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bgfSF tir bra ntL. go bragLw
tir nghbjyh edkhfgL brfU, thiH gH,
fhf, f vgnjhL rikgjfhf jis ghuf,
JkhisF nkhu vW ehSF eh tsJ bfhnl
tJsJ. j bryfis jhFof mtflnk brW nkY
flth fil jl UJ JL yij mlkhd
itnjh myJ nwh milJL eLbjU F
FLgf vif fzfwJ.
Vnjh j bryfisbayh jJf kLnkjh
brwhf vW brhy tuiy. Mdh kw
rKjhajtfSF Jnghw TLj brydfis rkhf
njitahd bghUshjhu trnah myJ fl th bry
brjh mij milgjfhd tUkhdnkh, thfnsh UF.
Mdh, vJ yhjtf vd brthf? flid th,
th gy FLgf gizf bfhjoikf ntiy
brJ flid milJL fhtW fFTl tyhj
Mufzfhd, yrfzfhd, nfhofzfhd jJf
jHf kLky, ahbtF Uwhf vgij
ahuhY kWf KoahJ. bfhjoikf vW br
tUwnj mij TJ nehdh mtfbsyh jifa
kfjh vgJ bj.
Jjh vdJ rKjha RUfkhd fij. j rKjha
Niyjh eh wJ tsnj. Mfnt, t
mtyf eh bgUik mila KoahJ. j mtykhd
NiyfUJ vid khbfhs tnah, thngh
ilfhjh vgij stanyna vz bjhlnd.

g gUt y goidf

g gUtJ idf xbthUtUF gRikah

iyUfToait. mtW y vdF goidahf
mikJld.
vdJ uhkJ bjhlf g Ijh tF tiujh
UjJ. IJ tFfSF xnu Majh Ujh. wFjh
uL Maf afglhf. MdhY uL Maf
vgo IJ tFfSF ghl ell Ko. vdJ jgh xU
bjhlfg Ma. Mfnt, vid vf C g
Mug nrJ oUjhY ulh tF KoJ _wh
tF brYnghJ uL nyh l u cs xU
eLiy g nrJld. kw isf vyh Ijh
tF tiu vf uhknyna goJL Mwh tFFjh
gfJ C eLiygF tUthf. eh _wh
tFnyna nrJljh ta f isat eh
kLnk.
vdJ FLg Xus fa bgw FLgkhf Uj
nghJ xLbkhj uhkK gFj thrid glhknyna
UjJ. vf C bgatf xU aij bgUikahf
brhy nfgoUnw. mJ, jij bgah mtf vf
uhkF tJ xU Tl fyJ bfhL ngdh vgJ
jh. mJnghynt vf C bjhlfgia bgUjiyt
fhkuhr tJ wJ itjjhf xU fbtL UjJ. jij
bgah mtf tJ brw mtuJ mkhf y fU
rilnah, fU Jnlh mJ bfhld. mJju
gFj jhf Ujjhf vdh czu Koaiy.
vfsJ cwd xUt jij bgah mtf J u

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vdJ th yh...

gWjnyhL Ujh vW nfgoUnj. mtuJ

isfSbfyh uhl af jsgf bgaiuna
itUjh. Mdh mt vf bjU Uj fak
nfh rhahf Ujh. fak nfh xW
gfS, RWufhuK bfhoUfiy. VG brffis
tirahf eL itJ mjF bghL itJ, NoUghf.
Jjh fak. j nk _lgoUj bjdWjh
nfh.
vf FLg v jhjhF vdJ jijjh _j
kf. v jijF eh _j kfdhf Ujjh ehjh vf
FLg _j thR. Mfnt, eh wgjF Kng M
FHij wjh FLgnjhL gHF brW bkhilaoJ
bfhtjhf nto bfhoUjduh. vdF bga itFnghJ
Tl KUf bgauhd tRuka vgijna
itUjd. eh _wh tF goF tiu vd
fhuzjhnyh gHF bkhil nghl bryiy. gH
KUfDF neJl Koia btl TlhJ vW
brhld. jdh eh bg isfsF csJngh
l ril itUng. vdJ mkh mj rilF itJ
Lthf. jdh vid ghgtf midtUnk
lYfhf Mzh? bgzh? fhrilia fHo fhL
vbwyh l brthf. KUf fl nk g
bfhoUj v FLgd vdJ fZl gbayh
ftiygljhf bjaiy.
gfJ C gTl nrj uL nyh l
uij elJjh bry ntL. mj rhiy fUf
rhiy. ouhlU, khL to brW tjjh fUf bgaJ
fuLKulhf UF gy ehf m nkh filu effis
bgaJ bfhnth. mnghJ vyh isfS brUgJ
brtiy. xU yUF kLjh mtfsJ bgnwh brU
th jUjd. mtf ehD xUt.

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rhiy uL gffY taf be, fU,

thiH nghwit glgL gRikahf UF. nfhilTl
cSJ, gaW, gU vd g brUghf. myf vf
uhkij nrj gizah yfS Ujd.
myf ntiy brJ bfhoUnghiu nkghit
brtjfhf gizah rhiy W bfhoUgh. mt
rhiy W bfhoUF nghJ mj tna brwtf
ir tjh y w kahijfhf uL thij
ngL brthf; myJ Xukhf xJ brthf.
Mdh, jJf mgo my. mtf ir brwh
iris L w Xukhf iris cUo bfhL
bryntL. njh JL nghoUjh mij vLJ iff
itJ bfhsntL myJ mF brU bfhs
ntL. D y JL ntoia gakhf L fo
bfhtJ cL. Jnghw rjgfjh ehD gF
mtna brW bfhL Unj. dnjhW fhiy,
khiy mtna brW tUtjh mofo gizahiu
flJ nghf neL; mnghbjyh brUig fHo if vLJ
bfhLjh bry ntL.
brUig fHo if vLJ brtJ jJfSF
kLjh. taf fHo if vLJ brtiy. mnj
neu gizahnuhL ngRtjhUjh mnghJ kL mt
mU brtjF Kghf Xukhf brUig fHo LL brW
ngRt. jJf mU brtbjyh Koahjyth? mjdh
mtfis ghjlndna fHo if vLJ bfhs
ntL. gizf bjhlJ gizaoikf ngh
ntiy brj j FLgf cL. mJ nghwtfs vf
C viy ril mtnj ilahJ. bt
brtjhUjh rilia RUo JLngh njh nghL
bfhL brW C viyia jhoa jh mij mJ
bfhthf. tf ril mJ brwh gizah
fSF kahij Fiw VgL vw vzjh thW
brJ tjd.

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vdJ th yh...

eh vlh tF tiu mj eLiy g goJL

xgjh tFF mUJ IJ nyh l bjhiyYs
xU nkiy g nrnj. mJ xU K thf
Uj g. mtf mnghnj vdF yhij brhUjh
v thif vnghnjh khUF. mj gF
irjh brW tnj. fUf rhiy ir mofo
gruh nghL. gr xl ntL vwh uL nyh
l uYs gfJ CUF brwhjh Ko. mJtiu
iris cUo bfhL elJ bry ntL. j fhuzkhf
gy neuf gF jhkjkhfjh brW nrUnth.
jil gizahUF kahij bfhLgjfhf w,
brUig fHo ifbyLJ bfhL brtbjyh Fj
vriy cLgQ.
j fhuzkhf ehsil brUig fHLtij,
ir UJ wFtij ehdhfnt jJ nl. J
gizahUF cWjiy clhUf ntL. vdJ
jgh vf bjU ehlhikfhu xUtU vid
jahf miHJ fojd. Mdh, vdh mtf
foF fLgl Koaiy. vdh brUigbayh
fHo ifbyLJ bfhL bry KoahJ vW brh
nl. v rh mtf VjhtJ rkhjhd brh
rkhUghf. J eljJ eh xgjh tF goFnghJ
mj wF eh brUig fHLtij, ir w
brtij W bfhnl. mtnghJ v o
cstf vl gizahUF K gthf,
kahijahf elJ bfhs ntL vW miu
Tbfhnl Ujd. Mdh, eh mij fh th
bfhtiy. Mdh, vDl goF rf j khztf
tHf ngh jf git kahijia fhl
jtaiy. vd fhuznkh vid mjFnk
flhagLjhk Lld.
vdF xU a cWbfhnl UjJ.
gizahl T ntiy brJ iH elJgtf mtUF
ml ngh lgJ mahikdhY, mtfis ena
iH elj ntoa flhadhY vW itJ

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bfhsyh. Mdh vdJ jgh xU muR Ca. mtfis

iHF eUf ntoa mtaiy. mgo
UFnghJ V ml, xL elJ bfhs ntL. v
taJs rh Jf Tl vdJ jgh, vdJ mgh, vDila
jhjhit Tl bgaiu brhjh TLthf. ij mtf
nftykhf idfhjJ jhf rh vW mtf jfis
jhfns WikgL bfhlJjh fhuzkh? myJ fhy
fhykhf j rKjhaJ UJ tj nkyhfK,
beUfokh? vgJ nffshf vD cUth cW
bfhnlUjJ.
vdJ jgh ntiy ghF gF mofo eh
brtJL. mnf mtUl ntiy ghF rf Maf
mtiu bgaiu brhnah myJ bgaUl rh vgij
nrnjhjh miHghf. Mdh, vdJ jgh vj xU
Maiu bgaiu brh miHjJ ilahJ. f
bghUshjhuK ilJlh rh xJ rkJt ilJL
vW brhY UjthfSF Jbtyh bjkh? bjahjh
vgJ vdF rnjfkhf UwJ.
vdJ bdhU jgh muR Cajh. vf o
uL muR Caf Ujjh vf L nrfSF
mtfSl ntiy ghF kw rhfhufS tUthf.
Mdh xUtTl vf L Ukz ffnyh myJ ju
ffnyh rhLtJ ilahJ. klgf Hh VghL
bragL, rh Jfns rikafhufshf UJ
rikUjhY; mtfsJ ghit mJ xU j L
nr. vdnt rhlkhlhf. Jjh Wtiu iyik.
Vnjh bfhW mbfhWkhf khw tUfyh
mitbayh yfhfjh UF. Mdh mogil
rha flik, fLghLfS mgona fo, fhghwgL
tUwd.

ulgl jJf
vdJ g gUt elj bdhU rgtK vD
WTl gRikah gUwJ. mnghJ eh vlh tF
goJ bfhoUnj. mJ xU nfhilfhy. vfsJ ta

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vdJ th yh...

ntiyahf gU broF fis bfh bfhoUjd.

mtfnshL ehD ng bfhL W bfhoUnj. mnghJ
Obud bgU Tr, Tr tj iria U ghnj. rh
Jf bjUF jJf nrF il Uj
xU ta Wfzfhdtf W cuf rj nghL
bfhoUjd. eh mUJ rW u js ta
W bfhoUjhY xU a kL vdF J lJ.
J btW Tryy xU fytufhd Maj vW.
rh J bjU tl TL ujh nr
UjJ. Mdh uLF il neuhd rhiy ilahJ.
mUJ HF neh tJ mUJjh j uL
bjUfSFnk bry Ko. nghJ nfhilahf Ujjh
uL bjUfSF ilUj mj ta jrhf ljJ.
j TrY mnf bjj TlK Vnjh gj vgij
czaJ. mjF nkY ta W bfhoUf
Koaiy. tu tahf xnu Xlkhf nria brwilJ
nl. nr Kid Uj OfilF mU y
bgfS WtfS W ntoif ghJ bfhoUjd.
mtfnshL ehD nrJ bfhL mtfis ntoif ghf
bjhlnd. nghJ mTl Ugtf ah, ah vgJ
bjthf bjjJ. mtf midtU vf uhk cs rh
Jf. jJf ju kw midJ rhdU mTl
Ujd. xbthUt ifY rth, <o, m, RS
nghw Mjf. midtUnk btL, FJ, bfhSJ vW
fhLjdkhf f bfhL nria neh efJ
bfhoUjd.
eh taUJ Xo tj u _ xU gF u
Tl UfhJ rh Jf jf bjUUJ nria
miltjF. Mdh, eh taUJ tJ btFneukh
mtf D nrF bryhk tanyna WbfhL
UgjF vd fhuz? jJf bjUF EiHJ
jhFj eldh mtf R tisJ U jhfTL.
mgo xU Niy Vglh rh Jfsh mij jhF of

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KoahJ. jJf midtUnk ciHJ cunka clid

bfhltf, gyrhf. Mdh Jtiu rh Jf mtfis
uona moikgL itUjd. vwhtJ xUeh mtf
vf JJlh mj wF rh Jf
mlnghtij ju ntW tiy. Mdh, mtfSF
vgjF J tuhjjF fhuz cl gyky; jfsJ
iHF gizfis, gizfSF Vtyfshf
UF rh Jfisjh eUjd. mtfis
vJL iH njo ntW vF bry Ko? Jjh
mtf ml nghtjF Ka fhuz.

