Chapter 1

"Get up, darating na sila kuya." Nakapikit kong tinutulak si Ford palayo sa akin.
Our naked bodies are still intertwined under the messy comforter and sheets of my
bed. I liked the comfort and warmth his body brings but he needs to go.
"Hmm." He just groaned and pulled me closer to him. My back slammed into his cold
body. I squirmed.
"Ford isa!" Angil ko sa kanya.
"Five minutes." Groggy pa rin ang boses na sabi nya.
"Hindi pwede. Please, go." Nagtangka akong kumawala mula sa kanya pero hindi nya
talaga ako binibitiwan.
I pushed him again but to no avail.
"Ford, I swear-"
"Fine. Fine. Tatayo na po." He gave me a quick kiss on my shoulder and got up. I
opened my eyes and saw his naked body as he stretched in front of me.
"Another round before I go?" Nakangisi na tanong nya.
Inirapan ko sya. "Mag isa ka. Umuwi ka na." At tinalikuran ko sya. I'm still sore,
for good. Iyon naman talaga ang reason kung bakit sya nandito, to warm my bed.
I heard him chuckled. Isa isa nyang pinulot ang mga damit nya at isinuot ang mga
iyon. He looked like a mess, but a beautiful one. Gusot ang polo nya, his buckles
aren't even perfectly secured, and then his hair looked like it just came from a
hurricane.
His scent stayed on my bed. Kasalukuyan ko iyon na linalanghap habang tinitingnan
sya ayusin ang sarili nya sa harap ng tokador ko. When he's all done, he walked
towards me.
"When are you leaving?" Sumupo sya sa gilid ng kama at nagsimulang isuot ang
sapatos nya.
"Sa susunod na araw. Sasabay na ako kila kuya." I answered before I yawned.
"Pati si Habagat? I thought he'd be managing the business here?"
Umiling ako. "He will. Babalik lang sya next week."
Tumango sya. "I'll see you there in four days."
"Oh. Wow. At may sarili kang schedule?" Taas kilay na sabi ko sa kanya. Kipkip ko
ang comforter hanggang sa dibdib ko para itago ang kahubdan ko.
"What? Binyagan natin ang bago kong flat." Then he winked.
"Pag iisipan ko." Playful na sabi ko.
Humarap sya sa akin at pinisil ang dalawang pisngi ko. "I'm gonna make you an offer
you can't refuse."
Tinabig ko ang kamay nya. "Baka may schedule ako nyan."
"Photoshoot? Meeting?" Nagsalubong ang kilay nya. Suot nya na ang mga sapatos nya
pero hindi pa rin sya tumatayo.
"Hindi ko sure. Ang alam ko meron."
"Hmm. Excuses." He narrowed his eyes on me.
I groaned. "Just go, Roswell. Sawa na ako sa mukha mo." I rolled over and turned my
back on him.
Naramdaman ko na sumampa sya sa kama. He got an ample amount of my hair and softly
yanked my head to turn into him.
"I swear you'll miss the feeling of my big cock inside your sweet mouth and tight
pussy." Nakangisi na sabi nya. "And when you do, you know what to dial in your
phone."
I felt the hot familiar feeling pooled on my stomach. He really knows just what to
say and does to turn me on. Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko at hindi ako nakasagot.
"See you." He gave me a quick peck on my cheek then he's gone.
My core's kind of still sore from a few rounds with him all night. Two weeks kaming
hindi nagkita because of our respective schedules, not that we keep track of each
other's whereabouts but when we both learned na nasa Isabela kami, hindi sya nag
aksaya ng oras at pumunta.Lagpas isang oras ang byahe mula sa kanila sa Cauayan
papunta sa amin and he doesn't mind. Of course he doesn't.
I told him I'm alone and he knew what just to do.
He gave me my first orgasm in the kitchen counter. Our helpers aren't stay in, so
from seven o'clock onwards, the house was desserted and he fucked me like it will
be our last.
Ashford Roswell is the best lover that I ever had. Not that I had a lot, but I had
a few, and they don't satisfy me like Ashford does. Never mind the fact na sya ang
naka kuha ng virginity ko.
And our past is the only thing from the past I don't want to go back to. Ever.
After fifteen minutes, kuya Argos and kuya Habagat arrived. I'm glad that I kicked
Ashford out early. Mabuti rin na nakapagluto na ng pananghalian si Manang Seda
dahil parang hindi kumain ng isang buong lingo ang kagutuman ng dalawa.
Sumabay na ako sa kanila sa pagkain. We talked business as usual. Noong una ay wala
akong balak na makisali sa business na gusto nila, but they wanted me to know the
ropes too. Kaya paunti unti ay nakiki involve din ako.
Seven years ago, namumuhay lang kami sa pagbubukid nila tatay, kuya Argos at kuya
Habagat. Not that it's a bad thing or what, but no one ever imagined we'll be able
to be blessed like this. Kahit kami mismo ay hindi naisip na magiging ganito ang
buhay namin.
Minsan namimiss ko rin yung pagkain naming magkakapatid sa maliit na hapag kainan
sa bahay namin noon sa compound sa Hacienda Esquillo. Yung simpleng simple lang ang
pamumuhay namin pero masaya kami.
Not that we're not happy now but I just like looking back at times.
Naniniwala ako na magiging malinaw ang daan ng pupuntahan mo kung hindi ka
natatakot lumingon sa pinanggalingan mo.
And that's exactly what my two older brothers think too.
After nila kumain ay wala na silang oras na pinalampas. Nagpahinga lang sila ng
ilang minuto at pumunta na sila sa bukid. Kakausapin daw nila ang ilang trabahador
at kakamustahin ang mga tanim.
Our land isn't as big even the half as big as Hacienda Esquillo or any other
haciendas around, pero proud ako sa maliit naming lupain dahil sipag at tyaga
naming tatlo ang pinanggalingan nito. Wala kaming sinayang kahit piso, lahat ng mga
kinita namin noon ay sinigurado namin na may patutunguhan.
And it led us here.
Bukod sa lupa namin dito sa Isabela ay may itinayo na business sila kuya Argos at
kuya Habagat sa Manila. Ako naman ay active pa rin sa mga pag tanggap ng
photoshoots at iba't ibang projects at kapag wala akong mga schedule ay tumutulong
ako kila kuya. That, or I'm screwing with the oldest of the Roswell siblings.
Sinundo kami ng mag ina ni Kuya Argos; si Ate Via at Hyacinth sa airport. Si kuya
Argos na ang nag drive ng sasakyan pauwi sa kanila. Ibinaba na lang namin si kuya
Habagat sa flat nya. Madalas na kila kuya Argos ako tumutuloy kapag nandito ako sa
Manila, although I have my own apartment.
I stayed at their house for the night pero umalis na ako the next morning. Kelly,
my on call assistant, reminded me na may interview ako para sa Preview Magazine
today. Thirty minutes before call time ay nandoon na ako.
"Ano'ng schedule ko bukas?" Tanong ko kay Kelly habang naglalakad na kami palabas
sa building.
Agad nyang inilabas ang ipad nya at tiningnan ang schedule ko.
"You need to attend a ribbon cutting at ten. Sa Eastwood. Tapos guest judge ka sa
isang beauty pageant sa Valenzuela. Alas siete naman 'yon ng gabi so madaming time
ka mag relax." Tapos tinago nya rin agad sa malaking shoulder bag nya ang ipad.I
nod. "Okay." Luminga linga ako sa paligid.
Kasalukuyan kaming naghihintay ng sasakyan from UBER. Hindi ako nagdadala ng
sasakyan kapag madami akong schedule o lakad. I think that it's impractical. Pati
na rin ang pagkuha ng driver.
Kelly can drive anyway, pero as much as possible ay hindi ko sya pinapa gawa ng
workload outside her job description.
Alas otso na ako nakauwi sa apartment ko. Pagkalabas ko ng shower ay nakita ko na
may text message sa cellphone ko from Ashford.
Roswell:
What's your sched tomorrow?
Napangiti ako. Can't get enough your hands off of me, huh?
Hindi muna ako nagreply. Nagbihis muna ako. I was about to type my response when he
called instead.
"Very impatience, are we, Roswell?" Playful na sabi ko.
"So talagang hindi ka nagreply?" He scowled.
