THE HARMS OF CONDITIONAL LOVE; TO ATTAIN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

March 2, 2014 Franky, Thierry, If you come to the Philippines for personal and selfish interest, then, your coming has been of no use for the upliftment of humanity !ou are still perpetuating "hat your race and collecti#e mindset $%panish, &uropean, 'mericans "ho are also descendants of &urope ( I classify your race as the ha"k) ha#e been pushing all this time* e+ploitation and sucking of others to get rich, and to suppress the potential of the masses in third "orld countries $I classify us to be turtle) to remain rich ,o"e#er, that is not "hat I sa" you- you came different- you came as a friend and ha#e all these years pro#en to be real ones !ou ha#e a noble agenda for "hich I am fully accepting, namely* the liberation of the human spirit, of the spiritual person imprisoned inside the human body !ou ha#e "orked for the e+planation to the human brain to see the real identity of the prisoner inside these human bodies !ou ha#e not gro"n "eary in doing that first to me, kno"ing that my freedom ( my emancipation "ill also result to the release of others, e#en the "hole mass prisoners, as I "ould also bring the good ne"s of liberty, telling them of the hidden or kept secret keys to bodily as "ell as spiritual liberties If you "ere not so, then, long time ago, my inner spirit "ould ha#e re.ected the friendship you/d offered, discerning e#en then that
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your purpose "as the same as your fello" racial brothers* to suck, to e+ploit, to e+tort, to decei#e, to take ad#antage, to suck, and lea#e the sucked dried and "ithered In my blindness and dumbed state, I did not see and so I did not complain 0ut "hen the 1234 sho"ed me ho" "hen your &uropean predecessors or forefathers came to the Philippines to make matters "orse, to 5uote the 6ord/s, and I paraphrase* 78hen these men from &urope "ould arri#e there "ith their #ersion of statues9religion, then the already bad spiritual condition o#er there "ould "orsen 100 times : I still "ant to count the good things the "hite men ha#e done to us, or see the benefits of their coming and thank them 0ut I am appalled "ith the side effects of 4;1<ITI;1'6 6;=&, the kind of lo#e that they brought in their books $called the 0ible and school te+tbooks>) and taught $in their schools and churches), promoted in their press and e+emplified in their personal li#es and applied in their operations and businesses>>>>> ,ere in the Philippines, the net result ( the ending ( is #ery clear* <&%T2?4TI;1 ;F ;?2 6IF&9%?PP;2T %!%T&M%, T,& &4;6;@! '1< &1=I2;1M&1T, ;?2 F;2&%T% 8&2& @;1&- T,I% I% 1;T T,& 4'%& 8IT, ;?2 '14&%T;2% 8,; ,;1;2&< T,& T2&&% '1< T,& F;2&%T% '1< %&2=&< '% T,&I2 P2;T&4T;2% '1< P2&%&2=&2% T,& %P2I1@% A 2I=&2% ,'=& %T;PP&< I1 T,& 4'%& ;F 0;,;6, ;16! T,& M'3;2 ;1&% 2&M'I1&< 0?T '2& '6%; %6;8I1@ <;81 !;? T'B& ' 2;?1< T2IP '6;1@ T,& 4;'%T'6 2;'<, '1< '% !;? 4I246&< T,& &1TI2& I%6'1< P2;=I14&, !;? 8I66 %&&
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02I<@&% ;F <2I&< 2I=&20&<% 8,I4, T&&M&< 8IT, 8'T&2% '1< 6IF& 0&F;2& 8& ,'=& T; <I@ 1;8 '1< P?T PIP&% F;2 8'T&2 T; 4;M& ?P T,I% I% <&FI1I1T&6! T,& 2&%?6T ;F <&%T2;!I1@ T,& ='6?'06& P2&%&2=&2 '1< 2&P6&1I%,&2 ;F %P2I1@, 1'M&6!* T,& F;2&%T '% %P2I1@% '1< 2I=&2% <2I&< ?P, !;?2 2'4I'6 02;T,&2% 4'M& 8IT, '1;T,&2 06;8* 4,&MI4'6 F&2TI6IC&2%, T; M'B& M;1&!, T; ,;;B '1< '<<I4T ;?2 P6'1T%, T; BI66 ;?2 %;I6, '1< M'B& 7F2?IT%: '2TIFI4I'66! P2;<?4&< 0! !;?2 F&2TI6IC&2%, '1< ;T,&2 4,&MI4'6% %; <I< ;?2 F'2M% <I&< '% 8&66 !;?2;P& '1<M&2I4', !;? <I< <&%T2;! !;?2 &1=I2;1M&1T, !;?2 &4;6;@!, !;?2 F;2&%T% '1< 8'T&2% '1< 'I2% FI2%T- '1< 8,&1, T,&! F'I6&< T; @I=& !;? 