rilTl rhgynk rhjJ

jJf kLjh ml nghdhf viy.
gizahfSF kw rh JfS ml nghjh
Ujhf. nghJTl Wfzfhd rh Jf
MjfSl Mnuhkhf nrfis neh gilbaLJ
brwij xiw kj jLJ W bfhoUjh. mts
ngiu, mjifa fytu NiyY jahf xU kj
jLJ Wl KojJ vwh mJ mt clgyjh my.
mtuJ rh gy mJ. mt btshs dij nrj
gizah rnfhju. mt thijF fLgL mtf
jf bjUF Ug Mujd. mt jLfhk
UUjh vd elF vW f Koaiy. xW
jJf bjUF EiHJ mtf jhFj fjyh.
myJ jJf vjhFj mtfns jhfgL
btnaw glyh. vgonah mrghj xW jfglJ.
iybawh kWehisa jiy br vf C l
bgUF.
j jhFj ljh jfglnj ju jJfis
gthF eltoif bjhlJ bfhLjh UjJ. vf
C bjF gFjh tabtf Ujd. jdh,
ehf mtf bjUit jhojh tabtF bry
ntL; myJ mtfsJ bjU nkFwkhf R tu

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vdJ th yh...

tna bry ntL. mtf Kj jilahf jf bjUtna

jJf tabtF bry TlhJ vW jLJld.
mLJ j bgf tabt mWf, wFF R
bghWf jil J lhf. jbfyh Kj
jJf ahUF ntiy bfhLf TlhJ vW jil brJ
ld. jJfSF brhjkhd yf j ghr
Koahk jLJld. y jJf taf kilf
Kis itJ _o wf Koahk brJ ld. isJ w
jJf yf ytiw mtf mWtil brJ vLJ
bfhL brWld. jdJ taYF mtf bjUtna
khL tol brw j xUtiu t kJ khil mJ
L toia Fil rhJ ld. thwhf vdJ uhkJ
jJf, ngh njhfofgl v ehL moikfis ngh
mtFshfgld. itfSbfyh mogil fhuz,
vf bjUit nrj j bgk xUtiu rh J
isP xUt nfhgkhf olh. mJ nfL mbg
gljh rnfhju mj isP Lnf brW mtl
aha nff nghdJjh. mj isP mt brwnghJ
oTl iy. Mdh, rh Jf bjU j xUt
EiHJ aha nff nghdJ mJjh Kj jlit. ij
mgona Llh jJf mJ brW Lthf
vgjhnyna mtf J jhFj el myJ jhFj
elJtjhf uoahtJ ga itJl ntL vW mtf
vUf ntL. mijjh nghJ mtf bra
gL bfhoUjhf.
mtfis bghUjtiu gizah jLUfhlh
nria, jJfis xUt gUngh vW
brh bfhlhf; mgo brhbfhs th mtfSF
ilUjJ. Mdh jJfis mtf brhtJngh
bgjhf xW brUf KoahJ vw cik mtfSF
ewhf bj. jJf juY mgo xU O jhFj
eljglh mij vbfhs jah iy Ujd vgij
d bjJ bfhnl. jJf bjU vgJ _W

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l bjUfis bfhlJ. mLjLJ mikfgoUj _W

bjUfSF ilna FWF rhiyf mikfgL lL
flglJ. xU fhy murhf mj gFf
jJfSfhd L kidfis tHanghJ mthW
xGFgL bfhLUjd. Lf beUfkhf
Foirahf UjhY bjUf neuhf skhf UF.
jF mtf EiHJ jhL bt tUtJ ayhj
fha. jJf Mf mnghJ o yhlhY
bgf Ujd. mtf jfis jfhJ bfhs sfh
bghoia fiuJ mtf J RtJ mtfis JtjF f
Rygkhd t. jF mtf jahuhf Ujjhf mbgf
ngbfhlUJ eh mJ bfhnl.
mJkL bjU gy lf cilj ff bfho
ljd. mj _y uUwtfis v jhf Ko.
jF Tl y jahuhf Ujjhf mtf ng bfhoUj
nghJ eh nff nejJ. j ril jfgljh jJf
jjhfsh? rh Jf jjhfsh vgJ mtfSnf
btr.
jJf J r_f, bghUshjhu jilia mtf
Ujd. mJ, W K ehLf J mbkfh Mf
bt ehLfS F bghUshjhu jilfis ngh
mjkwjhf mahakhf Ujd. mtfSF ntiy
kWfgljh btfSF ntiy njo gy ik u elJ
bry ntoa gj. rh Jf gfJ uhkf cs
rh J uhRflK trha y cstflK brh
ntiy bfhLf TlhJ vW jLJ tjd. Mdh mtf
mijbayh bghUgLjiy. fhuz mgF vf
uhkjh jJf vif mfkhUjJ. kw
uhkfbyyh jJf Fiwthdtfns Ujjh
trha ntiyfSF Mf gwhFiw mofo VgL.
mnghbjyh vf uhkJF ntiyahf miHf
tUthf. nghJ cq ntiy yhjij gagL

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vdJ th yh...

ntiyahf gwhFiwia ngh bfhs mtf ntiy

bfhLjdnu ju jJf Js frdjhnyh, rh
Jf nkhrkhdtf mtf brhtij nff TlhJ vw
vznyh my.
btUF brW ntiy brJ L tUtJ vgJ
vnyhuhY ayhj fha. nkY btf cq
MfSF nghf Mf gwhFiwahd ehfSF kLjh
ntiy ilF. vdnt gr bjhljJ. tWik y
jfsJ cwd LfSF brW jrkilJ ld. y
oUj mlh, Flh nghw ghufis,
eiffis mlF itJ tW gia J bfhld.
jil uL uhk mLJs ntbwhU uhk xU rh
J muath Ujh. mgF kfSF, Fghf rh
JfSF mtjh tfho nghy braglh. f eyt
ngh jid fho bfhS mt cSF rh btia C
mizahk fhJ tjt. mtl brW gbdL _il
beiy fldhf th tJ mij xU FLgJF _W kufh
j J bfhLjd. _W kufh beiy mahdh
IJ nyhF Fiwthd mjh ilF. mij itJ
vjid ehisF tW gia ngh bfhs Ko? g,
grK jhltkhoaJ. ij gagL bfhl rh Jf
f ukUj y jJfis miHJ mtf brhY
vyh gjidfis VW bfhs ntL vW brh
mtfl btW jh ifbaGj th bfhL ntiy
bfhLjhf.
go btW jh ifbaGJ nghL bfhLJL
ntiyF nrjtfl mtf brhd Kakhd uL
gjidf 1. mtf jf bjUYs kw jJfnshL
mtf vts beUa cwduhf UjhY ngrTlhJ. 2.
jJf jf bjU rh Jfis g vd
ngbfhwhf. vd eltoiff <LgLwhf
vgijbayh cs ghJ brW brhy ntL.
tWikF gaj jJf mtfl Rthrkhf,
brhdgona elJ bfhlhf.

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itfSbfyh vuhf mkf vd bra Ko?

jbfyh fhuzkhd urid rh JfSF vuhf
rlgoahd eltoif vLfgL mtfS jofglhf.
Mdh urid jJf milj bfhLikfnshL
xL nghJ rh JfSF bgjhf xW jlid ilJ
liy. bfhr bghUshjhu H, njhfofgnlh vw
kd cisr tsjh mtf milj jlid. vf
uhk WTl rha xLFKiwf elJ bfhLjh
UwJ. mnj neu bfhr khw tJsij kWf
KoahJ. Kngh trha T ntiyfis kL e
yhk isPfS, sbgfS btfSF brW
ntiy brw iy tJlJ. j fhuzkhf mtf
Rakhf, btyf bjJ bfhl Xus ehffkhf
elJ bfhs gH bfhLsd. efu bjhldh
mtfl khwfis bfhL tUjhY D mtf
nkrh - rh vW uL thf Ug vj khwK
iy. Kbgyh jJfis y bry flha
gLatf nghJ mtfshfnt y brW Lwd.
ju xwhf VWbfhlJ ilahJ.

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vdJ th yh...

jJtfS mt jLkhwfS
fr : rkJtK, rhaK
vdJ g gUtJ eg mt. mtdJ jij xU
bghJilik af mgF jiytuhf Ujh.
mtl Maf mtdJ jijia g rhgJL.
mtiu ehD y jlitf ghUnw. njh t JL
nghL bfhL jh xU f vgij btgL
bfhth.
frij g bjJ bfhs ntL vW
idjnghJ mj egl vdF fr rkjkhf
jffis jUgo nfnl. mtD vdF nrha ehL
nghw y jffis gof bfhLjh. uZa uia g
bjJ bfhs mit vdF cjd. mJ nrha F
Kija fhyfl. vdF fr gh bgU < UjJ.
mtfsJ u ga tuyhW brfis goFnghJ ugh
UF. Mdh, W mj u < vl iy.
fhuz gy Ujd. m xW vdF bghJilik
jffis gof bfhLj mj eg tl jHf ugykhd
xU rh rf khy Jiz jiyt. kjf FwKilaJ
vW, midtU rkkhdtf jh vW nkil nghL
KHa xU bghJilikth kf rh rf jiyt.
mgo Ujh vd jtW vW nff njhW. xU rh
wj xUt jdJ rh Kndwfhf ghLgLtJ xW
jtiyjh. vyh rh rffSnk jf rhf
Kndwfhf ghLgLtjhf jh brh bfhwd.
Mdh, nkbrhd mj rhrfij nrjtf xU nfh
UHh jJfSF mtfSF il Vgl W
th rilia rhfhf itJ jJf gFF EiHJ
L FJ jh mtfis fhagLsd. jhfgl

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jJfS xU j afij nrjtfjh. jhatf,

jhfgltf uL aff jiytfS mofo xnu
nkil njh jhfbsyh jHf vW bjh bfho
cwbtW T sfhj miljtf.
xU bghJilikth kf rh rf jiytuhf
UJ bfhL jJf J rha tbfhLikia
flJ L jhFj elJtij mtfns jHf vW
nkil bgUik ngL LF tjl ria brh
rilL bfhtij jahf Fiw brhy KoahJ. mJ
mtf jJtf jLkhw vWjh brhy ntl.
eilKiwF cjthj tuL jJtf ah thjF
gagLnk ju thifF gaglhJ. gidJ tanyna
bghJilik jffis gojj isthf vdF r_f
mfiw, r_f afis g mJ bfhS MtK
VgoUjJ. iy j af Kndhof gyU tJ
Tlf r_f uridfis ngRw msF KaJt
bgUjJ vf gF. mjF Ka fhuz T.M. k mtf
mgF gy uhkf aff mikJ r_f mlF
KiwF vuhd gy nghuhlfis el bfhoUjJjh.
aghfnt itf gf eh <fgnl. r_f
cz vgJ rha mkhdkhfnt bgUghY UJ tjJ.
gy ffis nrjtfshfUjhY jJfis bghUj
tiu r_f afJl neilahfnth kiwKfkhfnth bjhl
itUjd. Jnghw r_f aff gbfLJ bfhtJ
mj fhyfl isPfSF jf Koahj xwhUjJ.
vdJ UgJ ta eh nkil ngRw msF
tUnj. Jnghw Tlf r_f mtyfis, mlF
Kiwfis kfSF vLJ brh W mngf,
bgah nghw jiytf g, mtfsJ fUJfis
urhu brnth. jfhf mj jiytf g, mtfsJ
nghuhlf g r_f mwhl ff g bjJ
bfhs ntoa mta VglJ. itjh rha
mkhdUJ r_f czF vid W y
isPfis L brwJ. mJtiu fr jhjfis
goJL uZah, dhit ngh ahY xU u
eilbgW vd mj wF vnyhU rkJtkhf

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vdJ th yh...

rnfhjuJtJlD thHyh vw vdJ fd fiyjJ,

ajhjkhd r_f uridf gbfLJ bfhnlh.
jF Ljyhf mikjJ lhl mngf mtf
r_f u ga fUJ. mt brhdh ahit
bghUjtiu r_f ujh mta. mJ yhk ntW vj
xU u btaila KoahJ. mgo btailjhY mj
bt iyahd btahf Uf KoahJ. mj bt
iyahdjhf Uf ntL vwhTl mjF r_f u
mta.
1954 bg jiyef fhkL ef eilbgw cyf
jkj kheho fyJ bfhs brw l fUij bjj
lhl mngf bdhiw bjthf brhdh. mogil
khwfis
bfhL
tuhk
uZah
bt
ailJs bghUshjhu u iyfhJ. uZah xU eh
fr G. mt brhdJ 37 MLfSF wF eljJ.
M, uZah fr jJ. Ugjh who
Jtf cyif cYa xU ru rgt 1917 elJ Koj
uZa ujh. mj wF 1949 eilbgw d u
nghwit ru fthf g braglhY mj
who W 1991 fj nrha mj
who f bgU ru rgtkhf l oJ ld. a
ff mngf brhdij myagL ld.
Mdh, mtfsJ jJt _ytuhf fUjgL fh kh
fUJfis Tl mgojh myakhf vLJ bfhld.
ah oh M vw jdJ fLiu x
fh kh Tdh, Mah r_f th X mogilahd
u Vglhk kjFy jdJ thif yaij iwntw
Kokh vgnj Fs nf. J KoahJ vwh ah
yhJ j Fw braf vJthD, mJ mj uia
rg jid mahknyna tuyh fUahf
bragoUwJ vgJ z.*
nrha F nkbrhd fUJF vd bjhl
Uf Ko vW nff njhWwjh? uZah mua khw
eilbgwjF nrha ujkuhUj ifp nfhgnr
* kh - Vbf bjhF f - bjhF 3