Tumawa ako. "I just got out of shower. Magrereply pa lang sana ako but then tumawag
ka na."
"Are you still in your towel?" There's a hint of naughtiness in his voice and it
made me long for his touch.
"Maybe."
He sighed. "Panira ka talaga lagi ng mood."
Tumawa ako ulit.
"What's your schedule tomorrow by the way?"
"Ribbon cutting in the morning and pageant judge in the evening." Sagot ko na lang.
Mukhang anytime ay magta tantrums na si Ford.
"Send me the location and I'll fetch you tomorrow night."
Hearing what he said got me excited. I don't need to ask him kung ano ang gagawin
naming dahil alam na alam ko naman na.
I immediately prepared my late dinner nang matapos ang usapan namin ni Ford. Kahit
na sinabi ko noon sa sarili ko na kailangan na ako ang may upper hand sa kung ano
mang meron kami, I sometimes can't helped but to get weak lalo na kapag nagdidirty
talk sya.
Maybe that's one of the reasons why he's the best lover that I had. The past ones
just can't seem to arouse me before we fuck. While with Ford, iniisip ko pa lang, I
get wet in a second.
"Six months of fucking, Ami. Kailan ka tumagal ng ganyan sa isang lalaki?"
Pinanlalakihan ako ng mga mata ni Sari habang binubuga ang usok ng sigarilyo nya.
"Kay Ford lang." Mabilis na sagot ko.
Napailing iling si Sari.
My lifestyle isn't as bad as it sounds like. I wasn't a slut, I'm just open in my
sexuality. Well, that's what I kept on telling myself. I don't do multiple partners
at so far ay pangatlo pa lang naman si Ford sa mga nagging exclusive partners ko.
I don't do relationships and commitments.
Na trauma ako sa pinaka unang relationship na napasukan ko when I was just
eighteen. That was one of the lowest point of my life.
"I think you really still have feelings for the guy."
Nabilaukan ako nang marinig ang sinabi nya. "O-of course not!" I protested, wiping
my mouth.
Tumawa sya. "First love never dies."
"Wow. Coming from you." Sarcastic na sabi ko.
Kuya Argos is Sari's first love. Bago ko pa sya makilala, he already got the hots
for my brother. At nalaman ko lang iyon sa kalagitnaan ng pagiging mag bestfriend
namin.When they became an item, kahit alam ko na hindi pa rin nakaka move on si
kuya Argos kay ate Via noon, I felt happy. Iniisip ko na baka naman magka chance
talaga si Sari kay kuya?
But the moment na bumalik sa buhay ni kuya si ate Via, I hated when he dropped Sari
like a hot potato. Pero hindi ko rin naman masisisi si kuya. I knew how he loves
ate Via. But it just feels wrong. Alam ko kung gaano nasaktan si Sari.
Lagpas isang taon pa lang ang pangyayari but I can see that Sari's healing. The
first few months we're messy. Hindi naman sya suicidal pero pumayat talaga sya
dahil wala syang gana kumain.
That's what love brings you. A broken heart. It leaves you vulnerable, weak and
there's nothing you can do about it. And it's exactly the same reason kung bakit
ayoko ng commitment. Masakit. Mapait. At siguradong masasaktan ka.
"Honey, unlike you, hindi ko tinatago na mahal ko pa rin ang kuya mo. Isa pa,
lagpas isang taon pa lang naman since he dumped me." Kibit balikat na sabi nya at
humithit ulit sa esse' na hawak na.
Sari's actually better in moving on than I did way back. But then, maybe, it's
because I was young and innocent back then. And I wish I wasn't. Oh how I wish.
"I'm not hiding anything. Wala na akong nararamdaman para sa kanya. Lust, maybe.
But you can't blame me. That guy has talents in bed aside from having a god given
tool. You know what I mean."
Humalakhak si Sari. "Is he really that good?"
"Yep." Proud na sabi ko.
"Fine. But I'm telling you, hindi ako naniniwala na naka move on ka na. One of
these days, you're going to tell me I'm right." She even winked at me.
I sighed. "You're crazy."
"I just know you well."
Pagkatapos naming mag kape at mag catch up ni Sari ay nakipag kita ako kay Kelly sa
Cubao. Mula doon ay nag UBER kami papunta naman sa Valenzuela. A few minutes before
seven, we arrived at the place.
"How's my favourite girl?" Malapad ang ngiti na sinalubong ako ni Stan. He's a
councillor at that city and he's the one who invited me aside from the reason na
isa ang Flawless sa mga sponsor at endorser nila ako.
He pulled me in for a hug and he kissed me on my cheeks. He's still using the same
perfume.
"Better. How about you?" Nakangiti rin na sabi ko.
"Doing good. Traffic ba?" Inakay nya ako papasok sa backstage ng venue. His hand is
on my back at nakasunod si Kelly sa amin.
Simpleng white summer dress na backless ang suot ko. Nakalugay lang ang buhok ko at
nag suot lang ako ng pearl necklace at earrings.
"Medyo." Casual na sabi ko habang lumilinga linga at naghahanap ng ibang pamilyar
na mukha.
Imbes ay inilapit ni Stan ang mukha nya sa tenga ko at bumulong. "I'm free later if
you are." At mabilis rin na lumayo matapos luminga linga sa paligid.
Hindi ko mapigilan ang mapangisi. Stan's actually my first sexual partner. He was
the one who made me realize the wonders of being open to my sexuality. He's good.
Best, actually. But I had to let him go.
Sabihin na natin na kung gaano kami ka compatible sa kama ay ganoon naman ang layo
ng compatibility namin when we're not horny for each other. He's nice. A little
naughty bit he's just too nice. And passive.
Maayos naman ang pagtatapos ng 'relationship' namin. It's our little secret so it
ended a secret too. Although sa ngayon ay alam na ni Sari. She's my bestfriend
afterall.
"I already have a date." Nakangisi na sabi ko.
"Shoot. Who?" Taas kilay na tanong nya. Mabagal ang paglalakad namin. His hands are
at his back but his attention is on me.
"Hindi mo kilala." Sabi ko na lang at tumingin sa harap.
"So that's why you're glowing."
Napatigil ako sa paglalakad at tiningnan sya na kunot ang noo. "What are you
talking about?"
He chuckled. "I know you were seeing someone. You know how rumours go."
I shrugged my shoulders. "He's just another you."
"At first, I thought it was. But seeing you like this? I don't know, Ami. You even
turned me down this time." Playful na sabi nya.
Not that I have been saying yes to all of his offers before, but every time na wala
akong 'exclusive partner' ay kay Stan pa rin naman ako bumabalik. And the guy knows
it.
I glared at him. "You're crazy. Stop babbling. I never remembered you to be this
talkative."
"Fine." Tumawa sya. "This way." Sa huli ay sya na rin ang sumuko at ipinakilala ako
sa ibang judges.
Isa si Stan sa mga judge at magkatabi kami sa panel. We've been talking in between
sets pero tinitingnan ko sya ng masama kapag inaasar nya ako by asking me to ditch
my date that night and go home with him instead.
Before they announce the winner, nakatanggap na ako ng text message from Ford na
malapit na sya. I replied with a simple 'OK' since Stan's been hovering at me
whenever I am using my phone.
Kami ni Stan ang nagbigay ng sash, trophy, bouquet and ang mga prize from the
sponsors sa first runner up. When the pageant's over, I texted Ford na palabas na
ako.
We can't be seen in public, depende na lang kung invited kami sa iisang event, then
we can. But situations like this, hindi pwede. I can't risk people knowing who I
was screwing this time. They can talk about me or spread rumours about me but they
can't know who.
Roswell:
Hurry up. I parked at the left side of the venue.
Stan kept on insisting na ihahatid nya pa kami sa labas ni Kelly.
"Stan, isa!"
He chuckled. He's enjoying annoying me!
"Seriously. Bumalik ka na sa loob."
"What, you're afraid that I'll see your date? Hmm?"
I sighed. Nauubusan na ako ng pasensya. I just want to go. Pinauna ko na sa labas
si Kelly. Hihintayin nya na lang ako doon. And whenever sinusundo ako ni Ford,
which rarely happens because I always say no, pinapasakay ko na muna ng UBER si
Kelly.
But we still have something to discuss kaya kailangan nya pa akong hintayin. And
Stan's purposely annoying me.
