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Jackson
More people spill through the door to our apartment, provoking a cry
of welcome from the crowd already gathered in the living room. It’s
the first week of classes and Eli and I have revived our weekly game
night tradition. We thought about starting it with just the football
team a couple weeks ago when practices started, but with two-a-
days, everyone was too exhausted to even think about anything
other than food and sleep.
We’re in the same apartment as last year. A sweet place we
scored when some seniors moved out. The rent is great, and it’s
only a five minute drive to campus.
I look up from my spot in the kitchen to see who’s arrived,
releasing my breath in a mix of relief and disappointment when I see
that it’s Gardner and Johnson.
Johnson, my backup wide receiver, catches my eye, lifts his chin
in greeting, and holds up a case of soda. “Hey, man. We brought
some drinks.”
I return the chin lift and take the drinks from him. “Cool.
Thanks.”
He sticks around to talk about the new plays Coach Reese had us
running today, but I’m only half paying attention. The rest of my
attention is focused on the door, and I brace each time it opens until
I find out who’s arrived.
I’m hiding. I won’t admit that out loud, but I won’t lie to myself.
Not from my teammates, though. From Dani and her friends.
Well, not Dani, really. She’s over here all the time. She and Eli are
super tight, and she’s a cool chick. It’s really her friend Autumn,
whose arrival I’m both waiting for and dreading in equal parts.
That chick is something else. She seems all airy and unassuming,
but beneath that she has a spine of steel and the ability to reduce
me to a stammering wreck faster than anyone.
Everyone thinks she’s nice enough. A little quirky with her hair
dyed outlandish colors and her tendency to talk about moon phases
and energies. She likes to sleep around, but somehow manages to
stay friends—or at least friendly—with all of her exes. Not that she
considers them exes. That would imply more of a relationship than
she’s had with anyone that I’ve seen anyway.
When we first started hanging out last semester, I had the same
impression of her—nice, quirky, pretty, easy to be around. She
recognized my shyness and did her best to put me at ease as much
as possible.
Until she ruined it all by offering to be my love tutor. That’s what
she called it.
If she shows up tonight, it’ll be the first time I’ve seen her since
she made the offer at the last team party of spring semester.
Johnson doesn’t seem to notice that he only has half my
attention, my grunts and monosyllabic answers good enough to
keep him talking. Which is fine, really. If I’m talking to him, it’ll be
easier to avoid Autumn when she shows up. And I think that’s what
I want. At least to start with.
The grunts and single word answers are pretty standard for me,
though. I’m the quiet one on the team. Some guys run their mouths
constantly, can’t get enough of their own stories and ridiculousness.
I’m not that guy. Never have been. Don’t see the point, really. Sure,
I’ll say something if it matters. But it’s easier to sit back and let
everyone else fill the silence if they want to.
I don’t mind the silence. And it doesn’t bother me if other people
feel like filling it. I’m just as happy on my own as in a group. Which
apparently is weird to some people. But I’m fine with my
teammates. We get along, and I only blush when they try to include
me in the locker room talk about sex.
It’s mostly that I’m not used to being noticed, I guess. Other
than for football. Though even with that, if it’s more than a general
acknowledgment like, “Good game,” or, “Nice catch,” my cheeks start
to heat up. When anyone starts gushing, you could fry an egg on my
face.
It’s even worse when the person doing the gushing is a pretty
girl. Though I’ve been told that’s flirting, not just friendliness or
genuine interest in my playing ability. At least that’s what Autumn
told me at the end of the spring semester. And when I was home
over the summer my older sister confirmed it.
I almost hadn’t asked, because I knew Naomi would laugh at me.
But when Autumn talked to me at that last party of the semester
before finals, she’d planted the idea in my head and as much as I’d
tried to dismiss it, I couldn’t. So even though it had been beyond
embarrassing to ask, eventually I had to. I trust Naomi’s opinion.
She laughed, of course, just like I knew she would. Then she
speared me with dark eyes that mirrored my own and opened a
package of fruit snacks for my niece. “Seriously, Jackson?” She
shook her head, her voice still vibrating with laughter. “You really
can’t tell when a girl is flirting with you?”
I described how the girls at the party would act … the
compliments about my game performance, the little touches that
were easy to excuse because of close proximity but maybe were
deliberate, the way they’d sip their drinks and appear super
interested until I’d just … not really talk much, and then their eyes
would glaze over and they’d leave. All except Autumn, who’d talk
long enough for me to get comfortable and actually respond. Of
course she’d talk about more than just how amazing I played. She’d
ask questions about the game, about training, about school and
seemed genuinely interested in my answers.
