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nne:
★PENELOPE'
SSTORY★
.

♡PROLOGUE♡
.
Beingbor nisapr i
vil
egeinit'
sownandweshoul d
cherishisitli
kecr azy.Li
vingli
fetot hef ull
estis
whatweasgi rlsar esupposedt odor i
ght ? wel l i
t
doesn'twor kformeI '
m mor eofthosener dytypeof
gir
ls I '
m mor eofawal lfl
owerlikeI'm not
noticeableunlessIwantt obeandIhav ebeenl i
ke
thi
sev ersincehi ghschool andI'
m pl anningonbei ng
l
iket hi
sf or
everormay beunt i
lIgraduat e.Beingin
Johannesbur gf eelsli
keI'
m stucki nthisnev er
endingcy cl
ecauseI '
m usedt othemor esubt l
e
Bushbuckr i
dgel if
eImeant hatplacei ssoqui tefrom
headt otoebutnowI '
m stuckinJozi study i
ngLaw
Ilovethi
sthingIj ustwannabeal awy erandjust
buildmypar entst hathousewhi chwi llstandout.
RightnowI 'dsayI '
m semi famouscauseI '
m alsoa
model soit
'seitherI'
m stuckwi t
hmywei rd
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ngorI'm modell
ingsomepr oduct
butIenjoybei ngahandsmodel Igott he
pret
tiesthandsev erbabeIknowt hi
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conformat ionfrom nonebutasIsai dIain'tfr
om a
ri
chfami lybutweai n'
tpoorei
thersowe' resteady
j
ustthatsomet hingswecan'thavethem especiall
y
havi
ngt hreesi bli
ngs.Wemaynotber ichbutwear e
fi
ll
edwi thlovebet weenusassi bl
ingsnot hinggets
pastusnotev enat i
nybi
t.Nyosibondwecancal lit
andit'sstrong.
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m str
ongwi ll
edandIact uall
yspeakmymi ndshyor
notint
rovertornoty ou' l
lgetwhat '
sonmymi nd
wheny ouar epissingmeof f .Al otofpeopl e
wouldsayt heyhav en'tseenmyr eal body I 'm
alwaysinbaggycl othingsomet imesIev enf orget
howmybodyl ooksl ikebutI 'mjustl i
kemymom
whenshewasst i
llat eenbef oreshehadus, Igot
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nexer ci
sing
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nt hesquat s
‍♀ ♀Iwon' tsayIwasbor nlikethatcauseI
waschubbybutwhenIgotski nprobl emsIdeci ded
tochangemyl i
festyle,healthyeatingandexer ci
seit
workedbutIdon'twantnoboytobeallupinmy
face Ilovethestr
etchmarksIhavecauseit
showsthejourneyIhadtowal
kt oachi
evethi
s
body .
.
☆
Hi mynamei sPenelopeJay denNyosiI
'm 20y ears
ol
dandy esI '
m avir
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m st ubborn
butIdon'
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I'
ml ightski
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m nottallnoram It
all
.I'
m kind,l
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ngy eahI'
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bl
ackhair.
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Luyolo16, well
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ngt winhe's
studyingt eachi
ngatWitswhereI '
m studyingLaw
andLuy oloi ssti
ll
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ghschool.WellZodwai s
mar r
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nne:
♡PENELOPE'
SSTORY♡
.
01♡
.
Iwasbackhomedur i
ngtheEasterhol
iday
sIhav e
threedaysleftheresoIdeci
dedt oj
ustdomyev ery
daychoresandt ookabat hIworemymaxi dress
withaslitandblackTommyt al
ki
esIti
edthetwist
braidsIhaveImeanIhadaf adecutbutIbrai
ded
i
t
Me:
"mamaI
'
m goi
ngt
otownokayI
'
llbeback"
Ma:
"no.
..
umhIneedy
out
ohel
pme"
Me:
"wi
thwhat
?"
Ma:
"pr
epar
ingf
oodf
orourguest
sdear
"
Me:"
andLuyol
oisher
eso.
..
.YewenaLuy
olocome
backher
e"
Yol
o:"
ahmar
asesi
todayi
tsmyof
fday
"
Me:"l
et'
sdothi
sthenI
'
llt
akey
out
otownandwe'
l
l
getbugger
s"
Yol
o:"
exact
ly.
..Mawhatshoul
dwedo"
Ma:
"hel
pmepr
epar
efoodf
orourguest
spl
ease"
Me:
"whatguest
s?That
'
saf
ir
sty
azi
"
Ma:
"st
opaski
ngquest
ionsPenel
opeandcomehel
p
me"
Wejustfol
lowedhert
othekitcheny
eahi twasgoing
t
obebi gheycausewebaking,maki
ngsal adsbuti
t
wasfunbeingwithmysi
sterandmot herwemade
t
hebestofi t
.
Yolo:
"okaycanwegooutnow?Pl
easemawear
e
ti
red"
Me:
"yeahmamaanhourt
ops"
Ma:"nogotakeabat
handdr
esspr
oper
lynoshor
ts
underst
and"
Yol
o:"
kant
ear
ewegoi
ngt
ochur
ch?What
'sgoi
ng
on?
"
Ma:
"Luy
olomar
njustgo"
Ij
ustpul
ledYoyoandwer ant
oourroom Iwas
gi
ggli
ngImeanshe'sser
iousaboutwhoeveri
s
comingovert
oday.
Me:
"l
et'
schange"
Yol
o:"
masai
dbat
h"
Me:"
I'
m outoff
acecr
eam,
bat
hsoapandbody
l
oti
on"
Yol
o:"
li
esl
i
esshameIknowy
ou"
Me:"
butI
'm ser
iousthat
'swhyIwant
edtogotot
own
youknoweversinceIgotbackI
'
vebeengoi
ngout
"
Yol
o:"
yeahwi
thy
ourboy
fri
end,
shamey
oudon'
ttel
l
me"
Me:"
causehe'
snotmyboy
fri
endj
eezImeanhe'
sso
notmytype"
Yolo:
"yeahthat
'swhyhe'
salwayswit
hyouguy
s..
.
JeezI'
llbor
rowy oumybathsoapandst
uff
"
Me:"
thatmeansIdon'
twashmyf
acey
ouknowIuse
aspecial
cream "
Wet ookabat htogetherImeanI '
m notaf r
aidofmy
l
ittl
esi sterevent houghIcanseei tinherey esshe
hassl eptwi thsomeone Ij ustwi shshe' ssafeat
allcost sany waywedi dt henecessar yandIwor ea
blackkni tsweat erwithlaceupoft heshoul der
sleev esandabl ushpinkskat erskirtIwor emyNi ke
sneaker sandIwasdonenowLuy olowasj ustt
hat
mycr azyy oungersister,shewor eabl ackskater
skirtandawhi t
esweat erjustli
kemi ney eahwebuy
thesamecl othesheyj ustmixmat ch.
Me:
"okaysowhodoy
out
hinki
scomi
ng?"
Sheshr
ug
Her
:"
domymakeuppl
ease"
Me:
"ai
n'
tyout
ooy
oungf
ormakeup?
"
Her:
"I'
l
lhaveyouknowIj
ustwentf
ormyI
D
appl
icati
onlastmont
h"
Me:
"congr
atul
ati
onsbutst
il
l.
..
"
Her:
"comeonsisIwantey
ebr
owsl
i
key
our
syou
knowcuteandshi
t"
Me:
"l
etmet
weezet
hem f
ir
st"
SheagreedandIdidmyt hingonthem yeahshe
wantedtolookcutesowhoam It osaynot oher,
I
didhermakeupandf ixedupmyownf acethenwe
weredone,butwecouldn'
tgooutuntilwewer e
call
edmom' sorder
s webat hjustt
olock
oursel
vesupintheroom weirdIknow.
.
☆Lwandl
e♡
Hi mynamei sLwandl eBruceSokhul uwel l
I'm 26
year sol dandr i
ghtnowI 'm heretodiscussmy
arrangedt ot hisgirlImeanIwasagai nstarr anged
mar riagesunt ilmywi fedivorcedmeandr anof fwi t
h
mymoneyl eavingmewi thour5mont hol dbabyboy
womenar ejustrubbishImeany out aket hem out
oft heshi tt heyusedt ocal lli
feandy ouint r
oduce
them t ot hegoodl if
et heyjustturnony ouj ustlike
thatAmandl awasnotf rom ar i
chfami l
yi nfactshe
wasf rom abadbackgr oundev enthehouseI '
mi n
ri
ghtnowi sbettertheyar establebutnowt hey
agreedt ot hisbecauset hei
rbusinessneedscapi tal
don' ttrustany oneint hiswor l
dnotev eny our
par
entscausetheywil
lselly
ououtl
i
ket
heyar
e
sel
l
ingthei
rdaughterr
ightnow.
Me:
"Idon'
tmeant
ober
udebutcanwegetst
art
ed"
Ba'
Nyosi
:
"ofcour
se"
UncleT:"
wel
lasweal
lknowwhywear
ehere,
we'
d
l
iketotakey
ouuponyourof
fert
omar
ryy
our
daughter
"
Ba'
Nyosi
:"
yeswebel
iev
eshe'
sreadyt
obe
marr
ied,
she'
smat
urednow"
Me:
"Iseeal
lofthat
,butdoessheknowaboutt
his?
Di
dsheagree?"
Theyl
ookedateachot
her
Me:"IseeI'
m al
awyerandIknowthatfor
ced
marriagescanl
eadtoonegoingt
opr i
sonsoI
suggestyoutel
lher
"
Ma'
Nyosi
:
"she'
l
lagr
eeIknow"
Me:"
Iunder
standbutpl
easet
ell
herIdon'
twant
t
roubl
e"
Ba'
Nyosi
:
"ofcour
segocal
lher
"
MrsNy osist
oodupandwentt ooneoftherooms
shecamebackwi thoneofthegi
rl
sandshehasthis
smallbabyfaceIwonderi
fshe'
sevenlegal
.
Ma'
Nyosi
:
"thi
sisPenel
opemydaught
er"
Me:
"hi
Penel
ope"
Lol
o:"
hel
l
o"
Sheshookourhandssheev
enhast
hatbabyv
oice
Ba'
Nyosi
:
"Nanathesear
eyouri
nlawsandt
heyar
e
her
etopaylobol
a"
Lol
o:"
saywhatnow?Idon'
tremembermehav
inga
boy
fri
end.
..
.PapaIdon'
tknowthem"
Me:
"doy
oumi
ndseat
ing?"
Lol
o:"
doy
oumi
ndI
'
m st
il
ltal
ki
ngt
omyf
ather
"
Ma'Nyosi
:"
Penelopet
hat
'
snothowIr
aisedy
ou
apol
ogizeri
ghtnow"
Shemumbl
edwhat
everandl
ookedatme
Lol
o:"
I'
m sor
ry"
sheobey Iwasgoi
ngt
ocal
lthi
sof
fbutI
won'
tany
mor
eI'
m keepi
ngt
hismar
ri
age.
Lol
o:"
Idon'
twantt
omar r
ysomeoneIdon'
tknow
mamaandIwon'tcauseIhav
en'
tachi
evedwhatI
wanti
nlif
e"
Me:
"whatar
eyoust
udy
ing?
"
Lol
o:"
Law"
Me:
"wel
lthat
'sgoodwe'
l
lbot
hbel
awy
ers"
Shest
aredatmewi
thgl
assyey
es
Lol
o:"mama,papapleaseIcan'
tdoi
tIdon'
twantt
o
marryhi
m Idon'tev
enknowhi sname.Whati
fhe'
sa
ser
ialki
ll
er?
"
Ist
arr
edather
Ba'Nyosi
:
"weneedthemoneyhowwill
wepayf
or
youreducat
ioni
fthebusi
nessdi
es?
"
Lol
o:"
ther
ear
ebur
sar
iest
onsoft
hem ev
ensoIwont
marr
yhim"
Shefol
dedherar
ms i
wonderwhoshei
str
yingt
o
fool
.
Me:
"It
hinki
tsbestwecal
lthi
sof
fIdon'
thav
eti
me
t
owast
eher
e"
Ba'
Nyosi
:"
no..
.noumhthi
sconti
nuesorel
se
Penel
opegetoutofmyhouse"
Lolo:
"what
?Youarethr
owingmeoutj
ustbecause
I'
m sayi
ngnotobei
ngsoldoff
?"
Ma'Nyosi
:"
nomychi l
dpl
easethi
nkaboutyoursi
ster
,
you'
ll
alsobehelpi
ngherwhenyoudothi
s.She'l
l
haveabetterf
utur
e"
Shej
ustst
ormedof
ftotheroom shewasinand
camebackwit
hali
tt
legi
rlt
heyjustl
eftust
here
‍♂
Me:
"sowhathappensnow?
"
Ba'
Nyosi
:
"let
'scont
inue"
Ilookedatmyuncleandhehadt hi
ssmi rkonhis
facehenodandwecont inuedbruhthi
schi l
ddoesn'
t
comecheapbutIunderstandnoboyhasmessed
withheryetso35grandistheri
ghtpri
ceandt hat
wast hefi
nalamountaf
terweaskedf ordiscount
s
causetheywanted50KbutItrustThamsanqahe
knowshisstuffshame,
aftert
henegotiat
ionsthey
serv
edusf oodbutIwasinahurryt
ogobackmy
babyhemustmi sshisf
athersowestar
tedour
j
ourneybacktoJohannesburg.
Me:"
sowhatdoy outhi
nkabouther
?Doy out
hink
she'
l
llookaf
terLesegowi
ththeri
ghtl
ove?"
Thamsanqa:"
yeahsheseemsli
keagoodgi
rlsoI
woul
dn'tst
ressaboutheri
fIwer
eyou"
Me:"y
eahIguessy ouarer
ightsheseemsli
keshe'
s
l
ist
enstoo,Idon'
twantanotherAmandl
ainmy
house.Thatbit
chwil
lruethedayshewasborn"
Thamsanqa:
"don'
tst
ressshe'
l
lbef
ound"
Me:
"don'
tneedhert
obe.
..
..She'
sfi
nedeadl
i
ket
hat
"
Thamsanqa:
"what
?"
Me:"Imeanshe'
sfi
newhenshe'snother
ecauseI'
d
ki
llherwit
hmybarehandsmalumestopcracki
ng
yourbrai
novernot
hing"
Thamsanqa:
"Ihopesowedon'
tneedanothersaga
onourhandsoryou'
ll
loset
hecompanythisti
me"
Inodanddr
oveImeanBushbuckr
idgeai
n'
tbehi
nd
ourhousesowegottahel
peachotheri
ndri
ving.I
haveanewwi fe mysonwi l
lhavesomeoneto
l
ookafterhi
m andhe'
ll
for
getaboutt
hatst
upidthi
ng
hecall
samot her
.
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nne:
♡PENELOPE'
SSTORY♡
.
02☆
.
✿PENELOPE✿
Icouldn'tbeli
evemypar entsweresel
l
ingmeof f I
thoughtt heyl
ovedmebutt heysel
lmeofftothe
fi
rstarrogantniggatheycanf i
ndandtheyexpectme
tobehappyIwasn' tevenfocusedonwhatLuy ol
o
wasdoi ng.
Her
:"
canwegonow?
"
Me:
"di
dyouor
der
?"
Her
:"I
'
m hol
dingt
heboxofpi
zzar
ighther
esol
et'
s
go"
Inodandpi
ckedupt
hePNPbagandwel
eft
Roman'
spizzaweboughtonl
yjunkandafewofmy
st
uffwedecidedt
owalkImeanit'
scloset
ohome
sowewon'twastemoney
"
Nonowai
thau"
Itur
nedaroundandf
oundNtombi
wavingatusso
westoppedshecamerunni
ngwehuggedwhenshe
gottous.
Me:
"heyf
ri
end"
Nt
ombi
:
"skeem,
hiNana"
Yol
o:"
heyNt
ombi
"
Ntombi
:"sobabywhenar
eyoul
eav
ing?Ineedust
o
goout"
Me:"I
'
mthinki
ngtomor
rowI
'm notsur
eBushj
ust
becametr
oublesomef
orme"
Yol
o:"
haasesi
Ithoughty
oust
il
lhadt
woday
sher
e"
Me:
"Idobutwhaty
ourpar
ent
sdi
dpi
ssedmeof
f"
Ntombi
:
"butt
henagai
nhowaboutwegooutt
oni
ght
?
"
Me:
"youknowIcan'
tIhat
eTar
vensf
ri
endbutI
'
llsee
whatIcandosodon'
twor
ryI
'
llcont
acty
ou"
Nt
ombi
:
"okaycool
letmer
unnehsoseey
ou"
Wehuggedandshej
ustt
ookoutasliceofpi
zza
myfr
iendst
heyj
ustt
aketheydon'
task.
Nt
ombi
:
"by
ebaekaBr
andy
"
Me:
"don'
tputi
deasi
ntomysi
ster
'sheadpl
ease"
Yolo:
"Iknowabouty
ouandt
hatSkot
heni
vel
eIdon'
t
needany one.
.."
Me:
"shhl
et'
sgohome.
..
byef
ri
end'
Nt
ombi
:
"by
eguy
s"
Shewasgoi ngtoherboyfriendobv iouslycauseshe
l
ivesint hesamehoodasmebutshe' sgoing
towardst own baeswi t
hcar sItell youbuttheyare
busyset ti
ngmeupwi t
hBr andon adr unk,weed
smokingguywhoseemst onotev enunder standthe
wordlov ebutt heywantmef orhimj eezwegot
homeandi tlookedl
ikeourv i
sit
orshadl eftbutthe
memor yofhowmyownpar entstriedt osellmeof f
won'tleavemyt houghts wewal kedi nj
usttof i
nd
theparent srelaxedwatchingTV j eezIwi shTumi
wouldcomebacktomor
rowsowecanleav
eal
ready
causetheywon'
tl
etmegobackal
one.
Yol
o:"
famil
y.
..
.andwher
edi
dthehandsomeguy
di
sappeart
o?"
Ma:
"Luy
olobehav
ethat
'
syourbr
otheri
nlaw"
Me:
"ehhh "
Yol
o:"
wowsot
hati
stheguywhowascomi
ngher
e?"
Me:
"wai
tyouknewaboutt
his?andy
oudi
dn'
ttel
l
me?
"
Yol
o:"l
istenIoverheadmom anddadtal
kingbutI
di
dn'ttakeitseri
ouslyI
'm notj
oki
ngIt
houghtthey
werejustpassingideas"
Me:"well
I'
m notanyone'
sproper
tyandIwil
lnotbe
soldIhaveri
ghtsandbeli
evemeI '
m notaf
rai
dto
exerci
sethem"
Iwasaboutt
owal
kaway
Ma:"
thi
nkaboutyoursist
erNonoandstopbei
ng
sel
fi
sh,youandyourbrot
herwenttoapri
vat
eschool
whydon'tyouwantthesameforLuyol
o?"
Me:"
Idobutnotatmyexpense.
..Mawhatdoy
ou
knowaboutt
heguyhuh?"
Dad:
"enought
oknowthathe'
sther
ightmanfory
ou
nowsitdownbef
orey
ougetonmyner ves"
Iwasaboutt ospeakbutLuy olotuggedonmyhand
andwesatdownl etmetellyoumydadai n'tafrai
d
tobeatust hat
'swhywear ev erymuchdisciplined
I'
m notsayingpeoplewhodon' tbeatthei
rchildren
arenotdiscipl
i
ningthem butintheNy osihousehold
yougetabeatdown.
Dad:
"nowcanwetal
ktoy
oul
i
ket
hemat
uredper
son
wethinky
ouare?
"
Inod
Dad:"
good,l
ist
enNonoweareinbigf
inanci
al
probl
emsrightnowandwestandtol
oseevery
thi
ng
i
fwedon'tdot hi
ssopl
easeIbegofy
oudon'tfi
ght
thi
smarri
age"
Me:"thi
sisnotfairandy ouknowitpapaI'm
supposedt ofal
linlov
ef ir
st,gooutondates,
getmy
heartbrokenthenonlycanIsayIwantt oget
married.Iwanttostartdoingwhatotherki
dsare
doi
ngwhenIhavemydegr
eebutonceI
'
m mar
ri
ed
I
'l
lbet
ieddown"
Ma:
"you'
l
llear
ntol
ovehi
m,he'
sagoody
oungman"
Me: "
howdoy ouknowt hat?Hecoul
dbeaseri
al
kil
lerforal
lweknoworhecoul dbeowni
ngoneof
thosebr ot
hel
sandhe'sjustsay
inghewant
sto
mar rymesot hathecansellmeoff
"
Dad:"
he'
salawyerandheownshi
sfat
her
'sl
awf
ir
m
he'
ll
helpyou"
Me:"
Idon'tneedhishelpokaysopl
easecall
thi
s
st
upidthingoffI
'm notmarry
ingaguyIdon'
tknow
orevenlove.Iwannamarrycauseofl
ovenot
money"
Dad:
"wel
lI'
m sorr
yyouarealreadymarr
iedtohi
m
j
usthavetoperf
ormt her
ightceremoni
esthenyou
ar
etradi
ti
onal
lyhis"

Me:"
howcouldyou?Youchosemoneyov
ermey our
owndaughtermamayouchosemoney Ithought.
..
.
It
houghtyouwantedmetobehappy"
Ma:
"andy
ouwi
l
lbehappyIpr
omi
se"
Me:"youdon'tknowthatokay
,Ihopethatmoney
giv
esy ouet
ernall
i
feandhappinessf
oryouhave
sacri
ficedme"
Istoodupandj ustwalkedtomyr oom wit
hLuy ol
o
ri
ghtonmyt rai
l ican'
tbeli
evetheywentaheadwi t
h
thi
safterItoldthem howIf eelaboutal
lofthi
sbut
theysti
llnegoti
atedapr iceforme Ihadev enlost
myappet it
eal l
Iwast oleavethishousebeforeIget
soldtoanotherguysoIwaspacki ng,I
'
dpackand
Luyolowouldunpack
Me:"Idon'
thavet
imefory
ourchi
l
dishgamesdoy
ou
hearme?Ijustwantt
ogo"
Her
:"
wher
e?School
sai
n'
treopenedy
et"
Me:"Idon'
tknowI'
llt
hinkofsomet
hingasl
ongas
I
'm notherethenI
'
m good"
Her
:"
butNonot
hatguyseemedgenui
ne"
Me:"
genui
ne?Doy ouknowwhatgi
rl
soutther
ego
t
hrough?Al
lbecauseheseemedgenui
ne"
Her
:"
soy
ou'
l
ljustr
unawayandnev
erl
ookback?"
Me:
"I
'm notr
unni
ngI
'
m goi
ngbackt
ocampushau"
Her
:"
Ithought
..
.."
Me:"
Luy
olost
opi
t.
..
..I
'
mleav
ingt
omor
rowandt
hat
's
f
inal
"
"
Youar
enotgoi
ngany
wher
e"
Il
ookedbehi
ndmeandf
oundmymot
her
Me:
"wel
lI'
m notst
ayi
ngher
eei
ther
"
Mom:
"Luy
olocany
ouexcuseuspl
ease"
Yol
o:"
cool
I'
ll
goheatupt
hepi
zza"
Shewalkedoutwit
htheboxofpizzawel
lmom went
toseatonLuyol
o'
sbedIconti
nuedpacki
ngmylif
e
away
Ma:
"cany
ouseather
ewi
thme?I
'
dli
ket
otal
ktoy
ou"
Me:
"t
alkpl
ease"
Ma:
"Penel
opeJay
denNy
osi
!!
"
Ist
aredatherandjustsatdownnextt
oher
,shehel
d
myhandrubbingit
.
Ma:
"Nanay
ouhav
etounder
standhowsor
ryI
am.
..
I'
m deepl
ysor
ry"
Me:
"yety
oudi
dit
"
Iy
ankedmyhandaway
Ma:"Nanaweneedt hemoneyorel
seyourli
ttl
e
sist
erwil
lbefor
cedt ogotoapubl
i
cschool,y
ouand
yourbrot
herwil
lbeforcedt
odropoutofschooland
we'l
lhavetosel
lthehouse"
Me:"t
hisai
n'
tsandtonwher
ey oupayrent,
i
t'
sy our
l
andsoy oudon'
thavetosel
lahouseorany thing.
Youaresti
llwor
kingandsoisdadbutjustbecause
yourbusi
nessneedsacashcowy outhoughtit'
s
bestyousel
lme?IhateyoumaIr eal
l
yhat eyouf or
thi
s"
Shest
oodupandsl
appedme
Ma:
"howdar
eyousayt
hatt
ome?
"
Me:"
yourui
nedmydreams,
yourui
nedmyf
utur
eI
hopeyouar
ehappywithy
oursel
f"
Shewasabouttosl
apmebutIqui
ckl
yst
oodupand
j
ustst
aredather
Me:
"goaheadmamasl
apmeagai
nbutI
'
llst
il
lhat
e
you,i
t'
l
lfor
everhauntyouthatyourui
nedmyl ife.
Thedayhestart
sabusingmei t'
ll
bey ourfaul
t,
when
hemakesmequi teschoolit
'l
lbeyourfaul
tma.I
knowhe'l
labusemet her
ewi l
lcomeapoi ntwhere
he'
ll
evenrapemebutknowt hati
twil
l beyourfaul
t"
Ma:
"youdon'
tknowany
thi
ng"
Me:"youdon'
tknowanythi
ngabouthi
m butyou
shouldlookapersoni
ntheeyeyou'
l
lseethety
peof
persontheyar
e..
...
"
Shewashopi
ngf
ormet
obackdownbutIdi
dn'
tshe
fi
nal
l
ydid.
Ma:
"heownsal
awf
ir
myou'
l
lbewel
ltakencar
eof
"
Me:"
keepontel
l
ingy
our
sel
fthat
.Imeanwhat
ever
hel
psyousl
eepatni
ght
"
Iwentbackt opacki
ng I
don'tneedt obehereanymoreorI'l
lburst,
wel
lma
l
eftandLuy ol
ocamer unni
nginwi t
ht hepi
zzaand
somej uice wehadourdi nnerthendidwhat
si
stersdoj ustgossi
p,doournail
sandev endoeach
othershair
.
.
Lwandl
e
Ihadj ustputLesegot obedhe' sgrowingv eryf ast
andsoonhe' l
lbeaskingwher ehismot herisand
howdoy out el
lyoursont haty ourmot heri sdead
somewher einthewor ld t hisgirlbetterfil
lthat
voidinhishear torI
'l
lmakeherl i
fealivinghel l I
wentdownst ai
rsandj ustmademy selfsomel azy
dinnerjustkebabsonmust ardmash, IthinkImi ss
hav i
ngsomeonecookf orme Ihur ri
edandwent
towasht heplateIwasusi ngt henwentupst airsto
myr oom I '
mt i
redokayIcan' tbelieveIdr oveal lt
he
wayf rom BushbuckridgeandsoonI '
llhav etodr i
ve
backagai n butnowIknowi t'l
lbefort hecer emony
thenI'm donespeakingofwhi chIdeci dedt ocal lmy
futurewife sheanswer edwi thherbabyv oice.
Her
:"
Unknownnumberhel
l
o"
Me:
"hi
it'
sLwandl
ewemett
odayaty
ourhouse
r
emember "
Her
:"
whatdoy
ouwant
?I'
m sl
eepi
ngqui
tet
ir
ed"
Me:"
justt
oknowwheny
ou'
l
lbebacki
nJo'
bur
gI'
d
l
iket
ot al
ktoyou"
Her:
"Idon'
tthi
nkIhav
eany
thi
ngt
osayt
oyou,
canI
sl
eepnow? "
Me:"l
i
stenIdon'
tl
ikechasi
ngaf
terpeopl
esoI
suggestyoumeetwit
hmewheny ougetback"
Her
:"
Nohauj
eezyouar
etoosl
owf
oral
awy
er.
..
..
Nxaleav
emeal
one"
Shehunguponme Ical ledheragai
nIguessshe
di
dn'
tcheckshej
ustanswered
Her
:"
what
?"
Me:"
Penel
opeI
'
dli
ket
otal
ktoy
oul
i
keanor
mal
per
son"
Her:
"youdi
dn'tmarr
ymel i
keanormalper
sonbutit
's
okayIunder
standthatnowyouownmebutr i
ght
nowI'
m sti
llf
reetodowhatIwantandI'
m say
ing
l
eavemet hehell
alone"
Shehungupagai
n herlit
tl
eatti
tudewi
l
lgetonmy
ner
vesli
kecr
azyIhat
esuchgir
ls.
[
11/
2,21:
01]Ly
nne:
♡PENELOPE'
SSTORY♡
.
03
.
Penel
ope❀
Iwokeupangr yandIhateitwhenIwakeupwi th
angerbott
ledupinme Iwasj ustfeelli
kekill
ing
someonebutIcan'tsoIchooset ogof oray oung
runsoIwor emyleggingsandtanktop,Niketrainer
s
Iti
edmyhai rupandwentf ormyr unwi t
hheadset s
ondon'tneedtobedisturbedIhadamassi v
er un
andonmywaybackIbumpedi ntoBr andyaswecal l
him Imeanhe'scutebuthe'snotonmyt odol i
st
he'
snotmyf ut
uregoals.
Me:
"pl
easel
etmepass"
Hehel
dmyhandandwasaboutt
oki
ssi
tbutIpul
l
ed
away
Hi
m:"
howar
eyoubaby
?Idi
dn'
tseey
out
heent
ir
e
mont
h"
Me:
"Br
andonpl
easeI
'
m noti
nthemood"
Him:
"youar
esti
llsay
ingnoNono?ImeanIhav
e
al
wayshadthehotsfory
oufr
om whenyouwerea
baby
"

Me:"
BrandonwemetwhenIwasi
ngr
ade9what
babyareyout
alki
ngabout
"
Hi
m:"
nawey
ouunder
standwhatImean,
Penel
opeI
l
ovey
ou"
Me:"
I'
m sur
ey oulov
eev
erygi
rlwhohasanassand
gi
vesyouattent
ion"
Hi
m:"
haaIl
ovey
ouMi
naIwantt
omar
ryy
ou"
Hewaswalki
ngmehomeev
en t hat
'showcutehe
i
sbuthei
skil
li
nghi
msel
fwi
thweedandalcohol
,
he
t
ookmyhand.
Hi
m:"
I'
m ser
iousbabygi
rl
"
Me:"
Brandonweedoy
our
ememberwhenI
'
m not
her
e"
Hi
m:"
yohy
ohbabygi
rlIdr
eam abouty
ou,
Iev
enhav
e
yourpi
cturesonmywal
lsot
hatIcanst
areaty
ou
befor
eIsleep"
Me:
"t
hat
'swei
rdy
ouknow"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyout
hat
'
swhy
"
Wechuckl
edbusybumpi
ngoneachot
her he'
s
f
unnyLordknowsi
t.
Him:
"canIseey
oul
ater
?Imi
sshangi
ngoutwi
th
you"
Me:
"I
'mleav
ingt
odayhey
..
..
buty
oucanwal
kmet
o
t
hemall
"
Hi
m:"
okaysocanIhav
eyournumber
s?"
Me:
"f
orthet
housandt
imey
esbutnol
atecal
l
sIl
ove
mysl
eep"
Hi
m:"
Iknowbabyf
ace"
Hegav
emehi
sphone
Me:
"whodi
dyoust
eal
thi
sfr
om now?
"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
mydadboughti
tformehau"
Igav
ehi
m hi
sphoneback
Me:
"by
eBr
andyboy
"
Hi
m:"
ahug?
"
Inodandwehuggedhedeci
dedt
osqueezemyass
soIqui
ckl
ypushedhi
m away
Me:
"wear
eatmyhouser
especthau"
Hi
m:"
it
'sst
il
lfr
eshsonoonehasbeenpl
ayi
ngwi
th
i
t"

Me:
"by
e"
Iwenthomebusylaughi
ngmyf aceoffBrandoni
s
crazybutt
henagai
nmysmi ledisappear
edwhenI
foundmydadstandi
ngther
etryingtoeatmealiv
e.
Me:
"goodmor
ning"
Hi
m:"
whoi
sthatboy
?"
Me:
"Br
andonf
rom phase1"
Hi
m:"
sonowy
ouar
ebusywi
thboy
s?"
Me:
"dadnotnowpl
easey
ouhav
eal
readydoomed
j
ustl
eav
emeal
onepl
ease"
Hi
m:"
Penel
opecomebackher
enow"
Icont
inuedmyangr ywal
khomeandy
eahIf
ound
myclothesunpacked
Me:
"Luy
olo!
!Luy
olocomeher
eri
ghtnow"
Iwasscr
eami
ngmyl
ungsof
fshecamer
unni
ngt
oo
Me:
"whounpackedmycl
othes?
"
Her
:"
mamadidappar
ent
lyy
oucan'
tl
eav
ewi
thout
Tumisho"
Me:
"wel
ltheyar
ewr
ongnxa"
Itookabathworemydr essandfent
ysli
ppersIwent
tothekit
chenandgotmy sel
fsomecerealt
hat'
sthe
onlyfoodI'
deatr
ightnow
Dad:
"Ihear
dyouwantt
oleav
eNono"
Me:
"yest
oenj
oyt
het
inybi
toff
reedom Ist
il
lhav
e"
Dad:
"school
sar
est
il
lcl
osedsowher
ear
eyou
goi
ng?"
Me:
"I
'l
lst
aywi
thmyf
ri
end"
Ma:
"whatf
ri
end?It
houghty
oudi
dn'
thav
efr
iends"
Me:"wel
lmaIact
uall
yhav
eaboy f
ri
endhi
snameis
Lubanzi
,
Iwasgoi
ngtoint
roducey
ouguystohi
m
whentheti
meisri
ght"
Idon'thaveaboy f
riend j ustaguyI'
m busy
crushingonandhe' scrushi
ngonmet oobutIt
old
hi
mt hatwehavet owaitandheagreedsonowwer e
sti
llf
riendsbuthe'saguyI '
dseemy selfwi
th but
nowI 'm st
uckwiththatsangoma
Yol
o:"
youhav
eaboy
fri
end?
"
Il
ookedatherandshequi
ckl
yshutup
Ma:
"sonowy
ouar
ebusywi
thboy
s?"
Iwentt
oputt
hebowl
int
hesi
nk
Me:"
he'
sagoodguyandy ouwouldhaveli
kedhi
m
buthey
,IguessI
'm st
uckwi
thLwandl
eorwhatever
hi
snamei s.Aguywhoisbusyt
hreat
eningmeeven
now"
Dad:
"you'
llleavethatboyofy
oursunderst
and,how
coul
dy ouletusli
eandsayy ouaresti
l
lav i
rgi
n
knowi
ngy ou'renot"
Me:
"whosai
dI'
m notav
irgi
n?PapaI
'
m notl
oose"
Itookmyphoneandwentout
sidej
usttogetsome
fr
eshairmyphonerangandi
twasthatnumberfr
om
l
astnight
.
Me:
"yes?
"
Hi
m:"
li
stenweneedt
omeetI
'
m ser
ious"
Me:
"wellIdon'
twanttoandI
'
m ser
ious.
..
.Youruined
myfutur
eandmypl anssopl
easestoprubbi
ngitin
myface"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
twannaf
ucky
ouIj
ustwantust
otal
k"
Me:
"t
alktomypar
ent
ssoi
fyoudon'
tmi
ndI
'
dli
ke
mypeaceofmi
nd"
Ihungupandj ustwentbackt or
elaxi
ng y eahI
wasn'tall
owedtol eavesoIwasst uckathomebut
duri
ngt hedayIwentt ot hemall
withmyfriends
evenBrandonwast here sowehadourf unIeven
wenthomeat7si ncei twassomuchf unIdon'tcar
e
i
ftheyshoutatmeI '
llbegivenoffany
way.
.
Jo'
bur
g♡
Wehadj ustarr
ivedandfi
rstpersontowelcomeme
wasBanzi wewer etal
kingov ert
hephonethe
enti
ret
imesoIdi dtell
himI'm comingwehugged
andhegr eet
edTumi ,
well
myt winhasn'
tbeentol
d
aboutt
hisshit.
Me:
"handsomeboy
"
Hechuckl
edt
aki
ngmybag
Hi
m:"
gor
geousl
ady
..
..
howar
eyoubaby
?"
Me:
"bett
ernowthatIhav
eseeny
oushamesohow
wasyourEast
er?
"
Him:"
okayImeanIenj
oyedfacet
imi
ngwi
thy
ouIf
elt
l
ikeJesuswascomingforme"
Istuckoutmytongue,he'scr
azybutIdoenj
oy
spendingti
mewithhim causehe'sf
unnyl
ike
Brandon,hewal
kedmet omyr oom.
Hi
m:"
sowhati
sitt
haty
ouwantust
odi
scuss?"
Me:
"seatf
ir
stBanzi
hau"
Hesatdown
Me:
"l
ist
ent
hisi
sn'
teasybutI
'
m mar
ri
ed"

Hi
m:"
you'
remar
ri
ed?Towho?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"i
twasanar
rangedmarri
ageokayIf
oundout
t
hedayoft
henegoti
ati
ons"
Him:
"soourdreams?BabeIt
houghtaf
ter
complet
ingwe'ddousful
l
y"
Ishr
ug
Me:"I
'
m sorrybutIdi
dn'
thaveachoi
cehel
lIdon'
t
haveachoicenextweekIhavet
ogobackhomef or
theceremony"
Him:"
Iactual
l
ythoughtwewer
evi
bing.
..
li
kei
t'
dbe
easyforus"
Me:
"yeahwearebutj
ustwantedyoutoknowthat
wehaveahugehindr
anceandthat'
smebeing
mar
ri
edoffandIdon'
tknowwhatt odo"
Hi
m:"
fi
ghthi
m ont
his"
Me:
"yeahIhav
eli
kewhatt
hreeweeksst
udy
ingl
aw?
He'
saful
lbl
ownoutlawyerandheev
enownsal
aw
f
ir
m sowhatcanIdo?"
Hepul
l
edmet owar
dst
hebedandsatdownonhi
s
l
ap,
wehugged
Hi
m:"
sowhat
'shi
sname?
"
Me:"
someidiotcal
l
edLwandl
eSokhul
uor
somethi
ng"
Hi
m:"
Iknoworhav
ehear
daboutt
hatnamebef
ore"
Me:
"yeahanywayenoughaboutmydespai
rlet
'sgo
t
othesportsfi
eldf
orfr
eshair
"
Henodandwewentt ohaveabreat
her i magi
ne
thatweev enleftcampusandwenttogetsomeIce
cream seeIwantt ofal
li
nlovenotl
earnt
olove
that'
srubbish,butnowIhavetol
earnhowtolove
notfalli
nlove
.
Lwandl
e
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Twoweeksl
ater
]
Fuck t
hisshi
tofacer
emonywasmov
edl
ast
weekt ot hisweekappar ent l
yshehadf l
u Iknow
i
tshert ryingtoav oi
dt hiscausesheav oi
dedme
whenI 'dbumpi ntoheratt hemal lev enwhenwe
wer ecalledtobeguestl ect uresshemadesur eto
avoidey econt actwit
hme I '
m cut eforthel oveof
Godbutsheav oidsmel i
keIt rytoav oi
dabadr ash
wel lwedr ovethereint heear l
yhour soft hemor ni
ng
myent i
ref amil
ybutIdon' thav ethatmuchImeanI
don'tev enhav eparentst heydi ed ‍♂nowI '
m
l
ef twithmyl it
tlebrotherbuthe' sinboar dingschool ,
todayhecamet houghIcan' tgetmar ri
edwi thout
him Ineedmyl i
tt
lebrother '
ssuppor tplushe'llbe
playingwi thLesego,whenwegott herewegotsome
foodf i
rst.
Sakhi
l
e:"
sowhoi
sthi
sgi
rl
?"
Me:
"you'
l
lseeherj
ustr
elaxbabybr
o"
Sakhi
l
e:"
ImeanIhadt
odumpschool
fort
his"
Me:
"noy
oudi
dn'
tsor
elax
...
..
"
Thamsanqa:"
soImeanafterthi
snomoretr
ipsto
thi
sdul
lplaceIdon'
thav
et i
met obeher
eal
l t
he
ti
me"
Me:"
IguesssoImeanaf
tert
hiswe'
l
ljustgot
ohome
af
fai
rsandsign"
Sakhi
l
e:"
woahdi
dsheagr
eet
othat
?"
Me:
"doesn'
tneedt
osof
ini
shup"
Heshrugandwentabouthav i
nghisFrenchfries
aft
erourbreakfastwedrovetotheNyosi household
welli
twaspackedbel i
evemet hesepeopledocome
outforweddingsshameIguesswedi dn'thavet o
announcethatwehav earr
ivedcausetheywel comed
uswithsi
nging ‍♂ wellwegotoutandj oined
i
nont hefesti
vit
ieswhatcanwedo.
Sakhi
l
e:"
sowhi
chonei
sit
?"
Me:
"t
heonei
nabl
ueski
rtandawhi
tet
ankt
op"
Hel
ookedar
ound
Sakhi
l
e:"
she'
shotbr
o"
Isl
appedt
hebackofhi
shead
Me:
"t
hat
'smywi
fe,
yourt
ypei
shersi
ster
"
Sakhi
l
e:"
shel
ooksl
i
keasnob"
Me:
"andy
ouai
n'
t?You'
dmakeagr
eatmat
ch"
Sakhi
l
e:"
she'
sthi
n"
Me:" fucknoshe'
sgoodforyou,
j
ustbecause
she'
srel
atedtoasexgoddesst
hatdoesn'
tmean
she'
ssupposedtobeone"
Sakhil
e:"
mxm I'
mfineal
onethen..
..
..
any
waywhyai
n't
shelookingaty
ou?Sheseemst obeavoidi
ngy
ou"
Me:"
hasherownpr
obl
emsjeezai
n'
tthi
scer
emony
endi
ngal
readyI
'
dli
ket
odri
vebackearl
y"
Sakhi
l
e:"
weey
oucan'
twai
ttobangi
t?"
Islappedt hebackofhisheadagainIwasserious
thoughIj ustwantedtoleavet
hispl
acebutIguess
theirceremoniestakeforev
ercausewelef
tat6pm I
wasev endosingoff.
"
Letmedr
ive"
Il
ookedbesi
desmeandsawthi
sgi
rlwhowasbusy
sul
ki
ngshecantal
kaf
teral
l
.
Me:
"cany
ouev
endr
ive?
"
Her
:"
yeahsocanIdr
ivepl
ease,
bef
orey
ouki
l
lusal
l
"
Me:
"whendi
dyougety
ourl
i
cense"
Her
:"
lasty
ear
"
Me:
"show.
..
."
Her
:"
her
eyougo,
nowcanIdr
ive?
"
Ist
oppedthecargotoutandgav
eherachanceI
wasti
redanywayandshewasagooddrivertoosoI
sl
epthal
fwayther
eshecanbemychauffertoo
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.
Penel
ope
IdrovebutIwokehi
m upwhenIwasti
red he
didn'
twanttowakeupishef
orreal
?
Me:"
Lwandl
eIdon'
tknowy
ourhouseandI
'
mti
red
wakeup"
Sakhi
l
e:"
letmedr
ive"
Ist
aredathi
m i
shef
orr
eal
rightnow.
Sakhi
l
e:"
Ihav
eal
i
censey
ouknow"
Me:
"Idon'
tthat
'
swhyI
'
m skept
ical
"
Sakhi
l
e:"
wel
lIdoj
ustcomeandhol
dLesego"
Iexhal
edloudl
yandwasaboutt
oopent
hedoorbut
Lwandlehel
dmeback.
Il
ookedhi
m andhewashal
fawake.
Hi
m:"
youwi
l
lnotgot
otheback"
Me:
"I
'mt
ir
edandIdon'
tknowwher
eyoust
ay"
Hi
m:"
whydi
dn'
tyouwakeme?
"
Me:"
Idi
dbuty
ouwer
esl
eepi
ng.
..
.nowcany
out
ake
ov
er?"
Hi
m:"
sur
emov
e"
Iwasaboutt
ogetout
Hi
m:"
nogetov
erme"
Il
ookedathim andhewasser i
oussoIdi
dast old
br
uhmyassi sbi
gandi tbr
ushi
ngagai
nsthi
mi sjust
aninsul
ttomeandi tseemedli
kehewasblocking
mesot hatIcoul
dbrushuponhi m.
Sakhi
l
e:"
broy
ou'
l
lrui
nLesego"
Hechuckledandwentt ohi
sseat Ihat
eitwhen
menseemel ikeasexobjectwhenI'
m notI
'
m also
humanjustanordi
narygirl
smoothhugeassornotI
buckl
edupandwat chedhim ashewasbusy
yawni
ngrubbinghi
sey es.
Me:"wear
eparkedatagaragejustgoandgetsome
coff
eeorwat
erpleaseIhavetobeatschool
tomorr
ow"
Sakhi
l
e:"
damnIt
houghtIwast
heonl
yone"
Me:"
nahI'
m evenlat
einafew
assi
gnments.
..
..
anywaywhosechi
l
dist
hat
?You'
ve
beenhol
dinghim al
lday
"
Sakhi
l
e:"
wel
lthi
sher
eis.
..
."
Lwandl
e:"
noneofy
ourbusi
ness"
Me:
"mxm Sakhi
l
ear
eyouhungr
y?"
Sakhi
l
e:"
yeahsur
e..
."
Me:
"l
et'
sgogr
ababi
teI
'
m st
arv
ing"
Lwandl
e:"
wit
hwhosemoney
?"
Me:
"I
'l
lhav
eyouknowImakemyownmoneyf
rom
mymodel
i
nggi
gssokeepy
ourpant
son"
IneverthoughtI
'danswerhi
mli
kethatbuthe'
s
seri
ouslygett
ingonmyner v
eswit
hhisstupi
d
att
it
udeev ery
thi
ngIsayhehastoberudewhenhe
answer s Idon'tsuckdi
ckandIdon'
tthi
nkI'
ll
star
t
wit
hhi s.
Me:
"l
et'
sgo"
Sakhil
eandIgotoutwewer eatEnginequickshop
soeveryt
hinghereisexpensi
veashel lbutIbought
ussomesandwi chesandt wocupsofcof feesince
Sakhil
ewantedJuiceIevenboughtsomewat ert hen
wewentbackt othecarIwentt ogetintomy
passengerseat
Me:
"her
ehav
esomecof
fee"
Lwandl
e:"
whydi
dyoupoi
soni
t?"
Me:
"mxm f
orgeti
t.
..
.act
ingal
lspeci
alnxa"
Ij
ustthr
ewt hecoffeeoutofthewindow i t
smy
moneyIwon' tbeganassIjusthadmycof feewi
th
chocol
atecoatedmal l
owsIwasn'thungrynomore
wellMrthesirtookthewater idiotwheredidy
ou
thi
nky ou'
dendupmesucki ngy ourasshewas
fur
iousIcouldtellf
rom hi sdri
vi
ngbutIi gnoredhi
m
butchatti
ngwi t
hSakhi le heist al
kati
vejustl
i
ke
myl i
ttl
esist
ershame wel lwedrov ei
ntothis
beautif
ulhousewi t
ht hesehugegl assWi ndowsit
wasr eal
lybeauti
ful buti tbelongedtoasnobbi sh
i
diotIdon'tt
hinkI'
llenjoyliv
ingwithhim noteven
oncecauset hemomentt hecarpar kedhest or
med
out.
Him:"
Sakhi
l
ecomewi
thLesegoshe'
l
lcar
ryherown
bags"
Me:
" "
Iwentt ot heboottookt het wot r
oll
eybagsandone
sport
sbagmyot hercl otheswer eatcampusany way
Ipul
ledt hem insidewel lthehousei sj
ustasimple
doublest oreyhousewi t
hgl assforwall
sandno
curt
ainssoi t
'sfr
eef orallbutitsthosedensegl
ass
l
ikethings don'taskmewhatImeanmyhouse
hasnor mal windowsandonegl asssli
dingdoorat
thebacknott hi
sshi t
.Wel lSakhil
emetmehal fway
andtookt hebags.
Hi
m:"
li
stenhehasat
empersopl
ease.
..
"
Me:"
li
stenyourbr
otherf
orcedthi
smarriageonme
soIwon'tbehappyandjol
lyabouti
tI'
m sorr
y"
Henod
Me:
"showmet
heguestr
oom pl
ease"
"
Youar
emywi
fenotguesty
ou'
l
lsl
eepwi
thme"

Me:
"Lwandl
eIdon'
twantt
osl
eepwi
thy
ou"
Lwandl
e:"
li
stent
omeI
'
myourhusbandandIsai
d..
."
Me:
"I
'dr
athersl
eepont
hecouch"
Sakhi
l
e:"
lethersl
eepi
ntheguestr
oom br
o"
Lwandl
e:"
seewhaty
ouar
eteachi
ngmybabybr
other
?
Now"
Me:
"uhmaybethef actthatamani ssupposedto
r
espectawomani nsteadoff orci
ngthingsonher?
I
'myourar
rangedwi f
eIdi dn'
tfalli
nlovewithyouso
r
espectmeont hi
sI'dli
ket osleepinaguestroom"
Heseemeddef
eat
edbutt
henagai
nhej
usthadt
o
openhi
smout
h.
Lwandl
e:"
Sakhi
l
egopackI
'
mtaki
ngy
oubacknow"

Sakhi
l
e:"
theyarecl
osedatthehostel
youknow.
..
.
Justl
ethersl
eepinaguestroom haunoneedt
o
for
ceher"
Hewant edt ospeakbuthej ustcli
ckedhistongue
andwal kedaway heev enhast hegutstocallme
hiswifenxa Sakhi l
et ookmeupst air
stoaguest
room Ithinkcauseitwasagr eyandwhi tehereand
ther
ejustbeaut i
ful
IthinkIlov ethisroom morethan
thi
sidiot.
Me:
"t
hanky
ouheyandgoodni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
goodni
ghtandIhopet
oseey
oubef
oreIl
eav
e"
Il
aughed
Me:
"I
'l
lbedeadbyt
hen"
Hi
m:"
sleept
ightsi
steri
nlaw"
Inodandhewal
kedoutwel
lIlockedt
hedoorand
wenttot
akeashowerI
'
m cur
ioussoIfoundand
ensui tIwor emyMi nnieMousePJsandt ri
edto
sleepbut i twasl i
kebi t
chwher edi dy ouputme
sokeptont ossi
ngandt urningunt ilIdecidedt ogo
downst airsmademy selfsomewar m mi lk.Ithi
nki t
'l
l
helpmesl eepsoy eahIwentbackt omyr oom wi t
h
thegl assandIwasabl etosl eepaf ter,butitdidn't
l
astIt hinkcauseIwokeupatwhatseemedl ike3
mi nutesl aterandi twasal ready6am Ir
olled
outofbedanddr aggedmyzombi ebodyt othe
bat hroom washedmyf aceandbr ushedmyt eet h
Iwor emyr obet y
ingitlikeI'
m cr azyandIwent
downst airsev er
yonewasst i
llasleepsoIwentabout
sear chingt heirki
tchenandImadesomewaf fl
es
withsy r
upandaf reshpotofcof feeandt ea.
"
Somet
hingsmel
l
sni
cei
nher
e"
Il
ockedupandsawSakhi
l
e
Me:
"goodmor
ningNana"
Hi
m:"
heyI
'
m bi
gyouknow"
Me:
"you'
re16sonoy
ouar
enot
"
Hi
m:"
soy
oumadewaf
fl
es?
"
Inod
Me:
"andher
ear
esomepancakes"
Idi
shedupt
hepancakes
Me:
"eatuphey
"
Hi
m:"
Iwi
shIdi
dn'
thav
eleav
eyazi
I'
dgai
nwei
ght
"
Me:"v
eryf
unnyj
usteatuphau.
..
..
wantcof
feeor
j
uice?"
Hi
m:"
jui
ceI
'
m st
il
lunderagef
orcof
fee"
Il
aughedwhi
l
eget
ti
nghi
m somej
uice
Me:
"her
eyougo.
..
.."
Isatdownandjoi
nedhi
m wehadourbreakfastand
wewer eal
mostdonewhenLwandlecamedown
holdi
ngLesegohewasstar
ingatmewiththoseevi
l
eyesofhis
Lwandl
e:"
shof
ana"
Sakhi
l
e:"
morni
ng.
..
.Ehhwhomadey
ouangr
yint
he
morni
ng?"
Lwandl
e:"
noone.
..
hol
dthi
sguyf
ormeI
'
llmakehi
m
somef
ood"
Sakhi
l
e:"
thi
schi
l
dofy
our
sisbecomi
ngnaught
y"
Ichockedoncof f
eeandi twashot i
couldn't
believei t
.Lwandlej ustst
aredatme Idr anksome
wat erandj ustshov edtheplatesIwasusi ngintothe
sinkIwentt omyr oom may beIcanbr eathal i
ttl
eso
hehasasonsot hatmeanst hereisacr azybaby
mamaoutt her
erightbutwhatdoIcar eI '
m notint o
thisguyany wayItookashowerandj ustwor emy
boy fri
endj eanswithr i
ps,JerseyknitV-neckcr optop
andal ongl i
nezipupdeni mj acketforshoesIchose
mysol i
dbl ueAllstarsandIdi dmyhai randmake
thenIwasdone It ookmybagandcel lphonet hi
s
l
ifei sgoingt obethehar destany wayIwal ked
downst ai
rswel l
theywer est i
llt
herealri
ght
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngt
oschool
now"
Sakhi
l
e:*
ain'
ti
tabi
tear
ly?
"
Me:
"yeahIwantt
opackmyt
hingssot
hatIcome
wi
ththem"
HenodbutLwandl
edi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngsomebei
ng
meIjustt
ookmybigheadoutsi
decall
edanuber
andofft
oschoolmaybeIcanbreat
hwithout
get
ti
ngtheevi
leyef
rom t
hatsnob .
.
Lwandl
e
Idon'twantt
otalktohercauseI'
l
lki
l
l heri
fshewer
e
tostartwi
thhersil
l
yargumentsandthat'
snotwhat
I'
dli
ket ot
eachmyl i
tt
lebrot
her.
Hi
m:"
Lwandl
e?"
Me:
"yeah?
"
Hi
m:"
brot
reatt
hisoner
ightokay
"
Me:
"andwhatdoy
oumeanbyt
hat
?"
Him:
"youknowexactl
ywhatImean.
..
.Webothknow
howyouusedtotreatAmandl
aandyousai
dshe
wasabitchwel
lthi
soneisnot"
Me:"
andwhatdoyouknowabouther
?Shecoul
dbe
j
ustl
ikeAmandl
a"
Him:
"bethati
tmayj
ustdon'
trai
sey
ourhandather
youaret
heonewhoforcedhert
omarr
yyounotthe
ot
herwayr
ound"
Me:
"wi
l
lyoucat
chat
axi
orshoul
dIdr
ivey
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
umhI
'
llcat
chat
axi
"
Inodhewasst illst
aringatmemeani nghewant ed
tosaysomet hi
ngbutchosenott osot hat'sgoodhe
wentupst airsI
'
m sur etoshowerandIst ayedbehind
playi
ngwi thLesegomybabyboyi sgrowi ngbutI
can'tkeeponwor ki
ngf rom homeany mor ethat'
s
j
ustov erdoingit.WellSakhil
el ef
tandIwasl eftto
takecar eofmysonandwor kwhenhewas
sleeping,Imar r
iedawi f
ebuti tst
il
llooksl i
keI'
m
singlecauseshecamebackat4pm whatt ypeof
classdi dshehav ethi
sai n'
thighschool
Me:
"wher
ewer
eyou?
"
Shel
ookedatmefort
hel
ongestt
imeandj
ust
wal
kedawayfr
om me
Me:
"Penel
opeI
'
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou.
..
wher
ewer
eyou?"
Hi
m:"
outwi
thf
ri
endsasagoodby
efr
eedom t
ypeof
Vi
be"
Me:
"soy
oumeany
ouar
enotf
reeher
e?"
Her
:"
noI
'
m notnowcanIgoandunpack?
"
Me:
"wat
chhowy
out
alkt
omePenel
ope,
wat
chi
t"
Shejustr
oll
edherey
esandcont
inuedgoi
ngupt
he
st
air
s
Me:
"dammi
t"
Ikickedtheairshe'smessingwithmeanot herpart
ofmewant edt ofoll
owherbutscrewt hi
sItooka
deepbr eat
handwentt ogetmy selfabeerthenwent
towat chsomer ugby shecamedownt histimei
n
adr ess shej ustwenttothekitchenwith
earphonesstucki nherear
sy eahshecansi ngand
stuffbutIsti
l
l hateherat
ti
tude.
Me;
"Penel
opemakemesomef
oodI
'
m st
arv
ing"
shejustwentabouthummi ngsheai n't
l
isteni
ngi sshe I 'mt i
redandshechoosest oplay
gameswi t
hmeIj uststoodupandwentt othe
kit
chenf oundherhavingsomewat erstar
ingather
phonesoIt appedthet abl
e.Shelookedatmel i
kes
she'ssleepyorsomethingslowl
yt akingouther
earphones
Her
:"
yeah?
"
Me:
"I
'm st
arv
ingwhyai
n'
tyoucooki
ng?
"
Her
:"
I'
m busy
..
.."
Me:"busywi
thwhat?t
alki
ngtoy
ourboy
fri
ends?I
'
m
hungryandIwantmyfood"
Her:
"i
fonl
yyouletmefini
shIwasgoingtosayI'
m
busydef
rost
ingthemeatI'
l
lst
artcooki
ngverysoon"
sheputbackherear
phonesandwentt
othe
f
ri
dge.
Her
:"
I'
ll
makey
ouasandwi
chi
nthemeant
ime"
Iwal
kedoutdon'
thaveti
meforherwel
lshedi
d
makemeasandwi chandbr
oughti
ttome.
Her
:"
ohy
eahf
oodwi
l
lber
eadyi
nanhour
"
Shewaswayt ocalmrightnowbutwhenshel ef
t
her
eshewant ednothi
ngbuttofightwellt
hefood
wasreadyi
nthehourshesai dandshehadcooked
sweetandsourporkwithri
cethesmel l
justf
ill
edthe
ent
ir
ehousejusttaki
ngmebackt othedaysmy
mom wasaliv
eI '
dhaveahomecookedmeal every
t
ime. i
missmymot
her
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.
Penel
ope
.
Ithasbeent hewor sttwoweeksofmyl ifeand
believemet herehasnev erbeenat imewher eIfeel
l
ikei t
'sbeenthewor st
,well
exceptf orwhent hey
soldmeof ftoEinstein buthej ustkeepson
maki ngmyl i
femi serable Ihav emi ssedt wo
l
ect urescauseofhi m,hegotmet hr
ownoutofcl ass
causehecal ledmeev eryminuteaskingmewher eI
am andwhowaswi thme nowIgot tawr i
tefiv
e
pagesofast i
nkyessayaboutl awt hissidelooking
afterhissonwhoi s"notmybusi ness" Iwas
stucki ndoor
stodaysi nceIdidn'
thav eacl ass I
gotacal
lfr
om Bi
anca,Icoul
dsayshe'
smyfri
end
butweknoweachotherbecausewear
emodelsand
wehavethesameagentsowebecameclose.
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Her
:"
heygi
rl
..
..Whatar
eyouupt
o?"
Me'
:
"j
ustst
udy
ing,
I'
m bor
ed"
Her
:"
butIt
houghtwe'
dhangout
"
Me:"
wishIcoul
d..
..
babeI'
m st
ucki
njai
l
.Ican'
tev
en
hangoutwit
hmyf ri
ends"
Her
:"
ishet
heonewhogoty
out
hrownoutofcl
ass?
"
Me:
"mmhlist
ensomethingisn'
tri
ghther
e,nott
he
f
actt
hatI
'
m arrangedbuthe'scr
eepy"
Her
:"
comeonI'
m sur
ehe'
sjustt
ryi
ngt
omakey
ou
f
eelwel
come"
Me:"
yeahri
ght.
...
he'sal
wayscr
it
ici
zingmeat
ev
erythi
ngIdo,heshoutsf
ornothi
nghell
heal
most
sl
appedmey esterday"
Her
:"
what
?Ar
eyouokay
?"
Me:
"yeahIr
ani
ntomyr
oom andl
ockedi
tbutf
actof
t
hemat t
eri
ssomethingdoesn'
tfeel
righther
eandI
t
hinkIwon'
tl
ikewhatIfoundout
"
Sheexhal
ed
Her
:"
hav
eyout
oldy
ourpar
ent
s?"
Me:"
theywon'tbeli
evemeBhegi vest
hem money
l
ikei
tsnothi
ngImeanIhav en'
tgi
vent
hem noneso
whodoy outhinkthey'
ll
beli
eve?I
'
m st
uckwitht
his
monsterandIthinkforgood"
Her
:"babeIwi
sht
her
ewassomet
hingIcoul
ddot
o
hel
py ou"
Me:
"i
t'
sokayatl
eastIhav
eLesegohe'
sadar
li
ng"
Her
:"
hissonr
ight
?"
Me:"
yeah.
..
.butIhav
en'
tseenhi
smot
herorhear
d
hi
m speaktoher"
Her
:"
she'
soneoft
hoser
eckl
essmot
her
srel
ax"
Me:"
uhuhBt hi
nkaboutit.
..
youcar r
yy ourchil
dfor
monthsonendandyouj ustl
eav ehim?I fsheran
awayshewouldhavetakenhi m somethingisnot
ri
ghti
nthi
shousefri
endI '
mt el
li
ngy ou"
Her:
"Nonopl
easedon'
tmakehi
m angr
ydon'
tpoke
hi
m upthewrongway"
Me:"bel
i
evemeIdon'tbruhIhaveseenhowangryhe
canget,
hehasbroketwoofmyphonesal r
eadysoI
don'
twanthimtobreakme, l
ist
enIgott
agoand
checkonthebabytal
klater
"
Her
:"
besaf
epl
ease"
Me:
"Ipr
omi
seby
e"
Her
:"
bye"
Ihungupandturnedaroundtotakemytextbook
butIgotahugeslaptotheface Iheldonmy
cheeklooki
ngupjusttofi
ndLwandlest
andingther
e
al
lredeyesandshit.
Hi
m:"
soI'myourtopi
cwit
hyourfr
iendshuh?You
t
akeourbusi
nessandspr
eadit
?"
Me:
"whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?Idi
dn'
t.
..
."
Hegavemeanotheronethatsentmef
lyi
ngt
othe
gr
oundIev
enbitmy sel
f
Me:
"Lwandl
epl
ease.
..Idon'
tknowwhaty
ouar
e
t
alki
ngabout
"
Everbeenkickedint
hestomach?Wel l
ithur
tscause
youfeelyourenti
rei
ntest
inesspl
it
,hebegankicking
meIguesshewaspl anni
ngthisal
lal
ong,hefolded
hissl
eevesshirt
.
Hi
m:"you'
l
llear
ntor
espectmetoday
..
..
I'
l
lteachy
ou
whosethemanofthi
shouse"
Hehel donmyt wistspull
ingmeupt hest ai
rswhen
wegott othetophej ustpushedmeof fsoIr ol
l
ed
overeachandev erystepIfeltl
ikemyheadwas
poppingcausethest ai
rsarelongandI..
..I.
.
.
Nar
rat
ed
Lwandlewalkeddownthest
air
stookhi
sjacket,car
keysandhislapt
opbagandhewalkedout,
hedrov e
tohisoff
iceagai
nandwentabouthi
sworklike
nothi
nghappened.
[
Doorknock]
Lwandl
e:"
comei
n"
ThePAwal
kedi
n
Lwandl
e:"
whatcanIdof
ory
ouLi
vhu?
"
Li
vhu:
"si
rthepol
icecal
led,
theyf
oundyourwif
e
beat
enupbadlyatthehousethey'
dli
ketoseeyou"
Lwandl
e:"
what
?Issheokay
?IssheokayLi
vhu?
"
Li
vhu:
"Idon'
tknowt
heydi
dn'
ttel
lmej
ustt
hatt
hey
wantyouther
e"
Hequickl
ystooduptaki
nghisjacketandcarkey
s,he
ranoutofther
eandint
ohiscarhespedof ftohi
s
houseanditwasfi
ll
edwithcopshegotoutandr an
i
ntothehouse.
Hi
m:"
wher
eisshe?Wher
eismywi
fe?
"
Cop1:
"si
rIneedy
out
ocal
m down"
Him:
"don'
ttel
lmet
ocal
m downwher
eismywi
fe
andson?"
Cop1:
"yoursonisfi
nebuttheywer
etakent
othe
hospi
talj
ustforacheckup"
Hi
m:"
andPenel
ope?Howi
sshe?
"
Cop1:
"shewasbadl
ybeat
enbutshe'
sal
i
ve"
Hi
m:"
hav
eanysuspect
s?"
Cop1:
"t
hat
'swhatwe'
dli
ket
oknowf
rom y
ou.
..Any
enemi
es?"
Hi
m:"
I'
m af
ucki
ngl
awy
erofcour
seIhav
eenemi
es"
Cop1:"
MrSokhulupl
easecal
m downwej ustwantt
o
knowifsheoryouhadrecei
vedanyt
hreatsor
anyt
hing.
.."
Hekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e
Hi
m: "
Ishoul
dhav
eli
stenedt
oher
,Ishoul
dn'
thav
e
l
efther"
Cop1:"
whatdoy
oumean?Di
dshesayany
thi
ngt
o
you?"
Him:"well
whenIcamet ocheckupont hem today
aft
ermymeet i
ng,
shesaidsomeonewasbusy
watchingthehousebutIdidn'
tbeli
eveherIthought
shejustwant edmyattenti
onasalwaysIdidn'tt
hink
i
twasser ious"
Cop1:
"whatmadey
out
hinkshewasaf
terat
tent
ion?
"
Heshr
ug
Him:"Imeanshe'salwayscal
li
ngmetocomehome
orshe'dmakeupast or
yaboutmyson,t
hingsli
ke
thatbutIguesstodayshewasbeingser
iousandI
fai
ledthem,Ifai
l
edmywi f
e"
Hefur
iousl
yrubbedhi
sforeheadandj
ustwal
kedout
l
eav
ingthecopinthehouse
.
Penel
ope
Iwokeupwi t
ht hi
smassi veheadacheandthesmell
ofpil
lsj
ustpol
lutedmynoseIt riedtomovebutmy
enti
rebodyhurtli
kehellIdon'
tknowhowhel lf
eel
s
l
ikebutri
ghtnowi tfeel
sli
keI'mi nhel
l
.Ihi
ssedasI
fel
tthepai
ninmyt ummyki cki
n.
"
Hey
,heyr
elax
...
.y
ou'
l
lhur
tyour
sel
f"
hisfr
agrancejustf
il
ledtheenti
reroom I
wassoscaredItri
edtositupstr
aightbutIwasin
pai
nhetri
edtotouchmebutIj ustmov edaway
Me:
*don'
t.
.don'
ttouchme"
Hi
m:"
Lol
opl
ease.
..
I'
m sor
ryokaI
'
m sor
ry"
Ij
ustcr
iedshaki
ngmyhead
Me:"
you'
reamonsterandI
'
llr
epor
tyouIwi
l
ltel
lthe
pol
i
cewhatyoudidtome"
Hol
y Iwi shIdi
dn'
tsayt
hatcausehej
ustappl
i
ed
pr
essur
eonmystomach
Him:"youdaresayonewor dtoanyone,
any onefor
thatmatterI
'l
lhuntyoudownandI '
llki
l
l you..
.Imean
youwer ebeatenupbysomet hugssincet heyfound
outthatyouaremywi fe,t
heythoughttheywer e
scari
ngmet ol etgoofthi
sdrugcaseI'
m wor king
on"
Iwasj
ustst
ari
ngathi
m Imeanwhatam Igoi
ngt
o
do
Hi
m:"
doy
ouhearme?
"
Iqui
cklynodandhej
ustl
etgoofmeandki
ssedmy
for
ehead
Him:"t
hat'
smuchbetterl
etmecally
ourdoct
orand
rememberwhatIsaidyouwereatt
ackedbysome
thugs,wewoul
dn'twantthem t
oat
tackyouagai
n
nowwoul dwe?"
Ishookmyheadandhewal kedoutallsmi
ley
l
eavingmetocryl
ikecrazyItoldmymom t hi
swoul
d
happenbutshewouldn'
tli
stentomeshechose
moneyovermebutwhy Iqui
ckl
ywipedmy
tear
swhenIsawhim comi ngwiththedoct
or.Her
an
tomysidewhentheywalkedin
Doc:
"howar
eyouf
eel
i
ngMr
sSokhul
u?"
Il
ookedatLwandl
enotbr
eaki
ngcont
actwi
thme
wi
thtear
srunni
ngdownmycheeks
Doc:
"MrsSokhul
u?Arey
ouokay?IfMrSokhul
u
bei
ngheredi
stur
bsyouIcanaskhimtogo"
Me:
"Iwantt
ogohomenow"
Doc:
"west
il
lhav
etor
unsomet
est
s..
.."
Me:
"Iwantt
ogohomenow.
..
..Justl
etmegohome"
Lwandl
e:"
babypl
easecal
m down"
Itookof
fthest
upi
ddripsjumpedoutofbedand
fuckmystomachhur
tlikeshi
t.
Me:
"wher
ear
emycl
othes?Iwantt
ogohome"
Thedoct
orj
ustwal
kedov
ermeandi
nject
edmewi
th
somethingthatj
ustcausedmet osleepIbecame
drowsybutwhycan'ttheyunder
standandr espect
mywi shesonceinli
fe i m anadul
tnotat eenbut
anadult.
Nextday
Iwokeupwit
hthesamepoundi
ngheadache t
his
shi
thur
ts.
"
Mor
ningsunf
lower
"
Il
ookedupandsawthesamemonst erIdon'twanna
seehewashol
dingabouquetofwhit
er oses
standi
ngov
ermewithasmileonhisface.
Hi
m:"
howdi
dyousl
eep?
"
Me:
".
..
..
."
Him:"
ohwel l
Lesegomi ssesyouli
kecr
azyhewas
cr
yingall
nightl
astnightIguesshemissesy
our
sweetvoi
ce.WeirdIkindamissitt
oo"
Ij
ustwant edt oscream outforhel
porsomethi
ng
butIcouldn'tdoitIdidn'
thavethev oi
ceormaybei
t
wasscaredt oputmei ntotr
oublecauseIwas
tr
emblinglikeshitandhearinghim,seei
nghi
m smil
e
whenI
'minhospi
tal
butheneversmil
esforme
whenweareathomethat
'
sjustrubbi
sh.
Me:
"pl
easel
eav
e"
Thatcameoutbutonl
yasat
inywhi
sper
Him:"
ift
hat
'swhaty
ouwantI
'
llgot
hen.
..
.I'
mreal
l
y
sorr
y"
Hetookhisst
uffandwalkedout Ican'
tbel
i
evei
tI
wastakentot
heshowerandwhenIgotbacko
f
oundTumi si
tt
ingther
ewi t
haTeddyi
nhand.
Me:
"t
winny
?"
Hequi
ckl
yst
oodupandcamet
ohugme
Me:
"ouch,
you'
reki
l
li
ngme"
Him:
"I
'm sor
ry,
I'
m sor
ry.
..
.ar
eyouokay
?Ar
eyoui
n
pai
n?"
Me:"
rel
axyourt
inybr
ainwi
l
lbeonov
erdr
ive.
..
I'
mfi
ne
j
ustwannagohome"
Hi
m:"sowhodi
dthi
stoy
ou?Whohur
tmysi
stert
his
much"
Isatmyassdownbusyhi
ssi
ngf
rom t
hepai
n
Me:
"i
tdoesn'
tmat
terTumi
I'
mfi
neai
n'
tI?
"
Hi
m:"
Nonowhodi
dthi
s?"
Li
eort
ell
thet
rut
h?Li
eort
rut
h?Li
eort
rut
h?Fuckl
i
e
Me:"Idon'
tknowsomeguysjustbar
gedi
ntot
he
houseandbeattheshi
toutofme"
Hi
m:"
andwher
ewast
hatshi
tofahusband?
"
Me:"
atwor
k..
.nowcanwestoptal
ki
ngaboutt
hisand
gi
vememyTeddy ,he'
ssocut
e"
Hel
ookedatmef
oral
ongt
ime
Hi
m:"
Iknowwi
thhi
sli
tt
lecushi
on,
Il
ovey
ou"
Ihuggedt
heTeddyabi
t
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
IkissedhischeekandIspentt
hedaywit
hmy
brothergossi
pingabouti
shImeanit
'swhatwedo
wegossi pli
keshit
.
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.
Ijustwantmynor mal li
febacknott hisone
wher eI '
m stuckwi tht hi
spsy cho ev enthecops
thoughtIwasdel usionjustbecausehet oldthem
thatI'
m anat tentionseeki ngwi f
eImeanwhywoul d
Ievenseekhi sat tention he' snut sandl ookat
wher eI '
m atr i
ghtnowst uckwi t
habr okenriband
twof ractured nowonderI '
minsomuchpai nhe
almostbr oket hreer ibsallbecausehecanandhe
could, Ihatemymom anddadf orthistheydi dn'
t
l
istent omewhenIt oldthem thathe'snotagood
guybutt heydi dn'tcar e t hey'
llcareonceI '
m dead
onlythenwi l
l t
heyseewhatIwassay ingwast he
trut
handnot hingbutt hetruth.
Myphoner
angandhecaughti
tfi
rst
Hi
m:"
it
'sy
ourmot
her"

Ij
ustsnat
chedt
hephonef
rom hi
m andanswer
edI
wasact
ual
l
ypacki
ngsoI
'
m goi
nghomet
oday
Me:
"ma?
"
Ma:
"Nonoar
eyouokay
?Di
dthoset
hugshur
tyou?"
Me:"t
hisisally
ourfaul
tandIhopey
ouanddadar
e
happyrightnow..
..
"
IhungupshedaresasksifI
'm okay ofcourseI'
m
notIwasokaysingl
eandcompl eti
ngmydegreeI
shovedt
hephonei nmypocketandwentabout
packi
ngwhateverti
nyt
hingIhadandwhenIwas
doneguesswhowashel pf
ul t hesamedickhead
whoputmeher e
Hi
m:"l
i
stenwhenwegethomeI
'
llmakey
ouy
our
f
avour
itedi
sh"
nxaItri
edtohur rybutribssisterri
bskickedi n
Idon'tt
hinkI'
l
l getmydegr eeIt hinkI'
l
l di
ebefore
then,whenwegott othecarIf eltli
kejustgett
ingon
theroofandridingthereinsteadofhi m atthefrontI
didn'
thaveachoi cesincehebr oughtt heblackAudi
A4 Igoti nbuckledupandj ustputonmy
earphones.
Hegotinonhi
ssi
deandj
ustr
emov
edt
he
ear
phones
Hi
m:"
Ihav
easur
pri
sef
ory
ou"
Me:
"Ihat
esur
pri
ses"
Hi
m:"
you'
l
llov
ethi
soneIgoti
tfory
ou"
Me:
"Isai
dIhat
esur
pri
ses"
Iputbackont heear phonesandputt hem onf ull
blastIdon'
tevenwantt ohearhimf art buthow
canInotcausehi sent i
represencemakesmesi ck
tothespineifIsaidcor eI'
dbely i
nghei sgiving
nervedamagebyj ustlooki
ngathi m.Whenwegot
homet herewast hisglossymat tepinkMer cedes-
BenzS- Cl
asswithnopl at
es whot hehellvi
sited
may betheycanhel pmeouther e,heparkedbesi des
thecarandwegotout Iwasl impingy ouknow
Hi
m:"
Penel
ope?
"
Ist
aredathi
m
Hi
m:"
that
'sy
ourcarIboughti
tfory
ou"
Me:"t
aket hisst
upidcarandshov eitwher et
hesun
doesn'
tshi ne.
..
.You'l
lneverbuymei nmyey esyou
areandy ou'l
lal
way sbeamonst er,
youf ucki
ngbroke
myr i
bs.Ihav eneverbrokeaboneinmybodybut
youdidsoscr ewy ou,screwyourapologyandscrew
thi
scar,
nxa"
Iwalkedinthenupstair
st omyr oom andlockedit
tr
yingtobuymewi thacar heneedsser i
oushelp
andfastIwon'tbehispunchingbagnotev enonce
andthisIhavetoaddressnowsoIt ookadeep
breat
handwal kedoutf uckI'
m studyi
nglawsowhat
ty
peofl awyerwil
lIbeifIcan'tstandupformy sel
f
huhIfoundhim dri
nkinghi swhiskey.
Me:
"Iwannagobackt
ocampus"
Iwoket
hedevil
upfr
om hi
ber
nat
ionhisey
es
hadhat
redandanger
edint
hem,
buthequickl
y
l
ookedaway.
Hi
m:"
youar
enotgoi
ngany
wher
e"
Hewassocalm say
ingi
tsl
owl
yli
kehewasspel
l
ing
i
tforsomeone.
Me:
"i
t'
smyl
i
feandIsai
dI'
m goi
ng"
Him:"
Iownthatl
i
feandIsai
dyouar
enotgoi
ng
anywher
e"
Me:
"Lwandl
eIwanna.
..
."
Hethrewt
heglassagai
nstt
hedoorandhestoodup
chargi
ngt
owar
dsmecat chi
ngmebyt heneck
chocki
ngme.
Hi
m:"
Isai
dyouar
enotgoi
ngany
wher
e"
Heshout
edt
hrowi
ngmeacr
osst
her
oom
Him:"
lookatwhatyoumademedo, whycan'tyouf
or
onceli
stentowhatIsayj
ustonceLoloj
ustonce
baby,j
ustli
stent
omeanddon' tf
ightme.Imeanwe
coul
dbehappyt oget
herdon'
tyouwantthat
? "
Iwasjustsobbi
ngI'dsaymylungsoutbuteish
pai
nfulr
ibsthi
ssidesoIcan'
tsaythatIevenf el
tli
ke
Ihadaclotofbloodinmythr
oatli
keitwasst uck.
Hi
m:"
Lol
ogocl
eanyour
sel
fupI
'l
lbr
ingy
ouf
oodso
t
haty
oucandr
inky
ourpai
nmeds"
St
andi
ngup wasanot
hert
askhet
ri
edt
ohel
p
mest andbutIpushedhim awaycausingmet ofall
downt ooi
t'
slikethatki
ddiessongaboutaspider
whocl i
mbedupawal lt
herewasnopr ogr
ess.Itr
ied
standi
ngupagai nandthisti
meIsucceeded.
Hi
m:"
uhuhgi
vemey
ourphone"
Me:
""
Ithr
ewt hephoneathim nowthestai
rsIwasasnail
ondrugsIwasext r
aslowev enaturt
lei
sfastbutI
fi
nall
ygottomyr oom andgotinbedthewater
worksjustst
artedIdon'
tknowwhyIwascr yingbutI
wasandhadaheadache.
"
Broughty
ouasandwi
ch"
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Me:
",
nothungr
y"
Hi
m:"y
ouneedt
oeatsot
haty
oucandr
inky
our
meds"
Me:
"I
'm nothungr
y"
Hi
m:"don'
tmakemef orcet
hisdowny
ourt
hroat
,get
upandeat.I
'
llcookdi
nnert
onight
"
May beIshouldst
oparguingwit
hhim andli
stento
whathesay sanddoit,
thi
sisall
myf aul
the'sri
ght
I'
mt hereasonhebeatsme soIj ustsatup
str
aighttookthet
raybuttear
swereblocki
ngmy
vi
sionev enmyeyesstung.
Him:
"heydon'
tcr
yI'
m sorr
yIdi
dthis.
..Justt
haty
ou
l
ikemakingmeangryIendupt
akingoutmy
f
rust
rati
onsonyou'
"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryIwi
l
lnev
erdoi
t"
Hi
m:"
that
'sagoodgi
rl
"
Hewipedmytear
sIhadmyey
esclosedtheent
ir
e
ti
mehewastouchi
ngmeandwhenhekissedmy
cheek
Hi
m:"I
'
m goi
ngbackt
oworkandlat
eroutwit
hmy
f
ri
endssocanyoupl
easel
ookaf
terLesegof
orme?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
thanksy
ouar
eal
i
fesav
ert
hanky
ou"
Helef
tmyr oom wi
thaspringinhi
sstepyeahNyosi
youareindeepshitbabenowIdon'tevenhavemy
phoneforgetaboutmefindingmylapt
opIcan'
tsee
i
twher eIleftit
.Itookgr eatcareofLesegowi thmy
pai
nf ulbodyandImadedi nnerjustmi nceandpast a
‍♀I 'minpainokay ,Lesegodi dn'
twantt osleep
i
nhi sroom soIwentt obedwi t
hhi mjustt ostopme
goingupanddownat t
endingtohi m causet helit
tl
e
guyisinnocenthedi dn'
tdoany thing.Isleptholdi
ng
ont ohim withhistinyhandonmychest hel oves
boobsatsuchay oungageIwonderwhatwi ll
happenoncehe' sal lgrownup.
Nextday
Iwokeupst il
l wi
thaheadacheIguesst hisismy
dailybreadhuhbutatl eastIwokeupt oabeaut if
ul
sightandt hat'
sLesegosucki ngonhisthumb I
tri
edt omov ebuthewokeupr unni
nghisey es
aroundsoIpi ckedhi m upbef orehestar t
edcr y
ing,I
draggedmyl ifel
essbodyi ntothebathroom and
brushedmyt eethandj ustusedonehandt osplash
myf acewithwat eraf t
erIwentt ohi
sroom t oclean
him upt hennowbr eakf astti
me well
ther ewasalreadyt hesmel l
off oodandher eIwas
thinkingthatit'
sLwandl ecookingbutwasIi nfora
sur pri
se, Icoul dj usthearbygi ggl
ingt hatthi
sain'
t
mydaywhenIf oundhim busykissi
ngt
hischickand
i
twasi nt
imateext
remelyinti
mateshewasev en
wearinghi
sshir
tweir
d Icl ear
edmythroatand
fakedacoughfuckIneedt omakefoodforLesego.
Theylookedatme
Me:
"uhsor
ry.
..
"
IputLesegoi
nhi
schai
randscr
ambl
edf
orhi
sst
uff
.
Gi
rl
:"
babyai
n'
tyougoi
ngt
oint
roduceus?
"

Lwandle:
"ohy
eaht
hisi
sPenel
opeorJay
deny
ou
choose"
Gi
rl
:"
ohthemai d.
..
hiI
'm Di
mphoandsor
ryabout
whathappenedtoyou"
f
ir
stI
'mf
orcedtobehi
swi
fe,
thenhebeat
smeup
nowI'
m af
uckingmai
d
Me:
"whathappenedt
ome?
"
Di
mpho:
"whatt
hosei
diot
sdi
dtoy
ouI
'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"ohIseeumhcanyouexcuseme,I
'm averybusy
'
Mai
d'si
ryou'
ll
feedy
oursonwhichyouforgott
o
i
ntr
oducenxa"
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kissedLesego' scheekandwentupst air
sImademy
bedandj ustworemyt racksui
tsdoctorsaidkeep
war m all
t het
imey ouknowIt ookmyheadphones
thenithitmeIdon' thaveaphonewhatt ypeofboss
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sIt hink
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llst
artvacuumi ngtheremuchbet t
erifIdot hatbut
myf reakingri
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rsand
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whi l
eplay i
ngloudlyontheTVIneedt hismor ethan
any t
hing.
"
Hav
esomef
ood"
Il
ookedbesi
desmeandsawLwandl
e
Me:"
canIhav
emyphonepl ease?Ineedi
tforschool
andworki
nfactIneedal
lmygadgets"
Hi
m:"
Lol
odon'
t.
..
.Justhav
eyourf
ood"
,
Ihel
donhi
shand
Me:
"pl
easeIwon'
ttel
lany
oneI
'
llst
ickt
oyourst
ory
j
ustst
oppuni
shi
ngmepl
ease"
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ustcr
ouchedbesi
desme
Him:
"youknowexact
lywhyIt
ookt
hoset
hings
Lol
o,y
ouknowwhy "
Me:"
I'
m sorr
yIpr
omiseIwon'
tgobacktocampus,
pl
easeletmehavet
hem mywholefut
uredepends
onthem"
Hi
m:"
doesn'
ti
tdependonme?
"
Hewasbusyrubbi
ngmyf oreheadandhewas
whi
sper
ingIguesshedoesn'twanthi
sgi
rlt
oknow
t
hatact
uall
ythemaidi
sthewi fe.
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li
stenifyoubehaveandst opargui
ngwit
hme
I'
l
lgiv
ey oubacky ourgadgetsokay?I'
l
levent
ake
shoppingbutonlyandonlyifyoubehave"
Me:"
Sokhul
uplease..
..Pleasegi
vememyphone
Tumiwil
lgetworri
edi fhecan'
treachme"
Hi
m:"
thenhe'
l
lcal
lme"
Me:"
he'
drat
herdi
ethant
ospeakwi
thy
ouhehat
es
you"
 thefeeli
ngismut
ual
Ihat
ethi
sst
upi
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oti
c
contr
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Hi
m:"
why
?Whatdi
dyout
ell
him?
"
Me:
"not
hingIswear
..
..Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng"
Hi
m:"
arey
ousur
e?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
goodnoweatupI
'
llgogety
ouy
ourpai
nmeds"
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"andmyphone?
"
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staywit
ht hi
smonst erIhavetocomeupwi thapl
an
orelseI'
m deadandhe' l
ltel
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s
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.
#07☆
.
Banzi
Hell
o mynamei sLubanzi orBoo-
bearVilakazi
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I'
m doingmysecondy earj ustli
kebei ngwi thNono
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andf i
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ryi
ngtomakeconver
sion
anditboredme shebor edmeherwhole
exi
stenceboredme
Me:
"shhhpl
ease"
Whenisthatf
oolget
ti
ngoutoft
heshowersot
hat
hecantakeherhome
Her
:"
I'
m sor
ryj
ustt
haty
ouseem t
obey
oungf
ora
mai
d"

Me: "
I'
m notafreakingmaid.
..
I'
m hiswi f
eandI
wasn'tbadlybeatenbythugshepul ledmeupt he
stair
sandshov edmedownaf terendlesskicksto
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ceanddoct or sthi
nkI'm
delusional
buthei sanabusi
veper sonandi fyou
cont
inuebei
ngwi
thhi
m he'
l
lki
l
lyoul
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keheki
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ledhi
s
wif
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hjusthungopen
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ssothatI
can'tcontactanyonetotel
lthem whathehasbeen
doingtome, he'
sapsycho"
Her
:"
I.
..
Ihav
eto.
..Ihav
etogo"
Shetookherbagandr anoutmay benowIcanhave
myjuiceinpeaceIwasevenwat chi
ngsomemov i
es
sowithoutthej
abberi
ngmay beIcanenjoyt
hem
ormay benothejusthadt
owal kdownnow.
Hi
m:"
wher
eisDi
mpho?
"
Ikeptquitemaybei
fhethi
nksIdidn'
thearhim
may behe'l
ll
eav
emeal onebuthejusttappedmy
shouldernowIhavetogi
vehim myattenti
onIti
l
ted
myheadup
Hi
m:"
wher
eisDi
mpho?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"shej
ustr
anof
f"
Hi
m:"
why
?Whatdi
dyousayt
oher
?"
Me:
"not
hingwhywoul
dyout
hinki
tsme?
"
Hi
m:"
Lol
owhatdi
dyousayt
oher
?"
Me:"
well
Ikindatol
dhert
oshutupcauseIdon'
tl
ike
andIneverwil
l
"
Hest
aredatmef
orawhi
l
eandt
ookouthi
sphone.
Hi
m:"
I'
m cal
l
ingherandy
ou'
l
lapol
ogi
ze"
Me:
"no.
.i
fanyoneshoul
dapol
ogi
esi
t'
sher
,I
'
myour
wi
fenotyourmaidokay
"
Him:"
wellwhenIwantt
of ul
fi
ll
myot herneedsyou'
l
l
bethemaidunlessy
ou'
lldoittheny
oucancal l
your
selfmywife"
Me:"
I'
m notgoi
ngtohav
esexwi
thany
oneunt
ilI
complet
emydegree"
Hi
m:"
theny
ouar
ethemai
d..
."
Ist
ooduphowdarehehuhjustbecauseIdon'
t
wannasl
eepwit
hhimthatdoesn'
tmeanhehast o
bri
nghi
sgir
lst
othehouseknowingverywell
I'
ll
bumpint
othem i
nthemorni
ng.
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Whot
oldy
out
hatDee?Isee"
bl
oodyselloutthi
ssideIcan'
tevenrun
upstai
rstomyr oom I
'
m waypastthestair
she's
goingtokil
lmeandnoonewi l
lnoti
cethatI'
m
gone It
urnedaroundandfoundhim chargi
ng
towardsme.
Me:
" Icanexpl
ainLwandl
eIswearIcan"
Hehadal readywelcomedmewi t
hasl apcausi
ng
met odot wir
lsinhopethatI'
llrunbuthecaughtme
bythehairbringi
ngmeback I
'm sor
rybuthe
can'tputmebacki nhospit
al agai
nIjustturned
aroundandsmashedt heglassonhi sface.
Me:
"I
'm sor
ry.
..I
'
m..
.. "
Hewasont
hegr
ound
Hi
m:"
youar
egoi
ngt
opayf
ort
haty
ouf
il
thybi
tch"
Godgivemest r
engthtorunandt hat
'swhatI
t
riedtodobuthet r
ippedmeandIf el
lhardonmy
f
ace,hejustdr
aggedmebyt hefeetI'
m suretaki
ng
mebackt othestai
rsIain'
thavi
ngt hattodaybroken
r
ibsornotIturnedaroundandjustshovedhi m wit
h
bothmyl egsandIguessIwaspower f
ulcausehe
stumbledandIfoughtwi t
hmy selft
ogetupandr un
whichIdidIwasal readyout
sidebuthewaschasing
me t henIjusthadt ogetacrampsopainfuli
t
sentmekneel i
ngdownandhecaughtmest i
ll
byt he
hair
,hejustdecidedtodragmei nsi
dethehouse
Me:"
I'
m sorr
ypl
ease.
..I
'
llt
ell
herIwasj
oki
ngI
pr
omise",
Hi
m':
"shutup,
you'
l
llear
nthatI
'
mtheki
ng"
Me:
"Lwandl
epl
easest
op"
Hi
m:"
seather
eandshutup"
Hetiedmet othefootofthebedandlef
thecame
backmi nuteslat
erwithbagsoficeandhewenti
nto
mybat hroom hecamebackst art
edstri
ppi
ngme.
Me:
"pl
easedon'
tdot
his.
..
I'
l
lnev
err
epeati
tagai
n"
Hi
m:"
shutup"
Heplacedmei nabatht
ubfi
ll
edwithicecol
dwater
l
it
eral
lyIfeltmyent
ir
ebodyf
reezeevenfel
tli
keI
br
ainfreezed
Me:
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..
.I
..
.I
'
m col
dpl
ease"
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tcarehejustl
ef tmet her
e onet hingthat
camei nmindhe'snol ongerholdingmedownIgot ta
getoutandwhi chIdidbutev enmyt oeswerefrozen
Ifoundmy selfonthefloorf
acedown, Iscr
ambledt o
fi
ndat owel
"
Whosai
dyoucangetout
?"

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ength
thissideI'
mf r
ozenI'
mf rozen buthedi dn'
tcare
hej ustatt
ackedmewi thabeltonethi
ngIknowand
dowel listocovermyfacewhenI '
m bei
ngbeaten.
Him:"
Isai
ddon' tt
ellanyonebutyouchoset
otel
l
someone.
...Youthinkyouarebiggert
hanme?You
thi
nkyou'
restrongerthanmehuh? "
Me:
"nopl
easest
opI
'
m sor
ry.
..
.I'
l
ltel
lherIwasl
yi
ng"
Hi
m: "
youwon'
ttal
ktoanyoneyou'veal
readyr
uined
t
hingsformeyouidi
ot.
..
.Idon'
tneedyoumakingit
worse.
"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryLwandl
epl
ease"
Hi
m:"
justknowy
ourf
ucki
ngpl
ace"
Hewhi ppedmet womor etimesbef orewal ki
ngout
l
eav i
ngmycol dbodyont hefloorIdon'tthinkI'
l
l
survi
veher eI
'l
ldieandv erysoon.Icrawl edtomy
bedroom nowIknowIgr ewupbei ngbeat enbutnot
l
ikethistheyhavenev erfr
ozemybodyandbeatme
aft
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bedonceonmyf eetIl i
mbedt ot heclosetandt ook
myt r
ackpants,l
ongsl eevesshirtandasweat era
baggyonei nfact,Itooksomegl ov
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nghot
outsi
debutI '
mf reezingIwor eev eryt
hingbutitstil
l
fel
tthesamenowIneedcof f
ee.Iheldt hedoor
handleturneditand i twasl ocked.
Iknockedwi
thmypai
nful
hands
Me:"
Lwandlepl
ease..
..Comeopenf
ormeI
'
m col
dI
needcof
feeI'
m beggi
ngy ou"
Ishout
edandknocked
Me:
"Lwandle.
..
..
.Lwandl
epl
easeI.
..
.Ishoul
dn'
tbe
f
eel
i
ngt hi
scoldpleaseI
'
m sor
ry"
 Iknockedandknockedandknockedeven
shout
edbuthejustputonsomemusicloudashe
can
Me:
"pl
ease pl
easeopenf
orme"
Isankdownhol
dingonmyknees
"
Pleasecomeopenforme,j
ustl
etmego.
..
..
Ijust
wanttogohome,Lwandl
e"
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edofshout i
ngIwasj ustcal l
i
ngoutt o
himi nalowt oneplusIhav easmallvoicesot hen
I'
m sufferi
ngIwasshi veringandit'
snotagoodsi gn
mybr ainfeltli
kei
t'
saboutt opopcausei thurtli
ke
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ingle.Ifoundmy selfl
ayingont heground.
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e
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het i
me
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ngLesegoaf t
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wenttoputhim downandt henwenttoopenf or
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t
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lyhavi
ngand
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dherandtook
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hisownpr acticesoIdon'thavetoanswerendl
ess
questionsfrom copsordoctors.
Me:
"dudeIneedy
ourhel
p"
Hi
m:"
hel
l
otoy
out
oo.
."
Me:"
stopthatsomeonei
sdy
ingher
eshe'
shav
inga
sei
zure"
Hi
m:"
herf
ir
st?"
Me:"
Idon'
tknowbuti
t'
sthef
ir
stoneshe'
shadsi
nce
bei
nghere"
Hi
m:"
whatdi
dyoudo?
"
Me:
"wi
l
lyouhel
pmeornot
?Shecoul
ddi
e"
Hi
m:"
ti
lthert
oonesi
de.
..
"
Me:
"Idi
dthat
"
Hi
m:"okaycheckf
oranymedi
cal
IDj
ewel
ryonher
wr
ist
sorneck"
Me:
"what
'st
hat
?"
Hi
m:"
justcheck"
Me:
"Idon'
tseeany
thi
ng"
Hi
m:"
wel
lI'
m comi
ngbuty
ouowemebi
gti
me"
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ryup"
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hhersei zur
eswhy
i
sshet r
y i
ngtodi einmyhouset houghthissideI'
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blocki
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Me:
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oust
opst
ari
ngather
?"
Hi
m:"
I'
mjustwonder
ingwher
eyouf
oundher
"
Me:
"Busht
her
ear
esomanyt
her
esogo"
Hi
m:"
nothanky
ou.
..Lookatwhaty
ouar
edoi
ngt
o
t
hepoorgi
rl
"
Me:
"she'
shav
ingasei
zur
ehowi
sthatmypr
obl
em"
Hi
m:"
what
evermanj
ustkeeponchecki
nguponher
Ihav
etogoIhav
epat
ient
s"
InodandjustwalkedoutIknowhewon'ttel
lany
one
ofwhathesawt hat'
satruckloadofshi
t.
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օ ♡
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.
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Iwokeup wi thanotherheadache Iev enhada
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ookingaroundwhenIf oundhim sl
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thoughtIsawsomeremorsebutthat
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ngteawit
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m:"
hey
..
..
youokay
?"
Ij
ustfoundmysel
fnoddi
ngwhati
fIsaynoandhe
star
tsbeat
ingmeagainI
'
mtir
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punchi
ngbag
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m:"
wantany
thi
ng?CanIgety
ouany
thi
ng?"
Me:
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..
..
wat
er"Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Hi
m:"
okayumh.
..
howaboutt
his"
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j
ustt
ryi
ngt orunawaybuthestoppedwhenhesaw
memov ingback.
Him:"
heyIhur
tyou.
..
Ipr
omiseIj
ustwanttopicky
ou
upandtakeyoutot
hekit
chen,
I'
ll
makey ousome
food"
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aredathi
m wi
tht
eari
nfl
atedey
es.
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m:"
Ipr
omi
se.
..
.Iwon'
thur
tyou"
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om thebedLor
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feonhi
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ldr
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m:"
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tbr
eat
hsounl
oosey
ourhol
d"
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oughl
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Hi
m:"
Iwon'
tdr
opy
ouLol
o"
Me:
"nopl
ease.
..
."
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kedouthewalkedwithme
downt hestai
rsLordknowsIwashopingtomakei t
outofthisali
vewhenwegotdownstairsheplaced
meont hechai
randhewenttoputont heapron I
thoughthe'
dsayIshouldcookbuthetookoutthe
pansandshi t
.
Hi
m:"
sowhatwoul
dyoul
i
ke?
"
Iwashol
dingonmyt
ummyst
ari
ngathi
m
Hi
m:"
Lol
o?Whatshoul
dImadey
ou?
"
IshookmyheadIdon'twannabepoisoned.Iguess
hesawt hatcausehecametomysideandpul l
edmy
handstowardshim
Him:"
hi mynameisLwandl
eBruceSokhul
uandy
es
I
'm ajackassbutI
'
m sor
ry,
I'
m sor
ryt
hatIhav
e
nothi
ngbutapai ninthebuttwhenIshoul
dhave
beensupport
ive.Iam sorr
yforcausi
ngyoutohave
thatsei
zur
eI'
mt r
ulysorr
y"
Me:
"Ihadasei
zur
e?"
Myvoi
cewashoar
seIguessf
rom allt
hecr
yingI
hav
ebeendoi
ngbutIwant
edtoscream.
Me:
"Ihadasei
zur
e?Howl
ong?
"
Heshr
ug
Hi
m:"ami
nut
eorami
nut
eandahal
fI'
m notsur
e"
Me:"
whydidn'
tyout
imei
t?Thatcoul
dhel
pinf
utur
e
pur
poses"
Helookedatme It
houghthewasgoi
ngtohi
t
mebuthejustmovedfr
om meandwenttotheot
her
si
deofthecount
er
Hi
m:"I
'
llr
ememberthatnextt
ime.
..SowhatcanI
makeyou?Asandwichoranomelet"
Me:"
whyarey
oubei
ngni
ce?Imeanwhatar
eyou
af
rai
dof?
"
Hi
m:"
asandwi
chi
tisandI
'
llcookdi
nnert
oni
ght
"
Okaymyquest i
onwascompl etelybrushedof fwi tha
sandwi chandj uiceni ce I 'dsayhehasagui lt
y
consci ousbutt hat 'snotpossi bl
ehe'sascol dasa
snowyday ❄andy eshedi dCook, bathLesegoand
alsoputhi mt osleepImeanhedi dev eryt
hingI
shoul dbedoi ngi nt hishousef rom headt ot oe
fort heent ireweekIwasj ustbr oughtbreakf astin
bedandmyr oom wascl eanedf ormehel lIdidn'tli
ft
af ingerunl esswhenIwaspi ckingupLesegoand
ourbondhasgr ownsadIcan' tsayt hesameabout
hisf atherIdon' tt r
usthi m ev eni fhecant akean
ent i
remont hofft ot ake"care"ofmeIst i
llwoul dn't
trusthi m butIl ear nthowt opr etendast heysayf ake
i
tt il
l youmakei t andt hewoundsar eheel i
ng
per fectlyjustthatt her ibsstil
l hurtbuttheot her
woundsar ecomi ngal ongjustf ine nowI 'mj ust
wai tingf orhimt oal l
owmet ogot oschool orev en
hav emygadget sbackt henit '
ssweetcal varyforme
I'
m notcomi ngbackany moreIknowIwasnotbor n
tobeany one'spunchi ngbaguhuht heAl mighty
broughtmeher ef orapur poseandt hatist ochange
al otofpeopl e'slivesbyf i
ghtingf orthem incour t
notthisrubbish.Wel ltodayIwokeupl ateandt here
wasnobr eakfastinbed Iknewi twoul dn'tlast
shamebutIj ustgotupandwentt othebat hroom
didmyhy gi
enest uffandIwal kedoutgoi ng
downst ai
rsandbyt hest epsIcoul dhearv oicessoI
quickl
yt i
edmyr obeIcan' thav epeopleIdon' tknow
nortrustbest ari
ngatmyt hi
ghsuhuhi tdon'twork
l
ikethatwel lIfoundLwandl ewi t
ht heset woot her
guysIwoul dn'tsayt heyarecr eepyImeant heyal l
seem li
ket heymadei tinlife
Me:
"mor
ning"
Them:
"mor
ning"
Lwandl
e:"
howdi
dyousl
eep?
",

Me:
"umhokayIguessy
ou?
"
Lwandle:
"sameumhthesearemyfri
endsSi
sanda
andTroy,
guysthi
sismywifePenel
ope"
TheTr
oyguyj
ustwhi
stl
ed pev
ertmuch
Me:
"ni
cet
omeety
ou"
Troy:
"t
hepl easur
eisallour
syoubeauti
ful
thang.
..
.dudewher edi
dy oufi
ndt
hissexgoddess"
ther
eisanameforusnowIjustst
atedat
Lwandl
ewhowasquiteandhedeci
destobequite
now.
Me:
"I
'l
lbei
ntheki
tchen"
Ijustleftthatpev ertImeanLwandl eisanani malby
beatingmeandshi tbutneverhashemadeanast y
commentaboutmybodyst raighttomyf acebutthat
guyjusthadt ocal lmeasexgoddess menl i
ke
them angermet ot hecore.Imademy selfsome
oatsIwasl azyt oaf il
lyheartybreakfastsooat sit
i
s,Ihadmybr eakfastal l
boredandal oneaf t
er
breakfastIwashedmypl ateanddeci dedt otakea
glassofj uiceupst airstomyr oom Ican' tbedown
hereany mor e.Iwal kedpassedt heguy swi t
hout
evensay i
ngawor dt henhej usthadt owhi stl
e but
Ichoset oj ustignor ehim andwentt omyr oom read
mybookscauset hat '
swhatIdonowIal way steach
my selfIstudiedf oranhourorsot hentookmy
headachepi l
lsthensl ept.
Lwandl
e❄
TroywassohappywithhimselfIdon'
tevenknow
whybuthewasy oucouldseefrom hi
ssil
lysmile
whenhelookedatme butSi sandawasgi v
ingme
anevi
leyeeversi
nceLolocamedownst air
sit'
slike
hewantsmet oapol
ogizeorsomet hi
ngbutIdidn't
doanythi
ngwrong soIkeptmymout hshut
Si
sanda:
"dudeai
n'
tyougoi
ngt
osaysomet
hing?"
Me:
"t
owho?
"
Si
sanda:
"t
othatgi
rl
?Youcoul
dseet
hisf
ool
of
fendedher
"
Me:"
Simsthatgi
rly
ouaretal
kingabouti
sabi
ggi
rl
andshecantakecareofher
selfsono"
Tr
oy:
"yeah.
..
."
Me:"
uhuhandy oushouldnevercal
lmywif
easex
goddessunder
stand?You'
ll
respecther
"
Tr
oy:
"i
twasacompl
i
ment
"
Me:"t
oherit
'snot,sonextt
imej
ustt
ell
hert
hatshe'
s
beauti
ful
notcall
i
ngherasexgoddessinmy
pr
esence"
Troy:
"okayweaponsdownIwon'
tcal
lherasex
goddessunderst
ood"
Sisanda:
"may
bei
fyousai
dthatwhi
l
eshewas
l
isteni
ng"
Me:"SimsI'm notr
unni
ngforhusbandoft
heyear
understand?Sostoptr
yingt
omakemear omant
ic"
Sisanda:
"buty
ouwerewi
thAmandl
a,
youcher
ished
thegroundshewal
kedon"
Me:"
andthatbi
tchsol
dmet
omyenemi
esI
'
dbe
deadokay"
Tr
oy:
"wai
tbuty
ouar
enot
"
Me:
"don'
tst
artTr
oy.
..
."
Sisanda:
"he'
sri
ghtyouarenotandsheissostop
tr
y i
ngtotakeoutyourf
rust
rat
ionsonthepoorgi
rl
"
Me:"andwhosaidI'
mfrust
rat
ed?JustbecauseI
cal
ledy ouwhenshewashavingasei
zurethat
doesn'tmakeyouanexper
tinourrel
ati
onshi
p"
Si
sanda:
"butt
hef
actt
hatIhav
eknowny
ousi
nce
hi
ghschool
doesDr
eezery
ouar
ehear
tl
ess"
Me:
"what
everl
et'
sgo.
.."
Itookthegl assest othekitchenandwentupst ai
rs
tocheckuponmysonandhewassl eepingso
peacefull
ysonowIgot t
atellLolothatI'm goingout
butIfoundhersl eeping shewascr awledupon
thebedIdi dn' tseet hisall
alongbutshe' ssexyanda
sexgoddessbutshei sbusytell
ingmeaboutget ti
ng
adegreebef oreshecansl eepwi thany oneIso
wantedt otouchherbutnahIj ustclosedt hedoor
andwal kedoutIgott heguy sandwewentt o
Sowetoj ustf orthatKasi vibeIneedt obr eathalit
tl
e
andIdidexact l
yt hatcausewedr ankasmuchaswe
couldbutnotf orget t
ingthatwear edri
ving.
Penel
ope
IwokeupwellLesego'
smoni t
orwokemeupI
wonderwhogavehimt her i
ghttocomeandputit
her
eIdon'twannabedisturbedbutift
hemonitori
s
her
ethanthatmeanshisf atheri
soutsoIj
ustgot
upandwenttoattendedthel i
tt
leguy heisthe
manrightnowbutheneededanappychange.SoI
changedhi m andwentt omakehi m hi sbot tl
ef ed
himt henwepl ayedt ogetheryouseet heysayt o
helpy ourchildgr owy ouhav et oteacht hem whi le
theyar estil
lbabi essowewer epl ay ingsomecol our
games hel ostatev er
y t
hing buthest i
llhadf unI
gav ehim abat handputhi mt osl eepwhenIneeded
tocookbuthedi dn' twantt osleepsoIhadt ocook
withhi m wat chingmeandt onightIdeci dedt omake
somespi cylambpi eandaf r
uitsal adIhav eason
nowsoIgav ehi m api eceofappl ewhi leIwas
maki nghim somef oodt ooandIf edhi mt henl aterI
fedmy sel
fbuthi sf atherwasnotbacky etandIput
thebabyt osl eepandwentonwat chi ngmyTVsi nce
Ican'tgeti nhi sst udywhi chIguesst hat'swher ehe
i
skeepi ngmygadget ssonownocarkey snot hing
j
ustmeandLesego.Iev enwentt oshowerandwor e
mysi lkdressPJwi thit'
sgownIknowhe' llbeback
l
at esoIcanatl eastenj oymyf r
eedom ar oundt he
houseIdon' tdr i
nkbutI '
m agr eatf anofchocol ate
i
cecr eam andany thingjunk.Mov ieni ghtwi t
hj unk
food wel lthecarheadl ightstoldmet hathe's
backandIj ustt iedt her obe.Hewal kedi nr eekingof
alcohol sonowIhav etotreadcar ef ully.
Hi
m:"
himywi
fe"
Me:
"hi
..
.umhwantf
ood?Icooked"
Ist
ooduptogoanddishupf
orhi
m buthebl
ocked
mebit
inghi
slowerl
i
p
Hi
m:"
I'
m nothungr
y"
Hewr appedhi
sarm ar
oundmywai
stIgent
ly
pusheditaway.
Me:
"umhIcangety
ouacupofcof
feet
hen"
Iwasact
uallyt
ryi
ngt
ogetawayf
rom hi
m buthe
ti
ght
lygr
ippedonmywri
st not hi
scan'
thappen
Me:
"you'
rehur
ti
ngmeLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
whyar
eyour
unni
ngawayLol
o..
..
.Ij
ustwantus
t
otal
k"
Me:
"howabouty
ougoandsl
eepof
ftheal
cohol
then
wecantal
k"
Him:"
I'
m notdrunkIjustwanttotal
ktomywif
eor
shoul
dn'tIhuh?Shouldn'
tIt
alktomywife?
"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tmeani
tli
ket
hat
,I.
..
Ijustt
hought
..
."
Hi
m:"
what
?ThatIdon'
twantt
ospendt
imewi
thy
ou"
,
Me:
"pl
easey
ou'
rehur
ti
ngme"
Itr
iedt oyankmyhandawaybuthewasgr i
ppi
ngon
myt ightl
yhejustslappedme her eIwas
expectingmorebeatdownsbuthej ustshovedme
ont hecouchuhuhIt r
iedt
ocrawlawaybuthe
caughtmeandpi nnedontheground
Me:"
pleaseLwandl
eIdon'
twannal
osemy.
..
.pl
ease
st
op"
Hi
m:"
you'
remyf
ucki
ngwi
fe"
Her oaredandj ustri
bbedmyr obewi t
hthewor ds
"i
t'
llbeov ersoon"comingoutofhi smout h
screami ngandscr at
chinghimi sjustawast ecause
her appedmehet ookmyi nnocencet heonlythingI
thoughtIst i
l
lhadbuthef orcefull
ytookit.Hewor e
hisjeanwi t
hasmi l
eonhi sfacejustseeinghim
staringdownatme
Hi
m:"
nowI
'
llhav
edi
nnerI
'
m st
arv
ing"
Heleftmelay
ingtherehol
dingonfordearli
femy
wholeli
fewasstr
ippedawayf r
om meIfeltthi
sbur
n
betweenmylegsItr
iedtost
andupbutIcouldonly
seatupIsawbloodallov
ermygownanddr ess.
"
Penel
ope!
!!Isai
dI'
m hungr
y"
Hescreamedf r
om thekit
chen Ist
oodupwi
th
bloodnowflowingdownmyt hi
ghsnowIli
mpedt
o
thekit
chenandgothim hisf
ood.
Hi
m:"
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"t
osl
eepIhav
eaheadache"
Hi
m:"
seatdownandhav
edi
nnerwi
thme"
Me:
"I
'mf
ineIj
ustwantt
osl
eeppl
ease"
Hi
m:"
okayI
'
llj
oiny
ouv
erysoon"
Inodandj ustwal kedifIcancalli
t
thatbutitwasmor elikeli
mpingandwhenIgot
upstai
rsIl ockedthedoorandpushedt hecouch
behindthedoorhe' l
lhav etobr eakt hedoortogetin
nowonl ydi dIseriouslycryImeanwhatdi dIdot o
deservet hi
swhyme, Iwasbusywi pingthebloodbut
i
tdidn'tstopitjustkeptoncomi ngnomat terhow
hardIwi peditthebl oodwast hereIhat emypar ent
s
forthi
sIhat ethem f orwhatt heydi dtome.Igoti na
tubfi
l
ledwit
hcol
dwaterIdon'
tcar
eifI
'
llf
reezebutI
havetost
opthepai
n.
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11/
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nne:
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օ ♡
.
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.
.
ք ռ օք
Iwokeupst il
l cryi
ngIst i
llsawhi m sweat i
ngover
mehewasj ust Isawhi mt ell
i
ngmehowal lof
thiswillbeov erandhowaf t
erev eryt
hingmyv i
rgi
na
hurt,
itsti
lldoesIf el
tli
keshit .Igotoutofbedand
wentt othebat hr
oom Ist artedt hrowingupcause
thethoughtdi sgust smeIgotupandwentt o
freshenupIwashedmyf acebutt earsjustfl
owed
outIcoul dn'
tst opcr yi
ngnomat t
erhowmanyt imes
Iwashedmyf aceIcoul dn'tst opcr yi
ngt hetear
sjust
couldn'tstopIj ustwalkedoutoft hebat hr
oom and
wentt obedl aidt herestari
ngi ntospaceIwasj ust
l
ooki ngatceilingorwal ltil
laknockdi sturbedme.
"
Lol
ocomeopenImadey
oubr
eakf
ast
"
heknockedagai
n
Hi
m:"
Lol
ost
opbei
ngachi
l
dbr
eakf
asti
sready
"

Him:"don'
tmakemebreakthi
sdoorI
'
mt al
ki
ngt
o
youandIknowy ouar
eli
steni
ng,
comehave
breakfast
"

Hebangedthedoorwi
thsomuchangerIcouldfeel
thati
fhebr
okethedoort
henLor
dknowsI '
m dead
asincompl
etel
ydead.
Hi
m:"
Penel
ope!Penel
opecomeopent
hisdoornow"
Me:
"goaway
"Iscr
eamed
Hi
m:"
youcan'
tst
arv
eyour
sel
fnowcany
ou?
"
Me:"
Icanjustt
ostayawayfrom me.
..Ihat
eyou
LwandleandIhopeyoudieahorr
ibl
edeathforwhat
youtookawayfrom me"
Hi
m:"
soy ouar
enotcomi
ngdownt
ohav
ebr
eakf
ast
wi
thus?
"
Me:
"hopey
ouchokeont
hatbr
eakf
ast
"Imumbl
ed
Idon'twanttoangerhi m causehe'lldefi
nit
elymake
sureIdietodaywel lheev entual
lyleftthedoorandI
wast akenbackt osceneoneagai n I
thoughtthedayIl ostmyi nnocencewoul dbet he
mostr omanticthingev erIthoughtit'
dbespeci albut
i
twasj usthellandt hisdaywi l
lhauntmef ortherest
ofmyl if
eandI '
llf
or ev erhatethethingcalledman
theyarejustvult
ur eswhopr eyony ounggirl
sand
thenattackthem that 'swhatLwandl edidtomeand
hekill
edmebot hphy sical
lyandemot i
onally
.
.
Lubanzi
Iwasathomet odaybutIdecidedtogoandv i
si
tmy
cousinSisandawear eclosealmostli
kebrot
hers
causehedoesn' thaveanysibl
ingsandIdon'
thave
brotherssohe'smybr ot
herany wayIgott
ohis
surgeryitwasn'
tthatbusybutIgottosneakinand
meethi m.Wellhestoodupwhenhesawmeandwe
shoulderbumped.
Hi
m:"
Juni
orVwhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Me:"
youknowIwasi
nthehoodsoIcoul
dn'
tgo
wi
thoutseei
ngy
ou"
Hi
m:"
youar
eback?
"
Me:"
uhuhjustay
oungny
anav
isi
tthat
'sal
lIneeda
br
eatherbr
uh"
Hi
m:"
Itol
dyout
otakemedi
cine,
thi
slawi
s..
..
"
Me:
"i
t'
snott
hatIj
ustl
ostmygi
rl
"
Hi
m:"saywhat
?Youhadagi
rl
?It
houghty
ouwer
e
f
ocusedonyourst
udi
es"
Me:
"yeahIam andI
'
m doi
nggr
eatandst
uff
"
Hi
m:"
goodf
orgetaboutt
hatgi
rlmay
beshedi
dn'
t
l
ovey
ou"
Me:"uhuhnotPenel
ope..
..Shewasmygi
rlbr
uht
hen
herstupi
dparent
ssoldheroff"
Hi
m:"
what
'shername?
"
Me:
"Penel
ope,
whyy
ouknowher
?"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
youdi
dn'
ti
ntr
oducehert
omehowwoul
dI
knowher
?"
Me:
"wel
lyeah.
.Li
stenIgot
tagoseey
oul
ater
"
Hi
m:"
andwher
ear
eyouof
ftoo?
"
Me:"I
'
m goi
ngtoseeNonoandgi
veheraf
ew
scopesandnot
es"
Hi
m:"what
?!Imeany
oucan'
twhati
fthehusbandi
s
abutj
ob"
Me:"
it
'sjustnot
esandscopesnotar oseand
st
uff
..
..sheneedst
hisorel
seshe'
llfailnowIgot
ta
goandmom want syoutocomef ordinner"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
tryt
orunawayf
rom wor
k"
Me:
"okaycool
Igot
tabouncesoseey
a"
ItookmystuffandwalkedoutIdrov
etoPenel
ope'
s
houseImissedheranywayjustseei
nghersmi
le
woulddomegr eatshame.
Penel
ope
SeeIwasalwaysapersonwhosawt hebeautyi
n
ever
ythi
ngeventhesl
ight
estt
hingsI
'dfi
ndtheir
beaut
y ,
nomatterhowpeopl
ewar nmebutI'
dt r
yto
fi
ndt hebeaut yini t
.Now?NowI '
mj ustcol dI'm
stucki nthi scol dhol eal lalone Iwasnowt hi
sgi rl
Ididn'trecogni zeIf eel l
ikeIdon' thav eany t
hi ngt o
fi
ghtf orany mor eImeanIl ostmyv irginit
yi nacr uel
way ,menar ehear t
lesst hings t heydon' tcar ef or
any oneel seexceptt hemsel veswhymet houghI
hav enev erwr ongedany onei nmyl ifeIhav enot hing
butagoodandr espect f
ul childt omypar ent sbut
nowI '
m suf f
eringi nthewor stmosti magi nabl eway
evernotev enanani mal deser v eswhatI 'm goi ng
throughbutwhyam Isuf f
er i
ngl i
keI '
m anani mal I
j
ustwi shIwaswar nedt hatatt went ymyent irelif
e
woul dchange t hat'
dI 'dbet urnedi nt oav assal for
painandhear tache.I 'dbel ay ingont hisbedi na
beaut i
fulhousebutIwon' tbeenj oyingi tatal l
, I
woul dn'tbeenj oy i
ngt hemor ningv iewt hrought he
balconyorev engoandr elaxatt hepool i
nsteadI
l
ockedmy selfinaf raidofmanmypar entssai dwi l
l
helpmegr ow, he'llprotectmeandhe' llhelpme
prosperi nt hatl awwor l
dbuti nsteadIhav emi ssed
outonweeksofwor kIdon' tt hinkthey '
lll
etmewr it
e
sot hatmeansIhav ef ai
ledal r eady mydr eams
arejustshat
teredfrom headtotoehellmysoul i
s
deadt hewayI'
m brokenIhav eneverbeenbrokenin
myent ir
eli
feIdon'twishthi
sonmywor stenemy
thi
shur t
smor ethanthewor dhurt
.
[
Doorknock]
"
Someonei
sher
etoseey
ou"
Me:"
Idon'
twantt
oseeany
oneIj
ustwantt
obel
eft
al
one"
Him:"
Penel
opeyourcl
assmat
eisher
efory
ousoj
ust
getoutoft
her
enow"
Me:
"who"
Hi
m:"
Lubanzi
someoneIdon'
tknow"
Me:
"Banzi
?"Iwhi
sper
ed"
tel
lhi
mI'
m comi
ng"
Thiscoul dbemyt icketoutofhereIknowBanzi i
s
crazyhe'sonecr azysonofabi tch.Iwaswear
ing
baggycl othesIwasn'tfeel
ingsexynomor ehe
stri
ppedawaymysel fconfi
denceIputonmyuggs
andwal kedoutIwasscar edwhenImetLwandl e'
s
eyesstar i
ngrightatme.
Him:"
youdar esayanythi
ngtohim every
thi
ngthat
hashappenedwi ll
seem l
ikeamov ieunder
standme?
You'
llr
uet hedayy ouwerebor
nI'mt el
l
ingyouand
hecan'thelpyou.Sokeepyourmout hshut
under
stand?"
Iqui
ckl
ynod
Him:
"goodnowgotherewitht
hatbeaut
if
ulsmil
eof
your
sandgetri
dofhim under
stand?Makeup
somethi
ngandqui
ck"
Heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Him:"
I'
ll
bewithLesegobyt
hepool
youcanj
oinus
onceheleav
es"
Hef
ixedupmysweat
shi
rt
Hi
m:"
youl
ookbeaut
if
uldoy
ouknowt
hat
?"
Me:
"t
hanky
ou.
.."Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Themomenthemov edf r
om meandIsawBanzi I
j
ustwantedtoseemy selfther
enexttohim and
tel
l
inghim ev
ery
thi
ngt hereistoknowbutIjust
walkeddownholdi
ngont omyshi r
tyou'
dswearI
wasn'tt
hatmodelgi
rl t hethingsamancandot o
awomani shorri
fi
cbutany wayIgott
oBanzi I
i
mmediatelygotdisgustedbyhi
m Imeanhe'
soneof
t
hem j
ustmonst ers t heyar
eallt
hesameri
ght
.
.
Tobecont
inued
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.
ɮaռ
Isawt hewayPenel opelookedatme i twasjust
..
Justwei rdl
ikeIhaddonesomet hingwr ong,
li
keI'
d
hur ther Istoodupandwal kedtowar dsherand
tri
edt ohugherbutshej uststoodt her
el i
keIwas
huggi ngastatue shewasshi v
er i
ngthoubutshe
didn'thugmeback, Ibrokethehugandshewas
alreadywetwi thtearsshewascr yingsil
entl
yGod
whathappenedt hought hi
ssi deshe'sshiver
ingand
thissideshe'scrying,hel
lshe'sli
keaghost .
It
ri
edt
ohol
dherhandbutshemov
edback
Me:
"Nono?Nonol
ookatme.
..
.t
ell
mewhat
'swr
ong"
Herstarewasjustpal
eitwascoldandemptyi
njust
afewweeksandshe' salr
eadyl
ikethi
swhati
sthi
s
guydoingtoherthough.
Me:"
heyNonoi
t'
smeBanzi
,
justmeIpromiseIwon'
t
hur
tyoucomeseather
ewi
thmeplease.Comeseat
"
Iheldherhandandjustpul
ledhertothecouchwe
sl
owl ysatdownyou'
dswearshewasonsome
drugsshedidn'
tl
ooklikehernormalsel
fwhich
worri
edme.
Me:
"heyl
i
stent
ell
meany
thi
ngI
'
llhel
pyou"
Sheshookherhead
Her
:"
youcan'
t.
..Nooneel
secan"
Me:
"whatar
eyouaf
rai
dof
?Whathappenedt
oyou?
"
Her:
"Banzi
he'
llki
l
lusbot
handgetawaywi
thi
tso
pl
easeleavei
t"
Me:"
heylookatmeI
'
m notaf
rai
dofany
one,
so
what'
sgoingon?
"
"
Lol
o?Babeai
n'
tyoudoney
et?
"
Shequi ckl
ywipedhert earsandr ant oseatatt he
othercouchclutchi
ngonhersweat shir
tlikeherlif
e
dependedoni theemer gedholdi
ngt hel i
ttl
eboyI '
m
guessinghissoncauset heylookalike.Iclearedmy
throatj
usttohav ehimf ocusonmeandnott he
cryingLolowhoqui ckl
yst oodupandr ant othe
kit
chenIguessshecan' tstopcryingonceshest art
s.
Me:
"umhy ou'
l
lgi
vehert
heseandtel
lherI
'
m sor
ry
f
orcausi
nghersomuchpain.
..By
e"
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lynodandIwal kedout she' s
afr
aidofhi m shedoesn'
thavetot el
l meIj ustseeit
shef ear
shim Igotintomycaranddr ovetocampus
ImeanIdi dn'twanttobackheret i
ll
onMondaybutI
gott
aseeTumi shohehast oknowwhat '
sgoingonI
meanshe' shistwinsist
erIgotthereandaskedt he
guardsifheinandwhatr oom ishei n,Iwentupt o
hi
sr oom andknockedandhi sroommat eopened.
Me:
"i
sTumi
in?
"
Hi
m:"
yeahsur
ecomei
n"
Me:
"gr
eat
..
..
hei
ta"
Tumi
:
"eyumhLubanzi
right
?"
Inod
Tumi
:
"seatbr
uhIdon'
twantPenel
opeki
l
li
ngme"
Me:"
thanksandI
'm her
etot
alkabouther
br
uh..
..
somethi
ngiswrongwit
hher"
Tumi
:
"andwhat
'st
hat
?"
Iexhal
ed
Me:"It
hinkt
hathusbandofher
sisdoi
ngsomet
hing
toher,
somethi
ngterr
ibl
eandit
'ski
l
li
ngNonobi
tby
bit
"
Hekeptqui
etf
orabi
t
Me:
"whaty
ouknowsomet
hing?
"
Tumi:"
uhuhjustr
ememberedherbehavi
orwhenI
askedherwhathappenedt
hatdayatt
hehospit
al,
shequickl
yshutmedown"
Me:"seeIthi
nkhe'sr
apingherbruh,Imeanshe
seemsbr okenandshe'sevenshi
v eri
ngandit
'shot
outsi
dewhi l
esheherselfi
swearingsweater
sand
shi
t..
..
.Somet hi
ngbi
gisgoingdownatt hathouse"
Tumi
:"
mmhbutImeanwhatcanwedo?Thecops
won'
tbel
i
eveus"
Me:
"butt
heymi
ghtbel
i
evet
hev
ict
im"
Tumi:"
fai
l
edal r
eadyi
fhe'
sdoingsomet
hingt
oher
he'
llmakesurenoonebeli
evesawordshesaysand
thi
ngswillj
ustgetwor
se"
Irubbedmyfor
eheadfuckhe'
sri
ghtbutIcan'
tj
ust
seatbyandwatchhersuf
fer
Me:
*thenwet
ell
yourpar
ent
s"
Tumi:
"f
ail
ed.
..They
'l
lcall
him anddi
scussitwit
hhi
m
andhe'
lll
i
ethengivethem moneythenit
'scase
cl
osed"
Me:
"dudewhatdowedot
hen?She'
l
ldi
e"
Tumi
:
"wehav
etogetheroutoft
her
eour
sel
ves"
Me:
"It
hinkIknowwhocanhel
pus.
..
."
.
Penel
ope
NowthatBanzi
isgoneIjustfeltli
keI
'm backto
squar
eoneeventhoughIdidn'ttel
lhi
m anythi
ngbut
he'
snotanidiotI'
m sur
ehesawt hatIwast r
yingto
saysomethingbutI'
m scaredwhatift
hispsy cho
hadcamerasi nst
all
edi
nt hi
shousehuhIwas
holdi
ngtheglassofwaterwhenIjustfelthands
wraparoundmywai stIfr
ingedatt
het hought he
ki
ssedmyneck
Hi
m:"
whatdi
dthatboydot
oyou?Whyar
eyousad?
"
Me:"hedidnot
hingIj
ustmi
ssmyf
ri
ends,
Imi
ss
school"
Him:
"youdon'tneedschool
I'
ll
takecareofy
our i
ght
?
Youj
usttakecareofmeandmysont henwe'l
lget
al
ongjustf
ine"
Isni
ff
ed
Me:"whatdidIeverdot oyou?Whyar ey outr
eati
ng
mel i
ket hi
s?Whatdi dIdotodeservethisLwandle?
I
'm sorryforwhateveri
tisIdidbutpleasestop
punishi
ngmepl easeIcan'ttakeitanymore.My
heartcan'tt
akeitI'
m afr
aidImightdiewhileI'
m sti
l
l
youngsopl easestophurti
ngmepl ease"
Heletgoofmeandjustt
urnedmearoundt
oface
hi
m Iwasscar
edbuthehast oknowt
hepai
nI'
m
f
eel
i
ng.
Him:"whatnonsensear
eyout
alki
ngabout
?Whatdi
d
Ieverdotoy ou?
"
Me:"
Lwandl
eyou.
..
yourapedmeandy oudareask
methat
?WhatdidIeverdotoyoutodeser
vethat
huh?Ai
n'
tIwomanenought ogetr
espectf
rom you?
"
Hi
m:"i
sthatwhatyout
oldt
hatboy
?Di
dyout
ell
him
t
hatnonsense?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"Idi
dn'ttell
him anyt
hingandthat'
swhyI'm
askingyou,WHATDI DIEVERDOTOYOU?Ihav e
beennot hi
ngbutgoodt oy ouandLesego.Ihave
doneev ery
thingawi f
ewassupposedt odoev en
thoughIdidn'twanttobeher eIam andIwantedto
maket hebestofit"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
thav
eti
mef
ort
hisnxa"
Me:
"WHATDI
DIDOTOYOU?
"
Hejustturnedar
oundandwalkedoutwit
hhissonI
don'tknowwheretheywentbutt
heydidl
eavemeto
cryallal
oneIqui
cklygotmycomposerandIran
upstair
sandqui ckl
yshov edmycl ot hesi nabagI
tooksomemoneyIhadi nmypur seIwi llcrashat
Bianca'
spl aceshehast ohelpmeact uallyIt ookmy
handbagandr andownst ai
rs,nowIgot tabr eakthe
studywhi chtookmesomebutf i
nal lyIdidandI
wentabouthust li
ngt ofi
ndmyphonebutIdi dn'
twell
screwitI'm sureit'
sinhissafesoscr ewi tIwal ked
outandt henIhear dt hecarstopout sidef uckI '
m
screwed It ookt hebagandqui cklyr ant ot he
kit
chent ooktheki tchenknif
eI '
l
lst abhi mi fhedar es
comesnearmeI '
mt ir
edofbeinghi spunchi ngbag.
"
Lol
oweback"

Me:
"okay"
Hi
m:"andI
'
m goi
ngt
oputt
hisl
i
ttl
eguyt
osl
eept
hen
wecantal
kokay
"
Inod
Hest ar
edatmef oral
it
tl
ewhileGodl
ethi
m notsee
thebagpleasehewasanaly
singmebuthewalked
upstair
sandIqui
cklyst
oodupandwenttosee
wher ehewasandt hemomenthegoti nIpi ckedup
thebaganddashedf ort
hedoort aki
ngt hecarkey s
ont hecoffeetableIr anoutgoti nthecarIwas
shakingbutImanagedt ost artthecaranddr oveout
withtearscloudingmyv isi
onbutIgot t
agetoutof
hereandsoon.Ist oppedatt hemal l
andIwentt o
buyaphonenott heexpensi vet ypeImi ghtneed
moneysoon, Icalledacabandj ustwentt oBianca'
s
place ihopeandpr ayshehel psmeorel seI '
m
dead.Uponar rival t
heguar dt oldmet hatt hefamily
wentawayonhol i
day whygoonahol iday?Are
theycrazy nowwhot ocal l Tumi isatcampus
andIcan' thi
det hereshitIcal ledupBanzi he'sthe
onlyclosesthelpIhav eri
ghtnow.Hepi ckedup
breathi
ngheav il
y .
Me:
"Banzi
.
..Ineedy
ourhel
p"
Hi
m:"
Nono?Ar
eyouokay
?Wher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:"
I'
m atBi
anca'
shousebutshe'
snothomeI
'
m
scar
edtogobackhome"
Hi
m:"
BiancaFouché?
"
Me:
"uhhuh"
Him:
"okayst
ayri
ghtt
hereI
'
m comi
ng.
..
putmy
numberonspeeddi
al"
Inodlikehecoul dseeohJesusofI srael havemercy
onmef orIhav ewokenupt hebeastoft heSokhulu
demons Iwasscar edt hatev erycart hatpasses
byisLwandl eandt hatsomehowhef oundmeev en
theguardswer ej
ustst aringatmeasIhi df r
om
everycar,Iscreamedwhensomeonet appedmy
shoulderbutt hewayt heyhel dmej ustreassuredme
thatI'
m safeIt ur
nedar oundj usttof i
ndBanzi nowI
hadtocr ycausehet i
ght lyheldont omeIhav e
neverfeltsafereversinceImar ri
edLwandl ehe
brokethehugandj ustt ookmybagpul li
ngmet othe
carwegoti nandhedr ov eust ohi sfami ly'
s
house. i knowIwant edt ober i
dofLwandl ebut
notli
ket hi
shedr ov eint hey ardbel i
ev emet he
enti
redr i
vewewer equi te.Wegotoutont hesame
ti
meandhewentt otakemybagandhecamet o
holdmyhand.
Him:"
youcanr
estmypar
ent
sar
enothome.
..
arey
ou
hungr
y?"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
yousur
e?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
cool
let
'sgo"
Iwalkedi
nwithhi
m busygiv
ingmyhandasqueeze,
heledmet ot
heguestroom Ist
opped
Me:
"I
..
..
Ican'
t.
..Don'
tmakemest
ayi
nher
epl
ease"
Hi
m:"
okayr
elaxy
ou'
l
lsl
eepi
nmyr
oom.
..
.i
t'
sokay
"
NowI '
m scaredofguestr ooms anywayhet ook
met ohisroom andhel pedmeset tl
einbutsl eepi
ng
wasahust leIkeptont ossingandt urni
ngj ust
havi
ngv i
sionsaboutt hatmonst eroverme
beati
ngmeandj ustmaki ngmef eelworthlessin
everysi
nglewor dhesay sIj ustf
elthim pierce
thr
oughmyf ragileheartIthinkI'
m goingt oneed
anotherhearttransplantifhecont i
nuest ot or
ment
mel i
kethis.
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05]Ly
nne:
☆ք ռ օք '
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օ ☆
.
#011
.
Banzi
Iwasdownst airsexplai
ningtomymot herwhyIhad
tobri
ngNonoher eany wayIwasbusynar r
ati
ngthe
wholeishformymom whenwehear dascream
comingfrom myr oom andt hatcanonlymeanone
thi
ngNonoIr anupstair
s If oundherst
andingon
thebal
conyr ail
Me:
"Penel
ope.
..
"
RunningtowardshermayscarehersoIhadtobe
caref
ulandwhenIsawt hatIwasclosebyIpul
l
ed
herofftherai
l
s.
Nono:
"nopl
ease.
..
.st
opLwandl
edon'
t.
..St
op "
Me:
"shhhi
t'
sme"
Shegotawayf rom myhol dandrantowardst
herail
s
againIcaughtherandseriousl
yhadt opi
nherdown
buthereyeswer en'
tbli
nki
ng she' ssleepwal
king
actual
lysl
eepfighti
ngcauseIseriousl
yhadtopi
n
herdownshewasf ight
ingme.
Me:
"mama!
!"Ishout
ed"
mama"
Seei
ngthegi
rlyoul
oveactli
ket
hiski
ndadoes
somethi
ngtoyouandnotinagoodway.
Nono:"pl
easestop..
.don'
tputmei
nther
eI'
m beggi
ng
you.
..
.Lwandleplease"

Me:
"Mamaf
ort
hel
oveofGod.
..Mama"Ishout
ed
Idon'tknowhowt odealwithasl
eepwal ki
ng
person,t
heycanhurtthemselv
esandy ouinthe
processMom camer unningshefoundmebusy
holdi
ngont hefi
ghti
ngPenelope.
Her
:"
what
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Me:"
well
shecoul
dn'
tsl
eepsoIgavehersome
sl
eepi
ngpil
l
sandnowshe'ssl
eepwalki
ng"
Her:
"shoul
dwewakeheruporl
ethert
ell
uswhat
happenedtoher
?"
Me:"mashe'
shurti
ngher
selfcomeonlookather
handsal
lscr
atchesandnotforget
ti
ngme"
Her
:"
fi
ne"
Shewentbacki
ntot
her
oom andl
atercameback
wi
thagl
assofwat
er.
Her
:"
Ihopet
hiswi
l
lwor
k"
Ishrugandshejustspri
nkl
edsomewateronher
overandoveragainti
ll
shewokeupscr
eamingwith
hereyesrunni
ngaround.
Me:
"i
t'
sokayy
ouar
esaf
e,y
ouar
esaf
eIpr
omi
se"
Ma:
"whathappenedt
oyou?
"
Shedidn'
tanswerj
ustheldontomyshirtsoI
huggedherIhopet
hatgetshertocal
m downabit
mymom excusedherselfandonl
ydidsherel
ax.
Me:"l
et'
sgety
out
obed.
..
.may
bey
ou'
l
ltel
lmewhat
happened"
Shel
ookedatmeey
esgl
owi
ngwi
tht
ear
s
Her
:"
am Iasl
ut?
"
Me:"
what?Noyouarenotyouareawell
respected
gi
rlwhoevenr
espect
shersel
f.Youar
enotasl ut"
Her
:"
sot
henI
'
m cheap?SoI
'
m acheapsl
ut?
"
Me:
"Penel
opeyouar
enotaslutnorcheapy
ouar
e
wor
thever
ydimeint
hiswor
ld"
Her
:"
thenwhydidherapeme?Whydidhest
ri
pme
ofmyofdigni
tyandpri
de?Whatdi
dIdo?
"
Me:
"hedi
dwhat?Thatl
ousysonofabi
tch.He'
l
lpay
f
ort
hishe'
ll
pay
"
Iwi
pedawayhert
ear
s
Me:
"di
dyougot
oseeaDoct
or?
"
Sheshookherhead
Me:
"wel
lI'
mtaki
ngy
out
her
e..
."
Her
:"
uhuhpl
easeno.
..
.nodoct
orshemi
ghtf
indme"
Me:
"okayat
her
api
st?"
Her
:"
no.
..
.he'
l
lbeatmeupagai
n"
Shet
ookofhershir
texposi
ngt
hemar
ksonherbody
somelookedf
resheven
Me:"
comeI
'
llt
akey
out
obedIhav
esomewher
eto
be"
Ipi
ckedherupandwentt
oputheri
nbed
Me:
"callmeifyouneedany
thi
ngunder
stand?
Any
thingatall
"
Shenod
Thi
sLwandl
eidi
oti
sgoi
ngt
opaycomehel
lorhi
gh
wat
erhe'
l
lpay.
Lwandl
e
Iwassit
ti
nginmyof f
icebusytappi
ngonthetabl
e
wit
hapenwhenSi sandawalkedIin,
hej
ustgave
hi
mselfaseatacr
ossme.
Hi
m:"
Sohav
eyouf
oundher
?Knowwher
eshei
s?"
Me:
"doIl
ookl
i
keIf
oundher
"
Hi
m:"l
etmeguessit'
sBruce,
canIt
alkt
oLwandl
e
pl
ease?Myr
ealfr
iend?"
Me:"
don'
tyouf
uckingmesswit
hme..Whyain'
tyou
outt
herel
ooki
ngforher
?Findt
hatgi
rlandbr
ingher
home"
Hi
m:"
gethel
pfi
rstcont
rol
thosebeat
sinsi
deofy
ou"
Me:
"Ihav
econt
rol
okayIhav
econt
rol
..
..
justf
indher
"
Him:"
dudeI
'
m notony
ourpay
rol
laskt
heot
herguy
s
I
'm busy
"
Me:
"t
henwhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Him:"
justcametochecki
fdepr
essedSt
evehasn'
t
beencutti
nghi
mself"
Me:
"ar
eyouf
orr
eal
?"
Henod Ir
oll
edupmysl
eev
es
Me:"
seehehasn'
tbeencut
ti
nghi
msel
fnowcany
ou
f
indPenel
opeforme?"
Hi
m:"
whi
choneofy
ou?St
eve,
BruceorLwandl
e?"
Me:"Foral
loft
hem wemi ssher
,Iknowwedidn'
t
tr
eatherri
ghtbutwelov
edher ,
welovedhav
ingher
aroundshewasjustl
i
keAmandl a"
Him:"
butyoutur
nedherint
oy ourpersonal
punchi
ng
bag,
gobackfort
reat
mentbruhorel seyou'
llki
l
lan
i
nnocentper
sonli
keyourparents"
Het
ookhi
sst
uffandst
oodup
Him:
"youknowIcar
eabouty
ousopl
ease,
pleaseget
sometreat
ment
"
Helef
tmet obat
tl
ewithmyownghost mul t
ipl
e
per
sonal
it
iesdi
sorder can'
tbecuredI
'
m st
uck
wit
hitI
'm st
uckwitht
wootherpeopl
ewhowantto
takeov erandy eahonei sar uthlesssonofabi tch
hecanchopy ouupwi thnotasi ngl
ehi ntofremor se
evennowIdon' tunder st andwhyhedi dt hatt
o
Penelopehedoesn' tev enknowhershe' sasweet
girl
buther uinedherandIser iouslywantt ogetr i
d
ofhim butit'
sl i
keev eryt imeIt akeast ephet akes
met wost epsback.Ij ustwantt ohavesomeone
whoIcancal lmywi feandact uall
yfeel l
ovedwhi l
e
givi
nglov etoobuti t'
snotpossi blewithBr uce
whenev eragi rl
isinvolv edhemakessur et omake
herlif
ea! li
vi
nghel lmay beev enkillherandbur ry
them I'
llj
ustwakeupt henextdaycov eredinmud
andshi t Ihat ethisshi t.
.
Banzi
Isowant edt ogoandat tackt hatpr i
ckbutt henhe'
d
knowwher eNonoi sandr ightnowIj ustwantherto
restandfor getherscaryor dealswi t
ht hatmonster
shedeser v
est or
estabi tsoIendedupdr i
vi
ngtomy
uncle'
soffice,he'
sSisanda'sf atherandbel i
eveme
heain'taniceoket omesswi thrightnowIneeda
favourandhedi dsayifIev erneededaf avourI
shouldcallhim andhe'
llhelpsonowIneedaf avour
andahugeoneIhopeheagr eest oi
nvolvehisgang
j
ustt oteachthi
spr i
ckalessonIf oundmyuncl eat
theparkinglotseemedl ikehewasgoi ng
somewher esoIhoot edforhi m andquickl
ygotout .
Hest oppedwhenhesawt hatitwasme.
Hi
m:"
son?Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Ishr
ugpl
aci
ngmyhandsi
nmypocket
s
Hi
m:"
Lubanzi
?Tel
lmewhat
'sgoi
ngon"
Me:
"ei
shMal
umeIneedaf
avourandqui
ck"
Hi
m:"
what
?Money
?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"I
'm sor
tedmoneywi
seIj
ustneedy
out
olend
meyourgang"
Hi
m:"
mygang?Forwhat
?"
Me:"wellt
her
eist
hisi
diotwhodeci
dedt
oabuset
he
gi
rlIlov
e"
Hi
m:"
whoi
sthatgi
rl
?Idi
dn'
tknowy
ouhada
gi
rl
fr
iendt
oo"
Me:"
she'
snotmygir
lf
ri
endj
ustagi
rlIl
oveandwe
hadmadeplans"
Hi
m:"
plans?Sowhoabusedher
?"
Me:
"somel
unat
iccal
l
edLwandl
eSokhul
u"
Him:
"Isee.
..
wel
lIwishIcoul
dhelpbutwedon'
ttur
n
agai
nstoneofourowninthegang"
Me:"herappedandbeather,
justi
magineifthat
happenedtoOliv
ia.Howwoul dyoufeelseeing
someoney oulovegocrazybitbybi
tandt herei
s
nothingyoucandoaboutit"
Hi
m:"
Iunder
standy
ourf
rust
rat
ionsbuthehasDI
D"
Me:"Idon'
tcar
e"Ishout
ed"
arey
ougoi
ngt
ohel
pme
ornot?"
Hi
m:"
I'
dli
ket
ohel
pyoubut
..
..
he'
sli
kef
ami
l
y"
Me:
"Iam f
amil
yain'
tI?I
'
lldoany
thi
ngpl
easej
ust
t
eachthi
sguyalesson"
Hi
m:"
any
thi
ng?
"
Inod
Me:
"any
thi
ngy
ouwant
"
Him:
"wel
lyouknowexact
lywhatIwantandI
'
m sur
e
youwanti
ttoo"
Iexhal
edl
oudl
y
Me:
"f
ineI
'
llj
oiny
oursquad j
ustpr
otectNono"
Hewor
ethi
ssmi
l
eonhi
sface
Hi
m:"
consi
deri
tdone.
..
youwon'
tregr
ett
his"
Hepatmyshoul
der
Me:
"sohowwi l
lyoupuni
shhi
m?Byki
cki
nghi
m out
oft
hegroup?
"
Him:"don'
tworr
yaboutt
hatwehaveourownwayof
deal
ingwithourmembersandIhopey ouwon'
t
causeunnecessar
yfi
ght
swithhim onceyoumeet
"
Me:
"Ihav
etogoandt
hanky
ou"
Iwentt omycargotinandlef
tIdon'thav
et i
meto
belyingandifhe'
spartofagangthengoingtothe
copsi sawasteofti
meIguessRightnowmybest
betistofightf
ir
ewithfi
re don'
tcareifIget
burntIdrovehomeafterafewdri
nksatthebarI
f
oundmymom busyhav
ingdi
nner
.
Me:
"hi
lov
e"
Ma:
"heyNana.
..
youbackl
atewhy
?"
Me:"
justneededtocl
earmymi
ndumhdi
dyougi
ve
Nonosomef ood?
"
Ma:"I
'
m noty
ourgi
rl
fr
iend'
smai
dshehast
wo
hands"

Me:"r
eall
y?Mashehasj
ustescapedf
rom her
abuserhowcanyoubesocruel
?"
Shecl
ickedhert
ongueandl
ookedaway ‍♂I
wentt
odi shupf
orNono.
Me:"
Ithoughtyou'
dhav
eremor
sesi
ncey
oual
so
hav
edaught er
s"
Ma:"Idon'thav
eremor
seforcheapt
hings,
whatwas
shethinki
ng?Thathav
ingari
chhusbandwill
gether
happiness?"
Me:"
Ma!!!Shedidn'
tchoosethi
ssopl
easei
t'
sei
ther
yousupportheroryouleav
eheral
one"
Ma:"I
'
dr atherdi
ethantobehermaid.
..
..My
daughtersareoutther
emakingsomethingoutof
themselvesandnotsucki
ngonmyson' strustf
und"
Il
ookedatherhopingthatmadeshe'
l
lsayI
'
m
ki
ddi
ngbutitdi
dn'thappen
Me:
"I
'm sodi
sappoi
ntedi
nyou"
Itookthepl ateandwal kedoutoftheki tchenorelse
I'
l
l haveabackt obackwi t
hmymot herandi t
'l
lend
upi nmel osingmycool ‍♂Igott omyr oom
andf oundNonocr awledupbyt hecor nerhugging
herkneesst aringintospace Igent lyputt heplat
e
downandsl owl ywalkedtowardsherandsatdown
besidesher ,
youcoul dhearherheavybr eathingand
shewasbr eathingthroughhermout hsoshehasa
nosebl ockallduet ocryi
ng.
Her
:"
makei
tbet
ter
"
Me:
"makewhat
?"
Her
:"
myexper
ience..
.Helpmeremovet
hescary
t
hought
sofmebei ngrappedf
rom mymind"
Me:
"howNono?Ican'
ttur
nbackt
hehandsoft
ime"
Her
:"makelovetome..
.l
ikeIal
waysthoughti
t'
d
be,
romanti
c,sweetandfil
l
edwithl
ove.Youdolov
e
mer i
ght
?"

