour
weekatschoolandatworkrightguys?
.”t heynod.
“thef
ir
strul
eofeverymorningisweki ssmommy
goodmor ni
ng,hugherandaskhowsheslept
,we
greeteachot
herandhugeverydayi
nthemorning.”

“yesuncl e”theysay.“okki ds, youar egoingtodo

onegoodt hi
ngever ydayandwhenwehavea
meet i
ngonSunday, youwilltelluswhatyoudi d.
Youcandoanyt hingfrom hel pi
ngmommywi tht he
chores, brushingschoolshoesormaki ngsur ethat
yourroomsar ecleanandyourt oysar ewher ethey
stay.Whenyoudot hat,mommyanddaddywi l
lpay
you.Youwi l
learnmoneydoi ngyourchor esont op
ofyourpocketmoney.”f uckt hatjustslippedout
butitfeltrightandIdi dn’
tpl anonsayi ngit.Ihope
l
esegoi snotmadatmecauseIdi dn’ttal
kt oher
aboutt his.Shel ooksatmeshockedandt earswel l
i
nhereyes.It akeherhandI ’
mr el
ievedwhenshe
doesn’tsnat chi tback.

“mommyar eyousad?”kagisoasksherandshe
shakesherheadnoandwi peshertear
s.“ki
dscan
yougoandbr ushyourt
eeth.Uncl
ewant st
otal
kto
mommy?.”Theystandupandbegi
ntor
un“no
r
unni
ng.”Itel
lthem.Theywal
k.

“I’m sorr
ylesego.Thatjustsl
ippedoutandIdi
dn’t
planonsayi ngthatbuti
tjusthappenedandI…..”
shesi l
encesmebyput t
ingherhandonmymout h.

“siceloyout al
kal otaboutthefut
ur eandI ’
m
scaredthatt hi
sistoogoodt obet r
ue.Thi ngsli
ke
thi
sdon’ thappeninmyl i
feandI’m scaredthat
oncewel eavehere….You…youwi llfor
getaboutus
andt hatwillnotonlybreakmebuti twillverymuch
hurtmyki ds.”Isighfrustr
ated.

Itakeherhandsi nmi neandmakeherl ookatme.

“womanIl oveyouandIwantyouandourki dsin
myl i
feeverydayofmyl i
fe.Theyarenowmyki ds
toolesego.Ilovethem li
keIloveyou.Imean
everyt
hingIam sayi ngtoyou.Thepr omisesand
everyt
hingImeant hem.Iam nottryi
ngt ocharm
youjusttogetsomet hi
ngf r
om you.Iknowlifehas
beencr uelandunkindtoal lofyoubutt hatst opped
themomentyouaccept edmei nyourl ives.Iwant
them tocallmedadbecauseIam af athert ot hem
now.Idon’ twantmyki dstocal lmeuncl e.Iam not
goingtobeast epf at
hertot hem, Iam theirf ather.
Myl i
fehasbeenf il
ledwi t
hsomuchhappi nessever
sinceImetyou, gir
lI’
m evenwaki ngupl at
eandI
don’tdot hat
.I’
m aski
ngyout oputf ait
handt rusti
n
ourlovebaby.Iloveyoul esegopl easebel ieveme. ”
ShesobsandIhol dher.

“Ibeli
eveyou.I’
m notmadaboutyouwant ingthem
tocal
lyoudad.It hinkit’
sbeaut
iful.I
’m gi
vingyou
myhear tsi
cel
o.Pl easedon’tbr
eaki t
.”I’mreli
eved.
“I’
l
lgcr azyi
fyoul eaveme”shegi ggl
es.She
doesn’
tknowt hatI’l
lli
ter
all
ygocr azy.

“weneedt otalktothekidsaboutthei
rbiological
father
.Theywer einourbedroom andtheyt hought
thatIwassleepingandtheytalkedabouttheydon’t
knowt hei
rdadandt heyarecuriousbecauset hey
seeot herki dswitht
heirf
ather
’sbutt
heir
si snotin
theirlives.”Sheshakesherhead.“whatdoIsay
sicelo? ,t
hebot hoft
hem canneverknowhowkamo
wasconcei vedandIdon’
twanthimintheirli
ves.I
don’t!.”

“heyit’sokay.Wewi l
lfi
gureitoutbabyIpr omise.”
shenods.“wi pet hosetearsonyourbeaut if
ulface
andlet’seatbreakfastasaf amil
y.Wewi llhavea
braaij
ustt hefourofusandspendt i
met ogetheras
afamilybef or
eIdr i
veyoubackt omor r
ow.”she
nodsandgetup.Theki dscomeandIhel pherpl ate
food.“boyboygoandgetmyphonei nour
bedroom anddon’ trun.“yesdad”hesays.I
chuckle.Thisisloveandpur ejoy.Imoutht hank
youtol esego.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER46.

SI
CELO.
Thekidshavebeenqui etsincetheywokeupand
theyarenotplayingorsayinganythi
ng.Itri
edto
tal
ktothem andt heyarejustgi
vingmeyesandno
answers.Theymustr eall
yhatewher etheyli
ve.
Eventheirmotherisquietandshekeepst ouching
herneck.Ireal
lydon’tli
kehowt heyareallf
eeli
ng.If
i
twasupt ome, theywouldn’
tbegoingbackhome
atall
.ButIhavet odothingsproperl
yandi t
’sonly
twomont hsleftbefor
etheschoolclosesandt he
holi
daysbegin.

I’
m drivi
ngthem backhomewi t
hCel esteandt he
guysf ol
lowi
ngmebehi nd.Shei nsi
stedt hatshe
comes.Radi o2000f i
ll
st hecarwi t
ht heirsoothi
ng
sounds.Ilookbackandt hekidsaresl eeping.I
entwineourhandst ogetherandshesi ghs.“you
couldhavetoldmenott otakeyoubackhomebaby.
”shel ooksatmet henl ooksahead.

“wehavet ogobacksicel
o.Thekidsst
il
lhave
schoolandIhaveajobwaiti
ngformetoo.”she
soundsdepr
essed.

“Iknowbabybutlookonthebrightsi
de.Int
wo
monthstheschoolcl
osesfort
hehol i
daysandt
hat
meansyouandt heki
dscancomeandspendal lthe
hol
idayswit
hmei nDurban.”

“Iknowbaby.Ijustwi
sht
hingswer
edi
ff
erentyou
know.”shesays.

“di
ff
erenthowl
esego?”shel
ooksatme.

“Iwishwedi dn’
thavetogoback.Ourkidshave
neverbeenthishappyandnowyouseehow
depressedtheyarebecausewearegoingback
ther
e.Itdoesn’
tevenfeell
ikehomeanymore.I’
m
j
ustwor ri
edthatwhenwegett her
e,t
hingsmightbe
worseforus.”
“didyoutel
lthem wher
eyouar
egoi
ng?”she
shakesherhead.

“It
oldmyyoungestsi st
erbutIdoubtshetoldt
hem.
Idi
dn’tt
ellt
hem becauseIwasscaredthatthey
woulddemandthemoneyIwassavi ngforthet
ri
p
andwewoul dn’
thavemetyouand….”

“hey,wewoul dhavemetsomehowcauseIbel i
eve
thatmyancestorswoul dhavemadeapl anforme
tomeettheirdaughterin-
law.I’
m notgoing
anywherelesegoandyourf amil
ywi l
lknowthat
.”I
tel
lherf
irmly.Wear einPietermari
tzburgnowandI
thi
nkofstoppingbutIdon’ twanttowaket heki
ds.I
wantustodr i
vestraightt
oBet hl
ehem andgetthere.

“whatwereyoubusywithinthemorni
nginyour
off
icecauseyout
alkedalotonthephone?
.”soshe
noti
ced.
“Iwasdealingwi t
hwor kstuffandItalkedto
mbuso.Iwant edtoknowhowever ythingisgoi ng
withluhandherpr egnancycauseshei sst i
llonbed
rest.Mbusoisfrustr
atedcausemysi sterdecidedto
renovatet
heirbedroom andthekitchen.Mbuso
hatesitwhentherearestrangersinhishouse. ”I
chuckle

“hesoundsli
keheval
uest
heirpri
vacy.Actual
lyI
thi
nkal
lofyoudofr
om whatIhavegathered.”

“wedobaby.Love,
honesty,
trustandl
oyalty.
That
’sal
lwewantandwhatIneedf rom you.”I
hopesheget
swhatI’mtr
yingtosay.

“don’tworrybaby.Iwil
lnevershar eyoursecretsor
family’
ssecret
sandbet rayallofyou.Iam abadl i
ar
sicel
osoi fi
tdoeshappent hatyoudosomet hing
i
llegalpl
easedon’ttel
lmei ncaset hepoli
cecome
toaskmequest ions.Ihavethewor stpokerface.”
wowshehasj ustsurpr
isedmewi t
ht hi
s.
“whatgi
vesyoutheideathatmaybeonedaythe
pol
icemi
ghtcomeandknockatourdoor ?”she
gi
vesmethereal
lylook?

“pleasesicel
o.Youhavesecur i
tydet
ailalways
foll
owinguswher everwegolikeevennow.Iknow
Celestei
slikeyourbodyguardorsomet hingand
thatmeanst herearethi
ngsshe’sgoi
ngt odofor
you.Youar eri
chsiceloandri
chpeoplealways
haveenemi es.”Isqueezeherhand.

“nothi
ngwi l
leverhappentoyouandt heki
ds.Even
whenI’m nottherej
ustknowthatt
herearepeople
whowi l
lalwaysbewat chi
ngoveryouandyou
mightnotseet hem butt
heywil
lbethere.
”

“youcantrustmesi
cel
o.I’
vegotyoubaby.
Whateveryouneedf
rom me,I
’
llberi
ghther
e.”
“Youdon’tknowhowhappyitmakesmef eelt
o
hearyousaythat
.”Iki
ssherhand.“aret
hekids
nothungr
yorwanttogotothetoil
et?
.”

“theywi l
lwakeupandt ellus,don’tworryabout
them.Theysl eptthewhol ewayt oowhenwewent
toDur ban.”shesays.Wedr iveandt hemor eweget
closer,t
hetensel esegogets.Wear efi
nall
yin
Bethlehem almostf i
vehour slat
er.Thisplaceisf
ar
butforthem Iwilldrivedown.

“wearefinal
lyhere.Di
rectmet oyourplace,
isitin
thel
ocati
on?”shenods.“l esego,ar
eyouokay?”
shenodsagain.Iknowshe’ snot.“t
ellmethatyou
don’
twanttogobackt oyourhouseandIwon’ ttake
youther
e.”

“Ihaveto.Canyoudropusli
kearoundthecor
ner.I
don’
twantt hem t
oseeusget
tingoffi
nthi
sfancy
carofyours.”
“Why?”Iwasn’tal
thoughIwantt
obutdadwould
ki
llmef
ordisr
espectinganot
herman’
shouseagai
n.

“pleasebaby.Itwilljustcausepr oblemsf orme.”

shebegsme.Idr ivear oundasshedi rectsmet oa
garageandpar kt
her e.Cel este’
scarpar kt ooand
wait?.Ist
hatmbuso' scar ?.Itmustbef rankcause
hesomet i
mesdr i
vesi t.Ilookatl esego“I ’m going
toaskCelestetocomei nt hecarandshe’ sgoi ngto
siti
nt hef
rontandyou’ llsitwiththeki dsintheback.
Wear egoingtodropyouof fandmaket hem think
thatwegaveyour idebackandCel esteisyour
fri
end.”shekeepsqui et .

“Andwhatwi l
lshebetoyou?”Il
augh.“areyou
feel
ingjeal
ousbaby?,youdorememberthat
Celest
ei salesbi
an.”

“Butt
heywon’
tknowt
hatshei
s?”she’
ssul
king
anditi
scute.Ipul
lherbyhernapeandki
ssher
.
“doesitmatt
erthatt
heyknowbaby?”

“Noi tdoesn’
t.”Ikissheragain.“thenstop
worryingaboutpeoplewhodon’ tgi
vetwocent s
aboutyouandourki ds.Wear egoingtodr opyou
offatthegatebutfi
rstl
yIwantt owaket hekidsup
andsaygoodbye. ”Shenods.Iswi t
chtheengi neof
f
andwebot hgetoutofthecarandopent heback
setdoorsandt heyyawnandwakeup.

“daddyar
eweal
readyher
e?”kagi
soasksme

“heychamp, don’
tyouwanttogotothebathr
oom
fi
rst?”heshakeshishead“nodad.”hesayssadly.
Ilookatkamoandl esegopi
cksherup.“I
’
m going
totakehertothet
oilet
.”.

“okbaby.”Isi
tint
hebackseatwi
thkagi
so.He
l
ookssosad.“what’
swrongchamp?”Iaskhim.
.
Hel
ooksatmeandIseet
hathewant
stocr
y.

“ar
eyougoingtoleaveusandnevercomebackt
oo?
”Itakeadeepbreat
h.

“NochampI ’
m not
.YouaremykidsandI’
l
lnever
l
eaveyou.Il
oveyoukagi
so.”Iwi
pehist
eardrop.
“butyoudon’
tli
veher
ewithusandyouaregoing
back.
”

“Thatdoesn’tmeant hatyouwi l
lneverseeme
againchamp.”hi stear
sfallanditisbreakingmy
heart.“Iwantt oli
vewithyouandmamaandkamo.
Idon’twanttogobackdaddypl ease!”Ifeell
ikemy
heartisbeingr i
ppedoutofmychest .Ipickhim up
andhehugsmever yti
ghtandsobs.Il ookat
Celestewhohasbeenl ist
eningandhereyesar e
tearytoo.Icl
osemyeyesandonef all
s.Iwipei tof
f.
Lesegocomesbackandsheal solookslikeshewas
cryi
ngi nthetoil
ets.Shegetsin,Itakekamof rom
herandhugal lofthem.Myf ami l
y.Iheartheirsoft
sobsbutt
heyar
egutwr
enchi
ng.

Thisfeelslikethehar destdecisi
onIhaveever
madei nmyl if
e.Ididn’tknowbeingapar entwas
thishard.Seeingyourki dcryandbeggi ngt onot
l
eavet hem i sveryhard.NowIunder standwhy
bongawasupsett hatSimsl eftt
hekidsbehi nd.I
kisstheirforehead.“kidslookatme.”myl ittl
e
Angel’sfacei ssor ed.Iki
sshercheeks.“don’ tcry
myl i
ttl
eangel .Daddywi l
lal
waysbeher ef oryouno
mat t
erwher ehel i
ves.Whent heschoolclosesf or
theholidaysIwi llcomeandgetyouandt akeyout o
yourhomei nDur banok? .”

“yesdaddy.”shesays.Ilookatlesegoandshehas
herheadburi
edonmychest .“kagisoIneedyouto
bestrongandbethemanoft hehousewhi l
edaddy
i
snother et
owatchoveryouunt ilIcomebackto
getyou.Canyoudothat?.”

“yesdaddy”hesays.Myl
it
tl
eman.“andmom,
I
needyout obest rong.Takecar eofmyki dsunt ilI
comebackandt akemyf ami l
ybackwi thmehome.
Canyoudot hatl esego?”shenods.Ihat ethis.I
reall
yhatethis!.“Cel esteyouknowt hedirection.
Drive.”shewi peshert earsthendr ivesout .Ihave
myar mswr appedar oundmyf ami l
yandever ytime
thecartakesacor nermyhear tfeelsli
kei tisbeing
stabbedwi t
hkni vesandi tmakesi tharderf ormet o
breath.Ican’
tbr eakdownandcr yi nfrontoft hekids.
Theyneedmet ost rongandi fIbreakdownnow
theynotbeabl et ohandl ei tandcr y.Itakeadeep
breathinandt henout .

Thecarstopsandshesnakesherarm ar
oundmy
waistti
ghtandtheki
dshol
dmet ight
.Ihugthem
ti
ghttoo.“bossweareher
e.”Inod.

“rememberwhatdaddyt ol
dyou.Itdoesn’
tmatt
er
whereIam becauseIl
oveyoual lver
ymuch.You
aremyf amil
yandIwil
lneverleaveyouorfor
get
aboutyou.Promisemethatyouwi l
lal
waysknow
thatandr
ememberit
.”Theynod.“myl
it
tl
eangel
kamo.Daddyl
ovesyouokay?”

“Il
oveyoutoodaddy.”shesayssni ffi
ng.“give
daddyahugandaki sshere.”shelaughs.“no
daddyyouhairwil
lgrowonmyf acetooifIkissit
.”
shesays.“whereareyougoingtokissmet hen?”I
askher.
.Shegiggl
es.“here.”sheplaceshersof t
handsabovemybear d.Palmsmyf ace,kissesmy
for
eheadandthengivesmeahug.“Il oveyout oo
daddy.”pur
elove.Youcan’tbuythat.

Ilookatkagisoandhiseyesarepleadingwithme.I
don’twanttodisappoi
nthim butIhavetodot hi
s
ri
ght.“mylit
t l
eman.Youar egoingtobestrongjust
l
ikemeyourdad.Ther earemanyt hingswear e
goingtodotogetherli
kefat
herandson.Butf orme
todothatdadhast odothingstherightwayforall
ofusokay?”

“okdad.
”Iwonderi
fmydadwaseverf
acedwi
th
somethingsimilartothi
s.“Il
oveyouchampdon’ t
for
getthatorletanyoneelsetel
lyouit
’snott
rue.”
hewipeshi st
ear sthenhugsme.“Iloveyoutoo
daddy.I’
llt
akecar eofmom andkamo.”Ihughi m
ti
ghtandclosemyeyes.

Ilookatt hisbeaut i
f ul,
strongandwonder fulwoman
nextt ome.Shehasbeenwi pinghert earsever
sincewegother e.Herl ifehasbeenf ill
edwithpain
andmi seryandIpr omi sedhert otakeawayal lof
thatbuti tfeelsli
keI ’mf ail
inghercauseI ’
mt aking
herbackwher eshei snotwant ed.“mamakagi so
nokamohel o.Uyimbokodowena, i
ndlovukaziyami.
Laphaenhl izweniyamikubusawenakuphel amama.
Konkeosondl ul
ekukokukwenzewabayi l
omunt u
onguyenamhl anje.Unot hando, unozwelo.
Ungumamaoqot hoandngi yabongangokukhul isa
l
ezizinganezet huuwedwakunganamunt u
okusizayo.Musaukukhal ast handwasami .
Izi
nyembezizakhozi zosul wayi mi na.Kudalaukhala
uNkul unkuluekul aleleuhl alaukhal akuye.Wakuzwa,
wat humel aabaphansibasekhayaukut hi
bangitsheleukuthiwenauyangidinga.Sengi
khona
sthandwasami .Kusukel
amanj euzokhala
i
zinyembezizenj abul
o.Ngiyakuthandakakhulu
maMot aung.”

Translation:“kagi soandkamohel o’smot her.You

areast rongwoman.Myqueen.Youar et heonly
onewhohasmyhear tlesego.Ever ythingyouhave
experi
encedi nyourl ifemadeyout heper sonyou
aretoday.Youar eal oving,caringwomanandyou
sympat hisewi thot hers.Youar eagr eatmot herto
ourkidsandIt hankyouf orraisingourki dsal one
withnoonet ohel pyou.Don’ tcr ymyl ove,Iam here
nowt owi peawayyourt ears.Godhashear dyour
cri
esandpr ayers.Hesentmyancest or stome, t
o
tel
lmet hatyouneedme.Iam her enowmyl ove.
From nowonwar dsyouwi l
lonl ycryt earsofj oy.I
l
oveyoumaMot aung.”sheki ssesmet hensobsi n
mychest .

“Il
oveyout
ooMaphol
oba.”wehugandst
aysi
lent
.
Nowt hisisthehar dpart.Letti
ngthem go.“l
et’
sget
outoft hecar .”kagisoshakeshi shead.“nodaddy
please!.Takeuswi thyou!.Iwanttogowi thyou!”
hesayscr yi
ng.Mychamp.Cel estegetsourofthe
carandcomest oopenmysi deofthedoor.Ist
ep
outcar eful
lywat chingtheirheadscauseIhave
bothmyki dsonmychest .Ilookaroundandsee
thatthecar shavedr awnoutsomeat t
enti
on.Il
ook
behindmeandseembusoandbonga.Mybr other
s
areher ewi t
hme.It earup.Theycomeandputbot h
theirhandsonshoul der
sof f
eringsupport
.

Cel est
et akesthei rbagsoutoft hecarandputt hem
closet othegat e.Iseepeopl ecomi ngoutoft he
house.Onl ysi
lentt earsarefalli
ngof flesego’sface.
Iputt hekidsdownandcr oucht otheirlevel.Ihug
them t i
ghtandki ssbot ht
heirheads.“Il oveyou
guys.”It ellt
hem t heyarenowsni ffing.Itrytoget
upbutt heydon’ twantt oletgoofme.“ki dswe
talkedaboutt his”myvoi ceisbr eaking.Theysl owly
l
etgot hengot ot heirmother.“heyl ookatme?”I
palm herf ace.Shel ooksup.Hereyesar esor ed.“I
willcallyouandr emembereveryt
hingItoldyou
okaymyl ove?”shenods.Iki
ssherthenhugher
ti
ght .It’
shardtoletgobutwemust .“pl
easetake
theki ds.Idon’twantt
osaygoodbyet othem.”my
tearsf all
.Shelooksatmeandwi pesthem.

Shet akesbot hoft hei

rhandsandkagi solosesit
andscr eams.“daddypl ease!Pleasedaddy!”Il ook
athi m andtheconnect ionIhavewi t
hhi mi svery
strong.Hi sgutwr enchi
ngcr i
est earever ywallI
haveeverbui l
taroundmysel f.“Ican’twat chthis!”
bongasaysandl eaves.Iwatchl esegodr agkagi so
byf orceandmyl itt
leangeli
sj ustwat chingme
crying.Myt earsfallandIdon’tbot herwi pi
ngt hem
off.Iwantt hem toseet hati
tiski l
li
ngmeand
hur t
ingmel ikethem.

“Qinandoda.Wewi l
lfi
xeverythi
ng.Ipromiseyou
brother.”(bestr
ongman. )Ihearkagisoagai
n
screami ngmynameandIj ustcan’
ttakeit
.Igeti
n
thefrontseatofthepassengerseatandbreak
down.Ihearthedoorcl osingandanengineroar
ing.
“si
celoareyousureaboutt hi
s?.”mbusoasksme.I
nod.Hecurses.Her eversesthendri
ves.I
t’
sli
keI’m
l
eavingmyhear t
,li
feandabandoni ngmyf amil
y.
Thi
sf eel
swrong.Ican’t!.

“whatt heFuck?!”mbusosaysandst opsthecar.I

l
ookathi mt henlookatthebackandseekagi so
runningbehindthecarcryingandl esegoisrunni
ng
afterhim andanothermant ooisrunningaftert
hem.
Webot hgetoutandrun.Irunt okagiso,pi
ckhim up
andgi vehimtombuso, hegi veshimt obonga.Irun
tothemanchasi ngaf t
erlesegoandgetbet ween
them.

“whothefuckar
eyouandmyareyouchasi
ng
them?”Ir
oar.Hest
opsandl
ooksatme.

“Iam herbr
other
,whothefuckar
eyou?”ignore
hi
m.“lesegowhereiskamo?”Iaskher
.“she’s…
She’
sinthehouse.”
“goandgetmychildorIsweartoGodIwi l
lgeti
n
ther
eandtakehermysel
f!.”It
ellher
.Cel
estepul
ls
herandt
heyleave.

“whothefuckareyouandwhatar
eyoudoi
ngwi
th
mysist
er’
schil
dren?”

“voet
sekmsunu!.”mbusosaystohi
m.Iwi
llki
ll
thi
sguyri
ghther
ei fhest
andsi
nmyway.

“heywhot hehel
ldoyout hi
nkyouaret
alki
ngtome
l
ikethat
?”hesaysshouting.Onethi
ngyounever
everdoisshoutatmbusounlessyourl
uhbutshe
alsodoesn’
tshoutathi
m.

“sayonemor ethingoutofyoursti
nki
ngmout hand
yourfamilywil
lbur yyounextweek.”Itellhi
m.That
shutshim up.Celestecomesbackwi t
hl esegoand
kamowi ththeirbags.Kamor unst
omeandcl i
ngs
fordearl
if
e.Ihol
dmyl i
tt
leangelt
ight
.Igotothe
carwhenkagisoi
ssti
llcryi
ngandhejumpst ome.I
grabhimtooandgeti
nt hecarwit
hmyki ds.

Lesegocomesi ntooandsit
s.Mbusoisdri
vingand
Celest
eissi
tti
ngont hef
rontwit
hhim.Bongagoes
tombuso'scar.“wheret
onowbr ot
her?”mbuso
asksme.

“dr
ivet
olesegohouse.”shest
opscryi
ngandl
ooks
atmeshocked.Ipul
lhert
omet oo.

“Iwasn’tleavi
ng.Icoul
dneverl
eaveyouguys.
”I
tel
lthem andholdmykidstomychestandcomf or
t
them.
CHAPTER47.

SI
CELO.
“whatdoyoumeanwear egoi
ngtomyhouse
si
cel
o?”shehiccups.“st
opcryi
ngbaby.Theki
ds
don’
tli
ketoseeyoucryi
ng.Wewillt
alkwhenweget
home.”shenods.

“daddy?”kamocall
sme.Ilookatmbusoandhe
smil
es.“yesmyli
tt
leangel
?”

“areyousadt oo?”sheasksmeandIsmi l
e.“Iam
angel.Butdaddywi l
lbefine.”shenods.“it’
sokay
tocrydaddy.”Ichuckleandki ssherfor
ehead.Ilook
atkagisoandhi sheadisonmychest .Hehas
stoppedcryi
ngbutIsensehi sanger.Heisvery
angry.Iki
sshisheadandsi gh.Mbusodr i
ves
aroundthendrivesintothishousehesentme
pict
uresof.

Itishugeandbeautif
ulandIknowt hati
tismy
sisterwhofoundit
.Hepar ksout
sidethegar
age.
“babyt aket
hekidsandgocheckoutyournew
home. ”Mbusogivesherthekeys.Shenodsand
takest
hem.“kidsgowithmom t
othehouse.Iwant
total
kwi t
hyouruncl
es.
”Kagi
soshakeshi
sheadno
andrefuses.

“kagisoI’
m notleavingyouson.Wewi l
lbeherein
thecar.”hesti
llshakeshisheadno.“canIst ay
withyouheredaddypl ease?”heaskedmet his
onceandIt ol
dhi m somethingelseandnowt hat
he’saski
ngmeagai n,Icannotrefusehi
m andsay
not wi
ce.”

“okchamp.Babytakekamoandgoint
hehouse.
Cel
estewi
llbewit
hyou.”shenods.

“Ijustwant
edt osaythankyouallf
orbeingher e.I
knowyoudon’ tknowmebutwhatyoudi dforallof
ustodayIwil
lneverforget
.ThankyouandI ’m sorr
y
meet i
ngyouforfir
stt
imewasl i
kethis.”shesays
tombusoandbonga.Idon’ tl
iket
hatshel ooks
ashamed.
“don’teverapologi
zeforasit
uati
onyouhadno
contr
oloverandneverf eel
ashamedar oundus.
Youar eourfamilynowandwhat everyougo
thr
ough, weallexper
iencei
twithyou.”Mbuso
ssays“thankyou”shesays.

“thesekidsar ealsoourkidsnow.Wewi lldo

anythingtoprotectyouandourki ds.Noone
messeswi t
hourf ami l
y.”bongasays.I’
mr eall
y
gratefult
ohavet hem inmyl if
e.“thankyouagai n.”
shet akeskamoandt heygot othedoor.She
unlocksthehouset hengetsin.Iseehershoul ders
shaking.She’scrying.Theygetinandcl oset he
doorbehi ndthem.

Il
ookatmybr ot
hersandsigh.Iam soemot
ional
ly
dr
ainedandverymad.“thankyouforbei
nghere
wi
thme.Idon’tknowwhatIcouldhavedoneifyou
werenother
e.”
“wear ebrother
sandyouknowweal wayshave
yourback.Wewoul dn’
tletyoucomeher eal
one
aftertell
inguswhatwashappeni ngtot hem.”
bongasays.Inod.“howdi dyouf i
nduscauseI
didn’ttel
lyouwherewewer ei
nther oad.”Iask
them.

“youknowI’mtr
ackingever
yone.Wedr ovehere
befor
eyouthenfol
lowedyoutothegarage.Ihadto
seeformysel
fandfindoutmoreaboutthem.”I
knewhewoulddothat.

“t
hankyoubrother
s.Thankyou.”t
heynod.“we
wil
ltal
koncet
hisli
tt
lemanlet’
sgoofme.”they
smil
e.

“your
eall
yaregreatwit
hthem.Thel
oveyouall
havef
oreachotherisamazi
ngmam.I’m happyf
or
youbr
other
sIreall
yam.”Mbusosays.
“Iunderst
andnowwhybongawasmadwhenSi ms
didn’
tshowupwiththekids.IthoughtIwasgoing
tohaveaheartat
tackseeingthem inthatst
ate.”I
tel
lthem.

“yeahmanwhenki dsl
oveyou,
theywholeheart
edl
y
l
oveyou.Il
ovethoseboysman.Iwoulddo
anythi
ngf
orthem.”wenodandt hengetsi
lent
.

“daddy?”kagi sosayslookingupatme.“hey
champ? , youf eeli
ngbetternow?”hedoesn’ tsay
anything.I’m wor r
iedabouthim.“unclehitmama
andgr andmapushedkamoandshef el
l.Grandpa
wantedt ohi tmamat oobutIr anawaytotellyou
thattheywer ehur t
ingt
hem daddy.Iwasscar ed
daddy.”Ibr inghi mt omychestandhol dhim.“i t
’s
okaychamp.Daddyandyouruncl eswi
llfi
xitokay?
”heagr ees.“yesdaddy. ”

WhatIfeelnowisnothi
ngcomparedt
owhatI
t
houghtIfelt
.I’
m enr
agedandIwantbl
ood.“go
andbewi thyourf ami
ly.There’sfoodint hehouse.
Theyneedyounowmor ethanever .We'vegotthis.
”
Mbusosays.HeknowswhatIwantandIknowhe
willgetandputhi m somewher e.“Thankyou
brothers.
”Igetoutoft hecarandgot othehouse.
Thehousei sstil
lemptybutt omor rowwehave
someshoppi ngt odo.Wef oll
owt heirvoicesandi t
soundsl iketheyar ei
nabedr oom.Atl eastt hey
boughtusabed.Ichuckl e.Iopent hedoorandwe
fi
ndt hem sitt
ingdownont hecar petandt here’
sa
picnictypeoft hi
nggoingont here.Iplacekagiso
downt akeof fmyshoes, hedoest hesameandwe
si
tdownandj ointhem.

“whatdowehaveher e.OhIam sohungr y”Isay.

Kamoget supfr
om whereshewassi tt
ingandsits
onmyl ap.“wearehavi
ngapi cni
cdaddy,look
ther
e’ssomuchfoodforallofus.”Ibi
tasamosa

“anditt
ast
esyummy.Solet
’ssitdownandhavea
meeti
ng.”l
esegol
ooksatme,kamogetsupand
sitsdownandl ooksser i
ous.Ichuckl eandshe
showsmeherper f
ectsmi l
e.Lesegoi snotokayat
allbutshe’sput t
ingabr avefrom f orthekid’ssake.
Itakeherhand.“sodadwoul dliketoapol ogizeto
allofyouf orwhathappenedatyourgr andparents
house.I ’
m sor ryItookyout hereandl eftyou.I
didn’tfeelr
ightl eavingyoubehi ndandj ustasIwas
tost opthecar ….I .
.sawyouguysr unni ngtothecar
andt hatwillhauntme.Iwasnotl eavingyoumy
kids.Iwant edt osur pri
seyout omor row.Iwas
goingt oshowupi nt hemorninganddr i
veyout o
school .
”Thei reyesgethugewi thexci tementeating
theirsandwi ches.“Iwasgoi ngtocomeandpi ck
youupf rom schoolwi t
hmom andt henIwasgoi ng
tosur pri
seyouagai nandbringyouher eandshow
youyournewhousedaddyboughtf ormommyand
you.”t heyscr eam getupexci tedlyandat t
ackme
withhugsandki sses.Ilaughoutl oud.

“reall
ydaddy? ,
thi
sisourhouseandwear egoi
ng
toli
veher e?”kagi
soasksmewi t
hsomuch
enthusiasm.“yeschamp.Youareneverevergoi
ng
tol
ivewi
thyourgr
andpar
ent
s.Thi
sisyournew
home.”f
ornow.

“wowandwegett ochooseoutownrooms?”he
asksagainandIchuckl
e.“yeschamp.”theyl
etgo
ofmeandsi tdown.“daddyIwantthi
sroom t
obe
myr oom.”kamosayslicki
ngherhands.

“nobaby.Thisisourroom.Meandyourdadar e
goingtobesleepinghere.”shel
ooksatus
fr
owning.“Iwillsl
eepwi t
hyouanddaddyt hen.”
shesays.LesegoandIl ookateachotherandsmile.
“onlybabi
essleepwi t
ht hei
rpar
entskamo.”kagiso
says.

“I’m notababy!
.I’
m abiggirlri
ghtdaddy?”ki ds.
“youar emyangelandbi ggirl
shavet heirown
roomsandsl eepalone.”shehuffs.“okdaddyI ’
ll
sleepinmyr oom andIpromiseIwon’ tcry.”I
chuckle,kagi
soroll
shiseyes.Wel augh.Ilove
thesekids.Mykids.Myf ami
ly.“buttonightweare
allgoi
ngtosl
eepinhere.Wehavet ogoandbuy
youpyjamas.”t
heyexclai
m exci
ted.

“doyoual
lfor
giveme?”Iaskt
hem.

“yesdaddy”t
heysi
ng.Lesegonods.

Wef i
nisheati
ngthenwegetup, wearourshoesand
l
eave.Mbuso, bongaandCelestear
eout si
detal
king.
“wantt oj
oinusforshoppi
ngandmaybehavea
bit
etoeatbeforeyouguysdriveback?”Ilookatthe
ti
meit’
sstil
learl
y.Mbusocanmakei thomeby7pm
i
fheleavesaround5pm.

“let
’sgoguysbutIwon’ teattoomuchcausemy
wifewoul dl
it
erall
ykil
lmei fIt
ellherI’
m noteati
ng
herfood.”wel augh.Igetinmycarandmyf amily
ri
deswi thme.Wedr i
vetot hemal landtheki
dsar e
soexcitedtheycan’tevenhi dit
.Theirmother
howeveri sadiff
erentstory.“l
ove?”shesmi l
esbut
i
tdoesn’
treachherbi
gbeaut
ifuleyes.“canyoutry
tobehappyandexcit
edf
orthekidscausei ft
hey
seeyousadandnotexci
tedl
ikethem, theywi
llnot
enj
oythi
s.”shepalmsmybear d.

“whywoul dIneedt opr etendwhenI ’m al

ready
happy.Iwi shyoucoul dseet hehappi nessthatI’
m
feeli
ngi nsi
de.Si cel
omanl ikeyouar erareandhar d
tofind.Ipromi seyout hatIwi l
lneverdisappoint
you.I’l
lshowyouever ydayt hatyoumadet heri
ght
decisionbyl ovingallofus.Iwi shIcoul drepayyou
forwhatyouhavedonef orme.”ohl esegoi sst
il
l
scaredandt hinksthatal loft hisi
sgoi ngt obe
takenawayf rom her .Theonl ywayt hatcoul dbe
achievedi sifsomeoneki l
lsmebutt hatsti
llwon’
t
makehergobackt ot helifeshewasl i
vingbecause
shewi llbefuckenr ich, wellshei srichnow.She
justdoesn’tknowi tyet .Ismi le.

“whatar
eyousmil
ingabout
?”sheasksme.“Iwas
thi
nki
ngofawayyoucanrepayme.
”Shelaughs.
“okI
’
mli
steni
ng,
spi
titout
.”

“al
lyouhavet
odoisrespectme,
lovemeandt
rust
me.That
’showyoucanrepayme.”

“youal
readyhaveal
loft
hatbaby.Youdon’
thave
toaskme.”

“ohandgi vemel otsandl otsofki ds.”shel aughs.

“Ican’twaittost
ar tpracti
singmaki ngbabi eswi th
you.”Iwinkatherandshel aughsbl ushing.We
parkatthemal landst epoutoft hecar .Theki ds
stepoutandar eexcited.Wear egoingtobedoi ng
manyt hi
ngsasaf ami l
y.Ihopel esegoisr eadyf or
theloveshe’saboutt oexper i
encewi ththisfami l
y.I
takeherhandandwal kt othemal l.

LESEGO.
Het akesmyhandandwewal kin.Alleyesar eon
usbecauseIam wal kingwiththreeverydr opdead
gorgeoushandsomemanIneverknewexi sted.
MenIr eadaboutonromancenovel s.Menwho
commandat tent
ionwithoutevenspeaking.I’min
themi ddlebetweenmyman.Yesmymanandhi s
brothermbusowhohaskagi sohandandbonga
whoi sholdingkamo’shandwi thCeleste.Theyway
theyarewal ki
ngIfeelli
keI’
m beingprotected.

Isqueezesicelo'shandandheki ssesme. .Igi

ggl e
andIcan’tstopmysel ff
rom smi li
ng.Womenst op
andlookatt hemenwal kingwi t
hus.Cel estehast o
bethehottestlesbianwomanIhaveeverseen.
Mbusoi sscaryandver yintense.Hehast hi st
hi ng
abouthimt hattell
syour espectme, I
’m notyour
fri
endandyoudon’ tfuckwi thme.Mymani sl
ike
thattoobutnotsoscar yli
kehi sbrotherwhowoul d
makemydadshi thispant s.Iwoul dlovet osee
thathappen.Bongai sl i
kehi sbrothertoobuthe’ s
notscaryandIf eelli
kehe’ stheoneIcoul dmakea
conversat
ionwi thwithoutbei ngscaredandwantt o
shi
tmysel
f.

IloveuSicelo.Il
ovethi
smanver ymuchandI ’
llfeel
forevergratef
ultohim.OnedayIhopeIwi llshow
him howmuchIl ovehi
m.“wher eareweshoppi ng
mama?”t hewayhesaysmamat omehi tsmedeep
i
nmyhear t
.Itmakesmefeel war
m andf uzzy.“we
cangot omypar ent
shouseandcol l
ecttheirschool
uniform andbooksandal lourcl
othes.”Itellhim.

“guysgot oWool wort

hswewi l
lfi
ndyout her
e.”
theytaketheki
dswi ththem.“l
ovewhatdoyou
reall
yneedfrom yourbackroom?”heasksme.
“theirbi
rt
hcerti
fi
catesandschoolbooks.Our
clothest
oosicel
obecauseIdon’ttrustt
hem.”He
sighs.

“okaybaby.”wegot oWoolworthsandbegi
nt o
shop.Theytakekagi
soandgot otheboyssecti
on
tolookforsomeclot
hes.Cel
estehelpsmeselect
schoolclot
hesandthemenjoinusweandup
buyingsomanyt hingsandunnecessar ythings
becausetheuncl esbothwantt obuyt hekidsstuf
f.
Ilookaroundandnot i
cethattherearemanywomen
i
nt heshopnowt hanwhenwear r
ived.I
tmustbe
theZulugiantmenher ei
nt heshop.Theypayand
givethesecurit
yguyssomeoft heshoppingand
taketheresttothecar swecamei n.Theycome
backandIl ookatmyhandsomemanandIknow
andt r
ulybeli
evet hatGodblessedme.Hedoes
answerourpr ayersintheend.

Hecomest ome, picksmeupandspi nsmear ound

andIl augh.Heki ssesmeandpeopl ear elooki
ngat
usevent heone’sIknowandI ’m suremywhol e
familynowknowsandIdon’ tcare.Wegot ospur
andal lt
hegi rl
swhowor kt
hererusht ous.“remind
met onevergoshoppi ngwithyouguys.I t
’sa
nightmar e,t
hewomenmyGod! .”Celestesays
i
rrit
atedaswesi tdown.Threegirlscomet oserve
usandt hei
reyesar eonallt
hesemen.Ishakemy
headandchuckl e.Thekidsgoandpl ay.
“wedon’tcareaboutwomenwhol ookatusoreven
tr
ytogetourat tent
ion.Wear eal ltakenbythe
womenwel oveandwhol oveusandwhoar enot
afr
aidtoki
llus.”mbusosays.Si celopecksmy
cheekandIbl ush.I
’m notusedt ot hiski
ndof
att
enti
onbutIabsol utel
yloveit.Myl i
fehas
changedandf orthebest.ThankyoumyGuar dian
Angelwhoeveryouar eouttheref orlooki
ngoutfor
me.Theybr i
ngourdr inksandIor derfort
hekids
andmyself.Celesteordersforher selft
henthemen
l
ookatme.Ohkwhat ’
sgoingon?

“what
’swr
ong?”Iaskt
hem butl
ooki
ngatmyman.

“ourwivesarenother eandyouar enotor der

ingfor
usorevenyourhusband.Baf owear egoingto
st
arvehere”mbusosayst hent heyallf
oldtheir
arms.What?Theirwivesor derforthem andnowI
mustorderforthem too?.Celestel
ookslikeshe
wantstoburstoutlaughing.
“uhm I
’
m sor
rybhut
imbusobutIdon’
tknowwhat
youeat
.”It
ellhi
m.

“weeatt hesamethingyourmaneat s.”bonga

says.Ihaveneverbeenthisconfusedinmylifeand
si
celoisnothelpi
ngmeatal l.Helookssoamused.
SoIorderf ort
hem medium r
umpst akesthelast
numbert heyhavewithveget
ables.Theyl
ookatme
shocked.

“youreall
yaregoi ngt
omakeuseatveget abl
es?”
bongasaysl i
kehewant stovomit
.What’swrong
wit
hveget abl
escausetheyalll
ookli
ketheyeat
heal
thy.“lungiknowsIhateveget
ablesandIdon’t
eatt
hem. ”Ismbusosulking?.

“Bat
honghanthilebat
lahojaeng?!.”(whatexact l
y
doyouwanttoeat ?
)Iaskthem conf used.Theylook
atmeandIseet hei
rmouthsmovi ngt hentheyall
bur
stoutl
aughingloud.Whatthehel l?Iendup
l
aughi
ngandjoiningthem.Sicel
oki ssesmef ull
on
t
hemout
hst
il
llaughi
ng.

“Rel
axmama.Theyar
ejustpl
ayi
ngwi
thyou.”he
i
ssti
lll
aughi
ng.

“welcomel esego.Butpl
easedon’
tstarveuswhen
wevisityourhome.”mbusosayschuckl i
ng.He
knowshowt ojokeandsmile.I
’
m shocked!
.

“Ipr
omiseIwont
.Cel
est
ewhydi
dn’
tyouwar
m me?
”Iaskher.

“t
heyar
eidi
ots”shewhi
sper
s.Il
augh.

“t
hankyouf
orever
ythi
ngyouhavedoneforus
si
ncewemetyouauntyCel
est
e”theyal
llaugh.

“ohhel
lno!
.I’
m al
waysgoi
ngt
obeCel
est
e.No.
Aunt
yher
e”wel
augh.

“lesego?,l
esego?.”thewholetabl
egoesqui et
.I
l
ookupandi t’
smysi sterwi
thherhusbandwhoi s
holdinganenvelope.Mysmi l
evanishesthatsame
moment .Thewhol emoodshi f
tsaroundusont he
table.Whatthehelldoesshewant?!.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER47.

LESEGO.

Themoodi nstant
lychangedar oundt hetabl
e.She
takesaseatnoonet ol
dhertot akeandi saboutto
sitdownbutmbusoget supandsi tsnexttosicel
o.
Mapasekal ooksathim confusedt henherhusband
sistsnextt
oherandshe’ ssitt
ingnextt obongawho
l
ooksbor ed.Iopenmymout ht oaskherwhatt he
hellshewant sbutmymanshakeshi shead.“oh
wowl esego.Whenmom sai dyoul eftwit
hsome
menwhol ookedshady,Ididn’
tr eali
seshewas
talkingaboutthef amousbusi nessman, ItGuru
MbusoGumede, youknowhehol dsaPhDi nIT
right?Andt hat’
shi sbrotherwho’sanarchitect
?”
shepoi nt
satbonga.Howt hehelldoessheknow
them? .“andthensi qel
ongcobooneoft hebest
engi neerssouthAf ri
cahasl i
kewow!.Di dyouknow
thathi sfamil
ysuppl iesthebiggestsupermarkets
her einSouthAf r
icawi thmeatand….”

“kahl
e!.ubaniwenant ombazaneongakwazi
nokubuli
sa?”yep, don’
tmesswi t
hmbuso.
“wazimemawahl alaphansithenyoubegi nt
ell
ing
usourCV’s?.Didn’tyourparentstaughtyou
manners?”(wai t
!,whoar eyougirli
ewhodoesn’ t
knowhowt ogreetpeopl e?.Youinvit
eyoursel
fand
si
tdown….….. )
.Mbusoasksher .

“OhIthoughtyouknowme?”mapasekasays.The
guysandCelest
elookateachothertheyburstout
l
aughingl
oud.Shelooksatthem confused.
.
“nowwhyt hehel
lwouldyouthi
nkthat
.Whatgave
youthati
dea?”bongaasks.Shel
ooksather
husbandTefowho’sl
ooki
ngembarrassed.

“wellIam l
esego'
ssi
sterandIt
houghtshet
oldyou
aboutme?.”

“Shet
oldwho?”Cel
est
easksher
.

“uhm Imeanal lofyou.Iknowmbusot hatyouar e

mar r
iedtoyourverybeautif
ulwifesomysi steri
s
maybeseei ngyourbrot
herorsi qel
o.Imeanwow
l
esego, yougotoDurbant henyoucomebackwi t
h
theserichbusi
nessmenwowsi s.Howdi dyoudo
i
t?.”shesayslaughingtoher sel
f.Hereyeskeep
goingtombusoandshebl ushesal i
tt
le.Thi
sbi t
ch.

“di
dwhatmapaseka?”Iaskher
“ohpl easeyouknowwhatImean.Lookwecame
herecausemyhusbandi sabusinessmanandhe
hasthisr eal
lygreatbusinessidea.Sosincemy
si
sterisseeingoneofyouIt houghtthatheyletme
bri
ngmyhusbandher ethenyouguyscanhel phim
outsincewear eallgoingtobef amil
ynow.”

“howdi
dyouknowwear
eher
emapaseka?”

“dadfollowedyouafteryoul
eft
.Sowhichoneis
yourssis?”sheasksmeandIcannotbelievewhat
shehasj ustsai
d.Thenerveoft
hiswomanandnow
she’
sgoi ngtopret
endthatmeandherhavet hi
s
si
sterl
yr el
ati
onshi
p?.

“Tef
otakeyourwifeandgobacktothewhol
ethe
bot
hofyoucrawledoutofandneverdowhatyou
di
dhere.”It
ellmapaseka'
shusband.

“Ohpl
easel
esego.Al
lyouhavet
odoi
stel
lmet
hat
youarenotseeingoneofthem.Imeanyoudat i
ng
oneofthesemen? !
.”shel
aughsandcl apsher
hand.IgetsoangryIwanttosl
apherandwi pethat
smugsmi leofherf
ace.Si
celograbsmyhand.I
l
ookathim andhesmi l
esandIsmi l
etoo.

“Il
oveyou”hesays.Mapasekagaspsi
nshock

“Il
oveyout
oo”heki
ssesmet
henl
ooksatt
efo.

“getup!.”si
celosayslooki
ngattefothen
mapaseka.Theyl ookateachotherconfused.“I
sai
dgett hefuckup!”theybothstand.Tefolooks
scarednowandmapasekat hestupidonestands
upsmi l
ingshakinghersaggyhips.She’
si ssti
ll
l
ookingatmbusowho’ snotevenpayingher
att
enti
on.

Hisphoneri
ngsandhi
swholefaceanddemeanor
changes.Hesmi
lesaf
ullbl
ownsmileandIhear
mapasekasighing.Iknowmbusoi shandsomeand
hehasthatthingabouthim butmapasekaist
otal
ly
beingdi
srespectf
ultoherhusband.Ihopenowhe
seeswhattrashhemar ri
ed.

Mbusoanswer shisphone.“khanyo? ,
”hechuckles
myGodt hemani shandsomebutIonl yhaveeyes
onthemanIl ovebutt hatdoesn’tmeanIdon’tsee
howhandsomembusoi s.“I’
m comi ngbaby.I’
llbe
ther
ei nanhourandt hir
tyminutes.Iloveyou
khanyo.”hel i
stensthenchuckl esshakinghishead.
Hehangsupandl ooksatsicelo.Whoi skhanyo
now? .Mymanshakeshi shead.“Ihavet ogo
brot
her sI’
l
llseeyout omorrow.”hesayst osi
celo
andbonga.Theybr ohugt henhel ooksatme.“I ’
ll
seeyout ootomor rowmaMot aung.Telltheki
ds
unclembusohadt oleavebutI ’
llseethem
tomor r
ow”

“t
hankyouagai
nbhut
imbuso.”henods.“Cel
est
e
wal
kmeout.”
“sureboss”shesaysandt heyleave.Mapasekai s
sti
lll
ooki ngatmbusowi t
hlusti nhereyesandher
mout hisopen.She’sfuckendi sgust
ingrightnow.
“closeyourmout h!.Youaref uckendisgusti
ngand
di
sgr acingyourhusbandrightnowandst oplust
ing
aft
erot herpeopl
e’shusbands. .
”Shegaspsi nshock
andIam shockedt obecauseIneverswear .

“Iwasn’tl
usti
ngaft
erhi
m.Iwasjustl
ooki
ngand
ther
e’snot
hingwrongwi
thl
ooki
ng.”shesays
annoyed.

“Tefothat
’syournameri
ght?.Takethatpi
eceof
tr
ashyoucallawifeawayfrom her
ewhi l
eyoust
il
l
havesomeofyourdigni
tyleft
.”

“brot
herpleaseIj
ustneedtohaveameet ingwit
h
youandtellyouaboutmyidea.PleaseIcoul
dreal
ly
useaninvestor
.”hesaysdesperatel
yandIalmost
f
eelsor
ryf
orhi
m butIdon’
t.I
nfactI
’
m annoyed.

“I’
m notyourbr
other.Don’
tevercal
lmethat.Get
thefuckoff
!”si
celosaysannoyed.“butl
esegotal
k
tohim”

“Youhear
dmyman.Nowf
uckof
f!
.”It
ellher
.
Bongal
aughs.

“wearefami
lyl
esego.Tal
ktohi
m.I
’
llbeexpect
ing
yourcal
l.
”

“youtal
ktomuchmapaseka.Forfuck’
ssakes
l
eave.”bongasays.Tefot
akeshi
senvelopeand
l
eavesmapasekawhoi sst
andi
ngtherel
ikeher
shoesaregl
uedtothefl
oor.

Theki
dscomebackrunni
ngandl aughi
ngthent
hey
st
opwhentheyseemapaseka.“daddy”kamosays.
“comeher eangel.”shesit
snexttoherdadand
kagi
sositsnexttobonga.“wowt heyarecall
ing
him dadal
ready?.Doesthutoknowthatyouar e
makinghiskidscallanot
hermandad? .”shesays
shocked.

“ohkwehaveent
ert
ainedyouf
orl
ongnowl
eave!
.”
bongasays.

“Iam goingt otel

lhimlesego.Hehast oknowwhat
youar edoingwi t
hhiskids!.Whatdi
dhegi veyou?,
ohmyGodyouar eal
readypregnantforhi
m aren’
t
you!.Thatistheonlyreasonwhyt heywouldbe
here!.Youtrappedhim withababylikehowyou
tr
appedt huto…”Iquickl
ygetupandsl aptheshit
outofherf ace.

“lesegodidyoujustslapme!.”shesaystr
yingto
sl
apmebackbutsi celogetsupquickl
ytoblockt
he
sl
apbutt henCelest
epul l
sherbackbyherweave
andshescr eams.“theyareatt
acki
ngme, theyar
e
att
ackingmear r
estt
hem!.”ohmyGodIcannot
bel
ieveIjustsl
appedher
.

“ma'am pl
easel eavetherestaurant.Youar e
causi
ngasceneanddi st
urbingourguest s.”the
managersayst omapaseka.“si rI
’
m sor ryforthi
s
womanr uini
ngyourdi nner.Securi
ty!,securi
ty”he
cal
lsthemallsecur i
ty,
theycomeanddr agmy
si
steroutscreamingandt hreateni
ngme.

“I’
m sor
ryIdidn’tmeantohi
ther.Ihaveneverhi
t
anyonei
nmyl i
fe.”Iapol
ogi
ze.Theybri
ngourfood
andthekidseat.

“shedeser
vedt
hatandmor ebaby.Let
’seatand
l
eave.Theki
dshaveschoolt
omorrow.”Inod.

“youshouldhaveslappedhert
hemomentshe
star
tedtal
kingsmackaboutyou.Youhandl
ed
yoursel
fwellcausei
fitwasmywoman?Manwe
woul
dbetal
kingadi
ff
erentst
ory.”hesaysshaki
ng
hi
sheadsmil
ing.

“yeahSimsi scr azy.Theywoul dhaveki ckedallof

usout”t heylaughandj ustl
ikethatwehave
for
gott
enaboutmysi ster.Wehavel ight
conver
sat i
onsaswear eeat ing.Idon’tknowhow
mucht heytippedt hewai t
ressbutI’m sureitwasa
l
otbecauset heyscr eamedwi t
hexcitement .Weare
attheparkinglot.Theki dsgetinthecarwhent he
thr
eesuddenl ylookatmeser i
ous.

“what
’swr
ong?”si
cel
osi
ghst
henl
ooksatme.

“Celest
eandtheguyswenttoyourpar
ent
shouse
togetyourcl
othesandwhentheygott
her
e….”he
get
shesitant
.

“t
heychasedt
hem away?”
“nobaby.Theyf oundthem bur ned.Theybur nedal
l
ofyourthingsincludingthoseoft hekids.
Everythi
ngisgone.”Il ookathi mt henbongaand
CelesteandIcanseet heirwor r
iedf aces.Tear swell
i
nmyeyes.Ever ythingIhavewor kedhardf oryears
i
sgonebecauset heyhatet hatmuch? !
.“whydo
thesethingshappent omesi celo?Whydoesmy
familyhatemet hismuch? .Whatdi dIeverdot o
them todot hesethingstome? .Whycan’ tIjust
haveamomentofpeace?”Ibr eakdownandcr yi
n
hisarms.Hehol dsmeandcomf ortsme.

Iwipemytearsandlookathim.“i t
’sokay.Ican
al
waysgetnewbi r
thcert
if
icatesforthem.Theyhad
al
ongdayandt omorrowit
’saschoolday.Wedon’ t
havebedsinourhousesowher eareyougoingto
sl
eep?”IaskbongaandCel este.

“webookedint
oahotel.Wewil
lst
ayther
ebut
someoftheguysarecomingwi
thyou.Towatch
outi
ncaseanythi
nghappenssi
nceyourfat
herwas
fol
lowi
nguscauseIthinkheknowswher
eyoul
ive
now.”bongasays.Inod.

“wewi llseeyout omor r

owgi rl
.”Cel est
egivemea
hugandsur pri
singl ybongat oot henwegeti nthe
carsandl eave.Wegethomeandt hesecur i
tyguys
helpust akeever ythinginthehouse.It akethe
toi
let
ri
est ot hebat hroom thenr unabat hforki
ds.
“kamo, kagisocomeandbat h.”Ihearsi celo
shouti
ngandt el
lingt hem nottor un.Theycomei n
runni
ngst il
l.Theyt akeof fthei
rcl othesthengetin
thebath.Ibat hthem t henputt hem i nthei
rnew
pyjamas.

“wher
eisyourdad?”Iaskt
hem.

“hewasont
hephonemommy”Inod.“okgeti
n
bed.”

“candaddycomeandputust
obedl
iket
hoseki
ds
weseei
ntheTV?”Ismi
le.

“daddyishereandhewouldn’tmissthisforthe
world”hesayspicki
ngupbothoft hem up.Heisso
str
ongandsosexy.Mymani severythi
ng.Iopen
theduvetandheputsthem i
nthemi ddl
eoft hebed
andIcoverthem.

“daddy?”kagi
sosays.

“champ?
.”

“whenwewakeupi nthemor ni
ngyouwil
lbeher
e
ri
ght?”sicel
opalmshisface.“Imadeapromi
seto
youthatIam nevergoi
ngtoleaveyouandIwon’
t.I
wil
lber i
ghtherei
nthemor ni
ngandtakemychamp
andprincesstoschool
.”

“okdad.”hesays.
“nowsl eepcausetomorr
owyourfr
iendswi
llbe
exci
tedt oseeyou.”t
heynod.Heki
ssesbot
ht hei
r
cheeks.Imissthem t
oo.

“goodni
ghtki
ds.”hesays.

“goodnightmommy, goodnightdaddy.”kagiso
saysandkamor epeat
saft
erhim.Hesmi l
es.Ican
seethelovehehasformykidsandIknowi tcomes
from hi
sheart
.ThankyouGodf orbl
essingmewi th
thisamazingmanandhisfamily.

“loveyoudaddy”kamosayssmi
li
ng.Hel
ooksher
andsmi l
es.

“Il
oveyoumor eangel
.Il
oveyoutoochamp.”she
gi
gglesandkagi
sonods.Weswitchthelight
sto
di
m andhalfcl
osethebedr
oom door.“comewith
me.”hesaystaki
ngmyhandandl eadsmet o
anotherbedroom.Thewhol ehouseisempty.Iwish
thehousecamewi thfurni
turecauseIhavenoclue
aboutdecorati
ngahouset hisbi
gbutIhopesicelo's
sist
ercanhelpme.Iwi l
lasksicel
oforhernumber s.

Hetakesmet othebathroom andIseet hathewas

l
ighti
ngcandlesallaroundthebat hr
oom.Ismi le.“i
t
l
ooksbeautifulbaby.Thankyou.”It el
lhim.“you
hadalongdayandsoyoudeser vesome
pampering.
”Hehel psmegetoutofmycl othesthen
Igetinthebathandsi gh.“ar
en’tyoujoini
ngme?”
Iaskhim.

“uhbabyIdon’
tthi
nkt
hat
’sagoodi
dea.”Ismi
le.

“babygeti
nthebat
htubwi
thmepl
ease?
.”Ibeg
hi
m.

“okbutIst
il
ldon’
tthi
nki
t’sagoodidea.”Ismi
le.
Hetakesof
fhist-
shir
tof
f,shoes,
belt,
watchand
t
henhispantswi
thunderwearandhi
sdi
ckspr
ings
f
ree.Isi
ghandmythighssquir
m.

“youstil
lthi
nkit
’sagoodidea?”Inod.Hechuckles
thengetsinbehi
ndme.Hi sthi
ghstouchmi neand
hischestonmybackt henhisthi
ckharddickison
myback.Myni pplesgethar
dandIswal l
ow.

“babyar
eyouokay?”Inod.“t
alkt
ome.”hesays.

“uhm not
hingbaby.”

“ok.”hesaysandIt hi
nkhei ssmi l
ing.Hepul lsme
back,mor eclosert
ohim.Mybodyshudder swhenI
feelhowlonghi sdi
ckis.Myni pplesaresohar d
ri
ghtnow.Hesnakeshi shandar oundmywai stI
moan.Icl osemyeyesandt akeadeepbr eathand
l
aymyheadbackonhi schest.If
eelhisbr eathon
myf ace.Iswallowagainmybodygetr eal
lyhot .I
t
mustbet hewar m water.
“baby?”

“hmmm ”buti tsoundedl i

keamoan.Heopenshi s
mout handIfeelwarm airt
henhenipsitandI
defini
tel
ymoant histi
me.Hishandsgoupand
palmsmybr easts.Heplayswit
hmyni pplesandI
feelli
keIwantmor e.It
urnmyfaceandl ookathim.
Hishandgoesdownanddown.Iopenmyl egsand
welcomehim ashepal msmypussy.“hel ooksat
meandasksme“whatdoyouwant ?”

“You.”Itel
lhi
m st
rai
ghtnothesi
tat
ing.Hecl
aims
mymout h,hi
sfi
ngersfi
ndmysensiti
venubandoh
Godhe….
CHAPTER48.

LESEGO.
Heslipshi sfingeri
nme, kil
li
ngmedeepl yand
passi
onat el
y.Ourtonguesdancet ogether,outt
eet
h
cl
ashf orabr i
efmomentandIgetl osti
nt he
momentashemoveshi sfingerinandoutofmy
ti
ghtchannel .Iopenmyl egswi dercauset he
sensation, t
heemot i
onshei sevokinginmear e
somet hingIhaveneverf el
tbefore.Idon’tknow
whattodot omysel f
.Hisli
psar esosof tandhis
ki
ssesar edrivi
ngmecr azy.

Iputmyhandont opofhi shandt hati sfinger i

ng
meandImi michi smovement .Hisot herhand
wrapsar oundmyt hroatandgr oanswhenImove
hishandof fmineandIputmyf i
nger sonmycl i
t.
Hel i
kesit.Irubmysensi ti
venubandr ubi tsoftly
upanddownandal laround.Godt hi
sf eelssogood.
Howdi dIl i
vesol ongwi t
houtf eel
ingaman’ st ouch
onmyski nandi nmybody? .Headdsanot herfinger
andImovemyhi psashi shandaddsmor e
pressureinmeandpumpsf astinandout .Hi s
thumbandmyf inger sbothr ubmycl i
tinal l
dif
ferentdirect
ionsandIf eel mybl oodr unni ngt o
mycl it
.Myvagi namuscl esclampar oundhi s
fi
nger scontracting.Imovemyhandof f
, hi
ski sses
getmor ehungr ier,mor ehar derandfast.Headds
anotherthirdfinger ,
fingersmewi t
hhisot herthree
fi
ngerandpr essest hepadofhi sthumbonmycl it
andIl oseitandcomeal loverhisfingers
cont
r acti
ngal laroundt hem.Heswal l
owsmycr ies
andhekeepski ssingandf ingeri
ngmeunt ilIcome
downf r
om mycl imax.

“youokaybaby?”Inod.Hechuckl es.“move
forwardbaby.”Imovef orwar
dandmybodyst il
l
want smor e.Iwanthim.Iwantt of
eelhi minme
fi
lli
ngmeup.Heget soutofthebat h,dri
eshimself
andhi sdickissohar dandpre-cum isleaki
ngout.I
cani maginehim gett
ingthatdi
ckinmeandf ucki
ng
mybr ainsof f
.Igetup,stepoutofthebat ht
uband
hedr i
esme.I sthisit
?Ar ewedone? .Iam
disappointed.

“Baby”Ical
lhi
m.Hesmi
lesandget
supf
rom
kneeli
ngwipi
ngmyfeet
.“yesbaby?.”hesaysand
i
t’
slikeheknowswhatI
’m goi
ngtoaskhim.

“arewedone? .
..
wear enotgoingt o……youknow
what?”Hel aughsandpul l
smet ohi m.“youmean
makel oveandt henfuckeachot her?”heasksme
smirking.Heatcreepsuponmyf ace.Doeshehave
tobesocr assthough? .“yeah.Arewenotdoi ngit
?
”hel aughsthenput shishandsonmyshoul ders
andpushesmedownsof tl
yunti
lIgetonmyknees.
Iam direct
lyfacetofacewi thhi
sdi ckandIsuckin
mybr eathwhenIseehowmassi vei ti
s.

Iswal l
owandl ookatitokIcandot his.Idi
di tonce
andIcandoi tagai
n.Itakeadeepbr eathinand
cl
osemyeyes.Idon’ thavetothi
nkabouti t.Thisis
dif
ferent.Iti
snotthesame.Ilovethismanandhe
l
ovesme.“babyar eyouokay?”Inod.Myeyesar e
sti
llclosed.Myheartratei
schangingandi tis
beatingfasterandfast
er.“l
esego?”
“justgivemeamomentbaby.Iwi lldoi t
.Just….”I
canf eelmytearsst
reamingdownmyf ace.“baby
l
ookatme.”hesaysandIshakemyheadno.I
can’tlookathi
m.Hepul l
smeupt ohi m andlooks
atme.“heyi t’
sokay.Youdon’thavet odoanyt hing
youdon’ twanttodookay?.Youdon’ thavetocr y
baby.”HesaysandIsni f
fandshakemyhead.

It’
snothimit
’sme.HowdoIt el
lhimthatthe
probl
em iswit
hme..“I
’m sor
ryforpushingyou.I
knewyouwer enotr
eadyandIjustletemoti
onsget
thebett
erofmeandI’m sor
rybaby.”

Ishakemyheadnoagai n.Iwantt
oexpl
ainbutmy
l
ipswon’tmove.Iam scar
edofmyshame.Idon’t
knowifhewil
llookatmet hesamewayli
kebefor
e
aft
erIhavet
oldhim whatIdid.

“babypl
easel
ookatmeandtel
lmewhati
swrong?
”Iwrapmyarmsaroundhi
m andhol
dhi
m.
“l
esegoyouar
eshaki
ng.Di
dsomeonehur
tyou?”I
don’
tknowhowtoanswerthatbecauseI
’
m notsur
e
mysel
f.“babypl
easeopenuptome.Youdon’t
havetoscar
ed.
”

Hepi cksmeup, Iwr apmyl egsaroundhiswaist

thenhesi tsdowni nt heclosedtoi
letbowl.Myhead
i
sonhi sneckandIbr eat
hehiminandIcal m down
alitt
le.“wheneveryouar eready,I
’l
lbehere
l
istening.Youdon’ thavet otel
lmenowbutknow
thatwhat everyout ellmewon’tchangeanything
aboutmyl oveforyou.Il ovedyouyester
day,Ilove
younowandIwi lll
oveyouf or
ever.”hesays.

Il
ookatt hiswonder fulmanandkisshi m.“I
appliedforthecleanerspostatthekidsschooland
whenIgotacal lthatIwasoneoft hefewpeople
selectedtocomet otheint
ervi
ewst henextday,I
wassohappyandexci ted.It
houghtfinal
lyI’
m
goingt ohaveaj obandpr ovi
deformyki ds.I
prayeddur i
ngtheni ghtandthefol
lowingmor ni
ng.I
l
eftwi tht
hekidst oschoolanddecidedt owaitt
here
becausemyi ntervi
ewwasatni neam.Theot hers
arrivedandonebyonet heywentinanddi dt heir
i
nt ervi
ew.Iwast hel astoneandt hetimewas
around12: 15pm.Igoti nandt hepri
ncipalwas
alone.Iwassur pr i
sedt hathewasal onebecauseI
thoughtt heSGBmember swouldbepar toft he
i
nt ervi
ewers.Isatdownanddi dmyi ntervi
ew.He
waspr of
essionalandal lthenIwenthomeaf terhe
toldmet heywoul dcal lafterhehasmadea
deci si
on.”Itakeadeepbr eat
h.Heisbr ushingmy
backupanddown.

“Igotacal lfr
om oneoft heclerkst el
lingmet hat
onehavet ocomef orasecondi nterviewbecause
therewassomet hingnotaddi nguponmyCV.Iwas
surpri
sedcauseIdi dwr i
tethatIhavenowor k
experienceandIdidn’tl
ieabouti t.Thei nter
view
wast hatdayat3pm.Il eftt
heki dsal oneandt old
them tolockupandnotopenf oranyoneunt ilI
comeback.WhenIgott here,t
her ewasonl ythe
cler
k.Shet oldmet ogot otheoff i
ceandIdi d.
WhenIgott her
eagai nhewasal one.Idi dn’
tt hi
nkit
waswei
rdoranyt
hingcauset
hel
astIwasher
ehe
wasal
one.

Isatdownandheaskedt hesamequest ionshe

askedbef oreandIgavehi mt hesameanswer s.He
thent ell
st hatIqual if
yinallwaysbutIknowhow
theset hingswor k.Iwasconf usedast owhathe
wast al
kingabout .Het el
lsmet hatIhavet obr i
be
himt ogi vemet hej ob.IwasshockedbutbecauseI
wasdesper ateIaskedhowmucht hebr ibei sand
het oldmei t’
sR2500andIdi dn’thavet hatmoney
andt her ewasnower eIwasgoi ngt ogeti t.Iasked
met ogivemef ivemi nutest ocal lmysi sterandhe
agreed.Ical l
edmapaseka, mybr otherandmy
parent sandt heyal lrefused.Theysai dt heyhadno
moneyf orme.Iwasdevast atedsi celo.Ir eally
neededt hatjobbecausei twasgoi ngt omakemy
kid’slif
eal i
tt
lebet t
er.Itoldthepr i
ncipalt hatI’m
strugglingt ogethol doft hemoneybutIwi llgotoa
l
oanshar kandbor r
owf r
om t herethencomeback
andher efused.Het oldmet herewasanot herway
topay.”Ihavenevert oldanyonewhathappened.
WhatIdi
d.

“youdon’ thavet ocont i

nuebabyi fitishar d.”he
says.Ishakemyheadno.“Ihavenevert old
anyonet hissi celobutbecauseIt rustyou, Iwant
youtoknowwhatIdi d.”hepecksmycheekand
nods.“Iaskedhi m whati st heot herwayf ormet o
payandhesai dIcoul d…hewant smet ogi vehima
blowjob.Il ookedathi m shockedasheunbuckl ed
hispantsandhet ooki tout.Iwassoscar edsi celo.
Ithoughthewasgoi ngt orapeme.Ist oodt here
shockedandwat chedhi m disgust edashegot
himselfhar d.Heaskedmet omakeadeci sionor
getthehel loutoft here.Ireall
ywant edt oleavebut
Ithoughtaboutmyki dsandonel ousybl owj ob.”
Hischesti swetbecauseofmyt ears.“It oldhi m
thatIwilldoi tonceandhemustpr omisemet hat
hewi l
lnotr apeme.Heagr eedandpushedmet o
mykneesand….Idi dit.”hecur sessof tl
yandhol ds
met i
ght er.“Idi dn’twantt odoi tbutIt houghtof
kidssicelo.Ionl ydi ditforthem.Ihat edever y
momentandIhat edmysel fmor eashekeptdoi ngi t
.
WhenhewasdoneIgotupandr anout
.Icoul
dn’
t
cryasIwalkedallt
hewayhomeandIthought
everyonewholookedatmeknewwhatIdid.

WhenIgott omyr oom, Imadet heki dsf oodand

theyaskedt ogopl ayout sideandIagr eed.Al lthese
thought sstart
edpl ayingonmymi ndt hatwhati fhe
i
sgoi ngt ochangehi smi ndandnotof fermet he
jobandIhadal r
eadydonesomet hi ngl i
ket hi
s.I
wasdi sgustedwithmysel fandIcr ied.Ibr ushedmy
teethunt i
lmygumswer ebl eedingbecauseI coul d
stil
lfeelhimi nmymout h.Igott hej obandmy
fami l
yaccusedmeofsl eepingwi thhi mf orthej ob
sinceIcoul dn’tgethol doft hemoney.Mymom
oncecal l
edmeasl utandapr ostituteandIt oldher
thatIwoul ddoanyt hingf ormyki dseveni fit
meansImustsel lmybodyt opr ovi def orthem then
Iwoul dcausenoonewi llhelpme.Iwant edtot ell
yout hiscauseIknowmyf amilywi l
lt ellyoul i
es
abouthowIgott hej ob.Iwasashamedofmysel f
sicelobutIwashappyt hatIgott hej obandt he
principalneveraskedanot herthingf rom me.Ihat e
whatIdi
dbutwhatIknowisIwoul
ddoanythi
ngfor
mykidsnott
ostruggl
eandIwoul
ddoitagai
nfor
t
hem.”Ichokeup.

Het akesadeepbr eat hinandbr eathesoutdeepl y.

“Idon’tjudgeyoul esegoandIdon’ tblameyouf or
whatyoudi d.I
fyouhadyourf amily’ssupportand
thuto'
ssuppor tingtheki ds,youwoul dn’thavedone
whatyoudi d.Yourbackwasagai nstthewal land
youdi dli
keanyot hermot herwoul ddoandt hati
s
toputf oodont het ableforherkids.Youdi dnotdo
thisforenjoymentbutf orseekingsecur it
yforour
kids.Youget ti
ngt hatjobmeantourki dswon’ thave
togot obedwi t
hanempt ystomach.I treall
yhurts
met ohearwhatyouhadt odowhi l
et hepeoplewho
wer esupposet obet hereforyoudi dn’thel
pyoui n
anyway.”hesi ghs.

“Il
oveyouandIam proudtocallyouthemotherof
mykids.Thewor
ldhasbeenagai nstyouforf
art
oo
l
ongbutnowleaveeveryt
hingt
omeandl etmetake
careofyouandourki ds.Youwillneveragai n
str
uggleinyourlif
eforaslongasIl i
veandeven
after
.Youwi l
lal
waysbet akencar eof .I
’m proudof
youbaby.Youhavecomeoutvi ct ori
ouseachand
everyti
mewhenl i
fewasbhardandi twantedyout o
fai
l.Ourkidshaveoneamazi ngwomanandIl ove
youmor enowt hanIdidthir
tymi nutesago”Igi ggle.
“thankyouf ort
rusti
ngmeandt elli
ngmeal lofthi
s
becauseIknowi twashar dtoshar ethatwithme.
Yoursecretsaresafewithme.Iwon’ teverusewhat
youhavet ol
dmeagai nstyouinanywayIpr omise
youthat.”hepecksmycheekandhol dsme.

“t
hankyoumaphol oba.”weholdeachotherand
j
ustsi
tsi
lent
ly.“l
et’
sgot obed.Wehavekidsthat
mustwakeupandgot oschool
.”hesays.

“Ihavetogot oworktomorr
owtoo.”Iremindhim.
“youarenol ongergoi
ngtowor
kt her
e.Youwillt
ell
hi
mt omorrowwhenwedr opoffthekids.”hesays
andthat
’sfinal
.
“si
cel
o?”Il
ookathi
m.

“notopenf ornegoti
ati
onordiscussi
on.Let
’sgot
o
bed.I’
mt i
red.”hesaysandpi cksusup.“wecan’
t
sl
eepwi t
ht hekidsnakedbaby”Igiggle.“f
uckme!.
Wearyourpyj amasandI ’
l
llookformyshort
sandT-
shi
rt.”heputsmedown.It ur
nandhespanksmy
assandIlaugh.

“Il
oveyouandyoursexyass!
.”hesays

“IloveyoubutIthi
nkIloveyourdi
ckmor e.”Itell
himlaughing,
helaughstoo.Heboughtsomet hing
towearfrom Woolwort
hsandwewearourpyj amas.
Wegot obedandwat chourkidssl
eepi
ngpeacef ul
.
Igentl
ypickupkagisoandputhim ontheother
side.

“whatar
eyoudoi
ng?”hewhi
sper
s.“Iwantt
ofal
l
asl
eepinyourarms.
”Henods.Igeti
nbedandhe
getsinaft
erme.Hi
sfrontt
omyback,kamothen
kagiso.

“Il
oveyoul
esego.”

“Il
oveyousi
cel
o.Goodni
ght
.”

“goodnightbaby.”Isi
ghandsleepcauseIfeel
like
ahugeloudhasbeenl i
ft
edoffmyshoulder
s.I
sl
eepwithasmi l
eonmyf ace.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER48

LESEGO.

Thekidsareveryexci
tedt
obegoi ngtoschoolina
carandwiththei
rdad.NeverdidIthi
nkthatgoing
toDurbanwouldchangemyl if
einawayInever
thoughtwaspossibl
e.Youreadaboutthi
ngslike
theseinromancenovel sandwatchthem on
romanticmovi esonTVbuther eithappenedt ome
andI’m sti
lli
nshockandhappyt oo.Theonlysad
thi
ngist hatmyf amilyburnedsomeoft hei
rschool
booksbutatl easttheydohavebookst hatstayat
school.BongaandCel est
ecamet ootoseethekids
toschool.

Thi sf amilyissomet hi
ngel sebecausethe
closenessandt i
ghtnessIsawbet weensicel
oand
hisbr ot her’
si n-
lawissomet hingamazing.Iwonder
whati tisgoi ngtobel iketomeett herestofthe
fami ly? .I
’m scaredthoughbecausewhati fthey
don’ tlikemeorl ikethatsicelolovesawomanwho
alreadyhaski ds?.Godpl easel ett
hem l
ikemeand
maket hem seet hatIlovet heirsonandIwanttobe
par toft heirfami l
y.

Si
celodidnotj
udgemeorl ookatmeinadiff
erent
waywhenIt ol
dhim whatIdi
d.Inf
acti
tmadeus
cl
oser.I
’
m gladthatIt
oldhi
m mydeepestdarkest
secretsbecauseIknowmyf ami l
ywoul dhaveused
thatagainstme.Ihopet heywon’tcausepr oblems
andsabot agemyhappi ness.I’
m suremapaseka
tol
dt hem whathappenedandaddedf lowerst ooto
makeher selfl
ookinnocentandI ’
m prett
ysur etoo
thattheytoldt
hatgoodf ornothi
ngsper m donor
thuto.IsweartoGodifhet ri
esanything,Iwillki
ll
him myself.

“baby?Wear eher e.”mymansays.Il ookathi m

andsmi le.Thebackpassengerdooropensandi t
’s
bonga.Heunbuckl est heirseatsandt heystepout .
West epoutt oo.Thepar entsatschooldr opping
thei
rkidsof far el
ooki ngatmesur prisedand
shockedbecauset heydi dn’texceptthis.Well
neit
herdi dIsi st
ers.Sicel otakesbothoft heirhands
andwal kst hem tot hegat e.Hepecksbot hoft heir
cheeks.Idot oo“ar eyougoi ngtopickusagai n
daddy”kamoasks.“Iam pr i
ncess.Nowgot o
school.”shesmi les.Herf r
iendscallheroverand
shegoest othem andf orget saboutus.Kagi sofist
bumpswi thhi sdad, hisuncl eandCel estetoo,
wavesatmeandof
fhegoest ohi
sfr
iendst
oo
get
ti
nginsi
det
heschoolgat
es.

“justl
iket
hatt
heyhavef
orgot
tenaboutus.”t
hei
r
dadsays.Welaugh.

“l
esego?”It
urnandseet
hati
t’
sthepri
nci
palwho
i
scall
ingmyname.Fuckme.“pr
inci
palMabuzahi.
”

Hel ooksatmet henlooksatmyman, bongaand

Celestethenlooksatthecarsandyoucansee
confusiononhi sf
ace.“hiI’
m pri
nci
palMabuzaand
youar e?”hesayswant i
ngtoshakehishand.What
thehellisthi
smandoi ng?

“I
’m herhusband.”sicel
osaysandt heprinci
pal
l
ooksatmyl efthand.“pri
ncipaleyeshere,don’
t
l
ookather.”hesayssnappi nghisfi
ngers.
“yougotmar r
ied?Wow.Whyar eyounoti
nsi
de
nowwor ki
ng?”heasksme.“Itoldhertoqui
tthat
’s
why.Thereissomethi
ngwewantt odi
scusswith
youpri
ncipal
.Youroff
ice?”what?

“ohyessure.I’
m sadtoseeyougol esegobut
shouldyouneedyourjobback,youknowwher eto
fi
ndme.Gentlemanf ol
lowme.”bongaandsi celo
l
ookateachot her
.“getinthecar.Wewi l
lbeback.”
hekissesmeandt heyfol
lowtheprinci
pal.

“whatdi
dyousaytosi
cel
oandwhatdi
dthe
pr
inci
paldot
oyou?”what
?

“WhatdoyoumeanCel
est
e?”

“theonlywaysicelowouldwanttotal
kwit
ht he
pri
nci
palinpri
vateisbecausehewantstotal
k
aboutsomethi
ngt hepri
ncipaldi
dtoyouandIthink
i
t’
sabadt hi
ng.Nowwhatdi dhedotoyou?.”she
asksme.

“ohmyGodCel est
e.”ItellherwhatIt ol
dsicel
o.
“I’
m sorryyouwentt hrought hatlesego.The
pri
ncipalknewofyoursi tuationandhet ook
advantageofthat.Sicel
odoesn’ tletanyoneget
awaywi thhurt
ingthepeopl eheloves.”

“wow..Willt
heyhurthim?”shelaughs.“
I’
m aski
ng
notbecauseIcarebutbecauseIdon’
twant
anythi
ngbadt ohappentosicel
oandbonga.”It
ell
her.

“nahtheywon’thurthi
m.Iftheywant
edtohe
wouldn’
tbehere.”shesays.Wow.Wewaitfor
al
mostt wohoursandthentheycomeback
l
aughing.

“let’
sgoguyshavesomebr eakfastandbuy
furni
tur
eforyourhousebaby.”hesayswhenthey
getint
hecar
.Cel
est
egoeswi
thbongaandwedr
ive
off
.

“Whathappenedinthere?Whatdidyouwantt otalk
tohim about
?”Hechuckles.“onlythathemust
stopdoingwhatheisgoingtootherwomenwho
aredesperat
eandinneedofjobsorel seIwould
fi
ndallthewomenhehasdonet hesamet hi
nghe
didtoyouandgetthem toopenacaseagai nsthi
m.
”

“thankyoubaby.Ihopeheknowsyoumeantit
causeyoudidri
ght?.”hetakesmyhand.“Imeant
everywordmama.Icouldneverjokeabout
somethingsosensi
tivel
ikethi
s.”Inod.

“wher
earewehavingbreakf
astandwher
ear
ewe
goi
ngtobuyf
urni
ture?”

“youwi
lldeci
de.Wecanl
ookatt
hosef
urni
tur
e
shops.”hesays.

“Iwasthi
nkingthatmaybeIcoul
daskyoursi
ster
tohel
pmedecor atet
hehousecauseIhavenoidea
howtodecorateourbi
ghouse.Iwoul
dn’
tknow
wheretost
art.”

“oht hat’
sagr eati
deababy.Bet
weenyou, herand
Sims, t
heycanmakeyourhousebeasbeaut ifulas
youwant .Letshavebreakf
astfi
rstt
henwewi l
lcal
l
her.Iwashopi ngyouguyscanmeetf i
rstbefore
youtalkont hephonebutit
’sokay.”hesays.

“doyout
hinkshewi
lll
ikeme?”hi
sfacebeams

“she’sgoingtoloveyou.She’
sisanamazi
ng
person.You’l
lseewhenyoumeether.”

“babywhoi
skhanyo?”hel
ooksatme.
“it
’sLungi
’snamegivenbyherin-
laws.She’
s
nokukhanya.Theysai
dshebroughtli
ghtandlovei
n
mbuso'sli
fe.She’
shisl
ight
.”

“wowt
hat
’sbeaut
if
ul.”

“i
tismama.Iwonderwhatmyaunt
swi
llnameyou
”hechuckl
es.

“asl
ongasitwi
llhaveabeaut
if
ulmeani
ng.”It
ell
hi
m.“si
cel
o?”

“mama?”myhear
tmel
tswhenhecal
lsmet
hat
.

“whydi
dn’
twecont
inuehavi
ngsex?”

“ar
eyouhor
nyl
ove?”heasksmeser
iousl
y.Ibl
ush
soprof
usel
yli
keever
yonehear
dwhathej
ustasked
me.“babyman.”Il
augh.

“wellwedi dn’tf
uckeachot hercausethet hi
ngsI
wantt odot oyouwi l
lwakethekidsandt heywill
catchusi naver yuncompromi si
ngpositi
onand
becauseIwantt ofucktheshitoutofyouandmake
youloseyour sel
finme.Iwantust obeal onesoI
knowhowl oudIcanmakeyouscr eam andbegfor
mydi ck.Takeof fyourunderwear”Ipressmy
thi
ghst ogetherashesayst hat.

“wear
eal
mostatt
hemal
lbaby.”hecal
lsbonga.

“br
other
?”

“brot
herI’
m goingtopar
kattheundergr
ound
par
king.Wewillfi
ndyouinsi
de.You'
l
ltel
luswher
e
youareat?”
“coul
dn’
tyouwai
tatl
eastunt
ilyougothome?”he
saysl
aughi
ng.

“shutupfool
.Mywomanwant
sme.”hel
aughs
thenhangsup.

“Ican’
tbel
ieveyousaidt
hatt
ohi
m.Howam I
goi
ngtolookathim si
cel
o?”

“Thesamewayyouhaveal waysdone.Yousmile.”
hegri
ns.Ishakemyhead.Wearri
veatthemalland
begoestoparkatt
heundergr
oundparkingl
ot.He
l
ooksatmeandsmi les.

“Takeof fyourpant
iesmama.”myGodIgetwet .I
l
iftoffmybut tandt
akethem of
f.Het
akesthem
andsniffsthem.“yousmellsosweet
.Ican’
twaitt
o
tasteyou.”hesays.
“willanyoneseeus?”hepr essesabut t
onandmy
seatleansbackandl ayingf l
atonmybackandt he
seatmovesbackwar dt oo.“thewi ndowsar edark.
Noonewi l
lseeus.Wewi l
lseethem t hough.Li
ft
yourdressupandspr eadopent hosel egsforme.”
IdoashesaysandIknowhe’ sgoingt oseethatI
am wet .Helocksthedoor sthengetsup, jumps,I
l
iftupmyl egscauseIseewhathewant stodo.He
kneelsbetweenmyl egsandput smyl egsonhi s
shoulders.“thankGodf orGermanSUVmachi nes
andspace.Hehandsr unupanddownmyt hi
ghs
andIshudder .

“areyoureadyformemama?”Ishakemyheadno
theyesandhechuckles.Hi
shandsgoupandhe
cupsmypussy.Imoan.“youl ooksobeautif
ulbaby.
”hesayst henusest
hepadofhi sthumbsand
opensmyvul va.Hel
eansfor
war dt
henbl owsairi
n
mypussyandImoan.“si cel
o”Isayt henswall
ow.

“yesmama.Tel
lmewhatyouwantandneed.”
“Iwantyou.Ineedyoupl
ease.”

“wher
edoesi
tache?”

“si
cel
o?”Isayf
rust
rat
edandhel
aughs.

“tel
lmemamaorIwon’
tbeabl
etohel
pyou.”he
sayswi
thhi
samazi
ngsmil
e

“i
tachesher
e”Ipoi
ntatmypussy.

“tel
lmewherei
tachesbaby.”hismout
hisvery
cl
osetomypussycauseIcanfeelhi
swarm br
eath.

“mypussy….Pl
ease!
.”
“youdon’ thavet obegmebaby.Iam atyour
servi
ce.”hesaysandIf eel hiswholemout honmy
pussyandhemuf fsme.“yes!OhGodyes!”Isay
andoutmyhandonhi shead.Hi stonguegoesi n
andoutasi tfucksmesosweetandgood.I tmoves
i
n, i
tmovesout .Onmycl it
,ar ounditandImovemy
waistandf uckhi sface.Hemuf f
smel ikeit
’sthe
l
astt hinghewant stodobef or ehegoest oeathis
othermeal .Imoan, scream andhol dhisheadt i
ght
andcal lhi
sname.Icanf eel hisbeardiswetwi t
h
myj uicesandi t’
spr ickingmesogoodont heinside
ofmyt hi
ghs.Hi shandshol dmedownandt ight
andt heonsl aughtonandi nmypussybyhi smout h
continuesandIf eelmyor gasm comi ng.

Iwanttotellhi
mt hatIam goingt
ocomebutt he
onl
ywor dsthatcomeoutofmymout hismesaying
hi
snameoverandoveragai n.Mybloodisfl
owing
i
nalldi
recti
ons,myni ppl
esarehardandIwanthis
dam di
ckinme.Hegr oansandIhearshuff
li
ngof
hi
sbeltandohGodt hatbi
gjuicyt
hickdi
ckIsaw
makesmel osemymi ndandmybodybegi nsto
shake.Sicel
oqui ckl
ystops,grabsmythighsand
pull
smedownt ohim andIreali
sehispantsarenot
ther
e.Ifeelsomet hi
nghardonmyopeni ngandI
moanl oud.“siceloI
’m goi
ngt ocome.I’
m close”I
tel
lhim panti
ng.Her ubshisdickupanddownon
myopeni nggroaningandohGodi fhecanjustout
i
tinandf uckme.

Hedoesn’ tinst eadhel aysont opofmeas

uncomf ortableasi tishedoesn’ tseem t omi nd.Hi
s
dickpressesdi rectlyonmycl i
tandImoanand
cl
osemyeyes.Hecl ai
msmymout h, kissesme
deeplyandt hrustshi shipsandhi sdi cki spressi
ng
hardonmycl itsowheni tmovesi tcausesa
wonder f
ulf ri
ction.Ourt onguesandl ipsdanceas
wecont inuet ogi vewhatourbodi escr avet hemost.
Hishandsgoundermeandhegr absbot hass
cheeksandcont i
nuest ot hr
ust.Myl egsshake
vi
olentl
yandIcan’ thol donanymor e.Il etgoandlet
mycl i
maxt akeoverasImoanhi snamei nhis
mouthoverandovergai n.Helet’smymout hgo
andbur i
eshi sheadi nmyneckandgr oansdeep.
Hestil
lst
henIfeel
hiswar m seedonmystomach
ashecumsunt i
lhefi
nishes.Iam sowetandmy
cl
othesareatt
ooandhi salsotoo.

“maphol
oba?”

“yebomama?”(yes?)hesays.

“Iwantmor
e.Theki
dsareatschoolwehavet
he
whol
ehousetoour
sel
ves.”

“youwantmydi
cki
nyou?”

“pl
ease?
.”

“l
et’
sgohome.”

“whataboutbongaandCel
est
e?”
“theywi l
lbefinebaby.”heki ssesmet heget soff
me.Wi peshisseedwi thmyunder wearthenpulls
mydr essdown.Het uckshi
msel fi
nandbuckl eshis
beltbutyoucanst i
llseehowhar dheis.Hest art
s
theengineandof fwedr i
veshome.Wegett herein
10mi nutes.Hepar ks,Igetouttaki
ngmyhandback.
Opent hedoort henr untoourbedroom andt akeoff
mycl othes.Hecomesi naftermeandl ocksour
bedroom doorandIhel phim outofhisclot
hest oo
andmymani sdr opdeadgor geous.

“ohf
uck?
!.”hesays

“what
?What
’swr
ongnow?”Iwhi
ne.

“wehavenocondoms!
.Fuck!
.”

“wedon’tneedthem si
cel
o..It
rustyouandIknow
youwi
llneverputmyl i
fei
ndanger.Iwanttof
eelal
l
ofyouwit
hnothingbet
weenus.”hepi
cksmeup,I
wrapmylegsaroundhim andweki
ssdeepl
yand
passi
onat
ely.

“Ican’
twait
.Ihavet
obei nsi
deofyou.Iwant
edout
fi
rstt
imetobesomethingyouwil
lal
ways
rememberbut.
.”hesaysbetweenki
sses

“St
op.Tal
kingandf
uckme”It
ellhi
m

Helaysmedownwithhi
m andweconti
nuetoki
ss.
Hi
shandsareonmyassandIlovethewayheis
gr
abbingt
hem.“putmeinyou”hesays.

Isnakemyhandbet weenusandgr abhim andhe

groans.Ipumphi m upanddownt i
ghterandtight
er
andhecur ses.Ipointhi
sproudmemberonmyhol e
andwai tf
orhimt othrusti
n.Myhear tisbeati
ngso
fastbecauseIcan’twaittofeelhi
mi nme.
“Areyouready?”heasksmeInod.“lookatme”
hesaysIdo.Hethrusti
nali
tt
leandIam pant
ing
l
ikeadoginheat.

Ipullmyhandof fandwaitforhim.“focusonme
andourkissokay.”Inod.Heki ssesmesl owlyand
Ifocusont hat
.Idi
dn’tknowlookingatyourman
strai
ghti
nt heeyeswhenyouar ebeingintimatecan
beoneoft hemostsexiestt
hings.Het hr
ustsinand
getshissoftvel
vetmushroom headinandwebot h
moan.Ifeelmymuscl esexpandingwi t
hpai nbuti
t
feelsdamngood.“youokay?”

“sicelo?!
.”whyishet
alki
ng?
.Hechucklest
hen
thr
ust si
nhardanddeepandIscr
eam fuckt
hatdi
d
hurt.“youokay?”

“Aha”Iwhi sper.Healmostpul
lsoutbuthi
sdickis
sti
llinthenhethrust
sdeepagainandIcryout
.It
feelssogoodwi thali
tt
lebi
tofpai
n.Hekeeps
thrusti
nginandoutslowlyanddeepl
ybutIwant
more.Idon’
twanthimtohandlemeli
keI’m anegg.
Doesthismanrememberwhenwast helastIhada
di
ckinme?Ormaybehei saf
raidt
hatIwil
lfreak
outi
fhegetsalit
tl
erough?.

“baby….
ah”het
hrust
sdeepl
yandwebot
hmoan.
“yesbaby?”

“Iwantital
l.Don’
tholdbackpl
ease.Justfuckme!
.
”hedoesn’tsayanythi
ngbutli
ft
shisupperbody
up.Handsonei t
hersi
deofmyhead.Pul lsoutt
he
thr
ustsi
nhar danddeepandIcryout“yes!.”hi
s
thr
ustsgetmoreandmor ehardandhef ucksme.

Myboobsbounceupanddownashef uckst he
l
ivi
ngdayl i
ght
soutofme.Hegr absmyboobswi th
bothhishandsandplayswithmyni pples,Ibit
emy
bott
om li
ptokeepmef rom scr
eami ng.Hehandsgo
downandgr abmywai st,
li
ft
ingmyassof fthebed.
Iputmyhandsont heheadboardandpushbackon
him andhepushesin.Itf
eel
ssogoodand
wonderfulandthewayhei scont r
oll
ingmy
movementandhi sthrustsisthemoster oti
ct hi
ngI
haveeverseenorexper i
enced.Heknocksof fmy
breat
hwi t
heveryt hrustandIloveever ymoment .I
comecal l
inghi
snamebuthedoesn’ tstop,he
conti
nuest of
uckmesensel essly.Ididn’tknowsex
canbesoamazi ngandenj oyable.Il
ovesex! .

Siceloistheonl ymanwhohasevergi venmean

Orgasm andIknowhei salwaysgoi ngt ogiveme
mor e.Hepul l
shi sbodydown, Iwrapmyar ms
aroundhi sneckandl etourmout hsdot hetalking.I
wr apmyl egsar oundhi swaistandheappr oves
becausehegr oansandf ucksmeunt i
lmyl egs
begint oshakeagai n.Hei ssayi ngsomet hi
ngbutI
can’thearwhathei ssayingbecauset hegr eatest
feeli
ngI ’
m havingrightnowi smaki ngmegodeaf .
Hispubi chairrubbingmypubi cbone,thewayhi s
dickf eel
sti
ghtlyaroundmehi tti
ngeveryner ve
drivesmecr azy.Igr abhist i
ghtbeaut i
fulassand
feelitcontr
actingandexpandi ngonmyhandsand
Imoan.Het hrustshar der,st
illfl
exi
nghi ships
pressi
ngdeeperandt hatmakesmecum har d!.My
vaginamuscl escont
ractar
oundhim andIscr eam
andcallhisname.Hepul l
sbackthent hr
ustsin
againfastthenhegroansdeepandIf eelhi
m
spil
li
nghi sseeddeepinmet henIf
eelhiswhol e
bodywei ghtonme.Iloveit
.

Wehol deachot hertight

lyandl i
stentothebeat sof
ourheart
s.Iclosemyeyest henIfeelhi
m pul li
ng
out.Hechucklest henturnsmet henkneel s.Hei s
nottir
ed?Doesn’ theneedt opreparehimsel ffor
anotherr
ound? .ThemomentIgetonal lfourshe
thrust
sinhardandf ucksmesogoodIr egr et
askinghi
mt ofuckme.Hef ucksmeunt ilIaskhi m
tostopcauseIam goodbuthemakesmecl imax
twomor eti
mesbef orehecumsandIbl ackoutand
sleep.
CHAPTER49.

SI
CELO.
Shel ookssobeaut i
fulandt horoughl
yfucked.What
webot hshar edjustnowi ssomet hi
ngIhavenever
exper i
encedbef ore.Iwantt owakeherupandf uck
heragai nbutIcan’ tbecauseherbodyneedst orest
.
Shehasn’ thadsexi naver ylongtimeandherbody
hast ogetusedt oitagain.Ilovethi
swomanandI
hopeherandl uhwouldgetcl oseandbecause
sistersli
kemeandmbuso.Igot akeaquickshower
thengot ot hekitchen.Wer eallyneedfur
nit
urein
thishouse.Wecan’ tli
vel i
kethisli
kehowmbuso
andl uhlivedi nt
heirempt yhouse.

Isi
tdownthentakemyphone,sendCelestea
messaget
obeingusfoodthenIcalldad.“seen?”

“Maphol
oba.Unj
ani
?”(dadhowar
eyou?)

“goodseun.Howar
eyou?
.”

“Icoul
dbebet
ter
.”
“t
alkt
ome.
.”

“Imett hi
swomam dad.Hernamei sl
esego
Mot aungandshe’sfrom Bet
hlehem.Shehast wo
kids.Aboykagiso,he’s8ndagi rlkamoheloshe’
s
7.Iloveher.Il
ovethem.Allofthem.Shehashada
roughandhar dli
febabaandherf amilyhadahand
oni t
.Ihavefoundherbaba.”

“Ngwendecal
ledmet ocomeandseehim andhe
tol
dmeyouhavef oundyoursoul
mat
e.Hedi dsay
shehaski
dstoo.SoIguessIam agr
andfather
.”he
l
aughs.

“youar
e.Sheisamazingbabaandyouaregoi
ngto
l
oveher.She’
sagreatmotherandal
ovi
ngperson.”

“Idon’tdoubti
t.Yousoundhappyanddifferentson.
I
’m happyforyousicel
o.Butyouhaven’
ttoldme
whati
str
oubl
ingyou.”mydadknowsmesowel
l.

“Iwantedt odothingsther i
ghtwaybababutwhen
Isawhowmuchi thurtthem whenItookthem back
home, i
tkil
ledme.Ihavenevercr iedli
keIdidwhen
theyaskedmenott otakethem back.IknowIcried
whenIf oundulungil
ebutt hiswasdiff
erentdad.I
gottoexperiencewhatitwast obeapar ent.”It
ell
dadhowl esegolived.Everythi
ngshetoldmeand
whathappenedwhenIdr oppedthem off
.

“Shei ssoyoungt ohavel i

vedsuchal i
fe.What
kindofpar entsar etheseson? .Ithoughtwehad
fi
nal l
ygottenridoft hemazi buko'sbuther ear
ethe
mot aung'salso!.”hesoundsf rustrat
ed.
“traditi
onall
ywhatyoudi dwaswr ongandyou
disrespecttheirfami l
ybutIunder standwhyyoudi d
i
tandi fIwasinyourshoesson, Iwoul dhavedone
thesamet hi
ng.Si celoyouar eaf athernow.Your
pasthast obet hepasti ncl
udingZama.Youcannot
keepcal li
ngthatgi rlcausethatwi l
lhurt
maMotaung.Whatyoudi
disenoughandnowshe
hast
ostandonherowntwofeet.”

“IknowdadandIwill.There’
ssomeonewhoowes
meaf avourandIwi
llaskthem t
ogiveZamaajob.
”

“Yougavehersecur i
ty.Ahomeandacarandt hat
i
senough.Mbusogotheraj ob.Callherandt ellher
i
t’sthelastti
met hebothofyouar egoingtot alkor
youdosomet hi
ngf orherbecauseyouhavemet
yourwi f
e.Itwil
lhurtherbutsheneedst oknowt hat
i
tisover .Youandherar enevergoingtogetback
together.MaMotaunghasbeent hr
oughal otsi cel
o
andwhatsheneedsnowi t’
slotsoflove.Tellme
again.Whatdoyouwantmeyourf athertohel pyou
withbecauseIknowyouboysar ecapableofdoi ng
thi
ngsonyourown.Sot hi
smustbei mportant.”he
says.

“Iunder
standbabaandIwil
ldowhatyouhave
advi
sedmet odo.BabaIwantt
omarryherassoon
aspossibl
e.Iwantt osendal et
tertoherf amilyand
askforherhandinamar r
iageandpaywhat ever
pri
cetheywantasl ongast heywi l
lbeal ll
ivi
ngwi th
me.Iwantust odoever yt
hingtheyar egoingt oask.
Idon’
twantt oki
llthem althoughGodknowshow
muchIwantt okilleachandever yoneoneoft hem
butwecan’t.Iwantt hem toseehowl esegoandt he
ki
dslivesaregoi
ngt ochange.Iwantt hem tor egr
et
andbesor r
yfortreatingherthewayt heyhavebeen
doi
ng.”

“Ihearyouson.Wewil
lsendalet
teraft
ert
he
weekendbecausewehavetogoto
Piet
ermari
tzbur
g.Your
ememberthattheyhaveto
doacleansingt
onamethechil
dBuhleabort
ed.”

“Ihadf
orgot
ten.Havet
heyal
readyl
eft
?.”

“It
hinkt
heyareleavi
ngt
omor
row.Whenwi
llyou
come,al
lofyou?”
“doyouthinkit’
sagoodideatocomewit
h
ever
yonebecauseIdon’twanttot
aket
heatt
ent
ion
awayfrom them.”

“sonyouknowver ywellt
heyaredoi
ngthis
becausel uhispregnantandtheydon’
twantthe
otherchildtocauseharm onluhandherpregnancy.
Ifitwasn’tfort
hatIdoubttheywouldbehavinga
cleansi
ngandwebot hknowt heywil
lnotatallmi
nd
butifyouf eelt
hatyoushouldbringt
hem tothe
farmf i
rstthendothat.”

“It
hinkwewilldr
ivedownonFr i
dayaft
ernoont
hen
wewillgoonSaturdaytobabMnguni'
shouse.I
wanttheki
dstoseet hefar
m andani
mals.”

“youdon’tknowhowhappyIam tohearyousound
sohappyson.Ican’twai
ttomeetmygrandki
dsand
fut
uredaughteri
n-l
aw.”
“thankyoudad.Ican’
twai
tforyout
omeett
hem
too.Baba?”

“ndodana.”
.(son)

“Iwanttheki
dst
ousemyname.Oursur
name
baba.”

“Si
cel
o.Areyousureaboutt
hatbecausethef
amily
pai
dthef
ineandthekidsusethei
rsurnameri
ght
?”

“Hepaidoneforkagisoandnotkamo.Bot hthe
ki
dsusehersur name.Shedidn’tchangei
taft
erhe
pai
dthefi
ne.BabaIdon’ twanthim anywher
enear
kamo.Iwi
llki
llhim dadIswear.”

“Wehavetomakesurethatkamoneverknowsthi
s.
Iwi
llt
alkt
oyouruncl
esandNgwendeaboutt he
waywehavet ogoaboutt ogett
hekidstouseour
sur
name.Youar edoingtheri
ghtthi
ngaboutthe
ki
dstouseoursurnamebecauseal lt
hekidsyou
wil
lhavewit
hherwilluseyoursurnameandit
wouldn’
tbefai
rtokagisoandkamot ousetheir
mother’
ssur
name.”

“thankyoudad.Iwasscaredt
oaskyoubecauseI
thoughtyouwouldr
efuse.”

“Ioncetoldyousi
cel
othatmychi l
dren’
shappi
ness
i
smynumberonepr i
ori
tyandmyhappi nesst
oo.
Wewi llf
indawaytosor
teveryt
hingoutson.Don’
t
worry.”

“Okmaphol
oba.Enoughaboutme,
howar
eyou?”

“I
’
m good.Imetsomeonet
hough.
”Webot
hlaugh.
“Youdi
d?.Whoi
sshe?”

“She’
sawi dowerl
ikeme.Shehast
hreedaught
ers
andshel
iveshere”

“Wowdad.I’
m happyforyou.Haveyougoneout
andmetherf
amily?.”

“Wehave.She’
sagoodwomanandherki
dsar
e
goodt
oo.”

“Idi
dn’
texpectt
hat
.Haveyout
oldl
uh?”hesi
ghs.

“Ihaven’t.Idon’
tknowhowshe’ sgoingtot
akeit
causewi t
hheri t
’sdif
fer
entsicel
o.Yourmom di
ed
whenshewasyoungandevent houghshehasher
pict
ures,shedoesn’trememberherandIdon’t
knowi fshewi l
lacceptAgnesorwhat.You
rememberherandIhopewhenyoumeetheryou
woul
dseet
hat
’sshesagoodwoman.
”

“Idon’tthi
nkl
uhwi l
lhaveaprobl
em aslongasshe
makesyouhappyt henwewi l
lnothaveaprobl
em
withthatandhonest
lydadyouhavebeensingl
efor
years.I
t’st
imeyoufindsomeonetomakeyou
happyt oo.
”

“thankyouson.Iwilltal
kt oluhaboutheraft
ershe
hasgivenbir
th.Ican’twaittoseeherkidstoo.”we
bothlaugh.

“Metoodad.I
’m goingtospoi
lthem anddr
ive
mbusocr
azy.”wel augh.

“Pr
est
ont
oldyouwhatt
heyar
ehavi
ngr
ight
?”

“hedidbutrui
nedt
hesur
pri
sef
orever
yoneabout
thet
wins.”
“hewasexci
tedanddr
ankt
oomuchwi
ne”

“doweknowwhoi
sthesni
tch?”

“youdon’
tthi
nki
t’
sPr
est
ondoyou?”

“Idon’tknowdad.IaskedCel
est
etofindout
i
nformationabouthi
m andshehasn’
tfoundout
anyt
hing.”

“mbusowon’tl
etanyoneclosetol
uhwit
hout
checki
nghi
m outfi
rst
.I’
l
ltalkt
ohim.”

“Whati
fhe’
snotwhowet
hinkhei
s?.”

“si
celothatboyspendsmostoft
heti
mewit
hyour
si
steral
onewhenmbusoi sworki
ngandhas
meet i
ngsinDurban.Ifhe’snotwhowethinkheis
thenhecouldeasilyhurther.Eysi
cel
oforhissakeI
hopeyouar ewrongsonbecausewhenI
i
nvestigat
edhim, i
tshowedt hathecomesfrom a
Christ
ianfami
lyandbot hhisparent
sareret
ired
nurses.AskCelest
eifshehasf oundoutanythi
ng
mor eabouthi
m.I ’
l
ltalktombuso.”

“okdad.”

“sureseun. ”Wehangup.Ihopemyuncl esanddad

willfi
ndawayf ormet obeabl et
ochanget hekids
surname.Icouldadoptt hem t
henchanget heir
surnamesbutIwantt odoi ttr
adi
ti
onall
yf i
rst.I
wantt hentober ecognizedbymyancest orsandbe
protectedbythem.Imayhavenotbi r
thedt hem but
tomet heyaremineinal lwaysandIwantmy
familytoknowt hatalso.

Il
ookattheti
meandit’
s11am.Shei sst
il
lnappi
ng
andI
’m hungr
y.Iwonderwhati
staki
ngCelest
eand
bongat
hisl
ongtocomebackwit
hfood.Ical
l
mbuso,
hepicksupwhenaboutt
ohangup.

“Maphol
oba”

“Phakat
hwayo.”

“Howar
eyoubr
other
?”

“st
rongandbet
tert
hanyest
erday.”

“good.Howar
etheki
dsandMr
s?”Ichuckl
e.

“she’
snappinggoodandt
hekidsar
eatschool
.
Theyaregoodman.Howareyouguys?”

“okman.WegoodbutIwantt
hesepeopl
eoutof
myhousesi
cel
o.”Il
augh.
“Howf
arar
ethey?
.”

“goodthingist
heysplitj
obs.Ot
hersarealmost
donewiththebathr
oomsandt heki
tchenisalmost
done.It
hinkbytomorrowtheyshouldal
lbedone
andoutofhere.Ihopesheisdonewithrenovat
ions.
”Ichuckle

“howi
sshe?”

“she’
sout
sidewi
thPr
est
on,
youwantt
otal
ktoher
?
”

“I
’l
lcal
lher
.Thankyouf
orgi
vingZamaaj
ob.How
di
dyouknowthough?”

“whenIsawyouwithlesegoyest
erdayandt
hekids,
Iknewshe’
stheoneforyouandyoucan’tmess
thatupbybusyt alki
ngtoZama.SoIaskedl uhto
callherandfindouthowshe’ sdoingandshet old
herthatshe’sstr
uggli
ngt of
indaj obandshe’ sstil
l
wai t
ingforyoucauseyoupromi sedhert hatyou
willfi
ndsomet hi
ng.Icall
edsomeoneIknowand
askedhi mifhecouldgiveZamaaj obandhedi d.
Sinceshe’sgoingtograduatenextyearheof f
ered
heraj obI’
m marketi
ng.Itol
dheri t
’sfrom you,
you’retheonewhoaskedmet ocallher.Shewi l
lbe
fi
ne.”

“t
hanksbr
other
.Howdi
ddadknow?”

“manyouknowhi m.Hedoeshi
sown
i
nvest
igat
ions.”wel
augh.

“Iwil
lcal
lherandtel
lherit
’st
helastt
imeIwi
llbe
hel
pingherandtel
lheraboutl
esego.”

“br
otherwhatyouhadwi
thzamawasn’
ta
rel
ati
onshipsoyoudon’ toweheranyexpl anati
ons.
Iknowyoudi dherwrongbutyouhaveapol ogized
andmadei tuptoher.Themoneyyougaveher ,
gaveherachancet ostartabrandnewl i
fewhi chis
whatsheisdoing.Youhavet ostopcalli
ngherand
fi
ndingoutwhatisgoingonherl if
ecausewhenyou
keepdoingthat,
youarenotbr eaki
ngtieswi t
hher.
Youwi l
lhurtl
esegoinsomewaywhenyoukeep
doingthat
..She’
syourpastandl etherstaythere
andmoveon. ”

“thanksfordoi
ngt
hatandt
headvi
seman.I
appreci
ateit
.”

“howar
ewegoi
ngt
odealwi
thl
esego’
sfami
ly?
.”

“Iwantthem toregr
eteverhur t
ingher
.Iwantthem
toseehowhappyshei sgoingtobe.Iwantthento
seeherfl
ouri
shing.Idon’twantthem t
odiebutthey
mustsufferl
ikehowt heymadehersuf f
er.Have
youfoundoutanythingaoutt hem?”
“st
il
lchecki
ngt
hem out
.”

“Wher
eist
hatpol
iceguy?”

“He’sinNewcastl
enow.IhopeAlexwil
lbeableto
sorthi
m outbutwehavetoexpecthi
scallj
usti
n
case.”hesays

“yeah.Ican’
tbel
ievewehaveasni
tchar
oundus.
”

“andwedon’
tknowwhoi
tis.
”

“doyout
hinki
tcoul
dbePr
est
on?”Iaskhi
m.

“I’
l
lki
llt
hatl
it
tl
ebit
chifi
t’
shim.Iinvesti
gat
edhi
m
andhecomesf r
om aChr
ist
ianfamily.”
“Dadsai dthesamethingbutCel
est
esai
dther
e’s
nothingaboutPrest
onothert
hanhecameto
Ladysmithandopenedhissurger
y.Hei
snot
ori
ginall
yfr
om here.”

“Fuck.Whichmeansit’
seit
herheknewthatwe
weregoingtoi
nvesti
gatehi
m whenwecont act
ed
hi
mt osetupanappointmentorsomeoneishelpi
ng
hi
mt ocoverhi
stracksormaybehejustwants
not
hingtodowithhisfamil
ythat
’swhyhemoved
her
e.”

“itcoul
dbebutfornowwehavetobecaref
ul.You
shouldnotl
eaveheralonewi
thhi
m anymor
euntil
wef i
ndoutthet
ruthandweshoul
dkeepaneyeon
him.”

“Iwil
l.I
’
m goingtocheckthewhol ehouseandsee
i
tther
ear eanyhiddencamerasandl i
steni
ng
devi
ceswhilstt
heyaresti
llout
side.Ihopeweare
wrongman.”
“Ifi
t’
snothi
mthenwhocoul
ditbetel
li
ngthepol
ice
causeheist
heonl
yout
sidei
nthefamil
yr?”

“manIdon’tknowbutwewi llgett
othebott
om ofi
t.
Ihavet
ocallCelesteandgetherhere.Whenar
e
youguyscoming? .”

“wewillseeyouonSat urdaybutwearegoi
ngto
comeFr i
day.Iwantthekidstomeetdadandsee
thef
arm.Ican’twaitforl
uhtomeether.”

“She’sexcit
edtooandshecan’twaittomeetal
lof
them ”hesays.BongaandCelesteri
ngthedoorbel
l.
“brotherCel
estei
shere.I
’
llt
ellheryouwanttosee
here.”

“okmanwewi
llt
alk.”
“Surebrot
her
.”wehangup.Iopenf
ort
hem and
theybr
oughtsomuchfood.

“t
hanksguys.Iam sohungr
y.”t
heyl
augh.

“sext
endstodothatespeci
all
ywhenyouf uck
someonewhenyourdidn’
teat.”bongasays.

“Cel
estembusowant
syoui
nLadysmi
thasi
n
yest
erday.”

“wellt
henIbet
tergo.Ar
eyoust
ayi
ng?”sheasks
bonga?

“youneedme?”

“I’
m goodman.Theguysar
eher
eshoul
danyt
hing
happen.”It
ellhi
m.
“t
ellmbusot
osendsomeonet
ocomeandpi
ckme
uptomorr
ow.”

“ok.Lat
erboys”shel
eaves.

“Whyar
eyoust
ayi
ngbehi
nd?”

“Ican’
tleaveyouher
eal
onef
ornow.Iwi
llgo
tomorr
ow.”

“Thanksman.”

“sohowwasi
t?”hewi
ggl
eshi
seyebr
ows.

“Shutupfool
.Shewillhearyou!.”welaugh.Il
ook
behi
ndmeandshe’ snothere.“manIwantgo,
wakeherupthenfuckheruntilshecan’twal
k.”we
l
augh

“Damnt
hatgood?
!.”

“Heavenbr
other
.Heaven.”wef
istbumpandl
augh.

“Whydoesmbusowantt oseeCeleste?”Itel
lhi
m
whatwet hi
nkandhedoesn’tlookshocked.“Idi
d
askyouguysifwecantrustthegooddoct orand
youallsai
dwecan.I
fit
’snothi mthenwho?”

“whati
fit’
sVict
or?Whati
fheismadt
hatwef
orced
hi
mt oki
llhi
sdaughter
?”hesays.

“shhnotsol oud.Vict
or?No!.Hehel
peduswi t
h
gett
inghisbrother
’sDNAandmbusot ookhimt o
seehisgrandson.Idon’tt
hinkhecanbethatstupi
d
again.”
“hedidonceandhecandoi tagain.Hehasnothi
ng
nowsicel
o.Hekill
edthedaught erheneverknewhe
hadandLungiiswithherrealfamilyandwhatdoes
hehave?.Agrandsononly?”

“manwear ebei
ngparanoi
drightnow.Lett
hem
i
nvest
igat
ethenwetakeoutthepersonwhois
messi
ngwi t
hourfami
ly.”

“okt henbutIthi
nkweshouldtakePrest
on,
roughenhim upabitandlethi
mt akeali
edet ect
or
test
..Thatwaywecanbeonehundr edpercentsure
thatheisnotthesni
tch.
”Ishakemyhead.

“Andi
fhe’
snot
?”

“wewi
llsaysor
ry.Let
’sr
atherbet
hansor
ry.”

“Ok.Iagr
eedoi
tbutl
etmbusoknowj
usti
ncasei
f
Pr
est
ont
hinkswear
eont
ohi
m.”

“Tomor
rowI
’
m oni
t.”

“manwecan’
tgetpeacei
nthi
sfami
ly.”

“Iknowandi
tsucks.”

“wewi
llgetanswer
sthough.”It
ellhi
m.

“I’
mthinki
ngofpr
oposi
ngtoSims.It
alkedtodad
andaskedhimtowri
tealet
tert
oherf
ami l
y.”what
?

“wowmant hat
’sgr
eat
.Iam sohappyforyoubut
youdon’
tlookHappywhat’
swr ong?
.”

“I
t’
smom.Idon’
tthi
nkshel
ikesSi
ms.”
“what
?Why?”

“becauseshehaski
dsandt
heki
dsar
enotmi
ne.”

“Fuckmant
hat
’sbad.Haveyout
ri
edt
otal
ktoher
?
”

“manIdi d.It
oldherthatIcoul
dhavehadkidstoo
ofonlythatbi
tchdi
dn’tabortmychi
ld.WhenItold
them whatIwantedtodoshegotupandl ef
t.”

“tal
ktoherandfi
ndoutwhat’
swrong.Yourmom is
alovi
ngpersonbonga.Fi
ndoutwhat
’sbother
ing
heraboutSi
msandmaybeshewi l
lopenup.”

“Iwil
lbutwhati
fsherefusestoacceptSi
msand
herki
ds?.Whatam Igoi
ngt odo?”
“I
fshet
ell
syouthatshedoesn’
twantyout
omar
ry
Si
mswhatwil
lyousayordo? .”

“I
’l
lrespect
ful
lytel
lheri
t’
snotherdecisi
onandI
wil
lmarryherwhethersheagreesornot.Il
oveher
si
celoandourkids.Shewil
ljusthavet
ogetusedto
i
tbecauseshei sgoi
ngnowher e.”

“tal
ktoherbr othermaybesheisscaredabout
something.”henods.“i fmyauntt
ell
smeshe
doesn’tl
ikelesego, manIwouldn’
tevencare.As
l
ongasl uhanddadacceptandl oveherandt he
ki
ds,that’
sal lthatmatterst
omeandt ohellwit
h
ever
yoneel se.”Wel augh.

“Ihearyouman.Iwillt
alkt
oher.”hesighs.Thi
s
thi
ngisweighi
ngheavil
yonhim.IfmaGumede
doesn’
tli
keSimsitcoul
dcauseproblemsbetween
l
uhandSi msbecauseSimswillf
eelthatl
uhisthe
favour
it
eandloveddaught
erinlawwhil
stshe’
snot
andwecan’thavethat
.Iwi
llhavetot
alktombuso
total
ktohi
smom.
CONTI
NUALOFCHAPTER49

LUNGI

Ihopethingsbetweenmybr otherandlesegowi l
l
workoutandt heywi l
lbeaf amilybecausef r
om
whathetoldmeabouther ,shesoundsl i
keshei s
anamazingper son.Myhusbandi sonhiswayback
andIguesshewi l
lfil
lmeinabouthowt hingswent
i
nBet hl
ehem.Iundr essthengot obathroom and
haveacol dshower.Itcoolsmybodydown
becauseIfeelsohotandi tdoesn’thelpthatit
’s
wayhotout si
detoo.Ist ayinshowerunt i
lIfeelli
ke
I’
m ahumanagai nt hencarefull
ystepout.

It
akethetowelanddrymyself
.Thengotothe
cl
oset
,fi
ndmbusoT- shi
rtandweari
t.It
akeour
clothesoutfrom t
heclosetandbegi npackingt
hem
becausewehavet oleavet omorrowmor ni
ngand
got omyi n-
lawsbecausewehaveacer emonywe
havedobef oreIgivebirt
h.I ’
m honest
lyhappythat
buhl eandherparentsareoutofourl i
veseven
thoughmyf amil
ydidasl oppyjobwhent heygotri
d
ofthem.Paulcalledmeaf termbusoleft
,whenI
hear ditwashisvoiceont hephoneIhangedupand
blockedhisnumber .

Ikeepgoi ngbackandf orthtoourbedr oom and

closetbecauseIcan’ tcarrymanycl othesatonce.I
couldasksi snont otohel pmebutIwantt odoi t
mysel f.I
’m carrymbuso’ sshoeswhent heysli
pand
fall
.Fuck, Icouldl eavet hem therebutIcouldt ri
p
ont hem andf all.Iplacet heotherthreeont hebed
thenhol dont ot hebedandbenddownandt aket he
onet hatfell
.“Ar eyoudonepacki ng?”i t
’sPreston.
He’sbeenher ethewhol etimeandIcan’ tremember
whenwast helastt imehespentani ghtahi spl ace.
Ili
kehi m andal lbutf ranklyIthinkImadeami stake
butgi vi
nghi m ar oom atourhousecausei tseems
l
ikehehasmovedi nandIdon’tthinkIl
iket
hat.NoI
knowIdon’tl
ikethatnow.It
akethedamnshoe
them sl
owlystandandturnt
olookatPreston.I
almostgaspinshockbutsomethingtel
lsmet o
pret
endthatIdidn’
tseewhatIsaw“almost.Why?”
Iaskhim.

“becauseyouhavebeenher ei
nyourbedr oom for
toolongandIwasbegi nningtogetwor r
ied”he
sayslikehe’sveryconcerned.“Iwasjustpacking
ourclothesfortheweek.Ar eyoucomi ngwithus?”
Ilookathim? .Heshakeshi shead.“Idon’tt
hinkI
am mbuso' sfavourit
epersonrightnowandIt hi
nk
i
t’sbestifIstayclearfr
om him.”goodi dea.

“wellyoubasical
lyspoi
ledoursurpri
sewhenyou
tol
deveryoneaboutmecar r
yingtwins.Youtook
thatmomentawayf rom usPrest
on.Itwaswr ongof
youtosayt hat
!”hesighsandsit
sonmybed.
“don’tsi
tonmybed.Si tonthecouch.”helooksat
mesur pr
isedbythetoneofmyvoi ce.“youare
angryatmetoo?.I
’
m sor r
yIdidokay.Ithinkit
’st
he
winethatmademej ustbl
urtitout.”hesaysand
agai
nI ’
m wor
ri
edabouthi m blabbi
ngstuffout
.

“hmmm, itmakesmewonderi fyouhavenot

spil
ledoursecr et
stoot herpeoplewedon’ tknow
about.”hegaspsatmeshocked.“yout hinkt hatI
havetoldotherpeopl ethingsaboutyourf ami l
y?.”I
stoppacking,trytofoldmyar msont opofmy
babiesthenlookathi m.“wel lhaveyou? .Imean
youhadf ourglassesofwi nePrestonthenyou
blur
teditout.Iffourglassesofwi necanmakeyou
spil
lsecretsthenimagi neifyouwer egiven
somet hi
ngstronger?!.”

“wellIhaveknownt hi
sf amil
yforafewmont hsand
yesIhavehear dthingsanddi dn’
tseemanyoft hem
becausetheguysal waysexcl udemebuteveni f
theydidn’
t,Iwouldn’tt
ellanyoneanythi
ng.Ithought
youknewmebet t
erthant hat
.”hesoundshur tand
Isti
lldon’
tbuyit.“dower eal
lyknowyouPr eston
othert
hanyouar eadoctorandyourfamily
disownedyoubecauseyouar egay?”heget sup
fr
om thecouchlooki
ngatmener vously.
“Ithinki
t’
s
besttogobacktomypl acebefor
ewebot hsay
somethingt
hatwewi l
lregret
.”hesays.

“whatar eyouhi dingPr eston?Whoar eyou?”he

l
ooksatmeandIf eelt hehai ronthebackofmy
neckst and.Hewon’ thur tmecanhe?I ’
m notalone
i
nt hehouseandt here’ssecur i
tyoutside.I
fI
scream, theywoul dcomei nhererunning.“I’m
goingtogo.I ’
llseeyou. ”Hequi ckl
yleavesandI
breathoutdeepl y.Iwasn’ tevenawar ethatIwas
holdi
ngmybr eat h.Isitdownandmyhear tis
beatingfast.Coul dIbewr ongaboutPr est
on?And
possiblyhaver uinedourf ri
endship?.Idon’tknow
butmygutsaysot herwise.

IhavetotellmbusowhatI ’
mthinki
ngand
suspect
ing.Hewi l
lknowwhatt odoanddealwi
thi
t
butonethingIknowf orsurei
shewouldneverl
et
anyoneclosetomewi t
houtchecki
ngthem outfi
rst
.
Itakemyphone, l
eavethebedr
oom andgot othe
ki
tchen.Nontoiscomingandthehousesmel l
s
amazing.“whatarewehavingfordi
nner?”
Iaskher .

“it’
sasur pr
isel uh.”shesayssmi l
ing.“Preston
toldmet otellyout hat
,he’sleavingandhedoesn’ t
knowwhenhewi l
lbebackbuthel eftanumber
here…f oradoct orwhowi llt
akeoverf rom him.”
what ?
,whatisher unningawayf rom? .“oksisnont
o,
I’
llcal
lthedoct orthankyou.”t hedooropensand
i
t’smyhusband.Nont oleavest heki t
chen.He
standsbehindmet henhugsmebr eathingout
deeply.

“love?Areyouokay?”hekissesmyhair,for
ehead
thenturnst
hechairaroundandkissesmedeeply.
Somet hi
ngiswrong.Ipushhim offmel
ightl
y“tal
k
tome.What ’
swrong?”

“ar
eyouhungr
y?”heasksme.Ishakemyheadno.
“let’
sgot oourbedr oom andI ’l
ltellyou.”hesays.
“phakat hwayo, si
tdownandl etmepl ateupf oryou
thenwewi llgotoourbedr oom okay? .Letmef eed
youf i
rst .”hegoest owashhi shandsandIgetup
andpl atef orhimt henputt hefooddowni nf rontof
him.It akehi sf
ork,rollthespaghet tiaroundt he
forkandbr i
ngsittohi smout h.“open”It ellhim.He
smi l
esandmyhear tmel t
s.Heopenshi smout hand
Ifeedmyhusband, hef eedsmet oobutI ’
mt heone
eatingt hemostoft hef ood.Wear ej ustsilent,
sil
li
ngwat erandenjoyi ngt hespaghet t
iand
meat bal l
s.Nont oout doneher selfcauset hecheese
justmel tsi nyourmout h.“doyouwantmor e?”he
asksme.“noboo.I ’
mf ull.”Idri
nkmywat erand
burpt hengi ggl
e.

“Thenyouar egoingt
ofartthewhol enight”he
sayschuckli
ngandIgiggl
e.Het akest heplat
es
backthenwegot oourbedroom.Isi tontheedgeof
thebedashet akesof
fhisclothes.“wannashower
withme?.”
“Ididanhourago.”hel ooksatmel egsandbi tes
hisli
ps.Heatcr eepsupf rom myneckt omyf ace.
Hest i
llmakesmebl ush.Hegoest ot hebathroom
andshower s.It hinkthingsdidn’tgoaspl anned
betweenmybr otherandl esego.That ’
swhymbuso
i
sl i
ket hi
s.Hemustbewor ri
edaboutt hem.Ilookat
thetimeandi t
’salmost7: 30pm.I ’
llcallsi
celo
tomor r
ow.Ir emovet hecontinentalpill
owsf r
om the
bedandduvett henleaveonl ythelightsheetsand
sleepi
ngpi l
lows.

Iundressthengetinbed.Idon’tknowi fIshoul
d
tal
ktombusonowaboutPr estonorwai tt
il
l
tomorrow.Hecomesi nsmelli
ngr eall
ygoodand
getsinbedbehindme.“howar emyki dst r
eati
ng
you?”Iturnandlookathim.Ipal m hi
scheekand
hekissesit“t
alktomembuso.Whathappened
ther
e?.”

“Thewomanyourbrot
herl
oveshadahardl
ife.Her
fami
lyi
sshi
tandtheytr
eat
edherandherki
dsl i
ke
shitlove.Thekidswer ecryi
ngandbeggi nghim not
totaket hem back.Theywant edt ol i
vewithhim.
Whenwedr oppedt hem of
flovei twashar d.Ihave
neverseenyourbr othercr
yingbutt odayIdid.It
washar d.Hehast hisamazingconnect i
onwi th
kagiso,theeldest.Theboyl oveshi ml i
kehei shis
ownf at
herandkamoi sthesweet estli
tt
leangel.
Theyl ovehim.”Ismi l
easIwat chmbusot alking
aboutt hekidscausehe’ ssmi l
ingt oo.

“I’
m gladmybr otherhasfi
nall
yfoundhisonetrue
l
ove.Ithinkthekidshaveallofyouwrappedaround
thei
rli
ttl
efinger
s.”Isaygiggli
ng.Hepecksmyl i
ps.
“youar egoingtoloveal
lofthem.Lesegoisnot
usedtohavi ngpeoplecl
osetoherloveandshe’s
goingtoneedyou.Bot hherandsicel
oaregoingto
needyoubaby. ”Inod.

“I
’l
lbetherefort
hem boo.Ipr
omi
se.Ican’
tbeli
eve
hemetherlikeafewdaysagoandhisli
fechanged
dr
asti
call
yjustli
ket
hat.I
t’
samazi
nghowwemeet
oursoulmat
es.”It
ellhi
m.“aretheygoi
ngt
ocome
toPiet
ermar
it
zbur
gforthecl
eansingcer
emony?
.”

“It
hinkso.Theylovet
hehouseyouf
ound,
why
di
dn’tyouf
urnishit
?”

“Ididn’tbecausei t’
sherhomeandshe’ st heone
whoi ssupposedt ochoosewhatshewant si nher
houseanddecor at ei
tt hewayshewant s.Icoul dn’t
takethatawayf rom her .”henods.“what ’
sreally
botheri
ngyou? .”hesi ghsandl ooksupi nt he
ceil
ing.“seeingl esego’ski dsmademet hinkabout
whatki ndofmanj ustleaveshi ski dsj
ustl ikethat
andnotcar ewhathappenst othem andt heir
mot her.Howdoeshel ivewi thhimselfever ydayand
hecal l
shimselfaman? .Icouldneverlivemyl i
fe
withoutyouandourki ds.”het urnsandl ooksatme
again.“Iwillal
wayspr ot ectyounomat terwhat .
From anyoneandanyt hi ngthatthreat
ensour
happiness.Iwilldiepr ot ect
ingyouevenf rom the
otherside.Thet houghtofanyonehur ti
ngyouand
ourkidsmakesmewantt otakeyouawayf r
om
anyonesot heycan’
thurtyou.Ineverwantt
o
experi
encewhatsicel
oexper i
encedtodaybecause
i
twasr eal
lyhardtowatch.”

“Iknowyouwoul ddot hatf

orme, f
orus.Thankyou
forbeingthereformybr ot
herbecauseIdon’ tknow
whathewoul dhavedonewi t
houtyounotbei ng
ther
e.”hebr ushesmyst omach.“wear ef amilyluh.
Don’tthankme.Iwi l
lgooutforeveryoneyoul ove.
He’smybr othertoo.”Ismil
e.Nowi sthetimet otell
him aboutPrestonbuthehasal r
eadyhadal ong
dayandIdon’ twanttoaddt othat
.I’
llt
ellhimf i
rst
thi
ngint hemorning.

“baby?”hesays.

“hmm?”

“ar
eyouokay?
,youar
ewayt
ooqui
et”Icant
ell
him what’
sbot heringmebutfir
stIhavetobesure.
DidPrestonleavebecauseofwhatIaskedhi m or
heleftf
orgood? .Imeansisnontosaidhedoesn’
t
knowwhenhewi l
lbebackandleftanumberfora
doctortocheckmeout ?.“Iam okay,
I’
mjust
thi
nkingaboutl esegoandthekids.”

“theyhaveusnowandt
heywillbefi
ne.
”Hesays.
“canyoutellmemor
eabouther?”

“Ithi
nkit’
sbett
ert
hatlesegoistheonewhowi ll
hopeful
lyopenuptoyouandt ellyouever
ythi
ng
okay?”Inod.“whenarewel eaving?”heasks.

“Tuesday.Tomorrowisthelastdayf
ort
hem t
o
fi
nisht
her emai
ningbathrooms.”

“we’
reyouwear
ingonl
ymyT-
shi
rtar
oundt
hem?”
“noti
fIwant
edyout
oki
llme.Iwor
eitaf
tert
hey
l
eft
.”

“hmm.Wher
e’sPr
est
on?”Ishi
ftandf
aceaway
fr
om hi
m.

“hewenttohi
splace.Idon’
tknowwhenhe’
sgoing
tobeback”henods.“didyouguyshaveaf
ightor
somethi
ng?”

“Nowedidn’
t.Iam t
ir
edbaby.”Il
ieandIcanf
eel
hi
sst
areonthebackofmyhead.

“I’
l
lletitgof
ornow.Tomor r
owyou’llt
ellmewhat’s
bother
ingyou.Sleeplove.”Itur
nandf acehim.I
gi
vehi m aki
ssthenlayonhi schestandsleep.

IPatt
hebedandit
’sempt
y,mbusoisnoti
nbed
andI’
m pr
ett
ysur
eheisworki
ng.Ir
eall
ydon’
tfeel
l
ikegett
ingoutofbedbutI ’
m hungr yandt henoise
i
sjustdrivi
ngmei nsane.Theki t
cheni stheonly
thi
ngleftnowt ober enovated.Iwantt otakeabath
butIcan’tcozthelasttimeIt r
iedIalmostsl i
pped
andfell
.Ifmbusowasn’ tt
hereIcoul dhavehur t
myselfandourki ds.Ishowersl owly,getdonethen
wearmyl eggingsandT- shirt
.Ileaveourbedr oom
andgreetthewor kers.Ipassbymbuso’ soffi
ceand
he’
snott here.IgotothekitchenandIseePr eston
havi
ngaconver sati
onwi t
hmbuso.He’ sback? .
“goodmor ni
ng.”

“mor
ningl
uh.”Pr
est
onsays.

“Morni
ngbaby.”Iki
sshi
m.“Imadeyouaf
rui
t
sal
ad.”Ismi
le.

“t
hankyouboo.I
’
m goi
ngt
osi
tout
side.”It
ellhi
m.

“Iwi
llj
oinyou.”Pr
est
onsays.Il
ookatmbusoand
hi
sphoner
ings.

“I’l
ljoi
nyououtside.”Itakemyfr
uitsal
adandgo
totheverandaandsi tdown.Thewindisbl
owi
ngso
nicelybutI
’m st
il
lfeeli
nghot.

“youdon’
tlookgood?”

“I
’mfi
ne.I’
mj ustf
eel
inghott
hat
’sal
l.It
houghtyou
l
eft
?”Itel
lhim.

“Ididbutt
henIcamebackbecauseyout hi
nkI
’
m
hi
dingstuf
ffr
om youandI’m not
.Runni
ngaway
wouldmeanthatI
’m hi
dingsomethi
ng.”

“hmmm.”Isay.

“I
’
m goi
ngt
ogetmymedi
cal
bagandcheckyour
bl
oodpr
essure.Whenwast
hel
astt
imeyouf
eltt
he
ki
dsmovi
ng?.”

“t
hismor
ningwhenIwasshower
ing,
why?”

“andyou’r
eut er
us?,anypainaroundyourwaist?”
nowthathement ionsitIdi
dfeelsl
ightpai
n.“itwas
l
it
tl
epain.Itcomesandgoes.”

“Shar
porbur
ning?”hmmm

“shar
p.”

“weneedt ogotomysur ger

yforascan.You’re
al
mosteightmonthspregnantandtheki
dsar e
supposedtobefaci
ngdownwar dnowpreparingfor
bir
th.I
fnotoneorbothofthem coul
dbeabridged.”
“what?,no!
.Iwantt
ogi
venat
uralbi
rt
handnot
caesar
eanbirt
h.”

“Let
’sgonow!
.”

“Let
’swaitformbuso.Hewi l
lbedonewit
hhiscall
nowthenwecanal l
go..”hel
ooksatmeandsmi l
es
andagai
nt hehaironthebackofmyneckstand.
WhythefuckdidInottellmbusoaboutwhatIsaw
andmysuspi ci
ons?.

“youar egoi ngtogetupandwear equiet

lygoi ngto
l
eavet hishouse.I fyouscream ortryanything
stupidIam goi ngtoshootyouandt hosedamnki ds
you’r
ecar r
ying.”hesaysandshowsmehi sgun,
getti
ngup.Ihaveneverbeent hisscaredi
nmyl i
fe.
“getupandl et
’sgo.You’
lltel
lsecurit
yatthegat e
thatwear egoingtogetsomef ewthingsatt hemall.
”Inodt hengetupandwel eavethroughtheback
yard.Itellthesecurit
yguyst hatwear egoingtot he
mallandwedr i
veout .
“wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngme?”Iaskhi
m

“faraway.Wher
ehewi llneverfindyou.Hedoesn’
t
gettoli
vehappi
lyeveraft
er,afterhedestroyedmy
famil
y.Iam t
aki
ngyouawayf rom himlikehowhe
tookherfr
om me.”what ?

“het
ookwhoawayf
rom you?”

“you’
llaskhi
mthatwhenwegettoournewpl
ace.”
hesaysandconti
nuestodr
ive.Whati
sgoi
ngon?
CHAPTER50.

LUNGI
.

Wedriveunti
lwegettothi
shouseatt
helocat
ion.I
haveneverbeenonthi
ssideoft
ownbutIdidlook
atthedirecti
onandthenumberoft urnshetook.I
haveneverbeenwher ePrest onli
vesandi t
’sgoing
tobemyf ir
stti
mehere.Iam soscar edofthegun
he’sholdingandpoint
ingitatme.Thehousel ooks
okaylikepeopleli
veinhere.Hehoot sandsomeone
openst hegateandhedrivesi n,
Ilookbackandt he
gateclosesbehindus.Hel ocksit.Thewallissofar
highthatyoucan’tseebeyondi tandt hr
oughthe
gate.Iwonderwhol i
vesher e.

“getoutoft hecar.”hegetsoutandr oughly

cl
osest hedoorwithabang.Hecomest omysi de
andopenst hedoor.“stoppoint
ingthatthi
ngonmy
stomachPr est
on.”Itel
lhi
m asher oughlyyanksme
outofthecarwithmyhai r.Iscr
eam andt r
ytoget
hi
shandsof fmyhair.

“Don’tyoufuckentouchme,youfuckenani
mal !
.”
helaughsandt heguywhoclosesthegatej
oins
hi
m andt heybothlaughl
ookingatme.“sothisi
s
mbuso'swoman.” theguysays.“I
’m hi
swif
e.When
mbuso’ sfindsthebothofyou,youwi llregr
etthe
dayyouPr est
oncamei ntoourlives.”theylaugh
l
ikeI’m crazythenPrestondragsmet othehouse.
Heopenst hedoorandt her
e’sawomancooki ngin
thekitchen.Shegivesmeaver ysickeningsmi l
e
andt hehaironmynamest ands.Whot hefuckis
she?.Sher eeksofevilandshehasn’ tevensaid
anythingtome.

“My!My!My!Aren’tyoujustbeautif
ul.WhenIwas
pr
egnantIwasneverthisbeauti
ful.Pict
uresand
vi
deosdon’
tdoyouj ust
icemydear .
”Shecomes
cl
osetomeandgr absmycheekr eall
yhard.“Ican’
t
waitf
orhi
mt of
indyougone.Dead!” shesaysand
myheartdr
ops.

“Wait!.Wedi dn’
ttalkaboutyoukil
li
ngher.”
Prest
onsays.Shel ooksathimthengiveshima
deadlylook.“planschange.Iwanttomakeal lof
them suffer
!.Iam goingtokil
lherbutnotbef
orewe
takeoutthoseki dsinher.Goandtakehertothe
r
oom.Ever
ythi
ngi
spr
epar
ed.”

“Pleasedon’tkil
lme.Icangiveyouallt
hemoneyI
haveandyouwi l
lneverworkadayinyourlif
e.My
husbandwi l
lalsogiveyouwhateveryouneed.
Pleasejustl
etmecal lhi
m butpl
easedon’tki
llme!
.
”Ibegf ormyl i
fe.

“Iam goingtoenjoyri
ppingthosekidsoutofyour
st
omachandr ai
sethem asmi ne.Butfi
rstIhavet
o
ki
llyou.Iam goi
ngtosliceyourstomachwhi l
eyour
watching”shesaysthenlaughs.

Prestonlooksatherunbel i
evablyshocked!.No!No!
No!.Notmyki ds!
.“Prestonpleasedon’tdot hi
s!
Don’tlethertakemyki dsoutofme.I t
’snotyett i
me
please!.”shelaughsthenslapsmehar dont he
facemaki ngmebi temyi nsi
decheekandIt aste
blood.Prestongoest oherandt heyargue.Ilookat
thedoorandi t
’sopen.Idon’
twast eti
meIr un
outsideandr ushtothecarcauseIknowt heyleft
thekeyintheigni
tion.Iam almostt
othecarwhenI
hearagunshott henIf eel
painonmyshoulder
.I
scream andfal
ldownshout i
ngmbuso’sname.

MBUSO.

Luhgoest othever andawi t

hPr eston.Iguesst hey
aregoi ngt osor ttheiri ssuesout .Itoldsicelototell
Cel est etogether e.Igot omyst udyandt akemy
elect ricdevicescannerandsear char oundt he
house.Idon’ tfindanyt hingi ntheguestbedr ooms
i
ncl udi nghi sroom.If i
ndl isteningdevi cesi nthe
kitchen, livi
ng, diningandl ounge.Idon’ thave
l
ist eningdevi cesi nmyhouse.Ionl yhavecamer as
i
nt heki tchenl oungeandl ivingr oom ot herthan
out side.Igot omyst udy, searchar oundandt here’
s
al i
st eningdevi cet ooandnocamer a.Igot oour
bedr oom andsear chandI ’m hor ri
fiedatwhatIf i
nd.
4Li steningdevi cesonal laroundt hebedr oom and
threesmal lcamer ast hathepl antedwher ewe
woul dn’tsee.Somet hingt ellsmet ogot ot he
showerandmywor stfearsisconf i
rmed.Hehas
camer asther
eandlist
eningdevi ces.Irunoutofmy
bedroom notsayi
nganyt hingbecauseIdon’ twant
Prestontobealarmed.Igot othever andaandt hey
aregone.Luh'sphoneisont het ableandthefoodI
preparedforher
.Iruntot hesecur i
tygateandask
thesecur i
tyi
fhesawluhandhet el
lsmet hatthey
wentt othemall
.Shewoul dneverleavewithouther
phone.

Irunt othehouseandgot omyst udyandwat chthe

outsidecamer a.IseePrestontaki
ngoutagunand
pointingatluh.Shestandsupandt heygeti nt he
carandl eave.Heplayedme! .Hefuckenpl ayedme! .
Iscream li
keamadmadandt hroweverythingof f
thetable.Itakemycel l
phoneoutandcal lSi celo.
“mar ncelesteisalmostthere.You’
reki
lli
ngmyvi be
”hel aughs
“Ineedyout
ocomeher
enow.”

“What
’swr
ong?”
“Prestontookl
uhwhi l
eIwast al
kingtoyouonthe
phone.Comenowwi thbonga!”hehangsup.Icall
myf atherandt
ellhi
mt henhangup.NowIhavet o
cal
lmyf at
heri
n-l
awandt el
lhimthathisdaught
er
gotkidnappedinherownhome.Idi alhi
snumber
anditrings“son.Howar eyou?”

“baba,
Ineedyout
ocomeher
e.”

“what’
swrongmbuso?I
sluhaboutt
ogi
vebi
rt
h?.”
hechuckl
es.

“babauPr
est
onki
dnappedul
ungi
le.”
hesi
ghs.

“I’
llbethere.Don’tworr
ywe’llfi
ndher.”hehangs
up.Isitdownandt r
ytocoll
ectmyt houghts.Itake
mycarkeysandr unoutt omycar .Idr
iveoutand
gost r
aighttoPreston'
ssurgery.WhenIgett here,
thereisnosignofPr est
oneverbeent here.I
nstead
Iseeanewsi ghthatsaysLaundr
omat.Icannot
beli
evet hi
s.Igetoutandopenthedoorofthe
l
aundr omat.“sho,whendidthesurger
ythatwas
hererelocate?”Iaskayoungman.

“Gr ootman, t
heyr el
ocat edtheweekwest ar
ted
wor ki
nghere.3weeksago.”t hi
smot herf ucker!
.I
getoutanddr i
vest r
aighthome.Myheadi s
spinningcauseIhavenoi deawher ePrestoncould
havet akenluh.Igot hrought hekitchenand
maphol oba,hisbrother,hissisterandfr ankar eal
l
there.Maphol obagetsupandcomest ome.He
punchesmer ightonmyeyeandIdon’ tst ophim.I
know, Ideserveit.

“I’m sor
rybaba”heisfuming.Helooksatmet hen
patsmei ntheback.“we’
llfi
ndher.Heoutsmarted
allofus.Hemadeusbel i
evethathewast hi
s…..
Wher ewereyou?”nontogivesmeaf rozenveges.I
takeitandputitonmystingi
ngeye.
“Iwenttohissurger
yandi t
’snolongerthere.He
movedorclosedit3weeksago.Fr ank.Putouta
bul
let
inforPrest
oncar.Iwantthem tosearchthe
wholetowncausemaybehei shi
dingsomewher e
ort
heyar eonthewayeithertoDurbanorJobur g.
Sogetthem towatchout.”

“Sureboss.”hesaysandl eaves.Isitdownandput
myhandsonmyhead.“l astnightluhwant edtotel
l
mesomet hingandIt hinkitwasaboutPr estonbut
shedi dn’
t.Itoldherthatint hemor ningshewillt
ell
meexact lywhathappenedcausenont osaid
Prestonleftandsai dhedoesn’ tknowwhenhe’ s
comi ngbackt hent henextt hi
ngIfindhim here
havingbreakf ast
.Iaskedhi m whathappened
betweenhi m andl uhandhej ustsaidluh'
s
hormonesar edrivi
nghi minsane.Il eti
tgo.”

“i
t’
snotyourfaul
tson.Hefooledallofusbuthe
wil
lpay!
.”mapholobasaystypingonhisphone.
“she’
spregnantt
aimaandIdon’ tknowwhy
Prestont ookherandwhy? !.Hecouldhur therand
shecoul dgi vebirthbef or
et i
me.”mahi sbusy
sniff
ingandshe’ sgi vi
ngmeaheadache.“nont o
canyoupl easebr ingmyl aptopfrom myof f
ice.”
shel eavest ogeti tandcomesback.It akeitand
showt hem t hevi deothengeti nmysyst em and
typei nPr eston'snumbersear chi
ngf orhislocation.
Itkeepsbounci ngof fthenitsaysitheisonhi sway
toNewcast l
e.“t heyar egoingtoNewcast le,Ihave
togot here.”Igetupbutmaphol obast opsme.“I
thinkit’sbesti fyoust aymbuso.Youcannotdr ive
i
nt hiscondi ti
onyou’ rein.”

“that’
smywi f
ehet ook.Ineedt obetherewhenI
fi
ndher .IsweartoGod! .Iam goingtopeel
Preston’sski
noffandshovehi sdickdownhi s
throat!
.Fuuuuucccckkkkk!.”Itakethegl
asst hat
’s
nexttomeandt hrowitont hefri
dge.Mahand
nontor unoutofthekitchen.“mbusocal m down
son!.Calm down.”.
“Ican’
tloseher
,Ican’tfuckenloseher!.Thiswas
al
waysmybi ggestfear.Someoneki dnappingher
andthenkil
lher
.Icanneverl i
vewi t
houther !
.She’
s
myeverythi
ngmaphol oba.Herandourki ds.I
cannotl
ivewit
houtthem.”

“I
’l
lgoboss.Stayhereincasetheyarebuyingt i
me
andwantust ochaseadeadend.I ’
llcomeback
wit
hher .”f
ranksays.“I’
l
lcomewi t
hyou.”l uh’s
unclesays.Isendfrankthecoordi
natesandt hey
l
eave.

“boss”Il ookupandi t
’sCeleste.“Tellme
everythingyouf oundoutaboutPr est
on.”she
greetst hem thensi tsdownandt akesoutherl apt
op.
“soIoncei nvest i
gatedhi m andt herewas
absol utel
ynot hingot hert
hanhe’ sadoct orandhe
ownsasur geryandwor kswi t
hhospi tals.ThenI
askedsomeonet ofindsomei nformationabouthi m
andl astnightt heysentmet his.”sher eads.
“Prest onisfrom kr oonstad.He’ sapur ewhi t
eboy
andhispar entsarehar dcoreracist
.Prestonwent
towit
sandst udiedther eandmetabl ackgirl
,her
nameis…. .Uhm yes.Hernamet hembizikode.”
what?!
..
..
.Fuckno! .Itakeoutmyphoneandcal lmy
dad.“baba? .
...
,howf arareyou?
...
.Okay.”theylook
atme.“cont inueCel este.”

“theygoti ntoarelationshi
puntilonedayshe
endedt hi
ngswi thPr estonandthembisuddenly
disappeared.Then6mont hsagosher eappear
ed
againandwasspot tedwithPrestoninDurban.
That’swher ethetailends.”shebr i
efsme.

“OhmyGod! .OhmyGod!OhmyGod! .”Idial

sbusi
so'snumber.“brot
her
?,l
ongt
ime.Youmiss
mealready”helaughs.

“She’
sal
ivesbu.Thembii
sal
iveandshehasl
uh.”

“whatNo!
.Iki
ll
edt
hatbi
tchmbuso.Whatdoyou
meanshehasLuh? !
.”Celestestopstypi
ngand
mapholobalooksatmef r
owning.“Prest
onwas
oncethembi'sboyfr
iend.Prest
onkidnappedluhthi
s
morningandIt hi
nkhimnandt hembihaveluh.You
di
dn’tki
llhersbu.She’sal
ive.”

“Fuck!.I’
m coming.I’
m goi ngtokil
lthi
sbitchfor
realt
histime.Iswear!.”hehangsup.Ishakemy
head.“whoi sthembiandwhydot heyhavel uh?”
maphol obaasks.Sicelo,bongaandmypar ents
comei ntothehouset hesamet ime.Ilookmy
parent
sandIam soangr y.“thi
sisallyourfault
,
youknow.I t’
sallyourfault!
.”Isaylookingatthem.

“ungal
ingeuzeukhohlweukut hiukhul
umanobani
mbuso!.Senzenithi
na?.”(don’tyoudaref
orget
whoyou’retal
kingto!WhatdidIdo?) .

“Celest
etel
lwhatyouhavejustt
oldme.”Igetup
andgot omybedroom andchange.Iwearallbl
ack
becauseI’
m goi
ngtohuntandkil
lpeople.Idon’
t
carehowsmalltheypl
ayedapar tonl
uhki
dnappi
ng
buttheyar
eallgoingt
odie.Icomedownandsee
si
celoandbongahavechangedaswell.

“Ithoughtusbusisoki
ll
edhermbuso.Youbot h
saidshedied.”mydadsays.“yeahwel lIthought
sot oo.Wealldidbutt
hebi
tchobviousl
ydi dn’
tdid
die.SheandPr est
onareworki
ngtogether.”

“Whoi st hi
swomanmnguni ?.
”maphol obaasks
again.Ilookatmydadandhel ooksdownand
si
ghs.“I ’
lltellyouwhoshei s.Youseemypar ents
herethoughtt hattheycanplaymat chmakerwi t
h
meandt heirbestf ri
endsdaughter.Theywant ed
met odat eherandmar r
yherbutIwoul dhearnone
ofthat.Shel ikedmebutIdi dn’tandsheknewi t
.So
onedayI ’
mi nJobur gandmypar entsshowupwi t
h
heratmyhouse.Thatwasf i
veyear sago.They
l
eaveheratmyhousebecauset heythoughtthatif
she’stherei nahousewi t
hmeIwi l
leventual
lyli
ke
herandhavear el
ati
onshipwit
hherbutt hatdidn’t
happen.Sbuwast herethever
ysamedayt hey
droppedthembioff.Iki
ckedheroutandsbufel
t
sorryforherandt
ookhert ohi
shouse.”Ifol
dmy
armsonmychest .

“Mypar entsdidn’tknowt hataf tert heyleftthembi.

Herandsbubegant odat eandhewoul dbr i
ngher
tothisgent l
eman’ sclubt hatweal lwentt o.Sbu
sawhowsadi sti
c,twisted, mani pul ati
veandevi l
thembii saf terafewmont hst heydat ed.Shewoul d
gother eal onewi thouthi m knowi ng.Hekept
thi
nkinghewoul dchangebuti nst eadshegotwor se.
Thembiwoul dgohomet omypar ent sandt ellt
hem
howper fectwear e,l
ovi ngeachot herand
everything.Iwoul dt ellthem thatshe’ slyingbut
theywoul dn’tbeli
evemebecauset hembiwast his
sweeti nnocentgi rlwhogr ewupi nf rontoftheir
eyes.Il etitgo.Shet ol dsbut hatshewaspr egnant
withhischi l
dandhewasexci ted.Thembiwentt o
mypar entsandher sandcl ai
medt hatshewas
pregnantwi thmychi l
d.Herf ami lycamet omy
familytot ellthem aboutt hepr egnancyandmy
parentsaccept edthechil
donmybehal fwhileIwas
notther etodefendmyself.It
oldt hem agai
nt hat
thechi l
dshe’scarryi
ngwasnotmi nebutsti
llthey
didn’tbeli
evemesot heweekendt heywer e
preparingtogopayt hedamages, Icamehomewi th
sbu.Weal lwentthereandshewasshockedt osee
meandsbut here.
”Mypar ent
sl ookatmeandIsee
regretbecausewehavenevert alkedaboutthisever
sinceithappened.

“shet hent ell

sthem thatit’
sanot herboyf ri
endof
hersthatgotherpr egnantit’
snotus.Mymom was
devastatednotbecauset hembil i
edaboutme
getti
ngherpr egnantbutbecauseshewasn’ t
carryi
ngt heirgrandchil
d.SbuandIl eft.Hebr oke
thi
ngsof fwi ththembibutt hebitchdi dn’tgetit.She
tormentedandchasedawayever ywomant hatsbu
tri
edtodat e.Shewoul dsomehowf i
ndoutwhom
he’sdating.Shewoul dkidnapandt orturethem to
l
eavesbual one.Onedayhe’ sgirlfr
iendwent
missingandwet rackedherphoneandwef ound
herwitht hembi .I
twast hent hatwef oundoutt he
reasonwhyt heywoul djustdisappearonhi m.She
hadkilledthegirli
nthemostbr utalandhor ri
fi
cway.
Sbushother5t imest henhet ookherbodyand
wentt odumpi t
.Hecamebackandwecl eanedher
apartmentandt ookt hegirl
sbodyt owher e
someonewoul df i
ndit.That’sthelastti
mewesaw
herandwenevert alkedaboutherunt i
ltoday.We
don’tknowi fshereallywaspr egnantandi fshehad
thechild.
”mymom i ssni f
fingandshe’ sannoying
thehelloutofme.

“I
’
m sor
rymbuso,
wet
houghtt
hatyou….”

“saveitmama.Ut hembiisacoldheart
lessbi t
ch
andIsweari fshehasdoneanythi
ngtol uhandmy
ki
ds.Iwillneverf
orgi
veyou.Sheisherebecause
youforcedherdownmyt hr
oatandlooknow.She
hasmywi f
eandkids!.Thi
sisal
lmyf ault!Ishoul
d
havekil
ledherthemomentyoul ef
therinmy
doorst
ep!.”
“brotherit
’snotyourfaul
t,i
t’
snotthei
rfaul
teit
her
.
Obviouslysomeonef oundherbeforeshedi
ed.Sbu
musthavet houghtthatshewasdead.”siceloi
s
abouttomakemel osemymi nd.

“butmbusotheywouldhavetol
dusthatt
hembiis
al
iveandhowsureareyouthati
t’
sherwhotook
her?
.”

“Iwoul dknowt hatbit

chevenifshewokef r
om t
he
dead10year slat
er.Mama,di
dherpar ent
sknow
thatshewasdead? !Didt
heytellyouandhavea
funeralforher?”sheshakesherhead.

“Theythoughtt
hatshewasst
il
lashamedofwhat
shedid.”mymom says.

“That’
sri
ght
.Youar
est
il
lfr
iendswi
thhermot
her
ri
ght?”
“Mbuso!
.”

“Shutt hef
uckupbonga!Youknowver ywel
lwhat
sbuandIwentt hr
oughwi ththatgi
rl
.”heshakes
hishead.“callhermom.Cal lherri
ghtnowandask
herwher et
hembiis.”shecri
es.“dadtalkt
oyour
wi fe.Timeisr
unningout.Thembiwon’thesi
tat
eto
killherdoyouunderstandthat!
.Canyouoncejust
trustmewheni tcomest ohermom canyoudo
that ?.”myphoner i
ngsandit’sfr
ank.

“f
rank?”

“She’snotherei
nthetaxi
.Theyarebothnother
e.
TheguywhohadPr est
on’
sphonesayhesol dhi
m
thephonecausehewasi nneedofcashandhe
nevertookouthi
sSIM cardcausehegetsfr
ee
air
ti
meanddat a.”f
uck!.

“di
dhet
ellyouwher
ehewaswhenhesol
dhi
mthe
phone?”

“Attherank.2weeksago.”myhear tdr
ops.“come
backfrank.Hemightbeadoctorbuthe’
snotthat
smart.He’snotf
ar.
.Heisaround.”

“we’ recomi ngboss.”Ihangupandsi gh.Ihave

thisgutwr enchingfearthatsomethingiswr ong.I
canf eelit
.Icanst i
llseethatgi
rlwit
hhereyesout
ofsocket s.Breastcutandherut er
usoutofher
vagina.PleaseGod! .PleaseGod!.“mom di dyou
callthembi '
smot her?!”she’
stappi
ngonherphone
crying.

“mbusocal
m down!
.”maphol
obasays.

“I
’l
lgooutandlookforhermysel fbecause
st
andingher
eandwai ti
ngf ornothi
ngisaone
minut
eawayt oherdeath!
.”Igot omyst udy,
open
mysafeandtakeoutmybi gbl ackbagthathas
ever
ythi
ngI’m goingt
oneed.Icomebackwithit
andpassallofthem i
nthekit
chen.Igeti
nmyblack
Jeepandstart
st heengi
ne.Si
celoandbongagetin
thecarwit
hme.

“It
’susagainsttheworld.”bongasays.Hegr i
ps
myshoulderandsi cel
otoo.Iwipethetearsthat
werefal
li
ng.Luhneedsme.Ican’ tbreakdownnow.
I’
l
lbreakdownaf tersheissafeandsoundi nmy
arms.Myphoner i
ngsagainandit’
ssbu.“br ot
her”
bongaanswer s

“I’minPietermarit
zburg.Ihavemymenst ayi
ng
guardinher eincasethatbitchishereorshowsup.
I’
llbether
ei nthir
tyminutes.IsentuMadodat oher
parent’
shouse.It ol
dhimt odoever ythi
ngpossi
ble
togetthem tot el
luswher ethembiis.”hesays.

“Idon’
tevenknowwher
etost
artlooki
ngforher
e.I
can’
tfi
ndmyowndamnwi f
esbu!.Fuck!.”
“Bongadr i
ve.Mbusogosi tont hepassengerseat.
”hesayst henhangsup.He’ srightIcan’tdr
ive,
I
feeluseless.IcanfindotherpeoplebutIcan’tfi
nd
mywi fe?Whatki ndofhusbandam I ?.Igetoutand
bongat akesthedriversseat.Maphol obacomes
outwithmydadandCel este.

“Preston’
scarwasspott
edgoingtowardsthe
l
ocation.Wehavetogoandsearchthere.”hesays.
“Ineedyouanddadt ostaybehi
ndjustincase.We
canhandlethi
s.”hecomestomeandhugsme.I
l
ookatmydadandhenods.Inodt oo.

“bri
ngmydaughterbackt
omembuso.Ican’
tlose
heragai
n.”Inod.

“I’
m comingwit
hyou.I’
m notstayingbehind
becauseIwanttobi
tchslapPreston.”shesays.
“I’
llr
idewi
thher
,si
cel
ocomeanddr
ive.”bonga
says.

“takethevolvo.”henods.Igeti
nthecarandleave.
Isendf r
ankamessaget ell
inghi
m wearegoingto
thelocati
on.Isendsbuthesamemessage.

“Wel
lfi
ndherbr
other
.Nomat
terwhat
!.”

“I’
llkil
lmyselfi
fthembihaski
ll
edher.Iwil
lnotl
i
ve
i
nt hisworl
dwi t
houtherandourki
ds.”Ihavenever
beent hi
sscaredandterri
fi
edi
nmyl i
fe.Iwipemy
tears.Wedriveout.

#2021Dumel
ang
CHAPTER51

LUNGI
.
Pain,pai
ni swhatI ’
mf eelingri
ghtnowal lovermy
body.Whent hebullethitmeIf ellonmyst omach
andIam i nsomuchpai n.Iam scr eamingi nagony
andI’m wor ri
edaboutmyki ds.Di dIhurtt hem when
Ifel
l?
, I
’m disori
ented,I’
m bleeding!Fr om my
shoulder?Yes, f
rom betweenmyl egs?Idon’ tknow
butIam inpai n.Ican’tstopscreami ng,
mybabi es!
Mybabi es!.I’
m sorrymbuso!I ’
m sosor ry!.

“Luh?Luh?Wakeup…no!No!No! .Don’
tcloseyour
eyesluh?.Whydidyoushootherthembi?Whydi d
youdoi t
?”Prest
onisbesi
dehimsel f
.Ihearter
ror
comingfrom hi
svoiceashescreamsatt hembi.

“getherthefuckupandst opbeingsucha
nui
sance.Youhavet otakeoutthosekidsbef ore
shedies.”thembisays.Mbusofindme! .Ican’tdi
e
l
ikethi
s!Ireall
ycan’
t!.
“Prestonpl easecall
….”Icoughout .“callmbuso.
There’sstil
lachancef oryou…”Icoughagai nand
Prestonscr eams.“vuvu!,helpmegetherup, you
toothembi !.”theyst
ruggletoli
ftmeupbutt hey
eventuallydoandIscr eam mylungsoutbecause
everypar tofmybodyi sinexcruciat
ingpain.They
walkint hehouseandpl acemei nabedt hat
’sli
kea
hospitalbed.Iclosemyeyesandopent hem and
seethewhol eroom l
ooksl i
keahospi t
alroom.

“thembi ?!thi
swasnott hepl an.Idon’twantherto
dieinmyhandsNo! .”Prest onsays.“shutupyou
l
ittl
eweakl ing!.Youknewver ywell,whatdidyou
thinkwasgoi ngtohappenher ewhenyouhel ped
memaket hisroom huh?”sheaskshi m annoyed.I
canf eelmysel fsleepwant ingtotakeoverbutI
can’t.Theyar egoi ngtot akemyki dsandr unaway
witht hem andIcan’ tletthem.Babi espleasehold
onf ormommypl ease!.Isaysi l
entl
yandmy
stomachbegi nstohavecr ampsandIscr eam.
“Prest onpl easeI’m beggingyou!.Don’ tl
ethertake
myki ds! .”thembil aughs.“howaboutIj ustshoot
thatbigmout ht hattalksalothuh?”t hembir eeks
ofevil.It’sl
ikeshe’ sSatan’sdaughter.Iscream
againcausemyl owerbacknowi skil
lingme.Ican’ t
givebir thnow, notlikethi
s!.Thepainonmy
shoulderandmyl owerbacki si
ntenseand
excruci ati
nglyhar d.Icryandscream.“she’ si npain
thembi !Let’stakehert othehospital,
she’ sgoingto
diedammi t
!”Pr estonispanicki
ng.

“stopbeingal i
tt
lebit
chandt akeoutt
hatbull
et
fi
rst.
”Sheroughlypushesmet omysideandI
scream st
il
lcryi
ng.“givemet hatkni
fe”shesays
andIwai l
.Isthi
showI ’m goi
ngtodie?“I
’m sorr
y!,
I
am sosorryforeveryt
hingmbusohasdonet oyou
pleasefor
givehim.”Ibegher .

“Bit
chshutup!.Everyt
hingyouhavewassuppose
tobemine!Allmine!
.Hismot hersol
dmedreams
andpromisedmet hathewilllovemebuthedi
dn’
t
andIlovedhim.Ilovedt hatman.You….Youhave
him buthe’
smi ne!
.IfIcan’thavehim sowi l
lyou.
Youwi l
lnothavehimt oo.Wewai tedandwai ted
planni
ngmyr evengeandf i
nall
yyoumovedher e
andIknewhowIwasgoi ngtogetmyr evengeon
him.WhenI ’
m donewi thyou?Sbusisoi snext”she
thenlaughs.

Ihearsomet hingbuzzi ngont opofmyheadandI

can’tseei tbutitsoundsl ikeit’
samachi ne.Whati s
shegoi ngtodot ome? .“t hembidon’ tdoi t.”
Prestonbegsher .Shel aughst henIf eelitonmy
head, sheshavesal lofmyhai rof fandIcanonl y
watchmyhai rasi tfall
sdowni nf rontofme.She
stopswhenshe’ sdonet henst absmewher eIwasa
shotandGodIwantt odi e.Shepushest hekni fein
deepandt hendi gs.GodIdon’ twantt olose
consci ousness.Pl easeGod!Pl easeGod! .Iscream
andscr eam untilshest opsandt akesoutt hekni fe
andsomet hingf all
st othef loor.“good.Thebul let
i
snowout .Let’sgetmyki dsout”Iscr eam andbeg
hernott oandshel aughs.“Pr eston?Vuvu?Cuf f
herhandsandl egsonthebed.”sheinst
ruct
st hem
andIfeelhandsonmyl egs.Iki
ckoutscreaming
butIfeelahugepunchonmyf aceandIgetdizzy.I
canfeelthem cuff
ingmylegsandarms.

“mbusoisgoingt
okil
lust
hembiplease,
let
’sl
et
hergo!
.Idon’
twantt
obepartoft
hisanymore!
”

“ohmyGod!Canyouf oroncejustgrowsomebal l
s
Preston!.Haveyouforgot
tenthattheytookme
awayf rom youhuh?,t
heythenki l
ledmeandl eftme
todieatadumpi ngsite!
.Haveyouf orgott
enallof
that
?.Don’ tyouwantyourrevengeont hem?.”

“butshedi
dn’
tdoanyt
hing.I
twast
hem!
.”hesays.

“Ohnowyousay? .Shematter
st othem.Youtold
met hateveryoneloveshershe’
st hisgol
denchil
d
everyoneador esanditwoul
dkillthem i
fsomethi
ng
unfortunat
ehadt ohappentoherandwear eabout
todothatmylove.Youandme!.Vuvukeepwat
ch
outsi
deforanyt
hing!
.”vuvul
eaves.

Iscream againandnowmybackf eel

slikeiti
s
goingt osnapintwo.Iwai
l,
Isob,Iscream andcr y
myl ungsoutbutthepaini
st oomuch, i
treall
yistoo
much! .MbusopleasecomecauseIcan’ tdothis!I
can’tholdonfortoomuchlonger.

“she’
slosi
ngt
oomuchbl
oodt
hembi
,she’
sgoi
ngt
o
di
e!.”

“heyvoestekwenaman! .Doesitlookli
keIfucken
carewhathappenstoherhuh? !
.Nowgi vemet hat
kni
feandletmet akeoutthosekids!”she'
scrazy,
thi
swomani scrazy!.

“No!.Iwil
ldothi
s!.Iwil
ltaket
hekidsout.
!.”
PrestonsaysandIscream andtr
ytokickmyl egs
buttheyarecuff
edtightonthebed.
MBUSO.

Wear edri
vingaroundEmnambi thiandeachmi nute
goingbyfeelsli
keami nutecl
osertomywi fe’
s
death.Myfeargrowswi t
heverymi nut
e.Sicel
ois
tal
kingbutIdon’thearawordhe’ssaying.Ishould
havekil
ledthembimyself.Ishoul
dhavewentwi t
h
sbuandmadesur ethatshe’
sreall
ydead.“mbuso!
Ineedyouher ewithmedammi t
!”

“Ihavethisf
uckenf earatthepitofmyst omach
si
celo.Somethingi
swr ongwithher.I
t’
sverywrong.
”Ifeelli
keI’
ml osi
ngmymi ndandwhyi sthi
s
damncargoi ngsosl owly.“stopt
hecar!.”

“What
?”

“you’
redr
ivi
ngsl
owly!
.Stopt
hedamncar!.”he
st
opsandIgetoutandIbegi
ntowal
k.Iseetwo
youngboysandt
heyaretal
king.Itakeoutmy
phoneandstopt
hem “sur
emaj it
a?”Igreett
hem

“sur
euncl
e.”

“kunabantuengi bafunayoLana.Ani kombonilosi

si
somewher elanaekasi ?(therear epeopl
eI’
m
l
ookingforhere.Haveyouseet hiswomanar ound
hereinthetownshi p?)”theylookatherphot oand
theyshaketheirheadsno.Isi gh.“haveyouhear d
orseensomet hingt hatdoesn’treal
lyhappen
around?”

“Ehuncle?
,youknowear l
ierli
kewehear
d
somethi
ngthatsoundedli
keagunshotbutIdon’t
knowmaybei t
’st
hetaxidriver
sfi
ght
ingagai
n.”
nopeIdon’
tthi
nkso.

“Canyoushowmewhereyouhearditcomingfr
om?
Takemewhereyouwer
e?”theynod.“let
’sgeti
n
t
hecarandyoucanshowme.
”Theyl
ookhesi
tant
.

“lookguys,
I’
m onlygoi
ngtotellt
hebot
hofyout hi
s.
Someonekidnappedmywi f
eandshe’spregnant
.
ThepersonwhotookheriscrazyandIwanttofi
nd
herbefor
eshehurtsher
.”

“Wewi l
lhelpyouuncl e.Let’sgo.”Inod.Theyget
i
nandwedr ivedownt her oadandpasst wostreets.
Ont hethirdStreett
heyt ellustostop.“wehear dit
comi ngfrom hereinthisst r
eet,somewherearound
thesehouseIt hink.”Igetoutofcarandt hefirst
thi
ngInot iceisahouset hathasaver yhi
ghwal l.
She’sthere.Iknowshe’ st here.

“Sicel
o,she’
sthere!.”henods.Iopent
hegl
ove
compartmentandt akeoutnotesandgi
vei
ttot
hem.
“thankyouuncles.”theybothsay.

“youdon’
tknowusandyou’
venevermetus.Thi
s
ri
ghtheredidn’
thappen.Nowgohomeort otown.”
theybothnodandr un.Myphoner i
ngsandit’
ssbu.
“Ifoundher.I’
l
lsendyout helocati
on.”Ihangup
andsenthim mylocation.Fr
ank,luh'suncl
e,bonga,
Celest
eandsbual larr
iveatonce.

“I’
m sosor r
yman.Ifuckedup.Thi
sisallmyfaul
t!
.
”sbusays.Ishakemyheadno.“weknowhow
twi
stedthatbit
chis.Shehasninel
ivesand
unfor
tunatel
yforher,she’
sonherl
astone.”Webro
hug.

“what
’st
hepl
an?”Cel
est
easks.

“Ineedyouanduncl etotel
lthenei ghbourstost
ay
i
nt hehouseandnotcomeout .Tellthem wearethe
specialpol
iceuni
tanwear elookingf orafugi
ti
ve.”I
tel
lher.shenodsandtheyleave.“meandsi cel
o
aregoingtojumpovertheneighbour sfencewhile
yousbu, bongaandFrankknockont hegate.Asa
soonasi topensgeti
n.Wecan’ tshootanyone
causeitsdayl
ight
.Soyouwi
llusest
untguns.Let
’s
go.”Theynod.

“What everwedopl easemakesur ethatwedon’ t

makenoi seandl etthembiknowwear eher ecause
shewon’ thesitatet okil
lluh.”Sbusays.Wenod
thenallgoi ndifferentdirecti
ons.Ient ertheyardof
thenextdoornei ghbourandCel est
eisout si
de
tal
kingtoawoman.Isi gnalfort hem tokeepqui et
buttherei sateenageboyt here.“youneedal adder
tojump.I ’l
lgi
vei ttoyouwai t.Thereissomeone
screamingi nsi
det heresir”hesaysl eavingand
comesbackwi ththel adder.Myhear tdropsandI
knowi t’
smywi fe.Iclimbi tandl ookoverandsee
there’
snooneout side.Thewi ndowsseem t ohave
beenpai ntedinbl ack.

IjumpinandIhearsomeonet alki
ngonthegate.
Sicel
ojumpsi ntooandhetel
lsmet ogointhe
house.Inodandhegoest owardsthedi
rect
ionof
thegate.Icanhearl
uhscreaminginagonyandI
wantt okickt hedoorandr uni nsidebutIcan’t
causet hembiwi llshootorst abherthemomentshe
seesus.It r
yt opusht hedoori nfort
unatelyforus
i
t’sunlocked.Mywi f
ei scr yingandscr eami ngin
agonyandIknowt hosescr eamswi l
lhuntme
forever.Itakeoutmygunandputonasi lencerSbu
andsi celodot hesameandst andbesidemet hen
wesl owlygeti nthehouseandIhearPr eston’s
voicesay“No! .Iwilldoi t.Iwi llt
akethekidsout .
”
MyKi ds? !Myf uckenki ds? !Il ookdownt hef l
oor
andseeat r
ailofblood.I tmustbel uh’s.Thedoor
ofther oom theyar eini sopen.

Wesl owlygetinandt hei

rbacksar etous.Il ookat
l
uhandshe’ scoveredinbloodandshe’ sscr eami ng
i
npai n.Sbuandsi celoshootbothPr estonand
thembiont heirl
egsandt heyfallscr
eami ngand
l
ookatusshocked.Pr estonstartsapologizing.“luh?
Baby?I ’
m here!,
I’
m heremyl ove!.Bonga!Fr ank!.”I
scream thei
rnamesandIcan’ tseepr operl
y
becausemyeyesar esomi st
y,t
heygeti nr unning.
“br ingt hecar !.Luh?babyl ookatme!”Il i
ftherup
andshescr eamsl ikeshehasbeenhi tandr unover
byahuget ruck.“mbuso…. .myhusband.
You…f ound…me…babi es…mybabi es….”she
closeshereyesandIscr eam hername.Icanf eel
bloodcomi ngf rom hershoul derbl ade.It aket he
duckt apef rom myl egpocketandcovert hewound.
Sbuandsi celohel pmecar ryheroutoft hehouse
andwegeti nt hecarbackseat .BongaIknowi fhe
wasn’ tanar chi t
ecthewoul dbeaf ormul a1r ace
driver .Het akest hewheel ,r
ever sesthendr ivesout
l
ikeamani act ot hehospi t
al.“l uh,baby? ,love
pleasewakeup!Youcan’ tleavemel uh!Youcan’ t
l
eavemebabywhatwoul dIbewi thoutyou? !.
Lungi lest handwasam.Mamawezi nganezam,
phakadel am’ ungangi shiyi!
.”Ibr eakdownandcr y.
She' sst il
lbr eat hi
ngbuti t
’sfaint .Bongast ops
out sidet hehospi talandt heyar eal r
eadywai ti
ngfor
us.Someonepul l
st hedoorr oughl yandi t’sadoct or.
“MrGumedewehavehernow.Letgo.Sheneedst o
got ot hetheat r eforsur geryrightnow! .”Il etgoand
theygent lypul lheroutandIf ollowt hem ast hey
runi nsi dewi t
hher .
Nur sesstopsmewhenwegett ot heI.C.U.Iwant
tobet here.Ihavetobethere.Sheneedsme.I
fail
edher .Ifail
edherandmyki ds.Whatki ndof
husbandam I ?.“MrGumede?”t hedoct orcall
smy
namef r
om behi ndandIseethewhol ef amil
yis
thereever yone.“doct
ori
sshegoi ngt obeokay? ,
pleasesaveherandmyki dsdoct or!Please!
.”

Iseepityal
loverhi
sfaceandIhatei
t!
.Idon’
twant
anyonetopityme.“MrGumedeyouhavet osi
gn
thi
sfir
stbeforewecanoperat
e.”

“you’rewastingti
meher ebusytel
li
ngmeIshoul d
signsomest upidstuf
f!
.Mywi f
ecoul dbedyi ngin
there!
.”Iscream athi
m.Thedoct orlooksatme
scared.Mydadgr absmyshoul dersandl ooksat
thedoctor.“I’
m adoctorGumedehi sfather.Iam
reti
red.Whatmusthesi gn?”
“doctorGumede.MrGumedeyouhavet ogiveus
consentandtel
luswhotosavei ncasethi
ngsdon’ t
gowel l
.Weneedyout ot
ellusifweshouldsave
yourwifeorki
dsifneedbe.”isthi
sdoct
orcr azy?
,
i
shehear i
nghimself?
.

“doctorifyouval ueyourl i
feandthel ivesof
everyoneyoul ove, youwillgett
hef uckof fmyf ace
andyouwi llmakesur ethatmywi feandki dsareall
fi
neandt heywi llcomehomewi t
hme! .IfIlose
anyoneoft hem.Iwi l
lki
llyoumysel f.Goi nt her
e
andoper at
e! .”It akethedamnpaper sandt ears
them int
opi eces.Her unsoutnotl ookingback.

Il
ookatt hosedoor sandI’m st
il
lhauntedbyher
screamsofangui shandagony.If al
lonmyknees
andcry.Idon’ tcarethattheywillseemembuso
Gumede, agrownmanbr eakingdowncr ying.The
onlypersonIgi veadamnabouti sfi
ghti
ngforher
l
ifeandt here’
snot hingIcando.If eelweak,useless
andhelpless.Mydadhol dsmeandIscr eam.If eel
hugscomi ngar oundmeandsni ffs.“I’
m so…So..
Sorrymyson.”Ipushal lofthem of fme.Igetup
“it’
sallyourfault
.Iblameyou! .Youwer esoeager
topleaseyourf ri
endsandpl aymat chmakernow
l
ookatme! .Lookatwhatyouhavedonet othe
womanwho’ scar r
yingyourgrandki ds!
.Youknow
ma.Youbet t
ergot othatchapelandpr aytoGod
thatluhandmyki dsmakei torelse.Youwi l
lbe
deadt ome!Dead! .”shewai l
s.Mydadl ooksdown
andshakeshi shead.

“mnguni,son.Ul ungi
lewillbef i
ne.She’sstrong
andshe’sfight
er.”IshakemyheadNocr yi
ng.“I ’
m
scar
edmaphol oba.Howmanyyear shasher
motherbeengoneandyouhaveneverr emar ri
ed? .
Shewast heonl ywhohadyourhear tandeven
knowyou’llneverloveanyonet hewayyoul oved
hermotherbutMi nababa? .Idon’twantanyone.I
wantandneedonl yherandnooneel se!.I
fluhdi es,
I’
mtell
ingallofyouher ethatIwi llki
llmyself.Iwill
notl
iveinthiswor ldwit
houther !.”Ilookatmy
mom andshe’ ssobbi ngonmyf ather’schest.Ilook
atmydadandIknowheunder
standswher
eI’
m
comi
ngfrom.

“wher
eisshe?!,wherearethey?
!”Iasksbuand
si
cel
o.Fr
ank,sbuandbongagetupandl ookatme.
“youwoul
dn’tdare!
.”Itel
lthem.

“what
’sgoi
ngon?”si
cel
oasksget
ti
ngupt
oo.

“mbuso,don’
t!
.Don’tevent
hinkabouti
t!
.”mydad
saysst
andingi
nfrontofme.

“No!
.Iwantt
oseet
hem.Ij
ustwantt
otal
ktot
hem.
”

“mbusodon’ t
!.Luhneedsyouhere.Nowandyou
can’
tleaveyourwifeandki
ds!.”mydadsays.
“babapl
easedon’
tst
opme!”Iwi
pemyt
ear
s.

“what’
swr ongwit
hmbusowant
ingt
ogot
alkt
o
thembiandPrest
on?”

“thelastt
imehedi
dthatheturnedsomeoneint
o
mincemeatandsenti
ttohisfamilyni
cely
packagedandwrot
eenjoy.”l
uh’sauntvomit
son
thefl
oor.

“who’swatchi
ngthem whi
leever
yoneishere?
Whatift
heybothescape?”Iam soraged.Iwantt
o
ki
llt
hem sl
owlyandpainf
ull
y.

“weputthem i
nthehole.”si
cel
osays.Thedoct
or
comesoutandlooksatus.

“MrGumede,
yourwi
fel
ostal
otofbl
oodbutwedi
d
atr
ansf
usi
onandwehavemanagedt
ocloset
he
woundonhershoul derbutthereisapossi bili
tythat
herlefthandmi ghtnotf f
unctionpr operl
yoratal l
becausewhent hebul l
ethitherittouchedaner ve
andwhoevert ookoutt hatbulletdidmor edamage
tothener vesbutwewi l
lknowwhenshewakesup. ”
Iwillnotki l
lPreston.Iam goingt omakehi ma
vegetable.Deat histooeasyf orhim.Ther ear e
doctorsal loverthewor l
dandshewi llgothrough
therapyandshewi l
lbef i
ne.She’sl uh,she’
smy
damnwi fe!.

“whataboutmykids?Aret
heyokay?.”hesi
ghsand
thi
sdoctori
sreal
lyt
ryi
ngmypatience.“t
alkdoct
or!
.
Whataboutmykids?.”

“Wef eeli
tisriskyforhertohaveanaturalbi
rth
andhavet otakethekidsoutnowbecauset heyare
notyetful
lyinterm.Wear egoingtodoacaesar ean
becausethekidsmi ghtbeatrisksi
nceherbody
hasbeent hr
oughaver ytr
aumaticexper
ience.”he
saysandmyshoul dersshake.
“Uh…okay, pl
easemakesur
etheyal
ri
ghtdoctor
please!.”whyisGodpuni
shi
ngmel i
kethi
s?Isit
becauseIhavebeenbadandI ’
m nowpayi
ngformy
sins?.Butwhydoesn’
tGodpunishmeandleavemy
familyalone?.

“Isuggestyougoandcl
eanyour
sel
fsoyoucan
hol
dyourchildr
en.”

“uhm doctorcanyouwai
tunti
ltomor
roworafew
hour
sbef oreyoudoacaesar
eanonher?”what?