6IF& '1< M?4, 6&%% ,&'6T,, !;? 8&1T F'2 '1< &DP6;IT <I%T'1T P6'4&%, 8IT, 1; 2&@'2< ;F T,& I1,'0IT'1T% T; M'B& M'TT&2% 8;2%& F;2 ?%, !;? 6'?14,&< ' 6;1@92?11I1@ 4,&MI4'6 I1='%I;1 T,'T 2&%?6T&< T; T,& <?M0I1@ A 4;1F?%I;1 ;F ;?2 MI1<%, T; T,& 4'64IFI4'TI;1 ;F ;?2 PI1&'6 '1< PIT?IT'2! @6'1<%- !;? 02;?@,T 2&6I@I;1% '1< T&DT0;;B% 8,I4, 2&%?6T&< T; T,& 4;1F?%I;1 ;F ='6?&% A 4;22?PTI;1 ;F ;?2 P?2&2 4?6T?2&- !;? 02;?@,T 2&6I@I;1% T,'T %?0T6! 6'4&2'T&< ?% F2;M <I2&4T 8;2%,IP T;
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T,& F'T,&2 %PI2IT '1< 6&< ?% T; 8;2%,IP T,& %PI2IT ;F T,& 8;26<, 2&%?6TI1@ T; T,& <&@&2'TI;1 ;F ;?2 M;2'6IT!, <I%I1T&@2'TI;1 ;F M'22I'@&%, '1< '6;1@ 8IT, 6;%T F;;<, %4'TT&2I1@ ;F ;?2 F'MI6I&% T; T,& 06I1<, 8,; ;16! ,'% ,I% %&1%& ;F F&&6I1@ ;2 T'%T& 6&FT, T,&2& I% 6&%% 4;MP6'I1T ;2 1; 4;MP6'I1T '0;?T T,& ;1@;I1@ 4'64IFI4'TI;1 '1< <?M0I1@ ;F T,& 02'I1 T,2;?@, !;?2 4,6;2I1& '1< F6?;2I<&, P;I%;1I1@ ;F T,& MI1< T,2;?@, !;?2 2&6I@I;1 ;F 4;1<ITI;1'6 0?%I1&%%9T!P& 6;=&, %?PP2&%%I;1 ;F T,& ,?M'1 %PI2IT T,2;?@, !;?2 %6'=&9M'BI1@ &<?4'TI;1 ( T; T,& %TI66 06I1<, IT I% '66 P2'I%& F;2 T,& T'%T! F;;< '1< I1T;DI4'TI1@ <2I1B% T,'T !;? ,'=& FI66&< ;?2 P'6'T& '1< 6'2!1D> <o not confuse my personal gratitude to my personal dissatisfaction In the personal le#el, you lo#ed me 110E or e#en more 1o matter ho" many times I "ould thank you, it "ould not be enoughFI "ould not be able to repay That is the truth "hen you put yourself as my benefactor and me, your beneficiaryF "hich is so 0ut "e did not come here to play those roles alone <eep in our spirit, and it is "hat manifests in me most of the time, I did not see myself as your beneficiaryF but as your co9benefactor of mankindF this portion of mankindF the Filipinos I am not most of the time imagining myself as your recei#er and you my gi#er It only happens "hen you gi#e meF as you gi#e meF 0ut after that moment, I immediately return to the longer
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moment state in "hich I am d"elling, namely* as your co9helper to the Filipinos I see myself, and correctly so, to be in one team "ith you, a team "hose mission is the decalcification of the brain, de9dumbing of the mind, emancipation of the imprisoned human spirit ( liberation of the spirit being locked inside the body and brain long controlled and held capti#e by the multiple ensla#ing systems and e5uipment of the 'nnunaki9Illuminati in "hite skins ;r in simplest term* oppressors That realiGation produced sadness and other urgent feelings in me ;n the other hand, I also realiGe other truths I realiGe that part of the 7fallen: spirit9indi#idual is reincarnating as "hite man $e g , &uropean) "hile part of him as black or bro"n man $e g , Filipino) %o, it can be, for e+ample* Franky9Thierry and 4ocoy in this period of time Multiple simultaneous reincarnations $coming do"n) of one same indi#idual spirit, or if not one person, surely one soul9family, or if not the sub97I 'M: of @od, then, surely of the main97I 'M: of @od the Father This sub9branch named 4ocoy is the one fully immersed in the sufferings of the ensla#ed and the oppressed, of the dumbed, of the suppressed, of the e+ploited, of the decei#ed, of the e+torted, of the disintegrated marriages and familiesF I am calling you for the nth time, although my pre#ious calls "ere unspoken, but no", in "ords, I am calling you for the first time in more clearer "ords, to "it* 1&=&2 MI1< M! F2I&1<% M! 'T TIM&% %&&MI1@ '?T,;2IT'2I'1, <I4T'T;2I'6, <&M'1<I1@ T;1&%F T,I% I% 1;T,I1@ P&2%;1'6F IT ,'% %;M&T,I1@ T; <; 8IT, M! ?1%P;B&1 ?2@I1@% T; !;?, 1'M&6!* !;? ,'=& <;1& F;2 M& M;2& T,'1 &1;?@,, '1< &1<6&%% T,'1B
