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introduction .
Its getting very cold
here , my bus is
already 9 minutes
late . I'm at the bus
station coming from
work and its already
17:09 this damn bus
was supposed to be
here by o'clock .
I am Wandile ,
Wandile Shandu &
this is the story of
my life .
______________________
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insert 01 .
me : sengbuyile ,
uright ?
she nods while
breaking ice in her
mouth ; she is
addicted to just
having ice &
breaking it , she
could do it all day .
* she swallows *
Thando : how was
work ?
Thando : I'm
exhausted , oh I'm
making noodles ,
should I make for
some for you ?
me : flavour ?
Thando : khona
idurban curry .
me : yes please
kodwa ngsayogeza ,
congbekela khona
kwimicrowave lapho
. I will take them
mase ngiqede
ukugeza .
she nods again , our
bond is kinda
complicated .we are
not friends , we are
not close but I do
like her ; siyazwana
kodwa obviously we
fight (alot) & we do
somethings together
but I met her here ,
she met me her , no
glitter no sparks .
I walk to my room , I
have my own & she
has her own & then
a
bathroom/shower/toi
let & then the
kitchen . no dinning
room or anything
like that as I said , its
just a 4 room house
...
I take off my work
uniform & I take my
shower cap with me
& I walk with my
underwear & bra to
the bathroom
ngisexy yazi mina .
ngyadlala let us
focus .
wena uzongthanda .
uzongshada ,
uzongthanda
omalume bokhuleka
”
I vibe along with
myyy song , Azana
really went hard on
zalabantu , this song
is such a smooth
banger , I might not
relate to this song
bcs igirl is single but
its definetly a 11/10 .
I wear my short
pjamas & I apply my
face product , yo I
use to have so many
pimples all my
highschool years &
then my mom
introduced me to
cuticura ohh GOD ,
me & cuticura were
& are still good ; I'm
glad it didn't ruin my
face , iyangthanda
nansilento .
speaking of my mom
, angsanabo abazali ;
they both passed
away in a car
accident on their
way to my
graduation ...
aw , useyaphaphake
uThando sezenza
ingane ena 5 . I don't
like pretending
nanoma kubani nje .
l am a very honest
person but she made
me noodles so I will
sleep with her but
only for tonight only
.
me : hawu ngampela
?
*sarcasm*
Thando : uzombatha
?
me : ehhe .
Thando : Wandi !
me : mh ?
Thando : can I ask
you something ?
me : buza .
Thando : when am I
going to meet her ?
me : who ?
I laugh .
I am lesbian by the
way , I've never
dated a singlw man
in my life , I have no
feelings for men .
me : ayibo I am
reading a novel lana
& I am finding a cute
part of the story ,
ucathi ngismile.iswa
ukuthi ngiyajola ?
hawu uyahlanyake
shuthi uThando ,
uyafana nse
nomama cause I
remember in
highschool I use to
read pdf novels &
smile to them abo "I
fell inlove with a
blind man ,
mahlomu the wife &
beauty beyond the
orange uniform" &
my mom would also
think I'm probably
talking to my
"boyfriend" cha ay .
ukube uyazi
uThando ukuthi I
last dated last year
in november & its
february now .
Thando : ngikbona
uhleka phela mina ,
so nje awujoli ?
me : lutho cabanga .
Thando : ubusy
ufundana nama
novels
awumsangano lapho
, thola indoda uzoba
right .
me : awu
ngzoyenzani kodwa
indoda Thando ?
angsayikhulumi
eyabangani bami
who have tried
hooking me up with
guys but its just not
there , I don't feel
anything for men ; I
am what I am but I
understand why its
hard for them to
accept that .
uAmokuhle nje
hlezathi I'm too
pretty to be dating
girls only ey bafethu
ukube niyazi ukuthi
isketi ngisthanda
kanjani !
ngaqedake ukudla ,
angsuthanga kodwa
akunankinga . seku
19 : 34 , ngyezelake
manje .
I texted my girls , we
talk but not all the
time . even weeks
pass without us
talking to each other
. its just something
we've normalised .
I was up by 5 am & I
started washing my
clothes , its close to
half 6 now and I'm
finally done .
I want to go to the
mall today ... I want
to try something
new with my hair ,
maybe dye with
colour blonde/ginger
; or do s - curls yazi
angazi .
ngaze ngalamba , I
make 3 eggs , 1 for
me for 2 slices & 2
for Thando . I
quickly eat & finish
after that I wake
Thando up to tell her
I am leaving in a few
minutes & asked if
she wants me to
bring anything for
her .
me : Thando ! vuka .
Thando : mmh ?
*phone rings*
I ignore it . I really
hate calls , unless
siyathandana or
hlampe uwumzali
wami ... manje
angthandani
namuntu futhi
abazali abekho ,
even my 2 friends
bayazi ukuthi
angfonelwa mina .
me : ayibo kanti
yinike ?
I walk to my room to
check who's calling ?
its an unsaved
number so I watch it
ring until it stops
I take my capitec
card & phone , no
handbag today I will
just put the card &
the money for the
uber on my phone
case .
I check the time , its
still 8:02am & my
phone is on 68% but
its fine ; the battery
will last .
me : sengihambile
Thando , khona
amaqanda aphekwe
microwave
amboziwe lapho .
sengyamemeza
ngoba
sengsemnyango
angfuni ukuhamba
ngingamtshelanga .
Thando : okay ,
byeee .
insert 2 .
@zee's salón .
ay , iyasha ingevu ,
kunomsindo
laykhaya awema .
sengicikwa
nalomsindo wama
hairdryer &
mangithi ngyabuka
ngakosink , I find
ukuthi the sink tap
has been running for
a very long time ,
bayawamosha
amanzi lana .
*phone vibrates* in
my pocket .
my phone notifies
me a message from
whatsapp from
"Thando roomie"
athi "please bring
me chocolate yogurt
, sour snakes & dark
darrrk chocolate ,
thanks in advance" ,
I know when she
craves for this that
means she has her
period or is a day
closer to it .
ngzomphathela vele
ngoba ekseni
bengimbuzela for
such reasons .
young girl : I am
hiding from my
aunty and ... oh no
here she comes
sssshh .
I giggle a little & look
in the direction
where she was
coming from ...
"Amanda ! "
I bet thats the aunty
calling her .
"Amanda kodwa
nkosiyami" , she
starts to get really
worried & the people
at the shop are all
looking at her .
I raise my hand up
to her & she comes ,
I carry Amanda to
my left ngambeka
eqolo .
"soxabanake
uzobona ,
ngzomtshela
nomama wakho
ukuthi usuyahlupha"
the aunty replies .
I hand Amanda over
to her , Amanda is a
cute little girl & her
aunty ? is gorgous
ayibo , I can't quit
starring .
really Wandile ?
"yupp"? . yo
ngyathithiza when I
see pretty girls , yazi
ukube ngvele
ngathula .
@home .
Thando : ngyabonga
mtase , please
remind me your
money as soon as
I'm done with these
dishes .
me : chabo ,
akunankinga .
Thando : really ?
she laughs .
Thando : ukuthi
wena uhlezi uyifuna
phela imali yakho
manje ngyamangala
mawungayfuni
namhlanje .
me : I guess I'm in a
good mood today ...
me : ngyabonga , is it
really that good ?
we both break a
huge laugh .
Thando : ngiserious
ukube uyazi .
me : you should
really see an eye
doctor .
Thando : ohho .
me : no I met this
other nice girl , like
she was so pretty &
naye she
complimented my
hair .
Thando : mmhh , I
see ... someone is
having a new crush
.
me : whoaa , hold it .
mna ? crush ?
she laughs .
me : noo , we spoke
for a few seconds
plus I only know her
neice's name & not
hers .
Thando : wee ay
uyathithizake wena .
me : mmmmmxxm ,
ngsayolala .
it appears on the
screen "Amo" .
I answer it .
me : yini ?
Amo : usalele emini
kangaka ?
i wake up to sit
properly ...
me : chabo ,
khuluma phela .
Amo : uyaya
emsebenzini ksasa ?
me : yea . yindaba?
Amo : uphuma
ngoba iskhathi ?
me : ulesngaki ksasa
?
me : ey chabo ,
ungangfoneli . you
could've just texted
me , nx .
I woke up 3 hours
later , a call from
Amo again woke me
up . yo
lentombazane
ngzoyiblock.a stru .
me : khuluma ,
ufunanike ?
Amo : be nice , be
polite , calm down .
me : yo uyangcasula
yazi .
I just decided to
wake up cause I
know ubuthongo
abusekho but I
atleast I did get some
rest .
I go to Thando's
room & I find her
watching some
series unbothered .
me : should I cook ?
Thando : already did
.
me : what did you
cook?
Thando : haw , yini
ubuze . hambobona .
me : hawu ngtshela .
Thando :
hambonona .
I go to the kitchen
dragging my feet . I
open the pot & I see
she cooked pasta &
cheese but let me go
bath & then eat after
.
Insert 03 .
college Thapelo :
Wandile , sir is
asking for you in his
office .
he is sitting on his
chair , he really
looks really busy ...
he points the chair
indicating that I
should take a sit .
I sit down & he
seems to be writing
something ... am I
getting a warning ?
what did I do so bad
? now I can't stop
stressing .
boss : ehh ,
bayaphila ekhaya ?
me : yebo , bayaphila
.
boss : usawuthanda
umsebenzi wakho ?
me : big .
boss : big ?
konje he is old
fashioned .
me : yebo
ngyawuthanda
kakhulu .
boss : kade
ngicabanga la .
me : ngilalele .
he is talking in
riddles angmuzwa
mina lomuntu .
boss : angsathandi
ukuthi ungsebenzele
.
my heart skipped a
beat .
boss : ngfuna
ukukwenza umakoti
wakwami .
I decided to keep
quiet ngoba meke
ngakhuluma
nkosiyami ngampela
ngampela konuka
umsunu , I mean I've
worked for this guy
close to 11 months
now & I have been
nothing but one of
his best workers ,
why is doing this to
me ?
me : uyahlanya ?
huh ? ikhanda lakho
liright ?
boss : cela
ungehliseke
umsindo wakho
maShandu .
me : maShandu
woknuka yini loyo ,
sekyophela unyaka
ngisebenza laykhaya
serving your damn
customers & this is
the way you thank
me ? I am one of the
best workers here &
you know that deep
down . uyislima , yo
fuckkk !
I threw the cloth to
his face & I leave to
the door & I bang his
door so hard ...
Thando : ey lifuna
ukuna nali izulu .
Thando : ayibo
uright ?
me : yea ngiright ,
yindaba ?
Thando : ngyazi
awukho right .
me : ngiright serious
.
Thando : unamanga ,
njengoba ucobekile
unjena nje . yindaba
mtase ?
me : Thando
ngixoshiwe
emsebenzini .
Thando : haa
Wandile !
me : look I'm sorry , I
will get a new job & I
promise I won't
bother you with
anything .
Thando : hambo
cambalala
ngzoqhubeka
nezitsha mase
ngzopheka ukudla
sidle .
me : ngyabonga
kakhulu .