“Dadno!
.Mywi
fei
sinpai
n!.
”

“canyoudot hatdoctor?”thedoctorl
ooksatme
andInod.“Wel lIcantry.Helooksatt
hecl ockon
thewall
.“wecan’ twaitunti
ltomorr
owbutIcan
giveyoufourhoursthenaf t
erthat
,wewilloperat
e.”
“okthankyou.”thedoct orleaves.Il
ookatmydad
toexpl
ainhimself.Helooksatmet henlooksather
dad.“wehavet odot hecleansingandnamet he
chi
ldbefor
et heybringthebabi esi
ntothisworld
andwehavet odoitnow.”ohyeah, wewer e
supposetodot hatthi
sweekend.

“whatdoyouneedf
rom us?”herdadasks.

“fornownothing.Mbusohast ocomewi thmeand

heraunt,
we’llt
akeSimstoorepresentBuhlethen
wewi l
lbebackwi t
hourtradi
ti
onalhealersohecan
prepar
eforthearri
valoft
hekids.”

“can’
tbongast
andi
nforme?”Iaskhi
m.

“youareherembuso.Youhavet ocomeandname
thechi
ld.Inourkr
aal.We’
llbebackbef
orethey
evenst
ar t
.Ihaveaskedyouruncl
estoprepare.
”
Il
ookatsbu, allofthem.“youcallmeifanythi
ng
happenst oher .Youcallme.Bonga…”heget sup
andhugsme.“wewon’ tl
eavehersi
de.We’l
lwait
hereuntilyoucomeback.”sbuget supandhugs
met oosoi ssiceloandFr ank.Il
ookatmapholoba
andbenods.It akeSi mshandandshe’sacr yi
ng
mess.“i t’
sgoingt obeokay.”Icomf or
therandshe
can’teventalk.Dadgi vesmyauntmoneyt obuythe
cl
othesf orthechildforgirl
sandboysandshe
doesn’ttakelong.Wegeti nandmydaddr i
ves
str
aightathome.

Twoandhal fhourslaterwearecomi ngbackand

I’
m cl
eanandIhavechangedcl othes.Ihadto
causeIcouldn’
tenterthesacredkr aalwit
hblood.I
namedhersmangel eandfortheboyname
phumlani.Ever
ythi
ngj ustf
eltwrongbecause
maybeIdi dn’
tcareandIwant edtobewi thmy
famil
y.Wewal kthroughthehospitaldoorsagain
andeveryoneisjustashowwel eftthem.Mymom
l
ooksatmeandIl ookaway.I ’
m stil
lmad.
“maphol
oba,
howi
sshe?”

“thedoctororanyonehasn’tt
oldusanythi
ng.We
knowwher etheyarekeepingher.Wemadeapl an
fort
het r
adit
ionalheal
ertodohisworkbefor
ethe
doctorcomesback.Siceloandsbuwilll
ockthe
doctori
nhisof f
iceandwellst
ayhereandlookout.
Youhavef i
ft
eenmi nutes.”

“maphol oba? ,thewholefamilyhast ocomewi t

hus.
Youar eneededi ntheret
oo.”henodsandhey
foll
owme, mydad, bonga,myauntanduncl es.We
allgoinandIseeherwi t
htubest hatareconnected
toherarm, st
omachandamedi um almostbi gone
i
sconnect edt ohermouth.She’susingi tt
obr eat
h.I
don’teverwantt oseemywi feinthiskindof
positi
onever !.Thehealerli
ghtsthesageandbur ns
somet hi
ngel set ooandsaysmycl annamest hen
herclannamesandt ell
snomal anga/phumal anito
l
eavet heirsiblingsal
one,notcauseanyhar m and
protectt
hem.Hesaysmanyot herthingsandIdon’ t
hearcausemymindisf
ocusedont
hewoman
who’smyweakness.

Shecansaymbusoj umpandI ’
l
laskhowhi gh.I
takeherhandandit’
ssoftanditfeelsfr
agil
e.I
placemyhandonhert ummyandIf eelnothing.My
kidsusual
lymovewhenIt ouchhert ummybutnow
theydon’t
.Iwi
pemyt earsthenputmyheadover
hertummy.Iclosemyeyesandsaymycl annames
andeveryonegetsqui
et.I
t’
sonlyt hemachinet hat
i
smaki ngsounds.
Mnguni
,
Qwabe,
MngunikaYeyeye,
Osi
dlabehl
ezibakaKhondl
okaPhakat
hwayo,
Abat
hibedl
a,babeyengaumunt
ungendaba
Abat
hi“
dluyakubeyet
hwe”
,
Kant
ibahl
inzai
mbuzi
,
Bat
hiuml
obokaziubeyet
hekuyi
khuni
,
Si
dikal
olodaba,
Phakat
hwayo!
WenakaMal
andel
a,
Ngokul
andel
’i
zinkomozamadoda,
Amazal
a-nkosil
ana!
Mpangazi
tha!

Ilif
tmyheadandt henputmyhandagai nonher
tummyandst il
lnothi
ng.Iam aboutt ot akeitoff
whenIf eelthem movingandl uhmakesasound.
She’smoani nginpain.“ngiqedil
emanj e.Sekazo
belethauMangcobo.Mngunibangamusi ki
,Kumel e
abelethekahl engokwemel o.(myj obisdonenow.
Shei saboutt ogivebirt
h.Mngunit heshouldnotdo
acaesar ean,shemustgivebi r
thnat urall
y.)”the
tradit
ionalhealersays.Iwipemyt earsandl uh
screamsagai n,har
dnow.Theyl eaveandIst ay
behind.

“Nur
se?!Nur
se?!Doct
or?
!”t
henur
secomesi
n
r
unni
ngandthedoct
orfol
lowstoo.“wehavet
o
t
akehert
othesur
gerynow!”heshouts.

“No!.Shewi
llgi
vebirt
hnatural
ly,
youcanseeshe’
s
awakeandinpain.Youwon’tdocaesar
eanonher.”

“MrGumedesi
r,wet
alkedaboutt
his!
.”

“andI’
mt el
li
ngyounow.Shewi
llgi
vebi
rt
h
nat
ural
ly!Hel
pher!
.”

“butwedi
dn’
tpr
epar
eanepi
dur
alsi
r!”

“doctormywi f
eisfuckenpainandyou’r
ebusy
tal
kingnonsenseagain.Lookathershe’
sinpai
n!.”

“Okf
ine.Youhavel
eavenow.Youcan’
tbeher
e!.”
“Iam stayi
ngher
e.Iwantt
obet
her
ewhenmyki
ds
areborn.”

“ok,ok!.Nursegogi vehi
m scrubstochangeinto.”
thenurseagr eesandwel eaveandgotothenext
room.Thedooropensandi t
’smymom andsome
ofluh’
suncleswi ves.Isi
gh.Iwearthescrubson
topofmycl othes.“mbuso.Weknowyouwantt o
betherewhenl uhgi
vesbirthbutyoushouldn’
tsee
such.”mymom saysandIshakemyhead.

“Ohsonowyouwanttotakeawaythemost
i
mportantt
imeofmyl
if
e?”shelooksdownand
sni
ff
s.

“mkhwenyana,(soni
n-l
aw)wemi ghtli
vei na
mordentwor
ldbutdon’
tfor
getyourteachingsand
howyougrewup.YouareaZulumanmbuso.You
cannotl
ookatyourwi
fewhenshe’sgivingbirt
h”
shesaysandIchuckl
e.
“aunty.Iwon’tl
ookathervagi
na.Ij
ustwanttobe
ther
eandhol dherhand.Shewil
lkil
lmeifshefi
nds
outIhadmyheadi nthere.Wel
lIhavehadit…”

“ohmyGod! .”theygetout.Thenur selaughs.

“servedt hem r i
ght
.Let’
sgo.”wegeti nsi
det he
room andl uhi ssoredandi sscr eamingbl oody
mur der.Idoubtsheevenknowst hatI
’mt here.I
takeherhandandshel ooksatme.Thencr ies.
“pushMr sgunede, push!.”t
hedoct ortel
lsherand
shescr eamst henpushesandshakesherhead.
“youcandoi tmylove,I’
m her e.Pushbabyourki ds
wantt omeetyou”shenodst henpushesagai n
almostbr eakingmyhandof f.Ikeepencour aging
hertopushandshedoes.“yesMr sGumede.Now
givemeonel astverystrongpush”shehuf f
s
l
ooki ngatme.“Ihat eyou,Ihat eyou!”shesays

“Ihatemyselft
oobabypush!”shehuff
sagai
n
thenpushes.WowIdidn’
tknowthatl
uhist
his
physical
lystr
ong.Shekeepspushi ngthenIhearmy
l
it
tl
eGumedecr yi
nghi slungsout,t
elli
ngthewor ld
heishere.Mybayl astbornbaby“hel l
omommy,
hel
lodaddyI ’
m aboy”t hedoctorsays.Theygi ve
met hescissorsandIcutt heumbi l
icalcord.The
nursetakeshim awayt ocl eanhi
m andl uhisstil
lin
pai
n.

“pushbaby, pushonel asttime.”Itellher.She’

sso
redandi sscr eami ngbl oodymur deragainand
maki ngal lkindsofpr omi sesabouthowshe’ sgoing
tokil
lmet henshesaysshel ovesmet henImust
comeandpusht hebabyout .“you’r
eal mostthere
Mr sGumedepush! .Thebabyi shere.”shegr abs
myt -shirtlikeshe’sgoi ngtochokemet henpushes
hardscr eami ng.Anot herl i
ttl
eGumedecomesout
screami ngver yloudl i
kehe’ sf i
ghti
ng, put
tinghis
mar kint hiswor l
d.Qwabe! .Ikissluhthencuthi s
umbi li
calcor dt oo.Theybr ingthef i
rstbabywhoi s
thelastbor nandIt akehi m andhol dhi minmy
armsdel i
cat ely.Ikisshi spinkf or
ehead.Thenur se
takeshim, takest hebl anketof fhim andput shi
m
i
nsidel uhhospi
taldr
essandshel ooksatmecr i
es.
Shekisseshim.Theybr ingqwabet ooandIhold
hi
m, kisshim.Thenursedoest hesameandl uh
ki
sseshi mtoo.“mybabi es.Mommyl ovesyou.I
l
oveyouver ymuch.Il oveyout oombuso.”Iwipe
myt earsandkissherandhugherwi thourki
ds.“I
l
oveyoumyhusband.Il oveyouPhakathwayo”

“thankyouformakingmeaman.Thankyouf or
givi
ngmeever yt
hingIcouldeveraskf or.”she
l
ooksatme.Looksatourki dsthecloseshereyes.
Themachinesgoof fandst ar
tmakingnoi se.What?!
No!.Thenur
set akesthekidsfrom herandsomet r
y
topushmeout .“LUNGI ?
!LUNGI LE?!LUNGI ?!
DOCTORWHAT’ SWRONGWHAT’ SGOI NGON? !”
“t
akeMrGumedeout.She’
sgoi
ngi
ntoshock!
.Get
hi
m outofher
e!.”

“NO!NO!NO!LUNGI
LE!LUNGI
LE!”t
wost
rong
ar
mspullmeoutoft
heroom.
CHAPTER52.
MBUSO.

Theydr agmeoutunt i
lwear eatthewai tingar ea.
Shecannotdi eandl eaveourki dsl iket hat .Howt he
hellam Igoingt ot akecar eoft woki dsonmyown? .
Shehast oli
ve!Sher eall
yhast o.“whathappened
mbuso?I ssomet hingwr ongwi thl ungi? ”heraunt
asks.Howt hehel ldoIt ellthem thatl uhmi ghtbe
dead?.Ishakemyheadandl eavet hem j ustlike
thatast heykeepcal li
ngaf terme.Ir unoutoft he
hospit
alandassoonasI ’
m out side.Iscr eam.I
fuckenr oarsol oudandhar dandIst i
llfeell i
keit’
s
notenough.Someonewoul dprobabl ythi nkthatI
am crazyandt heymi ghtber ightbecauset hatis
exactl
yhowIam f eel i
ng.“br other?”i t’sbonga.
“leavemeal onebonga.Ir eall
ywantt obeal one
andgetsomef uckenai randbr eathe! .”hesi ts
downont hepavementwi thme.

“wel
ltoobadbecauseyouknowIwon’
tleaveyou
hereal one.Wear ei nthist ogether.Allofusar e
heref oryouandl uh.We’ llbothgetsomeai rand
breat htoocausebei ngi nsidet hereissuf focati
ng
me.”hedoesn’ tgeti t
.Her eall
ydoesn’ t
.“Bonga
please!.”heshakeshi shead.“nombuso.Iwon’ t
l
eaveyouher ealoneandmakeupal lkindsof
wor sescenar i
osi nthatbeadofyour s.Iknowyou’ re
scar ed.HellI’
m scaredt oo.Thedoct orcameout
afteryoul eftt
hewai ti
ngr oom.Luhi sf i
nebutshe
hasn’ twokenupyetbutshewi l
l.Shej ustwenti nt
o
shockbutshe’ snotdeadmbuso.Shei sstil
lhere
withusandsheneedsal lofust obest rongforthe
bothofyouandyourki ds.Not hingbadwi l
lhappen.
”

“italr
eadydidbonga.Shewenti ntoshockcause
herbodycan’ thandl
eeveryt
hingt hatshehaswent
through.Whathappensifshegoesi ntoanot
her
shockanddoesn’ tcomeoutofi tandherbodygi ves
i
nandshedi esandleavesuswhathappenst hen?.I
am soscaredofl osi
ngher.IwishIcant r
adepl
aces
andbet her
eonewhoi slyi
ngther e.Ican’
tst
andt o
seeherl iket hat.”Iwi pemyt ears.“l ungiisst rong
mbusoandsheknowst hatifshedi esitwi l
lhur ther
mor ethani twil
lhur tyou.She’ syoungandshe’ s
verystrong.Youhavet obeli
eveandhavef ait
hman
thatshewi llwakeupandyouwi lltakeherhome
withyourki ds.Best rongbrot her.Nowi snott he
ti
mef oryout obebr eakingdown.Sheneeds
strengthf rom allofusbutespeci allyyou.She
needsyout opul lheroutoft hatshock.Sheneeds
tohearyourvoi ce.That’swhatsheneeds.”Igetup
andshakemyhead.“Idon’ thavest rengt hbonga.
WhenIl ookatherIcr yandIj ustwanthert ohol d
meandt ellmet hatitisgoingt obeokay.HowdoI
tel
lhert hatwhenmyhear tisf i
ll
edwi t
hf ear.Fearof
l
osi ngher .Shehasbeent hroughandwhati fshe
thi
nksi t
’sbet t
erf orhertonotbeher e.”

“yousoundsost upi
dri
ghtnowandIknowyou
don’tbel
ievet hatshecoul
dchoosedeathoveryou
andyourki ds.Mbusoyouandl uhbreat
heandlive
foreachother .Iknowthatmysist
erisf
ight
ing
toot
handnai ltobeheretoseeherki
dsandyou.
BrotherIknowi t’shardandnoneofuscani magi ne
whatyou’ regoingt hr
oughbutwear eherewithyou
andwewi llgothrougheachandever ypainyou’r
e
feeli
ng.Youwi llnotshutusoutandwantt ohave
somespacet ot hinkorbreat
he.Wewi l
lgotothe
toi
letwi t
hyoueveni fwemust .Wear ealli
nthis
together.Wewi llnotleaveyoursideandwewi l
l
comeoutoft hismuchst r
ongerthanwewer e
before.”Sicel
osaysandIdon’ tknowwhenhegot
here.

“Allwear easkingyouistol etusi nandshar eyour

painwithusbecausei tishur t
ingal lofustosee
youlikethisandespeciall
yluh.Shei syourwi f
e
mbusobutshei salsoasimpor t
antt omeandshe
i
st oyoubecauseIknowi fther oleswer ereversed
andIwasi nyourshoes.Youwoul ddoandsayt he
same.Youpr obablywouldhavepunchedmei nmy
faceandt oldmet osnapoutofi tandt hatIwil
lf al
l
apartwhenmywi f
ewakesupandwhenshei sf ine.
Sobr ot
herI ’
m sayi
ngthesamet hingtoyou.Wi pe
thosedamnt ear
s.Getinthereandshowt hem t hat
you’rembusogumede.Goandt alktoyourwifethen
youcomebackandl etusseeourki dscausethe
nursesarewai t
ingforyout ogivet hem thego
aheadButf i
rstwehavet ogotot hechapelandpr ay.
Don’tlookatmel i
ket hat.Oneofusher ehasto
knowhowt otalktoGodandIt hi nkBongai sthe
onewhoknowshowt odot hat
.”Sbusi sosaysand
bonganods.Hepul l
smet ohim andwebr ohug.We
allshareagrouphugt henweheadi nside.

Wegot othechapelandwekneeldowni nal i

ne.We
l
ookateachot herthenwel augh.“okguysl et
’sbe
serious.”wel aughagai n.“Godi snotgoingt otake
usser i
ousbecausewear enotbei ngseriousr i
ght
now.”bongasays.“manIf eelwei r
dinher e.It
’s
l
ikeGodi sst andi ngr i
ghtinf rontofmyf ace.”
sicelosayslooki ngar oundt hechapel .“closeyour
eyesyouf oolsandst opgambl ingwithmywi f
e’s
l
ife.”theygetsi lent.“uhf atherGod.I ti
smebonga
andmyt hreebr others.Thesi nners.Uhm Godwe
knowwedon’ thavear elati
onshi pwithyoubutwe
areher etoaskyouf oraf avour.Wear enot
mockingyouordi sr
especti
ngyouandwear esor
ry
aboutlaughingj
ustnowandal lt
heki l
li
ngwehave
doneandt hekil
li
ngwear egoi
ngt odot omor r
ow.I
am notgoingtoli
einyourfacebecauseyouknow
whatwear egoingtodoit.God.Pleasebr i
ngluh
backforallofusbutespeci
all
yforherki dsandmy
brot
her.”

Iopenmyeyesandl ookatmybr other .Heis

seriousandhi shandsar eti
ghtl
yent wi nedtogether.
Idot hesamet henclosemyeyesagai n.“ever
sinceluhcamet oourli
ves.mybr otherhas
changedf orthegood.Hechangedbecausehe
foundhissoul mateandbecausehel ovesherand
want edtodoanyt hi
ngt omakeherhappy.Sobr a
Godpl easedon’ttakekhanyoawayf rom us
becausemybr otherisgoingtobemi ser abl
e
withoutherandIdonotwantt hat .Hepr omisedto
kil
lhimselfifkhanyodoesn’twakeupandIknowhe
willdothat.ButforoursakeGoddon’ ttakekhanyo
away.Herki dsneedst heirmotherandourbr ot
her
needsourwi f
e.She’snotonlyal i
ghtt ohi m onl
ybut
toallofust oo.ThankyouGodanduhm IhopeI
madesenseamen.”hesays.Wesayamenandt hi
s
hasgott obet hewei rdestprayerIhaveeverhear d
butIam t hankf ul.“Ifeelguil
tythatwhenbonga
start
edpr ayingt heonl ythi
ngpl ayi
ngonmymi nd
wassex.”wel ookathi mli
kewhatt hefucksbu?
“yoht heseki dswi llki
llmeman!sexwhi lepraying
yoh.”Luh'sot herauntsayscl apingherhandsonce
andl eaves.Wel ookathershockedbecausewe
thoughtwewe’ realone.Wel ookateachot herthen
l
augh.Il eavet hem t hengot other oom theyare
keepinghert oandshel ookslikesheisindeep
sleep.Mysl eepi ngbeaut ylookssobeaut i
ful
.Ilove
thiswomanandIwi l
lmoveheavenandear thfor
her.

Isitdownandtakeherhand.Itissoftanddeli
cat
e.
Thesehandshavemademecomeundone.They
havelovedme,supportedmeandmostoft hey
havebuiltawar
m, l
ovinghomef orme.“luh
sthandwasam.(myl ove.)Iwouldl
iketothi
nkthat
youcanhearme.I’veheardabouthowt heyalways
sayt hatwhensomeonei si nacoma, youshoul d
tal
kt ot hem becauset heycanhearyousoIhope
youar ehear i
ngmer i
ghtnow.Yougavebi r
thtot wo
boyst heyar esobeaut i
fulandt heyhaveyour
beaut y.”Ichuckle.“Ican’ thavemyboysl ooking
l
ikepr ettyboysbecauset heywi l
lgetteasedat
schoolbutt hegirl
swi lll
ovet hem.I ’
m sureoft hat.I
thoughtt hatmaybewewi llhaveabeaut if
ulgirlwho
willl
ookl ikeyouanddr i
vemeabsol utelycrazybut
thatmeanswest i
llhavet ohavesomuchsexunt il
wemakeher .Idowantami niversi
onofyousoshe
canwr apmear oundherf ingersli
keyou.Come
backt ouskhanyo.Ther ewi llbenol i
ghtinourl i
ves
withoutyou.Ineedyouandourki dsneedyou
mor e.”Hechesti smovi ngupanddown.She’ s
breathing, she’sali
veandt hat’sal
lthatmat ter
sto
me.

“westil
lhaveawonderfull
if
etolookfor
wardto
wit
hourlovedones.Ist
il
lhavetoshowyout he
worl
dand….Ipromisethatwhenthekidsar
eat
l
eastthr
eemonthsold.Iam goi
ngt ot
akeyouaway
from herewit hourki
ds.Wewi l
lcomebackwhen
theyar eayearol dandwest i
llneedtonamet hem.I
thinkdadwi llnamethem butI ’m notsure.Iwantus
tonamet hem though.Ithi
nkI ’m goi
ngcr azyand
I’
ml osingmymi nd.Ineedyoubackkhanyo.Come
backst handwasam.Comebackt ous.”laymy
headnextt oherbody.Icont inuenott al
kt oherli
ke
she’siswi t
hmeandshe’ slistening,l
aughingand
wat chi
ngmeaswet alk.Yes.I’l
lkeepthatimagei n
mymi nd..

LUNGI
.

Icanhearvoices,peopletalkingbutI ’
m struggling
tohearwhattheyar esaying.Iwantt oopenmy
eyesbutIcant.Itr
yt ol
iftmyheadandbodybutI
can’
ttoocauset hefeelveryheavy.Myki ds.Wher e
aremykids?.Someonet ouchesmyhandandi t
’s
myhusband.It r
yt oopenmymout htospeakbuti t
feel
sli
keithasbeenshutwi thgl ue.He’stalkingto
me.He’scryi
ng.Mbusodon’ tcryI’
m stil
lher e.I
wantt ocomf orthim.Itr
ytogetupbutIcan’ t.I
can’tseeanyt hi
ngbecausei tisdarkwhereI’m at.I
seeal ightshi
ningsomewher eandsomehowIf ind
mysel fwalki
ngt owardsthatli
ght.Iseeaf i
gureofa
personout si
deandi tissit
ti
ngdownont hebeach.I
hearthewavesandt hebirdschirpingsomewher e
around.Thesuni sshini
ngsobr ightanditi
saver y
l
ovelyweat her.

Iwalkt owardsthatper sonandt heygetupbutt hey

havenott urnedt olookatme.I t
’sawoman, she’s
tall
erthanmeonhei ghtandshel ooksli
keshe’ s
olderthanme.She’ swear i
ngalongbeaut i
fulwhite
dressandi tfit
sherper fectl
y.Shehasabeaut i
ful
body.Herhai rthatlooksl ikemine.Istopwal ki
ng
andputahandi nmychest .Myhear ti
sbeatingso
fastitfeel
slikeitisgoi ngtojumpoutofmychest .
No.Itcan’tbeher .Doest hismeant hatIam dead
nowt hatIcanseeher .“mama?I sthatyou?”she
turnsandl ooksatme.Mybot t
om liphangsi n
shock..Shesmi l
est henopensherar mst ome.I
slowlywalkt owardsherandshedoest o.Hear ms
arestil
lopenwhenwebot hstopinf r
ontofeach
other.“mntanam.(mychi l
d)”shesays.Shei smy
mot her.Sheal
mostlooksexactl
ylikeme.Ifshe
wasal i
veandwehadt ogosomewher eIthinkwe
woul dhavebeenmistakenforsi
stersandnot
mot heranddaught
er.“mama.I t
’sreall
yyou.”I
throwmysel fi
nherarmsandIcr y.

Shehol dsmet ightandIf eel herloveandwar mth.

Shei sreall
yher e.Ismel l herneckandshesmel ls
l
ikecocoabut ter .Ipullbackandt ouchherf aceand
hairandshel aughs.“ar eyour eal
lyrealori t’
sa
fi
gmentofmyi magi nation?”shesmi lesandki sses
mycheekandf or eheadt henshepal msmycheek.
“comel et
’sgosi tdownandt alk.Shet akesmy
handandl eadsmet ot hebeach.Wesi tinthesand.
“it’
sabeaut ifuldayt odayi si tnot?”somehowt hat
statementmakesmet hinkofmbuso.“whyar eyou
sadbaby?”It akeadeepbr eathandl ookather .“it
i
sher ebutIdon’ tthi
nki tist here.”shenods.“you
aresobeaut i
fulandgr ownup.Youar eawi feanda
mot hernow.YouknowIhel dyourki dsbef or ethey
wereborn.Iki
ssedthei
rcheeks.Theyareso
beauti
fulandhandsome.Justli
kethei
rdad.”I
smil
e.“thankyoumom.Whatdoyout hinkofmy
husbandmom?”

Hersmi l
eisbeaut ifulandi tradiatesfrom herf ace.
“atfirstIdidn’
tlikehi m becauseIhadt houghtt hat
hisintensionswi thyouwer enotpur e.Iwasscar ed
foryourl i
febutIsl owl ysawchangei nhim andt hen
Iknewhewaswor thyofyou.Thedayyoul eftthat
houseandwentt ol ivewi thhim wast hedayIf ound
alit
tlepeace.Iknowhel ovesyouandhel ivesf or
youbaby.Her emi ndsmeofyourdad.Hi sl oveis
veryintenseandsomet i
mesi tmakeyouf eelli
ke
yoursuf focati
ngr ight ?”Inod.“i t
’sinhim andhe
can’thelphimsel f.It’
showyoul ovehi m andhowhe
l
ovesyou.Thebot hofyouar el
ikethat.Hehas
walkedt heendsoft heear thprotecti
ngyouandI
wantyout otellhimt hatIam gr atef
ulandIam
happyt ohaveasoni nlawl ikehim.”
Wow.Idi dn’tknowt hatIneededt oheart hose
wordscomi ngf r
om mymot herandt hatt heywould
meant hatmucht ome.“t hankyoumamaIwi ll
.”
shepat smyl egandsi ghs.“I’m sorryabouthow
youIleftal lofyou.Howyougr ewupand
experi
encedi nthehandsoft hosepeopl e.Wear e
notheret ot alkaboutt hem butIwantyout o
promisemeonet hingbaby.”Il ookathert hennod.
“Iwantyout opr omisemet hatyouwi l
lletgoofal l
thehurtt heydi dt oyou.Allther egret
syouhave.I
wantyout ol iveyourlifewithoutanyr egr etsandbe
happywi thyourf ami l
y.Youhavebeent hr oughso
muchmychi ldandeacht i
meyoucomeupst r
onger
thanbef oreandt hatiswhatyoumustpr omi seme.
Noonecant akeawayyourhappi nessbutonl y
yourself
.Bel i
evei nthewomanyouar e,t
hemot her
youar eandt hewi feyouar e.”

“Ipromiseyoumom.Iwi l
ldothat.Ar
eyouhappy
herecauseitlooksl
ikeyouarealone?.”shelaughs.
“Iam notalonebaby.Therearemanypeopl ehere.
Thankyouforhonour i
ngmeatyourweddi ngand
alwaysi ncludingmei neverythi
ngyouar edoi ngin
yourlife.Iwillalwaysbewi t
hyouandIwi llguide
youinever yway.Al lyouhavet odoi scomet ome
andt alktome.Iam sopr oudofyoumychi l
dren
andpl easet ellyourbrotherthattoo.Hehasmeta
wonder fulwomanandshewi l
lmakehi m happy.
Youandherar egoingtobegr eatsister
s.Ourf amil
y
i
sgr owi ngandt hatmakesmever yhappy.”She
getsqui etafterthatandwesi ti
nsi l
ence“mom?”

“Yesbaby? .”hereyesl ookt ear yandIt hinkshe

knowswhatIwantt oaskher .“whyhaven’ tyou
askedmeaboutdad.”sheget supandIgetupt oo.
Wewal kslowl yandt hesuni ssl owl yset t
ing.
“becauseIst i
llmisshi m andI ’
m wai t
ingf ortheday
thatGodwi llreunit
eusagai n.Iwasr ippedf r
om
him.Wedi dn’tli
veourl ifethewaywepl anned
becauseofmymi stakesandl ungi le.Iwantyout o
l
ear nfr
om mymi stakesandst opl etti
nganyone
closetoyou.Youhavet opr ot ectyourf ami lyno
mat t
erwhat.Youri nstinctswar nedyoubutyou
fail
edtoli
stent othem.Don’ tdot hatagai nbecause
youalmostcostyour
sel
fyourli
feandyourkidsl
if
e.
Thatwomanwasgoi ngtoki
llyoubabyifyour
husbandhadn’tf
oundyou.
”

“Iknowmom andi twasver ystupidofmebutwhat

happenedopenedmyeyesandIwi l
lnevermake
thesamemi staketwice.”shenods.“t rustthe
peopleyouhaver i
ghtnowi nyourl i
fe.Youhavemy
grandchildrennowandIwantt oseeyougr owol d
andthem gr owingupt otakecareofyouoneday.”
shewi pesmyt ear
s.“Iwishyoudi dn’tdie.IwishI
hadyougr owingup.”shehugsmeandwest and
l
ikethat.“t herearepeopleIwantyout omeet .”I
l
ookather .“whodoyouwantmet omeetmom?”
shesmi les.“you’ l
lsee.Closeyoureyes.”ok.I
closethem andIwai t.“openthem.”andIam
hesit
ant.Whati fthepeopleshewant smet omeet
arethemazi buko'sbutIdon’tthinkGodwoul ddo
thattomeormymom becausepr et
tysur eshe
wouldhaveki ll
edhert henmomentshesawt hem.
IopenmyeyesandIam shocked.Il ookatwhat ’s
i
nf r
ontofmeandt herest andt wopeopl ewhol ook
l
ikemymom anddad.Theyl ookl i
kemeandsi celo.
Onei swomanandanot heri saman.Theyar e
smi l
ingandl ookexci t
ed.“t hesear eyoursi bli
ngs
l
ungi le.Thi sisyourol dersi stermbal enhleandyour
olderbr otherntokozo.”what ?“howcomeIdon’ t
knowaboutt hem andnoonehaseversai d
anythi ngaboutmyot hersi blings? .”theypul lmet o
them andweshar eagr oom hugandIcr y.Ihol d
them t ightandcr ymyeyesout .“youdon’ thavet o
crybaby.Yourf atherdi dn’ tknowaboutt hem t oo.
Heonl yf oundoutwhent hul iconf essedt ohave
mademel osethem.Idi dn’ tknowIwaspr egnant
andshemadegavemesomet hingt oloset hem.”
thatwi tch!“I ’
m sorryt hul idi dt hattoallofus.”
theynod.“wear egl adt ohavemetyout oo.Pl ease
tel
ldadandt hewhol ef ami lyaboutus.Tel lthem we
havegr ownandwear ewat chi ngoveral lofyou.”
mybr ot hersays.Hei sindeedmyf atherssonand
myol dersi sterisjustasbeaut ifulasmymom.
Wow.Mypar entsgenesdon’ tplay.“Iloveal lofyou
”Ihugt hem agai nandt hent heyl eave.Mymom
l
ooksatmeandIknowi t’
sti
metosaygoodbyeand
I’
m notready.“areyouleavi
ngme?..
.Agai
n?”I
knowI’m beingri
dicul
ousbutI’
m st
il
lnotr
eady.I
hugherandcr yonhershoulder.

“It’
st i
mef oryout ogobackandbewi thyourf amily.
Yourhusbandneedsyouandmygr andchildr
en
needyout oo.Takeofyourdadandmakesur ehe’s
happy.Il oveal lofyoubabyandIam al ways
wat chingoveryou.Tel lyourdadaboutyourbr other
andsi ster.Hewi llknowwhatt odo.Tellhim what
musthenamet hem.Mbal enhleandNt okozo.Now
gobackbef oreyourhusbandki l
lshimself.”she
kissesmycheekt hengi vesmeonel astti
ghthug
andIhol dhert ightt omenotwant i
ngt oletgo.
“lungile!,Lungi l
e!.Luhgobackmnt anam.(my
child.
)Ngi zohl alangi kuthandat humbukamama.(I
willalwaysl oveyoumyl astbor n)don’tyouever
forgetthatyouar ef avour edmychi l
dandl ungi l
e.
Pleasegot ochur chandchr i
stenmygr andkids.
Nowgo! .”shet ri
est olushmebutIhol dhert ight
andcr y.Shecr iest oobutt henshepushesmehar d
andthel
ightgoesout.Idon’
tseeheranymor
eandI
scr
eam hername.Ikeepcalli
nghernamebutshe’
s
nott
hereanymoreandt her
e’snol
ight
.

Someonei scall
ingmynamer epeat edlyandI’m
cryi
ngcal lingformymom.Theyshakemeunt ilI
feelashar psmel lonmynoseandIopenmyeyes
andt hef i
rstpersonIseei smyhusbandandhe
l
ooksl i
keamess.Hi sbeardhasgr ownandhe
l
ooksver ysexyandmessyatt hesamet ime.He
l
ooksl i
kehehasn’ tsl
eptinmonths.Hel ooksatme
thent akesmyhandt ohis.Hepalmsmycheekand
hishandf eel
ssowar m andcomf ortingi tf
eelsli
ke
home.“babyyou’ r
eawake!.Fi
nally!.Ithoughtyou
werenevergoi ngt owakeup.”what ?Whywoul d
het hi
nkt hat?.“nur se?Callt
hedoct ormywi f
ei s
awake! .”

“Isl
eepforadaythenIwakeupandyourbeard
hasgrowntothi
ssize?.Babydi
dyoueatandget
somesleep?”hechucklesandki
ssesmyli
ps.I
wipehist ear
s.“whyarecr yi
ng?...
.Canyougiveme
somewat ert
odrink?”heget supandgi vesme
water.Thedoctorcomesi nl
ookingpanickedthen
herelaxeswhenheseesme.“MyGodf i
nall
yyou’r
e
awake.Howar eyoufeeling?
.”theylookatme
worriedthenthedoctorhelpsmesi tup.Andbegins
tocheckmyhear tr
ate,eyesandhi ghbl
ood
pressureandmysugarl evel
.

“I’
mf ine.Ifeelfi
ne.”Ianswerhi m.“whati syour
nameandwhoi sthepr esidentoft hiscountr y?
”is
thi
sdoct orserious.“Mynamei slungileGumede
andRamaphosai sourpr esidentandt hisismy
husbandMbusoGumede.Wher ear emyki ds?”he
writ
esdownt henl ooksatme“canyoumoveyour
toesforme? .
”Heasksl if
tingt hesheetof ftosee
myf eetandmyt oesarest illworkingjustfi
ne.He
writ
esdown.“canyoudot hesamet oyourhands? .
”Ifeelmyhusbandf r
eezi ng.Hel ookswor ried.I
movemyhandsandt heyar eallworkingjustf i
ne.
“doyouf eelanypai nwhenyou’ r
emovi ngt hem?”I
shakemyheadno.Okwhati sgoingonher e? .“I’
m
goingtolistpokeyouwi t
ht hisneedleshere.Ineed
youtotellmeatt hescalefrom 0t o10howdoesi t
feel
?.’hedoesanddamnt hatthinkstings.“aaw
that’
sa10.Buti tiscrampingal i
ttl
e.Whydoyou
l
ookwor ried.”Iaskthedoct ort
henl ookatmbuso.

“Doyour ememberwhathappenedt oyouMr s

Gumede?”Il ookatmbusoandmyhusbandi ssti
ll
wor r
ied.“Idor emember ..Thankyouf orsavingme.
I’
m sor r
yIdidn’ttel
lyouaboutmysuspi cionsabout
Preston.…..”justthinkaboutwhatt hatwoman
saidshewasgoi ngt odot omeandwhatmymom
toldmet hatshewoul dhavekilledmemakesme
tearup.Ihonest lyt
houghtt hatIwasnevergoi ngto
seemyf amil
yagai n.“shhh.It’sokaybaby.Youar e
safenow.Yourhandi scrampingbecausewhen
yougotshotandwhent hembit ookoutthebul l
et
shet ouchedsomeofyourner vesthat’swhyyouar e
feeli
ngitcrampi ng.”ohmyGod.“doest hatmean
myl efthandmi ghtnotwor k?”Iaskt hedoct or.
“Wehavet omoni t
orittoseei fitst
opswor ki
ngori
t
compl etelyheal s.ButfornowI ’m notwor r
ied
becausei tseemst obewor king.Congratsthough
fordeliveringt wobeaut i
fulbabyboys.Thenur se
willbri
ngt hem andyourf ami l
yisdyi ngtoseeyou.I
willkeepyouf orni
ghtandi fthereareno
compl icati
onst hentomor rowmor ningyouar efr
ee
togohomewi t
hyourkids.Doyouf eelpain
anywher eel seinyourbody?”Il ookatmbusoand
smi l
e.“ot hert hanmyshoul derno, Ifeelfi
ne.Does
thatmeant hatthereisnothi ngwr ongwi t
hmyki ds
eveni ftheywer ebornbef oret i
me?”

“Youwer ealreadyandf ul
lyeightmont hspr egnant
andyouwer eont hefirstweekofyourni nthmont h.
Ihaveneverexper i
encedsomet hingliket hisMr s
Gumede.Yougotshotandyouwer ei npai nbutyou
sti
llmanagedt ogivebirt
hnat ur
all
ywow! .Ihave
helpedmanywomeni nverycompl i
cat edsi t
uations
butthi
sonewasoneofaki ndandI ’
m happyt o
knowt hatIhelpedyoudeliveryourbabi eseven
thoughyougaveusascar e.Congratulati
onsyou
twoagai
n Thenursewil
lcomeandgiveyouyour
babi
es.”hel
eavesisandIl
ookatmbuso.Helooks
sodownandbroken.

“talkt ome. .What ’swr ong? .”hesi ghs.Hel ayshis

headonmyl ap.“youwer einacomal uhforaweek.
Iwasaf r
aidt hatyouwer enevergoi ngt owakeup.I
thoughtyouwer egoi ngt odi eafteryougavebi r
th
tothet winsandI ...”ohmypoorhusband.I ’
ve
beeni nacomaf oraweek.Buti ffeltl
ikeIwaswi t
h
mymom f oraf ewhour s? .“I’
m her enowandIam
awake.I ’
m sor r
yIputyout hroughhel lmyhusband.
Doyouf orgiveme?”hel ooksatmeandhonest lyI
don’ tli
keseei nghi mliket his.“there’snot hi
ngto
forgivebaby.Ij ustwantt ot akeyouhomewi thour
kidst hat’sall.”hesays.Thenur secomesi nandI
seemybeaut ifulbabies.“butIhaven’ tbathedyet.”
Itellthem andmbusochuckl es.“Si msmadesur e
thatyoul ookedbeaut ifulandshebat hedyou
hersel f.”that’ssl i
keher .Thenur seundr esses
them t hensheput sthem i nsidemyhospi talgown
andt heylooksobeaut ifulandper fect.Tearswellin
myeyesandIl
ookatmbusoashesnapsphot
osof
meandtheki
dsthent
hefourofus.

“canIf eedt hem?”t henur sesmi l

esandhel psme
takeof ft hegownof fmyshoul dersandar mst hen
placeseachoneonmyni pple.Atf i
rstitkindhurts
thenIdoesn’ t.Il
ookatt henast heysuckl efordear
l
ife.Mom wasr i
ght.Theyl ookl i
ketherehandsome
dad.“yourhusbandwi llhavet osuckl eonyour
nipplest oopent hem sot hebabi eswon’ thave
troubleget ti
ngmi l
k.Ilookatmbusoandhel ooksat
mesmi r ks.“youar eabeaut i
fulfami l
y.Iwi l
lleave
youandcomebackwhenIhavet obatht hem.”she
sayst henl eaves.

“Ican’tbel
ieveIdidn’
tgivethem theirf
ir
stbath.”I
sayregrett
ably.“Idi
dn’ttoobecauseyouwer e
fi
ghti
ngf oryourli
feandlove?Wear egoingtogive
them manybat hs.”hesayssnappi ngmor epict
ures.
“whatar ethei
rnames?”Iaskhi m.“Ihaven’t
namedt hem yet.Iwaswai t
ingforyoutowakeup.”
hesays.“whi chonei stheoldestcauset heyare
i
dent i
calmbuso? .”Idon’tknowi fIwil
lbeabl et
o
tel
lthem apart.“theonewho’ sgoi ngt
ocr ythe
l
oudesti stheoldestone.”hesaysandIgi ggle.
“it
’ssoni cetohearyoul aughi
ng.Don’ teverme
l
eavemel ungil
e.Promisemet hat.”

“Iwi l
lneverl
eaveyoumbuso.Ever !
.”hekissesme
andwewat chourkids.It
hinkIknowwho’sthe
oldest.Hi
seyebrowsar efr
owningli
kehe’
sal r
eady
pissedattheworld.Yephei sdef
ini
tel
ymbuso’s
son.

There’
saknockont hedoorandwel ookupandi t’
s
mydad.Hel ooksrevealed.Hecomesandhugsus
ti
ght.Helooksatmeandnods.Iknowhewant st
o
saysomet hi
ngbuthe’sf eel
ingveryemot i
onal.I
ki
sshim andwi pehi
st ears.Mybr ot
hercomesand
hetoolookslikeamess.Wehugt i
ght.Thelongest
andhecr i
es.Hemakesmecr ytoo.“don’tever
l
eaveme.”hesaysandInod.Bongacomest oo
andhugsmet oo.Sbusi soisalsoamess.Al lthese
menl ookliketheyagedandhaven’ tbathedorslept
.
Hehugsmet ooandapol ogizes.Itel
lhimit’
sokay.
Ziphosurpr i
singlyi
sher etoo.“aveunedr ama!.
Sowungazeuf unaukusi shiyakanjalonje
ungakokot i
zikahleekhayakhanyo?Hayngeke!
(youar esof ullofdrama.Soyouwant edtodieand
l
eaveusl ikethatwhi leyouhaven’ tperfor
medyour
wifel
ydutiesatmypar ent’
shouse?Noyoucan’ t!)”
hesays.Il aught hr
oughmyt ear
saswehug.

Frankhugsmet oothenmahandshe’ sacrying

mess.Mbuso’ saunthugsmet oocrying.Si
msget s
i
nandshel ookshesi tant.Shehasabagwi thher
thenshepul lsoutapyj amabut tonupt op“uhm
canyoual lturnaroundandIwantt odressluh.”
she’savoidi
ngmyeyesbutherf acelooksredand
hereyesar esopuf fy.Thement urntheshet akes
oneoft hebabi esandgi vesonet wintoauntlwethu
andt heothertomyaunt .Shehel psmewearmy
pyjamat opandasshe’ sbuttoningitherhandsar e
shaking.Istopherandhol dsherhands.She’ snot
l
ooki
ngatme.Si
ms?.”shewipeshert
oseear
e
t
henqui
ckl
ygetsupandIsi
gh.

Simsi snott het ypeofpersont hattalksabouther

feeli
ngseasi ly.IknowherandIknowshe’ shur ti
ng.
Shewon’ tt al
know.Shej ustneedssomet ime.She
tell
st hem t oturnagai nandt heydo.Theygi veme
myki dsandIhol dthebothoft hem.Mbuso' smom
anddadcomei ntooandhi sdadhugsmeaf t
er
decidingi fheshoul dornot.Hi smom t houghhasn’ t
l
ookedatmeori scomi ngcomehugmet oo.Il ook
atmbusoandhe’ shavingasi lentconver sationwith
hisdad.If rown.IRember twhatt hembisai dandI
alsor ememberwhatmymom sai daboutmovi ng
onandf or getti
ngaboutt hingst hathurtme.She
didn’thur tmeIknowbutIf eellikeshe’salso
responsi blefort hembibeingi nourl i
ves.“mah?”
shel ooksatmeandcr ies.

“I’
m sor
rymychi
ld.Inevert
houghtt
hingswould
tur
noutthi
swayandshewoul d….I
’m sosor
ry.”
she’shurti
ngandmbusoscof fsshakinghi
shead.
Whathappenedbet weent hem? .“mah,don’tcry
andi twasn’
tyourfaul
t.Thembihadhermi ndset
andshewasgoi ngtodowhat evershewant edt odo.
Youdi dnottel
lhertodoal lt
het hi
ngsshedi d.I
t
washerandPr est
on.Nooneel se.CanIgethug
please?”shecomest hensi t
sbesidemeandgi ves
meamom hug.Wehugeachmaki ngsuredon’ t
hurtmyl i
tt
leones.“Ifor
giveyou”Iwhi speri nher
earandshenods.

Sheget supandIl ookatal lofthem.“sicelowhere

i
sl esego?”Iaskhi m.“she’ satyourhousewi tht
he
kids.”Inod.Iwashopi ngshewoul dbeheretoobut
Iunderstand.“ziphowher e’syourf ut
urewife?”
theyalllaughandl ookathim.Hebr usheshishead
“she’satherf l
at.”hesaysandInod.“t hankyou
fortheloveyouar eshowingmer i
ghtnow.Ihad
doubtsaboutPr estonandshoul dhavetoldmy
husbandwhatIwassuspect i
ngaf t
erhetold
everyoneaboutt hetwinsandwhenIsawhi m
getti
ngar ousedlookingatmyl egs.”Il
ookat
mbusoandhel ooksshocked.“Iwant edtotellyou
atnightbutIj ustwant edt
obesureandsoI
decidedt hatIwilltel
lyouint
hemor ningbutthen
hewasonest epaheadofme.Ipr omisetonever
putmyl ifeindangerandneverbr i
ngast rangerint
o
ourlivesandhomesbecausei talmostcostmemy
l
ifeandmyki dsl i
fe.Ihopeyouwil
lallfor
giveme
forputti
ngyout hroughthi
sordeal
.”theyagr eeand
mbusot akesmyhand.

“baba.Whatar et heirnames?”Iaskmyf atheri n

l
awandhel ookssur prised.“It
houghtyouwoul d
wantt onamet hem your sel
f?”Ishakemyhead.“I
thoughtsotoobutwet houghti
twillbebesti fyou
twogr andf
atherswoul dnameyourgr andkids.”I
l
ookatmydadandhel ooksemotional.It
hinkt hey
deservethat.Wewi llnamet henextkidswewi l
l
havebyGod’ sgr ace.“Iwasn’texpectingthatt hank
youmychi ldren.”hisdadsays.“Iwi llnamet he
oldestBhekumbusoGumedeandt helastbor ni s
BhekizizweGumede. ”YepIdidthi
nkhewi ll
probablygot othatli
neofnames.Wel ookatmy
dad.“bhekumbusosi bonel
oGumedeandt helast
bornisBhekizi
zwesibonisoGumede.Ourgrand
chi
ldren.Thankyouforgivi
ngusthehonourto
nameyourchi l
dren.”

“Ilovet heirnames.Ri ghtbaby”henodssmi li

ng.I
l
ookatSi msandshe’ ssmi li
ngbutIknowwhat
happenedshookher .Thenur secomesandt akes
mybabi esawaybutpr omi sest obr i
ngt heback
becauseIwantt hem t osleepi nthesamer oom as
me.Thef ami l
yhesi tantl
yl eavesandi t’
sjustme
andmbuso.“howi sSims?”hesi ghs.“she’sa
mess.Shehasn’ ttalkedsinceyougother eand
bongadoesn’ tknowwhatt odo.”Inod.“shei slike
that.Iwilltal
kt oher .”heagr ees.“Ithinkshegot
scaredt hatifithappenst hatyoudi eshewi l
lbel ef
t
alone.”Iknowbecauset hat’
sexact l
ywhatI ’
m
thinki
ng.“geti nbedwi t
hmeandhol dmepl ease?”
hesmi les.“Ithoughtyouwoul dneverask.”he
saysget tinginandhol dsme.“ngi yakuthanda
mkami .Mamawabant wanabami .(Iloveyoumy
wife.Mot herofmyki ds”Iki sshischeek.“Il ove
youhusband.”
CHAPTER53

LUNGI
.

Wear eonourwayhomeandI ’
m sittingwi t
hsi ms
atthebackseat .She’shol
dingmyl astbor nwhoi s
sleepingsoundl yinherarms.I t’
slikehe’ sher s
causeshet ookhi mt hemomentshegoti nmyr oom.
Myhusbandwasr i
ghtwhenhesai dt heoldesti s
theonet hatcr iesloudlyandmybaby, myl astbor n
i
ssweetanddoesn’ tcryalot.Icanj ustseet hat
Siboneloistheonet hati
sgoi ngtogi veust r
oubl e.
“Whatar eyousmi li
ngabout .”simsasksandI
l
augh.“t hatIl oveyouandI ’
m happyt hatyou’re
herewi t
hme.”shel ooksatmeandIseehereyes
getti
ngmi sty.Si msi sreal
lyhur tandseei ngherl ike
thisisbreakingmyhear t
.“I’
m her enowandI ’
m
okay.Iwon’ tleaveyou.Ipr omi se.”
Sheshakesherheadt henwi peshert ear
s.“wel l
talkaboutt hiswhenwegethome.Ineedyout o
helpmewi t
ht heki
ds.YouknowI ’
m newt othis
event houghIhavebeenwi thyouwhent heboys
wer eborni t’
snotthesamenowcauseIhavet odo
mostoft hewor kandsoIneedyout obest rong.Ok
mamkhul u?”shegi gglesandIsmi le.That’swhatI
wantt osee.Hersmi l
ingandnotcr ying.“Ican’ t
believetheyar eactuall
yhere.Theyl ookso
beaut i
fulluh.Mybabi es.Imissedthisnewsmel lof
babi es”shesayssmel li
ngmyson.“pl easest op
kissingmysonont hemout hsimscauseIdon’ t
knowwhatt hemout hwasl i
ckingl
astni ght”mbuso
saysl ookingatsimst henlaughswhenheseesher
shockedf ace.Welaughather .

“Wellforyourinf
ormati
on.Ididn’tki
sshim onhis
mouth.Ijustpeckedhi
slit
tlepinkchubbycheek.”
shelaughs.WegethomeandIam sogl adtobe
back.Inoti
cethoughthatitl
ooksl i
ketherear
enew
securi
tyguys.“areoursecuri
tyguysonl eaveor
something?”Iaskmyhusband.“no.If i
redallof
t
hem ”hesaysswit
chingtheengi
neof f
.Mbuso
t
hough.Whydidhefir
ethem causeitwasnott hei
r
f
ault
.Iwil
laskhi
m whenwear ealone.RightnowI
j
ustwanttobeinmyhouse.

Iam sogl adthattheydi dn’tstit

chme.Mybabi es
cameoutheal thyandohk.Mbusot houghaskedt he
doct orwhenar ewegoi ngt ohavesexandt he
doct orsaidweshoul datl eastwait2mont hs.Hi s
mom andaunthowevert oldhimt hathemustwai t
for6mont hsandhel aughedl i
kewhatt heywer e
tell
inghim wascr azy.Ihopewewi l
lbothwai t
befor ewehavesexagai n.Ihavet otalktodadand
siceloandt el
lthem whatmom sai d.Istil
lcan’t
believeIhadt hatencount erwithher.IhopeIam
goingt olookasbeaut i
fulasherwhenI ’
m older.I
toldmbusoaboutmyencount erwhenIwasi nthe
comaandwhatmymom sai dabouthi m.Ittouched
him deeplyandt hankedher .

Myhusbandopenst
hedoorandmyhousesmel
l
s
amazi ng.Isee4l i
tt
lepeopl esi t
tingont hecarpet
wat chingcartoons.Si msboysandLesego’ skids.
“higuys, howar eyou?”t heki dsst andupandsi ms
kidsr untomet olookatt hebabi es“goodmor ning
aunt yluh.Wowyoucamewi t
ht wobabi es?”Ilaugh
andt hent heyfollowt heirmom t othekitchenIlook
atmynephewandni eceandt heyar equi
etl
y
wat chingus.“ar en’tyouguysgoi ngt ocomeand
giveyouraunthugsandki sses?”t heylookateach
othert hentheysmi l
es.“Icoul dreal l
yusehugsand
kissesr i
ghtnowt ofeel better.”theyshyl ycome
towar dsmeandst andnextt ome.Igi vembusohi s
sonandhegoest ot hekitchenf ollowingsimswho
wentst r
aightthere.

Ipullthechai randsitfacingthem sowecanbeon

thesamel evel.“I’
m yourdad’ssisterandmyname
i
saunt yLungi .Thatmeanst hebothofyouar emy
nephewandni ece.Soyouwantt otellmeyour
namest oo?”Igi vethem mywar mestandki ndest
smile.“isthatyouont hatpictur
e?”kamoasks
pointi
ngatt hepot rai
tintheloungembusodi dfor
me.“yeaht hat’sme.Youl i
keit?”kagisolooksat
hissisterandshakeshi shead.“aunt yaskedusour
nameskamo.Mynamei skagisoauntyandt his
kamomyl it
tlesister”hesays.Kamopout slooking
atherbr other“butIwasgoi ngt ot
ellherkagiso.”
shef oldsherhandsandpr et
endst obeupsetandI
giggle.“doyoul ikethatpicturekamo?”shesmi l
es
hertoot hl
esscut esmi le.“yesaunt y.What
happenedt oyourhai r?,didyourmommycuti ttoo?
”Igi ggle.“noshedi dn’t.Someoneel sedid.Doyou
thinkaunt ylooksbeaut ifulwit
houtherhai r?”

Shenods.“youl ookli
kemydaddysoyou’ re
beauti
ful”what ?IlaughandIl ookatkagisoandhe
l
aughs.“girlsdon’tlookli
keboyssi ll
y.”kamol ooks
athim confused.“butaunt yl
ooksl i
kepapaand
grandpa.”theyar esocute.Ilovethem.“noshe
doesn’t
.Aunt yi
sbeaut i
fulandboysar en’tbeauti
ful
.
”kamor ol
lshereyesandpal mshercheekandI
l
augh.“aunt yisstil
lwaiti
ngforherhugsandki sses
”kamoopensherar msandIpul lhercl
oseand
showerherwi thkissesalloverherfaceandshe
giggles.Ipullkagisotooandhel aughsandducks
myki sseswhenIt r
ytokisshim onthemouthbutI
eventuallylandone.Hel aughsandget sshy.“don’t
youwantmet okissyouonthemout h?”hel ooks
downshyl yandshakeshi shead“wel lIam going
tokissyouever ydayunti
lyoutellmewhyyoudon’ t
wantmet oki ssyouont hemout h.”It
ellhi
m
giggli
ng.

“noaunt y.Gi rl
swon’ tlikemei fyouki ssmei nt he
mout h.”hemumbl esi tandIlaugh.OhmyGod.At
8year sol d? .Ilaugh.“Iwon’ tkissyouont hemout h
then.Aunt ypr omi ses.”hegi ggles.“wher e’syour
mommy?” .Itur nar oundandseemybr ot her.He
waswat chi ngust hewhol eentiretime.“howl ong
haveyoubeenst andingt here?”Iaskhi m get t
ing
up.“longenough.Thankyou.”hesays.Icockmy
headt othesi de.“f orwel comi ngt hem sis.Thank
you.”her eal l
yl ovest hem.“wel ltheyareyourki ds
andIl ovet hem t oo.Wher e’
sLesego?”Iaskhi m.
Het akesmyhandandpul lsmet ohi m andwehug.
Hei scaref ulnott ohur tmyshoul der.
“Idon’ teverwantt oexper i
encewhatweal lwent
throught hepastweek.Youscar edmel uh.You
reall
ydi d.Ican’tloseyouagai n.”Inod.West and
l
iket hatjustholdingeachot her.“Ihavet ot al
kt o
youanddad.Wher eishe?”het akesadeepbr eath
thenl ooksatme.“hei satt hefar m,wit
hmbuso' s
dadanduncl eVictor.Hest ayedatt hefarm sohe
canwat cht hembiandPr eston.“I ’
m sorryforwhat
theydi dt oyou.Wewer ecar elesswi thyoursaf et
y
andever yoneelse’s.Wewon’ tdoi tagain.”Inod.
“takemet omeetyourf uturewi fe.”helaughs.

Weent ermyki tchenandit’

smymot herin-
law,my
aunt,sisnonto,Sims,sbu,bonga.Myhusbandand
myf uturesist
erin-l
aw.Theyar ewatchingthe
babies,sleepi
ngandt heyarecooingandt aki
ng
pi
cturesoft hebabies.Shelooksupandsmi l
es
whenhereyesl andonmybr ot
her.That’
ssosweet .
“lovecomeher e.”shecomesandst andsnextt o
hi
m.“youhavemetal mostever
yonebutyou
haven’tmetoneoft hemostimportantpeopleinmy
l
ife.Irespectherandl oveherdear ly.Whenyousee
her,she’sar efl
ecti
onofourmot her.Shelooks
exactlyli
keher .Thi
sisLungiGumedemysi st
er.Sis.
Thisisthewomanwhohasmyhear tandmysoul .
LesegoMot aung.”Ilookatherandshebl ushes.
“hilesego,ni cetofi
nall
ymeetyouandI ’
m sorr
y
thatwear emeet ingli
ket hi
sf ort
hever yfi
rstt
ime.”
Ihugherandshehugsmebackandshebl ushes
l
ookingdown“t hankyouf orwel comemeand
my…. ourkids.Andf orthelovelyhouseyouf ound
forus.Theki dsandIl oveit.”shesoundssosweet
andshe’ sver ybeauti
ful.

“howar eyouf eeli

ngt hough?”sheasks.“I ’
mj ust
gladtobebackhomet omyf amily.That’sal
lthat
mat t
ersandI ’mthankfulforthat.IthoughtIwas
goingtodi e.Iwasterri
fiedformyl ifeandmyki ds
l
ife.Iknewt hatwomanwasgoi ngt okil
lme.”I
moveandsi tnexttomyhusbandandIl ookatour
kids.Everyonegetssilentandlistent ome.“you
cansmel landseeevi lfrom herface.Sher eeksofit
.
Itfel
tli
keIwaswi t
hSat anfacet oface.Shemade
mybl oodr uncol d.Hereyeshadt hiscoldand
vacantl ook.It hinkPr estonsawanot hersideofher
thathehasneverseenbef oreandhegotscar ed
whensheshi tmewi t
houtt hi
nkingt wice.Hebegged
hernott oki llme.Thei rplanwast hattheywer e
goingt okeepmeunt ilIhavebi rththenshewoul d
takemybabi esawaybutt henshechangedher
mi nd.Shewant edt ogi vemeacaesar eanwhi leI
waswat chi ngandt henki llmeaf t
er .Preston
beggedhernott odoi tbutshewasadamantt hat
shei sdoi ngi tt
henPr estonsai dhewi lldoitcause
hedoesn’ twantmet odi ebecausehedoesn’ tmy
bloodonhi shands.Thatr oom Iwasi nlookedl i
kea
hospitalt heatreroom i thaveever ythi
ngyoucan
thinkoff.Iknewt hatifmyhusbanddoesn’ tfi
ndme
ont i
me, hewasgoi ngt ofindmedeadandourki ds
gonewi t hthatpsycho. ”Myhusbandl ooksathi s
mot herandIcanr ageal loverhisf ace.Theyal l
l
ookatmeshocked.Si mscomest omeandhugs
mef r
om behi ndandcr ies.Ir eal
lyhavet otal
kt o
Simsal one.
“Mah, Idon’tknowwhatpr omi sesyoumadet othat
girlcauseshesai dyousol dherdr eams.Shesai dI
wasl ivingthel i
fethatwasmeantt obeher scause
youmadepr omi sedandsol dherdr eams.She
want edt omakebot hofyoumbusoandsbut opay
andsoIwascol l
ateraldamage.Shewai t
edand
wai t
edunt ilshef oundtheper fectoppor tunitywhen
Imovedher embuso.Shehasbeenwat chingus
ri
ghtunderournoses.Am Ievergoi ngt ofeelsaf e?.
IknowIbr oughtPr estonintoourl ivesbutIhonest ly
thoughtt hathewasj ustaper sonwhoneededl ove
andaf amilybutt heyplannedt his.Igotki dnapped
bysomeonewel ivedanddi nedwi th.Igavehi ma
roofundermyhouse.Whati fhedi dmanyt hings
thatwedon’ tknowabout ?
.”mbusol ooksf rustrat
ed.
Hel ooksl i
ket hewhol eworldisonhi sshoul ders.

Sisnontotakesmyhandandwi peshert
ears.“I’
m
backsisnontoandIhopenoonei sgoi
ngtocome
i
ntoourfami l
yagainandt
rytokil
loneofus.You
knowwhi l
eIwasi nacoma.Isawmymom and
tal
kedtoher.Shetoldmethatt
hembiwasgoi ngto
ki
llme.Youwer egoingt ofindmedeadmbusohad
youarrivedamomentl ater.Sheaskedmet onotlet
anystranger sintoourlives.Shedi dn’
tmeanyou
l
esegoi fthat’swhatyou’ rethinki
ng.”It
ellherand
shelooksr eli
eved“al lI’m sayingisweshoul dall
becaref ulaboutt hepeoplear oundusandt he
peoplewhowi llwanttocomei nt
oourfami l
y.It
’s
goingtobehar dt otr
ustast r
angercausewewon’ t
knowi ftheywi llbeherewi thtrueint
enti
onsornot .
”

Theyal lnod.“wellI’
mj ustgladthatyourhusband
foundyoui ntimel uh.Causei fyouhaddi edIthink
mbusowoul dhaveki ll
edallofust henhimsel f
.”my
auntsaysandt heylaugh.“Imeanti twhenIsai dI
wasgoi ngt okil
lmyselfhadyoudi ed.Iwillnotli
ve
i
nt hiswor l
dwi t
houtyoul uh.Iwi l
lfoll
owyoueven
i
ndeat h.Wher eyougo.Igo.”hesayski ssingmy
cheek.Ilovehi m.“sincetheki dsaresleepingcan
youguyswat cht hem.Iwantt otal
kt oSims.
Lesegowewi llhaveourt i
meal onesowecant alk
okay?”shenodsandmyhusbandl ooksatus
wor r
iedly“Idon’twantt hetwoofyoucr yi
ngi n
there.Sims,thankyouf orbeingst
rongf orusand
beingt hebestsisterin-l
aw”hehugsher .Okmbuso
nevert ouchesanot herwomanbesi desmeandhi s
mot her.Idon’tknowwhyhedoest hatandIhave
neveraskedhi m why.Ever yonel
ooksathi m
surprised.“Iwast akingcar eofmysistersfamily”
shesays.“ourf ami l
y”mbusosays.I ’
m bl essedto
havet hem inmyl ife.Ikissmyhusbandt hengetup
andwegot omybedr oom.

“let
’sgot omybedr oom ”sheemphasi zesthe‘ my
‘partandIl augh.Wecl oset hedoort hengeti nbed
andlaydownf aci
ngeachot her
.“how’ syour
coochief eeli
ng?”webot hlaughoutl oud.Iwasn’ t
expectinghert osaythat.“si sitfuckenhur ts.I’
m
evenaf raidofgoingtothel ookandIdon’ tthinkI
wantt ogetpr egnantanytimesoon.Wel lIt
hink
maybewhent hekidsarel i
ke10.If eltl
ikeIwas
l
osingmymi nd.Everyt
hingi nmybodywashur ti
ng.
Youdi dn’ttel
lmegi vi
ngbi r
thhur tssomuch.”she
l
aughs“Idi dtellyoutwiceandyousawmewhenI
wasexper i
encingthelabourpai ns.”
“seeingandexper i
encingaret
wototall
ydif
fer
ent
thi
ngs.”It
ellher.“butnowwear ebothmomseven
thoughitwasn’texactl
yyourti
me.Howdi dwenot
seewhoPr estonreall
yi s?”

“hepr et
endedt obet hi
sgayandFabul ousperson.
Heputont hisper sonaandweboughti t.Wedidn’t
knowhehadanagenda.”shesi ghs.“uncl eVictor
justcamet omypl aceandpi ckedusupanddr ove
her e.Hedidn’tsayanyt hingandIt houghtthat
maybeyouwer egoi ngint
ol abour .Neveri na
mi l
lionyearsdi dIevert hi
nkt hatyouwer e
kidnappedbyPr estonwor stofal l
.Mbusol osti
tluh!.
Hewasscar y.Ithinkhewascl oset olosinghis
mi nd.Youknowheonl ysleptathospi t
aleversince
yougot here.”Iam notsur prised.“Iwasscar edt oo
Sims.Ir eal
lywas.Isawmyl if
eflashbef or
emy
eyesandIt houghtt hatmyst orycan’ tjustendli
ke
this.Ithoughtt hatwhathappenedt omymom was
goingt ohappent omeonl ythist i
meIwon’ tseemy
kidsgr ow.”
Iwi pehert ears.“Iwasscar ed.Ithoughtyouwer e
goingt odieandIwasgoi ngt obel eftalone.Fir
stit
wast hamit henIt houghtitwasgoi ngt obeyouand
i
tscar edme.It houghtt hatwhydot hepeopl eIlove
themosthavet odi ebysomeoneel se’shand.It
brokeme.Whathappenedt oyoul uhhasl ef
tascar
i
nmyhear ti nthesamepl acewher et hamileft
his…I tgrewandIam scar ednow.Whydobad
thingshappent oyouluhcauseyouar eawonder ful
per son?.Whydopeopl eal wayswantt ohurtyou
whenyoudi dn’tevendoanyt hi
ngbadt ot
hem? .It
’s
notf air.I
treall
yi sn’
t.”shecr i
esandwehol deach
otherandcr y.Iam askingmysel fthosequest i
ons
too.

“YouknowSi mssomet imesIthinkthatIatt

ract
badluckandbadpeopl einmylife.SometimesIf eel
l
ikeIhavethi
sdar kthi
ngthati
sal waysfoll
owing
me.”sheshakesherheadandl ooksatme.“no
don’
tsaythat.Luhthemanwel ovedobadt hings.
Theykil
lpeoplebuttheydon’
thavebadl uckand
attractbadt hi
ngs.Sodon’tsayt hataboutyou
causei fitwast r
ue,youwoul dn’thavemetyour
fami l
y,mett hemanwhol ovesyou, youwoul dn’t
haveal lthesepeoplearoundyouwhol oveyou.You
arebl essedluhandnowyout wohavewonder ful
boyst hatyouwer eblessedwi th.Sodon’ tsaythat.”
IhearherbutIcan’ tthel
phowIf eel.“Iwashopi ng
foral it
tl
egirlyouknow.Ami nime. .”webot h
giggle.“yeahcauseLor dknowsweneedwomeni n
thisfami l
y.Toomanymenandboys.”shesays.

“butwehavel i
tt
lekamonow.She’ stheonlygi rl
surroundedbyboysandIt hinktheyaredrivingher
crazy.”Shelaughs.“shecamet omeandt oldme
thattheydidn’
twantt oplaywi t
hherbecauset hey
didn’thaveti
met oplaygirlgames.”wel augh.
“Theyar erespectf
ulkids.Ilovethem andtheboys
l
ovet hem too.”Simssay.“ar eyouokayt hough
Sims.Idon’tli
keseeingyoul i
kethi
s?.”Itellher.

“andIdon’
tli
keseei
ngt
hatbadt
hingskeep
foll
owi ngandhappeni ngt oyou.Wheni si tgoi ngto
endl uh?.Myauntanduncl earedeadbutst il
l.It
’s
l
iketheyar er ecrui
tingpeopl efrom thedeadt o
comeandcol lectfr
om you.”i fshedi dn’tmake
senseIwasgoi ngtol augh.“it’
sliketheydi dn’tdie.
Theymul ti
pli
ed.”wegetsi lent.“whydi dn’ tyout ell
met hatyouwer esuspiciousaboutPr esto.”I ’
m
feel
ingsl eepy.“Idon’ tknow.IguessIdi dn’twanti t
tobet ruewhatIwasseei ngorsuspect ing.Iwas
reall
yhopi ngt hatIwaswr ongbutwhenIsawhi m
getti
ngahar donwhenhel ookedatmyl egs..I
knew. .Iknewsomet hi
ngwasser i
ousl ywr ongandI
madeami stakeofnott el
li
ngmbusowhatIsaw.
Wecoul dhaveavoi dedever yt
hinghadIt oldhi m
whenheaskedwhatwaswr ong.”

“Itdoesn’tmat
ternow.I’mjustgladthatyoursaf
e
andback.Don’tkeepthingsfrom meluhokay?”I
l
earnedthatthehardway.“Ipr omiseIwon’t.
Mbusoi snothimselfandI’
mr eal
lywor r
iedabout
hi
m andhi srel
ati
onshipwithhismother.”Itel
lher
andshel ooksawayaway.“what ’sgoingonsims?
Aretheyhidingsomet hingfrom me?”shet akesa
deepbreatht hentel
lseverythi
ngbongat oldher
aboutwhatr eall
yhappenedbet weent hembi ,
mbusoandsbu.Iam soshocked.That ’
swhy
mbusoi snott al
kingtohismom andnowi tkindof
makessenseast owhyt hembisai
dt hathismot her
sol
dherdr eams.Ineverexpect edthatfrom his
mom.Ever .ButIdon’ tt
hinkit’
sherfaultbecause
shedidn’tknowt hatthembiwasgoi ngt odot his.
.

“Luh?”If rowncauseshel ooksl i

keshewant sto
tellmebutshei sscared.“whydoyoul ookner vous.
”shesi tsupandIgr oanIwi llhavet osituptoo.“I
thinkbonga' smom doesn’ tli
keme. ”What ?
.No! .I
situpandl ookather.“nosi mphi wewhywoul dyou
sayt hat?”Idon’tli
ket hi
s.“I’m seriousluh.Ever y
ti
meI ’
m ar oundherIgett hisvibef rom herand
whenIt alktohershewi l
lsomet imesanswerwhatI
asked.IfIam maki ngaconver sat i
onwi t
hhershe
willpretendt obedoingsomet hingonherphone.I t
hur t
smel uh.”shewi peshert ears.
Simsi sdeal i
ngwi thal otandi thur tsmet ohear
thatmbuso’ smom doesn’ tlikeher .“maybeyou
guysj ustneedt ohavesomet hingi ncommont hat
willbr i
ngyoucl oser.Idon’ thavet hatcl ose
rel
at ionshipwi thhertoobutf rom whatI ’
veseen,
she’sagoodmom t ot hem andshedoesn’ tstr
ike
meassomeonewhowi lltreatyoul i
ket hatandI ’
m
notsayi ngthatyouar el ying.Iknowyouwoul d
neverl i
et omeandsaysomet hingl ikethatabout
theirmot her.Doessheal soi gnor et heboys?”she
shakesherhead.“f r
om whatI ’veseen, sheseems
toliket hem andt heyl oveher .I’vetol dbongaabout
thi
sandi tiscreati
ngt hist ensi onbet weenusandI
don’ twantt hatluh.Ilovehi m butIam scar edthat
whati fhismom doesn’ tappr oveofourr elati
onship
becauseIhaveki dsf rom t wodi ff
er entmen? .What
i
fbongadeci destoendourr elat i
onshi p.Ican’tlose
himl uh.”

“heylookatme.Youareanamazingwoman,a
fuckenhotmom andt
hebestsi
sterever
.Yourki
ds
areablessi
ngt
oyouandyouwillnotbeashamed
thattheyhavet wodi f
ferentdads.Whoeverj udges
youcanj umpof fthenearestcli
ffandkill
themsel ves.Noonehasar ighttojudgeyou
whet herit’stheirmom orsomeoneel se.Hismom
willseet hathishappinessi swithyouandt her eis
nothingshecandoaboutt hat.I
fshedoesn’ tlike
youscr ewherbecausebongai sluckythathei s
l
ovedbyt hiswonder f
ulpersonwho’ sfunnyand
fabulous.Focusonyourr elat
ionshipwithbonga
andl ethim dealwi thhismom.I fbongaisanyt hi
ng
l
ikembusot henIdoubthi smom woul dconvi nce
himt oendt hingswithyou.Hewi l
ltel
lhertoshi pin
orshi pout .”shesmi l
esandagr eeswithme.

“Ithinkshewoul dhavepreferredthathi
ssonf al
ls
forsomeonewhodoesn’ thavekidslikehim.”I
disagree.“ifthatgi
rldi
dn’thaveanabor ti
onbonga
woul dhave2ki dsbynow.Si mslookathowshe
forcedthatgirlonmbusoandwhathappenedl ater?
.
Weal mostlostourkidsandmyl if
ebecauseofher
actions,sosheshoul dtakeal essoninthereand
j
ustl etherkidsbehappy.Al lshehast odois
suppor
tthem andbether
eforthem l
ikeamot
her
shoul
d.”shegiggl
esandIfrown.

“Lookatyou.Speaki
ngli
keatr
uemom.”shesays
“soyouwantmet otalkt
oherandf
indoutwhat
’s
wrong?”

“Nol uhdon’tdoorsayanyt hing.Don’teventel

l
mbusopl ease.”shebegsme. .“I’
m surembuso
alr
eadyknows.Bongamaybehast oldhim andif
ther
e’sanyonet hatcant al
ksomesensei nt
oherit’
s
myhusband.I ’m hereforyouSi msanyt ime.Iwon’t
l
etanyonecomebet weenus.Notevent heirmom.
Whethersheaccept syouornot ,promisemei t
won’taff
ectedourr elat
ionship.”

“Ipromiseyou.”Igetupandmyshoul deri
s
paini
ngal i
tt
le.“Ihatethatshecutof fyourhairbut
youstil
lsmokinghot .Youdon’tevenl ookli
keyou
justgavebir
th.”Ilaugh“Wel li
t’
scour tesyofSims
mazibuko”shel aughs.“bit
chpl ease.Ilove
spendi
ngri
chpeople’
smoney.”Ilaugh.“okIwant
mykidsnow.Imissthem.”weleaveherbedroom
andgodownstai
rs.Idon’
tseembusoandourki ds.
“wherear
emykidsandhusband?”Iaskmah.

“he’si nyourbedr oom sul king.You’dswearhe’ sthe

onet hathasj ustgi venbirth.”theylaugh.Il eave
them andgot omybedr oom andf i
ndmbusoand
ourki dssl eepi ngont hebed.Hel ookssoexhaust ed
andhashi shandonbot hoft hem Ismi le.Iseehi s
phone, unlocki tthent akesnapsoft hem.Myl i
ttl
e
onesar esl eepingpeacef ullybutI’m suretheyar e
hungr y.Il i
ftupsi boni soandheopenshi seyesand
Ifal
linl ove.“hel lonana, thisismommy. .Yes…
aren’tyousohandsomemysweetl it
tl
eboy…. .Let
mommyf eedyout henwe’ llfeedyourbr otherwho
i
sf rowni ngl ikehi sdaddyevenwhenhi ssl eeping
butnotyoumyhandsomel i
tt
leman. ”Isee
somet hingt hat ’
slikeasmi leandIl augh.Myhand
i
scr ampi ngt hough.
“mbuso?”hedoesn’ thearme. .Ishakehi m again
andhequi cklywakesupl ooki ngalarmed.“heyi t’
s
me.Ar eyouokay?”her ubshi seyest henl ooksat
me.“we’ reyouhavi ngabaddr eam?”heshakes
hisheadno.“canyout akehi m.Iwantt ofeedhi m
butmyhandi scrampingandI ’m afraidIwi lldrop
him.”heget supandgent l
yt akeshi mf r
om me.
“youwon’ tdr ophim babydon’ tworry.”heassur es
mebutIshakemyhead.“whati fmyhandl osesit’
s
functi
onalit
ymbusoandI ’m neverabl etohol dbot h
mybabi es?”It akeoffmyt opt hensi tont hebed.
Hegent l
ypl acesthebabyonmyar msandIbr east
feedhim.“yourar m wil
lbef inebaby.I tislikethis
causetheyhadt ooperat eandf i
xthedamaget hat…
thatbi
tchdi dandsoyoust i
llfeelitpainingand
cramping.”Inod.

“Ineedtoaskyousomet hingandbehonestabout
i
t.”Inod.“IwanttodealwithPrestonandthembi.I
wanttoknowt hatyouwil
lbeokaywi thwhateverI
am goi
ngt odotothem ”Iknewhewoul dwantto
doithi
msel f
.“Iwishyouwouldn’tdothatbutI
under st
and.Dowhatneedst obedone.Idon’tever
wantt oseet hebothoft hem inmyl i
feeveragai
n.”I
tellhim.“thankyou.Ipr omiset ocomehomecl ean
tot hekids.Iwon’tbringanythingbadback.”hmm
i
tmakesmet hi
nkaboutme.MaybeIneedt obe
cleansedsobadt hinkswillstophappeni
ngt ome.I
havet ot al
ktohim aboutitbutnotnow.

“whenar eyout hinki

ngofdeal i
ngwi t
ht hem?.”he
getsupandundr esses.“tomor r
ow.”myhusband
l
ookssexyandhel aughs.“thankyoubaby”he
says“f orwhat?.”Ifrown.“yousai dIl ooksexy”oh
myGod.Ishakemyhead.“t henur seryissti
llnot
fi
nishedcant hekidshavet osleepwi thus.”he
l
ooksconf used.“simsandl esegof i
nisheditand
thereisnowayIam wear esleepingwi ththekidsi
n
here.”

“Whynotmbuso?.Mybabiesareli
tt
le.Theywant
thei
rmommy”hechuckles.“yourbabieshave
beensl
eepi
ngal
oneforawhi l
eweekandt heywil
l
befine.Thisbigbabywant stocuddle.Heissulki
ng
“justfortonightonl
ybabypl ease?”Igi
vehim my
bestsmi l
e.“f i
netoni
ghtonly.”Iwinkathi
m andhe
l
aughs.Ij usttowatchthem sleepi
ngallni
ght.
CHAPTER54.

BONGA.

Ther elat
ionshipbetweenmymom andhi ssonsi s
notgr eatatthemoment .Mbusodoesn’ twantto
talktoherandIam upsetwi thherf ort hetreat
ment
shehasbeengi vingsims.Shemi ghtt hinkthatI
didn’tnoti
ceormaybeIdon’ tcar ebutt hewhol e
weekIhavebeenwat chi
ngherandi tisnotgood.
Evenbef oreluh'ski
dnappingwhenIi ntroduced
simst othem shewasnotver yreceptiveofherbut
mydadont heothersidewasver ywel comi ngand
he’sfondofsi ms.Theguysl efttogot ot hefarm
andl eftmeandmbusoandourmom.Luhi s
sleeping,heraunt,myauntnt oothenLesego,
celesteareoutsidewithsimsandt het wi nsandthe
ot
herki
dsar
epl
ayi
ngout
sidet
oo.

“what’swr ongbrother?”mbusoasksmeandIl ook

atourmot her.She’slooki
ngatmel i
kedar i
ngmet o
saysomet hi
ng.“youknowmat hatlookwouldhave
scaredmei fIwasstil
lyoungbutitdoesn’
tanymore.
Maher edoesn’ tl
ikesims.Shedoesn’tl
ikethe
womanIl oveandi t
’shurt
ingme.Iwoul dli
keto
knowwhati ssuedoesshehavewi thher?.Why
doesn’tshel i
keher?”mybr ot
hershakeshi shead.

“YouknowIt houghtt hatmaybeIwasst r

essed
becauseofluhwhenInot i
cedthatyoutendt o
i
gnoresimsi fshe’ smakingaconversati
onwi thyou.
Ithennot
icedt hatshewoul dsomet i
mesl eave
whenyougeti nsidetheroom andnowIknowwhy.
Whydon’tyoul i
kesimsmah? .
”Shelooksatusand
pl
acesherteacupdown.“mbusoIam sosor ry….”

“haykahlema!.(st
opitri
ghtt
her
e!)Wearenot
tal
kingaboutmehere.Youhavet
oapologi
zeto
bongaandt
elluswhyyoudon’
tli
ket
hewomanhe
l
oves.”

“Idon’tli
keherbecauseIdon’ tt
hinkshe’
sgood
enoughf oryoubonga!Shehast wokidswi th
dif
ferentmenf orGod’
ssake.Whycouldn’tyou
meetawomanwhohasnoki dsandfalli
nlovewi
th
herthanf all
ingforawomanwhohaski dsand
beingaf athertothoseki
ds!.”webothlookather
shocked.

“mah!Icannotbel ieveyou’ vejustsaidthat.What

doessi mshavi ngki dshaveanyt hingtodowi th
you? .Thei
rf at
herssuppor tthem andtheydospend
ti
mewi ththem.Theyar enotsomedeadbeat s
beli
evemecausei ft heywer ethatwouldhave
madet hi
ngsver yeasyf orme.Youdi dnotr ai
seus
tojudgeot herpeopl eandl ookdownont hem.
USimphi wemai sawonder fulwomanandagr eat
mot her.Youwoul dknowandseet hatifyougotto
knowhermacauset hewayyou’ retreati
ngisreal
ly
notgood.I
t’
sunaccept
abl
e.”

“Watchhowyoutalktomebonga!
.I’
m st
il
lyour
motherandyouwi
llnott
alkt
omelikeI’
m oneof
herki
ds.”

“nomahyouar ewrong.whyareyoubr i
ngingher
ki
dsintothis.Idon’
tbuythi
sstoryofyoursthati
t’
s
aboutherhavingkids.Whati
stherealreasonthat
makesyounotl i
kesimsandpleasedon’tl
ietous?!
”mybr otherasksher.

“Idon’ twanthert obepartofmyf amilybecause

she’sf r
om thatfami l
y.Shecarr
iesthegeneof
thoseevi lpeopl
et hatdiddespi
cablethi
ngstoluh.
Whati fshei sli
keallofthem?.Youmi ghthave
forgivenheruncl ebutIhavenotandIdon’ twant
theirbloodlineinmyf amily!
.”

“What
?.Don’
tinvol
vemywi
fei
nthi
s!.Don’
tyou
dareuseherandherpastt omakeyour selffeel
bett
erast owhyyoudon’ twantsi ms!.Luhwas
rai
sedbyt hem notsims.Simshasherownmot her
mom andhermot herisnotaviolentper sonand
shedidadamngr eatjob.Becauseofsi msand
Vict
or’
ssuppor tl
uhaccept edherlif
ebecauset here
wasatleastpeoplewhower ethereforher e.Ift
here
wasanyonet hatwasgoi ngtoinherittheircruel
waysandevi l
nessitwasgoi ngtobemywi f
ema
notsims!.Genesornotmanoper soni sbornevi l
.
Theylearntobeevil.I
t’sei
thertheyar etaughtor
somethinghappenedt omaket hem t hatway.Ican’ t
beli
eveyour i
ghtnow!.”mbusoi smadandsoam I .

“Onedayyouwil
lunderst
andmbusowhenyou’r
e
ki
dsaregr
own.Youwillseecauseyouar
eafat
her
now.”

“yazmauyamangaza! .(youaresounbel
ievabl
e).I
f
bonga'
sexgir
lfr
iendtheonethatabor
tedhiskid
thengotpr
egnantagainandthengotamiscarri
age
becauseshedi dn’ttel
lhi
mt hatshedidanar bot
ion.
Ifshedidn’
tdoal lthosethi
ngs,bongawoul dhave
had2kidsandl et
’ssaywhati fhemetsimsandshe
didn’
thavekids.Thatt herol
eswerereversed.
Wouldyouhavehadapr oblem wit
hher?”mbuso
asksher?

“NoIwoul
dn’
thavebecause….”

“aren’tyoubeingahypocr i
tema? .Shewoul dbe
expectedt oaccepthiski
dsandl ovethem butwhen
amani ssupposet odothesamei t’
snotaccept ed?
.
Whydoessoci etyall
owthistohappen? .Iwouldn’
t
besur pri
sedifyouwer egoingtoosayt obonga
thattheonl ywayyouwi l
lacceptsimsintoour
familyisifsheleavesherkidsbehind.Am Iright
ma?”mbusoasksherandourmom l ooksatmbuso,
l
ooksatmeandwebot hseeguiltwrit
tenallover
herfaceandwebot hcurse.Icannotbelievemy
mot herri
ghtnow! .
“Mah!Youwouldhaveaskedmet hatandexpected
hert
oleaveherki
dsbehi
nd?!.Thekidsshebir
thed
andtookcar
eof?.Howcouldyouexpectthatf
rom
hermawhenyouar eamothertoo?.”Iaskher
.

“ithappensal lt
heti
mebonga.Shewoul dn’
tbethe
fi
rstwomant ohavegivenupherki ds.Sheknows
thistoo.Iwantyoutobehappyandhaveyourown
kidsthatyouwi l
lbr
ingintothisworld.Whycouldn’
t
youf i
ndawomanl i
kel ungioryourbrothers
girl
fr
iend?.Youhadt ogof ort
hethathasbaggage.
”shesaysandmbusol osesi
t.

“mah!Don’ tbeingmywi fei

ntothi
s!.Youkeepher
outoft hi
s!.Youknowmaht hehonestt r
uthis,lungi
i
st heonet hatcamewi t
hbaggage.Shedi dn’
task
foritbutitwasher sthemomentt hemazi buko’s
want edtoki l
lallofthem.Call
ingsomeone’ akids
baggagei st hewor stthi
ngyouhaveeversai d.I
l
ovedl ungiwi thallherbaggageandIst i
lldoandI
willfor
everwi ll
.IfshehadkidswhenImethert hat
wouldn’thavechangedathing.Iwouldhavel oved
herwithherkids.Iam sodisappoint
edinyouma.
Neverinmyl if
edidIeverthinkthatt
hosekindof
wordswoul dcomeoutofyourmout h!.”my
mother’
swor dscutdeep.SodeepandIdon’ tthi
nkI
wouldforgetthem anyt
imesoon.

“whataboutyourki dsma? ..Youknowweki l

l
peopleandwehavedonet hingsyoudon’tknow
aboutandyoudon’ twisht oknow.Sodoyout hink
thathermot herwoul dbehappyandacceptme
knowingt hatIhaveki l
ledpeopleandwear esti
ll
goingtoki l
lpeople?.Youactl i
kewear eperfectbut
wear enot .I
fsomeoneshoul dbewor ri
edabout
thei
rbloodl i
neishermot herandnotyou.Youknow
whyyoudon’ tl
ikeherandyouknowwhatma?I
don’tcare.Iam goingt omar ryherwhetheryoulike
i
tornot .Ifyouwon’ tsupportmeandacceptt he
womanIl oveandwantt ospendt herestofmyl if
e
withthenmaIwantnot hingtodowi t
hyou!Not hing!
.
”
“overawomant hatyouhardl
yknowbong? !
.You
wouldchooseherovermeyourownmot her?!
.”I
l
aughshaki ngmyhead“wi t
houtthinki
ngt wice!.”I
tel
lher.Igetupandl eavethem.Ihearmymot her
cryi
ngandIseesi msopeningourbedr oom door .
Shehear deverythi
ng?Ithoughtthatshewas
outsi
de?.Iopent hedoorandIf i
ndhersi tt
ingont he
bedcrying.Isitdownnexttoherandhol dher .She
cri
esinmyar msbr eaki
ngmyhear t.“I’
m sorrybaby.
”sheshakesherhead.

“whydi dyout alktoyourmot herli

ket hatbonga?.
Shedidn’trai
seyout obedi srespectfultoher.I
t
waswr ong, i
twasver ywr ongandyouhavet ogo
andapologizet ohowyout alkedtoher”what ?“you
wantmet ogoandapol ogi zef orwhatexactlysims?.
Itol
dhert hetruthandIwon’ tapologizeforit
.She
can’
thateyouj ustbecauseyouar erelatedtothose
scumbagswhoar edead.Youdi dn’tchoosethis
babyandshe’ sbeingunf air!.”she’
scr azy
“iftherewasmaybeachancet hatshemi ghthave
acceptedme…wel li
tisgonenow.She’ snevergoing
toacceptmebecauseyouchosemeoverher .To
herI’m al
waysgoi ngtothewomanwhocame
betweenherandherson.She’ snevergoingto
acceptmenowbecauseofwhatyousai dbonga.
Youbr okeherhear twhenyousai dyouwant
nothingtodowi thher.Yougaveheranul timatum.
Shel ovesyoubongaandnomot herwantsherson
tosayt hosethi
ngs.Ifmysonssai dt
hesamet hi
ng
Iwoul dbeheartbrokenanddevast at
ed.Allmothers
knowwhati t
’sbestforthei
rchil
drenandt heywant
them tobehappy….”

“kahlesi
mphi we!.Angisi
yonai nganeMina!(hol d
onami nute.Iam notachild!.
).I’
m agrownass
manwhocanmakehi sowndeci sionsandIdon’ t
needmymot herforthatortoendourr elat
ionship
withyoujustbecauseIwantt omakeherhappy
causeIwillnot.I
fshewon’ tacceptmydeci sion
thatIl
oveyouandwantyoui nmyl i
fet
henaf tert
he
weddingbaby, i
twillbethelasttimeIeversetmy
footinmyf ather’
shouse.Foryousi mphiweIwi l
l.
”I
meaneachandever ywor dIhavejustsaid.“you
willnotbongabecauseIwon’ tcomebet weenyou
andyourf amily.Iwi
llnotbethecauseoft ension
andf ights.Iam notthatwomanandIam notgoi ng
tostar tnow.Wehavet oendthings.Iam ending
thi
sr elati
onshipbetweenus.Iloveyout oomucht o
comebet weenyouandyourmom.Iam sor r
ybutI
can’t.
”shecr iesandIcannotbel i
evewhatshehas
j
ustsai d.

“didyounothearawor dIsai dtoyou.Il oveyou

andIwantt ospendmywhol elif
ewi t
hyou! .How
canyouj ustmakeadeci sionl i
kethat?.Wear ein
thi
sr elat
ionshiptogether!.Webot hagr eedt hatwe
willbeginar el
ationshipsoyoudon’ tgett omake
thatdecisionaboutourr el at
ionship!
.Damn
simphi we!”whyi smot herdoi ngthistome? .
“Loweryourvoi cebonga.Ihavemadet hat
decisionformysel f.Iwil
lnotst ayinar elati
onship
wher eoneoft hemosti mpor tantpeopleinyourl i
fe
andwhoyoul ovever ymuchi snothappywi thour
rel
ationshipbonga.Whetherwelikeitornotshewi l
l
alwayslookatmeast hul
iandsipho'sniece.You
can’tforcehertoacceptt
hat.Iam sorrybutIjust
can’t!
.”

“simphiwepl easedon’ tdot his.IloveyouandI

wantyou.I sn’tthatenoughf oryou?”shecan’ tdo
thi
st ome.“whathur t
smet hemostbongai st hat
yourmot hercal l
edmyki dsbaggage…. .”shesobs
andmyeyesgett eary.“myki dsar enotbaggage
andt heyneverwi l
l.Iknowt hatIwi l
lneverbehappy
withyouknowi ngt hatyourmot herdoesn’tli
keme
orwantmet obepar tofherf ami l
y.Ineedhert o
acceptmeandl ovemebongabecauseshei syour
mot herbutwhatshesai d…cal li
ngmyki dsthatis
notaccept ableandIwi llneverf or
giveherbecause
thosewor dswi llalwayshangont hebackofmy
mind.”sheget supt oleaveandIst opher.

“sthandwasam,(mylove)youareupsetandyou
don’tmeanwhatyouaresayi
ng.SimspleaseI
’m
beggi ngyou.Don’ tdot histousplease!.”Ipullher
closet omeandshehugsmet i
ghtandcr i
es.I
comf ortherbutdeepdownIam somadatmy
mot her.Iam r eall
ymadather .“wewi l
lgett hrough
thisbaby.Don’ tgi
veuponus.Iwon’ tletmymot her
comebet weenus.”sheshakesherheadandmy
heartsinks.Shecan’ tpossibl
ymeani t.Shecan’ t.
“it’
soverbonga.I ’m sorr
ybutIcan’ t
.”shepul ls
awayandr unsoutoft hebedr oom.Mykneesget
weakandIsi tdownont hebedandmyt earsfall
down.Howcanshej ustgiveuponourr el
ationship
l
iket hatjustbecauseshewant smymot herto
accepther ? !
.

Iknowt herealr
easonwhyshei shurtandangryis
becausemymot hercall
edt heboysbaggage.The
dooropensandmbusoget sinandsitsnexttome
“Iam somadatourmot herri
ghtnow.Iam sosorry
brot
her.Tellmewhatt odot ofi
xthisforyou.”I
wipemyt earsandshakemyhead.“canyout ake
backeverythi
ngshesai dcausesimshear d
everyt
hing.Ourmot hercall
edherkidsbaggage
mbuso!.Whythehellwouldsimsst aywi
thmeaf ter
mymot herhascal
ledherkidsthat?.Whatother
namesdoesshecal lherandherkidswhenwear e
notther
e?.Whendidourmot herbecomet hi
scold
womanandnott helovingandcari
ngwomanwho
rai
sedus?.”

“IwishIknewbr otherbutIdon’tknow.Maybeshe
thi
nkst hatshei
slosingusbecausewehavef ound
thelovesofourli
ves.Maybeshef eel
sli
kewewon’t
needheranymor e.ButwhatdoIknowcauser i
ght
nowI ’
mi nshockandf eelyourpain.”

“atleastshel ovesyourwifesoyouhavenot hingto

worryabout .”Itellhi
m andIhatetheenvyI’m
feel
ingrightnowf ormybrother
.“shealmostmade
mel osemywi febongabecauseofherdeci si
ons.
Thembiwoul dn’thavebeeninourli
vesifour
motherwasn’ tbusyt ryi
ngtogetmemar ri
edt oher.
I
’m notreadyt of orgi
veherforwhathappenedt o
l
uh.Youknowmom hasal wayspreachedthatwe
areolderandwehavetogetmar ri
ed,haveki dsand
l
iveourlivesbutwhenyoudot hesamet hingshe
saysshedoesn’tli
kei
tandwon’ taccepttheper son
youlove.Whatkindoffuckedupashi ti
st hat?
.”he
asks.

“wehavet otalktodad.Hewi llhaveat al

kwi thher.
Simsendedourr el
ati
onshi pbroandshemeanti t
.”
hel ooksatmel ikeI’
m cr azy.“simslovesyou
bonga.She’ str
yingt opr ot
ectyourrelati
onshipwi t
h
ma.Shemi ghthavesai ditbutIthi
nkt hatsheis
hurtandangr yandt omor r
owyouwi l
lseet hatshe
didn’tmeani t
.Ifyoul oveSi msthewayIt hi
nkyou
dot henyouwon’ tl
ethersl i
pawayf rom you.Mom
willgetoveritbecauseyouwi llnotspendt herest
ofyourl i
fewithherbutwi thsims.Shei stheone
youwi llgobackhomet oandsl eepnextto.Sodon’ t
l
etmom t akeawayyourhappi ness.”

Mybrotheri
sri
ght
.IfIj
ustl
etsi
msgoshewillthi
nk
t
hatIagreewit
hwhatmymom saidwhenIactual
ly
don’t
.Ihavet opr ovetoherandt ot heboysthatI
l
oveherandIwi l
lchooseherandt heboysabove
anythi
ngel se.Shei simportanttome.Il oveherand
Ilovetheboyst oo.Iwantsi msandherki dstobe
myf amil
y.Iwantal lofustol i
vetogetherwhenwe
getmar r
ied.Iwi l
lnotlethergiveuponus.Iknow
shelovesmeandshewant st obewi thmeasmuch
asIdo.Iwi llnotletmymot herchasesimsaway
fr
om me.“youar eright.Si
msi smineandnot hing
ornoonei sgoi ngt otakeherawayf r
om me.Not
evenourmom. ”

“ifIwasinyourshoesIwoul dhaveaskeddadt o
comeandpi ckuphiswifebeforeIkickherout .
Mom couldhavesai dtomet hatlungiisawi tchand
Isti
llwouldn’tgi
veafuckendamn.Youknowwhy
becauseIl ovemywi f
emor ethanmom.Luh’ s
happinessi smynumberonepr iori
ty.Fuckanyone
el
se.Dowhatmakesyouhappybr othercauseyou
don’twantt obethi
sunclewhoi sold,hasnever
mar r
iedanddoesn’thavekids.Youl ovethosekids
andt heyl
oveyout oo.Takethem homebr other
underyourwingandpr otectt
hem.Likehowwedo.
Theyaref ami
ly.Theyarethekidsofthewoman
youlove.Theyareyourkidsbonga.Dowhatisr
ight
foryourfamil
ybrother
.”

“ngiyabongazal o(thankyoumybr other.)”he

nods.“Letmegocheckonl uhandt heki dst henwe
aregoingt oletsomest eam offcausewehada
l
ongassday.I t’
stimePr est
onandt hembidi ed.I
wanttof ocusonmyf ami l
yandsodoyou.Take
simsandt heboysonahol i
dayt omor row.Just
l
eaveanddon’ ttel
lanyone.Iwillor gani zethe
passportsforherandt heboys.Taket hem outof
thecount r
y,shehasal sobeent hr oughal otnotluh
onlycausemostoft hethingsaff ectedhert oo.”I
knowt hatnomat t
erwhathappens.Mybr otherwil
l
alwayshavemyback.He’ sthebestbi gbr otherand
bestfri
endandIappr eciat
ehim al ot.Ilovehi m.
CHAPTER55.

MBUSO.
Wear eal lstandi
ngsur roundi ngPr estonandt hembi.
Prest onpi ssedonhi msel fandhesmel l
sofpi ss.
He’ sbeencr yi
ngandwhi ningl ikeal i
tt
lebitchthat
hei s,sicelohadt oshuthi m up.Thi spsychobi tch
ont heot herhandhasbeensi lentandhasn’ tsaid
anyt hing.Shei slooki
ngatal lofusst r
aightinthe
faceandshe’ sdoesn’tl
ookaf raid.It
’sli
keshe’ s
bor edwi thus.Neveri nmyl i
fehaveIwant edtokill
someonel ikethi
sandIknowI ’m goingtoenjoyi t
.
Onet hingaboutt hembit hatsbuandIknowi sthis
girlhasgut s.Sheeviltothecor eandasl ongas
she’ salive.Noneofusar esaf e.
Prestonhasbeenl ooki
ngatme, pleadingwi t
hhis
eyesandIf eelsorryforhim.Iwanthi mt otel
lme
andexpl aintomewhatdi dhedowi ththe
recordingsofmeandl uh.Whatdidhedot othem
andwher eishekeepi ngthem.“Pr estonyouwer e
pleadingwi ththem nottoki l
lyoucauseyouwant ed
totalk.Sot alkIam here.”hesniffsandi t
’sgetti
ng
onmyl astner ve.“I’
m sorrymbuso.Ir eal
lyam.I s
l
uhandt heki dsokay?”It akethechairandsi tnext
t
oPr
est
onandl
ookathi
m.

“I’vehadoneoft hewor stweeksofmyl ifePreston

allbecauseofyou.Mywi felovedandweal l
acceptedyoui ntoourfami l
y.Youl i
edtous
pretendedtobenott heper sonyouar e.Youwer e
l
ivingundermyr oofeatingmyf oodandwegave
youar oom thatisyour stoshowt hatweaccept
youasoneofusbecauseyoul ookedl i
kesomeone
whohadnof ami l
y.Wher edi dwegowr ongPr eston.
Diddiscri
minat eagainstyou? ,didwemakeyouf eel
l
ikeyouwer ej ustanout sider?TellmePr estonwhat
didwedot oyouf oryout owantt ohur tmywi felike
this?”

Hei sli
teral
lyshaki
ngandIdon’ tknowwhati sit
thatisscaringhim.Italki
ngtohim ni cely,not
shoutingorangry.“Iknowyoual laccept edme
withoutanyquest i
onsaskedandt reatedmel ikeI
am oneofyouandIhaveneverf eltli
keIdi dn’
t
belongt her
eevent houghitwascl earthatIam not
oneyour
s.Notmanyf
ami
li
eswoul
dacceptt
his
whit
ega…..”
“Prest on.Weal lknowher et hatyou’ r enotgay.So
don’tlietous.Howdi dt hispl anofyour sand
thembiget tingt ogethert ot r
yandt akemyki dsand
kil
lmywi fecomeabout ? .”hel ooksatt hembiand
she’sl ooki
ngathi ml i
keyoubet tershutyourmout h.
Prestonl ooksatmeandshakeshi shead.Isi gh
“Your eall
ywantt odot hi sthehar dwayhuh?”Iget
up,openmyt oolboxandt aket hisbi gscr ewdr i
ver
thensi tdownandl ookatPr est on.“pl ease….Pl ease
mbusodon’ tkil
lme”It aket hescr ewdr iver,make
suret hatIuseal lmyst rengt handst abPr eston
wher eIshothi m andt hemot herf uckerscr eams.I
pullthescr ewdr iverputandbl oodgushesout .“tal
k
Prestonorel seI’m goingt odot hesameonyour
otherl eg.”

Iguesshehat espaincauseitdoesn’
ttakehi
ml ong
tostartsi
ngingli
keacanary.“Iopenedmysur gery
2year sbackthenthembifoundmeaf t
er1yearlat
er.
Idon’tknowhowshef oundmebutIgotacal lf
rom
herandt henIwentt oDur banandwemet .Iwas
happyt oseeherbecauseIst i
lll
ovedher.Shet hen
toldmewhathappenedt oherandshewant ed
revengeagai nstyousbuandmbusoandhi smot her.
She’st heonet hatcamewi t
hthewhol eplanofhow
Iwasgoi nggett ocl osetoallofyou.Shehasbeen
keepi ngtabsont hebot hofyouandshef oundt he
oppor tunit
ywhenyoul uhcamet oLadysmith.She
wasf oll
owingherandwhenshef oundouthatshe
waspr egnantshet oldmet hatsheknewl uhwoul d
cont actme.Iam l egitmbuso,Iam ar eal
gynaecol ogist,Ididn’tl
ieaboutthat.TheonlythingI
l
iedaboutwasbei nggay.”t hi
smot herfucker
thinksI ’
m stupid

“Prestonluhtol
dmet hatyouhelpedthembitoset
upther oom whereshewasgoi ngtotakemyki ds
andleaveherdeadandyouknowwhatIr eal
lydon’t
car
eaboutt hatnowal lIcareaboutiswhydidn’t
youwar nmet hatthembiwasoutt ogetmeandsbu?
”Iwantt histobeoveranddonewi thcauselooki
ng
atPreston’
sfaceisreallypi
ssingmeof f.Iwantto
behomewi
thmywi
feandmyki
ds.

“atfirstitwasonl yaj obt hatIwassupposedt odo

butthenIgott oknowl uhandIr ealisedt hatshei s
anamazi ngper son.Aki ndhear tedper sont hat
wantswhati sbestf orthepeopl eshel ovesandI
sawhowever yonel ovesherandIt oost artedt of
all
forher .Iwasenvi ousofherl i
feandhowmuchyou
l
ovedherandhowherbr otherandf atherl ovedher .
Itmademef eeljealousbecauseIwant edt hatfor
mysel f.Ihaveneverexper iencedthatki ndofl ove
youal lshowedme.It oldthembit hatIdi dn’ twantto
doit.Iwant edoutandt hatweshoul dn’ thur tluhbut
shehassomet hingonmeandshet hr eat enedme
withit.SoIhadt odoever ythi
ngsheasked.She
didn’
tf indanythingt hatshecoul duseonsbuso
shef ocusedonyoucauseyouhavel uh. isweart o
youwhenIsayt hatIdidn’twantanypar tofi t
.”
“If
oundlist
eni
ngdevicesi
nmyhouseand
camera’
sinmybedroom andthebathr
oom.You
watchedmywifenakedinherpr
ivat
espace.You
werewatchi
ngusthewholeenti
reti
meand
l
ist
ening.Whatdidyoudowi t
hthoserecordi
ngs?”
helooksatthembiandshel ooksathim shocked.
“yousaidyoudidn’tgetachancetogett hecamera
andli
steni
ngdevices.Youfuckingli
edtomeyou
i
diot!
.”ohhedid?.

“waitwhat ?.Prestonhadcamer asandspi edon

you?”siceloasksandInodi nagr eement .“If ound
them thedayhet ookher .Whatdidyoudot othem?
Didyougi vethem t oanyonet owat chandsee?”he
shakeshisheadnof uri
ously.“Icoul dn’tgivet hem
toherbecauseshewasgoi ngtoupl oadt hem i nthe
i
nternetonal lpornsites.Shewant edt odot hatt o
herandIcoul dn’tcauseIl ovelungiand….”he
doesn’thettof i
nishcauseIf uckenpunchhi m and
breakhisjawandhi steet hcomeout .Hescr eams.
“don’tyoueversayt hatshittome.Youf uckenl ove
mywi feandyetyoual lowedsomet hingt ohappen
toher!Don’ tyoueversayt hosewor dst omeever !
Youhearme?”het i
restonod.“wher ethef uckdo
youlive?”hegi vesushi saddr essandbongat ypes
thelocati
on.“checkever ywher eandt ake
ever
ythi
ngelectr
onicandtakeittomyhouse.”He
l
eaveswithFrank.“Prest
onisthereanythi
ngel
se
youwanttotellmebeforeIki
llyouthatwil
lmake
mechangemymi nd?”

Hegr oansandmumbl essomet hingandIcan’ thear

him.“youbet terspeaknowPr estoncauseIwantt o
goandseemywi fekids.Youar et akingsomuchof
theirt
ime.Speakf ool!
.”hesoi t’
soutbl oodt hen
l
ooksatme.“It riedmbusot opr otecther ,Ir eally
tri
edbutthembii sver yscaryand….”Il augh.I
fuckenlaughmyl ungsoutandl ookathi m.“you
knowPr estonwhenIf oundoutt hatyouki dnapped
l
uh, Iact
uallyplannedhowIwasgoi ngt omakeyou
watchmet akeof fyourski nwhi leyou’ rest i
llalive
soyoucanf eeleachandpai nmywi fef el
t.Iwant ed
topeelitoffyoubutI ’
m not.Ithinkal lthesepeopl e
i
nher ehavewayst heywantt oki l
lthebot hofyou.I
pit
yyouandI ’
m scar edofwhatal ltheseher ear e
goingtodot oyou.Youdi dn’tj
ustki dnapmywi fe.
Shei ssomeone’ sdaught erandsi ster .Maphol oba
welcomedyoui nhi shomeandyouchoset obet ray
hersothenwillalldealwithyou.Al
lI’
m askingfr
om
youbrotheri
splease, aft
eryouaredonewi t
ht hi
s
bit
chcutherheadof fandsendittoherparentsso
wecanbesur et hatshe’snevergoi
ngtoreappear
again.
”Itel
lsbu.

“areyousur embuso?”Isi gh.“Ial mostl ostthe

womanIl ovewho’ smyever yt
hingandi tscared
met odeat hsbu.Idon’teverwantt of eelthatway
everagain.Theset woher edon’ tdeser vet ohave
myt imet hattheyhadal readyst olef r
om us.My
bodyi sher ebutmymi ndi swi t
hl uhandourki ds.
Shej ustgotr el
easedfrom t hehospi t
alandIl efther
tocomeher eanddealwi tht heset wo?No.Ishoul d
beathomewi t
hmywi feandki ds.Sheneedsr est
andt obet akencareof .Iknowyoual lcanhandl e
thi
syoudon’ tneedmet odot hat.Whathappenedt o
l
uhmademequest ionhowIl i
vemyl ife.Iknowwe
don’tgoar oundkill
ingpeopl ebuti t
’speopl ewho
comet ousandaskf ortroubl eandI ’m sickofi t
.My
wifegotki dnappedinherownhouseandshei s
scared.Wehavet odobet terandpr otectour
women.It
ir
edandIwantmywi
feandki
ds.I
’
m
l
eavi
ng.”

“I’
m verypr oudofyoumyson.Forput t
ingyour
famil
yf i
rst.YouhavegrownupmbusoandIam
proudoft hemanyout oday.Youneedyourf ami
ly
toobecauseyoual sohavethroughalot.
”Ilookat
mydadandhepul l
smeunt ilahug.“t
hankyouf or
beingthebestf at
hert
ous.IhopeIwi l
lbethesame
tomychi ldren.”

“Youwi l
lmyson.Youhaveal waysshownt hat
towardsyourbrot
hersandyourbr othershere.Go.”
hesays.IlookatPrest
onandshakemyhead.I
don’tf
eelsorr
yforhim andIdon’tcareittheykill
him.“CanIuseyourcarcauseIt hinkbongat ook
mycar .”sbucomesout si
dewithmef ol
lowedby
sicel
o.“broareyouokay?”sbuasksme.

“I’
m notokay.BongaandIhadthisbi
gfightwit
h
ourmother.I
’m st
il
langr
yatherforbr
ingingt
hembi
i
nt oourl i
ves.Shehat essi ms, doesn’twanthert o
bei nar el
at i
onshi pwi thbongs.Mybr other
threatenedt ocutheroutofhi slif
eandI ’
m cl oseto
thattoocauseshe’ sf ai
lingt oreali
set hatsimsand
l
uhar esistes.Luhl ovessi msver ymuchandwhat
i
shur tingsi msi sgoi ngt ohur tluhandt hatwi l
lhurt
mebecausemywi f
ewi llbehur t
ing.Mymot heris
goingt ocauset ensionandpr oblemsbet weent hem
andi t
’sgoingt oaffectt hem andusbr others.Idon’t
wantmybr othert othinkt hatmywi feist hemost
favourabledaught erinl awt hansi msandzi pho'
s
girl
fri
end.Shei smaki ngt hingshar dforusandyou
woul dthinkaf terwhathappenedt oluhshewoul d
changeherwaysandbemor eaccept ingofsi ms
butshe’ snot .Iwon’ tletmymot hercausepr oblems
betweenmybr otherandIandourwi ves.Il oveluh
andmyki dsmor ethananyt hingandi fshe
continuest hist hi
ngofher sthenshe’ sgoi ngt olose
met oocauseI ’
mt hiscl oset ocut t
ingheroutofmy
l
ife.”Ishakemyhead.

“f
uckmant
hat
’shect
ic.Di
dyout
alkt
oyourdad?”
si
celoasks.“Isenthim amessageonourwayher
e
andtol
dhim whathappened.I’
m worr
iedaboutmy
brot
herguys.Ireal
lyam.”

“Gotoyourf
amilyandwe’l
ltakecar
eofbonga.
He’
sneedsal
lofus.”sbusays.
“thi
sisf
uckhardman.Fir
sti
twassicelo,
thenyou
andnowit’
sbonga.Whatt
hehel
lisgoingonguys?
”sbuasks.

“IwishIknewman.IwishIdid.Iwi
llseeyou
tomorrowguys.”webr
ohugandIgeti nthecar
anddr i
veofft
oseemyfamilyandmymot heri
s
sti
llt
hereandIdon’
twantt
oseeherordealwi t
h
her.

SI
CELO.

MbusoleavesandwhatIfearedhashappened.Hi
s
mom i
sgoi ngt
ocauseproblemsformysisterandI
real
lycan’thavethat
.Wehavet ofindawayf orher
toacceptsimssot hatmysistercanbehappy.Iwi l
l
anddoanyt hingtomakesuret hatluhlivesthelife
shedeservesandnooneandImeannoonewi l
l
comebet weenherandherhappi ness.Iwilldo
something.Wegeti nsi
deandourdadsanduncl e
vict
oraretalki
ng.Ihavenevermetawomanl ike
thembiinmyl if
eever.I
fthi
sgi r
lwasamant hen
shewoul dhavedonesomanydamagesi nthe
world.

“sowhatarewegoingt
odotoPr est
onbefor
ewe
dealwi
tht
hismastermi
nd?”Iaskthedads

“let’
sjustki
llhi
m andburnhisbody.Noonewil
l
mi sshim.”sbusaysandIlaugh.“Prest
onwhydid
youpr et
endt obegay?.Di
dyouthinkwewould
acceptyouasyouar eoritwasyourwayofgett
ing
closetoluhcausemaybewewoul dhaveseenr
ight
throughyouhadyoubeenspendi ngtimewit
hus
ri
ght ?”hekeepsquiet
.
“youknowt hewor l
di sfullofsickanddespicabl
e
peoplePr eston.Homophobeswhohat egaypeopl e
andher eyouar epretendingt obeone.Thatsob
storyyout oldmydadaboutyourpar ent
swant i
ng
yout omar rysomegi rl
.Youl iedtomydad.Youl ied
tobot hoft hem andus.Ther earepeopleoutsi
de
thiswor ldwhowi sht hattheirparent
sandf amili
es
woul dacceptt hem ast heyar eandtheywished
theyhavepeopl eli
keusi nourl ivesbutyoujust
thinkit’
saj oke.Acost umeyoucanputonand
makef unofi t
.”Itellhim.

“youdon’ tdeser vetocal lyourselfamancauseyou

arenot.Youar easpi nelesslcowar dthatletthembi
playhim.Washerpussyt hatgoodPr eston?.The
bothofyout houghtt hatyouwer egoingt ogetaway
withkil
li
ngl uhandt akingherki dsandnoonewas
goingtocomeaf teryou?”sbuaskshi m and
Prestonissi l
ent.Hecanal r
eadyseet hathei s
goingtodi e.Heshakeshi shead.Het henl ooksat
thembiandl aughs.“Oht hembi .Backfrom the
dead.You’
rest al
kingus,pl
anningandbeing
i
nvisi
blesowewon’ tknowthatyou’r
eal
ive.Areyou
happynowt hembi ?.Waseveryplanwor
tht hi
s
momentnow? .”

Thebitchlaughs.Thi sgirli
sfuckencrazy.“itwas
worthitsbusiso.Di dyouseehowf uckeduphe
l
ooked? .Whoknewmbusowi l
lbethisdownand
brokenallbecausei ssomest upidpussy….”agun
shotri
ngsoutandi t
’sdadwhohasshott hembion
hershoulderandt hebit
chscreamst henlaughs.I
beli
evembusonowwhenhesai dthatthembiisa
sadist
icbit
ch.Pai nexcitesherbuthowmuchpai n
canshehandl e? .“youdon’tgeyttotal
kt omy
daughterli
ket hat.”shelaughs.

“Vict
orwherei sthatacid?”mydadasks.Vi ctor
bri
ngsthiscontainerthatlooksli
keabasi
nandi tis
fi
ll
edwithacid.Youcansmel lit
.“sbu,
scel
o, put
heroneleginsidethere.Iwanttohearherscrewing
l
ikehowmydaught erscreamedandbeggedf orher
l
ife.”wewearpr otecti
veglovesthenuncuf foneof
herlegsandwedon’ twast
et i
meandwear eabout
tooutherlegi nbutdadstopsus.It akeahuge
steelsti
ckthathasacupl i
kehol der,f
il
litwit
haci d
thenIpoursomeonhert highandshef i
ghtsitand
doesn’tscream butthemor etheacideatsherflesh
shef ai
lsandscreamsl i
kethet wist
edbitchshei s.
BongaandFr ankcomei nandIcomeandIsee
bongat hathismindisnother e.

“guysIknowt hatyouwantt ot ort

urethembiandal l
thatbutthemosti mpor t
antthingtoallofusr i
ght
nowi sthatwear esupposedt obecel ebratingthe
birt
hoft hetwinsandbot hmysonsar enotokay.I
havet obetherefort hem.Let ’
sgett hi
soverand
donewi thandkilltheset wo.Iwantt ogospend
somet imewi thallmygr andchi l
drenandt heir
father
sneedt heirfatherrightnow.Luhneedsal lof
us.Youcaughtt hem andnowi t’sti
met heydi ed.
Theydon’ tneedtohavet helastvoice.”mbuso' s
dadsays.“Iagr eet hisweekweal lwentt hrough
hellbecauseoftheset wo.Whatweneedr i
ghtnow
i
nthisfamil
yistobetoget
her.ThankingGodand
ourancest
orsthatmysist
erdeli
veredhealt
hy
babi
eseventhoughshewashur t.Wear ewast
ing
outti
mehere.”Theynod.

“Anyl astwor dsPr eston?”heshakeshi shead

“pleaset el
lluht hatI’m sorr
y.”hesays.Goodhe
hasaccept edt hef actthatheisgoi ngt odi
e.“and
yout hembi ?
.”shel aughsandwewat chher .She
l
aughsl ikeshehasf orgott
enthatshei sshotunt i
l
shest opst henl ooksatbongaandhi sdadand
shakesherhead.“l ookatyoual lplayinghappy
families…..”shel aughsagai n.“youhavenever
for
got tent hatyougumede' sarehighandmi ghty.
Thatyouhavet hisperfectfamilythathasno
secretesoranyt hi
ngbutyou’ rewrong.You’ revery
wrong.Iknowsomet hingthatyoudon’ tknow.”she
l
aughs.Wel ookatherconf used.Bongal ooksathis
dadconf used.Hi sdadst epsforwar dthenstops
andlooksatt hembi .
“whatar eyoutal
kingaboutthembi ?”heasksher .
Shelaughs.“ohnowyou’ r
etalkingtomeni cel
y
becauseyouwantmymet otel
lyouwhatIknow? .I
cantellyoubutyouneedt oletmegoandnotki l
l
me”weal ll
ookateachot herandagr ee.“uncuff
met hen.”sbuuncuffsherandshehi ssesthen
standsup.“youpr omiseyouwon’ tkil
lmecause
whatIhavet osayisverybig.Itmightdest r
oythis
happyf amil
yy’al
lgotplayi
ngar ound.”againshe’s
l
ookingatmnguni .“tal
kthembi .Idon’thaveal
l
night.”hesays.

“HowdoIknowt hatyouwon’tkillmeaf terIhave

toldyou?”sheasks.Bonga’ sdadf ishesfor
somet hi
nginhi spockett
henthrowst hembit hecar
keys.Shecat chesthenwithherlefthandand
smi l
es.“ok.Ineedyout ouncuffPr estonthenput
allyourgunsdown.”wedowi thouthesi tati
onand
shei nst
ruct
susPr estontocomeandst andnextto
herthenshel aughs.“tal
kthembi .Wehavedone
whatyouhaveaskednowt el
lmewhati sitt
hatI
don’tknow?”
“Wel lyouknowt hatmymom andyourwi f
egr ew
upt ogether .SoonedayIwashomeandIhear d
them t al
kingandIeavesdr oppedont hem.They
didn’tseemeobvi ouslysoyourwi fewast ell
ingmy
mot hert hatshedi dn’tknowt hatshehadat win
sister.Appar entl
yt heywer esepar atedf rom birt
h
causeshegr ewupt hinkingshewasanonl ychild.
Shef oundhert wi nsisterandt heybegant ohavea
relati
onshi pbutt heyhi ditf r
om ever yonebecause
theydi dn’tknowwhot ot rust.Yougoti ntoa
relati
onshi pwi t
honeoft het winsandyoudi dn’t
knowt hatshehadat wi n.Theot hert winwas
jealousoft her el
at i
onshi pyouhadwi t
hhersi ster
andshewant editforher self.Shef ellpregnantwi t
h
yourchi ldandwhenshegavebi rt
hyouwer enot
thereyouwer eont heEast ernCapeatawor kshop.
Youcamebackandcont i
nuedyourl i
fewi t
hher
mbusoandyouneversuspect edat hingunt i
lnow.”
whatt hefucki swomant alkingabout ?Fuckno! .

“baba….
.”mydadshakeshi
sheadatbonga.
“conti
nuethembi .”shesmil
es.Shelovesattent
ion.
ShecravesitandIwoul dn’
tbesurpri
sedifshe’s
makingthisup.“owamii snotmbuso'sbirth
mother.Shestoletheli
feofhersi
sterandkil
led
them.”what?!.

“Ohfuckno!.Mngunithisbi t
chislyi
ng.Therei
sno
waywhatshei ssayingi
st het r
uth.
.Fuckno!.”
sbusi
solosesit
..“sheisamani pul
ator
,adeceiver
.
Youcannotbeli
eveherlies!.”sbuisangryandwer e
areal
lshocked.

“youcanaskmymotheri
fyoudon’
tbeli
eveme!.
HowwouldIcomeupwithsomet
hingl
ikethathuh
sbu?”

“yousaidthem!.Whatdoest
hatmean.”t
hebi
tch
shakesherhead.

“mbusoi
sat
win.Hi
smot
herwasat
win.Whyel
se
wouldhebehavi
ngtwi
ns?.I
t’
sbecausehei
salsoa
t
win.”ohmyfuckenGod.Noways!.Nof
ucken
ways!.

“Whathappenedtothem?”mnguniasks.Howcan
hebesocalm andcoll
ectedwhent
hembiis
br
eaki
nghisfamil
yapar t
.Iwoul
dgoapeshiti
nher.
“shesai dtomymot hertheywer eont heirwayback
from t hehospi
talandont heroadwher etheylives
therewasahuger iver
.Shet oldmbuso’ smom t hat
theyhadt orunawaywi t
ht hekidsbuthi smom
refusedcauseshewant edyout omeett hem then
tellyouabouther .Owamiwascar ryi
ngmbusoand
hismot herwascar ryi
nghi sotherbrotherwhenshe
acci dental
lysl
ippedandf ellintotheri
ver .Theyboth
drownedandt hat’showshet ookoverandl i
vedher
l
ife.”

“Bul
lshi
t!
.Thi
sisfuckenbul
lshit
!.Ourdadwas
goi
ngtoknowifmymom wascar r
yingt
winsornot
.
Babayouwouldhaveknownt hatshewassomeone
elseandnott hewomanyoul oveandmar r
ied.”hi
s
dadi ssti
lllooki
ngatt hembishocked.Doeshe
believesher ?Ort hatbit
chislyingl
ikewealready
know? .Mngunit akesstepsbackwar dt
henhe
rushesout .Victoranddadf ollowhimthenit’
sthe
threeofusl eft.
“BitchIknowyou’ rel yi
ng!.Tellmet hatwhatyou
havej ustsai darepur eutterl
ylies!Youar efucking
l
ying!.Sayi t!.Sayitbitch!”shel aughsandl ooksat
bonga.“you’ remot herkil
ledyourbr other’
smot her
.
Iam notl ying.Yourmot herisaf raudandaf ucken
damnl i
ar…”Iseebongar ushi
ngt othembiand
withinami nut ethembi 'sheadi sflyi
ngacrosst he
room.Pr est onscreamsbutsbushoot shim and
empt i
esal lhi sbul
letsonhi sheadandchestandhe
fal
lsdowndead.Ever ythi
ngjusthappenedsof ast.
West andt her eandl ookateachot herli
kewhatt he
fuckhashappened! .
CHAPTER56.

MBUSO.
#Not
Edi
ted

Istandandwat challt hewomeni nt hi

shouse.They
arelaughi ngandt alking, pl
ayingwi ththeki ds.Luh
keepssqueezi ngherhandl i
kei t’
scr ampi ngand
shehast hiswor ri
esl ooki nherf aceandIhat ei t.I
reall
ywant edtoki l
lPr estonbutIdi dn’twantt o
causeIdi dn’twantt obr i
ngt hatnegat iveener gy
aroundt hem.Tomor rowI ’m planningt ot akeaway
allofthem t oourhol idayhouset hatIbr ought .Luh
doesn’tknowabouti tcauseIboughtwhi leshewas
i
nacoma.Iwantt ofor getaboutever ythingt hat
happenedandj ustcel ebratemyki ds.Shel ooksup
andseemet henshesmi l
es.Howdoesshedot hat
whenshehasbeent hr oughsomuchi nt helastf ew
weeks.Luhhumbl esmeast ohowst r
ingshei s.
Shedoesn’ tletanythingngetherdown.Sheal ways
ri
sesupnomat terhowmanyt imesshef all
s.
Iwalki
n,t
heygetquiet
.Mymot herl
ooksli
keshe
wantstot
alkbutIgi
veherthelookof(youbet
ter
notsayawordtome.).Istandbesi
deherandshe
l
ooksatme.Herbrowsf ur
rowthenshegetsupand
palmsmyf ace.IlookatherandIf eelthisneedt o
holdhert ighttome.Ipul lhercl
ose,wr apmyar ms
aroundherandbur ymyheadonherneckand
breathout .Ihughert ightandshedoesn’ tsay
anythingandj usthol dsme.Tear scloudmyeyes
andIf eelmyshoul dersshake.,
Idon’ tcarethatthey
areher eandwat chingme.Ijustwantt obeweak
andf allapartonmywi f
e’sar
ms.Ishutmyeyes
ti
ghtandl etmyt earsfall
.Shebrushesmybackand
tel
lsmet hatshe’sfineandshe’snotgoi ngtoleave
me.
Ibeli
eveherbutIam st i
llscared.Seeingmybr other
sobr okenbyourmot herjustbecauseshehat est he
womanhel ovesmademel ookatherdi f
ferentlybut
Iknowdadwi l
ltal
ktoherandshecomesbackt o
hersensesandr eali
sethatsi mphiweist hewoman
heloves.“Iloveyou.Youar ethebestthingt hat
haseverhappenedi nmyl i
fe.Youaret he
everythi
ngtomeandIwantyout oalwaysknow
thatnoonecomesbef oreyouandourki ds.Iwi l
l
walkt heendsoftheearthtogi veyouever ything
youwantandneed.Thankyouf orbei
ngt he
wonder f
ulwomanyouar e.Youareagreatwifeand
anamazi ngmot her.”Iki
sshernapeandshesi ghs.
“didyoul etital
lout?”Inod.“If
eelbet
terbaby.
Thankyou. ”Shepullsawayandkissesmywhi le
face.Ismi l
e.
“Sorrytodi sturbyouguys.Ij ustwant edt obeabi g
baby.”theyl augh.“youguysar eamazi ngtogether.
Ihaveneverseent heki ndofl oveandbondyout oo
share.It
’saibeaut iful.”lesegosaysandl uh
blushes.“thankyousi sterinlaw”shel aughsand
simssigh.“youar etheonl ywomanf ormybr other
sims.Don’ tforgetthatorl etanyonet akeawayyour
happiness…..”t heki tchendooropensandIseemy
dadwal kingin.Hel ooksof f.Icockmyheadand
l
ookathi m.Vi ct
orandMaphol obawalki ntooli
ke
theyarei nahur ryandt heyhavewor r
ied
expressionsont heirfaces.“what ’sgoingon? .Did
thembiandPr estonescape?”
Mydadwal ksonmysideandl ooksatthekids.He
smilesbuthi
ssmil
eissad.ThelasttimeIsawt hi
s
l
ookwaswhenhi sdaddied.Hebr ushestheir
cheeksandtheki
dssmile.“baba?”hel ooksatl
uh,
sims, l
esego, l
uh'sauntt henCel est
eandnont o.
“canal lofyouhel pluhpackupandgot oher
fathershouse, allofyougot her eandtakeallthe
kidsandt hei rclothesandyour stoo.There’
s
somet hingwehavet odoint hehouseandwe
forgottodoi tbef orewebr oughtthekidsandi ti
s
goingt ot akesomet i
me”Okayt hat
’salieandI
knowsomet hingi sverywr ong.Hesoundsdi stant
andcol dl ikei t
’snothi m who’ stal
king.Luhlooksat
mewor riedl yandInod.Si msandl esegotaket he
twinsandl eavet heki t
chen.“babacanIst ay?”my
dadl ooksatherandseemst othink.
“nokhanyo.Iwi
llcal
lyouwhenwear
edone.Okay?
”
“yebobaba.”shesayst
henl
ooksatmeandIknow
she’
sworri
edtoo.
“thankyouf orl
ovingsonandgi vi
ngmebeaut i
ful
grandkids.”shesmi l
esandnodst henleaves.My
mom standt ofol
lowluhbutf adgivesheraver y
menacinglook.“yousi tdown.”shel ooksathim
shockedandIam t oocauseIhaveneverhear ddad
tal
ktohert hatway.Itakethephoneandt el
lthe
securi
tyguystotakethewoment oluh’
spar ent
s
houseandguar dthem.Ilookatmyf atherinlaw
andVictorandtheyarewor ri
ed.NowI ’
m notso
surecauseIthoughtthatthiswasaboutsimaand
bongabutnowIhavenoi deawhati sgoingon.He
sit
sdownandl ooksatmymom unt ilshebeginsto
fi
dget.Weareallstandi
ngi ncompletesil
enceunti
l
thewomenl eavewiththekids.
Assoonast hedoorshut smydadt alks.“sitdown
mbuso.Cal lyourbrothersandt el
lthem t ocome
her ewhenNgwendei sdonewi ththem.”Inod.Ical l
siceloandl ethim knowt henhangup.Thedadssi t
downandIdot oo.“whydoIf eellikeIam goi ngto
bei nterr
ogatedormaybeyouwantt oholdan
i
nt erventi
onaboutt hatgirlsi
ms? .”mymot her
reallyhatessimsandt hatisnotgoi ngt ochange.I
seei tnow.“whati syourpr oblem wi thsimsmy
dearwi fe?”mymot hershakesherhead.
“Sothi
sisabouther.Ican’
tbeli
evethi
sQwabe.
Youareheretoaskmequest i
onsaboutthatgi
rl
who’
salreadydi
vidi
ngmyf amily?!
.”
“bongal
ovesherandyouar
ehur
ti
ngoursonby
notaccept
ingt
hewomanhel
oves.Whatdi
dshedo
toyou?.”
“Ihavealr
eadyhadt hi
sconversati
onwit
hmbuso
andbongaandIam notgoi ngtotal
kaboutit
fur
ther
more.Idon’tl
ikeherandyouwon’tmakeme
l
ikeheroracceptherasmuchdaught eri
n-l
aw!.”
“don’trai
seyourvoiceatmeowami .”mymot her
l
ooksdown.Icanf eel angercomingofffr
om him
dir
ectedtomymot her.“babai ngabekonke
kukahle?(dadiseverythi
ngokay? )”heshakeshi
s
headandl ooksatmymmot herandshesi ghs
“QwabeI ’
m sorrythisisupset
ti
ngyoubutt hat’s
howIf eel.Whycan’ tyoualll
etitgoandnotmakei t
thi
sbigdeal ?”shegi vesmydadt hisl
ookthatshe
doeswhenevershewant ssomet hingtogoherway.
Mydadi nt heot hersidehasnoemot i
on.“weare
wait
ingf ortwopeopl etogetheret henwewillal
lsi
t
downandt alk.”Ilookatmymom andshe’ s
confusedasIam.
“daddi
dthembisaysomet
hingaf
terIl
eft
?”Iask
hi
m andmychokesonthet
eashewasdr i
nki
ng.I
getupandPatheront
hebackunti
lshebreat
hes
fi
ne.“who’
scomingQwabe?”sheasks.
“thelukhelef
amil
ytheyaskedt oseethembibef or
e
shedies”hesays.Waitwhat?.Ithoughtsicelosai
d
thatbongachoppedthembi'
sheadof fwitha
machet e?
.Soaretheyher
etot akeherbodybagor
theyhadahandandnowdadwant stokil
lt hem
too?.
“There’
snoneedfort
hem tocomeher eQwabe.
Youcouldhavej
ustsentherbodytoherpar
ents
buti
ftheydi
dknowwhatt hei
rchil
dwasplanning
andtheyhi
ditfr
om usthentheydeser
vetodie.”
shesays.
“doyoudeser
vetodiemywi
fe?”mymom’
seyes
getbi
gli
kebugseyes.
“Babawhatt
hehell
?!
.”helaughsl
ikewhathej
ust
sai
disf
unny,whi
chisnot
.
“gotyoudidn’
tI?”hesaysst
il
llaughi
ngbutInot
ice
thatt
heothert
wodadsar enotl
aughing.
“notfunnyQwabe.Youalmostgavemeahear
t
at
tack.”shesayssmil
ing.
“doyouremembert
hevowswetookandt
he
promi
seswemadetoeachot
her
?”
“Ist
il
ldo.Youkepteachandever
ypromiseand
yougavemeeverythi
ngyoupromisedme.”she
l
ooksathim ador
ingl
y.
“andwhatdi
daskyout
odof
orme?
.Pr
omi
seme?”
“Toneverl
iet
oyou,keepthi
ngssecret
sfrom you
andt
oshowyour espectal
ways.”shesayssoftl
y.
“Di
dyoukeept
hosepr
omi
sest
ome?”
“OfcoursemyhusbandIdi
d.Howcanyoueven
askmet hat
.”myauntwal
ksinandshel
ooksatus
weir
dly.
“whatisgoi
ngon?.Youar
eal
lhavi
ngaf
ami
ly
meeti
ngwithoutme?”
“nosisi(nomysist
er)youarej
usti
ntime.
”He
smil
esandmyauntsi st
ernextt
omymom.Bonga,
si
cel
o, sbuandFr
ankallcomeinandtheyl
ookl
ike
hel
l.
“Youalll
ookli
kehel
l.Don’tt
ellmethatbit
chgave
youtr
ouble?”Iaskt
hem laughingandtheyjustnod.
Bongasitsnextt omet henFrankont heotherside.
Sbuandsi cel
obehi ndme.I t
’sl
iketheyareforming
aprotecti
veshieldaroundmeandmywar ningbel l
s
star
tgoingofffrom 0toaf ucken100.Iknow
somethingiswr ongandi ti
nvolvesmymot herand
thembi.Shemusthavesai dsomet hi
ngthatupset
mydadandal lofthem.Fuckmewhydi dIleave?!
.
“OkIknowsomet hingi
swr ongandyoual lknow,
wellmaybeexcl udingme, mom andauntbutIknow
i
tinvolvesyoumom.Whatdi dyousayt othembi?,
didyoupr omisesomet hingelset oocauset hat’
s
theonl ythingIcancomeupwi t
hnowj udgingby
thelethallookbongahasonhi sf aceandwhydad
i
snotl ooki ngli
kehi mself.Somom whatdi dyoudo?
”Iaskherandal ltheblooddr ai
nsf rom herface.
Shel ooksatmydadabsol ut
elyterri
fi
edandshe
beginst oshake.Tear sfil
lhereyesandsheshakes
herheadandkeepssayi ngno.
“It
’sl
ieQwabe!,what
evershetol
dyouisali
e!.You
cannotbel
ieveanywordthatcameoutoft
hatgirl
s
mouth!”
“Shedi
dn’
tsayanyt
hingmywi
fe.Whysoyou
assumethatshesai
dsomet
hingaboutyou?
.What
areyoudenyi
ng?”
“wellyouknowthatshebl
amesmef ornothavinga
rel
ati
onshipwit
hmbusosoIthoughtsheli
edabout
somethingel
setoosoyouwon’thavet
okillher
.”
“youpromisedbongatosomeoneel sedidn’
tyou?!.
That’
swhyyoudon’ thi
mt obeinarelat
ionshi
pwi t
h
sims,i
t’
sbecauseyoupr omisedsomestupidgir
l
thathewil
lmarryherdi
dn’tyou?!
.”
“Ididnosuchthi
ngmbusoandyouwi l
lnotrai
se
yourvoi
ceatmelikethat
.Iam yourmother
!.”
bongascoff
sandshakeshisheadandmymom
l
ooksathimf r
owning.
“whatt
hehel
lisr
eal
lygoi
ngonher
eQwabe?
”
“Iwil
ltel
lyouinj ustafewminutes.Ar
eyouokay?
Youlookneeviusemywi f
e.Bongagiveyourmother
aglassofwater.”Bongadoesthatandmom dr i
nks
i
twithherhandsshaki ng.Whatisshescaresabout
.
“you’
reshakingmom.Ar eyouokay?”bongaasks
hernotsoundingconcer
nedatall
.
“Thi
sisbul
lshi
t!
.Whatt
hehel
lisgoi
ngon?
!.”
“mbusocalm downandli
sten.Wewi
llal
lfi
ndout
whati
sgoingon.”dadsaysandIsi
gh.

Thedooropensandt henIseesub’ smencomi ngi

n
withthel ukhele’swhol ookbr uisedandbeat en.
Theyl ookt erri
fi
ed.“canyoual lkindlytakemy
daught erinlawswonder full
ivingr oom fur
niture
andputi tint hegaraget hentaket het hi
ngsIasked
yout obringandl ayt
hem downt here.”hesaysand
theynod.Oneofsub’ sguyshashi sgunpoint edto
thelukhele’s.Thembi ’
smom l ooksatmymom and
theyseem t obehavingasi l
entconver sati
on.Idon’t
l
ikethat .
“tur
naroundandfacet
hel
ivi
ngr
oom.”i
ntel
li
gent
thembi
’
sparents.
“Yousawi ttoo?”sbuasks, Inod.Wewat cht
he
guysremovingt hefurni
tur
et hentheyl
ayabidbag
pl
asti
cont hefloor.Thenputf ourchai
rsi
nthe
middle.“dadwithallduerespect.Youarenot
ki
ll
inganyoneImeant hem inmyhouse.”Imeanit.
“nooneisdyi
ng.Wearejustgoi
ngt
otal
k.Si
tthem
ther
e.Lwet
hu,owami
,j
ointhem.”
“what?”theybot hsay.Hetakesouthi
sgunand
poi
ntsitatthem.Itrytost
andbutsicel
oandsbu
for
cemet osi tdown.
“youbett
erfut
urekengetyourhandsoffme
brot
her
s.Dadwhatar eyoudoi
ngpointi
ngagunat
mom? !
.”Iaskhim hor
ri
fi
ed.
“ohson,yougoingtowantt
osi
tdownt
oheart
his
shocki
ngl
ystory.”
“Qwabe?Youar epoint
ingagunatme? !”sheasks
tear
ingup.Dadcockst hegunandpointsitather
again.“gett
hef uckupandgototheli
vingroom
andsitonthosedamnchai rs…NOW!.”hescr eams
fuckIgetscaredtoo.Weallgotot
helivingroom
andst andastheysit
.
“whowantstostar
tsingi
ng?”mydadasks.They
fouroft
hem l
ookateachotherandkeepqui
et.
“OkI’
llstar
t.Lwethu,
doyourememberthefi
rst
ti
meIt ol
dyouaboutt hi
sbeaut
if
ull
ygi
rlImet
?”he
smil
esasher emembershowhemetmymot her.
“Irememberbrot
herbutwhyar
eyouaski
ngme?”
sheasksobl
ivi
ousli
keme.
“Fi
kil
e,youandowamihavebeenfri
endsforhow
manyyearsnow?”Mrslukhel
estar
tstosnif
f.
“Si
ncewewer
eki
ds”shesays.
“andyouknowever yt
hingabouther
,seesecr
ets
andallcauseshe’
syourbestfri
endandyoutwo
pract
ical
lygrewuptogetherr
ight
?”shenods.
“QwabeIwantt ogohome.Youwi llnotsi
tmehere
l
ikeI’
m acr i
minalandhavedonesomet hi
ngwrong!.
Takemehomenow!”shesaysst andingupbut
bongacockshi sgunandpointsitatmom.She
musthavedonesomet hi
ngreall
ybadf orbongato
dothat.Wer espectandl
oveourmot herbutthi
s
l
ooksbi g.
“Bongadon’tpoi
ntagunatoutmot her.Iknowshe
hashurtyoubutbrot
hershe’sourmot herandshe
di
dn’tr
aiseustobeli
kethat.”Itel
lhim.
“Mbusoshe’
s.…”
“Si
tthef
uckdownandbongashutt
hef
uckup.”
dadsays.Mymom st
art
scr
yingandIhat
eit
.Idon’
t
l
ikei
tatall
.
“mbusoImetyourmot herwhenshewas19.Thi s
beautifulgir
lwhodr ivemecr azy.Hersmi l
ecoul d
meltthecol destheart.Itsti
lldoes.Ialwaysl ookat
herandIaskmysel fhowt hehel ldi
dIgetsol ucky
tohavet hi
sbeautif
ulwomanwhohasl ovedme
fr
om whenshewasj ustagi rl
.Ihadj ustfi
nishedmy
tr
ainingasadoct orwhenImether .Iwasherf i
rstin
everything.Youremembermyl ove?”mymom cr ies
anddoesn’ tsayanyt hing.
“Weplannedourl
ivesandpickedthenamesofthe
kidsweweregoi
ngt ohave.Doyourememberthe
nameswepickedbaby?”shenods.“whatwere
they?”
“mbusowezwe,sbongakonkeandzi
phozet
hu.Why
ar
eyouaskingmeal lt
his?
!”
“lwet
hu,youandowamiar ecl
oseandhavethis
verywonderfulr
elat
ionshi
pgoingon.Iknowyou
knowthingsIdon’tknowthatshehasdone.Doyou
wanttotellmesomet hi
ngSisi
?”
“Yeswear ecloseandIknowwhatyouknow
not
hingelse.Whatevershedi
dort
heydidIhaveno
par
tinthat.Don’ti
nvol
veme.”myauntsays.
“Fi
kil
edoyouwantt
osaysomet
hingt
ome?”
“noQwabe.Idon’
tknowwhatyouwantmetotel
l
you?”mydadshootsherhusbandont
hekneeand
l
ukhel
escreams.Shescr
eamst oo
“areyousur
eaboutt
hat?”heasksagainandshe
nodsanddadshoot
slukhel
e'
sotherkneeandhe
fal
lsdown.
“Ok!Ok!Whatdoyouwantt
oknow?
!.”sheal
so
cr
ying.
“thembisaidsomethi
ngandIwanttoknowi fi
tis
tr
ue?!”fi
kil
eandmymom l ookateachother
shocked.Theblooddr
ainsfr
om t
heirf
acesand
fi
kil
eshakesherheadatmymom.
“f
iki
ledon’
tpl
ease!
.Don’
t!.”
“Don’
twhatma?
.Whatdi
dthembisayt
odad?”
“i
sittr
uewhatt hembisai
dregardi
ngmbuso'
s
motherfi
kil
e?!
..
..
.Tal
kdamnit?!
.”
“Yesitistrue!Sheheardusandwer eal
izedwheni
t
wastool at
et hatshewasli
steni
ngandhear dt
he
wholething.”
“shutthefuckupfikil
e!Shutyourf
uckenmouth
youstupidbit
ch!”Ilookatmymom shockedcause
Ihaveneverheardhercursingorscreami
ngli
kea
madwoman.dadshoot sfi
kil
eonherkneesal
so
andshef al
lsdown.
“takethem backt
othei
rhouset
henburnt
hem
i
nside.”hetell
ssbu’
smenandtheynodandt
ake
thelukhel
e’
sandleave.
“mom whatisgoingon?”myhearti
sbeati
ngso
fast
.Ican’
tbel
ievedadj
ustshi
ttwopeopl
e.
“t
ellhi
m.Tel lhim whatyouf
uckendi
dtohim and
al
lofus!.
..Tellhi
m now!”mymom cries.
“I’
m sorryQwabeIr
eal
lyam.Idi
ditbecauseIl
ove
you!.”shesays.
“Mom si
syoucheatondad?
!”shedi
dn’
tdi
dshe?
“Ohnobr
othershedi
dn’
t….
.”
“Bongashutt
hef
uckup!”t
hedadssay.
“maphol
obawhatgoi
ngon?Dad?Uncl
evi
ctorwhat
di
dmymom do?”
“sheisl
yingQwabeIswearshei
s.Shehear
d
ever
ythi
ngwrong!
.”
“Okt el
lmethi
sthen.Whatdi
dItellyouaboutt
he
namesofourkidsshoul
dbei fi
thappensyouget
pregnantwi
thtwi
ns.Whatdidmydadsayt he
namesofourtwinswouldbe?”
“I….
.I.
.…Idon’
tRembertQwabet
hatwasalong
ti
meago.Lookathowgr
ownourkidsar
e!.”mydad
l
aughsandshakeshi
shead.
“youdon’ tremembercauseyoudon’ tknowbutI
tol
dyou.Ist il
lremembert hatday.Tellmbusowhat
youdi dtous!.”sheshakesherheadandcont i
nues
tocry.Mydadshoot sjustnexttoherearmi ssingit
onani nchandt hebul
letbreaksluh’
svaseandi t
shattersint
opieces.Ialmostwetmypant sthinking
mydadj ustshitmymom.
“Tell
him orthenextbull
eti
sgoingt
obebet ween
youreyes.I
fyouwantt oli
vetel
lmbusothetrut
h.”
theatmosphereinthehousehaschanged.
Ever
yoneistenseandthi
sdreadt
hatIf
eltwhenI
waswatchingluhcomesback.
“mat el
ldadwhatyoudi dsohecanf or
giveandnot
kil
lyou.Apol ogizetohim andiknowdadwi l
l
forgiveyoucausehel ovesyou.Tellusmamawhat
youdi dplease.Ihat eseei
ngyoul i
kethi
s.”Ihear
maphol obacur singandheshakeshi sheadand
victorsi
tsdownl ikehe’
sexhausted.
“t
ellhi
m ma..Tel
lmybrot
herhowyouscr
ewedhi
s
l
if
eup.Tellhi
m!”bongademands.
.
“Ok!OkIwi l
l…j
ustpl
easedon’tki
llmeQwabe.I
neverl
iedaboutmyfeel
ingsforyou,t
helovewe
shareandtheli
feweareli
ving.Il
oveyoumy
husbandverymuch.”
“heykhul
umaSi
si!
.(youbet
tert
alkl
ady!
)”
“mbuso…Iam sosor
ry,
Idi
dn’
tmeani t
.Itwasa
mist
akeandwhenIsawwhathappenedIfreaked
outand….”
“ohforfuckssays.Tellmybrot
herhowyou
murderedhismot her
,yourt
winsist
erandhi
stwin
brot
her!Tel
lhi
m! .”bongasaysandmywor l
dstops.
Everythi
nggoessi l
entandIhearnothi
ngandsee
nothing.Bonga'swordskeeprepeat
inginmyhead
overandoveragai n.Mywhat?Whowhat ?That’
s
crazy.Ilookatthem t
henlaugh.Il
aughuntilt
ears
comeoutandl ookatmymot her.
“mah,baba,bongapleasestopj
oki
ngli
ket hi
s
causeiti
snotfunny”IsayasIwipemyt ears.It
’s
nitf
unnybutitsoundedfunnywhenbongasai dit
.I
l
ookatmymom t hendadandIshakemyhead.
“mawhatar
etheyt
alki
ngabout
?”Iaskherst
il
l
seat
ed.
“I’
m sorrybut…Ican’
tsayi
t.Il
oveyouli
keyouare
myownson.I nrai
sedyouf
rom thedayyouwere
born.”IcovermyfaceasIwatchmywhol el
if
eturn
upsidedown.
“whereisshe?Whereishe?Wher
ear
ethey?
!”she
shakesherheadcr
ying.
“theyar
e…theyaredead…I’m soso…..”she
doesn’
tgettof
ini
shhersentencecausethenext
thi
ngisIhavemyhandswr appedaroundherthr
oat
andchocki
ngher.
CHAPTER57.

MBUSO.

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Edi
ted

Iseeonl yred.Iwr apmyhandt ightar oundher

throatcauseIwantt oki llher.Sheki ll
edmybi rt
h
mot herandt winbr othert henshet ookoverher
sistersli
fe?.Whatki ndofper sondoest hat.Howdi d
myf at
hernotr ealizet hathei ssl eepingwi t
h
someoneel seandhowt hehel ldi dhenotknowt hat
mymom hadat winsi ster?.Thisi sfuckencr azy!
.
Theypul lmeof fofherandshecoughs.Ican’ t
believethisisact uallyhappeni ng.Ihavej ust
strangledthewomanIt houghti smymot her .The
womanIwor shipt hegr oundshewal kson.My
mot her…nomyaunt ? .Myauntpul l
sbonga' smom
toherandshel ooksatmedi sappoi nted.Ilookat
bongaandhel ooksr eall
yhur t
.
“br
other
….I
’
m sor
ry…I”Ishakemyhead.
“youshouldhaveki
ll
edher
!.Ican’
tbel
ieveshedi
d
that
!.Thi
sdoesn’
tmakesenseatall
.”
“howdidyounotknowthatthi
swomanwasan
i
mposterbaba?.Mywholeenti
reli
feIwasr
aisedby
awomanwhocl ai
medi
smymot her?Howi
si t
possi
blebaba?”
“Ineverknewyourmot herhadatwin.WhatIknow
i
sshewasr aisedbyyou’rehermaternal
grandmother.Herparentsdiedwhenshewasj usta
baby.Shewasanonl ychil
dmbuso.That ’
sallI
know.Ineverdi df
oronceseeanyt hingdi
ff
erent
abouther.Shewasexact lyli
kethewomanIl oved
andfelli
nlovewi t
h.”mydadexpl ains.
“isthi
swhyyouneverwantedust
oknowyoursi
de
ofthefami
ly?
.Isowamiyournameormymother
’s
name?.”
“it
’syourmothername.Iwasgi
venthename
sebenzi
le.I
’
m sorrymyson.Idi
dn’
tmeanfort
hings
totur
noutthisway.”
“Li
ar.Mur
der
!.Youar
enot
hingbutaf
raud!
.That
’s
whyyoukeptforci
ngthembidownmybr other
s
thr
oatbecausesheknewofyourdi
rt
ysecret.How
couldyoudothatma?Howcouldyou!.”bonga
l
ooksatherdisgust
ed.
“Not her
e’smor etothi
s.Shehast otellushowshe
foundmymot her.Whydidn’tourgreatgrandmother
notknowt hathergranddaughtergavebirthtot
wins
daughter
s?Tal ksebenzi
le.”shewipeshert ear
s.
“Igr ewupi nkwaNongomawi thmygr andpar ents.
Ourf athersai deoft hef ami
ly.Iknewt hatmy
parent sdiedf rom whenIwasj ustbaby.My
grandmot heronedaywhenshewasdr i
nkingt old
met hatwhenourmot hergavebirth,shegavebi rt
h
totwi nsbutshedi dn’tknowcauseshehadf ai nted
foraf ewmi nut esandt hatt
imegi vingbir
thtot wins
wassomet hingt hatwasnotgood.Onehadt obe
kil
ledsot heyt ookyourmot herandgaveherupt o
somef ami l
ybutmydadgotupsetandt hreatened
tokillmygr andmot herwhenhehear dsoshehave
upwher etheyt ookyourmot her.Mydadt hen
convi ncedmymot hert hatt
heyshoul dtakeyour
mot hertohermot herinPhongol othatwaynoone
wil
lbekill
edandtheydid.Apparentl
ytheygott
her
e
andtheynevertol
doutmat ernalgr
andmothert
hat
ourmothergavebirt
htotwins.That’
showwewer e
separat
ed.”Idon’
tknowi fIbeli
evethi
swomanor
not.
“howol
dwer
eyouwhenyouf
oundmymom?
.”
“Itwasayearaf tershemetyourdad.Wewer eboth
19.Ileftthedayaf termygr andmot herconfessed
andwentt ol
ookf ormyt winsister.Itwasn’teasy
andIst ruggl
edf or3mont hsthenonedayIwas
l
uckyIsawherout sidesomehousesweepi ngt he
yard.Ittookme3dayt ofinall
yhavet hecouraget o
got al
ktoher .Iwaitedforourgr andmot hertoleave
thenIwentt ointroducemysel f
.Whenwebot hsaw
eachot herweknew.Weknewt hatwewer e
i
dent i
caltwinsisters.Wet alkedandgott oknow
eachot herandIbeggedhernott ot ellour
grandmot herthatIexisted..”
“That’
sbecauseyouhadalr
eadypl
annedt
oki
llher
andtakeoverherl
if
e!.
..
.”
“Bongacal
m down!
.Cont
inue”maphol
oba
r
epr
imandshi
m.
“shedi dn’ tunderstandatf irstbutItoldhert hat
theymi ghtki llt
hebot hofusandsheagr eed.
Owamil ivedaver ywellli
fe.Ouruncl esl ovedher
ver ymuchcauseshewasanonl ychild.Shewas
wel ltakenofandshel i
vedt helifeIwant edandI
gotj ealousofher .Ihatedt hatshegr ewupi na
l
ovi nghomewhi letheyleftmebehi ndwi t hour
wickedgr andmot her.Istartedtohat eherand
resenther .Shet hent ol
dmeaboutt hisboywho
l
ovesherandwant stomar ryherandshewant edto
tellqwabeaboutmebutImadeherpr omi seme
thatwewoul dwai talit
tl
ebi tlonger.Isawhow
Qwabel ovedher .Hi di
ngmysel ffrom ever yonewas
begi nningt ogettoomuchandshewasal soget t
ing
ti
red.Onedayt henshet oldmet hatshewas
pregnantandwasver yexcitedt henaf ewmont hs
downt hel ineqwabewentt ot heEast ernCapeand
stayedl ongergha7hewassupposet o.Thet i
met o
givebi rthcameandouruncl esrushedhert ot he
hospi tal.Iknewt hattheywer egoingt ocomeaf t
er
shehasgi venbirthandIdi dn’twantt hem t here.So
Iwenttoourgrandmother’
shouseandstar
tedt
he
fi
re…..”ohmyGod!Myauntget suppushing
sebenzi
leawayfrom herandwelookather
shocked.
“….Thel eftthehospi t
alandIwasabl etoseeher .
Thef ir
ekeptal lofthem busyunt ilthenextday.We
didn’thavecel lphonest hensoshewant edt ocall
qwabewhenshegothome.Shewasver yexci t
ed
andIhat edherevenmor ethatshei sl i
vingher
dream lif
eandhasever yonet hatlovesher .Our
unclesor ganisedat r
anspor ttotakeherhomebutI
slashedthet i
resoft hecarIt henconvi ncedhert hat
weshoul dgohomeandIwi l
lcarryoneoft heboys.
Itookyout omyar msmbusoandIi mmedi atelyfell
i
nl ovewi thyoul i
keIwast heonet hatgavebi rthto
you.Wel ef tinf ootandt heshor tcutbackhome
wasf orust opassbyt her iverandwet ooki t
.The
roadwassl ipper ycausei thadr ainedaf ewdays
ago.Wekeptwal ki
ngadshewassodamnexci t
ed
aboutever ythingandshej ustmademesomad.I
don’tknowwhathappenedcauset henextt hingI
heardwasowami screami ngandf all
ingi nt
ot he
ri
ver.Iputyoudownandl ookedforalogthatshe
canholdont obutther i
verwastoof ul
landthe
curr
entwasver ystrong.Isawherbodyl yi
ngf ace
downandIneversawyourbr ot
hers.Ithenwent
homeandt ookoverherlif
eandIhavebeenl i
ving
asowamieversi nce.Ionlytookhername, you
mbusoandqwabebutIl ovethebothofyouver y
much.Thel oveIhavef oryouispureandgenui ne.”
“lies!
.Youar ef uckenlying!.Youwer emadasshe
wasshar ingherexci t
ementwi thyou.Herdamn
sisterthatshet rustedbutint heendyouwer ea
wildinasheep’ sclothi
ng.Af uckendamnsnake.
Youpushedheri ntother i
verandwat chedherand
mybr otherdrown.Thembisai dt hatyoufucken
mur derouswi tch!.”bongascr eamsatherand
takesouthi sgunandpoi nt
si tather.
“Bongaplease!.Il
etj
eal
ousl
ycl
oudmyj
udgement
andIregr
etit!”
“youdon’tr
egreti
t.I
fyoudi d,youwoul
dhavet old
memanyyear sago.Youl ookatmeever ydayand
cl
aimtolovemebutyouar elyingt
omyf ace
ever
yday.Howdoyoul ivewi t
hyoursel
fsebenzil
e?”
shecr
ies.
“that’
swhyyouneverbreastf
edmbusoi nfrontof
usandcl ai
medtobeshy.That’swhywhen
somet i
mesyoutalkabouthowyougrewup, you
wouldjustmenti
onthatyourgrandmotherhated
youcausesheblamedyouf orherdaughtersdeath.
Alll
ies.”myauntsays.
“baba,youandmymom’ suncl
esneversaw
anythi
ngdiff
erentaboutmymom?Noone
suspectedathing?”
“Mbuso.Yourmot herwasaver ygent le,softkind
woman.Shewasshyanddi dn’ttalkmuchsonowe
didn’
tseeanyt hi
ngdifferentabouther .Wewer eall
excit
edaboutyouandwesoonst ar tedthelobol a
negotiat
ionsandt henwegotmar riedandmoved.
Ast i
mewentyourmot herclaimedt hatever yone
wasj eal
ousofherandshedi dn’tf eelcomf ortable
goingbackt ovisi
tandweneverdi d.Idi dn’twant
anythingtoupsetherandyou, t
hat ’showmuchI
l
ovedher .Iwasn’tgoingt ooutmyf ami l
yint hat
ki
ndi fsit
uation.
”Dadl ookst i
redandbeat en.Like
hiswhol eli
fehascrushedandi thas.Bot hourl ives
havecrashed.I
’
m mostwor
ri
edaboutmylit
tl
e
brot
hercausethisi
shi
smotherwearet
alki
ng
about.
“wehavedonecl eansi
ngceremoniesathomeand
atradi
tionalheal
erwasalwayspresent.Youconsul
t
theancestorsNanabeforeyoudidanythingsohow
comet hetruthwasneverreveal
ed?”
“Imadesuret
hatIpai
dthem moneyt
onotreveal
anyt
hingt
hati
nvol
vedmeandwhatIdid.”shesays
l
ikei
t’
snotabigdeal
.
“Idon’
tbeli
eveanyt
hingt hatcomesoutofyour
mouth.Il
ovedyoumabutyoudi dn’t.Youl
etme
l
ivethi
sli
fewhil
ehidi
ngt hebiggestpartofmylif
e
fr
om me.HowdoIf orgiveyouma…sebenzi le?
.”
Shecri
esandshe’spissingthehelloutofme.
Thewhol ehousei squietandtense.Idonotknow
howt of eelandthinkbecauseitfeelsl
ikemylif
e
hasbeenal ie.Iwasn’tevenadayol dwhenIwas
takenf rom mymot her.Shedidn’tgettoki
ssme
andt ellmet hatshelovesme.HowdoIl ookpast
everythingshehasdonef ormet oshowmet hat
shel
ovesmebutyetsheki
ll
edmymother
?.Isi
t
downandcovermyheadandbr
eakdown.
“Ifthembinevercamebackf rom t heirli
ves.Our
l
ivest hent hatmeansyouwer epr epar edtotake
thi
ssecr ett othegravewi thyou? .Howcoul dyou
ruinthel ivesoft hemanyoul ovema?Lookatt hem! .
Lookathowcr ushedt heyare.Howar et heygoing
totrustust hewoment heylove? .Whataboutt he
rel
ationshi pbet weent hebrot hersma? .Didyouever
thi
nkaboutwhatwi llhappenwhent hetruthcomes
out?.Howi sbabagoi ngt olookathi ssonandt hi
nk
maybehef ail
edhim causehedi dn’ tseewhatyou
reall
yar e? .Doyouknowwhatt hismi ghtdomy
husbandma? !.Wejusthadki dsandIneedhi m here.
Heal mostl ostmeandnowImi ghtl osehim cause
ofwhatyoudi d.”mywi f
esay.Whendi dluhget
herecauseIt houghtshel eft.Shei swi thsims.
“Whatifshe’slyingandt heydidn’
tdi
e?.Whatifshe
hidthem somewher embuso.Becausei ftheydid
diethepeoplefrom thevill
agewouldhavefound
thebodiesofbot hofthem? .Whydidyourmartenal
sideofgrandparentsjustlett
hingsgoandnottryto
cont actyou?.Whatifyourmotheri
sstil
lali
veand
shel iveswit
hthem andshet hi
nksisthathertwi
n
sisterandsongotint heri
veranddiedtooorshe
ranawaywi t
hyou? .”luhsaysandIdidn’tt
hinkof
i
tt hatway.
“ukhanyoisri
ght
.Wehavet ogobacktowher
eall
ofthisst
art
edbecauseIal
sodon’
tbeli
eveaword
she’ssayi
ng.”myauntsays.
“Areweevergoi
ngt
ogetpeacei nthi
sfamil
yor
ther
ear
ealwaysgoi
ngtobesecr et
esthatar
egoing
tocomeoutwhenweleastexpecti
t?”bongaasks.
“Wecan’ tkeepki l
li
ngpeoplecauseonedayal lof
thati
sgoi ngtocomebackandbi teus.Wecan’ tbe
thefamilythatisknownt obeki l
li
ngpeopl ewhen
theyhurtusbutt hisma? !
.Thisisveryunforgivable
andyoudeser veeveryt
hingthatiscomi ngyourway.
Howi sziphogoi ngtoprocessthis?.Youtook
somethingf r
om allofusmaandI ’
m neverever
goingtoforgiveyou.Iwantnot hingtodowi thyou.
Tomeyouar e.Deadasoft oday.”bongasays
cryi
ng.
“l
et’
sgosebenzi
le.”mydadsays.
“no!.You’
regoi
ngtokil
lmeqwabe,
I’
m notgoi
ng
anywherewithyou!
.”
“killherbabaandtheworldwil
lbeabett
erpl
ace
withouther.”bongasays.Luhsi
tsnextt
omeand
takesmyhand.
“Whatdoyouwantustodo?”sheasksl
ooki
ngat
mewitht
earsi
noureyes.
“Iwanthert
oleavemyhouse.Iwanthertol
eave
myf ami
lyal
one.Iwantherawayfrom mybr
other
s
butIdon’
twanthert
odieluh.”Shehol
dsmeasI
cryi
nherarmsandcomf ort
sme.
“let’
sgoawayf rom her ef orawhilethenyoucan
calm downandpl ant hingspr oper
ly.Whenwe
comeback, youcanst artthesearchaboutf i
nding
thet r
uthaboutyourmot herandbr other
.Weal l
needabr eak.I
fyoual lst artt
hesearchnowyou
mi ghtmisssomethingcauseyou’ reallangryand
wedon’ twanttomissanyt hi
ng.Ubabawon’ tbe
alone.Hehasuaunt y,mydadanduncl eVictorand
theywi l
lal
lmakesur et hathei sokayandkeepan
eyeonma.Ri ghtnowIneedyoumbuso.Meand
yourkidsneedyou.Youneedust ooandIwon’tlet
yougoandl ookf orthetr
uthaboutmymot heri
n
l
aw.Let ’
sgo.”Shei sri
ght.Mymi ndisnot
funct
ioningwellri
ghtnowandIj ustneedti
meto
thi
nkandi nvesti
gatebeforeIphysi
call
ygother
e.
Igetupandgost andnextt odadwhohashi shead
downi nshame.Igr abhisshoul derandhel ooksup.
“Idon’ tblameyouf orallthisandIwantyout o
knowt hatitisnotyourf aultdad.Shef ooledallof
usandt hat’sallonher.Notonyou, meandmy
brothers.Wewi llfi
ndthet ruthandi f….Ift heyare
deadandbur iedsomewher ewewi ll.Exhumet heir
skeletonsandgi vethem apr operbur ialbutdadi f
theywer edeadIt hinktheywoul dhaveshownus
sighst hroughdr eamsorsomet hingsoasmuchas
i
tsoundscr azyIthinkthatt heymayst il
lbeal i
ve
butIdon’ twantyout oholdont ot hati ncasewe
fi
ndoutt heyr eall
yaredead.Best rongdad.Bonga
andIdon’ tblameyouandwel oveyouokay?”my
dadl ooksatmet henbongaqui cklyr unst ousand
wehol ddadbef orehefall
sdownashecr i
es.
Idon’tthi
nkIhaveeverseenmydadcr yi
ng.Dad
hasal waysbeenmySuper man.Myher obutt onight?
Now? .I’
m seeingamanwho’ sli
fehasjustchanged.
Amanwho’ swif
ehasbr okenhim beyondanyt hing
Icani magine.Thethreeofushol deachot herand
wecr y.“comewi thusdad.Let ’
sleaveandwewi l
l
al
lcomebackt ogetheragai nandsearchf orthe
tr
uth.”bongasays.Dadshakeshi shead.Iknow
him he’snotgoingtoleave.Whenhel eavesher e.
Heisgoi ngtosearchf ormymot her
.
“yout wokidsl
eave.Takeyourfamil
iesandleave.I
willt
alktoyouboysdon’tworr
yaboutme. .Ij
ust
neededamomentofweaknessandIgoti nwi thyou
herewi t
hmecauseIsweari fIwasalonewi t
hher.
Yourmot herwoul
dbedeadbutIl ovehermbuso.I
l
oveyourmom boysandIdon’ tknowwhatI ’
m
goingtodowi t
hher.”Ishakemyhead.Thi sshiti
s
fuckenhard.
“Wel i
vehertoodadandwedon’ twantyoutokil
l
her.Justkeepherl
ockedawaysomewher eunt
ilwe
decidewhatweregoingtodo.”i
ntel
li
genthi
m.He
nods.Wegetupandl ookatourmother
…mot her
?.
Noshe’snotbutshehasalwaysbeenamot hert
o
meandt hati
sisn’
tsuddenl
ygoingtostop.
“Maphol oba,
.UncleVi ctor,auntypl easewatchover
ourdad.Aunt yIthinkit’
sbet terifyout ookdadback
home, nothishousebuthi sbi r
thhome.Wehaven’ t
beent her
einawhi l
eandIt hinkhim bei ngt
herewil
l
calm him down.SbuIneedyout otakemat ot
hat
place.Makesur eshedoesn’ thaveaccesst othe
outsideanddoesn’ tt
alkt oanyone.Ineedheron
l
ockdown24/ 7.”theyallnod.
“sicel
oIthi
nkyoushoul dal socomewi t
huswith
l
esegoandt hekids.Sbuwi llj
oinuslaterandwell
cal
lziphowhenwel and.Frankwillst
ayandwat ch
overever
ything.
”Theyal lnod.
Itakemyphoneoutandcal lmycompanypilotto
getthejetready.It
ellluht
ogopackupeverything
shemi ghtandheyl eavewit
hsimstothebedrooms.
Sbucal l
shisguystot hehousetot
akeourmot her.
“I
’
llseeyouwhenIl
and.Wher
ear
ewegoi
ngagai
n?.
”
“yourememberourshei
kfri
endri
ght
?,hehasa
houseinI
tal
yavil
laandhesaidwecanstayas
l
ongaswewant .”sbunods.
“qwabeI’
m sorr
ymy…myhusbandIwishIcoul
dgo
backandchangethi
ngsbutIknowi
t’
stool
atenow.
Mbusothankyoumysonf ornot
….”
“Fornotkill
ingyouma?Don’tt
hankhim yetcause
youmi ghtbekil
ledbymejustl
ikeyouki
ll
edhis
motherandourbr ot
her
.”she.Looksdown.Sub’s
ment akeherandshewalksoutcryi
ngforher
husband.
Dadandthedadsalsol
eaveandi
t’
sjustus.Noone
saysanyt
hingunt
ill
uhandsi
mscomeback.
“Wehavetogoandgettheki
dssowecanl eave.
Ar
ewedrivi
ngtoJobur
gorDur ban?”l
uhasks
“Jobur
g.”
“Canwegetdr
unkassoonaswel
and?”si
cel
o
asks?
.
“mymot
heri
samur
der
er.”bongasays.
“She’
sourmot
herbr
otherandIguesswet
ookf
rom
hercauseweareal
somurder
ers.”t
hatisthet
rut
h.
Ourdarkandugl
ysidewegoti
tfrom her
.
CHAPTER58.

TWOYEARSLATER.

LUNGI
.

Thel asttwoyear sofmyl i

fehavebeenr eall
yhar d.
Beinganewmom ont opoft hepr oblemswef aced
washar dbecauset hef i
rstsixmont hsoff irstyear
wer etough.Mbusodi dn’tknowhowt ocopewi th
theever yt
hing.Hedr unkhi mselftosl eept hefirst
thr
eeweeksandt hent heweeksaf t
ert hathe
withdrewandkeptt ohimsel f
.Hedi dn’ twantt ot alk
aboutanyt hingthati nvol vedhismot her……bonga' s
mot her.Hehel pedmeal otwiththeki dsandt hat
mademer eallyhappyt hathedi dn’twi thdrew
compl etel
yf rom ushi sf ami l
ycausewant edt obe
veryinvolvedi never yt
hi ngconcer ningourchi ldren
andhehasbecomever
ypr
otect
iveovermeandour
ki
ds.
Thei rmot heri sst i
llali
vebei ngkeptwher ever
mbusot oldsbut okeepher .Myf at herinl awi sstil
l
struggl i
ngwi t
ht het ruthandbongat oo.Thewhol e
Gumedef ami lywasshockedt oheart hisandt hey
want edhert obepuni shed.Bongat ol dhisdadt hat
heshoul ddi vorcehi smot herandl eaveherwi th
not hingbuti twasn’ taseasyashesai di tcausei fi
t
waseasy, t
heywoul dhaveki ll
edherandmovedon.
IcansaywehadagoodHol idaynotagr eatone
causewel eftIwoul dn’tsaywewer er unni ngf r
om
ourpr oblemsbutwel eftcauseweneededabr eak
from ever ything.Webondedndgott oknowl esego
andherki ds.Bongaandsi mswor kedont hei r
relationshi pandsbusi soj oinedust hreeweeks
after.Wespentt hreemont hsinItalyatavi l
laand
thepl acewasabsol utelybeaut i
ful.Iwantt ogo
backt hereagai nwi t
hj ustmbusoandme.Notour
kidsoranyoneel sebutj ustt hetwoofus.
WemovedtoDurbant
hel
astyearandImustdayI
am l
ivi
ngmyl
if
e,inmydr
eam home.Mbusobuil
t
meahouseIwant edandi t’
smyhome.Mymost
sacr edplace.Hi scompanymovedt ooandhe’ s
wor kingagainevent houghhehat esitandpr efers
towor kathomet hanatt heof f
ice.Thegr eatnews
i
s, simsandt hekidsmovedher etoo, bongabought
them ahouseandt heyallmovedi nt ogetherafter
bongapai dlobolaandpr oposedt osims.Thewhol e
thi
ngwentr eal l
ygr eatbuttheonl yper sonthatwas
missi ngwast hei
rmom.Event hought hey
pretendedt obeokaywi t
hi tbutIknewdeepdowni t
reall
yhur tallofthem andzi phoespeci all
ywhenhe
foundoutwhatr eallyhappened.
Mybr ot herandLesegoar ereall
yhappyandshet oo
nowl ivesher einDur banwi t
hmybr otherwit
htheir
kidsint henewhouseheboughtt hem.Lesegoi san
amazi ngst r
ongwoman.Ir eali
sedt hi
swhent hree
mont hsagowehadt ogobackwi thherHomet own
Bethlehem f orherlobolanegotiat
ions.Ireall
y
thoughtpeopl ewer egoingtodiethatdaybutt he
brothershavi ngthest r
ongbondt heyallhavemade
surethatt heirbrotheriscomingbackwi thhi
sbr i
de.
Anywayshewi l
ltel
lyouwhatr eallyhappened.My
dadont heothersi
detol
dmeaboutt hewomanhe’ s
i
nar elat
ionshi
pwithandispl
anni
ngt ocomewi t
h
hertointr
oducehertousandhonestlyI
’m happy
thathehassomeonehecanl oveagain.
Myhusbandandhi sbr othersarestil
linvest i
gating
aboutthewhol esit
uationaboutwher esebenzi le
grewupandwhathappenedt otheirmat ernalside
ofthefami l
y.Mbuso, sbuandhi sdadl eftandwent
tooPhongol oapparentlytheyfoundsomel ead
ther
e.Iam veryanxiousandIhopewhat evert hey
aregoingtof i
ndisgoodnews.Ihavet wo
housekeepersandnanni esthatl
iveint hecot t
age
andsisnont orel
ocatedwi thusandshe’ stheonl y
onewhol ivesinthehousewi t
huscauseshe’ snot
j
ustahousekeeperwhohaswor kedf ormyf ami l
y
foryearsbutshe’samemberofourf ami ly.
Wear est
il
linthepr
ocessofst art
ingourcompany
andLesegoisonboar dtoo.Ihadtoldthem when
wewer ei
nItal
ywhatIwant edandsinceLesego
wasnowpar tofourfamilyshehadt obeincluded
tooandshewasver yexcitedandmyhusbandwas
proudofmeandspeaki ngofhim Ilasttal
kedto
mbusoi nthemorningandIhopeever yt
hingis
goingwell
.Myhandsomet wi
nsar etaki
nganapi n
thei
rroom andI’
m sit
ti
ngheredrinki
ngagl assof
winecausembusodoesn’ twantmet odr i
nkalcohol
andIdon’tknowwhysowhenhe’ snothomeIdr i
nk
aglassonceinawhi l
e..Mycellphoneringsandi t
’s
sims.
“si
steri
n-l
aw?”shel
aughs
“Ar
eyouhome?”
“Wher
eel
sewoul
dIbeat
?”
“okI’
m comi
ng.I
’l
ldr
ivebylesego’
sandpi
ckher
up.
”Shehangsup.Okay?.
“mah?”ohIf orgotsi
mskidsaregoingt
obe
sl
eepingherecauseit
’sFri
dayandwantedtohave
asleepover
.Iguessallt
hekidswi
llbeher
e.It
’s
si
msol destMelusi
.
“heyboy,howwasschool
?”Itur
nandfacehim.
“where’
syourbr
other
?”hethr
owshimselfonthe
couch.
“schoolwasokayandkat
legoi
sint
heki
tchen
eat
ing”
“okay.”Il
ookathim andwaitf
orhimt otal
kcause
Iknowhewant stot
alkaboutsomething.Melusi
andIarecloseandsometi
mesi tf
eelsli
kehe’smy
fi
rstbor
n.
“uhm Iwantedtoaskyouifyoucoul
dtakemet
o
themall
.”heshyl
ylooksdown.
“ar
ewegoingtobuysomet hi
ngordosomet
hing?”
Il
ookathi
m suspi
ciousl
y.
“there’
safri
endatschoolandtomorr
owit’
sher
bir
thdayandIwantedtoaskyouifyoucantakeus
tothemallandhaveicecream.”Ismi
leandlookat
him.
“I
sshej
ustaf
ri
endoraver
yspeci
alf
ri
end?”
“Thesecondone.Wi
llyout
akeus?”Igi
ggl
e.
“Whydi
dn’
tyouaskyourmom ordad?”
“Becausedadtoldmetost ayawayfr
om gi
rl
sand
youknowhowext ramom canget…”heroll
shis
eyesandIlaugh.“andIaskeduncl
ePercybut
ref
usedtotakeme.Het ol
dmet oaskmyparents
fi
rst
.”andhedeci
dedt
oaskmenothi
spar
ent
s.
Thischi
ld.
“butyoust
il
lhavet
oaskthem causemaybethey
wouldli
ket
otakeyouguystot
hemal l
.What’
sher
name?.”
“Ma?
...
.”
“What ?
.Iwouldliketoknowhernameand
everyt
hingaboutherthatmakesheryourspeci
al
fr
iend.”helaughs,he’
ssocute.
“Wellshewasthefi
rstpersontotal
ktomeatmy
newschoolandIeatlunchwithhermostofthe
ti
meandwi t
hmyf r
iends.She’sfunnyandsmart
too.”
“Boyyoust
il
lhaven’
ttol
dmehername.”
“she’
sBecky.”wit
hthegoodhai
r?Ipressmyli
ps
ti
ghtsohewon’tseet
hatonewanttosmile.
“t
hat
’sapr
ett
yname.Doyouhavehernumber
s?”
“Ido.Ar
eyougoi
ngt
ocal
lher
?.”
“no.Youaregoingtomaskyourmom t
henmaybe
she’
llaskyourdadandmaybeoneoft
hewoul
dlike
toaccompanyyouandiftheyar
ebusyt henI’
m
sureIcansparetwohoursandt
akeyouguysbut
wehavet ogetpermi
ssi
onfir
stf
rom herparent
s.”
“ok.”hesi
ghs.
“Doyouwantmet
otal
ktot
hem?”
“noma.I
’
llcal
ldadf
ir
stt
henaskmom.”
“okboy.Gochangeyourcl ot
hesthenhave
somethingtoeat.“heget
supandki ssesmycheek
andleaves.Ismil
eandlookathim her eal
lyhas
grown.Ican’twaitf
ormyboystobet hi
sgr own.
Iwearmysl eepersandgotothekit
chen.Kat
legois
nolongerther e,
Iguesshe’schangi
ngintheroom
theysl
eepi n.Itakemyphoneandcal lmbuso.The
phoneringsandhepi cksup.
“Love,
.Ar
eyouokay?”
“I
’
m okay.Ar
eyouokayt
hough?”hesi
ghs
“I
’
llt
ellyouabouti
tlat
er.Howar
etheki
ds?”
“theyar
esl
eepi
ng.Si
bonel
owascrankyl
astnight
.
Heknowsyou’
renothomeandIt
hinkhemisses
you.”
“I’
m gladsomeonemi
ssesme.Imi
ssmyt
heboys
too.”Igi
ggle.
“Imi
ssyout
oobooyouknowt
hat
..Whenar
eyou
comi
nghomembuso?”
“uzongibhebhi
sayin?(ar
eyougoi
ngt
oletme
fuckyou?)”Il
augh
“behavembusoandyesIwi
lll
etyouf
uckmeseven
waystoSunday.”
“whenIcomebackmakesur
eit
’sj
ustt
het
woofus
i
nthehouse.”
“Iwil
ldot
hat.Areyougett
ingsomewher
ewi
tht
he
sear
ch?”hesighsexhaust
ed.
“Notli
kehowIexpect
edbaby.Iwi
llexpl
ainswhenI
gethome.”
“okbabybesaf
e.Il
oveyou.”
“ut
handwayi
m wena.(Il
oveyou)”t
henhehangs
up.
“Si
sidoyouneedanything?”sisnont
ocomesin
andcar
ryingsbonel
o.Iswearthi
schil
dsl
eepsonl
y
anhourthenhewakesup.
“He’
salr
eadyawake?”It
akehimfr
om her
eand
gi
vehim ki
ssesar
oundhi
sface.
“Wher
eishi
snanny?”
“shewasput t
ingt het oysbacki nthei
rpl ayroom.I
wasput t
inghi
scl othesi nhisclosetwhenIsawhi m
wakingupandIdeci dedt otakehim bef orehe
wakeshisbrot
herup”wel augh.Mykidsl ove
sl
eepingonthesamebed.Wesepar at
edt hem and
madeeachonesl eepi nthereownbedt hatischil
d
proofbutmyboysdi dn’twanttohavet hat.They
cri
edsomucht hatwedeci dedtomaket hem sl
eep
onthesamebedandt hat’
showt heylikeandpr ef
er
i
t.Theyfaceeachot herthensleep.
Ioncefoundmbusoi nt hei
rroom l at
eatnightand
hewaswat chingthem.Iwat chedhi m wat
ching
them andIsawt earsfalli
ngdown.Iknewt hathe
wasthinki
ngabouthi sbr other.Ilookatmysonand
smil
e.Noonewi l
ltakemyki dsf r
om meandI ’
l
lkil
l
anyonewhodar est otry.Thenannycomest otake
sbonelobutIshakemyhead.Shegi vesmehi s
bott
leandleaves.
“Hell
o….Ohhe’sawake.Whyam Inotsur
pri
sed?”
si
mssaystaki
nghi mfr
om myarms“ohyou’reso
handsomear
en’tyou?”
“Heyluh?”l
esegosaysgi
vingmeahugandshe
si
tsdown.
“Damngir
lyoul
ookt
ir
ed.Whatwer
eyoudoi
ng?”I
askher
.
“t
heywer
ehavi
ngsex.Si
cel
ocamebackf
rom wor
k
j
ustt
ogetsomeboot
y.”Si
mssay.
“mindyourlanguageSi
ms.You’
l
lmakemysongo
deaf”welaugh.
“wher
ear
etheot
her
s?”Si
msasks
“theyar
esomewherear
oundthehouseandwher
e
areyour
s?”l
esegoandSimskidsal
lgotot
hesame
school
.
“Sicel
otookthem f
oricecr
eam buthe’
sgoi
ngt
o
dropthem of
f.”Il
augh.
“Ist
il
lcan’
tbel
ievemybrotherwant
edt
otakekamo
toanallgi
rl
sschool
.”welaugh.
“Want
ed?Huhhesai
dnextyearshe’
sgoi
ngt
her
e.
Yourbr
otheri
ssomet
hingel
sel
uh.”
“Somet
hingyoul
ove”shebl
ushesandwel
augh.
“Okayoutwi
thi
t.What
’sgoi
ngon?
.”IaskSi
ms.
“canwegosomewher
epr
ivat
e?”
“ohthi
sisgoingt
obegood..Where’
sthewi
ne?”
l
esegosaysandshehar
dlydri
nks.Webothl
ookat
herwor
ried.
“Ar
eyouokay?”Iaskher
.
“Myfamily,wel
l.Myyoungersi
stersentmeansms
andaskedifshecoul
dvisi
tmef orthehol
idays.”
“What
?Whatdi
dyousay?”sheshakesher
“IsaidnothenIt
oldyourbr
otherandhesai
dyes
becausehewantsthem t
oseehowmyl if
ehas
changedandhowhappyourkidsare.”
“Andyoudon’
twantt
hatwhi
chi
sunder
standabl
e.”
“Idon’
tguyscauseyouknowwhattheyoutme
thr
oughduri
ngthenegot
iati
onsandnowImust
all
owoneofthem t
ocomei ntomyhomethatIl
ove
somuch.Whatifshe’
splanni
ngtodosomethi
ng
guys?
.”
“heyit
’sokay.Maybesi
cel
ohasar
easonwhyshe
wantsthem t
ocome.”Itel
lher
.
“yousai
dthem l
uh?”Si
mssays
“don’tt
ellmethatyou’r
eexpecti
nghertocome
alonecauseIdoubtitandyouhavetoprepar
efor
thatbutdon’
tworrywewi l
lbetheret
oo.”she
smi l
es.
“youguysar
ereal
lythebest
.Somet
imesIwishI
hadtheki
ndofrel
ati
onshi
pIhavewi
thyou,
wi t
hmy
si
ster
s.”
“wellyoucanhavei
sasyoursi
ster
sforaslongas
youwant.”shesmil
es.Wegotombus'soff
iceand
si
tthere.
“whati
ftheyarewat
chingusr
ightnow.”l
essgo
saysl
ookingar
oundtheroom.
“don’
tworr
ytherearenocamer
asher
esowecan
tal
kfr
eel
y.”sbonel
ocriesf
ormeandItakehi
m.
“Ihadpromi
sedmysel
fthatI
’
m notgoingt
oshar
e
thi
swit
hyouguysbutuhmmm don’tj
udgemeneh?
”
“Thi
ssoundsser
iousandyouknowyoucant el
lus
anyt
hingSi
ms.Wewon’tjudgeyou.
”It
ellher
.
“welli
tisser i
ousIthi
nk.Sobef
orembusoandsbu
l
eftwit
hf atherinl
awuhm….Weki ndadid
something.”
“di
dsomet
hingwi
thwhom?”Iaskher
“Me,
bongaandsbu.”huh?
“andwhatdi
dyoudoexact
ly?”l
esegoasksher
.
Si
msblushesandl
ooksdownandIlaugh.
“you?Si
ms?Blush?Whathappenedbet
weent
he
thr
eeofyou?”welaughather
.
“soal
ltheguyswereatourhousediscussing
somet
hingIguess,
Idon’tknowthentheyleftone
byoneunti
litwasj
ustbongaandsbu….”
“WaitletmetakesbonelotohisnannyandI ’
llcome
backwi t
hwine.”Igetupandmeett hemanyi nt he
corr
idorandIgivehim sbonel
oandhedoesn’ tcry.I
grabtwobottl
esofwi neandglassesthem hurryup
tomyhusband’soffice.“OkI’
m back.Conti
nue.”I
pouri
sgl
assest
hensi
tdown.
“Theysati nther
eforl
ikeanhourorso,Ican’t
rememberexact l
ytheti
methenbongacal l
edmet o
hisoffi
ceandIknew…”shet akesadeepbr eath
thenlooksatus.“Iknewthatweweregoingt o
haveat hreesome“Ichokeonmywi neandl esego
spit
sher soutandwelookathershocked.
“Youdi
dwhat
?”webot
haskheratt
hesamet
ime
“bonga,sbuandIhadat
hreesome.
”Shesaysand
dri
nksherwine.
“Wow…t hati
sshockingandhow?”Iaskherand
shebl ushed.Itmusthavebeengoodt hen.Iknow
thatSimsoncehadat hr
eesomewi t
ht heguyshe
wasdat ingandt heyinvi
tedothergi
rltojoi
nthem.
Andt henextdayshecoul dn’
tstopt
alkingabout
whatawonder f
ulexperi
enceshehadandsoI
guessshewant edtodoi tagai
n.
“Idi
dn’
treal
iset
hatbongawasi
ntomentoo.”
l
esegosaysandwelaughather
.Shel
ooksatus
conf
used.
“He’
snoti
ntomenl
esego.Hi
m andbongadi
dn’
t
t
ouchordoanyt
hingt
oeachot
her
.”Si
mssays.
“wel
lhowdi
dthewhol
ethi
nghappenedt
hen?”
“Haveyoueverwat chedporn?”sheshakesher
headno.“youar esoinnocentl
esegothat
’swhy
scel
olovescorrupti
ngyouwi t
hthesexhegivesyou.
”lesegoblushesthengiggl
e.
“somehowi t
’sl
ikeIknewt hatitwasgoi
ngto
happencauseIshavedi nthemor ni
ngandmade
surethatIwascl eanandfresh.Wehadt al
ked
aboutthiswithbongamanyt i
mesandheaskedme
whoIwoul dtoinviteandIsaidsbucauseatthat
ti
mehewast heonl yonesingleevennow.Sowe
satandtalkedaboutwhatmakesmecomf ort
abl
e,
whatdoesn’t.Howf aram Iwill
ingtogoyouknow
al
lthatstuff
.”
“nowedon’
tknowSi
ms.”Isay.
“Thei
rbodi
esnevertouchedoranyt
hingandthey
madesurethatIhadaverywonderf
ulandful
fi
ll
ing
ti
me.”shesayssmili
ng.
“Damngi
rlt
heydi
dfi
llyouupt
hen.”wel
augh
“Weusedcondomsandwhent heotheronetook
mymout h,theotherwouldfuckmeandnowe
didn’
thaveanyanalsex.WhatIwoul dl i
ketosay
thoughisthattheymademescr eam andletmy
bodyshakef r
om theorgasmstheygavemet hat
hadmeweaki nthelegs.
”
“WowSi
ms.Sohowwassbu?”
“l
esego?”Isayandwebur
stoutl
aughi
ng
“what?.LUHIloveyourbrot
herver
ymuchbutwe
al
lcan’ti
gnorethef
actthatsbui
salsoone
gorgeousmanandyoucanseet hathe’
salsoa
beastinbed.I
shepackeddownt her
e?”welaugh
“OhIal waysknewt hatbehindthatgoodgi r
l
personaisonefreakygi r
lli
kethisone.”Simssays
poi
nt i
ngatmeandwel augh..“andt oansweryour
questi
onsyeshei spackedandhei sabeasttoo
l
ikemyman.Guysi twaswonder fulandtheymade
surethati
twasaboutmeonl y.”
“Wow.How am Igoi
ngtolookatsbunowwi
thout
bl
ushi
ng”l
esegothough.
“t
hesamewayIdo.Li
kenot
hinghappened.”Si
ms
says.
“soitwasn’
tawkwar
daf
teryoudi
dthedeed?”I
askher.
“No.Weallknewandunderst
andthati
tisj
ustsex.
Nothi
ngmor eandnot
hingl
ess.Sbulef
twewere
doneandthenmeandmymancont i
nuedunti
lI
passedout
.”
“Idon’
tthi
nkmbusowouldwantt
odot
hatand
al
lowanothermant
otouchme.”
“Idon’
tknowaboutscel
ocauset
hatmani
saf
reak
”
“ohmygodlesegot
hat’
smybrotherandIdon’
t
wantt
oknowaboutyoursexl
if
e?”Isaylaughi
ng
“ohplease.Ihaveyout
woonlytoaskforadvice
aboutsomesexst uf
fsoyou’
l
lhavetobestrong.”
shegulpsherwinedown.
“sowhati
sthepr
obl
em now?
.”IaskSi
ms.
“Ifeelli
kebongahasbeenpul
li
ngawayfrom me.I
don’tknowifIdi
dsomethi
ngthatdayorwhat
.I
don’tknowguys.”
“di
dyouaskhi
m what
’swr
ong?”
“Idi
dandhesaysit
’snot
hing.Justst
ressf
rom t
his
whol
esit
uat
ionwit
hf i
ndi
ngmbuso’ smom.”
“Maybeiti
sthestr
essSimsbutifyoufeell
ikeyou
knowit’
snott
hestresst
hatiscausi
nghim pull
awaythenyouneedtositdownandtal
ktohi m.”
“I’
mt ryi
ngbuthe’
sworki
ngunt
ill
ateandGoshI
don’tknowwhattodo.”
“Startafi
ghtwi t
hhi mthenwhenyouseethathe’
s
real
lymad, takeoffyourcl
othesandar
guenaked.
Whenhet riestotouchyoumakehi mtel
lyouwhat’
s
botheri
nghi m.”shelooksatmel i
keali
ghtbul
bhas
beenswi t
chedon.
“Iwi
llcer
tai
nlydot
hat
.Doesi
twor
konmbuso?”
Si
msasks.
“ever
ytimeandIalwaysendupscr eaminghi
s
nameandagreei
ngt osomet hi
ngsIwasn’t
pl
anningtosobecareful
.”Isaychuckl
ing.
“IthinkIwi
lldothatt
ootoni
ghtsohewi
llagr
eet
o
notletmysistercome.”
“Goodluckcauseyou’
regoi
ngt
oneedi
t.”we
l
augh.
“goodaf
ter
noonmamakamo,
Mom canwet
alk?”
i
t’
smelusi
.Simsget
sup.
“heyboy.Havet
heot
her
sar
ri
vedyet
?.”
“yesmama,uncl
edroppedt
hem of
fandl
eft
.”he
sayst
hent
heyleave.
“Whydi
dn’
thecomesandgr
eetus?”sheasks.
“maybehedidandhear
dust al
kingaboutSi
msand
hert
hreesome.”wel
ookateachotherthenbur
st
outl
aughing.
“l
et’
sgohavesomet
hingt
oeat
.”wegetup.
“thewayyouhavebeeneat
ingl
uhIwouldswear
yourpr
egnant
.”Ist
opwalki
ngandlookather
.
“Iam onbirthcont
roll
esegoandt her
e’snowayi n
hel
lI’
m getti
ngpregnantsosoon.Myki dsaresti
ll
young.Ift
here’
sanyonewhoshoul dbepr egnant
here,
it’
syouandSi ms.”shelaughsatme.
“ohIgotyousogood.Youshoul
dhaveseenthe
l
ookonyourface”Ij
oinherandl
augh.She’
scrazy
andIl
oveher
.
CHAPTER59.