Me:"
mor
ethanyou'
l
lev
erknowbutIcan'
t.
..
.Ican'
t
sl
eepwi
thyou"
Her:"
why?Isi
tbecauseIwasrappedhuh?I
'
m not
sexyanymoreri
ght?Youcan'
tsleepwi
thmecauseI
disgusty
ou"
Me:"asIsaidIlov
ey oumor ethanyoucouldever
knowhel lIt
houghtonedayI '
dbetheonet otake
yourinnocencebutIwasn'tandworstpartheforced
himselfonyouNono, Ihavetodeal
withthatfi
rstand
sodoy ou.Youdon'tdisgustmeandIstil
lfi
ndy ou
i
ncredibl
ysexy"
Her:
"i
twasmyf
aul
tri
ght
?Imadehi
mrapemeI
pr
ovokedhi
m"
Me:*
noit
'snoty
ourf
aul
t,i
t'
l
lnev
erbey
ourf
aul
tI
pr
omise"
Shewassobbi
ng
Her:
"pl
easeBanzi
makei
tbet
ter
.Pl
easehel
pme
f
orget"
Fir
stIj
oinedagangfory
ouandnow Penel
ope
youarereal
lyget
ti
ngmeint
odeepshi
t.
Me:"whenyoureal
lywantmet omakelovetoyou,
comet othenextr
oom at11pm toni
ghtandI
promiseI
'll
makelovetoyou.Butonl
y..
.Onlyi
fyou
gi
v emeonegoodr easontowhyIshoulddoitand
whyy ouwanttodoit"
Her
:"
Iwantt
ofor
get
,Iwantt
ofor
get
"
Me:
"uhuhIsai
dtoni
ghtsor
ightnowhav
eyourf
ood"
Sheseemedal i
ttl
eannoy edbutshe'll
hav etodeal
withitIwon'tsleepwit hher ,
shehastoletmehelp
herbyt akinghertoat herapistorel
seshe'll
become
asexf reakshedi dn'
tev eneatsowej ustsatthere
evendosi ngofftogetherst ari
ngatmov i
esonmy
l
apt optil
lshewassl eepingagai n,
sheseemedt i
red
l
ikeshehadn' tbeensl eepingindayssohav ingher
sleepsopeacef ull
yinmyar ms Iwasbusy
rubbi
ngherf
oreheadasshesnor
edsof
tl
y she'
sa
beautnol
ie.
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Iwokeupinadiffer
entr
oom Ial
mostscreamedbut
thenIsawBanzionthephoneIguesshedidn'
tsee
thatIwasawakecausehewasf r
ee.
"Oht
hankyouuncl
e,thanky
ouv er
ymuch,
sowhere
i
she?"Hepaused"okayumhnoshe'sst
il
lsl
eepi
ng
andofcour
sehedeservedi
tyeah"

Whodeser v
edwhatandwhyi shetal
ki
ngt othe
unclehesaidhedoesn'twanttobeassoci
atedwit
h?
Unlessi
tisadiff
erentuncl
etheconversi
onwas
aboutmeandwhathappenedtomesoIguessthe
personwhodeserv
edi
tisLwandl
e Iwaitedfor
hi
mt ohangup.
Me:
"whathav
eyoudone?
"
Iaskedthatinacal
m waynoshout
ingorexcessi
ve
breat
hingjustmecal
m.Helookedatmewi t
hhis
eyesbulgi
ngout.
Me:
"whatdi
dyoudo?Lubanzi
whatdi
dyoudo?
"
Hi
m:"
not
hingbabe,
not
hinghappenedbet
weenus"
Me:
"Isai
dwhatdi
dyoudo?
"
Hekeptqui
et
Me:
"Lubanzi
Iaskedy
ouaquest
ion"
Him:
"nothi
ngokaynot
hing.
..
hedeser
vedi
tforwhat
hedi
dt oyou"
Me:
"ar
eyoucr
azy
?"Ishout
ed"hehasasmal
lbaby
asi
xmonthol
dbaby,
whatdidy
oudotohi
m?"
Hekeptqui
et
Me:"
fuckyouLubanzi
fuckyouokay.
..
.y
ouarejust
l
ikehi
m howcouldyouhurtanot
herperson,
ahuman
bei
ngf
ort
hatmat
ter
"
Hi
m:"
Iwasdoi
ngi
tfory
ou"
Me:"
don'
tfuckwit
hme,Idi
dn'
tasky
outogoal
l
ghet
toonhim nowwhatdi
dyoudotohi
m?"
Hi
m:"
fakedacaracci
dentokay
..
..
hehadt
opay
"
Me:"
whoarey
ou? Idon'
trecogni
sey
ouany
mor
e.
Takemetohi
m now"
Him:"why
?WhywouldIt
akey
oubackt
othesame
personwhoabusedy
ou?"
Me:"hehasaninfantokayIjustwanttoknowif
Lesegoisfi
nethat'
sall.AndIcan'
tbeinthesame
room asyou,
Idon'tknowy ouanymore"
Hi
m:"
Nono.
..
NonoI
'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"j
ustt
akemet
ohi
m now"
Hel
etoutadeepsi
gh
Him:
"goshowerf
ir
stIcan'
ttakey
out
othehospi
tal
l
iket
hat"
IgotoutofthebedandyeahIwentt
otakeashower
aquickone.IwastheonewhowashurtbyLwandl
e
nowhim get t
ingint
osomedodgyst uffj
ustf
ormy
sakethat'
sjustbull
shitcausehe'sagoodguyand
he'
sruini
nghi sli
feoversomet hi
ngthathecoul
dn't
contr
olwhyt hough,I
'
mt heonewhosesupposedt o
seekrevengei t
'
smyr ighttoseekrevengehedoesn'
t
havetherighttotakethatawayfrom meNOONE
DOES
Ifi
nishedupwi t
hmyshowerandwentt omyr oom
forclothes,Iwor
eabaggyboy fr
iendJeanwi t
hblack
Pumaf entysneakersIworeabaggymar oon
sweat shi
rtandabl ackthi
ckheartchocker,
justt
o
coversomemar ks It ookmycellphoneandsl i
ng
bag,Iwalkedoutmeet ingBanzibythehallway
Hi
m:"
your
eady
?"
Me:
"yeahsur
e,l
et'
sgo"
Iwalkedbefor
ehim andLordknowsI'mjustdoi
ng
thi
sforLesegoplusthefactthatt
hey
'l
lbelooki
ng
formet ocomeandl ookaft
ermyhusband when
wegott othehospi
talIj
ustjumpedout.
Me:
"noI
'
llgoal
one,
you'
vedoneenough"
Hi
m:"
Nono.
..
"
Me:
"j
ustgobackhomeI
'
llcomel
ater
"
Iclosedthedoorandwal kedinwell
Iguesshewas
reall
yherecauseIsawSakhi leandt
hemomenthe
sawmeher antomeandwehugged Lwandl ei
s
anani malbuthehassomanypeopl ewhol ovehi
m
andhe' sal
soresponsi
bleforliv
esnotj
usthisown
webr okethehugandthel it
tl
eguywascryi
ng.
Me:
"uhuhdon'
tcr
y..
..I
'
m sur
ehe'
l
lbef
ine"
Hi
m:"heandLesegoalmostdi
edNono.
..
.whati
fhe
di
ed?I'
dbeallal
one"
Me:"
you'
ll
havemer emember?Yourbuddy
,comeon
wherei
sthati
ntel
l
igentguyImetonmywedding
day?
"
Hi
m:"
Ial
mostl
ostmybr
other
..
."
Me:
"he'
sal
i
ver
ight
?"
Henod
Me:
"andwhataboutLesego?Howi
she?
"
Hi
m:"
wel
lheshi
eldedhi
m,j
ustaf
ewscr
atchesand
br
uises"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"t
hankGod,
comel
et'
sgot
oyouruncl
e"
Ipul
l
edhimtowardsMrSokhul u,
Igr
eetedhi
mt hen
wesatdowninsi
lencebutthei
runcl
ewasgivingme
l
ooksIdon'
tcar
eIjustfocusedonSakhil
e
"
Whywasy
ourphoneof
f?"
Thi
sol
dmant
houghIcl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Me:
"Lwandl
ehasal
lmygadget
s..
"
MrS:
"buty
ouar
ehol
dingaphonenow"
Me:
"Iboughti
twhenIl
eftt
hehouse"
Sakhi
l
e:"
youl
eft
?Why
?"
Me:
"Ij
ustcouldn'
tst
aywit
hyourbr
otherany
mor
eI
r
eal
i
sedifIstayedanyl
ongerI
'
dbedead"
MrS:"whatdoyoumeanbyt
hat
?Mysonhasbeeni
n
cont
rolofhimsel
f.
.."

Me:
"he.
..
.he.
..
"
Il
ookedatSakhi
l
eandj
ustshutup
Me:
"f
orgeti
t"
Sakhi
le:
"he'
sbeenhur
ti
ngy
ou?Hehi
tsy
oudoesn'
t
he?"
Ikeptquietr
ubbi
nghi
sshoulderhe'
salit
tl
eki
d,a
teenatthatf
actsot
hisi
sjustnotforhi
m.
Me:"
that
'snotimpor
tantnowsol
et'
sfocusony
our
br
other'
swellbei
ng"
MrS:"
Sakhil
eyourbrot
herwoul
dnev
erdot
hatand
youknowitSakhi
le"
Sakhi
l
e:"
hehasDI
Dmal
ume.
..
.don'
tvouchf
orhi
m"
Me:
"hehaswhatnow?Iwasmar r
iedof
ftoaguy
wi
thmanypersonal
it
ies?Apsy
..
..
whydidn'
tmy
f
amilyknowaboutt
his?"
Theykeptquiet I 'm marr
iedtosomeonewi tha
ment al
il
lnessandnotjustanyment ali
l
lnessitsDI
D
nomedi cati
onforitcanmyl i
fegetanywor se
though.Thedoctorcameourwaysohe' sLwandleor
Lesego'sdoctorbutwhateverIdi
dn'tst
andIjustsat
down.
"
Sokhul
ufami
l
y?"
Theuncl
est
oodupandsodi
dSakhi
l
ebutIj
ustsat
down
Dr:
"well
MrSokhului
sawakeandhe'
dli
ket
oknowi
f
youfoundPenel
ope?"
Sakhi
l
elookedatmesoIst
oodup
Me:
"I
'm.
..
I'
m Penel
ope"
Dr
:"
okaywel
lhe'
dli
ket
oseey
ou"
Me:
"me?Whyme?
"
Dr:
"Idon'
tknowmam umhhe'
sint
het
hir
droom on
yourri
ght
"
Me:
"I
'm not
..
..Ij
ustcan'
tseehi
m"
Dr:
"wel
lyoucanhe'
swi
deawaket
hepi
l
lswor
eof
f
nowsofeelfr
ee"
thereitgoesagai nmyheartwaspoundingso
rapidlyIt
houghtIwasgoi ngtodieagain,
Itooksl
ow
deepbr eathsIlookedatever
yonebutI'm suret
hey
didn'tseewhatIwasgoi ngthr
oughrightnowImean
havinganot herperson'
shear
tistr
oublesomecause
i
t'sfr
agil
esoy eahIhav etobecar ef
ul.Iwal
ked
towardstheroom theysai dbutitwasl i
keIwasa
zombienowIhav et oseet heper sonwhoabused
meIst oodatthewi ndowf ir
stj
ustst ari
ngathi
m.I
tookadeepbr eat
handj ustwalkedinIcan't
conti
nuerunning,
het urnedaroundwhenhef el
tmy
presence
Me:
"hi
..
.hi
"
Hi
m:"
Nono.
..
."
Hear
inghi
svoicej
ustmademeweaknoti
ngood
waybutIwasscar
edkindaofweak.
Me:
"I
..
..
Ican'
tdot
his"
It
urnedar
ound
Hi
m:"
pleasedon'
tgo.
..
.Ihav
esomet
hingt
otel
lyou"
Me:"
Ialr
eadyknowabouty
ourDI
D.Noneedt
o
expl
ain"
Hi
m:"
ohh,
pleaseseatIwon'
thur
tyou"
Howcany outr
ustali
onwheni
tsay
sitwon'
thur
t
you,
brokenhandandall
he'
sst
il
lamonst
er.
Hi
m:"
please.
..
.Iwantt
oexpl
aint
hisi
l
lnesst
oyou"
Me:"
don'
tyouthinkyouar
eal i
tt
let
ool at
eforthat
?
DIDornotyouknewabouttheseotherpeopl
einyou.
Butyouort
hem hurtme,i
ntheworstmost
i
maginabl
eway "
Hi
m:"I
'
m sorryokayI'
m sor
ryIdi
dn'tt
ell
youbutI
t
houghtIcouldcont
rolt
hem l
ikeIdowithLesego,
I
t
houghtBrucewouldbehave"

Me:
"Br
uce?Whoi
sBr
uce?
"
Hi
m:"
seatI
'
llt
ell
youal
labouti
t"
Iwasrel
uct
antbutIdi
dbutmov
edabi
tfur
theraway
fr
om hi
m.
Me:
"speak"
Him:"seether
eisSt eveandBruceinme..
.Br
uceis
thi
spsy chowhogr ewupbei ngabusedandtakento
mil
itaryschoolhewasapr edatorf
rom ayoungage
hefoundj oyi
nt or
turi
nganimalsandumhheki ll
ed
mypar entsandAmandl a..
..
..
"
Theni thappenedtheheavyhear
tbeatthisti
meIgot
thi
shugebol derofaheadacheIguesshol di
ngonto
mychestwasj ustwhatIdobestbutitdidn'
thel
pI
couldn'tbr
eathfuckitwashardbreat
hing.
Hi
m:"
hey
..
.ar
eyouokay
?Penel
ope?
"
Seei
ngdoubl
e,
deephuskybr
eat
hs
Me:
"I
..
.Ican'
tbr
eat
h..
..I
..
."
Wel
lhej
ustpl
acedhi
sbr
eat
hingmaskonme
Hi
m:"
breat
hpl
ease.
..
.Takesl
owdeepbr
eat
hs"
Ihel
dont othemaskwhi
chint
urnIhel
dhishand
causehedidn'
tmovei
tIdi
dashesaidandyeahI
didcal
m down.
Hi
m:"
youokay
?Cany
oubr
eat
hnow?
"
Inodsti
llst
ari
ngathi
m howcoul dhecreatesuch
analt
erego?Hecreatedamonst erandthat
monsterhurtmeandit'
l
lcontinuehurti
ngmet il
lIdi
e
l
ikeLesego'smot
herImov edt hemaskf r
om my
faceandjustt
ookadeepbr eath.
Me:
"howcoul
dyoucr
eat
esuchamonst
er?What
wer
eyout
hinki
ng?"
Hi
m:"Idon'
tknowbuthewast
her
eandt
her
eisno
wayIcangetri
dofhim"
Me:
"sodoy
ouknowt
hather
ap.
..
rapedme?
"
Hel
ookedatmewi
thoutmaki
nganysound
Me:
"howcoul
dyounotknow?He'
sinsi
dey
ou"
Him:
"thi
ngshappenwhent
heyt
akeov
erandsomeI
don'
tevenknow"
Me:"
andhi
m beat
ingme?Di
dyouknowt
hat
?Orwas
i
tyoubeat
ingme"
Him:
"Isawhowaf
raidyouwer
eandy eahIsawthat
somethi
ngwaswrong.Her
ebreat
hthroughthi
s"
It
ookthemaskf
rom hi
m andj
ustt
ookaf
ewdeep
br
eat
hs
Me:
"andwhataboutSt
eve?Whatdoeshedo?
"
Him:*wel
lhe'
sadepr
essedboywhodidn'thavehis
parent
swhilegr
owi
ngupsoheisanintrovertanda
l
oner"
It
ooki
nsomeai
ragai
nIt
hinkSt
evei
smuchbet
ter
t
hant
hatmonst
er
Me:"
I'
dli
ketosayi
t'
sokayandIunderst
andbutI
don'
t,
andIhat
eyouorBrucecausewheneverIcl
ose
myeyesIseeyoual
loverme..
..
.youhur
tme"
Him:"
I'
m sorr
yIknowIshouldhavetol
dyousooner
causeyoudon'tdeserv
ewhathappenedt
oyounot
evenali
ttl
ebit.I
'
mr eal
lysor
ryNono"

Me:
"gofortr
eatmentthenwecant
alk,
goseea
Psy
chi
atri
stfort
his.
"
Hekeptqui
etti
l
tinghi
sheadt
otheot
hersi
det
he
momenthelookedatme
Hi
m:"don'
tyoudar
etel
lmewhatt
odo,
under
stand
me?"
Iwassoscar
edcauset
hisist
heper
sonwhowas
busyr
appi
ngmeandbeatingmeupsoIqui
ckl
ynod.
Me:"
Bruce?Br
ucepl
easel
ethim gof
ort
reat
ment
bef
oreyouguyshur
tsomeone"
Hi
m(Br
uce)
:"
no,
noonei
sgoi
ngt
ogetr
idofmet
hat
easi
l
yI'
m her
etost
ay"
Me:"hewon'
tgetr
idofy
oubut
..
..
.pl
easel
i
stenhow
aboutwemakeadeal"
Him(Br
uce)
:"
whatdeal
?Whatdoy
ouhav
ethaty
ou
canoff
erme?"
Me:
"Ipr
omi
se.
..
.Ipr
omi
set
oumh"
Hi
m(Br
uce)
:"
speak!
!"Heshout
ed
Me:
"I
'l
lbewit
hy ouguysandIwon'
tl
eav
ehi
m no
mat
terwhathappens"
Hi
m(Bruce)
:"
that'
srubbi
sht
heyal
lsayt
hatt
hen
l
eavehi
m, t
heyleaveus"
Iwasscar
edokayIwasf
reaki
ngoutbutIcoul
dn'
t
st
opspeaki
ng.
Me:
"I'
m dif
fer
ent.
..I
'
llst
ayIpromi seI
'l
lst
ayI'
l
leven
gowithyoutothemeet i
ngs,
I'
ll
beagoodwi feand
mothert
oy oursonri
ght?I'
ll
raiseLesegoper
fect
ly
whi
leyoufocusony ourheal
th"
Him(
Bruce)
:"
you'
l
lqui
teschool
andbeast
ayat
homemom? "
Ishookmyhead
Me:"I
'
v eal
wayswant
edtobealawyerl
i
keyouguys
I
'v
eal wayswant
edtofi
ghtf
orhumanri
ght
s..
.butI
'
ll
betherefory
ouguysIpr
omise"
Hekeptqui
etst
ari
ngatmewi tht
hosecreat
ureey
es
ofhi
sbutIact
edtoughIgott
afuckIdon'
teven
knowwhyImadeallthesepr
omises.
Hi
m(Br
uce)
:"
ify
oudar
ehur
thi
mI'
l
lki
l
lyou"
Inod Iguessheswi t
chedt
oLwandl ebutdamnI
wasreadytopeeonmysel
fIj
ustputthemaskon
andtookdeepbreat
hsr
eal
lyr
eal
lydeepbreaths.
Hi
m:"
arey
ouokay
?Whathappened?
"
Ishookmyheadf
uckIwascr
ying
Hi
m:"
whatdi
dhedo?
"
Me:
"no.
..
not
hingj
ustgof
ort
reat
ment
"
Him:"
I'
ll
gonowmi ndtel
l
ingmewhat '
swr
ongwit
h
you?You'r
eholdi
ngontoyourchestl
i
key
ourl
if
e
dependsonit
"
Me:
"Ihadahear
ttr
anspl
antwhenIwas16causeof
beingoverwei
ght,
Ihadahear
tattackwhichthey
foundoutwascausedbyblockedarter
iesandther
e
wasnothingtheycoul
ddosoIgotanewhear t"
Hi
m:"
whywasn'
tIt
old?
"
Me:
"It
houghty
ourbf
fst
oldy
ouwheny
oubought
me"
Itookabreat
hthr
ought
hemaskbutIst
il
lhada
headache
Me:
"Ishoul
dgetgoi
ngumhI
'
llcheckonLesego"
Hi
m:"
howi
she?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"butSakhi
l
esai
dhe'
sfi
nesi
ncey
oushi
eldedhi
m
soI
'
llcheck"
Hi
m:"
okayt
hanky
ouNono"
InodandjuststoodupbutIguesstheheadaches
weretr
yingtotell
mesomet hi
ngcauseIcoll
apsed
theni
twasitli
ghtsout.
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nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
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.
ք ռ օք ♥
.
♡Don'
thav
enodegr
ee,
I'
m somewhatnai
ve
I
'
vemadei
tthi
sfaronmyown
Butl
atel
y,t
hatshi
tai
n'
tbeenget
ti
ngmehi
gher
Il
i
ftupmyheadandt
hewor
ldi
sonf
ir
e
Ther
e'sdr
eadi
nmyhear
tandf
eari
nmybones
AndIj
ustdon'
tknowwhatt
osay
May
beI
'
llpr
ay,
pray
May
beI
'
llpr
ay
Ihav
enev
erbel
i
evedi
nyou,
no,
butI
'
m gonnapr
ay
Youwon'
tfi
ndmei
nchur
ch(
no!
)readi
ngt
hebi
ble
(no!
)
Iam st
il
lher
eandI
'
m st
il
lyourdi
sci
ple
I
'
m downonmyknees,
I'
m beggi
ngy
oupl
ease
I
'
m br
oken,
alone,
andaf
rai
d
I
'
m notasai
nt,
I'
m mor
eofasi
nner
Idon'twannal
ose,
butIf
earf
ort
heա ռռ s-
saʍ
sʍɨtɦք aʏ♡
.
Iwokeupandf uckIhadaheadacheandasor e
thr
oatthissidemyey eswereheav yl
ikehel
l,
Iwas
busyl
ooki ngaroundli
keI'
ml ostandfucksomething
onhandhur tli
kecrazy Il ookedatitandIhada
dri
pdamnIhadt onsofmedi calst
uffonmeev ena
dri
p It riedtositupstr
aightbutIguessI'
mi nhuge
bodypainsIcan'tevenhel
pmy sel
f
"
Heyy
ou'
l
lhur
tYour
sel
f"
Isl
owlyl
ookedbesi
desmeandsawLwandl
e
hehadthi
sconcer
nedlookonhi
sface.
Me:
"canIhav
esomewat
erpl
ease"
Myv oi
cewassohoarseitev
enhur tsoIcl
earedmy
throat.Lwandl
edi
dgetmewat erandgav emet he
glassImeanhehasabr okenarm sohecan'tdo
nothingIslowl
ysi
ppedlooki
ngLwandl er
ighti
nt he
eyehopi
ngtoseehim changebuthi
seyesdidn'
t,
he
hadasoulunl
i
kewhenIwast al
ki
ngtoBrucehewas
col
dnosoulatal
l.
Iputt
hegl
assback
Me:
"whathappenedt
ome?
"
Hesmi
l
edabi
t
Hi
m: "wel
lyoucol
lapsedcli
chéIknowy
ouwer
e
vi
sit
ingmebutI'mv i
sit
ingyounow"
Me:
"dot
heyknowwhy
?What
'
swr
ongwi
thme?I
sit
myhear
tagai
n?"
Him:"
welldehy
drat
ionandf
atiguewel
lwi
thhungerI
guessyouhaven'
tbeeneat
ingwell
"
Me:"
Idon'
tthi
nkfoodwasonmyt
odol
i
stbuti
smy
hear
tokay?Wil
lIbefi
ne?
"
Him:
"yesyourhear
tisf
ine.
..
.i
fnoty
ou'
dhav
eanew
hear
tbytomorrow"
Me:"
Idon'
tthi
nksoitt
ookmethreeyearstogett
his
oneandtheyhur
ri
edcauseIwashospit
ali
zed"
Hi
m:"
I'
dmakesur
eyouhav
eahear
tbyt
omor
row.
..
.
That
'showf
astt
hingshappenwi
thme"

Me:
"you'
dst
eal
it?Li
kei
nthebl
ackmar
ket
?"
Him:"
youdon'tneedaheartsoyoudon'
thaveto
know..
.l
ist
enIhopey oudon'
tmindbutIaskedi
f
Lesegocouldbeinthesameroom asyou,hemi
ssed
you"

Me:"
Imi
ssedhimt
ooandnoIdon'
tmi
ndnowwhen
i
stheDoct
orcomi
ngIwantt
ogohome"
Him:
"wel
lyoucan'
tIhear
dhim sayt
hatt
hey'l
lkeep
youher
eunti
lyouarewel
lrest
edandhydrat
ed"
stupiddoct orsI '
m notsi
ckj ustneedtodri
nktons
andt onsofwat erandsl eepthenIwi l
lbefi
nebutt he
sleepingparti sbecomi nghar dtodooflatecause
allIseeismy selfbeingstri
ppedofmypr i
deandj oy
whi l
ebeingt oldt hatit
'
llbeov ersoonandthatI'
l
lbe
fi
newel l
I'm notf i
neandi ttookev er
yboneinmenot
topoi sonhim It houghtthatgoodpar tofmehad
diedbuti twasst i
llt
heremyweakness, t
hatthi
ng
thatwi ll
alway smakeev eryonelookdownonmei t'
s
stil
ltherebutI '
m goi ngt ohideherandpr otecther ,
I
willkeepmyi nnocentsoul ver
ywel lprotected.I '
l
l
fi
ghtt omai ntaintheki nd,gentleandl ovingPenel ope
Iwasr ai
sedt obeev ent houghmypar entscoul dn't
careaboutmywel lbeingr ightnowbutI '
llrespect
them aspeopl ewhor aisedme andt hatandonl y
thatwi ll
bri
ngpi ecei ntomysoul andmay bet hef act
thatIwantt oli
vesot hatIcanpr otectmyl itt
lesister
Luyol ofrom thehar dshipsoft hi
swor ldandt heir
crueltyforI'dli
kehert ohav eabet terandmor e
j
oy fuladulthoodnotl i
kemewhoi sstil
lfreshf rom
teenagehoodI 'm alreadyf acingthedev i
landal l
his
disciplesandt heyar eoutt odestroymebot h
phy si
callyandspi ri
tually
.
Banzi
Iwal
kedintothehospital
andaskedi fIcoul
dsee
NonoandIwasl edtoherr oom Iev
enwonderhow
shegottobehospital
i
zedImeanshehasav ery
fr
agi
leheartsostr
essinghertosuchanext entcan
getherhearttogiveupandthenshe'l
lneedapace
maker wel lIf
oundhersleepi
ngsoIsatdown
si
lent
lyIdon'twanttowakeherupshel ookedso
peacefulbutIwasgetti
ngboredjustst
ari
ngather
soIdecidedthatI'
dgoforawalkandcomeback
l
atermay beshe'
llbeawake.
"
Banzi
..
..
"
Asoftvoicecall
edoutformethev oi
ceofmy
Angel It ur
nedaroundIfoundherhalfawakeli
ke
shewasst i
ll
highfr
om thepil
l
s,Isatdownandjust
tookherhandandkissedit
.
Me:
"babyhowar
eyou?
"
Shecoughedal
i
ttl
e
Me:
"canIgety
ousomewat
er?
"
Sheshookherheadandsatupst
rai
ght
Her
:"
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Me:"Icamet
oseey
ouIhear
dthaty
oubecamea
pat
ient"
Her
:"
how?Whot
oldy
ou?
"
Me:"
that
'snoti
mpor
tant
,sowhathappeneddi
dhe
hur
tyou?"
Her:
"noI'
mjustdehy
drat
edandt
ir
edt
hat
'sal
lso
soonI'
ll
beabletogohome"
Me:
"when?Iwi
l
lcomef
etchy
ou"
Shel
ookedt
heot
herway
Her
:"
I'
m goi
ngbackwi
thLwandl
e,
Ipr
omi
sed"
Me:"
youpromised?Youdon'
towethatguyany
thi
ng
Nonoinactualf
actheowesyou"
Her:
"IknowbutIjustfoundmysel
fmakingthat
promiseandIcan'tt
akeitbackorhe'
l
llookforme
andhe'l
lki
ll
me"
Me:"
soyou'drat
herl
ivewit
hsomeoney
ouf
ear
?
Nonothat
'sbull
shi
tandyouknowit
"
Her:
"i
tsnotbullshi
tBanzi,
hejustneedssomeonet o
gi
vehiml ov
eandhel phi
mf i
ndhiswayt hat
'sall
,we
al
lmakemi stakesright
?Iknowy oumadeami stake
wheny ouorderedthathi
tonhim"
Me:
"I
twasn'
tami
stakeIwant
edhi
m dead"
Her:
"whatiswrongwit
hy ou?Don'
tyoucarefor
humanl i
fenow?He'sahumant oonomat t
erwhat
hehasdonehe' sst
il
lhumanBanziI'
dratherdi
ein
hi
shandst hanseeyouturnint
oamonstercauseof
me...
.y
ouar eagoodpersonwhocaresabouthuman
l
ifesopleasedon'
tl
oset hat
"
Me:
"Icar
eforyourl
i
femoret
hananyotherl
i
fe.
..
.I'
d
doi
tagaini
fneedbeandIwon'
tfeel
sorr
yabouti
t"
Shelookedatmewi ththi
sscar
edorpi
tyl
ookIdon'
t
understandi
tokaybutshewastry
ingt
otel
lme
somet hi
ngwithhereyes.
Me:
"I
'dki
l
lhi
m andhi
ssoni
fneedbe.
..
"
Her:
"woul
dyouki
l
lmybabyt
oo?I
fhewast
he
f
ather?
"
Ikeptqui
et
Her:
"Lubanzipl
easegetoutoft
herebefor
eyou
becomeamonst erI
'
m beggi
ngyou..
..
.Youdon'
t
bel
ongt her
eIknowy oudon'
t"
Me:"i
t'
stoolat
eforthat
,theyhaveal
readydonewhat
IaskedforsoIhavetojointhem"
Her
:"
askyouruncl
etol
ety
ougoBanzi
orl
etmet
alk
t
ohim pl
ease"
Me:
"noIdon'
twanty oui
nvol
vedwi
tht
hem I'
ll
deal
wi
ththem.
..
..
Ijustwanty
ououtoft
hathouse"
Her:
"Banzil
ist
enIdon'
twantt
ogother
eei t
herbut
I'
m afr
aidofwhatwoul
dhappentomeandLesego...
.
Hehast hi
spsychoper
soninhi
m andBruceisa
ki
ll
er"
Me:
"yety
ouwantt
ogoback?Nonohe'
l
lki
l
lyou"
Her:"
notifIki
llhi
mf i
rst.
..
..
li
stenBanzil
eav ethat
stupi
dgangf ormysakeIknowy oudi
ditformy
sakebutpleaseleaveitI
'm beggingyou.Ihave
alr
eadylostyouIdon'twannal oseyouforeverand
youhaveabr ightf
utureaheadofy ou"
Me:"youarethatfutur
eNonoandIthi
nkit
'sbesty
ou
acceptitnowI'm notgoi
ngt
oleav
ey ou"
Her
:"
Banzi
please.
..
..
please"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"i
fyouar
egoi
ngbackt
ohimI '
m notgoi
ngt
o
l
eav
ethegangweal
lmakeoursacri
fi
cesandt
his
onei
smi
ne,
Il
ovey
ouNono"
Ir
ubbedherf
oreheadwi
pinghert
ear
s
Me:"
Igott
agoschoolandst
uffI
'
llcomet
omor
rowi
f
you'
rest
il
lher
eokay"
ShenodIstoodupandj ustdidsomethi
ngIthought
I
'dneverdoIjustki
ssedher It ast
edhert
earsand
l
ucki
lysherespondedIslowlypull
edawaypull
ingon
herl
owerli
pshehadherey escl
osed
Me:
"whatshoul
dIbr
ingy
out
omor
row?"
Her
:"
agi
ftbasketnotj
ustf
rui
tst
houghmi
xit
"
Me:"
I'
ll
seewhatIcandobutmor
efr
uit
sthanj
unk
r
ight
?"
Her
:"
vicev
ersa"
Me:"
okayI
'
llsneakt
hem i
nnowIhav
etogoand
st
udy"
Shenod
Me:
"you'
l
lcomebackt
oschool
Ipr
omi
sey
ou'
l
lst
udy
f
urt
herasyouwi
shedto"
Shef
orcedasmi
l
e
Her
:"
Iknownowgoandst
udy
"
Ikissedherfor
eheadandjustwalkedoutshegot
ta
restokay butdamnherl ips I '
m comingback
formor eshe'
smygirlnomatterwhat
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nne:
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օ ♡
.
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.
ք ռ օք ☆
Iguesssl eepi
ngisallI'
l
leverdohereandIwokeup
toy etanothervi
sit
oritwasLwandlebuthewas
sleepingsoIgentlyshookhim upandhewokeup
withasmi l
eonhisface.
Hi
m:"
hey
..
..
.pi
l
lswor
eof
f?"
Me:
"yeahwhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?Lwandl
eyouar
e
mor
ehur tt
hanme"
Him:
"butI
'
m part
lyt
oblamef
ort
hissoofcour
seI
'
ll
beherei
njur
edornot"
Ishr
ugandsatupst
rai
ght
Him:"
wellI
'
m getti
ngdi
schar
gedt
omor
rowsoI
guessyou'
llf
indushome"
Me:
"ev
enLesego?
"
Henod
Me:"
umhIshoul
dgetdi
schar
ged,
whowi
l
llookaf
ter
you?
"
Him:
"don'
twor
ryIgotanannyf
orLesegosoI
'
llbe
f
ine"
Inodandwhenhet
ri
edt
otouchmeIf
li
nchedabi
t
Him:"
iwon'thurty
ouLol
oIknowy oudon'
ttr
ustme
yetbutIpr
omi set
omakeitbet
ter
"
Me:
"I
..
..
Ithi
nkIneedt
imet
hat
'sal
l
"
Hi
m:"
Iunder
standsohowaboutt
his.
..
closey
our
ey
esformeandrelax
"
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroatabi
tbuthenodsoIdi
d
Him:"
rel
axokay
..
..Justt
hinkofsomethi
nglessscar
y
ortodowit
hwhathappenedt oyouokay"
Ihummed
Hi
m:"t
akesl
owdeepbr
eat
hsl
i
kewedi
dthatt
imei
n
myroom"
Inodagai
n,
Ifel
thi
shandonmi
nehegr
abbedmy
wri
st
Hi
m:"
rel
axLol
oandr
emembersl
owdeepbr
eat
hs"
Itookt
hoseslowdeepbreat
hsashewasmov i
ng
hi
shandupIwasscar edbutItr
iedt
ocalm down,but
whenhetouchedmyneckIf r
eakedoutbuthejust
pushedmedown.
Hi
m:"
Lol
orel
axpl
ease.
..
..
Iwanty
out
olear
ntot
rust
me"
Iswal l
owedachunkofsal
i
vaIwastr
embl
ing,
hewas
rubbingmynecktomychestmyeyeswer
esti
ll
closedthough
Hi
m:"
y ourhear
tisonar
acer
elax.
..
Iwon'
thur
tyouI
pr
omise"
It
ookadeepbr
eat
h
Hi
m;"
happypl
acer
emember
?"
Inod,
her
ubbedmyneckl
etmejustsayhemoved
hi
shandall
overme,
hedi
dn'
tst
optil
lmybreat
hing
r
atewasl
oworbet
ter
.
Him:"
youusedt
omyhandnowr
ight
?Younotscar
ed
anymore?"
Inod
Him:
"okayst
ayi
nyourhappyplacebutnowIwant
yout
ot r
ustmeasaperson.
..
"
Inodandtookadeepbreathhepickedupmyhand
andstar
tedki
ssingit thi
sisthefi
rstt
imeIf
eel hi
s
l
ipsandtheymov edupbutwhenhewashoov er
ing
overmeIpanicked
Hi
m:"
Lol
orelaxIwon'
thur
tyou,
deepbr
eat
hs
r
ememberdeepbreat
hs"
Inodandheki ssedmyt emplethenmyneckI
fl
inchedbuthehummedabi tthenhecametomy
chin,mycheeks, nose,
for
eheadnow t hel
ipswer
e
l
ef tbuthej
ustr ubbedmychi nandplay
edwithmy
l
ipswi thhi
sfingersabi t
.
Hi
m:"
sti
l
laty
ourhappypl
ace?
"
Iqui
ckl
ynod
Him:
"nowaddmet
her
e..
..Comi
ngwi
thabunchof
f
lowers.
..
"
Me:
"I
'm al
l
ergi
ctopol
l
en"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
okaywhatdoy
oul
i
ke?Don'
topeny
ourey
es"
Me:"
Ili
kestuf
fedani
mal
s,chocol
ateandofcour
se
desi
gnert
hings"
Him:
"okayumhI'l
lbr
ingt
hestuf
fedwhatnotahuge
oneeven,abot
tl
eofchampagne?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"don'
tdr
ink.
..
ihav
en'
tdr
unkmywhol
eli
fe"
Him:
"tr
yitandumht hemostexpensi
vechocol
ate
andyeahadesignerbagandshoes"
Me:
"ar
eyoucomi
ngwi
thabr
okenar
m or
?"
Him:
"Loloi
t'
syourhappypl
acesoyoudoi t
..
.umh
nowlet'
ssaywearegoingforawalkandIkneel
downandtakeyouhand,Isli
pari
ngony ourfi
nger
"
Idi
dn'
twanttogr
inbutIdi
dwhenIimagi
nedt
hat
butt
henIfel
thi
mt akemyhandIsowant
edtoopen
myey
esbutIcan'
tmi
ssmyhappypl
ace
Him:"I
'
m guessingthatsmil
emeansyouact
uall
yare
i
ny ourhappyplaceandnowIgetupandrubyour
cheekstari
ngintoyoureyes"
Icoveredmyfacet
hisgr
inni
ngshi
thur
tsso
y
eahIslowlymovedthem
Hi
m:"andnow..
.Lol
orememberwe'
rest
il
laty
our
Happyplace"
Me:
"Iknow"
Hi
m:"
goodumhdon'
tfr
eakoutunder
stand?"
Inod
Ifel
thim breathi
ngont opofmel i
kehi sbreathwas
hi
tti
ngmyf acesot hatmeanshe' sstandingov erme
andhe'sbreathingthroughhi smout h,hekissedmy
nosebr i
dgeandt henhepeckedmyl i
psmyhear t
wasr aci
ngl i
kecrazyIdi dn'topenmyey esandhe
di
di tagai
nandagai n,ti
llIfel
thistongueaski ngfor
entr
ancebymyl ips If oundhim kissingmel ike
hemeanti tfuckhisl i
psar esowar m,hislipsare
i
nv i
ti
ngandt heyareent icingthatIfoundmy self
moani
ngandsodidhe.Hepulledawaypul l
ingmy
l
owerli
pwit
hhim andj
ustpeckedt hem.Istil
lhad
myeyescl
osedIguessI
'm st
il
l st
uckinthathappy
pl
ace.
Hi
m:"
youcanopeny
ourey
esnowhappypl
acei
s
ov
er"
Hechuckl
edbutIst
il
lcoul
dn'
topenmyey
es
Him:
"Lol
ocomeonj
ustl
ookatme.
..
.Shoul
dIki
ss
youagai
n?"
Ifoundmysel
fnoddingandhedidn'
twastet
imehe
obli
gedandkissedmedamnt hebutt
erf
li
esIwas
getti
ngwereonster
oids.
.
Banzi
IwantedtoseeNonoagai nbutwhenIgott oher
room hewaski ssi
ngherandsheseemedt obe
kissi
nghim back,herhandswer ewrappedaround
hisneckandagi gglehereandthere Ijust
turnedar
oundIdon' twanttodistur
bthem soIwent
backhomeandt ookashowert henwenttomyr oom
Ifoundherbagont hefloor It ookhershirtand
j
ustt ookasni f
fofi t,
itsmeltl
ikeherherscentwas
ever ywhere.Ilaidthereholdi
ngont otheshir
tfuckI
coul dn'tsl
eepsoIwentt omygal l
eryandwent
throughmypi ct ur
eswi thNono shebel ongswi th
me, shebel ongswi thmeandnothi m notthatguy
butme.Whydi dhesur viv
ethoughwhydi dn'tthey
kil
lhi m Ical ledNonoandshepi ckedup.
Her
:"
Banzi
?"
Me:
"heybabe.
..
youumhy
ouokay
?"
Her
:"
mmhI
'
m okay
..
..
you?Yousoundabi
tdown"
Me:"I
'
mfi
nejustmi
ssy
ouandy
ourl
i
ps.
..
.Iwanna
vi
sitt
omor
row"
Her:
"aboutt
hatI'
m get
ti
ngdischar
gedtomor
rowso
I
'l
lbeabletodri
veLwandleandLesegohome"
Me:
"Iseebuty
ouar
enotheal
ed"
Her:"
,I
'
m notsi
cksot heysai
dIcangowitht hem..
..
I
'l
lrestandeatheal
thyumhI'l
lcomeorI'
llsendthe
guardtocomeandgetmycl othesokayIpromise"
Me:
"okay
"
Ihungupandjustthr
ewt hephoneacr
osst
he
wall I'
m goi
ngt oki
llhi
m IsweartoGodI
'
m goi
ng
tokil
lhi
m
.
Penel
ope
WellIwashopi ngt ogetdi schargedtodaywi th
LwandleandLesegobutnowI '
m notcauseI 'm sti
ll
dehydrat
ed howmanydr ipsshouldIf inishi n
ordertobehy dratedI'
m notaDoct orbutIhat ebeing
hospit
ali
zedespeci all
yov ermi northi
ngsl ike
dehydrat
ionandf atiguebutwhatcanIsayIj ust
havetosucki tup.Wel lLwandl edidkeephi s
promisecausehewal kedi nwi thLesegoal l dressed
upinmat chingtracksuit
s t ouchéjustbecause
theyarefatherandsont heyhav etomat chbutwho
am ItoargueIjustsatupst raightandr eceived
Lesegoinmyar msandhewassl eeping.
Me:
"l
ookaty
ouguy
s..
..For
cingt
obet
wins"
Him:
"whatdoyoumean?Wel ookal
i
keImeanl
ook
atal
lthi
shandsomeness,
thenl
ookatme"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"t
hatbear
dismaki
ngy
ouugl
yact
ual
l
ymor
eugl
y
t
hanbef
ore"
Hi
m:"soy
oumeanhedoesn'
tl
ookl
i
keme?He'
s
muchcut
er?
"
Inodst
ari
ngatLesego
Me:"he'
l
lbeaheart
breakerI
'mtel
l
ingyou.
..Soon
gir
lswil
lbeknocki
ngandclai
mingtobecarryi
nghi
s
chil
d"
Hi
m:"
wegott hatSokhul
ucharm soIwon'
tbl
ame
t
hem.
...
can'
tbeli
evewear el
eavi
ngyouhere"
Me:"
Iknowrightwhenactual
l
yyoushoul
dbet
he
onewhoIleavebehind"
Hi
m:"
IguessI
'
m okayexceptf
ort
hehand.
..
."
Me:"
yeahsowhosecomi ngtof
etchy
ou?Causey
ou
ar
ecertai
nlynotdr
ivi
ngwit
honearm"
Him:
"say
swho?Butmyuncl
eiswai
ti
ngout
sideso
youcanrel
ax"
Me:
"I
'm notwor
ri
edabouty
ou.
..
.I
'
m wor
ri
edabout
thi
shandsomel
i
ttl
eguyher
eandofcour
sehe
charmedmesohetookmyhear
t"
Him:
"Isee,
l
ucki
l
yIst
il
lhav
eanAceupmysl
eev
eof
char
msandLolo"
Me:
"yes?
"
Hi
m:"I
'
m deeplysorr
yaboutwhatIdidt
oy ouandf
or
l
yi
ngtoyouIjustHopewecanst ar
toverandget
al
ongmaybest ar
tasfr
iends.
..
."
Me:"
Icandothatbuty
ou'
ll
havetowarnmewhen
Br
uceisangr
yorisaboutt
otakeover
"
Henod
Me:
"cool
youcangonowIsawy
ou.
..
."
Hi
m:"ohwowthathur
tsbutt
henagai
nwedohav
eto
gobefor
emyunclecomestofet
chus"
IkissedLesego'
spoutyli
pshefl
inchedabitsoIj
ust
placedhiminhiscarseatandl
ethim be.
If
oundhi
sfat
herst
ari
ngatmeal
lsmi
l
ey
Me:
"youokay
?"
Hi
m:"
yeahwhyy
ouaski
ng?
"
Me:
"t
hatsi
l
lygr
inony
ourf
acewhat
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Hi
m:"
not
hing.
..CanIasky
ousomet
hing?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
doy
ouwantki
ds?Imeany
ourownki
ds"
Me:
"wel
lyeahIl
oveki
dssoI
'
dli
kemyown"
Hi
m:"
howmany
?"
Me:
"sev
ent
een"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"t
hat
'sal
otheyhowdoy
oupl
anonachi
evi
ng
t
hat"
Me:"
twoeachyearandIal
way
swant
edt
hem t
o
hav
ediff
erentf
ather
s"

Hi
m:"
wowt hat
'
shuge.
..
..
Iguessy
ou'
l
lhav
emi
ne
f
ir
str
ight
?"
Me:"
wrongyou'
llhav
etobeast
epdadt
oal
loft
hem
nowgoplease"
Heki
ssedmyf
oreheadandt
ookhi
sson
Hi
m:"
we'
l
lcomeandv
isi
tokay
"
Inod
Me:
"andt
hanky
ouf
ort
his"
Il
i
ftedmyl
efthandupsi
ncei
thadar
ingon
Hi
m:"
youwelcomenowIguessy
ouar
eof
fi
ci
all
ymy
wi
fer
ight
?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"Iwantmywhi
teweddi
ngandal
lthewor
ks"
Hi
m:"assoonasy
ougetoutofher
eyoucanst
art
pl
anningi
t"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
,
Him:
"yeahnewsl
ater
emembersoI
'
llt
ryt
omeety
ou
hal
fway "
Me:
"wel
lasIsai
dIcanl
i
vewi
tht
hat
"
Henodandj ustwal
kedouthe'sseemedseri
ous
whenhesai dIcanhav emydream whit
ewedding
everygirl
hasherowndr eam weddi
ngandIain't
di
fferentIdohavethetypeofweddingIwantinmy
headandIhopehe' l
lletmehaveitandnotchange
hi
smi
nddownt
hel
i
ne.
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.
Iwokeupt osomeoner ubbingmyf oreheadli
kehe
wasmassagi ngit
,Isl
owlyopenedmyey esandsaw
redeyedBanzistari
ngatmebusyki ssi
ngmyhand
thel
eftone.Isatupstrai
ghtandt r
iedtopullmy
handawaybuthet i
ghtl
ygrippedoni t helooked
l
ikehehasn'tsl
eptinday s.
Me:
"Banzi
.
...
arey
ouokay
?"
Hecont
inuedt
orubmyf
orehead
Me:
"Banzi
arey
ouokay
?"
Isawtear
sst
reami
ngdownhi
scheeksbuthedi
dn'
t
evenl
ookatmeLor
dnotanot
herone.
Me:
"Banzi
you'
rehur
ti
ngme"
It
ri
edtopul
lmyhandawaybuthewashol
dingon
soti
ght
ly
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lbr
eaky
ourar
m Nono"
Hesaidthatnotinhi
scut ebabyv oicebuthe
soundedjustl
ikeLwandle'sBruce,hesoundedcol
dI
gotscar
edi mmediatel
yItriedtopressthe
emergencybuttonbutIdidn'tf
indit.
Hi
m:"
youwer
eki
ssi
nghi
m..
..
youwer
eki
ssi
nghi
m"
Heshout
ed
Hi
m:"
youhady
ourt
onguedownhi
sthr
oat
..
."
Imovedbackalit
tl
ebuthecaughtmebyt heneckI
waslit
eral
l
ychocki
ngbuthequickl
yletgothe
damagewasdonecauseIwasbusycoughi ng
rubbi
ngmyneck.
Hest oodupandstar
tedpacingupanddownt he
room hehadvei
nspoppingoutofhi sfaceIwas
scaredokayIwassearchi
ngf ortheemergency
butt
onandwhenIf ounditIpresseditl
ikemywhole
l
ifedependedonit
.
Hi
m:"
yout
ri
ckedme.
..
.y
ouf
ucki
ngt
ri
ckedme"
Heshout
edIj
umpedupal
i
ttl
efuckIwascr
yingbut
si
l
entl
y.
Hecamechargi
ngtowardsmebutt
henurseswher
e
att
hedoorIt
houghtIwassav
edbutthedoorwas
l
ocked.
Hi
m:"t
heywon'
tdi
stur
bus.
..
Iwantyout
oexpl
ainI
wantyout
otel
lmewhyyoubrokemyhear
t"
IjustremainedcryingIdon'
thavewordstosayto
himI '
ml ostforwordsIwasscaredcausehewas
throwingthingsaroundbusyshouti
ngatmeIwas
scramblingtof i
ndmyphoneandt hemomentIdi dI
hiditundertheblanketandslowl
ydial
edLwandle'
s
numberIknowhe' sonehandedbutaftert
hisIwant
togohome, Iwaswai t
ingforhi
mtoanswerand
whenhedi d.
Me:
"Banzi
.
..Banzi
stopi
t"
Hi
m:"
shutt
hef
uckup.
..
shutup"
Heconti
nuedtoshoutatmeallIknowi
sthat
Lwandl
eheardthatI
'
mi nshi
t.Thedoct
orsfi
nal
l
y
managedtobreakt
hedoorandonl
ydidIbreat
hoh
heav
enlyf
atheram It
hatcur
sedwi
thpsychos .

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IansweredLolo'scallthi
nkingt hatmay beshewas
checkinguponusbutIhear dshoutinginher
room,shewascr y i
ngIcouldheari tinherv oicesoI
call
edmyguar dt odr i
vemet her esi
nceLesego' s
nannywast heresoIwasbusyr ushingtheguar dto
hurryuporelser emembermybodywasst il
linpai
n
andIwasl impingy eahIdidn'tbreakmyl egbutitgot
i
njuredjustami norsprai
nwhenwear r
ivedIgotout
ofthecarandhur r
iedinIknowherr oom sowhenI
gotthereIfoundsomedoct orsbusyt ryingtocalm
herdown.
Me:
"Lol
o?Ar
eyouokay
?"
Iwalkedtowar
dsherandheldherhandshewas
tr
embl i
ngagai
nbutwouldn'
tlett
hedoct
orsi
nject
herwithasedat
ive.
Me:
"whathappened?
"
Lolo:
"Iwanttogohome. .
..
Iwantt
ogohomet
oday
I'
m notsicksotel
lthem t
oletmego"
Dr
:"mam wehav
etokeepy
ouher
eti
l
lyouar
e
hy
drated"
Lol
o:"
fuckt
hisI
'
m goi
nghome.
..
..
"
Shet
ookof
fthedr
ips
Me:
"cansomeonet
ell
mewhat
'shappeni
ng?Who
washere?
"
Lol
o:"Ij
ustwanttogohomepl
ease,
I'
ll
dri
nkal
i
treof
watereveryhour
"
Shegotof
fthebed
Lol
o:"
I'
m of
fi
cial
l
ydi
schar
gingmy
sel
f"
Me:
"Lol
oyouhav
etowai
tfort
hedoct
orst
ogi
vey
ou
t
hegoahead"
Lol
o:"
whatishecomesback?Iwantt
ogohome
Lwandleandthat
'swher
eI'
l
lgo"
Shewasbusyundr
essi
ng
Me:
"umhwoul
dyougetoutpl
ease,
she'
sundr
essi
ng
asy
oucansee"
Theycl
ear
edthei
rthr
oatsandwalkedoutt
hissi
de
Lol
owasdressi
nguplikeherl
i
fedependedonitsoI
j
ustwentt
oherandheldherhand.
Me:"t
ell
mewhathappened?Whowasher
e?Whoi
s
Banziorwhat
every
ousaid"
Her
:"canIj
ustgohomeLwandl
e?I'
m notsi
cknor
am Idyi
ngmyhearti
sfi
neandI'
dli
ketokeepi
tthat
way"
Me:
"butwhowashe?
"
Her:
"Lubanzi
..
..
.he'
sangr
ythathefoundmeki
ssi
ng
youandaf t
erIwasstayi
ngwithhi
m whenIr
an
away"
Me:
"so?Whatdoesithav
etodowi
thhi
m?I
'
m goi
ng
t
oteachhi
m alesson"
Her:
"nonoleav
eit
..
.pl
easeI
'
m par
tl
ytobl
ameso
pl
ease,j
ustt
akemehome"
Me:
"ar
eyousur
e?"
Shenodandj
ustputonhershi
rt
.
Her
:"
wher
eisLesego?Whodi
dyoul
eav
ehi
m wi
th?
"
Me:
"hi
snannyr
elax
...
.comel
et'
sgo"
Her:
"whydi
dn'ty
oubr
ingmecleancl
othes?LookI
'
m
weari
ngthesamecl
othesIwaswear
ingwhenIgot
her
e"
Me:"
I'
m notasangomasoIdidn'
tknowyou'd
di
schargeyour
sel
fwhi
chisthecrazi
estt
hingev
er"
Her
:"
I'
m sur
eyou'
dhav
eguessedt
hatI
'
m comi
ng"
Me:"
Ijusthear
dy ouscreami
nganame.
..
nothey
babebri
ngmycl othes"
Her:
"whoisbabe?AndhowcanIgi
vey ou
i
nstr
ucti
onswhenIhaveapersont
hreateningtoki
l
l
meinmyr oom?Don'tt
ouchmeorI'
llbreakyour
ot
herhand"
It
ookadeepbr
eat
h
Me:"
whydoy ouwantt
obr
eakmyot
herar
m?DoI
bor
ey out
hatmuch?"
Shelookedatmeandj ustwal
kedawayshaki
ngher
asslikecr
azy,Imeanshegotassf orday
s I
walkedoutfoll
owingherandIfoundherarms
crossedattherecept
ion.
Her
:"
cany
ouhur
ry?
"
Me:"
I'
m hurtandy ou'r
enotsolet
'snotcompar
e
eachotherhere.
..
.BlackJeepout
side"
Her:
"what?HowmanyJeepsar
eher
e?Lwandl
eI'
m
sur
ey oucanrunabi
t"
Me:
"andwhywoul
dIdot
hat
?Whyt
her
ush?
"
Shestar
eddeepi
ntomyey
esandmumer
ed"
I'
m
scar
ed"
Me:"
okaylet
'sgo.
..
buty
ouknowdi
schar
ging
your
sel
fisri
sky"
Her:
"whati
fhecameback?Idon'tknowthatguy
whowasi nther
eandIdon'
twannaknowhi m.He
wasscaryjustl
i
keBrucesopl
easeIjustwanttogo
home"
Me:
"okaythenlet
'sgetyouhome.
..
..
Iev
enhady
our
r
oom cleanedand..
..
."
Her
:"
Nono.
..
.pl
easenott
hatr
oom"
Me:
"okayy
ou'
l
luset
heot
her
"
Her
:"
noguestr
oomspl
ease.
..
.l
etmesl
eepwi
thy
ouI
pr
omi
set
ost
ayonmysi
deand.
..
."
Me:"
woahi
t'
sfi
ne,
it
'sfi
neyoucansl
eepwi
thmeand
youcanwr
apyourarmsar
oundme"
Her
:"
pil
l
owsbet
weenus"
Shebuckl edupandj ustl
ookedout si
dethewindow,
nowshe' sshutt
ingup soIbuckl edupandt he
driverdroveushomewher eal l
theattent
ionwas
giventoLesegoImeanhecan' tspeakbutnohe's
guynumberone any waytheyhadf unandwehad
dinnerthanbedt i
me.Wel l
Lolowor eherPJsand
camet obedthr
owi ngthepil
lowatme
Me:
"andnow?
"
Her
:"
you'
rest
ari
ngandIdon'
tl
iket
hat
..
..
"
Me:
"myroom myr
ulesi
ncasey
ouf
orgot
..
..Nowget
i
nIhav
easuggesti
on"
Shecl
imbedupt hebedandgoti
nthebl
anket
s,I
wonderwhyBruceorlet
'
ssaymeev ent
houghtof
hur
ti
ngherli
kethis.
Me:
"soIwast
hinki
ng.
..
."
Her
:"
about
?"
Me:"sinceI'
m goi
ngtoseepsychol
ogi
stIwas
t
hinkingy oudothesamewithwhatIdi
dtoyou"
Her
:"
umh.
..
I'
m..
.I
'
mfi
neIdon'
tneedt
oseeashr
ink"
Me:"pleaseLoloImeany ou'
llbemor
ecomf or
tabl
e
aroundme. ..
I'
l
lbeabletotouchyouwit
houtyou
screami ngorclosi
ngyoureyeshopi
ngforbet
ter
result
s"
Her
:"
andIdon'
tdot
hat
,It
oldy
ouIj
ustneededt
ime.
I
'mfi
nenowIpromi
se"
Me:"
justthi
nkabouti
tokay
?I'
l
lsetupt
hemeet
ingi
f
youagree"
Shenodandj
ustki
ssedmycheek
Her
:"
goodni
ght
"
Inodandr eceiv
edherback Iswi t
chedoffmybed
l
ightandwentt osleepjusthopesheagr
eest ot
his
orelseshe'l
lbescaredherwholeli
feandIdon't
mindpay i
ngcauseI '
mt heonewhodi dt
histoher
butIwon'tforceher.Goodnight
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11/
2,21:
08]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
♡ քsօ 016♡
.
ʟ
աaռ ☆
.
IwokeuptoLoloscr eamingl
i
kecrazyandshewas
sl
eepingsoshe'sdreaming andshesay sshe's
fi
nebutheresheiswear enotsl
eepingcauseofher
.
Ishookherabittr
yingtowakeherupwel l
whenshe
wokeupshej umpedupsweat i
ngli
keshewasbusy
withsomethi
ngbig.
Shewasbreat
hingheav
il
yIr
ubbedherbackj
ustt
o
l
ethercal
m downabit.
Me:
"youokay
?"
Shenodasi
fshe'
l
lsayno
Me:
"st
il
lsay
ingnot
oseet
heshr
ink?"
Her:
"I
'm notcr
azyokay.
..
.Idon'
tsomeonetobe
aski
ngmehowIf eel
aboutthesubbeingoutordoI
pr
eferwear
ingaJer
seyorsockswheni
t'
scol
d"
Me:"
andIdon'
tthi
nkthat
'swhatt
heyasky
ou,
Lolo
youwerebusyscr
eamingformetost
opandIknow
I
'mtoblamesoletmehelpyou"
Her
:"
hel
pyour
sel
fLwandl
eI'
mfi
ne.
..
."
Me:
"youar
enotf
ineImeany
ou.
."
[
Babycr
ies]
Her
:"
I'
ll
checkonLesegodon'
twai
tup"
Me:"
west i
llhavesomet
hingcal
ledmor
ningy
ou
know..
..AndI'
ll
alwaysf
orceyou"
Ishout edthelastpartcauseshej ustbangedt he
doorwal kingoutwel lshewi ll
goforcounsell
ingor
elseshe'llhar
m herselforev ensomeoneel seandI
can'tleavewiththat.Iwai t
edandwai tedbutshe
didn'tcomebacksoscr ewt hi
sI'
m goingtofetchher
from Lesego'sroom Iwasaboutt owal kinbutI
heardhersi ngi
ngandLesegogi ggl
ing Ist oodby
thedoorandhear dhersi ngingSil
entnightIt
hink
thisissomewhatofaChr istmasjam sinceJesus
wasbor nthatdaybuther eshei ssingi
ngisso
perf
ectlyevenmaki ngmysongiggl
e.Lolohasa
beauti
fulvoicej
ustbeauti
ful
Ievenfoundmy sel
f
smil
ingatt hem causet
heyseemedt obehavingfun
for
getti
ngt hati
t'
swaypastthei
rbedtime.
Me:
"Lol
o..
."
Shel
ookedupatmeandwentbackt
oLesego
Her
:"
I'
m st
il
lnotgoi
ngt
oashr
ink.
..
."
Me:"
okaycool
butcanweputt
heli
ttl
eguyt
osl
eep
pl
easeandyoual
soneedt
osleep"
Her
:"
fi
nebutIt
oldy
out
osl
eepwi
thoutme"
Me:"
Ihatei
twhensomeonecomestowei
ghdown
onthebedwhenI'
m sl
eepi
ngIf
eell
i
keI'
mfal
li
ng
i
ntothi
shole"
Her
:"
cany
ougetanywei
rdert
hant
his?
"
SheputLesegoinhiscotandkissedhi
sforeheadI
thi
nkmysonwi l
lfi
nal
lyhav
ethatmotherfi
gureI
alway
swant edforhimtohave,
shewalkedt owar
ds
mewi t
houtatinysmileonherf
ace
Her
:"
youar
est
ari
ng.
..
.pl
easebl
i
nk"
Me:
"li
stenIhav
ear i
ghttostareatmywi
fe,
nowl
et'
s
goandsleepImisshuggingyou"
Her
:"
wit
hwhat y
ouar
ereal
l
yamagi
ci
an"
Shej
ustwi
ggl
edherass
Me:"
LordknowsI'
m gonnaheal
andI
'
llgety
ou
pr
egnant,
you'
l
lbesorr
y"
Imumbledwhi
l
efol
l
owi
ngherandwentt
obedIgot
i
ntobed.
Her:
"andIhear
dwhaty
ousai
dandj
ustknowi
t'
snot
happeni
ng"
Sheshov
edpi
l
lowsi
nbet
weenus Ij
ustmov
ed
them.
Me:
"I
'mf
atIneedmyspace"
Her
:" goodni
ghtLwandl
e..
."
Me:"
don'
tyouwannacuddl
e?Youwon'
thav
e
ni
ghtmar
es"
Her:
"mxm shutupandsl
eepbef
oreIsuf
focat
eyou
wit
hthosepil
lows"
Shel
ookedt
heot
herwayandj
ustswi
tchedof
fher
l
ightIsowant edtopissheroffbutifshesaid
somet hingthat'
llpi
ssmeof fI
'm afrai
dBrucemight
takeov ersoy eahIswit
chedof fmineandwentto
sleepIguesswear ereal
lytr
yingtowor kthi
ngs
throughsoi fwegot oashrinkt hi
ngswill
lookup
betterthannow.
.
ք ռ օք ♡
Iwokeupt
oaringi
ngphone ImeanIj
ustsl
ept
nownowandnowIhavetowakeup.
"
Answery
ourphonewoman"
Ir
oll
edmyey
esandr
eachedf
ormyphone.
Me:
"hel
l
o"
"
Nonoi
t'
sBanzi
.
...
NonoI
'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"Banz.
..
umhwher
ear
eyou?Ar
eyouokay
?"
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
ryokayj
ustwant
edt
olety
ouknow.
..
"
Me:"okayIheary
ouandIf
orgi
vey
ounowwher
ear
e
you?"
Hi
m:"
byeNono"
Hehungupleavi
ngmedumbf ounded whataway
t
ostartmymorning,
IlookedatLwandl
ewhohad
t
hisscar
ylookonhisface.
Me:
"I
'mf
ineokay
"
Hi
m:"
whatdi
dhewant
?"
Me:
"t
oapol
ogi
est
hat
'
sal
l
,andhesai
dgoodby
e"
Hi
m:"
hebett
erst
ayawayi
fheknowswhat
'sgood
f
orhi
m,nowcanwegoandgetr
eadyf
orbreakf
ast
"
Me:"y
ou'
l
lst
ayawayfr
om Banzir
ight
?Herecent
ly
j
oinedhi
suncl
e'
sgangandLordknowsIdon'
t
wannabedodgi
ngbul
let
s"
Hi
m:"LoloImaybeonehandedbutai
n'tnoboy
whosegoingtocomei
ntomyt er
ri
tor
yandgetaway
wi
thit.
..
..
"
Me:
"woahwhatdoy
oumean?
"
Him:"
let
'sjustsayI
'mfarworset
hanBr
ucewhenI
'
m
pushed.
...
nowy oucoming?
"
Me:"
GodhaveMercyonmysouldamnIaskedy
ou
ni
cel
ypl
easestayawayf
rom Banzi
please"
Hi
m: "
Ifhest
aysawayfrom y
ou.Nowcanwegoand
f
reshenup?I'
m st
arv
ing"

Me:"
starvi
ng,
starvi
ngjustdon'
tcauseunnecessar
y
f
ight
sf ort
hegr eat
ergoodofusy ourf
amily"
Hechuckl
edpul
l
ingmyhai
r
Him:"nowy ouwanttobemyf amil
y.
..Let
'sst
artwi
th
breakfastt
henwecanpr act
isebabymakingthenwe
cantalkaboutfamil
y"
Me:
"andmyhai
r?"
Him:"
youneedanewhai
rst
ylet
hisoneseemsl
i
ke
Bush"

Hel etgoofmyhai randt henwewentt ofr

eshenup
ashesai dbutmyhai rsty
leseemsl ikeBushnicebut
that'
swher ehegotmef r
om any wayIwentt o
fetchLesegot henwewentdownst air
stomake
breakfastImadesomeCer eal
forLesegothanhis
fatherwasbusyf eedinghim whil
eImadeus
breakfastaft
erIservedhim andmy selfputt
ing
everyt
hingIusedi
nthedishwasher.Wehad
breakf
astwithnowordsbeingutt
eredjustLesego
makingnoise he'stal
kingalonebuthedoesn'tget
bored.
Af
terbreakf
astItookt
hedishesandputt
hem i
nt he
di
shwashertoothenst
art
edwashingthem,wel
lthe
machinedid ‍♀
Me:
"nowy
oucansayt
hanky
ouLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
pickupLesegot
henI
'
llt
hanky
ou"
Irol
ledmyeyesanddi
dast
oldbutIputhi
m down
he'l
lcr
awlIknow.
Hi
m:"
li
stenI'
m goi
ngtotakeashowert
hanI
'
m goi
ng
t
oseeaf r
iendofmine"
Me:
"andwhoi
sthatf
ri
end?
"
Hi
m:" andwhomadey
oumynewmom"

Me:
"mxm"
It
ookLesegoandwenttot
heli
vi
ngroom t
obe
l
azingar
oundwatchi
ngTVhe'
sLimpi
ngbuthe'
s
acti
ngl
iket
heboss.Hestoodnearmer
ubbi
ngmy
headIj
ustpushedhi
shandaway.
Hi
m:"
cany
oui
ronmycl
othesf
ormepl
ease"

Me:
"whosai
dI'
myourmot
her
?"
Hi
m:"
Lol
o..
.If
ucki
ngsai
dpl
ease"

Me:"
mxm,notsolongagoitwaswhopromotedyou
tobemymot hernowit'
sir
onmyclot
hes.
..
..
even
CapeTownisbettert
hanyouSokhul
u"
Hi
m:"
wil
lyoudoi
torshoul
dIwearcr
easedcl
othes?
"
Me:
"wat
chLesego"
Hesmi l
edthatidi
oti
csmi leofhisIr
olledmyey es
andjustwenttopicksomecl othesforhimthen
i
ronedthem forhim Ichosecasualmixedwith
for
mal Idon'
tknowwher ehe'
sgoingsot hi
swill
havetodo.Hecamet otakehisshowerandhel i
ked
theclot
hesIpicked hej ustt
hrewagol dcardat
mewel lnoli
ter
all
ythrewi tsoyeah.
Hi
m:"
remov
etheBushhai
rst
ylel
ove"
Me:
"j
ustgi
vemet
hepi
n"
Hi
m:"
Lesego'
sbi
rt
hyear
"
Me:
"yayshoppi
ng.
..
..Lor
dknowsIdeser
vet
hisand
may
beIcangetaf ewmodelli
nggi
gs"
Hi
m:"
giv
ememycar
dbackr
ightnow"
Me:
"I
'mj
oki
ngj
eezgomeety
ourf
ri
end"
Ihel
pedhi
m putonhi
sjacketont
heot
herhand,
he
ki
ssedmycheek.
Him:"
besaf
eont her
oadandcal
lmewheny
ouf
eel
unsaf
eunderst
and?"
Inodandwal kedoutwi t
hhimthenwentt ot ake
Lesegot hangav ehim abat hbusywhi st
lingI '
m so
goingt ospendhi smoneyIdeser veitafterwhathe
didtome .It ookashowert ooIwor emy
embr oiderymeshkni ttopwithablackCar diganand
adistresseddenimj eanwi t
hsomeopent oecl ear
anklest r
apmet all
icrhinest
oneheel.Ididmymake
upandf i
xedupmyhai rwhi
chlookslikeBushandI
wasdone, tookmysl ingbagthenwentt of etch
Lesegoandhi
sst
rol
l
er.
.
ʟ
աaռ ☆
Iwantedtoknowwhoset heidiotwhoorder
edthe
hi
tonmeIknowsomeonedi dIknowhowt odrive
andIwasatt heredli
ghtsothat'
srubbi
shIgotto
Vil
akazi
'
scompanyandwentt ohisoffi
ceIknocked
andwalkedinfindi
nghim busyonhisphone.
Isatdownpour
ingmyselfsomewhi
skyhehungup
andgavemehisatt
enti
on
Hi
m:"
Sokhul
u?"
Me:"
Vilakazi
.
...
oldmanIwantt
oknowwhot
hehel
l
at
tackedme"
Hi
m:"
andwhosaidyouwer
eat
tacked?I
'
m sur
eit
wasj
ustasi
l
lyacci
dent
"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"Isee.
..
youdi
ditdi
dn'
tyou?Fami
l
ycomesf
ir
st"
Hi
m:"
comeony
ouar
epar
toft
hef
ami
l
y"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
soyournephewisthenewmemberi
nthecr
ew?
Andhesaidyoushoul
dt akemeout
"
Hi
m:"
what
'ssof
unny
?"
Me:"ohnothi
ngreal
l
yI'mjustt
hinki
ngoft hi
sbet
rayal
Vi
lakazisuchbet
rayal
oldman...
.al
lbecauseofyou
i
nexperi
encednephewmmh"
Hi
m;"Sokhul
uthi
swast heonl
ywayhecouldjoi
nusI
meanyouarenotinj
uredri
ghtyouar
est
il
lali
ve"
Inodbusypl
ayi
ngwi
tht
hegl
ass
Me:
"I'
m al
i
v e.
..
I'
m al
iveyeah.Seer
ightnowIhav
ea
massageforyournephew"
Hi
m:"
yes?
"
Me:"t
ellhimt hatLwandleisafterhim Afortryingto
kil
lmeandBf orharassi
ngmywi featthehospi t
al
andyeahdon' tmakemey ourGuineapigVilakazi
youknowwhatIcandot oyou,arewecl ear?You
andyourst upidnephewbet terstayawayf r
om me
andmyf amil
yorI '
ll
chophi m upwi t
hyouwat chi
ng
thenI'
l
lcomeaf teryou"
Hi
m:"
noneedf
ort
hreat
sSokhul
u"
Me:"
ohnoi t
'snothreati
t'
sapromi
se.
..Hav
eani
ce
andproduct
iveday.I'
m heal
i
ng"
YeahIst
oodupandf
ini
shedt
hewhi
sky
Me:
"Taa"
Iwal
kedoutandwenttomycarI'
m goi
nghometo
sl
eepI'
m sur
etheyar
esti
ll
shoppi
ngIcanhavemy
pi
eceandgetdrunkl
i
keIwanttothensl
eep.
[
11/
2,21:
08]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 017♡
.
3ʍօռt
ɦsʟ
atɛʀ☆
.
ք ռ օք ♡
TodayIwast aki
ngMrSokhulutogor emovethe
castwhichheshouldhaveremovedlastmonthbut
hewassobusywi t
hcasesandgoingt oseehis
psychiat
ri
stsohetotal
l
ybrushedthatoffsotodayi
s
D-day.Wellhe'
sbeengoodnomoodswi ngsand
funnythi
ngIoncehadaconv ersati
onwithBruce I
wasscar edbutnothi
ngphy sicalhappenedI'
m
getti
ngahangoft hismult
ipleper sonal
ityt
hingso
yeahwhenBr ucei
sonIdon' tanswerl i
keI'
mf al
l
ing
offatreeIjusthavetol
ist
enanddoi ti
fIcanthenI'
l
l
survi
ve.ItookLesegoandpl acedhi minhiscarseat
Lwandlegoti ntot
hedri
ver'
ssi de.
Me:
"getout
"
Hi
m:"
justl
etmedr
iveust
othehospi
tal
"
Me:"y
oualr
eadyhav
eacarthat
'sat
otal
wri
teof
fso
getoutofmycarpl
ease"
Hi
m:"
fi
neI
'
llt
akeat
axi
"
Me:"
goodpl
usI'
mti
redIj
ustwantt
osl
eep.
..
.I
'
llcal
l
anuberf
oryou"
Hi
m:"
stopbei
ngev
ilcomedr
ive.
..
..
"
Hemumbl edwhatev erandmov edtothe
passenger'ssideIgoti nt
omysi deanddroveusto
thehospital,
list
ent hecastLesego'
sini
ti
alscause
whent heyaret ogetherLwandlewouldgiv
ehima
markerthani tbeginsthewriti
ngwhichlat
erIget
blamedf or butIdon' thaveapr obl
em wit
hit
causewear ebonding .Whenwegott othe
hospit
alwedi dn'twai
tlongtheDoctorat
tendedhim
andthecastwasr emovedexposingthi
swhi t
ehand
l
isteni
tcr ackedmeupl ikecrazyIwastr
yingsohard
nottolaught i
ll
hesaid.
Lwandl
e:"
fuckIl
ookwhi
tel
i
key
oudoct
or"

Il
ostcont
rol
andbur
stIwasev
encr
ying
Lwandle:
"whyar
eyoul
aughi
ng?Il
ookl
i
ket
he
rai
nbow"
Me:
"sor
ryumh.
..
..
just
..
. canwegohomepl
ease"
Lwandl
e:"
I'
m dr
ivi
ng"
Me:
"noy
ouar
enot
..
."
Lwandl
e:"
sodoct
oram Iokayl
i
ket
otal
l
yokay
?"
Dr:
"yesyourwoundsar
ehealedandyourar
mis
per
fectl
yhealedj
ustnoheav
yobject
sfornow"
Me:
"l
ikedr
ivi
ngmycar
..
."
Igr
innedpi
cki
ngupLesego
"
CanwegonowI
'
m ser
iousl
yti
red"
Dr
:"
yeahwer
edonesoi
t'
sfi
ne"
Il
ookedatLwandl
e
Me:
"youst
ayi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
letmedr
ive"
Me:
"nahy
oucanst
aycomeLesego"
IwalkedoutwiththebabyIdon'tcar
ehecanst ay
butIain'
tl
ett
inghim dr
ivemycarwel latthe
passageIsawBanzi st
andingatthedoorl i
kehewas
star
ingatmehej ustst
oodt her
e,Ial
sojuststood
ther
e.
"
Lol
o..
..
Lol
o!!
"
Ij
umpedabi
tandf
oundLwandl
est
ari
ngatme
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"
I'
vebeencal
l
ingy
ouwhat
'swr
ong?"
Me:
"I
..
..
umh.
..
.di
dn'
tyousee.
..
."
Hi
m:"
seewhat
?Ar
eyouokay
?"
Il
ookedatt
hedoorandhewasn'
tther
e
Me:
"he.
..
..
hewasj
ustt
her
eamomentago"
Hi
m:"
who?Ar
eyousur
eyou'
reokay
?"
Me:
"yeahumhI
'
mfi
nel
et'
sgo"
Her
ubbedmycheek
Hi
m:"
I'
m her
eyouknow?I
'
llpr
otecty
ouguy
sI
pr
omise"
Inodandf
orcedasmi
l
e
Me:"
I'
mfinel
et'
sgoLesegowant
stosl
eepasy
ou
cansee"
Hi
m:"yeahplusyouguy
sdi
dn'
tsl
eeplastni
ght
,why
doyoulikewaki
ngupatmi
dni
ghtandplayi
ng"
Me:"
hehadafev
erLwandl
eIt
oldy
out
hathe'
s
heat
ingup"
Hi
m:"
okayt
hen.
..
..
"
Wewal kedtoourcarandthenIdr
oveushome
wherethefi
rstt
hingIdidwasputLesegotobedI
hopehesleepscauseLordknowsIneeditafter
stay
inguphalftheni
ghtlooki
ngaft
erhim causehe
coul
dn'tsl
eepandstuff
.
Iwenttotakeofft
heheel
sandwor emysli
ppers
goingdownstai
rst
omakemy sel
fsomehot
chocol
ateandmay bepr
eparesomethi
ngfor
Lwandlewhowasbusyst r
ipi
ngdowninthel
ivi
ng
room .
Me:
"andt
hen?What
'
shappeni
ng?"
Hi
m:"ohumhIdidn'twantt
odist
urby
outhat
'sallso
It
houghti
fIchangedinherei
t'
dbemuchbetter
"
Me:
"Isee,
youhungr
y?"
Heshookhisheadfoll
owingmet othekitchen but
he'
snothungryIj
ustmademycupofhotchocol at
e
wellsomesli
mytwocoloredhandsdisturbedmeby
wormingthei
rwayaroundmywai stseeI'm st
il
lnot
usedtothi
ssoItookadeepbr eat
ht r
yingtorel
ax.
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
huggi
ngy
oudon'
tmi
ndme"

Me:"t
hat'
snotpossi
blewi
thy
oubusyscar
ingmy
i
ntesti
nessoletgo"
Hi
m:"
,y
ousmel
lsol
ovel
y.
..
..
lookatmepl
ease"
Iputdownt hecupandtur
nedtolookathim Lor
dhe
wassocl osetomeIcouldfeel
hisbreat
honmy
face.Iswall
owedachunkofsali
va
Me:
"umhI
'
dli
ket
ogoandsl
eepnow"
Hi
m:"
yeahl
et'
sgoI
'
m al
sot
ir
ed"
Me:"y
eahIdon'
tsl
eepwi
thpeopl
ewi
tht
wocol
ored
hands"
Hi
m:"
lucki
l
yit
'smybedy
ay.
..
.comel
et'
sgo"
Hepeckedmyli
psbutnotpul
li
ngawayhi
sli
psj
ust
r
emainedont
opifmineIpushedhi
m away
Hi
m:"
soIwast
hinki
ngwe.
..
..
"
Ifoundmy sel
fbeingtheonetokisshi
m he
answeredpicki
ngmeuppl aci
ngmeont heki
tchen
counterunzi
ppingthejumpsuitIsl
owl
ypushedhim
off.
Me:
"woahSokhul
u..
..Canwesl
owdown"
Hi
m:"
youki
ssedmehau,
l
et'
sgosl
eep"
Me:
"t
urnar
ound.
.."
Hedi
dasIsaidandIjustgotonhi
sbackandhej
ust
l
etmedangl
eupt i
l
lIsli
ppedandfel
lfl
atonmyass.
Hi
m:"
canwegor
estnow?
"
ithurt
sbuthedoesn' tsaysorryIstoodupand
l
impedaheadofhi mt hen i nthebedr oom Iguess
whathappenedi nthekit
chenwasboundt ohappen
andcont i
nuefur
thersoy eahweki ndadiditbutthi
s
ti
mewi t
hmyconsentandmypar ti
cipat
ion.Bel
ieve
met hi
sshitisbeauti
fulespecial
l
ywi thyourconsent,
ever
y t
hinghappenedjusthowIwant edittohappen
evenLesegowasqui te
.
Banzi
Iwascal l
edtomyuncl
e'soffi
ceaf terIgotback
from school
ImeanI'
vebeenst ayingawayf r
om
PenelopeImeanshe'
llcomebackshe' l
lcome
runni
ngt omeI'
ll
makesur eofit.Iknockedandwas
toldt
ocomei n.
Me:
"uncl
e?"
Hi
m:"seatdownanddot
ell
mewhyar
eyounot
pr
esentatmeeti
ngs?
"
Me:
"I
'm busywi
thschool
,examsy
ouknow"
Hi
m:"
butnoev
erydayLubanzi
"
Me:"wel
lI'
m busyI
'
llcomewhenI
'
m donewi
thwhat
I
'm busywith"
Hi
m:"
Banzi
sitdown!
"
Me:
"Ihav
etobesomewher
eby
e"
Istoodupandwal kedoutIdon'
thavetobeinthi
s
stupidgangI
'
llgotomeet i
ngswhenIwantt obut
ri
ghtnowIhav efarmoreimport
antbusinesst
o
attend.
.
Lwandl
e
cat
chmesmi l
i
ngl
ikethi
sandknowthatIhad
scored wellshehadt
owakeupandgoanswer
thedoorIwonderwhoi
twasbutIguessI'
l
lfi
ndout
causeshecamebacksmili
ngherassof
f
Me:
"andt
hen?Whogoty
ousmi
l
ingl
i
ket
hat
?"
Her
:"
wel
lthi
sli
tt
let
hingy
ougotme.
..
..
.Thanky
ou"
Me:
"idi
dn'
tbuyy
ouany
thi
ng,
sor
rybuti
t'
snotf
rom
me"
Shet
hrewt
heboxont
hebed
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?Whoi
sitf
rom?"
Her
:"
it
'ssi
gnedL.
..
..
that
'
swhyIt
houghti
twasy
ou"
It
ookthecar
d andr eadi
t,
int
heboxi
twasa
di
amondnecklace.
Me:
"seather
e"
Shegotont
hebed
Me:
"r
elaxhewon'
thur
tyoui
nher
e"
Her:
"Idon'
tcar
eaboutthatbutIthoughthewoul
dn'
t
bedoingsomethi
ngli
kethis,Ihaven'
thear
dfr
om
hi
mi nmonthsandnowt hi
s?"
Me:"
andIknowjusthowtodeal
wit
hhi
m,wanna
wearthi
sit
'squi
tecut
e"
Her:
"I
'l
lst
rangl
eyouwit
hit
..
.Puti
tbacki
nthebox
I
'm goi
ngtoretur
nit
"
Me:
"doy
ouknowwher
ehei
s?"
Her:
"nobutI'
m suret
hedeli
ver
ycompanydoessoI
'
ll
cal
lthem andret
urni
tthr
oughthem"
Me:
"whyi
sheaf
tery
ou?
"
Her:
"wehadthi
sdream ofbei
ngt
oget
herbutnow
I
'm wit
hSokhul
u"
Me:
"yeahandhehast
oknowt
hat.
..
comesl
eep"
Her
:"
Idon'
tthi
nkI
'
llbeabl
etosl
eepnow"
Me:"
okayl
ook..
..
.Iputitawaynowcany
ousl
eep?I
'
ll
ev
encookdinnertonight"
Her:
" ar
eyouokay
?Youknowyoudon'
thav
eto
br
idemewit
hfoodi
nor
dertosl
eepwi
thme"
Me:
"yeahIknowbutIhav
etodot
hisy
ouhav
eto
r
est
"
Her
:"
ncoahsosweet
"
Me:
"butaf
tert
his"
Igotontopofherki
ssingherandsherepl
ied
wrappi
ngherhandsaroundmyneck.Nowt hatboy
i
sbackaf t
erIt
oldhi
suncletokeephim awayf r
om
myf amilybutheyI'
l
ldealwi
thhim accordingl
yand
hisunclewon'tdononetomesi ncehe'sjusta
screenforthegroup y oucan'
tkill
yourbossnow
cany ousoIknowhewon' tevenreachmenoti fhe
knowswhat 'sgoodforhi
m.RightnowIgot t
afocus
onmaki nglovetomywi f
eI'
ll
deal wi
ththev il
akazi
s
l
ateron.
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rest womendon' tl i
stentoatinyorder,
justrest
andI'l
ltakecareofy oubutnoal waysbeingt he
superheronotthatImi ndthoughbutshewor kshard
aroundt hehousetakingcareofmeandmyson.I
gotoutofbedandj ustputonmyj eansonl y my
housemyr ul
es,Iwentdownst air
sbarefootedwel lI
didn'
thavetocal loutforPenelopeIhear dher
singi
ngintheki t
chensot hat
'
swher eIwentandshe
hadherheadphonesonwear ingmyshi r
t who
taughtherthat .Shewasev endanci ngwhi chon
anhonestnot eshe' st
erri
bleatshecan' tdanceto
saveherlif
eImeansi ngingyeahshecanf ucking
goodbutdanci ng she'
sjustwor thl
ess
atthatdepartment .Toshowt hatshecan' tdance
sheev entr
ippedher sel
f Idi dn'twanttol aughbut
whenshest eppedonherownt oesIburstout
l
aughing.Wel lIt
houghtt heheadphoneswer eonf ul
l
blastbutshehear dmeandt urnedtolookatmeal l
embarrassedshequi cklypushedt he
headphonesof f.
Her
:"
howl
onghav
eyoubeenst
andi
ngt
her
e?"
Icl
earedmythr
oatt
ryi
ngt
ostoplaughi
ngbut
not
hingwor
kedIshookmyhead
Me:
"wai
t.
.. Jesus "
Her
:"
what
'sf
unny
?"
Me:"t
hefactt
haty
oucan'
tdanceev
eni
fyourl
i
fe
dependedonit
"
Her
:"
I'
m bet
tert
hany
ouandy
ourt
wol
eftf
eet
"
Me:
"yeahy
ougotf
ourl
eftf
eet
"
Her
:"
whatdoy
oumean?
"
Me:
"yourt
wol
eftf
eethav
etwomor
elef
tfeet
"
Her
:"
real
l
y?Real
l
y?"
Me:
"duhy
ouar ewor
thlessatdancingandbeli
eve
meyouaregoodateveryt
hingexceptdanci
ng"
Her
:"
wowjustwowf
ir
stIhav
efourl
eftf
eetnowI
'
m
wor
thl
ess"
Me:"yesI
'm bei
ngtr
uthf
ul.
..
.Causeift
heysaidyou
shoulddanceformetogetmehor nyyourdanci
ng
won'tdononetome...
."
Her
:"
fucky
ou.
..
.andenj
oysl
eepi
ngont
hecouch
t
oni
ght"
Shet ookLesego'
sbott
leandcamechargi
ng
towardsmewel li
twassupposedtobepastmebutI
blockedherateveryt
ryIj
ustbl
ockedhert
il
lshe
gaveup.
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryIwasj
ustj
oki
ng"
Her
:"
youwer
epr
act
ical
l
yinsul
ti
ngme"
Me:
"yeahI
'
m sor
ryIpl
ayedr
oughl
y.
..
.I'
m sor
ryLol
o"
Her:
"apol
ogynotaccept
ednowmov
eI'
dli
ket
ofeed
Lesego"
Me:
"f
orgi
vemef
ir
st"
Her:
"nohowwouldyouf
eel
ifIsai
dyouar
eso
wort
hlessi
nbed?Thaty
ouhaveapeni
sthesi
zeofa
car
rot"

Me:
"wel
lI'
dki
l
lyou.
..
.Buty
ou'
rej
oki
ngr
ight
?"
Her
:"
Idon'
tknow"
Shewal kedpastmehummi ngasong Idon'thave
asmal ldickandanywaywhatdoessheknowabout
them shenev erhadaboy
fri
end nah
Me:
"Lol
owai
t.
..
.wai
tup"
Shefucki
ngtr
aumatizedmeIdon'tt
hinkI'
ll
sleep
thi
nki
ngaboutthi
sespeci
all
yifI
'l
lbesleepi
ngont he
couch Idon'thaveasmallpeni
sIknowt hatwe
Sokhul
umandon'tdosmallthi
ngs.
.
ք ռ օք ♡
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ghtwhydi dhesayIhav efourleftf
eet
andstil
lcontinuetodissmeaf t
erhehaddoneso
muchal readyhe'l
lhavet of i
gureitouthimselfwhen
Isaidhehasasmal lpenis Iknowhehasahuge
egosobel iev
emei t
'l
ltakeahar dknockwhi chis
whatwascausi nghimt of ol
lowmear oundlikemal
e
dogsfollowaf emaledogonheat Iwal kedto
Lesego'scotandt heli
ttleguyhadwentbackt o
sl
eepIguesshej ustwant edt obathandt heneathe
didn'
tcareaboutt hedrink Ij ustfi
xeduphi s
blanki
eandki ssedhisf orehead.
"
Lol
opl
easesayy
ouwer
ejoki
ng"
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroatandt
urnedar
oundst
rai
ght
f
aceon
Me:
"shht
hebabyi
ssl
eepi
ng"
Hi
m:"
thencomeher
e"
Hepul
l
edmeoutoft heroom andjustpi
nnedmeon
t
hewallout
side,
heunbutt
onedhisjeans
Hi
m:"
looki
t'
shuge"
Iwasli
ter
all
yusingev
erymuscl
einmybody
nott
olaughathi
m,Ihadtokeepast
rai
ghtf
ace
Me:
"car
rot "
Hi
m:"
youdi
dn'
tev
enl
ook"
Me:"
don'
thaveto..
..
andwhyai
n'
tyouwear
ingy
our
undi
es?That
'sdisgust
ing"
Him: "
wasn'
tdisgust
ingwheny
ouwerebusy
screamingoutmynamenowwasi t?AndIhadyou
beggingmet obegentlewi
tht
hesamedickyou
cal
lingacarr
ot "
Me:
"andwhat
'
syourpoi
nt? "
Hi
m:"
thatIdon'
thav
esmal
lpeni
ssy
ndr
ome"

Me:"
SPS?NicenameSokhul
uyouar
eageni
us,
but
yousti
l
lhav
eacarrot
"
Hi
m:" mxm y
ouar
eev
ildoy
ouknowt
hat
?"
Me:
"whatdoesi
tmat
tert
hesi
zeofy
ourpeni
s
agai
n?"
Him:
"itshowsthatI
'
m amanokay
..
..
.Li
key
ougi
rl
s
havi
ngav ir
ginamakesy
ouawoman"
Me:
"uhnot
her
ear
elesbi
ansandgaypeopl
eint
his
wor
ld"
Hi
m:"I
'mtal
ki
ngaboutst
rai
ghtpeopl
eandbackt
o
t
hefactt
hatyousai
dmydickissmall
"
Me(
singi
ng)
:"
Yeah,
yeah
Yeah,
yeah
Iai
n'
ttr
yin'
tot
hinkabouti
t,no
Yeah,
Isai
dit
,boy
,getupi
nsi
dei
t
Iwanty
out
ohomi
cidei
t
Goi
ngsl
owandIwanty
out
opopi
t
AndIt
hinkIki
ndal
i
key
a
Upagai
nstt
hewal
l
,wedon'
tneedat
it
le
Yeah,
Isai
dit
Yeah,
Isai
dit
,baby
"
Hewasj
ustst
ari
ngatmebl
ankl
yandnoi
twasnot
Brucei
twasst i
llLwandl
ejustt
hathewast r
yingt
o
scareme,Ismil
edandpeckedhisli
ps.Igotfr
ee
fr
om hishold
Me:
"howaboutsomecar
rotcake?
"
Hi
m:"
Penel
ope!
!"
Irandownt hestai
rsbusyl
aughi
ngmyassof f
wit
hhimrightbehindmehewasbusyr oar
ingoutmy
name.
Him:"
prayIdon'
tcat
chy
ouIswearI
'
llshowy
oua
carr
ot"
Me:
" Ihav
eaf
ragi
l
ehear
tsopl
easest
op"
Hi
m:"buty
ouhav ethegut
stosayIhav
eacar
rotand
st
il
lmakejokesabouti
t"
Iwaslaughi
ngtoapointwheremytummyhur t I
coul
dn'tr
unanymoreIjustpl
acedLesego'
sbot
tl
eon
thecount
erbal
anci
ngoni t.
Me:
"okayy
ouwi
npl
easest
opchasi
ngme"
Hi
m:"whosai
dIwasjoki
ng?Iwanty
out
otel
lme
wher
ethecar
roti
s"
Me:
" wher
ear
ethef
ourl
eftf
eet
?"
Hi
m:"
doy
oust
il
lhav
etoask?
"
Me:
"sowhyar
eyoust
il
laski
ng?
"
Hepickedmeuppl
aci
ngmeont
heki
tchencount
er
busyrubbi
ngmyey
ebr
ows.
Hi
m:"
butIknowIf
uckedy
ougoodnoneedt
owor
ry"
Me:
"say
swho?
"
Hesl
appedmyt
high
Hi
m:"
Idoandt
her
eisst
il
lmor
etocomet
oni
ght
.."
Me:"
youaresl
eepi
ngonthecouchpl
usy
ourhand
hasheal
edcouchni
ght
"
Hi
m:'
IboughtabedandImarr
iedawi
fewhatt
he
f
uckshoul
dIbedoingonacouch"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"
Hi
m:"
wel
lIknowwhatIcanbedoi
ngont
hebed"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y? "
Hi
m:"
yes"
Hepeckedmyl
i
pswhi
chl
edt
ouski
ssi
ng,
hewas
busygr
oani
nginmymout ht
ryi
ngtounbut
tont
he
shi
rt Islappedhi
shandsaway.
Hi
m:"
uhuhmyshi
rt
"
Hemumbl edi
nbetweentheki
ssandtr
iedagai
nbut
Iai
n'
tlet
ti
nghi
m haveyetanot
herr
ound hepul l
ed
away
Hi
m:"
onel
astt
imef
ort
odaypl
ease"
Me:
"t
oni
ghtaf
tery
oucookdi
nnerf
orme"
Hi
m:"
real
l
y?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
thenLor
dknowsI
'
llweart
hatapr
onwi
thpr
ide"
Yeahhe' sstillnottouchingmet onightI'
l
lpretendto
besl eepi
ngi fneedsbehel l
oI'
mt i
red.Wewer ebusy
kissingli
ket hereisnot omor rowwhent herewasa
knockont hedoorhepul ledawaybusymumbl i
ng
what everi
nsul tsbeforehewentt othedoor I
thoughtonl ybabi esdothatbutt henagainwi t
h
Lwandl eyoul earnanewt hi
ngev erytime.Ijustgot
calledint
ot hel i
vingroom soIf i
xedupt heshi r
tand
wentt herejustt ofi
ndhi m wi t
hanot herguywho
l
ookedtobehisagegr oupbutLwandl
edi
dn'
tseem
happytoseehim.Istoodbesi
desmyhubbywho
wrappedhisar
m aroundmywai st
.
Lwandl
e:"
Babet
hisi
sCul
umycousi
n..
.Cul
uthi
sis
mywifeP..
."
Cul
u:"
Lol
oni
cet
omeety
ou"
Me:
"ni
cet
omeety
out
oobutt
henamei
sPenel
ope"
Culu:
"sor
rymybad,buti
t'
sni
cethatmydearcousin
fi
nall
ymar r
iedagai
nandtoabeauti
ful
gir
lli
keyou"
Lwandl
ejustcl
earedhi
sthr
oatandjustpul
l
edmy
handawayfrom t
hisCul
uchar
acter
.
Lwandl
e:"
myl
oveIhav
esomet
hingt
oasky
ou.
..
."
Myl
ove
Me:
"O-
kay
"
Lwandl
e:"
Cul
uisher
etost
aysohewant
sst
aywi
th
us"
Me:
"okayt
her
eisnopr
obl
em"
Cul
u:"
wowt
hanky
ouMr
sSokhul
u"
Lwandl
e:"
goputonsomej
eans"
Me:
" letgoofmethenI
'
llgoandonsecond
t
hought
scomelet
'
sgo"
Lwandl
e:"
Ihav
e..
..
."
Me:"
please.
..
..
Cul
uwe'
l
lbebackj
ustnownow.Make
your
selfathome"
Cul
u:"
thanky
ou.
.."
Iwasbusypul
l
ingLwandl
e.
Lwandl
e:"
whatam Igoi
ngt
odoupst
air
swi
thy
ou?
"
Me:
"hel
pmeputonmyj
eanst
heyar
etoot
ight
"
Lwandl
e:"
ift
hei
rti
ghthowdi
dyout
aket
hem of
f"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"Idon'
tknow,
howdi
dyoudoi
t?"
Hestar
edatmeasIcl osedthedoorandpushedhi
m
onthebednoforepl
ayhe'sjust
,Idon'
tknowbuthe
seemsangryofsomesor t
.
Him:"
howcany
out
hinkaboutsexwhi
l
ewehav
ea
guest
"
Me:"
andwhosaidanyt
hingaboutsex?Ij
ustwant
ed
youawayf
rom hi
m bef
or ey
oukill
edhim"
Hi
m:"
kil
l
edwho?Cany
ouj
ustdr
essupandl
et'
sgo"
Me:"
Lwandl
erememberIknowabi
tabouty
ousoI
knowwhenyouareangr
y."
Hi
m:"
I'
m notangr
y"
Iwor
emyjeansandjustknelti
nfr
ontofhi
m hol
ding
hi
shandsandyest
herewer etr
embli
ng.
Me:"
calm downokayyou'
ref
armuchbi
ggert
han
whatev
eritisyouguysar
efi
ghti
ngf
orsopl
ease
l
et'
skeepBr ucesl
eepi
ngdoitf
orme"
Hi
m:"Iwon'
thur
tyour
elaxandcanwegodownst
air
s
wehaveaguest"
Me:
"yougoI
'
llpr
epar
etheguestr
oom f
orhi
m"
Heki ssedmyfor eheadandhelpedmest andupwe
walkedouttogetherandIwentt ocheckonLesego
whowasawakesoIt ookhi
mt ohisfatherandgave
him hisbott
lethey'l
ldealwi
theachothert hreeman
i
noner oom ni
cev ibesIwentaboutpreparinga
room forourvi
sitorwhoi sbusypi
ssingLwandl eof
f
byjustbei
nghere hebetterbeheref
ortwoday
s
andthenbounceIdon'
twantaBrucesagaonmy
hands
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11/
2,21:
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nne:
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sst
օ ♡
.
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.
ք ռ օք ☆
Icoul
dn'thel
pbutwonderwhat '
sgoingonbet ween
Lwandleandhi scousinthewholenightcausehe
keptt
ossingandt urni
ngwaki ngsomeofusup
andnowhi salarmisringingofthehookbuthe'snot
swit
chi
ngi tof
fsoIj ustpushedhim.
Hi
m:"
what
?"
Me:
"wakeupandgogetr
eadyy
ouhav
etobeat
wor
k"
Hi
m:"
I'
m notgoi
ng"
Ipul
ledtheblanketsawayhol di
ngonmywai stI
meanhedi dn'tseetotell
met hisl
astni
ght,maybea
heyLolodon'tgetupandi ronformeI'
m notgoi
ngt o
workandy eahI'l
lbetossingandtur
ningthewhole
ni
ghtsopleasebewar ned
Me:
"t
ell
mey
ou'
rej
oki
ngpl
ease.
..
Lwandl
ewakeup"
Hi
m:"
I'
m notgoi
ngt
owor
kleav
emeal
one"
Me:"butLwandlewhydi
dn'ty
outellmel
astni
ght
whenwest il
lhadti
me..
.nowI'
mlikeazombie
becauseofyou"
Hi
m:"
comeher
ebabeI
'
m sor
ry"
Hemov
edbackandl
eftmesomespacet
osl
eep
Hi
m:"
sleepher
ebabyI
'
llhol
dyout
ight
ly"
Me:"
Idon'
twantyoutoholdmet
ight
lyIj
ustwant
ed
youtot
ell
met hi
slastni
ght"
Hekissedmyneckpull
i
ngupt
heblanketcov
eri
ng
us.Hesnuggl
edcloset
omewrappi
nghisarm
aroundmywaist
Me:
"Lwandl
ewher
eisy
ouhandgoi
ng?
"
Hechuckl
ed
Him:"sl
eepwill
ya..
..
I'
mt r
yingt
oputy
out
osl
eep
here.Sosleepl
itt
lechi
ld"
Me:
"canIasky
ousomet
hing?
"
Hi
m:"
uhuhsl
eepy
ousai
dyouar
eti
red"
Me:
"Ican'
tsl
eepnowI
'
m al
readyl
ostf
orsl
eep"
Hi
m:"
letmeputy
oubackt
osl
eep"
Me:"
nodon'tevenputyourhandt
her
epl
ease.
..
.why
coul
dn'
tyousleeplastni
ght"
Hi
m:"
youwoul
dn'
tgi
vei
ttome"
Me:"
tel
lmey ouarejoki
ngpl
ease.
..
.Icoul
dn'
tsl
eep
al
lbecauseofthat
"
[
snor
ing]
Itur
nedaroundandhewasr eall
ysleeping I
don'
tcareIjustpokedhim andpinchinghismout
h.
Hegroanedandf li
nchedbutIjustconti
nuedpoki
ng
hi
mt il
lhecaughtmyhand.
Him:
"wil
lyoujustl
etmesl
eep?Justmesleepi
ngI
don'
tthi
nkI'
m hurt
ingy
ouam I
?I'
m wear
ingmy
bl
anketnoty
ou"
Me:"
seehowi r
ri
tati
ngi tiswhensomeonedist
urbs
youwheny ouaresleeping?Especial
l
ywhenyou
t
houghttheyneededt hesomet hi
ngtodosomethi
ng
wit
hitj
usttofi
ndt hattheydon't"
Him:
"Jesuswomanwhydi
dn'
tyougobackt
oschool
agai
n?"
Me;"
Iwastool
atet
oev
enpl
aycat
chupsoI
'
llst
art
ov
ernexty
ear"
Hi
m:"
wantaj
ob?
"
Thi
swhol
eti
mehehadhi
sey
escl
osed
Me:
"whatt
ypeofj
ob?"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
dream ofsomet
hingj
ustl
etmesl
eep"
Me:
"not
ell
menow.
..
."
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lbemyPA"
Me:
"It
houghty
oual
readyhadaPA.
."
Hi
m:"
wel
lyou'
l
lbemyPA'
sPA"
Me:
"I
'my
ourwi
feandy
ouwantmet
obey
ourPA'
s
scurvy?Whereisthelove?andappreciat
ionf
orall
thatIdoforyouinthishouse?Lat
eni ght
snursi
ng
youbackt oheal
th..
..
"
Hi
m:"
okayokayy
ou'
l
lbemypr
otégé.
..
.happy
?"
Me:
"I
'm get
ti
ngpai
dri
ght
?"
Hi
m:"
arey
oucr
azy
?"
t
heget
ti
ngpai
dpar
tgothi
mtoopenhi
sey
es
Me:
" i
t'
smyconst
it
uti
onal
right
"
Him:
"you'
rejustmypr ot
égé,
whi
chmeansI'
l
lbe
t
eachingyouev er
ythi
ngIknowwher
einact
ual
lyf
act
youshoul
dbepay i
ngme"
Me:
"Ist
il
ldemandt
obepai
d "
Hi
m:"
fi
ne"
Me:
"nor
mal
rat
e"
Hi
m:" f
ineLol
onor
mal
rat
epaynowcanIsl
eep?
"
Ichuckl
edpecki
nghi
sli
ps
Me:
"ni
cedoi
ngbusi
nesswi
thy
ouMrSokhul
u"
Hi
m:'
mmh"
Igotoutofbedwi ththishappyfaceandofcourse
whenI'
m happyIt endt osingbutheyIdeci
ded
agai
nstitsincehe'ssleepi
ng,Iwenttotakea
showerrememberwehav eav i
sit
orandIalsohave
asontobel ooki
ngaftersoaftermyquickshowerI
wenttodot henecessar yandworeasummerdr ess
wit
hmyf l
i
pf l
opsIti
edmyhai rint
oaneatbun.
"
Wearal
ongerdr
ess"

Me:
"got
osl
eep"
Hi
m:"
sti
l
lwearal
ongone"
Me:"
I'
m notmeet
ingt
hei
nlawsnowam I
?Pl
ust
his
i
slonghowlongdoyouwanti
ttobe"
Hi
m:"
ankl
elengt
h"
Me:
"saywhatnow?Noway
snowsl
eep"
Itookmycel l
phoneandwenttocheckonLesego
fi
rstbutjustl
i
kehisfat
herhewassl eepingsoIhad
someal oneti
met omakebreakfastwithoutany
di
sturbanceswhichi
snotpossibleinthishousehol
d.
"
Mor
ning"
It
urnedjustt
ofindCul
uwi
tht
hissmi
l
eonhi
sface
soIret
urnedit
.
Me:
"mor
ning.
..You'
reupear
ly"
Hi
m;"ohwell
Iusual
l
ywakeupt hi
sear
lyt
ogof
ora
l
it
tl
erun.
..
don'
tyouexer
cise?
"
Me:"
notevensi
nceImov
edher
ebeent
oobusy
set
tl
ingi
n"
Hesatdown
Hi
m:"
tal
ki
ngaboutt
hat
,howar
eyouset
tl
ingi
n?"
Me:
"qui
tewel
lact
ual
l
yI'
m happyher
e"
Him:"
Icant
ell
evenmycousi
nishappyt
haty
ou'
re
here"
Me:
"Iguess.
..
"
Hi
m:"sor
ryIcouldn'
tcomet
oyourweddi
ngIwasst
il
l
st
uckinthestat
es"
Me:"
didn'
tev
ennot
icey
ouwer
en'
tther
eI'
m sur
e
ev
enLwandledi
dn'
t"
 smi
l
ebi
tchsmi
l
e
Hi
m:"y
eahIguessbutwher
eishe?Hashel
eftf
or
wor
kalready
?"
Me:
"nahhe'
sst
il
lsl
eepi
ng,
didn'
tsl
eepwel
ll
astni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
Isur
elyhopei
t'
snotmyf
aul
t"
Me:"ohnodon'tdot
hattoyour
selfhehasfarmor
e
i
mpor t
antthi
ngstostr
essabout.
..
.Wantsome
pancakes?"
Hi
m:"
that
'dbel
ovel
ythanks.
..
."
Iwentaboutprepar
ingthepancakesf
orhi
m,I
thoughthe'
dgetthedri
ftIdon'
twantt
ogossi
p
aboutLwandlebutIguess ‍♀
Hi
m:"
soy
ou'
reenj
oyi
ngbei
ngast
epmom?
"
Me:
"yepIl
oveki
dssot
hisi
ssecondnat
uret
ome"
Hi
m:"
Lwandl
eisl
uckyt
ohav
eyoul
i
ker
eal
l
ylucky
"
"
I'
mreal
l
yluckyIknow"
Lwandl
eisf
inal
l
yawakesol
ett
hej
eal
ousybegi
n
Hewashol
dingLesego
Cul
u:"
heygoodmor
ning"
Lwandl
e:"
mor
ningbutt
her
eisnot
hinggoodabouti
t"

Culu:
"Iguesswedi
dn'
twakeupont
hesamesi
deof
thebed"
Lwandle:
"mmmhIwokeupnextt
othemost
beaut
if
ulthi
ngi
nthi
shouse"
Hekissedmycheek Godwhyam Icaughti
nthe
middl
enowhuh,any
wayIdi
shedupt
hepancakes.
Me:
"Lwandl
ewhatdoy
ouwantmet
omakey
ou?
"
Lwandl
e:"
Waf
..
..
"
Me:
"exceptwaf
fl
esy
ou'
vehadenoughf
oraweek"
Lwandl
e:"
pancakest
han"
Me:
"l
ovel
ymeanwhi
l
epl
easef
eedLesego"
HenodsoIwentbackt
omaki
ngourpancakes
now,
I'
m st
arv
ing
.
Lwandl
e
SeeingthissnakeIcal l
acousi nhereinmyhouse
busyenj oyi
ngt hef oodprepar edbymywi fe he
l
ookedupatmeandsmi l
edj ustthatsmugsmile
he'sanar r
ogantl it
tlebastardandIcanonl yguess
whyhe' shere,
thecompanywhi chtheybeli
evei
t'
s
thefami l
y'
scompanywher east hisi
sMYf amil
y'
s
companymyf atherbuiltitaloneformeandmy
brothernotcousi ns.Hewi nkedatmeandj ust
mot i
onedwi thhisheadt owar dsLoloLordIhope
shewon' tbeeasi lycorruptedlikeAmandlawasor
elseI'
m donef or.
Me:
"soCul
uwhyareyoubackher
e?It
houghty
ou
wer
eenjoy
ingAmer
ica"
Culu:
"ohwel
lyouknow,busi
nessandofcour
seI
'
m
backformysharesi
nthefir
m"
Me:"
youhav
eshar
esi
nthef
ir
m?That
'ssomet
hing
new"
Cul
u:"
that
'sf
unnyl
i
ker
eal
l
yfunny
..
.."
Me:"
Iwasn'
tmakingajokecausethefi
rm maybe
cal
l
edSokhuluattor
neysbuti
tdoesn'
tbel
ongtothe
ent
ir
eclani
tbelongstomyclan"
Cul
u:"
wel
lthat
'
s..
.."
Lol
o:"
her
eyougoandpleasecanwehav
ebr
eakf
ast
wit
houtt
hebusi
nesst
alk?"
Me:
"Lol
othehoneyi
smi
ssi
ng"
Lol
o:"
her
eyougoandeaseuponi
tpl
ease"
Imar r
iedamot hert
hissi
de,Iact
ual
l
ybought
anewmot hercauseshewaswat chi
ngmel i
kea
hawkbutshejustputonwhippedcream
Cul
u:"
asIwassay
ing.
..
."
Lolo:
"CuluIsai
dnobusinesstal
kwhileweareeati
ng
thankyou,sopleasedon'
tst
artespeci
all
yift
her
e
areknives"
Cul
u:"
wel
lthi
sisi
mpor
tant
..
."
Lolo:
"i
ssomeonedyi
ng?Areyoudyi
ng?Ifnott
hen
i
t'snoti
mport
ant,
Lwandl
epleasepoursomejui
ce
forme'"
Me:
"her
eyougo.
.Andmypr
otégéIwast
hinki
ng"
Lol
o:"
about
?"
Me:
"howaboutIt
akey
ouandLesegooutt
oday
?
Justf
orsomef
reshai
r"
Lol
o:"
Idon'
thav
eapr
obl
em wi
thi
t"
Cul
u:"
icoul
dtagal
ongr
ight
?"
Me:
"wr
ong.
..
..
wher
ewoul
dyouev
enf
iti
n?"
Culu:
"wel
ltheCEOposi
ti
ont
hat
'swhatIhav
ebeen
tr
aini
ngfor"
Me;"j
ustbecauseyouwentt oschool att
heUSt hat
doesn'
tchangethefactthatI'
m st
il
l bett
ert
han
you.
..
.youcangoandst udyatIndi
anowbutt hat
doesn'
tbeatexper
iencewhichIhav e"
Cul
u:"
exper
iencemeansnot
hingwi
thoutcont
act
s"
Me:"
letmeguesswhi
chy ouhav
e?Li st
enI
'vebeeni
n
t
hisgamelongert
hanyourAmericanassandI
woul
dl i
kef
oryoutost
ayoutofmywayandmy
wi
fe"
Lol
ojustchockedlikethewholet i
meshewas
l
ist
eningbutquit
ewel lthat'
sunt
ilIment
ioned
her
,shegotupcollecti
ngt hepl
ates.
Lol
o:'
I
'm goi
ngt
otakeanapI
'
mti
red"
Me:
"okay
"
Shekissedmycheekandj ustwalkedoutofthe
kit
chenleavi
ngusal oneasmenev enLesegowas
i
nv ol
ved.Ipi
ckedupmysont heonl ypersonI'
d
rat
hergivethecompanyt oifIweret odiehe
deservesitmorenotthisscumbagi nfrontofmeor
l
etmesaybusyf ol
lowingmear ound
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantCul
u?"
Him:
"forustostr
ikeadealokayjustl
etwor
kwi
th
youandI'l
lkeepyourl
i
ttl
esecret
"
Me:
"andwhatsecr
eti
sthat
?"
Hi
m:"t
hetrut
haboutwhatreal
l
yhappenedt
o
Amandlaandyourpar
ent
s"
Me:
"O-
kaywhatr
eal
l
yhappenedt
othem?
"
Him:
"don'
tmesswi t
hmeLwandlej
ustgi
vemewhat
IwantandI'
l
lleav
ey oual
one"
Me:"
wellwedon'tal
waysgetwhatwewantand
whenthathappensoneshoul
djustl
eti
tgo"
Hi
m:"
that
'sourl
egacyaswel
l
"
Me:"myf amilyl
egacywhi chmeansi t'
sformeand
Sakhil
eandourchi ldren,youareacousi nandthe
wil
lstatedallmyest ategoest omychildren.Y'
al
l
shouldbet hankf
ulwel ety oustayatt
hemansi on
wecouldt hrowy'al
l outhommi eandther e'
snone
youcandoaboutt hat"
Him:"
that
'sbul
l
shi
tandy
ouknowi
t,
wear
eSokhul
u
chi
ldr
entoo"
Me:"
thantel
lyourf
atherst
ostar
tsomet
hingf
ory
ou
dudejeezst
opbeingthatguy
..
..
"
Iwalkedupst ai
rswi thLesegoIt hi
nkifIgavehima
bat
hhe'llsleepandt henIcangoanddi st
urbLol
o
shedisturbedmet hismor ningsot hiswil
lbe
paybackinat ruckload.Wel l Igavemysonhi sbat
h
anddressedhi m upnowt hepr obl
em isIcan'
tsi
ng
Iwon' tevent r
yt oembar rassmy sel
ftr
yingi
tsoI
j
ustgavehi m hispaci fi
erkissedhi sfor
eheadand
walkedoutgoi ngtomyr oom Icl osedthedoorand
j
ustgoti nbed l ett hetorturebegin.
Me;
"Lol
o..
..
Lol
oIwantwaf
fl
es'
"
Shei
gnor
edme
Me:
"Lol
owakeupIwantsomewaf
fl
es.
..
.Pl
ease"
Iki
ssedherneckandshoul
dershef
li
nchedali
tt
le
buti
gnoredmenowshe'sforci
ngmyhandli
ter
all
y
myhandhast owakeherup.
Her
:"
uhuh.
..
stopi
t"
Me:
"Iwantmywaf
fl
es"
Her
:"
gomaket
hem andl
eav
emeal
onepl
ease"
Me:"
Iwanty
out
omaket
hem f
orme,
thei
rtast
ier
whenmadebyy
ou"
Her
:"
thanl
etmesl
eep"
Me:
"j
ustt
woj
ustt
wopl
ease"
Her:
"whydi
dn'
tyougot
owor
kagai
n?Lwandl
eI'
m
t
ir
ed"
Me:
"l
ookatme.
..
.."
Her
:"
why
?Myey
esdon'
thav
ewaf
fl
es"
Me:
"Iwantt
oki
ssy
ou"
Shegr
oanedandpul
l
edupt
hebl
anketcov
eri
ng
her
sel
fup
Me:
"j
ustat
inyl
i
ttl
eki
ssandI
'
llshutup"
Her
:"Idon'
tneedyout
oshutupIj
ustwanty
ououtof
her
ecompl et
ely
"
Me:
"okayI
'
llgoaf
tery
ougi
vememymor
ningki
ss"
Her
:"
pleasecar
rotcakel
etmesl
eep"
Me:"
see?You'
vestart
eddissi
ngmeagai
n,whyar
e
youweari
ngablanket?"
Her
:"
it
'saf
leecebl
anketandf
ineI
'
llki
ssy
ousoj
ust
l
eavemealone"
Me:
"comeI
'
mreadyf
ory
ou"
shetur
nedaroundandj
ustl
ookedatmewit
h
redeyesshameshedidn'
tsl
eepshe'
stir
ed she
peckedmylipsandmovedawayfrom me
Me:
"whatwast
hat
?NoIdemandar
emat
ch"
Her
:"atwhat
?Goyousai
difIki
ssedy
ouy
ou'
l
l
l
eave..
.nowl
eav
e"
Me:
"t
hatwasnotaki
ssandy
ouknowi
t"
Her
:"
fi
net
akei
tdoasy
oupl
ease"
Me:
"what
?Ar
eyousur
e?"

Her
:"
don'
tev
ent
hinkabouti
t"
Me:"
Iwasjustmaki
ngsureIhear
dyoucor
rect
ly.
..
..
I'
l
l
j
ustkissy
ouandgetoffIpr
omise"
Shelookedatmeandj ustshookherheadt hat '
sher
wayofsay i
ngIgi veupwel lIki
ssedherandshe
repl
iedwellyouknowwheny ou'r
eki ssi
ngthatt y
pe
ofpersonwhoget syourbloodboi l
ingbyev en
l
ookingathert hanwheny ou'
rekissingit
'sextreme.I
foundmy selfgett
ingont opofherandshe
welcomedme Iwasev enext r
aexcited.Well
that'
sunti
ltherewasaknockont hedoor
Ipull
edawayf
rom herIhopei
t'
snotCul
uorel
seI
'
ll
ki
llhi
m
Me:
"whoi
sit
?"
"
It
'sNancy
"
Lesego'
snannyy
ouj
usthadt
oki
l
lmyv
ibe
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Her
:"
Ijustwantedt
oknowi
fit
'sokayi
fIt
akeLesego
t
othemal lwi
thme"
Il
ookedatLol
oandshenod
Me:
"yeahbutbr
inghi
m backear
lywehav
epl
ans"
Her
:"
okayt
hanky
ou..
"
Me:
"t
aket
heguar
dwi
thy
ouunder
stand?
"
Her
:"
yessi
r"
Shewal
kedawayl
eav
ingmet
ofocusonmywi
fe
Me:
"wher
ewer
ewe?
"
Her
:"
youl
eav
ingmet
osl
eep"
Me:
"noway
sIwannamakel
ovet
oyou"
Her
:"
comeon"
Me:"
pleasebabyj
ustl
etmemakel
ovet
oyouj
ust
pl
ease..
..
"
Her
:"
Ihat
eyouf
ort
his"
Ismil
edandwiggl
edmyey ebr
owsweki
ssedagainI
meanLesegoisnotheresoIwasfr
eetofuckherup
l
ikecr
azyIdi
djustthat
,shewashavi
ngt
het i
meof
herl
if
e y etshewascal
l
ingmecar
rotcakewhi
l
e
she'
sbusyscreami
ngherassof
f.
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11/
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օ ★
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Itri
edgetti
ngoutofbedbutLwandl ewashol di
ngon
tomel ikeI'
drunawaysoIt ur
nedar oundandf ound
him sl
eeping,Isawthisasanoppor t
unitytoexplore
hisfacesoIbeganr ubbinghisfacet ohisli
pshe
sleepswithhisli
pspartl
ypar t
edlikehe's
whistl
ing .Ir emovedthedr eadl
ockf rom hi
sface
pushingitback,Isl
owlyleanedov erIdon'tknow
whybutIcoul dn'
tstopitIfoundmy selfevenkissing
him.Islowlypull
edawayandIguessIwokehi m up
causehewassmi li
ngatme
Me:
"l
etgoI
'
m hungr
y"
Hi
m:"I
'
m al
sohungr
ylet
'
sgoshowersot
hatwecan
goout
"
Me:"
well
I'
ll
checkifLesegoi
sbacky
et,
youknowwe
pr
omisedtogotogether"
Hi
m:"Gody
eahIal
mostf
orgot
..
..I
'
llpr
epar
eabat
h
f
orus"
Me:
"goodSokul
uletmegonow"
Hi
m:"
kissmeonel
astt
ime.
..
.Thatwasl
ovey
"

Me:
"It
houghty
ouwer
esl
eepi
ng"
Hi
m:"
yesnotdeadnowki
sski
ss"
Ichuckl
edandkissedhimjusttohav
emy sel
fpull
ed
togetontopofhim busygi
ggli
nginhismouth.I
pull
edawayandjustpeckedhisli
ps
Me:
"car
rotcakel
etmego"
Him:"
butthenagai
nIcanshowy
out
hatI
'
m noty
our
carr
otcake"
Me:
"butIl
ovecar
rotcake.
..
.Ienj
oycar
rotcakeev
en"
Hi
m:"
real
l
y?Youl
ovecar
rotcake?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
wantsomenow?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
may bel
ater.
..
aft
erwecomebackI
'
llmaket
he
car
rotcakeextr
ahardandyummy"
Hi
m: "
womanst
opt
est
ingmebyspeaki
ngsuch
t
hings"
Me:
"yeahI
'
m sor
ry.
..
.Letmegonow"
Him:"
soI'
ll
havesomemi
l
ktoni
ghtwi
tht
hecar
rot
cake?Il
ovethemil
k"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"mmhcr
eamydel
i
ciousmi
l
kIpr
omi
se"
Heki
ssedthebackofmyhandandletmego,
Igot
of
fhi
m andjustwor
ehisshi
rtbut
toni
ngi
tup.
Him:"
don'
ttel
lmey
ouar
ewear
ingt
hatandgoi
ng
outsi
de?"
Me:
"t
other
oom nex
tdoorCar
rotcake.
..
.I'
m goi
ng
t
ocheckupony
ourson"
Iwalkedoutwi thmyphonei nhandthenIwentto
Lesego'
snur serybuthewasnott her
ethi
sstupi
d
nannyismessi ngwiththewrongmanandshe
shouldknowt hatbynow,Icall
edherbutshehung
upandIcalledagaintil
lshepickedup.
Me:"
wheret
hehel
lareyou?Wet ol
dyout
hatwe
hav
eplanswit
hLesegodidn'
twe?"
Her
:"
we'
rest
il
latt
hemal
lwe'
l
lbet
her
ewhen.
..
."
Me:"
Nancybri
ngLesegohomeri
ghtnowi
fyoust
il
l
val
ueyourj
obunderst
and?Don'
tmesswi
thmenot
now"
Her
:"
we'
rewat
chi
ngamov
ie"
Me:"
Idon'
tcar
ejustst
optryi
ngtoscorepoint
swi
th
myhusbandhe'
smar r
iedsogetthatboyhomeri
ght
now"
Shesi
ghed
Me:"NancyI'
m givi
ngyouhal
fanhourt
ogetmy
husband'schi
ldhomeorsohelpmeGodyou'
ll
hav
e
tolookforanotherj
ob"
Her
:"
fi
neI
'
m comi
ng"

Ihungupandj
ustwal
kedoutj
ustt
obumpi
ntoCul
u
wit
hhisgr
in
Me:
"sor
ry"
Hi
m:"i
t'
sokayIwasn'
tl
ooki
ng.
..
.Iwascaughtupi
n
al
loft
his"
Hest
arr
edatmef
rom headt
otoe
Me:
"al
lthi
sissomeone'
swife.
..
.soi
fyou'
l
lexcuse
meIhavetogetreadyt
ofi
resomeone"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
mustbeni
ceheyy
ouar
ehi
ri
ngandf
ir
ingnow"
Me:
"mmhnowI
'
mreal
l
yinahur
ry.
"
Hi
m:"
cool
"
Hemov edandIwalkedt
omyr oom Idi
dn'tevenl
ook
back Ihat esuchmanheshouldtryagainnott
his
stupi
dstuntofhi
sIwon'
tfal
lfori
tnotnownotever.
Me:
"Lwandl
efi
reNancypl
ease"
Hi
m:"
why
?"
Heputdownhi
sphoneandgav
emehi
sat
tent
ion
Me:
"causey
ourwi
feaskedy
ou"
Hi
m:"
okayyouar
eobv
iousl
yangr
ywi
thher
..
..
what
di
dshedonow?"
Me:"
gotbi
tchyonthephonewit
hme..
.whydoesshe
l
iket
oactli
keshe'
sthesecondwif
eorsomethi
ng?
Didyoupr
omisetomarryher
"
Lwandl
e:" whatno.
..
.Sl
owdownandrel
ax
bef
oreyoudi
eofahear
tatt
ackI
'
llt
alkt
oher
"
Me:"uhuhfi
rehereversi
nceIgother
eshe'
sbeen
act
ingbit
chywithmebutshe'sanAngelwi
thyou
andI'mti
redofher"
Him:"
GodNancy.
..
..Seather
emywi
feandt
ell
your
husbandwhat
'swrong"
Me:
"duhf
ir
eNancy
"
Hi
m:"
Ijustcan'
tfi
remyson'
snanny
,who'
l
llookaf
ter
hi
m?"
Me:
"Iwi
l
lwhi
l
eyousear
chf
orsomeoneol
dert
han
y
ouandwho'
l
lnotactli
kethemadam oft
hishouse
t
ocomeandl
ookafterLesego"

Hi
m:"
youj
eal
ous?Af
rai
dofal
i
ttl
ecompet
it
ion?"
Me:"
ohnobutI
'
m surey
ou'
reaf
rai
doft
hecouch.
..
Foranent
ir
eweek"
Hej
ustpul
l
edmeont
othebedget
ti
ngont
opofme
Him:"
sayIagr
eet
ofi
reher
..
.who'
l
llookaf
ter
Lesego?
"
Me:
"Iwi
l
l"
Hi
m:"
buty
ou'
l
lbeatt
heof
fi
cewi
thme"
Me:"huh?Youwer
eser
iousaboutt
hatpr
otégé
si
tuati
on?"
Henod
Hi
m:"Iwanty
outobereadyforLawschoolnexty
ear
Imeanyouaret
hewifeofthemostrespect
ed
l
awyersoyouhavet
obef ear
ed"
Me:
"andI
'
m get
ti
ngpai
d?"
Hi
m:"
Iguessy
ouar
eget
ti
ngpai
d"
Me:"
butIst
il
lhat
eNancyandherstinki
ngat
ti
tude.
..
.
Sheshoul
dknowt hatI
'
m secondi
ncommand
ri
ght
?"
Hi
m:"
giv
emeababyI
'
llmakey
ouf
ir
sti
ncommand"
Me:
"wher
edoy
oubuyt
hem?I
'
llgetonef
ory
ou"
Him:"
letmeputoneinhere.
..
.Idon'
tneedt
obuyI
havemi l
l
ionsoft
hem j
ustwaiti
ngtobesentt
o
mine"
Me:
"nothankyou.
..Ican'
thandl
ethr
eebabi
esI
meanI'
m sti
l
lakidmy sel
f"
Him:"mmhThankGodIhav
ebeenpul
l
ingoutt
he
enti
reti
me we' r
esaf
e"
Heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Hi
m:"
sowher
edi
dNancysayt
heywer
e?"
Me:
"att
hemov
iesandy
ouknowwhatt
hatmeans?
"
Hi
m:"
nobutI
'
m sur
eyou'
regoi
ngt
otel
lme"
Hegotof
fandj
ustl
aidbesi
desme.
Me:
"wecan'
tgooutwi
thhi
m causehe'
l
lbet
ir
ed"
Him:
"gi
vi
ngusthefr
eedom t
obescr
ewi
ngar
ound.
..
.
DamnIlovehowyouthi
nk"
Me:"
noI
'
m notsayi
ngthatandst
opget
ti
ngonand
of
fmeli
keI'
my ourbed"
Him:"
Lordknowsify
ouweremybedandplayon
yourspr
ingsal
ldayj
ustbounci
ngont
opofyoul
ike
crazy
"

Hi
m:"mybestFr
iendisangryai
n'
tshe?Baber
elax
wi
lly
aI'
ll
dealwithNancy"
Me:
"deal
wit
hherornomi
l
kfory
ourcar
rotcake"
Hi
m:"
jui
ce?Pl
easesayI
'
llhav
ejui
ce"
Me:
"noy
ouwon'
t.
.Nowgetof
fme"
Hi
m:"
pleasepr
ett
ypl
ease.
..
."
[
Cel
l
phoner
ings]
I
twasmyphonesoIr
eachedf
ori
twhichwashar
d
wi
tht
hesi
rontopofme.I
twasanunknownnumber
Me:
"getof
fme"
Hi
m:"
justanswery
ourphone"
Me:
"mxm.
..
.Penel
ope'
sphonehel
l
o"
"
OhmygoodnessFr
iend,
ThankGody
ou'
rest
il
lal
i
ve"
Me:
"Bi
anca?Whywoul
dinbedeadagai
n?"
Bee:"
wellIgotyournumberfr
om thatBanzi
guyhe
sai
dy ouhadt obuyanewphonecauset hat
husbandofy our
stookyourphoneandbeaty ouup"
Lwandlethi
ssidewasbusyki
ssi
ngmynecksoI
havetofocusontwopeopl
eIhel
donhi
sheadashe
wasbusy .
Me:"
fri
endI
'
mf ineandI
'
m sorr
yIdi
dn'
tcal
lyoubut
heywhenIthi
nkabouti
tIdi
dn'
tcal
lal
otofpeopl
e."
Bee:
"Iunder
standsowher
ear
eyou?Ar
eyousaf
e?"
Me:
"mmhI
'
m..
.I
'
mfi
neandI
'
m home"
Bee:
"youwentbackt
oBush?Ar
eyousur
eyou'
re
saf
ethere?
"
Me:"
I'
minJohannesbur
gfr
iendandyesI
'
m defi
nit
ely
saf
efrom al
otofthi
ngswhereI
..
..MmhwhereIam"
Bee:
"ar
eyouokay
?"
Iclearedmyt
hroatcauseLwandl
ehadj
ustst
art
ed
rubbingmeli
kecrazy
Me:
"I
'mf
inef
ri
enddon'
t.
..
..
*scr
eami
ng*
Hepushedhi
sfi
nger
sinmel
i
kecr
azyhechuckl
ed
Bee:
"f
ri
endwhat
'
sgoi
ngon?What
'shappeni
ng?"
Me:"
umhIjustpul
ledsomehai
ronmyl
egandt
his
shi
thur
tli
kecrazy
"
Bee:
"si
ncewhendoy
ouhavehai
rsonl
eg?Yourl
eg
i
sassmoothasababy'
sbot
tom"
Me:"
newser
iesfr
iendIst
oppedgoi
ngf
ort
hatl
aser
t
reat
mentsoyeah..
."
Bee:
"youev
enchangedy
ourv
oice.
..
."
Isowantedt
opushLwandl
eof
fbuthewasbusy
unbut
toni
ngmyshi
rt
Me:"
I'
mf inereal
l
y..
..Umhcanwemeetuppl easeor
el
seI'
llconti
nue.
..
.Mmh. .
.I
'
llcont
inuepi
cki
ngmy
hai
r"
Bee:
"yeaht
hat
'smuchbet
termay
bey
ou'
l
lbespeak
l
i
keanor
mal
per
son.
..Howaboutl
uncht
oday
?"
Me:"
lunchiti
sthen,
I'
ll
seeyoucauseIreal
lyr
eal
l
y
needtostopthi
streat
mentI'
m under
going"
Bee:
"okayl
ovey
ouf
ri
end"
Me:"l
oveyoutoobabygirl
..
..
andI
'
dliketoi
ntroduce
youtosomeonesodr essupbutnotli
keyournormal
str
eetwhore*
Bee:
"f
ucky
ou"
Me:
"samet
ooy
ou"
Shehungupandmyphonej
ustf
oundi
tsel
font
he
fl
oor
.
Me:
"Lwandl
ethatwasdi
srespect
ful
"
Him:
"you'
remywifeandIt
houghtt
odaywasabout
usnotyourf
ri
ends"
Me:
"Icoul
dn'
tthi
nkst
rai
ght
..
.."
Hi
m:"
cal
lherandcancel
"
IshookmyheadandIshouldn'
thavedonethat
causeLwandlemadesureIbecomeacrippl
efort
he
wholedaycausehefuckedmeever
yside
possi
ble hepeckedmyl
i
psashegotof
fmeal
l
sweat
y
Hi
m:"
nowgot
akeashower"
Me:
"Ican'
tmov
e..
..
myf
eetar
eal
lwobbl
y"
Him:"
comegeton,
youhav
etogetr
eadyf
ory
our
date"
Me:
"ony
ourback?
"
Henod Ij
umpedatt heofferandhej ust
walkedwithust othebat hr
oom al
lnakedwet ooka
showertogetherandonl ythatashowernot hi
ng
mor e,
Iwasf i
neaf t
erthatsoIwentoutf i
rstandjust
gotreadyleavingMrdr eadl
ocksintheshowerI
decidedtowearmyt ankdressandsomemi r
ror
patentgl
adiatorheel,
combedmyhai randdidmy
makeupmyhusbandcameoutwhenIwasdone
busydryi
nghi sdreadlocks
Me:
"gocuty
ourhai
r"
Hi
m:"
noIl
ovemyhai
r.
..
..
"
Me:"
IhopeLesegodoesn'
thav
edr
eadl
ockswhenhe
gr
owsup"
Hi
m:"t
henI'
l
ldi
sownhi
m..
.Iwantal
lmyki
dst
ohav
e
dr
eadl
ocks"
Me:"why
?Arey
ouopeni
ngacl
ubhouseof
sangomas?
"
Hi
m:"
pret
tymuchweshoul
dgety
oui
ntoo"
Icl
i
ckedmytongueandtookmychockerput
ti
ngi
t
onandwor
emybi ker
sjacket
.
Me:
"I
'l
lcheckonLesego"
HenodandIwenttoLesego'
snurser
ybutdi
dn'
tfi
nd
hi
m t hisgi
rlIwal
keddownstai
rsandf
oundthem
pl
ayi
nghappyfamil
i
eswithCulu
Me:
"canIgetLesegopl
ease"
Nancy
:"ohy
eahandIpr
epar
edal
lhi
sst
uff
"
Me:
"ni
ce.
..Comeboyboy
"
It
ookhisdi
aperbagandpushedhi
sst
rol
l
erhewas
ev
ensleepi
ng
Cul
u:"
yougoi
ngout
?"
Me:
"yeah"
Cul
u:"
wellify
ouwer en'tmarr
iedI'
dsaykeept
hem
boysoffbutI
'm sur
ey ourhusbandwil
lbebyyour
si
de"
cany
oubel
ame
Me:
"he'
l
lbebymysi
dedon'
tst
ressi
t"
"
Babel
et'
sgo"
Igavehi
mt hedi
aperbagandwel ef
tfort
hemal l
thenhe'
l
lmeetBiancawhoifmyguessisrightshe'
l
l
hatehi
ml i
keshehatesar
rogantwhi
teguys.
.
Cul
u
Iwavedastheywalkedoutl
eavi
ngmewi tht
he
cuteNancyandfrom t
hewayshewasl ooki
ngatmy
dearcousi
n'
swi f
eIcouldsayshehatesher
.
Me:
"sot
ell
memor
eaboutt
hoset
wo'
srel
ati
onshi
p"
Her
:"
justgotbett
erafewmonthsagoandev
ersi
nce
t
hansheact sl
iketheQueenofSheba"
Me:"
wellshemarri
edt
heki
ngsosheki
ndai
s,
but
whatissheli
ke?
"
Her
:"
anar
rogantsel
fcent
redpr
ivi
l
egedbi
tch"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
LordIhopetherear
enocamer
asi
nher
eorel
se
youcanki
ssy ourj
obgoodby
e"
Her:
"noti
fshehasn'
tal
readyt
oldhi
mt of
ir
eme,he
l
ist
enstoherli
kesheisthemanofthi
shouse"
Me:"
wel
lmaybebecauseshe'
sthewif
e..
..ButIwant
youtot
ell
memor eaboutherchar
act
erwhatisshe
l
ike?
"
Her:
"wel
lfr
om whatIknowshehatesi
twhenpeopl
e
compli
mentherbyherbodyst
ruct
ure"
Me:
"o-
kaysohowdoesonebecomeherFr
iend?"
Her:
"don'
tknowI'
m notherf
ri
end,
Iwoul
dj ustsay
stopacti
ngli
keadogonheatwhenyou'
rear ound
hershehatesmenwhoseeherasasext oy"
Shestoodupandl ef
tmet hereandthi
sPenel ope
chicki
sgoingtoboremei fshecounti
esactinglike
theitt
hingIhategoi
ngaf t
erthesamethingforlong
Igetboredofthechase.IgottogetLwandleoutof
thesceneIhavetomaket heboardmember st hat
havi
nghim asthel
eaderi
sjustr
ubbi
shandi
fshe
ai
n'
tbreakabl
eIknowjusthowtopushhi
sbutt
ons
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ngl
otandGodwasLolof
ixi
ng
meup imeanIsawmysel
fint
hemirr
orbutno
shej
usthadtoactli
keI
'
m meeti
ngt
heinl
aws.
Me:
"okayst
oporI
'
mtur
ningt
hiscarbacknow"
Lol
o:"
butI
'
mjustf
ixi
ngy
ouup"
Me:
"don'
t.
..Don'
tfi
xmeupdon'
t"

Lol
o:"
fi
neI
'
m sor
ry.
..
.Iwon'
ttouchy
ouagai
n"
Me:"
whosai
dany
thi
ngaboutt
ouchi
ng?Comel
et'
s
go"
Shegotoutoft
hecarandwentt
ogetLesegoout
whi
l
eIgothi
sst
rol
l
er
Me:
"t
obet
rut
hful
wheny
ou'
reangr
yyouar
eugl
y"
Lol
o:" y
ouknowwhatt
hat
'si
tlet
's.
..
."
[
Cel
l
phoner
ings]
Lol
o:"
county
ourbl
essi
ngs.
..
..
Heyf
ri
end"
Ihopet hatfri
endofher siscanceli
ngIdon' twant
tobemeet ingthepeopl ewhoar eteachingmywi fe
badmanner sIj
ustmi ghtki l
lthem.Iwi shforherto
bef r
iendswi ththosehol yholyt y
peofgi rl
slike
vir
gins,goest ochurch,wear slongskirt
sandno
j
eansandi sv eryrespectful whatbl ameaguyf or
try
ingIdon' tevenwantt osni ffaguycl osetoherI'd
diebutaf t
erki l
l
ingher t henwe'llbedead
together ni ceIknow.Shehungupandj ustwalked
towardsme
Me:
"sowhenweanswerourphoneswest
epaway
f
rom eachot
hernow?
"
Lol
o:" l
et'
sgoeatI
'
m st
arv
ing"
Me:
"sowhowast
hat
?"
Lol
o:"
itwasBi
ancashesai
dsheai
n'
tcomi
ngno
more"
Me:
"yes"

Me:
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'
llpay
"
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vemeev enatinysmi l
ebutshej ust
pushedLesego'sstr
oll
erandwal kedaheadofmet o
Wimpyr eall
yfat
sfood any waymay bethiswas
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hus.
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edf orusIcoul
dsayIknowLol onow,i
tmi ght
bethatmuchbutIknowwhatshel i
kesandwhat
shedoesn'tsoI'
m ontheri
ghttrackaf t
erourlunchI
paid
Me;
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etonext
?"
Lol
o:"
don'
tknowy
ouchoose"

Me:
"l
et'
sgoshoppi
ng"
Lol
o:"
uhIhav
ebeenshoppi
ngf
ort
hepastf
ewday
sI
thi
nkIhav
eenough"
Me:"
wellnotbr
oughtbymesocomeIwantsome
t
ieseven"
Lol
o:"
justcutonedr
eadl
ockeachdayandmakeat
ie
outofthem"

Me:
"don'
tyouwantt
ogot
othesal
onorsomet
hing?
"
Lol
o:"
fumesar
esai
dnott
ogoodf
orLesego"
Me:"I
'
llt
akehim.
..Herey ougojustchangeyour
hai
rstyl
eorcuty
ourey ebrows,
dowhat every
ou
womendoatsal ons"
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kedandt ookthecard Lor dwhatam I
creat
ingnowI '
m alway
st hr
owingmoneyatherbut
thenagainshedoeshav etolookgoodfor
me,speakingofwhichshejuststoodonhert
oeeven
i
nheel sshe'
sstil
lshor
t sheki ssedmycheekI
thoughtI'
dgetarealki
ssnott hi
s
Lol
o:"
don'tmi
ndthenot
if
icat
ionsy
ou'
l
lgetony
our
phonethebanki
slyi
ng"
Shewasaboutt
owal
kawaybutIpul
l
edherback
Me:
"f
ivegr
andunder
stand?Justf
ivegr
and"
Lol
o:"
butIwantt
ogetaPer
uvi
an"
Me:"
andhowi
sthati
mpor
tant
?Howmuchi
sthat
any
way?"
Lol
o:"
don'
tst
ressyour
sel
fI'
l
lspendwaybel
owy
our
budgeIpr
omise"
Me:
"yeahr
ightwi
thPeruv
ianorwhat
everi
nthe
mi
x..
.gi
vememycar d"
Lol
o:"
comeonLwandl
eyoucan'
tteasemel
i
ket
his.
..
"
Me:
"j
ustgi
vemet
hef
ucki
ngcar
dpl
ease"
Lol
o;"
thi
sisnotf
airIhadpl
ansy
ouknow.
.."
Me:
"Lol
ogi
vemet
hedamncar
dnow"
Lolo:
"mxm t
akey
ourcar
dandhav
efunsl
eepi
ngon
thecouch"
Shesul
kedgi
vi
ngmet
hecar
d
Me:"
youlookugl
ywheny ou'
rel
iket
hat
..
..
taket
his
oneandtheli
mitther
ereal
lyi
sseton5ksodon'tget
anyfunnyi
deas"
Lol
o:"
sincewe'r
ebei
ngst
ingyI
'
llbest
ingywhenwe
gethomet oo"
Me:
"Il
ovest
ingywoman"
Iki
ssedhercheekshebl
i
nkedcoupl
eoft
imesand
walkedaway
Me:
"cal
lmewheny
ou'
redone"
Shenodandjustwalkedtowardsthesalon Ihat
e
thest
rol
l
ersoIjustshoveditinthecarandhel
dmy
soninmyhandsnowi t'
sfatherandsont i
me.
Me:"
li
tt
lemanweser i
ouslyseri
ousl
yneedt
oget
Lol
opregnantorshe'
l
lleaveus"
hewon' ttellIknowbuti tseemshar dgettingher
pregnant sheshoul dbebynowbef orei
tr egist
ers
tohert hatmypl ani stoactuall
ygetherpr egnant
wewal kedar oundj ustbuyingaf ewthingsher eand
therethanwewenti nt
ot hi
slingeri
eshop,ast heysay
asknoquest ionshearnol i
es.Wel lashopassi stant
welcomedusbyt hedooral lsmiley f ussingov er
Lesegowel l
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edLoloI '
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keahandson
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all
yoncet
heyheart
hatI'
m asi
ngl
efat
her
theni
t'
spantsdownformebutnotnow I'
m
marri
ed
Leah:
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rmynamei
sLeahandIwi
l
lbe
assi
sti
ngyou"
Isawhernameonhert
agdon'
tgetanyi
deas
Me:
"okaycool
umhIwantt
obuysomel
i
ngerf
or
my.
..
"
Leah:
"wi
fe?
"
Me;
"welly
eahshe'snott
hint
houghandshe'
snotf
at
umhjustful
lfi
gur
edandstuf
f"
Leah:
"okayasi
ze32may
be?
"
Me:
"def
iant
ly"
Leah:
"t
hiswaysi
r"
Ifoll
owedherandLor
dwasmysonjustst
ucki
nhis
ownwor l
dthankheav
enshedi
dn'
tknowwhatwas
goingonhere
Leah:
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ldopi
ckt
heonesy
oul
i
ke"
Me:
"doIhav
eto?Imeany
ourt
heshopassi
stanty
ou
pi
ck"
Leah;
"wel
lcany
oushowmeapi
ctur
eofy
ourwi
fe?
"
Inodandjusttookoutmyphonewenttomygal
ler
y
andchosethemostappropr
iat
epicofLol
oand
showedittoher
Leah;
"andsheseemsl
i
kea30j
usthasumh.
..
."
Me:
"ahugeassIknow"
Leah;
"Iwasgoi
ngt
osaycur
vesbuti
t'
sfi
ne,
her
eyou
go"
Shegavememyphoneandjustpickedoutthree
outf
it
s I
'
m sogoingt
ol oveseeingLoloin
thi
s
Me:
'
I'
ll
taket
hem al
l
"
Leah:
"umhokayIhopey
ourwi
fel
i
kest
hem"
Me:
"shehat
esev
ery
thi
ngdon'
twor
ry,
theywoul
dn'
t
bet
hefir
st"
Wewal kedt
ot het
ell
erandshegreet
edmeIgreet
ed
herbackwellmyphoneranganditwasLol
osoI
pi
ckedupwhi l
etheshopassist
antwast
aki
ng
Lesegof
rom me
Me:
"babe"
"
He'
ssocut
ejustl
i
kehi
sdaddy
"
Lol
o:"
ohwhosecut
e?Wher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:
"t
heyaretal
ki
ngtoLesegoandyeahI
'
m cut
e
t
oo.
..
.I'
m att
heshopsareyoudone?"
Lol
o:"y
esI'
m donesot
hisiswhyyouchoset
ogo
wit
hLesego?Youaredefi
ant
lysl
eepi
ngonthe
couch"
Me:
"Lol
ono.
..
.don'
tfor
gety
oucanwal
khome"
Lol
o:"
mxm hur
ryIgoty
ouanappoi
ntment
"
Me:
"huh?Forwhat
?"
Lol
o:"
tocuty
ourdr
eadl
ocks"
Me:"
forthel
astti
mewomanI '
m notcut
ti
ngmy
dr
eadlocksI
'
dr at
hersl
eeponthefl
oorevent
hancut
myhair"
Lol
o:"
youl
ovey
ourhai
rhey
"
Me:
"cuty
our
sandt
aket
hePer
uvi
anmoney
,we'
l
l
sav
eit
"
Shechuckl
ed
Lol
o:"
justcomepi
ckmeupandst
opusi
ngLesego
topi
ckup"
Me:
"I
'm onmyway
..
.."
Ihungupandj
ustcol
l
ect
edmyst
uffIt
ookLesego
fr
om Leah
Me:
"t
hanky
oul
adi
es"
Leah:
"wel
lhopewedi
dn'
tgety
oui
ntr
oubl
e"
Ichuckl
edandshookmyhead
Me:
"I
'm al
way
sint
roubl
e"
Iwalkedoutandthebagstothecarbeforegoi
ngto
fet
chLolowhowasl ookingty
pesofr av
ishi
ngbut
heyitcostmemoneyf orhertobeli
kethissoIwas
expecti
ngonlyt
hebestwehal fhugged.
Her
:"
yousmel
ll
ikeawoman"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"andar
eyouaman?Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Her
:"
5Kr
emember
?Sohowwasmanshoppi
ng"
Me:
"l
ikeadr
eam l
et'
sgohomeI
'
mti
red"
Her
:"
nowyouunder
standhowi
tfeel
stobea
woman"
Ichuckl
edandtookherhandi
ntominewewalkedto
mycarwewentbyKFCandor deredbydr
ivet
hrushe
washungryandyesshehadhernail
sdi
d
.
Penel
ope
Ij
usthadamakeoverIdi
dn'tneed whatshoul
dI
sayheoff
eredandIwonderwhybutwhocar
es.
Me:
"howaboutsomeBr
iskett
oni
ght
?"
Hi
m:"
cany
oucool
wit
hsuchl
ongnai
l
s?"
Me:
"Icandoalotoft
hingswi t
hthesehandsandI'
l
l
t
akeyouranswerasayes..
..
.butyou'
l
lhavetohel
p
wi
thLesego"
Hi
m:"
wel
lany
thi
ngf
orni
cef
ood"
Ichuckl
edandjustt
ookoutmyphoneandbegan
taki
ngpict
uresIdi
dever
ythi
ngIcoul
dthi
nkof
fto
keepmebusyIev enwentbackonsoci al mediaI
missedmyaccount sanditlookedliketheymi ssed
met oocauseIwasf l
oodedwi thmessagesf rom left
ri
ghtandcenter.WhenwegothomeIwasf orcedt o
takeLesegocausehisfatherdidn'
twantmehol ding
hisshoppingbags Iwentt oputthelitt
leguy
upstai
rsandchangedintomysl i
ppers.
Me:
"I
'l
lgoandchecki
fIhav
emyi
ngr
edi
ent
s"
Hi
m:"
youknowt hewayi
t'
ssoqui
tei
tgoest
oshow
t
hati
t'
sjustus"
Me:
"andwhat
'
ssobi
gaboutt
hat
?Letgopl
ease"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oIcan'
t.
..
.Ij
ustcan'
t
"
Me'
"
youcan'
twhat
?Letmego"
Hi
m:"
thatwor
d..
..
lety
ougoIcan'
tdoi
t"

Me:"
you'r
ecreepi
ngmeout
,Lwandl
eI'
l
lbe
downstai
rs"
Hi
m:"
cany
oudomeaf
avour
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
don'
tl
ist
ent
oany
thi
ngCul
utel
l
syou"
Iyankedmyhandawayandj
ustsatdownonhi
slap
hugginghi
m
Me:"he'
sanassandy ouknowIhat
emenwhoact
l
ikepevert
s..
..
.Idon'
tcar
eabouthi
mjusty
ouand
yourson"
Hi
m:"
ourson"

Hi
m: "
yeshe'
soursoncauseyou'
ret
aki
ngcar
eof
hi
m nowandhe'l
lgrowuptoknowyouashis
mother"
Me:"gr
eatsoIsayIdon'
twantNancyashi
s
nanny.
..
."
Henodandj
ustki
ssedmyneck
Hi
m:"
Don'
ttr
ustCul
unomat
terwhatanddon'
tfal
l
f
orhi
schar
ms"
Me:
"Iknowbel
i
evemeI
'
lldeal
wit
hhi
m"
Iki
ssedhisl
i
psandbusypl
ayi
ngwi
thhi
sdr
eadl
ocks
soIpul
ledaway
Me:
"Igot
tacheckont
hei
ngr
edi
ent
snowsopl
ease"
Hi
m:"
okayI
'
llr
estup"
Igotoffandjustwalkedoutoft heroom tothe
ki
tchenbutheywewer eoutofbr i
sket nowwhat
l
ambst ewanddumpl i
ngs,Ijustwant edt
ocook
somethingheartyandhomel ysoy eahItookout
somelambj usttodefrost
,LordknowsIwasbor ed
butcookingwast heonlyt
hingkeepi ngmebusy .
"
Hey
"
It
urnedar
oundandf
oundCul
u If
akedasmi
l
e
Me:
"heywher
ewer
eyou?
"
Hi
m:"
wentoutt
ovi
sitaf
ri
end"
Me:"
that'
sgr
eatatl
eastyou'
l
lhav
ef r
iends.
..
..Hav
e
youfoundanapar
tmentorsomethi
ng?"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
arey
out
hrowi
ngmeout
?"
Me:"
nojustsay
ingImeanamanasgrownasy ou
sur
elyneedspr
ivacyandImeany
ourcousi
nis
marri
ed"
Him:"
yeaht
hat
'sri
ghtandyouar
er i
ghtyouguy
sdo
needsomepri
vacytoscr
eam al
lyouli
ke"
Me:
"mmhandIhopey
oudon'
thav
eanyal
l
ergi
est
o
l
amb"
Hi
m:"
nahI
'
m cool
"
Inodandwentbackt
omycooki
ngandhal
fanhour
l
aterIwasdone witht
hewei
rdCul
ubusytr
yingt
o
smoothtal
kme.
Me:"
okayenough...
.Jeezyoucancompl i
mentmy
bodyamil
lionandhundredt i
mesbutit'
screepyand
i
t'
ssexualharassment.I
'l
ltel
lLwandl
eaboutthis"
Him:"
okayI'
m sorr
y,buthasheeverandImeanever
tol
dyouthathelovesy ou?Ort
hatheneedsyou?
Doeshetakeyouondat es?
"

Me:"r
eall
y?Idon'tneedhimt otel
lhi
mt hatheloves
meort hatheneedsmeIseet hem fr
om hisacti
ons.
Wordsliebutactionsdon'tandri
ghtnowy our
act
ionstellmethaty ou'
reuptonogood"
Hegi
ggl
ed
Him:"youknowaprettygi
rll
ikeyoudeser
vestobe
tr
eatedright
,y
oudeserveeveryt
hingmoneycanbuy.
Penelopehedoesn'
tloveyou"
Me:
"andy
ouknowsomeonewhodoes?Cul
u?"
Hi
m:"he'sgoi
ngt obreaky
ousobadl
yyouwon'
tev
en
r
ecogniseyoursel
f"
I
fonl
yheknewwhatIhav
ebeent
hroughhe'
dshut
up
Me:
"mxm"
Iwal
kedawaybuthehel
dmyhand
Hi
m:"
letmehel
pyou"
Me:"
letgoofmer
ightnow...
..
andifther
eis
someonewhoneedshelphereit
'syou"
Iyankedmyhandawayf rom hi
m andtur
nedonmy
heelsIwalkedupst
air
stowakeLwandlecauseal
l
thi
st i
mehewassl eepi
ngsoIhadt ot
akecareof
Lesegowhi l
ecooki
ng Ij ustgotont
hebedbehind
him andshookhim up
Me:
"wakeupsupperi
sready
"
Hi
m:"
okayI
'
m comi
ng"
Me:
"nowismuchappr
eci
atedy
ourcousi
nisf
reaki
ng
meout"
Hi
m:"
what
?"
Hetur
nedar
oundt
olookatmeohsot
hatwakes
youup
Hi
m:"
whatdi
dhedo?Tel
lme"
Me:"
hewasbusytell
i
ngmehowsexyIam andhow
Godtookhist
imeinmakingme..
..
.Idon'
tknowbut
pl
easelet
'sgodownther
etoget
her"
Hi
m:"
didhecal
lyouasexgoddess?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"buthewast
hinki
ngi
t.
..
.I'
mti
redofmenseei
ng
meli
kethat
"
Hi
m: "
Iknowcomel
et'
sgof
reshenup,
I
'l
ltel
lhi
mto
l
eave"
Me:"Ial
readygauveandIalreadyf
eel
bad..
.I
'
llbe
seenast hatspoi
l
tbratmakot i
whogotbet
ween
cousinsandmadet hem f
ight"
Hi
m:"
noonewi
l
lseey
oul
i
ket
hatunder
stand?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
good.
..
.howl
ongwasIoutf
or?"
Me:
"anhourorsomet
hingt
her
e"
Him:"
andy
oudi
dn'
twakemeup?Whati
fIwas
dead?"
Me:
"we'
dbur
yyoueasyt
hing"
Hefl
ippedmeov
erget
ti
ngontopofmebusy
t
ickl
i
ngme beingti
ckl
edhur
tsithur
tssobad
Me:
"st
oppl
ease,
stopi
t.I
'
m dy
ingpl
ease"
Hi
m:"
stopbei
ngev
ilsayy
ou'
resor
ry,
sayy
oursor
ry"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryLwandl
eI'
m sor
ry.
..
.St
opi
t "
Hi
m:"
SayIhav
eahugedi
ck"