I go to my room & I
close the door . I lay
on my bed , I can't
sleep though , I take
my laptop & connect
to the wifi & I look
for posters maybe on
teaching . I apply in
3 different schools
but I think ilapho
engizumeke khona ,
I guess I was tired
after all .
insert 04 .
I wake up at 4 : 13
am , I just had a very
horrible dream but I
never take dreams
seriously , ewe I
know other people
believe that every
dream has a
meaning , kodwa ay
lapha kimi .
I go take a shower &
make my bed , after
that I go make
myself cornflakes &
my phone rings & I
decide to answer .
me : Wandile
Shandu speaking .
me : okay , thank
you .
today is a warm
Monday so I wear
my black skinny jean
with my black &
white northface t-
shirt , I looked for
my vans tekkies &
also wore them . I
decided to comb my
hair a little & after
that I woke Thando
up to tell her I am off
to an interview &
she adviced we
should pray so that
everything goes well
so we did & she
khapha'ed me to the
gate .
me : wish me luck .
Thando : all the best
mtasekhaya .
I smiled , waved
goodbye & got an
uber .
...
we all nod , so am I
really looking
forward to this ; like
I am going to be
teacher ? even
though kids are so
rude & irritating ,
but my mom was a
teacher ; I might
have a thing or 2
from her .
insert 05 .
a few days later .
not much has
happened in past
few days , I mean
angsebenzi &
ngbhorekile la
ekhaya .
my interview went
very well that other
day kodwa they said
they will call me , I
mustn't call them so
this requires me to
patient & angyena
mina umuntu
onesneke mina .
it reads :
I couldn't hold my
tears , I started
twerking &
screaming . running
around the entire
house , I am so
proud of myself & I
can feel my mom &
dad looking out for
me , my true angels .
I was so grateful & I
couldn't even stop
crying , these news
were too good .
I can't wait for
Thando to come
back ; she must hear
my exciting news ,
ayibo waze
wamkhulu
uNkulunkulu .
I finish eating my
food & I wash the
dishes , I sweep
around the house & I
take a 2 hour nap .
I am waken up by a
knock on my room
door & its Thando .
Thando : sengbuyile
, uright ?
ngacikica amehlo & I
yawn while nodding
.
Thando : nami
ngiright .
me : iskhath'sini ?
Thando : ay
ngiphume early
today ksawu 1 .
me : ohh ...
Thando : asambe
siyekitchen ; I
brought dunked
wings & burgars for
lunch .
we walk to sit in my
room & she starts
teling me ngomjolo
wakhe & how she
misses her man , her
man is in Joburg ;
gone for work so
they decided to do
this long distance
shit & they see each
other every 3months
nakhona for 1 week .
yo mina asoze shem
, I guess asifani
singabantu .
Thando : uthe
uzongfonela ebsuku
today .
me : ha Thando
kanti don't you guys
talk everyday ?
Thando : no , ay
njalo but maybe
twice a week .
me : awu ngeke !
aneva , you guys call
whatever you are
doing a relationship
?
we both laugh .
Thando :
uyangthanda
uThemba & ngyazi
akadlali ngami .
me : uyamthemba
loThemba wakho ?
me : Thando
mntanami lalela ,
abafana izinja .
Thando : ngoba
nakhu wenake .
me : mina ini ?
Thando : utshekile .
we both break a
huge laugh , Thando
can be funny
sometimes ; when
we were done eating
she asked if I could
plait her amashunqu
, amashunqu
amagoda kahle
kahle angazi why la
bewabize
ngamashunqu .
I am wearing a
white & orange floril
skirt revealing some
part on my right
thigh & a white t-
shirt with my white
nike tekkies . I can't
decide if I should
bring a red pen or
not (jokes) ; I have a
white small handbag
with me , my phone
& money is inside .
...
I am now on my way
to "work" ayibo
ngaze ngaphapha
ekseni kungakashayi
ngisho u7 , well its 5
minutes to 7am
kodwa still nje
ukuphapha
okungaka .
hawema , lona ! I
know this guy from
somewhere , his face
is so familiar .
me : san'bona baba .
Principal : usukhule
kangaka !
yes I knew it , it was
my dad's bestfriend .
this day is getting
even better , this is
bab'Zikhali if I'm not
mistaken , ngsakhula
him & his wife were
some sort of my GOD
parents , like
bebezwana kakhulu
nomama nobaba .
me : ngaze ngajabula
ukukbona .
Principal : wuwe lo
osula , ozosebenza
khona la namhlanje ,
cha ngempela
umhlaba muncane ;
bengingazitsheli
ukuthi ngyoke
ngiphinde
ngikubone .
me : sengahlala
khona la ethekwini ,
ngaqeda naseskoleni
...
Principal : aw
nganekabafo ,
usamkhumbula
kodwa uSanele ;
indodana yami .
me : yebo ,
ngsamkhumbula .
Principal : naye
usebenza khona la
etranset
mawuphuma nje
ubheka nga
koPortespston , aze
naye ngama
mpelasonto
ezosbona nomama
wakhe . zolo lokhu
nje kade nidlala
egcekeni lakini
nehla nenyuka ;
namhlanje nikhulile
nibangaka .
hawe ma , angsazi
ngzothini ; ngyamazi
phela lobaba angeke
esaqeda
ukukhuluma
sekuyoze kuvalwe .
me : yebo baba .
Principal :
kulungileke , nazi
intozakho .
he gives me a
timetable , a pencil
case bag , 3 red pens
, a 72page with
another 2 quire & 2
grade 03 english
textbooks with a
teachers guide too !
yess I am going to be
an english teacher .
Principal : uzobona
nawe la , itimetable
le ; engathi ungaba
nosuku oluhle
lokuqala
emsebenzini .
me : ngyabonga
kakhulu .
I smile & take the
things that he gave
me .
insert 07 .
I walk to the
staffroom & I greet
everyone that is
there , they reply
with smiles , I even
introduced myself ;
this is so
uncomfortable
though , I sit with my
things next to me & I
look on my timetable
ukuthi when am I
having my first class
to teach & it on
period 2 & period 3 .
now I know its
period 1 & when the
bell rings I go there
... It looks like I am
going to be teaching
3 grade 03 classes ,
3A , 3B & 3C ; hoping
for the best .
I take my phone &
walk around the
school , I buy a can
of coke & I start
walking up the stairs
. I could hear
learners reading ,
counting abo 1 to 10
& the grade R's
singing those songs
"walking down the
streets" , "nampaya
omama bethweli'
mithwalo" .
I bump into 4 guys , I
am not sure if they
are also teachers or
what but they are by
the chorido upstairs
& they are talking !
ekseni nje
sekunabafana
abadla ingevu kanje
.
I greet "sanibona"
they all stare ; no
one is replying they
are all quiet & just
starring at me , so I
decide to greet again
"sanibona!" , one
replies "awu kodwa
my sister" I look &
continue to walk
while drinking my
drink with a straw .
I text Thando
"bitchhhh kumnandi
cabanga la , like its
so damn nice & fun ,
I met someone I
knew from long time
ago though ; I hope I
will be totally just
fine "
as I was walking
back to the staffrom ,
I find one of the four
guys I came across
ekqaleni & he starts
stealing glances , I
get inside & right on
that moment the bell
rings ; I walk to
room 12 upstairs
which 3A & I will be
having a double
period there .
as I was walking
towards the class ,
these kids were
making noise & the
second I walked in
everyone started
moving to their
places & they kept
quiet .
me : goodmorning ?
grade 03s :
goodmorning miss &
how are you today ?
me : I am very happy
& well , how are you
?
me : I am miss
Shandu , I will be
taking you for
english ; your new
english teacher . I
am 24 years of age , I
live in Kwa-Mashu &
I would love to get to
know you all one by
one . we will start on
this side , you will
stand up ; tell me
your name ,
surname , age &
where you live &
then sit down , the
next person will do
that so on & so on .
do you understand
that ?
me : uh , nice to
meet you guys . I
hope sizobambisana
so you guys could go
to the next grade ,
the senior side are
you excited?
me : okay so today
we going to be
learning about verbs
, who can tell me
what a verb is ?
me : very correct ,
can we clap hands
for him ?
me : byeee .
insert 08 .
its break time for the
kids , they all make a
line to the tuckshop
& I am standing in
the shade eating
popcorn & I am on
my phone ; scrolling
on instagram &
stalking celebrities .
the school is
separated in 4 flours
, the 2 flours in the
bottom is the junior
area - grade R to
grade 03 and the 2 in
the top is the senior
area - grade 4 to 7 .
2 girls come to
approach me .
me : hi .
they both smile .
girl 1 : Its me
Senamile & this is
Thandeka .
me : oh yes , from 3A
?
they nod .
me : hawu baby , I
literally started
teaching you today
njena ; how is it
possible that now
I'm the best teacher
?
me : who is miss
Madumo ?
ienglish yalezingane
iyanghlekisa , they
are really trying & I
just have to bare
with them .
me : oh , how bad
was she ?
I laugh awema ,
ingane ezikthanda
kanje ukukhuluma .
me : okay , I won't be
a bad teacher I
promise .
they both look at
each other & they
hug me I nearly
dropped my whole
packet of popcorn .
Amanda : Hi .
me : hey , how are
you babygirl ?
Amanda : I am good ,
I never knew you
are a teacher at my
school . you
remember me right
?
me : I only started
today not knowing
you are also a
learner here & yes I
do remember you .
me : why ? what
grade are you in ?
Amanda : because
you are beautiful , I
am in grade 2B , mr
Tembe's class . I
have to go now , bye
.
me : wait , Amanda !
Amanda : my aunty
is calling me now .
me : hey .
me : buka umhlaba
ukuthi mncane
kangakanani .
she smiles again & I
see a smiley piercing
.
Amanda's aunty :
saphinda
sahlangana , awusho
you work here ?
me : yea I only
started today
cabanga .
Amanda's sister : is it
? so how was your
first day at work ?
me : it was very
amazing honestly . I
love everything
about it .
she gets out of the
car & takes off her
cap & shades ; she is
wearing a black bum
short & a bikini bra .
me : thanks , nawe
umuhle nje .
Amanda's sister :
yazi its weird I never
really got your name
.
me : nguWandile ,
nguWandile Shandu
.
she offers a
handshake while our
eyes stare at each
other .
Amanda's sister :
Mandy , Mandisa
Zulu .
hawu yenzani
lentombazane
ingbuka kanje , I am
going to catch
feelings stru .
me : do you fetch
Amanda everyday ?
Mandisa : I don't
know *smiles*
maybe , that
depends , wena do
you work here
everyday ?
me : I don't know ,
maybe .
she laughs & puts
back her cap .
Mandisa : okay
mama , usuyohamba
kahleke .
me : nawe
uhambekahle , bye
bye Amanda .
insert 09 .
I can't even stop
smiling , I got to the
mall & texted
Thando to tell her
that she will find me
in Mcdonalds , she
blueticks me & as I
wait for her I get
myself a cold lemon
crusher .
Thando : mtase ,
wancuma kangaka
yini?
me : you will not
believe .
Thando : ini ?
asambeni so-order .
I stand up & we walk
to the ordering
screen , she orders
double melted
cheese burgars ,
fried chips & drinks
.