SI
MS.

Talki
ngtoluhmademet hinkthatmaybebonga
pull
ingawayit’
snotbecauseoft hethreesomewe
had.Imeanhewoul dhavet oldmet hemomentsbu
l
eftthathedidn’
tli
kei toritmadehi mfeelacer
tain
way.Icouldbeimagi ngthingsbutIknowmyman
somethingisbotheri
nghi m.I’
ml ostdeepin
thoughtsandIdon’thearhi m comingincauseIfeel
him wrappi
nghisarmsar oundmeandki ssi
ngmy
cheek.
“Whatar
eyouthi
nki
ngabout
?”hekeepspl
ant
ing
ki
ssesar
oundmyneck
“Weneedt
ot al
k.”hemoveshi
shi
psandhe’
sas
har
dasarock.
“Aboutwhat?”Itryt
oturntof
acehim buthestops
me.“don’
tturn.”hesays.Het
akesoffhisshi
rtand
thr
owsi tandhi spantsfoll
owast heyhi tt
hefl
oor
.
Het akesoffhisshoes,grabsmydr essandri
psit
apartandIgasp.Il ookathim andseet his
determineslookonhi sface.Myski nbreaksouti
n
goosebumpsant ici
pati
ngwhat ’
st ocome.Hepul l
s
myunder weardownandIt r
ytotakeof fmybrabut
againhest opsme.
“leaveit
.”HesaysandIdo.“hol dont othecount er
anddon’tletgo.”Hepushesmyl egsapar t.If
eel
hi
shandonmyvagi naandIsi gh.I’m ali
ttlewetso
heplayswi t
hmycl itunti
lI’
mr eady.Hisdi ckison
mywal lthenhethrustsinhardandIbi t
emyl i
pand
cl
osemyeyes.Okayt hi
sisallabouthi m nowandI
havetolettakeoutwhat everfr
ust r
ati
onhe’ sfeel
ing
outonmybody.
Hepushesmychestt olayflatonthecount
erthen
hegripsmybr ati
ghtandi tdigsonmyskinandhe
fucksmehar d.Hi st
hrustsgetf ast
erandharder
knockingairoutofmybody.Hi sskinandhe’s
groansaretheonl ysoundsf il
li
ngourhouse.He
l
et’sgoofmybr aandput shi shandsonmy
shouldersholdingti
ght,fl
exeshi shi
psbendinga
l
itt
lethenhemovesupanddeeperi nmeandf ucks
mehar duntilIfeelhi
sdickgrowinginmeandi t
twit
chesi nsideandIknowhe’ snear.He’
sgoi ngt o
come.Hepl ayswi thmyclitandItrytofightmy
orgasm thenhel ayshischestonmyback, tur
nsmy
headandki ssesmedeepl yandi t
’sli
keitwaswhatI
needed, hi
ski ssandhandonmycl i
t.Myl egsshake
andImoan.Hehi t
smyg-spotandIcl i
max
moani ng.
Hepul lsout ,t
urnsmear oundpi cksmeupandI
wr apmyl egsar oundhiswai standhewal kst othe
l
ivingroom andl aysmeont hecar petandr amsi nt
o
meagai n.Fuck!.Ilookathim andhe’seyesar e
closedlikehe' sfarawayfrom hereevent houghhi s
bodyi sher e.Hebur i
eshisfaceonmyneckand
fucksmehar dandr aw.Bongahasneverf uckedme
l
iket hi
s.Evenwhenhewasr oughithasneverbeen
thisway.Ibr ushhi sbackandl ethim havehisfi
ll
unt i
lhegr oansandcumsi nme.
Welayl
ikethatnotsayinganyt
hing.Hel
ooksatme
andIgi
vehim asmal lsmil
e.HegetsupandIsitup
andwatchhim.Hegoest othekit
chenandIthi
nk
he’sgoi ngtolookf
orwipes.Iwaitandwai tbuthe
doesn’ tcomebackcauseIheart hecarpulli
ngout
oft hedr i
vewayandheleaves.Whatt hehell
?Tears
pricklemyeyessoIgetupandsomeofhi sseed
sli
desdownmyt hi
ghs.Icaref
ull
yrunt othekit
chen,
takemyunder wearandwilemyself.Tearsfal
ldown
myf aceasImakemywayt othebathroom.
Ifil
lther ubwithwat erthenIgetinandwashmy
bodycr yi
ng.Iknownowt hatbongaisnothappy
withmeaboutt het hreesome.Hepr obablyregret
sit
andmaybebl amesmef oragr eei
ng.Isitonthebath
cryingunt i
lmyt earsstop.Igetout ,
washt hetub,
drymysel f
,moisturi
zeandwearmyl eggingsandT-
shirt.Igodownst ai
rspickupmycl othesandtake
them t othelaundryroom.Thencont inuetocook
dinner .Myphonepi ngsandIt akeit
.It’
smelusi.
“Heyboy?”
“Nah,
didyout
alkt
odad?”heasks.
“He’
snothomebaby.Iwi
llcal
lyouwhenhecomes
home.Okay?”
“okayl
oveyou.”
“Iloveyou.”hehangsupandIsi gh.Ilookatt he
ti
meandi t
’salmost7PM.Iwantt ocal lhim butI
don’twanttoal so.IwatchTVandwai tforhim.
Wheni t’
s8:30pm Ir eal
iset
hathe’sgoingt ocome
whenI ’
m alreadyinbed.Iplatehisfoodt henputit
i
nt hemicrowavet henImakemi ne.Eat,switchoff
theli
ghtsandgot omybedr oom.Ibr ushmyt eet
h,
takeoffmycl othes,wearmyni ghtdr
essandgeti n
bedandf allasleep.
Ihearhimf lushi
ngt hetoiletandIopenmyeyes.I
searchformyphonet ol ookatt hetimeandi t’
s
almostmi dnight
.Wher ewashe? .Idon’tknowi fI
shouldpretendtobest illsleepingort al
ktohi m
nowcausehe’ sobviouslyavoi dingmebutI ’
ve
neverbeent hatpersont ojustnott alkaboutt hi
ngs.
Idon’tknowwhat ’seatinghi m andwhyhet r
eated
met hewayhedi dandj ustl ef
tmel ikeI’m hi
ssi de
chickandnothi swife.HecomesoutandIsi tup
andlookathi m.
“whydidn’tyoul
etmeknowthatyou’
regoi
ngtobe
homelate?”hedropshi
stowelandgetsi
nbed.
“Iwaswor
kingandIf
orgotmyphonei
nthecar
.”
“You’
reof
fi
cedoesn’
thaveaphonenow?”
“Iwasbusywor
king.”Isi
gh.
“Whyareyouhurt
ingmebonga?”hel
ooksatme
andshakeshi
shead.
“whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?.”
“whatdoyoumeanwhatam It al
kingabout.The
wayyouleftmet odayaf terfuckingmel iket
hat?,
youjustl
eavemel ikethatont hefl
oorlikeI’
m some
pieceoft
rashandyoudon’ tevenhavet hedecency
totel
lmethatyou’releavingandyou’ r
easkingme
whatam Ital
kingabout ?.”
“Irecei
vedanemergencycal
landIhadt
oleave.”
hesaysli
keit
’snotabi
gdeal.
“doIl ooklikeafooltoyoubonga?.Howdar eyou
l
iel i
kethattomyf ace.WhatdidIdotogetthiscol
d
treatmentfrom you?Whatareyoupuni shi
ngme
forsoIcanapol ogizecauseIcan’
ttakethi
s
treatment?.Tel
lme? !
.”
“Ihadalongdayatwor
k,I’
mti
redandIj
ustwantt
o
sl
eep.Canyouletmesl
eep?”
“nowear
egoi
ngt
otal
kaboutt
hisnow!
.”
“I’
m notgoi
ngtotal
ktoyourightnowwhenyou’
re
busyshouti
ngatme.I’
m yourhusbandsi
mphiwe
rememberthat
.”
“t
henactli
kemyhusbandandtel
lmewhatis
wrong?Whyar
eyoupull
ingawayfrom me?”
“Fuckt
hisshi
t!I
’m goi
ngt
osleepi
ntheboysr
oom!
.
”hesaysgett
ingupandIbur
stoutcr
ying.
“Runawayl
ikeyoual
waysdowhenIt
ryt
otal
kto
you.”
“Si
msl
eti
tgo.”hesayswar
ningme.
“thereasonyourpulli
ngawayf r
om meandtr
eati
ng
mel i
ketrashisbecauseyoublamemeforagreei
ng
tothethreesomeright
?Isthati
t?.”
“what?Idon’
thavef
ort
hisshi
t!”hewal
kst
othe
door
.
“Pleasedon’tgo.Bonga?
...Bonga?.”heleavesand
bangsthedoorbehindhim.MaybeIshoul dn’
thave
pushedhim.MaybeIshoul dhavejustletitgoand
methimt al
kt omewhenhe’ sready.Il
etfewt ear
s
stream downthecalm myself.Isleepthi
nki
ng
abouthowIr egretagreei
ngtothisdamnst upi
d
threesomebullshi
tcauseitwasj ustsexand
nothingmore.Idon’tgethowcanhebeupsetwi t
h
mewhenhewasenj oyingthemomentasmuchasI
did.
It’
sSaturdaymorningandIevenforgott
oask
bongaaboutmel usi'
sdat
e.Igothroughmyphone
thencallthenumbermelusigaveme.Thephone
ri
ngsandawomananswer s.
“hel
lo?
.”
“hicanIpl
easespeakt
oMr
sDavi
s?”
“Thi
sisherspeaki
ng.”
“hi,
mynamei sSimphiweGumedeandI ’
m cal
li
ng
onbehalfofmysonMel usiwhogoest
oschoolwit
h
yourdaughterBecky?
.”
“Ohyes.Shet
oldmeabouthi
m andt
hathi
smom
wil
lcal
l.”
“yes.SoIdon’
tknowifshesaidanyt
hingmorebut
mysonwant edtoaskyou,herpar
ent
si fi
t’
sokayt
o
takeheroutonanicecr
eam dat
esi
ncesheis
celebr
ati
ngherbi
rt
hdaywit
hanadultsuper
visi
onof
course.”
“Shedi dsayandwetal
kedwit
hherdadandwe
agreed.Youcancomeandpickherupat2pm.Iwi
ll
sendyououraddress.”
“okay.ThankyouMr
sDavi
s.”
“mypleasurebutcanyoupl
easebr
ingyourI
Djust
tobesafeyouknow.”what?
“It’
sokayIunder stand.”Ihangup.Isendl uha
messageandaskhert otellmel usitogetr eadyf or
hi
sdat ethensendhi m amessaget hatI ’
l
lpickhi m
up.Hesendsmel oveemoj isandIl augh.Igetup,
makemybedt henshower .Af terI’
m doneIgodown
stairstomakemysel fbreakf astandIf indbonga
drinkinghi sbot t
ledwat er.Ist opandt hinkofgoi ng
backorgot oluh’shouse.Ipasshi m andopent he
fr
idgeandt akeat hingsoutt opr eparebreakfast
andIdon’ tknowi fhe’sgoingt oeatornot .Ifhe
doesn’ teatI ’
l
ljustputi tintheovenandi fhedoes
wel li
t’sgood.Ideci dedtomakeameanomel et
te
andthankstol
uhandYouTubemycooki nghas
got
tenreal
lybet
terandImustsayIcancooknow.
Wellnotasgoodasher.
“mor ni
ng.”hesays,getsupandl eaves.Whati
s
goingonwithmymar r
iage?
.Ifeelsoemot i
onal
ri
ghtnowandIj ustwantmymom.It akemyphone
andcallher.
“Hel
lobaby”
“Howar
eyoumom?
.”
“I
’
m goodbaby.What
’swr
ong?”
“Ij
ustmissyouthat’
sall
.I’
mthi
nki
ngofcoming
hometoseeyou.It
’sbeenawhil
eandImissyou.”
“Thatwoul
dbelovel
y.Wemissyout
ooandt
he
boys.Whenwi
llyoubecomi
ng?.”
“Nextweekendma.
.”
“wi
llyoubecomi
ngwi
thumkhwenyana?(soni
n-
l
aw?)”
“Noma.He’
sver
ybusywi
thwor
khewon’
tbe
comi
ng.”
“oksi
si.Sayhel
lot
oyourhusbandandgr
andki
ds.”
“Okma.I
’
llseeyounextweekBye.”Ihangupand
si
gh.
“Whereareyougoi
ng?
.”Ial
mostcutmysel
fwi
tha
kni
fecausehescar
edme.
“home.”
“Why?”
“Imissmyf
ami
ly.”Icont
inuenotchopnotl
ooki
ng
athi
m.
“okI
’
m goi
ngt
owor
k.I
’
llseeyoul
ater
.”
“Canwepl
easet
alkbef
oreyoul
eavebonga?”
“I
’
mlat
e,wel
ltal
kwhenIcomeback.”
“Ok.”Isayandheleavesj
ustl
ikethat
.WhatdidI
dowronghere?Cansomeonetellmepleasecause
heref
usestotel
lme.
Ifi
nishmakingbreakf
ast
,eatandchangemy
cl
othesthendri
vetoluh'
shouse.Isiti
nthecarf
or
awhi l
eandjustt
hinkhowmymar r
iageri
ghtnowis
notokay.Idon’
tknowwhattodocausehewon’ t
tal
ktome.Ihearaknockont hewindowandi t
’sl
uh.
Shehassbonelo.Iswearthi
schi
ldisreal
lyl
ikehi
s
fat
hercausehealwayswantstobewi t
hhismom
j
ustli
kembuso.Iunlockthedoorandtheygetin.
“Heymybaby. .Heysis.”Ikidshi schubbycheeks
andhelaughs.“Ohwear esmi l
ingtodayandnot
scowli
ngli
kedadddyhuh? .Didyoumi ssme? .”he
cont
inuetolaughasIt i
ckl
ehi mt hehewantshi s
mama.YeahI ’m notsur
prised.
“Heysi
s,ar
eyouokay?”l
uhasks.
“NoI ’
m not.We’ r
ef i
ghti
ngwithbongaandIdon’ t
knowwhat ’
swr ongl uh..Yester
dayIwantedt ot
alk
tohi
m buthecamehomeal mostatmi dni
ghtand
whenIaskedhi mi fwecant alkher ef
usedandsaid
he’
st i
redhehadal ongdayatwor k.Helef
tour
bedroom andsl eptinoneoftheboysr oom andthi
s
morninghej ustleft.
”IwanttocrybutIdon’twant
toupsetsbonelo.
“thati
ssounli
kehim.Maybehe’
sreall
yti
red.
Remembertheyarebusywit
houroff
icessomaybe
that
’swhyhe’
sbeingdist
ant
.”
“Iwishhewouldjusttal
kt omeyouknow.Openup
soIcanknowhowhe’ sf eel
ingandifIcanhelphi
m
wit
hanythingormaybegi vehimthespacehe
needs.It
hinkI’
m goi
ngt odothat.I
’
mt ir
edof
aski
nghimi fwecantalkwhenhecl earl
yref
usesto
dothat.”
“Nosi msbongal ovesyouandhe’syourhusband.
Heneedsyounowmor ethanever.Maybet histhing
withhismom i sclearl
yhurti
nghim mor ethanwe
thoughtandyouknowsomemenf i
ndithardt o
openupandt alkaboutwhatishurtingthem and
clear
lybongai soneoft hem.LookImadebr eakfast
andthere’
smor eleft
.Whydon’tyoucomei nand
wepackever ythingniceinsi
deapi cni
cbaskett hen
youtakeitt
ohi sof fi
ce.Don’
tfor
cehi mt otal
k.Just
havebreakfastthencomeback.”
“yeahmaybewhenwear ei
nanenvi ronment
outsi
deourhomewewoul dbeabl etotal
kandnot
fi
ghtIguess.Imeanyou’
reri
ghtthathe’sworki
ng
onouroffi
cescauseit
’sSat
urday.Itdoesmake
sensethathewouldcomehomel ateandtir
ed.”
“come.”wegetoutoft
hecarandl
uhhel
psme
packthescr
umpti
ousbr
eakfastshemade.Aft
erwe
aredoneshehel
psmecarr
yt hebaskett
othecar
.
“t
hankyousi
s.”Ihugher
.
“Rememberit
’sbr
eakf
ast.Don’
ttal
kaboutwhati
s
st
ressi
ngyouorhi
m.Afteryou’
redonecomeback.
”
“I’
lldot
hat.OhbeforeIforgetIcalledBecky’smom
MrsDavis.Shesaidwecanpi ckupBeckyat2pm.I f
I’
m notbackbythencanyoudr ivethem t
ot hei
r
dateandbet hei
rchaperone?I’l
lsendyout heher
homeaddr essandohpl easetakesomeI Dwi thyou
causeapparentl
yshewant stoknowwhowear e.I
n
casewekidnapherchild.”webot hlaugh
“t
hat
’snotf
unnysi
ms.”Isendhertheaddr
ess.
“Gof
eedyourmansis.”shesays.
“I’
llseeyouwhenIgetback.”Igetinthecar,
dri
ve
outandst r
aightt
omyhusbandsof f
ice.WhenIget
thereIseehiscarpar
kedandIsmile.He’sgoi
ngto
besosur pri
sed.It
akethepi
cni
cbasketandoneof
thesecuri
tyguardshel
psmecar r
yit.
“Mr
sGumedehowar
eyou?”
“I’
m goodMrbulo.MrNal a.”meNal anodsand
theycarr
ythebasketunti
ltherecepti
onandit
’s
empty.Iguesshe’
swor ki
ngalone.“Thankyou”
theynodandleave.Iknockoncet henopenhi
sdoor
“honeyIknow…”Ist opcausethere’snoonei nthe
off
icebuthowcausehi scarisparkedoutside?.I
putthebasketonthetabl
ethengoandopent he
doorconnecti
ngtohisbathroom andit’
salsoempt y.
Wher ei
smyhusband? .
Icomeoutandsi tonhischair.Itrytodosomet hi
ng
forhim buthe’
snotatwor kormaybehet ookthe
companycarandwentt ot hesite,yeshedi d.Iseea
papersticki
ngoutunder neaththebasketIpl aced
onhistable.Ipul
litoutandopeni tandIseea
addressandt i
meandnumber .Itakemyphoneand
typetheaddressandi t
’sahot el.Hecameher efir
st,
parkedhiscarthenleftforthehot el.
?Icouldcall
him andaskhim wher ehei sandhearwhathe
wouldsaybutno.Letmenotdot hat.Ileavethe
basketthereandleavehi soff
ice.Idon’tsay
anythi
ngandIgeti nmycar .Iputt headdresson
myGPSanddr i
vetothehot el.Thisplacelooks
dodgy.Iwal
ktot
her
ecept
ion.
“Hi
,I
’m her
etomeetsomeoneonr oom 204andI
waswonderi
ngiftheyhavear
ri
ved?.”hesmil
esat
meandIsmi l
eback.
“uhletmecheck…” Ihearhi
skeyboardcl
icki
ng
thenhelooksup.“yestheydid.Youcangoahead
fourt
hfl
oor.”hesays.
“Thankyou.”Igi vehim mybestsmi lebutinside
myhear tisbeati
ngsof astitfeelsli
keitisgoingto
explodeatanymoment .Igetint heelevat
orand
takeadeepbr eath.Thi
shot ellookscheapl i
kei t
’s
somet hi
ngIwoul dneverexceptt ofindbongai n.I
mi ghtbewrongcausemaybehe’ snother ebutI
havet oknowifmyhusbandi smeet ingsomeone.I f
he’scheati
ngonme.
Igetoutoftheelevatorandlookatt hedoor
numbers.Iwal kunt
ilIfi
ndther oom numberI ’
m
l
ookingfor.Iputmyheadont hedoort ohearifI
canhearanythingandIdon’ tcausei tsoundslike
theTVisplaying.Il
ightl
yknockwi t
hmyheadst i
ll
onthedoorbutIdon’ thearanyf ootstepsjustthetv
only.Itakeaver ydeepbr eathcausemybodyi s
shakingbadl y.It
rymyl uckandopenmydoorand
i
t’sunlocked.Fuckme.Whogoesst oahot eland
notlockt heirdoor?.Acockymot herfuckerdoes
that.Ipusht hedooropenandgeti n.Thefirstdoor
thatIseeopenedi sthebat hroom.Iwal kinandI
seeaTVf acingmepl ayi ng.Thedoorl eadi
ngt othat
room isopened.Icont inuet owalkandseeabed.A
womanandamanont hebed.Thewomani sontop
ofthemanandshe’ sf ucki nghisbrainsoffandhe’s
enjoyingcausehi shandsar eli
kehol di
ngherass
andhe’ shel pingherfuckhi m.
Hisgroansarethesameoneshemakeswhenhe
fucksme.Thosel egs,armsandhandsal lbel
ongto
mycheat i
nghusband.Myhear tbr eaksi ntopieces
asIseethem togetherenjoyingeachot her.Iburst
outcryi
ngandbongal ooksup, seesmeandhe
pushesthegirloffofhim andthegi rlscreams
causeshef al
lstothefloor.
“OhmyGodbaby? !.Icanexpl
ainmywi
fe!Ohmy
God!”hesaysget
ti
ngupandcomest owardme.
“don’
tyoudar
ecomenearme!
.”Hest
ops.“why
didn’
tyoutel
lmeyouwantedanopenmar r
iage
thantocheatonme?.”t
earsst
ream downmyf ace
“I
’
m sor
rybaby.I
’
mreal
lysor
ry.”
“Howlonghaveyoubeencheat
ingonme?”Iask
hi
m andhelooksdownshaki
nghishead.
“6mont
hs.Il
ovehi
m andhel
ovesme.”
“Shutupbit
ch!
.Babyl
et’
sgohomeandt
alk”he
sayswear
inghi
sclot
hes.
“nowyouwantt
otal
k?”Iaskhi
m.
“simphiwel
et’
sgohomepl
easebabyI
’
m beggi
ng
you!.”
“Ihopeshewaswor thi
t.Ihopeshewaswor thour
marriage.”Iwalkoutandl eavetheroom.Idon’ t
knowhowIwal kedoutoft hehoteltomycarand
str
aighttomyhouse.Mywhol ebodyf eelsheavy
l
ikeI’
m goingtof all
atanymoment .Iparkmycari n
thegaragethensl owlywalktothekitchenandas
soonasIcl osethedoorIf al
ldownandf allapar
t.
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MS.

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Edi
ted

I’
m st i
llont hef loorcr yingmyeyesoutf orthisman
thatIl ovewho’ smyhusbandandmyever ythi
ng.I
thoughtmymar riagewasst r
ong, thatnoonecan
comebet weenmeandmyhusband.It houghtour
l
oveandt rustf oreachot herwasenoughf orbothof
us.Cl earlyIwaswr ongcauseever ythi
ngIt hought
wasgoi ngonwi thhi m wasbecauseofhi smom
andever ythingbuti twasn’ t
.Hewashavi ngan
affairwi t
hsomeonef orthewhole6mont hs.He
wasmaki ngl ovet oherwhi l
eIgotf uckedlikeIwas
api eceoft rash.Iwi l
lneverforgett hepictureof
them t ogetherl iket hat.Bongabr okeme, he
dest r
oyedever ythingIbel i
evein.Myhopesand
dreams.Myt rustf orhim andourmar ri
age.Myal l
andever ythingIhaveevergi vent hismanwasn’ t
enoughcausehesawf i
ttogiveandseekcomf orti
n
thear msofanot herwoman.
Iwi pemyt earst hengetupandgot omybedr oom.I
takemyphonet hensendl uhamessaget hatt he
breakf astpicnicwentgr eatwi t
hbongaandI ’
llsee
hert omor row.It akeof fmycl othes,wearmyswi m
suitt hengodownst airst othebasement ,opent he
cellarandt aket hewi nebot tl
est henleave.Iheara
carpul lingupandIl ookout sidet hewindowandi t
’s
him.It ur nandgoout sidethebackyar dput
ever ythi ngont het ablet henj umpi nthepool .Ilet
thewat ercaressmybodyasIswi mlap,afterlap
afterl apunt ilIfeel exhaust ed.Idr agmyt ir
edbody
outoft hewat erandseehi m sit
tingtherewat ching
me.Ii gnor ehim dr ymysel f,opent hebottleofwi ne,
pouri tanddr i
nk.Igul pdownt hreeglassest hen
l
eave.Ihavet owasht hechl ori
neof fmyski n.
Decidingnottohaveahousekeeperwast hebest
decisionIhaveevermadecauser ightnowt hey
woul dknowthatsomet hi
ngisgoingonbet weenme
andmyhusband.I ti
sjustthetwoofusi nthe
house.Theki dsar
enother etoseewhati sgoingon
andbySundaywhent heycomebackI ’
llmakesur e
thatIhaveputmyselfbackt oget
heragain.Idon’t
wantanyonet oknowwhati sgoinginmymar riage
causeeveryonewillbeupi nmybusi nessandIal so
don’
twantt hi
stoaf fecttheother
smar r
iages.
I
guessthat’
sgojngt obemyl i
feri
ghtnow.
Pret
endingthateverythingisokayinourmar r
iage.
Istandi nf rontoft hemi rr
orandl ookatmysel f
taki
ngof ftheswi msuit.Whati swr ongwi thmet hat
mademyhusbandcheatonme? .Wasi tbecause
I’
m notski nny? ,
mor ebeaut ifulenough?Not
spont aneouscauseIt houghtIwas.It houghtbei ng
openwi thoursexl if
ehewoul dresistthe
tempt ati
ont ocheatbecausehei sget ting
everythingf rom mebutobvi ouslyIwaswr ongand
notspont aneousenough.JustwhenIt hinkIhave
everythingIhaveeverwant edt henboom i tall
blowsupi nmyf ace.Myl if
ei snotasper f ectasI
thought .Iwi shthesest upidt earswoul dst opfall
ing
andIwoul dst opfeeli
ngt hewayI ’mf eeli
ng.My
hearthur tssobadandi tf
eelsl i
kemyl i
fei sover
andi thasended.Godgi vemest rengt h.Iseehi s
refl
ect i
oni nt hemi rr
orandoureyesl ock.Il ook
away
“Ther
e’snot
hingwrongwit
hyou.Youar
e
absol
utel
yperf
ecti
neveryway.
”He’samindr
eader
now?.
“wasn’ tIenoughf oryou?”hesighsandwal ksin
andst andsbehi ndme.He’ sbig,
tall
erandstronger
thanme.Iusedt oloveitwhenhewoul dstand
behind, pullmecl osertohischestthenturnmy
headandki ssmesensel ess.ButnowIhat ehim
standingbehi ndmel i
kethat.IhatethatIwantto
fallapartandl ethim comfortmeknowi ngver ywell
thathe’st her easonI ’
mf eeli
ngthisway.
“You’vealwaysbeenenoughf orme.You’
re
ever
ythingtomesi mphiweIknowIhurtyoubuti
t
wasnevermyi ntenti
on.”
“whydi
dyoudoi
tthen?”
“BecauseIwassel
fi
shandIwasn’
tthinki
ngabout
howitisgoi
ngtodest
roymyfami
ly.”Ishakemy
head.
“Youmeanyoudi dn’
tthi
nkIwasgoi
ngtofi
ndout
right
?.I
fluhdi
dn’t….YouknowwhatI’
m done
talki
ngaboutt
his.Forthewhol
e6monthsyou’ve
beenhavinganr el
ati
onshi
pwithanotherwoman.
Anaf f
airandwhileIwasherewait
ingforyou,
beggingyoutotalktomebutyouwer en’tinter
ested
causeyouwant edtobesomewher eelseawayf r
om
me!.Youfuckedmel i
keIwasapieceoft rash!.Do
youknowhowhowdi r
tyyoumademef eel?.”
“Babyno!
.Pl
ease….”
“baby?Isthatwhatyoucal
ledhertoo?.Babywhen
youmadel ovetoher?Godthesoundsyoumade….
Youwer eenjoyi
ngher!
.Yougaveherthepleasur
e
youfai
ledtogiveme!Wasn’tIenoughforbonga?
Tel
lme!.”
“youareever
ythi
ngtome.Youandourboysar e
ever
ythi
ngtomebaby.IwishIcouldtakeback
ever
ythi
ngwr6ingIdi
dtoyou.IwishIdidn’
tcheat
onyoubaby.”
“shoul
dIbewor
ri
edaboutSTDsandHI
V?”
“whatno!.Icoul
dneverputyourl
if
eindangerl
ike
that
.Iusedacondom everyti
me.”
“Andt
hati
ssupposet
omakemef
eelbet
terr
ight
?.
”
“No.”hesi ghsandsitsdowni nthetoi
letseatand
covershisface.“Iam soashamedf orwhatIdi dto
you.Iam soashamedt hatIt
reatedyousobadand
madeyout hinkthatmybehavi ourwasyourf aul
t
wheni twasn’t
.”
“di
dIpushyout
ocheatbonga?”
“Pleasest
opsayingt hi
s.Iam t heonewho’sinthe
wronghereandnott oo.Youl oveme,yousuppor t
me.Youaret hebestthingthathaseverhappened
tomeandIt ookyouf orgranted.Youdoeverythi
ng
tomakemehappybabyandIf uckedital
lup.”
“Ithoughtwewer eonthesamepage.Noone
cheats.I
fyoufeelli
keyouwanttodosomet hi
ng,
wet al
kaboutitandagreel
ikehowwedi dwiththe
thr
eesome.Didyouagr eet
ot hethr
eesomecause
youwant edt
oeaseyourgui l
tyconsci
ence?
.Isthat
i
t?”
“NobabyIdi dn’
taskyoubecauseIwasfeel
ing
gui
lt
y.Webot hagreedcausei
t’
swhatwebot h
wanted.Idon’tr
egr
etwhatwesharedtoget
herwith
hi
m.Babywhatyougavemewhenyouagr eedto
thethreesomei ssomethingbothatIwi l
lnever
forget.Youwer econcentrati
ngonmet hewhole
entir
et i
me.Ienj oyedwatchinghimf uckedyouand
youwat chi
ngme.Her espectedyouandt reat
edyou
l
iket hebeautifulwomanyouar e.”hegetsup,
comest owardsmeandhi sfronttouchesmyback.I
takeadeepbr eath.
“yesweagr eedont hat,whatIdi dn’tagreeonwas
youfucki nganot herwoman.Wedon’ thaveanopen
mar r
iageandweneverwi ll
.Youhur tmei nwaysI
nevert houghtwer epossi bl
eandIhat eyour ight
now.Ihat elookingatyou, Ihatet hatyou’re
standingbehi ndmest i
llsmellingl i
kethatpieceof
tr
ashyouf ucked.Ihatethatyoumademequest ion
mysel fwor thbutwhatIhat ethemosti sthatyou
didn’
tjusthur tme.Youhur ttheboyst oo.Tellme
howar ewegoi ngtoexplainallthistot hem?”
“t
heydon’
thavetoknowbaby.Justt
ellmewhatt
o
dosoIcanfi
xthi
s.”
“Idi
dn’
tsendyououttocheatsowhymustItell
youhowtofixwhatyoubr
oke?.Youf
ixthiswhol
e
messyoucreat
ed…..”It
akeadeepbreath.“t
he
boysawr ecomi ngbackonSundayandyouar e
ri
ght.Idon’twantt odisappointmyki dsonanother
fai
ledr el
ati
onshipbecausef ort hefir
stt
imeina
l
ongt imetheyhaveever yt
hingt heyhaveever
want ed.Adadwhol ovesthem uncondi ti
onal
ly
who’sal waysthereforthem.Wear eafamil
yandI
don’twantt otakethatawayf rom them.Theyar e
deser vetohaveahappyandl ovinghomebutI’m
nothappynowbonga.”Isni ff.
“Justgivemeachancet of i
xourmar riageandI
promiseI’
llmakeeveryt
hingbetterbetweenus.Just
don’
ttellmeyouwantust oseparatecausethatwil
l
ki
llmebabypl ease….”Itakeast epawayf r
om him.
“Myf amilydi
dn’
tal
lowyout
omarrymesoyoucan
l
ie,cheatonmeandbreakmyhear
tbonga.Idi
dn’
t
signupforthi
s.”
“You’r
emywi f
esimphi weineverywayandIdon’t
wanttolosemyf amilytoo.Idon’
twantt heboyst
o
knowcauset hatisgoingtohurtthem andtheyar
e
goingtobeverydisappointedi
nme.Iwi l
lmakeal
l
ofthi
srightbetweenusIpr omiseyou.”
“youaregoingtobesl eepi
ngi nthecouchhere
causeIdon’twanttheboyst oknoworeven
suspectanythi
ngiswr ongbetweenus.Idon’twant
anyonetoknowt hatyoucheat edonmebecauseI
don’
twantluhandl essgot othinkthatmaybe
mouseandscel omi ghtcheatont hem t
oo.Iwant
youtogivemespaceanddealwi thever
ythi
ng.”
“Youcantakeal
lthet
imeyouneedandIwil
lgai
n
yourt
rustandpr
ovemyloyal
tyandl
ovetoyou.”
“I
’
vehear
dthatbef
ore.”
“Baby….”
“wasshetheonl
yoneyoucheat
edonmewi
thf
or6
months?”hesi
ghs.
“She’
stheonl
yoneandshe’
slyi
ng.I
t’
snot6
months.”
“Ohr
eal
ly?Whywoul
dshel
ieaboutt
hat
?”
“Shehasbeenmycli
entfor6monthsonlyandwe…
Isl
eptwi
thheronl
yfourt
imes.That
’sal
l.”
“youwanttof
ixt
hingsbet
weenusbutyou’
re
al
readyl
yingt
omeabouther?”
“I
’
m notl
yingbabyIswear
.”
“Howdi
dshebecomeyourcl
ient
?”
“shecametomyofficebecauseshewant
edmeto
makeherahouseplan.Theyboughtl
andsot
hey
arepl
anni
ngtobui
ldtheirhome.”
“She’
smar
ri
ed?”
“Shei
smar
ri
ed.”hmmm
“youhavepeoplewhowor kforyou,
sowhywoul
d
shepersonal
lywantyoutomakeherahousepl
an
causeyoudon’tt
hatanymore?”
“Ithinkmaybebecauseherhusbandi
sapol
it
ici
an
that’
swhy.”
“Who’
sherhusband?”
“VukaniBut
hel
ezi
.”
“t
hemini
steroff
inance?Youf
uckedhi
swi
fe?Oh
myGodbonga?”
“Whati
fhef
indsout
?”
“Idon’tcar
eaboutt
hem.Sher
uinedhermar
ri
age
Justl
ikeIruinedmi
ne.”
“youar egoingtodropherasacl i
ent
.Idon’ twant
heranywher enearthecompany.I fIf
indoutt hat
youar etalki
ngtoheragainorlyingtoprotecther
andkeepi ngotherl
iesconcerni
ngheroranyone
elsethatyouwer echeatedonmewi th?.Youwi l
l
regretthedayyoudecidedtocr ossme.I ’
m notone
tobemessedwi thbongacauseIdon’ tj
ustgetmad
Igeteven.Ileavehimtherelookingatmeshocked.
Igetinthebat hroom andt akemyt imeandshower .
IcomeoutwhenI ’m doneandf i
ndhi m sitt
ingon
thebedwi t
hhisheadi nhi sshoulderandIf eel
i
rrit
atedthathei sstil
lhere.Imoisturi
zemybody
thenlookf orsomet hi
ngtowearcauseIhave
somet hi
ngIhavet obeat.Iwearmymat chingbra
andunder weart henlookf ormyjeansandT- shi
rt
,
doal it
tl
emakeupt henwearmycur lyweave.Even
thoughIf eell
ikeshitinsi
debuti ntheout si
deIlook
damnhot .Ihavedonet hi
sbef oreandIcandoi t
again.Pretendtobef i
newhi l
eI’
m not .I
t’
snot
somet hi
ngknew.
“Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?”
“Awayf
rom you.”Il
ookf
ormyhandbagt
hen
r
ememberIl
efti
tint
hecar
.
“whatdi
dyoumeanwhenyousai
dyougeteven?”
“Imeantexact
lyt
hat!
.”hegetsupt
ryingt
o
i
nti
midat
emeandi t’
snitgoi
ngtowork.
“Ar
eyoupl
anni
ngoncheat
ingonme?”
“i
fIdothenyouwoul
dknowhowi
tfeel
sandhow
I
’mfeel
ing.”
“youbett
erbenott
hinki
ngofdoi
ngsomet
hing
st
upid.”
“MaybeIwanttobest
upidonmyt er
mscauseyou
andthemenI’
vebeenwit
hseeitf
ittotr
eatmel
ikeI
am st
upi
d.”
“Youareamothersims,
youcan’
tgoanddost
upi
d
andreckl
esst
hings!
.”
“savethatfactandopi
nionwhenIhavedone
somethingstupid!
.”
“don’tt
alktomel
iket
hatsi
ms.I
’
m st
il
lyour
husband!.”
“Ohyes,
you’
remyhusbandwheni
tsui
tsyour
ight
?
”hesighsandwal
kscl
oset
omeandIt
akest
ep
back.
“babyyouar eangryrightnowandnotthi
nki
ng
strai
ght.Idon’
twantyout odosomethi
ngthatyou’
l
l
regretl
aterandputyourlif
eindanger
.”Iwalk
aroundhimt oleavebutheblocksmyway.
“getoutofmybonga!Iaskedyout
ogivemet
ime
andstayoutofmywayandyouagreed!.”
“No!
.You’
renotl
eavingthi
shousecauseIknow
youar
egoingtogetdrunkandhur
tyoursel
f.”
“whatIdoisnoneofyourbusi
ness.Af
ewhours
youdidn’
tcar
eaboutwhereIgoandwhatIdoso
don’
tstar
tnow!.”
“ifyouwanttogetdr
unkthengetdr
unkinthis
house.I
’l
lst
ayawayfrom youj
ustdon’
tleave
pl
easebabydon’t.
”
“Idon’
twanttobei
nthi
shouseri
ghtnow.Iwantto
gosomewhereandbeablet
obreat
hawayf r
om you.
You’
resuf
focati
ngme!
.”
“ohkf
ine.Letmecal
lluhandl
esegot
ocomeher
e
soyouwon’
tbeal
one.”
“no!
.Youkeepthem outofyourdi
rt
ymess.Idon’
t
wantthem t
oseemel i
kethi
soryouwantthem t
o
knowwhatyoudidtomehuh?”
“Ofcour
senotbutyouneedt
hem baby.”
“WhatIneedi stobeawayf rom youcauseIcan’ t
l
ookatyouwi t
houtf eel
ingdi sgusted!.”Iscr
eam at
him andhewi nces.Iwal ktot hebedandbur sti
nto
tear
sandcr yhysterical
ly.Thebeddi psandhe
wrapshisarmsar oundme, pull
ingmecl osesoI
cancryonhi schest.Ifi
ghthi m of
fandkeephi t
ti
ng
him buthedoesn’tletgoi nsteadhehol dsmet i
ght.

BONGA

Iremovehershoes, coverherwithathrowbl anket

thengot othebat hr
oom andt akeoneofherf acial
wipesandwi peherbeautif
ulface.Shecur l
sher
bodylikeaf oetusandsniffsandIwat chherunt i
l
herbreathi
ngget sevenandshef al
lsasleep.Ileave
ourbedroom andgodownst ai
rsandsi tonthe
couch.Howcoul dIbesost upidandcheatonher ?.
Thelookonherf acewhenshesawmewi thherwil
l
hauntmef orever.Itkeepspl ayi
ngoverandovermy
mindandIt ookf eelsickanddi sgustedwi t
hmyself
.
Iknewshewant edmet ofuckedherandatt heendI
gaveinandf uckedher .Itwasn’tsupposetohappen
butIleti
thappenandi twasl i
keIcouldn’thel
p
myself.Fuck!.
Itaket hedecadentanddr inkthewhi skyi nside.
Whati fshedeci desshedoesn’ twantt obewi thme
anymor e?Whatwi l
lIdocauseIcan’ tlivewi thout
herandourki ds?Whatthehel ldidIdoandhowam
Igoingt ofi
xthi
swhol emessIcr eated? .Simai sa
veryst rongwomanwhodoesn’ tletanyt hinggeti n
herway.She’ sadeter
minesper sonwhodoeswhat
shewant s,
whenshewant st hat’
soneoft het hings
Iloveaboutherandscar emet o.Shet oldme
strai
ghtt omyf acethatshedoesn’ tjustgetmad
sheal soget sevenandthatscar estheshotoutof
met ot hinkthat’
sshemi ghtdeci detocheatonme.
Iwi l
lkillanymanwhodar estot ouchher .I’
llkil
lall
ofthem.Myphoneri
ngsandIt
sintheki
tchen
counter
.Il
ookati
tandi
t’
sthatdamnbit
ch.
“Di
dn’
tIt
ellyout
onevercont
actmeagai
n?”
“wehaveagoodt hi
nggoingbetweenusandit
’s
goodnowthatyourwifeknows.Weain’
thavet
o
sneakar
oundanymor ebonga.”
“bit
chyou’r
ef uckencr azy.Wehavenothi
nggoi ng
on.Iwasjustfuxkingyout akingmyf
rustrat
ionsout
onyou.Don’tyoudar eactl i
kewewereloverscause
wewerefuckennot !”
“Iam r
eadytoleavemyhusbandforyoubonga,
youcan’
tjustdumpmeli
kethat?!
.Iwon’tl
etyou!
.”
“l
etme?Yout
heduckdoyout
hinkyou’
ret
alki
ngt
o
bi
tch!”
“youbonga!.Iwon’tl
etyoufuckmeliket
hatthen
thr
owmeont heside.LookI’
m wi
ll
ingtobeyour
secondwif
ecauseIl oveyouuandwanttobewi t
h
you!.”
“Li
stent
omeandli
stenver
ycaref
ull
y.Iam mar
ried
toonewomanandonewantsonl
y.Idon’
twantyou
oranyoneel
sefort
hatmatter
.Iusedyoul
ikehow
youusedmet oscr
atchyouri
tchnowgetoveri
t
andfi
ndsomeoneelsetofuckyou.”
“No!No!No!
.Iwantyou!
.”
“youdon’
twantt
opi
ssmeof
fkhensaniI
’
m
warni
ngyou!
.”
“I’
m goi
ngt ogotot
hepoliceandtel
lthem you
rapedme!.”thi
stwi
steddementedbit
ch!.
“Idareyout ogo!.Befor
eyou’reevendonemaki ng
yourstatementt hewholewor ldwil
lknowwho’ sthe
fatherofthosekidsthatyourhusbandt hi
nksar
e
his.Hewi l
lknowt hathe’
sact ual
lyraisi
nghis
grandkidsnothiskids.Iwil
lleakallvideosofus
fuckingandt hoseoftheothermi ni
stersyouhave
fuckedinyourhome.”
“What
?Youdon’
tknowwhatyou’
ret
alki
ngabout
!“
“Ihaveproofbi
tch.Idon’
tgeti
ntobusinesswi t
h
j
ustanyone.Ihavetoknowwhoam Iget ti
ngi nbed
wit
handyouar eaver ybadbi
tch.Yourhusbandi s
notsosqueakycleantoo.Hi
sskelet
onsint he
cl
osetwil
lkil
lyou.Nowdoyour sel
faugef avour.
Staythef uckawayf rom meandmywi fe.I
fIhearor
seethatyoubr eat hinginherdi r
ect i
onIwi l
lleak
everyt
hingt othemedi aandr uinyou! .Trymebi t
ch!
”Ihangupandt hrowt hewhol edecadenti nt he
wallandi tbr eaksi ntopieces.Fuckt hisbit
ch! .I
needadi stractionbef oreongof indthatbitchand
kil
lher.It akemyphoneandor derf oodf r
om mr D
foods.Simsi sgoi ngt owakeupf eeli
nghungr y.I
havetot al ktombusoandt ellhim what ’
sgoi ngon
i
ncaset hatbi tchcausest r
oublef orme.Idi alhis
numberandwai tasi tri
ngs.
“br
other
?”
“howf
arar
eyou?”
“what
’swr
ong?”
“Not
hing.Howf
arar
eyou?”
“wearegoingt
obehomei
nfi
vehour
s.Whati
s
wrongbonga?”
“Imessedup.
.Ir
eal
lydi
d.”
“Simsfoundoutt
hatyou’
ref
ucki
ngt
hatgi
rldi
dn’
t
she?”
“What
?Youknew?”
“ofcourseIknew!Themomentyouaskedmet o
fi
ndsomet hi
ngaboutherIknew!.Ijustknewi
tandI
tol
dyout ost
ayawayf r
om thatbit
chandyoudi dn’
t
l
istent
omebongaasal waysandnowl ookwhat
happened!”
“I
’
m sor
ryman!
.”
“Youar
eaboutt
oloseyourf
amil
ybr
otherbecause
ofsomepi
eceofass.Howst
upi
dcanyoube?”
“she’
sgoi
ngtocausepr
obl
emsf
ormeandIcan’
t
havet
hat!
.”
“ontopofever
ythi
ngwearedeal
ingwit
hyougo
anddeci
detogoandcheatonyourwif
ebrot
her
why?”
“Idon’
tknow!”
“Don’
tfuckent
ellmethat!
.Youknowwhyyou
cheat
edsodon’tbul
lshi
tmebonga!.”
“Iwas.scar
edokay!Iwasfuckenscar
edthatsi
ms
mightbet
raymethewaymom di dbutIendedup
bei
ngtheonetobetrayher
!.”
“howcausesi
msdoesn’
thaveatwinandt
her
e’s
oneheri
nthi
swor
ldsoexplai
nitt
ome?”
“Whatifshekeepssomebigsecret
sfr
om meandI
fi
ndoutlat
erinourmarr
iagel
ikehowmom di
d?”
“ohmyf uckenGod!
.”mbusosaysandIheara
gasp.Il
ookupandit’
sherf
uckme!.
“BabyI
….”
“Iam notl
ikeyourmotherbongaandIwoul dnever
betr
ayyouliket
hat.Ever
!.”shesayscr
ying.Whydo
Ikeepaddi
ngmor eprobl
emsont opoftheone’sI
alr
eadyhave.
“Ihavet
ogo.We’
l
ltal
k.”
“I’
l
lhaveatal
kwit
ht hatbi
tch.Fi
xthi
sbonga,
sims
doesn’
tdeser
vet
his.”
“Iknowbr
other
.Iwi
ll
.”Ihandup.
CHAPTER61.

BONGA
#NOTEDI
TEDSORRY

Iruntostopherf rom leavi

ngmyasscauseIknow
she’
satherl aststrawnow.She’ si
nthelounge,
si
tti
ngont hecar petanddrinki
ngwhiskystrai
ght
fr
om thebot t
le.Isitdownnexttoher,t
akethebottl
e
anddrinkfrom it
.
“I’m nottheper sonyouf elli
nlovewith.Learning
thesesecr e6mymot herkeptfr
om uschangedme.
Itmademequest ionmysel fandyou.HowcanI
trustthatyouwon’ tkeepsecr etsfr
om met hat
coulddest royourf amilyli
kehowmymom di d.That
i
sver ywr ongofmet ocompar ehertoyoucause
youar enot hi
ngl i
kemymom andyoucoul dnever
i
nt enti
onallyhurtmel i
kehowIhavehur tyouand
l
iedt oyou.…”shet akesthebottl
efrom meand
drinksthengi vesittome.
“youaskedmenott ohurtyouandtheboysandI
promisedyouthatt
henIgoanddot heverysame
thi
ngIpromisedyouthatIwouldn’
tdo.Youdidtel
l
met hati
fImessupyou’reoutofthedoor.Pl
ease
don’tl
eavemebabyI ’m beggingyou.Iwoul dn’t
knowwhatt odowi t
houtyoui nmyl ife.You’re
everyt
hingtomesi mphiwe.Iwi l
lneverl oveanother
womant heyIloveyouandourki ds.Ishoul dhave
tol
dyoumyf ear sandwhatIwast hinkinginstead
ofkeepingthem f rom you..You’remyconf i
dantand
Ifai
ledtoconf idei nyoumywi f
eandyoukeepon
beggingmet ot alktoyouandIj ustcoul dn’
t.Iam
ashamedbabyaboutwhatmymom di d.Iam so
veryscaredtoo…”
Shelooksatmeandtakesmyhand.“whatar
eyou
scar
edof?.”Otur
nandf aceher
.
“I’
m scar edt hatIhat
emymom f orwhatshedi d.
I’
m scar edthatIwantt okillherforr ui
ningallofour
l
ives.Mbusoordadmi ghtdecidet okillherandthe
factthatitwoul dhurtmeandatt hesamet i
mei t
woul dn’
thur tmescar estheshi toutofme.Iwantt o
forgi
veherf orwhatshedi dbutt henhowdoIdo
thatwhenmybr otherwasr obbedofhi smot herand
brother.Whati fthi
swhol et hi
ngr uinsmy
rel
ationshipwi thmybr other.Ziphoi sinJoburgand
want snothingt odowi thourmot her.Ourli
ttl
e
brot
herishur
ti
ngr i
ghtnowandher ef
usestosee
usort al
ktous.Helovesourmothersomuchand
beari
ngwhatshedidbr okehi
m morethani
tdidt
o
al
lofus.I’
m worr
iedaboutsims.”
“Youhavet ogivehi mt ime, remembert hatzi phois
notli
keyouormbuso.He’ saf reespir
itwhodoesn’ t
wantt hingstobef orceddownhi sthroatsoal lof
youhavet ostopf orcinghimt otal
kandcomeback
home.Hewi llcomebackonhi sownt imewhenhe
wantst o.Rightnowyoushoul dallsuppor thim
fr
om af ar.Yourreal withmbusocanneverber ui
ned
byanyt hingoranyone, unlessyouhur tluhi nsome
wayt hatwoul dpisshi m of f
.WhatI ’mtryingt osay
i
sevent hought hebot hofyoudon’ tsharet hesame
motheri tdoesn’tchanget hatyoul oveherand
most l
yyoubot hloveeachot herver ymuchand
yourbondasbr other sisver ystrong.Yourbl ood
brot
her sbongaandt hatisnevergoi ngtochangeI
wishyouwoul dhavet alkedtomeaboutwhatyou
arefeelingandwewoul dn’tbei nthissit
uat i
onr i
ght
now.”
“Iknowbaby.Iwoul
dhert
hisf
earwhenIt
hink
aboutt
ell
ingyoual
lthet
hingst
hatscar
eme.”
“youwer escar edt hatI’l
lsomehowI ’
llseeyou
weakandni tthisstrongcomposedmanwhohas
everythi
ngt oget her.Whatmadeyouweaki nmy
eyesbongawaswhenyouchoset ohaveanaf fai
r.I
am notj ustyourwi fewhent hingsar egoodandal l
rosy.I’
m yourwi feinever ythinggoodbadandt he
ugly.Youdon’ tgett omakedeci sionsaboutwhatI
shouldknowandwhatnot .Youdon’ tgett okeep
thi
ngsf rom mecauset hatwoul dmeanI ’m onl
y
getti
ngt hehal fofyounotal lofyoui fyoukeep
sharingt hegoodt hingsonl yandnott hebadand
veryugly.Il oveyoubonga, yourf amilyisalsomy
family.Thef ami ly’
sdi r
tylaundr yismydi rt
ylaundr y
too.Ihat efeelinglikemyhusbandi sisafraidof
tal
kingtomebecausehet hinksI’l
lseehi m asa
weakmanbutwhenIl ookathi m Iseemanwho’ s
mot herhashur thim sobad.Thewomanwhom he
l
ovedandador edhur thimi nwayshedi dn’
tthink
we’repossi ble.Ihavepr ovent oyout hatIloveyou
andyoucant rustme.Icanneverj udgeyoubonga
foryourmot her ’
sact i
onsbutonl yyourown.You
ar eanamazi
nglovingandcari
ngmanandIl ove
you.Iam gi
vingyouanotherchancetomakethi
ngs
rightbet
weenusbecauseifyoutrybongaIwil
l
l
eaveyourcut el
it
tl
eassandIwon’ tl
ookback.
”She
tearsup.
“IknowbabyandIpooryouthatIwi
llworkhar
d
andbethemanyoudeserve.”shegulpsdowna
hugedri
nkthenbur
ps.
“doyouseethati
twasn’
tsohar
dtoj
ustt
ellme
howyoufeel
?.”
“Iknowt hatnow.Ireal
lywishIcangobacki
nti
me
andfixeveryt
hing.”Iseri
ousl
ydo.
“Ithinkyoushoul dtalktoyourmom.Youmbuso
andzi pho.Shemadeahugemi stakeandIknow
sher egret
si tnow.Shej ustgotj eal
ousbecauseher
sisterhadabet terl
if
et hanher .Youl oveyour
mot herandyourdadt ooandsheneedst oknow
thatcausel ookathowsheandyourdadr ai
sed
threeamazi ngmen.Shedoesdeser vesomecr edi
t
bonga.Shecoul dhavemi streatedmbusoandl ove
onlyherkidsbutshedi dn’t
.Shet r
eatedyouallthe
same.Nochi l
dwasl ovedmor ethant heot herand
that’
swhyal lthr
eeofyoul oveeachot hersomuch.
Ifmbusowant edtokil
lherhewoul dhavedonet hat
themomentsheconf essed.Hedi dn’tkillhercause
she’shismot herandhelovesher .That ’
swhyyou
allshoul
djustgot oher,t
ellherhowyouf eeland
howherr evelati
onshavechangedyourl ives.”I
l
ookatheri nawe.Howcoul dinhur tthiswonder ful
andgent l
esoul .
“youareanamazi ngwomansi mphiweandIwi sh
mymom coul dhaveopenedherhear tandgottento
knowyouandseet hatyou’r
eawonder f
ulwif
eand
anamazi ngmother.IloveyousimphiweandI’
ll
provemyl i
vet
oyouf ortheret
urnofmylif
e.”she
smiles.
“Youbetter.”Ibrushhertears,pul
lherfacet
ome
andkissher.Shedoesn’tkissmebackandI
underst
and.Wel ookateachandi t
’sl
iketi
me
standssti
ll
.Iloveher.Ir
eallydo.Thebellatt
he
gateri
ngsdi st
urbingourmoment .
“whocoul
dthatbe?”sheasks.
“Iorderedfood.I
’
llbeback.”Igetupandgot
othe
gate,paytheguyandcomeback.
“Wowsomuchf
ood?”
“It
houghtyouaregoingt
owakeuphungryandI
wantedyoutohavesometimeof
ffr
om cooki
ng.”
“Thankyou.”shesmi
les.
“Youknowwecanf i
ndsomeonet
ohel
pyou
ar
oundthehouse?
.”
“nope.Idon’
ttr
ustthem.”wehavehear
dthi
s
conver
sati
onat housandt
imes.
“Youneedhel
pbaby.Thi
shousei
sbi
g.”
“IknowandIl ovecl
eani
ngmyownhouse.Idon’
t
wantanotherstr
angeri
nourpr
ivat
espacet
ouchi
ng
ourthi
ngs.”
“What
’sgoi
ngt
ohappenwhenyoubegi
nwor
king?
”
“Wewi
llcr
osst
hatbr
idgewhenwegett
oit
.”
“Ar
eyouscar
edthatmaybeI ’
llcheatonyouagai
n
i
fyouhi
reahousekeeper
?.”Shestopstaki
ngthe
f
oodoutandl
ooksatme.
“Iwasn’tbefor
ebutnowI’m notsur
e.I
’
dratherwe
hir
eacl eani
ngcompany.”Idon’tbl
ameherthough.
Icreat
edt hi
swhol
emess.
“Iunder
stand.”shet
akest
hepl
atesanddi
shesf
or
us.Wesitdownandeat.
“sooursonhadwant
edt
otal
ktoyouabout
somethi
ng.”
“whi
chone?”
“Mel
.”
“wassomet
hingwr
ong?”
“notexact
ly.”shesaysavoi
dingmyeyes.
“BabyIknowIwasasel f
ishpr
icktoyoubutpl
ease
don’
ttellmesomethi
ngbadhappenstomysonand
youdidn’tt
ellme?
.”
“Noit
’snot
hingbad.Hewant
edtoaski
fit
’sokay
het
akeshisfri
endouti
nadate.”
“f
ri
end,
dat
e?”
“Yes.Hi
sfr
iendi
scel
ebr
ati
ngherbi
rt
hdayt
oday
andhe’
sonhi
sdat
enow.”
“Her?Hmmm.Ifwe’
rebot
hher
ethenwho’
s
watchi
ngt
hem?”
“Iwasgoingt
ot akethem butt
henIaskedl
uh.I
wasgoi
ngt ot
ellyouwhenIar r
ivedatt
heoff
icebut
youwerenott
her e.”
“I’
m sorr
yIruinedthesurpr
ise.Iaskedthesecur
ity
guystoeatthefoodandputt hecontai
nersinthe
ki
tchenwhent heyaredonesol uhcangether
Tupperwareback.”shenods.
“Ican’tbel
ievemysoni
soutonhi
sfir
stdate.
What’shernameandwhoareherpar
ents.
”She
l
aughs.
“I
t’
sjustani
cecr
eam dat
e.Hernamei
sBecky
Davi
s.”
“Umlungubaby?(awhitegi
rlbaby?
)”shel
aughs
outl
oud.Iwatchherandsmi
le.
“yesbabyshe’
swhi
te.”
“mysonl
ikeswhi
tegi
rl
s.Wow.”shechuckl
es.
“haveyouguyshadt
het
alkaboutt
hebi
rdsandt
he
bees?”
“lastti
meIt r
iedhesaid‘dadwelear
naboutt
hese
thingsatschool.Don’
tmakethi
sawkward‘hesai
d
”webot hl
augh.
“Wel
lthendaddy,
youst
il
lhavet
ohavet
het
alk
wi
thhi
m.”
“IknowbabyandI ’
lldoit
.”Ikissherhand.“I’
m
sorr
yIcheatedonyouandhur tyou.Youdon’
t
deservet
hatkindofbehaviourfrom me.Iwon’
tever
cheatonyouagain.”
“I
’
llhol
dyout
othat
.”shemeansi
t.
“di
dyoumeanitwhenyousai
dyougeteven?
.”
shel
ooksatmeandsmil
es.
“Ididmyhusband.Doyouwantust
ohaveanopen
rel
ati
onshi
p?”mybrowsfur
row.Damnshemeanti
t.
“hel
lno!
.Doyou?”ifshesaysyes,
I’
m goi
ngt
o
haveahear
tat
tack.
“noIdon’
t.Iwanttosaysomet
hingt
hough.”Ist
op
eat
ingandlookather.
“Idon’
twantushavet
thr
eesomeswi
thsbuor
anyoneel
seeveragai
n.Iwantourmarr
iagetobe
j
ustaboutusonl
yandnotincl
udeotherpeopl
ein
oursexl
if
e.Areyouokaywit
hthat?”
“Iwantedtosuggestthattoyoutoo.Wewon’thave
thr
eesomewi t
hanyoneeveragai n.I
twasmyf i
rst
ti
meandl ast
.Everyfi
rstti
met hatwewil
lhaveI
wantitt
obebet weenusonl y.”
“Thankyouf
ort
hat
.Soyouwon’
tmi
ssi
t?”
“Hellnoandhowdoyoumisssomet
hingt
hat
you’
renotusedt
o?”shegi
ggl
es.
“Ihearyou.Wecansomet
imesuset
oys.Wecan
gotoasexshopanddosomeshopping.”she
bl
ushes.
“Ihi
tthej
ackpotwhenImar
ri
edyourass.I
’
m one
bl
essedandluckyguy.”
“Youbett
ernotforgetcausei
fyoumessupagai n,
someoneelsewil
lcomeandsweepal lt
hisgood,
goodawayf r
om you.”shewinksatme.Ichuckl
e
andshakemyhead.
“sowhenar
ewegoi
ngsexshoppi
ng?”shel
aughs.
“cal
m downZul
uboy.You’
rest
il
lint
hedoghouse.
”
“Ihadtoaskbaby.Am Ist
il
lgoi
ngt
osl
eepont
he
couch?”
“Formont hslove.JustbecauseIf orgiveyou, i
t
doesn’tmeant hateverythi
ngisgoingt ogoback
thewayi twascausei t’
snot.Everytimeyou’ r
e
homel ateI’
m goingtowonderi fyou’resti
llworki
ng
ornot.BusinesstripsI
’m goingtowonderi fyou’re
goingaloneorwi thsomet hi
ng.WhenIcal land
you’r
ebusywor ki
nganddon’ tpickupandgoi ngto
askmysel fwhatifyou’redoingitagain.It
’snot
goingtobeeasy.Somedaysar egoingt obeokay
andsomear enot.”fuckme! .
“Iunder
standbaby.I
’
llpr
ovei
tyousi
mphi
we.
”She
nods.
“Wehavetogotombuso'
shousesowecanf
ind
outhowwasthesear
ch.”
“Ihopetheyhavesomegoodnewsandi fnot
.It
’s
goingt
ohurthim andweallhavetobet
herefor
them.Thental
ktohim andtel
lhi
m youshoul
dall
goandtal
ktoyourmot her
.Noscr
eami
ngormaki
ng
thr
eat
s.Justt
alkbaby.”
“you’
reawi
sewomanandI
’
lldoasyousay.”she
gi
ggles.
“ar
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lthem?”sheheavenasi
gh.
“Iwi
llbabywhenI’mready.Iknowmbusowon’
ttel
l
l
uhbeforeIdo.”Inod.
“whenyout ellt
hem luhisgoingtol eavegetmad
andupsetwi t
hmeandt hatisgoingt oupsetmbuso
andshemostl i
kelywil
lki
ckmeoutofherhouse
unti
lsheforgi
vesmet henscelowillprobablypunch
mef orusherhisbabysisterandforhur ti
ngyou
causeyouknowhet akesyouashi sl i
ttl
esistert
oo
anddon’ttel
lmeaboutdad.He’ sgoingt obe
fur
ious.Fuckme! .”
“not hankyou.”shelaughs.“youmadeyourbed
nowl ieonit
.”Ichuckle.Weeatthenwel eave
tongueshouse.I’
mj ustthankf
ulforhergivi
ngme
anotherchance.Iwon’tmessitup.
LESEGO.

Iwakeupandl eavescel obef orehef ucksmeback

tosleepagain.Igot ot hebathr oom andt akea
quickshowert henheaddownst ai
rs.Kagi aoand
kamoar est
il
lsl eepinggoodf orme.Ihaveal i
tt
le
ti
met omysel f.Imakemysel fsomet eathensi t
downandenj oyi tbutt hati
sr uinedwhenIt hink
aboutmysi sterwant ingtocomeandvi sit.Honestl
y
Ihavenoi deawhyt heywoul dwantt ovisitme.
Theyal waysspendt hethehol idaysher eandbook
i
nhot elssowhywoul dmysi sterwantt ospend
them hereinmyhouse.Justt hi nki
ngabouti t
makesmer ealmadcauseaf tert heywayt hey
treat
edmewhent heygott hel etteraskingf ormy
handi nmarri
age, youwoul dt hinkt hattheyar e
happyt hatI
’mf i
nallyoutofthei rli
vesbutno.They
stil
lwanttomakemyl i
fehardasmuchaspossi bl
e.
Ididn’tknowt hatsi
celowasgoingtosendal et
ter
tomyf amil
y.Igotacal lf
rom mapasekat
ell
ingme
thattheygotal ett
erandmydadwasmadashel l.
Hesai dnot herewillbenonegoti
ati
onshappening
i
nhi shouse.Iwashappyandsadatt hesamet ime.
Ididn’tknowwhatIwasgoi ngt odobutt henI
remember edthatmygr andmapar entsarest i
llal
ive
andIhadt ogohomebackBet hlehem.Si celo
i
nsistedoncomi ngwi tmebutever yoneendedup
comi ng,luhandherf amilyandsi msandherf amily.
ThankGodmyhousewasf urnishedwi ththehel pof
theset wowomen.Weal ldrovedownandt henext
dayluhandsi msaccompani edmet omygr andma
parentshouse.Koko(gr andma)washappyt osee.
Me.Theyal lwere.I.Expl
ainedwhatwashappeni ng
andanemer gencymeet i
ngt ookpl acethatver y
samedayonFr iday.Mygr andf athercalledmydad
tocomeandmyot heruncles.Ihadt o.
ExplainhowIl ef
thomecausewhatt heyknewisI
ranawaywi thmyki dstogoandl ivewit
haIdon’ t
know.Iexpl ainedtothem whathappensandmy
grandfatherwasupsetwi thmydadandt oldhim
thatthenegot iat
ionsaregoingtohappenwhet her
helikesitornot .Ihadtogohomet omypar ent
’s
houset hatsamet i
metopr eparefort
omorrow.Luh
i
st r
ulyandangelandIt hinkthat’
swhymy
grandfat herwast akenwithher.Shel ef
thert wo
youngki dsandt heycamet omypar ent
shousewi t
h
me.Bongaandmbusobr oughtkamoandkagi so
causet heyal sohadt ocome.Mymom Di dn’ ttal
kto
meoracknowl edgeme, actuall
ymywhol ef ami l
y
didn’
t.Theywer enothappyatal lt
hattomor row
peoplewer egoi ngt ocomeandaskf ormyhandi n
mar r
iage.Luhandsi mswentshoppi ngandbr ought
groceriest opr epar efortomor r
ow.Mygr andpaand
unclessl aught er edtwosheep’ scauset heywer e
happy.Fort hef i
rsttimeIcan’tr ememberhow
manyyear sIsl eptinsidemypar entshouse.Wi t
h
them insi de.Luh, simsandmysi sterweal lsleptin
thesamer oom.Wegotdr unkandi twassof un.I
haveneverseenmysi st
ersof reeandj oki ngwi t
h
me.Sheact uallyapol ogi
zedf orhowshet reat edme
whendur i
ngt hesewhol eyears.I twasni cet osee
thatdifferentsi deofher .
Thenextdaymeandmygi r
lswokeupandwe
star
tedcooki
ngandtoMysurpri
setheymanaged
tofi
ndoneoftheweddi
ngplannerswhodidl
uh's
weddingtocomeanddecor
ate.Idon’
tmeantobrag
butluhcancook.Shet oldmeaboutherl ifestory,
howshegr ewupandhowt hul it
aughtherhowt o
cook.Itbrokemyhear tt
ohearwhathappenedt o
herandsi celoandt heirparents.Icriedalotand
whensi celotol dmehowhel osthismemor yand
camebacki nt imet of i
ndhi sdadbef oreheki ll
ed
himselfwast oomuch.Icr iedal otandhecomf or
ts
me.Iam happyt hattheyal lfoundeachot herbut
whatI ’
m happyabouti sGodkeptt hismanf orme
toloveandpr otect.Kokocamewi t
hmyaunt sand
theytookmet other oom wesl eptinandtalkedt o
meaboutsi celoandi fI’
m sur eIwant edtoget
mar r
iedtosi celoandIsai dyes.Si celodadcame
withhisuncl es, mbuso’ sandmbusowasoneoft he
delegates.Myf amilykeptt hem wai ti
ngforal most2
hoursbef oret heyletthem in.
Thedayst art
edf i
neandIthoughtever ythi
ngwas
goinggr eatbutdeepdownIknewt hatt
herewas
somet hingbadt hatwasgoi ngtohappenandIwas
ri
ght.Mypar entssti
lli
gnoredmei twaslikeIdi
dn’
t
existandmydaywmeantnot hi
ngtothem andI
didn’tcare.Ijustwantedeverythi
ngbtogowel l
so
thenegot i
ati
onscanbegi nbut tboywasIwr ong.
Appar ent l
ymydadphonedkagi so' sdadandt old
himt hatt hewasaf ami l
yaskingf ormyhandi n
mar ri
ageandont opoft hattheywantt heki dst oo.
Hecamewi t
hhi sdadandt heydemandedt hatthe
kidscomewi ththem.Si cel
odadl osti tandmbuso
tookouthi sgun, calledsbuandbongat heycame
andcl osedt hedoorandhi sdadt alkedt omyf ather
i
nl awt ocal m down.WhatIknownowi st hat
mbuso’ swor disf inal,whenhesaysj umpyouask
howhi gh.Mydadandbr ot
herwe’ ret errif
iedofhi m
andever yonewhowasi nthel i
vingr oom dawt he
guns.Igotsof r
eakedoutbutl uht ol dmet ocal m
down.Noonewasgoi ngt ogethur tasl ongasmy
fami l
ylistens.Sicel oaskedmyf ami lyhowmuch
theywant edandmydadaskedf ort wohundr ed
thousand.Wecoul dhearever ythingt hatwas
happeni ngi nthel ivi
ngm causet hebedr oom we
wer einwasnextt oi t
..Iwasmor tifi
edbutmyf ather
i
nl awagr eedtot hepr icethenmydadsai d
excludingt hekids.Ihear dmydadt ellthem t hati f
theywant edt heki dst oothenf oreachchi l
dt hey
askedf oraquar terofami ll
ion.Bot hmyki dswe
wor thhal fami ll
ionaccor dingtomyf amil
yandI
wasdevast atedtoseehowmuchmydadl oves
money.Mygr andpawasshockedathi sson's
behavi our.Inaddi ti
ont heyaskedf oranotherthree
hundr edt hecausesi celot ookmewi thoutthei
r
per mission.Hi sdadagr eedandgavet hem thr
ee
hundr edcasht hent her estwast r
ansf err
ed
electronicallybysi celo'
sdad, hi
suncl es,mbuso’s
dadandmbuso.Al lthemoneywast ransf
erredto
mydad’ saccount .
.HewasshockedcauseIdon’ t
thinkhehaseverseent hatkindofmoneyi nhis
account .Theydi dn’tevenaskmei fIknowt he
ngcobof ami lybutIdi dn’tcarecausef i
nall
yin2as
goingt onl 3avethisf amilyandnotl ookback.
Blessmygr andf
athercausehel itthesagef orme
andt alkedtoourancest orsandt oldt hem
everythingandaskedf ort hem topr otectmeand
blessme.Iwasver yemot i
onal.Kagi so’sdaddi dn’
t
evenwast eti
mecauseassoonast heygavehi m
andhi sdadmoneyt heyl eft
.Hedi dn’ttalktohis
ki
dsorevenacknowl edget hem andIcoul dcare
l
esscauseIknowt heyhaveadadwhol ivesthem.
Sicel
o’sfamil
yatethentheyl ef
twit
hus.Wel eftthe
samedayandweal lwentt oLadysmit
hatSicelo’s
grandparent
shouseandwehadahugecel ebration
andhesur pr
isedmeal sowi t
hanengagementr ing
andthatwast hei
cingont hecake.Inevert
hought
i
nami l
li
onyearsthatIwil
lfindsomeonewhol oves
mef ormeandourki ds.
Ilovethi
smansover ymuchandIknowhel oves
met oo.Iwil
ldoeverythingIcant omakesur eI
keepmyf amilyprot
ectedf r
om myf amil
y.Iknow
thatmysistercomingher eisn’
tjustavisi
tbutt hey
areplanni
ngsomet hing.Ihavetot alkt
ohisaunt
andshecanmaybet akemet oNgwendesoIcanI
fi
ndoutwhati stherealreasonmyf amil
yiscomi ng
here.
“mama”hesayshuggingmef r
om behi
nd.It
urn
myheadandgi
vehim akiss.
“papa.”hesmi
les.
“Whyar
eyouawake?”
“Runni
ngawayf
rom youandyourcr
azysex.”he
l
aughs.
“Imustbedoi
ngabadjobthem i
fyou’
rer
unni
ng
awayfr
om mysex”Igi
ggle.
“Nopapayou’r
egreat,
amazi
ngbutt
hispussy
needssomerestbaby.
”
“i
sever
ythi
ngokay?
.”
“Nopapa.Youwantmysi st
ertocomeher
eal
lfor
thehol
idaysandIdon’
twantthat
.”
“It
houghtwet
alkedaboutt
hismama?
.”
“nopapa,
youf
uckedmei
ntoagr
eei
ngt
hatshecan
come.”
“l
etthem comebabyeveni
fit
’syourwhol
efami
ly.I
wantthem t
oknowhowhappyyouar emama.”
“ift
heytryanyt
hingpapaIswear
.I’
m goi
ngt
oki
ck
them out
.”
“youdon’thaveameanbonei nyourbodyand
you’r
enotgoi ngtodothat.Youwi llshowthem that
you’r
ebetterthanthem andtreatthem goodplus
simswillbehereandshewi l
lsortthem out.”I
giggl
ehe’sright.Si
mshat esitwhenot herpeopl
e
takeadvantageofsomeonecl osetoher.
“yeahshe’
l
lsor
tthem out
.Ihavet
ogot
hough”
“i
t’
sSat
urday’
smamawher
ear
eyougoi
ng?”
“LuhandIhaveanappoi
ntmentsomewher
e.”
“soear
lymama?”
“Yessoear
ly.Youhavet
heki
dsal
ltoyour
sel
f.”
“okcanIgetaqui
cki
ethen?”hesayspr
essi
nghi
s
har
ddickonme.
“papawhatareyoudoing?”het
akesast
epali
tt
le
andwel ookatkamoandshehasthi
swei
rdl
ookon
herface.
“I
’mjustt
alki
ngt
omommypr
incess.I
t’
sst
il
lear
ly
whyareyouawake?”
“I
’
m hungr
y.Canwegooutdaddy?”
“
Justt
het
woofus?
.”
“Wecan’
tleavekagiso’
spapabuthesl
eepsal
ot.I
wantt
ogopl aywit
ht het
wins.”
“Okbaby.Gobr
ushyourt
eet
h,mom wi
llcomeand
hel
p”
“Thankspapa.”
“Pr
incess?”
“daddy?”
“Where’
smama'ski
ss?”sheggiggl
esthenshe
comesandki
ssesmeandr unsupst
air
s.
“t
hekidsaregrowi
nganddadwant
smor
e
gr
andkids”hesaysandIl
augh.
“Yeahr i
ght.Youwantust
ogoandpract
icemaki
ng
babies?”Ipushmybassbackt
ohim andhe
presseshisharddi
ck.
“f
ivemi
nut
esmama.Kamoi
swai
ti
ng.”
“okl
etmegocheckhatshe’
sdoi
ngnow.”Ir
unand
l
eavehi
mther
e.
“Ahlesego?Mama?You’ regoi
ngtoscream so
hardwhenIf uckyou!
.”Il
aughandcontinuetorun
tokamo'sroom.Fiveminutesi
sneverenoughwi t
h
scel
o.It
’si
mpossi bl
e.

#Wi
ll
FixAl
lTheEr
ror
sTomor
row
#Enj
oyYour
Weekend.
CHAPTER62.

MBUSO.

Allourliveshavechangedeversi ncewef oundout

aboutt hesecretesourmot herkeptf r
om us.YeahI
sti
llcallhermom causeshe’ st heonlymot herI
haveeverknownevent houghi tishardsomet imes
buttomeshe’ salwaysgoingt obemom.Imi ssher
alotrightnowespeci all
ywat chingmyki dsgr owup
withoutagr andmot her
.Iknowshewoul dbe
spoili
ngt hem rott
enanddr i
vemecr azydoi ngthat
.I
brushmyf aceandl ookoutside.

Dadhaschangedandsomet i
mesIwoul dn’t
recogni
zet hemanIcal lmydad.Thi swholet hi
ng
hithi
m prettyhardandevent houghithasbeen
yearssi
ncei thappened,tousthoughi tsti
llf
eels
l
ikeyesterdaycausewel ivewithiteverydayand
thankGodf ormywi fecauseshemanagedt odrag
meoutoft hishellholeIwasdraggi
ngmyselfinto
causeital
mostmademegobackt othecol
dand
heartl
esspersonIwas.ThenIr ememberthatIhave
awi f
eandki dswhol ovemeverymuchandI
couldn’
thurtthem.Icouldn’
tbethepersonIsworeI
wasnevergoi ngtogobackt obefor
eImether.

Sbuisr eallythebestf riendandbr otherI ’

m always
goingtobegr atefultohavei nmyl if
e.Hehasbeen
wit
hussi ncewest artedt hesear chf ormymot her
andbr other.Heusedhi sresources, Iusedmi ne,
bonga, siceloevenmyf atheri
nl awal lhelpedust o
fi
ndt heanswer sandi thasbeenhar dbutt hen
whenwef i
nallymanagedt ofi
ndt hef amilymy
Father’
swi f
egr ewupi n.Wef oundt hatal lr
elat
ives
havedi eddur i
ngt hecour seoftheyear s.Thatwas
mypat ernalmot her’
ssi deofthef ami l
yandwe
nevergott oknowt hem.Iwassohear tbrokenIf el
t
ki
ll
ingsebenzi l
ef orr
obbi ngusoft hat.
Oursear chthenl edustooPhongol owher emy
mot hergrewup.Hermat ernalsideoft hefami l
yand
thatiswher ewear eatrightnow.Theguyssbu
foundhaveusaaddr essthatweshoul dgot o.I’
m
nervousasf uckcauseIdon’ tknowwhatorwhowe
aregoingt ofind.Thelastti
meIwast hi skindof
nervouswaswhenIwasget ti
ngmar r
iedt oluh.I
havepr omisedherdr eam weddi ngaftershegave
birt
handwhenIaskedherabouti ttheyearl ater
shesai dshedoesn’ twantanot herweddi ng.When
i
t’sourtenyearanni versarythenthat’
swher eshe
planherot herweddingandwasIt oarguewi t
hher.

Bongar eal
lyscrewedupwi t
hwhathedi d.Itoldhim
tostayawayf r
om thatgirlbuthewoul dn’tli
stento
meandnowhe’ saboutt olosehi smar ri
age
becausehecoul dn’
ttal
kt ohiswi feandputhi sdick
i
nhi spants.Butbongahasal waysbeenbt heone
nottotalktomuch.Ittakeshi m alongt i
met of i
nall
y
talkandtel
lyouwhati t
’sreall
ybot heringhi m andI
justwishhewasabl etotalktomel ikebef or
e.I
knowhei sscaredandt hinksthatmaybeI ’
m going
tochanget owardshim buthe’swr ongcausehei s
mybr other.Ilovehim, wil
lalwaysbet her eforhim
andpr otecthimi neverywaywhi chiswhatIhavet o
donow.Pr otectbothmybr ot
hersf r
om ourmot her
andthatbi tchhecheat edonSi mswi t
h.Luhi s
goingtof li
pwhenshef indsout ,
notf r
om me
thoughcauseIknowSi msi sgoingt otellher.
Bongadi dn’treali
sethatcheatingonSi msisn’tjust
goingtoaf fecthim butit
’sgoingt oaffectallofus
becauseourwi vesaregoi ngtobegi ntowonderi f
wear eal socheatingont hem tooandhi dingit.He
messedupbi gti
me.

“areyoureadyson?”mydadaskswal
kingi
nmy
bedroom i
nthehotelwe’
rest
ayi
ngi
n.

“I’
m ner
vousdad.Idon’tknowwhati
sgoingt
o
happenwhenwegett hereandi
t’
sdri
vingme
i
nsane.”

“Iknowyouhat
enotbei
ngi
ncont
rolofyourl
if
e
r
ightnowbutever
ythi
ngi
sgoi
ngt
obef
ine.”

“Whenqwabe?Fort woyear
swehavebeen
searchingf
oranswersbutwehavealwaysr
eached
adeadend.I ft
hepersonwefindal
eadonisnot
deadt heni
t’
sthewrongfamil
yorper
sonandI’
m
ti
reddad.I’
mt i
red.”

“Iknowson.I ’
m alsoti
red.Lookwewi l
lgothere
andasksomequest i
onst henifwef i
ndsomet hi
ng
usefulwetakeitanddigsomemor e.Wecan’tgive
upnowmbuso.”Ibr ushmyf ace.Ineedluh.Ineed
myf amil
yrightnow.

“Yourdadi sri
ghtbr other.Wecan’ tgiveupnowbut
Icanseet hi
sisal sot akingat ollemotionall
yonyou
bothsomaybei fwedon’ tfindwhatwear eall
hopingfortodayt henwest opl ooking,takeabr eak,
regr
oupt henfindot herwayswecangett he
answerswe’ r
el ookingf or.”sbusays.
“Okaylet’
sgo.”wel eavethehotelandsbu' sguy
dri
vesust owher etheinfor
mat i
onledhim andhi s
i
nvesti
gator.Onourwayweseet hi
sveryhuger i
ver
anditmakesmewonderi fthati
swher emymot her
andbrotherwer esupposedlykil
led.Wealllockeyes
aswepasst heriverwonderingthesamet hing.I
s
thi
stheriver
? .

Theguyconti
nuestodri
veandwepassthelandsof
manyfamil
iesunt
ilhest
opsonthesideoft
heroad.
WhenIlookaheadIseeafewhousesafewmet r
es
away.

“Boss,youseet
hatbr
ownlookinghouse?That’
s
whereyoumustgo.Someoneisexpect
ingyou.”he
saystous.

“ThanksJi
mmy.”
West epout
sidet
hecarandwalktowardsthe
house.Ever
ystepIt
akemylegsfeelheavyandmy
heartal
sofeel
sli
kei
tisgoi
ngtostopbeatingatany
minute.

“I
’
lldot
het
alki
ngboys.”

“Yesdad.”henods.Wewal kthenst
opoutsi
det
he
gate.“Nqonqo?(knockknock?)”mydadhumbl
y
shoutsoutsi
dethegate.

“Ngena.(comeoni n.)”someoneshout s.It

’sa
woman’ svoice.Dadopenst hegateandwewal kin
andheagai nknocksont hedoor.“ningangena
nihl
alephansi.(youcancomei nandsi tdown. )”
shesays.Wegetandt here’
sabenchnextt othe
cupboardandachai r.Dadtakesthechai randwe
si
tont hebench.There’snoonei nthekitchenbut
someonei saroundthehousecausewecanhear
shuff
linghappeninginthebedroom causet here’
sa
doorinthekitchenl
eadingtoit.
Wear el
ookingateachotherwaiti
ngforthewoman
tocomein.Wehearshuf f
li
ngofst epsthenshe
comesoutwal ki
ngslowl
y.She’sveryoldandyou
canseeherbonesar enolongerabletosuppor
ther
body.Bei
ngt hegoodboyswear e,meandsbu
qui
cklygetupandhel pt
ositinthechairdadpull
ed
outorher.

“ohngi yabongazizukuluzamia.(thankyoumy
grandki
ds.)”shesi tsdownt henlooksatus.
“Khanyi sai
sbanilaphamzukul ungizoni
bonakahe.
(switchont hel
ightssoIcanseeyoupr oper
ly.)”
shepoint si
nthewal lcl
oset othekit
chendoor.Iget
upandswi t
chinthel i
ghtthensitdown.“Whoar e
youmyson.Wher edoyoucomef rom?”sheasks
mydad.

“Sawubonamama.Mi nangi
ngumf okaGumede
uQwabengiqhamukal
eeMar i
tzburg.Ngi
hamba
namadodanawamilawaamabiliumbusono
si
busiso.Sihambasi yaf
unalanamanj eumkhondo
usikhombel aekhaya.(greet
ingsma'am.My
surnameisQwabeGumedeIcomef rom
Pieter
marit
zburgandIam her ewithmysons.We
arelooki
ngf orsomei nf
ormationaboutafami
lyand
i
tledusher e.)”

“Ihearyoumyson.Ther eisawoman, whocame

andaskedquest i
onsaboutt hefamilythatusedt
o
l
ivehereandshewant edt oknowi fIcanbeofhelp.
Iaskedheri fshe’
saskingf orhersel
forfor
someoneel sethensheexpl ainedthatshe’san
i
nvestigatorandwashi red.Itoldhertotel
lthe
peoplewhowantt hei
nfor mationtocomeher e
themselvesandher eyouar e.”

“yesmat hat
’swhywear eher
e.Canyoutel
lus
ever
ythi
ngyouknowaboutt heZi
kal
alaf
amily?”
shesmil
esandl ooksatme.

“TheZi
kal
alaf
ami
lywasaver
ywel
lknownf
ami
ly.
Everyoneher eint hevi ll
ageknewt hem becauseof
thei
rkindnessandofcour set heywer ever ywellof
family.Theyhadagr anddaught erthatlivedher e.
Shelivedwi thhergr andmot heranduncl esafterher
parentsdi edi nanacci dent.Itreall
ybr oket hem but
theyraisedt hegr anddaught ertheyhadunt i
lshe
grewupi ntoaver ybeaut ifulgirl
.Iremembershe
usedt obei nar elat ionshipwi ththistallwel lbuil
t
guylikeyougumede.Shegotpr egnanthi dthe
pregnancyf rom t hem causeshewasn’ tallowedt o
dateandt hef ami lyf oundoutaboutt hepr egnancy
whenshewascl oset ogivingbi rt
h.Her
grandmot herwasr eal l
yupsetwi t
hherbecauset he
boythatgotherpr egnantwasver yf araway.They
knewt hathei sfrom Mar it
zbur gbutt heydi dn’t
knowwher einther eexact ly.Theyst artedt o
preparef orherchi ldcauseshewassoongoi ngto
gointol abourt hent hedayshewenti nt othe
hospitalat ragict hinghappened.Thei rhousewas
burneddownandt heyl osteverything.Lucki lyher
grandmot herwasn’ tinthehousewheni tcaughtf ir
e.
Wewor kedt hewhol enightunt i
lthef i
redi ed.Just
whenwewer edonewesawawomanwhocamei n
runningandscr eamingt el
li
ngust hatkhanyowas
i
nt heforestcarryi
ngachi l
dwi thhercr ying
hysteri
call
y.Sheexpl ai
nedt hattheyhear dawoman
screamingint heri
verandwhent heygott her
eshe
wasi ntheriverstr
uggli
ngt oswi m.Shesawt hem
thenthrewthebabyt ot hem.”t earsfalldownmy
faceasIheart hisoldwomant ell
inguswhat
happenedt omymot her.

“thewoman’ shusbandgoti nt heriverinti

met o
catcht hebabyandhet henthrewt hebabyt ohis
wifet osavethechi l
d’smotherandbyGod’ sgrace
hemanagedt odragheroutbutat henhugewaves
ofwat ercameandhi tthem andtheyhi ttheirheads
onr ocks.Shehi therheadpr et
tyhar d.Wet henall
rant otheforestandwhenwegott hereshewas
l
yingdown, t
hehusbandwast ryi
ngt ostopt he
bleedinginherheadandhi sandt hebabywas
cryingsohar ditwoul d’
vebrokeyourhear t
.Tot hi
s
dayIst il
laskmysel fhowdidt hatnewbor nbaby
surviveinthatriver
?.”Shewi peshert earsand
cont i
nues.
“wet ookhert ot hehospi talandt hedoct orswer e
shockedt hatshewasbackbecauseshehadj ust
givenbi rthtot winsboysbutt herewasonl yone
baby.Nokukhanyakeptcr yi
ngandcr yi
ngandt hey
hadt osedat eherandchecki fthebabywasokand
hewasokay.Theykeptt hem att hehospi talfor
threedaysandheruncl eswentbackt other iverto
l
ookf ort heot herboybutt heyneverf oundhi m.
Event hewhi tepol icecameandt heyneverf ound
theot hert winboy.I tbrokeal lofusbutf orkhanyoi t
waswor sebecauseshel osthermemor y.The
doctor sexplainedt hatsomeonehi therheadhar d
andt henagai nwhenshehi ttherockst hent rauma
becamet oomuch.Theysai dshemi ghtgai nher
memor iesbackorshenevermi ghtcausemaybe
hermi ndwaspr otectingherf rom atraumat ic
momentt hathappenedwhenshewashi t.Her
familyhadt houghtt hatmaybeherchi l
dren’sf ather
wast heonewhohi therandst oleoneoft hekids
butthent heyal soknewi twasi mpossiblebecause
hewasf arawaywhenmydaught erexplainedt hat
tothem t hatitwasn’taboyf rom her ei nthevill
age
butfaraway.Thent heysuspect edt hatsomeone
wasoutt ogett hei
rfamily.Khanyoandt hebaby
werer eleasedf r
om thehospit althenshest ayedin
thehousef oraf ewdayst henaf teraf ewdayswe
wokeupandt hewholefami l
ywasgone.Theysol d
thei
rlandandcowsandonl yt ookt hecar s.They
weregoneandt othisdayIdon’ tknowwher ethey
areorwher etheywentt o.”mygodt hi
sist oomuch.
Ican’tbel i
eveshel i
edandsai dmymot hersl i
pped
andfel lwheni nactual
lyshehi thert henpushedher
andmybr othertori
ver.Iwipemyt ears.

“Iguessyouaret
hemant hatgotherpr
egnantand
he’
stheothert
wincausehedoeslookli
keher.”she
sayslooki
ngatme.

“Iam mamaandyeshe’
stheot
hert
win.”shenods.

“Di
dyoustealhi
m orsendsomeonetot
akeachi
ld
awayf
rom t
heirmother
?”Icanhearhur
tand
di
sappoi
ntmenti
nhervoi
ce.

“Nomama.Hert wi
nsist
erist
heonet hatpushed
thei
ntot
heri
verandstol
etheothert
wi n.”she
l
ooksathi
m shocked.

“Khanyohadat winsisterandnooneknew?”she
cl
apsherhands.Sebenzi legaveluhmymot her’
s
namewhenwegotmar ried.Idon’tknowifIshould
behappythatshedidt hatorstranglehertodeath
becauseshedidthatoutofgui lt
.

“nooneknewmama.Whenwef oundoutwehave
beensear chingfortwoyearsunt
iloursearchledus
here.”mydadsaysandyoucanseet hatheis
exhausted,he’sti
r edandhurt
.Don’teverwantto
experi
encet hiskindofbetr
ayalf
rom anyoneIlove.

“youshoul
dnotst
opl
ooki
ngf ort
hem don’
tgi
veup
andmaybetheyar
eal
lst
il
lal
iveandlooki
ngforyou
too.You’
vecomef
ar,
sodon’
tgi
veupnow.”weal
l
nod.

“Wher
eishert
winsi
sternow?”

“she’sdead.”dadsaysandIgetcol
dchi
ll
s.That
neverhappenstome.

“EyI
’
m sosor
ryt
oheart
hatshe’
snomor
e.”

“ust
oomama.Thankyouf
oral
lyourhel
pmama
andwe’
l
ldoasyousai
d.Wewon’
tgiveupnow.”

“whodoyoul
ivewi
thgogo?”shesof
lt
ylaughs.

“Il
ivewi
thmygr anddaughter.Shewenttotownto
buysomepill
sinthechemist.Thesebonesareno
l
ongerst
rong.”shesmiles.
“Doyouknowwhatisthenewofmybr
other
?”I
askher
.Herbr
owsfurr
owandsheseemstothi
nk.

“OhyesIr emembernow.Hi snamei sBusani.”my

dadchokesasob.Wel ookathi
m andhewi peshis
tears.“i
t’
sokaytocr ymyson.Youwi l
lfi
ndyour
othersontoo.Didyoutwotalkaboutthenamesof
thekidsyouwillhave?”

“……..Wedid.Wesai di
ftheyar
etwinswewoul
d
namethem busaniandmbuso.”shepat
smydad’s
hand.

SbuandIl ookateachot her

.Wehaveanamenow
andwecanst ar tdi
gging.Hetakesouthisphone
andpressesit.Hestandsupandgoest othedoor
buthecoll
ideswi thsomeone.Sheyelpsandalmost
fal
lsbuthecat chesherandtheybothstareateach
otherf
orwhatseemsl ikeaneter
nit
y.Icoughhard
thensbuquickl
ypul
lsback.Shel
ooksdownandI
l
ookatsbuwho’ sst
il
lwatchi
ngher.Iknowt
hatl
ook.
Yeahanotheronebi
testhedust
.

“ohntombi,usubuyi
le?(ohyou’
reback?
)”t
he
grannyasks.

“Yebogogo.Sani bonani(yesgranny.Good
aft
ernoon.)”shesayscomi nginandputti
ngthe
pl
asticsdown.Sbucomesbackt ooandsi t
s
watchingher.He’sgoingtogetuskickedoutof
here.Wegr eetherback.

“canImakeyousomethingt
oeatanddr
ink?”she
asksst
il
llooki
ngdown.

“hawsbani?Youdon’ taskvi
sit
orsifyoucanmake
them somet
hingtoeat.Yougivethem foodand
somet hi
ngt
odrink.”sherepr
imandsher .
“ehgogoit
’sokay.Wewereaboutt
ol eaveanyway.
”Isayandsbugivesmeadeathstare.Ialmost
l
aughcauseIwant edt
oseethi
sexactreacti
on.

“nonsense.Sbaniwil
lcookchickenandpapf oryou
now.Let’
sgosi tout
sideandlethercookus
somethi
ngsoyoucaneatbef or eyougobackhome.
”wenod, Itakegogo’shandanddadt akesoutthe
chai
rs.

“uhm I
’
llbr
ingt
hebench.”sbusaysst
ayi
ngbehi
nd.

“hel
phermakeussomet hingtodrinkint
he
meanti
me.”shesaystosbut henshakesherhead.
Wewalktothetr
eethensitherdownt hechai
r.
“thi
swil
lgi
veissometi
met ot
alk.”shesays.

“wer
eli
steni
ngmama.”mydadsays.
“Whenyouf indyourson, youwi l
lhavet opayt he
damagest oherf ami l
yf orherandbot hyourki ds.
Thenyouwi l
ldoacer emonyf orhim andi ntroduce
himt oyourancest orslikehowyoudi dt oumbuso.
Thenwhenyoui ntr
oducehi m, youwillintr oduce
bothoft hem t oyourancest orscauset heyar eone
person.Ther easonwhyhi smar ri
agei sf acingso
muchpr oblemswi t
hpeopl ecomi ngaf terhi swi feis
becausehi sancest or
sar et ryi
ngt omakehi m
awaret hatsomet hi
ngi swr ong.Mbusoyouhave
boughtat hir
dhousenowandnotoncehaveyou
hadacer emonyt owel comeal lyourancest orsi n
yourhomes.Howwi l
ltheybeabl etopr otectyou
andyourf ami l
ymbuso? .Youhavet odot hatcause
i
fyou’ r
enotcar efulsomet hingbadwi llhappent o
youcauset here’
ssomet hingt hatkeepsf ollowing
youandi tisdanger ous.”whatt hehell
? !.

“kumeleuhlal
’uphahl
embuso,ukhulumenabakini
ngobauyazizi
ntononkeeni
zenzayo.Ngekenihl
ale
ngokugezakuphelaumani
cedalomsebenziwenu.”
“Ngi
yezwagogo.(Ihearyougr
andmot
her
.)”

“whateverdecisionyoutakegumeder egardi
ng
yourwifeisgoingtobehar derthanwhatyou’ r
e
goingthroughnow.Youhavet obest r
ongandt hi
nk
ofyourfami l
y.”dadnods.Sbui sstil
linthehouse
andsbani '
sgrandmotherkeepsl ooki
ngatt hedoor
.

“uhm l
etmegocheckwhati
skeepi
ngsbui
nsi
de.”

“Leavet
hem t
her
e.Theyar
etal
king.”Inod.

“Yourwi fe’
sancestorsarewat chi
ngoveryou
mbusoyourwi f
eisaspeci alwoman.She’ shi
ghly
favoured.Shesomehowr emindsmeofyourbi rt
h
mot her….
”shesayst hekeepsqui et.“
…..
hermother
l
ovesyout ooandshe’shappywi t
hhowyoul ove
herdaught er
.Shelovesthet winstoo.Whois
pregnantinthefamily?”what ?
“someonei
spr
egnant
?”shel
aughs.

“ohdon’tmindthi
ssil
lyol
dwomansomet i
mes
thi
ngsjustcomeoutofmymout h.”i
sluhpr
egnant
?
Asmilecreepsoutofmyface.

“yourl i
ttl
ebrothertheonet hatchoosesnott obe
cl
osewi ththefamil
yneedst obebr oughtcloser
causet hingsarenotgoi ngwellforhim.Heneeds
hisbrothersandespeci all
yhisdad.Br inghim home.
Yourot herbrother
’smar ri
ageisalsonotgoi ngokay.
Yourancest orsarenothappywi t
ht hef i
ghti
ngthat
i
sgoi ngon.Ohgoodf i
nall
yher etheycomeout .”
shelaughs.DadandIar estil
linshockwi th
everythingshehasj ustsaidtousnow.

Weat
eadelici
ouschickenandpap.Ihadf
orgott
en
howasl
aughterchi
ckentast
esli
ke.Weatethen
dranksomej uiceandsbucont inuedtoembar rass
himselfcausehel ookedlikealovest ruckt eenager .
ManIcan’ twaittotellt
heguys.Wet hankedherf or
thethi
ngsshet ol
dusaboutmymot hert henwel eft
heralitt
lesomet hi
ngt ohelpthem wi t
hf oodand
whattheywoul dneed.Shet hankedust henasked
total
kt osbu.Wel efthim andwal kedint othecar
sil
entl
y.Noonewast al
kingcausewehadal ott o
thi
nkabout .Hecameaf t
erthirt
ymi nutest henwe
l
efttoDur ban.Isentbongaandsi celoansmst hat
weshoul dmeett omor r
owcausewear et i
red.

Wear ri
veat11: 30pm , dadasksmet odrophi m off
atbonga’spl aceandsbucomeswi thme.Ever yone
i
nmyhousei ssl eepingaswedr i
veinandpar kthe
car.“youknowt heroom yousleepin.Welltalk
tomorrowman.”webr ohugandhegoest ot he
otherdir
ectionwher ehesleepswhenhe’st oot i
red
ordrunktogot ohi shouseandIgot otheot herone.
Igotooneoft heot herguestbedroomsandqui ckl
y
showercauseIdon’ twanttowakeluh,weart he
samecl othest hengot oseemyki dswhoar e
sleepingpeacef ull
yandki sst heirchubbycheeks,
kamoi ssleepingintheot herbedcauseshewant s
tosleepwher ethetwinssl eep.Wehadt obri
nga
bedi nheref orher.Ihearshuf fli
ngint heot
her
bedroom andIgot oitandopent hedoorand
switcht helightson.Theboysl ookatt hedoor
shockedandIcanseepani ci
nt heirfaceswhen
theyseei t’
sme.Igeti nthencl osethedoorand
walkt owar dsthem.

“whyaren’
tyousl
eepingcauseit’
slat
e?”Iaskal
l
oft
hem butI’
mlooki
ngatmel usisi
ncehe’
sthe
ol
dest
.

“baba,wewer
ejustt
alki
ngt
hat
’sal
l.”hi
svoi
cei
s
shaki
ng.

“whatar
eyouhi
dingmel
usi
?”

“Not
hingbabaIswear
.”Ipul
lhi
sduvetof
fthen
seehisphonescr
eenon.It
akei
tthenseehei
s
chat
ti
ngwi t
hsomegir
l.

“Who’
sBecky?”hel
ooksdown.

“hi
swhi
tegi
rl
fr
iendPapa.”sayskagi
so.What
?

“Tel
lBeckygoodni
ghtcausei
t’
slat
e.”

“Butbabai
t’
stheweekend.”mel
usisays.

“andIsaysleepcauset omorr
owisSundayand
youhavetoprepareforschoolonMonday.Tel
lher
goodnightorI’
l
ltakethatphonemel
usi!
.”hesi
ghs.

“Ok.”hetypessomethi
ngthenamessagepings
back.Heswitcheshi
sphoneoffandt
heothersgo
tothei
rbeds.
“goodni
ghtboys”

“goodni
ghtbaba.Goodni
ghtpapa.”It
urnand
walk.

“Baba?”Il
ookatmel
usi
.

“areyoumadatus,
me?”Igot
ohi
m andsi
tonhi
s
bunkbed.

“NoboyI
’m notmadatallofyou.I
’
mjustti
redand
Imi
ssedal
lofyou.That
’sall
.”hesmil
es.

“I
sever
ythi
ngokay?”boyI
’
dyouknew.

“yeahi
tisboy.Areyouokay?”helooksli
kehe
wantst
otalkbutdeci
desagainsti
t.I
’
llhavet
otal
k
t
oluhcausebot
hoft
hem ar
ever
ycl
ose.

“Iam baba.Goodni
ghtt
hen.”If
istbumpwi
thal
lof
them.

“Goodni ghtboys.”Iswi tchofthel i

ghtsandclose
thedoor .Iwaitaf ewmi nutesandt hi
nkaboutwhen
heaskedmei feverythingisokay? .Melusiisa
smar tchildandhemi ghthaveani deawhati sgoi
ng
on.Themor et heygrowt heharderitisgoingtobe
tohidesomeoft hethingsf rom t
hem.Ever ythi
ngis
notokayboyatal l
.

Iwalkdownt hecor ridortoourbedroom andopen

thedoor.Icanf eelherperfumei nourbedroom.I
fuckenmissedher .Awhol eweeknotbeingnearher
wasveryhar d.Ilockt hedoortakeoffmycl ot
hes
thengetinbedwi t
hher .Iremovetheduvetandsee
she’sweari
ngmyT- shir
t.She’
ssleepingonher
stomachsogi vehersweetgent l
ekissesfrom her
toestoupherl egsandbacksi de.ShemoansasI
pul
lherunder
weardownherl
egsandout
.

“You’
reback.”Icanhearasmi
leonherf
ace.

“Iam baby.”Imovemybodydownsomyf acecan

beinfrontofherass.Imoveherl
eftlegtosidethen
openherasscheeksandseeherpi nk,pl
um, jui
cy
pussy.Imovecloserthenburymyfaceinherand
eatwhatisdamnmi ne.DamnImissedthis.

#ToReadRemovedont
elegr
am cl
ickont
hel
ink.
CHAPTER63.

MBUSO.

Waki ngupint hearmsofmywi feagainaft

er
sleepingwithoutherforanenti
reweekisthebest
thingever.Ifuckedherbacktosleepagai
nt hi
s
mor ningaft
erar eal
lyhotst
eamingsession.Iwoke
upwi thmydickinhermout handfuckme, she
suckedmegood.It houghtshewasgoi ngt owake
uptiredbutIwaswr ongcausemybabymi ssedme
asmuchasIdi d.Ilovehowf reesheisnowwi t
hher
sexualit
yandshe’snolongerthatshygirlwhoknew
nothi
ngwheni tcomest osex.She’safreakinthe
bedroom nowandIl oveeverymomentofi t.Fuck
I’
m crazyabouti
t.
Icanhearat hudont hedoor,someonei soutsi
de
thegym andi stryi ngt ogetinandIhaveani dea
whoi tisorwhot heyar e.Iguesst heyhavewoken
up.Iwaswat chingt henewsont het readmill
,
catchinguponmyexer ci
se.Iturnt hespeeddown,
rununt i
litstops.Getof f,t
akethet owelandwi pe
myf aceandchest .Iwal ktothedoorandsl owl y
openi tandseeyepbot hofthem st andingont he
doorknocki ngi fthati swhatt heywer edoing.I
chuckle.Ican’ tbel ieveImadet hesel i
ttl
epeopl e.
Theyhavet heirmomshai randski ncol ourandeyes.
Everythingelsei sme.Noonecandenyt hatt
hese
kidsaremi ne.Icr ouchdownt otheirlevelandpul l
them tomyar ms.
“daddy!”theybothsay.Igi
vethem ki
ssesonthe
cheeksandt heysharef
it
sofcutegiggl
es.That
’s
l
ikethemostamazi ngsoundaparentcanhear.
Havingyourkidslaughi
ngandsmili
ng.Beinghappy.
“Heyboys,
whataretwodoinghereandwhere’
s
mommy?”t heyshaket
hei
rheads.OkIguessthey
don’
tknow.
“Di
dyoumi
ssdaddy?”
“yes.”sbonel
osays.
“Imi
ssedyout
ooboys,
wher
e’saunt
y?”
“t
her
e….”hepoi
ntssomewher
ear
oundt
hehouse.
“oklet’
sgoandeat
,daddyi
shungr
y,ar
eyout
wo
hungry?”
“Yes!
.”t
heysayexci
tedandcl
aptheirhandsbut
sboni
sol
ayshisheadonmyshoulderandyawns.I
tur
nandlookatt
heclockandi
t’
s7:30am.
“Sbonel
o,youhavetostopwakingyourbrother,
l
ookathim he’
ssti
llsl
eepy!
.”hefrownsmaki nga
cut
efaceandIlaugh.“okcomeon, daddywi l
l
makeyousomet hi
ngtoeat.”t
heybothwr aptheir
l
ittlehandsar oundmyneck.Babi esgivethebest
hugs.Mygym i sfarfr
om wher etheysleepandthe
kitchen.Iwonderhowt heygotherebutmaybet hey
remembert hewaycauseIusual lytakethem wi
th
mewhenIgot here.I’
m gladthatthewholehouseis
chi l
dpr oofedorelseIwoul dbever yworri
edbutno
Ist i
llam causehowdi dthenanniesnotseeorhear
them l eavi
ngt hei
rroom.Thei rmotherissti
ll
sleepingandspeaki ngofwhich,Ichangedi r
ect
ion
andgot oourbedroom.
Iopenthedoorandthewaterisrunninginthe
shower.Igr
incausemaybeImi ghtjustgetanother
one,pr
oblem i
stheboys.Weleavemybedr oom and
wewal kdownthecorri
dort
otheboysbedr oom,.I
openthedoorandofcoursetheyareawake.
Sbonelowantsmet oputhi
m downassoonashe
seeshiscousi
ns.Idoandher unstothem excit
ed.
“mor
ningboys.”
“Mor
ningpapa,
mor
ningbaba.”t
heyal
lsay.
“canyouwatchovert
heboysf
oraf
ewmi
nut
es,
I’
ll
beri
ghtback”
“We’l
lwatcht
hem baba.”Inod.Itr
ytoputsboni
so
downbutheholdsontomet ight
.Damnchamp,
you’
reki
ll
ingmyvibehere!
.
“youdon’
twanttopl
aywit
hMel ?”heshakeshi s
head.Mel
usicomestousandtriest
otakehim but
mysonwon’thavenonofthatcausehecri
es.
“Ok, ok,comewi t
hdaddyt hen.Boysbr ushyour
teethsinceyouralreadyawaket hengodownst ai
rs
forbreakfastandpleasenor unning.Melusigo
checkonkamocauseIdon’ tknowi fshe’
sstil
l
sleepingorawake.”
“Okbaba.”
“
Sbonel
ocome.”heshakeshi
sheadandgoest
o
mel
usi.
“youdon’
twantt
obrushyourteethwi
thdaddy?”
hesmil
esandshowsmehist eet
handwel augh.
Thenhecomestomeandt akesmyhand.
“makeyourbeds,t
eeththenbreakfast.”Iwalkout
withthetwi
nsandgotoourbedr oom.Icanf orget
aboutthequi
cki
eIthoughtIwasgoi ngtogetwi t
h
thei
rmom.Weopent hedoorandshe’ scomi ngout
t
otal
lynaked.
“Doyouthi
nkthey’l
lnot
iceifwedoaquicki
e?”I
’
m
j
ustpul
li
ngherleg.Shelaughs.Iputt
heki
dsonthe
bedandsboni
solet’
sgo.
“theywi
llandIdon’
twantt
oscarmyki ds.Close
yourmouthandwhere’
syourT-shi
rt
?.”sheasks
me.Theonlythi
ngI’
mfocusingonisthatbeauti
ful
bodyofhers.
“butbabyI
’
m har
d?”shel
aughs.If
aceawayf
rom
theki
dsandgr
abmydickshowingi
ttoher
.
“uh-huhI’
m sorembuso,
Wat
cht
heki
dswhi
leI
dressup.”Ichuckl
e
“Oklove.I’
llwat
cht hem ”shegoestothecloset
andIlaydowni nt hebedandthetwinslayonmy
chesttoo.“man, youguysareki
ll
ingmyvi be.
”I
ti
ckl
ethem andt heylaugh.
“Daddylovesyouverymuch.You’ r
et hebestt
hing
thathaseverhappenedinmyl if
e.Yout woandyour
mom aremywor l
d.Ijustneedtofindyouruncle
whohopef ul
lyl
ookslikeyourdaddyandyout wo.
Doyout hi
nkdaddywi llf
indhisbrother?”
“yes!.”t
heysayexci
ted.Ihopet
heyareri
ght.I
real
lyneedtofi
ndhim andknowthathe’
sokay.
“
areyouokay?”sheaskssi
tt
ingnextt
ome.
“Ihavemyf ami l
yr ightherewithmel ove,why
wouldn’
tIneedokay?”shecocksherheadt ot he
si
de.Itoldherever ythingthathappensl astnight
whenwewer elayi
ngi neachot her’
sar msbut
l
eavingoutsomepar ts.“Ineedtof i
ndhi ml uh.
Somethingtell
smet hathe’sal
ivebutI ’
m scar ed
causeIdon’tknowi fhe’sokay,ishewel l
offtoo
eventhoughIknowourmom’ ssi deoft hefami ly
waswel lofbutaftert heysoldeverythingandl eft,
anythi
ngcouldhavehappenedt othem ”
“iti
spossi bl
ebutwehavet obehopefult
hatthey
aresti
llali
ve,evenyourmothert
oobaby.Iknow
youdon’ twanttogetyourhopesupandI
understand.I
’mr i
ghtheref
oryoubaby.”
“thanksmylove.I’
m goingt
oshower
.Wi
llyouwai
t
orI’
llf
indyoui
nt heki
tchen?
.”
“It
hinktheseli
tt
leguysarehungr
yandmybaby
her
eislookingsl
eepy.Sbonel
odidyouwakeyour
brot
heragai
n?.”mysonshakeshi
shead.“i
fyou
wakeyourbrot
heragai
nsbonel
oI’
m goi
ngtospank
you!
.”
“mommyno.”hesaysandl
ooksatme.
“uhhuhdon’
tlookatme.Saysor
rymommy?”
“sorr
ymama”hesays.Iget ,
leavet
hem t
her
e
chuckl
ing.Luhshakesherhead.
“l
et’
sgomyl
it
tl
eones”Ihearhersay.
BeforeIwentt othegym whenIl ef tl
uhsl eepingI
wentt omyof fi
ceandst art
edsear chingf ormy
brotherBusaniont henetandhackedmany
governmentdepar tmentsforanyi nformat i
onabout
mybr other
.Ther e’snodeat hcertif
icate,bir
th
certi
fi
cateormar riagecer t
if
icat
e.Iusedhi sname
andoursur name, clannames.Ourmot her’
s
surnameandevenhercl annamesbutt here’sno
person,whowasbor nt
hesameyear ,mont hand
dateIwas.I twasl ikeIwassear chingf oraper son
whodoesn’ texist.Iwassof r
ustratedandIwentt o
thegym totakeoutmyf rustr
ati
ons.
AsI
’
m shower
ingIr
emembersomet
hing.Damn
whydi dn’
tIthi
nkofi ti
nthemor ningorthelast
year?.Iqui
cklyfi
nish,wearmycl othesthentakemy
phoneandscr ol
lthroughthemanynumber sIhave.
Ican’tfi
ndit
.Fuck!.Irunoutofourbedr oom and
str
aighttomyof f
iceandal mostcol l
idewit
hsbu.
“Heysl
owdown.What
’swr
ong?
.”
“come”wegettomyof
fi
ceandIsi
tdownand
openmylapt
op.
“Manwhati
sgoi
ngon?”
“gi vemeaf ewminutes.”Igot omyphoner ecor
ds,
typet heyearandmont hthenwait.Aft
erafew
mi nutesthenumberthedat espopupwi t
hnumber s
andIseet henumberthatIwant.“Ifoundthe
number .”
“Whatnumber
?.”
“yourememberaft
erthemessageIt ol
dyouguys
aboutaft
erwel
eftPortEl
izabeth?.Theguy
thanki
ngmeforsavi
nghisni ece?
.”
“YeahIr
ememberbutwhatabouti
t?”
“Hesai
dshoul
dIneedanyt
hingImustcont
acthi
m.
ThismorningIwasi nthisoffi
ceandIsearchedfor
busanialloversbu.Ihackedeverygover
nment
departmentandagenci esIknowhavepeople’sf
il
es
butIfoundnot hi
ng.”
“Soyout
hinkt
heymi
ghtbeabl
etohel
pus?”
“maybe.Idon’
tknowmanbuti
t’
swor
that
ry.”
“callhi
mthen….”t hedooropens.Si
cel
oand
bongacomei nfol
lowedbydadandt heyar
eall
carr
yingpl
atesoffood.
“whoar ewecal
li
ng?”Ihugdad, br
ohugscel oand
meandbongashar eaveryt
ightbrother
lyhug.He
knowswhatI’
mf eel
ingandIalsoknowwhathe’ s
feel
ing.
“Youokay?”Iaskhi
m andheshakeshi
shead.
“myl
if
eisamessr
ightnow.You?”
“I’
vebeenbett
erbro.”wehugagainthensitdown.
“Where’
sourfood?”Iaskthem.Thisismyhouse
andtheygetser
vedbefor
eme?That ’
scrazy.
“Dadgotser
vedf
irstangi
thiumuziwakhelona.
(dadgotser
vedf
ir
stcauseitishi
shouse.)”bonga
says.
“Foolshutup.”wel augh.Thedooropensagain
andmyl it
tl
ekidswal ki
ncarryi
ngplat
esoffood
fol
lowedbyt hei
rmom andauntsims.Wel augh.
Theylooksoador abl
e.Theyarehelpi
ngthem carr
y
theplat
es.Luhandsboni sowalktomeandgi veme
mypl at
e.
“thankyouboy”Itakemypl
atethentakehim and
throwhimintheai
randhescreamslaughing.Luh
andsimsleaveusandtheki
dsstaybehind.
“whoar
ewecal
li
ng?”scel
oasksandIexpl
ain.
“youthi
nkt
heyhavet
her
esour
ceswedon’
thave?”
heasks.
“YeahIdo.”
“Callhim andhearwhathesays..”dadsayseati
ng
hi
sfood.Hel ostsomuchwei ghtandI’
mr eal
ly
worri
edabouthi m.It
hinkt
hatheneedst oseehis
wif
eandhaveat alkwi
thhercauseavoidi
ngand
i
gnor i
ngherisnotgoodforhi
sheal t
h.
“Baba?
.”hel
ooksupandIt
hinkheknowswhatI
’
m
goi
ngt
osaycauseheshakeshi
shead.
“leti
tgombuso.Justcal
lhi
m andhearwhathe
says.
”andt
hat’
stheendofthat.
BongaandIsharealookandhealsotel
lsmet olet
i
tgoandIdofornow.Itakemyphoneandt apthe
numberst
henputitonmyear .I
tgoesthroughand
i
tri
ngs.Ri
ngs,r
ingsandrings.
“Gumede!Qwabe.I ’
vebeenwaitingforthi
scal
lfor
yearsandIal mostthoughtitwasnevergoingto
happenbutIwaswr ong.TowhatdoIowet hi
s
pleasure.”hesays.Cockysonofabi tch.Hel
aughs.
“yeahIwon’ tt
akethatpersonalcausemymom i sa
bitch.
”Hesayschuckl i
ng.Isai
dt hatl
oud.
“Mt
hant
i.”hekeepsqui
ett
henchuckl
es.
“Iknewyouwoul
dfi
ndout
,whoIam.
”Hesays.
“If
oundoutaboutyout
henextdayyousentt
hat
SMS.How’syourni
ecedoi
ng?”
“Shegraduat
ed.She’
sdoi
nggoodal
thoughi
ttook
hersometime.
”Hesays.
.
“Iunder
stand.I
’
m gl
adshe’
sdoi
nggood.”sboni
so
can’
tsi
tst
il
l.Scel
otakeshi
mfr
om meandhe
doesn’
tmi
nd.
“Youhelpedher.SoIguessthi
sisnotafri
endl
y
cal
l.You’
reher
et ocol
lecti
fImayputitt
hatway.”
hesays.
“notexact
lybutIneedal i
tt
lehel
pwit
hfindi
ng
someonecauseI’m hit
ti
ngdeadends.Meandmy
brot
hersarenotget
tinganywherewi
ththesear
ch.”
Iexpl
ain.
“i
tsoundsli
kethepersondoesn’
twanttobefound
i
fyouthegreat
esthackerandI.
Tgurucan’
tfi
nd
hi
m.Whoi sit
?”
“Weneedt
omeetsoIcant
ellyou.”
“Soundsser
ious.”
“iti
scausei
fitwasn’
tIwoul
dn’
thavecont
act
ed
you.”
“Igetyou.Wecan’
ttal
kaboutt
heset
hingsont
he
phoneanyway.Whendoyouwanttomeet?”
“Assoonaspossi
ble.”
“comet
oPr
etor
iat
omyhouse.”
“We’
l
lbet
her
etoni
ght
.”
“am Igoingt
omeett
hewhol
efami
ly?”heasks.
He’
scurious
“maybe.Justexpectpeopl
e.”
“I
’
llsendyoumyaddr
ess.”
“t
hanksf
orhear
ingmeout
.”
“l
aterman.”hesayst
henhangup.
Ilookatt hem andtheyareallfini
shedeati
ng.My
foodiscol dandI ’
m hungry.Iknowwher ehishouse
i
tatandever yt
hingabouthi m causeIdiddoan
i
nvest i
gat i
onabouthiml i
kehedi dwithme.He’sa
veryprivatepersonli
keusevent houghhisfamil
yis
verywel lknownbuthe’snoti nthespotl
ightcause
helikest obebehindthescenes.That ’
sthepeopleI
fuckwi t
h.
“whowant
stogot
oPr
etor
iawi
thme?”Il
ookatt
he
guys.
“I’
m goi
ngtoseeyourmother
.Sbusendmet he
l
ocati
on.”dadget
supkissesthet
winsthenlooks
atme.“tel
lmehowitgoes.You?”hepoint
sat
bonga.“bett
erfi
xthi
smessyoucreat
ed.Yourl
it
tl
e
brot
herneedsbothofyou.Mbusocomebackwit
h
zi
pho.”heleavesus.I
tgetsqui
etf
orawhil
eaft
er
dadleaves.
“I
’
m wor
ri
edabouthi
m.”bongasays.
“Heneedstoseemom.Ithi
nkhe’
l
lcomeback
bet
ter
.Ihopehedoes.”
“It
’sbeentwoyear
s.Hecan’
tavoi
dherf
oreveror
el
sehe’sgoingt
olosei
tanddosomedangerous.”
scelosays.
“Butwheredoyouevent ofor
givet
hemotherof
yourchi
ldr
en,thewomanyoul ovef
ordoi
ng
somethi
nglikethi
s.?
.”hesaysshaki
nghi
shead.
“Icheatedonsims.”scel
oandsbulookathi
m
shocked.Scel
olooksathi
mt henl
aughs.Ohf
uck
no!Didhehadt ot
ellt
hem now?.
“Youdidwhat
?.”Hel
aughsthenstops.Hegetsup
andIgetupt
ooandtakesbonisof
rom him.Iopen
thedoor
.
“gugu?”Ishoutt
henameofoneoft
henanni
es.
Shecomesi
nrunni
ngf
oll
owedbyanot
her
.
“si
r?”theybothlookter
ri
fi
edcauseIhavenever
sai
dtheirnames.Igivet
hem t
hekidsthencl
osethe
door
.
“youfuckencheat
edonsims?!.Whybongaexpl
ain
thi
stome!.Howdoyouf uckencheatonyourwi
fe?
!
”hescreamsathisface.
“didwenotpromiseeachothert
hatwearenever
andImeannever,evergoi
ngtocheatonourwives
bonga?”sbusays.
“IgotweakandIbr okeherheart.I
’m sorr y….”
scelolandsahar dpunchonbonga' sfaceandIf eel
somet hingbreaki
ngthensbul andsanot heroneon
hisrightcheekandIhearhisnosebr eaki ngandhe
bleeds.Iwantt opunchhi
mt oobutIwon’ t.He’s
alreadygetti
ngwhathedeser ves.Het akesi tl
ikea
manhei s.
Ijusthopet
hisdoesn’tbreakhismar r
iagebutcome
hellorhi
ghwat ert
hatwon’ thappenonmyaccount .
I’
l
lmakesuret hatmybr otherhasthefamil
ythathe
l
ovesanddeser vesandt hat’
shiswifeandkids.No
onewi l
lcomebetweenthem evenifhe’st
heone
thatwentoutsi
dethei
rmarri
age.Iknowher egr
etsit
andI’m sur
ehe’snevergoi
ngtodoi tagai
n.Hewill
dohisbesttokeephisfamil
ytogether.
“I
’m notgoi
ng.Si
msi sn’
tfeel
ingwel
l
,shehardl
y
sl
eptlastni
ght
.”Ifr
owncoul dshebetheonewho’
s
pr
egnant?
“what
’swr
ongwi
thher
?”Iaskhi
m
“Idon’
tknow.We’
reseei
ngadoct
ort
omor
row.”he
says.
“Ican’
tbeli
eveyoucheat edonher.It
’st
hestr
ess
that
’smakinghersick.Youbett
erfixi
tbongacause
I
’m notgoi
ngliveinahousewher emywi fewoul
d
thi
nkthatmaybeI’l
lcheatonhertoo.Fuckyou
man!.”he’
sreall
ypissed.
“youal
readyknewt
hathewascheat
ingdi
dn’
tyou?
”sbuasksme.
“Ipunchedhi
mt ooonhisnutswhenIf
oundout
.”I
l
ie.Theydon’
tneedtoknowthat
.
“Ican’
tleavet
oo.Ihaveani
mpor
tantmeet
ing
tomorr
owwi ththemayor
.Idon’tknowwhathe
wantsbuttheysaidi
t’
surgent
.”Ihopethatmeet
ing
hasnothi
ngt odowit
hbongaandt hatbit
ch.
“I’
l
lcomewithyoubro.”sbusays.He’
sgotmy
backal
ways.Iknowhewi l
lneverl
etmegotomeet
someoneal
onewebot hdon’tknow.
“canyouandl esegowatchthetwins?Iwantto
takel
uhwithmebutIdon’ tknowifshe’l
lagr
eeto
l
eavethem behind.”scel
osmiles.
“it’
saboutt i
methoselit
tl
eonesspentti
mewit
h
thei
runcle.Youcantakeasl ongasyouwant
.”we
l
aughandt hewholetensiondi
ssol
ves.
“I
’
m sor
ryguys.IknowImessedupandI
’
llf
ixi
t.”
“Bongawear eallhereforyouman.Ifyoucan’tt
alk
toyourwife,youcomet ooneofusandt al
k.You
don’tgoaroundandf uckwomenman.That ’s
fuckedup.Whati sthisbrother
hoodaboutifwe
keepsecretsfrom eachotherandhurtourwives?”
he’sgotapointthere.
“I
’
m notmar
ri
edyet
.”sbusaysandwel
augh.
“notf
orl
ong”Isayandt
heguysl
ookatme.
“didyoumeetsomeonewedon’
tknowabout
?”
sceloasks.Sbuj
ustl
aughs.
“Idon’
tknowwhathe’
stal
kingabout
.”
Ithi
nkmybr otherherehasmett hewomanhe’ s
meantt obewi th.Questi
oni showwi llhedealwith
everythi
ngregar di
nghissituati
onandwi l
lshe
agree?ButIt hi
nkshewi llwithsagrandmot herl
ike
that.Shemightal r
eadyknowwhatsbui swhichis
somet hi
ngonl yhisclosefri
endsknow.Meani ngme,
bongaandscel o.Thepeople.Whowor kforhim and
hisfamilyobviously.I
fheloveshert hewayIt hi
nk
hedoest henhewi l
ldohisbestt okeepher .
“Yeahri
ght
.Lookatthatl
ookonyourf
ace.Youmet
someoneyouli
kefool
.”bongasays
“Foolgowashthatf
acebef
oret
heki
dsseeyou
andfreakout
.”
“youbr
okemynosesbu!
.”
“Youdeser
vei
t.”hesays.
“Got
othebat
hroom,
ther
ear
ecl
othest
her
e.”he
cur
sesandl
eaves.
“Canwet
rustt
hatguyt
hough?
.”scel
oasks.
“Ri
ghtnow.Wehavenot
hingt
olose.”
“whathappenedt
her
e?.”
Iexpl ainwhathappenedexcl udingwhatt heol d
l
adysai daboutsomeone’ spregnant,sbus's
business, whatmymot herinlawsaidandwhatI
havet odot oappeaset heancestors.Thesear ethe
thingst hatIhavetodowi thmybr othersanddad
formyancest orstoprotectmeandmyf amil
y.I
didn’ttelll
uhtoocauseIdon’ twanthert ostress
andbewor r
ied.Shehascomeal ongwaysi ncet he
kidnappi ngandIdon’twanthert ofeelscaredand
all.
Thet hi
ngt hatkeepsbuggingmet houghi sthatcop
from Standerton.Hehasbeenhotonourt rail
sthen
hesuddenl yjustvanishesorishe? .Idon’tl
ikethat
hei ssi
lent.Theyar euptosomet hing,Iknowt hey
are.Ineedt otalktovict
oraboutfollowingthatPaul
guysowecanknowwhatar etheypl anni
ngat .I
’l
l
talktoAlextooi nNewcastle,maybeheknows
somet
hing.
“Ok.Let
’sgoandgetsomet hi
ngtoeat.
.Thi
sfoodi s
col
d.”wewaitforbongathenweallgodownst ai
rs.
Thewomenar enotther
eandt het
wins.Theboys
andpri
ncesskamoar ewatchi
ngTV.
“si
snont
owher
ear
eourwi
ves?”
“t
heyar
esomewher
ear
oundt
hehouseai
r.”
“Ok.Canyoumakeussomebr
eakf
ast
.”
“whatwoul
dyoul
iket
oeatsi
r?”
“Anythi
ngnont o.”shel aughs.She’sonel
oyal
tr
ustworthyworker.She’smor ethanour
housekeeper
,she’slikeanol dersist
er,
whoknows
herboundari
es.Ilookatnont oandsomethi
ng
aboutherremindsmei fmymot her,
mydad’swif
e.
She’
sst i
llmymot herthough.
“di
dyousendt
hel
ocat
iont
odad?”
“Idi
d.”sbusays.Inod.
“
I’
llbeback.”
Igot
omyof
fi
ceagai
nandsi
tdown.It
akemy
phone,
takeadeepbr
eat
hthenwai
tasi
tri
ngs.
“….
...Heyboy.”mymom saysandIf
eelmyeyes
get
ti
ngmi st
y.
“Ar
eyouokay?”shet
akesadeepbr
eat
h.
“I’
m not
.Imissmyfami
ly,
mygr
andki
ds.Imi
ssal
l
ofyou….”shesni
ff
s.
“wemi
ssyout
oo.Ij
ustwant
edt
ohearyourvoi
ce.
”
“t
hankyouforsendi
ngmethei
rpi
cturesandvi
deos.
Ij
ustwi
shthatIcanseet
hem t
hough.”Isi
gh.
I
’
m notr
eadyf
ort
hatandIdon’
tknowi
fI’
l
leverbe.
“dadi
scomi
ng.”
“Hei
s?.”shesoundsscar
ed.
“yesmaheis.Thankyouforgi
vingl
uhmy
mother
’sname.”shechokesoutasob.
“I
’
m sor
rymbuso…”
“we’
l
ltal
klat
er.Bye.”Ihandupandsi
gh.
“don’
tfeelgui
lt
y.Youst
il
lloveherandi
t’
sokay.”
l
uhsayswat chi
ngmef
rom t
hedoor
.Idi
dn’
teven
hearhercoming.
“Gopackoutcl
othes,
wear
egoi
ngt
oPr
etor
ia.”
shef
rowns.
“Wi
tht
heki
ds?”
“no.You,meandsbu.Lesegoandscel
owi
llwat
ch
thet
wins.”
“yeahsimsisnotf
eel
ingokay.Shet
olduswhat
happened.
”
“I
’
m sor
ry.
”
Shelooksatmel
ikeshewant
stosaysomet
hing
butt
hendoesn’
t.
“I
’
llaskl
esegoifi
t’
sokay.Thenanni
eswil
lleave
wi
ththem t
oo.Shealr
eadyhasherhandsf
ull.”
“ortheycanstayher
eift
heywant
.Askherand
yourbrot
her.”
“Iwi
ll
.”shesays.“Mbuso?”
“Yeslove.”i
fyouevercheatonme,
I’
llki
llyour
mist
ressthenfr
ameyou.Takemykidsandmake
sur
escel
otakesusawaywher
eyou’
l
lneverf
indus.
”
“Iknowlove.”wel
ookateachot
her
,smi
let
hen
l
augh.Sheshakesherhead.
“I
’
m ser
iousmbuso.”
“Iknowyouareandyousoundsosexysayi
ngt
hat
.
”sheshakesherhead.
“I
’
m goi
ngt
opack.”shel
eaves.
Iknowshe’snotkiddi
ngcausewi t
ht hehelpofher
brot
heranddad.Shemi ghtdothat.Butthatwil
l
neverhappencauseIlovehert
oomuch.
CHAPTER64.

MBUSO

#Not
Edi
ted

Ikeepl
ooki
ngatmywi
feandshe’
sal
it
tl
efi
dget
y.
Shehasn’ tlef
ttheki dssi ncet heywer ebornand
nowshekeepschecki ngherphoneat housand
ti
mesl ikelesegowi llcallheratanymi nuteandt ell
hersomet hi
ngiswr ongwi ththet wins.Theyar eall
stayingatourhousecausel esego,simsandl uh
agreedt hatit
’sbetteriftheki dssleepingtheirroom
causet heymi ghtnotsl eepi fwet akethem tot heir
housewi t
houtust here.Luhpackedl i
ghtcauseshe
saidassoonaswegett heinf ormati
onwewant ,we
havet ocomeback.Wehavej ustlandedi n
Wonder boom airpor ti
nPr et
or i
awi t
hsub’sf ami l
yjet.
It
’slatecausei t
’sdar kout si
de.
Itfeel
sgoodt obebackagaininJoburg.IknowI
comef orbusinessrel
atesstuf
fbutmanitfeel
s
greattobebackher ecausePretor
iai
snothingl
ike
Joburg.Percytakesourbags,wegetinthecarand
dri
veout.Luht akesherphoneagainandchecks.
“Theki
dsaref
inelove.St
opst
ressi
ng.”It
akeher
handandki
sshercheek.Sbul
ooksatusamused.
“Ican’
twaittohavewhatyouguyshave.Sol i
d,
l
oyalandfait
hful
.Thel oveyoubothhaveforeach
otheri
soneofaki nd.”luhhidesherheadonmy
neckbl
ushi
ng.
“Ithinkyouhavealreadymetyoursoul
mat
e
brother.”It
ellhi
m andhesmirks.
“yeahIthi
nksot
oo.I’
m goi
ngtogoandseeher
.I
don’
tknowwhenthough.”hesays.
“thewaymbusodescr i
bedhowyout wof i
rstsaw
eachotherisamazingandl ooki
ngatyouknowt el
ls
met hatther
e’ssomethi
ngyouf eelf
orhersodon’t
keepherwai t
ingbecausetheremightbesomeone
outtherewho’salr
eadygottenhiseyeher.”l
uh
says
“you’
rest
ressi
ngmel
uh”sbusaysandIl
augh.
“She’
srightandyouknow.Di
dyouatl
eastgether
numbers?”
“Idi
dbutherphonei
sal
waysonvoi
cemai
l.”
“Reall
ysbu?Awhol e….uhm.Lookwhati fher
phonefel
landshel ostyournumbers?
.Idon’tthi
nk
you’
reseri
ousabouthercauseifyouwe’ r
e,you
wouldhaveboughtheranewaphone, sentoneof
yourmantoherplacetogivetofi
ndoutwhati s
wrongandgivehert
hephone.”wel
ookateach
ot
herwithsbu.
“youknowluh,you’
retheonl
ywomanIwoul dever
all
owtotal
ktomel i
kethatoranyhowbecauseyou
knowthatyoushouldhavebeenmarr
iedt
omer ight
?
”luhrol
lshereyes,
sbulooksatmeandlaughs.
“you’r
esuchaf
oolman.Areyouevergoi
ngt
ost
op
crushi
ngonmywife?
.”Ichuckl
e.
“never
.She’
sourwi
fe.”wel
augh.
Itrustsbuwithmylif
eandIknowhe’ llneverdo
anythingtocomebetweenmeandl uh.Iknowhe
hasacr ushinluhbutIknowhewoul dnevercr oss
thatli
neandhe’ssayingalloft
hatcausehewant s
met ogetoutofmyhead.I ’mthi
nki
ngt oomuch
aboutmeet i
ngthisguycauseIdon’tknowi fhewill
beabl etohel
pmeornot .
“Thanksman.”
“Al
waysgotyourback.”wef
istbump.Luhlooksat
usconf
used.Ipul
lhertomeandkissherl
ips.
“pl
easedon’
tmakemeat
hir
dwheel
”wel
augh.
Percydri
vesforanother10mi nut
esthenwegot o
thi
sneighbourhood,stopoutsidethegateandt he
securi
tyl
etsusinwi thoutaskinganyquestionsand
i
ftheydid.Wewoul df eeldi
srespect
ed.Percydr i
ves
thr
oughandhepar ksthecar.
“Ihopehewi
llbeabl
etohel
pus.”l
uhsays.
“Met oolove.Come.”Iopenthedoor,getoutand
takeherhandasshest epsout.Il
oveahouset hat
i
ssur r
oundedbyt ressandt
hewhol eyardis
shini
ngbrightwit
hl i
ght
s.
Ithoughthewouldatleasthavethedecencyt o
meetusout si
debuthey,everymandoest hingshis
ownwayathi shouse.Wewalktothefrontofthe
doorandhi tt
hebell
.Wewai tafewminutest hen
thedooropensandweseet hi
swomanwear inga
maidsuniform.
“pl
easecomein.”shesays.Wecomei nandshe
cl
osesthedoorbehindus.“pl
easefoll
owme.”we
walki
nandshel eadsustothelounge.“Sirwil
lbe
her
einamomentbutcanIgetyouanyt hingtodri
nk?
”hereyesmovef rom Per
cytomeandsbuandyou
canseel ustonherface.Gr
eatanotherthi
rst
y
female.Butthenshelooksdownqui ckl
ywhenshe
seesthatI’mlooki
ngatherandshedoes
somet hi
ngtoherbody.Fuck!.Il
ookatsbuandhe’s
l
ookingatmel i
kewhatthefuck!
.Webot hsawit
.
“wearegoodthanks.”sbusaysandshel
ooks
di
sappoi
nted.
“uhm,pl
easesitdown.Si
rwi
llbewi
thyoushor
tl
y.”
shequi
ckl
yleaves
“Ohkl
et’
ssi
tthen.”l
uhsays.
“No.”sbuandIsayatt
hesamet
ime.
“whynot
?.”
“We’
dratherst
andbaby.”wewalkaroundthe
l
oungeandtherear
epict
uresofhi
m andhisfami
ly.
“l
oveIhadalongdayandI ’
mtir
ed.CanPercyt
ake
metothehot
el?”luhsays.“andIwanttocal
l
l
esegoandseehowthekidsaredoing.”
Ipul
lhert
omeandwr
apmyar
msar
oundherand
shehugsmet
ight
.
“Youwor
ryt
oomuch.Yourbr
otherandsi
steri
nlaw
haveallthehel
pt heycanneedinthehouse.Stop
worryi
ng.Imisst heboystooandIdidn’tt
hinkI
wouldleaveagainafterIj
ustgotback.Assoonas
wefini
shher ethenwellgohomeandspendt i
me
wit
hourki dsokay?.”
“okaybutI
’
m sti
llti
red.Youcanst
ayandPercycan
takemetothehotel
.”shesaysandshelookst
ir
ed.
“I ’
m sorrytoheartokeepyouwai ti
ng.Therewasa
si
t uat
ionthatneededmyat tent
ionquick.Avoice
saysandwet urn.Helooksjustli
kehowIsawhi s
pictur
es.“ohI …my…..Youcamewi thyourqueen.
I’
m sorryMr sgumedet okeepyouwai t
ing.Iam
Mbyuyi sel
oMt hanti
.”
“Iam nokukhanyaGumede.NicetomeetyouMr
Mthanti
.”mywi fesaysandIsmil
e.Idon’
tknow
whyshechoset otellhi
mthatnamebutI’
m happy
shedid.
“nicetof
inall
ymeett hebeautif
ulMr sgumede.
Pi
ct ur
esdon’tdoyouj ust
icecausewow.Your eal
ly
arebeaut
ifulandyournamesui tsyou.”luhgives
hi
m andal it
tl
esmile.Themot herfuckersays
smi l
ing.Shockedandr oot
edwherehe’
sstanding.
Hiseyesar eallovermywi f
echecki
ngherout.I
wouldbepi ssedi fi
twassomeoneelsebutI’
mj ust
enjoyinghowhe’ slooki
ngatmywi f
eknowingvery
wellthathewon’ thaveherort
ouchher.
“Gumede,
nicet of
inal
lymeetyou.”hesayswhen
he’
shadhi
sf eelwi
thmywi f
e.
“Andofcour seyourbestf
riendmbatha.Idon’
t
knowi fI’
m al
lowedtosaythat.”t
heyshakehands
too.Thethreeofussharel
ooksandhe
understandscausehenods.
“youknowalotf
oramanwho’ sinmini
ng.Thi
sis
oneofmyguysPercy.”Isay.Theyal
soshake
hands
“surePercy.l
ikeyouman, Ihavetoknowaboutt he
peoplewhohel pedyou.Thankyouagainforwhat
youdid.”wenod.“Idon’ tt
hinkI
’m al
lowedtotouch
youMr sgumedecauseyourhusbandmi ghtj
ustkil
l
me.”He’sri
ghtandgl adtoknowt hatheknewnot
totouchanotherman’swi f
e.
“canwet
alkbef
orewel
eavet
othehot
el,
mywi
fei
s
t
ir
ed.”
“Ithoughtyouwer egoingtobesl eepingherei
nmy
housesi nceyourmyguest sandinsistscauseI
i
nvitedyou.Mr sgumedeIt hi
nkyou’ rehungryt
oo
andyoudon’ twantt ogeti
nthecarandgol ookfor
ahot el
.Myhousekeeperhaspr eparedawonder ful
dinnerthatyouwillenj
oy.Let
’sgo, getsomethi
ngt o
eatbeforewet al
k.”Ilookatluh.
“doyouwantt
osl
eepher
e?”
“Idon’tknowmbuso.Ar
ewesaf
e?”Idon’
tbl
ame
herforsayingt
hat
.
“you’
rewithmebabyyou’
rewithus.Nothi
ngbad
wil
lhappencausei
fIknew,Iwoul
dn’thavebr
ought
youhere.”
“Okayt
hen.”Iki
ssherf
orehead.
“doyouwantt oeatf
ir
storgot
othebedr
oom so
youcal
llesego?”
“Iwantt
ocal
lher
.”
“oklove.Canyourhousekeepershowust
he
bedr
oom?”
“Nandi
!.”heshout
sloudenough.
Thesamewomancomesinwit
hherheadbowed
down.Ohf
uckIdon’
tknowhowluhi
sgoingt
otake
thi
s.
“showMrgumedeandhi
swi
fet
othebedr
oom t
hey
wil
lbesl
eepi
ngi
n.”
“yessi
r.”shesays.Luhl
ooksatherwei
rdl
y.
“Per
cypl
easebr
ingourbags.
”
“Thiswaysi
r.”shepointsupstai
rsandIt akeluh'
s
handandwest eponthestair
s.She’sfoll
owi ng
behi
ndli
kehowshei ssupposet o.Luhlooksbehind
herandsheseesherfoll
owingusf rom behind.
“howarewegoingtoknowwhi
chr
oom i
tiswhen
you’
rebehi
ndus?.”
“I
’
m sor
ryma’
am.
”Luhf
rowns.
“lovetel
lthehousekeepert
hatsheshoul
dn’
twal
k
behindus.”fuck!
.
“Youcanwal
kinf
rontandshowust
hebedr
oom.”
“Thankyousi
r.”shesayst
henwal
ksandwef
oll
ow
her
.Shest opsthenopensthedoorandst
ands
out
side.“here’
syourbedroom si
r,ma’
am.”
“thankyou.”luhsaysandthegir
lnodsandl eaves.
Percycomesi nandgivesusourbagsthenleaves.
“What’sgoingonwiththatgi
rl
.She’
sactingwei r
d.”

“Idon’
tknowbaby.Maybeshef
eel
suneasyar
ound
st
ranger
s.”
“Ok.Youcangoandjoi
ntt
hem causeImi
ghtt
akea
whil
eokthephone.”
“Oklove.”Iki
ssherl
ipst
henleave.AssoonasI
cl
osethedoorIbreat
houtli
keIwasholdingmy
br
eath.
Igodownst ai
rsandtheyar
esit
tingokthetabl
e
dri
nki
ng.Iexpect
edthat.Mt
hantilooksatme.
“I
stheMr
sok?”
“shei
s.Yourhomei
slovel
y.”
“It
ryman.”Isitandwatchhim,studyhi
m.“ar
e
youdoner
eadingme? .”Isi
tsback.
“no.Idon’
tmeetpeopl
eli
keyouever
yday.”Isay.
“Youcansayt
hatagai
n.Youshoul
dhavet
oldus.”
sbusays.
“Tol
dyouwhat
?”
“Nottobri
ngmywi fewit
hmecauseIdon’twant
hert
othinkthatIbr
oughtherher
efort
hatr
eason.”
“oh”hesays.
“Yes.”
“whatareyouguyst
alki
ngabout?”Per
cyasksand
Ij
ustshakemyheadcauseobviousl
yhe’
scluel
ess.
“Wi
llshehaveapr
obl
em wi
thi
t?.”
“Idon’tknowbutIhavet
otel
lher
.”Thaimother
fuckerhasoutmeinanawkwardsit
uat
ion.
“Icanexpl
aint
oher
.”
“youwontandyou’l
lst
opchecki
ngheroutcause
you’
remakingherf
eeluncomf
ort
abl
e.”heraises
hishandsup.
“Mybad.Ij
ustcouldn’
thel
pmysel f
.It
’shar
dto
pr
etendt
hatther
e’snotagorgeousqueenstandi
ng
i
nf r
ontofme.That’sal
litwasandi
twon’thappen
again.Idon’
twanthert
ounlikemeokay”what?
“foolwhatdi
dyoujustsay?”helooksatmet hen
l
aughs.Thesetwofool
sjoinhi
m andl aughandI
enduplaughi
ngtoo.“motherfucker
.”
Wecontinuetotal
kandIr
eleasethatMbyuyi
sel
ois
aniceguy.Heremindsmeofallofusandhecanfi
t
wit
hus.Ireali
sethatt
het
imekeepsgoi ngandl
uh
i
snotcomi ngdown.
“I
’
m hungr
ybr
o,whati
skeepi
ngl
uh?”sbuasks.
“Shemi ghtsti
llbeonthephone.I
’l
lgocheckonher.
”Ileavethem andgoupt ot
hebedroom.Iopenthe
doorandshe’si nbedsleepi
ngbutIseeherchest
movingfast.Icloset
hedoorandquicklygotoher.
“Love?What ’swrong? .Whyareyoucr yi
ng.
”Ipull
hert omychestandbr ushherback.Shekeeps
sni f
fi
ng.“baby,t
alktome.I fyoudon’twantusto
sleepherethenwewon’ t.Wedon’thavetost
ay,just
tellmeandwe’ l
lleave.”shekeepscr yi
ngunti
lshe
stops.
“youknowi
t’
smyf
ir
stt
imebei
ngawayf
rom t
hem
andIdidn’tt
hinkitwasgoingt
obethishead.I
….
WhenIf aceti
medl esego,
theboyswe’
recryi
ngand
soIskedt oseetheboystheycri
edmbusowhen
theysawmeandI ….”ohmybaby.
“Kidsareli
ket hatbaby.Your emembert heywould
crywhenIf acet i
medyou.I t
’sthefirstti
met hey’
l
l
begoingtobedwi thoutyouandmeput ti
ngthem to
bedandsot heyaregoingtocr y.Lesegoi samom
andshehasdonet hi
sbefore,shewi llgetthetwi
ns
tocalm downsl eep.”
“Iknowandshesai dthesamet hi
ngt oo.ShesaidI
shouldn’
tfeelbadjustbecauseI’
m herewi thyou
andnotwi t
ht hem buti
t’
smyf i
rstnightsleepi
ngso
farawayfrom them.”
“t
heyhavet
ogetusedt
oitbaby.”
“Lesegosai
dthesamet
hing.She’
sthebest
.”I
smil
e.
“she’
sri
ghtlove.Eversi
nceyouhadt heboys,
you’
vebeenacr ybabylove.”shegi
ggles,
that
’s
whatIwantedtohear.
“I
’
m notacr
ybaby.Iwasf
eel
ingsadandmi
ssi
ng
myki
ds.”
“Imi
ssthem t
oo.IhopeMt hant
iwillhel
pusandI
won’
tbeawayfrom youguysagain.”
“Dowhatyouhavetodotof
indyourbr
other
.I’
ve
gotever
ythi
ngel
sehandl
edathome.”
“you’
reanamazi
ngwi f
eandgreatmot
her
.Ihi
tthe
j
ackpotwit
hyoubaby.”shel
aughs.
“Ifeelbett
ernow.Isi
tokayi
fIdon’
tjoi
nal
lofyou
fordinnerandeather
e?”
“we’
llbot
hhavedinnerher
ethencauseIwon’
tlet
youeatal
onewhil
eI’minthesamehouseasyou.”
“thatwouldberudet
oourhost
.Letmechange
thenwe’l
lgojoi
nthem.
Luhchangedandwewentdownst airst
ojoint he
other
’sfordinner.Thefoodwasni cebutitdidn’t
comecloset oluh’scooking.Aft
erwesatant alked
andseeingMbyuyi selotalki
ngmademer eali
set hat
heisaver ypri
vatepersonandf orhimtoinviteus
tohishousemeanst hathet r
ustsus.Wer et
iredt o
bedcausel uhfel
lasleepandpl uswealsodeci ded
t
hatwewi
llt
alki
nthemor
ning.

Igiveheraki ssaft
erIhaveshoweredandgo
downst ai
rs.Ifi
ndtheguysalreadyhavi
ngbr
eakf
ast
andt womor egirl
sotherthanthemaidfr
om
yesterday.

“Morning.”Imumblethensi
tdownnextt
osbuand
he’
slookingatmeveryweir
d.Theygr
eetback.

“Wher
e’sl
uh?”If
rownathi
m.

“she’
scomi
ng.She’
sont
hephonewi
thsi
ms.”

“What
’swr
ongwi
thher
?”

“she’
sfeel
ingsi
ck.”Ismi
rkathi
m.He’
stheone
fr
owningnow.
“Hmmm.”t
hat
’sal
lhesaysandIshakemyhead.

“howdidyousl eeplastni
ght?”Mbuyisel
oasksbut
he’
slooki
ngbehi ndme.It ur
nandseemybeaut i
ful
woman.Luhi sreal
lythemostbeauti
fulwomanI
haveeverseen.Somet i
mesIjustwat
chhersleep
andthi
nktomysel fhowdidIhersoluckytobe
l
ovedyher .

Shegr acefullycomesdownwear ingthisski ntight

nudedr esst hatcli
ngsherupperbodyandf lows
from herwai stdownandt hemat eri
aloft hedr ess
i
swayt oothi nIcouldlit
er allyr
ipitwithmyhands.
Whyhaven’ tIseent hi
sf uckendr essbef ore?.Sbu
l
ooksatmeandchuckl escauseheseest heway
I’
ml ookingatt hatdress.Idon’ tknowi fIshoul di t
l
ikeitdoesn’ tbothermeort akeherupstai r
sand
fuckherwear ingthatdressandt eari
tapar twhi l
e
I’
mf uckingherf rom behi nd.Fuck!.West andup, me
andt heguys.Shecomes, takesaseatt hatsbuwas
occupyi
ngt
henwesi
tdown.

“goodmorni
ng.Isl
eptreal
lywel
lthanksandyou?”
shesaysgi
vingmbuyi
seloapoli
tesmile.

“Ididtoo.Thankyouforaski
ng.”hesaysbeaming
ather.Ishakemyhead.Shelooksatmeandsmi les.
Sheplatesformethenforherself
.Themaidcomes
andshepani cswhensheseesl uhplat
ingf
orus.

“I’
m sorr
ymiss,Iwasgoi
ngt ocomeandplat
efor
you.”shesaysstandi
ngnexttol
uhlooki
ngdown.

“I
t’
sokaynandi
.Youdon’
thavetodot hat
.Ican
pl
atef
orus.”l
uhsayswarmly.Nandinods.

“Thatherhusbandnandi
.She’
sMrsgumede.She’s
notami ss.
”Nandif
all
sdowntoherkneesnextt
o
mbuyiselo.
“it
’sokay.Shedi
dn’tknowandwedidn’ti
ntroduce
oursel
vestoheryester
day,
soit
’sunf
airtothinkshe
wouldknow.”

“standupnandiandapol
ogi
zetoMrsgumedethen
l
eave.”shelooksatl
uhandsheal
mostlooks
apologet
ic.

“I
’m sor
ryMr sgumede,
pleasef
orgi
vemymi
stake.
”
Sbuscoffs.

“you’
refor
givennandi
.”l
uhsmi
lesandnandi
l
eaves.Ok.

Weeatsil
ent
lyandther
e’sthi
stensi
oni
nther
oom
andIhavenoideawhati
t’sabout
.

“i
t’
sni
cet
oseeyouagai
nMrgumede.”sayst
his
ot
hergi
rl
.LuhandIl
ookupandIf
rown.

“doIknowyou?”t
heot
heronel
aughs.

“ohsor r
ywherearemymanner s.Thisismyniece
l
umka”hepoi ntsatthegir
lwhotalked.“andt
hatis
herfri
enduh,what’
syournameagai n?”hepoint
s
attheonewhojustlaughed.

“Dineo”shesayslooki
ngatme.Il
ookatluht
hen
sbuandshakeshishead.“Youdon’
trememberus
don’tyou?”

“Ar
eyout
alki
ngt
ome?”Iaskher
.Shef
li
nches.

“uhm yes.I
t’
sme, i
nofthegirl
syour escuedatP.E
from t
hatNgqakulamanwhoki dnappedusandyou
camet orescueus.”If
eell
uht enseupwhenshe
mentionsthatman’sname.fucki t
’st
hatli
tt
legi
rl
whohadasi
ll
ycr
ushonme.

“Oh.”Isayt
hencont
inuet
oeat
.

“Wedi
dn’
trecogni
zeyou.Yout
woar
efr
iendsnow?
”

“ohyes, IfoundheronFacebookandwest art

ed
tal
kingthenboom we’vebeenfri
endseversince.”I
don’tl
ikethis.

“Arewegoi ngtohavepr
oblemshere?”Iask
mbuyiselo.He’
salsol
ooki
ngatthatgi
rl
suspi
ciously.

“I
’
m oni
t.”hesays.Good.

“SoIunder
standwhyyoudi
dn’
trecogni
zeme”she
l
aughs“Ihavegr ownupsi ncethenbutIdidn’
t
for
getthemant hatsavedme.”shesi ghs.Thi
sis
notgood.Wedon’ tneedremindersofwhat
happenedthatday.

“t
hisomel
ett
eisgood.Di
dnandicooki
t?”sheasks
mbuyi
sel
o.

“Shedi
d.She’
sagoodcook”

“ButI
’
vehadbet
ter
.Luhi
sagr
eatcook.”sbusays.

“ThenmaybeI’
llhaveanhonouroftast
ingyour
foodbef
oreyouleave.”shesmi
les.

“sbui
sjustpul
li
ngyourl
eg.Thi
sisr
eal
lygood.”

“pl
easeMr
sgumede,
canyoupl
easecookus
di
nner
,evenl
unch.I
’
mt ir
edofeat
ingnandi
’
sfood
andmymom’s.”hellno.

“Mywifeisnother
etocookf oranybody.Shewon’
t
becooki
ng.”sheputsherhandont opofmi ne.

“don’tf
orgetthereasonwhywear eher
e.Idon’
t
mindcooki ngandmaybenanditoocanhaveaday
offandloveit’
stheleastwecando.Iwoul
dloveto
cookdinnerforyouguyst osayt
hankyouto
mbuyiselo.”

“t
hankyoumr
sgumede.”hi
sni
ecesays.

“thankyouluh.”Igi
vehim adeat
hstareandhe
smirks.Weconti
nuetoeatandIcanfeelthi
sgi
rl
s
eyesonmeandaboutt osnapherneckwh3nluh
suddenlyl
ooksather.
“IknewIr
ecogni
zedyouf
rom somewher
e.”

“What
?Wher
e?”Iaskher
.

“she’sthegir
lobsessedwit
hyourpictur
esonmy
Inst
agram page.Sheonceaskedmewhenar eyou
havi
ngyourownpaget hensaysnastystuf
f.”

“Andyoudi
dn’
ttel
lmet
hat
?”

“Tellyouwhat?,thatsomelitt
legir
lisobsessed
withyou?.IwouldhavehadIknownshe’ soneof
theonesyourescued.Womenar eobsessedwith
youloveandIdon’ tcarecauseyou’remineonly.”
shesayssmi l
ing.Igiveherafullmouthkiss.

“AndI
’
m obsessedwi
thyouonl
y.”shel
aughs.
“soaren’
tyougoingtosayanyt
hingaboutme
l
iki
ngyourpict
ures?.
”Igi
vehermymost
i
nti
midati
nglookandIseeherpull
ingback.

“ohmyGodDi
neoshutup!
.”hi
sni
ecesays.

“Lumkat
akeyourf
ri
endupst
air
snow!
.”mbuyi
sel
o
says.

Theygetupandl
eave.Luhsi
ghs.

“ar
eyouokay?”Iaskher
.

“heari
ngt
henameofthatmanagainj
ustbrought
backunpl
easantmemor
ies.I
t’
sli
kemypastkeeps
fol
lowi
ngmeandI …”

“Bayhe’
sdead!
.Hewon’
thur
tyoueveragai
nor
anyone.”

“butshe’ sherembusoandsher emember syou.

Whati fsheonedaybl absi touttosomeone? .She
foundhi snieceonFacebooksot heycanbej ust
fri
endswhy? .Whywoul dshewantt obei ncontact
withpeopl ewhowi l
lremindheroft hattraumati
c
ti
meshewentt hrough? .Shealsomanagedt ofi
nd
meonI nstagram.Ishoul dhavemademyaccount
privatebutIdidn’tknowt hat…..
.”thisi
swhatI
didn’twant.Bringingherher ewassupposedt obe
relaxi
ngf orhernotst ressherout.Ipullhertome.

“not
hingwi
llhappent
oyoubabyIpr
omi
se.”

“youmetheronlyoncembusobutshedidn’tforget
you.Sbuwasalsother
ebutshedi
dn’tt
rytof i
nd
him.Whatdoesshewantwit
hyou.Whydi dn’tshe
forgetyou?
.Whati
fsomethi
nghappenstoyou? .”
Shehugsmet i
ght.
“luh,Ipromiseyouthatnothi
ngwillhappent
ohi
m
okay.Thebot hofyou.Wemadesur ethat
everythi
ngistakencareof.”sbusays.

“Ialsomadesurethatever
ythi
ngwastakencareof
tooandtheydidagreatj
obsodon’tworr
yaboutmy
niecesayi
nganythi
ngcauseshewon’tbuther
fri
endlooksl
ikeshe’
sgoingtobeaprobl
em.”

“Idon’
tfuckenneedt
hisr
ightnow!
.”Iki
ssher
for
ehead.

“t
her
e’sawaywecandealwi
thher
.”sbusays.

“Don’
tki
llhersbu.”mbuyi
sel
olaughs.

“ist
her
eanythingyoual
lar
edoi
ngshedoesn’
t
know?”mbuyisel
oasks
“No.”sbuandIsayatt
hesamet
ime.Luhknows
whatsheneedst
oknow.

“wow.Youmustr
eal
lyt
rusthert
hen.”hesays
l
ooki
ngatme.

“Idowit
heveryt
hingIhave.”henodsandl
ooksat
mewithnewfoundrespect.

“Iwon’
tki
llherbutwecangivehersomet
hingt
hat
wil
lmakeherforget
.”sbusays.

“somet
hingl
ikewhat
?”mbuyi
sel
oasks

“thatser
um wehave.Theonewegotf
rom j
ama.”I
rememberitnow.
“t
hatoneexact
ly.”sbusays

“butitwil
ler
aseallhermemor iesmbuso.Shehad
afamilyandpeoplewhol oveher.Youwere
supposetogiveittoallofthem whenyousent
them homesot heywoul dn’tr
ememberyournames
andfaces.Youhavet ofindanot herwayt
omake
herkeephermout hshut .”luhsays.

“she’
sright
.I’
l
ldealwi
thher.”mbuyi
sel
osays.
Nandicomeswalkingi
nslowly.

“We’
reyoueavesdr
oppi
ngnandi
?”l
uhasksher
.

“noMr
sgumedeIhear
dnot
hing.”nandisays.

“Isawyounandiandifyoudaretel
lanyonewhat
youhear
dustalki
ngabout?.YourDom wil
lnotonl
y
l
osehissubmi
ssivebutIwil
lkil
lyoumyselfofyou
everdi
srespectmei nfrontofmyhusbandagai n.I
sawthewayyoul ookedatt hem andhowyourbody
movedwhenyousawt wodomi nantalphamales.I
knowmyhusbandwon’ ttouchevenIsi ngl
estrayof
yourhai
rbutdowhatyoudi dagainandyou’ l
lbe
sorr
y.”weal ll
ookateachot hershocked.Mywi f
e
i
sabadassI ’m soproudr i
ghtnow.

“yesMr
sgumede.MayIl
eave.”

“youmay.”shepracti
cal
lyr
unsoutoft
her
oom
wit
hherbodyshaking.

“howt
hehel
ldi
dyouf
igur
ethatout
.”sbuasks.

“Isawthetwoofyougi vingeachotherlooksand
howsubmissiveherbodywentwhenshesawyou.I
coul
dfeelmbuso'sdomi nantsidecomingoutwhen
herbodygotsubmissi
ve.”f uckme.
“loveist
hatwhyyouwer ecryi
ngwhenIfoundyou
i
nbed?Yout houghtImightdosomethi
ng?.”I
’
m
hurtshewouldthi
nkthat
.

“Ithoughtyoubr oughtmeher ecauseyouknew

thatmbuyiseloisli
vingtheli
fest
yleyouusedtol
ive
andyoumi ghtbetemptedsohavi ngmeherewit
h
youwoul dn’tbesotempt i
ng.”

“what ?Iwoul dneverdot hattoyouort ous.We

didn’tknowandwef oundoutt hemomentshe
l
ockedhereyest ous.That’
swhenwer eal
isedthat
she’sasubmi ssive.I
fIdidknowl ove, Iwouldhave
askedf orhimt omeetussomewher e.Iwouldnever
cheatonyoubabyever .Idon’tmi ssmyol dlif
e
causet hattimeIwasmessedupt henImetyouand
felli
nl ovewi thyou.Iforgotwhatki ndofli
feIwas
l
ivingbef oreImetyou.Myl i
fewi thyoui sperf
ect
andIwoul dn’
ttradeitforanything.Nandicanwal k
i
nher enakedandIwoul dn’
tevencar ecauseIhave
everythi ngIwantandneedr ighther e.Haveyou
f
orgot
tenl
ove?”

“what
?”sheaskswi
thhersweetsof
tvoi
ce.

“Thatt
hisdi
ckonl
ygetshardforyouonl
y”she
bl
ushesandcover
sherfaceonmychestgiggl
ing.

“Mbuso,
we’
renotal
one.”

“Idon’
tcare.Haveyouf
orgot
tent
hough?”she
shakesherhead.

“Nonever
.”

“youhavenothingt
owor r
yaboutthen.”shenods.
Il
if
therchinupandkisstheli
vingdayli
ghtoutof
herandleaveherbr
eathl
ess.Thesetwogoonsare
watchi
ngus.
“fuckme.Luhdoyouwantanot
hersecond
husband?”shar
elaughs.

“Not
hankyou.He’
sal
lthemanIneed.”

“Awomanaftermyownheart
.Ican’
tbel
ieveyou
twohadt
hiswholet
alki
nfr
ontofus.”

“sor
ryaboutt
hat
.If
orgott
hatyout
woexi
sted”we
l
augh.

“IhopeonedayI ’l
lalsohavewhatyoubot hhave
causet hat’
sbeautifulman.Mbusoyouhavean
amazi ngwifeandl uhI ’
m sorryIdidn’tgiveyouthe
headsupaboutmyl ifestyl
e.Nandiisnotmy
submi ssi
ve.She’sher ecauseshepi ssedmy
brotheroffbutshe’sal sonothissubmi ssi
ve.We
savedherf rom herfor merDom’ swhoal mostkil
led
her.That’swhyshe’ sher e.”okthatexpl ai
nsalot.
“Iunderst
andandIm sorr
yitwhatIsai
dcame
acrossasifI
’
mj udgi
nghowyou’r
elivi
ngyourli
fe
causeI’
m not.Iwasj
ustf
orhusbandthat
’sal
l.”

“Iwouldn’
thavelethim evenifhetri
edbutweall
knowhewoul dn’t
.Luhifyouhaven’tnoti
cedyour
husbanddoesn’ttouchanyot herf
emale.Evena
handshake.That’
showhei s.”

“YeahIknow.He’sgotissues.”weal
llaugh.“butI
l
ovehimt hesame.Evenmor enow.”Ipeckherli
ps
andshelaughs.

“st
opcauseyou’
redepr
essi
ngus.
”Wel
augh.

“Nowlet’
stal
kabouttherealr
easonweareal
lher
e
butl
et’
sgotomyof f
ice.”mbuyisel
osays.
“Youguysgoahead.Ihavephonecal
lst
omake.”

“Ar
eyousur
eyou’
reokay?”

“Iam baby.”Iki
ssherf
orehead.“Wher
ePer
cy?”
sheasks

“Hewentt
oseehisgi
rl
fr
iend.”sbut
ell
sher
.Dur
ing
myti
me?Thisboy.

“I
’l
lbeint
hebedr
oom t
hem.”sheget
supand
l
eavesusandwewatchher
.

“I’
m goi
ngtoburnthatdr
ess.”t
heyl
aughatme
andIam ser
ious.
CHAPTER65

MBUSO.
Wegoupstairstotheoff
iceandwesitdownashe
cl
osesthedoorsowecanhavesomepr ivacy.We
al
ltakeaseatatthecouchintheof
fi
ceandhe
l
ooksatus.

"soguyswhatcanIhel
pyouwi
th"

"Ihaveatwi
nbrothert
hatIdi
dn’tknowexistedand
wehavebeentr
yingtofi
ndhimf oralmostthree
year
snowandwehaven’ thadanyluck.Sowear e
hopingamanli
keyou,whohasr esourcesthatI
don’
tseem t
ohavecanhelpmef indhim."helooks
atmeshocked.

"youdidn’
tknowyouhadatwi
nbr
other
?Howi
s
thatevenpossi
bleman?"

"Iam seri
ousman.It
salongstor
y,Iwil
ltel
lyou
aboutitbutnowIj
ustneedyoutohel
pmef indhim
causeIhavenoi
deai
fhe’
sal
iveornot
?"

"tel
lmeexact lyhowyouf oundout."IguessIcan
tel
lhim causehe’ sabouttohelpmef i
ndmybr other
sohedeser vestoknowever yt
hingandnotbekept
i
nt hedar kincasehehappenst of i
ndhim soItel
l
him everythingmymom di dandwhatwef oundout
whenwewentt ooPhongolo.

"wowIcantbel i
eveshedi dt
hat.keptt
hat
gruesomesecretforallt
hoseyearsanddidn’
tsay
anythi
ng?.ManIt houghtmymom waswor seand
shemi ghtbebutyoursisworseandshe’ssti
llal
ive?
Why?"

"yesshei
scausewehaven’tdeci
dedwhattodo
andfr
ankl
yit
’sdaddeci
siontomake.Canyouhel
p
methough?"

"Iwi
llhel
pyouguyscauseyousavedmyni
ece
from thatmonst er.Shecouldhavebeensol d
anywher eint hewor l
dandwewoul dhavenever
foundheri fitwasn’tforyouguyssothankyouand
thisisnothing.I
'llhel
pyouf i
ndhim.Mabut homy
brotherwasi nthemi li
tar
yandheknowspeopl eso
betweenus, wecanhel pyoufindbothofthem."

"t
hankyou.Howl
ongdoyout
hinkt
hatmi
ghtt
ake?
"

"justgivemeacoupleofdayst
henwe'
l
lhave
somet hingf
oryou.
"

"Iwouldr
eal
lyappreci
atei
tifyouguyscanf
ind
anyt
hingt
hatmightbeofhelp."henods.

"whenar
eyouguysl
eavi
ngPr
etor
ia?"

"si
nceyouaskedmywi
fet
ocookyoudi
nnert
hen
we'l
lleavet
omorrowforJoburgcauseIhavetogo
andseemyl it
tl
ebrot
herathishouse.Hehasn’t
beenhomei nalongti
mecausehe' sst
il
ldeal
ing
wit
hourmot her'
sbet
rayal
."

"fuckmant hat
’shar
d.Iwoul
dn’tbl
amehimifhe
wantednothingtodowit
hthefamil
y.causei
defi
nit
elywoulddothesame.
"

"yeahthat’
ssomef uckedupshittheyareallgoi
ng
thr
oughbutIknowt heywillbeafamilyagain.I
'm
j
ustwor r
iedabouthowQwabei shandl i
ngthis
wholesit
uati
on."

"andhewenttoseemymom af
teral
mostt
hree
year
sofnotseei
ngher
."

"I
tmustbehar
dcauseever
ythi
ngr
est
sonhi
m.
Wher
eisshe?"
"atsbufar
mi nt
hefreest
ate.Shehaspeopl
e
watchi
ngoverhersoshewontrunawayortry
somethi
ngstupi
dbutshe'
swel lt
akencar
eof."It
ell
him.

"yeah.Qwabeshoul
dbet
her
ebynow.5ihopehe
wontkil
lher
."

"ifhewantedto,
hewouldhaveki
ll
edhert
hevery
samedayhef oundoutt
hetrut
haboutwhatshe
did.
"It
ellt
hem.

"Iwouldhaveki
ll
edmywifei
fshedi
dthat
.I
wouldn’
tcaremancauseI
’
m myeyesthat
’st
otal
bet
rayal
."

"i
tshar
dbei
nghi
mri
ghtnow."sbusays.

"doyout
hinki
fithappenst
hatyourbi
rt
hmot
heri
s
al
ive,whatwi
llyourdaddo?"Mbuyi
sel
oasks.

"ifshesti
llloveshim andr
emembershim and
possibl
ynotmar ri
edmaybehewil
ltakeherashis
secondwi fe."sbusaysandIgi
vehi
m whatt hef
uck
l
ook!.theylaughatme.

"Ijustwanttofindmymom andbr other

.Ij
usthope
theydidn’
thaveahar dlif
ewithoutmydadcause
thatwouldbreakmyhear t.I
'm weal
thywhil
eImight
haveast r
uggli
ngpar entandsibl
ingsomewhereout
there.nomant hat’
sfuckedup."

"butyoushouldn’tfeel
guil
tycauseyoualldidn’
t
know.Yourmom wasgoi ngtotaket
hissecretto
hergraveift
hatbitchdidn’
tsayanyt
hing.shewas
nevergoingtotel
lyouoryourdad."Iheaveasi gh.

"Iknowandwhatmakesifworseandfeelasi
fI’
m
betr
ayi
ngmybir
thmotheris,
Isti
lll
oveherandsee
herasmymom youknow.Youdon’ tj
uststop
l
ovingsomeonewhohasl ovedyou, caredforyou
andmadesur eyouhadever ythi
ngyouhaveever
wanted.Somet i
mesIf eelveryguil
ty.YesIam very
angryatherforrobbingusoft heli
fewewe’ r
e
supposedtolive.andanotherpartinmeal sof eel
s
sorr
yforher."theynodi nunderstanding.

"guyshowarewegoingt omakesurethatyour
ni
ecesfri
enddoesn’
tkeepshermouthshutcause
gi
rli
sgoingtocausetr
oublef
orus."sbuasks.

"I
’
llf
indawayguysdon’
twor
ry.
"mbuyi
sel
osays.

"howdidyoufi
ndmynumbert
houghcausemy
secur
it
yispr
ett
yti
ght
?."

"wellwhenyourmandroppedoffmynieceat
Ermelo,
wewer eal
lhome.itookhi
spict
ure,
the
numberplat
eandmanyouguysdon’ tpl
aywith
yoursecur
it
y.Wesentoneofmyguyst ofol
low
yourguybackandfort
unat
elyf
orus,yourguyhada
punctur
eonthewaysomi nehel
pedhim andhe
wasabletoclonehi
sphoneandthat
’showIgotall
yournumbers."

"smar
tass."hegr
ins.

"where'
syoursub?"sbuaskshi
m.OkayIdi
dn’
t
thi
nkhewouldaskthat.

"don'
thaveoneyet,I
’m st
il
llookingforawoman
whocanstandbeingwithasadi sti
cmot herfucker
l
ikeme.fornowIjustvi
sitcl
ubsandpl aythere."

"andnandi
?.doyoupl
aywi
thhert
oo?"Iaskhi
m

"Icoul
dbutIdon’
t.Nandiwasownedbythr
ee
Dom’sandtheywereverycr
uelwi
thher
.We
rescuedherataclubwhentheybeatherupandl
eft
herfordead.Shewasgoingtodieifwedidn’
t
rescueher.Sheli
kestobeownedbymanymen.a
monogamousr el
ati
onshi
pisnotherthi
ng."

"forasubmissi
vewhohashadthreedominant
s
shelacksr
espectanddi
sci
pli
ne.
"Isay.sbusmil
es
atme.

"anditi
fwasyou?menshewoul
dbest
rai
ghti
nli
ne.
"sbusaysandwelaugh.

"youhavetoremindherwhoi stheDom hereand

whathappensifshedoesn’
tfoll
owtherules."Isay.

"Iknowthat
’swhyMthunzisentherherecausehe
knowsimtheonlyonewhocangi veherthedisci
ple
she’
scravi
ng."
"shet
hri
vesonpai
n?"sbuasks.

"l
ikeamot
herf
ucker
."wel
augh.

"doyoueverthi
nkyouwi
lli
ntr
oducel
uht
othatsi
de
ofyou?"sbuasksme.

"areyouhidi
ngt
hatsi
deofyouf
rom her
?"It
akea
deepbreat
h.

"luhknowsal lofme, thereisn'taapartofmeshe

doesn’tknow.Mydomi nantsideisthefir
stsi
deshe
knew.Iwasver yhar dandcr uel t
oherandshe
knowsal lofme.Woul di ntr
oducehert oBDSM?No
causet hatwoul dmeanI ’
m nothappywi t
hoursex
l
ife.Idon’tmi ssthatwor ldguys.Ther ewasatime
whenIhur therandi thur tmesomucht ooandI
neverwantt odot hatt ohereveragai n.WhenIfel
l
i
nl ovewi t
hl uhever ythingchangedf ormebecause
shegavememor ethanwhatIevert houghtIwould
getfrom her.Shetrustsmecompl et
elyandshe
knowsIwoul dneverhurtherinanyway.Shei s
submi ssi
vetome, herhusbandandshel etsmedo
whatneedst obedone.Luhi smyhome, mysaf e
haven.Shegr oundsmei nawayIcan'texplai
nand
Idon’tknowi fsheknowst hi
sbutIhavetoldher
thatshedstheonl yonewhocant rul
yhurtme
becauseshehaspoweroverme.Whatshesays
goes,that’
showi tis."Ismil
etomyself.

"wowman, nowyouar emaki ngmewantt ofal

l
i
nloveandhavethatdreamyl ookonyourface.
"we
l
augh."buti
nallhonestly,weallwantsomeonewe
cancomehomet o,bevul ner
ableandbecompletel
y
yoursel
f.
"

"that
’str
uemanandonceyouhavet hat
.You'
l
l
nevertr
adet
hatf
oranyt
hing.Ever
!.
"

"whatmybrotherher
eist
ryi
ngtosayis,
heis
obsessedwi
thhiswif
eandIdon’
tblamehim."we
l
augh.

“yeahwomenl ikeheearerar etofi

nd.Whenyou
meetawanandyout hi
nkyouar egoingtostart
somethinggreatt henyour eali
seshewant sto
competewi t
hyoui neveryt
hing..Money, al
cohol
andinthebedr oom andt hat’
sat otaltur
noff.We
havetocompl eteeachot herandnotcompet e.”
mbuyiselostates.

“Yousaiditman.Theycan’tl
etyout oj
ustbethe
manandt akecareofherandeverythi
ng.Shecan
workanddoallthosethi
ngsbutsheshoul dal
solet
youbetheman.Butbecauseweal lwearpant
snow
so…”sbusayswel aughandIagreewi t
hwhatthey
bothsai
d.

"l
etmecal
lmabut
hosohest
artt
hei
nvest
igat
ion."

"ohk,
wewi
llbebackl
ater
,wear
egoi
ngt
ojobur
gto
seemybr
other
."

"I’
l
lcallyoui
fheneedsanyt
hingmor
e."wegetup
andleave.

"l
etmecheckonl
uhsowecanal
lgo."

"I
’l
lgochangeandcal
lper
cy.wher
ethef
ucki
she?
"

"youguysareal
wayssayi
ngI’
m har donhim but
l
ook,he’
snothereandhedi
dn’tevenbothert
ot el
l
mewher ehe’
sgoing,
soyousorthim out
."