Me:
"I
'dbel
yi
ng"
Hi
m:"
Lol
osayIhav
eahugeshaf
t"
Icoughed
Me:"
God..
..Lwandl
e..
..
Lwandl
ehasahuge hasa
hugeshaf
t"
Hi
m:" IknowIdo"
Hekissedmyf or
eheadandgotoffme Islowl
y
gotoffandonceIwasfreef
rom hishol
d.
Me:"
for
getacarr
otyouar
ewor
set
hant
haty
ouar
e
somechopsti
cks"
Heroaredmynamesohar dthatIranint
othe
bat
hroom andl
ockedmy sel
fintheshowerclot
hes
andall wel lIhadtoopenupandl ethiminandI
wenttotakeof
fmyclothesasifthat
'l
lhappenhe
bl
ockedme.
Hi
m:"
whoi
schopst
icks?
"
Me:
"sor
rySokhul
u..
..
"
Hi
m:"
mmhi
t'
sfi
ner
eal
l
ylet
'
sbat
h"

Me:
"l
etmeundr
ess"
Hi
m:'
Icansol
vet
hat
"
Hegri
ppedonmyjacketpushingi
tbackandslowl
y
movi
ngitoutofmyarmstil
litwasoff
,Iscr
eamed
whenheheldmydress
Hi
m:"
andnow?
"
Me:
"pl
easedon'
ttearmydr
ess"
Hi
m:"
Iwoul
dnev
ery
oul
ookpr
ett
yint
his"
Inodandhesl owlyli
ftedi tupjuststar
ingatme I
l
ift
edmyar msandhej usttookitoffnowf ormybr a
andpant ies whenhe' sbuyskissingmeIdon' t
mindbutnowwe' rest andingdoingnot hi
ngIwas
breathingsoheav i
lyIdon' tevenknowwhatt heycal
l
thi
st ypeofbr eathi
ngIhadgoi ngonbutitwas
i
ntenseandhehadt omakei tworsebyki ssi
ngmy
shouldersIhel dmybr eathashesuckedonmyneck
Ihadonmybr eathbr uhmybodyhast olearntobe
strongagai nsthim.Hej ustunhookedmybr apull
ing
i
tof fmel ikehowy ounor mallypeeloffabanana
Hi
m:"
breat
hory
ou'
l
lfai
nt"
Hewhisper
edni
bbl
i
ngonmyearIdidrel
easemy
br
eat
hbutthent
hatheav
ybr
eat
hingbegancause
thi
smotherf
uckerwasjustmakingi
thar
dformet
il
l
Iwasnakedanddri
ppi
ngwetf orhi
m and
then
Hi
m:"
let
'sgoshowerI
'
m hungr
y"
iwant edt opr otestbutIdeci dedagai nstitand
wentt oshowerwet ookaqui ckshowerandhegot
outf i
rstIwasst i
lljusttryi
ngt ounder standt hat
carrotcakegotmewetandr eadyj ustt ot el
l met hat
he'shungr y paybacki sabi tchIgotoutj ustto
fi
ndourbedr oom empt ysoher anaway .Ifounda
nighti
e pi nkandbl acki ncol orohsohehat esmy
nighti
esIputonmybodyl otionandj ustwor et he
nighti
ehepi ckedf uckPenel opest opl yi
ngy ouknow
thatthisisnotani ghtie Ij ustputi tonanddamni t
fi
tmeper fect l
yjusttightinal l ther ightpl acesIput
oni t
'srobeandj ustf i
xedupmyhai randdi dmy
makeupt henIwor emybl ackgl adi atorheel s I
toldyoupaybacki sabi t
chIgott extf r
om hi m and
hewast elli
ngmet ocomedowncausei twasj ust
thetwoofus.IputonmyDKNYper fumet hanj ust
walkedoutIst rutdownt hest airsj usttobemetby
him holdingonhi swai stinant icipat i
on
Hi
m:"
unt
iet
hatt
hing"
Ijustf
oll
owedorder
sanduntiedt
her
obewalki
ng
downwhi l
elooki
ngatt
hesirwhohel
douthi
shand
formeandIgav ehi
m mine.
Hi
m:"
youarebeaut
if
ulgir
l.
..Jeal
oust
hrownoutof
t
hewindowyouarebeauti
ful"
i
giggl
edf
uckIwasbl
ushi
ngmyf
aceof
f
Hi
m:"
youhungr
y?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"I
'mf
ull
.
.."
Hi
m:"
thensi
nceIat
eIwantmydesser
t"
Me:"
Imadesomechocol
atet
ri
fl
eIcangety
ou
some"
Hi
m:"
Iwantmyv
ani
l
lacake.
..
..
that
'sy
ou"
Ibl
ushedandhejustpi
ckedmeupleadingustoour
bedr
oom Icl ear
edmyt hr
oatandpushedthedoor
shut
.
Me:
"wher
eisCul
u?"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tcar
e,Ij
ustwanty
out
obemi
net
oni
ght
"
Iwassweat inginter
nall
ysowhenhepl acedmeon
thebedIwasal r
eadybreathi
nglikeIwasr unni
ngup
amount ain,
heleanedov erandli
ckedmyl ipsIpar
tl
y
partedthem butdololoakisshekissedmyneck
suckingonit,i
twaslikehewasbi ti
ngmeIgaspeda
bitandhemov edtomyneckl inedoingthesame.
Hi
m:"
konj
ewhatdi
dyoucal
lmewhenwewentt
o
t
akeashower
"
Me:
"MrSokhul
u"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
Ithi
nki
twaschopst
icks"

IwantedtolaughbutIshutupwhenher
ippedt
he
l
inger
ieIgaspedbit
ingmyl owerl
i
p.
Hi
m:"
tel
lmewhatdi
dyoucal
lmeagai
n?"
Me:
"MrSokhul
u"
Hi
m:"
tel
lthet
rut
h"
Iexhal
edl
oudl
yashi
shandsl
owl
ytr
avel
eddownmy
stomach,Iwasdoi
ngthatcr
azybreat
hingImean
whatdoy oucal
li
tagai
nbutitwasthatty
peof
breat
hingmixedwi
thmoaningcausemyheartwas
beati
ngoutofmychest.Hekissedmytemple
Hi
m:"
tel
lmet
het
rut
hwhatdi
dyoucal
lme?
"
Me:
"bu.
.buhy
ousai
ditwasf
ine"
Hi
m:"
ofcour
sei
t'
sfi
nebutwhati
sfi
neLol
o?"
Me:
"umh.
..
..
.Ij
ust
..
.I.
..
"
Her emov edmyt hongi noneswi ftmov eIwas
scarednowIwasscar ed.Hechuckl edandj usttook
offhisv estexposinghi ssexybody hepul ledme
downposi ti
oninghimsel fontopofme, weshar eda
l
ingeringkissandhi shandf oundmyhoney pot
rubbingmeIwasmoani ngi
nhi smout handt hatgot
himt ochuckl ehepul l
edawayandj ustbegan
kissi
ngmyneckgoi ngdownonmesucki ngonmy
boobs, myst omacht il
ltothegol dencir
clethehoney
potf i
ll
edwi thhoneyandhesuckedoni tgiv
ingme
shiversdownmyspi neandsoonIcamer ightt here
andhel i
ckedmecl ean,comingupt omewi thasmi l
e
onhi sface.
Him:
"yourf
ir
stor
gasm whi
chIt
ast
ed.
..Wannat
ast
e
your
self
?"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
that
'sr
ubbi
shher
etake"
Hef orcedtokissmetongueandallt
hensoonhe
j
ustpushedhi mselfi
nmeIgr i
ppedont hesheet sas
Iarchedmybackhe' shugebuthedoest hat,
hewas
goingcircl
esanddeeperwithever
ythrustjustthat
hemuf f
edallmyscreamswiththeki
sses.Iwas
moani nginhi
smout hall
thi
stimehandsabov emy
head
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11/
2,21:
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nne:
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sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 22♡
.
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.
Idon'
tknowwhybutIcoul
dn'
tsl
eepnotforl
ong
anywaycauseIwokeupandj
ustfoundmysel
f
wrappedar oundi nLwandl e'sar msIwasf acingthe
balconysohewasbehi ndme, Isl owl yturnedaround
j
ustt of indhi m sl eepingsopeacef ull
ywi thhissoft
snores he' scut eandwhenhe' ssl eepingy ou
woul dn'tbel i
ev et hatist hesamemanwi t
han
i
ncur abledi sor derort hemanwhot ookmy
Innocencebyf or ceandbeatmeupev eryt i
mehe
hadabaddayIf or gavebutdi dn'tf orgetsot hatI
couldl ear nf rom mymi st akes.Iwant edt otouchhim
buthef l
inchedabi tli
kehewasaboutt owakeup
buther emai nedst il
laftert hatt hedr eadlocksfellt
o
hisfacesoIhadt omov et hem bef oretheywoke
him upIsl owl ypushedt hem r ev elinghisbeaut if
ul
faceseet hisf acei sev er ygirl'
sdr eam nott o
ment iont hebodybutast heysayy oucan' thaveitall
andnowLwandl ehasacl osetf ull ofskeletonsGod
I'
llneedy ouont hisone.Imov edmyhanddownhi s
shoul derhi ssomuscul arhandspl ushewasn' t
wear ingt hebl anketf ull
yj ustr ev eal i
nghi supper
bodywhi chi s hef l
inchedasIwasaboutt o
touchhi sabsandLor dknowsIdon' twantt owake
himI 'mi npai nr i
ghtnowhef uckedmer eall
ygood
butt onightwasdi ffer
enthewasext ragent leandhe
neverl
eftmyl ips.Islowlyescapedhi shol dandjust
woremyr obeandsl ippersti
ptoeingt othebathroom
topeeandshi tIwasev enhungr ysinceIact edli
ke
toughgirl
butaf termybusi nessIj ustwashedmy
handsandbr ushedmyt eet
hI '
m hungr y whi leI
cookedIain'thav i
nganyoft hatnotnow.Iwal ked
outofthebedr oom tot hekitchent ogetmy self
somethingtoeatbutt hestewwasf i
nished t hese
guysthought heyf i
nisheditbutdidn'tbotherto
washthedi shIusedf orit t hey'
llknowme
tomorrowmor ni
ng.Icutmy selfsomet r
if
leand
pouredsomemi lkandsatdownt oenj oymysweet
work Iwant edSt ew .
Wellsomegirl
steppedint heki
tchennoletme
rephr
asethatMYkitcheninashi r
tonlywhichI
'
m
guessi
ngit'
sCulu'
sshirtcauseIjustwokeupnear
Lwandleshestr
utinandst oppedwhenshesawme.
Her
:"
ohhi
..
..
whyar
eyousi
tt
ingi
nthedar
k?"
Me:"Whyareyouwal ki
ngar
oundatni
ghti
nother
people'
shomes?Thenaskt heonewhoshoul
dbe
aski
ngy ouquest
ions?"
Her
:"
ohmybadI
'
m Ont
hat
hil
eI'
m wi
thCul
u"
Me:
"soIsee"
Iwentbacktomyf oodandshej
ustwenttothe
fr
idgeandpouredsomewater Cul user
iousl
y
needsmannersshoveddownhisthr
oat.
Ontha:
"andumhI'
m sorryi
fyouknow.
..
.Wef
ini
shed
al
lthestewIwasjusthungr
y"
sheat
emyshareatthestew Ididn'
tev
en
answerhercauseI
'
llbeusi
ngtoughwordsagai
nst
her.
Ont
ha:
"what
'sy
ourname?
"
Me:
"Penel
ope"
Ont
ha:
"ohsoy
ouwoul
dn'
tmi
ndi
fIcal
lyouPenny
?"
Me:
"Imi
ndwi
thev
eryf
ibr
eofmybei
ng"
Ont
ha:
"buti
t'
sacut
ename.
..
."
"
Babewhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
WelookedatthedooranditwasCuluhecamet o
hugthatgi
rlf
rom behi
ndandjustki
ssedherneck.
Ont
ha:
"Ij
ustwant
edsomewat
erImeany
out
ir
edme
out
"
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroatImeanI
'
mtr
yingt
oeather
enot
thr
owup.
Culu:
"Sor
ryLolowejustarr
ivedl
ateandyouwer
e
al
readysleepi
ngsoIcouldn'
twakeyou"
Me:
"ohnoIdon'
tmi
ndnotatal
l
"
Iwasbei
ngsar
cast
icf
uckImi
ndIhat
esur
pri
ses.
"
Lol
o?Wher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:
"I
ntheki
tchen"
Lwandlewalkedinwithj
usthi
sjeansonhewas
busyscrat
chinghisheadbutst
oppedinhi
str
acks.
Lwandl
e:"
Ont
hat
hil
e?Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Ohgr
eatt
heyknoweachot
her
Cul
u:"
she'
swi
thmeCuzyIi
nvi
tedher
"
Lwandle:
"ain'tthatbul
lmixedwit
hshi
t?Youar
ea
guestbuty etyoucallguestsi
nmyhouse?It
he
ownerhav en'teveninvi
tedpeopl
e"
Ont
ha:
"she'
saguest
?"
Lwandl
e:"
she'
smywi
fenotaguest
..
..
baby
"
Me:
"mmh?
"
Il
ookedathi
mli
cki
ngt
hef
ork
Lwandl
e:"
whyar
eyoueat
ingsol
ate.
..
"
Me:
"I
'm hungr
y..
..
"
Heki
ssedt
hesi
deofmyheadr
ubbi
ngi
t.
Lwandl
e:"
that
'snotf
ood"
Inod
Me:
"t
hest
ewIt
houghtIwoul
deatj
ustdi
sappear
ed"
Cul
u:"
we'
resor
rywet
houghty
ouat
e"
Ont
ha:
"Iwoul
dhav
eeat
ent
hatbutIhav
etowat
ch
mywei
ght"

Me:"
whatwei ght
?Youneedal
lthef
oody
oucanget
ev
ent hi
s..
.."
Iwasbusyl
i
cki
ngt
hef
ork
Lwandl
e:"
feedmepl
ease.
..
."
Me:
"f
ri
dge"
Lwandl
e:"
Ican'
teatt
hef
ri
dge.
..
.Iwantt
hat
"
Me:"
ther
eissomei
nthef
ri
dgeLwandl
eI'
m hungr
y
her
e"
Lwandl
e:"
feedme"
Hepi
nchedmywai
st
Me:
"okayokayher
eyougo"
Hejustsmi
ledandtookabitewedi
dn'
tcar
eabout
t
hosetwori
ghtnowIj ustwant
edhi
mtoletgoofmy
wai
stbuthedidn'
tandheseemedtobeenjoy
ingi
t.
Lwandl
e:"
agai
n"
Me:
" I
'
m hungr
yLwandl
eI'
m hungr
y"
Cul
u:"
goodni
ghtguy
s..
."
Lwandl
e:"
night
..
.nowy
ouIsai
dmor
e"
Me:
"I
'm hungr
yandy
ou'
redecr
easi
ngmypor
ti
ons"
Lwandle:
"I
'm hungryt
oorememberhowhar
dIwas
worki
ng?Nowf eedme"
Me:
"f
inel
etgoofmywai
st"
Henodandl etgonowIhavetosharemyf oodev en
themil
khewant edi
tsoyeahwehadourmi dnight
snackandIwashedmyplateandglassthatstew
dishI
'm notgoi
ngtot
ouchitt
hey'
llwashit
themsel
v es
Me:
"l
et'
sgot
obed"
Hi
m:"
whatar
eyouwear
ingunder
neat
hther
e"
Me:
"l
et'
sgot
obed"
Hi
m:"
answermef
ir
st"
Ijustwalkedawayfr
om hi
m buthepull
edmeback
pinningmeagainstt
hewallhandsabov
emyhead
andshi theki
ssedmyneckhet ookabi
teofi
tli
ke
teethandall.
Him;
"Isaidwhatar
eyouwear
ingi
nther
e?Whyar
e
youbeingrude?
"
Me:"
I'
m notbei
ngr
ude Ij
ustwantust
ogoand
sl
eepI'
mt i
red"
Hi
m:"
soy
ou'
rewear
ingnot
hingunder
neat
h?"
Me:
"di
dn'
thav
ethet
ime"
Hesmi
rkedandpi
ckedmeuppi
nni
ngmybackon
t
hewal
llegsonhi
swaist
Hi
m:"
ourhouseourr
ules.
..
.."
Heki ssedmesohungr i
lythatIrespondedmoani ng
i
nhi smout hasheunti
edt herobeIt houghtIwas
goingt ofallbuthemadesur eIdon't,
heunzippedhis
j
eansbr uhIheardthem andsoonIf elthi
mi nsi
de
memoani nginhismouth.Hepul l
edawayf rom t
he
ki
sspecki ngmyl i
pshechockedmepi nningmy
headont hewal l
.
Hi
m:"
don'
twaket
heot
her
sup"
Me:
"you'
rechocki
ngme.
..
"
Hesmi rkedandloosenedhi
shold,hebegan
thr
usti
ngi nandoutofmesl owl
yandsl owl
y
i
ncreasingthepacedon'twaketheothersmyfoot
hewasbusyscr ewingmybr ai
ncellsout and
chuckl
ingjustt
oshowhewasdoi ngitonpurpose.
Me:
"Lwandl
e..
..
.Fuck"Imoaned
Hechuckl
ed
Him:"what?"Hewasgr oani ngthissexshitisgoing
tokil
lmeespeci all
yatthisr at
e hej ustpounded
onmehar derwhichhurtfill
edwi t
hpleasureIwas
busypushi nghim of
fbuthepushedmyhandsof f
hischestandf uckedmel ikecrazy.Iwasliter
ally
goinginsanehegr oanedashel ai
dhisheadonmy
shoulderbreathi
ngheav i
l
ywest ayedlikethatfora
l
itt
lewhilet i
l
lhegothisstrengthback.
Hi
m:"
Itol
dyout
onev
erspeakt
oCul
u"
Me:
"buthespoket
omeLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"buty
ouent
ert
ainedhi
m andI
'
llpuni
shy
ouf
or
t
hat"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
itwasjustasi
ngl
esent
encenot
hingmor
eI
pr
omi se"
Hi
m:"
sti
l
lwor
dsf
rom y
ourmout
h"

Me:
"Ihadt
orepl
y"
Hi
m:"
hey
idon'
tar
guewi
thme"
Me:
"sor
ryke"

Hehel dontomywai stl

eadi
ngmeupstair
stothe
room hewasser i
ousl
yaboutt
hepunishmentshi
t
IthoughtIwasgoingtobecomeacr
ipplecauseIdid
everyacti
onther
ewasupanddown Ican' teven
standupright
.
Hi
m:"
comeher
e"
Me:"
uhuht
hisdi
stancebet
weenusi
scer
tai
nlynot
ki
l
li
ngme"
Hechuckl
edandjustpull
edmetowar
dshi
m
wr
appinghisar
msar oundme.
Hi
m:"
don'
ttel
lmey
ouar
eti
rednow"
Me:"
what?Ican'
tfeel
mylegsnott
omenti
onmy
vi
rgi
naseemst obedeadIhav
enofeel
i
ng"
Hi
m:"
let
'ssee.
."
Me:
"No!
!Justhol
dmel
i
ket
hisIt
hinkI
'
llbesaf
er"
Hi
m:"
okayt
urnar
ound"
Inodandweki ssedherubbedmyhoneypotand
yeahIsti
l
lhadf eel
i
nginbetweenther
ehestopped
whenhehear dmemoan.Hepul ledawayf
rom the
kissandpeckedmyl i
ps
Hi
m:"goodni
ghtandgoodnewsi
syoust
il
lhav
e
f
eel
inginbet
weenyourlegs"
Ichuckl
edandjustt
urnedar
oundmov i
ngcl
osert
o
him ashewrappedhi
sarmsaroundmywaistIwas
ti
redli
kereal
l
ytir
ed Ij
ustsl
eptl
i
keIwasdead.
Nextday
♡
Iwokeupyessti
llst
uckinhisarmsbruhhewas
hol
dingonandthi
ssideLesegowasonami ssionto
wakeuptheenti
reneighbor
hood.Ishookhi
sf ather
upandheletgoofmebutdi dn'
twakeup
Me:
"wakeupandgetr
eadyf
orwor
k"
Hegr
oanedl
ooki
ngt
heot
herway
Me:
"Lwandl
eIknowy
ouhear
dmesogetuppl
ease"
Hi
m:"
gocheckonLesego"
Me:
"wakeup"
Iwor
emyr
obeandsl
i
pper
s
Me:
"Now!
!"
Hej
ustsuf
focat
edhi
msel
fwi
tht
hepi
l
low
Iwentt
ocheckonthewhal
i
ngLesegoIpi
ckedhi
m
upandhushedhi
m.
Me:
"mor
ningJnr
"
Henev ercr
iesthi
smuchmay bei
t'
sbecausedur ing
thenighthedidn'
tcr
yev enifhedidnoonewoul d
haveheardhim wewer edeadaf t
erthepunishment.
Ichangedhisnappy Iser iousl
yhavemat ernal
i
nstinct
s Iwentwi t
hhi mt omyr oom j
usttofind
hisdadsprawledoutont hebedsnor i
ng hei sthe
onewhokeptmeupatni ghtbutnow
Me:
"Lwandl
ewakeupasembl
i
ef"
Heopenedoneey
eandj
ustl
ookedt
heot
herway
Me:
"Lwandl
ecomeon.
..
.y
oucan'
tkeepski
ppi
ng
wor
k"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
wakeup,
makemeacupofcof
fee"
Me:
"getup"
Hi
m:"
Iwi
l
lLol
oI'
mti
redandmybackhur
ts"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
ser
vesyouri
ght
..
.Hol
dLesegoI
'
m goi
ngt
o
br
ushmyteeth"
IputLesegoont
hebedbuthedi
dn'
tevenhol
dhi
mI
hadtopickuphi
shandandputi
tonLesego.
Me:
"j
usthol
dhi
m pl
easey
oudon'
thav
etowakeup"
Hi
m:"Lol
oIhel
dhi
m hau.
..
.whatt
ypeofhol
ddoy
ou
want
?"
Hewasmumbl i
ngsoIj
ustwenttofr
eshenup
befor
ehefall
sbacktosl
eepandleavesLesego
hangi
ngwhenIcamebackv el
ehewasgoneandno
l
ongerhol
dingLesego i t
ooktheli
ttl
emanwho
wasbusysuckingonmyphone
Me:
"yourf
atheri
sani
diotsomet
imesy
ouknow
t
hat
?"
"
Ihear
dthat
"
Me:"
IknowIwasn'twhisper
ing.
..
.getreadyI
'
llmake
youbreakf
astandst
rongblackcoffee"
Ij
ustgotanmmh It ookLesegoandwewent
downst ai
rstostartonbreakfastfort
hewholecrew
eventhoseIdon' tknowwhoat emystewwi t
houtmy
permission.Imadet hem afullonsetEngl
i
sh
breakfast.
"
Morni
ngRommi
e..
..
.ori
sithousemat
e?Whatar
e
weact
ual
l
y?"
Il
ookedupatt
hisOnt
hat
hil
egi
rli
sshef
orr
eal
Me:
"mor
ning"
Ont
ha:
"sowhatar
ewe?Ar
ewehousemat
esor
r
oommates"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"noneoftheaboveyouar
eaguestandI
'
mthe
hostsowe'renotequal
s"
Ont
ha:"
okayIseeLwandl
e'
sser
iousnessrubbedof
f
onyouthankGodIbr
okeupwit
hhim beforeIgoti
t"
Me:
"gotwhat
?"
Ont
ha:"
thatsourl
ookonyourf
aceandI'
m surpr
ised
Idi
dn'
tknowhewasget t
ingmarr
ied,
Iwonderwhy
hedi
dn'
ttel
lme"
Me:
"uhmaybethefactt
hatyou'
rehi
sexandnothi
s
mot
her.Whatarey
oudoing?"
Ont
ha:
"It
houghtIcoul
dhel
pyouknow.
..
."
Me:"noIdon'tknowl
ist
enviathekit
chenar
eaplease
stayawayfrom mypotsdon'thel
pmecookj ust
don'tt
ouchmypot s"
Ontha:
"okaydon'
tbi
temyheadoff.
..
.I'
m seri
ous
Lwandlereal
lymadeyoutobesourl
ikehim Imean
don'ty
ouwannahav efunanddowhatgirl
syourage
do"
Me:
"andwhat
'
sthat
?"
Ontha:
"wel
lIdon'
tknowwecouldgoshoppi
ng
dur
ingthedayandclubbi
ngl
ateron,
l
oosenupa
l
it
tl
e"

Me:"
IseebutIdon'
tneedtoloosenupandIhavemy
ownwayofhav i
ngfun.
..Idon'
thavet
obeneglect
ing
thef
actthatI
'
m someone'swife"
Ont
ha:
"andI
'
m notsay
ingy
oushoul
d..
."
Me:
"t
hanwhatar
eyousay
ing?Enl
i
ght
enme"
Ontha:
"gi
rly ou'
rebeaut
if
ulandt here'
snodoubt
aboutit
,youdoexpensi vehair
stylesandf rom t
he
l
ooksoft hingsexpensi
veclothesar eyourhighbut
that
'sal
lawast eifyou'
rejustcoopedupi nhere.I
meanwhocompl i
mentsandenv i
esy outhesewalls?
Youdeser v
et obecompl i
ment ed"
Thi
sgi
rlt
hough
Me:"thepersonwhopaysforal
lthoseexpensiv
e
t
hingshecompl i
mentsmeandthat'
sallthatmatt
ers
t
her estIdon'tcar
eabouti
t.
"
Ontha:"
seehehasr eal
lybrai
nwashedy outhisiswhy
Amandl aranawayshewast i
redofbeinghisslave
alwayscoopedupandonl yallowedoutsideaccess
whenhewant syouto.
..
.Pieceofadvicerunwhi l
e
youstil
lcanbeforeyougetpregnantcauseaf t
erthat
he'l
lshowy ouhistr
uecolours"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Whatcol
ouri
sthat
?"
Ont
ha:
"Lwandl
eisabadbadmanhei
saki
l
ler
..
..See
Ibel
i
eveheki
l
ledAmandl
aandsai
dsher
anaway
"
Me:"ohwel lthatbadbadmani smyhusbandand
ri
ghtnowI '
m goingt otel
lyouwhatItol
dy our
boyf
r i
endt hatactionsspeakloudert
hanwor dsandI
havet hatgiftofreadingapersonandfrom whatI
seey ourintenti
onsar enotgoodatall
"
Ontha:
"I
'mj
usttr
yingt
ohel
pyousopleasedon'
tbe
l
ikeAmandl
alist
enwhenyouar
ewarnedLwandlei
s
bad"
Me:
"Ihear
dyou"
"
Yety
ou'
rest
il
lgossi
pingaboutme"
Everseenathi
efcaughtsteali
ng seehe'
sbeen
standi
ngbythedoorfrom thatfi
rstsentenceabout
Amandlarunni
ngawayandhei st heonewhot old
met omakesurethatshecont i
nues,shewasst uck
l
ikeastatueasIdi
shedup.Lwandl ewalkedpasther
andcamet ohugmef rom thebackki ssi
ngmyneck.
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"
Me:
"mmhI
'
mfi
ne"
Hi
m:"
yousur
e?"
Inod
Me:
"beent
hroughwor
senowhandsunl
ockpl
ease"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
visi
tmeatl
uncht
odayRi
ght
?"
Me:"
havebr
eakf
astf
ir
standt
hent
hinkaboutl
unch
pl
ease"
Heletgoofmeandsatdownacr ossOnthat
hil
ewho
wasnowmut eLwandleli
kest
opl aywi
thwhatever
hefi
ndsonthetabl
eandwheny ouknowy oudid
somethi
ngyou'
l
l wi
shfort
heearthtoopenupand
swall
owyouwhole.
Lwandl
e:"
Ont
ha.
..
.Ont
ha.
..Ont
hat
hil
e"hechuckl
ed
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Me:
"her
eisy
ourcof
fee"
Lwandl
e:"t
hanks..
..
SoOOnt hathil
ehowi sitwise
agai
ntogossipaboutsomeoney ouknowi sbad?
Especi
all
ygossipi
ngaboutt hatpersonintheirown
housetothei
rwifeeven.
..
.arey ouinsane?"
Ont
ha:
"Iwasn'
tgossi
ping.
..Iwas.
..I
'
m sor
rybutI
j
ustwant
edt
otestherl
oyal
ty"
Hechuckl
ed
Lwandl
e:"
yout
est
ingmywi
fe'
sloy
alt
y?Whohi
red
you?
"
Ont
ha:
"I
'm sor
ryLwandl
e"
EhhminaIwasqui
teshamehav
ingmybr
eakf
astI
washungr
yli
keshi
t.
Lwandle:"nextti
meandIhopet herewontbeanext
butinfutureremembernott oeverspeakshitabout
met oany one..
..I
'l
lshowy oujusthowbadI 'm and
don'
tthinkt hatyourlousyboyfr
iendcanev ert
ake
meonandcomeoutont op.He'salwayssecond
pl
aceandt hat'
swhyhel i
kesmyl ef
tovers.Be
warned"
shewasqui
teandImadesur
ethatIal
sokeep
myt
rapshut
"
Mor
ningf
ami
l
y"
Il
ookedatLwandl
ewhosmi
l
edt
hatsl
ysmi
l
eofhi
s
Lwandl
e:"
star
tpacki
ngCul
uandt
akey
ourgi
rl
fr
iend
outofmyhouse"
Cul
u:"
okayIthoughtal
lthatscr
eaminglastni
ght
wasyourel
ievi
ngsomest ress,
IguessIwaswrong"
Lwandle:
"andthati
st hebestjokeyou'v
eever
crackedbutI
'm ser
iousI'
dtof i
ndy ougonewhenI
comeback.Idon'twantanyr ottenappl
esinmy
house"
Me:
"Yougoi
ngi
ntoday
?"
Lwandl
e:"
mmht
hat
'swhaty
ousai
dIshoul
ddo
ri
ght
?"
Me:
"wel
lyeahImeany
ouar
ethepr
ovi
der
"
Lwandle:
" goodtoknowandt
hanky
ouf
or
br
eakfasti
twasdel
i
cious"
Me:"don'
tgetusedt
oitIwi
l
lbegoi
ngbackt
o
school"
Lwandl
e:"
that'
ssti
ll
farbutfornowIcanenj
oyi
t.
..
.
AndIsai
dl unchatmyoffi
cetoday"
Me:
"don'
ttakemycar
"
Lwandl
e:"
Ican'
twal
ktowor
ksoy
ou'
l
lcat
chat
axi
"
Me:
"okayI
'
llseey
oul
ater
"
Henodstandinguptocomeandkissmycheek
whi
chtur
nedi nt
oalongkisswit
hhimtr
yingt
osteal
mybaconIslappedhishandaway.
Hi
m:"
fi
neby
e..
..St
aywi
thy
ourbacon"
Me:
"mi
nev
eley
ouf
ini
shedy
our
snowgo"
If
ixeduphi
scl
othesandhej
ustst
olemyf
ood
Hepeckedmyl
i
ps
Hi
m:"
behav
eandI
'
llseey
oul
ater
"
Inod
Hi
m:"andy
outwoIsaidgetoutofmyhouseand
l
eavemywifeal
one"
Me:
"Lwandl
eit
'
sfi
neI
'
llbef
ine"
Cul
u:"
andwehear
dyouwe'
l
lleav
e"
Lwandl
e:"
youbet
ter
..
..
"
Hekissedmycheekandtookhisbaghedi
dn'
twant
t
ogot oworkshameIcouldseeiti
nhisey
esbuthe
j
usthadtoandIremai
nedtodomyhousewor k.
.
Cul
u
Ijusthat
ebeingt oldwhattodoespeci al
lybyt hat
crazyLwandle whodoeshet hinkhei shuhIam
farmuchbetterthanhi m andi fhavingOnt hathil
e
herewon'tdoany thingt
ohi mt hanI '
llupmygame
heseemst olovet hisgi
rlherehemaynott el
lherbut
hedoesIcanseei tinhiseyesandwhenhespeaks
toherhe'sgentl
eandst uff,
andshel et'sitgotoher
headcauseshewasact i
ngliket hebossr i
ghtnow.I
l
ookedatOnt hathileandmot ionedt hatsheexcuses
usandshedi d.Islowlystoodupandwal ked
towardsherIheldherbyt heneck
Me:"y
ou'r
estart
ingt
ogetonmynervesyouknow.
..
.
YoushouldknowbynowthatIdon'
tl
ikeyour
husband"
Shecoughedbusytr
yingt
ogetoutofmyhol
dI
pushedhercl
osert
othesinkpi
nni
nghert
her
e.
Me:
"t
ell
yourhusbandt
ost
epdownorI
'
llki
l
lyou"
Shecutmewi
thakni
fef
orci
ngmet
olethergo.
Shet
urnedar
oundpoi
nti
ngt
hekni
featme.
Her:
"youdareputyourfi
l
thypawsohmey ou'
ll
regret
i
t,
andy ou'
reanidi
otcauseyoulef
tmarksonmy
neck.Runwhil
ehe'ssti
llatwor
kcausehe'
ll
kil
lyou"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
youmeanhi
m?He'
scr
azyandI
'
m notaf
rai
dof
cr
azypeopl
e"
Shesl
appedme
Her:
"I
'l
ldefi
ant
lymakey ourl
i
feali
vi
nghellandyou
bett
erbeli
evei
t..
..
seeIwasgoi ngt
oletyouplaywi
th
hi
smi ndbutnowI '
l
l byhissi
deandbeli
evemey ou
don'
twantmebyhi sside"
Shewal
kedawayf
rom meandr
anupt
hest
air
s.
Me:
"f
uck.
..
.Ont
hat
hil
e!!Ont
hat
hil
e"
Shecamer
unni
ngdownt
hest
air
s
Her
:"
what
?"
Me:
"bi
tchsl
ashedmyhandgetmesomepat
ches"
Her
:"
whywoul
dshesl
ashy
ourhand?
"
Me:
"j
ustgetmedamnpat
chesandst
artpacki
ng"
Sheshrugandwhenshewasabouttowal
kaway
Penel
opeappear
eddreadedi
ntear
scarr
yingLesego
Me:
"Lol
owai
t.
.."
Lol
o:"
Itol
dyout
haty
ou'
l
lpay
"
Shewal
kedout
Me:"
shi
tfor
gett
hepat
chgoandst
artpacki
ngnow
hur
ryup"
Shenodandr
anupt
hest
air
s

Lwandl
e
Iwasaboutt ogotoameet i
ngwit
hacli
entwhenI
wasmetwi t
hLolobusycr
y i
ng Ipull
edherintot
he
off
ice,
ItookLesegoandplacedhi
m onthedeskand
for
cedLol otoseat
.
Me:
"heycal
m down.
..
cal
m downandt
alkt
ome"
Shewashavi
nghiccupsI
'
m notgoingtot
hat
meet
ingam I Icall
edmyPASt acey.
Me:
"cancel
all
myappoi
ntment
sfort
oday
"
Her
:"
yessi
r"
Iputt
hephonedown
Me:"
nowpleasecalm downandtel
lmewhat
'swr
ong
pl
ease.
..
..
pleaset
ell
meLol ot
alktome"
Her
:"
it
'sCul
u..
..
he.
..
"
Me:
"hewhat
?"
Her:
"hechockedmeLwandl
ethr
eat
eni
ngmetotell
youtostepdownorhe'
l
lki
ll
mecausehe'
snotaf
rai
d
ofyou"
Me:
"What
!Thatf
li
msysonofabi
tch.
..
.Letmesee"
Her
:"
Lwandl
e..
."
Me:
"Isai
dletmesee"
Shejumpedbitandtookoffherscarfreveal
i
ngthe
marksonherneck he'l
lpayforthisonewayor
theothernowhewantsmet owakewhatwasdead
andforgott
enabout
.
Me:
"di
dhet
ouchy
ouany
wher
eel
se?
"
Her:
"uhuhImanagedt
ogetf
reef
rom hi
shol
d..
.Icut
hi
shand"
Me:"
it
'sokayIpromi
seI
'
llmakehi
m payf
ordoi
ng
t
histoyou..
.."
Ihuggedher i fhewantsBrucetocomeoutand
playsobeithe'
llgethi
swish.Isl
owl
ybroket
hehug
wipinghert
earsaway
Her
:"
pleasedon'
tl
etBr
ucet
akeov
erpl
ease"
Il
ookedawayl
ooki
ngi
nhereyesi
sjustt
ort
urebut
shehel
dmyfacemaki
ngmelookather.
Her:
"Lwandlepromi
semethatBr
ucewon'
tcome
out
..
.youpromisedt
hatwe'
l
lhandl
ethi
ngst
oget
her
wit
houthim"
Ikeptqui
test
ari
ngather
Her
:"
promi
seme"
Iexhal
edl
oudl
yandnod
Her
:"
sayi
t.
..
sayi
t"
Me:"
Ipr
omiseI
'
llhandl
ethi
sasLwandl
eandonl
y
Lwandl
e"
Shewrappedherarmsaroundmynecki fshe
cont
inuesl
ikethi
sI'
l
lcer
tainl
ylosei
tIhatehear
ing
someoneclosetomecryli
ket hi
s.
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.
Me:
"ni
ggageti
tdone.
..Geti
tdone"
IhungupasLolowalkedi
nwithabott
leofst
il
l
wateri
nhandshedidsayshewasfeeli
ngabitl
ight
headedsoIt
oldhertogetsomewatersoIneeded
total
ktomyguys.
Her
:"
whower
eyout
alki
ngt
o?"
Me:
"t
hecardeal
ershi
p"
Her
:"
oht
hat
'sgr
eaty
ou'
reget
ti
ngacar
"
Shewasbei
ngsar
cast
icandIknewi
tsoy
eahshe
knowsI
'
mly
ing.
Me:
"t
ell
menoonesawt
hemar
ksony
ourneck"
Her
:"
Lwandl
eIwal
kedpastaf
ewlawy
ersofcour
se
t
heysawthemar
ksonmyneck"
Me:
"what
?Whatdidn'
tyouweary
ourscar
f?Now
t
hatCul
upri
ckhassomemoment um"
Her
:"
moment
um onwhat
?"
Me:"hecoul
dpaintmeasanabusertotheboar
dof
di
rector
sandthenthey
'l
lcer
tai
nlypul
lmeout"
Ij
ustgotandmmh
Me:
"ar
eyoul
i
steni
ng.
.."
Her:
"Lwandl
ecall
thecardeal
ershi
pandcancel
your
or
dernow...
..Wedon'
tneedthatcarofy
our
s"
Me:
"uhy
eahwedo"
Her
:"
nothi
nkabouti
t.
..
.Cul
ugrewupwithyour
ight
?
Heknowsthaty
ouhaveumh..
..
DIDr
ight
?"
Me:
"yeahwegr
ewupt
oget
her
"
Her
:"
thant
hinkabouti
twhywoul
dhechokey
our
wif
ewhenheknowst
haty
ou'
l
lret
ali
ate?Whywoul
d
hepissy
ouof
f"
Me:
"gett
othepoi
ntal
ready
"
Her:
"thisiswhathewant scan'
tyousee?Fory out
o
goall Br
uceonhi m andthenhe'
llcometotheboard
ofdirector
sandsayt hatyouwantedtokil
lhim
causehewant edtoworkwithyou..
.He'
l
lpaintyou
asamur dererandmeast hatwif
ewho'ddo
anythingforherhusbandli
kekil
l"
Me:
"hechokedy
ou"
Her:
"notheydon'tknowt
hatandhecoul
djustsay
i
t'
sselfdefense"
Irubbedmyf
oreheadf
uckshe'
smaki
ngal
otof
sense
Me:
"sowhatshouldIdo?Heshoul
dlear
ntor
espect
meandwhat'
smi ne"
Her
:"
call
offy
ourcardealershi
pdealandwe'
l
lcome
upwit
hsomethi
ng..
..Justcancel
it"
Inodandj
ustcal
l
edt
heguy
s
Her
:"
sur
vei
l
lancei
smuchbet
tert
hanaf
tert
haty
ou'
l
l
explai
ntomehowy
ouknowal
lthesecarsel
l
s
personnel
"
Ididn'
tknowwhetherIshoul
dprolongthecall
and
avoidherendl
essquesti
onsorifIshoul
djustavoi
d
them t
otall
ybutei
therwayshewasbusyr ocki
ng
LesegobackandforthonhiscarseatIhungupand
threwmyphoneont hetabl
e
Me:
"Icanexpl
ainbutt
hatmeansI
'
llhav
etoki
l
lyou"
Her
:"
andy
ou'
l
lbur
rymei
t'
sawi
nwi
n"
Me:"
Lol
ocomeont her
eissomet
hingsI
'
dtel
lyou
andsomeI
'dr
athernot"
Her
:"
Lwandl
e?"
Me:
"noLol
o..
.comeseather
epl
ease"
Her
:"
I'
m st
il
lput
ti
ngy
oursont
osl
eep"
Me:"
he'salr
eadysl
eepi
ngsowhatt
ypeofsl
eepar
e
youtal
kingabout
?"
Shest
aredatmeandIj ustmot
ionedshecomeso
shest
oodupandwal kedtowar
dsthecouch don'
t
askwhyIhaveacouchinmyof f
ice pl
ease.
Me:
"seather
e"
Her
:"
I'
ll
breakt
hist
abl
eofy
our
s"
Me:
"I
'l
lbuyanot
herone"
Shejustsulkedbutsatdownwhocansaynotome
thouImov edclosert
oherbutshmovedbackwi
th
thi
ssmi r
konherf ace.
Her
:"
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:
"whatdoy
out
hinkI
'
m doi
ng?Comeher
ehau"
Shechuckl
edandmov
edcl
osert
ome
Me:
"doesi
thur
t?.
..
whyar
eyoul
aughi
ngt
hough?"
Her
:"
itt
ickl
eswheny
oudot
hat
"
Me:
"st
andst
il
l"
Shewasbusyf
li
nchi
ngwhenIt
ri
edt
otouchher
neck
Me:
"Lol
opl
ease,
l
etmeseet
hosemar
ks"
Her:
" itti
ckl
esokaywhyar
eyoumov
ingy
our
f
inger
sall
overmeagain?
"
Me:
"beser
ious"
Shecl
ear
edhert
hroatandpul
l
edast
rai
ghtf
ace.
Her;
"okayI'
l
lbeser
ious.
..I
'
m ser
ious,
I'
m ser
ious
Sokhulu"
Me:
"youbet
ternowl
etmesee"
Itouchedherneckandshebur stoutl
aughi
ng
causingmet olaughtoowhattypeofdrugdi
dshe
smoket houghI'm nott
ickl
i
ngherbutri
ghtnowshe
can'tst
oplaughing
Me:
"ar
eyouondr
ugs?
"
Sheshookherhead
Me:
"t
hanstopl
aughi
ngorel
seI
'
llt
apey
ourmout
h
t
oget
her"
Shenodasifshe'
l
lst
opl
aughi
ngshewasbl
oat
ed
wit
hlaught
ernoli
e
Me:
"l
et'
sleav
ethenecksagasi
ncey
ouwon'
tl
etme
t
ouchyou"
Her
:"
noi
t'
sjustt
haty
ouar
eti
ckl
i
ngme"
Me:"
sincewhenam It
ickl
i
ngy
ou?I
t'
sfi
neI
'
lll
eav
e
youal
one"
Her
:"
fi
nebutst
opt
ucki
ngme.
..
."
Shetookmyhandandpl aceditonherneck t his
dudereall
ydi
dmar kherbutnowIhatethefactthatI
havetolethi
m getawaywithi
t.
"
MrSokhul
u..
..OhI
'
m sor
ryI
..
."
ThatwasSt
acey Iwonderwhathappenedt
o
knocki
ng
Me:
"i
t'
sfi
ne.
..
whati
sit
?"
Stace:
"wel
lMrRahadebecal
l
edhesai
dit
'sur
gent
thathetal
kst
oyou"
Me:"
tel
lhi
mI '
m busyasyoucansee.
..
.mywifeis
i
njur
edandIhavetotakecar
eofherjustt
hinkof
somethi
ng"
St
ace:
"umhhesai
dit
'
saboutt
heumh.
..
."
Me:
"t
heumhwhat
?"
St
ace:
"humant
raf
fi
cki
ngcasey
ou'
rewor
kingon"
Me:"f
li
pputhi
mthroughandgetmetwodoubl
e
espr
essosandonecheesecakeandv
ani
ll
a
doughnut
s"
St
ace:
"okayhowmanydoughnut
sagai
n?"
Il
ookedatPenel
ope
Me:
"j
ustt
hreet
hanky
ou"
St
ace:
"I
'l
lputhi
mthr
ought
hen"
Shecl osedt hedoorandIwentt omydeskt ospeak
tooneofmybi ggestcli
entsIhav etogethi m offthe
hookf orhumant r
affi
ckingchargesandi t
'snot
l
ooki nggoodatal lsoI'l
lhavetocal linsomef av ors
whi chinturnhe' l
loweme i t
'sadogeatdogwor ld
outt hereandy ougottadowhaty oucant osur vive.
Wel lhewasj ustcheckingupont hecaseandhow
farI'm wit
hcol lecti
ngev i
dencet hisshitdoesn'tneed
evidencei tj
ustneedst hewholecaset obet hrown
outorf orthedockett odisappearbutt henagai nI
can'tsayt hatwhi l
eLol oisherethel esssheknows
thebet ter
.Ifinishedupwi thmycal l
andwentback
tohershewasnowr el
axedont hecouchf eetupand
ever yt
hingIputt hem onmyl apasIsatdown.
Her:
"whatdi
dyoumeanwheny
ousai
dheowesy
ou
bi
gtime?"
Me:
"Lol
oenoughquest
ionspl
ease.
..
comeher
e"
Her
:"
uhuhanswermef
ir
st"
IrubbedhercheekIsowannaki
ssherr
ight
now butshewasmov i
ngaway.
Me:
"Lol
ocomeon.
..
.Iknowy
ouwant
"
Her
:"
Iwannadoalotofthi
ngswi
thy
oubutt
ell
me
whoyoureal
l
yar
ef i
rst
"
Me:
"I
'l
ltel
lyouathomenother
esocomeher
e..
..
Come"
Her:
"Lwandl
ear
eyoui
nvol
vedi
nsomedodgy
busi
ness?"
Me:
" Isai
dI'
l
ltel
lyouathomeandnother
e",
Her
:"
whynother
e?Ideser
vet
oknowt
het
rut
h"
Me:
"andy
ouwi
l
lIpr
omi
se.
..Nowpl
easecomeher
e"
Il
eanedforwardshet
riedmov i
ngbackbutIcaught
herbytheneckandbroughthercl
osert
ome, I
peckedherli
ps.
Me:
"pl
ease"
You'
dthi
nkIwasbeggi
ngforsomethi
nghugebutI
j
ustwant
edhertoj
uststopaski
ngquest
ionsand
ki
ssme.Shewasstarr
ingatmewit
hnor epl
y
Her:
"youpr
omi
sethat
'
lly
ou'
l
ltel
lmeev
ery
thi
ng
whenwegethome?"
Me:"
mmhIpr
omi
se"Ipeckedherl
i
ps"
Ipr
omi
se
you"
Herscaryeyesdidthei
rroundsonmyfacebef
or e
sheheldonmyf aceandkissedme wher edi
dy ou
thi
nkyou'l
lendupIlaidherdownandmovedcloser
toherunbutt
oningherjeanwit
hherbusymoaningin
mymout h
Me:
"Il
ovey
ourmoansdoy
ouknowt
hat
?"
Sheshookherhead
Her
:"
younev
ert
oldme"
Me:
"wel
lIj
ustt
oldy
ou.
..
."
Myhandtr
avel
eduphershi
rtandunhookedherbr
a
shewasevenassi
sti
ngme.
"
Her
ear
eyour
..
..OhI
'
m sososor
ry.
..
"
Thedoorcl
osedagai
n nowPenel opej
ustpushed
meawayandsatupstrai
ghtbut
toni
ngupherjeans
Me:
"andt
hen?
"
Lol
o:"
not
hingj
ustgett
hatespr
essoIwanti
t"
Me:"
lookatme..
..
doyouexpectmet
ogoout
side
t
hisoffi
cewal
lsli
ket
his?
"
Lol
o:"
fi
neI
'
llgo.
..Justhookupt
hebr
apl
ease"
Me:
"I
'm nothooki
ngt
oanybra.
..
.St
acey
!!
..
..
hookup
t
hebrathenunhooki
tagai
n?"
St
aceywal
kedi
nwi
tht
hef
ood.
St
ace:
"Si
rI'
m sosor
ryIswearIdi
dn'
tseeany
thi
ng"
Lol
o:"she'sl
yi
ngshesawever
ythi
ngot
her
wiseshe
wouldn'tbeapol
ogi
sing"
Me:
"Lol
oshutup"
Lolo:"
justsay
ingandI
'
mjoki
ngSt
acey
..
..
nohar
d
feeli
ngs"
St
ace:
"ofcour
se"
Me:
"t
hanksy
oucangonow"
Lol
o:"wai
tSt
acey.
..
.doy
out hinkMrSokhul
uis
handsomewitht
hesedreadlockson?
"
Pl
easedon'
tanswer
sthatSt
aceyi
t'
sat
rap
St
ace:
"yeahhe'
sincr
edi
blyhandsome"
andshet
ookt
hebai
tcauseLol
ojustchuckl
ed
Lol
o:"
Isee..
..It
houghtyou'
dbestutt
eri
ngbutlookat
myhusbandi nthatwayeveragai
nI'
ll
kil
lyou"she
gri
nned"youcangonow"
gir
lsf
alleasi
lyImeanwhenawi f
easksi
fy ou
thi
nkherhusbandi shandsomesayyouhaven't
noticedsamet hi
ngwithusguysdon'
tadmi
tthat
you'vebeencheckingoutsomeone'
smate
Staceywalkedout
Me:
"you'
rehappywi
thy
our
sel
f?"
Lol
o:"
wit
h?"
Me:
"whaty
oudi
dtoSt
acey
"
Lolo:
"whatdi
dIdo?Ijustaskedaquesti
onshe
answeredwit
hinabl
inkofaney e.
..
.whatdoest
hat
t
ell
you?I'
m goi
ngt
ocutt
hosedr
eadl
ocksof
fwhi
l
e
y
ousleep"
Me:
"don'
tbor
eme"
Lol
o:"
eehhdoyouwantt
hecheesecakeor
doughnut
s?"
Me:
"al
loft
heabov
elet
'
sshar
e"
Shenodandwej usthadourf oodbusygi
ggl
ing
aboutshi
tandyesIfinall
ygottomakelovet
oherin
theoff
ice Ilookedt hedoorthi
sti
mearoundjust
forsaf
etyr
easons.
.
Cul
u
Nowt heplanisi
nmot ionhe'll
defi
nit
elyf
li
phe'l
lgo
overdri
veandIknowoncehedoeshe' s
uncontrol
l
ableatal
l.Iclosedthedoortothe
apartmentandwalkedt owardsthecouchIsatdown
Me:"
Onthat
hil
ewher
eist
hatsandwi
cht
hough?I
'
m
st
arvi
ng"
Her
:"
I'
m donej
eezr
elaxandy
ourphonei
sri
ngi
ng"
Me:
"f
li
p..
..HeyVi
l
akazi
"
Hesi
ghedi
nmyear
Hi
m:"
tel
lmey
oudi
dwhatIt
oldy
out
o"
Me:
"j
eezIdon'
thaveanonandoffswi
tchf
orhi
s
mi
ndokaysorelaxIhav
eal
readyputt
hepl
anin
mot
ion"
Hi
m:"
Itol
dyounott
ohar
m Penel
ope.
.."
Me:
"andIdi
dn'
tsor
elaxandenj
oyt
heUS"
Him:
"fr
om thel
ooksoft
hingsI
'
llhav
etocomeback
you'
ref
ail
i
ng"
Me:"
staythehel
lawayory ou'
ll
der
ail
mypl
ansIwant
hi
m unseatedsothatIcantakeov
er"
Hi
m:"t
hanhur
ryupokayj
ustgett
hisov
eranddone
wi
th"
Me:"
andIsaidI'
l
lcal
lyouwhenIhav
eresul
tswhi
ch
I
'l
lhavesoon"
Hi
m:"
yeahwhat
everhur
ryup"
Hehungupfuckthesepsy
chosthatgi
rlhasa
magnetf
orpsychosbutmaybeshe'
sapsy choas
wel
lwhoknowsbutshe'
shotbr
uhi
fonlyshewas
l
ooseabi
tI'
dhaveachancetot
ast
eitabit
.
Ont
ha:
"whowast
hat
?"
Me:
"someonewi
tht
hesamegoal
sasme"
Ont
ha:
"buty
ou'
redoi
ngal
lthewor
k?"
Me:"
youcouldsayt
hatbutIhav
emoretogai
nthan
hi
m. .
.Igett
hecompanyandheget
sthegi
rl
."
Ontha:
"st
il
lseeitasr
ubbi
shandIknowy
ougota
t
hingforthatgi
rlt
oo"
Me:"
I'
m amanwhatdoy ouexpect
?Iwonderwhy
Lwandl
ealwaysget
sthecuteonestobehi
swife
whatdotheyseei
nhim?"
Ontha:
"he'
shotokay
..
..He'
sgotev
ery
thi
ngagi
rl
s
wants"
Me:
"IseeI
'
m goi
ngt
orestupabi
t"
Ont
ha:
"comeonIwasj
ustsay
ing"
Me:
"ohdon'
tst
ressy
our
sel
f.
..Li
stendon'
tfor
get
whyweareher
e"
Ont
ha:
"yeahsur
e"
Ithoughtsheknewthatwear eheretocausehavoc
nottoreunit
ewithourexlover
sIwentt othe
bedroom andlai
ddownImeanI '
mt i
redashellpl
us
myhandhur tsbutsoonI'
llbethebossandI'l
lhave
everyt
hingIneedri
ghtundermyt humb.
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11/
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greysweatshir
tandof
cour semyf entysli
ppers Iwasbusyt yi
ngupmy
hairasIwal keddownt hestair
ssinceLwandl e
decidedt ocomehomewi thusear l
ysohe'shome
busyonhi sl aptopbutnotinhisstudyjustlounging
aroundi nthel oungewi thLesegor i
ghtathisfeet
playingwithhi st oy
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h
seemst obehugecausehewasf ocusedont he
l
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m boredandhehi dtheTVr emot e
don'taskwhyhedi dthat I'
dhavetoli
eto
answery ou.Isatdownbesi deshi
m andjustl
aidon
mybackl egsupont hecouchbutImadesur enott
o
touchhim Igotbusyonmyphonef uckI'
m bored I
knowhewon' tfi
nishwiththi
scaseorwhateverhe'
s
writ
ing.
Hi
m:"
yousmel
lni
ce.
..
.Buti
sn'
tthatmydeodor
ant
?"

Me:
"Ij
ustusedal
i
ttl
ethat
'sal
l
...
."
Hi
m:"
okay
..
.y
ouf
eel
i
ngf
inenoworst
il
ldi
zzy
?"
Me:
"t
heshowerhel
pedsoI
'
m cool
,canIhav
ethe
r
emotenow?"
Hi
m:"
noy
ou'
l
lbemaki
ngnoi
seher
e"
Me:
"I
'm sur
ethat
'swhyy
oubui
l
tast
udyt
owor
k
t
her
e"
Him:
"If
eelmuchbett
erwhenI
'
m her
e,Iknowt
hat
youguysar
esafe"

Me:
"okayumhi
sitokayi
fIi
nvi
temyl
i
ttl
esi
sterov
er
f
ort
hehol
i
day
s?"
Hi
m:"
mmh.
..
."
Me:
"gr
eat
..
.can'
twai
t"

Hi
m:"
abouty
ourquest
ionatt
heof
fi
ce"
Me:
"whatquest
ion?Iaskedqui
teal
ot"
Hi
m:"
aboutwhoIr
eal
l
yam andwhatIdo.
..
."
Me:
"oht
hatone,
whatabouti
t?"
Him:"I
'
m goingtotel
lyoubutyou'l
lhavetopromise
thatnomat t
erwhatyou'l
lkeepthi
stoyoursel
f,
Lolo
eveniftheypromi
sedy oumill
i
onsy ou'
l
lhaveto
keepquite"
Me:"
woahholditri
ghtther
eIthi
nkit'
sbestIdon't
know,
for
getthatIaskedpl
easejustf
orgeti
tjeezan
answert
hatcomeswi thsomanyinstr
ucti
ons"
Heexhal
edloudl
yandj
ustclosedhi
slapt
opputt
ing
i
tonthecoff
eetabl
eandtakingmylegst
hanputti
ng
t
hem onhisl
ap.
Hi
m:"
I'
m oneoft
hoseguy
swhodogoodandbad
t
oobutf
ort
hegr
eat
ergoodoft
heonesIl
ove"
Me:
"Lwandl
epleasedon'
ttell
mey ouwer
eri
ghtt
he
l
essIknowthebett
erforevery
one"
Hi
m:"
ify
ousaysot
hen"
Me:
"yeahbutI
'
dli
ket oknowabouty
ourf
eudwi
th
Cul
u,i
tseemsint
eresti
ng"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
twantt
otal
kabouti
t"
Me:
" r
eal
l
y?We'
regoi
ngbackt
her
eagai
n?"
Hi
m:"
Isai
dIdon'
twantt
otal
kabouti
t"
Me:
"mxm I
'
m goi
ngt
otakeanap"
Hej
usthel
donmyl
egsIcoul
dn'
tev
engetof
f
Me:
"l
etgoofme"
Hi
m:"
fi
neI'
l
ltel
lyouIj
ust
..
.Lol
othi
sist
ooper
sonal
f
ormyli
ki
ng"
Me:"
Iwon'
ttel
lIpr
omi
sebuty
ouhav
etol
ear
nthat
youcant
rustme"
Hi
m:"f
ineev
enthoughIoncet
rust
edawomanand
t
hatgotmeshi
t"
Me:"
Lwandleafteral
lyou'v
eputmet hroughIthink
you'
veseenthatIdeserveyourt
rustandallofit
"
Him:"okayfi
ne..
..WellCuluandIgrewupt ogether
actuall
ymydadt ookhimi nandwewentt ot he
sameschool andshi twewer eli
kebrother
sorsoI
thoughtseewhenIl ostmypar entsandthef amil
y
foundoutthatev ery
thingisinmycareuntilSakhi
le
fi
nishesschoolev er
ythingchangedevenCulu
himselfchanged"
sameol
dri
chpeopl
e'
sst
ori
esf
ight
ingov
ert
he
wi
l
l
Him:"Iumhatfir
sthedidjustexact
lythi
s,dr
oppi
ng
byforav i
sitt
henheturnedAmandl aagai
nstme
tel
li
ngherhowmuchofamonst erIam andhowI
can'
tcontrolmyothersi
des"
Me:"
didn'
tAmandlaknowaboutt
hem?Di
dn'
tshe
knowaboutyourdi
sorder
?"
Him:"
shedidIt
oldhert
hesecondmont
hofus
dati
ng.
..
."
Me:
"andy
etIwasnott
old buther
eIam"
Him:"
I'
m sorryokayIj usthadlostfai
thinwomen
andallmytrustv anishedIthoughtIcouldn'
ttr
ust
youthatyou'
dbej ustli
keherandqui ckl
yturnyour
backonme.I 'm sorryLolo"
Me:"
it
'sf
ine,
whatdi
dAmandl
ado?Di
dshesel
lyou
out
?"
Henod
Him:"
seeImetAmandlainvar
sityandIfel
linlov
e
wit
hherfrom t
hegetgoanday earl
aterIaskedmy
dadtosponsorourweddi
ngandheagr eedthenwe
gotmarr
ied"
Me:
"youmusthav
ebeeni
nlov
eshame"
Hi
m:"
Imar
ri
edy
ouaf
tert
woday
sthat
'sar
ecor
d"
Me:
"mxm cont
inuewi
tht
hest
ory
"
Him:"
wellsi
nceItr
ustedherItoldhereveryt
hing
aboutmel i
keev
erysinglethi
ngthenonedayIwas
atworkshewashomeal onewithCuluthanwhenI
gotbackhomeIfoundt hem i
nbedt ogether
,she
tol
dmei twasami st
akeandi tdi
dn'
tmeanany t
hing"
Me:
"l
etmeguessy
ouf
orgav
eher
?"
Hi
m:"
yeah"
Me:
"f
ool "
Hi
m:"
Lol
o?"
Me:
"okayI
'
m sor
ry,
sowhathappenednext
?"
Him:"wel
lwetr
iedmarr
iagecounsel
ingandi
t
seemedt obeworki
ngt
hanshet ol
dmeshewas
pregnant
"
Me:
"yourchi
l
d?"
Him:"yeahdamnIwassohappybutt hroughoutthe
pregnancyshewasbusygi vi
ngCul uinformati
on
aboutme, gavesomeofmyenemi esv i
tal
i
nformat iontooandIlostalotofmoneycauseof
hersot hemomentshegav ebirt
ht oJnrher eIhad
al
readyl ostmysanitytoBruceandt hreemont hs
downt hel inehemadesurethatshedi sappears"
Me:
"ohwowsoBr
uceki
l
ledy
ourwi
fe?
"
Him:
"heki
l
lsthosehebel
i
evesar
eat
hreatt
ome
andmywellbei
ng"
Ipul
l
edmyl
egsawayf
rom hi
m andsatup
st
rai
ght
Me:
"whatdi
dIdotoBr
ucetodeser
vewhathedi
dto
me?WhatdidIdot
oyou?
"
Him:"
li
stenIknowsor rywon'tcoverupfor
ever
ythingbutI'
m sorryI'
mr eal
l
ysor r
yifIcoul
dtake
i
tbackIwoul d..
..Iwouldtr
eatyoulikeyoudeserv
e
tobetreated"
Me:
"mmh.
..
.whatshoul
dIcookt
oni
ght
?"
Hi
m:"
Lol
ofor
getf
ood"
Me:"wel
lIdon'
twantt
otal
kabouti
t.
..
.sowhat
shouldIcook"
Hi
m:"
any
thi
ngy
ouf
eel
li
keI
'
lleat
"
Ist
oodupj
ustt
obepul
l
edbackt
oseatdown
Me:
"Lwandl
eIr
eal
l
ydon'
tfeel
li
kepl
ayi
ngsoj
ustl
et
mego"
Him:"
no.
..
.Seeit
'ssti
l
lear
lyf
ory
out
obet
hinki
ng
aboutdi
nnersoseatdown"
Me:
"l
etmegot
obedt
hanI
'
m bor
ed"
Hi
m:"
let
'sgot
oget
her
"
Me:
"uhuhLesegoneedssomeonewho'
l
lwat
chhi
m"
Hi
m:"
comewe'llgowi
thhi
m upst
air
stoourr
oom
ev
enthoughhehashi
sownroom"
Me:"
youknowwhatf or
getI
'l
lresther
e..
..
Ineed
weddingdressmagazi
nesactual
lyever
ythi
ngabout
weddingsIneedi
t"
Him:" pleasegoeasyonmybankbal
anceI
'
m
beggi
ngyou..
..
"
Me:
"adressf
or5Kandshoesfor3Ki
magine
t
hat
..
.howaboutchi
ckenandv
egcasser
ole"
Hi
m:"
heyuhuhdon'
tchanget
hesubj
ect
..
.."
Me:"
orsweetandsourporkwi
thr i
ceyeah.Orl
amb
pi
e..
..
whydidn'
twebuythatbr
isketagai
n?"
Hepi
nchedmyt
oes
Me:
"ouch"
Hi
m:"Isai
dtal
kaboutt
heweddi
ngandshi
t.
..
.st
op
t
alki
ngaboutf
ood"
Me:"
fi
newe'l
lhav
et ogetmarr
iedatt
heBahamas
iwantaBahamafi
edwedding"
Hi
m: "
andhowwi
l
lourf
ami
l
iesgett
her
ewi
l
lthey
f
ly?
"
Il
aughed
Me:"
yesmygeniushusbandt
hey
'l
lfl
y.
..
.y
ouser
iousl
y
needast
rongbookofcomebacks"
Him:"
you'
l
lwal
kdownt
hei
slenakedi
nyour
Bahamas"
Me:"i
fthat
'swhaty
ouwantmet
odo.
..
.And
honeymoonatPari
s"
Him:
"wheny
oul
ookatmedoy
ouseeMot
sepe
Juni
or?"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
NoMotsepeJuni
orisbusywit
htoysont
he
f
loor
,youmydearsi
rareMotsepeseni
or"
Hecl
i
ckedhi
stongueandj
ustbegant
ickl
i
ngme

Me:
"wai
t.
..
Lwandl
ewai
tup "
Hi
m:"
noBahamasunder
stand?"
Me:
"mmhMaur
it
iust
han.
..
.we'
l
lgetmar
ri
edat
Maur
it
ius"
Hi
m:"
Dur
banorCapeTownt
heybot
hhav
eabeach"
Me:
"st
opi
t I
..
.Ican'
tbr
eat
h..
..Lwandl
e"
Heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Hi
m:"
yel
l
owpeopl
echangecol
orwhenl
aughi
ng"
Me:
"getof
fmewi
l
lya.
..You'
reheav
y"
Him:
"ohcausenowI'
m noti
nsi
dey
ouI
'
m heav
y?I
seeI
'
m hungrynow"
Me:"
getoffI'
ll
goandmakey
ousomeBunnychow
Bushbuckr
idgest
yle"
Hi
m:"
Iwantr
eal
foodnotbr
ead"
Me:"
jeezumhhowaboutf
ishcakes?Ormi
nceand
past
a?"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
taket
hef
ishcakes"
Me:"
okayandaft
eryou'
ll
gototheshopsandbuyme
someredvel
vetcakeandsomebri
sket"
Hi
m:"
that
'sj
ustawast
eoft
imey
ouknow"
Me:
"Lwandl
eI'
m aski
ngy
oucauseIwantsomer
ed
vel
vetcakeandthemeati
sfort
omorr
owIf eel
li
ke
bri
sketr
ollni
cel
yroast
edt
enderandj
uicy
..
."
Hi
m:"
fi
necanIeatf
ir
st?Pl
easeLol
o"
InodandjustwenttothekitchenIpreparedt
hefish
cakesf
orhim Iwasn'
treal
lyf eel
i
ngfishsowhenI
wasdoneIservedhim andhehadhi sf oodwit
hme
j
usthavi
ngsomey oghurtandcor nf
lakes don't
askwhyIchosethatIdon'tknowbuti twastheonly
snackI
'dl
ikeri
ghtnow.
Me:
"cany
ouf
ini
shup?Ir
eal
l
yreal
l
ywantt
hatcake"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oI'
l
lgor
elax
...
."
Me:
"I
'mr
elaxedokay
"
Hi
m:"
andwhatar
eyoudoi
ngnow?
"
Me:"
picki
ngsomeingr
edientsf
ormyBunnychow.
..
Don'
tworryI
'l
lcl
eart
hetableyougo"

Him:
"O-
kayI'
l
ltakeLesegowi
thmej
usti
ncasey
ou
gett
oful
landfall
asleep"
Heki
ssedmycheekandwal
kedout he'
scr
azyi
t'
s
notthatbigofaservi
ngtoev enputmet osl eep
unl
ikehim Ihaveanappetit
esohe'llhavet odeal
wit
hi t
.Theylef
tmeal lal
oneIwasdi sturbedbya
knockont hedoor Iwentt oopenandf oundthis
del
iveryguyholdi
ngfl
ower swhoonear t
hwoul dbuy
mef l
owerswhenI '
m all
ergi
ct ot
hisshit.
Me:"
uhhI'
m sor
rybutIt
hinky
ouhav
ethewr
ong
addr
ess"
Him:"
umhIwastol
dtodel
iv
erthi
stot
heSokhul
u
est
ate235,
toumhPenel
ope..
"
Me:"
wellI
'
m notafl
ower
'sper
sonsoi
t'
sokayy
ou
cantur
nbackwit
hthem"
Him:'
mam justsi
gnher
epl
easeIhav
eot
her
del
iv
eries"
Icli
ckedmyt ongueandsi gnedandt ookthefl
ap
j
acksofRosesIshutt hedoorandj ustthr
ewthem i
n
thebinIcan'
tbeliev
eIgotdi stur
bedf orFl
owersnot
somet hi
ngshinyorsomet hingedibl
eIgotdist
urbed
forFlowerswithpoll
en .
Lwandl
e
Idrovebackhomewi thev eryt
hingPenel opeasked
met obuyIcan'tbelieveIwentt ot hemal lforar oll
ofbrisket
,Redvel
v etcake,Icecr eam andy oghurt
butIhadt odothisorel seshe' dki l
lmecauset oday
shehasn'tbeenfeelingwel l shebet terheal before
shebor esmewi t
hheror der sIdrov eintothey ard
andjustunpackedev ery
thi ngtakingmysoni nthe
processwewal kedi njustt obemetbysi ngingsoI
thoughtmay beit
'ssomet hingdi f
ferentbutshewas
busyst uf
fi
ngherf acewi t
hf oodandi tsmel tdivine

Me:
"we'
rebackandIbr
oughty
ourst
uff
"
Lol
o:"
goodandt
hanks.
.."
Me:
"what
'dy
oueat
ing?
"
Lol
o:"
chi
ckenl
i
ver
s..
..
wantsome?
"
Inod
Lol
o:"
it
'sf
ini
shed "
Me:"what
?Youf
ini
shedt
heent
ir
ethi
ng?Theent
ir
e
packet?"
Lol
o:"
theyweresodel
i
ciousLwandl
e..
..
Icoul
dn'
t
hel
pmy sel
f"
Me:"
thangivemey
our
sI'
m beggi
ngy
out
heysmel
l
sodevine"
Shesmi r
kedandslowlytookabit
eoft heli
ver
stari
ngatmeshewast aunt
ingmeandt hebowl was
sti
llf
ullsoIsti
ll
hav eachanceItookthegoodst o
thekitchenandsleepi
ngLesegotohisr oom af
ter
thatIhurri
edbackdownst ai
rstoj
oinLolo.
Me:
"I
'm back.
.."
Lol
o:"
yaybutdon'
tyoudar
etouchmypl
ate"
Me:
"t
hat
'sbul
l
shi
tpl
easel
et'
sshar
eLol
otheyl
ook
soy
ummyandIneedli
ver
s"
Lol
o:"
don'
tyouhav
eli
ver
s?Just
..
..
"
[
Cel
l
phoner
ings]
Lol
o:"
hol
dthatt
hought
..
..
"
Shetookthephonebutjustst
aredati
tri
ngi
ng I
tookthebowlandshedidn'
tcomplai
n t hephone
stoppedri
ngi
ngbutitr
angagain.
Me:
"Lol
o?Lol
owhoi
sit
?"
Shewaslosti
natr
ance screwthisi
snatchedthe
phoneawayandf
oundthecal
lert
obethatLubanzi
brat
.
Me:"
li
stenhereyoufl
imsysonofabit
ch,
stayaway
fr
om mywi feunder
stand?Don'
tmakemecome
sear
chingforyou"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
giv
eNonothephoneordidyoul
osei
tagai
n?
Di
dyougopsy
choonheragain?"
Me:"howaboutthi
s?Yougetyourassher
eandI
showy ouhowmuchofapsy choIam?Plusmy
handshavebeenitchingf
oral
it
tl
ebloodsopl
ease
comeav ai
lyour
self"
Him:"
nahIwasj
ustaski
ngi
fshegott
her
osesIsent
her?Keepy
ourpant
son"
Il
ookedatLol
owhowasbusysucki
ngonhert
humb
Ihungup
Me:
"whatr
osesi
shet
alki
ngabout
?Hesenty
ou
r
oses?
"
Lol
o:"
IgotrosesIdi
dn'
tevenknowt
heyar
efr
om
hi
m Ijustt
hrewthem i
nthebi
n"
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me?
"
Lol
o:"
Ifor
gotokay
...
.Theyar
ether
eint
hebi
nyou
cancheckfory
oursel
f"
Me:
"Lol
olookatme.
..
.Lookatme"
Shel
ookedatmeal
lredey
ed
Me:"
uhuhdon'
tcry
..
.Lol
orel
axhe'
snotinSAthe
l
astIknewhe'
sint
heUSA.Soyouaresafe"
Lol
o:"
youar
enotsure?He'
scomingf
ormeIcanf
eel
i
tsl
owlybutsur
elyhe'
scomingf
orme"
Me:"
andhe'
llf
indmebefor
eheget
sy ou.
..Fuckhe'
l
l
f
indlay
ersofmebefor
ehecangetyouIpromise
you"
Lol
o:"
I'
m scar
edoft
heper
sonIt
houghtr
eal
l
ylov
ed
me"
Me:"
heyrel
axbutri
ghtnowIhav
etol
eav
eyou.
..
I'
l
l
bebacksoyou'
ll
startdi
nner
"
Lol
o:"
you'
rel
eav
ing?Ar
eyoui
nsane?Youcan'
tl
eav
e
me"
Me:
"Ineedt
oprot
ecty
ousoIneedt
ogo.
..I
'
mtaki
ng
t
hesewithme"
Lol
o:"
fuckno.
..Youwantt
hesey
oust
ay"
Ihel
dont
oherf
aceandpeckedherl
i
ps
Me:
"pl
ease"
Ipeckedthem ov
erandov eragai
nbutshejust
shookherheadno I 'm gett
inghor
nyherewoman
shesmirkedandwrappedherar msaroundmyneck
Me:
"noIhav
etogo"
Lol
o:"
noy
oudon'
tandIhav
ethatcr
avi
ngf
ory
ou"
Me:"si
ncewhendoyouhav
ecr
avi
ngsf
orme?I
ser
iouslyhav
etogo"
Lol
o:"
giv
emeagoodr
easonandI
'
lll
ety
ougo"
Me:"
Ineedt
opr
otectt
hisassher
efucki
t'
sso
f
ir
m...
."
Lol
o:"
don'tdothati
fyoudon'
twanttogetmeangr
y
pl
ease..
..
.Isai
ddon'tgoyou'
l
lgotomorrow"
Me:
"makei
twor
thmywhi
l
e"
Lol
o:"
thatcr
avi
ngi
sgone "
CravingisgonemyassI'l
lbri
ngisbackandyou'l
l
crav
ef ormeonceIleaveyouhanging Ikissedher
andsher epli
edbutj
ustpushedmeof fj
umpingoff
me andr unni
ngupthestai
rs nowwhat 'swrong,
Ifol
lowedherupt ot
heroom andthereshewasin
thebathroom thr
owi
ngupagai n shecameout
buyswi pi
nghermouth.
Me:
"youokay
?"
Lol
o:"
noIf
ell
li
keshi
t.
..
.I
'
m dy
ingsl
owl
ybutsur
ely
"
Me:
"comeher
e..
."
Shewalkedt
owar
dsmeandIf
eltherf
oreheadshe
wasfi
ne
Me:"
youdon'
thaveahi
ghtemper
atur
esoI
'
llt
ake
youtot
hedoctort
omorr
ow"
Lolo:
"yayI'
m notgoingtoaDoctorIj
usthavetostop
kissi
ngy ouandI'
ll
bef i
ne.
..
.ar
eyouhungry?I'
dli
ke
totakeat i
nynap"
Me:
"napI
'
lleatt
hel
i
ver
s"
Lol
o:"
notmyl
i
ver
s"
Me: "
yesnotyourli
versbutt
hechi
ckenl
i
ver
s Ican
tastethem al
ready.
..
.Howabouty
oucomeand
sleepdownstairswit
hme? "
Lol
o:"
that
'st
hepl
anIdon'
twantt
obel
eftal
one"
Wewal keddownstai
rsandyeahshesl eptonmylap
whil
eIwaseat ingtheli
verswit
hbr ead t heyare
deli
cioushandsdownbutIhadt omakeapl antoeat
them causeLolowascr y
ingtel
li
ngmet oputthem
downbutonceshewassnor ingitwasmychance
shecanshoutal lshewantsIdon'tcar
e I '
l
lbefull
bythatt i
me.
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11/
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nne:
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sst
օ ♡
.
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.
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.
Iwokeupandf rom t helooksoft heoutsidei twas
alreadyl ate f ucknowLwandl eandLesegowi ll
hav et owai ttil
llatef ortheirfood Iwassl eepi
ng
comf ortablyi nourbed het ookmet obedhow
consi der atebuthemademef alli
ntoadeepsl umber
soIbl amehi mf orhi s.Igotoutofbedandwentt o
thebat hroom t of reshenuporel seI'l
lthr
owupt he
smal lestt hingsdi sgustsmet oday af t
ermy
refreshmentIwentdownst ai
rsIcoul dsmel ll
amb
from af ar hecanCooksuchadi ff
icul
tdi shLordI
prayIdon' tgetsi ck.Hewasev enhummi nga
song Ihav eser iouslyrubbedof fonhim andi na
goodway st ickwi thmeandy ou'l
lbethebestev er
wel lIwant edt oscar ehim butLesegobl ewmycov er
bybangi ngt het ableandgi ggli
ng I
'm notgoing
topi cky ouupphol anana, hebl ewmycov erwhy
shoul dIpi ckhi m.
Lwandl
e:"
heyf
inal
l
yyouwokeup"

Me:
"youdi
dn'
twakemeupbecause?
"
Lwandl
e:"
youwer
eti
redandy
oubei
ngsi
ckscar
es
me"
Me:
"I
'm si
ckt
hat
'swhyy
oushoul
dcheckuponme"
Hewalkedtowardsmeandj ustfel
tmy
t
emperatur
e dudef ussovermepl easejustcause
ascenesayIshouldn'
tevenli
ftamuscl e.
Lwandl
e:"
nahy
ouar
efi
nenof
eversoy
ou'
l
lli
ve"
Me:
"t
hankGody
ouar
enotaDoct
orI
'
dsuey
ou"
Lwandl
e:"
lucki
l
yI'
m alawyerIcanf
ightf
ormy
sel
fin
cour
t.
..
..Wannafi
nishup?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"youcont
inue"
Lwandl
e:"
mfazi
youar
elazy
"
Me:"
blamey our
selfforwhaty
oudi
dtomeatt
he
of
fi
cet oday please"
Hechuckl
ed
Lwandl
e:"
att
heoffi
ceneh.
..
.Ibel
i
eveIwannadot
hat
agai
naft
erdi
nnerhowaboutthat?"
Me:
"I
'm si
ckLwandl
ehav
emer
cyony
oursi
ckwi
fe"
Lwandl
e:"
I'
ll
healy
ouIknow.
..
.Lambchopspl
usme
equal
sheali
ng"
Ismi rkedandj ustwentt ogetmyy oghur tputiti
na
bowl andenj oyedi twithLesegowhi l
ewekepthi s
fathercompanybutwhenI '
m cookingthey'l
l
disappeari ntot hinairandonlycomebackwhen
theyar ehungr yandknowt hatI
'm donecooki ng
somuchf orhav ingmyback.Wehadourt i
nyl i
tt
le
fami l
ydinnerbutsi nceLesegowashel lbenton
stayingupt onightit'
llbehardshame buthe'l
l
sav emef r
om hour sofscreamingandgr oaning I
l
ov ehav inghi mi nmebuty ohLordgav ehim shame
whenIt hinkofhowIl ostmyv i
rgini
ty butI
guessI 'm dealingwi thiti
nmyownway .
Lwandl
e:"
Lesegogot
obednow"
hejustsuckedonhishandsnotmindingthei
diot
i
nf r
ontofhim hewasl i
kephol
aDaddyIgot
thi
sbutLwandleisnotapati
entmant hathe'
s
defi
antl
ynot.
Lwandl
e:"
takeLesegot
ohi
sroom weneedt
otal
k"
Me:
"can'
twet
alkwi
thhi
m her
e?Imeanhedoesn'
t
under
standany
thi
ng"
Lwandl
e:"
ohsonowwear
gue?Isayt
hisandy
ousay
that
?"
Me:
"NoIwasj
ustsay
ing"
Lwandle:
"l
et'
snotgett
oocomf or
tabl
eplease,
can
youtakehimtobedhe'sdosi
ngoffal
ready"
Itookthel
i
ttl
emantohi
sroom andIsanghima
l
ull
abyti
ll
hedosedof
fandIfi
xeduphisblanket
Me:"
whydidyoufallasl
eepnawechubbycheeks.
..
.
NowIhavetotal
ktoy ourfat
herbabyt
hough
sl
eepti
ghtmyPrince"
Idi
dn'tcl
osethedoorwedon'tcloseitwejust
swit
chof ft
heli
ght
sIwalkeddownst ai
rsandnow
wecanwat chTV hewaswat chingsport
saftera
daywithoutTVheexpectsmetowat chsport .I
satonthecouchacrosshim
Me:
"t
alkI
'
mli
steni
ng"
Hel
ookedatmeandj
ustchangedt
hechannel
Hi
m:"
wheny
our
eal
i
set
haty
ourhusbandi
scal
l
ing
y
ou'
l
lknowwhatt
odo"

Me:"
butyousai
dwe' l
ltal
kandnowy
oudon'
twantt
o
t
alk?Lwandl
eplease"
Hewasbusychangi
ngt
hechannel
s
Him:"
Idon'thavethev oicet
obescr
eamingsoasI
sai
dy ou'
l
lav ai
lyourselfwheny
ouwanttotal
kto
me..
..AndIhopei t'
ssooncauseI'
m st
il
lhotonceI
'
m
col
dI'l
lburstyouruterus"
SeewhattheSokhul
ushavegi
venme Islowl
y
stoodupandwenttowar
dshiscouchj
ustt
obe
pull
edtoseatonhi
slap.
Hi
m:"
wher
eist
hatbeaut
if
ulsmi
l
e?"
Me:
"ev
enhi
ghschool
kidsdon'
tdot
hisy
ouknow
t
hat
"
Him:
"becausetheydon'
thav
ehousesnoraret
hey
marr
iedbutsinceIpai
d200Kfory
ouI'
llev
enpast
e
youontheceil
ing"
Me:
"200Kf
orwhat
?Iknowy
oupai
dlesst
hanf
ive
Gr
and"
Him:"andyouthinkyourfat
herwashappywiththat?
List
ent hemoneyIhav ebeengi
vingt
hem wasf or
l
obola...
..I
'
dneverpaysomeoneabr i
beletalone
theydon'tevenseeyousowhyshouldIbrother?"
Me:
"ohwowLwandl
eyouar
ehear
tl
ess.
..
.Mxm l
et
mego"
Hi
m:"
Noseather
eanddon'
tfi
ghtme"
Me:
"phel
awhaty
ouar
edoi
ngi
snotsexyatal
lj
ust
soy
ouknow"
Hi
m:"youar
esexyf
orbot
hofus.
..
nowgi
vedaddya
ki
ss"

Me:
"whosedaddy
?"
Hi
m:"
LesegoandLumko"
Me:
"youhav
eanot
herchi
l
d?"
Henodwi
thabr
oadsmi
l
eonhi
sface
Hi
m:"
sti
l
lmaki
ngherandsoonshe'
l
lbei
nher
e"
Her
ubbedmyt
ummy
Hi
m:"
sogi
vedaddyaki
ss"
Me:"t
ell
LesegoandLumkotoki
ssyou,Ij
ustwantto
gotobedsinceyoudon'
tknowwhatyouwantedto
tal
kabout"
Him:"
wheny ouwantt
owithdr
awmoneyf
rom abank
accountwhatdoyoudo?Doyouj
ustgot
her
eand
..
..
."
Me:"
youarenotabankaccount t
houghIdo
needyourcar
dsformyshopping"
Hi
m;"
justgi
vemeakissbutI
'
llhav
etogr
oant
hree
t
imesbefor
eyoust
op"
Me:"
keept
hest
ufft
oyour
sel
fthel
essgossi
pthe
bet
ter
"
Hi
m:"
it
'sabouty
ourposi
ti
onatwor
k"
Me:
"whatabouti
t?"
Him:"
noki
ssf
ir
standi
fIdon'
tgr
oani
tdoesn'
t
count
"
Me:
"t
wice?"
Hi
m:"
thr
ice"
Me:
"once"
Hi
m:"
fi
net
wiceandBJ"
keepi
ttoyour
sel
fthenImeanI
'
m busy
t
hrowi
ngupbutyouwanttoaddtomyworri
es"
Hi
m:"
I'
mjoki
ngbutI
'
m ser
iousaboutt
heki
sspar
t"
Me:
"l
etmeseatdown"
Heunl ockedhisholdonmeandIsatdownbesi des
him Ipull
edhimt owar
dsmeandweki ssedbutI
hav easecretweapon i
nbetweenthekissIj ust
unbuttonedhisjeansandsli
ppedmyhandi nt hem
takinghisjuni
orint
omyhandandst rokedhim
causingtheseniortogroanhepull
edawayf rom the
kiss.
Hi
m:"
that
'snotf
air
"
Me:
"youdi
dn'
tputupr
ulesnowonemor
e"
It
ri
edt
oki
sshi
m buthemov
edaway
Me:
"Lwandl
e..
..Lwandl
eki
ssme"
Hi
m:"
stopf
orci
ngmewomant
hat
'ssal
utar
yrape"
Me:
"f
utsekki
ssmenowbef
oreIr
eal
l
ylosei
t"
Heburstoutl
aughi
nghewasbiti
nghi
sfinger
sand
ohyeahhehasthesel
ongfi
ngers longert
han
mine hehasl ongst
uffev
ery
where ev enhe
hi
mselfisl
ong .
Him:"nowy ouar
et hreat
eni
ngme?Godper
for
ms
miraclesyouknowt hat,
comel
etmekissy
oubef
ore
youst ar
tcryi
ngformyl i
ps"
Me:"
I'
dnevercr
yfory
ourl
i
pspsstact
ingasi
fthey
ar
efood"
Hi
m:"
wannabet
?"
Me:
"j
ustt
ell
meaboutt
hej
obof
ferandst
oppl
ayi
ng
wi
thmyhead"
Hi
m:"
ohyeahyouarestart
ingt
omor
rowmor
ning.
..
..
NowcanIpl
aywit
hy ourhead?
"
Me:
"No,
whysosoon?
"
Him:
"Idon'
ttr
ustt
hatCul
ududeIt
hinkhemi
ght
comebackanddostufft
oyou"
Me:
"soy
ouar
edoi
ngt
hist
opr
otectme bi
gboy
car
es"
Hi
m:"
whowoul
dn'
tcar
eforal
loft
his.
..
..
getonme"
Me:
"why
?"
Hi
m:"
causeIsai
dsocomegeton.
..
"
Igotonhim wi
thmylegsr
est
ingonhi
ssideshejust
mov edhi
shandssl
owlydownmywaistandtooka
gruesomegrabofmyass.
Him:"asIwassayi
ngwhowouldn'tcar
ef oral
lthi
s
ass..
..
uhuhletmetouchIdon'
twannat ouchyou
onlywhenwear ehav
ingsexsoletmetouch"
Me:
"Idon'
ttouchy
oui
nappr
opr
iat
ely
"
Him:"
youwerebusygr
ippi
ngonmenotsol
ongago
solet
'snotl
i
e..
."
Me:"
notsot
ightLwandl
e..
..
fort
hel
oveofGodnotso
t
ight
"
Hi
m:"
whatareyoutal
kingaboutI
'
mjustmassagi
ng
mywif
e'sass.
..
.CanIask?"
Me:
"yeah?
"
Hi
m:"
whyar
eyoul
i
ket
hiswhi
l
eyourl
i
ttl
esi
sterus
t
hin"
Me:"Iusedtobefatandthat
'swhenmyhear t
problemsstart
edalsosomeskinproblemssoaf
ter
thesurgeryIdeci
dedtochangemyl i
fest
yle"
Hi
m:"
you'
rest
il
lfatt
hough"
br
eat
hPenel
opebr
eat
hNana
Me:
"you'
l
lsl
eepont
hecouch"
Hi
m:"don'
tmakemedot
hist
oyounotnow
pl
ease.
..
."
Me:
"what
?I'
dki
l
lyout
hist
imear
ound"
Him:
"f
orwhat?Iwasgoi
ngt
osayI
'
dsneaki
ntobed
sowhywouldyouki
ll
me?"
Me:
"mxm y
ouar
ebusypoki
ngmesost
opi
t"
Hi
m:"
juni
ori
sbeggi
ngt
opl
aywi
thy
ourdaught
er"

Me:
"she'
sti
redj
uni
orpl
aysr
ough"
Hi
m:"
he'
l
lbegent
lej
ustl
ett
hem pl
ayj
ustt
hisonce"
Me:
"buthe'
l
lhur
therwhenhe'
sint
hemood"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
Ithoughtwewer
etal
ki
ngaboutki
ds.
..
.what
moodwil
lhebein?
"
Me:"whatwoul
dakidbepoki
ngmef
or?Lwandl
eI'
m
ser
iousstopmovi
ngmeupanddownli
kethat
"
Hechuckl edandj ustki ssedmyneckIhadt omoan
causet hewayhewaswor ki
ngmei sjustanother
thingev enwhenwear est illweari
ngcl othesli
ket his
hewasnowr emovingmyshi rtbuthisphoner ang
hecur sedandj usttooki ttoanswerbusyr ubbi ng
myass mymancanmul tit
asksoIhel pedhim by
kissinghi sneckwhi l
ehewasbusywi t hhiscalland
hedi dn'tev enseem dist urbedatal lhej ustatt
ended
meandt hecal l ‍♀i fitwasmeI '
dbel osi
ngmy
abilit
ytof or mulat
easent encehehungupandj ust
threwt hephoneont hecof f
eetable.
Hi
m:"
let
'sgoout
?"
Ishookmyhead
Him:
"pl
easethatwasSisandaandtheyhav
eat i
ny
gett
ogetherandev
ery
onei sbri
ngi
ngapartnerI
hav
en'
tbeent
othesei
nmont
hspl
easel
ove"
Me:"
wehav
eababyLwandl
e..
.YougoI
'
llst
ay
behi
nd"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
t.
.."
Me:"
I'
llbefi
neIpr
omiseI'
l
lcal
lyoui
fIf
eel
li
keIneed
you.
..
justgoandhav
efun"
Hesmi
l
edandj
ustat
tackedmyl
i
pswi
thaki
ss
Him:
"you'
ret
hebestwi
feamancoul
daskf
ory
ou
knowthat
?Thanks"
Ij
ustnodandbel i
evemet odaywascouchday
causeIgotanotherpanel
beatingonthecouch he
l
eftmepower l
essandhewaspr oudofhi
mself
abouti
thespankedmyassabi t
.
Hi
m:"
comegetup"
Igotupandal
mostfellcauseoft
hewobbl
yfeetbut
hecaughtmeChuckl
ing.
Hi
m:"
don'
tfal
lMa'
Sokhul
u,t
urnar
oundbaby
"
Me:
"Lwandl
e "
Hi
m:"
onef
ort
her
oad "
Het ur
nedmear oundandjustgoti
nfrom t
heback
het hr
ewhimselfi
nmenott hatgent
lest
uff ‍♀I
screamedlikemywholeli
fedependedonitcausei
t
didactual
l
y
Him:
"sor
rybymi st
ake.
..
.I
'
m sor
rybaby
,I
'm sor
ryokay
?
Lol
o?LoloI
'm sorr
y"
thi
ssi
dehewasbangi
ngmenotpl
ayi
ngbuthe'
s
busysay
ingt
hathe'
ssor
ry.
Hi
m:"
Lol
o?"

Me:
"mmh?
"
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
ryokay
"
Me:
"mmmh"
Hi
m:"
arey
ouangr
y?Tal
ktome,
don'
tbeangr
y"

Me:
"I
'm not
..
..
Lwandl
eeeee!I
'
m notangr
yyy
"
Hewasfucki
ngmehar dsoIhadtomoanandt
hat
j
ustmadehim happyt
oevenspankmyasssohar
d
ev
ent
henei
ghbour
shear
dit
.
Hi
m:"
sayt
hatagai
n..
..
.Saymyname"
Ishookmyheadandjustgotapanelbeat
ingonmy
assthatmademebeghimt ostop.Whenhefelt
sati
sfi
edwit
hhisj
obhestoppedandslowlypull
ed
outIwassopowerl
essthatIj
ustpushedhim of
fme
andthrewmysel
fonthecouch.
Hi
m:"
wantmet
ocar
ryy
ouupst
air
s?"
Ishookmyheadandspr
eadmyl
egsIneededsome
air
Hi
m:"
nev
erdot
hatwhi
l
eI'
m st
il
lher
eI'
l
lhur
tyou"
Me:
'ai
n'
tyougoi
ngt
osomegett
oget
herwi
thy
our
f
ri
ends?"
Hi
m:"
closeupher
efi
rst
..
.."
hepushedmyl
egst
oget
herbutt
heyopened
agai
n
Hi
m:"
Penel
ope"hewar
ned
Me:
"I
'mt i
redLwandlei
tai
n'
tl
ikeany
oneel
secansee
t
hatI
'm nakedsoleavemeal
one"
Hecli
ckedhi
stongueandjustgotonethecouch I
qui
ckl
ysatupstr
aightandcl
osedmyl egs
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
hur
tyounowdr
essup"
Me:
"I
'mt
ir
edcar
rymeupst
air
s"
Hi
m: "
whenyousai
dnot
hef
ir
stt
imewhatwer
eyou
t
hinki
ng?Come"
Igotonhisbackandhecar
riedmeupthestai
rst
o
ourroom andsaf
elydel
i
ver
edmet oourbed.
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
orderpi
zzaf
ory
ouokay
..
..
"
Me:
"okaywi
l
lyoubeher
etogeti
t?"
Hi
m:"
noI
'
llpayf
ori
tjustdon'
tfal
li
ntodeepsl
eep"
Inod I 'mt i
redandhet el
lsmenott ofal
li
nt odeep
sl
eep hecov eredmeupwi t
ht hefleeceblanket
andjustki
ssedt hesi deofmyhead. heknowsI
didn'
tdothistomy selfsohehast owor khardto
makemecomf ortable sot hathecanbebl essed
againthenextt i
meheneedsbl essings

Lwandl
e
I'
dliket osayPenel opei slazybutshe' snotshehol d
hergr oundpr ettywel l andchal lengesme
whenev ershef eelst heneedt osomel eavingher
andgoi ngt othi slit
t l
epar tyisjustmebei ngani di
ot
butIdi dsayI '
dcomesowhatPenel opedi ddeny i
ng
togowi thmei sgr eatIdon' twantt oi nt r
oducehert o
theunder worl
dnotnownotev erev ent hiswedding
shewant sit'
llbeapr i
vatecer emonyj ustour
i
mmedi atefami l
iesandf r
iendsnocol leaguesand
shitjustthepeopl ecl oset ous .Iwentt otakea
showerandaf terIdr iedmy self,appliedsomebody
l
otionanddeci dedt owearbl ack bl ackt ornup
j
eanandbl ackT- shi r
twi thmybl ackbi ker sjacket
thenbl ackTi mber land.Igav eLol oaPeckont helips
andt ookmyst uffwal kingoutt ogoandcheckon
Lesegowhowassl eepi ngsopeacef ullyj ustl
ikehis
mommy ,
Islowl ypi ckedhi m upandwentwi t
hhimt o
mybedr oom he' llsleepwi thLol ot i
llIgetbackhe
hast opr otecther .
Me:
"Lol
oIbr
oughtLesego.
..
.Don'
tsquashhi
m okay
"
Shehear
dmecauseshejustt
appedbesi
desherand
Ipl
acedhi
m downj
ustf
orhimtobehugged
missi
onaccomplishedIlef
tthem t
orestandyeahI
didor
derthatpi
zzaforLoloandIgavetheguard
somemoneybef oreIlef
tImeanI'l
lhavetobuf
fup
secur
it
yaroundthehousenowIdon' twannari
skit
anymore

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inued
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Iwasr eal
lyti
redandt hatai n'
tajokeLwandledoes
thi
ngsl i
keit'
stheendoft hewor ld myent i
rebody
hurtsbutIwokeupcauseLesegowascr yi
ng
dudey ourfatherwasser i
ouswhenhesai dhebur st
myut erusandt hi
ssidey ouar ebusycry
ingIgotup
tocheckwhyhewascr y i
ngandhewascr yi
ngcause
oftheaircomi ngfrom thebal cony Lwandl eis
crazyhowcoul dhel eavet hedooropenli
kethis?I
gotupandjustwentt
opushi
tcloseandwentt
o
takeLesegosi
nceIwokeupI
'
llusethi
stof
eedhim
andmy sel
f.
Me:"whatt
imei
sit
?Imeany ourfat
heri
snotback
yetandhesai
dhe'
llbebacksoon"
Iwasbusyr amblingl ikehecananswerme It ook
myphonecheckedt het i
meandi twaswaypast
mi dnight heev enf or gotthathel efttwo
def enselesspeopl eathomewhenhi scr azycousi n
i
sr unni ngl oosethi ssi dewi thLubanzi .
..Itookt he
phoneandLesegoandwewal keddownst ai
rsthis
househasnosecr etcauseIcoul dseeev eryt
hingon
theout side whenwewer eatt hedi ningr oom the
glassj ustgotshut teredIqui cklyduckedcov eri
ng
Lesegowhoj ustdeci dedt ocryhi slungsout I
l
ookedar oundanddi dn' tseeany one i twasdar k
sot hingswer eabi tbl ur rybutthet hingt hat
shut teredt hewindowwasnotar ockf uckt hese
windowsar est r
ongt obebr okensoeasi lymyhear t
wasonov erdri
veIhi dbehi ndt hecoucht r
y i
ngto
hushLesegoandIcal ledhi sfatherbutIwas
shaki ngIwast rembl ing .Ical ledhi m ov erand
overandov
erandoverandov
eragai
nbuthi
sphone
j
ustsentmetovoi
cemai l
Me:
"shhSegopl
ease.
..
.Letmet
hinkher
e"
Ipeakedatt hedoorandwhenIdi dn' tseeany oneI
quickl ystoodupandr anwi t
hLesegoupst ai
rsand
that'swhent hegunshot sbegan Iwasnowcr ying
withLesegoIr anintot hebathroom andhi dther eI
clutchedonLesegobusyt r
yingt ohushhi m,I'
m sur e
theyshotabout25t i
mesandaf tert hati twasj ust
quitet hissideLwandl ewasnotpi ckingupatal l
tenthcal landst il
lnothing Ithoughti twasov er
butourbedr oom bal conydoorwasal soshat tered
Iquickl ycov er
edLesego' smout handal sobi tmy
l
owerl i
pjusttost opanysoundsf r om escapi ngmy
mout h,Icouldhearst uffbeingthr ownar oundi nthe
room andt heyev encamet othebat hr oom but
turnedorsoIt houghtunt il
gunshot sbeganagai n I
j
ustpl acedLesegoi nt hebat htub ‍♀Iwas
crawl ingtot henearestcor nerandIgothi tonmy
hand Iwant edt ocrybutIdi dn'tIcoul dn'triskit
.
Theyshotandshot pl easest oppl easest op.
.
Lwandl
e
FuckIwasev entir
ed Ist oodupf rom t heguys
andwentt omycarIt hinkIleftmyphonet here
Iwasf eeli
nghotsoIt ookof fthejacketandt he
phonewasi nthereIopenedupt hecarandy eahI
didleavemyphonet hereandIf oundal l36mi ssed
call
sf r
om Lolo t hislate?Icalledherbackbutgot
noanswerIcal ledheraboutt hreetimesbutst il
l
nothingthi
si smessedupandIdon' tt
hinkshe
want edtotellmethatshemi ssesmeIwentback
i
nsideandj ustpulledSisandat otheside.
Me:"
dudeIt
hinksomet
hinghappenedt
omywi
fe,
she'
snotpi
cki
ngup"
Hi
m:"
she'
ssl
eepi
ngcomeon"
Me:"
aft
er36missedcal
lsal
lasecondapar
t?Li
stenI
t
hinkI'
l
lneedbackupl
et'
sgo"
Hi
m:"
andt
hem?
"
Me:
"t
heywil
lunder
standcomeonbutdon'tt
ell
them
t
hatwear
erushingtomywife.
..
.You'
l
lfi
ndme
out
side"
Hi
m:"
it
'scool
let
'
sgoI
'
llhur
rybackt
othem"
Inodandhejustpatmyshoul
derwerushedoutwit
h
metryi
ngtocallLol
oandIwasabouttoreal
l
ylosei
t
whenshepickedup.
Me:
"Ma'
Sokhul
u?"
Ij
usthear
dheav
ybr eathi
ngandLesegocr
yingi
nthe
backgr
ound thisstupidcari
ssl
ow
Me:
"t
alkt
omeMama.
..
.Lol
oar
eyouokay
?"
Her
:"
I'
m dy
ing.
..
.i
thur
tsLwandl
e"
Me:"
I'
m ont
hewayhangi
nther
eI'
m al
mostt
her
eI
pr
omise"
Her:
"Ican'
thol
dhim andhe'
sint
hebat
htub.
..
..He'
l
l
f
reezetodeath"
Me:
"Lol
owhathappened?Whosei
nthebat
htub?"
Shecoughedal
i
ttl
e
Her
:"Lesego.
..
..Ihadtohidehim Lwandl
emyhand
hur
tshurryuppl easehe'
scold"
Me:"
I'
m onthewaymommyjustt
ryt
ogethi
m out
pl
ease.
..
.I'
m al
mostt
her
eokay"
Her
:"
okay
"
Ididn'
thangupsot hatIcouldli
stent oherandshe
didn'
teit
herWTFhappenedt omyf ami l
ythough I
wasdr i
vi
ngl ikeamani acevenSisanda'scarwasno
l
ongerv i
siblebehi ndmet hankGodt her
eisnot r
aff
ic
themomentIdr oveinIjumpedoutandr antowards
thehouseIsawt hefrontdoorshatteredIgotinand
sawt heli
vingroom i nshambl es Ir anupstair
sto
myr oom anditwasal soinshambl es
"
Ridert
her
eisnoonei
nthi
sroom br
uh.
..
"
Me:
"checki
nthest
udy
..
..
I'
l
lbet
her
esoon"
Iwalkedar
oundt heroom Ididn'
tseeanysignofthe
peoplewhodidthissoIwentt othebathr
oom Itr
ied
toopenthedoorbutitwasl ockedsoIhadt oki
ckit
open
Me:
"Lol
o?Lol
owakeup.
..
..
Babywakeuppl
ease"
Shemoanedabi
t It ookLesegofr
om herand
handedhi
mtoSi
sandawhoj ustwal
kedi
n,Ipi
cked
upLol
o
Si
sanda:
"wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngher
?"
Me:
"shef
ucki
ngneedsaDoct
orl
ookather
"
Sisanda:
"f
uckt
hatthepol
icewil
lst
artsnoopi
ngwe'l
l
sneakherinmypract
iceunderadi
ffer
entnamelet
's
go"
Me:
"t
hat
'l
ltaket
ime.
..
.sheneedsaDoct
orser
iousl
y"
Sisanda:
"I
'l
ltr
eatherRi
dercal
m downshe'
l
lbef
ine.
..
Let'
sgo"
Me:" I'
m goingtoki
llall
thedickheadswhodi
d
t
hisIpr
omise.
..I'
l
lhuntthem downandIknow
wheret
ostart
"
Sisanda:
"f
ocusononet
hingatat
imeokay
..
..Let
's
getthem tr
eat
ed"
Wewal kedtomyJeepandIdeci dedt or
ideatthe
backwithLoloandLesegoandSi sandadidgether
i
nunderaf akenameIwasn' tt
hinki ngst
rai
ghtatall
I
wasgoingcrazyatthethoughtthatsomeonehad
thegutstoevengetint
omyhouseandr ansackit
l
ikethat Iwaspaci ngupanddownout si
dethe
war
dwheremyfamil
ywasitseemedlikealif
eti
me
t
obeexact themomentSisandacameoutofthe
r
oom t
owardsmeIgavehi
m myat t
ention.
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Hi
m:"t
heyarefi
nej
ustt
hatthebul
letgr
azedLolo'
s
ar
m butshe'
sfi
neandyoucanseeherifyouwant"
Me:"
Ithi
nki
t'
sbestIgoandstar
tsear
chi
ngf
ort
he
guy
swhodidthi
stot hem "
Hi
m: "
li
stenI'
m notmarr
iedsoIdon'tknowhowthi
s
t
hingswor ki
fyourwi
fewillbehappywitht
hatt
hen
l
et'
sgo,I'
ll
putthenur
sesincharge"
Ir
ubbedmyf
orehead
Me:
"f
orgeti
tletmecheckonher.
..
.Gett
heguy
sto
t
hesafehousetheyhav
etoprepitI'
mtaki
ngt
hem
t
her
e"
Hi
m:"
theonei
ntheEastsi
de?
"
Me:"
uhuhNort
hone, Ineeditr
eadysoyou'
l
lhav
eto
goaswell
andjustt
aket hepeopl
eyouknoware
l
oyaltomeandnotVilakazi
"
Henod
Hi
m:"
consi
deri
tdone"
Me:
"t
hanksdude"
Hi
m:"
don'
tthankmey
ouknowI
'
dgot
owarwi
thy
ou.
.
"
Weshoulderbumpedandhewal kedawayj ust
l
eavingmetheretobattl
ewithmyowndemonst i
ll
I
deci
dedtogointotheroom andf acethemusi c.Well
Lesegowassleepi
ngandt heonlypersonawake
wasLolo Iwal kedtowardsherbedandj ust
ki
ssedhercheekmakinghert oturnandlookat
me shedi dn'
tlookpleasedtoseemeatal lshe
wasangryandthat'
sjustputt
ingitmil
dly.
Me:
"Lol
obabeI
'
m sor
ry"
Shebl
i
nkedcount
lessti
mesandjustsatupst
rai
ght
It
ri
edtohel
pbutIgotsl
appedaway
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tknowt
hat
..
.."
Her
:"
whatar
eyou?
"
Me:
"Lol
ojust
..
..
"
Her:
"heySokhul
uIaskedy
ouaquest
ion,
whatar
e
you?
"
Iscr
atchedmyheadabi
t
Her:
"t
alkorgetoutofmyf
ace,
andIwon'
tasky
ou
agai
n"
Me:"
stopt
reat
ingmeli
keachi
l
d,f
oral
lweknowi
t
coul
dbethatboyf
ri
endofy
our
s"
If
oundmy sel
fshouti
ngwhenIshouldn'
tbeandthe
wayshelookedatmemademewi shtotakeback
ev
eryt
hingandjustst
artov
erandapologi
ze
Her:
"areyoudone?AndIthi
nkwebothknowthat
Lubanzii
snotmyboy f
ri
endandhecan'
tdothi
s"
Me:*
real
ly
?Heistheonewhocausedmyacci
dentor
don'
tyouknowabouti
t?"
Shekeptqui
te
Me:
"youknew?Lol
ower
etheonewhot
houghtup
t
hewholeplan?
"
Her:
"I'
m nothear
tl
essli
keyouokayIhear
dhim
speaki
ngont hephoneaski
ngifi
t'
sdoneandwhenI
askedhi
m het
oldmewhathedi
dIr
ushedt
othe
hospi
tal
"
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me?Whyl
i
e?"
Her:
"fuckthataf
terwhaty ouputmet hroughyou
shouldbehappyt hatIevencamet her
eatt hat
ti
me...
.Don'tyoudaretryt ot
urnt
hisaroundf r
om
thefactthatwealmostdi edandyouwer en'
tpicki
ng
upyourphone"
Me:
"I'
m sor
rybabeI
'm sosor
ry.
..
..
.Il
eftmyphonei
n
myj
acketandthej
acketwasinthecar
"
Her:
"yousaidyou'
llcomebackear lyLwandleyoulef
t
homear oundsevenandy oustil
lstayedti
llmi
dnight
,
didyouforgett
haty oul
eftdefenselesspeopl
eat
home.Youknowwhaty ouar eandwhaty oudobut
youstil
lfor
gotaboutus"
Me:
"Lol
ofor
giv
emepl
ease,
I'
ll
fixt
hisIpr
omi
se"
Her
:"
fi
xwhat
?Whatar
eyou?
"
Me:"
I'
llt
ellyouwhenwegethomeIpr
omi
seI
'
llt
ell
youeveryt
hing"
Her
:"
I'
m notgoi
ngbackt
othathouseunder
stand?I
'
d
r
athersl
eepunderabr
idget
hant
ogobackt
her
e"
Me:"
anot
heronedon'
twor
ryy
ou'
l
lbesaf
ether
eI
pr
omise"
Her:
"youarenotsur
eandy
ouknowi
t,j
ustgetme
outofherepl
ease"
Me:
"r
estabi
twe'
l
lleav
eint
hemor
ning"
Her
:"
mxm howi
sLesego?Ihopehe'
snothur
t"
Ir
ubbedherf
orehead
Me:"
he'
sfineI'
m surej
ustal
it
tl
escar
edbuthe'
sfi
ne
Thankyouforprot
ecti
nghi
m.He'sl
uckyt
ohaveyou
ashismom"
Her
:"
mxm.
..Wher
eist
hedoct
or?
"
Me:
"Isenthi
mtogoandpr
epar
ethehousef
orus"
Her
:"
okayt
hen"
Me:
"youwon'
taskquest
ions?"
Her:
"Idon'
tbegandy
ouknowy
ou'
l
ltel
lmewhen
youdeem i
tfi
t"
Shewasn'
tj
oki
ngandherf
acesai
dital
lsoIj
ust
keptmyt rapshutandgotont hebedshel aidher
headonmychestIdi dn'tsayany thi
ngaf tert hatI
j
ustl etherrestandIal sosleptifyoucal lstar i
ngat
thecei li
ngtil
lyourey eshur tsl
eepingt hanI
slept butal otoft hingswer erunningt hroughmy
mi ndwhowoul dgot osuchl engthsjustt or uinmy
housel i
kethat f rom t helooksofthingst herehe
didn'twantt okil
lthem j usttoscarethem buthehi t
Lolo heev enruinedahouset hatcostmeMi l
li
ons
i
t'l
l evencostmemor et orenovateit,causet rut
hisI
ain'tsell
inganyofmyhousesI '
drathernotl i
v ein
them t hantosellthem
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Iwokeupinpain f i
rstIhadbrokenbonesnowI '
m
shot whatcur sei
sthisthoughhuhIpressedthe
emergencybut
tonIneedpainkil
l
ersfort
histypeof
pai
nwellt
henursewal
kedi
nshewaseven
str
utt
ing fuckbit
chy
ouain'
tamodel
sojusthur
ry
up
Her
:"
good.
..
."
Me:
"uhuhgetmesomepai
nki
l
ler
spl
ease"
Her
:"
arey
oui
npai
n?"

Me:"
areyoust
upid?Ij
ustsai
dpainki
ll
ers,whatelse
woul
dIbeneedingpai
nkill
ersf
or?Justgetmet he
damnpil
l
s"
Her
:"
Youcoul
dbeadr
ugaddi
ctf
oral
lweknow"
Me:"
okayt
hat'
sityouaregett
ingf
ir
ed.
..
.gett
hef
uck
outofmyroom..
..Getoutnow"
Drugaddi
ctmylef
tfootI
'
minpai
nandshe'
sjust
spit
ti
ngoutshi
t
Me:"gett
hef uckout
...
.Andgetmeanother
nurse,
onewhoi sn'
tincompet
entasyou,
youst
il
lher
e?
Isaidgetthefuckout"
It
hrewapi
l
lowather
"
WoahMa'
Sokhul
ecal
m down"
Me:"
getthi
sbit
choutofmyr
oom andgetme
anot
hernurseLwandl
e"
Lwandl
e:"
why
?Whathappened?
"
Thatsi
l
lynur
sewant
edt
ogobutLwandl
epul
l
edher
back
Lwandl
e:"
whatdi
dyoudot
omywi
fe?
"
Nur
se:
"not
hingsi
r.
..
.I'
l
lgogethert
hepi
l
ls"
Me:"
keept
hem Iwantanewnur
se.
..
fuckIwantt
ogo
home"
Lwandle:
"babeyoucan'
tgohomenow,
let
'swai
tti
l
l
youaredischar
ged"
Me:"
fuckbeingdi
schar
gedIj
ustwannagohomeso
canyoupleasegetmeoutofher
e"
Helookedatthenurseandmoti
onedwithhi
shead
t
hatsheleavesandshedid bet t
ernotbef
ucki
ng
myhusband,hesatdownandjustki
ssedmy
f
orehead.
Hi
m:"
yousur
ecanbeadr
amaQueendoy
ouknow
t
hat
?I'
m al
lyour
ssor
elax"
Me:
"Lwandl
e?Lwandl
e?"
Hi
m:"okayfi
nebabyI
'
llt
alkt
oSi
sandaandf
indout
what
'
sgoi ngon"
Me:
"socanIgetpai
nki
l
ler
snow?Thi
shandi
ski
l
li
ng
me"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
gety
ourdoct
or.
..
..Youar
eev
ensweat
ing"
Me:
"Iknowthat
'swhyIsayIneedpai
nki
l
ler
sand
t
onsofthem"
Hest oodupandj ustwalkedout I '
mi nhugepain
bruhandI'dsayitfeelsli
keI'm goi
ngtodiecryi
ngis
awast eri
ghtnowsoIwai tedforthehubbytocome
backandhedi d,
hecamewi tht
hatfri
endofhis
Sisandaorsomet hingthere.Hewalkedtowardsme
t
hisguylookslikeLubanzi buthe' sshort
erthan
hi
m.
Lwandl
e:"
hopey
our
ememberSi
sanda"
Inod
Si
sanda:
"hi
Lol
o..
."
Lwandl
e:"
Penel
opet
oyou"

Sisanda:
"dudeshutuppl
ease.
..
Sohowar
eyou
feeli
ng?"
Lwandl
e:"
she'
sinpai
ncan'
tyousee?
"
Me:"
exact
lyI
'mi
npai
nsocany
ouj
ustgi
vemet
he
pai
nkil
ler
s?"
Sisanda:
"l
etmechecki
fyoudon'
thav
eani
nfect
ion
thanwe'l
lsee"
Me:
"what
?Imustst
aywi
tht
hispai
nti
l
lyour
un
t
est
s?"
Si
sanda:
"noI
'l
lgi
veyousomet
hingf
ort
hepai
nsol
et
mechangethebandage"
Me:"can'
tyouchangei
taf
tert
hepai
nki
l
ler
s?I
'
m
ser
iouslyi
npain"
Sisanda:
"i
t'
l
lbepai
nful
whenIdot
hissoI
'
llgi
ve
them toyouaf
ter
"
Inodandheputonhisgl
oves thenstar
ted
removi
ngthebandaget
henhest
eri
li
zedmyarm
befor
eputti
ngonacl eanbandage.Hedidgi
veme
somepainki
ll
ersandLordknowst heyweref
ast
causesoonIwasouti fi
t nopai nnothi
ngjustme
andsleepwhichIneedRightnow.
.
Cul
u
Igotacallf
rom thatVi
lakazi
boy hebet
ternotget
undermyskintodayI'minagoodmooddon'
tneed
hi
m spoil
i
ngi tf
orme.
Me:
"yeah?"
Him:"
whatdi
dyoudo?Ar
eyoucr
azyIsai
ddon'
thur
t
her"
Me:
"andIdi
dn'
tast
raybul
l
etdi
dIdon'
tcont
rol
t
hose"
Hi
m:"
whyshootwher
eshei
s?"
Me:"l
i
stenhere...
.Idon'tcareaboutt
hatgi
rl
understand?Whethershei sshotint
heheadornot
she'
snotmypr oblem IwantwhatIwantandri
ght
nowI'll
doany t
hingtogeti t
"
Him:"
Culudon'
tmesswi
thmeunder
stand?I
'
llmake
yourl
if
ealivi
nghel
l
"
Me:"
allbarkandnobit
e,j
uststayinyourl
i
ttl
ehol
e
andletthebigguy
stakecareofthis"
Him:"
we'l
lseeaboutt
hatI
'm comingforyouj
usthur
t
herandyou'
llhav
emor et
hanthatcousinofy
oursto
dealwit
h"
Hehungup di dhehav etowastemyt i
mel i
kethat
thoughIwentbackt omyspor twat chingwai ti
ngf or
Onthathi
let ofini
shcookinghe'scrazyi fhet hi
nksI '
l
l
l
ethimr ui
nmypl ans t hewaythingsar egoing
nowLwandl eisaboutt ocr
ackandI '
ll
keepon
pushingti
ll hedoesIknowhecan' tr esisttheur geto
fi
ghtandj ustspillbl
oodabithe'l
lhav et ofightback
soonerorl aterandI'
llbewait
ingforhi m.
.
Lwandl
e
IthinkI'
mfall
inginlovewithLol
o i don'
twanna
fall
inlovebutshe'sjustpul
li
ngmet owardsheral
l
thet i
me shei sbeautif
ul,
lovi
ng,
warm,funny
,cl
ever
andf orgiv
ingjustwhatIneedtokeepmegoi ng,
actuallyshe'
sal lt
hatandmor e i fIfal
linlovewit
h
hernowIdon' tknowwhatwoul dhappeni f
somet hingli
ket hi
swast ohappenagai n t hi
sget
herpr egnantshitisnotonfuckIcan'tgether
pregnantnotnowev enIjustmightlosemyf ocus
ri
ghtnowIhav etodealwitht
hatthingIcalla
cousin he' l
lknowt herealmesoon.
Wewer est
andi
ngout
sideLol
o'
sroom causeIdi
dn'
t
wantt
owakeher.
Me:"
dudewegot
tamov
eherwhi
l
eshe'
ssl
eepi
ng
l
iket
his"
Si
sanda:
"shecoul
dhav
eani
nfect
ion"
Me:"youal
readytookthebl
oodsamplessocomeon
shehastobemov edandyouknowit.
..
..Shecan'
t
seewherewear etaki
ngher,
Iwanthertowakeup
ther
e"
Sisanda:
"youknowi
tsf
arshemi
ghtwakeupal
ong
theway "
Me:
"sl
eepi
ngpi
l
lsorany
thi
ngt
okeephersl
eepi
ng
t
hathousei
ssupposedt
ost
ayasecr
et"
Hesi
ghed
Sisanda:
"we'
l
lhav
etouset
heambul
ancesoi
t'
s
cool"
Me:
"soshoul
dIpackt
hei
rcl
othes?
"
Henod
Sisanda:
"l
etmet
aket
hebl
oodf
ort
est
ingI
'
llbe
back"
Me:
"cool
howl
ongdoy
out
hinkshe'
l
lbeoutf
or?
"
Si
sanda:
"anhourandahal
fnowr
elaxI
'
llbet
her
eso
I
'l
lputhertosl
eep"
Inodandhej ustpatmyshoul derwal ki
ngawayf r
om
mesoIwentt opacktheclot
hesIhadbr oughther
andLesegot henitwasmov i
ngt imeshe' l
lhaveto
understandwhenshewakesupt hatthi
sisfor
protecti
onandI'ddoanyt
hingt opr ot
ecthercause
event heambulancewasguar dedbyf ourcarsallful
l
withmyment i
llwegottothehousewher eguar ds
we'rereadyandstandi
ngbyf ormyor der
s.Sisanda
wast heonewho' l
lbet
akingcar eofherandt hat's
howIwanti t
.Ilefthim busyget t
inghercomf ortabl
e
whenIwentt oputLesegoi nhisr oom.Mysonj ust
wentthrought hishor ri
bleordeal somethingIhav e
neverputhi mthroughbutsomewannabet hi
nksi t
's
okaytoputt hem thr oughhel lj
ustf oracompany
whichheknowsdoesn' tbelongt ohi m Cul uand
thatwannabegangst erwilldealwi tht
her ealmenot
Lolo'
sLwandl ebutt her ealLwandl eSokhul uthey
thi
nkIstil
lnewi nt hisjustli
ket hem.They 'l
lknow
whyandhowIst artedthisgangshi t ifit'
swar
theywantt henit'
swart hey'
llgetit.Walki
ngoutof
Lesego'
sr oom Ibumpedi nt
oSi sanda.
Me:
"sowhat
'
sgoi
ngon?
"
Him:"
she'ssleepi
ngI
'
llbebackwi
ththebl
oodwor
k.
Sowhatar ewesupposedtodo?Shoul
dwegoaft
er
yourcousin?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
that
'swhathewant
s,I
'
llhi
reanothergangt
odo
t
hisoneformesothatnot
hingleadstome"
Hi
m:"
kindaisagreatpl
any
ouar
eki
l
li
ngt
wobi
rds
wi
thonestone"
Me:"y
eahIcan'tgi
vethati
diotmor
eammunit
ion
overme.
..
..
li
stenletmegoandbebesidesmywifeI
wannabetherewhenshewakesup"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
bebacksocal
lmei
fyouneedmeur
gent
ly"
Me:
"cool
thanksbr
o..
..
.Iowey
ouf
ort
his"
Hi
m:"don'
tmenti
onitdon'tforgetcallmeifsheact
s
upandcheckhertemperatureeveryfiveminut
esif
i
t'
supawetclothshoulddoi tti
llIgether
e"
Me:
"okaycool
"
Wedi dourhandshakeandjustwentoursepar ate
waysIwenttomywi f
ewhowasknockedoutbusy
sweatingsoIwenttogetacl othandst ar
tedwipi
ng
thesweatoffherfaceIprayshedon' thavean
i
nfecti
on Ineedhert oheal quickl
yshe'sthemor e
subtl
eonebetweenussoIknowI '
llmakebetter
choi
ceswhenI '
m withher,
soI '
llnurseherbackt o
heal
th
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.
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Iwaswokenupbyt hisli
ghtshakeandmyhairbei
ng
tuggedon,
soIwokeupandf oundLol
ost
ari
ngat
me Irubbedherfor
eheadwithasmi
leonmy
face.
Me:
"mor
ningmyl
ove"
Shecoughedabi
t
Me:"
don'
tyouev
erscar
emel
i
ket
hathearme?Don'
t
youever
"
Lolo:"
whathappened?If
eel
li
keIhav
ebeendeadf
or
years"
Me:"
youdiedfor8minutesbabeyourheartst
opped
beat
ing.
..
..
.It
houghtIhadlosty
ouguy s"
Lol
o:"
meandwho?
"
Me:"
youandourbaby..
..Ma'Sokhul
uwear eamonth
andtwoweekspregnantthat'
swhyy ou'
vebeensi
ck
l
atel
y"
Lol
o:"
tol
dyout
ocutt
hesedr
eadl
ocksl
ooknowy
ou
ar
easangoma.
..
.Howdoy
ouknowI
'
m pr
egnant
?"
Me:"Si
sandagavemethebloodworkswhenhe
cameaf ewhoursagoandyeahyoudidhavean
i
nfecti
onbuttheant
ibi
oti
csareki
cki
ngin"
Lolo:
"andwhydi
dmyhear
tst
op?Di
dn'
tthataf
fect
thebaby?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
youar
ebothf
ineandI
'
m sosopr
oudofy
ouf
or
notgi
vi
nguponmeandourfami
ly
"
Lolo:
"butI
'm notreadyt
obeamom..
..
whatabout
school?Ican'
tloseanothery
ear
"
Me:"
you'
l
lgoI'
llev
endr
ivey
ouev
erysi
ngl
eday
..
..I
'
ll
ev
encookdinner"
Lol
o:"
andbr
eakf
ast?Ican'
tbegoi
ngt
oschool
wit
ha
babybumpandyouknowit"
Me:"
why?You'
dbet
hemostbeaut
if
ulgi
rlwi
tha
babybump"
Lolo:
"mxm wherei
sLesego?I
'
mti
redofy
ourugl
y
facenowleave"
Me:"
fuckyouI
'
m handsomeandmybabywi
l
lbej
ust
l
ikedaddy
"
Lol
o:"
justgoandl
eav
emeandf
etchmyson"
Me:
"noIwannasl
eepI
'
mti
red.
..
.ar
eyouhungr
y?"
Lol
o:"
noandwherear
ewe?Iam cer
tai
nthi
sai
n'
tthe
hospi
tal
andcer
tai
nnoty
ourhouse"
Me:"
wellt
hisi
sMYhousenott
hef
ir
stonebut
anot
herone"
Lol
o:"
butwhyam Iher
e?Whati
ftheycomebackf
or
me?Ican'
tbeher
e"
Me:"
don'
tstr
essnooneknowswher
ewear
eso
don'
tst
ress"
Lol
o:"
soyoucanseethefut
urenow?Youdon'tknow
whattomorr
owholdsLwandl
e..
..
..
.Idon'
twannadie
soyoung"
Iki
ssedherhand
Me:"andyouwon'
t,
I'
l
lprot
ectyouguysf
rom nowon.
Don'tyouwannaseetheent
ir
ehouse?I
t'
squite
beauti
ful
"
Lol
o:"
IthoughtIaskedt
oseeLesego"
Me:
"he'
ssl
eepingandIdon'twanthi
mtobecr
ying
t
henyougi
vinghim al
ltheatt
enti
on"

Lol
o:"
getont
hebed"

Me:
"yousur
e?"
Shenod
Ishr
ugandgotont
hebedItr
iedt
oki
ssherbutshe
movedaway whyam Iher
e?
Lol
o:"
I'
minpai
nyoui
diotj
usthol
dme"
Me:"
whydi
dn'
tyousayso?Jeezmakingamant
hink
he'
l
lbeabl
etoeatupal
lyourj
uices"
Lolo:"
nottodaypleasej
usthol
dme.
..
.Justmakeme
feelsafeagain.
"
Inodandj
ustl
aiddownbesi
desherandshelai
dher
headonmychest Iwasbusystroki
ngherhai
r
Lol
o:"
whenIwasdead.
..
.Di
dyoupani
c?Orj
ust
st
andt
her
ecr
ying"
Me:
"r
eal
mendon'
tcr
ywomanpl
ease"
Lol
o:"
yeahrightI
'
m sur
ey ouwer
ecryingl
ikea
wimp..
..Yousuchacrybabycar
rotcake"
Me:
"shutupandsl
eeppl
ease"
Shechuckl edandjustsnuggledcl
oset omesoI
helpedhercauseshewashur ti
ngherself
.Iwasti
red
soIdi dn'
twastetimeinfall
i
ngasleepandIguess
shef ell
asl
eept oocauseIheardhersof t
snores ev ensneezi
ng want stogivemeherf l
u
thoughtweshar edsomet hi
ngspecialbutnowshe
want stogivemef l
u
.
Cul
u
Iwasbusyjustenjoyi
nghav i
ngOnthathil
eont opof
mehav i
ngherr i
deitl
ikecrazywhenthedoorj ust
openedactuall
yitwasbrokenin soOnt hathil
e
j
umpedof fscreamingandcov er
inghersel
fupwhen
theseguyswalkedinwithbalacl
avason poi nti
ng
gunsatus,i
ftheyaresoconf i
dentwhycov erthei
r
f
aceshuh.
Me:
"wt
fdoy
ouwant
?"
Thi
sbigdudejustl
aughedlooki
ngathi
sfr
iendswho
al
sojoi
nedinandlaughed
"
Cont
inuefucki
ngherwe'
l
lwait
,don'
twantt
osend
y
outoyourancest
orshor
nynowdowe? "
Me:
"Isai
dthefuckdoyouwanti
nmyhouse?Want
money?Jewel
l
er y
?Thefucki
sit
?"
"Toteachy
oualessonyou'
ll
nevereverf
orgetabout
messingwit
hanotherman'
sfamil
y.NowIsaidf uck
herandbett
erbegoodporntowatchorI'
l
lkil
lyou"
Ichuckl
edthi
smuf
ucker
sdon'
tknowmet
hatwel
l
nowdot hey
Me:"
seesomeadv
icegetoutnowwhi
l
eyoust
il
l
hav
eachance"
"Orwhat
?Gon'bescr
eamingli
keawimp?NiggaI
sai
dfuckhernoworshouldIdoi
tfory
ou?
"
Me:
"t
akey
ourboy
sandl
eav
emyhouse"
Ont
ha:
"babel
et'
sdoi
t "
Me:"
shutupI'
m notapor
nst
arIwon'
tj
umpt
ono
f
reak'
sorder
s"
"
BoyI
'
djumpt
omyor
deri
fIwer
eyou.
..
"
Me:
"andwhoar
eyou?
"
Hechuckl
ed
"
Youcancal
lmet
heGodf
ather
..
."
beingcockyinmyhouse i j
ustreached
formygunbutitgotshotoutofmyhandthis
motherf
uckerdidn'
tshootme what '
sheplayingat
huh
"
Wtfwereyoupl
anningt
odo?Shootmehuh?Boy
s
t
eacht
hiskidal
essonhe'
ll
nev
ereverf
orget
."
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obeatmeupbutthey
j
ustcameforOnthathil
etheygr
abbedherbyt
hehair
busyscr
eamingIheldonherhandbuttheyj
usthel
d
medown
Me:"
fuck .
..
..Fucky
ouf
ort
hisI
'
m goi
ngt
omake
youpay"
Hechuckl
ed
"
Liket
oseey
out
ry.
..
.Boy
sfuckher
"
Me:
"l
ethergoy
ourbeefi
swi
thme.
..
"
"
Shutuppl
ease.
..
..
"
Ont
ha:
"Cul
upl
ease.
..
..
.Don'
tl
ett
hem dot
hist
ome"
Me:
"t
heywon'
tdononet
oyoubabedon'
twor
ry"
"
Don'
twor
ryni
ggar
elax
"
Ont
ha:
"pl
easest
opt
hem.
..
.. pl
ease"
Icouldn'tdononecausemyhandswer efuckedand
theyr appedherImeanal l tenofthem didherhow
theylike,butthebossdi dn'tdonot hi
nghewasj ust
holdingont omyf aceforcingmet olookather
getti
ngr aped.Andt heshi twasj ustfuckedupcause
shewasscr eamingandaski ngmet ohelpherbutI
couldn'tdoany thingforhert henwhent heywer e
donewi t
hhert heyshotheri nthelegs.
"You'
llneverev ercausetroublehereareweclear?
You'l
lgobackt oyourlousyAmer i
caandleave
thi
ngst hatarenoty oursalone,y
ou'l
lrunandnotlook
backorwe' llcomef oryouandwe' llmakeyourli
fea
l
ivi
nghel lfr
om headt otoe.Let '
sgoboy s"
Me:
"watchyourbackandtel
lwhoev
erhi
redy
outo
wat
chtheir
stoocauseI'
m comingf
oral
lofy
ou"
HechuckledandturnedaroundtolookatOnthat
hil
e
onthefl
oorlayi
nginapool ofherownbloodhe
l
ookedupatmeandj ustshotheri
nt hehead.
Me:"
No!!Youfil
thysonofabi
tch.
..
.y
ou'
l
lregr
ett
his
I
'l
lmakey ousorry
"
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thhisheadandhisboy swal
ked
t
owar dsmeIgotbutI'
m goingtofi
ghtift
heythi
nkI
won'tthent
heyarecr
azybutbeforetheycoul
deven
t
ouchmeIwasknockedoutf rom t
heback.
"
Enj
oypri
sonpr
ett
yboy
,hav
eal
i
ttl
eni
cel
i
febei
ng
t
hewif
e"
Iwasslowlybl
acki
ngoutandIdidwit
hthei
rvoi
ces
busyechoi
nginmyheadast heyl
aughedoutoft
he
room.FuckLwandl
e
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11/
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ti
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ll
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edget ti
ngoutofbedbutLwandl ewas
holdi
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tfucki
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I'
l
ldefi
ant l
ythr owupbef oreIevenreachthe
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oom soIj ustpinchedhi m andthatwokehim
up.
Hi
m:"
huh?
"
Me:
"det
ach"
Iwasmumbl
i
ng
Hi
m:"
what
?"
Me:
"mov
e!!
"
Hi
m:"
oh.
..
sor
ry"
HeletgoofmeandIquickl
ystoodupbutfuckmy
wholebodyhur
tssoIj
ustfel
ldownlucki
l
yIgoton
myknees Lwandl er
ushedtomeandhel pedme
st
andup.
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"
Inodbusyhol
dingonmymout
h
Hi
m:"
yousur
e?Youi
nanypai
n?"
Ishookmyheadandj
ustpoi
ntedatthebat
hroom or
Ithi
nksocausei
sanewhousealli
nall
Hi
m:"
comej
ustdon'
tpukeonme"
Hepi ckedmeup he' llhav
etowor kshameandthe
placeIpoi ntedatwasnotthebathroom I'
m
embar rassingthebat
hroom wasjustatourf
eetand
Ipointedbesi desus heslowlyplacedmedown
andIgotonmykneesandj ustrel
easedatheshi
tI
hadinme.
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"

Me:
"no.
..
.GetoutI
'
llbef
ine"
I'
mthr
owingupandheasksmet
hatar
eyouokaydo
Il
ookokayhuh
Hi
m:"
babeIcan'
tl
eav
eyoul
i
ket
his"
Me:
"t
hanst
opaski
ngst
upi
dquest
ions.
.."
Ifl
ushedandusedt het oi
letasleveraget ost andup
andwal ktowardst hebat hroom sinkbuthemetme
halfwayandj usthel pedmegett hereImeany ou
couldseet heworryonhi sface Idon' twantt osee
himl ikethisatallbutIal socan'thidethepai nandif
myhear tstoppedIknowI '
llbeweakf ora
whi l
e notmydoi ngsoI 'm scaredfort hisbabyI '
m
notst rongt ocar
ryababyandIknowLwandl eis
excitedaboutbei ngadadagai nsoI '
llt
ryt obe
strongj ustforhi
m andLesego Ibr ushedmyt eet
h
andj ustsplashedmyf acewi t
hsomewat ermay be
that'
llwakemeupIwasaboutt otaket hef acetowel
butLwandl ewasal readyaheadofmewi pingmy
facewi t
hthatscarysmi leofhis.
Me:"
I'
m sor
ryf
orbei
ngapai
njustaf
ewmi
nut
es
ago"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oyou'
l
lnev
erbeapai
nnomat
terwhat
happensI
'
llbet
her
eunder
stand?
"
Inodandj
ustgotaki
ssonmyf
orehead
Him:"
goodnowar
emyt
wof
avour
it
epeopl
e
hungr
y?"