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bfhL tj a #dehaf jJt kL fhuzky; mj

d nrha xa cW ehLfshUj gy Ma
ehLf jfis mj xaUJ y bfhlJ xU
fhuz. mitbayh bgUghY K ehLf vgJ,
Mfh nrha uhQt brj m^afS itfSF
fhuz vgij kWf KoahJ.
bghJthf ff bghUshjhu afSF bfhLj
KaJtij r_f afSF bfhLfiy. J nrha
xa gy gjf kW ghJfhfhf jfis cW
ehLfshf M bfhoUj gy Ma-K ehLfis
mitfUJ btnaw brJld. jfSF kj
eifiy vgij mtf mF bghJkf k
J tjd. Mdh, ah iyik ntW. F
ff kj o fLL ljd; W
lwd. fhLf MjfnshL miyJ j u
ff Tl ah Vwjhf iwj r_f
thifF J kjjh fhuz vgij czu kWjd.
yha khf uZa ffSF vuhdjhf
bjjnghJ, ah J kj mtfSF clghlhf
njhaj csj cik ekF aghfjh
UwJ. mJ fh kh Jg bjthf Ta D
btjdkhd, Fnah benah yhj ehrfhu rf njh
Jjhd bfhiy braiy xU rka rlfhf khd
vgij eh kwJ l TlhJ. j a rKjhaf rh
ntWghLfshY, moik KiwahY FiwgoUjd vgij,
mit kj w ff rt cikahsdhf
caJtjF g, w ffSF mtid MgLd
vgij, Rakhf tsJ tj rKjha iyia vWnk khwhj
aif ahf cUkhw brjd. thwhf aifia
kj FL tzF bfhLikia isjd vgij,
aif kddhd kjid Fufhd ADkh KD
gRthd rhghy KD bjlL Jgho tzFgo brJ
mj jikia btgL bfhlJ vgij eh
kwJl TlhJ.
nrha F wF fr Tlhufis fh brJ
L btnaa ff milfy FtjF ilj
ljh mngf[. nfTl mtf KGikahf

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vdJ th yh...

mngfiu VW bfhshk m Ujthahf bragl

bjhld. mj Ujthf bdhU fljh j
nja. iwF j nja g cuf Fu bfhLF gy
fr TlhufUjtf vgij id bfhs
ntL. mtfjh jHf nja d vW j nja
nghuhl jHfSfhd nja dnghuhl vW T
tUwd. nja d vgJ njr vgJ flikfgl
fUJf jhnda ntiy. (J g rhaUJ
rnfhjuJt tiu vw tukhf TUnw.)

jnja xU jLjjnk
vdF kyhLJiw xU eg Ujh. tHfPuhd
mtnuhL r_f ahd bjhl vdUjJ. mt jjhf
UjhY bghJilik kW j nja <LghL
cst. u JJt afij nrj isPTl mtl
beUa bjhl Ujh. gyuJ bjhlnghL UgJ
bgUikFa akhf mt fUUfyh.
mt vid xU muf TlF miHJ brwh. mJ
vd Tl vW vdF bjahJ. UjhY mt
tWj ng ehD m fyJ bfhs brnw. mJ
xU jnja Tl vW nghd wFjh bjjJ. mJtiu
jnjathf Tlf eh fyJ bfhliy.
mj HhF jiyik tjt m ugykhd xU
tHfP. gl r_fij nrj mt uhl af
jidY gFj affY bjhlilat. j
nja g f cathd sffisbayh mt
ngdh. vJ vdF Vilajhf njhwiy. mj
Tl w miHghsuhf tUjt mFs fbgw
f x jJiw nguha. wj ngrhsuhf
maglt. btehLfY brW ng tjt. Mdh
mtiu g vdF Vilajhf vj fUJiy. Vbd
jF Kd kyhLJiwF mU cs xU uhk VghL
bra goUj lhl mngf mtf wjeh Hh
bghJTl x fyJ bfhs brwnghJ vid ngr
itJld. mj Hh nga gyU mngf
goig; gjia, bgUikfis ng bfhoUjhfns
ju mkfSF mt vLJ brhd r_f Ljiyfhd
fUJfis ahU brhyntiy. mij Rofho,

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mngf bgUikfisl mt fUJfns mkfSF

njit vW ngnd. Vbd mngf g mkfSF
Xus bjJjh UjJ. mtiu bjj msF mtuJ
fUJf mtfSF bjahkUjJ.
vdJ ngR w Uduhf miHfgoUj mj
nguhaUF rflij cUthUf ntL. Vbd
mtUF mngfiu g nknyhlkhfjh bj. mtU
mngf goig bgUikfis gna ngdh.
j j nja TlF mtjh w miHghs
vgjh vdF bga vghngh myJ <Lghnlh vJ
yhk mtf ngir ntlh btWghf nfL
bfhoUnj. mnghJ xUt JL fhjfis
TlUjtfl nahjh. midtU MSbfhW
bgW bfhnlh. Hh jiytuhd mj tHfP vGJ
j Tl ngrgL afis g jfSila
fUJfis, rnjffis, nffis Tl vG
bfhLjh mjfhd giy, sfij nkilnyna
mngh vW Tdh. ehD vdJ nfia mtf bfhLj
JL fhj vG mtfl bfhLnj. vnyhUila
fUJfSF nffgl nffSF g mj mj Hh
jiyt vdJ nfia goJ ghJL mij nkil
Uj ntW xUtl fhf mt mj Hh w
Uduhf Uj nguhal bfhLf mtU mj nfia
goJ ghJL nkil mkUj mtfSFnsna
ng bfhld. xU tahf Hh jiyt vGJ, xU rnfhju
j nfia nfoUwh. mj nffhd giy ekJ w
Ud jdJ ciunghJ mgh vW mjh.
mgo xW g brhy Koahj nfia eh
nffiy. vdJ nf Jjh. xnu bkhia ngRw
ehbkyh xnu dij nrjtf vW brh, yif
nghuhLw Ljiy fSF Mju ju ntL
vf. Mdh cf Cnyna thGw, jiH kLnk
ngrToa jHfsha jJfis CUF w xJ
itJ mtfis bjhlh L vW brh mtf J vyh
bfhLikfis brJL, mij gbayh ftiyglhk,
fofhk yif jHfis g kLnk ngRfns
jJf jHf iyah? jJf bfhLikgLnghJ

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vdJ th yh...

mikahUJL nghJ ehbkyh xnu d vW

brhtJ vd aha?
Hh jiytuha tHfP vdF Kng bjjt.
mtuh vdJ nfF g brhy KoahJ vW vdF ewhf
bj. Mdh, Hh w miHghsuha nguha vd
brhy nghwh vW vghUnj. Mdh, mt v
vghid bghahFw xU tGfyhd giy brh
eG bfhlh. mt brhd g, ehf rh kj
ghgiy, lhik vgij tikahf foJ tUnwh.
vfis bghUjtiu jHf vyhU xnu djh,
mtf cajtf jhjtf vgbjyh iy mt
brhd j g bfhrTl cikiy.
jeho gy gFf bgU fytufS jJf J
jhFjfS elJ tJsd. FrhFs, bfhoaFs,
Gu, Crid, beiy, nj go gy fytufis
brh bfhnl nghfyh. itfbyyh gy jJf
gLbfhiy braglhf. gy j bgf fgfgld. gy
W jJf Foirf bfhSjgld. gif kW
Clff _ykhf bttj tbfhLik jhFjf xU
yjh itbayh. D bttuhj bfhLikf xbthU
uhkY ehnjhW elJ bfhLjh Uwd. Mdh
xUKiwTl bgausFTl tf fojJ ilahJ. y
neuf j affns fld Tlf elJnghJ
mtfis miHjh mtf vnghjhtJ tJ mj Tlf
ngL nghthf; mtsjh. mtfsh jJf jhd
lhik bfhLikfis, jhFjfis jLgjF
ntlh, fogjF Tl KtuhjjF fhuz, mij
brgtf midtU mtfsJ cwdf.
j njathahf UjhY, bghJilikthahf
UjhY D w Uj affis nrjtfshf
UjhY mtfbsyh jJfSfhf jfsJ brhj,
gjfis gifJ bfhs jahuhf Ugiy. khwhf
mtfSF rhjfkhf, jJfSF vuhfnk Ughf.
Mdh mij btgilahf fho bfhtiy.
j j nja HhF jiyiknaUj mj
ugykhd tHfP kyhLJiwF mUYs xU uhkij
fkhf bfhlt. y MLfSF K mYs xU

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gLjgl tFig nrj bg j isPid fhj

Ukz brJ bfhlh. mj isP mbg
FLgJF Fiwahj trst. gljhahf Ujh.
yyfnshL trahd thif UjhY btehoY
brW ntiy ghJ UUjh. mj igaid mtf
uhfgjF vj fhuzK iy; rh xiw ju, xU
rh isPDF jf bgiz foju gLjgl
rhduha mtf jahuhf iy. mtfsJ fhj tfhu
bt bja Mujl mbgiz LFnsna o
itJld. Mdh mj bg mj fLghLf, fht
vyhtiw ilL tJ lh. egf
cjl g UkzK elJ KoJ lJ.
bg lhUF rhbt jiynfaJ. gj tU vW
vghj fhj n#hod bjhiyuJF brW
jiykiwth ld. mj rhbt Fg nfhgF
yfhdtf mj j isP egfjh.
mtfjhnd mj UkzF clijbaW mtf J
bgh fh bfhLJ, Kiwahf rhf yrK bfhLJ
nghjhbjW jkJ brthif gagL mj isPfis
fht iya itJ fLikahf utij brJsd. j
utijfis mDgjtf y vdF egf
vgjh vdh mtf clfhafis kLky cs
fhafis bjthf J bfhs KojJ.
ijbayh brtjF Ka fhuzkhf Ujtjh
j j nja TlF jiyik tJ bfhoUj
Rakahij Rl, jkhd jH vbwyh bgUikgL
bfhS tHfP. mt mz kfjh j
isPid Ukz brJ bfhl sbg. nghJ
brhYf tf nkil ngRtij VkhWntiy vW
brhyhk vgo brhtJ?
t kLky, vyh UjthfS gojh.
nkil bfhif ngL LF brYnghJ jh nga
bfhiffisbayh brUignghy LF btnyna
fHo nghLLjh nghthf. jdhjh lhl mngf
brhdh, a UjthfS, uahsfS
VkhWfhuf vW. mjF tU xU cjhuz.

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gh w ghuj fijghL

rhf Koahj r_f nghuhlf

jJf tYflhakhf J kjJF GJ
bfhsglhY, Wtiu J vD r_f flikF
btjh mtf W itfgLsd. JfSF
gyrhf UjhY mtf jj r_ffshf UjhY,
J nfhf mtf mj flfis tzFtjF
jiliy. Mdh, jJf iy mthwy. mtf J
J vw Kiu FjgoUjhYTl mtf kw
JfnshL fyJ gHf KoahJ. thlf Kj tghL
jsf tiu vyhnk jjjh.

J nfhfS jJfS
J nfhf Jfshfgl jJf
EiHtjfhd nghuhlf beLfhykhf elJ tUwJ. Mdh
it btailaiy. btaila KoahJ. Vbd
J kjnk rhf nkjh flikfgoUwJ. rha
mfgL rkJt ilJlh mj J vD kjnk
jhdhfnt mJ nghL. mjdhjh rYiffis bfhLJ
mtfis miynyna jf itUwd. mij
jJf Jkjij L btnaWnghJ murhfnk
mkfis njo tJ, cfSF vd cjf, rYiff
ntLkhdhY brJ jUnwh, f kj khW Kaia
ifLf vW bfRwd. kjkhw vgJ xbthU
FokfDF cs rlgoahd cik. mij jLgjF vj
rlY l yhjnghJTl rlF vuhf murhfnk,
mu mfhfns go elJ bfhtUJ j muR,
mfhfS a mua rlijl JJt kDjk
rlijna ewd; eilKiwgLj Uwd
vgij bjthf J bfhsyh.

lhikF rha tbfhLikF vuhd gy rlf

ekJ eho mk UJTl W mbfhLikf JJ
totf eilKiwgLjgLtjF nkbrhd fhuzfns
mogil. j mogiljh brhynghF
afis vLJ bfhs ntL. vf uhk
gizahsfshf Uj btshsfSbfW xU isah
nfh UwJ. rh Jf bgUghikduhd
tafSbfW busg mk nfh xW csJ.
j busg kfhghuj fij tU ghrh. j ghrh
ghlt ItUF kidahf mah gahf
Ujjhf vf C kf fij brhthf. vf C gy
KatfSF kfhghuj fij KGtJ kdghlkhf bj vd
nfgoUnw. fhuz ehfhLfSF xUKiw
mnfh ghujfijia ghftj tJ gfthaJl nkil
nghL brhYth. mJ xU khj bjhlJ elF. xU khjK
kf FLgnjhL brW u KGtJ fij nfL tUthf.
j fij nfgjfhf vf CUF btfUJ
cwdfS tJ jUJ fij nfL brt. J iu
khj eilbgW.
rh Jfshd taf jf bjU cs
nfhYF mUnyna nkil mikUghf. nkilF mU
mtf gyifnah, fW fonyh nghL mkJ bfhL fij
nfghf. Mdh, jJfSF mF mDkiy. mtf
nfhYF u cs taY tuY cfhJjh fij
nff Ko. nfh tshfD EiHJlhk Ugjfhf
nfhiy R fW fo itUghf. UHh ehf
kLky kw ehfY Tl ehf nfhiy xoa gFFTl
bry KoahJ.
nfhYF Knd f gafukhf cUt f
bgajhf xU jiyia kL iyahf mikJ
itUjd. mij ghJ eh gaJngh v
oYstfl brhY nghbjyh v gaij
nghFtjfhf mJ rh vW mij ghJ gaglTlhJ vW

