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*MONTHS AGO*
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*ASANDE*
Hlubi : this is not my child
Me : but …
He laughs
I am hurt
What am I going to do ?
Oh ….this is a mess
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*LIBONGWE*
I smile with myself reading
his message
I respond back
I am getting married
To a guy with money
I know Hlubi
He really means it
I should have just listened
Me : my maths ….
She laughs
I want better
I want to work
I want to be educated
There’s more beyond this
village to be honest
Me : no , I want to be
independent
Mom : this whole education ,
and democracy thing has
ruined you kids of today
And I look at it
Me : I am pregnant !
Oh my …
I just cannot wait to tell him
this
She smiles
Libo : it is
Mom : well , don’t keep us
waiting
Libo : I am expecting
What ?
Libo : dad …
Mom : we’re going to be
grandparents
Now he gets it
It’s evident
Dad : yes my girl , this is what
a woman does . Now your in
laws , will see they didn’t
make a mistake with you .
This is great news indeed
Wow !.
How I wish , I could tell them
as well
I am excited
I smile
Me : I am
She smiles
Me : what ?
Me : we will continue …
I chuckle
Even beforehand
She changed somehow after
I got accepted and I shared
the news with her
Me : is that so ?
Londiwe : you will cheat on
me , and I’ll be left a fool
hung up on you . So it’s best
we break up , it’s either me
or you leaving for Cape Town
I get up
Londiwe : you won’t even try
to convince me otherwise ?
Me : no , why should I ?
And I have
I am going to Cape Town
Or just a lesson
Wondering what’s
happening in there
I am hopeful
They won’t even give them a
hard time
I am dressed
He promised
I trust him
I know he loves me
And he knows I love him
Libo is happy
He looks at me
Me : I am leaving
Spha : what ?
Me : today , but I want to tell
you that all your efforts and
kindness with me did not go
to waste . And I will …
Spha : I am sorry
I just have to
Failure is not an option
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*LIBONGWE*
It’s been a day
Ntando loves me
Me : I won’t , I promise
I look at Asande
She has no emotion
whatsoever
I am not bothered
Nor is he missing
I wouldn’t be here
Nothing is working out for
me
Right at my face
The fact that I am not
educated
I am even ashamed to go
back home
I haven’t even told my
parents anything
I couldn’t believe it
Because I become a
punching bag
Him putting his hands on me
, didn’t just end with a slap
I am scared
I say nothing
Mom : whoever is
responsible of this , if they
don’t marry you . You’re
going to leave my house
Wow !
I chuckle
If there was a way to get
away from his negativity
I would do it
Me : I’ll be fine
Leroy : you’re going to
grumble
Yes !
He nods
Muzi : HR will have your
contract ready by the end of
the day , so tomorrow before
you start your work report to
HR and get your contract .
After you have read and
understood everything , sign
it as return it back . You’re
still a young man , trying to
make it . Can you drive ?
Me : yes , I can drive . I also
have a learners , the plan is
to get my license soon
I am so happy
I know my father
I just can’t
We barely spoke
He hardly touched me
I look at him
Me : but I ….
I shake my head
Me : I don’t know what
you’re talking about , I
haven’t bothered you since
you came back
He stands in front of me
Ntando : what’s this ?
How did he …
I am not stupid
Me : I don’t …
I say nothing
So much blood
He will probably kill me for
this
I am in pain
But the physical pain
She sighs
Mom : Ntando loved you
Me : yeah …
I shrug
Mom : what do you do ?
No ways !
This , I do not believe
Me : what ?
Me : mom …
Mom : no , you have to
change . Whatever you’re
doing , stop it
It can’t be
I chuckle bitterly
Me : wow !
I shake my head
My heart is so heavy
By great beginning
It won’t be busy , with varsity
as well
Where I am headed
Because this is only the start
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*ASANDE*
Me : what ?
She means it
Me : no !
Mom : your choice
Me : but I don’t ….
I nod slowly
Wow !
I would really be so touched
I doubt !
I wipe it off
I shrug
I feel no pain
I am not sad
Me : what ?
Mom : yes , so in just a few
months you’ll be a mother
This is …
I shake my head
I am shocked
Mom : do you ?
I shake my head slowly
I shake my head
Mom : get your priorities
right , because right now you
seem to be concerned about
everyone except yourself and
your marriage . Asande
doesn’t even need this child ,
if anything you’ll be helping
her . She has her head filled
with the stupid career thing ,
being a mother at 18 is not
for her
But she kept her baby
Me : yeah , I did
Me : no , I attended
He chuckles
I look at him
I say nothing
I wouldn’t be surprised if he
has another family there
And his parents know about
it
I zip up my bag
As if he wants me here
Ntando : are you hearing me
Libo ?
Me : yes
I cry everynight
Me : hello ?
There’s silence
But I can hear the other
person breathing , on the
other side
Me : bafo (brother?
He sounds somehow
Me : I can’t complain , and
yourself ?
I frowm
Me : what …no !
He sighs
I chuckle
Me : I am saving , don’t
worry
Me : come in
Me : thanks
No kidding !
I am left in shock
But I did
And things are going great
for me at work as well
I may be wrong
What ?
No ways !
I look at Libo
This can’t be
Wow !
Hell no !
Me : what …
Me : who …
Mom : that stupid child ran
away , she ran away !