He put his hands on his pocket. Stan's dashing. He's already in his mid thirties
pero parang kaedad ko lang sya. I know a lot of women in the circle who wanted to
be with him pero mukhang malayo pa sa isip nya ang mag asawa.
"C'mon." He nod and walked before me.
Hindi ko sya sinundan. Shit. I don't want him to see Ford. I don't want anyone
seeing Ford right now.
"You're enjoying this, aren't you?" Salubong ang kilay na tanong ko sa kanya. I put
my hands on my waist. I am getting serious.
Instead ay tumawa na naman sya. "Shoot. Seryoso. Galit ka na? Na miss lang naman
kita." Lumapit sya ulit sa akin. Too close.
I had to move back and look around us. Pero lumapit sya ulit.
That's when my eyes saw a figure standing a few meters from us.
Si Ford. I'm screwed.

Chapter 2

Nangatal ang mga labi ko, at hindi ko alam kung dahil iyon sa katotohanan na
papalapit na sya sa amin ni Stan at makikilala na sya ni Stan and he will be seen
with me or because he looked smoking hot in his black leather jacket with a dark
expression on his face.
Tumingin din si Stan kung saan ako naka tingin. Umatras sya palayo sa akin at
dalawa na kaming sinusundan ng tingin si Ford.
Ford stood next to me; his hand automatically pulled me in my waist into him. His
sexy and musky scent knocked on my nose and it did not help in calming me down.
"I supposed we haven't met yet?" This time ay sabi ni Stan. He was smiling like an
idiot as he extends his hand in front of Ford.
I gulped when Ford shook it. "Ashford Roswell." Swabeng swabe na pagkakasabi nya,
hindi pa rin nagbabago ang expression nya.
The heat of his hand on my waist is already burning holes into my body. I need a
fan. I need something cold. I need to get out.
"Stanley Relova." Stan answered.
Nang matauhan ako ay tiningala ko si Ford. "L-let's go."
Yinuko nya naman ako. "I was wondering what's taking you so long." He informed me.
Sinulyapan ko si Stan at tiningnan ulit si Ford. "T-tara na." Hinila ko na sya pero
hindi pa rin sya gumagalaw.
Nang magtama ang mga mata namin ni Stan, I saw a glint in it. I don't know what it
means, pero naiinis ako. When I said that Stan's a little too nice, I meant it. I
mean, he can be a little bully at times pero may tiwala ako sa kanya.
He's still protective of me. At hindi lang naman sya tumatawag sa akin para ayain
ako mag sex. His calls are mostly about knowing how I am at that moment. And I am
glad we have this type of relationship.
But he's just too damn annoying right now.
"I suppose you still have somewhere to go?" Maya maya ay sabi nya. But his grin is
teasing me.
"Yes. Just,, just go back inside." Pinanlakihan ko sya ng tingin bago ko muling
hinila paalis si Ford.
This time ay nagpahila na sya.
Nang makalabas na kami, he yanked his hand from mine. Kunot noo na tiningnan ko
sya.
His chest's moving, parang may gusto syang gawin na pinipigilan nya.
"Ford. Is something wrong?"
"Who was that guy?" His voice.. It's different. Galit ba sya?
"He's Stan." Bigla akong kinabahan.
"Bullshit. I don't need his name. Ano mo sya?" Okay. Now I can tell that he's
really mad. Bahagyang nanlilisik ang mga mata nya.
"F-ford.." Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin.
"Ano mo sya?" Tanong nya ulit. There's danger in his voice and I don't like it.
Umatras ako. Two steps away from him. I felt like I am suffocating suddenly. His
expression's grim and dark like I've never seen before.
"He's just a guy I know." I answered my throat dry.
I can see Kelly a few meters away from us. I can see the worry in her face pero
alam nya rin naman na hindi ako sasaktan ni Ford. Well, I don't know about that
now.
He looked like he's ready to hurt me.
Huminga ng malalim si Ford. "You told me we're exclusive!" Tumaas ang boses nya.
I was startled. Napakurap ako. "W-we are."
"Then who was he?"
"Ford.. ano bang problema mo?" I gained my confidence back.
He looked pissed.
"Are you fucking that guy?" Tinuro nya ang entrance ng lugar na pinanggalingan
naminn.
Hinila ko ang braso nya para ibaba nya iyon. "What? Of course not! Ford, ano ba?
Why are you making a scene? At bakit ka bumaba sa sasakyan? Paano kung may makakita
sa atin-"
"I don't care."
I gasped. "What?"
"I don't care." He mumbled again. "As long as you're not fucking that guy. Or any
other guy." This time he looked like he's calming down.
Nasapo ko ang noo ko. This is ridiculous. He thought I was fucking Stan? I was. Not
that he still need to know that. Damn it.
"Can we go? Now?" Mariin na sabi ko.
Hindi sya nagsalita. Tinitigan nya lang ako at naunang naglakad.
That's when Kelly ran towards me.
"What happened? Nag aaway ba kayo?" Nag aalala na tanong nya.
Sinundan namin ng tingin si Ford.
Umiling iling ako. "No. Misunderstanding lang."
"Nagulat nga ako nang makasalubong ko sya. He asked me where you were. Tinuro na
lang kita sa gulat."
I bit my lower lip. Luminga linga ako. Wala naman sana nakakitang iba. I am so
gonna killa Stan after this. Shit.
"Can I go first? Kailangan pa kasi naming mag usap. I'll call you tomorrow. Or you
call me."
"Sige. Ako na bahala. Ingat kayo." Sabi na lang ni Kelly.
I feel bad for not waiting na makasakay sya pauwi pero in three minutes naman daw
ay darating na ang sasakyan. Atubili ako na sumunod kay Ford at sumakay sa
sasakyan. He started the engine and he started driving.
"We need to talk." Seryoso na sabi ko.
"About?" Parang hindi kami nagkasagutan kanina kung maka react sya.
"About what happened a while ago." I sighed.
Hindi sya sumagot. He's just driving.
"Ford." I called him.
"Go ahead."
Huminga ako ng malalim. "Bakit ka lumabas sa sasakyan?"
"You were taking too long."
"That's not the point! Nakapag hintay ka nga ng halos isang oras the last time." I
hissed at him.
"Maybe I have a hunch that you're talking to that guy."
"God. Can you stop bringing Stan into this? Usapan natin na bawal may makakita sa
akin na magkasama."
"No. I never said yes to that fucking rule of yours. Sinusunod ko lang dahil iyon
ang gusto mo. And I did that for quite a while now."
Napanganga ako. Wow. "What are you talking about? Ford-"
"You never asked me if it's what I like too."
"Well. What do you like then? Ang pagtsismisan tayo?" Hamon ko sa kanya. Tumataas
na ang boses ko and I feel like I want to explode.
"I want to be seen with you. For the longest time, that's what I want. Alam mo ba
kung gaano kahirap na hindi ka malapitan tuwing namimiss kita kasi hindi pwede?
Kasi ayaw mo? Kasi makikita tayo ng ibang tao?"Hindi ako nakapagsalita. I can't
grasp what he was saying. Bakit nya 'yon sinasabi?
"Pero tiniis ko kasi 'yon ang gusto mo." Pahabol nya.
"Ford.. what the hell do you want for me? We're fuck buddies, for Christ's sake.
Gusto mo bang ipagkalat sa buong mundo 'yon?"
Hindi sya sumagot. Focus lang sya sa pagdadrive nya. Hindi na rin ako nagsalita.
Nawala ang nararamdaman kong gutom. When I realized that I wasn't familiar with the
road we're going through, I was the one who broke the deafening silence.
"Where are we going?"
"Sa bago kong flat." Hindi nya ako nilingon. His full attention's on the road but
his expressions still hard.
I sighed. "I don't think it will work tonight. Ihatid mo na lang ako." Nilingon ko
sya. "Or better yet, just drop me off somewhere. I'll take a cab." Inayos ko ang
strap ng shoulder bag ko sa balikat ko.
"Not gonna happened." He answered without blinking.
"Damn it, Roswell." Pigil ang inis na sabi ko. "Wala na ako sa mood. I don't think
I can let you fuck me tonight after all of you childish whining!"
That's when he looked at me for a second. "I'm not whining. And I know you know I
am not childish in bed."
I rolled my eyeballs. "Damn you."