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vdJ th yh...

ga tjh FLL bfhr ia m bfhlh

ga rahLbkW brhthf. ehfjh mj iyF
mUTl bry Koahnj wF vgo FLtJ. mjF
jJfl xU cgha UjJ. eh vF W ghnwhnkh
mnfna W myJ jiu GJ tzL ml
cs kizbaLJ be bfhtJ. gojh mj
iyia ehf tzf Ko. ehD mofo vdJ W ta
mgo tzUnw. fhuz mj iy njhw
WtdhUj vid mjsF gaKWUjJ.
mJ muth iy. ghltfSF bfsutfSF
ghuj ngh bjhlFK ghltf jf gf bt ilf
ntL vgjfhf xU g bfhLf ntL vW KobtLJ,
vj ciu g bfhLgJ vW nahJ bfhoUFnghJ
mRdDF ghrhF kfdhd muth vgtid g
bfhLgbjW Kothdjh. mj Koit mj muth, vid
g bfhLgij g vdF ftiyiy. Mdh eh
thif vj Rfij, Fghf bg Rfij
mDgfiyna vW Vdhdh. clnd mF Uj
UZz, Rf mDgf ntL vgJjh cdJ
Fiwbawh mij eh t brnw vW brh jhnd
bg cUt bfhL muth fhkntifia jjhdh.
muthDF kidahf xU M bgzhf khajh
mbgQF muth vW bgaL lhf. Kjeh
fztdhf Uj muth kWeh ghujngh g bfhLf
gljh muth jitah it bghil Hjhdh.
ijjh Gu khtl Tthf Tjhlt nfh
muthf f kirahf bfhlho tUwd. j gdhW
taJ muth iy vf C W gafu njhwJl
jh mnj l UwJ. Mdh bghGJ vj WtfS
mij fL gagLtjhf bjaiy.
ehD vid nghw isPfS bfhr f
bjhlUj neu mJ. 1990M ML Vu khj ghuj
fijia brhtjF VghL bragL, gj nghlgL, ghuj
brhy ghftjU tJlh. C KGf ghuj fij gna
ngR bjhllJ. iy jJfis nfhYF

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mUTl lhk mtkhdgLJtij jLf ntL vd Ko

brnjh. ghuj fij nff nghfntlh vW jLjh ahU
nff nghtiy. rh JfSF vuhf Unwh vw
bfl bga kLjh R. Mfnt ntW jkhf ij
brtjW Ko brnjh.
Vu 14 nj j tUl w mWjh nfh Hh
bjhlF. lhl mngf mtfSF mWjh wjeh.
Mfnt lhl mngf mtf wjehis vf
bjUnyna wghf elJtJ vd Ko brJ, nehO mroJ
gzK tN brnjh. Xus gzK nrUjJ. ehifJ
ngf nrJ bghJ TlF VghL brJnlh. Tl
KojJ g, khzt, khza fiyff eilbgW
vd mJ Unjh. Hh wghf elJ KojJ. vdF
egfshUj y f khztfS vf gFUJ
goJ, gl bgW muR g Uj y j njhHfS
fyJ bfhL vfSF xJiH ed. w
miHghsuhf T.M. k mtf fyJ bfhlh. midtU
ng Koj Wt, WafSfhd fiy ff
eilbgwd. vf bjUnt UHhnfhy fh jjJ.
jf L Wt Waf fiy ffis fhgjF
mtfsJ bgnwhU cwdfS ntoif ghf tUjJ
Tl btbgw cjaJ. fiy ff fyJ
bfhltfSF gRfis bfhLJ KogjF euit
jhoaJ. mJtiuY kf UJ ghJ
bfhoUjd.
jil ghuj fij ghL ghlgL bfhoUjJ.
ghftj ukgL ghLgho mjF sfkhf fij brh
bfhoUjh. Mdh, vnghJngh Tl Tlkhf, FLg
FLgkhf fijnff brY j kf Kiw ahUnk
nghfiy. jdh mt ghnyna ghuj fijia Kof
ntoajh nghW. mF ahU nghf TlhJ vw lnjhL
jh ehfS mnj eh f VghL brUnjh. vfSF
bt. mtf MlhLfshf eltj fjhfyhnrg
njh KojJ. mj wF y MLf vf bjU
bjhlJ Hh bfhlhondh. mj mtf ghuj fij
brhY fia KGtJkhf Wlhf.

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vdJ th yh...

Hh nkil mtf,
ntoif ghf kLnk ehf
ijnghynt uL uhk js kbwhU uhkY
xU tHf UJ tjJ. muhk mgF ugykhd
_j muath xUt Ujh. mtjh muhkF
kL vf gF cs rh Jf midtUF
mua FU nghwt. vj fahf UjhY urid vwh
mtljh Mnyhrid nfgJ mtfSF tHfkhUjJ.
mj C cs jJf Tl fzt kid
rilahUjhY mtljh Jbfhthf. mjsF
brthFst. mtl rh mkhd f mf. Mdh
mijbayh mt btgilahf fhobfhtJ ilahJ.
mt Vghogo m cs muR bjhlfg
xbthU ML bghf mW bghf Hh eljgLtJ
tHf. Hh Rkh ehgjhLfSF nkyhf
eljgLtjhf brhyglJ. midJ fia nrjtfS,
rlkw, ghuhSkw cWdfUJ Cuh kw
jiytf tiu m fyJ bfhthf. HhF
nkbrhd muathjh jiyik tgh. Hh nehO
mrofgL nahfgL. m ehgjhL fhykhf xU
j bgaTl l bgwJ ilahJ. mJnghynt jJf
xUtiuTl nkil gf lJ ilahJ.
jJfis bghUjtiu FLgnjhL ngh nkilK
cfhJ Hh Ko tiu ntoif ghJL tuntL.
muhk goJ bfhoUj isPf Jg
tUjnjhL brh bfhoUjd. ehf mnghJ vf
gF ugy j jiytuhd T.M. k mtfsJ jiyik
a bfhoUj j yf af izJ
ukhf bragL bfhoUnjh. mnjhL isPfshf
Ujjh vijahtJ bra ntL vw Jo vfl
UJ tjJ.
j ML nr bghf Hh elJtJ vd Ko brJ
nehO mroJ nahf brnjh. bga
jiytfisnah ngrhsfisnah ahiu miHfiy.
Hh VghoUJ w Ud tiu ehfnsjh.

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khiy Hh MujJ. rKjhaij g rh

bfhLikf g ehfns ciuahndh. mW
ijbghf, vnyhU oUjjh TlF
Fiwiy. Hh MuF Kng gfnyna isahL
nghof elJ KoUjd. Hh uhkJ bgatfis
nkil cfhu itJ mtfis bfsutgLUnjh.
mtfjh Kiy. Jtiu nkilF K jiu
cfhJ ntoif ghnj gH nghd mtfSF nkil
mkjJ a mDgtkhf UUf ntL. rnjh Kf
bjjJ. nghJ nghof bt bgw Wt, WaUF
d d gRfis tHf VghL brUnjh. mij C
bgatf iffdhnyna tH mtfis, Wt
Wafis k isf brnjh.
Hh KoJ y ehf tiu mij gna ng
bfhoUjd. mtfis bghUjtiu Jjh mtfSF
Kj bghf UHh. j k rh Jf bjU
cs gTl eilbgw bghf Hhit kwnj ld
kf. mHhit ntoif ghf ghitahs gF
ahUnk yhk nkil kL jiytf mkJ Tl
tU vW bfhr neu fhUUwd. wF ah
_ykhfnth nr bghf Hh eilbgW bfhoUwJ,
vnyhU m fyJ bfhoUgjh ahU tukhlhf
vW bjJ bfhl, Hhit bjhlfhknyna WL
fiyJ brW ld. f mj _j muathF
f mtkhdkhf nghlJ. j jhf bghf LKiw
KoJ g wj Kjehns bjJlJ. mj g rh
Jf bjU UjhY m goF midJ
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itUjd.
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bghf HhF tuhj isf vyh jf bgnwhiu
miHJ bfhL tjhjh g mDkfgLthf
vW jiyikaha _y brhy itJ, isfis

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bayh bgnwhiu miHJ tu U mD lh. j br

mjl Hh ela isPf bfhbjGJlhf. J
vgo aha? bghf mW vyh gfSF muR LKiw
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Hhthf eljgoUjh, vf nrUJ ahuhtJ uL
ng bgaiu mj nehO nghoUf ntLkyth? mj
nkil vnghjhtJ ahuhtJ xU jijahtJ cfhu
brhUwhfsh? wF V ehf mjF tuntL vgd
nghw nffis mj jiyikahal nff, mtnuh
vJ brhy Koaiy. Mdh, mj muath mij
gbayh ftiyglhk mj isPfis Vftrd o
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vW fUwh.
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vflnk ngRf vW mtfl thFthj
brUwd. isPfl ngdh kahij ilfhJ
vW mtf vJ ngrhk mDld. j isPf
L Ua, g jiyikaha _y mj isPf
J mtf g tJ jfuhW brjjhf fhtiya bgh
fh xiw bfhLf itJ lh mj muath.
urid nghJ fhtiyaF brWlJ. mtf
rh jiyik Maiu kL mD itJL fht
iya mtf ngh _y bjhl bfhL mj isPf
J eltoif vLFkhW flhagLsd. fht
iyaF brw j isPf jf ju ahaij
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Ma fHf jiytuhf jdJ isia mgnf mDghk
bt nrJ gof itUF xU rh Jit
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ilahJ. nehO bga nghlJ ilahJ. vyhtWF

nkyhf aha nff brw vf nj bgh fh
mJshf. Mfnt, nk mg vf isfis
gof mDtiy vW Ko brJnlh vW
brhdnjhL ijna khtl M jiyt, khtl f
mYty MnahUF j _y bjJ ld.
nghJ iyik ntWjkhf MlJ. jJfis
ulyh vW fh bfhLjtf, khtl Ma
beUfo fhuzkhf mtfis rkhjhdgLJ iyF
jsgLld. g _lgLlJ xLbkhj isfS
gF nghfhjJ urid gjkh tlha nr kfis
rJ bfr MuJ lh. isPf nghJ
ijakhf, crhfkhf ngr bjhl ld. jbfyh
fhuzkhd mj _j muath nghJ vJ bra
Koahk bksdkhlh.
g jiyikaha fhiu thg bgW bfhlJl
nk mj g bghf Hhnt eljkhnl vW
mHhj Fiwahf fhtJiw vG bfhLJL vgoahtJ
isfis gF mDf vW bf bfhoUjh. J
g mtnghJ khtl MaU, f mfhfS
fhtJiwF bjhiyng bjhl bfhL uridia
KoF bfhL tUkhW nfLbfhlJl tlhaU mofo
tJ bfhoUjh.
xUtahf jJf nghJ FHijfis gF
mDg xJ bfhlj _y urid KoF tjJ. mj
jiyik Ma bghGbjyh j isPfis ghjhny
ganjhL ghf Mujh. thwhf ehgjhL fhykhf
eljgL tj bghf Hh WjgL lJ.
go dd af vfSF ilj
btia vfsh ujukhf Kotiy. fhuz vnghJnk
tWikia thifahf bfhl vkfSF brhj fh
fToa bghUshjhu gynkh, RarhnghL bghUis rghJ
bfhS tnah iy. itbayh milfgL btF
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cikfisna mkfSF brh bfhoUjhY
vnghJ mij nfL bfhnlUfkhlhf. mnj neu
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bgnwh, Ma fHf jiytuhf tUtjnfh Koaiy.
Mfntjh ijbayh bt vW brhy KoahJ.
rkJtij juhj, rnfhjuJtij cUthfhj itfis
vyh rhfhj, rhf Koahj rKjha nghuhlfsh vd
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fy Ukzf btW fJilng

fy Ukzf vgJ fbga r_f ungh
ugygLjgL, r_f UjthfS, r_fijna
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bfhlnjhL yhk fy Ukzf bra
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kWig yakhf TbfhoUj uhl af MF
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tjnjhL, mj bjhlahf fy Ukzf
brwtfSF muR cj bjhif tHf KtjJ.
itbayh rha fy Ukz brJ bfhwtfis
CfgL mj _y r_f Vwjhfis rkiygL
lyh vd mtf vaj isjh.
mitfbsyh vjsF eilKiw bt
ailUwd? fy Ukzf brJ bfhltf
thRf vjifa r_f mjij bgUwhf? myJ bgw
KojJ vgijbayh fzbyLJ bfhlhjh
jfhd giy rahf brhy Ko.

fy Ukz fh Kj
fUzh FLg tiu
Kj ah f ugykhd uL FLgf
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UF uhkz Fyjtuha uh#h vdgL
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TlhJ?
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milahsij L bfhLfhkY UJ tUtij ehl.
fhuz, mtf JJt ghgd milahsij Llh
rha r_f mtf brthif Hf neL vgjhnyna.
mFkLky, jehoTl uhl af _j
jiytf xUtuhd fiyP fUzh ehlh dij
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j dij nrjtiu Ukz brJ bfhlij
mtuJ kUkf Kwbrhkhw A.N.fahz Rju ma
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Ukzf VgLjiy.