Thando : should I
add ?
me : no , kuright
lokho .
we wait for 5
minutes & our order
gets called , we take
the food & go sit
down .
me : haa mtase ,
what a perfect day ...
Thando : mana , did
you just call me
mtase ?
me : uhm yes .
Thando : ngaze
ngajabula cabanga .
uyaqala phela
ukungbiza kanjalo .
me : awukahle ,
ngzosuke
ngingasaphindeke .
Thando : oksalayo
ukwenzile , xoxa
nglalele .
me : akupheli lapho
oe , I saw her again .
Thando : ubani ?
that girl that I said
you have a crush on
? lowase ...
Thando : haaawu
Wandile !!! did you
talk to her ?
Thando : elaborate ,
detail on detail .
me : her niece
Amanda ufunda
kulesiskole
engisebenza kuso , I
think uzomlanda
everyday afterschool
. I got her name ...
uthe uwu Mandisa
Zulu & she drives a
white merc , muhle
loyana , she even has
a smiley piercing ey
Thando mfethu !
me : ufuna
ukwenzani ?
Thando : sshh buka .
she goes to my
instagram &
searches "Mandisa
Zulu" , on my top
search & she goes to
her profile & then
hands me the phone
.
yo lona , she is on
22.2K followers &
following only 8
people . she takes
nice pictures & I
check her story , she
posted the beach &
captioned "my
happy place" , I
scrolled down to see
her pictures , her
last post was
28minutes ago ,
taking pictures at the
beach on the same
outfit that I saw her
on today ...
her bio :
mageba , mntwana .
(heart emojie) .
(the rainbow emojie
of LGBTQ) .
a date 06 march . (a
balloon emojie) .
me : hawu Thando
uyena . buka mfethu
lomuntu , cela
umbuke .
Thando : haa , muhle
ngampela . mana
ilokhu abekugqokile
today ?
me : yess , should I
follow her ?
Thando : no , don't as
yet . naye
mayehlakaniphile
naye she will search
for your instagram .
me : you think so ?
Thando : yes , you on
4k followers right ?
me : yes .
Thando : asqede
ukudla ngikshuthe la
ngaphandle , vele
your outfit is nice ;
lets play tricks kulo
Mandisa wakho .
me : okay
sowenzakanjani ?
Thando :
ngzokushutha
outside the
mcdonald sign &
then upost nawe
ukuthi "my happy
place" , kuright
lokho ?
I laugh while
chewing the fried
chips , iyanghlekisa
lentombazane
ngzobindeka yazi .
me : yea kuright .
Thando : should I
cook ?
me : nooo , ngsuthi
mina .
me : ungapheki ,
uzophekani ?
Thando : spagetti
maybe .
me : no guys , I didn't
cut you off .
yo my friends can be
so rude sometimes ,
Bongeka yena talks
to much & its not
ukuthi I have cut
them off but I might
have been distancing
myself from them ,
kunini nje
ngabagcina .
me : I have a date .
Amo : unamanga !
Bongeka : really
chomzaa ?
me : yea I am serious
.
me : its a guy .
Bongeka : go prepare
your outfit
asingakuphazamisi ,
sokufonela ksasa
usubuya khona .
me : okay besties ,
byee .
notifications
- Mandisa Zulu
started following
you .
- Mandisa Zulu liked
your post .
I am moving ,
jumping while trying
to show Thando but
I know she can't see
properly because I
am moving .
Thando : angboni
phela musa
ukunyakaza .
she reads & also
starts jumping , ay
ngeke siyahlanya
thina hawe ma .
me : should I follow
her back ?
Thando : usabuza ?
Its 7:32 pm on a
Sunday , I just
finished ironing my
clothes for work
tommorow so I help
Thando cook , we eat
supper & we both go
to our bedrooms
after that .
I called my friends
so I could lie to them
about the fake date
with a guy .
Bongeka : aphelile
amadoda
ngaphandle oe
mthathe .
me : angimfuni ,
nani nibonileke guys
ngizamile kodwa
akyenzeki . mangiba
nentombi any time
soon cela
ningangigxeki
ngyacela .
Bongeka : ngnike
inumber yakhe mina
ngimthathe , ayikho
lento yakho wena
Wa .
me : bye Thando .
Thando : have a nice
day mtase .
.....
I get to work a bit
later then the
previous time , I pay
for my trip & head to
the staffroom . I
great the other
teachers & I see that
my stuff is still here .
I looked for my
timetable & saw that
I have a double
period in 3A , again
afterbreak in 3B &
3C .
after some time the
teachers came back I
think that means the
assembly is over
now , the bells rings
for the periods to
start & I head to my
favourite class so far
, 3A which is
upstairs . this is me
walking in & they all
move to their places
& stand up to greet .
me : goodmorning
class .
me : we all
completed the
classwork right ?
grade 03s : yes .
me : hey girls .
its 2 : 00 pm , school
is out now , I quickly
go & use the toilet ,
finished my business
& then called an
uber .
as I was leaving
towards the gate , I
see by the school
ground ; some kids
are playing soccer ,
netball , vollyball & I
think the other sport
is athletics .
me : Amanda ?
I walk to her .
me : wasn't that
Mandisa ?
Amanda : it was , she
was coming to fetch
me then I told that I
am practising
netball today and
she will come again
at half pass 3 .
I look at him .
me : what makes you
think its a guy ?
him : why would it
be a girl umuhle
kanje ?
me : okay .
Thando : he will be
here for 4 days only
though . I don't care
as long as I will be
on his arms .
me : I am really
scared of ever trying
this long distance
thing , you know
how impatience I am
& now imagine
having to miss
someone so bad &
you can't see them ,
ay ngeke .
Thando : ngaktshela
ukuthi asfani
singabantu , into
oyiyo uyiyo , nami
engiyikho ngiyikho .
I boost her
confidence alot
when I say this , sex
is a big thing ; losing
your virginity nje is
huge & I know how
she feels about it .
she smiles .
me : hawu mfethu
loyana ,
angimbonanga today
, yazi I missed her
with 2 seconds
ngoba ngthe ngithi
ngphuma naye
ubesadaksuka
kwiparking lot ,
uyayidonsisa engabe
uyangshela
ngimvume . sqede
lento ibe umshado .
Thando laughs so
loud .
me : musa ukuhleka
mfethu ngiserious .
I'm not going to lie , I
wanted to see her so
bad & I do want a
relationship with
her inkinga I am
scared to text , make
a move or anything
like that .
Thando : hawu
ibhadi elingaka ,
namanje
anikatext.ani ?
me : no .
me : no , maybe .
Thando : ihheee
kantike uyahlanya ,
tholukuthi naye she
wants you to text
first .
me : anghlanyi
ukuthi angazi
ngzoqala ngithini
kuye mina , nawe
uyazi ngyabheda
mina .
Thando : kodwa
nibadala for such ,
letha iphone yakho
& let me help you .
I gave her my phone
& she unlocked it ...
me : hawu , uyivule
kanjani ?
she laughs .
me : okay yenzake
into obufuna
ukuyenza kodwa
before you send the
message
ungikhombise kqala
.
she comes sits next
me , angithi we were
sitting facing each
other & now she
moves closer so I can
also see .
me : nooo , no noo
hudn?? please type
in full , I find this
very unattractive .
Thando : see ?
simple . now take
here , ungamoshike
njalo usubheda .
me : no ungangshiyi
, ngzotype.a nawe la
.
chat :
me : I am also okay I
guess .
Thando : ay ayyy ,
usuyabhedake .
me : bekumele
ngithini ?
.....
Mandisa : oh ,
ngiyabonga . can I
call you okungcono?
me : yea actually , I
do want to say
something .
me : yindaba
ukhuluma kanjena ,
ngathi khona into
ekucasulike nje .
Mandisa : lutho , I
am just a horrible
texter & I fail to use
emojies sometimes
thats why I decided
to call . ngyaxolisa .
me : okay , uhm
bengithi mina I was
hoping we could be
friends maybe , I
don't have alot of
friends .
Mandisa : really ?
she laughs .
me : ehhe , cela
ungahleki phela .
Mandisa : anghleki
wena .
Mandisa : yea , we
could be friends . I
can be your girl &
you will be mine .
me : okay uhm
should I say thank
you ?
Mandisa : no hawu ,
its a mutual
agreement
ungabongi lutho .
me : okay ,
ngyabonga .
I laughed cause I
didn't mean to say
thank you , kuvele
kwazenzakela nje .
Mandisa : lets meet
tommorow maybe .
me : okay at what
time ?
Mandisa : half 4
cause I have to fetch
Amanda at half past
3 tommorow
afterschool & then I
will drop her here at
home then we could
go to gateway or
something .
me : sounds fine to
me .
me : okay , byee .
Mandisa : bye .
we both dropped the
call at the same time
.
MANDISA's POV .
I am sitting in the
dinning room , my
mom is not back
from work & its still
8:33pm .
me : Amanda !
she comes to me
with holding tight to
her big barbie doll .
me : do you want
popcorn ?
Amanda : yes &
please make some
for Mellisa cause she
didn't eat this whole
day .
oh I haven't
introduced myself
did I ?
I am lesbian , I date
women . I just find
women so amazing
& beautiful ; I can't
be the one to be
straight .
Its now 09:03 pm ,
mom will be back
maybe in an hour & I
am in the kitchen
with Amanda &
Mellisa , we are
making popcorn &
ready to watch any
movie , Ntwenhle
left for work an hour
ago .
the popcorn is all
ready , I look for a
movie that Amanda
would also like . I
quickly find movie
"repunzel" & we sit
in the ouch & started
watching the movie
.
09:32 pm ...
09:52 pm ...
Amanda : goodnight
mom .
me : kodwa mama .
mom : ey ngilambe
kabi kabi .
me : dlanake ukudla
phela , angeke
ukusuthise
upopcorn .
mom : uphekile ?
me : upopcorn
angeke ukusuthise .
mom : uphekile na ?
me : chaabo kodwa
nje .
mom : ngiyekake .
I laugh . I take my
phone in the table ...
me : goodnightike
ma .
mom : hamba
uyolala .
I walked upstairs to
my room , maybe I
am tired today yazi .
I took a quick
shower & I went to
bed ... now its a bit
cold ,
sengisengubweni &
ngimbathile . my
phone is on 41% , its
fine I will go to
instagram &
whatsapp mase
ngyalalake .
I find a notification
on my insta .
- wandile added a
new story .
- sammie k started
following you .
- alwande liked your
post .
- lwandie started
following you .
+ 12 .
I get like 20 to 30
new followers
everyday , slowing
starting to be
instagram famous
with my 22K
followers .
I went to see
Wandile story , this
girl is beautiful . I
can't believe she
wants to be friends
with me ; looking at
her nje gives me so
many goosebumps is
it possible for a
person to look this
gorgous ?
I heart her story &
then I went to
whatsapp , a few
messages from my
friends but I ignore
them & I sleep , vele
I have a date
tommorow .
Insert 11 .
a few days later .
WANDILE's POV .
today is friday , I
wake up & went to
take a quick shower ;
"a very goodmorning
to you Thandooooo"
I sing all the way in
the passage & she
replies .