I really don't understand him. This is the first time we ever argued ever since we
agreed on being each other's booty call. And it's because he thought I was fucking
someone. Tapos kesyo ayaw nya daw sa rule namin na dapat ay walang makakakita sa
aming magkasama in public.
I was thinking for the both of us.
Hindi na ako nag protesta nang ipasok nya sa underground parking space ng isang
building sa Ortigas ang sasakyan nya. So this is where his new flat is?
Nasa elevator na kami ay wala pa rin kaming imikan. I don't know how we are going
to fuck on with this awkward atmosphere around us. The truth is, kahit walang sex,
I like hanging out with Ford.
He's cool. He makes me laugh. I feel at ease.
Lagpas six months pa lang mula nag magkita kami ulit. Ashford stayed in Manila when
he started joining their company a few years ago. Naging close kami ng sumunod sa
kanya na si Ahrendale kahit na gusto ko na sana umiwas sa pamilya nila.
When kuya Argos started getting famous, he became a figure in Isabela. Then kami
rin ni kuya Habagat. Then their mother started being nice to me. Hindi ako yung
tipo na nagdadala ng sama ng loob kaya kahit gaano pa kasakit ang ginawa nya sa
akin noon, I was still polite.
She had this ridiculous idea na si Ahren ang susunod na tatakbo pagkatapos ng
termino ng asawa nya. Unang termino pa lang naman ng daddy nila bilang Governor and
all of a sudden, pinaplano na ng mommy nila ang pagtakbo ni Ahren.
And she wanted me to be engaged with him knowing na may malisya ang closeness
namin. Ahren said na hayaan ko na lang daw isipin ng mommy nya na ganoon nga. He
even gave me a ring para patunayan iyon!
Assurance lang naman daw ang gusto ng mommy nila at ayaw na rin namin na lumaki
kaya pumayag ako.
But when Ahrendale came home with his girlfriend, everything just became a mess.
Naghysterical ang mommy nila. Dinalaw ko sila dahil sa friendship namin ni Ahren
and that's when I saw Ashford again.
Eight years na ang nagdaan and he became more dashing. He was my first love and my
first broken heart. I didn't know kung paano nya nalaman ang tungko sa pagbabanta
sa akin ng mommy nya pati na rin ang mga pananakot nito but he went to our house
demanding if it's true."F-ford?" Gulat na tanong ko.
Nang sabihin ng kasambahay na may bisita daw ako bago sila umalis, Ashford Roswell
is the last person I am expecting. Pero nandito sya.
I just came home from their house last night. I pretended not seeing him there
dahil iyon naman talaga ang dapat. I expected him to do so and he did. So anong
ginagawa nya ngayon dito?
Inilapag ko sa lamesa ang cellphone ko at kunot noo na humarap sa kanya. "M-may
kailangan ka ba?"
He was wearing his signature black leather jacket and tight fit pants. I used to
tease him before na action star wannabe sya sa porma nya pero sa totoo lang ay
bagay iyon sa kanya. His sexy butt is defined well in his jeans.
Nakatitig lang sya sa akin na parang kinakabisado ang mukha ko at it made me felt
uneasy. He then started walking towards me. Tumigil sya nang ilang pulgada na lang
ang lapit nya sa akin.
"Is it true? Mommy threatened you and your family?" Malamlam ang mga mata nya nang
itanong iyon.
Para akong hinihigop ng mga mata nya. Napapitlag ako. P-paano nya nalaman? I
blinked for a few times bago ako umiwas ng tingin sa kanya.
"M-matagal na yung nangyari." Humakbang ako palayo sa kanya. His scent is
assaulting me. My veins started to become alive.
Humakbang pa sya ulit para lumapit sa akin. "I'm sorry.."
Mapait akong ngumiti. "I told you it's all in the past." I tried cheering up my
voice but I failed. My heart started thumping like crazy.
Humakbang sya ulit at parang mawawalan na ako ng hininga kaya umatras ako pero
nawala ang balance ko kaya muntik na akong malaglag but he caught me. Dumukwang sya
at nakatitig pa rin sya sa akin.
"F-ford."
I was out of my mind. I just realized what's happening when our lips are already
touching and his tongue's already asking entrance to my mouth. I got dizzy, I felt
lost, but I welcomed him by opening my mouth.
His lips are still like what I remember. Soft and cold. Naramdaman ko ang pamilyar
na kuryente na dumaloy sa katawan ko, waking every veins in my body.
I tried to pushed him, but he overpowers me. My knees weakened and I have no choice
kung hindi ang humawak sa mga braso nya para makatayo ako ng maayos. His arm held
me at my waist.
"F-ford!" I said in between our kiss.
He's not stopping, at alam ko na kaunti na lang ay bibigay na ako.
"I want you so fucking bad." He whispered. His voice raspy and it sounded so damn
sexy.
Humigpit ang kapit nya sa akin at mas lumalim ang paraan ng pag halik nya. He's
consuming me and I am drowning. Before I knew it I was giving in to him. His kisses
were slow but deep. Puno ng pag iingat pero ramdam ko ang gigil.
We fell at the couch. Agad kong naramdaman ang bigat nya sa ibabaw ko. I was losing
my mind. Should I push him or just let him? All of the thoughts started to vanished
when his one hand found its way under my shirt at agad na nakapa ang dibdib ko.
A moan escaped my lips as his fingers pulled my bra down under my shirt. Oh
God.Ibinuka nya ang mga hita ko gamit ang tuhod nya. He positioned his self in
between.
"F-ford..no.."
He wasn't listening. Patuloy lang sya sa paghalik nya at lalo lang akong nadadala.
He started dry humping me. Idinidiin nya ang sarili nya at unti unti kong
naramdaman ang pagtigas ng pagkalalaki nya sa ilalim ng pants nya.
He pulled my shirt up. I bit my lower lip when he just threw it somewhere.
Tinitigan ko ang mukha nya. Malamlam ang mga mata nya, his lips pursed and it's
swollen from our kissing. Kinapa nya ang hook ng bra ko sa likod ko at tinapon din
iyon nang matanggal nya na.
"God! Ford!" I tried pushing him. Nakita ko na bukas ang pinto. Umuwi na ang mga
kasambahay pero paano kung may makakita sa amin?
"Please." He grunted.
Hinubad nya na rin ang jacket at t-shirt nya. Napalunok na lang ako nang makita ko
ang kahubdan nya. Kinuha nya ang mga kamay ko at dinala sa sinturon ng pantalon
nya.
"P-pero.." I want this, but I am hesitating because it's him.
"Do it." Mahinang sabi nya.
Nagkusa ang mga kamay ko na tanggalin ang belt nya. I unbuttoned his pants next and
opened his fly. Napalunok ako nang si Ford na ang nagkusang hubarin iyon. We're
both half naked but he's in his birthday suit now.
Sunod syang nagging busy sa paghubad ng suot kong shorts. I looked like a fool just
letting him do what he wants, but I am overpowered by lust. Nagkalat ang mga damit
namin kung saan at kapwa na kami hubad.
His cock is just like what I remembered; long, big and beautiful. I looked up to
him. We're already both panting. The glisten of his precum in his head is very
visible.
Tiningala ko sya at nakita ko ang pagngisi nya bago sya ulit pumatong sa akin at
hinalikan ako.Agad na tumama ang kahandaan nya sa pagkababae ko. I'm so damn horny
for him.
He rubbed his raging cock into my wet folds and it felt like ecstacy.
"Oh.. F-ford." I shivered. Humigpit ang yakap ko sa leeg nya.
Mula sa dibdib ko ay naglakbay pababa ang kamay nya hanggang sa maabot nya ang
gitna ko. His fingers played my clit. Napaliyad ako.
I have been with a few men that pleasured me, pero may kakaibang hated at init ang
hawak ni Ford sa akin. Gusto ko iyon, pero ayokong aminin kahit sa sarili ko.
"I know you'd like that." He murmured huskily and licked my earlobe.
"God!" Ungol ko nang ipasok nya na ang daliri nya. He slid it in and out habang
nahuli naman ng bibig nya ang tuktok ng dibdib ko. He was sucking and licking my
nipples at nakatingin pa sya sa akin habang ginagawa iyon.
He pulled his finger. I looked at him at naramdaman ko na ang ulo ng kahandaan nya
na papasok na sa akin. He then put his fingers into his mouth and licked my juice.