Inod
Me:"
butmakesurethatLesegodoesn'
theary
ou
say
ingthathej
ustmightpackupandgo"
Hechuckl
edandpi
ckedmeup
Him:"
hewouldn'
tdar
e..
..
.Sowhatshoul
dwename
ourson?LJ?
"
Me:
"whati
sLJ?
"
Hi
m:"
Lwandl
eJnr
?"
Me:
"nofor
geti
t,sothathecangrowndr
eadl
ockst
oo?
Nowayswe'l
lthinkofsomethi
ng"
Hi
m:"
Lesl
ey?"
Me:
"noLnamespl
ease"
Hewal
kedoutoft
hebedr
oom
Hi
m:"
howaboutweeatbyt
hepool?I
'
llgett
hechef
t
omakesomethi
ngqui
ckquick"
Me:
"wehav
eachef
?"
Henodwi
tht
hissel
faccompl
i
shedsmi
l
eofhi
s
Me:
"si
ncewhen?
"
Hi
m:"sinceyouareinjur
edandcar
ryi
ngmyseedand
t
hissideIhatecookingsohowaboutit
?Canwe?"
Inod
Me:
"I
'dl
i
ket
hat"
Hi
m:"
okayl
et'
sgety
oudownst
air
sfi
rst
"
Me:
"whataboutLesego?
"
Him:"
thecheft
urnsoutt
obeLesego'
snannyt
oo
yay"
Me:
"Nancy
?YouwantNancy
..
..
."
Him;
"norelaxMa'
Sokhul
uIf
iredNancyt
hisonewe
cantr
ustrelaxmyl
oveandyouareheav
ydoy ou
knowthat?"
Me:
"soy
ou'
resay
ingI
'
mfat
?"
Hi
m:"
yeahdoy
ouhav
eapr
obl
em wi
tht
hat
?"
Me:
"I
'l
lsl
apy
ou"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
dropy
oui
t'
sawi
nwi
n"
Me:
"noi
tai
n'
tyourchi
l
dwi
l
ldi
e"
Him:"
thatain'
tfai
r.
..
.butyouar
eheav
ymylovet
obe
honestthesestai
rswillmakemequi
tbei
ng
romanti
c"
Ichuckl
edandj
ustpul
l
edhi
sear
Me:
"I
'l
lwal
kwhenwegetback"
Him:"
nowif
eofminewil
lwalkwhil
etheyar
esi
ck.
..
I'
l
l
carr
yyoumylov
ewe'l
lusetheli
ft
"
Il
i
ket
hisLwandl
esomuch
Me:
"t
hanky
ouSokhul
u"
Hi
m:"
mypl
easur
e "
Heplacedmeneart hecouchandIsatdownashe
rantothekit
chenIthinkhe'sbeingki
ndandIcan
sayIli
kethisLwandlewithallofmeanddon'
twant
himtodisappear I'
ddie.Hecamebackwhistl
i
ng
thi
scrazytunehetri
edt opickmeupbutIstopped
hi
m Imeanhehast
orestandIt
hinkIcanwal
kfora
l
it
tl
ebit
.
Me:
"j
ustsuppor
tmeI
'
llwal
k"
Hi
m:"
yousur
e?"
Inod
Me:
"I
'm sur
ejusthol
dme"
Henodandj ustwrappedhisarm aroundmywai st
I
'm notthatweakbuthewon' tletmewal kaloneso
thi
sisthebestf ornowcausewhenwegot
outsi
de t hishouseisintheforestli
keli
ter
allyand
i
twasbeaut ifuli
t'
sli
kewear eatthet opofa
mountainIjustunhookedhishandf rom me.
Me:
"Lwandl
ewher
ear
ewe?Causet
hisi
sbeaut
if
ul"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m;"
atasaf
epl
acebabe"
Me:"
andwhydi
dn'
twel
i
veher
eint
hef
ir
stpl
ace?I
l
ikei
tmore"
Him:
"t
hishouseain'
tforr
aisi
ngaf
ami
l
ysowewon'
t
beher
eforlongtoo"
Me:
"mxm Il
oveitt
hough.
..
.Canwegoandseatby
t
hefi
re?I
t'
sbeauti
ful
"
Him:"
it
'shotbabemay
belateronIpromiseonceI
putLesegotobedwe'
l
lroastmarshmall
owsthere
j
ustthetwoofus"
Me:
"pr
omi
se?
"
Henodandj
ustt
ookmyhand
Hi
m:"
Ipr
omi
seMa'
Sokhul
u"
Hearinghim cal
lmethat hewr
appedhisar
ms
aroundmeandhuggedmeIl aidmyheadonhis
chestli
steni
ngtohi
sheartbeat.
Me:
"t
hanky
ouLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
youwel
comemyl
ove.
..
.y
ouwel
come"
Herubbedmyhead I'
m star
ti
ngtot
hinkmy
par
entswer
eri
ghtwhentheysai
dhe'
l
lprot
ectme.
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouLwandl
eSokhul
u"
wai
tdi
dIjustsayt
hatoutl
oud what'
swrong
wi
thmethough.Hebr
okethehugandst
aredatme
Hi
m:"
youwhat
?"
Me:
"Ilo..
.Il
ovey ouandI
'
llunder
standifyoudon'
tI
meany oudidn'
tmarrymeouroflovejustpi
tyand
t
hatfactthat.
..
.."
Hej
ustpl
acedhi
sfi
ngeronmyl
i
psshut
ti
ngmeup
Hi
m:"
whosai
dIdon'
tl
ovey
ou?Waphaphay
azi
"
Me:
"mxm "
Hi
m:"Il
ovey
oumywomanandIcer t
ainl
ydi
dn'
t
marr
yyououtofpi
tyj
eezIdi
dn'
tpi
tyyou"
Me:
"t
henwhyshutupf
ir
st?"
Hi
m:"
Iwassurpr
isedbabeImeany ousay
ingy
ou
l
oveme Ididn'
tthinkI
'dheart
hatnow"
Me:
"i
tiswei
rdmesay i
ngIlov
ey ouaf
tersuchalong
t
imeheybutIguessi
shhastohappenandal otof
i
shhashappenedsoIreal
i
sedthatIl
oveyou"
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osertomeandj ustcuppedmyf ace
l
ashinghi
sli
psontomi ne Iwant edt owrap
BOTHmyar msaroundhi sneckbutsinceI'
ma
cr
ipplef
ornow i t
'sjustonesoIwr appeditaround
hi
sneckandjustpull
edhim closert
omeashe
wrappedhisar msar oundmywai stIwast ryi
ngto
maintai
nmybal anceofdancingonmyt oesbuthey
sti
lli
npainsoIdr oppedbutbaedi dn'tquit hej ust
camet omyl evelslowlypushi
ngmeback, kissi
ng
andwal ki
ng somet hi
ngwedopr ofessionall
y
Iwasgoi ngdownsl owlybutsurel
yandIf i
nall
y
reachedthissoftbenchhenev erstoppedkissing
me Inev erst
oppedsav ouri
nghislipswel lt
hat'
s
until
aphoner angandGodwasheangr y.
Hi
m:"
sonofabi
tch.
..
.Bl
ackpeopleandt
hei
rbad
t
imi
ng,badt
imi
ngandyoujustcal
lme"

Hehungupandsmi ledatmeIsmi ledbackt ohave

myl i
psattackedagainIhopeheknowst hatI
'm si
ck
andIcan'tbeengaginginanythi
ngst r
aineousatthi
s
pointbutIguesswhoev erwascall
i
ngwasser i
ous
butguesswhat Lwandlej
ustthrewt hephonein
thepool
Hi
m:"
nxast
upi
dpeopl
e"
Iwasbusyl
aughi
ngwhenhesai
dthatcausehewas
r
ightabov
emer
ubbi
nghi
sli
psagai
nstmi
ne
Hi
m:"
what
'sf
unny
?"
Me:
"youj
ustt
hrewy
ourphonei
ntot
hepool
..
..
"
Hi
m:"what
?!Holyshi
tbabyt
hatwast
heonl
yphone
wehavehere"

Me:
"di
vei
nhaumay
bey
oumi
ghtsav
eit
"
Hi
m:"
your
eckon?Ohshi
tandi
t'
syourf
aul
t"

Me:
"howi
sitmyf
aul
t?"
Him;
"youj
usthavet
hey
ummi
estl
i
psonear
th but
Ihat
ethem now"
Hepeckedonmyl ipspul
li
ngonmyl owerli
pashe
stoodup,herantothepoolandjustdi
vedi
nclothes
andall he' scrazyri
ghtnowandIlikei
tcause
he'snotharminganyonehe'sj
usthavi
ngfunand
makingmel aughwhi l
eatit
.Hegotoutandjust
rai
sedthephoneup.
Hi
m:"
sti
l
lwor
king.
.Fuckmyphonei
sageni
us"
Me:
"yayt
ell
mey
out
ookasel
fi
eunderwat
er"
Hi
m:"
wtfi
sthat
?"
Hewasbusywi pi
ngthephonewithhiswetj
eans
cansomeonetell
mewhati shetry
ingtodo when
hegottomeIgav ehi
m atowelandhethrewthe
phoneonmylap
Hi
m:"
wrapt
hati
nat
owel
formepl
ease"
Me:
"gochangeIdon'
twantt
ogetwetcauseofy
ou"
Hesmi
rked
Me:"
notthatki
ndofwetnowgopl
easeory
ou'
l
lev
en
acatchacold"
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lnur
semet
oheal
th"
Hekissedmyf oreheadandhiswentdreadl
ocks
werebusydrippi
ngonme t hedayIcutthem wil
l
bethedayhe'llr
egreti
tIswear,
anywayher ani
nside
I
'm sur
etochangeandIl eftt
odrythephonewhi ch
i
snotLwandl e'
soldphone guessnewphones
werenecessary.
.
Cul
u
Islowl yopenedmyey est or eal i
set hatIhadagun
fucki tnowmypr intsar eal lovert hisshit Igot ta
getoutofher eandf astthissi deIwasst il
ldizzybut
thatdon' tmat terIj usthav etov anishfrom SAsoI
stoodupIl ookedar oundandIdi dn'tsee
Ont hat hil
e'sbody ev ensect i
onont hecar pet
wher eshewasl ayingonwascutof fli
kenobl ood
nothi ngatal l sot heyonl yleftmewi ththegunwel l
bigmi stakeI '
lljustdumpt hisshi tinthel akeandI 'm
gonenoj ai lnot hingandI 'llbeabl etoplanmy
revengeonmypr eci ouscousi n.It ookaspor tsbag
andj ustshov edev erythi
ngi nther eallmyi mpor t
ant
document sIpackedi tandIev ent ooksomemoney
buti twon' tbeenoughsoI '
llhav et odrawupsome.I
hidt hegunandwal kedoutoft heapar tment
compl exIwentt ot hepar kingl otandgoti ntomycar
fuckt hi sI'l
l deal wi thhi mf arawayI '
mt hinkingf r
om
Mozambi queI '
m notf arbutst illnotinSAI '
l
l come
upwi thabet terpl ant heresoIwentbyt heATM and
garagej ustt ofillupandmyl ongj ourneybeganI
dr
ovear ounduntil
Igott otheboar
dergateand
whentheof f
ici
alsstoppedmeIwasn' tworr
iedatal
l
soIr
olleddownmywi ndow.
Me:
"goodev
eni
ngof
fi
cer
"
Henodandjustcheckedinsi
demycarwi
thhi
s
f
lashl
i
ghtonbusyblindi
ngme
Of
fi
cer
:"
wher
ear
eyouof
fto?"
Me:
"ohnowher
especi
fi
cjustt
rav
eli
ngar
ound"
Of
fi
cer
:"
Isee,
canIseesomepaper
wor
kpl
ease"
Me:
"yeahsur
e"
Igav
ehi m mypasspor
tandI
Dhewentt
hrought
hem
andjustgavet
hem tome
Of
fi
cer
:"
youcango"
Me:
"hav
eal
ovel
yev
eni
ng"
Idroveabi
tandt
hentheoneinf
rontofmej ust
stoppedme i meanyourf
ri
endjustcheckedme
whatmoredoyouwant.
Of
fi
cer
:"
cany
ougetoutoft
hecarpl
easesi
r"
Me:
"whyi
sther
eapr
obl
em?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Off
icer
:"
I'
dli
key outopopy
ourhoodf
orme
somethi
ngisleaking"

Me:
"ohokay
"
Iwentt ot hebackandjustopenedthehoodi twas
stuffedshamewi thsand t hosesonofa
bi
t ches I '
m goi
ngtorotinprisonnowi t
'l
lseem I
wast r
yingtodumpt hebodyinaanot hercountr
y
andt hencomi ngbacktoSAf li
p.
Of
fi
cer
:*si
r.
..
what
'
sgoi
ngonher
e?"
Me:
"Idunno"
Off
icer
:"
I'
m af
rai
dwe'
l
lhav
etoar
resty
ouwecan'
tl
et
youpass"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng t
hisai
n'
tmecomeon"
Off
icer
:"
callf
orbackup.
..
.Si
rhandsont
hecarand
spr
eady ourl
egs"
Me:
"comeonI
'
m sur
ewecant
alkaboutt
his"
Of
fi
cer
:"
handsont
hecar
"
Ijustdidasheinstr
uctedandhef riskedme
fi
ndi ngthegun andt hatwast hefinalnailt
ot he
coffinhehandcuf f
edmeandt ookmet othev anas
theywai tedforot
hersandwhent heycamet hey
sear chedmycarandf oundOnt hathi
le'
sbodyunder
allthesand whydi dn'tIcheckthecart houghhuh
I'
m suchani di
otnodeny i
ng.
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11/
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nne:
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օ ♡
.
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.
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աaռ ♡
.
Iwantedtodanceandj ustdoshit ‍♀Ican' t
bel
ieveLolosaidshel ovesme,shesaiditfi
rstwhil
eI
wasstruggli
ngt osayitbutshejustsai
di tIknow
shewasn'tplanningitbutshedidandnowt hatwe
sai
ditforthef i
rstt
imewecancont i
nuesay ing
i
t,
fuckIevent hrewmyphonei nt hewatertoshow
thatIwashadt empor aryinsanitywhenIhear dher
sayingt hatandnowIwassmi l
ingal onewhi l
e
changi ngIwor emyspor tswearj ustdon'tfeel li
ke
dressingupandany wayI '
m goingoutl ongasIt old
thecheft opr eparef oodf ormywi f
eI '
m cool andI '
m
sureshe' l
l shoutwhenIcomebackbutshe' llhav eto
getov erher selfandlistentoreasoncause
everythingI '
ll
bedoi ngf rom nowoni stopr otecther
andt heki dsnooneel sesohershout i
ngwi ll
beher
j
ustdoi ngwhati scompul sory
.Iwentdownst airsto
thekitchent ochecki fLeewasdonewi ththef ood
andshewasIdon' tknowwhatpr egnantwomanl ike
toeatbutshedoessoy eahIhopeLol olikest he
food.
Me:
"heycany
oumakesur
esheeat
sli
keal
lofher
f
ood?"
Lee:
"whywoul
dn'
tsheeat
?"
Me:"
mywi fehasbabytendenci
essomet
imessoi
f
shedidn'
tfi
nishcal
lme"
Lee:
"It
hinkIcanhandl
eher
"
Me:
"noy
oucan'
tshehotheadedt
oosoj
ustcal
lme"
Lee:
"okayi
t'
scool
thenbesaf
e"
Me:"pr
otectherf
ormepl ease.
..
..Iknowthi
sisa
safehouseandallbutyougottakeephersafecause
wedon'tknowwhatmi ghthappenwhi l
eI'
m away
and..
..
."
"
Youar
eleav
ing?
"
Hol
yshi
t It houghtshewasweaktobewal ki
ng
ar
oundItookasecr eti
vedeepbr
eat
handt ur
ned
ar
oundtofindherwi t
htear
yeyesal
ready
.
Me:"
babeI'
m goi
ngt
ocheckoutsomest
uffandI
'
ll
beback"
Lol
o:"y
ouj
ustsai
dwedon'
tknowwhatmight
happenwhi
leyouar
eawayLwandl
e..
..
.Whati
fthey
comebackforme?"
Me:
"Leecany
oul
i
keexcuseusf
oramoment
"
Lee:
"sureandi
twasni
cet
ofi
nal
l
ymeety
ouMr
s
Sokhulu"
WhenLoloisangryshedoesn'
tcareeveni
fyousay
shel
ooksniceshejustwantstoventoutt
hatanger
butr
ightnowIdidn'
tsenseangershewasscared
that'
swhyshedi
dn'tt
alkt
oLee.Iwai
tedf
orherto
l
eav eandj
ustpi
ckedupLolopl
aci
ngheronthe
kit
chencount
er.
Me:"
mylovelookatme.
..Babyt
rustmeI'
l
lbesaf
e
andI'
l
lbebackhomeinaj i
ff
yIpromi
se"
Tearsjustf
lowedoutontheirownImeanshewas
unresponsi
veeventothem t
earsshewasjust
stari
ngatme Iwi pedthem awaybutwhyisshe
cryi
ngliket
hisnowIfeelbadbywantingt
ogobutI
havetomakesur et
hatCuluwasr eal
l
ytakencareof
.
Me:"Ma'
Sokhulupl
easemylove.
..
..Pl
easebabyst
op
cr
yingIpr
omi seI
'l
lbeback"
Lol
o:"
don'
tgoI
'
m scar
ed"
Me:"IknowyouarebutIt
rustt
hesepeopl
eIhaveput
herethey'
l
lprot
ecty
ouandourbabiesunt
ilIget
backokay?"
Iki
ssedherf
orehead
Me:
"wantt
ogobackt
othepool
?"
Sheshookherhead
Lol
o:"
Iwanty
ou.
..
.Iwantt
ogowi
thy
ou"
Me:"No!UhuhLol
oy ouar
egoi
ngt
ost
ayher
e
underst
and?Don'
tyoudar
e"
Lol
o:" pl
easedon'
tl
eav
eme"
Me:
"I
'l
lbebackqui
ckl
yIpromiseI'
l
levengobyt
he
mal
landbuyyouyourfav
ouri
techocol
ate"
Lol
o:"
Idon'
twantt
hatIdon'
twantany
thi
ng"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Lol
o:"
Iwanty
ou.
..
.Iwantmyhusband"

Me:
"myl
ovel
ookatme.
..
..Lol
opl
easel
ookatme"
Shel
azi
l
yrai
sedherheadandst
aredatme
Me:"j
ustgivemetwohour
stopsandI
'
llhur
ry
back.
..
..
justtwohour
s"
Lol
o:"
twohour
s?"
Inod
Lolo:
"andyou'
l
lbebackhomeaf
tert
wohour
s?You
promise?"
Me:
"I
'l
lhur
ryt
hingsupandt
ryt
obebackhomei
n
t
wohours"
Ipeckedherl
i
psandj
ustwi
pedhert
ear
saway
Me:
"you'
l
lbesaf
eandI
'
llcomebackIpr
omi
se"
Ipeckedherl
i
ps
Me:
"okay
?Lol
opl
ease"
Lolo:
"okaybuty
ouhav et
ohurryback.
..
.Pr
omi
seme
thataft
eryouaredoneyou'
l
lhurr
yback"
Me:"Ipr
omi
seI
'
llcal
lyouwhenI
'
m onmyway
back..
."
Shenodandj ustmov edhertinyhandov ermycheek
i
fy '
all
remembershehasal i
ttlevoicethat'
sjustso
cutenowt hatIthi
nkabouti tshef ull
oflovehert i
ny
handholdsal otofloveIleanedcl osetoherand
brushedherlipsagainstminet hanjustkissedher
sherepli
edandweki ssedslowl yl
ingeri
ngki sses
heari
nghermoanj ustmademeknowt hatshe'snow
onheatsoIpul ledawayandpeckedherl i
ps.
Me:
"wannagobackt
othepool
?"
Shenod
Me:
"wantmet
ocar
ryy
out
her
e"
Lol
o:"
mmh"
Me:
"Iseewhobr
oughty
ouher
e?Nowy
oucan'
t
wal
k"
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
e "
Me:
"f
inecomedon'
tcr
y"
Ipickedherupandshewasgi ggl
i
ng t hisgi
rl
thoughismisusi
ngmel i
kecrazyIputherdownon
thebenchandkissedherfor
ehead.Iwasaboutto
walkawaybutshepulledmeback.
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
ewai
t"
Me:
"yes?
"
Lol
o:"
Ilov
eyou"

Me:
"IknowIl
ovey
oumor
emyl
ove"
Ipeckedherli
psandleftaf
tert
hatbef
oreshest
art
s
cry
ingagaincauseLordknowsshe'sababyi
never
y
for
m.
.
Penel
ope
ThemomentLwandl el
eftall
thatfearcamebackI
knowhesaidIhaveguardsandallbutIhav en'
tseen
notevenoneguardj
ustthatLeegirlspeaki
ngof
whichshecamet ot
hebackholdingat rayoffood
nowIdon'tt
rustany
oneatall.
Lee:
"her
eyougoLwandl
esai
dyoushoul
deat
"
Me:
"mmht
hanks"
Shedi
dn'
tmov eshewasstandi
ngovermeandI
hat
eitwhensomeonestandsoverme.
Me:
"i
sther
eany
thi
ngel
se?
"
Lee:
"Wonderwhaty
ouf
edhi
mtohi
m sosl
oppy
?"
Me:
"what
?"
Lee:
"ImeanLwandl
eforhi
mtobesosof
t"
Me:
"doIhavetohadfedhim any
thi
ngf
orhi
mtol
ove
me?IguessIdi
dn'
tgetthatmemo"
Lee:"
hehasnev
erbeenl
i
ket
hisbef
orewi
thot
her
gi
rls"
I
ssheforr
ealri
ghtnowImeani
sshereall
ygoi
ngto
pl
ayt
hebit
terexwithme shewon'twinyouknow
Me:"
Isee,
whenyousayothergir
lsarey
ouincl
uded?
CauseI'
dunder
standi
fseeingsomeoneyouonce
l
ovedorhadacrushonbeinginlovewi
thsomeone
el
se"
Lee:
"Idon'
tknowwhaty
ouar
ebusybl
abbi
ngabout
..
.
"
Me:"oohokayandt oansweryourfi
rstquesti
on.
..
.I
fedhim atruckl
oadofl ov
eandundividedatt
ent
ion
forhim andhisson,
servedfr
esheverysingl
eday.
..
..
Youshoul dhavetr
iedthatwhil
eyoustil
lhada
chance"
Shecl
i
ckedhert
ongue
Lee:
"hewasri
ghtyoudohav
ebabyt
endenci
es.
..
Andtheyar
enotsexy"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
fory
outheyai
n'tbutforhi
m...
.Mmhy oudon'
t
wannaknowandyoudon' twannafi
ndoutwhathe'll
dotoyouonceIst
artwithmybabyt endenci
es,al
so
j
ustsay
ing"
Shewasjuststari
ngatme i m pr
ett
yIknowsoI
satupstr
aightsothatshecangetabett
ervi
ew
i
mj oki
ngIwasaboutt oeat.
Me:"
umhifthat
'sal
lcanyouli
keexcusemenowI
'
m
sur
eLesegoneedsyouratt
ent
ion"
Sher
oll
edherey
es.
Lee:
"hesai
dImustwat
chy
oueat
"
Me:"
wellIsai
dgoI '
dliketoeatinpeace..
..Anddon'
t
youthi
nkjustbecausehet ol
dyouIhav ebaby
t
endenciesmeansI '
l
lletanyonewalkalloverme..
Nowy oumaygoandcheckonLesegopl ease"
Sheturnedonherheelsandl ef
tmebusyt el
l
ingme
abouthav i
ngbabytendencies howdoest hat
i
nv ol
veherit'
snoneofherbusi nessIhadmyf oodin
peacedamnIwashungr yashellbutbl
ameiton
Lwandle'sbaby he/ sheismaki ngmeeatl i
keI'
m
crazythi
ssideIfel
lasleeprightaft
ereat
ingseeI'
m
getti
nglazycauseofthisbaby
Igotwokenbyasl
oppyki
ssont
hecheekand
ni
bbl
ingonmyearwhenItur
nedaroundandopened
myeyesIwascov
eredinabl
anki
eandLwandlewas
st
andingov
ermewithasmil
eonhisface.
Me:
"t
hisai
n'
ttwo"
Him:"
haiboI
'm backai
n'
tI?AndIbr
oughty
out
his.
..
.
Chocolat
ecakeandchocolat
e"
Isul
ked
Me:"
buti
t'
ssupposedtoberedvelv
etcake,
nut
s,
vani
l
lai
cecream andchocol
ate"
Hi
m:"andI'
mthebesthusbandev
ersee.
..
..
Igot
ev
ery
t hi
ngyouj
ustsai
d"
Asmil
ecr
eptuponmyf
aceandj
ustt
ookt
hepaper
bag
Me:
"wher
eist
hepi
zza?
"
Hi
m:"
uhuhmychildwil
lbebor
nobesesonof
att
y
f
oodsexceedi
ngt
heseonespl
usyouat
e"
Me:
"f
ine.
.Icecr
eam t
ime"
Itookt
hei
cecr
eam t
ubbuthesnat
chedi
taway
fr
om me
Hi
m:"
it
'scol
dyou'
l
leati
ttomor
row"
Me:
"butIwanti
tnow,
giv
emepl
ease"
Hi
m:"nobabyeaty
ourcakeornut
snott
hei
ce
cr
eam"

Me:
"Iwanti
tthough.
..
.Pl
easej
ustt
wospoons"
Heshookhisheadandstooduptaki
ngthecakeand
I
cecream wi
thhim Ihat
ehimformakingmecrave
fori
tthi
smuchthenpulli
tawayfr
om mehecame
backwit
hapacketofmal l
ows.
Hi
m:"
wannagot
hef
ir
enow?
"
Inodwi
tht
hisheav
ygr
inonmyf
ace
Hi
m:"
andwecanf
rysomemel
l
owsr
ight
?"
Me:
"andhav
eicecr
eam"
Him:
"don'
tpushyourl
uckj
ustmal
l
owsandt
hest
uff
youarehol
ding"
Me:
"di
dyouputLesegot
osl
eep?
"
Hi
m:"
uhuhLeehaddonei
tsonowIcanf
ocuson
y
oumybi
gbaby
"
Iwantedtorollmyeyesbutthat'
sjustmeaskingf
or
aslapsowewentt oseatbyt hefi
reandhebegan
roasti
ngmallowswhil
eIjustatethem wel lsome
withhissal
iv
acausehe'dforcemet okisshi
m so
thatIcangetamallow
Him:"
weshoul
dst
opt
hiski
ssi
ngst
uffy
ouar
est
il
l
hurt
"
Me:
"mmh.
..CanIask?
"
Hi
m:"
any
thi
ngmyl
ove"

Me:
"didyouandt
hatLeegi
rlev
erdat
eorsl
eep
t
ogether
?"
Hechocked
Hi
m:"
hhm whyy
ouaski
ng?
"
Me:
"j
ustaski
ngsowhati
sit
?"
Him:"
umhokayyeahweoncesl
eptt
oget
heramont
h
befor
eImar
riedyou"
Me:
"t
ell
hert
hatpl
easeandsheshoul
dn'
tfar
tonmy
headaski
ngmewhatIf
edy
out
omakey
oul
oveme"
Hi
m:"
shesai
dwhat
?"
Me:"
justt
hat
..
..Nowgi
vemet
hatmel
l
owandst
op
st
ari
ngatme"
Heki
ssedmyneck
Hi
m:"Iloveyouokaydon'
tbethreat
enedbythem
gi
rl
s..
.Ilov
ey ouandonceyouhealI
'l
lfucky
ou"

Me:
"Iwannaf
ucky
out
oobutaf
terIgi
vebi
rt
h "
Hi
m:"
that
'sr
ubbi
shwhenwi
l
lyougi
vebi
rt
h?"
Me:"yougotmepregnantsodeal
wit
hthe
consequences "
Hi
m:"
mxm"
Me:"
okaymay
beoncekhebuty
ou'
l
lhav
etobe
car
eful"
Hesmil
edandat
tackedmyneckwi
thki
ssesl
i
ke
maki
ngmemoan
Fuckweki
ssedt
il
lheev
endeci
dedt
ogi
vemehead
br
uhr i
ghtoutsi
de Godwehav esi
nnedcausewe
ar
esupposedt othi
sinourbedr oom notherebut
Lwandledoesn'
tli
stennotthatItol
dhimt o
st
op wellwegotdisturbedwhensomeone
cl
earedthei
rthr
oatsthankGodwewer ekissingso
wepulledaway.
Lwandl
e:"
yea?
"
Lee:
"Iwant
edt
oknowwhaty
ou'
dli
ket
oeatf
or
supper"
Lwandl
e:"
anypr
efer
encebaby
?"
Me:
"umhchi
ckenst
ewIt
hinkso"
Lwandl
e:"
yeahj
ustcookt
hechi
ckenst
ewandsome
sal
adsokay"
Lee:
"yeahsur
eI'
l
lseewhatI
'
lladdi
twi
th"
Lwandl
e:"
cool
"
Shewal kedawaybutbusystari
ngatme she'
s
notki
ll
ingmesowhatdoIcar eisshest
aresornotI
j
ustenjoy edbei
nginLwandle'
sarmswithhi
m busy
rubbi
ngmyt ummyanddamni tfel
tgood Iwas
evenyawni ngbutIcoul
dn'
tfal
lasl
eepcause
Lwandlewaskeepi
ngmebusywi t
hst
ori
es
makingmelaughti
llIcoul
dn'
tnomor
e
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11/
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nne:
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օ ♡
.
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.
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.
ImeanIwantt ogobackhomenowi nsteadofbei ng
coopedupi nt hishouseandLwandl ewasser i
ous
waswhenhesai dthishousehasi ntensesecur ity
waitti
l
lit
's7pm andy ou'
ll
seet hem likeaf lockof
beeswiththei rgunshangi ngaroundbusycal l
i
ng
eachotheryou' dsweart heyareguar dingthe
presi
dent I '
m scar edofgunsev ersinceonel ef
t
i
t'
smar ksoy oucani maginewhatIdi dto
Lwandle he' sal way srunningawaywhenIst art
cryi
ng I '
m notdoi ngt hi
ngsonpur posebutguns
scaremepl usi tirr
itatesLeeorwhat ev erhername
i
s shehat esi twhenhe' scomf ort
ingmebutwhat
doesshewanthe' smyhusbandandI '
m hiswi feit'
s
hisdut ytolookaf terme.Iwaswal ki
ngdownst ai
rs
wear i
ngashor tdistressedj ean,blackcri
sscr oss
croptopandaf ri
dgekami nowi thmysl i
pper shair
ti
edupwhenI '
m her eI'
m azombi ecauseLwandl e
ti
edupmyhai r Ihopet hi
sbabyi sgir
lsot hatshe
canknowt hatherf atheriswor thlessatthismaki ng
agi r
lprettystuffshameandI 'm wear i
ngt hiscrop
topcausesoonI '
l
l beshowi ngandbel ievemeno
mor ecr optopscauset heyhav eal r
eadyst art
ed
showi ngmemagazi neswi thclothes'suit
able'for
pregnantwoman soal l myclot heswillbe
discardedunt i
lIgiv ebirth
"
Whatar
eyouwear
ing"

Me:
"hel
l
omyl
ove.
..Whatar
eyoueat
ing?
"
Hi
m:"
whatar
eyouwear
ing?"
Me:"cl
othesLwandl
eanddon'
ttel
lmet
ogoand
changeplease"
Hi
m:"
tur
nar
oundandgot
other
oom t
owear
di
ff
erentcl
othes"
Me:
"Lwandl
e!"
Him:
"Idi
dn'
tsaygoandchangedi
dI?Nowof
fyou
go"
Me:
"don'
twanna.
..
.Wher
eisLesego?
"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oIsai
dgoandchangepl
ease"
Ishr
ug
Me:"i
t'
shotmaradoyouwantmet
ofai
nt?Whati
fI
putsomeoneindanger
"
Iwiggl
edmyeyebr
owsandhejustcl
i
ckedhi
s
tonguest
andi
ngupcomi
ngtowardsme
Me:
"Lwandl
eI'
l
lgochangehauwai
t"
Iwaslaughi
ngbuthewasn't It ur
nedonmyheels
andranupstai
rswithhi
m hotonpursui
tIwasabout
toshutthedoorbuthepushedthedooropenand
caughtmebeforeIcoul
dev enr
un
Hi
m:"
whyar
eyour
unni
ng?
"
Me:"
I'
m notr
unni
ngI
'
m exer
cisi
ngi
t'
sgoodf
ort
he
baby
"
Hi
m:"
doIl
ookst
upi
d?"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
changet
heset
hingsofy
our
sandcov
erup"
HeletgoofmeandIjusthadmyt
inyt
antrum busy
mumblingwhat
evercametomymindit
'shotbutI
shoul
dcoverup
Lwandl
e:"
Amennowchangebef
orey
oubor
eme"
Me:"
butit
'shot I
'
llbesweat
ingandt
hat
's
di
sgust
ing"
Lwandl e:
"Loloyouar
epregnantj
ustwearalongerT-
shirtf
iney oucanweart
heshor t
sbutashi
rtbabe
please"
Isul
kedl
ooki
ngt
heot
herway
Me:
"Idon'
twantashi
rt
"
Lwandl
e:"t
hendon'
tcomewhereIam y
oust
ayup
her
etil
lyoufeel
li
kewear
ingashi
rt"
Hewasaboutt
owal
kawaybutIpul
l
edhi
m back
Me:"
fi
neI'
l
lwearashi
rt
,don'
tbeangr
ywi
thme
pl
ease"
Lwandl
e:"
someti
mesyoumaket
hathar
dformey ou
knowthat
..
..
.Comel
et'
sgety
ouinashi
rtnott
his"
Me:
"your
snotmi
ne"
Hi
m:"
don'
tpushi
t"
Hegotmehi
sshi
rtany
way t
hisbabyi
sonpoi
nt
Hi
m:"
wheni
sthi
shandheal
i
ngagai
n?"
Ishrugit'
snotthatpainf
ulanymorebuthedoesn'
t
knowt hatandIknowhe' saski
ngcausehewants
somej uice noti nthemoody ouknowbuthey
guesswhot ri
edhisluck.
Het
ookof
fmyshirtsl
owlyki
ssi
ngmychestgoi
ng
t
omynecksucki
ngonitbusygi
ggl
i
ng.
Me:
"st
il
li
npai
n"
Hi
m: "
I'
ll
begent
leIpr
omi
se.
..
.Youwon'
tev
enf
eel
a
t
hing"
Me:"
woahnowy
ouar
ely
ingI
'
lldef
iant
lyf
eel
somethi
ng"
Hi
m:"
buty
oul
i
kei
tdon'
tyou?Ev
enknockedy
ouup"
Me:
"okayl
etgoofme"
Him:
"yeahl
et'
ssayI
'
m sorr
yforsayi
ngthatbutbaby
comeonIhavebeenatooboyhaven'
tI?"
Me:"
letmewearmycroptopst
il
lIshowt
heny
ou
woul
dhavebeenthebest
"
Him:
"Lol
onopleasethi
nkabouthowmysonf
eel
s
bei
nglef
tal
lnaked,
thehumil
i
ati
onmylov
e"
Me:"
andwhataboutwhenheseesy
ourwhatwhat
busydangl
i
nginme"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
babepl
easeI
'
m st
arv
ingher
e"
Ismir
kedandtookthewhatwhatofmyhandwit
h
thi
spainf
ulhi
sscausei
t'
ssti
ll
abitpai
nful
youknow.
Hi
m:"
sor
ry.
..
.I
'
m sor
rybabe,
sor
ryneh"

Me:"
ohshutupwil
lya,
sorr
ysorry
.Iheardthefi
rst
sor
ryandIappr
eci
ateitnoneedforseconds"
Hi
m:"
justwant
edt
omakesur
eyouknow"
Me:
"pi
ckmeuppl
ease"
Hi
m:"
that
'dmakey
ouhappy
?"
Inodwi
thasmi
l
eonmyf
ace
Hi
m:"
okay
"
Hepickedmeupwi
thmyl
egswr
appi
ngar
oundhi
s
wai
st
Hi
m:"
don'
thur
tyourhand"
Me:"
youhur
titandst
opsqueezi
ngmybut
t,
itki
nda
t
urnsmeon"
Hi
m:"
hav
ingy
oui
nmyar
mst
urnsmeon.
..
"
HekissedmeandIrespondedhesl
owlywenttol
ay
medownont hebedslowlybei
nggent
leImoaneda
bi
tfr
om pain.
Hi
m:"
sor
ry"
Hemumbl edinthekiss howmanysor r
yareyou
goingtosayj
uststopapologi
si
ngpleasesi
nceI
neverworeashi
rthewentdownonmynecksucki ng
onitmakingmegaspasIt ookinahandfulofhi
s
dreadl
ocks Ilikethem t
hough,
wellnotmebuthis
babyl
ikesdaddy'sdr
eadl
ocks t hemuf fi
ngonmy
bodywentdownt omyboobswer ehetookof fmy
brat
hrowingitsomewher
einther oom andcupped
mynowsensi ti
veboobs whyt hesuddensensiti
ve
tohi
stouch
Me:
"t
heyhur
tLwandl
e"
Didhelist
en hej ustsqueezedthem li
ckingbot h
nippl
essendingt
hatti
nglingsensati
ondownmy
spinehekeptonexchangingthem busysucki ng
them okayhehasn'
tpenetrat
edmey etbutthisfel
t
goodandt hemoaningIhadgoingon het wir
lhi
s
tonguearoundmynippleshestoppedsucki ngthem
andjustrubbedt
hem slowlymassagingthem
Hi
m:"
dot
heyst
il
lhur
tmyl
ove"
Isl
owl
yshookmyhead
Hi
m:"
ever
yti
met
heyst
artt
ohur
ttel
lme"
Me:
"whati
fyouar
eatwor
k?"
Heshrugandjustpull
eddownmyshor t
sbusy
sl
appi
ngmyass t ookoffhiscl
othesandwewer
e
al
ll
eftnakedwithhi
sjuniorhardandreadyf
or
acti
onitst
il
lscar
esmeev ennowbuthedoesn't
havetoknowhepul l
edmedownabi tput
ti
nga
pil
l
owundermypi ll
owmakingthem t
wo he' s
goingt
ober oughImovedonejustt
ogetstar
edat
Hi
m:"
Lol
oputi
tback"
Iwantedt osul
kbutgotasl apont hethighsoIdi d
andhecameov ermeki ssingmegoi ngupt omyl ips
asher ubbermycookieImoanedi nhismout hhe
pushedi nonefi
ngermaki ngmef li
nchabi tsohe
pushedi nonemoregoingci r
clesinmehepul led
them outasIwasaboutt opopandhej ustcamei n
meIscr eamedinhismout h"sor r
y"hemumbl edin
betweent heki
sshepulledawayf r
om thekissand
j
uststareddownatmewi thasmi r
konhi sfacethe
momenthel i
ft
edmyl egs het hrusti
nslowly
holdi
ngonmyknees i
ttookplaceatbr uh
hedidmegoodmaki ngmepr aiseandwor shi
p
him t hemomenthest opped Ij ustwrappedmy
l
egsar oundhiswaist
.
Hi
m:"
andnow?
"
Me:
"whosai
dst
op?
"
Hechuckl
edandpeckedmyl
i
ps
Him:"
evenSamsonr est
edev
ent
houghhewas
cal
ledthest
rongestman"
Me:
"youar
enotSamson.
..
..Idon'
twanty
out
ost
op"
Hi
m:"
ohsonowIdon'
thav
eacar
rot
?"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"f
ort
hel
oveofGodmov
eonandj
ustf
uckme"
Hi
m: "
letmegoanddr i
nksomewat eryouknow
pl
easingyouai
n'taneasyt
ask.
..
..Evenpicki
ngyou
upishardsoI'
l
lbeback"
Hekissedmyforeheadandjustpushedmylegs
apar
tandgotoffmewear i
nghisjeansandnot
undi
es
Hi
m:"
youwett
hebeddi
dn'
tyou"

Me:
"Fusegdon'
tev
encomeback"
Igoti
ntot
heblanket
signor
inghi
sasshe'
snot
weari
nghi
sundiesthi
sguyisembarr
assi
ngyou
knowli
keever
ytimewedot hi
saft
erhedoesn'
twear
hisundi
eshei ssonotcool
. hisexcuseisnotfor
yourearsshameit'
sstupi
dappar
entl
yaft
erhav i
ng
sexhisdickisst
il
lhar
dandwearingt
hem tight
undieshurtt
hat'
swhyheonlywearshi
sjeans,he
evenhatesthethi
ngcall
edacondom Sokhulu
mancanki ll
youshame.
"
MamakheIbr
oughty
ousomecakewanti
t?"
CAKEIquickl
ysatupstr
aightandgotaplat
e
fi
l
ledwit
hcakeandy oghurt Iquickl
ysnat
chedit
awayandkissedhischeek.
Me:
"t
hanky
ou"
Henodlordknowscakeki
ll
smeIloveitwit
hallof
mepregnancyvi
besbruhandLwandl
efeedsthem
al
l
[
2mont
hsl
ater
]
Ihadami nibabybump t heglowIhadgoi ngon
andwewer ebackhomeandImeant hathouse
wheretheyshotme Lwandl eforcedmet ogo
backbuttheyhadfixedi
tupandnewdecorand
stuf
fsotodayLwandl el
eftwit
houtmet owor k
whi
chwasbecauseIwaslazyt
oevengetoutofbed
Iwasf
eel
i
ngal i
tt
leundert
heweat
her.
[
Cel
l
phoner
ings]
Ianswer
edt
hecal
lfr
om Lwandl
e
Me:
"babakhe?
"
Hi
m:"
mamakhe.
..
.y
ouOkay
?"
Me:
"mmhI
'
mfeel
i
ngal
otbet
ter
"
Him:"
enought
oav
ail
your
sel
fatt
heof
fi
ce?Ineed
yourhel
p"
Me:
"yout
ookt
hecar
"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oIboughty
ouacarusei
t"

Me:
"i
t'
sbl
ackokayabl
ackCooper"
Hi
m:"
soi
t'
sst
il
lacarsogether
e"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"
Ineedanewcaronet
hat
'snotbl
ack,
black
scar
esthebaby
"
Hi
m:"
goeaty
ouar
eli
ghtheaded"
Me:
"yeahl
ovey
out
oo"
IhungupnowIhav etochangef rom myshot sand
babyTeet osomef ormalshit.Iwor ear ibbedkni t
bodycondressandbl ackstrappedwedgesIdi dmy
makeupandj ustleftmyhai rasitisIt ookmy
handbagandpackedev er
ythingI'
llneedi ncluding
carkeys andof fIwentt ot heofficedr ivinga
blackcooper wheni gotthereIjustgotwel comed
byLwandlelikehewaswai tingformet oar ri
ve
causehewasal r
eadyst andingout sidethel i
ft
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Hej
ustpul
l
edmeout
Hi
m:"
Ithi
nkI
'
m goi
ngcr
azy
"

Me:
"yout
hink?Sl
owdownorI
'
llbr
eakal
eg"
Wegotont
hesecondl
i
ftl
eadi
ngt
ohi
sof
fi
ce
Me:"
Lwandl
ewhati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
..
..
you'
re
st
art
ingt
oscar
eme"
Hi
m:"
Ijustt
oldy
ouIt
hinkI
'
mlosi
ngmymi
nd"
Me:
"so?Am Igoi
ngt
oleadt
hesear
chpar
ty?
"
BruhIpul
ledf rom t
heli
ftt
oof fi
ceandi twaslocked
myadviceoncey oufi
ndoutt haty
ourhusband
hasDIDpleaser unaway.Wesatdownont hecouch
andhejustattackedmyl i
pswi t
hakissar ough
one hebet ternotbehornyorsohel pmeGodI '
ll
walkoutofher eonastretcherheseemst olovesex
thesedays.Ipull
edaway
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?
"
Him:'
not
hingj
ustwant
edy
ouher
eandf
orust
ohav
e
sex"

Me:"
Ialmostdi
edyouknowj
ustf
ormet
ocomeher
e
andsuckyourdi
ck?"
Hi
m:"
yeahpr
ett
ymuch"
IgiveupshameanywayIgavehi
mt hesexhe
wantedt henhel
pedhi
m wit
hsomepaperwork
bel
ievemewehadsexmor ethanwor
kingIt
hought
onl
ypr egnantwomanlov
esex
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.
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ʊ
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soni snott hatbadcauseher e
I'
m busyplanni
ngmyr evengewi t
houtany
dist
urbanceswelli
fLwandl ethoughtI'
djustlethi
m
bethanhe'smistakenhe' lldef
iantl
ypayonewayor
theotherhewon'tknowwhathi thimthistime
aroundImeanI '
mi nprison j usthi
spr egnantl
it
tl
e
wifewil
lhavetopayt hepr icedon'tevenaskhowI
knowaboutherpr egnancyIj ustknowandt obe
honestthi
smakesi tmor efunf ormecausenoone
will
suspectmet hejailbird.
"
Cul
uSokhul
u!!Youhav
eav
isi
tor
"
Igotupf
rom mybunkbedandj
ustwentt
othe
guar
d
Me:
"whoi
sit
?"
"
Comeandst
opaski
ngmequest
ions"
Inodokayt henleti
tbehecuf f
edmeandt ookmeto
thevisi
ti
ngar ea Iknowt hatguyanditwasmy
dearcousin he' scometogl oatI
'
m surebutI
didn'
ttur
nbackt hat'
dberudeofmeIwentt ohim
satdownhehadt hi
ssmir
ksmi l
eonhisfacetol
d
youhe'sheret ogl
oat.
Hi
m:"
Cul
uSokhul
uhowar
eyou?
"
Me:"
coul
dn'
tbebet
terLwandl
eorshoul
dIsay
Br
uce"
Hechuckl
edshaki
nghi
shead
Hi
m:"
wel
lni
cet
rybuti
twon'
twor
k,notany
mor
e"
Me:
"ohyessinceyougotPenel
ope..
."Ichuckled
"
howisthebeauti
fult
hing?St
il
lcopi
ngaf terbei
ng
r
appedbyherhusband?Shesurehasgut sbeing
wi
thyouaft
ereveryt
hingyouputherthrough"
Him:"she'
sst
rongerthanyout
hinky
ouknow, you
bri
ngingupherpastwon'tmakemegocr azycauseI
knowshehasf orgi
venmedearcousinsostil
li
t
won'twork"
Me:
"what
?I'
mjustsay
ingImeanar
eyousur
ethe
chi
l
dshe'
scar
ryi
ngi
snotoneofr
ape?
"
Hef
urr
owedhi
sey
ebr
ows
Him:
"arey
out hatdesperate?Youarepat
het
icdo
youknowthat?Quitital
readyIhavemovedonand
sohasPenelope"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"j
ustaski
ngy
ouknowaf
teral
lpr
isoni
sdul
l
"
Him:"
wellI
'dl
iketokeepyouenter
tai
nedbutIhave
togosincevi
sit
inghoursar
elooongover.I'
dli
ket
o
comeagainit
'sniceseei
ngyouinorange,ki
nda
bri
ngsoutyoureyes"
Hegr
innedatmeandst
oodup
Him:"
ohandnexttimey oudecidet omesswithme
I
'l
lpersonal
lymakesurethatyour ecei
veyour
mother'
sheadinaniceprett
yor angeboxmat chi
ng
wit
hy ournewatt
ir
e"

Me:
"she'
syouf
ucki
ngaunt
"
Hi
m:"
uhnosheai
n'
tshej
ustmar
ri
edi
ntot
he
Sokhul
ufamil
yandgavebi
rt
htoabratli
keyou.And
what'
sanauntcompar
edtomyparents?"
Hesmi
l
ed
Him:"
youwantedt
odancewi t
hthedevilnowdon'
t
getcol
dfeetnowpl
ease.
..Seeyouaround"
Hewal kedpastme hewon' tki
llmymom he's
j
ustbluffi
ngIknowhewon' tdoitwellt
heguards
tookmebackt omycellwherereal
it
yhitmeIgott
a
getmymom f arawayfrom her
eifIwantachanceat
succeedingshehast obefarbutI'
m st
il
lpl
anni
ng
thi
snoneedt or ushher
.
.
Lwandl
e
Idrovebackhomeaf tergoingtoseeCul ui
npr i
son
andIcant ell
he' sst
il
luptohisst upi
dtri
cksbutwho
sai
dI '
mf r
eaki ngout t wocanpl aythi
sgameandI
havetheupperhandr i
ghtnowhe' sstuckinmy
ter
rit
oryandI '
m stuckinhiswhi chmeanswhat ever
hedoesIcancount erit
.Iwillhavetoli
etoPenelope
causeshel efttheoff
icebeforeme t heoff
icejust
thatwor dmakesmeexci t
edImeanIhav enev er
beenexci tedtogot owor kbutnowIam ‍♂i
parkedt hecarnextt ot heblackCooperwhi ch
appar entl
yisscar i
ngt hebaby herhor monesar e
onov erdrivesoshedoesn' tknowwhatt odowi t
h
them insteadshei sbusymaki ngmyl if
edifficul
t
can'tshegi vebirthalreadyandI '
ll
restabit.Iwalked
i
ntot hehousef rom thegarageandt hatleadsme
throught hekitchenwher eIf oundthecook
Ma' Radebewel lLeecooksatt hesafehouseonl y
thoughshewant edtocomebackwi thuswhi chmy
wifesai dnot owi t
hsomuchpr ide ‍♂
Me:
"ev
eni
ngma"
Her
:"
eveni
ng"
Me:
'
wher
eist
hewi
feandki
d?"
Her
:"
theyar
ebothsl
eepi
ngandy
ourwi
fei
sget
ti
ng
l
azybytheday
"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
thepr
egnancyi
spl
ayi
ngwi
thherma,
I
'm sur
e
she'
l
lcomearound"
Her
:"
sleepi
ngalotwhi
lepregnanti
snotgoodf
ory
ou
ort
hebaby,she'
l
lgi
vebir
thtoalazychi
l
d"
Me:"welli
t'
sherfi
rstpr
egnancymasobegent
leon
herpleasesti
l
lgetti
ngthehangoft
hings"
Her
:"j
ustdon'
tl
ethersl
eepi
nwakeherupi
nthe
morni
ngunderst
and?Shehast
obeacti
ve"
she'
sact
ivey
ouknow
Me:
"ofcour
sel
etmegoandcheckupont
hem"
ShenodandIl efthert heregoingtocheckon
LesegofirstIdidn'tseehi mt hewhol edayandmy
boyissleepingnow I '
llseehim whenhewakesup
forhi
sdinner ,
Iwentt omyr oom tocheckont helazy
wifeandshewasal sosl eeping Igotont hebed
andshej ustturnedar oundl ooki
ngt heotherwayI
j
usthuggedherf rom thebackki ssinghercheekand
myhandsl owlyrubbingherbel ly al i
tt
leSokhul
uis
growinginher e
"
Stopr
ubbi
ngmyt
ummy
"
Me:
"howar
eyoumyl
ove?
"
Lol
o:"
sameasbef
oreI
'
m goodnowmov
eyourhand"
Me:
"Iwantt
hebabyt
ogetusedt
omyt
ouch"
Lol
o:"
andIdon'
twantt
hatandIwantt
osl
eep"
Me:"
babeIwantt
otal
ktoy
ouaboutsomet
hingso
wakeup"
Lol
o:"
I'
mti
redLwandl
e"
Me:"
Ma'RadebewasrightI
'mtreat
ingyouli
keanegg
andyouaregett
ingl
azy.Ihav
et ofir
eall
theworker
s
her
e"
Lol
o:"
what
?"
Sheturnedar
oundsul
ki
ngsonowt
hatgoty
our
att
enti
on
Me:"y
esyou'
l
lgobackt
obei
ngawi
feanddoi
ngt
he
dut
ies"
Lolo:
"uhuhtheof
fi
ceandhousework?Thissideyou
andyoursexaddi
cti
on?Lwandl
eI'
m pregnantyou
know"
Me:
"you'
l
lexer
cise"
Thent
hewat
erwor
ks
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?Ar
eyoui
npai
n?"
Lol
o:"
yousai
dI'
mfatandIshoul
dlosewei
ght
,you
hat
emybodynow"
It
ookadeepbr
eat
handj
ustwi
pedawayhert
ear
s
Me:"nothat'
snotwhatImeantwhenIsaidyou
shouldexerci
se.Il
ovey ourbodyandy
ouknowt hat
butMa'Radebethinksyoushouldbemoreact
ivejust
tohelpwiththepregnancy"
Shewassocutewhil
esulki
ng ‍♀somepeople
l
ookcuteevenwhendoingsomethi
ngthatshoul
d
makethem l
ookugl
y,Iki
ssedherpout
ylips.
Me:
"I
'm sor
ry"
Lol
o:"
goshoutatMa'
Radebeforcal
l
ingmel
azy
.You
don'
tthi
nkI
'mlazydoyou?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"youar
enotl
azyi
nbed"
Ir
ecei
vedal
azypunchonmyshoul
der
Lol
o:"
soI
'
mlazy
"
Me:"
noyouarenotmyl
ovej
ustt
hatt
hisisyourf
ir
st
pr
egnancyandt
heworkl
oadatt
heoff
ice.I
under
stand"
Shebeamedwi
thasmi
l
e andwr
appedherar
ms
aroundme
Lol
o:"
nowgoI
'
dli
ket
osl
eep"
Me:"
uhuhyou'
vesl
epti
t'
senoughbabypl
easewake
upandl
et'
sgotakeashower
"
Shedeni edsoIhadt opickherupnoneedf orsome
weight l
if
ti
ngIgotmyownr ighther eandsheseems
tolikeitwhenwegott othebat hroom Ijustwalked
i
nwi t
hourclothesonshewaspr et
endingtobe
sleeping Ipl acedherdownandswi tchedont he
wat erwakingherupandst artedcr yi
ngLor dof
heav enhavemer cyIj
ustundr essedherImeani t
's
notcol dwaterit
'swarmt hewayshel ikesitbutnow
she'sactingli
keababyIt ookof fmyclothesand
tookashowerwi thmybabyl iterall
y .
Me:
"wear
edoney
oucanst
opcr
ying"
Lol
o:"
I'
m notcr
yingy
oubul
l
y."
Inod
Shewasv
eryf
astt
ocov
erupI
'
m notal
way
shor
ny
y
ouknowIl
etherdr
essup.
Me:
"canwet
alknow?
"
Lol
o:"
whatdi
dyoudo?
"
Me:
'
wel
lnot
hingy
etbutI
'
m aboutt
odosomet
hing"
Lol
o:'
whati
sit
?"
Me:
"seatdownpl
ease"
Shesatdownbusyst
ari
ngatme
Lol
o:"
tal
k"
Shesl
appedt
hebackofmyhead
Me:
"ouchwhat
'
sthatf
or?
"
Lol
o:"
I'
ll
slapy
ouagai
nsospeak"
Me:"
wellbabyIhav
etobesomewherel
i
kef
ort
wo
weeksandshit,
andIhav
etoleav
eyou"
Lol
o:"
leav
eme?Don'
tscr
ewme?
"
Me:
"wel
lIwaspl
anni
ngonscrewi
ngyoubef
oreI
l
eav
ebutnowcanwet al
kaboutmegoi
ngaway"
Lol
o:"
youar
enotgoi
ngper
iod"
Me:
"huh?Lol
oIhav
etobet
her
eforacl
i
entofmi
ne"
Lol
o:"
thent
akeuswi
thy
oubuty
ouar
ecer
tai
nlynot
l
eavi
ngushere"
Me:
"youknowIcan'
ttakey
ouguy
sev
ery
wher
e"
Lol
o:"
theny
ouar
enotgoi
ng"
Me:
"Lol
ocomeon"
Lolo:
"no,don'
tyoueventhi
nkI'
l
lletyougoandleav
e
usinthishousewher ewealmostdied?Thi
sti
me
they'
l
l f
indyouhereandkil
lyouwithus"

Me:
"i
t'
sforwor
k"
Lolo:
"sendsomeoneel
seortakemebackhome
you'l
lfet
chmewheny oucomeback"
Me:
"whynotdr
ive?
"
Lol
o:"
fusegthany
oudon'
twannagot
othatst
upi
d
workstuff
"
Ipul
l
edherbackandgotont
opofher
Me:
"sayt
hatagai
n"
Lol
o:"
what
?"
Me:
"Idar
eyout
oswearatmeagai
n"
Lol
o:"
youwoul
dn'
tdar
ehi
tapr
egnantwoman"
Me:
"Isai
dIdar
eyout
oswearatmeagai
n"
Sher
oll
edherey
es
Me:
"Lol
o?"
Lol
o:"
mmh"
Me:
"Lol
o?"
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
e"
Ipi
nchedhercheeks
Me:
"dar
eswearatmeagai
nI'
l
ldef
iant
lyki
l
lyou"
Andshest ar
tedcry
ing Lwandleyouidi
otwhat
haveyoudoneIpeckedherli
psbutshepushedme
awayandscr eamedherl
ungsoutbutIdi
dn'
thity
ou
babe.Igotonmykneesandheldherhands
Me:
"I
'm sor
rypl
ease,
I'
m sor
ry"
Iki
ssedbot
hherhands
Me:"
I'
m sorr
ymyl ovepleaseIdi
dn'
tmeantoscar
e
you,
I
'dneverhur
ty ou.Iwon'
thur
tyouIpr
omise"
Shecoughedabi
t
Me:"
LololookatmeI
'
m sor
ryGodI
'
m sor
ryf
or
scar
ingyou"
Lol
o:"
Ihat
eyou"
Thoset
hreewordsbor
eme t
heyi
nfur
iat
emebut
nowIdeser
vethem.
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryokay"
Lol
o:"
letgoofme.
..
."
Me:"
I'
m sor
ry.Youdounder
standt
hatI
'
llnev
erhur
t
you"
Shepushedmeawayandst oodupheadi
ngf
orthe
doorbutshecan'
tgooutcr
yingsoIr
ushedt
oher
andcaughtherbutshef
oughtme.
Me:
"I
'm sor
rybabypl
easef
orgi
veme,
pleasebaby
.
MamakheI'
m sorr
y"
Sheturnedar
oundandj
ustwr
appedherar
ms
aroundme.
Me:
"I
'm sor
rymyl
ove"
Lol
o:"
shutupandj
usthol
dme"
Inodandjustr
ubbedherbackshewasbusy
hi
ccupingsoIpi
ckedherupandwentwithherto
bedIlai
dherdownandjustwipedhert
earsaway.
Me:
"sor
rymyl
oveokay
?"
Shenod
Lol
o:"
cry
ingmakesmehor
ny"

Me:
"west
il
lhav
etot
alkaboutmegoi
ng"
Lol
o:"
gobutt
akemeandLesegohome.
..
"
Me:
"t
heSokhul
uhomer
ight
?"
Sheshookherhead
Lol
o:"
Iwantt
ogotoBushbuckr
idge,
Ithi
nkI'
l
lbe
saf
erther
esi
ncey
oudon'twanttogowithus"
Me:
"buther
eyou'
l
lbei
nJohannesbur
g"
Lol
o:"
that
'swhatIdon'twantIwantt
obeawayf
rom
Jo'
burgpl
easeyou'l
lfetchme"
Me:"
okayIst
il
lhav
efourday
swi
thy
ousoI
'
llt
ake
youbef
oreIl
eave"
Lol
o:"
okaythenI
'
m hungr
yIwantsomehotwi
ngs
andcake"
Me:
"buty
ousai
dyouar
ehor
nynotsol
ongago"
Lolo:
"youarest
il
lleav
ingsoI
'
m nol
ongerhor
nyand
I'
m nolongercr
ying"
Me:
"wowcomel
et'
sgobuyy
out
hosehotwi
ngs"
Lol
o:"
andr
ibs"
Me:
"haaMa'
Radebecookedy
ouknow"
Lol
o:"
Ihav
ecravi
ngsLwandl
enotmyf
aul
tandshe
sai
dIwaslazy
"
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fr
ontofmebutany wayt hebigbabyhast ot ake
pri
ori
tysoIpickedherupandwentwi t
hher
downstair
s,wedrovetot hemal lIgotherthehot
wings,wewentt ospurthenmuggandbeanf orher
cake t henWool wort
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adI
meanwewenthomeandshewasal readyfull
dontarguewithmywi fepl easeshelikesherfood.
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tl
eday sIhadinbedcuddling
andhav i
ngsexev erychancewegotorspendi ng
ti
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vethem
toBushbuckr i
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wascr y
ing ev enwentbackwi t
hhim butIdr
opped
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ngherthefood
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droppedherof fbutnotathomej usthal
fwaythere.I
will
misst hem butIknowmybankbal ancewon't
thenoti
ficationdearLor dIcanjustimagi
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Lesegowaswi t
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phoner angandIr antoi
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i
ng I
answer edbusygiggli
ngseeIneedhi
m
Me:
"al
l
o"
Hi
m:"
All
o?I
sev
ery
thi
ngokay
?"
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"yep"
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m:"O-kaythegi
ggl
i
ng?Youev
ensoundl
i
key
ou
wer
er unni
ng"
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Iwasr
ushi
ngt
oanswert
hephone,
youar
ri
ved
yet
?"
Hi
m:"
noIj
ustmadeast
opatagar
age"
Me:
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oumi
ssedme"
Hi
m:"
act
ual
l
yno"

Me:
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t'
sfi
ne"
Hebur
stoutl
aughi
ng
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m:"babyyouknowImi
ssy
ouev
enwhenI
'
mtaki
ng
ashower"
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t'
snotf
unnyLwandl
eyoubr
okemyhear
t"
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
rymyQueen,
sor
ryneh"
Inod
Me:
"mmh.
..
.Lwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
myl
ove"
Me:
"Iwannacomehome"
Hi
m:"babey oucan'
tcomehomecauseI
'
mleav
ing
mylove,I
'
llcomegety oumysel
f"
Me:"
butImissyouIdon'
tthi
nkI
'
llsl
eept
oni
ght
wi
thoutyouhol
dingme"
Him:"
IknowI'm sor
rybutI
'l
ltr
ytofastt
rackt
his
casesothatIcanretur
ntoyou.Il
oveyouokay"
Me:
"pr
omi
se?
"
Him:
"crossmyhear
tandhopet
odi
e,
I'
l
lcomeback
nowIloveyou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oodaddy
"
Hi
m:"
hmm sayt
hatagai
npl
ease"

Me:
"Il
ovey
oudaddy
"
Hi
m:"
Lol
o?"
Me:
"daddy
?"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouokaydon'
tfor
gett
hat
"
Me:
'
Iwon'
tsoy
ou'
l
ltel
lmewheny
oul
and?
"
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m:"yeahI
'll
tel
lyouI
'l
lSkypewi
thy
out
ooanddon'
t
f
orgetheal
thyeati
ngpl
ease"
Me:
"Iwon'
tfor
getIpr
omi
se"
Hi
m:"
goodnowwher
eisLesego?"
Me:
"oht
hatonehest
olemyf
ami
l
yhe'
sthest
arof
t
heshow"
Hi
m:"hedi
dn'
tchoosetobehandsomedon'
tbl
ame
hi
m,andhowisthebabyt
reat
ingyou?
"
Me:
"goodbutIhav
ethi
scr
avi
ngandi
t'
shuge"
Hi
m:'
oh?Gobuyt
hen"
Me:
"uhuhI
'
m cr
avi
ngf
ormyhusband"
Hechuckl
ed
Him:"
fuckwhycraveformewhenI '
mfarLol
o?Tell
thej
uniort
oholdtothosecr
avingsandj
ustkeep
them f
ordaddyI
'l
lgiv
ehim whathewantswhenI
comeback"

Me:"
okaythenI'
ll
tell
him butyougot
tahur
ryy
ou
knowyourchil
dlacksPatience"
Hi
m:"
justsayy
oul
ackpat
ienceandI
'
llbel
i
evey
ou"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"whyl
eav
eme?
"
Hi
m:"I
'l
lbebacktogiv
eyounev
erendi
ngni
ght
sof
pl
easur
eIpromise"
Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
"ev
enatwor
k?You'
l
lgi
vei
ttome?
"
"
Ewwpl
ease"
Iquickl
ylookedbehi
ndmeandsawLuy
olowi
th
LesegoIwasev enembar
rassed
Me:
"babewe'
l
ltal
klat
erokay
"
Lwandl
e:"
don'
tyoudar
ehangup"
Me:
"l
ovey
ouby
e"
Ihungupandgr
innedmyf
aceof
f
Me:
"doubl
eL'
showar
eyouguy
s?"
Yoy
o:"
youar
edi
sgust
ingnowt
haty
ouar
emar
ri
ed"
Me:
"I
'm someone'
swi
feandI
'
m..
..
"
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Phoner
ings]
Il
ookedatmyphoneandi
twasLwandl
e
Me:
'
hol
don.
..
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ove"
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e:"
whosai
dhangup?Iwasn'
tdonet
alki
ngt
o
you"
Me:
"butLuy
oloisher
eandshebr
oughtLesegoso
we'
l
ltal
klat
er"
Lwandl
e:"
youshoul
dhav
esai
dsoy
ouknow.
..
.Il
ove
you"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Ihungupandgav
emyat
tent
iont
omysonwhowas
busycl
appi
nghi
shandsi
nexci
tementIt
ookhi
m
fr
om Luyol
o
Me:
"cany
oupackmycl
othesf
orme"
Yoyo:
"whydi
dyougetpregnant
?NowIcan'
tuse
chemical
sar
oundyou"
Il
aughednowthat
'
smysi sterf
ory
oushe'
sbeen
sul
ki
ngeversi
nceIgothere
Me:
"I
'm marr
iedandIsl
eptwi
thmyhusbandt
hat
's
whyI
'm pr
egnant"
Shef
oldedherar
ms
Yoyo:
"andy
ouev enbringyourot
hersonahhmar
a
sesiy
ouarereal
l
yt r
yingtorepl
aceme"
Me:
"andwhywoul
dIdothat
?Igot
otheendsoft
he
wor
ldfory
oubabysi
s"
Shebeamedwi
thasmi
l
e
Yoyo:"
thenI'
l
lpackf
ory
ou,
sohowi
sitbei
ng
pregnant?
"
Me:"
ti
ri
ngI'
m al
waysti
redandhungr
y,notf
orget
ti
ng
ho.
..
nahlet
'sl
eavei
t"
Shechuckl
edcl
appi
ngherhands
Yoy
o:"
youwer
egoi
ngt
osayhor
nyneh"
Me:"
hai
boshutupbefor
eIsl
apy
ouandIhopey
ou
di
dn'
teatmyhotwings"
Yoyo:
"kant
eyoudidn'
tbuyt
hem f
orme?Causeme
andmamaat ethem"

Me:
"sayy
ouar
ejoki
ngpl
ease"
Sheshookherhead
Yoy
o:"
sor
rybut
..
."

Me:
"Iwantmyf
oodnowLuy
olo.
..
."
Yoy
o:"
sor
rybr
uhIwashungr
y"
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ookmyphoneandcal
l
edLwandl
eheanswer
ed
af
tert
het
hir
dri
ng.
Hi
m:"
mamakhe?
"
Me:
"t
heyat
emywi
ngsLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
whobaby
?Comeondon'
tcr
y"
Me:
"butt
heyat
emyhotwi
ngs"
Hi
m:"
who?Tel
lthem t
ogobuyt
hem"
Me:
"Iwantt
hem nowt
atakhe"
Hi
m:"
yeahtel
lthem t
ogonowIdon'tcar
ebuty
ou
ar
enotgoi
ngany wher
eunder
stand"
Me:
"okay"
Him:"andt
ell
them t
obuyext
raunder
stand?Justt
o
nevereatwhat'
syour
sagai
n"
Me:
"I
'l
ltel
lher
"
Hi
m:"
ifshesay
snot
ell
mey
ezwa"
Me;
"mmhI
'
llt
ell
you"
Him:"
goodsorr
yphelast
opcry
ingmylove.
..
.I'
l
l
defi
antl
yhur
rytocomebackbefor
eyoucrytodeat
h"
t
ear
smadodamyt
ear
sar
ejustspear
sto
hi
shear
t
Me:
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eal
l
y?"
Hi
m:"mmhIlov
eyounehsot
alkt
omor
rowIneedt
o
sl
eepear
ly"
Me:
"anddon'
tunpackt
hebagsy
ezwa?
"
Hi
m:"
yesloveIwon'tanddon'
tcr
yall
nightf
orhot
wi
ngstoojustt
ell
them togobuy"
Me:
"okayby
enow"
Ihungupandl
ookedatt
hel
aughi
ngLuy
olo
Me:
"f
ini
sht
her
eandl
et'
sgobuyt
hosehotwi
ngs"
Yoy
o:"
youar
esuchacrybabydoy
ouknowt
hat
?
Howdoeshesur
viv
e"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
thisisnothi
ngfindmeathomeandhe'sri
ght
her
ebr uhIcryunti
lhegi
vesmehisbankcardtodo
asIplease"
Yoy
o:"
doesheknowt
hathemar
ri
edababy
?"
Me:
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utsek"
Shefini
shedpackingandwewentt othemalli
t'
snot
faranywayj
ustthatLwandledoesn'
twantme
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ngaroundlatesothat
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tgo
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m andthat'
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lshowthatIl
eft
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ouswhenIsai dIwant edhotwi ngs
evenboughtmy selfazingerburgerwel l
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lyI
boughtt wo ‍♀t hebabywant sitnotme.My
sisterhatedthefactthatIwaspr egnant Idon' t
knowwhycauset hiswasgoingt ohappenany way.
Beingpr egnantisjustt
hejackpotbutt hatdoesn'
t
meanIwasal l
loveydoveywi t
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stil
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siscalledtoler
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mswher enothi r
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manypeopl esomebei ngatJo'bur
gbr i
ngssome
oppor tunit
iesIwasdr essedinmybl ackpencilskir
t
andwhi telongsleevesshirtwithagreyjacketand
myankl estrapchunkypl atf
orm heelIgott
amakean
i
mpr essi ononmyf ir
stdayIletmyweav ehang
f
reelyandmymakeupwasonpoi nttoosobel
iev
e
meI'm goi
ngt
omakeanimpr essi
on,It
ookmy
l
aptopbagandhangbagt
henmyphoneIwasdone.I
t
ookmycarkey sl
ookedmyselfi
nthemirr
orone
l
asttime.
Me:
"youcandot
hisZamor
elax"
Iwal kedoutofmyapar t
mentandr ushedt othe
parkingl otandof fIwentt owor kIwasaner vous
wreckev enhadsweat ingpalmsImeant hisisthe
fi
rstbi glawf ir
mt hatacknowl edgedmyexi stencein
thi
swor ldwhenIar r
ivedatt hebuil
dingIhadt osign
i
natt hegat e ‍♀soIdi dandIdr oveintothe
parkingl otIcouldn'
tfindanypar kingspaceav ail
abl
e
exceptf ort heCEOsol etmet rymyl uckIpar ked
thereandj ustgotoutIt hinkI'
m al
readyl ate Igot
ont hel i
ft
Me:
"NomzamoBeaut
yMt
shal
i
"
Igi
ggledatthatidi
oti
cstuntbutwhateverri
ghtI
'
m
j
usttryi
ngtocalm downt heelevat
oropenedupand
Iwalkedouttothisworl
d i twassohugel i
kef
il
led
wit
hpeoplesomeev enattendi
ngcall
sbutitwasso
quiteli
kenonoisemade,someoneclearedtheir
throati
nterr
upti
ngmefrom mydr eam Iqui
cklygot
mycomposur eandf
oundt hati
twasthe
recepti
onist
Me:
"ohhi
,I
'm sor
ryaboutj
ust
..
..
"
Her
:"
it
'scool
howcanIhel
pyou?
"
Me;'
ohmynamei
sNomzamoI
'
m her
etoseeMr
Sokhul
u"
Her:
"ohI
'm af
rai
dMrSokhuluain'
tcomi
ngintoday
butyoucancomeagai
naftertwoweekshe'
ll
be
backbythen"
Me:
"Twoweeks?But
..
."
"Youwhot
hef
uckpar
kedt
hei
rcaronmypar
king
space?
"
Recept
ionist
:"
uhIdon'
tknowsi
rbuty
ouhav
ea
vi
sit
orhere"
MrS:"nothereforv
isi
tor
sIjustneedtheSmit
hvs
Creedfil
epleaseorI'
l
lmissmyf li
ght
.Andget
securi
tytoremovewhoev er
'scari
sparkedonmy
spot"
Recept
ioni
st:
"okay
..
..Her
eist
hef
il
eyouar
elooki
ng
for
"
MrS:"andwher
eist
hevisi
tor
?It
houghty
ou
cancell
edal
lmymeeti
ngs"
Me:
"shedi
dsi
rIj
ust
..
.."
MrS:"andspeakwheny ouar espokentothankyou.
..
Li
stenI'
m notavai
labl
ef orthenexttwoweeks
underst
and?Onlycontactmei fmywi f
ecall
sy ou
causeshecan'tr
eachmei sthatcl
ear?"
Ther
ecept
ioni
stnodded
Hetookthefi
l
eandwalkedoutohGodIdon'
tthi
nkI
cansur
viveworki
ngf
orhim he'
samonst
er
Recepti
oni
st:
"i
fyouloveyourcary
ou'
l
lgoandmov
e
i
torelsehe'
ll
haveitimpounded"
Me:
"i
sheal
way
sli
ket
hat
?Al
lbossyandscar
y?"
Shechuckl
ed
Recept
ioni
st:
"nohe'
sactual
l
yasweetbossjustthe
hormonesaredoinghi
m goodl
atel
yespeci
all
yifhi
s
wif
eisnotaround"
Me:
"he'
smar
ri
ed?"
Recept
ionist
:"
wellyeahtothi
ssweetgi r
lthoughshe
doesn'
treall
ysoci
alizewit
hany onebutwhenhe's
nother
eshecomesandhasl unchwithus..
.ohby
thewayI'm Rose"
Sheext
endedherhandf
orahandshake
Me:
"ni
cet
omeety
ouRose"
Rose:"
whyar
eyouher
eifIcal
l
edy
ouandt
oldy
ou
nottocome?
"
Me:"
well
Iki
ndaneedthejobasi
ntodaycauseatthe
apar
tmentI
'
mr ent
ingIki
ndahav
eaboutthreeday
s
tomoveout
"
Rose:
"oht
hat
'sbad.
..
."
Me:
"yeahIguessI
'
lll
ookf
orsomet hi
ngcheaperi
n
t
hemeantime.Jo'
bur
gisexpensi
ve"
Shechuckl
ed
Rose:
"getyour
sel
famanl
ikeourbosswhosel
oaded
andcutethenJo'
bur
gwi
ll
beabr eeze"
Me:
"yeahr
ightumhl
etmegoandmov
emycar
,wai
t
howdi
dyouknowt
hati
twasmycar
?"
Shel
aughed
Rose:
"becauseyouaret
heonlyonewhodoesn'tthe
rul
esaroundhere,
nooneist
oparkthereexceptt
he
bossorhiswifebuti
twasni
cemeet i
ngyouZamo"
Me:"
yeahsametoyouRoseIguessI
'
llseey
out
wo
weeksfr
om now"
Rose:
"orwecancat
chupabi
t"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"yeahsur
eI'
dli
ket
hat
"
Shenodandj
ustwr
otehernumber
sdownona
paper
Rose:
"you'
l
lcal
lmer
ight
?"
Me:
"yeahseey
ouar
ound"
FuckIdr essedupfornothing j usttogetbl
own
awayl i
ket hewi
ndlikeseriouslyIboughtanewsui t
e
andallfornothi
ng whatam Igoi ngtodonowI
Sti
llhavetowaitfortwoweekswhi chain'
tonatal
l.
Luckil
ymycarwasst il
ltherethankheav enssoIgot
i
nandjustdrov
etomyapart
ment Ical
l
edmydad
maybehecanhelpmewit
hsomecashwhoknows
heansweredaf
teraf
ewri
ngs.
Hi
m:"
ntombi
'
yam(
mygi
rl
)"
Me:
"daddy
..
..
howar
eyou?
"
Hi
m;"I
'
m goodandyou?WhydoyousoundsosadI
t
houghty
ouhadajobint
erv
iew?
"
Me:"
wellIhav
ethejobalr
eadyjusthadtogoi
nfor
someformali
ti
esbutthebosshadt obesomewher
e
andhe'
ll
begonefortwoweeks"
Him:
"I'
m sor
ryl
ove,
sowhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo,
are
youcomingbackhome?
"
Me:"
noIjustneedsomemoneytol
astmetheset
wo
weeksi
nsteadofwasti
ngi
tgoi
ngupanddown"
Hi
m:"
Zamoy
ouknowIdon'
thav
emoneymy"
Isi
ghed
Me:"
Ifor
gotaboutt
hatbuti
t'
sokayImakeapl
an
don'
tworry
"
Hi
m:"
don'
tfal
lfort
hosemenwhof
lasht
hei
rmoney
ar
oundmychi
l
d"
Me:
"Iwon'
tdaddyIpr
omi
se.
..
.Dogr
eetmom f
orme"
Hi
m:"
wil
ldoandgoodl
uck"
Me:
"t
hanky
ou"
Ihungupaf terthatandj ustsankdownnowwhat
am Igonnado wel l Icouldlookforacheaper
apartmentandgetapi ecejobj ustt
okeepmegoi ng
‍♀t hi
si sJo'burgnoshor tcutsforsomeofus
i
nlif
ebutI '
l
l cal
l Roseaf t
erwor kandaskherto
showmear ound Ihav etogett hi
sjobIneeditf
or
myf amil
ybackhome.
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Seefort
hepasttwoweeksLwandl
elef
tmenehI
wasn'
tmy sel
fIwasal
wayssul
ki
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y
camet ol if
ewhenhecal l
edme Imi sshi m and
nowi t'
sbeent woday swi t
houthear ingf rom hi m and
hewassupposedt ocomebacky esterday he
forgotaboutmeandhi schi ldrenIseehehas
alr
eadymov edoncauseI '
m nowpr egnantand
boringhim hehasf oundamor esli
mmergi rl,agirl
whodoesn' thav eweirdcrav ingsall daylongwho
i
sn'tneedyasme hehat esmedoesn' theImean
I'
m nolongerbeaut i
fulinhisey esbutIdi dn'tchoose
tobel i
ket hisIdidn'
tmeant ogetpr egnantandI
thoughthewashappyt hatIam car ryi
nghi sbabybut
seemsl ikeIwaswr ong,butany waybackt ot hestory
Iwasbusywat chingTitani
cov eratubofchocol ate
i
cecr eam andchocol ateslabIwascr yingov erthe
mov ieandt hef actthatImi ssmydamnhusband
whoIact uall
ytookof ftheringhegav eme hel eft
meany way .Mymom hadgonet oputLesegot obed
andshesai dshewasal sogoi ngtobedbutshe
camebackandsnat chedthechocol atesl abf r
om
me
Me:
"ma.
..
mamagi
vei
tback"
Ma:
"nosost
opeat
ingcol
dthi
ngsy
ou'
l
lendangert
he
babyandgot
osl
eep"
Ist
art
edcr
yingagai
n
Me:"
Idon'
tcar
eLwandl
edoesn'
tcar
esowhyshoul
d
Icar
e?"
Ma:"
he'
satworkandyouknowitsost
opact
ingl
i
ke
ababy,
youar
enotcut
eany mor
e"

Me:
"soI
'm ugly
?I'
m uglyi
sthatwhyhel
eftme?
He.
..
heal
sot hi
nksI'
m ugl
y?"
Ma:"Nonost opit
.GodofIsraelhavemercyonmy
chi
ld,nanay ouarebeaut
ifulokaybuty
oualways
cry
ingov ernothi
ngisn'
tyoushowingbeingmatur
ed"
Me:
"j
ustgi
vememyf
ood"
Ma:
"nogosl
eepy
ouhav
en'
tsl
epti
ntwoday
s"
Ishr
ugandshov
edaspoonf
ulofchocol
atei
nmy
mouthwhi
chsheal
sosnat
ched
Me:
"madon'
tmakemel
osei
tgi
vememyf
ood"
Ma:
"nonowgot
obed"
Me:
"no!
"
Ma:"
Penel
opeyou'
l
lgetupt
hisi
nst
anceandgot
o
beddoyouhearme?"
Me:"I
'
m notababygi
vememyf
oodandl
eav
eme
al
one"
Shejustswit
chedofft
het
v Ibegan
scr
eami ngandcal
li
ngmydad
Ma:
"hai
bofi
netakeyourt
hingsI
'
mti
redoft
ryi
ngt
o
makeyouseer
eason"
Me:
"go"
Ijustsnat
chedthest
ufff
rom herandswitchedon
theTV Igott hemunchi
esandshet akesawaymy
food
Ma:
"getabl
ankett
henj
ustt
okeepwar
m"
Me:
"I
'm notcol
d"
Shecl
appedherhands
Ma:"
youar estubbor
nshamewhatevert
hatboyhas
beenteachingyouhascer
tai
nlygr
ownony ouhai
iI
appl
audhim"
Shelef
tmebusywatchingamov iethatwaseven
makingmecrybutIhaveseenitathousandti
mes
bef
ore Imi ssmyLwandlewe' dbecuddli
ngright
nowbuthe'
snothereandhe'snevercomingback.
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Doorknock]
mxm thishouraret heymadt hey'
l
l gohomeonce
theyseet hati
t '
slat
eandsomeofusar e
sleepi
ng,buttheycontinuedknocking Ij ustwi
ped
thetearsawayandst oodupgoi ngtot hedoorbusy
fi
xingupmyr obeIunl ockedthedoort hemomentI
openedi tIquickl
yclosedi tt
oo Ilook
horri
ble I 'm amessandhedeci dest ocomenow
whyGodwhy heknockedabi t.
"
Woul
dyouopenupwomani
t'
scol
douther
e"
Wait,
waitI
'
m angryathi
myeahIm angr
yim not
happytoseehim notev
enali
tt
lebi
tnoways
Me:"
gobackt
oyourgi
rl
fr
iendLwandl
eandl
eav
eme
al
one"
Hi
m:"
don'
tmesswi
thmenowopent
hisdoor
"
Me:
"Nogoaway"
Him:"
FuckLoloI'
mt i
redandcol
djustopenupI
knowy ouwerecry
ingnousehidi
ngIcanheari
tin
yourvoice"
‍♀ Iopenedt hedoorlet
tinghiminandhe
wasshiveri
ngisitthatcoldtodayIlockedthedoor
behindhim andjustwenttoseatdownI 'm nothappy
toseehim j ustkiddingI
'm overthemoonbutI
won'tshowhi mthat,hecamet oseatwithmeandhe
tr
iedtotouchmebutImov edaway
Hi
m:"
now?Whatdi
dIdo?
"
Me:"
whatdayisittoday?Youwer
esupposedt
o
comebackyesterday"
Him:"t
hat,babeI
'm sorryIj
ustl
osttr
ackoftimeand
beforeIknewitmyf l
ighthadal
readylef
tsoIbought
anemer gencyti
cketfortodayt
houghitcostmean
arm andleg"
Me:"
sowhoi
sshet
hathady
oudi
str
act
edt
haty
ou
di
dn'
tev
encal
lme?
"
Hi
m:"
ther
eisnooneIj
ustdi
dn'
twantt
owor
ryy
ou
t
hat'
sallIpr
omi semylove,
themomentthefli
ght
l
andedIdidn'
tev engohomeIjustcameher
ethat
's
whyI'
m solate"
Me:
"soy
oudi
dn'
tfor
getaboutme?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m: "
Ididn'tfor
getaboutyoumylove.
..I
nfactyou
wereall
t hatIwasthinki
ngaboutwhil
eIwasthereI
ev
enhadt hismade"
Het ookoutablackr i
ngboxbutwhenheopened
i
t i twasasil
verbr acel
etwithmynameoni t
i
twassobeaut i
fulandwhenIsaysi l
verIdon'
tmean
fakesil
verunderst
andsor elaxitwassobeauti
ful
evenhadat i
nyhear tpendantdangli
ngfr
om it
.
Hi
m:"
giv
emey
ourl
efthand"
oopsnor
ingont
her
ingf
inger
Me:
"uhI
'
llweari
ttomor
rowIpr
omi
se"
Hi
m:"
Ijustwannaseehowi
tlooks"
Me:
"her
e"
Igav
ehi
mther
ighthand
Hi
m:"
okaywhat
sgoi
ngon?"
Me:"
wel
lIki
ndat
ookofft
her
ingcausey
oudi
dn'
t
cal
lmefort
wodays"
Hi
m:'
sot
hatsai
dtakeof
fyourr
ing?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"I
'
m sorr
ymyl ovebutyoushouldknowbett
er
t
hantothi
nkthatIwascheati
ngony ouaft
erwhat
we'
vebeenthr
ough?I'dnev
erhurtyouli
kethat
"
Me:
"pr
omi
se?
"
Him:
"mmhIpromise,
plusIgetal
lthatIwantf
rom
yousowhycheat
?Iloveyousqueaky"

Me:
"whoi
sSqueaky
?"
Him:"
yournewpetnamesi
ncey
ouhav
easqueaky
voi
ce"

Me:
"ar
eyouhungr
y,t
ir
edorwhat
?"
Hi
m:"
justcol
dandImi
ssedy
ou"
Me: "I
'
llmakeyouacupofhotchocol
ateIstoodup
andwasaboutt owal
kawaybuthepull
edmeback
causingmet ofall
ontopofhi
slap hewasev en
giggli
ngaboutitImeanwhat'
ssofunnyaboutthi
s
si
t uati
on.
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:"
IloveyoutoonowcanIgoandmakey
out
hat
cupbeforeyoufr
eezet
odeath?
"
Hekissedmynecksucki
ngoni
t asl
i
ghtmoan
escapedmyl
ips
Hi
m:"
Imi
ssedy
oumyl
ove"
Me:
"Imi
ssedy
oumor
ebabe"
Hi
m:"
showmej
usthowmuchy
oumi
ssedme"
Me:
"I
'l
lshowy
ouoncewear
ehomenother
e"
Hi
m:"
justal
i
ttl
esneakpeak,
comeonmyl
ove"

Me:
"Lwandl
ewear
evi
sit
orsher
eyouknow"
Hi
m:"
Iknowt
hatbutj
ustaki
ss"
Me:
"youar
etr
oubl
esomenawe.
.."
Hechuckledandjustat
tackedmylipswithakissI
missedhim andit
sli
kehecouldsensethatIwas
cryi
ngforhi
m notsolongagocauseheki ssedme
fortheent
ir
et woweekshewasn'there.
Hebeganmov i
nghishandsupanddownmyback
goi
ngt omyasst ogivei
tasqueezefuckthi
scan'
t
behappeningnotinmyf ami
ly
'shouseIpull
edaway
andjustpeckedhi
slips
Me:"
O-kaynowl
etmegety
out
hathotchocol
ate
r
ight
?"
HenodandletgoofmeIst
oodupj
ustt
orecei
vea
spanki
ngontheass
Hi
m:"
damnImi
ssedt
hat
"
Igiggledlikeanidiotandl
efthi
m busyrubbinghi
s
dick i fonlywewer einourhousewe'dmakesur e
thewhol eneighborhoodknewt hathewasback
from histripbutnowwear enotwear estuckint
his
housebutt omorrowIguesswear egoinghome
Imadetwocupsofhotchocol
ate andwentt
ogi
ve
hi
m hi
scup.
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
met
haty
ouwer
ecomi
ng?"
Hi
m:"
justwant
edtocatchyououtIknewyou'
dbe
gl
amorousandal
lbutIwantedt
oseey oul
iket
his"
Me:
"youal
way
sseemel
i
ket
hisbackhomet
hough"
Hi
m:"
noty
oucr
yingov
eramov
ie"
Me:
"Iwant
edmyhusbandokay
..
..
Ireal
l
ymi
ssedy
ou"
Heki
ssedmycheekandjustwrappedhisarm
ar
oundmyneckpul
li
ngmecl osersothathecan
ki
ssthesi
deofmyhead
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Il
ovemet
oo"
Hechuckl
edandwasaboutt oki
ssmebutsomeone
hadtocl
earthei
rthroats Iwannabef uckedr
ight
nowImisstheseniorinsidemewel
ookedatthe
per
sonanditwasmyf ather.
Me:
"dad?
"
Dad:
"hauSokhul
u..Whatt
imedi
dyougether
e?"
Lwandl
estoodupandshookhandswi
thmyf
ather
Ial
sostoodup
Me:
"I
'l
lgopr
epar
etheguestr
oom"
Dad:
"whydoesn'
thesl
eepwi
thy
ou?"
Me:
"Ishar
emyr
oom wi
thLuy
oloi
ncasey
ouf
orgot
"
Dad:
"ohatl
easthe'
sbacky
ou'
l
lst
opcr
ying"
Me:
"Iwasn'
tcr
ying"
Dad:
"ohsoy
ounotsl
eepi
ngnorea.
..
."
Me:
"goodni
ghtdad"
Nowhewantstotel
lLwandl
ethatIhav
en'
tbeen
eat
ingt
hatwel
lcauseIdi
dn'
thaveanappet
it
ebut
wit
hLwandl
eit
'l
lbeawar.
Me;
"I
'
llr
uny
ouabat
hokay
?"
HenodandIj ustki
ssedhi scheekandtookmycup
wit
hmet otheguestr oom Itookoutthebl anket
s
l
ikeIpreparedev er
ythingthenIwenttopr eparea
hotbat
hf orhim he'sfreezi
ngcoldthatIknowwhen
IwasdoneIwentt of etchhi
m Imeanheshoul dstop
gossi
pingwi t
hmyf atheryouknowwel lIcleanedthe
l
ivi
ngroom andwenttocheckonLesego he'
ll
sl
eepalonetoni
ghtIgot
tasleepi
nmyman'sar
ms
noti
nhisti
nyarmssoIwokeupLuy olo.
Me:"
cany
ousl
eepwi
thLesegoanddon'
tsquash
hi
m"
Her
:"
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"mymani
sher
eandhe'
scol
dsoIhav
etosl
eep
wi
thhi
m"
Her
:"
fi
nal
l
yyou'
l
lst
opcr
ying"

Me:
"mxm j
ustsl
eepwi
tht
heki
d"
Iwalkedoutandwentt
of i
ndmyhubbywr
appedi
na
towelbusydry
inghi
sdreadl
ocks.
Hi
m:"
needt
oil
etr
iesl
ove"
Me:
"soy
ou'
vebeenst
andi
ngher
efort
hose?
"
Henod
Hi
m:"
andy
oursweetass"
Ihat
eitwhenhedoest
hat any
wayIwentt
oget
hi
mt hethi
ngshewant
edwel lt
hingisIdi
dn'
tscor
e
bei
ngsexedAhewast iredandshi tBt
hisi
smy
parent'
shouseandwegetpr et
tyloud butI
wantedithey ‍♀nat ur
esway swhatshoul
dI
sayIcan'tdenyi
t.
.
Nomzamo
IwasbusycookingandRosewaschangi ngohy eah
Imov edi
nwithhercauset
hel andl
ordkickedmeout
soshekindaoffer
edmeapl acetostayforawhi le
unti
lthebosscameback.Shecamei ntot heki
tchen
ty
ingherweaveup.
Me:
"sohowwaswor
k?"
Her
:"
goodandthebossl
andedt
odaysosoony
ou'
l
l
beempl
oyed"
Me:
"f
inal
l
ydoy
out
hinkIcanseehi
mtomor
row?"
Sheshr
ug
Her
:"
hedi dn'
tsayj
ustthatIhadt
obookhi
m an
emergencyti
cketf
ortoday"
Me:"
pleaset
ellmeifhe'
sbackattheof
fi
ceIreal
l
y
needtogetbackonmyf eetandst
opspongi
ngof
you"
Her:
"yeahbutei
shnowwe'
l
lhav
etobeonourbest
behavior
"
Me:
"so?Youar
ehi
sempl
oyeeshauy
'al
lbet
terwor
k"
Her:
"yeahy
eahbutwhil
etheywer
eawaywehadf
un
l
ikel
ongerlunchest
oo"
Me:
"yeahwhat
every
ougot
tawor
k"
Shesatdownt
aki
ngacar
rot
Her:
"andyoubet
terbehav
ewhenwegett
her
e
underst
and?"
Me:"
Ijustwantt
oworkandsendmoneybackhome
br
uhnot hi
ngmore"
Her:
"yeahwomenl i
keushavetohustl
ewhil
esome
haveiteasyj
ustgett
ingany
thi
ngtheywantwit
ha
snapofthefi
nger"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"youar
etal
ki
ngaboutMrSokhul
uai
n'
tyou?
"
Shetookahugebit
eofhercar
rotandmade
sl
oppingsoundswi
thhermouth.
Her:
"br
uhsomegir
lsareluckynoli
eImeanshej ust
comesfrom t
her
uralar
easandv oil
àshescoresa
bi
gfishwhil
ewehavebeenher ebutcoul
dn'
tgetthi
s
fi
sh"
Me:
"may
behe'
susedt
oyouguy
s"
Her
:"
yeahwecit
ygir
lsdon'
thaveachancebuty
ou
f
arm gi
rl
sdobutunl
ucki
lyhe'
smarri
ed"
Me:
"ev
eni
fhewasn'
tI'
m nother
efort
hat
"
Her:"
ohwaitandletJo'
bur
gshowy oufl
amesthen
you'l
lneedmenlikehi
m marr
iedornotyou'
l
lbe
f
ollowinghi
m around"
Me:
"nahmydadwoul
dki
l
lme"
Her:
"ohwel
lcal
lmewhenyouseet
heneedt
oget
your
selfamanandar
ichone"
Me:
"doy
ouhav
eaman?
"
Shenods
Her
:"
wher
edoy
out
hinkt
hisapar
tmentcomesf
rom?
Igetpai
dbuti
tal
lgoest
othef
ami
l
ysoIgot
tause
whatGodgaveme"
Me:
"wellmydaddoeshaveafewcowssohe'
l
lsel
l
t
hem Idon'
thav
etosellmysel
f"
Sheshr
ug
Her:
"butLor
dknowsIwantt
obePenel
ope'
sbf
fri
ght
now"
Me:
"shewon'
tshar
ether
icheswi
thy
oubr
uhj
ustl
et
i
tgo"
WehadourdinnerGodIcan'
twaitt
ojustgoand
star
twor
kingandmakemoneyf ormyfami l
ybackat
home nott hisst
upi
dideaofRoseIcan'twai
tto
behandl
i
ngf i
l
esandhelpi
ngpeopleincourt
.
Mor ni
ngcameandRosewentt oworkwhileIwas
l
efthomet opickanout f
iti
fIgetcall
edinandl ucki
ly
Rosecal l
edmeanhouraf t
ershelef
tlucki
lytheboss
saidhe'l
lbecomi ngi nt
odayandmyf r
iendcalledme
fi
rstsoIjustfreshenedupandt odayIworeagr ey
pencilski
rt,bl
acklongsleevesshir
tandagr ey
j
acketandmyst i
l
ettosIcombedmyweav eIt ook
myst ufft
henact uall
yracedtotheoffi
cewhenIgot
t
heret
heCEOslotwassti
l
lopensoI'
m ear
lysoI
r
ushedinandf
oundRosebusyrunni
ngupanddown.
Me:
"so?I
sheher
e?"
Sheshookherhead
Rose:
"seatdownandr
elaxabi
tI'
m sur
ehe'
l
lbe
her
e"
Itookadeepbr eat
handsatdownbr uhIwas
sweati
ngI '
m notevensurewhybutIwaswel lt
his
welldressedgi
rlwalkedinbusyonherphoneshe
didn'
tevengreetmeshej ustwenttoRoseand
tappedthetabl
eget t
ingheratt
enti
on.
Rose:
"Mr
sSokhul
uhi
"
MrsSokhulu real
lyandRosethi
nksshecan
competewitht
his myf ri
endshoul
djustquitwhile
she'
saheadbruhthisgi
rli
sfl
amesanddr essesli
ke
thi
sbil
l
ionai
renottoomuchbeingbutshe'sdazzl
ing.
MrsS:"
yeahmorni
ngRose.
..
canIgetLwandl
e'
s
messagespl
ease?
"
Rose:
"ohi
sn'
thecomi
ngi
nhi
msel
f?Justaski
ng"
MrsS:"
he'
sst
il
lpar
kingsohe'
l
lbeher
enowcanIget
t
hemessageswewannagohomeear l
yify
oudon'
t
mind"
Rosegavehert
hemessagesandshewasaboutt
o
l
eavebutRoseki
ndst
oppedher.
Rose:
"umhPenel
opeMrSki
ndahasan
appoi
ntment
"
MrsS:
"wi
th?Didn'thet
ell
yout
hatt
odaywear
e
comi
ngforthefi
les?"
Roseshr
ug
Rose:"
wellshe'
sbeenher
etheent
ir
etwoweekssoI
thought
..
.."
Mr
sS:
"wher
eisshe?
"
Rosepoi ntedatmeandt hewifeturnedar ound
fl
icki
ngherhai rshewal kedtowardsmeand
extendedherhandf orahandshakeIwasr el
uctant
atfir
stcauseherey eswer ejustIdon'tknowhowt o
describethem butitwasl i
keshewasr eadingmy
soulbutIf i
nal
lydidandIst oodup.
Her
:"
I'
m Penel
opeSokhul
uumhwhatbusi
nessdo
y
ouhav
ewi
thmyhusband?
"
Me:
"ohI
'
m her
eforaj
obi
nter
viewmam"
Her:
"ohanddon'
tcal
lmemam orMr
sSokhul
uli
ke
herj
ustcal
lmePenelope"
Me:
"ofcour
se"
Her:
"wel
lgoodluckfory
ourinterv
iewnehanduhmy
husbandisabi
tcrankytodaysodon'tev
endar
eact
smartorevenl
ookhimint heeye"
Me:
"but.
..
"
Her:
"don'
tdothatwheny ouar
ewi
tht
hebutst
uff
keepitt
oy our
sel
f.
..
..Baby"
Shepul
l
edherhandawayandj
ustpul
l
edmet
o
st
andbesi
desher
MrS:
"baby
?Youhav
eanewf
ri
end?"
Shechuckl
ed
Penel
ope:
"noshe'
snotmyf
ri
end.
..
.She'
sher
eforan
i
nterv
iew"
MrS:
"I
'm nother
etomeetany
onesor
ry"
Penel
ope:
"wi
l
lyoul
ookatme?St
opt
ext
ing"
MrS:"
babeI
'
m emai
l
ingacl
i
entnott
ext
ing,
nowcan
Igo?
"
Penel
ope:
"t
hisi
s..
..
what
'
syournameagai
n?"
Me:
"NomzamoMt
shal
i
"
Penel
ope:
"ohyeahNomzamobabet
hisi
s
Nomzamo..Sokhul
upl
ease"
Heli
ft
edherheadupandlookedatusandherwi
fe
wassmil
i
ngherfaceoff
.
Penel
ope:
"so?
"
MrS:"
ohyeahshe'sal
readyhi
redj
ustneededt
obe
gi
venatourr
elax"
Shesqueal
edi
nexci
tementandhuggedhi
m
Penel
ope:
"canIgi
vehert
het
our
?"
MrS:
"youcan'
tendworl
dhungerMamakheyouar
e
wi
thmesol et
'sgoRosegetsomeonet
ogiv
ehera
t
ourofthet
opf l
oor
"
Rosenod
MrS:
"andwel
comet
othecompany
"
Me:
"t
hanky
ousi
r"
Henodandj
ustt
ookhi
swi
fef
rom me
Penel
ope:
"congr
atul
ati
onsokay
"
Me:
"t
hanks"
Phewwthatwaseasywel
lIwentt
oRosewhowas
l
ookingl
i
keshesawsomethingt
hatdi
sgust
edher
.
Me;
"andt
heny
ou?
"
Rose:
"canIgi
veherat
our
?Li
ker
eal
l
ynow"
Sheimitat
edPenel
ope'
svoi
cebutherswasnotas
smallastheboss'
swif
eanditwasuglycausi
ngme
tol
augh
Me:
"comeony
ousai
dshewassweetandnow?
"
Rose:"
sweetbutli
kestof
lashar
oundt
hather
husbandi
st hebossandri
ch"
Me:
"how?
"
Rose:
"f
ancybl
i
ngbl
i
ngandcl
othesl
ookather
"
Me:
"mxm j
ustcal
lthatper
sonbef
oreIgetf
ir
ed"
Rose:"
whatev
erj
ustdon'
tforgetmeoncey
ouar
eat
thetopcomeandhavelunchwithme"
Me:
"al
way
syouweretheonlysuppor
tsy
stem Ihad
soy
eahIwon'
tfor
getyou"
Rose:
"congr
atsgi
rlandwel
comet
othef
ami
l
y"
Me:
"t
hanks"
Iwashappy ,
sad,excit
ed,scar
edf uckIwasj ustan
emotionalwreckdidn'tknowr i
ghtfrom wrongdidn'
t
knowwher eIwasgoi ngbutf actisthatIfi
nall
yhave
ajob andI'm goingtofocusoni tmay beI
j
ustmi ghtmakei ttothetopandgetbi gclientsi
f
onlyI
'm dedi
catedt omywor kandonl yitnotthefast
l
ifeofJo'bur
g i cameher etowor kandt hat'
sit
.
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11/
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nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
♡ քsօ 35♡
.
Zamo♡
Myf
ir
stdayandi
tseemsl
i
keIwon'
tbemaki
ngany
fri
endsont het opfloorev ent hePAt heyputmewi t
h
sot hatshecanshowmet her opesai n'
tfri
endlyat
allshej ustgiv esmepastf il
est oreadt hroughand
l
iker ightnowI 'm busyhel pingherar rangesome
fi
leswel l
Iwon' tcompl aincauseIhav ejuststart
ed
andIdon' thav eanycl ientswhi chIthinkMrSokhul u
won' tgivemeanycl ientsrightnowmay beaftera
fewmont hsofshadowi nghe' l
l seethatIcanhandl e
myownbutIdon' tknowwhoI '
llshadow, maybeI
canshadowt hebossy eahhe' st hebestsoi fhe
taughtme Iwoul dber eadyi nnot i
me.Wel l t
he
oppor tunitypr esenteditselfwhenhi swi fewalked
outcomi ngt owar dsussomay beifIaskedhert o
talktohi mI 'm surehe'llagr eeshej ustshov edthe
fi
letoAmbert hePA
Penel
ope:"
Lwandl
ewantsyoutoreschedul
eal
lhi
s
meeti
ngsfortomor
rowaft
ernoonbutyouknowonly
thr
eecli
ents."
Amber
:"
youknowi
tandt
hisf
il
e?"
Penel
ope:"
ohy eahei
shthisi
sfornewgirl
..
.Her
eyou
goZamo,hewant syoutocomeupwi t
hawayt oget
thi
scl
ientoutofjai
lwit
hin24hour
sifyoucando
t
hatt
heny
ouwi
l
lgett
okeept
hecase"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Shenod
Penel
ope:"
butf
rom myv i
ewtheni
ggawi
l
lgot
ojai
l
anywaytoomuchevidence"
Me:
"butwhygi
vei
ttome?
"
Sheshr
ug
Me:
"Mr
sSokhul
ucanIasky
ousomet
hing?
"
Penel
ope:
"yeahsur
e."
"
Lol
oar
eyoucomi
ng?
"
Penel
ope:
"rel
axI
'
m comi
ng.
..
.soaskZamobef
orehe
comeshere"
Me:"
yeahumhdoyoumindaski
ngMrSokhului
fhe
coul
dbemymentorI'
dreal
l
yappreci
atet
hat
"
Shef
urr
owedherey
ebr
owsandl
ookedatAmber
Penel
ope:
"what
?YouwantLwandl
etobey
our
mentor
?"
Inod
Me:
"yesI
'
dreal
l
yappr
eci
atet
hat
"
Penelope:
"we'
l
lhe'sal
readymentor
ingsomeoneand
thatsomeonehatesshari
ngsolet'
snotgetov
er
excit
ed"
Shechuckl
edandjustwalkedawayi
ntot
heof
fi
ce
okayt
henicegi
rlstuf
fisgoneshame orwasshe
j
ustpret
endi
ng.
Me:
"whoi
shement
ori
ng?"
Amber
:"
youj
ustspoket
oher
"
Me:
"hi
swi
fe?I
sthatwhyshegotdef
ensi
ve"
Amber :
"l
istenZamoorwhoev erLoloismyfri
endin
factshe'
sev eryone'
sfri
endont hetopfl
oorsodon't
gettoobigf oryourbootsorshe'l
lmakesurethat
yougetkickedt othecurbsot hi
sforwar
dbehav i
or
youhav eloseitunderst
and?"
asskissermuchIwentt hrought
hefi
l
eImean
thisisnotawi nni
ngcaseatal l Iwasfocusedon
thef i
lewhenthemoaningst arted It
houghtI
didn'thearcor
rectl
ybut.
..
..
.
"
Lwandl
efuck.
..
..
"
 don'tt
heyknowt heyhav
epeopl
eri
ghtout
side
t
heirdoor,IlookedatAmberandshel
ookedatme
t
ooandshr ug
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngoni
nther
e?"
Amber:
"arey
ouforr
eal?Don'
tyouhav
ean
i
maginati
onImeanshe'
sscreami
ng'yes,
yes,
yes'
but
theny
ouask.Bi
tchhe'
sfucki
nghiswi
fe"
Me:
"i
t'
snotcool
"
Shebur
stoutl
aughi
ng
Amber
:"
Stef
fancomeher
epl
easef
ri
end"
Thosemoansandgr oanswer ej
ustget
tinghar
dto
i
gnoreIevengotthatti
nglyf
eeli
nginbetweenmy
l
egsbruhIcrossedthem butIwasgett
ingwetli
ke
he'
sfucki
ngme.
Thi
sSt
eff
anguycameandt
heyhi
ghf
ived
Amber:
"bael
istent
othenewgir
lont
hebl
ocksay
s
i
t'
swrongforthatt
ohappen"
Stef
fan:
"honeyyousti
l
lhav ealongwaytogoand
you'
llcr
ossyourlegst
il
ltheygetstucki
nonepl
ace"
Lordthoset wohadt obef uckingatt heofficel i
ke
theyareathomemaki ngnoi seIwaswetnotget ti
ng
Iwaswet ,buteveryoneher edi dn'tseem tomi ndI
hatethetopf l
oorthatI '
m sur eofwel labitchhadt o
l
istenincauseIcoul dn'texcusemy sel
fandt hey
fi
nall
ystoppedt hankGod itookadeepbr eath
andwentbackt omyf iles.Wel lIgotasl apt apon
myshoul derIturnedar oundandf oundRose.
Me:
"t
hankheav
ensf
ri
endf
inal
l
y"
Shechuckl
edandsatonmydesk
Rose:
"someonemi
ssedme"
Me:"
youhavenoideabae.
..Buti
fyouar
eher
e
whoseatthef
ront?
"
"
That
'swhatI
'
dli
keknow"
Weturnedaroundandfoundthebossonl
yinhi
s
t
rousers ‍♀ he'
sflamesbruhnol
ieno
wonderRosehasacrushonhi m.
Rose:
"Mr
..
.MrSokhul
u"
MrS:
"getbackt
owor
kRosewhi
chi
sdownatt
he
f
ront
"
Rose:
"Ihav
esomeonewat
chi
ngt
hef
ront
..
.."
MrS:
"okaythenpackyourst
uffandgoorgetback
t
oworky ourchoi
ce"
Rose:
"ofcour
sesi
r"
ShestoodupIwasl ostinhisabstheylookedso
fi
rm hewentt othebarf r
idgeandgotasodaGod
whycreat
esuchpeopl eintheworldtheyare
absol
uteangel
sli
keasi ghtforsoreeyespityhe's
marri
ed andhel ovesherwel l
evenifhedidn'theis
sti
l
lmarri
edGodgi vememyownguypl easejust
l
ikeMrSI '
dgotochur cheverySundayIpromise.
.
Penel
ope
Mycookiehur t
s i tburnsthissi
deIhavetogoto
Sakhi
le'
sschool andfindoutwhathappened
betweenhim andsomeot herkid ‍♀Ididn'
ttel
l
LwandlecauseSakhi l
egav ethem mynumber
meaninghedoesn' twanthisbr ot
hert
heremeaning
hedidsomethingwr ongandheknowsLwandl e
doesn'
tthi
nkwhenhe' sangry.Iwasdressi
ngup
whenhewalkedi
nniggai
sst
ingyheboughthi
msel
f
asodabutmenothi
ng.
Hi
m:'
andt
hen?Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:"
uhweareatwor
kincasey
ouf
orgotandI
wannagot
othemall
"
Him:"
themal
l
?Comeonbaby
,youcan'
tl
eav
eme
hangi
ng"
Me:
"we'
l
lfi
nisht
hisathomewecan'
tkeepon
maki
ngpeoplef
eeluncomf
ort
abl
e"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tcar
enowcomeher
e"
Hepul
ledmetowar
dshim andki
ssedmyneck
act
ual
l
ysuckedoni
tIhadtopushhim away
.
Me:"
I'
ll
belat
eandweary ourcl
othesst
opwal
ki
ng
outoftheof
fi
cehal
fnaked"
Hi
m:"
causeIwast
hinki
ngt
hatwe'
dgetbackt
oit
"
Me:
"t
oni
ghtmyt
reatIpr
omi
se,
nowdr
essup"
Hi
m:"
tur
nar
ound"
Me:
"nonowby
eby
eorel
seI
'
llbel
ate"
Ipeckedhi
sli
psandt
appedhi
scheek
Me:"
dressupmymanIhat
eitwhenpeopl
est
areat
what'
smine"
Hi
m:"
thenshowi
tthati
t'
syour
s"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"Isai
dwai
tIhav
eanappoi
ntmentatt
hesal
on
myl
ov e"
Him:'
ouchI
'm hurtI
'
m get
ti
ngdr
oppedf
oran
appoi
ntmentatthesal
on"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
mynail
slookl
i
keamesssopl
ease.
..I
'
llseeyou
whenIcomebackwantmet
obuyyouanyt
hing?"
Hi
m:"
foodj
ustf
oodandy
ourass"
Ishookmyheadbusychuckl
i
ngthisguyi
scr
azyhe
evenfol
l
owedmeoutstil
lhal
fnaked.
Me:
"Lwandl
egobackpl
ease"
Hi
m:"
comebackwi
thme"
Hewr
appedhi
sar
msar
oundmywai
stki
ssi
ngmy
neckpeopl
ear
est
ari
ngandhedoest
hat
.
Me:
"nonowgoshuu"
Hewasbusyni
bbl
i
ngonmyearandheknowswhat
t
hatdoest
ome.
Me:"
Lwandl
egobackanddr
essuppl
ease.
..
.Gogo
now"
Hechuckl
edandj
ustspankedmyass.
Hi
m:'
hur
ryback"
Me:
"goy
ouar
escar
ingpeopl
e"
Iwantedtogossi pwithAmberbutwi thLwandl e
therehe'
llj
ustpullmebackt otheoffice I '
mt hat
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ft
openedsoIhadnochancet obegossi pi
ngsoIj ust
gotinandof fIwenttosav emylit
tl
ebr otheri
nl awI
passedRosewhoj ustsmiledatme Iknowshe' s
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she'shatedmeev ersinceLwandl e
i
ntroducedmeashi swifeshebeganspr eading
rumorsaboutmeandLwandl egaveherawar ni
ng
sonowshej ustpret
endsshei st
her easonLwandl e
doesn'twantmet ohav efr
iendsatthecompany
causeI '
mt ooweakt ohandl ethest r essbutIdon' t
l
istenatal lIhav et wof ri
endsandt hati sAmberand
Steffanmyt wogossi pbuddi eshehat esi tbutt hey
areintentt opr ov ehim wr ongandshowhi mt hat
theygotmybackandLor dknowst heydoshame
everythi
ngt hatt heysayaboutmet heyt ell me i
gotapr ot ecti
v ehusbandandt wocr azyf riendsso
I'
m sor t
edatt heof ficeIgoti ntomyAMGwhi ch
Lwandl edoesn' twannagi veitback boughtme
Cooperwhi chi ssonotf ormeIwantmycarback
thissidet heonehewasusi ngisst il
l waiti
ngf ort he
ri
ghtpar tst obeshi ppedi nmeani ngi t
'll
bet heref or
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s
sideIwasget ti
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ngsome
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tothatst upidmeet ingandt hewor sthappenedt hey
wer ebothsuspended ‍♀Sakhi legotaweek
andt heot herboygott hreeweeksbutSakhi l
ewas
scaredt ogohomet ohiscr azybrot herbuthegot ta
sohepackedhi sbagandcamet ome.
Hi
m:"
butSesi
doIhavet
ogo?Whati
fyougoand
dr
opmeoffatmyuncl
e'
shouse?
"
Me:"
andLwandlewi l
ldef
iant
lyki
ll
thethreeofusso
l
et'
sgoI '
ll
expl
ainthi
stohim atworkandmakehim
seereasonbutyouaredefi
antl
ygoinghome"
Hi
m:"
thenl
et'
sgoandexpl
aini
ttohi
mtoget
her
"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"br
aveboyv
ibes?Il
i
ket
hatbutf
ir
stf
ood"
Hi
m:"
youeatal
ott
heseday
s"

Me:
"doy
ouwannawal
k?"
Hi
m:"
uhno"
Me:
"thenshutupaboutmyeati
ngschedul
eory
ou'
l
l
wal
kt otheof
fi
ceunderst
and"
Hechuckledandjustthrewhi sbagi nthecargot
i
ntothepassengersideandof fwewentt otown
boughtourlunchandhadi ttherecauseweknow
we'l
lnoteatwithLwandle'squestionsflyi
ngatus
andweal soboughthiml unch.Wedr ovetothe
off
icewellwewer estr
essingt ogethersowhenwe
gotther
ewehadal i
ttl
epr ayeraskingGodt oprot
ect
uswhenwegotther
ewefoundhi
m busywi
thsome
fi
l
esIguessmyheel
sgothi
satt
enti
on.
Lwandl
e:"
andt
hen?Whati
shedoi
ngher
e?"
Sakhi
l
e:"
heybi
gbr
o"
Lwandl
e:heySokhul
u..
.Whyar
eyoucl
i
ngi
ngonmy
wif
eli
kethat?"
Sakhi
l
e:"
she'
smynewmom Igot
tabebr
east
fed"
Lwandle:
"I
'm notl
aughi
ngonamor eser
iousnot
e
what'
sgoingon?Whyar eyouher
e?"
Wecl
ear
edourt
hroat
sandsatdownt
oget
her
.
Me:
"her
eisy
ourl
unchSokhul
u"
Lwandl
e:"
what
'sgoi
ngont
ell
mebef
orey
oubor
e
me"
♀
Me:
"wel
lthi
ngi
sILi
edwhenIsai
dIwasgoi
ngt
o
t
own"
Lwandl
e:"
Ifi
gur
edt
hatoneout
,whatIwantt
oknow
i
swhy ?
"
Me:
"wel
lhegotsuspended"
Sakhi
l
e:"
Lol
o!"
Me:"
what
?Yougotsuspendedandt hat
'st
hetrut
h..
Seehewasi
nvol
vedinafightwit
honeofhi s
cl
assmat
eandyourbrot
herkindatookitt
othenext
l
evel
"
Lwandle:
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?Sonowy
ouar
eamanf
ight
ing
wit
h..
.."
Me:
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ethi
sisnott
heplace.
..Nanago
t
akeataxi
homewe'll
tal
kaboutt
hiswhenweget
t
her
e"
Lwandl
e:"
whi
chhome?He'
l
lhav
etof
ind.
..
"
Me:
"gohomeSakhi
l
eI'
m sur
eLesegomi
ssedy
ou.
..
."
Igav
ehi
m ahundr
edRandandwal
kedhi
m out
l
ocki
ngt
hedoorbehi
ndhi
m.
Iwentt
otakehi
sbrotherbythehandandpul
l
edhi
m
tot
hecouchIsatnexttohi
m.
Me:"
rel
axSokhulut
hishappensandany
wayhe'
l
lbe
backatschool
duri
ngtheweekImadesureoft
hat
"
Hi
m:"
heshoul
dn'
tbeouti
nthef
ir
stpl
ace"
Me:"
hebr
oket
hepoorki
d'
snosebabakhe.
..Lookat
hi
m hel
ooksf
inewhi
l
ehehassti
tches"
Him:"
Idon'
tev
enwanthi
mtof
ightmamakhehe
shoul
dn'
tbeli
keme"
Me:"we'
llmakesur eheisn'
tli
keyouandt hisi
sthe
fi
rstst
ephi m bei
ngpunishedandI '
m sureyoualso
canpunishhim bygroundinghim andtakingaway
hi
sgadget s"
Him:"
that
'sforwhi
tepeopl
eandblacksnobsweai
n'
t
nei
therbutIcandoitt
heoldway
"
Me:
"no!We'
l
ltal
kwi
thhi
m wheny
ouar
ecal
m"
Hi
shandswer eshakingandhewasbusytr
ynacover
upbyrubbi
ngthem together ‍♀Ihel dt
hem and
j
ustki
ssedthem
Me:
"andIknowt
hebestwayofdoi
ngt
hat
"
Hi
m:"
real
l
y?"Hesmi
rked
Me:
"yes.
..
.Thegy
m"
f
inal
l
yher
eveal
edhi
sbeaut
if
ulwhi
tet
eet
h
Me:
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aybackmyl
ove"
Hi
m:"
why
?"
Me:
"j
ustdoi
t"
HelaidbackandIt ookoffmyheel
sIgotontopof
him unhookinghi
sbeltandmybabewassoexci ted
youcoul dseeitf
rom hi
ssmil
eItookoffhi
sjacket,
unbuttoninghi
sshirt
.
Hi
m:"
Ili
ket
hist
ypeofr
elaxi
ngt
her
apy
"
Me:
"begent
let
hist
imear
oundokay
"
Hi
m:"
Ipr
omi
seI
'
llbeasgent
leassnow"
‍♀Godt hisguydoesn' tknowthewor d
gentlef
orrealbutany wayImademybabyhappyby
giv
inghim hisdessertbeforethemeal well
hewas
'
gentle'
inhisownwayt onightI'
m def
iant
lysleepi
ng
earl
yevenifIhavetopr etendtobesleeping
sexain'
tforthewholedayi ntheSokhuluhousehold
orelseyou'
llbeacrippleandwecan' thavethatnot
nowev en.
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11/
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thepersonmymoneyi sridi
ngonIwasuncuf fedI
satdownandIgotasmi l
e
Me:
"so?Ar
eyour
eady
?"
!
!?
:"y
esbosssoonhe'
l
lregr
etev
ermessi
ngwi
thy
ou"
Me:
"ar
eyousur
e?Iwanthi
mtocomeandbegme"
!
!?
:"Bel
i
evemehe'
l
lcomeandbegy ouhe'l
levenget
y
ououtImeanhelovesherpl
usshe'
spregnantso
i
t'
sabonus"
Me:"goodIwanty
out
oexecut
ethepl
ansoon
understand?
"
!
!?
:"t
oni
ghtwil
lbet
heday,
hehastobeatsome
di
nneri
nvi
tedbyoneofhi
scl
ient
s"
Ismi
rked
Me:"
good.
.Iwanthi
mt ofeelsor
ryIwanthi
mt of
eel
t
hepainIf
eltwhentheyki
ll
edmygi r
lf
ri
endri
ghti
n
f
rontofme"
!
!?
?:"
we'l
lmakehi
m paysi
rdon'
tworr
yjustr
elaxand
we'
ll
takecar
eofthi
ngsoutt
here"
Me:"
youbett
ercauseIt
rustyou,Iputall
myf ai
thi
n
youguyssogoandgetready.Iwantthatcousi
nof
minetogocrazywhenheloseshiswife"
WeshookhandsandIwentbackt omycellwi
tha
smil
eonmyf acehe'
sgoi
ngtopayf orwhatheput
methroughthatI'
l
lmakesureof fi
tnowmyplanis
ki
cki
ngof ft
onight j
ustcan'twait l
etthe
gamesbegindearcousi
nletthem gamesbegin.
.
Penel
ope
Haveyouev erbeenti
redofhavi
ngsex wel lIam
andthankGodwehadt ogohomeearlysothatboo
cangetreadyforhisf
uncti
onwhichheblat
antlysai
d
nototakingmewi t
hhim henev
ert
akesmet o
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yitsformyowngoodbutI
don'tev enwannaar guewi thhim heknowswhat '
s
bestf ormeespeci all
yinhi sdodgydeal ings I
walkedoutf irstandhef ol
lowedt hewaywewer e
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l
eav et heofficey ou'
llfi
ndhi m pr eoccupiedwi thhis
phonel i
kehowwecomei nt hemor ni
ngandI '
l
l be
rubbingmyt ummyj ustconnect ingwi t
hmyl i
ttl
eone
evenhummi ngf orhim/ hertheyneedt oknowmeso
thatwhenwef i
rstmeethe/ shewi l
lbehappyt obei n
myar ms, feel safeevencauseI 'm wi l
l
ingt odo
anythingt opr otectmychi ldev enf rom his/herfather
wegoti ntotheel evatorjustt ogetaki ssonmy
cheek
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"

Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo.
..
.."
twosecondsandaft
erthatwewentbackt o
whatwewer edoi
ngandthat'sf
ocusingon
oursel
ves ‍♀wemadel oveit
'senoughwehav
e
tosaveitf
oranot
herdaywhent heelevat
orcamet
o
astopIgotoutf
irstandhef ol
l
owedt histi
mewi t
h
hi
shandaroundmywai sttheot heroneholdi
nghis
bagandphone i ft
hisain'tsomepoet icJust
ice
shi
tthanIdon'
tknowwhati s.
Lwandl
e:"
Rosei
fanyonecall
sdon'
tputt
hem
thr
oughtoAmberunder
stand?I
fit
'si
mport
antt
hen
mypersonal
number"
Rose:
"yessi
randhav
easaf
etr
iphome"
Lwandl
e:"
sameandumhy
ou.
..What
'sy
ourname
agai
n?"
Zamo:
"Nomzamosi
r"
Lwandl
e:"
yesumhthatfil
eIwanti
ttomorr
ow
morni
ngwithacounteratt
ackonthepr
osecut
ion's
caseIwantyout
ofindallt
heevi
dencenul
landv oi
d"
Zamo;"
sirwithal
lduer
espectt
hatcasecan'
tbewon
bythedefenceImean.
..
.Evenyourwi
feseemsto
thi
nkso"
andyoujusthadt
oinvol
vemeinandargument
youwon'twinImeanIli
kebeingi
nvol
vedIknowI'
l
l
winnotsuch.
Lwandle:"
doy ouwantt osurvi
v einthi
swor l
d?Cause
i
fy ouwantt ohav ecli
entsyouhav etoshowt hatyou
cangivethem t hebestserv
ice,youcangi vethem
soluti
onsnotpr oblemsthenwi l
lyouhav emany
i
nfluenti
alpeopl efl
ocki
ngtowar dsyou.Remember
thatwheny ouf i
ndawayar oundt heseev i
denceand
getourclientequitabl
ethat
'sifyouwantt owor kf
or
myl awfir
my ouhav etobeabl etogot heextramile
withoutcompl aini
ng"
Zamo:"I
'
m notusedto'
fi
ndi
ng'
awayaroundhard
evi
denceandt hat
'
swhyIwashopi
ngI'
dgeta
mentorjustt
ogetmeint
othefor
m oft
hings"

Lwandl
e:"
thengetonethet
opfloori
sfil
ledwi
th
l
awyersandatt
orneyssoyou'
l
lbef i
ne"
Shelookedatme don' teventhi
nkofaskingmy
husbandtobeyourmentorcausehe'
l
ljusti
gnore
yourassandsti
l
lsaytheexactsamethingIsai
dI
hateshari
ngandyou'
vealr
eadyusedupmostofhi s
ti
me.
Me;
"canwegonow?I
'
m st
arv
ing.
.by
egi
rl
s"
Ismil
edandpul ledmyhusbandoutoft hereI
wantedtogohomeandt akeanicerelaxi
ngbubbl e
bat
h,havemyf oodandt hengetintobedIdon' tcare
i
fit
'sstil
lear
lythisiswhatIwanttodoj usttor est
nodistur
bancesnotev enfrom Lesegoheshoul d
j
ustsleepandletmesl eeptoohislit
tl
ebr otheror
si
sterneedsther est ‍♀
Hi
m:"
wantany
thi
ngatt
hemal
l
?"
Me:
"uhuhwear
efi
nef
ornowmay
bel
ater
"
Hi
m:"Iwon'
tbehomel
atersowho'
l
lcomeher
e
l
ater
?"
Me:"
Iwi
l
lorI
'
llcal
lyouandy
ou'
l
lcomebackwi
tht
he
st
uff
"
Him:"
sori
ghtnowyouar
enotcr
avi
ngf
orany
thi
ng
notevenhotwi
ngs?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"I
'mt
ir
edt
hat
'sal
lIj
ustwantt
osl
eep"
Hi
m:"
okaybutwheny
oudogett
hosecr
avi
ngscal
l
meokay?
"
Me:
"ofcour
sey
ougotmepr
egnantsoI
'
llcal
lyou"
Hegav
emeanev
ilst
are
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"
justl
ooki
ngattheevi
lwomanbesi
desmewho
l
etmeforgett
hatI
'
mt heonewhogotherpr
egnant"
Me:
"whydoyouwannaforget
?Unti
lIgi
vebi
rt
hyou'
l
l
f
eedmycrav
ingsandthat
'
sf i
nal
"
Him:"
Idon'tmindIknowy
ouf
eedmi
net
oo.
..
.somy
beaut
iful
wi f
e"

Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantSokhul
u"
Hi
m:"cany
ouhel
pmepi
ckanout
fi
tfort
hedi
nner
?
Pl
ease"
Me:
"asui
tandt
iewi
l
ldo"
Hi
m:"
Iknowj
usty
ouhav
etopi
cki
tforme"

Me:
"f
ineI
'
llpi
cki
tfory
ou"
Iknowwhi
choneI
'
llpi
ckf
orhi
m Imeanhi
sgr
eysui
t
hasn'tbeenwor ninweekssoi fIpickthatonewitha
blackshirtandadarkbluetieandhi sgoldcuffl
i
nks
thenhe'ssetandwhenwegothomet hat'sthef
irst
thingIdidpickhisclot
hesthenIwentt ot akea
showerani celongoneev enallIwannadoi ssl
eep
whenIgotoutLwandl ewaswi thLesegoi nthe
bedroom andi tseemsliket
heyj ustwalkedin.
Me:
"ai
n'
thesl
eepi
ngear
lyt
oday
?"
Lwandl
e:"
wel
lhemi
ssedhi
smommy
"
Me:
"wel
ll
etmedr
essup,
whatt
imear
eyoul
eav
ing?
"
Lwandle:
"wel
laft
ermyshowerIhav
etogopastt
he
off
icesoI'
lll
eav
ef r
om t
her
e"
Inodandj ustappliedmybodyl ot i
onIwor emyPJs
andwentt otakeLesegof r
om hisf athernowIhav e
toputthelit
tl
emant osleepbef oreImy selfgot o
sleephewassoexci ted heact uall
ydidmi ssme
ormay bethekissesIgi v
ehi m may behemi ssed
thoseormay bet hefactthatIsingt ohim beforehe
sleepsyou'l
lneverknowwi t
hthisjuniorbutany wayI
j
ustgotwi thhim ont hebedwhi lehisfatherwentt o
showerIsowi sht heoneI '
m pregnantwi thisagirlI
meanboy salr
eadyhav eanadv antagesoifit
'sagi
rl
we'l
lbesquar edout.Myhandsomehubbycameout
dri
ppingwetwi thwater iftheysaidmyhubby
ai
n'tf
inet hentheyarecrazythisniggahell
afinej
ust
sayi
ngt hatI'
dev eneatofhisbodyi fneedbe .
Me:
"youar
eget
ti
ngapotbel
l
ybabakhe"
Hi
m:"
what
?"
Her
ubbedhi
stummy j
ustmar
vel
ous
Hi
m:"
theyai
n'tfi
rmli
kebef
orebutImeanIst
il
lgot
t
hem,
soI'm notget
ti
ngapotbel
ly"
Me:"
yesyouar
esoonthesesuit
swon'tf
ity
ou,
go
backtot
hegym andl
osethatpotbel
l
y"
Him:"
fort
heloveofGodwomanIdon'
thaveapot
bel
lyandI'
ll
onl
ygot ogy
mifwegotogetherImean
youalsohavet
odosomesquatstokeepthatass
fi
rm"
Me:
"t
hat
'sal
lyoucar
eaboutt
heass"
Hi
m: "
amongstot
hert
hingsy
ourasscat
chesmy
at
tenti
on"
Inod
Me:
"TheassIsee.Dr
essupory
ou'
l
lbel
ate"
Hi
m:"
soy
ou'
l
lbef
ine?Youwon'
tmi
ssmet
oomuch"
Me:
"Iwon'
tev
enmi
ssy
ou,
dressupI
'
llback"
IwantedtogoandputLesegot obedhehadsl epti
n
myar mseasyast hatIputhiminhiscotandki ssed
myPumpki n'sforeheadi fhet
houghthe'l
lsleepin
myar msallnightthenhe' swr
ongImeanhe' s
gett
ingbiggerandheav iersohiscoti
tisany wayI
wentbackt omyr oom andhi sfat
hersti
llhada
towelwrappedar oundhi m It houghthedi dn'
t
wanttobel at
e
Me:
"andt
hen?Wast
hedi
nnercancel
ed?
"
Hi
m:"
uhnoj
ustwai
ti
ngf
ory
ou"
Me:
"t
odowhat
?Ipi
ckedanout
fi
tfory
oudi
dn'
tI?"
Henod
Hi
m:"j
ustdr
essupbet
terwheny
ouar
ewat
chi
ngor
i
ntheroom"
Me:
" y
ouwannai
mpr
essme?
"
Hechuckl
edandnod
Me:"wel
levennakedyoui
mpr
essmedon'
tst
ress
yourhandsomeself
"
Ikissedhi
scheekbuthepull
edmei nf
orali
ngeri
ng
kiss ‍♀ ♀Lordl
etitbenott
hathe'
shorny
ri
ghtcausehe'
sbusyrubbi
ngmywai st Godt his
mar ri
edl
if
ewil
lsurel
yendinmebeingdeadfrom
toomuchsex.Ipull
edawayfrom t
hekiss
Me:
"enoughgoandgetr
eadypl
ease"
Hi
m:"
Igotaboner
"
Me:
"Sokhul
uyou'
l
lbel
ateandy
ouknowt
hat
"
Idet
achedmy
sel
fjustt
ogetat
tachedagai
n
Hi
m:"
youknowt
hist
hinghur
ts"

Me:"
it
'l
lgodownSokhul
ubuty
oui
fwegot
her
eyou'
l
l
wantmore"
Hi
m:"
babecompr
omi
sepl
ease"
Me:
"oneti
meandonet
imeonl
yunder
standI
'
llnev
er
dot
hisagai
n"
Henod
Ipeckedhisli
psandjustgotonmykneesandj ust
gavehim headIhadhim pull
i
ngonmyhai rshithurt
buthewasheav yfunhisgroani
ngsaiditallandhe
bustanut Ihadt oswallow don' ttr
ythisat
home.
Hi
m:"
scr
ewbei
ngl
atecomeher
e"
Hepi
ckedmeupandj
ustt
urnedmear
ound
Hi
m:"
becar
eful
"
Inod andj ustbentoverhol
dingonthebedwher e
didmyunder weargoIdon'tknowbutsoonhewas
i
nmej ustgoingcir
clesi
nmet hrust
inginandoutmy
l
egsmaybeshaki ngbutIknowIwon' tfall
hubby
washol di
ngont omywai stsupport
ingmeIcame
fi
rstandhef oll
owedsoonaf t
erhejustpickedmeup
andplacedmeont hebedbaeev enusedt hewet
wipestomeandhi mselfwhosaidhe'l
lshoweragai
n
Hi
m:'
nowI
'
mreadyf
ort
hoseol
dmen"
'
Me:
"youcan'
tgot
her
enakednowdr
essup"
Hest uckhistongueoutatmeandjustwor
ehis
clot
hesIev enhelpedhi
m butwi
thhisti
eonl
yand
forthatIgotakissgoodbye
Hi
m:"
seey
ouwhenIgetbackokay
?Andyou'
l
lhav
e
t
oborr
owmeyourphoneminei
sdead"

Me:
"umhokaysur
ehav
efun"
HekissedmycheekandwalkedoutIchargedhi
s
phonethensleepti
meIwasti
redi
nev er
ywaysoI
needtherestIcanget
.
[
1hourl
ater
]
Iwokeupcr av
ingsomegr il
ledchickenandr i
bsand
theonlypl
aceforthatisSpurorSt eer
ssoIwokeup
andjustwenttotakeaquickshowerj usttofreshen
upIwor emygreyJoggerandLwandl e'
sJerseyhe'l
l
shoutbutI'
dhavewor nit Iwor emysneaker sand
beanieandIwasdoneLwandl e'
sphonebor esmei t
hastoomanyencr ypt
ionsespeciallywhenyouhav e
t
orest
arti
tsoIl
efti
tandj
ustt
ookmycarkey
s
Me:"
maI'm goi
ngoutcany
oul
ookaf
terLesego
pl
easeanddon'tcook"
Iwal
kedoutandgoti ntot heCooper anddr ov
eto
themall
Ididn'
tfi
ndpar kingspaceatthebot
tom soI
wentt
ot hetopIwasl ockingthecarwhen
somethi
ngwaspl acedonmyback
"
Mam docomewi
thus"
i
havecr
avi
ngsandyouwantt
odothatnowli
ke
r
eall
ywhydon'
tyouj
ustl
etmegoandeatfi
rst
.
Me:"
couldyoust
oppokingmeplease?Take
whatev
eryouwantbutstoppoki
ngmei t
sir
ri
tat
ing"
"
Missdon'
tmesswi
thme"
Me:"
li
stenyouar
ehur
ti
ngmeandmychi
l
dint
urnso
st
oppokingme"
Heroughl
ypull
edmef uckIcl
awedathishands
busyki
cki
ngandscr eamingunti
lheknockedmeout
ontheheadl
ightsoutIdidn'
tevenseehisface.
WhenIwokeupIhadahugeheadache
Me:
"f
uck,
fuck,
fuck.
"
Iopenedmyey esthisshithurtandher eIwasl ayi
ng
onthef l
oorar mst i
edbehi ndmybackl i
kereall
y,I
j
ustgotupandsatupst r
aightIdi dthatonet ri
ckI
l
earnedatt hegym Igotmyar mst ot hef r
ontmov ing
them undermyl egsitki
ndahur tcauseIwas
pregnantbutIhadt oandIunt iedmyhandsusi ng
myt eethI'
m notsomeani malthathast obetiedup.
Iuntiedmyf eettooandIst oodupbei ngdizzyas
hellbutIusedthewal lt
ost eadymy sel f
.
Me:"
babyy
oujusthav
etobest
rongformommyy
ou
hear
?Youhav
et obestr
ongmylov
e"
Ir
ubbedmyt
ummy
Me:"
we'l
lgetoutofheresoon..
..
Ithi
nkImeandaddy
wil
lnot
icethatwearenothomer ight
?Andhe'
l
l
comelooki
ngf orushejusthastonoti
cet
hatweare
nothomeandcomeandt akeus"
Itookadeepbr eat
hImeanfr
eaki
ngisjustawasteI
won'tbehereformoret
hanadayIknowhe' l
lcome
andgetushehast oorIdon'
thowlongwe'll
surv
ive
i
fIstartpani
ckingImi
ghthaveapanicat
tackwhich
i
nbot hmysituati
onsisnotagoodthi
ngst ohappen
soSokhuluhast ousehi
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l
l
oseusbot h.Isatdownandjustst
art
edsi ngi
ng
PrayformebyAnt honyHamilt
onbusyr ubbi
ngmy
tummyt r
ynacomf ortmybabyandmy selfcauseto
behonestIwasscar ed hehast ohurryandgetus
pleaseGodIprayhehurri
estous.
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11/
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s
ImeanI 'm al
awy erbutmyl i
fedoesn'
tendthereIdo
havesomebusi nessesonthesidesoIneedaf ew
businesspartnersonthesidetheywereaboutto
severeusdesser tbutIhadtoexcusemy sel
f.
Me:"
thankyouMrsMasukubutIneedt
ogethome
now..
.Itwasagr
eatni
ghtgent
lemanbutIhav
eto
go"
MrMasuku:
"comeonSokhul
u"
Me:"wellyouknowhowpregnantwomancangetI'
m
sureshe'sdonecryi
ngf
orme,plusiworr
ywhenI
don'tt
alktoherfort
ool
ongandbelievemeithas
beenlong"
MrMhl
ongo:
"boyseatdownandenj
oyt
hisni
ght
"

Me:"l
i
stenhereMhlongcallmeboyagai nyou'
l
l meet
yourancest
orssecondlynobodytel
l
smewhatt odo
sorelaxandenj
oyy ourni
ght.Goodnightgent
leman"
MrMasuku: "
calm downSokhulu,
Mhlongdon'
tget
myguestangr y
.Wai tSokhul
uIhavesomet
hingfor
yourwifeIhopetomeetheronedayandseei fshe
i
sr eal
l
yasy ousayshei s"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
you'
vemetheral
readyatt
heof
fi
cey
ouj
ust
don'
tnot
ice"
MrShongwe:"Ihaveandshe'
sasightf
orsor
eeyes
youmarr
iedwel l
,ashortl
i
ghtski
nnedgir
lbi
ginal
l
t
heri
ghtplaces"
Me:
"Shongwedon' tyoueverdescr
ibemywi
fel
i
ke
t
hat
,let
'srespecteachother"
It
ookmyjacketandjustsai
dgoodby
etoMasuku'
s
wi
feandherhusbandwalkedmeout.
Me:
"t
hanky
ouf
ort
oni
ght
..
."
Masuku:
"Yeahweshoul
ddot
hisagai
nbutt
hist
ime
wi
thourspouses"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
aft
ermywif
egi
vesbir
thr
ightnowshe'
sapi
cky
eat
er,
butt
hanky
oufort
heoff
er"
Masuku:
"ofcour
seandt
hisi
sfory
ourl
ovel
ywi
fe
gr
eetherforme"
Inodandt ookthetinygif
tbagandwal kedoutImiss
mywi f
eandtheyarebusyi nvi
ti
ngmef ordi
nnerI'
m
sureshe'sevengaveuponmesowhenIgethome
I'
llhavetobegforforgi
venessletal
onecuddle
shet amesmebutt hensay snowhenIneedmor e
tamingshesay snot hebeasti
nmeneedst obe
closetoher,
holdi
nghercloset omejustkeepi
ngher
safeallt
histi
meImeanIcan' twai ttoseeourt iny
creat
ion I '
m surehe'llbelikemommyI '
dreall
y
l
ov eit
.WhenIst art
eddr i
vingIdeci dedt ocallheron
myphonet hought hecalldidn'tgot hroughIcalled
againbutsti
ll don' ttel
lmeshewasl azytoswi t
ch
i
tonandgot hroughaf ewquest i
onsandpi nsthis
womant houghany wayIdr ov ehomeandwhenI
openedthegaragehercarwasn' tthere soshe
i
sn'thome?Ordi dSakhi l
ebor rowhercarwhat '
s
goingonhereIpar kedandj ustlockedt hegar age
doorgoinginsi
det obemetbyLesego' sscreamsI
foundSakhil
ebusyt ryi
ngt ocal m him downsoIt ook
mysonandhushedhi m.
Me:
"wher
eishi
smot
her
?"
Heshr
ug
Me:"whatdoyoumeany
oudon'
tknow?Di
dyou
checktherooms?
"
Him:"
AIdon'tgoint
oyourroom,
butIknockeda
coupl
eoft i
mesther
ewasnoanswer .Bthatol
dlady
wenttocheckandshesaidshef
oundt hebedmade
butnoLolo"
Shebett
ernothav
eranawayagai
n Igav
eLesego
toSakhi
l
e
Me:"
goandputhi
mtosl
eep.Lol
odon'
tdot
hist
ome
notagai
n"
Hi
m:"
whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"
Me:
"Isai
dgoandputhi
mtosl
eep.
..
."
Iranupst airsandjustunlockedmyphoneIt ookmy
l
apt opandj ustconnectedittomyphoneifshel ef
t
withthecart henI'
llf
indherIhaveatrackeronher
carwhichi sconnectedt omyphonesoIunl ocked
theappt henev ery
thingshowedliket
heent i
reroute
butitendedatt hemal lsoshewenttothemal l
withoutl
ettingmeknow, Itookmycarkey sand
cell
phone.
Me:
"Sakhi
l
ewat
chLesegoI
'
m goi
ngt
ofet
chLol
o"
Sakhi
l
e:"
broy
ourchi
l
disr
est
lessIcan'
tputhi
mto
sl
eep"
Me:
"usehismother'
sphoneneht
her
eisafol
der
wi
thvideosofhersi
ngi
ngtohimj
ustpl
ayoneof
t
hem andhe'l
lsl
eep"
Hi
m:'
oohIseepasswor
d?"
Me:"hernamebr
uhj
ustkeepaney
eonhi
mI'
l
lbe
back"
Henodandwentbackt ohi sTVwat chingIrushedto
mycarfirstthi
ngsf i
rstIcall
edupSi sandahehast o
hackint
ot hemal l
'
ssecur it
yfootagethenI'l
lsee
whichstoreshe'sinIcan'tjustgoaroundev eryst
ore
l
ikeamadmanwel lhepi ckedup
Hi
m:"
brot
her
"
Me:
"br
otherIneedy
ourhel
pandi
t'
shuge"
Hi
m:"
wit
hwhat
?"
Me:"
Ineedy out
ohacki
ntot
hemal
l
'ssecur
it
y
sy
stem Ineedtofi
ndmywif
e"
Hi
m:"
sher
anawayagai
n?"
Me:
"don'
tknowbutshedi
dn'
ttakeherphone
t
echni
cal
lymyphone"
Hi
m:"
thenI
'
llgett
oit
,whi
chcardi
dsheuse?
"
Me:
"t
heCooperi
t'
sbl
ack"
Hi
m:'
I
'l
lgetcr
acki
ng"
HehungupandIfoll
owedt hecoordinat
eswhenI
gott
hereIhadt
ofoll
owt hetrai
ltothetopandther
e
i
twastheCooperparkedalone Igotacal lf
rom
Si
sandawhil
eIwasintrospecti
ngthecar.
Me:
"t
alkt
ome"
Him:"
yougot
taseet
his,
comet
omyhouset
hisy
ou
gott
asee"
Me:
"what
'sup?
"
Hi
m:"
hur
ryupni
ggat
hisi
sser
ious"
Me:
"okayI
'
mther
eIf
oundhercart
hough.
..
"
Hi
m:"
that
'sal
lyou'
l
lfi
ndsohur
ryup"
HehungupandIwenttomycarandhur ri
edto
Si
sanda'
shousehehastotell
mewhat '
sgoingon
butal
ongthewayIgotacall
from thepri
sonCului
s
i
nImeanwhatdidthatmotherfuckerdonow.
Me:
"hel
l
o?"
[
Arr
ogantl
augh]
Me:
"andt
hen?
"
Hi
m:"
howi
syourbeaut
if
ulwi
fe?Shemi
ssedy
ouI
'
m
sur
e?"
Me:
"Cul
udon'
tmesswi
thmegett
othepoi
nt"
Him:"ohjustthinkaboutwhaty ourguysdi
dto
Onthathil
e,beinggangr appedthat'
sexact
lywhat
's
goingtohappent oyourwife.I
'
llmakeherpayfor
yoursins"
Me:"
yousonofabit
ch.
..
.Ni
ggarel
easemywi
fei
f
youknowwhat'
sgoodfory
ou"
Hi
m:'what
?You'
l
ltakemymot
her
?Wel
ltr
yagai
n
ni
gga"
Me:" Cul
uwher
eismywi
fe?Wher
ethef
ucki
smy
wi
fe"
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lfi
ndoutsoonenough"
Aft
erthathehungupIparkedout
sideSi
sanda'
s
houseniggawil
lregr
etmessi
ngwithme
Me:
"Cul
utookmywi
fe.
..
.Si
sandat
hisni
ggat
ookmy
f
ucki
ngwife"
Iwal
kedint
othel
oungeandf
oundhi
mfocusedon
hi
slapt
op
Me:
"di
dyouhearwhatIj
ustsai
d?"
Henodandpoi
ntedathi
sscr
een
Hi
m:"
thi
sisl
i
vet
oany
onewhowant
stoseei
t"
Me:
"what
'st
hat
?Mov
e"
IsatdownandIsawmybabybei
ngst
rongf
orour
baby
Me:"Iwantyoutogoandgetall
ofCulu'
sfamil
y
underst
and?From hi
sgrandmothert
ohisancest
ors
butIwantthem her
e"
Hi
m:"
I'
m oni
tbr
other
"
Me:"
SisandaIwantthem herenomat terwhatIdon'
t
car
ewher etheyar
ejustfi
ndt hem andbri
ngthem to
meinonepi eceI
'l
ldealwit
hthem"
Him:"
ain'
ttheyy
ourf
ami
l
y?Imeanwhatwi
l
lthey
say?
"
Me:"
Niggat hatwomanyouseeher
eismyf
amil
y
andhim doingthi
stoheri
smessedupsof
indt
hem
andIdon'tcarehow,
fi
ndthem"
Hi
m:"
ify
ousayso"
Inodandj usttriedt oblockthesignal
Ifinal
lydid
andIcall
edupsomeofmyguy sthosewhoar eloyal
tomeIknowSi sandai salsocall
inghi
ssomi ne
havetobet hereI 'l
lgoanddeal withCuluinthe
morni
ngt hesear chbeganal lni
ghtoutbutnot hi
ng
wasfound shi tisget ti
ngonmyner vesandher e
wasRosecal lingmel i
ket heoff
iceisonf i
reI
answeredirri
tatedashel l
.
Me:
"whatnow?
"
Her:
"si
ryouneedt
ocomet
heof
fi
cey
ouneedt
osee
t
his"
Me:
"what
?"
Her
:"Si
rpl
easei
tshar
dtoexpl
ainbuty
ouneedt
obe
her
e"
Me:
"f
ineI
'
m onmyway
"
Ihungup
Me:"Si
sandaI'
l
lbebackgot
tar
ushtotheoff
ice
apparent
lyt
herei
ssomethi
ngIgot
tasee"
Si
sanda:
"don'
tyouwannashowerf
ir
st?Imean.
..
."
Me:
"ni
ggaIj
ustneedmywi
feashowercanwai
t"
Sisanda:
"bruhwe'
l
lfi
ndhercomeonj
ustf
reshenup
youcanev enusemythi
ngs"
Me:
"ni
ggaj
ustf
indmywi
fe"
Itookmycarkey sandwal kedoutbusyt y i
ngmy
dreadl
ocksdon' tcar ei ftheyar ecl eanl yti
edornotI
j
ustwantmyLol ofinish Idr ovet ot heof ficelisten
ri
ghtnowai n'
tnobi tchwhoi nterest smej ustwant
tohavemybabybymysi deandt hat'sallthemot her
ofmyki dstobecr yi
ngf ormet ocutmydr eadlocks
whichsoonshe' llbepl ay ingwi th maki ngsur ethat
theyarewellmoi stur i
zedbutheyi twasn' therdoi ng
allt
hatitwasj ustthebabywhol ov edmydr eadlocks.
FuckI'
m goingt okill Culuwi t
hmybar ehandshe
canbesur eoft hatI'llkil
l him.Ipar kedatt heof fi
ce
andjusthurri
edi nandbel ievemeIhear dav oice I
heardmywi fe'svoiceasIwal kedi nt hebot t
om f loor
andhereisev eryonej ustst arr
ingatt hewal l
.
Me:
"Rosewhat
'
sgoi
ngon?
"
Rose:
"Si
rwefoundthesetel
evi
sioni
nst
all
edwhen
wegothereandthatbeganpl
ayi
ng"
Mybabywassingi
ngli
kelastni
ghtandhervoi
ce
wasbecomi
nghoarse shecoul dn'thav
ebeen
si
ngi
ngthewholeni
ghtnowcouldshe
Me:
"ar
etheset
hingsonl
yher
eoral
soatt
het
op?
"
Rose:
".
..
..
..
"
Me:
"Rose!
!"
Rose:
"huh?I
'
m sor
rysi
rjust
..
.."
Me:
"Isai
dar
etheset
hingsal
soatt
het
op?
"
Rose:"
theyareever
ywher
esi
rev
ery
onei
nthe
off
ice,
iswatchi
ng"
Me:
"f
uck!
!!
"
Irushedt owardstheelevatorandjustwentupt o
fi
ndt heentireoffi
cespacet ur
nedi ntoacinema
okayi fthat
'showhewant stoplayi tt
hensobeitI'
l
l
teachhi m alessonhe'
llneverforgetifhethi
nks
whathappenedt oOnthathil
ewast hebestIcoul
ddo
thehe' smistakenonsomanyl evels.
.
Penel
ope
I'
m sohungr yandImeanr ealf
oodnott hisdrystal
e
thingst heygavemet hismor ningImeanI 'm
pregnantIshoul dbeeat inghealt
hynott hi
s I
mi sst hebreakfastLwandl eusedt omakef orme
whenIwassi ckorjustf eeli
ngabitti
redal lt
hose
fruit
sandy oghurtwit
hsomewhi ppedcr eam ifhe'
s
i
nagoodandki ndmood Godwheni shecomi ng
togetmeI 'mt i
redoft hisplacethi
ssidemyt hroat
hur t
scauseofal lt
hesi ngingIwasdoi nglastnight
butsi ngingkeepsmesanei nthissit
uationsoIwas
stil
ldoi ngit
.
Me: "I
tallcomesdownt othisImi ssy ourmorning
kiss,Iwon'tl
ie,
I'
mf eel
ingityoudon' tknowwhenI '
m
mi ssingit
.I'
m sodumpImustadmi t,
it'
stoomucht o
holdi ti
nIcan'tsaynomor et hanthisIjusthope
yourhear thearmenow.Il ety ouknowhowI '
m
feeli
ng, y
ouownmyhear thej ustr
ent i
ngdon'ttur
n
awaypayat tent
ion.I'
m pouringoutmyhear toh
boy .
...
"
"
Wil
lyoust
opsi
ngi
ng?St
opsi
ngi
ng"
Me:"l
i
stenherey oufl
imsysonofabi tchyou
ki
dnappedmeunder st
andnottheot herwayround
soshutuporl etmegohome. ..
.(
singing)I
,I
'm not
l
ivi
nglif
e,I'
m notli
vi
ngr i
ghtI
'
m notl i
vingi
fyournot
bymysi deooohohhh. .
."
"
Bit
chi
fIcomet
her
eyou'
l
lbesor
ry"
Me:
"shutup"
Icont
inuedsi
nginghecan'
ttakethatawayf r
om me
thi
sistheonl
ythingt
hat'
skeepingmeal i
vemybaby
ali
vemysingi
ngkeepsmesanesoIwon' tlethim
taket
hatawayfrom me,
butIguesshewasi r
rit
ated
causehecamein wear i
ngabalaclava
Hi
m:"
Isai
dshutupdi
dn'
t?Shutup"
Me:"
no Iwon' tshutup.
..
.I'
m hungr
yandI
'
mti
red
soIwon'
tshutup"
Hi
m:"
youdi
dn'
teatsowhatdoy
ouwantmet
odo?
"

Me:"
yougottobekiddi
ngmebread?St
aledr
ybr
ead?
Ni
ggayoukidnappedmesoyougottaf
eedmy
cr
avi
ngs"
Hechuckl
edbi
tt
erl
ysendi
ngchi
l
lsdownmyspi
ne
Hi
m:"
doIl
ookl
i
key
oursper
m donor
?"
Il
it
erar
yt hr
ewup onhi
sshoes ‍♀my
babyhateshim Iwi
pedmymouth
Me:"
ewwnoI'daborti
fyouweremysper
m donor
andsuet
hatstupi
dhospit
al"
Hi
m:'
youbi
tch"
Hethr
ewameanbackslapt
hathadmeseei
ng
doubl
ebutIst
il
lhav
esome inmyspir
it
.
Me:"
praymyhusbanddoesn'
tfi
ndmecauseyouare
morethandeadj
ustpr
ayhegetsher
ebefor
eIkil
l
you"
Hechuckledandj
ustgrabbedahandf
ulofmyhair
andjustmademecoll
idewi t
hhi
sknee Igoton
kneesandIhadanosebleed
Hi
m:"
whenIsayshutupImeanshutupnxabi
tch"
Heturnedhisbackonmehewaswalkingaround
l
ikehe'st
heboss Iqui et
lyst
oodupandtookthe
chai
rtheyhadinhere.
Me:
"nev
ert
urny
ourbackonmey
oui
diot
"
Isl
ammedi tatthebackofhi
shead hefel
ldown
butIj
ustconti
nuedsmackinghi
sheadi
nwit
hthe
chai
r.
Me: "
I'
m notyourbi
tchandyoushoul
dknowyour
placewhenIsayI '
m hungr
yandIhavecr
avi
ngs
you'l
lgetthem f
orme"
Theenti
refl
oorwasfil
l
edwithbloodoozi
ngf
rom hi
s
headbutIdi
dn'tst
opunti
lIhear
dagunshotbehi
nd
meonlydidIfr
eeze.
"
Putdownt
hechai
r"
Ismashedhi
sheadonemor
eti
me
Me:
"t
hat
'sf
orgi
vi
ngmedr
ybr
eadwi
thj
uicenxa"
Itur
nedaroundsti
l
lhol
dingthechai
randIf oundtwo
guysstandi
ngbehi
ndme, Iwi
pedthetear
sawaywi t
h
thebackofmyhandwhichIwast ry
ingtoav oi
d
gett
ingthebl
oodonmyf aceIthr
ewt hechairat
them.
Me:
"hemessedwi
tht
hewr
ongsi
deofme"
Theywer ejuststar
ingatmeasIwentt oseatatmy
cornerrubbingmyt ummyhummi ngwelltheywere
notwear i
nganybal aclavassothisolderblackguy
rushedhistohisdeadf ri
endwhilethecolouredone
camet omeandj ustwi pedthebloodofmyhands
withhishandkerchief.Hewasl ookingstr
aightint
o
myey eswi t
hhishazel gr
eeneyes
Hi
m:"
arey
ouhungr
y?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
whatshoul
dIgety
ou?
"

"
Blakel
eav
ethatbi
tchsheki
l
ledhi
m"
Ohsoy
ournamei
sBl
ake.
Blake:
"t
akehisbodytothebackanddon'tt
ellt
he
bossaboutthiswe'
ll
pretendl
ikei
tneverhappened
okay?"
Heaskedl
ooki
ngmei
ntheey
esoInod
Bl
ake:
"Car
tert
aket
hatbodyoutandgetsomeonet
o
comeandcl
eant
hisr
oom"
Car
ter
:"
niggadon'
tgoal
lsof
tonme"
Bl
ake:
"Car
terdoasIsay
"
Thisniggaseemsy oungert
hantheCarterbut
bosseshim aroundandhedidastoldhecollect
ed
hi
sf r
iend'
sbodyandwal kedoutIwasleftwitht
he
Blake
Hi
m:'
sowhatshoul
dIbr
ingy
ou?
"
Me:
"got
ohel
lwi
thy
ourf
akeki
ndness"
Hechuckl
ed
Him:
"Athatmany oukil
ledwasmyhal fbrot
her,B
youar
edi sr
espect
fulbutI
'm wil
li
ngt
ol ookpastthat
andbekindtoyou.SeeIli
key ou"
Me:
"ohpl
easewel
lIhat
eyou"
Hechuckl
edandj
ustcaughtmebyt
hecheeks
Him:
"I
'm goingt
ooverl
ookt hatseesowhatshoul
dI
buyf
ory ouandthebaby?Iwon'thurtyouIpr
omise
andI
'l
ltell
theguyst
obeki ndtoy ou"
wear
ehungr
yanddohav
ecr
avi
ngssoIj
ust
tol
dhi
m ev
ery
thi
ngIneedandhewr
oteev
ery
thi
ng
down.
Hi
m:"
ist
hatal
l
?"
Inod
Hi
m:'
coolI
'
llbr
ingy
ousomecl
eancl
othest
ooy
ou
smel
ll
ikevomi
t"
hesmiledandstoodupl
eavingmewiththis
wei
rdtuneofawhistl
eGodIjusthav
etoleaveher
e
bef
oreIbecomeananimalaruthl
esski
l
lereven
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11/
2,21:
24]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
stօ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 38♡
.
ʐaʍօ☆
Thisisfr
eight
ingImeanher ei
sMrSokhulubei
ng
calm whenhiswifejustbr
utal
l
ykil
ledaper
sonhe
didn'
tevenseem distur
bedbythat
.
MrS:
"Amber
?Amber
?"
Shelookedupbusyshaki
ngImeanshehasbeen
thr
owinguptheenti
reti
me.
Amber
:"
s..
.Si
r"
MrS:
"canyoukeepqui
teI
'mtry
nathinkplease.
..
.Go
i
ntomyoffi
ceandyou'
l
lfi
ndabottl
eofwhi skydri
nk
t
heenti
rebott
lei
fyouwantj
ustshutup"heshouted
Amber:
"I
..
..
Whyai
n'
tyoudoi
ngany
thi
ngt
ohel
pher
?
Why?"
Me:
"Ambercal
m downpl
ease"
Amber
:"
nopl
easeLwandl
eyouhav
etohel
pher
"
Me:"
Sirwhati
fwecal
lthepol
i
cet
heycant
race
t
his.
..
"
MrS:"
shutup!
"Heshout ed"Iwantbot
hofyouto
keepqui
teunderstand?Youknowwhatdi
sappear
fr
om mejustvanish"
Istoodupandwentt otheel
ev at
orImeanmyboss
i
samessl ikeacompletemessIwenttoRosewho
wasf ocusedonthescreenl
ikeherwhol
eli
fe
dependedoni t
.
Me:
"f
ri
end.
..
.Pl
easet
ell
met
hisdi
dn'
taf
fecty
ou
al
sopl
ease"
Sheshookherhead
Rose:
"har
dlyImeanshe'
sperfect
lyfi
nelookher,f
or
al
lweknowshecouldbef aki
ngthisforat
tent
ion"
Me:
"uhuhImeansheki
l
ledaper
son"
Rose:
"what
?!"
Me:"
yougottobeki
ddi
ngmedon'tt
ell
mey oudi
dn'
t
seewhatshedi
dbit
chsheki
l
ledaguywit
hachair"
Rose:
"Iknewi
t,Iknewitt
hatbit
chhasal
sobeen
cr
azy.
...
thi
ssweetgir
lacti
sfake"
Me:
"comeonshe'
ski
dnappedhav
eahear
tbr
uh"
Rose:
"wai
twai
t.
..
.l
ook"
Ilookedatt
hescr eenandt
heMisswasbusyt
ryi
ng
tokeepcalm butshewasslowl
ylosi
ngi
t.
Penelope:"
babywhatdoyout hinkyourfat
heris
doingrightnow?Doy out
hinkhe'sgoingcrazyor
he'scalm?Causeweneedhi m cal
m weneedhi mto
thi
nkr i
ght.Ipr
omisetoprotectyouti
llhecomesI
promisenoonewi ll
hurty
ou. .
..
..
"
Il
ookedatRosewhoshr
ugandwentbackt
o
watchi
ng
Penel
ope:
"weneedt
okeepthatmonsteratbaywe
havet
okeepthatmonst
eratbay
.I.
..I
..
..
"
Shehel
donherchestandf
ell
onherknees
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Rose:
"ahhanot
herst
untbi
tchi
sfull
ofstunt
s..
..
Fr
iendthi
sismychancetomoveinonthesir
"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Rose:
"mmhbi
tchi
soutoft
hewaynowso"
Shesmi
l
edandshr
ug
Rose:"l
istenmi ssgoodytwoshoesthoughtshewas
theQueenoft hisoff
icesodon'
tbl
amemeIdon' t
feelsorryforherandy eahIbel
i
eveshegotwhatshe
deserved"
Me:
"she'
sjustaki
dcomeonhav
eahear
t"
Rose:
"aki
dwho'
l
llear
nherpl
aceIhopet
heyki
l
lher
"
‍♀
"
Rose!
"
Igotchi
l
lsdownmyspi
nehesoundedsocal
m but
hewassoangry.
MrS:
"Rosecomeher
eforabi
t"
Sheclear
edherthroatandst
oodupwal ki
ngtowards
hi
m shewasscar edIcoul
dseeitf
rom herwalkbut
shewastryi
ngtobecool andl
evelheaded,wel
lshe
stoodinf
rontofhim.
Rose:
"MrSo.
..
"
Hejustwelcomedherwithaslapshewasst i
l
l
l
ist
eningtothepainwhenhegav eheranot
herone
onthelef
tcheekbruhheslappedherandnoone
i
nterv
enedt heguy
swerejuststandi
ngther
e.
Me:
"MrSokhul
upl
ease"
Hel
ookedatme
MrS:"yourti
mei scomi ng...
..Asforyou,
youthi
sis
yourl
astwar ningunderstand?I'l
lki
ll
y oui
fyouever
speakaboutmywi f
eliket hat.I
'
llmurderyouand
you'
ll
nev ereverbefound"
Heshov
edherandwasaboutt
owal
koutwhen
somet
hingont
hescr
eencaughthi
sat
tent
ion.
.
Lwandl
e
Thisbi
tchhassomenervetalkingaboutmyl ike
that Iwantedtoki
llherIdidn'tevenfeel
sor r
y
whenshewasgaspingforairwhenIwaschoki ng
hernooneandImeannoonewi llcal
lmywi f
ea
bit
chandgetawaywithitIwasaboutt owalkout
whenCulucameont hescreenwi thhissmugsmi l
e.
"
Lwandl
e!Lwandl
e!Dearcousi
n"
Me:
"what
?SeeOr
angei
sst
il
lyourcol
our
"
Cul
u:"
Iseey oust
il
lhavejokest
onsofthem ev
en.
..
.
Wonderhowy ou'
llbejoki
ngwhenyouseeyourwi
fe
bei
ngv i
olat
edli
key oumadesureIsawmine
vi
olat
ed"
Me:"
youdon'
thaveawi
feandI
'
llmakesur
eyou
nev
erhaveawife"
Hechuckl
ed
Cul
u:"
whatwi
l
lyoudo?Ki
l
lme?Youseem t
ofor
get
I
'
m onpr
isonwhi
chi
shi
ghl
yguar
dedt
hankst
oyou"
Il
aughed
Me:"
youseem toforgetIownt hissi
deoftown,to
youI
'm God.AndRightnowIhav eyourti
nyfamilyi
n
t
hepalm ofmyhandev eryhourmyguy sdon'tf
ind
mywifeI'
ll
sendy ouagi ftf
rom oneofyourfamily
membersstart
ingwithy ourli
tt
lebabygir
l"
Cul
u:"
goodl
ucki
nfi
ndi
ngt
hem"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"Mozambi queisnotaplacetohi
deyourf ami
ly
dearcousinthat'
sjustst
upi
ditysoyou'
l
lreleasemy
wif
eory ou'l
lseeyourdaughterpi
ecebypiece.Don'
t
messwi t
hme"
Hi
sey
esshotout
Me:"Itol
dy outhatt
hethingyouwantt ohappenwill
happenwi t
hmei ncont
rolandIwillhur
tyouso
tonightsleepwit
honeey eopenjustholdontoyour
heartmakesur eyoudon'twakeupt ofi
nditdangl
ing
i
nt heair.Causeyoumesseswi t
ht hewrongsideof
met herealme"
Cul
u:"
Lwandl
e..
.I'
l
lki
l
lher
"
Me:"
I'
ll
killt
hem andaftercomef ory
ou.I
'
llcutyou
upinpiecesstart
ingwit
hy ourt
ongueIwon'tki
l
l y
ou
I
'l
lki
lly
ouaf terhear
ingyouscream"
Hisf
acechangedfrom thesmugishtoangr ydudeI
j
ustwalkedoutr
ightnowIdon'thav
et hetimefor
hi
m Igotint
omycaranddr ovetoSisanda'
shouse
andwhenIgotthereIfoundt
heguysset t
ledin.
Me:"y
out woIwanty outogetBlake'
sfamilyforme
understand?Takethem tothewarehouseandy ouI
wanty ouguystofetchBlackCart
er'
sfamilyanddo
thesamebutusedi ffer
entroomsunderstand?Allof
them shouldhavecamerassameaswi t
hmy
famil
y'sroom."
Si
sanda:
"whatdi
dyouf
indout
?"
Me:
"t
heyar
ehel
pingCul
u..
..Guy
shur
ryup"
Theynodandst
oodup
Me:"
boyIneedtohav
ethatshower.
..
.Ineedy
outo
hacki
ntosomeTVsatworkandfindoutwheret
hei
r
si
gnali
scomingfr
om"
Si
sanda:
"youi
nst
all
edTVs?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
motherfuckerwascockyenoughtoi
nst
allTVs
atmyof
ficejusttoti
ckmeof fandi
t'
sali
vefeedtoo
socany
ou? "
Si
sanda:
"yeahI
'
llt
ryi
t"
Ipathisshoul derandjustwentt otakeashower
usinghisst uf
fandIal sowor ehiscl otheswhenI
wasdoneIdeci dedt ogoandcheckonSakhi l
eand
LesegoIcan' tneglectthem eveni fLoloi smissi ngI
stil
lneedtot ouchbasewi t
hmyf ami l
y.Ineedt o
keepcal mifIwantt ohav etheupperhandatt hi s,but
Ineedmywi f
eImi ssher Imi sshert inyvoice I
mi ssherli
ps,beinginherar ms,beinginbet weenher
thighsfuckImi ssfeeli
nghert ightgr i
ponmyhai ras
Imakel ovet oherandhear i
nghercal lmewi t
hmy
clannamewhenIdohergoodi nbed nowwhenI
fi
ndherI '
llburnthem alltogetherjustinonepl ace.
Roastingtheirfl
eshandhear i
ngt hem scr eam f or
helpthat'
ll
makemef eel goodaboutmy sel
f.
.
.
Penel
ope
Mi
rr
ormi
rr
oront
hewal
lam Igoi
ngcr
azyorwhat
?
ImeanI
'
m st
ucki
nthi
sst
uff
yroom,
al
lal
oneandI
'
m hor
ny
Iki
l
ledamanbutIf
eel
nor
emor
se