fy Ukzf rhjiday, nrhjidna

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bghJilik aff jiykiw affshf bragL
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j bgf ta Mfis rh kW Ukz brJ
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vdbtgij cW nehanghJ jh ekF cik
saJ. mj cik VkhwkfToa cikahf
UjJ. cjhuzF xU ytiw nf jUnwh.

fy Ukz - 1
nkbrhd bghJilik af Ka cWd
mt; ta dij nrjt. j bg xUtiu

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Ukz brJ bfhlh. Mdh, mt jJf tF

nrF FotJlh. Vbd taf mtiu VW
bfhlhY lglhj mt kidia VW bfhs
khlhf myth? mjdhjh. tafshd mtfsJ uj
cwdf Kj uJ cwdf tiu mtiu mtuJ
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mt jdJ kid FHijfnshL jf cwd LfSF
brW tu Koahj iyjh mt wF tiu Ujh.
mJkLky mtuJ isfSFTl jdJ kid rhahd
jJf UJjh Ukz brJ itf KojJ.

fy Ukz - 2
tiu nghy nj af tnuhL fsgaha
bdhU ta isP. tU j bgk xUtiu
Ukz brJ bfhlh. Kdtiunghy t jJf
gF FoUfiy. khwhf jJfSF
tafSF bghJthd Kf mfkhf tF
gFbah FoakJlh. j _y mt eh
jJf UJ yjh Unw vgij kiwKfkhf
cz bfhlhY mtiu mtuJ r_f KGikahf
mffiy vgnj cik.

fy Ukz - 3
kyhLJiw gFia nrj gFjthahd mt xU
muR Ca. muR Cauhf UjhY Rakahijfhuuhf
UjhY mt xU jhjglt. lglhj rhia
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kfglntL vW vdh. is ta d
xU bgiz fhjJ UkzK brJ bfhL, uL
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mtfSF Ukz brJ itf Ko vgJ bjj a
jh. Mdh, mt Ukz brJbfhl mbgk
jifia mtf wj ta r_fij rhj ahU
Ukz brJ bfhs Ktuiy. mfhit j xUt
Ukz brJ bfhl wF mtuJ jifia vj ta
Ukz brJ bfhs KtUth. is mbg u
nf brW lh. K fahd mbg filahf
j xUtiuna Ukz brJ bfhlh. sik

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bgUgFia flJl mbg Ukz bgausF

jh elJ KojJ. gojh fy Ukzf iy
fhyfhykhf UJ tUwJ.

fy Ukz - 4
vf gfJ uhkij nrj bgk mt.
gLjgl ta FLgij nrjt. rh ft mf
cs mbg j djtnyna xU isPid fhjJ
mj isthf fgkhdh. fahdl fhjy
ifLl a LF bjJlJ. bgnwhU
rnfhjuU Mu mbgkia moJ, Jitf,
nkY F Ujh bfhnw Lthf vW il L
btna j xUt o jrkiljh. t iyia
mJ gjhggl j isP xUt mbgkia
Ukz brJ bfhs Ktjh. xU nkrh bgiz
Ukz brJ bfhL j xUt j onyna UJ
FLg elJtij mDkghfsh mtf. uoajh
gaJnghd jJf mthgid Ciunl
uold.
btUF brW ntiy brJ iH el FHij
wJ gy tUlfSF wF jf CUF Kj u
neufY wF gfY tUtJ nghtJkhf UJ fil
xU tahf jdJ brhj Cnyna mj fy Ukz n#hod
tJ jld. cliy jsJnghd iy
mbg jij mt LF tJnghf MuJ, mt
o rhL brY msF Tl tJlh. Mdh
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nrJ bfhs glhjnjhL, jdJ rhfhufns mbgiz
l jfhj rhahfjh ghwd. mtf LF
mbg mDkfgLtiy. RUfkhf brhdh
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bg FHijf Ukz taij miljnghJ mtfSF j
dnyna Ukz brJ itfgLsJ. lhik
vnf xjJ? v xJsJ vgij fy Ukzf
_y lhik Fiw, rh ghFghLf rbragL vW
brhwtfjh sf ntL.

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fy Ukz - 5
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mt nk mtuJ bgnwhf Fj m itUjd. f
ayhj iyYTl jf is fZlgLlTlhJ vW
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ta fhghWth vw eifia ju mtfl ntW
vJiy.
mtf eago muR ntiy iljJ. kf xW
gz, gj tjh bgnwhiu ba ufky. mtf
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NiyF kLnk gHfgltfshf UJTl mtfis
fil fhy fZlglhk fhghw ntL vg
othjkhf cst. Mdh, mt idjJ Koahk
nghlJ. j f Kdhnyna jh, jij jshj
taY jahf rikJ rhLbfhL jdJ brhj
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W efubkh jdJ FLgnjhL FoUf ntoa Niy.
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tUkhdK UwJ, tr UwJ. mjidbayh
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vdjh urid?
mj eg xU gFjths; Rakahijfhu.
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cathf fU bfhS gLjgl d xU bgiz

Ukz brJ bfhlh. mtf UtUFilyhd
th vj uridiy. Mdh, mtuJ FLgdiu
mbg uridahf idf bjhllh. jdJ
cwdfisbayh LF miHJ UJ cgrF
mbg, jdJ fztuJ bgnwhiu cwdfis mgo
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jhjgltfshfntjh ghwh.
mbgkia bghUjtiu jdJ fztiu VW
bfhtJ vgJ ntW. mjfhf mtuJ FLgdnuhL, mtuJ
cwdfnshL fyJ gHf KoahJ vg f
othjkhfnt UJ tUwh. j thifia VW
bfhs Koaiy. mnj neu wff
Koaiy. fhuz FHijf. mtf vfhy ghHh
nghlTlhJ vW gaJ fhyfis fl bfhoUwh.
Jnghy vjidnah elkhL rhf eilna fy
Ukzf frghd mDgtfis RkJ bfhL...

fy Ukzf Ko
uL rhfis nrjtf fy Ukz brJ
bfhlh m vj rh rhahf fUjgLwnjh mj rhjh
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Ukzf ajhj iy. xnu t brhtbjwh, fy
Ukzf uL kdfis ntLkhdh izfyhnk
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vdbtgijbayh bjthf s bfhltfsh
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ntg kuJ khak

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mj gF klikfSF Fiwiy.
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mj isf x iyf btis w UjJ jh.
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vW etJ _ljdf _atfsh kLnk KotJ,
ju mJ kj gFjF it jUtjhF.
Mug mJ ugy kilaiy. Mwfiu
tabtF eL, nghFtuJ mfkw gF mJ UjJ.
Mdh, mJ g ngR UJ tjJ. xU Kiw vdJ
egfSl mj tna eh brwnghJ mj ntgkuij
ghnj m xU is kL btis w iyfSl
UjJ. mJ khiyneu, ULtjF D bfhr neunk
Ujjh M elkhl mfiy. Jjh jf rka vW
mj ku V btis w iyfUj is xU W
gFia cilJ tJ mUj iyfis bkW ghnjh.
kw iyfis nghynt frghf, mjFa kdJlD
UjJ. mj wij ju ahr VJ fhzgliy.
j w khwF gira myJ ntW xU nt bghU
FiwghLjh fhuzkhf Uf Ko vgJ vfsJ mirf
Koahj eif. mij mUYs MLJiw ntshik gfiy
fHfF vLJ brW M bra brh mj cikia
bghJkfl brhy ntL vW ng bfhnlh. Mdh,
m kw egf Mt fhlhjjh mij Lnlh.
ehf jh mij Lnlhnk ju mgF kf mij
liy. ehf nghdnghJ mj ku kr J
flgoUjJ. ulo cau, xU mf sF itgjfhd

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msF W nfh nghw xW brffsh mikfgUjJ.

mj cns kzh brJ Rlgl mf sFf vbz
C itJ va itfgoUJ. mj K xU jiythiH
iy ahnuh rW K gila brJL nghUj
bghUf Ujd mts jh. eh mF brUj nghJ
mj ku btis iy njh unlhU MLf
MUjd. mj d uL tUlf fJ mgf
brwnghJ mj l nfhyhfgoUjJ.
mjF xU Ka fhuz Ukz Mfhj bgf mj
nfhYF brwh iu Ukz elF vW xU
fijia guoUjd. jdh mj nfhYF s
bgf tu mff bjhlaJ. mtfis bjhlJ
tLfis ngh thg TlK tlkof bjhlajh
Tl fis fo bjhlaJ. xJFwkhd mj nfh
sfhjyfSF ntljhf MUjJ. j fhuzkhf gy
UkzfS elUd. mtf brhd njh t
Ukzkhf yhlhY Vnjh xU tif Ukz
elnjaJ. mJ btis nt khak fUizah?
myJ fhjj fhisaf fUizah vgJ mtfSnf
btr. nghJ mj nfh f ugykhlJ. mj
nfh bgjhf flgL Fghnf brw msF
tsJlJ. rhf afgL iwa gjf Tl tJ
bfhoUwJ. mjnfh UHhF w ngUJ
Lw msF ugykilJlJ.
j nfh njhw mJ ga eif vyh mj
ntg kuYs xU is iyf btik wkhf
UjJ jh fhuz, Mdh mj is nghJ fhJ
nghlJ. mj ku nghJ vj iy btis w
iy. UjhY btis nt khak kL u
bgw tu jU bjtkhf tzfgLtUwJ.

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vdJ th yh...

jij bgah flis kWj

fhuzbkd?
Rkh gjhLfSF Kd Uth% yha urhu
f xW VghL bragL UjJ. mj f nehf
K myhjtfSF; Fghf jhjgnlhUF
yhij mKf gLJtnjahF. mj f
eilbgWtjF uL, _W ehfSF Kdhnyna mF
brW j j afd kW isPfSF ffhd
miHj bfhLF g <LgoUnj. vdF mj gF
mjs gra yhUjjh tfhl mFs j
af bghUghsfis mKf brJ itf, j af
x bghWngW bragL bfhoUj vidl uL,
_W taJ _jtuhf Uj xU rnfhj cl tjh. j
l mtiu ga y thijfis brhL ij
bjhlUnw.
mj rnfhj wgh uhkz. Ukz Md y
fhyfnyna fztid Hj if bgzhd mt ukhz
rKjha rha, rujha fLghLfdhY brhJ
uidfshY utijF MshfgL, xU fl jh
wj rKjhaij nl ulgL, btnawgL mj
d fl kW bfhif u gF bfhL uhl
af gnahL bgah fis gid brJ tjh.
j iy mLj flkhf y MLfSF K
yhij VW bfhL yha miH g brJ
bfhL K xUt khy jiytuhUj j af
xY bghUngW bragL tjh. uhl afdnuhL
bfhis ahd xU bjhl Ujjh mj _y vdF
mKfkhdtuhf mj rnfhj Ujh. nghJ mt

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Kkhf Ugjh vid ghJ, KkhL,

Ukz brtjFnsna Kkhdh K bgiz
Ukz brJ bfhL ey xU thifia mikJ
bfhsyh vW ciknahL ghF nghbjyh brh
bfhnlUgh. eh bghJthf ghngh vgnjhL r. Mdh
mtnghJ yha urhu Tlf fyJ bfhL
yhij g, jJf yhij VW bfhs
ntoaj mta g vLJ Ttnj. nghJ
v ghnw. eh urhu brj xU fUij ehnd VW
bfhtjF Rkh gidJ MLfis fhuzyhk
flUnw vW. mW vdUj mnj jaf W
gyl csJ.
nghJ aJF tUnth. ehf mj HhF
miH bfhLf brwnghJ fbfhLj tj vw
uhkF brY th VglJ. mJ Uth%F mUYs
xU uhk.
mj C kw mua ffisl uhl fHf
brthnfhL fjJ. mj Ciu nrj muR Cauhf Uj
xU rnfhjul miH bfhLJL, mj uhkij g
mua ffSF rkkhf mijl mfkhf uhl fHf
brthFnfhL ftj fhuz vdbtW dnd.
mjF mj rnfhju vf C mahrh vw bgat
Uwh jij bgah bjhluhd mtl cfSF
sf ilF vW brhdh. wF mj bgatiu rJ
mtl mnj nfia nflnghJ, mt brhdh, uhk
xU fhy j gFnyna f ja uhkkhf UjJ.
kf fLikahd ciHghf Mdh,
f_ojdkhd gHftHff, fl bgauh _l
eiff itf fhuzkhf f nkhrkhd iyY,
tWik, mahik, MatwhY mygltfshf rh
JfSF moikfshf UJtjd. iy jh
Uth%UF tj jij bgahl j kfis g,
mtfsJ thif iy g Uth% jfuhR nghw jij
bgahUF beUfkhftf mtl vLJ brhy; mtU neuhf
mj uhknf brW, mkfis rJ, ts

58

vdJ th yh...

fLikahd ciHghfshf, eytfshf UF f

ts iyY, mahikY Ufns mjF
vd fhuz? vW nflnghJ mkf, mjF vd
gzKo? fl vf jiy mgojh vGUwh,
vfsh mij khwth Ko? vW brhUwhf. mij
nfl jij bgah mtf,
j iyfSbfyh fljh fhuzbkwh
mgogl flis f blhf, J fl
braYky, flbsW vJ Ufiy. fl bgauh
flikf gLs fhLuhojdkhd _l tHfUJ
btnaWf fl iy. mJ ffglJ. fhLuho
fhy gHftHffUJ btnaWf fl nguh
eilKiw gLjgL bfhoUf midJ mahik
mbjhf gl ntoaitna vW fl kW urhuij
mUJ Jtdh. Rkh UgJ ehf mj uhk j
mUJ bjhlfgl urhu jh fl iy vw fl
kW urhu. mjF KdhY fl bgauh eilKiw
Uj _l tHff. rh, rlF, rujhaf nghwtiw
vJ urhu brJ tjhY mbghGUJ jh
neilahfnt fl iy vD urhuij ukhf bra
Mujh.