I felt like something exploded inside me. Fuck it's so hot!
He started thrusting in and out. Our bodies slapping at each other.
"Fuck baby you're still so tight." He moaned.
Pabilis ng pabilis ang paghinga namin kasabay sa mabilis nyang paglabas pasok sa
akin. My walls clenched around him and we convulsed together while he's holding me
tight.
Chapter 3

I was whisked away from that memory when I felt Ford's lips on my neck. Automatic
na nag init ang katawan ko nang gawin nya iyon. He was kissing me there and
caressing my arm.
Humigpit ang pagkakahawak ko sa wine glass. We were both standing at his condo's
balcony feeling the cold air and looking at the city lights.
Bahagya ko syang tinulak. Inubos ko ang laman ng wine glass na hawak ko at inilapag
iyon sa lamesa. I was about to say something pero nahuli na ni Ford ang mga labi
ko. He crashed his lips into mine as his arm snaked into my waist to pull me
closer.
His other hand landed on my butt. Pinisil nya iyon at mas inilapit sa kanya. I
groaned. He's really doing this.
His kisses traced down to my jaw to my neck and to my shoulder. Ibinaba nya ang
strap ng suot ko'ng dress.
Kung saan saan linilipad ang buhok ko. Hinila nya ako para pumasok at sinara ang
glass door papunta sa balcony. His place was huge. Two bedroom and spacious living
room and kitchen. Pero wala masyadong gamit. Ford's a minimalist. He hates clutter.
We ended at his kitchen's counter. He lifted me and made me sat there. Pumwesto sya
sa gitna ng mga hita ko. Itinaas nya ang dress ko habang hinahalikan ako. His cold
hands are caressing my legs up and down.
Humiwalay sya at ngumisi. "Still not in the mood, baby?"
I rolled my eyeballs. Fine, nawala na ang inis ko kanina.
He chuckled as I started unbuttoning his polo. Nang mahubad ko na iyon ay ang
sinturon nya at pants naman ang binalingan ko. He's already hard underneath just as
I am already wet. Nang bumaba na ang pantaloon at boxer nya ay hinila nya ako
pababa sa counter.
Tumayo sya sa likod ko at binuksan ang zipper ng dress ko sa likod. When it landed
on the floor, he immediately bent me on the counter. Agad kong naramdaman ang lamig
ng granite tiles sa katawan ko. Hinawi nya ang panty ko. He caressed my clit with
his finger.
He bent over and gave me wet kisses on my shoulder.
He slowly entered me using his finger. I bit my lower lip. Sinimulan nyang maglabas
pasok at pakiramdam ko ay lalagnatin na ako sa init ng pakiramdam ko. Ford's touch
is electric.
Buhay ang bawat nerves sa katawan ko sa bawat haplos at hawak na ginagawa nya sa
akin. My body's so responsive to him like my body knew it belonged to Ford.
His fingers did wonders. My desire heightened with every in and out motion he was
doing. Napaliyad ako, my chest pressed into the cold counter. Kung saan saan
nakarating ang isang kamay nya, exploring more of my body.
"Yes! Ah!" I moaned.
He pulled his finger and slammed his cock without warning. I writhed under him. He
filled me in and it felt amazing.
"Fuck. You make me so damn hard." He moaned in between his breathe.
"Yes! F-ford.." Hindi na ako mapakali nang magsimula syang gumalaw. Mabagal sa
umpisa hanggang sa unti unting bumilis ang pag ulos nya. I am anticipating every
thrust he makes.
Gumapang ang kamay nya pababa sa puson ko. When he reached my clit, he played with
it while thrusting at my back.
His body slapping into mind sounder like harmony. He's consuming me. Lahat ng
tungkol kay Ford ay gusto ko. Napaliyad ako at inabot ng isang kamay ko ang buhok
nya.
He groaned. I pulled a few of his hair.
"Fuck. Fuck! Yes! Ah!" I screamed. "I'm gonna come. Ford!""Not yet." He said
breathing heavily as he was ramming his shaft in an incredible speed. Kitang kita
ko ang pag igting ng leeg nya at paglabas ng mga ugat doon. It's so sexy.
"Please.." I begged him. I bit my lower lip. I want to come so bad.
"Patience, baby." He bit me in my shoulder and squeezed my other boob. Patuloy ang
paglalaro nya sa kaselanan ko at hindi ko alam ang gagawin para pigilan ang sarili
kong umabot sa sukdulan.
"F-ford.. Please!" Inabot ko ang isang kamay nya na naka hawak sa dibdib ko.
Nanghihina na ang mga tuhod ko at tanging ang kitchen counter na lang ang dahilan
kung bakit hindi pa ako tuluyan na nalalaglag.
I feel dizzy. Gumagalaw na ang lahat sa paligid ko sa sobrang sarap na nararamdaman
ko. I can do this all day with him. Fuck. Mabuti na lang at sumama pa rin ako sa
kanya despite arguing with him.
Kinakagat kagat nya ang isang tenga ko at ramdam ko ang gigil nya. Rinig ko rin ang
mabilis at malalim din nyang pag hinga. We were both panting as we are losing our
breaths.
"Come with me." He thrusted deeper after that command.
I came in seconds and he filled me in after a few more thrusting.
Nanginginig pa ako at nanghihina nang kargahin ako ni Ford at idala sa kanyang
kwarto. Ihiniga nya ako sa kanyang king size bed. He got on top of me and kissed
me.
Humihingal kami pareho nang mag hiwalay kami.
Hinawi nya ang ilang hibla ng buhok ko sa mukha ko. He looked at me tenderly and I
loved it.
"Can we sleep already?" I plead. Ngayon ko naramdaman ang pagod simula pa kaninang
umaga.
He grinned. "Of course."
He rolled next to me and pulled me in. Lumapat ang likod ko sa matipuno nyang
dibdib. Hinila nya ang comforter at tinakpan ang kahubdan naming dalawa.
Ipinikit ko na ang mga mata ko. Nakadagdag rin siguro sa antok ko ang dalawang baso
ng wine na nainom ko kanina.
"Sleep tight, baby." I heard Ford said faintly bago ako tuluyang nakatulog.
"What do you want?" Nakasimangot na tanong ni kuya Habagat nang maabutan ko sya sa
office nya.
Halata ang gulat sa mukha nya nang makita ako. Hindi ko na kasi pina sabi sa
secretary nya na sabihin na papasok ako. Nabalitaan ko na lately ay naglalagi sya
sa office nya, which is very unlikely of him.
So I wanted to know if anything's happening.
He might be a little snob pero sya ang pinaka sensitive sa aming mag kakapatid
kahit ayaw nyang aminin.
Kuya Habagat became a jet setter. He likes travelling. Kaya kapag may overseas
meeting or kailangan mag travel about company matters, sya ang pinapadala ni kuya
Argos.
I chuckled. "Wow, ha? Parang nagpapakita lang ako sa'yo kapag may kailangan ako."
Dumiretso ako ng upo sa couch at itinaas ang mga paa ko.
He stood up from his swivel chair at the back of his table at umupo sa couch na
nasa harap ko.
"I'm busy. What is it?" Kunot na noo na tanong nya pa. He looked bored.
"Hindi ba pwedeng bisitahin lang kita?" Malapad ang ngiti na tanong ko.
Lalo lang syang sumimangot. "I'm busy."
"Wala ka nga ginagawa."
Tiningnan nya ako ng masama. "Wala ka bang lakad? Go." He groaned tapos tumayo sya
at bumalik sa swivel chair nya.Ibinaba ko ang mga paa ko mula sa mesa. "Akala ko ba
three days ka sa Malaysia? Bakit nandito ka na?"
"I need to work."
"Why?"
"Amihan.." It's a warning. Mukhang wala nga talaga sya sa mood.
I chuckled. "Fine. Ang grumpy mo." I did not press anymore. Baka mag away lang kami
kung i push ko pa na may malaman sa kanya.
"Go."
"Lunch?"
Umiling sya. "Hindi pa ako gutom. Mauna ka na."
Hindi ako nagsalita at umalis na lang. I can be a little nosy when it comes to my
brothers.
Speaking of brothers, naisip ko na tawagan si Miko. Bumili si kuya Argos ng bahay
at lupa sa Cauayan para mas malapit sa pinapasukang school si Miko. Sila ni tatay
ang magkasama at madalas tuwing weekend ay umuuwi sila sa Ilagan.