Thando : ihheee ,
someones in a good
mood !
me : kuyabonakala
yini ngalapho ukuthi
I am 1 step closer to
finally being
Mandisa girlfriend ?
Thando :
unaaaamanga wena
!
me : no bengbuza
ukuthi
kuyabonakala yini
ngalapho ?
she laughs with me .
Thando : xoxa .
me : no , ngzoba late
& today ?
unganglindi
ngzobuya ebsuku
ngampelake .
Thando : ayibo oe
awusapaphi !
me : kodwa vele
ngyaphapha , I mean
its been only 6 days
of talking & we
metup only once &
she took me on a
icecream date , we
continued talking &
lastnight we were
talking & today we
are going out again .
angyona yini ibhoza
Thando?
Thando : uyiyo kanje
.
she hypes me up .
me : I really think I
am ready to tell her
how I actually feel
about her .
....
me & Thando :
sbindi uyaphilisa .
today I am wearing a
very nice dress , its
not very short
kodwa futhi its not
long , its 3 fingers
above my knee ; its
dusty pink & I am
also wearing a black
mini jacket with my
black & white vans .
me : morning sir .
principal : uyaphila
ngane yami ?
me : yes sir , how are
you ?
principal : nami
ngyaphila ,
bakuphethe kahle
kodwa la abanye
othisha ?
me : kakhulu .
principal :
makukhona nje
okunika inkinga ,
ungazise
ngiyaxoshana phela
.
me : khululeka .
[ chat ]
Mandisa : hey , I am
in class ...
it rang a bell ukuthi
konje she is still in
varsity .
Mandisa : hey , I am
in class . I wanted to
ask , you still haven't
changed your mind
right ?
Mandisa : uba
obethe
ngyakucabanga , yes
ngyakcabanga
kodwa kusho ubani
?
I reacted "haha" on
her text .
me : uyaphapha yazi
, ngsayofundisa
ingane . I will text
you during break .
have a nice day .
I switch off my
phone & the bell
rings for period 2 . I
go to the class I have
to be in & I start
teaching .
break time .
I am standing by the
stairs on my phone
& that other teacher ,
I forget his surname
but that cheeky one
nje . come towards
me .
him : wancuma
wedwa nje ,
ukhuluma nobani
lapho ?
I switch off my
phone as he comes
towards to see who I
am talking to .
me : ube ukade
ungenaphi njalo
wena ?
him : uyathanda
ukungphoxa yazi .
me : ukuthi
uphaphile nje nawe ,
too much .
him : cela
ukuk'khipha . soya
noma yikuphi la
othanda khona .
I look at him & he
smiles . I then leave
him hanging . yazi
umuntu engayboni
noma esenescefe nje
.
its after school & I
quickly walk to the
gate & I see her
standing with
another girl , from a
distance they look
alike ; same height ,
same body structure
just different
hairstlyes .
I see Amanda
running towards the
both of them & first
hugs the other lady ,
Mandisa looks at my
side & she waves
calling me to come . I
slowly walk & so she
also comes towards
me .
me : uyaphila ?
I scretch my hair
even though there is
no itch .
Mandisa : ngright ,
woza .
Mandisa : Ntwenhle ,
this is her & Wandile
this is Ntwenhle my
older sister who is
Amanda's mom .
me : hi .
amahloni kimi
sengingakwazi
ukubahlukanisa
labantu ngendlela
abafana ngayo , yazi
sengbona
ngehairstyle nje
cause loNtwenhle
uluke ama knotless
braids & uMandisa
ubophe igoda .
Ntwenhle : unjani ?
she looks at Mandisa
& says "muhle
cabanga" .
I smile .
Mandisa : I know
right ?
me : ngyaphila .
Mandisa :
kulungileke ,
ngzonibona endlini .
ninganglindi kodwa
futhi ningangvaleli .
I look at her .
me : ini ?
she stares at me .
Mandisa : your
thingie ...
she is still starring at
me .
I show a confused
face ?
Mandisa : ibhande
lakho , ubuhle bakho
abufuni
ukujwayeleka yazi
ngeke .
me : hawu , okahle
kanti yinike manje ?
I blush and she
laughs .
Mandisa : no
ngiserious . ngisho
uxakekile still nje
umuhle , angazi
noma ihhaba ?
me : ihhaba nje
onalo .
she starts the car &
then drives .
Mandisa : "awuqome
ntombi kunini mina
nglala ngedwa ? oh
sweet my love .
nasekhaya
bayojabula
mabekbona ntombi ,
sthandwa sami"
me : ngshela ngbo
ukuthi userious
kangakanani .
Mandisa : kuthiwani
, dudlu ntombi
something
something .
Mandisa :
sengikuculele kahle
kanjena .
me : shela phela
ngbo .
Mandisa : angikwazi
mina ukushela ,
wena awufuni yini
ukuba intombi yami
?
me : ngyafuna .
she looks at me .
Mandisa : angdlali
yazi .
me : nami angdlali
nje .
she smiles .
I don't think she is
serious though , we
finally get to the mall
.
I pay my R5 to get
inside , I do my
business & I finally
get out .
me : I hope I didn't
make you wait .
Mandisa : ngyadlala ,
siyaphike ?
me : angazi . I'm just
a bit nervous
cabanga .
Mandisa : shono
mina ngzozwa
ngawe , chabo
ungayenzi leyonto
yoku tatazela
ngyakcela .
me : ngyaxolisa ,
ukuthi angazi
nokuthi ngithini .
Mandisa :
ngbhekake
emehlweni
ungtshele yonkinto
oyicabangayo right
now .
me : ngikbheke
emehlweni ?
Mandisa : yea ,
ucabangani ?
lentombazane
iyahlanya yazi ,
ayiboni ukuthi
siphambi kwabantu .
Mandisa : mmh ,
qhubeka ?
me : angazi , wena
ucabangani ngoba
ungbuka .
Mandisa : nami
ngicabanga ukuthi
umuhle ,
ngyacabanga
nokuthi ngifuna
ngampela
ubengowami ,
ngicabanga izinto
eyningi nje nokuthi
ukhona yini
loyomuntu futhi
uwubani lothandana
nawe .
me : nawe umuhle
nje mageba , futhi
chabo akekho
umuntu
engithandana naye .
Mandisa : ngisho
ngabe ukhona ,
umuntu uthatha
emntwini wakhe .
Mandisa : cha ,
amehlo ungawavali .
bengithe bheka
ngala ubuke mina .
me : ngyaxolisa ,
angeke
ngsawavalake .
awungazi nje
nokungazi Mandisa ,
yini ekwenza ukuthi
ufuna ngibe owakho
?
Mandisa :
ngizokwazi nje ,
nawe awungazi
kodwa ngyazi
uyafuna ngibe
owakho .
akunankinga
mawufuna
ukuyidonsisa , into
mangyifuna
ekugcineni
ngyayithola .
hawe yaze
yangichaza
lentombazane .
inkinga manje
angfuni ukuyvuma
manje manje ,
kumele ngyifukuzise
kancane ngoba nayo
ngyayibona ukuthi
ayizibekile phansi .
Mandisa : uthinike
ngalokho sthandwa
sami ?
me : ngithini ngani
manje ?
Mandisa :
usungowami noma ?
me : noma ini ?
my phone rings , I
take it out its
"Thando roomie".
I look at Mandisa .
me : can I answer
this .
Mandisa :
ungaybambi .
me : it could be
important .
Mandisa :
ungaybambi .
me : okay .
I switch it off .
Mandisa : asambeni
.
me : siyaphi .
Mandisa : at my
happy place .
me : where is your
happy place ?
Mandisa : olwandle .
my outfit doesn't
even match the
beach .
me : ngoba nginjena
nje ?
Mandisa : kuright
nje .
me : uzosho njalo
phela ngoba wena
ugqoke kahle .
she is wearing a
black baggy upper
knee jean short & a
white baggy t-shirt
with black puma
tekkies .
me : okay asambeni
.
Mandisa :
congbambela la .
I take 1 plastic & she
hold the towels & the
other plastic .
Mandisa : hamba
phambili .
me : chabo ,
asambisani .
Mandisa : ngfuna
ukubona izinqa nje .
we both laugh , awu
guys no . why is her
personality like this
though , it matches
her vibe , herself nje
yena is goddamn
perfect .
me : ziphi lezozinqa
congikhombisa .
Mandisa : hamba
phambili wena mina
ngyazibona .
me : hawe Mandisa
unescefe yezwa .
unescefe serious ,
umuntu ekuhlekise
ngisho ungathandi
ukuhleka .
Mandisa : hawu
sengnescefe futhi ?
me : chabo awunaso
.
me : unehhaba yazi
kodwa .
Mandisa :
ngnehhaba ngani ?
dlana ukudla
ungangtsheli ukuthi
nginehhaba .
me : no mana , elani
ikhekhe ?
Mandisa : to
celebrate our first
day dating .
me : haawe ma
yewena ntombazane
. ubuwazi ngani
ukuthi ngzovuma ?
Mandisa :
bengizithemba .
Mandisa : tell me
more about yourself
.
me : okay , I'm
Shandu Wandile
Zenathi , I am 24
years of age , you
already know where
I work , I can be a
very harsh person
sometimes , I have
anger issues &
ngyashesha
ngampela
ukucasuka , ay
angazike okunye ;
ask me anything you
want to know & I
will answer .
Mandisa : okay ,
nguMandisa Slindile
Zulu . I am 25 years
of age & doing my
last year in UKZN ,
nawe you know I am
studying medicine . I
can be quiet toxic
sometimes but I am
quick to see when
I'm wrong & I make
sure I right my
wrongs .
njengoba
besengishilo , into
mangyifuna
ngyayithola . well
ubonile ukuthi I
have a sister ,
uAmanda is my
niece ; my sisters
daughter . my
birthday is on the
6th of march ,
ngumuntu wabantu
man & when I love
someone , I just
really want to make
sure they feel loved ;
which is why I want
you . can you be the
girl that I want to
love .
me : I can be .
Mandisa : you want
to be ?
me : yes I want to .
Mandisa : so
uyangiqoma ?
me : ehhe
ngyakuqoma .
Mandisa :
usungowami ?
me : ehhe , hawu
nkosiyami , yebo
sengingowakho
manje .
Mandisa :
wozongiqabula la
ngbone .
me : yindaba ungezi
wena ?
obviously we at the
beach so kunamehlo
amaningi la but I
don't mind kissing
her .
Mandisa : ufuna
kuze mina ?
me : no ,
ngzokuqabula ay
manje . angikakabi
ready .
Mandisa : woz'ohlala
la eduze kwami
soshutha .
me : uyakthanda
ukushutha ?
I stood up & went to
sit next to her , she
also smells very nice
.
me : hawe unuka
kamnandi cabanga .
Mandisa : wena futhi
?
me : ehhe , futhi
uyangichaza .
Mandisa : wena na ?
unescefe ngalento
ayishoyo .
me : ngicela
ungadlali ngami .
ngyakcela .
Mandisa :
uzongenzani
mangidlala ngawe ?
me : hawu
uyazibonake ukuthi
unjani .
Mandisa : ngyadlala ,
ngyazidlalela baby .
buka buka buka
esinye isthandwa
sami lapha ...