I didn’t tell Naomi about Autumn, though. Especially with
Autumn’s love tutor offer constantly prodding the back of my
consciousness no matter how I tried to forget it. Listening to Naomi
laugh about my cluelessness was bad enough. I had no desire to
hear her reaction to that.
Because the longer I went on about the other girls, the harder
Naomi laughed. “Oh, man.” She made an exaggerated show of
wiping tears from her eyes. “Yes, those girls were all flirting with
you. How often does that happen?”
I shrugged, uncomfortable, my skin feeling itchy and too tight,
my cheeks and ears hot. “I dunno,” I mumbled.
“So basically all the time,” she accurately surmised.
And now I’m here at the beginning of another fall semester,
another football season, with Eli and I continuing our tradition of
hosting all our friends to play video games in our living room. The
whole team’s technically invited, but not everyone is interested.
Which is fine, because there’s no way they’d all fit anyway. It’s really
only the guys we’re friends with who come, plus whoever they’re
seeing and the usual crew of chicks who hang around in hopes of
bagging an athlete. Though most of them don’t have to hope too
hard.
I guess it’s extra ridiculous that I don’t recognize the flirting.
Except they never seem to be flirting with me. Or interested in me.
When I talk, they don’t seem very interested in what I’m saying,
interrupting me to ask how much I can bench while staring at my
chest or finding an excuse to squeeze my bicep, usually when I’m
trying to do something. That part is extra strange because I was the
skinny, fast kid in high school. Girls weren’t really interested in me.
Football team or not, I was still the nerdy kid who did great in math
class, too tall and scrawny and quiet to attract much attention.
But I’ve bulked up since coming to Marycliff, putting on a
significant amount of muscle. Not so much that I’m not still fast, of
course. As a wide receiver, speed is important. But I have to have
enough bulk to hold my own against the defensive line, too. It’s a
balance. Last year I was the backup, but got enough playing time to
get attention. And this year I’m the starter, so I can only imagine the
uninvited touching and awkward flirting will get worse.
Hence why I’m hiding. Well, part of the reason.
Because even though Autumn has never really indulged in
uninvited touching—with the notable exception of the kiss on the
cheek and pat on the chest she gave me when she offered to be my
love tutor—I’m just as afraid of being cornered by her now as I am
of the other unattached women.
I still don’t know how serious she was. Or if I want to take her up
on the offer.
I mean, come on? A love tutor? Just the words mashed together
sound ridiculous.
But given Naomi’s reaction to my question and thinking back over
all the encounters with girls I’ve had at parties and game nights over
the last couple of years … maybe it would be a good idea to take her
up on the offer.
Which is why I’m so nervous about her appearance tonight.
She told me to call her if I was interested. But it’s been months
… is she still willing? Will she offer again? Or will I have to suffer the
indignity of bringing it up myself?
Lost in my thoughts, I don’t realize she’s arrived until she’s
standing in front of me, that smile on her face that makes it seem
like she knows all my secrets. And I guess, in a way, she kinda does.
She’s figured out that I’m hopeless with women, though she maybe
hasn’t figured out why.
Yet.
“Hey, Jackson,” she says, slipping her arms around my torso and
pressing her face into my chest.
Surprised, I hold my arms out to the side for a second before
awkwardly patting her back and eventually letting my arms rest
around her. You’d think I’d never hugged anyone before with the
way I’m acting. I have. Plenty of times. I’ve even hugged Autumn
before, in fact. Just … usually I knew it was coming because she’d
given out hugs to everyone else and I was next in line and could
mentally prepare myself.
I can’t deny that I enjoy the feel of her body pressed against
mine, though. Maybe I should let her tutor me like she’s offered …
She doesn’t seem to notice any awkwardness, though. “I’m glad
you guys are hosting these again this year.” Her voice is still muffled
by my chest. “And I’m also glad that we’re the same year, so I won’t
have to worry about someday facing school without game nights at
Eli and Jackson’s.” She pulls back, squinting as she looks up at my
face, her brown eyes sparkling with mischief and her lips curved in a
tiny smile. “You’re going to keep doing this until you graduate, right?
I hope so. Because it’s become one of the fixtures of my routine,
and since there are so few, I don’t want any of them to disappear on
me.”
With her hands gripping my waist, I awkwardly pat her shoulder
again, my face heating from the cumulative embarrassment of my
existence. “No plans to stop at this point. I’ll be sure to keep you
posted if that changes.”