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!;? F;2 T,'T, 0?T 8&, '% ' T&'M, 8& ,'=& 1;T T;?4,&< T,& %?2F'4& ;F T,& %?FF&2I1@% ;F T,& P&;P6& F;2 8,;M 8& ,'=& 4;M& I1 T,I% P6'4&> 'nd I do not mean, materially, and I do not mean financially, and I do not mean technologically and I do not mean specifically spiritually I mean any of the , "hiche#er is appropriate at a gi#en time I "as, more than you, the one feeling the cold of nakedness, feeling the pain of hunger, the thirst of "aterlessness, the famine of the rocky place, the po#erty of the cliffs, the roughness of the stones, the oddity of the soil9less habitation, the disappointment of putting up a garden that does not bear enough, the difficulty of making a soil "hen plenty of it are in the hands of the greedy ones ,o" many times ha#e you slept outsideH In the terminalsH In the s5uatters around "hich surround you the filth and the smell of garbageH <id you e+perience deciding to fast .ust to make the little food enoughH <id you e+perience buying bananas to make for a #iand "hich I could not affordH The banana I sliced in thin rounds, to consume slo"er and in time "ith my rice ,a#e you seen po#erty "orse than theseH I see many of them That is "hy M! %&1%& ;F ?2@&14! '1< %!MP'T,! I% 0;I6I1@ '1< &'21&%T That is "hy I "as greatly appalled and shock "hy you "ould think of putting a s"imming pool in a #ery poor placeH

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To use it for bringing .oy to the sad children in this poorest of places is a good purpose, but not the best "ay, I am certain as far as I am concerned I see in you, not "hole part of you, and in large part of Thierry that you "ould be satisfied to li#e "ith all your personal needs meet, not feeling the pains of others That is "hat I suspect or detect I/#e seen that also in my little attempts to con#ert the building into something that can be suitable to ser#e future purpose that "ould benefit the poor people 'll I see in Thierry and maybe in you, is personal purpose of the building 8hat is the meaningH 8here is the .oy in itH ;B, "e do not argue "ith the .oy pri#acy gi#es 0ut is that enoughH Is that complete .oyH 6i#ing complete and rich amidst and around a #ery poor placeH 1ot long ago, I "as ha#ing a heated debate "ith Mr 'ndre" Teng, my respected former church minister ,e "as at the point of labelling me as a rebel In my anger I pierced him* 7Mr Teng, "hat is the point of your ministry preaching lo#e and you ha#e a lu+urious house located in a city around "hich is the #ast hacienda, a "hole pro#ince in fact, plantation of sugarcane plants, in the depth of "hich are found like little ants landless oppressed people you call tenantsH> 8hat is the use of your church and your 4hristianity if you do not address this problemH If you by your denial or di#erted teachings you by default support the status 5uoH I ha#e ne#er heard you speak out #ersus this glaring kind of abuse against godly and brotherly lo#e :