Salitan ko silang kinamusta ni tatay at ayos naman daw sila. Miko's a little nerdy
at nag aalala ako nab aka binubully sya sa school. Minsan kasi ay parang ayaw nya
pumasok. When I talked to him about it, itinanggi nya.
But of course, sino ba ang aamin? I promised myself to check about it kapag next
time ay parang ayaw nya na naman pumasok.
I met with Kelly at sabay kaming pumunta sa isang product launching. Isa ako sa mga
main guests. Doon na rin kami nag lunch. It's the only schedule for today kaya
nakauwi ako ng maaga.
Matapos ko'ng hubarin ang mga damit ko, leaving just my underwears, agad ko'ng
binuksan ang laptop ko. I love surfing internet, but unlike kuya Habagat who's a
little internet savy, mas ginagamit ko ang internet sa mga bagay na importante at
kaunting entertainment.
When I was done checking emails and other important stuff, I decided to check new
posts from my favourite blog. Kasalukuyan akong nagbabasa ng isang article when
Ford's message popped up.
Roswell:
Busy?
I bit my lower lip. Instead of typing an answer, I took a picture of myself.
Sinigurado ko na kita nya na naka bra lang ako. I looked at the camera at inawang
ang mga labi ko bago ko sinend sa kanya.
Roswell:
Fuck baby. I'm already rock hard and I'm in a meeting.
I took another picture of my cleavage and sent it to him.
Nakita ko na may 'seen' na pero wala syang response. Na disappoint ako, I feel like
being naughty at the moment. Or baka busy lang talaga sya dahil nga nasa meeting.
I continued reading articles when after awhile, a notification popped up na may
message si Ford. He sent me a video.
And it was a video of his hard cock while he was holding it. Halata na nasa banyo
sya ayon sa background. Five seconds ang video. Nanuyo ang lalamuna ko. Damn it.
Roswell:
Look what you've done.
I laughed at his message. Mabilis kong tinipa ang number nya sa cellphone ko. I
want to hear his voice so damn bad.
"Still busy? Can you come over?" Paos na ang boses ko sa sobrang pagnanasa.
He groaned. "I can't leave yet, baby." Paos na rin ang boses ni Ford sa kabilang
linya. I can hear his heavy breathing.
"Where are you?"
"Office."
"What are you wearing?" I bit my lower lip. I slid my hand into my underwear. God,
I'm already wet."Are we doing this?" He asked under his breathe.
"Yes. I'm already wet." Malambing na sabi ko.
"Fuck. Okay, fine. Wait a sec." Mabilis na sabi nya. Then I heard him talk in the
background, probably to his secretary. "Hold calls or anyone until further notice,
Vivian."
I giggled.
"You're one naughty girl. I'm unbuckling my freaking belt." Sabi nya kasabay ang
tunog ng bakal sa background.
"Wish you were here and my finger is your cock." I closed my eyes and imagine
Ford's fingers playing my clit.
He moaned. "Are you still wearing your bra? Take it off. I want to suck your
nipple. I know they've been begging for my tongue and lips to play with it." Halata
ang pagnanasa sa boses ni Ford.
Kasunod noon ay ang palitan namin ng malalalim na pag hinga.
It turned me on more.
"I took it off. Suck me please." I begged.
I threw the bra away. I put the phone on speaker. I used my other had to squeeze my
boobs and play with my nipple. Iniimagine ko na lang na labi at dila iyon ni Ford.
"Yes, baby. Ah.."
"I want to hear you jerk off." I demanded.
Maya maya lang ay rinig ko na ang tunog ng ginagawa nya. He lowerd his phone. Shit.
Ipinasok ko na sa akin ang dalawang daliri ko.
"Are you fingering yourself?"
"Yes.."
"I want you to put three fingers inside."
I inserted another finger more. "Ah..Goddamnit. Ford I want you here." I almost
cried in lust.
Parang may kung anong sasabog sa damdamin ko. I want him here. I want him to fuck
me senseless. Gusto kong maramdaman ang kabuuan nya sa loob ko.
"I know, baby. Imagine me enterting your sweet pussy slowly. Hmm?"
"O-okay.." Humihingal na sabi ko.
"Imagine me slowly filling you up, your pussy clenching as it swallow my big cock
whole."
God. Paanong parang sanay na sanay si Ford sa phone sex? This is our first time. At
hindi pa man kami tapos ay parang gusto ko na agad ulitin.
"Yes!"
"Don't stop fingering yourself, alright? I want us to come together." Napupuno na
ng paghingal namin ang usapan namin.
"O-okay." The lust is consuming me.
"Pinch your nipple using your other hand. Play with it. Imagine me sucking and
licking it."
"Ah! Y-yes." Para akong nahihipnotismo na ginagawa ang lahat ng gusto ni Ford. He
seemed to know what's best anyway. "Ahhh!"
"Yes, that's right. Moan for me baby." He said like a maniac.
"Damn it Ford. Why are you so good at this?"
He chuckled. "I'm good at everything. Now be a good girl and fasten your pace."
Hindi nya na kailangan sabihin dahil binibilisan ko na ang paglabas pasok ng mga
daliri ko sa akin. Hindi ako sanay mag finger o magsarili but damn this feels so
good.
"Ahhh.. F-ford."
"Baby..I'm gonna come." Naghalo na ang ungol at malalim na paghinga nya. I can feel
him moving fast. I wonder what he looked right now?
"M-me too." Impit na tili ko.
Pakiramdam ko ay mauubusan na ako ng hininga.
"Come with me. Fuck! Ah!" He screamed.
"F-ford!" I convulsed in pleasure when I came.
I looked at the ceiling. Pakiramdam ko ay gumagalaw iyon. I felt dizzy all of a
sudden. I can still hear Ford breathing hard on the other line.
"That was.."
"Amazing?" Cocky ang tono ng boses na tanong nya.
Humihingal na tumawa ako. "I want to see you jerk off next time." Mabilis na sabi
ko.
Humalakhak sya. "What's gotten into you?"
"Naiimagine ko kasi. You'll do it for me, right?" Linambingan ko ang boses ko.
Naiimagine ko pa lang na papanuorin ko sya ay ramdam ko na ang init sa katawan ko.
"Anything for you, Ms. Zaldana."
Ako naman ang tumawa. "Thanks. Aren't you busy?"
"I still have a few minutes to spare."
"Alright. Sige na, asikasuhin mo na muna yan."
Nakatulog ako pagkatapos namin mag usap ni Ford.
The next morning, nagpahila na lang ako kay Sari nang isama nya ako sa isang talk
kung saan isa sya sa mga speaker. After her stint, nagkasundo kami na mag joyride
na lang papunta sa vacation house nila sa Batangas. We're using her car.
"You sure wala kang schedule tomorrow? I'd like to stay till tomorrow afternoon."
She got the vacation house's keys from her purse at sabay kaming naglakad sa
hallway papunta sa pintuan.
"Yep. Sa isang araw pa ako ulit may schedule."
"How about schedule with your boy toy?" Nakangisi na tanong nya.
Tumawa ako. "He's busy."
Sabay kaming pumasok sa loob. May mga takip pa na putting tela ang mga furnitures.
Meaning, hindi talaga sila pumupunta dito.
"What, tayo ang maglilinis dito?" Nagtataka na tanong ko.
"Silly. My room upstair's clean. Pumupunta ako dito at least once a month whenever
I feel like it." Nauna syang umakyat sa staircase at sumunod na lang ako.
"Bakit hindi ko alam?"
"Uwian lang din naman ako usually." Kibit balikat na sabi nya.
Sari and her mother are fond of buying lands or establishments here and there.
Hindi ko nga maintindihan kung aanhin nila. I mean, if they wanted to invest edi
sana sa stock market or ibang business na lang.
Pansin ko kasi na hindi rin naman nila maasikaso lahat.
Inaasar ko na nga lang minsan si Sari na walang magawa sa pera nila. Their family
is one of the top ten richest family in the country.
"So anong plano mo?" Tanong ko nang maupo kami sa gilid ng canopy bed nya.
"Girl, nasa Laiya tayo. Makiki party tayo mamaya sa mga resort."
I grinned. "Call."