“Yes. Do.” She turns to face the counter laden with snacks and
drinks, her long wavy hair fanning around her shoulders. She’s
changed the color since last semester. It used to be kind of a pinky
lavender and now it’s a light turquoise streaked with pink. “What are
we drinking? You guys are still early in the season, so I’m guessing
we’re still being good boys and girls and sticking to the nutrition
plan?” She glances back over her shoulder, raising one eyebrow. “Are
you on drink duty? Is that why you’re back here?”
“Nah. I’m just …” My mouth hanging open, I trail off, not sure
how to finish that sentence. Hiding is the word I’m looking for, but I
can’t say that. Not to her.
“I see,” she murmurs, and my cheeks heat again. Because she
really does. And that’s both exciting and terrifying.
As the quiet one, I’m easily overlooked. Not many people take
the time to see me. And the fact that she does … I’m not sure how I
feel about it, to be honest.
Rubbing the back of my neck, I look away, breaking the moment
we seem to find ourselves suspended in. This would be the perfect
time to bring up her offer from last semester. See if she’s still open
to the idea. Let her know I’m interested after all.
But what if she has a boyfriend?
I’ve never known her to have one before, but anything’s possible.
If nothing else, last year was proof of that with several of the players
who no one expected to settle down finding long-term relationships.
Cal McAdam, for example, the newest quarterback for the Colorado
Bison. I never would’ve expected him to find a steady girlfriend,
especially not when he was going in for the NFL draft.
But he met Piper and ended up falling hard, despite the fact that
he only went after her to mess with her brother. I saw them
together enough times to know that what they have is serious, even
if I’ve never experienced anything like that myself.
I don’t even know how to get from where I am now—an entirely
inexperienced virgin who’s far too acquainted with his right hand—to
something like McAdam and Piper have, even if they are long
distance since he got drafted.
Autumn’s poured herself a drink, though I was too lost in my own
thoughts to notice what, and now she’s studying me again. Her
smile’s gone, her eyes sharp and cataloging me the way she always
seems to do, her incisive expression so at odds with her pixie-like
face with its pointy chin and upturned nose.
My gaze can’t help snagging on the creamy expanse of skin she’s
showing off tonight, my eyes drawn by the pendant dangling
between her breasts, the clear crystal sparkling against the rust
colored tank she’s wearing paired with little black shorts and her
favorite flip flops. The first time it was warm enough to wear flip
flops last spring, she told me all about how she discovered them and
how she’s had them for three years already. Looks like she hasn’t
walked through the soles yet.
She’s so pretty and fun to look at that it distracts from the fact
that she can see right through to my soul.
“Have you thought any more about my offer?” she tosses out like
she’s asking what I think about the weather.
I almost choke on my own spit. Which is ridiculous, because I
was hoping she’d bring it up so I wouldn’t have to. But now that she
has … it’s just as embarrassing as it was the first time.
Coughing into my fist, I thump myself on the chest and clear my
throat a few times before I manage to get myself under control.
Autumn’s still watching me, her eyebrows slightly raised, her lips
quirked in that knowing smile.
“Um, uh, yeah, actually.” God, I’m sure I’m beet red. “I, uh—” I
rub the back of my neck. “Um, I actually wanted to talk to you about
that.”
For the first time since she approached me, her face changes
from mildly amused to avidly interested. Even excited. “You did?
What did you want to talk about?”
“Are you really gonna make me say it?” I mumble.
Laughing softly, she steps closer and rubs her hand over my
chest. And somehow when she does it, it seems to sensitize my skin,
sending electric pulses racing through my blood. Plenty of girls have
touched me, and maybe it’s just because I know Autumn’s at least
marginally interested in me—she offered to be my love tutor, after
all. Though I’m not sure exactly what she means by that, even if I
have a few guesses. Regardless, she wouldn’t do that if she thought
I was hideous or repulsive. Right? And she kissed me on the cheek.
Is she going to do that again?
“Yes,” she says quietly, her face tipped up, her eyes locked with
mine. “Consider this your first lesson. You have to verbalize what
you want if you ever hope to get it. Especially with women.”
Swallowing seems almost impossible with her so close, her light
floral scent tickling my nose, her brown eyes soft and warm locked
on mine. “I’d, uh, um …” I clear my throat. Closing my eyes, I force
the words out. “Autumn, I’d like to take you up on the offer you
made at the end of last semester. To, uh, help me. With women.”