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F from that day on"ards, many years ago already, I ha#e ne#er heard of Mr Teng I only found his 4< tapes in one local Music store ( his recorded 4hristian songsF "hich songs ha#e or "hich act has no effect on the poorest of the poor> III Thierry, Franky, I do not e+pect you to be like those acti#e "hite men "ho came #ery friendlily and "ere #ery acti#e in 7ser#ing: or gi#ing to the nati#es, especially children, but "ith a hidden agenda and personal ulterior moti#es They are hypocrites> 0ut on the other hand, I also do not "ish you to remain '6;;F, <&T'4,&<, ?1%!MP,'TI4, ?1'FF&4T&<, 4'66;?%, for as I see it, "e ha#e not done yet enough> It is possible ho"e#er that I ha#e misread your inner spiritF "hich I kno" I do 0ut for the moment, I am more sure that I ha#e not misread the past and the current main stream of attitude and mindset of &urope and 'merica to"ards us* 4;1<ITI;1'6 6;=&F a business lo#e, you gi#e in order to get, and "hen it comes "orse, to suck and lea#e the #ictim dried and 7died: If most of us, that is, our souls, ha#e part9incarnations in &urope and 'merica, the 7benefactor role,: and part of our %elf or of our friends and lo#ed ones here in these poor nations, T; 0& T,& 0&1&FI4I'2!F alas, "hat pains "ill it be 8,&1 8& 8I66 0& ;P&1&< T; %&& T,'T I1%T&'< ;F 0&1&F'4T;2, &DP;IT&2H I1%T&'< ;F &M'14IP'T;2, 4'PT;2H I1%T&'< ;F 1?2T?2&2, %?4B&2H III

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If "hat &urope and 'merica are doing to us is a re9enactment or retaliation of "hat "e did before, that "e "ere the oppressors in our pre#ious reincarnations, that "e are here no" as the poor and the ensla#ed, in order that "e could e+perience and feel "hat "e did to others in our pre#ious lifeF then, life is fair I am forced to admit and "e ought not to complain but learn to be humble and thankful for this learning e+perienceF this opportunity to blossom the seed of meekness9mercy9humility long suppressed in us For the @;< I1 ?% has long remained suppressed as a seed and as a pattern, so long as the ungodly character dominateFso long as our mind is decei#ed into belie#ing that "e are separate and that "e are harmful to each other, making each one of us suspiciousF I recogniGe that deepest in me, and also in all of you is the purest seed9 the noblest replica of @od the Father, and this little 7I 'M: has to be allo"ed to manifestF this hidden beautiful being has to emerged as pearl from the mudF as diamond and gold from the fireF 8& M?%T 0&4;M& 8,'T 8& 8&2& M&'1T T; 0&F '1< %T;P %,;8I1@ ?P 8,'T 8& 2&'66! '2& 1;TF I 1;8 T,'T 8& '2& 6;=&FI1 T,& P?2&%T %&1%&F %o I am not accusing the real youF I am condemning $to use an e+aggerated "ord) the false person $ego) in us, "hich "e created by adopting the pretensi#e and arrogant traits taught to us, and "hich "e blindly accepted, corrupting "hat "as pure in us from the beginning, a different character composed of negati#e parasites $5ualities) that you, "e, and they, at times and many times are pro.ecting to me or to others, instead of the real nature of lo#e deep inside us> If "e are not careful, and "e had not been>, these negati#e person "ould manage to come up, and our real meek, lo#ing nature "ould continue to get suppressed
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That false person full of dross and gross egoF "ill continue to let us think, feel, talk and act in "ays that "ill not only hurt others but e#entually left us alone and hurt as "ell, as soon as @od and others become distant from us For that/s the la" and nature of the positi#e ?ni#erse* They "ill e#entually lea#e you if you insist to beha#e in the negati#e "ay The trees "ill lea#e you The "aters "ill disappear The air "ill thin The seas "ill become unfriendly and poor The land "ill not gi#e you abundance 'nimals "ill become hostile &#en people including your former lo#ed ones, they too "ill become distant or e#en hostile to you That is "hat has happened to the "hole of mankind 8e ha#e become isolated, broken, disintegrated, abandoned ,ealth has abandoned