"fuck!"Il
eavehim chuckl
ingandgot
othe
bedroom weslepti
n.

Iopent
hedoorandf
indheronherphone.she'
s
l
ayingonherbackandhercr eamybeautif
ull egs
arejustt
here.Mymouthsalivat
escauseIj ustwant
torunmyt ongueonthosecreamylegs.Iclosethe
door,unbac6kl
emyjeans,walktoherandshesees
me.Hermout hhangsopenandIputmyf ingeron
mymout hshushi
ngher.Shebit
esherli
pandI
smirk.

Igetbetweenhert highs,movemyj eansand

underweartomyl egs.Iopenherl egsandshesi ghs,
fuckIloveher.It
akeapeekandseeshei snot
weari
nganyunder wear.Ilookatherandshesmi r
ks
andwinksatme.She' stalki
ngtoSimsIt hink.I
movemybodydown, somyf acecanbeonher
pussy,openherlegsandshe’ sabouttocallmy
namebutIl ookatherandmout h"yousayany
wordormakeanysound, Istop.doyouhearme?"
shenodst r
yingtobr eathnormalbutIknowsi msis
smartandshe’ sgoingt oknowwhatl uhisdoi ng.

It
akemyf
ingert
oherpussyandshe’
swet
.It
ouch
herhar dnubandherbackar ches.Iputmyf i
ngerin
herwar mt i
ghtpussyandsheopensherl egswi der
Fuckme!I '
m onebl essedman.Ismi lethenburymy
headi nmyf avouriteplaceint heworl
dandshe
sighs.shesmel lsfreshlikecleanwaterandthat
softlabiaofherst astesli
kehoney.Iloveit
.Itongue
fuckher ,ni
p,tuckhercl i
tsoftl
ywithmyt ongue,
teethandl i
psandIf eelherhandonmyhead
pressingmehar derandherl egsbegintoshakeand
Iknowshe' saboutt ocome.

"I.
..
.uhm.
..
simsIhavet
ogo.
..
uh"

"ohmyGodl uhyouaretal
kingt
omewhi l
ehaving
sex?"shel
aughsthensaya"you’
llar
esonastyyoh!
bye!
"shehangsupandIchuckleandmywi f
e
moans.

"yes,yes,
justr
ightt
here..
.ohGOD!"herlegsshake
asshecumsbutIqui cklygetupandthrusti
ntoher
hard,
fastandshescreamsandcal l
smynameand
Idon’tstop.If uckherhar d,deepandl ongasshe
cumsar oundmydi ck,handsonasspul li
ngmei n
deeperandf uckshef eelsamazi ng.Shecontinues
tocomemi lkingmydi ck,herpussymuscl es
squeezingandcont racti
ngar oundmydi ckand
fuck!
.Icanthol donmuchl onger,I'
m goingto
fuckencum f uck!.

Icanf eelmybl oodpumpi ngandgoi nginone

direction.Tomydi ck.Mybal lsgetheavyandmy
dickexpandsandf uck...
..
.Iburymyhandsi nher
hairandgr ipitti
ght ,f
orcemyt ongueintohermout h
andshewel comesmecauseshemoansandIki ss
her ,steali
ngever ybr eathshet akes.Ithrustf
our
mor etimes, hernai l
sdigdeepi nmyassandt hat
throwsmeovert heedgeandIf uckenshootmy
seedi nherandgr oani nhermout hsti
llpumpingmy
hipsunt i
lIletoutthel astdropandf al
lheavil
yinto
her .Iwr apmyhandst ightandwebot hbr eat
hout
deepl y.
"Il
oveyou"shesays.

"Il
oveyoumor
ebaby."sheki
ssesmyf
orehead
andIsmil
e.

"Idon’twantt
ogetupnow.Iwantt
omakel ovet
o
youalldayandunt
ilwe’
rebot
hexhaust
ed."she
giggl
es.

"t
henwhycantwedoi
t?"

"It
houghtwecangoandseezi
pho."

"gowi
thoutme,
Ihavet
ost
artandpr
epar
efor
di
nner
."

"youdon’
thavet
odoanyt
hingl
uh"
"don’
tbeli
kethatmyhusband."igroan.she
l
aughs."getupandshowerquickl
y."

"Idon’
twantt
oleaveyouher
e?"

"mothi
ngwillhappent
omembuso.ifyoudidn’
t
tr
ustumbuyi
selo,youwoul
dn'
thavebr
oughtme
herewi
thyou."

"Iknow.Iknow."

"t
hengetupyousexf
reak."

"notsof ast."Il
iftmybodyandpulloutandgroan.
Fuckherpussyi ssowarm.Igetoffthebed,t
hen
l
ookatt hedoorandseei tissli
ghtl
yopen.Whatthe
fuck?!Someonewaswat chingus.Whothefuck
did?.Il
ookatl uhandhereyesclosedsoIquickl
y
closeandl ockthedoorcauseIdon’twantherto
f
reakoutt
henIgot
othebat
hroom

"takeourtowel,
itst
hepinkone"ichuckle.Icome
outwi t
hit,wi
peherthenwipemysel
f.Itakeoffal
l
mycl othesandshefrowns.

"whatar
eyoudoi
ng?"

"sexi
ngyou!"

"mbuso!youhavet
ogoandseezi
pho!."

"af
terI
'm donewi
thyou,
lookatmebaby,
hest
il
l
wantsyou."

"heal
wayswant
smeboo"shel
aughs.

"youdon’
twantmet
oo?"
"youknowIdo."

"thengetof
fthebedandgetont hi
sfaceandf
uck
i
t."shesqueezeshert
highs.Igr
in.

ShegetsoffthebedandIhel
phertakeof
fher
cl
otheski
ssingherpassi
onat
ely.

"canyouweart
hisdr
essf
ormeonl
yathome?"

"soyouwon’
tbur
nit
?"sheasksbet
weenki
sses.
Soshehear
dme.

"onl
yifI
'
mtheonewhoget
stoseeyouwear
ingi
t."

"deal
."Isl
apherassanditj
iggl
esGodal
lthatass
wil
lbeinmyface?.Il
ickmyl
ips.
Il
ayonmyback,grabmyal r
eadyhar
ddickand
pumpitupanddown.Shecrawlsontopofmeand
want
stosuckmebutI’m nothavi
ngt
hat.

"notnowbaby.Iwantt hatpussyonmyf ace."she

continuestocrawlonmeunt i
licanseeherpink,
gli
steningpussyonmyl i
ps.Iputmyhandsonher
ass,openmymout handpushmyt ongueinher
pussyandshemoans.

Ithor
oughlyfuckedmywi feandlefthersl
eeping
peaceful
lyi
nt hebedroom af
terIt
oldhertolockit
wheni5leftthebedroom andshelockeditt
hen
wenttosleep.Shecannapf orafewhour sbefor
e
shebeginstocook.

"f
oramanwhokeptmewai
ti
ngf
orhour
shavi
ng
sexwi t
hhiswif
e,youl
ookgr umpyandnotahappy
manyou' r
esupposedto."sbusaysandthatf
ucker
Percyisbackanditol
dhimt ostaybehi
ndcauseI
don’tknowwhowaswat chingus.

"Someonewaswat
chi
ngus."Isaydr
ivi
ng.

"youandl
uh,
havi
ngsex?"heasksshocked.

"yes."

"whydoyousayt
hat"

"becausethedoorwasopenedandIknowf
orsur
e
thatIcl
oseditwhenIgoti
n."

"yout
hinki
tshi
m?"
"Idon’
tknowbutIdon’tthi
nkhe’st
hekidofman
whowouldjustdothat.He'
saDom andheknows
i
tsagai
nstthecodetodot hat
."hekeepsqui
etl
ike
he’
sthi
nkingthenhelooksatme.

"i
tsnothi
m.i
t'
sthatt
roubl
esomegi
rl
."

"what
?"

"i
tmakessensenow.Shecamei
nt hel
ounge
l
ookingal
lmadsayi
ng'howcanshejustl
iet
her
e
doi
ngnothi
ng.'
"heshakeshi
shead.

"thatl
it
tl
ebi
tch!"Igr
ipthesteer
ingwheelunt
ilmy
knuckl
estur
nwhi t
e.Thatl
it
tl
ebitchi
sgetti
ngonmy
l
astdamnner ve.

"Idi
dn’tknowwhatshewast
alki
ngaboutandwe
j
ustignoredher
."
"i
fmbuyi
sel
odoesn’
tsor
tthatgi
rloutsbu?,
I’
m
goi
ngt
ohurther
!"

"she'
sobsessedwi
thyoubr
o."

“Andthatmi
ghtbedanger
ous.Shemi
ghthur
tluh.”
Isay.

“goot hi
ngsheknowshowt odef endherselfnow.”
whenwecamebackf rom thest r
esshol i
day,Igot
them apersonalt r
ainertoteacht hem selfdefence
classesandt heytookshoot ingclassestoo.They
allnowhavet heirli
censedguns.Theyhavet obe
abletoprotectthemsel vesshouldanyt hi
nghappen
butthatdoesn’tmeanI ’
m nitworriedthatIlef
ther
thereeventhoughPer cyisthere.

"man,
whydi
dn'
tshebecomeobsessedwi
thyou
br
o?"wel
augh'
“You’
rehandsomeman,
haveyouseenyoursel
f?”
welaugh

“If
orgethowcr
azyyoucanbesomet
imes”

“YouknowIal
waysgotyourback.”

“Ihaveyour
stoo.Br
other
sfor
ever
.”wef
istbump.
“Sbu?”

“what
?”Il
augh.HeknowsI
’
m aboutt
opi
sshi
m of
f.

“youhavet ostoprunni
ngandf
aceyour
responsi
bil
it
ies.”

“fuckof
ffool.”hel
ooksoutsi
de.HeknowsI
’
m
ri
ghtandhe’srunni
ngoutofti
me.
CHAPTER66.

LUNGI
.

Imakemywaydownst ai
rsandIam sot i
red.Idon’ t
evenf eelli
kecookinganymor ebutIpromi sed
mbuyi selothatIwillandsoIhavet o.Ther e'
st hat
gir
lobsessedwi t
hmyhusbandi nthelongueand
she’sdrinkingwineorsomet hi
ng.Shegi vesmeone
nast yl
ookandIi gnor eher.Idon’
thavet imef orthat
shit.Igetinthekit
chenandnandii sdrinkinghert ea.
Igiveherapol it
esmi l
eandshegi vesmeaf akeone.
greatshewaspr etendingtobesor r
y.
"canyoushowmewher
eever
ythi
ngi
sinyour
ki
tchen?"Ismi
le.
"t
hisi
snotmyki
tchen."
"IknowandIwasj ustbeingpoli
te.Youseenandi
untilt
here’
saladyofthi
shouset hi
skitchen
belongstoyoucauseyourtheonewhocooksand
preparesever
ymeal yourmastereats."shelooks
down."I'
m sor
ryi
fIsai
dthatwr
ongbuthei
syour
masterr
ight
?"
"yes."
"andmebei
nghisguest
,I'
m askingyoupol
it
elyt
o
showmeever
ythi
ngthat
’sinhere?.
"
"t
hat’
soksisl
ungi
.I’
l
lshowyou."l
umkasays.I
smil
eather
.
"sowhatdoesyouruncl
eli
ket
oeat
?"Iaskher
si
ncenandiwonthel
pme.
"heeatsanythi
ngandeveryt
hingaslongasyou
wontfeedhim.Papandamasi ormil
kandnosalad
forhi
m atal
l."wegi
ggle.
"andyou,whatdoyoulike?"sheblushesanda
thoughtj
ustcrossesmymi nd.t
hamiwouldhave
l
ikedherIthi
nk.
"uhm can,youlikecookusyouknowseven
col
ours?,Ihaven’thadi
nfor
ever
."She’
ssweet
.
"t
henyou'
l
lhel
pmepeelt
heveget
abl
es."
"mypl easur
e."shetakesmetothepantr
yandwe
takeoutallt
hefreshveget
abl
esandbringthem t
o
theki
tchenisl
and.Idecidetocookmutt
onstewand
alsogri
ll
edchickenonthesidesoanyonecan
choosewhattheyprefertoeat.
"makesurewhenyou'
redoneyoul
eavet
heki
tchen
squeakycl
ean."
"yesma'am "lumkaburst
soutl
aughi
ng."ar
eyou
sureyoudon’twantt
ojoinus?"
"nothankyou."shesayssneer
ing.whyam It
he
badguyhere?.
"don’
tmissustoomuch."l
umkasays.nandil
ooks
l
ikeshewantst
othrot
tl
eher.Sheget
supand
l
eavesus.
Imar i
natethechi ckenwhi lelumkachopst he
vegetabl
es.af terI'
m donewi t
hmar inat
ingthe
chickenIputi tinthef r
idgesot hemar i
natecanset
i
nt hemeatt henIf ocusont hemut tonstew.Lumka
tel
lsmeaboutherl if
einErmel oandhowshe
wishesshecanl iveher ebutheruncl ewonthear
noneoft hat.Itellheraboutmyl i
feinStanderton
andIr eali
set hatIm okaynowwi ththami'
s
passing.Ihavemadepeacewi thit.
"thehousesmel
lswonder
fulsi
slungi
."I
treal
ly
does.
"wel
lyoudi
dal
lthehar
dwor
k.Thankyoul
umka."
shesmil
es.
Thefoodisabouttobedoneandmbusoissti
llnot
back.Per
cyisoutsi
degluedt
ohisphoneandit
mustbeagirlwhohasthatmuchatt
enti
onfr
om
hi
m.
"canyouhel
pmesett
het
abl
epl
ease."
"WhenI’
m hereIneverdoanythi
nginthishouse.I
j
ustgetup,showertheneatandt
hat
'sprett
ymuch
i
t.
"sheroll
shereyes.
"youshoul
daskhi
mforaj
ob,
soyouwontbe
bored.
"
"yeah,
Idon’
tknowwhyIdi
dn’
tthi
nkoft
hat
.thanks
si
sluh.
"
Wegot
hedi
ningr
oom andst
artset
ti
ngt
het
abl
e.
"isn'
tthi
sjustni
ce.Thetwoofyoumeetf orthef
ir
st
ti
meandal readyyou'
rebestf
ri
ends."sheclapsher
hands.
"youar
edr unkdi
neo,goandsleep.Youdon’
twant
metocallmyuncledownhere."
"myuncl
ethi
s!myuncl
ethat
!nywe!nywe!nywe!
aghman"
"whyareyoubei ngl
iket
hisdi
neo?.Whati
syour
pr
oblem exact
ly?"Li
nksasksher.
"Idon'
thaveaprobl
em wit
hyoulumka,
you'
remy
fr
iendbuther
!"shesayspoi
nti
ngatme.
"don’
tyouf
uckenpoi
ntatme!"shel
aughs.
"youfr
igi
dbi
tch!l
ayi
ngt
her
eli
keadeadchi
cken"
what?
"whatdi
dyouj
ustsayt
ome?"
"I.Cal
led.You.A.Fucken.Fr
igi
d.Bi
tch!"shecl
aps
herhandswi t
heachwor dandmovingherhead
si
det oside.
"Dineoungali
ngeuzongi
phaphel
ami nauyangizwa?
.
Anguyenaumnganiwakhomi na!
.(don’tyoudare
beforwardwit
hmecauseIam notyourf ri
end!
.)"
shelaughs.
Thear emanycarsintheyardanditlooksli
kezipho
i
st hrowingonehel
lofaparty.Ii
nst
ant l
ygetpissed
causehei susi
ngalcoholandwoment odealwit
h
everythi
ngandthatisonl
ygoingtoleadhimt oa
verydarkwhole.
"whenwi
llt
hisboygr
owup?"sbuasks
"andI
’
mfuckensi
ckofi
t.Heneedst
osnapoutofi
t.
"
Weparkthecaroutsi
dethenwalkinandt
hesmel
l
ofci
gar
etteandalcoholj
usthi
tsyou.
"Iwoul
dn'
tbesurpr
isedift
heyareal
sodoi
ngdr
ugs
her
eandsmokingajoint
."sbusays.
"wel
lyoucanf
eel
thesmel
l
."
Therear
ehalfnakedgi
rl
sdr
inkingandwal
king
aroundl
iket
heyhavenocar
ei nthewor
ld.
"whenwast
hel
astt
imeyousawt
hismanynaked
gi
rl
s?"
"thesearekidsman.j
ustl
ookatthem?.Idoubtany
ofthem areabovet
heageof25."ziphoi
sreall
y
getti
ngmemad.
"heyboys?"t
wogi
rl
ssaywi
nki
ngatus.
"voestekman!andgoputsomef uckenclotheson!
"
sbusaysandIl aughcausethat
’sexactlywhatI
wasgoi ngtosay.Thehouseisfullpackedandthe
musicisblasti
ngonspeakersandIwonderhow
comenei ghboursar
enotcomplainingaboutthe
noisethenIreal
isethatmaybemostoft hem are
here.
Ican'tseeziphoanywhereandf rankl
yal lthese
peoplearejustpissi
ngmeof f
.Iseetwogi rls
snif
fi
ngcoke.Ist andandwat chthem andIj ust
can'
tbel i
evethi
si st
hefuckenshi tt
hathasbeen
keepinghim awayf r
om hi
sf amil
y.Iwal ktowar ds
them andkickthattabl
eandt heyscream wat chi
ng
thecoket ur
nintodustintheairandf l
oor .
"whatthefuckdude!you'r
egoingtopayforthat
!"
thi
sli
tt
leshortmotherfuckersayst
henlooksatme
andstops.
Itakeoutmygun, pointi
tupwardsandshoottwo
bull
ets.Theyallscream,themusicstopsand
everyonelooksatmei nsi
lence.
"ZI
PHO!"Ishouthi
sname.
"ohshi
t!"Ihearsomeonesays.
"Bonani!Thapel
o!Thebothofyoubetterkeepyour
asseswher et
heyare.Therestofyoubett
erleave
myf uckenhouseri
ghtnow!"someonel aughst hen
sbushootsapotplantandtheyrunoutscreaming.
"wherei
szipho?"t
heset
wofoolswerehighbutas
soonastheyseemeandsbutheysoberupsame
ti
me.
"we,
wedon’tknowbhutmbuso"t
hapel
osays.i
l
aughshaki
ngmyhead.
"youdon’
tknowwher
eziphoisbutyou'
reher
eat
hi
shouse?howdoesthatwor
k?"sbuasksthem.
"wedon’tknowuncle.weswear."helooksat
bonaniwhoislooki
ngdownlit
eral
lyshaking.Ipoi
nt
mygunathi m andhealmostpi
sseshimself.
"bonani
?wher
eismyl
it
tl
ebr
other
?"
"he.
..
hei
s"hest
utt
ers
"hedoesn’
tknowwhereheiscausehewasn’
t.
..
."
sbupuncheshim ont
hefacebr
eaki
nghisnoseand
hescr
eamsl
ikeal
it
tl
ebi
tch.
"youtal
ktoodamnmuchandhewasn’
taski
ngyou.
Bonanit
alk!
.wher
eiszi
pho?"
"heisupst
air
ssleepi
ng."what
?If
eelmyhear
t
ski
ppingabeat.
"whathappenedt
ohi
m?"iaskhi
m
"he.
..
hegotbeat
enup."
"WHAT?ANDYOUDI DNTFUCKENCALLME?"I
runtohisbedroom andopent hedoor.Iwalkcloser
tothebedandmyhear tdrops.IseeachairandI
takeitandthr
owitont hemi r
roranditbeaksinto
pieces.Hestr
uggl
est ositupbuteventuall
ydoes
andwhenheseesmehef r
eezes.
"whodidthattoyou?"hekeepsqui
et."whothe
fuckdi
dthattoyou?"hisf
aceisbadl
ybruisedandI
wanttoki
llsomeone.
Sbuwalksinwi t
hthosetwoidiot
sandIcansee
theybothhavebrokennoses.Iwalktothebedand
mybr ot
hershift
sawayf r
om me.Igrabhisface
hardandhegr oansinpai
n.Igrabti
ghterunt
ilhe
t
ear
supt
henIl
etgo.
"t
ellmewhot
hef
uckdi
dthi
stoyou!"
"i
twast
hemba!"huh?
"t
hembawhozi
pho?"
"yourf
ri
endt
hemba,
who'
swor
kingf
oryou."
"t
hismot
herf
uckeragai
n!"sbusays.
"FUCK!"t
othi
nkIletthi
smot herf
uckergoaf
t erhe
betr
ayedmebuthestil
lhasthegutstoputhi
s
handsonmybrother
?.That’
showhef uckenthanks
me?!.
"youwil
lbot
hcleant
hiswhol
ehousenowand
whenIcomebacktomorr
owIbett
erfi
ndi
tsqueaky
cl
ean.Doyouhearme?"
"yesuncl
e."
"gett
hefuckoutofherandst
artcl
eani
ng!
."t
hey
runout
.
Sbuhelpsmepickupzi
phoandwet akehi
mtot
he
caranddri
vet
ombuyisel
o'shouse.
"youjustl
ayedt
her
eandl
ethi
m doal
lthewor
k"
what?
"di
neo,
youwentther
esoyoucanspyont
hem?"
l
umkasayscover
inghermout
hshook.
"Iwantedtoaskmbusosomet hingcauseIsawhim
comingoutofyouruncle’
soffi
ce.Ithoughthewas
goingtobeal
onebutt henIknockedandgotno
answerandsoIpushedt hedooropenandvi ol
aI
saw...
"shesi
ghswipingherforehead.
"wereyouwat
chi
ngmeandmyhusbandhavi
ng
sex?"
"hewast heonedoingtheworkandyoujustl
aid
therel
ikeadead.
..
."Ibi
tchsl
apthatsmugoffher
faceandshealmostfal
ls.If
oldmyhandsandlook
ather.Shehol
dshercheeklooki
ngatmel i
keI’
m
crazy.
"di
dyou?
...
..
..
.di
dyouj
ustf
uckensl
apmebi
tch?"
"cal
lmeabi
tchmeagai
nandI
’
llf
uckensl
apyou
agai
n!"
"I
’
m goi
ngt
ofuckenki
llyoubi
tch!"shet
akesa
pl
ateandt
hrowsi
tatmebutIduckqui
ckl
ybef
orei
t
hi
tsmyheadandi
thit
sthewalli
nst
ead.
Sher unstomehol dingast eakknif
eandIki ckitof
f
herhandwi t
hmyr i
ghtlegandi tfal
lssomewher e.
Shescr eamscauseImadesur eIkickthatkni
feoff
hard.Igot oherandpunchonherst omachthen
thr
owameanpuncht oherf acet
ooandshef al
ls
downcr yinghyster
ical
ly.Iputmyl egonherchest
andhol dherdown.
Percyraninwhenheheardtheplat
ebreaki
ngand
he’
snowl ookingatmeshocked.Mbuyi
selocomes
i
nwi t
hanot hermanwhom Iassumeishisbrot
her
causehelookslikehi
m.
"ahyouhadt
opokeherdineocauseyoudon’
t
l
ist
endoyou?
!"mbuyi
seloasks
"howl
ongdi
dyouwat
chus?"
"getyourfootof
fme!"Imoveitt
ohert
hroatand
pushitdown.Shebegi
nstochokeandIputmore
pressur
e.
"t
alkyoul
it
tl
ebi
tch!"Ieaseof
fthepr
essur
eal
it
tl
e.
"Notl
ong.Iwasscar
edyouwi
llbot
hseeme."
"di
dyoufuckenr
ecordus?"myhusbandasksandI
l
ookupandbothofthem have.
..
.zi
pho?
"isthatzi
pho?"Igetmylegof
fthi
sbitchandrunto
them."ohmyGodzi phowhathappenedtoyou?!
Whodi dthi
stohim mbuso?"
"manI ’
m sorr
ytoj
ustshowupwit
hmybrot
herli
ke
thi
sbutheneedstosleept
oni
ghtt
hent
omorrowwe
arefl
yingbackhome."
"noprobl
em man.l
etst
akehimt
otheot
herguest
bedr
oom."mbuyisel
osays.
"per
cycomeandhelpsbu."theytakezi
phot
othe
bedr
oom."lumka,
Ineedyout obr
ingmeanythi
ng
di
git
alt
hatbel
ongstothi
sgir
l."hesays
"yesunclembuso."sher
unsupst
air
s.shel
ooks
pret
tyshakenup.
"di
dyour
ecor
dus?"
"no,
noIswearIdi
dn’
t.i
fjustwat
chedt
hat
’sal
l."
"gi
vemeyourphone!unl
ockit
."shetakesi
toutof
herj
eans,
unl
ocksitandgi
vesitt
ohim.
"I
’
m goi
ngt
ocheckonzi
pho.
"It
ellhi
m
"okl
ove."Ir
unupst
air
s.

Icheckhergal lery, everysocialmedi aand

everythi
ngIcant hi nkofandt here’
snot hing.lumka
comesdownwi t
ht hi sgirlsot
herphoneandl aptop.
Iopent hel aptopandi tsunlocked, searchf ori
ttoo
andt here’snot hingoni tandherot herphonet oo.I
useherl apt opt ogeti ntomyser verandf indavi r
us
thatIhavesecr etlyst ashedsomewher eshoul d
anythinghappent ome, soIcaner aseany
i
nf or
mat ion.Idownl oadi ttoherlaptop, senditto
herphonest oousi ngheremai laddressandwat ch
asshel osesever ything.herphonesandl aptopwi l
l
neverwor k.
"doyouhaveanyaci
dinher
e?"Iaskmbuyi
.
"Ido."hel
eavesandcomeswi
thacont
ainerofi
t.
Iputi
tinthesi
nkwit
hal lherphonesthenpourthe
aci
dandshecr i
esasshewat cheshergadgetsmelt
i
ntonothi
ng.It
akemygunt henroughlypul
lherby
herbr
aidsandshescreams.
"openyourmout h."shedoes.Ishovet hatguni n
hermout h."i fIeverhearanyt hi
ngaboutyou, see
youorf indyousnoopi ngar oundmyf amilyort hi
s
familyIwi llcomeatyourpl aceandI ’
llsetyour
mot her, father ,
li
t t
lebr ot
her sonf irewi t
hyou
watchi ng.Iknowyourwhol ef amilyandt hatcousi n
youl ovesomuch.Yout hi nkwhatNgqakul adi dto
youwast hewor stthing?, li
ttl
egirlyoudon’ tknow
nothing.Buti fyouwantt o,opent hisbigmout hof
yours, tellevenasi nglesoulwhathappenedi nP. E,
hereoraboutanyofust henyouwi l
lknowwhot he
fuckIam.St aythef uckawayf r
om lumkaandnever
evercont actheragai nanywher ecauseIwi llbe
watchi ngyou.doyouunder st
and?"
"ye,
yes.
..yesIunder
stand."
"youwil
lapol
ogi
ze,
tol
umkaher
e,heruncl
eandmy
wif
etoo."
"yesIwil
l.Iam sor
ryever
yone,Idon’
tknowwhyI
behavedt
hatway."sbuscoffs.
"gocl
eanyoursel
fup,
packyourshi
tandmyman
wil
ldr
iveyouhomeokay?"
"yessi
r."sherunsupst
air
s.Il
ookatl
umkaand
she’
sscaredofme.good.
"Ihavetogoandt
alkt
osomeonewhobeatmy
brot
herup.
"
"needsomehel
p?"
"we'vegott
hisbutthanksman.You’
real
ready
doi
ngenough."Itel
lhisbrot
her
.
"ohguysthisi
sMabuthomybr ot
her.t
heoneItold
youabout."weshakehandsaf
terthei
ntr
oduct
ions
thenl
eave.
"t
hegi
rl
?"
"wewi
llbet
akencar
eof
f.Idon’
ttr
usther
."
"she'
stoomuchofabi
gmout
h."
sbusays.
"Ican'
tbel
ievet
hembabeatupzi
pho."
"hehasmademanymi st
akesandgotcomfortabl
e
forhi
sowngood.weneedtoteachhi
m alesson."
"he’
sdead.Hej
ustdoesn’
tknowi
tyet
."Isayand
sbunods.
CHAPTER67
MBUSO.

Ihaven'tbeent omyhousei nayearandt othink

thatthismot herwhoputhi shandsonmyl i
ttl
e
brother,managesmycompanyt hati
sher e,l
ivesin
myhouser entf
reethenhehast hefuckenner veto
beatupmybr ot
her?!.Idon’tcar
ewhatr easonhe
thi
nksj usti
f i
esthatcausehewassupposet ocall
meandl etmeknowwhati sgoingon.Ipuncht he
codet hent hegateopensandwegeti n.Hi scaris
onthedr ivewayandanot herone.Iswitchoffthe
engenandwest ayint hecar.
"Ihaveani
dea."It
ellsbu.
"andt
hembashoul
dbever
ywor
ri
ed."
"Cal
lPer
cyandt
ellhi
mtobr
ingt
hatgi
rlher
e."
"what
'st
hepl
an."
"Percycomesher ewiththatl
it
tl
ebitch,af
terIbeat
theshitoutofhi
m.I '
m goingt
otellhi
mt odrivethe
gir
lbackhome.I'l
lleaveyouwiththem andsay
there'sanemer gencyorsomet hingt henleavebut
I’
llbehi di
nginhi scar,takeoneofhi sgunscause
webot hknowwher ehehi desthem.YouandPer cy
wi l
lfoll
owhiscarbehi ndthenI'llsignalforyout o
callthecopswhent heyarehalf wayont heroad,
afterIhavebl ownt hebitchesbr ainof fandframe
themot herf
ucker .Hewi l
lgot ojai lthenI’
l
lfind
someonei nthei nsi
det otortur
ehi m unti
lhecan't
takei tanymor eandmaybehewi llsaveust he
troubleandki l
lhimsel f
.endofst or y.
"
"Remi
ndmet
onevercr
ossyou.ever
!"
"ohpleaseyourwor
sethanme."hel
aughs.he
takesouthi
sphoneandcall
sPer
cytobri
ngthegi
rl
here.
"whati
fhest
art
stal
kingt
her
e,aboutus.
"
"weknowpeopl eontheinsideandwecanmake
thei
rli
feverycomf
ort
ableinthereandal
ltheyhave
todoistomakesurethatthembadoesn'
tsingli
kea
canaryther
e."
"hehastodieman.Twomont
hsi
senoughwi
th
hi
mt her
e."
"let
sseet hatmot herfuckerwho’snotevenawar e
thatweareher e."wegetoutoft hecar ,wal
ktothe
door,i
tsnotlockedt henopenit.Wegeti nsi
deand
wecanhearsoundofpeopl efucking.Isaypeopl
e
causeitsoundsl i
ket her
ear emoret hantwopeople.
Wel ookateachotherandlaughgoingupstairs.The
dooriswideopenandt hembaisfuckingagi r
lfrom
behindandthegir
lhe’sfucki
ngismuf fi
nganot her
girlwho’
slayi
ngonherback.Howni ceofthem.We
sil
entl
ywalkinandwat chthem.Themandeser ves
tohavehislastor
gasm onear t
hsincehe'sgoingt o
die.
Thembai sfucki
nglikehe'sr unningamar athonand
hecan'twaittocr
osst hefinishingline.Ilookatsbu
andhe'sshakinghisheadl ikehewant stol aughbut
Ishakemyhead.Thegi r
lwhobei ngmuf fedr ai
ses
herheadandseesusandhereyesgowi de.I
thoughtshewasgoi ngtoscr eam butt hebi tch
smiles.Hesureknowshowt opi ckthem.
Thegirlscreamsasshecomes,t
heonebeing
fuckedscreamstooandthembafi
nal
lyr
eachesthe
fi
nishi
ngline.Weclaphands,
hej
umpsturningand
l
ooksatusshocked.
"whatt
hef
uck!Howdi
dyougeti
nher
e?."
"you'
redi
sgust
ingman,
coveryour
sel
f."sbusays
"heyguyswhydidn'
tyout
ell
meyou'r
ecoming?"
thembasaysshaki
ngupandlooki
ngf
orsomethi
ng
towear.
"Aretheygoi
ngt
ojoi
nus?"t
het
wogi
rl
ssays
ki
ssing.
"putyourcl
othesonandgett
hef
uckoutofmy
house.
"
"what
?butwethought
….."It
akeoutmygunand
poi
nti
tonthem.Theyscr
eam.
"wedon’
thavemoneyt
ogobackhome.Wet
ookan
Ubert
ocomehere.
"
"hereisthemoneyl
eave!"t
hembat
hrowsnot
esat
them andtheyt
akei
t.
"don’
tevercallusyoumotherf
ucker!"oneoft
he
gi
rl
ssaystot hembarunni
ngoutofthebedroom.
"uhm guyscanyouwai
tformedownst
air
s.Iwant
t
oshowerqui
ckl
y.
"nah,
youdon’
thavetoshower
.Wejustneed
somethi
ngf
rom you,
that
’swhywearehere."
"i
sther
eapr
obl
em?"
"yes,
agi
rlpr
obl
em."hel
aughsandwej
oint
hem.
"Iknewyouwoul dn’
tlastwit
hthatgirl"heshakes
hishead,
her ef
ersmywi feas‘thatgirl‘
.Thenerve
ofthi
smot herf
ucker
.I’l
lleti
tgofornow."aman
l
ikeyoucanneverbet amed.Menl i
keus"hesays.
sbuandIlookateachot herandwel augh.
Wegodownst ai
rsandPercycomesinthehouse
walki
nginwitht
hegir
l,Mabutho.SomehowIknew
oneofthem wasgoi
ngtotagalong.Thegi
rll
ooks
ter
ri
fi
edandsheshouldbe.
'
'Justi
nti
me."Isay.
"whatam Idoi
ngher
e?"shesays.
"whosai
dyoucant
alk?"sbusays.
"butI
'
m supposet
obeonmywayhome?"
"andyouar
egoi
nghomebutf
ornowj
ustsi
tdown.
"Per
cypul
lsachai
rforherandshesi
tsdown.
"sot
hisi
sher
?"t
hembaasks?
"whydon’
tyousi
tdownt
ooandf
aceher
."
"Idon'
tknowherman"
"Iknowyoudon’t.Pullachai
r,si
tdownandf
ace
her."heshakeshishead.
"what
'sal
lthi
sguys?
,whydoIf
eell
ikesomet
hing
i
swrong?"
"becausei
tis.Nowsi
tyourassdown."sbusays.
"don'
tfuckent
alktomeli
kethatsbu!"sbupul
lsout
hi
sgunandpoi nt
sisathi
m.Thembar aiseshi
s
handsup."wai
tnowman, whatgoingon?Whatdid
Ido?"hesayssit
ti
ngdown.
"Themba,
meetwhat
'syournameagai
n?"Iaskt
he
gi
rl
?
"di
neo,
mynamei
sdi
neo."hervoi
cet
rembl
es.
"meetdi
neowhobeendi
srespect
ingmywi
fe."
"oh..
.ok.Thi
sist
hegi
rlyoul
eftyourwi
fef
or?"we
al
llaugh.
"nah,luhi
sstil
lmywifeandI'
llneverl
eaveherfor
anyone.Ever
!.Butt
hisgi
rlhadtheaudacit
ytothink
thatshecanhavesomethingwithme."
"I
'
m sor
ryuncl
embuso."wel
augh
"ncoohI'
m unclenow?.YouknowI ’
m nottheki
nd
ofpersont
ogivepeoplesecondchancesifthey
pi
ssmeof f.ButIdowhenIlikethatper
son."Il
ook
atthembaandhi sf
acegetspale.
"l
uckyyoudi
neo"Per
cysays.
"di
neomeett hemba,whor unsoneofmy
companies,
li
vesinmyhouseandbet rayedmeand
puthi
shandsonmyl i
tt
lebrother ."t
hembaget sup
butIpunchhisfacebr
eakinghi snoseandhef al
ls
down."getupandsityourski nnyassont hatchair
.
"hedoeswipinghisnosegr oaning.
"youseedi neo, t
hembausedt oworkwi t
htheman
whoki dnappedyou."shelooksathim andcr i
es."
thereasonwef oundyoudineoisbecausethis
motherf uckernexttoyoubetr
ayedmeandmy
brot
hersbuf oundthatout
.Sbui st
her easonwhy
youareher eandwasneversol dtoslaveryorkil
led.
Thebothofyougotasecondchancei nlif
etomake
thi
ngsrightandli
veyourl
ivesbutyoudidn'
t.You
gotful
lofyoursel
vesandcameaf t
erpeoplewho
wantednothingfr
om you.
..
..
"
"yourbr
other
..
..
"hecut
smeof
f.
"shutt
hef
uckup!"
"whatareyougoi
ngt
odot
ome?"sheaskscr
ying
hyst
eri
call
y.
"ohhellno.wear
enotgoingtodowhatyout hink.
Asfuckedupwear el
it
tl
egirl
,wearenotrapi
sts.
Youaregoinghomebutthisone."Ipoi
ntatt
hemba
"br
o,Icanexpl
ain."
"expl
ainwhatt
hemba?
."
"yourbrot
herf
uckedmygi
rlmanandt
hen.
..
."we
al
llaugh.
"soyoubeatupmybr ot
herbecausehef
uckedyour
gi
rl
?whydidn’tyoucal
lmeandt el
lmewhathe’
s
doi
ng?"
"Iwasgoingt
othenIf
oundoutt
hathegother
pregnant
."
"what
?"sbuandIsay.
"yes,Icaughtthetwooft hem atherplaceand
whenIaskedwhat '
sgoingshet ol
dme, shewas
cheati
ngonmeandshe' spregnantforhim.Ilosti
t
andthenhehi tmef i
rstandt henwef ought.It
old
them thatt
heycanbet ogetherandIl eft
.Don'tt
ell
meyou' reherecauseIdiscipli
nedtheboy."This
foolt
hingI'm st
upid.
“Yousayyoubothfoughtbutmybr otheri
st heonl
y
onewhoisbadlybrui
sedandyoulookper fectl
yfi
ne.
Hellmanyouwe’r
eevenhavingsomepussyi n
there.
”It
akeoutmyphoneandcal lluh.
"l
ove?"
"i
szi
phoawake?"
"hei
s.Doyouwantt
otal
ktohi
m?"
"yeah,
puthi
m onl
oudspeaker
."
"ok.
"Ihearshuf
fl
ing.
"baf
o?(br
other
)"zi
phosays.
"Tel
lmewhathappenedbet
weenyouandt
hemba?
"
"Hei stheexofmygi r
lfri
end, hehasbeen
harassingherwant ingt ogetbackt oherbutshe
didn'
twantanyt hingt odowi thhim.Thenoneday
hecamet oherplaceandf oundust oget herandhe
l
ostitwhenhesawmet her e.Heleftanddi dn’
tdo
anythingbutt hent hreedaysago, Igot oseemygi r
l
andshet ell
smet hatthembawasher e,want edto
sleepwi t
hherbutt hensher antoherr oom t ocall
thepol i
cebutt henhel eft
.Shewasdr inkingjuice
thenlateratni ghtshecal ledmecr yingandt ol
dme
shewasnotf eeli
ngwel l
.Icameandt ookhert othe
hospitalandwef oundoutt hatshewaspr egnant
bro..
..
"Ifeeldar knessconsumeme.
"thedoctorsaidtheyfoundtracesofpoison.He
wantedtokillherbutshedidn’ti
nst
eadshel ostour
babybro!heki l
ledourbaby.Icametoyourhouse
toconfr
onthi m andhewaswi t
hhisfr
iendsand
theygangeduponmeandbeatmeup."
"I'
m sor
rybr
o.I
'
llseeyoui
naf
ewmi
nut
es."Ihang
up.
“Mbuso?”l
ubsays.
“Whenar
eyougoi
ngt
ocome?”
“whenI
’
m doneher
elove.”
“don’
tki
llhi
m.Justdosomet
hingbutdon’
tki
ll
hi
m.”
“Ican’
tpr
omi
seyout
hat
.”shekeepsqui
et.
“pl
easecomeandleavet
hembaal
one.Hewi
llher
whati
scomingtohim.”
“Il
oveyou,
I’
llbet
her
ejustnow.”shesi
ghs.
“weloveyout
oo.”shehangsup.Il
oveherandour
ki
ds.
"He'
slyi
ng!He'
slyi
ng!Idi
dn'
ttr
ytopoi
sonanyone.
"It
akeadeepbreat
h.
"callyourfri
ends,theone'swhohelpedyoubeatup
mybr other.Tel
lthem tocomeherenowi fyouwant
toli
vet hemba."het akesouthi
sphoneandcall
s
them.
"t
heyar
ecomi
ng."
"It
akehisphoneandputitonmypocket ."si
tdown
andcovermyfacecauseIfeeldr
ained.
Somet hingiswr ongwi thmeandmybr others.Our
whol efamilycauseever ythi
ngi sjustf
alli
ngapar t
andIam scar edtot hinkt hatmaybeal loft hi
si s
happeni ngbecauseIhavet hi
sdar kcloudt hatis
foll
owingmeandnowi tisaffecti
ngmybr other'
s
l
ife.Ihavetodot hiscl eansingcer emonyandour
mot herhast obet her eandIwi sht oGodmyt win
brotherandmot herwi llbet heretoo.Ilookatt hi
s
mot herfuckerandIj ustwantt oempt yallthe
bullet
sonhi m.
"youki
ll
edmyki
d,ki
dst
hemba!GOD!HOW COULD
YOU?!"
"Idi
dn'tIswear!"sbuthr
owsapunchonhisface,
hefal
lsagain,getsupandtr
iest
ofi
ghtback.
"Idar
eyoutopunchme!Idar
eyoumot
herf
ucker
!.
"Sbusaysandhestops.
Thedooropensandtwoofhisfri
endsIhavenever
met,geti
nandstopwhentheyseeus.Mabutho
cl
osesthedoorbehi
ndthem andpoint
shisgun.
"walk."hesays.t
heyr
aiset
hei
rhandsshocked.I
takeoutmygunandshootbothoft
hem ontheface
andtheyfal
ldown.Thescr
eamsandal
mostpi
sses
her
self.
"ThembaIwantt obeatyouupsobad, do
undispicabl
et hingstoyouandmakeyousuf ferbut
Iwon't.I'
mt ir
edofpeopl eIknowbet r
ayingme
causeIcan' tgoar oundkil
li
ngpeople.Ihaveki ds
nowandt heyneedmemor ethananything.you
ki
ll
edourki dsandr obbedthem oft
hel i
fetheywer e
supposet olive."
"Imadeanhonestmi stakebrot
herandIswearI
wouldn'thavedoneitifIknewshewascar ryi
ng
yourbrother'
skids.
"hebegsuswi thhiseyescause
heispet r
if
ied.HeknowswhatI '
m capableof.
"I'
mt i
redandIwanttoseemywifewho'
snursi
ng
mybr other
.Sbuyouknowwhattodowit
hthem.
Percygetonetwoofourguyst
ogetri
dofthese
bodies."
"bossthecopswil
lfi
ndthatthegunusedt
oshoot
theseguysbel
ongstoyou."
"It
houghtyouknewmebet terthanthat
."does
Per
cyreal
lythi
nkIshootpeopleusingmyown
per
sonalgun?Ichuckl
e.
"bosssoyou'r
eletti
ngt
hem go,
justl
iket
hat
?"
Percyasksshocked.
"Iguesstheyhaveaguar
dianangelwat
chi
ngover
them."helooksatmeconfused.
"I
'
m comi
ngwi
thyou."mabut
hosays.Wel
eave.
"there'
snowayinhel
lyou'
rel
ett
ingt
hatmot
her
fuckergoj
ustl
iket
hat."
"youknowme."Iunlockt
hemba'
scarandgeti
n
thebackseat
.hedr
ivesanSUVsohewontseeus.
"whatar
ewedoi
ng?"
"wear egett
ingi
nhere,hidi
ngt henwhent heyare
closetoherhome,Iwil
lusethisgun. .
."It
akeitout
underthedri
versseatandpullthetri
gger..
..
no,I
’l
l
forcehimtoblowthegirl
sbrainsoffthencallt
he
copshegoest ojai
landdiesint her
e."
"won'
thebesuspi
cioust
hatal
lthecar
sar
eher
e?"
"hedoesn'
tknowwhatcarwecamewi
thandeven
i
fheknew,whatwoul
dhedo?"
"you'
recr
azy.Il
ikeyou."Il
augh.
'
"youguysaregoi
ngt
oli
ket
her
estoft
heguys.Put
youronsi
lent
."
"ift
heyarelikeyouthenwewi l
lal
lgetal
ong."we
movet heseatsthenhideourbi
gframesandits
veryuncomfortabl
e.
Theycomeoutaft
er15minutes.Per
cyputsthe
gi
rl
sbagsonthebootandhedoesn'tseeusthen
cl
osesit
.Thembaandthegir
lgetinthefr
ontseats
andcl
osethedoor.Hest
art
stheengine,r
everses
anddri
vesout
.
"sowher
edoyoul
ive?"heasksher
.
"Il
ivei
nAl
ex."hekeepsqui
etashedr
ives.
"lookdi
neo,youareabeautif
ulgi
rlandIthink
you'r
esmart
.Iknowyouhaveani deanowwhat
kindofmanmbusoi sandthatmandoesn' tforgi
ve
twicewhenpeoplebetr
ayhim.Iknowhim ver ywell
andIknowhe'supt osomethingwhichi
swhyme
andyouhavet oworktoget
her."
"Idon'
twantt
roubl
ethembapl
easej
ustt
akeme
backhomeandbackt
omyl
if
e."
"orwecangost rai
ghttot
hepoli
cestati
onandt el
l
them whatyouknowaboutmbuso,andI’l
ltel
lthem
everyt
hingIknowabouthi
m andeveryli
tt
leshady
thi
nghehasdone."t hi
smotherf
ucker!mabutho
l
ooksatmeandshakeshi shead.
"areyousur ethepoli
cewi l
lhel puscauseal lof
them ar
erich,thosepeoplear eweal t
hyandohmy
GodwhatwasIdoi ngmessi ngwi t
hweal thy
people?
.HowcanIbesost upi dtothinkar ichman
l
ikembusocoul dwantabr oke.poordamagedgi r
l
l
ikeme? .I
tmustbet hosenovel sIreadon
Facebookthatmademet hi
nkIcanf indmysel fa
wealt
hymant ooandhewi l
lf al
linlovewi thmeor
makemehi ssidechick.Iblamet hem! ."Ialmost
l
aughcauseIhavenoi deawhatt hisgirli
st alking
about.
"Facebookwhat?,
lookorwecanj
ustranaway.Go
toanotherpr
ovi
nceandstar
tanewli
fetoget
her."
"di
dn'
thesayyouwor
kforhi
m?"
"IdobutI
'
m al
soashar
ehol
deri
nthatcompany"
"r
eal
ly?howmuchshar
esdoyouhave?"
"15per
cent
."
"t
hat
'
sal
l?"Damnshesoundsdi
sappoi
nted.
"yes,
butIcangetmoresowecanbecomf ort
able.
Icanstealsomeofhi
smoneyt hensel
lmyshares
andstartmyownbusinessel
sewhere."
"youwoul
ddot
hatf
orme?"
"wellIknowI'
m notri
chl
iket
hem butI
’
m doing
pret
tymuchokayandyesIwouldcauseIli
keyou.I
cantreatyougood."
"ok,
let
srunawaybutwher
eto?"
"let
sgotofr
eestat
einBloemf
ont
ein.Theywont
knowthatwewentther
e."
"ok."FUCK!
Theydriveandthembacont i
nuestopromi sethis
gi
rlthemoonandt hestartsandfrankl
yI'mjustsick
ofit
.I'
m overi
tbutIknowIhavet owai tunti
lthey
getoffN3roadandt aketherout
et oBloemfontein.
aft
erbeinginthecarforanhour,Icanseet hatwe
havelef
ttheN3andl uckyforus.theroaddoesn't
seem t
obebusy.I
t'
sti
met
heset
wodi
ed.
Ishuf
fl
ebehindtheseat,t
hegi
rlscreamsshocked.
Thembalooksattherearvi
ewmirrorandseesus.
"Iknewyouwoul
dn'
tletusgoj
ustl
iket
hat
!Iknew
i
t!
."
"Ialsoknewthatyouwil
lgot
othecopsandt
ryt
o
sellmeout.Pul
lovert
hembaorIsweart
oGodI'
l
l
blowyourbrai
nsoff."
"Well t
henl etsalldiemot herf uckers!"Themba
swervest hecar ,Iquickl
yt r
yt ogetupsoIcanhol d
thesteeringwheelbutt hembabi tesmyhandver y
hard,Iletgo, hekeepsswer vingandIhearahuge
clashasi tcolli
deswi thanot hercarandi trol
ls,r
oll
s
andr ol
ls.AllIhearist hescr eamsoft hatgi
rland
thenever yt
hinggoessi l
ent.wher e'
sluh,mywi fe
andmyki ds? .Itr
ytomove, getupandevenspeak
butIcant .Thel astt
houghtIhavebef oredarkness
engulfsmei slungil
eandmyki ds.
CHAPTER68.
LUNGI
LE.

Ifeeloffaboutt hiswhol esit

uationwi t
hziphoand
themba.Iwi shmyhusbandwoul dletitgo,come
andseei fhe'sbr otherisokaythenhewi l
ldealwith
thembasomeot hert i
me.Mbuyi selogavezi photwo
pill
sandt heyhaveknockedhi m out, he'
snow
sleeping.Iwi shzi phowoul dhavet oldmbusowhat
i
shappeni ngbutIdon’ tblamehi m causehewant ed
todot hingsonhi sown, fi
xhispr oblemswi thout
i
nvol vi
nghi sbr others.I'
m wor r
iedabouthi sbrui
ses
thoughcauseIdoubthewentt ot hehospi tal.

Il
eavehisroom andgotothekitchen,openthe
fr
idgeandpourcoldwaterintheglass.It
akeand
bri
ngitt
omymout hbutthenIfeelthi
ssharppain
hi
tti
ngmychestandt heglassbreaksdowninto
pi
eces.Ihol
dmychestandst r
uggletobreat
h.
Nandicomesinrunni
ng.

"whatt
hehel
liswr
ongwi
thyou?Lookatt
hemess
youhavecreat
edman?!"Icl
utchmychestwhenI
feelt
hesamepainhi
tt
ingmeagain.

"I
..
.Ican'
t.
..
.br
eat
he."It
ryt
otakedeepbr
eat
hesbut
i
tsgetti
nghard.

Someonegi
vesmeapaperback,It
akei
t,puti
ton
mymouthandbreat
het
hroughit
.

"breat
hein..
..
..
breatheout."Idoasshesays.she
rubsmybackandt hathonestl
yt hathel
ps.me.She
pull
smet ositonthechairandmyski niscovered
i
nsweat .If
eelweirdandIdon' tknowwhy.It ake
outmyphoneandcal ll
esego.

"heysi
s,howar
eyou?"

"I'
m good,what
'swr
ongwi
tht
heboys?"Icanhear
them cr
ying.
"ohyouknowyou'
reki
dslovewat
erandwhenthey
havet
ocomeoutitsahugefi
ght
."shei
sri
ght.I
nodasli
keshecanseeme.

"oksis.I'
llseeyout omorr
owthen.Wear
ecomi
ng
back.kisstheirchubbycheeksf
orme."Asmal
l
smileformsonmyl ips.

"wi
lldomommybye."Ihangup.

"i
syouruncl
ebackwi
thmyhusband?"

"noauntl
ungi
.Maybet
heyar
eont
hei
rway."

"yeahIguess.I'
m goingt
oli
edownal i
tt
le,
Idon'
t
feelgood."Iwal
ktoourbedroom,takeoffmy
shoesthenlayont opoft
hebed,coveri
ngmyself
withathrowblanket.
"Ireal
lydon’
tknowwhat'
swrongwitht
hem sis
l
esego."Thenanni
esar
epanicki
ngcausetheboys.
Theyhavebeencryi
ngthewholedaysi
ncethey
wokeup.

Ididn'twantt oworryluhaboutt
heboyscauseI
thi
nkt heyar eprobablysi
ckofusandtheywant
theirparentsback.Itakesbonel
owho'swail
ingthe
l
oudest ,
puthim onmybackandt r
ytocal
m him
downbutt hisoneyoucanseehe' sgoi
ngtome
mor elikehisdad.

"ohmyl i
tt
leGumede,pl
easecal
m downforaunty
l
esego.Mommyanddaddyar ecomingback
tomorr
owl i
tt
leonepl
easest
opcryi
ng."Iam
shushi
nghim upanddownbutthati
snothelpi
ng.

It
akehi
m of
fmybackandl
ookathim andhis
whol
efacei
ssor
edli
kehei
ssick.Theyarestar
ti
ng
tof
reakmeout.Si
celowal
ksi
ncomi
ngfrom wor
k
andhefr
owns.Hekissesmet
henl
ooksatt
heboys.

"what
'swr
ongwi
tht
hem.
?"

"t
heywon'tst
opcr
yingadIdon'
tknowwhat
’s
wrong."

"maybet
heywantt
osl
eepormi
sst
hei
rpar
ent
s."

"nopapa,t
heyhavebeencr
yingl
iket
hiseversi
nce
theywokeup.Lookathowr
edtheyar
e.I'
m worri
ed
aboutt
hem."

"yeahi
tlooksl
ikesomet
hingi
swr
ong."

"Icheckedthei
rtemper at
ureandanysignsoffever
butit
6sallnormal.Iknowt heyt
eet
hingbutIdoubt
i
tcanmaket
hem cr
ythi
shar
d."

Hekeepsqui
etf
orawhi
let
hent
akesouthi
sphone.

"br
oareyouhome? .
..
.Canyoucomeherewi
th
si
ms?..
..
..
somet
hingiswrongwitht
heboys.
..
ok."
hehangsupandlooksatme.

Het akessbonisof rom thenanny, hestopscryi

ng
foral i
tt
lebi
tandI ’
m aboutt otakeadeepbr eat
h
butthehecr iessol oudIf eelt
ear spri
ckingmyeyes.
Het ri
estocal m him downbutt heywontst opand
thatmakesmet earupt oocausei t'st
akingmeback
towhenIwasal oneraisingkamoandwhenshe
woul dcryli
ket hisIwoul dbealonewi thnoonet o
helpme.

"Ungakhal
imama.(don'tcr
ylove.)Theboyswill
befi
ne."hewipesmytearsandkissesmyforehead.
Bongawal
ksinwit
hsimsaft
er10minutes.Heal
so
l
ooksatt
hem al
armed.Si
mstakessbonelofr
om
scel
oandshusheshim.

"somet hi
ngiswrong.Let
staket hem t
otheir
parentsbedr
oom."Weal lgot hereexcl
udingthe
nannies."putt
hem downher e.

Weputthenonthecarpet.Bongawalkstothei
r
cl
osetandcomesoutwi t
hcandles,sageand
somethi
ngelseIcan'
ttel
lwhatiti
s.

"goodbothyourheadsandshoul dersarecovered."
Sicel
oauntswhent heygavememymakot icl
othes
toldmethatIal
wayshavet owearadoekandmake
surethatmyshouldersarecoveredwheneverIgo
toluh'
shousesinceshei salsoamar r
iedwoman
andsimshouse.Thati sthelawher e.WheneverIgo
tothei
rhouseI'
m wear i
ngadr essanddoekonmy
head.Evenluhdoesthatwhenshegoest osims
houseandmostoft het i
mei nmyhousecause
t
hat
'sherbr
other
'shousebutnotal
ways.

Bongal i
ghtsthecandles,sageandt hatt
hingIhave
noideawhati tis.Asitburnshetakesthesnuf fand
spri
nklesitontopoft hesageandt heotherthi
ng
thati
salsobur ning.Weallsneeze,eventhekids.

"Mnguni ,Qwabe,MngunikaYeyeye, Osi dlabehlezi

bakaKhondl okaPhakat hwayo..
..
"hecont inuest o
saythei rclannamest aki
ngthebowlt hathast he
burningsageandst uffandmovesi tallaroundt he
ki
ds.Myhusbandst andssboneloupasbonga
movest hesageonhi shead, f
ace,bodyandunder
hisfeet.Hedoest hesamet osbonisoandt hekids
stopcr yingbutt helooksbonelo'
sfacei shar dlike
howmbusol ooksthef ewti
mesIhaveseenhi m
mad.Hehasadeepf rownonhi shandsomef ace
andit'stroubl i
ngme.

".
..
ngicel
anisixol
elekukonkeokubiesi
nkwenzi
le,
nesikwenzayo.Ngiyacel
a,ngi
yashwelezaki
ni
madloziwoGumedengi celanisi
khanyisel ethi
na
i
zinganezenu, kusukekonkeukumnyama
okusil
andel ayookuf unaukuwel akulezi zingane.
Ngicelanikhanyi selaumamanobabal apho
bekhona.ubhut iwamiomdal auMbuso, iNkosikazi
yakheuNokukhanya, kanyenewel elakheubhut i
l
aphol ikhona,nozi phout humbuwasekhayakanye
namineNkosi kaziyamiuThandi wekanyenengane
ayit
helwe, nazozonkei zizukulwanezenu.
Makukhanye, ubumnyamabusuke.Thokozani
bogogonabomkhul u.Khul umanamiDl ozilami
ngil
alel
e."hesaysandIl ookatsi msandsmi les.
MyGodshe’ spr egnant.

"helpmeputt hem i
nbed."si
msandIstandup.I
takesbonelo,shemovest hepi
ll
owsofft
hebedand
weputt hekidsi nt
hemiddleoft
hebed."let
sleave
them t
heywi llbefi
ne."

Wecloset
hedoorbutwedon’
tleave.Weal
ljust
st
andther
enott
alki
ng.
"Somet hi
ngiswr ong.I
'
m goingt
ocallmbuso."
he'
saboutt otakehisphoneoutwhenitr
ings."I
t'
s
sbu.Bro?..
..
,wait."hesaysandput
shim onloud
speaker.

"okt
alk,
ever
yonei
sher
e."

"t
her
ewasanacci
dentand.
..
..
"

"what ?"weal lsayatthesamet i

me.OhmyGod
thatexplai
nswhyt hekidswerecryi
ng.Theyknew
somet hi
ngi swr ong."i
smysi st
erokaysbu?Where
i
sshe?Wher eismbuso? !"It
akehishandandtryto
calm him down.

"It
'smbuso.Hewasinanaccidentandweareon
ourwaytotheLanser
iaPr
ivat
ehospital
."ohmy
god!
"howbadi
sit
?"bongaasks.Hel
ooksshut
ter
ed.

"i
t’
sbadman.Ineedyout
ocal
lyourdadandyou
needt
ocomehere."

"wher
ewasl
uh.I
sshehur
ttoo?"scel
oasks.

"noshewasn’there.Ihaven'
ttol
dher.I
can'
t.
..
..
guysI'
m scared."hesaysbreaki
ngdown.
Godmbusocan' tdi
ecauset hati
sgoingkil
lluh.
She'
snotgoingtohandleit.

"li
stensbu.Youneedtocallmbuyisel
oandt el
lhi
m
todrivel
uhtoLens.Theycan'tdoanythi
nguntill
uh
comesandgi vest
hem thegoahead.We' l
lseeyou
ther
ewhenwecome. "bongasays.

"okIwi
ll
.Bongacal
lmybr
otherandt
ellhi
mto
bri
ngyouherewithhisheli
copter
.Iwil
lar
rangefor
youtol
andont hehospit
alsrooft
op."hehangsup.
Bongajustst
andsthere.

Hismi
ndsseemslikei
thasf
inal
lyr
egi
ster
edwhat
sbuwassayi
ng.hecover
shi
sheadwithhishands.

"Youwon'tshoutorscr eam.Wehaveahousef ul
l
ofki
dsandi ftheyhearanyoneofuslosingit
,they
aregoi
ngtof reakout."sicel
osaysbutIknowmy
manisfreakingouttoo.

"bongacal
lsbu'sbrot
her!"si
mssays.Tear
sfal
li
ng
downherface.Bongalooksathert
henshakeshi
s
head.

"yesl
etmecal
lhi
m."

"I
’
llcal
lmydadandl
ethi
m know."myhusband
says.

"lesogocome."shet akesmyhandandwegot o
thekitchen.Sisnont
oandt henanniesar
ether
eand
shehast earsi
nhereyes.Iguesssheheard
everything.Igi
veherahug.

"i
sbhut
imbusogoi
ngt
obeokay?"

"wedon'tknowsi snont
o.Weneedyounowmor e
thanwehaveeverneededyousi snonto.I
'
m goi
ng
toneedyout omakesurethatever
ythi
nginthi
s
houseisgoingokaycauseluhisgoingtoneedus
andallt
hehel pshecanget."

"youcancountonme."shesays.Shetakesout
herphone,l
ooksatmeandtakesadeepbreat
h
thencal
lssomeoneonl
oudspeaker.
"Hel
loma."she'
scal
li
ngmbuso'
smot
her
.

"si
mphi
we?unj
anisi
si?(howar
eyou?)"

"ma,Ubabaul
aphoeduzekwakho?(ismyfatheri
n-
l
awnexttoyou?)"hi
smom shift
sli
kewalki
ng
awayfr
om hi
m.

"I'
m al
onenow,youcantalk.what
'swr
ong
thandi
wecauseyourdadtoldmewhatbongadi
dto
youandI’
m ver
ydisappoi
ntedinhim."

"ma,it
snotaboutus!
.Mbusowasi nvol
vedinan
acci
dentandhe'
sbeent akent
oLanseri
ahospti
tal
.I
needyoutotel
lubabathendri
veupthere."

"ohmygod!i
sheokay?t
ellmemysoni
sokay?
!"
"Idon’
tknowma.Wej
ustf
oundoutnow."

"okI
'
llt
ellhi
m,wewi
lll
eavenow.I
llseeyouwhen
wegett
here."

"ok."simsdoesn’thangupandwehearhismom
sobbingsoloudthenshehangsup.Ourhusbands
walkinandbongai samess.

"wehavetogonow.It
hinkyoushoul
dbot
hst
ay."
Myhusbandsays

"hel
lno!
.luhneedsus,
theybot
hdo!
."

"babywecan'tal
lleave.Theki
dsar
egoi
ngt
ofr
eak
out
."Bongasaystoher .

"si
mshe'
sri
ght
.theki
dswi
llal
lfr
eaki
ftheyseenot
oneofusi
shome.YougoandI’
llst
aybehi
nd."she
pul
lsmetoherandwehugt
ight
.Webothcrythen
l
etgo.

"t
hankyou."

"wearefamil
ysis.Don'
tthankme.
"bongat
akes
herhand,
theyleave.

"wal
kmeout
."myhusbandsays.
Wewal koutthenhestopsandsit
sdownonthe
chair
sintheveranda.hesi
tsmeonhisl
ap,Iwr
ap
myar msaroundhim andcry.Hel
etsmecr
yunti
lI
stop.

"Youfeelbet
ternow?"Inod."Iloveyoubaby.I
l
oveyousomuchandt hankyouforever
ythi
ngyou
havedoneanddoi ng.
"
"yourfamil
y,luhandherhusbandwel comedme
andmyki dswi t
hwar m armsandIknewwhat
famil
yisandwhati tmeanswhenImetyouand
i
ntroducedmet othem.Mbusohasbeennot hing
butkindandhel ovesourkids,
IwishtoGodt hathe
wil
lbeokayf orhimself
,luhandthei
rkids."

"I'
m scaredf
orher,
fort
hem.I
'
m scar
edlovecause
Idon’tknowhowluhisgoi
ngt
otakei
t.
"Ikisshi
s
for
ehead.

"yesshewillbr
eakdownbutluhi
sstrongandshe
wil
lfacewhateverGodt
hrowsathercausewewil
l
al
lbewi t
hthem.Go."

"I
'
llt
ellyouhowi
tgoes."weki
ss.

"besaf
eandcomebackt
ous.Weneedyou.Il
ove
yousi
cel
o"
"ngiyakuthandanamimama."hegi vesmeonelast
ki
sst herunst othecar
.Theydri
veoutandl
eave.I
standoutsideforafewmi nut
es,br
eakdown,t
hen
coll
ectmysel fandheadinsi
de.

"Luh?Luh?Luh?"someonei
sshaki
ngme.

"mama,whatareyousaying?"Iaskmymother.
She'
stal
kingt
omebutIcanthearawor dshe’
s
sayi
ng."MamaIcan'thearyou?"

"LUH?,
MrsGumede?!"theyshakemehar
d.Iopen
myeyesandseembuyisel
o.

"what'
swrong?"Isi
tupandl
ookathi
m.If
eelmy
cheekswet
.Iwascryi
ng?.

"wehavetogot
oLensari
a.Yourhusbandandmy
br
otherwer
einanacci
dentandtheyneedyou
t
her
e.come."

Ifeelmywholewor l
dspin.Icanhearmbuyiselo
tal
kingbutIcan'tmakeoutwhathe'ssayingexact
ly.
Igetup,wearmyshoes, t
akemybag.Zi phois
alr
eadystandingatthedoor.Il
ookathim andseea
youngerversi
onofmbusoandt ear
sstream down
myf ace.Hecomest omeandhugsme.Icr yinhis
armsaswewal koutandgetinthecar.

"wher
eisl
umka?"

"youwanthert
ocomewi
thus?"

"pl
ease."mbuyisel
ocal
lshernameandshecomes
outrunni
ng.Li
keshewasalreadywai
tingtol
eave
wit
hus.Shegetsinandmbuyi sel
odr
ivesoutf
ast.

Icantst
opt
het
ear
sthatar
efal
li
ngbecausemy
mi ndplaysallt
ypesofscenar i
osi nmyhead.The
whati f'
s.Whatifmyhusbanddi esandI '
llbeforced
tor ai
semyki dswithoutthei
rfather?.Mbusocan' t
dieonme.Hebet ternotcauseIwi llnotraiseour
kidswi t
houthim.Godpl easeyoucan' ttakehim
awayf rom us.Ourkidsneedhi m.Ineedhi m.I
cont i
nuetocryonzi phoshoulderandhecomf ort
s
me.

"weareher e."zi
phoget soutandIf oll
owhim andI
runt
ot hehospital."luhcome!"If ol
lowmbuysi selo
aswegeti ntheel evatorandittakesust ot
he5t h
fl
oor
.I'm pacinginsideIf eell
ikeI
'm aboutt
olose
mymi nd.Thedoor sopenandIseesbuandPer cy
andtheircl
othesar ebl oody.

"wher
eishe?whathappenedt
ohi
m sbu?"

"Si
r?HasMrsgumedearri
ved?Weneedtooperat
e
now.Pl
easecal
lheri
fyoumust!"t
hedoct
orshouts.
"I'
m her
e, pl
easet
ellmehe'
sgoi
ngt
obeokay?"I
saychokingup.

"Mr sgumedepl easesignthis,

itstatesthatyouare
gi
vingusper mi ssiontooperateandsavehi sl i
ve
andshoul danyt hi
nghappenyouwi l
lnotholdthe
hospitall
iabl
ebutIassur eyouMr sgumedewewi l
l
doourabsol utebesttosavehi slif
e."Isignthe
papers.Theywi lldotheirbesttosavehisl i
fe?How
hurtismbuso?

"doct
orpl
easehowbadi
sit
?"

"whenhegoti ntoanaccidenthehithisheadhard,
ther
e'saswelli
ngonhi sbrainandwear e
concernedabouthisspinalcordcausethewayhe
wasf ound,
itdoesn'tl
ookgoodbutwe' l
lknowf or
surehowbadever ythi
ngiswhenhe' soutofsurgery.
"shequickl
yexplainsthenrunsthroughthetheat
re
door
s.Myheart
ssi
nksi
ntomyst
omachandmy
worl
dshat
ter
s.

Anot
herdoct
orcomesi
nandl
ooksatus.

"hast
hef
ami
lyofMabut
homt
hant
iar
ri
ved?"

"yesdoct
ort
hat
’sme.I
’
m hi
sol
destbr
other
."

"yourbrothersustai
nedaheadi njury,
mi nor
i
njuri
esbuti tdoesn'
tlookbad.Hei sdoinghisC.
T
scanrightnowandwe' l
ldoaf ul
lbodyonet oseeif
hedoesn'thavei nt
ernali
njur
ies.
"

"okdoct
ort
hankyou."t
heyshakehands.

"Siryoumightwantt
ocheckont
hosei
njur
ies."t
he
doctorsayst
ozipho.
"I
’
mf i
ne."hesaysthentakesmyhandandl
eads
metositdown.Icovermyfaceandcr
y.

"whathappenedbhut
isbu,
Per
cy?"zi
phoasks
them.

"mbusowasi nthecarwi thmabutho,thatgi

rland
themba.Thembawast heonedri
vingandwewer e
foll
owingthem behindwhenwesawt hecargo
strai
ghttotheotheroneandt heycoll
idedandi t
wasbadl uh.I'
m sorry."sbuapologi
zes.

"Noit'
sal lmyfault
..
..
"Ilookatzi
phoandshakemy
head."yessi sl
uh.IfIhadbeenhomelikehowhe
wasbeggi ngmet hennoneoft hi
swoul
dhave
happened! .Hewouldbef i
nebutIdi
dn'
tli
stent
o
hi
m andl ookwhathappenednow!"

"ziphoIaskedmbusot
oletthisthi
nggowi t
h
thembaandyouheardhim yoursel
f.Youknowhe
doeswhathewant
stodo,
sodon'
tbl
ameyour
sel
f."

"butst
il
l?"

"not
hingzi
pho.I
t'
snotyourfaul
t.
"Damnyou
mbuso!Youshoul
dhaveli
stenedtome.

"Ishoul
dhavebeenwit
hhi mint
hecar
!"Sbu
si
tti
ngdownonthefl
oor,headonhi
sknees.

"It
oldt
hebosstoki
llt
hem bot
hbuthesaidno,
he'
s
l
ett
ingt
hem goandl
ookwhathappened."

"shutt
hef
uckupf
ool
!"mbuyi
sel
osayst
oPer
cy.

"wher
eist
hembaandt
hegi
rl
?"Iaskt
hem.

"t
heyar
eher
eint
hehospi
tal
.Ihavesomeone
wat
chi
ngt
hem."sbut
ellme.

"t
hatmot
herf
uckerbet
ternotescape.
"mbuyisays

"ar
etheyhur
ttoo?"Iasksbu.

"minori
njur
ies."Inod.Theyal
lhaveminori
njur
ies
butmyhusbandi stheonewhogothurtthemost.
Whatdoesthisallmean?.

Mbusot oldmeaboutt hedarkcloudtheoldwoman

toldhimi tisf
oll
owi nghim andIguessshewas
talki
ngaboutt his.Mbusohashur tandki
ll
edal otof
peopleandmaybet heyarenowbackt ocoll
ect
from him.Mostoft hosehekill
edisbecauseofme.
Heki l
ledpeoplet oprotectmeandmakesur ethat
nooneeverbot hersmeagai nbutwhatIhave
broughti nt
ohisl i
fe?Badt hi
ngs.Hehasbeen
savingmet hemomenthemetmeandnowhe
mi ghtdiebecauseofme.
"whydobadt hi
ngsal wayshappentome? .Ionly
gethappyforafewmoment st
hensomet hi
ng
happensanditt
akesal loft
hataway.Whycan' tIbe
happyandenjoymymar ri
ageli
kemostwomendo
wit
houthavingt
ol ookovermyshoulderevery
damnt i
me!I'mt
iredzipho,I
'mti
red!"hepull
smet o
hi
sarmsandIcr y.
CHAPTER69

LUNGI
.

"Ihavet
ocallever
yoneandl
ett
hem knowwhat
hashappened."zi
phoi
sevenst
ruggl
ingt
otal
k.

"Ical
led.
..
..
them scelo,simsandyourbr otherwil
l
l
andont herooftopoft hehospit
al.Theywi l
lsoon
behere.I
'm sur
et heyalreadytol
dyourpar entsand
l
uh'sfamil
y."sbui ssti
llsit
ti
ngdown, l
umkai s
rubbi
ngmybacksi tt
ingnexttomeandzi pho.
Mbuyisel
oispaci
ngupanddown.Atleasthe
doesn'
thavetoworr
ycausehi
sbrot
herisfine.

"Mbuyi sel
ohaveyoucal
ledyourf
ami
lyandl
et
them know?"

"OhGodt hankyouluhIhaveforgott
en.Letmecall
them."Iwantmydad, Iwantmybr ot
her,Iwi
sh
simsandmyauntwer eherebutIr
eall
ywantmy
husbandr ightnow.Iwanthimtoholdmeandt ell
met hateverythi
ngisgoingtobeokay.Hewillf
ixit
l
ikeheal waysdoes.

Wewai tf
orwhatf eel
sl i
kehour sandhour s,Ihave
noideawhatt imeiti
scausemymi ndisnother e.I
am thi
nki
ngaboutmyki ds.Thedoct orcomesout
andweal lstandup.Ziphotakesmyhandandwe
thr
eadourhandst ogether.Thisisnotjustholding
hands.ThisisIam hereforyouandweasf ami l
y
wil
lfacethistoget
her.PleaseGodl etitbegood
news.Ibegyou.Shest andsj ustafewf eetaway
f
rom me.Sbustandsonmyot
hersi
deandIam
t
hankfulf
oral
lofthem.

"Mr sGumede.Idon' tknowhowt otellyout hisbut

yourhusbandl ostconsciousnessdur i
ngsur ger
y
andwehadt oresuscitat
ehi mt hreetimes. .."asob
escapesme.Howcoul dmbusot hinkofl eavi ngme
ont hi
searth?.Howt hehel ldoeshet hinkIam
goingtobeabl etoli
vemyl if
ewi thouthim? ."…we
wereabletodot hatandt hesur gerywas
successful.Wealsohadt ooper atehisspi nalcor d
becausetwoofhi sver t
ebraboneshadshi ftedfrom
thespinalcolumn..
..
"tearscont inuetost ream down
myf ace.Thisdoctorisactuallytell
ingmet hatit
'sa
possibi
li
tythatmyhusbandmi ghtbepar alysed.

"…..
sowewil
lseewhenhewakesupi fthere'
sany
damagebutonoursidewedidourbesttosavehis
l
ifeandwewil
lcont
inuetodothat
.It
'salluptohi
m
now."
"CanIseehi
m?"

"Hehasbeenmovedt oI.
C.Uandt henext48hours
arecrucial
.Mrsgumedephysical
lyhedoesn'tl
ook
good.Iwi l
lgi
veyouonlyafewminut eswit
hhim."I
nod.Ilookatziphoandhenods.

"Youcandot hi
s."Hesays.If
oll
owthedoctorand
theytakemet osomeroom andtheymakemewear
scrubs,covermyheadandhands.Sheleadsmet o
hisandopenst hedoor
.

"Iwi
lll
ight
lyt
apont
hedoorwheni
t'
sti
me."

"t
hankyoudoc.
"Shecl
osest
hedoorandIj
ust
st
andther
eandwatchmyhusbandl
ayi
ngdown.

Mylegs,
mybody,ever
ythi
nginmef eel
sheavyasI
t
akeeachst
eptowardshim unt
ilIst
oponhisbed.
Hisheadi sswol len,hi
sfaceisbadlybrui
sedandI
can'tseehi seyes.Hisbeardhasbeenshaved
causet here'
sabandaget hatgoesunderhischinto
hishead.Idon' twanttobelievethi
sismyhusband
butIknowi t'
sreall
yhim.Itakehishugehandi t
'sso
cold.Itdoesn'thavehiswar mththeonehealways
doeswhenhet ouchesme.Ibendoverandki sshis
coldlips.

"Ineedyout ofi
ghtandcomebackt ous.Ineed
you,yourkidsneedyouandt hewhol efamil
yneeds
youmbuso.Ican' tdothislif
et hi
ngalonewi t
hout
you,sopleasemyhusbandf i
ghtandmakesur eyou
winwhat everwaryou' refaci
ngwher eyouar eright
now!.Don'tletthi
sdar kcloudorwhat everdarkness
thatwasori sfoll
owi ngyout akeawayf rom us.I
knowyouwi llf
ighttoothandnai ltocomeback
causeyourst ubbornandyou’ l
ldri
vethem crazy
unti
ltheysendyoubackt omeandyoubet t
erstart
nowmyhusbandcauseIam amess!.Il oveyou
Phakathwayopl easecomebackt ome."t hedoctor
tapsonthedoorandIknowmyt imeisup.
"Iwil
lberi
ghtherewaiti
ngf oryoutowakeup.I
l
oveyoumyeni wami."Iki
sshi m agai
n.Il
ookathis
handandnoti
cet hathi
sringisnotonhisfinger
.I
l
eaveclosi
ngthedoorbehi ndme.

"Doctor,wearealonenowsopl easetellme
everyt
hing.Ineedtoknowever ythingsoIcan
prepar
emysel fandmyki ds."shel ooksatmewi
th
pit
yandi t
'sthelastt
hingIneedr ightnow.
"ItisbadmrsgumedeI'
m notgoingt oli
etoyou.I
don'tknowhowyourhusbandsurvivedcausehe
wassupposetohavediedinthataccident.
"she
takesadeepbreat
handtakesmyhandi nhers.

"Idon'
tknowi fyoubelieveintr
aditi
onalthingsbut
i
fyoudo?Youshoul dthankyourancest ors
becausetheysavedhisl i
feandifyoudon’ tthank
Godthathesavedhi mf rom l
eavingthisearth.Not
manypeopl esurvi
vethet ypeofaccidenttheyhad
andhewast heonl
yonewhogoti nj
ured.Your
husbandmightsli
pinacoma, haveamnesiai for
whenhewakesupandt here'
saver ybigpossi bi
li
ty
thathemightbeparal
ysed.It
'seitherf
rom neck
downorwai stdown."Icl
osemyeyesandt akea
deepbreat
h.

"ok,ok.So.
..
.I
..
.uhm.Uhwhere'
smyhusband'
sri
ng
causeit'
snotonhisfi
nger
?."

"I'
llgogethi
st hings, Youcanuset hatroom totake
offthosescrubs.I'l
lbeback."Igot oanot herempty
room andtakeof fthescr ubst hensitonbed.When
myhusbandwakesupandgodf or
bidsithappens
thatheisparalysed, heisgoingt oloseit.Heisnot
goingtobeabl etohandl eit.Mbusoi sapr oudman,
whodoest hingsf orhimsel fthewayhewant s
withoutaski
ngf orhel pfrom anyoneandi f
somet hi
ngli
ket hathappens? .Iti
sgoingt obethe
mosthar dandchal lengingt i
mef orhim andus.I
praytogodthati tdoesn'thappen.
Thedoct
orcomesbackandgi
vesmehi
sthi
ngs
i
nsideaplasticbag.Iopenitandsear chforhisri
ng
andfindit
.Itakemydi amondneckl aceoff,oneof
themanyheboughtmeandputhi sri
ngoni tand
aroundneckwher eitwil
lbesafeandunt ilheisout
oftheICU.There'
salsohiswalletthereandwat ch.I
l
ookf ormybagt henrememberi tswithlumka.

"CanIj
ustl
ayher
eforami
nut
e?"

"unfor
tunatel
yyoucan'
tcauset
hisi
stheI
CUfloor
butIcantakeyoutoanot
herandnoonewil
ldi
stur
b
you."

"t
hankyoubutIdon’
twantt
obef
arawayf
rom hi
m.
"

"you'l
lbeinar oom undertheonehe'sin."
somehowt hatgi
vesmesomecomf or
t.wel eaveget
i
nt heelevator
,onefloordownthenshet akesmet o
theroom.Thegoodt hingaboutpr
ivat
ehospi tal
sis
thei
rbedsandservi
cesar
egood."takeyourti
me.
I'
lll
etyourf
amil
yknowyouareokay.Youjustneed
somet i
mealone.
"

"whencanImovehi
m outoft
hishospi
tal
?"

"MrsgumedeIdon'
tadvi
seyoutodothatand
movehimtoapubli
chospit
ali
nhiski
ndof
condi
ti
oncausehi
scaseisver
yseri
ous."Ishake
myhead.

"no,
notpubli
chospi t
aldoc.We..
..
wehaveahome
i
ndurban,
Wel ivethereandI.
..
..
Iwanthi
m cl
oset
o
home.So.
..
ourkids..
.he.
..
"

"mrsgumedepleasecal
m down.Wedon'twantt
o
admityout
oo."Il
aydownont hebed,
breakdown
andcry.
BONGA.

Theheli
copterlandsontherooftopandIjustwant
torunoutofher esoIcanseewhatisgoingonwi t
h
mybr ot
her.Wehavenoi deaifheisal
iveordead.
Godwhathappenedbr ot
her?!
.Sbu'
sbrotherisa
l
icensedpil
otandhet ri
edtoflyusher
easf astas
hecanandt helawwoul dall
owandwegetoutas
soonhet el
lsus.Itakeoutmyphoneandcal lsbu.

"wher
ear
eyou?"

"fi
ft
hfloor."wegeti
ntheel
evat
orandi
ttakesust
o
thefi
ft
hfloor.

Thedoorsopenandtherearepeopl
ether
ebutt
he
fi
rstper
sonIseeismybr ot
her.Hi
sfacei
samess
l
ikehewasinaf i
ghtwit
hl i
ons.
"whathappenedt oyou?!"helooksatme.Hewal
ks
tomeandIpul lhimtomychestandmyl i
tt
le
brothercri
es.Ziphonevercri
es,hehasthi
sIdon'
t
giveaf uckatt
it
udeandi tiswhatiti
sbuthi
m
breakingdownl iket
hiskil
lsme.

"It
'smyfault
!,i
tsmyf ault
!"hekeepssayingthat.I
l
ookatsbuandhe' sont hefl
oor,handsoverhis
head,cl
othesbloodysoasPer cy.

"I
t'
sokaynt
wana,
don'
tbl
ameyour
sel
f."

"noyoudon’
tunder
stand!
."hesaysbet
weensobs.

"Zi
phonotnow.Wher
e'sl
uh?
."

"shel
eftwi
tht
hedoct
ort
ogoandseembuso.
..
."
"butshe'
sbeengonef
orawhi
lenow.
"

"sbuyoul
etmysi
sterl
eaveanotherdoctoral
one?
manyouknowwhathappenedthelastt
ineshelef
t
wit
hadoctor
?"

Scel
oi sri
ght
.Luhcouldbehereoranywher eright
now.Mbusohasenemi esandifwor dgetsoutthat
he’
sinjur
edandinthehospital
?Hewon’ tbesaf e.
Anotherguyscomesoutandhel ooksli
ke
mbuyisel
oandhehasscr at
chmar ksonhi sface
andhisheadiscover
edwi t
hamedi um size
bandage.

“Uhm guyst hi
sismbusobr ot
herBonga,hi
swif
e
Simphiweandl uh'
sbr ot
hersceloandmyolder
brotherSkhumbuzo..Guyst hi
sismbuyisel
o,hi
s
niecelumkaandhi sbrotherMabuthowhowasin
thecarwithmbusoandt hemba.”Weshakehands
hadMabut hoexplainswhathappenedinthecar
.
“wher
eist
hembaandt
hatl
it
tl
e….
”Iaskt
hem.

“Mnguninotnowplease…"Si
msIl
ookather
.She
shakesherhead.

Luhwalksoutt
hefir
eescapedoor.Si
msr unstoher
andshecri
esinherarms.Theybothsni
ffandman
seei
ngthetwoofthem l
iket
hati
squietemotional
.

“Ar
etheyi
nthi
shospi
talt
oo?
.”

“Theyare,
Ihavepeopl
ewat
chi
ngt
hem.
”Il
ookat
Percy.

“Ismydad, auntorbrotherher
etoo…I
Simphiwe…hemi ght
…notwal kagai
n”OhGoddon’t
l
etittobetr
ue.Hercr i
esar ebr
eaki
ngmyheart
.I
hateseei
ngherlikethatandIneverwantSi
msto
feelwhatishappeningtoluh.Ever.Scelowalkst
o
herandluhf al
seapar t
.Scel
opullshert oaseatand
holdsher.Weal lwatchhercryuntilshesni
ff
son
herbrot
her’schest.

Thedoct
orcomest
hrought
hedoort
owar
dsus.

“I’
m sorryIdi dn’ti
ntr
oducemyselfearli
erbutI’m
doctorMolef eandmegumedei smypat i
ent.AsI
haveexplainedear li
erbutIwil
lexplai
nagain…. .”
shelooksbehi ndusandIseemydadandmom
walkinginhol dinghands.Mywi f
elooksatmeandI
knowshe’ scal mingmedownandr ightnowi t’
sall
aboutmybr otherandhiswife.Notusandour
fi
ghts.Luh'sneckandherwhol efaceisred.Her
eyesarepuf fyandyoucanseeshe’ sbeencr yi
ng
realhard.

“…..AsIwassaying……”thedoct
orstopst
alki
ng
again.Luh’
sdadwal ksi
nwithanot
herwoman,
frankandluh'
saunt.Heshakesmymom’ shand
t
hengoestomydad,theyhugandexchangehush
wor
dsforawhi
le.Henodsatsbuandhisbrother
,
t
henusandgoestoluh.Heki
ssesherhead.

“It
’sokaybaby.Yourotherdadi scomi ngtoowi
th
Simsmom andyouraunti sher e.”Greatmymother
i
nl awiscomingtoo.Weal lgetsilentwatcha
si
lentl
ycryi
ngluh.Herauntt akesscelospaceand
shecriesagai
n.

“It’
sokaybaby, it
’sokay.Mbusoi sastrongman
andhewi llpullt
hrough.”Il
ookatmymom and
she’swipi
nghert ear sandIsowantt ocomf or
ther
butmyhear twon’tletme.Ziphoi sl
ookingather
tooandIknowhe’ st hi
nki
ngt hesamet hing.Her
headisonmydad’ schestwho’ sbrushi
ngherback.
Frankcomesandwehugr ight.Iknowhe’ shurtl
i
ke
therestofus.

“Bossyouweresayi
ng?
.”Per
cybreaksthesi
lence.
Someti
meshisbigmouthi
sneeded.Li
kenow.
“Iwantyoutogochange, makesuret
hatthemba
andthatgi
rldon’
tleavet
hehospit
alunt
ilwefi
nda
housetoaccommodat eal
lofus.”

“Thembaishere?
!”fr
ankasks.Frankisamanof
fewwords.Hespeaksonlywhenspokentoand
whenhedoesdecidetotalk.Youhavetobeaf
rai
d.

“Thembai stheonet hatcausedt heaccident.He

didn’
tknowwewer ebehindt heseatandl ongst or
y
shortwhenhesawushef r
eaked.Mbusoaskedhi m
togetof ft
heroadandst opt hecarbuther efused.
Weknewwhathewasaboutt odoandwet ri
edt o
stophim buthewast oof ast.Mbusitri
edt otakethe
wheelbuthebi thim andIt ri
edt ostophimt oofrom
headingstrai
ghtt othedirectionoftheothercarbut
then….”hel ooksatt hedoct orthenusandwe
understandwhathe’ sleavingbehi nd.“
…t henhe
saidwear eallgoingtodi eandheswer ved,hit
anothercarandi tkeptrolli
ngunt i
lwelost
consci
ousness.”Thembai
sgoi
ngt
ofuckenpay!
.

“Whi
chr
oom?”Fr
anksaskssbu.

“2ndfl
oornumber20.Bot
hoft
hem.”hel
eaves
andPercyf
oll
owshim.

“I
t’
smy….”

“zi
phoshutup!
.”dadl
ooksatusandhef
rowns.

“Uhm Iguessyou’ reallfami

lyofMrsandMr s
gumede.”shesays.“ …..
Mrgumedei nj
uri
esar every
bad,he’
sICUr ightnowandwear emonitoringver y
cl
osecauseapat ientwhohadhi ski
ndofi njuries
wasn’tsupposet obeal i
vebutbygodsgr aceand
hi
sancest orsheisal i
ve.Wemanagedt ooper ate
andcloset hewoundonhi sbrai
nandtheswel li
ng
wentdownal i
ttl
ebutwhatwear emostwor ried
aboutishi sspinalcor d.Youseef amilythe
Ver t
ebraearet he33i ndivi
dual,i
nterl
ockingbones
thatformt hespi nalcolumn.Eachver tebrahas
threemainf unct i
onalcomponent s:thever t
ebral
bodyf orload-bearing,thevert
ebralarcht oprotect
thespinalcor d,andt r
ansverseprocessesf or
l
igamentat t
achment .”Sheexplains.

“Judgi ngbyt hewayhewasf oundandhowt his

gentl
emanher ei
sexpl ai
ningitmakessenseast o
whyhewasi njuredlikethat.Hewasnotwear ing
thehisseatbel tandwhent hecarscol l
idedhis
backt hever t
ebralarchwast heonet hatgotinj ur
ed
thehar dest.Theonet hatprotect
sthespi nalcor d
from anyhar m.Weoper atedonhim andt r
iedour
verybestt oalignhisver tebrabonest ogetherbut
wewi llknowf orsur eifhei sparal
yzedornot .We
didourbestandr i
ghtnowi t
’suptoGodyour
ancest or
sandhi m. ”

“Thankyoudoct
or.CanIseehi
sCTscanr
esul
ts?
.”
“Uhmmm.”

“Iam hi
sfat
herandr eti
reddoctor.
.Iwanttosee
al
lofmysonsr esul
tsifthat
’snotapr obl
em.You
canaskyoursupervi
sorforper
mi ssi
on.”

“YesdoctorGumede.Pleasecomewi t
hme.Ineed
youtotakeMrsGumedehome.Sheneedssome
rest
.”l
uhisnotgoi
ngt oleavethehospi
tal
.Il
ookat
mywi f
e.

“Whencanhemoved?
.”

“MrsGumedehadaskedmet hesamequest i
on
andIunderst
andbutIadvisedhert hatri
ghtnowwe
cannotaff
ordtomovehim unt i
lweknowf orsure
howmuchdamagei sdonecausel ift
inghim upand
downcancausemor edamage.Sof ornowMr
Gumedeisnotleavi
ngthishospitalunti
lIgiveago
ahead.”Shesayst
henherandmydadl
eave.

“l
ove?Pl
easefi
ndtwohouses.Oneforluhandthe
ki
dsandtheot
herf
oreveryoneel
secauseitlooks
l
iewearegoi
ngtobehereforawhil
e.”

“Comeandhelpme.”shesaystombuyi '
sniece.
Shegoestoherandtheyst
andfarawayfrom us.
.
Mywifeissmart
.Sheknowswewantt otalkandwe
don’
twanthert
ohear.Evenmapholoba'
swoman
andl
uckyforusshefoll
owssi
mst oo.Good.We
don’
tknowherortr
usther.

Theel
evatoropensandonemanandwomencome
out
.Greatthecops.

“wear elookingf
oraMrThembaNyembe.Wewer e
toldhewasi nthi
sf l
oor.Hewasbr
oughti
nwith
otherthreepeopl
ewhower ei
nanacci
dent
?.”we
alllookateachother.
“Heisnothere.Wedon’
tknowwher
ehei
s.”
Mabuthosays.

“Li
eutenantCol
onelMthant
isi
r.”t
heysal
utehi
m,
henods.Theyareshocked.

“Ar
eyouokaySi
r?.”t
heyaskhi
m.

“Wedon’ tknowt
hemanyou’r
elooki
ngfor
.Heis
nothere.Butwewil
lbeont
helookoutf
orhim.
”He
tel
lst
hem.

“wassi
rinanacci
dent
?.”

“Wewer einvol
vedinahijacki
ngandoneofmy
fr
iendsher
ei sr
ight
ingforhisli
fe.IknowIdon’t
havetotel
lyouhowt odoyourj obsladyand
gentl
eman.Ihopetheculprit
swi l
lbefound.”
“Siryessi
r.Wewil
lgi
veyouandyourfamil
ysome
pri
vacy.”t
heygeti
ntheel
evat
orandleave.

“youdoknowtheyar
egoingtocheckyourstor
y
ri
ght
?.”Sbut
ell
shimfi
nal
lyget
ti
ngofffrom t
he
fl
oor
.

“don’
twor
ryman.Theywontknowwewer ei
nthe
carwi
thhi
m.Iwassort
ingi
tout.”mabut
hosays.

“thanksman.”Isayhenods.Ineedt otal
ktoluh
butI’
m scaredbecauseIdon’tknowwhattosayto
her.Iwal
kt oherandsquat.Shehasherheadon
herauntslap.It
akeadeepbr eathandputmyhand
onherback.

“luh?
...
.”sheshakesherhead.“
……khanyo?
...
..”
hershoulder
sshake.
“Canwet
alk.Justt
het
woofus?
.”

“Iaskedhi m.”Shesays.Atf i
rstIdon’tunderst
and
herbutthenshecont inues.“Itoldhi
mt ocomet o
meandl eaveThembaal onebut …He..Saidhewill
seeusi naf ewmi nut
esandhehangedup.I …Why
didn’
thel i
stentome? .”Shelift
sherchestf r
om her
auntslapandIst andupwhenshest andsup.

“mbusoli
stenstoyoul
uhmor
ethananyoneher
e.
Youknowthat.”

“Thenwhydi
dn’
thej
ustl
eti
tgo!
.”

“si
sluh!
.”

“Shutupzipho!”sheshoutsathi
m.Luhnever
rai
seshervoiceatanyone.Nomatterhowangr
y
shei
s.

“bonga….”shelooksatmewithherpuff
edt eary
eyesandIwanttotakeawayallt
hispai
nf r
om her e.
“whatam Igoingtodowit
houthim?.Iwon’tli
ve
withoutmyhusbandIwon’
t!.
”

“andyouwon’
tli
vewi
thouthi
m causehe’
snot
goi
ngtodi
eluh!
.”

“he’
sinICUbonga!Hemightbeparal
ysedandhe
mighthaveamnesi
a.That
’swhatt
hedoctortol
dme.
Hecouldwakeupandnotremembermeandour
ki
ds!.”

“Wewi l
lfi
ndthebestdoct
ort
her
eisandgethi
m
thebesthel
pmoneycanbuy.”

“Am Icur
sedbonga?
...
..”ohl
uhno!
.“am Icur
sed
baba?Ngi
nebhadibaba?”myGod!
.

Herdadshakeshi
sheadbutyoucanseeherwor
ds
r
eall
yhurthi
m.Theyhur
tmet oo.

“Whywoul dyouthi
nkt hatl
uhkababa?”welookat
thedir
ecti
onofthevoiceandit
’suncl
eVict
or.Luh
l
ooksupandshakesherhead.Hecomesand
standsnextt
ous.Itakeastepback.

“because…howmanypeopl edoweknowwhohave
hadt ogot hroughwantIwentt hrough.I t
’sbeen
onet hi
ngaf teranotherandIdon’tgetabr eakbaba
Idon’t!
.Eversi ncembusocamei ntomyl ifethe
poorguyhasbeendodgi ngbullet
sbombs, threat
s
andGodknowswhatbecauseofme! .Hehasbeen
savingmyl i
feeversincehemetme.Hewasf i
ne
beforeIcamei ntohisli
feandifIwasn’ ti
nhi sli
fe
hewoul dn’tbel yi
ngthereri
ghtnow! .Ihavebr ought
mybadl ucki nt
ohislif
e!.
”
“that’snottrueluhandyouknowi t!
.”sbusays
defeated.“You’rether easonmbusoi sthemanhe
i
snow.Weal lknowi tandhewoul dn’thavebeen
onehadyounotbeent hereinhi slif
e.Hel i
vesand
breathesyou.You’ reeverythingt ohim andyou
knowhewoul ddieprotectingyouf r
om anyoneor
anyhar m.Youhavebr oughtnot hingbutlove,
happinessandpeacei nhi slife.Youcamei ntohi
s
l
ifeandchangedi t.Yousavedhi sli
feluhinways
youwoul dn’tknowbutIknowcauseIhaveknown
him sincewewe’ r
einuni versity.Yousayhe’ sthe
onet hat’
salwayssavi ngyour ight?thenrightnow.
Youhavet obet heonet hatsavesagai n.”

“Ican’
t.HowcouldIwheneverythi
ngt
hat
happenedandleadhimtobeherewasbecauseof
me?.He’sherecausehehasbeensavi
ngmebut
doi
ngallofthathe….”shesni
ffs

“webot
hknowt
hatwhathappenedt
odaywas
goi
ngtohappensometimesoonerorl
aterkhanyo
buti
thappenednowandwehavet odealwithi
t.”
Luhshakesherheadf
uriousl
y.

“inst
eadofhappeningtome, ithappenedtohi
m.
Whywasi tfoll
owinghim andnotme? .”whati
smy
dadandluht al
kingabout?.Whatdidmbusotel
l
them?.TheguysandIl ookateachot her
.Noone
knowsat hi
ng.

“Becauseitwassupposedtohappenkhanyo.Al
lof
thi
sisnotyourfaul
t.I
t’
sal
lonhim.”helooksatmy
mom andshel ooksdown.

“Lungil
eyouarenotcursedmntanami.Badthi
ngs
dohappenedtogoodpeoplebutthatdoesn’
tmean
whentheyhappenthatyouarecursed,
unamashwa
ori
sichi
thomntanamiyoudon’t
.”herdadsays.

“Whycan’
tIenj
oymymar
ri
ageandwor
ryabout
whymyhusbanddi dn’
tcomehomeinsteadof
wor
ryi
ngabout ,
who’scomingaf
termetoo?,whom
wasIpromisedtoandwhowantsmedeadcause
t
heydidn’
tgetwhattheywerepr
omised?.
”

“everythinghasi t’
sti
meandpl aceluhkababa.
Somet i
mesyougot hroughunimaginabl ethi
ngsli
ke
theonesyouwentt hr
ough.Onedayyou’ lll
ookback
andaskyour selfhowdidIpullt
hrough? .Howdi dI
faceallthestormst hathappenedtome? .Youwill
l
ookt oyourr ightandseeyourhusband.Youwi ll
l
ookt oyourl eftandseeallofusandt henyouwill
l
ooki nfrontofyouandseeyourchi ldren.Youwill
dothatbutnotl ookbehindyoucausewhathas
happened, happenedandi tpassed.Itcannol onger
hurtyouunl essyoual l
owi tt
odot hat.S
Doyouunder
standme?
.”wowt
hatwasdeep.

Vict
orasksherandshenodssobbing.Hecomfort
s
her,
mymot herinl
awalsoconsol
ingherdaught
er.
Luh’
sauntisalsocr
yingandscel
oiscomfort
ing
her
.Herdadi
slooki
ngathi
sdownbr
oken.

“Qwabewhati
sgoi
ngon?
.”Iaskdad

“zi
phowhathappenedt
oyou?
.”mydadaskszi
pho

“wecan’
ttal
kabouti
ther
ebaba.”zi
phosays.

Theel
evatordoorsopenagainandIthi
nkIhat et
hat
el
evat
orcausepeopl ewon’
tstopcomingin.Ihope
i
t’
snoonewedon’ tknow.Amanandawoman
comein.Mbuyisel
omeet sthem hal
fway.Il
ookat
mabuthoandheshakeshi shead.

“uhm everyone.Thisi
sourfatherFaneleZi
kalal
a
andourothermot herJessi
caZikal
ala.Dadthisi
s
theNgcobof amil
yand….TheGumedef ami
ly.”
mabuthowal ksandstandsnexttome.Okwhati s
goingon?.Evenluhlooksup.“ThisisZipho
Gumede, t
hat’
shisotherbrotherSbongakonke
Gumede. ”Mbuyiselogoest oluh,takesherhand.
Theywal kuntilt
heystandinf rontofhisdad.“Thi s
i
sl ungil
enokukhanyaGumede.Thati sherfatherin
l
awQwabeGumedeand…. .”Iseet heirdadtakinga
st
epbackl i
kehei sshocked.Sicelogoest ohis
si
st erandpull
shert ohimthenbehi ndherl i
kehe’s
protecti
ngher.

“whyam Iher
eMbuyisel
o?Mabut ho?”ourdads
st
andup.Okwhydoesitfeell
ikeafighti
sgoingto
br
eakoutinher
e.Thei
rdadisfuming.Heisfucken
mad.
“youareher
ecauseIwasinanacci
dentwi
th
bongaandzi
phobrot
her.MbusoGumedebaba.”he
shakeshi
shead.

“Wher
eishe?”

“Idon’
tknowwhoyouar
ebutyouwi
llnotseemy
son!
.”

“Ineedt
oseehi
m!.”

“Why?!
.”Mydadaskshi
m.Ial
sowantt
oknow.
“youwantt
okil
lhi
m?!.”

“Iwon’
tki
llhi
m butIhavet
oseehi
m!.”

“notunt
ilyout
ellmewhy?
!.”

“Ineedt
obesur
eifi
t’
shi
m.”

“heismysonandi
tishi
m.”t
heyar
enowf
aci
ng
eachot
her
.Bot
hmad.

“Letmegoandseehi
mthat
’sal
lI’
m aski
ng!
.”
“iti
smyhusbandi nther
e.Ihavehisringt
hatI
madespeci f
icall
yforhim.Lumka anyougi veme
myphonepl ease?”sheopensl uh’
sbagandgi ves
her,
herphone.Luht akesit,
tapssomebuttonsthen
showsmabut ho’
sdadapi ctur
eofherandmbuso.
Hispict
ures.Hel ooksatluhspeechlessand
shocked.Hiseyesget smi st
y.

“Thi
sismbuso?Yourhusband?
.”

“yesheis.Wehavetwinboys.Heretheyar
e.”she
showshim andweseehistearsf
alli
ngdownhis
face.Hewalksandt
akesaseatlookingatt
hetwins.

“whati
sgoi
ngonher
e?.”Iaskmabut
ho.

“youwi
llknowsoon.”
“Wher
e….Wher
eissebenzi
l
e?.”Ohmygod!
.
CHAPTER70

BONGA.

“Wherei
ssebenzi
le?
.”Mygod.He’
saski
ngabout
ourmom?.
“Ther
esheis.What’sgoi
ngonbab'uZikal
ala?
.”I
poi
ntatourmotherandshel
ooksscared.
Mymotherhidesbehi
ndmydad.Whyisshehidi
ng
her
sel
fandwhoi sthi
sman?.Il
ookatmabut
hoand
he’
sst
il
lshakinghi
shead.
“Fort
heloveofGodwhatt
hehel
lisgoi
ngon
her
e?!
.”
“St
ophidingbehi
ndyourhusbanddearsi
ster
!.”my
mouthhangsopen.Ever
yonegasps.
“What
?.She’
syoursi
sterand…”
“I’
m youruncl
e.Yourmother
’sbrother
.Weallcame
outofthesamewomb. ”He’
slookingatourmother
di
sgust
ed.
“Baba?Ma?
!Ist
hist
rue?
.”
Myfat
hershi
ft
sandf
acesmymot
herwho’
slooki
ng
down.
“lookatmesebenzil
e!.
”Mydadsayswi
thaf
ir
m
voice.Mymom cri
es.
“foronceinyourl
if
ejustf
aceusandt
ellust
he
tr
uthma!.”Zi
phoalmostyel
ls.
“Thi
sisnotthepl
acetobetal
kingaboutal
loft
his
her
e.”Luhsayssi
tt
ingdown.
“she’
sright
.Babydi
dyoumanaget
ofi
nda
house?.
”
“Imanagedtofi
nda5bedr
oom houseonl
y.I
’
ll
keepl
ooking.
”
“i
t’
sfi
nebaby.Let
’sal
lleave.
”
“I
’m st
ayi
ng.I
’
m notl
eavi
nghi
m her
eal
one.I
won’
t.”
.
“Luhpl
easeyouneedt
orest
.”
“Ican’
tbongaIcan’
t.He’
sinI
CUdon’
tyougeti
t?!
.
Whati
fIleaveandhedieshuh?
.Whati
fhewakes
upandI’
m notther
e?No!.
”
Sbuget
supandwal
kst
oher
.
“Iwil
lst
aywit
hhimluh.Ifanythi
nghappensI
’
llcal
l
you.Pl
easegoandgetsomer est
.”
“l
ikehowyoudidwhenhegoti
ntoanacci
dent
?.”
Sbuheavensasi
gh.
“Iwasscaredtocalll
uhandt ellyouyourhusband
hasbeeninanaccident.Idi
dn’tknowhowt otell
you.
”Luhcries.
“I’
m sor
rysbuI
’m scar
ed.Ir
eal
lyam.
”Heclasps
herti
ght
lyi
nhisarmsandcradl
esherhead.
“I’
m sorr
y.Ishoul
dhavestoppedhi
m.I’
mreal
ly
sorr
yluh.”Hekeepsapol
ogizi
ngtoher
.
“pleasegoandgetsomer
esteveni
fit
’sj
ustt
hree
hoursthencomeback.
”Hepl
eadswithher
.
“Iwon’
tbeabl
etosl
eepIknowIwon’
t.
”
Sheisr
ight
.Ther
e’snowayshei sgoingtobeabl
e
tosl
eepint
hiski
ndofsituat
ion.Ihavet
ofindt
he
doct
orandaskhertosedateluh.
Iseehergoi
ngoutofsomer
oom andIwal
ktoher
.
“Doc?
.”
“Yessi
r.WhatcanIhel
pyouwi
th?
.”
“I’
m worr
iedaboutmysist
eri
nlawl
uh.Canyou
maybegivehersomet
hingtomakehersl
eepj
ust
forafewhours?.
”
“I
’
m wor
ri
edabouthert
oo.I
sshepr
egnant
?”
“Uhmm Idon’
tknow.
”Idoubtshei
s
“okI’
l
lcomeandgi
vehersomet
hingt
hatwon’
t
har
m heri
nanyway.
”
“thanksdoc.
”Iwalkbackandl
uhissti
llcr
ying.The
doctorcomesbackandwalkst
oluh.
“Mrsgumede,pl
easedr
inkt
his,
itwi
llcal
m your
ner
vesdown.”
“youwanttodrugmesoIcansl
eepr
ight
?.I
’
m not
dri
nki
ngthatt
hing!
.”
“doctorgi
veitt
ome.I’
llmakesureshedr
inks
them.”Thedoct
ornodsandgivessi
msagl assof
waterandthepi
ll
s.
“Iknowyou’r
enotgoingtoleavesopl
easefamil
yI
suggestyouusetheconf
erenceroom,
it’
sthatl
ast
doortoyourr
ight
.”
“t
hankyoudoct
or.
”Shenodsandl
eaves.
“okl
et’
sgot
otheconf
erencer
oom.
”
“I
’
llst
aybehi
ndandwat
chher
e.”Fr
anksays.
“I
’
llst
ayt
oo.
”Sbu’
sbr
otherSkhumbuzosays.
“Lumkast
ayher
enana.
”
“yesuncl
emabut
ho.
”
“I’
l
lst
aybehi
ndt
oo.
”Ngcobo'
swomansays.He
nods.
Wegot
otheconf
erencer
oom.
“tel
lust het
ruthmacausei tseemsasi feverythi
ng
thatishappeni
ngisyourf ault!
.Hadyounotst ol
e
mbusoandki ll
edhismot heral lofthi
swoul dn’tbe
happening.Thisi
sallyourf ault!
.IsweartoGodi f
anythinghappenstomybr otherI’
llki
llyou
mysel f
!.
..
”
“Bongadon’
ttal
ktoyourmot
herl
iket
hat
!.
”Mydad
saysandIl
augh.
“Ican’tbeli
eveyou! .Youcomeher ewit
hher
holdi
nghandsl i
keal lofthi
sisnotherfaul
t ?
!.We
areallherebecauseoft hepersonshestole.She’
s
theonewhost artedt hi
swhol ethi
ngbecauseofher
greedyheart!
.Ifyouhavef orgivenherf
orkil
li
ngthe
womanyousai dwasyoursoul mateandyourother
sonthent hat’
sfine.That ’
sonyoubababutdon’ t
expectust oforgiveheraswel l
!.
”Shewail
s.
“youshoul dbehappythatmbusoi slyi
ngthereand
probablywilldi
e.Youki
ll
edhisbrotherandmot her
andnowyouwanthi mt odi
easwel lsoyouwon’ t
feelgui
ltyaboutwhatyoudidisn’
titmother?
?!.Isn’
t
i
t?!.
”Ziphoaccusesher.
“I
’m sor
rybuthe’
smysonandIlovehi
m.Idon’
t
wanthimtodiezi
phohowcoul
dyousaythat
?.”
“Youhavel i
edt oussi
ncewewerebornmot her
andtodaywef indoutt
hatwehaveanuncl ewe
neverknewexistedbutyouknewri
ght?.Youalways
madesur ethatweneverknewanyonefrom our
maternalsi
debecauseyouknewthatthetruthwil
l
comeoutaboutwhoyour eall
yar e!
.Areyoueven
ourmot her
?Didyouactuallygivebir
thtousor
maybeyoual sostoleusfrom ourmother’saswel l
andkil
ledthem?Ar eweyourchi l
dren?.”ziphoasks
herandshewai l
sandsi t
sdowncover i
ngherf ace.
“No!.Youdon’tgett
ohideyourfacelikehowyou
havebeendoingforallt
heseyears.Youwillfaceus
andhearwhatwer eall
ythi
nkofyou!.Babahow
coul
dyounotknowt hatwehaveanuncl e?.
”
“Idi
dn’
tknow.YourmotherandI….Imeanowami
sai
dshewasanonl ychi
ldandIbel
ievedher
.”He
l
ookssoutt
erl
ybroken.
“mysi stersdidn’tknowbecauseIwasl ivi
ngwi t
h
myot heruncl ehereinJoburg.I ’
mt hef i
rstborn.I
thoughtmyuncl ewasmydadhewasj ustmyuncl e.
Het ookmei nbecauseourmom anddadwer e
wor ki
ngf arawayf rom homeandt heywoul d
struggl
et ofindsomeonet olookaft ermewhen
theyareatwor kandsomygr andmot herdemanded
thattheygivemet ohersoshecanl ookafterme.
Myuncl ecoul dn’
thaveki dssohet ookmet olive
withthenwhenIwas4year soldandourpar ents
di
dn’thaveaprobl
em wit
hthat
.Ifoundoutt hatI
wasn’tt
heir
swhenIwas22andmysi sterwas19
whenmygr andmothert
oldmethetrut
handwhenI
fi
rstmether.
”Whyareourfamil
iessofullofli
es
andsecret
s.
“Ididn’tknowmysi sterwasat win.It houghti twas
j
ustt hetwoofus.Iknewmysi sterwasseei nga
boyf rom notar oundt hevi ll
agebutf rom anot her
town.OnedayIcamehomewhenIf oundwas
sist
erpr egnantIt hinkshewasei ghtorcl osetoni ne
mont hsandourgr andmot herwashear tbrokenthen
onedayIsawwamiheadi ngi ntot hef or estandI
thoughtshewasgoi ngtoseeherboyf ri
end.I
foll
owedherandwhatIsawshockedme.Wami
wassi tt
ingwi thawomanwhol ookedexact lyli
ke
herandIcoul dn’tbelievei t
.Iconf rontedt hem and
sebenzilet ol
dmet hewhol et ruthabouthowour
paternalgr andmot herraisesher .It oldhert ocome
homewi thussowecant ellouruncl eand
grandmot herwhoshei sbutsher efusedandsai d
she’sgoi nghomet henextdayt ot el
lt hem thatshe
hadf oundhermat ernalfami ly.Shesai dshewi l
l
comebacknextweekandt
henwewoul
dtel
lthe
whol
efamil
yabouther.
”
Het akesadeepbreathandlooksather.She’s
sit
ti
ngacr ossf
rom hi
m andtheyarefacingeach
other.Mymom hasst oppedcryi
ngandhi ccupsar
e
thesoundscomi ngoutofhermouth.Ouruncl e
continues.
“ButthenIrecei vedacal lthenextdayandt hey
tol
dmeIhadf oundt hej obIhadappl i
edf ori n
Mpumal angaandIhadt oleave.Af t
ertwoweeksi n
Mpumal angaIgetacal lfrom wor kandt heyar e
tel
li
ngmemygr andmot her ’
shousehasbeen
burneddown.DadandI ,theuncl ewhor ai sedme
tol
dhisbrothert osellever ythingthatdayandt hen
theymustcomeatMpumal angawi t
hWamiwhen
she’sbeendischar ged.Ihadbeenwor ki
ngt henight
shif
twhenIgott hecal landt henextmor ni ngthey
l
etusknowt hatWami wasf oundinther iverwi th
hersonandwhent heygott ot hehospitalt heytold
them t
hatWamihadgi venbi rthtotwinboysbut
ther
ewasonl yonet wi nwi thWamiandwehadno
i
deawhathappenedt otheot hert
win.”
“theycamet oEr melothenextdayandWamiwas
distr
aught .Shewascr yinghyst ericall
yandwet ol
d
everyoneaboutsebenzi l
eandourgr andmother
didn’ttakeitwel
l.Theonl yt hingshekeptaski ng
whyWamihi dit
,whyIdi dn’tt ellherandwhydi dn’
t
sebenzi l
enottellthewholef ami lybutwhatmost
brokeheri swhyherdaught erdeci dedt ohi
dethe
factthatshehadgi venbirtht ot wins.Shewas
nevert hesameaf terthat,shebeganget ti
ngsick
andt hendi edaf
tert hr
eemont hs.Shedi edinher
sleep.”Ohmygod! .
“Whathappenedt
oWamiandwher
e’smyot
her
son?
.”
“f
ir
stl
yhowt hehel
ldi
dyounotseet hatsebenzi
le
wasn’
tthewomanyouloved?.Didshenotfeel
di
ff
erentar
oundyou?.
”Uncleasks.
“Ihadn’tseenheri nmont hsandwhenIdi dI
thoughtthepregnancyhadchangedher .Sebenzi
le
saidthewholef amilychangedaf tert
heyf oundout
shewaspr egnantoutofwedl ock.Shetookmbuso
andranawaywi thhim.Idi dn’
tknowt hatthe
womanIwasl ivingwith,mywi feforover45years
hasbeenlyingt
oal lofus.Wewouldn’
thaveknown
hadlungihadn’
tbeenkidnappedbyherdoctorwho
waswor ki
ngwiththewomanwhoknewsebenzi l
e'
s
secret
.Shewouldhavet akent
hesecrett
oher
grave.
”Mydadexpl ains
“Ibeggedyousebenzi le.Ibeggedyout ocome
homewi t
husbutyoudi dn’
twantt ocauseyou
knewthatyouwant edt okil
lyoursi st
erandt ake
overherli
fe.Youwoul dhaver eceivedthelovewe
grewaroundwi t
h.Ithur t
smewhenyout ol
dushow
ourpater
nalgr andmot hertreatedyoubecauseI
knewourgr andmot herwasnot hingli
kethat.You
wouldhavebeenl oveduncondi t
ional
lyandhad
gott
enever yt
hingyouhaveeverwant edinyourl i
fe
butyourejectedallofthatandchosej eal
ousl yover
yoursi
stersebenzi l
e….”het earsup.
“shelovedyouver ymuchandyoubetrayedher.
Youst ol
ehersonsebenzil
ewhil
eyoucoul dhave
hadyour s.Shecri
edwhenshetol
duswhatyoudi d
toherandshebeggedyounott oki
llher.Didyou
tel
lthem thetr
uthwhatyoudi
dsebenzile?.The
wholet r
uthandnotwhatyouwantedthem to
bel
ieve?
.”
Mybl oodrunscoldcauseIj ustknow.Icanf eeliti
n
mybonest hatmymot herhasbeenf eedi
ngal lof
l
ies.Whatshesai dhappenedwasadamnl ie!.My
dadst andsandlooksather.Shest andstooand
takesstepsawayf r
om myf ather.Thewhole
conferenceroom i
ssil
ent.Intenseandwear ejust
dreadingwhatuncleisgoingt osay.
“shesai dshet emperedwi t
ht hecarthatwas
supposet opi ckupWami causeshewant edto
spendsomet imewi thher.Sheconvincedherthat
theyshouldwal khomeandt heytookashor tcut
andpassedt hrought heforestbyther i
ver
.Ithad
beenr ai
ningt hedaybef oreandsoWamisl ipped
andf el
linther iverwithmyot herson.Shewas
scaredtot el
lever yonewhathappenedandsoshe
decidedtor anawayandl iveasowamiWami .”
“foroncei
nyourli
fej
ustt
ell
them t
rut
hsebenzi
le.
Theydeser
vethatmuch.
”Muchunclesays.
Shet
akesadeepbreat
h,looksatsims,lungi
,her
ki
dsandourdad.Shewipeshertears.
“Iwasyoung, stupi
dandIl etj
ealousyf ormysister
cloudmyj udgementandt akeovermyl i
fe.Ir
egret
whatIdidt hatdayeverytimeIthinkabouti tandI
wishIcangobackandchangeever ything.I
reali
sedhowmuchI ’
verui
nedever yone’sli
vesandI
am sosorry.Ineverwant edtohur tanyone.Ijust
want edt
of eelthelovekhanyorecei ved.That
’sallI
everwanted.”
“Mom j
ustt
elluswhatyoudi
d.Thet
rut
hthi
sti
me.
”
“IknewQwabewasgoi ngt ocomebackaf ter
khanyohadgi venbirt
handsot hisplanj
ustcame
tomeandonceIt houghtaboutl ivi
ngtheli
feshe’s
l
iving,Icoul dn’tst
opmysel f.Whenwewer eleavi
ng
thehospi t
alshewasi npai n.Shewant edtogoback
andIcoul dn’thavethat.Iconvi ncedherthatwewi l
l
makei thomebutshewant edtogobackandIwas
l
osi ngmypat i
encesoIt oldhert hatQwabewas
wai ti
ngf orheri nt
hef orestbecausehewasscar ed
thatherf ami l
ywi l
lseehi m.Sheagr eedandwe
wal ked.Iwascar r
yingmbusoonmybackandt he
otherbabywasonmyar ms.Whenwewer ecloseto
ther i
verwhenwest oppedwal king.
”
Shet
akesadeepbr
eat
h.
“shekeptcal l
ingqwabe' snameandt hat’
swhenI
tol
dherhe’ snother eorevencomi ng.Shewant ed
togohomeandIt ol
dherwehadt ot alkabout
somet hingfirst.I…I…”shel ooksatmydad.“It ol
d
herwehadt ocomeupwi thapl ant oconvince
Qwabet hathesl eptwithbot hofusandgotus
pregnantbutsher ef
used.Shewoul dn’thearitandI
tri
edtoexpl aint oherthatwewi llbothwi nifwesay
wepl ayedhi m andgotuspr egnantatt hesame
ti
mehewoul dn’thaveanyot herchoi cetomar r
ythe
bothofuscausehel ovedusandhewoul dt ake
careofusandnoonewi lleversepar ateuscause
wewi llalwaysbet ogether.Shest artedcryingand
wantedherchi ldrenback.Whycoul dn’tshe
understandt hatwewer ebot hgoi ngt obehappy
andgetwhatwebot hwant ?.”
Ifeelsi
cktomyst omach.Howsickandt
wistedi
s
mymot her?.Whot hef
uckthi
nksofsomet
hingso
twist
edlikethat
?.
“shedemandedherki
dsbackandIwouldn’
tgi
ve
them t
oher
.Thi
splanwasperf
ectandIknewitwas
goingt owor kbut …shewoul dn’tstopcr yingand
shewasmaki ngt hekidscryt oo.It oldhertost op
butshedi dn’
t.Itookthisstickandhi therwi thit
.I
wantedhert ost opcryingthat’sallbutshet ookthe
babyt hatwasonmyar msanddemandedherot her
baby.Ir efusedbutwef oughtandIpushedherand
shealmostf elldown.It r
iedtot aket hebabyaway
fr
om heragai nbutshewoul dn’tletmet aket hem.
Sheputt hebabydownandt ri
edt ot akembuso
awayf rom mebutIwasnotgoi ngt olethert ake
him causehewasmi ne.Ihaddeci dedt hatmbuso
wasgoi ngt obemybaby.Wef oughtf ormbusobut
Iwasst rongert hanherandshewasweak.Shef el
l
andIt ookt heot herbaby…”
“Stopcal
li
nghimtheotherbaby.Hi
snameis
busanima.Busani
!.
”Luhsaysveryangr
y.
“Itookbusaniandwentcl osetotheriverwit
hhim.
Shescreamedf ormercy.Iaskedheri fshewil
l
agreetotheplanbutshest i
llr
efused.Ipret
endedt
o
thr
owbusaniint her
iverandkhanyof el
ltoher
knees.Shebeggedmenott othrowhersonand
rat
herkil
lherthanherchil
dren.Itoldhershehad
onlyonechoicetomake.It’
seit
hersheagr
eesor
shedi esandsheagreedbutIknewshewaslyi
ng
soIt hrewbusanii
ntheri
verandshejumpedin
therewi t
hhi
m. ”
“ohmyGodhowcoul
dyoumah?!.”Iaskher
shockedt
omycor
eli
keshehasj
ustpunchedmy
gutssohard.
“youwi t
ch!.Youf uckenwitch!.I
’
m goingtokillyou!
Youar edead!.
”Dadsayscr yi
ngandpul l
southi s
gunandpoi ntsittomymom butmaphol oba,Victor
andouruncl equicklyruntohim andmaphol oba
takesthegunawayf rom him andtheystophim
from r
eachingourmot herandstrangl
eherdodeat h.
Luhi sacryingmess, ziphoi
sl ooki
ngatourmot her
l
ikehe’sast atue,mywi fel
ooksl i
keshewant sto
kil
lmymot herandI ’
mt hi
nki
ngofhel pi
ngher .
Everyoneinher eisgobsmacked! .I’
m suremy
mot heri
nlawi sthinki
ngwhatki ndoffami l
yhas
shegot t
enherdaught ermarr
iedto.Iam so
ashamedoft hethingsmymot herhasdone.
“Youandmyexwi
fesebenzi
lewoul
dgetal
ongl
ike
houseonfir
e!Youarewickedandyou’
l
lbur
nin
hel
l!
.”Herbrot
hersays.
“It
houghtmymotherwasbadbutyouaunt
y!.
”
Mbuyi
selot
ell
sherl
ooki
nghurt
.
“takeherawayf r
om here!.Getheroutbef
oreIki
ll
her!
.”Igotohertakeherhandanddr agheraway.
West epoutoftheconferenceroom wit
hziphoand
sbufoll
owingus.
“IwantyoutoleaveSouthAfr
icaandnevercome
back.Youwil
lneversetyourf
ooti
nhereever
again!
.”Shewail
s.
“wher
edoyouwantmetogobonga?
.Ican’
tleave!
.
Mywholef
amil
yisher
e!.
”
“Youhavenof ami
lyher
esebenzi
le.Noonehere
gi
vesadamnaboutyou!.Nowdousal lafavour
andj
ustleave!
.”
“Imadeami
stakepl
easef
orgi
veme!
.”
“Noma.Whatyoudidwaspl annedtot
heT.You
l
iedt
ousandcausedussomuchpai nandgri
ef.
Wedon’
tneedyouinourl
ives.Ifyouwantt
oli
ve
ma,youwilll
eaveSout
hafricaandnevercome
back.Theonlyt
hingwewoul ddoiscomeandfet
ch
yourbodythedayyoudie.
”
“pl
easebant
wanabani
!.Havemer
cyonme!
.Wher
e
wil
lIgo?
.”
“mbusowasgoi ngt otakeyouawayfrom her
e
whenhef oundhisbrotherandmother.Heset
ever
ythi
ngupf oryou.Ahouse,car,moneyand
ever
ythi
ngyouwi llneed.Youwil
lfl
ywi t
hmy
famil
y’
spr i
vat
ejetinthreehour
s.”Sbutakesouthi
s
phone.
“Ican’
tbel
ieveIt
houghtyouwer ear eall
ygood
woman.Iwashappythatmysi sterhasamot heri
n
l
awl i
keyoubutnowI’m di
sgusted.”Sicel
osays.
“I’
l
lgetmymentowatchher
.”Sbusayst
ypi
ng
fur
iousl
yonhi
sphone.
“youaredeadtome.Dead!.
”Ziphosayswi t
hso
muchhatred.Hetur
nsandleaves.Shelooksathim
andfal
lsapart
.Shewai
lsli
kemybr otherhasjust
di
ed.
“Ihopeyourl
if
ewi
l
lbel
onel
yandver
ymi
ser
abl
e.
Mbusodidn’thavet odoanyofthatf
oryouafter
whatyouhavedonet ohim.Youdon’
tdeserveit
.Al
l
ofi
t!
.IfIeverlaymyeyesonyoueveragai n?I’
m
goi
ngtokillyou!.Takeheraway!
.”
Igobacktotheconfer
enceroom.Andmydadi
s
cryi
ng.Hei
slit
eral
lycryi
ng.
“mal
ume?
.”Hel
ooksatme.
“is…..
ourother
…..mot
herde…deadt
ooandour
brother?.
”Myvisongetsbl
urr
yandIdon’tst
opt
he
tearsthatar
estreami
ngdownmyf ace.
“shei
sali
ve.Theybot
hare.
”Thesobst
hatbr
oke
outar
eenoughtomakeanycry.
Myl egsgi
veoutandIslidedownthewallwi
thmy
backandcry.Ihaveneverfel
tsor
eli
vedandbroken
atthesametime.
“Busanii
scomi ng.Hewi
llbeherei
nthemorni
ng.
”
Saysanotherguywhoisstandi
ngonthedoor
l
ookingatme.
CHAPTER71
LUNGI
.

#Not
Edi
ted

Iam sogl admyhusbandi snotheretohear

everythi
nghi smot her…no.Hi saunthassai d.I
knowt herearever ywickedpeopl einthi
swor ldbut
Ineverthoughtoneoft hem wasmysocal led
“mot herinlaw.”andnowt heywanttotakeher
awayandnotf acet hepeopl eshetri
edtokill?.Hel
l
no!.Shehast oseet hefacesofthepeopleshe
thoughtsheki l
led.Foryear sshehasgot t
enaway
withitbutnowi tends.Shewi l
lfacethem.

Iam happyt oknowt hatmbuso'smot herandhis

brotheraresti
llal
ive.Iknowhe’ sgoingtobeso
happywhenhehear sthat.Itmakesmer eal
lysad
thathe’snotgoingt obeabl etowitnessthereunion
betweenhi sparentsandt winbrother.Godlethis
mom andbr ot
herbever ygoodpeopl ebecausemy
husbanddeser vesthat .Hedeservest obehappy
andbewit
hismom andt winbrothert
hatwastaken
awayfr
om hi
m.Isti
llcan’tbel
ievesebenzi
ledi
d
that
.MyGodpoorzi
phoandbongai samess.

“Busaniiscomi
ng.Hewi l
lbehereinthemorning.
”I
fol
lowthesoundofthevoi
cethatistal
kingandit’
s
anothermanwholooksli
keMabut hoand
mbusyiselo.
Myheadhasbeenonsi msmom l apandherhand
onmybackbr ushi
ngmehasbeencomf ort
ingme.
Sher emindsmeoft heti
mesIwouldgetsi
ckand
sheanduncl eVict
orwouldtakecar
eofme.Simsis
blessedtohaveamot herli
keher
.Hermom knows
wer eal
lyappreci
ateher
.
Isitupandl ookather.Shewipesmyt earsand
palmsmycheek.Shel ookssadandI ’
m sureshe’
s
shakent ooaboutthethingssheheard.Ihopeshe
doesn’tholdthatagai
nsthim causeasfuckedupas
theirmom is,sherai
sedst r
ongmen.

“yourhusbandi
sgoi
ngt
obef
ineLuh.The
Al
mightyi
swat chi
ngoverhi
m andhei
sourprayer
s.
HaveyouprayeddearandaskedGodf
orst
rength?
.
”

“Ihaven’
taunty.Idon’
tevenknowwheretostar
t
causeIam broken,If
eelweakandIam scar
ed.”

“Thati
sthebesttimetoseekhi m andfindcomfort
.
Healwayshastheanswer sthatweseekl ungi
.Do
nott
urnyourbackonhi m duri
ngthisdiffi
cul
tti
me.
Ther
e’sachapelhere.Goandt al
kt oyourGod.Ican
comewithyouifthatwouldmakeyouf eelbet
ter
.”

“Iwouldl
iket
hat
.”Shepatsmyshoul
der.Igetup
andthecommoti
onstops.OkIwasn’
texpect
ing
that
.

“uhm.Idon’ tt
hinkit
’sokaytoj
ustletmah
sebenzi
leleavejustl
ikethatwi
thoutbei
ng
confr
ontedbyt hepeopleshewronged.Shehast
o
hearhowmymot
heri
nlaw’
sli
fechanged.
”Isi
t
down.

“She’sright.Mymothercan’
tjustwal
kawayli
ke
shedi dnothingwr
ongandwemustpi ckupthe
pieces?No!.Shehastobehereandwat chwhat
happens!.”Bongasays.

Ithinkbongahateshi
smot hernowmor et
hanal lof
us.Thehat ehehasforherispour
ingoutandI’m
afraidhe’
sgoingtodosomet hi
ngthathewil
lregret
fortherestofhi
sli
fe.

“Mal
ume?
.”Thei
runcl
elooksatme.

“I
smymot
heri
nlawcomi
ngt
oowi
thbusani
?.”

“theyarebothcomi
ng.
”Sayst
hatguyagai
n.Il
ook
athim andfr
own.
“luh,
thi
sisoutlastbor
nbrotheruMt
hunzi
.Brot
her
thi
sisourmakotiuLungi
leGumede.Ourbr
other
mbuso'swif
e.”

“I’
m sor
ryweallhadtomeetl
iket
hisandI’
m sor
ry
toaboutwhathappenedt
oyourhusband.
”

“Thankyou.
”IclosemyeyescauseIhavet
his
headachet
hatisachingatt
hebackofmyhead.I
havebeentr
yingtoignor
eitbuti
t’
sget
ti
ngmore
i
ntense.

“mbusyisel
o?.
”Helooksatme.“youknewwhowe
werewhenwecamei ntoyourhouse.Whydidn’
t
youletusknowandwhendidyouf i
ndout?
.”Isee
aghostsmileonhi
sface.

“whenlumkawasbr oughthomeandhadmymen
fol
lowyourhusband’
sguyandIfoundouti
twas
mbuso.Idi dn’tpaymuchat tent
iontoitunt i
l.When
wegr ewuporwasj ustusf ourboysandourl itt
le
sister.Wedi dn’tknowt hatourauntwasat winso
asbusani .Wef oundoutayearagowhenwewer e
allathomei nEr meloandauntt oldust hatbusani
washavi ngpr oblemsandshet hinksthatit’
smaybe
relatedtohi m beingat win.That’
swhent heyt ol
dus
whathappenedt omyauntandbusani .Dadt r
iedto
fi
ndyourf atherinlawbutsomehowhewoul dn’t
fi
ndanyt hing.Itwaslikesomeoneorsomet hing
wasbl ockingusf rom fi
ndinghim…. ”

“Ibetmymot herhadsomet hi
ngtodowithit
!.”
ziphosays.Sebenzi
lei
snevergoingtohavea
relat
ionshi
pwithherchi
ldr
en.Ever!
.

“….
.andwethoughtt
hatitsei
therourauntki
ll
ed
mbusoorheranawaywi thhi
m andlived
somewher
eelse.Nevereverdi
dwet hinkshewent
tombusoandbusani'
sdad.”
Myf atherinlawhashi sheadburriedonhi sknees
andIf eelforhim.I’
m veryworri
edabouthi shealth
eventhiughhe’ sastrongmanbutt hi
sthingcan
knockevent hestr
ongestdownandIdon’ tknow
howhei sgoingtogetoutt hi
swhol emess.I’m not
oneper sonwhohol dsgr udgesorevenhat epeople
butsipho, t
huliandnowsebenzi l
eisont helistof
thepeopl eImosthat e.

“mysi sterwast ootraumat i

zed, shecr iedeveryday
forhersonand…. .
thenwhenbusaniwasf our
mont hsol dshest artedlosingpar tsofher
memor ies.Itwashar dmshanai twasver yhar dso
wehi redanannyandhel pertol ookaf terbusani
andmysi st
erbutmysi stergotwor seandshehad
tohavespeci alcare.Myot heruncl enott heone
whor ai sedmet ookhert ot hispl acewher ethey
dealwi thspecialclassesoft raumaandshel i
ved
there.Myexwi featt hattimewaswor kingandhad
notimet olookaf t
erkids.Shehat edthatwehadt o
takecar eofbusaniandshet oldmet omyf aceto
takemynephewt otheor phanagecausehewas
pr
act
ical
lyanor
phan.
”Whati
swr
ongwi
tht
hese
women?.

“Ir efusedcauseweal readyhadhi redsomeonet o

helpwi thbusaniandshewasamazi ng.Shet ook
car eofmyhousehol d,busaniandmbuyiandal lt
he
kidst hatcameaf terthem.Mywi f
et heonl ytrue
thingshedi dwasgetpr egnant ,dumpt heki dswi th
me, spendmymoneyandwasneverhomet henone
daywhenmbuyiwas7, mabut howas5, Lindawas
4andmt hunziwasonl yayearol dwhent heircame
homeandser vedmewi thdi vorcepaper s.Shet ook
ever ythingshewant ed,themoney, carsandl ef
tme
witht heki ds.I fi
twasn’ tfort hisbeautifulwoman
whof irstcamet olookaf terbusaniwasn’ tthere?.I
don’ tknowwhatIwoul dhavedonewi thal lofthem.
Sher aisedal lofthem.She’ st hreemot her.”He
l
ooksathi swi f
eandsmi les.Theyhavebeen
throughal ot.

“ourauntst
art
edt
ogetbet
terwhenIt
hinkwewer
e
14year sold.Busaniwoul dalwaysgoandvi si
ther
wher eshelivedandshet oowoul dcomeandvi si
t
home.Shecamebackwhenwewer edoingour
standard10(gr ade12.)Wepassedourmat ricand
wewentt ost udyi ntheUKatOxf ordUniversit
y.
AfterIwasdonewi t
hmyst udiesIcamehomebut
busanistayedbehi ndandt heyl i
vet her
ebutt heydo
comeandvi sithomebutl astyeart heystart
ed
vi
siti
ngal otandt hat’swhenweknewabout
everythi
ng.”Het akesadeepbr eath.

“itwast hent hatsomet hingcl i

ckedonmymi ndso
Ibegant oi nvesti
gatembusoandi twashard.Your
husbandi saver yprivatemanhel lal
lofyouar eand
i
twashar dtofindanyt hingabouthi m.Itwasl i
kehe
didn’texisttosomeext ent .Itri
edt ohackyour
Instagram accountbutheymbusodoesn’ tplaylike
thatandIwasi mpr essed.I ttookmeayearandt he
l
astmont hwehavej ustpassedt ogetany
i
nf ormationbutst i
llnothingandIwant edtohelp
reunitethef amili
estoget herandal sohelpbusani
withwhat evert
hathei sst ruggli
ngwi t
h.Iwas
desper ateandsoIt houghtIwasj ustgoingt ocal
l
him andaskhi mi fhehasat winbr otherbutour
ancest orsmusthavemypl easecauseIgetacal l
from mbusoaski ngf ormyhel pandt henwhenyou
arrivedandr eti
redtobed, Itookt hegl asshewas
drinkingf r
om totestitforDNAandi tcameback
100per centmatch.Theyar ei denticaltwins.Iwas
wai ti
ngf orwhenhecamebackf rom yourhouset o
tellhim wear ethefami l
y.Hismot herandbr other
arest i
llali
ve.
”
“Ijustwantmbusotowakeupsohecanseethem.
Iwantallofthi
stobeoverIwantmyhusband
back.”Isob.

“Havefai
thluh.Mbusoi
saf i
ght
erandheisgoing
towakeupandcomebackt oyourandyourki
ds.
Pleasedr
inkthi
sandgetsomesleep.
”

“I
….”
“Si
spleasedri
nkthem.Theboysar ecominginthe
morni
ngyoudon’twantthem toseeyouli
kethis.
”I
bur
stint
otear
s.Thethoughtofmyboysgr owing
wit
houtafat
herisver
yterri
fyi
ngtome.Inod.

“pleasewakemeupwhenthedoct
orcomesandif
anythi
ngishappeni
ngt
ohi
m scel
opromiseme!
.”

“youknowIwoulddoanyt hingforyouevenwake
mbusoupandbr i
nghimt oyouIwoul dt hat
.Right
nowyouneedt osl
eepluhcauseIknowyou’ re
havi
ngaheadacheandi t
’sgetti
ngwor se.Wecan
seesomepleasesi
staket hem.Iwillwakeyouup
shoul
danyt
hinghappen.”Hegi vesmeat i
ghthug.

“pleasemakesureSimsi sokay.She’spregnant
andshedoesn’tneedallt
hisstress.Takehertothe
houseshefoundwi t
heveryoneel sescel
oplease
thenyoucomebackandbeher ewi thme.Ineed
youbhutiwami .
”Iwhispertohjm
“ok.
”

“Zi
phol i
stenst
oyousopleasetakehim wi
thyou
andasksomeonet obr
ingourbacksfrom
mbuyisel
o’shousesosbuandPer cycanchange.
”

“It
’sgoingt
obeokayluh.”Inod.Hegivesmet he
pil
ls,It
aket
hem anddri
nk.Ifeelmybodygetti
ng
l
ightandscelohol
dsmebef oremyeyesclosedand
i
t’
sl i
ghtout
.

I’
vebeenwal kingandIdon’ tknowwher eI’m going
butthere’
sthisthi
ngt el
li
ngmet hatIshouldkeep
goingandnotst op.Iwalkforanot her30mi nut
esor
mor eunti
lIseethishouset hatisburntdown.I
entertheyardandlookar ound.Thehousedoesn’ t
l
ookl i
kesomeonel ivesinitbutitfeelsl
ikethereare
peoplewhol i
veintheyar d.Wher eam I?.

Iwal
kar
oundt
hehouseandseesmal
lfor
ethati
s
burningwithlogsandt here’sanoldmetalkett
le
thati
sshiningsobeaut i
ful.Thewateri
sburning
causeIheart hatsound.Ther e’
samatont hef l
oor
andanol dchai rthatl
ooksugl ybutcomfor
table.
Thedoort other ondavelisopenandIcanhear
someonehummi ngasong.Iwal kcl
oserbutthe
personcomesoutandi t
’sanol dwomanIst op
walkingandst andnexttot hefir
e.
Shel
ookspastmeandIseeanoldmancomi
ng
andi
tlooksli
kehei
scomingf
rom wor
kto
somet
hing.Shesmi
les.

“ohkhanyousebuyil
eumyeniwami.Sheshantombi
umthel
eamanziazogeza.
”She’st
alki
ngtome? .
“Hawyebomzukul ungi
khul
umanawe. ”Hereyes
areonme.

“yebogogo.
”

Iwal
kinsi
det
her
ondavelandi
tlooksbi
ggeront
he
i
nsidet hanitwasont heoutsideandi t
’sver yclean
too.Iseet hemet albasinItakeit
, puti
tont he
middleoft heroom.Taket hesmal lcar
petandputi t
nexttot hebasin.Itakethe25l i
trecontainert hatis
fi
ll
edwi thwaterandpourhal fofthecol dwat er.Igo
outsideandseet hehugepotont hefir
et hatwasn’ t
therebef or
eandt akeitandourt hehotwat ertot he
basinthathascol dwat erthengoout side.

“sengicedi
legogoukut
hel
aamanzi
.(I
’
m done
pouri
ngt hewater
.)”

“ngenababauyogeza.”Themanpassesme
wit
houtsayi
nganythi
ngandclosestherondavel
door.Somehowthathurtsme.

“he’snotmadatyoukhanyo.He’
smadatyour
fat
her?.
”

“ubabawamiongi
zal
ayogogo?
.”She’
smy
gr
andmot
her
?.

“Iam yourhusband’
sgreatgr
andmotherandthati
s
hi
sgreatgrandfat
her
.Hei smadatyourfat
herin
l
aw.Sitdownmzukul u.”
“Wenzenigogo?
.”

“akazangeahlawule,akazangeikhi
pheinkomo
yebel
efuthiakazangeazocelaubuhloboobuhle
agcwali
seizinkomoesibayeni
.”Sotheyjustwentt
o
homeaf f
air
sandsi gnedonly?.

“theydi
d.Ngokwesint
ulezizi
nganeazi bizango
Gumedeaukzonaezabont ombi .Bayazinabo
oQwabekodwaabenziokilungil
eyi ngakhokuzo2
j
eziswaizi
nganengibaabazaliabalalel
i.Yourfat
her
i
nl awandhistwowiveshavebeenseei ngthesigns
andwarningsbutt
heychoset oi gnorethem and
l
ookatwhathappenedt oyourhusband. ”
“sowhatdogogowasal
lofyoudoi
ngwhat
?.”

“theirfatherneedst odoever ythingr i

ghtf rom the
beginning.Al lt
het hingsItoldyouhedi dn’tdohe
mustdot hem.Af t
erhei sdoneal lofthathemust
takebot hhissonst hetwinsandyourt winsandhi s
twinwi vestot heriverandt heymustt ake5R5
throwt hem insideandaskf orper missiont othe
ownert hent heywi llgeti
nandcl eansebecause
everythingbegant hereandi tmustendt heresoit
doesn’thappent oyoursons.Yourmot hersmust
forgi
veeachot her.Someonewi llcomet ohelpthem.
Afterhehasdonet hatmzukul uhemustdo
umsebenziwabadalkuzohl at shwai nkomo
emnyamanezi mbuziezi mbi l
i,uyacel aukut hikube
nokuthul aemnzi niwakhengobakunomsi ndo
omkhul ukakhul ukungazekuchi thekei gazi.Uyezwa
ntombi ?.”

“Ngi
yezwagogo.
”Thedooropensandumkhulu
comesoutandsi
tsont
hechair.Iseeacupand
saucernexttome.Itaketheket
tl
eandpourthe
waterandmakehi m sometea.Heaccept
s,t
akesa
si
pandsmi les.Ismi
letoo.

“Whenyourf atherinl
awhasdoneal lofthatthen
yourhusbandandhi sbrother
s.Allfourofthem will
doacer emonyher ewheretheirmother’
sgr ewup.
Boththeirmot her’
smustbet herekhanyo.Youwi ll
makesur eithappens.Youseet hi
scupandsaucer
youhaveser vedyourgr eatgrandf
atherwi t
h?.”

“Yebogogo.
”

“Youmustf indt
heexactsameones.Onet heday
yourhusbanddoestheceremonyyouwi l
lserve
bothhim andhe’
stwinbrot
herteabecausemy
husbandhasneverdrankalcoholi
cinhi
sli
febut
youwillmakeitf
orthewholevil
lage.
”

“butgogoumhl
abasowadayi
swanj
ena?
.”She
l
ight
lyl
aughs.

“chamzukul
uusasengowet
hu.
”Huh?

“Whenallofthathashappenedgogoever
ythi
ngi
s
goi
ngtobef i
ne?.”

“it
suptoal
lofyout
omakethathappen.Khul
u?Do
youwantt
osaysomethi
ngt
othem? .
”Hegivesme
asadsmil
e.

“heisblessedtohaveyou.Oner i
ghtthi
ng
sebenzil
edidwastoraisegoodmenwhol ostthei
r
waysast heygr
ewupbecauseofsecr ets.When
youcamei ntombuso’sli
fe,
youchangedever ythi
ng
andthenameshehaveyouofhert winsist
erwas
theoneyoudeservebecauseyouhavebeen
nothi
ngbutablessingtomygr eatgr
andchil
dren.
NgiyabongaMaNgcobokakhul ukonkesokuzolunga
manjengobaazisekhoizi
mf i
hlo.”
“Ngi
yabongakakhul
umkhulunawegogo.
Ngi
zobazi
sasenzekonkengendl
ela.
”

“ukhumbul
eukut
hinguweukut
hul
aphakat
hi
kwabo.
”Thi
sisheavy.

“Iunderstandgogo.Wil
lmyhusbandwakeupand
comebackt omeandourki ds?.
”Shel ooksatme
l
ikeshef eel
ssomuchpi tyandIbr eakdown.
“Pleasedon’tt
akehim awayf r
om megogo
ngiyani
ncenga!.Ngi
samdingaempi l
weniyami and
I’
mt oofoundtobeawi dowedpl easemkhulu!.”I
getonmykneesandbegt hem.

“youareblessedkhanyo.Youwi l
lhaveallyouhave
everwantedandmor e….”shetakesapregnant
pausethecontinues.“…..Buti
t’
sli
feforali
fe.
”God
no!.
“Whatdoest
hatmeangogo?
!.”Tear
sst
ream down
herf
ace.

“youwillunderst
andwhati tmeans.Wet r
iedto
warnallofthebuttheydidn’tl
ist
entousandwe
hadnochoi cebuttodot hi
ssowecant al
ktoyou.
Manythingswillgowrongi ftheyrefuseorifbl
ood
i
sspil
led.Thisisthei
rlastwar ni
ng.”

“I
t’
slat
emywi
fe.Wehavet
ogo.
”

“gogodon’
tlett
hem t
akembusoawayf
rom me.I
t’
s
notfai
r.

“Ohmzukul
uwami
!.
”

“Gogozi
kal
alapl
ease!
.”
“I
’
m gogoNobelungu.Tel
lthem i
t’
sme.
”Inod
wi
pingmytear
s.

Shet
akesherdoekf
rom herheadandwr
apsi
t
ar
oundme.

“Wheneveryouneedcomfortweart
hisandyouwi
ll
feelmecl
osetoyou.Kuzol
ungasisi
.”

Shegivesmeawar m,ti
ghtandlovinggrandmother
hugandIbreathheri
nandhughert i
ght.Icr
yon
hershoul
dernotwanti
ngtoletgobutshepul l
s
awayfrom meunti
lIdon’
tfeelheratall
.
I’
mt ryingtowakeupbutIcan’ tcausemyeyes
won’ topenbutIcanfeelmycheekswet .Thedr
eam
Ijusthadandmyhear taches.Ihavenoi deawhat
shemeanti nsomeoft hethi
ngsi tIwi
lltel
lmy
fatherinlawalloft
hat.

“l
uh?
!.Luh?
!.”That
’sscel
o.Whydoeshesound
scar
ed?
.

“Givehersomethingdammit!
.She’sfucki
ngcrying
i
nhersleep!.
”Bongasays.Iam? .It
ryto.It
ryto
openmymout handtel
lthem t
hatnotbutstil
lI
can’tmove.Whatthehel
liswrongwi t
hme? !
.

“She’
shavi
ngani
ght
mar
e..Letherbe.Shewi
llbe
fi
ne.
”

Thedoctorsaysandsomehowthatcal
msmedown
andIfal
lint
oadeepsleepaft
ert
hat.

Mbusowakeuppl
ease.Ineedyou!
.
CHAPTER72

LUNGI
#Not
Edi
ted

Thesunki ssesmyski nandi tfeelsli

kei tis
envelopi
ngmewi thawar m blanket.Ilovei t
becauseIf eelverycomfort
ablebutst illti
red.My
shoulder
sf eelsveryheavyli
keI ’vegott hewhole
worldonmyshoul dersandthewei ghtisact ual
ly
drai
ningme.Iopenmyeyesandt hefirstthingIsee
i
sanopenedwi ndow,thebir
dsar echippingout si
de
andthere’
scoolai rcominginf rom thewi ndow.
Howdi dIenduphercauset hel astthingI
rememberi sIwast alki
ngt omybr otherandI
drank….Ohyes.Idr ankt hepillsSimsgavemeand
theyknockedmeoutandIhadt hatdream aboutmy
husband'sgreatgrandmot herandIst il
lremember
everyt
hingshet ol
dme.Myhear tachescausei ti
s
i
nsomuchpai n.Alif
ef oralif
e.Who’ sgoingtodie
andwho’ sgoingtolive?.Godpl easepr ot
ectSi
ms
babyandnotl etanythinghappent ot hem.They
real
lyneedthischildcausei ftheyloosei tI’
m afr
aid
i
tcouldmaket hi
ngsr eall
yhardbet weent hem.
Idon’tunderst
andwhyt heydon’tki
llsebenzileand
sparemyhusband’ sli
f eorwhoevert hatissuppose
todie.Thisi
sallherdoi ngandshemustbet heone
whomustsuf f
erthemost .Whydi dtheyputal lof
thi
sinmyshoul ders?.Whydi dn’
ttheyt el
ltheir
motherorsomeoneel sebesidesme.Thi sisgoi ng
tobever yhardbecausenoonewant ssebenzile
anywhereneart hem.Godwhyi smyl if
eso
dif
fi
cult?.
Itlooksli
keabeaut i
fuldaybutformei t
’soneofthe
wor stdaysofmyl if
e.Nothi
ngisbeaut i
fulabout
thisdayatall.IwishIwasinmyhousei nmybed
wher eIcanjustlockmyselfinmybedr oom and
sleepuntilt
hisnightmareends.Pleasewakeupmy
husband.Ireallyneedyou.
Ili
ftmyhandsandseeadri
pthatisconnect
edto
myhand.Whydidtheyouti
tincauseI’
m notsi
ckor
evenadmit
tedher
e.HowlonghaveIbeenasleep?
.I
havetogoandseehowmbusoi sdoing.
Iguesstheyl
eftmealonetogetsomesleepandI’
m
thankf
ulfort
hat.Mykidsarecomingt
odayandI
havetobestr
ong.I’
l
ltryt
onotbreakdowninfront
ofthem.Theywi llcrytoobecauset heyarestil
l
younganddon’ tunder standevent hought heywill
seethattheirdadisnotwi ththem.Ishiftandsitup.
Ihatehospital
sandIhat et hesmell.Thelastti
meI
wasatthehospi talIthoughtIwasgoi ngtodieand
l
eavemyki dsorevenl oset hem butnowi t’
stheir
dad.Whenam Igoi ngt oherbr eakcauseI ’
mt i
red.
I’
m physi
cal l
yandemot ionallyexhausted.Ipul
lmy
kneestomychestandhi demyf aceont hem with
myhandswr apst i
ghtlyar oundlegs.
Ihearthedooropeni
nganditsmellsli
kesomeone
hasjustgot
tenoutoftheshoweranditremindsme
IhavetoshowertoocauseIprobablysti
nk.
“Luh?
.”i
t’
sbonga.
“Didyougetsomesl
eepbonga?
.”Heheavena
deepsigh.
“Idi
dn’
tleave.
”
“Gohomeandseeyourwi febonga.Sl
eep,shower
,
eatandthencomeback.I’
l
lbefi
ne.Simsneedsyou
andIdon’twantanyt
hingt
ostr
essherplease.
”
“youneedmet
oo.Her
ear
eyourcl
othespl
ease
showerthenwhenyoucomebackf
oodwi
llbe
ready.
”
“Whenar
emyki
dsget
ti
ngher
e?.”
“sbuwentt
ogett
hem.Theywi
llbeher
eati
naf
ew
hour
s.”
“t
hankyou.Whatt
imei
sit
?.”
“10am.”
“hast
hedoct
orsai
danyt
hing?
.”
“Luh?
.”
“pleasetellmebonga.”He’
sstil
lint
heICUbutthe
doctorsaidheisdoingwellandmaybetomorr
ow
hemi ghtbeabletobreathonhisown.
“That
’sgood.
”
“Luhpl
easel
ookatme?
.”
“Iwoul
dli
ket
oshowerpl
ease.
”
“Iwant
….”
“j
ustgivemesomespaceplease!
.Icanf
eelhi
m
wal
kingcloserandst
andsonmyright
edsi
de.
Doesn’tt
hismanunderstandthatIj
ustwanttocry
themiserythatI
’mfeel
ing.“BongaItol
dyou….”I
l
ookupandst opal
mostshoutingatbonga.Il
ookat
him,henodsandIlookatt hemanstandingnextt
o
mewhol ooksexactl
yli
kemyhusband.
“thiswasnothowIi
magi nedourfi
rstmeet
ingwas
goingtobeli
ke.
”Iam speechl
ess.“
“busani
?”
“Mfazikamf
owethu.Howar
eyouhol
dingup?
.”I
shakemyhead.
Myki dsareident
icaltwinsandpeopleint hehouse
somet i
meshaveahar dtimeseparati
ngwhoi swho.
Theycanonl ytel
lthem apartwhenonei scr yi
ng
andinmyhi pandnotf r
owningatpeopleandmy
othersweetsonwho’ sjustgentl
eandqui et .Idon’
t
knowwhatbusanii slikebuttheonlydiff
er ence
physical
lyIseehisal i
tt
lescarthat
’sbarely
noti
ceableabovehi seyebrowandhi svoicehasa
l
itt
lehusktoi t
.
“Luh?
.”Bongacal
lsmyname.
“haveyouseenhi
m?.
”
“Ihave.Mom i
swi
thhi
m.”Inod.
“i
syourdadandyourmom bonga?
.”
“She’
satahot
el.
”
“Tell
them t
obringherher
e.”Busanist
il
lsand
rai
seshiseyebr
owlikehowmbusodoes.
“nott
odayl
uh.Justl
etmybr
otherandhavea
momentwit
hhismom andbr
other.”
“whydoyouwanthert
obeher
e?.”busaniasks.
“it
’snotaboutyourmot
her
s.Thi
sisaboutmy
husbandandwhatIhavetosayi
nvol
vesthem.Al
l
ofyouandshemustbehere.”
“I
’
llt
ellt
hem t
obr
ingherher
e?.
”
“she’
sonl
ockdown?
.”busaniasks.
“sheshoul
dbedead!
.”Bongasays.
“Bonga?
...
.”
“I
’l
lgi
veyoutwosometimet
otal
k.Ineedt
o
smoke.
”bongasmokes?
.
Hel
eavesandl
osest
hedoorbehi
ndhi
m.Busani
si
tsdownandbr
eat
hesoutdeepl
y.
“Iam r
eal
lysor
ryf
orever
ythi
ng.
”It
ellhi
m.
“I’
m sor
ryf
orwhatmybrot
herandyouaregoi
ng
thr
ough.Hewi
llbef
inel
uh?.CanIcal
lyout
hat
?.”
“ever
yonecal
lsmet
hat
.Howi
syourmot
her
?.”
“She’ sbeencryingfrom yest
erdaysi
ncewe
receivedthecallandwhenshesawhi m…..She
cri
ed.Ihavehear dhercr
yingbutthi
smorningwas
reall
yhar df
orherandme. ”
“Iunder
stand.Andyourdad?
.”
Hestandsupandwal
kst
othewi
ndowandl
ooks
out
side.
“Isawmyl i
ttl
ebrotherzi pho,he’sgreatki
dbutthis
wholethinghasf uckedbot hofthem upcausethey
didn’
tknowt hetruth.IkowIdon’ tlowthem well
butseeingthem hur ti
ngl i
kethisisveryhardforme.
Theyaskedf orforgivenessl i
kemybr ot
hershada
handineverythingbutt heydi dn’
t.That’
swhatis
makingmeangr y.Mybr other
sar escaredbecause
theythi
nkmaybewi l
lblamet hem orbeangr y
becauseit’
sthei
rmotherandthatwil
lneverhappen.
Theyar emybloodbrot
hers,
Ilovethem andnothi
ng
i
sgoingt ochangethat
.Wear eal
lreuni
tedsoI
can’
tletanyonegetbet
weenuseveragai n.
”Igethe
doesn’twanttot
alkabouthi
sdadandnotgoi ngto
for
cehi m.
“If
eelalitt
lebet
tert
ohearyousayt hatcauseIwas
worr
iedtooespecial
lyaboutyourmother.
”He
smil
es…Iclosemyeyescausei tfeel
sli
keit’
sso
wassmilingatme.
“mom.I sawonderf
ulgentl
esoul.She’
sver
y
for
givi
ngandhatesconfr
ontat
ions.She’
saver
y
l
ovingandcar
ingwoman.Youar egoi
ngtol
ove
her.
”Inod.
“howdi
dsher
eactwhenshesawyourdad?
.”
“l
uh…”
“IknowI
’
m sor
ry.”
“it’
sjustt
hat…..”he’
snotreadyt
otalkabouthis
dadandt heemotionshefel
tandIhavetorespect
that.
“busaniit
’sokay.Iunder
standandyoudon’
thave
toexpl
ain.I'
m sorr
yforpushing.
”
Henodsbuthelooksli
kehewant
stosay
somet
hingbutIneathi
mtoit
.
“I’
m goingtoshowernow.Canyoupleasemake
surethatever
yoneispr
esent
.Especi
all
yyour
parentsandaunt.
”
“What
’sgoi
ngon?
.”Ishakemyhead.
“youwi
llf
indoutwi
tht
her
estoft
hem.
”
Isayget
ti
ngof
fthebedandsi
gh.
“howar
eyouf
eel
ingt
houghmf
azikamf
owet
hu?
.”
“Ifeell
ikeshit
,thi
sistheworstdayofmyl i
fe.I
wantmyhusbandback, Iwanthim homesaf ei
nmy
armswi thourchil
drenbut
…..Iknowt hati
tisn’
t
goingtohappenanyt i
mesoon.
“Howdoyoumean?
.”
“busanisoyouwantyourbr
othert
ogetwel
land
comebacktous?.”
“l
uhhe’
spr
act
ical
lyme.Ineedhi
m,myot
her
brothersandourdadi nmyl ife.Ihavel ivedmyl i
fe
feeli
nghal femptybecauseaver yhugepar tofme
wasmi ssingandwhenIsawmydadandbr othersi
t
feltl
ikeahugewei ghtisbei ngl i
ftedoffmy
shoul dersbutseeingamanwhol ooksl ikemeand
happent obemybr otherlayingont hatbedwi th
tubescomi nginandoutofhi sbodywashar d.I
t
brokemebecauset hatcoul dhavebeenmel ayi
ng
ont hatbed.Ihel dhishandandi tfeltl
ikeawhol e
thatwasi nmyhear twasbei ngf i
lledandIhave
neverf el
tlikethati
nmyl i
f eever.”Iholdmy
necklaceonmyneckhasmyhusband' sr i
ngand
tearsst r
eam downmyf ace.
“canyoupleasetellhimthatandmor ebecausehe
real
lyneedstohearitbusani.Eversinceyour
brot
hersfoundoutthet r
uththeyhavebeen
searchi
ngforyouforalmostt hreeyearsnowand
nowyou’refi
nall
yher eandhecan’ texperi
encethat
becausehe’sfi
ghti
ngf orhi
sl i
feand…”
“heyI’m sur
ehehear
dmetalki
ngtohi
m.Heknows
thatIam her
ewit
hourmom.Thewholefamil
yisn’
t
hereforj
ustmbusobutf
oryoutooandoursons.I
can’twaitt
oseet hem.Mbusoisgoi
ngtowakeup
nowatanyt i
mecausehecanf eelt
heloveeveryone
hasf orhi
m especial
lyhi
swif
eandchil
dren.He’s
goingtopullt
hroughandhe’sgoi
ngtoneedyou. ”
“Youdon’tunderst
andbusani
.Mbusoandmykids
areever
ythi
ngt ome.He’
smyhomeandmypeace
ofmind.Withouthi
m myli
fewon’
tmakeanysense.
I’
mtheonewhoneedshi m moret
hananythi
ng.
”
“Iunderst
andmfazikamfowethubutIwantyouto
knowthatyoucanalsocountonmel i
ketherestof
mybrothers.I
’
vegotyou.”Inodsnif
fi
ng.
“Ineedyout
odosomet
hingf
orme.”
“Anyt
hing.
”
“whatI ’
m goingtosayi nthereisprobabl
ygoingto
upsetmanypeopl eandIdon’ thaveanychoice
becauseit’
samust .Ineedyout omakesur ethat
theywon’ttr
yt okil
leachot hercauseifever
ythi
ng
doesn’tgotheywayIwast ol
dmyhusbandmi ght
die.IknowI’m aski
ngal otbut …”
“l
uhi
t’
sokay.What
everweallhavet
odot osave
mybr
other
sli
fewewilldoi
t.Youcancountonme.”
“t
hankyoubusani
.”
“Anytimesis.CanIgiveyouahugcause
apparentl
ythere’
sarulethatnomantouchesyou
otherthanyourbrot
herandhusbandandoryour
dad’s.Howcomeyouhavet wodad’
s?.”he’
s
fr
owni ngandIalmostsmi l
e.
“youseeI’
m alr
eadydoi
ngmyj
ob?Maki
ngyou
smil
e.”Ishakemyhead.
“I
’
m goi
ngt
oshower
.”
“HawSi
siandmyhug?
.”
“Sur
e.”
Heembr acesmewi t
hawar m andt i
ghthug.It
’snot
thesameasmyhusbandsbutf oralitt
lebi
tI
i
magi neiti
smbusowho’ shuggingme.Ipressmy
faceinhischesti
nhal
inghim butthi
ssmell i
svery
unfamil
iart
omebutagai nIpretendhesmel l
sfresh
cleanwater.Heki
ssesthetopofmyheadt henlet
’s
go.
“Thankyou.Ir
eal
lyneededt
hat
.”
“di
ditf
eell
ikei
twashi
m st
andi
ngher
e?.
”
“Nobuti
thel
ped.
”
“I
’m goi
ngt
ogiveyousomepr i
vacyandseewhat
i
sgoingonther
e.”Inod.Hel
eaves.
Iwalkoutoft
her oom Iwassl
eepi
ngi ncarryi
ngthe
bagbongabroughtmeandIl ookaroundthere’sno
one.Ihavenoideawhichfl
oorist
hisandt here’
s
nonetoask.
Anur
secomesoutofsomer
oom.
“Uhm excusemenur
se?
.”
“yes?
.”shegi
vesmeaonceoverl
ook.
“whi
chf
loori
sthi
s?.”
“howdi
dyougether
e?.
”
“Idon’
tknow.Canyoushowmewher
eIcanf
ind
theel
evat
or?.”
“thisisthesevent
hfloorandnooneexpectdoctor
s
andpat i
entswhoareinacomaar eall
owedhere.”
Shet ouchesherwatchli
keshe’
sdoingsomething
toitandIfrown.
“t
heel
evat
orpl
ease?
.”
“fol
lowme.”SheturnsandIfol
lowher
.Sheopens
thi
sdoorandther
e’sasecuri
tyguar
dcoming
towardsus
“takehert ot herecept
ionandmakeherwai tf
or
vi
siti
nghour slikether
estofthem causeIhaveno
i
deahowsheneededupher ebusywonder ing
aroundl i
ket hisisapubli
chospit
al!.Ni
nescefeyaz
andpl easecheckherbagcausemaybeshest ole
somet hing.”She’soneofthosemeannur sesthat
everyonet alksabout.Youknowthatonenur sewho
i
snotki nd.She’ stheone.
“Mi
ssopent
hebag.
”
“showmet
heel
evat
orsi
r?.”
“notunt
ilyouopent
hisbag!
.”
“Ihavemycl othesinheresi
randIpr
omi
seyouI
didn’
tstealanyt
hing.Ij
ustwantt
oshowmewher
eI
canfindtheelevatort
hat’
sal
l.
”
Thenur sepull
smybagf r
om myshoul
derandi
t
fal
lsdown.Iclosemyeyesandcountfr
om 10t
o1.
Myl i
feisashitri
ghtnowandthi
sgi
rlwant
sto
makei tworse.
“Bef oreeitherofyouopenmybagandgot hr
ough
myper sonalt hingsandnotf i
ndwhatyou’ r
elooki
ng
forletmet ellyouthis.Bef oretheendoft hedaythe
bothofyouwi llfi
ndyour selveswi t
houtjobs.Iwil
l
makesur et hehospi t
alfirest hebothyouandyou
willneverwor keveragaini nanypr i
vate,publ
ic
hospi t
alsorevencl i
nics.Thi nkaboutwhati s
i
mpor t
antt oyout wo.It
’sei theryoutouchmy
persont hingsandgetf ir
edoryoushowwwher e
thefuckenel evatorissoIcangoseemyhusband
andyoukeepyourj ob.Nowwhi chisitcauseyou’
re
fuckenwast ingmyt i
me!.”Themanl ooksatmy
handsandseesmyweddi ngr i
ng.
“I
’m sor
ryma’
am.I
’
llshowyouwher
etheel
evat
or
i
s.”
“Heykahlewena.Isai dsear chthatbagandseei f
shedidn’
tstealanythingortrytokillsomeone..You
neverknowt hesedayscausepeopl earedesperate
andthey’
lldoanythingf ormoney.It’syourjobto
makesur ethatthepatientsandust hewor ker
shere
aresafefrom harm searchherbagnow! .”
“I
’
m notdoi
ngi
tnur
sekunene.Doi
tyour
sel
f!
.”
“thehospit
alt
oldust
her
eareveryimport
ant
peopl
ehereandwemustbealertofanysuspicious
i
ndivi
dualsandthi
sonel
ooksverysuspi
cious.”
Ohmygodt hi
swoman! .ShethinksIlooks
suspici
ousbecauseIlookli
kemess? .Ididshower
didn’
tIandI’
m weari
ngmycl othes,myhai ri
s
coveredsowhatisthatmakesmel ookssuspici
ous.
“misskuneneIam Mr sGumede.
.Myhusbandwas
br
oughtherelastnight
.He’
sonthefi
fthf
loorso
pl
easeyourwast i
ngmyt i
mewithyourst
upidtal
ks.
Si
rleadtheway.”
Ipickupmybagf rom t
hefloorbutshesnatches
awayf r
om me,unzipsi
tandt akesthr
owsoutal lmy
clothestheunderwearIwaswear ing,br
adress
toil
etrybageveryt
hingi
nsideandt heyfal
lonfloor.
Thiswomanr eal
lyhasadeathwi sh.Shelaughs
whenshe’ sdone.
“Iam MrsGumedemyf oot!
.Yeeerwit
hthese
cheapcl
othes.Oopsthere’
snothi
ngheresotake
hertot
hewai t
ingar
ea.”Shesaysleavi
ngsteppi
ng
onmyclothes.
Sat
ani
sreal
lyt
est
ingme.
Ipi
ckupmyunderclothesandgett
hem i
nmybag
andthesecur
it
yguardhelpsme.
“I’
m sorryaboutthatMrsGumede.Misskuneneis
l
ikethisandshe’sveryrudetoal
lthepati
entsand
everyone.I
’m sor
ryshedidthatt
oyourthings.
”I
takemyot hershoefrom hi
m andoutiti
nsideand
zipmybag.
“i
t’
sokaysi
r.
”
“Isi
treal
lyyourfami
lyandhusbandinther
ethat
ever
yoneistal
kingabout
?.”Theyar
e?.
“t
heyar
eandhei
s.”
“IhopeIwon’tgeti
ntot
roubl
ecauseIr
eal
lyneed
thi
sjobmiss.
”
“Youwon’
tsi
r.Theel
evat
orpl
ease?
.”
“Ohyest
hisway.
”
Wewal
kforl
ikef
ivemi
nut
est
henIseet
heel
evat
or.
“Ihopeher
ecover
sMr
sGumede.
”Hesounds
genui
ne.
“metoosir.
”Thedoorcl
osesandIpressthefi
ft
h
fl
oorbut
tonanditt
akesmethere.Thedooropens
andIwalkoutandi
t’
sful
lofmyf amil
y.
Scel
oseesmeandmeet
smehal
fwayandgi
vesme
ahug.
“I
’
m gl
adyousl
eptbutyoust
il
ldon’
tlookgood.
”
“Geet
hanksbr
o.”
“youknowwhatImean.
”
“I
slesegoher
e?.”
“inthi
rt
yminutestheywil
lbel
andi
ng.Thenanni
es,
andsisnotowillbeatt
hehouse.Werent
edtheone
nexttoyour
s.”
“thanksbr
o.Morni
ngever
yone.”Theygr
eetback
andtheycomeandgivemehugsandIappr eci
ate
al
lofthem.Noonecanevergetenoughhugs.
“There’
sbr
eakf
asti
ntheconf
erencer
oom.
”Bonga
says.
“Iwantt
oseemyhusbandf
ir
st.
”
“l
uhpl
easeeat
.”
“I
’
m nothungr
ymah.
”It
ellmyaunt
.
“Yousleptwi
thouteat
ingl
astni
ghtl
uhandyou
need…”
“YohmahI
’
m nothungr
ypl
ease!
.”
Iwalkandleavethem t
her eandgost rai
ghtto
mbuso’sroom.Ijustgetinwi thoutl
ooki ngwho’s
i
nsidecauseI’m mad.I’
mt iredofeveryonet el
li
ng
mewhatt odo.Ilookupandseemyf atheri
nlaw
comfort
ingmbuso’smom? .Iguesst heywer e
havi
ngamomentandIdi sturbedit.
“ohI
’
m sor
ry.Idi
dn’
treal
iset
hatyouwer
eher
eI’
l
l…
”
“don’
tleavekhanyo.”mbuso'smom looksathim
andIseethislookinhereyes.She’
slooki
ngathim
l
ikeshestil
lloveshi
m orisitmyimaginat
ion?
.
Iwal
ktombusoandt ouchhishand.Iti
sn’
tcoldli
ke
howitwasyester
day.Ikisshisl
ipsandbreathhim
i
nandthatsmellgivesmecomf ortcauseiti
shim.
Mytearsf
allonhischeeksandIwi pethem.
“Pl
easewakeupl
ove.Ineedyou.
”It
akeof
fmy
neckl
aceandremovehi
sringandputitwher
eit
bel
ongs.I
’l
lnevert
aket
hisri
ngoffl
ove.Heonce
sai
d.
“he’
sgoi
ngtobefi
ne.
”Hi
smom speaksandi
t’
sli
ke
she’
sbr
eathi
ngl
if
eint
oherwor
ds.
Ilookatherandshe’sabsolut
elybeaut
if
ul.She
l
ooksl i
kehertwinsist
erandtheytooareident
ical
twins.Idon’
tblameqwabef ornotbei
ngabletosee
thediff
erencebetweenthem.
“Iam owamiZi
kal
alambuso’smom.Yourmother
i
nlawandgrandmothert
oyourkids.
”Shesaysso
l
ovingl
yandshesoundshappy.
“Ar
eyouhappy?
.”Idi
dn’
twantaskhert
hat
.
“Fort
hef
ir
stt
imei
naver
ylongt
ime.
”Shesmi
les.
“Iam happytoothatyouarehere.He’
sgoi ngt
obe
sohappy.”It
hreadhisfi
ngerswithmine.Hewoul d
saymyhandsar esmal l
anddelicat
ebutt heyf
ithi
m
perf
ectl
y.Everyt
hinginyoufit
smeper fectl
yandI
wouldn’
tchangeat hi
ng.”
.
“l
uh?
...Luh?
.”myf
atheri
nlawi
scal
li
ngmyname.
“I
’
m sor
ry.”
“It
’soksi
si.Noneedtoexplain.Ihaveheardso
muchaboutyoul uhandI’
ml ookingforwar
dto
spendi
ngti
mewi t
hyou,mysonandmygr andki
ds.I
hopeyouwi l
lal
lowmet hatopportuni
ty.
”Shetakes
myhandsinher s.
.
“ofcoursema.Youdon’
thavet
oevenask.Thi
sis
yourfamil
ytoo.
”
“Ihadthoughtofwasnevergoi
ngt oseehi
m….
Them agai
nbutthen…”shecr i
es.
Il
ookatmyf at
herinlawandhi seyesaregl
ossy.I
pul
lhertomeandhol dher .Il
ethercryoutl
oud
whil
eIletmyyearsfallsi
lentl
y.
“it’
sokaymama.It’
sgoingtobeokay.You’
rehere
now, mbusoknowsitandIknowhe’sdyi
ngtofeel
yourarmswrappedaroundhim andhi
saroundyou
too.”
“I
’
m scar
edl
uh.
.Whati
fit
’sal
readyt
ool
ate?
.”
“pl
easedon’
tsayt
hat
.”
“Iknow.Pl
easedon’
ttaket
hatt
hewr
ongway.I
t’
s
myf
eart
alki
ng.
”
“Canyougi
vesometimeal
onewi
thmyhusband.I
needt
otal
ktoal
lofyou.
”
“i
sever
ythi
ngokayl
ungi
le?
.”
“nobaba.Everyt
hingisamess.I’
llexpl
aint
oal
lof
you.
”Henods.Theyl eavemealonewi t
hmy
husband.Isi
tdownandt akehi
shand.
“babyIt hinkyouknowIhaveavi si
tfr
om your
greatgr andmot herandsheexpl aineveryt
hingto
meandwhatneedst obedone.Iwi l
lmakesur e
everythingi sdonet hewayshei nstr
uctedme.She
alsosai dal if
ef orali
fembusoandIam soar ed
caset hatmeanssomeonei sgoingtodieandit
can’tbeyou.Youcan’ tl
ivemewi thourkidsmbuso..
Ineedyout ohangi nthereandf i
ghthardsoyou
cancomebackt ous.Thisj
ourneythatyourdad
hast ot akeisgoi ngtobehar dandpainfulcauseit
i
sgoi ngt obr ingmemor i
esbackandi t
’sgoingto
upsetyourmot herandbr ot
herbutforthepeaceof
thisfami lyithast obedonet hat’
swhyIaskedyour
twinbr othertomakesur ethattheyagreeandnot
runtoki
lleachot
her
.IloveyouPhakat
hwayobuya
kimist
handwaSami.”
Iki
sshim agai
nthenlookatt
hedoorIcamein
thr
ough.Godpleasebewithme.Myancest
ors
oQwabeMnguni ,gogoNobel
ungungi
pheni
amandlanimenami .
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Ihopethewhol efami
lyisreadytohearmeoutand
whatIhavet osayeventhoughIknowver ywell
that
whatI’
m goingtosayisgoingtohur tmbuso'
smom
andhisbrother
.Theyhavet ounderstandt
hough
thatI
’
m doingthisbecauseIwantmyhusband
home.
“Mr
sGumede?
.”I
t’
smbuso’
sdoct
or.
“Dochow’
smyhusband?
.”
“Hisbr ai
nhasbeenacti
vesincet heear
lyhoursof
themor ni
ngandIam veryimpr essed.Hisbrain
swell
ingisgoingdownandt hatist hemost
i
mpor tantthi
ng.I
fheconti
nuesl ikethi
sitmightbe
possi
bl ethatt
omorr
owhemi ghtbeabl etobreath
onhisown.Yourhusbandi sfightingMrsgumede.”
“Iam sohappytoheart
hatdoc.Ar
enotst
il
labl
eto
tel
lifhei
sparal
yzedornot
?.”
“Ididmovemypenunderhi sfeetandIsawhi s
toesmovingal i
ttl
eandthat’
sverygood.Idon’tyou
togetyourhopesupt houghunti
lweareabsol utel
y
surebutthisisgoodforus.
”ThankGod.Atl east
onegoodt hingishappeni
ng.
“Thankyoudoc.
”shesmi
les.Ti
met
otal
ktomy
fami
ly.
Theyaresit
ti
ngi
ngroupsliketheyaredi
vidi
ng
themsel
vesandIhat
ethat.Idon’tl
ikei
tatal
l
becauseduri
ngt
hisdi
ffi
cultti
meweshoul dallbe
asone.
Il
ookar
oundandIdon’
tseebonga’
smom.
“Bonga?
.”Theyst
opt
alki
ng.
“Wher
e’suMah?
.”
“She’
snotwelcomedhere.Shedoesn’
tdeser
vet
o
beher
e.”Thei
runcl
esays.
“Sheneedst
obeher
emal
ume.WhatIhavet
osay
i
nvol
veshert
oo?
.”
“wedon’
tneedherhere.Youcansaywhateveryou
wantt
osaytoallofushereandthenwe’
l
ltellher
.”
“I
’
m sor
rymal
umebutshehast
obeher
e.”
“Makotithi
sthi
ngisbi
ggert
hanyou.Don’
tfor
ceus
toacceptheraspar
toft
hisf
amil
y!.
”
“Babawi t
hal lduer espectIdon’tmeant o
disr
espectyoui nanywayandIdon’ twantt o
i
nvolvemysel finyourbusi ness.Ididn’tchooseto
outputinthispositionbecausei ti
st oomuchf or
meandIhat eit.Theycamet ome, Ididn’tcometo
them soplease.IneeduMahher e.She’spar toft
his
famil
ywhet herwel ikeitornot.”
“l
uhwhat’
sreal
lygoi
ngon?
.”Bongaasks.Icover
myfacewi
thmyhandsandtakeadeepbr eat
h.
“pl
easegogether
?.”
“she’
sint
heconfer
enceroom.I’
l
lgogether.
”He
l
eavesandIsi
tdown.Whyme? .Whydidthey
choosemeandnotanyoneel
se?.
“Mrsgumede?.”I
t’
sanotherwoman,
nur
sekunene
andthesecur
it
yguard.
“CanIhel
pyou?
.”
“Iam thehospi
tal
'sCEODrKhomo.”Sheshakes
myhand.“somet hi
nghasbeenbr
oughttomy
at
tent
ionherebyMrmasombuka.”
“it
’sokaydoctor
.IthappenedandIwoul dl
iket
o
for
getaboutit
.”Ireall
ydon’twantanyonetoknow.
“whathappened.
”Scel
oasks.
“Misskuneneher
eaccusedMr sgumedeof
st
eali
ngfrom t
hehospi
tal
.”DrKhomoexpl
ains.
“what
?.”t
heyaskshocked.
“shemadami
stakedoct
ori
t’
sfi
ne.
”
“Mrsgumedeinsawthefoot
ageanditwastot
all
y
unaccept
abl
e.She’
sher
etoapol
ogizetoyouand
wewantyout oknowthatf
urtherstepswi llbe
takenagainsther
.”Honest
lyIdon’tcare.They
shouldn’
thavedraggedthi
spoormanher e.
“Whatdi
dthenur
sedo?
.”Busaniasks.
“whenMr sgumedet ri
edtoexpl
ainwhosheisand
whyshe’ sheresheaccusedheroflyi
ngandthen
shesnat chedMrsgumede’sbagf r
om herand
start
edpul l
inghert
hingsoutoft
hebag.Whenshe
didn’
tf i
ndalwhatshewasaccusingherofshelef
t
steppingonherclothes.
”Mrmasombukaexpl ai
ns.
“andyouwer eki
ndtohelpmesi
randIam gr
atef
ul.
That
’sal
lthatmatter
s.”
“shedi
dwhat ?.Youdoknowt hatshecanwri
teyou
acheckri
ghtnowandgi veyouyourwholepensi
on
fundmoney?.”thenur
seroll
shereyes
“Apol
ogi
zenur
sekunene.
”Thedoct
orort
ellher
.
“sor
ry.”shesaysr
oll
inghereyes.
“that
’snotanapol
ogynt
ombazane.”mbuyi
sel
o
says.
“yeah.ThankyouDrKhomo.
”
“Pl
easel
etmeknowi
fyouneedanyt
hingel
se.
”
“wewi
ll
.”
Theywalkoutandshesi t
sf arawayfrom anyone
andthathurtsme.Iknowshe’ st
hemosthat ed
personri
ghtnowandever yonewant stobedone
wit
hherbecauseofwhatshedi dandshedoes
deserveitbutsheshoul
dn’tbetreat
edlikean
animal.
“Mahpl
easesi
tcl
oser
.Youhavet
oheart
hist
oo.
”
Shelooksl
ikeshehasn’
tsleptinyears.Shel
ooks
l
ikehowIfeel.Mi
serabl
e,exhausted…
“Tal
kshe’
sher
e!.
.”
“don’
ttal
ktomysi
sterl
ike!
.”
“scel
o…”
“Howam It
alki
ngt
oher
?!.
”
“Malumeplease!.
”.
busanisayswalkingi
ncomi ng
outfr
om mbuso’sroom.“don’ttakeyourangerour
onher.She’
sdeali
ngwi t
hal otandshedoesn’t
needstr
ess.Justhearwhatshehast osay.”Busani
says.
“Whati
ssoimpor
tantt
hatsheneedst
obehere?.
Mbusohashi
smothernowandhedoesn’
tneed
her
!.
”
“That’
snotyourdecisi
ontomakemalume.It
’smy
husbandsdeci
siontomake.Notme,youoranyone
el
sehere.I
fyouwoul djustgi
vemeachancetotel
l
youwhatIwast ol
d!.
”
“bywho?Her ?
.She’st
heonewhosentyouhereto
tr
ytotalktousonherbehalfri
ghtsowecanforgi
ve
ber?
!.I
st hatwhatyouwanttotel
lus.
”Hesays
shouti
ng
“Mal
umei
t’
s...”
“I’
m notgoi
ngt osither
eandlist
enyoutoyou
championi
ngf orheraft
erever
ythi
ngshehaddone
tothi
sfamil
y!.Howcoul dyoubetr
ayyourhusband
l
ikethi
s!….”
“Zikal
alayoubett
erwatchhowyout
alkt
omy
daughter!
.”Mydadstandsup.
“Fanel
est
op!
.”Mbuso’
smom r
epr
imandshi
m.
“Mal
umeIknowyoudon’
tknowl
uhbutweknow
her.Shewouldneverbet
raymbusoorevenoneof
us.Shewouldneverdothatsopleasedon’tt
alkt
o
herli
kethatandaccuseherofbetr
ayingher
husband.”
“she’
sbeenhermotheri
nlawal
ltheseyears.She
coul
dhavelear
nedsometri
cksf
rom her!
.”
“EnoughFanel
e!.
”Myf
atheri
nlawsaysst
andi
ng
up.
Thisisgett
ingoutofhand!
.Theyweresuppose
toli
stentowhatIhavetosaythenr
ightaf
terI
’m
dinebutno!.Hi
sunclenowisaccusingmeof
somet hi
ngIwoulddo!.
“ohshutup!
.Hadyouhadyoureyesopenedand
sawwhosher eal
lywasnoneofuswoul
dbehere
ri
ghtnow!
.”
“youwil
lnottal
ktomydaught
erli
ket
hatFanel
e.
Ever
!.
”Myfatherinl
awwarnshi
m
“Thisisnott
het i
metopointfi
nger
sandputblame.
Weal lknowwhathappenedandwecan’tchange
that
!.Babapleaselet
’shearwhatl
uhhastosay!
.”
“youi
nsul
tmydaught
eragai
nandwewi
llhavea
hugepr
obl
em!
.”Mydadisangry.
“ifyouwantmet oli
stentowhatyouhavetosay
thenyouwil
ltel
lsebenzil
etol
eave.Iam notgoi
ng
tobeinthesamer oom asher
!.
”
“Malumepl
ease!Shemustbeher
e.Ther
e’sno
ot
herway!
.”
“howcouldshebeneededwhenweknowt
he
probl
em i
sher?
.”
“I
fyoucanj ustcal
m downandl
etmeexpl
ainyou
wi
llunder
standwhy? .
”
“No!
.Iknowwhatyouwantt
osayandi
t’
snotgoi
ng
towor
k!.
”
“Nouncleyou’r
ebei
ngunr
easonabl
eri
ghtnow!
.”
Busanisays.
“Youdon’tknowanythi
ng!.Youthi
nkyouknowbut
youdon’t
!.Letmetel
lyousomet hi
ngmalume
shouldanythi
nghappentomyhusbandsI ’
m goi
ng
toblameyouandnooneel se!.
”
“What
?You’
recr
azy!
.Youshoul
dbl
amet
hat
motheri
nlawofyour
swho’
sbusyf
eedi
ngyou
poi
son!.
”
“Fanel
est
op!
.”Mbuso’
smom says.
“NoIwon’ t.Iseeyouwanttokil
lmynephewso
youcani nher
ital
lhismoney!
.”OHMYGOD! .If
eel
.
LikeI’
m goingtohaveaheartat
tackr
ightnowandI
justwanttodie!
.
“MALUMENO!WHATI SWRONGWI
THYOU?
!”
Busaniscr
eamsathi
m.
“Youmotherfucker
!.Howdar eyouaccusemy
daught
eroft
ryingtokil
lherhusband!
.”
Dadchar gestounclefaneleandl
andsamean
punchonhi snoseIseebl oodcomingoutandthe
boyst r
ytoseparatethem.It’
sonebigmessandI
don’tknowwhatt odo.Theyf i
nal
lymanageto
separatethem.
Bonga’
smom i scr
ying,mydadl ooksli
kehest i
ll
wantsapieceofuncl efaneleandmybr otheri
s
mad.Bongal ooksathim digustedandhi ssonsar e
l
ookingattheirdaddisappointed.Myf atheri
nlaw
hasthi
smur derouslookonhi sf ace.Theyareall
shoutateachother
.Uncl
efanel
eisbusyaccusi
ng
meofmanyt hingsandconspi
ri
ngwit
hbonga’s
mom.
It
akemybagandwal
ktot
heel
evat
or.
“Luhdon’
tLeave!Luh!
.”
Iqui
cklygetinandt hedoor sclosej ustasbusani
asbusaniwasaboutt obecl ose.Myl egsbuckl e
andIfalldownont hefloorandcr y!.Neverever
haveIeverthoughtIwoul dbeaccusedoft ryi
ngto
ki
llmyhusband.Howcoul dhet hinkIwoul ddo
someonel i
kethat?!
.Whywoul dn’thel etmesay
whatIhavet osay?.Ican’tbreakdowni nher eand
havepeoplewat chmef allapart.Igetup, searchfor
myphonebutIdon’ tf
indit.Ihavenoi deawher eit
i
s.I’
ll
askt herecepti
onistifIcanmakeacal lto
Sims.
Thedoor
sopenandIl
ookupandseesbu
“Heyyou’r
ecryi
ngwhathappened?I
smbusookay?
”Istepout.
“I…he’
sfi
ne…I…takemehomepl
ease!
.Ican’
tbe
here…mykids!
.”
“whathappenedl
uh?
.Whatdi
dtheydot
oyou?
!.”
“Justt
akemehomepl
ease!
.”
“okcome.”Hetakesmybagandwewal kout
.We
gotothepar
kinglot
,geti
nthecarandbedri
vesout
.
Izoneoutandt hi
nkaboutwhatmal umesaid.I
knowhe’ sangryandhi ssisterbutdi dhereal
ly
meanal lthosethings?.Doesher eallythi
nkIam
capabl eoft hat
?.Howt hehel lam Igoingtotel
l
them whatt hei
rgrandmot hersaidifhe’snotwil
li
ng
tohearmeout ?.Whatifhedoesn’ tbeli
evemewhen
Ittell
them andconvi ncesmbuso’ smom t onot
agr ee?.
“Luht
alkt
ome.Whathappened?
.”
“everyt
hingisamesssbuandmbuso’ suncl
eis
beingdif
ficul
the…”Itel
lhi
m aboutmydream
excludi
ngaboutsomeonedyingbutever
ythi
ngelse
thathappenedthatl
edmet owalkout
.
“that’
sal otl
uh.Ontopofever yt
hingyou’regoi
ng
throughtheydumpal loft
hatonyouandyoumust
trytogeteveryonei
noner oom andt el
lthem?.
That’shard.Nowonderyouj ustwalkedoutofther
e.
Whenyout ellt
hem t heyhavet
oputthei
r
dif
fer
encesasi deanddowhati sexpect
edfort
he
fut
ureofthi
sf amily.Mbusowillmakesuret
hati
t
happens.Hisdadt oo.”
“Whataboutthei
runclesbu?Whatifhehasan
i
nfl
uenceoverhissi
sterandconvi
nceshernott
o
agr
ee?.
”
“Ihaven’
tmetbusanibutifhe’
sidenti
calt
ombuso
theymighthavesi
milarchar
acterandIthi
nkhewil
l
sorthe’
suncleoutorelseweknowscel owil
ldo
anythi
ngtomakeyouhappy. ”
“that
’swhatscar
esme.I twasamesssbu,mydad
punchesmyunclein-
lawandt hatmi
ghtmakemy
rel
ati
onshi
pwiththem hard.
”
“Iwouldhavepunchedhimt ooifIwasyourdad.
First
lyhedoesn’
thaveanyri
ghttotalkt
oyoulike
thatandsecondl
yhedoesn’tknowyoutoeven
accuseyouofdoingsomethingli
kethat
.”
“Iknowsbubuttheyarest
il
lmyi
n-l
awst
ooandwe
havetobui
ldarel
ati
onshi
p.”
“mbusowontal
lowt
hat
.Anyonewhohur
tst
heone
hel
oveswi
llpay.
”
“andt hat’
showwegother e.Revenge!.Somet i
mes
revengeisnott heanswer.Sometimeswej usthave
toletthi
ngsgoandl etGodandourancest orsfight
onourbehal f.Iknowwhatmadi di sverycruelbut
forPete’ssaket heyshoul
djustl
etherancest ors
dealwi t
hher.
“That’
strue.Someti
meswedon’ tneedtofightbut
i
t’
swhowear eluh.Weprotectandfi
ghtforthose
welove.”thegateopensandwegeti nsi
det hi
s
hugebeautif
ulmansion.
“thankyouforbr
ingi
ngmyki
dst
omeand
everyone.
”
“mybr otherwoulddothesameformetoo.LuhI’
m
alwaysgoingtobeher ef
oryouwhther
busoishere
ornot.Youcanal wayscountonmeforanyt
hing.
”I
takehisi
nt omine.
“Thismeansal
ott
omesi
busi
so.Ngi
yabonga
kakhul
u.”
“I’
m notcomingi
n.Iwantt
oseewhat’
sgoingonat
thehospi
talandt
alkt
oyourot
herhusband.
”He
smi
les.Ishakemyhead.
“hemightl
ookli
kembusobuthe’snot
hingl
ike
hi
m.”HelaughsandIgetoutoft
hecar
.
Iwalktothefrontdoor,
takeadeepbreat
handopen
thedoor.Icanhearlaughsfr
om theki
ds.Theyar
e
allher
e?.
Melusiischasingsbonel oandhe’sl
aughingso
hard.Istandtherewatchhi m pi
cksbonel
oupand
hethrowshi mint heairandmysonl aughshard.I
t
bri
ngsmesomuchj oythatIam bl
essedtohave
mysonsi nmyl i
fe.Theyturnandbothseeme.Iput
mybagdown
Mel
usiput
ssbonel
odownandmysonr
unst
ome.
“mama…mama. ”Ikneeldown,
openmyarmsand
hethrownhimsel
fatme.Ihughimtight
,ki
sshi
s
chubbycheeksandinhalehi
sscent
.Hesmell
sli
ke
home.
Ist
andupwit
hhim st
il
linmyar
msandpul
lmel
usi
tome.Hegi
vesmeat i
ghthugt
oo.
“wher
eishi
stwi
n?.
”
“he’
swit
hmom.She’
schangi
nghisT-
shi
rtcause
hegott
omat
osauceonhi
sT-shi
rt
.”
“Okboy.Howar
eyou?
.”
“I
’
m goodma.I
subabagoi
ngt
obeokay?
.”
“Let
’ssi
tdown.Howdi
dyouf
indout
?.”
“Ihear
dmamakamot
alki
ngwi
thgogonont
o.”
“doyourot
herbr
other
sandsi
sterknow?
.”
“nomat
tert
heydon’
t.
”Ibr
eat
hout
.
“Ineedyout obeabigbrothert
ot hem andwatch
them okay.I
fyouseeanythingwrongtelloneofus
andthatincl
udesyouboy.”
“Iwi
llma.
”
“Melusihe’sgoingt
obeokay.Idon’
twantyouto
worryorstressyour
sel
f.Hewasinanaccidentbut
thedoctorsaidhe’
sdoi
ngokayandsoonhe’ sgoi
ng
tobebackandaskyouaboutyourgirl
fr
iend.”He
l
aughs.
“Chamashe’
snotmygi
rl
fr
iend.She’
sjustaf
ri
end
that
’sal
l.
”
“I’
m gl
adtohearthatcauseyou’
rest
il
lyoung.You
needtofocusonschoolandjustbeaki
dangith?”
“yeboma.
”Iki
sshi
sfor
ehead.Heget
supandr
uns
somewher
e.
“Hel
lobaby?
...
..Di
dyoumissmommy?.”Henods.
“mommymi ssedyoutoo.“gi
vemommyahugand
ki
ss?.
”Hewrapshisli
tt
learmsar
oundmeand
gi
vesmeakiss.