“Deal,” she murmurs, and I open my eyes just in time for her to
press up on her toes, hook a hand behind my neck, and kiss me.
CHAPTER TWO
Autumn
Jackson’s lips are immobile against mine, his heart pounding hard
under my hand. I press my lips to his again, gently. Still no
response.
“Kiss me back, Jackson,” I whisper against his mouth.
He sucks in a breath like his diaphragm got paralyzed and just
now restarted. I nip at his lower lip, then kiss it again.
This time he seems to get the idea, and he tentatively kisses me
back. Reaching for one of his arms, I grab it by the wrist and wrap it
around me, placing his hand on my lower back. His fingers tighten,
like he wants to pull me closer, but for some reason he stops himself.
Alright. Good instincts. Some kind of hangup that prevents him
from fully acting on them. I think I can work with that.
I press my lips to his once more, happy that he returns the
pressure, then sink back onto my heels, looking up at him with a
smile. “Good first effort. We’ll definitely need more practice, though.
Have you ever kissed anyone before, or was that your first?”
His cheeks coloring—no surprise—he lifts his head and glances
around. Oh, oops. Maybe I should be more discreet about this line of
questioning. While his friends and teammates surely realize that he’s
not on the bang train along with them—I mean, I’ve noticed, and I
barely spend any time with the guy—that doesn’t mean he wants to
advertise exactly how inexperienced he is.
Lowering my voice to a whisper, I lean in close. “Sorry. I
shouldn’t have asked that out loud right here. I got caught up in the
moment and forgot other people are around. Let’s make a plan to
get together somewhere quieter soon and you can answer all my
questions then.”
“I’ve kissed someone before. Lauren Targer in the eighth grade.”
I raise my eyebrows, silently inviting him to continue if he wishes.
Sadly, he doesn’t. “And will you also answer my questions then?”
“Of course. I will always answer your questions. You don’t even
have to wait until then, you can just text me anything you want to
know. Or ask now.” I shrug. “I don’t mind.”
His eyes dart around again, and he gives a tiny shake of his
head. “Later is fine.”
I give him a big sunny smile. I can’t help myself. This guy is too
adorable for words with his soft cheeks, straight nose, and the
dimples I can’t see right now but know are there. Plus his blushes.
So many blushes. He’s definitely a virgin. And I’d bet money that
Lauren Targer in the eighth grade is his one and only kiss before
now.
The question I want answered is, did he initiate the kiss or did
she? And why hasn’t he kissed anyone since then?
Some guys aren’t into sleeping with every girl who expresses
interest, and that’s understandable. But kissing? Surely you’re
allowed to be a little more indiscriminate with your kissing, even if
you come from a hyper-religious background.
I knew a few kids like that back in high school, but at least one
of them had a boyfriend, and they made out all the time.
Stepping back, I thread my fingers with Jackson’s. “Stick with me
tonight.”
He raises his eyebrows in surprise. “Everyone will think we’re
together.”
“So? Is that a problem for you?”
His eyes track over me, taking in my flowy tank and black yoga
shorts, lingering on the hint of cleavage showing over the scoop
neck of my top and the curve of my hips. I can’t help smiling to
myself. He definitely likes what he sees. I know that look all too well.
“No,” he manages at last, his voice almost raw. “I just didn’t
know if you’d want to advertise that you’re taken.”
I step in close again, and his cheeks color like he’s half expecting
me to kiss him. I don’t, though. “For right now, I am taken. If I’m
going to be teaching you how to date, then you’ll get all my
attention. Besides, no one here is as interesting to me as you.”
The color in his cheeks deepens, but he clears his throat again
and nods once, just a slight dip of his chin, but it’s enough.
Unable to stop myself from smiling, I lead him out of his hiding
spot and into the living room. Advertising that we’re together—at
least for now, and no one else needs to know the details of why,
exactly, we’re entering this arrangement—will only serve to make
him more attractive in the long run. Which will help him with his
future endeavors once I’ve taught him all I can and turn him loose
on the world.
How exciting.
I’ve never done anything like this before. The offer was made on
a whim a few months ago when I saw another dejected girl walk
away from him. I’d noticed it happen again and again throughout
the course of the year, and when we got to know each other
working on scenes in our theatre class last semester, I thought
maybe I’d get a clue as to why. He’s shy, of course, which would
explain why he doesn’t approach anyone. But I’ve watched so many
girls come onto him. Why wouldn’t he go for any of them? Yet every
party and game night, I watched him brush them off like he wasn’t
interested at all.