bgah brhd yh kLnk

jij bgah mtf vj nehffhf fl kW
bfhifia urhu brjh vgij kwJL mtuJ
bfhift elgjhf brh bfhgtf fl iy vw
xiw thijnahL Klkhdtfis nghy Kl
nghld. mjF nkyhf y bgah bgaiu brh
bfhnl yhij, KfisTl krd brJ
tUwd. go elJ bfhtJ bgah bfhifah?
cik bgah bfhifjh vd? fl kW
kLjhdh?
xiw kWwnghJ, mjF khwhf ntbwhiw mj
l itfhk, kW vgJ kLnk vgo thf Uf
Ko? bgah _leiffis mjF fhuzkhd

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kjfis rhoa mnj neu mjfhd it bjthf

brhdh.
kj yhk kf thH KoahJ. mjhtJ eh brhY
kj flSF kfSF rkjK, nkhrK, ,
k, rkhdK nknyhf mgJ vw kjky.
kbwJbtwh kjDF kj kahijah (gth)
mgh, gah, rhah, rnfhju jikah, xWikah,
xGfkh, cjah thG bfhif, cfSF tjfhf kj
vw gHf thij brhYnw. ij rKjha bfhif
vW brhy vdF Zl. ij f kj vW brhy
ntLbkwhY, Mnrfiy. gogl kj
yhk kj rKjha thGtJ rflgL. Mifah,
j eho j bfhif nguh Vfdnt xWgL thG
10 nfho (1947 ngaJ. mnghJ cs K kf bjhifjh
F FlgLsJ) kfSl eh uhlf 4 nfho
ngf FiwjJ jHf 2 nfhong xU bfhifduh
thJ, khd bgW, <d xJ, kj jik cikl
thjh ahUF vd eZl? vd ? vW nfnw.
myJ j ghgd m^aJF ahuhtJ ntW kUJ
brhyL eh nfnw.
J kjngh _nw miufh ghgd 93 ngfis
vo , gof KoahJ, Nu, nt kf, cdF rrkJt
iy vgJ my yh. mjhtJ, git, rhia,
cik rnfhjuJtij bfhifahf bfhl khf.
eh yhJF tfhyJ ngriy. urhu
braiy. J cik! cik! Mdh ghga, J
vW bghyhj, fLikahd nfhukhd ghig bfhYtjF
myJ mj jik ghfUJ yFtjF Jjh
kUJ.
ahnuh y Jnuhf Raey trff khd, <d yhk
jfis ghgd moik (J) vW brh bfhlh ehK
J (mona, jhr, ehFo, moik) vW brh bfhtjh
vW nfnw. f yh vw kujh eik
kjuhf Ko. ij eh W brhyiy. 1919, 1920

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vdJ th yh...

Kj Wtiu brh tUnw. vdF xW brthF

FiwJ nghfiy. jF Ka fhuz vdbtwh,
f ntW kUJ iy. j ahia F Ka
Jtiu vj bga itaDila vj kUJ njhiana
milJlJ*.
go f bjthf yhij VW bfhSf vgij
neilahf, btgilahf brhd wFTl mtuJ
bjhlfshf brh bfhnth mitfis VW bfhshk
fl kW bfhiffis kLnk fobfhL mGtJ, jij
bgah mtfis KGikahf VWbfhshjijna FF.
yhjh vw jij bgah urhujh
mtUF v tjnghJ mjF Nlhfnt g jjh bgah,
Nu gl vW fUJwtfSFjh eh j
nahrid brhYnwnd xa Nu glij g ftiy
iy vgtfSF ij brhyiy.
gFj, Rakahij, jkhdK cs f ynu
jf J izfgoUj rha, rujha, rdhjd
moikjdUJ LgL btna kj rKjha
khf rkJt, rnfhjuJt, ra thifia VW
fafnjh thif Kiw fl engh fyJ
ld.
fut xia iffsh kiwl ayhJ vgij
nghW yha tsia vij bfhL jLl
ayiy. JJtijna W _R tiu Rthj
fh _jkf Ayh fh yhij VW bfhL
mJyh fhahf MdnghJ, mij _o kiwF Ka KoahJ
nghdnghJ mtiu gz bfhLJ L J kjF miHJ
tjjhf jij bgah mtf FLsh.
Mdh, gzjhirahjh Kfshf Mdhf vW
ahiuahtJ brhy Kokh? mgoba J kjij
fhghw, mj jJtfis eilKiwgLj bragL
nfhlhd nfho %gh gzij bfhL xU KikahtJ
Jthf Kokh? mJ KoahJ vgJ mtfSnf bj.
mjdhjh murhfnk kj khw vwh my JowJ. muR
d f yhnk ekUJ - jij bgah.

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vgJ Mfthf ifbghikjhnd. mogil trTl

yhk CUF xJF wf Xiy Foirf
MLkhLfis ngh mtgL k ikjfshd nr
kfis g ftiyglhj, murhfK mj mfhfS
mkf J kjij L btnaWwhf vW bjjhny
th RUo bfhL mtfl brW rYiffis brh
rkhjhd brtJ V?
Ua kjij VWbfhtJ xbthU FokfDF
mogil cikahf mua rlnk mfUFnghJ rl
nuhjkhf mfhfns mij jLf idgj fhuz vd?
Vbdwh mtfbsyh a mua rlijl Jf
Mfij ca ogtf. murhf vgJ Tl
mtfjhnd.
gFj jij bgah mtf Tdhf, ghghl
m, ghghl ner itJ ghgh ngh nt nghL
eoJ bfhL Nudhf Uf rkF xUt mJ
uhldhf Ugt yhal m, ner, nt, eo
eoJ Nu myhjtdhf uhldhfnt Ug vd
btfnfL vgJ ekF sfiy. bkhj 100F 10
ngfshd kfl ner L, fyJ RjunjhL, khdnjhL
thH btfnkh, btWngh gLbfhL 100F 3 nguh UF
eY ntWgl, eik gLJ kfSl nrjtfshf
brhbfhL, khd, Rju, yhk th thtjF
kd rf fhuz vdbtwh, ghgh eik yhJF
vfshf M, mij ng, rhR, rhoahf nghJ
Ugij ju ntW fhuz vd brhy Ko? el
yhj bfl gHf yh vd UwJ? yh
yhj ey gHf el vd UwJ? tsit
brhd wF, eh gFjth, eh Rakahijfhu
vbwyh brh, vj flis vj kjij VW
bfhs kd tuiy vW brhtJ _ljdf a
btghlhfnt UF vg rnjfiy.

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vdJ th yh...

Ljiy ntLkhdh btnaWf

mngf brhd r_fu
JtiuY brhyglitfis itJ vdJ flj
thifia, WTl mJnghw thifia bjhlJ
bfhoUF vdJ uj gjfS, r_f brhjfS vjifa
mtkhdkhd thifia thUwhf; W thJ
tUwhf vgJ f bjthfnt sUF.
ij lhl mngf mtf thijf
brhtbjwh, J ehffjh r_f bjhGnehahahf
khwgLs j mty MkhfSFjh vjid !
lglhjt vd miHfgLtnj bgUnfLjh. Mdh
lglhjt vw khdnfil mJ bfhs ntL
vgij nghy ntW bfhLik VJ iy vd fUJnw. j
J ehff FJ lglhjt vd brhth? mJ
bfhLFwnk ju ehffky vW mt brhdh
jtwhFkh?*
Mdh, W mngf bgaiu brh iH
elJgtf mt rKjha kfSF itfisbayh
vlhk brJld. mJ kL mua mfhujh
mkfis Ljiy bgwtfshf Ml Ko vW
mkf k jtwhd urhuij brJ mtfis
miynyna bjhlJ of brJ jfsJ mua
Mjhaij milJ tUwhf.
jFTl lhl mngf mtf bjthd sfij
brhdh; jhjgl kf mua mfhu vts
gujjhf, jjhf UjhY mtf rlkw
uJt
bgWtjF
Jfis
rhUf
ghghrhnA lhl mngf bjhF - bjhF - 10

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ntoUjh, mtf Mjuit eUf ntoUjh

mj mfhujh vj gaD UfhJ vgij jhjgl
kf mta id bfhs ntL. Mdh jJfS
j muathfS mJg ftiygliy. mtfSF
gj, gzK iljh nghJbkW ah dhY nghf
jaFtiy.
mtfSF mngf fUJf gnah myJ
jhjgl r_fij gnah mkf mDgJ tU
lhik bfhLikf gnahTl ftiyiy. mtfsJ
ftiybayh M mfhuij gjh.
J kj jhjgl kfis vj iy itUwJ
vgjF vdJ thifia brhjh bjJ bfhs
ntL viy. jhjgl kf jbgU
jiytuhf, fbga r_f mPuhf, nghuhahf
fj mngf brhditna nghJkhdJjh. mt brhdh:
J kj nfhghL mtfis kjf vW kJ
mfwjh? mtfSila rkJtfhf wjh? Rju
vgj gyid mtfSF jFkh? Fiwjgr
mtfSF, JfSF ilna rnfhju gjij cUthf
mJ Ka brkh? jhjgltf mtfSila rnfhjuf
vW mtfSF nghwjh? jhjgltfis kjdhf
yhkY, Ufkhf yhkY fUJ nghF ght vW
JfSF brhwjh?... go brh bfhnl nghfyh.
Mdh, j nffSbfyh Mkh vw giy xUtuhY
brhyKoahJ. fhuz J kj vgnj rhf bjhF.
lhik vgJ rhf milahskhf, mfkhf
sfToaJ.
mngf ghit : lhik vgJ Jkj
nfhghLf xU gFahF. fwj Ujthf vW
jfis fhJ bfhtjfhf y lhik vgJ J kj
nfhghLf xU gF vgij kWwhf; tfS
lhikia filowhf; xU J, J kj nfhghLf
eif itgJ xW bga aky. jdF nH

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vdJ th yh...

ynrhgyr fzfhd jhjgltf Uwhf vw

cz wiul jh cajt vw kndhghtij
mfwJ. Mdh, eh J kj nfhghLf eif
cst vW jhjglt TWtjF vd bghU UF?
mj bghU vdbtwh jh jhjglt vgij,
bjt Kogo jhjgltdhf Ugij mt
VWbfhsntL vwhwJ.
r, ts bfhLikfis, mtkhdfis rJ
bfhL xU jhjglt Jthfnt UgjF vd
fhuz? jF rahd giy brhy ntLkhdh, mt
Jthf Uf mt fhuzky. J vD milahs
jhjgltf J flhakhf fgL RkjgL lJ.
fhyngh j J thW Rkjgl xWF
jidaahknyna moikah nghld. 1911- vLfgl
ah ehfhtJ kf bjhif fzbfLnghJjh
jhj gltf J kjJF izfgld. J
vdgL kjnfh mij gWgtfSnfh Fljf
bghJthd tiuaiwf vJ yhlhYTl
mtfSil tghL, r_f bjhl UjJ. Mdh,
jhjgltfSF JfSF j Fiwjgr cwTl
ilahJ. fhuz jhjgltf tuyhW ahfnt
JflUJ ntWgltf. f bgsj kjjtfshd
mtf, bgsj njhfofgl r_f ahf xJfgL,
bghUshjhu, f nghw Jiwf KYkhf wffgL,
thlfis nl ulgL iwF UF j
iyia nr thifia milUwhf. j tuyhW
cikfis czuhknyna jfis Jf vW fU
bfhoUwd.
go fU bfhtjh mtfSF vj gaD
isjiy. khwhf mtf jikgLjgLsd. mj
fhuzkhf mtf jh kdghikY uJ
bfhoUwd. xU jhjglt vdjh f,
bghUshjhu, gj nghwt caiyia milUjhY
mtdJ jikgLjY, jh kdghikk mtid

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bjhlJ bfhLjh UwJ. ij btfho bfhshk

gy kiwJ itfyh. Mdh mij mDgjtfSFjh
mj cik cik cWjY bj.
jfhd it brhY lhl mngf
jhjgltf j kndhghtij kj khw Kokh?
kndhayhsf fUJgo, kj rahd tifgljhUjh
ij FzgLj Ko vW fUJwhf; mj kjkhdJ mj
jegiu jujhj, gadw jhjglt vW mQfhk rf
kj vW mQdhjh ij FzgLj Ko; ju
kjfis nghy jhD rk cik bgw kjjh vW
mt cztjfhd rhaghLfis bfhLs xU
Niyia kj mf ntL; mthwhdh, jhj
gltf mjifabjhU kjF kj khWtJ vgJ
mtfSila jh kdghikF fhuzkhd f l
fhya eifikia V mfw KoahJ?
nkbrhd mj tifahd kj vJbtW fltJ
nghJ mtakhwJ. ahit bghUjtiu f
bjhikahdjhf bgsjij Twyh. Mdh bgsj
njhfofgL lJ. mJ kLky bgsjf
bgUghiknah jhjgltfns. iy
jhjgnlh jikgLjYF, jhkdghikF
vgo Ko fl Ko?

mngf V bgsjuhdh?
mgoahdh, mngf V bgsjF khdh vw
nf vG. jfhd giy rW MJ ghf ntL. mt
kj khw ntL vW tW bfhnl Ujh. xU
fl mjhtJ 1939 jh Kkhf kj khwnghtjhf
m brjh. ij mj jij bgah mtf Tl
jf Ko f rahdJ; vdh nghJ kj khW
Niy iy. MdhY v rhghf xU gjhuk ngiuahtJ
mD itnw vW jdJ Mjuid bjjh. Mdh
ijbayh LL mngf j kjij VW bfhtjF
mtJ fgl mua ahd beUfofns fhuz
vgij czu ntL.

