The first time I read the novel I felt that it is a deep recall of something that I experienced and each

one
of us experienced in different stages of our lives, the question is qhat does that mean?

To answer this question let me introduce her personality first:

She is quiet and contemplative, often keeping her thoughts and feelings to herself. Her
introverted nature is partly a result of her traditions as she grew up in a rural village in
Bangladesh which played a significant in role in shaping her soul on the novel. Nazeen is
observant of her surroundings an circumstances and the people within her community and
family. She often reflects on her experiences and the changing world around her. Her thoughtful
nature is evident in her inner consciousness and outer space, creating her own atmosphere.

Each one of us encountered a state of feeling like being lost between words, disconnected from
the inner universe that we used to live in into the outer universe that we create based on our
backgrounds and the wish to be part of both universes to understand us better thav one side of
thinking which is always captured and monitored by culture and society.

The second part when you are connected by religion or policy, you are going have a state of
unconsciousness to see how you connect your past inner beliefs with what you are in at the
moment.

I think Nazeen sees London as an unfamiliar and sometimes strange citye. She is
overwhelmed by the busy city and feels isolated and separated from the people around
he due to some cultural and language barrier.
She sees the people in her community and her husband, Chanu, through a traditional
lens, adhering to the cultural expectations of her Bangladeshi hometown. She often
defers to her husband's views and opinions since she was a submissive wife according to
the place she grew up in where everything can be seen only through the eyes of family
and traditions.
By time she started to have some significant changes as we all feel when we become
older and older, Nazeen becomes more independent and self-reliant. She starts taking
English language classes.
She becomes more and more assertive and straight in expressing her thoughts, feelings
and desires. She begins to have an inner rebellious voice regarding her opinions and
stands up for herself, in her interactions with her husband, Chanu. This interesting weird
guy, and her desire ambition and her to contribute to her family's income by sewing
clothes from her background experience.
The clash between her cultural heritage in Bangladesh, the small little limited place and
the modern, multicultural environment of London, leading to a deeper exploration of
her own identity in place and time
Later on the novel she began to change dramatically, new experiences and a forbidden
relationships. Her involvement with Karim, a younger man from her community, leads
her to challenge social norms, cultures and explore thechance of a different kind of
relationship.
She realized that she has a deeper understanding of the complexities of life in London
and the changes of experiences among its residents. Her interactions with people from
different nationalities to see the world from different viewpoints.
More and more readings I found that the death of her son shaped a new Nazeen in the
novel. This tragic event has a significant impact and effect on Nazeen's character and
personality (psychological), then shaping her emotional and psychological development
through the novel, source of grief and loss for Nazeen, she became to be emotionally
vulnerable after her son's death. She is able to express her emotions and feelings, ,
which is a detour from her earlier conservative culture. She started to question the
significance of certain cultural, focusing instead on what truly matters to her only which
is a huge change for a submissive wife.
There is more to explore regarding he evolution in the novel mentally and physically
And we all encountered this state of uncertainty when w move to a different place,
therefore, this novel touched my heart deeply and I culd feel every single word of the
novel as mine.
Rami Ibrahim