I look at her .
me : asishuthenike .
Mandisa : usho
masufuna sihambe .
me : okay .
Mandisa : nawe
uhlala nabazali
bakho ?
me : cha , nghlala
noThando .
Mandisa : akuphi
ama parents in-laws
ami ?
me : they passed
away , 3 years ago in
a car accident .
Mandisa : oh , I am
so sorry . ngyaxolisa
I had no idea ,
ngyax....
me : please relax ,
sekwadlula phela
futhi nami I healed
& accepted the
whole situation , so
akunankinga .
Mandisa : umuhle
yezwa ?
me : okwesngaki nje
ungtshela ?
I blush .
Mandisa :
ngisazokutshela
futhi angeke
ngikhathale .
ngyakuthanda futhi
yezwa ?
I laugh and blush ...
me : no stop
recording ,
ngyakthanda nami .
Insert 12 .
we pack everything
& we head to the car
. we put the things in
the boot & she opens
the door for me . I
get inside & she also
gets inside .
Mandisa : angfuni
ungiqabule nghleli ,
ngfuna sime
sobawu2 .
ngikbamba izinqa
mase
ngyakuqabulake .
me : uvele ukhulume
into engasile nje
wena .
Mandisa : ayisile
kanjani manje ? fasa
ibhande .
me : ay ayisile nje
ngyaktshela mina .
Mandisa : am I
taking you home or
you want us to go
the mall ?
me : siyowenzani
emall kqala ?
Mandisa : anything
you want .
me : lets get
mcdonalds then you
will drop me there ;
then I will get an
uber .
Mandisa : uyahlanya
.
me : ngihlanya ngani
manje ?
Mandisa : intombi
yakho inemoto wena
ungtshela ukuthi
you will call an uber
.
me : kanti kunani ?
uzohlezi ukhona yini
?
Mandisa : yea ,
ngzohleli ngikhona .
we will get your
mcdonalds & then I
will take you home .
me : hawu cha
uyangthandake bo .
Mandisa : kakhulu
futhi .
she connects to the
radio & plays
"yebbas heartbreak
by drake & yebba" .
Mandisa : you
mayyyy not know
right where you
going but ; I doo , I
doo , I doo .
"I do , I do , I do , I do
& all that you are I
do"
we sing the song ,
seems that we enjoy
the same type of
music .
hawu , unenhliziyo
enhle ubaby .
me : yea , kodwa
bengingacabangi
ukuthi ...
Mandisa : ukuthini ?
ukuthi
ngingamthengela .
me : no , ay lokho .
yazini yekela .
Mandisa : no
khuluma
ubungacabangi ini?
me : ay , ngthe
yekela .
vede
bengingacabangi
ukuthi naye
engamthengela .
Mandisa : should I
take my right or
left?
me : left .
she takes her left & I
continue to direct
her until we got
there .
me : usazokwazi
kodwa ukubuyela
emumva ?
she giggles .
Mandisa : I have my
gps with me .
we both get out of
the car & she gives
me the 2 plastics .
Mandisa : uzodla
nalo sis ohlala naye
.
me : siyabonga ,
awufuni ukumbona
?
Mandisa : cha , cha
cha . ngizombona
some other day ,
kodwa ay manje .
I blush .
me : uyafuna
ukushada ?
me : ngyabonga
kakhulu for today .
Mandisa : kubonga
mina sthandwa sami
, ngizokubona ninike
futhi ?
me : ngizokubona
noma yinini , maybe
everyday ngoba
emsebenzini uyeza
uzolanda uAma .
Mandisa :
enganyanya kabi
mayengakuzwa
umbiza kanjalo .
I giggle .
me : akalifuni ?
Mandisa : lutho ,
ukutshela kahle nje
ukuthi uwuAmanda
yena akayena uAma
.
me : hawu , cha
uphaphile bo .
Mandisa :
sengyahambake
nami . ngiyabonga
futhi nokuthi uze
wangiqoma ;
ngizokuphathisa
angazi noma ngzothi
okweqanda noma ?
me : yea , kthiwa
okweqanda .
Mandisa : nawe
kuzomele
ungiphathe kahle
ngoba ngyazi
anghluphi kakhulu .
ngfuna iattention
yakho , iskhathi
sakho nothando
lwakho .
me : khululekake .
Mandisa : khulekake
bani ? nja ?
me : chabo ,
khululekake
sthandwa sami .
I looked deep into
her eyes & I closed
my eyes , I got closer
& I kissed her , I felt
her kiss me back ;
we went on for a
very long time & she
finally slide her
hands all the way to
my nyashhhh ahh
ubaby ! iyangthanda
lentombazane . I felt
our private body
part connecting in
some way , we are
pretty much the
same height but I
just wish she was
taller .
Mandisa :
ngyakthanda yezwa
baby .
me : nami
ngyakthanda .
me : qo qo ekhaya .
Thando : yebo !
she comes running
all the way from her
room while I put the
plastics in the
kitchen table .
Thando : detail on
detail to detail by
detail .
me : ayibo odetail
abangaka ?
we laugh .
Thando : no man
khuluma ...
she opens the
plastics .
me : my mouth is
zipped .
Thando : hhaa ,
ungenza nje ?
me : ngyadlala
ngyadlala . Thando
mfethu .
uyangthanda
uMandisa . Thando
uMandisa ufuna
mina nami ngfuna
yena . zisuka nje
sesyathandana
okwamampela .
akukho ukuthi
sisazocatcher
amafeelings
sesiwacatchile .
Thando :
seniyathandana ?
me : siyathandana
Thando , bengiqala
nokuhlala naye
iskhathi esingaka
kodwa indlela
engimthanda ngayo
ungafunga ukuthi
kade ngamazi . yazi
wenze into
ebengingakaze
ngimcabangele
ukuthi engayenza ,
she brought us
mcdonalds , she took
me to the beach , we
kissed , we took so
many pictures &
made so many
videos I will send
them to you . hhaa
ngaze ngamthanda
umuntu ; I haven't
been this happy in a
very long time , I
love this for me .
Thando : haw '
Wandile . bukake
suzongikhalisa .
ngavele
ngayhalelake lento
yakho yobutabane .
me : cha ungakhali ,
stick to indoda
yakho le edlala
ngawe yaseGoli .
Thando : akadlali
ngami uThemba
nkosiyami ,
uyangthanda loyana
ukuthi akanaskhathi
nje esitheni , mana
ngoThemba ;
qhubeka indaba
yaMandisa .
I blushed so hard
even my jaws hurt ,
kunini ngiblusha .
me : no man ,
uyangchaza loya .
her body , her face
konke nendlela enza
ngayo izinto ; I love
everything about her
.
Thando : ahhh
nkosiyami ,
awusablushi naweke
even when talking
about her nje
uyakhombisa . I
hope konke
kuzonihambela
kahle kakhulu .
me : siyabonga .
ngsayogezake mase
ngyadla ngilale ,
ngikhathazwe
ulwandle lwaze
beach ; akudlali
phela ukuhanjiswa
intombi yakho
ehappy place yayo .
we both laugh .
Thando : cha
usuyaphaphake
manje .
me : ngyayidlalela .
Thando :
ungibongele kuye
yezwa ?
me : for what ?
Thando : mcdonalds
nje .
I wear my short
pyjamas & I apply
my cuticura . when I
was done I went to
the kitchen & started
eating while I
checked my
notifications .
notifications :
- Mandisa Zulu
tagged you in a story
.
- message from
mageba . ( 3 hearts )
I went to my
instagram & I posted
one of the pictures of
me & Mandisa
where were holding
hands & showing
our feet inside the
water & I captioned
"to new beginnings ;
my 07.03" & I tagged
her .
chat : [ Mandisa
baby . ]
me : goodnight baeb
, I love you (heart
emojie)
I hope you got
home safe ; I am
sorry I missed your
calls I was in the
bathroom . xolo my
love .
Mandisa :
sengikuculele kahle
kanjena , cha ay
uyangphoxa wena !
Mandisa : shono
ukuthi nguBeyoncé .
me : uyangforce.a
pho ?
I laugh at her .
Mandisa : shono
okanye ngzokuziba
ilanga lonke ungazi
uzowenzani
ngempilo yakho
ngoba awukwazi
ukuphila
ngaphandle kwami .
me : hawema , okay
unguBeyoncé wami
.
Mandisa : nazoke .
uyaphilake ?
me : ehhe ngyaphila
ma unjani wena ?
Mandisa : yazi
masungbiza ngo
"ma" ngvele
ngiybone sengile ,
ungsusa langikhona
ungbeka le kodwa
ehhe nami ngyaphila
? sithembe
ulalekahle ke izolo
ebsuku .
me : nglalile phela
ngoba kuyalalwa
kodwa ukulala kahle
, chabo .
Mandisa : yindaba ?
me : angutholanga
u"I love you" wami
no "goodnight baby"
. kwenzekeni izolo
vede ngoba
nghambile
ngayogeza ngabuya
la ngafika the calls I
missed & I tried
calling you back
kodwa du !
Mandisa : no
ngingachaza ne ?
me : chaza phela .
Mandisa : ngivele
ngazumeka
embhedeni & my
phone was on
silence , ngyaxolisa
kakhulu .
I boil the water in
the kettle & I put
together the
ingredients for
lemon tea .
me : okay ,
akunankingake .
Mandisa :
ngzokbona
namhlanje ?
me : angazi , ufuna
ukungbona
everyday yini ?
Mandisa : ngyafisa .
me : hhaa , vede
ungthatheke
ngzohlala nawe .
Mandisa : woza .
me : ngzokufonela
mase ngiqedile
ngengikwenzayo ,
sobuye sikhulume .
Mandisa : okay
ngyakthandake .
me : nami
ngyakthanda baby ,
ubenosuku oluhle
olufana nentombi
yakho .
Mandisa : nawe
ngokunjalo , bye bye
valake .
me : no vala wena .
Mandisa : chabo vala
wena .
me : vala Mandisa .
Mandisa : vala wena
.
me : ohhho , okay .
[ phone call ]
me : Thando ?
Thando : hawu
ngiserious .
me : kanjani ?
Thando : ngibusy
sokhuluma ekhaya
bye .
me : mana ...
she drops the call ,
no man . khona
serious into eoff .
Thando is hiding
things from me , but
its fine ; I will figure
it all out .
I make my bed & I
start cleaning
around the house ...
an hour later . I am
finally done . I went
to take a shower & I
wore my casual
clothes , today is a
bit cold yazi . I am so
tired from yesterday
. I make noodles & I
go sit in my room & I
continued reading a
novel right about
11:08am .
I don't remember
when I slept but I
recall being waken
up by Thando .
me : what time is it ?
me : shonoke
ubukuphi ?
Thando : work .
me : Thando ?
she laughs .
me : uhlekani ?
I am already angry
cause she is keeping
secrets from me , I
hate that cause I
thought me & her
are now friends .
Thando : bengise
mall . I went to meet
up with an old
friend .
me : its a guy ?
Thando : yes .
Thando : no .
me : okay , angeke
ngikungcenge .
she laughs . mmxm .
phone call :
me : sengihleli
phansike .