I'
m delusionthat
'sitI
'
m goingcrazyIwasr ubbing
myt ummyImeanIhav en'
teatensincelunch
yesterdayI'
m nothungryjusthavesomehuge
cravingsandIcan'tkeepmybabywai t
ingthisside
thi
sr oom wascreepinguponmeseemsl ikereali
ty
wasj ustsett
li
ngin.
Me:
"hel
l
o!!Iwannapee.
..
Iwantt
opee"
"
Shutup!
!"
Ibangedt
hedoor
Me:"
Iwantt
opee!
!!I
.Want
.To.Pee.
eee.Iwantt
o
pee"
Iwascr
yingbr
uhIwasreall
ypr
essedandIdon'
t
knowhowcauseIhav
en'tdr
unkoreat
enanythi
ng
Me:
"Iwantt
opeepl
ease"
Iwashol
dingonf
ordearl
i
fe
Me:
"Hel
l
oI'
m goi
ngt
obur
st Iwannapee"
"
Shutt
hehel
lup"
Me:
"pl
easeormybabywi
l
ldi
e..
..Ineedt
opee"
Imov edfrom thedoorandwalkedaroundbusy
try
ingt of
ocusonsomet hingel
senotmypeei t
wasn'twor ki
ngunti
lthedooropenedIwasn'
teven
focusingIwashur l
edupatthecorner.
Bl
akewal
kedi
nhol
dingagoodi
esbag
Bl
ake:
"what
'swr
ong?
"

Me:
"Ineedt
opee"Iwhi
sper
ed
Blake:
"di
dn'
ttheyl
ety
ougoorgi
vey
ousomet
hingt
o
use?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
'
I'
mreal
l
yreal
l
yreal
l
yreal
l
y..
."
Bl
ake:
"O-
kaycomeI
'
llt
akey
ou"
Hewrappedhisarm aroundmeandwal kedoutwi
th
wewalkedpastguardsbruhIwasguardedandhere
Iwashopi
ngthatImi ghtrunawaybutIcan'
tso
for
geti
twhenwegott othebathr
oom
Hi
m:"
hur
ryupI
'
llbeout
side"
Inod
Igoti
nandIwasaboutt
ocl
oset
hedoorbuthe
shookhi
shead
Me:
"I
'm sensi
ti
veIcan'
thav
eyoust
ari
ngatme"
Hi
m:"
List
en.
.."
Me:
"pl
ease"
HelookedatmeandnodsoIcl osedthedoorand
didmybusiness damni tfeltgoodseeIwantt hat
phonehehasonhisbeltsoIhav etofindawayt o
geti
t,Ihavel
ongnail
sso Ij ustbeganscratchi
ng
mythighsobadlyt
il
lIst
artedbleedi
ngandt hengot
thebl
oodonmyundi esIscreamedoutpanicking
andthatgothi
satt
enti
onhecamei nthebathroom.
Bl
ake:
"what
'swr
ong?
"
Me:"Ithi
nk.
..
Ithi
nksomet
hingi
swr
ongwi
tht
hebaby
.
I
'm bleedi
ng"
Bl
ake:
"what
?Wher
e?"
Me:"
ther
eisbl
oodonmyundi
esBl
ake Ican'
tl
ose
t
hisbabypl
ease"
Bl
ake:
"r
elaxpl
ease.
..
.ComeI
'
llgety
ouback"
Me:
'
Ineedadoct
or!
"Iscr
eamed"
Ineedadoct
or"
Blake:
"cal
m downI
'
m adoct
oral
soI
'
llt
akecar
eof
you"
Inodandhepickedmeupwalki
ngwi
thmebackto
theroom nowhowtogett
hephone thi
nkLol
o
thi
nkwhenwegott her
ehepl
acedmedown
Bl
ake:
"l
etmechecksomet
hing"
Me:"asi
ngetmenaked?Youwantt
ost
ri
pme
naked?"
Bl
ake:
"f
ort
hegr
eat
ergoodoft
hebaby
"

Me:
"f
ine"
Irol
l
edmyey esandhet ookofhi sjacketwhichhad
thephoneini
tIlookedati tandhim.Themomenthe
beganpull
i
ngdownmyj oggerpant sIslowlymoved
myar mtowardsthejacketandj ustslowlypull
edit
outImeanbitchI'
m bigsoatmyt hi
ghsy ouhaveto
workhedidn'
tstri
pmecompl et
elynakedandhe
beganexaminingme
Blake:
"ohnowher eiswherethebloodiscoming
from,youhav
eascarony ourthi
ghsoI '
m sur
eyou
gotbloodony ourunder
wearwheny ouwereint
he
toil
et"
Iknowt
haty
oui
diot
Me:
"somypumpki
nisokay
?"
Hel
ookedupatmeandsmi
l
ed
Bl
ake:
"yourpumpki
nisf
ine.
..
.l
et'
sdr
essy
ouup"
Me:"t
hanksI
'
lldoi
tyou'
vest
aredatmypussyi
t'
s
enoughnow"
Hechuckl
ed
Bl
ake:
"youdohav
eabeaut
if
ulpussysol
i
ght
..
..
"
Me:
"O-
kayt
hanky
oumyhusbandshav
edi
tforme"
Igrinnedandj ustdressedupbusycompl ement i
ng
mynana butI '
m beingseriousshavedi t
appar ent l
yev eryonehast otakecareoft hei
r
belongi ngssomynanabel ongst ohim andthat'
s
whyhet akessomuchpr ideinshavingit " babe
openy ourl egsabi tandputt hem onmyshoul dersI
can'tsee" hi swor dsnotmi nenowhewon' tbe
fussingov ershav i
ngme Iwanthimt oshav ei
t
thoughany wayBl akeleftal
lsmileyheev enforgot
hisjacketj ackpotf ormet hen.
Bl
ake:
"enj
oyy
ourf
ood"
Igr
inned
Me:
"t
hanks"
HesmiledandwalkedoutIquicklytookoutthe
phoneandscrambledtounl
ocki tthi
sfooldoesn'
t
havesecuri
tymeasuresi
nplacesoIdi al
ed
Lwandle'
snumberbutitwasli
nebusy
Me*
text
ing*
:"
answery
ourphonequi
ckl
yit
'sLol
o"
Isenti
tandcal
l
edagai
nandguesswhoanswer
ed
Me:"
youhav
etohur
ryup.
..
.Ican'
tbeher
eforl
onger
pl
ease"
Lwandl
e:"
arey
ouokay
?Babedi
dtheyhur
tyou?
"
Me:"
justcomeandgetmepl
ease I
'
m scar
ed
Lwandle"
Lwandl
e:"
mylovehol
donIpromiseI'
l
lfi
ndyou
okay
,I
'l
ltr
acet
hisnumberandI
'
llfi
ndyou"
Me:
"pl
ease.
..
.pl
easebef
oreIgocr
azy
"
Lwandl
e:"
Lol
oIlov
eyouokay?Il
ovey
ouj
ustmake
sur
etokeepthi
sli
neopen"
"
BruhIt
hinkIf
orgotmyj
acketi
nher
e"
Me:
"Igot
tagol
ovey
ou"
Iquicklyhungupandj ustr
acedtoputthephonebag
andj umpedoffthebedt oseatdownwiththe
shoppingbagonmyl apgoingthroughi
tli
keIwas
l
ookingatt hethi
ngsheboughtme whenhe
walkedi nIj
ustfor
cedasmi le.
Bl
ake:
"st
il
lhav
en'
teat
en?Penel
opey
ouneedt
oeat
"
Me:
"don'
tknowwhatt
oeatf
ir
stImeanev
ery
thi
ng
her
eisj
ustmouthwat
eri
ng.
..
any
waywhatar
eyou
doi
ngbackher
e?"
Bl
ake:
"f
orgotmyj
acket
..
.oht
her
eiti
s"
Me:
"okayt
hanksf
ort
heseagai
n"
Henodwi t
ht hi
ssmi l
eonhi sface r eal
lyniggajust
vani
shalr
eadybef oreImakey ouv ani
shhewal ked
outandIheardthedoor sbeinglocked butIhav e
foodsoIgotstartedIwaseat i
nglikeapigjust
mixi
ngupev eryt
hingthat'
showhungr yIwasbutI '
ll
gether
esoonenoughI '
llbehomeandeat ing
anyt
imeIwantnobeggi ng
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Iwasexcit
edtohearmywife'
sv oi
cebutitwas
sl
owlybreaki
ngIcoul
dhearitshenearherbreaki
ng
poi
ntsoonshe'l
lcr
ackandIdon'tknowwhat'l
l
happent
othem causeLolomightj
usthavean
epi
sodeandherheartmightst
op Isogot tahurr
y
sowhenthatcal
lcameinIscrambledtot
raceit
l
uckil
yIwasatSisanda'
shousenearmylaptop.
Me:
"anyl
uckwi
tht
hesi
gnal
?"
Sisanda:
"i
tkeepsonbounci
ngindiff
erentl
ocat
ions
andlandsatthepri
sonyourcousi
nisat"
Me:
"Iseesohe'
smani
pul
ati
ngi
tbuti
t'
scool
"
Si
sanda:
"anyl
uckwi
tht
hecel
l
phonenumber
?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"shitisunt
raceabl
e..
..I
t'
sabur
nerphoneI
'
m sur
e
Ican'tpinpoi
ntwhereit
'scomingf
rom"
Hel
ookedatme
Me:
"what
?"
Sisanda:
"br
uhyouar esocal
mit
'sl
i
keyourwif
e
wasn'tki
dnapped,theol
dyouwoul
dbekil
l
ing
anythi
ngandany oneinhi
sway"
Me:'
ki
ll
i
ngyesbutrightnowIneedtohav
eaclear
headonmyshouldersandthatol
dLwandley
ou
wanthediedthemomentIhur tt
hatgi
rlLoloisthe
onebruhIcanfeelitnotmanygi
rl
shavet hegutsto
sti
ckaroundwiththemanwhot ookherinnocence
byfor
ceandbr okeher."
Sisanda:
"yeahy
oureal
l
ydi
dherbadbr
uhbutshe
seemst olovey
ou"
Me:
"mmhIwasassur
pri
sedasy
ou"
I'
m notcalm okaydeepdownIwantt okil
l CulubutI
wanthimt ogot hroughwhatI'm goingthroughr i
ght
nowIgotacal lfrom thenumbert hatLolocalledme
from bef
ore Ianswer edandjustputitonl oud
speakerI'
m sureit'
snother,
Ijustheardbr eathingon
theothersi
debutt heydidn'
tsayany thi
ng.Ihear da
chuckle
"
Lwandl
emymanIknowi
t'
syou,
Iknowshecal
l
ed
y
ou"
Me:"
Blake!
!Bl
aker
eleasemywi
fei
fyouknowwhat
's
goodforyou"
Bl
ake:
"why
?Ni
gganowi
t'
spay
backt
ime"
Me:
"whathappenedt
oyourpar
ent
swi
l
lbenot
hing
comparedt
owhatI'
l
ldotoyouandthatgi
rlofy
our
s
bel
iev
emeI '
l
lmakehercr
yforyou"
Ihungup
Me:
"Fuck!Nowi
t'
sti
mef
ormet
oheatt
hingsup"
Si
sanda:
"whatar
eyoubl
abbi
ngabout
?"
Me:"I
'
m goi
ngtokil
lmyauntandI '
llmakesureCul
u
watchest
heenti
rethingev
erybitofit
..
.Nxahe
messedwitht
hewr ongguythi
st i
me...
.He'
l
lfeel
hel
l
"
Igrabbedmycarkey sandwal kedoutni ggamessed
upnowhehasmyenemi eswor kingwithhim andI
knowBl akeoncehehasr evengeimbeddedi nhi s
mindhewant sitandnowhewant srevengeforhis
parent'
sdeat hy eahIki
ll
edt hem buthisf at
herwas
sti
cky i
nghi snosei nmybusi nessIhatecops
runningar oundinmybusi ness Ihat eitsoy eahI
kil
ledthem wi thhim watchi
ngdon' tgiv
eaf uckhe's
aki dtomehe' sakid.I
'l
lhurthim hebet t
erbeliev
e
thatI'
llhurthim.
.
Penel
ope
Iwasf
ull
andener
get
icr
ubbi
ngmyt
ummy
Me:
"Nanaweneedt
ogetoutofher
eandsoon.
..I
mi
ssyourdadandy
ourbr
other
"
ThedooropenedandBl akewal
kedinwit
hthissmil
e
onhisfaceseeIcanreadapersonbutwit
hhimit'
s
toughbutthi
ssmileisnotagoodone Imov ed
backabitbuthejustkeptonmovi
ngtowardsmet i
l
l
Igotbl
ockedbythewal l hechuckl
ed.
Blake:
"It
ri
ed..
.Itr
iedbei
ngnicetoyoudoy ouknow
that?Myfighti
snotwithyoubutyourhusband"
Me:
"t
henl
etmego.
..
.Letmegohomet
omychi
l
d"
Blake:"
shutup.
..Youjusthadtoactl
i
keaspoi
l
tbr
at
andr untoyourlousyhusband.
"
Me;'
Iwanttogohome,whycan'
tyougett
hati
nto
yourdul
lthi
ckskul
l
?Iwanttowakeupinmy
husband'
sarmsnotthi
sdump"
Heslappedmesohar dIfel
tbl
oodfil
lmymouth
hel
lnoIslappedhi
m overandoveragai
nbusy
pushinghim back,
hecaughtmeandj
ustshovedme
Istumbledabitandfel
lfl
atonmybum t he
i
mpactIhadwasmassi veIhel
dontomybumpI
swearIfeltpai
nsther
e.
Me;'
No,
no,
no,
no.
..
.uhuh pl
easePr
incessdon'
tdo
t
histomommyyouhavet
ohol
don."
Thatmonst
erwasj
ustst
andi
ngt
her
erubbi
nghi
s
cheek.
Me:
"dosomet
hing.
..
.Bl
ake!Bl
akedosomet
hing"
Hecl
i
ckedhi
stongueandwal
kedout
Me:
"Bl
ake!
!!
!"Ishout
ed"
Blakegetbackher
e"
Igotonmykneesandj
usttr
iedget
ti
ngupholdi
ng
ontomytummy ,
Iwal
kedtothedoorandj
ustbegan
knocki
ng.
Me: "
Blake!Blake!Iknowy oucanhearmey ou
fuckingsonofabi t
ch..
..
.I'
m goingt
oki l
lyouhear
me?Pr aymychi l
disfine"Ibanged"I.Am.Going.To.
Kil
l.You.Blakey"
I
'dl
iketosayIwi
ggl
edmyasst
othebedbutIwas
hol
dingontomytummyl
impi
ngwhenIgotther
eI
l
aidonmysidebusyr
ubbi
ngitt
ear
snowst
art
ed
f
lowingt
heywerenowfr
eefal
l.
Me:
"l
ove,
babypl
easeholdonI
'
m beggi
ngy
ou.Don'
t
l
eav
emommydon' tleav
emeplease "
Ij
ustr
ubbedherl
i
keshecanf
eel
me
Me:
"(
singi
ng)"
Saf
eWi
thMe"
I
fyouev
erneedme
Justt
ell
meandI
'
llbet
her
e
CauseIwasbui
l
tfory
ou
YesIwasbui
l
ttocar
ryal
lyourf
eel
i
ngs
CauseIwon'
tl
ett
hem know
Iwon'
tl
ety
ougobaby
Idon'
tcar
ewhaty
ourpasti
s
Idon'
tneednoanswer
s
Justhav
efai
thi
nme
Don'
tyouknowy
oursecr
et'
ssaf
ewi
thme
Al
lyourwor
ri
escanbeputt
o,canbeputt
osl
eep
Don'
tyouknowy
oursecr
et'
ssaf
ewi
thme
Al
lyourwor
ri
escanbeputt
o,canbeputt
osl
eep
Noneedt
ost
epback
Don'
tbescar
ed,
Igoty
ou,
youknowt
hat
I
'
m her
ewheny
ouar
esad
Whenal
lofy
ourcl
oudst
urnbl
ack
CauseIwon'
tl
ett
hem know
Iwon'
tl
ety
ougobaby
Idon'
tcar
ewhaty
ourpasti
s
Idon'
tneednoanswer
s
Justhav
efai
thi
nme
Don'
tyouknowy
oursecr
et'
ssaf
ewi
thme
Al
lyourwor
ri
escanbeputt
o,canbeputt
osl
eep
Don'
tyouknowy
oursecr
et'
ssaf
ewi
thme
Al
lyourwor
ri
escanbeputt
o,canbeputt
osl
eep"
Isangmysel
ftosleepIt
hinksocauseIwaswoken
upbycol
dwat erspl
ashi
ngovermeIwokeup
scr
eami
ng.
Me:
"whatt
hehel
l
?"
"
Getupnowy
oubi
tch"

Isatupst
rai
ghtst
ari
ngatt
hem nowt
heymessed
withmetheyhi
tnerv
e
Bl
ake:
"getupwe'
remov
ing"

Ist
aredathi
m busyt
yingmyweav
eup
Bl
ake:
"Isai
dmov
eit
"
Hehel
dmyhandbutIpul
l
edi
taway
Me:
"DON'
TTOUCHME!
!DON'
T.TOUCH.ME"
Bl
ake:
"I
'l
lki
l
lyou.
.Guy
stakeher
"
Nothappeni
ngIsl
appedt
heguyashewasaboutt
o
t
ouchme
Me:
"Onl
ySokhul
ucant
ouchme!Don'
tyouev
er
t
ouchme"
Bl
ake:
"st
opi
t"
Het
hrewaslapatmebruht
hisoneshookmybr
ain
abi
tandal
lIsawwasred
Bl
ake:"
guy
sexcuseusIneedt
oteacht
hisbi
tcha
l
esson"

Thoset
woguy
swal
kedoutl
eav
ingmewi
thBl
ake.
Me:
"yougoi
ngt
obeatmeup?Ki
l
lme?
"
Hecaughtmebyt
heneckchoki
ngme
Blake:
"I
'l
lki
l
lyouunder
stand?I
'
llki
l
lyouIpr
omi
se
you"
Hel
etgoofmeandr
oughl
ypul
l
edmeup
Bl
ake:
"changeandl
et'
sgo"
Me:
"I
'm notgoi
ngany
wher
ewi
thy
ou.
..
."
Heturnedar
oundandwasaboutt
osl
apmebutI
ducked
Me:
"hi
tmeagai
nyou'
l
lbesor
ry"
Bl
ake:
"j
ustchangebef
orey
oubor
eme"
Itookthebagf rom t
hefloorandjusttookoffmy
husband' sJer
sey Itookoffmybr aIdon'
tcar
e
i
fhe'sst ari
nghewantstoseemenakeddoesn' the
thenI'
l
l change.Isl
owlytookoffmyj ogger
Me:"
wantmetogetnakedi
nfr
ontofy
ou?I
sthat
whatyouwant
?"
Bl
ake:
"don'
tmesswi
thme.
..
."
It
ookof
fmyundi
esst
ari
ngathi
mint
heey
es,
I
st
oodst
rai
ght
Me:"happy
?Isthi
swhatyouwant
?Huh?Isthi
swhat
youwantfrom me?.
..
.Speaky
oufi
lt
hysonofa
bit
ch "
Hechuckl
edshaki
nghi
shead
Bl
ake:"nowIseewhyyourhusbandi
skeepi
ngcal
m
al
lthatasshumbledhi
m"
Ipunchedhi
m
Me:
"Iseey
oudy
ingasl
owdeat
h"
Ij
ustdressedupandjustwor
eLwandl e'
swetJer
sey
overev
erythi
ng i t
'
swetbutI'm notgoi
ng
anywher
ewithouti
tIdon'
tcarethi
sismyhusband'
s
fav
ouri
teJer
seysonoIwon' tt
hrowitaway
.
Bl
ake:
"won'
tthatgety
ousi
ck?Imeani
t'
swet
"
Me:
"shutup"
Bl
ake:
"l
et'
sgo"
Heroughlypull
edmeout si
dewheretheybl
indfol
ded
meandj ustconti
nuedpull
i
ngmear oundI'
m so
goi
ngtochokehi m wit
hmyshoelace.Theblindf
old
wasremov edbutinthesameroom
Me:
"ar
eyouki
ddi
ngme?
'
Bl
ake:
"andwher
ewoul
dyout
hinkwe'
dtakey
ou?
"
Me:
"heav
en"
Blake:
"guy
smakehercomf
ort
abl
e..
..
pret
tycome
seathere"

Me:"nopl
ease.
..Youcan'
tti
emeuppl
easeBl
ake.
I
'm beggi
ngyou"
Bl
ake:
"shutupandseat
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
NO!!Youcan'
tti
emeupli
keI'
m someani
mal.
..I
wanttobeabl
etotouchmybabyandbondwi
thher"
Bl
ake:
"youshoul
dhav
ethoughtabout
..
.."
Me:'
pl
ease.
..
.Pl
easeI'
ll
doanythi
ngy
ouwantj
ust
don'
tti
emeupBl akepl
ease.
"
Iknel
tdown
Me:"
don'
tti
emeuppl
ease Ican'
tst
andbei
ng
t
ied"
Bl
ake:
"Don'
tbor
eme.
..
.Getup"
Me:"No!No!Don'
tti
emeuppl ease.
..
.Ipr
omi seI'
ll
behaveI'
ll
nottr
yanythi
ngf unnyagai
n,I'
l
l notev
en
cal
lLwandleI'
l
lshutupplease.Justdon'ttakemy
modeofcommuni cati
onwi thmychildplease"
Iwasr
eal
l
ycr
yingnotj
oki
ngIev
enhadhi
ccups
Bl
ake:
"f
ine,f
inej
ustst
opcr
yingy
ouar
eget
ti
ngon
mynerves"
I'
l
lbegett
ingonmoret
hanj
usty
ourner
vesaf
ter
t
hishehel
pedmestandup
Blake:"
giv
emeonemor ereasont
obeevi
lwit
hyou
andy ou'
llseeanot
hersi
deofmeunderst
and?"
Inod
Blake:"
goodandj
ustsoyouknowmyphonei
s
untraceabl
esodon'
tthi
nkhe'
l
lcomer
unni
ng"
Iwenttoseatatt
hecor
nerjustst
ari
ngathi
m bei
ng
cockywit
hme hewal kedout
Me:
"Ahhhh"scr
eami
ng
Ipickedupthechairandthr
ewitatthedoorbut
guessmyl uckchangedcausethefootbrokeever
seensomet hi
ngyou'vebeenwanti
ngfinall
ycomet o
yousoIgotonmykneesandhur ri
edtot hefootIsat
downandbeganr ubbingitont
hefloorIrubbeditI
don'tknowwhybutIdi d.
ThedooropenedandBl
akewal
kedi
nIhi
stheshi
t
Bl
ake:
"don'
tyouwannat
alkt
oyourhusband?
"
Me:
'
Lwandl
e?"
Bl
ake:
"youmar
ri
edt
osomeoneel
se?
"
Het
hrewt
hephoneatme Iqui
ckl
ypl
acedi
ton
myear
.
Me:
'
Lwandl
e? "
Lwandl
e:"
Lol
o?Babear
eyouokay
?"
Me:"
doIsoundokay
?DoIf
reaki
ngsoundokay
?I
al
mostl
ostthebaby"
Lwandl
e:"
What
?Lov
etel
lmehe'
sfi
ne"
Me:"
justgetmeoutofherepl
easegiv
ethem
whatevert
heywantIcan'
tbehereanymor
e"
Lwandl
e:"
theywantnot
hingi
t'
sCul
u..
.he'
saf
ter
rev
enge"
Me:"f
indhi
m andkil
lhi
m. .
..Ican'
tl
osemybaby
causeofhi
sidiot
icst
unts"
Lwandl
e:"
I'
m oni
t.
..
lov
eyouandkeepcal
m"
Il
ookedupatBl
ake
Me:
"I
'm cal
m,bel
i
evey
oume.I
'
m cal
mlov
eyou
mor
e"
Thatsonofabit
chsnatchedthephonefrom me
I
'm sonotgoi
ngtoloseitwhenIkeepont al
ki
ng
wit
hmyhusbandI '
l
lbelevelheadedt
hroughthi
sshi
t
andi fhethinkshe'
staunti
ngLwandl
ehe'swr
ong
thatniggahascontroloverhi
sdemonsnowandI
trusthim Ibeli
evei
nhim baewi llf
indmebaby
daddywi l
l saveus.
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Itf
eltli
key earsinher eImeani thasbeenwhat ?
Two,threeday sbuti tfeltsolongIwasst art
ingt o
sti
nkohnowai tIdidst i
nk mybeaut i
ful hair
rui
nedhel lthecr avi
ngf orsexi shuge Iwasno
l
ongert hatshor tyel
lowboneIwasnowaspot ted
hyena Ihadcol or
sbr uhbutal lIwantist ogo
homeandeat ,takeashowerandofcour sef uckwith
LwandleIr eall
yr eal
lywannaf uckwithhimt hi
sain't
fai
rI'
m crav i
ngf orsomet hi
ngmyhusbandhasand
forfr
eeImeancomeonwhatshoul dIdonow.Iwas
l
ay i
ngont hef l
oorcr awledupI '
m hungryokayI 'm
thi
rstyandI'
m coldthi
snauseaain'
thel
pingeit
herI
meancomeon.Ij ustwantedtol
ayonmyt ummy
butthat'
sdangerousforthebaby i fIstandupI'
l
l
bebet t
erri
ghtImeanwhatdoIhav etoloseIslowl
y
stoodupandj ustfel
ldownonmybut t
Me:" Iwantt
ogohomepl
ease,
j
ustl
etmego
home"
Ibangedt
hedoorov
erandov
eragai
n
Me:
"l
etmegohomepl
ease"
Iwasscreamingandshout
ingatthet
opofmylungs
butIwasslowlyl
osi
ngbreathandget
ti
ngdi
zzy
Me:
"Bl
ake!
!!Bl
akepl
ease"
Igotonmykneesandt hosebangsont hedoor
tur
nedt oti
nyknocksIwasget ti
ngdizzytoapoint
whereIsawmyhandspl iti
ntothreeeveryt
hingwas
spi
nningaroundItri
edstandingupbutIf el
ldownon
mykneesImeani fIfal
lonmyt ummyi t'
stheendof
mybabyt heonlypersonIhavebeent r
y i
ngtosave
nowIf eel
li
keI'
mf ail
ingher.
Me:
"pl
..
.pl
ease,
I.
..
.I.
..
.Ican'
tbr
eat
h"
Igaspedf orai rholdi
ngonmychestIl ai ddown
l
ookingatt hecei li
ngbusyt ryi
ngt ocat chmybr eath
butIcoul dn'tt hedizzi
nesswasev enmaki ngme
morenauseast hatIroll
edonmysi deandt hrewup
Iwasev engoi ngcrazycauseIhear dgunshot sand
peopleshout ing mywor l
dwasspi nningaroundso
badlythatIt hi nkIsawmyhusbandst andingov er
mewel l
It hinkhewaskneel i
ngbesi desmeand
sayi
ngsomet hingbutIdidn'thearat hing i twas
l
ikehewasmi mingIjustgiggledandcl osedmy
eyesthismi ragei sdopet hough.Iwasr esti
ngso
peacefullybutIwokeupsoonandsoonbutIwasi n
acleanr oom t houithaddul lwall
si twasst il
lcleanI
mov edmyey esar oundanddamnIwasi na
hospit
al Iwascr y
ingcauseIwashappybut
confusedhowt hehelldidIgetmyassher ehuh
whenev ent houghmybodyst ill
feltnumbandIhad
aheadachebutIwassaf eorwasI ,whati fI
'm stil
l
capturedcauseBl akedidsayt hathewasadoct or
soImeant hiscoul dbehi shospitalIwasbusy
l
ookingar oundt r
ynamakesenseofwhatwas
happeningt omewhenmydazzl i
nghusbandwal ked
i
nwoahwoahImeant hisismesseduphe' snother e
hecan'
tbehere,Ir
ubbedmyeyesov
erandov
er
agai
nti
llhecaughtmyhands.
Hi
m:"
it
'smel
ove,
I
'm her
e.I
'
m her
e"

Ij
ustbur
stoutcryi
ngashewr
appedhisar
ms
ar
oundmeIclutchedonhi
mfordearl
i
fe.
Hi
m:"
it'
sokayIpr
omi
seyouar
esaf
eandnoonewi
l
l
ev
erhurty
ouIpromi
sey
ou"
Itr
iedtonodbutthenagainwhy ?Whymehe'
sher
e
butIdon'
tfeelsaf
eIdon'tfeel
secur
einhi
sarmsbut
Iheldontohim hecont
inuedtorubmyback.
Hi
m:"
babeI
'
m her
eI'
m nev
erl
eav
ingy
ouIpr
omi
se.
..
"
Hegotont hebedpull
ingmeclosertohim heeven
startedrubbi
ngmyt ummy somybabyi ssafeshe
survived Godt hanky ouf
orgivi
ngmeast r
ong
will
edchi l
dImadeitcauseofhershewasmy
driv
ingforce.Heki
ssedmyheadov erandoveragain
IthinkIheardhi
m snif
fabitohsost r
ongmancr ies
toohuh
Me:
"Iwanthotwi
ngs "
Hebur
stoutl
aughi
ngandsni
ff
ledabi
t
Hi
m:"
I'
m st
il
lcr
yingr
elax
"
Ipunchedhi
sst
omach
Me:
"Iwanthotwi
ngsnow "
Him:
"oowIl
oveyousomuch,Il
ovey
ousosomuch
Lol
oandI'
l
lmakesureCul
upays"
Me:
"butIwanthotwi
ngs"

Hi
m:"
letmegoandgett
hem t
hen"
Me:
"uhuh don'
tl
eav
emepl
ease.
..
..
don'
tgo"
Hi
m:"
buthow.
..
."
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
hem t
henIdon'
t.
..Pl
easedon'
tgo"
Herubbedmybackandkissedmyf orehead Iwas
hol
dingonbr
uhIevenneededhimt onotev enletme
goIwanthi
mt oholdonfordearl
i
fe.Wel lSakhi
le
wal
kedinhol
dingLesegomybabyt hough
Sakhi
l
e:"
arewedi
stur
bing?
"
Lwandl
e:"
whatar
eyouguy
sdoi
ngher
e?It
oldy
ou.
..
"
Me:
"canIseehi
m?"
Sakhil
esmil
edatmeandcamewi t
ht heli
tt
leguy
placi
nghi
mi nLwandl
e'
sarmsminewer eabitweak
sohisfat
herwil
lhol
dhimformeItouchedhisli
tt
le
faceandheheldmyhandgri
ppi
ngoni t
.
Me:
"baby
..
..
you'
vegr
own"
Sakhi
l
echuckl
ed
Sakhi
le:
"he'
sbeenki
l
li
ngmeIdi
dn'
tsl
eepf
ort
hree
daysnow"
Isatupst
rai
ght
Me:"
Thanky
ouf
orl
ooki
ngaf
terhi
m..
.CanIhol
d
hi
m"
Lwandl
e:"
yousur
e?"
Inodwi pi
ngmyt earsawayandjustr
ecei
vinghimin
myar msIjustki
ssedhisfaceoverandoveragain
peckinghisl
ipsandhisli
tt
lear
mshel donmyf ace
feel
inghowwar mt heyar
e.
Lwandl
e:"
andIhav
ebeenher
eforsol
ongbutIdi
dn'
t
gett
hat
"
Sakhi
le:
"j
eal
ousmuch?Maybenowyou'
l
lbeabl
eto
puthi
mt osl
eepI'
mtir
edofsl
eepi
ngatt
hreeam i
t'
s
notsexy"
Me:"he'
saheav
ysl
eepersowhatar
eyout
alki
ng
about?"
Sakhi
le:
"maybewhenhesleepsinyourar
msbutI
hadtomanagewi t
houty
ouguy syourhusband
wasn'
tavail
abl
e..
..
"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ry.
..I
'
m sosor
ry"
Ihadhi
ccupsandheav
ybr
eat
hing
Me:
"Ishoul
dn'
thav
ewentt
othemal
l
...
.Idi
dn'
tmean
t
odoi t "
Lwandl
e:"
nonomyl ovei
t'
snoty
ourf
aul
tbaby
pl
easebreat
h..
breat
h"
Sakhi
l
e:"
yeahhe'
sri
ghty
oudi
dn'
taskt
obe
ki
dnapped.
..
"
Me:"
Ishoul
dn'
thavewentther
eIshoul
dhavecall
ed
youl
ikeyousai
dIshoul
d,butasal
waysIthoughtI
wast
hebossandwentt
her
ebymy
sel
f.I
'
m sor
ry"
Theykeptqui
etandwr appedtheirar
msaroundmeI
j
ustkeptonapologi
singbutIdidn'tf
eel
bett
erI
neverf
eltbet
ter
Lwandle:
"Sakhil
etakeLesegoandgobuysomehot
wingsandapi eceofredvelv
etcakef
orLol
o"
Heheldouthishandst
otakeLesegobutIdi
dn'
t
wannalethi
m go
Me:
"you'
l
lhur
rybackr
ight
?"
Henod
Me:
"okayt
hen.
..
.Il
ovey
ousomuch"
Ikissedhi spout
ylipsandgav ehi
mt ohi sunclemy
babyst artedact
ingupi tbrokemyheartseeinghim
l
iket hatbutIhadtokeepmycool andshutupor
he'l
lstartcryi
ngIjustlookedawaytoav oiditand
theywal kedoutIbrokedownagai nbutt hi
st i
meit
waswor seIcouldn'tbreat
handIwasget t
ingdiz
zy.
Lwandl
e:"baby
?Nouhuhbabedon'
tdot
hist
ome.
..
Notnow"
Hej
umpedof
fthebedandl
aidmedown
Lwandl
e:"
her
ebr
eat
hthr
ought
his.
..Br
eat
hmyl
ove"
Ipushedawayt
hebreat
hingmaskbutheputi
tback
onmehewascr yi
ngbusyshaki
nghi
shead
Lwandl
e:"
don'tl
eavememamakhe..
.Ican'tdothi
s
wit
houtyousopleasesl
owst
eadybreaths..
..
Fuck
i
sn'
tthi
sthingworki
ng?Wher
eisthenurse?"
Iwantedt okeepmyey esopenforhim buttheywere
feel
ingsoheav yt
heywer eslowl
yclosingandfinal
l
y
theydidbutIcoul dsti
l
l hearmyfrant
ichusband
beggingmet ohol donseei nghi
m cryful
lblown
tear
smakesmewi shtobeanor malpersonwitha
normal heart nowI '
m putti
ngmybabyt hroughall
ofthis i m sorr
yLwandl e.
•
Lwandl
e
Me:"canIgetanur
sei
nher
e?Damn!
!Somebody
?"I
shouted
Ididn'
twanttol
etgoofthemaskbutt
hissidet he
stupidnur
seswerenotat
tendi
ngt
ous,herclosed
eyesscar
edmewhati fshe'
sdeadbuthervit
als
seemedtobewellIkeptonpressi
ngtheemergency
butt
onwhati
sthisthi
ngdesignedfori
ftheywon't
rushtomywif
e,wel
lSisandawalkedi
n
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?She'
sdy
ing"
Hi
m:"
mov
ebr
uh"
Imovedawayandjustwatchedast
heyt
ri
edt
o
rev
iveherov
erandoveragain
Me:
"wakeherupman"
Si
sanda:
"Lwandl
ecal
m down"
Me:"
don'
tyouf
ucki
ngt
ell
met
hat
..
..Wakeherup
now"
Si
sanda:
"youknowwhatshe'
sfi
nebr
uhr
elaxgo
out
sidef
orfreshai
r"
Il
ookedathi
misheser
ioushewant
smet
oleav
e
mywife
Me:
"f
ucky
oumanj
ustwakeherup"
Hewentbacktot
ryi
ngt
orevi
vehert
il
lthemachi
ne
st
art
edbeati
ngnor
mall
yIl
etgoofmybr eat
hand
breat
hednormall
yagai
nIr
ant
ohersi
deandj
ust
heldherhandki
ssi
ngit
.
Me:
"i
ssheokay
?"
Henodandpatmyshoul
der
Si
sanda:
"andst
opcr
yingl
i
keagi
rl
"
Me:"
ughniggashepr
egnantwi
thmysecondchi
l
d
andIlov
ehersorel
ax"
Si
sanda:
"I
'm nevergett
ingmar
ri
edwi
thgi
rl
sfr
om
MpumalangaI'm outbr
uh"
Inodashewal
kedoutIj
ustst
oodupandki
ssedher
for
ehead
Me:"babeI'
m beggi
ngy
oudon'
tl
eaveme..
.I
seri
ouslydon'
tknowwhatI
'
ddowit
hmy sel
fify
ou
everlef
tme"
Iki
ssedherhandov erandov eragai
nshehast o
makeitrightnowCuluisinhisnicel
itt
lecel
lI'
l
lsee
him af
terri
ghtnowI'mf or
cingonmywi feandbabyI
havetofocusonget t
ingheroutofthehospit
al,
and
makingsureshe'ssettl
edinathomewhi chisgoing
tobeahust l
eIrememberaf tershewasshotIhadt o
begandalsodoat otalr
enovati
onofthehouse
whichcausedhundredofthousandsIwast ol
dto
buil
dasimplehousebutIjustchosesome
expensi
veshit butI '
m mov i
nghert
oanewhouse
alsogl
asshouseshootmebutIl iket
oseet hesun
ri
sewithoutopeni
ngthecurtai
nssoshe'l
lforgi
veme.
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ngf rustrat
edImeanLol owasn'twaking
upandi tfeltli
key earstomeIjustwantt ohearher
beautif
ul voi
ceagai nIknowshe' sbeensl eepi
ngf or
af ewmi nutesandImeanshe' ssl eepi
ngnotdead
ri
ghtthathast ocountf orsomet hingwel lmyphone
distur
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wantt oleaveLol oalonewhatifshewakesupand
I
'm nott
heref
orherlucki
l
ySakhil
ewalkedinShel
l
wakeupt oaf
amili
arfacesoshe'
llbef
ine.
Me:
"dudel
ookaf
terherI
'
llbeback"
Hi
m:"
andwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"t
oseeherdoct
orsoj
ustchi
l
lwi
thher
"
Heshr ugandjustplacedthebagsdownIwal kedout
andr ushedtoSisanda'
sof f
icehebett
erhav
eagood
reasonofmov i
ngmef rom mywi f
eorelseI
'l
lkil
lhi
m
Iwalkedi nt
ofindhim stuckready
ingsomepaper
work
Me:
"t
alk"
Hel
ookedatmeandpoi
ntedatt
hechai
r
Me:
"comeonj
ustoutwi
thi
t"
Hesi
ghed
Sisanda:
"dudeI'
l
lneedtodoanul
tr
asoundonLol
o
tocheckont hebaby"
Me:
"okaydoi
t"
Si
sanda:
"i
t'
snott
hatcutandnarr
owbruhf
rom her
bl
oodworkherenzy
mesl ev
elsar
ehi
gh"
Me:
"whyst
op?Cont
inue"
Sisanda:
"t
hebabyi
ski
l
li
ngherwe'
l
lhav
etor
emov
e
thebaby"
Me:
"what
?Sayy
ouar
eki
ddi
ng"
Sisanda:"
noseeifthi
sgoesonbothLel
oandthe
babywi l
ldiewell
that
'sift
hebabyi
snotdeadyet
..
..
Herliveri
sdyingoutbitbybi
t"
Me:
"nomany
oucan'
t.
..
.y
oucan'
tki
l
lmybabyman"
Sisanda:
"Iwouldn'
tsuggestt
hisifLolowasnoti
n
dangerbutgivenherpri
orhealt
hpr obl
emsit
'sri
sky
"
Mywholeworl
djustst
oodst
il
li
tfel
tli
kemyhead
wascracki
ngi
nhalfmywhol
ewor l
dstopped
spi
nni
ng
Me:
"t
hat
'sr
ubbi
shy
oucansav
ethem bot
hcomeon"
Heshookhishead Ifeltmyey
esbur
nwi
tht
ear
s
t
heystungIburi
edmyheadinmyar
ms.
Sisanda:
"I'
m sor
rydudeandyouknowifther
ewasa
betterwayI'
ddoi tI
'
dsavethem bot
hbutIcan'
tI
gottahelpLolo"
Iwi
pedt
hecor
nerofmyey
esandsni
ff
edabi
t.
Me:
"l
etmet
ell
Lol
omy
sel
f"
Si
sanda:"
canIdot
heul
tr
asoundnowt
hou?Justt
o
besafe"
Ilookedathim andnodwest oodupandwalkedout
togetherIwant
edt ocryact
uall
yIwantedtoscr
eam
outcauseIwascr yingwhenwegott other
oom Lol
o
wasst il
lsl
eepi
ngsoi twasbett
erforus.
Me:
"doi
tSakhi
l
etakeLesegohomenow"
Sakhi
l
e:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Me:
"j
ustgobef
orey
oubor
eme"
Sakhi
l
e:"
okaydon'
tbi
temyheadof
f"
Hestooduppi
cki
ngupLesegot
hemomentt
hey
wal
kedout
Me:
"doi
t.
."
Henodandj uststar
tedfi
xi
ngupLol ohedidthat
ul
trasoundofhisandthatfastheart
beatwewere
heari
ngallt
hosemont hswasn'tthere.
Me:
"whyai
n'
thi
shear
tbeat
ing?
"
Hej
ustshookhi
shead
Me:"uhuhcomeonhecan'
tbedeadthat
'l
lki
ll
her.
..
.dot
hatr
evi
vi
ngthi
ngofyour
sjustgethi
shear
t
backon"
Si
sanda:
"we'
llhav
etooper
atesoonpl
easenowLol
o
i
sindanger"
Me:
"No!
!Don'
tyouunder
stand?Nohe'
snotdead.
..
.
Hecan'
tbedeadmanhecan'tbe "
Hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatandj
ustwr
appedhi
sar
ms
ar
oundme
Sisanda:
"I
'm sor
rymanI
'
mreal
l
ysor
rybutwehav
e
todot hi
s..
..
"
Ipushedhi
m backandwi
pedmyt
ear
saway
Me:
"l
etmet
ell
herwhenshewakesup"
Si
sanda:
"t
hat
's.
..
."
Me:"
pleaseIknowLol
oshewouldhatey
oui
fyou
br
oket hi
stoherl
etmedoit
..
..I
'
llt
ell
her
"
Sisanda:
"youar
eawr ecky
our
sel
fman,
l
etmebe
herewheny outel
lher
"
Inodandjustr
ubbedmyLol
o'
sfor
ehandshe
fl
inched
Me:"If
ail
edherman,
Ifai
l
edthem bot
h.Whendi
dI
becomesoweak?Whendi dIbecomesobli
nd?
"
Her
ubbedmyshoul
der
Si
sanda:"
manIwi shIhadsomegoodnewsf
ory
ou
butIdon'
t.
..
..CanIwakeher?
"
Me:"
noumhnotnowgiv
emeaf ewbuty
oucan
wakeherupy
eahumhwakeherupandgiv
emea
f
ewmi nut
eswit
hher
"
Si
sanda:
"okaycool
"
Itr
iedt ogetmycomposur ebutwhywast emytimeI
wipedt hetearsawayashewentandi nj
ectedher
withsomet hingast heysaydoct or
sar ethenew
witchesinwhi tecoat scausemywi festarted
mov ingherey el
idslikeshewant edtowakeupand
shedi d,
herey esranar oundabitbutlandedonmeI
for
cedasmi lethroughmyt ear
s.
Me:
"Si
sandagoI
'
llbef
ine"
Si
sanda:
"yousur
e?"
Inod
Me:
"I
'l
lcal
lyouwhenIneedy
ou"
Henodandj ustwalkedoutnowIhav etofaceLolo
whowasl ooki
ngatmewi t
hregretonherfaceitwas
l
ikeshewantedtoapol ogi
zeagainforget
ti
ng
kidnappedIj
ustrubbedherfor
eheadshakingmy
head
Me:"
ever
ythi
ngwi
l
lbef
ine.
..
.BabyIpr
omi
se,
i
t'
ll
be
f
inemylove"
Ikissedherhandandjustl
aidmyheadonher
tummyandshest artedmovingherhandthroughmy
dreadlocks Irubbedhertummyandki ssedit.
Me:
"daddyi
ssor
ryy
oungchamp,
daddyi
ssosor
ry"
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
e?Lwandl
eI'
m hungr
y"
Me:
"youhungr
y?"
Lol
o:"
mmh"
Iwipedawaythestupi
dtear
sandjustgotuptogo
andgetherthefoodshewantsIgaveherthehot
wingsSakhi
l
ecamewi t
hbutshepushedthem away
.
Lol
o:"
theyar
ecol
dgi
vemet
hecakei
nst
ead"
Inodandj
usthel
pedherseatupst
rai
ght
Me:
"shoul
dIf
eedy
ou?
"
Shenod
Lol
o:"
whyar
eyoucr
ying?
..
..I
sev
ery
thi
ngokay
?"
If
orcedasmi
l
eandnod
Me:
"eatbabyy
ouneedt
hest
rengt
h..
.Her
e"
Ifedherandshemadesur etousethatt
oher
advantagebusyrubbi
nghertummyIdon'tcar
eifI
shouldn'
tfeedherbutshe'
shungr
y.
Me:
"wantmor
e?"
Sheshookherhead
Me:
"youokaynow?Doy
ouneedwat
er?
"
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
e?Lwandl
ewhatar
eyouhi
dingf
rom
me?"
Ishov
edt
het
akeawaybacki
ntot
hepaperbag.
Me:"
baby
..
..Myl
oveI
'
m sor
ryIf
ail
edy
ouguy
s,I
'
m
sor
ry"
Lol
o:"
sor
ry?Babeyoudi
dally
oucoul
dtorescueus
andyoudid.
..
wearebl
essedt
ohaveyouandour
babyi
sblessedt
ohaveyouasafat
her"
Me:"
that
'st
hethi
ng,Babythel
it
tl
eguyi
s..
..Myl
ove
hi
sheartst
opped,
he'sdead"
Shepul
l
edherhandawayf
rom meandj
ustsl
apped
me
Me:
"howcoul
dyoupl
ayl
i
ket
hat
?Ar
eyoucr
azy
"
Me:
" Lol
ohe'
sdeadI
'
m notpl
ayi
nghe'
sdead.
..
"
Sheshookherhead
Lol
o:"
nomybabyisal
ive.
..
.she'
sfi
ne,
nonoIdon'
t
bel
i
eveyoushe'
snotdead"
Ir
ubbedmyhandst
oget
her
Me:
"she?
"
Lol
o:"
howdoy
ouknow?Whot
oldy
ou?
"
Shewasshout
ing
Me:
"cal
m downpl
ease.
..
.Yourbodyi
sst
il
lweak"
Lol
o:"
whathappeneddammi
t!
!Whathappened?
"
Shebr
okedowncoveri
ngherfacewi
thherhands
It
ri
edtot
ouchherbutsheshovedmeaway.
Lol
o:"
don'
ttouchme.
..
don'
t"
Me:
"babyther
ewasnot
hingtheycoul
ddo,
thebaby
wasslowl
ykil
li
ngy
oubitbybit
"
Thewayshel ookedatmeyoucouldtell
t hiswas
purehatr
edormay beshewasri
ghttohat emeI
deserveeverythi
ngri
ghtnowbutIdon'tthinkI
deservel
osingmyunbor nchi
l
dIdon'tdeser v
ethat
atall
neitherdoesmywi f
e.
Me:
"I
'm sor
ry.I
'
m sosor
rymyl
ove"
Shejustgav
emeherbackcov
eri
ngher
sel
fwi
tht
he
sheet ‍♂
Me:"
Lol
o?Pl
easedon'
tshutmeoutI
'
m beggi
ngy
ou
pl
ease"
Lol
o:"
Getout
"
Me:"babypl
ease..
.Theyhav
etooper
ateassoonas
possibl
eand..
..
"
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
egetout
!!
!"Sheshout
ed"
Gopl
ease,
j
ust
go"
Me:
"Lol
o "
Thatcameoutasawhi sperIwasdef eat edby
seei
ngmywi fedefeatedIwant edt oj
ustholdher
andtel
lherevery
thingwillbefinethatthebabywill
surv
ivebutIcan'
tcauseImy selfknowt hat'
snott
rue
Isl
owlystooduppleasedon' tcryLwandl e.
Me:"
Iloveyousomuchmywi f
eandI '
llber
ighther
e
wheny ouneedme..
.I'
l
lleaveyourphonehereokay
andmynumberi sonspeeddialwheny ouneedme
j
ustcallme.I'
l
lnev
erstoplovi
ngy ou"
Shejustsni
ffedIki ssedhercheekandwalkedout
mybabywasn' tbl
inkingatall
shewasjuststar
ingat
thewallwit
ht earsflowingdownshedidn'
tevensay
awor d dammi tCul u
.
Lol
o
Deat
h
Deat
hisever
ywhere,
deat
hhasnomercyanddeath
i
sdefi
ant
lynotpi
ckywhethery
ouar
einnocent
,gui
lt
y,
ri
ch, poor ,si
ckorheal thydeat hi
sy ourf riend.But
whocr eat eddeath?I sitGodt hecr eatorofheav en
andEar th,whygiv elifeandal sot akeagai n.Whygi ve
someonehopet hatt hey'llbeapar entt hatt hey '
ll
bringsomeonei ntot hisEar thbutt akeitawayas
quicklyasy oubr oughti t.Doy ouev enexi st?Ist here
ahi gherpoweri nt heheav ens?Ifsowhycr eate
deat h whyl etithur tev enthegoodones, t
ake
awayt hesweetandi nnocentonesl eavingt he
creaturesoft hi
swor l
d.Am Inotwor t
hyoft his
privil
egey ou'
vegi venot herwomen, am Inotwor thy
forhappi nessiny ourey eshuhwhathav eIev erdone
toy ou, Ifoll
owedt het encommandment stot heTI
madesur eIbel i
evei ny ouev enwheny oul eftmey et
youst illtakefrom me myi nnocentbabyhav en't
evenseent hesunr isenorbr eathedt hispol l
utedai r
butYOUt ookherf rom me, f
rom ushowcr uel can
yoube.
Will
i
am Shakespearewasr
ightwhenhesai
dDeath
benotproudorwashe?Youst i
ll
managedtot
ake
theonl
ythingthatwasmydriv
ingfor
ceawayf
rom
me
Deathyouar eanev ilheart
lessbastar
d al
l t
he
i
nnocentsoul syouhav ebeencol l
ecti
ngwer en'tthey
enough,didn'ty
out akeenoughi nnocentlivest hat
youhadt oaddmi nemypr eciouschil
dmyf irstchil
d
youtookawayf rom meIhopey ouarepr oudand
happywithy ourselffory ouhaveShatteredme
beyondrepair.
.
Iwasnumbt othepai nIwasnumbt othefactthat
mybabyi sgone, nothingnoranyonemadesense
Rightnowt heonlythatmadesensewasmybaby
mypr eci
ousl i
tt
lepumpki nwhowasmymot ivat
ion
i
nt hathel l
holenowi ssupposedlygonebutwhydoI
sti
llfeelconnectedt omybabyIj usthadcravi
ngs
notsol ongagoIhadcr avi
ngs ,Ihadt hem.My
wor l
dwasj uststandingtherewait
ingforasunshine
butitnev ercamei twasst uckbehindtheshadowof
death,doom andhor r
orallinoneplace.
"
Lol
oit
'st
ime"
Theyspokebutwhatar
etheyspeaki
ngaboutt
ime
forwhathuhandwhoareyou,t
heywerebusy
touchi ngme, probingmel ikeI '
m somel abratbutI
didn'tut terasingl ewor dj ustmyt ear sdidallthe
speaki ngwi t
ht heirtearsIwaswheel edoutwi th
Lwandl ecryi
ngbehi ndme hewasal sowear i
ng
ast hedoct orsbutwhent heyar ri
vedt otheir
dest inat i
ontheyi njectedmydr ipwit hwhat everand
sooni fseemedl iket heywer ecut t
ingmeopenbutI
wasst il
lnumbt opai nIcoul dn'tfeel it.Lwandlewas
grippi ngonmyhandbusyapol ogising sooni twas
l
ight soutf ormeIcoul dfeel mychi ld'ssoul
wei ghi ngdownonme, cryingoutf ormebutIf ailed
herandherf atherIdon' tdeser velife,dearMrdeat h
takemeaswel l j ustendmypai nandsuf f
ering
pleasel etmedi ewhi leI'
m sl eepingt hat '
dbemuch
easi ert odot akemepl ease Ican' tpretendt obe
okaywhenIknowI '
m notsopl ease spareme
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11/
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nne:
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sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 42♡
.
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Iwokeupabi tdizzyIpul
ledmyhandawayf r
om
Lwandl
eIrubbedmybel l
ybutitwasf l
at Ist art
ed
pani
cki
ngsear chingbutwhatwasIsear chingfor
she'
sgone.Iscreamedmyl ungsoutpulli
ngonmy
hai
rwakingLwandl eupintheprocess.
Me:
"IWANTMYBABY!
!!
!"
Hi
m:"
Baby
..
..
..Lol
olookatmepl
ease.
"
Hewasbusyt
ryi
ngt
ohol
dmyhandsbutIkepton
sl
appi
nghi
m
Me:
"gi
vememybaby
..
..Pl
ease pl
ease"
Ij
ustf
eltasl
apl
andonmycheek Il
ookedat
hi
m wit
htear
sst
reami
ngdownhischeeks
Hi
m:"
he'sgone.
..
..
he'
sgoneokayLuy
andai
sgone
mamakhe"
Iscr
eamedcoveri
ngmyearsshaki
ngmyheadhe
gotonthebedandwr
appedhisarmsar
oundme
Me:
"hecan'
tbe..
..
..
No!
!Uhuhhe'
sal
i
vehehast
oli
ve
f
ormehehast o"
Hepul
l
edmecl
osert
ohi
mrubbi
ngmyhead.
Hi
m:"
he'
sdead.
..
.I
'
m sor
rybuthe'
sgone.
"
Heki ssedmyheadIwassopower l
essitfi
nall
ysunk
i
nmybabyi sgonehowcoul dheleaveme, Imean
hewassupposedt oli
veformeIfoughtforhim why
decidetoleav
emewhenwear einasafeplace
doeshehat ethethoughtofmebeinghismot her
thatmuchIgr i
ppedonLwandle'sshi
rtsohard
pull
ingonit
Him:"
I'
m sorr
ymylove.
..He,
umhIdon'tknowwhat
heisbut.
..
. I '
m sor
ryIfai
l
edyou,
Ifail
edyouguy
sI
wasn'
tthere"
Iwaspunchinghischestsoslowlyitwasj ustsmall
l
azypuncheshear i
nghim speakwellactuall
yhe
soundedli
keaswanofbeesj ustmakingnoi sehow
coul
dmybabydeci detogowi t
houtmewhyl eav
e
meint hi
scruelworldwellSi
sandawalkedi n,hewas
hol
dingsomet hi
nginhisarmsIquicklypushedaway
Lwandleandsatupst r
aight
Me:"
isthatmybaby
?SeeIt
oldy
ouhe'
sokay
.He'
d
nev
erleaveme"
Si
sandaj
ustcl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatandgav
emet
he
mostbeaut
if
ulbaby sot
inyandl
i
ghtski
nned
Me:
"whyi
sn'
themov
ing?He'
ssocol
d"
Si
sanda:"
Lol
ohe'
sdeadIt
houghty
ouwantedt
osee
hi
m befor
etheyt
akehi
mtothemorgue"
Myt earswerefall
ingonhi sti
nyf ace,l
etme
descri
bemypumpki nli
ghtskinned,darkbushy
eyebrows,darkpi
nkl i
ps.Softblackhairthati
sso
shinylonggirl
yeyelashesandasmal lnosehewas
sobeaut i
fulnohe'sstil
lbeauti
ful.Ihel
dhisfi
sted
l
itt
lehandandki ssedhisf or
ehead
Lwandl
e:"
babe?
"
Me:"
he'
sbeaut i
ful
..
..He'
ssobeaut
if
ulbabakhe,
he'
l
l
bearealladi
esmanLesegowi l
lbesohappytosee
hi
sbrother"
Lwandle:
"baby.
..
."Heclear
edhi
sthr
oat"y
eahhe'sa
handsomef el
l
owgott hegenesf
rom t
heyou.Don'
t
youwannanamehi m?"
If
ixedhi
sti
nybl
anket
Me:
"Smangal
i
so.
.y
eahSmangal
i
soSokhul
u"
Hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
Me:
"don'
tyouwannahol
dhi
m?
Lwandl
e:"
uhnoy ou.
..
youholdhi
m Ihav
etot
alkt
o
Si
sandaaboutsomething"
Inodhi
sfatherwascryi
nglikesomeonebeathim
well
hewalkedoutwithSisandaleavi
ngmewi t
h
Smangal
iso Ikissedhispoutylipsbut
..Hewasso
col
dhe'
scold.
Ihuggedhi
m cl
osert
omehummi
ngf
orhi
m.
Me:"babysoonwe' llbegoi
nghome,j
ustyou,
me,daddyandy ourbrot
herandohUncl
eSakhil
e.
You'l
llov
ehi m causeIknowhe'l
ll
oveyoutoori
ght
?
Mommyl ovesy ousomuch"
Irockedhi
m backandforthsingi
ngSil
entnightfor
him ImeanIstar
tedwithsingi
ngthatf
orLesegot i
ll
hegotusedtomyv oicesoIgot t
astar
thim offwit
h
thattoo andmybabywassoqui tej
ustli
steni
ng
tomesi ng
"
Lol
oIhav
etot
akehi
m now"
Me:
"wher
ear
eyout
aki
nghi
m?Can'
tyouseeI
'
m
t
ryi
ngt
oputhi
mtosl
eep?
"
Sisanda:
"Lol
oyoursoni
sdead,
ther
ewasnot
hingwe
coulddohewast oosmall
"
Me:
"No!He'
snotdead,
howcomeI
'
m hol
dinghi
m?
He'
sri
ghther
einmyarms"
Lwandl
e:"
babehe'
sdeadmyl
oveandt
heyhav
eto
takehi
m now"
Ishookmyheadcl
utchi
ngonhi
m
Me:
"no.
..
mybabyi
snotdead"
Sisanda:
"Lol
ohewasjust18weeksol
dweser
iousl
y
couldn'
tdoanyt
hing"
Me:"
you'
relyi
ng.
..Theyar
ely
ingbabyyoudidn'
t
l
eavemey ou'
dnev erl
eav
emeandI '
m nev
erlett
ing
yougo"
Lwandl
etr
iedt
otouchhi
m butImov
edawayf
rom
hi
m.
Me:"don'
ttouchhi
m..
..Youwannaki
l
lhi
m don'
tyou?
Justli
kehim"
Lwandl
e:"
babeI
'
dnev
erdot
hatandy
ouknowt
hey
real
l
yt r
iedbuti
twast oolat
eIsawt
hem t
ryIswear
buthisheartwasn'
tbeati
ng"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"getout
!!Bot
hofy
ougetout
"
Ishout
ed
Si
sanda:
"Lol
o..
."
Me:
"j
ustgol
eav
emeal
onewi
thhi
m pl
ease"
HelookedatLwandl
ewhonodandSi
sandawal
ked
outbutLwandl
esatdown.
Me:
"getoutnow!
!"
Heshookhi
sheadandt
ookouthi
sphone
Lwandl
e:"
don'
tyouwanttot
akeapi
ctur
ewi
thhi
m?
Justt
orememberhim by
"
Me:
"he'
snotdeadLwandl
e hecan'
tbedead"
Lwandle:
"he'
srest
ingokayandhe'
shappywher
ever
heisandhe'swatchi
ngov ery
ou"
Me:"
Idon'
twanthi
mtowat
chov
erme i
wanthi
m
her
ewithme"
Lwandl
e:"
Iknow,
Iknowmyl
ovebut
..
."
Me;
"pl
easego.
..
.j
ustl
etmebewi
thhi
m al
one"
Lwandl
e:"
Ican'
t.
..
"
Me:
"Go!
!"Ishout
ed
Henodandst
oodup
Me:
"passmemyphonef
ir
st "
Lwandl
e:"
why
?Usemi
ne"
Hegavemehisphonehewal kedoutleavi
ngmet
o
scr
ambletoopenthephoneanddialLuyol
o's
numbersheansweredqui
ckl
y.
Yoy
o:"
brot
her
?"
Ij
ustbr
okedown
Yoy
o:"
Sesi
?What
'swr
ong?Ar
eyouokay
?"
Me:
"he'
sdead.
..
.Yol
ohe'
sdead,
mybabyi
sdead"
Shejustwentqui
tel
ikeshedidn'
tevenhearmebutI
knewshedid.Ihear
dhersnif
fleabitbef
oreclear
ing
hert
hroatmybabysisisnotgoodatcontorti
ng
someonebutshe'sagoodli
stenerandgivesthe
bestadv
iceshe'
swiseforheragebutwhatcanIsay
shehadmef oranol
dersist
er.
Yoyo:
"Nonomysorrywon'
tbri
nghim back,he'
sata
muchbetterpl
acer
ight
?Iwil
lgetonthefir
stbuson
Fri
dayokay.
.."
Me:"
uhuhyouhaveschool
andIdon'
twanty
our
par
entsbr
eat
hingdownmyneck"
Yoyo:
"t
hereisast
ri
keany
wayI'
m comi
ngokay
..
..
Shoul
dItell
mamaandpapa?"
Me:
"mmh"
Yoy
o:"
okayIl
ovey
ouNono"
Me:
"Lov
eyout
ooYoy
o"
Ihungupandjuststaredatmyquitebabyit'
shard
toacceptt
hatthi
sli
ttl
ebeautif
ulboydidn'
tevengive
meachancet otel
lhim howmuchIl ovehim orev
en
feelhi
m ki
ckIwasst i
l
l wai
ti
ngforthatmomentbut
he'sgoneIki
ssedhi
spout yli
ps.
Me:"
youar
esobeaut
if
ul,
mommyi
ssopr
oudt
ohav
e
you.
"
Ri
ghtnowIhat
eseei
ngLwandl
eandSi
sandacause
Iknowtheyareheretotakehi
m awayfr
om me.
Lwandl
etri
edt okissmycheekbutImovedaway
andgavehim hisphone.
Me:
"pl
easej
ustonemor
emi
nut
epl
ease"
Sisanda:
"'
sor
rybuthe'
sbeenher
eforl
ongnowI
havetotakehim"
Ishookmyhead
Lwandle:
"babepl
easei
t'
senoughnowl
ethi
m go
pl
ease.Hehast ot
akehim"
Me:"
whydoy ouwanthi
mtot
akeourbaby?Tel
lhi
m
nott
oplease,
tal
ktohi
m" "yousai
d..
.y
ousaid
you'
l
lpr
otectusLwandl
edoi
tnow"
Lwandle:
'
I'
m sorr
ylovebutther
eisnot
hingwecan
doforhim butj
ustl
ethim go"
Hewascr y
ingbusymut t
eri
ngpleaseIdidn'twantto
l
ethim goIkissedhisfaceoverandoveragai nbut
heain'
twakingupheai n'
tmakingasound.Isl owly
str
etchedmyhandst ogiveSisandathebabyI '
m
gi
vingawayhal fofmyheart myent i
rewor ldi
s
gonethemomenthet ookhim awayIstartedcryi
ng
sil
entl
ybutIcoul
dfeelmyheartshatteri
ntosmal l
ti
nypiecesashewalkedoutwithmybabyIj ust
brokedownagainIkeptoncall
i
ngf orhimt obri
ng
backmybaby ineedtoseehim onel astti
me,
thi
ssideLwandlehadhisheadburi
edi nhishands
onthebed
.
Lwandl
e
Imeanwhosai dmendon' tcryismadcauseseei ng
mywi febr eakdownl iket hisshewasbr okenIcoul d
seethatandnowI 'm sopower lesstoev ent ell
her
thati
t'l
lbeokayIcan' tev enhol dherandcomf orther
howcany oucomf ortsomeonewheny ouy ourself
areawr eckt hati
sn'tpossi blet hat'
swhyIj ustlether
cryit
'sbetterifshelet'sital l
outt hi
swayshewon' t
havecompl i
cati
onsgoi ngf orthshe'l
lbef ineRight ?
She'l
lbefineIknowi tshe' sst r
ongIdi dn'traisemy
headunt i
lshepul l
edonmyhai rIl
ookedupandsaw
herredey escheeksf ill
edwi thtearsIwi pedmyt ears
Me:
"yes?
"
Lol
o:"
hol
dmepl
ease"
Inodandj ustgotont hebedshemov edabi t
maki ngspacef ormebutt urnedaroundgi vingme
herback Ij ustsnuggl edcl oset oherhear ingher
softsobssot hisi swhatwehav ebecomei nj usta
daycr yi
ngi diotsIdi dn'tsayany t
hingtoherIj ust
heldherspeaki ngwoul dj usthurthermakehercr y
out.Iguessshef ellasleepcauseshewast i
redand
I'
mt hankf ul shei ssl eepi ngshe' scri
edenoughf or
oneday .Igav ei taf ewmi nut esandwhenshewas
compl etelyoutIgotof fthebedwor emyshoesand
j
ustki ssedherf or eheadCul uwil
lpayf orthisIcalled
upmycont actatt hepr isont ogethimr eadyandt o
switchof fal lthecamer asIdr ovetothepr i
soni n
anothercarnotmyownandwhenIgott hereIwas
takent othe' int errogat i
onr oom'justtof i
ndmy
cousinr elaxedbuthi sf acechangedwhenhesaw
meev enj umpi ngup.
Me:"
surpri
se!Whyarey
ousoafr
aidofme?Imean
youproveditt
haty
ougotbal
l
stogoagainstme"
Iwalkedtowardshi
m pl
aci
ngmyphoneandcarkey
s
onthetable.
Me:
"seatdown"
Ibangedt
het
abl
e
Me:
"seatdown!
!"
Cul
u:"
wil
lyoucal
m downy
ouhav
eyourwi
feback"
Me:"
butIl
ostmyson,
mysecondsonallbecauseof
youfor
get
ti
ngyourpl
ace.Youf
orgott
hatImadey ou
Imadeyou,menooneelse"
Hekeptqui
etst
ari
ngatme
Me: "
youshoul
dbecelebrati
ngrightnowthouImean
yougotwhatyouwant ed'br
eakLwandl eandhis
wife'mywifei
sbrokenbuty oushouldn'
thave
brokenmecousin"
Cul
u:"
shewasn'
tmeantt
olose.
..
"
Me:"wasn'tmeanttolosethebaby?Youf l
imsyson
ofabi t
ch..
..Rememberwhaty outoldme?That
you'
llmakesur eIknowhowi tfeel
stoseemywi f
e
vi
olated?Nowseehowi tf
eel
sheari
ngy ourchi
ldcry
fr
om painandbei nghurtbytheonepersony ou
tr
ustedy ourfr
iendBlake"
Cul
u:"
pleasedon'
thur
thershe'
sjustaki
d"
Me:
"sowasmyson!
"Ishout
ed"ahandsome
ki
d..
..
he'
sdeadnow"
Iunlockedthephoneandj ustwentt omygal l
erysee
Itookpictur
esofhi m whent heywerestil
lwai ti
ngfor
Lolot owakeupsot hatshecoul dseehimt heyt ri
ed
tosav ehim eventhef actthathisl
ungsact uallyhis
ent i
rebodyorganswer eunderdevelopeddi dn'thel
p
eitherbuthefoughtf orhismamawhenshewasst il
l
kidnappednowi tstimef ordaddytot akeov er.I
shov edthephonei nhisface.
Me:
"l
ookathi
m, l
ookathi
m...
..
Lookathowsmallhe
wasandyouki
ll
edhim,myinnocentchi
l
d.Pay
back"
Idi
aledBl
akeni
ggaisn'
twor
kingformehe'
sgoing
todi
eanywayaft
erhedoesevery
thi
ngIwanthi
mt o.
Me:
"Bl
akedoi
t"
Ihadputt
hecal
lonl
oudspeaker
Blake:
"buty
ouar
est
il
lgoi
ngt
oletmyf
ami
l
ygo
ri
ght"
Me:"
dealoutofthewindownowdoitorelseI'
llbur
n
al
lofyouali
vewhichismuchbet
terthan.
...
yeaha
ni
ceBBQr i
ghtjustt
hesweetsmel
lofhumanf l
esh
by
e"
Ihungup
Me:
"sowishIwasclosebytoseethat
..
.ButIcan't
gobackt
omywi fesmell
ingli
keroast
edchicken."
Cul
u:"
howev
ilar
eyou?
"
Me:
"ev
ilt
othepoi
ntwher
eev
enSat
ancomest
ome
f
ori
deas"
Cul
u:"
comeonman"
Me:
"shutup!!Idon'
tcomeonguy
sIhav
eawi
fef
or
t
hatpurpose..
."
'
Punchinghim cameeasytomeIpunchedhi
mti
l
lhe
st
artedbleedi
ngbutsti
ll
Icoul
dn'
tst
op
Me:
"you'
l
ldi
eher
eandnow"
Iwasgett
ingbloodal
lov
ermebutIst oppedand
j
usttookoutmygunshoot i
nghim mul
ti
pleti
mesin
theheadain'
tnowayhe'
llsurv
ivet
ohauntme.
Me:
"nowIf
eel
bet
ter
"
It
ookmycarkeysandphonewalki
ngoutoft
here
whenIgott
othecarIdi
aledChadsomeguyI
'm
wor
kingwi
thheanswer
edasf
astasIt
oldhi
mto.
Me:
"bl
owi tupandmakesurenooneisal
i
veaf
ter
t
hat
...
..Getourguy
soutandbl
owitup"
Chad:
"okayIgoti
tsohe'
sdead?
"
Me:
"asIsai
d"
Ihungupandj ustdr oveintothef orestnearbyt he
hospi t
alIchangedt hebloodycl othesandwor e
cleanonesIgotoutl ookinglikethenor mal personI
am Iwal kedupbi tandj ustblewupt hecarIwentt o
bewi t
hmywi fewhoneedsmer ightnow she' s
safef ornowIknowt hatcrazyboy f
riendofhersi s
stil
laliv
esomewher eoutt hereandi fIknowhowI 'd
behav ewhenshel eavesmet henI '
m surehe'll
behav ethesamenot ur
ningback.Igoti nt
oherr oom
tofindherstil
lsleepingsoIj ustgotont hebed
kissinghercheek
Me:
"Il
oveyoumyl
ovet
hrought
hickandt
hinI
'
llbe
t
her
e..
..
."
Isnuggl
edcl
oset
oherandt
ri
edtosl
eepbuti
tcame
easi
lyIwast
ir
edIhadal
ongday
.
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11/
2,21:
28]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 43♡
.
ք ռ օք ♡
.
Iwasst ucki nmyownwor ldev ersincemybabydi ed
hediedi nsideofmemybodycoul dn'tprotecthim
anymor eImeanIhadt obur ymyl i
ttl
ebaby not
thatIsawany thi
ngcauseIwokeupi nthehospi tal
withLwandl ebusycr yi
ngnextt ome Ij ustlostal l
myst rengthwhenIhear dourfami lymember s
apologisingf orourlosswhyapol ogizetheywer en't
theretheydi dn'tseehowcut ehel ooked,hisinnocent
l
itt
lefacenoneoft hem sawi tbutt heyact edli
ke
theyknewhi m nobodyknewhi m nooneatal lthey
shouldn'tpret endtoknowhi m especi all
ymypar ents
theydidn'tknowhi m onlyIknewhi m Ionlyfelthis
connect edtohi m.Hisfaceisst i
lll
odgedi nmymi nd
hissweetsof thandsIcanst ill
f eelthem onmy
fi
nger s,
softli
pst i
nyl i
tt
lenosebutt heyhav ether i
ght
tosayt heyar esor rywi l
ltheirsorrywillbringhi m
backt omemaket hisholei nmyhear tv anishcause
Iser iouslydon'tthinkany t
hingorany onecancl oseit
.
Iwal kedi ntothehouseaf termysocal ledt herapy
since' everyone'thoughti twasgoodf ormecauseI
don' ttalkanymor eoreatl ikeIusedt o If reaking
l
ostmybabyandt heywantmet o
talk,smile,l
augh,eatorev enbel ov eydov eywi t
hmy
husbandwhi chIf oundbusyt r
yingtohushLesegoI
throwmykey sandt hebagont hecof feet ablegoing
tot akehi mf rom Lwandl e
Lwandl
e:"
howwasy
oursessi
on?
"
Ishrugandjustt ookLesego'
sbott
legoingtoseat
withhim onthecouchIf edhi
m busyhummi ngto
himt i
ll
hefel
l asleepandthenIwenttosleepwith
himi nmybedr oom anythi
ngtoavoidhi
sf at
her'
s
stat
ingwaiti
ngf orthatonewordfrom me Isl ept
behindSegojustr ubbi
nghisback.
Me:"y
ouyoungmanaregoi
ngtobethemostbossy
yetki
ndboy,
youhav
eyourbabybr
other
'sear
s..
.hi
s
t
inynosey
oul
ookj
ustl
i
kehi
m"
Ihummedforhi
m sincet
hat
'
sal
lIdohum t
il
lhe'
s
sl
eepi
ngpeacef
ull
y.
"
Lol
ocanIt
alkt
oyou?
"
Isl
owlygotoutofbedandpull
edLesegotot
he
middl
edon'twanthi
mt or
ollof
fandfall
anddieI
can'
tl
oseasecondchil
dit'
dbreakme.
If
ollowedLwandl ebusyclut
chingonmyCar di
gan
myev erydayoutf
it
,l
eggings,
baggyT-shir
tanda
Cardiganwithmyt r
ainersmessyhairnomakeup
j
ustmynor malself
.Hewassi t
tingonthestai
rcase
soIsatt her
etoo
Hi
m:"
Ijustgotof
fthephonewi
thy
ourshr
ink"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Hetri
edt
otouchmemybodyj
ustqui
cklyr
eact
ed
andmovedawayhecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatandfi
ddl
ed
wit
hhist
humb.
Him:"
it
'sbeenthr
eeweekssinceyoustart
edbutst
il
l
Ial
way sgett
hesamereportit
'sei
theryoushr
ugor
completel
ybecomemotionl
ess.Whatdoy ouwant
met
odo?
"
Ishr
ugf i
ddl
ingwithmyCardi
gantal
ki
ngisjusta
wasteofmyener gywhyt
alkhowwill
thatf
ix
anyt
hingorchangethesi
tuat
ionI
'
mi nri
ghtnow.
Him:"
Lol oyouar ehurti
ngmewheny ouarel i
kethis,
thespacebet weenuswhenwesl eep,walk,
seat i
ngor
havi
ngdi nneri thur
tsmedeepdown.Babyy ouhav e
l
ostwei ghty oumaynotnot i
ceitbutit
'swor ry
ingto
thi
nkint hr
eeweeksy oucanlosesomuchwhat
aboutther est?Ijustwantmywifebackist hattoo
mucht oaskf or"
Hesni
ff
edabitmyhandwant
edtotouchhi
m butI
r
est
rai
nedmysel
fIcl
earedmythr
oat
.
Him:"
umhI'
l
lbegoingwithyoutomor
rowtoyour
sessi
ony
ourther
apistsai
dIshoul
dbether
e"
Ij
ustnodandst
aredathi
m wi
thar
aisedey
ebr
ow
Hi
m:"
it
'sf
inego.
..Iseey
ouwantt
ogo"
Ist
oodupgoingtothebedr
oom tosleepIwokeup
l
ateri
ntheni
ghttofi
ndLwandleholdi
ngmywai stI
sl
owlymovedhishandandjustgotofft
hebedgoing
i
ntothebathroom Ifi
ll
edthebathtubwi t
hwater
col
dwat erIgotinseati
ngtherej
ustsoakingmysel
f
i
nitcauseitfel
tsogoodIgotoutaf terafew
minutesgoingtoapplysomebodyl oti
onandwore
myt r
ainer
swi t
htracksui
tsty
ingmyhai ri
ntoa
messybunIt ookmycarkey sbutmyhehel dmy
hand.
Him:
"thi
shastostopLolot
hishast ostop.
..
..You
can'
talway
sgot othecemeter
ythislat
e,wedon't
knowwhat'soutt
hereandI'
mt i
redofthis"
Iy
ankedmyhandawayandtr
iedrunni
ngbuthe
j
umpedofft
hebedandj
ustheldmeback
Iscr
eamedbusyf
ight
ingt
ogetoutofhi
shol
d.
Him:"babypl
ease,
pleaseI'
m beggi
ngy oustop
hurt
ingmel i
kethi
s.He'snevercomingbackno
matterwhatwedohe' snevercomingback"
Me:
"j
ustl
etmego letmegot
ohi
m..
..Heneeds
meheneedshi
smot
her LetMeGo!
"
Hi
m;"nonowst
opt
hisbef
oreIl
osei
t.
..
.Gobackt
o
sl
eepnow"
Hej
ustpushedmeawayf
rom t
hedoorandl
ockedi
t.
Him:"takeoffy ourshoesandgeti ntobed. ..Iknow
youar ehurtingandI '
m sor r
ybuty ouact i
ngl iket hi
s
won'tbr i
nghi m backnormakey oufeelanybet terit
won'tbabyandy oumi ghtthi
nkt hepainy ouar e
feel
ingnooneel sei sfeel
ingitbutIam andI '
mr ight
hereusemeasy ouwi shbutpleasest opt his.I'
m
scaredofl osingy outhat'
smybi ggestfearr i
ghtnow
somyl ovetalktomewhat everyouwantI 'lldoi t
.
What everyouwantmet obuyI 'l
lbuyitbutpl easeits
enoughnow.I t'
st i
mewef ocusedonheal ingandl et
himr estinpeace"
Isatont hebedbur yi
ngmyf acei nmyhandsand
j
ustcr iedwhydoesn' tthispai nstopnowwhydoesi t
feelsonew.If eelslikeeverysi ngledaysomeone
j
ustcomeswi t
hsal tandr ubsi tinthesamewound
whennev eritt
ri
est oheal stheyj ustpokei tl
eav i
ngi
t
oozingbl oodthent heytakemyhear toutandj ust
stabitov erandov erwithat inyneedl etheynev er
stopst abbingi
tdayi nanddayoutmyhear ti
s
bleedingoutandI '
m becomi ngsl owlypower lessbut
Idon'tdieIsurviv
ef oryetanot herdayoft ort
ure
seeingwomenwi ththeirbabi
esatthehospi
tal
every
ti
meIgot othatsil
lytherapi
sti
tal
lstar
tsovert
he
painIf el
tthedayIlastheldmybaby t hepainis
sti
llrawbutev er
yoneexpect smetobesmi l
i
ng
I'
m br okenandabr okenpersondoesn'
tsmil
ethey
gri
n.
Lwandl
egotonhi
skneesandj
ustl
if
tedupmyl
eg
taki
ngof
fthet
rai
ner
sIwasweari
ng.
Hi
m:"
comegeti
nto.
..
..
."
Isl
appedhi mri
ghtacrossthef
acehehel
donhis
cheeklooki
ngatmey oucouldseehewasangr
ybut
hejusttookadeepbreath.
Hi
m:"i
sthi
swhatwi
llmakeyoufeel
bett
er?Wil
li
t
makeyoutal
ktome?Thenslapmeall
youli
kehit
me"
Ibegansl appinghimtaki
ngall
myangerouton
him henev erstoppedmehewasj ustlooki
ngatme
withglassyey es Isawat earstr
oll
downhis
cheekLor dwhatam Idoi ngtomyhusbandplease
for
giveme.Ij ustfel
ldownonmykneesandhugged
him
Me:
"I
'm sor
ry,
I
'm sor
ry.I
'
m sososor
ry I
'
m sor
ry"
Her
ubbedmybackhushi
ngme
Hi
m:"
let
'ssl
eepbabyy
ouneedt
orest
"
Hepul ledawayf r
om thehugandpi ckedmeup
l
ay i
ngmeont hebedt othi
nkt hi
sistheclosestwe
hav ebeensi ncethebabydi edIgotundert hecov er
s
l
ooki ngawaywhenhegotbehi ndmet r
yingt ohug
meandIsowanthi mt oholdmebutmymi ndjust
makesmybodymov eawayf rom hi
m awayf rom hi
s
touchhi stouchseemst oxi
ctomybodyr ightnowI
hear dhim breathoutheav i
l
yandr eti
retohi s
sleepingposi t
ionwhichislookingatthecei li
ngifhe
evensl eepscauseIsomet i
mesf eelhim stari
ngat
mei nt hemiddl eoft
heni ght.
Hi
m:"
giv
emet
hecarkey
siny
ourpocket
"
It
ookthem outandj
ustgav
ethem t
ohi
m notev
en
l
ooki
ngathim
Hi
m:"andtakeof
fyourJer
seyyouknowv er
ywell
whatheat
ingupdoestoyouandyourpantstoo"
Seehet
reat
smel
i
keI
'
mthi
sat
omi
cbombwai
ti
ng
toexplodeandl andupi nhospi t
alordiebut
what ev
erIj usttookof feverythingandhegav eme
hisshirtsoIwor eitandsleptorIst aredatthewal l
whichev ermakesy ourhearthappyandLwandl enow
sleepsonsl eepingpi l
lsjustforhimt ofal
lasleephe
hast odr i
nkpill
sf ormei t'
seasycauseexhaust ion
takesittollonmeandIt rytof all
asleepbutafter
tearswetmypi ll
ow.
Hi
m:"Lol
oIcan'tf
all
asleepagain,
don'
tyouwanna
st
ayupandtalk?Wellyouli
stenandIt
alksor
tal
ike
ashr
inkandcl
ienttypeofvi
be"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
wannasi
ngmeasong?
"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
wannasl
eep?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
butIcan'
tsl
eepsowhatshoul
dIdo?
"
Ishr
ug
Him:
"don'
tyourmuscl
esgett
ir
edwhenyoukeepon
doi
ngthat
?Shrug,
nodandshakey
ourhead?
"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
socausey
ouar
enott
alki
ngt
ocany
ouatl
east
l
ookatme?"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
pleasey
ouknowIcan'
tsl
eep.
..
"
Igotoutofbedanddr aggedmy sel
ftowardsthe
doorhewasr i
ghtbehindmewi thendlessquest
ions
Iwentt otheki
tchenandj ustwarmedupsomemi lk
forhim.Igavehimt heglassandwentbackt othe
room hecamei nwi t
hhisglassIignor
edhim and
gotintobed
Hi
m:"
wil
lthi
shel
pmesl
eep?
"
Inod
Him:"
wil
l i
tal
somakey outoletmeholdyouwhil
e
wesleep?Imissholdi
ngyouallni
ghtwit
houtyour
bodycri
ngingundermytouch.CanIhol
dy ouLol
o
j
ustfortoni
ght?
"
Ishookmyheadpull
ingtheblankett
ight
ert
omy
bodyheari
nghowbrokehisisisn'
tni
cebutIcan'
t
bri
ngmy sel
ftol
ethi
mt ouchmehegotont hebed
andy
eahhesl
eptst
ari
ngatt
hecei
l
ing.
Him:"
IloveyouLolojusthopeyour
eali
sethatsoon
causeyouareslowlybreaki
ngme.Idon'
tthinkI
knowwhat '
shappeningbetweenusbutI'
l
lwaitti
ll
youfeelsaf
earoundmeagai n"
Isi
ghedandt
urnedar
oundIst
aredathi
m andj
ust
nod
Hi
m:"
canIhol
dyou?
"
Ishookmyheadbutsnuggl edclosetohim
i
nterl
ockingmyl egwithhi
sandthrowingmyhand
overhischestIdidn'
tlaymyheadonhi schest
thoughjustonhispil
low.
Hi
m:"
Ishoul
dn'
ttouchy
ou?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
okaygoodni
ght
"
Heswitchedofhi
sheadl ampandy eahwewer e
wi
deawakei nthedarkIcouldhearitfr
om hi sdeep
si
ghsthathewasn'tsl
eepingbutIquickl
yf el
l asl
eep
whenI'
mi ndeepsleeponlycanIstopov erthinki
ng
ev
eryt
hingandjustbeatpeace.
Nextmor
ning
Iwokeupt of i
ndmy sel
ftangledi nLwandle'
sarmsI
detangledmy selffrom him andj ustwenttothe
bathroom andt ookashowerIwasdonewi t
hinafew
minutesandwentt ogetreadyf ormy' sessi
on'I
appli
edsomebodyl oti
onandj ustwor emyleather
veganleggings, ablackbaggyshi rtandsomegr ey
Yeezysneaker styingmyhai rint
oamessybun.
"
Hey
..
.y
ouupear
ly"
Inod
Hi
m:"
arey
ouhungr
y?"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
okaywai
tI'
m goi
ngt
oshowert
henwecango"
Wellheleftt
hebedunmadesoImadei tforhim and
wenttocheckonLesegowhowasst i
llsl
eepingsoI
j
ustkissedhisfor
eheadandl ef
thim hisnannywi l
l
l
ookaf t
erhim wellhi
sfat
hercameoutwear i
ng
somegr eyNikeshort
sabl ackNikevestandhis
bl
ackNi keAirki
cks hewasanambassadorof
Niketodaywithhisdi
eselcap.Hegav ememyhand
bag
Hi
m:"
let
'sgo"
Ij
usthel
doutmyhandt
ohi
m
Hi
m:"
whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Hepushedi
tawaybutIhel
ditoutagai
n
Hi
m:"
I'
m notgi
vi
ngy
out
hecarkey
s"
Ishookmyhead
Him:"
ohy ourphone?Whydidn'ty
ouj ustsayso?
Hereyougo.Whatar eyoudoingwithaphone
anywayyoudon'tspeaksoIam thinkingyoudon'
t
takecal
l
s"

Ir
oll
edmyey
esandwal
kedawayf
rom hi
m
Hi
m:"
Ireadsomewheret
hatpeopl
ewhoalwaysr
oll
t
hei
reyestheyf
inal
l
ygetst
uckinonepl
ace"
He'si
rri
tati
ngGodhe'sir
ri
tat
ingpleasemakehi m
shutupjustforafewhoursIneedtothinkcausethe
dri
vetothet her
api
stwashim busytal
ki
ngaboutt he
weather
, howsomepeopledon'tknowhowt odr i
ve
Godev entheboar dsont heroadwhi chIknowbut
yohhet ol
dmeaboutt hem t ot hinkwhenweget
ther
ewest illhavetotalkwel ltheyst i
llhav etotal
k
andIjusthav etopretendl i
keI'ml i
steni ng.Igotout
ofthecarhegotoutt ooandwewal kedi n can
wordsjustformi nmymout henoughf ormet o
speakandst opcomi ngher ecanIsayonegood
thi
ngaboutmybaby ,
wai tIcansayat housandgood
thi
ngsabouthi mj ustthattheydon' twantt oknow
abouthimt heywantt oknowaboutmyf eel
ingsasif
theyeverchange.Wewal kedint oherof fi
ceohy eah
shehasn'tmetmyhusbandt heyjustgossi pabout
meov erthephone Lwandl egr eetedherandwe
satdown.
DrDr
e:"
thanky
ouf
ormaki
ngi
tMrSokhul
u."
Lwandl
e:"
any
thi
ngf
ormywi
fe"
DrDre:
"l
et'
sbegi
nshal
lwe.
..
Penel
opehowar
eyou
feel
i
ng?"
Ishr
ug
DrDre:"
howaboutyouwri
tedownhowyouf
eelon
thi
spieceofpaperf
orme.
.Likehowwedoi
t"
Ishookmyhead
Lwandl
e:"
babedoi
tli
key
oudodon'
tmi
ndme"
Il
ookedathi
m andj
ustf
iddl
edwi
thmyf
inger
s
shaki
ngmyhead
DrDre:"
okayit
'st
hesamel
i
kebef
ore?Doy
oust
il
l
feel
alone?"
Ishookmyhead
DrDr
e:"
yout
hinky
ourhusbandi
sther
efory
ou
now?
"
Il
ookedatLwandl
eandnod
DrDre:"
sti
l
lblamey
our
sel
fforwhathappenedt
o
yourbaby?"
Iqui
ckl
ynod
DrDre:
"MrSokhul
unowcanyoutel
lmehowy
ouf
eel
aboutt
hat?Shebl
amesher
selff
orthat
"
Hel
ookedatmeandj
ustshr
ug
Lwandle:"
wellshebl
amesherselff
oral
otofthi
ngsI
evengot t
enusedtoit
,Idon'
tknowwhattosayor
eventhinkanymore"
DrDre:
"doyoublameher?Doyout
hinkshe'
s
wort
hlessf
orlosingt
hebaby"
Lwandle:
"No!Notatall
Loloi
samazingshe'snot
wort
hlessandI'm pr
oudtohaveher
.Ifeel
blessedt
o
wakeupnextt oherseeherf
aceandtohearpeople
cal
lhermywi f
e"
Il
ookedathi
m notahi
ntofdoubti
nhisv oi
ceorhi
s
ey
estheyarej
ustgl
owingwit
hassurance.
DrDr
e:"
howdoy
ouf
eel
abouty
ourson'
sdeat
h?"
Lwandl
e:"
emot
ionl
ess"
DrDr
e:"
why
?Whyf
eel
noemot
ionatal
l
?"
Lwandle:"
thedaywebur iedhim apartofmethat
hademot ionsforhim wasbur iedwithhi
m.Don'tget
mewr ongi tsti
l
lsti
ngst hathe'sdeadbutbeat
ing
my sel
fupabouti twon'tbringhim backormakethe
pai
nLol ofeelshurtl
ess.SoIj ustwanttohel
pher
heal"
DrDre:
"don'
tyouthi
nky
oudeserv
etohealt
oo?He
wasalsoyoursonandyouwer
eexpect
inghi
myou
werehappy"
Lwandl
e:"
yeahwhat
everhewasmysonbutnowhe'
s
deadcanwemov eon?"
Hewasget t
ingf
rust
rat
edIcoul
dseeitfrom hi
sfi
sts
thathe'
dbebeati
ngherupri
ghtnowifshe
conti
nuespushi
ngthi
stopi
canyfur
ther
DrDre:"
Penel
opewhatdoyouthi
nkaboutyour
husband'
sbehavi
or?Doyout
hinkhe'
sreasonabl
e?"
IlookedatLwandleforalongtimeImeanhe'sdoi
ng
everythi
ngtoprot
ectmet hroughandt
hroughhe'
d
rathernotf
eelanyt
hingjusttoputonashowforme.
DrDre:
"Penel
opepl
easeanswer
..
..MrSokhul
ucan
youexcuseus"
Hecl
i
ckedhi
stongueandstoodupbutIj
umpedup
t
ooandhel
dhishandi
fheleaveI'
mleavi
ngwi
thhi
m.
Lwandl
e:"
babest
ayI
'
llwai
tfory
ouout
side"
Ishookmyhead
DrDr
e:"
Penel
opewear
enotdone.
..Pl
easeseat
"
IshookmyheadandclutchedonLwandl
eshecal
l
ed
him her
esoshebet
terdealwit
hit
.
Lwandl
e:"
wantt
ogohome?
"
Inod
Lwandl
e:"
comel
et'
sgo.
..
.I
'
m sor
ryokay
"
Inod
DrDr
e:"
wear
enotdonewi
tht
oday
'ssessi
on.
..
."
Lwandle:"wear edonewi t
ht oday '
ssessioneven
tomorrow'ssessionIshoul dn'thavebroughther
hereinthef i
rstplaceshedoesn' tsayawor dwhen
she'
swi thyounotev enonebutshespeakst omei t
may beti
nywor dsbutshef unctions.I
'
llbewaiti
ng
foryourinvoice"
Ify
oucouldfeelhowhappyIwasthatIwon'tbe
cominghereanymore nomor eidi
oticquesti
ons
j
ustmeandmyt hought
sathome.Wewal kedout
hol
dinghands f ir
stst
epwhenwegott othecarhe
openedthedoorformeInodandgotinwhenhe
wenttohissi
de.
Hi
m:"
canwepassbyt
hef
ir
m Ineedaf
il
e"
Inodandhedroveoutnomoreshr
inkandbei
ng
crossexami
nedbutthi
smeansIhavetot
rytovoi
ce
outmyf eeli
ngst oLwandl eorelsehe'l
ltakemeback
tothatwomanwhosur eknowshowt omakeme
feelli
keI'
m crazy I '
mj ustheartbr
okennotcrazyI
don'tneedtobecr ossexaminedbysomeonewho
hasherownpr oblemsbutact slikeshehasthi
s
perfectworl
dwheni t'
sjusttheopposite.
[
11/
2,21:
28]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 44♡
.
ʐaʍօ♡
Thesef ewweekswi t
houtthebosshav ebeen
wicked nof earofnotbeinginyourdeskwedi d
workbutonourownpacebutIguesst hathasto
comet oanendcauseIgotat extfr
om Rosesay ing
thathe'scomingupwi t
hhiswifeIsatdownheyt he
topfloorsti
l
lhatesmesowhywar nt hem Iwent
aboutmywor kandthentheelevat
oropenedhe
walkedi nweari
ngsoheav enl
ygoodt oknowhe' s
gotswagt henhiswifewalkedinshel ookedli
kea
wr eckdamnl osi
ngababyr eal
lydidhergoodshe
evenseemsl i
keshelostweightbutther
ehewas
closet oherevenholdi
ngherhand.Wel l
Amberr an
toherscr eamingouthernameI '
m guessshe'ssti
l
l
scar edcausePenelopescreamedevendr oppi
ngher
phonehi dingbehi
ndLwandl ewhojusthuggedher.
Amber:
"fr
iendI
'
m sor
ry.
..
.I'
m sor
ryMrSokhul
uIj
ust
gotcar
ri
edaway"
MrS:
"i
t'
sfi
ney
oucangobackt
owor
k"
Hepi
ckeduphi
swif
e'sphoneandt
heywal
kedi
nto
hi
sof
ficeev
enl
ocki
ngit.
Me:
"ar
eyouokayAmber
?"
Shenodsni
ff
ing
Me:"
youj
ustcaughtherof
fguar
dcomeony
ouknow
shel
ovesyou"
Amber:"
bitchpl
easeI'
m notcry
ingcauseofthat,
I'
m
j
ustcryi
ngcausethesemot her
fucker
shurtmyf ri
end
soshutitandstopst
aringatherhusbandI'
l
lpluck
outyoureyes"
Shewi
pedawayhert
ear
sandwentbackt
oherwor
k
j
eezrudemuchany wayIwentbackt
omi
neact
ing
noneofthathappened
.
ʟ
աaռ ♡

Whenwegoti
ntotheof
fi
cePenelopejustthr
ew
her
sel
font
hecouchandletoutaloudsigh.
"
Final
l
y"
Ilookedatherstari
ngatherphoneIwasscar ed
whenAmberscar edherl
ikethatIt
houghtshemi ght
j
ustcollapseri
ghtther
ebutshewasj ustshaking
andnowshe' sheresmili
ngifI'
m noti
magining
things.
Me:
"whatdi
dyousay
?"
Sheshookherhead
Me:
"soev
ennowy
ouwon'
ttal
ktome?
"
[
Messageal
ert
]
It
ookmyphoneandf
oundat
extf
rom her
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Shenod
Me:"
okaythenumh...'
Lwandl
estopaski
ngi
fIwon'
t
t
alktoyou'
.I'
m aski
ngcauseIwannaknow"
[
Messageal
ert
]
Iopenedt
henextone canIbeatherupnow
Me:"umh'
comeher
e'.Why
?Icanheary
ouf
rom
her
e"
[
Messageal
ert
]
Me:"Lol
ocomeon..
..'
thi
ssi
tuat
ionseemsl
i
kewhen
Iwaswitht
hatst
upi
dwomannowcomeher e'.
"
Ist
oodupandwentt
oseatont
hecouch
Shepatt
hecouchIwenttoseatnextt
oherandshe
satupst
rai
ghtl
ayi
ngherheadonmyl ap.
Shecl
ear
edhert
hroat
Lol
o:"
Ineedanewhai
rst
yle.
..
"

Me:
"af
terweeksofbei
ngmut
eyousayt
hat
?Lol
o
y
ouscar
edme"
Lol
o:"
what?Yout ookmeandsentmet osomecr azy
l
adylooki
nglikeOsama'smi
nion..
..AndIscaredy ou?
Youshoul
dn'thavesentmethereinthefi
rstplace"
Me:
"youwer
en'
tspeaki
ngt
oany
one"
Lolo:
"Ihadjustburiedmychi
l
d48hour sagowhat
di
dy ouwantf rom me?Iwassti
l
ltr
yingtowrapmy
headar oundthis"
Me:
"andt
henwhydi
dn'
tyouspeakt
oher
?"
Lol
o:"
Ihat
ether
api
stsandy
ouknowt
hat
"
Me:
"andme?whydi
dn'
tyouspeakt
ome?
"
Lolo:
"IwasandI'
m st
il
langr
yaty
ouf
orsendi
ngt
o
thatnutcase"
Me:
"shewast
ryi
ngt
ohel
p"
Lolo:
"hel
p?Shekeptonaski
ngmeaboutmyfeel
i
ngs
eachandeveryday.Li
keIwokeupandhewasst
il
l
al
iveshe'
sanidiot
"
Me:"
andt
helat
eni
ght
s?Fort
woday
syouwokeup
l
ateandl
eft
"
Lolo:
"Idon'tknowont hatonebutallIknowisIdi
dn't
wantt otalktonohagaboutmydeadsonact ingli
ke
sheunder standswhensheunderstandsnothing.
..
.
Whydi dn'tyougetmeamal et
herapist?Ahotone
evennott hatonewithaTompohai rstyl
e"
Ichuckl
edandsher
ubbedmycheekIhel
dherhand
Me:
"Imi
ssedy
oubaby
"
Lolo:
"I
'm sor
ry.
..ButIneedtobeonmyownwithmy
thoughtssometimessoy oubeownyourown
thoughtsandI'
l
l domy sel
f"
Me:
"you'
dgocr
azy
"
Lolo:
"yourquesti
onsabouthowIf eelt
heyaredriv
ing
mecr azycauseev er
ytimeIseehim,wheneverIhear
thatquesti
onIjustseehisl
it
tl
efacehowpi nkhe
l
ooked, hi
stinyli
psandhandsandhi ssmell
.
Lwandley '
al
l we'
redri
vi
ngmecr azy"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryIwasj
ustenqui
ri
ngabouty
ourheal
th"
Lol
o:"
whatabouty
ourhealt
h?Youknowy ouhav
eto
tal
ktomakesureBrucei
sundercont
rol
"
Me:
"mxm mov
eyourhead"
Sheshookherhead
Me:
'
Lol
oI'
l
lbeaty
out
il
lyouar
emut
eforr
eal
"
Lol
o:"
don'
tcar
eI'
m notmov
ing.
..
."
Ilookedatherandshejustsmi
led/
gri
nnedwhatever
youseeitasandt henpeopl
esayI'
m cr
azybutshe'
s
thecrazi
estbetweenus.
Imov
edherf
rom myl
apandwentt
omydesk
Lol
o:"
wantmetogobackt
obei
ngqui
te?Cause
bel
i
evemet hat
'sf
un"
Me:
"we'
l
ltal
kathomenother
enowl
et'
sgo"
Lolo:
"Iwanttoapologi
zet
oAmberbutI
'
m notr
eady
forapologi
esagain"
InodandtookherhandwhatIknowi sthatbeingi
n
acrowdedplacesfr
eaksheroutespeciall
ythemal l
shehasn'
twenttheresinceshecamebackandI
won'tr
ushhertogot hereI'
l
llethert
akehertime
si
ncetaki
nghertoat herapi
stwi l
lmakehermut eup
agai
n
Wewal
kedi
ntot
heel
evat
orandshepul
l
edawayher
handandf
iddl
edherphone.
Me:
"sowannagoandv
isi
thi
sgr
ave?
"
Shel
ookedatmeandbeamedwi
thexci
tement
Lol
o:"
Thanky
ou"
Me:
"butI
'
m notgoodwitht
hissent
iment
alst
uffso
nomorelat
eni
ghtgrav
ev i
sit
s"
Shenod
Me:
"gi
vemey
ourhandwe'
reaboutt
ost
op"
Shequi cklylockedherhandwi thmi neseeshe' snot
apeopl e'
sper sonnowandIdon' tknowwhenshe' ll
behernor mal selfbutatleastshe' stalkingtome.
Wedr ovepastt hemal landboughtsomef lowers
thenwedr ovehomewher eIchangedIsodi dn'
t
wantt odressupwi t
hthesel ongt hingsbutLol o
want edmet osowedi dandwel eftgoingt othe
cemet eryluckilyLesegodi dn'
tseeherorhe' dbe
cryinglungsout .Theenti
redr ivetot hecemet ery
wasqui etnessshewasqui teagai nIwasst arti
ngto
freakoutandt ot hi
nkIhav en'tbeenher esincethe
burialwhereIhadt oleaveear lycauseLol o
collapsedIcoul dn'thearanythingjustlooki
ngather
ont hef l
oory ou' dswearIwasonsomemega
steroidst hewayIst oodupandpi ckedherup
runningt othecarIcan' timaginemyl i
fewithoutthis
girlwell atfir
stIsawmyf ut
urewi thoutherbut
now, nowshe' sev erywhereIwishIhadmetheri nmy
pastt henwe' dhav emadeaf uturetogetherbuiltan
empi rebutatl eastshe'sheremypi l
larofstrength
throughandt hrough,nowsheneedsmet obeher
pil
larnomat terwhatshedi shesoutatmeev eni f
shewant edtobeatmel etherdoi tbutI '
m not
l
eav ingmywi feper i
od.Whenwegott othecemet er
y
shewal kedoutandIf ol
lowedherbutmyknees
wer eget tingweakwi theverystepwet ookIstopped.
Lol
o:"
pleasedon'
tmakemegoal
one"
Me:
"I
'm comi
ngI
'
mjustbr
eat
hingabi
t"
Shenodandwentf urthert
henIcoughedupsome
courageandf ol
lowedhert othegravewhenIf ound
herbusydustingitoffsoIplacedthef l
owersdown
sinceLoloisall
ergi
ctof l
owerssoIhadt oholdthem
forher.Iknel
tdownandLor ditj
ustkickedinI'
m
visi
ti
ngmyson' sgraveasonIhel dforonl yt
wo
minut eswhodidn'
tevenli
vetoseetheday
end,somethinginmybrokeithur
tsobadmychest
hurtitfel
tli
keitwasburni
ng.
.
ք ռ օք ♡
IlookedatLwandl ebesidesmehol dingonhi schest
Iknowt hisfeeli
nghi shearthurtsImeanhehasn' t
seent hi
sgrav esincemyt i
nyepisodebutnow
withoutthosestupi dsessionsIcanmov eon and
bet hewifeandmot herIwasi magi nehowmuch
changet hat'
ll
makenowt hisdouchebagcanf ocus
onhi mselfIsawhi mt rytoholdbacksomet earssoI
j
usthel dhishandandsqueezedi tthenmybool etit
allouthewai l
edlikeal i
ttl
ebabyIst oodupandj ust
wr appedmyar msar oundhim hel aidhisheadonmy
tummyandIr ubbedhi sheadki ssinghisf or
ehead.
Me:"I
'm her
emyl ov
eI'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
eokay
?
I
'm hereforyou"
Hecri
edsohar
dinmyar msImy sel
fwasholding
backsomet
earsbutI'
m notgoi
ngtotakethi
sfrom
hi
m hehast
ocryallheli
kesinmyarmslikehelet
mecr yinhisarmswi thoutcompl aintthoughhewas
cryi
ngsilent
lysoletmecr ysilentl
yt hemomenthe
stoppedIjusthuggedhi mtighternowcanIsayI
haveacr ybabyofahusbandpl easei fhe'snot
cryi
ngformewhenI '
mi nhospitalevenf ora
headachehe'scrying.
Me:
"ar
eyouokay
?"
Henodr
ubbi
ngmyhandski
ssi
ngt
hem.
Me:"y
ousuchacrybabyknowt
hat
?Ij
usthopeSt
eve
hasn'
ttakenov
er?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
I'
m st
il
lme"
Me:
"you'
l
lfi
ndmei
nthecar
"
Il
etgoofhi
mjustt
ogetpul
l
edback
Hi
m:"
I'
m comi
ngwi
thy
out
hispl
acef
reaksmeout
"
Inodandwewal kedtot hecarandIgoti
ntothe
dri
versseatthenjustdroveushomeIdon' twanna
diecauseofacaracci dentwhenwegothomeIr an
i
ntotheroom tochangebackt omyleggi
ngsand
baggyshirtandjustwentt omakemy sel
fsomef r
uit
saladenoughfort
wopeopl
eev
enput
ti
ngsome
vanil
layoghur
t.
Me:
"l
et'
seat
"
Hest
aredatme
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"
youar
eeat
ing?
"
Inod
Me:"
tol
dyouwit
houtt
hatt
her
api
stofy
our
sI'
m
goi
ngtodothi
ngsmywayandmywayonl
y"
Hi
m:"
soy
ouwer
est
arv
ingy
our
sel
f?"
Me:"Idi
dn'
thav
eanappet
it
e,nowar
eyougoi
ngt
o
eatorbecomemyther
api
st?"
Heshr
ugandat
ewi
thme
Me:
"goodboy
"
Hi
m:"
what
evercanIr
elax
?I'
mti
redmybodyhur
ts"
Inodandjustopenedmyar
msf
orhi
mtol
ayhi
s
hugeheadonmychest
Me:
'
howwi
l
lyoueatl
i
ket
hat
?"
Hi
m:"
feedme"
Hebat
tedhi
sshor
tidi
oti
clashesatme
Me;"
youaredef
iant
lynotLesegoni
ggadoi
t
your
sel
f.
.."
Hi
m:"I
'
mlayi
ngdownpleasel
ove..Doyouknowhow
muchImi
ssedhear
ingyourv
oice?Iwasgoing
cr
azy"
Me:
'
ser
vesyouri
ghtIt
oldy
ounottotakemetoa
t
her
api
stbuty
ouknowbetterandy
outakemether
e"
Him:
"Ihadnochoi
cebabyy
ouwer
en'
ttal
ki
ngt
ome
nory
ourfamil
y"
Me:"i
fyouhadgiv
enmeti
mewe'
dhavespoken
aboutitt
oget
herwhi
chwe'
ll
dot
oni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
twannat
alkaboutt
his"
Me:"
y eahwe'
ll
tal
ksi
ncey
ouwer
efor
cingmet
o
t
alk.
.heret
ake"
If
edmybi
gbabyf
uckLol
ogety
ouractt
oget
her
bi
tch.
Me:
"we'
l
lst
artgy
m nextweekr
ight
?Wesur
eneedt
o
di
str
ess"
Hi
m:"
wecandi
str
essi
nbed"
Me:"
uhuhwe'l
ldi
str
esswit
hpunchi
ngbagsandI
needtol
oseafewkil
osandgett
he.
..
"
Hi
m:"
Assf
ir
m agai
n..
.okaywe'
l
lgo"
Idon'
thavethepowert
olaughr
ightnowandher
ehe
i
swor r
yingaboutt
heass.
Me:
"l
et'
sbehonestLwandl
ewhenyousayyou
mi
ssedtouchi
ngmey oumeantt
heassri
ght?
"
Him:
"Inev
ersaidthatbutyesi
t'
spartofthepackage
youknoweveryni
ghtIhav et
osqueezeitabitj
ustto
makesureit
'sst
il
lthere"
Me:
"ewwInev
ert
ouchy
ourt
ochecki
fit
'sst
il
lther
e"
Hi
m:"
gimmey
ourhand"
Igav
ehimthehandandhej
ustpl
acedi
tonhi
s
di
ckgiv
ingi
tasqueezeusi
ngmyhand
Hi
m:"
it
'sst
il
lther
ear
eyousat
isf
ied"
Me:"
mmhnowcanwej
ustst
opbei
ngwei
rdi
nthe
l
iv
ingroom?"
Hi
m:"
Iwannasucky
out
oni
ght
"
Icoughedabi
t
Me:
"we'
rest
il
li
nmour
ning"
Hi
m:"
nowe'
renot
"
Me:"
wej
ustl
ostababy
..
..Whatdoy
oumeanwear
e
not
?"
Him:"
Isai
dwearenotfi
nish.
..
.Nowt
oni
ghti
t'
sa
dateGodImi
ssedeati
ngy ouup"
Me:"
ewwst opitandwearenotdoi
ngany
thi
ngI
needtoseethedoctorf
ir
st"
Hi
m:"
why
?"
Me:"
forbir
thcontr
olst
uffIdon'
twannagetpr
egnant
agai
n..
..Notyetev
en"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
takey
out
oSi
sanda"
Me:"
Ineedbi
rt
hcont
rolnotwat
eri
njectedi
nme.
..
but
i
tscaresmeIhav
eneverusedi
tbef
or e"
Him:"
reasonwhyIhavetotakey
outoSi
sandahe
knowsy ourmedi
calhi
stor
ysoyouar
esafewit
h
him"
Me:
"youwon'
taskhi
mtoi
njectmewi
thwat
er?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
it
'sst
il
lear
lyf
orababymay
benexty
ear
"
Me:
"may
bewhenI
'
m of
fi
cial
l
yMr
sSokhul
u..
.."
Hi
m:"
star
tpl
anni
ng"
Me:
"we'
rest
il
lmour
ning"
Hi
m:"
thenl
eav
eit
"
Ipokedhi
sfor
ehead
Me:"
youaredr
eami
ngcauseifIl
eaveitI
'
mleav
ing
youtoot
hesetwot
hingsgot
ogether
"
Hi
m:"
thenstar
tpl
anning.
..
.I'
m gi
vi
ngyoutwoweeks
t
ocomewi t
hquotat
ionsofevery
thi
ngyouneed"
Me:
"j
ustgi
vemet
heunl
i
mit
edcar
d"
Hi
m:"giv
emeunl i
mitedsextheset
wothi
ngsgo
t
ogether.
..
.Putt
heplatedownandgiv
emea
massagemybodyi sti
red"
Me:
"no'
Hi
m:"
pleasel
ovey
oht
hesepastweekshav
ebeen
t
oughonme"
Me:"
andmesowhogav
emeamassage?Si
tup
st
rai
ght
"
Hedi dast oldandjusttookoffhisshir
t Igot
behindhim andj ustbegangivi
nghim ar ub,
hewas
tensenol i
ehegotknot sli
kecrazyhebet t
ernot
thinkall
isbackt onormal west i
l
lhavetoal ongway
togowej ustlostababyourf i
rstbor
nt ogether
andI '
m seriousaboutthisbir
thcontrolt
hingIdon'
t
evenknowi fit
'l
lworkagainstLwandle'
ssoldier
s
niggahassomest r
ongt hi
ngsshame
[
11/
2,21:
35]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 45♡
.
ք ռ օք ♡
.
Me:
"nowgi
vemeamassaget
oo"
Heshookhi
sheadcl
ear
inghi
sthr
oathet
urned
aroundandj
ustst
aredatmel ooki
ngmerighti
nthe
eyes Iclear
edmyt hroatandmovedbackbuthe
caughtmyhandspull
i
ngmet owar
dshi
m.
Hi
m:"
whyy
our
unni
ng?
"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
can'
tyouspeaknow?
"
Ishook-
nodmyhead
Lwandl
ebur
stoutl
aughi
ng
Hi
m:"
whati
stheansweray
esorno?
"
Me:"
amaybebutsi
nceyouar
ehol
dingmyhandsI
can'
tdr
amat
ical
l
yshrug"
Henodandpulledmetoseatontopofhimlegs
acrosshi
m,hi
shandsrandownmybackand
squeezedmybuttmakingmejumpali
ttl
eIgiggl
ed
andhidonhischest
Him:"hey
iI'
m noty
ourboyf
ri
enddon'
tgetal
lshywit
h
me,I'
veseenyounakedanddoi
ngsomenastythi
ngs
befor
e"
Igi
ggl
edandsl
appedhi
schest
Me:
"I
'm notshyLwandl
e..
.I
'
mjustumh.
..
"
Hi
m:"
umhwhat
?Lookatmenow"
Me:
"Lwandl
e!"
Hi
m:"don'
tsaymynameli
kethatify
ouknowy
ou
won'
tletmein,
comeonbabylookatme"
Isummedupt hecourageandlookedathi
mjustt
o
gethi
m st
icki
nghistongueoutatme.
Him:
"whatdi
dyout
hinky
ou'
l
lachi
eve?Bi
tchIown
you"
Me:
"what
? y
ouwhatme?
"
Hi
m:"
babeI
..
."
Me:"
uhuhsayitandsayt
hatnameagai
nI'
l
lcast
rat
e
youunder
standme?"
Hequi
ckl
ynod
Me:
"goody
ousonofabi
tch "
Ther
eact
ionIwant
edIdi
dn'
tgetni
ggaj
ustshr
ug
Hi
m:"
mov
eupabi
t"
Iwr
appedmyar
msar
oundhi
sneckandpul
l
ed
my selfupwi thhi
shelpIseri
ouslyneedtogotot he
gym myl egsar
estart
ingtolosethei
rpowerand
i
ft heydohowwi ll
Iri
dehim Iwanttori
dehim so
hardtillhespeaksinhisfat
hertongue what ever
thatisany waybacktothestorynowwher eIkissed
hisnosebr idge.
Me:
"wher
eisy
ourhandgoi
ngl
overboy
?"
Hi
m:"t
hisbabyneedsmet
oshav
eher
..
.Wantmet
o
doi
t?"
Me:
"ni
ggaIshav
edmyNunal
astni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
whogav
eyout
heper
missi
on?Shebel
ongst
o
me"
Me:
"whateverf
actofthematt
erisshei
scl
eanand
i
sbreat
hingagain.
..
.Nowstopit
"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
youdon'twantmetost
opi ti
nfactyouwant
metotakeal
lofthi
sof
fandjustbeinyouforhour
s"
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owedachunkofsal
iv
ahe'sri
ghtIwanthi
m
forhour
sbutuhsee t hr
eeweeksseemsl i
keI'
ma
vir
ginwit
hhi
m It
riedt
owigglemysel
foutofhi
shold
buthegr
ippedonmywai
st.
Him:"
wher
eismywi
fegoi
ng?Seaty
ourf
ir
m but
t
here"
Iwasheat
ingupt
hatIj
ustt
ookoft
heshi
rt
Hi
m:"
damnbaby
,yesmyl
ove"
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edshakingmyhead, Iti
edmyhairupand
j
ustleanedovertohim holdingonhisshoul
ders
hewassmi li
ngli
kear etardGodhewassmi l
i
ngl i
ke
i
t'st
heendoft heEart
hIpeckedhi slipsandpull
ed
thelowerl
ip hegr oanedashepul l
edmecl oserto
him mynigga,
Iheldonhi sfacepecki
nghisli
ps.
Hi
m:"
Imi
ssedy
ou"
Inodandj
ustat
tackedhisl
ipswi
thaki
ss y ou'
d
swearhewascr
yingthewayhewasgroani
ng f ine
Iwasmoaningt
ooIpulledawaybr
eat
hingheavi
ly
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?Whyst
op?
"
Me:
"t
obr
eat
handy
ourbel
tishur
ti
ngme"
Iunbuckl
edt
hebel
tandj
ustt
ooki
tof
fhi
m
Hi
m:"
ift
heyst
eal
thatbel
t.
.."
Me:
"you'
l
lbuyanot
heronenowshh"
Igrabbedhisfaceagai
nandkissedhi
m,hi
sli
ps
‍♀t heytastedli
kestr
awber
ri
esandcherr
ies I
l
ickedthem
Hi
m:"
Lol
o!!
"
"Uhuh"Igroanedinhismout
hhebet t
ershutupor
I'
lll
eavehim hangi
ng hemust n'
ttestmeIbegan
unbuttoni
nghisshir
tandhewantedtohelpme I
slappedhishandsaway
Me:
"uhuh"Igr
oanedi
nhi
smout
h
Hi
m:"
sor
ry"hesai
dinbet
weent
heki
ss
Itookoffhisshir
tandthrewitonthefl
oorkissi
ng
hisneck,hetr
iedtohol
dmebutIpushedhi shands
awayandpi nnedthem onthecouch t hat
'swhat
theydotousgi rl
sri
ghtnowI'm doi
ngittohim but
hepulledhishandsawayandgr abbedmelay i
ngme
downont hecouchget
tingontoofme.
Hi
m:"
Imi
ssedt
hisf
eist
ysi
deofy
ou"
Igi
ggl
edandj
ustopenedmyl
egswi
derf
orhi
shand
asitsli
ddownmyl eggi
ngsrubbi
ngmynuna who
washappyt hatdaddyhasarri
vedevensending
vi
besupmyspi ne,Imoanedabitandjustr
eceived
hi
slipsohGodt hemoani ngIhadinhi
smout hplus
hi
sgr oani
ng
[
Clear
ingt
hroat
]
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ypul l
edhishandoutandpul l
edawayfr
om
thekisshej umpedof fandscr ambl edtot
akemy
shir
tandcov eredmewi thit.Wel ookedatMa
Radebewhol ookedsof lushedlikeitwasherwho
wascaughtwi thherboyfri
endLwandl ewasi
nfl
ated
withlaughteritwasev enirr
itat
ing
Me:"
uhsor
ryf
or.
..
umhy
eahcanIhol
dLesego
pl
ease"
MaRadebe:
"he'
ssl
eepi
ng.
..
."
Shestr
oll
edawayf
rom usandLwandl
ejustbur
st
outf
orlaughi
ng Ipunchedhim
Me:
"i
t'
snotf
unny
"
Hi
m:"
babet
hisi
sal
i
ttl
efunnycomeon"
Icl
i
ckedmyt
ongueandst
oodupmar
chi
ngt
owar
ds
thest
air
showwi l
ltheoldwomanl ookatmenow
huhshealr
eadythi
nksI'mlazyandnowshesawme
i
nmyweakestmoment .Wellhefol
lowedmebusy
l
aughingmeIjustt
hrewmy selfonthebed
Me:
"getouti
fyouar
est
il
ll
aughi
ng"
Him:"
sorrybutbabedidyouseeherface?I
twasl
ike
herparentscaughtherwi
thherboy
fri
endhavi
ngsex
i
nthelivi
ngr oom"
okayt
hat
'sf
unny
Me:
"okayt
hat
'sal
i
ttl
efunny
..
.comeher
eyou"
Hi
m:"
andI
'
m comi
ngt
her
enol
i
e"
Hekickedof
fhi
sshoesandjustgotonthebed
at
tacki
ngme i t'
sli
keali
onpouncingonit'
sprey,
I
wrappedmyarmsandlegsaroundhi
m ashekissed
myneckup
Hi
m:"
wannagot
othesal
on?
"
Inod
Hepushedmyhai
rback
Hi
m:"
youl
ookugl
yint
hisany
way
"
Me:
"okayi
t'
sdr
ygetof
fme.
..
.."
Hi
m:"
myhonestopi
nion"
Ir
oll
edmyey
esandpushedhi
m of
f
Me:
"andmyhonestopi
niont
ooi
t'
sdr
ygetof
f"
Hi
m:"
please.
..
.myl
ovei
t'
sst
art
ingt
ohur
tst
oo"
Heki
ssedmyneckandcheeks
Me:
"sahar
adesser
t "
Hechuckl
edandjustsuckedonmyneckgi
vi
ngme
goosebumps.Iar
chedmybackasheunhookedmy
bra
Me:
"st
il
ldr
ybaby
..
..
"
Him:"
I'
ll
makeitwetl
overelax
...
.JusthopeMa
Radebedoesn'
twal
kinhere"
If
ixedmysel
fupmaki
ngsureI
'm comfor
tabl
eunder
hi
m ashesuckedonmyboobsmakingmemoan
l
oudlygr
abbi
ngahandf
ulofhi
shair
Me:
"Lwandl
e!!
"
Hedi
dn'
tev
enbudgemygoodnessi
tfel
tli
kemy
boobswer einthi
swar m placehellnotevenmybr a
makest hem thi
swar m atleastnowMaRadebe
won'twalkinandst artcleari
nghert hr
oatonushe
squeezedthem li
kenai lsinandshi t okaybl ah
bl
ahwemadel ovesweethonestl ove nowmy
nunawasbur ninglikecr azybuthesnuggledcl oseto
mehuggi ngmet ightlybutIpushedhi m offandgot
ofthebedgoi ngtot hebat hroom Iwasli
mpi ngabit.
Hi
m:"
don'tf
akebei
nginpai
n,
Isti
l
lwanty
ouher
e
pl
usyouareevenwal
ki
ngnaked"

Me:
"sl
eepSokhul
u"
Iwentint
ot heensui
teandj
ustpeedhi
ssi
ng It ol
d
youthati
nt hr
eeweeksIhadbecomeav i
rgi
ntohi
m
i
t'
snotev enfunny
[
Chuckl
i
ng]
Il
ookedatt
hedoorandt
her
ehest
oodar
msf
olded
shaki
nghi
shead
Hi
m:"
Iwasn'
tthatr
ought
houmyl
ove"
Me:
"youwer
en'
tgent
leei
therdon'
tst
artwi
thme
pl
ease"
Him:
"aski
esmyl
oveI
'
llhur
rybackwi
thar
emedy
okay
"
Inodandjustwipedmy selfst
andi
ngupgoi ngt
o
washmyhandsIdr iedthem andli
mpedtot he
bedroom wher
eIappliedmyhandcr eam andwent
tobed Iwonderwhat '
stheremedy.
"
Babyl
ayony
ourbackandopeny
ourl
egs"

Me:
"yousai
dremedynott
ort
ureLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
tr
usty
ourhusbandwi
l
lya,
laydown"
It
urnedaroundandlai
donmybackandIr
ecei
veda
gl
assfi
ll
edwi t
hicecubes
Hi
m:"
hol
dthatf
ormeanddon'
tyoudar
edr
opi
t"

Me:"
it
'scol
dandyouknowmybodycan'
thandl
e
ext
remetemper
atur
es"
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oll
edhi
seyesandt
ookt
heglassandpl
aci
ngi
t
ont
heheadst
andcomi
ngbackwitht
woIce
cubes,
hemov edthem overmyl
i
psgoi ngdownwi th
them t
omyt ummyIar chedmybackast heymelt
ed
overmyski nbuthecov er
edmyscreamswi t
hakiss
ashetwi r
ledtheicecubesonmybellybuttonIwas
cryi
ngfrom pleasur
eIpushedhi
m off.
Me:
"Lwandl
eI'
m st
art
ingt
ofr
eezeher
e"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
makey
ouwar
m"
Heki ssedmeagainashemov edt hem downt omy
blazi
ngNuna GodIj erkedmybackandmoanedi n
hismout hashemov edthem aroundsendi ngvibes
everywherei
nmybodyl etmeexpl ai
nmybody
mov ements umhseei nt hosemov i
eswher e
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clawingonthatpersontryi
ngt ofightforthei
rli
ves
wellIwasdoingthatandIwasnotbei ngkill
edjust
thatdamnIwashav i
ngt heti
meofmyl i
fe
Hi
m:"
shh.
..
..
it
'sokayI
'
m her
e"
Hemumbl
edi
nbet
weent
heki
ss
Me:
"i
t'
scol
d..
..
."
Ir
epl
i
ed
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
fixi
t"
Hesoundedsoconfi
dentandsoonIwasgoingto
fi
ndoutwhycausehecamebackwi t
hhisicecubes
heat
eoneandf edonetomebutImov edawaybut
hegr
abbedmyf aceandmademyl i
pspout
Hi
m:"
comeony
ouwon'
tdi
e"

Me:
"youdon'
tknowt
hat
"
Him:
"Iknowy
ouar
est
rongert
hany
oul
ook.
..
.Open
youl
egs"
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lltry
ingt odealwit
ht hecoldicecube
i
nmymout handhewant smet oopenedmyl egs
whydi dItalktohi m againIshouldhavejust
continuedkeepi ngquite.Wellhegotinbet weenmy
l
egsandj ustdippedhi sheadinsuckingonmef uck
thi
sIcecube Idon' twannachokeanddi ecause
ofituhuhIqui ckl
yspati toutandjustreleasedmy
screamsar chingmybackasIpul l
edont hesheet s
causecl oud9i snothingcompar edtothecl oudI
wasonImeannotsol ongagoIwascol dandnow
I'
m beingsweptar oundbysomet hingwar mt hat
combocanki llapersonI '
mt elli
ngy ou, hejustwent
deeperwi thhistongue Lor dfor givehi m causeso
Ifeltmywhol ebodyj ustv i
bratesendi ngt he
vi
br at
ionsdownt omyl egsandt hat '
si tIhadcame
i
nhi smout hwel lthef i
rsttimehedi dthi sIwas
embar rassedbutnowIknowt hi
si st her eacti
onhe
want sfrom mybody .Irelaxedabi taf terthatand
j
ustexhal edloudlybitingonmybot tom l iphecame
tomyl ipsandj ustpul l
edt hebot tom l i
poutbef or
e
attacki
ngt hem withaki ssIrespondedwr appingmy
armsandl egsaroundhi m.
Hi
m:"
uhuh.
..
.Lol
ouhuh"
Hetappedmylegs whysosensi ti
vethough
anywayIbr
okethehugandheposi ti
onedhimsel
f
overmewithhi
shandsonbot hsidesofmyheadhis
ri
ghthandmovedbutIcaughtiti
ntheairmaking
hi
m breakt
hekiss.
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
'
Me:
"ni
ggabecar
eful
andy
oubet
terpul
lout
"
Hi
m:"
we'
l
lbuyy
ouamor
ningaf
terpi
l
lsdon'
tst
ress
andwhotaughty
ouaboutpul
l
ingout
?CauseInev
er
sai
danyt
hing"
Me:"
mxm I
'
m notani
dioty
ouknowj
ustpr
omi
seme
youwil
l
"
Hepeckedmyl
i
ps
Hi
m:"
Ipr
omi
seIt
oldy
oust
il
lear
lyf
orababy
"
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av eled
downt ooursexesandLor dIwasspeaki ngi n
tonguesI'm sureev enMaRadebehear dmeIdon' t
knowhowt hisnewhousei sbuiltsoy eahi fit
'snot
soundpr oofedtheni t'
sobviousshehear dme.
blameLwandl eokayheseemedl i
keadi fferentman
todayinbedal lwildandbeast y Iwant edt obe
turnedoffbutev eryti
mehegotbackonmeki ssi
ng
meIwasqui cklyturnedoni nlessthant wo
mi nut
es Idi dn'tevenputmychi l
dtosl eept oday
I'
m surehe'sthinkingIhatehim I
'
dnev erhate
Segohe' sanAngel amongstangel sandr ightnowI
needhim asmuchasheneedsme.Hemaynotf il
l
thatholemybabyl eftbutri
ghthe'smybabyandt o
behonestt heylookedal i
kejustthathe'smor e
cof
feecol
ouredli
kehisf
atherandSmangawas
moreli
ghtski
nned gonebutnotf or
gott
enbaby
andyoushall
neverbenomat t
erwhat
.
¶
Nextday
¶
Iwokeupandt her
ewasaspacebet weenme
andhubbyhellnouhuhIr ol
ledtowardshim andhe
openedhisar
msandwr appedthem aroundme
ki
ssingmyforehead
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"
Me:
"mmhI
'
mfi
ne "
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
he'
shalfawakeokayey
esshutandst
il
lhadt
hat
sl
eepyvoi
cebutmybabylovesmeeveni
nhis
dr
eams
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e"
Isnuggl
edcl
osetohim andhejusthadtopi ckup
mylegandwrapitar
oundhiswaisthegr oanedas
hepull
edmecloser whatdidIdonowmxm
anywayhewasjustmakingsur
et hatIsl
eep
comf ortablynot hinghappenedr el
axandy eahwe
stayedi nbedt hewhol emor ni ngwi thLesego, who
wassoexci tedt obewi t
hmommyanddaddybuthi s
datehadt obecutshor twhenLwandl esaidhe' s
takingmet ogogetamakeov er i notherwor dshe
doesn'tl i
ket hewayIl ooknowhuhbutany wayi t'
s
hismoneyIdi dn' targueIj ustwentt ogiveLesegot o
MaRadebeandwentbackt omyr oom t oshower
causeLwandl ewasal readyi nt her
ewhenIwal kedi n
hedi dn'twast et imehest artedscr ubbingmy
back andwehadourshowernot hinghappened
okayandwhenwegotoutIt ookat owel anddr ied
him evenst andi ngonmyt oeswhi chheassi stedby
pickingmeupsot hatIcandoi twel laf
terhedr i
ed
meupwewal kedoutoft her enakednot owels
cover i
nguswhyshoul dwehi dehuhweappl iedour
bodyl otionbei ngal l
lov eydov eyandnowf orclothes
Ifeltli
kewear ingmyshor tstodaysoIj ustclosed
my selfinsidet hewal ki nclosetandoutonsome
embr oideredhi ghwai stdeni m shor tsandawhi te
body suitandmyov ert hekneedeni m studdedheel s
Iputofabl ackCar di
ganj ustt oputLwandl e'
smi nd
atease.It ookmyhi psterhatbl acki ncolorsandj ust
rockeditovermyhairnowforhandbagIchosemy
ChanelhandbagIwalkedoutknowingverywel
lthat
theShortwillj
ustbemeaskingtobeshoutedatbut
whateverlethi
m shout.
Me:
"I
'mr
eady
"
Hel
ookedatmef
oral
i
ttl
ewhi
l
e
Hi
m:"
li
ket
hat
?Babyy
ouknow.
..
"
Me:
"babypl
easej
ustt
hisonceIpr
omi
seI
'
lldonat
e
t
hem al
l"
Him'
"Lol
oIneversaiddonateyourshort
sbutj
ust
don'
twearthem outsi
detheyj
ustattr
actmanl
yeyes
onyouwhichIdon'twant
"
Me:"
butyouknowmyeyeswil
lbeony
ouonl
yri
ght
?
Pl
easebabyjustf
ort
odayi
ndul
geme"
Her
oll
edhi
sey
esandpul
l
edmet
owar
dshi
m.
Hi
m:"
justf
ort
odayy
ouhearme?
"
Iqui
ckl
ynodpecki
nghi
sli
ps
Me:"t
hanksl
ove.
..Let
'
sgobef
orewemi
ssour
appoint
ment
"
Hekissedmycheekandt ookmyhandaswewal ked
downandf oundMaRadebeIsweart hiswoman
hatesmel i
keLwandleishersonorsomet hing
butwhateverhejustt
oldherwherewewer egoi ng
andwel ef
tLwandlewaswear i
ngar ibbedj eanwith
ablackPoloT-shir
tandablackjacketandsome
Nikeairki
cksandanNYcapy ohthedr eadlocks
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օ ♡
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[
3year
slat
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ghtsl
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ti
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ndLesego
andhissist
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asande y esIgavebir
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e
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theyar esocute.Backt othescenewher etheywoke
meupsoear l
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dayIpulledupt heblanket
cov eri
ngmy sel
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Hai
imaanLol
ost
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l
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hebl
anket
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Me:
" i
t'
syourchi
l
drennotmehau"
Lwandl
e:"
Lesego?Phi
l
a?Getout
"
Heshout
ed
Me:
"hai
bodon'
tshoutatmyki
dsl
i
ket
hathau.
.."
Isatupstr
aightandjustpi
ckedupPhil
aandpl
aced
heronthebedt henIpi
ckedupLesego.
Me:
"mor
ning"
Lesego:
"mama.
..Phi
l
aishungr
y"
Me:"
babyi
t'
snott
imef
orbr
eakf
astandmommyi
s
t
ir
edthou"
Phi
l
a:"
mama "
Lwandl
e:"
NxaLoloI'
mt r
yingt
osleepher
e..
..
eishcan
yougoandjustgi
vethem whatt
heywant"
Me:
"i
t'
sfi
vei
nthemor
ninghau"
Phi
last
artedcr
yingsoIjustpokedLwandl
ewho
wokeuplooki
ngl i
kehe'
sreadytokil
lme
Hi
m:"
what
?"
He' sbeenmoodyt heseday seversinceIdecidedt o
stayathomeandl ookafterthekidsy ohhewor kstil
l
twel v
emi dni
ghtapparentl
yit'
sabi gcasel i
keIdon't
knowwhathe' sdoi ngbutheyI'mt hehappywi f
e
there'l
lcomeat i
mewher eIbur standI '
m gonet hat
bitchbetterpr
ayIdon'tfi
ndherorI '
l
lkil
lher
Me:
"Gobat
heLesegoandPhi
l
aI'
l
lmaket
hem f
ood"
Lwandl
e:"
can'
tyou.
."
Me:"don'
tyoudar
eshoutatmeinfrontoftheki
ds
yezwa?Segobabygoandgetreadyforyourbath
okaymommywi l
lgoandmakeyourbreakfast
.Phil
a
babygobat h"
Iki
ssedt
hei
rcheeksandassi
stedt
hem getoffthe
bed astheychasedeachot
herbutPhi
lasandefel
l
Me:
"seeIt
oldy
ounomor
erunni
ngi
nthehousehau"
Phi
l
a:"
sor
ry"
Me:"
it
'sokaybabygoandgetr
eadydaddywi
l
lgi
ve
youguysabath"
Theynodandhel
dhandswal
ki
ngout
Me:
"wakeupandgobat
htheki
ds"
Hi
m:"
I'
mti
red"
Me:"
Sokhulu?Ni
ggadon'
ttestmey
ouhearmeI
'
m
notyourbi
gcase"
Hel ookedatmeandIjustcl
ickedmytongueand
gotof ft
hebedgoi
ngtof r
eshenuphegotinasIwas
brushingmyhai
randjustheldmefrom behi
nd
ki
ssi ngmyneck
Me:
"St
opt
hat
"
Him:
"I'
m sorr
ybabyforshoutingatt
hekidsli
ket
hat
orevensnappingatyoupleasedon'
tgetangr
ymy
l
ove.Iwil
lbathethem okay?Aski
es"
Me:"st
opapol
ogi
singandstopbei
nganidiotand
spendtimewi
thyourki
dsforoncewi
thoutrunni
ng
of
ftoy
our'
case'
mov
ePhi
l
aishungr
y"
Heturnedmear oundandjustlashedhisli
psonto
mineItriedtopushhim awaybuthehel dmyhands
andforcedhi ski
ssonmet hemomenthebr oket
he
ki
ssyou'dswearhewasbeat ingmecauseIwas
cry
ingGodknowsIl oveLwandlet heseyear
sofus
bei
ngt ogetherhavereal
l
ymademel ovehim mor
e
andI'
m af r
aidifmysuspici
onar etrueIdon'
tknow
whatI'
ddot omy sel
f
Hi
m: "
I'
m sor
ryf
orev
ery
thi
ngbabyI'
mreal
lysorr
yI'
l
l
st
artspendi
ngti
mehomewit
hy ouandt
hekids"
Ipushedhi
m awayandsl
appedhi
m
Me:
"youdon'
tdeser
veusatal
lLwandl
e"
Him:"
IknowbabyandI'
m gl
ady
ouarehol
dingonbut
Ipromisef
rom nowoni
tsmeandyou"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
"
Mamawear
ewai
ti
ng,
hur
ry"
Il
ookedatthebathr
oom doorandi
twasLesegoi
n
hi
sundiesanddiv
inggl
assesIchuckl
ed
Me:
"babyy
ouar
egoi
ngt
obat
hnotswi
m "
Sego:
"samedi
ff
erencecomecome"
Me:
"daddywilgi
vey
ouabat
htodaynotme,
Babakhe
t
heyarewait
ing"
Hel
ookedatmeandj
ustki
ssedmycheek
Lwandl
e:"
comeher
eyoul
i
ttl
erascal
,
daddywi
l
lti
ckl
e
you"
Lesegor anoutl
aughingleavi
ngmet ojustbreak
downandsobsof t
lyIcri
edclutchi
ngonmychest
i
thur tsobadandseeIdon' tevenknowwhat '
sgoi ng
on,afterafewminutesIstoodupandj ustsplashed
myf acewi t
hwater
Me:
"Loloyouarebet
tert
hanthisf
armuchbetter
t
hanthis,
babyhe'
syourhusbandpul
lyour
sel
f
t
ogether"
Iwipedmyf aceandwentt oapplysomef acecream
andwalkeddownst air
st omakesomef oodformy
kidsImadet hem oatssincetheylovei
tandl emon
tea t hesekidslovewei r
dthingsIputtheteainto
thei
rcupsandj ustputthem i
ncol dwater.
"
Guy
sbr
eakf
asti
sready
!!
"
Ishoutedstandingbelowthestair
caseIknowt hey'
l
l
comer unni
ngsoIwentt opreparesomewaf f
lesfor
Lwandleperfectwiferemember Imadet hem just
thewayhel i
kedt hem andIputonsomef resh
coff
eeasIsai dtheycamechasi ngeachotherand
Phil
ajustpull
edmebyt herobeandhidbehi ndme
busylaughi
ng
Me:
"babyst
opr
unni
ngmyl
ove"
Phi
l
a:"
daddy
..
..
daddy "
Ismi
l
edandpi
ckedheruppl
aci
ngheronchai
r
Me:
"eatmyl
ove"
Shewant
edt
ojumpandr
unwhenLwandl
eappear
ed
Me:
"Sokhul
ulett
hem eatpl
ease"
Hewasal
sooutofbr
eat
h
Lwandl
e:"
eatguyswe'
l
lpl
ayl
ater
,babydoy
ouhav
e
pl
ansfortoday
?"
Inod
Me:
"I
'm meet
ingupwi
tht
hegi
rl
sforl
unchandt
hen
I
'
m goi
ngt
oseehowt
hebout
iquei
scomi
ng"
YesIdidlawbutheyI'
m agoodsell
spersonsoIgot
Lwandl
et obui
ldmeabout i
quesomethi
ngt hat
'l
l
keepmebusybutalsohavet i
meformykidscause
whenIhadPhilamylif
echanged Idi dn'twantto
beseparatedf
rom t
hem everagai
n.
Hi
m:"
soy
ou'
l
lbeher
ethi
smor
ning?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"hav
eam appoi
ntmentatt
hesal
ondon'
twor
ry
t
hei
rnannywi
llbeher
e"
Hi
m:"
nocancel
herI
'
lll
ookaf
tert
hem"
Inodandj
ustgavehi
m hi
sfoodandcupofcof f
eeI
gotmysel
facuptooandj
uststoodther
estari
ngat
theki
dsastheyat
eevenf
eedingeachother
.
Me:
"Phi
l
adon'
tpl
aywi
thy
ourf
oodokay
?Eatbaby
"
Sego:
"It
ell
her
"
Phi
l
a:"
no.
..
shh"

Lwandl
echuckl
edast
heyf
oughtwi
tht
hei
rspoons
Me:
"hey
!YouknowIhat
eitwheny
oudot
hatst
opi
t"
Them:
"sor
ry"
Phi
l
a:"
I'
m eat
ingr
ight
?I'
m agoodgi
rlmommy
"
Inod
Me:
"youar
eagoodgi
rlbabynowf
ini
shy
ourf
ood"
Sego:
"I
'm goi
ngt
ofi
nishf
ir
stmommy
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"don'
trushokay.
..
"
Lwandle:
"t
heset
wowi
l
lmakeaper
sonol
dbef
ore
thei
rti
me"
Me:
"mmh"
Lwandl
e:"
ain'
tyoueat
ing?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
Idon'
thav
eanappet i
te.
..Umhcanyouputthe
di
shesint
hedishwasherf
ormepl easeI
'
llbeback"
Lwandl
e:"
okaycool
"
Iputt
hecuponthesi
nkandjustr
anupstai
rst
oour
room Idon'tknowwhatbutsomet
hingbi
gis
comi ngmywayi t
'
scomi ngmywaylikeawint
er'
s
rainslowbutf
inal
lyi
t'
ll
arri
veIj
ustgotint
obedand
dosedof fI
'
mtiredshameIhadalongweekwi t
hthe
kids.
.
Lwandl
e
Thisiskill
i
ngmeapar tofmewant st otellLol
o
may beIcanst i
llsavemymar r
iagebutanot herside
ofmei sscaredI '
lll
osehercompl etelyforami stake
Ilookathowhappymyki dsare t heyaresohappy
whent heyseet heirmothersmilingandher etheyare
allgrownupcauseofhershesacr i
ficedhercar eer
toraisethesetwoandshedi dn'twai tformet osay
stopwor ki
ngshej ustsaidshewant st obehome
withherkidsandonl ygetanannywheni t'
san
emer gencymxm Lwandl ey ouidiotnowy ouar ein
toodeep Ist oodupandwentt ot aket heki d'
s
platesandplacedt hem i
nthedi shwasherIwi ped
Phila'
smout hthenLesego
Me:
"wannagooutwi
thdaddy
?"
Phi
l
a:"
buyat
utu?
"
Me:"
babyyouhavesomanyoft hosebal
ler
ina
dr
essesev
eny ourcl
osetdoesn'
tcloset
hough"
Shesul
ked
Me:"
okayI
'
llbuythem f
ory
ou...Comel
et'
sgoand
t
ell
mommyt hatwe'
l
lbegoingout"
Lesego:
"Iwantacar
"
Me:"
toycarnotcar.
..
.comecomeanddon'
truny
ou
knowmommyhat esthat"
Theynodandhel
dhands Iwal
kedbehi
ndt
hem
[
Phoner
ings]
Icheckedt
hecal
l
erandi
twasZamo Ianswer
ed
Me:
"yeah?
"
Her
:"
ohwownohel
l
obabygi
rl
?Howar
eyoul
ove?
"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantt
heki
dsar
ewai
ti
ngf
orme"
Her:
"ohsoIwon'
tseey
out
oni
ght
?Bei
ngt
heper
fect
husband"
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngt
ohangupi
fyoudon'
thav
eany
thi
ng
t
osay
"
Her'
"
Lwandl
eImi
ssy
out
hisapar
tmenti
sbi
gforme
al
one"
Me:
"cal
lyourf
ri
endt
ocomeov
er"
Her:
"butIwantyoupl
ease.
..Ipr
omi
sey
ou'
l
lbeback
homei nl
essthananhour"
Me:
"youknowt
hat
'snott
ruesopl
easel
etmespend
t
imewithmyki
dsI
'l
lseeyouonMonday
"
Her:
"I
'm hor
nybabycomeon.
..
.t
hisbedi
swai
ti
ngf
or
you"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"by
eI.
..
"
Iqui
ckl
yhungupcauseLolowal
kedholdi
ngPhi l
a
andLesegowasholdi
ngontoherhandshelooked
atmelikeshecoul
dreadmymindorsomething.
Lol
o:"
didy
oupr
omi
set
otaket
hem out
?"
Inod
Me:
"yeahwannaj
oin?
"
Sheshookherhead
Lol
o:"
goshowerI
'
dli
ket
osl
eepwheny
ouar
edone"
Me:
"ohumhokay
,youf
eel
i
ngokay
?"
Shenodandl azi
lywalkeddownt hestai
rsandjust
pl
acedthekidsdownt ur ni
ngontheTVIr anupthe
st
air
sandj ustwenttoshowerIwor emyjeans,
a
bl
acklongsleevedshirtandsomesneaker swearing
abeanieovermydr eadlocksIwalkeddownandt he
ki
dsjustrantome.
Me:"
yousur
ey oudon'
twannaj
oin?Wecoul
dgowi
th
youtot
hesalon"
Lol
o:"
mybodyhur
tsIj
ustwannal
aydownabi
tyou
guy
senjoy
..
..
comegiv
emommyaki ssguy
s"
Theyr
anbackt
oherandj
ustat
tackedhercheeks
wit
hki
sses.
Lesego:
"l
ovey
ou"
Lol
o:"
lov
eyoumor
emyPr
ince"
Phi
l
a:"
lov
eyoumommy
"
Lol
o:"
andIl
ovey
oumor
emyl
ove.
..
.Behav
eand
don'
ttr
oubl
edaddyokayandnoIcecream pl
ease
don'
tgi
vethem t
oomuchsugarplease"
Inod
Me:
"yeahI
'
ll
..
..
"
[
Doorbel
l
]
Lol
o:"
I'
ll
geti
t"
Shest
oodupandwentt
oopent
hedoor
Lol
o:"
Zamo?Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Zamo sheknowsshecan'
tcomei
ntomyper
sonal
spacel
i
ket
his.
Zamo:"morni
ngMrsSokhul
uumhIcamet odropof
f
thi
sfi
leforMrSokhul
uit
'si
mpor
tanthegoes
thr
oughit"
Lol
o:"
hehastheof
fi
cefort
hatandtodayit
'sa
Sat
urdaywhi
chhe'
sspendi
ngwithhisfamil
ysoi
f.
..
"
Zamo:
"i
t'
scr
uci
al.
.."
Lol
o:"
asIwassay i
ngIdon'
tcar
eaboutcruci
alor
nonecruci
alt
hisfi
lecanwai
tandl
astIremember
youarealawyernothi
sPAhehasAmberf orthat
"
Zamo:
"wel
lwear
ehandl
i
ngt
hiscaset
oget
her
"
Lol
ojustsnat
chedthef
il
efr
om Zamowhowas
weari
ngthiswei
rdsmil
eonherface
Lolo:"
thanky ouhe'l
lgothroughitwhenhe'
sfr
ee
nowi fyoudon' tmindyouaredistur
bingmyki
d's
plans,he'l
lseey ouatwork..
..By
eZamoi twasni
ce
seeingy ou"
Sheshov
edheroutandj
ustcl
osedt
hedoor
Me:
"we'
l
lseey
ouwhenwegetback"
Shenodandj ustt
hrewher sel
fonthecouchIt
ook
thekidsthr
oughthekit
chendoortot hegar
ageand
wedr ovetothemallt
heywer esoexcit
edbusy
singi
ngifyoucancalli
tthat
[
Phoner
ings]
Ianswer
ed
Me:"ar
eyoucr
azywhatwer
eyoudoi
ngatmy
house?"
Her:
"Iwasjustmaki
ngsureyouwer
en'
tpl
ayi
ngme
l
ikeyouareplayi
ngyourwi
fe"
Me:"knowyourpl
acehearme?Don'
tcomet
omy
houseeveragai
n"
Her:
"I
'm sor
rybutI
'
dreal
l
yli
ket
ospendt
his
weekendwithyou"
Me:"
I'
dli
kethatt
oobutIpr
omi
sedt
otaket
heki
ds
outt
odayLolohast
onsofwor
k"
Her
:"
ain'
tsheast
ayathomemom?Whatwor
k?"
Me:"
herbout
iquei
saboutt
obeopenedsoshe'
s
busy
"
Her
:"
sowouldyoudothesamef orme?Li
kebuyme
about
iquewor
thmil
li
onsjustt
oseemehappy ?
"
Me:"
bitchyouarenotmywif
eanddon'tgetwhat
's
goi
ngonbet weenusaslov
eIonlylov
eonewoman
andthat'
sthemotherofmykids"
Her
:"
stopbei
ngdramati
crel
axsowil
lyoucomeov
er
t
oni
ght?I'
l
lweary
ourfavour
it
eli
nger
ie"
Me:
"I
'l
lbether
eat8Ibet
ternotf
indt
hati
diot
ic
f
ri
endofyoursther
e"
Shegi
ggl
ed
Her
:"
okayRosewi
l
lbegonewheny
oucomehome"
Me:
"goodandyoubett
erremindhert
hatIpayf
or
t
hatapar
tmentsheshoul
dn'tt
estme"
Her:
"yesl
overj
usthur
ryupwi
thy
ourpl
aydat
eand
comehome"
Ihungupandj ustparkedthecarandwentt otake
myki dswhowant edtoseeamov i
esowewentt o
watchcartoonsthethingswedof orourki
dsthough
l
aterItookthem tothefunparkPhil
aistoo
energeti
cforheragebutshe'ssweetjustl
ikeher
motherandl i
ghtski
nnedl i
keher
.
.
Zamo
[
3mont
hsback]
Iwasdonewi t
ht hef i
l
eMrSokhulugavemet owork
onIjustwanttoresttomorr
owandnotev encome
toworkjustt
or estandputmyfeetupinfrontoft
he
TVwi t
habottl
eofr edwi
neandicecream.I
knockedonhisof f
icedoor
"
Comei
n"her
oar
ed
Iwal
kedinandf oundhim stuckstari
ngathi
s
work ev enatmi dni
ghthel ookedsoyummyRose
wasri
ghtsomewomanar elucky.Icl
ear
edmythr
oat
andgothi
sattenti
onhel ookedupandpushedback
hi
sdreadl
ocks.
Him:
"you'
rest
il
lher
e?It
houghtev
ery
onewent
home"
Me:"
well
Iwantedt
ofinishthi
scasef
ory
ouIhear
d
yousayyouneedi
tbeforeFri
day"
Igav
ehi
mthef
il
e
Hi
m:"t
hankst
heseday
syouar
eser
iousabouty
our
wor
khey"
Me:
"wel
lnowI
'
m usedt
omyenv
ironment
"
Henodandlookeddownagai
n Icl
ear
edmy
t
hroatt
hisi
sweird
Hi
m:"
any
thi
ngel
se?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"i
sthatt
heMol
efecase?
"
Hel
ookedathi
sfi
l
esandnod
Hi
m:"
it'
skil
li
ngmei
wishLol
owasher
eshe'
dsol
ve
t
hisf
astfast
"
Me:
"yeahsheisgoodatt
hisonewoul
dswearshe
wasbornalawyer
"
Hechuckledandjustti
edhi
sdr
eadl
ocksexposi
ng
hi
swellshapedjawline
Him:
"she'
sgoodatreadi
ngaperson'
scharact
erbut
shej
usthadtochoosebeingathomewit
ht heki
ds"
Me:
"yeahhowar
ethey
?Wenev
erseet
hem t
hat
much"
Hi
m:"
umhseatandhel
pmewi
tht
hiscase"
Inodandjustsatbesi
deshi
m anwewor
kedt
il
l2am
Iwasti
redastheycomeandmybodywasacoffee
j
ar.
Me:
"wowI
'
m donef
ort
heday
..
..
hav
eagr
eatni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
yeahsamet
oyou.
..
."
Heopenedthedoorf
ormeIlookedathi
m andhe
wassoclosetomeli
kei
nmyf acehiswetl
ipswere
j
ustscr
eamingmynameIfoundmy sel
fki
ssinghi
m
i
tlast
edabi
tbutIpul
l
edaway
Me:
"I
'm sosor
ryIj
ust
..
.."
Heshutmeupwi thaki
sspicki
ngmeupwal ki
ng
wit
hmet ot hecouchwher
ehej ustf
uckedme
sensel
essnof or
eplayj
usthim bei
ngroughandso
goodatthisstuf
fevent
heguyI '
m dat
ingain'
tgot
noneonhim hehadmepr ai
si
nghim wit
hallthe
el
evenlanguages.
[
Presentday
]
Igottot
heapartmentandj
ustt
ookof
fmyshoes
putt
ingmyfeetup.
Rose:
"andt
hen?Whathappened?
"
Ishr
ugasshehandedmet
hegl
assofwi
ne
Me:"
hewast
ell
i
ngt
het
rut
hhewast
aki
ngt
heki
ds
out
"
Rose:
"wi
tht
hatcow?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
shewassti
l
linherPJssoy
eahi
twasj
usthi
m
andhiski
ds"
Rose:
" andy
oul
ethi
m go?Youser
iousl
ydon'
t
wanthi
m"
Me:"t
heyar ehischildr
enandyouknowhowhei s
wheni tcomest othosebrat
sofhis,
buthe'
scoming
overtonightI
'm goingtomakesurehegoeshomein
themor ning"
Shel
aughed
Rose:
"cheer
stot
hatonebabygi
rl
"
Me:"
yebowhosai
dthatdi
ckbelongedt
oheronly
huh?Yohmybodycanalr
eadysensehi
m al
loverme
God"
Shechuckl
ed
Rose:
"t
oomuchinf
oyouluckybi
tch ,
l
ist
enl
etme
l
eaveyousot
hatyoucanprepar
e"
Inodandwal
kedheroutIwentbackt
osl
eepIknow
ther
eisnosl
eepf
ormet oni
ghtatal
l al
lni
ghtlong.
[
11/
2,21:
35]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 47♡
.
Penel
ope♡
.
Iwast ir
edashel laf t
errunningar oundt hebouti
que
checkinghowt hingsar egoi ngt hatmyf eetwere
ki
lli
ngmeIwal kedt oMcDonal d'scauset hat
'swhere
Iwasmeet ingupwi thAmberandSt effanour
fr
iendshipisst
illonpoi ntshamest i
ll
thebestever
andhonestashel l.Isawt hem seat i
ngbyt he
windowsandSt effanspot tedmef ir
stscreaminghis
l
ungsout Godf orgivethisbitchofmi neIsmi l
ed
andwal kedtowar dst hem huggi ngthem
Me:
"Ladi
es"
Amber
:"
heygi
rl
"
Stef
fan:
"bi
tchyouarebl
azi
nghotdamnifIwas
play
ingfortheot
hersi
deI'
ddef
ini
tel
ywanttoshag
you"
Wel
aughedandsatdown
Me:"Li
stenIgot
tadot
hisj
ustt
ogetmymi
ndof
f
t
hings"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"hav
ey'
al
lor
der
ed?
"
Them:
"uhuh"
Me:"
coolI'
m notev
enhungr
yIj
ustwantt
ogohome
andrest
"
St
efan:
"i
nthatdr
essgi
rlIdon'
tthi
nkf
ant
ast
icman
wi
lll
etyou"
Ichuckl
edandj
ustbr
okedown
Me:"
guysIcan'tdot
hisany
mor eIj
ustcan'
t,hav
ing
hi
mt ouchmelikehemeansitever
ynighthecomes
homeit'
s..
..
..I
t'
sugg "
Amber:
"Lol
owhat
'
swr
ong?Whatar
eyout
alki
ng
about
?"
Me:"
Ithi
nkLwandl
eischeat
ingonme.
..Wel
lIknow
he'
scheati
ngonme"
TheygaspedandAmberj
ustr
ubbedmyhandwhi
l
e
Stef
anwasbusyrubbi
ngmyback.
St
efan:
"I
'm sur
eyouarej
ustov
ert
hinki
ngt
hingst
hat
manlovesyoufri
end"
Me:"
usedtoist
hecorrectt
erm,he'
schanged.Lat
e
ni
ghtsatt
heoffi
ce,
whisper
ingwhenheanswer sa
cal
lhel
lwhenIaskhim aquest
ionhecan'
tevenlook
meintheeye"
Amber
:"
I'
m sor
ryf
ri
endIdi
dn'
tknowIj
ust
..
.."
Me:"Isuspecti
t'
soneoft
hosebi
tchesatt
heof
fi
ce,
butIdon'tknowwho"
St
efan:
"I
'l
lhel
pyoui
nvesti
gat
efr
ienduhuhai
n'tno
bi
tchwhomesseswithyouandgetsawaywi
thit"
Amber:"
yeahwe'l
lfi
ndoutwhoiti
snxasuch
l
iv
erness,
it
'sokayfr
iendwe'
l
lsaveyourmar
ri
age"
Me:"Idon'
tknowifitcanbesav
edguys.Lwandl
e
hasputmet hroughhellsoi
fmygutf
eeli
ngistr
ue
thenIdon'
tknowwhatI '
ddo"
Stef
an:"
fri
endhej
ustenter
edwit
htheki
dst
hey
haven'
tspott
edussofixyour
sel
f"
Iquickl
ytookoutsomewetwi
pesandmymi r
rorI
wipedtherui
nedmakeupoffmyfaceandt
hetearsI
don'twantmykidstoseemel
iket
his.
Amber
:"
wel
ltheyspot
tedus"
Ididsomequi cktouchupsandjustshoved
everyt
hingbackintomybagast heywalkedtowards
usthekidsjustpull
edthemsel
vesawayf rom
Lwandleandr antome Ihuggedt hem andthe
momentt heypull
edawayIwasbombar dedwi t
h
stori
esIdidn'
tevenknowwhattheywer esaying
Me:
"okayamen..
..GreetMommy
'sf
ri
endsf
ir
stI
t
aughtyoubet
terthanthat
"
Lesego:
"sor
rymommy
..
..Hel
l
o"
Amber
:"
hel
l
oboyboyandheypr
incess"
Thepr
incessj
usthi
dwi
thmyhand
Lwandl
e:"
hel
l
oladi
es..
..
"Theygr
eet
edback"hey
babywearej
usther
etograbatakeawayandwe
aregoi
nghometoplaysomegames"
Ismi
l
ed
Me:"wel
ltheyseem t
obeenj
oyi
ngt
hei
rdaywi
th
daddy"
Ki
ds:
"yes"
Me:
"andy
ouwi
shi
twasev
erydaydon'
tyou?
"
Lesegoj
ustshookhi
shead
Lesego:
"Il
ovey
oumor
emommy
"
howcanyouwanttohur
tyourki
dsl
i
ket
hisIj
ust
smi
ledandki
ssedhi
sfor
ehead
Me:"
Iloveyoutoosweet
yandrememberdon'
tti
re
your
selfoutmommywi l
ltucky
ouint
oni
ghtandsing
f
oryouokay "
Phi
l
a:"
mmhwewon'
t.
..Let
'
sgodaddy
"
Theyhel
dhishandbutLesegocamerunni
ngbackto
meandIjustcaughthi
m huggi
nghi
m asti
ght
lyas
hewashuggingme
Sego:
"Imi
ssy
oual
ready
"
myheartj
ustsankr
ightt
her
ethosetearsI
washol
dingbackj
ustfl
owedoutashedidn'
tbreak
t
hehugGodmybabyboycanmakemecr yt
his
much.
Me:"
mommywi l
lbehomev
erysoonIpr
omi
sey
ou.
..
.
I
'l
lneverl
eav
eyou"
Hebr
oket
hehugandj
ustwi
pedmyt
ear
s
Sego:
"okay
..
..
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"