us 8ealth has abandoned us Peace has left 3oy has disappeared ?nity has gone There is "ar and di#ision &#en in our inner self, there is a separation, there is di#ision, there is no unity bet"een mindJsoul and spirit and the body too is suffering I for one am intent and there is no looking backFI am intent to achie#e unity in my %elf first* spirit, soul and body 'nd then I am intent that this unity "ill affect a unity among the persons near me and then far a"ide 'll said, and no matter "hat, I lo#e all of you my dearest brothers, friends, part9self, part9of the 0ig I 'M and smaller I 'MF If at times I seem to be mean, please forgi#e meF for deep in meFne#er did I mean to hurt youFless to harm youF I .ust meant* you did not understand me at that period of time in my deepest meF 'nd I am sureF I also did not understand you in that moment in your deepest intention and feelingF

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6ike the argument in the bridge $3agna) "hen I "as already at the point of forcing and doing so "ith accusation of selfishness, strongly urging Thierry to add P200 abo#e the agreed rent of the #an that "e hired 't that moment, I forgot "ho "as making all those things possibleF "ho "as our financierF "ho "as our benefactorF I "as fully immersed in trying to meet the re5uest of the dri#er "ho realiGed at that moment that he asked a little too lo" and later only did he realiGe thatF ?nkind of me, I did not also put into consideration that it "as hurting ThierryF little did I realiGe that if IJ"e kept on doing that and Thierry "ould .ust leniently gi#e in to us, could I ensure that you "ould not run out of money and not use up your budget for fare, for e+ampleH That is only one of the difficulties I "as causing you if I insisted in my "ay of "hat seems to be 7o#erdose generosity to others: forgetting to lo#e our self $meeting our o"n needs) as "ell I did realiGe that I "as ha#ing the tendency to tip the balance to the other e+treme of neighborly lo#e, causing self or oursel#es to suffer in the process, "hile the rest tip theirs to"ard too much self 0ut mind you, I did not mean itF I did not intend to achie#e another type of imbalance* more on others, no to self That is not "hat I "as aiming for though it seemed to be- but surely no", that is no longer "hat I am consciously aiming for to both appear to be and to be in reality 0ut for years, I seemed to be doing .ust that* too much emphasis to"ards others, forgetting the self and lo#ed ones 'fter I read the 1e" 'ge books and 1eale <onald 8alsch/s books and the #ideos of 0ashar and Bryon et al, 8,; '66 T&'4, 6;=& !;?2%&6F '% 8&66, the balance slo"ly comes to me
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The 6ord/s teachings or emphasis rather, in the 1234 is lo#e to"ards @od and neighborF In my Geal to fulfill that part of ,is total "illFI forget the self or its larger #ersion* the "e, our family, our group Thus, I heard e#ery no" and then my o"n family complaining that I had abandoned them I am no" in the process of healing the hurt selfF the neglected selfF the neglected "ifeF the neglected familyF 8& 8I66 %;;1 '4,I&=& P&2F&4T ;2 T2?& 0'6'14& I1 6;=& F;2 @;<, 1&I@,0;2 '1< %&6F Franky, I "ould like to thank you abo#e all for leading me to the "ayF to learn to lo#e @od abo#e all and to lo#e my neighbors more than my self, and no" to recapture my lost lo#e for my larger %elf $family and friends included) "hom I deliberately decided to lo#e less in my belief that that is the only "ay I can lo#e @od and my neighbor moreF I "as too poor in my assessment of "hat di#ine lo#e can achie#e For I thought that in order for lo#e for @od and neighbor be enough, I should star#e my self and family, deduct my selflo#eF In some sense, maybe 0ut I "as not considering the other possibility that only no" I begin to see, that P2;0'06! I 4;?6< 1;T @I=& @;< '1< 1&I@,0;2 &1;?