“Mama?”
“yesbaby?
.”
“Iwantkamo.
”Ismil
e.Hedonewi
thme.Iputhi
m
downandherunsawaytoo.
Igetupandwalktothekit
chenandsi
snont
ois
comingi
nfrom out
side.
“Ohl
uhsi
si.I
’
m sosor
ry.
”
Shepull
smet oherar msandIhughert i
ghttoo.
Tearssi
lent
lystream down.Ifeelahugbehindme
andsomeoneel setoojoins.Ir
ecognisethei
rscent
s.
It
’ssi
msandl esego.
Il
etallthet
earsI’
vebeenhol
ingbackandcry.They
comfortme,tel
lmeit’
sgoi
ngt obeokayandI
bel
ievethem.I’
vegotmytwosi st
erswit
hmeandI
knowt heywi
llbewit
hmet hr
ought hi
ckandthi
n.
“Thankyoual
lforbei
ngher
e.”
“wear
efamil
ysisi
.Wear
enotgoi
nganywher
e.”
Si
snont
osays.
Iwi
pemyt
ear
sandl
ookatt
hem.
“t
hankyouf
ort
aki
ngcar
eofmyki
ds.Thankyou.
”
“That’
swhatsi
ster
sdo.Bet
her
eforyoui
n
ever
yway.
”
“allt
hreeofyouarethebest.Si
snontoyouknow
thatIt
akeyouasmymot hersothankyoufor
helpi
nglesegowit
hallourki
ds.Idon’tknowwhat
wewoul dalldowi
thoutyou.
”
“That’
swhatmother’
sdo.
”Welaugh.“I
’
m goi
ngt
o
st
artprepar
ingl
unch.
”Shehugsmeagain.
“l
et’
sgot
oyourbedr
oom.
”Si
mssays.
“Where’
ssboni
so?
.”hewentout
sidet
ookaywi
th
theot
hers.
“Di
dtheygi
veyouanyt
roubl
e?.
”Iaskl
esego.
“Itwasonlywhenwegotacal lthatmbusowasi n
anaccidentwhenyouphonedandhear dthem
cryi
ng.Bongacameandl i
ghtt hesageforthem and
theysl
eptallt
hroughthenight.Sponsor
edhowever
i
snothi snormalJol
lysel
f.Ithinkhecansense
somethingiswrong.
”
“mypoorbaby.Di
dthehousecanewi
thf
urni
tur
e?.
”
“luckyforusthewasacoupl
ewhowant edaful
ly
furni
shedhousebutthent
heybackedoutoft
he
deal.That’
showwegotit.
”
Wegeti
nsidethemasterbedr
oom andit
’sbeaut
if
ul.
Si
msclosesthedoort
henwesi tonthebedandI
si
gh.
“Howisthepregnancyt
reat
ingyou?
.”IaskSi
ms
andshesmil
es.
“Ihaven’
texper
iencedanymor
ningsi
cknessandI
hopeitst
aysthatway.”
“Pleasedon’tl
etoursi
tuat
ionmakeyounotenj
oy
yourpregnancy.
”
“I
t’
shardluh.Mbusoi
sinI
CU.You’
rest
ressedand
myhusbandGod!.”
“it
’sgoi
ngtopassandallt
hiswi
llbeat
hingofthe
past.
”Idon’
twanthertoworr
yasmuchast hi
s
wholesit
uat
ionaf
fectsher
.
“yeah.
”
“howar
eyout
hough?
.Ser
iousl
yluh?
.”Lesegoasks
me.
“it
’shardguys.It
’sreal
lyhar
dandIthethoughtthat
mbusomi ghtdoet er
rif
iesme.Thedoct
orsaid
whenshet ouchedhisfeethi
stoesmovedsoi t
’sa
goodsignthatmaybemyhusbandmi ghtnotbe
paral
yzed.
”
“t
hat
’sr
eal
lygr
eatl
uh.
”Shesays.
“youknoweveni fhe’
sparal
yzed,loseshisleg,arm
eyeoranythi
ngguysmyl oveforhim willnever
change.Iwil
lal
wayslovehimthesame.He’ sthe
onlymanformeandIf orhim.Ijustwanthi mto
wakeupandcomebackt ous.That ’
sallIwant.”
“Andhewi
llsi
s.”
“Yourbrothercal
ledandt
olduswhathappenedi
n
thehospi
tal.
”
“guys!Youshoul
dhaveheardmbuso’ suncl e
accusi
ngmeofwant i
ngt
okillmbusof orhismoney
andconspir
ingwit
hmahsoIcanapol ogizeonher
behalf
.Hereal
lyhurtmyfeel
ings..”
“wher
edoeshegetof
fsayi
ngt
hat
?.”
“Iknowheishurt
,weallar
ebutt
hewayhewent
abouti
twasverywrong.
”
“Whatdi
dyouwantt
otal
kabout
?.”Lesegoasks.
Itel
lthem aboutt
hedream Ihadexcl
udi
ngabout
someonedyi ngandt
heyareshocked.
“Mygodl uh!
.”Si
ms.Says.“IwishIwastheret
o
seeyourdadpunchi
nghim!.”Theyl
augh.Ichuckl
e.
“youreall
ydon’tdeservethisluh.Youar eone
amazingpersonIhaveevermet .Yourhearti
spure
andyoualwayswantwhati sbestforeveryoneand
Iunderst
andwhyt heywoul dchooseyou.They
coul
dhavet ol
dmbuyi selo'ssisterorbothyour
motherin-
lawsbuttheydi dn’tcausetheyknewyou
aretheonlyonewhocandothis.Whateveryou
needfrom uscountusi
n.”mybrotherchosethe
besthere.
“Hewillcomebackandaskf
orfor
giveness.They
wil
lal
lcomebackandhearwhatyouhavet osay.
”
“Ihopesot
ooguys.
”Ther
e’sal
ightknockont
he
door
“comei n.“t
hedooropensandIseelit
tl
ehands
fi
rstandhisfr
owningfaceandIchuckl
e.Kamo
comesinwi t
hhim.
“heybaby?.”Hesmi l
esandmyhear tjustmel ts.He
runstothebedpickhim upandshowerhi sf ace
withki
ssesandfit
sofhi scheer
fulgiggl
esf i
llthe
room.Iti
ckl
ehim helaughssohar dandt r
iest oran
awayfrom meandIst op.Bothofthem havet heir
dadscharmingsmile.
“Wewi
lll
eaveyoutwoal
one.
”
“Comeandgi veaunt
yahug.”Kamogi vesmehug
thenki
ssesmycheek.“thankyoupr
incess.”She
l
aughs“Tellyourot
herbrot
hersIwi
llseethem
okay?Auntyi
stir
edandIjustwantt
onapal i
tt
le.
Pl
easebr
ingsbonel
otome?
.”
“okaunt
y.”t
heyl
eaveusal
one.
Il
ayont
hebedandl
ookatmysonwho’
slooki
ng.
“Ar
eyouokaybaby?
.”Henods.“youmi
ssdaddy?
.”
Henodsagai
n.
“Imisshimtoobaby.
”Iki
sshi
slit
tl
ehand.The
dooropensandSbonel
ocomesin.
“I’
llgett
hem whenyoufal
lasl
eepsi
sisotheywon’
t
dwakeyouup. ”Thenannysaysput
ti
ngsbonel
oon
thebed.
“youdon’thavet
oo.Imissedt
hem.I
’
llcal
lyoui
f
theyneedsomethi
ng.”
“Oksi
si.
”Shecl
osest
hedoor
.
Mysonsbot hlooksli
ketheirdadstwin.Idon’
t
knowhowt heyaregoingtor eactwhentheysee
busaniorbothoft hem att
hesamet ime.Theyar
e
bothlooki
ngatmewonder ingwhati supwi t
hmom.
Iki
sst hei
rforeheadsandpul lthem cl
osetome.
“Daddyl
ovesusandIknowhewillbebackt
oyou
andyouandmommy.Rightboys?
.”
“yes!
.”Theysay.
“doyouwantt onapwi thmommy? .”Theynod.
“youdaddyandIl oveyousover ymuch. ”They
smileandIgivesmecomf ort.Iwatchthem playi
ng
witheachotherunti
ltheyfallasleep.Icoveruswith
thethr
owblanketandl etsleeptakeme.
CHAPTER74

LUNGI
.

Ithoughtiwouldbewokenupwi t
hwetsmal lkisses,
l
itt
lehandswithallovermyf acebutno.Thebedi s
empt yandI’
mt heonlyonei nthebedroom.I
wonderwhendi dmyl it
tl
ehumansl ef
tthebed
becausewewer eal
lnapping.Isitupandmybody
feel
ssoheavy, l
ikeIshouldsleepforalongtime
andwakeupaf t
eraweekorso.Iam physi callyand
emot i
onal
lyti
red.Ineedar esetbutt
onfrom the
momentt hembiconfessedt hewholetrut
h.
Igetof
fthebedandgot
hebat
hroom.Ispl
ashmy
facewithcoldwatertowakemeup, Ilookatmysel f
i
nt hemi r
rorandilookli
kehel
l.Ihavedar kcircl
es
undermyeyesevent houghmyskinl ooksflushed.I
don'tknowwhattimei ti
sandialsodon' tknow
wher emyphonei s.
Icanhearvoi cesasIst epoutoft hebedroom.I t
soundsliketheadul tsarehereandIdon’ tknow
wherethebrot hersareandi ftheyar eher
et hen
who'swithmyhusbandormybr ot herandmbuso' s
brot
hersarewi t
hhi m?.Thecl oserIwal kin,the
moretheirvoicesgetcl earerandi t'
snoneot her
thanunclefanel ewho'sleadingt heconver sation.
Goshiwashopi ngIwi llnotseeorevent alktot hi
s
man.Theyar esi tt
inginthediningr oom t
ableandi t
l
ooksliketheyj usthaddi nner.Myf amil
yisher etoo
andsot hatmeansmydadanduncl efanelear e
okaynow, Wel lIhopetheyar e.
"Ohyou'
reawakesi
si.Howar
eyouf
eel
ing?
."
mbuso"
sbirt
hmom asks.
"Iam okayma.
"Il
ookar
oundandidon'
tsee
bonga'
smom.Isigh.
Maybei sshouldstopforci
ngt hem t
obeallinone
room causebyt helooksofthingsi
t'
snotgoi ngto
happen.Iquickl
ygot othekitchencauseIreall
y
don'
twantt otal
kaboutwhathappenedear lier.
Tomysur prisewhenigeti nthekitchenifindsims
andhermot herin-l
aw.It'
sjustthetwooft hem andi
am shockedcauseIneverexpect edi tandthat
makesmet hinkthateventhoughever yt
hingseems
dar
k,thereisal i
tt
leli
ghtcominginandmaybei t
's
goi
ngt ostartwiththesetwotalki
ng.
"Ihaven'
tseenyousmi
li
ngsinceigother
ebuther
e
youare.Ismbusoawake?.
"
"bathongsimsIwasnappi ng.You'
retheonewho
shouldbetell
ingmei fmyhusbandisawake."she
l
ooksdownsadl y."Iknowhe'
snotsisbutsoon
he'
sgoi ngt
owakeup. "
"Ihopesol
uh.Iwantmyson.
..
ImeanIwantmbuso
backhometoyou.
"
"ma,he'sst
il
lyoursontoor
egar
dlessofwhat
happened.
"Itakeherhandi
nmine.
She'
sal
waysgoi
ngt
obembuso'
smot
heri
nmy
eyesandmymot herin-
lawbecauset
hat'
showi
fi
rstknewhereandt osayshe'
snownotisvery
hard.Shehasalwaysbeengoodt omeandhave
beenamot heri
nmanyways.Iwi shwecoul
dallget
alongandlookpastwhathappenedbutiknowit'
s
notaseasyasithinkandwant .
"whatmademesmi lei
sseeingthetwoofyouher
e
toget
heranddr
inki
ngtea.
"theybotsmil
eagai
n.
"iwasapol ogi zi
ngt ouThandeki l
eforhowihave
tr
eati
ngheral lthi
st i
me.Ir ealisedthatiwast aking
outmyf earsoutonher .Icoul dseemysel finher
andthatscar edme.she' sf i
erceandshegoesaf ter
whatshewant sandsher emi ndsmeofwhoiwas.I
tr
eatedhert hatwaycauseIf eltli
keshecansee
ri
ghtthroughme, likeshecanseewhatiwashi ding
andthatterrif
iedmecauseiknewi fshefindsout
shewasgoi ngt otelleveryonebutst il
lthetruth
cameoutandimustsayAhugel oadt hathasbeen
weighingheavi lyinmyshoul dershasbeenl if
ted.I
knowever yonehat esmeandIam okaywi t
hit
becauseIdeser veit.IknowIshoul dbesl eeping
bett
erbecauseal lthesecr etsareoutbutIdon' t
.
Ilieawakeatni ghtandt hinkaboutal lt
heyear si
spentl yingt oever yoneIl ove.Ir uinedal lyourl i
ves
ever ydayispentwi thyounott ell
ingallofyout he
truth.Ir egretwhatidi dandiwi shIcoul dgoback
anddi dwhatmybr otheraskedmet odo.Gohome
wi t
ht hem.Feel thel ovet heygr ewar oundi n.Iwas
young, stupidandidi dn'tknowwhatl ovei s.The
fi
rstt i
meIexper i
encedwhatl ovei swaswhen
qwabet oldmehel ovedme.Iknowhet houghthe
wast ell
ingmysi sterbutt omeeachandever yday
hesai dt hatthosewor dsf eltl
iket heywer edi rect
ed
tomeandist artedbel ievingthat .Ihavesai dver y
hur t
fult hingstoyouandaccusedyouofmany
thingsandyouneverdeser vedt hat.Iam sosor ry
baby.Ir eall
yam. "
Shewipeshert
ear
s.Si
m'sholdsherhand.Isi
tnext
tohert
ooandshe'
sint
hemi ddl
e.Iputmyhandon
topoft
heir
s.
"IknowIdon'tdeser
veyourf
orgi
venessandthi
s
hereri
ghtnowwi t
hmyt wobeaut
if
uldaught
ersi
n-
l
aws.Idon'tdeser
vethi
scompassionyouare
feel
ingformeandshowingme.Itbri
ngsshameand
Ifeelli
keIshouldleaveallofyoual oneandgo
awayandneverseeyouagai n...
."shecrieswhen
shesayst helastpart
."..
.butIdon’tknowhowIwi l
l
dot hatwhenthelasttwoandhal fyearsawayf rom
allofyouwast hewor stti
meofmyl i
fe.Idon'
tthink
Icandoi tagainbutifthatwillbri
ngpeacei nthi
s
fami l
yandthatiswhatIwi lldo.It'
sgoingtohurtme
causeiwontbeher etohelpyouwhent hebaby
comes. "shewipessimst ears.
"Iwantt obeher ef oryoulikehowiwaswhenl uh
waspr egnantevent houghIdidn’tgettohol dmy
grandkidsandhel pherwi t
hthem andIwantt odo
thatwithyoubutIknowt hat'
snotpossi bl
eandI
haveaccept edthat .Simsyouar eagr eatmot her
andyouhaver aisedwonder f
ulkids.Ihaveseen
howyouar ewi t
ht hem andyoudoi ngagr eatj
ob.
Mysoni sblessedt onhaveyouandbegi venthis
secondchanceagai nbutifhemessesupagai n
l
eavehi m.He' snotwor t
hyourtearsandst r
ess.
"
"Thankyouma.Al
lieverwantedwasf oryouto
l
ovemeandacceptme.That’sallIeverwant
ed."
"Iwasver
ywr
ongaboutyousi
mphi
weandIhope
youwi llt
rul
yforgi
vemeandi fIam st
il
lal
iveyou
willal
lowmet obepartofallmygrandchi
ldren'
s
l
ives.Bothofyouandmaybezi phooneday. "gosh
hisgir
lfri
end.Ihadtot
all
yforgott
enaboutthat.
"Ma, Ihavel earnedmanyt hingsf r
om you.Ihave
wat chedhowyourki dsl oveandr espectyouand
theyst illdoevent houghtt heyar esti
llhurtand
disappoi ntedbutt othem ma.Youar ethis
wonder fulmot herandt hatisnevergoi ngt ochange.
Your ai sedt hreeamazi ngmenwhol ovehar dand
arever ypr otect i
veoft hoset heyl ove.Whatyoudi d
doesn' tsuddenl yreplaceal lthoseki sses,hugsand
l
aught eryoushower edt hem wi th.Ifyouwer ethis
wickedandevi lpersont hatwasgoi ngt oshowon
howyour aisedyourchi ldren.Yesyoudi dhurtus
verymuchbutyouwer eyoungandmadeami stake.
Youdi dn’ tthinkt hatthepastwi llcomeandhaunt
you.Hadyoumaybebeenr aisedwi thloveand
affection, maybeweal lwoul dn'tbeher e."
Itakeadeepbreathandreal
i
sethewhol
ehouse
hasgonesil
ent.Idon’
tknowift
heyar
eli
steni
ngto
usortheyhaveleft
.
"Youknowmai fmydad, meandmybr othercan
forgiveunclevi
ctorforeveryt
hingthenweal socan
forgiveyou.Ibeli
eveeverythi
nghappensf ora
reasoni nourli
ves.Lookathowwef oundever yone.
Someonewant edmedead, mbusoandhi sbr others
got hereandtheyrescuechi l
dren,gi
rl
sandwomen
notknowi ngthatoneoft hosegirl
swashi sni ece.
WhatI 'mtryi
ngtosayandIcoul dbewr ongandI 'm
notsayi ngwhatyoudi dwasr i
ghtbutmaybehad
younotdi dwhatyouhaddonet henmaybeweal l
woul dn'
tbeherewhoknows? ."
"Idon'
tknowl
uh.
"
"I
t'
sokaymabutwhatyoumustknowi
syoucan'
t
l
eave.Youar
est
il
lneededher
e."
"whatdi
dyouwantt
otal
kabout
?."sheasks.
"Allofyouhavet
oinoner
oom whenit
ellyoual
lof
thi
s."
"It
hinkever
yonei
sher
e,maybeyoucant
ellt
hem
now?."
"Wher
eislesegoandt
heki
ds?Yourhusbandt
oo
andt
heothers?.
"
"t
heyar
eatt
henextdoorhouse.
"
"ok.
"Iwi
nce.
"ar
eyouokay?
.si
msasks.
"yeahIam j
ustaheadachet
hat
’sal
l.
"
"Luh?
...
"
"I'
mf inema.Simscanyoupleasecallbongaand
tel
lthem t
ocomeher esoicantel
leveryonewhat'
s
goingon."shenods.
Mbusomom comesi nanandsi tsdown.Theybot
h
l
ookexactl
yali
ke.Theyareidenti
calt
wins.The
ki
tcheni
nstant
lygetfi
ll
edwithtensi
on.Icl
osemy
eyesandtakeadeepbreath.
"areyouokaysisi
?."whatIhavenoti
cedabout
busaniandhi
smom i sthattheybot
hhavean
accentwhentheyspeakenglish.
"I'
m okayma.
"shel
ooksatmel
ikeshedoesn'
t
bel
ieveme.
"Ihear
dyoual
ltal
king,
wel
lweal
ldi
d."shel
ooksat
hersi
ster
.
"Youhaveamazi ngchil
dren,grandchil
drenandtwo
beauti
fuldaught
ers.Thebondal lofyouhaveis
beauti
ful.
"ohkIdidn’
texpectthat.Sebenzi
lel
ooks
athershocked.
"wami
..
..
"
"seberightnowweneedt ofocusonget t
ingmbuso
backthenwewi l
ltal
kaboutever yt
hingelsebutnot
now."sebenodsgettingtear
y.SimsandIl ookat
eachotherandsmi l
e.Ifmymot herin-l
awf orgives
hissi
sterthenIt
hinkt hewholefamilycanf orgive
her.
"canimakeyousomet
eama?
."Iaskmbuso'
sbi
rt
h
mom.
"I
'
llmakeitl
uhsi
tdown.
"sebest
andsupand
makestea.
"Ihavemetbongaandzi pho.Theyareamazing
chi
ldrensebeandyoushouldbepr oud.Iwonder
whatmbusoi sli
kethough?.
"shesmi l
es.Idon'
t
knowhowmyf atheri
n-l
awisgoingtochoose
betweenthem andifhewil
lbecauseboththese
womanar ethesame.Theysmi l
ethesameandt hey
wayt
heyt
alki
fyoui
gnor
etheaccentf
orm mbuso'
s
mom.
"he'sgoingtobehappyt of
inal
lyseeyouand
busani.Mbusoisallaboutl
uh.That'
swhohei s."
theylaughandismi l
e.Shepourstheforallofus
andIt aket
heteaspoonandpourt hesugar.Ifeel
eyesonmeandIl ookup.Theyarewat chi
ngme.
"okwhat
'swr
ong?
."
"Luhyourhandi
sshaki
ng?What'
sgoi
ngon?
."sims
qui
etl
yasksmeandIignor
eherandst
irmyt
ear."
Luhtal
ktome?."
"I'
m st
ressedsimsthat'
sall.Noneedtoget
worri
ed."f
uckthispai
nagain.IhavetogobutI
havetotal
ktoeveryonefir
st.
"l
uh.
..
"
"hel
lofami l
y,wearehere."t
hat'sbongaandhe
soundslikeheisti
psy.Lesegoshakeshishead.
Theyleaveusandgot ot heli
vingroom.
"Theyweredr i
nki
ngwhi
leiwasbathi
ngtheki
ds.
Heysis.Il
eftyourf
oodi
nthemicrowave.
"Ismi
le.
"I
'
lleatl
aterI
'
m notreal
lyhungry.Youshoul
dhave
wokenmeupt ohelpyouwiththekids.
"
"Ineededthedist
ract
ion.Mysi st
erkeepscall
ing
wantingtocomeevent houghIhavet ol
dherthat
thi
sisabadt i
meGod! .
"shef r
ustrat
ed.Herfami l
y
l
ikesupsett
ingherandihat ei
t.Scel
omustdo
somet hi
ngcausehecan'tlett
hem keepupsetting
her.
Igetupandif eelal
it
tl
edizzyandl
uckyformeno
onenotices.Iwalkt
oherandembraceherfr
om t
he
back.Sheheavesadeepsi gh
"theyar
emi ssingoutonknowingthiswonderf
ul
personi
nfrontofus.I'
m bl
essedtohaveasi st
er
l
ikeyou,si
stersandmybr otherchosethebest
.
Everandiloveandappreci
ateyousis."
"youaregoi
ngtomakemecr yl
uh.I
'
m bl
essedto
beapartoft
hisf
amil
ythatil
ove.
"wehugeach
other
.
"thi
sisbeauti
ful
."mbuso'
smom saysandt
her
e's
year
ninginhervoice.
"wel
oveyout
ooma.
"it
ellherl
ooki
ngatherf
ace.
Shesmi
les."l
etsgot
othel
ivi
ngr
oom.
"theyf
oll
ow
me.
Theyareal
lsi
tt
ingdownwai
ti
ngt
ohearwhatIhave
tosay.
"Ihopeyouareallwi
ll
ingt
oherwhatihavet
osay
becausei
tisimport
anttoal
lofusher
eespeci
all
y
myhusband."Il
ookatunclefanel
ewhohasa
brui
seonhiseye.
"khul
umamfazikaMf
owet
hu.
"hel
ikessayi
ngt
hat
.
Isi
tdownonthechai
r.
"Ihadadr
eam.
..
."
"ohnkos!thatonedayyou'r
egoingt
obea
presi
dent
?."Thismanbathong!
.
"Malumemaybeyoushoul
dbeexcusei
fyouare
notwil
li
ngt
ohearwhatl
uhhast
osay."mabut
ho
says.
"okf
ineI'
l
lli
sten.goahead."Iir
eal
lyhatehowthi
s
mantal
kstome.di smi
ssivelyli
keI
'm nothi
ng.
"i
fyouwer en'
tmyuncl
eIswearIwoul dhave
punchedyouinthef
ace.Neverevert
alktoluhl
ike
t
hatagai
nmal
ume.
"bongasays.
"orwhat
?."
"mbusowil
lki
llyoubaba.Canyounotbeyour
nor
malsel
fforonce.Weknowt hi
ssideofyour
s
andweareusedtoitbutt
heydon’tsopl
easedon’
t.
"
mbuyi
sel
otell
shim.
"l
uhpleasecont
inue.
"sayst
hei
rsi
lentbr
other
mthunzi
.
"Idreamtaboutt
hisoldwomanwhohasamol eon
topofherl
eftsi
denosenost r
il
."t
heygetsi
lent
,
malumehasasur pri
sedlookonhisfaceandopens
hismouthtospeakgeezthisman.
"Malumepleasel
etmetal
k.Shesaidshe'
sgogo
nobel
unguandshewaswithumkhulu.Herhusband.
Baba..
..
"Il
ookatmyfat
herin-
law.
"yebondodakazi
."
"ugogotol
dthatforeveryt
hingt
obeokayyoumust
fi
xallt
hemistakesthathappen.
"
"whatmi
stakes?
."
"shesai
d..
..
"Ir
elayever
ydet
ailoft
hedr
eam wor
d
forwor
dbutagainIdon'
tsayanythi
ngabout
someonedyi
ngcauseitcoul
dbeanyoneofusher e.
WhenI’
m donethewholehouseiscompletel
ysi
lent
,
i
fapinhadtodropyouwouldli
teral
lyhearit
.
"wow,
areyousur
eshesai
dthat
?."mal
umeasks.
"that'
swhatshet oldme.Ifallofthi
sdoesn't
happent henwhathappenedt omymot her
'sand
mbusoandhi stwinbrot
herwi l
lhappentoourkids,
busani'
skidsandt hei
rkids.UBabamustt akeallmy
mot her
'sbusaniandourt winstotheri
versoitcan
endwher eitbeganandthenacl eansingceremony
willbedonebeforeubabagoest opayfor
damages. "
"Iwi
lldoit
.Sebe,
wamiiwouldliket
ot al
ktoyou
bot
halone."t
hesi
ster
slookateachother.
"shealsosaidsomeonewi
llcomeandhel
puswi
th
ever
ything.
"
"whoi
sgoi
ngt
ocome?
."bongaasks.
"Idon'
tknow.
"
"It
hinkiknow.
"sbusaysandl
ooksatmyf
atheri
n-
l
aw.
"i
t'
sgogoXul
u.She'
stheonewho'
sgoi
ngt
ocome.
"
"she'
ssti
llal
ive?
."mal
umeandmbuso'
smom ar
e
shocked.
"shei
s.She'
stheonewhohel
pedusal
ot.
"
"MyGodIcan'
tbel
i
evei
t.
"wamisays.
"so..
."mal
umeclearshisthroat
."
..
.whoareyou
goingtopayamalobol
of or
?."helooksatmyfat
her
i
n-l
aw,
"that'
snoneofyourbusi
nessfanel
e.Wenanjeyou
havetotellumal
umetogetreadyandexpect
vi
sitor
s."
"heisgoingtopaydamagesf orallhiskidsand
tr
adit
ional
lytheyar
eoneper sonsohemustpay
amalobolaforbot
hofthem and..
..t
aket hem bot
hif
ei
therofthem want.
"mydadexpl ains.ok.
"wi
llourbr
otherwakeupbef
oreoraf
ter
?."
"Idon'
tknowbusani
.Ithi
nkbefor
ecausehehast
o
bether
ewhenyougot other
iver.
"
"sowher
eisthi
swhol
ethi
nggoi
ngt
otakepl
ace?
."
mabut
hoasksme.
"malumetheywantyoutobuyt
helandbackandi
thi
nkever
ythi
ngmusttakepl
acether
ebutwewill
herefr
om gogoxul
uift
hati
sherwho'sgoi
ngto
hel
pus.
"t
hankyoumakoti
."malumesaysandIpolit
elynod.
mydizzi
nessi
sgett
ingworse.Ineedt
olaydown.
"uhm that
'sal
lIhadtosayandnowyouknow.
thankyouforl
ist
eningtome."Theynod.It
urnand
holdontothechairandtakeadeepbreat
h.Ifeel
someoneholdingmyhand.I t
'sbusani
.
"ar
eyouokay?
."heasksconcer
ned.
"yeahIam.Ij
ustneedt
olaydownt
hat
'sal
l.
"
"l
etmehel
pyou.
"
"I
’
mfi
nebusani
.Icanwal
k."
Hedoesn'
tli
stent
omecausehet
akesmet
othe
bedr
oom.
"Thankyou.I
'
llt
akeitfr
om her
eandpl
easetel
l
ever
yoneiwouldli
ketogetsomesl
eepandiwoul
d
appr
eci
atei
tifyoual
lcanl
etmegetsomesl
eep.
"
"okbutcal
lmei
fyouneedanyt
hing.
"
"Iwi l
l,t
hankyoubusani ."hel ooksatmehesi t
antl
y.
"Iwi l
lcallyou."henods.Icloset hedoorandlockit.
Itakeof fmycl othesandgeti nbedandsl eep
i
nst antl
y.Idream aboutther ainfal
li
ngdown
si
lently.Thekindofr ai
nthatdoesn’ thavethunder
orlightning.I
tjustpoursandIf alli
ntoadeep
sl
umber .
CHAPTER75.

MBUSO.

Mylif
ef l
ashesbef oremyeyesasIam l ayingther e
andhearingcoher entsoundsofpeopl escreami ng.I
can'
tdierightnow.Ican' tl
eavemywi f
eandki ds.
Peoplearearoundmeandt heytalki
ngfast.Ihave
togetup,Ihavet ocallluhandtellherI'
m sorry.I
shoul
dhavel istenedtoherwhenshet oldmet olet
i
tgo.She'sgoi ngtokillme.
IknowI ’
minthehospit
alandt
hedoctori
stalki
ng
aboutthem oper
ati
ngme.Whatiswrongwithme
becauseIdon’tf
eelanypai
ninmybody?.Ifeelcol
d
l
iqui
df l
owinginmybodyandIloseconsci
ousness.

Itr
yt oopenmyeyesbuti t'
sdark.I
'
m surrounded
bydar knessandIhavenoi deawher eIam.There'
s
apeekofl ightsomewherefarawaythatIcanmake
outint hatdarkness.Il
ookaroundtotryandmake
outwhatr oom thati
sandIspotsomeonei na
corner.

"whoar
eyou?
."Iaskt
hem.

Thethi
ngaboutbei
nginsideoroutsi
desomewher e
wheret
hereisnoli
ghtyoureyesautomati
cally
adj
ustunti
lyouabl
etoseet hi
ngsinthedark.The
per
sonstandsupandwal kstowar
dsme.I ti
sbi g
andver
yscary.f
uckme!.Am Iinhell
?Am ialready
dead?
!FuckNo!
.

"Iaskedyouwhot
hehel
lar
eyou?
."
Theper
sonst
opsj
ustaf
ewf
eetawayf
rom me.

"Iam yourpast
,consci
ousandeveryt
hingbadyou
haveeverdone.Thatri
ghtt
herei
syourfutur
e?.
"he
sayspoint
ingtowherethel
it
tl
eli
ghtispeeki
ng.

"what ?mypasthow? .
"thepersonwal
kscl
oserand
Ireal
iseit
'snotaper
sonbutashadow."youarea
fuckenshadow!.Am Ii
nhell?.
"

"whydoyouthi
nkyouarei
nhel
l?
.Haveyoudone
thi
ngst
hatcanmakeyouendupi
nhell
?."

"i
sthi
satri
ckquest
ion?wil
lmyanswerdet
ermi
ne
i
fIam l
eavi
ngthi
splace?
."
"Answerhonest
lyandyouj
ustmi
ghtl
eavet
his
place.
"

"okmypast .Ihavedonemanyt hingst hatcer

tai
nly
earnmeaVI Pt i
cketstr
aightt
ohel l.Ihavehur t
i
nnocentpeople,Ihavekill
edthosewhower e
deser
vingtodieandt hosewhomaybecoul dhave
hadasecondchancei nli
febutItookt hataway
fr
om them.IplayedGodwi ththeirlives."

"whatmadeyoubet
hej
udge,
jur
yandexecut
ioner
i
npeople'
sli
ves.
"
Ipacear
ound.

"Ideci
dedthatbecauseever
yonewhowrongedme
knewwhatwasgoi ngtohappen.Theywi
lldi
eandI
don'
tgivesecondchances.
"

"andwhataboutyou?.Whyshoul
dn'tyoudi
e?Why
doyoudeserveasecondchance?
."
"youar emypastbuthereyouar ejudgi
ngmeand
remindingmeofthethingsIhavedonewhy? .They
arehappenedandIcan'tundot hat
.Imademany
mistakesandIdoregretsomeoft hem butnotmost
ofthem.WhateverIdi
dt omef eltl
ikei
twast he
ri
ghtdecisi
ontome."

"Iam her
etoremindyouofwhatyouhavedone
andpossibl
ymakeyouawarethatshoul
dyoumake
thesamemi st
akesagai
nwhatwil
lhappent
oyou
andthoseyoulove.
"

"Ideser
veanot
herchancei
nli
fe.Il
ovemyfamil
y.
Mykidsarest
il
lyoungandIam t
heonlymanfor
l
uh.Nooneelse!
."
"ar
eyousur
eaboutt
hat
?."

"Iam sureaboutthat
!.Nomanwillt
akemyplacei
n
herheartandli
fe.Il
earnedf
rom mymist
akesand
t
hisl
astoneImadewiththatmot
herf
uckerthemba.
HadIl
ist
entoluhmaybeIwouldbeheret
alki
ngto
t
heshadowofmypast."

"comewi
thme?
."If
eel
mysel
fmovi
ng.

"wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngme?
."

"Iwantt
oshowyouwhati
sgoi
ngonnowasyour
l
ayingi
nthatbed.
"
Iseemysel
flayi
ngonthehospi
talbedandIdon'
t
l
ookli
keme.Ilookver
ybad.

"Ihaveseenmysel
fso?
."

"wat
chwhati
sgoi
ngon.
"

Thedooropensandl
uhcomesi
nandmyhear
t
breaksintopi eces.Icanfeelherdevast at
ionand
mostofal lherf ear.Shei
saf rai
dt hatIam goingto
dieandl eaveheral onewithourki ds.Iwatchheras
shecriesandt alkstome.Iwantt oengul fherinmy
armsandt ellherthatIam hereandnotdeadbutI
cant.AllIcandoi swatchhercr y.Tearsstream
downmyf ace.Ineverwant edtohur therli
kethis.I
t
wasnevermyi ntenti
on.
Shel
eavesandgoest
otheot
herr
oom andsl
eeps.

"CanIt
ouchher
?."

"noyoucan'
t.Youaresurroundedbydar
knessand
wecan'
ttai
ntherwit
hit.come."

Wear enowintherecepti
onwher emywholefamily
i
sgat her
edandluhiscryi
ngblami ngher
sel
ffrom
whathappenedtome.Mywi f
ethinksshehas
broughtmenothingbutbadluckswhichisnotthe
tr
uth.Shebroughtl
ight
,li
feandlovetomylif
e.
Bl
essi
ngsonl
yandhear
inghersayt
hati
sbr
eaki
ng
meinsi
de.

"Ican'
tkeepwat
chi
ngt
his.Ihavet
ogobackt
omy
famil
y."

"whi
chone?
."

"whatt
hehel
ldoyoumeanwhi
chone?
."

Everythi
ngbecomesdarkagainthenIseeluhagai
n
walkinginmyroom andshelooksworsethanthe
l
asttimeIsawher.GodIneedt owakeup!.

She'
ssleepi
ngnowanditseemsl
ikeshe'
shavi
nga
ni
ghtmarecauseshe'
scr
yingal
ot.

"Youcan’
tbenearherorevent
ouchher
.Ifyoudo
youwil
ldi
ethemomentshef
eel
sli
keyouar
enear
her
."

Thedoctorwit
hanur secomei nandt heyi
njectl
uh
wit
hsomet hi
ng.Sceloisreadytoki
llsomeoneand
bongaisshouti
ngatt hedoctor
.Iwatchheruntil
shefal
lsdeepinsleep.

"she'
sdreami
ngnowandshe'stal
kingt
osomeone
who'st
ryi
ngtosaveyourl
if
e."

"whoi
sit
?."

"idon’
tknow.
"

"am Ial
readydead?
."

"t
hef
ir
stt
imeyoudi
edwaswhenyouf
ound
your
sel
finthatdarkness.Thesecondti
mewas
whenyousawme, yourpast.Thethir
dti
mewas
whenItal
kedtoyou."

"what
?."

"yes.Ifithappensthef
ourt
hti
methenitwil
l
deter
mi neifyouaredyi
ngoryougetasecond
chancei nli
fe.
"I'
mfucked!
.
"howdoIgetanot
herchancet
oli
ve?
."

"i
t'
snotupt
ome.
"

"wat
ch.
"

Mybr otheriswalki
nginwithanotherper
sonwho
l
ooksj ustli
kemebuthe' salsonothi
ngli
kemetoo.
I
tismyt winbrot
her.TheywalkinandIwatchhi
m
watchingluhandi t
'sl
ikeI’
m seei
ngmyselfst
andi
ng
t
her
ewi
thmywi
fet
hewomanIl
ove.

Theyt al
kandl uhasksf
orhissupportt
omakesure
everyonelist
enstowhatshehastosay.Theytol
d
him nottouchherbuthesti
llt
ouchesmywife?
hmmm.

"Heisyourt
win.Youcan'
tbej
eal
ousofyour
br
other
."

"mybr other
sknowt hatnoonetouchesluh.Idon’
t
careifit
'si
nnocentornot.Hemightbemyt win
brotherbutIdon’
tknowhi m.Hecouldbewor seor
nothingli
keme."

"hmmm.
"

Thenextthi
ngisherbeggi
ngmetowakeupagain
causesheneedsmeandicanheari
tinhervoi
ce
thatsheisclosetolosingit.Shehol
dsmyhandand
cri
esal otandinoticethatitissomethi
ngsheis
doingwhenshei sal one.Shedoesn'twantanyone
toseehowt r
ulybrokenshei s.Shei
sput t
inga
strongfronti
nfrontofeveryonebutinsidesheis
breakingdown.

Wear eint herecepti

onar eanowandmywhol e
familyisfight
ing.Iam soshockedbecauseInever
thoughtthiswasevergoi ngtohappen.Luhi s
watchingt hem andshei sheart
broken.Howt hehel
l
doesever yonenotseet hatmywi feisnotokay?.
Howcant heynotseet hatsheisdr owningand
everythi
ngi splacedonhershoul ders?
.

She'swithourkidsri
ghtnowandshef al
lsasl
eep
andsbonelosleepstoobutmyl it
tl
emandoesn' t
.
Heknowssomet hingisnotr
ightcausehe's
watchingher.Luhcriesi
nhersleepandmyson
frownswhenheseesat earescaping.Hewipesher
tearthenpeckshercheek.hegetsof ft
hebedand
sbonel
owakesup.Heseeshimt
henf
oll
owshi
s
brot
her
.Theycl
osethedoor
.

"that
'
senoughnow.Ti
met
ogoback.
"mypast
says.

"No!
.Idon’
twantt
ogoback!
.Iwantt
ogot
omy
fami
lynow.Mywif
eneedsme!.
"

"Shedoesneedyoubutyouhavet
oseet
his."

Ifi
ndmyselfinourhouseinDurbanbuti
nsi
de
everyt
hinghaschanged.I
t'
snotthesamehouseI
knowandl i
vein.

"whathappenedher
e?.
"

"Shhhh.
"
Wewal ktot hekit
chenandl uhhasherbackst i
rri
ng
somet hingont hest ove.Mysonswal kinandt hey
l
ooksogr ownup, theyareteenagersnowandt hey
l
ooksomuchl i
keme.Ismi l
ebutIknowsomet hing
i
snotr ightaboutt hiswholesituati
on.Theyare
wearingt heirschoolunifor
m andt heyareaskf or
breakfast.Beforeshecananswerabeaut i
full
ittl
e
gir
lcomesi nlookingsomuchl ikeluhi
tisscary.
Shelooksl ikeshe6year soldmyGodmyl itt
legirl
!.

Shej oi
nsthem andsi t
sdownandt heluhturnsand
she'sheavil
ypregnantlookingbeaut i
fulbutvery
ti
red.Sheplatesforthem andaskswher e'stheir
dadisatcausehe' sgoingtobel ate.Thelittl
egirl
answersherandt ell
sherdaddyi scomi ngshesays
l
ookingbehindherl i
keshe'sseeingmeandIsmi l
e.
Howevert hepersonwal ksinfr
om anot herdirecti
on
andIalmostf ai
ntcauset hatpersoni snotme.I ti
s
myt winbrother
.Hewal ksupt oluhandgi veshera
ki
ssont helipsthenher ubsherst omach.NO!NO!
NO!HELLFUCKENNO! .
Theli
tt
legi
rll
ooksbehi
ndheragainandoureyes
l
ock.Shesmil
esandmout hsIloveyoudaddy.Igo
toherandt
rytotouchherbutI
’mr oughlypul
led
awayandshovedintot
hedarknesshar d.

"whydidyoushowmet
hat
!,whydi
dyoust
opme
fr
om t
ouchingher
!.
"

"Thatwast hefut
ure.Youdi
ed!.Youarenolonger
partofthei
rli
vesandasyoucanseeyourbr other
steppedinforyouandtookcareofyourf
ami l
y."my
shadowsaysandIscr eam,yel
l,cur
seandfalldown
onmykneesandcr ysoloudandhard.

"NO!NO!NO! .Ican'tdie!Iwon'tdie.I'
m get
ti
ngthe
fuckoutofhere!.I
fIam r eal
lydeadIsweart oGod
nomanwi llevertouchmywi fe.Iwillmakesureno
manevenl aysaf i
ngert oher.That'showmuchI
l
oveher.She'smyf uckensoulmat eandnoone.I
meannoonewi
llt
akemypl
acei
nherevenmyt
win
br
other
!."

"ar
eleavi
ngyoul
eavi
ngbecauseyousawwhati
s
goi
ngtohappeni
nthefut
ure?
."

"Iam leavi ngbecauseIam donewi ththepast.Al

l
thebul l
shitIdi d,Iwasdoi ngi
tbecauseIwas
protecti
ngt heonesIl oveandhonestlyIwoulddo
anythingt opr otectthem nodyesIcouldhave
changedmyappr oachandsomeoft hedecisi
ons
butIcan' tundot hem now.Icanonlytrytobemore
ofadeser vinghusbandt omywifeandagr eat
fathertomyki ds.Youar emypastandyoust ay
therebecauset hat'swhereyoubelongandyou
havenot hingnewt oshowmebutonl yremi
ndme
ofmymi st akes.Iam l eavi
ngyoubehindbecause
that'
swher eyoubel ong."

"haveyouforgiveneveryonet
hatwrongedyouand
askedforf
orgivenesstotheone'
syouwr onged?
."
"Iam sor rytoeveryoneIhavewr ongedandIhope
theywi l
lforgivemewher evertheyar e.If
orgi
ve
everyonewhohaswr ongedmet ooandIhopei n
futureIwillthinkcar
eful
lybeforeImakeany
decisions."

"Doyoumeanwhatyousay?
."

"Shadowplease!l
etmegot omyf ami
ly.Mywif
e
needsme!.Ineedherplease!.WhywasIevenwith
youcauseIsawnot hi
ngf r
om mypast.Onlywhatis
goingonri
ghtnow,why? .
”

"Becauseyouhadt oseethati
fyoudon'
tchange
yourwaysyouwil
lloseyourfamil
yfor
ever
.”

"Iam sor
ry.
"
"Whatdoyou.
..
..
."

Ifeelmybodybei nglift
edupandt hrownupandt he
l
ightblindsmyeyes.I ti
stoobri
ghtIcl osemyeyes
andt henopenthem again.Iam atthehospitalst
il
l
i
nbed.Ir ememberthehorri
fi
cdr eam Ihad.Ihave
towakeupandf indluhbutIdon'tknowwher eshe
i
s.Whydi dtheshadowsayI '
m sorry?.

Ili
ftoffmyarm andremovetheoxygenmaskof f.I
thentakeoutt
hedr i
poffmyhandandIf eelbet
ter.
Tryingtosi
tupisastrugglebutImanageeven
thoughmybodyi sinpain.Machinesstar
tgoingoff
andonandpeopl ecomer unninginsi
de.

"MrGumedeyouareawakeandbreat
hingonyour
own?
."i
t'
sthedoct
orIr
ecogni
sehervoice.

"I
smyf
ami
lyi
nther
e?.
"
"Mrgumedepl easestayi
nbed.Wehavetorun
testsandseeifyoucanwalkandever
ythi
ngel
se
sir?
."whatthehelli
ssheonabout
?.

Thedooropensandfr
ankcomesi nlooki
ngscared
thenshockedt
osurpr
ised.Hecover
shisfaceand
thenwalkstomeandgivesmeat i
ghthugthat
hurt
smychestbutIdon'ttel
lhi
mthat.

"Don'
teverdot
hist
omeagai
nman.I
'
mtoool
dfor
thi
sshi
t.
"

"Iknowbr
otherIknow.Takemet
omywi
fe.
"

"MrGumedesi
rpl
ease!
."
Iri
poutal
lthemoni
tor
sonmychestandgetof
fthe
bed.

"Youcanst
and?
...
."
"getmesomecl
othes."
f
rankleavest
hencomesbackwi
thabagwi
thi
n
minut
es.

"l
eaveIwantt
ochange.
"

"si
rpl
ease!
."

"doct
oryou'
rej
ustwast
ingyourbr
eat
h."

"si
rIwil
lleaveonlyonthecondi
ti
ont
hatf
ir
stthi
ng
i
nt hemorningyouwil
lbeheresowecanexamine
you."

"sure,
leave.Fr
ankstay.
"theyl
eaveandfr
ankhelps
meputmycl ot
heson.Hehasseenmei nworse
si
tuati
onsthanthi
sone.
"t
akemet
oluhf
ranknowpl
ease.
"

"what
'swr
ong?
."

"Idon'
tknowbutsomet
hingi
snotr
ight
."

Hehel psmeandwewal koutofthehospit

alaft
eri
signt hepapersthatIdischargedmyself.Wegetin
thecarandf r
ankdriveslikeacrazyman.Iignore
thepai ninmybodybecausei ti
snothi
ngcompar ed
tot hepainthatkeepshittingmyheart.Godwhatis
wr ongwi t
hmywi f
e?.LuhI '
m comingbaby.I
'm
comi ng.
Thedr i
vefeel
sli
keiti
st aki
ngforever.Il
ookatt he
ti
meandi tisaft
ermidnight
.Hef inal
lygetsinthis
neighbour
hoodanddr i
vesforaf ewmi nutesthen
call
shiswomant oopent hegateandwedr i
vei n
andIgetof ft
hecarbeforeheevenpar ksthecar .
Iwalkthr
oughthedoorandi
tlooksl
ikeever
yoneis
hereandtheydon'
tseeme.Il
ookaroundbutIdon’
t
seeluh.

"OHMYGODMBUSO! .
"it
'sl
uh'
sauntwhoseesme,
thehousegetssi
lentandmorepeoplecomeoutof
theki
tchenandluhisnotoneofthem.Iwal
kin.

"wher
eisl
uh?
."Iaskt
hem.

"Sonhow?whendi
dyouwakeup?
!."t
hat
'smydad.

"she'
ssl
eepi
ng,
mbuso?
."

"showme.
"

Hetur
nsandIfol
lowhim.Myheartget
sf i
ll
edwi
th
somuchdreadandfeari
tal
mostcri
pplesme.He
stopsoutsi
dethisdoorandIgrabt
hehandle,t
akea
deepbreathbeforeIturnt
hehandl
eanditdoesn’
t
move.Thedoori slockedandnowIknow
somethingisr
eallywrong.

"gi
vemeyourkni
fe.
"het akesouthispocketkni
fe
andIpi
ckthel
ockunti
litcli
cksopen.Itur
nand
l
ookathim.

"Idon’
twantanyonecominghereunt
ilmysel
for
Luhcomesoutorunlesssomethi
ngiswrongwit
h
theki
ds.Noonebonga."

"what
'sgoi
ngonbr
other
?."

"pr
omi
seme?
."

"Ipr
omi
se.
"
Igetinandl ockt hedoort henswi tchthel ightson
andsayal i
tt
lepr ayer.Iturnandshe’ snotont he
bed.Iwalkt othebat hroom andIhearwat er
runni
ngi nthere.Shemustbeshower ingandIopen
thebathroom doorandIcanhearhercr yingsilent
ly.
Myeyesi mmedi atelygetf i
ll
edwi tht
ear s.Iopent he
doorwiderandshel ooksupal armedandshe’ sin
thebath.Whensheseesi tismeandnotanyone
elseandshecl oseshereyesandwai ls.Icl osethe
door,walkincloserandshei snakedi nt hebat h
andthere’sbloodbet weenhert highsanddownher
l
egs.Ihol dtheedgeoft hebat htubandgetonmy
kneesandIl etmyyear sf al
l.

Iknowit’
snothermont hlyperi
odbecauseshe
hasn’
thethoseinyears.Iknowshehadani mpl ant
plant
edohherarm soshewon’ tf
allpregnantandI
wasokaywi t
hthatbecauseourki dsarest il
lyoung
andshehasbeent hr
oughal ot
.Rightnowshe’ s
l
oosingourbabyorshehasal r
eadylostit.Ilean
overthebat
handembr acemywi feandal lowhert o
l
etoutallt
hepainsheisf eel
ing.Myt earsalsofall
andIcrywit
hher.Webothmournforourchi
ldwe
l
ostthatwedidn’
tknowwewereexpecti
ng.

“wemust….
got
othe….
.hospi
tall
ove.”Isay
whi
mperi
ng

“It
’st
oolat
embuso.It
ri
edtohol
donbutIj
ust
had…..I
twas….Oneshar
ppainand…”

“shhhhhi
t’
sokayl
ove.I
t’
sokaybaby.Iam sor
ry.I
am sosor
ry.
”

“Idi
dn’
tknowPhakathwayoIswear ….Idi
dn’
tknow
Iwaspr
egnant.”shewai l
ssohardholdi
ngti
ghtto
meandIpullheroutofthetub,si
twit
hheronmy
l
apandholdherli
keal i
tt
lebaby.

“Doyouwantmet ocal
lthewomeni
nthehouse?
.”
Sheshakesherheadr
oughly.
“don’
t!
..
..I
….Don’
twantanyonet
oknow.Notnow.
”

“okbabybutyouneedtogot othehospi
talandget
cl
eaned.Canweatleastt
ellourpar
entst
hen? .”she
l
ooksatme.

“notnowmbusoplease!
.Okbabyok.Ar
eyoui
n
pai
n?WhatmustIdonow? .
”

“RunmeabathandifyoucangetmeI
bupr
ofen.
Whydi
dyouleavet
hehospit
al?
.”

“WhenIwokeupIknewsomet hi
ngwaswrongwi
th
youbutIdi
dn’
tknowwhatso.Idi
schar
gedmysel
f
andlef
twit
hFrank.
”

“Thankyouf
orbei
ngher
e.”
“IwishIwoul
dhavecomesooner
.”Isay
regr
ett
abl
y.

“i
twasmeantt
obe.”

“Nobabydon’
tsaythat
.Youdi
dn’thavetogo
thr
ought
hatatal
l.Youdi
dn’
tdeservei
t.
”

“Iwi
llexpl
ainl
atermbuso.Iwi
llneedapadthough
andwe’l
lgotothehospi
tali
nthemor ni
ng.
”

“okl ove.Canyoust andup? .

”Shenods.“please
hel
pmegetup.Shest andsandsomeoft heblood
i
sst i
llfl
owi ngdownherl egs.Igetonmyknees
wrapmyar msaroundherwai standpl
antkisseson
herst omach.Sheki ssesthetopofmybandaged
head.I t
’sastruggl
et ogetupbutIeventual
lydo.I
pullherf aceandgiveheraki ss.
“Yourpant
sar
ebl
oody.”shesays.

“Iloveyoul
uh.Il
oveyoumor
ethanyou’
l
lever
know.”

“Iwasscaredbaby.Ithoughtyouwer
egoi
ngtodie
andleavemeandt hekidsit
…”whenshesaysthat
Irememberthedream Ihad.

Wasthatourdaught
erthattol
dmeshel ovesme? .
Wasshesayinggoodbyestome? .Doesitmeanluh
wascarryi
ngababythatlookedexact
lyl
ikeher.
Godwhydi di
thavetohappentothiswonderl
and
woman.Wheni sshegoingtogetabreakandjust
behappy?.

“Iwouldgiveanythi
ngint hi
sworldt
ot akeaway
thepai
nyouar efeeli
ngrightnow.Ij
ustwantyouto
behappylungil
e.Ithurt
st oseeyoucryi
ngevery
ti
meneveroft het
hingsthataredonetoyou.Iwish
Godandourancestorswi l
lforonceall
owust obe
happy.Justoncebabythat’
sallIwishforus.
”

Ihol
dherti
ghterandtighterbecauseIdon’
twantt
o
l
ethergobutIdo.Ifi
llthetubwi t
hwaterandhel
p
hergeti
n.

“Wher
e’syourphone?
.”

“Idon’
tknowwher eiti
s.Ithi
nkIl
osti
tinthe
hospi
talI
’m notsur
ebutyoursisi
nthebedroom.
Whoar eyougoingtocall
ing?
.”

“Fr
ankl
ovet
ogetyousomesani
tar
ytowel
s.”

“Hemi
ghtf
indt
hem att
hegar
age.
”
Igotothebedr
oom andnowhatIlookcl
oserIsee
thatt
here’
sbl
oodonthesheet
s.Thepainmust
havewokenherup.

Il
ookar
oundandseemyphoneont
hecof
feet
abl
e.
It
akei
tandcal
lFr
ank.

“ar
eyouokay?
.”

“I’
mf ine.Li
stenmancanyougetmesomesani t
ary
towelsatthegarageforheavybl
eedi
ng.Makesure
nooneseesyouwhenyoucomeback.The
bedroom wear eini
sthelastoneonthelef
tsi
deof
thehouse.Knockont hewindowandbringsome
i
bupr ofen.
”

“Gwhat’
sgoi
ngon?
.”hehasn’
tcal
ledmet
hati
n
year
s.

“Luhhadami
scar
ri
age.”hesi
ghsdeepl
y.
“Iam sor
rymanyouknowI’
vegotyou.
”Hehangs
up.Whatheal
someansisIwon’
ttel
lanyone.

Iputthephonedownandr emoveallthebedding
andtherearenobloodstai
nsinthebed.Icoverthe
sheetwit
htheduvetandoutitinthecorner
somewhere.Iwil
lburnit
.

Iopenthechestdrawerandlookthroughi
tandfi
nd
thebeddi
ng.Icoverthebedwi t
hsheetsandaduvet
ontop.Ther
e’sali
ghttapont hewindowandIopen
i
t.Hegivesmeabi gplast
icandIfrown.

“Iknowyout woaregoingtol
ockyourselvesinand
soIbroughtsomesnacksandotherthings.Ifound
a24hourshopt hathasthi
ngsshewillneed.”

“t
hanksbr
other
.Iappr
eci
atei
t.
”
“gi
vel
uhmyl oveandcal
lmewhenyouneed
somet
hing.
”

“wearegoi
ngtot
hehospi
tali
nthemor
ning.I
’
llcal
l
yout
otakeus.
”

“okG.Best r
ong.”HeleavesandIclosethewi ndow.
Itakeof
fmycl ot
hestakethepil
lsinthebag,then
walktothebathr
oom andshe’sstil
lcryi
ng.Itake
thecupthati
sont hebase,ri
nseitandfulli
twater.

“dri
nkthi
slove.”shetakest
hepi
ll
sanddr i
nks
them.It
hegeti nbehi
ndherandpullhert
ome.

“Ther
e’sbl
oodi
nthewat
er.
”

“Iknowbaby.
”
West ayli
kethati
nthewaterunt
ili
tget
scoldthen
west epoutandIdryherupandmyself
.Iwalkher
tothebedroom andtakeoutt
hethi
ngsfrank
brought.
Hebroughtpyj
amas,under
wearandmanysani
tary
towel
s.Ihel
pherweartheunder
wear
,shet
akesthe
padandputitonherpant
yandwearsit
.

“I
sitther
ightsize?
.”Shenods.Ihelpheragai
n
wit
hherpyjamasandt uckherinbed.“I
’l
lbeback
assoonasI’m donecleani
ngthebath.

“Okay.”Ilookathert hengocl eanthebat hroom.I

scrubeverywhere, wher et hereisbloodt hr oughmy
tearst
hatwon’ tstopf all
ing.WhenIam doneIgeti n
andshowerqui cklyt henl eave.Iwal kt othe
bedroom andshe’ ssl eepingnow.Isi tnextt oher
andwat chhersleepi nginaf oetusposi ti
on.Igetin
bedandr ollheront opofme.Mybodymi ghtbei n
painbutit
’snothingt ohowshe’ sfeelingrightnow.
CHAPTER76.
MBUSO.

Ididn'
tsleepatal llastnighteventhoughmybody
wasi npainandbeggi ngmet ojustl
etitr estbutI
couldn'
t.Iheldmywi f
eandwat chedheral lnight.I
don'tunderstandhowl i
fecanbesocr uelt oher.
Thiswonder fulpersonwhoal wayswant swhati s
bestforeveryoneshel oves.Canshej ustenj oyher
l
ifeandf amil
y? .Ijusthopet hi
swasonel astthing
wehadt ogot hroughbecauseIdon' tt
hi nkshei s
goingtobeabl etohandl esomet hi
ngel set hatwill
breakherhear t.

Shecr i
edagaininhersl eepandI '
m wor r
iedthat
maybeshe' snevergoingt obethesameagai n.I
knowshecant al
ktomebutbowsher eallyneedsa
professi
onalwhowi llal
sohel pandIalso
understandwhyshedoesn' twanteveryonet oknow.
Theyar egoingtofeelpityforherandthatmi ght
justmaket hi
ngshardf orher.Shewilltel
lthem
whenshei
sreadyandwhenwehavedeal
twi
thi
t.

Iam devastatedthatwel ostourbabywedidn't

knowshewascar ryi
ng.HadIhaveknownI
wouldn'thavedoneanyt hingthatwil
lputmyl i
fei
n
danger.Ihopeshecanf orgi
vemef orthepai
nIput
herthr
ought hesel astf
ewdays.Isof t
lymoveher
headonmyar m andplaceitsoft
lyonthepil
low.

Igotot hebat hroom andf i

llthetubwi t
hwat erand
nothi
ngel se.Idon'tthi
nki t
sawi seideat oput
somebat hsaltsinthere.Ist andther
eandwat ch
thewat erri
singandt heonl yt hi
ngIcanseei s
watchinghert herealone,cr yingandlosingour
chil
d.Ihavet odosomet hingaboutt his.

Icl
osethefaucetandgobackt
ot hebedroom andI
fi
ndhersit
ti
ngup.kneesonherchest,headburi
ed
onherkneesandherarmsarewrappedar oundher
kneesandshe’sgrabbi
ngt
hem t
ight.
"l
ove?.
"shel
ooksupst
art
led.Shedoesn'
tlook
good.

"You'
rer
eal
lyher
e?.
"Isi
tnextt
oheront
hebed.

"Iam l
ove.Icanneverbeanywher
eel
seot
hert
han
herewi
thyou."

"It
houghtIwasdreami
ngyouknow.
..
.t
hatIwasn'
t
l
osi
ngourbaby."

"Iwi
shIwouldhavearri
vedsooner
..
..
maybewe
woul
dn’
thavelostourbaby.Comehere.
"

"You'
rehur
tandl
impi
ng.
”

"That
'
snot
hing.
"
"l
etmegochanget
hepad."

"Ir
anabat
hforyou.
"

"l
etmegot
akeabat
hthen.
"

"Thewatercanwait.Iwanttoholdmywi f
enow."
Shegetsupandwr apshelegsar oundmywai st
andwehol deachothert
ightincomf or
tabl
esil
ence.
Ial
mostdiedandlostthi
sf eel
ingofherinmyar ms
andherlove.

"Youar
emywor
ld,
myever
ythi
ng.
"Iki
ssherhai
r.

"Whatwoul
dyoudowi
thoutme?
."

"Thedayyougotki
dnappedandal
mostdi
edIknew
Icanneverl
iveint
hisworl
dwi
thoutyou.I
'
llf
oll
ow
youanywhereluheveni
ndeat
h."

"Ibel
ieveyou.
"shesays."CanIgobat
hnow?
."

"yeah,
wehavet
ogot
othehospi
tal
."

"baby?
."

"yeslove?.
"shekeepsqui
etforawhil
e."canwe
nottel
lever
yonewhathappened.Idon'
twantthem
l
ookingatmewi t
hsympathyinthei
reyesfeel
ing
sorr
yforme. "

"onlyfr
ankknowsandweknowhe' snotgoingto
tel
lanyone.Wewil
ltel
lthem whenyouhaveheal
ed
andreadytotal
kaboutit.
"
"Thankyoubaby."Shegi
vesmeaki
ssandgoest
o
thebat
hroom.Igetupandmaket
hebed.

Ihearsomet hingfall
ingorbeingpl acedont hefloor
.
Iwalktoit,
unl ockitandt henopeni t.Iseeabagon
thefl
oor,Itakeitandcl osethedoor .Iputitont he
bed,openitandl ooki nsi
deandi t
'sourcl othes.I
putthem ont hebedt hengot othebat hroom.Luhi s
doneandshe' sdr yi
ngher sel
f.Ist
andbehi ndher
andlookathert hrought hemi r
ror
.

"Str
essisnotgoodf
oryoul
ove.Ihat
ewhati
tdoes
toyou.
"

"We'
l
lbef
inebaby.Al
loft
hiswi
llpass.
"

"t
here'
sabagwithourclot
hesonthebed.
Someonel
efti
toutsi
dethedoorf
orus."
"Maybel
umkabr oughtt
hebagsi
ncewel
efti
tat
mbuyi
sel
o'spl
ace."

"howi
smabut
ho?
."

"he'
sokay.Youar
et heonlyonethatgothurt
."her
eyesgetf
il
ledwi
thtears.Sothembaissti
llal
ive.

"I'
m notgoi
ngt okil
lhi
m butyouhavet oknowthat
befor
etheaccidenthesaidhe'
sgoi ngtogotothe
poli
ceandtel
lthem abouteveryli
tt
leshadythi
ngI
haveeverdone."shetur
nsandl ooksatme.

"sot
hatmeansi
fwelethim goanddonothi
ngto
hi
mthatmeanshe'
ssti
llgoi
ngtogotothepoli
ce?
."

"hewi
lll
ove.
"
"sowhatdoyouwantt
odo?
."

"Il
earnedmylessonl
ovetryi
ngtodothi
ngsmy
wayandlookwhathappened.Idon'
twantanyone
el
se'
sbloodonmyhands.Maybeishoul dl
etitgo
andseeifhewil
lgotothepol
iceornot
."

"that
'
snotgoi ngtohappen.Wewi
llf
indawayto
shuthim up.Therei
snowaywearegoingtol
ethim
tal
ktothepolice.
"
"shoul
dIbescar
ed?
."

"nobaby.Areyougoi
ngt
olett
heki
dsseeyouwi
th
thebandage?
."

"Thatwil
lscaret
hem andI'm notsur
eift
heyhave
seenmybr ot
herandhowt heyhavereact
edtohim.
Theymightthi
nkhei sme.Ihavetohavethi
s
bandageremoved."
Shegoestothebedr
oom thencomesbackwi
thher
cl
othesandIwatchherweari
ngthem.

"Ithi
nksotoobabybutt
heyar
egoi
ngt
obever
y
happytoseeyou.
"

"Imi
ssmyboyst
oo.
"

"baby?
."

"Luhdon'
tdot
hist
oyour
sel
fbabypl
ease.
"

"butyoudon'
tknowwhatIwantt
osay.
"

"webothknow.Don'
tstr
essyour
selfaboutthe
genderoft
hebabywelost.Wewil
lhavemanymor e
l
it
tlegumede'
srunni
ngaroundwhenyouar eready"
"youmeant
hat
?."

"onl
yifyousti
llwantust
ohavemor
ekids.I
fnotI
wil
laskyoutogivemeonemoreonl
y."

"what
everki
dsGodandourancestor
sblessus
wit
hwewi l
lhavet
hem babybutcanweagreet
hat
wewil
lhaveonlyf
ourkidsonl
y?.
"

"r
eal
ly?
."shesmi
les.

"r
eal
lybaby.Thi
sfami
lyneedsmorewomencause
i
tisf
ullofmenandwecan'tl
etyououtnumberus.
"

Whywouldli
fewanttohur
tmybeaut i
fulki
nd
hear
tedwi
fe?.Thi
sisnotf
airatal
l.
"I'
m goi
ngtoshowerlove.Areyougoi
ngt
ogot
o
theki
tchenandhavebreakfast
?."
"IwanttoseeourkidsbutI'
m notr
eadytosee
anyoneelse.Canweleavebefor
eanyoneseesus?
."
shelookawayf r
om me.

"Eveniftheydo, I
'
lltel
lthem wehavetobe
somewher e.
"Ilookathert henigeti
ntheshower.I
knowmywi f
eishur tandhernotwant i
ngtosee
anyoneisjusti
fi
ablebutIknowherandIknowshe' s
avoi
dingsomeone.

Doesshenotgetal ongwi thmybi rthmot heror

she’scaughtbetweent hetwooft hem andmaybe
theyaremakingt hi
ngsdi f
fi
cultf
orher ?.Iwould
hateforthatt
ohappenbecauseIt hi
nkmyf amil
y
knowst hatIwil
lalwayschoosel uhaboveanyone
else.I
tdoesn'tmatterwhoi ti
s.

Ist
epoutoftheshowerandshe'
swai
tingf
orme.
Shelookssolost
.Shet
akesthet
owelanddri
esme
andwhenshedoneshemoi
stur
izesme.

"Yourbodyhasmanybr uises,cutsand..
..
."she
standsandlooksatme."Iwasscar edt
hatyou
werenevergoingtowalkbecauset hedoctorsai
d
yourthebonesprotect
ingyourspi nalmovement
hadshift
edorsomet hi
ngbuther eyouare.Standi
ng
herenexttomeandIst il
lcan'tbeli
eveit
."Mygod! .

"t
heysai
dthat
?."

"theydidloveandIwasscar edbutIt
oldmysel f
thati
tdoesn'tmatt
erifyoucan'twal
k,l
oseyourar m
oreyeasl ongasyouar eal
iveherewit
hmeandour
chil
dren.That'
sal
lthatmatterstome.Iloveyouin
allwaysthatyouare.Youaremyoneandonl y.No
oneelsebutyou."
Ipal
m hercheek.Icansel
l mysoulf
orher
.Tobe
wit
hhereverydayofmyl i
fe.
"Youdoknowt hatmyloveforyouhascrossedthe
l
ineofpossessi
venessandothert
hings.Il
iveand
breat
hyou."

"Iam obsessedwi
thyout
oobaby.Imaynotshow
i
tthewayyoudobutIam."Ismil
e.

Shehelpsmeputmyclot
hesonandshoesandIt
ry
tonotshowherhowi
npainIam.

"let
sgosoyoucanal
sobechecked.I
sfr
ankgoi
ng
totakeus?
."

"yesl
ove.
"

"whati
ftheygeti
nwhenwear
enother
eandt
hey
seet
hesheetswhere.
..
..
"
"l
ove?."shel
ooksatme."canIatl
eastt
ellmy
mom, shewouldknowwhattodocauseIdon'
t
wantust odoanyt
hingwr
ongandweknowshe' s
al
sogoodatkeepingsecr
etes.
"

"j
ustmakeherpromiset
hatshewon'
ttel
lanyone.I
al
sohavetot
ellyousomethi
ng.
"

"babyyouknowt
hatwhathappenedi
sn'
tyourf
aul
t
ri
ght?
."

"mbuso.
..
..
"

"Idon'
twantyout
ofeel
shamel
ove.
"

"Idon'
t.Let
'sgosi
tont
hebedsoIcanexpl
aint
o
you.
"
Shet akesmyhandandl eadsmet othebedroom.
Wesi tandshebegi nst otel
lmeever yt
hingabout
thedr eam shehadwi thmygr eatgrandmother.She
tell
smet hatIhaveanuncl eandthatmbuyiselo,
mabut hoandmt hunziaremycousi ns.Lumkaismy
nieceandhermot herismycousi ntoo.

"di
dyout
ellt
hewhol
efami
ly?
."

"It
oldt
hem yest
erday.
"huh?
.

"youhadthedream t
hesamenightiwasadmit
ted
butyouwai
tedbefor
eyoutol
dthem why?.
"she
l
ooksaway.now"whatareyouhidi
ngfrom me?
."

"I
tdoesn'
tmatterl
ove.Theynowknowandt
hat
's
al
lthatmat
ter
s."
"l
ove?
,"
"nobabyl
etitgo."i
t'
seit
hershe'
sscaredoft
he
per
sonorshe'sscaredwhatIwil
ldo.

"okfi
ne.Whatdiddadsayanddi
dthetwins
agr
ee?."herl
ipcur
vesi
ntoasmil
e.That
’swhatI
wanttosee.

"thosear
eyourmomsbabyanddadagr
eedand
askedtotal
ktoyourmoms.
"

"ar
emymomst
alki
ngt
hough,
toeachot
her
?."

"theyareevent houghthere'stensi
onbetween
them.Wewi llseehowt hingsgobutIj usthat
eto
seethatshe'
sbei ngexcluded.Idon'tl
ikethat
phakathwayo."Inod.IthurtstohearthatandI
understandbutstil
l.Thi
swhol et hi
ngsucks.

Icanseet
hatshe'
str
yingt
ofi
ghtt
het
ear
sthatar
e
t
hreat
eni
ngt
ofal
lbutt
heyst
il
ldo.Isoot
hherback.

"tal
ktomelove.Whatelsedidgogosay?
."she
l
ooksatmecr i
es."I
t'
sokayloveyoucantellme.
I'
m her
enow."Iwipehertear
s.

"Shesaid.
..
.shesaidt
hatsomeonewi
lldi
e.Al
if
e
foral
if
e."shelooksatme.

"OhmyGodaneyef oraneye!.Shemeantthat
someonewasgoingtohavet odiesoIcanli
ve.
"I
covermyfacewit
hmyhands.Mydr eam now
makessense.Theli
tt
legi
rlIsawwasourbabygi r
l
sayi
nggoodbyetome.

"Ourbabysacr
if
icedherl
if
esoIcanl
ive.Shedi
ed
formetoli
veagain.
"

"It
hinki
t'
sbet
teri
thappenedt
oust
han.
..Yout
hink
ourbabywasagi
rl
? .
"IfIt
ellhert
hatIsawamini
heri
t’
sgoingt
ohurtherverymuch.SoIwon’
t.

"Ithinkwewouldhavehadagi
rlbuti
fnotusthen
whol ove?!
.Youdi
dn'
tdeser
vet
hisatalll
uhst
op
sayingthat.
"

"ifi
twasn' tmethenitwasgoingtobeSi ms.She's
pregnantbabyandi ftheyl
ostthebabyI'
m afrai
d
theywoul dn'
thavemadei t
.Ithurt
ssobadt olose
ourchildmbusobutourancest orschoseus
becauset heyknewwecangett hr
oughpastthis
together.
"

"whydidn'
tthepersonwhost
artedt
hiswhol
ethi
ng
di
elove!whydidithavet
ohappentous?.
"

"becausewearestr
ongert
hanwet hink.Many
thi
ngshavehappenedtousthatweresupposeto
breakusapar
tbutwedidn'
t.Wearest i
llst
andi
ng
st
rong.Toget
her
."

Ikneeli
nfr
ontofherandl
ookatherbeaut
if
ulf
ace.

"youar estrongert hanyout hink.Lifehasbeen

unkindtoyouandver yunfair.Iwantal lofthatto
changest artingnow.Iam her eri
ghtnowbecause
ofyoulove.Iam t hisproudmanIam becauseof
youandnooneel se.Youarecar ryi
ngt hisfamilyon
yourshoul der sandsomehowever yonej ustexpect
s
yout obeokayandbr ingeveryonet ogether.Gogo
sai
dyouar et heonl ywhocanbr i
ngt hi
smessedup
familytogetherbutdi dtheythinkatwhatcost ?.our
chil
dren’sliveslove? .
"

"Don'tsayitli
kethatphakat
hwayo.Wedon' tknow
whatthef ut
ureholdsforthi
sf amil
ybutour
ancestorsentr
ustedmet obringthi
swholefamily
toget
herandt hat
'swhatwear egoi
ngtodo.Youar e
goingtohelpme."
"l
ove.
..
."

"mbusoIcamet ot
hisfamil
ytomakei
tgr
owf
rom
thati
tisnotbr
eaki
tapart
."

"t
heGumedef
ami
lyl
ove.
"

"bothofthem baby.Theyareyourmater
nalfamil
y
l
oveandt heyalsoneedtobeacknowledgedinyou
andyourbrothersli
vesbabyandespecial
lyour
marri
age.Wecan' tr
ecogniseonl
yonesideofyour
famil
ywhenwehavef oundtheotheronethatwas
missing.
"

"You'
rer
ightl
ove.
"

"youalsohavetodowhatt hatoldsbu'
sgir
lf
ri
end
grandmothert
oldyou.Idon'twantourki
dsorfut
ure
ki
dsbeleftwit
hthi
swhol
emesswhenwehave
passedon."

"shechosetot
ellyout
hismessagecauseshe
knewyouwouldseeitt
hroughthati
thappens.Iam
soblessedt
ohaveyouyaz."shesmil
es.

"l
etsgoandgetcheckedup.
"
Shehel
psmestandandIpul
lhert
ightt
omychest
.
Shei
nhalesme.

"don’
teverl
eavemembuso.
"

"neverl
ove.
"

Wewal kt
othedini
ngroom andtheyarehavi
ng
breakf
ast
.Ihavemyarm aroundluhandshe'
s
holdi
ngmetight
.Theyaresmili
ng,eati
ngandthey
l
ooksohappywhi l
ewear emiserabl
e.
"Morning.
"webothgreett
hem.Theylookatus
smil
ing.Thedi
ningroom i
sfi
ll
edwit
halmost
ever
yonebutIdon'tseemymom.Imeanbonga' s
mom.

"Wearesohappyt
oseeyououtoft
hehospi
tal
son.
"mydadsays.

"wearegoingsomewhere.Wewi
llbeback.
"I
answerhi
m andhesighs.

"howar eyouf eel

ingmbuso?."mybirt
hmot her
askssi t
ti
ngnexttomydad.Il ookatl
uhandshe' s
l
ooki ngatthemani assumeismyuncl eandshe
keepsshi f
ti
ng.Imovemyeyesawayf rom my
mot herandlookatmyunclewho' seyesareonmy
wife.Theymoveawayf r
om herandhel ooksatme
andhei sshockedt oseemest ar
ri
ngathi m andhe
smi l
es.Idon'
t.Ibethe'
sthereasonwhyl uhis
hi
dingsomet
hingf
rom me.

Igent
lymoveluh'shandsonmeandwal ktomy
bi
rthmom whost andsup.Shehast earsinhereyes
andtheyst
ream down.Itouchherfort hefi
rstt
ime
wipi
nghertearsawayandshebeginst ocry.I
embraceherinmyar msandlethercr y.

"Iam happytofinal
lyhavemetyoumama. "she
hugsmet ight
erandibrushherbackunt
ilshestops.
Iwoul
dl oveforustotal
kbutwehavetogot othe
hospi
tal
.

Fr
ankget
sup,
takesl
uh'
shandandt
heywal
kout
.

"Il
oveyoumbuso.Inevert
houghtIwi
lleversee
youagai
nandIwasdreamingofthi
smoment .Iam
sohappy.
"
"Il
oveyout
oo.
"If
eel
hersmi
le.

"son?
."i
t'
sluh'
sdad."i
sluhokay?
."he'
sconcer
ned.

"she'
sst
il
lemot
ionalt
hat
’sal
l.
"
Ipul
lmymot
herf
rom myar
msandl
ookather
.

"wewi
llt
alkwhenwehavet
ime.
"

"Iwoul
dli
ket
hat
."

Il
ookatmytwinbr
otherandhestandsup,
wemeet
hal
fway.Wel
ooksomuchal i
kesi
nceIdon'thavea
bear
dandhedoesn'
thaveoneeit
her.

"youlookl
ikeme."webothsayatt hesameti
me
thenwelookateachotherandlaugh.Webrohug
ti
ghtandsomehowt hatdoessomet hi
ngtome.
"we'
l
ltal
k."

"Iknowsomethi
ngiswr
ongwithher.Icoul
df eeli
t
too."hewhi
sper
sinmyearandIlookathim and
frown.

"wewi
llt
alk.
"henods.

MyunclestandsupandIgivehi
m ahugt
oot
obe
pol
it
e.Iwi
llalsohaveat
alkwit
hhim.

Theyalsoint
roducemet otheyoungerversi
onof
mbuyisel
omt hunzi
.Heremi ndsmeofmyyounger
brot
herziphowhohasn'tlookedatmeandmy
uncl
e'swifewho'snott
heirbirt
hmot her
.Ihugall
thebrot
hersincl
udingmyownbr ot
hers.I
'm wor
ri
ed
aboutbonga.

"wher
e'smymot
her
?."mydadcl
encheshi
sjaw.
"she'
sint
heki
tchen.Icancal
lher
."mymot
her
says.

"i
tsokayma.I'
mj ustwonder
ingwhyshe'
snother
e
wi
thallofyou?
."

"she'
snotneededher
e!.
"myuncl
esays.Iknewhe
wasgoingtosaysomethi
ng.

"hmmmm.Theki
ds?
."

"wi
tht
henanni
esandmoms.
"

"si
snont
oisher
e?.
"

"hert
oo.
"Inod.I
'
m gl
adshewasher
eforl
uh.
"wher
ear
eyout
wogoi
ng?
."mydadasks.

"out
."

"mbuso.
..
"

"notnowbaba.Br
other
swe'llt
alkwhenicome
back.Zi
phowalkmeout."hefoll
owsme.

"wher
e'syourgi
rl
?."

"she'
sinSowet
o."

"getacarandgogether
.wear
efl
yinghomewhen
Icomeback."

"homewher
e?.
"
"Dur
ban.
"

"she'
scomi
ngwi
thus?
."

"unl
essyoudon’
twanthert
o."

"Idobhut
i.I
..
."

"Iam okaynt
wana.I
twasn'
tyourf
aul
t.Goandget
yourgi
rl.
"

Igeti
nthecarandpul
lmywi
fet
omeandf
rank
dri
vesout
.
CHAPTER77.

MBUSO.
Wehavear rivedatthehospi talandwearewai t
ing
formydoct orwhoisf i
nishinghersurgery.Luhhas
herfacehi ddeninmychest .Iknowshe'swor ri
ed
thatthedoct orisr
eall
ygoi ngt otel
lusthatwel ost
ourchild.Idowi shami raclecanhappenr ightnow
andtheywi l
ltel
lusthatshe' sdidn'
thavea
miscarriagebutdeepdownIknowi t
'snotpossible.

Tothi
nkshewascaryingmyprincesswholooked
exact
lyl
ikehermom wasunbeli
evabl
ebutIdo
hopewhenwegetpregnantagainwewil
lhavegirl
s.
Thedoctorcomesoutandshel
ooksatussur
pri
sed
andwalkstous.

"Ididn'
tthinkyouweregoingt oshowup.Iam glad
youhavet hough.Uhm nursepleasetakethem t
oa
room.Iam goi ngtochangepleasefol
lowher."We
getupandf ol
lowthenursetotheroom thenshe
begi
nst aki
ngst uf
fout.Thedoctorcomesi n.
"Mrgumedepl easeweart hissowecangoanddo
afullbodyscan.From yourheadt oyourbody.I'm
veryconcernedthatyouj ustupandl eftsi
r.You
couldhavehurtyourselfbutt heywayl ook, i
tseems
asifeveryt
hingisalr
ightbutIst i
llhavetobea
hundredpercentsure."shetal kstoomuch.

"Doct
orcanyougetusagynaecol
ogi
st.
"shel
ooks
atmywife.

"Mr
sGumedewhat
swr
ong?
."

"Shemi
scar
ri
edi
ntheear
lyhour
soft
hemor
ning.
"

"MyGodwhydi dn'tyoubringherher
eatthat
moment ..
..
"shelooksatthenurse."PageDrNdaba
andtellhi
mt ocomeher eandbr i
ngmet wo
wheelchair
s."t
henur senodsandleaves.
"Mrsgumedepl easegetinthereandchangeso
youcangetcleanedupandgi venmedicatonbutI
'm
sur
eNdabawi ll
lstar
twiththeultr
asoundt oseei
f
youreal
lyhadami scar
ri
age."

"doyouwantmet
ohel
pyou?
."

"I'
l
lbefi
ne.
"Iki
ssherandshegoest
othe
bathr
oom.

"HowmuchdoIowet
hehospi
tal
?."

"Yourwif
esettl
edever
ythi
ngwhenshegothere.
Evenmorethansheshouldhave.Iwi
llt
alkt
othe
hospi
tal
'
sH.Randaskt hem t
oretur
nthesum that
wasnotused."

"nokeepi
t.Usei
tonpeopl
ear
egoi
ngt
oneedhel
p
onl
y."

"Thankyousi r
.Iwaswor r
iedaboutyourwif
e.I
coul
dseet hatsomethingwaswr ongwit
hherbutI
j
ustthoughtitwasstressandfearofl
osingher
husband.
"

"it
sf i
ne."Anotherwomancomesi
nandIthi
nk
she’sthedoctor.Mywif
ecomesoutoft
he
bathroom too.

"MrandMr sGumedet hisi

sDrNdabaoneofour
gynaecol
ogistandshe'
sthebest
.Doct
ormrs
gumedet hi
nksshehadami scar
ri
agedur
ing
midnight
."

"nicet
omeetyou.Mrsgumedepl easel
ayonthe
bed.Thenur
sesarebri
ngingthescansowecan
seewhatact
ual
lyhappened.Doyouwantyour
husbandher
e?.
"
"I'
m notgoi
nganywher
e."Igetupandhol
dher
hand.

"Nurseletmeknowwhent heyaredoneandt ake

mrgumedet otheex-
rayr
oom. "sheleavest
hent wo
nursescomei nwithamachineandl eaveaf
ter.The
othernursechecksherbl
oodpr essureandother
thi
ngs.

"Mrsgumedewereyouonbi
rt
hcont
rolbef
oreyou
fel
lpr
egnant
?."

"Iwasdoct
orandI
..
..
.Idi
dntknowIwaspr
egnant
."

"whatki
ndofbi
rt
hcont
rolwer
eyouusi
ng?
."

"Ihadt
hei
mpl
antonmyar
m."shel
ooksatme.
"howlonghaveyouhadi
t?.
"shekeepswr
it
ing
down.

"sixmont
hsaf
terIhadmyboysi
t'
sal
mostt
hree
year
snow."

"yeahiguessi twasreachingit'
sexpir
eringdat e
andmostwomendof allpregantonthei
rl astyear
whent heimplanthastober emovedandf orsome
theyfallpr
egnanassoonast heyhaveitandot her
s
eveniftheyhaveitandi nyourcaseont hel ast
year.
"

"Soi
t'
snotbecausei
twasn'
twor
king?
."

"ifi
twasn'
tyouwouldhavef
all
enpr
egnantt
wo
yearsago.
"shesi
ghs.
"i
t'
sokayl
ove.
"

"pl
easeli
ftt
hegownup."Ihelpherl
if
tthegownup
andthedoct
orsqui
rt
sthegelonherstomachand
l
ooksatthescr
een.

"doyouf eelanypai
n,l
ikeyouwantt
ogot
othe
toi
let
?."

"Noidon'
tfeelanyoft
hat
."t
hedoct
ornods.

"ar
eyoubl
eedi
ngheavi
ly?
."

"atf
ir
stIwasbutnowI
'
m not
."

"Ther
eisasignthatyouwerepr
egnantmrs
gumedeandIam sorrymrandmrsgumedebutyou
l
ostyourbaby.
"Shelooksatt
hebothofus.
"looksofi tyouwer eamont hol
di nt
oyour
pregnancy. .
..
"Luhcl oseshereyesandgr i
psmy
handr eall
yt i
ght."..
..
theuterasi
snowempt yandit
doesn'tlooklikeyouwi l
lneedsurger
y.Weusual l
y
doami norsur geryifyouhaveheavybl eeding,
si
gnifi
cantpai nori ftherearesi
ghnsofi nfecti
onin
yourut er
asbutt hatwon'tbeneccesary."

"soever
ythi
ngi
sokaywi
thmywi
fe?
."

"iti
smrgumede.Wehavewhatwecal l'
wat chand
wait"expectantornaturalmanagementt hatwe
recomendi nearlypr
egnancy.Whati tmeansi syou
caneithergohomeorst ayhereatthehospi t
alunt i
l
thepregnancytissuehaspassedi tselffr
om your
womb.I tcanhappenqui cklyoritmayt akeaf ew
weeksbuti nyourcasemr sgumedeIdon' tseethe
needtokeepyouher e.Howevermrgumedepl ease
makesur ethatshedoesn' tdoanythingstrenious
thatwil
lputpressuretoherut er
asorevenst ress."I
nod.

"wi
llIst
il
lbeabl
etohaveki
ds?
."

"ofcour seyouwi l
l.Youar eyoungmrsgumedeand
perf
ect l
yheal t
hy.Idon'tknowhowyoumi scarri
ed
butthingslikethesehappen.Youwi l
lhavemany
moreki ds.Asmuchasyouwantt ohave.Al lIcan
advi
sei smaybedon' tbeinti
mateforat
leasta
mont hsoshecanhealmrgumede. "whatt hehell
?
Awhol ef uckenmont h?.

"Thankyoudoct
or.
"Isay.Shewi
pest
hegelon
l
uh'sst
omach.

"Hereisyourmedicati
ont
hatyouwi
llcol
lectf
rom
thepharmacybeforeyoul
eave.I
twi
llhel
pyou."she
saysandleaves.
"heydon'tcryl
ove.Wewi l
lgett
hroughthis
toget
herIpromiseyou."Iwi
pehertears.Shesi
tsup.
Iwrapmyar msar oundherandlethercry.

"Somepartofmej ustt
hought
..
..
.maybej
ustmaybe
ther
e'sasl
ightchance.
..
."

"Iwishedthatt
oolove.Gogetdr
essed.
"shegoes
tothebathr
oom tochangeandIwipemymisty
eyes.

ShecomesoutandIgoi ntochanget
oo.Icomeout
she'
swiththenur
seandshemakesmesi tont he
wheelchai
randtheywheelmeouttotheex-r
ay
room wher
ethedoctori
salr
eadywait
ingforme.

Theyputmeintheex-r
aymachine,Il
aydownandi t
movesoverme.Itmovesupanddownunt ili
tst
ops.
Theymovemeofi ti
ntothewheelchai
randbackto
ther
oom wewerein.Igotothebathr
oom and
changebackt
omycl
othes.

"mrgumede. "shesayswheniwalkoutclosi
ngt he
bathroom door."si
tpl
easesowecanr emovethe
bandage."Isitonthebedandl
ethercutitof
f.Ican
feelaironmyf ace.

"YourCT- Scanshowst hatyourbrainhasr educed

toit
s'normalsi zeandwhatshockedusaswel lwas
thatyourvetebraeboneshaveal sopushed
themselvesbacki nli
ne.Mrgumedewhenyou
cameher ewet ookyoutoex-rayshwecansee
whatdamageswewer efacingandi twasscar y
becauseyouar esupposetobei mmobi leri
ghtnow.
Butthenyouwokeandst ar
tedwal ki
ngandnowt he
ex-r
ayshowt hatyouareperfectl
yf i
nelikether
e
wasnot hingwr ongwithyouandt hatisstil
l
shocking.Italmostseemsasi ftheex-rayresult
s
werenotshowi ngusyourresult
s."

"Si
ncet
her
e'snot
hingwr
ongwi
thmet
henwe
woul
dli
ket
oleave.
"

"hereisyourprescri
pti
onmedicineandpleasemr
gumedei fyoufeelanyheadaches,di
zzynessand
evennauseouspl easecomebackt othehospi
tal
.
Thisismycar d.
"shegivesitt
omeandIl ookatl
uh
shetakesit.

"wedon'tl
iveher
eandwear
efl
yingt
odur
ban
toni
ght
."

"thoughtasmuch.Hereisacar dofthedoct
oryou
willseeonmonday.Itoldhim aboutyouandhewi l
l
haveyourful
lfi
lebymonday.Mr sgumedepl ease
makesur eheat
tendsallhiappoint
ments.
"

"Iwi
lldoct
or.t
hankyou.
"Weal
lwal
kout
.

Wegot
othephar
macyandcol
lectourmedi
cat
ion.
Fr
ankt
akesi
tfr
om us.

"Mrsgumede?Mrsgumede? .
"westopwalkingand
tur
n.I
t'
sasecur
it
yguard."uhm goodmorningmr
gumede,mr
sgumedeandsi r
...
"hesayst
of rank.

"canwehel
pyou?
."Fr
ankasks.

"mrsgumedeif oundyourphoneandIhavebeen
l
ookingforyouyesterdaybutIdidn'tseeyousoI
kepti
tintheoff
ice.Ididn'
twanttogi veittoanyone
i
ncaset heyst
eal i
tordosomet hing.Her eiti
s."

"Thankyousomuchmrnsel
e.Idi
dn'
treal
iseIhad
l
ostit
."

"thankyoumf o.
"Ishakehishand.Il
ookatfr
ank
andhet akesoutsomenotesandgivesthem t
ohi
m.
"ohnosiriwasjustdoi
ngmyj
ob."hel
ooksl
ikea
younghonesthar
dworki
ngman.

"youl
ikewor
kingher
e?.
"hel
ooksar
ound.

"Itpaysmybi
ll
ssi
r.That
'sal
lthatmat
ter
s."he
hatesit
.

"Howlonghaveyoubeenwor
kingonsecur
it
y?.
"I
askhi
m.

"f
iveyear
snow.
"

"whatyout
hinkf
rank?
."

"takemynumber sandsendmeyournamesandI D.
Wemi ghtj
usthi
reyouandpayyouwellsoyoucan
definetl
ydresswel
l.
"hel
ooksatusshocked.
"ohthankyousir
.Iwi
llcallyouonmyl unchhour.
"
heshakesourhandsexcludingandnodspoli
tel
yat
l
uhthenheleaves.

"wheredoyouwanttopl
acehi
m af
terwe'
ve
checkedhi
m out
?."

"we'l
lsee.Per
cyhasbeensl
acki
ngonhi
sjobandI
thi
nki
t'
stimehegotawakeupcall
."

"sureman.
"wegeti
nthecaranddr
ivebackt
othe
house.

"di
dyour
entt
hehouse?
."

"si
msandbongadi
d.why?
."
"ar
eyouokayi
fwebuyi
t.
"shel
ooksatme.

"r
eal
ly?
."

"yesl
ove.Wel
ostourchi
ldt
her
eandIdontwant
someoneel
set
ohaveit.
"

"Iwouldl
iket
hat
.Itcanbeoneoft
heboysf
orwhen
theygr
owup."

"I'
l
laskbongat
osendmet
hedet
ail
soft
heest
ate
agent
."

Wearri
veatthehouseandl uhi
sasleep.When
fr
ankparksthecar,Ishakel
uhsoft
lybutshei
s
deepi
nsleep.Frankopensthedoorforher
.

"she'
ssl
eepi
ng.Hol
dthedoorf
ormewhi
leIcar
ry
herout
."hedoes.

Igentl
yli
fthertomyl ap,shebrusheshernoseon
myneckt hensighs.Istepoutcarryi
ngherandwal k
tothehouseandi tl
ookslikeIhavej ustwal
kedin
onameet ing.Theylooktenseandt hetensi
onistoo
much.

"I
ssheokay?
."

"Sheneedstosl
eepthat'
sal
l.Mamakamo? .
..
."she
standsupandwalkstome.Canyoupleasemake
hersomethi
ngtoeat?
."

"Iwi
llbhut
i.CanImakeyousomeaswel
l
?."

"Pl
easedoandbri
ngi
ttot
hebedr
oom.
"shenods.
It
urnandwalk.
"mbuso?
."t
hat
'smydad.

"af
teryouputl
uhi
nbedcomeandj
oinus.
"

"I
'
mti
redandIwantt
osl
eepbef
orewegohome.
"

"wear
egoi
nghome?
."myuncl
easks

"Yest
odur
ban.
"

"butwedi
dn'
ttal
kabouti
t?.
"

"wer
ewesupposetotal
kabouti
tmal
ume?
."he
l
ooksatmet
henlooksaway.

"di
dthedoct
orsayyoucanl
eave?
."mydadasks.
"Isai
dsobabaexcuseme.
"It
urnandwal
kaway.

Igetinandputluhonbed.Inot i
cet
hatthebeddi
ng
Ihadleftinthecorneri
sgone.FUCK!
.Icoverl
uh
withthethrowblanket,
closet
hedoorandwalkto
theli
vingroom.

"whowasinthebedr
oom wesl
epti
n?!
."Theyl
ook
ateachot
her
.

"whywhathappened?
."mybi
rt
hmot
herasks

"It
hinkIsaw...
."si
mst ri
estoexplai
nbutmy
motherwalksintheli
vingroom andshelooksl
ike
shewascrying.

"mbuso?
."
"mah?
."

"comewi
thme.
"

Ifol
lowherasshewalksoutoft
hehouseandwe
gotothebackyardandt
here'
sabeaut
if
ulout
door
space.Wesitdown.

"Youhavebeencr
ying,
why?
."shesni
ff
s.

"mahwhathappened, happenedandwecan' t
changet hepast .Iam hurtthatyoudidthatbut
seei
ngdeat hst arri
ngmei nthefacemademe
real
isethatIdon' twanttospendt herestofmylif
e
angryatyou, holdingagr udge.Iam thankf
ulto
haveanot hersecondchancei nli
fetobewi t
hmy
familyandt hatincludesyou."

"Pl
easef
orgi
vemeson.Iam sosor
ry.
"
"Iforgi
veyoumama.If
orgaveyouIjustdi
dn'
ttel
l
you."shel
ooksatmeandbegin'
stocry.

"Pl
easest
opcr
yingma.
"sheshakesherhead.

"It
'snott
hat.Idi
dn'
tknowthatyouwereback.
WhenIwokeupIwentt oyourbedroom and
knockedbutther
ewasnoanswer .It
urntol
eave
whenIsawyourf at
herandhetoldmeyouleftwi
th
l
uh."

"di
dyouwantsomet
hingma?
."

"Iwantedt
oapologi
zetoyoubothandIgotin
causeiwant
edtoleavesomet
hingforyouandthen
I.
..
."

"andwhat
?."
"i
tdoesn'tmatternow.Isawtheduvetont hefl
oor
andIthoughtthatmaybeluhwant edthem washed
andIopenedthem soicansor tthem bef
ore
washi
ngt hem whenIsawt heblood..
..
"shecri
es.

"Iknewwheniwokeupt hatsomethingwaswr ong

withher.Itr
iedtobeher eforherebutIwast oolate.
Shewasi nt hebathma, alonecryi
ngandl osingour
chil
d..
..
"Ileanbackandcovermyf ace."Ihaveseen
mywi feinmanywaysmabutseei ngheri nthat
statel
osingourchilditbrokemeandicr i
edwi t
h
her."f
uck!,j
ustthi
nkingabouti tmakesmewantt o
scream andcr youtl
oud.

"Iknowmbusoitwasbecauseofme.Youarebei
ng
punishedf
ormymi st
akes.t
het
hingsIdi
dtoyou
andyourmother
."

"Iwasangr
ymaast
owhyi
thappenedt
ousand
notbongaandsi mst henl
uhsaidi
twasbett
erus
thanmybr ot
herbecausesheknewthati
fsi
mshad
ami scarr
iagethenmaybethei
rmarri
agewouldn'
t
survive.
"shenods.

"YazmbusoIhopeyouknowwhatapr eciousgem
youhavei nyourli
fe.Manypeopl edon'tgett obe
blessedt hewayyouhavebeenbl essedwi thher.I
hopeandpr aymysont hatnomat t
erwhathappens
youwi llnevereverbet hemanyouwer ebef oreyou
metherandt hefir
stf ewmont hsaf t
eryoumether .
Promi semeyouwi llneverchanget owardsherand
youwi llconti
nuetoal wayswor shipthegroundshe
walksonandyouwi l
lalwayslookathert hesame
wayyoudonow. "

"Iwillma.Luhistheonl
ywomanforme.Iseeno
otherngaphandl
ekwakhemama."

"Ihopenoneofyouwi l
lbepunishedformy
mistakes.Iwoul
drat
hertheypunishmethanmy
chi
ldr
en.
"

"Let
shopei
twon'
thappent
oanyoneel
seagai
nma.
Whatdi
dyoudowit
hthesheet
s?.

"Iputthem i
nsi
det
her efusebag.Theyareinyour
closet
.Wehavetotel
lherdadandaunt ,yourdad
tooandauntsoyouwillhaveacleansi
ng
ceremony."

"Iknowmabutcanwej ustkeepi
tbet
weenusunt
il
l
uhisreadyt
otel
lever
yone."

"okbabybutthenwehavetoburnthesheet
sand
thehousewi
llhavet
obecleansed.
”

“Iknow.Wewi
llf
indsomeonet
ohel
pus.
”It
ellher
.
"Ifeelli
keanout si
der,ast
rangerinmyownf amil
y.
Ifeell
ikeIdon'tbelongher
ewi t
heveryone.If
eel
l
ikemypr esenceismakingeveryone
uncomf otable.
"

"I'm sor
ryt
ohearthatma.Iwishtheywoul
dn'
tdo
thatbutIal
sounderstandwheret
heyarecomi
ng
from."

"IknowbabyandIdon'
tblamethem.Ibroughtt
his
tomysel
fandImustsuff
erfori
t.Ihaveaccept
ed
that
."

"Ithi
nktheywi l
lforgi
veyouast i
megoeswhen
theyseewhatki ndofwomanandmot heryouar e.
MaIhaveki ll
edpeople,Ihavehurtpeopleandyou
knowsomeoft hatbutyouhaveneverjudgedmeor
mademef eell
ikeIam akill
erandIam notgoi ngto
dothattoyout oo.Youhavelovedme
uncondi
tionall
yandIt hi
nkIam abletolovemywi f
e
theywayIloveherbecauseofhowsher espects
meandl ovesme.Ihaveal wayswat chedhowyou
l
ovedadandr especthi m.Hi mt oothat
'swhyI
alwaysputherf i
rst.Ilearnedf r
om dadtoohowt o
l
oveawomanandIdi dt hatwhenIf oundluh.I
knowdadst i
lllovesyounomat t
erwhatandhewi l
l
forgi
veyou.Mybr otherswi l
ltoo."

Mybi r
thmot herwalkstouscar r
yingat raywith
thr
eecupsofcof f
eeandshel ooksunsur eifshe
shouldjoinusorgobackt othehouse.Ist andup
andlethersitwhereIwas.itaket hetrayfrom her
andputi tonthetabl
e.Iam goingt ocallhermom
causemai salwaysgoi
ngtobema.

"Yout oohavebeenouthereforawhi l
eandi
thoughtIshoul
djoin.IhopeI
'm noti
ntrudingandI
broughtsomecoffeecauseitl
ookslikeit'
sgoingt
o
rai
n."

"Thankyoumaforthecof
fee.
"I'
mr eal
lyhungr
y
though."Howar
eyou?.
"iaskher.
"t
hankyouwami
."shesmi
lesathersist
er.That
makesmethi
nkt
hatmaybewewi l
lallgetal
ong.

"Iam happytoseemywhol efami l

ybutmostofal
l
seeingyouagain."wekeepquiet
."Itj
ustf
eel
sso
weirdcausethelastt
imeIsawyourdadIwas
pregnantwit
hyouandmysi st
erherewell
weknow
whathappened."

"I'
m sorr
ywamif orr ui
ningyourlif
e,wanti
ngt okil
l
youandyourkids.Iwantyout oknowt hatIhave
neverfor
gott
enwhatIdi dtoyou.Everyti
meIl ooked
atmyselfint
hemi rrorIaskedmysel fwhereisthe
personwholooksexact l
yli
kemeandIwoul dlook
atmbusoandgui ltwi l
leatmeal i
vebutastheyear s
wentbyImanagedt ol i
vewithitandithoughtIwill
diewit
hthissecr
etbutnowIam happycauset here
arenomor esecr
et esIam hiding.WamiIhopeone
dayyouandbusani willf
orgi
veme. "
"Iwasangr yforyear
ssebe.Ihatedyouf oryears
vutthenIaskedGodt ohelpmef orgi
veyoucause
theangerIwashol di
ngont ohadahol donmyl i
fe.
Iwouldn'tal
lowmyselftobehappyorbel ovedand
onceImadepeacewi thitandfor
gaveyouImoved
onbutsomet i
mesitwouldhitmeoutofnowher e
andIwoul dbebackt othatspaceagainsof orme
tonotgobackt ot
hatplaceImeditat
e.Ithelpsme
alot
."Inod.

"Iam justhappytohaveyouinmyl i
feandIknow
wewi l
lgettoknoweachot herasti
megoes.WhatI
wanttoknowt houghiswhatdoyoubot hthi
nk
aboutwhatluhtoldyou?.Whatdadhastodo
regar
dingpayingamalobola?.
"Il
ookatthem bot
h.

"Hebasical
lytol
dusthatwhenhegoest
opay
amalobol
ahe'sgoingt
opayforbot
hofus."my
bi
rt
hmot hersays.

"andhowdoyouf
eel
aboutt
hat
?."Shel
ooksdown
andsmi
les.

"yourdadwasmyf i
rstlovembusoandseeinghim,
heari
nghim sayt
hatbroughtbackal
lthosef
eel
ings
Ihadforhi
m. "

"mom ar
eyoumar
ri
ed?
."

"noI
'
m not
."

"butyouhavesomeonei
nyourl
if
eri
ght
?."

"Ido.
"shesaysl
ooki
ngaway.

"doesdadknow?
."

"hedoesn'
t.
"Iwonderwhathe'
stosayaboutt
hat
.
"doyoul
ovet
hemanyou'
rewi
thnow?
."

"IthoughtIdi
dbutnowaf
terseei
ngyourdadagai
n
I'
m notsure.
"Il
ookatmyma.

"mawena?
."

"Iwantyourmotheranddadtohavewhatt hey
shoul
dhavehadal l
thoseyear
sago.Iloveyourdad
verymuchbutIwanttostepasi
deandl ett
hem
havethei
rhappi
lyeveraf
ter
.Theydeserveit.
"

"doyoumeanit
?."mymom asksher.Mat akesher
handinher
sandtheyl
acet
hem together
.

"Idomeanitwami .Thi
sisyoursecondchanceto
bewit
ht hemanyouhaveal wayslovedandsaw
yourf
uturewi
th.IpromiseyouthatIwon'
tcause
tr
oublrorstandinyourway.Iwi
llal
sogi
vehima
divor
cesot hebothofyoucangetmarri
ed.
"they
bothgetteary.

"t
hankyou.
"mom says.

"nowamidon' tt
hankme.I
'mtheonewhoi s
supposetothankyouf
orbeingki
ndtomeand
for
givi
ngme.ThnakyouandIhopesomedaywhen
youtrustmeagainwewil
lhavearel
ati
onshi
p."

"Iwoul
dli
ket
hatt
oo.
"

"Iwasscar
edwhenmom camehere.Ithoughtyou
weregoi
ngtot
hrowt
hecoffeeonher.
"shelaughs.

"I
'
m ol
dmbusoIdon'
tdothatanymor
e.Iam a
gr
andmot
her
."shel
aughs.
"Iloveyou.Thebot hofyouandIwantyout obe
presentforeveythingallourkidscelebr
ate.Iwant
yout obet her
eandt heymustgr owupwi ththei
r
grandmot hersaroundbecausewedi dn'
thavet hat
whenwegr ewupandnowyouhavet ochanget hat
becauseIonl yhavet het woofyouandIdon' twant
tochoseandIneverwi ll.Mykidsneedyouand
speakingofwhi chImi sst hem andIam hungry."

"howol
dar
ethey?
."mom asks.

"Theywi
llbef
ournextmont
h."isay.

"Ican'
twai
ttocel
ebr
atet
hei
rbi
rt
hday.
"she'
s
exci
ted.

"i
t'
sgoingtobethei
rfi
rstbi
rt
hdaywithusther
e.I
al
sohaveneverhavebeenwiththem ont
heir
bi
rt
hday."
"becausewehaveneverdoneacelebr
ati
on,Luh
bakesthem t
heircakesandwesi
ngtothem.Iwil
l
tal
ktoherthoughandhearwhatshesays.
"

"okayson.
"Ismi
le.

"Il
oveyoubot
hbutr
ightnowImi
ssmyki
dsand
wif
e."

It
'srai
ningnowandIguesswear egoingtohavet
o
fl
ytomor r
ow.I'
llasksbulat
er.Igetup,ki
ssandhug
bothofthem andleavethem t
heretal
king.
CHAPTER78

MBUSO.

Iknowbothofmymom'ssti
llhavealongroadf
or
them t
obeablet
ohavewhattheyoncehad.Iam
veryhopef
ult
hatast
imegoesonwewi l
lbeaone
bighappyf ami l
ybutf orthattohappyitisallon
dad'shands.He' stheonewhohast odecidewhat
he'sgoingtodowi t
hbot hoft hem.Ilovemybi r
th
mot herverymuchbuthear i
ngmot hersaythatshe
willstepasidetogivemymom anddadachancet o
bet r
yandf ixthingsbetweent hem didn'
tsitwell
withme.Iknowshel ovesmydadver ymuchand
dadwor shi
psthegr oundshewal kson,wellheused
tobutIknowhest i
lldoes.
Everyoneisstil
lint
helivi
ngr oom t
alki
ngabout
themselves.Bothmymot her'
scomei ntooandsi
t
down.Ziphot houghisn'
tbackIhopehewi l
l
becausewear el
eavingtonight.
"Uhm ever yonecannIhaveyourat tenti
on? ."They
l
ookatme. "Iwouldli
ketot hankyouf orallbeing
hereandshowi ngussuppor tbutmostimpor t
antly
forbei
ngt hereformywi fe.Myaccidentr eally
scaredherandshe' ssti
llnotokay.I
treallyshook
herandshe' snothernormalsel f
.Iwoul dlikeallof
youtogiveherspaceandnotst r
essherunt i
lshe
feel
sbetteragain.AnythingyouneedI 'm suresims
andLesegowi l
lhel
pyou. "
"She'staki
ngithar
dert
hansheshould.Imeanyou
di
dn'tdiesoshecanhaveallyourmoneysowhat'
s
herproblem?.
"myunclesays.
"Iseeyouwantmet opunchyouagai
nonyourf
ace.
Itol
dyoutostopt
alki
ngaboutmydaught
erli
ke
that
?."myf
atheri
nsaystomyuncle.
"Mal
umewhatdi
dyousayaboutmywi
fet
hat
mademyf
atheri
nlawpunchyou?
."
"heaccusedl
uhofwanti
ngyoutodiesoshecan
haveal
lyourmoney.
"Bongasays.
"Mal
umewhywoul dyousayt
hataboutmywi
fe
whenyoudon'
tevenknowher?
."
"Wel
lshe.
..
"
"withallduer espectmalumebutpl ease.Never
everinyourl i
fedisrespectmywifelikethator
accuseherofwant ingmymoneyoranyt hi
ngelse.
Ifyoureall
yknewl uh,youwouldknowt hati fi
twas
possibl
eshewoul dhavet radedpl
aceswi t
hme.
Shetoldmet oletthingsgobutIdidn'tl
istentoher
andIgoti ntothataccident.HadIl
istenedt oherwe
allwouldn'tbehere.Youcansayanyt hi
ngmal ume
toanyonebutpl easedontdisr
espectthewomenof
thisfamily,
includingmymot hersebenzil
eandour
helperswhoal sopar toft
hisfamily.Iwoul
dhatef
or
yout obenotoneofusi fyoukeepsayi ng
disrespectf
ulthingsaboutmywi fe.Siyezwana
angithi?
."Henods.
"Sheshoul
dn'
thavelookedgui
lt
yli
kesheknew
somethi
ng?
."hesays.Thismandoesn’
tli
sten.
"Youwi l
lapol
ogi
zet
omywi
feandaskf
or
for
giveness.
"
"Iwi
llnot
..
."
"Youwi l
luncl
e.I
fyoudon'twanttothengetupand
getoutofthi
shouseandourl i
ves.For
ever
!.
"we
bothstar
eateachotherunti
lhelooksaway.Good
boy.
Thedooropenandzi
phowalksinwi
thagir
lwho's
hi
dingbehi
ndhim.He'
scar
ryingabi
gsui
tcase.
Zi
pholooksatme.
"Caneveryoneelseleaveexcludi
ngmymot hers,
dad,myfatheri
n-law,uncl
evictorsi
msmom and
l
uh'saunt
.Ziphoandherwi llstaybehi
nd."Idon'
t
wantvi
ctorandsimsmom t
ofeell
eftbecauset
hey
wereherparent
stoo.
"Isever
ythi
ngokaybr
other
?."bongaasksl
ooki
ng
atzi
phoandI .
"Whent het
imeisrighteveryonewil
lknow."he
nods.Iwanttot
ellhim butIwanttorespectl
uh'
s
wishes.
"sbupl
easest
ay.
"henods.
Theygetupandleaveus.Youcanseet hatmy
uncl
ewasnotokaywi thbeinglef
toutbuthesaw
thel
ooksonmyf aceandbackeddown.Idon' tt
rust
themanforshit
.Ifhewasn'tmyunclethenI'
m sure
we'l
lbetal
kingadiff
erentstor
y.
Myl i
ttl
ebrothersit
sdownandhisgir
ltakesaseat
nexttohim.Iknowwhatmom i sthi
nki
ng.Thisi
s
notthesamegi rlheshowedupwithatmyhousein
Ladysmi t
h.ShelooksatmeandIshakemyheada
l
it
tle.Shenods.
Scel
ocomesi
nandsitsdown.Iknewt
hisf
ool
wasn'
tgoi
ngt
ojustl
eave.
"Iknowthi
sinvol
vesmysi
stersoI
'
m notgoi
ng
anywher
e."Inod.
"CanIsaysomet
hing?
."zi
phoasksl
ooki
ngatme.
"letmegetluhfi
rstt
henwewi
llexpl
ainwhy
everyonei
shere.
"
Iwalkt otheroom she' ssleepinginandIhear
voicesinside.Ismi l
eandopent hedoor .Theyar e
playingwitheachot herandmywi feiswatching
them withsomuchl oveandador ationonherf ace.
Thisi smyf amil
y.Thef ami lyIalmostlostbecauseI
want edrevengebutt hatr evengealmostgotme
kil
ledamongstot hert hings.Theyseeandkeep
quiet.FuckIf or
gotIl ookl i
keshit.Ihopetheyst i
ll
recognizeme.Iwal kinsl owl yandtheymovecl oser
totheirmom.Iwantt ochuckl esoinsteadIbitemy
l
ipsuppr essingmysmi le.
"who'
sthi
s?."l
uhaskst
hem."I
sitdaddy?
."t
hey
l
ookatherfr
owning.
"CanIsit
?."t
heirheadstur
nwhentheyhearmy
voi
ce.Iwalki
nandsi tontheedgeoft
hetabl
e.I
can'
tbel
ieveI'
m scaredt
hatmykidsareaf
rai
dof
mebecauseoft
hewaymyf
acei
s.
"Gotodaddyandgi
vehi
m ahug.Hemi
ssesyou.
"
Luhsays.
Theylookatme, lookather,l
ookatmeagai nthen
l
ookatt heirmom againbefor
elookingateach
othermakingadeci si
on.Theystar
eateachot her
forawhi l
eliket
heyarehavingasilentconver
sati
on
i
nfrontofus.Theycomei ntoadecisionandcrawl
onthebedt ome.
"Heyboys. "Ismi l
eandpointmyi ndexfingerup.
Theyl ookateachot herandsmile.Theypointtheir
l
ittl
eindexf ingersupandpl acethem nexttomi ne.
It'
ssomet hi
ngt hatthethr
eeofusdo.Iusedt odoit
whent heystil
lbabiesbutitendedbeingsomet hing
thatisl i
kear i
tualbetweenthethreeofus.
Ipullthem t
omeandgi vet hem abighugTheyhug
meback.Iki ssthei
rchubbycheeksandt heylaugh.
Ili
vef ort
hesemoment .Iwoul dnevertr
adet hem
foranythi
ngi nt
hisworld.Sbonisobrushesmychi n
wher eIhadmybear dandi tfeel
salit
tl
er oughon
hishand.
"comehere.
"sheget
sandalsocrawlstot
hebed
andwrapsherar
msaroundus.Iholdhert
ightand
ki
ssherhair
.
"Il
oveyou.All
ofyouar emywor l
dandIal most
l
ostyou.Ipr
omiseallofyouthatIwil
lnevereverdo
anyt
hingagai
nthatwillmakemel oseyou.Il
ove
youboysandIloveyourmom. "
"Loveyout
oodaddy.
"theysi
ng.
"Mommy?
."shel
ooksatsboni
so?
.
"youl
ovedaddy?
."shesmi
les.
"Iloveyoubot handIl
ovedaddyt
oo.
"shepal
ms
theircheeks.
Mywi f
eisr eal
lybr okenandsad.Hersmi ledoesn't
l
ightherf aceandr eachhereyes.Ihat eseeingli
ke
thi
sandIwi shIcant akeawayt hepainshe's
feel
ingr i
ghtnow.Iam sadl ikeherbecausewebot h
l
ostachi ldwedi dn'tknowwewer eexpecting.HadI
haveknownIwoul dhavedonet hi
ngsdiff
erentl
y.I
dobl amemysel fforusl osingourchil
dbutwhatI
candonowi stobet her
ef orherandhelpherheal .
"Love?."shelooksatme.Ikissherplumppi nklips.
Thekidslaugh."Icall
edameet i
ngwiththeelders
totel
lthem aboutyou,usl
osingt hebaby.Ihad
askedziphotobr i
nghisgi
rlf
riend,t
heonet hatlost
thebabyandt heyareback.Ihopeyouar eokay
withthat.
"
"I
t'
sokaybaby.I
syouruncl
ether
etoo?
."
"he'
snot
.IknowwhathappenedandIhadat
alk
wit
hhim.
"
"mbusoIdon'
twantpr
obl
emswi
thyourmat
ernal
fami
ly?
."
"Don'tworr
yl oveyouwon'tbuti
fanyonegivesyou
tr
oubleorstressthenIwi
lldealwit
hthem.Idon't
carewhoitis.Noonehurtsyouandget sawaywi t
h
i
t."shesi
ghs.
"Iwantyoutost
opdeal
ingwi
thpeopl
e
per
manently.
"
"Iwon'
tdoanythi
ngthatwi
llhur
tyouandputusi
n
thi
ssi
tuat
ionagai
n.Ipromi
seyou."
"Wher
ear
eoursheet
s?.
"
"uMahputthem i
nthecl
oset.Shet
oldmeshe
knowswhathappenedandshe'sal
sobl
aming
hersel
f.
"
"whoel
sei
sbl
ami
ngt
hemsel
ves?
."
"Idol
oveIknow.
..
."
"mbusost op.Thisisn'tyourfault
,herfaultor
anyoneel ses.Don'tblameyour selfmyhusband
please.Ithurt
sver ymucht hatwel ostourchil
df or
yout obeher eandI 'mt hankf
ulthatitwasour
unbor nbabyt hantheone’ swehaver i
ghtnow.We
willhaveotherchi l
drenal t
houghtheywon' treplace
theonewel ost.Wewi llalwaysrememberhi m or
her."Iwipehert ears.
Iwanttotel
lhert
hatitwasourbeaut
if
ulbabygirl
wholookedexact
lyl
ikeherbutIknowifIt
ellher
thati
twil
lcr
ushher.
"Iwast hinki
ngthatItwil
lbebet
teri
fwegoto
Ladysmi t
handwhi lewesortthi
swholet
hingof
goingtother i
verandfixi
ngwhatwasdoneinthe
past.
"
"Iwoul
dli
ket
hat
."
"Icant
ellt
hem al
onei
fyoudon'
twantt
obet
her
e."
"Iwantt
obet
her
e."
"okl
ovel
et'
sgo.
"
Ipickupourkidsandwal ktothedini
ngroom.
Whenwegett her eever
yoneisthereexcl
udi
ngt he
otherki
ds.West opwalkingandlookateachother.
Thekidslookatmet henlookatBusaniandbackat
meagain.everyonelaughs.Busanicomesforward
andstopsnexttous.
Het akessbobel ofr
om meandmysongoes
will
ingly.Hetri
estotakesbonisofromehegoes
toobuthe' ssti
lll
ookingatme.Mysonsl ooksat
eachot herthencryforme.EveryonelaughsandI
takethem backandt heystopcryi
ng.
"Thi
sisdaddybrother
."Luhsayssmi l
ingatt
hem."
Helooksl
ikedaddyjustl
ikel
ooklikeeachother
.
Yourtwi
nsanddaddyi satwintoo."mykidsare
conf
used.
Shewal
kst
owher
emymomsar
e.If
oll
owher
.
"Thi
sisgogo.
"shesayst
ouMah.
"andt
hisi
s
grandma.
"shesayst
omybi r
thmot
her
."t
heyar
e
twinst
ooli
keyouanddaddy.
"
Bothgrandmother'
staket hem andki
sst hem but
myki dswantnoneoft hatcausetheystartcr
ying
again.wetakethem andgobackt ostandwher ewe
were.
"okwhat
'sgoi
ngon.Whyi
sever
yoneher
e?.
"
"obvi
ouslysomet hi
ngi
sgoingonwi t
ht hetwoof
you.Wear efamil
ybrot
herandyoucan'texcludeus
fr
om whateverthati
sgoingonbetweent hetwoof
you.Whateverthati
swewi l
lfacet
ogetherandnot
apart
."Bongasays.
Simsandl
esegot
akethekidsf
rom us.Ipul
lluh
undermyar
m andsherest
sherheadonmychest .
"Areyouf
ight
ingandget
ti
ngadi
vor
ce?
."myuncl
e
hasadeat
hwish.
"f
anel
e!.
"bot
hhi
ssi
ster
syel
lhi
sname.
"DadIthinkyoushouldleavenowbecauseyou
real
lyar
eskatingonthinice.
"mbuyisayst
ohisdad
"what
?I'
mjustaski
ng.
"Icl
osemyeyesandt
akea
deepbr
eat
h.Mywi
feent
winesourhandst
oget
her
.
Ibendmyheaddownandputi tonherneckand
i
nhaleher
.Il
etherscentf
il
lal
lmysensesandI
cal
m down.
"youwantt
osi
tdown?
."sheshakesherheadno.
Il
if
tupandl
ookatever
yone.
"CanIsaysomet
hing?
."myt
winbr
othersays.I
nod.
"Iknowwehavej ustmeteachot heragainafter
beingsepar atedbutpl easedon' texcl
udeusf rom
yourf amily.Iknowal lofyouhavet hi
stightbond
andIl ovei t.I'
veseenhowever yoneiswi t
heach
other,thel oveandhowt heytalkaboutyouandl uh.
Iwantt hat .Weal lwantthatbecausewedon' thave
thisclosenesst hatyouhavebr otherwitheach
other.Youar emyt wi
nbrother,thesearemy
brotherst oo.Si celo,f
rankandsbual lofthem are
mybr ot herst oo.Theseot herbr ot
hersform your
othersideoft hef amilyalsowantt obemor ethan
justbloodbr othersbutinever ywaypossi ble.
"
Hewal
ksandst
andsi
nfr
ontofus.Iam l
ooki
ngat
myself
.Thi
sf ooll
ooksl
ikemephysi call
yin
ever
yway.Ihopehehast at
toos.Idon'twantmy
ki
dstoconfuseus.
"Iknowyoudon' ttrustusandmaybeyouar enot
sureofouri ntensi
onsorsomet hi
nglookbr otherI
don'tknowbutwhatIknowi s.Yourkidsaremy
ki
dst oo.Iwoul dtrademyl i
feforyoursandei therof
mybr others.There'snothi
ngIwontdof oryouand
yourfamily.Don'tshutusoutpl ease.IfIhavet o
provemysel fthenIwi l
l.Youcant r
ustme. "
Itki
ndofhurtsmet ohearthatmybr otherst
hink
thatI'
m excl
udingt
hem from cert
ainthingsandthat
myt winbrot
herwantstoprovehi mselftome.That
hurtsmecauseheshoul dn'tevensayanythingl
ike
that.I
fheisanythi
ngli
kemet henIknowIcant r
ust
him withmylif
eandfami l
y'
sl i
fe.
"GuysI'
m sorrytoeveryoneformakingyouf eel
excl
uded.Youar eri
ghtbonga.Wear efamilyand
wedon'thidethi
ngsfrom eachothernomat terhow
badoruglytheyare.Iwasonl ydoi
ngthisbecauseI
wantedluhtobecomf ortabl
eandnowear enot
gett
ingadivorceorfi
ghting.Hel
lIl
ovethisgirl
,
she'
smyeveryt
hingandnothi
ngornoonewi
llt
ake
herawayf
rom me."Iki
ssherf
orehead.
"Weknowsomet
hingi
sgoi
ngon.Luhhasn'
tbeen
her
sel
fandwear
eworri
edabouther
."Si
mssays.
"Ialmostdied.Iwascl osetoleavi
ngherwithtwo
boyswhoar eal mostfouryears.Howwi shshebe
hersel
fsimswhenever ythi
ngisweighi
ngheavyon
hershoulders?.Lookguyst hi
swasntaboutanyof
youatall
.Iaskedzi photobr i
nghisgir
lherefora
reason.
"
Thegir
lhasbeenhidi
ngherheadont
hathuge
j
acketshe'
sweari
ng.
"Luhpleasesitdown.
"uMahsays.Ipul lachai
rfor
herandshedoes.Unclevict
ortakesherhandi nhi
s
andshesniff
s.Mymot herbeginstocryaswell.
Dadgoest oherandgivesherhishandkerchi
ef.He
sti
lll
ovesher.
"Luhkababawhat
'swr
ong?
."
It
akeadeepbr
eat
h.
"Iwasr
espect
ingmywi
fe'
swi
sheswhenIasked
theelder
stostaybehind.Itwasn'tourofdi
srespect
foranyofyou.WhenIwokef rom thehospi
talI
knewsomet hi
ngwaswr ongsoIdi schar
gedmysel f
andcameher eand..
..
"Fuckt hishardert
hatI
thoughti
twouldbewhenIsayi tinfr
ontofeveryone.
Ithreadmyhandtoher s.
"whenIcamet oourbedr
oom wel l..
..my
wif
e..
.unfortunatel
yhadami scar r
iage.Wel ostour
chi
ldand..."shockedgaspsbr eakout.Sims, l
esego,
herauntandmymom wamir usht oluhcr yi
ng.They
embraceherandmybr ot
hersembr acemet oo.I
hatethi
sf eeli
ng.Ihat
eseeingmywi fecry.I
absol
utelyhat eit
.
"wewant edtomournourchil
dbutweal sohadt o
tel
lourparentsf
oraceremonytobedone.Zi pho
andhisgirl
fri
endal
solostachil
dbecauseof
themba.Heputanabor t
iondruginherdr i
nkand
shelostt
hebaby.Allofusneedtobecl eansed
befor
ewecangoaheadwi theveryt
hing."Theynod.
Luhhugszi
pho'
sgir
lf
ri
endandcr
ytogetherwit
hthe
women.Mybrot
hersarel
ooki
ngdef
eated.They
don'
tknowwhatt
osayordoandIunderstand.
Thedooropenandit
'sPercywit
h...
waiti
sthatsbani
andhergrandmot
her?.Il
ookatsbuandhel ooksat
methengoestothem.Dadgoest oo.
"Sanibonanibantabami.
"sbani
'
sgrandmothersays.
Mybi r
thmot herstandupandwalj
kstoherlooki
ng
shocked.
"Gogousaphi
la?
."hereyesf
il
lwi
tht
ear
s.
"Iam baby.Inevert
houghtt
heywi
llf
indyou.
"she
saysandlooksatme.
Shewal
kssl
owst
epsunt
ilshest
opswher
eluhi
s
nowst
andi
ng.
"Ohlif
ehasn'tbeenfairtoyou.I
thasbeenvery
hardmzukulubutdon'tworry.Ugogoukhona
manje.
"luhburstsi
ntot ear
sandcr i
esli
ketheti
me
Thamidied.Ihat
ethis!
.Gogopul lsluhtoherand
gi
vescomf ort
sherwhisper i
ngtoher.

Godpl
easejustgivemywi f
eachancetobef i
nal
ly
havet
hehappinessshedeserves.Whydoesshe
al
wayshavetopayf orot
herpeople’
smi
stakes?.
Whydobadthi
ngshappentogoodpeopl
eandnot
t
heoneswhoreal
lydeser
vewhattheydi
d?.
Howdi dgotknowwherewear e?.Ohsbumust
havetoldt
hem wherewear eandwhathappened.I
wonderwhatsheisgoingtosaynow.Ohwai t.I
s
thi
sthehelpmygreatgrandmotherwastal
king
about?.
CHAPTER79

MBUSO.

AftergogoXuluhascalmeddownmywi feshe
i
nst r
uctsSi
mst omakeluhwat ermixedwit
hsugar.
I'
mr eall
yworr
iedaboutmywi f
e'smentalheal
thand
Ijusthopegogowil
lbeabletohelpusespecial
ly
hersoshecanheal.Isoothherback.Shehasher
headl ai
ddownont het
able.Gogolooksatmeand
shakesherhead.
"Youf
aceddeat
hint
hef
aceandtalkedt
oit
.It
di
dn'
twantyout
ocomebackt
othisworl
dagainbut
bei
ngasstubbornasyouar eyoudi dn'
tli
sten."she
l
eavesaverypregnantpauseandIf eelmyhear t
beati
ngf
ast.
"Youdi dri
ghtbydefyingitandf ought
tocomeback.Hadyounotcamebackwhatyou
sawwouldhavehappenedbutwi thsomeoneel se.
"
Fuckno!
Si
mscomesbackandgi
vesl
uht
hewat
erandshe
dr
inks.
"It'
snicet oyoual lthezi kal al
agr andchildr
en, gr eat
grandchildrenandgr eatchi l
dren.Allofyoumust
knowt hatt henoisebi cker ingandf i
ghtingisnot
goodf oranyofyou.Hol dinggr udges, motfor giving
eachot herandwi shingot hersbadt hingswi llruin
thisfamily.FaneleuKhanyoi snot hi
ngl i
keyourex-
wife.Stopsayi nghur tfult hingstont hisgir
lbecause
whenyoudot hat,youar eonl ybr i
ngingyour self
badl uck.ThenameyougaveuLungi lewasn' ta
mi st
akeSebenzi le.Yougavei ttoherbecauseof
whatsher epresentedl ight .Peace.Happi nessand
l
ove.For giveyour selfforwhathappened.Youwer e
justachi l
dandyoudi dn' tknowbet t
er.Youcan' t
keeppuni shingandbl ami ngyour self.
"Shet akesa
deepbr
eat
handl
ooksatal
lofus.
Thewayshespeaks,
thewayshecar
ri
esher
sel
fis
ful
lofwi
sdom andi
thumbl
esyou.
"Whatshedi dandkeepi ngitasecr etf orallthese
yearswasver ywr ongandsomemi ghtsay
unforgi
vabl ebutnotanyonei nthi sroom hasar ight
tocondemnsebenzi l
eforwhatshedi d.Whenal lof
youint hisroom havel i
ed, cheated,st oleandki l
led.
Noonei sperfectinthiswor ldbutwel earnaswe
growt omakesmar tchoicesandhopet hatour
chil
drendon' tmaket hesamemi stakeswedi d.
That'
sal lapar enteverwant s.Hol di
ngagr udge
depri
vesyouofbei nghappyandenj oyi ngyourlife.
Itwil
lfi
llyouwi t
hhateandr esentmentandyouwi l
l
bemi serable.Iam notsayi ngfor getaboutwhatshe
didbuti fyoucandoi t
.Lookatt hemensher ai
sed.
Howsher ai
sedt hem withtheirfather .Wedon' tifall
yourkidsGumedewoul dhavet urnedoutt heyway
theyhavehadyouandOwamibeent ogether.
Maybet heywoul dmaybet heywoul dn' thave."
"Busanif
orgi
veyourot
hermot
hermzukuluIknow
i
tisveryhar
despeci
all
ywhenseeherbutt
heboth
ofyouneedt osi tdownandt alk.Youar edoingthis
foryourselfandnother .
"myt winbr othernods."
Thumbuwhathappenedt oyourbr otheri
snotyour
faultandwhatyouandyourgi rlfr
iendher efacedis
notyourf aulttoo.Theset hi
ngshappenmf ana
wami andtof acesomet hingl i
ket hiswhileyouare
sti
llyoungi sverysadbuti t
'slifeandpar tof
growingup.I fyouri nt
ensionsar etruewiththem
thenyouneedt otel
lthetruth."What ?BongaandI
l
ookateachot her.I
sshet alkingabouthi sother
girl
fri
end?.
"Mzukuluwhati
syourname?
."gogo'
askszi
pho'
s
gi
rl
fr
iend.
"Tshegof
atsoMaboagogo.
"
"wher
ear
eyourpar
ent
s?.
"
"Theyar
ebot
hathomei
nWar
den.
"shenods.
"Youneedtocal
lthem andlett
hem knowt hatt
hey
shoul
dexpectvi
sit
orsi
nt henextcomingdaysand
expl
aint
othem whathappenedtoyou.Isthatokay
Gumede?."
"Yebogogo.
"shenods.
"aft
eryouhavebeencleansedbyyourin-l
awsyou
wil
lgohomebeforethem sotheywillcl
eanseyou.
Thenyouri
n-l
awswillcomeaf t
er.Uyezwaangit
hi?
."
"yebogogo.
"
"Ri
ghtnowgotosbani,
shehassomet hi
ngforyou.
Pl
easeshowheraroom shewil
luse.
"lesegoand
si
msgetupandtheyfol
lowthem.
"Tomor rowt hehousewi l
lbecleansedt henweal l
got oLadysmi t
h, aceremonywi l
lbedonef orboth
thechi ldr ent obenamedandt heirmot hersand
father 'scl eansedandt hent rytofixthewr ongst hat
wer edonesot heywon' tfallonallyourchi ldren.
uKhanyot oldyouwhatneedst obedoneand
ever ythi ngyourgr eatgrandmot hert oldher .After
ever ythi nghasbeendoneyouwi lldoumsebenzi
wokubonga.Al lofyouneedt obet her e.Thisf amily
i
sf ul lofboysbutal mostal lofyoudon' thave
childr enot hert hanuMbuso, Bongaandkhanyo' s
brother .Thati snotr i
ght .Therearesupposedt obe
mor echi ldrenr unningar oundt hi
shouse.Youal l
needt ogetyourpr i
ori
ti
esr ightandst oppl aying.
Youar enotget ti
ngyoungerbutol der.Niyangi zwa
angi
th?
."
"yebogogo.
"
"UbaniuThandi
wenoNokut
hul
a?.
"
"Uthandi
weumakot iwamigogo.uNokut
hula
umakotikaSceloubhut
iwaKhanyo.
"bongasays
andgogol ooksatscel
oandhisdadforalongt
ime
thenkhanyoaunt.
"Weneedt otal
k.Al
lofyou.
"shekeepsqui
etagai
n.
"Ther
ei ssomeonemissi
nghere.
"wealll
ookat
eachother.
"OkayIam ti
rednow.Iwokeupearlyi
nthe
morni
ng.Iam ti
redandhungr
y.Bafanabamigoi
n
theki
tchenandmakeussomet hi
ngtoeat.
"
SbanicomesbackwithlesegoandSims.Shegoes
tol
uh,whisper
ssomething.Shetakesl
uh'
shand
andtheywalkout
.I'
m abouttofol
lowthem but
gogostopsme.
"Shewillbefi
nembuso.Youboysgoandcook."
whatthehell
.Idon'tevenknowhowt
ocookbutus"
boys.
"goi nt
hekitchen.
Iwant
edtot
ell
herthatwehaveaboAuntywhohel
p
usbutdi
smi
ssedthatthoughti
mmedi
atel
y.
"It
hinkI'
m scar
edofsbani
'
sgogo.
"Si
cel
osaysand
welaugh.
"UhguysIhavetogo.Ihavet obesomewher e.
"
Mthunzisays.Wenod."Brotherwewi l
ltal
kont he
phoneandIam sorr
yforyourl oss."Mbuyisel
oand
Mabuthoalsohavesomethingt odoi mmediatel
y
andwel aughatt
hem.Theyar er unningawayf r
om
gogoXulu.Webrohugandt heyal lleaveaft
er
promi
singtocometoLadysmi th.
"Iam sosor r
ymanf ort
helossofyourchi
ld.Br
oI
can'
timaginewhatthebothofyouaregoing
thr
ough."Sicel
osays.
"It
'snotaboutmebutl uh.Forthesecondti
mein
myl i
fescel
oI'm verywor ri
edaboutluh.Whenshe
waskidnappedIwast erri
fi
edforherandourki
ds
butthi
stimeit'
sact ual
lywor sebecausei
t'
smore
mentalthananythingelse."Isitdown.
"Youhaven'tphysi
cal
lyheal
edyour
sel
fandthi
s
happened?
.Honestlyl
uhdoesn'
tdeser
vethi
satal
l.
Thi
sli
fet
hingmani
sfuckedup.
"Bongasays.
"Luhhasal
lofus.Youar
enotgoi
ngt
ogot
hrough
thi
sal
one.
"bongasays.
"Congrat
ulat
ionsbrotherforgrowi
ngthefamily
man.Iam proudofyouandIwantyouguyst obe
happyforexpecti
ngyourchi l
dandnotfeell
ikeyou
shoul
dhideitfrom us."bonganods.
"Si
msi spr
egnant
?Congr
atsman."wepathi
m,
morel
ikepunchhi
m andwearenotcooki
ng.
"Who'sbabyi
sshecarryingthough?.
"Itakethe
appl
eont het
ableandbitit
.Theystoplaughi
ngand
l
ookatme.Wel ookateachot hert
henburstout
l
aughing.
"br
odon'
tdot
hat
."sbusays.
"Youandyourwi
fehaveanopenmar
ri
age?
."
busaniasks
"broitwasaonetimething.Nevereverdoi
ngit
again.
"bongashakeshisheadfuri
ouslyandbusani
l
aughsshakinghishead.
"what
?..
.You.
..
."zi
phost
utt
ers,
wel
aughathi
m.
"Yourbr
otherandsi
steri
n-l
awhadat
hreesome.
"
hi
seyespopout
"Whydidyouhavet
otel
lhi
m br
o?.
"bongasays
shaki
nghi
shead.
"youmeant hi
sone?
.Zi
pho?
.Theonewhoi
s
polygamous?.
"
"what
"buti
sitpossi
ble?
."scel
oasks.
"Hel
lno!
."bot
hbongaandsbusayatt
hesamet
ime.
"whyar
eyousosur
e?.
"Iaskt
hem.
"Iusedpr
otect
ionandInevercamei
nher
."sbu
says.
"Younevergotanywherenearherwi
thdi
ckbef
ore
usi
ngprotect
ion?
."Iaskhi
m.
"hel
lno.
"hesays.
"Imadesur
eoft
hat
."bongasays.
"andbesi
desIcanneveri
mpregnateanyoneel
se
othert
hanwhatmyancestor
schoseforme."we
knowthat
.Iwasjustpl
ayi
ngwiththem.
"St
opdi scussi
ngmywoman' spri
vat
epart
syou
per
verts.
"wel aughagai
n.Theyaremaki
ngmefeel
bet
ter.Ihopeluh'
ssi
ster
sarealsomaki
ngherf
eel
bet
tertoo.
"andwena?.Ar
eyougoingtotel
lyourgi
rl
fr
iends
thatyouar
epol
ygamous?.
"sceloaskszi
pho.
"Idon'tknowwheretost
art
."hesays."Iam af
rai
d
thatImightl
osebothoft
hem."
"Your ememberthatonedaywhenumkhul usai d
thatoneofuswillbei napol
ygamousmar r
iageand
wet houghthewast alki
ngaboutumbuso.
"wel augh.
Ilookatmyt wi
nbr other.
"iffr
eakedmeoutmanbutIhaveal waysknown
thatIwasmadet oloveonewomanandt hatismy
beautifulwif
e.Wewi llt
akeyout otheirgravesand
meett herestofthefamily.Theyknowaboutyou
buttoknowt hatyouareactuall
yalive,welland
smilelikemei sgoingtomaket hem r eal
lyhappy.
"
hesmi les.Ibrushhisheadandwel augh.
"Ican'
twai
tfort
hat
."
"Il
oveyoubr
o.Wel
oveyouandwehaveyourback.
Allofusherei
ncl
udi
ngyouzipho.Thi
sthingyoudo
ofexcludi
ngyour
sel
ffr
om t
hisfamil
ystopsnow.
Uyangizwa?.
"
"Thatmeansalott
omeandIhaveyourbacks.no
matterwhat
."
"Yebobhuti
."zi
phosays."Who'
stheol
dest
though?
."
"Meofcour
se.
"busanil
aughs.
"he'
sri
ght
.Mom sai
dthathe'
stheol
dest
."We
l
augh.
"t
omor rowmorni
ng,l
esegoandIarefl
yingt
o
Durban.Theki
dshavetogotoschoolonMonday.
"I
al
mostf or
got.
"ustoobutwewi
llbebackonFr
iday,
wewi
lldr
ive
down."
"Thankyouguysr
eal
ly.
"
"Thismor ni
ngIsentmyemailatworkandresi
gned.
Iwanttobeher ewithmyfamil
yandgettoknowmy
parent
s."busanisaysandIam sur
pri
sed.
"Youmeant
hat
?."
"Ido.Ihear dwhatgogosai dandumamaandIwe
wi l
lsi
tdownandt alk.Ihavet of
orgi
veher .She
raisedmybr ot
herssowel landapar tofmewi shes
thatmaybeIwast heoneshechoset otakesoIcan
experiencewhati t'
sl iket
ogr owupi nahomewi t
h
bot hparents.Shel ooksatyoul i
kethechi l
dshe
gavebi rt
ht ooandyoucanf eelt
heloveshehasf or
you.Foral lofyouandIt oowantt ofeelthatl
ove
from her.Am Iangr y?yesbutIcan'tholdont ot
his
angeranymor e.It
’st i
mef oranewst artandIam
choosi ngtostartitwi thmyf amil
y.Here."Igr
abhis
shoulder.
"weunderstandbrotherandyoudon'thavetoforce
your
sel
fifyouf eell
ikeyoucan'
t.Weallunderst
and
andshewilltoo."henodsinagreement.
"Whataboutt
helif
eyouhadther
e,yourf
ri
ends,
someonespeci
al?
."mybrot
hersmil
es.Hedoes
havesomeonespecial
.
"yeahIsti
llhavet
otal
ktothem.Theyonl
yknow
thatIf
oundmyot herf
amil
y."hmmm.
"l
et'
stal
kaboutsbani
.Youreyeshavebeengl
ued
toherfrom t
hemomentshewal
kedinwi
thher
grandmother.Whati
sgoi
ngonbet
weenyouguys?
."
sceloasks.
"It
alktoheral
mostever
ydayandwel
lthi
ngsar
e
compli
catedbet
weenus.
"
Iknowhe' sgoi
ngtohatewhatI '
m goingtosaybut
hehast ohearit
.Sbucan'tkeeppretendi
ngl i
kethat
partofhisli
fedoesn'
texi
st.He'
spr obablygoingto
changethesubjectasalwaysandgeti rr
itat
edwith
me.
"Br
oyou.
..
"
"shutupmbuso.Don'tyouevensayawor ldabout
mer unningoutoft
ime.Iknowokay?.
"hesays."
Thatshitstr
essesmeout.ManIcan'tsl
eep, sbani
wantsnot hi
ngtodowiththatpar
tofmyl i
fe
and..
.f
uck!.someti
mesIthinkofj
ustwalkingaway
fr
om it.
"
"Youcan'twal
kawayfr
om yourbir
thright
.Your
dadhasbeenwanti
ngtostepdownf oryearssbu
andyouhavebeenaski
ngforti
met ogetthings
toget
herwhenyouwereactual
lyr
unningaway.You
don'
twantwhathappenedtomehappentoyousbu.
Youarenotacowardbutyouar
ebehavi
nglike
one.
"Itel
lhi
m.
"sbani
'sgrandmothersaidt
hesamethingthatday
wemether .Shesaudmyancestorshavebeen
pati
entbuttheywi
llgetfedupandIwil
llosethose
cl
osesttome. "
"whatar
eyouscar
edofexact
ly?
."
"Thehugeresponsibl
yofl eadingpeopl
eand
comingfr
om theroyalfami l
y.Mydadi sgoodat
l
eadingpeopl
e.Hewasbor nf ori
tandheisagreat
ki
ngandIam notsur eifIcanbel i
kehim."
"wai
t?Youar eaprince?
.Youcomef
rom ar
oyal
fami
ly?
."busaniasksshocked.
"Heis.Onl
yhisclosestf
ri
endsknow.ot
herpeopl
e
don'
tknow."It
ellhi
m
"I
ncl
udi
ngoutwi
ves.
"bongasays.Scel
oagr
ees.
"speakf
oryour
sel
ves.Mywi
feknows.
"
"isther
eanyt
hingmysi
sterdoesn'
tknow?
."Scel
o
asks.
"nope.Sheknowsever
ythi
ng.
"wel
augh.
"Butontherealsi
debr
other.I
t'
sti
meyout
ookover
thet
hroneandgetmarri
ed."
"Iknow.Iwantt
omarr
ysbanibutwhenItol
dher
I'
mf r
om ther
oyalf
ami
lyshesai
dwecan'tbe
toget
her
."
"becauseyourr
oyal
?."zi
phoasks
"yesbutIf
eell
iket
her
e'smor
e."
"She'
sherenowandmaybeyouguyswi
llhavea
chancet
otalk.
"henods.
"whataboutt
hemba?
."Isi
gh.
"frankiswit
hhim.Ihatedoingthi
sbutwhenluhis
asleepIwanttogoandf acehim.Ipromi
sedluh
thatIam doneki
ll
ingpeopleandIwanttokeepmu
wor dtoherbutt
hembahast opayf ormaki
ngmy
brotherl
osehischil
d."
"don'
t!
."t
heyal
lsayatt
hesamet
ime.
"what
?."
"wewi
lldealwi
tht
hemba.Wenaj
ustf
ocusonl
uh
andl
eavet
her
estt
ous.
"scel
osays.
"ar
eyouguyssur
e?.
"
"mbuso,
youwokeupat ot
all
ydiff
erentman.The
ol
dmbusowouldhavedealtwit
hthembaandt he
gi
rlf
ir
stt
henouruncl
e."
"Iam notamanwhoget sscaredbyanything
unlessiti
nvolvesmywi feandhersaf etybutguys
seeingmyl i
feflashbeforemyeyesi nthataccident
ter
rifi
edmet omycor eandIdon' teverwanttoput
l
uhorgot hroughsomet hingli
kethateveragain.So
yesIam achangedmani nsomeways.Idon' twant
tostressl
uheveragai n."
"Youl ovemysistermbusoandyoual waysputher
fi
rst.Herandyourkids.That'
sal
labrothercoul
d
askf or
.Iknownomat t
erwhathappensshehas
you.Isleepbet
teratnightknowi
ngthatmysi st
eri
s
withyou."
"t
hankyoubr
o."
Si
snontocomesinandshetear
supwhenshesees
me.Igetupandgi
veherahug.Thi
swomanloves
mywomanl i
keherownchi
ldandmykidsl
ikeher
gr
andki
ds.She'
sfami
ly.
"I
'
m sor
ry.I
'
mjusthappyt
oseeyouagai
nMnguni
."
"Iam backsisnont
o.f
orgood.
"shesmi
lesand
wipeshertear
s.
"Youwereallt
oldtocookbutIf
indyouchat
ti
ng.
Gogowon'tbehappywithyoubutdon'
tworr
y.I
cametohelpyou."
"Konj
ewhatwouldwebewi t
houtyoutakingcareof
us.Si
yabongasi
snontongempel
a.foreveryt
hing.
"
shesmil
esandlooksdown
"Youboyswil
lmakemecry.Nowgetupandhelp
mecook.Takeoutt
hepotsandthemeati
nthe
fr
idge.
"wegetupandhel
pher.
"Yousisnontohasbeenwi t
hourfamil
yfor
decades.WhenIgotreuni
tedwit
hmyf amil
yshe
wasalreadyt
here.
"si
snont osmil
es.
"she'
sli
keamom t
ous.
"Isayandshel
aughs.
"I
'
mjustsi
xyear
sol
dert
hanyou.Icoul
dn'
tbe.
"
"i
t'
snotaboutt
heagesi
snont
obutthewayyou
havebeent
ous.Howyoutr
eatusyouknow.
"
"Yourfamil
yhasalwaysbeengoodt ome.Il
ove
them andbei
ngwi t
hluhtooandhelpi
ngherwit
h
herfamil
yisapleasuret
ome."sheisagood
woman.Shewi l
lmakesomeoner eall
yhappy
alt
houghIthi
nkIknowwhoherhear tbel
ongsto
"someti
mesIwonderwhatmydadi
sthi
nki
ngyou
know?.
"scel
osays.
"whatdoyoumean?
."Iaskhi
m.
"Imeanhowcoul
dhenotseewhat
..
."
"scel
o.Don'
tspeakil
lofyourf
atherpl
ease.Your
dad'
sdecisi
onsarehi
sonlyandallyouhavetodo
i
ssupporthim.
"
"But
..
..
"scel
otr
iest
oexpl
ain.
"chopthosevegesscel
o."okcasecl
osed.Bonga
burst
soutlaughi
ngandwef oll
owtoo.Si
snonto
j
oinsusandweal ll
augh.
IknowI'
mr arel
ywr ongbutthesetwo.Iam sureI
'
m
ri
ghtaboutthem.Sisnontochasesoutoft he
ki
tchenbecausewemakeamessmor ethan
helpi
ngher.Ourotherhousekeepercomesand
helpsher.Wetakethet
wins,gotothenexthouse
andseethechildr
enandtheyarehappytoseeme
eventhoughtheywerescaredtoseemel i
kethat
.
Wepl aywit
hthem unt i
lwear ecal l
edtocomeand
eat.Gogosaysgr aceandshepr aysforalmostten
minut es.Whenshe'sdonekamosaysdi gsi n.I
wat chluhcareful
lyandshe' stakingsmal lbit
esof
herf ood.Hereyesfindmi ne,Ilookatherpl atet
hen
herandsheknowswhatImean.Sheeat smor e
l
ooki ngatmeandIsmi l
e.hercheeksgetr edali
ttl
e
andIgi vehermyf ullsmileevent houghmyf ace
sti
llhurts.
Afterdinnerwegost r
aightt
obedandmymot her
takesthet wi
nwhowi ll
ingl
ygotosleepwit
hher.We
drinkourmedi cat
iont
hengetinbed.Iwanttoask
herwhathappenedwi t
hsbanibutshefal
lsasl
eep
i
mmedi atel
y.Iwrapmyar msaroundherandlet
sleeptakeover.

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CELO.

Ithoughttheworstwasoverf ormysi st
eraft
erher
husbandwal kedthroughthatdoorali
veandnotso
wellbutthemosti mport
antthingwashewasal i
ve.
Mbusoandl uhhaveaconnect ionl
ikenoother.
Somet hi
ngthatisuniqueandspecialtothem only
anditsurpri
sesmemostoft hem ti
mehowi ntune
theyarewitheachot her
.
Iam sohur tforthem forl
osi ngthebabyandI
understandwhymbusoi swor ri
edaboutherment al
healt
h.Weknowl uhisstrongbutsomet imeseven
thestrongestpersoncanbr eakdownandt hi
s
mightbei tforher.Mbusoi sr i
ght.Luhhast ostart
goingtohert herapi
steverydaysoshecanheal .
Theybot hneedt oo.Mbusowokeupdi ffer
entman.
Everyt
hingabouthi mi smuchmor eint
enset hanhe
wasbef orebutinagoodt oo.
Iwi
shIcantakeawayt hepaint
heyar
efeel
ingri
ght
nowandtheresponsi
bili
tyt
hati
sonhershoul
ders
ofcarryi
ngt hewholeGumedef amily.Forthi
ngsto
wor koutwel lf
ortherestoft
hefamilyeveryt
hing
restsonher .Iwishsi
mscoul dhel
pherandcar r
y
someoft hel oudoffhershoul
dersbutshecan' t
.
She'spregnantandshe' sinafr
agil
estate.Ihope
mywi fewillbeabletohelpherwher el
uhneeds
help.
GogoXul ufreakedmeoutwhenshekeptl ooki
ngat
meanddad.Idon' tknowwhatshemeantwhenshe
saidthere'
ssomeonewho' snothere.Iwonder
whom shewast al
kingaboutcausewewer eal
l
thereunlessmaybeshemeantFr ank?.Idon'tknow.
Whatdi dshemeanshesai dwehavet otal
k?.That
oldwomani sscaryman.Iwonderwhendi dlesego
wakeup.Igetupandwal ktothebathroom.
Iwalktot heki
tchenandthedel
ici
ousaroma's
fi
ll
ingthehousear emakingmystomachgr umbles.
Todaywear efl
yingoutt
oDurban.Iwanttogoto
Ladysmi t
hwi t
hthem butwecan't
.Thekidshaveto
got oschoolandIhaveabusinesstorun.DamnI
al
mostwal kbacktothebedr
oom whenIseegogo
Xuludrinkinghercoff
ee.
"SawubonaFuze.Comeandj
oinmefortea.
"how
di
dsheseemewhenherheadi sboweddown?.
"sawubonagogo.Unj
ani
?(goodmor
ninggogo
howareyou?.
)"shesmil
es.
"Iam okayfuze.Callyourdad,auntandwi f
eher
e.
Wehavet otal
kbef oretherestofthehousewakes
up.Yourwif
eandmot herarei
nthekitchen.
"my
dadwalksinthelivi
ngatt hatri
ghtmoment .
"sawubonama(mor ni
ngma) .Morningson."he
sitsdown.Igetuptocallmywi f
ebutshewal ksin
foll
owedbysi snonto,l
uh'
sothermaidandt heyput
themanyser vingdi
shesonthet abl
ewithdiff
erent
kindsofbreakfastf
ood.
"Goodmor
ning.
"Theygr
eetusandwegr
eett
hem
back.
"Yout
oosi
tdown.Fuzegocal
lyouraunt
."
"di
dshesl
eepi
nthi
shouse?
."
"Noshe'snothereorintheotherhouse.Shewent
toseeuncl
efrank."l
esegoexplai
ns.
"Ma,
youwantmet
ost
ayt
oo?
."
"Yebosisi
.Si
tdown.
"whyi
sther
esuddenl
y
tensi
on?
.
"Babawher
eisyourgi
rl
fr
iend?Ihaven’
tseenher
si
ncewegother
einthehouse?.
"Iaskhim.
"She'
satherdaught
erhouseinTembi
sabutshe'
s
comingsowecandrivet
ogethert
oLadysmi
th.
"I
nod.
"Si
nceyoursist
erisnotheret
henweshal
lst
art
wit
houther
."Shelooksatdad.
"Yourwholefamilyhasbeenthroughsomuch.I
haveencounter
edmanyf amil
ieswhohavethi
ngs
happentothem butnotli
kethisonehoweveraft
er
goingt
hroughallofthatyouallmadeit
.Youallhad
asecondchanceinl i
feandthat'
swhatis
i
mpor t
ant.
"shelooksatlesego.
"Yournamesuitsyoubeauti
ful
lynokut
hula
becauseyourepr
esentever
ythi
ngaboutthatname.
Youhavebroughtpeaceandlovetothi
smanyou
aremarri
edtoandhisli
fechanged.Yourmotheri
n
l
awcomest oyouinyourdreamsr i
ght?.
"
"shedoesgogo.
"
"whatdoesshesay?
."
"uhm shesaysmanyt hi
ngsbuttheonet hi
ngshe
al
wayst el
lsmeist
okeepherf amilysafeandnot
l
etotherpeopl
edestr
oyit.Iwouldaskherwhatshe
meansbutshewouldjustsaynoteveryonewho
comesinourli
veshaspur ei
ntenti
ons."what?she
nevert
oldmethat.
"Yourmot herFuzeishappywi ththewomanwhom
youhavechosent obeyourwi fe.She'
st heonewho
l
edout oher .Youloveyourchi l
dren'
srelationshi
p
becauseitremindsyouofl uhwhenshewasj usta
babyandt hetimeyoual ll
ost.Yourchildrenhave
beenacceptedbyyourancest ors.Youdid
everyt
hingrightbywantingthem t ohavet hesame
surnameyoual lhave."
"Thankyougogo.
"Isay.Mychi
ldr
enandwi
fear
e
ever
ythi
ngtome.
"Someoneisgoingtocomeinyourhomeandyour
chi
ldr
enwillseewhatshe'
sgoingtodo.Theywil
l
cometoyousopl easel
ist
entothem.Yourfamil
yis
nothappyaboutwhereyouar
ei nli
fenokut
hulaand
whateverthatmayhappenal waysbecaref
ul
aroundthem."I'
l
lki
llal
lofthem shoul
dtheytr
yto
hurtmywi feandchil
drenIswearI'
llmakemywife
anorphan.
"Don'
twor
rybaby.Theywon'
thur
tyouwhi
leI
'
m
her
e."
"Iknowwhatyouar ethi
nkingofdoingFuze.Don'
t
doit.Thatwi l
lhurtyoursist
ermor ethanyouknow
anditwillruinrel
ati
onships."Fuck!i
st her
e
anythi
ngt hiswomandoesn' tseeorknow?.Dad
l
ooksatmeandIl ookaway.
Iknowt heyhaveal lfor
gi venherbutIf eell
ikehad
shebeendeal twithmysi sterwouldn'thavelosther
baby.Iblamet hei
rmot herf ormysi ster'
stears.Am
Iwil
li
ngt oriskourrelati
onshi psbykilli
ngher?Iwas.
Iwouldhavedeal twi t
ht heconsequencesl at
erbut
nowt hatIam busted.Idon' tthi
nkIcangetaway
wit
hitcauset hisoldwomanwoul dknow.Idon' t
wantt ohurtmysist eri
nanywayandi fmeki l
ling
hermot herin-
lawisgoi nghur therthenIwon' tdoit
.
"Youwon'
tli
ket
heconsequencesscel
o.I
'
m
war
ningyou.
"okshei
sser
ious.
"Iwon'
tdoi
tgogo.
"sher
aisesherr
ighteyebr
owat
me."Ipr
omise.
"
"Youli
etomescel
oandyou'l
lknowme!.Tryme!.
"
what?mydadi
ssmirki
ng.Ohheisenj
oyingthi
s.
"Whatar eyousmi l
ingabout."sheasksdadand
wipesthesmi l
eoffhisface.Ialmostwanttosti
ck
myt ongueoutathim."Ki dsleaveus.Thegrown
upshavet otal
k."Weleavegogowi thdadandsis
nonto.
Mywi f
ewantstogototheki
tchenbutIpul
lher
handandleadhert
othebedrooms.Luhandmbuso
andtheyl
ookli
ketheyhavej
ustwokenup.West op
walki
ng.
Ipullhert
omychestandkissherf or
ehead.I
wonderwhathappenedwhent heywerealli
nthe
otherbedroom wi
thsbu'
ssbani.Damneventhei
r
namesr hyme.
"Howareyouf
eel
ing?
."whatam I
iaski
ng?
."I
mean.
..
."
"It
'sokay.I'
vebeenbet
terbutdon'
tworryI'
l
lbe
fi
ne."shesays.Shedoesn'
tsoundli
keherself
.I
si
ghl ooki
ngatmbusoandhel ooksexhaustedtoo.
Mani snotfull
yheal
edhimself
.
"Di
dyouguysatl
eastgetsomesl
eep?
."
"Weddi
d."mbusosays.
"Hewaswat chi
ngmesl
eepi
ng.Idon'
tknowwhen
hefel
lasl
eep."
"I
'
llsl
eepwhenwegethome.
"hesays.Meani
nghe
wi
llsl
eepwhenl
uhfi
nall
yget
sbet
ter.
"Wear eher
eforyouguyswhat
everyouneed.
"It
ell
them.Shehugsmet i
ghter
.
"Wecantakethekidswit
hust
odur
bani
fit
'sokay
wi
thyou?
."lesegosays.
"No,wehavenanni esandIwantmyf amilyar
ound
me.We'llbeokay."luhsays.Sheandlesegohug."
Thankyouf orbeingforme.Iappreci
ateitmore
thanyouknow. "shesays.
"Wear
esi
ster
sluhandmyf
ami
ly.
"
"Let
sgoandeatbef
oreyoubot
hmakemecr
y."
mbusosaysandwel
augh.
"Lookatyou.Youar
esuchasof
ti
enow.
"he
chuckl
es
"br
odon'
tst
art
."wel
aughandgot
oourbedr
oom.
Icl
osethedoorandi
mmedi at
elygr
abherf
aceand
ki
ssherhard.Shemoans.
"hmmmm scel o.
..
..
your
..
.dad.
.ever
yone
i
s..
.uhhhh.
..
."
"FuckIdon'
tcar
eifanyonehear
sus.Iam hor
ny
andIwantmywife.
"
"but
..
..
.aahhhhhh.
"
Igetonmyknees, l
if
therdr essupandr poffher
underwearandshegasps.Il if
therlegsandput
thenom myshoulders.Herpussyi srightonmy
faceandIdon'twast
et i
me.Isni f
fherandshe
smeelsgood.Herscenti ntoxi
catesme.I tgoes
strai
ghttomybraindruggingme.Iopenmymout h
andcoverherwholemound.Shemoansandher
headhi t
sthedoor
.Wecan' thavet hatbutIli
keher
l
ikethis.
Iswipemyt ongueonhervagi nawal lthenrubher
cli
tandshemoansl oud.Itonguef uckhert ast
ing
herjui
ceandshef uckent astesgood.Hersweet
softsoundsar emaki ngmydi ckreallyhardandit
wantstobel etout
.Imuf fthef uckoutofherand
herhipsbegi ntomoveagai sn'tmyf aceandshe's
fucki
ngi t
.Herj ui
cesar eallovermyf aceandIam
l
ovingit.Isuckonherhar dnub.Shecal lsmyname,
pushesmyf aceharderonherpussy.Iusemy
tonguetof l
ickherclitup,down, sidewaysandni b
onitmor eandshescr eamsasherl egsshakes.
"I
'
m cummi
ngohGod.
..
I'
m cummi
ng.
"
She'sbeingloudandwedon' twanttodi
srespect
anyonelikethisespeci
all
ywhentherear
eadul t
sin
thehouse.Ikissherpussymor ebef
oreIgentl
ypull
myf aceawayf rom herwarmthandgetheronlegs
thatareshaking.Igetup,t
akeherhandandwe
walktothemi ddleoftheroom.
"Getonyourkneesbaby.
"Herbehindthati
sfaci
ng
awayfrom melookssobeaut
if
ul.Iki
ssthose
beaut
if
ulbiggl
obes.
Iunzi
pmypants,takethem downtomykneeswith
myunderwearandmydi ckspri
ngsfr
ee.Pre-
cum
comesoutandsomel andsonherass.Fuck!
.Ir
ub
i
tonher.
"Thisi
sgoingtober oughandqui
ckmama.Don'
t
scr
eam outloud,
ifyoudo.I'
m goi
ngt
ostop.
Uyezwa?.
"shenods.
IseparatethatassandIseeherpi ckt ightring
starr
ingatme.Fuck! .Iwonderi fshe'l
leverl etme
hiti
tinthere.Irubhertightr i
ngwithmyt humband
shejumps.Ipoi ntmydi ckt oherentrance, grabher
waistthenpushi nsidethatwar m,wett ightpussy.
Webot hmoan.Mybal l
sgethar dinstant l
y.Ipull
al
mostoutl eavi
nngmydi ckheadi nsidethent hr
ust
i
nhar dandshecur ses.Ifistherdressonherback,
holdi
ngi tt
ight.
Onehandf istingherdress,theotheroneonher
wai stgrabbingitti
ghtIfuckt heshitoutofher.I
thrustinhar dandr oughknockingt heairoutofher
l
ungswi thever yt
hrust.Herpussymuscl escont
ract
aroundmydi ckmassagingmydi ckfuck!.Iam
goingt ocum andI 'm notready.Ipulloutandmy
di
ckscr
eamst
hreat
eni
ngt
oki
llme.
"l
ayonyourbackmama.Iwantt
oseeyou.
"
Herlipsareredf rom bitingthem andherf acei s
fl
ushed.Shel ooksbeaut if
ul.Sheopensherl egs
andherpussyi sglistening.Ibr i
ngmyheaddown
andwi peallt
hatj uicethenqui cklybri
ngmybody
upent eri
ngher.Herhandsf allonmyassgr abbing
i
twi t
hhernai l
sandpushi ngitdeeperi nher .She
openshermout ht oscr eam butIcl osehermout h
withmi neswallowi ngherscr eams.Iwr apmyar ms
aroundherhol dinghert i
ghtandf uckmywi fe.I
swalloweverymoan, kiss,hert r
yingtosayname
andst eal
ingherbr eath.Idon' tletgooft hatmout h
orfuckingthatpussy, r
ough, rawwi t
houtanymer cy.
Shetakesever ythingI '
m dishingoutcl i
ngingt ome
fordearlif
e.
GodknowsIl ovethi
swomanandIwantt ohave
manychi l
drenwi t
hher .Thethoughofherpregnant
mychildfeelsmyhead.Mydi ckwant
stor el
ease,
golookforthateggandf er
ti
li
seitsoshecanbe
wit
hchild.Itakeoneofherl egsandputitonmy
shoul
derandshescr eams.Fuckyes!.It
hrustinher
wat
chi
ngt
hedi
ff
erentemot
ionsonherf
acepl
ayi
ng.
"mama? ."sheopenshermouthbutnot
hingcomes
out."Openyoureyesmamaandl ookatme."Ihi
t
herg-spothereyesf
lyopen.
"mama?"
"papa.
..
ahhhhyesssss.
..
..
."shesays.
"Il
oveyouthul
a."Hereyesgetmi
sty.Iki
ssher
wholef
ace.
"Lennapapakeahorat
a.(Il
oveyout
oopapa.
)"I
l
oveitwhenshecal
l
smet hat
.
"Masi
khul
iseumuzikababa.(l
et'
smakebabi
es.
)"
Irubhercl
itwithmythumbandshet hr
owsher
headback.Itakeherotherl
egandal
soputitover
myshoulderandcontinuetothr
usti
nher.
"I
'
m..
..
.ah.
..
I'
m cummm..
..
yessss!
."herpussymi
lks
mydi
ckforci
ngmetofol
lowher.
"Cum l
ove.Mi
lkyourdi
ck!
."Iwhi
speri
nherear
.
Igr
abherfaceandkissherbef
oreshescr
eamsthe
wholehousedown.Herbodyshakes,
shemoans
myname, hernai
lsdi
ggingdeepinmeandfuck!
.I
l
oseitandcum deepinhergroani
ngunt
ilal
lofmy
seedhasspil
ledi
nher.
Hershoul der
sshakeandshebegi nstocry.Ipul
l
out,pickherupandlayheront hebed.Igotothe
bathroom andcomebackwi t
hat owelwi
peherand
fi
xherdr essthenwipemyselfandpullmypant sup.
Igetont hebedandl ayheronmychestand
comf ortherasshecries.
"DidIhur
tyou?.
"sheshakesherhead.
"what
's
wrongmama? .
"Shecri
essomemor e.
"Iam scar
edaboutwhatgogosaidandI
'
m sad
aboutwhatluhisgoi
ngt
hroughontheot
hersi
de
I'
m happythatsi
msispr
egnant.
"
"Butwhat
?."Il
if
therf
acesoshecanl
ookatme.
"ever
yonei
sfal
li
ngpr
egnantbutus.
"what?.I
fr
eeze.Mywhol
ebodyget
scold.Shelooksaway.
"ar
eyout
ryi
ngtosaysomet
hingmama?
."sheget
s
upandwi
peshert
ears.
"Iam notonbi
rt
hcont
rolandwedon'
tuse
condoms.I
..
."
"youwhat
?."Igetof
fthebed.Iwanthert
osayi
t.
"whatifyoucan'
thaveki
ds.
"Ishakemyhead
chuckl
ing.
"t
hat
'
sfunnycauseIt
houghtIal
readyhaveki
ds.
"
"Imeanki
dst
hatyou.
..
"
"thatIwhat?f
atheredwi
thmyownspermt hat
's
whatyoumean? ."shel
ooksdown.
"Lookatme
nokuthul
a!.
"
"Youthi
nkt
hatIam i
nfer
ti
le?
."shel
ooksatme."
tel
lmewhy?.
"
"It
'sbeenyear
ssincewe'vebeenmar
ri
edandI
haven'
tgott
enpregnant
?."
"andyoucamei nt
oaconcl usionthatIam t
heone
who'sinf
ert
il
ebecauseIdon'thaveki dst
hatI
producedwit
hmysper m andyoual readyhaveki
ds
sotheprobl
em i
swi t
hme?Ri ght?
."
"papaIdi
dn'tmeantodisr
espectyoubysayi
ng
that
.Iam onl
yworr
iedthat
'sal
l.
"
"whydoesi
tbot
heryoui
fyouandIhaveki
dsor
not
?."
"Iknowhowi mpor
tanti
tisi
nourcul
tur
eandbei
ng
thefi
rstbor
nyouaresometi
mesexpect
edtogr
ow
yourfamil
y."
"letmest opyour ightt here.Si tdown. "shedoes.I
walkar oundt hebedandpul lthecof feechairand
sitdownf acingher ."WhenImetyou, youwer ewith
yourki ds.If el
linlovewi thal lofyouandnotj ust
youonl y.WhenIgaveyoumysur nameIwant ed
them toal sohavei tbecauseIl ovet hem.Theyar e
yourki dsandt heyar emyki dsevent houghIdi dn'
t
birt
ht hem butIl ovet hem likeaf atherwhol oves
theirchi l
dandbi rthedt hem.Wehavebeent ogether
foralmostt hreeyear sandr ecent lymar ri
edand
wenadur i
ngt hatti
meyouhavebeenwor r
iedthatI
haven’ tgottenyoupr egnant ?.Real l
y?."
"papa.
..
."
"wereyouthi
nkingthatever
ytimewemadel ove?.
Whenwef ucked?.YouthoughtthatIwasshooting
bl
anks?.
"
"Nopapanotl
iket
hat
."
"l
ikewhatt
hen?
."
"whenIhear
dsimswaspr
egnantandl
uhl
osing
herbabyi
tmademethi
nkwhatcoul
dbewrongwit
h
us.
"
"Don'
tpatr
oni
zemelesego.Youthoughtwhati
s
wrongwit
hmesinceIam fai
li
ngtobeahusbandto
youandmakeyoupregnantri
ght
?."
"Nopapayouareagr
eathusbandandawonder
ful
fat
hert
oourki
ds."
"buttheyar enotmi neaccordingtoyou.I fthey
wereyouwoul dn'
thaveinsinuatedthatIcan' thave
ki
ds.Youwoul dn’tbecompar ingyourselfwithsims
ormysi ster
.Wear enotincompet it
iontoseewho
get'
spregnantf i
rstorwho'slast.Thingsl i
kethese
happenont heirownt ime.Youdon' tplanwhenand
howyouar egoingt ofal
lpr
egnant .Youcanonl y
pl
ant otryandnotf al
lpr
egnantbutt hatalso
dependsonwhatGodwant s.Ithoughtwewer e
happyandenj oyingourmar r
iagetogetherwi thour
ki
dsbutobvi ouslyIwaswr ong. "
"noscel
oIdi
dn'
tmeani
tli
ket
hat
.Iam happywi
th
you.
"
"Whenwel andinDurbant
oni
ght,f
indadoctor,
makeanappointmentfort
omorr
owsoyouwi l
lfi
nd
outi
fIam capableofmaki
ngyoupregnantornot.
"
"papapl
ease.
"
"whyar eyoucryinglesego?.Am Ihurtingyouright
nowwi t
hwhatI '
m sayingbecauseI 'm sorr
yifIam? .
Iwoul dhavet ol
dyout hatIcan'thavekidsifI
couldn'twhenwef i
rstgottogether
.Iwasn' t
preparedf orhowyouappr oachedt hi
swhol ething.
Itfeel
sl i
keyouwer ecompar ingmet omybr ot
hers
andt hatisnotagoodf eel
ingatall
."
Igetup,ki
ssherf
oreheadandleavet
hebedr
oom.
Thekidsarepl
ayi
nginthehouse.
"kids?
."theystopandlookatme."Whowant si
ce-
cream?."theyallscr
eam."l
etsgothen.Mbuso
walkstome.
"bro,youokay?."hedoesn'
tneedmystress."I
'
m
fi
ne.Justneedtogetsomeai r.
"henodsbutIknow
hedoesn’tbel
ieveme.
CHAPTER81

SI
CELO.