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vdJ th yh...

1946 Mf 16UJ 19 tiu ehF ehf tfhs

eilbgw J K fytu 5000UJ 10,000 ng tiu
brhygoUjd. Rkh 15,000 ng fha goUjd. j
fytu btg btFehf oJ bfhoUjJ. mj jhf
W Tl KY kiwJ liybanw F#uh ekF
idLwJ. iy mt KkhUjh ah
jiy mnw khUF. Mdh mJ rhakh?
My murhf 1932 Mf 17- jhjgl
kfSfhd tFth uJt (Communal award) ig
tHaJ. j go jhjgl kfSF uL
thFik mfgoUjJ. xW jhjgl kf jfsJ
ufis jhfns kwtf jiypL yhk njbjLJ
bfhtJ. ulhtJ, bghJ bjhFY jfSF UF
cikia iy ehLtjfhf thfgJ. Jnt uilthF
Kiw vdglJ.
ij fhu jiytuhUj fh fLikahf vjh.
fhuzij mtnu brhdh, jbjhF Kiw mtfSF,
J rkaF F isf ToaJ. nfL gagJ vW
fUJnw. J rkaij bghUjtiu jbjhF Kiw
mjid cilJ jfJ TWnghLL.
j cik mtfisnah, sgLtUJ J
rKjhaijnah fhghw nghtiy. jhjgl tFdUF
jbjhFfis cUthF Vgho J jkij lL
mgjF itfgoUgij fhnw.
fhF jhjgnlh eyidl J kjnk bgjhf
glJ. gRfisl jhjgl kf cajtuy vW
brhd cjkuyth fh.
jdJ ciu bfhLjhtJ jhjgnlhUF ilF
uil thFikia jLJl ntL vW Ko brJ
dh cs Vuthlh iw milfgoUj iynyna
1932 brlg 20 jJf vfhy Rju th
kiz nghL mj _y J kjij fhghW jdJ
Kafhf czhuj nkbfhlh. mt vj msF

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w tjhbuwh, neikahdt vW eh bgWs

fGF gf VgLtjhf UjhY neikaw KiwyhtJ
mj rYiffis jLl Kajh.
jhjgnlh ey mngf mf mfiunahL
bragL bfhoUj mnj neu fh M.C.uh#h vw
jHfij nrj jhjgl jiytiu jfSF rhjfkhf ngr
itJ miwa J kfh rig jiytuhUj lhl.
_nr vgtUl xgj xW bra itjh. fhuz,
Mnya murhf jhf jhjgnlhUF bfhLj
rYiffis jfsh Ug bgw KoahJ vW, ntLkhdh
ah cs jhjgnlh jf rYiffis L
bfhLf rkjh ehf mij g gngh vW
mUjd. mngf a othjkhf Ufnt
mtf uh#hit kl ld. mW Mir thijf
kaa uh#h mtfSF rhjfkhf uil thFikF
vuhf braglh. J vts bga N vgij uh#h
dh jh bjJ bfhlh.
brid khfhz M.C.uh#h nfh EiH knrhjh
xiw bfhLtjnghJ mnghJ brid khfhz
KjtuhUj uh#h mij uhfJ lh. mJkLky
jhjgnlhiu mknrhjit wfF go brJlh.
JFJ M.C.uh#h 1938 brlg 21- fhF vGa
foj FoUjh, J nfhf untf
vfSF Rju iy vwh ehf Jf my
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TL thfhs bjhFf ehf V l bgw ntL?
KfSF Vida r_fdUF vuhf tfsJ
vifia
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jhf
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jhjgltfis jfSl izJ bfhshkY mnj
neu mtf jfsJ Jf vD milahsij L
btnalhkY itUgjF j vifayth
fhuz? I xU gF jhjgltf J tJ ntW vj

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xU r_fnjhL nrjhY mj r_f bgUghik r_fkhf

khL Niy J bgUghik jhdhfnt
WghikahL. mjdhjh jJf kj khWtij
Jf Ugkhlhf.
j neu bdhiw idgLj ntL.
j rYiffis mtfSF tHFtij Wj ntL vW
iyahdh rhFtiu czhuj Ufnghtjhf
fhah ul foj vGanghJ mjF yhJ ujk
uhn[ bkblhdhL 1932, brlg 8 fhF vGa giy
nf Fnlahf ntL.
rhFtiu czhuj UF m u Koit f
nkbfhoUf. mJ vjfhf? jhjgl tFd
JfSl izJ TL bjhFfis bgwntL
vgjfhfnth? mgo Uf KoahJ. Vbdwh mjF
Vbfdnt t bragoUwJ. myJ Jf
xWikia iy ehLtjfhfth? mgo Tw KoahJ.
Vbdwh mjF tif bra gowJ. d f
czhuj Ufnghtj nehf jh ahJ? W mtf
brhybthzhj bfhLikfSF cshf goUwd;
vjid vjidnah tf gafukhf gLjgL
tUwd. jifa kf, jf vfhyij bgUksF
zf Toa, jf Fuiy vbuhf Toa Fl
vif cs jf ufis jhfns jf Ug
go njbjLJ mDtij jLF xnu nehfJlndna
f czhuij nkbfhs khUf.
thWjh cf nghif vdh J bfs KowJ.
Wahf mt brhdh fhl, f
cnjJs eltoifia nkbfhtJ ciknyna
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L tWJnw.
xU madhd MnynaDF jhjgl kf J
Uj g, mfiu nghwt jsthtJ UUjh
fh mgo elJ bfhoUfkhlh vgJ kL ra.
tsit brhy ntoaj nehf,
jhjgltf, jf brhj fh gjfhf th

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VglnghJ mij kAhkhthf fUjglfhna jdJ ciu

bfhLjhtJ jLf idjnghJ, jhjgl kf f
brthF f jiytuhf Uj lhl mngf Kkhf
khUjh ciu bfhLJ my; ciu vLjhtJ
jLUghf vW vz lUwjyth? lhl mngf
jah iy. mt bgsjuhdnghJ mtUl _W
yrF mfkhndh bgsjuhf khdhf. mtf
thRf jh W (Neo-Bhuddist) vW
miHfgLwd.
mt Kkhf MUjh mj isf ah
jiyia khUF vgJ kL ra. ijbayh
mahk mt j kj jhnd nru brhdh brW brh
bfhoUgJ moik jd Rf fLltf mj
kw ngRfnsahF.
mt bjthf brhdh. lglhj kf jfSila
r_f jikgLjYF vthW Ko fl Ko? jfSila
r_f jikgLjYF xU Ko fl jhjgl kfSF
cs xnu t rha czUJ LgL Uw kbwhU
r_fJl cw bfhL mnyna fyJ LtJ vgJjh
nghJ brhYf rha czUJ LgL Uw
kbwhU r_fkhf bgsj kj Uwjh? mnf kj kh
brwtfis jyth itUwhf. mJkLkh?
ah cs bghsjf 89.5 % ng jhj
gltfshf 7.4 rj jhjgl gHFoduhf csd.
vifah J kj csij l J Fiw
vwhY rjj mogil J kjijl J gy klF
mf.
a kj j jikahdJ mnf nghfyhkh vwh
mF 30.7% ng jhjgltfshfnt Uwd. tfsJ
cikfSfhf dK nghuho bfhowd. i#dkj
j fzhu bfhL njL iy UjnghJ mj
cns EiHa th vnf UwJ vgnj gyUF bjahJ.

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jtK rhaK
nghJ e ffSF K UgJ jtK yhK
jh. jt kj rh ghFghLf iy. Mdh,
jtfl miy iy. mtf rha milahsij
Hfhknyna flis kL kh bfhLsd.
Jkj jhf yhj mbkfhY, InuhghY Tl
Jtfshf UF fUgfis mtf VW bfhtiy.
F eilKiw cs rhbtia mnf wbtahf W
oJ tUwd.
ah brhynt ntlh. vbjj rhUJ
mtf khdhfnsh mj rh milahsfis gy
jiyKiwF wF Tl Llhk fo fhgh tUwd.
vf uhk Rkh gJ FLgd, jhjgl
tFUJ y jiyKiwF K jtfshf Md
lglhj j jtf twd. mtfSbfW
jbjU m xU khjh nfhY cL. vJ vf
bjUnthL nrnj Uj nghJ mtf vfnshL xlhknyna
Ughf. xnu khahd thif, vf J RkjgoUF
lhik mtfSF gUjJ. mtfS
rhahfjh xJ itfgoUjd. Mdh muR
mtfis gLjgnlh goa nrUjJ.
jhjgnlhUfhd vj rYif mtfSF ilfhJ.
jdh gyng jf bgaiu Tl kh jhjgnlh vw
bganyna rhrhW th itJsd.
j jtf gF jij gf cs C
Ujh. tf vj xU akhf UjY mt mDk
bgWjh bra ntL. mj gFjij cs uhk

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cs jtf midtUnk ta Jtf.

mtfSF vf C JtfSF vj bjhl UfhJ.
mtf nkrhahf tf rhahfnk W UJ
tUwd. xnu gF jij thf UjhY
ta Jtf j Jtfis Ukz nghw
rlFf fyJ bfhs miHgJ ilahJ. mJ nghynt j
JtfS mtfis miHf khlhf Jjh iy.
j Jtf jhd xLFjY lhik Obud
njhaitay. mit btF fhykhfnt mtf J
eilKiwgLj gLtUwJ.
1919 ML Mnya muR ahF y mua
Ujfis mjJ. mjgo ilfgl rYiff
jhjgltfis brwilaiy vW lhl mngf
jiyik a jhjgltf My mul
Kiwld. mj fhuzkhf My muR r #h irk
vgtuJ jiyik xU FGit ahF mDaJ.
mj_y jhjgl kf cikahd uidfis
fLbfhs My muR UaJ.
mFGl a jhjgl Jtf xU kDit
mjd. mj kD guij kL nf jUnwh.
jt rka vf tlhuf nghjid
braglnghJ gsf, giwaf cl ehf jt
kjij jGndh. ehf wj rhfis nrj kjkhw
braglhjtf, Jfshf kj J rkaij
gWgtfshf UjJ, Jkj jhjglt vnw
miHfgLwhf.Mlt Kiy midJ
kjfS rk vw nfhghil filof ntL, mil
mayhl mnghL MjunthL mutiznghL elJ
bfhsntL g, r jik Matiw fhlntL
vW jt kj vfSF nghjY, jhjgl
tFdilna UJ kj kha ehf, J kjy UF
jhjgl tFdUFs mnj iy jh Unwh.
gntW mrf vfSF vuhf bragLwd; mt f

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KakhdJ, jt kjF khatfilna rhia

Llhk itJ bfhS gykhd J kj kndhght
UgjhF.
jtfshf MtjF K ehf vj iy
Unjhnkh mnj iyjh W vfis itJsd;
mjhtJ l glhjtfshf, eho y rKjha rlfsh
nftykhd Kiw eljgLtfshf, rh jtfsh
uhffgltfshf, rh Jfsh btWfgLgtfshf,
vfsJ brhj Jkj jhjgl rnfhjfsh
xJgltfshf UJ tUnwh.
... jt rka mogil nfhghLfisna kWJ,
ner, jk jid, rnfhuJt MatWF khwhf vf rfjtf khjhnfhf Tl vfis lglhjt
fshf mDfhjtfshf, elJwd.
J carhia J jhjgl diu vthW
elJwdnuh mthnw j rh jtfS jt
jhjgl gFdiu elJwd.j kjF
khatfilna rh czit nghFt jt rka
bt bgwiy vgJjh cik.
jt rka gughsf, Vuhskhndhiu jt
rkaF khw ntL vW mfiu bfhoUjhfnsa,
kj khatf giHa _l eiffis ntuWf cWahd
eltoif vLfiy..
j mif cik jik vjifaJ vgjF
eh flj fhyF bry njitiy. ffhy
rgtfisna vLJ bfhlh nghJ jF cjhuzkhf
eh junghtJ uL rgtfisjh mitfUnj eh
brhy tj af f sfkhf J bfhs Ko.

viu jt rh fytu
Kj rgt Gu khtl, fsFUJ
Unfh brY rhiy cs viu uhk eljJ.
j C bgUghikahf jtfns twhf.
jtf rhjtfshd taf bgUghik