Mandisa :
sengikukhumbule
mina ngeke .
me : ufuna
ngenzenjani
manjeke , ngindize
ngize lapho ?
Mandisa : ngfuna
ukuza lapho mina .
me : ngampelani ?
Mandisa : ehhe ,
ngyakcela .
me : manje ?
Mandisa : ehhe ,
manje nje .
me : okay wozake .
Mandisa : ukhona
uThando ?
me : chabo , kodwa
angikho sure
uzobuya nini . I
think uzobuya noma
yinini from now on .
Mandisa :
ngikphathele ini ?
me : lutho , woza
wena nje wedwa .
Mandisa :
awungekeke
ngingaphathi lutho ,
shono ufunani
ngzoza nayo .
me : amanzi , still
water .
Mandisa : sodwa ?
me : ehhena
nkosiyami .
Mandisa : okay .
in 20 minutes a car
hooted & I went out ,
my girl is here & she
is wearing a pink
adidas upper knee
short , a pink hoodie
& her black cap . she
loves her cap , I will
ask her if I can have
it one day to see if
she will give me .
Mandisa : nami
ngyaphila .
me : ungangbuki
phela kanjalo .
Mandisa : ngikbuka
kanjani ?
me : kanjalo nje ,
asambeni siyendlini
.
Mandisa : usefikile
uThando ?
me : ehhe , ukhona .
Mandisa : ay
angiyike mina .
I laugh a bit .
me : ngyadlala
akekho , yindaba
uthi awuyi
makunguthi ukhona
?
Mandisa :
ngyamsaba uThando
wakho , nanka futhi
amanzi akho .
we both walked
inside the house , I
hope I make her feel
comfortable cause
she is the one who
wanted to spend
time with me today .
Mandisa : Wandile .
me : I am right next
to you , yindaba
ungbiza ?
Mandisa : cela
ungahlukani nami
noma ngabe kuvele
siphi isvunguvungu
.
me : ayy ,
mangithola ukuthi
uyafeba ?
Mandisa : ungthande
kakhulu .
I laugh hawe ,
edakwa lona .
me : uyahlanya vede
umthetho wakho ?
Mandisa : cok'hamba
nawe ?
me : I am literally
going to the next
door , ngdinga
ukuchama ngyabuya
.
Mandisa : still
ngfuna ukuhamba
nawe .
ngiphiso mchamo
what is Mandisa
doing , yazi
ngzozichamela
ngoba engbamba
iqolo kamnandi
kanje .
me : Mandisa
ngdinga ukuchama .
Mandisa : mana ,
mana . ssh .
me : mana , mana .
Mandisa : ngyakcela
.
me : mana Mandisa ,
ngyeka . ngyeka !
Mandisa : ubungeke
usakwazi
ukungilinda ngiqede
into ebengfuna
ukuyenza .
me : chabo ,
ibisizoqhuma
ibledder yami .
Mandisa :
ungasaqgoki .
I don't know if this
feels right , but we
started dating a
month ago & I've
never had lesbian
sex before or any
kind of sex nje & this
girl is rushing things
.
Mandisa : virgin ?
I nod ...
as scared as I was , I
thought she'd be
very disappointed or
something .
Mandisa : do you
want me to go on ?
I look at her for
some time & I nod
again .
Mandisa : for
allowing me to get
inside you .
me : am I not your
girl ?
Mandisa : you are
my only girl .
me : then its my job
to have you inside
me , asikho isdingo
sokubonga .
me : what do you
mean ?
Mandisa : ngfuna
ukudla ngedwa la ,
akekho omunye
umuntu ozodla
ukudla kwami .
me : kuyezwakala .
Mandisa : meke
ngathola ukuthi
ukhona ?
me : angeke
abekhona
ngyakthembisa .
Mandisa : if you ever
feel ukuthi you need
to be satisified ,
anytime of anyday , I
am here & I will give
you lokho oyobe
ukudinga
ngalesoskhathi .
Mandisa :
sengizohambake
manje ma .
me : chabo ,
ungahambi .
Mandisa : ngobani ?
me : ngoba
ngyakthanda &
angfuni uhambe .
she laughs at me .
Mandisa : hawu
baby .
me : wena
awungthandi ?
Mandisa :
ngyakthanda nje
nami sthandwa sami
; kodwa kumele
ngihambe phela .
me : cha ungahambi
.
Mandisa : asambe
siyogezake .
we went to the
shower , she hands
me a plastic for my
hair & she starts
starring at my body
bro I swear this is so
uncomfortable .
me : please stop
doing that .
Mandisa : stop ini ?
me : ukungbuka
kanjalo .
Mandisa : thani
kanje ...
Mandisa : ya
sthandwa sami .
me : mh ?
Mandisa : allow me
to ...
me : to what
sthandwa sami ?
Mandisa : to spend
the rest of my life
with you .
I was so unsure , I
mean its been only 1
month & what does
"rest of my life"
mean , umshado ?
me : you want to be
... really ?
Mandisa : no , I'm
not putting any
pressure on you . I
can give you as
much time as you
want to think about
it .
me : no , no . I don't
want to think about
anything , yes . I
want us to spend the
rest of our lives
together .
she smiles & hugs
me really tight ...
me : okay , okay
unganglimazi phela
.
me : I think
usezobuyake
uThando .
Mandisa : ngampela
?
me : yea , you want
to see her ?
Mandisa : angazi
phela . do you want
me to see her ?
me : yes , maybe .
athi ngimfonele .
Mandisa : uzothini ?
me : ngzombuza
usekuphi nje .
me : she is not
answering .
Mandisa :
sowenzenjanike ?
me : angazi baby .
we went to my room
, and got dressed .
she wore the clothes
that she was
wearing & we sat &
watched netflix on
my laptop .
after a few hours .
18:16 .
I wake up alone in
my bed & I check the
time , its 6:17 pm &
the last thing I recall
was sitting here with
Mandisa .
no one is responding
I think they are both
not here . I called
Mandisa & she
picked up at first
ring .
[phone call]
me : babe .
Mandisa : ya ma ;
usuvukile ?
me : yes . as tired as I
am , ungshiyeleni
futhi ukuphi ?
uhambeleni
ungangtshelanga ?
Mandisa :
ungangthethisi phela
, you were so cute
ngenkathi ulele ;
bengingafuni
ukukphazamisa .
me : I was ?
Mandisa : kakhulu . I
actually was so
charmed ukuthi
umuhle ngisho ulele
.
me : hawu
ngyabonga kodwa
baby kodwa lokho
bekungasho ukuthi
ungshiye .
Mandisa : kanje
ngzokbona nje baby
.
me : nini ?
Mandisa : nominini
mosufuna wena .
me : mangingathi
manje ?
Mandisa : namanje
ngsangakubona .
me : mmxm .
we both laugh &
finally said our
goodbyes &
exchange I love
you's .
I find Thando
wearing earphones
in the kitchen .
me : yazi ngithi
awukho . kunini
ngikmemeza .
Thando : lutho ama
earphones mtase ,
usuze wavuka ?
Thando : kade
ngbuyile , ngimficile
noskwiza .
I smile .
me : umfice
ngampela ?
Thando : yebo ,
ubethukile koda
saxoxa kancane
mase wahambake .
amahloni kimi
uThando kade
esexoxe nobaby ,
kodwa for sure
ubaby ubemtshela
ukuthi ungthanda
kanjani .
Thando : hambolala ,
I'm going to make
you your favourite
homemade dish .
me : ay uyazelaphi ?
Thando : ngyayazi .
me : whats my
favourite dish ?
I am sitting on the
kitchen table while
scrolling on tiktok ,
my phone rings & I
smile . its Mandisa ,
Mandisa wami .
me : hey babe .
Mandisa : unjani
ma?
me : ngyaphila
unjani?
Thando looks at me
& we both smile .
Mandisa : nami
ngright mawuright
wena , your day at
work today ?
me : it was
exhausting as always
, wena school?
Mandisa :
ngikhathele , can
this year end
ngigraduate ngiqede
.
me : khululeka ,
usuzophela unyaka .
we both share a
small laugh .
Mandisa : let me go
take a quick shower ,
I will call you ne ?
me : okay love .
me : brah !
angyiboni
nghlukana
nalengane .
Thando : catchile ne
?
me : kdala
ngacatch.a .
we continued talking
& we ate the food ,
after that we said
our goodnights and
went to our
bedrooms .
I was still changing
my clothes & I wore
my pyjamas while
my phone notified .
chat >>>
Mandisa : you are
not sleeping as yet
right ?
I replied .
me : no , benglinde
wena .
Mandisa : I want to
see you tommorow .
me : aren't you
writing ?
Mandisa : no , I will
come fetch you
maybe at half 12 in
the noon okay ?
me : okay , soyaphi ?
Mandisa : we will
book by the havana
hotel so we can stay
there imini yonke
then later I will take
you home , how's
that ?
me : sounds fine to
me .
we said our
goodnights & then I
slept .
its 10 : 47 & I am
done cleaning ,
Mandisa just sent a
text .
chat >>>
Mandisa : is it fine if
I get kfc ?
me : its not a
problem .
I am getting ready
now , its almost 12
nobaby sekayeza . I
wore my black long
dress , iveza ivanga !
"ithanga" almost my
whole left legside ,
its revealing on my
back & shows a bit of
my chest all the way
to small cleavage .
I applied my lipgloss
, no make up , just
lipgloss & I combed
my hair , I need to
do this hair colour
again . I looked for
my earings & I wore
them too with my
nike tekkies ,
sekumsangano phela
lo esekugqokile .
ngacabanga kabili ,
sekuyangiphoqa
ukuthi ngikhiphe
ingubo . so then I
took off my dress , I
wore my nike
trackpants with my
nike hoodie so I
could wear my
tekkies , its 5
minutes to 12 (11:55)
, I took my phone
and I put it inside
my handbag ... my
phone rang .
phone call >>>
Mandisa : I am by
the gate .
me : hawe
ngsayogeza cabanga
.
Mandisa : hawu
uyangixhaphazake
wena .
I laughed .
me : ngyadlala ,
ngyaphuma manje .
Mandisa : uhlekani ?
angathi uyabonake .
she played
"angikaze" by russel
zuma , she kept on
singing along with it
kodwa mna I was
there , starring at
her ....
Mandisa : [singing]
ngiyabulela ,
ngokungvulela
eyakho inhliziyoo ,
wayenza yaba lula
eyami impilo ,
qhubeka ungithande
baby noma kunzima
.
I looked at her , yo
ngaze ngachazeka
yezwa .
me : sekuright phela
sengzwile .
me : hawu Mandisa
.
Mandisa : cha
ngyabuza nje , uthi
usuright nje ubani
obeculela wena ?
me : cha uyathanda
ukungphoxa wena .
Mandisa : manje
usufuna ukukhala?
she laughs .
ngavede ngamziba &
I took my phone out
og my pocket .
Mandisa : hawu
ngyadlala nje baby ,
osadlaliswa? okay
ngyaxolisake
ngiculela wena nawe
uyazi akekho
omunye .
I blush & she
continues to sing .
Mandisa : angikaze ,
ngizizwe kanjena
before . ohh
angikaze ngizizwe
kanjena before .
ungiphethe kahle
ohhh ....
me : ngavele
ngakhathalake .