Me:"t
hanksmylov
e,mommydoesf
eel
li
kea
pr
incessnow"
Ikissedhisforeheadandhi
sli
tt
lesi
sterwas
standingbehindhim
Me:
"wantaki
sst
oo?
"
Shenodnowmybabygi
rli
scr
yingIj
ustpi
ckedher
upandhushedher
.
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?Ar
eyoui
npai
n?"
Sheshookherheadpl
ayi
ngwi
thhershi
rt
Phi
l
a:"
mommyi
scr
yingandI
'
m cr
ying"
Me:"
ncoahbabymommyi sabi
ggir
l,shej
usthasa
l
otonhermindandseei
ngyouguy
smakesmommy
cr
y"
Phi
l
a:"
mommyhat
esus?
"
Ishookmyheadwi
pinghert
ear
s
Me:
"mommyl
ovesy
ouguy
stot
hemoonandback.I
l
ovey ouaboveandbey ondPhil
ajustthatmommyis
cryi
ngtear
sofj oy,I
'
m cry
ingcauseI'
m happytohav
e
suchbeauti
fulandcaringchi
ldr
enli
key ouokay?
Don'tcr
ybabypl ease"
Phi
l
a:"
somommyi
snotsad?
"
Ishookmyheadf
orci
ngasmi
l
einbet
weent
het
ear
s
Me:"I
'm notsadmyl
oveI
'
m happyt
oseey
ouand
Lesego"
Lesego:
"anddaddy
?"
Il
ookedupatLwandl
ewhoquickl
ylookeddown
wi
thhishandsi
nhispocket
Me:"mmhev endaddy
...
nowyouguy
sgoandget
somethingt
oeatokayandletmommyfini
shupher
e
sothatIcanqui
cklyr
ushhometoyou"
Ikissedtheircheeksandt heykissedmi newavingas
theywalkedt otheirfat
her howcomeIhadt o
hav esuchAngl esLordIhopeI 'm wrongIdon'
twant
toexposet hem toanyoft hisdramaIguesst heir
orderdidn'
ttaket i
mecauset heycamet osay
goodby eandIhadt oputont hishappyfacewhenhe
ki
ssedmycheek t heyl
eftmetherejustst
uck
st
ari
ngatthedoort
heywalkedoutofIwasbr ought
byAmberholdi
ngmyhand.
Amber:
"f
ri
endjustaskhi
m may
bey
ouar
ereadi
ng
toomuchint
othings"
Me:"andwhatifI
'm not?Whathappenst
hen?Ican'
t
breakupmyf amil
ybutIalsocan'
ttaket
hehurtI
don'twannadieandleavemykids"
St
efan:
"yeahit
'stoughheyt
hosepumpki
nsofy
our
s
ar
esocut eforthei
rage"
Ismi
l
ed
Me:"y
eahespeci
all
yLesegohe'sagentl
eman
al
readyj
ustwishheremainsl
ikethatf
orev
er"
Isi
ghedandj
ustwi
pedmyt
ear
s
Me:
"enoughdr
amapl
easel
et'
sdosomecat
chup"
Theynodandt heycall
edthewaiterasIsaidIwasn't
hungrysoIj ustorder
edami l
kshakeIhav en'
thadan
appeti
teandI 'm al
waysti
redashellsoIdon'tknow
maybeI '
m comi ngdownwi t
hfludon'tknow
real
l
y,wellIstayedwithmyfri
endst i
ll
5pm andt hen
ever yonej ustwentt heirsepar atewayIwasdr iving
homet hinkingofseei ngmyki dsonl ynot hingmor eI
gothomear ound5: 30soIj ustpar kedt hecari nt he
garagebutLwandl e'swasst i
llint hedr iveway
‍♀soI 'l
l j
ustusehi ssi deI'm notpl anni ngt ogo
any wher et omor r
oworanyt i
mesoonsonextt ot he
wal litisIgotoutandj usttookoutt heshoppi ng
bagsIboughtmyki dsandImat chi ngshi rt
sandone
forLwandl eifhewant stogoIwon' thel phi mI '
ll
cont inuebei nghiswi f
easl ongaswel i
v etoget her
causeImeantmyv owsImeanti twhenIsai dI '
llbe
withhi mt hroughandt hroughandI '
lllov ehi m wi th
hisf l
awssonowi fhi sflawsi swhatIt hinki tisthen
I'
m sor r
ybutI '
m done.Iopenedt hedoorl eadi ngt o
theki tchenandIputonmysmi lewhi lei nsideI '
m
cryingmyf aceof fthehousewasdeadqui te
may bet heyar esleepingupst airsIwal kedi ntot he
l
ivingr oom andt heret heywer esl eepi ngal l threeof
them undert hi
smakebel i
ev et entmakewi tha
blanketandt hecouchest heki dswer espr awl edon
topofLwandl e buthowcoul dhewantt obr eakup
suchhowcanhewantt ohur tt hem l iket his I
tr
iedt
otiptoeupst
air
sbutI'
m weari
ngheel
sand
yeahPhil
aisali
ghtsl
eepershewokeuprubbi
ngher
beaut
if
ulbrowneyes.
Phi
l
a:"
mommy
"
Me:
"pr
incesscomeher
edon'
twaket
hem up"
Shedetachedher selffr
om thebunchbutLwandl e
fel
therleavesohej umpedupabi tcauseseePhil
a
waskidnappedt woday saf t
erIgav ebir
thtoherby
Lubanziyesmycr azycrushkidnappedmychi l
dand
sai
difIdon' tcomet ohim he'
llsendmemydaught er
i
npiecesIwentt hroughhellwit
ht hi
smanbut
thr
oughi tallwecameoutst r
onger .Lwandl eheld
Phil
apullingherback
Me:
"she'
scomi
ngt
omer
elax
...
.comebaby
"
Hel
azi
l
yopenedhi
sey
esl
ooki
ngatme
Hi
m:"
ohIt
hought
..
..Mxm whendi
dyougetback?
"
Me:
"Ij
ustgoti
ncany
oupl
easet
akeLesegoupst
air
s
t
ohisroom"
Him:
"nahwe'
l
lsl
eepher
eit
'
sokaywear
est
il
l
camping"
Me:"
okay
.UhuhPhi
l
adon'
tbet
ryi
ngt
oswal
l
owme
hau"
Shechuckl edandcov eredhermout hwi thbot
hher
handscauseshewasy awni ngwithitwideopenI
kissedhercheekandwentwi thherupstair
swhereI
placedt hebagsandchangedmyshoesandwor e
mysl ippersIhel dherhandandwewal ked
downst airsgoingt otheki t
chenwher eshe
bombar dedmewi thstoriesaboutherdayoutwi th
daddyandal lt
hattheydi dmybabywashappyI
hav eseenherhappybutnott hishappyGodshe
didn'tstopt al
kingshedi dn'tevencar eaboutwhatI
diditwasal ldaddythis,daddyt hatGodshewas
runningoutofbr eath.
Me:
"okayhav
esomewat
erbabybef
orey
ouf
aint
"
Shedr ankt hewat eranditbeganf r
om thebeggi ng
notfrom wher eshet ookabr eakbutfrom themal l
andev erythingtheydidthereIjusthadtomake
my sel
fcomf ort
ableandl i
stenandnodcausei fI
speaki t
'l
lbe" shhmamal etmet el
lyou" she' s
cheekyf orherageandt heysaysheget sitfr
om
me I
'
m notascheekyashershame
Me:
"sowhatdi
dyoubr
ingme?
"
Her
:"
daddyhasi
t"

Me:
"whydaddy
?Whynoty
ou?
"
Sheshrugandsuckedonhercupandseasont
hree
began
Her
:"
I'
m hungr
y"
InodandiwenttomakeherasandwichIgav
eitt
o
herandexchangedt
hewaterf
orj
uice
Me:"
eatokayy
ou'
l
ltel
lmommyabouty
ourt
ri
plat
er
on"
ShenodandIwentonwi t
hpr epari
ngdinnerIwasn'
t
feel
ingthiswhol
edi nnerst uf
fsoIj ustt
ookout
somechi ckenbreastfil
let
s,someMcCai novenchi
ps
andmi xedveggi
esLwandl ewal kedinholdi
ngonto
Lesegowhowi ggledhi swayoutofhi sfat
her'
s
handsandr antomet uggingonmydr ess
Me:
"yes?Youhungr
y"
Henod
Ipickedhim upandplacedhim ontopofhi
schai
r
andgav ehimtheotherhalfoft
hesandwichImade
forPhiladon'
twantthem tobefull
theyhav
etoeat
theirveggi
es.
Me:"
mommyi sbusywi
thdi
nnerr
ightnowokayI
'
llbe
donesoon"
Henodandj
ustat
ehi
ssandwi
ch
Me:
"wi
l
lyouj
oinusdaddy
?"
Hel
ookedatmeamazedIshrugandturnedar
ound
t
oprepar
ewhenhej
ustwrappedhisarmsaround
mesucki
ngonmyneck
Me:
"uhuhnoti
nfr
ontort
heki
ds"
Him:
"I
'l
lbej
oini
ngy
ouf
ordi
nnermyl
ove.
..
.Imi
ss
youLol
o"
Me:
"bl
amey
our
sel
ffort
hat
..
."
Hi
m:"
letmemakeupf
ori
tpl
ease"
Me:"
I'
m notstoppi
ngyou..
..
pleasemov
eI'
dli
ket
o
Cookthekidsarehungr
y"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
bebackokayIhav
etodosomet
hing"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"sayby
etot
heki
ds"
Hi
m:"
lookatme"
Il
ookedathim Idon'thav
etheenergytobear
gui
ng
wi
thhim notnowev ennotinf
rontoftheki
ds.
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyoumamakhenev
erdoubtt
hat
"
Inod
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Hekissedmyf or
eheadandpeckedmyli
pst
urni
ngit
i
ntoaslowpassionateki
sst
hekissIhav
emissed
fr
om him heseemedtobedivi
ngint
odeepIpushed
hi
m away .
Me:
"t
heki
dsar
eri
ghtbehi
ndy
ou"
Hi
m:"
okayI
'
llseey
ousoon"
Inodandhekissedmyf oreheadthenwenttoki
ss
hi
skidsandjustranupstai
rshecamebacki not
her
cl
othesIknowhe'snotcomi ngbackbutIj
ustsmiled
hetookhiscarkeysandr anout"Lol
odon'
tbreak
down"mysubconsci oust oldmeIcont i
nuedt o
makemyki dssomef ood Iwasdonequi ckqui ck
butt heywer ef ullsoIl eftt hepot sast heyar eand
wentt oplaywi thmybabi eswepl ayedunt ilthe
deci dedt oeatandIgav et hem abat ht henwentt o
tuckt hem i nsi ngingt ot hem ThankGodt heyshar ea
room Icanj ustst andi nt hemi ddleandsi ngwi t
h
them st aringatmet hrought hebar r
icadesoft heir
cot sthey '
l
l stopusi ngt hem whent heyar efive I
don' twantt olosemybabi escauseofaf atal f
all
from t hebedany wayIwentbackdownst airswith
theirtoybasketandj ustcol lectedal lthet oys my
mot her l
ydut i
esaf t
erIwentt obathandwor emy
PJsi twasni neal r
eadyandMrI '
llbebacki snot
backy etsodon' tholdy ourbr eathhe' l
l behomeaf ter
mi dnightIwentdownst airsandj ustwentt othewi ne
cellarandt ookoutsomer edwi ney esIdr i
nknowI
startedt hreemont hsbackasawayt oescapet he
nev erendi ngquest ionsIkeptonaski ngmy selfI
tookat ubofI cecr eam andj ustwentt ot akemy
weddi ngt apeIwentupst airsandj ustpl ayedi ton
myl aptopseat ingont hef loorj ustwat chinghow
happyIwaswhenIof fici
al lybecameMr sSokhul u
thewifetothemostf ear
edgangstertheonewho
tamedt hebeastitwasallme Idi ditIturneda
monst eri
ntothislovi
ngki
ndmant hatnowev erygi
rl
wantsandnowsomebi t
chhasherclawsi nhim now
enjoyi
ngthemanImade t hemanIcr eatedt hey
arenowenj oyi
nghi m whenIfi
ndoutI '
ll
make
suretheypay.Idrankthewholebott
leplayi
ngt he
videoforthefourt
ht i
me
Me: "
y eahRi ghtI'
lll
ovey out i
lldeat hdousapar t , I
gav ey ouev eryt
hingyouungr ateful sonofabi tchI
l
ov edy ourcr azyassliterallyIlov edi tandt ookcar e
ofitandwhatdoIget ?At hanky ouser vedwi tha
platterofshi tabigbuf fetofshi t . ..I'
llgety ou
Lwandl eSokhul ucauseLor dknowsy ouai n'tthe
onlymancapabl eoflov ingmeandmybabi es.Ni gga
Godhadgi veny ouadi amondi t
'snotr oughj usta
beaut if
ul gem thatnomanhadi nfest edallfory our
assbutnot hatain'
tenoughf ort hemi ghtySokhul u
butit'senoughf orme.I '
m doneandI '
m donef aki ng
smi l
esj ustfory ourskimpyassni ggamanyguy s
woul dl i
keal lt
hisassint heirfacei nt heirbedev en
tr
eati trightcomebackt oi tcomebackhomej ustt o
l
ovemer
ight
."
Isi
ppedmywi
ne
Me:"
fucky ouLwandl
efuckyourgoodlooksand
sweetinnocentf
aceImadey outhegentl
emanyou
ar
etodayandIcanbr eakyou"
Icl
osedt hel
aptopandj ustpi
ckedmydr unkass
fr
om thegroundandcl eanedmyr oom I
'm notapigI
don'
tsleepinthedir
t,Iwenttofreshenupt ooand
j
ustgotintobedInowcoul dsl
eep t rysleepi
ng
wit
habr okenhearti
t'
scool .
[
Nextday
]
Iwokeupt oanempt ybedandt hisisthefi
nalrod
I'
m doneIcoulddealwithhim comi nghomeat
midnightbutnotcomingatal l Igotoutofbed
andjustwenttofreshenupl i
keaf ullblownout
showerIgotoutandj ustappliedsomebodyl otionI
woremybl ackstuddedcr optophoodi ewithi
t'
s
j
oggerpant sandsomeuggboot sIti
edmyhai rinto
amessybunanddi dmymakeupnowl etmecheck
whattimeitisanditwasst il
l6am soIcal l
ed
Lwandlethefir
stti
mei tjustrangandIcal l
edagain
andi
twasanswer
ed.
"
Whatdoy
ouwantsoear
ly?
"

Me:
"whoi
sthi
s?Bi
tchwher
eismyhusband?
"
??
!:"
he'
ssl
eepi
ngwantmet
opassonamessage
bi
tch?"
Ichuckl
ed
??!
:"
what'sfunny ?Heissat
isf
iedastheycomeand
he'
sstil
lsleeping.Wheredi
dy outhi
nkthi
sstupid
thi
ngofy ourswoul dend?Heishappyherewithme
sopleasewai tyourtur
nwear est
ill
busyhe'
llbehis
whenwear edone"
Everbeensotonguet
iedbyanger wel
lIj
ust
wantedtoki
ll
her
Me:
"pr
ayIdon'
tfi
ndy
oucauseI
'
llki
l
lyou.
..
."
??!:
"mxm pl
easeyoumaybethewifeandallbuthe'
l
l
al
way scometomewhenhewant stobesat i
sfi
ed
whichyouarefai
li
ngcauseofy
ourfatasshegets
ti
redsolethi
m enj
oyhimsel
fwit
houtbeing
squashed"
Il
aughedwi
tht
ear
sfl
owi
ngdownmyf
ace
Me:
"t
hanky
ou"
Ihungupandj ustthrewthephoneont hebedItook
mybi gtr
oll
eybagandj ustst
artedpackingmy
cl
otheswithtearscloudi
ngmyv er
sionbutIj
ust
wipedthem awayandpackedIev enbumpedint
o
Lesego.
Me:
"ohI
'
m sor
rymyl
ove "
Ipi
ckedhi
m upanddust
edhi
m of
f
Lesego:
"I
'mf
inemommydon'
tcr
y"
Hewi
pedmyt
ear
sandki
ssedmycheek
Me:
"gowakePhi
l
aandbr
ushy
ourt
eet
h"
Iplacedhi m downandmysondi dn'
targuewit
hme
hejustwentt her
esoIzippedupmybagandj ust
wentt ot hei
rroom andstartedpackingthei
rcl
othes
i
nt heirtroll
eybags,whenIwasdoneIt ook
everythingdownt omycarandl oadedthem Iwent
upstairst otheki
d'sroom andjustgavethem abath
anddr
essedt
hem i
nthei
rtr
acksui
ts.
Me:"
guy spi
cky
ourf
avour
it
etoy
smommywant
sto
packthem"
Lesego:
"wear
eleav
ing?
"
Me:
"wear
evi
sit
ingMommy
'sf
ri
end"
Theynodandpackedt
hei
rtoyswhi
leIcal
l
edAmber
andsheanswer
edonthethi
rdri
ng.
Me:
"f
ri
endIcan'
ttal
kforl
ongbutIneedy
ourhel
p"
Amber
:"
what
'sup?
"
Me:
"Ineedaplacet
ocr
ashunt
ilIknowwhatt
odo
wi
thmy sel
f"
Amber:
"f
ri
endyouknowyouarewel
comehere
any
timeI'
l
lpr
eparet
heguestr
oom f
oryouguys"
Me:
"t
hanksf
ri
end"
Ihungupandj ustt
ookmyki d'
stoysandwewal
ked
downstair
sgoingtothecarwhereIbuckl
edt
hem in
andjustdroveoutt
oAmber '
shousewhenIgotthere
Idroppedofftheki
dsandourclothest
hendr
ove
backhomewher et
hesirwasn'
tbacksti
ll l
etme
getti
psyf orhi
m.Iwai
tedandhegothomeaf
termy
thi
rdglass.
Hi
m:"
babyIsawt
heSUVout
sidewher
ewer
eyou?
"
Il
ookedathi
mthr
ought
hegl
ass
Me:
"your
sormi
ne?
"
Hi
m:"
your
s"
Me:"
thendon'
taskmewher
eIwaswi
thmycar
don'
t"
Hi
m:"
woahsor
rywher
ear
etheki
ds?
"
Me:"
wherewereyou?Imeany ourki
dswenttobed
wit
houty
oulastnightaf
tery
oupr omi
sedthem y
ou'
d
behome"
Hi
m:"
umhIwaswi
thSi
sandaand.
..
..
"
Me:
"don'
tl
iet
ome"
Hi
m:"
whosai
dI'
mly
ing!What
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou?"
Me:
"Si
sandawenttothemedi
cal
semi
nari
nCape
t
ownandy ouwer
en'ti
ncapet
own"
Hi
m:"
babeIcanexpl
ain"
If
oldedmyar
ms
Me:
"I
'm al
lear
s"
Hi
m:"
Lol
owhendi
dyoust
artdr
inki
ng?
"

Me:
"f
ucky
ouwhoi
sshe?Whoi
sshe?
"
Hi
m:"
huh?What
?"
It
hrewt
hebot
tl
eathi
m andheduckedi
t
Me:"y
oul
yi
ngcheat
ingsonofabi
tch?Isai
dwhois
she?Howcoul
dyoudothi
stome?Whoi sshe?
"
Hi
m:"
myl
oveIcan.
..
."
Ij
ustbr
okedownandst
art
edcr
ying
Me:
"howcouldyou?WhatdoesshehavethatIdon'
t?
Whatdoesshegivey
outhatIdon'
thuh?What?"
Hi
m:"
not
hingbabyy
ougi
vemeal
lIwantandmor
e"
Me:"
butyousti
l
l cheat?Yousti
ll
cheatonme
Lwandl
eImadey outhissweetmangir
lswantand
dr
ooloverbutyoudot hist
ome? "
Het
ri
edt
otouchmebutIj
ustsl
appedhi
m
Me:"
don'tt
ouchmewi thyourf
il
thyhands.NiggaI
gaveyoueveryt
hinganyt
imeandanywherey ou
wantedi
tItri
edmyl evel
bestt
omakey ouhappy"
Him:"
IknowandI'
m sor
rybabypl
ease.
..
.I'
m sorr
y
I'
mreallysorr
ymyl
ovecal
m downandlet'
stalk
aboutthis"
Me:"
tal
k?Tal
k?"Iscreamed"Ial
readyspoket
oyour
bi
tchshehasgutsforasidechi
ck,Iwastheper
fect
wi
fetoyouandIgav eyouachil
d."
Hi
m:"
myl
oveI
'
m sor
ryI
'
mreal
l
ysor
ry"
Me:"Il
ostmyf i
rstsoncauseofyouIgotki
dnapped
causeofyoubutt hi
siswhatyougivetome..
..
.You
knowwhatf uckthisI
'm goi
ngtogetawayfr
om you
beforeIl
oseit"
Hi
m:"
Lol
odon'
tpl
easedon'
tl
eav
eme"
Me:"
expectsomepaper
sfr
om myl
awy
ery
oubet
ter
si
gnthem"
It
ookmycarkey
s
Me:
"whoi
sshe?
"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oIpr
omi
seI
'
llendi
twi
thher
"
Me:
"whothehel
li
sshe?Lwandl
eyouowemet
hat
much,
whoisshe?"
Hel
ookedathi
shands
Hi
m:"
it
'sZamof
rom wor
k"

Me:
"f
orhowl
ong? howl
ong?"
Hi
m:"
babypl
ease"
Me:
"t
ell
mehowl
ong"
Hi
m:"
thr
eemont
hsnow"
Me:
"i
sshet
hatgoodi
nbed?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
babypl
easedon'
tdot
hisI
'
m beggi
ngy
ou"
Me:"
Iaskedyouaquesti
oni
sshet
hatgoodinbed?
Doessheworkhardert
hanme?Whostar
tedit
?
Wheredidi
tstar
t?"
Hekeptqui
et
Me:"
answermedamni
t!
!Youcant
alkcan'
tyou?
Answerme"
Him:
"shekissedmefi
rstattheof
fi
ceandnonoone
canevercomparet
oyou...
."
Iwalkedoutandjustgoti
ntomycarwithhi
m
bangingont hewi
ndowsIspedoffwit
hmyey es
bei
ngcl oudedbytear
sI'
mf i
nal
l
ybroken
heart
ed.
[
11/
2,21:
36]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ ♡
.
ք ռ օք ♡
.
Di
rt
yti
ssues,
trusti
ssues
Gl
assesont
hesi
nk,
theydi
dn'
tfi
xyou
Lonel
ypi
l
lowsi
nast
ranger
'sbed
Li
tt
lev
oicesi
nmyhead
Secr
etkeepi
ng,
stopt
hebl
eedi
ng
Lostal
i
ttl
ewei
ghtbecauseIwasn'
teat
ing
Al
lthesoul
sthatIcan'
tl
ist
ent
o,t
otel
lthet
rut
h
Lov
ingy
ouwasy
oung,
andwi
l
d,andf
ree
Lov
ingy
ouwascool
,andhot
,andsweet
Lov
ingy
ouwassunshi
ne,
saf
eandsound
Ast
eadypl
acet
oletdownmydef
enses
Butl
ovi
ngyouhadconsequences Cami
l
laCabel
o
~Consequences
Iwasdrivi
nglikeamaniacallIwant
edwast obeas
farawayasIcanbef r
om LwandlebutIwaswr ongI
sawhimf ol
lowingme hespedi nfrontofmeand
thenbesi
desmecausi ngmet opull
ov ermindy ouI
wasstil
lcryi
ngandhest opsmeIgotoutoft hecar
withhi
mr ushingtomycar .
Hi
m:"mamakheIwon'
tl
ety
oudot
hispl
easemy
l
ove"
Me:"
dowhat ?Youdidevery
thingy
oursel
fLwandl
e
youbrokeourfami
lyapartyouandonlyyou"
Hi
m:'
I'
m sor
rymyl
ovepl
easei
twasj
ustasi
l
ly
mi
stake"
Me:"
sil
lymistake?Formont hsi
twasamistake?Are
youcrazyhuh?Gety ourst
inkycarawayf
rom mine"
Him:
"myl
ovepl
easel
et'
stal
kaboutt
hisI
'
m beggi
ng
you"
Me:"Iwasn'
tyourl
ovewheny ouwerebusyopeni
ng
anothergi
rl
'
slegsIwasn'tyourl
ovewhenyouchose
tospendhoursandhoursandhourswithher
?You
madey ourbi
tchesdi
srespectme"
Hi
m:"Penel
opeI'
m beggi
ngy
oumyl
ovej
ustgi
veme
achancetoexpl
ain"
Isl
appedhi
m
Me:"
you'
l
lpayLwandleI'
m goi
ngtomakeyourf
loozy
payi
nawayt hatIpai
dforAmandl
a'
ssins"
Heshookhi
shead
Me:"
ohyesshewant
edLwandl
eI'
m goi
ngtogiv
eher
Lwandl
eser
vedonabeaut
if
ulbuf
fetpl
att
er"
Hi
m:"Penel
opepl
easemyl
ovepuni
shmei
nst
eadI
'
m
t
heidi
othere"
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngtopunishyouboth..
..
.I'
m goi
ngto
makesurethatski
nnybi
tchtostaysinherl
aneand
I
'
m goi
ngt
omakey
our
egr
etev
erhur
ti
ngme"

Him:
"I'
m sor
rymyloveI'
m sor
ry.
..
.IpromiseyouI
'
ll
enditj
ustpl
easedon'
tl
eavemedon' tdi
vorceme
pl
ease"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
whydi dn'tyoudoitbeforeweof f
ici
all
ygot
marr
ied?Whydi dn'
tyoubecomeawhor ebefor
eyou
madeanidi otofmei nfrontofeveryoneelse?You
madeapr omi setomet obef ai
thfultoME!ME
Lwandleme. .
...Wasthatjustali
et oo? "
Hetri
edt
otouchmebutIpushedhim awayal
most
get
ti
nghi
m hi
tbyacarbutIpul
ledhi
m back.
Him:"
Lolopl
easejustt
hinkaboutwhaty
ouar
edoi
ng
I
'm beggi
ngyou"
Me:"
yousleptwit
hyouremploy
eeLwandl
ey our
employ
eeintheoffi
ceonthecouchyoumadelove
tomeforallt
hesemonths.
..
.Whenyousleptwi
th
mewher eyouthi
nki
ngabouther?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m: "
it
'sactual
l
ytheotherwayroundbabyyouare
al
lthi
nkaboutIpromise,Imeanti
twhenIsaidIwil
l
l
oveyout i
ll
mydy i
ngday s"
Me:"yeahbutyoucant akeabr eakint hemi ddleri
ght?
Lovesomeoneel sehuh?Wasn' tIenoughf ory ou?
Thesexi ntheoffi
ce,
thecar,ki
tchen, li
ving
room,cinemathebathroom gym. ..
.wasn' ti
tenough
foryou?Whatdi dIdowr ongLwandl e?Wasn' tIti
ght
enoughf oryouanymor e,di
dn'
tImoanasmuchas
youwant edmet o?Isitthebabyst retchmar ksIgot?
Whati sit?WhatdidIdot odeservet histypeof
puni
shment "
Hi
m:"youdidnot
hingbaby
..
..Iwast
heidi
oti
nour
marr
iageIknowI'
m deepl
ysorrymyl
ove"
Me:"
pleasemoveI'
dli
ketogoandseemykidsI
'
m
sur
ePhi l
aisawakeandsear
chi
ngforme"
Hi
m:"
Loloy
ouknowIneedyouandt heki
dsi
nmy
l
if
epl
easegiv
emeonelastchance"
Me:"
Lwandl
emov
eawayf
rom me.
..
..Don'
ttouchmy
car
"
Heknel
tinf
rontofme
Him:
"Lol
olookatmeI'
dratherl
oseev
ery
thi
ngt
omy
namethantolosey
ouIpromise"
Me:"
don'
tev
enthinkyoutearshar
m me...
theydon'
t.
Lwandl
ewhatcompelledyoutocheatonme?What
madeyoucont
inueyoursil
lymist
akeasyousayi t
"
Hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatandsl
owl
yst
oodup
Hi
m:"I
..
.Idon'
tknowcauseev
ery
thi
ngwasgoi
ngso
wel
lbetweenus."
Me:"
ohhIseebuty
ousti
llopenedherl
egsanddi
d
whatev
eryoudi
dtoher
,youeven.
..
"
Thet
houghtofhi
m gi
vingherheadj
ustmademy
st
omachknotupIeventhr
ewup.
Me:
"di
dyoudoi
t?"
Hi
m:"
nobabyIdi
dn'
tdowhaty
out
hinkIdi
d..
..I
pr
omise"
Me:"
whatar
ey oupromisi
ng?Whatar
eyou
pr
omisi
ngreall
y?Youbrokeyourv
owstomeal
ready
sowhatar
ey oupromisi
ng?"
Him:"
IknowImadeami st
akelov
ebutjustgi
vemea
chancetosol
vet
hisj
ustgivemeachanceplease
Lol
o"
Me:
"you'
vebr
okenmei
t'
senough.
..
."
"
Excuseme!Mam ar
eyouokay
?"
Wel
ookedatt
heguy
sst
andi
ngbesi
desus
Lwandle:
"doesn'
tshel
ookokay
?Ni
ggaj
ustmi
nd
yourownbusiness"
Guy2:
"dudeyoudoknowthatwomanabusei
snot
al
lowedinthi
scount
rywehatemenli
keyou"
Lwandl
e:"
dudedoy
ouknowwhoIam?I
'
ll
..
."
HejustpunchedLwandleandyesLwandlepunched
hi
m backImeant heyar
ef i
veguysbuthewantsto
fi
ghttheywereaboutt
oattackhi
m.
Me:"
stopit
..
.ThankyoubutI
'
mf inehe'smyhusband
andifyoudon'
tmindIwassti
ll
shoutingathi
m"
Guy
1:"
arey
ousur
eyouar
eokay
?"
Inod
Me:
"I
'mf
iner
eal
l
ythanky
ou"
Theynodandj
ustl
efthi
m ont
hegr
ound
Me:
"thankyouguysIneededt
hisj
ustt
oseehi
m
l
ayi
ngont hefl
oorl
ikethi
s"
Guy
1:"
letmeguesshecheat
edony
ou?
"
Ir
oll
edmyey
esandnod
Me:"
imaginewi
thsomeidi
oti
cgi
rlatwor
kandnow
he'
ssorrywhat
'swi
thyoumen?Youcheatandt
hink
ever
ythi
ngwil
lbefi
ne"
Guy3:
"he'
sanidi
otI
'
dnevercheatonyoudamnI
'
d
fl
auntyouar
oundandshowyouof f
"
Lwandl
e:"
that
'smywi
fey
oupsy
cho.
.."
Me:
"Lwandl
eshutuppl
ease..
..Wowyoujustl
i
fted
mymoodagain,
soI'
m wort
hbeingfl
aunt
ed?"
Them:
"hel
lyeah"
Ichuckledandjusthuggedal
loft
hem j
ustt
omake
him angryIdon'
tcare
Me:
"t
hanky
ouguy
sanddr
ivesaf
ely
"
Guy
1:"
samet
oyouandhedoesn'
tdeser
vey
ou.
..
..
"
Me:"
bel
i
evemehedoesn'
t,
buthei
sthef
atherofmy
ki
ds"
Theywal
kedt
othei
rcarIwasl
eftwi
tht
hebl
eedi
ng
Lwandl
e
Me:"gi
vesmesomuchpl easuretoseey ouliket hi
s..
..
Forall
youputmet hr
oughIwi shIdidn'
tstopt hem
butIam stupi
denought osayIstil
ll
ov eyouandI
don'
twantt obetheonet oexplai
nwhyt heirfather
andmot herai
n'tt
ogetheranymore"
Hi
m: "
LoloyouandIwil
lbet
oget
herforev
ernoone
wi
llhavetoexpl
aint
otheki
dsanyt
hing"
Icl
appedmyhands
Me:"y
ouaresomet
hingy
ouknowt
hat
..
.Gi
veme
yourwal
l
et"
Hi
m:"
huh?Why
?"
Me:
"j
ustgi
vemey
ourwal
l
et"
Heshrugandt ookitoutofhispockethandingi tto
meIwenti ntomycarandt ookmybagt hent ookout
mywalletandjusttookmybankcar dithasal i
mitof
2000andIdi dsayhe'l
lpayforthi
slet
'sseei fgirl
s
wantabrokeblesser i tookhiscar
dsandgav e
hi
m mydebi tandcreditt
heyallhavesmal l
li
mi ts.
Me:"l
et'
sseei fshe'
l
lenj
oysucki
ngy ouwhil
eyou
haveal i
mitedbudgetandyoubett
ernotchange
car
dsi fyouknowwhat '
sgoodforyou"
Hi
m:"
youar
etaki
ngmycar
ds?
"
Me:
"t
hisi
sjustt
hebegi
nni
ngl
overboy
"
Igav
ehi
m somewetwi
pes
Me:
"Ihat
eblood.
..AsIsai
dbewai
ti
ngf
ormyl
awy
er
onMonday"
Igoti
ntomycarandj ustrever
sedIwasti
redof
cry
ingfort
hati
diotatleastheseest
hatIcanget
anymanIwant j ustli
kethat
.
[
Messageal
ert
]
Il
ookedatt
het
extandi
twasf
rom Lwandl
e
*Ican'
tli
vewi
thouty
ouLoloI'
m beggi
ngy oumy
l
ovejustt
urnt
hecararoundandlet
'st
alk*
tr
ynextdoorStev
e Ij ustcont
inueddr
ivingt
o
thehouseIneedtoseemykidswhenIgott othe
houseIjustf
ixedmysel
fupandwalkedinyesmy
babi
eswer eawakeplay
ingwit
hRyanIsmiledas
Phi
l
arant
omescr
eami
ngmyname.
Me:
"hel
l
obaby
..
..
.Mor
ningRy
an"
Well
Ry ani
sAmber'sboy
fri
endtheyli
vetoget
her
andyeahtheyar
ethecut
estcoupleever
.
Ry
an:
"mor
ningLol
oumhAmberi
smaki
ngbr
eakf
ast
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
I'
m nothungr
yIj
ustwantt
ofeedt
heset
woand
gosleep"
Ry
an:
"youshoul
deaty
ouknow"
Me:"
itdoesn'
tst
ayinIj
ustt
hrowupsoi
t'
sbestIj
ust
don'
teat.
..
.Heybaby"
Iki
ssedLesego'
scheek
Lesego:
"mamay
oul
eftus.
..
"
Me:"
uhuhmommyhadsomet
hingt
odoI
'
m back
now"
"
Babei
sthatLol
o?"
Ry
an:
"yeahshej
ustcameback"
Amber
:"
fri
endwhathappened?"
Me:"
wellhe'
sbeensleepi
ngwi
thZamot
hatski
nny
kwashi
orkori
nfest
edgirl
"
Amberj
ustbur
stoutl
aughi
ng
Ry
an:
"yourhusbandcheat
ed?
"
Inod
Me:"
surpr
isesur
pri
se.
..
.Mendon'
tknowwhatt
hey
wantreal
l
y "
Shecameoutoft
heki
tchenbusyhol
dingabowl
wit
heggs
Me:
"woahst
ayawayfrom met
hoseeggssmel
l
...
.
Whatdi
dyouputi
nthere!
"
Amber:
"uheggs ‍♀whatel
secanIput
?Babe
doyoumindfini
shi
ngupf
ormeplease"
Ry
an:
"yeahsur
eandLol
oI'
m sor
ry"
Me:"nahi
t'
scool
rightnowIj
ustneedt
othi
nkofmy
nextmove"
Amber
:"
wel
lIknowagr
eatdi
vor
ceLawy
er"
Me:"
div
orce?Idon'tknowAmberwhataboutt
he
ki
ds?Everyt
hingIhavebui
ltwi
tht
hatman?"
Amber
:"
sowhatwi
l
lyoudo?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:"getoutoft hecount ryforali
ttl
ebittr
av elthe
worldwiththeki dssomet hi
ng,anyt
hingIjustneed
toclearmyheadbef oreImakehast ydecisions.I
meanIl ovehi m andhegav emet hebestgi f
tev er
ourkidswithoutt heset woI'dhavekill
edmy selflong
agobutbecauseIhadLesegoIhadt hestrengthto
faceyetanot herday mysonkeptmesaneandI
knowt hey'
l
l doitagai n"
Sher
ubbedmyback
Amber :
"wel
lhowaboutyoutaket heki
dstoDisney
l
and?Imeant hey'
l
lseeallt
hei
rf avor
it
ecart
oon
charact
ersandyoucanclearyourheadawayf r
om
al
lthestupi
dit
y"
Me:"mmht hati
sagreati
deaact
ual
l
y..
..Nowal
lI
havetodoistogetmylawyerdr
awupsome
consentf
orLwandletosi
gn"
Amber
:"
I'
ll
doi
tfory
oudon'
tst
ress.
..
."
Me:
"t
hanksf
ri
end.
..
.Letmef
eedmyki
ds"
Amber
:"
alr
eadyf
edt
hem don'
twor
ry"
Me:
"okayl
etmegor
estI
'
mti
red"
Amber
:"
okayI
'
lll
ookaf
tert
hem"
Inodandkissedmykid'scheekbutt heycri
edforme
soIwentwi t
hthem t
ot heroom andsleptwiththem
fi
rstIj
ustbookedfl
i
ghtt i
cketsformeandt hekids
fornextweekFri
dayIjustsl
eptswitchingoffmy
phone Iam t ir
edofLwandl eandhisneverending
call
s
.
Lwandl
e
Ihaven'
tspokent oLolosinceSaturdayandt odayit
's
aMonday Imi ssmywi feandkidsrightnow
they'
dberunningar oundthehousemaki ngnoise
i
rrit
ati
ngmebutst i
l
l makingmelaughandsmi le.I
wokeupandwentt ot akeashoweraf terIgotout
andjustgotreadyforwor kIwasn'tfeeli
ngtodayno
l
iebutIhadtogoandf acethemusicIdr oveoutand
thedr ivetoworkbeganwi thmet r
yingtocallLolo
buti tjustsentmet ovoicemai lIleftamessagebut
heri nboxwasf ullsoIjustsentherat extImissmy
wifeandt hisweekendZamokeptoncal l
ingand
textingme Iser i
ouslydon'twantt odiveintot hi
s
ri
ghtnownotwi t
hhershehadt hegut stoanswer
myphoneandt ellmywi fewhat evercrapshet old
her ,
IknowIwaswr ongforwhatIdi dt oLoloandi t
'l
l
hauntmeev ennowbutIcan' tloseherI 'dgocr azy
l
ikel it
erall
yIcanf eeli
tI'
m hangi ngbutat inythread
ri
ghtnowwhenIgott otheoff i
ceZamowasal so
pulli
ngi n andi tbegins.Igotoutandshewas
alreadyst andi
ngout si
demycarshe' sfast.
Me:
"hi
Zamo"
Zamo:
"whywer
en'
tyour
etur
ninganyofmycal
l
s?"
Me:
"uhlet
'ssee..
..OhyeahIwastr
yingt
ofi
xthe
messyoucreated,somoveoutofmywaybefor
eI
l
oseit
"
Zamo:
"messIcr
eat
ed?Youwant
edt
hist
oonotj
ust
me"
Me:
"andIr
egr
eti
tnowcausey
ouar
ejustani
diotof
abitchwhodoesn'tknowherplace,
i
twasaneasy
thi
ngYOUARENOTANDWI LLNOTBEMYWI FE
NORMYMAI NCHI CK.DON'TANSWERMYPHONE
EVENI FI
T'SRINGINGWHI LEI'
M THESHOWER.But
youdidal
lthose"
Zamo:"so?Youwant
edmet
obey
ourdi
rt
yli
tt
le
secr
et?"
Me:"
duh!!That
'
swhyy ouarecall
edaMi str
essAKAa
si
dechickandohy eahaBI TCH,youaretoremai
n
hi
ddenandbet hatlonglonglostcousi
n"
Shet
ri
edt
osl
apmebutIcaughtherhand

Me:
"uhuhIser
iousl
ywoul
dn'
tdot
hati
fIwer
eyou"
Zamo:
"nxay
oudog,
Ihat
eyou"
Me:"
bel
iev
emet hefeel
ingi
smutualandI'
dli
kemy
apar
tmentbackourl
it
tl
earr
angementisover
"
Zamo:"
welldr
eam oncauseI'm keepi
ngt
hat
apar
tmentandyou'
llcont
inuepay i
ng"
Me:"
haawi
thwhat?Lol
ot ookal
lmycar
dsso
basi
cal
l
yI'
m br
okeit
'sei
theryoumoveoutorpay
y
ourownwayy
oupi
ckt
oot
hpi
ck"
Il
eftgoofherhandandj ustl
ockedt
hecarnowal
lI
needistofindmywife Imi ssherti
nyvoi
ceImi
ss
herbeauti
fulsmi
leImissherGodplease I
promisetochangeIpr
omi se.
.
Penel
ope
Ifeltabitrel
axedbutitdi
df eel
wei r
dbeingi
n
anot herhouseexceptmyown wi thMYhusband
besidesmenotev er
yone'sboyfr
iendIdon'
tknow
thatguyIhav ebeensleepingwithhesureai
n'tt
he
fatherofmyki ds
[
Doorknock]
Me:
"comei
n"
Well
Amberwal kedinweari
ngherfor
malstuf
fIsat
upstr
aightandtr
iednott
owaket heki
ds.
Me:
"mor
ningf
ri
end"
Amber:
"mor
ning.
..Li
stenher
eist
hatformyou
want
ed,umhdothekidshavepasspor
ts?"
Inod
Me:"t
ookthem l
astmont hwehadpl annedt ogo
awayasaf ami
lyduri
ngt heschoolholi
daysy ou
know,meandmysi ster
,Lwandleandhisbr otherand
Lesegowithhi
ssist
er.I
twasgoi ngtobeawesome
j
ustthebest buthehadt orui
nallourplans"
Amber:
*shhI
'
m sor
ryFr
iendI
'
mr eal
l
ysor
ry.
.Icoul
d
gi
vethi
stohi
mifyouwantmeto?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"I
'l
ltakei
t.
..
umhdoyoumi
ndi
fIusey
ourphone
t
ocallt
hekid'
snanny
?"
Amber
:"
umhy
eahsur
e,whathappedt
oyour
s?"
Me:
"Iswi
tchedi
tof
fIdon'
twantLwandl
etot
race
me"
Shenodandj usthandedmeherherphoneIdi dmy
stuffandthankedherbef oreshelef
ttell
ingmet hat
mybr eakfastisinthemicrowavewell Iwokeup
freshenedupandwentt omakemyki dsbreakfast
theywer esleepingsopeacefull
yIhadt owake
them I 'm abadmot herIknowbutIhadt ofeed
t
hem befor
eIlef
tseeIwanttodot hi
smyselfso
t
hatIcanpushhisbut
tonsunti
lthemonsterisout
.
Me:
"guy
scomebr
ushy
ourt
eet
hpl
ease"
Phi
l
a:"
I'
mti
red"
Me:
"Iknowy
ouaresweetybutj
ustcomebr
ushy
our
t
eet
handeatI'
l
lbr
ingyouri
ghttobed"
Lesego:
"whenar
ewegoi
nghome?
"
Me:
"wellIwasthi
nki
ngthatumhwegot oDisney
l
andwher eyoucanmeetMickeymouseandhis
f
ri
ends.You'
llhavel
otsoff
un"
Phi
l
a:"
wit
hdaddy
?"
Me:
"uhuhsweet
yseedaddyi
sav
erybusyman,
"
Lesego:
"he'
snotcomi
ng?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
nomyl ovehe'
snotcomi
ngbutwe'
ll
hav efunI
pr
omise.
..
.comelet
'sgoandmakeyoubreakfast
"
Ihel
dthei
rhandsandwalkedwi
ththem tot
he
ki
tchenwher
eImadet hem t
hei
rcereal
andwhenI
wasdoneIdidtaket
hem backt
obedbutIplaced
them i nt hemi ddl eLor dknowst hisdoesn' tsi twell
withmebutIdon' thav eachoi ce,Iwentt ot akea
showeraqui ckonef uckl ookingl ikeazombi ecause
I'
m br okenhear tedIwantt hem bot ht oknowt hatI'
m
biggert hant heirli
ttl
eaf fairbutI '
m st il
l goingt o
maket hem r egretit.Ideci dedt owearmybl ackV-
neckj umpsui t bl ackopent oeheel s,combedmy
weav eni celyandj ustdi dmymakeupni celyt hem
bitchesgot taknowt hey'l
l neverbemenotev ena
l
ittl
ebi t.Ikissedmyki dsandj ustt ookmycarkey s
andbagIdon' tneedacel lphoner ightnowIr anout
att hedoorj ustt obemetbyt heirnannyandIt old
herwhi chr oom t heirinnowI '
m ateasemyki dshav e
someonet olookaf t
ert hem andf unnyt hingi st hey
l
ikeheral otev encausemyki dsar ejustangl es
I'
dgocr azywi thoutt hem, any wayIdr ov etot hef i
rm
withal lthatangerIhadj ustr i
singupatmeIgotso
angr ywhenIsawt hebui ldingandpar kingl otIcoul d
j
ustseet hem bei ngal llov eydov eywi theach
other Igotoutoft hecarandj ustst rutal ongl i
ke
thebossl adyIam
Me:
"hi
Rose "
Rose:
"Hi
MrsSokhul
u"
Me:"hopey
ousavedupsomemoneyforwhenyou
becomeblackl
i
stedi
nthebusi
nesswor
ld.
..
."
Ist
eppedcl
osert
oherpushi
ngmyhai
rback
Me:"
causeonceI
'm donewit
hyouandyourf
ri
end
youaregoi
ngtohatemarr
iedman.
.. nicet
osee
youagai
n"
Idi
dmycatwal ktot helif
tpr esseditandwheni t
openedIgotinstil
lsmi l
ingatRoseev enwav ingat
herwhenitclosedIpr eparedmy sel
fforthetopfloor
nowwhi chwasnowwher et helif
tstoppedItooka
deepbreathandstrutoutIl ookedbot hsidesand
j
ustsawmywor kspace Imi ssthisshitf
orreal
youknowIwonderi fIdidn'tchooset oquitwould
Lwandlesti
ll
hav echeat edonmeIwal kedto
Amber '
sdeskbutIst oodbehi ndZamor esti
ngmy
handsonhershoul dersmaki ngherjumpabi tbut
quickl
ygethercomposer .
Me:"sur
pri
se!!SeeI
'm goi
ngt
oteachyoutwo
l
essonsinlif
e,Athatyounev
erneveranswert
he
phonecallofthewif
ewhenyouknowy ouarekept
underther ugandBt hatev er
ythingi
snotasit
seems.AndI 'm goingt oteacht hem t
oyouinaway
you'l
lneverev erforgetf oraslongasy oushal
ll
ive,
thatwayy ou'llknowwhent ocloseyourl
egsseems
l
ikeyouwer en'ttaughtwel lbackatKZN.Youar e
goingtoregr etev erseeingmyhusbandsmi l
eaty ou
orevenwor ki
ngatt hi
sf ir
m. "
Ist
oodupst
rai
ghtdust
ingmy
sel
fof
f.
Me:"
ther
e'l
lneverbeanotherMr
sSokhul
uforasl
ong
asIl
ivebit
ch..
..Heyguys"
Iwasnowsmil
ingl
i
kearet
ardt
hissi
deAmberwas
l
aughi
ngatZamoandt
helookonherface
Me:
"i
sthehubbyi
nhi
sof
fi
ce?"
Amber
:"
yeah"
Me:
"t
hanks,
itwasni
cet
oseey
ouZamo"
Iwalkedtowardst hedoorandjustopeneditwithout
knockingandhewasf ocusedonhislaptopwit
han
escapeddreadlockbusymaki nghisl
ifedif
fi
cultby
getti
ngint
ohisf aceyouknowt hi
smanr ighthere
brokemesomanyt i
mesbutIl ovehi
m andIdon' t
t
hinkI
'
llev
erst
opl
ovi
nghi
m.
Me:
"youshoul
dti
eyourhai
rti
ght
ly"
Thewayhelookedupyou'
dsweart
heysaidhe
shoul
dmakesureorel
seI'
llv
ani
shhequickl
ystood
upcomingt
owar dsme
Me:
"st
opi
t.
..
.I'
m nother
etor
econci
l
e"
Him:"
babyIhav
emissedy ouandtheki
dsImeant
he
houseai
n'tt
hesamewithoutyouguys"
Me:"
askhert
omoveinandy
ou'
l
lst
opwast
ingpet
rol
goi
ngupanddown"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oIj
ustwanty
ouIpr
omi
se"
Me:"
youhadmebuty ouvent
uredofftof
orbi
dden
l
andssoenjoyt
hem causeI'
m done.
..
.Si
tsti
l
lletme
t
ieyourhai
r"
it
'sidi
oti
cIknowbuthe'sst
il
lmyhusbandand
i
fIheardsomet hi
nghappenedtohimI'
ddrop
everyt
hingandrushtohi
ssidebutri
ghtnowI'
m
goingtoenjoymakinghi
m sweat
Me:
"t
her
e..
.UmhIneedy
out
osi
gnsomepaper
sfor
me"
Hi
m:"
whatpaper
s?"
Me:
"j
ustconsentf
ormsstati
ngt
hatyoual
l
owmet
o
gooutoft
hecountrywi
ththeki
ds"
Hi
m:"
what
?Wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngt
hem?
"
Me:
"t
hat'
snotimportantj
ustsi
gnthedamnpaper
wehavealotoft
hingstodobefor
ewego"
Him:
"for
getitI'
m notsi
gni
nganythi
ng,
Iwi
l
lnotl
et
younorthekidsleav
ethecount
ry"
Me:"
yourchoi
ceit
'seitheryousignthoseconsent
f
ormsorsignthedivorcepapersandI '
l
lbegetti
ng
f
ull
ycustodyoft
heki ds.Thinkaboutit
"
Istoodupandst
rutt
othedoorwi
thhi
m busy
chasingaf
terme thi
sisget
ti
ngbori
ngnow.
Hi
m: "
Lolopleasedon'
tdot
hiswecansol
vet
hisl
i
ke
maturedadults"
Me:"
mat ured?Mat
ured?Whatyoudidtomeand
YOURki dswasitmatur
ed?Don'tt
alkt
oabout
matured"
Hi
m:"I
'm sor
ryokayI
'
mr eal
l
ysor
ryIknowwhatIdi
d
waswrongandIhavebeenbeat
ingmysel
fupfori
t
al
lweekendlong"
Me:"
tr
ythreemonthsthenwecantalk.
..
.Lwandl
e
youandthisbi
tchofyoursbr
okeourfamil
ynotme
sodon'
tyoudar et
hinkyoucangui
l
ttri
pme"
Zamo:
"whoar
eyoucal
l
ingbi
tch?
*
Ist
eppedcl
osert
oher
Me:
"youar
ethebi
tchwhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odoabout
i
thuh?"
Lwandl
e:"
Lol
ono"
Hepul
l
edmeawayf
rom her
Me:"
signt
hosedamnconsentf
ormswe'
l
ltal
kabout
di
vorcewhenIgetback"
Lwandl
e:"
nodon'
tyougeti
tIwi
l
lnotal
l
owy
out
o
l
eaveme"
Il
ookedupathi
m
Me:"
watchmeandI
'
llmakesur
eyounev
erseey
our
ki
dsagain"
Lwandl
e:"
Lol
o!Youmadeapr
omi
set
ome"
Me:"andIkeptitbutyoubrokeit
,youbrokeyour
pr
omi seandourv owsandf orwhat?Ar abi
es
i
nfestedvir
gina?Dealwit
ht heconsequencesand
si
gnt hosedamnf orms"
SeebitbybitLwandl
eislosi
nghi
ssani
ty and
guesswhosecomi ngtoplayt
hemonst
ert
heone
andonlyBruce.
Lwandl
e:"
Mamakhepl
ease.
..Pl
easemyl
ovejust
gi
vemeasecondchancetori
ghtal
lmywrongsI
'm
beggi
ngyou"
Me:
"answermethi
ssi
mpl
equest
ionmay
beandj
ust
may
beI '
l
lfor
giv
eyou"
Henod
Me:
"di
dyout
akeoffy
ourweddi
ngbandwheny
ou
wer
ebusywi
thher
?"
Hequi
ckl
yshookhi
shead
Lwandl
e:"
nomamakheI
'
dnev
ert
aket
hisof
f"
Me:
"j
ustgoest
oshowhowmuchy
oudi
srespectour
mar r
iage, youdarehav esexwithanotherwoman
wearingt heringIgav eyouasasy mbol ofmylov
e?
Fuckt hiswear edoneLwandleandf orgood.Get
readyt osignt hedivor
cepapers"
It
ookoffmyr
ingandj
ustt
ookhi
shandpl
aci
ngi
t
i
ntohi
s
Me:"youandZamobr okeusLwandleIkeptmyend
ofthedealbuty ouandherforcedmetobreakmy
promise.Si
gnt hoseformsI'
l
lcomewi t
hthekidsto
coll
ectthem andalsothaty
oucansaygoodby e"
Heshookhi
sheadhol
dingonmyhand
Lwandl
e:"
pleaseputthisbackon..
..Weari
tplease
Lol
o.Weary ourweddingri
nglikeInev
ertookoff
minedon'
ttakeoffyoursplease"
Me:"I'
m sor
rybutIcan'
tanymoret
hisisthef
inal
str
awf orme..
.andIthi
nk,
Ithi
nkImightbepr
egnant
again"
Hi
sey
essankl
i
ket
heTi
tani
c
Lwandle:
"t
hendon'
tgoawaypleasedon'tl
eav
eSA
l
et'
sjustgoonalongweekendawayrighther
eand
l
et'
ssol
vet
his"
Me:"al
ongweekendawaywon'
tsolv
ethisaslongas
Icanst
il
lseeherfaceev
ery
wher
eIgoIjusthearher
cockyl
it
tl
evoi
cewhensheansweredyourphone"
Hewi
pedawaymyt
ear
swi
thhi
sthumb
Lwandl
e:"
don'
tcr
ybabypl
easei
t'
snotgoodf
ory
ou
nort
hebaby"
Me:"youshoul
dhavethoughtaboutthatbefor
ey ou
brokeupourmarri
age,bef
oreyousleptwithher
nowsi gnt
hoseconsentfor
msy ou'
llgetthediv
orce
papersduri
ngtheweek"
Ipul
ledmyhandawayandjusttr
iedwalki
ngaway
buthepull
edmeback howdar ehei nt
err
uptmy
si
gnatur
eangerwalkhuhIt
urnedaroundtry
ingt
o
sl
aphim buthecaughtmyhand
Me:
"don'
ttouchmeLwandl
e..
.."
Lwandl
e:"
don'
tl
eavemethenpleasedon'
t.
..
..You
knowIcan'
tdothi
swit
houtyou"
Me:
"youhav
eher
..
..Doesn'
theZamo?
"
Shekeptqui
et Ipul
l
edherbyt
hehai
r
Me:"I
'
mt al
ki
ngt oyou!Hehasyoudoesn'the?You'
l
l
sat
isfyhi
m causeIfai
ledr
ight
?Right
?!"
Zamo:
"l
etgoofme"
Lwandl
e:"
Lol
owher
edi
dyouheart
hat
?"
Me:"y
ourloverherehadthegutst otel
lmet hatI'
m
sofatIdon'
tsatisf
yyoucausey ouar ealwaystir
ed
wheny ouhav et
omakel ovet
ome, shesati
sfiesyou
wit
houtsquashingyou..
.Umhwhatel seZamo?You
sai
dsomet hingaboutmebeingt hewi f
eblahblah"
Lwandl
e:"
ist
hist
rue?Di
dyout
ell
hert
hisr
ubbi
sh"
Istoodtherearmsf oldedandhereshewast ryi
ngbe
toughgirl
byst andinguptrynawalksawayseeone
thi
ngIlearntnev erwalkawayfr
om Lwandl e(
Bruce)
causeyou'l
lregretitandZamowasn' texpecti
ngthi
s
hejustcaughtherbyt hehandandpul l
edherback
roughl
yshef el
l onherass
Br
uce:
"Iaskedy
ouaquest
iondi
dn'
tI?
"
Zamo:
"l
ookatwhaty
oudi
dLwandl
e"
Bruce:
"didyoutellmywif
et hi
sshitofy
our
s?Why
can'ty
ouknowy ourpl
ace?Justtoknowyourplace
onthef oodchainhuhisthatt
oomucht oask?
"

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ookedatme
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l
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an:
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an:
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st hebestsolut
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ever
"
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mommy
..
..
"
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..
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what
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forwhat
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'
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she?
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m:"
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m:"Isai
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l
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Me:
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ngme.St
opi
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m:"
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m goi
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ather
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plat
ter
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"
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oucanr
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rom me
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m:"
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chr
oom shoul
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m:"
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oom exceptt
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it
ingson
thewal
l
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IwokeupfuckIdidn'
tknowIwast hatti
redtoev
en
fal
lasl
eepsofasticheckedthet
imeandi twas
alr
eady6pm shi
tIquickl
yjumpedoffthebedand
wenttofr
eshenupwhati fhewantsmet oCookfor
him huhIworemyjeansandal ongsleevedshir
tand
somef l
ipfl
opsty
ingmyhai ri
ntoamessybunI
didn'
tappl
yanymakeupj ustmyf acecream and
walkedoutIhear
dv oi
cessoIj ustfol
lowedthem to
thekit
chenandIfoundLwandl etalki
ngtothiselder
womanhi smotherperhaps.
Me:
"hel
l
oma.
..
heybaby
"
Iki
ssedhi
scheek
Lwandl
e:"
Ma'Radebecany
oudi
shupf
orusnowmy
guesti
shere"
Thewomanl
ookedatmeandsmi
l
ed sheal
ready
l
ikesme
Ma'
Radebe:
"andwhoi
sshe?Wher
eisy
ourwi
fe?
"
Lwandl
e:"
justdi
shupf
ormebef
orey
ougetonmy
ner
ves"
DamnIcl
ear
edmyt
hroatl
etmer
edeem t
heol
d
woman
Me:
"mynamei
sZamomaI
'
m umh.
.."
Lwandl
e:"
myBi
tchnowcanIeat
?"
IwantedtocrybutI'
m usedt
ohim cal
l
ingmet hat
I'
m notevenworri
edanywaythel
adydishedupfor
usandleftIdi
dn'
thavemuchofanappet i
tesoIwas
j
uststari
ngatthefood.
Lwandl
e:"
arey
ougoi
ngt
ost
areatt
hef
oodoreat
i
t?"
Me:
"I
'm nothungry.
..
.Lwandl
ewhydi
dyout
ell
your
mom thatI
'my ourbi
tch"
Hel
ookedatme
Lwandl
e:"
whosai
dI'
dint
roducey
out omymother
?
I'
m mar
ri
edandshe'
snotmymot hershe'
smymaid"
Me:
"ohwher
ear
eyourpar
ent
s?"
Lwandl
e:"
eatorshutup"
Me:"
butIt
houghtwecoul
dgett
oknoweachot
her
bet
ter
"
Hebangedt
het
abl
e
Lwandl
e:"
Isai
dshutup!
"
Inodandj
ustst
oodupbuthecaughtmyhand
Lwandl
e:"
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"upt
omyr
oom I
'
m nothungr
y"
Lwandl
e:"
seatdownandeat
..
..NOW!
!"
Me:
"I
'm not.
."
Hest
oodupt
owel
comemewi
thasl
ap
Lwandle:
"Isai
dsi
tdownthi
sfoodwascookedf
or
morethanoneperson.Nowseat
"
Isatdownandjustst
art
edpokingthefoodhewas
eati
ngsocasuall
ywhenIwaseatinganddr i
nki
ng
myownt ear
safterdi
nneri
fIcancalli
tthathej
ust
pouredhi
mselfsomebrandy
Hi
m:"
goupst
air
sI'
l
lbet
her
esoon"
Me:
"yourr
oom?
"
Hi
m:"
don'
tmesswi
thmeIsai
dgoupst
air
s"
Iqui
cklyst
oodupandr
anupstai
rsto'
my'r
oom and
j
ustchangedint
omyPJsIgotundert
hecover
snxa
Roseisbusycal
li
ng
Me:
"hel
l
o"Ianswer
ed
Rose:
"wuui
sitt
hatni
cet
obet
her
ethaty
ouf
orgot
yourf
ri
end"
Me:
'
RoseI
'
m goi
ngt
osl
eepI
'
mti
red.
."
Rose:"
sohowi
sthemai
nbedr
oom?Beaut
if
ulaswe
thought
?"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"
nahthatbi
tchdoesn'
thavestyl
eImeani t
'sso
dul
lnowonderhersexli
fefel
lthr
ough...Senseless
bi
tchwi
thlackofstyl
eI'
m sur
eherdr esssense
comesfr
om Lwandle"
Rose:
"mxm thatoneshe'
sani
diotsheshoul
dn'
t
havel
efthi
m"
Me:"
wellshemadewayformetomov einandI'
m
goi
ngtomakesurethatLwandl
efor
getsthatbi
tch
andfocusesonmeonly.
"
Rose:
"yeah.
..
."
Thephonewassnat
chedawayf
rom meandt
hrown
agai
nstt
hewall
Me:"
whatthehel
lLwandl
e?Ught
hatphonecostme
afor
tunedoyou.
..
..
"
Hejustcaughtmebytheneckandj
ustpunchedme
t
wiceinthestomach.
Hi
m:"
howdar
eyout
alkt
rashaboutmywi
fe?Whoi
s
t
hebi
tch?
"
Me:
"Lwandl
eIwast
alki
ngt
oRose"
Hecaughtmeandpunchedmeagai
nmaki
ngmef
all
ont
hef l
oort
henhestar
tedki
cki
ngme
Hi
m:"
I'
m goingt
oki
l
lyoudoy
ouhearme?I
'
m goi
ng
t
okil
lyou"
Me:
"I
'm sor
rypl
easest
op st
op"
Hepickedmeupbythehai
randthemomentIstood
uphethrewmeonthebedandjustr
ibbedmyPJs
apar
t.
Him:"
Itol
dyout
oknowy
ourpl
acedi
dn'
tI?Know
yourpl
ace"
Hestrippednakedandjusthel
pedhimselfonmy
l
if
elessbodyheev enknewhowt ousepr otect
ion
whatdi dIdotohi
m ImeanIwasj ustspeakingto
myf r
iendhestoppedwhenheki ndafi
nishedthe
wholepackofcondoms
Heworehi
scl
othesl
eav
ingmespr
awl
edi
nmyown
bl
ood.
Hi
m:"
cleany
our
sel
fup.
..Andwher
eisy
ourl
apt
op?
"
Ikeptqui
et
Hi
m:"
Iaskedy
ouaquest
ion!
!"
Heshoutedmaki
ngmecrylouderhedi
dn'
tcar
ehe
j
ustwentthr
oughmyst
uffandtookmylapt
op
Hi
m:"
Iwanty
oubr
ightandear
lyatwor
ktomor
row"
HewalkedoutIcr
iedsi
l
ent
lycl
utchi
ngont
he
bl
anket
Me:
"Lor
dwhatdi
dIdohuh?Whyme"
[
Knocki
ng]
"
Chi
l
dcomeopenpl
ease"
It
ri
edt
ogetupbutIcoul
dn'
t
"
Zamocomeopen"
Me:
"I
'm comi
ngmapl
easewai
t"
Islowlygotoft
hebedandjusttookt
hesheetsand
draggedthem t
othebat
hroom andItookthe
bathroom r
obeandworeitIdr
aggedmy sel
ftot
he
doorandopenedit.
Ma'
Radebe:
"youdi
dn'
teatsoIbr
oughty
ouf
ood"
Me:
"I
'm.
..
I'
m nothungr
yma"
Ma'
Radebe:
"pl
easeeatchi
l
difyouareser
iousabout
bei
ngmynewmadam y ouhavetoeat"
Me:
"I
'm noty
ournewmadam "
Ma'Radebe:
"ught
hatoneI'
m happyhel
eftherand
choseyounxasheislazy
"
i
sshet
est
ingmeher
e
Me:"
maI '
dli
ket
ogotobedi
fyoudon'
tmi
ndIhav
ea
busydaytomor
row"
Ma'Radebe:"
ohsowhyarey
ousl
eepinginher
eal
one
shoul
dn'tyoubesl
eepi
ngwit
hLwandle?
"
Me:
"nowedeci
dedt
otaket
hingssl
owmaunt
ilhe
mar
riesme"
Ma'
Radebe:
"f
inal
l
yagi r
lwit
hsel
frespectIhopeI
won'
tseeyouwalki
ngaroundi
njusthisshi
rtand
l
ongwhit
esocks t hatwif
eofhi
s..
."
Me:
"uhLwandl
e..
."
MaRadebemov
edabi
tandexposedLwandl
ewho
washol
dingmybags.
Lwandl
e:"
what
'sgoi
ngonher
e?"
Ma'
Radebe:
"I
..
.Ibr
oughtherf
ood"
Lwandle:"
andyourfoodi
nv ol
vestal
kingaboutmy
wife?List
enhereyouifyousti
ll
enjoyworki
nghere
you'l
lkeepshutaboutmywi f
edoy ouhearme?Or
elseyou'l
lendupli
keyourdaughter.
..
.Nowmov e"
Ma'
Radebe:
"I
'm sor
rysi
r"
Shewal
kedawayhol
dingthetr
ayandhisf
ocuswas
onmenowImov edforhi
mt ocomeinandhej
ust
pl
acedt
hebagsonthebed
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?Whyar
eyouscar
ed?
"
Me:"
uhy
oujustr
apedmeandbeatmeupbuty
ou
askmethat
?"
Him:"
shutup!
!!I
fyouknowwhat'sgoodforyou,y
ou'
ll
keepyourmouthshuti
fIhearanyt
hingaboutthi
sI'
l
l
makesureyourbrot
herbur
nsinhisroom"
Me:
"Iwon'
ttel
lanyoneIpr
omi
sebutIt
hinki
t'
sbest
Imoveout
"
Him:"
nonowsleep.
..Youar
enotgoi
ngany
where
youwantedt
obemymai nchi
ckwel
cometot
he
Sokhul
uhousehol
d"
Hewalkedandjustlef
tmethereGodmystomach
bur
ntl
ikecrazyIwenttosear
chforsomepainkil
l
ers
andsl
eptyeahmay betomorr
owwillbebet
ter.
.
Penel
ope
Icouldn'tbel
ievei
tStef
ancamef orasl
eepov er
andRy anexcusedhi
mselfandwentt ohisfri
end's
placehet ookLesegowithhim causeapparentl
y
we'llruint
heguywi t
hourgirl
ytalk Lor dIthank
youf orsuchfri
ends wewer ewat chi
ngsome
cartoonsandeat i
ngIcecream withPhi
lari
ghtin
between
Me:
"sohowwaswor
k?"
Theycl
ear
edt
hei
rthr
oat
s
Me:
"comeont
ell
meIcanhandl
eit
"
Amber
:"
wel
lthatbi
tchki
ndamov
edi
nwi
thumh.
..
"
Me:"oh.
..
that
'sgr
eatactual
ly fr
om whatIhave
experi
encedshe'
llbecomingt
obegmef orhel
p.
AndPhila?"
Shel
ookedupatmeandIKi
ssedherf
orehead
Me:
"andbabywe'
l
lbewai
ti
ngwi
thahugesmi
l
e
r
eadytohel
p"
St
efan:
"whatar
eyoupl
anni
ng?"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"not
hingr
eal
l
yseeshewant
edLwandl
eri
ght
?"
Amber
:"
yeahpr
ett
ymuch"
Me:"
wellshewasn'
tgoingtohavemyLwandle.
..I
wentthr
oughshitf
orhimtobet hatl
ovi
ngguywho
madesureIhadevery
thingIneeded.
"
Amber
:"
okay
!!I
'
mlost
"
Me:"wel
llet
'sj
ustsayshej ustwalkedint
oahouse
ofhorr
orwher eyoursoulwill
bebr okeni
nto
pi
eces,y
ou'l
lwanttodiebuty ouwon' t
.He'l
lshat
ter
al
lyourti
nylit
tl
ewor l
dandst il
lactli
kenothi
ngis
happeni
ng,nowt hat
'stheLwandl eshe'
ll
get"
Ifedmychi
ldsomei
cecream andherf
acechanged
l
ikeshej
ustat
esomethi
ngbit
ter
Me:
' Phi
l
aweeati
cecr
eam ev
eryday
..
."
Wel
aughedatherandmybabyj
usthi
donmychest
Stef
an:
"andwhenarey
oudoingt
hepr egnancytest
s?
Wewannaknowi fweshoul
dbeplanninganother
babyshower
"
Me:"I
'm scar
edguysImeanPhil
aandLesegoneed
mebutanot herpar
tofmewantstobepregnantso
thatwhenIserveLwandl
ewit
hthediv
orcepapers
hegetsascan"
St
efan;
"youar
ereal
l
yleav
inghi
m?"
Me:"hel
lnoit
'l
lbeabogusdi
vor
cej
ustt
ogett
hat
beastout"
Amber
:"
nowy
ouar
escar
ingme.
..
act
ual
l
yus"
Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"l
et'
sgodot
hosepr
egnancyt
est
s..
.Ij
ustcan'
t
wai
t"
Ipi
ckedupPhi
l
aandwewal
kedt
omyr
oom wel
lI
l
eftherwitht
heot herswhileIwenttothebat
hroom
andjustdi
dmybusi nessiwasreall
yscaredt
hatI
evenputthem backi nthebox
Me:
"I
'm done"
St
efan:
"andhowl
ongshoul
dwewai
t?"
Me:
"uhbasi
cal
l
y8mi
nut
es.
..
"
Amber
:"
andy
ouar
eat
rai
tor
"

Me:
"me?Whatdi
dIdo?
"
Amber:
"yougav
eRy
ant
hisi
deaofhav
ingbabi
esl
i
ke
i
t'
seasy"
Me:"
well
it'
squit
eeasyImeanyouj
ustl
ethi
m do
youal
lni
ghtlongthewhol
eweekandvi
olaababyi
s
f
ormed"
St
efan:
"andt
henni
nemont
hsofhel
l
"
Me:
"ohshutupit
'squi
teni
ceImeanthedaddy
f
ussi
ngov ery
ou.ImeanwhenIwaspregnantwit
h
myfi
rstbaby ImadeLwandledancetomyt une"
Amber
:"
thatmanwor
shi
pst
hegr
oundy
ouwal
kon"
Me:
"andsodoesRy
anhe'
sandassf
ory
ou.
"
Amber
:"
butmybeaut
if
ulf
igur
ehowam Igoi
ngt
odo
i
t?"
Me:
'
andy ousti
ll
haveexcusesyouarenotr
eadyf
or
apl
annedpregnancysoleav
eit
...
.St
efanwhenar
e
wemeeti
ngtheone? "
St
efan:"
whenIfindhi
misity
oudon'
twantust
ogo
cl
ubbingsothatwecanfi
ndhimf
orme"
Me:
"uhwe'
l
lgobef
oreIl
eav
eokayI
'
mfr
eef
ornow"
Hesqueal
edwi
thex
cit
ement
Amber
:"
youcl
ubbi
ng?Andy
ou'
l
lbedr
inki
ngj
uice?
"
Inod
Me:"
ift
heycomeoutposi
ti
vethenyeahev
eni
fthey
ar
enegati
veIhavet
ostopdri
nkingIl
osemymind
whenI'
m dr
unk"
Theyl
aughed
Phi
l
a:"
mamaI
'
m sl
eepy
"
Me:"
IknowbabyI'
ll
puty
out
osl
eepsoon
okay
..
..
comesither
e"
Ipl
acedheronmyl
apIj
ustcuddl
edher
Amber :
"ai
n'
tthe8mi
nut
esov
ery
et?I
'
mti
redoft
his
suspense"
Isl
owl
yopenedal
loft
hem
Me:
"r
eadt
hem f
orme"
St
efan:"
uhwellthi
sonesay
sposi
ti
vewel
lbasi
cal
l
y
al
lofthem sayposi
ti
ve"
Me:
"andI
'
m doomed.
..
..
.Letmesee"
Wellal
lofthem wereposi
ti
vef
uckt
hisi
sser
iousI
can'
tbepregnant.
Me:"
God..
.AhhJesusthi
sist
hesideeff
ect
sof
l
ist
eningt
oyourhusband niggatol
dhisf
ri
endt
o
dothi
sbawoI'
m dead"
Amber:"
see?Seet
hisi
swhyIdon'
twantababy
theseguysar
eshady"
Me:
"noonei
sshadi
ert
hant
hisi
diotcal
l
edLwandl
e"
It
ookmyphoneandswi
tchedi
ton
St
efan:
"andt
hen?Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:
"wel
lwit
houtSisandahewon'
ttracemet
hatf
ast
sot
hisi
sthesecondlastbut
tonI
'
llpush"
Amber
:"
whydot
heyt
racey
ou?
"
Me:"t
hosekidnappi
ngsagabruhhe'
sscar
edt
hat
theymightt
akemeagai nandyeahhe'
san
possessi
veidi
ot"
Idi
aledLwandl
e'
snumberandheanswer
ed
soundi
ngli
kehewassl
eeping

Me:
"andt
hen?What
'
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
"
Hi
m:'
youl
eftmewhatdoy
out
hinki
swr
ong?
"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:'
Ihearshemovedi
n,y
oudon'
twast
eti
medoy
ou?
Ihopeshe'
snotsl
eepi
ngonmybed'
Hi
m:"
butLol
o?Lol
oI'
m sor
ryandy
ouknowi
t"
Me:'
youhaven'tpr
ovenitt
omel ov
eandl
i
sten
pl
easesignthoseconsentfor
ms"
Him:
"f
utsekI'
m notsi
gningthoset
hingsandIdare
yout
oswi t
choffyourphoneanddisappearagai
n"
Me:"what
?You'l
lbeatmeup?Lwandledon'tyoudare
thr
eatenmeyouknowwhatdon' tsi
gnthosethi
ngs
youhavefarmoreimpor
tantt
hingstosignli
kethe
div
orcepaper
scomi ngy
ourway "
Hi
m:"
Lol
odon'
tdot
his"
Me:
"t
hendon'
tthr
eat
enmej
ustl
etmeandt
heki
ds
goawayf
orabit"
Hi
m:"
youknowwhatcomet
otheof
fi
cet
omor
row
t
henwe'
ll
tal
k"
Me:
"af
termydoct
or'
sappoi
ntment
"
Hi
m:"
arey
ousi
ck?
"
Me:
'mmhheartfail
ure j
ustki
ddi
ngt
hetest
sshow
t
hatI'
m pr
egnantsoIwantt
omakesure"
Hi
m:"
what
?Ar
eyousur
e?Shoul
dIcomewi
thy
ou?
"
Me:
"woahr
elaxy
ou'
l
lfai
ntnoI
'
llbef
ine"
Hi
m:"
Lol
otel
lmewher
eyouar
egoi
ng"
Me:"
uhnonowgosleepof
fthebooze,
aft
ert
he
doct
orsI
'
llv
isi
tyou"
Hi
m:"
promi
se?
"
Me:
"j
eezby
e"
Ihungupandj
ustswi
tchedof
fthephone.
Amber
:"
youdoknowhe'
sangr
y"
Me:"
ohy
esnowmov
eI'
dli
ket
oputt
hisl
i
ttl
eonet
o
bed"
Stef
an:
"Idon'
tunder
standhowyourbr
ainwor
ks
shamebutwe'll
leav
ey out
oit
"
TheystoodupandIj ustpushedthetestsont he
fl
oorandplacedmychi l
dt obedIevensangt oherI
knowshe'll
begonewi thsleepshewon'tev enfeel
megetof fthebed Ican' tbeli
eveI'
m goi
ngt oget
fatagai
n al lthoseweir
dcr av
ingsewwGodwhy
can'tmencarrythebabythisti
mearoundt houhuh
why
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andI
'
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m mi
ssi
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may
bemyhead
forone
What
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se,
looki
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eal
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azy
?Jeal
ousor
cr
azy
?
Orli
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atel
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☆Bey
once~Hol
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Iwokeupf
eel
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i
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ndmybabygir
lsleepi
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h
herli
pspart
edandhertonguerol
l
edaroundher
thumb Iki ssedherf
orehead
Me:"
babymommywil
lmakesurenobitchev
er
messeswi
thourf
ami
ly.
..
.Iwentt
hroughtoj
ustl
et
hi
m go"
Iki
sseditagainandgotupIwenttofreshenupand
wenttosearchforLesegoIbumpedintoAmber
hol
dinghim busyrubbi
nghereyessoIjusttookhi
m.
Me:
"mor
ning.
..Whydi
dn'
tyoubr
inghi
mtomy
r
oom?"
Amber
:"
Ryansai
dweshouldn'
tdi
stur
byouand
any
wayhewassleepi
ng"
Me:
"yeahsohedi
dn'
tgi
vey
ouanyt
roubl
e?"
Sheshookherhead
Amber:
"f
ri
enddoy oumindst
art
ingwi
thbr
eakf
astI
got
tagetreadyf
orwork"
Me:
"I
'dl
ovet
o..
.WakeSt
efant
oo"
Shenodandj
ustdr
aggedhersel
fawayf
rom meI
j
ustki
ssedmybaby'
scheek
Me:
"mor
ningmypl
umpf
rui
t"
Iwasj ustspeaki ngt ot hebr ickwal lsoIt ookhi mt o
hissisterandIwentt omakesomebr eakfasty ou
knowbr eakfastforf ourpeopl eandahal fain'
teasy
Iwasdonewhent heycameoutal ldressesupt o
got owor kwehadourbr eakfastov eral ight
conv ersi
ont hent heyl eftIwasl efttocl eanar ound
theki t
chenandwhenIdoneIwentt obat hwi ththe
kidsandbel ievemei twashar d Iwasspl ashed
withwat ert i
llt
heygott iredIdeci dedt ot aket hem
withmet ot hedoct orIcan' tbel eavingt hem wi th
thenannyev er
yt i
me.Whenwewer edoneIdr essed
them upi nmat chingout fitslikePhi lai nabl ack
skaterdr essandbl ushpi nkpumpsIcombedher
hairandmadet woneatbunshersof thairjustturns
meon.Idr essedLesegoi nadeni mj eanandawhi t
e
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mber l
andboot swho
saidmybabi escan'tbesophi sticated Iwor emy
ri
bbedkni truff
let r
im wr apdr essandov ertheknee
suedespi kestuddedheel s.Itiedmyhai rintoaneat
bunandj ustdidmymakeupni celyIt ookmy
handbagandcel lphonewi t
hcarkey s.Ihelpedt he
ki
dsgetof
fthebedandwewal kedt
otheki
tchent
o
gett
hei
rbackpackswi
thsnacks.
Me:"
don'
trunokayorel
semommywi
l
lleav
eyou
behi
nd"
Theynod
Me:
'
"nowhol
dhandsandhol
dmommy
"
Phi
l
a:"
I'
ll
doi
t"
Ihel
dthei
rhandsandwewal kedoutgoingtot
he
carl
ucki
lymyappointmentisinthemorni
ngsosoon
I'
l
lbeatthef
ir
mt henhome.Wedr ovetothedoct
or
andIspoket
other ecept
ioni
stshetoldmet owai
t
sowewenttoseatdown.
"
MrsSokhul
uthedoct
ori
sreadyf
ory
ou"
Me:
"l
et'
sgobabi
es"
Wehel
dhandsaswewal
kedi
ntot
hedoct
or'
sof
fi
ce.
Me:
"mor
ningDoc"
Doc:
"Mr
sSokhul
upl
easet
akeaseat
"
Isatdown
Doc:
"sohowcanIhel
pyou?
"
Me:"
uhseeIki
ndatooksomepregnancyt
est
slast
ni
ghtandal
lfi
veofthem cameoutt
obeposi
tiv
e"
Doc:
"soy
ouwannaknowi
fit
'st
rue?
"
Real
l
yist
hisdoct
orani
diotorhe'
sjustpr
etendi
ng
Me:
"yes"
Doc:"
okayumhwe'l
ltakesomebl
oodwor
ksandt
ry
thati
fthepeet
estdoesn'
twor
k"
Me:
"okaycool
"
Wedi
dsomet
est
sandt
heur
inet
est
Doc:
"wel
lher
eitshowsyouarepregnant
,soumh
canyoupl
easegoandchangeintothehospi
tal
gownI'
dli
ketodoanult
rasound"
Ist
oodupandwenttochangei
ntot
hei
rdul
lhospi
tal
gownshedi
dhi
sultr
asound
Doc:"
ohitshowsherethatyouaret
hreemont
hsand
twoweekspr egnant
..
..
.Wouldyoul
iket
oknowthe
gender?
"
Me:
"uhnobutcany
oupr
intsomescansandonone
wri
tethegenderatt
hebackpl
easet
henputi
tinan
env
elopeforme"
Doc:"
ohokayt
hen.
..
.pl
easewi
pey
our
sel
fand
change"
Inodandj
ustt
ookt
hecot
ton
Phi
l
a:"
whatar
eyoudoi
ngmommy
?"
Me:"
wellIwaschecki
ngupony
oury
oungerbr
other
orsi
ster
"
Lesego:
"I
'm abi
gbr
otheragai
n?"
Me:
"yesbabyy
ouar
e"
Iwentbehi
ndthesheetandchangedbacki
ntomy
dressandwhenIwasdoneIwentbackt ot
hedoct
or
andhewasalreadydone
Me:
"t
hanky
ouDoc.
..
comeki
ds"
Doc:
"pl
easet
akecar
eofy
our
sel
fand.
..
."
Me:"
thanksbutI
'l
lcont
actmydoct
orandf
indout
whenhe'l
lbebacksothanky
ou"
Doc:
"okayt
hen"
Iopenedt hedoorforthekidswhower ebusy
arguingaboutwhot hebabywi l
llookli
ke I'mthe
mot herhereyouknowsot hebabywi lll
ookl
ikeme
t
houghdownt heli
netheyturnthei
rbacksonme
andl ookli
keLwandleIheldtheirhandsaswe
walkedoutgoi ngtothecar.
Me:
"hopey
ouar
ereadyt
oseedaddy
"
Phi
l
a:"
wear
egoi
ngt
odaddy
?"
Me:
"sur
pri
singl
yyes"
Lesego:
"Imi
sshi
m"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"Iknowl
oveI
'
m sur
ehemi
ssesy
out
oo"
Ibuckl
edthem upandwentt odri
veustothe
Sokhulul
awf i
rm mybabiesweresingi
ngand
argui
ngtoseetheirf
atherandwhenwegotther
eI
j
ustheldthei
rbagsforthem andwewalkedi
n.
Me:
"hi
Roseybaby
"
Wewalkedpastherandwenttotheel
evat
orI
pr
esseditopenandtheki
dsjumpedinbusyj
umpi
ng
upanddown
Me:
"set
tl
edownpl
easeorwe'
l
ltur
nback"
Phi
l
a:"
sor
ry"
Shehuggedmyleg thi
ski
dwi t
hbeggingIhel
d
thei
rhandsast
heel
evat
orweretoopenandwheni
t
didtheyr
anout Ij
ustwal
kedout.
Me:"
youdon'
tknowwher
ehi
sof
fi
cei
sguy
scome
her
e"
Amber
:"
heyguy
swhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Me:
"mxm t
hist
woar
eher
etoseedaddy
,isheher
e?"
Amber
:"
yeahhe'
sbor
edev
en"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"hel
l
oZamo,
howar
eyou?
"
Shel
ookedatmeandy
oucoul
dseeherpoof
yey
es
wel
cometohell
Iwentt
oopent
hedoort
oLwandl
e'
sof
fi
ce.
Me:
"guy
scomedaddyi
sthi
swayandNOr
unni
ng"
Asi
ftheyhear
dmet
heyj
ustr
ani
ntot
heof
fi
ceand
j
ustf
ell
int
othei
rfat
her
'sar
ms
Lwandl
e:"
heyguy
s..
..
lookaty
ou,
you'
vegr
own"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Ai
n'
tyoupushi
ngi
tal
i
ttl
e?"
Hel
ookedatme
Lwandl
e:"
thanky
ouf
orbr
ingi
ngt
hem"
Me:
"Iai
n'
tev
ilyouknowImeany
oumyhav ebr
oken
upourf
amil
y.HereIhav
esomet
hingf
ory
ou"
Lwandl
e:"
what
'st
his?
"
Me:
"yourt
hir
dki
d..
.I
'
llbeout
sideokay
"
Lwandl
e:"
whatai
n'
tyoust
ayi
ng?
"
Me:
"Ibr
oughty
ourki
dsandI
'
m cer
tai
nlynotone"
Lwandl
e:"
canyoustayfort
heoney
ouar
ecar
ryi
ng
he/
sheshouldhearthi
s"
Me:"
uhnohe/
shedon'
tknowy
ouorcan'
theary
ou
yet
"
Lwandl
e:"
Penel
opepl
easeI
'
mti
redoft
his,
I
'mt
ir
ed"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"babi
escomeher
egoseatwi
thauntAmber
mommywant
stot
alkt
odaddy
"
Phi
l
a:"
butmommy
..
."
Me:
"pl
easebaby
,you'
l
lcomeback"
Shenodandtookherbr
otherandt
heywal
kedoutI
madesuret
heywenttoAmberandIwentbackto
Lwandl
e.
Hi
m:"
lockt
hedoor
"
Me:
"whywoul
dIdot
hat
?Wear
egoi
ngt
otal
k"
Hi
m:"
Lol
o!!
"
Me:"
arghwat
chy
ourt
one.
..
.Don'
tshoutatmeI
'
m
nother"
Iwenttol
ockt
hedoorandy
eahIwentt
owar
dshi
mI
satdownl
egscrossed
Me:
"whati
sitt
haty
ouwantLwandl
e?"
Heheldmyhandsandpul ledmet ostandupki
cki
ng
thechairawayIstoodsoclosetohi
m Ifel
tmy
breat
hingchange.Hewasst ar
ingatmeashebegan
untyi
ngmydr ess.
Hi
m:"
Imi
ssy
oubaby
..
..Imi
ssf
eel
i
ngy
ourwar
mth"
Me:"
andyourui
nedthatwheny
ouchosetosl
eep
wit
hherhowmanyt i
mesmustIsayt
his?You
f
reaki
ngbrokeourf
amily
"
Hepushedthedr
essmakingi
thi
tthef
loorexposi
ng
mywhitel
aceundiesandmat
chi
ngbra
Hi
m:"
you'
rewear
ingmyf
avour
it
eli
nger
iepi
ece.
..
."
Me:"
andwhosai
dI'
m wear
ingyourf
avor
it
e?Now
canIwearmydr
essi
t'
sgetti
ngki
ndacol
d"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyoumamakheandy
ouknowt
hat
..
.BabyI
mi
ssyou"
Me:"
Lwandl
eI'
m ser
iousl
yget
ti
ngcol
dher
esol
etgo
ofme"
Hejustpushedmebackandjumpedoffthetabl
e
whi
leholdi
ngonmywai stdi
dali
tt
let
wirlandjust
pi
ckedmeupandpl acedmeonthetable.
Hi
m:"
Ihav
efeel
i
ngsf
ory
ouandonl
yyou"
Me:"st
opdoingt
hist
oyour
sel
fandj
ustsi
gnt
he
consentf
orms"
Heshookhi
sheadandat
tackedmyneckwi
thaki
ss
Him:
"youar
enotleav
ingmey eahI'
l
lacceptt
he
puni
shmentbuty
ouar enotl
eavi
ngme"
Me:
"whatpuni
shment
?"
Hewasbusykissi
ngmyneckbuthetal
ksabouta
puni
shmenthesqueezedmyboobsmakingmebit
e
mylowerl
ip
Me:
"j
ust
..
..
."
Hi
m:"
shhl
et'
snotar
guej
ustf
ort
oday
"
Her
ubbedmyl
i
ps
Hi
m:"
let
'snotar
gueaboutany
thi
ng"
Heki ssedmynosebridgeandj
ustatt
ackedmyl i
ps
withaki ss oneIrespondedt
obusypulli
ngonhis
dreadlockshedi
dn'
twastetimeint
akingoffmy
undiesIwasnownakedandbei ngki
ssedwhilehe
wassqueezi ngmyboobs.
Hi
m:"
I'
vebeensaf
eIpr
omi
se"
Hemumbl edinbetweentheki
ssreal
l
y t hankyour
ancestor
st hatI'
m hor
nyashel
l.Hepeckedmyl i
ps
andjustwentt osucki
ngmyneck.
Me:
"Lwandl
e!!
"Imoaned
Hepeckedmyl ipsagai
nashewentt osuckmy
boobsmakingmebi temylowerli
pavoidi
ngt o
scream hemadesuretosqueezethem everysingle
ti
mehe'dmov ehistonguear
oundmyni pplesjust
taki
ngmet othatpl
aceheandhim knowshowt o
getmet her
e.
Me:
"j
ustdoi
tal
readypl
easeLwandl
e"
Heki
ssedmyt
empl
eandcamet
oat
tackmyl
i
ps.
Hi
m:"
whyy
our
ushi
ngme?
"
Me:
"Iwanty
ounow!
"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
noty
et"
Me:
"Lwandl
epl
ease Iwanty
ounow"
Hi
shandwentdownt omyhoneypotandjustbegan
r
ubbingmegett
ingmetopul
lawayfrom t
heki ss
t
hrowingmyheadbackandj
ustmoanedheki ssed
mytempleagai
n.
Hi
m:"
lookatmeLol
o"
Hi
shornyv
oicei
sascuteashissl
eepyv
oicet
hey
j
ustt
urnmeonIlookedathi
m andj
ustf
oundhim
r
edeyedbi
ti
nghisl
owerli
p.
Hi
m:"
comebackhomepl
ease"
Me:
"makel
ovet
omef
ir
st"
Hechuckledandjustpul
ledmet ot
heedgeoft he
tabl
ehespreadmyl egs andsoonIf el
this
membert r
ynaenterIbi
tmyl owerl
ipasIjust
openedmyl egswiderf
orhim asheslowlypushed
himsel
finme
Me:
"ohshi
t.
..
.. "
Iclosedmyey esandlookedup Godhe' sgif
ted
evenaf t
eral
ltheseofbeingmar r
iedtohi
m Ist
il
l
can'taccommodat eal
lofhim atonce.
"
Openy
ourey
edmamakhe"
Ishookmyheadj ustt
orecei
veasl apont hethi
gh
andbeliev
emei twasn'
tyourfr
iendlysexyslap I
quickl
yopenedmyey esandlookedathim myso
handsomehusband af t
erIworkedsohar dto
makehi mthi
stheywanttotakehim away y eah
r
ight
.
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owl
ythr
usti
nhar
dmaki
ngmegaspabi
t
Hi
m:"
didt
hathur
t?"
Inod
Me:
"mmh"
Het
hrusti
nabitfastbutgentl
ythist
imeIbi
tmy
l
owerl
iptr
ynacontrol
myscr eamingrat
e
Hi
m:"
doest
hathur
t?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"uhuhIl
i
ket
hat
"
Hesmi
rked
Hi
m:"
youl
i
ket
hat
?"
Iqui
ckl
ynod
Me:
"ver
yver
ymuch,
doi
tagai
n"
Beli
evememysqueakyv oi
cecanbehell
aseducti
ve
andheknowsi t hepickedupmylegsholdi
ngon
tothem well
basi
cal
l
yhewasl i
ft
ingt
hem upashe
star
teddoingmesogoodIbecameMr sSokhul
uin
ani
nst
ance
Me:
"babygosl
ower
..
..AhhhSokhul
u"
Hepeckedmyl
i
ps
Hi
m:"
sayy
oul
oveme"
Jeezl
i
ker
ightnow
Hi
m:"
Lol
o!!
"
Everbeenpoundedonsohar di
nawayt hati tdidn'
t
hurti
nawayt hatyou'
l
lfeel
painbutinwayt haty ou
aresoov erwhel
medwi thpl
easureyoustartcrying
wellPenelopeJaydenSokhuluknowsthatfeelingI
wascr y
ingwhi l
emoaningforhimtogof astercrazy
ri
ght.
Hejustpul
l
edoutandqui
ckl
ygotmeofft
het
abl
e
t
urningmearoundt
ogofrom t
heback
Me:
"mykneesLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
Igoty
ou"
Inodandjustlethi
m sl
idehi
mselfinmenowwhenI
sai
dmykneeswel lt
heyweregoi
ngwobbl yonmeso
Iwasjustwarninghi
mt obewarythatIdon'
tfal
l
.He
spankedmyassandj
ustki
ssedmyback.
Hi
m:"
Mamakhe?
"
Me:
"y.
..
yes?
"
Hi
m:"
doy
oul
oveme?
"
Inod
Me:
"mmh,
fuckIl
ovey
ou"
Hegr
abbedmyhai
rmaki
ngmet
il
tmyheadl
ooki
ng
up
Hi
m:"okay,
okay.
...
..
uuuh"hegroaned"Ipromiset
o
l
oveyouandonl yyouPenelope,you'
retheonefor
me.Ipromise"
Inodf uckhimI'
m abouttoreachmyhappypl acehis
promisesdon'tscar
emewel lIguesswheregott o
thelandofmi l
kandhoneytoget hercausehe
groanedoutloudasIscreamed.Hel ai
dhisheadon
mybackbr eathi
ngsoheav i
l
yhedeci dedtospank
mybut ttwice
Me:
"t
hathur
tsy
ouknow"
Hi
m:"
Imi
sssl
eepi
ngont
hisassy
ouknowandI
meanthatl
i
ter
all
ythi
sthi
ngher
eist
hebestpi
l
low
ev
er"
Me:
"mov
eI'
dli
ket
oseatdownmykneesar
eweak"
Him:"
seatbutdon'
tyoudar
eremov
emef
rom i
nsi
de
ofyou"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Wear
enotdogsy
ouknow"
Hi
m:"
Iknow.
..
.Nowcomef
oll
owmyl
ead"
Hepul
ledmedownandy eahhisj
uni
orwasst
il
li
n
meIcouldf
eel
him godeeperaswesatdown
Lwandl
e:"
,bounceal
i
ttl
eIwanty
oui
ncont
rol
now"
Yeahr i
ghtt
hatdidn'
tl
asthehadalreadytakenover
makingmel osemymi ndIcamet wicei
nt hat
posit
ionwellnowIwasseat i
ngacrosshi
ml i
kemy
l
egsonbot hsidesofhishandsandstari
ngathim
sowhenhewasdoneIj ustlai
dmyheadonhi s
chestbreat
hingheavi
lyashell
.
Me:
"wear
ebadpar
ent
sjeez
"
Hegi
ggl
ed
Hi
m:"
they
'l
lunder
standwhent
heygr
owup,
giv
eme
aki
sspl
ease"
Me:
'
notwhi
l
eyoust
il
lbur
iedi
nsi
deofme"
Hi
m:"
youdon'
twannagetof
fsodon'
tbl
ameme"
Itookadeepbr eathandstoodupyouknowIcould
feelashi
sjuniorsli
doutofmel eav
ingmecoldas
shitdownthere,Ibentov
eronthechairandj
ust
peckedhisli
ps
Me:
"getdr
essedt
heki
dswannapl
aywi
thy
ou"
Hi
m:"
Ist
il
lwannapl
aywi
thmommy
"
Me:"
wel
lmommyi
sti
redandst
il
lver
ymuchangr
yat
you"
Ipeckedhi
sli
ps
Me:
"l
et'
sdr
essup"
Ipi
ckedupmycl othesandwalkedawayfronthim
butLwandlewouldn'
tletmyassgowithoutgiv
ingit
onelastspankevenchuckl
i
ng
Me:
"wher
edi
dyout
hrowmyundi
es?
"
Heshr
ug
Me:"
Lwandl
eIknowyoul
ovet
odot
hissopl
ease
gi
vemyundieshau"
Hechuckledandjuststoodupandstar
teddressi
ng
upseeIwasal r
eadydonej ustwai
ti
ngf
ormyundi es
whichI
'
llnevergetwhenhewasdonehej usttook
outmylaceundiesfrom hi
spocketswi
ththi
shuge
gri
nonhisface
Hi
m:"
mmhj
ustsni
ff
ingt
hisget
smehor
ny"
Me:
"okaygi
vei
ttome"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"aaahbabeI'
m keepi
ngt
hisf
ort
odayj
ustt
oget
methoughtheday"
Ilookedathowhewasbusypl
ayingaroundwi
th
them mademejustl
osepowertoargue
Me:
"I
'l
ltel
ltheki
dst
ocomei
n"
HenodandIwentt
ounl
ockt
hedoor
..
..
.
.
t
obecont
inued
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11/
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nne:
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.
☆Baby
,ai
n'
tnobodygonnal
ovemel
i
ket
hewayy
ou
do
Andy
ouai
n'
tnev
ergonnaf
indal
ovel
i
kemi
ne
Tel
lmewhatcanIdot
omakei
tupt
oyou?
'
Causewhatwegot
'st
oogoodt
osaygoodby
e,
goodby
e
Yeah,
I'
m st
il
li
nlov
ewi
thy
oudar
li
n'
Iknowy
ouf
eel
thesame
Oh,what
'st
hepoi
ntofbot
hofusbei
ngbr
oken
hear
ted?
Ipr
ayi
t'
snev
ert
ool
ate
Sot
ell
me,
why
,whycan'
twet
ryandst
artagai
n?
Thi
scan'
tbehowourst
oryends
You'
remor
ethanmygi
rl
,you'
remybestf
ri
end
Tel
lmey
our
ememberwhen
Iwasy
ourmanandy
ouwer
emygi
rl
I
twasyouandmeagai
nstt
hewor
ld Br
unoMar
s
~TooGoodToSayGoodby
e♡

LordknowswhenIwal kedoutofthatoff
iceItri
edto
keepmyactt oget
herbutImeanI'
m suret heyheard
mesay i
ngfaster Iwalkedoutgoingtothesmi l
ing
AmberandZamost ooduprushi
ngt oLwandle'
s
off
icebutIj
ustpull
edherback
Me:"seaty
ourfl
atassdownbi
tch.
..
.Nxababi
esgo
daddyiswait
ingfory
ou"
Ij
ustpull
edZamobacktoherseatandshef
li
nched
abitandhel
dontoherst
omachIr eal
l
ydon'
tcare.
Lwandl
e:"
Lol
owher
ear
etheki
ds?
"
Me:
"l
ist
ent
otheshout
ingandy
ou'
vef
oundt
hem"
Helaughedastheyappear
edbusychasingeach
ot
her,
theyrani
ntohisarmsandhejustpickedt
hem
up.
Lwandle:
"I
'm goi
ngoutwi
tht
hem t
heof
fi
cesmel
l
s
l
ikegrownups"

Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngt
hem?
"
Lwandl
e:"
outwannacome?Fort
heoneyouar
e
car
ryi
ng'
ssakeIdon'
twantmybabygi
rlt
ohat
eme"
Me:
"Lwandl
eIt
oldy
ounott
otel
lmet
hegender
"
Hel
aughed
Amber:"
wooanot
herbabyshowerwe'
resogoi
ngt
o
rockt
hisonet
oo"
Lwandl
e:"
notwit
hmywal
l
ett
hist
imear
ound.
.Lol
o
l
et'
sgophela"
Me:
"hauhav
eyoul
osty
ourgi
rl
fr
iend"
Hel
ookedatmewi
thhi
sey
essquat
ted
Lwandl
e:"
Zamol
et'
sgo"
Me:
"l
eav
etheki
ds"
Lwandl
e:"
noi
t'
sei
thery
oucomeorIt
akemy
'
gi
rl
fr
iend'
wit
hme"
Me:'
Ican'
tgotot
hemall
wit
hhal
fofmycl
otheson
Lwandlet
hat'
sst
upi
d"
Lwandl
e:"
noonewil
lnoti
cetheydidn'
tevennot
ice
youwerewear
ingi
tinthefi
rstpl
ace..
..
"
Me:
"uhuht
hey
'l
lsee"
Lwandle:
"st
andup(Ist
oodup)Amberdoesi
tshow
thatshe'
snotwear
ingherundi
es?
"
Amber
:"
uhhnoact
ual
l
yit
'
sst
il
lthesameasshe
camei
n"
Me:
"youar
efi
redf
ri
endy
ouar
efi
red"
Lwandl
e:"
thencomemay beyoumi
ghtbest
il
li
na
happymoodImi ghthi
titagai
n"
Ishookmyhead
Phi
l
a:"
mommycome"
Lwandl
e:"
sheal
readycamebabymor
ethanonce"
Irol
l
edmyey esandjustt
ookPhi
l
afr
om Lwandl
ehe
remainedcar
ryi
ngLesego
Amber
:"
ncoahy
ouguyar
esocut
e"
Lwandl
ewr
appedhi
sar
m ar
oundmyneck
Lwandl
e:"
Iknowr
ightandlookatt
hecut
emunchi
es
wecreat
esomagnifi
cent.
.."
Me:
"andy
oujusthadt
ogonor
thwheny
ouhav
ethe
wi
femxm canwegonow?"
It
ookmybagandj
ustwentt
otheel
evat
or
Lwandl
e:"
Ambercancel
all
mymeet
ingsokayI
'
llbe
backpr
ettyl
ate"
Amber:"
ohpl
easebegent
leshehasscr
eamedi
t'
s
enough"
Theychuckl
edandLwandlej
ustcametospankmy
asshol
dingonitgi
vi
ngitasqueezeandheki
ssed
myneck
Lwandl
e:"
Zamof
ini
sht
hatcaseIwanti
twhenwe
gethome"
themomentt heel
evatoropenedIgotsoir
ri
tat
ed
butIcan'
tshoutinf
rontofmyki dssoIj
ustpushed
hi
shandawayf rom myassandhechuckl ed
Hi
m:"
don'
ttel
lmey
ouar
ejeal
ous"
Me:
"I
'm not
"
Hi
m:"causeI'
m doi
ngwhatyouwant
edmet
odoso
pl
easeorjustcomebackhome"
Me:
"No!
!"
Him:
"whenareyougoi
ngtocomebackhome?The
bedai
n'
tthesamewithouty
ou"
Me:
"yeahr
ightI
'
m sur
eshewar
msi
tup"
Hi
m:"y
eahr
ightasi
fI'
dletanyonesl
eeponourbed..
..
Imadeami
stakebutIl
ovey ouandIrespecty
ou"
Me:
"youwantmet
ocomehome?"
Henod
Me:
"t
henl
etmefuckwi
thanyguyImeetatt
hecl
ub
f
ort
hreemont
hs"
Hi
m:"
fuckt
hat
..
..
I'
dki
l
lyouLol
o"
Me:
"t
hensi
gnt
hoseconsentf
ormspl
ease"
Hi
m:"
nowhycan'ty
ougototheanypl
aceI
'
m SA?
Whydohav
etoleaveSout
hAfri
ca?
"
Me:
"causemyhusbandcheat
edi
nSout
hAf
ri
ca"
Itookadeepbreathandjustwal
kedpastRosel
i
ke
wewer en'
tshout
ingnotsolongagowhenwegot
outsi
deLwandlejusthel
dmyhand
Hi
m:"
so?
"
Me:
"sowhat
?"
Hi
m: '
youwantt
ogot
oanot
hercount
ryandcheat
t
here?"
Me:"
duh!Imeani
t'
dbemuchbett
eryouwon'
tbe
af
rai
dofbumpingi
ntohi
m whenyougotot
hemall
"
Hi
m:'
andy
ouar
e?"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"yesImeanyouevenaskedhertomoveinand
I
'm sureshehasal
readymovedaroundourf
amily
pi
ctures"
Hi
m:"
I'
m notani
diotokay
"
Me:"
yeahr
ight.
..Youknowwhatgowi
tht
heki
dsI
'
ll
comeandfetchthem"
Ipl
acedPhi
l
ainhercarseatandj
ustbuckl
edher,
he
wasst ar
ingatmeasIbuckl
edLesegoki
ssi
ngt
hei
r
cheeks.
Me:
"hav
efunguy
sokayandbehav
e"
Theynod
Iwasn'
ti
nthemoodt
oar
guewi
thhi
m Icl
osedt
he
door
Me:
"cal
lmewheny
ouar
ebackI
'
llf
etcht
hem her
e"
Hi
m:"
whynotathome?Whyher
e?"
Me:
"causey
out
ookt
hem her
e"
Him:
"Lol
othey
'l
lsl
eepatt
hei
rhomet
oni
ghtnot
somehotel
"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
thenyou'l
lknowmev erywellnxai
t'
seit
heryou
br
ingthem hereorcancel
thisst
upidtr
ipofyour
s"
Hi
m:"
geti
nthecarPenel
opet
heki
dsar
ehungr
y"
Me:
"wel
lthei
rbagshav
ethei
rlunchsoy
oucanf
eed
t
hem t
hat"
Heopenedt
hedoor
Hi
m:"
geti
nthedamncarnow"
Me:
"Isai
dno"
Hi
m:"
sowhenyouarespl
i
tti
ngupourf
ami
l
ywhat
ar
eyougoi
ngt
otell
ourki
ds?"
Me:"real
l
y?I '
m spl
i
tti
ngupt hi
sfamily
?Youspl itup
thi
sfami l
ythemomenty oudeci
dedt osleepwith
anotherwomannotmeIwasf ai
thfultoyouandonl y
youLwandl e.IwasFait
hfulbutyouwer enot"
Hi
m:"
andI'
m deali
ngwithitai
n'
tI?I
'
m sor
ryLol
ojust
gi
vemeanotherchance"
Me:"whywon'
tyoul
etmegoawayfr
om Sout
hAf
ri
ca
Ineedtobeawaywit
hmyownthought
s"
Hi
m:"Idon'
twantt
oist
hatsohar
dtounder
stand?I
wantyouherewi
thmecloset
ome"
Isteppedclosert
ohim andj
usthel
dhi
sface
rubbingmineagainsthi
s.
Me:"
I'
ll
bebackI'
l
lber
ighther
eIpr
omi
seI
'
m not
goi
nganywher
e"
Him:
"t
hanst
aydon'
tl
eav
esout
hAf r
ica.
..
.Stayher
eI
knowyouar
eangr
yatmeandIgetthatbutdon'
t
l
eav
e"
Il
ookedupathi
m andhewasst
ari
ngatmewi
th
gl
assyeyes
Hi
m:"
don'
tl
eav
eLol
o"
Me:"
why?Iwi
l
lbecomi
ngbackaf
tert
woweeksI
pr
omise"
Him:"Idon'
tcare.
..
.I'
m scaredLol
oI'
m scaredt
hat
oncey ouleav
ey ou'l
lfi
ndsomeonewho'lll
oveyouin
thoseweeksandy ou'
llnev
ercomebacktome.I '
m
scared"
Isi
ghed
Me:"
I'
m scar
edtooLwandl eI'
m scaredyouloveher
morethanme,I
'm scaredLwandle.That'
swhyIwant
t
obeawayf rom y
ouf r
om all
thi
sfight
ing,
Idon'
t
wannaloseyoubuty oubrokeme"
Hi
m:"I
'
m sorr
yI'm deepl
ysorryl
ove.
..
.Il
oveyou
womanjustt
het houghtofyoubei
ngeventwo
r
oomsawayf r
om meki ll
sme.Rememberwheny ou
wentt
osleepintheguestcauseyouwereangr
yat
me?"
Ichuckl
edandhi
dmyheadonhi
schest
Me:"
yousleptout
sidethedoorwelly
ouwereready
tount
ilIcametofetchyourcr
yingwimpyass.You
suchababydoy ouknowt hat
"
Him:"
Ilov
eyoutoapoi
ntwhereIwannahearyour
sweetvoi
cewhenIwakeupinthemorni
ng,Iwantto
sl
eepinyourl
apwhi
leyouarehummingasongf or
meIjustwantt
obeyourbabyandnooneelse'
s"
Me:"Iwantt
hattoobutcanIbeangr
yatyou?Just
forali
tt
lewhil
e?Justl
etmehateyouforhur
ti
ngme
causeithur
ts.
"
Hesi
ghed
Hi
m:"Il
oveyoumamakhe.
..Canwegotolunchnow?
We'
ll
f i
ghtwheny
ouarewellf
eddon'
twanttostar
ve
mybaby "
Irubbedhisfaceandnodhepi ckedmeupt akingme
tothepassengersseatIsawZamowat chi
ngussoI
j
ustheldont i
ghtl
yt ohim heplacedmei nt
othecar
andjustdroveust othemal lwherewehadour
familyl
unchandt hekidshadf unhealsohadf unI
couldseethatinhiseyest heywerejustgl
owing
wi
thhappiness andhislaughastheyf
edhi
m was
j
ustoutofthi
swor l
dIev
entookvi
deosandpi
csof
t
hem #bestdayev
er
.
Zamo
He'smessi ngwithmer eall
yy esterdayhet r
eatedme
l
iket rashandt odayhehast hegut stomakel oveto
herwhi l
eher appedmeandbeatmeuphe' sgoingto
besor r
y.Iwentbackt othet opandj usttookmy
stuffIdr ovetothehouseandt heguar dletmei nI
wentt othegarageandt ooksomeboxesandbegan
packingawayal lthosef ami l
ypictureshehashe
saidhewant smet obeher ewi t
hhi m sotheroom
hast oshowt hatIputupmypi cturesandsomeof
usy eahwet ooksomepi ct
ureswel litwasstolenhe
woul dn'thaveagreedany way .Iwasdoneatt he
bottom soIwentt ot hetopandj ustchanged
everythingt omylikingandwhenIwasdonet he
mainbedr oom wast opoft herangej ustmyst yl
e
Me;
"damny
ourgoodNomzamoy
ou'
resogood.
..
"
Igi
ggl
edasIt
ookt
heboxesoutt
othegar
ageI
'
ll
burnthem tomorrowr i
ghtnowIneedt ober elaxed
soIwentbackupst airsandjusttookani cebath
withall
thebat hsaltsandbubbl esneededt o
massageme.Iwor emyl ingeri
eandbl ackblock
heelsIcombedmyweav eandj ustdidmymakeupI
worethebl ackandpi nksilkrobemat chingthe
l
ingeri
eIdimmedt hel i
ghtsfrom thetopt othe
bottom l
itupsomecandl esandy eahItookoutt he
champagneandwai t
edf orhim.Hecameback
aroundSev enpm
Me:
"wher
ehav
eyoubeen"
Hej
ustt
hrewhi
sjacketont
hecouchandt
urnedon
t
hel
ight
s
Me:"Lwandl
eI'
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou.
.wher
ehav
eyou
been?"
Hi
m:"wher
earemyf ami
l
ypictures?Wher
ear
emy
weddi
ngpict
ures?Myki
d'spi
ctures?
"
Me:"
ItookthoseoffI
'mt
heonel
i
vingher
ewi
thy
ou
nott
hem Ideserv
e...
"
Him:"
youdeser
venot
hing!
!"Heshout
ed"
you
deser
venothi
ng.
"
Me:"
ohy eahsoyoucanjustdi
srespectme
wheneveryouwantandsleepwithherknowi
ngv
ery
wel
lI'
m outsi
de?
"
Hi
m:"
comeher
e"
Isl
owl
yst
oodup
Hi
m:"
Isai
dcomeher
enow!
"
Iwal
kedtowar
dshim andhejustcaughtmebyt
he
hai
rti
l
tingmyheadt
ol ookup.
Hi
m:"
nev
erdi
srespectmywi
feokay
..
..
."
Me:
"she'
s.
.."
Hesl appedmesohar dIfel
ldownandhebegan
kickingmeint hest
omachsohardoverandover
againuntil
Ispatoutbloodheundi
dhisti
eand
foldedthesleevesofhi
sshir
tandhebegan
punchingme
Me:
"Lwa.
..
.Lwandl
esor
ry.
..
.st
op.
.."
Him:"
Itol
dyout
ost
ayi
nyourl
ane.
..
buty
oudon'
t
l
ist
en"
Hegotupandpi
ckedupmyl
egsandst
art
ed
draggi
ngmeItri
edtowiggl
eouthisholdbuthegot
angryandst
art
edpunchi
ngmeIt houghtIwasdyi
ng
causeIwassopowerl
ess.
"
Lwandl
e!!Lwandl
est
opi
t.St
opi
tri
ghtnow"
Thel
astwor
dsIhear
dandi
twasdar
kal
lar
ound
.
Penel
ope
Idon'tknowwhyIdr ovebackt othehousebutafterI
droppedoft hekidsatAmber '
shouseIjustcameup
withanexcuset hatIwantedtofetchsomeofmy
stuffatthehousewhenIar r
ivedthem Isawa
monst erworsethantheoneIwentt hroughhedidn't
stoppunchingherandt hebloodwasev erywher
e
Me:
"Lwandl
est
opi
t.
..Isai
dst
opi
t"
Irantohi
m andj
ustpull
edhim upbuthewas
fi
ghti
ngmehewasf ight
ingtogobacktoherIj
ust
huggedhi
m asshelaidspr
awledoutonthefl
oor
Me:
"shhi
t'
sokay
..
.It
sokayI
'
m her
eLwandl
e"
Hewasbr
eat
hingsoheav
il
y
Me:"
I'
m sor
rybabyI
'
mreal
l
yreal
l
ysor
ry.
.comeseat
her
e"
Ipull
edhimt othecouchandjustbegantaki
ngoff
hisclot
hestheyhadbloodIrant ot
hekit
chenand
gotanapkinanddippediti
nsomehotwat erIwent
tocleanuphishandshisknuckleshadbrui
ses.
Me:
"Lwandl
e..
.Lwandl
elookatme,
lookatme"
Hel
ookedatmewi
tht
hoser
edey
esofhi
s
Me:"
Iwantyout
oleav
ethehouseokay?Gochange
andleav
eI'
l
lcal
lanambul
anceaft
eryouhavel
eft.
..
.
"
HelookedawaysoIj
ustcaughthi
sfaceandmade
hi
ml ookatme
Me:"t
rustmegoandchangeIdon'
twantyout
ogot
o
pr
isoncauseoft
hissopleasegochange"
Hi
m:"
doy
oul
ovemeLol
o?"
Inodandpeckedhi
sli
ps
Me:"
Ilov
eyousomuchbabakhet
hat
'swhyIwant
youtogori
ghtnow"
Hi
m:"
Idi
dn'tmeantoIjustl
osti
twhenIf
oundour
f
amil
ypi
cturesgoneandherbei
ngall
upinmyface"
Me:
"Iunder
standnowgetup.
..
"
Iki
ssedhi
m andever
ythi
ngwentdeeperashe
passi
onat
elyki
ssedmemov i
nghishandsupmy
thi
ghImoanedandpushedhim of
f
Me:
"gonow"
Hestoodupandwentupst ai
rsIwasleftt
oscr
ambl
e
andpicksomestufft
hrowingthem ar
oundIev
en
brokemyfavour
it
estatue
"
Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:
"t
akeyourcl
othesandgoI'
l
lcall
youandumh
makesur
eyourknuckl
esarewell
cover
ed"
Youcoul
dseetheamazementi
nhiseyesbutri
ght
nowIdon'
tcar
eher ant
owar
dsmeandj usti
ndulged
myli
psinaheartwarmi
ngki
ssIpushedhim of
f
Me:
"we'
l
lfi
nisht
hissomeot
hert
imenowgo"
Her
anoutandyeahIalsowalkedoutandstay
edin
t
hecarf
orabitbef
oregett
ingoutandgoingback
i
nsidewhereIcal l
edt
heambulancebusyscreami
ng
myl ungsoutImadesureIcryandtal
kwhatever
j
ibbiri
shpeopl
et al
kwhentheyarescar
edtomakeit
moreconv i
ncing.
[
11/
2,21:
37]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 53♡
.
ք ռ օք ♡
.
☆ ✿ ss☆
.
Theambul ancecameandt ookherItol
dthem I
'l
l
fol
lowthem inmycar suchawast eoffuelIwas
dri
vingbehindthem v
elebutIcal
ledLwandleandhe
answeredassoonasIcal l
ed.
Me:
"r
elaxwi
l
lya"
Hi
m:"
arey
ouokay
?Babywher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngt
othehospi
tal
andwher
ear
eyou?
"
Him:
"uhatt
heclub.
..Umhy oudon'
thav
etodot
his
youknow?Icanhandlei
t"
Me:"
IknowyoucanbutI
'
m notdoingt
hisf
ory
ou.I
'
m
doi
ngthisf
ormeandmyconscious"
Hi
m:"
whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo?
"
Me:"byej
ustmakesurewhenyoucometothe
hospit
alt
hemarksarecover
edandnobandages"
Hi
m:"
IknowI
'
m doneal
ready
"
Me:"goodIthi
nktheyar
et aki
nghertothe
Johannesburggener
alhospit
albutI
'
llcal
lyouwhen
I
'm sure"
Hi
m:"
sowhenshoul
dIcome?
"
Me:"
evennowbutwai
tformet
oar
ri
vef
ir
sty
ou
hear
?"
Hi
m:"
yes.
..Lol
o!"
Me:
"yes?
"
Him:
"Il
oveyoumommyandI '
m sor
ryf
orever
ythi
ngI
puty
outhroughandwhaty
ousawtodayi
tshouldn'
t
hav
ewentl
i
ket
hat
"
Me:"IknowI 'mtheonetoblameforthi
sIshoul
dn'
t
havel ef
ty ouint
hefi
rstpl
ace..
.Soit
'sokaywer
ein
thi
st ogether"
Hi
m:"
becar
eful
okaydon'
tst
ress"
Me:
"Iwon'
tbabeby
enow"
Ihungupandj ustdroveint
othepar
kinglotIgotout
fuckmyl egswerekil
li
ngmeIspentthewhol edayin
heelsandnowIhav etobeher e IcalledAmber
andy eahshequickl
ypickedup
Me:
'
baeI'
l
lbebackl
atedoy
oumi
ndput
ti
ngt
heki
ds
t
obed?
"
Amber
:"
woahr
oundt
woal
ready
?"
Me:
"Iwi
shbutI
'
m att
hehospi
tal
..
..
"
Amber
:"
what
?Ar
eyouokay
?Ist
hebabyokay
?'
Me:"
rel
axwe'
rebot
hfi
nei
t'
sZamoshe'
sbeen
admit
ted"
Amber
:"
O-kaysi
ncewhendoy
oucar
e?"
Me:
"si
nceIf
oundherspr
awl
edonmyl
i
vingr
oom
f
loori
napuddl
eofbl
ood.
.."
Amber
:"
whathappened?Wher
eisbae?
"
Me:"
Ical
ledhim andhesaidhei
satt
hecl
ubbutI
t
oldhim whathappened"
Amber
:"
ohwi
l
lhebet
her
e?Shoul
dIcome?
"
Me:
"uhhesai
dhe'
l
lbeher
eI'mfinepleasej
ustput
mymunchi
estosl
eepi
fI'
m backlat
e"
Amber
:"
okaycool
besaf
e"
Me:
"t
hanksy
ell
owbone"
Ihungupandj
ustwentt
other
ecept
ioni
st
Me:
"hi
I'
m Penel
opeSokhul
u..
.UmhIcamewit
hthe
ambul
ancetr
anspor
ti
ngumhNomzamoMt shal
i"
Recp:
"who?
"
Me:
"arght
hegir
lwhowasbadl
ybeat
en?Wher
edi
d
t
heytakeher
?"
Recp:
"ohher.
.UmhIdon'tknowshewasj
ust
admit
tedareyour
elat
ives?"
Me:
"uhno!If
oundherl
i
ket
hatsocany
out
ell
me
whenshe'
sawake"
Recp:
"I
'm af
rai
dwecan'
ttel
lev
ery
oneabouther
..
..
"
Me:"
li
stenhereIfoundheri
nmyhousel
iket
hatokay
soyoubettert
ell
mewhenshe'sawakeIwantt
o
knowwhathappened"
Recp:
"ohokaycany
ouf
il
lthi
sinpl
ease?"
Me:
"noIdon'
tknowherIjustknowhername
NomzamoMt shal
iakabi
tchyouchoose"
Shel
ookedatmei
nawe
Me:
"wi
l
lyouj
ustl
etmeknowwhen.
.."
"Nat
ali
ecany ougetmet hepersonwhocamewith
theambulancethatj
ustbroughtint
hebadl
ybr
uised
pati
entIheardt
heywereher e"
Nat
ali
e:"
her
eshei
sdoct
or"
Il
ookedatt
hedoct
or
Me:
"how'
sshe?I
ssheawake?
"
Dr
:"
nobutI
'
dli
ket
oasky
ouaf
ewquest
ions.
."
Me:
"umhokayt
hen"
Hehel
dmyshoul
derbutIshi
ft
edandcl
ear
edmy
t
hroat
Me:"
Idon'tl
ikef
orei
gnhandsonmybodysoi
fyou'
d
pl
easejustaskthequest
ions"
Henod
Dr
:"
pleasef
oll
owme"
Iwal
kedbesi
deshi
m
Dr
:"
howdoy
ouknowt
hepat
ient
?"
Me:
"wel
lweusedtoworkt
oget
herunt
ilIl
eftbutshe
wor
ksformyhusband"
Dr
:"
andwher
eyouf
oundher
?"
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Me:"myhouse.
..Shewashav
inganaf
fai
rwi
thmy
husband"
Iscr
atchedmyhead
Dr:
"ohokay.
..Umhdoy
ouknowanyofher
rel
ati
ves?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tbel
i
eveIdoi
sthatal
l
?"
Dr:
"umhwellshehassust
ainedsomereal
l
yhar
d
bl
owssoI '
dli
keiti
fyoucouldtel
lmewhat
happened"
Me:"
Idon'
tknowwhathappenedokayIj
ustf
ound
herl
ayi
ngthereandIbr
oughtherher
e"
Dr
:"
hasy
ouhusbandhadanydeadl
ythr
eat
s?"
Me:"Idon'
tknow.
.Cany
out
ell
memor
eabouther
si
tuati
on"
Dr
:"
wear
est
il
lrunni
ngsomet
est
smam"
Me:
"good"
Dr
:"
we'
dli
ket
oinv
olv
ethepol
i
cei
nthi
scase"
Me:"
letmespeakt
oherf
ir
standwe'
l
lcal
lthem
af
ter
"
Henodandjustwal
kedawayIsatont
hebenches
andj
ustcal
l
edmycr azyhusband
Hi
m:"
what
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Me:"not
hingI
'
llcal
lyouwhent
her
eissomet
hingt
hat
needsyouhere"
Hi
m:"
but
..
."
Me:"
Isai
dletmehandl
eitI
'
llcal
lyouwhenIneed
you"
Hi
m:"
okay
..
."
Me:"don'
tdr
inkl
i
key
ouar
ehi
ghj
ustkeepacl
ear
head"
Hi
m:"
I'
m notdr
inki
ngev
en"
Me:
"goodboy
"
Ihungupandf iddledwithmyphonebr uhtheytook
thei
rsweettimeIev enhadt ogotothecafeter
iato
buytheirunt
astefulfoodIwentbacktothewaiting
areajusttof
indthedoct orwai
ti
ngthere.
Me:
"andnow?I
ssheal
ri
ght
?"
Dr
:"
umhmam we.
..
"
Me:"
don'
ttel
lmebul
l
shitaboutf
ami
l
yshegot
i
njur
edinmyhousei
fyouknowwhat'
sgoodf
ory
ou"
Dr:
"well
umhshehast wobrokenr i
bsandthey
damagedheruterusithascrackedtoapointwher
e
shewon'tbeabletocarryanykids.
..
well
herhead
i
njur
iesareminorshe'l
lwakeupi nafew"
Me:"
didIheary
oucor
rect
ly?Shehasabur
st
ut
erus?"
Dr
:"
yesmi
ssshe.
..
."
Mybr eathinghi
ngedcausingmet ohav
et hi
shuge
headacheImeanev eryt
hingstar
tedspi
nningoutof
contr
ol Isatdownandjustscr
eamedwi thtear
s
fl
owingdownmycheeks
"
Lol
o?Lol
o?Baby
!!
"
Ilookedupatt hev oiceandj ustsawLwandl e
rushingtowardsmeIst oodupt r
yingtowal kbut
everythi
ngwasspi nningoutofcont r
ol nextthi
ngI
knewIwasi nhisar mswi t
hhim busyt appi
ngmy
cheeksandt hedoct or srushi
ngtowar dsmeImean
whatdi dIcreated?Whathav eIdone?Iknowhow
excit
ingiti
st obeamot herbutnowshecan' thave
thatIknowshedi dmewr ongbutIdidn'twantthat
forhershe'salsoawomanwhatwasIt hi
nking
anyway .
.
ʟ
աaռ ♡
Hereyeswereslowlyshutt
ingdownandt hisstupi
d
machinewasmaki ngnoiseIcouldn'
tevenhear
myselft
hinkstr
aight shecan' tdothi
st ome
agai
nnotagainIknowImessedupbutIdi dn'
tmean
toIj
ust.
..Idi
dn'
tmeant oIkissedherpart
edlips
Me:"
babypl
easedon't
..
.Don'
tcl
oseyoureyes.Lol
oI
pr
omiseyouI'
l
lchangeI'
ll
beabett
erperson."
Ibrushedherhandast heydi
dt hei
rthi
ngt
oherand
shefinal
lyshutherey
esIwat chedasshesleptwi
th
herbeautif
ulfacel
ooki
ngsopeacef ul
Me:
"Drwhathappened?"
Dr
:"
sirshehadapani
cat
tackbutshe'
l
lbef
ine"
Me:
"ohwi
l
lthebabybeokay
?"
Dr:
"yesy
ourbabywi
l
lbef
inesi
r.
.Shej
usthadami
l
d
pani
cattack"
Me:
"mi
ldornotshe'
safragi
l
epersoncar
ryi
ngan
i
mport
antcar
go..
.whatt
ri
ggeredt
his?
"
Dr:
"ohwel
lIwast
ell
i
ngheraboutMsMt
shal
i
's
condi
ti
on"
Me:
"ohwhi
chr
oom i
sshei
n?"
Dr
:"
room 32war
dB"
Me:
"t
hisi
sumhWar
dBal
sor
ight
?"
Henod
Me:
"okaypl
easel
ookaf
termywi
feIneedt
ocheck
onumh..
."
Dr
:"
umhIunder
stand"
Istoodupwi ththedoctorgivi
ngmenastyst ar
esI
couldn'tgiveaf uckany wayIwentintot
her oom and
foundhersl eepingIj
ustst ar
edatherbusysleepi
ng
sopeacef ul
lywhydi dIhav etobeanidi
otnowand
dot hi
sl ookwher emywi feisal
lcauseofthis
sit
uationIr ubbedherf oreheadandshewokeupt he
l
ookonherf ace
Me:"sshIwon'
thurtyou.Iwon' thurtyour el
ax.
Li
stenZamoI '
m sorr
yf orwhatIdi dtoy ouIknowi t
wasbadofmebutpl easefor gi
vemeIj ustl osti
t
whenIsawy outryi
ngt oreplacethemot herofmy
ki
ds,noonewil
leverreplaceherandIdon' twant
anyonetomakeherf eelstupidordisrespectherbut
pleasefor
giveme.SeeIknowIcan' tmakey ou
forgetwhatIdidbutI'
ll
stayoutofyourwayifonl
y
you'l
lnottel
lthepoli
cewhathappenedbutifIsee
evenonest upidcoponmydoor st
epI'l
ldofarworse
thanthisI
'll
huntyoudownwher everyougoandI'
ll
hurtyoudoy ouunderstand?
"
Shenodwit
ht ear
srunni
ngdownhercheeksIj
ust
wipedt
hem andkissedherf
orehead
Me:
"goodt
oknowwehav
eanagr
eement
,by
e"
Itookadeepbr
eat
handjustwal
kedoutgoingback
tomywifeshewasst
il
lsl
eepi
ngsoIjustt
ookoff
myshoesandgoti
ntothebedwi
thherlay
ingher
headonmychest
Me:"
Loloyouhav etowakeupandl et'
sfi
xour
marri
agepleaseI'm beggi
ngy ou.YouknowIhate
seei
ngyouint hesewallsI
'm sorrybabypl
ease.I
l
oveyousqueakyandIwantt oheary ousayyoulov
e
me."
Iki
ssedherfor
eheadandrubbedhertummyIcan't
beli
eveshe'
scarr
yinganot
hergi
rlam Igoi
ngtohave
gir
lsonl
ywithherImeanalit
tl
eboyny anaj
usta
j
uniorit
'sli
keeversincewel ostthef
irstonewe' l
l
havegirl
sonlyIlovemyki dsnomat t
erwhatt he
genderlongastheyar easprettyastheirmotherI'
m
coolImeanl ookatPhilashe'sanexactr epl
i
caof
Penelope t helov
eofmyl i
fe..
..
.
.
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atingpainbutt henwhatIsaw
sentshiv
ersdownmyspi nePenelopewasj ust
standi
ngbythewi ndowl ostinspacer ubbingher
tummyl i
keshe'ssayingIdeserveitt hatherhusband
madesur eIcan'
thaveki ds shesawt hatIwas
awakeandshej ustwal kedtowardsmeshegav eme
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Her:"
lookwhereyouarenow?Wher eisthatsmug
gir
l?Theonewhocal l
edmef atandunablet osati
sfy
myhusband?Youwer esosureofyourselfZamoso
surebutlookatyounowcan'tevenspeaky oulook
l
ikeazombi eandImeanar ealzombie.
.."
Me:
"pl
easest
op.
..
."
Her:"ohI'm notheretogloatnahwellabitbutI'
m
j
usther etosayI '
mr eal
lysorryaboutt
hef actt
hat
youcan' thavekidsandt hatyouhadtoendher eso
quicklyIwant edyoutosuf f
erslowl
yti
llyoucameto
begmet ohel pyoubutIguessy ougottobi gf
or
yourboot stoosoon.Whatwasi t?Youseeingmeat
theof f
iceorhear i
ngmemakel ovetohim? "
Me:
"yourhusbandi
samonst
erhebel
ongsi
npr
ison"
Shej
ustshookherhead
Her:"
nowhe'smyhusband?He' smyhusbandcause
youfoundoutthatit
'snotallsunshineandrosesat
theSokhuluhousehold?ZamoIwasni cetoyou
from dayoneIwelcomedy ouatt heoffi
ceandI
wantedtobey ourfr
iendbutIguesshewasr ight
Rosehadcor r
uptedy ouIwishyoudi dn'
tfal
lforher
l
i
es"
Isawat
earf
all
downherf
ace
Her
:"
ontopofital
lI'
m sor
ryf
oryoul
osi
ngt
heabi
l
ity
t
ohavekidsofyourownbut.
..
."
Me:
"yourhusbandr
apedmehe.
..
."
Her:"
shutup! !Anddoy ouexpectmet ofeelsorryfor
you?Il ostmyi nnocencet hr
oughhi srapesodon' t
youf uckwithmey oudeser veditcausey oudid
somet hingbutIhadbr okenribsandgunwounds
withoutdoingany t
hingtohim.Youdeser ved
everythinghedi dtoy ouZamoy ougottobi gforyour
boots, youshouldhav elefthimt hemomenthebeat
youupbuty oust ayedallbecauseRosesai dso..
."
Sheclosedhereyesandtookadeepbr
eathshe
quickl
ywipedhertear
sI'
m sur
eshefel
tthather
husbandwasbehindher.
Her:"l
etthi
sbeal essonthatnotever
ycouplethat
smilesinpublicmeanstheirli
fei
ssunshineand
roses,st
ayawayf rom marr
iedmennexttimef oryou
don'tknowt hei
rdemons.Wi shyouthebestreal
ly
"
Shest oodupandt ur
nedaroundleavi
ngmet o
sil
entl
ycryasshewal kedtowardshim butwhenhe
tri
edtoholdhershepushedhi shandawayandhe
l
ookedatmel i
kehewant stofini
shoffwhathe
start
edIquickl
ylookedawayandIhear dhis
footst
epsmov efrom mydooronl ydi
dIbreath.
Apar tofmef eelsIbr
oughtthisuponmy sel
fbut
anotherpartofmef eel
sthisisunfai
r whycan' tI
havemyownki dshuhbuthehast hem andhe's
expectinganotherone?She'l
lpayforthisshe'
llf
eel
thi
spai nI'
minr i
ghtnowthisisnotov erit
'sf
arfrom
i
tnooneandImeannoonewal ksovermeand
comest ogl
oataboutit
.
Penel
ope
Iwal
kedintothebathroom andchangedi nt
omy
cl
eanclothesIwasbei ngdi
schargedtodayandI
can'
twaittoseemyki dsandholdt hem i
nmyar ms.
Lwandl
ewaswai t
ingformewi t
ht hiswei
rdlookon
hisf
aceIdon'tcarereall
y
Hi
m:"
sowher
ear
etheki
ds?
"
Me:"
noneofy
ourbusi
ness.
..
.I'
l
lbegoi
ngt
othem
now"
Hi
m:"
Lol
otheyar
emyki
dsIneedt
oseet
hem"
Me:
"whenIwanty
ouseet
hem sopl
ease"
Hi
m:"
Lol
owhenwilly
oufor
giveme?I'
m sor
ryokayI
di
dsomet
hingmessyandi
tendedup.
..
."
Me: '
wit
hy ourgi
rl
fri
endbar
renLwandleandwhat
aboutyou?Yougett owalkawayscootfr
eelikeyou
didn'
tcheatonme.Whatdoy ouhavetoshowf or
yourinfi
deli
ty?Yourwif
eandkidsarej
ustfi
neand
yourwifecanhav emorekidsbutwhatdoyouhav e
toshowf oryouinfi
del
it
ytoyourwif
e"
Him:"
Idon'
tknowwhatIshoul
ddonowIdon'
t
know..
..
"
Me:"
I'
mtaki
ngtheki
dstomypar
ent
shousef
ora
l
it
tl
ewhil
eIneedtobeaway
"
Hi
m:"r
eal
ly
?Youar
eleav
ingme?Whatdoy
ouwant
f
rom me?I.
..
"
Me:
"adi
vor
ce!That
'
swhatIwantadi
vor
ce"
Hi
m:"
that
'sbul
l
shi
tandy
ouknowi
t"
Me:"
uhuhbull
shiti
sthaty
ourmistr
essi
slayi
ngi n
t
herebar
renbutyouareherewi
thmeunscratched.I
wantadi
vorceandI'
m ser
ioust
histi
mearound"
Het
ri
edt
ohol
dmebutImov
edback
Me:
"t
hanksf
ort
hechangeofcl
othes"
Hepul
l
edmebackandj
ustpi
ckedmeuppl
aci
ngme
ont
hebed.
Hi
m:"
thi
nkaboutt
hisLol
oandt
hinkt
hist
hrough"
Me: "
beli
evemeIt houghtitthr
oughthemomentI
hadapani catt
ackal mostlosingmybaby
.Sodon'
t
thinkforonceIdon'twantthisIwantt
obeaway
from youandyouawayf r
om me"
Ipushedhim offandjumpedofft
hebedItookmy
stuf
fandt ookmyst uf
fwit
hLwandler
ightbehi
nd
meIdon' tcar
erightnowI'
m scar
edofhim mor
e
thanbeforeIknowhe'dneverhur
tmebutIcan'
tri
sk
i
twhenwegott otheparki
nglot
Me:
"her
eyougo"
Hel
ookedatmeandatmyhandshol
dinghi
scar
ds
Me:
"Idon'
tneedt
hem canIhav
emycar
dsback?
"
Him:
"Lol
o?Iwi
l
l notl
etmykidsst
arv
ecauseofy
ou
andyouknowyouneedthosecar
ds"
Me:"Idon'
tneedthem I
'
llgobacktowor
kandnotat
yourlawfi
rm butsomewhereelse"
Hi
m:"
andwherewil
lyouli
ve?Don'
tmesswit
h
me,
whataboutt
hebouti
que?Who'l
ll
ookaf
teri
t?"
Me:
"Iwi
l
l orI
'
llr
enti
toutbutIdon'
tneedy
ourcar
ds
sot
akethem"
Hi
m:"mxm dri
vewher
eyouar
ekeepi
ngmyki
dsI
wannaseethem"
Me:
"j
ustt
akey
ourdamncar
ds"
Heshookhi sheadandj ustjumpedintohiscarGod
whydidImar ryanar r
ogantman butany wayIgot
i
ntomycaranddr ovet oAmber '
shousehewasr ight
behi
ndmebutIdon' tcar eI'
m seri
ousrightnowhe' ll
havetosignthosedi vorcepaperswhetherhel ikesit
ornotwhenwear ri
vedatt hehousewel lRyanand
Amber'scarswer ethereLor dIhopeIdidn't
i
nconveniencethem.Idr ov
ei nandLwandlewas
ri
ghtbesi
desme.Wewenti nsideandfoundt hem
pl
ayinghappyf amil
ies
Me:
'
ohwowmyki
dsf
orgotme"
Theyl
ookedupandr
ant
ome
Lsg:
"mama"
Me:
"hel
l
obaby
.Mor
ningguy
s"
Ry
an:
"heyy
ouknowwewer
ewor
ri
edsi
ckabouty
ou"
Me:"
I'
m sorr
yIjustbecameapati
entunexpect
edly
butI
'
mf ine.
..Phi
laai
n'ty
ougoi
ngtogreetme? "
Shestar
tedcr
ying Igotonmykneesandpul
l
ed
hert
owardsme.
Me:"
babymommyissorr
yI'
mr eal
l
ysor
ry.UmhI
'
d
nev
erleav
eyouwi
l
li
nglyokay
?"
Phi
l
a:"
youl
eft
"
Me:"mamawassickthat
'
sal
lbutI'
mf i
nenow,I
'
m not
goingany
whereokay
?Iwon'
tleav
ey ouguysPhil
a
tr
ustmeokay?"
Shenodr ubbi
ngherey
es Ikissedherf
oreheadand
j
ustpull
edherint
oabonecrushinghugIpull
edin
Lesegotoo
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouguy
ssomuchy
ouhear
?"
Igotanmmhf r
om t
hem andtheybr
oket
hehugs
anditbegi
nst
hest
oryt
elli
ng
Me:
"guy
sgr
eetdaddyf
ir
stpl
ease"
Theyr
anawayf
rom meandwentbehi
ndmeIsi
ghed
andgotup
Me:
"guy
sthanky
ouf
orl
ooki
ngaf
tert
hem f
orme"
Ry
an:
"l
ongasy
ouar
eokaysowhathappened?
"
Isi
ghed
Me:"
pani
cat
tackbutI
'
mfi
neact
ual
l
ywear
ebot
h
f
ine"
Amber
:"
whathappenedt
oZamo?
"
Icl
earedmyt
hroatandl
ookedatt
hef
lushed
Lwandl
e
Me:"
Idon'
tknowIj
ustfoundhert
her
esoIdon'
t
wannali
eandsayIknowaskhim"
Ryan:
"umhy
ouhungr
y?Icanwhi
pupsomet
hingf
or
you"
Me:'
uhnoguy
sI'
mleav
ingt
odayI
'
m goi
ngback
homeso"
Amber
:"
ohsoy
ouguy
sar
eokaynow?
"
Me:"f
ri
endImeanmyparentshousej
ustunt
ilt
he
div
orcegoest
hroughandIgett
hebest
accommodati
on"
Amber
:'
you'
reget
ti
ngdi
vor
ced?"
Inod
Me: "
ourmarr
iagehashitr
ockbot
tom soyeaha
divorcef
ri
end.Ineedt
obeawayfrom al
lthedr
ama
foraweekorsomet hi
ngplusImi
ssthehomelands"
Icoul
dfeel
Lwandl
est
ari
ngatmebuthedon'
tscar
e
meItookmybagandwenti
ntot
heguestr
oom wel
l
Amberwasfol
lowi
ngme
Me:
"pl
easeIwon'
tchangemymi
nd"
Amber:
"andIwannaknowhowweal
lknowy
oul
ove
hi
m sowhynow"
Me:
"causeIwantt
ot hat
'
swhy..
..Idon'
twantt
olose
mybabycauseofhisidi
oti
cst
unts"
Amber:"
he'
sthef
atherofy
ourki
dsandy
our
husband"
Isatdown
Me:"
andthatwon'
tchangeokaybutourrel
ati
onshi
p
i
stoxicandI'
mtoofragi
l
eforthatr
ightnowIhaveto
f
ocusonmyki dsandthebabyinme"
Amber
:"
soy
ouar
eleav
inghi
m?"
Inod
Me:"
sur
pri
singl
yyeshecangobackt
oherIdon'
t
car
eI'
m done"
Shepul
l
edmei
ntohug
Amber:
"sowhatt
imear
ey ouleavi
ng?Doy
ouhav
e
ti
meforlunchwi
thy
ourfr
iends?"
Me:
"yeahsur
ecal
lSt
efanwecandoi
t"
Shenodandwal kedoutleavi
ngmet ostartpackingI
hopethekidsfor
givemef ormovingthem ar ound
butaft
eraweekorsomet hi
ngwe'll
comebackf uck
thi
sIcall
edaboutLuyolomyl i
tt
lesisterImissedher
andshepickedupwi t
hherloudbabyi nthe
backgr
ound
Me:
"babymama"
Shemumbl edwhatev
erandIhear
dshuff
li
ngIguess
shewasshov i
ngthebabyt
omymom shehasa
babyboyIknowsheshouldbeinuni
ver
sit
ybuthey
whatdoIknowhuh?
Her
:"
Nonowam"
Me:
"babywam.
..Howar
eyou?
"
Her
:'
notgoodj
eezy
ournephewi
sloudshame"
Me:"
mynephewisspoi
l
tt hat
'
sal l
.Wel
lI'
m comi
ng
hometodaysogetmyroom ready"
Her:
"mmhsot
heki
dswi
l
lsl
eepwi
thy
ouand
hubby?
"
Me:"noI'
m comingaloneandt
hekidsnothubby.
..
We'regett
ingdi
vorcedbutbef
orey
out el
lthef
amily
I
'l
ltell
them mysel
f"
Her
:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Me:"
justgett
heroom readyokayI
'
llexpl
ainwhenI
gett
hereanddon'tt
ell
any one"
Her
:"
fi
neI
'
mloy
alandy
ouknowi
t"
Me:
"goodseey
oul
ater
"
IhungupandwhenIwasdonepacki ngIwentback
totheotherjustt
ofindLwandl
est
il
lthereplay
ing
wit
ht hekidsPhil
ajustr
antomesoIpi ckedherup
Me:
'wear
egoi
ngt
oseegr
andmaandgr
andpa
t
oday"
Lwandl
e:"
youar
enott
aki
ngt
hem any
wher
e"
Il
ookedathi
mishef
orr
eal
rightnow?
Me:
"don'
tdot
hisi
nfr
ontoft
heki
dsi
t'
snotni
ce"
Lwandl
e:"
wel
lyouwant
ingt
otakemyki
dsaway
fr
om meisn'
tni
ce"
Me:
"wel
lLwandl
ecanIt
akemyki
dshomewi
thme
f
oraweek?"
Lwandl
e:"
no"
Me:
'
wel
lI'
m st
il
lgoi
ngandt
heyar
ecomi
ngwi
thme.
"
Ipi
ckedmydaught erupandwej ustsatont he
couchwatchingTVwi thherbusyplay i
ngwi t
hmy
hair Idon'tknowwhatshewasdoi ngbutshewas
doingi
tanditfel
tgoodnol ieIwasev engivi
ngher
accesstomyhai rsheli
kestoactlikeI '
m herdol
l
s
Ineedtobr aidmyhai rwhenIgethomeI 'mti
redof
theseweav esandst uffsobraiditwhilegr
owingmy
hairint
hemi xI'l
levengetPhi l
abr ai
dedIknowt he
besthairdresserbackhomeandI 'l
levenaskherto
braidLesego'sgr owingdreadlocks Lwandl emade
him getthem andnowmysonl ookslikehimI'
m
evenboredoft hoset hi
ngs.
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tar guewi t
hLwandl e'sloveforhi
skidscausei t
doesn'tneedaper sontoaskar oundyoucanj ust
seethel i
feinhisey eswhenhe' swiththem butIjust
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om t hef
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l
l wantsmet ori
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mycarwi t
hourbagshedidn'
tevenspeakt ome
throughitall
he'dj
ustst
areatmeandgobackt o
playingwit
hhi ski
dshemaysayI'm notgoing
any wher
ebutwebot hcanbestubbornifthat
'swhat
hewant s.
Me:"Phi
l
a,Lesegogot akey
ourt
oyspl
easeI
'
dli
ket
o
speaktoyourfather
"
Amber
:"
I'
ll
hel
pthem comeRy
an"
Inodastheystoodupandwentwi t
ht heki
dst ot
he
room whereweresleepinginIst
oodupandj ust
helpedhi
m standup,wewal kedout
sidetowardshi
s
carandIleanedagainstit
.
Hi
m:"
so?Yousai
dyouwannat
alksol
et'
stal
k"
Me:"
Lwandlewhydoy
ouactl
i
keI
'
m doi
ngt
hist
o
hur
tyou?"
Hi
m;'
whyarey
oudoingthi
sthen?YouknowIcan'
t
st
andl
osi
ngmykidsbutyouaretaki
ngthem"
Me:'
Ican'
tgobackhomeandl
eavet
hem behi
nd,
they
needmeandIneedtobeawayfr
om t
his.
."
Hi
m:"
gobutl
eav
emyki
dsbehi
nd"
Me:"t
hat
'si
dioti
candy ouknowitt
heyaremyki ds
andI'
mtaki
ngmyki dswit
hmewher everIgoand
ther
eisnot
hingy oucandoorsaythat
'l
lmakeme
changemymi nd"
Hi
m:"
Penel
ope!
"
Me:"
noLwandl
ehauyouaresel
fi
shri
ghtnowIj
ust
wanttogowi
ththeki
dst
omyf amil
yhomehowis
t
hatabadthi
ng?"
Him:"
causeIsai
dno,y
ouar
enotgoingany
where
wit
hmyki dsandyouasmyWIFEyouarenotgoi
ng
anywhere"
Me:'
thankGodIwon'tbeyourwi
feforl
ongar
gh,i
f
youdon'tcheatonmeyouarecont
roll
i
ngme.I'
m
t
iredLwandle"
Hi
m:"andwhyar
eyoushout
ing?Ithoughty
ousai
d
t
alkt
ome,don'
tfor
getwhoyouaretalki
ngto"
Icl
i
ckedmyt ongueandturnedar oundtol
eavebut
hecaughtmywr i
stsoroughlyIthoughthewas
goi
ngtobreakmyar m,hepulledmet owardshi
m.
Hi
m:"
I'
m notdonet
alki
ngt
oyou"
ThemoreIwiggl
edmyhandawayt
hemor
ehe
gri
ppedoni
tandithur
t
Me:
"Lwandl
eyouar
ehur
ti
ngme.
..Lwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
youar
emaki
ngnoi
se"
Me:"
youarehur
ti
ngme...
.Jeeznowl
ookatmyhand
what'
swrongwit
hyou?
"
Hekeptqui
et
Me:
'
y ouneedtogobackt
oyourther
api
stbef
orei
t'
s
t
oolateandI'
mtaki
ngtheki
ds"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oI'
m sor
rycomeonI
'
m sor
ry"
Me:"
youar
eal
way
ssor
rysol
et'
snotgeti
ntoi
t
pl
ease"
Iki
ssedhischeekandj
ustwalkedawayfrom hi
mI
wasavoidi
ngtorubmywristdon'
twannadraw
att
enti
ontoitwhenIwal
kedinhewasr i
ghtbehind
me
Lwandl
e:"
Ijustcamet
osayby
etot
heki
dsandI
'
ll
go"
Inodandhesatdown
Me:
"ki
dscomesayby
etodaddypl
ease"
Theevi
lki
dscamer
unni
ngandat
tackedhi
m wi
th
hugs
Lwandle:"
daddyl
ovesyouguysokay
?Neverf
orget
thatIdon'
twannaloseyoudoyouhear
?"
Phi
l
a:"
Ilov
eyoudaddy
."
Heki
ssedherf
orehead
Lwandl
e:"
Ilov
eyout
oopr
incess,
Ilov
eyou"
Isowant
edtocrybutIpul
l
edmysel
ftoget
herand
l
ookedawayscr
atchi
ngmynosebri
dge
Lsg:
"daddywhat
'
swr
ong?
"
Lwandl
elookedatmeandr
ubbedhi
shead
Lwandl
e:"
not
hingki
ddojustadul
tst
uffokay
,I
'l
lsee
youwhenyougetbackokay"
Theynodandki
ssedhi
scheek
Lwandle:
"t
ell
mewheny
ougetbackokayI
'
dli
ket
o
seethem"
Me:
"soIcangowi
tht
hem?
"
Henod
Lwandl
e:"
Ican'
tst
opy
ou"
HeknowsIwoul dn'
tgowit
houthi
sper
missi
onso
yeahhewantedtokissmebutImovedawayandhe
clear
edhi
sthroatst
andi
ngup
Lwandl
e:"
tr
avel
saf
ely
"
InodandjustpickedupPhi l
aLordknowst hesekids
growupveryfastandt heyareheavyIwalkedhim
outandhekissedPhila'scheekandcrot
cheddown
toki
ssLesego
Lwandl
e:"
bye"
Me:
"by
e"
Icl
osedt
hedoorandy
eahLesegobeganact
ingup
Me:
"babypl
easedaddywi
l
lbebackIpr
omi
sej
ust
.."
Lesego:
"Iwantdaddy
..
..Wantdaddy
"
Me:
"GodLesegost
opi
t,
stopi
tpl
ease"
Hedidn'
tevenwanttogetupbusyscreaminghis
l
ungsoutandPhilahatesi
tshemightjustst
art
cr
yingher
selfsoIputherdownandshewal kedto
AmberandIpi
ckedupLesego
Me:"
it
'sokayIpr
omise,we'
l
lseedaddysoonokay
?
Pl
easestopcryi
ngLesegoI
'm beggi
ngyou"
Ibegant
ryi
ngtohushhi
m andmybabywashavi
ng
noneoft
hatIevenhadt
ogooutsi
dewithhim
hummingforhi
m Iwasget
ti
ngemoti
onal.
Me:'
I
'm sor
rybabypl
ease,
IknowIshoul
dn'
tdot
his
butI
'
m doingthi
sforusIpr
omise"
ThemomenthekeptquietwasthemomentIfelta
sighofr
eli
efescapemybodybutIcont
inuedt
ryi
ng
toputhi
mt osleepnowi
t'
ll
bemuchbet ter
.
.
Itwasal r
eady6pm andIwasseeingt hesignst hat
I'
m aboutt oreachhomenowIdrovebyKFCand
orderedmy selfsomefoodIwasstarvingandt he
kidsaresleeping Lor dknowsIhadt roublewith
them eversincetheysawLwandleit
'sliketodayt hey
couldsmel lt
hatsomethingwaswrongmyphone
rangandi twasLwandle Ianswer edbusy
munchi ngawaymi ndyouIwasstil
li
nHazy viewlong
wayf
rom home.
Me:
"Lwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
wear
enotdi
vor
cedy
etshowsomer
espect
"
Me:
"pl
easedon'
tst
art
"
Him:
"j
ustcont
inuedr
ivi
ngy
ou'
l
lst
opwheny
ouget
home"
Me:"
I'
m..
.waitwhotol
dyouIwasst
oppi
ng?Ar
eyou
hav
ingmef oll
owed?"
Hi
m:'
justdr
ivei
t'
slat
e,I
'
m wai
ti
ngt
oseey
ou
movi
ng"
Me:
"ar
ghI
'
m st
il
leat
ing"
Hi
m:'
Isai
dmov
enow"
Istart
eddr i
vi
ngandhehungupIhat ehimr i
ght
nowany wayIjustdrovehomet hissideeatinghe'l
l
havetof orgiv
emebutI '
m hungr yandl ucki
lythere
wasnor oadblockIar r
ivedatBBRar ound19:30soI
gothomear ound20:00Igot t
adr ivecar ef
ull
yI'm
car
r y
ingpr eci
ouscar goIdon'tevenknowwhy
Lwandl ehasmef ol
l
owedorwhat everhehasonmy
carbutIcan'
tremovei
torhe'
ll
kill
meIdr ov
eint
o
theyar
dI'm guessi
ngt
heyl
eftthegat
eopencauseI
wascomi ngwhoknowsandLuy ol
ohurr
iedout
Me:
"goodcar
ryt
heki
dsi
nsi
depl
ease"
Her
:"
goodev
eni
ngt
oyout
oo.
..Ar
ethesl
eepi
ng?
"
Me:
"yeahdon'
twaket
hem uppl
ease"
Her
:"
mmhIseey
ouar
eexpect
ingagai
n"