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ahf rh jtfshd jhjgltf _ xU

gfhf Wghikahf twhf.
rh jtf rh JfnshL mnahakhf elJ
bfhlhY
jhjgl
jtfis
VW
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nr tJ tUwhf. uL jtfSF
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judU mjh tghL elj ntL. Mdh mj khjh
nfh rh jtf bjU Ujjh mJ mtf
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rWj nr UwJ. mj khjh nfhYF nrF il
FWF rhiy xW UwJ. vj fhyY Ukz nghw
rlFfSfhf Ctykhf khjh nfhYF tU j
jtf ujhd rhiytna tuKoahJ. fhuz mj ujhd
rhiy U gffY rh jtf L UjJ.
Mfnt, j jt FWF rhiy tnajh bry Ko.
nkY jJf jf J Rkjgl mtkhd
fis,mlFKiwfshf bjhlJ mDgJ tjd.
iy mkhjhnfhYF UHh eljnghJ, m
jhjgl jtf L sbgfis rh jt
isPf brngh nfkuh gl oJ mij mj
bgf jflnk fho l bra ij mj Wtf
jf o brW brhUwd. ij nfgL
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mF msF tJlJ.
j uid ahf vJ bfhoUF iy rh
Jf itnfh ngh ahnuh yuh itfgL, mjF
j jtfjh fhuz vW mtf Lf fLikahf
jhfgL mkf moJ l gLsd.
uid ehSF eh gjkhf bfhoUf muhk
ngh ghJfh nghlgoUwJ. xU fl ngh
fhufisna ta jtf jhf Muf mtf Jgh

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NL elj ntoa Niy. j Jgh No uL ng

wJl ehF ng fhafSl jld. xU y
Fl j affis jJ midJ mua ffS
rh jtfSF rhjfkhfnt Ujhf vgij mj
fytu nghJ gif xfhf br nrff brwnghJ
vdh mtfis thijf _y neilahfnt mJ
bfhs KojJ.
W Tl muhk rh jtfSF nr
jtfSF nkhj bjhlJ bfhLjh UwJ. rh
jtf mtkhdfis mlFKiwfis mDgJ
bfhLjh Uwhf.

rh jtf rf Koahj bfhLikf

mLJ, Lf khtl tjyFL mUYs bk
nfhgo vw uhk eljJ. j uhkY rh
jtf brthnfhL thJ tUwd. jJfnsh ML,
khLfis l Hhf, nftykhf thH gfgLwhf.
brw 2010 #dt 7 mW rilaho vw j xUt
rh jtf bjUtna elJ brWsh. elJ brwt
rhjhuzkhf elJ bryiy. fh brU nghL bfhL
elJ brWsh. mj uhkJ jJf rh jtf
bjU Jtiu brU nghL bfhL eljnj ilahjh.
ij fl rh jtfshd Mnuharh, nl,
brntu, bfdo fzjhr, l, m Mnahiu
bfhl gJng FG xW j jtWF jlid bfhLf Ko
brJ brUgJ brw rilahoia miHJ kj
kyij FbyLJ z brh bfhLikgLsd.
mtdJ KfY kyij jl fhLuhofl Tl yhj
F% ia bt fho bfhLsd.
mtkhdjh Fnghd rilaho rh jtf J
tjyFL fht iya fh bfhLJsd. nfgjnf
ber gijF j tbfhLikiagbayh
ftiyglhj Ktu vw Mths, rh jtfSF
jJfSF il rilaho uidia

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cUthFtjhf fh bfhLjtiuna FwthahUwh.*

j wF jtuhf kj khdh lhik ngh L vW
Tdh mt jid FiwghLilatuhfnth myJ
jid bj mwtuhfnthjh UfKo vgJ vdJ
gthd fUJ. nghJ, l glhnjh jf
faij, bfsutij, Rakahij fhgh
bfhs ntW tsjh vW ghf ntL.
mjF mngflUnj vLJ brhyyh,
jfSila jik gLjYF mUJ tU
ilWfSF KW itf btW Foik kL
jhjgltfSF nghjhbjwh, cw Kiw vgJjh xnu
thf UFbkwh, ahUila cw Kiwia mtf
Uwhfnsh mj r_f FG kjij mtf jGtij
ju ntbwj t ilahJ. bghGJ jJfis
KGikahf VW bfhL jfSF rkkhf, rnfhjudhf VW
bfhw kj vJ vwh mJ yh kLnk vgJ sF.
mij Tl mngf mtf thijf
brhtjhdh th bghU vgJ eyij filogJjh
vW nghF bghGJ midJ kjfS xnu khahf
njhW. Mdh, eyJ vgJ vJ vw nfF
ilaF bghGJjh kjf xnu khahd giy
mgiy. mitf rakhf khWgLwd. rnfhuJt
jh eyJ vW xU kj fUJwJ. kbwhU kjnkh rh
lhik eyit vW TWwJ.
nghJ rh, lhik yhk rnfhjuJtij
iy WJw kjkhfjh yhij KWJnwh. J
vj msF cik vgij sf flik gLnsh.
ah RjuF Kija fhyfl. miwF
ah kf bjhif KgJ nfhoF Fiw. jJf
vdgL l glhj kf vifnah VG nfho ng.
mj fhyfl l glhj kfSF jfsJ moik
jdUJ Lgl Uj xnu fl yh kLk jh. mnj
neu miwa KfS mtfl yha
urhuij bjhlJ brJ tjd. j isthf mtf
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yhafshf kh bfhoUjd. mgo kha mtf jh

iwa a Kf _jhijaf mjifa
Niy mngfh mtf J g FLnghJ, mZl
trkhf, KfSF jf gf <f Toa VGnfho kf
Uwhf;
mtf
Jf
vW
tif
gLjglnghJ,mtfSF Jkj nfhghLf l
tlkhd cw ilahJ. mj nfhghLf fhuzkhf
mtfSila iyik rf ayhjjh lJ. mtfis,
yha kj nrUtjF l Ko. tf y
yha kjF brwd, nkY gy bry TL.
nghJ UF mngf vd Udh vW. mJ
mtuJ Ug kLky, fd Tl, mij jLgjfhfjh
R aff vw bga af MuJ kj
khatfis Ug J kjF bfhL tUtjfhd
Ka <Lgld.
Kkhdtf Ug jfsJ brhj kjF U
brtJ vgJ mtf <kha gydijna FF. Mfnt
yhij jhf VW bfhltf <khid gygL
ghjf <Lgl itgjfhfnt j af mnj
fhyflnyna cUthfglJ.
nghJ mngf mtf mW fl fdit edth
Mufzfhd, yrfzfhd, nfhofzfhdtf mngf
fhyY mtUF Kija fhyY mtuJ fhyF wF
Jkjij Lbtna yhafshf thJ tUwd
mtfis vyh iwa jhj gl kf uj
gjfjh. mtfnshL ehfS fyJnlh, vfis
nghy vnyhU fyf ntL. xnu d. mJ kj d vw
rnfhjuJt, rkJt, rkhjhd ghijF tuntL vW
miHgj ntbwd nehf Uf Ko j thifF.
myh midtiu xU M, bgUJ jh
giljh. ehjh Jnghndh. ahtJ xwhnth
vgjnf miHnwh.

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cyf kf xnu khf

yh kLnk

cy bgUghikahf gwgL kj
jt. j jt iwtdh mUsgl vD
ntjij iwt juhd <[h (miy) mtfis
mogilahf bfhlJ. Mdh, mj ntj mUsgl iy
iy. ilbrWfY, fLfijfS mtiw
khRgLld. iw juha <[h (miy) mjhtJ naRit
flshld. flsha mtfns naRit Yit
miwJ bfhiy bragL ljhf ewd. Mdh
mt iwt my iwt jjh vW e Kf
<[h (miy) mtf bfhiy bragliy vgij mt
L tUth vgij cWahf ewd. Vbdwh
ij eghjt Kkhf Uf KoahJ.
Jnghynt, bdhU kj j kj, gila
mnuahY mij RY Uj jfjh iwF
Kfshf thJ tUwd. tf _[h (miy)
mtfSF mUsgl bjsuh vD ntjij mogilahf
bfhltf. tf _[h (nkhnr) F wF xU j tUth
vgij mUJ <[h (naR) (miy) mtf juhf tj
nghJ mtiu VW bfhsiy. mW jf brj mnj
jtiw W jtfS brJ tUwhf. mjhtJ <[h
(miy) mtfSF wF bjthd mjhfSl KAkJ
([) mtf iw juhf tjnghJ mtiu mtf
VWbfhsiy.

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Mdh W iy kh tUwJ. yhF vuhf

K rKjhaijna Kwhf mf JoF mbkfhTl
MLF 20,000 mbkff Kfshf kh tUwd.
mtf 75 rjj ng bgf vgJ FljfJ.
mbkfh mfkhf gutU khf yhjh vW
Mjhuf bjwd. myh ehodh mbkfh xU
eh yha ehlhf khW.
mJnghynt, gy Inuha ehLfY Fghf yhJ,
uh, Mnuah nghw ehLfY yh ntfkhf gu
tUwJ.
cy jfSF, mbkffSF mLjgoahf
yhij vF Tl ah cs Jfjh.
mY Fghf ghgdf. tfjh lL yhF
vuhd urhuij brJ tUwd. Mdh mtf xU
aij kwJ ld. mJ yh ghgdfSF vuhdJ
myJ vgJjh.

MafS yhK
tuyhW dia bfhL ghFnghJ Maf
ahF tj ehnlhof TlnkahF. mtfsJ fij
g JtiuY rahd jft vJiy. gy ng gy
gFfis mtf fkhf brhUwd. mtf
khKy-ka Mah, yf - Mo gF, V..jh-rj J
myJ grh, Rth jahdj rut-bg, bebjfhah, bghfhnu-uZah, ehf kW b#kha mPfb#k, khnfh-nkF irah, i#nuhgh-nkF
fha fl gF, nguh. bkbld-HF Inuhgh, lhl
if-Mah kW Anf MaitahF.
bgUghyhndh ka Mah vD khKy
fUijna VW bfhLsd. Mdh, nkbrhd vj
gFY W J kjnkh mj kjfhd vj mogilnah
mwnt ilahJ. Maf xU d ehnlhoahf wgL
tJlhY mtf ujgjf mj f nyna
jlhf. W mtf jtfshfnth myJ ntW
kjjtuhfnthjh csd. mJnghynt Maf vUJ

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tUjhY mtf ghuf thyhf Mfhjh tJ

j mj djh Mfhjhid L ifg, nghy
fdthf tahf ahF EiHJsd. tf
tuhk vnah ghufY, MfhjhY W
Kfshf thJ bfhLsd.
1935- ghufij <uh vW bga khw brjd. <uh
vgjF Ma vgJjh bghU (Land of Aryan-Iran)*. Mfnt,
mF Maf xU gFd mjhtJ a ghgdf
_jhijaf xU d Kf. mJnghynt
Mfhjh tJ ja Maf xU gFd
ahF EiHjd. mtfsyhJ Mfhjh
jUjtfS W Mf Kf.
b#k Ugtf jfis Ma vWjh
miHJ bfhwd. Mdh mtf kj jt.
ghuf yh fhanghJ mij VWbfhs Koahk
Xo tj ghuff gh kjij gbfhL Uwd.
MafSbfW j kjbkW vJiy. Ma
vgJ xU d kLnk. J kj vgbjyh Ma
ghgdf dh jfsJ Raey nehffSfhf
cUth bfhlitna.
mtfns <uh, Mfhjh Kfshf,
b#kY w ehLfY jtfshf tlah
ghfshf csd. iwF K ehLf cy
f Ka ehLfshf sf Toa <uhY, MfhjhY
a ghgdf _jhijaf Uwhf vw cik
ghgdfSF bjahk nghljh? myJ bjJ kiwJ
lhfsh vgJ bjaiy. Mfntjh MaF
yhF ilbt btFu iy vgij sf
ntoa mta vkUwJ.

uhlf khf yh
Maf kLky uhlf cikahd kjK
yhjh. yh xU fl, xU #h mjhtJ xnw Fy
Land of Aryan - M. Sadeq Nazmi - Afshar

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xUtnd njt vw mogilia bfhlJ. j mogil

uhlDFaJ; uhlDF ntoaJ.
ij mnua kj, JUa kj vgJngh ij
uhl kj, myJ uhl kj vW ntLkhdh brh
bfht ekF Mnrgidiy vW jij bgah
yhij uhl kj vW cik bfhlhLwh.
Kng brhdJngh, ah Ma MunghJ
mtfis VW bfhltf Jfshf gy #hfshf
UJ tUwd. Maij Vfhj xU Tl UjJ.
mtfjh bgsjf. tf bgsj njhfofglnghJ
rhahfgL lglhjtfshf xJ itfgld. go
xJ itfgltf xU djh ah yh
EiHjnghJ mmahf m jfis izJ
bfhltfjh iwa Kf. yhij VW
bfhltf cwdfsha jUj lglhjtfjh
iwa jJf.
iwt j ntj FLwh; kjfns!
rakhf eh cfis xU M, xU bgUnj
gilnjh. f xUtiu xUt mJ bfhS bghUL
d cfis isfshf, nfhufshf Mndh.
(mFM 49 : 13)
nghJ brhYf, yh vj kjJF myJ vj
dJF vuhdJ. vj xU kf TlK yh ujgj
yhk iy. mJjh yh mogil bfhifTl.
mjhtJ xU MUJ, xU bgUJ gilfgl
kjf rjfjh ehkidtU. Mfntjh cyf
kf xnu khf yh kLnk vW brh mnghL
miHnw.
eh thG cyf xW. m thG eh midtU xW.
mJnghynt eh tzF iwtD xnw. mj iwt
khfnk yh. yh vD mj rkJt fl rff
thUf. myh ehodh rhaij ntuWJ rnfhjuJtij
iy ehLnth.