Chapter 4

"Sinong tinatawagan mo?" Kanina pa hindi mapakali si Sari. She kept on dialing on
her phone pero mukhang hindi nya ma contact ang tinatawagan nya.
Dahil biglaan at wala akong dalang damit, I used Sari's old clothes in her cabinet.
May ilan pa ngang mga bago na hindi nya na lang nagamit. Malaman ako ng kaunti sa
kanya pero kumasya naman.
"Yung kinakapatid ko. I told him I'm here at sasamahan nya daw tayo later pero
hindi ko pa rin sya ma contact."
I looked at my wrist watch. "Maaga pa naman. Kakain pa naman tayo."
Tumango sya. "Ready ka na?" Tiningnan nya ako mula ulo hanggang paa.
"Yep. Let's go." I grabbed my shoulder bag at sabay kaming bumaba.
It has been quite awhile mula nang lumabas ako at maki party. Isabela or Manila
man, madalas nasa bahay na lang ako kung wala akong importante na pupuntahan. And I
kind of missed it. Lalo na ang makasama si Sari sa mga party.
Medyo natigil ng ilang buwan ang paglabas namin nang ma broken hearted sya kay kuya
Argos. But these past few days ay kita ko na mukhang magiging okay na talaga sya.
Pasado alas sais na nang puntahan kami sa Punta Fuego resort ng kinakapatid ni
Sari.
"This is Amihan, my best friend. Ami, this is Brad, kinakapatid ko. Inaanak sya ni
Mommy."
Nakipag kamay ako sa kanya. His grip is firm and it lingered for quite a while.
Gwapo is an understatement para i describe si Brad. He has this boy next door type
of look. Siguro dahil sa malalim nyang dimple sa kaliwang pisngi nya.
Nakasuot sya ng tropical polo na bukas ang first three buttons showing his muscular
chest. He then apologized dahil na late daw sya dahil nagka problema factory nila.
Inabot ni Sari kay Brad ang susi ng sasakyan nya. Brad drove us to another private
resort after we settled our bill.
"This is where the wildest party happens." He said grinning.
Naabutan namin na nagseset up pa lang sa malawak na dalampasigan ang ilang crew ng
resort. Marami rami rin ang mga foreigners at halata na dinayo pa ng mga taga ibang
lugar ang resort.
Brad is a good host. Sya ang umasikaso ng lahat. Pinili namin na Cabana na lang ang
kunin dahil fully booked na ang mga rooms na malapit sa dalampasigan. And good
thing na nakaabot pa kami dahil last Cabana na daw yung nakuha namin.
Umorder na kami ng drinks at pinadala sa Cabana namin. Mukhang maya maya pa
magsisimula dahil siniset up pa lang din ang ilang lights.
"So Amihan, what do you do?" Napalingon ako nang marealize ko na ako pala ang
tinatanong ni Brad.
"I am a freelance model and I sometimes help in the family business." Sagot ko. I
don't know why I find it a little embarrassing now realizing that I don't have a
title job. 'Freelance model' isn't as appealing to me like before.
Kuya Argos is the CEO and kuya Habagat is the Vice President. Si Sari naman kahit
palaging gala, she owns a freaking boutique na sya ang designer ng mga damit at
products. She's a designer and a businesswoman.
At kanina, nabanggit ni Brad na sya ang Batangas branch director ng canning
business nila.
"I see." Tumango sya. Hindi ko makita kung disappointed sya or what.
But why the hell do I care? Ugh!
My phone vibrated on my purse. Inabot ko iyon at nangunot ang noo ko nang makita na
si Ford iyon."Hey." Tumayo ako.
"Ohh. Si boy toy?" Mahinang tanong ni Sari.
Matalim ko syang tiningan bago ako naglakad ng ilang hakbang palayo sa Cabana
namin. Narinig ko na lang ang tawa ni Sari.
"Where are you? I'm in front of your apartment."
"Oh. W-wala ako dyan. I'm out of town."
"What? Saan? Bakit hindi ka nagsabi?" Parang gulat na gulat na tanong nya.
Frustration ran in his voice.
Napataas ang kilay ko. "Aba, Ashford Roswell. Hindi ko naman po alam na obligasyon
ko pala magsabi sa'yo kapag may pupuntahan ako?"
Hindi sya agad naka sagot.
"We're fuck buddies, nothing more." Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko pa kailangan
sabihin iyon but I didn't like the thought na magdedemand sa akin si Ford na
magsabi ako kung may pupuntahan ako.
"Fuck. Fine." And he cut the line.
Hindi makapaniwala na tinitigan ko lang ang cellphone ko.
Sa inis ko ay padabog kong nilapag sa sahig ng Cabana ang cellphone ko nang
makabalik na ako. Naabutan ko na nagtatawanan si Sari at si Brad.
"What's up? LQ?" Agad na tanong ni Sari.
"No." I hissed.
She giggled. "Right."
Tiningnan ko lang sya ng matalim.
"Ano'ng oras na?" I woke up with a heavy thumping on my bed the next morning. I
groaned when the thumping got worse when I stood up.
When Brad said that the wildest party happens at that place, he's not kidding. I
got lost in having fun at talagang nalasing ako. Nasapo ko ang noo ko dahil parang
hindi ako makagalaw sa sakit.
"Past twelve. Move your ass, on the way na tayo kumain." Sagot naman ni Sari. She
just got out of shower.
"How come na ako lang ang may hangover? I remember you drinking twice as much as I
did." Reklamo ko.
Humalakhak si Sari. "Maybe I'm just better at drinking than you do."
I groaned. "Bullshit."
Tumawa lang sya ulit.
Humalukay ako ng damit na pwedeng magamit sa closet ni Sari.
Nang makaligo na ako at makainom ng halos isang litrong tubig ay nabawasan ang
sakit. The whole time na nasa byahe kami bago kami tumigil para kumain ay narindi
si Sari kaka daing ko ng sakit.
"God I can't do this anymore. Dumaan tayo sa drugstore." Naiiling na sabi ko.
Wala akong gana kumain dahil sa sakit ng ulo ko pero ramdam ko ang gutom kaya
tinitiis ko na lang.
"Alright. Para kang hindi mapaanak dyan." Tinawanan nya pa ako.
"Ano'ng oras pala umalis si Brad?" Out of the blue ay tanong ko.
Hindi ko narinig na sumagot si Sari kaya tiningnan ko sya. She was looking at me
wide eyed na parang may dumi sa mukha ko.
"What?"
"You don't remember?" Kunot noo na tanong nya.
"Magtatanong ba ako sa'yo kung tanda ko kung anong oras umalis si Brad? I got so
drunk. I have never been that drunk before." Punong puno ng pagsisisi na sabi ko.
"Ah. M-mga alas kwatro na." Umiwas ng tingin si Sari sa akin.
I just shrugged it off.
Dumaan kami ng drugstore. Natulog ako buong byahe. I feel bad for letting Sari
drive alone pero hindi ko naman kabisado ang daan. She dropped me off at my place
at doon ko itinuloy ang tulog.I woke up around eight in the evening. Lagpas apat na
oras din ang tulog ko. I called Kelly para i check kung nasend nya na sa email ko
ang schedule ko for the upcoming days.
I was browsing my facebook account when I stumbled upon an album posted by a friend
from Isabela. Agad kong namukhaan si Ford sa pictures at hindi ko alam kung bakit
para akong maiiyak seeing a woman next to him in almost every picture.
Ang nakakainis pa, sa bandang huli ng album, they're almost kissing and oblivious
to the people around them. Bigla kong naisara ang laptop ko sa inis.
I walked back and forth in the kitchen.
Do I have the right to be angry? Exclusive fuck buddies kami. Meaning, akin lang
sya sa kama. So I don't have the rights to meddle with his private life.
Eh paano kung nag sex sila after that party? Then it's a ground for me to be angry
dahil exclusive nga kami.
Tinitigan ko ang number ni Ford sa cellphone ko. Do I call him?
Fuck it. Ayokong mauna tumawag sa kanya.
Remembering how our last conversation ended, I cringed.
Para akong tanga na hindi mapakali at paulit ulit na tinitingnan ang mga pictures.
I tried calming myself down pero there's a burning sensation inside of me. Kumuha
ako ng bote ng wine sa fridge at nagsimulang uminom.