Icomebackfrom McDonal dswi t

hthekidsandthey
hadagoodtime.Igeti nt
heki t
chenandsi snont
ois
cooki
ngwit
ht heothermai d.If
orgetthegir
lsname.
Waitar
en'
tweal ll
eavingtoday?.Whyi sshe
cooki
ngandwhyi sshegi vingthatl
ook.
"Si
snont
o?.
"
"scel
o."i
ssheangr
yatme?
"di
dIdosomet
hingwr
ong?
."
"Idon'
tappreci
ateyout
akingtheki
dst
ogof
ed
them j
unkfood.
"Ohwhot oldher
.
"Theyhasi
ce-
cream onl
yIswear
."I
'
mlyi
ng.They
al
lbeggedmeforbi
gMac' s.
"scel
o?.
"
"OkI'
m sor
rysi
snont
o.Iwant
edt
ogetsomef
resh
ai
r.
"
"Don'
tworryaboutyoursi
sterandhusband.They
haveal
lofus."
"Iknowbutit
'snotaboutt
hem.Ihada
di
sagreementwit
hmywi feandIwal
kedoutonher
."
Shesighsandsit
sdown.Il
ookatherandIcansee
she'
snotherlovi
ngsel
f.Whatdi
dgogosaytoher
andmydad? .
"Ar
eyouokaysi
snont
o?.
"
"Iam okay.Tel
lmeaboutwhathappenedbet
ween
thet
woofyou. "
Idon'
tknowwhatgogoXul
usai
dt osi
snont
o
becauseshei
sdownandIdon'
tli
keseei
nghert
hat
way.
"She'
swor r
iedthati
nalltheyearswe'
vebeen
toget
hershehasn'tf
ellpr
egnant.Shet
hinkst
hatI
mightbeinf
erti
le"
"and?
."huh?
"t
omeitfeltl
ikeshewasmaybecompari
ngmet o
mybr
othersandwhywouldshethi
nkI'
minfer
ti
le?
."
"di
dshesaywhyar
en'
tyoul
ikeyourbr
other
s??
."
"noshedi
dn'
t.
"
"soyouassumedthatshe'scompar
ingyoutothem
andshe'
salsoassumingthatmaybeyoumightbe
i
nfer
ti
le?
."
"Yeahiguess.
"
"Sot
hismeansthatt
her
e'salackof
communi
cati
ngsomewhereinyourr
elat
ionshi
p."
"Wealwayscommuni cat
ewellsi
snontoandIdon'
t
knowwhyshe'sstr
essingaboutmenothavi
nga
chi
ldImadewithher.
"
"Thisisn' taboutyouscel o.WhatI '
m gett
ingis
uNokut hul aisscaredt hatmaybet hefamilywil
l
thinkthatshedoesn' twantt ohavemor ekidsand
withyou.It hi
nkt hatshe'sscaredt hatmaybeshe
alsocan' thavemor ekidst hantheone' syouboth
have.Si celoget t
ingmar r
iedtoaf amilywithyour
kidsisnoteasy.Shei sgoi ngtofeelthepressure
thatshemustpr oduceat rueNgcobohei r.She
scaredt hatmaybeast imegoesandt here'snochil
d
thefami lywi l
lfeelli
ket hekidsshecamewi t
hwill
haveyouri nherit
ance."
"Buttheyal
readydohavet hei
rinheri
tancesi
s
nonto.Whentheytookoursurnamedadmadesur e
thatbot
hofthem havetheirowntrustfundsowhy
wouldourfamil
yfeelthatway?.
"
"I'
m notsayi ngtheyarebuttheycouldinf utur
e.
Yourwifejustwant stohavechi l
drenwithyout hat'
s
all
.Idon'tknowhowshebr oughtt hesubjectbutI
don'tt
hinkshewasunder miningyourmanhoodor
youasherhusband.Shecoul dhavejustsaidthat
theseareherf earsthat
'sal
l.Sicel
odon'tforgetthat
yourwifepr acti
call
yrai
sedher sel
fsoinot herways
shedoesn' tknowhowt obr
ingsuchsubj ectstoyou.
Unlessshef eelsinti
midat
edbyyou. "
"What
?."
"Yesscelo.Youmi ghtnotbeawar ebutshemi ght
.
Shedidn'
tgr ewar oundfami lyli
keyoudespi t
ewhat
happenedbutst i
llFuzeyouf oundyourfami l
yagain
andyoual lbonded.Yourwi f ei
sstil
lgett
ingusedto
havi
ngever yonecar eaboutherandt hatmi ght
scar
eoreveni nt
imidateher .Shehadherkidsyou
andhadtof endf orherselfandherchildr
en.She
wastreat
edl ikeanout castinherownf amilybyher
par ent
s.Hadmaybehermot herwasar oundt
o
teachheraboutl if
e,menmar r
iageamongstother
things,shemi ghtbroughtt
hissubj ecti
nadif
fer
ent
manner .Don'tgetmadatherbutt eachherwhere
shedoesn' tknow."
Sheisrightaboutever ythi
ng.Somet i
mesIf orget
wheremywi fecomesf rom andhowshegr ewup.
It'
snoteasytof orgetthatkindoflif
eyoul i
vedwhen
sheexperiencedi twi
thourki ds.Ihateit.Ihat eso
badandever ytimeIt hinkabouthowt heytr eated
herIwantt ogol ockthem inthathouseandset
them al
lonf i
re.
"YouknowsisnontoIf ai
ledtoputmyselfi
nher
shoesandthinkwhereshe'scomingfr
om.Al lI
coul
dt hi
nkaboutwasthateveryti
meIam i nti
mate
wit
hhershet hi
nksthatIam shooti
ngblanks."she
l
aughs.Ican'
tbeli
evethiswoman."ohyou' re
l
aughingatme? .
"
"I'
m sorr
ycelobutont
her
ealt
hough,
Areyou
shooti
ngblanks?
."
Shel
aughsoutl
oudandIam sur
pri
sedt
hatmy
si
tuat
ionl
etscal
litt
hat
,ist
ickl
ingherf
unnybone.I
endupjoi
ningherandwebothlaugh.
"YouknowI'm not.Ihadt
est
sdoneandIam
per
fect
lyheal
thy."Ifl
exmymuscl
es.
"whydi
dn'
tyout
ellhert
hat
?."
"It
oldhertosetanappoi
ntmentf
ort
omor
rowsoI
cangetcheckedout
."
"youthoughtshewouldn'
tbel
ieveyou?."honest
lyI
thoughtshewouldj
ustthi
nkthatI'
m sayingitt
o
easehermind.
"she'
sal
readyt
hinki
ngt
hewor
stnj
ena?
."
"that'
snothowamar r
iageworksscel
o.Yourwor
d
i
sgoodenoughf orher
.Shejustwantedyouto
reassureherandputhermindatease.
"If
uckedupdi
dn'
tI?
."
"Not hebot
hofyoumessedup.Shedidn'
tdeli
veri
t
wellandyoudi
dn'
trecei
vei
twellandyoulef
ther
feel
ingbad.
"
"howdoIf
ixi
t?.
"
"Justgi
veyourwifewhatshewant s."If
rown."Bed
herandfi
llherbel
ly.Makeherscream yourname
l
ikeshedidthismorning.
"shelaughswhenshe
seestheshockedlookonmyf ace.
"what
?.Youhear
dus?
."ohf
uck!
.
"Thewholehousehear
dyouandgogowasshaki
ng
herheadt
hewholeenti
ret
ime.
"
"OhmyGodshehear
dus?
."
Shebur
stsoutl
aughingandIshakemyhead
l
aughi
ng.She'
sjustmessi
ngwithme.
Mydadwalksinwit
hhisgi
rl
fr
iendandt
hesmi
leon
si
snont
o'sfacei
sgone.
"goandtalktoher
.Idon'twanttoseethatchi
ld
upsetcel
o.Buyherfavouri
tef
lowers,
chocolat
eand
expensi
vejewel
ler
y."webothgetupandIhugher .
"Youhavealwaysgivenmebestadvi se.I
appreci
atei
tandIappreci
ateyou."Ikisshercheek
andshesmiles.Agai
nwhyi sn'
tmydadsweepi ng
thi
swonderfulwomanof fherfeet
?.
"I
sever
ythi
ngokaywi
thmaMot
aung?
."Hi
seyes
keepinggoi
ngbetweenmeandsi snonto.The
ki
tchengetsfi
ll
edwit
ht hi
sawkwar dvi
be.Dad
needstosortt
hiswholesit
uati
on.Ithi
nkwhatgogo
saidtothebot
hofthem causedthi
swholeweird
energy.
"Nothingmajordad.I '
l
lfi
xit
."Il
ookatsisnontoand
she'sonthestove.Ilookatdadandhe'slooki
ngat
her."uhm hi
.Iam sicelo.
"weshakehands.
"Iam Ur
sulaMemel
a.Ni
cet
omeetyouf i
nal
lyscel
o.
Yourdadhastol
dmesomuchaboutyou.
".
"Nicet
omeetyout
oomi
ssMemel
a."Ir
emovemy
handfr
om her
.
"OhpleasecallmeUr
sul
a.Mi
ssMemel
amakesme
feelol
d."Ismi
le
Dadoncet oldmet othathemetsomeoneand
obvi
ouslyit'
sher.Iwon'tsaythatthoughcauseI
don'
twantt ohurtsisnonto.Iknowt here'
s
somethingbetweent hem buttheyhavenevertri
ed
todate.Si
snont ohaswor kedforourf amil
yforas
l
ongasIcanr ememberandnotoncehaveIever
heardthatshehassomeonespeci alinherli
fe.
Al
thoughshehaschi
ldr
en.
"Uhm Iam goi
ngtogo.Wear eleavinginafew
hours.
"dadnods.Ileavethem inthekit
chenand
whenIgetintheli
vingroom there'
sawomani n
ther
eandshe'swear i
ngtheshor t
estdressIhave
everseen.
"CanIhelpyou?."Shet ur
nsaroundandsmi l
es
whensheseesme.Si mswalksinfol
lowedbyher
husbandandmywi fe.Wherearetheother
s.The
womanl ooksatthem whent heycomeinandher
facebeamswi t
ht hehugestsmileonherface.
Where'ssbuthough?
"CanIhelpyou,
areyoulookingf orsomeone
here?
."shel
ooksatmest i
llsmili
ng.Mywi festands
nexttomeanddrapemyar m onhershoulder.She
walkstowar
dsusanditlooksl i
keshe'sgoingto
hugme.Shebetternot
.
"Hiam Lusi
webutever
yonecal
lsmelucy.
"she
saysandgoesf
orahugbutsimsstopsher.
"yohbri
kaausiLucycanwehelpyouwith
somethi
ng?.
"simsisannoyedandthewayshe'
s
l
ooki
ngatthatshor
tski
rtordr
essshe'
sweari
ng
youcanseeshesobadlywantst
ocoverherl
egs.
"Iam Ur
sula'
sdaught
er?
."ohshedoesl
ookl
ikeher
i
fyoulookclosel
y.
"who'
sUr
sul
apapa?
."Ismi
le.
"I
t'
smydad'
sfemal
efr
iend.
"It
ellt
hem
"Wellt
heyar emor ethanjustf
ri
endsandIt hink
soonwear eallgoingtobeonebi ghappyfami l
y."
she'
sexcit
ed."Mymom t alksaboutyoualltheti
me
andIfeell
ikeIalreadyknowyoual l
."ohhellno.
Whatdiddadsay? .
"Thi
smustbeyourwi feLesego,
andyouar
esi
ms
andthi
sisyourhusbandBongaandofcour
se
mbuso.Whereisluhthough?.
"
Alookpassesbet
weenmywi feandsi
ster
.Noone
cor
rect
sheraboutbusanibei
ngmbuso.
"Iam si
mphiweandl ungi
leisn'
tluht
oyou.We
don'
tknowyou, f
oryoutosayournamesl i
ket
hat
."
Okayshe'sbei
ngalit
tleharshnow.
"Ni
cet
omeetyouur
sul
a.Pl
easesi
tdown.
Someonewi
llat
tendt
oyou.
"shesi
tsdown.
"whenar
ewel
eavi
ng?
."Iaskbonga.
"Whenl
uhandt
heot
her
scomeback.
"
"Wher
edi
dtheygo?
."
"Theyl
eftwi
thgogo.
"bongasays.
"canwetal
k?.
"Iaskmywi fe.shenods.It
akeher
handandwewalktothebackyar dwher
embuso's
fat
heri
shavi
ngatalkwit
hhi swives.
"I'
m sorryabouthowIr eact
edearli
er.Youar e
afr
aidandIwassupposet oassureyout hatyou
shouldn'
twor ryaboutushavingbabybecauseIam
fer
ti
le.Ididtestsbeforewemetanddur ing.Wewil
l
fal
lpregnantwhent hetimeisri
ghtmama.Musa
ukukhathazekasthandwasam.(st opwor ryi
ngmy
l
ove.)Uyangixolel
a?(doyouf orgi
veme? .)"
"I'
m sor
ryt
oopapa.Icoul
dhavesai
dthatnoti
nan
accusi
ngmanner
.I'
m scar
edpapathat
'sal
l.
"
"scar
edofwhat
?."
"Whatwi
llyourf
ami
lysayi
fanot
heryeargoesby
and.
..
"
"babyst op.Thewor ryi
ngandst r
essingiswhati s
goingtomakei thar dforustofal
lpregnant.The
famil
yyouar etal
ki ngaboutisyourfamilytoo.
Whetherwef al
lpr egnantornotIwilll
oveyout he
sameandnot hingwi l
lchangebetweenus.Al lour
chil
drenwi l
lreceivet hesameamountoft heir
i
nheritance.From Dad, meandLuh.Justl i
kehow
kamoandkagi sohavet hei
rtr
ust.Stopwor ryi
ng
okay?."
"OkayFuzel
am.
"Ichuckl
e.
"Ngi
yakut
handauyezwa?
.(Il
oveyou.
.)"
"ngiyakut
handaFuzelam.(Iloveyou.
)"shet
alks
Isi
Zulusosexy.Igi
veherakissonhercheekt
hen
walkbackinthehouse.
Wewal kinandsi tdown.Simslooksli
keshewant s
toshootherself
.Lusiweistal
kingabouther
beauti
fulli
fei
nSandt onbuthereyesareonbusani
whom shet hi
nksi smbuso.Busanidoesn'tl
ook
i
nterestedbecausehe'sonhisphoneandbongai s
onhisphonet oo.Ibetthoset
woar etal
kingtoeach
other.
"Haveyouseenhermom?
."si
msasks.
"She'
sint
heki
tchen.Why?"
"It
houghtshemi
ghtwantt
oseeher
."
"OhIdon'
t.Yourdadcametopi
ckupmymom and
It
houghtl
etmecomei nandsayhit
oever
yone.
"
"Youcan.
..
."
"baby?
."
"what
?."shesaysl
ooki
ngatbonga.
"don'
tber
udet
o..
..
"hel
ooksatme.
"Don'
tber
udesi
s."
DadandUrsulacomewalki
ntheli
vingroom andhe
l
ooksoff
.Ursulai
shol
dinghi
shandf orl
if
e.Sims
l
ooksatmeandIshrugmyshoulders.Theysit
down.
"Uheveryonethisi
sUrsulaandherdaughter
Lusiwe.
"hesays.Okaywhatchangedcauset he
l
asttimehet al
kedaboutherhewasexcited?.They
greetUr
sulabackandthenitgetsqui
et.The
gumede'salsocomeinandt heyal
sodon'tlook
okay.Whati
sgoi
ngoni
nthi
shouse?
.
Thedooropensandeverypersoncomesin.Luh
hassomecolouronhercheeksandzipho'
sgirlt
oo
l
ooksbett
er.Sbaniontheot
herhanddoesn'tl
ook
fi
ne.Gogoisthel
asttocomei n.Theyal
lsi
tdown.
"Youaret
winswow.Sot
hisi
sther
ealmbuso?
."al
l
eyest
urnonher
.
"Uhm everyonethisisUrsul
aandherdaught er
Lusiwe.
"dadsaysl ooki
ngatluhwhohasherhead
onhischest.Dadgoesar oundthet abl
eand
i
ntroduceseveryone.Theygreeteachothershaki
ng
handstooexceptmbusoofcour se.Thelookgogo
hasonUr sulai
sunset t
li
ng.Whatissheseeing?.
"wher
ear
etheki
ds?
."mbusoasks.
"thetwi
nsar
enappi
ngandt
her
estar
epl
ayi
ng
outsi
de.
"Wher
eisuncl
efanel
eanduncl
evi
ctor
?."
"Theyal
llef
tthi
smor
ning.
"si
mssays.
"wher
e'syourmom?
."gogoasks.
"she'
slayi
ngdown.
"
"Letsgot
oher
.Yout
oobongacome.
"Theyf
oll
ow
her.
Sbanigetsuptooandgoest othekitchen.Sbutr
ies
tofol
lowherbutthelookonherf acestopshim.I
am al
mostwantt olaugh.Iam soenjoyingseei
nga
womanr uff
li
nghisfeather
s.
"Gi
vehert
imebr
o."mbusosays.
"wher
ewer
eyouguys?
."
"Atapar kjustdownthest
reet.Gogosuggest
edwe
takethem outanditwasni
cebutsomeoneel se
decidedtotagalongli
kealovesickt
eenager.
"we
l
augh.
"whenar
eyoul
eavi
ng?
."
"Inanhour
.Wewi l
lseeyouontheweekend.
"It
ell
them."webet
tergetourbagsr
eady.
"
"Ial
readypackedeveryt
hing."mywif
esays."Iwi sh
Ihadli
stenedtoyouluh.IneeduAunty.
"Ihave
beentel
li
nghertogetsomeonet ohel
pherar ound
thehouseandwiththekidsbutshealwaysrefuses.
"Idon'
ttr
ustmai
dsandi
fIwer
eyouIwoul
dn'
ttr
ust
t
hem t
ooar
oundyourhusbands.
"
"wetr
ustourhusbands.
"luhandlesegosayatthe
sameti
me.Igri
n,sburol
lshiseyesandwel augh.
"excuseme."l
uhgetsup,mbusot
oo."I
'
m goi
ngt
o
thekit
chenI
'
mf inebaby.
"
"Iknow.I'm hungr
ytoo."Luhgi
vesmbusotheoh
reall
ylook.Hewinksatherandshesmil
es.Gogo
beinghereishelpi
ngallofus.
"Luhcanwet
alk?
."dadasksher
.
"canwedoi
taf
terIhavehadsomet
hingt
oeat
?."
"okbaby.
"dadsays.
"Youwer
eattheparkandhadapicni
cIt
hinkbut
youdi
dn'
teatanyt
hing?
."l
usi
weasks.
"Wedidn'
t.I
twasadi
ff
erentki
ndofpi
cni
c."t
shego
says.
"r
eal
lywhathappened?
."
"wejustt
alkedt
hat
'sal
l.
"shel
ooksatl
uhandt
hey
smi
le.
Gogocomesbackwi
thsi
msandbonga.Theysi
t
down.Gogolooksatmbuso'
sdad.Mbusosi
tswhi
le
l
uhleaves.
"Qwabedi
dyout
alkt
oyourf
ami
ly?
."
"Idi
dma.Mbuso'
saunti
spr
epar
ingever
ythi
ng.
"
"andyoumaphol
oba?
."dadcoughs.
"t
heytoowi
llbereadyf
orust
omor
row.
"Gogo
l
ooksatUr
sula.
"I'
m sor
rywhati
syoursur
nameagai
n?.
"gogoasks
her
"I'
m Ur
sulaMemela.Shei
sLusi
weMemel
a.my
daught
er.
"gogonods.
"I
sthatyourmai
denname?
."
"uhm yesgogo.
"sheshi
ft
sinherchai
r.
"Khet
hiweUrsul
aMemela.You'vebeenmar
ri
ed
twi
ceangi
thsisi
?(i
sn’
tthatr
ight?)
.”
"Ahyes.Howdoyouknowmyot
hername?
."
"thi
ssil
lyol
dwomanknowsal otoft
hings.Have
youbeenmar ri
edtwi
ce?
."Shel
ooksatmydadwho
l
ooksuncomf ort
abl
e.
"yesIhave.
"shesays.Il
ookatl
usiweandhereyes
bouncebetweenmbusoandbusaniwho'sl
ooki
ng
str
essed.i
tmustbefemalepr
oblems.
"youl
ovet
hisman?
."
"Ido.Il
ovehi
m."Ur
sul
asmi
lesl
ooki
ngatmydad.
"Howdi
dyourmar
ri
agesend?
."
"Myhusbandsdi
ed."si
mscoughsoutt
hewat
er
shewasdri
nki
ng.Gogonods
"I'
m sosorr
ytoheart
hat
.Ihopeyou'
l
lgetmar
ri
ed
again.
"gogosays.
"Ihopesotoo.Youknowwhattheysay.Thi
rdt
ime
i
sacharm."Ursulasaysl
aughi
ng.
"howdi
dtheydi
eifyoudon'
tmi
ndmeaski
ng?
."
"babyman!
.Mi
ssMemel
ayoudon'
thavet
oanswer
that
."
"Iwantt
oknowt
oo.
"mbusosays
"onehadheartat
tackandt
heot herdi
edini
s
sl
eep."shesai
sone,notmyfi
rsthusbandand
second.
Sbu'
sphonebeeps.Hetakesi
toutandr
eads
what
evert
hatisther
e.
"t
imet
ogoever
yone.Thej
eti
sready.
"
Wegot othebedrooms, coll
ectthebagsandcal l
thekids.Wesaygoodbyet oever yonest aying
behind,getinthecarsanddr i
vet ot heairport
.When
Isaidgoodbyet osisnontoIcoul dn'tbutseet hat
shewascr yi
ng.Iwanttohopet hatmaybet heywill
bothfinal
lyacknowledget hefeelingsherandmy
dadhavef oreachot her
.Inmyhear tIf
eellikedad
didn'
tdatebecausehet ool i
kessi snonto.Ihavet o
talkt
omydadandhearhowher eal lyf
eelsabout
sisnontoandUr sula.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER82.

SEBENZI
LE.

Ir
egr
etever
ythi
ngIeverdi
dtomyf
ami
ly.Especi
all
y
whatIdidtomysi ster
.IwishIcant ur
nbackthe
handsoft i
meandundoever ythi
ngbutIcan't
.Iwas
preparedtotakemysecrettothegravebutsecr
ets
haveawayofcomi ngoutnomat terhowhardyou
tr
yt oburythem.
Secretseatatyoursoulslowlyuntilyougettoa
pointwhereyoucan'tleavewi t
hthem anymor eand
youwantt oshareitt
osomeoneandIdi d.Ithought
mybestf ri
endwillal
sot akethatsecrettohergrave
butherdaughterheardusandshehasbeen
blackmail
ingmeeversi nceuntilIt
houghtmbuso
andsbuhadki ll
edherbutLi kethedevilsheisshe
foundawayt ostayaliveandbehi dden.HadIhave
knownt oothatshewasal iveIwoul dhavefound
someonet otakeherout .
Iwaspr eparedt
odot hatandlivewi t
hitbutwhen
whatIthoughtwasoursecr etcameoutIknewi t
wasoverf orme.Itist
ruewhent heysayasecr etis
onl
yasecr etwhenonl yoneper sonknowsi t
.Iftwo
ormorepeopl eknowthent hatisnolongerasecr et
andIlearnedthehardway.Iam nowr eli
evedthatI
am nolongerkeepingsecretsfrom anyone.
Especi
all
ythemanIl
oveqwabe.
Ihaveneverseenhimthi
shurtinalltheyearsI
havespentwithhi
m.Hehasal waysl ookedatme
wit
hloveandadorati
onbutnowt helookshegi ves
mear et
hatofcontemptanddisgust.Whywoul dI
behurtandblamehim whenIknowwear einthis
messbecauseofmeandsoIowei ttothem tof i
x
thi
ngsbetweenusandIam goingtodoi tri
ght.
Allmyki dshatemeandt heycan' tstandt obeinhe
samer oom asme.Wel lnotalloft hem because
surprisinglymbusoistheonewhoi sn'tmadatme
orhat esme.Hest i
llcall
smemom andt hewayhe
saysi tisalwayshowhehassai di t.Iknowwhat
kindofmanmbusoi s.Mysondoesn' tjustfor
give
andf orget.Hegetsrevengeandhi swayofget ting
i
ti skil
li
nganyonewhohasbet rayedhi m orstepped
onhi sshoes.Iwasscar edthathe' sgoi ngtokillme
tooandnoonewi l
lstophim buthedi dn't.
Thepersonwho'st
hemostangryatmeisbonga.
Hehatesmeandhedoesn'teventr
ytohidei
t.I
hopeastimegoesbyhewillgi
vemethe
oppor
tunit
ytoapol
ogi
zet
ohi m andmaybewecan
workoutonourr elat
ionshipagain.Myl astbornson
hasbeent hr
oughal otsinceeverythinghappened
andIcan'tevenholdhim andcomf orthimf orlosing
hischil
dtoo.He'ssti
llt
ooyoungt obeexper i
encing
everyt
hingli
kethisandIknowheneedsmenow
morethanever.Heavoi dsmeatal lcost sandwe
haven'
tevensaidonewor dtoeachot hersinceI
sawhim atthehospitalaft
erthreeyear s.
Hemightbeyoungbuthe' snolongeraboybuta
man.Whathewentt hroughwit
hhi sgi
rl
dfr
iend
madehim gr
owup.Ij usthopehim amdbonga
won'
tkickmeoutoft hei
rli
vesandkeepmeaway
f
rom t
heirki
ds.Imissedbonga'skidsandImissed
mbuso'
skidstoowhom Ihel di
nmyar msadf t
er
t
hreewholeyears.
Thattimeawayi sol
atedf r
om myf amilywast he
hardestti
meofmyl ife.Imi ssedmyhusband, I
missedmyki dsandImi ssedmygr andchil
dren.I
willnotwast
et hissecondchanceIam gi venand
spendasmucht imeIhavewi thallt
hem.Iwi ll
provetothem thatIam nol ongerthatinsecureli
tt
le
gir
lwhowasf ullofjeal
ousyf orhersist
erandwho
di
dn'
tknowwhatl
ovei
s.
Iknewwhatl oveisf rom qwabe.Hewasmyf i
r stin
everythi
ngandIl ovehimt odeat h.Hetaughtmeal l
thatIknowandIam t hewomanIam t oday
becauseofhi m,Everytimehel aidinmyar ms, l
ooks
i
nmyeyesandcal ledmehi sl ovewassomet hingI
nevergottir
edofhear i
ng,Everyti
mehesai dwami I
woul dcryi
nsidebecauseoft heshameandgui l
tI
fel
t.QwabeandIl ovebeent hroughalotandl etti
ng
got ohisonetruelovehur t
smesodeepIcr y
mysel ft
osleepever ynight.
Iknowhehasbeenspendi ngti
meandni ght
swi t
h
her,Iknewitwoul dhurtbutnotl
ikethis.Ear
li
er
todayqwabeaskedt otalktousoutsideandhet ol
d
usthathewi llbepayingdamagesandl obol
afor
bothofusasperi nsctr
ucti
onsfrom luhandgogo
xuluwhoi sthehelpersentbyourgr andmother.I
agreedbecausei texpectedfr
om him byourculture
andt r
adit
ion.
Mbusoandl uhwi t
hgogoandsbanistayedbehind
i
nLanseria.Theyhavetocleansethehouseand
gogoaskedt hem t
ostaybehindtheywil
lfol
lowus
whenwear edone.Wear r
ivedanhouragoat
mbusoandl uh'shouseher ei
nLadysmi t
h.Luh'
s
dadandauntt ookthekidswiththem tol
uh's
fat
hershouse.Ziphoandhi sgir
lf
riendare
somewhereint hehouseandbusanii swithhi
s
parent
s.Ihavebeeni nthi
sbedroom sincewecame
i
nlayingdownont hebed.
ThedooropensandIknowi t
'smyhusband.Isitup
butdon' tl
ookathim.Thingsarenotgreatbet
ween
usatal landIam wait
ingforwhenhef inal
lyt
ell
s
met hathewant sadivorcefr
om meandIwi l
lgi
veit
tohim andnotcauseanypr oblems.Hecomeson
thesideI '
m si
tt
ingonandsitsnexttomebutnot
thatclose.Ihat
ethedist
ancebet weenusbutIhave
tosucki tup.
"Qwabe.I
sther
eanyt
hingIcanhel
pyouwi
th?
."
"whyhaveyoul
ockedyour
sel
fint
hebedr
oom
al
one?.
"
"Iwasf
eel
ingt
ir
edsoIdeci
dedt
onapal
it
tl
e."
"Butyouwer
e'ntsl
eepingwhenIcamein.I
fyou
wereyouwoul
dn'thavehear
dmecomi ngin.
"Ikeep
quiet
."Idon'tl
ikei
tthatyouexcl
udi
ngyour
sel
f
fr
om everyone.
"
"I
t'
sbestf
orever
yonei
fIam notar
ound.
"
"whot
oldyout
hat
?."
"noone.Ij
ustknow.
"
"thi
sisyourf
amil
y.Youl
ockyoursel
finbedroom
andbealoneandt
hinkit
'sokaywit
heveryone?.
"
"Iwasaloneinahousefort
hreeyear
sqwabeso
thi
sisnothi
ng.Ever
yonewasokaywithmegone
thr
eeyearsagosotheywouldn'
tmindnow.
"
"Idi
dn'
tsendyouawaymkami
.Mbusodi
d."
"butyoudi
dn'
tst
ophi
m."
"Ididn'
tbecauseIknewifyouwerear
oundIwas
goingtokil
lyou.
"Thisi
sthesecondti
mehe'
s
sayingthi
s.
"Iknowyouwouldhavebecauseyouhavet
ri
ed
befor
e."hel
ooksatmewit
hshame
"Thatwasnotmyproudestmomentmkami
.Ar
e
youevergoi
ngtof
orgiveme?.
"
"ar
eyouevergoi
ngt
ofor
givemef
orwhatIdi
d?.
"
Hetakesadeepbreat
hinandt
henoutandtakes
myhandsinhis.Hi
sbigcol
dhandst
hathave
al
wayswarmedmeup.
"Ihavedonethingstoyout hatourkidsdon'tknow
orevenmyf amilyandeverytimeIthinkaboutthem
Iwanttogobackandundot hem.Ihavelied,
cheated,
beatyouupandal mostki l
ledbutyou
for
gavemef oritandstuckbymet hroughtital
l.
"
"That'sallint
hepast.Youarenotthesameman
youusedt obe.Asourkidsgotol
derandgr ew,you
didtoo.IknowwhatIdi dhappenedal ongtimeago
butyouf oundoutnotlongagoandi tsti
llhur
ti
ngfor
allofyou."
"It
'seasytoblameyouforalloft
hisbecauseyou'
re
theonewhost art
edi
tbutthatdoesn'
tmeanyouar e
nothurti
ngtoo."
"Iam gett
ingwhatIdeser ve.Il
iedandkepti
ta
secr
etfrom allofyouforyears.It
'st
imeIpai
dfor
mysinsandl etallofyoubehappy. "
"whatar
eyousayi
ngmkami
?."
"Iwi
shyouwouldn'
tcal
lmet
hat.Iam notwort
hyto
becal
ledyourwi
fe.
"Iwi
pemytearsandstandup.
"Iknowt hingsar
enotgoodbet
weenusbutyoustil
l
aremywi fe."Iwi
sht
hatcoul
dbetr
ue.Iwalkto
whereIputmyhandbagandopeni t
.Godthisisso
hard.Ipulloutawhi
tebi
genvel
opandtur
nf aci
ng
hi
m.
Hehasst oodupandhe' swalki
ngt owardsme.I
shakemyheadandhest ops.Myt earswon'tstop
fall
ing.Istret
chmyhandandgi vehimt heenvelope.
Hewal kstothedoor,
locksitandthencomesback.
Heput shi shandsinhispantsandst andsafew
feetfrom me.
"Whati
sthi
s?.
"
"Ihavebeenholdi
ngont othem andIwasgoingt
o
gi
vethem toyoubutt
henwegotacal labout
mbusobeinginanaccidentand..
..
"
"Isaid.Whati
sthi
s.Idi
dn'taskyout
oexpl
ain.
"He
scaresmewhenheget sl
ikethis.
"Thesear
ethedi
vor
cepaper
s."
"Who'
s?.
"
"Our
s."hechuckl
es
"Youdon'
tlovemeanymor
e?.
"what
?.
"ofcour
seIdol
oveyouqwabe.
"
"Di
dIaskyouforadi
vor
ceorgi
veyouani
deat
hat
Iwantust
odivor
ce?.
"
"No,
butIwantt
oseeyouf
reeandbewi
thyourone
tr
uel
ove.
"
"setmefr
ee?WasIi
nchai
nswi
thyoual
lthi
sti
me
andyouwantmetobewi
thmyonetr
uel
ove?.Who
mightt
hatbe?
."
"Imadeyouliveal
iewi
thmeallt
heyear
swespent
toget
herandyouknowwamii
syouronetruel
ove.
"
"Soyouwantust
odi
vor
cesoIcanbewi
thher
?."
"Yes.Iowei tt
oyoubot handyourchil
drentobe
together.Youneverhadachancet obetogether
becauseofmeandnowt hatsheisher
e,youhave
anotherchance.Iwon'tstandi
nyourwayt hat'
s
whyIneedyout osignthesedivor
cepapersqwabe
please."
"Youwantmeandyoursi stertobetogether?.I
n
otherwor dsyoumeant hatyouwantyoursi sterto
bewi thyourhusband,t
akeoveryourf ami l
yand
playtheMat ri
achofthi
sf amilyandIwoul djustbe
okaywi t
hitbecauseweneverhadachancet ohave
ar el
ationshi
p?.Soyouwilll
etyoursisterhave
everythingyouhaveeverwor kedhardforthat's
whatyoumean? .
"
"Iwantyoutobehappyandmakeal i
fewi
thher
."
hewalkscl
oserandlooksatt
heenvel
opei
nmy
hand.
"makeal i
fewithheryousay?Idon'
tknowt he
personyouwantmet omakeali
fewith.Iknewa
l
it
tl
egi rlt
hatIlovedthenandgotherpregnant
.I
don'tknowt hewomanshehasbecome. "
"shei
sst
il
lthesameper
sonyouf
elli
nlovewi
th.
"
"Ihavechanged,Iam amannowandnott heboy
sheusedt oknow.Ifel
linl
ovewi
thhert henbutnot
now.Shemi ghtl
ookl i
keyouandtalkl
ikeyoubut
shecanneverbeyoui neveryway."
"Shest
il
llovesyouqwabe.
"
"shet
hinksshedoesbecauset
oherI'm st
il
lthe
sameboysheusedtoknowandl ove.
"
"youcanst
il
lbet
hatandbehappyt
oget
her
,"
"YouknowIdon' trememberat i
mewhenIwasn' t
happywithyou.Iwassounhappyt helastthree
yearsIdi
dn'tseeyou.Iwasmi serabl eandst r
essed
andtheonlypersonIwant edeverydaywasyou.To
holdme,tel
lmet hatyoul ovemeandever ythi
ng
wil
lbeokaybutIcoul dn't
.Ididhat eyout hef i
rst
yearyoutol
dust hetruth.ThesecondyearIst ar
ted
missingyouwhent heangerdi eddownandt helast
yearIwasmi ser
ableandIcoul dn'ttakeitanymor e
soIcamet oyousowecoul dtalk.
"
"qwabe.
..
."
"noIl
ist
enedt
oyousonowyouar
egoi
ngt
oli
sten
tome.
"
"Youhavebeenwi t
hmethrougheverythi
ngand
stil
lstayedwhenmanywouldhavewal kedaway
from everythi
ngt
hatIwasdoing.Youbuil
tthis
familywi t
hmeandgavemeaver ywarm,safeand
happyhome.Youhaveal waysbeenamot herfi
rst
toourchildr
ent henawi fetomeandt hathas
alwaysmademepr oudbecauseIknewIchoset he
ri
ghtwomant ohaveal ifeandbuildahomewi th.
Youwer enotpr etendingt obesomeoneel se
sthandwasam i twasal lyou.Youonl yhadher
nameandchi l
dbutever ythingel
sewasallyou.I
forgi
veyouf orwhatyoudi dmamakaMbuso.Il ove
youandIwi llal
waysbeyourhusbandandaf ather
toourthreekids.Thi sisyourf ami
lyandyoursister
won'tcomei nandbet hequeenoft hi
sfamil
ycause
thatseatisonlyforyouandnooneel se.
"Hewi pes
myt ears.
"Iknowyouhavebeenspendingnight
swit
hher
."
hesighsandtakest
heenvel
opefrom meandt
ears
i
tintopi
eces.
"IknowyouhaveseenusandIknowt hathurt
syou
anditwasn'tmyintent
ion.Ishouldhavecamet o
youandtalkedtoyouabouti tbutIdi
dn'tknowhow
togoaboutitbecauseIknewIwasgoi ngt ohurt
youandIcouldn'tseethatl
ookonyourf aceagain
becauseofme."
"yetyoudi
ditanywaybutdon'
twor
ry.Iexpect
ed
i
t.
"whatcanIsay.Hepul
lsmet
ohi
m andmakes
melookathi
m.
"Youhaveneveri nyourl
ifest
eppedoutofour
mar ri
agebutIhaveandstil
ldi
devenaf terI
promi sedyouIwon'tdoi
tagainbutIhavewi t
hyour
sisterandIam sor
ry.Youdon'tdeser
vei tever.I
tookadvantageofoursit
uati
onandt hatisvery
wr ongofme."
"Youdon'
thavet
oapol
ogi
zet
ome.
"
"Youar ehurt
ingandthatt
ooalsohur
tsme.Iam
sorry.
”Isli
ght
lynod.CanIaskyousomethi
ng
though?."
"Youdon'
thavet
oaskmeqwabe.Youhavemy
bl
essi
ngtobewit
hhert
oo.
"
"I
t'
snotaboutt
hat
."
"whati
sitt
hen?
."
"Therefi
rstt
imewewer einti
mateIfeltsomet hi
ng
l
ikeIwasyourfi
rst
.Ithoughtthatmaybei t'
s
becauseweweren'
tinti
mat eforayearafterthekids
werebornandIwantedtocheckt hesheetsbutyou
beatmetoi
tandIcoul
dn'
tconf
orm mysuspi
cion.
WasIyourf
ir
standonl
y?.
"
"whydoesi
tmat
ternow?
."
"Itdoesmkami.Iwanttoknowandi
thasal
ways
botheredme.Tel
lme."
"Yesyouweremyfi
rstandmyonly.
"hewrapshis
armsaroundmeandIlaymyheadonhischest
.
"Iloveyoumkamikakhulufut
hi.Angif
uni
ukulahl
ekelwanguwef
uthil
ikeIalmostdi
d.(Ilove
youmywi f
eandIdon'twanttoloseyouagai
nl i
keI
almostdid.
)"
"Il
oveyout
ooqwabemor
ethanyou'
l
leverknow.
"
Heclaimsmymout hwit
hhi sandIjuststandther
e.
Iam afr
aidt
olett
hatpartofmyselfopenagain
becausewearenowtwoi nhisheart.Hehas
nothi
ngtoprovet
omebutever ythi
ngt oproveto
her.
"don'
tbeaf
rai
dmkami.Iwon'
thur
tyou.
"It
akea
st
epbackandhel
ooksatme.
"Ineedt
oknowwher
ewamist
andswi
thyouand
wi
thus.Ar
eyougoi
ngt
otakeherasyoursecond
wi
fe?
."
"Idon'tlovehermkami .Idon'tknowwhattodo
becauset radi
tional
lyIt
hinktheelder
saregoi
ngto
expectmet otakeherasmysecondwi f
eand
honestlyIdon'twantthat.Whatdoyouwantmet o
do?."
"It hi
nkitisther
ightthingtodo.Igi
veyoumy
blessingtotakeherasyoursecondwi feandmaybe
youmi ghtwantt
ot alktoyoursonsandhearwhat
theyhavet osaybef oreyoumakeadeci si
onandI
thinkyouhavet otalktohertooaboutbeingyour
secondwi f
e."
"Thankyoumkami .Iwi
llt
alkt
oal
lofthem butfor
now.Iwanttoholdyouandmakelovetoyou.I
missyousthandwasam.(Imissyoumyl ove.
)"
"qwabe.
..
."
"pl
easest
handwasam.
"
"Iam t
ir
edqwabe.Ij
ustwantt
ogetsomesl
eep.
"
"t
henl
etmehel
pyousl
eep.
"
"Di
dyouusepr
otect
ionwi
thher
?."
"Idi
d.Everyt
ime."Toheart
hatyourhusbandand
themanyoul oveissl
eepi
ngwithsomeoneelse
hurt
s.VerymuchbutIhavetosoldi
eron.
Igotothebathroom,t
akeoffmycl othest
hengeti
n
shower.Af
terI'
m doneImoist
urize,openmybag
andwearmyunder wearandpyjamas.Hegoest o
thebedandopent hebeddi
ngforme.Igeti nandl
ie
down.
"CanImakeyousomet
ea?
."
"Iwoul
dli
ket
hat
."
"Ok,
I'
llbeback.
"
Hegivesmeaki ssthenwalksout.Iwaitf
orafew
minutest
omakesur ehe'sreal
lygonethem Igo
l
ockthedoor ,
swit
chthelight
soffandmyphone.I
geti
nbedf eel
ingsomuchpai n.Iwanttocrymy
eyesoutunti
lIfal
lasl
eep.
Everyt
hingisjusthardandamess.Myki dsare
goingthroughalot,
Myhusbandhasbeenwi thmy
si
sterint
imatelyeversi
ncet
heyreconnectedandI
am scar
edthatIhaveal readylosthimtoher
.He
mightsayhedoesn'tloveherbutt henwhywould
hegointobedwithher ?.Hemi ghtbesayi
ngthat
becauseheknowsit'sgoi ngtohurtme.
Myhear tfeelssosor eandt earsfalldown.Icover
mysel fwitht heduvetandsobasqui etl
yasIcan.I
hurtal otofpeopl eandIj ustwantt ofixeveryt
hing
sot heycanal lbehappy.Iwi llgi
veanyt hi
ngagain
tomaket hisf ami l
ybewhati twasbef ore.My
happi nessnowdoesn' tmat t
erbutmyf amily'
s
happi nessdoes.Ihavet obeoutoft hepict
ureso
theycanal lbehappy.Af terthecleansing
ceremoni esandever ythingexpect edtobedonehas
beendoneIwi l
lleaveandneverl ookback.Iknowi t
willhurtthem buti ti
sfort hebest.
Ihearaloudknockont hedoorandIclosemy
mouthandmuf f
lemycr i
es.Heknocksonthedoor
l
oudandcal l
smyname.Heknocksagai ngett
ing
l
oudandhe' sthreateni
ngt oki
ckthedooroff
.I
knowhewi l
l.Igetupwi pemyf aceandwalktothe
doorandunlocki t
.
Hepushesi
topenl
ooki
ngal
armed.Il
ookbehi
nd
hi
m andseebongaandbusani
.
"Whydidyoul
ockt
hedoorwhenIt
oldyouI
'
m
goi
ngtomakeyousometea?
."
"Iwant
edt
obeal
oneandsl
eep.
"
"Ma?Ar eyouokay?."Bongaasks.Myeyesget
teary.Hehasn'
tspokentomeint hatsof
ttoneandI
mi ssedi
t.
"I
'mfi
nebaby.Ij
usthaveaheadachet
hat
'sal
l.
Don'
twor
ry.
"
"Areyousur
e?.
"busaniasks.At
eardr
ops.Iqui
ckl
y
wipei
t.
"Iam sur
ebaby."bongalooksathi
sdadwith
accusi
ngeyes.Idon'
twanthimt ot
hinki
t'
shis
dad'
sdoingthatIam cr
ying.
"mausureur
ight
?."Het
ri
est
owal
kinbuthi
sdad
st
opshi
m.
"Shewillbef
ine.She'
sbeenhavi
ngahardday
that
'sal
l.
"Igi
vethem asmil
e,t
heynodandwalk
away.
Thei
rdadcl
osest
hedoor
,Igeti
nbedandcl
osemy
eyes.Ihearshuf
fl
ingthent
hebeddi
psandhegets
i
nbedwi t
hme.Het ur
nsmearound,
wrapshisarms
aroundmeandIhi demyheadonhisnakedchest
andcry.
"Talktomemkamipl ease.Ihateseeingyouli
ke
thi
s."Ishakemyhead.Hesi ghs.
"Theywi l
lcome
aroundandf or
giveyoubaby.Justgi veitt
ime.
"I
keepsniffi
ng.
Heplantski
ssesonmyhai rwhi
lehishandssoot
h
myback.At houghtt
ri
estogeti
nmymi ndbutI
fi
ghtit
.Idon'
twanttothi
nkaboutthem i
nthi
ssame
post
ionwear ein.Hehol
dshisbreat
hli
keheknows
whatI'
mt hi
nking.
"Pl
easedon'tst
handwasam don't
."Ili
ftmyhead
andlookathim."Il
oveyoumkami .Onlyyou.
"He
cl
aimsmymout h,
kissessmedeeply.
Atfi
rstIdon'
tret
urnhiskissmyhistonguefor
ces
hi
swayi nmeandandImoan.Het ur
nsusandIlay
onmyback.Het akesof fmypyj
amat opandpant
s
andIlethi
mt akethem off
.Hegetsbetweenmy
l
egsandhover saboveme.
"Lookatmesebenzi l
e."Thi
sisthefir
stti
meIam
heari
nghim callmebymyr ealname.Idon'topen
myeyes.Iturnmyheadawayf rom hi
m.He
separat
esmyl egs,
bringshischestontopofmi ne.
Heplantski
ssesaroundmyf aceandneck.His
handsgrabsgrabsmyt highsandpushest hem
fur
therapar
t.Hismouthf i
ndsmi neandclaimsmy
mouthinahardbrutalkissthenhethrust
si n.
"Iknowwhatyou'r
ethi
nkingbutplease.Don'
tleave
me."Ishuthi
m upwit
hkissandenj oythepl
easure
heisgivi
ngmebecauseitisf
orthel astt
ime.He
won'tt
ouchmeeveragainaft
ertonight.
UMSHADO

CHAPTER83

BUSANI
.

Ihadalwaysdreamtofthi
smomenttobefindmy
fat
herandtwinbrot
herbutitf
eel
ssur
reall
ikeIam
dreami ng.Theyar eaclosekni tfami l
yandthey
tr
usteachot herwiththeirl
ives.Ihaveneverseen
somet hinglikethi
si nmyl i
fe.Event houghtIgr
ew
upwi t
hmyuncl eandhisf amily,weneverhadt his
ki
ndofcl oseness,thisl
oveandt r ustinthef
amily.
Everyonej ustli
vetheirl
ivestheywayt heywish
withouttheot hersknowingwhat '
sr eal
lygoi
ngoni n
yourli
fe.
Ihavebeenwat chi
ngandst udyingal loft hem and
theyar eallinsyncdespi t
eal lthepr oblemst hatwe
arehavi ng.Ikeepwai t
ingt ofindi ftheyar e
somehowj eal
ousofeachot heri nanywaybutt here
i
sn' tj
ealousyamongstt hem andt hatmakesmef el
l
j
eal ousbecauseIam t heoddmadout .Idon' thave
thatbondwi ththem andhavet heirtrust.Thesear e
mybr ot
her sandI ’
m supposedt ohavet hat
brotherlybondwi ththem butIdon' t.Iwillthough.I
willbepar tofthem andt heywi lltrustme.
Zi
phoisdrinkingcof
feeandIam dr
inki
ngwhiskey
wearebothl osti
nourownthought
s.He'sbeen
qui
eteversincewesawourdadandhi smom who
l
ookedli
keamess.Iwi shIfel
tsorr
yforherbutI
'm
not.Ihatet hatwomanandt heconver sati
ongogo
want sustohavei snevergoingt ohappen.IknowI
sai
dIf orgiveherbutdeepdownIdon' t
.Iwanther
tofeelthepai nmymot herfel
tallthoseyearsago
andevenwor se.Shewaspl ayinghappyf amilywi
th
myf ami l
ythatshest ol
efr
om usandnowshesays
she'ssorryandt hatgogotell
sever yonetojust
for
giveher ?.Wel lnotonmywat ch.
"I'
m goingtobed.Nightbro."wefi
stbumpthenhe
l
eavesme.Mymom comesi naft
erafewminutes
andpour sher
selfaglasstoothengulpsi
tdown
andsitsaft
ersheanot herone.
"Wher
e'syourf
ather
?."
"He'
swi
thher
."shescof
fsandshakesherhead.
"Whywon'tshel
eavehi
m al
one?
.Iam her
enow
ar
en'
tI?
."
"Shej ustwant
shisat
tent
ionandf
orever
yonet
o
feelsorryf
orher.
"
"self
ishbi
tch.Ij
ustdon'
tunderst
andwhyisn'
tshe
gi
vingussomespacet ofigur
ethingsout
."
"You'
vebeensleepi
ngwit
hhim mot
hersinceyou
gother
e.Despi
tewhatshedi
d,dadst
il
llovesher
."
"Don'tsaythat!
."shelooksaroundtoseei fanyone
doesn'thearus.
"Don' tt
ellmethatcr
ap.Shet r
iedt
o
kil
lus,stol
emychi l
dandhusband!.Allofthiswas
supposedt obemi ne.Thiswassupposedt obemy
famil
ybutt hatbitchisenjoyi
ngever
ything.Shewi l
l
pay!.
"
"cal
m down.Youdon'
twantanyonet
ohearyou.
"
"Iwanthertof
eel
thepai
nIfel
t.Iam goi
ngt
otake
ever
ythi
ngawayfr
om herandt
hatismyhusband
andfamil
y."
"yousaiddadi sgoingtopaylobol
aforthet
woof
yourightandyou'll
behissecondwifeandsebe
tol
dyout hatshewon'tstandi
nyourway.Shoul
dn'
t
thatbeenough? .
"
"hellno!
.Shehastobeoutoft
hepict
ure
permanentl
y.Iwi
llnotshar
emyhusbandwi
thher
.
Ever!.
"
"Iknowyouwantrevenge,
sodoIbutgetti
ngher
outoft
hepict
urepermanentl
ywi
llr
aisesuspi
cion
andt
hef
inger
swi
llpoi
ntbackt
oyou.
"
"Noti
fweframesomeonewhowant
sheroutoft
he
pi
ctur
eli
keus."
"uncl
efanel
emother
!hel
lno.Hewi
llt
ellever
yone
aboutourpl
an.
"
"Nothim busanibutherboys.Oneoft
hem.
"she
haslostherdamnmi nd!.
"FuckNo!.Youwillnotfr
amemybr other
smother
!.
Youbett
ergetthatthoughoutofyourmind.
"
"Youhavej ustknownthem f
orf i
veminutes.You
don'
towet hem anythi
ng.Iam yourmotherandwe
arebot
hvict i
mshere.Didyounotpromisemet hat
wegetrevenge? .
"
"yesIdi
d.Getrevengeonherbutnotmybr
other
s
motherno!
."whatisshet
hinki
ng.
"Whydoyousuddenlywantt ochangeourplan?
.
Thet
hreeofusdiscusseditandagreedbutnow
youwantt
odr agmybr ot
hersinthi
s?.Doyouwant
mbusotoki
llusmother!.
"
"He'
smyson.Hewi
llunder
standandhewon'
tki
ll
us.
"
"mot herhaveyouact ual
lywatchedyoursonl ike
real
lystudiedhim causeifyoudid?.Youwillknow
thatmbusoi sfuckenscaryandhe'sver yprotect
ive
ofhisfamily.Ourbrother
sandhi smot her
,your
sist
er."
"He'
spr et
endingwit
hherIknow.There'
snowayhe
st
il
llovesheraft
erhefoundoutwhathedid.Hewi
ll
si
dewi thus.
"
"Idon'
tknowmother.Thi
sisabadidea.Maybewe
shoul
djustl
etkar
madealwi t
hher.Idon'
twantt
o
l
osethefamil
yIhavejustf
ound.
"
"St
opbei
ngababybusani
.Wearest
ickingwit
hthe
pl
ansi
nceyour
efuset
oframeoneofthem."
"Theyar
eyourboyst
oomot
her
."
"No,
theyar
eher
snotmi
ne.Mbusoi
sonl
ymi
ne.
"
"Wel l
t heyaremybrother
sandI '
m notdoing
anythingt ohur
tthem.Iwantthei
rmot herdeadand
that
'sgoi ngtohurtt
hem butIwon'tf
ramet hem.
"
"Lookatyousuddenl
yfeel
ingt
hebr
other
lyl
ovef
or
them.Iwonderi
ftheywi
llbepr
otect
iveofyoul
ike
youareonthem."
"Iknowtheywillmot
herbecauset
heyt
oldme.
"she
shakesherhead.
"Openyoureyesbusani
.Myownsist
erbet
rayed
mesowhatmakesyout hinkt
heywon'
tbet
rayyou
huh?.
"
"Theywon'
tcauseI'
mt heonewho'saboutt
o
bet
rayt
hem andtheycanneverknowitisme."
"WellIwantt
hebit
chdead.Shestol
emyl if
e,my
ever
ythi
ngandnowI '
m goi
ngtogetrevengeonher
.
She'
snotgett
ingawaywithit
."
"Aren'
tyouscar
edoft
hatgogo?Thatshe'
l
lsee
ri
ghtthr
oughyouandme?.
"
"Ohbloodyhel
l.Don'
ttel
lmeabouther
.Itwi
llbe
herwordagai
nstours.
"Thisi
sabadidea.
"Ar
eyoupl
anni
ngonst
ayi
ngher
efor
ever
?."
"Iam onceIcl
aim myf
ami
lyback.
"
"whataboutEr
icmot
her
!.You'
rest
il
lmar
ri
edt
o
hi
m."
"shush!
.Theymighthearyou.Iwast
alki
ngtomy
l
awyerandIaskedhimt osendEri
cdi
vorcepaper
s."
what?
"really?
.Youaregoingforgetabouthi
mj ustlike
that?.Youaregoingtodivorceamanwhol oves
youf oramanwhomi ghtnotloveyou.Youal so
don'tlovemyfathermother!.
"
"Itdoesn'
tmatt
er.Healsobetrayedmeinaway
andwhocar esaboutuslovi
ngeachother?
.Idon'
t
wantthem tobetoget
her.Per
iod!."
"Sincewe'vebeenheremotherI'
m seeinganot
her
si
deofyout hatIdidn'
tknowexi
sted.Whatabout
mysi st
er?
.Wher edoesshefi
tinallt
hisandareyou
goingtombusot hathehasali
ttl
esisteri
nthe
U.K?."
"Iam goi
ngt
otel
lhi
m whentheti
meisr
ight
.Af
ter
al
lthecer
emoni
eshavebeendone.
"
"whati
fhealr
eadyknowsaboutAngela?
.Whati
f
mbuyiorMabuthot
oldhi
m abouther
?."
"Ispeci
fi
cal
lyt
oldt
hem t
onotsayanyt
hing.Iwi
ll
tel
lmyfamil
ymyself
."
Thiswhol et
hingi sstressingmeoutandnowIdon' t
knowwhatt odo.YesIwantr evengeonmyaunt
buttheothersideofmei sscar edofwhatt he
consequencesmi ghtbe.Iser iouslydon'twantto
l
osemynewf ami l
yandhur tmybr other
s.Isthi
s
revengeevenwor theverything? .Iknowmymot her
i
ssetdeadagai nstgettingherr evengeandapar tof
i
tismyuncl esdoi ng.He' sthewhocameupwi th
thisideaandatt hatti
meemot ionswer esti
llhi
gh
afterseei
ngmyauntf ort hef i
rstt i
meandwe
agreedbutnowI '
m notsosur e.
Sicelowar nedmet hati fIdoanyt hi
ngtohur ther
sister'
sfami l
yorhisbr othersinanywayhewi llki
ll
meandIbel i
evedhim.Heal sot oldmet hatmbuso
l
oveshi ssi st
ermor ethananyt hingoranyoneand
thatincludesmymot her ,auntandhi sbrothers.I
believehimt ooandwant ingtogoagai nsthim
mi ghtnotbeagoodi dea.Idon' tknowhowt hey
oper at
ebutt here'
sjustsomet hingscaryaboutal lof
them.
"Whataboutyou?
."sheasks.
"What
?."
"Ar
eyougoi
ngbackaf
terever
ythi
ng?
."
"NopeIresignedfrom work.Iam movi
ngbackhere.
Ineedtofi
ndahousei nDurbantoocausethat
's
wheretheyalll
ive.Iwantsomethingcl
osesoIcan
al
waysseet het wi
nsandspendasmucht i
mewi th
al
lofthem aspossible.
"shenods.
"andyourpar
tner
?."
"Ihaven'
tsai
danyt
hing.Iwi
llt
alktoherandexpl
ain
thi
ngs,maybeshemightmovewi t
hme."
"Pl
usshe'
scl
assyandbeauti
ful.Shemightt
each
al
loft
hewomanher eathi
ngort woaboutclass.I
t
makesyouwonderi
fluhr
eall
yisn'taf
termbuso's
money.
"
"Theyhaveclassmot her
.Theyjustdon'tflashtheir
moneyonever yone'sfaces.Luh'sfami
lyisweal thy
motherIsearchedthem.Bet weenhermoneyand
mbuso'smoneyt hoset woarefuckenbill
ionaires.
Thisthi
ngofuncleandyouaccusi ngheri snotright
.
She'syourdaughterin-l
awsopl easemot her
behave."
"Don'
tfor
gett
hepl
an.Wear
etaki
ngoutt
hatbi
tch
onceandforall
.Iwi
lldothatwi
thorwithoutyour
hel
pevenifitmeansIhavetospli
tthi
sfamilyapart
soIbuil
ditagai
nthenIwill
.Iwi
llgetmyrevengeon
her.Ar
eyouinorout!.
"
"Ofcour
seI
'
min!
."
Wehearagl assbr eaki
ngintheki
tchenandmy
bloodrunscol d.Wel ookateachotherscar
ed.Who
thefuckisthereanddi dtheyhearanythi
ng?.Oh
Godwear escr ewed!.
Igetupandwal ktothekit
chenandseesomeone
crouchi
ngdownpi cki
nguppi eces.Iswi
tchpnthe
l
ightandseeZipho'sgir
lf
ri
end.Fuck!.Howdidshe
comei ntheki
tchen?.
"Heyar
eyouokay?
."
"ohhey.I'
mf i
ne.
..
."sheyawns.".
..
..
Iwantedsome
waterbutt
heglasssli
ppedandfel
l.I'
m sor
rydi
dI
wakeyou?."what
?
"uhm no.Iwantedaglassofwatertoo.
"she
sweepsthefloorandt
hrowstheglassesonthebi
n.
"Idi
dn'thearyoucomeinthough?."
"Iusedtheotherent
rancel
eadi
ngtotheki
tchen
why?."sheyawnsagainandshesoundssosleepy.
"Iwasjustaski
ng.IthoughtIhear
dvoicesof
peopl
etalki
ng.Didyouhearthetoo?.
"shelooksat
meandf rowns.
"noIdi
dn'
t.Yout
hinksomeonebr
okei
n?.
"
"Not
her
e'ssecur
it
yout
side.Maybei
twast
hem.
"
"YeahIguess."shetakesanot
hergl
assandpour
s
mil
k."Wellgoodnightthen.
"
"goodnight.
"shewal
ksaway.WhewIguessshe
di
dn'thearus.
"Wel
ldi
dshehearus?
."Mymot
hercomesi
n.
"Noshedi
dn'
t.She'
shal
fasl
eep.
"
"Okgood.wecan'
tri
skpeopl
eknowi
ngourpl
an.
"
"mot
her
..
..
"
"Nobusani
.Wearedoi
ngi
t.You'
reuncl
eisgoi
ngt
o
br
ingt
hestuff
."
"I
'
m goi
ngt
obed.
"
"Nightson.
"Iwal
ktot
hebedr
oom,
thehousekeeper
showedme.
Aft
ershowerIgeti
nbedandt
akemyphoneand
cal
l.
"Owow,
youst
il
lrememberme.
"
"Ofcour
seIdoAl
ice.Howar
eyou?
."
"Howam I ?.Youtel
lmeyouhavesomet hi
nghas
comeupandyouhavet oflydowntosouthAfr
ica
andt henIdon'
thearfr
om youfordays?
.WellI
'
m
fuckenfineJason.
"Isi
gh.
"I'
m sor
rybabyIwi
l
lexpl
aint
oyouonceever
ythi
ng
hassett
led.
"
"Whenisthatgoi
ngt
obeJason?.Whent
heyhave
foundyouaSouthAf
ri
canwi
fe?.
"
"You'
rebei
ngr
idi
cul
ousnowAl
ice.YouknowIl
ove
youbaby."
"Thencomebackhome."
"Ican'trightnow.Thingsar
esti
llhect
icandI
promisewewi l
ltal
kwheneveryt
hinghassett
led
babypl easeunderstand.
"
"I
sbei
ngt
her
eimpor
tantt
oyoumor
ethanus?
."
"Iti
sbutt
hatdoesn’
tmeanyouar
elessi
mpor
tant
tome."
"Thenwhyhaven'tyoushowncommi tmenttome
Jason?.Wehavebeent oget
herfort
hreeyearsnow
andyousti
llhaven'
tsai
danythingaboutourfut
ure
whyisthat
?."
"Youknowver ywellthatIcoul
dn'tdothatbecause
Isti
llhadtofindmyf amily.Idi
dfindthem andwe
arestil
ltr
yingtofixthi
ngs.Webot hagreedthatwe
won'tputanypr essureonourrelati
onshi
pbutyou
havebeenf ail
ingtokeepyourendoft hebargain.
"
"Iknowwedi dbutyoubei
ngsofarawayi
shard
anditmightj
ustcreat
esomeprobl
emsbetween
us."what
?
"whatdoyoumean?
."
"exact
lyt
hat
."
"Idon'
thaveti
mef
ort
his.Il
oveyouni
ght
."Ihang
upandsigh.
Idon'
tknowwhati
shol
dingmebackf
rom mar
ryi
ng
herbutever
ytimeIthi
nkabouti
tIj
ustgetf
reaked
outandsoIhavejustr
anawayfrom any
conver
sati
onleadi
nguptoit.
It'
sthenextdayandIfeelexhaust
ed.Ishowert
hen
got othekit
chenandthehousesmel l
swonderf
ul.I
getinandseei t
'sonl
ymyaunti nther
e.Ial
most
turnbutIremembergogosai dwehavetotal
kandI
guesst hi
sistheti
me.
"Goodmor
ningaunt
y."
"Goodmor
ningbusani
.Di
dyousl
eepwel
l
?."
"Idi
dandyou?
."
"Idi
dt oo.
"shegivesmeaf ai
ntsmi l
e.Shedoesn't
l
ooklikesomeonewhosl eptwell
buthadnosl eep
atal
l.Ismil
ei nsi
decauseasthebibl
esays'there'
s
norestforthewicked.
'
"Youwantsomecof
fee?
."sheasks
"Yespl
easebutI
'
llmakei
t.
"
"It
'sj
ustcoffeebusani
.SitdownandI'
l
lmakeit.
"I
l
ookather."Iwontpoisonyouift
hat
'swhatyou'
re
thi
nki
ng."Iwasthinki
ngthat.
"Iwasn'
tthi
nki
ngt
hat
.Icanseet
hatyou'
rebusy
so.
..
"
"sosi
t."Isi
ghandsit
.Iwat
chever
ythingshedoes
andyesshedidn'
tpoi
sonme."Hereisyourcof
fee
andbiscui
ts.
"
"t
hankyou.
"shesi
tsdownt
oo.
"I'
m sorr
yforever
ythi
ngbusaniandIknowthatno
matterhowmanyt i
mesIapologi
zethatwon'
tfi
x
thi
ngsbutIhopeonedayyouwi l
lbeablet
of or
give
me."
"We'r
eyouthatjeal
ousofmymotherthatyou
deci
dedthatyouweregoi
ngtoki
llherandme? .
"
"YesIwasjeal
ousandIwishIcouldhavedone
thi
ngsdi
ff
erentbutIl
etmyjealousycl
oudmy
j
udgementandthatisnoexcuseforwhatIdi
d."
"Wereyouevergoi
ngt
otel
lmyf
atherandbr
other
whatyoudi
d?."
"NoIwasn'
t.Iwasgoi
ngt
odi
ewi
tht
hatsecr
et.
"
"Atleastyou'
renotl
yingtomyf ace.IwishIcan
for
giveyoubutIjusthateyou.Everyti
meIseeyou
wit
hmybr ot
her
sandf at
her
,Iseet
hefamilyyou
r
obbedmymot herandIofandmyheartgetsfi
ll
ed
wit
hhat
e."shenods.
"Iunderst
andbusaniandIdon' thol
dt hatagai
nst
you.Iaskedyourf atherforadivorcesohecanbe
withyourmot herbuther efused.Iwantyout oknow
thatIwil
lnotstandi ntheirwayf r
om the
rel
ati
onshiptheyar ealreadyformingagai n.
"
"Icanhel
pyouf i
ndal
awyerwhocanhel
pyoudr
aft
di
vorcepaper
s."
"Idi
dthatandhetor
ethem apar
t.
"sohest
il
lwant
s
tobemarri
edtoher?
.
"whatdoest
hatmeanf
orhi
m andmymot
her
?."
"Youshoul daskhi mt hatbutonmysi deandI
knowi tdoesn'tmatterwhatIt hi
nkbutIthi
nkthey
shouldgetmar r
iedandf inal
lyhavethei
rhappi
ly
everafter
."maybei twouldhavewor kedifmy
motherwasn' tmarriedtoanot hermanormaybeit
wil
lsinceshewant stodivorcehim.
"Soi
twon'tbot
heryouwhenyouseet
hem t
oget
her
l
iket
hat
?."
"Ihaveseenthem busaniandyourfatherwas
neverreal
lyminet
obegi nwit
h.He'snowwi ththe
personhewasmeantt obewi t
h."Ikeepquiet."I
hopeyoucanbei nthesamer oom asmewi t
hout
wantingtotur
nandwal kaway.Thisisyourfamily
andyouhaveeveryrighttobeheretoo."
"Iknowandwhoknows.Al lofthi
scouldhavebeen
mine."Il
ookar oundmbuso' shouseandShefrowns.
"Imeanmaybemyl i
fecouldhavetur
nedthesame
wayhi sdid.It
hinkgrowingupi nthesamehouse
wit
hbot hyourpar ent
saroundcanhaveaver y
posit
iveimpactinyourlife.
"
"I
'
m sor
rybusani
."
"St
opwithyourapologi
esbecauset
heydon'
tmean
not
hingt
ome! .Theyarejustwor
ds!
."
"whatwoul
dyoulikemetodosot
henbecauseI
'
m
wil
li
ngtodoanyt
hing?
."
"Begone.Leavet
hiscount
ry.Leavethi
sconti
nent
andl
etusmoveonwi thourli
veswithoutyou.
"she
l
ooksatmeshockedandscar ed.
"I
sthatwhatwi
llmakeyourmot
herandyou
happy?
."
"Yes.Icansetital
lup.Noonehastoknow.I
'
ll
sendyoupictur
esofyourgrandki
dssoyouwatch
them f
rom af
argrowingup.
"shetear
sup.She
wipeshereyesandlooksatme.
"andi
fIdon'
tgo?
.Ar
eyougoi
ngt
oki
llme?
."
"Thatdependsonyou.I
fyoudon'
tgoIwi
llhaveno
choi
cebuttokil
lyou.
"
"andyout
hinkyou'
l
lgetawaywi
thi
t?.
"
"IknowIcanandIwi
ll
."sheshakesherheadandI
seeaghostsmil
e.
"Iwi
llgoaf
tert
hecer
emoni
esar
edone.Ipr
omi
se.
"
smar
twoman.
"I
'
llseti
tup.
"
"NoIhavealr
eadygotitcover
ed.Idon'
twant
anyonet
oknowwher eI'l
lbeli
vingandIpr
omiseI'
ll
l
eavethecont
inentcausethat
'swhatIwantt
oo."
"I
'
m gl
adweunder
standeachot
her
.Deal
?."
"Deal
."weshakehands.
"Iknowyouhat emeandt here'ssomuchanger
i
nsi deyouf ormebutson.Ihopeyoudon' tl etyour
mot her'sangert owar dsmecl oudyourj udgement
andmakeyoudosomet hingthatyouwi llregr et.
Youseeal lyourbr othersbusanit heylove,pr otect
andwi lldoanyt hi
ngf oreachot herandt hat
i
ncl udesyounow.Don' tletthem feell
iketheycan' t
trustyouandmyadvi seforyoui sdon'teverbet ray
them.Nomat t
erwhathappensi nthefuture.Don' t
bet heirenemybutbeabr othertothem andyou' ll
seewhatl ovei sbecauseal lofthem includingt heir
wi veswi l
lloveyout ooandpr otectyou.Thi nkabout
that."
Ifeelsheisthr
eateni
ngmeorwar ningmeaboutall
ofthem butIdon'
tcare.Theonlyt
hingIknowis
shehast obegone.Inowhavet otalktomom and
uncleFaneleaboutthedealmyauntandIjust
madeandconvi ncethem thatweshoulddi
tchthe
i
deat heycamewi thandgowi t
hmypl an.
Mydadwal
ksi
nnotl
ooki
nghappyatal
l.
"Goodmor
ning.
"Hebrushesmyheadandgoesto
ki
ssmyauntbutshewalksoutoft
heki
tchenand
mymom wal
ksi
nlooki
ngsohappy.
"Myt wofavourit
epeople."sheki
ssesmeandmy
dadonthemout h.Ishakemyhead.Shef or
got
aboutherhusbandt hemomentshesawhi m.I
wonderhowwi llhefeelwhenhef i
nal
lyknowsthat
she'
smar r
iedandt hebothofthem ar
echeatingon
thei
rpart
ners.Ishakemyhead.
UMSHADO

CHAPTER84

SI
MS.

Thishasbeenthewor sttimeIhaveeverhadi nmy

wholeentir
eadultli
fe.Fr om f
indi
ngoutmbusowas
i
nvolvedinacci
dent, t
ohi smom anddadshowi ng
upandt henmysi st
erl osingherpregnancy.Ihave
seenluhinmysituationsbutt heoneshewasi n
andstil
linhasr
eal l
ytur nedherli
feupsidedown
andIknowf ori
thaschangedher .Shesaidit
her
selfandontopofthatt
heancestor
swantherto
makesureeveryt
hinggoesaccor
dingtopl
anthey
waytheyinst
ruct
edher.
Itoldhershecancountonmef oranythi
ngshe
needshel pwith.Shenotgoi ngtodoever ythi
ngon
herownwhenshehasal lofustohel pher.Ihope
andIr eal
lywishthatthisisthelasttimetheyare
goingt hr
oughsomet hinglikethis.Theyreall
yneed
abr eak.
Thingsbetweenmeandmymot herin-
lawhave
beengood.Sheaskedf orfor
givenessandIforgave
herforever
ybadwor dshehaseversai dand
everyt
hingbadshehaseverdonet ome.Iwanted
hertoknowt hatIam not
hingli
keherandIwi l
l
neverbewhatshei sbutIam gladthatIwi
llno
l
ongerhavet oworryaboutheraroundmeandmy
chil
dren.
Thingsbet weenmeandmyhusbandar eokayI
guess.Seei ngthathi
sbrotherwascl oset
odeathI
thinki
twokesomet hingi
nhi m.Hehasbeenpayi ng
mor eatt
ent i
ont ome,ushisfamily.Hewouldcryat
nightscaredt hathi
sbrot
hermi ghtdieandhe
wouldn'tknowwhattodoifmbusohaddi
ed.Seeing
thesoftandsensi
ti
vesideofhi
m hasmademel ove
him evenmorethanIdi
d.
Hei salwaysar oundmesi nceItoldhim Iwas
pregnant .Hecouldn'
tbeli
eveitandhecr iedand
thankedmef orgivi
nghimt heopportuni
tytogrow
ourfami lymore.Thiswouldhavebeenhi sthi
rd
chil
dhadt hatgir
lnotabortedandhada
miscar r
iagewithhissecondchi l
d.Wear every
excitedtobeexpect i
ngourf i
rstchi
ldtogether
.Iam
goingt oonemor echildforhimthenI'm done
havingki ds.
Iam int hekit
chenmaki ngasandwi chandI '
m
alone.Bongahast akent hekidstoschoolbecause
theyhavepl acedPercyt oanotherjobwho' snot
beendoi nghisjobwell.Idon'tknowwhot heyare
goingt ohir
ebecauseIcan' tdoiteveryday.IwishI
hadl i
stenedtoluhwhenshesai dIcan'tkeepdoing
everythingi
nt hehousemysel f.Ineedanaunt yto
helpusandanannyt oo.
Bongahasgonetombuso'sof
fi
cebecauset
he
fr
ontheadl
inei
nthepaper
sandonTVwer et
hat"
Mul tiMill
ionaireMbusoGumedewasi nvolvedi na
l
ifet hr
eateningacci dent .
..
."Thef rontpagehasa
pict
ur eofl uhandhi mi nadi nnergalat heywentt o
l
astyearandapi ct
ureofhi mi nt hehospi talbed.I
wonderwhot ookt hepi ct
ur eandpost editonline
gosht hesepeopl ehavenoboundar i
es.Bongai s
goingt ohaveaconf erencecal lwithmbusoandhi s
wor kers.I'
mj ustgladt herewasn' tanyt hingelse
aboutourf amily.Imaginei ftheygothol dof
scandal sandt hef i
ghtatt hehospi t
al.Thisisthe
l
astt hingever yoneneeds.Peopl edi ggingar ound
mbusoandourf amily.God! .
Aft
erI
'
m doneeati
ngmysandwichIcal
llesego.
Shepi
cksupaft
erathi
rdr
ing.
"Heysi
s."sheanswer
s.
"IhopeIdi
dn'
tdi
stur
byout
oor
abbi
ts.
"shel
aughs.
"No.Scel
owentt
owor
kandIwasaboutt
ohave
br
eakfast
."
"Don'
teat.I
'
m goi
ngt
othemal
landIwantyout
o
comewithme."
"Ok.comepi
ckmepi
ck.
"
Idri
vetoherhousewhichisl
esst han15mi nut
es
awayandshe'salr
eadywaiti
ngf ormeout side.
She'
swearingthi
sbeauti
fulf
loraldressreveali
ng
herboobsandhugeshadeshi di
ngherf ace.
"LookatyouNokut hul
amanandt here'
snothi
ng
si
lentaboutthatdr
ess.
"shetwirl
saroundforme
shaki
ngherboobsandwel augh.Shegetsin,
we
huganddr i
vetothemall.
"didyouseet
hemor
ningnewsandpaper
s?.
"she
asks.
"YeahIdid.Iwonderwhot
ookmbuso'
sphot
o
though.
"
"Scelowassopi
ssedandhi
sphonehasn'
tst
opped
ri
nging.
"
"bonga'
stoo.Hewenttotheof
fi
cesombusocan
haveaconferencecal
lwi
thhi
sworker
s."
"Luhdoesn'
tneedt
hisman.Theybot
hdon'
t.
"
"Ijusthopetheywon'
tgodiggingonhim andhis
familyespeci
all
ywit
heveryt
hingthati
sgoingon.
I'
mj ustworri
editmi
ghtbetoomuchf orl
uh."she
says.
"I
'
m wor
ri
edaboutt
hatt
oo.
"sheyaws.Il
ookather
.
"I
'
mti
redsi
msadwhyar
en'
tyoui
nbedanyway?
."
"Iwast hi
nkingmaybewecoul ddosomelit
tl
e
shoppingandseebabyclothes.Iwoul
dhaveloved
forl
uht obehereaswellbutyouknow.Idon'twant
tohurther.
"
"YeahIknowbutremembershe'sthefi
rstperson
youtol
dandshewasver yexci
ted.Shesti
lli
sand
youknowyoudon'thavetonotbeexcit
edabout
expect
ing.
"shesmil
es.
"Yeahyou'r
er i
ghtandshet
oldmet onotworry
aboutherbecausedespi
tewhathappenedshe'
s
ver
yhappyf orus.
"
"Afteral
lofthi
sisdone,
wemustdosomet
hing
specialf
orher.
"
"Iagr
ee.
"
"wearehavi
ngbr
eakf
astf
ir
stt
henshoppi
ng.I
'
m so
hungr
y."
"
It
'smewho'
snotpr
egnantsi
snotyou.
"shel
aughs
t
hengoesqui
etandsighs."what
'swr
ong?
."Ipar
k
t
hecarandswit
chofftheengi
ne.
"Let
'seatf
ir
standt
henIwi
ll
tel
lyou.
"
"Ok.
"Ihopeever
ythi
ngisokaywit
hher.OhmyGod
i
sshepregnantt
oo?.Ismil
e.It
akeoutmyshades
andputt
hem on.
Wegetint
heel
evat
orandi
ttakesust
owher
ethe
r
est
aurant
sar
eat.
"Ifwegetl
ostoneofuscal
lst
hepar
amedi
cs.
"It
ell
herandwelaugh.
Wewalktotherest
aur
antandther
ear
enotmany
peopl
e.Theyshowusourtabl
eandweor
der.
"Outwi
thi
t.
"
"Iaccusedscel
oofmaybebei
ngi
nfer
ti
le.
"My
mouthhangsopen.
"Youdi dnot
!.OhmyGodlesegowhydi
dyousay
that
?."Theybri
ngust
ea.
"IknowokayandIapol ogi
zed.Iwasj ustwor
ri
ed
thatit
'sbeenyear
sandwehavenotbeenusi ng
protecti
onandIhaven'
tfal
lenpregnant."
"Yetsi
s.You'
renotpr
egnantyet
.Howdi
dhet
ake
i
t?.
"
"Hewasmadobviousl
yandhewalkedoutand
camebackf
eel
ingbett
eraf
terhet
ooktheki
dsout
."
"Wai
t?Thathappenedwhenwewer
einLanser
ia?
."
"yesbuthecamebackandapol ogi
zedaboutthe
wayher eact
ed.Heassuredmethatheisfi
neand
veryfer
ti
lebutIsti
llf
eel
badaboutt
hewayIsai di
t
tohim.Ishouldhavesai
diti
naveryrespect
ful
manner."
"I'
m gladyouguyssor t
editoutbutremembersis.
Thesemenhavehugeegosandt hei
rpri
deis
everything.He'
syourhusbandandyouknowhi m
betterthananyoneelsebutdon'tfor
getthathei
s
alsoaZul uman."wel augh.
"Iknowthatnow.Thewayhel ookedatmewhenI
j
ustblur
teditoutyohsis.IknewthatIshoul
dn'
t
havesai
ditinthatki
ndofwaybutIhavesomet hing
pl
annedtoshowhi m howsor ryIam."
"It
hinkgogoXuluwouldhavesai
dsomethi
ngto
youguys.Youcantal
ktoheryouknowcauseshe'
s
nowtheadul
tweneverknewweneededi
nbot
h
fami
li
es.
"
"You'
rer
ight
.Iwi
llt
alkt
oher
.Sohowf
arar
eyou?
."
"Twomont hs.Isuspectedt
hatmaybeIwasbut
thenIt
houghtitmightthestr
essbongawasput
ti
ng
onmewi t
hhi scheati
ng."
Theybringusourf oodandweeat.Ihaven'
thad
anycravingsyetandIhopethispr
egnancywillbe
notmakemesi ckl
ikeMelusiandhi
sbrother
.
"Haveyout
oldt
heboys?
."
"weareplanni
ngont
ell
ingt
het
oni
ght
.Ihopet
hey
wil
lbeexcit
ed.
"
"Ihopeyouguysar
eexpect
ingagi
rlcausewesur
e
doneedthem i
nthi
sfami
ly.
"
"Ihopesot
oo.
"
"howar
ethi
ngst
houghbet
weenyout
oo?
."
"Il
ovehi
m buthebr
okemyt
rustanditwi
llt
akeus
someti
metobewhatwewer
ebef or
e."
"He'
stheonewhoshoul
dpr
ovet
oyout
hatyoucan
tr
usthim again.Notyou.Youknowseei ngwhatluh
i
sgoi ngthroughmademer eali
sethatli
fei
stoo
shorttoholdgrudgesandbeangr ybecausewe
neverknowhowmucht i
mewehaveont hi
searth
withtheone'swel ove.Mbusowasal mosttaken
awayf rom l
uhjustlikethatsi
ms.I tcoul
dhappent o
anyofusatanyt i
me. "she'
sright.
"whatdoyout
hinkoft
hei
rnewbr
otherand
mother
?."
"Ithinkshe'
swayt oofor
givi
ngf ormyl i
king.I
t'
slike
she'spret
endingandwant sust oli
keherandt hi
nk
thatshereall
yhasforgi
venhersi st
erandIdon' t
buyitandbusaniiswell,
Ithinkhe'sjusthim.He
doesn'thavethatt
hingmbusohasyouknow. "she
makest hisf
unnyfaceandwel augh.
"You'
reri
ght
.Mbusohast hi
sst
rongper
sonal
ity
andauraandhe'
snotsomeoneyoucaneasil
y
fami
li
ari
zeyour
selfwi
th.
"
"si
shest i
llscar
esmeandt
hati
snevergoi
ngt
o
change.
"
"asmuchasIwoul
dli
ket
osaybutmet
oosi
s."My
sl
apchi
pst
ast
esogoodandt
hevi
negargod!
.
"andont
heotherhand,
myfat
herin-
lawischeat
ing
onmymotherin-
lawwit
hhi
swife'
stwinsi
ster
.The
onewhowassupposetobehi
simagine.
"
"Isawi tanditmakesmesi cksims.Howdoes
babacheatonhi swifeli
kethatandsheknows
sims?!.Justbecauseshemessedupr ui
nedthei
r
l
ivesthatdoesn'tgi
vebabat hereasontocheaton
herinfrontusnogal.Imeanhowar ewegoingto
tr
ustourhusbandsi ftheparent
sar edoi
ngthis?
."
"i
tsucksmanandItoldbongathesamet
hing.He
j
ustkeepsqui
etwheneverImenti
onhi
smother.He
i
ssti
llangr
yather
."
"Hejustneedsti
mebuthehast ohavea
conver
sati
onwithhersoonert
hanlater
.Ihopet
hat
womanwon' tbemymot heri
n-l
awandherdaughter
God!.
"
"thedressshewasweari
ngandherwonder
ingeye
god!.
"Ialr
eadyhat
eher.
"Scel
osai
dshehast
hreedaught
ers.
"
"r
eal
lywow.Ihopet
heywon'
tcausepr
obl
ems.
"
"Wewilldealwit
hthem.IfUr
sulathinksshecan
comeandmessupmyf at
her
'sli
fe?.Wellt
henshe
hasanotherthi
ngcomingbecauseIhavemyeyeon
her
.Butsisletmetel
lyousomething."
"I
zanazo.(comeoutwi
thi
t.
)"
"Myhusbandsaysthatbabahasat hi
ngforsi
s
nont
o."shebi
tesherl
emonslice.Thatt
hingi
sbit
ter
.
"Youl
ie!
.Howdi
dwenotseet
his?
."
"wellIki
ndl
ikehadani deabecausescelousedt
o
saythathet
hinkshisdadlikessisnont
oand
ther
e'ssometensi
onbet weenthem."
"WellIwouldr
atherwehaveherasourmot
heri
n-
l
awt hanUrsul
atheblackwi
dowandherthr
ee
wit
chesofdaughters.
"
"Maybet
heyarenotl
iket
hei
rmot
hersi
ms.
"lesego
i
snotser
ious.
"Ursul
aisamaneaterandshe'
saft
erourdad'
s
moneyandwear egoi
ngtomakesurethatshe
doesn'
tgetevenadi
mef r
om hi
m."
"Yeswewi
ll
."
Wehearcommot i
oni nt herestaurant .LesegoandI
botht urnandweseenoneot hert hant hatskank
whocheat edonherhusbandwi thmi ne.Shewal ks
i
nwi tht heMi nisterofFi nancewi tht heir
bodyguar dsl i
ker eally?.Theyneedbodyguar ds?.I
chuckl e.Theyar et akent othetabl ethatwas
resevedIguessf orthem.Howni ce.Shewear i
nga
redshor tdr essandhi ghheels.Herf aceis
beaut i
fullyhiddeni nt hattonsandt onsofmakeup
l
ayer s.Shet urnsf acingusandIseeal i
tt
lebump
onherst omachandmymout hhangsopenbutI
quicklycl osei tandmaskt heshockonmyf ace.
Shel ooksl ikeshe' sf araheadf rom me.I t
'sei
ther
she'st hreeorf ourmont hspregnant .
Hereyesl andonmi nebeforeshelooksawaybut
theycomebackagai nandshedoesn'thidet
he
shockonherf ace.Hereyesgobet weenmeand
l
esegot henbackatmeagai n.Herhusbandkisses
hercheekt ogetheratt
enti
on.Hereyeslandonher
stomach, shebrushesitt
henshelooksatmet hen
anevilsmi l
efor
msonherl i
ps.Il
ookatheruntilshe
l
ooksaway.
"Si
ms?Ar
eyouokay?
."
"That
'
sher
."shel
ooksatmeconf
used.
"whoi
sshe?
."
"thegi
rlbongacheat
edonmewi
th.
"lesegol
ooks
ather.
"Ohmyshehaschanged.Di
dshedol
ikesome
Bot
oxorsomet
hing?
."
"maybe.She'
spregnantsi
s.Di
dyouseeher
bump?.
"shetakesmyhandandmakesmel ookat
her
.
"Nosi ms.Youarenotdoingthi
stoyoursel
f.Ifshe
i
st henthat'
sgoodforherandthatbabyshe'
s
carryi
ngisnotyourhusband'
ssost opi
t.
"Iclosemy
eyesandt akeadeepbreath.
"whati
f.
..
"
"Hellno.Wearenotdoi
ngthisnow.Youaregoing
tocomposeyoursel
fandnotlett
hatbit
chseethat
youarefreaki
ngout
.Ift
hatisbonga'
schil
dshe's
carr
yingIthi
nkshewouldhavetol
dhim.It
'snot
hi
s."
"Whati
fiti
slesego?
."OhGodpl
easedon'
tleti
tbe
hi
schil
d.
"Thenherhusbandwoul
dn’thavehishandonher
bumprightnow.Pl
easedon'
tdothistoyour
sel
f.
"
"Youareri
ght.
"Iwil
lfi
ndoutonewayoranot
heri
f
she'
scarr
yingbonga'
schi
ld.
"Let'
sfini
shherethengoandlookatsomecute
babyclothesthenfacet
imeluh.Wearenotgoi
ngt
o
l
etthisbitchr
uinourdayokaysis?
."
"ok.Thanksf
orcal
mingmedown.
"
Wecont inuetoeatandt al
kbutr eall
ymyheadi sno
l
ongerher e.Ikeephavi ngthispictureofherand
thi
sgirli
nt hebedf uckingandhi m enjoyi
ngi t
.What
i
fBongahadunpr otectedsexwi thherandlied
aboutit?
.Whati fshecont actedhi m andtol
dhi m
andnowhe' skeepingi tasecretfrom meunt i
lthe
babyisbor n?.Theyhadanaf fairforsixmonthsand
thatbabycoul dbehi s.Thisi
ssomessedup.
"OhmyGodshecomi
ngt
ous.
"Lor
dgi
veme
st
rengt
h.
"I
fsheat
tacksmepl
easebai
lmeout
."
Ihearherheelscl
icki
ngontheti
lesunt
ilt
heyst
op
nexttous.Iseeherskinnyl
ongl
egs.
"What
?."l
esegoasks.Idr
inkmywat
er.
"Hisi
mphiweunj
ani
?."whatarewenow?
.fr
iends?
.
Icanhert
hesmil
eonhervoice
"Isai
dwhatcanwehelpyourski
nnyasswi
th?.
"I
l
ookatherandshe'
sugl
y.Idon'
tknowwhatbonga
sawinthi
sbit
ch.
"You'
rer
ude.Iwant
edt
osay.
..
"
"saywhat
?."Isayi
ttooloudformyl
iki
ng.She
fr
ownsli
kewhatiswr ongwit
hme?."whatdoyou
want?
."
"I,
weneverhadachancetotal
kaft
ert
hatday
and..
."t
hisgi
rlhaddamnl
osthermi
nd.
"Youwant
edustotalk?aboutwhatexact
ly?.
Compar
enotesabouthowmyhusband' s.
..
"
"Bi
tchyoubet
tergo!
."Lesegocut
smeof
fIcansay
anyt
hingel
se.
"Iwant
edyout
oknowt
hat
..
."
"Idon'tneedtoknoworhearanythingthatcomes
outofyourmout h.Idon'
tevenknowwhatmade
youthinkyoucant al
ktomeorevenbr eathmyway.
Nowgobackt othathusbandofyoursandleaveme
thefuckalone.
"
Peopl
earenowst
arr
ingandi
tseemsasi
fthe
at
tent
ioni
sonus.
"Youhear
dher
.Wal
kawayhoe!
."
"Don'
tyoucal
lmet
hat
!.
"shesayst
olesegoand
shest
andsup.
"Youcamet oourtabl
etodistur
busnowwalk
awaybeforeIcal
lyouallsor
tsofwaysinf
rontof
yourhusbandandallt
hesepeople.Wal
kaway."
Herhusbandcomestoourtabl
eandhe'sl
ooki
ng
usworr
iedl
y.Iaskf
ort
hebil
lcauseI
'
mr eadyt
o
l
eavet
hisplace.
"Uhm l
adi
es,
ist
her
esomet
hingwr
ong?
."heasks
"askyourwi
feher
e.She'
stheonewhocamet
oour
t
abl
e."l
esegosays.hel
ooksathi
swi
fe.
Thewait
ressbri
ngst
hebi
llandIpayi
ncasht
he
takemyhandbag.
"Let'
sgosi
s."Lesegot
akesherhandbagt
oo."
excuseme.
"
"si
mphi
wecanyoumaybegivemeyournumbers
sowecant
alk?
."t
hisgi
rlr
eal
lydoesn'
tgeti
t.
"Whothesehoney?
.Yournewf
ri
ends?
."Lesego
andIl
augh.
"Ohhellno.Wearenotfr
iendswiththelikesof
her.
"LesegosaysandIsmile.Mygirlhassome
sassyatt
it
udeandIli
kethissideofher.Thefool
l
aughs
"Iknowyouar enotusuall
ythetypesheusual l
y
hangsaroundwi t
h..
..
"hesayslookingatourbodies
andstarr
ingatlesego'
sboobs.Freak."
..
..
.areyou
tr
yingtomaket hem j
oinyourgym honey?."ohhell
no.Hedidnot!.
"
List
enheremi
nist
er.Wedon'
thangar
oundt
he
t
ypethat
..
."
"si
mphiweplease!.
"thi
sbitchbegsmefight
ing
backt
hetear
st hatarethr
eateni
ngtost
ream down.
"stopcall
ingmynamecauseIdon' tknowyou.Tel
l
yourbit
chasswi fetostayt
hefuckawayfr
om us.
Thisisherlastwarni
ng.Nextt
imeI'
llf
uckherup.
"
"Whothehel
ldoyout
hinkyouar
etal
kingt
oli
ke
that
?."
"Idon' tgi
veafuckwhoyouare!.Nowmovet he
fuckoutofmywaybef or
eIl
osemymi nd!.
"hisjaw
clenchesandIknowIhavejusthitanerve.Ibetno
womanhasevert al
kedtohi
mt hatway.
"Youwil
lbesorrybi
tch.Noonet
alkst
omet hat
way.
!"hewhisper
sloudenoughf
orthebot
hofusto
hear
.LesegoandIsmile.
"Youshoul
dhaveaskedyourwif
ewhowear e
bef
oreyouthr
eat
enedus."hel
ooksatbi
tchass
wif
e.
"Youareadeadmanwal ki
ngminister
.Noteven
thosemini
onsofbodyguardswi
llsaveyou.
"lesego
saysgri
nni
ng.Scel
oshouldbeproudofhiswi f
e.
Damn.
Igentl
ypushhiswif
eoutofmywayandwewal k
out.Myhearti
sbeati
ngsof astIf
eell
ikei
tsgoing
tostopatnayminut
e.Wewal ktothesameelevat
or
wecameoutofandi ttakesustowhereweleftt
he
car.
"I
'
lldr
ive.
"lesegosays.
Wegetint
hecarandsiti
nsil
ence.Wel
ookateach
ot
hert
henbur
stoutlaughi
ng.
"OhmyGodIhaveneverbeensoscar
ed.
"lesego
says.
"Wet
hreat
enedtheMist
erofFi
nancemyGodwe
ar
ecr
azy!.
"weconti
nuetol
augh.
"Wear
einsomucht
roubl
e."
"Iknow.Wehavetotel
lourhusbandswhat
happenedbutyouNokut
hulaareBADASS!.Scel
o
mustberubbingof
fonyou."shelaughs
"Iwaschannell
ingmyalt
erego.Iam t
ir
edof
peopl
ethi
nkingtheycanwal
kalloverme."
"Il
ovethi
ssi
deofyouandt
hankyouf
orhavi
ngmy
back.
"
"Youwoul
ddot
hesamef
orme.
"
She'
scr
azy.Iwi
shl
uhwasher
etoo.
UMSHADO

CHAPTER85

SI
MS.

Aft
erwel eftthemallwecamet omyhouse, I
cookedandt ookoutmyf rustrati
onsont hepots.
Lesegowat chedmecookwhi ledrinki
ng
champagne.Ihadnon-al cohol i
coneandIwi shedI
wasdr inkingsomet hi
ngst rongert hanthat
.Sheleft
anhouragoaf t
erwehadl unchandImustsaymy
cookinghasi mpr oved.IcallmyhusbandcauseI
don'tknowi fhe'sgoingtobr ingthem homeorwhat .
"l
ovey.
"hesoundsl
ikehe'
sont
her
oad.
"baby.Areyougoi
ngt
opi
ckupt
heki
dsf
rom
school
?."
"Yeahwi
thal
lfouroft
hem.Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
."
"Donecooki
ng,
I'
m wat
chi
ngt
her
ealhousewi
ves.
"
"Youdon'
tsoundokay.What'
swr
ong."Istuffmy
mouthwit
hice-
cream andt
akeaminutebeforeI
answerhi
m.
"I
'
llt
ellyouwhenyou'
rehome.
"
"shoul
dIbewor
ri
ed?
."
"Idon'
tknowbaby.Maybe.
"
"ar
eyouandt
hebabyokay?
."he'
spani
cki
ng.
"We’refi
ne.I
'
llt
ellyouwhenyoucomehome. "I
hangupbefor
ehedemandst hatIt
ellhi
m what'
s
wrong.
Iconti
nuetoeatmyi
ce-cr
eam andthen20minutes
l
aterIhearhi
scardr
ivi
ngin.Iknewhewoul
dn't
wait
.GodIhopehewon'tli
etomewhenIaskhi m
aboutthatgi
rl
.
Ihearhisheavyfoot
stepswalkinginandmybody
shuddersgett
ingexcit
edandImi sshim.Wehaven'
t
hadsexsinceIcaughthischeatingassandhe'
s
afr
aidtoevencompl ai
n.Hesleepswithhi
shardon
andwakesupwi t
hit.I
tdoesn'
thel
pthatIsl
eep
naked.Sweett
ort
ure.
Hesitsnextt
omeont hecouchandputsmyfeeton
hisl
ap.Hegivesmeaki ssthenmassagesmyf eet
.
Iknowhe'snotgoingtosayanythi
ngunti
lIt
alk.I
canfeelhi
shotstareonmyf ace.
"Wher
ear
etheboys?
."
"Scelowillbri
ngthem."Inod.Ohhishandsareso
damngood.It hinkhe'smakingmehornyon
purpose.Ilookathim andhe'ssmi
li
ng.Ichuckl
e
andhel aughs.\
"wher
e'syourot
hercar
?."
"Lesegot
ooki
tandwenthomewi
thi
t.Ipi
ckedher
upwhenwewenttothemall
."
"Ahbaby.Youwentbabyshoppi
ngwi
thoutme?
."
hepout
s.Il
augh.
"No.wewentf
orbr
eakfastbutwethoughtaf
terwe
wil
lgoandj
ustl
ookatsomecl ot
hesbutwedidn'
t.
"
"whydi
dn'
tyougo?
."
"Wel
lwhi
lewewer
eenj
oyi
ngourl
unchsomeone
wal
kedinandl
atercamet
oourt
abl
eanddi
stur
bed
us.
"Il
ookathi
m.
"di
dtheyhur
tyoui
nanywayandwhowasi
t?.
"he'
s
get
ti
ngmad.
"Itwast
hatskankyoucheat
edonmewi th.She
camewithherhusband.
"Hesighsandshakeshi
s
head.
"Whatdi
dshewantwi
thyou?
."
"She'
spr
egnant
."
"what
?."
"yes.
"
"andt hatbit
chsaidI
'mtheonewhoknockedher
up? !
.BabyIswearIhaveneversleptwit
hher
withoutacondom orevendoanyt hi
ngwithher
withoutit
!.Iknowyoudon'twanttoknoworhear
thatandI '
m sorr
ybutIswearonourchil
dren'
slives
Ididn't
.Thatbabyisnotmine.
"Hekneelsinfrontof
megr abbingmykneesandbur ieshi
sheadonmy
l
ap.
"IknowIhavewr
ongedyouandbr
okenyourt
rust
andthatwil
lfor
everhauntmebutIswearsimphi
we
Iam notr
esponsibl
eforherpr
egnancy.Youhaveto
bel
ievemebaby."
IthoughtIwoul denjoyseeinghi ml ikethi
s.Onhis
kneescryingandbeggi ngf orforgivenessbutIdon'
t.
Ithurt
stoseehi ml i
ket hi
sbutheal sohast oknow
thathehur tmeandt hingswon' tjustbet hesame
astheywer ebef
ore.Hebr oughtal lofthisi
nour
l
ivesandnowhemi ghtbehavi ngachi l
dwi t
ha
womanhecheat edonmewi th.
Ibrushhisheadandt akeadeepbreat
he.Howthe
hel
lareewegoungt ogett hr
oughthi
sift
hatbaby
she'scarr
yingishis.Whywoul dshesmirkandl
ook
atmet hatwayifitisn'thi
s?Ormaybeshewanted
tocausepr obl
emsbet weenmyhusbandandI?.
"getupbabypl
ease.
"
"Iam ashamedf
orwhatIdi
dtoyouandIam so
sorr
y."
"Heylookatme.Don' thangyourheadliket
hatI
don'tl
ikei
t.Lookatyourwifepl
ease."hedoes."
Sit
."Hesit
sont hefl
oor,hangsandheadonmyl ap.
Hel
ooksr
idi
cul
ous.Ismi
le.
"whenIsawher ,Isawt hebumponherst omach
andshesmi r
kedatme.Shel ookedatherbumpand
thenatmeandshemadet hatfaceli
keyou' r
ethe
onethatgotherpr egnantbutherhusbandwas
busybr ushi
ngherbump.Whenshecameovershe
saidwenevert alkedt hatlasttimeIcaughtyou
guysandt hatpi ssedmeof f.Likewhot hehelldoes
shethinkshei s.Shet hensaysshewant sust otal
k
andaskedf ormynumber s.Lesegolostitbabyyou
shouldhaveseenher ."hef r
ownsIl augh."Ididn'
t
givet
hem t ohert henherhusbandcameoverand
askedifmaybehi swi feisrecruit
ingust ojoi
nher
gym."
"What
?.Howdar
ehe.
"
"yesandhedi dn'tli
kethewaywespoket ohi m or
hiswifeandbasicallyt
hreatenedusandl esegot ol
d
him he'
sadeadmanwal king.Hesaidwewi llpay.I
didn'
tsayanythingabouthercheat i
ngonhi m
causeIbetshehasdonei tbeforenotwithyouand
shewi l
ldoitagain.Shedidn'tsayanythi
ngabout
youbeingtheonewho' sr esponsi
bleforher
pr
egnancybutIj
ustt
houghtwhati
fyouknow.
"
"Iknowl oveyandIdon'
tbl
ameyoufort
hinking
that.Iwonderwhati
sitt
hatshewant
stotalktoyou
though?."
"Idon'
tknow.Hassheevercont
act
edyouagai
n
aft
eryoucutti
eswi
thher?.
"
"Noloveshedi
dn'
t.Wecancal
lherandf
indout
."
hesays.
"Youst
il
lhavehernumber
s?.
"
"NoIdon'
t.Ibl
ockedthem butIcangot
hroughmy
bl
ockedl
istandfi
ndthem."
"Yeahdothat.Cal
lherandaskhert
omeetyouat
yourof
fi
ce."
"No.I
'
m notdoi
ngt
hat
!.
"
"Iwillbether
ewithyoubutshewon'tknowthat
.
Tellhertomeetyouinanhour.Iwi
llbeinyour
bathroom whil
eyoutal
ktoherandfindoutwhat
she'supplayi
ngat."
"doyout
hinkshewi
llt
ellme?
."
"Youhavetoconvi
nceherbabybutyoudon'
ttouch
herorl
ethert
ouchyou.
"
"Ihat
ethi
sbutokay.
"
"Areyouworri
edthatt
hebabymi
ghtactual
lybe
yoursandyou'
rel
yingt
omedenyi
ngit?.
"
"SimphiweIswear.Thi
sist
heonl
ychi
ldIam
expect
ing.Ourchi
ld.
"
"Cal
lherandputi
tonl
oudspeaker
."
Iwatchhi m gotohi
scallsett
ings,tohi
sblocked
number sandseehim unblockingthenumber
*MinisterofFi
nance.
*Bathongt hisman!.Il
ookat
him shockedandhelooksatmeembar rassed.He
call
st henumberandputsitonl oudspeaker.I
t
ri
ngs.
"Well
,wel
l,wel
l.Iknewshewoul dtel
lthatshesaw
me.Didshetel
lyout hatsheat
tackedme? .
"That
bi
tch.
"youpr
obabl
ydeser
veditandIdon'
tcar
e.Meetme
i
nmyof f
icei
nanhour.
"
"OhbabyImi
ssedyout
oo.I
'
llbet
her
e."
"Don'
tkeepmewai
ti
ng.
"myhusbandsaysand
hangsup.
"Sosheagreedjustl
iket
hatandnoquest
ions
asked?Wow!."
"whatdoyouwantmet
osayl
ovey?
."
"Youjustt
ellhert
ojumpandsheaskshowhi
gh?
hebonga!.
"
"I
'
m sor
ry.
"
"Stopapologizi
ngcauseyou'r
eseriousl
ypissing
meof fri
ghtnow!.Iswearbongayoubet t
erprayto
yourancestorsandyourgodthatshe'snot
pregnantwithyourchi
ldorel
se?!
.Youar eadead
man!.I'
m goingtokil
lyoumyself
!.
"
Helooksatmescaredandshakeshishead.He
bet
terbescar
ed.Isweart
ogodi fi
tishi
schil
dIam
l
eavinghi
sskinnysor
rybeaut
if
ulass.
"I'
m goingt
ochange.
"henodsandleansbackon
thecouchclosi
ngi
seyes.Thi
smotherfuckeri
s
scared.
Whenwegeti
nourbedr
oom Iheadst
rai
ghtt
othe
bat
hroom andshowerquickl
ybeforeheevent
hinks
ofj
oini
ngme.Hecomesi nandhelooks
di
sappoint
edthatIam al
readydone.
"Howl
ongar
eyougoi
ngt
opuni
shf
or?
."
"Unt
ilIfeell
ikemeandmycoochi
ecant
rustyou
agai
n."
"Imissyoust
handwasam.Iam f
uckenhor
ny
pl
easehavemercyonme."
"Godgaveyouhandsboo.Putt
hem t
ouse.
"
"baby?
."het
ri
estotouchmebutisl
aphi
shands
awayandrunoutl
aughing.
"ThedayIgetyou.Ngi
zokubhebhaunyenyi
!.
"he
shout
saft
erme.Ilaughsoloudandhejoi
nsme.
Wear eonourwayt otheoffice.Bongacal l
edscelo
andtoldhim wewi l
lcomeandgett heboys.Wear e
bothquietonthecarcauset hatbit
chmi ghtsay
somethingdif
ferenttanwhatbongat ol
dme.He
parksthecarandwegetout .Wegr eetthesecuri
ty
guards,geti
ntheelevatorandst r
aighttohisoffi
ce.
Hi
srecept
ioni
sti
sst
il
lther
ewor
king.Il
ookatt
he
t
imeandi
t'
sal
most4pm.Theyknockof
fat5.
"MrandMr
sGumede.Goodaf
ter
noon.
"Igr
eether
back
"Mor ningPeggy.Weareexpect
ingsomeone.When
theycomei nletusknowbeforeyoulett
hem i
nand
don'ttellmywif
eisher
eiftheyhappentoask.
"
"CanIgetyousomet
eaoranyt
hingel
sema'
am?
."
"wear
efi
nesi
si.Thankyou.
"
Wewal
kinandIsi
tonhi
sseat
.
"Youlooksoner
vousf
orsomeonewho'
sinnocent
yazgumede."
"you'
ret
heonewho'
smaki
ngmener
vous.
"
"why?
."
"Iknowyousims.Iknowyouarenotj
ustgoi
ngto
l
ethertel
luswhatwewanttoknow.Whatareyou
upto?.
"
"Not
hing.Di
dyouf
uckheri
nthebat
hroom?
."
"Ihavenever
.Wehavebeenthrought
hisbaby.
Whyarewegoi ngbacknow?
."
"wellletmesee.Thefactt
hatyoumightbe
expectingababywit
hyourmi st
ressi
nenough
reason."
"baby.
..
"
Hi
sphoneoffi
cephoner
ings.Wel
ookateachot
her
t
hehepressesabutt
on.
"Peggy?
."
"Si
r,aMi
ssGumbii
sher
etoseeyou."Thebi
tchi
s
onti
me.Wasi
tpar
tofhi
srul
estoo?
.
"Okbr
ingheri
n."
"Di
dyousett
hecamer
as?
."
"Yes.Thef
eedi
sonri
ghton.
"Hegivesmehi
s
l
aptopandIwal
kwi
thitt
othebat
hroom.

BONGA.
Godthi
swomancannotbef ucki
ngwi t
hmer i
ght
now.Idon'
tknowwhatkindofgameshet hi
nk'
s
she'
splayi
ngbutt
hisistoomuchrightnowandI
am goi
ngtoputastoptohernonsense.Onewayor
another
.Iknowforaf
actt
hatt
hechi
ldshe'
s
carr
yingisnotmi
ne.
Thedooropensandshewalksinwear
ingatrench
coat
.Bit
chmywi f
eisgoingtowhoopyourass.She
cl
osesitt
hensashaysherl
egstome.
"St
opr
ightt
her
e."
"Ohdaddy.Il
ikeitwhenyoutal
kli
kethat.Thisi
s
goingt
obeourf i
rstt
imedoi
ngitinyouroffi
ceandI
havebeenwai
t i
ngforthi
smomentrightnow."
"Yousai
dmywi
feat
tackedyou.Showmewher
e?.
"
"Uhm Iknowyoudi dn'
tcallmeheretotalkabout
yourwif
e."shetakesofft
het r
enchcoatandi tpool
s
downonherl egstothefl
oor.Iseethebumpmy
wif
ewast alki
ngabout.Thi
sbi t
chisreal
lypregnant
.
"Wher
edoyouwantme?
."
"Ical
ltheshot
shereandnotyou.Doesn'
tyour
husbandfuckyou?
."
"Hedoes.Whyam Iher
eifyou'
renotgoi
ngt
ofuck
me."
Iwal
ksl
owl
ytoherandst
opaf
ewmet
resaway
f
rom her
.
"Youseem t
ohavelostyourmout
handmanner
s
whenyouwalkedt
ot hatdoor
."
"I
'
m sor
ry.
"Shel
ooksdown.
"Youwil
lstandl
iket
hatunt
ilIt
ellyouot
herwise.
"
shenods.SheknowshowIusedt obewithher.
"Didhefinall
ymanaget ogetyoupr
egnantoryou
hadtofuckhisbestfri
endagainandgi
vehim his
thi
rdbaby?."Shegaspsshocked.
"Iknowyou'vebeenfuckinghisbestfri
endfor
yearsandthosetwokidsarenothis.Thequestion
i
showi shegoingt ofeelwhenhefindsoutthathi
s
wifeisnotonl
yalyingassbitchbutalsoshe's
fucki
nghisbestfr
iend?."
"Bongapl
ease.
..
"shet
ri
est
opi
ckuphert
rench
coat
.
"Eydi
dItel
lyout
opi
cki
tup?
."Sheshakesher
headanddr
opsit
.
"Pleasedon'
ttel
lmyhusbandbongaI
'
m beggi
ng
you."
"t
hel
astt
imeIt
alkedt
oyou,
whatdi
dIsay?
."
"You.
..
you.
..
"
"Eykhul
umawenaman!(t
alk!
).
"
"Yout
oldmetonevercont
actyouagainandImust
st
ayawayfr
om youandyourfamil
y."
"andi
fyoudon'
t?
."
"Youwi
llr
uinme.Youwi
llki
llme.
"
"Di
dyout
akemyadvi
ce?
."
"NoIdi
dn'
t.
"
"Whatdi
dyoudo?
."
"butBongayou'
ret
heonewhocal
ledmeher
e."
"Eywenamananswermyquest
ion!
."
"Iwentt
oyourwi
feand.
..
I"
Iwrapmyhandsar
oundherski
nnyneckandshe
al
mostscr
eams.
"Ifyoudar
emakeasoundIwillsnapyourneckand
dumpyourbodyandyourboyf
riendspl
ace."she
nods.
"Haveyoutol
dhisbestf
ri
endt
hathe'
sgotyou
knockedupagai
n?.
"
"ye.
..
.yesheknows.
"
"Whydidyoui
mpl
ytomywi
fet
hatyouar
ecar
ryi
ng
mybaby?.
"
"Idi
dn'
tIswearbonga.She'
stheonet
hatcamet
o
meandtri
edtoattackme."
Mycr azywi
f ecomesoutofthebathroom and
l
ookingsomad.Hereyesar eonthewomanshe
wantstokil
l.Iunt
angl
emyhandonhert hroatand
takeastepback.Simswalkstoherlandsaveryhot
claponherfaceandshealmostfall
sbutmywi f
e
catchesher
.
"Howdar eyoutel
lli
esaboutme.Idi
dn'
tatt
ackyou
butr
ightnowIjustdid.Whatwer
eyoutr
yingto
achi
eve?.
"
"Not
hingsimphi
we.Iwasn'
tdoi
nganyt
hingwr
ong.
Iwasjustshowi
ngyoumybump? .
"
"forwhatr
easonothert
hanyout
houghtIwoul
d
thi
nkthatmyhusbandgotyoupr
egnant
?.Di
dhe
f
uckyourawbit
chandgetyoupr
egnant
?."herhand
i
sonhercheek.
"Nohehasnever
.He'
snott
heonewhogotme
pr
egnant
."
"Soyoudiditbecauseyouwantedtocause
probl
emsbetweenmyhusbandandIr ightbi
tch?.
"
shekeepsquiet
."YouwantproblemsthenI'
l
lgive
youprobl
ems."
"PleaseI
'
m sorry.Iaskedforyournumbers
becauseIwantedtosayI '
m sorr
y.Pleasedon'
ttel
l
myhusband, hewillt
akeawaymyki dsandmake
myl i
femiser
able.
"
"Youshoul dhaveleftmet hefuckal onewi t
ht hat
dirt
yscumbagofyour s.Youseemyhusband.Thi s
i
st hetrashyoucheatedonmewi th.Ther i
ffraff
thatcamet ofuckanothermanwhi lepregnantf or
anotherandmar ri
edtoanot her!
.Thisi sthetrash
youbr oughti
nourlivesthatwant edt ocause
problemsagaininourmar r
iage.
"
"I
'
m sor
rymamasekhaya(I
'
m sor
rymywi
fe.
).
"
"wenasf
ebe(Youbi
tch!
).That
hal
ejazanal
akho
andudlalekudenendodayam (Takeyourt rench
coatandstaythef uckawayf r
om myhusband) .I
fI
everseeyoubr eathi
ngmywayoranywher enear
me.BitchI'
llf
orgetyourpregnantandI
'l
lgiveyoua
beati
ngyouwi llneverfor
get.Hambati
kil
ainndini
!.
(getthefuckouthoe! .
)"
Shegrabshercoat,openst hedoorandr unsaway
notl
ookingback.Isowantt or
uinherlif
eandt el
l
herhusbandbutknowi ngthatinnocentkidsar
e
i
nvolvedisanot
herthing.Iknowt hatherhusband
wil
lfi
ndoutthetrut
hsomedaybutIam notgoi ng
tobelikeher
.Shehasdest royedherownmar r
iage
onherownandIwon' tbeapar tofthat
.
"Youseebaby.Itol
dyouthatIdi
dn'
tgether
pregnant
."Lookatt
hisf
ool
.
"Isthatsupposet omakemehappy?Youwantme
togiveyouar oundofappl ausebecausewhenyou
cheat edyouusedpr otect
ion?.Threemanwer e
fuckingherthesamet imeyouwer eal
sofucking
her!.Whof uckenknowst hatt hat1per
centfrom the
condom t hatwascar r
yingyoursper mistheone
thatmadeababyhuh? ."
Ihaveseenmadbutt hisisanot herlevel.Iam
scaredandal sowor ri
edf orherandt hebaby.Iwant
hertocal m downbutsayi ngt hatwilljustaddpetrol
tothef i
rethati salr
eadybur ningandyounevert ell
ablckwomant ocomedownwhenshe' smad.She' l
l
kil
lyou.Ihavet oshutupandt akeitlikeaman
causeshei sr ight.Thi
si sthemessIcr eatedand
thetrashIbr oughti nourlives.
Shereal
lyi
shurt
.Ireal
iseshewaspretendi
ngt obe
st
rongforuswheneverythi
nghappenedbutright
nowit'
stoomuchforher.WhydidIhurtherl
ikethi
s.
"Whydi
dyouhur
tmebonga?
."
Iwalkt oherandIt r
ytoholdherbutsl apslandon
myf aceandchestbutIst il
lpullhert
omeandhol d
hertightandlethercryonmychestandshej ustlet
i
talloutandIknowi ti
smi xedwi t
hwhatIdi dtoher,
whati sgoingonwi t
hhersi st
erandever yt
hingelse
i
ncludingourpr egnancy.Manl i
feishard.
Iwalkust
othecouchandcomf or
ther.Iwouldt
ake
herhomesowecanbeal onebutIknowit'
sthel
ast
thi
ngshewant
srightnow.Tobealonewithme.
Shecont
inuest
ocrythenst
opsaft
erawhil
e.whyt
-
shi
rti
swet.Shel
ooksupandIwipehert
ears.
"I
'm sor
ryIslappedyou."Igi
veherat
issue.she
bl
owshernoseandwi peshertear
sonmyt -shi
rt
.I
smil
einside.
"Don'tapol
ogi
zebaby.Iexpectedi
tthatt
imeyou
caughtme.Iwil
ldoanythi
ngt ogai
nyourtrust
back.
"
"Takemehome.
"
"ok.Let
'sgo.I
'
llt
ell
lesegot
ogett
heboysr
eady.
"
shenods.
"Iwantanannyandsomeonewho'sgoingt
ohelp
usaroundt
hehouse.Ican'
tkeepupwit
htheboys.
"
shedoesn'
tmadanymore.
"Theyhavet ostartdoingchoresar oundthehouse
too.Fr
ankhi r
edthisguyt otakeoverf rom Percy
sincehe'sbeenslacking.He'sthesecur i
tyguywho
wasatt hehospit
alandkeptl uh'sphonesaf e.He
hasaf amil
y.Hisgirl
friendandchild."
"Canwet
rusthi
m?.
"
"yeah,t
heycheckedhim he'
scl
eanandwi
thmor
e
tr
aini
nghe'
llbefi
ne..
"
"soyouwer
ethi
nki
ngwhat
?."
"Iwasthinki
nghecandr i
vetheboystoandfrom
school
.Hisgirl
fr
iendorwifecanhelpyoui
nthe
houseifyouwant .Youwi
lldeci
de.Thei
rki
dcango
toschoolwit
htheboys."
"Okcal
lfr
ankandhearwhathehast
osay.Wecan
meett
hem andtakei
tfr
om t
here.
"
"okbaby.Let
sgoandgett
heboys.
"
Ihel
pherup.Wel ookateachotherandIknow
wit
houtadoubtthatIf
uckenlovet hi
swoman.I
gi
veherachastekissandwel eave.
UMSHADO

CHAPTER86

LUNGI
.
#NOTEDI
TED.

Thehum oft hehaircut ti

ngmachi neistheonl y
soundIcanhearandf eelonmyheadasIwat chmy
hairfal
li
ngdownmyf ace.Thecoolbr eezeai r
brushesmyski nandi tf eelssowonder ful.Iclose
myeyesandf eeltheairal laroundmyhead.Iasked
myauntt ocutallofmyhai rof f.Shewasnothappy
aboutitandmydadf or bademet ocuti
tal lof
fbutI
tol
dthem thatIam doi ngt hisf ormychi ldandI
hopeshewi l
lbet heonl ychi l
dIhavel ost.Ihope
Godwon' tt
akeanot herchi ldfr om me.Myhusband
wasokaywi thanydeci si onIt ook.
Istandupaf t
ermyauntf inishescuttungmyhai r
andpi ckitupfrom theground.Iputi ti
nsidethe
plast
icbag, dadtakesitt
ot herondavelandt obur
n
i
tinthecoalst ovethatwehave.Mkhul uNyandeni
givesmyaunta20l i
tr
ebucketf i
ll
edwi t
hherbsand
otherthingstocleansemewi th.Iwalkjustfaraway
fr
om thehouse.Iam bar ef ootandmybodyi s
coveredwi thablanketonly.
"Giveyourauntt
hebl anket.LuhwhenIpourt hi
s
wateronyou,youwillwashever yinchofyourbody.
Uyezwasisi?
.(doyouunder stand?.
)"Inodand
givemyotherauntt
hebl anket
."Youwi l
lkneel
downwashyourhead, faceandchestthenyouwi l
l
standupandwasht her estofyourbody."Idoas
shesays.
Thewat eriscoldwhenshef i
rstpoursitonmy
headbutt henitcoolsme.Iwashmyf ace,
chest
everywheremyhandsl end,Istandupanwasht he
restofmybodyi ncl
udingthesoulsofmyf eet
.I
makesur eIdon'tleavenothingunwashedunt ilwe
fi
nish.Myot hergivesmet heblanketandIwr ap
myselfwithitthenwewal kaway.
Igot omybedr oom andf indmyhusbandt here.He
l
ooksl ikehejustgobackt oocausehe' ssitt
ingon
thebed.Mycousi nwast heonehel pinghi
m
cleanse.Hisbruisesaroundhi sf acearenowbet t
er.
ItscaresmewhenIt hi
nkhej ustwal kedoutoft he
hospitaleventhoughwewentt henextdayandt he
doctorsaidhe'sfinebutmbusohasr ef
usedt ogo
seeanot herdoctorandthismor ninghewasbusy
doingsitupandtrai
ning.Iwishhewoul dtakei t
sl
owandl ethi
sbodyr ecor
verandnotst r
ainit.Iwi
ll
makesur ethatwegof oranothercheckupt oday
evenifIhavetodraghi mtheremyself.
Hel ooksatmeandsmi les.Heget sup,dropsthe
blankethewasal socover edin,goestolockthe
doort henhet akesmyhandandl eadsmet othe
bed.Idr opthebl anket,opent hewarddrobeand
takeanot hercleanblanket .Wegeti nbedandhe
pull
smeont opofhi m andcover suswi t
ht he
blanket.Ilovethis.Ismel lhim,helaughsandt he
smel l
smet oo.
"Webot hsmel
lwei
rd.
"welaugh.Hi
sengorged
shafti
spocki
ngmeanditdoesn'
thel
pthatIam on
topofit
.
"Youlooksobeat
ifulbaby.Idi
dn'
twantyout
ocut
yourhai
rofft
hough?."
"Why?
."
"becausewherewil
lIsi
nkmyfi
ngersinwhenwe
makemakel oveandwhenIf
uckyou."Igi
ggl
e.
"wel
lIhavemanyt
hungsonmybodyt
hatgr
aband
youcangrabontoo.Likemyboobs,ass,
mythighs,
my...
."Heshut
smeupwi t
hahotscorchi
ngki
ss
thatl
eavesmebreat
hless.
"Wecan'
thavesexunt
ilwhenwegetcl
eansedby
yourf
ami
ly.
"
"IaskedgogoXuluifi
t'
sokaywehavesexandshe
sai
dyes.Wear eal
readymarri
edandwehavebeen
cl
eansedso..
."
"Iwantustogotothedoctorsowecanf
indouti
f
i
t'
sokaysinceIst
oppedbleeding.
"
"okbabywe' l
lgo.Wehaven'
tbeenal
onesince
everythi
nghappenedandImissyousl
eepi
ngnext
toyournakedbodyandhavemywaywi thyou."I
giggle.
"Ourhousei
spacked.Everywhereyoutur
nthere'
s
someoneint
hereandthetensionisj
ustmaking
ever
ythi
ngworse.
"heasks.
"Aret
heyst
ressi
ngyou?
."Isi
ghandki
sshi
s
shoul
der
.
"No,
maybe,
Idon'
tknow.Ij
ustmi
sshavi
ngour
homet oour sel
ves.Ihat
ethet ensionbetweenyour
thr
eepar entsandzipho'
sgirl
friendisnottal
kingto
him af
terhet oldherhel
ovesaot herwomant oo
andhewant stomar r
ybothoft hem God.It'
slike
myhousei splacewhereeveryonej ustcomest o
dealwiththeirprobl
ems."Hesoot hesmyback.
"Iknowbabybutthat '
swhatyougetbei ngthefi
rst
daughteroft
hefamily.Ziphoisnowclosetoyou
morethanallofusandf orhim nowthisishome
si
ncehe'snottal
kingtoourpar ent
s.something
happenedbutI'
m notsurewhatt hatmeans.."
"Whatdoyoumean?
."Il
ookathi
m.
"Ilookedatt hecamerasint hehouseandbusani
wast alkingtomybi rthmom andt heconversati
on
theywer ehavinglookedli
kei twasver yseri
ous.
Zipho'sgi r
lcamei nandshewal kedclosertothe
l
ivingandhear dthem tal
king.Shel ookedscared
andbusanisawhert henshewal kedaway.Ihave
beenwat chingheraroundhi m andshel ooks
uncomf ort
ablewhenhei sar ound."
"Ihopei
t'
snot
hingbadbaby.Icant
alkt
oherand
maybeshe'
l
ltal
ktome.
"
"yeahdothat
.Maybeweshoul
dputsoundsar
ound
thehouse.
"
"No.Thecamera'sar
eenough.Idon'
twantour
fami
lyfeel
inguncomfor
tabl
ewhenvisi
ti
ngus."
Idon'
tthi
nkhei
shear
ingmebecausehekeeps
ni
bbli
ngmyearandhi
shandsaregropi
ngmyass.
"Mbuso.
..
..
"
"hmmmmmm."hef
li
psusandhe'
snowbet
ween
mythi
ghs.
"You'
rest
il
lhur
tand.
..
..
..
"heshut
smewi
thaki
ss.I
moan.
"
AndIam st
il
lcapabl
eofmaki
ngl
ovet
omywi
fe.
"
Her ubshi
sdi ckondickonmycl i
tupanddownand
godi tf
eel
sgood.Hebr i
ngshiswholebodyweight
onme.Hi sdickisonmycl itandbetweenus.He
entwinesourhandst oget
herthenmoveshiswaist
.
Thewayhei smovingagaisntmycl i
tismaki
ngme
moani nhismout h.Hemovesdownmybodyand
coversmyl abiawithhiswarmlipsandmouthand
continuestofeastonme.Hishandsmovetomy
breastsandhesqueezesthem andplayswi
thmy
nipples.Hetonguefucksmethenrubsmycli
twi
th
histhumb.
Atingl
etr
avelsallaroundmybodyandmyt oescurl.
Ibitemyliphardtopr eventmef rom screaming
becauseIam comi ng.Myhusbandmovesup
quickl
yandt hr
ustsinmeandst i
ll
sashespi l
lshis
seedinmeandwebot hcum together.Ourtongues
meetandgr eeteachot herli
kelonglostlovers.
Limbstangledaroundeachot her,Hi
sbei ngstil
lin
me, hewrapshisarmsar oundmeandhugsme
ti
ght.
"Howdi
dIgetsobl
essedandl
uckywi
thyou?
."
"Buhl
ehappened.
"hel
ooksatmeandwebot
h
l
augh.
"Isobadlywanttof
uckyoubutIcan'
t.aft
eran
hourwe'
llgetupandgoseet
hedoctor."
"No,weshoul dgetupnow.Ifwestayl
ikethi
swe
won'tleavet
huisroom andIdon'
twanttoupsetdad
more."Hebrushesmyhead.
"Buthesawt
hatyou'
rest
il
lbeaut
if
ul.
"
"Iknowbaby.Theyareallpr
obabl
ythi
nkingweare
fucki
ngr
ightnow."Helaughsandhisdi
ckexpands
i
nmeagai n."mbuso.
..
."
"hehasami ndofhi
sown.Fucki tissowarm
i
nsideIdontwanttopul lout
."Igivehimthe'you
bett
erlookeventhoghtIwantt hesamet hi
ngt oo.
"
hesighsandpullsoutandsomeofhi swar m seed
comesoutt oo.Mybodyscr eamsbl oodymur der
becauseiti
snotsatisf
ied.West i
llwantthem.
Myhusbandcomesbackwi thawettowelandwe
wipeourselves.Heevenhelpsmedr essthen
dresseshimself.Wewalkoutofourbedroom and
thehousei spackedwit
hourf amil
ymember sand
familyfr
iendseati
nginsi
deandout si
dethehouse.
Thepeopl ewhosawmbusoandhust winandhis
mot her
swer eshockedbecausetheyalll
ookali
ke.
Wewal kint heki
tchenandfindLesegodoingher
makotiduties.Thewayshe'ssti
rri
ngthatpotyou
canseet hatshe'staki
ngoutherfr
ustrat
ionson
thatpourpotandwhat evert
hatisinsi
de.
"EhMaMotaungSawubona.Whatdi
dthatpotdot
o
you?
."shet
urnsf
aci
ngus.
"Dumel abhut
i'Mbuso.Hisi
s."I
iwalktoherand
pul
lherinforahugcauseshel ooksl
ikeshewants
tocry.Ihopescel
odidn'
tupsetheroranyoneint
he
house.
"What
'swr
ong?
."Myhusbandasksher
.
"Mysist
ershowedupandDur banlastni
ghtandwe
hadtopickherup.Shecamewithusandshe's
out
side.
"
"whatt
hehel
ldoesshewant
?."Iaskher
.
"isn'
titmyhusbandwhooncet oldhershe'
sfreeto
visi
tusatanyti
meandt henyesterdayshedecides
tojustshowupwithoutt
ell
inganyone."
"Whi
chsi
ster
?."
"Lastbor
n."henods.
"Shet hi
nksmaybethingsaregoodbet weenyou
toosinceyougotmar r
ied.Tal
ktoherandt el
lher
howyour eal
lyf
eel.Don'tsweepitundertherug
andjustthi
nkit
'sgoingtogoaway.Shemi ghthave
beensentbyyourpar entst oseehowyoul ivein
yourhome.Idon' tblamescel oforagr eeingtoher
visit.Heknowswhenshegoesbackshe' sgoingto
tellthem howyoul iveandhowyout r
eatedher .
Nokut hulayouknowsomet i
mest hepeopl ethatdid
youwr ongwi l
lforgethowt heyt reatedyouand
somewi llevenpr etendt ohavef or gott
en.Don' t
treatthem thewayt heyt reatedyou.Ki l
lthem with
kindnessandi ftheyst i
llgiveyoupr oblems, well
therear ewayswecandealwi ththem. "Whatt he
hel l
?.Hesmi lesandwi nksatme.
"I'
mj okingaboutt hel astli
ne.Mywi fewillkil
lme.
Thisisyourhome, she'saguestinthishome.Your
guestandyouknowt hatweal waystreatourguest s
goodandmaket hem f eelathome.Wekeepour
fr
iendscl oseandenemi escloser
.Whati syour
si
stert oyounow? .Af ri
endoraf oe?.Areher
i
ntentionsf orbei
ngher earoundyourf amilygoodor
not?.I'
m sur eyourhusbandi swatchingher .Weall
aresodon' twor r
y.We' vegotyourback. "Heki sses
mycheekt heleavesbef orel
esegocansay
anything.
"Ohl
uh.Thankhi
mf ormeokay?
.If
eelbet
ternow.
"
wehugandIwipehertear
s.
"Dadwillnotbehappyi fheseesyoucryi
ngsono
morecrying.Iwon'tlett
hem hur
tyouagain.Even
yoursi
sterlesego.Ifsheget
sevenoutoflinethen
she'
sgone. "
"You'
remysi
ster
.Si
msandyouar
emyonl
y
si
ster
s."
"andwel
oveyout
oo.Whendi
dyougether
e?.
"
"Anhourago.
"
Shegoest otellmeaboutwhathappenedt othe
mallandwel aughitout .Simshadal readytoldme
butheari
ngiffrom howmysi st
erdealtwiththatgirl
i
ssof unny.Thisistheat ti
tudesheneedst ohave
towardshersister
.Ileaveherandgof i
ndmy
husbandandwegot othedoct or.Wegoot o
Mbuso'sappointfir
standt hedoct orexamineshi m
andmyhusbandi sheal i
ngandheal thybuthewi l
l
havetocomebackagai nnextweek.Wegot othey
gynae,Hechecksmyf ileandIt el
lhim aboutthe
miscarr
iageandever ythingelse.Hedoessonogr am
andthepreganancyt
issuehaspassedmeani
ngI
am heal
ed.Igototheotherr
oom andfi
xmydress
thenwal
kbackandt heyaretal
king.
"MrsGumedehaveyouandyourhusbandtalked
abouti
fyouwoul
dli
ketobeonbirt
hcontrolagai
n
ornot?
."
Wehadn'treal
lyt
alkedaboutt
hat
.Het
akesmy
handandlooksatme.
"what
everyouwantmyl
ove.Iwi
llsuppor
tyou.
"
"It'
snotonlymydecisi
ontomakePhakat
hwayo.I
mightbecar r
yingt
hem onmybodybutwemake
them t
ogether.
"
Hepal
msmyf
aceandpl
ant
saki
ss.
"Idowantust
otohaveatl
eastt
womor
eki
dsbut
onl
ywhenyouarer
eady.
"Ismil
e.
"Losi
ngourchi
ldmademereal
isethatIwantto
havemoreki
dswit
hyouandIdon'tustowait.
"
"areyousurel
ove?Idon'
twantyout
osayt
hat
becauseIsai
ditf
ir
st.
"Ishakemyhead.
"Iwantt
ohavemi
nil
it
tl
egumede'
sthatl
ookl
ike
youandme.
"
"Iwantust
ohavemi
niyou'
sthi
sti
me.
"Il
augh.
"Uhm I
'm sor
rytodi
stur
byoubutwecanact
ual
ly
dothat
."welookathi
m.
"how?
."Iaskshi
m.
"Yourhusbandgivesushissperm,wecheckt
osee
howmanyboysandgi r
lsheiscarr
yingt
henwe
taket
hatsperm andfer
ti
li
seyoureggsandyou
haveli
tt
leminimrsgumede's.
"Wowokay.
"whatdoyout
hink?
."Iaskmyhusband.
"No.Ther eisnowayIam goi ngtoletmysperm be
somewher eIdon' tknowandi nthehandsof
str
angers.Wewi l
lmakeourki dstheoldfashi
on
way.JusthowIl oveit."Iknewhewasn' tgoi
ngto
agreeandIam okaywi ththat."Iwantgodandour
ancest
orst oblessuswi thkidstheychoseforus
andIknowt heywi l
lgiveuswhatwewant .Having
youcarrymychi ldreni smybi ggest
accomplishmenti nthiswor ld."
"Il
oveyou.
"
"Il
oveyoumor ekhanyo."Ilaugh."sor
rydocwe
for
gotaboutyou.
"Iapologize.
"It
'sokay.Myjobher
eisdone.IguessIwi
llsee
youwhenTher e'
sabunintheoven.Thankyoufor
coming"welaughandshakehands.
Weleavehisoff
iceandwegot omydad' shouse
whereever
yoneisat
.Allourkidsarethereandit
makesmehappyt oseeeveryonethatIlove.
Wedr i
veint heyar danditisstil
lfull
.Bongaand
simshavear rivedtoo.IgreetallthoseIhaven't
seenamdmyhusbandgoest oj oi
ngt hemenwher e
theyaresit
ted.Iwal kinthekitchenandi tispacked.
Iwonderiftheyal laregoingtocomewi t
hus
tomorrowwhenwegot oPietermar t
zug.Iseethe
youngestGumedeandhei swithhisot hergi
rl
fri
end
andshet oodoesn' tlookhappy.Isneakawayf rom
thekit
chenbef or
esimscanseeme.Iknowwe
won'tstoptalkingifsheseesme.Ri ghtnowIneed
total
kt oTshego.
Iwalkaroundt
hehousethenIseeherout
side
watchi
ngmyt winspl
ay.Iopent
hedoorandsitnext
t
oher
.Sher
elaxeswhensheseesi
t'
sme.
"Whyar
eyouhi
dingher
eal
one?
."
"Icomi ngbackfrom thebathroom andIsawt he
boysplayingandt henextIknowI '
m sit
ti
ngher e
watchingthem play.
"Ismi l
e.Theyareplayingwith
thei
rothercousins.Theirnoiseandlaughteri
swhat
Ili
vefor.
"howareyouthough?Forr
eal
?."Shesi
ghs
exhaust
ingl
y.
"Iloveamanwho' sapolygamistandIdon'
tknowif
Ilovehim enoughtoacceptthatIam nott
heonly
onei nhi
shear t
.It
'sj
usttoomuchf ormeespecial
ly
seeingthem toget
her.
"Idon'twanttobeeit
herof
them ri
ghtnow.
"havet
hethreeofyousatdownandt
alkedor
maybethetwoofyou?.
"
"Idon'
tknowhowt odot hatsisLungi
.Iwantto
hateherbuthowdoIwhenIknowi t'
snotherfaul
t?.
Shetoodidn'
taskfort
his.Ziphosaidwewillt
alk
tomorr
ow."Inod.
"Dowhatmakesyouhappyt shego.Don'tputany
body'shappinessaboveyour
s.Makesur ethat
whateverdecisi
onyoumakeypuwi lll
ivewithitand
notregreti
t.
"
"Thankyousi
slungi
.Iwi
lldot
hat
."
"Haveyoutalkedtoyourpar
ent
sandt
oldt
hem
whathappened?."
"Ididandtheyarenothappy.Theyarebornagains
andmef all
ingpregnantbefor
emarri
ageissi
nin
thei
reyes.Iwassupposedt obeathomethis
weekendbutIdidn'tgo.Theyknowverywell
thatI
am notabor nagainbutsti
ll
."
"Theyar eyourpar entstshegoandt heyareboth
stil
lali
ve.Youhavet oresppectthei
rwishesevenif
youdon' tagreewiththem.Theyr ai
sedyouandyou
notdoi ngast heytol
dyoui slikeyouare
disrespecti
ngt hem andIdon'tthinkthosear
eyour
i
nt enti
ons."
"Ital
kedtomygr andmot
herandshesai
diti
sfi
ne.I
wil
lcomebackt hedayaf
tert
omorrowwhenIhave
beencleansed.
"
"Girlyouareblessed.Iwishmymom wasst i
ll
aroundbutshe' snot.Yousti
llhaveamom andI
thi
nksher eall
ycar esaboutyoudespit
eher
rel
igi
ousbeliefs.Talktoherandexplai
nthaton
mondayyouwi llbehome.Maybeshe' sevenhurt
thatshewasn'tt heref
oryouwhenyoul ostyour
baby."Shesniffs.
"someti
mesIwi shIwoulddiedwithherorhi
m.
WhatifIdon'
teverhavechi
ldrenagai
nsislungi
?."
"didthedoct
orsayyouar
enevergoi
ngt
ofal
l
pregant
?."
"noshedi
dn'
tbutwhati
f?.
"
"Not shegodon'tthi
nkthat
.Youwi l
lhavebeaut
if
ul
gumedebabi esbutGodf or
bidifi
teverhappens
thenyoucanal waysadoptorthechildr
enyour
sist
erwifewillhavewil
lbeyourstoo."
"Thi
sissohar
dandIam st
il
lhur
ti
ng.
"Youhavemysuppor ttshego.Webot hdidn'
tknow
thatwewerepregnantandwel ostourki
ds.Yours
waskill
edandmi newast akenawayt osavemy
husbandsl
ife.Wehavelittl
eangelsupthere
watchi
ngoverus.Theyar
ewi t
hthei
rancest
orsand
Iknowtheyknowthatwelovethem ver
ymuch.
Takecomforti
nthat.
"
"Whei
sitgoi
ngt
ost
ophur
ti
ng?
."
"Ithinkwhent hedaywet alkabouti tandwedon'
t
cry.Ithi
nkitwillstophurt
ingthen."Shenodsthen
hugsmet i
ght.Ifeelli
keabigsister."Ineedt
otal
k
toyouaboutsomet hi
ngel
sethough. "shepul
ls
backandl ooksat me.
"am Ii
ntr
oubl
e?.
"
"Noyouarenot
.Ij
ustneedyourhel
pwi
th
somet
hing.
"
"Ok.
"
"Thatnightyoualldrovehere.Youwer
einthe
ki
tchenandyousawMyhusband' stwi
nwithhi
s
motherandt heyweretalki
ng.Youwere
eavesdroppi
ngont hem andaf t
eryoul
ookedal
most
scared.Whatdidyouhear ?.
"
Herbodygoesri
digandshelooksatmescar
ed.
Shelooksar
ondli
kesheisscared.
"Pl
easesislungiIdon'twantt
roubl
e."shehear
d
somethi
ngthatfri
gtenedher.
"Youarenotgoingt
obei nt
roubl
etshegoIpromise
you.Ij
ustneedyoutot
ellmewhatyouhear d?.
"
"Howdi
dyouknow?
."
"Wehavecamerasi
nthehouseexcl
udi
ngt
he
bedr
ooms.Tel
lmewhatyouheard.
"
"Sisl
ungiIoncedatedThembaandheusedtosay
yourhusbandisaveryscar
ymanandIbeli
evehim.
UbhutiMbusoscaresmealotbut
..
."
"Myhusbandi sscaryt oal otofpeoplewhodon' t
personallyknowhi m andIunder st
andwhyyou
mightf eelter
rif
iedtot el
lmewhatyouhear d.Ifyou
decidet omar r
yi nthisfami l
ytshegoyouwi l
lhave
totrustallofusandknowt hatwehavegotyour
backnomat t
erwhat .Mbusowi llprot
ectyoulike
howheal wayspr otectsme.Wi t
hhi sli
febecause
youwi llbeagumedet oo."Okmaybeal iedalitt
le
wit
hhi m pr ot
ectingherl i
kehedoesmebut
neverthelesshewi llprotecther.
"Iknowmbusoi
sbi
gandt
err
if
yingbuthewi
llnever
hurtanyonei
ntent
ional
ly.
"Tear
sst
ream downher
face.
"I'
m sor
rysislungibutIdidn'
thearanyt
hing.It
ri
ed
tohearwhattheywer esayingbuttheywere
whisper
ing.
"she'
slyingtome.
"Di
dbusanit
hreat
enyou?I
sthatwhyyouar
eaf
rai
d
tot
ell
mewhatyouheard?.
"
"Nohedi
dn'
t.
"sheshakesherheadf
uri
ousl
y.
"Tshegoi
smyf
ami
lyi
ndanger
?."
"Ihavet
ogosi
slungi
."
"t
shegoIpromiseyouhewon'
thurtyou.Wewillt
ell
myhusbandwhatyouheardandhewi l
lprot
ectyou
pl
ease!
."shequi
ckl
ygetsupandrunstothehouse.
"f
uck!
."Ihavetomakehert
alkbef
oremyhusband
makeshertal
k.
"whathasgott
enyousoupsetandcur
sing.Ihave
neverhear
dyoucursebef
ore.
"
Ichukl
e,getupsmi
l
ingandhughi
mreal
lyt
ight
.
"Imi
ssedyou.
"heki
ssesmyf
orehead
"Angit
hiyouaregr
ownnowanddon'
tneedyourbi
g
brot
her?.
"Il
augh.
"I
'
llal
waysneedyou.Ineedyourhel
pri
ghtnow.
"
"what
'swr
ong?
."
"Canyoupleasegetmeasi gnl
anguageinter
preter
whocanreadlips.Ineedt
hem nowbhutiscel
o."he
fr
owns.
"Doesmbusoknowaboutt
his?
."
"Hedoesn'tandsomet
hingt
ell
smeIneedt
oknow
abouti
tfi
rstbefor
ehefi
ndsout.
"
"youar
escar
edl
uh.what
'swr
ong?
."
"justgetmet
hatpersonandt henpl
easeget
someonewhowi l
linvest
igat
ebusamiandhis
mom. "
"butmbusohasal
readydonet
hat
?."
"What
?When?
."
"Whenyou'resleepi
ngsi
s."eversincewehave
beenherehe'sbeeninhi
soffice.Ithoughtitwas
aboutworkandhi sf
aceal
lovert hemedi a?
.Iguess
whenhesawt shegof
reaki
ngouthedeci
dedt
o
i
nvest
igat
ethem? .
"whatdi
dhef
ind?
."
"hedi
dn'tsay.Hej
ustsai
dhe'
swai
ti
ngf
ort
her
ight
oppor
tuni
ty."
"Okfi
nei'
l
laskhi
m butpl
easegetmet
hatper
son
andkeepi
tbet
weenusokay?.
"
"Oni
t.
"Het
akesouthi
sphone.
IknowIshouldn'
tbesurprisedthathewas
i
nvestigat
ingt
hem butwhydi dn'thetel
lmet hi
s
mor ni
ngandwhatdidhef indthathehasn' tshared
wit
hanyoneandont heot hersideTshegoi sscar ed
totell
mewhatshehear d.Ihopet hatpersonwi l
lbe
abletohelpme.
UMSHADO

CHAPTER87

MBUSO.
Ihaven'tbeenhomei nawhi l
eandImustsayi ti
s
goodtobebackwher eIgrewup.Thegumede
famil
yi sallhereandnewsaboutmybi rt
hmother
andtwinbr otherapparentl
yspreadli
kefir
eand
whent heysawmyt wint heywereshockedandvery
happyt oseehi m.Thedownsi deist
hatmybi r
th
motherhasbeent el
li
ngever yonewhowoul dl
ist
en
aboutwhatmydi dtoher .
Shegotthesympat hyshewant edandmymot her
hasbeengetti
ngnast yl
ooksf r
om mostofour
ext
endedfamilymember s.Onet hingIhatet hough
i
showmybi rt
hmot herismakingmymom f eel
uncomfort
ableinherownhouse.Idon' tli
keitatall
anddadisnotmaki ngthingseasierforhercause
he'
sbusycomf orti
ngmybi r
thmot her.Theelders
wantdadtodivorcemom andmar ryourbirt
h
mother
.IwishIwassur pr i
sedbutIknewt hey
wouldsaythat.
Afterwewerecleansedmywi f
elef
twithherbrot
her
andIdon'tknowwher etheywentt
o.Thejustgoti
n
thecaranddroveout.Iaskedherl
astni
ghtifshe
talkedwit
hzipho'
sgirlandshesai
dshetri
edbut
theygotdist
urbedeveryti
meshetriedt
otal
ktoher
.
Ijusthopeshewillhaveachancetohaveatal
k
withher.
Wear enowi nt helivi
nghavingaf amilymeet ing.Al
l
theGumedeel dermal esarehereandsomeof
elderl
ywomeni ncludingmymot her sandaunt .
Theyar eseateddownandgogoXul uisalso
presentbutshehasbeent ooqui etformyl iki
ngand
shekeepsshaki ngherheadlikeshe'stalkingto
herself
.Ihatethatmyuncl ei
sher ebecausehe
seemst obepour i
ngt hepetr
olont hefir
ei nst
eadof
tryi
ngtocalmt heel dersdownbecausemymot her
i
sal sohersisterincasehehasf orgott
en.
"Mzukul
uwher
eisthedaught
eroft
hisf
ami
ly?
."
GogoXul
usaystome.
"Shel
eftgogowit
hherbrotherbutt
heyont
hei
r
wayback.
"sheshakesherhead.
"Notallt
hatisdonei
nthedarkremainshi
dden.
Secr
ets,l
iesandenvywil
ldest
roy.Li
stent
oyour
hear
tbeforetheuni
maginabl
ehappens.Thecl
oak
doesn'
thi
deeveryt
hingbecausether
eisonewho
seesandknows."shesayslooki
ngateveryonei
n
thi
sroom.Whatisgogotalki
ngabout?.
"Gogo?.
"Icallher
."I
sever
ythi
ngokay?Whatyou
havej
ustsaidgogowhatdoesitmean?.
"
"I
tmeansthatyourwif
eisuptosomethi
ng.She'
s
uptonogoodwherevershewentt
o."
"Mal
umedon'
tst
artwi
thyournonsensepl
ease!
."
"andwena?Whosaidyoucanbeher ecauset
he
l
astti
meIcheckedyouar
eaZi kal
alanota
Gumede?.
"myauntsaystouncleFanele.
"Iam herebecauseIwantmysi
stert
ohavewhati
s
ri
ght
full
yhers."
"Iknowwhatshedi dwasver ywrongandIam
happyf ormbusot hatheisreuni
tedwi
thhisbirt
h
motherandbr otherbutthi
sisSebenzi
le'
shouse.
Shewor kedveryhar dfort
hishometobet hewayit
i
stoday.IwillnotletyouwenaFaneleoryou
Owamipl ayhousei nmysi st
er'
shouseandmake
herfeelunwelcomedi nherownhome! .Never
!.
"she
sl
apsheront hef l
oor.
"Thishouse,thi
sli
fethatshewasl ivingwas
supposedt obeOwami '
sbutshest oleit.Allofthi
s
i
sr i
ghtful
lyOwami'
s.Allofit
!.
"Fanel esays.Bonga
andIlookateachotherandhe' smad.Hel ooksl i
ke
hewant stowraphishandsar oundouruncl e'
s
neck."
"HheywenaFanel e!Ifyoursi sterwant sahomeof
herownt henmybr otherwi l
lbuyheronebutshei s
notgoi ngtol i
veint hi
shouse! .Angi t
hial
lofyou
havet urnedyourbacksagai nstSebenzi l
et henIwi l
l
standwi thher .Al
loft hathappenedyear sago.I
don'tknowt hatli
tt
legi r
lyouar et alki
ngaboutandI
certai
nlydon' tknowyouOwami .Mybr ot
hert oldme
thatsebenzi ledoesn'thaveanypr oblem t
akingyou
ashi ssecondwi f
ebutt hatdoesn' tmeant hatyou
willactasi fyouar ethel adyoft hishousenosi si!
.
Gost artyourownhomeandt akeqwabewi thyou
becausehedef i
nit
elydoesn' tdeser vethemot herof
hischildren."
"Lwethukahlengolaka.Sil
aphanjeukuthisizot
hol
a
i
sixazul
ulosayoyonkel ent
oeyayenzeka.Noone
hasturnedthei
rbackonMbuso' smot her.(calm
downLwethu.Weareal
lher
esowecangetaway
for
war
dregardi
ngthi
ssit
uat
ionwear
efaci
ng.
)"
Oneel
dersays.
"Themomental lofyouhear dwhatshedi dal l
thoseyearsago, yout urnedyourbacksonherand
forgotaboutallthegoodshedi df orthisfamily.The
hurt,abuse,t
hel yingandcheat ingsheendur edin
thehandsofmybr othersuddenl yitdoesn'tmat t
er
becauseofawomanyoubar elyknow.Doyout hink
owamiwi l
ldoal lthet hingssebedi df ort
hisfami l
y?.
Idon'tthi
nkso. "Mybr ot her
sl ookatmeandIl ook
down.Iwasol dert hant hem whengr owingso
somet i
mesIwoul dseemymot hercr yingandI
woul dhearthem ar gui ngabouthi sinfedeli
ti
es.
"Zi
pho,telluKhanyotocomeinsideshe'
sneeded.
"
Zi
phoget supandcomesbackwi thmywi f
ewho
l
ooksli
keshewascr yi
ng.Herfaceisredandshe
won'
tlookatme.Igetup.
"Si
tdownmbuso.Shewi
llbef
ine.
"hel
lno!
.Igetup
andwal
ktoher
.
"l
ovear
eyouokay?
."Shenodsandpul
lsmet
osi
t
downnextt oher
.Ido.Idrapemyar m onher
shoulderandpullhercl
ose.Idon'
twanttobeher
e
now.Mywi f
eisnotokayandIneedtoknowwhat
upsether.
"Youdon'tevenknowherbutyou'r
ealr
eadyjudgi
ng
herl
wethu.Giveherachancethenyouwil
lseethat
shei
sagoodwoman. "Fanel
esays.
"Okgoodwoman.Tel lmet his.Sowenaal lt
hese
yearsyouwer ejustwait
ingforqwabesoyoucan
pickupwher eyouleftof
f?.Youdi dn'thaveal i
feat
allOwami ?
.Allt
heseyear syouwer ewaiti
ngfort he
dayt hatmbusocomesandl ooksf oryou?."Alleyes
got omybi r
thmom.
"Howthehellwasshesupposetoknowwhenshe
l
osthermemor y?.
"Noonetal
ks.Ikeeplooki
ngat
mydadwai t
ingforhi
mtosaysomet hi
ngbuthe's
j
ustquiet
.
"CanIsayorasksomethi
ng.
"Fanel
eopenshi
s
mouthtosaysomethi
ngbutIl
ookathi
m andhe
st
ops.
"Youmay.
"Anel
dersays.
"UncleFanelehereknewt hathehast winsisters
buthehasnevert r
iedtogol ookforhisothersister
andnephewhowcomeuncl e.Youar etheonly
personwhoknewaboutmyhusband' sexistence
butyetyounevertri
edt ol
ookf orhi
m event hough
youhadmyf at
herin-
law'snameandsur name? .
Whydi dn'
tyoutrytolookforthem?."
"IdidandIfail
ed.Theonl
yt hingIwasf ocusedon
wasmakingsur ethatmysisterrecover
sand
rai
singhi
sson.Ithoughtsher anawayand
changedheridenti
tyandmbuso' sIdent
ity.
"
"wegett hatandwethankyouforrai
singhi
m butI
am notsatisf
iedwi
thyouranswer.Owamiyou
di
dn'tanswermyquestion.
"Myauntsays.
"whatdi
dyouaskme?
."
"Whatwereyoudoi
ngallt
hoseyearsago?
.You
neverdat
ed,
gotmarr
iedandhadotherchi
ldr
en?
."
Mywi f
e'sheadshoot
supandshel ooksatBusani
.I
l
ookathimt ooandhelooksawaythengetsupand
l
eaves.Luhgetsuptooalmostl
ikeshe'
srunni
ng
af
terhim.Ilookatmybir
thmotherandshe'
s
l
ookingatt
hedoorwher
ebusaniwal
kedoutof
.Her
eyesfi
ndmineandshel
ooksaway.
"Mbusogot
alkt
oyourwi
fenow.
"
Iwasgoingtoleavewhet
hershesaidorornot
.I
openallt
hebedroomsdoorsandtheyarenott
here.
Iwalktotheki
tchenandshe'
sther
ewiththeot
hers
butIdon'
tseebusani.
"Luhcomeher e."It
akeherhandandl eadherto
ourbedroom.Ilockthedoor
.Shehasherhands
underherarmpitsandshe'
spacing.Isitonthebed
andlookather.
"Tal
k."shel
ooksatme.
"Whydidn'
tyout
ellmeyouwer
einvest
igat
ing
them?
."
"Iwasgoi
ngtot
ellyout
hat
'swhyIwant
edyout
o
tal
kwit
hzi
pho'
sgirl
."
"Shedidn'
ttal
k.She'
sscar edofyouandIt hink
she'
sscaredofbusani
.Idon' tknowifhethreat
ened
herprnotbutshewouldn'ttal
kevenafterI
promisedhert
hatyouwillprotecther
."
"Okwher
edi
dyougot
owi
thyourbr
other
?."
"Iaskedhimt ogetmeasi gnlanguagei
nter
pret
er
whoalsor eadli
ps.Iwantedtofi
ndoutwhatthey
weretal
kingabout.Wewentt omeetherandI
showedhert hefootage.
"
"t
alkl
uh.Whatdi
dshef
indout
?."
"It
hinkyoushoul
dtal
ktobusaniandaskhi
mfi
rst
."
"Iwi
llaf
teryout
ellmewhattheint
erpr
etersai
d."
Sheheavesadeepsighandsit
snexttome."Talk
tomelove."
"Yourbi
rthmotheri
smar ri
edtoawhi t
emanand
youhaveayoungersist
er.Busanihasagi
rl
fr
iend
thathel
eftbehi
nd.
"
"LoveIknowal
loft
hat
.Iwantt
oknowwhatscar
ed
tshego?
."
"Youknewandyoudi
dn'
ttel
lme?
."
"LuhyouknowIdon'thi
deanythi
ngfr
om you.Iwas
goi
ngtotel
lyouokayandI'
m sorr
yifi
tseemsIwas
hi
dingi
t.
"
"okbaby.Youruncl
e,mot
herwantr
evengeonyour
mot her.Theyar epl anningt oki llheraf ter
everythinghasbeendone.Busaniknowsandhe
wast ryingt oconvi nceyourmot hert hatt hey
shoul dn'tdoi tbutyourmot herwant sherdead
mbuso.I t'
sherandf anele'sidea.Shedi dn' tfor
give
uMaoryourdad.Shewant edt of r
amebongaand
ziphof orherdeat hbutbusanir ef used.Shehat es
them, Shehat esal lofusexcl udi ngherki ds.She' s
pretendingt obet hisloving, niceandf or giving
womanbutdeepdownshe' sr otten.She' spl anning
ondi vorcingherhusbandt omovebackher esoshe
canhavet hel i
fethatwast akenf r
om her .Theonl y
personst andingi nherwayi suMa.Busanisai dthat
shemadeuMaadealt hatsheshoul dl eaveaf t
er
everythinghasbeendoneandhesai duMahagr eed
thatshewi llleave.Ithinkf anel eandowamiwi llsti
ll
fi
ndherandki l
lher .Weshoul dt elluMahnoBaba
mbusoandexposet hem. "Iputmyhandsonmy
headandt akeadeepbr eath.
"Thisisfuckeduplove.Ir
eall
ybeli
evedherwhen
shesaidshef or
gaveuMa.Iknowshe' sangrybutI
didn'
tthi
nkshe'stoapointthatshewantsavenge
herself.It
houghtwewi l
lallhaveacl eannewst art
andbecomet hisonebi ghappyf amilybutthat
seemsl i
kewear enevergoi ngtohavet hatbecause
therear esecretesandl i
es.Soshewasgoi ngto
divorceherhusbandwi t
houtusknowi ngthenafter
she'smar ri
edt omydadshewi l
lint
roduceour
sistertous?.Howcr uelisthat?.Busanilookedme
i
nmyf acethatIcant rusthim.Thatwecanal ltr
ust
him buthe'sbusyschemi ngbehindourbacksand
threatenstoki l
lourmot her?."
"Myhusbandl ookatme.Iam notmaki ngany
excusesf orhim butbusanifeelsrobbedofal lof
thi
sandhei shur tbecauseyoul ovethewomant hat
almostkill
edyourmot herandhim.I t'
snoteasyf or
him atall
.Hewant stopleasehismot herandont he
othersidehe'sthinkingabouthisnewf oundf amil
y
andhi srelat
ionshipwi t
hhisbrothers.Iknowhe' sa
grownassmanbuthi smotherangermi ghtcloud
hisjudgementandhemi ghtdosomet hingthathe
willr
egretjusttopleaseherandIdon' tthi
nkhe
want sthat.Hedoesn' twantanythingtohappent o
hisbrotherandf atherbutyourmom hasahol don
hi
m andt
hatmi
ghtgethi
m ki
ll
ed.
"
Il
ayonmybackandl
ookup.
"Idon'
twantt
ohur tmybrot
herluhbuthowam I
goi
ngtotr
usthim aroundmyfamil
y?Aroundyou
andourki
ds?.
"
"Yout rustmeandt hat'
senough.Busanineedsyou
nowashi sbigbr other.Givehim achancet ocome
cleanandt el
lyouwhatt heytalkedaboutandwhat
faneleandhi smot herar eplanni ng.Yourmot heris
stil
lhurtandr i
ghtnowherhear tisfil
ledwithanger
andr evengeandf aneleisfeedi ngont hat
.
Rememberl ovewhatyourgr eatgr andmot hersaid.
Wehavet ofixthingandnotl etbl oodspi l
lcause
historymightrepeati tself
.Talkt oyourbot herlove
andi fhefail
stot ellyout hetrutht henyoucuthi m
outofourl i
vesf oreverlikebef oreweknewhe
existed.
"
"Iwil
ltal
ktohi
m butwewi l
lnottel
lanyoneelse.I
wanttoseehoet heythi
nkthisplanofthei
rwill
work.Theyar
ei nforasurpri
se.Fanel
ewi l
lregr
et
thedayhedecidedtospeakshitaboutyou.Asf or
mymot
her
?hmmm.
"
"nobl
oodspi
ll
ing.
"shesays.
"Whatmadeyoucr
y?.
"
"ThethingsIhear
d.Iwant edtokil
lthem whenI
knewwhatt heywereplanning.If
eltbet
rayedcause
wewel comedthem wit
hl ovi
ngandopenar ms
but.
..
."
"I
t'
sokayl
ove.If
ixi
t.Don'
twor
ry.
"
"What
'sgoi
ngt
ohappent
oyourpar
ent
sthough?
."
"Iwantmymom t oleavemydad.Hedoesn' t
deser
veher.Shehasbeenpat ientwi t
hhimf or
manyyearsbutIthi
nkt hi
swast hel astst
raw.He
cheat
edonherwi t
hhert winsist
er.Idon'tknow
howtheyaregoingtofixiti
ftheytry."
"whataboutyoursi
ster
?."It
akeoutmyphoneand
showher,Angel
a'sphot
os.
"She'
ssobeaut
if
ulbaby.Mi
xedbabi
esar
e
beaut
if
ul.
"
"Hai
bosisi
?,Ar
eyoutryi
ngtot
ellmesomet
hing?
."
Shet
hrowsherheadbackandl
aughs.
"Ilovemybabi
eswi
thyou.Ar
eyougoi
ngt
otr
yand
reachher
?."
"Idon'
tknowifsheknowsaboutmelove.I
'
llask
busaniandt
akeitfr
om t
herebutf
ornowIhave
someonewatchinghermaki
ngsureshe'
ssafe."
"Ihopeshe'
snot
hingl
ikehermot
her
."
"Ihopesotoolove.Letmegohaveatal
kwith
busani
.I'
l
lseeyoulater.Ber
eadyf
orme."She
bl
ushes.
"Qui
cki
e?.
"Shequickl
yget
supandrunsout
l
aughi
ngoutsi
dethebedr
oom.I
'
llgether
.

LUNGI
.

Iwatchasmyhusbandget sinthecarwithbusani
andmybr ot
her.Ist
andandwat chthem unti
lthe
cardisappears.Iwal
kbacki nthehouseandsi t
down.Mysi stersandsoont obesisteri
n-l
awsar e
si
tti
ngandnoonei stal
king.Okwhati sgoingon?.
"Youar
eal
lsi
tt
ingont
het
abl
eandnott
alki
ng?
."
"Mysist
eri
sinmyhouseandGodknowswhat
she'
sdoi
ng.
"lesegosays.
"she'
sinyourbedroom hi
dingsomethi
ngunder
yourbed.Whenyougethomer emovething,burni
t
butdon'
ttouchitwit
hyourhands.I
'l
lgi
veyou
somethingtospri
nkl
einyourwholehouse."Sbani
says.
"Soyouar
ejustl
ikegogo.Youar
easeer
?."si
ms
asks.
"NoI
'
m not
.Vi
sionsj
ustcomeandgo.
"
"Iam hor
nyandI
'
m punishingmyhusbandf
rom
hi
scheati
ngbywit
hholdingsex.
"
"Hewon'tevercheatonyou.Heknowshehurtyou
andhe'
ssorry.Givei
ttohim."sbanisayst
osi
ms.
"Thankyoufort
hatsbani
.Ithi
nkIneededtoheari
t
fr
om someoneelseot
herthanmysister
s."
"whataboutt
hesisterwi
vesherewhowon'teven
l
ookateachother
."simsdoesn'
thaveaf
il
ter
someti
mes.
"Theywi
llbef
ine.Theyl
ovehi
m andhel
oves
t
hem.
"
"whydoesi
tsoundl
iket
her
e'sabuti
nther
e?.
"Iask
her
.
"nobut
s."hmmm
"Ar
eyougoingtogivesbuachancebecausethe
manlovesyou.Weallcanseet
hat.
"lesegoasks
her
"He'
sapol
ygami
sttooandIam not.Plusheloves
awomanhecanneverhave.Idon'
tknowifIcanbe
hi
snumbert
woorthree.
"ohIwonderwhoi ti
s.
"Youguyswi
llf
igurethi
ngsoutandmakei
twor
k.I
havef
ait
hinyoutoo."
"Notal
lofusar
eluckyl
ikeyoul
uh.
"sbanisays.I
fr
own.
"Whatdoyoumeanl
ucky?
."si
msasksher
.
"Mbusolovesyou.Onlyyou.Heseesyouonl
yand
ever
ythi
ngisaboutyou."
"HelovesmelikehowIlovehim andyeseveryt
hing
mustbeaboutmet ohim becauseIam hi
s,heis
mineonly.I
'
m notluckyI
'
m blessedandifyougive
sbuachanceeverythi
nginhi m mightbeaboutyou
toosbani
.Justopenyourhear tt
ohim andst op
worryi
ngabouttheotherpersonhel oves.Theonl
y
thi
ngimport
antisthathelovesyouandwant syou.
"
"Wel
lsai
dluh.
"lesegosays.
"Howdoyoudoi
t?.
"
"dowhat
?."
"beever
ythi
ngt
ohi
m becausehei
sobssessed
wit
hyou."
"Sorr
yl uhtojumpi n.SbaniIwantt otellyou
somethingcauset omei tlooksl ikeyoul ack
exper
iencewi t
hmen.Whenl uhmetmbusoi twasn'
t
rai
nbowandsunshi ne.Itwasn' tloveydovel ythat
youseenowandt hinkever ythi
ngi sabouther .
Mbusol oveshiswi fethewayal lmar ri
edmen
shoul
d.Herhappi nessi sever ythingtohi m because
heknowswi t
houtherhei snot hing.Luhr espects
herhusbandandshesubmi t
stohi m.She' stheonly
onewhom hel i
stenst o.Amansbanionl ywants
onethingfrom hiswi feandt hatisr espect.When
yourespectandsubmi ttoyourhusbandt henhe
wi
llwor
shi
pthegr
oundyouwal
kon.
"sbaninods.
"Myl ovewithmbusobeganwi t
ht ears,l
otsofthem
thentheygrewi ntosmi lesandkissesandt helove
thatweabsol utelyhavef oreachot her.MbusoandI
havebeent hrought hingsyoucoul dn'timagineand
everydayIam t hankf ulthatitwashi m whosaved
mef rom t
hel i
feIwasl i
vingandt heonet hatwas
plannedforme.Il ovemyhusbandandIwi lldo
anythingt
omakesur ethatnoonehur t
smy
husband,myf amily.Ial wayswanthi mtobehappy
thesamehemakesmehappy.He' smysoul mate,
he'smyever ything.Hi m andourchi l
dren.
"
"Thatisbeautif
ulsislungi
.MinaIlovetheway
uBhutimbusol ovesyou.Iwishziphowasthatway
wit
hmet oo.
"Lindosays.Thef i
rstgi
rl
fr
iendwe
wereintr
oducedt o.Iwonderwhowi l
lbethefi
rst
wif
e?.Hersisterwifelooksather
AuntLwethucomesinandshe'
snotl
ookingver
y
happy.Shesi
tsdownandsoonmymot heri
n-l
aws
comeintooandtheysi
tdown.
"Si
si.
..
"
"Kahlesebenzi
le.Howcanyoubesoquietandl
et
them t
alktoyouthewaytheywanthuh?
."
"Fort
hingst
ogowellIwi
llagr
eebecauseIdon'
t
wantmychil
drent
obehurtinalloft
his.
"
"Theyar
eal
somychi
ldr
ent
oosebe.Il
ovet
hem.
"
Godthi
swomani
sgood.
"I
sever
ythi
ngokayma?
."Si
msasksourmot
heri
n-
l
aw.
"Canyoumakemesomet
ea?
."
"I
'
llmakei
t.
"Tshegost
andsup.
"Mybeaut
if
uldaught
eri
n-l
aws.Iseemysonsl
ove
bi
gwoman."
"Wearebig.bol
d,beaut
if
ul,
haveful
lbreast
sli
ke
ourmotheri
n-l
aw.Igetwhytheywouldbeattr
act
ed
tousbecauseourmotheri
n-l
awisbuil
tthesame."
"Icanseebutdon'
tyou.
..
"
"whoami ssLondon.Youlikeyoursel
fskinnyand
weloveourselvesl
iket
his.Wear enotfatOwami
don'
tgetconfused.
"
"Youreal
lydon'
tli
kemel
wet
huwhy?
.Whatdi
dI
everdotoyou?.
"
"Ther
e'ssomethi
ngoffnj
eaboutyou.Idon'
tknow
whati
tisbutIwil
lfi
ndout.
"
"Iam nothi
dinganythi
ng.Ij
ustwantt
ohavea
chanceofhappiness.
"
"Butyoudi
dsisowamiandyounowwantt
ori
ski
t
al
laway.Whatashame.
"sbanisays.
"whati
sshet
alki
ngabout
?."aunt
yasks
"Howthehel
lwoul
dIknow?
!."Sheget
supand
l
eavest
hekit
chen.
"Whatareyouhidi
ngOwami ?
,Whereareyou
goi
ng?.Whatisshehi
ding?
."auntLwet
huasks
"I'
m sor
ryt
osaythi
sbutIdon'
ttr
usther
."si
ms
saysandweal
lagree.
OnlyifuMahknowst hatherbrotherandsi sterwant
herdeadbutIknowt hatmyhusbandwon' tl
etthat
happen.Ijusthopebusaniwi l
ltellhi
mt het r
uthand
maybe, j
ustmaybet heywillhavet herel
ationship
theybothwant .WhatIknowf orsur ei
st hatbonga
andzi phocanneverknowt hatt
heirauntanduncl e
want edt of
ramet hem forthemur deroftheir
mot her.Iwil
lneverlookatmyhusbandsbi r
th
mot herthesame.Idon' tknowhowIam goi ngt o
reactwhenIam ar oundherbutIam goi ngtot r
ymy
bestandbeni ceuntilt
het r
uthisexposed.Asf or
uncleFaneleIdon' tcareifhedies.Personall
yI
don'teverwantt oseehi m everagainafter
everythingisdone.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER88

LUNGI
.

Ifi
nishedbathi
ngthekidsafterdinnerthenput
them tobed.Iknowotherpeopleprefertotr
avel
withthei
rmaidswherevertheygoandIl i
kethatbut
notwhenIam atmyi n-l
awspl ace.Ili
ketotakecare
ofmyki dsmyselfpl
ustherearemanyofusnowso
Inolongerdoal
ltheworkbymyself
.Thet
winsar
e
sl
eepingwi t
hal
ltheot
herboysexcl
udi
ngkamo
who'
ssl eepi
ngwithMah.
Igetinbedandsi gh.Mybodyi ssoti
redandmy
feetarekill
ingme.Onet hingt
hatismakingme
smilerightnowi sknowingt hatFanel
ehasalr
eady
madehi swayt oOphongol otofindoutwhoowns
thelandandbuti tbackfrom them.Mbusoandhis
brother
sar ej oi
ninghimt omorrowthenwewil
l
foll
owaf tertheytellust
oo.
Ihaven'thear dfrom myhusbandsi ncetheyl eftbut
Iknowdeepdownhedi dn'tkillhi
stwin.Ijusthope
busanit oldhimt hewhol etruthandl eftnothing.I
thinkhesawt her ealmbusoandr eal
isedthathe
hasnochoi cebutt ocomecl ean.Bongal ef twit
h
ziphoandIt hi
nkt heyareal ltogetherwher everthey
are.Iknowt heycanal lki
llbusaniandcomeback
l
ikenot hinghappened.Il ookatt heti
meonmy
phoneand11: 30pm.Theyhavebeengonef orlong
andIhopenot hingbadhappenedt othem.Ihave
thisurget ocallhim butIdeci deagainstit.Hewi l
l
comehomeaf t
ert heyhavet alked.Scelowoul d
havecal
ledmei fsomet
hingwaswr
ong.Icl
osemy
eyesandsleep.
Myski nf eelscool ,likethecomf or t
erhasbeen
removedf rom mybody.Thebeddi bsandcol d
handst ouchmyf eetandt heygoupt omyl egsand
touchmynakedt highs.It urnmyheadandt he
smel l
off reshwat erandl itt
lebitofwhi skeyhitsmy
face.Theywer edrinking.Isighandopenmyeyes.
Hehasswi tchedthel i
ghtsonandhei snaked.I
turnmybodyandl ayonmyback.Heget sbetween
myt highsst i
lll
ooki ngatme.Mybodyshudder s.I
l
ookathi m andi t'
sal mostasi fIam lookingatt he
oldruthlessmbusowhodi dn'tgiveaf uckabout
anyoneel se.Godwhatdi dbusanisayt ohim? !
.I
don'twantt hatmbusoback.Ihat edhim andt his
personlooki ngatmef eel
slikeit'
stheol dhim and
he'sscar ri
ngme.
Scarsthatprovehewasoncei nanacci dentare
markingchestandhisst r
onglegs.Il
ookathi s
shaf
tandi tkeepsgrowinggetti
ngheavier,t
hicker
andhar d.Vei
nspopar oundhi
sshaf tandhis
mushr oom headisshi
ning,pi
nkandl eaki
ngofpr e-
cum.Hi schesti
smovi ngupanddownl ikehe' s
contr
oll
inghisbreat
hing.Ilookathi sl ef
thandt hat
i
sonmyt highandhisringisshi ningbr i
ght .Our
eyeslockandmyski nget scover edingoosebumps.
MynipplesgethardandIpr essmyl egst ogetherto
tr
yandcal m downmycl itthatist hr
obbing.
Hel ocksmyl egstogetherwi thhi sthenhegoesup
mybodyandhi sharddicki srightonmyf ace.Il
ick
myl ipsandswal l
owt hesal i
vat hathasf i
ll
edmy
mout hl ooki
ngatt hismaj esti
cdi ck.Iopenmy
mout handhi sdicksli
psr ighti nmymout handI
massagei twithmyt ongue.Hegr oans.Itr
yt o
movemyhandssoIcangr i
pi tbutheshakeshi s
head.Ir otatemyt onguet hebestIcani nthat
positionsuckinghi sdick.Iusemyt ongue,l
ipsand
l
itt
lebi tofmyt eeththenputt het ipofmyt ongueon
thatsmal lopeningonhi sdi ckandhel ovesit.he
quicklypul l
sthenmovesal it
tlel owersohi sdick
canbebet weenmyboobs.OhmyGodhe' sgoingto
ti
ttyfuckme.
"covermydickwit
hthem anddon'
tcl
oseyour
mouth."Idoashesays.
Hishandssandwi chmyhead.Icanf eelhi sbal
ls
j
ustbelowmyboobsandt heyfeelhar dandmy
handsandmout hareitchingtoplaywi t
ht hem.His
l
owerbodybegi nstomoveandIcanf eelthe
warmth,wetnessandhar dnessofhi sdi ckbetween
myboobs.Hef ucksthem andmyeyesar eont hat
pi
nkmushr oom headthati spl
ayingpeek’ aboo
wit
hme.Whenhi sdickpeeksoutf rom myboobsi t
goesstrai
ghttothewarmt hofmymout h.Mychi n
andchestarewetf r
om mysal i
vacausemy
husbandisnotgivi
ngmet imetoswal lowi t.
Itiswet ,
war m, sli
pperyandOhIGodIl oveit
.His
gr oansaretellingmet hathe'slovingandenj oyingit
too.Hi sfaceishar d,hi
sj awsarecl enchedt i
ghtlike
i
fher el
axest henhewi llcome.I t
'snotever yti
me
thatIseet hel ookonmyhusbandsf acewhenhe
comesandt onightIwantt oo.Idon'tmovemyeyes
awayf r
om hi m ashisst arr
ingatme.Ir emovemy
righthand, movemyl efthandsoi tcangr abboth
boobsandhel i
ft
shishandal i
ttl
e.Ithinkhet hi
nk
myhandmi ghtbet ir
ed.Imovemyl efthandt o
underhi sthingsandgr abholdofhi sbal l
sandpl ay
withthatheavysack.Hecur sesandclosehiseyes.
Iknowt heyaresensit
ivesoIgentlypl
aywi ththem
andt heygetharderandharderandIcanf eelthat
onet hi
ckveingetti
nghardandIknowhe' snear .My
cl
itisscreamingatmewant inghisfi
ngers,hisdick
andIam soaki ngwet.Icanfeelt
hebeddingwett oo
underme.
Hequickl
yget
sofoffandI'
m abouttoaskhi
m
what
'swrongbuthepull
smet otheedgeoft
hebed
andl
aysmeonmybackwi t
hmyheadhangi ng.
Whatishegoi
ngtodonow? .
"I'
m goingtodeepthroatfuckyou.Br eaththr
ough
yournoseandr el
axlove.Tellmei fyouwantt ogag
orifI’
m goi
ngtoodeep.Ipr omiseIwi llbegentl
e
l
ove."Okmyhusbandi sstil
lhere.InodbutIam
scaredcausewehaveneverdonet hi
s.
"Howisthatt
hinggoi
ngt
ofi
tdownmyt
hroat
?."he
chuckl
es.
"Thesamewayi tal
waysdoeswhenyoubl owme
butthedif
fer
encer i
ghtnowisthatwearedoi
ngi
t
theotherwayaround.It
'sgoi
ngtobeli
kehowyou
blowmebutIwi llbetheonlyonedoingthewor
k.
Youj ustr
elaxl
oveanddon' tf
orgett
obreath
throughyournose."Inod.
Itakeadeepbr eat
handopenmymout h.Hecomes
i
nvi ewandIseet hesackthatiskeepingmy
chil
dr ensafe.Imovealit
tl
et henswal l
owt hem.
Theysmel lfreshli
kewater.Thewor dyesescapes
hislips.Hepalmsmyboobst henIfeelhishot
mout hnipplesandImoan.It rytofi
tbot hofthem
buthepul lsthem out
.
"Open"hesays.
Heslipspastmyl ips,inmymout handdownmy
thr
oat.Imoant ell
inghimt ogoal it
tl
edeeperandhe
doesandst opswhenhehi tsmygagr ef
lex.Myear s
areri
ngingbecauset heonl ythingIcanf eel,hear
andsmel li
shimi nmymout h.Hepul l
soutt hen
pushesingent l
ycursingandf uckthisfeelssogood.
WhenIbr eathinthroughmynosehet hrustsinand
mywhol ebodyi svibrati
ng.Hei ssogent l
eandhe
fi
ll
smywhol emout handt hroat.WhenIswal lowI
canfeelhisdickheadandhecur sesever yti
me.
Thewayhemovesi nmehasgot tenmybody
shakinghardbeggingmeforrel
ease.Ikeep
squeezingmythighstr
yingt
ost opmycl i
tthr
obbing
butitisthr
eat
eningtoki
llmeifIdon'
tgiveitwhatit
wants.
Imovemyhandsbet weenmyt highsandspreadmy
l
egsandcoolai rhit
sme.Imoanbutammmmm
soundistheonet hatsounds.ItouchI'
m aboutto
touchmycl i
twhenhi shandsgr abmine.Whenhe
doesthathisdickpushesbagi nandhegr oans.The
hiswarm seedgoesdownmyt hroat
.Hetrustsin
andoutal i
tt
leharderandmor ecum fil
lmyt hr
oat
sli
dingdownt omyst omach.
Itrytogetmyhandsof fhi
m buthe'
sgrabbingthem
ti
ght.Hekeepst hrust
ingunti
lhestopsthenpull
s
out.Hemovesaway, helpsmetogetupt henhe
getsmeonal lfours.Myheadandchestar eont he
bedandmyassi supintheair
.Iexpecthimtojust
thrustinbutinsteadIfeeltwoveryhotsti
ngsonmy
assandIwi nce, grabthesheetshardandhidemy
faceont hebedsoIwon' tmakeasound.Tear s
threatentofall
.
Hei
sst
andi
ngbehi
ndmeandhi
slegst
oucht
he
bagofmyt highs.Hepushesmybackdown,
makingmear chmor et henhet r
ustsinhardand
rough.Fuck!Ibitemyl ip.Hefucksmehar dand
rough.Hefuckent earsmypussyapar tandthis
ti
met earscloudmyeyesandt heyfall
.Iknowhei s
angryathismot herandbr otherbuttakingal
lthat
angeronmei snotf air.Thisri
ghtnowwi t
hmei s
mbusonotmyl ovinghusband.Maybet hiswilll
et
himreleasehi sangerandIwi llgetmyhusband
back.
Myhusbandhasn'tt
ouchedmel i
kethi
sinyears
andnowIwonderwhatelsedidbusanisaythat
madethisol
dmbusot obeback.Atthi
spointIj
ust
wanthi
mt obedonesohecanl etmebe.Mycl i
t
evenst
oppedthr
obbing.
"moveint
hemiddl
eandlayfl
at.Don'
tmove.
"Inod.
Imakesur
eIhi
demyf acef
rom him.
Hepul l
soutandmoveswi t
hme.If eelhi
shands
spreadingmyasscheeksthenhisthumbr ubsmy
anusr i
ngandIfreeze.Hemovesitawaythenhis
dickpushesinsi
demypussy.I'm st
il
lwetthat'
swhy
heslidesineasi
erbutIwonderi
fhenot i
cesthatI
am notwetl
ikeeveryt
imewemakelove.OhIf or
get
I'
m get
ti
ngfuckedtoni
ght
.Hepul
lsoutthenthrust
i
nagainhardandImoancausehehitmyg- spot.
Hiswholebodycover smineandIf eelhiswhole
bodywei ghtonme.Whenhet rust
sinIcanf eelhe
i
snothol dingbackandhefucksmenotgi vi
nga
fuck.Ir
elaxmybodyandl ethim haveallofmeand
hetakesitfucki
ngmehar d.Hismout hcover smy
l
eftearandhepl ungeshi
st ongueinsideandI
moant henhespi l
lshi
sseedi nmegr oaningand
holdi
ngmet i
ght.
"Don'
tyouever!
.Everrunaf
teranotherman.
Whethertheyar
ebrother
sornotespeciall
ywhen
I'
mthere.Doyouunderst
andmel ove?."what
?.
Mywhol ebodyfr
eezes.It
hinkmyworldst
ops.I
don'tunderst
andwhathe'ssayi
ng.Hepull
sout,st
il
l
kneeli
ngont hebed.Isl
owlytur
n,movemyf eet
awayf rom hi
mthensitonthebedfaci
nghim.
"whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?."
"I
'
mtal
kingaboutt
hatt
imeyour
anaf
terbusani
."
"what
?Ar
eyouser
iousr
ightnow?
."
"Iam.don'
teverdoi
tagai
n."
"Whydidn'tyoutel
lmewhenwewer ebothhere
ear
li
erbeforeyoulef
tmbuso?
."Iam sohurtr
ight
now.
"Iam t
ell
ingyounow.
"
"At3am whenyoucomehomeandsmel
li
ngof
al
cohol
?."
"Idi
dn'tcomehomeat3am.Iwasher
ebef
oreyou
wenttobed."
"Andyouwai tedf ormet of allasleept hencome
andpuni shmewi thsexf orr unningaf teryour
brot
her? .Ir
unaf terhim causeIwant edhi mt ot el
l
youthet rut
hbef oreyouf oundout .Iwant edhi mt o
comeandt alktoyouf irstandt ellyouhi ssideof
thestory.Iam sor ryf
orr unni ngaf terhi ml ikethat
andmakei tl
ookl ikeI'
m disr espect ingyoui nsome
way.I'm sorr
ymbusof ortryingt of i
xt hisf ami l
yand
makingsur ethatt her
e'speacesoever yt hingcango
well
.I'
m sor r
yf ortryi
ngt otal ktoyourbr othersohe
won'tdosomet hingthathewi l
lregr et,
t hatyouwi l
l
regr
ettoobecauseIknowi twi llhurtyoumor ethan
anyt
hingt
ohurtt
hepersonwholookslikeyou.
"
Tear
sconti
nuetost
ream downmyf ace.
"Love.
..
."
"Nost op!.Youaretakingoutyourangerand
frustr
ati
onsonme.onmybodyandIl etyou.The
personwhohassacr i
ficedt hemosti nt hi
sfamily
mbuso!Me? .Ifuckenlostachi ldforthisdamn
familyandnotoncedi dyouhearmebl aming
anyoneorevencompl aining.Idowhati sexpected
from meandIt rytokeepi ttogetherbutyoucome
andyouf uckmel ikethatbecauseIr anafteryour
brotherandyou'remadatt hat?.Whatdoyouwant
from met hatIhaven'
talreadygi venittoyou?
PleasetellmecauseIdon' tknow!."Iwipemyt ears.
"Lovepl
easecal
m down.
..
."
"Don'tt
ellmetocomedownmbuso! .Thefirsttime
wewer esupposetoconnectandbeoneaf tert he
thi
ngswehavewentt hroughthelastweeks, you
choosetomakelovetomel iket
his?."
"I
'
m sor
ryMakaSboni
sopl
ease.
..
"
"YeahI
'
m sor
ryt
oo.
"
Iwal
ktothebathr
oom andgetint
heshower .It
ryt
o
st
opmyselff
rom cryi
ngbutIcan'
t.Thedooropens
hetr
iest
ogetin.
"Don'tyoudar
etouchme!Getout!Getout
!.
"he
doesn’tcl
oset
hedoorbutinst
eadstandst
here
watchingme.Handscover
inghisface.
Ipullmysel
ft oget
herthenst epoutoftheshower.I
drymyselfthenwearmycl othes.Idon'
teven
moi st
uri
zebecauseIwantt obeasf arawayfrom
hi
saspossi ble.Il
ookatt het imeit'
s4:30am.I
mightaswel lgocookbr eakf astbefor
eIstayhere
andsaysomet hi
ngIwi l
lregr et.Myeyesareredand
soismywhol eface.Onel ookatmeandt heyare
goingtonoticethatIwascr ying.
"LuhI'
m sorr
ypleaset
alkt
ome.I'
m sor
rylove.I
don'
tknowwhatIwast hi
nki
ng.
"He'
sblockingme
fr
om thedoor.
"pl
easemove.Iwantt
obegi
npr
epar
ingbr
eakf
ast
."
"pl
easemamasekhayangi
yakucenga.(pl
easemy
wif
eI'
m beggi
ngyou.
)"whydoeshelookscared?
.
"Mbusomove!
."Hel
ooksatmeshockedandt
he
st
epsaway.
Iopent hedoort henwalkout.Iheadst r
aightt
othe
ki
tchenandI '
m gladnoonei sthere.Ibrewcoff
ee
causet heyaregoi ngtoneeditsincetheywere
drunk.It akepoutthepotsandbegi ntomake
everythingthatisbreakf
ast.Fr
om savour ytosweet
.
By7: 00am I '
m almostdone.
Thefir
stt owalki
nismbuso' sbir
thmot her.She's
walki
ngar oundwearingherGuccisleepwear
l
ookinglikeahousewi f
ewho'smadehaspr epar
ed
foodforher.Shegreets,Igr
eetherbackt henmi nd
mybusi ness.Thewomanhaveshower edexcl uding
TheQueenofLondon.Themensoonf oll
ow
i
ncludingmyhusband.Hecomesandki ssesmy
cheekthesitsdown.Iplatehisf
oodandpourhi m
coff
ee.Het hanksme.
Itaketheot herfoodandt akeittothelivi
ngroom
wheret hekidswi l
lbeeat i
ngtheirbreakfast
.They
soonfol l
owandsi tont hetable.It
rytof eedthe
twinsbutt hearebusyr unningaround.Mel usiand
kamoar erunningaftert hem f
eedingt hem.Igiveup
andgobackt ot hekitchen.
Inoticet
hatnoonei stal
king.Everyoneiseating
si
lentlyl
ikesomeonehasdi ed.Iguesst heyare
nursingtheirhangover
s.Someoneknocksont he
doorandt heygetin.It
'sSbu.andhegr eets
everyonethensi t
sdown.It akeapl at
etohi m and
hethanksmeandbegi nst odish.Ilookatmbuso' s
plat
eandhehasn' teat
enanyt hi
ng.Igot ot
hesi nk
andwasht hepotsIwasusi ng.
"Luh? .
"mymot herin-
lawcall
sme.It
akeadeep
breaththenturn.Alleyesareonme."Ar
eyounot
j
oiningusf orbreakfast?
."
"Ihaveal
readyeat
enMa.
"
"Ar
eyouokay?
."Sheasksmebutshe'
slooki
ngat
mbuso.
"Iam f
inema.I
'
mjusthavi
ngoneoft
hosedays.
"
"Youneverhaveoneoft
hosedays.
"si
mssays.
"Ther
e'saf
ir
stt
imef
orever
ythi
ngsi
ms.
"
"Shesai
dshe'
sfi
ne.Whyar eyouwor
ri
edl
ike
someonehasdi
ed.Geez!
."
"mot
herpl
ease!
."busanisays.
"Youdon'
tknowl uhthat
'swhyyouwoul
dsay
that
!.
"mymot herin-
lawsays.
"Sowhat?Weheardt hem fi
ght
ing,
morelikeher
screami
ngatmyson.Al lcoupl
esfi
ghtwhat'st
he
bigdeal
?She'l
lbef
ine."shesayinaboredtoneand
bit
esherappl
e.Sotheyheardme.That'
swhyt hey
aresosil
ent
.
"Owamit hisismywi fe'shouse.Youwi llstop
tal
kingtoheroranyoneel seint hi
shousei nthat
way.Youwi llrespectever yonei nthisandt hat
i
ncludesmydaught erluh.Youwi l
lstopbehavi ng
l
ikethisisyourhouseandl ookingdownatpeopl e.
Ifyoucan' tstandbei ngar oundal lofust henthere'
s
thedoor,youar efreetol eave.Noonewi l
lstopyou.
IfIeverthatf oulmout hofyour sspeaking
nonsenseonever yoneyouwi llknowme.Youwi ll
notcomedowni ntheki cthenwear ingthatinf r
ont
ofeveryone, youwi lldot hatinyourownhouse.Not
here.Getupandgot oyourbedr oom andchange. "
Shelooksatmyfat
herin-l
awshockedt
henhef
ace
getsfi
ll
edwit
hannoyance.Sheget
supandwit
hher
headheldhi
ghandleaves.Iwi
pemyhandsand
t
akeof
ftheki
tchenapr
onIwaswear
ing.
"Ziphocanwetal
k?.
"hequickl
ygetsuplikehewas
expecti
ngit
.Wewalkoutoftheki
tchenandgo
outsi
de.
"I
'
m sor
ry"hesays.
"Umshadounj
enazi
pho.(That
'showmar
ri
edl
if
e
i
s.)
"I
tfeel
sli
kemypar
ent
sar
efi
ght
ingandIhat
ethat
."
"Ihat
eittoo.Canyoubor r
owmeyourcar .Iwantt
o
gosomewher e."hel
ooksafrai
d."I
'
m notleavi
ng
zi
phoandi fIwasIwasnevergoingtoleavemy
ki
dsbehind.I'
llbeback.
"
"OkI
'
llbeback.
"
"Don'
ttel
lanyonepl
easezi
pho.
"
"Iwon'
t.
"hewal
ksbackt
othehouse.
Iknowmbusowon' tlethi
m outofthathouse.Iwalk
andcheckifthere'
sanycart hathasakeyinand
there'
snone.Fuck.Iwalkaroundandseemyf ather
i
n-lawsFordRanger .Ipul
lthedooranditopens.I
getinandcheckt heglovecompar t
mentforaspar e
keybutthere'
snone.Iremembermbusol ikesto
keephisundertheseat.Iputmyhandundert he
seatandfish.If
indi
t.Iquickl
ystartt
heEngine,
rever
sethendr i
veoutandIsee,ziphoandthem
comingout .
Isweari fanyoneoneoft hem f oll
owsmeI '
llr
unt hi
s
carst r
aighttothem.Iknowt heyar egoingt ouse
thetrackertofindme.Ijustwantt imeal onetot hi
nk
andcal m down.NeverdidIthi nkt histi
mei nour
mar ri
age,myhusbandwoul dgobackt ohi soldself
afterhe'spromisedmeandshownmet hathei snot
thatpersonanymor e.Idri
vet ot hebeachbutt he
weat herisslowlychangi
ng.Itlooksl i
keit'
sgoi ngto
rai
nhar d.
Howi severyt
hi nggoi ngt ogowel lifwekeep
fi
ghti
nglikethis? .It
rytobest rongformyf ami l
y,
prot
ectthem from bei nghur tandal sot r
yingt o
makesur ethatt heydon' tkil
leachot her.Whatwi l
l
happenifbongaandzi phof i
ndoutt hattheiraunt
wantstof r
amet hem fort hei
rmot her '
sdeath? .
Whatwillmyf at heri
n- l
awdoi fbongaki ll
shi saunt?.
Whatwillmbusodoi ftheyki l
lbirt
hmot herorhis
mot her
?.Whatwi l
lhappent
othi
sfamil
yandthem
causethiswholethingcanr
uint
hisf
amilyand
breakitapar
tforever?
.
Iparkthecarthengetout.Itakeoutmyshoesand
walkbaref
oott othebeach.Ilovehowt hesand
feel
sonmyf eet.Iwal
kthensi tdownandl istento
thewavesoft heocean.Themor ni
ngbr eezef eel
s
sogood.Itakeof fmyheadwr apandfeelt heairon
myhead.Iclosemyeyesandj ustlett
heai r,
sounds
andwavesf i
llme.Tearsstream downonmyf ace
andIjustl
etitbe.
"Ididn'tknowIwascar ryi
ngyouandIwi shIdi d.
MaybeI .
..
.I'
m sorr
yyouhadt ol eaveusl ikethat.
Yousacr if
icedyourli
feforyourf athertobeher ef or
meandyourbr othersandIthankyou.Ever yti
meI
pi
ctureyouIseemysel fIdon'tknowwhy, butIthi
nk
deepdownyouwer emyl i
tt
legi r
l.Iknowsomeday
wewi llmeetagainandIam l ookingf orwardtot hat
daybutIwantyout oknowt hatIl oveyousomuch
NoluthandoGumudeandIwi llneverf or
getyou.
Pleasewat choverusmyl it
tl
eangel .Wel oveyou."
Iputmyhandonmyst omachandcr y.
Ifeelhi
m andpul
li
ngmet
ohi
schestandIcr
y.The
rai
nf al
lsonus
"Iam sor ryf orhur ti
ngyouandnott hinkingabout
youatal l.Iwassel fishluhandt hinkingaboutwhat
I'
mf eeli
ng.I thur tstoseeyoucr yingliket his
becauseofme.Iwi shIcant akeal lt
hehur tyouar e
feelingandal ltheshi tIsaid.Iam not hingwi thout
youl uh, youknowt hatI '
llbewor t
hless.Iknowt he
sacr if
icesyouhavemadef orthisf ami l
yandt hey
arenoti nvai n.Weal lknowt hat.Itwasn' tmy
accidentt hatbr oughtmyf amilytoget herbutyou.
Youencour agedmet okeepsear chingandnot
givingupevenwhenIdi dn'twantt obutIknewt hat
youwon' tl etmegi veupandbecauseIdi dn'twant
todi sappoi ntyoubutyetIdi dandIam sor ry.You
aret helastper sonIwoul deverwantt ohur tont hi
s
eartheverandyetyouar et heoneIhur tthemost
withmyact ionsandst upiddeci sions.I'
m sor r yI
tookwhatyoudi dthewr ongway.Ihopeyouwi l
l
forgiveme. "
Wear
esoaki
ngwetandsi
tt
ingonsand.
"Iam yourwi
fembuso.Yout
alkt
omeandt
ellme
whati sbot heri
ngyou.Youdon' tbott
lethi
ngsup
thent akeoutyourangerandf rustrat
ionsonme.
Youpr omisedmet hatoldmbusoi sgonebutthen
youcamewi thhiminourbedr oom.Ilovedoing
thingswi thyou,youknowt hatbutIdon'twantyou
toscar emeandt akemebackt othatti
mewef i
rst
wet .IhatethatmbusoandInevereverwantt osee
him ar oundmeandourki ds.Whenyoust il
lfeel
frustratedevenafterwehavet alkedyougot othe
gym andt akeitoutther
ethencomebackandf uck
me."
"Iwon'
teverdoi
tagai
nloveIpr
omi
seyou.
"
"Youf
uckedmeandwoul
dn'
tletmecome.You
di
dn'
tevenki
ssme.
"
"Iam soashamedofmyact
ions.Pl
easef
orgi
ve
me?."
"If
orgi
veyou.
"hesi
ghsandhugsmet
ight
.
"Let
sgohome.
"
"ohyes.
"
"Iapol
ogi
zedt
oal
loft
hem.Si
mswant
edt
oki
llme
whenshesawyoulef
tandwel
lLesegot
oldmet
o
watchmyback.
"Il
augh.
"Youdeser
vei
t.
"
"Il
oveyou.
"
"Yeah,
yeah.Hel
pmeup.
"
Wegetupandmycl
othesf
eelheavy.Thebeachi
s
empt
yandther
ear
enopeoplearound.Ismil
eand
l
ookatme.
"Ar
ether
eot
herpeopl
eint
hatcar
?."hel
ooksback.
"yeah.Yourbr
otherandsbu.
"
"Iknowwhatyoumustdof
ormet
ofor
giveyou.
"
"Anythi
ngl
ovebutcanwet
alki
nthecar
?.I
t'
s
rai
ning.
"
"No.
'
"what
?."
"Takeoffal
lyourcl
othesandr
unt
otheseaandI
'
ll
for
giveyou.
"
"ahl
ove?
,It
'
scol
d."
"I
t'
seit
hert
hatornosexforyouforamonth.The
wateri
swarm butheyi
t'
syourdeci
sion.
"
Hequickl
ytakesof fhi
sclot
hesthenl
ooksatme.I
l
aughthenher unst ot
heoceannaked.Iputi
s
cl
othesdownt akeoffminethenrunt
otheocean
wit
hhim andyest hewateri
swar m.
"Ahbabyyou'ret
ryi
ngtoki
llme.Ican'
tbel
ieveyou
l
etthem seeyounakedl
ove."hesayswhenIreach
hi
m.
"They'
llbef
ineandi
ftheygobl
indt
hent
hat
’son
then.
"
Iwr
apmylegsar
oundhi
swai
standhi
shandsgr
ab
myass.
"Il
oveonl
yyoumbuso.Nooneel
se.
"
"Il
oveyoumor
ebaby.
"
Hegivesmet heki
sseshedeniedmeearli
er.We
ki
ssuntill
if
eguardstel
lustocomeoutofthewat er
.
Wedoandmyhusbandhi desmynakednesswi t
h
hi
sbodyandt heygiveustoblanket
stocover
our
selvesandIam gladcauseIknowmybr ot
heris
probabl
ymad.Wepickupourcl
othesandwal
kto
thecarl
aughi
ng.Comi
ngheredi
dmegoodandI '
m
gladIdi
d.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER89.