Me:"
don'
tst
artpl
easeI
'm ev
ent
ir
edIdon'
tknow
howIevenl
etthi
shappen"
Her
:"
hedi
ckf
iedy
oushame.
..
let
'sgo"
Wewalkedinandmypar
ent
swer
ejustl
azi
ng
ar
oundwatchi
ngTV
Me:
"hel
l
ofami
l
y"
Ma:
"Nonohowar
eyou?
"
Me:
"I
'm goodma,
hel
l
opa"
Pa:
"hel
l
oPenel
ope.
..
.It
'sni
cet
oseey
ou"
Me:
"yourf
acesay
sot
her
wisesot
ell
mewhat
's
wr
ong?
"
Ma:
"goputt
heki
dsandy
ourbagdownpl
ease"
Inodandy
eahIwentt
oputmyki
dsandourbags
down
Me:
whatdi
dyout
ell
them Luy
olo?
"
Sheshr
ugandwentawayf
rom me.
Me:"
Luy
olohowcouldyou?It
oldyounott
otel
l
any
onedidn'
tI?Nowlookatt
his"
Ipushedherawayandwenti
ntot
hel
i
vingr
oom wi
th
herri
ghtbehi
ndme
Luy
olo:
"what
'
sthebi
gdeal
?Youar
egoi
ngt
odoi
t
any
way"
Me:
"st
il
lnoty
ourplacetotel
lhauthisi
smymar r
iage
we'
ret
alki
ngabouthere,
notyourstupi
dboy
fri
ends"
Luyolo:
"f
inesor
rybutt
heyaskedwhyt
hesudden
i
nteresttocomehome"
Me:"
soIonlycomehomewhent
her
eisapr
obl
em?
Jeezthi
sfamil
ythough"
"
Stopi
tbot
hofy
ou.
..Nonoseatdown"
Me:
'
I'
m nev
erconf
idi
ngi
nyouagai
nLuy
olo.
..
"
IsatdownandyeahLwandl
ecal
led Iquickl
y
answeredIknowhewantst
oknowifI
'
m home.
Me:
'
I'
m homenow"
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou?Wher
ear
etheki
ds?
"
Me:
"t
heyaresl
eepingandI'
mfinecany
oucal
li
nthe
mor
ningyou'
l
ltal
kwiththeki
ds"
Hi
m:"
Iwantt
otal
kyou"
Me:"
wellI
'
m sti
l
ltal
kingwi
thmyf
ami
l
yI'
l
lcal
lyou
whenI'
m donebye"
Ihungupandputt
hephoneonsi
l
entcausey
eahhe
wassti
ll
call
i
ng.
Me:
"askanyquest
ionsy
ouhav
e"
Ma:
"whyadi
vor
cePenel
ope?
"
Me:"mamahecheat edonmef ormonthsandIwas
twoweekspr egnant
.Iknowwedidn'
tknowIwas
pregnantbuthesti
ll
cheatedonme"
Papa:
"t
her
eissomet
hingcal
l
edseat
ingdownand
tal
ki
ng"
Me:
"andwhat
?Whathappenspapa?Hesai
ditwasa
mi
stake.
..
"
Ma:
"itwasami
stake"
Me:"
arghami stakei soncenotoverandov eragai
n
fort
hreemont hssonoI '
m goi
ngtodivorcehim ma
andtherei
snot hingy '
al
lcansayI'
mt i
redof
sweepingever
y thingunderthecar
pet.
"
Ma:"
andwho'lll
ookaft
eryou?Penelopeweallknow
youleadanexpensi
veli
fest
ylechi
l
dev ersi
nceyou
wereachil
dso...
"
Me:"
IhavemydegreesandIhaveexperi
encemama
IcangobacktocourtandIhav
ebeengetti
ngoff
ers
soI'
mfinei
fthat
'swhatyouareworr
iedabout
"
[
Babycr
ies]
Phil
aappear
edbusycry
ingherl
ungsoutmypoor
babyshe'
snotusedt
otheroom
Me:
"comebabymommyi
sher
e..
.Phi
l
a"
Shestumbl
edtomylapandjustthr
ewherself
ther
e soIpickedherupandkissedhercheek.
Me:
"i
t'
sokaynowy
oucanst
opcr
ying.
"
Ir
ockedherbackandf
ort
h
Ma:"
soyouWanty
ourchi
l
dtogr
owupwi
thoutt
hei
r
f
ather
?"
Me:"
he'
snotdeadmamahe'
sal
i
ve,
they
'l
lseehi
m
whenev
erhe'
sfree"
Papa:
"what
'
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
"
Me:"nothingpapaI'mtir
edokay,ifyouhavebeenhi
s
wif
ef oralltheseyear
slikeIhav
et henyou'
d
understand,butpl
easeIbegofy oudon'tt
ryt
o
changemymi nd"
GuysPhil
aiscr
azyshej
ustwokeupt
osleepi
nmy
armscauseshewasbusysnor
ing Il
ovemykids
shamenolie
Luy
olo:
"l
etmet
akeher
"
Me:
'
shewi
l
lwakeupi
t'
sfi
neI
'
mti
redany
way
"
Papa:
"Penel
opedon'
tdi
sappoi
ntmepl
ease"
Me:"
all
Iwantri
ghtnowistohaveabreat
herandj
ust
enj
oyaweekofpeacepleaseI'
l
lseewhattodowi
th
mymar r
iagewhenIgoback"
Mama:
"f
ine,
sohowi
sthebaby
?"
Me:
"f
ineact
ual
l
ywe'
rebot
hfi
ne"
Theynod can'twai
ttoshoutatmeIknowbutif
theydar
ecal
lLwandl
etocomeherethenI'
m goi
ng
torunaway
Me:
"I
'dl
i
ket
ogot
obednowsogoodni
ght
"
Them:
"ni
ght
"

Islowlyst
oodupwi thmydaught erandwentt o
sleepshewast iredandinanunf ami li
arhouseso
that'
swhyshe'sact i
ngupGodt hisweekai n'tgoing
howIwanti ttogobutwe' llseetomor rowwi llbe
muchbet terI
'm sureorIhopeany wayIchangedi nt
o
myPJsandal sochangedt hekidswhi letheyar e
sleepi
ngiftheysleepwiththeircl
ot hesonI '
llbethe
onehav i
ngapr oblem dur
ingt henightsot hey'l
l
forgi
veme ‍♀.
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11/
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☆
Iwokeupandt heki dswerest il
lsleeping Iwi shI
couldsl eepli
ket hatLordknowsi di
dn'tsleeplast
nightitwast hem cr yi
ngtheirlungsouti t
'sli
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rheal t
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l
ookatt hem nowt heyaresleepingandIf eelli
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anduggboot sIt ookmyphoneandwal kedout
peoplear estil
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si swhatI
l
ikedoi ngbutmymom wi l
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ngi t'
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m not
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thi
sstupidweaveisscrat
chingbutathomeIhav e
every
thingIneedatthesnapofmyf i
nger.Iwassti
ll
enjoy
ingmydownt i
mewhenmyphoner angandit
's
Lwandl ebutsoear
lynkosiyam Idi dn'
twantto
answerbuty ohhe'
l
lbecall
ingandsoonhe' l
lbe
knockingdownmydoor he' scr
azythisone.
Me:
"Sokhul
u"
Hi
m:"
good.
..
.howar
eyouar
ethi
smor
ning"
Me:
"I
'mf
ineandy
ou"
Hi
m: "
I'
m notf
ineIwokeupandmywi
fewasn'
t
t
here"
Me:
"t
hat
'sanor
mfory
ounowsot
rysomet
hingel
se"
Hi
m:"
mxm howar
etheki
ds?Wher
ear
ethey
?"
Me:
"st
il
lsl
eepi
ngt
heydi
dn'
tsl
eepl
astni
ght
.Lesego
wasademon"
Him:"
theyneedtobeinthei
rownhomeLoloyou'
ve
beenmov i
ngthem ar
oundit'
senoughnow"
Me:"
Lwandl
ecomeandtakeyourki
dst
henjeezI'
m
t
ir
edreal
ly
,ifi
t'
snott
hem i
t'
syouandi
fit
'snoty
ou
i
t'
syourdodgydeal
ingscomi
ngbackt
ohauntme
noty
oubutme.I'M TI
RED"
Hi
m: "
seet hi
siswhyIhav
ebeensay
inggot
oseea
t
herapistall
along"
Me:"
howwil
lthathel
p?Wil
lmyhusbandbeabett
er
manornothavesomeweirdguyst
ryi
ngtoki
l
lus?
Don'
ttel
lmeaboutther
apyasembl
i
ef"
Him:"
sothenwhat?Youarej
ustgoingt
ostay
coopedupatDwarsl
oop?Wil
lyoujustl
etour
weddinggowit
houtfi
ght
ingf
orit?
"
Me:"
whyme?WhyshouldIf
ightf
ori
tandnoty
ou?
Yourui
nedourmar
ri
agesoyoufi
ghtf
ori
t"
Hi
m:"
howwheny
ouar
ether
eandI
'
m her
e?"
Me:"you'
reamanofmanytalent
sdosomethi
ngbut
don'tthi
nkwhenIcomebackI'
ll
becomingbackt
o
thathouseI'
m not
"
Hi
m:"butbabypl
easeyouknowIl
ovey
ou,
Imadea
mi
stakebutjust
..
.."
Me:
"hol
don.
..
"
Iwenttoopenthegatef
orsomeoldwomanwho
wasstandi
ngtheresoearl
yJehov
ah
Lwandl
e:"
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:
"j
ustwai
tpl
easey
ouhav
etonsofai
rt
ime.
..
.
Dumel
ama!"
Gogo:
"dumel
aPenel
opei
syourmot
herhome?
"
Duhi
t'
sst
il
lear
ly
Me:
"yescomeI
'
llgocal
lherf
ory
ou"
Icl
osedthegateandwalkedi nt
othehouseandI
cal
ledmymot herwell
Lwandl ehadlonghungup I
wentbacktomysunbaski ngwel l
mymom came
outwit
hherfr
iend andt heysatatt hev
erandaand
Lwandl
ecall
s t hi
soldwomanl i
kestogossipyou
knowbutIansweredbett
erIhav ehergossi
ping
aboutmethanLwandleher eshouti
ngatme.
Hi
m:"
ain'
tyoudone?
"
Me:
"ai
n'
tyougoi
ngt
owor
k?"
Hi
m:"don'
tdothatBushbuckr
idgei
snoti
nanot
her
pl
anetyezwa"
Me:
"but
..
..
..
..
mxm f
orgeti
tlet
'
stal
k"
Hi
m:"
sowhatwer
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:
"Iwascal
l
ingmymom herf
ri
endcamet
ovi
si
t"
Hi
m:'
okaybabey
ousoundsodownar
eyousi
ck?
"
Me:"
uhuhI'
mj ustti
redLwandle,
Ijustdon'
tknow
whattodoandIdidn'tsl
eepatal
llastni
ght"
Hi
m:"
thencomehome,
I
'm her
eI'
l
ltakecar
eofy
ou"
Me:
"Ican'
tnoty
etandy
ouknowi
tsodon'
t"
Hi
m:"why
?Il
ovey
ouandy
oul
ovemewecanf
ix
t
his"
Me:'
probl
em i
syoumessupandwantmetof
ixi
t
andI'
m nothavi
ngi
tIj
ustneedabr
eat
her
"
Hi
m: "
how?Youar
enotsl
eepi
ngsohowwi
l
lyoudo
i
t?"
Me:"
Lwandl
enotnowpl
easeIwi
l
lcomebackhome
whenIf
eell
ikecomi
ngback"
Hi
m:"
andt
heki
ds?Ineedt
oseet
hem"
Me:
"youcancomef
etcht
hem Idon'
tcar
eI'
mjust
t
ir
edSokhul
u"
Him:"
Malist
enusfighti
ngisjustaphasewecando
thi
sIknowitwearestrongertoget
herandy
ouknow
Ineedtobecloset
oy ou"
Isi
ghed
Me:'
sameheretoobutIneedspacej
ustt
oprocess
t
hingspl
ease.Igot
tagoyourdaught
eri
scry
ing"
Hi
m:'
canIt
alkt
oher
?"
Me:"
I'
ll
facet
imeyousoonshe'
l
lbeeat
ingmyphone
andyouknowit
"
Hi
m:"
okayIl
ovey
ou"
Me:
"mmhby
e"
Ihungupandj ustst
oodupcausePhi l
awasreall
y
cryi
ng Iwentt ofi
ndherbusyroamingthel
ivi
ng
room sear
chingformeIjustscoopedherupand
wipedhertearsaway.
Me:
"goodmor
ningpr
incess"
Sheclungontomeandsobbedsof
tl
y soIj
ust
rubbedherback.
Me:
"sowannagot
otownwi
thmommy
?"
Phi
l
a:"
Iwantdaddy
"

Me:
'
he'
snotherePhi
l
arightnowit'
syouand
mommyokay.Ipr
omiseyou'
llseehi
m soon"
Phi
l
a:"
Iwannagohome"
Me:"
enoughnow!Isai
dhe'
snother
eandhe'
snot
her
e"
Ihatemakingmychi l
dcrybutshehast ol
ear
nto
hearthewor dnobutshestart
edwi ggl
ingi
nmy
armsIjustputherdownIcan'thaveherkicki
ngmy
stomachandmaki ngmel osemybaby wel lt
he
dramaQueenj ustl
aidonthefloorcryi
ngli
ke
someonehi ther
Me:"
Phi
lasandei
t'
senoughnowst
opt
hisbehav
iorof
your
s"
Shewentonl
ouder
Me:"ar
ghdoasyoupleaseI
'
mtir
edofy
ouSokhul
u
peopleIsai
dnoandImeanno"
Il
efthert
hereandwentint
omyr oom wellLesego
wasbusytry
ingtogetoutofbedsoIhelpedhim
Me:
"mor
ningbaby
"
Lsg:
"mama"
Me:
"youhungr
ybaby
?"
Heshookhi
sheadandj
ustwal
kedaway
Me:"wowj
ustgr
eatt
heSokhul
ugenesar
enow
act
ingup"
Il
aiddownonthebedbutmymom wal
kedi
n
hol
dingPhi
l
ainhand
Mom:"what
'
swr ongwi
thy
ou?Howcany
ouj
ustl
et
hercr
yli
kethi
s?"
Me:"
ahhshewant
stocr
yandIdi
dn'
tst
opherI
'
m not
abadperson"
Mom:
"she'
sjustachi
l
dNonohau"
Me:"
I'
mtir
edI'
dli
ketosleepifshewant
stocr
yfor
Lwandl
ethenl
ethershe'
llcal
m down"
Mom:"Idon'
tl
ikewhaty
ouaredoingreal
l
yyoucan'
t
puni
shthechil
drenf
oryourmi
stakes"
Me:
"I
'm notdoi
ngt
hatandyouknowitmaPhil
ali
kes
t
oactupandnowshe'sdemandingf
orherFat
her
"
Mom:
"t
hengi
veher
"

Me:"Idon'
thav
ehiminmypursenowdoI?I
fIdidI
'd
havethrownhi
m outoft
hecarandcamewi
thout
hi
m"
Mom:
"t
hisi
snotr
ightNonoi
t'
snotatal
l
"
Me:"canyoumakefoodforLesegohe'
shungr
y.I
'm
seri
ouslyt
obedeali
ngwiththeSokhul
upri
ncess
ri
ghtnow,Idi
dn'
tsl
eeplastni
ght"
Shej
ustst
aredatme don'tl
ect
uremepl
easeI
'
m
noti
nthemoodrightnow
Mom: "
Nonoy ouasthei
rmothershoul
dmakesure
yourhouseisstabl
etheki
dscansenseitt
hat
'swhy
t
heyarelikethi
s"
Me:"mareal
ly?SoIshoul
djustsmil
eandbet hewif
e
af
terhecheatsonme?Ineedsomet i
meaway
mamaI '
mt i
redofthefi
ght
ingbutIseeIcamet ot
he
wrongpl
ace I '
l
lleav
ewhenIwakeupdon' tworr
y"
Mom:'
not
hat
'snotwhatImeanI
'mjustsayi
ngasa
womanwehavetohol
dtheshar
pendoft hebl
ade"
Me:'
I'
dratherbeamanthantobecutoverandov
er
agai
njustbecauseI
'
m awoman.Igavehim
ever
ythi
ngbuthesti
lldi
ditnowIj
ustneedtohav
e
somet i
meout "
Mom:
"soy
ou'
l
lnotdi
vor
cehi
m?"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow"
Shesighedandjustwal
kedoutIwasl
eftt
ogeti
nto
myblanketsandgotolal
alandLor
dknowsI'
m
ti
red.
..
.
.
IgotwokenupbyaPeckont helipsandthe
cheek whot hehel
lthoughIjustpushedthe
personawayjustt
ogetaf eelofthei
rskin wt f
?!?I
quickl
yjumpedupandhi thi
m withthepil
low.
Me:
"whatt
hehel
l
?Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Hesmi
l
ed
Hi
m:"
Icamet
ofet
chmywi
feandki
ds.
..
.Icoul
dn'
t
l
ety
ousuf
fer
"
Me:
'
Lwandl
e?Whocal
l
edy
ouher
e?"
Him:
"heari
ngmywi
fesadj
ustgotmeont
heedgeI
can'
thavethat
"

Me:
"goI
'
m notsadandy
ouar
edi
stur
bingmysl
eep"
Hi
m:"
I'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
ewi
thouty
ou"
Me:"
Lwandl
eIsaidIwanttobeawayfr
om youf
ora
weekact
ual
lyIneedyear
sawayfrom y
ou"
Hegotont
hebedwi
thhi
sshoesonhel
lhowdi
dhe
gether
e
Me:"gety
ourf
eetofmybedpl
ease..
.Howdi
dyou
gethere?
"
Him:
"Iusedt
hecompanyj
et,
comegetupandl
et'
s
go"
Me:"
don'
tyougeti
t?I
'
m notgoi
ngwi
thy
ouf
ort
he
l
astti
me"
Hi
m:"
lucki
l
yI'
m notaski
ngy
ousogetup"
Ilookedawayhej
ustt
urnedmearoundandgoton
topofmekissi
ngmyneckbutIpushedhi
m off
Me:
"I
'm ser
iousl
ynoti
nthemoodr
ightnow"
Hi
m:"
wel
lIam"
Me:"
whydon'
tyoupicksomeoneelsef
rom t
he
of
fi
ce?Youaregoodatthatai
n'
tyou?"
Hi
m:"f
orthel
oveofGodI'm sor
ryhowmanyt
imes
mustIsayt
hat?Whatshoul
dIdo? "
Me:"
whatdoyouwannado?Fol
l
owmear
oundl
i
keI
am adogonheat
?"
Igotofft
hebedandsodi
dhe It
houghthe
wantedtosl
eep.
Hi
m:"whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo?St
il
lwannadi
vor
ce
me?"
Me:"
Isai
dIneedspacemeani
ngIneedti
metot hi
nk
butyoudon'
tpl
anongiv
ingmethatany
timesoon"
Hi
m:"so?CauseIdon'
twantt
ogi
vey
ouspacey
ou
wannaleav
eme? "
Me:
"Lwandl
e?Whati
sitdon'
tyouget
?Ineedsome
t
imet
opr
ocesst
haty
oucheat
edonme.
"
Him:"
youcandot hati
nJo'bur
gf i
neIwil
lgi
vey ou
yourownhousefortheti
mebei ngyou'
l
lli
vethere
butyou'
l
lbeclosetomeandt heresour
ces"
Me:"
whatr
esour
ces?Youmeany
oucanguar
dme?
Cont
rol
mymov ements?
"
Him:
"don'tstar
tI'
m doingt hi
sformykidsand
you,
thi
sisnoty ouLoloy ou'v
eneverl
ettheki
dscr
y
andjustsleepthr
oughi t
"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tsl
eepthrought
heki
dscr
yingLwandl
e
t
heyarefi
necan'
tyouhear
"
Hi
m:"
CauseIputt
hem t
osl
eep"
Me:
"goodt
henyouputy
ourkidst
osl
eepwanta
medal
?Idon'
thav
emedals"
Hi
m:"
Lol
oshutup"
Me:"noyoucan'
tjustcomehereandt
ellmet oshut
up.Iam theoneeveryoneisbl
ami
ngforyourmess
notminebutyourmess. "
Hi
m:"
and?
"
Me:"ohther
eheist
hecockyLwandlewhothinks
everyt
hingi
sfi
newell
it'
snot
,I'
m hur
t,
I'
m br
okenall
becauseofyou"
Hi
m:"
andI
'
m sor
ryai
n'
tI?Wecanwor
kont
his.
.."
Me:"work?Wor
konwhat?YoumeanI
'
llwor
kalone
whil
ey oucomehomet
oasmi l
i
ngwif
ewho'l
lboost
yourego?"
Hecl
enchedhi
sfi
sts andl
ookedaway
Hi
m:"
yourmywi
feandIneedmywi
fecl
oset
ome.
"
Me:
"f
orwhat
?Decor
ati
on?"
Hi
m:"
whydoyouactl
ikeIdi
dn'
tlov
eyou,
l
ikeIdon'
t
l
ovey
ouwhenyouknowIloveyouwit
hal
l ofme"
Me:
"pr
ovei
t"
Hi
m:"
how?Whatdoy
ouwantmet
odo?
"
Me:"
signthoseconsentf
ormsandl
etmel
eav
e
Sout
hAf r
ica"
Hi
m:"
that
'sbul
l
shi
tyouai
n'
tgoi
ngany
wher
e"
Me:
'
thenscr
ewy
ou"
Hi
m:"
Lol
o!!
"
Me:'
No!Screwyouandyourst
upidrul
esLwandleI
j
ustwantedtogoandhavefunbutasalway
sy ou
ar
ethere.Fi
neI'
l
lgowit
houtyourki
ds"
Hechuckl
ed
Him:"
aslongasy ouar
ePenelopeSokhul
uyouar
e
notgoingtoleav
ethecount
rywithoutmy
permissi
on."
Me:
"IhateyouLwandl
e..
.Youar
enott
hemanIf
ell
in
l
ovewithIhatey
ou"
Him:
"youar
epushi
ngmePenel
ope,
nowgety
our
damnbagsandlet
'
sgo"
Me:
"I
'm notgoi
ngany
wher
ewi
thy
ou,
feel
freet
ogo"
Hepull
edmebackandjustgavemeagr uesome
sl
ap I '
dbelyi
ngi
fIsaidIwasamazedcauseI '
m
notandtwomoref
oll
owedmyear swerejust
scr
eamingmaki
ngthoseweir
dambulancesigns.
Him:
"you'
l
ltakeyoufucki
ngbagsandpackthem i
f
youhaveunpackedandifnotchangeandl
et'
sgo
home"
Iwasst
ari
ngathi
m wi
tht
ear
sst
reami
ngdownmy
face
Hi
m:"di
dyouhearme?Isai
dtakey
ourbagsandl
et'
s
gonow"
Me:
"getoutnow"
Hi
m:'
Lol
o?Lol
odon'
tmesswi
thme"
Me:
"Go!
!GetoutLwandl
e"
Iscr
eamingmyl
ungsoutwhenTumelomytwi
n
brot
herbar
gedi
n whendi dhegether
e?
Tumelo:
"what
'sgoi
ngonher
e?Icoul
dheary
ouf
rom
thedr
iveway"
Me:
"askhi
mtogoIdon'
twantt
oseehi
m"
Lwandl
e:"Lol
oy ourf
amilydoesn'tscareme
under
stand?Iwanty ouinthatcarinfi
veminut
es
for
getchangingnorbathingwe'r
el eav
ingnow"
HepushedTumel
oasi
deandwal
kedoutLor
dhav
e
mer
cy
Tumel
o:"
what
'swr
ong?Whyi
shesosour
?"
Me:
'
Ihat
ethedayy
ourpar
ent
smar
ri
edmeof
fto
t
hatmanIswearnxa"
Tumel
o:"
isheabusi
ngy
ouagai
n?"
Me:
"whatdoy
oumeanagai
n?"
Tumel
o:"
Iknowabouthim beat
ingy
ouupwheny
ou
gotmar
ri
edofft
ohimt hefir
stti
me"
Me:"hey
!!Listentomeyoubettershutupaboutthat
fort
hegr eatergoodoft
hisfamil
yandy ourgi
rl
fr
iend
underst
and?Pl easel
eaveI'
dli
ketochange"
Tumel
o:"
soy
ouar
erunni
ngaf
terhi
m?Nono.
..
."
Me:"
I'
m pr
egnantTumeloandIdon'
twantt
olosemy
chi
l
dnotagainsopleaseI
'dl
iket
ochange"
Tumelo:
"well
thenIthoughtwe'
dhangoutbutI
guessnot,
soby e"
Inodandhewal kedoutIchangedintomyjumpsuit
anduggboots i didn'
tevenhavebreakf
astItook
thebagsandjustwheeledmy sel
foutseeItol
dy ou
thatol
dwomanl ikestogossipcausesheandher
fri
endswher
eher eagain Lwandl ecamet otake
thebagsandloadt hem onthecar
.
Me:
"by
eby
emat
hanksf
orcal
l
inghi
m"
Shewasaboutt
ospeakbutIst
oppedher
Me:
"don'
tyoushoul
dhavet
oldmey
oudon'
twant
meinyourhomenottodot
his"
Lwandl
e:"
Lol
ogeti
nthecarwehav
etogo"

Me:
"can'
tIsaygoodby
etomyr
elat
ives?
"
Idraggedmypregnantasstothecarandjustt
hrew
my sel
fint
hepassengerseatandbuckl
edupIdon't
evenwanttoenter
tai
nthejunior
sattheback.
Lwandl
e:"
arey
ouhungr
y?"
Me:
"whydon'
tyoujustki
l
lme?Justki
l
lmeandt
ake
meoutofmymi ser
y "
Hejustshr
uganddr
oveoutbusywav
ingatmymom
Idar
ehimt ocr
ashmycarhe'
l
lknowmewell.
Him:"
we'
ll
ordery
ousomepi
zzaIknowy
ouar
e
hungr
y"
Wewenttot
hemal
landheboughtmeaBurgerand
chi
pswi
thsomepi
zza whatam Ieat
ingf
oran
armyany wayIgavet
heki
dsthechi
psandIhadthe
burgerandpizzawhi
chIf
ini
shedi
t'
sforonesoi
t'
s
smallkil
lme .
[
11/
2,21:
39]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 55♡
Kot
any
ana #goodni
ght
snack
.
ċօռt
ɨռ at
ɨօռ☆
.
ք ռ օք ♡
.
Theentir
edr ivewasmebei ngqui t
eandi gnor
ing
Lwandleandt hekidswellwear ri
vedatJo'burg
around5pm andi twasadi f
ferenthousewel lmore
subtl
ethant her estl
ikethestair
sstartatthe
dri
vewayupt othef r
ontdoorandi twasr eal
ly
beauti
fulsurroundedbypl antshegav emet hekeys
andIdidn'tevenwai tforhimtosayany thingIjust
gotoutandwal kedawaywi thPhilabusycalli
ngmy
namebutIdon'
tcar
eIj
ustwal
kedaway
.
Lwandle:
"Lol
o!?Can'
tyouhearshe'
scal
l
ingy
ou?
Takethekids"
Ijustwal kedawayf uckhi m hecanki llmeifhe
want sIopenedt hedoorandwal kedintothe
beaut i
fulhousei twasj ustsimpl eandsmel tnewso
thef ur
ni t
ureisnewandt helivi
ngr oom,ki
tchenand
diningroom wer eal lconnect edseei t
'ssi
mpl eIjust
threwmy selfont hecouchandcov eredmy sel
fwi th
thef l
eecebl anketcr awledupont hecouchIguess
cryingsi l
entl
ywhenLwandl ewal kedinwithhis'kids'
Ijustwi pedmyt ear sawayandl ookedaway .
Lwandl
e:"guy
sgoupst
air
sandlookf
oryourr
oom
okay
?I'
llbuyyouI
cecr
eam whenyoufi
ndit
..
.Hur
ry"
Heplacedthem downandIcouldjustheart
hem r
un
andhim seatnearmehetr
iedtotouchmebutI
movedaway
Hi
m:"
Lol
o?Tal
ktomebabypl
ease"
Ij
ustl
ookedathi
mishef
orr
eal
rightnow?Hej
ust
..
.
Wow
Me:
"t
hanky
ouf
ort
hishouse"
Hi
m:"
okaysowhat
'
swr
ong?Whyar
eyoucr
ying?
"
Me:'
Lwandl
e?Lookatmemycheeksar
eswol
l
en
andyouaskwhat'
swrong?
"
Hi
m:"
I'
m..
.Lol
oI'
m sor
ryIj
ustl
ostcont
rol
andI
..
."
Me:"
youhitmenothi
ngelseyouhitmeLwandle.You
hi
tmeforwant i
ngspacefr
om thi
splacebuty
ouhit
meforthefactt
hatyoucheat
edonme? "
Iwashav
inghi
ccups
Me:
"whatdidIdot oyou?Lwandleyoujustdeci
ded
t
oslapmemor ethanonceand..
.AndI'm pr
egnant
wi
thyourchil
dpleasegetoutI'
dliket
osleep"
Hi
m:"
Lol
opl
easej
ust
..
..
"
Me:
"getoutpl
easejustgo.
..
I'
dli
ketorestbef
oreI
l
osemybabyandt akethekidswit
hyou"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
thav
eacarsocanIt
akey
our
s?"
Inod
Me:
"butbr
ingi
tback"
Hi
m:"
okaybutI
'
m s.
..
"
Me:
"you'
resor
rygood.
..
"
Him:"
myl
ovepl
easejustgivemeachanceI
'
m
beggi
ngy
ou,
I'
m beggi
ngy ou"
Heknel
tdowninfrontofmeholdi
ngmyhandwit
h
somestupi
dtear
sf l
owingdownhi
sfaceIwi
pedMY
tear
sawayandwatchedashewasbegging.
Me:
"youhitmeLwandl
eaf
tery
oupr
omi
sednott
odo
i
tagai
n,youhur
tme"
Him:
"IknowbabyIknowbutt
ell
mewhatt
odoand
I
'l
ldoit
"
Me:"youjustsayt
hatbutyoudon'
tdowhatI
asked,sopleasej
ustl
eavemealone"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
doi
tIpr
omi
se"
Me:
"t
henj
ustt
aket
heki
dsandgi
vemespace,
giv
e
meti
me"
Hi
m:"
that
'sal
l
?Not
hingmor
e?"
Me:
"andsi
gnt
hosed.
..
"
Hi
m:'
no!Iwon'
tsi
gnt
hosest
upi
dpaper
sofy
our
s"
Isi
ghed
Me:"
thenwhy?Whatdoyouwantf
rom me?I
'
m
scar
edofyouLwandl
e"
Him:
"Penel
opejust
...Justgi
vemeonel astchance
I'
l
lworkonmyselfIpromiseI'
llgobacktothatl
ovi
ng
andki
ndhusbandy ouhadIpr omise"
Me:"hedi
edwhenhecheatedonme,themanIl
oved
andknewhehadeyesformeandonlymeIdon'
tsee
hi
m anymore,
whenIlookatyouIj
ustseea
str
anger"
Heshookhi
shead
Him:"
babyit
'sst
il
lmeIpr
omisei
t'
ssti
ll
memyloveI
knowIlostmywayandhurty
oubutIpromi
sey
ouI'
l
l
change"
Me:
"j
ustgopl
easeI
..
..
Aaah"
Iscr
eamedhol
dingont
omyst
omach
Hi
m:"
Lol
o?What
'swr
ong?What
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Me:"
thebaby..
..
.somethi
ngiswrongwi
tht
hebaby
Lwandl
e.Ican'
tthisonetoopl
ease "
Him:
"youwon'
tcome.
..
.Lesego,
Phi
l
acomedown
now"
Heshout
edashepi
ckedmeup.
Hi
m:"
hangi
nther
epl
easebabyj
usthol
don"
Her
ushedt
othedoor
Lwandl
e:"
Lesego!
!Comeher
e"
Wel lt
heycamer unningandt hissidethepai njust
kickedinhar
der Iscr eamedsol oudlyyou'dswear
Iwasgi vi
ngbir
tht oPhi l
aagain.Hepl acedmei nthe
fr
ontandwentt opl acet heki
dsi ntheirr
ightful
placesandcamet ohissi dewherehest arteddriv
ing
l
ikeamani acont her oadhe'dflashhisheadlightsif
anothercarwasbl ockinghisway .
Me:"
if
..
..
.i
fIl
oset
hisbabyi
t'
l
lbey
ourf
aul
tLwandl
e,
i
t'
syourfaul
t "
Helookedatmewit
hthosebeggi
ngi
nnocentey
es
ofhi
sshini
ngwit
htear
s
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
ryLol
opl
ease.
..I
'
m sor
ry"
Hejustt
ookhisphoneanddial
edSisandaputt
ing
hi
m onspeaker,
Icoul
dfeel
theli
feofmychildflow
downmyl egasthi
swarmliqui
dwhenImov edmy
handupmyl egIcameupwithblood
Lwandl
e:"
no.
..
nobabypl
easehol
doncomeonmy
l
ovehol
donpl ease.
"
Everbeenst ucklikesomebr okenr ecor
dwel lIjust
zonedoutf ocusingonmybl oodyhandsbutIcoul d
hearv oicesandsoonIwaspi ckedupandpl acedon
astretchert henhur ri
edof fbutIst i
llhandthebl oody
handi nmyf ace,mybaby '
ssoul I '
m holdi
ngmy
unbornbabyagai nI '
llhavet omour nforachi l
d,
againi t
'sconnect edt oLwandl e agai nagai nIwas
sodi zzyont hathospi talbedandt hissidethose
stupidmachi nesoft heir
swer emaki ngnoiseI
couldn'tthi
nkst raighttheywer emaki ngmedi zzyI
j
ustpassedoutIhopei t
'
sf orgoodmay beI'
llbe
betterof f t hispainIcan' ttakeitany moreIj ust
can't.
[
11/
2,21:
39]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
♡ քsօ 56♡
.
Penel
ope♡
.
☆
IwokeupandIhadapoundi ngheadacheni cej
ust
nice andt hi
ssidet heroom wasjustf i
l
ledwith
Lwandle'
sCol ognegreatjustmagnificentseri
ousl
y
j
ustwhatIneedr i
ghtnowIl ookedathi m andhe
wassleepingbesidesmef uckwhocr eatedabedf l
r
twopeoplenowIt houghthospit
alshav esingl
ebeds
notdoubleany wayIpul l
edhisdreadlocksandhe
wokeupwi t
ht hi
sweir dgri
nonhi sfaceandhe
rubbedmybel ly
Hi
m:"
babyf
inal
l
yyouwokeup"
Me:
"pl
easel
eav
e"
Him:"
Penel
opelet
'snotf
ightpl
easeweal
mostl
ost
hersopl
ease"
Me:
"andwhosef
aul
tist
hat
?Whycoul
dn'
tyoul
eav
e
mei
nBush?I
'
dbef
ineandnother
e"
Hi
m:"
I'm sor
rymyloveIj
ust..
..BabeIwantyouclose
t
omeandi t
snotajokeIneedy ouLol
oIjust
,Ican't
f
unct
ionwi t
houty
ou"
Me:
"yousayy
ouwantmeandneedmer
ight
?"
Hi
m:"
yesIdo"
Me:"
thenwhydidyoucheatonme?Ifyoucan'
tl
iv
e
wit
houtmelikeyouputi
t,
whycheatonmeandput
ourmarri
ageatr
isk?"
Hesi
ghed
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tknowIj
ust
..
.."
Me:"y
ouknewI'deventual
lyf
indoutandwhenIl
ook
atiti
fIdi
dn'
tfi
ndouty '
all
havewouldhave
conti
nuedwoul
dn'tyou?Youhaven'twentonwi
th
theaff
air
"
Hi
m:"
let
'snotdot
hisnowpl
ease"
Me:'
thenwhen?Youwantmet ounder
standand
for
giveyour
ight
?Thenlet
'sdothi
sorsohelpme
Godwear edoneandf
orgood"
Hi
m:"youar
estil
li
nhospi
tal
Lol
oandy
ourbl
ood
pr
essurei
shigh"
Me:"
O-kaygetoutpleaseanddon'
tcomebackhel
l
l
eavemycarkey sandhousekeysI'
lldr
ivemy
sel
f
homewhenI '
m discharged"
Helai
donhi
ssi
deandj
ustmov
edhi
sdr
eadl
ocks
back
Him:"
wher
eismysweetLol
o?Wher
edi
dyouput
her?
"
Me:'
wher
eyoucan'
tbreakherspi
ri
tagai
nLwandl
e
nowdealwi
tht
hisone"
Hi
m:"youar
esocol
dyoudi
dn'
tev
enaskaboutt
he
ki
ds"
Me:
"Iknowy
ouwon'
tl
ett
hem behur
tsowecool
"
Hi
m:"
butj
ust
..
.."
Me:'
stopitplease.
..Youwon'
tgui
ltt
ri
pmewit
hthe
ki
dssopl easedon't,t
heyar
eyourki
dssoy
oulook
af
terthem"
Henod
Him:
"youknowIwon'tf
orceyouany
mor
eIj
ustwant
yout
omov einyourownpace"
Me:'
i
ttakesmebeingher
eforyout
oreal
i
set
hat
?I
won'
tsaythanky
oubutit
'scool
"
Hi
m:"
canIatl
eastki
ssyouf
orol
dti
me'
ssakes.
..
.I
mi
ssyouandIthi
nk.
..
."
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tbr
ushmyt
eet
handnei
therdi
dyou"
Hi
m:"
sincewhendoy
oucar
eif
..
..
"
Me:
"si
ncey
ouwer
ebusymuf
fi
nganot
herwoman"
Hesi
ghedadev
enchuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
Ineverdi
dthatI
'
dneverdothatev
eni
fthat
womanbathesi
nvani
ll
aandmilk"
Me:"
youser
iousl
yexpectmetobeli
evethat
?IfI
di
dn'
tfi
ndoutwouldyouhavetol
dme? "
Hi
m:"
not
o..
"
Me:
"t
opr
otectmey
esIknowy
oual
way
spr
otect
me"
Hi
m:"i
t'
snotl
i
ket
hatLol
oIpr
omi
seIj
ust
..
.BabyI
l
ostmyway"
Me: "
butatmi dnighty ou'
dfindyourwaybacki ntomy
bedandi nbet weenmyt highsright ?Orwast hatso
j
usty oucoul dstopmef rom beingsuspi cion?I'
m so
angryaty ourrightnowLwandl et ot hefactyoueven
hadt hegutst ocomebackhomet akeashowerand
wakemeupandmake' l
ove't
omeandIl etyoueven
thoughmyconsci oustoldmenott obutIdi d,I
welcomedy oui nbetweenmeIl ety ouleaveyour
sloppykissesal lovermybodybutaf ewhour s
beforeyouwer esleepingwithanot herwoman"
Hegotbackcl
osetomeandjustheldmet
ight
lybut
It
ri
edtogetawaybuthehel
dontightl
y
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
rymamakheIr
eal
l
yam sor
ry"
Me:"
didy
ouhatemethatmuch?Whatt
ypeofmen
ar
eyou?Don'
tyougett
ir
edofsex?
"
Hekeptquietandjustl
aidhi
sheadonmybackI
wantedtoj
uststrangl
ehim orst
abhi
m any
thingto
gett
hisangeroutofmebutIcan'tbr
ingmyselft
o
doit
.
Him:
"Iunder
standIhur
tyouandI
'
m wil
li
ngtogi
ve
yout
hespacey ouwantunt
ily
ouarer
eady"
Me:"
Lwandleremovethebanf r
om mynameandl
et
meleavethecount
ryIdon'tneedt
ogowithy
our
ki
dsjustl
etmegoal one"
Him:"
sorr
yIcan'
tI'
dlov
etobutIcan'
t.Youarea
Sokhul
unowandIwon' tr
emovethebanfrom y
our
nameseeingyouonceranaway"
Me:"mxm y
ouar
esel
fi
shLwandl
e..
.j
ustgopl
ease
getout"
Heki
ssedt
hebackofmyneck
Hi
m:"Iwi
llf
ightf
orusIpr
omi
seIr
uinedusandnowI
wanttof
ixus"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"f
ixy
our
sel
f"
ImumbledIf
elthi
m getof
fthebedandhewor
ehi
s
shoes
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
bri
ngy
ousomecl
eancl
othesandy
ourcar
"
Me:
'
cool
"
Hi
m:"
doy
ouwannaseet
heki
ds?
"
Me:
"no"
Hechuckl
edandj usttookhi
sjacketact
ual
l
yhet
ook
ev
eryt
hingthatbelongedtohi
m.
Hi
m:"youpunishi
ngtheki
dsi
sjustbei
ngpet
tyIdi
d
t
hisnotthem and.
..
"
Me:
"shutupandgetout
"
Hewantedtoki
ssmebutIputmyhandov ermy
mouthbuthej
ustpul
l
editawaynomatterhowhar
d
If
oughthi
m andheki
ssedmetongueandall and
hepull
edawaypi
nchi
ngmycheeksmakingmepout
abit
.
Him:"
don'
tl
etthisst
upi
dspaceofyoursgotoyour
head,
youaremineandonl
yminedon'tfor
gett
hat"
Hepeckedmyl
i
psandl
etgoofme.
Hi
m:"
seey
ouwhenIgetback"
HewalkedoutGodgivemeagunpl
easegi
veme
gunandletmeshoothim dead
.
Zamo
Ican'
twai
ttogetoutofher
ereal
l
yI'
mti
redoft
hese
hospit
alwall
sIjustwannabeathomer elaxedunti
lI
healandthengobackt oworkI'
m notgoingt ogiv
e
upmycar eerj
ustli
kethatIst
udiedlongandhar dfor
thi
s.WellRoseonlydecidedt
ocomet oday Isat
upstrai
ghtandgav ehermyattent
ion.
Her
:"
heyf
ri
end,
howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"howdoIl
ook?Whycomeonl
ytodayev
en?
"
Her
:"
woahholditt
her
eIdi
dn'
ttel
lyout
oget
t
rampledonhau"
Me:
"nxahowi
stheof
fi
ce?I
'
m sur
etheyar
eback
t
ogether
"
Her
:"
Iwoul
dn'
tknowt
heyhav
en'
tbeencomi
ngi
n"
Me:
"okayhowhav
eyoubeenwi
thoutme?
"
Her:
"sameasbef
oreandohy
eahr
umorhasi
tyou
ki
ndaf i
red"

Me:
'
what
?Whot
oldy
out
his?
"
Her
:"
Iki
ndaov
erheadAmberandSt
eff
ant
alki
ngt
his
mor
ning"
Me:"
hecan'
tdot
hatt
omeI
..
..Hecan'
tandI
'
llt
ake
hi
mt ot
heCCMA"
Her
:"
wel
lyoucan'
theyImeannoneofuscani
fhe
f
ir
esyout
henyouarefi
red"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"Lwandl
ewi
l
lpayf
ort
hishe'
l
lregr
eti
t"
Her:
"sof
ri
endwhatar
eyourpl
ans?Wi
l
lyougoback
home?'
Me:"
todowhat
?Iam st
ayi
ngher
eandI
'
llf
indaj
ob
her
e"
Her
:"
okaythenbutI
'
m movi
ngbef
oreshecomesf
or
mebruhIcan'
tbehere"
Me:"wel
lgoodl
uckumhcany ougoandf
etchmy
cl
othesatLwandl
e'
shouse?
"
Shef
urr
owedherey
ebr
ows
Her:
"uhno,doyouseeyour
sel
f?Idon'
twantt
hatt
o
happentomethankyouverymuchI'
dli
ketobea
mom infut
ure"
Me:
"Isai
dfet
chmycl
othesnotsl
eepwi
thhi
m"
Sheshookherhead
Her
:"
Ican'
tsor
ryany
wayIj
ustcamet
osaygoodby
e"
Shest
oodupandcol
l
ect
edherbel
ongi
ngs
Her
:"
nicemeet
ingy
ouZamoIr
eal
l
yenj
oyedour
f
ri
endship"
Me:"
wowsoy ou..
.Knowwhati
t'
scoolbouncebutI
t
hinkyoucan'
trunawayf
rom y
ourdemons"
Her
:"
Igot
tat
ryby
e"
Shewalkedout nowI '
m al
lalonehuhever
yonei
s
tur
ningt
heirbacksonmebutthey'
ll
all
payIdon'
t
wannali
e..
.
.
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obecont
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Ihatebei ngpr egnant Iser i
ouslyhat ebei ng
pregnantbutIdef iantl
ylovelivi
ngal one whosai d
Ican'tgetany thi
ngIwanthuht hesepar ationt urned
i
ntoat rialsepar ati
onandwear edoi ngjustf ine.He
i
sst i
llmyhusbandbel ieveitornot di dn'twanna
si
gnt hosedi vorcepaper sandhesl eepsov erher e
somet i
mesl ikelastnighthecamet osleepov erI
hateitIhav et ogetupear l
yandmakehi m andt he
ki
dsbr eakf ast andgowakehi m up, HESLEEPSI N
THEGUESTROOM I
'm soproudofmy sel fIcan
saynot ohi m now.Ihadmymor ningshowerand
decidedt owi dest ri
peboxykni tsweat ert opandmy
denimj eanwi thuggboot sItiedmyhai rint oa
messybunandj ustpulledmypr egnantsel f
downst airsev enmybabyki ckedj usttosaymor ni
ng
Ismi l
edabi tandr ubbedmybel l
y .
Me:
"mor
ning"
Shekickedagai
nthi
schil
djustknowshowtomake
mymor ningwewalkeddownthestai
rsi
ntot
he
ki
tchenjustt
ofi
ndLwandlealr
eadyupandmaki
ng
breakf
ast.
Me:
"mor
ning"
Heturnedar
oundwit
hahugesmil
eonhisfaceand
j
ustwalkedt
owardsusheki
ssedmycheekand
knel
tdownholdi
ngonmytummyandkissedit
.
Him:"
morni
ngPhiwokuhl
ekababa,Ihopeyouslept
okayanddi
dn'
thaveanynight
marescausedaddy
di
d"
mymor ni
ngrout
ineI
'l
lst
andher
eforhour
swhi
l
e
hespeakst
ohisdaught
er.
Me:
"enoughnowI
'
dli
ket
oseatdown"
Him:
"shehasn'
tki
ckedt
houghar
eyousur
eshe'
s
okay
?"
Me:
"yepshewaski
cki
ngnotsol
ongago,
she'
sfi
ne"
'
Hekissedmytummyandshekickedt
wiceandhe
di
ditagaint
heyeahshedi
ditagai
n
Me:
"i
tsenoughnowsheki
ckedsost
opi
t"
Hi
m:'
whyar
eyouj
eal
ous?"
Me:
"I
'm notsost
opi
t"
Hi
m:"
I'
mtal
ki
ngt
omydaught
er.
.."
Me:"
I'
m goi
ngt
okickyouinthebal
l
sify
oudon'
t
st
opandgoconti
nuecooking"
Him:"
jeeznoneedt
obeagr
ogof
etcht
heki
dsI
'
m
done"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:"
youshoul
dstopthi
scomingoveranyt
imeyou
wanttoowearesepar
atedmeani
ngnosleepi
ng
over
"
Hi
m:"
Icameher
eformyki
dsdon'
tfor
gett
hat
"
Me:
"nowwhosebei
ngagr
o?"
Itur
nedaroundbuthepul
ledmebackpicki
ngmeup
andplaci
ngmeont heki
tchencount
er.
Me:
"what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
Ihav
eawi
feandIshoul
dn'
tbef
eel
i
ngl
i
ket
his"
Hecaughtmyfaceandki
ssedtheshitoutofmeI
tr
iedtopushhi
m of
fbuthehel
donf ordearli
fe
groani
nginmymouth
Hi
m:"
jeans?Whywearaj
ean?
"
Hemumbledinbet
weentheki
ssandhedidn'
tbreak
t
hekisssoy
eahtheJeanwasunbut
tonedinaji
ffy
j
ustonemove
Me:
"st
opLwandl
e..
..Igot
tawaket
heki
ds"
Ipushedhi
m of
f
Hi
m'"f
uckLol
oit
'sbeentwomont
hsnow,
whatmor
e
doyouwantf
rom me?"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"Iknowbutj
ust
..
.Wai
tformepl
easej
ustgi
ve
metime"
Him:"
IhaveandI'mti
redofwai
ti
ngsoy
oubet
terget
yourf
actsstr
aight
"
Me:
"Lwandl
eIdol
ovey
oubut
..
..
"
Him:"
butnothi
ngIknewt hatgiv
ingyouthi
sstupi
d
t
rail
separat
ionwasjustshitnowy oubett
er
r
emembert
haty
ouar
emywi
fest
opbei
ngbi
tchy
"
Me:
"I
'm notLwandl
eIj
ust
..
."
Hi
m:"
justwhat
?Igav
eyouspacedi
dn'
tI?
"
Inod
Hi
m:'
thenpi
cknowi
t'
seit
herIwalkoutt
hatdooror
wemakelovel
i
keanormalcoupl
e"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"t
hat
'snotf
airSokhul
uI.
..
"
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Doorknock]
ThankGodIjumpedoft hekit
chencounterandfi
xed
upmyj eansbefor
egoingtoopenthedoor,If
ound
myhandsomenei ghbour he'scolouredand26
yearsol
d bl amemef orl
ookingorevenhavi
nga
crushonhim Imeaninmyent i
reli
feIhavebeen
withonemanr i
ghtsoI'
m enti
tl
edtodrool.
Me:
"mor
ningDr
ew"
Andrew:"
mor
ningumhIhopeI
'
m notdi
stur
bing
anyt
hing"
"
Yesy
ouar
e"
Andr
ew:
"ohumhI
'
llcomebackl
atert
henI
..
."
Me:
"youar
enotdi
stur
bing,
what
'sup"
Lwandl
e:"
whatdoy
oumeanhe'
snotdi
stur
bing?We
werebusy"
Me:
"Lwandlecomeonhe'smyneighborandki
ndai
s
myprot
ector.
..
.I'
l
lspeakt
ohi
m outsi
de"
IshovedAndr
ewout
sidebef
oreLwandl
eat
ehi
m
ali
ve
Me:
"sowhat
'
sup?
"
Andr
ew:"
youknowwhenmymom comesovershe
al
waysbakessoIki
ndabr
oughty
out
hese"
Me:
"wowt
hanksit
'sl
i
key
oucoul
dseeIwascr
avi
ng
f
orsomemuff
ins"
Andr
ew:
"andy
oul
ookbeaut
if
ult
hismor
ning"

Me:"
thanksy
um y
um l
etmegetgoi
ngbef
oret
he
ki
dswakeup"
Henod
Andr
ew:
"hopet
oseey
oul
ateronr
ight
?"
Inod
Me:
"mov
ieni
ghtIdi
dn'
tfor
get
"
WehuggedandheleftIwentbackinsidejustt
ofind
Lwandlef
eedi
ngthekidssoIplacedmycooki es
downandputsomemi lkinagl
ass,Isatdownand
star
tedmunchi
ngaway .
Lwandl
e:"
nowI
'
m bei
ngdi
srespect
edl
i
ket
hat
?"
Me:
"huh?Theset
hingsar
esogood"
Lwandl
e:"
mmhokay
..
.You'
l
lbesor
ryj
usty
ouwai
t"
Thebabykicked Ifocusedonthatandlethi
m be
wit
hhisthr
eats,
aft
erhefedtheki
dshetoldthem to
goplayandnowIhadapl at
eofwaffl
esandsy rupin
fr
ontofme hesatt hereinfr
ontofmejuststari
ng
atmeeat.
Me:
"ar
eweev
ergoi
ngt
oeatorwi
l
lyoust
areatme?
"
Hi
m:"youar
esleepi
ngwit
hthatboyai
n'
tyou?He'
s
t
hereasonyoudon'
tev
enwantt ocomebackhome"
Me:
"I'
m notcheapl
iket
hatAndr
ewi
sjustmyFr
iendI
doneedfri
endsyouknow"
Hi
m:"andwhataboutAmberandSt
eff
an?Whatar
e
t
hey?
"
Me:'
okayonecanneverhavet
oomanyf r
iendshau
I
'm notsl
eepi
ngwithhi
mI '
dneverdot
hat.Wellwhi
le
we'
restil
lmarr
ied"
Hi
m:'
sowhat
?Youwantmet
olety
ougo?
"
Me:"
youfai
l
edfort
womont hs,
howi
sthi
sany
di
ff
erent
?Iknowyou'
l
lsayno"
Hi
m:"
butdoy
ouwantt
odat
eot
hermen?
"
Me:
'nocauseIr
espectourv
owsandt
hepr
omi
seI
madetoyou.SonowcanIeat?
"
Hi
m:"
howdoy
ouknowt
hatboy
?"
Mybabywaskicki
ngl
i
keshe'
sonamar
athonshe
l
ovesf
oodthi
sone.
Me:
"r
elaxbabymommyi
sfeedi
ngy
ounownow.
..
."
Ir
ubbedmyt
ummywi
thasmi
l
eonmyf
ace
Me:
"shecan'
tst
opki
cki
ngLwandl
e"
Him:"
she'
sstr
ongthatonet
hat'
swhy .
..
soanswermy
quest
ionwheredoyouknowthatboyfrom?"
Me:
"he'
sanei
ghbort
hat
'
sal
l
"
Hi
m:"
howol
dishe?
"
Me:
'
uhr
oughl
y26I
'
m notsur
e"
Hi
m:'
sodoeshecomeher
e?"
Me:"
yeshedoeswewat chmovieswit
hhisf
ri
ends
andmyf r
iends,hesometi
mesbr i
ngsmecooki
es
whenhismot hermakesthem.Idon'
twantt
osleep
wit
hhim noram Iinlov
ewi t
hhim"
Hi
m:"
Idi
dn'
tasky
out
hat
"
Me:
"buty
ouweregoingt
oandIser
iousl
yhav
etoeat
ory
ourchil
dwi
l
lkickmeopen"
Hi
m:"
wil
lthatbeenough?"
Inodandj ustshovedtheforkinmymouthhewasn't
eatingtodayjustpl
ayi
ngwi t
hhi sf
ood he'sgonna
actlikeafiv
ey earol
dnowj eezsomuchformaturi
ty
atleastIhadanappet i
teIfi
nishedall
mywaff
les
I'dli
ckthesy r
upbutIjustmightthr
owupsoIjust
wenttowasht heplatesandafterIgotmysel
fsome
cranberr
yjui
ceandt hosecooki
esAndr ewbrought
nowr oundtwo I '
m pregnantandIdeservetoeat
asmuchasIl ike.
Il
ookedupathi
m andhewasst
ari
ngatme
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngonwi
thy
ou?
"
Hi
m:'It
hinkbef
oret
hatguy
sdist
urbeduswewer
e
st
il
ltal
ki
ngaboutourf
amil
y"
Me:"
youmeanwheny ougavemeanult
imat
um?
That
'snotwhatIcal
ltal
ki
ngaboutf
ami
l
yLwandl
e
youarethr
eat
eningme"
Him:"
I'
m al
sotir
edcan'
tyousee?Iwantmywif
e
backIhavebeenqui
etfort
womont hsnowI
'm al
so
amany ouknow"
Me:
"andwhat
'
sthatsupposedt
omean?
"
Hi
m:"
whatdoy
out
hink?
"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
goaheadbeamanIdon'
tcar
esl
eepwi
thgi
rl
sI
don'
tgi
veatoss"
Hi
m:"
youar
esodi
srespect
ful
doy
ouknowt
hat
?"
Me:"youarethedi
srespectful
oneherehowdareyou
thr
eatenmet haty
ou'll
sleepwi t
hotherwomen?You
sti
ll
don'tseeanyt
hingwr ongwithwhatyoudi
ddo
you?Goaheadbeaman"
Hi
m:"
that
'sal
l
?Youhav
emadey
ourdeci
si
on?
"
Inod
Me:"Iwon'
thavesexwi thyouallbecauseyousai
d
so.Yousti
lldon'
trespectmeasy ourwif
eand
motherofyourkids,
I'
ll
bringthekidsoverdur
ing
l
unchy oucangonow"
Hest oodupandj ustroughlypushedthechairback
ozobast rong hedidn'
tevensaybyet othe
kidshej ustwalkedoutdon' tcareanywayIfi
nished
hav i
ngdesser tandIjusttookmyi cecream and
threespoonIhadt oaddsomespr inkl
esI'
m goingto
eatwi t
hki ds.Iwentintothelivi
ngroom.
Me:
"guy
scomedownmommyhassomei
cecr
eam"
Ishout
edandjustsett
heblanketonthef
loort
hey
cameflyi
ngi
nandt ookthei
rseats.
Me:
"car
toons?"
Phi
l
a:"
yesmommy
"
WhosaidIneedany
thi
ngwhenIhavetheset
woI
'l
l
befi
nethr
oughandthr
oughwewatchedourmov
ies
al
lmorni
nglongandevent
ookanap .
.
IgotwokenupbyLwandl etext
ingmet hatIshould
bri
ngthekids soIwoket hem upandgav ethem
bathsandIalsotookabathIworemygr eyleggings
andabaggyT- shi
rtandadenimjacketwithmyuggs
Iti
edmyhai ri
ntoamessybun
Me:
"guy
slet
'sgonow"
Theycamecarryi
ngtheirbagsandwewalked
downstai
rsIbuckl
edthem inthei
rseat
sandwentt
o
mine.
Me:
"r
ulesoft
hecar
,noshout
ingorf
ight
ing
r
emember?"
Them:
"yes"
Me:
"goodandseatst
il
lpl
easemommyhast
ofocus
ont
her
oadnoty
ou"
Theynodandsatl ikest
atuesbutthesear emyki ds
i
tdidn'
tlasttheywerebusychatti
ng Ihadpeak
hoursfuckthetraff
icwasjustunsavouryifyouknow
howapr esidentri
desneh wewer eli
ket hat
,t
wo
guardcarsbehindandtwoatt hefrontthat'
showwe
ri
detheseday s.Wewerest ucki
ntraffi
catt he
ci
rcl
e
Phi
l
a:"
mommyl
ook"
Lsg:
"i
t'
scomi
ngmama.
..
..
"
Theywerebusyscreami
ngandpoint
ingsoIl
ooked
atmyleftandj
ustsawthi
scarcomingtowar
dsusin
ful
lspeed
Me:
"hol
yshi
t.
..
..Cal
m downguy
s"
Ihootedforthecarsinf
rontt omoveIwashoot i
ng
l
ikeamani acbuttheydidn'tmoveatallonlyt
hingon
mymi ndrightnowaremyki ds It r
iedtodriveout
butitwasnowcl oseandt hissi
detheki
dswher e
screamingli
kecrazyIwast ryi
ngtocalmt hem down
whent hi
smonst ert
ruckcameoutofnowher eand
hitandImeanhi tthecarthatwascomi ngt owar
ds
usitwasl ikethatcarwast hrownoutoft heskythe
wayi tcamef l
yi
ngdownt heki dswerescreaming
theirlungsoutandIwassoscar edmyhear twas
beat i
ngoutofmychest .Itookadeepbr eathand
j
ustt riedt
ot akemyhandbagandcal lLwandlebutI
wasshaki ngi tj
ustfel
lout
Phi
l
a:"
mama.
.."
Me:
"i
t'
sokaybaby"
Someoneknockedont
hewi
ndowsoIj
ustr
oll
edi
t
down
Guy
:"comeMr
sSokhul
uwe'
l
ldr
ivey
ouhome"
Me:
"t
akemyki
dspl
ease"
Theynodandopenedt
hebackdownbutLesegohad
gonequi
et
Me:
"checkhi
m pl
ease.
..Whyi
shesoqui
et?
"
Thatf
earIhadwashedawaycauseIhadv
ani
shedI
l
it
eral
l
yranoutofthecarandwentt
omysonItook
hi
m.
Me:"
Lesego?Babywakeup.
..Whyareyouj
ust
st
andingther
edosomethi
ngplease"
Jay
:"geti
nwe'
l
ltakehi
mtot
hehospi
tal
"
InodandwasabouttogetinwhenLwandle'
scar
pul
ledoverseewehadcreat
edourowntraff
icj
am
hegotoutandrant
othecryingme.
Lwandl
e:"
youokay
?"
Inod
Me:"
buthewon'
twakeupLwandl
e,
hecan'
tl
eav
eme
pl
ease"
Lwandle:"
cal
m downhewon'
tIwon'
tl
ethi
m okay
.
Guysfoll
owusnehandy out
wofi
ndoutwhowas
thati
diotwhodidthi
s"
Theynodandhet
ookPhi l
acauseIwashol
dingon
toLesegol
i
kemylif
edependedonitwegotint
othe
JeepandIwasst
il
lhol
dingontoLesego
Lwandl
e:"
youhav
etobuckl
ehi
minhi
sseat
"
Me:
"wasthisy
ou?Di
dyouwantt
osendmea
message?
"
Lwandle:"
areyoucrazy?Incaseyoudi
dn'
tnot
iceyou
arecarryi
ngmykidandt womor ewerei
nthecar
anotherannoyi
ngfactIloveyoutoapoi
ntwhereI
can'
tthinkaboutki
ll
ingyou"
Me:
"t
henwheredoest
hatmonstert
ruckcome
f
rom?i
twasn'
tther
ewhenIl
efthome"
Lwandle:
"i
thasbeenfoll
owingyouformonthsnow
j
ustsayyoudidn'tnot
icei
t.Ther
earesomanycars
fol
lowi
ngy oubutyoudon'tseet
hem youj
ustsee
thoseIwantyoutosee"
Ilookedathim I '
m hispri
sonernowhuhbut
anywaywedr ovetothehospit
al andLesegowas
admi tt
edevenPhil
ashewentt hroughatragicordeal
sot heyal
socheckedmyv i
tal
sLwandl e'
sor der
s
you'dswearheownst hi
shospitalandnot
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nne:
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օ ♡
.
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.
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Iwaslayi
ngmyheadonLwandl e'
sshoulderandhe
wasf i
ddl
i
ngwi thmyf i
ngersfuckIhatewaiti
ngfor
doctor
sespeciall
ynowcausei t'
snotaboutmei t'
s
aboutmysonmyl it
tl
epumpki nberr
yandhi s
si
ster mygor geousblackrose Si sandawalked
i
nandIqui ckl
ysatupstraightbutLwandlepull
ed
mebackdown
Me:
"st
opi
t.
..
.Sohowi
she?
"
Sisanda:
'
theyarebothf
inej
ustt
hatLesegogott
oo
excit
edandfainted"
Me:"
whothefuckf
aintswhentheyar
eexci
ted?I
nev
erfai
ntwhenI'
m exci
ted"
Lwandl
e:"
youar
ehar
dlyexci
ted.
..
isheawakenow?
"
Sisanda:
"mmhLesegowasawakebuthef
ell
asl
eep
andPhi l
ajustf
ell
asl
eep"
Me:
"whaaat
?Youdi
dn'
ttel
lmemyki
dsar
eawake?
"
Si
sanda:
"uhwel
lyouwer
est
il
li
nshockso.
..
..
"
Me:
"but
..
."
Lwandl
e:"
mant
ell
uswhent
heyar
eawakeandby
e
now"
Sisanda:
"don'
thav
esexonmybedpl
easeIbegof
you"
Me:
"asi
fthat
'shappeni
ng"
Irol
ledmyey esandjustsatupst r
aightwellSisanda
j
ustchuckledandwal kedoutclosingthedoorand
Lwandlewenttolocki tandpul
l t
hef ol
ds het ook
offhisj
acketandwalkedt owardsmeI 'm cer
tainl
y
notinthemood Ijustsatt
herar msfoldedev en
whenhegotont hebed
Hi
m:"
whenwi
l
lIf
eel
yourl
oveagai
nLol
o?"
Me:
"whatdoy
oumean?Don'
tyouf
eel
lov
ed?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Him:"
youst
il
lhat
emeori
sitsomet
hingnew?The
hatr
ed?"
Me:
"Idon'that
eyouLwandlejustt
hat.
..
.y
oubroke
mytrustandI'
m st
il
ltr
yingt
olearnhowtotr
ustyou"
Hi
m:"
howcany
out
rustmewhenwel
i
vei
nsepar
ate
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andwhyar
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ngof
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othes?
I
t'
screepy
"
Him:"
atleastI'
m cr
eepi
ngoutmywife,
Lol
oImiss
youImisshear i
ngyouscr
eam mynameinpl
easure.
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alandIalmostdi
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m:'
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ine
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'
what
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"
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ds
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ust
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m:"
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m:"
fucky
ouLol
o"

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ateyoufor
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m:"
ohsoI
'
m al
unat
ic?
"
Me:"
yeswhatar
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ng?Youhav
e
ki
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oo."
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m:"
comebackhomepl
easebaby
"
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uckedup.Il
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arthear
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ou
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ngi
ng"
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apy
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"
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m:'
mmhonceev
eryweek"
'
Me:
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"
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ay,
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"
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m:"
socanIexpecty
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"
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..
..
"
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m:"
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t
oday
"
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ghed
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ifyou'
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oreyou
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ghtnow.Iwas
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l
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m:'
sel
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i
steni
ngt
oyour
sel
f?"
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t'
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ustsel
li
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somanyhouses"
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m:"
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ormyki
dsLol
oI'
l
l.
..
."
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hingmoreI
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ust
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m:"
sowhyar
eyoushout
ingatme?
"
Me:"
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eact
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beg"
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m:'
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Me:
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ousomet
hingt
hough.
..
."
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m:"
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ou"
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oo?
"
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m:"
justsee"
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m:"
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acet
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."
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teral
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ki
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m:'
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eezcan'
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I'mjustsurpr
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m:"doIhav
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Me:
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inger
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hese?
"
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m:"
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inawecont
rol
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rot
..
..Chopst
icks"
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m:'
don'
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our
sany
mor
e"
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emembery ousayi
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s
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ome Ijustdon'
tknowhowyouhadthe
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urnedar
ound
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il
ookf
orwar
d"
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m:"
Inev
ersai
dIhav
ethatsy
ndr
ome"
Me:
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oh-
kayt
heny
oudi
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ookf
orwar
d"
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m:"
apol
ogi
ze"
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ort
hewhy
?"
Hi
m:"
forsay
ingt
hoset
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ouj
ustsai
d"
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eri
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canIseey
ourt
att
oo"
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ed
Me:
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gegowil
lmakey
ourheadbur
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rt
"
Hi
m:"
doy
oul
i
kei
tthough?
"
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ug
Me:
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t'
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ett
ythoughsui
tsy
ou"
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m:"
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ty?Gi
vemesomet
hingbi
gbabe"
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t'
sugl
y "
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ustst
aredatmewi
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azyey
es
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et'
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e"
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m:"
why
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hknowwhatwear
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ngand
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lyyou"
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m:"
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'
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way
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l
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ouwer
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..
"
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m:"
noj
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inespeak"
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.You'l
lhav
et orespectmeLwandl
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wifeandyourequalthi
st hi
ngofyour
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."
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m:'
butI
..
..
"
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il
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ustwentst
ale
Him:"
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i
ket
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l
lki
l
lyou
under
stand?
"
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idenceIhadtookaqui
ckl
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Iwasleftexposedbyfear
.
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ryLwandl
e"

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m:"
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esofy
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hem I
'
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ld"
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butIwasj
ustsay
ing.
..
..
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ouj
ustbossyand
i
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more"
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ugandputonhi
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wel
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"
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m:"
youf
earme?You?Idon'
tseet
hatany
mor
e"
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out
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oudon'
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imeItal
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ingme"
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m:"
I'
m sor
rybutIdon'
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ules"
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ms
Me:"
wel
lyoucan'
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ntomyhouseanddon'
tyou
dar
efor
cemov i
nginy
ou'
l
lregr
eti
t"
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thi
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incess"
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'
hel
l
odad,
howar
eyou?
"
Dad:
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viv
ingIcan'
tcompl
ainhowar
eyou?"
Me:"
I'
mfi
nej
ustmi
ssy
ou.Ican'
twai
ttocome
home"
Dad:"
Ican'
twaitei
therIcanfinal
l
ymeett
hat
Sokhuluboyy
ou'vebeent al
ki
ngabout
"

Me:
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l
lpapasoony
ou'
l
lmeethi
m."
Dad:"
howishet
reat
ingy
ou?Ihopewi
tht
hel
ovey
ou
deser
ve"
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ket
her
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omor
rowj
ustput
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l
eon
myface"
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ngLwandl
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fe
j
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t'
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wi
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oubl
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ri
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ouf
oundhi
m"
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ici
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y
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dsagainsthi
m"
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t'
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ket
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vehi
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me,
Ihope
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aysmeandImeannoone"
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"
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ed
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inedadj
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?Ihav
etogo
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"
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e"
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omywi
ne
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ouwi l
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m:"
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way
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ngTom Cr
uiseonthenews "
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hatwasmybestguyy ouknow,
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"
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m:"
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m:"i
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ter
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"
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m:"
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ngthemov
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Lsg:
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ovewhat
's
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"
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m:"
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about
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m:"
youral
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dent"
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m:'
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et'
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'
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'm seri
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m:'
we'
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lgopastt
hemal
l
."
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:"
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..
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:"
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ineIunder
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ou
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ongatthehospit
al"
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:"
youdo?
"
Inod
Me:"
yesbabyIknowy
ouar
enotdoi
ngt
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pur
pose"
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"
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:"
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er
t
akewhat'
s.
..
..
"

Me:
"Lol
o?What
'swr
ong?Whyar
eyoucr
ying?
"
Her:
"youareshouti
ngatme,
Idi
dn'
tmeant
omake
youangryand..
."
Me:"
no,nobabypl
easedon'
tcr
yit
'sf
ineeatI
'
m
sor
ry"
Ihel
dherhandandr
ubbedi
tcausepeopl
ewer
enow
star
ingatus
Me:
"mylov
estopcr
yingpl
ease.Iwasn'
tshout
ingI
wasj
ustki
ddi
ng"
Her
:"
soIcant
akef
rom y
ourpl
ate?
"
Iqui
ckl
ynod
Me:
"yesl
ovey
oucant
akeasmuchasy
oul
i
ke"
Shesni f
fedandsmi l
edhershysmi le andj ust
pushedherhai rbehindherearGodt hethi
ngst hat
getmehor nywi t
ht hiswoman, Iswal
lowedachunk
ofsali
vaandwhi l
eIwasst ar
ingathersmil
eIf el
t
herhandgettingfami li
arwithminehewasj ust
seducingmei nfrontoft onsofcustomersIshift
eda
bitandclear
edmyt hroat
Me:
"eaty
ourf
oodmamakhe"
Her
:"
butIam nj
e..
.ori
sther
esomet
hingwr
ong?
"
Inod
Me:"youarest
art
ingawarandt
her
ewi
l
lbe
casualt
ies"
Shechuckl
edandshr
ug
Her:
"don'
tknowwhatyouaret
alki
ngaboutI
'
mjust
eat
ing..
..
Phi
lauhuhputt
hatdown"
Ilookedbesi
desmeandPhil
awasbusywit
hthe
forkthi
schil
dthough Iqui
ckl
ypul
l
editawayand
shoveditawayfrom her
.
Me:"
doyouwannagetusar
rest
edpr
incess?Nev
er
pl
aywit
hthaty
ouhear?"
Shenod
Me:
"her
eyougoeatt
his"
Igav
eheroneofthechi
pstheywer
edoneeat
ing
j
ustwai
ti
ngfort
heirmother
Lol
o:"
umhIwantsomechocol
atemoose"
Me:"
uhumhokaystopr
ubbi
ngmeli
ket
hatLol
o
pl
easeyou'
l
lbesay
ingy
ouaret
ir
ed"
Shesmi
rked
Lol
o:"
what
?"
Everhadafootr
ubbingy ourdick?Shewasbusy
mov i
ngherti
nyfootoverdickhasthiswoman
for
gottenmealr
eady?Ishr ugandjustgr
abbedher
ti
nyfootandpul
ledthebigt oe
Me:
"st
opi
tyou'
l
lbesor
ry"
Lol
o:"
whatdi
dIdo?ShouldIst
opeati
ng?Andwi
l
l
youbuymethatchocol
atemoose?
"
Inod
Me:
"yeahsur
eany
thi
ng"
Shebi
therl
owerl
i
p
Lol
o:"
evenifIwant
edt
ospr
eadi
tal
lov
ery
ourbody
andli
ckitoff
?"
t
hati
magineal
one Icl
osedmyey
esand
t
ookadeepbr
eath
Me:
"umhLol
oI'
m beggi
ngy
ou"
Lol
o:"
what
'
swr
ong?Needany
thi
ng?
"
Me:"
babypeopl
ewil
lthi
nkI
'
m weir
dwhenIgetupI
can'
twal
karoundwi
thabulgei
nmyjean"
Lolo:"butIwaswonderi
ngthat'
sall
,
Imeanyoghur
t
fr
om y ourneckdowntoyourabdomenbuti
nthi
s
i
nst ancechocolatemoose"
Me:"
okaythat'
sitcomel
et'
sgohomeIwanty
out
o
t
ell
meal l
thiswhenwearehome"
Shesmi
rked
Lol
o:"
I'
m sl
eepy
"
Shet
ookonel
astbi
teofherchi
ps
Lol
o:"
pleaseputonmyshoef
orme"
Me:
"whot
ooki
tof
f?"
ShesulkedIfoundmy selfgoi
ngtodoi t
,Ihel
pedher
putonhershoeandshet ookPhil
aguy swewer e
j
ustgoalsknowt hoseadv er
tswherethereisababy
gi
rlandboythent heparents it
'sli
kewewer epart
ofthem,Ipai
dupandt ookmysonwhoopt edto
walk.
Lol
o:"
boyboycausenowy
ouar
eful
lyouwantt
o
wal
k "
Me:
"wany
a?Leav
emysonal
one"
Sheshr
ug
Lol
o:"
youandyoursonwi
l
lsl
eepont
hecouch,
pick
upthedudepl
ease"
Me:
"hedoesn'
tthough"
Lol
o:"
Lesegol
etdaddypi
cky
ouup"
Henodsomuchforbrother
hoodIjustpickedhim up
andwej
ustwal
kedoutl i
kethecrazyfamilywe
ar
e.Il
ovemybi
tchshame butI'
mt heonlyone
al
l
owedtosayt
hatifIhearyousaythatI'l
lki
lly
ou.
.
Whenwegott ot hehouseIwentupst ai
rstogi
vethe
ki
dsabat handtheny eahbei
ngfulltheywereout
col
d goodki dsIquickl
yranint
ot hemain
bedroom andfoundLoloseati
ngont opofthebed
wrappedinhertowelonly Icoul dn'thel
pbutto
squeezemydickbuddyr el
axdaddy '
sgotthispl
ease.
Lol
o:"
wannashav
eme?
"

Me:"
Ithoughtyou'
dnev
erask,
nowy
ouknowt
he
r
ulestothi
sright?
"
Shequi
ckl
ynodandl
aidonherbackl
egsspr
ead

Me:
"l
et'
sputt
hisher
ejustf
orsuppor
tokay
?"
Shenodbi t
ingherl owerli
pIplacedthepil
l
owunder
herbackandj usttookhershav i
ngcream l
etmetel
l
youI'mtheonewhohast oal
way sgoandbuythis
forher butf orthepastt womont hsI'
dbetol
dno.
Ipull
edthatmi r
rorstoolandjustsatdownIspr
ead
herlegswider
Lol
o:"
nott
oomuchi
thur
ts"
Me:
"whathur
ts?
"
Lolo:
"whenmyl
egsarestret
chedf
arapar
tIget
crampsonmyhipj
oints"
Me:
"ohsor
ry,
didy
ouj
ustt
akeashower
?"
Lol
o:"
mmham It
oowet
"
Me:
"nopy
ouar
ejustf
ine"
Ist
art
edappl yi
ngt
hecream causi
nghertomoan
andgiggl
e whenIhadappl i
edital
loverher I
wenttofetchawetcl
othandy eahsomethi
ngtoput
warm waterin.
Me:
"youknowy
oudon'
tshav
emeLol
o"
Lol
o:"
wantmet
o?"
Me:
"noI
'
mjustsay
ing"
Lol
o:"
buty
ouknowwhyyouaresoeagert
odoi
tor
el
seyouwoul
dn'
tev
enbother
"
Me:
"yeaht
hat
'sr
ight
,nowst
opmov
ingar
ound"
Shegi
ggl
ed
Lol
o:"
thatf
eel
sgood"
God whygi
vehersuchasweetv
oice
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
e?"
Icl
earedmyt
hroatIwasstucki
nmyownwor ld
whereIwasmakingherscr
eam wi
thpl
easur
enot
t
hist
ort
ure
Me:
'
yes?
"
Herhandj
ustmoveddownhert
ummyandj
ust
l
andedontheRoy
alcake
Lol
o:"whydon'
tyoumakemef
eel
thatgood?I
missedyou"
Me:
"youwantmet
odowhat
?"
Shenod
Me:
'
sayi
t"
Lol
o:"
makel
ovet
ome"

Me:
"ohi
t'
dbemyout
mostpl
easur
e"
Shegi
ggl
edl
i
keaki
d
Lol
o:"
I'
mjoki
ng"

Me:
"whaaat!
?Babypl
easedon'
tdot
hist
omemy
l
oveI'
m beggi
ngyou"
Lol
o:"
what
'
swi
thy
ou?I
'
m get
ti
ngcol
dher
eyou
comi
ngt
omakel
ovet
omeornot
?"

Me:
"I
'm comi
ngbabyj
ustgi
vemeonemi
nut
e"
Ididn'
teventakethatl
ongIwasdonei nafew
secondandIwentt ospil
lthewateri
nbatht
ubt hen
cleaneduptheclothandjusthungit I'
m going
togetlai
dohy eah .
..
..
.
ZwapZwapseey
'al
ll
ater
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11/
2,21:
40]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 60♡
.
LWANDLE♡
18SNL
.
Iwalkedbacki
ntot
hebedr
oom andt
her
eshewas
wit
hherkneesupsnor
ingsof
tl
y,
ohcomeonso
qui
ckl
yyouar
esl
eepi
ngt
hat
'snotf
air
.Igotont
he
bed.
Me:
"Lol
o?Babyar
eyousl
eepi
ng?
"
Shemoanedandj
ustscr
atchedhernosebri
dge
scr
ewthi
sIwil
lwakeherupItookoffmyjacketand
shi
rt
Me:"
sor
ryf
orthi
smylov
ebutImi
ssedy
ouandr
ight
nowyoust
art
edthi
s"
Iki
ssedhercheekandjustki
ssedherl
i
pst
heywer
e
socoldandwetjustanicecombo
Me:
"wakeupmywi
fe"
Shewi ncedandsl eptokayt henIpushedthetowel
awayandj ustgoti nbetweenherl egsI
'm notl
ett
ing
myhar dwor kgol i
kethis,Igotonmykneesandj ust
ki
ssedheri nnerthigh.Ipart
edherf ol
dswi t
hmy
fi
ngersandj ustdippedmyt ongueinonhergetti
ng
hertoarchherbackandmoanohsonowweai n'
t
sl
eeping.
Lol
o:"
LWANDLE!
!!
..
..Babepl
ease.Ohshi
t"
Ohsonowwear
esay
ingohshi
tIt
houghtwewer
e
sl
eepingIateherupwithherpul
li
ngonmy
dreadl
ocksyouknowIhadt i
edthem upsoni
cel
y
nowshe'sruini
ngever
ythi
ng.
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
e..
..
.I'
m aboutt
ocum"
Me:
"cum f
ormebaby
"
Iateheruptil
lshecameformethisj
ustwhatIwant
fr
om mywi feherbodytor
eacttomyt ouchIl
i
cked
herupandjustgotontopofherbutthebabybump
ni
ggahast obecareful
nottoharmthelit
tl
eone
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tknowy
ouwer
eawake"
Shesmi
l
ed
Lol
o:"
youwokemeupt
hough,
I'
mti
red"
Me:
"It
houghty
oumi
ssedme"
Lol
o:"
Imi
ssedy
oubutI
'
mlazy
"
Me:
"wel
lI'
m not
"
Icaughtherf
aceandki
ssedhershewrappedher
armsaroundmyneckandstar
tedrubbi
ngtheback
ofmyheadshehadmegr oani
ngwhenshedi dthat
.
.
ք ռ օք ♡
Iwasamessunderhi m butIalsoknowhis
weaknessandthat'
swhenIr ubthebackofhishead
hewasgroaningandpul ledawayattacki
ngmyneck
andsqueezedmyl eftbreastsucki
ngonithavingme
gaspi
ngIwassensi ti
veokaywhenI 'm pr
egnantmy
boobsgetextr
asensi t
ive andnowhehadme
pul
li
ngont hesheets.
Me:
'
Sokhul
upl
easest
opt
easi
ngme"
Hi
m:"
why
?"
Hebl
ewairont
opofmyni
ppl
eandgr
azedi
twi
thhi
s
t
eet
hIscr
eamed
Me:
"Ican'
ttakei
tany
mor
e"
Hi
m:"
wantmet
omakel
ovet
oyou?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
apol
ogi
zef
ir
st.
..
."
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
stopbei
ngst
ubbor
nandapol
ogi
se"
Ishookmyheadwhatshoul
dIapol
ogi
zef
orImeanI
di
dnot hi
ngwr ongIwasjustangrythathedecei
ved
meaf t
ery earsofbeingtoget
herbuthemov edhis
handdownonmewi thhi
seyeslockedwithmine,
he
beganplay i
ngwi t
hmycl i
t i hal
fscreamedand
gaspedandt hatmadehi m sati
sfi
edcausehewas
weari
ngt hisselfachi
evedsmileonhisface
Hi
m:"
apol
ogi
ze"
Me:
" f
orwhat
?"
Hechuckledandjustwipedawaysometears,
he
peckedmylipsandjustincr
easedhi
sfi
ngerpace
thi
ssidesqueezi
ngmyboobs.
Hi
m:"
Iwanty
out
ocum f
ormebaby
,cany
oudoi
t?"
InodIdon'tevenknowwhybutt henagainIjusthad
tohebeganki ssingmeGodhecanmul t
it
askont his
butotherthi
ngshecan' the'
llbecompl ai
ning If el
t
myor gasm buil
dingupasf astasamol ehil
lmyt oes
curl
edtrynaresistthi
sballofpleasur
ebef al
li
ngme.
Hepul
l
edawayandst
aredatmeal
lser
ious.
Hi
m:"whatdidIsayyoushoul
ddo?Babyl
eti
tgomy
l
ove,
I
'mrighthere"
Hepeckedmyl
i
ps
Hi
m:"
cum f
ormemamakhe"
wel
cometosexwit
hLwandl
eSokhul
u i t'
ssexy
thoughwhenhesaysi
tahugetur
nonIarchedmy
backeyescl
osedIwascl
osenoli
e.
Hi
m:"
ther
ewego.
..
."
hekissedmeasIwasaboutt oscream sohe
muffedmyscr eams,Ir
ubbedhisheadandopened
mylegswi derforhi
mtogetinbutIpushedhim
awaywhent hebabywasact i
ngup.
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Me:
"l
ookaty
ourdaught
er"
Helookedatmytummyanddamnt hekicki
ng she
hasneverki
ckedl
iket
hist
heywer
ej usti
nsync.
Ichuckl
edandr
ubbedher
.
Hi
m:"
heynanawhatar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Hekissedmyt
ummythi
schil
dthoughshe'
scr
azy
,he
l
ookedupatmeandsmi
led
Hi
m:"
she'
l
lbej
ustl
i
key
ouIcanf
eel
it,
sobeaut
if
ul
andl
ovi
ng"
Me:
"yout
hink?
"
Henod
Him:"
IknowsoandIpromiset
oneverlethar
m
comeany wher
etowar
dsyouguys,
I
'l
lneverhurther
oryou"
Ismi
l
edwel
lmor
eli
kebl
ushedmyf
aceof
f
Him: "
I'
m sor r
ymyl ovef
oreveryt
hingIputyou
through,thehurt,
theabuse,
forbreaki
ngyourhear
t
I
'mt erri
blysorry
.IloveyouandIdon'tevenwantto
dream ofl osi
ngy ou"
Ipul
ledhi
mt owar
dsmebuthi
sdaught
erwasjust
over
boardsoIgavemyt
ummyat i
nysmack.
Me:
"hai
bobehav
ewe'
l
lbewi
thy
oul
ater
"
Il
ookedatherf
atherandj
ustr
ubbedhi
scheek
Me:
"showmehowsor
ryy
ouar
e"
Henod
Him:"
Phiwokuhl
ebehavepl
easeIknowy
ouar
e
happytoseedaddybutpl
ease"
Me:
"whyPhi
wokuhl
e?"
Him:
"al
lthegi
rl
swil
lhav
eanamest
art
ingwi
thaP
andt
heboy sanLname"
Me:
"okayt
henbabakaPhi
wokuhl
e"
Hehadthi
sgoof
ysmi
l
eandj
ustbr
ushedof
fhi
s
shoul
der
Hi
m:"
youknowi
tmamakhe"
Iwant
edtoslaphim buthecaughtmyhandsand
pi
nnedthem bedsi
desmyheadandkissedmynose.
Hi
m:"
nomor
egamet
imeIneedy
ou"
Me:
"l
etmet
ouchy
ou.
..
."
Heshookhisheadandleanedov
ertoki
ssmebutI
movedabitmakinghi
m kissmycheekbuthebi
tit
.
Me:
"ouch"
Hi
m:"
lookatmenowbef
oreIbi
tey
ourearof
f"
Me:
"yourj
eani
shur
ti
ngmeSokhul
u"
Hi
m:"
sor
ryl
ovel
etmet
akei
tof
f"
Inodandhepeckedmyl
i
ps,
het
ookof
fhi
sjeans
andthr
ewthem onthecoucht
henhi
sshor
ts Ibi t
mylowerl
ip,
hesmirkedwhenhesawmestar
ing.He
hel
dhisdi
ckandjuststr
okedi
t
Hi
m:"
comet
ast
eit
"

Isatupstraightwit
hhishelpandjustgotonmy
kneessmi l
ingathim ashecaughtmebymyhai r
andpulledmecl osertohi
m kissi
ngme i moaned
i
nbet weent heki
ssandhegr oaned
Me:
"i
t'
ssobi
gnow"
Imumbl
ed
Hi
m:"
itwasal
way
ssobi
g"
Me:
"butsmal
l
ert
hany
ouego"
Hepull
edonmyhai
rti
ght
eraggressi
vel
yki
ssingme
helai
dmedownagai
nandjustpull
edawaytofi
xmy
feet
Hi
m:'
apol
ogi
zef
orsay
ingIhav
eabi
gego"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tmeant
hati
nabadwaySokhul
uIj
ust
..
..
Mmh"
Her
ubberhi
sti
ponmy
Hi
m:"
Isai
dapol
ogi
ze"
Me:
"I
'm.
..I
'
m sor
ry"
Het
easedmeandt
ri
edt
oent
erbuty
oh i
thur
t
Me:
"Lwandl
e!!
"
Hi
m:"
sor
ry,
I'
m sor
ry"
Inodhet
ri
edagai
nIar
chedmybackasIt
ookhi
min

Hi
m:"
shi
tmamakhe.
..
.uuhh"hegr
oaned
Slowl
yhewasi n,
heleanedov
ertoki
ssmebutt he
nanakickedt
wiceandgotherdaddi
esat
tent
ionbut
hesmiledandranhi
shandov ermytummytomy
l
ips
Him:
"shedoesn'
twantmet
oki
ssy
ou,
soIl
ovey
ou
okay
"
Inodhebegant
hrust
ingi
nandout
,hewasj
ustsl
ow
Hi
m:"
youcomf
ort
abl
e?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
good"
Heincr
easedhi
spaceIt
houghteventhebedwas
goi
ngtobreakt
hewayhewasf ocusedsweat
ing
Me:
"Lwaaandl
e!!Fucksl
owdown"
Hewasfocusedont
hathedi
dn'
tev
enhearmehe
wasgr
ippi
ngonmyknees
Hi
m:"
doy
oul
oveme?
"
Iqui
ckl
ynod
Hi
m:"
sayi
t.Sayy
oul
oveme"
Ipushedhi
m buthej
ustpi
nnedmyhandsabov
emy
head
Hi
m:"
don'
ttouchmeandsayi
t"

Me:
"pl
ease.
..
.Lwandl
epl
ease"
Iwasaboutt
ogett
ohappyv
il
ewhenhequi
ckl
y
pul
ledout
Me:
"huh? whyst
op"
Hi
m:"
onal
lfour
snow"
Hepulledmeupandt urnedmear oundsoqui ckl
y
you'
dt hi
nkIwasn'tpregnantbuthewasal sogent l
e
whenhet urnedaroundsot hathecouldjustslam
i
ntomemaki ngmey elpIwasi ntears andhe
madesur eIrememberwhyhe' sknownasmy
husbandbutev er
ytimeIwasaboutt ocum he'dstop
andturnmear oundev enwhenIwasr i
dinghim
I'
m suchani di
oteveryti
meIwascl oseI
'dtel
lhim
andhe'dstop
Hi
m:"
thatwasf
un"
Hel
aiddownbesi
desmeIwascr
ying
Me:
"mxm may
bef
ory
ou"
Hi
m:"
heywhatdoy
oumean?
"
Itr
iedgett
ingof
fthebedbuthepul
l
edmebackand
burstoutl
aughi
ng
Hi
m:"
rel
axbabyI
'
m goi
ngt
ogi
vey
ouy
ouror
gasm"
Hegotont
opofmeandj
ustopenedmyl
egsgoi
ng
downonme.
Him:
"youdar
ecum qui
ckl
ynehI
'
m goi
ngt
ofucky
ou
agai
n"
Me:
"don'
tteasemepl
ease"
Hi
m:"
youst
il
lhav
en'
tsai
dit
"
Me:
"pl
ease"
Heshr ugandjustwentdownonmeheat emeupI
archedmybackpushi nghisheadinIdidn'
tcum
throughall
thosefiveroundsnowIcoul dfeeli
t
buildi
ngupIwasgaspi ngIcum whil
escreaminghi
s
nameLor dknowsi tfeltgoodli
kecrazyIpull
edon
hisdreadl
ocks.Hel i
ckedmecl eanandl i
ft
edhis
headwi t
hasmi leonhi sface.
Hi
m:"
youar
esost
ubbor
nyouknowt
hat
?"
Ishr
ug
Me:'
oneoft
hereasonsy
oumar
ri
edme.
..Youhav
e
somethi
ngher
e"
Hi
m:'
wher
e?"
Me:
'
topofy
ourl
i
p"
Hi
m:'
wipei
tforme"
HeleanedtowardsmeandIwi
pedi
tforhi
mI
peckedhi
slips
Me:
"Iwannauset
hebat
hroom"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Iwannapee"
Hef
urr
owedhi
sey
ebr
ows
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Lwandl
emybl
adderi
t'
l
lbur
st"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
"you'
vebeensay
ingt
hati
t'
senoughnow"
Hi
m:"Il
ovey
ou"

Me:
"Il
oveyoumor
enowcanIgopee?She'
sdoi
ng
t
henaenae"
Henodandj
ustgotof
fmeIrani
ntothebat
hroom
anddi
dmyjobIwashissi
ngi
npai
nthatIdi
dn'tev
en
r
ushmy
sel
f
"
Wannat
akeashower
?"
Thatvoice Inodandj ustwipedmy sel
fIst
oodup
andwalkedtowar dshi
m hetookmyhandandj ust
pul
ledmei ntotheshowerl
ockingi
t.Heputont he
waterandjustpinnedmeont hewall
.
Me:
"pl
easel
etmecum t
hist
imear
ound"
Henodandjustki
ssedmyneckleav
ingahi
ckeyI
moanedandranmyf i
nger
sthr
oughhiswet
dr
eadl
ocksashepickedmeuppinningmeonthe
wal
l
Me:
"Lwandl
e..
..Uuh "
Hi
m:"
yes?
"
Me:
"Zondo.
..
.YesMt
hiy
ane"
Hepl
acedhi
sheadonmyshoul
derandni
bbl
edon
myear
.
Hi
m:"
cont
inuebaby
..
..Sayt
hem "
Ibi
tmylowerli
pandhethr
usti
nmesl
owl
y,hehel
d
myneckmakingmelookup.
Hi
m:"
pleasesayt
hem"
Me:
"uhhI
..
..Idon'
t.
..
..Idon'
tknowt
hem al
l
"
Heki
ssedmyt
empl
e
Hi
m:"
pract
icet
hem..
..Babyy
ouf
eel
sogooddamn.I
mi
ssedyoumylove"
Me:
"yes.
..
.Il
ovey
ouSokhul
u"
Wehadt
heshowersexnotl
ovemaki
ng.
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
goodl
et'
sgetoutofher
e"
Heswi t
chedofftheshowerandpickedmeup
walki
ngwi t
hmet owardsthebedr
oom wherehehad
meont hewallthecouch t hefl
oorthenonthe
bedIhaveneverfeltsot
ir
edinmyent i
rel
if
eIgotof
f
thebedandwentt ohiscl
osetandtookhi
s
sweatshi
rtandputitonwithmyhappysocks.
Hi
m:"
passmemyboxer
s"
Iwenttogethim hi
sboxer
sandIalsot
ooksomeI
worethem Iwasinpai
ntobeint
ightcl
othes.
Hi
m:"Isai
dformy
sel
fnotf
orus"
Me:"myhousemyrul
esanywaywhenareyou
fet
chingy
ourot
hercl
othes?Youdon'
thav
eenough
here"
Hi
m:"
lat
eronI
'
m hungr
ynow"
Me:'
gochecktheki
dsI'
l
lmakeussomef oodI
'm
al
sohungryandsheist
ir
edfr
om al
lthatki
cki
ng"
Wellmyf amil
y nahi t'
snotthesameIcanf eelit
buti
tcan'thurtt
ot r
yri
ght orcani t?Whatifhe
doesitagainbutthi
stimeit
'sworseLorditbett
er
nothappenIcan'thandlet
hatIjustcan'
t
Hi
m: "
heyLol
o?Ar
eyouokay
?Babywhyar
eyou
cr
ying"
Il
ookedathi
m andj
ustshookmyhead
Hi
m:"
itcan'
tbenot
hingsot
ell
mepl
ease"
Me:"
I'
mj ustscar
edwhati
fithappensagai
n?Can
youpromisenottodoi
tagain?"
Hi
m:"
lookatmeI
'
m nev
ergoi
ngt
ohur
tyouagai
n,
I
pr
omiseyou"
Me:'
I'
m sor
ryf
orbei
ngacr
ybabyIj
ust
..
.I'
mjust
scar
ed"
Hehuggedmel
i
kehal
fahugbuti
tfel
twar
m
Hi
m:"
it
'sal
lmyf
aul
tI'
m sor
ry"
Inodandj
ustpul
l
edawaywi
pingmyt
ear
saway
Me:
"gof
etcht
heki
ds"
Iwalkedawayandjustwentdownstai
rstomakeus
somet hi
ngtoeati
twasjustsomesmal l
stuff
nothi
ngmaj orI
'
m noti
nthemoodf orcookingI'
m
ti
redreall
y.
[
11/
2,21:
41]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 61♡
.
ZAMO♡
Iwokeupfeeli
ngquiterejuvenat
edfreshascanbe
butwhatcanIsaynostr essnoworriesjustmeand
onl
ymenooneknowswher eIam r
ightnowbutat
l
eastaft
erthi
sshitIcanmov eawayfrom hereand
goseethewor
ld.Il
ookedbesidesmeandfound
Hect
orohcomeonnothi m wasIthatdr
unkl
ast
ni
ght.
Me:
"Heydudegetupy
ouhav
etogo"
Her
oll
edt
otheot
hersi
de
Me:
"Hect
orgett
hef
uckup"
Hegr
oanedandl
ookedatme.
Hi
m:"
fuckwhat
'swr
ong?Iam st
il
lsl
eepi
ng"
Me:
"gosl
eepathomeI
'
m expect
ingsomeone"
Hi
m:"
int
hebedr
oom?Ar
eyoucr
azy
"
Me:
"j
ustgookay
"
Hi
m:"
fi
neI
'
llbebackl
atert
oni
ght
"
Me:
"okayokayby
enow"
HekissedmyforeheadandgotupIf
oll
owedbut
wenttotakeashowerIneeditf
ormydayI'
m goi
ng
t
ohav esomefunnol i
e
.
Lwandl
e
Mywifeinmyarmswhatmor ecanIwishforhuh
shewassobeautiful
whensleepingevenwhen
awakeIrubbedhercheekki
ssingherf
orehead,
and
shewokeupsmi l
ingfort
hefir
sttimeeversi
nceour
separ
ati
on.
Me:
"mor
ning"
Lol
o:"
mor
ningMrst
ari
ng"
Me:
"Mr
smey
ouhungr
y?"
Sheshookherhead
Lol
o:"
justhav
etopeeI
'
llbef
ine"
Shegotoffthebedandjustwor
emyshi r
twiggli
ng
herasstothebathr
oom nowmay beIcangetsome
morninggl
orywhoknows
"
mama?MamaI
'
m hungr
y"

Me:
"noonei
sher
egobackt
osl
eep"
"
whoset
alki
ng?
"
Me:"
somet
hingt
hateat
sbabi
esnowr
unandgo
hi
de"
Theybeganbangingthedoorwit
hthei
rti
nyhands
buttheygott
hei
rmot her
'sat
tent
ionandshecame
outbusytypi
ngherhair
.
Lol
o:"
real
l
y?Theyar
ehungr
y"
Me:"
Itol
dthem we'
l
lbet
her
esoonj
ustwai
ti
ngf
or
you"
Lol
o:"
justgoshowerwi
l
lyouI
'
m goi
ngt
omakeus
somebr eakf
ast
"
InodandjustgotupIwrappedmyhandaroundher
waistki
ssi
ngherneckandy eahshewasgi
ggli
ng
Me:
"howaboutaqui
cki
e?"
"mama!
!!"
Theyscr
eamedi
nuni
son
Lolo:"I
'
m comi
ngbabi
esgobr
ushy
ourt
eet
hI'
l
lbe
there"
"
hur
ry"
Wehear
dthei
rli
tt
lef
eetmov
eawayf
rom t
hedoor
.
Me:
"t
heyar
egonel
et'
sdoi
t"
Lol
o:"
they
'l
lbebackt
heyar
ehungr
y..
..
..
uhhLwandl
e"
Shepul
ledonmydr
eadl
ocksandl
aidherheadon
mychest
Me:
"I
'l
lbedonesoonokay
"
Shenodandherscr eamsf i
ll
edmyear sshewas
busygaspingthi
ssidetr
yingtokissmyneck her
pinchi
ngmyshoul der
severyti
meIhi tthespotbut
thenthoseninj
ascameknocki ngreall
yguysI
haven'tev
enbustedanuty eahyourmom hasbeen
poppingbutwhataboutme
"
daddy
?"
Me:
"we'
recomi
ngbabygodownst
air
s"
"
canwehav
esomechi
ps?
"
Me:
"any
thi
ng.
..
.Shi
t"
ohyeahIhadcoveredLol
o'
smouthdon'twant
herscreamingandscari
ngtheki
dsnowdowe?I
mov edmyheadf r
om hermouthandwrappedthem
aroundherwaist
Lol
o:"
nev
erl
eav
eme"
Herey
esweregl
assyIr
eal
l
yhur
therdi
dn'
tIt
hisi
s
al
lmyfaul
t
Me:
"nev
erbabyIpr
omi
se"
Ipeckedherl
i
ps
Me:
"Ipr
omi
se"
Ipi
ckedherupandwal
kedwi
thhert
othebat
hroom
Me:
"aqui
ckshower
?"
Lol
o:"
wecan'
tl
eav
etheki
dsunat
tendedLwandl
e"
Me:
"mxm It
oldy
out
ogetanannyf
ort
hem"
Lol
o:"
Icant
akecar
eofmyownki
dst
hanky
ouv
ery
much"
Me:
"whataboutme?
"
Isulkedandshehadtograbmydi
ckandst
rokei
t
justmadebloodrusht
omybrai
n.
Lol
o:"
Itookcar
eofy
ounotsol
ongagonowf
ory
our
ki
ds"
Shepeckedmyli
psandleftmether
ehar
donagai
n
I'
mt i
redImeanwhatshoul
dIdowhennowshe
wentt ofocusont hekids whydi dImakekids
anywaynowl ookatmehor nyasshitany
wayItooka
showerImeancr yingoversomethi
ngIcausedi
s
j
ustawast eoftime.WhenIwasdoneIwentt owear
thelastofmycl otheshereImeanIdidn'
tfet
chmy
clot
hesshewasj ustmakingmedocr azythi
ngsto
herandmy sel
f.Iti
edmydr eadl
ocksneatl
yandjust
walkedoutandwhenIgott ot
hekit
chenmy
daughterjustrantome.
Me:
"woahPr
incessdon'
tgetdaddydi
rt
yokay
?"
It
ookt
henapki
nandwi
pedherhands
Lol
o:"
shewasn'
teat
ingany
thi
ngy
ouknow"
Me:
"Idon'
ttr
usthert
hatwel
l
.Comeher
epr
incess"
Ipi
ckedherupandki
ssedhercheek
M3:
"seather
eandeaty
ourbr
eakf
astbaby
"
Ipl
acedherdownonherchai
rIki
ssedLesego'
s
for
ehead.
Me:
"mor
ningbi
gguy
"
Lsg:
"daddy
"
Ilookedattheirmom andwinkedather
,shebl
ewme
akiss I '
m goingt
owor khar
dtogetbackmy
familyandthat'
sapromiseanywayIsatdownand
shedi shedupforme.
[
phoner
ings]
It
ookoutmyphoneandf
oundAmbercal
l
ingme.
Lol
o:"
whoi
sthat
?"
Me:
"Amber
..
.Ihav
etot
aket
his"
ShenodsoIanswer
ed
Me:
"hel
l
owhat
'
sup!"
Amber
:"It
hinki
t'
sbesty
oucomet
otheof
fi
cer
ight
away"
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?
"
Amber
:"
Zamoi
sher
ebusyr
ambl
i
ngandshewon'
t
l
eav
e"
Me:
"getsecur
it
ynotme"
Amber
:"
thi
sneedsy
ouokay
"
Me:
"ar
ghshebet
terhav
eagoodexpl
anat
iont
owhy
I
'
m bei
ngdi
stur
bedorsomeonewi
l
lpay
"
Ihungup
Me:
"l
oveigot
tagoumhdoy
oumi
ndgoi
ngt
opack
f
orme?"
Lol
o:"
what
'
swr
ong?
"
Me:
"appar
ent
lyZamoi
satt
heof
fi
ceandwon'
t
l
eav
e"
Lol
o:"
ther
ear
eguar
dst
her
eai
n'
tther
e?Whyy
ou?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"pl
easegopackf
ormeI
'
llcomemeety
out
her
e"
Lol
o:"
I'
ll
seewhatIcandocauseIhav
eameet
ing
wit
hasuppli
er"
Me:
"t
hanksbabyseey
ouwhenIgetbackokay
"
Iki
ssedhercheekbutshel
ookeddown
Me:"
pleasebabyImadeapromi
sedi
dn'
tI?Iam
comingbacktoyouIj
usthavet
oseewhyeventhe
gour
dscan'tthr
owherout
"
Lol
o:"
thi
sisj
ustast
hosemont
hsbacky
ou'
dsayy
ou
ar
ecomi
ngbackbutt
heny
ou'
dnev
ercomeback"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"I
'm comi
ngbackIpr
omi
se,
Ipr
omi
sey
ou"
Lol
o:"
okayt
hengo"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouokay
?"
Lol
o:"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Ipeckedherli
psandjustr
anoutIwonderwhatshe
wantsnowI '
m st
il
ltr
yingt
ogluet
ogetherLol
a'
s
heartandshewantstorui
nit
.
WhenIgott
otheoffi
ceIfoundZamor
elaxedonher
ol
ddesk Iy ankedherup
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Shesmi
rked
Amber
:"
whydon'
tyouor
dersomewat
erf
ory
our
for
merboss?
"
Amber
:"
fucky
oudon'
tthi
nkwe'
l
llety
our
uin.
..
.".
Me:
"Amberr
elaxIgott
his.
..Whatar
eyout
alki
ng
abouty
ou?
"
Zamo:
"canweseatdown?Youmi
ghtj
ustf
ainton
me"

Me:"
getthef
uckoutofmyof
fi
cenoworsohel
pme
God.
.."
Zamo:"you'
ll
beatme?Doi
tri
ghther
einf
rontof
yourst
uff"
Ismi
rked
Me:"
exact
lymyst
uffnoty
our
smi
nenowwhatdo
youwant?
"
Zamo:
"ohI
'
m her
eformyj
obback"
Me:"
your
esi
gnedanddidn'
tser
vey
ournot
icewhy
woul
dIgi
veyouyourj
obback?"
Zamo:
Idi
dn'
t"
Me:"
yesy
oudi
dIhavey
ourr
esi
gnat
ionl
ett
er.Amber
gi
vemethel
ett
er"
Amber
:"
wit
hpl
eassur
e"
Shetookoutal
ett
erandgav
eitt
omeandIgav
eit
toZamo
Me:
"t
her
eist
hecopy
"
Zamo:
"Idi
dn'
twr
it
ethi
s"
Me:"Real
l
y?Isn'tthaty
oursignat
ure?Li
stenZamo
I
'm notevi
lI'
l
lreferyoutosomeofmyf ri
endsint
he
USjustgetyourpassportr
eady "
Zamo:
"youf
orgedmysi
gnat
ure"
Isi
ghed
Me:"don'
tbemakingfal
seaccusat
ionspl
ease.
..
.
Justacceptmyhelp"
Zamo:
"you'
l
lpayf
ort
his"
.
Ishr
ug
Me:
"t
hanky
ouf
ort
heshowy
oucangonow"
Shethrewt
hepaperatmeandst
ormedt
owar
dst
he
el
evator
Me:"makesur
eshenev
erset
sfoother
eagai
nyou
hearme?"
Amber
:"
wayaheadofy
ou.
"
Me:
"cool
Iwon'
tbei
ntodayokayI
'
m busymov
ing"

Amber:
"I
'l
lmoveyourmeeti
ngsforMondayt
henI
knoweventomor
rowy ouwon'
tbehere"
Me:"
andtheyst
il
lwonderwhyIdon'
tpr
omot
eyou.
Yougetmeshame,seey ou"
Amber
:"
I'
mfi
newi
thar
aise"
Me:
" don'
tpushi
tpl
easedemot
ionst
il
lexi
sts"
Iwalkedbacktot
heel
evat
orimeanIwastedmy
petr
olfort
hisshi
t Ihatei
treal
l
yI'
m sur
eLol
ois
sti
l
lhome.
[
11/
2,21:
41]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 62♡
.
ք ռ օք ♡
.
Ihatethishousenowi tjustr
emindsofhowIalmost
l
ostmyhusband, howIal mostwit
nessedhi
m kil
l
ing
anotherperson Idon' tthi
nkIcoul
dhavesurvi
ved
that
,thekidswererunningaroundthewhol
eli
ving
room area.
Me:"guysupst
air
stoy
ourpl
ayr
oom I
'
m goi
ngt
o
pack".
Phi
l
a:"
wher
eisdaddy
?"
Ishr
ug.
Me:
"he'
soutt
her
esomewher
enowgo"
Lsg:
"l
et'
spl
ayt
agmommy
"
Me:
"I
'dl
iket
obutmommyi
spr
egnantandt
ir
edso
gopl
ay"
Phi
l
ajustsmackedt
hebackofhi
shead
Phi
l
a:"
tagy
ou'
rei
t"
.
Lsg:
"heyt
hat
'snotf
air
"
Shewasalr
eadycli
mbingupthestai
rsandhe'
s
tal
ki
ngaboutbei
ngfai
r her anaft
erher
,Ican't
l
eavetheki
dsdownstai
rsal
onetheyarenaughtyas
hellt
heyj ustmi ghtrunoutandgoGodknowswher e
Iwalkedi ntomyol dbedroom andLor ditsti
ll
looks
thesameev ensmel l
sthesamehedi dn'tchange
anythingwowIj ustsatdownont hebedl ayi
ngon
mybackt akingitallint
hesweetsmel lofourroom,
thehappyt imeswher eIstil
ltr
ustedhimt obe
fai
thful t
omeIshutmyey eswithasmi leonmyf ace
thi
sr oom letmenotsayt oomuchbuti t
wasl iteverysingledayjustusbei ngall
loveydovey
noneel se.
.
Iwaswalkingaroundtheroom col
lecti
ngsomeof
Lwandle'
sthingsyeahhekepttheroom cleanand
thesamebuthi sownstuffwherealloverther
oom
evenmyf eetwerekil
l
ingmewhydoIl ovewearing
heel
swhenI 'm pr
egnantagai
n
"
doyourememberhowthisroom wasf
il
ledwi
th
l
oveandofcour
seyourscr
eams"
Ilookedbehi
ndmeandt
her
ehewasl
eani
ngagai
nst
thedoorarmsfol
ded
Me:
"whatscr
eams?
".
Him:"
yourbeaut
if
ulmoansDamnt
hisr
oom coul
d
accommodatethem al
l
"
Il
ookedathi
mthenl
ookedback
Me:"
can'
tyouseeI
'
m busy
?Gopl
aywi
tht
heki
dsor
somethi
ng"
Hi
n:"
I'
dbei
ntr
udi
ngIwannapl
aywi
thy
ou"
Me:
"wel
lIdon'
twannapl
ay,
nowgo"
Hi
j
:"j
usthowmuchdowantmet
ogo?"
Me:
"I'
mignor
ingy
ounow"
Him:"
youcan'
tignor
emeandyouknowit
.Thatass
j
ustlookssobeauti
ful
doy
ouknowthat
?Pregnancy
sui
tsyou"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
youdon'tgi
veupdoy ou?Myassnev
erchanges
i
t'
salway
slikethi
spregnantornot
"
Him:"
remembert
osharewit
hPhiwowedon'twant
herl
ookingl
i
keshe'
sjustmydaught
erandnotyour
s
too"
Me:
""
Lwandl
esi
tdownandshutuporgetoutpl
ease
pi
ck"
.
Hi
m:"
hav
eroughsexwi
thy
ou"
.
Hewaschuckl
i
ng pl
easemakehi
m st
op
pl
ease
Hi
m:"
So?"
Me:
"sowhat
?"
Hi
m:"canIhav
eroughsexwi
thy
ou?
"
Me:
"noy
oucannothau"
Hi
m:"
why
?Iknowy
oul
ovei
t"
Me:
"I
'm packi
ngsoy
ouar
edi
stur
bingme"
Hi
m:"
butIwannadi
stur
byou,
Ili
kedi
stur
bingy
ou"
Me:
"Lwandl
est
opi
tnow"
Hewasmov inghishandsupanddownmyt hi
ghs
Ipushedhim offbuthejustputthem backon
again,hesuckedonmyneckmybr eathi
nghi t
cheda
bi
tandt hatgothimt ochuckl
e.
Hi
m:"
tel
lmet
ost
opagai
n"
Me:
"Lwandl
est
op"
Hi
m:"
stopmoani
ngandsayi
t"
Me:
"I
..
.Ican'
twhi
l
eyouar
ebusyr
ubbi
ngmeupt
he
wr
ongway "
Hi
m:"
yest
ell
met
ost
opr
ubbi
ngy
ou"
Me:
"i
t'
shar
d,Il
i
kewhaty
ouar
edoi
ng?"
Hebur
sti
ntol
aught
erandj
ustbi
tear
lobemaki
ng
memoan
Me:
"Lwandl
etheki
ds"
Hi
m:"
mmht
heki
dsbabyt
heki
ds"
Iranmyhandt
hroughhi
sdr
eadl
ocksandgr
ipped
them.
Hi
m:"
Lol
othat
'
sreal
hai
ryouar
epul
l
ing"
Me:
"sor
ry"
Hi
m:"
apol
ogi
zepr
oper
ly"
Het
urnedmear
oundt
olookathi
m
Me:
"sor
ryLwandl
ebutIdi
dn'
t
...
.Ooh"
Hesqueezedmybut
tmassagi
ngi
t Imoanedf
uck
t
hisguy
Hi
m:"
sor
ryi
sjustenough"
Inodandj
ustmov
edhi
shandsf
rom me.
Me:
"canI
?"
Hi
m:"
what
?Cany
ouwhat
?"
Me:
"t
his"
Iunbuckl
edhisbel
tandpushedhi
sjeansdownIgot
onmyknees i pul
leddownhisboxer
shismember
sprungoutf
ormet omarvel
atIst
rokedhi
m andjust
ki
ssedtheti
p
Hi
m:"
stopt
easi
ngmeanddoi
t"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"pat
iencei
sav
irt
ue"
Ist
rokedhim andi
ndul
gedhi
m hegrabbedmyhai
r
andjustgui
dedmyheadtomovefaster.
Hi
m:"
uhhf
uck.
..
.mamakhef
ast
er"
Shi
tthat
'sr
ubbish Ican' tdot hatf
astyouknow
any
wayhewast aki
nglongthrustsdoesheknowit'
s
mymout hnotanythi
ngelse.
Hi
m:"
openy
ourmout
hwi
der
"
Idi
dastol
dandhedi
dhist
hingbusygri
ppi
ngonmy
hai
randgr
oani
nghewashi
tti
ngthebackofmy
thr
oat
"
Mama!
!"
shi
tIqui
ckl
ystooduppull
i
nghi
sboxer
supI
wi
pedmyl i
psandj
ustsprungt
owar
dstheki
ds
Me:
"babi
eshey
..
.comel
et'
sgo"
Phi
l
a:"
daddy
?"
Me:"
daddywi
l
ljoi
nusnownowcome.
..Whatwer
e
youdoi
ngher
e?"
Il
ookedbackatLwandl
ewhowasnowl
ayi
ngont
he
bed
Hi
m:'
I
'm notmov
ingy
ouoweme"

Me:
"ohpl
easeI
'
m goi
ngt
opl
aywi
tht
heki
ds"
Lsg:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Lwandl
e:"
no!She'
scomi
ngbackt
ome"
Lsg:
"butmommy
..
..Wewannapl
ay"
Me:
'
andwe'
l
lpl
aybabycomey
ouguy
scant
ell
mommywhaty
ouwant"
Idraggedthem outoft
hebedr
oom t
othei
rpl
ay
room Icr
oucheddownwhichisahustl
e
Me:
"t
ell
memommywhat
'
swr
ong?
"
Phi
l
a:"
not
hing"
Shesmiledwit
hherhandsunderherchi
nbat
ti
ng
thosel
ongblackey
elashesofher
s.
Me:'
ohsomommycangobackpacki
ng?Ir
eal
l
y
needtof
ini
shpacki
ng"
Lsg:
"no.
..
.Don'
tgo"
Me:
"what
'swr
ongbaby
?"
Lsg:
"I
'm scar
ed"

Me:
"ofwhat
?"
Lsg:
"Idon'
tknow"
Me:'
thenyouar
enotscar
ed.
..
.nowt
ell
mommy
what'
swrong"
Phi
l
a:"
isdaddyokay
?"
Me:
"uhy
eshe'
sper
fect
lyf
inewhy
?"
Phi
l
a:"
whatwer
eyoudoi
ngt
ohi
m?"
"
Yesexpl
ain"
Il
ookedupandfoundLwandl
est
andi
ngt
her
ewi
th
hi
sdreadl
ocksi
nhisface.
Me:"
umhbabydaddywi
ll
explai
nev
ery
thi
ngtoy
ou
okay
?Heistheonewhoaskedmetodoi
t"
Ist
oodupandjustwal
kedtowar
dshim wi
thasl
y
smil
eonmyfaceItappedhi
schest
.
Me:
"hav
efundaddy
"
Lwandl
e:"
I'
ll
gety
ouf
ort
his"
Iwi
nkedandj
ustspankedhi
sbut
t
Me:"
Ist
il
lhav
esomel
i
nger
ieher
ewantmet
owear
one"
hequi
ckl
ytur
nedar
oundandnod
Hi
m:'
pl
easebaby
"
Me:
"deal
wit
hthoset
wot
hen"
Hi
m:"
consi
deri
tdone"
Ichuckl
edandjustst
rutawayfrom him Iknowhe'
ll
getthem t
oset
tledownespeciall
yifIpromisedhi
m
somesnack,cr
ackleandpop.Iwast yi
ngmyhai r
"
Whywast
eyourener
gy?
"
seeIt
oldy
ouhe'
l
lhur
ry
Me:
"t
hatwasqui
ck"
Hej
ustgr
abbedmef
rom t
hebackandbentme
Hi
m:"
thi
sisf
ort
hrowi
ngmeundert
hebus"
Ichuckl
edandl
etmyhai
rgopul
l
ingi
ttot
hesi
de
Me:
"i
thur
tsbendi
ngl
i
ket
his"
Hi
m"y
oul
i
enowspr
eadt
hem"

Me:
"spr
eadwhat
?"
Hi
m:"
thesel
egsofy
our
sort
hey
'l
lcomer
unni
ngi
n"
Me:
"hol
dmet
ight
ly"
Hewr appedhi
sarmsaroundmesoIspreadthem
thenyeahhepull
eddownmyleggi
ngs,
Iheardhim
unziphisj
eans
Me:
"becar
eful
okay
?"
It
uckedmyhai
rbehi
ndmyear
.
Him:"
ofcoursebutgetont hebedIdon'
twantt
o
hurty
ou..
.onall
foursthough"
Hepi ckedmeupandpl acedmet herey esonall
fours,
andhegrandslammedi ntomemaki ngme
yelpthrowi
ngmyheadbackbuthecaughtmyhai r
j
ustwr appi
ngi
tar oundhishand,
hewasmer cil
essI
hatesexnow j ustki
ddingIloveitespeci
all
ywith
myhusband j ustmakesi tfeell
ikethefir
stti
me
everytime.
Hi
m:"
whyy
ousot
ightev
eryt
imewedot
his?
"
Ichuckl
edandwrappedmyar
msar
oundhi
sneck
pecki
nghisl
ips
Me:
"yougrowbi
ggerev
eryti
meMrSokhul
unow
moveI'
dli
ketogoandshower"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
ebei
ngher
eandi
nyou"
Me:
"youar
eheav
yshame"
Heki
ssedmepassi
onat
elyhehadmemoani
ng
"
Daddywe'
rest
il
lwai
ti
ng"
Ichuckl
edandpushedhi
m of
f
Lwandle:
"bi
gboyjustgoplay.
..
.You'
l
lhav
eabi
g
headifyoukeepondist
urbingdaddy
"
Lsg:
"I
'm hungr
y"
Lwandl
e:"
I'
m onmyway
"
Hel
ookedatmeandpeckedmyl
i
ps
Hi
m:"
Ihat
eyourson"
Ichuckledashegotoffmeandj
ustwor
ehi
scl
othes
hemi ssedmyforehead
Hi
m:"
packf
ormepl
ease"
Me:
"yesf
ather
"
.
Iwasdonepacki
ngandhewasbusyput
ti
ngt
he
bagsi
nthecarwell
hiscar
.
Me:
"you'
l
lri
dewit
htheki
dsneh?They
'l
lbebe
maki
ngnoisef
oryou"
Hi
m:"
oohwe'
l
lfol
l
owy
out
henj
ustdon'
tspeedneh"
Me:
"Inev
erspeedt
hou.
..
."
Ipeckedhi
sli
psbuthewrappedhisar
m ar
oundmy
waistandpul
l
edmecloserki
ssingmedeepl
y
Hi
m:"
justcan'
tgetenough"

Me:
"Ican'
tgetenoughofy
out
oo"
Igavehi
mthehousekeysandwenttoki
ssthekid'
s
cheekst
heywer
ebusyy awni
ngsotheyar
esleepy
shameLwandl
eti
redthem out
.
Me:
"pl
easebecar
eful
wit
hthem,
theyar
edosi
ngof
f"
Hi
m:"
comeonIr
idewi
tht
hem al
lthet
ime"
Irol
ledmyeyesandwentt omycarIdr oveout
mycarwassoundi ngabitdif
fer
entandbelieveme
thi
scariswell
takencareofitsmonthlycheckups
andpaintj
obs,
butitfeel
sweird any wayIjustwent
aboutdri
vi
ngIwasgoi ngtheexactl
imit.Whenwe
gottotherobot
si twasaredlightbutIcoul
dn'tst
op
whenIhitstopitj
ustacceler
atedIwaspani cki
ng
causei
tpassedt heredli
ghtandgoingt owardson
comingtraf
ficmyphoner ang .
Me:
"answerphone.
..
..
.Hel
l
o?"
Lwandl
e:"
Mamakhe?Whati
swr
ong?
"
Me:"
Ican'tst
opev er
ytimeItryi
tjustaccel
erat
es
ev
erythi
ngjustaccel
erates"
Lwandl
e:"
babyr
elax.
..I
'
mri
ghtbehi
ndy
ou"
Hehungupandy eahItri
edreall
yhardtostopbutI
couldn'tt
hissi
depeoplewer ehootingnonest op
can'ttheyseeIcan'tst
opt hecar?I'
m notdoingthi
s
onpur pose Iknewsomet hingwaswr ongwhy
didn'tILi
stent
omygutf eeli
nginthefir
stplace
.
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scarwasnowf astIcoul
dn'
teventhi
nkof
howf asti
twasgoingIsentanSOSt otheguys
may bethey'
l
lbeablet
ocatchthecarinthefr
ontj
ust
thatthi
sstupi
dtr
affi
c.
"
Daddywher
eismommy
?"
Me:
"she'
ssaf
ebabyj
ustsi
tti
ght
lywe'
l
l.
..
.."
Ididn'tevenfi
nishmysent encewhenLol o'
scar
colli
dedwi t
ht wocar s t hecarwassmashedf r
om
thefrontitj
umpedupandwheni tcamedown
anotheronehi titfr
om thesi det
hisfoolhewas
tryi
ngt oavoidtheaccidentbuthecol l
idedwit
hmy
wifeinsteadIinstantl
ystoppedthecarmyguy shad
arri
vedsoIpoi ntedatonet ocomeandwat chthe
kids.
Me:"
takethem homenow.
..
.don'
tst
opf
orany
one
youhear?
"
Henodandj usttookthekidsIrant omybabyand
thoseidi
otswerejuststandingthere Ir anaround
thosecarsandwentt othepassenger sseatI
struggl
edtoopent hedoorbutIf i
nall
ydidandi
j
umpedi n shewascov eredinblood
Me:"
mamakhe?Babydon'
tgiveuponmeokay
?Just
hangon.
..
.Comel
et'
sdothis."
It
ri
edt
ounbuckl
eher
Me:
"easydoesi
t.
..
slowandst
eady
"
WhenIfinal
lygotoutIsl
owlypl
acedherdownwi
th
myjacketunderherhead.
Iqui
ckl
ydi
aledSi
sanda
Me:"
mangetreadyforLol
oshe'
sbeeni
nanacci
dent
youhear
?It
'sdeep"
Hi
m:"
howser
ious?
"
Me:
"bl
oodev
ery
wher
ety
peofser
iousI
'
m onmy
way
"
IhungupandpickedherupIcouldheart
he
ambulancesi
rensbutthosei
diot
swill
gether
enext
yearwellt
heguardsopenedt
hedoorformeIhave
hertooneguardandgotinhegavehertome.
Me:"t
ell
theguysnottostopforany
oneeventhe
copsyouhear?Thetr
ucksbef or
eusunder
standal
l
ofthem,r
unoveranyt
hing."
Henod
Me:"
thenst
eponi
tandy
oubet
terdr
ivel
i
key
ouar
e
cr
azy"
Wedr ovel
ikemaniacsyesImeaneverymonster
truckandabnor
mal tr
uckIhav
ewasj usti
nfront
,
behindandbedsi
desusshe'snotl
eavingmenotlike
this shecan'
tleavemenotnowev en.
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ngcr azywait
ingforwor
donmywi f
eand
thi
ssi
deSisandawast aki
nghist
imeevengett
ing
onmynervesIcan'teveni
maginewhat
'sgoi
ngon
wit
hmywi f
e.
[
Cel
l
phoner
ings]
ItookoutmyphoneandfoundSakhi
lecal
l
ingme
don'thav
etheener
gytospeaktohi
m butI
'm sur
e
he'shear
dwhat'
sgoingonanyway
Me:
"babybr
o"
Him:
'whatt
hehel
lhappened?Ar
etheki
dsokay
?Is
Lol
ookay?"
Me:
'
heygr
eetorI
'
llhangup"
Hi
m:'
Lwandl
ecomeont
ell
me"
Me:"
theki
dsaref
inetheywerewit
hmeandasfor
Lol
oIdon'
tknowtheyjustr
ushedhert
otheER"
Hi
m:'
Okaysot
ell
mey
ouknowwhodi
dthi
s"
Isi
ghed
Me:"Idon'
thavetheenergyfort
hatSakhi
l
eIdon'
t
knowwhybutIt hinkt
hisishappeni
ngcauseofme
al
lthiseyeforaneyestuff
.Imightl
osemywifeand
chi
ld'
Him:
'soy
ouwon'
tav
enget
hem?You'
l
ljustl
ett
his
go?"
Me:'
Ij
ustwantt
ofocusonLolori
ghtnow.
..
shei
sthe
onl
ythi
ngimport
antr
ightnow"
Hi
m:"
okayI
'
llbehomet
oni
ghtokay
"
Me:
"andschool
?Ni
ggay
ougot
tast
udy
"
Hi
m:"
comeonIcant
rav
elt
omycl
assesI
'
m not
dr
oppi
ngout"
Me:
"Sakhi
l
eshe'
dki
l
lmei
fIl
ety
oudot
his.
.."
Him:"
I'
m notaf
rai
dofyourwif
e..Ij
ustf
ini
shes
packi
ngandit'
snotupfordi
scussi
on"
Me:
"what
evercome"
Him:
'
wher
ear
etheki
ds?Ar
etheywi
thy
our
ight
now?"
Me:"
uhnotheyarethehouse.
..Li
stenwe'
l
ltal
k
Si
sandaj
ustarr
ived"
Hi
m:"
don'
thangupIj
ustwantt
oheart
oo"
Me:
"f
inebutdon'
tbeaski
ngt
oomanyquest
ions"
Iputthephoneonl
oudspeakerasSisanda
approachedmehehadtakenoffhi
scoatsleev
es
rol
ledandshity
eah
Me:
'
so?
"
Sakhi
l
e:"
yeahwhat
'
sgoi
ngon?
"
Me:
"whatdi
dIsayaboutquest
ions?
"
Si
sanda:
"enoughSokhul
umen.
..
.Guy
sIwi
shIhad
goodnewsbutIdon'
tshe'
sinacr
it
ical
condi
ti
on.
She'
sinani
nducedcoma..
."
Sakhi
l
e:"
induced?Whatdoy
oumean?
"
Sisanda:"
well
weputheri
namedical
comajustt
o
helptheswell
ingi
nherbr
aint
ogodownthenaft
er
we'llwakeherup"
Me:
"soshe'
l
lwakeup?
"
Hesi
ghed
Sakhi
l
3:"
Sisandawi
l
lshewakeup?
"
Si
sanda:"
nineoutoft
enpat
ient
swakeupwhenwe
wakethem...
."
Me:
"andt
heone?Whathappenst
othem?
"
Si
sanda:"
theysl
ipi
ntoacomanotonecausedbyus
butt
heirbrai
nshut
sdown"
Me:'
okaysohowl
ongdoesacomausual
l
ylastwi
l
l
shewakeup?"
Sisanda:
"weeks,
monthssomeevenyear
sbruh.
..
.It
dependsonhowhar dthebrai
ndamageis"
Sakhi
l
e:"
andmyni
ece?Howi
sshe?
"
Si
sandaj
ustt
uggedonhi
sti
e
Me:
'
don'
ttel
lme.
..
.Mancomeonbr
uh"
Sisanda:
"t
herewasnot
hingwecoul
ddoLwandlet
he
bloodyousawshewashav i
ngamiscar
ri
agei
twas
tootostopit
"
Sakhi
l
e:"
Lwandl
e?Dawgdon'tlosey
our
sel
fnow
rememberwhatyousai
d?.
..
."
Me:
"Ihav
etogo"
Ihungup
Me:
"canIseeher
?"
Si
sanda:
"Lwandl
eli
sten.
..
."
Me:
"canIseeher
?Yesorno?
"
Si
sanda:
"she'
s.
.."
Me:
"canIseeher
?"Ishout
ed
Si
sanda:
"yeahsur
ebutshewon'
tbeabl
etoheary
ou
orr
espond..
..
"
Hetur
nedaroundandwal
kedawayIf
oll
owedhi
m
andhetookmetotheI
CU
Sisanda:
"she'
sint
hisr
oom cal
lmei
fyouneed
anythi
ng"
Ij
ustpushedhi mtothesideandwalkedin t hose
machinesar etheykeepingmywi f
ealiv
erightnow?
She'
sbreathingt hr
oughmachi nes Iwasst uck
neart
hedoorj ustl
ookingatherstal
ebodyt hisis
notmywi fe Iwal kedtowardsherbodyit'
sl i
ke
shewillwakeupandj ustt
ell
mewher etogetof fI
ki
ssedherf orehead Ihel dherhandandi twas
j
ustsost i
ff
.
Me:"
baby,
mamakhewakeupI '
m beggingyou.Ican'
t
seemyselfwit
houtyou.Ineedyou, t
hekidsneed
youwell
allneedyoumyl ove.I
'm beggingyou.
.."
Iki
ssedherhandandj
ustr
ubbedherf
orehead.
Me: "
Iwon'tletyougoIcan'tletyougobabeIjust
can't
..
. t hisisallmyfaul
tandIwi shwecould
tr
adepl acesI'dgladl
ytakeyourplace.
..Il
oveyou
Lolo.Youhav etowakeupokay ?Youhav etowake
up"
Ir
emov
edt
heoxy
genmaskandki
ssedherl
i
ps
Me:
"Il
ovey
ousomuch.
..
.I'
l
lfi
xthi
s"
Iputitbackandkissedherfor
eheadItookadeep
breat
handj ustwipedawaymyt ear
sIstoodupand
walkedoutI'm goi
ngtosolv
ethisIswear.
.
Nar
rat
ed
[
Knocki
ng]
"
Comei
n"
Hewalkedi
nbusysweat
ingli
kehewasrunni
ng
f
rom hi
shouset
otheapart
mentbui
ldi
ng.
Hi
m:"
let
'sgonow,
itsaboutt
ogodown"
Her:
"what?Ar
eyoucrazyIwanttoseethe
show..
.whenhebur
stsandjustgoescr
azy"
Him:
"He'
llki
l
l y
out hi
sti
mearoundandy ouknowi t
..
.
I
fyouthi
nkhe'llsweepyouoffyourf
eetandtake
youoffi
ntothesunsett
hat'
sjustbul
lshi
tsol
et'sgo"
Her
:"
comeonhe'
snott
hatsmar
t"
Him:
"ohreal
l
y?Arey
oucomingorar
ey oustayi
ng?If
youaret
henfol
l
owmebutifnotI
'm out
..
..Thatguy
i
sont
hewarpat
h"
Sher
oll
edherey
es
Her
:"
fi
newher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tknowwe'
l
lkeeponchangi
ngpl
aces"
Her
:"
ony
ourexpense"
Hi
m:'
yeahI
'
m notLwandl
enehbi
tchy
ougot
tawor
k"
Her
:"
cal
lmet
hatnameagai
nI'
l
lki
l
lyou.
..
."
Hi
m:"
mxm her
eisy
ourI
Dandpasspor
t"
Her
:"
Ihav
eapasspor
tandI
D"
Hi
m:'
Stopbei
ngani
diotwi
l
lyouIdon'
thav
eti
mef
or
t
hat"
Shecli
ckedhertongueandjustwenttopackher
l
uggageshewasdonesoonandt heywereonthei
r
waytotheair
portwheretheyfoundaP.Jwaiti
ngfor
them t
otakethem anywheret
heywantt ogoAnd
theyboar
dedtheplane .
.
Ont
heot
hersi
deoft
ownLwandl
ewasgoi
ngcr
azy
terr
or i
singever
yonei
nhiswayhewasinhis
war ehousemakingcall
stosomeofhi
sundergr
ound
cont act
swi t
habottl
eofseveny
earol
dpremium
blendwhi sky
Him:"
getyourfatassherenowi fyouknowwhat'
s
goodfory
ou...Andgety ourguysreadyIneed
Every
onetogooutsear chingfort
hoseidiot
swho
tookmydaught erawayfrom me"
?
?!:
"Sokhul
uwehav
etowat
choutt
hecopsar
ebusy
r
unning.
..
."
Him:"
doIsoundli
keIcar
eaboutcops?Mychil
dis
deadandmywi f
eisi
nacoma,ordoy ouwantt
o
knowhowitfeel
sbeingi
nacoma? "
?
?!:
"noI
'
llgett
heguy
sreadyandwe'
l
lbet
her
e"
Hi
m: "
Isai
dgether
efi
rstt
hosel
azybumsofy
our
s
wi
llcomeaft
er"
?
?!:
"okayI
'
m comi
ng"
Hi
m:"
hur
ryupbef
oreIf
ini
sht
hegl
assofwhi
sky
"
Hehungupandj
ustst
oodupt
hrowi
ngt
hegl
asson
t
hewall
.
Lwandl
e:"
fuck!
!Uhhhh.
..
.why
?Why
,whyy
oubaby
?"
Hewenttotakethebottl
eofwhiskyanddrankfr
om
i
tandhisphoneranghepi ckedi
tupandfound
Sakhi
l
ecall
inghejusthungupandt hr
ewitontable.
Lwandl
e:"whenIdon'
tanswery
ourcal
lImeandon'
t
cal
lme..
.don'
tcall
me"
Thephonerangagai
nandt
hist
imei
twasSi
sanda
sohepickedup.
Lwandl
e:"
yes?
"
Si
sanda:
"mor
ebadnews.
.Herhear
tfai
l
edbr
uh"
Lwandl
e:"
what
?
Si
sanda"
sheneedsanewhear
tandf
ast
"
Lwandl
e:"
howf
ast
?"
Si
sanda:
"shemost
lyhasaweekLef
t"
Lwandl
e:"
can'
tyougetheradonor
?"
Si
sanda:
"shecan'
tgetanemer
gencydonorshewas
onthedonorl
ist
..
.."
Lwandl
e:"Si
sandar
emembery
ouar
enotj
ustany
or
dinarydoct
oror
dert
hatt
hingf
rom t
hebl
ack
marketI'
l
lpay"
Si
sanda:
"t
hat
'l
lcostmi
l
li
onsofdol
l
ars,
"
Lwandl
e:"
Idon'
tgi
veaf
uckj
ustgetthem Damn
thi
ngandasavemywif
eyouhear?Savemywife"
Si
sanda:
"I
'm oni
tbr
uhi
t'
l
lbef
inet
hissi
de"
Lwandle:
"i
t'
l
lbefi
newhenshewakesup..
.Tel
lme
nehwhat'sgoi
ngtohappenwhenshewakesup?Be
tr
uthf
ul".
Si
sanda:
"wor
stscenar
ioshe'
dhavebr
aindamageor
goint
oveget
ati
vestat
eanddie"
Kwanel
e:"t
hanksmanIgot
taGo"
hehungupandjustdrankhi
shear
tout he
wasdonewit
hthebott
leandwenttogetanother
onewai
ti
ngforhi
sfri
ends,t
hey'
l
lpayf
orhurt
inghis
wif
eandbaby.
[
11/
2,21:
42]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 64♡
.
ռaʀʀat
ɛɖ♡
♡
Lwandle'
sphonerangashewasst
il
lwai
ti
ngf
or
thoseguyshecal
l
edhequickl
ypi
ckedupasi
twas
Sisanda
Lwandl
e:"
tel
lmey
ouhav
egoodnews"
Si
sanda:
"well
wefoundt
wohear t
s..
.Butt
heyar
e
Pr
ett
yextensi
vet
hecheapestoneis20mil"
Lwandle:"
20Mil
li
on?I
sitmadeoutf
orgol
d?Tel
l
thati
diottor
educet
hepri
ce"
Sisanda:
"hewon'
tdoitbr
uhtheyknowwear e
desperat
eandthey'
l
ldoanyt
hingtoexpl
oitus"
Lwandle:
"t
hengivehimthe20mi lhewant
s. .
..
.Aft
er
you'
vemadesur eit
'
sar eal
heartputabul
letthr
ough
hisheadandleavethemoneythere"
Si
sanda:
"what
?"
Lwandl
e:"
doitIhat
egreedyi
diot
smywi f
eisdyi
nh
andhewants20mil?Scr
ewhim he'
l
luseiti
nhel
l"
Si
sanda:
"ar
eyousur
e?"
Lwandle:
"Idon'tcareaboutmoney ..
..I
fhehad
wantedthenor malpricebuthe'sgreedy.Ki
l
lhi
m and
burnhim wit
ht hat20mi landIwanty outogother
e
yoursel
funderstand?Kill
himy ourself
"
Hehungupandwentt
oopent
hedoor
Lwandle:
"Phat
ty,
Ski
nnyandy
eahShor
ty.
.comei
n
gent
leman"
Wellt
hemanhecal l
edoutwalkedinthesame
mannerhesaidthem t
heywenttoseatdownandhe
wenttoseatacr
ossthetabl
estar
ingatthem.
Lwandl
e:"
goodt
haty
'al
lcame"
Phat
:"
yehbutIdi
dn'
t.
..
."
Lwandle:
"t
uht uh.
..
.hol
ditIdon'
tcarewhatyouwere
doi
ngPhat t
y..
..Mywi f
eisacomaani nduced
coma,herheartst
oppedandsomei diot
sdidthi
sI
wantyouguy stofi
ndwhodi ditandbri
ngthem t
o
me"
Ski
nny
:"wel
li
twi
l
lcosty
ou"
Lwandl
e:"
letmeguessy
ouar
eexpect
ingmet
osay
moneyai
n'
tapr
obl
em?Nor
mal
rat
eorgo"
Ski
nny
:"y
ouneed.
..
."
Lwandl e:
"Idon'tneedyou!
!"Heshouted"Idon'
tneed
you,Iwanty ouguy stohel
pmei fyoucan'tt
hen
screwy oubutaf tert
hissl
eepwithoneey eopenand
ariffl
eundery ourpil
low"
Hegul
pedhi
swhi
skyst
ari
ngatt
hem
Phat
ty:
"noneedsf
ort
hreat
s"
Lwandl
e:"
noneedtobegr
eedyyouhear
?Nowl
et'
s
st
artov
eraretoi
norareyouout
"
Shor
ty:
"I
'mi
n"
Lwandl
e:"
andy
out
wo?
"
Phat
ty:
"youknowI
'
dhel
pyouev
enf
orf
ree"
Hel
ookedatSki
nny
Lwandl
e:"
seeonceyougetupfr
om t
hatseatand
l
eaveyouandIwil
lbeinwarfor
ever
..
."
Ski
nny
:"f
ineI
'
min.
..
.Whodoy
oususpect
?"
Lwandl
e:"
Ever
yonef
rom mypastf
rom mybi
tt
erexes
t
omyr i
val
sthat
'swhyIcal
l
edy
ouher
e,Ineedawi
de
r
angedsear
chyouhear"
Phat
ty:
"I
'l
lhandl
eyourexes"
Lwandl
e:"
Ijusthav
eoneext
heot
heronei
sdead"
Ski
nny
:"t
henthi
ssear
chi
seasywe'
l
lbebackher
ein
afewdays"
Lwandl
e:"
hour
snotday
shour
s"
Ski
nny
:"y
ouknowt
hatai
n'
tpossi
ble.
..
."
Lwandl
e:"
makei
tpossi
ble"
Hest
oodupt
aki
nghi
sjacketandcarkey
s
Lwandl
e:"
itwasni
cedoi
ngbusi
nesswi
thy
ouguy
s"
Theyallsai
dthei
rgoodby
esandLwandl
ewentt
o
thehospit
al.
.
ʟ
աaռ
Igottothehospit
alandj
ustwentt
omywi f
e'sroom
shedoesn'tshar
ewithany
oneIdon'
twantanyone
goinginandoutofhere Isatdownandjust
ki
ssedherforeheadtaki
ngherhandint
ominei
twas
socold butshe' ssti
ll
aliv
eevent
houghshe'
s
br
eathi
ngthroughmachi nes
Me: "
hel
lobaby.
..Hopeyouar eokayandy oubetter
wakeupy ouhearme?West il
lhavealotoft hi
ngsto
discussevent
hesexy oust i
l
lowemey ezwa. .
.you
oweme.BabyI '
m sorryIfail
edyoumor et hanonceI
fail
edourmarri
agewheny oudidever
ythinginyour
powert omakeourmar r
iageflour
ish"
Iki
ssedherhand.
..
..
.
.
Penel
ope
Lwandle:
"west
il
lhav
etotalkaboutt
helossofour
babyIknowshe'
sthesecondchil
dwelostbutbaby
wecan...
."
Me:
"what
?Lwandl
ewel
osther
?..
..
"
Lwandle:
"Lol
owakeuppleaseI
'
m beggi
ngy
ou,
I
needyou,youcan'
tl
eav
eme"
Me:"
youidi
otI
'mri
ghther
ebesi
desy
ouwhatar
eyou
t
alki
ngabout,
Lwandl
e?"
Ismackedt
hebackofhi
shead Il ookedatmy
handsandt
heyweregl
ossyIcoul
dseer i
ghtt
hrough
them.
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngon?Lwandl
e?Lwandl
elookatme"
Hejustki
ssedmyforehead whyam Ihereandmy
bodyther
eonthebed?How...Wai
tam Idead I
can'
tbedeadIbeganshaki
nguncont
roll
abl
y
Me:
"Ican'
t.
..
.."
Lwandl
e:" Mamakhe?Baby
?..
..
"
Themachi
neswer
ebusymakingnoiseandnur
ses
wher
erunni
ngi
nsomeeventhroughme
Nur
se:
"si
r.
..
we'
l
lneedy
out
ogo"
Lwandl
e:"
I'
m notl
eav
ingmywi
fe.
..
.Don'
ttouchme"
Hewascryi
ngl
ikeacrazypersonwaitheiscrazy
butt
hewayhewascryingIhaveneverseenagr own
mancryl
i
kehim hewashail
ing,snor
tandall.
Lwandl
e:"
babypl
easedon'tl
eavemeI'
m begging
youPenel
opeIpromiset
ochangeIpromisetobea
bet
termanIwil
lbethemany ouwantme...
.Don'
t
y
ouf
ucki
ngt
ouchme"
Heshovedt
hemal
enur
seandr
ant
omyhand
hol
dingoni
t
Nur
se:
"cl
ear
!!
!"
Shescr
eamedanddi
dwhat
evert
omybody
Lwandl
e:"
Penel
opeI
'
llchange"
Me:"butIdon'
twantyoutochangeIlov
eyoulike
thi
s..
.Whydoesn'tt
hisstupidwantt
owakeup?
LwandleI'
m hereI
'mrightherej
ustl
ookbesi
des
you"
Hewasj
usthai
l
ingev
enpunchi
ngnur
seswhohel
d
hi
m
Me:"
leav
ehi
m al
one.
..
.Leav
emyhusbandal
one
pl
ease"
IhaveneverseenLwandl eli
ket
hisitevenbreaksmy
heart Ijustwant edtojumpbackintomybodybut
Icouldn'
tIcoul
dn'tstopLwandl
efrom cryi
nglikeI'
m
dyi
ngoram Idy ing?Amal enur
sewal kedi
nwi tha
syri
ngeonhi sbackandhewentbehi ndLwandl e
Me:'no...
nodon'tdothatyouidiot,hei
sn'
tsupposed
totakeanydr ugsrightnow.Listentomedon'tinj
ect
him...Hello?Can'
tSomeoneseeme?Asangoma
thenj ustgetsomeoneinherewhocanseeme"
Thatidi
otinj
ectedLwandl
ewiththesadat
ive he'
s
goingtoregr
etitwhenhewakesupheshoul dr
un
forhi
slif
eafterthi
sanywayhefell
asl
eepinhis
arms
Dr
:"
puthi
m ont
hatbed"
Theypickedupmyhubbyandpl
acedhim ont
hebed
nextt
omi neIwal
kedaroundmybedandwenttohi
s.
Me:"y
ouaremor ethanenoughformeLwandl
enev
er
doubtthat
..
.Il
ovey ouandyouknowitIl
ovey
ou
morethananythi
ng"
Ikissedhi
sforeheadandj
uststoodi
nbetweenthe
bedsIlookedoveratmystal
ebodystabi
l
izi
ngthis
sideLwandledeadcoldwi
thsleep Isatdownon
thetil
es.
[
Babycr
ies]
Il
ookedupandsawal
adyhol
dingal
i
ttl
ebaby
Me:
'
hel
l
o?"
Lady:
"hey
..
.Ni
ceseei
ngy
ouher
ebutwhyar
eyou
here?
"
Me:
'
her
e?Wher
eisher
e?"
Lady
:"y
oudon'
tbel
ongher
eLol
ogoback"
Me:
"wher
eam I
?Andwhoi
sthat
?"
Lady:
"t
hisi
syourl
i
ttl
egi
rlPhi
wokuhl
e,wannahol
d
her?
"
Inod
Lady
:"her
eyougo.
..Becar
eful
okay
"
Me:
"she'
ssocut
e,whyi
ssheher
ewi
thy
ou?Mybaby
i
ssupposedt
obedead"
Lady
:"mmhyoucametothespir
itwor
ld.
..
.Youhav
e
togobackhomenoweventheyneedyou"
Me:
"Ican'
tgobackIhav
ebeent
ryi
ngIj
ustcan'
t.
."
"
Mama!
!"
Alit
tl
eboycamer
unni
ngt
omeandj
usthuggedmy
knees
Me:
"Mama?
"
Lady:
"ohdon'
tyour
ecogni
sehi
m?He'
syouf
ir
st
born"
Me:
"but hel
ookssogr
own"
Hej
ustwi
pedawaysomet
ear
sonmyf
ace.
Luyanda:
"don'
tcr
y..
.I'
m happyher
eandIpr
omiseI
'
ll
l
ookaf t
ermyli
tt
lesi
ster.I
'
llshowhery
ouever
y
si
ngleday"
Me:"
but.
..Whydi
dy oul
eavemeaf
terwemadea
deal
thatyou'
dneverl
eaveme"
Luy
anda:"y
ouhaddaddynowIknewhe'
dtakecar
e
ofyou.
..
"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"r
ememberwhenI
'
dsi
ngf
ory
ou?
"
Luyanda:
"Ial
way sli
stenwhenyousi
ngf
ormy
brot
herandsister.
..Andyouhavet
ogobacknowy
ii
can'
tstayhereanyl onger
"
Me:'
nopl
ease..
.Justl
etmest
ayev
eni
fit
'sj
ustf
ora
l
it
tl
ewhil
eplease"
Lady
:"Lol
oyouhav
etol
ett
hem go.
..Youhav
eto
moveonnow"
Ishookmyheadandki
ssedmyPhi
wo'
sfor
ehead
Me:
'
theyneedmet
heyneedt
hei
rmot
her
"
Lady:
"youhav
etwoot
herki
dsneedy
ouanda
husband"
Me:
"l
etmej
ustbondwi
thmyki
ds.
..
."
Lady:
"youcan'tdot
hatgobackhomenow.
..
stop
bei
ngst ubbor
n"
If
eltmydaught
er'
sski
nsosof
t
Lu:
"I
'l
ll
ookafterherIpr
omi se.
..She'
llseey
ouev
ery
si
ngledaybutdaddysti
llneedsy ou"
Het
ookt
hebaby
Me:
"wai
tyou'
l
ldr
opher
"
Lu:
"noIwon'
tI'
m st
rongnowI
'
m abi
gboy
"