Was he just not interested in girls? Or was there something else
at work?
With a couple of drinks in my system and maudlin thoughts
chasing me through the party, I let my curiosity get the better of me
and asked him point blank if he was gay or asexual, and he denied
both things.
Which only left clueless.
So I figured I’d offer to help him out. I like Jackson. He’s cute
with his baby face and easy smile—once you get to know him, at
least. Sweet. And he obviously cares about his appearance. His hair’s
nearly always done and he gets it cut regularly because I’ve never
seen him shaggy. He shaves. And he dresses reasonably well. Not
designer clothes or anything, but clean and neat and they fit. Even
when he’s dressed down in athletic gear, his shirts hug his chest and
broad shoulders just right, falling loose around his trim middle. And
his joggers stretch tight across a biteable ass.
Honestly, my offer was semi selfish too. He’s the only guy I know
on the football team who hasn’t hit on me. Which of course intrigues
me even more.
Obviously if he’s not interested or attracted to me, I won’t pursue
him. But if he just needs a little … push?
Which is why I decided to mention it again, though partly it was
because I knew I’d get him to blush too. Maybe it’s not very nice,
but he’s just so adorable when he blushes like that, and sometimes I
can’t help myself.
I figured he’d turn me down, though. He’s so sweet and shy and
buttoned up that I couldn’t see any way that he’d ever take me up
on my offer. I mean, I thought he was going to swallow his tongue
the last time I suggested it.
But now that he’s decided he wants to do this, I’m going to have
to figure out a plan of action. Of course I need to know what he has
and hasn’t done first—I have my suspicions, but knowing for sure is
important—and where his hard limits lie.
This is going to be a blast.
***
As soon as we’re back home, Ellie closes the door behind her, locking
the deadbolt, then crosses her arms and stares me down. The look
would work better if her reddish brown hair weren’t falling out of its
ponytail. And the smattering of freckles across her nose from time
spent in the sun over the summer gives her too much of a girl-next-
door look versus the severe taskmaster she’s trying to embody. Not
that either of those things stop her from trying. “What is going on
with you?”
I give her a quizzical look, cocking my head to the side. “I’m
sorry? I don’t know what you’re referring to.”
Piper laughs, and even Dani ducks her head to hide a smile, like
she’s trying to hide behind her hair. But her dark wavy hair is pulled
back in her customary ponytail as well, so it doesn’t really work.
“Is there a joke I’m missing here?” I ask.
“Please, Autumn,” Piper says, flipping her long black hair over her
pale shoulder, exposed by her red tank top. “We all saw you spend
the entire evening with Jackson Lancaster, the boy who never does
anything.” She sits on the end of the couch and kicks off her flip
flops, pulling her feet under her, propping her elbow on the arm of
the couch and her chin on her hand as she surveys me, eyes
narrowed. “What’s your game with him? He’s a sweetheart.”
“Yeah,” Ellie puts in, dropping her purse on top of the coffee
table and claiming the spot next to Piper. Like they’re presenting a
united front. Against me.
Surveying my three roommates and taking in their nearly
identical expressions, I purse my lips and squint my eyes. I’m not
quite used to this new dynamic, and I don’t think I like it.
While we’ve all known each other since we were freshmen, Ellie’s
the only one I’ve lived with before. But after two years in the dorms,
we were all ready to move off campus. I think Piper and Ellie
especially wanted to live off campus after spending so much time at
their boyfriends’ house last year. Access to a kitchen and laundry
that you don’t have to share with an entire building is really nice.
But houses are more expensive to rent, so we asked Piper and
Dani to join us. We found a nice four bedroom with an early August
move in date, which gave us all plenty of time to work over the
summer and visit our families plus a little time to settle in before
classes started this week.
I could’ve done with a little less time at home, personally, but I
made the best of it by filling my schedule with online tarot clients
and signing up for a booth to read tarot at various summer festivals
in the area. That led to booking a few private parties too, which is
always fun.
But apparently Piper and Ellie have kept in touch over the
summer, bonding over their respective boyfriends getting drafted by
the NFL and going off to pursue their glamorous new pro football
player lives, leaving the women they love behind to finish their
degrees.
On the one hand, I admire their drive to finish school ahead of
schedule and their unwillingness to sacrifice what they care about
for a guy. On the other hand … life is short. If the person you want
to be with has to move across the country, why wouldn’t you find a
way to go with them?
I can’t imagine dropping everything to follow a guy, personally.