Mandisa :
ukhathazwa yini
singakasebenzi ?
we busted into
laughter , hawe ma
ngaze ngahleka ... I
couldn't stop .
Mandisa : awu
akuhlekisi nje
kangako .
she looks at me .
me : yini wangbuka ,
awungthandi yini
wena ?
Mandisa : you've
never really said
that before .
me : hawu seke .
uyangsukela .
Mandisa : you've
said it through text ,
akaze washo to my
face .
me : hawu hlezi
ngisho nje kanti
uyahlanyani? nakhu
ngyasho nje ,
ngyakthanda .
Mandisa : wozosho
la .
me : hha ngsukume
mina ngize laphoke
?
Mandisa : woza .
me : ngiyakthanda .
Mandisa :
uyangthanda bani ?
nja ?
me : ngyakthanda
baby .
Mandisa : shono
ukuthi uyazifela
ngami .
haw uyaboza
uMandisa , cha
uyaboza shem but
ngyamthanda kimi
obviously
kuzohlekisa .
me : ngyazifela
ngawe , ngzokfaka
indadatho .
Mandisa : qabulake .
I baby kissed her
and she pulled my
head closer & kissed
me .
Mandisa : asishuthe
la , sihle lesisibuko .
Mandisa : no you
start .
me : okay , anything
right ?
Mandisa : get as
personal as you
want .
Mandisa : ah okay , I
was in grade 11 so I
was 15 turning 16 .
this other girl in my
class just asked me if
I want to lose my
virginity & I said yea
ngoba vede I didn't
really care plus
bekamuhle .
I looked at her .
me : mh .
Mandisa : so she
invited me to get
16th birthday party
that was going to
take place at her
house that friday
night . so I went
there & I got there it
was so weird ngoba I
never attended
parties so for her I
did .
me : no , sekuright
sengyazi
bakubreak.a
ngedildo , sies .
amahloni kuwe
bakudla ngetoyizi.
Mandisa : cha
avuphapha njalo .
me : sekuwena
obuzayo .
Mandisa : nami
ngyakbuzake the
same question you
asked me .
me : I've never had
actual sex , wuwe
kuphela who has
had access to my
body & you know
that .
Mandisa : really ?
me : angdlali ,
buzake okunye .
Mandisa : how many
ex's do you have?
me : 2 .
Mandisa : girls only
?
me : yea , wena ?
I opened my eyes so
wide .
me : uyajola bo .
Mandisa : is it too
much ?
me : its alot .
Mandisa : shuthi
sorrike .
we continued
playing , it was
almost 3pm . we
were done eating &
we were cuddling .
Mandisa was
sleeping on my
boobs , her leg ontop
of mine , our hands
wrapped around
each other .
Mandisa : yo
ngyakthanda yezwa
Wandile .
me : kangakanani?
Mandisa : kakhulu ,
kasdudla .
me : ngampela ?
Mandisa : cela
ungangshiyi noma
ngabe ngenzani
kuwe , uqhubeka
ungthande .
ngyakucela .
me : okay .
Mandisa : promise
me ?
me : I am not
promising you yazi ,
if you do me wrong
frs I am gone . you
just have to do
things right , stay
loyal then I can
promise you that I
will never leave you
.
me : uyangizwa yini
?
Mandisa : cha ,
uthini ?
Mandisa : chabo ,
angikuzwa *she
kisses my neck*
uthini baby ?
me : bengithi mina ,
if you stay loya...
Mandisa : ehhe ? if I
stay loyal ?
she continues
kissing neck &
leaving hickeys .
me : I won't ... I won't
leave you . mana mh
.
Mandisa : khuluma
baby , wasuthula
manje ?
Mandisa : akuve
umuhle umzimba
wakho .
me : ngyabonga .
Mandisa : wuphathe
kahle .
me : kukuwe phela
lokho .
.......*removed*.......
we cuddled in bed
kwaze kwahla &
then at 6:46pm we
were on our way
going home . she
dropped me off , we
said our goodbyes .
me : call me when
you get home .
Mandisa : I will do . I
love you .
me : I love you more
.
me : mtase ! I am
home .
Thando : ubukade
ukuphi ?
she wakes up .
me : oh kanti ulele ?
Thando : lutho ,
bengingalele
ubuthongo . xoxake ,
iza nazo .
me : izini ? bengno
baby nje sajola
kwamnandi
kwanjeya . ngfuna
ukugeza . ngilale .
ngikhathele yezwa ?
Thando :
ukhathazwe yini ?
niyenza kanjani vele
nina iklof klof ,
ongichazela .
me : ngyokutshela
ngelinye ilanga .
she laughed .
I went to bath &
recieved a message
from Mandisa .
chat >>>
Mandisa :
sengsekhaya ,
ngsageza baby
ngikhathele .
me : nami cabanga ;
sengyalalake manje
.
insert 14 .
3 months have
passed now , work
has been hectic , me
& Mandisa got into
this huge fight izolo
eksuku . ubengicika
shem ngavede
ngacima iphone
yami ngamziba
ngalala .
so izolo I was
suppose to see her .
she promised she
was going to fetch
me & drop me off at
home in the
afternoon , so I
called her
bengaybambi iphone
, I called and uber &
got home hoping she
will get back to me
and excuse herself
but no she didn't . at
4 I called her again &
the thing is it kept on
ringing kodwa
engaybambi .
I checked my phone ,
0 messages from her
, 0 everything nje .
I switched off my
phone & I went to
bath , I have better
things to be doing
kunokulandelana
nesdakwa . isdakwa
sami kodwa phela ,
futhi ngyamthanda
ubaby and angeke
ngimyeke kodwa
ngimcasukele .
inhliziyo yami
ibuhlungu yazi ,
ngalowomzuzo my
pride is not letting
me call her again .
I went to the
tuckshop & I brought
myself a blue
powerade drink and
some smoothies for
maybe later .
yo what a day , I am
in an uber going to
the mall . I wanted to
do my hair , my hair
has grown yazi . I
plait now ; I no
longer do haircuts
and blonde nton
nton .
me : Happy birthday
to you , happy
birthday to you ,
happy birthday dear
Thando , hip hip
hoorayyyy .
Thando : ngyabonga
, I thought you forgot
yazi .
me : how could I ?
we laughed .
Thando : hawu
unehhaba Wa ,
ikhekhe elingaka
sibaw2 kuphela? cha
you made my day .
my day was amazing
.
Thando : wamuhle ,
isphongo
asisaphumileke
ngathi kuyaliwa .
me : eh , congyeka
yazi uyaphapha .
we laughed and my
phone vibrated .
Thando : is Mandisa
coming over ?
me : no , why ubuza
?
Thando : your phone
is ringing & its her .
ngezwa inhliziyo
ithokoza , my heart
felt home the minute
I saw her name on
the screen .
me : nginawe
njengamanje & I am
making time for you
, soooo... * I switched
off my phone *
Thando : nixabene
yini ?
me : yea kodwa
sobaright .
me : hawu really ?
Thando : he gave me
R6000 to do my hair
and all the other
things & he got me
flowers there in the
sink , plus we went
out ke .
me : ah thats nice ,
athi ngbo imbali .
me : zinhle ,
bengingaythembi
iphone yakho .
Thando : iright nje
i7+ , inkinga
uyayiphaphela nje .
me : cha ukuthi
inehome button ,
ngiktshela ngeyami
engena homebutton
.
Thando : ave
uphapha Wa ngeke !
asambe sodla .
we ate the pizza too
& I left some for
lunch tommorow .
its 8 : 49 pm , I
switched on my
phone & I found 6
missed calls from
Mandisa , 13
messages on
whatsapp & 3 from
instagram , she
doesn't have
facebook . I ignored
all that .
I went to whatsapp
and sent a "?" to
Mandisa ,
ngyashubisa and she
replies asap .
chat >>> .
Mandisa : i miss you
baby , can we talk ?
please stop ignoring
me .
me : oh you want to
talk now ?
Mandisa : I can
explain myself .
me : oh .
she calls & I decline
.
me : usathi baby ?
cha uyanghlanyela
wena .
Mandisa : can I
please call .
me : oh .
she calls .
Mandisa : unjani ?
me : chaza , angani
uthe uzochaza ?
Mandisa : phela stop
being hard on me .
me : ngiknika
2minutes .
Mandisa : 2 baby?
hawu ngeke .
me : mkhulu
kakhulu ? okay 30
seconds .
Mandisa : hawu
chabo , ish okay
ngbuzeke
ngzokuphendula .
me : ubukuphi izolo
?
Mandisa :
bengseskoleni .
me : ngifuna iqiniso
Mandisa .
Mandisa : iqiniso nje
baby leli , okay .
bengseskoleni mese
ngaya kaZaza .
me : ubuyokwenzani
kaZaza ?
usuyaphuza futhi
manje ?
Mandisa : chabo
angphuzi ,
bengyothenga one
cider mase
ngyahamba .
me : wagcina
usuthenga ngaki ?
silence ...
me : wagcina
usuthenga ngaki
Mandisa ?
Mandisa : ma
angsakhumbuli .
me : okay ubuphuza
nobani ?
Mandisa : nabantu
abanye .
me : ubuphuza
nobani , fanele
ngbuze ukuthi
abafana noma
amantombazane ?
Mandisa : amanye
amacherry .
me : cherry? shono
ukuthi ubuphuza
nezinye ifebe , lalela
angsona islima
yezwa ? ungangenzi
islima sakho
Mandisa uyangizwa
?
Mandisa :
besacoyeke
ukuthetha yazi .
me : no , you don't
tell me what not to
do , angeke
ngithandane
nesdakwa mina ,
angeke ngijole
nomuntu oya
ematarven
ayodakwa abuye
angasazazi negama .
buqala ugcina ngci
lodoti obuwenza ,
lamasimba
obuwenza
ubuwagcina
Mandisa uyezwa ?
Thando : ssshh ,
sorry mtase . musa
ukukhala phela .
sssh
I continued crying .
she got me water &
we went to her room
, we slept there and
cuddled until I slept
.
the next morning , I
woke up in Thando's
bed and her not
there . I think she
left , its 6:02 , I ran to
the bathroom did my
routine & showered
.
me : usinekani ?
Mandisa : can I take
you to work ?
me : uyivaleleni
iphone ngsakhuluma
nawe izolo ?
Mandisa : yazi
mongavuma nje
ngikuyise
emsebenzini sivele
sidlule kulendaba
sikhohlwe yiyo .
me : sikhohlwe yiyo
? uzosangana la ?
me : nghambe
ngayophuza
ngadakwa neyfebe ?
bengeke ngyivale
iphone .
she holds my hand .
Mandisa : akuvumi
wehlise umoya ,
ukhulumele phansi
?
*weakens me*
me : Mandisa
uyathanda
ukungphoxa kodwa
nawe .
Mandisa :
sengixolisile nje
baby .
me : okaze uze
uxolise .
Mandisa : okay
ngyaxolisa ma ,
ngyaxolisa kuwe
sthandwa sami .
angeke ngize
ngiphinde ngiyenze
into ebheke eceleni .
cela ungixolele .