Me:
"youar
ejustt
hree.
.."
Lady
:"Penel
opey
ouneedt
ogoi
t'
scl
osi
ngy
our
wi
ndowi
scl
osi
ng"
Me:
"wai
t.
.whencanIseet
hem agai
n?"
Lady
:"y
ouar
enotal
l
owedbackher
eagai
nnowgo!
!"
Shepushedmeoutorwher
everandIdi
dn'
thav
emy
babyi
nmyar msagai
n Ineedmybaby
[
11/
2,21:
42]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 65♡
.
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աaռ ♡
Iwokeupwi t
hthispoundingheadache butone
thingthatcamet omindwasmywi f
eIquickl
y
j
umpedupandl ookedbesidesmethereshewas
therelayi
ngnicelywhat'
sniceaboutmywi f
ebei
ng
unconsciousItri
edgetti
ngupbutIgotdizzy I
slowlygotupandgotof fthebed.
Me:
"wher
ethef
uckar
emyf
ucki
ngshoes?
"
Igotoffandj
ustl
impedtoherbedandj
ustsatdown
rubbi
ngherfor
eheadki
ssi
nghercheek,
herpal
e
cheekIr
ubbedi
t.
Me: "
hel
lomylove.
..
.BabeImissyouImissy ou
pleasewakeup,wakeupandtel
lmey ouloveme
pleaseIj
ustneedtoheart
hatwordfr
om y ou.Ineed
thatwordri
ghtnow"
Iki
ssedherforehead Imi sshersomuchIdon't
evenknowwhatt odosoIj ustgotupandsl
eptwith
herrubbi
ngherhandIwasev enafr
aidt
oli
fther
headwhatifherairsuppl
yst ops
Me:"Lol
o?BabeIhat et alki
ngt omy selfyouknow. .
.
I'
m surethekidsmi ssy ouImi ssy ouImi ssyouli
ke
crazy myhear ti
sbr eakingr i
ghtnowwhenI '
m
hereali
veandy ouar edy i
ngf ormysi nswheny ou
arenothingbutanAngl ey ouar ealway ski ndto
people whi l
eI'm not...I'
mj ustamonst erIdon'
t
deservey ouLol
oInev erdeser vedy ouev ersi
nce
yourparentsforcedust ogetherIknowt hatnow
mor eeversopleasewakeupIbegofy ouplease
wakeupandcomebackt omet hat'
sal lIaskcome
backtomeandt hekidsIcan' tr ai
set hosenaught y
peoplealone.Youar emyf amilyyouar et hefamil
yI
hav
e"
Ihatetalki
ngalone Iknowt hisandsodoesshe
butRightnowIt hinkcommuni cat i
ngwithheri
st he
onlywayt ohelphergetherconsci ousbackandI 'm
will
ingtospeaklikeanidiotuntilshecomesbackt o
me i tbett
erbesooncauseIspokeunt i
lIfel
l
asleepmybodywasj ustgivi
nguponmeIdon' t
knowwhybuti twasnumb t heyar egoingto
regretWhatevertheydidtomet hosebloodynurses
don'tknowIhav ethepowert of i
rethem and
Sisandawon'tsayany t
hing50/ 50
.
Iwaswokenupbysomeoneshaki
ngmyl eg Igot
upandl
ookedar
oundjustt
ofi
ndSisanda
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"
wegot taper
for
m anOPr
ightnowj
ustt
obeon
t
hesafersi
de"
Me:"
isthehear
theal
thy
..
.Idon'
twantascr
apofa
hear
tinmywi f
e"
Hi
m:"
yeahi
tsheal
thyt
heki
dwasheal
thy
..
."
Me:"
aki
d Jehov
ahI
'
mint
roubl
eshe'
l
lbel
i
kea
baby
"
Hechuckl
ed
Him:
"ni
cetoseey
oucanst
il
lmakej
okes.
..
letmeget
herr
eady"
Inodandgotoft
hebedIworemyshoesand
watchedast
heywheel
edheraway
Sisanda:"
I'
lll
ookaf
terherwhydon'
tyoucal
lyour
brotherandcheckupont heki
ds?Justmakethem
hearthaty'al
lar
esti
llal
iv
e"
Me:
"I
'l
lseet
hem t
oni
ght
"
Hegav
emeasi
deey
e
Me:"
rel
axmom I'
l
lbegoi
nghomet
oshowerIdon'
t
wanttosmel
lbadwhenmywif
ewakesup"
Si
sanda:
"Lwandl
eit
'sst
il
l.
..
'
Me:
"uhuhdon'
tki
l
lmyj
oyl
etmekeept
hist
inyspar
k
off
ait
h"
Hepatmyshoulderandj
ustwal
kedoutfol
lowing
t
henursesIdi
dn'tknowwhet
herIshoul
dfoll
ow
them orjustsithere any wayIdeci
dedtocal lthe
guysandchecki ftheyhav emadeanyprogr essbut
nothi
ngy ettheyjustt ol
dmet owaitali
ttl
e ev en
myownguy sdidn'tgetanythi
ng,
wherethesepeopl e
i
nv i
sibl
ewhent heydi dthi
shuh?ButIwill
findt hem
andthey'l
lregretev erhurt
ingmywi f
eandki ll
i
ngmy
daughterinthepr ogress
.
ք ռ օք
Iwasbei
ngcutup
Lady
:"Lol
o!It
oldy
ougoback"
Me:
"It
ri
ed,
Iwasl
ooki
ngforyoumay
bey
oucant
ell
meImeanmybodyrej
ectsme"
Lady:
"Itol
dyout
omov
eonandl
eav
etheki
dst
hey
arehappy"
Me:"
buttheyar
emyki
ds,
Imi
sst
hem t
heyneedmeI
needthem t
oo"
Lady:
"gobackhomeLolo,Lol
ogobackory
ou'
l
ldi
e
onthatoper
ati
ngtabl
e."
Me:"
Ican'
tokay
..
..Itr
iedbutIcan'
tev
eryt
imeIdoI
j
ustendupbackhere"
Luy
anda:
"mama!
!"
Ikneltdownandscoopedhi
m upspi
nni
nghi
m
around
Me:
"babymommymi
ssedy
ou"
Luyanda:
"Idi
dtoo.
..Butwhyar
ey oubackher
e?I
tol
dy out
hatyouain'
tall
owedbackhere"
Me:"It
ri
edbabyIr
eal
l
ytr
iedbutIcan'
tmybody
r
ejectsme.
..
."
Lady:
"st
ophol
dingontothepast
,mov
eont
hen
you'
l
lgobacktoyourbody"
Me:"
buttheyaremybabi
esmydel i
catebabi
es.
..
I
car
ri
edthem formont
hsIjustcan'
t"
Luy
anda:
"mom comewi
thmeIwantt
oshowy
ou
wherewest
ay"
Me:
"youhav
eahouse?It
houghty
ouj
ustAngl
es"
Heki
ssedmycheek
Luy
anda:
"wedomamacomenow"
Hepulledmeupandwentwithmet othesegr
een
pastur
esthi
spl
acewassogreenitwasso
beauti
ful westeppedi
nthepastur
es
Luyanda:
"l
ayhereandj
ustl
ookatt
hesky
..
.i
t'
s
beauti
ful
isn'
t?"
Idi
dast
oldandIwasatpeace
Me:
"Icoul
dst
ayher
efor
..
..
"
Hequi
ckl
ycov
eredmymout
h
Luy
anda:
"don'
tsayt
hatt
heyneedy
oubackhome"
Inodandhemov
edhi
shandawayf
rom mymout
h
Me:
"sor
rywher
eisPhi
woI
'
dli
ket
oseeher
"
Yoht hel
adywasgi v
ingmenastystaresbutthen
againshebroughthertomeLordthischanceneh
iwishIhadmyphoneandcoul dtakesomepi ctur
es
Me:"
yourfat
herwoul
dbesohappytoknowt
haty'
all
ar
ealiv
e..
.Youknowhe'
sbeentr
yingt
obest
rongfor
mebuthecan't"
Ikissedthei
rcheeks whydoIf
eel
atpeaceher
e
thoughjusthavi
ngmybabi
esher
e.
Lady:
"l
ist
enherethekidswill
alwaysbeinher ei
n
yourhear
tandmi ndevenifyoudon'thavethem i
n
fr
ontofyou..
.They'l
lalwaysbeyourkidsyour
chi
ldr
ennowst opbeingstubbornandjustgoback
homegobackhome"
"
Gobackhome.
..Gobackhome.
..
.Gobackhome"
Iwast hr
ownbackagainandt hi
sti
meIcoul df
eel
mysoul andbodyconnect
ing Icoul
dnowhear
themachinesbeepi
ngandt hedoctorstal
kingbutI
couldn'
topenmyeyesnormov emybody i j
ust
wannawakeupsot hatIcantellLwandlethatour
kidsaresafe
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e
Todaytheyweregetti
ngPenelopeoutofthat
i
nducedcomast uffandmaybeshe'll
wakeupand
j
ustsmileatmeandki ssmeorhugme, t
ell
meshe
l
ovesme Imi ssedhervoi
ce,hersweetv oicej
ust
tohearhersaymyname ev enthekidsmi ssherI
walkedint
othehospital
wall
swhenmyphoner angit
wasPhat t
y
Me:
"t
ell
mey
ou'
vef
oundt
hem"
Phatty
:"thei
rtracksarewellcover
ed.
..We'v
ebeen
tr
yingbutnot hingbruhwejustbounceoffwal
l
s
whoev erdidthisisaprof
essional
"
Me:"
arghnotevenoneofmyol
denemi
esdi
dthi
s?
Fi
ndthem Phat
ty"
Phat
ty:
"Lwandl
ebr
uhwehav
etr
iedsol
et'
sst
opt
his
sear
chnow...
"
Me:
'
stopt
hissear
chI
'
m goi
ngt
oki
l
lyou"
Phat
ty:
"wear
eal
ll
osi
ngmoney
..
..
"
Hewasr ightIwastaki
ngaknockonmybank
balance byt het
imeIfi
ndthem I
'
llbebr
okeandI
can'thav
et hatImeanIhadl
ost50%ofmymoneyI
si
ghed
Me:
"f
inel
eav
eit j
ustt
ell
ever
yonet
obackdown"
Phatt
y:"
I'
m sor
rymanIknowhowi
mpor
tantt
hiswas
toyou"
Me:"
I'
ll
getthem onedayl
et'
sjustr
ecuper
ateI
'
llst
art
t
hissearchagai
n"
Phat
ty:
"Iknowy
ou'
l
lnev
ergi
veup"
Me:
"mmht hanksf
ory
ourhel
pmanIgot
tagonow
we'
l
ltal
klater
"
Ihungupandjustwentt oSi
sanda'
soff
iceIhada
minipr
ayerandjustwalkedi
nIfoundhi
m busy
goingt
hroughhi
sf i
les.
Me:
"heybr
o"
Hel
ookedupatmeandj
ustgav
emeaf
aintsmi
l
e.
Me:
"st
oppr
etendi
ng"
Hi
m:'
bruhI
'
m notpr
etendi
ngt
odayi
sagooddayshe
mi
ghtwakeup.
."
Me:'
mightSi
sandathewordmight
..
.It
'ski
l
li
ngmeI
wanttobecert
aint
hatshe'
ll
wakeup"
Hi
m:"
Itoldyouit'
stohowherbodyreact
sthenwe'
l
l
t
akei
tfrom ther
e..
..
buti
thasaccept
edthehear
tso
i
t'
l
lbeeasyforthedrugtowork"
Me:"
hopei
t'
struebr
uhIcan'
ttakeany
mor
esad
newsmykidsneedthei
rmot
her"
Hi
m:"
thenl
et'
sgo.
.I'
m sur
eyouar
eready
"
Inodandjustwalkedaheadofhim wewal
kedout
goingt
oLolo'sr
oom andwef oundsomenurses
busypreppi
ngher.
Me:
"doy
ouneedt
oopenherup?
"
Si
sanda:
'uhuhI'
l
ljusti
njectherdript
henI
'
m done.
.
Thi
sprocedur
eisnotthatcompl ex"
Me:
'
okayt
hendoi
t"
Iwentov
ert
ohersi
deandhel
dherhandandki
ssed
i
t.
Me:'
youbett
err
eactt
othemedi
cat
ionandwakeup
neh.
..Wakeupbaby"
Iki
ssedi
tagainandj
ustnodatSi
sandahei
nject
ed
thewhat
everhewasinj
ect
ingi
nher
Me:
"wi
l
lsher
eactnow?OrdoIhav
etowai
t?"
Hewasbusymov i
ngt
hatthi
ngyonherchestandhe
checkedherpul
seandwhatnot.
Me:
"sowhat
..
..
."
Shestar
tedhyper
vent
il
ati
ng wi
thf
oam comi
ng
outofhermouth
Me:
"dudedosomet
hing.
..
.St
opt
his"
Sisanda:
"Lwandl
eyouhav
etogowe'
l
ldeal
wit
h
this"
Me:
"noI
'
m not
..
..
."
Sisanda:
"pl
easeyou'
l
ljustgeti
nthewaysol
etme
helphergobruh"
Ihuf
fedandst
oodupl
eav
ingt
hem busyt
ryi
ngt
o
cal
m herdown
Me:
"youbet
tersav
eherman"
Si
sanda:
"t
rustme"
Iwal
kedoutandwenttostandout
sidet hewindow
j
ustlooki
ngather theywerebusyinjecti
ngherI
deci
dedtocal
lSakhi
l
e Ineedmybr othernear
me,
heansweredandi
nthebackgr
oundIcoul
dhear
t
hekidscr
ying
Me:
"ni
ggawhatar
eyoudoi
ngt
omyki
ds?
"
Hi
m:"
theyar
ebusyact
ingup.
.Theywanty
ouand
t
hei
rmother
"
Me:
"t
hencomewi
tht
hem t
othehospi
tal
Ineed
t
hem t
oo.
..
"
Hi
m:"
what
'sgoi
ngon?It
houghtt
odaywasD-
day
"
Me:
"she'
sact
ingupandi
tseemsl
i
keshe'
sget
ti
ng
wor
se"
Hi
m:"
wear
eont
heway
..
don'
twor
ry"
Me:"don'tspeedupwit
hmyki dsi
nyoucar
understand?Youdarehur
tthem I
'
dkil
lyou"
Hi
m:"I
'm not16any
mor
eyouknowt
hatr
ight
?Ihav
e
ababytoo"
Me:
"youhav
eababy
? ni
ggay
ouhav
eababy
?"
Hi
m:"
it
'snoti
mpor
tantI
'
m onmyway
"
Me:"
yeahwe'
l
lfi
nisht
hisconver
sionl
aterwher
eI'
d
ki
l
lyouwit
houtdi
stur
bances"
Ihungupbl oodyki
dtell
smehehasachi ldovert
he
phone whoi st
hatchi
ldhuhImeanIdon'tknow
thatI'
m anunclenowIwaitedforSi
sandatowalk
outbutinst
eadhecalledmei nsoIwentinIwas
secretl
yfr
eakingout
.
Si
sanda:
"she'
sst
abl
enowsowe'
l
ljustwai
tforhert
o
wakeup"
Il
etoutahef
tysi
ghandhej
ustpatmyshoul
der
.
Sisanda:
"whenshewakesupshemightbeconfused
solethergetusedt
ohersurr
oundi
ngsthentel
lher
okay"
Me:"
thanksbr
uhIowey
ou.
..
.atl
eastonet
hingi
s
goi
ngmyway "
Hel
ookedathi
snursesandt
oldt
hem t
ogooutso
t
heyscur
ri
edout.
Hi
m:"
what
'sup?
"
Me:
"Ij
ustl
ostmoneyf
ornot
hingt
heycoul
dn'
tfi
nd
t
hem"
Hi
m:"
soy
oucal
l
edof
fthesear
ch?
"
Isi
ghedandnod
Me:
"I
'dbebrokewhenIf i
ndthem andIcan'
tputmy
f
amil
yt hr
oughthatsoI'
l
lwaitforLol
otowakeup
t
hendiscusst
hiswithher"
Hi
m:"
goodt
haty
our
emembery
ourwi
fe"
Me:"
shebetterwakeupI'
ml osi
ngmymi ndher
ethi
s
si
deapparentl
yI'
m am uncl
e"Ichuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
what
? Sakhi
l
ehasachi
l
d?When?
"
Me:"Idon'
tknowokayI'
m surehedi
dn'
tmeantotel
l
meitjustsli
ppedoutmeaninghehasababybut
doesn'twantmetoknowcauseIwon'tagr
ee"
Hej
ustbur
stoutl
aughi
ng
Him:
"y'
al
lar
ejustt
hesamehegott
hisat
ti
tudef
rom
you"
Me:"
I'
m ol
dert
hanhi
myouknow.
..Don'
tcompar
e
us"
Him:"
exact
lymypointy
ourubbedof
fonhimyou
rai
sedhimfrom ay
oungagesohetookyour
Pri
nci
ples"
Me:"Idi
dn'
tgetagi
rlpr
egnantt
henhi
deitIhave
bothmybabieswit
hmesowhatar eyoutal
king
about?"
Him:
"Ineversai
dyouhidyourki
dsj
eezSokhul
uguy
s
don'
tunderst
andthatqui
ckl
yneh?"
Ist
aredathi
m andhechuckl
edwal
ki
ngout
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngt
ogety
ouf
ort
his"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
bewai
ti
ngf
ory
ourweakpunchl
i
nes"
Me:
"She'
l
lteachmewhenshewakesup"
IrubbedLolo'sforehead andj usttookherhand
i
nt omineandbr oughtituptomyl i
psIjustplacedit
thereforthelongestti
mejuststari
ngatherwi thout
thatbreathi
ngmaskIwasj ustwaiti
ngforherto
openherey esbutnot hi
ngIkisseditagai
nand
placeditagainstmychin
Me:"I'
m soexci
tedri
ghtnow..
.I'
m evengetti
ng
butt
erfli
esi
nmyt ummycauseoft his.I
tfeel
sli
kea
centurywit
houtyouclosetomeorhav i
ngahome
cookedmeal Sakhi l
ei snof
unlivi
ngwi t
hhim..
..
"
"
Ihear
dthat
"
Ij
ustki
ssedLolo'
shandandlookedathim wal
ki
ng
i
nwiththeki
dsonbotharmsl engt
htheywere
sul
ki
ngtheyrantomeandjusthuggedmyl egs
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?
"
Lsg:
"youl
eftusdaddy
"
Me:"i
twasn'
tfor
evert
houghbi
gguyIwascomi
ng
back"
Lsg:
"uhuhy
oul
eftj
ustl
i
kemommy
"
Me:"
mommydi dn'
twantt
oleav
eyouguy
sshel
oves
youandsoonshe'
l
lbebackhome"
Phi
l
a:"
shehat
esus"

Me:"heylookhereismommy .
..
.She'
sjustsickri
ght
nowIt oldyouthatdidn'
tI?Mommyi ssickand
needst obeheretil
lshegetsbett
ert
henshe' l
lput
youtosl eepandsingforyoul
ikeshealwaysdoes"
Sakhi
l
e:"
lookbr
uh"
Me:
"what
?"
Hej
ustpoi
ntedatLol
oandshewascr
yingbutst
il
l
outofi
t meaningsshecanhearusandnowthe
ki
dsthi
nki
ngshel
eftt
hem Iwi pedhertear
saway
Me:"
seeyouaremaki
ngmommycr
ywheny
ousay
shedoesn'
tl
oveyou.
..
"
Phi
l
a:"
sor
rydaddy
"
Me:
"saysor
ryt
omommynotme"
IpickedherupandshesatonmylapandSakhi
l
e
tookLesegoIjustwantt
hem t
oseehermaybethey
mighthelphergetbackt
ous
Me:
"gi
vemommyahugbaby
"
Sheshookherheadandl
aidherheadonmychestI
l
ookedatSakhi
lewhonod i di
otIdi
dn'
tfor
gety
our
l
it
tl
estunt
Me:
"Lesegoy
ougi
vemommyahug"
Lsg:
"I
'm scar
eddaddy
"
Sakhi
l
e:"
heyyouhav
enot
hingt
obeaf
rai
dofr
ight
?
She'
ssti
ll
yourmommy"
Me:
"mmhandshet ol
dmethatshemi
ssedy
ouguys
somuchshecan'
twaitt
ocomebackhomebuty
ou'
ll
hav
etogi
vehert
heBesthugev
ert
ohel
pher
"
Sakhi
l
e:"
yeahy
ourhugswi
l
lhel
phergetback"
Okaywear
ely
ingsowhat ‍♀
Lsg:
"okay
..
..Hi
mommy
"
Hetouchedhercheekandr ubbeditwellPhi
lawas
sti
l
lscaredbutshewant edtodoittoosoIjustt
ook
herhandandpl aceditt
herebutshequickl
ypull
ed
awayandl ookedupatmewi thglassyeyes I
peckedherpout edl
ips.
Me:
"goaheadbabyshewon'
thur
tyou"
Sakhi
l
e:"
mal
umel
ookatLesego.
..Comeondoi
tfor
me"
Ohy eahIf orgottot el
lyouthesethr
eearesocl ose
nowt heycal leachot herMalume al lbecause
Sakhi l
et akest hem wi t
hhim ever
ywher
ehegoes
resultinginhi m sneakingoutwhenhehascl asses.
Philajustl ookedupatmewi thherl
owerli
p
trembl ingshewant edt ocr
ybutwhynoonehi ther
soIj ustengul fedheri nahugandshesobbed she
wascr yinglikesomeonehi ther
Me:"
it
'sokaypr
incess,
daddyissorr
y.I
'
m sosor
ry
babyokay?For
givemepr i
ncess"
Ikissedherheadandj usthuggedherev entighterat
l
eastLesegowasbusyki ssinghismot her'
scheek
evenwi pinghertearsheseemedhappyt ofi
nall
y
touchherbutPhi laisscared/rel
ieved/
angry/happyI
j
ustdon' tknowheremot i
onsRi ghtnowbuthear ing
mydaught ercryl
ikethishurtsIdon'twanthertobe
thi
shear tbrokeni
nherent ir
et i
meIcoul dfeelmy
shirtgett
ingwetwi t
hhert ears.
Me:
"Babycomeony
ou'l
lgetaheadache.
..
.I'
m sor
ry
wecan'
thavey
oucr
yingl
ikethi
s"
Shebr
okethehugandwi
pedhert
ear
sawayshe
l
ookedupatme
Me:
"wantmet
ogety
ouany
thi
ng?
"
Sheshookherheadandjustwiggledoutofmyhol d
soIplacedherdownandshedr aggedherfeetGod
mychildisl
azyplusbei
ngadramaQueenatt imesI
watchedhergoingtot
akeherbackpackanddr agit
tome
Phi
l
a:"
take"
Me:
"what
'si
nher
e?"
Phi
l
a:"
formommy
"
Me:
"ohy
oubr
oughthersomet
hing"
Shenod
Me:
"okayl
et'
ssee"
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ookoutthi
sweir
dpanti
ng theydrew
monst
ersIwant
edtolaughbutIr
estrai
nedmy
sel
f
Me:
"whowr
otet
hisf
ory
ou?
"
Phi
l
a:"
Mal
ume"
Me:
"oohdi
dyout
hankhi
m"
Theynod
Me:
"i
t'
spr
ett
y..Comeher
e"
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ckedherupagai
nandsheexpl
ainedt
hepict
ure
tome Iwant edtolaughGodwehadsuchbig
headsIgav
ehertoLolo
Me:"gi
vemommyahugbabypl
ease.
..
doi
tfor
daddy"
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ustki
ssedLol
o'
scheekandl
ookedat
me
Me:
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Shegotonthebedandgav eherahugandaki sson
thefor
eheadItookherandjusthuggedherthisone
acrybabysoshemi ghtj
uststartcryi
ngcauseshe
wasbusysulki
ng ‍♀takesaf terhermother
.
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11/
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h
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t hingnowt her
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.
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ome
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iedl
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ti
ngmyhandbutit
wasfloppyfuckthi
sIcoughedabit.
Me:
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..
.Lwandl
e!.
..
."
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dn'
twakeup
Me:
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e..
.Wakeup"
Iwaswhi
sper
ingGodknowsIwaswhi
sper
ing
Me:
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e!!
!"
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orsomet hing hi sey esr
anar oundbutl andedt o
meandt hishugesmi leaccompani edbyt ear
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ov erandov eragainIhadtopullitawayt osav eit
from beingeatenandheat t
ackedmyf ace I
l
ookedt heot herwayandheki ssedmycheek
Me:
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est
opi
t.
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opi
t "
Hest
oppedandst
aredatmewi
thf
urr
owed
ey
ebr
ows
Hi
m:"
am Ihur
ti
ngy
ou?
"
Me:
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mmhsomanyki
sses?I
'
mfi
nenowsost
opi
t"
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edandr
ubbedmyf
orehead
Him:
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'
m sohappythaty
ouareawakeIj
ust
..
.I
can'
tseemysel
fwi
thoutyouPenel
ope"
Me:
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erLwandl
e"
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pedme
dr
inkhel
pingmesitupst
rai
ght
.
Hi
m:"
so?
"
Ishr
ug
Hi
m:"
youhungr
y?"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
wantmet
oki
ssy
ou?
"
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:"
youdead?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
wantmet
obur
yyou?Orbur
nyou?"
Inod
Everseenachi
l
dexci
ted?ThenwhenIsayLwandle
waslikeaki
dsmil
i
ngfrom eart
oearl
eani
ngagainst
hi
shandsholdi
ngontomine.
Hi
m:"
wantmet
ohav
esexwi
thy
ou"
Hewhi
sper
ed
Inodandhechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
now?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
wai
t.
..Unmut
ebut
tonLol
o"
Me:
"butIl
i
kebei
ngmut
e"
Hechuckl
ed
Me:
"shht
heyar
esl
eepi
nghau"
Hepeckedmyl
i
ps
Hi
m:"babeIhav
esomanyt
hingst
otel
lyou.
..Ihav
e
awholemagazine"
Me:
"ohr
eal
l
y?You'
ret
henewgossi
pmagazi
nes?"
Him:
"mmhf
ir
stl
yIj
ustf
oundoutt
hatSakhi
l
ehasa
baby
"
Me:
"oh.
..
"
Hi
m:"
oh?Oh?Soy
ouknew?
"
Me:"wel
lnotr
eal
l
yjustt
hatIwassuspi
ci
ousandI
askedhi
m andhetol
dme"
Hi
m:"
andy
oudi
dn'
ttel
lme?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"youbabearenott
heni
cestper
sont
otel
lthese
t
ypeofthi
ngs"
Hi
m:'
whoset
hemot
her
?"
Me:
"whydoy
ouwantmet
otel
lyou?
"
Him:'
causeI'
my ourhusbandandthati
diotwon'
ttel
l
meandsi ncewedon'thaveparent
sLoloIhaveto
dorightbyherandthebaby.
..Sheneedstobea
Sokhulu"
Me:
"shedoesn'
twantt
obeaSokhul
u"
Hi
m:"
ohsoy
ou'
vespokent
oher
?Whoi
sshe?
"
Me:"
leav
eithautheyarehappywi
ththei
r
ar
rangementandI'
m happywithi
ttoo"
Hi
m:"
butI
'
m not
"
Me:
'
noty
ourchoi
cenowst
opi
t"
Hi
m:"
yousobossyandy
ouj
ustwokeup"
Me:
"I
'l
lbebossyev
enwhenI
'
m dead"
Hi
m: "
justt
ell
met henamemaybeIcanspeaktot
he
gi
rlandchangehermindbabeheneedssomeone
who'l
lputhi
mi nl
ine"
Me:"Idon'
twannal osemyl i
tt
lesist
erLwandleso
stopitIdon'twanthertohavetheSokhul uname
andshe'sfineinBushsodon' t
..
.Don'tevengotoher
l
etthem sor tt
hei
rstuffoutt
heymadet hebaby
together
"
Hi
m:"
babe.
..Luy
olo'
sbabyi
saSokhul
u?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
andy
oudon'
ttel
lme?Ar
eyoucr
azy
?"
Me:
"f
utsekleav
emynephewandsi
steral
onel
et
t
hem beshame"
Hi
m:"
he'
sbeingr
aisedbysomei
diotwhent
hatboy
i
saSokhul
u"
Me:" t hati
diotwi
l
lmakemyf ami
lyl
iv
elongerso
keepyourpawsaway .
..
.nowcomesl
eepbefor
eyou
boreme"
Hi
m:"
buthe'
s.
.."
Me:
"Lwandl
egetont
hisbedandst
opdr
eami
ng"
Hesulkednxasuchabi
gbaby hesl owl
ygoton
thebedandmov edmyheadt
ohischestIj
ustwoke
upsohehast omakemesureI'
m okay
Me:"
youknowIsawLuy
andaandPhi
wokuhl
e..
..
Babytheyar
ehappy "
Hi
m:"
what
?"
Me:
"weshouldj
ustmoveonbabyweshoul
djust
f
ocusontheset
hree"
Hi
m:"Sakhi
l
eisnotaki
d,aker
ehehaschi
l
dand
di
dn'
ttel
lme",
Me:
"yousuchababy
..
.Onewoul
dswearIst
il
lbr
east
f
eedyou"
Hechuckl
edandki
ssedmyf
orehead
Hi
m:"
may
bei
t'
sbecauseImi
ssedy
ou"
Me:"
Idi
dn'
tmissyouIhear
dyoucr
yingev
erysi
ngl
e
dayi
twasannoyi
ng..
."
Hecl
i
ckedhi
stongue
Me:
"ar
eyou.
.."
Hi
m:"
sleepandl
eav
emeal
one"
Iwant
edt olaughbuteishsoIj
ustkeptt
omy
sel
f
andsnuggledclosert
ohim
Me:
"Il
ovey
oubi
gbaby
"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyoumor
e"
Hehuggedmebutnott
oti
ght
.
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2year
slat
er]
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Doorknock]
Islowlygotoutofbedandj
ustdr
aggedmyselft
o
thedoor If oundLesegoandhi
ssist
eral
ready
giggl
ing
Me:"
youtwo?WhatdidIsayaboutanswer
ingt
he
doorwhenI'
m nott
here?"
Lsg:
"sor
rymama"
Phi
l
a:"
sor
ry"
Me:"nxatoyourr
oomsnowandcomewi thyour
bags..
.Itol
dyouthaty
ou'
llgetki
dnappedbutyou
don'
tlist
enwhenIspeak"
Lwandl
e:"
stopshout
ingatt
hem hau"
Me;
'y
oushutuppl
ease..
.Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Wherei
syour'
gi
rl
fr
iend'
?"
Theki
dsr
anupt
hest
air
stot
hei
rroom Isl
owl
ysat
down
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngi
nmyhouse?
"
Hi
m:"
howar
etheyt
reat
ingy
ou?Youl
ookt
ir
ed"
Me:"
I'
m pr
egnantwi
tht
winsofcour
seI
'
mti
rednow
whatdoyouwant?"
Him:"
umhr ememberwehav et
ogobackhomef
or
yourcl
eansingLol
o,wenev
erhadany
"
Me:
"I
'mt
ir
edLwandl
ecan'
ttheycomeher
e?"
Heshookhi
shead
Him:"
letmedorightbyyouandi
ntr
oducey
out
othe
ancestor
syouandPhila"
Me:"
she'
sfoury
ouknow?Youshoul
dhav
edonet
hat
whenshewasstil
lababy
"
Hi
m:"
I'
m ani
diotIknowbutl
et'
sgo"
Me:"
youcani
ntroduceyourki
dsandy
ourgir
lf
ri
end
notme.
..I
'
m donewi t
hyouSokhul
upeopl
e"
Hi
m:"okaysohav
eyoupacked?Wehav
etost
art
dr
ivi
ng"
Inod
Hi
m:"
iny
ourbedr
oom?
"
Inod
Me:
"whenam Iget
ti
ngmycar
?"
Hest
oodupandi
gnor
edme
Me:
"Lwandl
e?Iwantmycarhau"
Hi
m:"
yousai
dyoudon'
twanti
tmose"
Me:
"yeahy
ourbi
tchhaddr
iveni
tIdon'
twant
any
thi
ngt
hatshet
ouches.
..Iwantanewone"
Hi
m:'
thatonewasnew"
Me:"
Iwantt
wocar
sev
enami
niv
anf
ort
hef
ami
l
y
andmyowncar"
Hi
m:"
why
?Ther
eisonl
yoneofy
ou"
Me:
"wel
lIwantt
wo"
Hest
opped
Him:
"It
houghty
ouweret
ir
edbutnow?Whogav
e
yout
heenergyt
ofol
l
owme? "

Me:"
Iwantt
hosecarst
hou..
.Ican'
tbeseencatchi
ng
acabwithf
ourbabi
eswhil
etheirf
atheri
sbusy
spl
ashi
ngmoneyhismist
ressorwhatevert
hatthi
ng
i
s"
Hi
m:"
stopcal
l
ingherLol
oshehasaname"
Me:"
Idon'tcarej
ustbuymewhatIwantandtel
lher
andherfl
ooziestostayawayf
rom mybout
iqueorI
'
ll
ki
ll
them nxapettybi
tches"
Hi
m:"
youar
etheonebei
ngpet
ty"
Me:"ohsoI'm pett
y?I'
m petty
?Shecamet her
e
fl
ashingthi
sblackcar dapparentl
yyougaveher..
i
s
shethatstupi
dt hatshedoesn'tknowblackcards
areoutoffashionnowonl yGoldcardsscareme? "
Hi
m:"
fi
neI
'
llt
ell
hert
ost
ayawayy
ouhappy
?"
Me:"
yeaandsheshouldn'
tcookf
ormyki
dsIdon'
t
wannamournanotherchi
ld"
Hesi
ghed
Hi
m:'
any
thi
ngel
se?
"
Me:
'
yest
hecar
s"
Heputmybagsint
hebootoft
hecarandt
ookt
he
ki
d'
sbagswhil
eIbuckl
edt
hem up
Phi
l
a:"
mommyi
t'
sti
ght
"
Isi
ghed
Me:
'
sor
rybabyl
etmef
ixi
tfory
ou"
Lsg:
"youst
il
langr
yatus?
"
Me:
'ofcour
senotbabymommyi
snotangr
yI'
m
j
ust
..."
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Carhoot
ing]
Mybl ackandpi nkSUVpull
edover dumbass
bi
tchbl oodyblondeshe'
sanidi
otli
ter
all
yIj
ust
buckl
edupt hekidsandgoti
ntothefr
ontherv
oice
boresme.
Lsg:
"mommy
"
Me:
"yesbaby
?"
Lsg:
"you'
reangr
yatdaddyandauntAmber
?"
Me:"
I'
m notangr
ybabyI
'
mjust
..
..Don'
tyouwantt
o
l
ist
entomusic?"
Phi
l
a:"
yespl
ease"
Inodandt
ookadeepandconnect
edmyi
Padf
or
them
"
HeyLol
o"
thi
sstupi
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ngvoiceitannoysmet othe
coreItookadeepbreathandl ookedathermakeup
pl
asteredface wowhowdoesLwandl enotice
herwhenshet akesoffhermakeupI '
dhav et
rouble
noti
cingheryouknow Icl earedmyt hr
oat
Me:
'
Amber
"
Amber
:"
mmhIseey
ouar
eenj
oyi
ngt
hef
rontseatof
myman'scar
"
Me:
"ohyoumeant his?Don'
tworr
yseati
ngoniti
s
t
helastt
hingI
'denjoyedri
ghtnowIwannado
mor
e j usttotestitout
"
Amber
:"
Lwandl
egether
enow"
Hewasdr
aggi
nghi
sfeet hest
oodbesi
desher
Lwandl
e:"
what
?"
Amber:"
sothi
sist
hereasonyouwant
edt
ori
dewi
th
yourbabymama?Youarefuck.
..
."
Me:
"haibot
henoi
sesomeofushaveki
dsjeez.
..
.
Her
ey ougobabi
esdon'
tbepul
l
ingi
tokay
?"
Lsg:
"okaymommydaddyl
et'
sgo"
Me:
"yespl
easel
et'
sgo"
Hel
ookedatmet
henatAmber
Lwandl
e:"
weshoul
dgetgoi
ngi
t'
sfarwher
ewear
e
goi
ng"
Heki
ssedhercheek
Lwandl
e:"
seey
ouwhenIgetback"
Amber
:"
I'
m comi
ngwi
th.
."
Lwandle:
"i
t'
saprivat
eceremonyAmberf
orLol
oand
theki
dsnotjustanyonecancome"
Amber:
"ohsoI'
m any
onenowokaygoy
ouandy
our
fami
l
yIdon'twannai
ntr
ude"
Me:"
dramadr
amadr
ama Lwandl
elet
'sgohauI
'
m
st
arvi
ng"
Amber
:"
shutup"
Lwandl
e:"
Amberst
opi
t"heshout
ed
Shewal
kedawayandhecamet
othecarhegoti
n
andj
ustl
ookedatme.
Hi
m:"
don'
tsayany
thi
ng.
.."
Ishr
ug
Me:
"Iwasn'
tgoi
ngt
osayany
thi
nghau"
[
Cel
l
phoner
ings]
Iqui
ckl
ytookmyphoneandf
oundKgahl
i
so
cal
l
ingIqui
ckl
yanswer
ed.
Me:
"MrMzi
l
ikazi
"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"ma'
Mzil
ikazi
..
.HautodayIcometocheckup
onyoubutt
henagainIdon'tf
indyou"
Me:
"ohaski
esIwasn'
tfeel
i
nggoodsoIst
ayedi
n"
Hi
m:"
ohbabyshoul
dIcomeov
er"
Me:"
uhuhLwandl
ecamet ofetchmewearedri
vi
ng
downtohi
sfamil
yfort
hatceremonywhatwhat
"
Hi
m:"
okaysowheny
ougetbacky
ou'
l
ltel
lme?I
mi
ssyou"
Me:
"nawy
azi
I'
ll
lety
ouknow"
Hi
m:"
okayt
ell
mewheny
ouar
ri
veneh"
Me:
'
mmhIwi
l
llety
ouknowwe'
l
ltal
kal
lni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
that
'smygi
rl
..Wher
ear
etheki
ds?
"
Me:
"att
hebackl
i
steni
ngt
oMusi
cli
keal
way
s"
Hel
aughed
Hi
m:"
yourl
i
ttl
ear
ti
sts.
..Gr
eatt
hem neh"
Me:
"okaywai
t.
..Lesego,
Phi
l
a?Kgahl
i
sosay
shi
"
Them:
"Hel
l
o!!
"
Theywer
eexci
ted Iputt
hephoneonmyear
Me:
"hear
dthem?
"
Hi
m:"
yeaht
hanksmamakhe"
Me:
"youwel
comel
i
stenIhav
etogookay
"
Hi
m::
"okayt
akecar
e"
HehungupandIjustst
art
edwhi
stl
i
ngmaki
ng
Lwandl
elookatme.
Lwandl
e:'
whatcol
ors?
"
Me:
"what
?"
Lwandl
e:"
thecar
syouwantwhatcol
ors"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?You'
l
lbuyt
hem f
orme?
"
Henod
Me:"
umhwell
amat t
epur
pleandbl
ackAMGanda
bl
ueSUVmini
van"
Lwandl
e:"okaythey'
l
ldel
i
vert
hem soonwhenwe
gethomey ou'
l
lfindt
hem"
Me:
"goodt
hanky
ouSokhul
u"
Henodandl ookedatther oad ‍♀wel l
I'
m
pregnantbutourlovejustfadedIdon'tknow
whetherit'
severyt
hingwe' vebeenthroughorwhat
butwedeci dedtodivorceandev ery
onegoest hei
r
separatewayandIl i
kei tIl
ikethearr
angementmor e
thanany t
hing.
Me:
"whydi
dyout
ell
Amberi
tsapr
ivat
ecer
emony
?"
Hel
ookedatmeandqui
ckl
ylookedaway
Him:
"you'
repregnantandIdon'
twantanydr
ama.
..
She'
l
lbeadr amaQueent her
e"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:" hai
inani
thethi
ngsyoupick howdi
dyou
noticeher?Sheisal
waysplaster
edi
nmakeupal
l
fake"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
isshet
hatbad?
"
Me:
'hhashe'
sworseshameI
'
m all
abouty
oumovi
ng
onbutI'
dbehappyify
oumovedonwit
hsomeone
whomadey ouhappyt
hroughandt
hroughnotwher
e
youpr
etend"
Hest
oppedatt
her
edl
i
ght
Hi
m:"
youhappywi
tht
hatguy
?"
Ishr
ug
Me:"butIdon'
tpr
etendwhenI'
m withhi
m LwandleI
knowy ouandwithherIcanseeyouarenothappy
noteventhesmil
esy ougiv
eoutaretr
ueyouarejust
pret
ending"
Hi
m: "
whatcanIdoLol
o?Ij
ust
..
.Iguessourdi
vor
ce
af
fectedmebadly
"
Me:"damni tmusthavebeenbad butdumpthay
gi
rlpleaseshe'
ssuchasnobshe'l
ldr
iveyoucr
azyof
notmef ir
stsoinsecur
e"
Hi
m:"
yeahshei
sinsecur
e..Butt
heydon'
tMake
t
hem l
i
keyouanymore"
Me:'
l
imit
edediti
onSokhul
u..
.ButuhuhIhat
eseei
ng
youl
ikethi
sitai
n'ty
ou"
Hi
m:'
thenl
et'
sst
artov
er.
.Let
'
sgoonadat
ewhen
wecomeback"
Me:
'
huh?Wear
edi
vor
cedandshar
eki
dsso.
..
"
Hi
m:"t
hinkabouti
tLol
othesegi
rl
sar
eahandf
ull
I
j
ustwantyou"
Me:'
we'l
lbepretendi
ngt
obei
nlov
eLwandl
eit
's
gonethatspar
k"
Hi
m:"j
ustaf
ewdat
esIpr
omi
sey
ouI
'
lll
eav
eyou
al
oneaft
ert
hat
"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"I
'm hungr
ynowsobuymef
ood"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:'
atournextst
opI
'
llbuyy
ouf
ood"
Inodandj
ustl
ookedoutoft
hewi
ndow
Me:
"canIpl
aysomemusi
c"
HenodsoIconnectedmyphoneandjustpicked
Sam Smi
thNothingl
eftf
oryou helookedatme
andIqui
ckl
ylookedawayIwasbusysingi
ngal ong
tot
hesonghechuckled
Hi
m:"
soI
'
mthef
ool
?"
Me:
"Idunnowannabe?
"
Heshookhi sheadandl ookedatt hefrontbuthey
thi
ssongi stalki
ngaboutoursi tuati
onshameandI
heardlisteningtosuchsongshel psandohy eahwe
havebeendi vorcedforay earnowI '
m pregnant
causeonedayhecamet obr i
ngt hekidsov erneh
‍♀st uffhappenedandi nsteadofussay ingi
t'
s
enoughweact uall
ymadel ov etheent i
reweek
everywher ewet houghtofdoi ngi twewant edkidsor
j
ustt hatonechi ldtocloset hechapt er
.Her ubbed
myt ummy
Hi
m:"
they
'r
egr
owi
nghey
"
Inod
Me:
"t
heyeatal
ott
hat
'
swhy
..
."
RuthBlostboy Il
ikesi
ngingthi
sfort
heki
dsso
theybegansi
ngi
ngattheback
Phi
l
a:"
mamasi
ngwi
thus"
Il
ookedatLwandl
eandheshr
ug
Me:
"okayl
et'
ssi
ngf
ordaddyhedoesn'
tknowi
t"
Wesangourl ungsoutbutthosetwoattheback
wantedthei
rvoicest
obehear dmor et
hanmi ne
butwehadf unshame whosai dadivorceshoul
d
makey ouhateeachotheroralwaysfi
ghthuh?
[
11/
2,21:
43]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
ɛքsօ 68♡
.
ք ռ օք
.
Whenwegott otheSokhul
uempireLordknowsI
wast i
redthi
ssidehadaheadache Lwandl e'ski
ds
wereonl oudspeakerf
orci
ngmet osi
nglikeIknew
anyoft hesongsIknowIshoul
dbewear i
ngaski r
t
ordressbutitscol
dIwaswearingmyAdidas
tr
acksuitsanduggbootsfuckt
hishouseishuge
Igotoutandst
ret
chedabi
t
Hi
m:"
yout
ir
ed?
"
Inod
Me:"
I'
mt ir
edli
kecrazySokhul
u..
.I'
l
lcar
ryPhi
l
aokay
ev
ent houghshe'
sfat"
Hechuckledandj
ustopenedt
hedoorand
unbuckl
edLesegohandi
nghimtome
Hi
m:"
he'
sthi
nsocar
ryhi
m"

Me:"
he'
sheavyst
il
l.
..Whydi
dtheyfal
lasl
eepagai
n?
Theywer
esingi
ngallal
ongbutnowtheyare
sl
eepi
ng"
Hi
m:"
didy
ouseehowt
heyat
e?"
Het ookhisdaughterandj
ustl
ockedthedoorwe
j
ustwal kedinLordmybackwaski l
l
ingmebutyeah
I
'm notev enthatf
arwewalkedi
njusttofi
ndthe
houseinfestedwithki
ds hehel dmyhand
thankGodhe' shere
Lwandl
e:"
hel
l
oev
ery
one"
Theyl
ookedatusandr
ant
ous
Lwandl
e:"
wher
ear
eyourpar
ent
s?"
"
Att
heback"
Lwandl
e:"
gof
etcht
hem andt
ell
them wehav
e
ar
ri
ved"
Theynodandr
anaway
Me:
"Lwandl
ethi
sguyher
epl
ease"
Hi
m:"
ohsor
ryl
ove.
..UmhImeanPenel
ope"
ehhhambaSokhul
u
Hi
m:"
fol
l
owme"
Hetookmeupstai
rsandwepl acedt
hekidsonone
bed Ikissedt
heircheeksandsodidt
heirf
ather
.
Me:
"won'
ttheybescaredwhent
heywakeup?Thi
s
i
sanewenv i
ronment"
Hi
m:"
we'
l
lleav
ethedooropenedt
hen"
Inodandsi
ghed
Hi
m:"
rel
axt
heset
woar
est
rongheaded"
Inodandj
ustr
ubbedmyt
ummy
Me:"
Ihat
ebei
ngpr
egnantLwandl
e If
eel
li
ke
shi
..
..
"
Hecoveredmymout hGodhisCologne Icould
smell
him al
ldayandnotgetenoughIpushedhi
s
handoff
Me:
'
youst
ink"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"y
eahri
ghtIknowy
oul
ovemysmel
lyour
moani
ngsai
ditall
"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tmoan"
Ipushedhim awayandwal kedouthefol
lowedme
busychuckli
ngwewentdownt hesteps I
wastiredanddizzyatthel
astfewstepsIjusthel
d
onther ai
l
slucki
lythebabydaddywasbehi ndmeso
heheldmywai st
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"
Me:
"Ij
ustf
eel
abi
tli
ghtheadedt
hat
'sal
l
"
Hi
m:"
that
'snotal
lcomel
eanonme"
Hetookmyhandandjustwr
appeditar
oundhi
s
neckandhi
sarmsar
oundmywai st
.
Hel
ookedatmewi
thsomuchwor
ry Ihat
eit
whent
hishappensr
ightnow
Me:
"Lwandl
emay
bei
t'
slowbl
oodsugarI
'
llbef
ine"
Hi
m:"It
oldyout
oeatt
hough.
..Don'
tknowwhyy
ou
di
dn'
tli
sten"
Me:
"butIat
ewhatIcoul
dwhyy
oushout
ingatme?
"
Hesi
ghed
Him:
"I
'm notbabyI'
m sor
ryj
ustt
hatwedon'twant
youbackinhospit
alnowdowe?ThelessIseeof
t
hatplacethebett
er"
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngt
ogi
vebi
rt
hther
eincasey
ouf
orgot
"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
seather
e..
.Wher
eisev
ery
one?
"
Ifi
xedmyselfupont
hebarst
ool
butIwas
uncomfor
table
Me:
"t
hist
hingi
suncomf
ort
abl
eyazi
..
."
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
umhI
'
llgety
ouachai
r"
Isul
ked
Me:
"putmeont
het
abl
eIl
i
kei
tmor
e"'
Hi
m:"
noty
ourhousenoassont
het
abl
e"
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Hi
m:"
stopt
hat
"
Me:
"I
'l
lseatont
hef
loory
ouknow"
Hi
m:"
don'
tbecr
azyhau.
..Umhj
ustadj
usti
ttogo
l
ower
"
Me:
"comeadj
usti
t"
Hi
m:"
ehhkonj
ehowmanymont
hsl
eft
?"
Ir
aisedmyhand
Me:"
fi
vemoret
ogobef or
etheypoponebyone.
..I
'
m
nev
erget
ti
ngpregnant
"
Henodandj
ustgav
emet
hishugesandwi
ch
Me:
"whatam Isupposedt
odowi
tht
his?
"
Hi
m:"
thr
owi
taway
"
Hegavememyj uiceandj
ustmoti
onedt
hatIeatso
Ij
ustcuti
tinhal
fandbeganeat
ing Ididn'
teven
swal
low
Me:
"what
'st
his?
"
Heshr
ug
Me:"
thist
hingi
sst
aleandsobl
uh.
..I
tdoesn'
tev
en
hav
et ast
e"
Hi
m:"
Imadei
thowIl
i
kei
t.
..
."
Me:"
Idon'
tl
ikei
t.
..Cany
oumakemeanot
herone
pl
ease"
Hef
urr
owedhi
sey
ebr
ows
Me:
"pl
ease"
Hehadhi
smomentandj
ustwentbackt
opi
cki
ng
Me:
"peanutbut
ter
,j
am andcucumberandumh
Mar
plesyrup"
Hel
ookedatmewi
thaney
ebr
owr
aised
Me:
"ev
enchi
ckenbr
eastf
il
let
sthenaj
arofpi
ckl
es"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
checkf
ory
ourpi
ckl
esneh"
Inodandyeahhegav
emet
hej
arofpi
ckl
esbutI
coul
dn'
topenit
Me:
"t
oot
ightpl
easeopeni
tforme"
Hedi
dandyeahIhadmypi
ckl
eswhi
l
ehemademe
mysandwi
ch
Afterawhilehebroughtmeaki l
lersandwichand
GodIwasgr at
efulforthi
sIhaditwhi l
ehewentto
callhi
sfamilyIwasr eall
yhungrynehbuthe
shouldn'
twor r
ysomuchi t'
snotniceseeinghi
ml i
ke
thatIli
kethesmi l
eyLwandl e.
.
Lwandl
e
Divor
cemyf oot.
.Yeahshet hi
nkswear edivorced
butIknowhowsheget sonesheget spregnantand
nowhor monesarehighshehatesmeandl ovesme
evencall
smewhenshe' sscaredtosleepnother
boyfr
iendthankGodforthatIwenttothebackand
foundmy'family
' j ustl
azingaroundwhenIcal led
them l
ongagoar et
heyreall
ytesti
ngmer ightnow
Me:
"di
dn'
tIsendt
heki
dst
ocal
lyoul
ongago"
Theyl
ookedatmewi
thast
oni
shedf
aces
Me:
"we'
vebeenwai
ti
ngf
orl
ongnow"
Lor
a:"
ohboyboy
..
."
Me:"
I'
m notyourboyboy.
..Ical
l
edy
'al
ll
ongagoand
youarest
il
lhere?Real
ly
?"
Mel
usi
:
"mshanar
especty
ourel
der
spl
ease"
It
ookadeepbr
eat
h
Me:"
mywi f
eiswait
ingtomeety'
al
landIhope
ev
erythi
ngisr
eadyforSat
urday
"
Iwalkedbackintothehouseohy eahhal
fofmy
famil
ydoesn'tknowLololikethey
'venev
ermether
onlyThamsanqaandhi swi f
eknowherbutsincet
he
weddingtheynevercheckeduponherwhenI
walkedint
othekitchenIfoundherwashingherpl
ate
andglass
Me:
"youshoul
dn'
tbedoi
ngt
hatLol
oyou'
ref
ragi
l
e"
Her
:"
Lwandl
eI'
m pr
egnantnotacr
ippl
ecomeon"
Me:
"seatdownpl
ease"
Shegr
innedandt
ookherj
arofpi
ckl
es
Her
:"
doy
ouhav
emor
e?Ineedt
hem"
Me:
"I
'l
lgobuyt
hem f
ory
ouokay
?"
Shebeamedandwal
kedt
owar
dst
hel
i
vingr
oom she
satdownandIsatdownbesi
desherIpi
ckedupher
l
egsandtookoffherboot
s
Me:
"sot
ell
me"
Her
:"
what
?"
Ibeganmassagi
ngherf
eetIknowshe'
l
lsoonbe
sl
eeping
Me:
"arey
ousleepi
ngwi
tht
hatdudey
ouwer
etal
ki
ng
t
ointhecar
"
Shesmi
rkedandwi
ggl
edherpi
ckl
eint
heai
r
Her
:"
arey
ouj
eal
ousMrSokhul
u?"
Me:
"what
?Noway
s"
Shenod
Me:
"st
opdoi
ngt
hathau"
Her
:"
doi
ngwhat
?Iwasj
ustaski
ngt
hat
'sal
l
"
Me:
"wel
l
?Ar
eyou?"
Sheshookherheadwi
thasmi
l
eonherf
ace
Her
:"
sti
ll
pregnantwi
thy
ourbabiessoIgot
ta
r
espectt
hem andyouasthei
rfat
hersoaft
er.
..Ican'
t
pr
omi
sey
ouany
thi
ng"
Me:
"meani
ngy
ou'
l
lsl
eepwi
thhi
m?"
Sheshr
ug
Me:
"Lol
ogi
vemeananswerpl
ease"
Her:
"youandIare.
..Nomor
eandy
ouhav
eyour
bl
ondegirlsol
et'
snot"
Me:
"mxm Iwon'
tmassagey
ou'
ref
eetany
mor
ethen"
Shesul
ked
Her:
"butt
heyar
eyourbabi
es.
..I
'
m car
ryi
ngy
our
babi
es"
Me:
"goodt
haty
our
emember
..
.Yout
ir
ed?
"
Shenod
Me:"
I'
llr
uny ouahotbubbl
ebat
hwi
thmassagesal
ts
you'
l
lrestokay"
Her
:"
okayt
hen.
.."
YeahveleIpi
ckedherupandtheyhadn'
tcometo
meethernowt heywantt
oseemef orwhoIreal
ly
am anywaywhileshewasbusyget
ti
ngreadyforher
bathIgotitr
eadyandy eahshecameinhershor
t
robetwinsaresomaki ngherlooksofat she'
dkil
l
mef orsayi
ngthisbuty ohshe'
sfatbutIl
i
keit
morecur v
esont hatbodyandt heassguys i
t'
s
l
ikeithasbeeninfl
atednotf or
gett
ingt
heboobs
Me:
"geti
nI'
l
lfi
vey
oumassage"
Her
:"
I'
ll
fal
lasl
eepanddr
own"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"Iwon'
tl
ett
hathappen.
..
.Comegeti
n"
Shejusttookof fhergownandgoti nsl
owl ythese
daysthesedi zzyspellsar
ekil
li
ngherI '
m even
fr
eakingoutIdon' tl
ikethefactt
hatshet akesabat h
wit
houtmet heretohel pherwhatifshehast hem
andjustfal
lsonhert ummyorhi t
st hebathtub
Her
:"
Lwandl
e?Hel
l
ooo!
!"
Iwokeupf
rom myt
ranceandst
aredather
Me:
"huh?
"
Her
:"
I'
mint
hebat
hnowy
oucanr
elaxwi
l
lyou?Gi
ve
memymassage"
If
orcedasmileandjustpul
ledupmysleevesI
st
artedbyspl
ashi
ngherwi t
hthewaterandgaveher
amassagewhileshewasmoani ng
Me:
"st
opdoi
ngt
hat
"
Shechuckl
edandnodIcontinuedti
ll
shewas
yawni
ngherfaceoffsoIgotheroutandcar
ri
edher
tobedandyeahshesleptassoonasherheadhi
t
thepi
ll
ow I'
m goodatputti
nghertosl
eepI
know.
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11/
2,21:
43]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
♡ քsօ 69♡
.
ք ռ օք ♡
.
Iwokeupsor ef
reshedallthosebodymassagesI
gotfr
om Lwandlewerejustonpointspeaki
ngofthe
bi
gbabyIfoundhim sleepingnextt
omewi thhi
s
headonmyt ummyhol dingont omesometimeshe
doesn'
twanttobeawayf rom mybell
yhe'dr
atherbe
cl
osetomer ubbingitIwant
edtomov ebuthejust
hel
donsoIr ubbedhisheadslowl
yhe'sthefi
rst
bornandt
heot hersarehi
syoungersi
bli
ngs
Me:
"Lwandl
e..
..Lwandl
ewakeupIwannapee"
Her
ubbedmytummyandy eahhegotawayfrom
mesti
l
lsl
eepi
ngthoughsonowhe'
salightsl
eeper
.
Hi
m:"
hur
rybackokay
?"
Il
ookedathi
m
Me:
"usemypi
l
lowsl
eepyhead"
Heshookhi
sheadandcur
ledup
Me:
"checkt
heki
dspl
ease"
Hebur i
edhisheadinthepil
lowandgroanedsee
he'sababyIjustwenttopeeyeahwhenIwasdoneI
washedmyhandsandj ustspl
ashedmyf acewith
waterIwasstarvi
ngbutIhadt oshowerfi
rstsoIgot
readyformyshoweraqui ckonenotabat hshame
soy eahIgoti
nandstoodundert heshowertap
Ihear
dthedoorbei
ngopened
Me:
"getoutpl
ease"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
twanty
out
ohav
edi
zzyspel
l
swi
thout
me"
Me:"Lwandle?Ishowerev
eryt
imeal
oneandIdon'
t
getdizzyspell
ssogetout"
Evergotgoosebumps?Well
hegavemegoose
bumpsbyj ustbei
ngbehi
ndmeandrubbi
ngmyback
Him:
"you'
real
way
stensewhat
'swr
ong?Whyar
eyou
sost
ressed?"
Me:
"I'
m notst
ressedLwandleI
'
mjustti
redst
op
massagi
ngmey ou'
reput
ti
ngmetosleep"
Heki
ssedmynecksucki
ngonme
Me:
"Lwandl
eenough!St
opi
t"
Hi
m:"I'
m sor
ryy
ouar
eri
ghtweshoul
dn'
tbedoi
ng
t
his.
..
."
Hepushedhi msel
fawayf r
om meandIhear dhi
m
walkoutthankgoodness.Igotoutsoonafterhi
m
andjustwenttogetmy sel
freadywellIf
oundhim on
thephoneheseemedt obet alki
ngtohisgfcause
hissmil
esaidital
landheev ensaidtheLwor d
hai
boany waywhocaresIj
ustappli
edmybody
l
otionandwentaboutpi
cki
ngmyout fi
tsoi
twasa
l
ongsweat erdr
essandmyf uruggboot
sIwor
emy
thi
ckCardiganandabeani
ewhenIwasdonehe
hungup
Me:
"wher
ear
etheki
ds?
"
Hi
m:"
theyar
eint
hei
rroom It
oldt
hem t
opl
ayt
her
e"
Me:
"okayandt
her
estofy
ourf
ami
l
y?"
Hi
m:"
downst
air
s"
Me:
"O-
kay
..
."
Iwasaboutt
owal
kout
Hi
m:'
Penel
ope?
"
Me:
"yeah?
"
Il
ookedathi
m
Hi
m:"sor
ryifImadey
oufeel
abituncomf
ort
abl
eI
j
ustdon'
tknowwhatcameover
..
."
Me;"
wat
erundert
hebr
idgeumhI
'
m hungr
ycanwe
go?"
Henodandst oodupsoIt ookmyleav
etoowe
walkedouti
nawkwardsilenceshamebutseei
ngmy
babiesr
unoutofthei
rroom gotmeallsmi
ley
Me:
"munchi
es"
Lsg:
"mommy
..
.I'
m hungr
y"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"
met
oobabyl
et'
sgoeatthen.I
'
m sur
edaddy
won'
tmi
ndmaki
ngusfood"
Lwandl
e:"
whyme?
"
Phi
l
a:"
pleasedaddywi
thacher
ryont
op"
Shebatt
edherl
ashesathim hersecr
etweapon
causehecav
edinandpickedherup
Lwandl
e:"
fi
neI
'
llcookf
ory
ouguy
s"
Wewal keddownwi t
hev eryoneholdi
ngt heirown
chi
ldsowhenwegotdownst ai
rswegotev eryone'
s
att
enti
onImeant heentirefamilybel
ievemet hi
s
famil
yishugewewal kedt owardsthem andt heyall
wentquietyoham Ithatuglyorwhatt heywer e
speaki
ngnotsolongagomose
Lwandle:
"Iseeallofyouar ehere.
..Babyt
hisismy
famil
y,
thisistheeldestauntLoraand
Melusi
,Sbusiso,
Vusimuzi,LuthandoandValenci
a"
Ishookthei
rhandsev
ent
houghi
twasacol
d
i
ntroduct
ion
Me:
"i
t'
sapl
easur
etof
inal
l
ymeety
oual
l
"
Theynod
Lwandl
e:"
Ithi
nkmyWI
FEi
stal
ki
ngt
oyou"
Me:
"Lwandl
eit
'
sfi
ne.
..
"
Hehuggedmywai
standpul
l
edmecl
osert
ohi
m
Lwandle:"
Ihopeever
yoneinthi
sroom i
sgoingt
o
respectherastheOWNERoft hi
shousecausewhat
shesay sgoesareweclear
?"
Mel
usi
:
"Hai
boZondot
hat
'snothowy
ouwer
erai
sed"
Lwandl e:
"wellIcansmel l
yourst
inki
ngatti
tudes
from afarjustknowt hatt
hisSot
hogirlasyouare
thinkingisheretostaycauseshe'smineal
l ofy
ou
bet t
errespecther"
Val
enci
a:"
mmhal
readywear
ebei
ngdi
ctat
ed.
..
Wenamf
azi
wakhonacan'
tyouspeak?"
Me:"mam I
'm bei
ngquit
ecauseIcan'
tdealwithal
l
yourfami
l
yf eudsIhav
etorespectmychil
dren"
Val
enci
a:"
mxm.
..Wheni
syourf
ami
l
ycomi
ng?
"
Lwandl
e:"
they
'l
lbeher
etomor
row"
Lsg:
"daddywe'
rehungr
y!!"
Hewasj
umpi
ngupanddown
Me:
"Lesegobehav
ehau.
..
"
Lsg:
"butmommy
..
."
Me:
"nohau,
daddyi
ssti
l
ltal
ki
ngwit
hhi
selder
sokay
.
ComeI'
l
lmakeyouguy
ssomethi
ngtoeat
"
Iwant
edt
otakePhi
l
afr
om herf
atherbutheshi
ft
ed
Lwandl
e:"
youshoul
dn'
tbeov
erexer
ti
ngy
our
sel
f"
Me:
"butI
..
."
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Doorknock]
Thisov
erl
ydr essedwomanwal kedinyohlor
ddid
shehaveatruckoffakenessscreamingoutofher
,I
fel
tLwandl
e'
sgr i
pgett
ightar
oundmywai stIgave
hi
m asqueezet
oophel
ahe'
shur
ti
ngme.
Woman:
"Sokhul
upeopl
e..
.Howar
eyou?"
Lor
a:"
hai
boMar
iawhendi
dyougetback?
"
Wellev
ery
onewashappyt
oseeherunl
i
kemet
hey
hugged
Maria:
"IgotbackassoonasIhear
dthaty
ou'l
lbe
conducti
ngacer emonyf
ormygrandsonwit
hout
tel
l
ingme"
Me:
"what
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Lwandl
e:"
Lol
otaket
heki
dst
otheki
tchennow"
Me:
"but
..
."
Lwandl
e:"
Isai
dnow"
HeplacedPhil
adownehhnoneedt otel
lmetwiceI
j
usttooktheki
dsandwentwiththem t
otheki
tchen
andImadeussomet hi
ngtoeatnogalwearehungr
y
thi
sfamil
yisstar
ti
ngtobor
emeev enwhenIj
ust
gothere.
.
Igott
appedont
heshoul
derbysomeonewhenIwas
washingtheplat
esIlookedaroundandfound
anotherf
akelookinggir
lli
ket
hatolderwomanthey
l
ookedalikeevenItookthenapkinandwipedmy
handslooki
ngather .
Me:
"yea?
"
Gi
rl
:"
theyar
ecal
l
ingy
ou"
Me:
"okayI
'
llbet
her
e"
Gi
rl
:"
nowpl
ease"
Me:
"Isai
dI'
m comi
ng.
..Don'
tmesswi
thmenxa"
Ishovedheroutofmywayandwentt othefri
dgeI
gotmykidssomey oghurti
t'
l
l keepthem busywhil
e
I'
m busywit
hthe'family'
Ifol
lowedt hatbit
chygir
lto
theli
vi
ngroom wellLwandlest oodupandl etme
seat
Me:
"t
hanky
ou"
Lwandl
e:"
wher
ear
etheki
ds?
"
Me:
"i
ntheki
tchenhav
ingsomedesser
t"
Hechuckl
edandr
ubbedmyhead
Lwandl
e:"
youcomf
ort
abl
e?"
Inod
Me:
"yest
hanky
ou"
Henod
Me:
"Ihear
dIwascal
l
ed"
Vusi
:
"yeswe'
dliketoi
ntr
oduceyout
oLesego'
s
gr
andmother
..
..She'
sAmandla'
smother
"
Me:
"wel
lni
cemeet
ingy
oumam"
A'
smom: "
Ihear
dy ou'
vebeent
akingcar
eofmy
gr
andson.
..Whyhaven'
tImetyou?"
Me:"
Idon'
tknow,
doy ouevenknowwhatt
hat
gr
andsonyouaret
alkingaboutl
ooksl
i
ke?"
A'smom:"mmhcanev
ery
oneexcuseuspl
ease.
..I
'
d
l
iketot
alktot
henewMrsSokhul
u"
Lwandl
e:'
aboutwhat
?"
Me:"
it
'sf
ineSokhul
uyoucancheckont
heki
ds
pl
ease"
Hel
ookedatmesoInod
Lwandl
e:"
Idar
eyout
otr
yany
thi
ngI
'
llhur
tyouy
ezwa?
Babe"
Hesqueezedmyhandandst
oodupIwasl ef
twit
h
t
hisol
dwomanandherdaughterorwhat
evershe
wasIfi
xedupmyCardi
gan
Me:
"I
'ml
i
steni
ngma"
Mar
ia:
"hey
iI'
m noty
ourmot
hery
ezwa.
..
"
Ichuckl
edandr
ubbedmynosebr
idge
Me:
"okayMARI
Aspeakpl
ease"
NxaI'
m donel
ett
ingpeopl
edisrespectmenot
any
mor ehauI
'
llf
ightf
ormy sel
f
Maria:
"Iwantyoutoli
stentomecareful
l
y,I
'
m not
yourfr
iendsodon'teventhi
nkyoucandisr
espect
measy ouwishI
'l
lmakey ouli
feal
ivi
nghell
"
Ibur
stoutl
aughi
ngbusyfli
cki
ngmynailsisthi
sol
d
womanseriousr
ightnowsheisgoi
ngtothreat
en
medoessheknowmeorshej usthear
daboutmeI
putmylegontopoftheot
her
Me:
"mmhIsee.
..Makemyl
i
feal
i
vinghel
l
"
Icl
apped
Me:"
niceoneGodIdon'
tknowwhenIl
aughedso
har
dy oushoul
dconsi
dercomedyy
ouknowy ou'
d
makeakill
ing"
Gi
rl
:"
yewenawat
chwhoy
out
alki
ngt
oneh"
Me:
"andshe'
l
lbey
ourmi
nion"
Maria:
"List
enherewhat ev
ery ournamei sthose
thi
ngsy ouarecarr
yingdoesn'tandwon' tevermake
youmyAmandl aandy ou'
llnevertakeherplacehe'
l
l
alwaysloveher"
Gi
rl
:"
busyhav
ingbabi
esl
i
keahor
nydog"
YohI
'
m bei
ngt
ickl
edIwasl
aughi
ngev
enhadt
ear
s
Gi
rl
:"
didwecr
ackaj
oke?
"
Me:"
haii
Yohy'
al
lar
eki
l
lingmey ezwa?Y'al
lar
e
t
hreat
eningmei
nmystate?Ehhmiracl
esneverend"
Mari
a:"
nxaIwanttot
akemydaught
er'
ssonyezwa?I
wantyoutoper
suadehi
mtosignhi
m overt
ousI
wantcust
odyofhi
m"
Me:"
ooh.
.AndI'l
ldothi
sbecause?Whywoul
dIgi
ve
youmySON?He' smyownnowhecal lsme
mommyj usti
maginemegivingawaymyson"
Mar
ia:
"heywenadon'
ttestmey
ouwon'
tl
ikeme"
Ismi
l
ed
Me: '
butI'
m wor seespecial l
ywhenI '
m pregnantli
ke
thi
s,I'l
lmakei trai
ncat sanddogsony ouwhi l
ethe
suni sout.Nev erandImeanev erthreatenme.You' l
l
l
eav emySONoutofy oursi l
lyvendet t
acausey ou
don'twantmet oprovetoy ouhowmuchLwandl e
l
ov esmeandhi ski
ds.I'l
lpretendy ounev ersaidthat
rubbishtomeandnott ellhim butIdar ey oufake
barbiedollsyoudar eshitonmeI '
llshowy ouhow
thi
sgi rl
candot ostuckupf akebi t
chesl i
keyou.You
don'tmeandy oudon' tknowwher eIcomef r
om so
acceptmysmi lescausey oudon' twantt omakeme
angry..
.IhopeImademy selfclear"
Ist
oodupandtuggedonmyCardi
ganIwal
kedaway
butst
oppedandl
ookedatt
hem
Me:
"andohIdon'
tcompet
ewithabsentpeopl
e
t
hat
'snotpl
ayi
ngfai
rnowisi
t?"
Itookadeepbreat
handst
ruttowardst
heki
tchenI
foundLwandl
eplayi
ngwi
ththekids
Me:
"f
ami
l
y..
.Whaty
'al
ldoi
ng?
"
Lwandl
e:"
thatwasqui
ckwhatdi
dtheywant
?"
Me:
"whatt
ypeofgamei
sthat
?"
Hest
aredatme
Me:
"what
?"
Lwandl
e:"
whatdi
dyouguy
stal
kabout
?"
"
Lesegocomeher
e"
Hewasaboutt
ost
andupbutIhel
dhi
m
Me:"
sitdownbaby
..Mommyt
oldy
ounott
ospeakt
o
st
rangers"
Lsg:
"sor
rymommy
"
Ismi
l
edandki
ssedhi
shead
Me:
"i
t'
sokayl
ove"
Il
ookedatt
hegi
rl
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantf
rom hi
m?"
Gi
rl
:"
youl
i
ttl
ewi
tchI
'
ll
..
.."
Lwandl
e:"
Ntsi
ki
!!Wat
chy
ourt
one"
Me:
"yesNt
siki
wat
chy
ourt
onebae"
Ismiledandlai
dmyheadonLwandle'sshoul
dershe
cl
ickedhertongueandwal
kedoutIchuckl
ed
cl
appingmyhands
Me:
"hai
iyouri
nlawsSokhul
u..
.Somuchhost
il
it
y?"
Lwandl
e:"
whatdi
dtheydo?
"
Me:"
ohdon' tworr
yabouti
tI'
l
ltel
lyouwhenIneed
you.
..Ineedpickl
esandIdi
dn'tf
indt
hem"
Lwandl
e:"
ohy
eahl
et'
sgobuyI
'
m sur
etheshopsar
e
st
il
lopen"
Inod
Me:
"ki
dsl
et'
sgo"
Ihel
dthei
rhandsbuttheyweredraggi
ngt hei
rfeet
soLwandleof
feredtopickt
hem upsoy eahwewent
outbusygi
ggl
ingli
keaf ami
lySat
aneaty ourheart
outshame.
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Whenwegotbackf rom t
heshopsIhadenough
picklestolastmeay earnoli
e Lwandlebought
them likecrazyIwasevenscaredt
osaystoporelse
he'dhav ewentcrazybutheywhoknows.Wewal ked
i
nt ot hehouseandthewholef ami
l
ywasthere
wat chingtv.
Us:
"hel
l
o"
Them:
"yebo"
Lor
a:"
yourf
oodi
sint
hewar
mer
"
Lwandl
e:"
wear
efi
net
hanky
ou,
comebabe.
"
Hepull
edmeawayf r
om thefamil
yandupt hestair
s
t
otheroom weonceputt hekidsinsosincethey
wereti
redwedecidedtobathethem andalsoput
t
hem tosleepact
uall
yIputthem tosleepsi
ncetheir
f
atherwasstandi
ngbehindmeandr ubbi
ngmy
t
ummyandIwasbusysi ngingtothem Iwonder
whathi
sjobisintheenti
rethi
ng
Me:
"I
'm sosl
eepyumhgoodni
ghtokay
"
Hi
m:"
goodni
ght
?Wear
esl
eepi
ngt
oget
hermy
sweet
hear
tai
n'
tnoonesl
eepi
ngal
one"
Me:
'
Lwandl
e..
..
"
Hi
m:"
yes?Comelet
'
sgoshowerandhav
eouri
ce
cr
eam whi
l
ewatchi
ngmovi
es"
Me:
'
you'
l
lletmehav
esomei
cecr
eam?
"
Henod
Me:
"t
heny
oucanshar
eabedwi
thmesi
r"
Hegotbehi
ndmeandkissesmyneckput
ti
nghi
s
hugeheadonmyshoul
der.
Hi
m:"
youdi
dn'
thav
eachoi
ce"
Me:
"mxm y
ousuchabul
l
y..
.ComeI
'
mti
redonmy
f
eet
"
Hepickedmeupbr idalst
yleandj ustwentwit
hme
tothebedr oom room heonl yplacedmedownwhen
hewast akingof fmycl ot
hesandhi swet ooka
showert ogetherwithmebusyget ti
ngamassage
I'
m pregnantIjustturnedaroundandst oodonmy
toesIwrappedmyhandsar oundhi sneckandbithi
s
earl
obemaki nghim groanhej ustheldmywaist.
Me:
"t
hanky
ouf
ort
hemassagewecangonow"
Him:
"yourhormonesar
efi
l
li
ngal
lov
erme.
..Iwant
yousobadr i
ghtnow"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"of
fli
mit
smydearsi
r.
..
comel
et'
sgo"
Hi
m:"
noway
scomeher
e"
Hepi
ckedmeupandpi
nnedmeont
hewal
l
Me:
"oohMrSokhul
uai
n'
twenaught
y"
Igi
ggl
edandhej
ustgr
oanedat
tacki
ngmyneck.
Hi
m:"
yourski
ntast
essogoodonmyt
ongue"
Me:
"myski
nlov
esy
ourt
ongueMrSokhul
u..
.Itl
oves
i
tsomuch"
Imoanedashebi
tmyski
nabi
themov
edmeupa
bi
t
Hi
m:"
hol
dont
odaddypl
ease"
Iwr appedmyarmsaroundhisneckti
ghtl
yandmy
feetaroundhi
swaisthebeganmassagingmyboobs
kissingmyneckmyey eswereatthebackofmy
headwi
thpl
easur
eGoditwasjustsomuchI
moanedasmyenti
rebodyt
ensedup.
Me:
"Lwandl
eI'
m uncomf
ort
abl
eri
ghtnow"
Hi
m:"
wannagot
obed?
"
Me:
"mmh"
Heclosedtheshowerandpi ckedmeupwal ki
ng
wit
hmet ot hebedroom heplacedmedownont he
bedandwentdownonmeIf eltmyownli
ttl
ewallof
Chinafal
ldownIgaspedandpushedhi sheadin
fur
therhegottaeatmeupnol i
e
Me:
"aaahSokhul
u..
.So.
.Sokhul
u.Yessssdaddy
"
Hepinchedmythi
ghsandwentdeepermyeyes
r
oll
edbackasIwasagaspi ngmessIwaspant
ingI
f
eltmyentir
ebodytenseupandvi
brat
e
Me:
"I
'm aboutt
ocum.
..Aahhshi
t"
Hej ustpushedhisf i
ngersinpar t
ingmyf oldswhi
l
e
pl
ay ingwit
hmycl itandhi stonguediggingdeep
howcanInotgocr azyIbitmyl owerli
pasal lmy
j
uicesescapedmeal loverhi
sfaceIfeel l
ikeanew
personafterthi
shel ickedmecl eanandj ustcame
t
omyl
i
pswi
thasmi
l
epl
ast
eredonhi
sface.
Hi
m:"
yout
ast
esogoodmyl
oveasal
way
s"
Ihel
donhi
sfaceandpeckedhi
sli
ps
Me:
"youknowal
lther
ightspot
stohi
tthat
'swhy
"
Hi
m:"hopeyouar
enotsosensi
ti
vecauseIwanna
t
ouchmor e"
Me:
"j
ustal
i
ttl
e"
Hi
m:"
goodcauseIwantt
oshaket
hishouse"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
"okayt
hen"
Hepositionedhi
mselfontopofmewi t
honesmi le
hestart
edpushinghimselfinl
ordifthi
sismy
puni
shmentf orever
ythi
ngIdidpleaseleti
tbeIshall
bearmycr osshewasslidi
nginslowlybutitf
eltso
goodhegr oanedsoonashewasf ul
lyi
nhiseyes
wereturnedaroundli
kehe'sdyi
ngorsomet hi
ngwi t
h
hi
smout hopenGodIhopehedoesn' tdieonme
Me:
"Lwandl
e?"
Hewokef
rom hi
str
anceandj
ustsmi
l
edatme
Him:
"babeGodwhatareyoudoi
ngt
ome?Youf
eel
sogood,sodamngoodsowarm"
Ismi
l
edandbi
tmyl
owerl
i
p
Me:
"domepl
ease"
Hesmi
rked
Hi
m:"
yourwi
shi
smycommand"
Hebegant
hrust
inginmedoi ngmegoodlikecr
azy
hehadmecryi
ngfrom pl
easureandhel
ikedthatl
i
ke
cr
azyhemadesurethatIknowit.
.
Zamo
Iwast i
redasshi t ar ghIhatemyliferi
ghtnow
HectorditchedmeandnowI '
m gett
ingbrokebythe
minutesoIdeci dedt ogobackhomeIgot t
astart
overandst artwor kingenoughwiththeSokhulu
dramat hosepeopl ehaverui
nedmyl i
fei
t'
senough
nowI '
m ov erthem andImeanev enhiswifelost
thei
rchildI'm sureshe'sbarrenl
ikemeGodt hat
'dbe
awesomeshameI '
dbewel lavengedbutIdon't
knowwhat '
swhati nSAwher eI'
m abouttolandnow.
Ihav eafewgr andsjusttolastmeaf ewweeks
them I'
m donef orsoIhav etogetaj ob.Wellwhen
theplanelandedweal l
gotof fandher eIwaspulli
ng
mybagst helastpersonIexpect edt oseewasRose
butthereshewaspr egnantev eny ohsoshef i
nally
trappedthepoorguy howIwi shIwasherr i
ght
nowpr egnantwi t
hLwandl e'
schi ldImeanhav ing
him wrappedar oundmyl i
ttl
ef ingerbutheyshewas
thereli
kecrazyshewasal loverhi ml i
keabadr ash
j
eezbutI'm mov i
ngonI 'm seriouslymovingon
ri
ghtnow.
IwalkedtowardsRosewhosmil
edli
kereal
lybi
tch
don'
tthinkIf
orgotyoulef
tmetobur
nAlonebuthey
Icanplaythi
sgamet oosoIsmil
edandhuggedher.
Me:
"heyIdi
dn'
texpectt
oseey
ouher
e"
Rose:
"wel
lyoudi
dtextt
haty
ouar
ecomi
ngback"
Me:
"wel
lyouknowaf
terwhathappenedbet
weenus"
Rose:
"heyi
twasbetweenusandt
heSokhul
u'
syou
andIarest
il
lti
ght
"
Igr
inned
Me:
"yeahwest
il
lti
ght
..Iseey
ouar
eexpect
ing"
Shesmi
l
edandr
ubbedhert
ummy
Rose:
"yeahev
engotengaged"
Me:
"wowt hat
'sggr
eatI
'
m sohappyf
ory
ouf
ri
end.
..
Comelet
'sgo"
Shepull
edmet ohercarandy eahwedrovetoher
'
house'mmhf ancyfancyIwonderhowthebaeis
l
ikeifhehoti
mmat akehi
mf ormysel
fwhoknows
I
'l
llookaf
terherbabywhil
esher ot
sinhel
l.
Me:
"ni
cepoozi
efr
iend"
Shesmi
l
ed
Rose:
"wel
lcomeinyou'
l
lmeetmybabydaddyl
ater
he'
satworkri
ghtnow"
Me:"
oht
hanksf
ri
endIdon'
tknowwhatI
'
ddowi
thout
you"
Igaveherhal
fahugandwal kedint
ot hi
scast
leuh
uhfuckthi
sI'
m sogoingtomakesur eshesuff
ers
forwhatshedidtomeIsaidI'
m donewi t
hthe
Sokhul
u'sbutIhaven'
tev
enbeganwi thRoseI
'm st
il
l
abouttostartwit
hher i t
'
sroundt woIwoul dhave
l
eftheralonebuthereshei sl
i
v i
ngthehighlifeand
whataboutme?I 'm not
hingai
n'thappening GodI
missesy '
al
lbutI'
m backnow ai n'ty'
al
lgoingto
welcomemeback?ImeanIknowy oumi ssedmeso
comeonwel comemebackev enjusttel
lmehow
muchy oumi ssedmecauseIknowy '
al
ldiddon'tt
ry
tohideitokay.
.
Roundt
wo
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.
Iwokeupstuckinsomebigstr
ongarms Ididn't
wanttobesetfr
eebutIgott
apeeandmyf ami
ly
mightar
ri
veanyti
meIpushedhishandawaybuthe
pul
l
edmeback
Me:
"Iwantt
opeeLwandl
e..
.Yourbabi
esar
eki
l
li
ng
me"
Heki
ssedt
hebackofmyneckmaki
ngmeshi
ver
Hi
m:"
hur
rybackokay
?"
Me:
"i
t'
sti
mef
ormet
owakeup"
Hi
m:"
it
'sst
il
lear
lyf
ory
out
obewaki
ngup.
..I
'
m sur
e
i
t'
sst
il
l3am"
Me:
"youar
enotsur
e"
Hecheckedhi
scel
l
phoneandshov
edi
tinmyf
ace
Him:
'
see?2:
45i
nthef
reaki
ngmor
ninggopeeand
comeback"
Me:
"whyam Isosl
eepl
ess?Ican'
tsl
eep"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
puty
out
osl
eephur
ryback"
Irol
ledmyeyesandgotoutofbedweari
nghisshi
rt
onlyIwentt
othebat
hroom didmybusi
nesswiped
andwashedmyhandsIgot t
astayf
reshall
theti
meI
walkedbacktot
hebedroom.
Hi
m:"
takeoft
heshi
rtwhi
l
eyouar
ecomi
ngher
e"
Me:
"butI
'
llbenakedLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"
Iknowsot
akei
tof
f"
Hesmi rkedandjustpul
l
edof fhisboxersremaini
ng
nakedisheser i
ousri
ghtnow butIl ovet he
thoughtthoughItookoffmyshi r
tandjustwentto
him Igotonthebedandj usttookhi
sdickintomy
handst r
okingi
tlooki
nghimi ntheeyes.
Me:
'
you'
resohar
dMrSokhul
u..
.Sodamnhar
d"
Hi
m:"
youmakemel
i
ket
hat
..
..Wannasuckmeof
f?"
Inod
Me:
"shoul
dI?
"
Helickedhisl
ipsbi t
ingthebottom l
ipandnodI
str
okedhim andj ustsuckedonhi m hewasgr oani
ng
GodIhopet heydon' thearusforwear edeadinthe
morningIsuckedandl i
ckedti
l
l hecameal lov
ermy
boobswhosai dI'l
lswal l
ow?Don'twannabe
thr
owi ngupIkissedhi sabsasIgotont opofhim
gett
ingreadytoridehi m
Hi
m:"
I'
m soexci
tedr
ightnow"
Igi
ggl
ed
Me:"
pleasedon'
tbet
oogoodIdon'
twantt
omake
noi
se"
Hi
m:'
I
'l
lbet
hewor
str
elaxcomesl
i
dei
tin"
"
Mama?Daddy
?"
Smalll
i
ttl
evoi
cescrepedthr
ough ifonlyyousaw
thel
ookonLwandle'
sfaceitwaspr
icel
ess
Me:
"wear
einher
ebabywai
tmommyi
scomi
ng"
Them:
'
okay
"
Il
ookedatLwandleandtri
edtoki
sshim buthe
l
ookedawayallsourIwantedt
olaughbutshameI
hel
dmy sel
f
Hi
m;'
howdot heyknowwhereweare?Canthey
smel
lusorsomething?Di
dyougi
vethem asignal
?"
Ichuckl
edandj
ustsmackedhi
schest
Me:
"getdr
essesbi
gguy"
Hi
m:'
l
et'
sgi
vet
hem upf
oradopt
ionImeanwear
e
hav
ingt
womor
ewewon'
tev
enf
eel
thev
oid"

Me:
"Lwandl
edr
essuppl
easej
eez"
Hi
m:"t
hinkabouti
tokay
?Wet aket
hem t
othe
or
phanageandwe'l
lbefree"
Hewor ehi
sboxersandImyundi esandhisshir
tI
wenttothedoorandf oundmytwof l
owerssi
tti
ng
ther
eli
ketheyarelostwitht
earsfl
owingdownthei
r
cheeks theylookedupwhent heyhear
dthe
dooropenandLordt hehugsIgot t heywere
cli
ngi
ngonmyl egslikeIhadlef
tthem.
Lsg:
"mama?
"
Me:
"yesbaby
?"
Lsg:
'
don'
tl
eav
emepl
ease"
I'
dpickhi
m upbutyohthepeopleI'
m car
ryi
ngare
verymuchheavyshamesoIjusttookthei
rhands
andwalkedwit
hthem i
ntotheroom.
Lwandl
e:"
andt
hen?What
'
sthei
rpr
obl
em?
"
Me:
"Il
eftt
hem"
Hesi
ghed
Lwandle:"
hai
inoemoti
onal
blackmailwor
kswi
th
them shame.
..Bi
gguywhat'
swr ong?
"
Lsg:
"Ihadabaddr
eam"
Lwandl
e:"
okayandy
oul
i
ttl
eMr
sSunshi
ne,
what
's
wrong?
"
Phi
l
a:"
Iwantmommy
"
Henodandsatont
heedgeoft
hebed
Lwandl
e:"
soyouhav
eabaddr
eam andy
ouwant
mommy ?Lol
o"
Me:
"mmh?
"
Hesmi
l
ed
Lwandl
e:"
Ihadagruesomenight
mareandIwant
youdoIhaveyourat
tent
ionnow?"
Ishookmyheadandj
ustgott
hekidsont
hebedI
madesuret
heywerei
nthemiddl
e.
Lwandl
e:'
soi
fyoubi
gguyhadt
hebaddream neh
Phi
lawhowokeyouup?Ordoy'
al
lshar
ebad
dr
eams?"
Me:"
stopgr
il
li
ngt
heki
dsandl
ett
hem sl
eep.Sl
eep
baby
"
Ituckedthem inandgoti nhol
dingPhil
aand
Lwandl ehadLesegowi thhi
m wewer estar
ingat
eachot herandy oucouldseethathewasst il
l
sulki
ngbuthe' l
lbef i
neIcan'tl
etmykidssearchfor
mewhenI 'mrightthere.Wesleptwit
hourpumpki ns
hearingthei
rsoftsnor es canIf al
li
nlovewithmy
ki
dsagai nplease?
"
Lol
o?"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"Lwandl
e?"
Wewer
ewhi
sper
ingmi
ndy
ou
Hi
m:"
let
'ssneakoutandgof
ini
shof
f"
Me:
"nonowgot
osl
eep.
."
Hi
m:"
ithur
ts"
Me:
"got
akeashowerbutwear
esl
eepi
ng"
Hi
m:"
butI
..
."
Ihear
dhi
m getsmacked
Me:
"It
oldy
ounowsl
eep"
Wesleptwit
hhim busymumbl
i
ngandst
uffIknow
he'
ssulki
ngti
ll
hewakesup.
.
Zamo
WellRose'
s'fi
ancé'camebackandI'
dliketosayhe
ai
n'tbadatallhe'
sjusthear
twar
mingIstoodupand
gotint
roducedtotheguyhehasdreadlocksj
ustl
ike
Lwandle I '
m notobsessedwit
hLwandleokayI'
m
notanywayRosegotaki ssonthecheek.
Rose:"
babethi
sisthatfri
endIwastell
i
ngy ou
about.
..
.NomzamoMt shal
i,
ZamothisisKgahl
iso
Mzil
ikazimyfi
ancé"
Ishookhi
sheadl
ooki
ngintohi
sey
esandhi
mint
o
mine i minl
oveGodhelp.
Me:
"ni
cet
omeety
ouKgahl
i
so"
KG:"
li
kewi
seumhifyoul
adieswoul
dexcusemeI
needtomakeaphonecal
l"
Heexcusedhi
msel
fandwentt
omaket
hatcal
lof
hi
sleavi
ngmetoseatandchatwit
hmy'
fr
iend'
we
satdownwi
thherst
ruggl
ingabit
Me:
"Sowher
edi
dyouandMrmeet
?"
Rose:"
wel l
afterLwandl
efi
redmenehIwas
str
uggli
ngt ogetajobbutthenasy ouknowther
eis
al
way sthatpersonwhoain'taf
rai
dofhim andhe
waswef el
linloveandher
eIam pregnantand
engaged"
Me:"
wowt hat
'sgoodseewithmet heguywhoIwas
wit
hhel ef
tmestrandedandalmostbrokef
ri
endI
don'
tknowwhatI'l
ldoorwhatI'
ll
tellmydadwhenI
can'
tsendhim moneyanymore"
Rose:
"fr
iendIwisht
herewassomet hi
ngIcoul
ddo
butImeany oucansti
l
ljobhuntandI'
m sur
e
Kgahl
isowon'tmindl
etti
ngyoustayherewhil
eyou
arel
ooking"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?You'
ddot
hatf
ormef
ri
end?
"
Rose:
"wear
efr
iendsaf
teral
lsoIdon'
tmi
nd"
Ismil
edandhuggedher issheforr
ealr
ightnow
onceI'
m donewi
thherMrhandsomewil
lbemi neI
'l
l
beknownasMr sMz i
li
kazi Iwoul dwantt ohav
e
hi
sbabiesjustt
hatevi
lbast
ardruinedmychances
arghbl
oodyLwandle If or
giveyout houghbutI
'l
l
neverf
orgi
vethatf
li
msywi f
eofy oursfortaki
ngyou
awayfrom meIhateher
.
[
Mondaymor
ning]
WellIwentt olookforaj obandI '
m seri
ousIneedt o
beindependentIknowI '
m st il
lgunningforMr
handsomebutIgot tabeabl etosayIcant akecare
ofusr i
ght.Anywayaf teral ongdayofgoi ngt hr
ough
l
awf irmsandl awf i
rmsIwasdeadbeatt i
redand
hungrysoIdeci dedtogot oMcDf orsomef ood I
walkedpassedt hiscof f
eeshopandguesswhoI
saw MrHandsomewi ththatcowLol o why
can'
tshest icktoherhusbandori sitjustbusinessI
wentcl oserbutmadesur ethatshedoesn' tseeme
andnot hi
sain'
tbusinesshewast ouchingherina
sexualwayandshewasl i
kingit andt henLwandl e?
Wher eishei nal
lofthisthisIhav etoseeshameI
satdownont heoutsidet ableswaiti
ngf orthem to
fi
nishup.Ior deredsomecof f
eeandt hei
rspecial
whatev erthati
sbutIj ustorder edi
tandwat chedas
LoloandKgahl i
sower eallloveydov eyaft
erwhat
seemedl i
keanhourorhal fanhourt heypaidupand
sodidI ,
Isawhi m giveherherhandbagandhol dher
waistholdonshe' spr egnant howcanshest il
lget
pregnant?Whyt houghIf ol
lowedt hem andy eahhe
l
eftheratherbout i
quenxal etmepayherav isi
tI
watchedasheki ssedherandgav eherahug, helef
t
andIwenti nwelltherewasnoonei nthestoreI
l
ockedi tbehindusget t
ingMr sperfect'
sattenti
onI
chuckled.
Me:
"sur
pri
seLol
o"
Shesmi
l
edandl
etoutt
hisannoy
ingchuckl
e
Her:
"t
henameisPenel
opeforyoubi
tch.
.Soyou
f
inal
lycamebackhomeyoutir
edofr
unning?
"
Shesatdownandr
ubbedherev
identbabybump
Me:"
ohl
et'
sleavet
hatIseey
ouar
eal
soa
homewr
ecker"
Her
:"
andwhosehomeam Iwr
ecki
ng?
"
Isatdown
Me:
"t
hatguyy
ouwer
ewi
thi
sRose'
sfi
ancé"
Her:
"what?YoumeanKgahl
i
soi
sRoseasi
nRose
yourfr
iend.
..
."
Me:
"yesI
..
..
"
Shebur
stoutl
aughi
ngandcl
appedherhands
Her
:"
andtot
hinkIwasgoi
ngt
obr
eakupwi
thhi
m
wai
tabit
"
Shetookoutherphoneandtypedwhatevershewas
typi
ngandjustpl
aceditdownlooki
ngatmeamused
asfevenpl
acingherchi
nonherhandsr est
ingthem
onthetabl
e.
Her
:"
RoseandKgahl
i
soengagedhuh?I'
m goi
ngto
l
ovethi
ssowenawhatbr
ingsyoubacki
nSAand
t
hegutstol
ockmyshoponit'
smostbusyday?"
Me:
"youar
esuchahear
tl
essbi
tchdoy
ouknow
t
hat
?"
Sheshr
ugandl
eanedbacki
nherchai
r
Her
:"
wel
lyouandy
ourf
ri
enddi
drui
nmyf
ami
l
yso
whyshoul
dIbekindtoyou?Nowbackt
oyou.
.Ar
e
youst
il
laf
terLwandl
e?"
Me:
"he'
sthel
eastofmyworri
esbutI
'
m sur
ehe'
dli
ke
t
oknowaboutyoucheat
ingonhim"
Sheshr
ug
Her:
"butI
'm sur
ehe'
dli
ketoseeyou he'
sbeen
sear
chingforyouhi
ghandlow"
Iswal
l
owedhar
dandshesmi
rked
Her
:"
andher
ehecomesnow.
.Wannat
alkt
ohi
m?"
IlookedatthefrontdoorbutIdidn'tseeany thi
ng
untilIhear
dfootstepsfrom thebackIqui cklyl
ooked
behindmeandhewast her
e howt hehel l
?He
smi l
edandwentt ohughersot i
ghtlykissingher
cheekhewasst illhandsomeasft hou j usta
reminderthatI
'l
lnev erhavehim.
Lwandl
e:"
howar
eyoumamakhe?
"
Lol
o:"
I'
mfi
neIj
usthadl
unchwi
thKgahl
i
so"
Hef
rowned
Lwandl
e:"
butt
henhebet
ternotspeakt
omybabi
es"
Shegi
ggl
edl
i
keani
diot
Lol
o:"
youknowt
heset
woar
eal
labouty
ou.
..Say
hel
l
ot ot
hem"
Hekneeledandki
ssedhert
ummyshewasgiggl
i
ng
rubbi
nghishead shelookedatmewi
thasmir
k
onherface.
Lwandl
e:"
theyki
ckedsohar
dbaby
..
"
Hestoodupandki
ssedhert
ummyagai
nbef
ore
get
ti
nghisfeet
Lwandl
e:"
Ihear
dsomeone'
svoi
cewi
thy
ou"
Hel
ookedatmewi
thasmi
l
eonhi
sfaceawei
rd
smi
l
e.
Lwandl
e:"
wel
l,
well,
welll
ookatwhatt
hecatdragged
i
nNomzamoMt shali
akabit
chyam..
.Whatbrings
youbackher
e?Ithoughtyouar
enevercomingback"
Me:
'
whywoul
dn'
tI?Il
i
veher
edon'
tI?
"
Hesmir
kedstandi
ngbehi
ndhi
s'wi
fe'
andgi
vi
ngher
amassageandshemoaned.
Lwandl
e:"
andwher
eist
hatboy
fri
endofy
our
s?Umh
babywhat
'
shi
snameagai
n?"
Lol
o;'
Hect
or.
..Hect
orbabyt
hat
'shi
sname"
Lwandl
e:"
yesHect
orwher
eishe?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowwhatyouar
etal
ki
ngaboutsoi
t
wasniceseeyouguy
s"
Lwandl
e:"
niceseei
ngy
out
ool
ovel
yper
son"
Hesmi rkedandletmegowhat '
sgoingherewhynot
tel
lthecopswhatIdi dhuh?Theyarebei
ngwayto
fri
endlybutheywhocar esI
'l
li
nfor
m Roseaboutitor
betteryetI
'
llusethi
stomyadv ant
age Kgahl i
so
myhandsomeper son
[
11/
2,21:
44]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
♡ քsօ 72♡
.
ք ռ օք ♡
.
Af
terZamol
eftt
hisni
ggaj
ustpi
nchedmy
shoul
der
s
Me:
"wt
fSokhul
u"
Hi
m:"
youwannadi
e?Real
l
y?"
Me:"
whatdi
dIdo?Shel
ockedt
hedoorIai
n'
tseen
her
"
Him:
"andwheny
ousawher
?It
oldy
out
ousey
our
gun"
Me:"
real
l
y?Shootherf
ort
hewhy
?She'
syourbi
tch
notme"
Hi
m:"
stopdoi
ngt
hat
..
."
Me:
"uhuh.
.Youf
etchi
ngt
heki
dsf
rom day
car
e?"
Hi
m:"
whot
ookt
hem t
her
e?"
Me:
"you'
reashi
tt
yfat
hery
ouknowt
hat
?"
Him:"
andy eahbuty
oust
il
lgi
vi
ngmemor
ehow
beaut
iful
..
."
Me:
"Lwandl
efet
cht
heki
dspl
easeIwi
l
lbebusy
"
Hi
m:"
kissi
ngguy
s?"
Me:
"ni
ggapl
easeai
n'
tl
ikehi
stonguer
eachesmycl
i
t.
"
Hechuckl
edandjustkissedmycheek,
hepull
edup
achai
randsatinfr
ontofmepickingupmyfeetand
pl
aci
ngthem onhislaptaki
ngmyshoesoff
.
Hi
m:"
sohowdoy
ouf
eel
aft
erSat
urday
?"
Me:"
LwandleIst
il
lfeel
pregnantandbl
oat
edIt
old
youIdon'
tneedaceremony"
Hebeganmassagi
ngmyf
eet
Him:"
youshouldknowthatyouarest
il
lmywi
fe
whetheryoul
ikei
tornotyou'l
lal
waysbeMr
Sokhulu,
andIwantyoutocomebackhomebefor
e
shekil
lsyou"
Me:"
f orwhat
?Lwandl
eI'
m notmov i
ngbackinwi
th
you,IdareZamototr
yhert
ricksshe'
ll
findme
wait
ingforher"
Him:"
doingwhat?You'
reheav
il
ypregnantandi
t'
s
bett
eryoustopstr
aini
ngyour
sel
fli
kethisandhi
re
someonet ohel
pyou"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"Ihat
eint
erv
iews"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
dot
hem f
ory
ou,
canI
?"
Me:
"pl
easenoty
ourbl
ondef
loozyIbegofy
ou"
Hi
m:'
she'
sgoodatr
etai
l.
.Babecomeon"
Me:"
youwanttoshov
eyourheadachet
ome?I
'
m
pr
egnantLwandl
e"
Hi
m:"please.
..Pl
easel
ovepl
ease,
justdot
hisone
t
hingforme"
Me:"
I'
m car
ryi
ngtwoofyourf
avourswhatdoy
ou
want?Myli
ver?Iai
n'
tgi
vi
ngittoyou"
Him:
"t
hinkabouti
tokay?I
'l
lbebackwi
thy
ourbabi
es
andf
oodhowaboutt hat
?"
Me:"
whatev
erbutshedarebebit
chyI'
mfir
ingher
andandnopayareweclear?8am t
il
l5pm"
Hi
m:"
buty
oucl
oseatf
our
"
Me:
"doy
ouwantmet
ohi
reherornot
?"
Hi
m:"
fi
ne.
."
[
Phoner
ings]
Il
ookedatt
hecal
l
erandi
twast
heki
d'
steacher
Me:
"see?Gof
etcht
hem pl
ease"
Hepl
acedmyf
eetdown
Me:
"myshoes?Ican'
tbendy
ouknow"
Hi
m:"
I'
mfet
chi
ngt
heki
ds.
..Lov
eya"
Hekissedmyforeheadandr anout nowt he
str
uggleofweari
ngmyownshoe Ihat enotbeing
abl
et oti
emyownl acesorbuckli
ngupmyheel sI
j
usthateit I
'mfatandcan'tbendthi
ssidethe
babydaddyisthi
scrazynigga.Ij
ustshov
edmyf eet
i
nt heheel
sandwentt ofull
yopenthedoor.
Me:"
hedoesn'
tev
enpusht
hisheav
ydooropenur
gh
l
azyass.
..
"
WhenIwasturni
ngbackIsawLwandle'
sblond
Godhel
pmenott ogoint
oearl
ylaborIj
ustwalked
tomydeskandtookmyphonetalki
ngwithMY
AmberandSteff
an
[
Clear
ingt
hroat
]
Ij
usti
gnor
edherandgi
ggl
edatsomet
ext
sI'
m busy
her
ecan'
tshesee?Huhcomeon.
Her
:"
heyI
'
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou"
Me:
"andI
'
mignor
ingy
ou"
Idi
dn'
tevenlookather myst
oremyr
ulesbi
tch
shepul
ledoutachair
Me:
"whosai
dsi
t?Up,
up"
Shecl
i
ckedhert
ongue
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Her
:"
myBOYFRI
ENDsai
dIshoul
dcomeher
e"
Me:
"wellYOURboyfr
ienddi
dn'
ttel
lmeany thi
ngso
wai
tforhim..
.Andseatatt
hecornernotsocloset
o
meyourbreathi
ngi
st ool
oudI
'mt r
ynatype"
Iwantsomet
hingt
opl
aywi
thy
ouknow
Her
:"
yousuchabi
tchy
ouknowt
hat
?"
Me:"
whi
chy
ouneedajobf
rom andohy
eahy
ou'
re
dr
ivi
ngmyf
reaki
ngcar
"
Her
:"
it
'saboutt
hecar
?Yousai
dyoudi
dn'
twanti
t"
Me:
"bi
tchy
oushoul
dn'
thav
egot
teni
ntot
hedr
iver
's
seatint
hef
ir
stpl
acet
hat
'
smybabymyf
reaki
ng
car.
."
Her:
"yousopettyandhe'
l
lseet
haty
ouar
ejustdoi
ng
t
hisforhi
sattenti
on"
Me:'
Idon'
tneedyourBOYFRIEND'
Satt
enti
onIhadit
andI'
m donewit
hit.
..Keepi
tnxa,
youar
edefi
antl
y
nothi
redplumpface"
Her:
"I
'm goi
ngtokil
lyou.
..FuckyouLol
ohe'
snot
your
sany morecan'
tyousee? "
Me: "
yousobl ondeithurtsIain'tf
ighti
ngt hatIwant
him backIknowIcanj usttakehim buty ouar ea
fuckingparasit
e,you'r
esuckinghi m dryfinancial
wiseandev enj oywise.He'sNOThappywi thyou
he'sjustnothappygett hatthroughy ourthickskull
youdon' tmaket hefatherofmyki dshappy ."
Ihadst
oodupnowcl
i
ngi
ngont
het
abl
est
ari
ng
downather
.
Me:"
walkawayfrom hi
m noworsohelpmeGodI '
ll
makeyourmiserabl
eli
tt
lel
if
eext
ramiserabl
e..
.You
ar
ewayov eryourheadi
nthi
srel
ati
onshi
p"
Her
:"
I'
m not
..
."
Me:
"youWI
LLl
eav
ehi
m andl
ethi
m behappy
.."
Her
:"
wit
hyouhuh?I
sthatwhatyouwant?I
'
m not
l
eavi
nghimf
oryouoranyoneel
sefort
hatmatt
er"
"Whatthehel
li
sgoingonher
e?Amberwhyy
ou
shout
ingatLol
o?"
t
oldy
abi
tch
Ki
ds:
"mommy
..
."
Theyr
antomeormyt ummycauset
heyat
tackedi
t
wit
hki
sses theset
wobett
ernotki
ckorI
'
m dead
Lsg:
"wooheki
ckedme.
..Mommyseatdown"

Me:
"Idon'
twantt
o"
Hesulkedandwentt
ohi
sfatherwhowasst
il
lst
uck
st
ari
ngdaggersathi
sGI
RLFRIEND
Lsg:
"daddy
,daddyt
ell
mommyt
oseatdown"
Hel
ookedatme
Lwandl
e:"
sheknowsshehast
oseatdown.
..Lol
o
assdownnow"
Me:
"buti
t'
smyass"
Lwandl
e:"
thenputy
ourf
atsexyassdownnow"
Irol
l
edmyeyesandjustsatdowntohaveLesego
runupt
omeandat t
ackmyt ummywi thki
sseseven
Phil
awaspar
toftheassaul
t I '
m notasoccerf
iel
d.
Me:
"wher
eismyf
ood?I
'
m st
arv
ing"
Lwandl
e:"
you'
l
leatdon'
twor
ry.
..Nowexpl
ainwhat
's
goi
ngon"
Me:
"t
heyar
eki
ssi
ngmyt
ummy
?"
Irai
sedmyeyebrowannoyinghi
m ashel
lIlov
e
annoyi
nghim helookssocut
ewhenhe'sangrybusy
pouti
ngli
kealit
tl
egirl
Lsg:
"mama?Mommy
?"
Me:
"yesbaby
?"
Lsg:
"whyi
syourt
ummymov
ingwhenweki
ssi
t"
Me:
"well
Iswallowedy
ourl
i
ttl
ebr
otherorsi
sterand
t
heyarekicki
ng"
Phi
l
a:"
didy
ouswal
l
owust
oo?
"
Ichuckl
edandr
ubbedt
hei
rheads
Me:"
yespri
ncessdaddyalwaysmakesmommyto
swal
lowyousot hatyoucanbebeaut
if
ull
i
ttl
e
cr
eati
onsthatI
'm proudof"
Iki
ssedthei
rheadandjustpull
edthem t
owardsmy
tummyandt heyl
aidt
hereli
steni
ngtotheki
cking
midget
s.
Lwandl
e:"
Isai
dwhat
'
sgoi
ngon?I
'
m ser
iousnow"
Amber
:"
shesaidIdon'
tmakey
ouhappyandIshoul
d
l
eav
eyoualone"
Hel
ookedatmeandIshr
ug
Lwandle:"
andy ousaidsuchharshwordstoher?
She'
spr egnantforf
uck'ssakes.I
fthi
sishowy ou'
ll
behav
ewhenwor ki
ngwi t
hherthenlet
'sf
orgetthi
s"
Amber
:"
shewast
hemeanonet
houghshest
art
edi
t"
Lwandl
e:"
Ifoundy
oubr
eat
hingf
ir
eatherAmber
j
eezgrowup"
Me:
"enoughbot
hofy
ouhau,
y'
al
lar
escar
ingt
heki
ds.
Gi
vememyf
oodpl
ease"
Hegav emeaf oodi
espackandguesswhathi ski
ds
werebusyjumpingupanddownIhadt osharewith
them mypreci
ousfoodIhadtosharewit
ht heFOUR
Sokhuluki
dsandwhatdidIeatnothi
ngatall I'm
star
vingher
eguy swhataboutmommyher e.
.
Zamo
IgothomeandyeahIfoundKgahli
soal
lal
oneIjust
thr
ewmy sel
fonthecouchinf
rontofhi
sgett
inghis
att
enti
on
Hi
m:"
ohheyZamo"
Me:
"hi
Mrf
ancypant
s"
Hechuckl
edshaki
nghi
shead
Hi
m:"
soI
'
mfancypant
snow?
"
Ohbel
i
evemeyouaremor
ethant
haty
ouar
emuch
moret
hanf
ancypant
s
Me:
"sowher
eisy
ourf
iancé?"
Hi
m:"
she'
ssl
eepi
ngy
ouknowpr
egnantwoman"
Me:
"act
ual
l
yIdon'
tIcan'
thav
eki
ds"
Hi
m:"
ohI
'
m sor
ryIdi
dn'
tknow.
.."
Me:"
it
'scoolsot
ellmemor
eabouty
ouandRose
what'
sgoingonther
e?"
Him:"
we'
reengagedandaboutt
ohav
eourf
ir
st
chi
ld"
Me:"
mmhy ouarenotmadl
yinl
ove.
..Can'tl
i
ve
wi
thouteachother
?Blahbl
ahbl
ahallthatcorny
st
uff
"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
that
'scor
nyasy
ousai
d..
."
Me:"
ohisthatwhyy
ouarecheati
ngwithanot
her
pr
egnantwoman?Isthechi
l
dy our
stoo?"
Hequi
ckl
ylookedupatmeandt
hrewt
hephoneon
t
hecof
feetabl
e
Hi
m:"
wtf
?"
Me:"
ohyeahIknowaboutyouandli
tt
lemiss
Penel
opeIsawyouguyskissi
ngandI'
m seati
ng
her
ewonderingwhatRosewoulddoi
fshef ound
out
"
Hesmi
l
ed
Him;'uhl
et'
sseenothi
ng..
.Fir
stl
yy ourfr
iendwould
bezilchwit
houtmeabsolutel
ynothingsoshe'lldo
nothingandIdar
ey outosayanythingtoherI'
llki
ck
yououtt ot
hewolves.Remembert hatnowi fy
ou
don'tmindletmechatwit
hmygi rlfr
iendboo"
Me:
"hear
tl
esssonofabi
tch"
Hestuckhi
stongueoutatmeandlef
tmet
heref
ine
you'
l
lbesorr
yandy ouwil
lsl
eepwi
thmewhet
her
youl
ikeornotyou'
l
lbemine
[
11/
2,21:
45]Ly
nne:
♡ք ռ օք '
sst
օ ♡
.
♡ քsօ 73♡
.
ք ռ օք ♡
Iworkedmypregnantassofft
odayshameIdidn'
t
evengett
ospendt i
mewi t
hthekidscauseIwasj
ust
toobusyf
orthem l
uckil
yLwandleoff
eredtogowi
th
them windowshoppingj usttokeepbusyunti
lI'
m
donesosi nceIwaslockingupIwasaboutt ocall
him whenKgahlisowalkedi nwithasmil
eIjust
smiledhewant smetosmi leri
ghtsoIwil
l
.Ileaned
againstthetabl
earmsf oldedhekissedmyforehead.
Me:
"don'
tyousmel
lfr
esh"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
Ihadar
oughdayIhadt
otakeashowernow"
Me:"
mmhluckyyouIst
il
lhav
etot
akecar
eoft
wo
l
it
tl
emonst
ers"
Hishandsf oundtheirwayt omywaistl
i
kestandi
ng
soclosetomey ou'dswearwewer egotst
uckat
bi
rthlucki
lyhiscolognedoesn'tmakemesickorI'
d
bespeakinganot herlanguage.
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
hel
pify
ouwantmet
o"
Me:
"nahI
'
m good,
howi
sRose?
"
Hisey
esj
ustpoppedoutIsmi
l
edandpeckedhi
s
l
ips
Me:
"ohIknowbutIdon'
tunder
stand"
Hi
m:"
Icanexpl
ainLol
ojustgi
vemeachance"
If
oldedmyar
ms
Me:
"I
'ml
i
steni
ng"
Hesi
ghed
Him:"
IshouldhavetoldyouIknowbutyouwoul
dn'
t
havegivenmeachancey ou'
dhavei
gnoredmeI
coul
dn'tlett
hathappen"
Me:"
soy ou'
drat
herl
ietome?NiggaIt
oldyou
ev
erythi
ngaboutmef r
om mysham di
vor
cetomy
over
prot
ecti
vehusband"
Him:"IknowandI'
m sorryImeany ouexcit
ingand
I'
m notlyi
ng...
.WhenI'
m withRoseI'm al
way sbor
ed
i
t'
salway sheract
ingli
keaneggt hathascracked
andisabouttobreak.Sheactsl
ikeakidalway s
cryi
ng,moaningaboutLordknowswhat ,l
azyasf
LoloIcan'tt
akeit
"
Me:
"she'
spr
egnantwhatdoy
ouexpect
?"
Him:
"youai
n'tl
i
kethatandy ouar
ecar
ryi
ngt
wo
babi
esandfarawayfrom her"
Me:
"notmyf
ir
stchi
l
dI'
l
lhav
eyouknow"
Him:"
sti
l
lit
'sKgahli
sot
his,
Kgahl
isothat
,Kgahl
i
so
don'
tdothi
s, Kgahl
i
sodon'
tdothat.
..I
t'
sannoying
real
l
yannoyingsometi
mesIjustwanttochokeher"
Ichuckl
ed
Me:"Li
stenIhavear
eall
yfragil
epregnancyIcan'tbe
deali
ngwithZamoandherf r
iendstheyarenotmy
cupofteaandifLwandl
ewer etofindoutthatyou
areengagedtoRosehe'
llki
llt
hem righti
nfrontof
you.Hehatesthem"
Hi
m:"
why
?Whathappened?"
Me:"
justaskyourgi
rlf
ri
endwhatsheandZamodi d
tomyf amil
yshe'
llt
ellyou..
.InLwandl
e'seyesRose
i
salsoguilt
yofkil
li
ngmyunbor nchi
ldletmejust
sayZamomessedupbef or
esheleft"
Hesi
ghedandki
ssedmycheek
Me:
'
Ihav
etogohomemyf
eetar
eki
l
li
ngme"
Hi
m:"
ohwel
lIwi
l
lseey
out
omor
rowr
ight
?Lunch
t
omorr
ow?"
Me:
'
prayt
heset
wodon'
tactupt
henwe'
l
ldol
unch"
Hi
m:'
theyar
ewel
lbehav
edIknowt
hat
"
Ihuggedhi
m andjustdi
aledmybabydaddywho
sai
dhe'l
lbether
esoonnowi t
st hewaiti
nggamehe
camewhenIwasbusymov i
ngsomecl othestothei
r
ri
ghtf
ulpl
acesIguessIforgotthem okayhejust
huggedmef r
om thebackkissi
ngmyneck
Me:
"mmhj
ustwhatt
hedoct
oror
der
ed"
Hi
m:"
yout
ensewhat
'
swr
ong?"
Me:
"j
ustar
oughday
..Wher
ear
etheki
ds?
"
Hi
m:'
homesl
eepi
ngt
heyar
eti
redj
ustl
i
key
ou"
Me:
"t
hankyoubabakhe.
..Youshoul
dn'
thav
ecamei
f
t
heywereathome"
Him:"Iknowyouar
etir
ed.
.Comelet
'sgetyouhome
I'
l
lruny ouani
cebubbl
ebathwi
thallt
hosemassage
salt
s"
Me:
"you'
l
lgi
vemeamassageandat ubofi
cecr
eam
wi
thsomemelt
edcheeseandspr
inkl
es"
Hechuckl
edandki
ssedt
hesi
deofmyhead
Hi
m:"
any
thi
ngy
ouwant
"
Igotaheav
yki
ckf
ucknott
odayIhel
donf
ordear
l
if
ebutthankGodLwandl
ewasher
eIev
engotsome
di
zzyspel
ls
Hi
m:"
arey
ouokay
?"
Inod
Me:
"j
ustgotdi
zzyt
hat
'sal
l
"
Hi
m: "
andy
oudi
dn'
teatagai
njeezLol
o.ComeI
'
ll
dr
ive"
Inodargui
ngwithhi
mi ssenselesshehel
dmyhand
butIhatemaki
nghim worr
ylikethisIr
eal
l
ydo.
Hi
m:"
cany
ouwal
k?"
Inod
Het ookmybagandwal kedoutwithmehealmost
didn'
tlockbuthedidwewenttohiscarImeanmi ne
i
si nasecureparki
ngspaceandlockedwegotinto
hiscarandhebuckledmeupf r
om hisdashboar
dhe
tookoutsomechocolatesl
absandcookies Il ove
myhubbyshame.
Him:
"r
aiseupy
oursugarl
evel
sokay
..
.I'
l
lmakey
ou
somefood"
Me:
"t
hanky
ou,
Ismel
lsomedoughnut
stoo"
Hechuckl
edandpi
nchedmynose
Him:"
ain'
tyoursensesbi
g,t
hatbagt her
ehassome
chocol
atedoughnutsandmi l
kshake"
Me:
"ncaohy
ousosweetl
etmeeatt
hosef
ir
st"
Henodandj ustcl
osedthedoorformehewentto
hi
ssideGodIhadmydoughnut sbusymoaningt
hey
weresoy ummyIjustcoul
dn'
tstopmysel
fhesmil
ed
andkissedmycheek.
Hi
m:"
cany
oushar
e?"
Ismi
l
edandnod
Me:
"her
eyougo"
If
edhimthechocol
atedoughnutandhet
ooka
gr
uesomebit
e
Me:
"hey
!!That
'snotf
air
"
Heki
ssedmycheeksmi
l
ing
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouLol
o"
Isi
ghed
Me:"
Ilov
ey out
ooandIl
oveyoumorebaby
..
..
.We
needtotal
kaft
ermywar
m bathokay
"
Henodandj ustwi
pedhi sli
pswi t
hhisthumbGod
hedroveoutbusypl
ay i
ngsomemusi cIwas
rel
axed,
eati
ngandrubbingmyt ummyt heli
tt
le
munchkinswereki
ckinglikecrazytodayiteven
hurt
s.WepulledupattheSokhul uhousenotmy
househecamet oopenupf ormeandhel pedmeget
out.
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Me:
"I
'mj
ustt
ir
edIt
oldy
ou"
Him:
"buty
ouar
esweat
ingl
i
kecr
azyhowf
arar
e
you?
"
Me:
"Real
l
y?I
'
m st
il
ltwomont
hsaway
"
Heexhal edl
oudl
yandjustpi
ckedmeupgoi ngwit
h
mei nsidewher
eitwassoquiett
hisi
diotIhopehe
didn'
tleavet
hekidsal
oneawayhecarriedmetoour
room andplaci
ngmeont hebed.
Hi
m:"
getr
eadyi
nthemeanwhi
l
eI'
l
lfi
xyourbat
h"
Ismi
l
edandbat
tedmyey
elashes
Me:
"cany
out
akeof
fmyshoespl
ease"
Hi
m:"
yourwi
shi
smycommand.
.."
Hekneltdownandjusttookoffmyshoesleavi
ng
metotrytaki
ngoffthebloodydr
esswhichwas
bur
ningmeandt henboom theyki
ckedagain.
Me:
"guy
s!Mommyi
sinpai
nri
ghtnow"
Itookof fev
erypeaceofcl
othi
ngunt
ilIwasnakedI
satont hefl
oortry
ingt
ogetabitcol
dI'm bur
ning
her e Lwandl ecamebackandhisf
acewas
pricel
ess.
Hi
m:'
youokay
?"
Me:"
whydidyouswi
tchof
fthef
ucki
ngai
rcon?I
t'
s
hel
li
nhere"
Hi
m:"
it
'sf
reezi
ngi
nher
ecomeI
'
llgi
vey
ouabi
rt
h"
Hehelpedmest
andupandj
ustt
ookmet
othe
bat
hroom.
Him:
"I'
llgi
vey
out
hebestmassageev
er,
Comeget
andr
elax"
Themomenthepl
acedmei
nIcoul
dfeel
mysel
f
r
elaxi
ng
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
fet
cht
hatt
ubofi
cecr
eam okay
"
Me:
"mmh"
Heki
ssedmyhead
Hi
m:"
don'
tdr
ownnowokay
"
Ichuckl
edandnodeyescl
osedIhear
dhim ashe
j
oggedoutrel
axchi
ldyeahhecamebackandplaced
thetubi
nmyar msbutnospoon
Me:
"andt
hen?Myspoon?
"
Him:
"I'
l
lfeedy
ouj
ustl
etmegi
vey
ouamassage
okay
"
Me:
"okay
"
Ohmypoormuscl esweregett
ingt
hebesttr
eatment
everadayi
nmyhomemadespahei sgoodathis
j
obshameev enhadmemoani ngIwasdosingoff
whenhestoppedandthenjumpedinseat
ingi
nfront
ofme.
Me:
"t
hisi
sforgi
rl
syouknow"
Hi
m:"
giv
ethather
e..
.Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"I
'mr
elaxednowdon'
tknowwhenIgetout
"
Hefedmethenfedhi
msel
fhewasbusyt
ell
i
ngme
j
okeswhi
l
ef eedi
ngme
Me:
"babynames?Si
ncey
ouknowt
hegender
s"
Hechuckl
edandshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
I'
m notgonnat
ell
it'
sasur
pri
se"
Me:
"si
ncewhen?Lwandl
epl
ease"
Heshookhi
sheadandf
edme
Hi
m:"
eatweshoul
dgetoutofher
ebef
orei
tget
s..
..
"
Me:
"ooh "
Hi
m:'
what
?"
Me:
"It
hinkIj
ustpeedormywat
erj
ustbr
okeoneof
t
hosetwo"
Hi
m:"
Wh.
..
what
?"
Me:"ohfl
i
pmywaterbroke Lwandl
eit
'st
oo
soon,t
hepai
nGodthepain"
Hel
i
ter
all
yjumpedoutal
mostsl
i
ppedandf
ell
but
soonaf
terhepickedmeoutoft hebat
htubandran
withmetothebedroom buthewascareful
rememberwejustgotoutofthebathsohemight
sli
ponthefl
oor
Hi
m:"
umhmyshi
rti
sfi
ner
ight
?"
Inodheplacedmedowny ouforsomeonewhose
waterj
ustbrokeIwasdoingwellI'
m notshout
ingat
myhusbandwhosebusyr unni
ngar oundli
kea
headl
esschickennowam I?Hedr essedmeinhis
shi
rtandsomel eggi
ngswithmysl i
ppershewore
hi
sjeans,ashir
tandabeaniewithhisfl
ipfl
ops.
Me:'
youdone?Lwandl
ethecont
ract
ionsar
eget
ti
ng
cl
osertoget
her
"
Henodandtookthebabybagyeswehavet
woone
atmyhouseandoneherejusti
ncase.
Me:
"whataboutt
heki
ds?
"
Hi
m:"
thei
rnannyi
sher
erel
ax"
Inodandtookhishandashepull
edmet omyf eet
whydidtheyhav
et obepr
ematurethough?We
walkedoutsl
owlyandbythest
epshisgripar
ound
mywai
stti
ghtenedhewasreal
lycaref
ulandhewent
wi
thmetohisSUVcomfort
ablyatthefront
Hewassocal m oratleasthe'
spr
etendingbuthe
drovemet othehospitalwhenwegott her
ethe
nurseswereevensur pri
sedatourcal
mness not
ourfir
stbabyyouknow.
.
Thatcalmnessdisappearedwhenthecont
racti
ons
wereinthesamer hythm Iwasscreami
ngand
Lwandlewastryi
ngt ocalm medownbusywi pi
ng
mysweatandki ssingmyf or
ehead.
Dr:
"MrsSokhul
uit
'
sti
mef
ory
out
opushnow,
Ican
seethehead"
Me:
"o.
..
okay
"
Dr
:"
giv
eity
oural
l
"
Inodandl
ookedatLwandl
e
Lwa:
"youcandot
hismamakhe.
..I
'
mri
ghther
e"
Inodandti
ght
lyhel
donhishandwiththeot
herhand
holdi
ngt
herai
lonthebedIpushedandpushedunti
l
ati
nycrycamet hroughIcoul
dn'
tcelebr
at ecauseI
hadtopushagainLor dt
hisoneIcouldfeel mysel
f
l
osingmystrengthIwasslowlyl
osingmy sel
fbut
aft
erhour
sLor dknowsIheardanothertinycry
Idi
dit
Dr
:"
it
'saboyandagi
rl
"
Ismi
l
edwi
tht
ear
sjustf
lowi
ngdownmycheeks
Me:
"wedi
ditSokhul
u..
."
Bam l
i
ght
soutspeaki
ngwast
hel
astst
rawf
orme
[
11/
2,21:
49]Ly
nne:
~Penel
ope'
sst
ory
.
~Epi
sode74
.
Lwandl
e♥
IpalmistfreakedoutwhenPenel opepassedoutbut
thedoctort ol
dmet hatshe'sokayjustexhaustedI
wasst andingoverthebabiesast heywerebeing
cleanedupLor dknowswher et
hesepeopl ecome
from ai
n'tbigenoughtobringthem hereintheworld
butlookathowbeauti
ful
theylookandmybabies
arebeauti
ful
.Thebabygi
rlbegancryi
ngwi
thher
shri
nkingvoi
ce daddy '
sli
ttl
egir
l.
Dr
:"
her
eyougoMrSokhul
uhol
dher
"
Me:
"I
..
.umhokayt
hen"
It
ookherintomyarmsandt
ri
edhushi
ngherbutshe
wasabitdif
ficul
t
Me:"
babyIknowyouwannahearmommy
'sv
oice
but
..
.Waitaminut
e"
I'
m suchanidi
otyazianywayItookmyphoneand
play
edthevideowherebyLoloi ssi
ngi
ngf
orthem
andasIthoughtshecalmedherassdowneventhe
doctor
schuckledatherreact
ion.
Me:"therewego...
.Youar
esobeauti
fuly
ouknow
thatprincess?Daddyi
ssoproudofyouthoughy'
al
l
arri
vedear l
ybutwewerereadyf
oryouguysf r
om
dayone"
Shesneezed
Me:
"bl
essy
ou"
Iwaswal kingaroundwithherandhol
dingontoher
ti
nysof thandIknowI'vehadtwokidsnowbut
havinganewonei nmyar mswar msmyheartI
'm
fal
li
nginl oveall
overagain,
herpal
esoftski
nandher
softli
tt
lebreathi
ngitwasmagi cal
.
Dr
:"
MrSokhul
uthey
'l
lneednamesnow"
Il
ookedupathi
mthenatt
hecut
eli
tt
leonei
nmy
ar
ms.
Me:"
canwewai tf
ort
hei
rmot
hert
owakeup?Ican'
t
namethem al
one"
Henod
Dr
:"
ofcour
sewe'
l
lbeback"
Me:
"yeahsur
e"
Iwentbackt
ost
ari
ngatmybabygi
rlherbr
otheri
s
sl
eepi
ngsoIwon'
twakehi
m up
.
LolowokeupwhenIwast r
yingt ohushbothoft hem
nowandt henurseswherehelpingmebutt henwhen
theysawthatshewasawaket heytookthebabies
andrushedthem toLol
oIwentt oherandhelpedher
seatupr
ightIki
ssedherf
orehead.
Lol
o:"
sor
ryf
orbl
acki
ngout
"
Me:
"i
t'
sokaymyl
ove.
.Comemeetourpumpki
ns"
Lol
o:"
hav
eyounamedt
hem?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
Iwaswait
ingf
ory
out
owakeup.
..Her
eist
he
l
it
tl
ePri
nce"
Igavehert
hebabyboywhofl
i
nchedbutni
gga
cal
meddownwhenhef el
thi
smother
'ssof
ttouch.
Lol
o:"
umht
hisguyi
sLuy
andaLut
handoSokhul
u"
Inod
Me:
"Il
i
kei
tact
ual
l
yIl
ovei
t"
Sheki
ssedhi
sheadandhi
spout
edl
i
ps.
Lolo:
"he'sj
ustsoper
fectpl
easedon'
tmakehi
m get
dreadlocksIbegofy
ou"

Me:"butIdon'
t,
it'
sint
hegenesl
ookatt
hei
r
handsomef at
her"
Lol
o'
"f
inebut
..
.Mycut
eli
tt
leLuy
anda "
Me:"
uhhe'sour
sandenoughwi
tht
heguyseet
he
babygi
rl
"
Lol
o:"
oht
hel
i
ttl
epr
incess"
ItookLuuandt henur
segaveLolotheli
tt
legi
rlwho
wassl eepi
ngLoloj
ustki
ssedherpoutedli
psandher
forehead
Me:"howaboutwecal
lherPhi
wokuhl
eMbal
ent
le
Sokhulu"
Lol
o:"
whosai
dnameher
?"
Me:
'
butIt
houghtsi
ncey
ounamedherbr
otheri
twas
mytur
ntodothename"
Lol
o:"
didIsaysi
nceIpushedoutoney
oucanpush
outt
heotheroneorIdi
ditonmyown? "
Me:
"what
?You'
resogr
eedy
"
Shechuckl
ed
Lol
o:"
Ili
kePhiwokuhlebuthowaboutwecal
lher
Mbali
yothandoi
nsteadofMbalent
le?
"
Iar
chedmyey
ebr
ow
Me:"y
esmam sowher
ear
ewegoi
ngt
oli
ve?St
il
l
separat
ely
"
Lol
o:"
umht hat
'swhatIwantedust
otal
kabout
bef
orethesetwodecidedt
or ui
nmyspaday"
Inodandsatdownwat
chingherbr
east
feed
Phiwokuhl
ewhowassuckingl
i
keshewasdy i
ng
Lol
o:"
slowdownpr
incessmommywi
l
lfeedy
ou.
..
"
Me:
"youwer
est
arv
ingt
hem t
hat
'swhy
"
Lol
o:"noIwasn'
t.
..AsIwassayi
ngLwandl eI'
mt i
red
ofpl
ay i
ngdiv
orceandli
ketheyain'
tyour
s,haven'
t
youtakencareofwhoeverwasthreat
eni
ngy ou?"
Me:
'
Ihav
eandI
'
m done"
Lolo:
"t
henwerecominghomesomeoneshoul
d
knowt hati
twasnev
erlov
eandroses"
Me:"
ohherbabyi
fyoumustknowwedi
dn'
tev
en
hav
esex"
Lol
o:"
ain'
twemat
ured.
..Ther
ewegol
i
ttl
eone"
Shewasbusyburpi
ngPhi
wowhowassl
owlydosing
offbutLuuwassl
eepi
ngi
nmyarmsmyli
tt
lePri
nce.
Me:
"soy
ou'
recomi
nghome?
"
Lolo:
"youdi
dsayweain'
tundert
hreatany
moreri
ght
?
Soofcoursewe'
recominghome.ButIneedafav
our
fr
om you"
Me:
'
I'
mli
steni
ng"
Lol
o:"
getZamot
ocomeher
eIneedt
otal
ktoher
"
Me:"
youwhat?Youwantt
otal
kwi
tht
heper
sonwho
ki
l
ledourchi
l
d?"
Lol
o:"
Lwandl
elett
heLawdeal
wit
hherI
'
m beggi
ng
youdoitf
orme"
Isi
ghedandnod
Me:
"f
ine"
Shegi
ggl
edandki
ssedPhi
wo
Me:
"wher
e'smyki
ss?
"
Lol
o:"
comecl
oser
'
Ileanedincl
oserbutsheki
ssedLuuandpokedmy
forehead
Lol
o:"
cal
landcheckupont
heki
dspl
ease"
Me:
"f
inesi
nceI
'
mjustneededf
ort
hat
"
Sheki
ssedmycheekandr
ubbedi
t
Lol
o:"
pleasepumpki
n..
..Baba'
kaLesego"
Me:
"goodI
'
lldoi
t"
WhywouldIsaynotosuchasweetrequesthuh?I
pl
acedLuuinhi
scotmybabyboyain'tacrybabyhe
hasbeensl
eepi
ngeversi
nceIputhi
mt osleep .
.
Nar
rat
ed♥
Zamowasf et
chedbySokhuluguar
dsanddr i
vento
thehospit
alwhereshefoundLol
owai t
ingforher
aloneasthekidsweret
akentothekiddiesroom and
Lwandlewasf or
cedtogobuyfoodcauseappar entl
y
shesti
llhascravi
ngswhenZamowal kedinshef i
rst
stoodbythedoor.
Lol
o:"
comei
npl
easeIneedt
otal
ktoy
ou"
Zamo:"
why?Doyouhav
eyourhusbandbehi
ndt
his
doorwai
ti
ngtoki
ll
me"
Lol
o:"
youshoul
dfearmemor
enotLwandl
e..
.You
t
hinkhef
oundy
ou?Ort
haty
ouki
l
ledmybaby
?
Huh?"
Shekeptqui
et
Lol
o:"geti
nhereandseatdownnowbef
oreIr
eal
l
y
getyoukil
led"
SheScur
viedi
nandsatdown
Zamo:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Lol
o:"
howar
eyouZamo?I
sev
ery
oneokayat
home?"
Zamo:
"cutt
hebul
landt
ell
mewhaty
ouwant
"
Lol
o:'
Iwantyoutostayawayfrom ot
herpeopl
e'
s
menjeexhavesomesel fwor
thandstopbeinga
bi
tchaboutever
ythi
ng"
Zamo:
"andwhoset
obl
amef
ort
hathuh?
..
"
Lolo:"
yourgreedyassthat'
swhodon'tbepointi
ng
fi
ngersatpeopl eandstandinf
rontofthe
mirror,
lookatyoursel
fandsayyouarethebitchhere.
Yousl eptwithmyhusbandwhileyouknew
me,smi ledatmethenextdaywhatdoy oucallthat
?
Youchoset obeamar ri
edman'sbootycal
lyouno
oneelse..Hedidn'tpointagunaty outosleepwit
h
hi
m ortot ellmehowhe' ssati
sfiedwi thyou.Zamo
bl
amey oursel
fstartbyblamingy ourselft
hatyou
l
ostyourwombf ori fy
ouhadst ay edawayy ou'
dbe
happywi thaniceguybuty ouchasedt hebig
bucks,
fancyapartment sandcl othes"
Zamo:
"di
dy oucal
lmeheresot
hatyoucanswearat
me?Ai
n'tyouti
redofi
nsul
ti
ngme?"
Lol
o:"
ain'
tyoutir
edofacti
ngliket
hev i
cti
m?You
ki
ll
edmyi nnocentchi
ldZamomybabygi rlwas
i
nnocentbutyoukill
edheral
lbecauseyousti
ll
bel
ovedhe'dcomet oyouforcomforthowdelusi
on
wereyou?"
Zamo:
"het
oldmet
hathewant
edt
obewi
thme"
Lolo:
"hewasmar ri
edy ouidiothewaswear i
nghi s
weddi ngbandandy oubel i
ev edevery
thinghewas
tel
li
ngy ou?Youcan'tbethatdelusionZamoy ou'r
ea
womanagr ownasswomangety ourownman
who'l
l loveyouforyouandst optr
yingtosteal
everyone'smeny ou'
redegr adingyourself
.Seey ou
costmeababywhenIwasdoi ngwhatev ery
mar
ri
edwi
fedoest
obi
tchesl
i
key
ou.
..
"
Zamost
oodupat
tempt
ingt
oli
ve
Lol
o:"
seaty
ourassdownZamodon'
tbor
eme"
Zamo:
"Iwon'
tl
ety
oudegr
ademel
i
ket
his"
Lol
o:"
you'
veal
readydegr
adedy
our
sel
fsoseat
down"
Shej
ustst
oodt
her
e
Lol
o:"
Now!
"
Zamo:
"mxm speak"
Shesatdown
Lol
o;"
asIwassay
ingI
'
m wi
l
li
ngt
ohel
pyou,
geta
j
ob"
Zamo:
"whosai
dIneedy
ourhel
p?Icangetaj
ob
mysel
f"
Lol
ochuckl
ed
Lol
o:"
noyoucan't
..
.Al
l t
hosel
awfir
msyoutookyour
CVtoowon'tev
enlookatitl
etal
onehi
rey
ou.I'
ll
help
youbutononecondit
ion"
Zamo:
"what
?"
Lolo:
"youmov ebackhome...Youmovebackhome
andleaveKgahli
soalone.Yeahyoucanconti
nue
yoursil
lyvendet
tawit
hRosebutdon'thar
m
Kgahli
so'sbaby"
Zamo;
"whyshoul
dIdoasy
ousay
"
Lolo:
"ohwellsee.
..Ihavemyeyeony ournicel
it
tl
e
famil
yandy ouwoul dn'
twantt
ojustgetacallt
hat
yourpoordaddyisdeadandy ourmotherismissi
ng
nowwoul dyou?Fami lyi
simport
antyouknow"
Zamo:
"f
ine,
fi
neI
'
lll
eav
eyoursi
l
kyboy
fri
endal
one"
Lol
o:"
goodI'l
ltalktomycontactinKZNandI'
l
lask
Lwandlet
oliftthebanony ournameonthatl
awfi
rm
onl
ysonof unnyi deasory
ou'l
ldie"
Shenod
Lol
o:"
andformybabyi t'
suptohertoforgi
vey oufor
endi
ngherli
fesosooncauseIknowshehas
for
giv
enme.Herandherbr otherf
orgavemeand
nowIhaveanotherbabygir
landboy.DoIthinky ou
andIcanbecivi
ltowardseachother
?Nobi tchI
wanttopokeyoureyesoutandshovethem down
yourt
hroatnowgetoutofmyf aceandleav
eJozi
"
Zamo:
"f
inej
ustst
ayawayf
rom met
oo"
Lol
o:"
bit
chdon'
tgetcockywi
thmeI
'
llshi
tony
ou"
Lwandl
eclear
edhist
hroatatt
hedoorget
ti
ng
ever
yone'
satt
ent
ion
Lwandl
e:"
babeshest
il
lher
e?"
Lol
o:"
shewasdi
sappear
ingdon'
twor
ry.
..By
eZamo"
Zamoslowlystoodupandwentoutnotevenlooki
ng
atLwandlebythedoorwhojustmovedawayshe
walkedoutwit
hherheadhungdownasLwandl e
wenttohiswif
eandgav eherasweetpeckonthe
for
ehead.
Lwandl
e:"
I'
m pr
oudofy
oumyl
ove"
Lol
o:"
andIam ofyouIknowwest
il
lcan'
ttr
usther
butI
'mthankf
ulyoudeci
dedt
ogiv
eherachance"
Lwandl
e:"
I'
ll
bewatchi
nghermama'kaLesegoand
shedar
eactbit
chyoranyt
hingI
'
llhur
ther"
Lol
o:"
Iunder
standbabeandIwi
l
llety
ou.Di
dyou
br
ingmyf
ood?
"
Lwandl
e:"
yeahher
eyougoIcan'twai
tfory
ouguy
s
tocomebackhome.Iwasbored"
Lolo:
'
y ou'
l
lbekeptbusydon'
twor
ryandy
ouar
eon
thenightshi
ft
"
Lwandl
e:"
butIhav
etosl
eepcauseIgot
owor
k"
Lolo:
"exact
lyduri
ngthedayit'
smeorwi
l
lyout
ake
them withyoutotheoff
ice?
"
Hechuckl
edandpeckedherl
i
ps.
Lwandl
e:"
nightshi
fti
tis"
.
[
3mont
hsl
ater
]
~Penel
ope
Iwasbusyf eedingmybabi esasthefat
herwas
pl
ayingwiththeolderonesont hefl
ooronewoul dn'
t
havethoughtLesegoandPhi l
awouldbeexci
tedt o
haveababybr otherandsisterImeanri
ghtnowi t'
sa
hassleget
tingthem togotoschool t
hey'
drather
watchthei
rsibli
ngsratherthantogotoschool when
t
heyusedt
oenj
oydaycar
e.
Me:
"I
'm done.
..
"
Lwandl
e:"
didy
oupumpmor
emi
l
kfort
hem?
"
Inod
Lwandl
e:"
okayt
hebagsar
ecar
eful
l
ypackedsowe
cango"
Me:
"ar
ewepi
cki
ngupLuy
oloandSakhi
l
e?"
Lwandl
e:"
Sakhi
l
esai
dhe'
l
lfet
chhi
sfami
l
yandmeet
usther
e"
Me:
"ay
tlet
'sgot
othehol
i
dayy
ouoweme"
Hetookhi
skidsandIt
ookminewhichisLesego
andPhi
lahespankedmyasssqueezi
ngit
.
Lwandl
e:"
I'
m goi
ngt
ofucky
ouont
heboatdon'
t
hat
eme"
Ichuckledandwewentoutmyt i
nyli
tt
lef
amily we
defi
nedl oveandhat e,
wedefi
nedangerand
happinesst hat
'sjusthowthisfamil
yhasbeenwe
fi
ghtov erandov eragainbutattheendoftheday
we'ddief oreachot her
SakhileandLuy ol
oagr eedt or aiset hel
itt
leoneas
copar entsit'
dbewei rdi
ft heygotmar r
iedsoi t'
s
betterthisway .Luyolocompl etedherst udi esIhad
tobegandgr ov elandbegf orhert ogot oschool but
shef i
nallydidandnowmybabysi stercanbe
i
ndependentI '
m notsay ingt heywer en'
tlooki ngaf t
er
hernotshecan' trelyont heSokhul u'st
ogi v eher
moneyal lbecauseshehasasonwi thSakhi l
et hat'
s
rubbish.Ilovemyf amily
, IlovemyhusbandandI
l
obemyki dsbutmost l
yIl ovet helifeIhav elived
andt hepeopl eIhav emeti twasf unmeet ingt hem
andwi llalwaysbef unmeet i
ngnewpeopl e.
Heki
ssedmyf
oreheadandmycheek
Lwandl
e:"
I'
ll
alway
slov
ey ou,
Il
iv
eforyou.Yoursmi
l
e
makesmewakeupev erymorni
ng."
Hepeckedmyl
i
ps
Lwandl
e:"y
ou'
remywomant
hroughandt
hrough
under
stand?"
Inodandweki
ssedunt
ilLesegobegancal
l
ingme
well
Godwehadfun.
Hi
m:'
Il
ovey
ouMr
sSokhul
u"
Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
eMrSokhul
u"
.
.
~THEEND~