@, 6;=& 0&4'?%& I <I< 1;T 6;=& M! %&6F '1< %&6F/% &1;?@,> ;r "orded differently* I did not kno" ho" to lo#e @od and neighbor because I did not kno" ho" to lo#e my selfF This is no" "hat I am realiGing For years in the 4hurches $not .ust one church did I study and obser#e and e+amine), the emphasis "as @od and neighbor, forgetting the self, in theory and the lectures and "hich I forcefully tried to practice, although it "as funny, that once outside the church building, all forces, agencies
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and establishments "ere racing to"ards the opposite, or to re#erse "hat "as said during the homily or during the sermon People once outside are racing to"ards %&6F, e#en the priests, by their hidden lifestyles, they "ere heading to"ards K00fold lo#e for %elf, and getting as little as Kfold lo#e for @od $7panakip butas:) and gi#ing an insincere K0fold lo#e for neighbor ,ence, the bad KKK The balanced 6o#e is stated thus "ith the right figure* 6o#e @od abo#e all $hence, K00fold) and your neighbor $K0fold) as you lo#e yourself $Kfold) ,ence, the good KKK 6o#ing self Kfold refers to enough and proper lo#e for self This I did not get until I read the books @od re#ealed to 1eale <onald 8alsch $4on#ersations "ith @od) "hich teaches ho" to sufficiently and properly lo#e yourself People in the "orld for sure are being accused of lo#ing self too much 0ut I "ant to correct that* T,&! '2& 1;T 6;=I1@ T,&M%&6=&%, 1&IT,&2 T;; M?4, 1;2 6;=I1@ 'T '66> T,&! T,I1B T,&! '2& 6;=I1@ T,&M%&6=&%, 8,&1 I1 2&'6IT!, T,&! '2& M&2&6! I1<?6@I1@ T,&M%&6=&%, ;2 ;=&2I1<?6@I1@ T,&M%&6=&% T,&! &1< ?P ,'2M&<, ,?2T, P;I%;1&<, I66, M'IM&<, <I%'06&<, 0'1B2?PT, <!I1@, <I&<, <&'<, ;2 T,& 2&%T ;2P,'1% '1< 8I<;8% ( I% T,'T 6;=&H ;B, if they insist it is 6o#e that they felt, ;B, granted @ranted they felt lo#e, but surely their lo#e ( their heart 99 is not, "as not guided by light ( "isdom ( their lo#e "as and is blind 'nd because they do not ha#e "isdom9light to light their path, they stumbled, their lo#e erred 'nd they suffered That is "hy 3esus said, 70e "ise $seeing) as a serpent and not .ust lo#ing as a do#e :
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6o#e and 8isdom ha#e to go hand in hand 6o#e "ith 8isdom 8ise 6o#e This is "hat I am ad#ocating for my fello"s here in the Philippines That is "hy this letter is also intended to be addressed to them My o"n unfoldingF my o"n disco#ery of "hat the %elf ought to beF this perspecti#e that I am ac5uiringF This understandingF Ltis may not be perfect yetF but I kno" I am coming to fully grasp itF 'nd before I lea#e, may I e+press my long felt remorse of the hurts I caused on all of you, friends and 7enemies:F beginning today, I "ill stri#e to lo#e betterF and to e+press such brotherly lo#e betterF but in case I fail and seemingly remain the sameF please do be sure that it is in my "eaknessF and it is not "hat I really meanF that it is not the real I insideF not the real me insideF "ho only "ants to lo#e and "ho lo#es purely and dearlyF Fand in my "eakness and failingsF I beg you pardon, kindness, forgi#eness, forbearance andF lo#ing understandingF !;?2 8&'B P'2T9;F9!;? li#ing in the Philippines I1 F?66 &'21&%T %T2?@@6& T; 0&4;M& T,& 2&'6 M&98&, 4ocoy 4opy furnished* all

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