But I can’t imagine being in that kind of long-term relationship
either. No, my attachments are all short lived and based around fun.
Just the way I like them.
But Ellie and Piper both want and have something deeper and
more serious. So I don’t understand why they’d stay here when the
people they love are thousands of miles away. I mean, look at
Tiffany, Piper’s soon-to-be sister-in-law. Maybe it’s not official, but …
she and Gray have a kid together. She figured out a way to follow
him to Florida, of all places, so she could be with him. And from
what she was saying before they left, she has every intention of
finishing her degree no matter what.
If she can do it, why can’t Piper and Ellie?
Not that I want them to leave, necessarily. Selfishly, I like having
them here. They’re two of my best friends, and Dani and I couldn’t
afford this place on our own. Plus, Dani only lives with me because
of Piper, who only lives with me because of Ellie. Dani’s quiet and
reserved, more comfortable talking sports and hanging with the guys
than the more traditionally feminine things Piper and Ellie are into—
though Piper’s a sports fan, to be fair, so they have that in common
—and I’m … well, me.
I’ve always followed my own path, and while I enjoy company
along the way, I’m aware most people don’t see or interact with the
world the same way I do.
I know the kind of reputation I have—a mix of airy fairy and
maneater, and no one’s quite sure what to make of me.
In reality, I’m just moving through the world trying to engage the
energies I find around me and hopefully leave things a little better
than I found them. I’m not sure why that’s so weird or whatever, but
I have come to realize that not everyone is as comfortable with their
bodies, or even other people’s bodies, as I am, and discussing
energies and the universe makes some people wrinkle their nose
and change the subject.
So in deference to other people’s sensibilities, I keep a lot of that
to myself, or bring it out in more subtle ways.
And I thought my friends saw past both the airy fairy and
maneater reputations to the real me beneath—at least to some
degree. But with the way they’re acting … maybe not.
Sighing, I drop into the cream armchair across from them,
choosing to let go of my budding annoyance and take a more
agreeable tack. It’s comfy and cushy, a sweet steal from a thrift
store at fifty bucks. “I agree. Jackson is a sweetheart.”
Ellie narrows her eyes. “So you’re not going to do your usual
thing where you sex him up and then leave him hanging?”
I can’t help but laugh at her assessment of my interactions with
guys. “I don’t know that I’ve ever done that.”
Piper and Ellie exchange a look and Dani snorts from her spot on
the mismatched loveseat. I like our hodgepodge furniture, even if I’d
be okay with a comfier couch. It’s fun, eclectic, representative of the
four of us—obviously different but still fits together well.
“Sure, Autumn. If you say so,” Ellie says. “I know you aren’t
trying to leave the guys hanging. But you have to see the way they
all follow you around with their tongues hanging out after you hook
up with them. They want to lock you down, and you’re not
interested in that.”
“Okay. That’s true. But it’s not like they don’t know what they’re
getting into. Everyone knows party hookups aren’t the start of long-
term relationships. I’m not mean to them. I just like having fun.” And
I like sex. Just not enough with any of them for a repeat
performance. No one’s exactly rocked my world. Not that I expect
Jackson to, but his case is different.
And I have to admit that being the one to introduce him to the
full range of pleasure his body can experience has a surprising
appeal. I wonder what he looks like when he’s aroused … will he
blush when I take him in my mouth the first time? Assuming he lets
me, of course.
That’s the first thing on the list that we’ll have to cover—figuring
out what he’s done and what he’s willing to do.
“Earth to Autumn,” Piper calls, provoking another snort from
Dani.
I refocus on my roommates. “Hmm? I’m sorry, I was distracted.”
“What are your intentions with Jackson?” Ellie asks firmly.
I laugh. I can’t help it. “Are you here to protect his virtue, Ellie?
You?”
Her cheeks turn pink, but she doesn’t back down. “He’s not the
party hookup type. I don’t want you to hurt him.”
“You’re sweet, Ellie. I promise I’m not going to hurt him. The
opposite, in fact. I’m going to help him.”
The girls exchange another look, a look that clearly says they
think I’m full of shit. But that’s nothing really new. Any time I bring
out my crystals they give me that same look—though they like it
when I read tarot for them, interestingly enough. I got the same
look from them when I smudged the house with cedar as we were
moving in to protect us and clear the space of any unwelcome
energies.
That’s fine. They don’t have to believe me. I’ve never let it stop
me before. I’m not about to start now.
CHAPTER THREE
Jackson
Autumn