MBUSO.

Ipromi sedmywi fet

hatIwon' therbutlastnighti
s
exact l
ywhatIdid.Il
etwhatmyt winbr ot
hertoldme
geti nmyheadandIt ooki toutonmywi fewhenI
reallywantedtobeattheshitoutofBusani .Ican'
t
believemybi r
thmotherisnott hepersonshe's
pretendt obearoundeveryone.Ihadt houghtthat
maybet heyearsandthetherapysher eceived
mighthavemadehert orealisethati
t'
sokayt olet
somet hingsgobutthatdoesn'tmeansheshoul d
forgetwhatwasdonet oher.
WhenIf
oundoutt
hatshewasmar
ri
edandhasa
daught erIwashappyt hatshedi dfi
ndloveandwas
abletot rustagainbutseeingherwi thmyf ather
cheatingonherhusbandandl yi
ngtomydadand
everyoneel sewaswhatgott omebutIpr etended
tobei nt hedarklikeeveryoneelsethenIfindout
fr
om mywi feandt wi
nbr otherthati
ndeedshei s
planningonki ll
ingmymot herandwant stof rame
mybr othersforthati
swhatget stome.Itgetsme
sof uckenmad, Iwantedt oshoothim andher
betweent hei
reyeswhi l
ewat chi
ngme.
Whenwegoti nthecarwedr ovetoDurban.It ook
himt omyof f
icebuilding,showedhi m aroundt hen
tookhimt omyhouse.Wegott her
e,Ishowedhi m
myhome, ourweddi ngpicturesandt hecollagesof
mywhol ef ami l
y.Hewashappyandsai doneday
hewant st ohaveaf amilyofhisown.Wewentt o
thebarandst ar
teddr inki
ng.Iwant edhimt ot ellme
onhisownwhatt heyar eplanningbutseei ngt hat
hewasn' tgoingt otalk,Scelotookouthisgunand
putitont hetable.
Iwat
chedhimfr
eezeandhelookedbetweent
he
twoofusandIt
hinkhef
igur
editoutthatwemight
knowsomet hi
ngandhestar
tedtal
king.Ihaveseen
ment err
ifi
edwhenseeingagunbutwhatIr eali
sed
thatbusaniisnot
hingli
keme.Wemi ghtlookthe
same, nottal
kthesamebutmaybeal mostwalkthe
samewayt oobutheiswaytoosoftandheneeds
totoughenup.
Busanitoldmet hatmyuncl ehasal waysknown
aboutmyexi stence.Hi smot hertol
dhi m atmy
wife'
spar ent
shouse.Myuncl e'splanwast okidnap
mymot herandi nherspacemybi r
thmot herwould
comeandt akeherpl acel i
kehowmymot herdid.
Myuncl ehadsomeonef oll
owi ngmymot her,
recor
dingandl ear ni
ngever ythi
ngaboutherso
whent heykidnapmymot herandr eplaceherwi t
h
owamidadwon' tnot iceat hing.Iaskedhi m whoi s
i
tthattheysentt ospyonmymom andhesai dhe
doesn'tknowt heper son.Hesai dmymot hertold
himthatmyuncl epani ckedwhenwest arted
l
ookingf orhisfami l
y.Thati swhenheknewt hat
theyhavet obef astbutt hent heyhadapr obl
em
whent heycouldn'tfindmymot her
.ThatwaswhenI
senthert osbu'sfarm wher eshel i
vedf orthree
year
s.Thepersonwhowasfoll
owingmymot
her
l
ostherthedayluhwaski
dnapped.
Hesai dt heypani ckedanddi dn'
tknowwhatt odo
butmyuncl epr omisedowamit hathewon' tst op
l
ooki ngforherandkeepi nganeyeonus.Ican' t
believeIdidn' tknowt hattherewassomeone
wat chingust hewhol eent i
reti
me.Scel oandIwer e
soshocked.Busaniswor et hathedidn'thavea
handi nanyoft hosethingsandhewasj ust
shockedl i
keus.Hedi dconf essthathewant edmy
mot herdeadcausehef eltl
ikehetookhi slifeand
fami l
yawayf rom hi m buthechangedhi smi nd
afterhet alkedt oherandwhensheadvi sedhi m
thathef i
nal l
yhasachancet obewithhi sfami ly
andheshoul dn'tletowami '
sangercl oudhis
j
udgementandmakeadeci si
onhewi l
lregret.I
believedhi m butIdon' ttr
usthi m.
Itol
dhimt hathewillnott
ellowamithathet oldme.
Ifshecantrytoframet woinnocentpeoplethen
whatcanshedot osomeonewhobet rayedhereven
i
fit'
sherownus.Idon' ttr
ustmybi rt
hmot herandi
defi
nit
elydon'tt
rustfanel
e.Mywi fedidaskhim
whyhedidn'tt
rytofi
ndmeandhi ssist
erandhe
j
ustsaidhehadt oomuchonhi splat
e.Ican'
t
bel
ieveIf
eltsorr
yfort
hismot herf
uckerwhenluh
tol
dmeabouthowhest r
uggledraisi
ngboysalone
wit
houtanyhelpunti
lhefoundanannywhol at
er
becamehiswife.
Iwaspr epar edt odosomet hingforhi mt osay
thankyouf ort akingcar eofmymom andbr other
bef oreIf oundoutwhatal iarheis.Ican' tst andto
bear oundt hem butIwi l
lsmi l
eandpr etendunt i
lthe
ri
ghtmomentcomes.Theywi llknowwhoIam.No
onemesseswi thmyf amily.Wel aterdr ovebackt o
Piet ermar i
tzbur gandwedr ankagai n.Themor eI
kepthear ingt hewor dscomeoutofbusani '
smout h
i
t'st hemor eIgotangr yandIwant edt ot akeoutmy
frust rat
ionandIdi d.Onmywi feandIhur therinthe
process.Seei ngheront hebeachandcr ying.It
fuckenhur tlikehel landIcoul dn'
timagi newhatshe
wasf eelingatt hatmomentunt i
lIsatdownnextt o
herandhear dhert alkingtoourdaught er .Fuck!.I
feltlikethewor l
d'swor sthusband.Iknowshesai d
shef orgivesmebutI 'vebeenwat chingherever
sincewecamebackandIknowshe'ssti
llhur
t.
WhenItoldherwhatbusanisai
dshewasshocked
tooandsaidFanel
eisascum.Mywi f
ehatesfanel
e
andIdon'
tblameher.
It'
sbeenf ourdayswehavebeenher eandal lthe
grandkidsofTheZi kal
al a'
sar eher eincludingour
cousinsmbuyi seloandhi sbr others.Wel lFanele
managedt ogot othemuni cipalandf oundoutt hat
thelandwasbr oughtbyanot herfami lyandhe
managedt ofindt hem andt heywant ed2mi l
li
on
randstosel lthel andbackandwehadt ocoughout
200keachi ncl udingmymot her,faneleandowami .
LuhandIpai d1. 2mi ll
ionf orallmybr othersand
bothmymot herst henFanel eandhi ski dspaidt he
800k.HoweverIt oldalloft hem thatl uhandIwi l
l
notbepar tofbui l
dingt hehouseandt heyagreed
andBongadesi gnedt hehouseandwegotscel o's
companyt odot heconst r
uctionhi r
ingt helocal
people.Ididn'twantmywi fetoputi nhermoney
becauset hiswassupposedt obedonebyusand
shejustsaidshe' sdoingi tformeandourki dsand
shewasn' taski ng.
Sceloassur edust hatt
heywillt
rytobui l
ditinless
thanamont hort
wo.That'showl ongheneeds.
Tomor rowi sthedayIam dreading.Wear egoingt o
wher eitallbeganandIam freakingoutbecauseI
don'tknowwhat '
sgoingtohappen.Al lIknowisI
needl uhbymysi de.Shehastobet herebecause
thekidst oohavet ogeti
ntooandIknowi t
'sgoing
tobeaver yemotionaldayforbothmymot hers.
"Broyouhavebeensit
ti
nghereforwhatfeel
sli
ke
hoursandyourmindseemsli
keit'
sfaraway.
"
busanisayst
aki
ngaseatnexttome.
"Justenj
oyi
ngt
henat
ure.
"
"Yeahiti
sabeaut
if
ull
odge.Ar
eyour
eadyf
or
tomorr
ow?."
"Iam dreadi
ngitbutIal
socan'
twaitf
oritt
o
happen.Idon'
twantwhathappenedbetweenour
mother'
shappent ousormychil
drenoryours
even.
"
"Iwi
llneverdot
hatt
oyou.
"
"Idon'
tknowthatbr
o.Canyouhonestl
ytel
lmethat
youdon'
twishitwasmewholeftwit
hourbirt
h
mot
herandyoust
ayedwi
thmymot
her
?."
"Someti
meswhenIlookatthel
ifeyouhaveIdo
becomeenvi
ous.Iwoul
dthi
nkwhati fal
lofthis
wasmineyouknow?.Youhavethisperfectl
if
e,
yourwi
feandyourki
ds.Youhaveitallt
ogether
manandIhavenothi
ng."
"Ithoughtasmuchbutdidyoueverthi
nkthat
maybei twasn'
tther
ightt
imeforyoutohavewhatI
have?.Maybewhent hetr
uthhascometolightt
hen
al
lyouwi shforandwanttohavewil
lhappen?.
"
"Isuppose.
"
"LuhandIwer en'tgivethisperfectli
fewehaveas
yousay.Wewor kedhar donitbr oandhonest lyshe
didmor eworkthanme.Igavemywi feaver yhard
ti
mewhenwemetf orthi
ngsshedi dn'tdoorhad
anycont r
olover
.Shewaspat i
entwi thmeand
forgavemeevenwhenshedi dn'thavet o.Theday
wedeci dedtoendt hi
ngs.Ididn'twantt hatbutIhad
tososhecanheal andt r
ytof or
givemebutt hatday
wasoneoft hewor stdaysofmyl i
fe.Whenshel eft
withherdadandbr otherIf el
tmyhear tli
ter
all
y
br
eaki
ngandIwasmess.
"
It
akeadeepbr
eat
handcl
osemyeyes.
"Ihadt owor konmysel fandt heangerIhadt hatI
wast akingoutonher .Ihadt opr ovet ohert hatI
waswor thyofherlove.ThatIam amanshecan
l
oveandspentt her estofherl if
ewi th.Whenshe
waski dnappedandshotpr egnantwi thmyki dsI
knewt hatshouldshedi e,Iwasgoi ngt okillmyself
toobecauseIwi l
lnotl i
veont hisear thwithouther.I
tryeverydaytobet hemanshecanbepr oudofand
notbeaf raidtosaymbusoi shusband.She' smy
everythi
ng.Thesunr isesandset sonher .Iwi l
lkil
l
anyonewhot hreatensherhappi nessordar estodo
anythingbadt oherandmyki ds.Ihaveki l
ledmany
menandwomanwhodar edt othinkt heycant ake
l
uhawayf r
om meandIam notsor ry.Iwi l
ldoi t
overandoveragai nt omakesur ethatshei ssaf ein
thisworld.Iknowshewi l
ldot hesamef ormet oo.
Luhi smor ethanmysoul mat e.Ifyoudar ehur ther
andmyki dsbrother.Iwi l
lkil
lyouandmour nfor
you."
"Iknowt
hat
.Ihaveseenhowyouar
ewi
thherandI
hopeonedayIwi l
lfi
ndsomeonewho' llbemy
reasonf orbr
eathi
ng.IpromiseyouthatIwil
l
protectyourfamil
yandmybr ot
her
'sfamilywit
hmy
l
ife.Iswearmbusot herearenomor esecret
s
betweenus. "
"Ihopeyoumeanwhatyousay.WhataboutAl
ice?
Isn'
tshet
heone?
."hel
ookssurpr
ised.
"What
?Youknowabouther
?."
"YeahIdo.Iknowal
lotoft
hings.
"
"Buthow?
."
"whenitcomestomyfamil
yIhavet
oknow
ever
ythi
ngbutwhatf
anel
eandowamidid,
Idi
dn'
t
seeorsuspecti
t.
"
"Whoar
eyour
eal
lymbuso?
."
"Yourt
winbr
other
.Tel
lmeaboutAl
ice?
."
"She'
ssomeonewhoi
sinmyl
if
e..
..
..Iguess.
"
"Whatdoesthatmean?
."Il
ookathi
m andhe
heavesadeepsigh.
"ImeanI
'
m notsur
eabouther
.Ther
e'ssomet
hing
missi
nginmyli
feandIdon'
tknowwhati
tis.Maybe
tomor
rowaft
erwecomebackf r
om t
heri
ver
somethi
ngwil
lchange.
"
"Areyousur
e,youdon'
tknowwhati
smi
ssi
ngi
n
yourl
if
e?.
"
"I
'
m sur
e."
"It
houghtyousai
dther
ear
enomor
esecr
etes
bet
weenusbro."
"yest
her
ear
en'
tany.
"
"Don'
tli
etomebusani
.Moreimpor
tant
lydon'
tli
eto
your
sel
fbrot
her
.YouandIknowwhatismissi
ng."
"Idon'
tknowwhatyou'
ret
alki
ngabout
."
"Real
ly?
.Ithoughtyouaregayorareyoubisexual
si
nceAlicei
salsoinyourli
fe?
."hestandsupand
l
ooksatmeshocked, scar
edthenashamed.
"Youhadnor
ightt
ogodi
ggi
ngi
nmybusi
ness
mbuso!
."
"Sitdownbusani.Wearehavingaconver
sati
on
andnotfi
ght
ing.Sitdown!
."Hestandsf
orfewmore
minutest
hensit
s.
"How..
..
why.
..
.howdi
dyouknow?
."hecover
shi
s
face
"Nooneknowsbr
other
.Onl
yyouandIknow.Why
ar
eyouashamedofwhoyouare?
."
"Manyouwoul dn'
tunderstand.Notever
yone
under
standswhowear eandpeopl eli
kemeget
l
abell
ed,judgedandattacked.Beingacrimi
nal
l
awyer,represent
ingpeoplewhoki l
lpeopl
eli
keme
hasmadei tveryhardtocomeout ."
"Soyouar
ejustgay?
."
"I
'
m bi
sexual
.Il
ikemenandwomen.
"
"doesAl
iceknow?
."
"Sheknowsbutshewantsmet obewi
thheronl
y
andIcan'
t.Ihavet
ri
edbutIf
ail
.Howdi
dyou
know?.
"
"Ifi
rstsawhowyoul ookedatmywi fe’
sbrotherand
Ithoughtmymindwaspl ayi
ngtri
cksonmesoI
hackedyourphoneandl aptopandfoundapi ct
ure
ofyouwi t
hanothermani naveryint
imatepositi
on.
"
"Fuck!
."Ichuckl
e.
"Youknowl uh'sdoctorwasagaymen.He' sthe
onethatkidnappedl uhforsomeoneel seandwe
haveCeleste.She'soneoft heguyswhol oves
women.Wear eyourfamilyandyoushoul dn'
tbe
afr
aidtobewhoyouar earoundusorevenbe
ashamed.Wedon' tjudgebrother
.Iacceptyouas
youareandIwantyout obehappy.Itdoesn't
matterwit
hwhom you' rehappywith.Aslongas
you'
rehappy. "
"Ididn'
tknowIneededt
ohearthat
.Thankyou.I
feell
ikesomet
hinghasbeenl
if
tedoffmy
shoulder
s."
"Sonooneknowsbesi
desmeandAl
ice?
."
"Noone.Ar
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lthem?
."
"Thati snotmi netosharewit
hanyone. .
..evenluh."
webot hchuckleandheshakeshi shead."okf ine
I'
l
ltellluhonlyifsheasksmeanddon' tworry.She
won'ttellanyoneIswear.Youwi l
ltel
lthem when
youf eelli
keitandifyouwant.Ifyoudon't,i
t'
sf i
ne
also.Itwillbeourli
tt
lesecr
et.
"
"Thankbr
o.CanIaskyousomet
hingt
houghor
r
athershar
esomet
hing.
"
"Thatsoundsser
ious.
"
"MaybeIdon'tknow.Yourbestf
ri
endsbu.
"It
hinkI
knowwherethisisgoi
ng.
"Whatabouthi
m?.
"
"Youhaveseenhowhel
ooksatl
uhr
ight
?."
"Sbuhasbeenmybestf ri
endsi nceuniversi
tyand
he'smybr other.Wehavef uckedandshar ed
womeni nthepastbeforeluhcamei nthepict
ure.
Wehaveal wayslikedcer
taintypesofwomenand
noneoft hem haveeverbeenanyt hi
ngclosetoluh.I
knewt hatwhenheseesherhe' sgoingt ofal
lforher
tooandhedi d.Webothknowt hatheloveshereven
thoughwehaveneversai ditoutloud.Hadl uhbeen
histooIalsowoul dhavefallenforher.Itr
usthim
andIknowhewi l
lnevercrossthatlinebecause
thatwillbetheendofourbr otherhoodandIwi ll
havetoki l
lhim."
"Iunderst
and.Yourwif
ehasthatthi
ngt
hatmakes
amanl ookathertwi
ce.Idon'
tknowwhati
tisbut
shejusthasit
."
"Iknowandl
uckyme.She'
sal
lmi
neandIam
hers!
."
"Youluckysonofbi
tch!
."Wel
ookateachot
her
thenl
augh
"Youj
ustcal
ledyourmom abi
tch!
."
"Whydoyoual
wayssayt
hat
.She'
syourmom t
oo.
"
"Shewasmybi
rt
hmotherupunti
lIf
oundthatshe
wantst
ofr
amemybr
others.Tomeshe'
sjust
owami.
"
"Ar
eyougoi
ngt
oki
llher
?."
"Ar
eyousur
eyouwantt
oknowt
hat
?."
"Ihavechosenmysidembuso.Ist
andwit
hyou
andmybr ot
hersbutt
hatdoesn'
tmeanIwantmy
motherdead.
"
"Iknowbr oandIwon'tki
llher
.Unlessi
fshe
somethingtoanyofyou.Itwil
lhurtmebutIwil
ldo
i
t.Iwil
lwaitformyjudgementdaywhenGod
j
udgesmef orki
ll
ingher
.Whatwi l
lyoudoifIki
ll
her?.
"
"Idon'
tknowbutIwi
llpr
eventt
hatf
rom happeni
ng
i
fitevercomest
othat
.Idon'
twantt
oloseei
therof
you.
"
"Fairenough.I
'
m goingt
oseemywi
feandbegf
or
for
givenessagai
n."
"Butyouguysl
ookokaynow?
."
"Iknowwear ebutIalsoknowt
hatshe'
sst
il
lhur
t
andIam hungry.Let
sgo."
Webookedt hewhol elodge.Luhwant edthekidsto
seetheani malsandexper ienceanothertypeof
naturesincewel i
vecloset otheseaandwet ake
them thereoft
en.Wewal kinsideandlunchisbeing
served.Thisti
meIi nsistedthatthenanniescome
causeIwantmywi f
etohavemor et
imet ohersel
f
andshehasbeenpamper i
ngher sel
fgoingtothe
spawi thsbani,l
umkaandbot hourmot hers.Sims
andl esegoarecomi ngont heweekendbecauset he
kidscan'tbeabsentatschool .
Theyareallsi
ted,myki
dsareeat
ingnotpayingany
att
ent
iontomebutmywi fei
snotthere.Igotoour
room,openthedoorandfi
ndherlayi
ngont hechai
r.
Idon’
tknowi fshe'
sasl
eepornot
.Event houghi
t
safenoanimalorsnakescancomeinandbit
eher
butthatdoesn'
tmakemewor r
yless.Iwal
ktoher
andshakeherlight
ly.
"Love?,baby?.wakeup."shesleeping.Ipi
ckherup
andlayheront hebed.Iclosethebalconydoors
andswi t
chtheairconon.Igr abthedoorhandl
e
prepar
ingtoleavewhenshecal lsme.
"Boo?."Ismi
le.Iwal
ktot
hebedandsi
tnextt
oher
.
Shelooksatmeandsmi l
es.
"Looksli
kesomeonehadagoodnap.
"Ibr
ushher
cheek.
"Ihadal
ovel
yday.Thankyou.
"
"Youneededthi
sti
mef
oryour
sel
fal
thoughIt
hink
i
t'
snotenough."
"Igott
orel
axthesel
astf
ewdaysandIneededi
t.
It
'smoret
hanenoughbaby.
"
"I
'
m hungr
y.Let
'sgoandhavel
unch.
"
"Whydon'twehaveitinhereandmaybewecan
havedesertaf
terandgivemeallt
hoseorgasms
youdeniedme."Mydickjumpsup.I'
m outoft
he
doghouse.Shebi
tesherl
ip.
"Areyoureal
lyokay?
."sheent
winesourhands
toget
her
.
"Iwasn'
tbutnowIr
eal
lyam.
"
"I'
m sorr
yIhur
tyou.Iwon'
tbehavet
hatwayever
again.
"
"Iknow.Ifor
giveyou.Touchme. "whoam Itodeny
mywi f
e?.Iseparat
eherlegswit
hmyhandsandt he
dressr
isesupandr eveal
shercreamylegs.Ipushi
t
uptoherstomach.
"Whydon'twestartwit
hdesertfi
rst
..
..
.t
henl
ater
eat
."shel
icksherpinkl
ips."Let
stakethi
sof
f."
Ihelpherremoveherunder wearthenseparateher
l
egs.Ibrushhercl i
twit
hmyt humbl ookingather
andshecl oseshereyes.Iplungemyf i
ngerinher ,
pulli
tandi tcomesoutwet .Iputitinmymout hand
shetastesgr eat
.Iplungeintwomor ef
inger
sand
fi
ngerfuckherwi thmyt humbr ubbinghercli
t.Ilay
downnextt oher,addanotherfi
ngerandmaki ng
them t
hreeandshemoans.Icoverhermout hwi t
h
mineandpl ungemyt onguedownhert hroatkissing
thatdamnmouthIl
ovesomuch.Ipickupmypace
andmovemyhandf asti
nandoutofherunti
lher
l
egsbeginshaki
ngandIknowsheisnear.
Sheput sherhandont opofmineandur gesmineto
movemor efast
erthensomeoneknocksont he
damndoor .Fuck!.Ii
gnor et
hem atfi
rstbutthe
personkeepsknocki ng.Luhtr
iestocloseherlegs
butIputmyl egont opofherleftl
egandpusht he
otheroneoutmor eandpl ungeinagainandshe
throesherheadback
"WHAT!.
"herl
egswaistmovesuncont
rol
labl
yandI
cl
osehermouthagai
nasshescreamsandmoans
i
nmymout h.
"Uhm bhut imbusougogoi sher e.Shewant stosee
younow. ...
."sbanisays.Coul
dn' tgogocomean
hourlater!Fuckme! .Idon'
tstoppl unginginanout
ofluhunt i
lshecomesdownf rom herhi gh.
".
..
..
.bhutimbuso? ."Iconti
nuet okissluhuntilshe
pushesmyf aceaway.
"Wear
ecomi
ngsbani
."shesaysandgi
ggl
es.
"ohk.
"Ihearf
oot
stepswal
kingawayf
rom ourdoor
.
"Let'
sgo."Isayandpul
lmyf i
ngersoutandthey
aredamnwet .Ili
ckt
hecleanthengetup."st
ay
ther
eI'm coming.
"
"Comeon.Wehavef i
veminutesbef
oreshecomes
i
nherehersel
f.
"shesaysgoi
ngdownonherknees
onthef
loor.
"l
ovei
t'
sokay.
"
Ipullherupandshetakesherdr
essofandwewal
k
totheshoweroutsi
de.
"l
ovepl
ease!
."l
uhwant
stoki
llme.
"Itwon'tt
akelong.Idon'
twantmyhusbandt obe
walkingaroundwithhi
sdickhardwhi
lehiswifeis
here.Come."shetakesoffmytopandjeans.Ist
ep
outofthem andwal ki
nshowerwit
hher .
Sheopenst hef aucetandthecoolwat erhi t
sour
skin.Ipi
ckherupandshewr apsherlegsar ound
mywai st.Igrabthoseasscheeks, separat ethem
thenmoveherupandt hr
ustintoherhar d.Imi ssed
thi
s.Imoveherbodyt othewal l
,pinhert hereand
fuckherbrainsout .If
eell
ikeI'
m notfucki ngher
ri
ght.Iwalkusoutoft heshoweri ntother oom.
"Holdyourlegsloveandgi vemet hatVW shape.
"
that
'sherf
avour i
teposit
ion.Shedoesi t
.Iputmy
handsonherbackt highs,pushthem mor eonthe
fl
oorthenthrusti
n.Icurseandshecal lsmyname.
Iwoul dlovetomakel ovewit
hherbutwedon' thave
ti
me.It hrustindeep,har
dthenfuckherhard.I
watchherasherbodygoessof t,morewetlet
ting
mei nhert opossessherbodyandIdo.Idomi nate
her.Iwat chherboobsbounceupanddown, t
he
wayshebi tesherl
ipsandherbackarchingfr
om
thefloor.Imovemyhandt oherti
ghtri
ngandmove
myt humbar ounditandherpussymuscles
squeezemydi ck.
Herf aceisful
loffeuphoria.She'
senjoyingme, Iam
enjoyingherandwear eone.Themor eIr ubonher
anusr ingthemor eherpussycontracts.Imoveher
handsf r
om herfeetandlayonherchest .Iputher
l
egsovermychestandchanget hepace.Igiveher
nice,slowanddeept hr
usts.Hereyesopenandt hey
connectwi thmine.
Iwrapherbodywit
hmyar msandpullhertomy
chest
.Icont
inuet
ohitherg-
spotandIfeelher
orgasm comi
ng."Mysoulmate.
"Herbodygivesi
n
andsheshakesli
keshe'
svibr
ati
ng.It
hrusti
nlong
andhardandspil
lmyseedinherandlether
scream mynameout.Musi
ctomyear s.
Threer
oundsl
atert
hat
'swhenwearewal
kingout
ofoutr
oom.Fr
eshsatedandhappy.
"boo?
."
"yesl
ove.
"shest
opswal
kingandl
ooksatme.
"Ar
eweevergoi
ngt
odoi
t?.
"
"dowhat
?."sheblushesandl
ooksaway.Ichuckl
e
andmakeherlookatme.
"Whatdoyouwantust
odot
hati
smaki
ngyou
bl
ushli
kevi
rgi
n?.
"
".
..
..
.i
t.
"huh?
"Whati
sitl
ove?
.Tel
lme.
"
"ar
eweevergoi
ngt
ohave.
..
analsex?
."
"what
?."
"ssshhhhhhaw!
."ohmyGod!
"youwantust
odot
hat
?."
"yeah.
..
Iam cur
ious.
"
"no!
."
"what
?Why?
."
"becauseIsai
dso.
"
"butIwanttodoi
toratl
eastt
ry.I
'
m sur
eyouhave
doneitbef
ore.
"
"whatbr
oughtt
hist
houghti
nyourheadl
ove?
."
"WellIl
ikeitwhenyout
ouchmet
her
eandsoI
thought
..
."
"Loveaf
ingeri
sdi
ff
erentt
hanmydi
cki
nther
e."
"Iknowbutyou'
l
lbegent
le.Whydon'
tyouwantt
o
doitwi
thme?."f
uckmeshe'snotgoi
ngtol
ett
his
go!.
"Ihaveneverdonetoanyoneokay.SoIdon'
tknow
howitwil
lbe.Idon'
twanttotearyouapar
t.
"
"You'
l
lbegent
let
hough.
"
"l
ovet
hatt
hingi
snotmeantf
ormyt
hingt
ogoi
n
t
her
eokay?
."
"Yourt
hingtooi
snotmeanttogetandcomei
nmy
mouthtoobutst
il
lwedoit
."
"causewel
ovei
tandenj
oyi
t.
"
"maybewe'l
lloveandenjoyitt
oo.I
'
m cur
ious
mbuso.Canweatl eastt
ry.
"
"whyi
ssoi
mpor
tantt
oyou?
."
"Itisn't
,Ijustwanttoexperienceitt
oot hat
'sall
.'
'
Lookt het houghtofdoingitexcit
esmebuti tscares
met oo.Iknowi twi
llbeamazi ngdoingitwithyou."
shet oowant stoexperienceit.whatarethesefools
doingt otheirwomen? .
"okf
ine.Wewi
lldoi
tonceandneveragai
n."
"OHthankyou!
.Ican'
twai
t.
"shegi
vesmeaki
ss.
Sher
eall
ywantsit
.
"LuhIhopeyoudon'
tdi
scussoursexl
if
ewi
thyour
si
ster
s."
"OhIcouldnever
.Idon'twantt
hem tol
ookatyou
sometypeofway.Hellno!.
"shesaysandl
eaves
meli
kethat.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER90

LUNGI
.

Myhusbandmi ghtt
hinkthatI
'm pl
ayingandnot
bei
ngser iousbutIactuall
yam.Iam cur i
ousabout
i
tandIr eall
ywantt odoitandIam happyt hathe
hasagreedt odoi t
.Iknowhe'sgoingt omakeit
wort
hitf orme.Ihavebeenr eadingaboutitand
hear
ingf rom someoft hegir
lsthatt
heyhavedone
i
tmademewantt odoittoo.
"Fi
nal
lyyouguysdeci
dedtojoi
nus.Wehavebeen
wai
ti
ngforyou.
"bongasays.
"wher
eisgogoxul
u?.
"Iaskbonga.
"she'
satherhouse.
"
"sowemustdr
ivet
her
e?.
"myhusbandasks
"yes.Let
sgo.
"
"I
'
llseeyoul
aterwhenyoucomeback.
"
"youarecomingwithus.Shesai
dyoumustbe
ther
etoo.
"sbanisays.
WeleavetheLodgeanddr i
vefor20ki
lometr
esto
gogoxuluhouse.Theconstr
ucti
onoftheZi
kalal
a
houseiscomingalongver
ygood.Theyreal
lyare
worki
nghardandt r
yingt
omakesur et
hattheyare
worki
ngasfastaspossibl
e.
Wegetoutoft hecarandt her
earemanypeopl ein
gogo'shouse.Idon' tknowift
heyarehereto
consultorwhat .Sbanitel
lsustowaitoutsi
dewhile
shegoest ogogo.Il ookatmyhusbandathi s
brotherandtheyar etooquiet
.Ihopemyhusband
forgavehisbrotherwhenhef inal
lyt
oldhimt he
truthandIhopet omor rowwil
lbethenewbegi nni
ng
forallofusbecauset hisfami
lyreal
lyneedsit.
"Bhutimbuso.Bhutibusaninawesisil
ungigogo
saystofol
lowmet henbongaandwi l
lfol
lowafter
."
shegivesbongaaseatt henwefoll
owher ,she
i
nstruct
sustotakeof fourshoesandthenweget
i
nsidethehut.
"Shewi
llbewi
thyoushor
tl
y."
Wesi tinsi
lenceandbusanilooksoutofplace.We
alldolookoutofplacecausewehaveneverwent
foraconsul t
ati
ontoanyonebefore.Iwonderwhat
i
sgogogoi ngtosaywhensheget shere.Itake
mbuso' shandandIf eel
hisbodyrelaxi
ngabi t
.
Gogocomesi nfol
lowedbysbaniandanot her
youngman.She' swear i
ngt raditi
onalhealerclothes
withbrownandbl ackleopar dpr intcol
oursanda
yell
owdoekonherhead.Sbanihasayel l
owbl anket
thati
scover i
nghershoul dersandsoi stheyoung
man.Theyputgogoi nthemi ddlethenli
ghtcandl es
andpourwat eront hesi
lverbowlt henshel i
ghts
sevensticksofmat chest hent hrowsthem ont he
bowl.
Theybegint
opray,wecloseoureyesandli
stenand
sayamenwhent heyaredone.Gogolooksso
dif
fer
entandtheauraaroundheri
stheoneofold
agewisdom.
"Mnguniandyourwi
fe.Yout
wodidthenast
yand
nowyou'r
eherebuti
t'
sokayl
etusconti
nue.
Tomor rowwear efinallydoingwhatyourgr eat
grandmot herisexpect ingfrom youandwear e
goingt ot her i
verwher eitallbegan.Ihavet alkedto
yourmot her sandwear egoi ngt ost artwit
ht hem
theni twillbeyoumbusowho' sgoi ngt obe
cleansedaf ter.Iwillbei nther iverwi t
hyoubut
uSiphoher ewi llbet heonewhowi llbewashi ng
yourwhol ebodysi nceyouar eamanandIcannot
touchyou.Af t
eri twillbebusani '
st urnthenyour
kidswi llcomei nwi thyoumbusoyouwi l
lbet he
onewhowi l
lbewashi ngthel i
ttleone'swhensi pho
pour sthewat eront hem.Youwi llwashonechi l
d
afteranot herandyouwi l
lprayaskf oreverything
youwi sht heywoul dhave. "
Myhusbandagr
eeswi
thgogobutwher
edoIf
iti
n
t
hiswhol
ethi
ng.Whyam Iwant
ed.
"khanyoyoual sohavet obetherebecauset hey
wantyout otaketheki dswit
hyouaf t
ertheycome
outfrom t
her i
ver.Youwi l
lcoveryourchi
ldr
enwi th
theclot
hsIwi l
lprovidethenyouwi l
lgeti
nthecar
withyourhusband, hisbrot
herandyourchildren
anddr i
veawaymaki ngsurethatyoudon'tt
ur nyour
headdon'
tlookback.Doyouunder
standme
mzukul
u?.
"
"Iunderst
andgogo."IguessIwi
llhavet
omake
surethatt
herearvi
ewmi rr
orisf
acingawayf
rom
myeyes.
"Mbusonawebusani .Foreverythi
ngtogowel lf
or
allofyou.Ifyourancest
orsdon'tcomet hr
oughand
revealthemselvestoyouthenIam af r
aidt
hat
thingsarenotgoingtogowel lforever
yone."she
saysshakingherhead
"Whatdoesal
loft
hatmeangogo?
."myhusband
asks/
"Itmeanst hatkusasawhenyouar eintheriverand
youdon' tseeasnake.I nyokayasemanzi nithenI'm
afrai
dthatyourancest or sarenothappywi t
ht he
thi
ngst hatar ehappeninginthefamilybutifyoudo
seethesnaket heneverythingwil
lgoper f
ectlywell
foryoubutasI '
ml i
steningtothem andlookinghere
Idon'tseeanyt hingwrongf ornow."shekeepsqui et
forawhi le.MyGodasnake?
"Wewi
lll
eavever
year
lyi
nthemor
ningbef
oret
he
sunrises.Mnguniyouwi llnotbeintimatewithyour
wifeandyouwi llnotdri
nkal cohol
,thatgoesforyou
toobusani.Thecer emonyt hathastohappenwi l
l
happent henextweekbef oreyourfathergoesto
paythedamagest otheZikalala'
s.KhanyoIhopeall
thethingsthatt
heyt ol
dyout obuyanddo, yousti
ll
remembert hem.Doyou? ."
"IdogogoandIhavebr
oughtever
ythi
ng.
"
"Goodt
hen.
"
"Busani.Youseem t ohaveal lotonyourmi nd.
Thingsseem tobenotgoi ngwel l foryouandyou
feelli
keyoudon'tknowwhoyouar e.Yourtwinwas
theonlyonethatwasi ntroducedt ot heancestors
afteryouwerebor nbutt heydon' tknowyou
becauseyourmot her.Thewomant hatgavebirthto
youandt heZikalala'
sdidn' tgot ot hegumede' sto
tel
lthem abouttheirdaught erbei ngpr egnant.After
yourtwinbrotherwasi ntroducedt oyourancer st
ors
andhewasaccept edbyt hem, someoft hethings
thatweregoingtoaf fecthi m wentt oyoubecause
youwer enotintr
oducedt ot hem t hesamemayyour
brotherwas.Yousomet imesf eellikeyoudon' t
knowwher eyoubel ongorfitinsoyoudot hi
ngsto
tr
yfeelt hevoidthatyouhavei nsideofyou.Youwil
l
becleansedmzukul uandthecl ari
tyyouseekyou
wil
lfi
nd.Thi ngswi l
lchangef oryouandIseeavery
bri
ghtf utur
ef oryou.Yourfatherthoughmusthave
aceremonyf oryout oi
ntr
oduceyout oyour
gumedeancest orsandyouhavet otakeyour
ri
ghtfulsurname."gogosays.
"There'ssomeonet houghwho'scomi ngandthey
aregoingtotrytocomebet weenyouandyour
brotherbutshewillnotsucceed.Thi
swomant hat
i
si nyourli
feisnotgood.She'supt osomethi
ng
withyourmot her
."
"Al
ice?
."
"Yesher
.She'
swillbeheresoon.
"busanishakes
hi
shead.Iwonderwhatisowamiuptonow.
"Yourmother.
..
.Yourbi
rt
hmot herhmmmm.I t
'sal
l
uptoherancestorsnow.Theytri
edtohelpherbut
shedoesn'
twanthelpandhmmmm. ...
..
"
"Issomet
hinggoi
ngt
ohappent
oher
?."busani
asks.
"I
tisal
lupt
ohernow.That
'sal
lIcansay.
"
"Mangcobo.Youcar rythewei ghtofal lt
hisfamil
y.
BoththeGumede' sandtheZi kalal
a's.Allofthem
i
ncludingyourbl
oodancest orsar ewi t
hyouchi l
d.
Youar ebl
essed,yourhusbandi sbl essedbecause
ofyouandyourchi l
drentoo."shel ooksatt hebowl,
thenatmeandsmi l
es."Indeedbl essed.It'
snot
everydayIseesomethinglikethis."
"t
hankyougogo.
"
"Theyaretell
ingmethatImustpreparesomethi
ng
foryouluhforprot
ect
ion.Yes.
..
..
Isee.
"shesays
nodding.
"Thisi sitfornow.Iwi l
lseeallofyoui nthe
mor ning.At4am youhavet obeher esowecanbe
atther i
verbef or
et hesunrises.Allofyouhavet o
l
eaveatt hesamet i
me.Ihadal readytoldyour
mot hers.Youwi llnotbathwhenyoucomeback
fr
om t her i
verbutyoucandoanyt hi
ngaf t
erthat
."
shel ooksatmeandmyhusband.Ibl ushandlook
down."Doyouhaveanyquest i
ons?."Thebrothers
l
ookateachot her.
"Issomet
hingbadgoi
ngt
ohappent
omywi
fe
gogo?.
"
"Don'
tworrymzukul
u.Noharm wi
llcomet
oher
nowthatIknow.
"Idon'
tli
ket
hatatall
.
"Mbusoyourbr other
sneedgui dancef
rom you.
Youar etheeldestinbot
hf amil
iesandmany
responsibi
li
ti
esofbot hfami l
iesaregoi
ngtolieon
youandyourwi fe'
sshoulders.Youmaygonowand
callyourbrot
hert ocomei n."
Wegetupandl eavetherondavel.Wewal ktobonga
andhegetsupandgoest othehutt oo.Wegetin
thecarandsit
.Noonei stalki
ngandIj ustwantto
l
etthem bei
nt hei
rthoughts.I
'mj ustwonderi
ng
whydoesgogohavet opreparesomet hi
ngthatwil
l
prot
ectme?.WhatdoIneedpr otecti
onfrom and
why?.CanIjustgetabreakmyGod! .
Wewai tforal
mostanhourf orbongaandwhenhe
comesbackhe' squiettoo.Iwonderwhatgogosai d.
Wedrivebacktot helodgeandt heygotodif
ferent
dir
ect
ions.Igolookf ormyki dsandtheyar
eint he
poolwithmybr ot
herandhe' steachi
ngthem howt o
swi
m.
"Lookatyouguysandyouruncl
e."Heseesmeand
smil
es.
"Whendi
dyoucomeback?
."
"j
ustnow.Howar
etheydoi
ng?
."
"Theyar
efi
sh.
"
"Mykidsar
enotf
ishman.
"Myhusbandsaysf
rom
behi
ndme.
"Theyar
enotaf
rai
doft
hewat
er,
sot
heyar
efi
sh.
"
Mbusowalksinf
rontofmeandhe' shal
fnaked.
He'
sweari
ngsurfershort
sandIam happythatthey
ar
enotti
ght.Myhusbandl ookssogood.He
cr
ouchesdowninfrontofme.
"Whydon'
tyougoandchanget
hencomeandj
oin
us.
"
"Youwantmet
obehal
fnakedi
nfr
ontof
ever
yone?
."
"Whywoul
dyoubehal
fnaked?
."
"I
'
llbewear
ingmyonepi
eceswi
mmi
ngcost
ume.
"
"Hel
lno.
"
"Whatdi
dyout
hinkIwasgoi
ngt
oweart
hen?
."
"yourj
eanshort
sandat ankt
opl
ove.Iwon'
tlet
anyoneseeyounaked.
"
"I'
llwearsomet
hingont
opt
ocovermysel
f
though?.
"
"No.
"
"I
'
m goingt
onap.Yougeti
nthatpoolandswi
m
wi
thyourki
ds.Tomor
rowwehaveal ongday.
"
"Iknowlove.I
'
mjustwor
ri
edaboutyouandwhat
shesai
d."
"Doyout
hinksomeonei
nourf
ami
lywant
stohur
t
me?.
"
"Yeahitcoul
dbefanele.IknowIpromisedyouthat
I'
m donekil
li
ngpeopl
ebutl ovei
fIcatchanyone
tr
yingtodoanythi
ngtoyout henIwil
ldowhatI
havetodo."
"Iknowbabybutgogosai
dnohar
m wi
llcomet
o
me."
"IknowbutIwontl
etmyguar
ddownl
oveandso
shouldyou.
"
"Ok.I
'
m goi
ngt
onap,
Iam t
ir
ed.
"
"Wantmet
ojoi
nyou?
."Il
augh.
"wear
enothavi
ngsexbaby.
"
"Butwecandoot
hert
hings?
."
"Nope.Keepyourhandst
oyour
sel
f.
"
"Ican'
tdothat
.Youaret
oodamnsexyandyou
knowmyhandsar eal
waysi
tchi
ngt
obeallover
yourbody.
"
"Don'
tyougetenoughbaby?
."
"Hellno.Doyougetenoughoft
his?
."Het
akesmy
feetandrunsi
tonhischestt
henbackupi
ntohi
s
mout h.
"Youwil
lnotdothatagai
ninfrontofmeandyour
ki
ds.Whatiswrongwithyoutoo?."Mybrot
hersays
andIl
augh."Ihaven'
tfor
givenbothofyouforwhat
youdi
d."
"Sor
ry.
"webot
hsayandl
augh.
Myhusbandgi vesmeaver yhotkissthenj umpsin
thepoolthenbusaniandbongacomei nandj ump
i
nt hepooltoo.Igetupandgot ot hekitchenfir
st
andmakemysel fasandwich,makej uiceandt hen
eatit
.Iseethewoment hatworkherewat chi
ngthe
boysinthepool .Iwoul
dwat chthem tooi fIwas
singl
e.Theladiesgiggl
eandt al
kamongst
themselves.
Twooft hem deci
detobringref
reshmentst
ot hem.
Theythankthem thenconti
nuetalki
ngandteaching
theki
dst oswim.Igiggl
ethengot omyroom and
nap.
Lat
eratnightIfeelhandsonmyf ace.Wetl
it
tl
e
ki
ssesonmyf ace.Iopenmyeyesandseemyson
watchi
ngme.Ismi l
eandpullhimtomeandt i
ckl
e
hi
m.Hel aughssohar dbeggingmet ost
op.He
smell
ssogoodl i
kehisdad.
"where'
syourdadbaby?.
"hestil
llaughi
ng.The
bat
hroom dooropensandtheycomeout .Hewas
bat
hingthem.
"You'
ref
inal
lyawake.Iaskedt
hem t
osaveyour
pl
ate.I
'
m sur
eyou'
rehungr
y."
Hesit
sonthebedandbegi
nstoputcl
otheson
sboni
soandmybabydoesn'
tgi
vehisdadahard
ti
me.
"I
'
m nothungr
y.Whatt
imei
sit
?."
"It'
s10pm loveandthesel
it
tl
epeoplehavet
o
sleep.It
houghtplayi
ngonthewaterwouldt
ir
e
theseguysoutbutitdi
dn'
t.
"
"Theylooksl
eepyandt
heyar
esl
eepi
ngwi
thus
ri
ght?
."
"Yesl
ove.That
'swhyIt
ookt
hem.
"
Isitupandt heycomet omeandsi tonmyl ap.I
kissthei
rcheeksandt heyclosethei
reyes.Ihol
d
them untilt
heyfal
lasleep.Wej ustwatchthem in
comf ort
ablesil
ence.Ilovethesethreepeoplevery
much.Myhusbandt akesthem andputsthem in
bed.
"Ar
eyousur
eyou'
renothungr
y?.
"
"Iam baby.
"
"
Areyour
eadyf
ort
omor
row?
."
"Iam l
ove.
"
"Whathappenedt
othembaandt
hatgi
rl
?."
"Thembai
sdead.Fr
ankki
ll
edhi
m andgavet
hegi
rl
thatdr
ugt
hatwi
pedherwhol
ememory.
"
"What
?.Howi
sherf
ami
lygoi
ngt
ofi
ndher
?."
"Hel
eftherout
sideherhouse.
"
"Ohk.It
houghtt
hatmaybeyou'
ret
heone.
..
."
"HeyIpr
omi
sedyout
hatIwon'
tki
llagai
nbutIwi
ll
i
fIhavet
ookay?
."
"Okay."Wekissthenhegetsinbed.Thekidsarei
n
themiddlesl
eeping.Wethreadourhandsandjust
l
ookateachot herunti
lIf
allasl
eepwhil
ehe's
watchi
ngme.
"wakeupmzukul
u.Wakeupsi
si.
"
IopenmyeyesandseekhokhoZikal
ala.She'
sin
mybedandwear eatmyhouseindurban.
"Gogo?
."Isi
tupandshet
akesmyhandt
oher
s.
"Ar
eyouheal
ing?
."Isi
gh.
"Iam gogo.Ever
ydayIam heal
ing.
"shenodsand
patsmyhand.
"Itwi
llgetbet
termzukul
u.Tr
ustme.
"Inod.She
getsupandwal ksaoundmybedr
rom.
"Iwantmybedroom t
oli
keyour
s.Decor
atei
tli
ke
thi
ssowhem Ivisi
tIf
eel
li
keI'
m athome.
"
"Iwi
llgogo.
"
"IknowyouareaGumedebr i
debutyou'r
eourbr
ide
tooandIwanttobeablet
ovisi
tyourhomeandbe
aroundgr
eat
,greatgr
andki
dsandtheirki
ds.
"
"Iwi
lldot
hatgogo.
"
"Whenyouandyourhusbanddeci det odoa
ceremonyofwel comi
ngyourancest orsdon'tfor
get
toalsobr i
ngus.Wemighthavedifferentsurnames
butyouandmbusobi ndust oget
her .Wear ehere
forallofyou.Al
lweneedisjustf
oryout o
acknowl edgeusnowandthen."
"Ngiyakuzwagogo.
"shecomesbackandlooksat
meagai n.Shel
ookssad."I
sever
ythi
ngokay
gogo?."
"Noteveryt
hingmzukulu.Weaskedthatthere
mustn’tbebl
oodspil
li
ngandt her
ewasnonebut
theangerandsecr
etsthataresurr
oundi
ngt hi
s
famil
yiswhatthat
'sgoingtodest
roythi
sf amil
y."
"Iknowgogo.Whatdoyouwantmet
odo?Tal
kto
them?.
"
"Youtalkedtothem andsomedi dn'
tli
sten.We
havet
riedtowar nthem butt
heystil
lref
usetoli
sten
andnowi tisoutofourhands."
"I
ssomeonegoi
ngt
odi
egogo?
."
"Iam goingtoneedyout obest
rongandhol
dthi
s
famil
ytogetherwhentheti
mecomes.Ineedyout
o
bethei
rpil
larofstr
ength.
"
"GogoIdon'tknowi
fIcandothat
.Whydoesever
y
responsi
bil
it
yfr
om t
hisf
amil
ybeputonmy
shoulder
s?.
"
"Whoel
sebesi
desyou?
."
"Unclefanel
ehasawi feandadaught
ergogo.Why
can'tt
heybet heone'
swhodealwit
hallt
he
responsi
bil
it
ies?.
"
"Theyar enotselfl
essmzukulu.Theyarenotl
ike
you.Theydonothaveyourhear tandtheywouldn'
t
understandwhati tr
eal
lytakestobethegluet
hat
bindsthefamily.Youarethatgl
ueandwhenyou
havebeenchosent obetheonet hatl
eadsnoone
candisputethatnomat t
erwhatt heydo."
Ishakemyhead.
"Youaremorethanjustabridemzukul
u.Youare
whattheGumedeandZi kal
alafami
lyneedtobe
one.Theywi
llal
lneedyou."
"Gogopl
easet
ellme.
"
"Yourki dswon' tgoi
nther iverwi thoutyou.Ineed
yout ogowi ththem andhel pyourhusbandbat h
them.What everyouseei nt her i
verdon' tbescar ed.
Itwon'thurtyou.Wewi llallbet here.Br i
ng5rand
coinsforyou, yourhusband, childrenandyourt win
brother'
shusband.MaXul uwi llgiveyousomet hing
towear .AfteryouaredoneIwantal lofyoutoleave
andgost r
aighttoyourhousei ndur ban.Thenext
dayyouwi l
lcookabi gfeastt hatal lofyouwilleat.
Youwi llcomebackher eaweekbef orethe
cer
emonyt
opr
epar
eever
ythi
ng.Wear
ecount
ing
onyou.
"
"Iwon'
tletyoudowngogo.
"
"Wear ewatchingoveral lofyou.TheGumede' sare
so,sopr oudofyou.Youar enowamot hertothe
familyandnotj ustabr ide.Theycal lyouthe
Mat r
iachoft hi
sfami ly.BongaandThandi wewi l
l
bebl essedandsowi llZiphoandhi swi ves.
"She
putsherhandonmyst omachandsmi l
es."Be
blessedchi l
dandcont i
nuet ogr owthef amil
yand
don'tletpeoplecomet oyourf amilyandcause
chaos. "Tearsfal
l.Shegi vesmeaver ywarm,and
shehugt henshedi sappear s.
Iopenmyeyesandlookup.Mbusoisholdi
ngme
onhischestandhi
shear
tisbeat
ingfast
.
"Heywhat
'swr
ong?
."Iaskhi
m.
"Youwer
ecr
yingagai
ninyoursl
eep.
"Isi
gh.
"It
'sokaybaby.Iwasjustdr
eami
ngthat
'sal
l.Iam
fi
ne."I
'm notf
ine.HowcanIbewhenIknow
someonei sgoingtodi
e?.
"Wehavetwomor
ehoursbefor
ewewakeup.
"He
sl
eepsnextt
omeandIf
allasl
eepagai
n.
Wewokeupat3am, brushedourteethandl ef
twit
h
thekidssti
llsl
eeping.Myhusbandi stheone
dri
vingandbusanii ssitt
ingonthefrontwithhim.
I'
mi nthebackwi t
ht hekidsandont heothercar
sceloisdr
ivingmyhusband' smot hersandbongais
goingtobedr i
vingwi t
hgogoandt heothers.
Whenwegett heretheygetinthecarandwedr i
ve
tother i
ver,whichisn'
tscarylooki
ngbecausemost
treeshavebeencutdown.Gogoandsbaniar ethe
oneswhocomeoutoft hecarfir
standt heyprepar
e
theirt
hings.Ilookatt heti
meandi t
s4:30am andit
i
sst il
ldark.Ilookatmyki dsandt heyareawakebut
theyquietthenIseet hattheyarehol di
ngeach
other'
shands.Theydon' tl
ookafraidbut..
.GodI
don'tknow! .
Thesoundoft hewatermovi
nghasmef eeli
ng
scaredbecauseisal
mostdeafeni
ng.Gogo' sdream
keepsplayi
nginmyheadandIdon' tnowi fIi
shouldtel
lmyhusbandornotbutIwi l
l.Wehavet o
carr
ythisthi
ngbetweenusbecauseIwon' tbeable
t
odoi
tal
one.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER91

LUNGI
.

GogoXul u,sbaniandsiphowal kf ur
theraway, like
deepert othef or
estandIt hinkcl oseenought ot he
ri
ver .Myhusbandandhi sbr ot
herar equiettoo.I
don' tknowi ftheyar ewor r
iedort heyjustwantal l
ofthi stobeover .Sbaniandsi phocomeback.
Siphocomest ouswhi l
esbanigoest oscelo'scar
wher ethetwi ngranniesare.Igaveal lofthem t he
fi
ver andcoi nstothrowi nther i
verandIhopet hey
sti
llr emembert othrowi ti
nt heriverbeforetheygo
i
nsi de.Myhusbandget soutoft hecarandbusani
doest ooandhet ell
sthem t hatwhensbaniand
gogoar edonesbaniwi llcomet ot hem.Mybr other
andbongaj ointhem too.Noonei stal
king,theyar e
al
ljustsi
lent
.
Iwat chsbaniopeni ngthedoorandshet alkstothe
twingr annies.Theyst epoutoft hecar .Owami
l
ooksner vousandIt hinki t'
sbecauset hisplaceis
bringingbackbadmemor ies.Theywal ktowher e
theyhavepr eparedt heirthingsandt henwehear
someonecr yingloudandIt hinkit'
sowami .The
wayshe' scr yingismaki ngmef eelforherandyou
canf eelherpai nandt hememor iesshe’shavi ng
beingbackher eagain.Sbaniandmymot heri
n-l
aw
holdherandt heywal kunt ilwedon' tseet hem.My
husbandget sinthecarandl ooksatus.
"Baby?Ar
eyouokay?
."Iaskhi
m.
"Idon'
tknow.Hear
ingmybi r
thmot
hercryl
iket
hat
washard.If
eelsor
ryforherandmybr
other
."
"Thishar
donal
lofus.Wewi
llgett
hrought
his
baby."
"howlove?.
"Isi
gh.Tr
uthisIhavenoi
deahow
we'r
eallgoi
ngtogett
hroughthi
s."
"Wehavenochoi
cebaby.Wejusthavet
obe
st
rongf
orever
yone.
"Helooksatme.
"Youarecr
yingagai
ninyoursl
eep.
"Het
akesmy
hand.
"baby.
..
."
"Lovet
alktome.Iknowyoudidn'
tsleepaf
teryour
ni
ghtmare.Whatdi
dyoudream about?.
"
"Canwenott
alkaboutt
hisnow?
."
"You'
l
ltel
lmewhenwear
ebackatt
hel
odge?
."
"No.I
'
llt
ellyouwhenwear
eathome.
"
"whyt
hatl
ong?
."
"Whenwel
eavet
hispl
ace,
wewi
lldr
ivebackt
o
Dur
ban.
"
"Huh?
."
"Iwasn'thavinganight
mare.Iwaswithyourgreat
grandmother.Shetoldmewhenar edoneherewe
mustdrivestrai
ghthomeandImusthel pyouwi t
h
theboysbecauset heywon'
tgointheriverwi
thout
me.Ihaveal r
eadytoldl
esegoandsimst hatweare
coming.Iaskedthenanniescomewi t
hourbags
whenscelocomest opi
ckthem up.
"
"Di
dshesaywhywemustl
eave?
."
"Idon'
tknow.
"
"Love?
."
"That
'
sal
lIcansayfornow.Ther
estI
'
llt
ellyou
whenwegethome.
"
"Shesaidsomet hi
ngbaddi dn'
tshe?
."Ilookatour
ki
dsandt heyarequiet.Theyarewor
ryingme
becausetheyneverstoptalki
ng.
"Shedid.Theboysaret
ooquiet.Doyout
hink
somethingbadi
sgoingtohappen?.
"
"Don'
twor
ryl
ove.Theyar
ejustanxi
ousl
ikeus.
"
"Ihopeso.
"
Thegranniescomebackandtheyarewear
ingwhit
e
cl
oths.Bongagoestothecar
,theygeti
nanddri
ve
out
.
"Iguesswearenext
.I'
l
lbeback.It
hinkyoushoul
d
gettheboysr
eady.
"
"I
'
lldot
hatwhenwear
eint
her
iver
."
"Okl
ove.
"
Hest
epsoutofthecarandsbanicomesi
n.Si
pho,
myhusbandandbusanileave.
MBUSO.
It'
sbegi nningt obecl earoutside.It'
snol ongerdark
l
ikehowi twaswhenwegother e.Thesoundoft he
wat erstreami ngdowni salmostdeaf ening.Ihave
neverbeenscar edofwat erbutt hisonei smaki ng
mef eeluneasy.Wecont i
nuet owal kunt ilwesee
gogoXul u.Ther efir
enextt owher eshe'skneel i
ng
andshehascandl esofdifferentcol oursl i
t.The
sagei sbur ningandyoucanact uall
ysmel lit
.She'
s
mi xingsomet hi
ngi nthebuckett hatshehas.Il ook
att heriverandIdon' tknowhowdeepi tisbecause
thewat eri shigh.Shel ooksupandseesus.
"Takeof
fyourclot
hesthenyouwi
llgeti
nther
iver
.
Mbusoyouwillgofi
rst
."
Siphoshiel
dsmef r
om gogoandIbegintotakeoff
mycl ot
hes.WhenI'
m donehetakesthem and
throwsthem i
nthefi
reandtheybur
n.Heinstruct
s
met ogointheri
verandIdo.Thewateri
scol dand
i
tgoesupt omyknees.Siphocomesincar r
yingthe
bucketandgogocomest
oandget
sint
her
iver
.
"Whensi phopourswateronyou, youwil
lpray,ask
God,yourancestorstoprot
ectyouandyourl oved
ones.Allthatyouwishtohaveforyou,yourfamil
y
andeveryoneyouhol ddear.Doyouunderstand
mzukulu?."
"Idogogo.
"
"Ifyouhappent
oseethesnakedon'
tpanic.I
twil
l
notdoanyharm butbr
ingyoul
uckandblessi
ngs."
"Yebogogo.
"
Shewal ksar oundandst andsbehi ndme.Sheput s
herhandonmyheadandbegi nstoprayt hensipho
pourswat eronmeandIwashmyhead, faceand
wholebody.Iaskmyancest ors,Godtopr otectmy
wif
eandki ds.Mywhol efami l
yandever yonewho
l
ovesusandwi shuswel l.Iaskt hem t
obl essus
wit
hki ds.Iaskt hem totakeawayal lthehur tmy
wif
ef eelsandf rom anyonet hatwantstohur ther.I
askforforgivenessf oreverythingwrongt hingI
haveeverdoneandf orallofthattonotf allonmy
chi
ldren.Ithankt hem forgivingmemymot herand
brot
herback.Iaskthem touniteussowecanal
lbe
onefami l
y.Iaskt
hem tofinal
lygivehert
he
happinessshedeserves.
Iwashever yinchofmybody, Ievenfor
getthat
gogoxul ui
sbehi ndme.Thebucketisempt yand
siphostepsoutoft hewaterandcomesbackwi th
thewhitecloth.Gogostopsprayi
ngtakestheclot
h
andt el
lsmet oli
ftmyarmsup.WhenIdoshe
wr apstheclotharoundme.
"getoutoftheri
verandwaitther
e.Iguessthey
deci
dednott oshowthemselvesmzulukubutthat
shoul
dn'tworry.
"Idoasshesays.
Sheget soutt ooandbegi nstomixsomet hi
ngi nthe
bucketthatsi phofil
ledwithwater
.Siphowal kst o
theri
vercar ryingthebucketandgogocomesi ntoo.
Shedoest hesamet hi
ngtomybr otherandsi pho
pourswat eronhi m unti
ltheyaredone.Hewal ks
outofther iverandwebot hhavet hesewhitecl ot
h
anditremi ndsmeofsomeNi geri
anmovi eIsawmy
wifewatchi ng,onlytheyhadredclothsonthem.He
walksawayt henaf t
erawhi l
emywi f
ecomeswi t
h
sbaniandourki ds.
It
'snolongerdarkoutsidebutt hesunhasn'tri
sen
yet.Luhgivesmesboni soandshet akessbonelo
fr
om sbani.Shewal kstotheriverandf i
ll
sthe
bucketwit
hwat er.Shegivesitt ogogowhoagai n
mixessomet hi
ngi nsi
de.
"Undresst
hem t
hengoi
nther
iver
.Sbanishow
them wher
e."
West andalmostclosetot heedgeandt hewat er
stopsjustabovemyf eet.Shethentell
sust oput
theboysdownsot heycanbei nsi
det heri
ver.When
weoutt hem downt heybegintocryloud.Gogo
comesandbegi nstosayourclannamest hen
prays.Bothherhandsar eontheboyshead.Sbani
pourswat eri
nsidethebucketonthem thenl uhand
Iwashourki ds.Theboysar ecryi
ngsol oudl i
ke
somet hi
ngisbeingdonet othem.Luht akes
sbonisofrom meandIt akehisbrother.
Wewasht hem sti
llpr
ayi
ngwhent heysuddenl y
st
opcrying.LuhandIlookateachot hert henwe
l
ookatgogowhogoesst i
llthencontinuest opr
ay.
Suddenl
yeverythi
nggoesqui et.Eventhewat er
doesn'
tmakesoundevent houghitissti
llmoving.I
l
ookar oundexpect
ingtoseesomethingbutIdon'
t
butIknowwecanal lf
eel
thatsomethingi
shere.
Mywi fegaspsandIfol
lowhereyestolookwhere
theyarestar
ri
ng.Ohmygod! .Thearebubbl
esin
thewaterli
kesomethi
ngisthere.Notj
ustsmall
bubblesli
kebigbubbl
esofsomet hi
ngbigbreat
hing
underthewater.
"Ohtheyhavegraceduswit
htheirpresence.
"Gogo
sayssmil
ing."Canyoual
lseei
t?.Blessings.
"
"YesIcan.
"Luhsays."
..
..
Oh.
My.
God!
."al
loureyes
areonwhatweareseei
ng
Ihaveseensnakesi nmyl i
febutIhaveneverseen
asnaket hi
st hickandi ti
sver ylong.Thewat eris
clearyoucanact ual
lyseeit.Theheadi shugeit
l
ooksusi tmi ghtswal l
owal lofusatt hesamet ime.
Theonl ypar twecanseei st hebackofi tbecauseit
hasexposedi tself.I
tisjustmaybej ust300m f r
om
wher ewear e.Gogosai diftheyshowt hemselves
theni tmeansbl essi
ngsar ecomi ngandt heyare
happy.I tcontinuestobr eaththenitgoesundert he
wat erandleaves.
"Wear edonehere.Youwil
ltaketheki
ds,don'
tlook
backandleave.Khanyoyouwi l
ldoasyouwere
i
nstruct
ed.Iwil
lseeyouagain.Doyouhaveany
questi
ons?.
"
"Canwechangecl
othesgogo?
."Iaskher
?
"Youmaywhenyouhavel ef
tthistown.Bewel
lmy
chil
drenandmbusotakecar
eofyourwi f
eand
rememberI'
mjustaphonecallaway."
"Gogoyousaidyoumustmakesomet
hingf
orme?
forpr
otect
ion?
.”mywi
feasksher
.
"Ohyes.Hereitis.Don'tevertakeitof
fevenwhen
youshowerordoanyt hi
ng.Youmustgonow.The
sunwillr
iseatanymi nuteanddon' tt
hankme. "She
takessomethi
ngt hatlooksli
keaneckl aceandputs
i
tovermyhead.I tlookssobeaut i
ful
Wet aketheboysandgetoutoft
heri
verandwal
k
str
aighttoourcar.wegeti
nandIdr
iveoutmaki
ng
surethatIdon'
tlookback.

LUNGI
.
Fivehour sl
aterwear ebackhome.Imi ssedmy
houseandIam sogl adwear eback.Mybr ot
her
wasdr i
vingbehi ndmet hewhol eenti
retimeuntil
wegothome.Myhousei ssmel l
ingwonderfuland
thatmeanssi snont ocookedandI '
m alwayshappy
toseeher .Wet akethekidst ot
hebedroom and
theyfallasl
eep.Itwasal ongdri
veandt heyare
ti
red.Weal lare.Idroveushomel i
kehowgogo
i
nstructed.Wegot othelivingr
oom andeveryonei s
there.
Myhouseislikeever
yone'
shome.Whetherwear
e
ther
eornottheyalwaysmaket
hemselves
comfor
tabl
e.
"Iam sogl
adal
lofthi
soverandIwillf
inal
lyhave
mylif
eback.
"Owamisays.I
'm notonetonotli
ke
peopl
ebutowamirubsmethewr ongway.
"Whi
chl
if
ear
eyout
alki
ngaboutma?
."Iaskher
.
"Thel
if
ethatwast
akenf
rom me.
"shesi
psher
champagne.
"Hmmm.
"
"whatdoyoumeanhmm?
."hervoi
cer
isesup
"not
hing.
"
"Idon'tl
ikehowyout al
ktome.I'
m yourmot heri
n-
l
awsohavesomer espectwhenyou'
retal
kingto
me."I'
m gladIneverhadherasmymot herin-l
aw
causeIswearwewoul dhavehadprobl
ems
betweenus.
"mot
hernotnowpl
ease!
."busanisays.
"what
?Youal
lhear
dhowshet
alkedt
ome!
."
"I'
m goingtobed.Idon'
thaveti
mef orthis.Si
s
nontowi l
lshowyouwhereyou'l
lsleep.Tomorrow
wewi l
lcookandeatasaf amil
y."Istandup.
"Lovesitdownpl ease.
"Isi
t."I
nthisfami l
ymother
werespecteachot herandwedon'tlookdownon
anyone.Thisismywi fe'
shouseandever yone.I
meanever yonewhoent er
sherewillrespecther
.
Luhwasn'tdisrespectf
ult
oyouinanyway. "
"Wel
lIam yourmot
herandshemustr
espectme.I
demandi
t!
."
"Pl
easedon'
trai
seyourvoi
ce.Thehousei
sful
lof
ki
ds.Respectisearnednotdemandedsopl ease
showust herespectthatyouaresodemandingof
becausewehaveal lbeennothi
ngbutrespectf
ulto
youeversincewemet .I
fyoucan'
tdothatthenwe
wil
lhaveproblems."
"Mbusoyourt
hreat
eni
ngyourmot
her
?."
"Idon'
tdot
hreat
smot
her
."
"It
hinkyou'vehadenoughchampagne.Let
stake
youtobed."busanisays.Heget
sup,
owami gulps
downtherestofherdrink.
Igetupt
oshowherwheeshe'
l
lsl
eep.
"I
'
m sor
ryaboutt
hatl
uh.
"Busanisays.
"Don'
tapol
ogi
zebusani
.Shej
usthadal
ongday.
"
"Thi
sdaywassupposetobeallaboutme.I'
mt he
onewhowaswrongedherebuteveryonei
sstil
l
ki
ssi
ngsebe'
sass.Whataboutme?."shesl
urs.
"Wedon' tl
ikeyouratt
it
udethat
'sall
.Weknowyou
wer ewrongedandwear esorr
ybutthatdoesn'
t
giveyouther i
ghtt
obemeanandt henpret
endtobe
thisni
ceper soni
nfrontofsomepeople.
"shestops
wal
king.
"Li
tt
legi
rlwhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?."l
it
tl
egi
rl
?
"YouknowI '
mright.
"Iopent
hedoor.Busanit
ri
es
topullheri
nbutshepusheshishandaway.I
wonderhowmanyt imeshehasdone.Takenhis
drunkassmothertoputhert
obed.Itmustbe
exhausti
ng.
"Idon'
tli
keyouandIdon'
tthi
nkyouar
egoodf
or
myson."
"Idon'
tgiveadamnwhatyouthi
nkaboutmeandI
defi
nit
elyknowmyhusbanddoesn'
ttoo."
"Icaneasi
lyt
urnhi
m agai
nstyou.
"
"mot
herst
oppl
ease!
."busanisays.
"Iwouldliketoseeyout
ry.Yourtr
uecol our
sand
star
tingtoshowandsoonmyf at
heri
nl awand
everyoneelsewil
lseewhatameanper sonyouare.
"
"Youdon'
tmel
it
tl
egi
rl
."
"No!youdon'
tknowme.Youdon'
twantt
omess
wit
hmebutIdar eyout
otr
yandyou'
l
lbesor
ry.
"
"Luh,pl
easeshe'
sdrunk.Shewon'
tremember
anyt
hingwhenshe'ssober.
"
"Busanistop!.Yourmot heri
snotdrunkwebot h
knowit.She'sjustt
iredofpretendi
ng.Ifyouwantto
bepartofthisfamilyowami .Youwillfor
getabout
thi
srevengeyouwantandwecanal lbeafamily
butI'
m warningyouowami .Don'tmesswi t
hmy
famil
ybecauseyouwi llr
egretit
."
"Lookatyou.Youarenotthi
smeekandst
upi
dgi
rlI
thoughtyouwere.
"Hereyetwit
ches.
"Callmenamesagai nandI'l
lkickyououtofmy
housenow!.
"shet akesastepbackandagi vesme
acoldsmil
e.Sheget sint
her oom andshutsthe
dooronmyf ace.Ishakemyheadandwal kbackto
thel
ivi
ngroom.
"I
sever
ythi
ngokay?
."myhusbandasks.
"Yeah.Wher
eisuMah?
."
"Shewentst
rai
ghtt
obedwhenwegother
e."Bonga
says.
"I
'
m goi
ngt
obedt
oo.Iwi
llseeyout
omor
rowand
youtoobet
terbehereear
lysoyoucanhel
pme
cook.Wher
eiszipho?.
"
"He'
satmyhousewi
thl
indo.
"
"Okayl
aterguys.
"Ihugal
loft
hem t
hengot
omy
bedr
oom.
Itakeoffmydressthengeti
nbedandsigh.It
ake
myphoneandcal lmydadandinvi
tehi
m over.The
dooropensandit'
smyhusband.Hegetsinbedtoo
aftert
akinghi
sclot
hesoff.
"Ist
il
lcan'
tbel
ievewhatwesaw.
"hesays
"Itwasbeaut
if
ulandscar
yatt
hesamet
ime.My
skelet
onwasshaki
ng."
"I
'
m gl
adI
t'
sal
mostover
."
'
Iam t
oo.
"
"Tal
klove.
"
Il
ayonhischestandtel
lhi
m aboutt hedream butI
l
eavesomepar t
soutli
kegogot ouchingmy
stomachandblessi
ngusbecauseI '
m notsurewhat
i
tmeans,alt
houghIthi
nksheblessedmywombso
Icanbealetohavemorechi
ldreninf ut
ure.Il
ookat
hi
mt hi
nkingheisasl
eepbuthe'
snot
.Heseems
deepinthought
.
"Ar
eweevergoi
ngt
ogetabr
eak?
."
"Wewi l
lbaby.Maybet
hisi
sonelastt
hingwehave
togothroughbef
orewecanal
lfi
nall
ybreat
hand
rel
ax.
"
"Iwonderwho'
sgoi
ngt
odi
enowandhow?
."
"Idon'
twantt
oknowbutIj
usthopei
twon'
ttear
thi
sfamil
yapar
t.
"
"Owamii
stheonewho'sgoi
ngt
odot
hat
.Idon'
t
knowwhatt
odowithher.
"
"Iwon'thaveherandherener
gyar
oundour
chi
ldr
en.Iwillki
ckheoutofmyhomeifshet
ri
es
something.
"
"Ij
ustwi
shshewasn'
tli
ket
hat
."
"It
'stherevengethat
'smaki
ngherbethatwaybaby
andeverydayit'
sgett
inghar
derandhardert
obethe
personshe'spret
endingt
obe."
"Shecan'
pret
endforevercausesoonerorl
atershe
hastogobacktoherli
fe.
"hesays.
"Orwecanhel
phert
ellever
yoneaboutherl
if
e."
"whatdoyoumeanl
ove.
"
"let
sinvi
teyourhal
fsi
sterandherdadandseehow
shewillr
eact
."
"Youwantt
oexposeher
?."
"I
sthatwr
ong?
."
"I
t'
snotbutIdon'
twantt
ohur
tmysi
sterl
iket
hat
."
"Okbabybutt
hinkabouti
t.
"henods.
Thatwomant hreatenedmeandIam notgoi ngt
o
l
etitgo.Shemi ghtbeuptosomet hi
ngandIhavet o
keepmyeyeonherorel sewemi ghtfi
ndour sel
ves
i
nt rouble.Owamii suptosomet hingIcanf eeli
t.
Oneoft hethingsIhavelearnedf rom myhusband
i
syoual wayshavet obeast epaheadf rom
someoneoranyt hingsoyouwon' thaveany
surprisesandt hat'
swhatI '
m goingt odot oOwami .
Shewi l
lregretthedayshedeci dedtothr eat
enme.
Iwil
lnott
ellmyhusbandthathi
smom t hr
eat
ened
mebecauseIdon'tknowwhathewi l
ldoandfrankl
y
Idon'
twanthimtolookathisbr
otherorowami
evenint
hatmanner
.Ijusthavetotal
ktobusani
andtel
lhi
mtokeephismout hshutandnotmenti
on
thi
stomyhusband.
Busanil
ookslikehe'sdonethisamill
iontimes.His
mom getsdrunkandhehast oputherinbed.It'
s
ei
thershequickl
yget sdr
unkorshehasadr i
nking
probl
em ormaybeshej ustl
ovesheral cohol
.I
wonderift
heirsist
erhaveseenherdrunkt ooand
behavi
ngthatway.
"Pennyf
oryourt
hought
s?.
"
"Iam justt
hinki
ngaboutt
hisl
ovel
yneckl
aceIhave
aroundmyneck. "
"It
'sbeaut
if
ull
ove.Aslongasitwi
llpr
otectyou
fr
om anyharmthem I
'm happy.
"
"Don'
tfor
gett
otr
ansf
ermoneyt
oheraccount
."
"Iwi
ll
.Thankyouf
orever
ythi
ngl
ove.
"
"Don'
tthankmebaby.Thisi
smyfamil
ytooandI
havet
ohel pyout
akecareofi
t.
"Hechuckl
es.
"Comeher
e."Hewrapshishandsar
oundme.Il
ay
myheadonhischestandcl
osemyeyes.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER92.

LUNGI
.

Mysisterscameear l
yinthemor ningandwear ei
n
theki
tchenbusycooking.Thisf oodhast obeeaten
duri
nglunchandIf eell
iketheonl ymi ssi
ngher ei
s
thetr
aditi
onalbeerbutit
'sokaycausewewi l
lmake
i
tnexttime.ThequeenofLondoni sstil
lasleepor
maybeshe' sawakebutisaf r
aidt ofaceusbecause
ofherbehaviouryest
erday.Iwanthergonei nmy
housesoi tcanbejustus.Thewaywewer e.
Mymot heri
n-l
awi si
nt hekitchencookingwi t
hus
butshedoesn'
tlookli
kehernor malsel
f.Shesays
she'
sbeenhavingstomachcr ampssincewel ef
t
herhouseinPi
etermaritzbur
g.GodIhopeshe' snot
theonewho'sgoingtodi ebecauseitwilldevast
ate
herboysandallofus.Iwant edtotakehert othe
doctorbutsheref
usedandsai
dshe'l
lbefi
ne.Iwil
l
tal
ktomyhusbandIknowhewi llt
akehertothe
doctorhi
mself.
Iwantt hi
sluncht obeper fectandf oreveryoneto
getalong.IhopeOwamiwi llbehaveher sel
for
maybesheshoul dn'tsoever yonecanseewhatki nd
ofpersonsher eall
yi s.Speakingoft hedevilshe
comesi nst i
llwear i
nghersl eepwear .Iguesswhat
myf atheri
n-lawsai dt oherdi dn'
treall
yst i
ckorshe
j
ustdoesn' tcare.
"Ohmyheadache.Ineedt
ohavesomecoff
ee.
Wher
e'si
sthecoff
eeandisitf
reshl
ybr
ewed?.
"
"Goodmor
ningt
oyout
oowami
.Wear
efi
net
oo.
"
"Yeahmorni
ng.
"simsroll
shereyesandl
esegoj
ust
st
aresather
."Where'
sthecof
fee?.
"
Ist
oppeeli
ngthepot
atoes,
takeacupofcof
fee
pouri
tandthengi
veitt
oher.
"Thanks.
"Idon'
tsayanyt
hing."Don'
tyouhave
maidswhodot hi
s?.
"
"Di
dn'
tmyf
atheri
n-l
awt
ellyout
hatyoucan'
twal
k
ar
oundi
nthehousewear
ingt
hat
?."si
msasksher
.
"shewast
oodr
unkt
oremember
."l
esegoanswer
s
her.
"Thi
sismysonshouseandIwil
lwal
karound
wear
inganyt
hingIl
i
ke.He'
snotmyhusbandtot
ell
mewhatImustdoorwear.
"she'
sannoyed.
"Doyouhaveahusband? ."Iaskherandshe
chokesonhercoffee.Hersisterwalksuptoherand
patsherback."What'
swr ongma? ."iaskheragai
n.
"Ohmycof f
eewentdownont hewr ongpi
pe.Let
megoandbat h.Ihavespeci
alvisi
torscoming
today.
"saywhatnow?.
"Youinvi
tedpeopl
eIdon'
tknowtocomei
nmy
housewit
houttal
kingt
omef i
rst
?."
"What'
sthebi
gdeal
?.Theyar
efami
lyandi
t
shoul
dn'
tmatt
er.
"
"Thi
sismyhousemaandnexttimeyouthi
nkof
i
nvit
ingsomeone,
youwi
llt
alkt
omef i
rst
."
"You'
ref
reaki
ngoutl
ikeIi
nvi
tedMbuso'
sex.I
'
m
goi
ngtobathandwai
tfort
hem."shewal
ksaway
shaki
ngherski
nnyass.
"Idon'
tli
keher
."si
mssays.
"Whydoesitfeel
li
keshe'sheret
ojustcause
tr
oubl
e?.
"lesegosays.I
'
m gladI'
m nott
heonlyone
whocanseeherbullshi
t.
"She'
sgoi
ngt
hroughal
lotguys.Gi
veher
someti
me.
"
"She'smeanmahandyouknowi t.Idon'
tthinkwe
areevergoi
ngt
ogetalong.
"It
ellher.Shesighsand
si
tsdown."Mahareyouokay?.
"
"It
hinkIneedt
ogoandl
iedown.I
'
mjustf
eel
ing
di
zzy."
"Okayweneedt
otakeyout
othedoct
or.
"
"ThandiI'
m okaysi
si.St
opworr
ying.I
'
m goingt
oli
e
down."shewalkstoherbedr
oom.Godpleasedon'
t
l
etitbeher.Westil
lneedher
.
Thethreeofuslookateachotherworr
ied.Iam t
he
mostwor r
iedandscared.Idon'
tknowwhatIwilldo
i
fitisgoi
ngt obeher
.Themanar eout
side
barbecui
ngthemeat.MaybeIshoul dt
alktomy
husbandsohecanli
ghtthesageforherbutI
'm
scaredofhowhewil
lreactcausehetooknowsthat
someoneisgoi
ngtodieandhemi ghtthi
nkit
'sher
.
"I'
llbebackguys.I'm goi
ngt ocheckonmah. "They
nod.Igomybedr oom, Opent hecl osetdoorand
takeoutthesageandcandl es.Myheadand
shouldersarecoveredsoIj ustkneeldown.Li ght
thecandlesthensage.Ispr i
nkl ethesni f
fonthe
sageandbegi ntocalltheclannamesoft he
Gumede' sandcallonourancest ors.Iaskthem to
protectmymot herin-
law,toshowmet hewayand
chaseawayanybadener gyar oundmyhouse.
Itaket hesaget hengot oherbedroom andopen
thedoor .She'snotsleepingbutsit
ti
ngont hebed
thinking.Shelooksbadandr el
easesherbreat
h
whensheseesi t'
sme.Iwal karoundinthe
bedr oom wit
ht hesage, t
henbathroom andback
againt othebedr oom andputitdownnextt ot
he
bed.Isi tonthenedandt akeherhand.
"Youwelcomedmei nthi
sf ami
lywit
hwar m and
openarms.Youlovedmelikeyourowndaught er
andIknewthatIhadthebestmotherin-
lawever.
Whateverhappenedi nthepastdoesn'tchangethe
factt
hatyouar eagoodwomanmaandyoudon' t
havetotaketheabuset hatcomesf rom yoursi
ster
.
Mahyouhavet oforgi
veyourselfandmoveon.You
anduBabahaver ai
sedthesewonder fulmanwho
l
oveusuncondi ti
onall
yandt hatshouldcountfor
something.Ihateseeingyouli
ket hi
s."
"Youhaveapur eheartlungianddon' teverchange
foranyone.Iam gladtoknowt hatal lmychi ldren
havefoundl oveandarehappywel lexpectf or
busanibutIhopesi ncehe'smovingbackhomehe
toowillfi
ndloveandhappi ness.Iwilldi eahappy
womanbecauseIknowmychi ldrenar ewi t
ht he
womenwhol ovethem.Thankyoual lforgrowi ng
thi
sfami l
yandIknowi nyourwar m andl oving
handsi twil
lconti
nuetogr owandbebl essed."I
wipemyt ear
s.
"Mahyouar
enotgoi
ngt
odi
e.Don'
ttal
kli
ket
hat
."
"Khanyowhenyou' reti
meisnearyoucanf eelit
andIcanfeelmine.Don'tcryf
ormemychi l
d,my
ti
mehascome.Al lIwantyoutodoistobest rong
formyboys.Takecar eofyourfat
herkhanyohe's
goingtoneedallofyou.Youar
ethewomanofthis
famil
ynowandIwantyout obestrongandbet
he
gluethatyouar
e.Doyouunderstandmekhanyo?.
"
"Mahplease!
,Noonewhentheyar
egoingt
odi
eor
how.Pl
easeletmetakeyout
othedoct
orsowecan
seewhat'
swrong?
."
"IwanttospendthetimeIhavewit
hmyf ami
lyl
uh
pl
easemychi l
d."Isob.Shepul
lsmetoherar
ms
andIcry.
"Ar
eyousi
ckmah?
."
"It
'sonl
yst
omachachesl
uhandt
heyar
enott
hat
bad."
"Pl
easemah.
"
"Luhlookatme. "Ido.Shewi pesmyt ears."WhenI
dieIwantyout omakesur et hateverythi
ngi sokay.
Thandiwillseatont hemat tr
essandyouwi l
lhandle
everyt
hingformewi ththehel pofyourhusband
andbr ot
hers.Idon' twantt handitobest ressed
causeshe'spr egnant .Everyonenowl uhlookupt o
youandt heywi llneedyou.Pr omisemet hatyou
willgi
vemeabeaut ifulsendof f?.
"Inod."Shhh, it
wi
llbeokay.
"
Ishakemyheadno.Howcanshebeokaywhen
she'
stel
li
ngmethatshe'
sgoi
ngtodi
e?.HowdoI
beokaywitht
hat
?.
"Goi nthebathroom andwashyourface.Idon't
wantmysonoranyonet oseeyoul
ikethis.You
knowhewi llki
llallofuswhenhefi
ndsyoul ike
thi
s."Inod.
"Il
oveyoumama.
"Tear
sst
ream downherf
ace.
"Il
oveyout ool
ungi
leNokukhanyaMaNgcobo
Gumede."sheki
ssesmyforehead.
Igetup, lookatherandshe' slayi
ngonthebed.I
sighandcl osethedoor.Iwal ktomybedr oom, go
tot hebathroom.Takeof fmycl ot
hesandgeti nthe
shower .Mbusowon' tnoticethatIwascrying.He'l
l
thinkitsthewaterinmyeyes.Iopent hefaucetand
swi tchthewatertohot.Isitdownonthef loorand
cry.
Aftermaybe15minutesofcryi
ngandanot herone
forjustsi
tt
ingt
her
eIcomeoutoft heshowerandI
fi
ndmyhusbandsi t
ti
ngont hetoi
letseat
.Heget s
up,t
akest
hetowelanddri
esme.Het
akesmyhand
andwewalkbacktoourbedr
oom.
"St
andher
e.I
'
llber
ightback.
"
Hegoest
oourclosetthencomesbackwi
thabody
l
oti
onandot
herclothes.
"What
'swr
ongwi
tht
hesecl
othes?
."
"Not
hing.It
houghtyoumi
ghtwantt
ochange.
"
Il
ookatwhathehasandi
t'
sthatdressIwas
weari
ngwhenwewereinJoburg.Thesamedress
heaskedmetowearwhenit
'sj
ustthetwoofus.
"Youwantmet
oweart
hatdr
ess?
."
"Youl
ovei
tandi
tfi
tsyouper
fect
lyl
ove.
"
"I
fyouaskmet ochangeitIswearyouar
egoi
ngt
o
sl
eeponthatcouch.
"Helaughs.Hekneel
sand
moist
uri
zesmybody.
"Tal
k."
"I
'
mfi
ne.
"
"IcometopeeandIfi
ndmywifecr
yingi
nthe
bathr
oom.Whywon'tyout
alkt
ome?."
"mbuso.
..
."
"I
sitme?
."what
?.Ipul
lhi
m upandpal
m hi
scheeks.
"Whywoul dyouthinki
t'
syoumyeniwami?.You
aremyperfecthusband.Iam wor
ri
edaboutuMah
that
'sal
l."
"whatyoumean?
."
"It
hinkshe'
ssi
ckmbuso.Shewast
alki
ngabout
whatImustdowhenshedies.
"
"What
?."
"ShescaredmeandIt hinkshehasbeensi ckbut
wewer etoobusytonoti
ceandshe' shidi
ngitf
rom
us.Iaskedherifwecangot othedoctorandshe
ref
used.That'
swhyIwascr ying.It
hinkshe'st
he
onewho'sgoingtodie.
"
Myhusbandsit
sdownandcover
shi
sfacewi
thhi
s
handsandsi
ghsdeep.
"Iam soscaredluh.Idon'
tknowwhatIam goi
ngt
o
doifshedies.Idon'
twanthertodi
elove.
"
"Goandt
alkt
oyourmotherl
oveandf
indout
what
'swr
ongplease.
"
"okl
ove.
"Hegetsup.Iwr
apmyar
msar
oundhi
m
andhughi
mtight
.
"Youarenotal
onemyeniwam.Wear
eint
his
toget
her
."Henodsandl
eaves.
Aft
erfinishi
ngdressi
ngIgototheki
tchenanditis
empty.Ilookatt
hepot sandt
heyaredonecooking.
Ismil
e.Thedooropensandsbucomesi n.He
smil
es, Ismil
eback
"Heyluh,Howareyou?
."hegi
vesmeal
ightsi
de
hug.Iret
urni
t.
"I
'
m goodwena?
."
"I
'
vebeenbet
ter
."
"Youdon'
tsoundokay.What
'sbot
her
ingyou.
"
"Canwesit
."Inodandwesi
t."Canyoupl
easedo
somet
hingf
orme. "
"Oki
fyout
hinkImi
ghthel
pyou.
"
"It
hinkyoucan.Canyoupl
easet
alkt
osbanif
or
me."ohk.
"Ar
eyouguysf
ight
ingorsomet
hing?
."
"I'
vebeent
ryi
ngtogethol
dofherbutshe'
snot
answeri
ngmycall
sormymessages.Idon'tknow
what'
swrongorwhatIdi
d."
"andyout
hinkshe'
l
lopenupt
omei
fIaskher
?."
"It
hinkshewi
ll
.Justpl
easeaskhert
ocal
lmeback.
Oranswermycall
s."
"Sbuknowsthatyou'
repol
ygamousandIthi
nkt
hat
scar
esherandthefactt
hatyou’
rer
oyal
ty.
"
"ButIhavet
alkedt
oher
."
"Maybeyouneedoneofyourbrot
her'
swi vest
otal
k
toher
.Someonewhoknowswhati t
'sl
ike.Maybe
shemightunder
standt
hatshehasnothi
ngt of
ear.
"
henods.
"Ithi
nkIwi
lldot
hatbutwhati
ftheyt
ellheronl
ythe
bad?.
"
"Youneedsomeonewho'l
lbehonesttoher
.Sbuif
Sbanidoesn'
twantt
obeinapolygamousmarri
age
thenmaybeyouneedtoacceptt
hat.
"
"ButIl
oveherl
uh.
"
"Thenbepat
ientwi
thher
.Youcan'
tfor
cehert
obe
wi
thyouwhenshedoesn'
twantt
o."
"Ihaveprovent
ohert
hatIl
oveherandIwantt
obe
mywi f
e."
"IknowI'm notsupposetot
ellyouthi
sbutsbani
sai
dthatyoul ovesomeoneelsetooandyoucan'
t
havethatperson.Hasyourf
ami l
yfoundyouafir
st
wif
ef r
om anotherroyalf
ami
ly?."
"Not
heyhaven'
t.
"
"thenwhydoesshefeel
li
keyoul
ovesomeoneel
se
too?.
"hegoessi
lent
.
"I
t'
scompl
icat
edl
uh.
"
"Sbu.Nowomanwant stoknowthatthemanshe
l
ovesal solovessomeoneel setoo.Showhert hat
youloveherwi thallyourbei
ng.Don'tmakeherf eel
l
ikeyourl oveforheristhesecondbest."Hesighs."
Sbuf orgetaboutthatwomant hatyouthinkyou
l
oveandcan' thave.Sbanii
sabeaut i
fulyoung
womanwhol ovesyou.Don'tmakeherdoubt
herselfandtheloveyouhavef oreachot her
.send
yourfami l
ytoherf amil
yandaskf orherhandin
mar r
iage."
"Ihearyouluh.Thankyou.
"helooksatmet hen
takesmyhandandhol dsit
.Ipol
it
elypul
litback
andsmile.
"CanIgetyouanyt
hing?
."
"YeahIwasl
ooki
ngf
oryourhusband.
"
"She'
stal
kingt
ouMahI
..
."
Myhusbandcomesi nwithmahandhe'sholdi
ng
herhand.Helooksli
kehewascryi
ngcausehis
eyesarered.SbuandIwalkt
othem andIgotomy
husband.
"I
'
m goi
ngt
otakemaht
othedoct
or.We'
l
lbeback.
"
"Doyouwantmet
ocomewi
thyou?
."
"Idon'
twantanyonet
onot
icet
hatwear
egone.
Sbuwil
ldri
veus."
"Ok.Cal
lmeandt
ellmewhatt
hedoct
orsays.
"
Hegivesmeaki ssandIhugmaht ightandt
heyall
l
eave.GodIhopei t
'snot
hingbadandshe' snot
goingtodie.I
tcan'
tbeher.Iabouttowalkbackto
thekit
chenwhenIseeOwamipour ingsomethi
ng
onMah' s2li
tr
eTupperwarebott
lethatsheusual
ly
drinks.I
thaslemons,cucumbersandawholel otof
thi
ngs.Iwat chherpoural
lofwhatisi
nt hel
it
tl
e
bot t
leshehasinherhand.Sheshakesthebott
le
thenput si
tbackwhereitwasthensays.
"Di
ebit
ch.
"Theshewalksbackoutsi
de.
"It
ake
mah'
Sbott
leandopenit
.Ismelli
tthi
nki
ngIwi
llf
ind
acer
tai
nsmellbutt
her
e'snot
hing.
Hasthisbitchbeenpoi
sonmymot heri n-l
aw?.Is
shethereasonwhyshe'sbeenf eel
ingsi ckand
doesmahsuspectorknow? .Iam goi ngt oki
llthis
bit
chIsweart oGodIam! .Iwalkout sideandl ook
formybr ot
her.Simshasdecor atedthebackyar dso
beauti
fulyou'
dswearsomeonei sgoi ngt oget
marri
ed.Thesuni sshi
ningbr i
ghtandi t
'swarm and
beauti
fulbutinsi
deIj
ustwantt oscr eam.
"Bhutiscel
o?.
"Hefr
owns."Cooki
esandmi
lk?
."He
smil
est hel
ooksatmyf
aceandhissmil
e
di
sappears.
Iwalkbacktothehouseandhef
oll
owsme.Itake
thebott
leandgowithitt
omyhusbandsst
udy.He
closest
hedoor
"What
'swr
ongl
uh?
."
"It
hinkOwamii
spoi
soni
ngmah.
"
"what?."Iunlockthelaptopandgot othehouse
securi
tyfootage.Hewat chesmef astfor
wardit
unti
lOwamiappear s.Mybr ot
hercurseswhenshe
seeswhatowamidi d.
"Whatt
hehel
lman!
."
"Iknow.Ineedyout
ofi
ndsomeonewhowi l
ltest
thi
sthi
ngforusandseei
fshe'
sreal
lypoi
soni
ngher
ornot.
"
"Heyi
t'
sokaysi
s.Don'
tcr
y."Hehugsme.
"I
'
m goi
ngt
oki
llherscel
oIswearIam!
."
"Let
'sf
igur
ethi
soutf
ir
stt
henwewi
lldealwi
thher
."
"Mahsaysshe'
sdyi
ngscel
o.Shet
oldme.
..
"Ibur
st
i
ntot
ears.
"Don'
tcrysi
s.Ipromi
seyouwewilldealwithher
.I
needyoutogototheki
tchenandmaket hesame
cucumberwater
.DoyouhaveaTupperwar eli
ke
thi
s?.
"
"It
hinkIdo.
"
"Gobeforesheseesi
t'
smi
ssi
ng.Wedon'
twanther
tobesuspici
ous.
"
"Ok.
"
Wewal kout,heusesadi ff
erentdirecti
ont ol
eave
thehouseandIgot otheki t
chen.Iqui ckl
ymaket he
samebat chmahdi dthenlookf orthesame
Tupperwarebottl
eandl ucki
lyIfindit.Ipourher
concocti
onthenplaceitwher etheot heronewas.I
takeadeepbr eat
hthengot ot hebackyar d.
Thewit
chofLondonissit
ti
ngdownnothelpi
ngand
she'
sbusyonherphone.Iwal
kpastherandgoto
wheremysist
ersar
eat.
"Ievenf
orgotyou'
rest
il
lint
hehouse.
"si
mssays.
"Iwasbusywi
thsomet
hing.
"
"Ohyesweknow.Youhavechangedcl
othesand
thatcanonl
ymeanonet
hing.
"
"What
?."
"Umdavazo.
"theybot
hsayt
henwel
augh.
"ohplease.Everyt
hinglooksal
mostdoneandthe
foodiswarm.I'm worri
edaboutmydadthoughand
ourfatheri
n-l
aw.Whyar etheynother
ealr
eadyand
whereisziphoandhi sgir
lf
ri
end?.
"
"Wear
eher
e.Sor
rywear
elat
e."zi
phosays.
"Ziphoyouknowver
ywellt
hatuLi
ndowas
supposetobeher
eandhelpuscook.Shei
sgoi
ng
tobepartoft
hisf
amil
yri
ght?.
"
"Yebosi
slungiI
'
m sor
ryi
t'
sthat
..
."
"Yout wowerebusybeingcosywhileallofuswere
wor ki
ng.Li
ndoifyouwanttobepartofthisfami
ly
thenyoubetterst
artshowi
ngit
.Simsher eis
pregnantbutshewasbeenwor ki
ngsinceshewoke
upekuseniandwenayouwer ehavingyourbeauty
sleep.Leti
tbethelastt
imeyoudothat."
Theyalllookatmeshocked.Iknowt heyhavenever
seent
hi ssideofmeandr i
ghtnowIdon' tcar e.
Owamii smessi ngwithmyf amilythatI'mt ryingto
bri
ngtoget herandmakeasone.Zi phoandBonga
wil
lbl
amet hemselvesfort
her estoft hei
rlivesi f
somethinghappenst othei
rmot herwhi letheyar e
sti
llangr
yather.Shecannotdi
ebefor
etheyfor
give
her.Idon'
twantthem t
oli
vewitht
hatguil
t.
"Wearereal
lysor
rysi
sluh.Isweari
t'
sal
lmyf
aul
t.
"
zi
phosays.
"LindoandIwi llf
ini
shhere.Simsandlesegogo
andshowersowecanbegi n.Goodhere'
smydad
andourf at
herin-l
aw.OhmyGodIcan' tbel
ievedad
broughtUrsulaagain!
.Godasi fthi
sdaycan'tget
anywor se!
."Simsandlesegol eaveus.
"ar
eyouokaysi
skhanyo?
."
"I'
m notfinezipho.I'm notf
ineatal
l.Goandof f
er
yourdadandmi nesomet hi
ngtodri
nk."henods
thenleaves.Isighandcl osemyeyes.Isobadl y
wantt oscream, cur
seandcr ysoloud.Ikeep
checkingmyphonet oseeifmyhusbandhascal led
butnothing.Iwantt ocallhi
m butI'
m scared.Ri
ght
nowI '
mj ustprayingthatmymot herin-
lawisgoing
tobeokay.Shecan' tdi
e.
UMSHADO.
CHAPTER93.

LUNGI
.

Wef ini
shset ti
ngupt het ableandt hel
it
tl
edet ai
ls
thatwer elef
t.Ihavebeenavoi dingmydadsi ncehe
camei ncludingmyf at herin-l
aw.Iam somadat
them becausemyf atheri n-l
awhasn'thadtimef or
hiswi f
eeversi ncethequeenofLondoncame.I
wonderi fheevencar esaboutheratt hi
spoint.He
willhavear udeawakeni ngonceheknowst hatmah
i
ssi ckamndOwamii spoi soni
ngher.Theblack
widowandLondonqueenar eal
readysi
tti
ng
togetherandgossi pingaboutGodknowswhat .
Thekidsallcomeoutandt heysiti
ntheirseats
wheresimsandl esegohelpsthem.Theyl ookso
exci
ted.Sisnontoandmyot herhousekeeperand
thenanniescomeoutwi thbowlscontaini
ngf ood.I
walkbackt othehouseandIlookatsisnont oand
she'
snothappyatal l
.Mydadcl earl
ydoesn' t
deservethi
swomani fhekeepsdoingthistoher.
Maybei
t'
sti
mesi snont
ojustf
orgotaboutt
hem t
oo
havi
ngarel
ati
onshi
p.
"Luh?
."si
mscal
lsmyname.
"Hmmm?
."Il
ookather
.
"Wher
e'smahandyourhusband?
.'
"Theywentt
ogetsomet
hingt
oget
her
."
"Yourbr
othert
ooandsbu?
."Lesegoasks.
"Noher
ecei
vedacal
landhadt
oqui
ckl
yrushout
."
"Whenhavewestart
edlyi
ngtoeachotherluh?.
Wenknowsomethingiswrong.That
'swhymbuso
i
snother
eoryourbrother
.Ismahsick?.
"Iheavea
si
gh.
"Myhusbandtookhismothertothedoct
orwit
h
sbu.Iaskedmybrot
hert
odosomet hi
ngforme
becauseIhadt
obesureofit.
"theynod.
wewal koutandpl acet
heremai ni
ngfoodont he
tabl
e.Themancomeandt heytaketheirseats.
Simsdirectseveryonewheretoseat.Ther emaini
ng
seat
sar ethoseofmyhusbandandhi smom.Hi s
twobestfriendsandtheothertwovisit
orsof
Owami .Theheadofthetabl
eisr
eser
vedf
ormy
husband.Itol
dthem t
hatandnoonmewil
ldi
sput
e.
Thebackyarddooropensandt heycomeout .Mah
l
ooksal i
ttl
ebetterbutIfeel
thishardgri
ppi ngfear
i
nsideofmei talmostknocksmeof fmyf eet.He
pul
lsachairformahwhohasherTupper war e
bottl
e.Shesit
sdownt henputsthebott
lei nfrontof
her.myeyeslandonOwamiandshehast hiscold
evi
llookinhereyesandwhensheseesmest arri
ng
athershegetssur pr
ised.Myhusbandki ssesme
andsitsdownt oo.Istandupandt heyal
lgetsi lent.
"Iwouldliketothankeveryoneforcomingand
beingheresowecanal lhavelunchasaf amily.The
l
astfewmont hswehavebeent hroughsomuchas
afamilybutwi t
hGod'sgracewepul ledthroughand
madei t
.We. .
..
"Myphonepi ngs.Itakeitoutand
l
ookatt hemessageandi tfrom mybr otherandit
reads.
"It
'sadeadlypoi
sont hatyouputi
nf oodorwat
er.I
t
hasnotasteorcolourthat'
swhymaybembuso' s
mom wasn'taware.Itki
ll
syouslowlyunti
lyoudi
e
anditt
akesonlyaf ewweekst oki
llyou.
"Icl
osemy
eyesandsigh.Myeyeslandonmah,myhusband,
hisbr
other
sandtheirdadthenOwami
.
"I
'
m sor
ryf
ort
hatbutasIwassayi
ng.
..
"
"OhmyGodt heyarehere!
."Owamisaysstandi
ng
upandrunstothehouse.Thosewhodon'tknow
l
ookatherconfused.
"She'
sexpect
ingcompanyt hatshedidn'
ttel
lus
wascoming.I
nmyhouse. "Ishakemyhead.I '
m
aboutt
ogolookforherwhent hebackdooropens
andincometwowomenwhol ookli
keversi
onsof
Owami.Theyareski
nnyli
keherandwearf l
awless
beaut
if
ulmakeup.Theyarebeaut i
ful
.
"Ali
ce?
."Busanisaysandsherunstohi
m and
thr
owsherarmsar oundhi
m ki
ssinghi
swholeface.
"Uhm everyonethisismyni ece,Lumka'
smot her.
Asandaandt hatoverthereismyf ut
uredaught erin-
l
aw.Asandat hisismysont hatwastakenf rom
me...
."shesayspretendingtotearup.Irollmyeyes.
".
..
Hei smbuso.Busani'stwin.Thisi
sthef atherof
mychi l
drenqwabeandt hatismyt winsister
who..
..whoruinedmyl i
fe."
"Motherthi
sisnott
het
ime!
."Busanisayspushi
ng
awayAlicei
nanotsogent
leway.
"It'
snicetof
inallymeetyou.Ihavehear dsomuch
aboutyouandyourbr others.Mybr other'
scan'
t
stoptalki
ngaboutyou."saysandmyhusbandj ust
nods.Sheseemsal i
tt
lebitdisappointed."And
whatmustIcal lyou?
."shel ooksatMah."Just
auntyormyevi launt
?."
"Cal
lhert
hatandyouwi
llbeoutofmyhouse.
"
Theyl
ookatme.
"Whoar
eyou?
."
"Thepersonwhodidn'
tinvi
teyout
oherhousebut
welcomeandsitdown.
"
Sheshar
esalookwi
thowamiandAsanda.These
peopl
edon'
tknowme.
"Canyousi
tdown?
."
"Iwantt osi
tnexttomyman. "Ali
cesays.Busanii
s
sit
tingnexttobongawho'sfacingsims.Thenext
seatisformybr ot
herbuthe'snotbackyet.Ali
ce
takesthatseatandlesegoscoffsshaki
ngherhead.
"Canyouprayforusowamibef
orewebegi
n?.
"I
askher
.Shefrowns.
"Idon'
tpr
ay.
"Thoughtasmuch.
"Iwouldliketopray.
"Ilookatmydadandhe
shakeshisheadt ohisdate."Ohi
t'
sokayhoneyI
i
nsist.Everyonecl
oseyoureyes."
Theybowt
hei
rheadsandcl
oset
hei
reyesbutI
don'
t.
"Fatherlor
dt hankyouf ortoday.Thankyouf or
blessingmewi ththiswonder fulmanwhol ovesme
andt hankyouf orthef amilythatIwillcal
lmine
soon.Thankyouf orthef oodwear eabouttoeat.I
hopei tt
astesasgoodasi tlooksAmen. "Theysay
Amen.Ican' tbeli
evet hiswoman.Ihopedaddi dn'
t
proposetohercauseIswear ,thati
snevergoingto
happen.
"Pl
easecont
inuel
uh.
"
"Thankyout oever
yonef orbei
nghere,
eventhose
whowenti nvi
tedbutwelcome.Iwouldli
ketomy
husbandforbeingher
etodayandf orbeingt
he
perf
ecthusbandhe'sbeent ome.Thankyoutoall
mybr other sforl ookingoutf ort hisfami l
ywhenmy
husbandcoul dn' t.Allofyouknowt hatyouar emy
brother sandIl oveyouver ymuch..Thankyout o
mypar ent sin-l
awf orgi vingmet hismanIl oveso
verymuch.Il oveyouMahnoBabaandt hankyou
dadf orbei ngher et oo.Iloveyouandyouar ethe
bestdadever .Andofcour setomysi sters.Thank
youf orbei ngthepeopl eIknowIcanal wayscount
onanyt i
me.YouhavemybackandIwi l
lalways
haveyour s.Thankyousi snont of orbeingmor e
thananaunt ybutamot hertomeaswel landt oall
ouraunt ieswhohel pusi nourhome.Theyar e
familyt oo.OhIal mostf orgotourki ds.Wet hank
them f orbei ngt hej oysofourl ives, t
her easonwe
wakeupever yday.Busaniwewel comeyout ot he
familyt oowi t
ht heot heraddi t
ions. ..
."Owamigasps.
Simsgr ins.
"Yesterdaysomet hi
ngbeautif
ulhappenedt hatwas
astartforal
lofus.Whathappenedyest erdaywas
supposet obringpeaceamongstusand
for
givenessbutsomet imesthosethingstakelong
andwewon' tseetheresul
tsatthatexactti
me.I
sawandheardthingsthatmademegr owas
woman, amotherandawi fe.Il
ovethisfamil
yvery
muchandIknowyoul oveitli
keIdoandwewi l
lal
l
doanythi
ngtoprotectitf
rom harm oranyonewho
tr
iest
ocomebet weenus. "Mybrothersit
sdown.
"WhenIt houghtIwasaboutt olosemyhusbandI
sawhowshor tlifei s.Anythingoranyonecanbe
takenawayf rom youatanymoment .Whati fthat
happensandyouwer eangr yatthatper son.Wi ll
youbeabl etof or giveyourselfknowi ngt hat,that
persondi edbef or eyouhadachancet oforgive
them andyouar el eftwithregret?.Youdon' twantt o
l
ivewi ththatgui ltorr egretforther estofyourl ife.
Youst il
lhaveachancet of orgivesomeoneandask
forforgivenesst oo.Noonei sper fectinthiswor l
d.
Weal lmakemi stakesandwel earnf rom them.Tel l
theone'syoul ovehowmucht heymeant oyou
beforeit'stoolat e.Not hi
ngi nthisl i
feisguar anteed.
Ihopeasyoueatt hiswonder fulfoodpr epar edwi t
h
l
ove, youwi llt
hi nkaboutwhatIsai d.Thi sisn’tjust
anylunchbutal uncht hatissupposet obr i
ngus
togetherandnotl etthethingsoft hepastchange
usandmakeusdot
hingswewi
llr
egr
et.Youmay
eat
."
TheyclaphandsandIwal kt
omyki dsandbegi n
fi
ll
ingtheirpl
ates.Noonetalksandt heyare
focusedont hei
rfood.Owamil ookslikeshewants
tothrot
tlemeandIdon' tgi
veaf uck.Iwalkbackt o
thetablenexttomyhusbandandpl atehisfood.He
beginstoeat.
"Wowbabe.Whenyou'remot hert
oldmeyourtwi
n
br
otherl
ooksl
ikeyouIthoughtshewaspull
ingmy
l
egbutdamnbabe.He'sso..
..
"
"He'
samarri
edman,
who'swifei
ssi
tt
ingnextt
o
hi
m.Havesomemanner
s."Si
mssays.
"Iwasjustadmir
inghowhandsomet
heybot
h
l
ook."Al
icesays.
"Whoar
eyouagai
n?.
"lesegoasksher
.
"I'
m Ali
cefrom London.Busanii
smymanand
hopeful
lysoonIhopewi l
lalsobepar
toft
his
famil
y."
"WehBusanini
hambani
shel
anj
e!.
"Bongasays
andwel
augh.
"Al
icei
sperf
ectformyson.Shehasclassandshe
l
ooksbeaut
if
ul.
"thefourwi
tchesl
augh.
"Unl
ikewho?
."si
msasks.
"Someofyou.
"
"Mot
her
!.
"busanir
epr
imandsheragai
n.
"Everyti
meyouopenyourmouthOwami nonsense
comesout .
"Myf
atheri
n-l
awsays.OhkIdidn'
tsee
thatcoming.
"Don'tt
alktomel
iket
hatQwabe.Iam t
hemot
her
ofyourkids.
"
"Yout
ellmethatever
yti
mel
i
keIdon'
tknow.
"Mah
pat
sherhusband'
shand.
"Well
it'
snotmyf
aul
tthatIr
obbedofmyl
if
e!.
"Not
thi
sagain.
"Canweeatpl
ease.Theki
dscanhearuseven
thought
heyar
esit
ti
ngatanot
hert
able.
"Iaskthem.
"Iwasst
il
ltal
king!
."OwamisaysandIsmi
le.OhI
'
m
cl
osetol
osingmyshi twi
tht
hiswoman.
"andIsai
dlet
seat
!.
"Myhusbandl
ooksatmeand
fr
owns.Hepalmsmycheekandmakesmelookat
hi
m.
"Love?
."
"I
'
m sor
ry.I
'
mfi
ne.
"
"Huh!
."Owamisays.
"Soi sthi
sat hinghere?.
"Ali
ceasks."Likembuso's
wifeandyourgi rlf
ri
endsareall
..
..
big.Yes.That
's
therightwordbi g.
"hereyesmovef rom metomy
sist
ers.Sims,lesegoandIlookateachot herand
wel augh.
"BusaniIf
eelsor
ryf
oryou.I
tlooksli
keyouar
e
goingt
omar ryawomanwho'sgoingtobeevi
ll
ike
yourmother
."Si
mssays.
"Whatdi
dyousayaboutme?
."
"Shesaidyouareevilandweal
lcanseepastyour
bul
lshi
t!
."Lesegosays.Themenarej
ustl
ookingat
us.
"Howdar eyousaythataboutme!
.Iam hur
ti
ng
her
e!.Ihavej
ustf
oundmysonandt hemanIl ove
backandallofyouar et
reat
ingmel
ikeIdon'
t
bel
onginthisfamil
y!.Why!.
"
"WhenIfi
rstmetyouIthoughtyouwer
ethissweet
,
ki
ndheart
edandbeaufif
ulwoman.Itwasl
ikeIwas
seei
ngmymot heri
n-l
awinyoubutboywasI
wrong.
"
"Khanyowhat
'sgoi
ngon?
."Myf
atheri
nlawasks.
"Whatkhanyoi ssayi
ngbabais.Busani
'smotheri
s
apretender.Whenshe'
saroundcert
ainpeopl
eshe
act
sacer tainwayandwhenshe'sarounduswe
seetherealher.
"Simssays.
"Theyarel
yingQwabe!
.Youknowme.YouknowI
am nott
hatperson.
"
"Stoplyi
ngbecauseIam overt hi
sholething!
.
Promise,canyoual lt
akethekidstothehouseand
makesur etheydon'tcomeout .Nomat t
erwhat ,or
bett
eryettakethem toeatinthegamer oom. "She
nodsandt heyallgetup."Sisnontostay."
"Whyar
eyouattacki
ngbusani
'
smom.Thi
swoman
want
edherdeadandstol
eherson.
"
"Iwishshewouldhavestol
enbusanit
ooandnot
l
efthim behi
ndwit
hyou!.
"Theygaspinshock
"Love?!
."Igetupandwai
tfort
heki
dst
oal
lgeti
n
thehouse.
"Lungi
ledon'
tsayt
hat
!.
"Myf
atheral
mostyel
lsat
me.
"Youwit
ch!Iknewyouwerejustpr
etendi
ngtobe
thi
smissgoodytwoshoes!
.Youarejustl
ikesebe!
.
Youdon'
tdeservemyson!.
"
"Firstofallyoudon'
tknowme.Secondl yIdon't
pretend.Iknowwhot hef uckIam andIdon'tgivea
ratsasswhatyout hinkaboutme! .Iam l
ikesebe
youar eri
ghtaboutthat.Iam akindperson,I'
m not
afakel i
keyou!."
"What ?.Areyoual lgoingtolethertalktomel ike
that?.
"Bongai seat i
ngwi thsims.Sceloiswat ching
mepr oudly.Zipho, mydadandhi sdadar elooking
atmeconf used.Lesegoi ssippingherdrink.Ursula
andbusanil ookliket heyarescaredandsi snont o
i
sl ooki
ngatmepr oud.Myhusbandt houghandhi s
mom ar enot .Theot hertwoairheadslooklikethey
wantt
ojumpme.Idar
ethem.
"Don'ttal
ktomyauntl
iket
hat!.Sheisol
dert
han
youandshedeser
vessomer espect
!.
"shesays
standi
ngup!.
"Yousityouruninvi
tedassdowni
fyoudon'
twant
tobehurt!
."shehesit
antl
ysi
ts.
"Babywhati
swr
ong?
."
"Ever
ythi
ngi
swrongandit
'sal
lbecauseofthi
s
womaneversi
nceshecameint
oourl i
ves!
."
"she'
smyauntysi
sidon'
ttal
kbadabouther
.I'
ve
knownheral
lmyli
fe!
."Owamiwail
s.
"Shehat
esme!Shehat
esme!Theyal
lhat
eme!
."
"Whyareyoualll
ikethi
s!Doyoureal
lyhat
eher
thatmuchf
oryout oevensayt
hesewicked
thi
ngs?.
"Al
icesays.
"Iknowsomethi
ngi
swr
ong.Tal
ktome.
"my
husbandsays.
"Tellt
hem Owami!
.Tellt
hem whati
sther
eal
reasonyouareher
e!.
"
"Ohkl
ove,
let
sgoandt
alk.
"
"NO!
.Iwanthert
otel
lust
het
rut
h.Tal
kOwami
!.
"
"Luh,i
t'
sokay.Calm downsi
si.
"mymot heri
n-l
aw
saysandtear
sstream downmyf ace.
"Okt
hislooksseri
ous.Whatdi
dyoudotoher
.She
won'
tcr
yf ornoreason.
"MydadasksOwami.
"IswearIhavenoi
deawhatshe'
stalki
ngabout
.I
am her
esoIcanbeinmysonsl i
fe.
"
Thiswomanr eall
ydoesn'tknowme.Shewant sus
toplay?ThenI '
llshowherhowIpl ay.Iwalktomah
andt akeherbot t
le.Ipourt
heconcoctiononan
empt yglasst
henwal ktobusaniandputitinf
rontof
him.IlookatOwamiandshel ooksl
ikeshe'sabout
tofaint.
"Dr
inkbusani
."
"what
?."hesays.
"Dr
inkt
hist
hingnow!
."
"Mysondon'
tdr
inki
t.Whati
fshehaspoi
sedi
t!
."
"Whywoul
dIpoi
sonmyhusband'
sbr
other
?.I
di
dn'tcomeher
ewit
hthi
sbottl
esowhenwoul
dI
havehadti
metopoi
sonit
?."
"Wel
lmaybemysist
erdidcauseshealwaysdri
nki
t.
Whati
fshepor
edpoisoninther
ebecauseshe
want
stoki
llmysonsinceshefai
ledbef
ore?
."
"Mymom waswi t
hme.Wet ookthatpl
asti
cbottl
e
i
nt hekit
chenandcamewithither
e.Mahwhomade
thi
s?."myhusbandsaysl
ookingathersuspi
ciousl
y.
"Itwasme.Imadei tf
orherbecauseIf
oundher
abouttomakeitbutIt
oldherIwil
lmakeitf
orher
."
si
snont osays.
"Wellt
heyareworki
ngtogetherdon'
tyousee.
Busanidon'
tdr
inkit
.Thearetryi
ngtokil
lyou.
"
"Whatar eyouscaredofowami ?
."Mybr ot
herasks
her.Shestandsupabouttograbt hatgl
assbutI
pulloutmygunandpoi nti
tatbusanihead.Ali
ce
runsawayandAsandascr eam.Li ndoissoscaredI
thi
nkt hegi
rli
snevergoingtoforgetthi
sdayas
l
ongasshel i
ves.
"Khanyo?
!Pl
easemydaught
erdon'
tdot
his.
"BabaIknowwhatI '
m doi
ngandwi
thal
ldue
respectpl
easesi
tdown!.
"
"Love?
."
"Notnowmbuso.Busanidr i
nkthisconcocti
onnow
orelseIbl
owyourbrainsout!
."Isay.Al
icetakesout
hergunandpointsi
tatmeandAsandat akeshers
outtooandpoint
sitandpointsitonmyhusband.
Badmovegi r
lcauseyou'r
edeadnow.
"ISAIDDRINKITBUSANI
.I'
M NOTPLAYI
NGWI
TH
YOU."Ir
epeatmysel
f.
Idon'tknowhowbutmybr ot
herandsbuhavetheir
gunspoi nt
edatOwamiandAsanda.Bongat akes
thei
rgunsandsilent
lysit
sthem down.Myhusband
standsupandAlicetakesastepback.
"Stop!St
oporIswearIam goi ngtoshootyou!
."My
husbandlooksatherthenIseeaveryloudklap.
Notaslapbutal oudklaplandi
ngonherAlice'
s
faceandtakesthegunbr eaki
ngherhand.
"Nevereverpoi
ntagunatmeunl essyoupl
anto
useit
.BongacallFanel
eandhissonsandtel
lthem
tofl
yherebefor
ethedayends.Wehaveanur gent
familymat t
er.
"Hel ooksathistwinbrother
.Bonga
comesanddr agsAl i
cetositwit
hherf r
iendAsanda
andtheyar eterri
fi
ed.Mydad'sdat ehasbeensi l
ent
sinceshesawt hegun.Ilookatherandshe' spal
e.
Good! .Thi
swi l
lteachheralessont onotmesswi th
myf ami l
y.
"Dr
inki
tbusani
."Owamiscr
eams.
"No!No!No!Don'
tdrinki
t!
."Myfat
heri
n-l
awstands
upandwal kst
oher.Heroughl
ygrabsherand
busanist
andsup.
"Sitdownbr ounl
essyouwer einitwit
hher .
"My
husbandt ell
shim.Hel ooksathismotherthen
shakeshisheadandsi tsdown.DamnIf eelsor
ry
forher.Busanitakesthedrinkandgulpsitdown.
Owamiscr eamslikebusanihasjustdi
ed.
"Whatthehel
ldi
dyouputi
nther
eOwami
?!
"she
cr
ies.
"TalkorIblowhisbrai
nsoff
!.
"Busanil
ooksatme
andat earfal
lsdown.Damnthi
swomanf ordoi
ng
thi
stot hem!.
"Tal
kwoman!
."Thei
rdadsays.
"I.
..
it
..
.Ihaveki
ll
edmyson!
."Qwabest
andsst
il
l."I
t
haspoisoninsi
de.
"
"What ?Whatdi
dyoudoOwami ?.Wer
eyou
poisoningmywif
e."Myhusbandandhi
sbr
other
s
scoff.Qwabel
ooksatthem.
"Idi
dn'tdoitIswear!
.Isawluhpouri
ngsomet
hing
i
nthere!.
"Ibursti
ntofi
tsofgiggl
esandl
augh.
"Youbitch!
.Youstupi
dbitch!.Isawyoupouring
somethingi
nthereandIinstantlyknewwhatyou
weredoing!
.Mymot herhasbeensi ckeversi
nce
youcamet oSouthAfri
cabecauseyouhavebeen
poi
soningher!
."
"She'
slyi
ngQwabeIswear
!.
"
"Mybr otherandIsawyouandheconf i
rmedthati
t
waspoi son.Youhavebeenslowlykil
lingour
motherbecauseyouwant edrevengef orwhatshe
did!
.Areyouhappynow? ."Iaskher.Qwabepushes
herhardandgoest ohiswifebuthissonsblock
himfrom theirmot
her.Mymot heri
n-lawcoversher
faceandcr i
es.
"Getoutofmyway!
."Mybr
otherl
eavesandcomes
backwit
hcuffsandcuff
sthet
hreebi
tches.Why
i
sn'tt
heBlackwidowcuff
edwi
ththem?.
"No!
."zi
phosays.
"Iwi
llnott
ellyouagai
n.Gett
hef
uckoutofmy
way!
."
"Whenyousawyourl onglostlover,
youthrewour
motherawaylikeapieceofshit.Youcheatedonher
i
nfr
ontofusandwesai dnothing.Youfail
edto
pr
otectherl
ikehowyouhaveal waysdonebutno
more.Youwillnothurtheragain!.
"Bongasays.
"She'
smywifeandyouwon'
tkeepherawayf
rom
me!.
"qwabesays.
"She'syourwi f
ewheni tsuit
syou.Youcoul dn'
t
evenseet hatshewassi ck.Stayawayfrom our
mot her!
.Youwi l
lnotgointhehouseandmake
noisebaba.Wehaveki dsandwedon' twantto
scarethem!."Myhusbandsays.Bongat akeshis
mot herandtheywalkint hehouse.Qwabesi t
s
downdef eated.
"MbusoIam yourmother
!.Shewr
ongedmeand
yourbr
other
!.Shewant
edusdead!.
"Il
owermygun
onbusani
.
"Iwashappyt ofinall
yfindyouaf t
eral
ltheyearsof
searchi
ng.Ibeli
evedyouwhenyousai dyou
for
gaveher .I
twasj ustthethreeofuswhenyou
sai
dt hat
.Ithoughtyouwer eanamazingperson
andagr eatmother.Your eall
yfor
gaveherandt hat
whatshedi dwil
lstaywi thherandGodwi l
ljudge
herbutyouwer elyi
ng!.Whendi dyoustart
poisoni
ngherOwami ?."
"I.
..
I.
..
"Mbusopullsoutagunandpoint
sitonher
.
Shegoespale."I,
we...
fanel
eandI
..
..
thesameday
wenttothathouseinJoburg.
"OhmyGod!.Mydad
curses!
.
"Shetri
edt okil
lyouandf ai
led.Youcamebacknot
formebutf ormydadandhaveyourr evenge.Sebe
hasalwaysbeenawonder fulmot hertomeandshe
l
ovesmeuncondi t
ionall
y.Idon’ tknowi fIcansay
thesamef ormybr other.Idon'tthinkyoulovehi m
uncondit
ionall
y.Mywi feisr i
ght.Mymot hershould
havestol
enbot hofusandki ll
edyou! .
"Owamiwai ls.
Myhusbandi ssohur t
.IknowcauseIcanf eelthe
wayhe'sspeaking."Yout ri
edtohaveyourr evenge
andki l
lherandyouhavesucceeded.She' sdying
andt here'snothingwecando! .Youshoul dbe
happynowandcel ebrat
e.Whyar eyoucr ying
owami ?.Isitbecauseyoursondr ankthesame
poisonandhe' sgoi ngtodietoo?.Thisiswhatyou
want edr i
ght?.Togetyoursweetr evenge!Wellwas
i
twor t
hi t
? .I
tmustbecauseyourwi l
l,wil
lbedone
buthowar eyougoi ngtolookatyour sel
finthe
mirror,Livewi t
hyour sel
fknowi ngthatyoukill
edmy
brother!Yourownson? .
"
"I
'
m sor
ry.
..
.Iam sosor
ry.
..
Pleasef
orgi
veme!
."
"Aunt
ywhatdi
dyouanddaddo!
."Asandacr
ies.
"Takethem t
othebasementwhi
lewewaitfor
fanel
e!.
"Sbuandziphotaket
hem t
othebasement
.
"Whatabouther
?."Ipoi
ntatUr
sul
awi
thmygun.
"whatdi
dIdo?
."
"Yesher!.Thebl
ackwi dow.Yout hinkyoucan
comei nt
oourdad'sli
fe,pr
et endtolovehi
m sohe
canmar r
yyouandt henkillhim soyoucanhavehi
s
money? .
"Lesegosaysanddadl ooksather
shocked!.
"What
?Idon'
tdot
hat
!.Il
ovehi
m!.
"shei
sshaki
ng
"Whoabr i
kamadl amadoda.Weknowyouar ea
maneat erbutheresisi
yifullstop.Ifyouever !andI
meaneverl ookatourdad,cont acthim orevenget
nearhi m youwi l
lknowuslikehowt heset hr
eear e
goingt olearnwhatwedowi thtrait
orsandpeopl e
whot hinktheycanmesswi thus.Youwi l
lwalkout
ofhereandneversayawor dofwhathappened
heretoanyone.Notevent hatannoyi ngdaught erof
yours!.Wehaveeyesever ywher eandweknow
everyt
hi ngaboutyouandwewi llf
indyouandki l
l
yourwhol ef amil
yjustt
ryus.Nowl eave!."Shelooks
atdadt henusandatdadagai nwhol ooksli
kehe
doesn'taf uck.Shegetsupandl eavescr yi
ng.
"Theleastyoucandoisr
equestanUberforher
."
Sisnontosaystheget
sup.Dadstandsuptoo.
"Iam sodisappoi
ntedinhowbothmyf at
her
'st
reat
thewomant heyclai
mt ol
ove.
"Dadl ooksdown
thenhegoest oqwabe.Theyt
alkthenwal ki
nsi
de
thehouse.
"Zi
phor
equestanUberf
orherandmakesur
eshe
get
ssaf
ewher
evershe'
sgoi
ng.
"Henods.
Bongacomesbackandhel
ooksl
ikehewascr
ying.
Helooksl
ikeshi
t.
"Am Ir
eal
lygoi
ngt
odi
e?"busaniasksme.
Isitnextt
ohim andtakehi
shandi
nmi
ne.Iwi
pe
thetearsonhi
sf ace.
"Thi swasoneoft hehardestthingsIhaveever
done.Poi ntingagunonyouwasl ikeIwaspoi nti
ng
i
tatmyhusbandandIam sor rybutIhadt odoitso
yourmot hercanconf ess.Isawherbusani
poisoningt hatdrinkandIt ol
dmybr otherbecause
myhusbandhadl eft
.Het ookthebot t
letogeti t
testedandi thadpoi son.Theoneyoudr ankwas
anot heroneImadeexact l
yast hesameoneyour
mom poi sonedbutt hatonehadnot hingoni t
.You
arenotdyi ngbusaniandIam sosor ryforwhat
you'remot herhasputyout hrough.Youdon' t
deser vethattheyar epoisoni
ngher .Iwoul dhave
kil
ledyoumysel f.Youpr ovedtodaywher eyour
l
oyal ti
eslie.Withusyourf ami l
y.Wear eal lher
efor
you.Goandgetsomesl eep.It'
sbeenal ongday!."I
kisshi
scheekandpul
lhi
minforahugandhecr
ies
forawhil
ethenst
opsandget
sup.
"Wedon'thol
danythi
ngagainstyou.Youareour
bl
ood,br
otherandweloveyou."Bongasays.They
al
lhughimthewatchhim walkinthehouse.
"I
'l
lgomakesurehedoesn’tdoanyt
hingst
upi
d."
Bongasaysandrunsaf
terhim.
Myhusbandwalksuptome, pul
lsmeupandhugs
meti
ght.Icanf
eelhi
m breat
hingmein.Hi
sbodyi
s
t
enseandhishear
tisbeati
ngfast.
"Youscar
edmet
oday.Ihaveneverseenyoul
ike
thi
s."
"Wehaven'
tbeenprot
ect
ingourf
amil
y.That
'swhy
Owamiwasabletodothethi
ngswedi
d."
"Luhi
sri
ght
.Owamicouldhavepoisonedal
lofus
andwewoul
dn'
thaveknown."scel
osays.
"Ihat
eher
."Lesegosays.
"Shet
houghtshewasgoi
ngtogetawaywit
hitbut
shedi
dn'
t.I
sMahreall
ydyi
ng?.
"Myhusbandsighs.
"Theydi
dsomet
estandt
ookherbl
ood.Wewi
ll
heartomor
rowhowbadthepoi
soni
sbutt
heygave
hersomepil
lst
ofl
ushoutsomeofi
t.
"
"Li
ndo?
."shehasbeent
ooqui
et,
wit
hherheadon
zi
phowhenhecameback.
"Si
sluh?
."
"Doyoust
il
lwantt
obepar
toft
hisf
ami
ly?
."
"Ido.Ihavenootherf
amilybutt
hisone.I
'
m not
goi
nganywhere."Ismi
le.
"That
'
swhatwewant
edt
ohear
."si
mssay.
"Whatar
egoi
ngt
odowi
thOwami
?."zi
phoasks.
"Wekil
lher
."It
ellt
hem andt
heyal
lgetqui
etand
l
ookatme.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER94

MBUSO.
Ihaveseenmywi f
eangr y,hurtandcr ying.When
l
uhi ssadshedoesn' tt
alk.Shecl i
ngst omel i
kea
chil
dwhenwear esleepingandgoest ot he
bathroom tocr ysoIwon' tseeorhearher .She
knowst hatIknowherl i
ket hebackofmyhandand
Ialwaysknowwhenshe' snotokay.Ihavebeen
watchinghersi ncewecamebackf rom t hedoctor
andIcoul dtellthatsomet hingwaseat i
ngherup
butIwasn' tpreparedf orwhatIhear d.Ihavebeen
sayingthiswhol esituationi sfuckedupbutnowi t
's
evenwor set hananyofusi magi ned.
Seeingmywi f
epul li
ngt hatgunoutofherbr aand
pointi
ngitonmybr ot herwassur pri
singandal so
scary.Iwasscar edf orherbecauseIdi dn'tknowi f
shewasgoi ngt odoi tbutdeepdownIknewshe
wasn'tgoingtodoi t
.Iwassot urnedonwi thher ,
I
gothardwat chinghert alki
ngandhol di ngt hatgun.
Shemademewantt obendherovert het ableand
fuckheratthatmomentbutal lthoset hought s
cameoutwhent hatgi r
lpoint
edagunonme.If eel
sorryformybr otherthoughbecausehe' stheone
whogoi ngtobet hemosthur toutofever yone.
"Whatar
ewegoi
ngt
oOwami
?."myl
it
tl
ebr
other
asks.
"Wekillher.
"mywi fesayswithoutbat
ingher
beauti
fuleyel
ashes.Everyonegetsqui
etandlooks
atherthenme.
"Iwilldeci
dewhathappenstoher.She'smymother
.
Letsgot omyof f
icel
ove.
"Icanfeelherbodygoi
ng
tense.West ar
eateachotherunt
ilshenods.
SheturnsandIfoll
owherf r
om behindwatchi
ngher
beauti
fulhi
psandr oundassthatshewantsmet o
fuckswayingfr
om sidetoside.Sheknowsmyeyes
areonherasscauseshet urnsandlooksatme.
Thisdressissoli
ghtandI'
m goingtoripi
toffher.
Sheopenst hedoorandwegeti n.Icl
osei
tandl ock
i
tafter
.
"CanIsaysomet
hing?
."
"Whendidyoustartaskingmeifyoucantal
k?.
"
Shegoesqui
et."Talklove.
"Iwalkcl
osert
oherand
herbr
eat
hingchanges.
"Ar
eyouangr
yatme?
."
"Nol
ove.Whywoul
dIbeangr
yatyoumyl
ove?
."
"BecauseIsaidwehavetokil
lyourmother?.
"Iki
ss
herpinkpout
ylipst
hatshehasbeenbiti
ng
fur
iousl
y.Iwanttodothat
.Imoveeverythi
ngoff
mydeskandherpupi l
sdil
ate.
"Tur
nar oundandbendover
."shedoeswit
hout
hesi
tat
ing.Il
if
tupherdr
essandI'm gr
eet
edmyher
l
ovel
yass.
Ikneelandki
ssthoseglobes,pul
lhert
hongdown
andshestepsoutofit
.Ipickitupandinhal
eit
.
Damnshesmel l
samazi ng.Iputi
tonmypocket .
"Moveyourl
egsapar
t.
"
"Don'tyouwanttogotothegym andletsome
steam off
?."Imoveherdressf
urt
heruponher
back.
"No.Thi si
swhatIneedt oletsomest eam off
.I
wantedt ofuckrightther
ewhenyoupul ledoutthat
gunandpoi ntitatmybr other.Youwer esosexy.
Wherei sit
?."Shef i
shesitfr
om herbreaststhen
put
si tonthet able.
"Wasi tloaded?
."Sheshakesherhead.Goodgirl
."
Neverputagunonmyt wins.iwillbutyouagart
er
thatholdsagunonyourt hi
ghs."shenodsagain.
Itakeoffmygolfshi
rt,
unbucklemychinopants,
theydropdownandmydi ckspringsf
ree.Ir
ubit
betweenherasscheeksandshemoans.Shecan
scream asmuchasshel i
kesandwantstobecause
noonei sgoi
ngtohearher.
Iputmyf i
ngeronherpussyandshei swetbutnot
thewayIwant .Il aymychestonher ,wrapmy
fi
ngersaroundhert hroatandthenplungemy
tonguedeepi nherandhert onguemeet swit
hmi ne.
IkissherwhileIseparateherlegsmor eandplay
withhercli
t.Shemoansandpushesherassbackat
me.Themor eIkissherandpl aywit
hherhardbud
i
st hemoresheget swet.Sheisreadynow.
"Love?
."Isaybet
weenki
sses
"Hmmmm "hereyesar
ecl
osed.Ipul
lherass
cheeksapar
t.
"Il
oveyou.
"
"I
..
..
."It
hrusti
nfastandhar
d.Shegr
abst
hedesk
andholdsherbreath."I
..
..
"Ipul
loutthethr
ustback
i
nagainrougherthisti
meandshemoansandher
pussycont
ractsaroundmydi ckFuck!.
Shear chesherback, Igrabherwai stpullitback
againtomet henholdthosecheeks, separ atethem
andf ucktheshitoutofher .Idon'
tgivehert imet o
catchherbr eathcausemypacei squi ck,She
moanscal lsmyname, throwsherbackandher
vaginamuscl essqueezemydi ck.Fuckshi tisso
fuckengood.Herpussyhotl i
keanoven, slippery
l
ikeawat erslideandt i
ghtlikeafist.
"Ohfuuuuckkkbaby!
,Youf
eelsof
uckenamazi
ng!
."
shemoans.
Ipullherlegsshutt oget
herwi t
hmydi cksti
lli
nsi
de
ofher, pul
lapartthosemor ethoseasscheeks,
changemy[ aceandbegi ntoitherg-spot.She
screamsandcal l
smyname.Ihi titoverandover
again,herlegsshake.Iputmyhandonher
pressingitmor esoshewon' tmove.Herpussyi sso
fuckenhotmydi ckisbeggingmet oreleasebutI'
m
notready.Ikeephi tti
ngherg-spot,herlegsshake
andshescr eamst henIfeelasquirtofliqui
d
comingout.Shesqui
rt
s,Ikeephi
tt
ingherg-
spot
unt
ilherl
egsfailt
ohol
dher .
Ipullout,tur nherar oundandmywi feishigh.Ikiss
herdeepl yr ubbi nghercl i
tagainandherbodyget s
l
ight.Istopr ubbi ngher,sheopenshereyesand
l
ooksatme.It akeast epbackal it
tle,grabher
dressthent eari tapartandi tf
all
sdown.She
shakesherheadandf ightsthesmi lecur vi
ngher
face.Itakeof fherbr a,walkust othecouchandsi t
heronmyl ap.Shebal ancesher self,grabsmydi ck
andsheat hesher sel
fwi t
hi t
.Icanf eelherpussy
contracti
ng, sti
llhungryf ormydi ck.
"Ohmygod!"shesays.
Herboobsar eonmyf ace.Iwatchherasshe
bouncesont opofme, handsonthecouch,head
thrownbackandt hosel i
pssandwichedbetween
herteeth.Ipal
m herboobsandsuckl eonthose
nipples.Shebouncesupanddown, squeezi
ngher
pussyandIknowt hatshewantsmet ocum.
"Love?"Shemoans."Isai
dIl
oveyou.
"
"I
..
.Love.
..
YouMbuso.
"Ismi
l
e.Wear
ebot
hso
sweat
yli
kewe'
vebeenr
unni
ngamar
athon.
"Whatdoyouwantmyl
ove.
..
..
Tel
lme.
"
"I.
...
Oh.
..
"Igrabherwaistandcont
rolher
movement .Shecur
ses.Herpubichai
rrubsonmy
ski
nsof uckengood,i
tmakesmegetmor ehar
der
."
Tellmebaby."
"Oooohhh..
..
.Ngi
chamele.
..
.Pl
ease.
"Ohfuck!
.My
bal
lsgett
ightli
ketheyhear
dherplease.
"I'
m notreadyl
ove.
"Fuckme.Mydi
dshehavet
o
saythat?
.
"Pl
easebaby.
..
Ngi
chamel
e!.
..
.Ngi
yakucel
a!.
"
"Fuuuuuuuck!
."Shegr
absmyheadthenforcesher
tonguei
nmef ight
ingf
ordomi
nance.Ichuckl
e
i
nside.
Iputmyhandbet weenherasscheeksandf i
ndher
ti
ghtri
ng.Sheissof uckenwet.Thesoundofskin
smackingagainstskincanbeheard.Irubitand
herpacebecomesf ast.FuckI
'
m notgoingtolast.I
conti
nuetorubitandhermoansandcur sesfi
llmy
eyesandthewholer oom.
Mydickistel
li
ngmet hatiti
scumingwhetherI
wanttoornot.I
tdoesn'tgi
veafuckanymore.Ir
ub
herti
ghtsomemor ethengentl
yforcemythumb
i
nsideandfuckiti
sdamnhoti nsi
de!.Shecur
ses!
.
"Yousti
llwantmetofuckyoui
ntheass!
."Ipush
mydickamdt humbinhersomemore.
"Yes!Yes!Fuckme!Nngi
chamel
eMBUSO!I
'
m
Coming!"Shescreams.
"Aaaaaah!Fuck!."Iwrapmyar msar oundher ,
holdingherti
ghttomychestandt hrustinfast,
har
d
andl ong.Mydickswel l
shar dandt henIf eelmy
seedcomi ngoutandshoot sst raighttoherwomb.I
groanl oudandthrustunti
lthere'snot hinglefti
nme.
Isitheavil
yonthecouchwi t
hluhonmyar ms.
W si
tinsil
enceandIcanfeelherbodygoi
ngl
ight
er
andli
ghter
.Shewantstonap.
"Love?
."
"Hmmm.
..
..
"Ichuckl
e.
"Don'
tsl
eep.Wehavet
otal
k."Sheopenshereyes."
Let
sgofreshenup.
"
"Yout
oremydr
ess.Ican'
twal
koutofher
enaked.
"
"Noonewi llseeusandeveni ftheydoi
t'
sf i
ne.
Thisisourhouseandt heywon' tcomeont hi
sside
ofthehouse.Wearmyt -shi
rt.
"Shemumbl es
somethingthenget sup.Ispankherassandshe
giggl
es.Shet akeshertorndressandwipeshersel
f.
Shecomesandwi pesmet oo.
"Ihavetocomebackandcl
eanher
e."wecl
ean
aft
eroursel
vesever
yti
meshesqui
rt
sandwhenwe
makeloveandfuck.
"You'lldothatwhenwearedonetal
king.Noone
willcomei nsi
de.
"Sheputsonmyshirtanditst
ops
j
ustbel ongherass.Sheshoul
dwalkaroundmor e
dressedlikethi
s.Ipi
ckupmychinosandwear
them.
"Ar
eyour
eady?
."
"Iam.Ar
eyou?
."Shewant
stol
augh.
"OhloveI'
m goi
ngtoleaveyoubehi
nd."Iopent
he
door
,peektoseeift
here'
sanyonearoundthenl
ook
atmywife."Youbet
terrunnow."
Shespri
ntsoutrunni
ngtoourbedroom andIjust
l
augh.Icl
osethedoorandwalktoours.Sisnonto
comesoutofoneoftheguestsbedroomsholdinga
l
aundrybasketj
ustasluhdi
sappearsfr
om acor ner
andshefrownslooki
ngatme.
"Hhayisi
snontocloseyourmout
h."Ipul
lherl
eg.
Sheshakesherhead.
"Ican'
twit
hyout wo."shesayst hr
owingashi rton
me."Coveryoursel
fman.Ther eare..
.hhaygugu
whatarestandi
ngtherefor?.
"Iturnandseegugu
oneofthenanniesandhermout hhangsopen
l
ookingatme.Iquicklyweartheshirtsisnonto
gaveme.Iraisemyeyebr owatguguwho' ssti
ll
l
ookingatme.Luhisgoi ngtokil
lme.Ther ul
eisno
walki
ngaroundinthehousenakedorhal fnaked.
"Hheywenagugu,youwanttogetf
ir
ed?!
."si
s
nont
oshoutsatherandsheseemstoremember
whereshei
sbecauseshetur
nsandquicklyl
eaves.
"I
'
m sor
rysi
snont
o."
"Hhaynawembusoman!
."Il
aughandwal
kaway.
Igeti
nourbedr
oom andl
uhi
sint
heshower
.Af
ter
anot
herr
oundint
her
e,dr
essedandsmell
ingf
resh.
Wearesi
tti
ngont
hecouchfaci
ngeachot
her.
"I'
m hungr
ybaby.Whatdi
dyouwantust
otal
k
about.
"
"Youl
ove.
"
"what
?Whatdi
dIdo?
"she'
ssur
pri
sed.
"Whatdidyoumeanwhenyousai
d'wehavet
oki
ll
her
?."sheshi
ft
s.
"Imeantt
hatshebet
rayedus.That
'swhyIsai
d
that
."
"Whoi
sshe?
."
"She'
syourmot
her
."
"Youwanttokil
lmymot herl
ove?.
"shekeeps
quiet
."Youwanttheper
sonthatbr
oughtmeinto
thi
swor l
ddead?.Mymother?ThereasonIam her
e
wit
hyounow? ."
"Shebet
rayedusandIthoughtt
hati
tiswhatyou
wouldwant.
"Ishakemyheadandchuckl
e.
"Doyouhearyour
sel
flove?
.Yout
houghtIwoul
d
wanttokil
lmybi r
thmotherbecauseshewantsto
ki
llhersi
sterwhotri
edt
oki l
lherandmybrother
fi
rst?
."Shelooksdown.
"Heydon'tl
ookdown.Lookatme,I
'
m her
e.When
thosewordscameoutofyourmout
hdidyouthi
nk'
whatam Isayi
ng?.
'l
ove.Di
dyouthi
nkhowthose
wordswouldmakemef eel
?."
"NoIdi
dn'
tthi
nk.
"Iknowshedi
dn'
t.
"Areyoukil
lernowsthandwasam? ."sheshakes
herheadno."Whenyousai dweki l
lher,
youmeant
youandwhom? .You'
rebr
other
?."sheshakesher
head.
"Sonowyoudeci dewhol
ivesandwhodi
es?
."she
shakesherheadnoagai
n.
"Awusakwaziukukhul
umamanj
e?.
"
"Ngyakwazi
."
"Khul
umake!
."
"IwashurtandangrywhenIsawherpouri
ngt
hat
poi
son.Iam tr
yingt
oprot
ectmyfamil
y."
"Sot
hej
obofpr
otect
ingt
hisf
ami
lyi
syour
snow?
."
shekeepssi
lent
."Whoam It
oyouandt
othi
s
fami
ly?.
"
"Youar
etheheadoft
hisf
ami
ly.Myhusband.
"
"Whycoul
dn'tyouwai
tformetocomebackthen
tel
lmewhatyousawmybi r
thmotherdoi
ng?
."
"Idi
dn'tknowwhenyouwi l
lbebackandIwas
worr
iedaboutthebothofyou.Iwasangr
yandI
deci
dedt oaskformybrot
hertohel
p."
"Youdeci dednott owaitformeanddot hingsyour
ownway.Youdeci dedtoletyourbrotherseewhat
mybi rt
hmot herdid.YoudecidedthatIhadt ofi
nd
outwhatwasgoi ngoni nmyownhomei nfrontof
everyoneelsebef oreyouletmeknowl i
keyour
husband.Youar enowt heonemaki ngdecisionsof
thi
sf amilybecausemygr eatgrandmothert oldyou,
youar etheMat ri
archofthisfamily.Youdomi nate
i
nt hisfamily.Youheadandr ul
eallofusi ncluding
meyourhusband? ."
"Nomyhusbandi twasnevermyintent
iontomake
youfeell
ikeyouar
enottherul
erofthi
sfamily.You
areandalwayswil
lbet
heruleroft
hisfamil
y.Iwas
j
usttryi
ngt
ohel
pyoucauseIcoul
dseet
hat
ever
ythi
ngwasheavyonyou.
"
"Whywoul dIfailt
ocomeandconf i
deinyouwher e
Iam fai
li
ngandwhenever yt
hingi
stoomuchf orme
tohandlelove?
.Wast hereeverati
mesi nceyou
metmewher eIcouldn'
thandleanyt
hing?."
"No.
"
"Youmadei tasifIhavenocontrolovermyfamil
y.
Ihavenoi deawhati sgoingon.Hadyoucomet o
mef i
rstandt ol
dmewhatyousaw, Thi
ngscoul
d
havebeenhandl edallotbet
ter
."
"Ir
eal
iset
hatnow.
"
"Luhyoupointedagunonmybr ot
hershead.You
don'
tknowhowhewoul dhavereact
ed.Hemi ght
nothaver
eactedoutofrespectf
oryouandme.Di d
youthi
nkaboutthat
?."
"Idi
dn't.
"shesni
ffs."Wipet
hoset ear
s."shedoes
andlooksatme."youdon'treal
isethatyouput
yoursel
finhar
msway.Di dyouhonest l
ythinkt
hat
youcanoverpoweramanwho' sasbigalmostli
ke
yourhusband?.
"Ididn'
t.
"Itr
iedtotal
ktoyou,tocomedownsowecant alk
andtellmewhat'swrongbutyoudidn'
twanttohear
noneofthat.Yousaid'notnowmbuso.'Ngumfana
oj
olanayemi na?.(am Iyourboyf
ri
end?)"
"I
'
m sor
ry.Idi
dn'
tmeant
odi
srespectyou.
"
"Howdoyout hinkbusaniwoul dhavef el
tifhe
heardyousay, youwanthi smot herdead?.Didyou
thi
nkaboutmyhal fsisteratall
?Howi twil
laff
ect
them.Didyout hinkhewoul df orgiveyouandme
knowingthatweki ll
edhi smot her?.Theonlymot her
theyhaveeverknown? .Didyout hinkabouthowam
Igoingtolookatmybr otherever ydayknowingthat
mywi feki
lledher?."she'sholdinghertearsthatare
threat
eni
ngt ofall.
"Yousawherpoi soningmymot her'
sbottl
eandyou
gotangr yandwant edrevengeonher .Iknowwe
don'tknowmybi rthmot herthatwellbuthaveyou
seenhowanger ,
hat r
edandr evengemadeherdo?"
shenods."I tal
mostmadeherki llherownson.The
revengeshesodesper atel
ywants.Didyounotsee
thatrevengealmostgotmeki l
ledandmademe
l
eaveyouandmychi ldren?.Doyouwantt obelike
t
hem t
oo?
."
Shebur stsi
nt otears,wal
kstomeandkneel sdown.
Shelaysherheadonmyl apcri
esandkeeps
apologizing.Isoot hherbackshushi
ngher.She
mightt hinkthatt heyarej
ustwordsbutspeaking
somet hinglikethatcanangertheancestor
sand
causepr obl
emsbet weenusandpourfamily.Ipul
l
herupandsi theronmyl ap.
"Youareamot herlove.Whatwoul dyoudoi f
someoneyout rusteddidt hesamet hingt oyou
sebedidtoowami .IknowwhatIwoul ddo.Iwoul d
wantthatpersondeadt oot hedayIf i
ndhi m.You
aretheonewhowast el
lingmeever ythingfanele
saidaft
ersebest oleme.Youwer ecryinginmy
chestandsaidyoucoul dn'
timagewhati twasl i
ke
forherorwhatitwoul dbel i
keifsomeonest ol
eour
kids.
"Shehidesherf aceonmyneckandcont inues
tocry.
"Haveyoul ostyourf
ait
hinmet hatIcan'
tpr
otect
myf amil
y?.Haveyoulostrespectf
ormebecauseI
am nolongerthathar
dcoldmbusoyouhat e?.
"
"No.
..
never
."
"Youknowt hisverywellthatIam alwaysast ep
aheadf rom anyone.Iknowwhatgoesi nmyhome
andmyf amilyluh.Imightnottellyoueverythingat
thattimebutyoubeabl etotrustme, wai
tforme
andl etmebeart hatburden.Notyoumywi f
e.I
don'twantanyt hi
ngdar kthatwillt
ouchthis
beaut i
fulandli
ghtsoul.Idon'twantdarknesst o
tai
ntyoul uhcauseonei tdoes.There'
snot urning
back."shenods.
"DoyourememberwhatyousaidtomelikeIdon'
t
knowifi
twasadaybeforeourweddi
ngor
somethi
ng?.
"shel
ooksatme.withherr
ed,puff
y
eyesandpoutymout
h.Iki
ssher.
"Yousai dt omethatIshoul
dn'tinvol
veyourfami
ly
i
never ythingwedo.YousaidImustst optalki
ngt
o
them aboutwhatgoesoni nourf amil
yunlesswe
absol
ut elyhavet
o.Doyoust i
llremember?"
"Ido.
"
"GoodbecausenowIam sayi
ngtell
ingyouthe
samethi
ng.Youwil
ltal
ktome,ifyoucan'tmy
br
other
sareher
eandthel
astr
esul
twi
llbeyour
br
other
.Si
yezwana?
."
"Yebongiyezwamyeniwami
.(Iunder
standmy
husband.
)"
"Never,everi
nyourlif
emywi f
epointagunatany
ofmybr other
sunlesstheymeanyouhar m andour
ki
dsthenyoucanusei tshootthem i
fIam nott
her
e
andifyourbrotheri
snottheretohelpdoyou
underst
and."
"Idomyhusband.
"Iwi
pehert
ear
s.
"Whoar
eyou?
."Iaskher
.Shef
rownsf
ir
st.
"Yourwif
e.Themotherofyourchi
ldr
en.
"shesays
soproudl
yIsmil
e.
"Who'
smywi
fe?
"
"Lungi
leGumede.
"That
'smyf
uckenwi
fe.
"Yes.YouareLungileGumede.NotLungil
eNgcobo.
NotLungil
eZikalal
a.Youar eaGumede.
Mawuphahlayoucal ltheGumedeclannames.
That'
swhoyouar e.La!KukwaGumede.Everyt
hing
wedo, wedoittheywayourf or
efat
hershavebeen
doi
ng.UzabaiMatr
iachl
ekaZi
kal
alanother
e!.
Uyangi
zwaangit
h?.
"
"YeboMnguni .Iwon'teverdoitagai
n.Iam so
sorr
yfordisr
espectingyourdad,mydadandyou.I
knowbettert
hant hat.
"Ikissherfor
ehead.
"Youwer ehurtandangry.Youwant edt ofi
ghtfor
usandIcan'tfaultyouforthat.Youforgotthatyour
husbandishere.He'stheonewhomusthandl eall
ofthi
s.Iam soproudofyouf orprot
ectingyour
famil
y.Iwil
lhandlethiswholet hi
ngfrom nowon
okay.Youhavebeent hroughal l
otandIdon' twant
youtobestressedandwor ried."
"Howarewenotgoi
ngt ogetwor
ri
edandstr
essed
whenyouandIknowthatsomeonei
sgoingt
o
di
e?.
"
"Iknowit'
shardlovebuti
fthewor disal
readyout
andithasbeenwr i
tt
endownt henwhoarewet o
changethat
?.Wehavet oacceptitandmakepeace
wit
hit.Wewillcr
yandmour nthem.Okay? .
"
"Okay,
Iam j
ustscar
ed.
"
"Letmewor
ryokay.What
everhappensIneedyou
toaccepti
twi
thyourheartcauseIwon'tl
oseyou
l
uh.Youhavecri
edforlongandnowi t
'senough.I
don'
twanttoseeyoueverinpain.
"
"Il
oveyoumyhusband.Youar
eever
ythi
ngt
ome.
"
"Iam?
."Shel
aughs.
"That
'smoreli
keit
.Iwantt
oseeyoubeami
ngwi
th
happi
ness.Happyandl
oved.
"
"Whyi
sUmshadot
hishar
dbaby?
."sheasksme
"Wedidn'
tknowwhatwewer egetti
ngoursel
ves
i
ntowhenwegotmar r
iedbutIwouldn'
tchangea
thi
ng.Tohavethismomentrightnowwithyoulove?
Iwoulddoitoverandoveragai
n."
"Iwoul
dn'
tchangeat
hingt
oo.
"
"Il
oveyouuyezwa.Ungowamiwena.
"shebl
ushes.
"Uyi
ndodayam engi
yit
handayo.Ubabawezingane
zami
.(Youar emyman, TheoneIlove.Thef
ather
ofmychil
dren.)"
"Damnri
ghtIam.
"Iki
ssherl
ongandhar
dandIget
har
dagai
n.
"Theyar
ewai
ti
ngf
oryou.Go.
"shegi
ggl
es.
"Iknowl
ove.Putyourgunbacki
nthesaf
eand
makesur
eit'
slocked.
"
"Iwil
l.
"Ikissheragai
ntheweleaveourbedroom
andFanele'svoi
ceist
hefir
stt
hingIhear.He'
s
shout
inginmyhouse? .Mywif
e'sfacechanges.
"I'
l
ldealwi
thhi
m."Thi
sfuckenuncl
eisonmyl
ast
nerve.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER95.

MBUSO.

WhenIwal kintheki
tchenmyuncleisonhi sfeet
makingnoise.Shout
inganddemandi ngthatIl
et
hersist
ergo.Hissonsaretryi
ngtocalm downbut
hewon'thavenoneoft hat
.Ihaveneverever
shoutedli
kethi
sinmyhouseever .Iam behindhi
m
andhedoesn'
treal
iset
hatIam wat
chi
nghi
m.
"Wher
eist
hatsonofabi
tch!
."
"Who'sasonofabi
tchuncl
e?.
"Het
urns."Whyar
e
youshout
ingi
nmyhouse?."
"Whatt
hef
uckdi
dyoudot
omysi
steryoupi
eceof
tr
..
..
"
Ipunchhim ont
henoseandIhearitbreaki
ng.
Bloodspi
ll
soutandhescreams.Igrabhim byhi
s
shir
tanddraghi
m outofmyhouse.Ithrowhim out
andcloset
hedoor.
"Whowant
stof
oll
owhi
m?.
"Theykeepqui
et.
"What'
sgoi
ngonbr
other
?.Wher
eismysi
sterand
aunt
y?.
"
"Ar eyouheretoli
stentowhyIt ol
dyout ocome
hereorareyout omakenoi seinmyhousel i
keyour
father?I
fthati
sther easonIsuggestyoul i
venow
becauseIwi l
lnothaveanyone.Letal oneanother
mancomei ntomyhomewher emyki dsareand
startscr
eaming.Whi chisit
?."Iaskthem
"Wear
enother
etof
ight
.Wej
ustwantt
oknowwhy
wear
eher
e."
"Good.Youwi
llsoonf
indout
.Ar
eyouhungr
y?.
"
Theynod.
"Gugu?
."
"Yessi
r.
"
"Makethem food.Guysgototheli
vingroom.She
wil
lbri
ngitt
here."gugunods."Ar
en'tyoual
lgoi
ng
tochecki
fyourdadi sokay?
."
"Heisahotheadandhedeser
vedi
t.
"Theguysgo
tot
heli
vingr
oom.
"Fanel
eistoomuch.Idon'
tgethowhi
shead
works.
"scel
osays.
"Byt
het
imeI
'
m donewi
thhi
m.He'
l
lbesor
ry.
"
ThedooropensandFanel
ewal
ksi
nlooki
ngl
ike
shi
t.
"Lookatwhatyoudi
dtome.Who'
schi
ldar
eyou?
."
"Youcomei nmyhouse.Youstandupandbegi
nt o
shoutli
keamadman.Whatt hefuckiswr
ongwith
you?!
."Hekeepsqui
et."Don'
tyouknowyoufucken
respectanot
herman'
shouse?
!.HaveIeverbeeni
n
yourhouseanddisr
espect
edi
t?.
"
"No.
"
"Sowhatgaveyout hef uckenrighttocomei nmy
homeanddoasyoupl ease?!
.Youf ir
stlybeganby
disrespecti
ngmywi fe.Youcalledheral lsort
sof
namesandIkeptqui etbutyoust i
llcontinuedand
againIkeotqui et
.Nowyoucomei nmyhomeand
youdot hi
s?.Inmyhouse? .Ucabangaukut hi
kuhlalabanilanawena? .Izi
ngulube?(Whodoyou
thinkstayshere?.Pi
gs? .
)Yabonawenaungi j
wayela
amasi mba!."Isaypointi
ngathisf ace."Takethis
damnhatof fmyhouse. "Isl
apitof fhisheadandi t
fall
s.
"Youwillgot
othelivingroom,si
tyourassdown
andeat.Youwil
lkeept hatbi
gmouthofyoursshut
."
Helooksatmethenl eaves.
Myphoner
ings.Il
ookati
tandi
t'
sfr
ank.
"Br
o?.
"
"Weareonourway.Wher
edoyouwantmet
otake
them?
."
Ihaven'
ttol
dluhaboutt
hisandIcan'
tbr
ingt
hem
herenow.
"Sbu?I
sanyonei
nyourhouse?
."
"Nobro.
"Ineedyout
ogot oyourhouse.Fr
anki
s
onhi
swayt her
e.Iwi
llsendyouamessageandtel
l
yout
ocomeher e.
"
"Somet
hingwr
ong?
."
"I
t'
swhatwet
alkedaboutear
li
er.
"Henodsand
l
eaves.
Ihearl
uhgreet
ingthem t
henshecomesi
n.She'
s
nothappyatal
l.Shesi
ts.
"Idon'
twanthi
minmyhome.
"
"Iknow.Justbeali
tt
lepati
entthenal
lofthi
swill
beover.
"shenods."Whentheguysar edone.I
wantyoutogoandcalleveryonetot
helivi
ng
room."
"I
sbongaandbusaniher
e?.
"mywi
feasks.
"Theyarewi
tht
heki
ds.Thegi
rl
sar
eout
side.
"scel
o
tel
lsher
.
"Youwantt
hem her
etoo?
.'
"Busanihastobeheresohecant
ellever
yonewaht
heknowsr egar
dinghi
suncl
eandmot her
."she
nods.
Si
snontoandgugucomebackcar
ryi
ngpl
ates.
Mbuyi
selocomesi
ntoocar
ryi
ngsome.
"ThankyouMaNgcobof
ort
hef
ood.
"Luhnods.
"Iknowsomet hi
ngiswrongbutwewantyout o
knowt hatwehavenoi deawhatoutfat
herandaunt
areplanning.Whatweknowi swehearddadtalki
ng
tosomecopguyPaulf rom St
ander
tonaboutyou
mbusoandl uh."
"OhmyGodPaul ?
.Howt hehelldi
dthetwoofthem
meet?."Luhstandsup.Fuckthatmotherfucker
!.I
thoughtVict
ordealtwi
ththeguy!.
"Paul'
sPar t
nerpar
tnersparentsareourdad's
neighbour.Whenwewer edrivingtot
heairportt
he
guycalleddadandIdon'tknowwhatt heguysai d
butwehear dyournameandl uh'
s.Whenweasked
him whohewast alki
ngtohesai dtheguywas
askingquesti
onsaboutyoubuthedi dn'
ttellhi
m
anyt
hing.
"
"Fuck!Andyoubel
ievedhi
m?!
."
"Fuckno.That'swhywedeci dedt
hatwewer
e
goi
ngtotellyou."Mbuyisays.
"Thi
sistheshitthathappenswhenyoudon'
tdeal
wit
hshityoursel
fandsendsomeonet odoit
!.Look
att
hisnow!.Fuck!.
"
"It
houghtUncl
eVi
ctordeal
twi
hit
?."Luhsays
"Wellapparent
lyhedi
dn'
t.Fuck!
.Idon'
tneedt
his
ri
ghtnow!."
"Whatdoyouneed?
."Mbuyiasks.
"We'
l
ldealwi
thi
tour
sel
ves.
"scel
osays.
"LookguysIknowmyf atherfuckedup.That
'st
he
onlyr
easonyoucall
edofusher e.Mabuthohas
str
ongcontactsi
nthepoli
ceser vi
ceandwecan
makeeverythi
ngoranyonedisappear.
"
"he'
srightbr
o.Icanmakeal
loft
hathappen.
"
Mabuthosayscomingi
n."
"Andyouwantsomet
hingi
nret
urnr
ight
?."
"Wedo.Justl
etourf
athergoMbuso.Don'
tki
ll
hi
m."
"YouknowIfeelinsult
edri
ghtnow.Whot
oldyouI
wasgoingt
okillhim huh?
."
"Mbusoweknowyou.
"
"Noyoudon't.Causeifyoudidyouwoul dknow
thatIdon'
tki
llmyownf ami
lynomat terwhat.Iam
notsomeanimalt hatgoesaroundkill
ingeveryone.
Hei sapai
nintheassbutIwi llneverkil
lyourfather
.
Youar emybrothersorsoIthoughtyouwer e."
"Br
other
..
..
"
"Whatmadeyout hinkthatIcan'tdealwit
hthi
s
Paulshitmyselfhuh.Asbr othersIt
houghtwehelp
eachothernoquest i
onsasked.Iwoul ddoanythi
ng
forwit
houtexpectinganythinginretur
n.Butdon'
t
worryasIsaidIwon' tki
llyourdadbutIwantyouto
knowthataftertoday.Ineverwantt oseehiminmy
house.Ever
.Iwi l
lonlyseehi m whenthere'
s
somethingneededi nthefami l
y."
"Br
otheryouknowthatonceacopget
skil
led.The
i
nvest
igat
ionwon'
tstopandIknowyoudon'twant
t
hat
."
"Mabut houngabazaamandlawamingiyakubona.
WhateverIwantorneed.Igeti
tdone.Anypartof
theworl
d.Youwantt osorti
tout?Doit
.Justl
etme
knowwheni t
'sdone.
"
"Wedidn'
tmeant
oinsul
tyoubr
otherbuthe'
sour
fat
her
."
"Igetitanddon'tworr
yaboutit
.Youwil
lsoonhear
whyyouar ehere.Lovecal
lever
yone.
"shegetsup
andleaves.
It
akemyphoneanddi
alVi
ctor
snumber
.
"Mnguni
."
"Uncl
e.Yougood?
."
"I'
mf i
ne.Ij
ustmi
ssthosel
it
tl
erascal
sthat
'sal
l
andyouknowBuhle'
ssonhasbeenstayi
ngwith
me."
"Theboysar
efi
ne.I
sever
ythi
ngokaywi
thhi
m?.
"
"I
tis.He'
sjustvi
sit
ingbuthesayshewant
stost
ay
wi
thhisrealf
amily.
"
"Andwhatdoyout
hink?
."
"Iwoul
dli
kethatbutwhataboutt
hepeopl
ethat
rai
sedhi
m?."
"Tal
ktothem andcomeupwit
hapl an.Theymi
ght
l
etyoukeephim dur
ingt
hehol
idays.
"
"YeahI
'
lldot
hat
."
"Letmeknowi
fIcanhel
pwi
thanyt
hing.
"
"Iwi
ll
.What'swr
ongcauseIcant
ellt
hisi
snota
soci
alcal
l.
"
"Pauli
swhati
swr
ong?
."
"HownowcauseImadesur
ethatl
it
tl
efuckkeeps
hi
smouthshut
."
"Hispartneri
stheonet
alki
ngnow butdon'
twor
ry
I'
m deal
ingwithit
."
"Whatdoeshewantnowcausewhent heytol
dus
thatt
heyfoundthei
rremainssomewher ein
Bloemfont
einandwehadabur i
alf
orthem years
ago.Nothi
ngli
nksallofustothem."
"Iknowt
hatbutt
hatf
uckwon'
tlett
hisgoandnow
he'
smaki
nghi
spar
tnert
alkt
omyf
ami
ly.
"
"Fuckwedon'
tneedt
his.I
'
llgoandpayhi
m avi
sit
."
"Dothatandseewhati
tist
hatt
heyar
eupt
o."he
agr
ees.Ihangup.
Mywi f
ecomesback.She'ssobeauti
ful
.Iwatchher
wal
kinguptomeandshebl usheswhenshesees
t
hatI
'm st
arr
ingather
.Ilovethatshest
il
ldoesthat
.
"Theyar
ealli
ntheli
vingr
oom excl
udi
ngt
hel
adi
es.
Theysai
dtheyaref
inewheret
heyare.
"
"Wher
ear
ethey?
."
"I
nsi
msbedr
oom.It
hinkI
'
m goi
ngt
ojoi
nthem.
"
"No.Iwantyouwit
hme.Iwon'
tdot
hiswi
thout
you.
"Shenods.Iki
ssher
.
"Ist
il
lhaven'
tfor
givenyoumbuso.
"Luhgi
ggl
es.
"I
twasmyi
deanothi
s."
"Idon'
tcar
e.Iwentbl
ind.
"wel
augh.
"Goguys.Wear
ecomi
ng.
"Theyl
eave.
Ipul
lhert
omeandhughert
ight
.Thi
sishome.
"Canwet
rustt
hem?
."sheasks
"wecanbaby.Theydidn'thavet
otel
lusbutthey
di
d."shenods."Myhalfsist
erandherfat
herare
here.Theycamewit
hyourauntandFr ankfr
om
London."
"Wher
ear
ethey?
."
"Atsbu'
shouse.Iwil
ltel
lthem whentocome.I
wanttogi
vemybi r
thmot heronelastchancebef
ore
theycomein.
"
"Babaisgoi
ngt
obehur
t.Iapol
ogi
zedt
obot
hof
them.
"
"Youdidgoodbaby.Whatmydadwi l
lgetser
ves
hi
mr i
ght.Idon'
tcar
eabouthi
m now."Iki
ssher
agai
n.Shegiggl
es."Let
sgett
hishsoeready.
Wewalkintheli
vingroom andt
heyarethere
excl
udi
ngtheotherthreei
nthebasement.Luhsi
ts
downnexttoherdad.Shehasforgi
venhim.
"Halfofyouknowwhyyouar eher
eandt heother
s
don't
.Wehadl unchearl
ierandver
yint
eresti
ng
thi
ngshappen.I'
m sureuncleyouknowwhatwe
ar
etal
kingabout
."Hel
ooksdown.
"Dadwhati
smbusot
alki
ngabout
?."
"Idon'
tknowwhathe'
stal
kingabout
."Fanel
e
deni
es.
"Ithoughtmightsayt
hat.Br
ocanyoupleasebri
ng
them uphere.
"Iasscel
o.Henodsandleaves.
I'
m watchi
ngFanel eandhel ooksli
kehewant sto
spri
ntoutofhere.Iwonderwhathi skidsaregoing
tosay.Scel
ocomesi nfol
lowedbymymot herwho
runstoherbrothercryi
nghysteri
call
yandAsanda
goestoherbrotherstoocryi
ng.Aliceistheonlyone
l
ookingli
keal ostpuppy.
"Al
lofyousi
tdown!
."It
ellt
hem.Thehousegoes
qui
et.
"Whatdi
dyout
oher
?."Fanel
easks.
"Mbuyiselo,MabuthoaandnaweMt hunzi .Yourdad
andmybi r
thmotherhavebeenplanningtohave
thei
rrevengeonmymot hert
hei
rsister.Thetwoof
them havebeenfeedingsebepoi
sonwi t
houtallof
usknowi ng..
..
"
"What
?!"t
heyl
ookatt
hei
rfat
hershocked.
"He'
slyi
ng.Idon'
tknowwhathe'
stal
kingabout
."
"Youknowuncl eIhavecamera'
sinmyhouse.I
knowandseewhati sgoingon.Mybirt
hmot her
herewashavingaconversat
ionwithbusaniand
spil
ledever
ythi
ngout.Whenmywi feandI
discover
edIconfr
ontedbusaniandheconfir
med
whatweal r
eadyknow."
"Howcanyoubet r
ayyourmot herl
ikethi
s?!Aft
er
everyt
hingyourmitherandIdo,yougoaheadand
spreadli
estothesepeopleyoudon'tknow?.Isthat
howyout hankmef orrai
singyou?.
"
"Didyouordidyounotpoi
sonauntsebenzi
le
dad?.
"mthunziaskshi
m.
"Idi
dnosucht
hingandnei
therdi
dmysi
ster
."
"Unclestoplying.Youknowver ywellthatyouand
mom havebeenpl anningthi
sforyears.Youhave
beenwai t
ingfortherightoppor
tunit
ytohaveyour
revenge.Mom t ol
dme. "
Fanel
elooksathi
ssi
sterl
ikeshehasbet
rayedhi
m.
Owamil
ooksdown.
"Ohshetoldyouthat
?.Didshealsotel
lyouthat
sheknewwher embusowasalltheseandshehad
someonefoll
owsebe?."Mydadgaspsl ooki
ngat
owami.
"Iknowt hat
.Iknowshewantedtokil
lhersoshe
cantakeoverherli
fej
ustl
ikesebedi
dt oher
.Itwas
yourplanandnowyouar egoingtodenyandsayit
wasallheridea?.
"
"Itwasheridea.WhenItol
dherIfoundyoushe
askedmet onottel
lanyonebecauseshehada
plan.
..
."
"ShutupFanele!.You'
ret
heonewhocamewi
th
thati
dea.Iwantedtocomehomeandseemyson.
"
"Idon'tcarewhoknewf i
rstandtol
dwho! .WhatI
careaboutiswhydi dyoucomeher emotherand
pret
endt hatyouhavefor
givenyoursist
erandyou
arereadytomoveon? .Whydi dyouli
etomyf ace?
."
"Iwasangry.Iam angryandIwantedhertosuf
fer
l
ikeshemademesuf fermbuso.Shetookyouaway
fr
om me!.
"
"Yesshedi dbutwhenyouf oundoutaboutmeyou
sti
lldi
dn'tcomet ome.Youdi dn'tcareaboutme
becauseal lyouwant edwasyourr evengeandyour
boyfri
end.YousayI 'm yoursonbuteversi nceyou
fai
ledtoshowmet hatar enowher eonl yf
ormeand
nooneel se.Youshowedmet hatIdidn'tmattert
o
youandt hathur tmebutIt oldmysel fthateven
thoughshedi dn'tgivebi r
thtome.Notoncehasshe
mademef eellikeIdon' tmatter.LikeIam not
i
mpor tanttoher .Never."
"MbusoI
'
m sor
ry.
..
."
"Sorryforwhatexactl
y?.Youcouldhavet oldallof
usthatyouwantsebeasf arawayfr
om youas
possibl
e.Youcouldhavebeenhonestt oal lofus
andtoldushowmuchyouhat eherandnoonewas
goingtojudgeyoubecauseweunder stand.You
knewaboutmet hiswhol eti
mebutnotevenonce
didyout r
ytocontactmebecauseyoudi dn' tgi
vea
fuckaboutme."DamnIt akeadeepbr eath.
"Son.
..
"
"Don'
tcal
lmet
hat
!.Youdon'
tgett
ocal
lmet
hat
.I
am notyourson.Youandyourbr otherweregoi
ng
tokil
lsebet henfr
amemyi nnocentbrot
hers.What
kindofmot herareyou?.Sebemi ghtnotbeanangel
butIknowshewoul dneverdot oyourkidswhat
youwant edt odotoherchildr
en!.
"Theylookat
owamiandherbr other
.Owamiwai l
s.
"Mywi fesawowamipoi soni
nghersi st
er
concoct i
on.Whatyoudon'tknowmot heri
sthe
concoct i
onbusanidrankisnottheoneyou
poisoned.Yoursoncouldhavedi edbecauseof
yourr evenge.Whenluhpointedagunonbusanit o
dri
nkt hatdrink,
yoursi
sterasandaandt hi
sgir
lri
ght
herepul l
edoutgunsandpoi nteditatmywifeand
me. "IlookatAsanda.
"Asandayoudidwhat
?.Wher
edi
dyougetagun?
."
Mabuthoasksher
.
"Igoti tfr
om aunty.Shetol
dmewehadt oprot
ect
ourselvesbecausembuso' swifeandtheot
her
wivesar erat
chetandt heymightdeci
detoatt
ackus
forlookingcl
assyandbeaut if
ul.
"what?Luh
chucklesandshakesherhead.It akemyphoneand
sentsbuandFr ankansmst ocome.
"YourlyingwenaAsanda.Youknewver ywellwhat
auntyanddadwer euptodidn'tyou!."Mbuyiasks
herandsheshakesherheadl ookingscared."I
knowyouAsanda.Lumkadi dsayt hatyouhave
beentalkingtoauntandal
lot.Youknewwhatt hey
wereplanning."
"Ionlyknowthattheygotthepoi sonfr
om Alice.
She'stheonewhoor gani
sedi tf
rom someonewho
l
ivesinCapeTown.Hemetaunt ywami atthe
air
portandgaveittoherthere.That'
sallIknowI
swear!.
"Ali
celooksli
keshe'saboutt ofai
nt.
"Iknewyouwer eal
waysli
keourmother.Evi
lli
ke
her.Youknewourdadandauntywantedtokil
lthei
r
si
steryetyousai
dnothi
ngAsandanothi
ng!."
Mthunzishout
sather.
"Ifaunt
ysebedies.Justknowthatyoual
sohavea
handinherdeat
h."Mbusitell
sher.
"Whatdoyouhavet
osayf
oryour
sel
fAl
ice?
."
"Nothing.Asandaisl
ying.Iknownothi
ngaboutthe
poison.Busani
'smothertol
dmet ocomeher e
becauseshewant edmet odosomething.Shetol
d
meshewi lltakembuso'swifet ot
hespa.Iwi l
lst
ay
behindwithmbusoanddr ughimt henhavesex
withhim.Iwi l
lhavetorecor
dt hewholet hi
ngsowe
willhavepr oof.Iwil
lshowittohiswifewhowi l
l
thendivorcehi m."Thesebit
chesar ecrazy.
"Wher
edi
dyougett
heguns?
."Iaskher
.
"Jason'
smom saidshegott
hem fr
om herbrot
her.
"
Ohthisf
uckerbet
terbegl
adhissonsbeggedfor
hi
slif
e.
"andwhatwouldhavegainedAli
cebydoi
ngt
hat
?.
WhataboutBusani
?."Bongaasksher
.
"Iwouldn'
thavegot
tenanyt
hingandbesi
des
Busanidoesn'
twantme.He.
..
"
"Youshutthatlyi
ngmouthofyour
sbeforeIputa
bul
leti
nthatstupi
dbrai
n."I
t'
snotherbusi
nessto
saywhatbusaniis.
"Doyouhaveanyt
hingt
otel
lusowami
?."
"Iam yourmot
hermbuso!
."
"Youmighthavegi
venbi
rt
htomebutyouar enot
andneverwi
llbemymother
!.Ial
readyhavea
mot
her.Mywif
ewasr
ight
.Sebeshoul
dhavest
olen
mybrot
hert
oo.
"
"Iam sosorr
ymyson.IswearIwasgoi
ngt
omake
i
trightbet
weenyouandyourf
ather
!.
"
"when?.Whenyouhavekil
ledyourt
winsist
er?
Whenexactl
yOwamibecauset hel
astt
imeI
checkedyouhaveaf
amily.
"Shestopscryi
ngand
l
ooksatme.
"Whatareyout
alki
ngabout
?."Shet
alksasi
fshe
nevercr
ied.
"Don'
tpl
aydumbwi t
hme.
"shest
andsup,
laughs
andcl
apsherhands.
"Yeahyougotme.Di
dtheyt
ellyou?
."
"Notheydi
dn'
t.Idi
dmyhomewor
kwhenyougot
her
e."
"Damnyouar eassmartastheysaidyouare.You
knowImadesur et
hatalloft
hem don'
ttel
lyou
aboutthem butIdi
dn'
tthinkyouwouldactual
ly
thi
nkyouwoul dgoandsnoopar oundmy
business.
"Shelaughsagain.
"Whatishet
alkingaboutOwami?Youhaveanother
fami
ly?
."Mymot herhasbeensi
lentt
hewhol
etime.
She'
snowlookingatmydadwhosocked.
Ilooktomyl ef
tandIseesbu, fr
ankandLuh'
saunt
comingin.Theyar efol
lowedbyamanand
beauti
fulyounggi rl
.Myhal fsi
ster
.Whenshesees
meshesmi les.runstomeandhugsme.Shet hinks
I'
m busani.IcanhearOwamicur sing.
"Yousonofabi
tch!
."shesayst
ome.
"OhmyGodImi ssedyou.Youallj
ustl
eftand
neverexpl
ained."Ihugherti
ght
.Iwishwedi dn'
t
havetomeetl i
kethis.
"Honey?
."owamihusbandgoestoherandhugsher
.
Thewholehousei
squiet.I
tist
ense.
"Youaremar
ri
ed?..
..
"Mydadbr
eakst
hesi
lence."
andyoudi
dn'
ttel
lme? .
"
"Mom? .shegoestohermotherandhugshert oo.
Sheturnandl ooksatme.Hereyesgoar oundthe
room andt hat
'swhensheseeseveryoneincl
uding
busani.Hereyescomebackt oagai
nt hebackat
busani.
"wait
?..
..
Mom whati
sgoi
ngon?
.Mybr
otheri
sa
twi
n?."
"Sweet
iesi
tdown.I
'
llexpl
ain.
"
"OwamiIaskedyouaquesti
on.Youar
efucken
marr
iedandyoudidn'
ttel
lme?.
"
"Iwasgoi
ngt
otel
lyouaf
terIdi
vor
cedhi
m."
"What
?."Herhusbandsays."Whatdoyoumean
whenyouhavedivorcedmeandwhoi st
his?
."
"Hi.I
'
m mbusot heoneyoutalkedtoont
hephone.
Yourwifeismybirt
hmot her
,That'
shert
winsi
ster
andthatisourf
ather."
"What?.Youar
eatwin,
Jasoni
sat
wint
ooandyou
nevert
oldme?.Why?
."
"Idi
dn'
tthi
nkIwasevergoi
ngt
ofi
ndt
hem agai
n."
"OhmyGodst
opwi
thyourl
ies!Ar
eyounott
ir
ed?
!."
"ShutupMbuso.Honeyl et
sgotothehotelandI
wil
lexpl
aineveryt
hingtoyou."owamisaystoher
husband.Dadissti
llshocked.
"No.Youneedt
oexpl
aint
ouswhyyouhi
dmy
otherbr
otherfr
om memotherandyoursi
ster
.You
havebeenlyingtousf
oryear
s."
"Youwi
llunder
standonceIexpl
aint
oyou.Let
s
go.
"
"No.Angelisst
ayingherewithus.She’snotgoi
ng
anywhere.
"Busanisays.Angelgoestoherand
hugshim.Iguessshecouldtellf
rom howwet al
k.
"Thati
smydaught erandshe'sleavi
ngwi
thme.I'
m
donewit
hallofyouandIdon'tfuckencar
eifsebe
di
esornotbutshedeservesitandIhopeyoudodie
andburninhel
l.
"
"Wowmom shel
ooksexact
lyli
keyou.EvenJason
andhi
stwi
n.Wow!.Mom am Iatwi
ntoo?."
"No!.
"bothherparent
ssay.Owami
'
shusbandi
s
devast
ated.Heevensit
sdown
"Angel,
let
sgomakeyousomethi
ngtoeat
.I'
m sur
e
yourhungr
yandt
ir
ed."mywif
esays.
"That'
syourbrother
swife.She'
sLungilebut
ever
yonecallsherLuh.Goandeat .
"Shenods.She
l
ooksatme, smilesandIsmileback.Shegives
comesandgi vesmeahug.Ihughert
ooandki
ss
herhead.Shethengoest
oluh.
"Areyoumixedli
keme?.
"sheasksher
.Luhgiggl
es
andshakesherheadast
heygototheki
tchen.
"Youhi dyourselffrom me, mysisterandbr other.
Whenypuf oundoutaboutmeyouhi dthem f r
om
medenyi ngmet hatrelati
onshipwiththem.I t
doesn'tmat t
erwhodi dwhatf i
rst
.Whatmat tersis
i
nnocentpeopl egothur t
.That'
swhatmat t
ers.Sebe
hurtme.youhur tmeandmyuncl ehur tme.Youar e
alll
iarsandki ll
ers.KilleachotherIdon' tcare
anymor e.Whati sgoingt ohappent houghowamii s
youar egoi ngtost ayher eunti
lwef ini
shever yt
hing.
Wher eyougoaf t
erIdon' tcar
eatall.YouAl ice
bett
erl eavemyhouseandneverevercont actmy
brothereveragai n.I'm sorryMrBloom t hatyouhad
tofi
ndoutl ikethis.
"
"Ican'
tbel
ievei
t.
"
"Wellyoubett
erdo.Notonl
ydidshet
rytoki
llher
twi
nsister
,sheal
socheatedonyouwit
hmyf ather
.
She'
sbeensleepi
ngwi t
hhim."
"Damnyoumbuso!.Busanigoandgetmybags
now!"Owamishr
ieks.Busanigoest
ogetherbags.
"Nodamnyoubot hf orf
uckingupmyl i
fe.Iwi shI
couldsayIr egr
ett r
yingtofi
ndyoucausei fIsay
that
,itwoul dmeanIr egretf
indingmyt winbr other
andhal fsisterofwhi chIdon't
.Idon'ttr
ustyouand
neverwi l
l.Stayt hefuckawayf rom myf amilyand
takethatr i
ffraffwithyou.MrBl oom youcanst ay
heretheni ghtoryoucangosl eepatahot elt
hen
l
eavet omor rowwhenyougobackhome. "henods.
"Iwanttotal
ktomywi fe."Inod."Goodgowi t
hher
butIwouldli
keifAngelcanstayher e.She'
smy
si
stertooandIpromiseyounohar m wil
lcometo
her.Youcanseeherbeforeyoul eave."
"It
'sf
ine.Idon'
twanthert
ohearusf
ight
ing
anyway."
"Let
sleaveAli
ce.Wedon'tbelongher
eanyway.
Theyarewaybelowourclass.Youdoanyt
hingt
o
mydaughteryouwil
lregr
etit.
"
"Theonlyreasonyouandthi
sbit
char
eali
veis
becauseIdon'tki
lli
nmyhouseandowami.Youwi
ll
neverseeAngelagai
n.Youwil
lcor
ruptherand
makeherpoisonousli
keyou.
"Iwhi
sperthatlast
partt
oher.
"Asandaareyoucomi
ngwi
thus?
."Asandashakes
herhead.
"Fanel
elet
sgo.
"
"Daddon'
tleavewi
thher
."
"She'smysisterandI'm st
ickingwit
hher .Iwon'tbe
aselloutl
ikeallofyou.I
tseitheryoufol
lowust oo
oryoudon'tbutrememberwhoi syourfami l
y."
Fanelesaytohissonsandget supandgoest o
st
andnextt ohissist
er.
"Ineverwanttoseeyouinmyhouseorcl oset
othe
Gumedef amil
yeveragai
n.Leave!
."It
ellt
hem.
"IguessI
'
llseeyouwhenIseeyou."owamismirks
andtheyl
eavewithherhusbandf
oll
owingbehi
nd
them.
"Guysyoucanl eavetoo.Wear est
il
lyourf
amil
y
andthatwon'tchange.Itdoesn'
tmatt
erwhatyour
dadsays."Theynod.
"Wejustwanttomakesurethatt
heywon'tdo
anyt
hingst
upid.Wearesor
ryforever
ythi
ng.Had
wehaveknown, wecoul
dhaveprevent
edit.
"
"Iunder
stand.Myhomewi
llal
waysbeopent o
you.
"Theygetupandwehug.Theysaygoodbyet
o
ever
yoneincl
udingmymot
herthent
heyleave.
Isi
tdownheavi
ly.If
eelsot
ir
edanddr
ained.
"I'
m sor
ryson.I'
mreal
lysor
ry.
"Mydadsays.Il
ook
atmymot herandIf
eelsomuchhat
eandloveat
thesametime.
Myeyesgetclouded.Icanfeelal
lott
hem looki
ngat
me.Itryt
otakeadipbreathbutIchokeupand
r
eleaseasob.Tearsstr
eam downmyf ace.
"Br
other.
..
."Iheart
hem cal
li
ngmynamebutI
i
gnorethem.
Iquickl
ygetupandgot omybedroom.Isi tont he
bedandt earsst
ream downmyface.Thedoor
opens,closesandthensheget
sbet weenmyl egs.
Shepullsmei nt
oherarmsandhol dsme.It ryto
fi
ghtthem sotheycangobackbutmyt earsdon' t
stop.Iwrapmyar msaroundherandcr y.Iletital
l
outonmywif
e.Myheartf
eel
ssoheavyl
ikemy
worl
dhasj
ustshat
ter
ed.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER96.