Oh well …
I don’t know what to say
anymore
It’s so cold
I can’t give up
My eyes failing me
But I can’t …
I just can’t
I turn to my side and grab
the bottle
I grab my boob
And try to feed him
I have to be patient
Me : please eat
He’s so tiny
Me : please …
He lets out a loud cry
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I’m sure it’s been hours by
now
What will I do ?
I look at my baby
I shake my head
Woman : lets go
I try to lift him to my chest
Me : no , I need to leave . I
need to get away from here .
I applied for school , but I
still haven’t gotten a reply .
But I can’t stay here , they
will never welcome me back
home
Kgari : they will …
Me : no , they won’t
understand . My family is
very traditional
I shrug
Kgari : last night , I wanted to
just pass the shed . But I
couldn’t help hearing the
little cry …I wish I had gotten
there earlier
I get up
Me : thank you for
everything , but I have to go
I wipe my tears
Me : thank you
I frown
Me : Joburg ?
Kgari : yes , you’ll just have to
catch the bus . I’ll call her ,
and she’ll come pick you up
at the station
Me : I …I can hitchhike
And I am happy
My mother is here fuming
Me : Asande is gone …
Mom : that one , she better
never come back to my
house
I get up
I had two
He looks at me
I pull the chair near the
wardrobe
I sit down
Just looking at me
Me : now Asande is gone ,
she ran away . That’s why I
came back with no baby ,
because there is no baby . I
long lost our baby
He gets up
Right now I am expecting
anything
My jaw drops
We laugh
I smile
Now I am intrigued
Me : oh my God !
She smiles
Me : I …I got in
I tear up , as emotions just
engulf me
She hugs me
I am accepted at UJ to do
LLB Law
Yes !
And so is work
Me : for what ?
Muzi : the new company
we’re looking to open that
side , the plan is to buy a one
and not build from scratch .
And we already have a bid ,
but I need to know
everything from the inside
before we can buy
Me : yeah sure
He gets up
Me : alright
He walks out
And look up
I wonder if my parents are
watching over me and seeing
this
I sit down
Susan : did something
happen ?
Me : I saw something
I laugh
She’s always thinking about
dangerous things
Me : no he didn’t
Susan : so now are you
scared , he will tell your
parents where you are ?
Susan : hah !.
Me : nothing
Susan : I see
It’s hard
But I catch a glimpse of
Ntando
Me : what the …
And there’s a woman next to
him
Me : hi
Such beauty
Me : give me that 4
And he walks in
I look at him
How we used to be
And I thought he was it for
me
What changed ?
What did I do ?
How did he lose his feelings
and love for me ?
We were happy
But now …
I don’t even remember how
that felt like
Me : whats going on ?
He shrugs
I don’t even know what am I
supposed to make of that
He looks at me
Me : is she your other
woman ? And are they yours
?
He chuckles
This is nonsense
Oh well
He long left me
He just left
After giving me so much
money
Me : come in
Khethi walks in
Khethi : I hope I didn’t
disturb
I am on my feet in seconds
Me : oh my God !
My results , and my
certificate
Khethi : about ?
Me : my parents , I mean
they wanted their details
there . And questions about
whether they’re still alive and
working
She laughs
Me : bye
And I am nothing
And I intend to
Me : alright
Lady : Mr Mdluli
I lift my eyes
Recognising the voice
I get up
I frown
And turn handing the lady
her fruits
Me : thank you
He chuckles
Him : don’t ….
He looks behind me
Now I am lost
It’s cold
Putting on my sleepers
I pick up the roses , and
check the card
I walk downstairs
And the aroma in the kitchen
fills my nostrils
Me : mhm ..
Me : don’t judge me
She laughs handing me a
ginger biscuit
Me : I hate this
I laugh
Me : don’t be dramatic ,
eating this much I might just
We laugh
This woman !
I get up
Me : finish up , I am coming
to eat
I am getting worried
Muzi : Uhm Mdluli …are you
still with us ?
Me : Uhm ….I am ..
I get up
Me : I am really sorry , but
can I please be excused . My
wife is graduating today , top
of her class too on Law . I
just want to …
He laughs
We laugh
I look at her
I am worn out
She laughs
But here I am
This is my day
I have made it
And I’ll certainly rejoice and
be proud
I smile
Me : mhm …
I remember my own
graduation
He smiles
Me : innocently
I laugh
I nod
He pecks my lips
And walks to the bathroom
I close my eyes
Sphe : I am sorry …
He caresses my nipples
He breathes hoarse on my
ear
I turn my head
As his lips grace mine
Me : we …
Khethi walks in
Me : without bathing ?
This is awkward
She smiles
Asa : yes
Me : babe …
I nod slowly
My princess is born
Asa : hey …
She laughs
Asa : ouch …
She smiles
That’s possible
I get out
Me : please
He pecks my lips
I take the shawl and throw it
over my shoulders
But here I am
For the first time in five years
, I’m here to see my little boy
I kneel down
I wipe my tears
As words fail me
And I have so much to say to
this little guy
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*LIBONGWE*
I walk in the kitchen
And find my parents in a
mayhem
Me : what’s going on ?
I am fine just as I am
Me : what ?
My jaw drops
Mom : Asande !
Me : sawubona ma
Mom : where …where have
you been all these years ?
I feel lifted !
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*THE END*