Mandisa : asambeni
nguk'hambise
emsebenzini .
me : uphi uAmanda
?
Mandisa :
uhambiswe
umawakhe .
me : ohhh .
we get inside the car
.
me : congichargisa .
angnabattery .
I charged my phone
and she dropped me
off at work .
its assembly
wednesday , they
started a song &
prayed and after
that the teachers
went to the
staffrooms for a
called meeting .
we were introduced
to teachers from our
neighbouring school
, 3 females and 1
make who were
going to help tutor
our grade 7s maths
and english blah
blah blah the
meeting was boring .
it was finished and I
went to get a
powerade by the
tuckshop , one of the
females followed me
to the tuckshop I
think she also
wanted to get
something .
Ayanda : I was
hoping you could
show me around
maybe ?
me : oh no , I
actually have a class
right now . this
meeting took so
much time ...
Ayanda : break ?
how is break ?
me : okay , break is
fine .
Ayanda : break is
totally fine .
me : okay .
I walked in 3A &
today I made them
write a small formal
test before they
write their exams .
Ayanda : oh , you
here ?
me : yea but I was
just leaving .
I said standing up .
Ayanda : leaving ?
no stay .
me : oh okay .
Khumalo : I have to
go to the principal ,
ngzonibona .
he left .
Ayanda : do you
mind being friends?
me : singazwana , I
don't do friendships .
me : what do you
want to know , ask
me I will tell you .
me : yoww okay ,
yea I am . why ?
Ayanda : you don't
look straight at all .
me : what exactly do
looks matter in
sexuality?
dom kanti lo .
Ayanda : come on ,
literally everything
is obvious . I can tell
that you either
lesbian or bi , you
are toxic , mean & I
think you have
anger issues .
me : no I don't .
insert 16 .
me : hey unjani?
Bongeka : ngyaphila
chommy , we want
to go to Shaka
Marine this weekend
.
me : yhu ay .
Ayanda : lets go out .
I was not even
suprised .
me : when?
Ayanda : tonight .
me : where to ?
Ayanda : anywhere
you'd like to go .
me : I already have
plans .
Ayanda : please don't
lie .
me : what makes you
think I'm lying ?
Ayanda : there is no
way you could call
me , I ask to take you
out masuthi when
masengyakutshela
ukuthi tonight
uphinde uthi ... ay
udlala ngami .
me : okay masambe
.
Ayanda : I will pick
you up at 7pm sharp
, please look nice .
me : okay how do
you know where ...
me : haibo . haibooo
, iyahlanyani
lentombazane .
hawu , cha ngaze
ngadideka mina
ukuthi kuyenzekani
lana .
Thando : qo qo .
she knocks .
me : yea ?
she gives me my
phone .
me : yes , I was
going to tell you
though .
Mandisa : when ?
me : right now ,
around these times .
Mandisa : when is
what I asked .
masubuya khona ?
me : no , mese
ngisaya .
Mandisa : ukube
angifonanga?
me : bengzokfonela
nje mina .
me : haw' Mandisa
okahle , yini manje
wamuncu ?
Mandisa : hawu
sengimuncu futhi
manje? yenza
ngendlela yakho .
I dropped the call & I
continued
showering .
Thando : haibo ,
wanuka kamnandi
kangaka uyaphi ?
me : hawu ndawo ,
aksamele ngzinukele
kamnandi ngobani ?
Thando : ay
ngamatshe mtase ,
bengbuza .
me : ngyadlala I'm
going out with this
other girl , she's new
at work so she ...
Thando : hayii wena
! unamanga .
uMandisa uyayazi
leyonto ?
Thando : Wandile
uwrong .
me : its just a date ,
nothing less nothing
more .
Thando : ngzokceba
mina .
me : wee ay wena
nalo sbari wakho .
ngsayogqokake
sekuyoshaya u7 vede
.
I took my black
handbag , my phone
& lipgloss. my hair
looks fine , I combed
a little & sat in bed
waiting ... its 6:53pm
now , oh let me call
Mandisa .
it rings , it rings .
Mandisa : sawubona
.
esephapha .
me : I am going out
with friends , I
wanted to let you
know .
Mandisa : oh ,
uzobuya nini ?
me : I am not quiet
sure .
Mandisa : ow'kay , is
Thando going to be
there ?
me : cha .
Mandisa : alrights
then , ungifonele
masubuyile .
me : okay I will try .
*incoming call -
ayanda*
oh no , I have to
answer this .
Mandisa : no
ungazami nje , just
call me .
me : okay , bye bye .
mncwaa .
Mandisa : Wandile .
me : mmh ? sheshisa
.
Mandisa :
ngyakthanda baby .
Ayanda : usuready ?
me : yea , you want
the address ?
Ayanda : I am
actually outside your
gate .
I looked out the
window , ninamanga
! ayikho le
engyibona ngamehlo
ami .
me : hawu , okay
ngyeza .
I went to Thando's
room .
me : I'm out , don't
call me ne?
Thando : be safe , I
love you .
me : love you
moreee .
I ran to the door and
fixed myself , I went
out and locked with
my key .
I went to the gate &
she came out with
flowers , she was
wearing a very fine
black & white suit
like bekamuhle futhi
bimfanela , she has
long relaxed hair by
the way , she wears
glasses so she tired a
phondo to the back
and her glasses were
on .
so lit cause she
drives a range rover
, a big black and
white range rover .
she looked at my
body & I could see
ukuthi lomuntu is
undressing me with
just her eyes .
me : awushoke
ntokazi . ungisaphi ?
Ayanda : angeke
ngisho .
me : hawu kwamele
ngazi kanje .
a waitress came
towards us .
waitress : good
evening , here are
the menu's . the lady
over there will take
your orders
*she points at
someone* I turned
my back to see her &
....
Ayanda :
kwenzenjani ngawe
?
I wash my hands
and puff puff my
face a little with the
water , I calmed
down & I walked out
.
me : hey , you've
ordered ?
Ayanda : look who I
just came across ?
me : oh you know
each other ?
Ntwenhle : yea
actually , we all went
to the same
highschool .
Ayanda : ey ngadlala
kodwa ngosis wakho
nami , ngyambona
ko instagram
useyashisa
uMandisa yezwa .
obokhonza kuye .
Ntwenhle :
usenentombi enhle
kanjani & akuve
eyithanda intombi
yakhe . kulungile
ngzokhonza . what
did you say you
want to order konje
?
she kept on starring
at me ngehlo elibi , I
felt guilty nampela .
I really shouldn't
have done this .
Ayanda : Wandile ?
Hello ?
I look at her .
me : yea ?
Ayanda : yini ?
ucabangani kangaka
?
me : lutho , lutho .
when is the food
coming again ?
Ayanda : angazi , in
a few minutes .
me : no I'm sorry .
my mind is not here
. I am just worried
about something .
Ayanda : khuluma
nami , yini leyo ?
me : something
personal .
Ayanda : khuluma
phela ngilana nawe
nje , I am willing to
listen .
Ayanda : no , ngfuna
ukuyazi nje .
me : akukhonto
eserious .
Ayanda : come on ?
me : yo Ayanda can
you just ?
sengikwatile
manjeke ,
ngikhathele futhi
nalokhukudla
aksafiki .
me : no I'm sorry ,
can we just leave .
angsekho emoodini .
can we do this some
other time ?
Ayanda : okay
asambe .
Ayanda : haw ,
usuyakhala futhi
manje . what is
wrong kanti did I do
something wrong ?
me : no , I'm not
crying . its just ... its
just .
I am having a
mental breakdown .
she stops the car &
starts hugging me .
I looked at her .
me : I don't want to
go home .
Ayanda : okay where
do you want to go ?
Ayanda : no shono .
me : where ever you
are are going .
me : uhlala wedwa ?
Ayanda : yea .
me : aw unamanga .
Ayanda : I am dead
serious . usuright ?
me : yea sengiright .
Ayanda : okay .
my phone rings , I
have a feeling its
Mandisa .
I take it out off my
handbag & I find its
her .
I ignore it & I switch
off my phone .
me : yekela
ukungbuka .
Ayanda : why not ?
me : no , its
creepying me out .
I walked to the
sitting room & she
followed me . I then
sat on the sofa .
I stood up again ,
angzazi nami
ngenzani . ngehla
ngyenyuka .
me : angazi . do you
have anything
alcholic la ?
Ayanda : yea .
she took out 2 bottles
of champagnes & we
started drinking non
stop & talking until I
felt a bit hyped up .
she looks at me in
the eyes . I twisted
my legs and she
froze for a while .
Ayanda : do you
want to have sex ?
me : yes .
she got in with her
face inside me , I felt
the walls breaking .
she muffed my
virgina and made
sure .
Ayanda : sssshhh .
she kissed me again ,
I taste very nice
sengyezwa nami .
she continues
kissing & inserts 1
finger again .
me : mmh , aahhh ,
aaar'
Ayanda : ssh ,
me : go down again .
she kisses my boobs ,
all the way to my
virgina and gets to it
again .
I was grabbing the
sheets like its
nobody's business ,
she muffed me and I
finally came .
we were both
smiling & she also
laid on the bed
facing the ceiling .
insert 17 .
I woke up in
Ayanda's chest ,
what the fuck
happened last night
?
me : Ayanda !
Ayanda !
I woke her up .
Ayanda : mm ?
me : vuka what time
is it ?
oh no , I was so
stressed .
me : I have to leave .
I switched it on .
- 37 missed calls .
- 81 messages .
angsafuni nokubona
ukuthi obani
bafunani . I
requested an uber
fast .
Ayanda : uzohamba
nje kanjalo ?
me : no , listen thank
you . last night was
amazing but
ngshadile mina ne ?
Ayanda : ushadile ?
nobani ?
me : angazi , I took
my heels and I ran
out .
Thando : uxolisa
kumuntu owrong ,
uMandisa came here
4 times knocking for
you . she told me her
sister saw you , ay
uyathanda
ukuyiphoxa . unuka
ngisho utshwala .
me : ah okay psshh .
I am wearing a
onesie , and I finally
got to my phone . I
dialled to Mandisa &
its ringing .
me : hey baby , I
hope you good . I
miss you so much & I
love you so much .
please call me when
you get this .
I ended the call .
I can't believe I
cheated on her so
bad & she knows . I
know she hates and
wants to break up
with me but I won't
allow us to break up
.
a whatsapp message
from Ayanda " last
night was lit , can we
go on again?" I
replied "okay come
fetch me now" .
I think me &
Mandisa are over
now , she blocked
me on all platforms .
me : weeee
uyakwazi ukudansa
wena?
Ayanda : awungazi .
me : asambeni
manje ngeke
ngikhathele .
Ayanda : to my
house?
me : yea , I will drive
.
Ayanda : kanjani
sidakwe kanje ?
me : asambeni
uzobona .
Ayanda : eh okayyyy
.
she gave me the keys
& we went to the car
.
Ayanda : WANDILE
!!!
*hoots* the car slides
and rolls 2 times ,
my head started
bleeding as the car
continued sliding in
the car and crashed
into a truck .
I saw blur , my
world my upside
down & my body
was in pain . I closed
my eyes & they
opened again . they
closed again .
THE END .
wrote by : Snee
Mtshali .