LUNGI
.

Iknewmyhusbandwashur ti
ngbutIdi dn'tt
hinkit
wast hisdeep.Hismot herhasr eal
lyhur thim andI
am soangr yather.Shedoesn' tdeservehi m andI
am gladshei soutofourl i
ves.He'shol dingme
ti
ghtandIcanf eelhowvulnerablehei s.Even
thoughhe'snotmaki ngasoundhei scr yi
ng.His
headi sonmychest ,hi
sshouldersar eshakingand
hekeepssni ff
ing.Ihatethatmyhusbandi shurti
ng
l
ikethisandIneverwanthi mtof eelthatway.Iwi pe
myt earsandki ssbaldhead.
Ikneeldownandmakehislookatme.Hi
seyesare
cl
osedshut.Iwi
pehi
stearsandkisshi
swholef
ace
l
ikehowIdotomyboyswhenI '
m shower
ingt
hem
wit
hmykisses.Ipal
m hi
sface.
"Lookatme? ."heopenshiseyesandyoucansee
howhur theis."I'
m sosorryt heyhur tyou.I
'm sor
ry
yourbirthmot herdoesn'
tcar eaboutyouoreven
real
isewhatanamazi ngper sonyouar e.She
missedanoppor tuni
tytoknowt hi
samazi ngman
thatIlove.Shedoesn'tdeser veyou, yourloveand
tobeevenyourcal l
edyourmot her.I
t'
sherlossmy
l
oveandyougai nednothi
ngf rom her.Onedayshe
i
sgoi ngt olookbackandr ealisehowmuchshehur t
youandhowbadshemessedupokay? .
"shenods.
"Shecoul dhavehadourl ove.Hergrandkidslove
butshedi dn'
tcareaboutt hat.That
'sallonherand
notonyou.Youwer ethevicti
mi nheref r
om bothof
them andyoudi dn'tdeserveitmylovenomat ter
howper fectyourlif
eturnedoutt obe.Yourbirth
mot herhadanoppor t
unit
yt ogettoknowherson
andgr andchil
drenbutshechosenott o.Youwi llnot
cryfortherelat
ionshipyourneverhadf orher
.You
willnotcryforawomanwhodoesn' tcar eaboutyou.
Youdon' tknowt hatwomanandyouwi llnotwast e
yourtearsonher.Don'tgi
veherthatpowerover
yourli
febecauseshei snotworthi
tmyl ove.Iam
here.Yourchi
ldrenarehereandthewhol efamily.
Evenyourmot herwhochangedyourl i
feisherand
shelovesyoutoo.Haveyoueverf el
tli
ket her
ewas
somet hi
ngmissinginyourlif
e.Bef
oreandaf teryou
foundoutthetruth?
."Hewi peshi
stears,t
akesa
handkerchi
efandbl owshisnose.
"BeforeImetyouIfeltincompl
etebutt
hatchanged
whenImetyouandf elli
nlovewit
hyouandInever
fel
tincompl
eteeveragai n.
"
"That'
sallt
hatmat t
ers.Yourli
feiscompletewi
th
ever
ythi
ngyoul oveandcaref or.Youwi
llnotdr
op
anot
hertearbecauseofher .Ever.Pr
omi
semeyou
won't
."
"Ipr
omi
seIwi
ll
."
"Il
oveyou.
"It
ellhi
m.
"Il
oveyou.
"Iki
sshi
m.
"I'
m goingtorunyouabath,thenmakeyou
somet hi
ngtoeatwhil
eyou'r
ei nbedandthenyou
wil
lsleep.Iknowit
'sgoi
ngtobehar dbuttomorr
ow
youwi
llwakeupandmoveon.
"Hesmi
les.
"Idon'
tknowwhatIwoul
ddowi
thoutyou.Thank
youforever
ythi
ng.
"
"Weareinthi
stogetherandIwil
lalwaysbehere.I
am doi
ngmyj obasyourwifetotakecareofyou.
Howdoyouf eelsi
nceyouleti
tallout
."Hetakesa
deepbreat
h.
"If
eelbet
terl
ove.I
tdoesn'
thur
tasmuch.
"Ismi
le.
"Youseewhyaswomenwel i
ket ocrywhenwear e
hurt
?Becausewef eelbett
eraf t
eragoodcr y.
"He
gri
nsIlaugh."Areyougoi ngt ostar
tcr yi
ngf r
om
nowon? .
'Het hr
owshi sheadbackandl aughs.I
suckinmybr eathandl ookathim.Myhusbandhas
thi
nkofwhenhel aughsthet i
pofhist onguewoul d
sti
ckoutthebacki nandIl oveit.Heisso
handsome.
Igetuptogotot
hebat
hroom whenhi
sphoner
ings
andheignor
esit
.
"Ar
eyounotgoi
ngt
oansweri
t?.
"
"Ij
ustwantt
orestl
ove.Thatcal
lcanwai
tandi
fit
's
i
mpor tanttheywil
lleaveamessage."hesaysand
l
aysont hebedlookingup.Thephoneringsagain.
Het akesoutofhispantsandgivesitt
ome.Ihave
answer edhisphonecallsmanyti
mesandt hi
sisno
di
fferent.Il
ookatthescreenandit
'smbuyiselo.I
fr
own.
"Hel
lo?
."
"Luh?
...
"
"Yesit
'sme.What
'swrong?
."Hesoundsli
kehe
wasrunni
ngandther
eissomuchnoi sewher
ehei
s.
"Ther
ewasanacci dent
.Thecarjustcameoutof
nowhereandhi
tthem."He'
stalki
ngsof astbuti
hearwhathei
ssayingthenIhearthepol i
cesir
ens.
Iputt
hephoneonspeaker.
"Lovel
ist
en.
"myhusbandsi
tsup.
"Mbuyi
sel
owhogoti
ntoanacci
dent
?."
"Theywer
eal
lint
hecarohGod!Thecarj
usthi
t
them.
"
"Whowasi
nthecarmbuyit
alk.
"
"Myf
ather
,aunt
yowami
,herhusbandt
henAl
ice
andAngel
a."what
?
"OhmyGod!
."Isayandhol
dmyhead.
"NoAngel
aisher
e.Shedi
dn'
tleavewi
thowami
."
hesaysl
ooki
ngatme.
"Shewasmbuso.Owamit ookherbyfor
ceandleft
wit
hher.Thecarhitt
hem and..
..
.Weareonourway
tot
hehospit
alnow!PleasecomeIwi l
lsendyouthe
l
ocati
on.Mbuyisel
ohangsup.Myhusbandsi ghs.
"Iaskedt
hem t
oleaveherbehi
nd.
"
"Il
ef theri
nthel
ivi
ngroom eat
ingwhenIcame
here.Owamimusthavecamebackandt ookher .Oh
myGodmbusowhati fthi
sisthedeat
hthatis
coming.Someonedying?.
"Hegetsupandt akesmy
hand.
"Iwil
lonlybehurti
fAngeladies.Ther
estofthem I
don'
tcare.Fuckmybrother.
"Inod.Busanii
sgoing
tobecrushedifheal
readyknows.
Whenwegetintothel
ivi
ngroom itseemsli
ke
ever
yoneal
readyknows.Myfatherin-l
awis
huggi
ngBusaniwhoiscryi
ng.Idon'tseemy
motheri
n-l
awanywher
e.It
hinkshewentt
oher
bedr
oom.
"Hej
ustsentmethehospi
talt
heyar
ein.Let
sgo.
"
myhusbandsays.
"Idon'
tthi
nkI'
m neededt
her
e.I'
l
lst
ayhereathome
andyouwilll
etmeknowhowt hi
ngsar
e.Iwantto
checkonMah.
"Okl
ove.
"Hegi
vesmeaki
ss.
"I'
m goi
ngt
ogowi
tht
hem j
usti
ncase.
"Myaunt
says.
"Thankyouaunt
y."Al
loft
hem l
eavei
ncl
udi
ngmy
dad.
Thisdayhasj ustbeent oomuchf oral
lofusand
nowt hishappens.GodIhopenot hi
nghappensto
Angela.Iwantedt ogot othehospit
albut
somet hi
ngispr event
ingmef rom goi
ngthereandI
don'tknowwhy.Igoout si
deandhelpsisnont
o
packt heremainingthingsbacktotheboxesunti
l
wear edone.
Ikeepchecki
ngmyphonehopi
ngt
ohearf
rom my
husbandcausei t
'sbeenanhoursi ncet heyl ef
t.We
puttheboxesinthegar ageandt henwegot othe
kit
chenandIhel pthem washt hedi shes.Si str
iedto
stopbebutIcouldn’tcausemymi ndwasj usttoo
pre-
occupiedandIhavet hisdreadingf eelingof
something.Li
kesomet hingreall
ybadi sgoi ngto
happen.Whatcoul dbewor sethant hem bei ngi n
thehospit
although.Iguessit'
sthem dyi ng.
Imaket eathensitdown.Thenannycomeswi th
sbonisoandher unst omewhenheseesme.Isi t
himinfrontofmei nthekitcheni
slandandlookat
him.He'swat chi
ngmet ooandnotsayinganythi
ng.
Ikisshi
m andhel aughs.Nextweeki sthei
rbir
thday
andIhaven'tevenpl annedwhatI'
m goingtodo.
Theyhaveneverhadabi r
thdaypart
ybefor
eand
theydeserveit.
Itakehi
sfoodfrom hi
snannyandf
eedhi
m.He
eatsunt
ilhe'
sdone.
"Baby?
."
"Mommy.
"
"Ar
eyouokay?
."henods."Ar
eyousi
ck?
."He
shakeshi
shead.
"Wher
e'shi
sbr
other
?."
"He'spl
ayi
ngsi
slungi
.Hesai
dhewasn'
thungr
y."I
nod.Myphoner
ingsandi
t'
smyhusband.
"baby?."Hesi
ghsthenkeepsqui
et."Howbadar
e
they?.
"sboni
sotr
iestot
akemyphonebutIgivehi
m
tohisnanny.
"Theydi
ed.
"OhmyGod!
"They?Whodi
ed?
."
"Al
loft
hem excl
udi
ngAl
iceandMrBl
oom.
"
"What
?Angel
adi
edt
oo?
...
.OhmyGod!
."
"Theydecl
aredherdeadonthescene.Faneledi
ed
onhiswaytothehospit
alandOwami j
ustdied
now."
"OhmyGodl ove.I
'
m sor
ryyounevergott
he
oppor
tuni
tyt
oknowyoursist
er.
"
"I
t'
sokayl
ove.Thesethi
ngshappen.I
'
llseeyou
whenwearedonehere."
"Letmeknowi
fwecanhel
pwi
thanyt
hing.
"
"Okl
ove.
"Ihangupandsi
gh.Idi
dn'
treal
iset
hat
musi
ster
sarehere.
"Whathappened?
."Si
msasks.
"Owami ,Fanel
e,Al i
ce,Owami'
shusbandand
Angelawer ei
nvolvedinanaccident
.Angeladiedat
thescene,Faneleonhi swaytothehospi
taland
Owamihasdi edt oo.Justnow.MrBloom andAlice
aretheonlysurvivors.
"OhGod!.
"Whoi
sAngel
aandMrBl
oom?
."
"MbusoandBusani '
shalfsi
ster.MrBloom i
s
Owami '
shusband.Theyarri
vedtonightf
rom
Londonandtheywereher ebeforeOwami l
eftwi
th
them."
"What?Owamiwasmar r
iedandshehada
daught
er?
."Si
msasks.Theyareal
lspeechl
ess.
"Whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odonow?
."
"Idon'tknow.Fanel
e'swifei
sbackhomeI '
m sure
theyhavealreadyt
oldher.Si
nceOwami wasstil
l
marriedtoherhusbandhe'stheonewho'sgoi
ngto
decidewhathappens.Ift
heywi l
lbur
iedher
eorin
London.
"Theynod.
"Wel
lforme.I
'
m notsor
ryOwamiandFanel
edi
ed.
"
Si
mssays.
"Howi
sBusani
?."Lesogoasks.
"It
hinkhe'
samess.Hel ovedhi
smotherandsi
ster
andhasjustl
ostbothoft
hem.Ican'
timagi
newhat
he'
sgoingthr
ough."
"Wher
eisuMah?
."Si
msasks.
"Inherbedr
oom.Ihavetogoandtel
lherandIdon'
t
knowhowshe'sgoingtoreact
."
"Idon'
tthi
nkshewi
llcar
e."Li
ndosays.
"Shemi
ghtbl
ameher
sel
fthough.
"
"Maybeweshoul
dwai
tandhaveyourhusbandt
ell
her
."Si
mssays.
"HehadalongdayandIdon'twanthi
mt obethe
onewhotel
lshercauseIdon'
thowhemi ghtr
eact
event
houghhesaidhedoesn'tcar
eaboutOwami."
"WhathappenedwhenFanel
ecame?
."Si
msasks.
"Awhol
elot
.Iwi
llt
ellyoubutnotnow.
"
"Iguesswehavet
owai
tthen.
"Lesegosays.
"Orwebegi
ntobake.
"Li
ndosuggest
s.
"Ithi
nkweneedtor el
axandwai
tforthem t
ocome
back.Weallhadalongday.Wewil
lbake
tomorrow.
"Shenods.
Weal lsi
tinsil
encet hi
nking.Theti
menowi s10pm
andtheyar esti
llnotback.MaybeIshouldhavel
eft
wit
hmyhusbandbuthedi dpromisemethathewil
l
tel
lmei ft
heyneedanyt hing.Igetupanddri
nk
waterthensitdown.Idon' tf
eelgoodandIdon'
t
knowwhati swr ong.
Allt
hekidsar enowsleepinginthehouse.Mahhas
beeninherbedr oom f
orlong.Idon'tknowifshe'
s
sl
eepingorsheknowswhathappenedt oher
si
bli
ngs.Itdoesn'tl
ookli
ket heyaregoingtobe
backatanymomentsomaybeIshoul dtel
lherwhat
happened.Ijusthopeshewon' tbl
ameher sel
f.
Iknockonherdoorandwai tf orananswer.The
room i
sdeadquiet.Iknockagai nandsti
llt
here'
sno
answer.Igrabt
hehandl eandpusht hedooropen
anditdoes.Herroom i
sdar k.Iswit
chont heli
ght
andshe'
sonthebedsleeping.Icl
osethedoorand
walki
n.It
akethethr
owbl anketandcoverherwi
th
i
t.Shest
ir
sandlooksatme.
"Takemet
omyhousel
ungi
."
"Mah?
."
"Takemet omyhousenow.
"Hervoi
cesounds
di
ffer
entandwei
rd.
"I
t'
slat
emah.Iwi
llt
akeyouhomet
omor
row.I
pr
omise."
"No.Takemehownow. "Shegetsupandbeginsto
wearherclothes.Shetakesherbagandlooksat
me."Takemehomenowl ungi
."Myhear
tskipsa
beat
.Itbeatssof astIf
eelli
kei
t'sgoi
ngt
obur stout
ofmyr i
bcage.
"GogoZi
kal
ala.I
sthatyou?
."That
'shervoi
ceand
thewayt
heroom
"Takemehome."Shesays."Wearerunni
ngoutof
t
ime.Let
sgobef
oreiti
stoolat
e."what
?
"Uhm Ok.Letmet
ellmysi
ster
sthatwehavet
o
l
eave.
"
"Ifyoutel
lhershe'
sgoi
ngt
oloset
hebaby.Wear
e
runningoutoft
ime."
Whatthehel
lisgoingonandwhatdoesshemean
wearerunni
ngoutoftime?.Doessheknowt hather
brot
herandsi
sterhavepassedonandnowmaybe
she'
slosi
nghermind.Iam soconfusedIdon't
knowwhattodo.Myphoner ingsandit
'sSbani.
"Heysi
s."
"Mzukul
u."
"GogoXul
u?"
"Takeyourmotherandleavenow.Takehert
oher
house.Iwi
llseeyoutomorrow.
"
"Gogowhati
sgoingon"Whyisshesoundingli
ke
she'
sgogoZi
kal
ala?"Icanhearherbr
eat
hhitchi
ng.
"Leavenownokukhanya.Cal
lmewhenyouget
ther
e.”Shehangsup.
“Mahcanyouf indyourwaytothegarage?
.”she
nods.“okgot here.I
’m comi
ng.”weleavethe
bedroom.ThankGodt hehousei
shugeandt hey
won’tseeusleaving.Iendupfol
lowi
ngMahcauseI
don’
ttr
ustt
hatshecanmakeherwayt
her
eonher
own.
Iam freakingoutmyhandsar eli
ter
all
yshaki ng.I
takemyphoneandsendLi ndoanSMSt ell
ingherto
meetmeatt hegarageandnotsayanyt hingto
anyone.Ihel pmahgeti nt
hecarandf astenher
seatbelt.Il
ookatherandshe’snotthereatal l
.Ican
onlyfeelgogo'senergy.Li
ndocomest omeand
she’sfrowning.
“si
sluhwhat
’swr
ong?
.Youar
eshaki
ngsobadl
y.”
“geti
nthecaranddri
veust
oPi
eter
mar
it
zbur
g.We
havet
ogonowhur ry.
”
“okletmegogetmyhandback.Mydr
iver
sli
cense
i
sthere.
”
“Br
ingmi
net
oo.Hur
ry.
”
Igeti
nt hebackseatwit
hmahandhol dherhand.I
t
i
ssosof tli
keit
’sababy'
shand.I
tissosmallli
keI
canbreakitwit
hmyonehand.Lindocomesi n
runni
ng.Sheget si
nthecaranddr
ivesoutourof
thegarage.
“Ican’
tbel
ieveyouar
elet
ti
ngmedr
iveyourM6si
s
l
uh.”She’
ssoexcit
ed.
.
“Li
ndoyoubet
terst
epont
hataccel
erat
orIdon’
t
car
ehowmanyl awswebr
eak.Doyouhearme?.”
shenods.
Itakemyphoneandsendl esegoamessaget elli
ng
herthatwehavel ef
tforPietermarit
zburgandask
hertonotletsi
msoutofhersi ght.Theywil
ldrive
downt omorrowtoo.Iexplainthatgogoxuluasked
met otakeherthereandnott ellsi
msanything.I
makeacal ltoauntlwethu.
“Hel
loSi
sii
njanu?
.”
“Ar
eyoust
il
lawakeaunt
y?.”
“yesIam.What
’swr
ong?
.”
“Weareonourwayt
her
e.I
’
llexpl
ainwhenIget
ther
e.”
“Okkhanyo.
”Ihangupandsi
gh.
IpullMah'
sheadtomychestandletherl
ayher
headonme.Iam soscaredandIwantmyhusband
here.Mahkeepsmumbli
ngstuffIcan’
tmakesense
of.Mygir
lst
epsinonthatacceler
atoranddri
ves.
Withi
nthe30minut
eswear einPietermar
it
zburg.
Wedr i
vetot
hei
rhouse.Shedrivesinandparksthe
car.
Aunt
ycomesoutoft
hehouser
unni
ng.
“l
ungiwhat
’swr
ong?
.”
“hel
pmet
akemaht
oherbedr
oom.
”
“Si
siwhat
’swr
ong?Whydoesshel
ookl
iket
his
l
uh?.”
“Aunt
yhel
pmepl
ease!
.”
Wecarryhertoherbedr
oom andl
ayheronherbed
andshesighs.
“Whati swrongwithher?
.”Itryt
oexplai
nbutIj
ust
burstint
otears.Li
ndotel
lsherwhatshehear
dat
thelunch.
Ical
lgogoxul
uandshepi
cksup.
“takeawhitecandleandredone.Thesagebowl
willbei
nthemiddle.Onyourri
ghtyouwilll
ightt
he
whi t
ecandl
eandonyourl ef
ttheredone.Youwill
l
ightthewhit
eonet henredonethenyouwillask
yourancestor
stofor
giveyourmot herandt
oplease
all
owhertopassthroughandwel comeherspir
it
.
Doyouunder st
andme? .”Inodthroughmytears
butthenIremembershedoesn’thearme.
“yebogogo.
”
“Ift
hesmokeoft hesagegoesup,t
heywi l
laccept
herbuti
fitdoesn’
tthenwewil
laskthem agai
n.Do
i
tnow.”
“Shei
sgoi
ngt
odi
eisn’
tshe?
.”
“Youalr
eadyknowt
hat
.Iwi
llseeyout
omor
row.
”
Shehangsup.
“Ihear
deveryt
hing.Lindoyouarenotyett
hebri
de
andyoucan’
tbeher e.Gototheli
vingr
oom andwe
wil
lcal
lyouwhenwear edone.
”
“yeboaunt
y.”
Shegoest otheclosetandcomesbackwi ththe
candlesandsage.Shegi vesmemah' sscarfandI
covermyshoul ders.WekneelandIputthecandles
thewaysheaskedmeandl ightt
hem t
henlightt
he
sage.Atfi
rstfi
rsti
tdoesn’twanttoburn,t
he
secondt
imei
tbur
nsbutt
hesmokedi
esdown.
“LuhIknowyouarescar
ed.Takeadeepbreat
h
andtal
ktothem.Theywi
lll
ist
entoyousi
si.
”Inod.
Ili
ghtthesageagai nandt hi stimeitbur nsbutt he
smokegoessi dewaysandnotst r
aightup.Ibegi n
toprayourf atherwhoar tinheavenandmahj oins
me.Whenwear edoneIbegi nt osayourcl an
namesandapol ogizeonbehal fofher, herhusband,
herchildrenandever yoneshehaseverhur t.Iask
them toal l
owhert obewi t
ht hem andhermaker .I
askthem t onotcastherasi del i
keshedoesn’ t
belongwi ththeGumedeorZi kalal
aancest ors.Iask
them tonotmakehersuf feranymor eandf orgive
her.Iaskt hem thatasshet ransiti
onsmayshe
haveapai nl
essandl i
ghtexper ience.Myt earswon’ t
stopfalli
ngasIpl eadwi t
ht hem andf inall
ythe
smokeshootast raightup.
Igetupandleavethecandlesthereandgot oher
bed.Shelookssobeauti
fulli
keIhaveneverseen
herlooki
ngthisway.Herfaceisrel
axedandher
chestismovingupanddownsl owl y.Itakeher
handagainandit’
snotaswar ml i
kei twasbefore.
Aunt
yjoi
nsmeont
hebedandsi
tsonherot
hersi
de.
“Mah?
...
..
Mah?
.”
“She’
ssl
eepi
ng.
”
“Icanhearyou..
”sheturnsandlaysonherback..I
don’tknowifi
t’
sthepoisonbutsheisl
osi
ngwei ght
drasti
call
y.
“Callthem.Telleveryonet
obeher eathome.”
AuntyandIl ookateachot her.“Ineedtosay
goodbyet othem andknowt hatIleavethi
searth
withtheirf
orgiveness.Cal
lthem.Theyar ewai
ting
forme. ”
“Ican’
t…Ican’tcal
lthem andtel
lthem…t hatyou
aredyi
ng.Ican’tmah.”Ilaymyheadonherchest
andcry.Shepatsmybackwi thherf r
ailhand.
“I’
l
lcallthem.”Aunt
ysaysgett
ingup.Thedoor
opensandIl ookupit
shersonsincl
udingBusani
andtheirfat
her.
“Auntywhatisgoingon?
.Mah?.
”Theywal
kin
cl
oserandstop.Justast
epawayfr
om t
hebed.
“Zi
pho.Comeher
e.”Shesays.Zi
phobegi
nst
ocr
y.
Igetupandhesi
tswhereIwas.Igot
omyhusband
andcryonhi
schest
.Hishear
tisbeat
ingsof
ast
.
“Myl astbor nson.Who’ sgentl
eandki nd.Whenwe
hadyouIhadhopedyouwoul dbeagi rlbutGod
hadot herplansforus.Iloveyousover ymuch
gcino.Godwi l
lbl
essyouandyourwi ves.Hewill
giveyouever ythi
ngyouhaveeverwant edand
needed.Youar eblessedtohavet hosewoman
becauset heyloveyouver ymuch.Bef oreIl
eaveI
wantyout oknowt hatIloveyouver ymuchmyson
andIaskt hatyouf orgivemef orallIdidwrongto
you.”
Zi
phocr
ies.Hesobsonhi
smot
herchestcr
ying
l
oud.
“Iforgi
veyoumama.Iwi shyouwouldn’
thavet o
diesoyoucangr owoldandseeallyour
grandchi
ldrenbuti
fthi
stourti
methenIhopeyour
j
ourneywi l
lbefi
ll
edwithli
ght.
”Hehugshertight
andkissesher.“Il
oveyou.”Hegetsupandleaves
theroom.
“Bongacomet
omeson.
”Bongashakeshi
shead.
“Please.”Hewalkst
oherandtakesherhand.He
doesn’tsitbutt
heyl
ookateachotherf
orl
ong.
“whenl uhtal
kedearli
eri
t’sli
kesheknewyouwer e
goingtoleaveus.Sheaskedust oopenourhearts,
saywhatwewant edtosayandf or
give.Idi
dthat
wit
hyouandIt ol
dyouIf orgi
veyouMa.Youdi d
apologi
zeandIhear dyou.Youwi l
lalwaysbethe
bestmot hert
oallofus.RestNtombi.”
“Takecar eofsomphi weandal lyourchildren.Tell
herIloveherverymuch.She’ sreallyatrueGumede
wifeandmot her
.TellherI’
m sorr
yIneversawt hat
atthebegi nni
ngbutt henIdidandI ’
m sorryittook
met hislong.Yoursonsar eGumede’ sbongaand
theyhavet otakeyoursurname.Idon’ twantt hem
growingupandf eel
ingli
ketheyar enotpar tofthis
familyfull
ybecauseoft hei
rsurnames.Pr omiseme
youwi l
lchangei t
?”
“Iwi
llMah.”hekisseshercheekandgoes
somewhereintheroom.
“Busani
?.”Shel
if
tsherhandt
ohi
m.Hegoes,
takes
i
tandsit
s.
“Iguessourdeal i
sof f
.”shetriest olaughbut
she’sst r
uggl i
ng.“Iwi shIhadgot tent oknowyou
betterbef orealloft hi
shappened.Ihadhopedwe
woul dbui ldarelationshipandIwi llbeyourot her
mot hertoobutasal wayswedon’ tgetwhatwe
want .Youhaveaf ami l
ynow.Youwi l
lnevereverbe
aloneint hiswor ld.Allofthesepeopl ei nhereand
somenother eareyourf amil
yandt here’snothing
theywon’ tdotoseeyouhappy, lovedandpr otected.
Iwillwatchoveryouandyourf ami lyfrom theot her
side.Yourmot herandsi sterarewai tingforme.She
hasf orgivenmeandIhopeyouf orgivemet oo.”
“Whent hedoctortol
dust hatmymot herwasdead
i
thurt.Itreall
ydidbecauseshewast heonl yparent
Ieverknewbutt henIt ol
dmysel fthatatleastyou
arestil
lhave.Ihaveanot hermot herthatIcancr yto
whenIneedt obutyoural soleavingmeandi t
’s
okay..Itwil
lbehardbutwewi l
lpullthrough.”He
ki
ssesherf or
ehead.“Iforgiveyoumot her.Say
hell
ot othem ontheothersi de.
”Mahcr i
es.
Myhusbandgoest
oherandwi
peshert
ear
s.
“Myl
ovel
ymbuso.Youhavegr
ownt
obet
his
wonder fulman, husbandandf atherIalwaysknew
youcoul dbe.Whoknewt hatbr i
ngingLuhi ntoour
l
iveswi llchangeyout hi
smuchandourwhol e
family?.Yousmi l
eandl aughmor e.Iam sopr oudto
callyoumyson.Al lofyouchangedyourl i
vesf or
thebetterandi t’
sbecauseoft hewomanwhol ove
you.Ther earemanyt hingsIr egretinmyl i
febut
beingamot hertoyoui snotoneoft hem.Thankyou
forlovi
ngmeandal waysr espect i
ngmeasyour
mot herevenaf tereverythingthathappen.Thank
youmyboyf oralsogi vi
ngmebeaut iful
grandchi l
dren.Ilovethem.”Myhusbandwi peshis
tearsandnods.Igot oherandt akeherhand.
“Thisf amilyhitajackpotwhenwemar r
iedyouluh.
Youdi dn’tjustmar r
yyourhusbandyoumar ri
edall
ofus.Iam sor r
yyouhadt ogot hroughtoughtimes
becauseofmeandmymi stakes.Youhave
sacrif
icedt hemosti nthisf amil
ymor ethanusandI
mustsayIdon’ tknowhowyoudi ditsometi
mes.I
gratef
ulandt hankfult
hatt heychoseyout obepar t
ofthisf amilybecausetheyknewweneededyou
andoneel se.I’
mt hankfulthatwhenIl eavemy
fami lywil
lbetakencareofbyyou.Youar etheir
mot hernowl uh.Theywi llcometoyouoraunt y
whent heynewssomet hing.Keepbeingt hegl ueof
thisf amil
yandkeephol dingitli
kehowyouar e
doingevent houghitishar dbutwhatyou’ redoing
fort hisf
amilykhanyodoesn’ tgounnot i
cedby
thosewhol i
veinthiswor ldandthosewhohave
passed.Mybeaut i
fulfi
rstborndaught er.
Ngi yakit
handakakhulu.Youwi llbeblessed
sthandwasam.Doyour emembert heconver sati
on
wehadatyourhouse? .
”
“IdoMah.
”
“Dothatmychil
d.Makesureyoursist
erdoesn’
t
st
ressandshe’
stakencar
eof.”Inod.
“Si
si?
.”
“I
’l
ltakecar
ealloft
hem Si
si.WenaPhumul a
Nt
ombi .
”Theyhugeachotherti
ghtandtheycry.I
hi
demyf aceonmbuso'scheatandcry.
“nocr
yinglove.Weknewi twascoming.Wejust
di
dn’
texpectitwi
llbeher
.”Hewhispersinmyear.
Myf
atheri
n-l
awgoest
oherandhol
dsher
.Het
ell
s
herhef or
givesherandhopesshewil
lfor
givehi
m
too.Hecr i
estooforhi
swifewho’
sleavi
nghim
forever
..Hewon’tgett
oseehereveragai
n.
“luhandyourot herdaught erswil
ltakecar eofyou.
Theywi l
lallbeher eforyouQwabe.Thankyouf or
thewonder fulyearsweshar estogether.Thankyou
forgivingmeal lthesechil
dr en.Youar etheonly
manIl ovedandf oreverwilll
ove.Whenyourt ime
comes.I ’llberightherewai ti
ngforyout ocome
backt ome.Iwantyout obehappyanddowhat
makesyouhappy.Tr avelthewor l
dlikeweal ways
did..Iwillbewi thyouatever ystepandt r
ipyou
take.”Babanods.
Hereyesscanallofus.Shesmi l
esthenlooksather
husband.Shepalmshi scheek.Shecloseshereyes
andAuntychecksherpul sethenshakesherhead.
Babacloseshereyes,kissesherthenpullsherto
hi
schestandwai l
s.Icryt oothenwipemyt ears.
“Iwil
lcal
lanambulance.Pl
easeleavether
oom.
”
Theytr
ytotakebababuthewon’tletgoofhi
swi
fe
butt
heytryunt
ilhedoesandtheyleave.
“letmet
eachyoul
uhwhatmustyousowhen
someonedi
es.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER97.

LUNGI
.

#Not
Edi
ted

Theambul ancecameandt heytookhert othe

hospital
.Aunt y,
mbusoandhi sdad.Theycame
back2hour slat
erandt heysaidthedoct ortol
d
them tocomebackt omor r
owmor ningtogett he
Post-mortem andt hedeathcerti
ficate.Wehadt o
callt
heot herextendedfami l
ymember sandt he
housei sfull
.Babawentt otheot herbedroom and
l
ockedhi msel ft
here.Theelderstoldust ogivehim
space.Iam sot iredandIwantt osl eep.
Myhusbandtakesmyhandandwewalktoour
bedroom.Weundresst
hengeti
nbedandhe
spoonsme.
“ar
eyousl
eepi
ngl
ove?
.”
“I’
mti
redbaby.Youwantust
otal
k?.
”Henods.I
tur
nandfacehim.
“MrBl oom decidedthathe’sgoingtoburyhi swife
andAngel sbacki nLondon.Hesai dthat’
swhat
theytalkedaboutifithappenedthatshediedand
alsohef eel
slikeSout hAfri
catookthem awayf rom
him.Busaniwant edt hem buri
edhereandwet r
ied
total
kt ohim buthewoul dn’tl
ist
en.Busani,Asanda,
LumkaandAmanda’ smot herwithMabuthowi l
lbe
fl
yingbackt oLondonwi ththem.Thef uneralwil
lbe
onMonday. ”
“Sowehavet
oleavet
omor
rowt
oowi
tht
hem.
”
“Sbuoff
eredusthei
rfami
lypl
ane.Wewi
ll
.Fl
yback
agai
ntomorrowaft
erthef
uner
al.
”
“andyouruncl
e?.”
“Mbuyi
sel
ocal
ledmewhenwewer
einhospi
taland
sai
dhi swifedeci
dedthathewil
lbehurr
iedin
Thursday.SotheycomehereforMah'sfuner
alon
Saturday.
”
“Thisisreall
yadarkti
mefort
hisf
ami
ly.Somany
peoplelostononenight
?.”
“Iknowbaby.Ikindoff eelresponsibl
eforAngel
a’s
deathyouknow.IfIdidn’tfl
yt hem her
ethenshe
wouldsti
llbeal
ive.Shewoul dn’tbedead.”
“Noyou’rewrong.Youaskedthem t
oleaveher
behindandOwamibei nghert
ookherdaughterby
for
ce.Herdeathisnotonyouokay?.”
“okl
ove.
”
“I
’m mustwor
ri
edabouthowsi
msi
sgoi
ngt
otake
i
t.
”
“She’
l
lbef
inebaby.Howdi
dyougether
e?.”
Itel
lhim ever
ythingt
hathappenedandwhatgogo
xulutol
dmet odo.Iam sti
llwrappi
ngmyhead
aroundthewhol ethi
ng.
“ThankGodyouweret
her
elove.Your
eal
lyar
ethe
gl
ueofthi
sfamil
y.”
“I’
mt i
redofal
lthebadthingst
hatar
ehappeni
ng.I
real
lyam.Iam l
iter
all
yexhaust
ed.”
“af
teral
lthef
uneral
s.Iam t
aki
ngyouandourki
ds
onaholi
day.Wereal
lyneedit
.”
“canwebr
ingt
henanni
es?
.”
“Orwecansendsi snont
otoyourdadshousewi
th
thenanni
essotheycanplaygr
andmaand
grandpa.
”hesays.
“Ili
kethati
deaanditwi
llf
orcet
hem t
ofi
nal
lyt
alk.
”
Ican’
twaitf
orthat
.
“Andtheboyscanenj
oybei
ngi
nthef
arm.They
l
oveitt
here.
”
“I
’
m goi
ngt
omi
ssher
.”Iyawn.
“metoolove.Sl
eepbabyt
omor
rowwehaveal
ong
dayt
oo.”

OneWeekLat
er.

Thel
astweekwasoneoft
hehar
destandl
ongest
weeksofourl ives.Babal eftaft
erbeingcl eansed
andnooneseemst oknowwher ehei sbutone
knowmyhusbandknowswher ehisfatherisat .
Simsdi dn’treactthewaywet houghtshewoul d.It
wasj ustust hreewhenshesai dshe’snotsadt hat
theolddied.Shehat edsi msf ornoappar entr eason
andonl yapol ogizedwhenhersecr etwasexposed.
IwasshockedbutIunder stoodwher eshewas
comingf rom andIdon’ tblamehercauset hati st he
trut
h.Icoul dhavet oldthathadMahdi edinmy
houseshewoul dhavel ostt hebabybutIdi dn’t.I
didn’
twanthert of eel badandt hinkmanyt hings
anditdidn’tmat teranymor e.
Allt
hefuner alswer ehardanddr aini
ng.Angel '
s
famil
yandf riendscameandt heywer er eall
yhur t
.
Theyexplainedt hatshewasexci tedtospendsome
ti
meher einSout hAf ri
cawithus.Theywer e
shockedtoseebusaniandmyhusbandt hatthey
wereidenti
calt wins.Weallfl
ewbackagai nandwe
onlyspentadayi nPieter
mar i
tzburgthenwel eftf
or
Ermelotobur yFanel e.Hi
swi f
echasedal lofus
Gumede'sandwehadt ostayatt hehotelandj ust
at
tendt
hef
uner
alI
’
mthemor
ning.
Mbuyi selo’smot herwast he2. 0ver sionofOwami .
Appar ent lythoset wower ethickast hieves.She
criedandbl amedbabaf orObama’ sdeat h.Lumka
washur tshameandIf eltforher .I
fIcanmakeone
wish.Iwoul dwishf orAngel atocomebackagai n
butlifedoesn’ twor kl i
ket hat.Fanel e'swi f
eal so
kickedoutMbuyi 'smot heratherhousebecause
theydon’ tgetalong.Mah’ sf uneralwasemot ional
.
Wedi dn’tgot ochur chcausewehadt ostayhome
andmakesur ethef oodandever ythingi sfine.
Mbusowant edust of indpeopl ewhowi llcaterbut
wesai dno.TheGumedef ami lyishuge.Bet weenus
andt hei rcousinsanduncl eswi veswet houghtwe
woul dmanagebutwedi dn’tbecausemanypeopl e
keptcomi ngtoof fert heircondol ences.Weended
upf i
ndi ngacat ererl ateThur sdayni ghtand
becauset hemoneywasgood.Shej umpedand
didn’taskanyquest ions.
Thecowswereof
feredbymyf amil
ytheNgcobo's.
Thehousewassofullwit
hpeoplecominginand
outl
ikei
twasaweddi ngandnotafuneral
.Si
ms
wast heonesi t
ti
ngonthemattresswit
haunt yand
otherextendedfamil
ymember s.Iwouldalsogo
therewhenpeopl ewouldcomet oof
fertheir
condolencesandsitwithherf
orawhi l
e.Shewas
closetolosinghermind.
Myboyswer esohandsomedr essesint heirlit
tl
e
tuxandt heyl eftwiththeirdadst othechur chwher e
Mah'sf uneralwasbei nghel d.Myaunt i
esf rom my
famil
yandcousi nsalsocamet olendahand.The
peoplethatwer ewor kingwi thmyhusbandandal l
theGumedemencame.Thei rbusinesspar tners
andpeopl et heydobusi nesswi t
hcameandt he
envelopest heyl ef
twast oomuch.Whatwas
surpri
singtouswast hatLesgo' sfami l
yshowedup.
Likeallofthem andIsawgogoXul utal
ki ngt o
LesegoandIt hi
nkshewascal mingherdown.Si ms
babydaddi esal socamet ooandSi mswasshocked.
Theysai dtheywer ether eonbehal foft heirsons
becauset heydi dsayt heirgrandmot herdi ed.That
wasmat ureoft hem andIt hinkit’
sbecausembuso
andbongagott hem muchmor epayingj obs.
Ionl
ysl
eptThur
sdayni
ghtonl
yandonFr
idayand
Sat urdayIdi dn’tsleepatal l
.Mybodywast ir
edand
myf eetwer eachi ngbutIhadt omakesur ethat
Mahget st hedigni fi
edsendofshedeser vesand
askedmeof .Shel ovedmeandIl ovedher.Shewas
mymot herandt hegr andmot herofmyki ds.Fri
day
afternoonwhenshewasbr oughthome, t
heycried.I
didn’t.Ididn’thaveanymor etearsandIwasdr ained.
Babawasl ikeawal ki
ngcor pse.Azombi e.He
wasn’ ttalkingtoanyone.Hewi llonlynodwhenI
gavehi m hi sfoodandt hatwasi t
.Ithurttoseehi m
l
iket hat.
Mahhadabeaut if
ulsendof .Simssai ditwasthen
thatshecr i
edwhenshehear dhowpeopl espoke
aboutherbutshewasst i
llnotsadt hatshedied.
Someatt hefoodwecookedandsomeatwhatt he
caterersprepared.Myhusbandwaswi t
hmenI
haveneverseenbef or
eandmostoft hem looked
l
iketheywon’ tfrom SouthAf r
ica.Hekeptl ooki
ngat
meandIknewsoonhe’ sgoingt oforcemet ogo
andsl eepsoImadesur eI’m notanywher ewhere
hiseyeswi llf
indme.Hel eftwi t
hthem andcame
backsmel l
ingofBourbon.Hewasn’ tdrunkbut
ti
psy.Thelastti
memyhusbandwasdr unkwas
whenwewer einIt
alyaft
erthetwi
nswerebor
n.I
wasafrai
dt hathewasgoi ngtodr
inkhi
msel
fint
oa
comabuthedi dn’t
.Whenhecamebackhel ooked
formeandt ookust obed.
Wear einLadysmi thatouthouse.Busanii s
cur r
entlyli
vingwi t
husbuthesai dhe’slookingfora
placet ostay.Idon’twanthimtoleaveyetcause
he’sstillhur
tingandheneedsever yonecl oseto
him.Myhusbandagr eedtoo.Heonl yagreedand
saidhewi l
ljuststayforafewmont hsthenaf t
erhe
fi
ndsahousecl osehewi l
lmoveint ohisplace.We
l
ef thimi nDur bancausethat
’swhathewant ed.
Wewi l
lbedri
vingtoO. RTamboI nter
national
Air
port
.Idon’
tknowwher ewear egoingt obecause
myhusbandsai ditisasurpr
ise.Iaskedhi mifI
mustbuywinterclothesorsummercl othesandhe
j
ustsaidwe’l
lbuyt hem whenwehert here.Iam so
exci
tedandIcan’twait.
“Whenar
eyout
wocomi
ngback?
.”mysadasks.
“Idon’
tknowdadbutIam goi
ngt
omi
ssyou
t
hough.”shesmil
es.“Ar
eyousur
eyouwi
llbef
ine
wit
hthekids?
.”
“luhtheyaremygr andchildren,nont
oishereyour
andtheirnannies.Istil
lthinkthoughtheyshoul
dgo
onaleavemaybef orj
ustt hreedaysthentheywil
l
comeback.Pl usyoursi stersnokuthulacal
ledme
andsaidshe’sgoi ngtobespendi ngaweekhere
witht
heki ds.Wewi l
lmanagemychi ld.”
“Okdadbutyouwi
l
lcal
lifanyt
hinghappen.”
“Iwil
lnot.Luhbabyyoudeservethi
shol
idaymor
e
thananyone.Youhavebeenthroughsomuchand
thi
siswhatyouandyourhusbandneed.”
“Iknowdaddy.Ij
usthopewehavepassedthr
ough
thehar
dti
meofourmar ri
ageandnowistheti
me
forust
oreal
lyenj
oyitandbehappy.
”
“Itisyourt
imenow.Yourmot herwouldbevery
proudofthewonder f
ulwomanyouhavegr ownup
to.Youareamot herandawife.Yourhusband
l
ovesyouver ymuchandhemakesyouhappy.
That’sal
lwhatparentswi
shforthei
rchil
dren.Iam
proudofyou.”
“Thankyoudaddy.”Ihughi
m andki
sshi
sbol
d
head.Helaughs.
“canIaskyousomet
hing?
.”
“I
’
m notget
ti
ngi
nvol
veddad.”
“Butyoudon’
tknowwhatIwantt
oask.”
“youmessedupandnowyouhavet ofigur
eout
howyouar egoi
ngtowinherheartdad.You
broughtUr
sulaevenaft
ergogoXulutal
kedtoyou
dad.Youbrokeherhear
t.”
“Imessedupneh?
.”
“youdidbutIknowyou’l
lfi
gur
eoutawayt
owi
n
herhear
tbackagain.”
“Idon’
tthi
nkI
’
m goodatt
hisdat
ingt
hing.
”
“Dadyouar eahandsomeman.I ’
m sureyousti
ll
haveitinyoutocharm herski
rtofohGodnotl i
ke
thatbutyouknowwhatImean. ”Helaughs.“look
dadifyoureall
yarevari
ouswithherthenmaybe
youneedt osurpr
iseherandsendal et
tert
oher
famil
y.”hesmi l
es.
“t
hatmi
ghtwor
kluh.Thankyoumychi
ld.Ihope
shewon’
tbeangr
yatme.
”
“shemi ghtbeupsetthatmaybeyoudidn’
ttal
kto
herfi
rstbutIthi
nkshe’l
lgetoveri
tandbehappy.
Shehast oseethatyouloveherandyouwantherin
yourl
ife.
”Henods.
“wher
e’syourhusband?
.”
“Het
ookt
heboyst
othef
arm.
”
“Ican’
twai
ttot
aket
hem t
omi
lkt
hecows.”Il
augh.
“haveyout
wot
alkedaboutt
ryi
ngf
oranot
herbaby?
.
”
“hababa.”webot
hlaugh.
“What ?Afterl
osingyourchi
ldIthoughtmaybe
you’l
lne,youknowt r
yingagain.Iwantmany
grandchi
ldrenluh.”
“youal r
eadyhave4gr andchi
ldr
enandpluswhy
aren’twaitaski
ngyoursonwhenaretheyhavi
ng
mor echil
dren.”
“Iaskedhi
m andhesai
dhe’
swor
kingoni
t.
”I
shakemyhead.
“wellIwoul
dlovet
ohaveanotherchi
ldbutt
hatwi
ll
happenonit
’sowndad.Don’
tworry.
”
“Tel
lmeI’
llbefi
rstt
oknowwhenyou’
repr
egnant
.”
Ismi
leandlookdown.“Luh?
.”
“Baba.”
“I
stheresomethingyouwantt
otel
lme?
.”Ismi
le.
“Areyoupregnantbaby?
.”
“Ididat estbythismor ningandi
tsaidposi
tive.
DadIhaven’ ttol
dmyhusbandsopl easelet
’skeep
i
tbet weenus.Don’ tt
ellanyoneel
seuntilhave
fi
nishedmyt hi
rdtri
mest er.”
Hegetsupandpull
smet ohim.Hehugsmet i
ght
andkissesmyf
orehead.If
eelhi
scheeksget
ti
ng
wet.
“Dadar
eyoucr
ying?
..I
’
mjustpr
egnantt
hat
’sal
l.”
“I’
m cryi
ngcauseI’
m happy.Thefami
lyisgrowing
andsomet hi
ngbeauti
fulcameoutoft
hiswhol e
mess.Thankyou.”Mydadi smakingmef eel
emotional
.
“I
’
m happyt
oodad.
”GogoZi
kal
alami
ghthave
knownt hatIwasal
readypregnantorabouttowhen
sheblessesmywomb.I ’
mj ustthankfult
hatIwil
l
carr
ymybabyandI ’m hopefult
oot hatIwon’
tlose
herorhim.
“yourhusbandi
sgoi
ngt
obesohappy.”
“Iknow.I’
m goi
ngt
otel
lhi
m whenwear
ewher
ever
we’r
egoing.”
“Ipr
omi
seIwon’
ttel
lanyone.
”Iwi
pehi
stear
s.
“I
shegoi
ngt
oleavet
heboysatt
hef
arm?
.”
“Heissothatwayhecanl eavewi
thoutt
hem
knowi
ng.Ididn’
twanttosaygoodbyecauseIknew
Iwoul
dcryandt aket
hem withus.
”
“okbaby.Ihavetogonow.Cal
lmewhenyoul
and
wher
everyou’regoi
ng.
”
“
Iwi
llcal
lever
ydaydaddon’
twor
ry.”
“Il
oveyou.”
“Il
oveyout
oo.
”Heki
ssesmycheekandl
eaves.
Ifi
nishpacki
ngthebagcontai
ningourcl
othes.I
showerandIpackwinterandsummerclothes.Our
passpor
tsar
ereadyandnowI ’
m wait
ingf
orhimto
showerandchangesowecandr i
vedowntoJoburg.
Imakemyselfacoldmeatsandwichandeat
.My
husbandwal
ksinafterawhi
le.Hesit
sandsighs.
“what
’swr
ong?
.”
“theboyscoul dsenset hatIwasleavingthem
behind.WhenIwast alkingtoyouri nthehouse
thoselit
tl
er ascalswer eoutsi dethecarwait i
ngfor
mesowecanl eave.Lucki l
yyourdadcameand
whent heysawhi mt heyf orgotaboutmeandIgot
i
nt hecaranddr oveof f.WhenIl ookedbackIsaw
them runningaf t
erthecarcr yi
ng.Itwashar d.I
almostdr ovebackbutt henIt houghtIwouldn’t
haveyoual lt
omysel f.”Ismi l
e.
“you’
rer
eal
lyhungr
yneh?
.”
“Wehavet
oleavei
nanhourbabyandyesIam
hungr
y.Pl
easegoshowersowecanleave.”
“comeshowerwi
thme.
”
“Ihaveal
readyshower
edandi
fIgoint
her
ewi
th
youwe’l
lnelat
eandmissourf
li
ght
.”
“you’
rer
ight
.I’
l
lbedonei
ninaf
ew.
”
“Yourcl
othesar
eonthebed.
”Heki
ssesmy
for
eheadandgoest
oshower.
“Ihopeyouwon’ tmakemeeatt oomuchbaby.I
can’
twaittotel
ldaddyaboutyou.”Ibr
ushmynon
exi
stentbel
ly.
Ifi
nisheat
ingandwashmypl ate.Ihopemy
husbandistaki
ngmesomewher ewarm whereI
’
ll
gettowearmybathi
ngsuitorjustwalkaroundt
he
housenaked.Imadesur
eIdidal i
tt
leshoppi
ngfor
sexyli
ngeri
eandswimsui
ts.
“love?
.”Itur
nandmybr eathhit
ches.Thi
smanwill
neverstopmaki
ngmefallinlovewit
hhim,bl
ush
andjustmakemykneesgetweak.Iwal kupt
ohim
andkissthel
ivi
ngdayl
ightsofhim.
“LookatmenowbabyI
’
m hor
ny.”
“Youl
ooksohandsome.
”
“If
eelhandsome.
”He’
sweari
ngnot hi
ngfancyj
ust
hi
spoloshir
tandshor
tsfr
om PsychoBunnyand
hi
sAll
-st
ar.“andyoumadam t
hatdressi
svery
dangerous.Igiggl
e.I’
m wear
ingayel
lowfl
owybr
a
l
esssummerdr essthati
sabovemyknees.Mygi
rl
s
areouttoplay.
“Ar
ewegoi
ngt
ohavecarsexont
hewayl
ove?
.”
“I
fwel
eavenowImi
ghtj
ustl
etyouhi
tit
.”
“l
et’
sgo.
”Il
augh.
.
Mycousi
nwhostaysinourhousewhenwearenot
her
ehashisownkey.Wegetinthecaranddr
ive.
Wechat ,li
stentothemusi c, si
ngal ongandl augh.
West opintheroad, takepicturesofeachot herbut
hetakesmi nemost ly.Gavehi m ablowj obwhilehe
wasdr i
vingandhel ovedi t.Threehoursl at
erwear e
atO.RI nter
nati
onalAi r
port.Ican’
twaittohear
wherewear egoing.I’vebeenaski nghimt heenti
re
ti
meandheonl yt ol
dmeI ’
m goi ngtoloveit.
“whatar
ewewai
ti
ngf
or?
.”wear
eint
hecaratt
he
par
kingl
ot.
“Nsel
eiscomi ngt
odri
veyourcarbackt
o.Dur
ban.
”
Wewaitforfi
vemoreminut
esthenmyhusbands
phoneri
ngs.“Nsel
e?.
.OkI’
m sendi
ngyoumy
l
ocati
on.”Hehangsupandsendshim wherethe
di
rect
ionofwhereweparked.“her
eheislove.Let
’s
go.”Westepoutofthecar
.
“goodafter
noonBossandMadam.”Wegr eethi
m
backandhehelpsmyhusbandtakeoutt
hebagI
packed.
“you’
llf
indmybrot
herint
hehouse.Givehimthe
keysandtel
lhi
m nott
odri
vemywi fe’
scars.
”
“Iwi
llsi
r.Enj
oyyourhol
iday.
”
“Thankyou.
”Wel
eaveandheget
sint
hecar
.
Wewal
kinandgot
othet
icketagent
.
“Goodaf
ter
noon.HowmayIhel
pyou.
”Thel
ady
says.
“aft
ernoon.Checki
nginf
orthefl
ighttoGr
eece…”
helooksatmeandmymout hhangsopen.
“Santori
ni.
”Ican’
thel
pbutscr
eam likecr
azy.
“OhmyGodbaby!.We’
regoingtoSantor
ini
?.”I
thr
owmyar
msar oundhim andkisshi
m.Hel aughs.
Theagentdi
rect
suswhichgatet
ogot hr
ough.We
do,got
ocustomsandtheycheckever
ythi
ng.I
wonderwhyhedi dn’
twantust oflypri
vate.Our
fli
ghti scalledandwear ef
lyi
ngfirstcl
ass.Ohmy
Godt hisfeelsl
ikeadr eam.Iam sohappyr ightand
I
’m st il
lshocked.Myhusbandl i
stenstomewhenI
talk.Ihavebeent al
kingaboutwant i
ngtogot o.
Sant oriniandhereIam onmywayt herewithhim.
MyGoddr eamsdocomet rue.Hecan’tst
optaki
ng
pict
uresofmeandIl ovingit
.Isendmysi st
ers
pict
uresandt ellthem whereI’
m goingandthe
messagest hatf oll
owareinsane.Il
etthem know
thatI
’l
ltal
kt othem whenwel and.
“Thankyoubaby.Li
keOhmyGod.”
“youdeser
vet
hisandmor
e.”Ipul
lhi
m andweki
ss.
“Ladiesandgent
lemen.Pleaseputinyourseat
bel
tsaswear eaboutt
ot akeoff
.”Thefli
ght
att
endedsaysaft
erint
roducinghersel
f.Icl
apmy
handsandIfeell
ikeakidonChr i
stmasEve.My
husbandchuckl
esshakinghishead.

#Chapt
erTypedByMans.
#Fi
nishedAf
ter
TwoDays

#Thankf
ulFor
Him.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER98

LUNGI
.

#Not
Edi
ted

Wet ookaconnecti
ngfli
ghtfrom SouthAfricato
Athensthenwef l
ewstrai
ghttoSant or
ini
.Seeing
theisl
andwi thmyowneyeswasj ustamazing.I
cantwaittoseethesunsetandsunr i
seinthe
morning.Wehaveacaral r
eadywai ti
ngforust ous
toourhotel.Thesmi
leonmyf acehasleftever
sincewef l
ew.Idon’tknowhowmanyt i
mesI
thankedmyhusband.Ast hecarisdrivi
ngtakingus
tothehot elIkeeplooki
ngout si
deseeingthe
beautifulli
ghti
ngont hestreet
ssinceit’
salready
theeveni ng.Icanseethebeaut i
fulbl
ueskiesand
thefullmoonshi ningbri
ghtont heseewi t
hi t
s
refl
ection.Thisisheaven.
Thecarst opsandanot hermanopensourdoor .My
husbandf ir
ststepsoutt henhet akesmyhandand
helpmest epoutt oo.Myhusbandt i
pst heguywho
wasdr ivingusandhel eaves.Wef oll
owt heman
thatleadsust otherecept i
on.Wechecki nandt hey
giveisourkeyf orthenextt hr eedays.Anot her
beaut i
fulwhi t
ewomancomesandshet akesust o
ourpr i
vatehot elroom.Het ipshert heshecl oses
thedoor .Iwal karoundt her oom andi tisbig,
beaut i
fulandbr eatht aking.Thebat hroom hashi s
andher svani ty,purewhi t
emar bl eeverywher e.Our
bedroom i sbigandi tl ookssocomf ortabl
e.Iwon’ t
mi ssmybedathome.Ever ythingi nher eispure
whi t
eandt heduvetl ookssot hick.
Myhusbandi
swat
chi
ngmet
hiswhol
eti
meandI
can’
tstoplaughing.Ilookathi
mthenl
ookatthe
bed.Ir
unt oitandfallonmybackandlaugh.He
l
aughst ooandjoinsme.
“comeandseet
hebal
cony.
”
Hetakesmyhand,opensthedoubl
edoorsand
fr
eshcoolai
rcomesin.Wewalkoutsi
deandYou
canseetheseaandtheful
lmoonShini
ng.
“Wear egoingtowat
cht
hesunrisei
nthemor ning
fr
om thisvi
ewbabyandourbal
conyhasprivacy.
”
Hestandsbehindandwr
apshisarmsaroundme
andkissesmynape.
“wecanwalkaroundnaked,eatourbr
eakf
astand
domanyotherwonderf
ulthi
ngsnakedandnoone
wil
lseeus.
”Igi
ggle.
“Andt hatJacuzzii
ssoi nvi
ti
ng.Ican’twaitforus
togetintherenakedandbeont opoft hi
sbody.”He
gri
ns.There’saknocki nthedoor.Hewal ksbackin
ourroom.Thel adycomeswi that r
oll
eyandput s
theplatesonthetableIguessit’
sourf oodandIsee
abottleofchampagne.Ihaven’tplannedhowI ’
m
goingtotellhi
m wear eexpect
inganot herl
it
tle
Gumede.Iknowhe’ sgoingtobesuspiciousofI
don’tdr
inkthechampagneevent houghhedoesn’t
wantmet odrinkal
cohol.Iam hungrybutIam so
j
etlagged.Theladyleaveclosi
ngthedoor.
Iwalkbacki
nandmyhusbandpopst he
champagne.Hepoursustwogl
asses.Damn.I
guessIhavetot
ellhi
m now.
“l
ove?”Il
ookathi
m.“you’
vebeenl
ooki
ngatt
he
gl
ass.Ar
eyouokay?.”
“Iam.Idon’
twanttodri
nkonanempt yst
omach
andIwanttoshowerf
ir
st.I
’
mt i
redbabyaren’
tyou?
.
”
“Iam l
ovebutonegl
asswon’
thur
t.”
“l
et’
seatf
ir
st.
”
“You’
reri
ght
.Comeandsitandmadam.”Ismi
le.
Hepull
sthechai
rformeandIsi
t.
“t
hankyoubaby.”Hesi
tsandr
emovest
hecl
ock.
Mymouthwaters.
“hmmm bakedSalmon,
gril
ledAsparaguswit
ha
sal
adonthesi
de.Youorder
edthislove?.”
“Idi
d.Youl
ovei
t?.”
“Ido.Yourhavi
ngmashpot
atoesandst
eak.Real
ly?
”helaughs.
“Iknowyoulovet
hatandyouknowIl
ovemeat .We
arebot
hhappy.Doyouwantsomewaterorj
uice?.”
“wat
eri
sfi
nebaby.
”Hepour
sitf
orme.
“tousenj
oyi
ngourhol
iday.”her
aiseshi
sgl
ass.I
takemi
ne.
“Tousbei nghappy.Cheer
s.”Wecli
ckourgl
asses
andIdr i
nkmywat erhedri
nkshi
schampagne.We
enjoythefoodandourcompany.Aft
erwehavelat
e
dinnerwegot oshowerandgeti
nbedandsleep.
That’showtir
edwear eandwedidn’
tevenswit
ch
ourphonesback.
Ifeelsohotandsweat y.Mybodyf eel
stingl
yandI
feelpressur
ebetweenmyt highs.DamnIneedt ogo
andpeebuti tissohardtogetoutofbed.Iopenmy
eyesandl ooktomyr i
ghtandmyhusbandi sdeep
i
nsl eep.Isl
owlygetoutofbedandgot othe
bathroom.Ipeeandsi ghaf
terI ’
m done.Iwipe
mysel fandIreal
iseIwaswet .Ibrushmyt eethand
decidet
oshowerwhil
ehe’
ssti
llsl
eepingandI
’
ll
orderbr
eakf
astandwakehi
m upwi t
hit.
Ishowerqui cklyandwhenI ’m doneIwr apmysel f
withat owel.Iuset hephonef rom thebat hroom
andpl aceouror derf orbreakfast.Thesuni sgoing
torisesoonandIwanthi mt obeawakeandseei t.I
l
eavet hebat hr oom andnowhe’ slyingf aceupand
heissnor ingal i
ttle.Iopenthebal conydoor sand
fr
eshmor ningai rjusthitsmyf ace.Idr opthet owel
andl ettheai rcar essmyski n.Iwal kt oourbedand
slowlyremovet hecomf ort
eruntili
ti scompl etel
y
offthebed.Hi sdi ckisal wayssemi erectandIl ove
i
t.Iclimbont hebed, l
aymybodynextt ohisthen
grabhi sdick.Hebr eathesoutandIsmi l
e.Ijackit
uptwi ceandi tgr ows.
Theveinspopoutaroundhi sdick.Hismushroom
headispinkandshi
ny.Itlooksbeaut i
fulandtasty.I
moveupandputmyl egsont heei t
hersideofhis.I
l
owermyheaddown, li
ckhisdickheadt henswallow
hi
m whole.Hegroansandcal lsmyname.Ibopmy
headupanddownsucki nghi m deep.Ifeelhi
m
fi
ll
ingmymout hashegr ows.If eelhi
shandsonmy
headpressi
ngitmor edownonhi m.Imoanand
conti
nuetosuckhim withtonguemovingar ound
hisdi
ckthenmovet ohi
sballsandsuckthem inmy
mouth.Theskinfeelssosoftandheavy.Igoback
tosucki
ngthatsti
ckIlovesomuchandhecur ses.I
openmyeyesandwat chhim andhiswatchingme.
Icanfeelhi
smuscl esfl
exi
ngashei sbreathingin
andoutdeeply.
Hequicklypull
smeupt ohim andweki ssl i
kewe
areinahur r
y.Ourt eet
hclash,tonguesseek
dominanceagai nsteachotherandhi shandsar eall
overmybody.Imovemyhandsdownandgr abhis
shaft
.Ilookathim andsmi lethenturnar ound
sheathmyselfdownandhesl i
psin.Afteraweekof
notbeinginti
mat eIdon’tbl
amemysel fforbeing
thi
swet .Myclitispointi
ngupr eadytobet eased
andmybodyi sreadyt oexplode.
Iturnandl
ookathim andhiseyesareonmyass.I
wanthimtowatchitasIridehi
mr ever
secowgirl
st
yle.Ibal
ancemyhandsonhi skneesandbeginto
move.Fuckhefeel
stoodeept hi
swaybutI ’
m not
goingtost
op.Ir
idehimlikehel
l,Imakeitcl
apandI
spellhi
snameandmi nemovingmywai standhi
ps.
Ourbodiesarewetandmyl egsbegintoshake.I
am closetocummi ng.Myhusbandpull
soutand
cli
mbsof fthebed.Hepull
smyl egst
otheedgeof
thebedandmakesmegetonal lfour
s.
“Looklove,
thesuni sabouttori
se.
”Iopenmyeyes
andwear ebothfacingit
.Hepull
smyasschecks
apartt
henIfeelhishottongueonmycoochieand
hemuf f
smel i
kecr azy.
“OooohhhhGooooood.
”Igr
abt
hesheet
s.
Hetonguefucksme,hist
humbisrubbi
ngmycli
t.
Hismouthgoesfrom mypussyt
omyt i
ghtr
ingand
Iscr
eam.
“FuuuuuckI’
m….OhGod!I ’
m coming!
.”hi
sthumb
runsgent
lyonclitandhist
ongueinme.Iseefi
re
worksandexplodescreaminghisname.
Ifeelhishardshaftenteri
ngmehar dandhefucks
met hroughmyor gasm.Hi shol donmyasscheeks
i
ssot i
ghtli
kehe’sholdingonf ordearl
if
e.Hisshaf
t
movi nginandoutofmehi tt
ingallmusclesand
nervesinmypussyhasmef eeli
nghighoncloud
nine.Hepullsmybodymuchmor etotheedgeand
hisheavysacksl apsagainstmycl i
t.Oht hisfeel
s
sof uckengood.Hewr apshi sfi
ngersar oundmy
throatandthrust
si nr
ougherandascr eam escapes
mymout hbecausehe’ shit
ti
ngmyg- spotoverand
overagain.Iwantt ot
ellhimI ’
m comingbutIcan’ t
set ofi
ndthewor dsbecausehi sthr
ust sare
knockingeverybreathoutofmybody.Isqueezemy
vaginamuscl es,
contracti
ngandr el
easingt hem on
hisdick.
“OhFuuuuuuuck!”Icanf eelhi
sabouttocome
causehe’sthrustsareget t
ingmorerougher,l
onger
andfast
er .MybodyshakesandIwel comemy
cli
maxtot akeoverandsendmeovert heedge.He
wrapshisot herhandar oundmywai stwhenhe
seesmyl egsar efail
ingtosupportmybody.I
moanandsqueezemypussyagai nandhecomes
toandfeelsmewi t
hhi swonderfulwarm seed.Hi
s
wholeweightf al
lsdownonmybackpi nni
ngme
downonmyst omach.
Wearesosweat
yandourhear
tbeat
sar
ebeat
ing
sof
astl
ikewewerer
unni
ng.
“looklove.youmi
ssedwat chingt
hesunr
ise”he
whispersonmyear .Ishudderandmyski
ngets
coveredingoosebumps.
“You’
retheonewhomadeithardf
ormetowat
chi
t.
I
tisbeauti
fult
hough.
”Heki
ssesmynape.
“ourf oodwil
lgetcol
d.Letmegot
akeit
.”It
urnmy
headandl ookathow.Hepecksmycheek….More
thanjustapeck.Heawakesmybodyagainwit
hhis
kiss.Imoan.
“I’
m notdonewi t
hyou.”Imakeammmm sound.
Hechuckl es.Helif
tshisbodyupandpul lsout.Hi
s
war m seedspil
lsoutandthecoolaircaressesmy
skin.Hehelpsmegeti nbedandIlayfacingup.I
canst i
llf
eelmyskel et
onshaking.Thi
smancan
fuck.
Hegoest otaket hetowelondroppedandwrapsit
aroundhiswai st.Idr
oolasIlookathi
ssexylower
absandt hatv-thingshapet
hathehasandthet ent
thati
svisibl
e.Godwhatwewoul dwedowi t
hout
youandgi vi
ngussuchmen? .ThankyouGodf or
themenandf ormyhusbandwhoknowshowt o
pl
easemebygi vingmeendlessorgasms.Il aught
o
myself
.I’
m sureGodunderstandswherecomi ng
fr
om.Hewal kstothedoorandunlocksitthen
opensitandpull
sthetr
ayinsideandlocksthedoor
agai
n.
“areyouhungry?.”Ishakemyheadno.I ’mreal
ly
not.Hegri
nsanddr opsthet owel.Hewalkstome
andcrawlsonthebed, separatesmylegsandgets
betweenmyt hi
ghs.Hishar dshaftisdi
rect
lyonmy
cl
itandbetweenmyst omachandhi s.
“goodmor
ningst
handwasam.
”
“I
tisar
eal
lygoodmor
ningi
ndeed”
“Yesitis.Imissedbei
ngwokenupl
iket
his.
”He
l
ickshislips.
“welli
fyoukeeptaki
ngmet osuchplaces,I’
l
ldo
thi
ngstoyouthatwil
lleaveyouspeechless.”
“mmm Ilovet
hat
.Letmei
n.”heki
ssesmedeepl
y
st
eal
ingmybreat
h
“Wher
e?”Ibr
eat
h
“kwi
phakadel
ami
.”Il
augh.“l
ayonyoursi
de.”Ido.
Heget sbetweenmyt hi
ghsscissorsst yl
eandIcan
feelhisdi ckknockingout si
detheent ryashe’s
rubbingi taroundmewi thhiscum.Hepul lsmet o
him andIknowt hisisgoingtobenotsogent le.My
ri
ghtl egisonhi sshoulder,
her ubsmycl i
tagain
thenpl ungesi nslowlybutdeep.Ohf uckthisis
amazi ng.Hepul l
salmostoutt henhet hr
ustsin
againsogent l
e,sensualandsodamnsexy.Hi sone
handi srubbi ngmycl i
twhil
etheot heronei s
holdingmyr ightlegupandhei skissingmycal f.I
didn’
tknowt hat,t
hatpartofmei ssosensi ti
ve.
Hissl ow, deepthrustandt hefeelofhishai
rylegs
onmyst omachandassi smaki ngmybodyf eelal
l
sortsofemot ions.Irubthosethick,st
rongand
Harryt highsthatIlovesomuch.Il ovehowhe’ s
movi ngi nandoutofme.He’ smakinglovetome
andmybody.Hepul l
sout,laysbehindmeandpul ls
mybackcl osetohi schest.Helif
tsmyl egagain
thent hrustsin.Hisr i
ghthandsnakesar oundmy
shoulder stomyf aceandt urnsmyheadandt he
plungesdownhi stongueinme.
Ourbodi
esmoveasoneaswedot
heanci
entol
d
dancedonebyourf orefathersandancest orsbef or
e
us.Oursoul smer gel ikei ti
sourf ir
stt i
memaki ng
l
ovel i
kethisandi tf eelslikeit.Itisi ntensel i
kean
i
nfernoisgoi ngtobur stoutofus.Icanf eelhislove
formef i
ll
ingmei nwaysIhaveneverf eltbefore.
Godwhati shappeni ng.Myl ovef orhimi ntensifi
es
witheachst roke,kissandt ouch.Mybodyi sr eady
toletgoandl ett
hei ntensef ireconsumeus.I
cli
maxandt heonl ywor dsplayi ngi nmyheadar eI
l
oveyou.Il ove.Iloveyou.If eel hisshaf ti
nme
expanding,movi ngandt henhi sseedshoot sout
andgoest omywomb.I fIwasn’ talreadypr egnantI
sureashel lhisseedwoul dbef er ti
li
zingmyegg
ri
ghtnow.
West aylikefeeli
ngeachot herandnott al
king.
Listeningt othebirdsandt heseamaki ngnoise.I
l
ovebei ngher e.Hishandmovesf rom myl egtomy
stomachandhebr ushesit.Iknowhe’ sthi
nkingt he
samet hingIwast hinking.Iknowhe’ shopingt hatI
fallpregnant.Ican’twai tt
ot el
lhim andseet helook
onhi sf ace.Ilovethisman.
Weshower
edandhadbr
eakf
astaf
tert
hatwecal
led
homeaf terchangingthesi m cards.Dadsai dthe
twinswer efi
neandenj oyingthef arm whent hey
wentt oit.Hesai dtheywoul daskwher ewear eand
he’l
ltellthem wewentt ot own.Thepi cturesItook
andsentt hem toSimsandLesegohadt hem feel
ing
j
ealous.Wel eftthehotelandt ookawal karound
theislandandi tissobeaut if
ul.Thelandscapes, the
peoplear oundandt hefoodint herestaurantwas
j
ustspect acul
ar.Iboughtaf ewi temsf ormysi st
ers
andal lthekids.Iknowt heyar egoingt olovethem.
Wecamebackt ookoffourcl othesandwentt osi
t
ont hebal conysunbat hing.Myhusbandenj oyed
moi stur i
zingt hesunscr eenonmynakedbodyandI
didtoo.Layi ngt herenakedandwat chi nghi
sdick
standi ngwaswor t
hever yroughst r
okeIhaveever
received.Thenextt wodaysi nSant oriniwere
absol utelyamazi ng.Her entedal uxur yboatandwe
spentt hewhol edayandni ghtatt hesea.Wehad
ourowncapt ainandst affwor kingcat eri
ngtoour
everymove.Weswam i ntheseaunt ilIwasdead
ti
redandhungr y.Theroom wesl eptithadanopen
rooftopandwewat chedt hest airsshiningbri
ght
.I
wishedmykidswereheretoexperi
encethisbutI
knowonedaywewi llcomeandexper i
enceit
toget
her
.Iwasgoingtomissthisplacealot.
Thenextdaywef l
ewt oAt hensandt ravelledbya
l
uxur ytrainfrom At henst oVeni ce“TheCi tyof
Canals” ,“Athensf loatingCi t
y.”wher ewest opped
andst ayedonedayandspentt heni ght .Wegoton
theboatandwet ookat ourar oundt hef l
oatingcit
y
andMyGodi twasbr eathtaking.Wewal kedat
nightandyouwoul dsweari t’
sdur i
ngt heday
becauset her estaurant swer estillopenedand
peoplewer eenjoyingt heirfoodandwi net hatI
wantedt ot astesobadbutIcoul dn’tandImade
everyexcuseyoucant hinkoft hatIwasst ayingoff
from thewi neforsomet i
meandmymanwashappy
toheart hat.Wedef init
elyhadr ealI t
alianpi zzaand
somepast a.Iam def i
nitel
ycomi ngbackher eagain.
WehadaChauf feurthatdroveusfr
om Venicet o
MilanthenextdayandIwassoexci t
edcauseI
knewwhywewer ethere.Toshopunti
lHedr ops
andt hat
’swhatIdid.Ibroughtmysel
fclot
hes
basicall
yawholenewwar drobeandIwonderi fmy
husbandsawt hattheclot
hesIwasbuyi ngwer e
mat er
nit
ycl othes.Allhekeptsayingwast hathe’
s
happyIwasspendi nghismoneywi thoutacar ei
n
thewor l
d.Ibr oughtmysi st
ersbags, shoes,dresses
andcoat s.Ibroughtsisnontoabeaut i
fuldesigner
dressandahadt oo.Iboughtmynanni esandmy
otherhousekeeperdesi gnersneakerst oo.We
broughtalltheboyscl othesandformyl it
tl
ekamoI
broughtherawhol eknewwar drobet oo.Ican’twait
toseeherbeaut if
ulfaceasshet r
ieshercl othes.
Weaskedf ort heclot
hestobeshi ppedbackhome
andwepai dever yt
hingincl
udingtheshi pmentand
everyt
hingel sethatwebeneededoneachshopwe
broughtclothesat .
Wehaddi nnerandt henextdaywef lewtoParis
andIwast ir
ed.Mybodywasbegi nningtocompl ai
n
andIwasmi ssi
ngmyki ds.Thenextmor ningmy
husbandbookedmeaspadayatt hehotelandI
wassol ooki
ngf orwardtoi t
.Halfofthedaywas
spenttherewellhewast her
ewat chi
ngmeget t
ing
al
lpamper edup.Her efusedt obepamper edand
sai
dIal r
eadydot hatbutIknewhedi dn’
twantt obe
touchedbyanyone.Iwaspamper edli
keitwasmy
weddingdayandIf eltli
keIwasthemostbeaut
if
ul
gir
lintheworld.Heleftmetogo“takecareof
somet hi
ng”.WhenIwasdoneIwast akento
anotherroom andnotthehoneymoonsuitweare
using.
Therewasabeaut i
fulsilkblackdr essont hebed.I
pickeditupandt hewassosof tandlight.Wowt his
dresswasgor geous.Thewomeni ntr
oduced
themselvesandIwasaskedt osi tdown.Themi r
ror
wascover edandIcoul dn’tseewhatt heywer e
doingtome.Theydi dmyhai rfi
rstthenmakeup
andt hewholethingtookal mostt hreehour s.Iwas
soexcitedandIcoul dn’twaittoseehowIl ook.
Theyhel pedmeputonmydr esswhenIwasdone
andi tf
itmeper f
ectl
yl i
ketheper sonwhodesi gned
i
nt ookmeasur ement sofmybody.Thesmi lewas
j
ustr ef
usingtoleavemyf ace.
“Areyoureadytoseehowyoulookma’am?.”Inod.
“Pleasedon’
tcryandruinmymakeup.
”Wegi ggl
e.
“yourhusbandwon’tknowwhathi
thi
m.Hei s
goi
ngt obespeechl
ess.Youar
esobeauti
ful
.”she
saysthentheotherl
adyremovesthecl
otht
hatwas
cover
ingthefl
oortocei
li
ngmi r
ror
.
Igaspinshock.Thisisnotme.Idon’tlookli
kethi
s
andIhaveneverlookedl i
kethi
s.Thedresshugs
mybodyper fect
lyshowingthetopofmybooks.My
hairi
spull
edbackf rom myfacetothet opofmy
headandal ongsleekofponytai
lfall
sonmyback.
Myeyesar edarkandsmokeyandt hebloodred
l
ipsti
ckhasmef eeli
nglikeI’
m goi
ngt oanopening
ofsomeshoworsomet hing.
“OhmyGod.Il ookwow.”Ilookattheladiesthat
wer edoi
ngmyhai randmakeup.“Thankyouso
much…Ihaveneverf el
tsobeauti
ful….”tears
prickl
emyeyesandIt akeadeepbr eat
handf i
ght
them.“Allofyouthankyou.Wow!.”Theygi ggl
eand
wipethei
rtears.
“Wearehappyt hatyoul oveyourhai randmakeup
andgir
lthatdress?.Yourmanhast aste.”Ibl
ush.
Hesuredoes.“ourj obisdoneher e.Someonewi ll
cometot akeyoutoyournextdest inati
on.Havea
wonderf
ulnightMr sGumede.”t heyhaveaBr iti
sh
accent
.I’
mj usthappythatmymakeupwasdone
bymypeopl
e.
“Thankyou.Haveawonder fuleveni
ngt
oo.”They
taket
heirt
hingsandleave.Il
ookatmyselfagai
n
andI’
m speechl
ess.Someoneknocksont hedoor.
“Comein.”awhi
tewomancomesi nf
oll
owedby
anot
hermanwho’shol
dingabr
ief
caseIfrom.
“Don’
tbealarmedMrsGumede.Yourhusbandsent
ustodeli
vert
hesetoyou.Maywe? .”Inod.Theguy
goestothebedandopensthebri
efcaseandIsee
spar
kli
ng,shi
nyandrefl
ect
ingt
hings.
Imovecloserandseeaneckl
acethati
smadeout
ofdiamonds.Wow.Ther
e’sawri
stbracel
ett
oo,
a
Rolexwatchandmanyri
ngs.
“Ever
ythi
nginherei
syour
s.Hesaidyoucanwear
anyt
hingyouli
keandther
estwi
llbekeptsaf
eand
shi
ppedbackhome.”
“Ok.”It
aket
helongneckl
aceandIwonderhowI
’
m
goi
ngtoweari
t.
“Icanhel
pyouwi
tht
hat
.CanIt
aket
hisof
f?.”
“No.I
tnevercomesof
f.”i
t’
sthatt
hinggogoxul
u
tol
dmet onevertakeitoff.Shenods.Sheal i
tt
le
tal
lerthanmesoshepl acest henecklaceonme
andt helongdiamondsf allonmyback.Oksot hi
s
i
showyouweari t
?Wow! .Theroundpar tofiti
son
myneckt hent
her esti
sonmyback.Il oveit
.“It’
s
beautiful
.Ever
ythingherei sbeaut
ifulthankyou.”
shesmi l
es.
“letmehelpyouwit
hyourshoes.
”Shehol dsmy
handandhelpsmegetmynudet hreeinchpumps
i
n.Myr edbott
oms.“letmet
akeyout oyour
husband.
Wel eavet heroom andwegetintheelevator
.She
pressest herooft
opbuttonIsmile.Wearegoingto
havedi nnerunderthemoonlightnexttotheEif
fel
Tower .Cansomeonepi nchmenowcauseIdon’ t
wantt owakeup.
“Areyour
eady?
.”Ifeelsogi
ddy.But
ter
fl
iesi
nmy
st
omachandalit
tl
enervousIdon’
tknowwhy.
“Iam.
”Shesmi
les.
Theel
evat
ordoorsopenandIam shocked.The
whol
erooftopi
sbreath-
taki
ng.Ist
epoutofthe
elevatorandIf inal
lynot i
cethatmyf ami l
yishere.
Hef lewalloft hem here.Mydadandsi snontoare
hereandevenbaba, sbuandsbani .Fr ankandmy
aunt, uncl
eVi ctornoauntl wethutoo.Iam sohappy
ri
ghtnow.Si msappear sonmysi deandgi vesme
mybouquet .Theyar eal lweari
ngwhi teTuxedos
andeveni nggowns.Theyl ooksogor geousand
handsome.Myhusbandandi naretheonl yones
wear ingblack.Myt earsst r
eam downandsi ms
fansmyf ace.
“t
hatmanr eall
ylovesyou.Noonedeser vesthi
s
morethanyou.Iloveyou.”Sheairki
ssesmet he
wal
kst oherhusband.Mybr ot
herwalksupt ome
smil
ing.Iwi
llnotcrynotwhenIlookthisbeauti
ful
.
“Youhavebeent hroughthewor st.Nowi st
heti
me
tofinal
lyenj
oyyourmar r
iage.Thisisyourhappil
y
everafter
.”Heki
ssesmycheekt henwal kstohi
s
wife.She’
sacryingmess.Thel astbornziphois
sandwichedbetweenhiswi ves.He’sreal
lya
polygamist.
Busanicomeswit
htwol
it
tl
epeopl
ewholookl
ike
hi
m andt heyr
unt
omeassoonastheyseeme.I
gi
ggleandkisst
hei
rlit
tl
echeekshuddli
ngthem.
ThenIstanduphol
dingtothei
rli
tt
lehands
“Iwasnott herethefirstt
imeyougotmar ri
edbutI
am sohappyt hatIam wi t
hyoual lnowandIgett o
experiencethismomentwi thyou.Thankyouf or
beingasi st
erIneverknewIneededandt hepillarof
str
engt htothiswhol efamily.Iam proudtocallyou
mysi sterandUmf azikamfowet hu.”Igi
ggle.
“t
hankyou.”heki
ssesmycheekt
oo.“Ar
ethey
wal
kingmedowntheisl
e?.”
“yest
heyar
e.”
Theylooksohandsomewi
tht
hei
rtuxes.Icr
oucht
o
thei
rlevel
.
“Boys?
.”
“Mommy?
.”t
heyl
ookatme.
“Let
’sgotodaddy”Igi
vesbonelomybouquett
o
hol
ditbuthethr
owsitt
othesideandever
yone
l
aughs.
Bothofthem ar
eonmysideholdi
ngmyhand.Ilet
them l
eadmet owher
ethei
rdadisst
andi
nglooking
atus.Hisfaceisrel
axedbuthi
seyesareful
lof
diff
erentemoti
ons.Westopinfr
ontofhi
m andhe
takesahugedeepbr eat
h.
“ar
eyouokay?
.”hesmi
lesandhi
seyesgetsof
ter
.
“I
’
mfi
nel
ove.
”Busanicomesandt
akest
heboys.
“youlooksohandsome.”hi
sti
xlooksl
ikei
twas
tai
lor
edforj
usthi
m onl
y.
“Youar
esobr
eat
htaki
ngl
ybeaut
if
ul.
”
“Thankyouf
oral
ovel
ydayandIl
ovemydr
ess.
”
“Ipi
ckedi
tmysel
f.I
’
m gl
adyoul
ovei
t.
”Heki
sses
me.
Themanwho’sourweddi
ngof
fi
ciat
orcl
ear
edhis
thr
oat
.Igi
ggl
e.Myhusbandt
akesbothmyhands.
“Ladiesandgent l
emenandt hef amil
y.Tonightwe
arecelebrati
ngt hislovel
ycoupl ewhoar e
celebr
at i
ngtheirloveandt hepr omisestheymade
toeachot heryear sagowhent heygotmar ri
ed.The
groom her e,
myf r
iendtoldmet hathewant sto
showhi swi f
ehowmuchhel ovesherand….Man
speakf oryourself.”welaugh.Who’ sishisfri
end?.
“Iwat chyousl eepatni ght.Ialwaysdobutt his
mor ningwasdi fferent.Itwasdi fferentbecauseI
real
isedt hati twast odayf i
veyear sagowhenI
removedt hatbl anketoveryourheadandsawyou.
That’swhenmywhol ewor l
dchangedandIkept
askingmysel fi fallthet hi
ngst hathappenedt hat
l
edmet oyouwoul dhavehappenedornotandI
thoughtyes.Iwasgoi ngtofindyouonewayor
anotherbecauseyouwer emadef orme.Noot her
womanbutyou.Iaskedourf ami lyt ocomeher e
becauseweal lwant edt ocelebrat eyou.Tot hank
youf orever ythingt hingyouhavedonef orallthe
peoplei nher e.Al lofusher emetbecauseofyou.
Everyoneher eknowshowmuchIl oveyouandhow
muchIwor shi pthegr oundyouwal kon.Iwantyou
toknowt hatIwi llalwaysputyouandourki dsf i
rst
aboveanyoneel seandever ythingel se.Iwas
broughtt othi swor l
df oroner easononl y.Tobe
yourhusband, loveyouandmakeyouhappy.You
aremyhappi nessandmywor ldl uhandwear e
standingher enow.Ont hi
sbeaut i
fuleveningand
undert hemoonl ightt oaskyoui fyouwoul dgive
met hehonourofbei ngmywi feandmar ryme
agai
n.”
“Iwasn’ texpect ingt hisandever yoneher e.Iwoul d
l
iket osayt hankyout oeachandever yoneofyou
forbeingher etoni ghtwi t
hus.Youhaveseent he
struggleswef acedi nourmar ri
age.Youhavebeen
therewi thusexper i
encingitandof feringusadvi se
amongstmanyot hert hi
ngs.Thankyoual lf
or
l
endi nganearwhenweneededt ot al
korvent .My
husbandt hrought hest or
msandhar dshipswe
facedweknewt hatwewon’ tgi
veuponeachot her
.
Youar emyr ock.Youar eeverythingt omeIneed
andwant .Iam cont entwi t
hyou.Youhaveshown
mewhati sittolovesomeonesel flesslyand
uncondi ti
onal l
y.Tor especttheper sonyoul ove.
Yout aughtmet hatl oveandr espectbr eeds
submi ssion.Isubmi ttoyoumusthusbandandI
willalwayswi l
l.
”Igetonmykneesandl ookdown.I t
feelslikethewhol eci tyhasgonequi et.
Hi
shandspul
lmeupt
henhemakesmel
ookathi
m.
“Iknowyousubmi tt
omeloveandnowyouhave
j
ustproventoever
yonehowmuchyout r
ustme.
Youdidn’
thavetodothatl
ove.Thankyouthough.”
Ismi
le.
“mommyI’
m hungr
y.”
sboni
sosaysandwel
augh.
Hewal
ksuptomeandIpickhi
m up.
“willyoust
il
lmar
ryhi
m?.”myhusbandsf
ri
end
asks.
“Iwi
llmar
ryyouMnguni
.Al
ways.”
“Youmayki ssyourlovel
ybeauti
fulbr
ide.
”Wej ust
peckoutl
ipsandt hat
’sit
.Idon’
twanttotraumati
ze
mydadandmyki ds.
“Everybodypleasecl
apforMrandMr sGunede.
”
EveryoneishappyforusandIam happyt
hatthey
areheretosharethi
smomentwithus.
UMSHADO

CHAPTER99

LUNGI
.
#Not
Edi
ted

Ihadt hemostwonder f
ulholidayofmyli
fe.Beinga
l
inewi thyhusbandandspendi ngti
mewithhi m was
whatwebot hneeded.Tobeal oneandawayf rom
everyone.Ithoughtahol i
daywasal lwewer egoing
tohavebutIwaswr ongcausehewasbusy
organizingsomethingforusandhef l
ewoutwhol e
familytobewi t
husandcel ebratet
hespecial
momentbet weenus.Iwasmosthappyt oseemy
boyscauseImi ssedthem somuch.
Il
ookatal li
fthem andtheyarehappy,laughi
ngand
dancing.Eati
ng,dr
inki
ngandhavi nggreat
conversati
ons.IwishMahwasher etootobewit
h
usbutIknowshe’ swithusspiri
tuall
y.Babaiswi
th
myhusbandandt heylookli
ketheyarehavinga
seri
ousr el
ati
onshi
p.
ThebouquetIhadIshareditwi
thzipho'ssoontobe
wivesandSbanibecauseI’
m hopingthattheywil
l
al
lgetmarri
ed.Icoul
dseethatSbanididn’twantto
acceptt
hesharedbouquetbutthenshet ookit
.I
didn’
tknowwhat’
swithherbutsometimesIfeell
ike
shedoesn’
tli
kemeandt hatdoeshurtmebecauseI
didn’
tknowwhatIhavedonetooffendher.
Simsandlesegocomeandsi twithme.Theyl ook
sohappytobeher eandIcan’ twai tf
orthem tosee
whatIhavebroughtforthem.Theyar egoingt o
l
oveitandIalsobroughtsomet hi
ngspeci alf
orall
ofusincl
udi
ngzipho’swi vesandSbanit oobutI’m
havi
ngdoubtsifIshouldgi veittoherornot .
“weareal
ldancingandyou’
reher
elooki
ngki
ndof
sad.What
’swrong”Simsasks.
“Nothi
ngiswrong.I
’
mj ustenj
oyingthemoment
andhappytohaveallofyouhere.Thankyouf
or
hel
pingmyhusbandpl analloft
his.
”
“Thepl
easur
ewasal
lour
.”Lesegosayssmi
li
ng.
“Howar
eyouf
eel
ing?
.”IaskSi
ms.
“t
ir
ed,hungryandbl
oatedmostofthet
imeandoh
l
et’
snotfor
getthatI
’
m alwayshor
ny.”wel
augh.
“Ican’twaitt
omeett hi
sli
tt
leper
sonyou’
re
carr
ying.”Shelaughs.
“t
hreemor
emont
hst
henI
’
llbedone.
”
“areyouguysgoi
ngt
ohavemor
eki
ds?
.”l
esego
asks
“Yeahwedeci
dedt
hataft
erthi
sbabywewi
llt
ryf
or
anot
heronet
henwearedone.”
“whataboutyouguys?
.”Iaskl
esego.
“Iwantasmanybabieswit
hmyman.I’mreadyto
fal
lpr
egnantt
hreet
imesthenI
’
m done.”welaugh.
“Ar
eyouguyst
ryi
ngt
oo?
.”
“yeahweare.Ever
yday.”welaugh.“Ican’
twai
tto
gobackhomeandf inal
iset
heboysbirt
hdaypar
ty.
”
“ohyeah,
wheni
sitagai
n?.”Si
msasks.
“nextweekend.
”I’
m soexci
ted.
Sbaniwal
kstousandshereall
ylookshappy.She
wasdancingwit
hhermanandt heymakear eall
y
beaut
if
ulcoupl
e.It
hinkt
heyhavesortedoutthei
r
i
ssuesandIhopetheywil
lgetmarri
ed.
“Heyguys.”shesi
tsdown.Wegreetherbackbut
l
esegojustl
ooksather
.Inudgeherar
m.
“howi
sPar
isf
oryou?
.”l
esegoasksher
.
“OhIloveit
.Imeanjustl
ook.TheEi
ff
elToweri
s
j
ustnexttous.Thi
sisamazing.
”
“i
treal
lyi
s.”
“Doyoul
ikesbu?
.”whywoul
dlesegoaskhert
hat
?.
“yesIdo.”shef
rowns.
“doyoul
ovehi
m?.
”Sheasksheragai
n.
“uhm whyar
eyouaski
ngal
loft
hosequest
ions?
.”
“I’
m aski
ngyoucauseyougotallweir
dwhenl uh
gaveyoupartofherbouquet
.Youmadethings
awkwardtherel
ikeyoudidn’
twanti
t.
”Ohlesego.
“maybeshewasshockedandwasn’
texpect
ingi
t.
”
Ianswer
.
“Nahshelookedl
ikeshedi
dn’
twanti
t.Weal
lsaw
i
t.
”Simssays.
“Butsheaccept
edi
tandt
hat
’sal
lthatmat
ter
sguys.
Justl
eti
tgo.”
“Sbanidi
dyouwantthebouquet?
.”lesegoasks
agai
n.Isi
gh.Idon’
twantSbanit
ofeelli
keshe’
s
bei
ngat
tacked.
“Iwouldn’thavetakeni
tifIdi
dn’
twanti
t.”she
saysdefensivel
y.
“guyscanyougiveussomespace?.Iwouldl
iket
o
tal
ktoSbanial
one.”t
heygetupandleave.
“I’
m sorr
yaboutthat
.Ihopetheydidn’
tmakeyou
feell
iket
heywereatt
ackingyou.”
“Notheydidn’
t.
”webot
hgetqui
etandi
tfeel
s
awkward.
“Thankyouf
oryoursuppor
tandcomi
ngher
e.I
t
meansalott
omeandmyandmyhusband. ”
“Iwantedt
oseePar
ist
ooandsbuhadt
obef
orhi
s
bestf
ri
end.
”
“SbaniI’mjustgoingtocomeoutandsayi t.Icoul
d
bewr ongandI’m sorryi
fwhatI’m goingtosay
mightmakeyouf eelacert
ainwaybutIhavet oask
this.Doyounotlikemeormaybedi dIdo
somet hi
ngtoof f
endyoucausesomet imesIfeel
l
ikeyoudon’ tl
ikemeandt herewillbethi
sawkwar d
tensionbet
weenusandIdon’ tknowwhy.Ial sodid
feell
ikeyouwer en’
tthr
il
ledwhenIcamet oyouand
gaveyout hatbouquetandI’m sor
ryi
fIputyouon
thespot.Ididn’
tmeanit.”Shekeepsqui
etfora
whilethenlooksatme.
“Youareaniceper
sonluhandyoudidn’
tdo
anyt
hingwrongtome.”Iwai
tforhert
ocont
inue
andbutshedoesn’
t.
“Thentheawkwardnessorvi
besthatIgetfr
om
youwhatist
hecauseofthem ifIdi
dnothi
ng
wrong?
.”sheshakesherhead.
“It
’sj
ustthatwhenIl ookatyouever
yti
meIl ookat
thewoman….”myhusbandandsbuwal ktousand
sbanist
opstalking.Isi
gh.Myhusbandkissesmy
cheekandsitsfacingme.
“Whatar
eyout
wot
alki
ngabout
?.”sbuasks.
“nothi
ngseri
ous.”sbanianswers.“ahI’
m goi
ngto
getsomet
hingtodrink.”shest
andsupandl eaves
us.Myhusbandlooksatmeandf rowns.
“l
ove?What
’swr
ong?”
“Not
hing….Idon’
tknow.
”
“whathappened?
.”myhusbandasks.
“Imightbewr ongandmaybeseei ngthi
ngsbutI
sometimesgett hefeeli
ngthatsbamidoesn’ tl
ike
me.Likethere’
llbethisweirdtensionbetweenus
andIdon’tknowwhy.It r
iedtotalktoheraboutit
butshedidn’
twantt osayorshewasbef or
eyou
twocamet ositwithus.”
Myhusbandandsbulookateachot
her
.Sbusi
ghs
andshakeshi
shead.
“I’
l
lgotal
ktoher
.”Sbusays.Tal
kaboutwhatwi
th
her?.
“beeasyonherbr
o.”hesi
ghs
“I’
m sorr
yluh.I’
llt
alkt
oher.
”Hegetsup,
goest o
herandtheytalkforawhi
leandthent
heyleave.
Sbanidoesn’
tlookhappyatall
.
“whati
sgoi
ngonbaby?
.”
“Let
’sgot
obedI
’
m sur
eyou’
ret
ir
ed.
”
“Baby?
.”
“I
’
llexpl
ain.Come.
”
“I
sn’
titr
udet
oleaveal
loft
henher
e?”
“l
ikethathasstoppedusbefor
e.They’
l
lbefi
neand
l
ookatt hem.Theyarehavi
ngfunandourboysar
e
al
readysleepi
ng.”
“Iwashopi
ngwe’
l
lsl
eepwi
tht
hem ”
“hel
lno.Nottonight
.”het
akesmyhandandwe
l
eavetherooftopandgotoourhoneymoonsui
t.
HepicksmeupandIgiggl
e.Heopensthedoorand
car
ri
esininsi
dehel
aysmeont hebed.
“Ar
en’
tyougoi
ngt
olockt
hedoor
?”
“itl
ocksit
selfl
ove.
”Hesaysbutthengetsupand
runsoutofthebedr
oom thenhecomesbackaftera
whil
eandf i
ndsmet aki
ngoffmydress.Hehel
ps
met akei
toff.
“youl
ookgoodl
ove.
”
“t
hankyoubaby.
”
Webot hgeti
nthebat
hroom andshower
.Af
terwe
aredonewegetinbedandIlaymyheadonhis
chest
.
“What
’sgoi
ngonwi
thsbaniandsbu?
.”
“rememberwhenyout
oldmet
hatsbanioncesai
d
thatsbul
ove’
sthi
swomanhewon’
thave?.”
“uhhuh”
“SbaniknowsthewomanandIthi
nkmaybet
hat
’s
whyshe’sbeenli
ket
hatar
oundyou.”
“Whatdoest hathavegottodoanyt
hingwith
me?..
..
.”Ilookathim.“…nowai t
.Me?I’
mt he
womansbusupposedl yloves?”hekeepsquiet
.
“no!Hellnoit
’snotme.”Isitup.
“YouknowI ’
vedonet hi
ngsinthepastwi
thsbuand
we’veli
kethesamet ypeofwoman.Iknowhel oves
youandIal soknowt hathewon’ttr
yanyt
hingfunny
withyouthat’
showmuchIt rusthi
m ”ohmyGod
thatexpl
ainsthetensionandallt
hosethi
ngs.
“whythehel
lwoul
dsbutel
lhert
hatknowi
ngt
hat
he’
sgoingt
obri
ngherar
oundus?”
“hedidn’
ttel
lher
.Youknowthatshesometi
mes
canseethesethi
ngsormaybegogoxuludon’
ther
.
Idon’
tknowlove.”
“doessbanir
eali
zethatIam marr
iedtoyouandI
l
oveonlyyou.I
’m notathr
eattoherrel
ati
onshi
p
wit
hsbu.”
“Iknowl ove.It
hinkshe’
sjusti
nsecureandshe’s
sti
llyoung.Asshegetstoknowyoushe’ l
lreal
ize
thatshehasnot hi
ngtoworryabout.
”
“Babyyouknewandyoudidn’
ttel
lme.”Ilaymy
headi
nhischestagai
n.Heki
ssesmyf or
ehead.
“Becausei
tdoesn’tmattert
ome.Iloveyouand
youloveme.Justgiveherti
meokay?.”
“youareokaywit
hknowingt
hatyourbestf
ri
end
feel
sthatwayaboutme?”
“Ifmaybeiteverhappenedt
hatsbuwasinmy
placer
ightnowandIwasi nhis.Iwoul
dfeelt
he
samewayhe’ sfeel
ingtowar
dsyou.”
“Buthelovesherandwant
sher
.Whydoesn’
tshe
seethat
?.”
“maybeshedoesandmaybeshedoesn’
t.Maybe
shef
eelsj
eal
ousofyouandmaybeinfer
ior
.”
“i
fther
e’sanyonesheshoul
dbef
eel
ingj
eal
ousof
i
sSi
ms.Sheoncesleptwi
thhermanandnotme!”
myhusbandl
aughs.
“Don’
tletthi
sthi
ngupsetyou.She’
l
lgetoverher
l
it
tl
einsecuri
ti
eslove.
”
“IhopesocauseIhatet
hewayshef
eel
sar
ound
meormakemef eel.
”
“don’twor
ryaboutherokay.”Inod.Heget
s
betweenmyt hi
ghs.“Tomorrowwear egoi
nghome.
Areyouexcit
ed?.”
“ImissmyhomeandImissourbed.
”Heki
ssesme
deepl
yandl
eavesmebr
eathl
ess.
“l
ove?”
“
baby…”het
hrust
sinsi
demeandImoan.
“Do.You.Have.Somethi
ng.To.Tell
.Me?
.”wit
h
eachwordhethrust
sindeeplymakingmytoescur
l.
Igrabhi
sassandpushhi m deeperi
nme.
“l
ove?
.”
“Hmmmm ”
“Tel
lmewhatIwantt
ohear
.”hechangeshi
space
andt
hrust
sfast
“I…loveyou.Thankyou….
.Ooohhhh…Thankyou
foranamazingdayandthewholeweek…yesssss”
hechuckles.
“Tellmelovepl
ease….
.”Doesmyhusbandsuspect
thatIam pr
egnant
?.
“Lookatme.”Hethr
ustssl
ow.Ientwineourhands
toget
herandwrapmylegsaroundhiswaist
.
“Thankyouf orbeingmyever yt
hingandgi vi
ngme
theli
feIhaver ightnow.”hesmi l
es.“Iwakeup
everydayandIal wayst hankGodf oreveryt
hingt
hat
Ihaveandt hebl essi
ngsheal waysblessesus.I
thankGodandourancest or
sthattheyhavemadei t
possibl
ef orusagai ntohaveanotherbaby.”His
wholef acechangesandhest opsthrusti
ng.
“l
ove?.
..Ar
eyoutel
li
ngmethatyou,wearewe
pr
egnant?Thatwear
ehavi
nganotherbaby?
.”hi
s
di
ckgrowsinsi
deme.
“Wearegoingt
ohaveanot
herl
it
tl
egumedeont
he
fami
ly”hesmil
es.
“Thankyou.ThankyouMaNgcoboformakingmea
manandhelpingmegrowmyl i
neage.Thankyou
st
handwasam. ”
Hemovesourhandst
oovermyhead.Wekiss
passi
onat
elyandwemakesweet
.Sweetl
ove.
THREEDAYSLATER.
Thenextmor ni
ngmyhusbandandIf lewwithour
ki
dswi t
hmybr otherandhi swif
e,myauntwi th
drankandauntlwethu.Theothersgotindiff
erent
fl
ight
sthensbu,sbanibongabusani ,Simsand
zi
phowi t
hhiswivesflewt oget
herandIhaven’ t
seenanyofthesincethatday.I’m expect
ingthe
shipmenttocomei naf ewdaysandIam soexci t
ed.
Myhusbandi sinhi
sof f
icewithhisbr ot
herand
theyarewor ki
ngwithsomet hing.Igotacal lf
rom
gogoXul uthatImustremi ndmyf atherinlawabout
theceremonyf orbusanithenthecer emony
expectedatuPhongolomustbedoneaf ter.Iwant
everyt
hingtobedonesoIcanf ocusonmy
pregnancy.Ididtel
launtlwethuwhatgogosai dand
shesaidthey’l
lbeginprepari
ngf ortheceremony
andbusanii
sexci
ted.
Ihaven’ttoldmysi stersyetandIhopemydad
didn’tt
ellmybr otherthatI’
m pregnantcausehewi ll
tel
lhiswi feandthenever yonewi l
lknow.Sisnonto
i
sathomewi t
husandIdon’ tknowhowt hingsare
betweenherandmydadbutIhaveseenherl ooki
ng
atherphoneandgi ggl
ingalot.Ihopetheyar e
wor ki
ngt hingsout.
Celestehascomeoutf rom wherevershewas.I
heardhertal
kingwithmyhusbandapol ogizi
ngfor
notbeingabletoatt
endt hefuneral.Ican’twaitt
o
seeherandhearwher eshewashi dingallthisti
me.
I’
m enjoyi
ngmyi cecream whenmyphoner i
ngs.I
pickitupandit’
ssbani.Wehaven’ ttalkedsincethat
night.
“hel
lo?”
“Hil
uh,
howar
eyou?”
“I
’
m goodsbanihowar
eyou?”
“I’
m goodtoo.Canwemeetf orlunchtoday.
There’
ssomethingIwouldl
iketotalkt
oyouabout.
”
Ikeepqui
etcauseIreal
lydon’tknowifIwantto
hearwhatshehast
osay.
“Idon’
tknowsbani”
“Pl
easel
uh.”
“ok,
wher
ear
ewemeet
ing?”
“Atsbu'
sfami
lyr
est
aur
ant
.Youknowi
tri
ght
?”
“yeahIdo.”
“Okcanyoubet
her
einanhour
?”
“ohkI
’
llseeyout
her
ethen.”
“Thanks.”shehangsupIsi
gh.
“What’
swrong?”busaniaskssi
tt
ingnextt
ome
taki
ngmyspoonandeatsmyi cecream.
“gogetyourowni
cecr
eam ”
“Iwantt
hisone”wel
augh.“t
ellmewhat
’swr
ong.”
Isi
gh.
“sbu'
sgir
lf
ri
endwantsustohavel
unchandI’
m not
surei
fIwanttogoevent
houghIal
readysai
dI
wouldmeetwithher
.”
“what
’swr
ongwi
thhavi
ngal
unch?”
“i
t’
snotaboutt
hef
ood.I
t’
saboutwhatshewi
llsay.
”
“j
ustgoandhearheroutl
ove”myhusbandsi
tson
myothersi
de.
“Thi
sissowei r
d.Seei
ngt
het
woofyouonmy
si
des.”Ishakemyhead.
“sowhatar
eyougoingtodo?”busaniaskseat
ing
myTinr
oofagai
n.Idon’
tli
kehi
mr i
ghtnow.
“Busanistopeat
ingmywivesi
cecr
eam ”my
husbandsaysbuthescoopssomet
ooandgri
ns
andtheylaugh.
“Isweart
ogodbabyt
hatyouwillwakeupat2am
togoandbuymemyicecream i
fitr
unsout.”
“why2am?”busaniasksconf
used.Mbusol
ooksat
measki
ngforper
mission.
“becausewehavinganot herbabybrotherand
pleasekeepitt
oyoursel
f.Wewantt of i
nishthe
thir
dtri
mesterbef
orewet ellever
yone.”
Busanil
ooksatmeandsmil
es.Heki
ssesmycheek
thenpul
lsmetoati
ghthug.
“I’
m sohappyforyouguys.OhmyGodIcan’
t
bel
ievewerehavi
ngababy”hesaysexci
tedl
y.We
l
augh.
“Yeswear
e.”myhusbandsays.
“Ican’
twai
ttohavemyf
ami
lyt
oo.
”
“andyou’renotget
ti
ngyoungerbusani
.Youdon’
t
wanttoplaywithyourf
ir
stbornwhenyour45or50
God!”Ishakemyheadandl augh.
“Welli
fmeandmypar tnercan’
thaveki
dsthenI’
l
l
askyouandyourhusbandtocarryt
hebabyfir
st
us.
”Ilookatmyhusband
“whatdoest
hatmean?”
“I
tmeansthatIam bi
sexualandIdon’
tknowwho
I
’l
lspendt
herestofmylif
ewi t
h.I
tcoul
dbea
womanoraman.”
“orbot
h”Isayandwel
augh.
“Yeahmaybebothwhoknows.Butifitever
happenst
hatIendupwi t
haman.Iwoul dli
keyou
tobeoursurr
ogatemotherl
uhbutonlywhenyou
andyourhusbandagr
ees.”MyhusbandandIlook
ateachot
her
.
“Wil
litbeyourownseedoryourpar
tner
s?”Iask
hi
m.
“Iwanttheki
dstobeoftheGumedebloodl
ine.
We’l
lgetaneggdonort
henyou’
llbeoursur
rogate
mother.
”
“Itsoundsl
ikeyouhavebeent
hinki
ngaboutt
his
forlong”It
ellhi
m.
“IhavebutwhenIseehowyouarewit
hthepeopl
e
youloveandal
ltheki
dsint
hisf
amil
y.”
“we’
l
ltal
kaboutt
hatwithmyhusbandandifthat
ti
mecomeswe’l
lletyouknow.Ri
ghtbaby?”
“ever
ythi
ngshesai
dbr
o”
“okt
hen.IguessIhavet
ogoandchangef
ormy
l
unchwit
hsbani”Igetup.
“Doyouwantmetocomeandhelpyouchange.”I
sl
aphishandawayf
rom myassandtheyl
augh.
Iwat
chbothofthem si
tt
ingont
hecouchandt
hey
l
ooksoal
ike.Theyareeati
ngmyIcecr
eam.
“I
’
m happythatyouf
oundeachother”t
heysmi
le.
Myhusbandwinksatme.Igi
ggl
e.
“I’
m dr
ivi
ngyout
oyourl
unch”mbusosaysandI
nod.
Anhourl
aterwear
eonourwayt
other
est
aur
ant
.
“Iwishyoudi
dn’
ttel
lmet
hatsbuf
eel
sthatway
aboutme.”
“Why?”
“Ijustfeelbadf
orsbaniandontheotherhandI
feell
ikesbushouldj
ustgetoverwhathefeelsf
or
me”
“Hewil
llove.Whenhefinal
lyf
indssomeonewho’
l
l
behi
severyt
hingl
ikeyouaretome”
“Youdon’
tthi
nksbanii
stheone?”
“I’
m motsureabouther
.She’
stooyoungf
orhi
m
andmaybeal i
tt
lenaï
ve.Sbuneedsawomanand
sbanii
sjustagir
l”
“Iwasagi
rlt
oowhenImetyou”
“Neverl
ove.Youwer
eamat
uredwoman.Not
hing
l
ikesbani”hePar
ist
hecar
.
“Ar
eyougoi
ngt
owai
tforme?”
“I
’
m comi
ngwi
thl
ove”
“she’
sgoingtofreakbabyandnott al
k.Youknow
howyouar e”hechuckles.Getoutofthecarand
opensthedoor.HetakesmyhandandIst epout
.
“sbui
sexpect
ingme.Come”
Wewal
kint
her
est
aur
ant
.
“Whatdoyout
hinkaboutwhatbusanisai
d?”
“Hellno.Theycangetthei
rownsurrogat
e.Mydick
goinginandoutofther
eandmyki dsaretheonly
onescomi ngoutoft
hatpussy.”mygoddi dhe
havetosayt hat
?.
Theytakeust othewher
esbaniandsbuar esitt
ing.
Wegr eeteachother
,Sbustandsupandkissesmy
cheekandt heybrohugwit
hmbuso.Sbanist andup
toandgivesmeahug.OhkIwasn’ texpecti
ngi t
.We
allsi
tdown.
“It
houghtt
hisl
unchwasaboutusgi
rl
sonl
y?”
“Iaskedsbutoaskubhutimbusotocometoo.”
sheexplai
ns.Inod.Thewai
tercomesandweplace
order
s.
“soyouhavebeenher
ethi
swhol
eti
me?”Iask
sbani
“Yes.Il
ovei
ther
ebutImi
ssgogot
oo.I
’
mleavi
ng
tomorr
ow.”
“Imisshertoo.”shesmi
les.Idon’
tfeelanyt
ensi
on
orvi
besfrom her.
“souhm sisluh…”ohI ’
m sisl uhtoday.OkI’m not
complaini
ng.“Iwouldliketoapol ogi
zetoyouand
yourhusbandforhowIhavebeenbehavi ngar ound
youespecial
lywhenyouwel comedmewi t
hwar m
armsintoyourli
vesandhome.Ij ustletmyj ealousy
getinthewayandIt ookitoutonyouandI ’m sor r
y.
Ithoughtyouknewhowsbuf eelsaboutyoubutI
waswr ongandI’m sorr
y.”
“SbaniIdidn’
tknowthathef el
tthatwayaboutme.
Iam notathreatt
oyourr el
ati
onshipifyoufel
tthat
waysbani.Iam amar r
iedwomanasyouknowand
ther
ewillneverbeanothermanf ormei nthi
swor l
d
othert
hanmyhusband.What eversbut hinkshe
feel
sformewi lleventual
lygoaway.It hinkmaybe
hejustwishesthathehadt heki ndofl ovemy
husbandandIhavet hat’
sall.Maybehewoul dwant
thathi
swomant ohavecer tainqualit
iesaboutme
thatheli
kesandpl easedon’tt akethi
st hewr ong
waysbani.Idon’tthinksbuhascompar edyout o
meandsai dt
hingsthatoffendedyou.Icoul dbe
wrongbutIdon’ tknow.”Shel ooksatsbuwhohas
beenlookingatherthewhol eent ir
etime.
“forgetaboutwhathet hinkshefeelsforme.Focus
ont helovehehasf oryou.Lookathowhe’ slooki
ng
atyou.I t
’sthesamewaymyhusbandl ooksatme.
Ifyouf ocusont hi
ngst hatdon’tmatterthenyour
rel
at i
onshipwillhavepr obl
ems.Sbanit hesetwo
menar everyimpor t
antt oeachotherandIwoul d
nevergetbet weent hem orevencausepr obl
ems.I
won’ tl
etanyoneel setocomebet weent hei
r
rel
at i
onship.Notevenyou. ”Shelooksme
“whoi
smybr
othert
oyou?”myhusbandasksher
“Ilovehi
m.”shesayswi
thoutadoubt
.Ismi
leand
takeherhand.
“that ’
swhatIwant edt ohear.Youdi dn’
tthi
nkabout
i
t.Youj ustsaiditcauseyoumeani t.
”Myhusband
says.“sbaniIknowyouar estil
lyoungandt here’
s
al otyouneedt olearnaboutr el
ationshi
psbecause
youdon’ thaveexper i
enceint hatdepartment.You
aregoi ngt obemar r
iedintheRoyalFami l
yandbe
i
napol ygamousr elati
onship.Youar egoingtoneed
allthesuppor tyoucangetf rom thepeopleclosest
toyouandt hati
sus.Al lofusbecauset hat
’swhat
gogoaskedmet odo.Lookoutf oryouandIwi ll
.
Don’ tpushmywi f
eawayort heot herwomen
becauseyouar enowpar tofourf ami l
yandwel ook
outf orourown.UyeswaSi si?”
“Ngi
yakuzwabhut
iMbuso.Ngi
yaxol
isakakhul
u.”
“it
’sokaysis.Somet
imeswecan’thel
phowwefeel
wheni tcomestopeopl
ewelove.
”Myhusband
says.Ismile.
“Itwasluhwhoaskedmet obeopenandtalkto
you.Sheexplainedthatyoumightbescar
edand
feel
ingoverwhelmedabouteverythi
ngandsoshe
suggestedthatIaskoneofskhumbuzo'swivesto
tal
kt oyouandhelpyouunder st
andwhatitl
iketo
bemar r
iedinRoyalandt
obei
napol
ygamous
rel
ati
onship.”
“t
hankyousi
sluh.Thathel
pedmeal
ot.
”Ismi
le.
“I’
m happyt hattherewon’
tbeanytensi
onbetween
uscauseIr eall
ylikeyousbani
.”shesmil
es.She
thentouchesmyst omachoutofthebl
ueandlooks
atmeandsmi les.
“Allofyouar
epregnant
.Wowl
uh!”shesmi
les.
Aft
erfeeli
ngmystomach.
“Youguysar
epr
egnant
?”sbuasksexci
ted.
“Shetol
dmewhenwewer ei
nPar
is.Doyouknow
whatareweexpect
ing?
.”
“Idoknow.I’
m sohappyforthebothofyou.Your
motherl
uhandbothyourmot her
’sandsist
er
Angel
aarehappyforyou.Theysendtheir
congr
atul
ati
ons.”myeyesgetmi st
y.Shehugsme.
“ar
etheyokay?Bot
hhi
smomsandsi
ster
?”
“Theymadepeaceandt heyar
etoget
her
.Theyar
e
wit
hallofyou.
”ThankyouGod.
“Shewant
stot
hankyouf
ormaki
ngsur
eshehasa
beaut
if
ulsendofandformaki
ngawayf orhert
obe
wit
hherancest
ors.You’
rebl
essedl
uh.
”
“Thankyou.”myhusbandwi
pesmyt
ear
s.
“youhaveal
readychosenaname.”shesaysandI
nodwipi
ngmyt ear
s.
“Howdi
dyouknow?”
“t
heyj
ustt
oldmeandt
heyar
ever
yhappywi
thi
t.
”
OhmyGod.
“whatnamedi
dyouchoosel
ove?”Icryonhi
s
chest
.Hesoot
hesmybagunt
ilIcal
m down.
“I’
m notcryingcauseI ’
m sad.I’
m happybaby….”I
smilethr
oughmyt ears.“Ithoughtt
hatifweare
pregnantwithagirlI
’m goingtonameheraf t
er
Angelaand….”Isni ff“nowI ’
m acryi
ngmess
becauseIknowwear egoi ngtohaveababygi r
l.”
heplantskissesal
lovermyf aceandIlaugh.
“Congr
atul
ati
onsguys.NowIf
eell
ikeI
’
m bei
ngl
eft
behi
nd.”welaugh.
“I
fyoupl
ayyourcar
dsr
ightyouj
ustmi
ghtbel
ucky
”
“ThankGod”sbusaysandst eal
saki
ssf
rom her
andsheblushes.She’
sbeaut
iful
.
“It
hinkthi
scall
sforacelebrat
ion.
”Hecall
sa
wait
erandtheyorderchampagnealcohol
icandnon
al
coholi
c.Theybri
ngitandtheypopit.Welaugh.
“wear egoingt otoastforyout wo.
”Myhusband
says.“mayyoul oveeachot heruncondit
ionall
y
througheverythi
ngt hatli
fethrowsyourway.
What everhappenspl easeknowt hatourhomewi ll
alwaysbeopent oyoubot h.Ihopesbanimakes
youashappyl i
kehowmywi femakesmehappy
andevenmor e.Toyouguys.”wecl ickourglasses
anddr i
nk.
Istil
lcan’tbel
ievethatsbanisaidcar ryi
ngababy
girlandAngel aandeveryonei shappyt hatIwantto
giveourchi l
dhername.If eelsoblessedrightnow
andver yhappy.Ican’ twaittogiveallmysi st
er,my
sisterl
ydiamondneckl acesont hetwinsbi r
thday
par t
yandIhopet heyaregoi ngtol
ovet hem.Ialso
askedsomeonet ohelpmewi t
hsomet hingspecial
formyhusband, hisbrothersandal lt
hekids.They
aregoi ngtobesohappy.
UMSHADO.

CHAPTER100.

Iquicklygetupandr unt othebathroom andvomit

unti
lnot hingcomesoutandmybodyheaves.GodI
hatemor ningsickness.InevergotsickwhenIwas
pregnantwi tht
het winsbutthispregnancyhas
otherideas.Mybabygi r
lwantstoshowof fby
makinghermommysi ckeveryday.Idon’tknow
whyi t
’scal ledmor ni
ngsicknessbecauseI ’l
lbesi
ck
mostoft heday.Myhusbandsoot hesmyback.
“Youokayl
ove?”heasksmet
hisever
yday.
“Hmmm ”Il
if
tmyheadoft
hebowlandhef
lushes.
“Ihatet
hatt
heyar
emaki
ngyousi
ck.
”Ihat
ethat
too.
Yeswear ehavi
nganothersetoft
wins.Ababygir
l
andboy.Wecouldn’tbel
ievewhenthedoct
ortol
d
usthatweareexpecti
ngt wobabi
es.Myhusband
brokedownandcriedwhenwegoti nthecar
.Ihad
toholdhim unti
lhecalmeddown.Hei ssoexci
ted
andhasbeenwor kingfr
om homesincehefound
outwear epregnant.Idon’
tevenknowwhycause
I’
m notevenshowi ngyetbutI’
mlovinghavi
nghim
homear oundus.
“Iwi shtheywouldn’ twakeyouupl i
kethis”he
helpsmegetup.Igot othevanityandtakemy
toothbrushandhet akeshistooandwebr ushour
teethlookingateachot herinthemirr
oruntilwear
e
done.Iwashmyf aceandt hemomentI '
m donehe
attacksmymout handweki ssli
kehell
.
“baby….”It
ryt
opushhi
m of
fme.
“I
’
m hor
ny”Hesays
“you’
real
wayshornybaby”hechuckl
esandlooks
atme.“wehavetogoandwaketheboysup.”He
ki
ssesmyneck.
“theydon’tevenknowit
’st
hei
rbirt
hdayt
odaylove.
AsishayeIquicki
efastt
henwe’
llgoandsi
ngfor
them ”
“we’
llhaveIquicki
eaf
ter
.Masambe.(l
et’
sgo)”he
gr
oansandIl augh.
“Okl
et’
sshowert
hen.”Godhewon’
tleaveme
al
oneunti
lwehaveaquicki
e.
“baby?
.”heopenst
heshowerf
aucet
.
“l
ove”
“Whenar
ewegoi
ngt
odoi
t?”
“Dowhat
?”Icockmyheadt
othesi
de.“No.
”
“what
?Whybabyyoupr
omi
sed?”Iwhi
ne
“UhAhIdi
dn’
tpr
omi
seyout
hatl
ove”
“butyousai
dwel
ldoi
t.”
“Thatwasbef
orewef
oundoutt
hatwe’
repr
egnant
l
ove”huh?
“Whatdoest
hathaveanyt
hingt
odowi
thi
t?”
“Idon’
twanttohur
tmykids.We’r
enotdoi
ngit
!”he
saysandget
sintheshower.Hur
thiski
dshow?.I
’
m
notl
ett
ingt
hisgo.Wearegoingt
odoi t
.
Ileavethebathroom andgot otheclosetandwear
mycomf yyogapantsandhi sT-shir
tandmy
sleeper
s.IleavetheclosetandIfindhimlayingon
thebedf aci
ngup.Hisdi ckisrockhard.
“i
ndodaayi
lal
iibhekephezul
u”hel
aughs
“I
’
m wai
ti
ngf
oryoubaby.”
“Wel lkeepwai ti
ngst handwasam.I ’
m goingto
wakeupourki dsandpr epare.I’
m suretheparty
planneri salr
eadyher eandyousai dyouhavet ogo
andbuyt hemeatr ight?.Sogetdr essedmyl ove.”I
won’ tgetanywher eclosetohi m causeIknowof
won’ tbecomi ngoutoft hisbedroom untilwehave
ourf i
llofeachot her.Hesi t
sup, Iknowhe’ sgoi
ng
tocomet omesoIpr et
endt hatI’
m comingt ohim
her elaxesthenIqui ckl
yrunoutofourbedr oom
l
aughi ng.
HecallsmynamebutIcl osethedoorandl eave.I
walkunti
lI’
m outsidetheboysbedroom.Iopent he
doorandpeekinsi deandtheyaresti
llsleepi
ng.My
happybabiesaresogr ownandbegi nningtolook
l
ikethei
rdadever yday.Hewrapshisar msar ound
meandImovemyheadbackt ohischest .
“whatar
eyout
hinki
ng?”hebr
ushesmyst
omach.
“Howhappytheyar
e,l
ooki
ngl
ikeyoueverydayand
you’
remaki
ngmehungrywhenyou’r
edoingthat”
“wel
lyoudi
dn’
twantmet
ofuckyousol
etsgosoI
canf
eedyou”Igi
ggl
e.
“weshoul
dwaket
hem up.”
“Letmegogetthei
rcupcakessot
heycanblow
them ”hegoest
otheki
tchenandcomesbackwit
h
hisbrot
her.
“mor
ningl
uh”hegi
vesmeal
ighthug.
“Whendidyoucomehomel
astni
ght
?”my
husbandchuckl
es
“sor
ryIwasn’
thomef
ordi
nner”
“nextti
mecallsoIwon’
tbewor
ri
edaboutyou”
busanigri
ns
“AwwwIl oveyout
oo”hekissesmycheek.My
husbandshakeshi
shead.
Wegeti nandcl osethedoor.Myhusbandandhi s
brotherhavecupcakeswi thfourcandlesli
ton
each.Iwalktot hei
rbedcauset heyaresleepi
ng
together
.Idon’tknowwhent heyar egoingto
outgrowthisthingofthei
rsofshar i
ngabedand
somet i
meshol dinghands.Il
ovei tt
houghcauseit
showsthei
rbondtoeachother
.Iki
sst
hei
rcheeks
andtheysmil
e.Ismi
letoo.
“Boys?.
..
.Boyswakeup”myhusbandgi vesbusani
theot
hercupcakethenwalkstothebed,
sitsdown
andrubshisbear
dont hei
rfaces.
“Uhhababydon’
tdot
hat”
“Youwantt
hem t
owakeup,
soI
’
m waki
ngt
hem up
l
ove”
“Baby? .
..
.Boys?.
..
”Ishakethem li
ghtl
ythen
sboniso'
seyesopen.Ismi l
e.Helooksaroundand
seemssur pri
sedtoseeus.Hi sdadshakeshis
brotherupandheal sowakesup.Sbonelohas
alwaysbeenaheavysl eepernotli
kehisbrot
her.I
picksbonisothenhisdadtakessbonelowho’s
grumpy.Mysoni snotamor ni
ngperson.
“lookit
’syourbi
rt
hdaytoday.Lookatyour
cupcakes”thetwinsl
ookateachotherandsmi
l
e.
Busaniisstandi
nginfr
ontofushol di
ngt he
cupcakesandwear esit
ti
ngont hebed.Webegi nt
o
si
ngt hem happybi
rt
hday,theysingalongand
l
aughing.Theyaresoexcit
ed.Ican’twaittosee
theirfaceswhent heyseewhatIhaveplannedfor
theirbirt
hdaypart
y.Theyblowtheircandlesandwe
clap.Busanitakespictur
esofallofus.Myhusband
takesoutt hecandlesandisabouttofeedthem
cupcakes.
“babyno?”t
heyal
llookatme.
“Nomommy?”sbonel
osays.
“di
dyoubr
ushyourt
eet
h?”Iaskt
hem
“No”t
heybot
hsay
“gobrushyourteet
handt hencomedownstair
sf or
breakf
ast
.You’
lleatyourcupcakesaf
terbr
eakfast”
“Ahmamakhei t’
st hei
rbir
thdayt
oday.Canthey
havethei
rcapcakesaf t
erbrushi
ngthei
rteet
h
pl
ease?”busanipleads
“si
yakcel
alove”
“okfi
ne.Thesecupcakesonl
yandtheyar
enot
ski
ppi
ngbreakfast”t
heboyssmil
e.
“Iloveyout woverymuch.Happybir
thdayboys.”I
ki
sst hem bothandhugthem ti
ght
.“Helpthen
brushthei
rteeth”Ileavethenandgotothekit
chen.
Inoti
cethatthepar typlannerandherpeopleand
thecater
ingpeopl earri
vedveryearl
ycauset heyar
e
almostdone.Il ookatthetimeandit’
s8:30am.My
kit
chenisfullofstrangersbutI’
m notworr
iedcause
myhusbandcheckedever yoneoutwho’sgoingto
beherewor king.
Igreett
hem andmakemysel fteaandsitdown.My
husbandandhi sbrothercomei naf
terawhi l
ewith
theboysandt hekit
chenj ustgoesquiet.Iknow
theysawt hem whenmyhusbandcamet oget
cupcakes.Whyar etheybeingwei rdandstarri
ng.
Bothmyhusbandandhi sbrotherarenotfazedwith
everyt
hing.Ihavegottenusedt owomendr ool
ing
onmyhusbandandIenj oylookingathim when
thathappensandnowi t
'sthetwooft hem.
“Whyaren’tyouallwor
king?”si
snont
oaskst
hem.
She’
snotlookinghappyatall
.
“Mahwhat
’swr
ong?”Iaskher
.
“Iwasaboutt
ocomeandgetyouforbr
eakfast
si
nceIknewtheki
tchenwasgoi
ngtobeused.”Ohk
butwhati
swrongwithher
.
“you’
reupset
.Whathappened?”myhusbandasks
herandshesighs.Thehousegoesqui
et.
“Somegirl
sweretakingpi
ctur
esi
nthehouse.
”My
husband’
sfacechanges.
“Ti
na?”
“yesMr
sGumede”
“IthoughtIspeci
fi
cal
lyaskedyout
otel
lyour
peoplenottotakepi
ctur
esofmyhome?”shenods.
“Itol
dthem MrsgumedebutIguesst heydidn’t
l
ist
entome”myhusbandget sup, br
ingssbonelo
tomeandwal ksoutofthekitchen.Sisnont
ol ooks
atmeandIshr ugmyshoul ders.Hecomesback
aft
erawhil
ecar r
yingsmallpasticbags.
“givethi
stoever yonewho’ sheretowor k.Tellt
hem
toputthei
rcellphonesher e,wri
tetheirnameson
thenamet agthengi vethem tomywi feaf t
eryou
havegatheredallofthem.You’ l
lgetthem whent he
wor ki
sdone.Ifanyoner ef
usestogiveyout heircel
l
phonesIwantt hem.Outofmyhouse. ”Sisnont o
takesthebagsandgi vesthem t
oTinawhot akes
them andthepeopl einthekit
chenbegi ntot akeout
t
hei
rphones.
“let
’sgohavebr eakfast”wel eavet hekitchenand
gositout si
dewher et here’sat entandchai rs.“ohI
am sohungr y”Isay.Thet winssi tdownandGugu
plat
esf orthem.Thesmel lofbaconhi t
smel ikei
t’
s
somet hingIhaven’tsmel l
edbef ore.Iplatefive
rashesofi tandothert hingsanddi gin.Ittastesso
good.Iopenmyeyesandmyhusbandi swat chi
ng
me.Iwi nkathi m andhel i
ckshi slips.Ishakemy
headno, helaughs.Thet wi nsjoinintooandl augh.
Ifonlytheyknewwhatt heirdadwant s.
Ther estofthemor ninggoesbyandpr esentsf r
om
dif
ferentpeopl ekeepcomi nginbeingdel ivered.
Thisisaki ddiespar tybutt hewayi tfeelsitlooks
l
ikeit’
sgoi ngtobemor et hant hat
.Ziphoandhi s
beautifulwivescomei nlookingallsortsofbeaut if
ul.
Lesegoandmybr otherar ri
vetoowi thdadandmy
otherunclesandaunt s.Iam sohappyt oseet hem.
Bongaandsi msar r
ivet oowi ththeirnewhouse
keeperanddr i
verandt heirli
ttl
egirlwhogoest o
joi
ntheki dsint hehouse.Si mshousekeepergoes
tojoi
nsi snont oandherhusbandgoest oPer cy.
Mbuyi seloandhi sbrothershaveal soar r
ivedwi th
l
umkaandshe’ ssohappyt oseeus.She
disappear stosomewher einthehousesi nceshe’s
theonl yteenagerthensbuandsbaniar ri
vet oowith
hisbrotherandhi swi vesandt heirthreekids.Af t
er
welcomi ngt hem myhusbandandgoi nthehouse
sowecangetr eadyforthet winsbirthdaypar t
y.
Thel i
vingr oom hassomanypr esentsitscr azy.
Can’twai ttoseewhatt hebackyar dl ookslike.
“l
uh?”si
snont
ocal
lsmyname.
“Mah.”
“wher
edoyouwantmet
oputyourt
hings?”Ismi
le.
“canyoutakethem tomyhusband’
sof
fi
ce.WhenI
wantthem.I’
l
lletyouknow”
“Oksi
si.”
“I
sdadst
il
lcomi
ng?”shesmi
les.Iguesst
hings
ar
egoodbet
weenthem.
“Goandchangel
uh.”Igi
ggl
e.
“Whatt
hingsl
ove?”
“i
t’
sasur
pri
sef
ort
heboys”henods.
Whenwegeti nourbedroom Ifi
ndmysel fonall
foursandmyhusbandf uckstheshitoutofme.
Af t
ertwohour swecomeoutoft hebedroom feeli
ng
freshandl ookinggood.Wegot otheboysbedr oom
andGugui sfinishi
ngdressi
ngmybabi esandt he
phot ogr
apheri staki
ngphotosofthem.Theyrunt o
usl ooki
nghandsome.Wepi ckthem up,takeaf ew
phot osthengodownst air
s.
“Mrsgumedeeverythi
ngisreadyandthef
oodis
pr
epared.Theki
dshavebeensatdownandt heyar
e
wai
ti
ngf ort
heseli
tt
leguys.
”Tinasays.
“ThanksTi
na.”shenods.
“ar
eyouboysr
eady?”t
heynod.“Okl
et’
sgo.”
Wewal ktothebackyar dandi tl
ooksamazi ng,
ther
e’sapl ayarea,j
umpi ngcastle,
facepaintsanda
wholel otofthi
ngs.Blueandyel lowcoloursand
minionst hem décorallover.Weputt hem downand
theyrunar oundadmi r
ingt hedécor.Melusicomes
andt akesthem tothei
rseat s.Theyaresoexcited.
“gooddayever
yone.Thankyouforcomi
ngto
cel
ebrat
ewit
husthisspeci
aldayastheboysar
e
fouryear
sol dtoday.Iam ziphogumedet hefat
her
totheseli
ttl
emenandIwi llbehostingtheselit
tl
e
peoplehere.Soeveryonepl easegetupandl et’
s
singhappybi r
thdaytothem ast hei
rcakei sbei
ng
broughti
n.”
BongaandBusanicomewi t
htwocakesandt he
boysgocr azy.Wesi ngthem happybi rt
hdayand
theyblowt heircandles.Theyplaygames, theysing,
danceandeat .Lotsofpicturesaretakenincludi
ng
afami l
ypor t
raitwithallofus.Allthechil
drenwho
areinvit
edar esohappybr i
ngher eandwi t
ht hei
r
giftbags.Theadul tsarealsohavingf uneati
ngand
drinki
ng.Thei r
suncl esandauntsgi vethem
presentswhi chincludegadgets,toysandl ot
sof
money.
“Sobef or
ewewr apupandl etyoukidshaveyour
fun.Iwouldl
iketocal
lthei
rparentstocomeinthe
frontandsayafewwor dsfortheboys.”Il
ookat
sisnontoandshenods.
Myhusbandtakesmyhandandwewal ktowhere
t
heboysareseated.Hetakest
hemicf
rom zi
pho,
l
ooksatt
heboyst henl
ooksatme.HewinksandI
smil
e.Sisnont
ocomescarryi
ngamedi
um si
zebox.
Sheoutsiti
nfr
ontofmethengoest
ostandwit
h
mydad.
“Thankyouever yonef orcomi ngher et oday.My
wifeandIr eallyappr eciateitverymuch.Iam not
onlyaf athert omysonsonl ybutt oallthesonsand
theonl ydaught erwehavei nt hisfamily.Whenmy
wifetoldmewewer egoi ngtohaveababymy
wholel i
fechanged.IknewIwoul ddoanyt hingto
makesur et hatt heyareal wayspr otected,safeand
l
oved.Iknewt hattheywi l
lalwayshaveahappyand
l
ovinghomebecauset heirmot herisanamazi ng
woman.Aoneofaki ndandbaby.Thankyouf or
maki ngmet hemanIam t oday.Thankyouf or
givi
ngmeahomeandl ovingmeuncondi ti
onally
andgi vingmet hefami lythatwehavet oday.Iwi sh
Godandourancest orswi l
lblessuswi thmany
mor echi l
dren.Boyshappybi rthday,alwaysknow
thatyourmom anddadl oveyouver ymuch”t hat
wassosweet .Hegi vesmet hemi c.
“Thankyoubabyalt
houghIdon’
tthinkt
heboyswill
rememberever
ythi
ngyousaid…”theychuckl
e.“I
am bl essedt ohaveacl oseandt ightfamilythatI
have.Idi dn’tknowanyt hingaboutbei ngamot her
untilIreali
sedt hatIwaspr egnant .Ididn’tknow
whatuncondi t
ionallovewasunt ilIheldthem i nmy
armswhent heywer ebor nandl ookedi ntotheir
eyes.Icoul dseet heirdadandIcoul dseemysel fin
them.Myownf amily.Manyofyoudon’ tknowt hatI
didn’tknowmyf amily.It houghtt hef amilyIgr ew
upinwasmyf ami l
ybuti twasn’ t.Myhusbandi s
theonet hatintroducedmet omydad, mybr other
andmyaunt sanduncl es.MnguniIwoul dn’tbeher e
todayi fitwasn’ tforyou.Iwoul dn’ thaveitallifit
wasn’ tforyou.Iwoul dn’ thaveyouorourki dsi fmy
l
ifedi dn’
tturnoutt hewayi tdid.Havi ngyourname
andcar r
yingyourki dsisever ythingt ome.Il ivefor
you, ourchildrenandourwhol e.Fami l
y.Thankyou
forchoosi ngt ol ovemeandbeyourever ything.”he
stealsaki ssf r
om meandt hekidsmakedi sgust i
ng
sounds.Wel augh.
“soast heboysaregrowingt odayIdeci
dedtoget
them somethingbutt
henIt houghtIwantal
lour
kidst
or ecei
vesomethingthatwi l
lmeanever
ythi
ng
toal
loft
hem.Pl
easehol
dthi
sbaby.Lumkacome
andhel
pme.”hetakest
hemic.
Iopentheboxandtakeoutthesevenli
tt
le
Jewell
eryandoutt
hem onthetableandthecamer
a
manzoomsi nonthegif
ts.
“Iaskedthemanwho’ smydesi gnerandwho
designedmyhusbandweddi ngringtodesignme7
personal
izednecklaceswit
halltheboysnamesand
ourbabygi r
lkamoandl umkat oo.”Itakeoutthe
diamondneckl aceandlumkascr eams.Igiveoneto
myhusbandt oputitonsboneloandIputone
aroundsboniso.Lumkawear sher e’
sandshe’sin
tears.Myhusbandhel psmeputt henecklaceson
thekidsandt heyaresohappy.Mel usihugsme
ti
ghtandpr omisesmehe’llt
akegoodcar eifi
t.I
knowmybabywi l
l.Lumkahugsmet ightt
ooand
thanksme.
“i
tiscol
dDaddy”sbonel
osaysandwel
augh.
“Wowmommyt heyaresobeauti
ful
.IwishIwas
ki
dtootor
eceivesuchagif
t…”everyonelaughs.“I
hopet
heolderki
dsreal
izet
hatthi
sismor ethan
j
ustagi ft.Ifyoulookclosel
yboysyou’llseethatthe
messagewr i
tt
ensays(wear eonefamily).I
tmeans
thatallofyout akecareofeachother.Youar e
brothersandsi ster
sandyouwi lll
oveeachot herno
mat t
erwhatandnoonemesseswi thyou.”The
adultsagr ee.
“Thankyousi sluhforthiswonder f
ulvery
expensi
vegi f
t.Okaychildrenputthem backand
yourparentswillt
akethem andkeept hem safe.”
thechil
drenprotestbuteventual
lygivethem back
eventhetwins.
“Uhm thankyoueveryonef orcomingandhavinga
greatdaywit
hus.Theadul tspart
ywi l
lstar
tlat
erso
Isuggestyoushouldthekidshomeandcomeand
haveagoodt i
mewi thus.Enjoyguysandt hankyou
again.”zi
phosays.Wealsot hankeveryone.
“Thankyouzi
pho.Youdi
dagr
eatj
ob”hesmi
les.
“Ienjoyeditsi
sluhandi
t’
sthel
eastIcoul
ddof
or
thetwins.
”Wehug.
“Whydidn’
tyoutel
lmeyouwer epl
anningthatl
ove.
Il
ovet
heirneckl
aces.”hehugsmetightandIfeel
hi
m br
eat
hingmei
n.Fi
ll
inghi
slungswi
thscent
.
“I
twasasur
pri
sebabyhaw”Igi
ggl
e.
“Thatwasspeci
albaby.Thankyou”weki
ss.
Ther estoft hedaygoesbyandt hepeoplethat
wer einvit
edbegi nt
ol eaveonebyoneunt iliti
sus
thefami lyandt hepar typl
annerandherpeopl e
begint otaket heirt
hings.Thingsbetweensbani
andIar egoodbutl esegosai dshe’snotbuyingit.
She’spr otecti
veofme.Il iketherel
ati
onship
zipho’ssoont obewi vesar ehavi
ngnow.Theyar e
closeandIl i
ket hat
.Skhumbuzoandhi swi vesleft
alsowi ththeirkidsbutsbuandsbaniar estil
lhere.
Myuncl esandauntl eavetoowi t
hthei
r
grandchi l
dren.
“Uhguyscanweallgoi
nsidether
e’ssomethi
ngwe
needt
otal
kabout.”myhusbandsays.Hetakesmy
handandwewalkedint
hehousetot hel
ivi
ngroom.
I
“I’
l
lbebackbaby”Igotothekit
chencauseI
al
readyknowwhathe’sgoingt
otellt
hem.Mydad
andsisnont
oareeat
ing.I’
m sohappytoseebot
h
oft
hem happy.
“Dadhaveyouseenubaba?”
“He’
swentt
ohi
sbedr
oom ”Iwor
ryabouthi
m.
“soItakeitthatyout
woar etoget
hernow?”Ij
oin
them anddiginmydad’sfood.Hegivesmehis
wholeplat
eandeat swit
hhiswoman.
“yeswear
e.”dadsayski
ssi
nghercheek.
“SonowImustlookforanot
herhousekeeperthat
wewil
ltr
ustl
ikeyouandGuguandt henannies?”
“yesyoudo.Shehastocomehomeandl
ivewi
th
me”sisnontobl
ushes.
“wecantakeoneofthewomenthatworkatthe
far
m.Youalr
eadyknowthem.”Si
snontosays.
“I’
llhavetotalktoyhusbandf ir
stt
henI ’
l
lletyou
know”t hefoodt astesgoodbutmyki dsdon’tseem
toagree.Iquicklygetupandr untothebat hr
oom
that'
sclosetothel i
vingroom.Maybei t
’sthatcakeI
atethat’
supset t
ingme.Ivomi tunt
ileveryt
hing
comesout .OhIf eel l
ikeshi
t.
“her
e’syourbr
ush”si
snont
osays.If
lusht
het
oil
et
andbr
ushmyt
eet
h.
“Ishoul
dhaveseet
hatyou’
repr
egnant”shesays
smil
ing.
“Iwasgoi
ngt
otel
lyou”
“It
’sokaysi
siIunder
standandIam sohappyfor
youandmbuso”wehugt hencomeoutofthe
bathr
oom.
“youokaybaby?”
“Iam dad.”Iki
sshi
sbol
dhead.
“I’
m goingtomakeyousomecamomi
let
ea.You’
l
l
feelbet
ter
.
“thankyouma”dadgr i
nslikehe’
sjusthi
tajackpot
Igotomyhusbandsof f
ice,
opent hesaf
eandtake
outtheremaini
nggift
sIhavef orever
yoneandthey
areali
tt
lebitheavy.
“…….ThenonFr i
daywear eallgoingtoPhongolo
anddot helastceremony..
..”Iputthebagonthe
tabl
e.“yeahandt hanksforthegiftsf
ortheboys.
Theylovethem andaregoingt olovethem.Love
youokay?”
“Justt
ir
edt
hat
’sal
l.”
“Whatdoyouhavet
her
e?”Si
msasks.
“Ohyouj usthadt
oaskdidn’
tyou?”theyl
augh.
“uhm babycanyousitdown.”hedoes
“Ahluhbef oreyoubegi
n,wewouldliketoday
thankyouf ortheamazi
ngneckl
acesyoubr ought
thekids.Thankyousis”bongasays.Inod.
“Ineverworei
cewhenIwast
hei
rage”zi
pho
complaint
s.
“you’
renolongerthel
astbor
noft
hisf
ami
ly”my
husbandsayslaughi
ng.
“Leavehim al
one.”zi
phogri
nsIshakemyhead.
“wellasIwassaying.Al
lofusar
eaf amil
yr ight
here,wearenoti
n-l
awsoranythi
ngbutaf ami l
yso
myhusbandandIdi dsomethi
ngtoshowyouhow
muchweappr eciat
eyouhaveyouinourlives.It
’s
j
ustal i
tt
lesomethi
ngandIhopeyouwillalll
ove
them.”
Thehousei
squietwat
chingmeasItakeoutt
he
gi
ft
sandgivet
hem toZipho’
swi
ves,
sbaniandmy
si
ster
s.Theyarewrappedbeaut
if
ull
ysot
heydon’
t
knowwhattheyare.
“Okopent hem.”t heyteart hepaper sandopent he
j
ewelleryboxandl esegoscr eams.“These
necklacesengravedwi thyournamesl iketheour
chil
dren’sneckl
acesr epresentt omeoursi ster
hood
andhowmuchIappr eciat eallofyou.Si msnawe
l
esegoyouwi l
lseethatt hedi ff
er entdesignsmat ch
thoseofyourkidsbutst illlooklikeallofour s.I
hopeyoul ovethem.”t heyar eint ear
s.
“wowluhthankyou”Simsi
sacr
yingmess.“t
hey
musthavecostafor
tune”
“Ididn’treal
izet
hatspendingmyhusbandsmoney
wassof un.Ienj
oyedit”theylaugh.“Uhm baby
don’tyouhavesomet hingtoshowyourbr other
s
tooanddon’ tworryIwrotetheirnamesareoutsi
de
theboxcauseyouwer ewor ri
edaboutmixingthem
up.”He’sbeenquietwat chi
ngme.
“Iknewyouguysgotussomethi
ng.”zi
phosays
exci
ted.Hecanbesuchachi
ldsometi
mes.
Myhusbandt
akesoutt
hej
ewel
ler
yboxesandgi
ves
them tohisbr others.Allofthem i
ncludi
ngt he
Zikalal
abr others.Hesi t
smeupt hensitsmeonhi s
l
ap.Hehasn’ tsai danything.Webot hwatchthe
menopent hei
rj ewell
eryboxesandt heyareinawe.
Iaskedmydesi gnertoal somaket hem di
amond
ri
ngs, engravedwi t
htheirnamesandt hewor d
brothersforlife.Theyar espeechlessastheytry
them on.
“Wowbr ot
heseri
ngsareamazi
ng.Br
other
sf orli
fe
manthankyouandtheymatchmywif
e’snecklace
andt
heboys.Wow”bongasays.
“Mywi f
edidallt
hework.Thedesigni
ngand
ever
ythi
ng.”hesayspr
oudlykissi
ngmycheek.
“broIlovemine.I
’
m nevert
aki
ngt
hisr
ingof
fever
.”
Busanisays.
“Ofal
lthethi
ngsyouhavebr oughtme.Thi
smeans
somuchtome.Ngi yabongabhutimbuso.”ncooh
zi
phoisemotional
.Hisri
ngtoomat cheshi
s
women’stoo.
“Wearebr
other
sforl
if
e.Thankyouman”sbusays.
Hi
stoomatcheswi
thsbani
'sneckl
ace.
“Il
oveyouman.Thankyou”mybr
othersaysf
ist
bumpi
ngwit
hmyhusband.
“wealsodidn’texpectt
hisbutthankyoubrother
.
Wewi l
lcheri
sht heseri
ngsfor
ever.”t
hebrothers
thankmyhusbandandIam sohappy.
“thebothofyougaveallofusgi
ft
sbutnonef
or
yoursel
ves?”l
esegoasks.
“OhIal mostf or
got.Here’
syoursbaby”my
husbandt akestheboxIpullourfrom mydress
pocket.Idon’tknowwhyhe’ ssurpri
sedcause
surel
yheknewIwoul dgethi
m somet hi
ngtoo.
Heopenstheboxandseeshi
sdiamondr
ingwit
h
18kwhit
egold.Hi
snameisengr
avedandit
’s
wri
tt
en.
“Prot
ector&RulerofoGumede”her eadsitout
l
oud.Hepal msmycheek.Thankyoumyl ove.Il
ove
i
t.”Itakeitandputi
tonhi
srighthandthi
r dfi
nger
thenkisshim.
“Thishasbeenanamazi ngday.AdayIwil
lnever
forgetforasl
ongasIl i
ve.Iam happyt
ohavefound
allofyouandI’m bl
essedtocallyoumyfamil
y.I
l
oveallofyouandIpr omisethatIwil
lbeyour
keeper.Iam mybrother
sandsi st
erskeeper
.”that
’s
whatIengr avedonbusanir
ing(Iam mybr ot
hers
andsisterskeeper
.)
“l
et’
snotendtheni
ghtyet
.It
’st
imet
odance”
zi
phosaysandtheyagr
ee.
“thenthatmeanseveryonewi l
lbesl
eephere.
There’
senoughroom foreveryoneandi
fthereisn’
t
thensomeofyouwi l
lshare.”myhusbandsaysand
theyagree.
Theybegintotakeoutthemeati
nthecol
droom
andpreparetoBraaiandIwantt
ogotuckmykids
i
nbed.
“let
’sgotucktheboysinbeforetheysleep”my
husbandagreesandwewal ktothegamer oom and
theyarenotther
e.Wegot othetheirbedroom and
uBabaisreadingthem ast
ory.Theyarebot hi
none
bedlist
eni
ngt ohi
m andtheyareinawe.
Weclosethedoorsowewon’ tdi
stur
bthem.We
wal
kbackt ot
helivi
ngroom andalmostever
yonei
s
out
side.WesitonthecouchandIlaymyheadon
hi
schest
.
“Thi
sdaywasaboutt heboysbutyoumadeittobe
morethanaboutt
hem.Youi ncl
udedever
yoneand
madeitaboutf
amily.Howdoyoudot hat
.”
“Idon’
tknowhowbaby.Ij
ustwantedthedayt
obe
speci
alt
oever
yoneandIthi
nkIdidthat.”
“I
’m st
il
linshockwi
ththeneckl
acesandringsyou
br
oughtbaby.DiamondsandIdidn’
tevenseeit
.”
“Wel li
t’snotli
kewedon’ thavemoneyandcan’ t
affordit.Thiswastoshowt hem t heymeanmuch
mor etoust hanwhattheyt hink.Busaniissti
llnew
heresoIwant edhi
mt of eellikehe’salsopartoft
he
brotherhoodeventhoughheal readyisbuttohave
somet hingthatwil
lremindhi m oft hat
.”
“Ican’teverthankyouenoughforwhatyoudid
today.Everyt
hingyoudoluhtouchesmyheartbaby
alwaysandt odaywasevenmor e.Iam sobl
essed
tohaveyoui nmyl i
fe.
”
“wear ebot
hblessedbabyandt
hisi
spr
oofof
that
.”Hebrushesmystomachandweki
ss.
Lesegoandmybr othercometousandt heyar
e
l
ookingsohappy.Mybr otherl
icksmeupand
ki
ssesmywhol eface.Ilaughsohardcausehe’
s
makingmefeelli
keI ’
m kamo.Heputsmedown.
“whatwast
hatal
labout
?”Iaskhi
m
“Forbei
ngt
hebestsi
steri
nthewhol
ewi
dewor
ld.I
l
oveyou”
“Il
oveyoutoobigbr
other
.Whyareyouso
emoti
onalt
hough?”hethr
eadshi
shandswit
h
l
esego'
s.
“Wellwewantedyoutwotobethef
ir
stonesto
knowthatwearepregnant
.”OhmyGod!Sbanisaw
i
t.
“OhmyGodcongr at
ulati
ons!”Ipul
llesegot
oahug
andshe’
ssni
ffi
ng.Thi
si ssobeauti
ful.Myhusband
hugshert
oothenweai n’
tdown.
“Ohdadisgoi
ngtolosei
t.Thewholef
amilyi
s
goingt
obesoexci
ted”It
ellthem.Howfarl
ongar
e
you?”
“Thr
eemont
hsandt
hreedays.Wewant
edt
hef
ir
st
tr
imestert
opassbeforewetoldanyone.”
.my
husbandandIlookateachother
.
“t
hisdaywasful
lofbl
essings.
”Myhusbandsays.I
am sohappyf
ormybrother.Wow!
.
Theother
scomebackinthehouseandconti
nuet
o
haveagoodti
meandItir
etoourbedroom.Iam
ti
redandIwantt
osl
eep.
Theweekf ol
lowingwehadbusani 'scer emony
wher ehewasi ntroducedt ohisancest orsandhe
changedhi ssurnamehe’ snowBusaniGumedenot
Zikalala.OnFr i
daymor ningwehadt odr i
veto
uPhongol owhereAsandaandFanel ewi fewere
there.Theywentwel comi ngbutwedi dwhatwe
hadt odoandIdi dever yt
hinggogoZi kalal
a
i
nst r
uct edmet odoandi tallwentwel l.Myfatheri
n
l
awal sopai ddamagesandever ythingt hatwas
askedf r
om him.Wel ef
tonSundayt oour
respect i
vehomes.
Todayist
henewyear seve.We’l
lbefi
nal
lysayi
ng
goodbyet
othehardestyearwehaveeverhad.We
wil
lbeinmybrot
hershouset oni
ghtendi
ngtheyear
ther
e.Thet
winswil
lbegoingt
ogr
adeRnextyear
andIcan’
twaitf
ort
hatday.
“l
ovel
et’
sgo.”Il
ookatt
het
ime.I
t’
s3pm.
“Whydowehavetogonowbabyi
t’
sst
il
lear
ly
though”Iwhi
ne
“Ipr
omi sedtheguysthatIwil
lbri
ngal
cohol.Woza
l
ove,thekidsarewait
inginthecar
.”hetakesmy
handandwel eavethehouse.Theseki
dsar e
makinglazy.
Wegetinthecaranddr ivea30mi nutedri
vetomy
brot
hershouse.Iam sogladIam nothostingandI
gettosi
tdownandenj oy.Wear r
ivethereandit
’s
al
readyful
l.Thetwi
nsgot oj
ointhekidsandplay.I
gototheguestroom,closethedoorandgetont he
bedandsleep.
“love?
...
.Love?”Iopenmyeyesandi
t’
smy
husband.
“What
’swr
ong?”Iaskhi
m.
“Nothi
ng.You’
vebeensleepi
ngforsi
xhoursand
I
’m sur
eyou’r
ehungry.
”Igetupandyawn.Ifeel
bet
ter
.
Wel eavethebedroom andgoout si
dewher e
everyoneis.Wesitdown, mybrotherbri
ngsmemy
plateful
lofmeatandIdi ginandthankgodIdon’t
throwup.Mybr other
sfriendsandpeoplehedoes
businesswithcomeinwi ththei
rpartner
sand
girl
fri
ends.Ever
yonelookshappyandenj oyi
ngthe
company.
Mysisterscomeandwesi thavingwonder fulchats
andconver sat
ions.Whatwehaveal lreal i
sedi sthat
l
esegoandsbaniar enevergoi ngtogetal ong
becauset heyarealwaysf ighti
ngandf ranklyI ’
m
ti
redoftryingtoplayrefereebet weent hem.The
cl
ockticksandsooni t
’salmost12am.Weal lsi
t
downont hepicnicl
ikestylelikeblanket .My
husbandi ssit
tingbehindme, I’
m betweenhi sknees
andourki dsarebetweenmi newi ththeir
headphonesonsot henoisewon’ tdamaget heir
eardr
ums.Theybegi ntocountdown.
“ourmarri
agehasn’
tbeenasmoot
hinpar
kor
rosesandsunshi
ne”hesays.
“butwemadeitthrough.Ourl
oveandf
ait
htoeach
ot
hersawusthroughbaby.”
“You’
remyfor
everl
ove.Youhavemyhear
t,body
andsoul
.”
“Iownyourassbaby”hel
aughs.
“Iswearonmymot her’
sgravethatUmshado
wethuwillbethewayi twasmeantt obe.Fi
ll
edwit
h
l
ove,happiness,endlesski
ssesandmanyImean
manymor ehardfucksandl ovemakingt
hatwil
l
resul
tinushavingmor eki
ds”
“ament
othat
.”webot
hlaugh
“3,2,1.HappyNewyear
!”fi
recr
acker
sgooutand
everyonescr
eams.Thet
winsgetexci
tedseei
ng
them
“Happynewyearl
ove”
“happynewyearbaby”

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UMSHADO

EPI
LOGUE.

8MONTHSLATER.

Wehadonehel lofaweekendl astweek.Zi phogot

marriedtohist wowi vesont hesamedayayt he
samet i
me.Mybr otherreal l
yloveshi swivesand
theylovehimt oo.Theyr especthi m andt r
eathim
l
iketheirhusbandast heyshoul d.Wehavenew
Additionsinthef amilywel lsisnontoi snotexactly
knewbutshei snowmar riedtomyf atherinlawand
theylivetogether.Simsgavebi rthtoababygi rl
and
she’ssoador able.Lesegoal sogavebi rthtoababy
boywhol ookslikehisdaddy.Scel oisver yhappy
andt heonlypeopl enowl eftisziphoandbusani .
Mybr otherhastol
ddadandIbrothersthatheis
bisexualandtheywereal
lcool
.Iam gladthough
thattheli
tt
lecrushhehadonsceloisgone.Iam
worri
edabouthimt houghcauseIfeelli
kehe
shoul
dhavemetsomeonebynowal t
houghIthi
nk
hedidbuthe’sjusthidi
ngitf
rom us.Ihopebusani
underst
andsthatwel ovehimregardl
essofwhat
andwej ustwanthimt obehappy.Heboughta
houseandhe’slivi
ngalonealt
houghhespends
mostofhistimeher eathome.
Thet winsareingradeRandt heirfi
rstdayatschool
wasver yhardcauset heycriedlikehellandthei
r
mot herdidtoo.Wehadt oleavef atsafterwetook
them totheclass.Frankandl uh'sauntar emarr
ied
notandt heylivei
nJobur g.Iam sohappyf ort
hem.
Celesteli
vesinLondon’swi thherloverandt helast
ti
mewespokeshesai dshe’spl anningon
proposingtohergirl
fri
endandshewi l
linvit
eus
whent heyhavesetadat e.
ThelastfewdaysIhavebeenwaki ngupmissing
mymom l i
kehel
landitfel
tli
keshewasinour
bedroom causeofthesmellofherper
fume.Luh
evensaidthesamet hi
ngtoo.ThatiswhyIwokeup
veryearl
yanddrivehome.Mydadcomesand
standsnexttome.Wel ookatmymot her
’sgrave.
“Imissherever
yday.Ever
ydayl
ivi
ngwi
thouther
get
sharderandharder”
“Ial
waysfeelherpr
esencear
oundusbaba.She
wil
lal
waysbewi t
husnomat t
erwhat”henods.
“Itookhercl
othest
othehomelessshelter.Iknow
therear
epeoplewhocouldreal
lyusehaving
clot
hes.”wowokneverthoughdadwilldot hat.
“I’
m happyyoudidbaba.Youhavecl
osedt
hat
chapterofyourl
if
e.”
“i
t’
ssti
llhardmbusoandIhopeyouandyour
br
other
sf or
givemeforwhatIdi
dtoher
.”
“Wef or
gaveyoubabaandthati
salli
nthepast.
Areyouevergoi
ngtohavesomeonethatwil
lkeep
youcompanyandmaybepossiblyf
alli
nlovewith?
”
“i
fluhdi
edwoul
dyouthi
nkorevenl
oveanot
her
womanli
keyoul
ovedher
?”
“Godf orbabanever.I’
l
ldi
eanol
dmanunt
ilI
’
m
reuni
tedwithheragain.”
“t
hat
’showIf
eelaboutyourmot
her
.”
“Youdon’twantt
obesadandlonelybaba.Luh
askedyoutoobei
nwithus.Wereal
lywantyouto
andthetwinsl
ovehavi
ngyouaround.”
“Iwouldn’twanttoimposembuso.I
’
llst
aywi
th
busaniforawhilethenI
’l
lsee.”
“Fairenough.Luhpr omiseduMahthatshe’
l
ltake
careofyousopl easeletus.”dadnods.Myphonee
ti
ngsandi t
’smywi fe.
“Love?”
“Whereareyoumbuso?Youwakeupandl eaveme
al
one?”she’
scr yi
ngGodIhopeshegivesbi
rt
h
sooncausetheyaredr
ivi
ngmecrazy.
“I’
m onwaybaby.I
’
llbehomesoonIpr
omi
se”dad
chuckl
es.
“Wherear
eyoucauseI
’
vebeenl
ooki
ngf
oryoual
l
overt
hehouse?”
“Iwentt
obuyyouyourhotcrossbunsbaby.I’
l
lbe
homesoonungakhal
iphel
aloveplease”shesnif
fs.
“Okcomebackt
hen”
“I
’
m onmywayl
ove”Ihangupandsi
gn.Dad
l
aughs.
“youshoul
dn’
thavel
efther
.Shecangi
vebi
rt
hat
anyti
me”
“IknowdadbutwhenIwokeupIf el
tlikeIhadt
o
behere.Ourbedroom hasbeensmell
ingli
keher
perf
ume.Idon’tknowifthatmeansshehasbeen
vi
sit
ingusorwhat .”
“i
tcoul
dbeoryouj
ustmi
ssher
.”
“Idodadver
ymuch.Ihavetogobef
orel
uhcal
ls
anddri
vesmecr
azy”helaughs.
“Iam sol
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtomeet
ingt
het
wins”
“Ustoodad.Letmeknowwhatyoudeci
de.Il
ove
you”Ihughim
“Il
oveyout
ooson.”
Igeti
nmycaranddr i
vehome.Aft
erparkingthecar
Iwalki
nthehouseandIfi
ndhersi
ster
st hereand
l
uhisdryi
ng.Ir
ushtoherqui
ckl
y.
“l
ovewhat
’swr
ong?Si
ms?”
“She’
shavi
ngcont
ract
ionsbutt
heyar
enott
hat
bad”what
?
“mywi fei
sinpainSims.Li
velet
’sgot
othe
hospi
tal”sheshakesherheadandsmil
es.
“mywat erhasn’
tbrokeyet
.Wecan’tgo
aaahhhhhhhh”thenshecriesagai
n..“whyar
eyou
herembuso!”huh?
“l
ovel
et’
sgot
othehospi
tal”
“ohshutup!Youdidthi
stomeandnowI’
mi npai
n
aaaaawwwwwGodmakei tst
op!”ohmyGod!Si
ms
andlesegochuckl
e.
“l
oveI
’
m cal
li
ngt
hedoct
or”
“ifyoudaredot hatmbusoIswearyou’llgivebi
rt
h
tothesedamnki dsyoursel
f!”Ipressmylipsharder
soIwon’tlaugh.She’si
npai n,
she’spi
ssedatme
butshesti
lllookssobeauti
fulli
kethat
.
“Il
oveyoul
ove”
“ahhhhfuckIl
oveyout oo…ohmygodmywat er
j
ustbroke?”what?“Aaahhhhhhh!”mywife
scr
eamsl i
keIhaveneverhear
dherbefor
e.
“Wehavet
ogot
othehospi
talnow.
THREEMONTHSLATER.
TheboysandIar ewat chi
ngtheirl
itt
lesi st
erand
brothersleepi
ng.Sbonisokeepssayi ngt heyarehis
babiesandhi sbrotherli
kest
ot oucht heircheeks
andsmi le.Wewel comedAmazul u’anat hiAngela
GumedeandUnat hiGumede.Wewant edtoname
ourkidsandnooneel secausewedi dn’tgettodo
thatwithourboys.
“Areyouthr
eegoi
ngt
odot
hisever
yday?”my
beaut
if
ulwif
ecomesi
n.
“Howwast heworkout
?”shehasapersonal
tr
ainert
hati
shel
pinghershedof
fherpr
egnancy
weight.
“she’
swor ki
ngmehardbutI
’m notcompl
aini
ng.I
canal
readyseether
esul
ts”shelookssosweaty
andverysexy.
“don’
tlosetoomuchwei
ghtbaby.Idon’
twanta
ski
nnywi f
e”shel
aughs.
“boysl
et’
sgoandmakeasnack”t
heyscr
eam
yeahandAmacr
ies.
“goonlove.I
’
llt
akeher”shet
akest
heboysand
theyl
eave.
IpickAmaandshooherunt i
lshest
opscryi
ng.My
wifeisbreast
feedingthem andshe’
shappywith
that.Whoam Itoar guewit
ht hat
.Dadisnow
stayingwit
husandmywi f
eishappythathefi
nall
y
agreedandIam t oo.Myphoner i
ngsandit’
s
skhumbuzo.
“Skhuunj
anibaf
o?(howar
eyoubr
other
?)”
“Ei
shmanIdon’
thavegoodnews”IputAmadown
andwal
koutoft
henurser
y.
“what
’swr
ong?”I
’
m wal
kingt
omyof
fi
ce.
“USbusi
soi
smi
ssi
ng.Wedon’
tknowwher
ehei
s”
what?
“Whendidt
hathappenandwher
e?”Il
ogoninmy
comput
erandtypei
nsomecodesandsear
chhi
m.
“It
’sbeenthreemonthsbro.Hehasjustvani
shed.
Wehavel ookedforhi
m everywher
ebutwecan’t
fi
ndhim.Evenourseerdoesn’tseehi
m deador
al
ive.”whatt
hef
uckdoest
hatmean?
.
“Andyou’
ret
ell
ingmenowskhu?
!”
“IknowI
’
m sorr
y”hi
str
ackerwasswi
tchedof
f
whenhel
eftDur
ban.
“hi
strackerwasswi
tchedof
fwhenhel
eftDur
ban
ontheN3”
“Hehasat
racker
?”
“yesonhisbody.Wet r
ackeachotherbuti
tlooks
l
ikesomeonetookitout.ManIwishyouwoul d
havetol
dmeear l
ier
.Wher ei
sShaniwhatdidshe
say?”
“mant heybrokeupfivemonthsago.Sbuhad
fi
nallyhadenoughofSbanijeal
ousyand
i
nsecur i
ti
esandalwayscomparingherselft
oyour
wife.Shegavehimtheulti
matum.”fuck!.Luh
comesi nandsit
sdown.
“ohk.Iwil
lhavemybrot
her
stosearchforhi
m.
Theyareconnect
edandwhereIcan’
treacht
hey
wil
l.Thi
sissomessedup.”
“I
’
m sor
tbr
oIknowwemadeal
istbutt
heel
der
s
want
edt
okeepi
tint
hef
ami
ly….”
“f
uckt
hatskhu!He’
smybr
othert
oo!”
“IknowIknow!.LookI
’l
lkeepyoupost
edi
fIhear
any7itf
indsomethi
ng.”
“Noti
fskhuwhenyoudo.I
’
lldot
hesame.”Ihang
up.
“what
’swr
ongbaby?”
“di
dyouknowSbaniandsbubr
okeup?”
“What
?No!”
“Theydi
dloveandnowsbuhasbeenmi
ssi
ngf
or
thr
eemonths.Justf
uckeni
magi
ne!”
“Ohmygodbabywhatcoul
dhavehappened?”
“Idon’
tknowbutIwi
llf
indmybr
other
!”

SOMEWHEREI
NSOUTHAFRI
CA.

Icl
osemyroom andl
ocki
t.Takeof
fmyclot
hes
andshoest
henwearmypyjamaswipemyface
withf
acewi pes.It
akemyt oi
let
rybagandgotothe
bathr
oom tobrushmyt eet
h.Ifi
nishandgocheck
themaindoorifit’
slockedthenIhearacaroutsi
de
andvoicesofpeople.
Islowl
yopenthedoorandpeekoutsideandsee
twomenhol di
nganothermanbetweenthem who
l
ookslikehe’
sdrunkandonether
eamanf aci
ngthe
drunkmanbusypointingagunathi
m.
“yout houghtyouwereuntouchableheh.Butlook
atyounowonmymer cyonyourknees.Themi ghty
Mbat ha.Gethim onhi
sknees!.”Theydot hatand
hegr oanstriest
ostr
ugglebutthegunmanhi tshi
m
wit
hi t.Iyel
pandcovermymout h.I’
m scared
shi
tlessasIwat chwhat’shappening.
“I’
m notscar
edofdyingandyoubetterkil
lmenow
causeifyoudon’
t…You’l
lbegmet okil
lyouwhenI
fi
ndyou.”Thedrunkmant el
lshi
m.
“wel lsayhel
lot
oyourancest
orsanddon’
tworr
y
I’
l
ltakecareofyourf
amil
y”thegunmanleader
says.
Thewayhesai
dtakecar
e.Hemeanti
tli
keI
’
m
goingt okil
lthem ordosomet hingbadtothem.He
pointsagunathi m Icanseethem causethemoon
i
sf ullandshiningbr i
ght.Ourhouseist
hel astone
ont hestreetatacor nerandtherei
sanopenvel d
nearbysoIguesst hatwhytheycameher e.They
goingt okil
lhimt hendumphi sbodythere.Ibegin
tosayal itt
leprayertoGod.
“GodIdon’tknowt hismanorwhathehasdonebut
pleasedon’tl
etthem ki
llhim.Iknowhe’ sonly
humanandhe’ snotper fectbutpleasegivehi
m
anotherchance.Hehasaf amilyIthinkwholoves
him andifnotforhissakebutf orhisfamil
y’
ssake
Amen.”
Iopenmyeyesagai nthenIseethegunmanr ai
sing
hishandthat’
sholdi
ngagunt hathasasi
lencer
thenpoi
ntsitatt
hedr unkman.
“seeyouont
heot
hersi
deMbat
ha”t
hegunman
says.
“
voet
sekmsunu!
.”Mbat
hasays.
Thenhepull
sthetri
ggerandIseewhenthefi
rst
bul
lethi
tshi
m becausehegroans.Iwat
chasfour
moreshotsgetfi
redonhim andhisbodyfal
lsdown
andIt
hinkhe’sdeadandt ear
sfal
ldown.Ohmy
Godhe’
sdead!Theyj ustshotaman!.

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