I wanted to destract myself kaya tumigin na lang ako ng mga pictures namin last
night sa cellphone ko. I stopped scrolling when I saw a picture of me and Brad.
Malamang na si Sari ang kumuha nito. Naka akbay si Brad sa akin. Nakatingin ako sa
camera at nakangiti, we were both holding our drinks pero sa akin nakatingin si
Brad.
Hindi ko na matandaan how this happened pero kung nag enjoy si Ford sa babae nya,
hindi naman masama ipakita na nag enjoy din ako di'ba? Although I don't remember
most of it, still, sa hangover ko pa lang alam ko na nag enjoy ako.
I posted that picture kasama ang isang picture naman naming tatlo nila Brad at
Sari.
Caption: Enjoyed the wildest party ever with this awesome twosome!
A few seconds and I saw Ashford Roswell reacted on the photo of Brad and I. Angry.
Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ako o ewan pero I felt better knowing na nakita nya ang
post ko.
I am behaving like a child pero wala ako magawa.
"I want a position in our company." Agad na sabi ko kay kuya Argos the moment na
nakapasok ako sa office nya the next day.
Nakasalubong ko palabas si ate Via at may dinaan lang daw syang papers kaya
nasiguro ko na nandito si kuya. Hindi na kasi ako tumawag. I don't know, the moment
that I thought of it, agad akong naligo, nag ayos at dumiretso ditto.
Napatigil sa ginagawang pag pirma ng mga papeles si kuya at tiningala ako. I was
standing in front of his table. He looked a little haggard.
Nangunot ang noo nya. "Ano?"
"Kuya, you heard me."
Tinitgan nya lang ako na parang may dumi ako sa mukha.
"Kuya!" Untag ko sa kanya.
He cleared his throat and broke his gaze. "What do you want to do?"
"What do you mean?"
"Well, you want a position, so what do you want to take part of in the company?
Hindi naman kita pwedeng ilagay sa finance kung ayaw mo doon."Napaisip ako. "What
are the open positions?" Okay, hindi ko napaghandaan ang gusto ko'ng posisyon o
gawin.
"Interns for the marketing department. Factory workers sa Laguna. Graphic artist.
Dalawang technician. Dalawang delivery truck driver." He paused as if waiting for
my reaction. "Alin doon ang gusto mo pag applyan?"
I groaned. "Kuya naman!"
"Well, Education ang tinapos mo. Hindi ko naman kailangan ng teacher dito. You have
to tell me what you want to do. And why the sudden interest?" Sumandal na sya sa
swivel chair nya. "Something happened?"
Umiling iling ako. "Wala."
"Amihan?" Taas ang kilay na untag nya sa akin.
"Nothing. I just feel like.. wala akong ginagawa para sa company."
"You know that's not true."
"Kuya, hindi mo na ako kailangan protektahan against my feelings. I'm an adult now.
I can take the truth. And the only truth here is, kayo ni kuya Habagat lang ang
nagpapakahirap dito samantalang ako buhay prinsesa."
Napaawang ang mga labi ni kuya sa gulat.
Kahit ako nagugulat din sa mga sinasabi ko. Was I really feeling this way all
along? God. Pumunta lang ako ditto dahil gusto ko makatulong sa kanila. I never
meant to start a drama.
Walang nagsalita sa amin after a few moment.
I just stood there. I can't leave like this.
"Amihan about Ashford before-"
"Stop!" Gulat na pigil ko sa kanya. "Ashford doesn't have to do anything about
this. I just want to work. I just want to take part in here to help." Bumilis ang
pintig ng puso ko.
Kuya sighed in defeat. "You have to know. Hindi mo man lang kami hinayaan
magpaliwanag ni Habagat tungkol sa nangyari. And yes, we were protecting you. And
you know that."
Napayuko ako. Bakit ngayon nya pa babanggitin iyon?
"Amihan, I'm sorry."
Umiling iling ako. "Babalik na lang ako kapag nakapag decide na ako sa anong
posisyon ang gusto ko." Without giving him a last look, I got out of his office
fast.
I felt miserable all of a sudden. I had to calm my nerves down kaya dumaan ako sa
office bathroom. I stayed for five minutes while I waited for the Uber car to
arrive.
I just want to go home and forget that kuya Argos mentioned Ashford and the past.
Wala ako sa sarili habang nakatingin sa bintana ng sasakyan when I heard someone.
Napatingin ako sa cellphone ko na hawak ko. Shit! Did I dial Ashford's number? What
the hell? Nakalagay na ten seconds na mula nang sagutin nya ang tawag ko. Sa
pagkataranta ko ay bigla kong pinatay ang tawag.
After a few seconds ay sya naman ang tumatawag. I kept on rejecting his call at
nakulitan ako sa kanya kaya pinatay ko na ang cellphone ko. Binuksan ko na lang
iyon ulit saglit para umorder ng pagkain.
Nagmukmok ako sa apartment ko. Nakatanga ako sa sala habang hinihintay ang pizza na
inorder ko. Bukas ang TV pero wala doon ang focus ko. Nang makarinig ako ng katok
ay agad ko iyon na binuksan matapos patayin ang tv thinking na ang pizza na iyon.
Instead, Ashford Roswell's ridiculously handsome face greeted me.
"Ano'ng ginagawa mo dito?" Walang gana na tanong ko.
His eyes are cold. Wala ring reaction na mababasa mukha nya. He went in and closed
the door.
"Na w-wrong dial ako kanina." Defensive na sabi ko. Hindi ko naman talaga matandaan
na tinawagan ko sya or what. Impossible naman na sya ang tumawag dahil malakas ang
ringtone ko at dapat maririnig ko iyon.
"Then why aren't you answering? You even turned off your damn phone." He walked
past me and went straight to the kitchen. Sinundan ko sya ng tingin.
"M-may hinihintay ako'ng tawag. N-na lowbat." I'm not a good liar, that's one thing
Ford probably knows about me. But I still did it.
Hindi sya nagsalita. Sumandal sya sa kitchen counter at nakatitig lang sya sa akin.
"M-may kailangan ka ba?" Umiwas ako ng tingin. Hindi ko kayag salubungin ang tingin
nya.
"Come here." He said softly.
Tumingin ako sa kanya. "B-bakit?"
"I want you to come here." He commanded.
Mabilis akong naglakad palapit sa kanya. I stood a few inches in front of him. His
hand moved and pulled me in to him. Our bodies collide and our face is just a few
inches closer.
His eyes are still looking at my eyes as if may hinahanap syang kung ano. Bumaba
ang tingin nya sa mga labi ko at bumalik sa mga mata ko. This time, he's looking at
me with need.
"F-ford." Napalunok ako. We've had sex a lot of times, slow or hard, but there's
still one thing that never changes whenever I'm this close to him.
I always melt whenever he looks at me with need.
His hot breathe fanning my face. It smelled mint.
Unti unti ko nang nararamdaman ang panghihina dahil sa malapit sya. Parang
hinihigop ng katawan nya ang lakas ko. And I am giving it to him willingly.
"I miss you." Mahinang sabi nya, his eyes now looking at my lips.
Napalunok ako. Pinakiramdaman ko ang pagkabog ng dibdib ko and I know he can feel
it too.
Without warning, tinawid nya ang maliit na pagitan ng mga labi naming dalawa. I
automatically closed my eyes and savored the moment when his lips finally claimed
mine.
I threw my arms around his neck. I miss you too.
He put his one hand at the back of my head. Tanging tunog ng paghahalikan namin ang
maririnig sa buong apartment ko. And it somehow calmed me. Ford's here with me.
His kiss went to my jaw. I gave him access. Tumingala ako.
But I felt him stiffened and stopped.
He let go of me.
Tiningnan ko sya. "What's wrong?"
Nakatitig sya sa leeg ko.
"F-ford?" He had this murderous look on his face now.
He looked up at me. "Why the hell do you have a kiss mark on your fucking neck?"
Matigas na tanong nya sa akin.

Chapter 5

Napakurap ako nang marinig ang tanong nya.

"W-what?"
Hindi sya nagsalita. He was just glaring at me. His jaw clenched. Kahit ang hot nya
tingnan magalit, I'd rather have him normal. I cupped the side of my neck na
tinitingnan nya at patakbo na pumasok sa kwarto ko.
Humarap ako sa salamin, tumingala and there I saw it. What the fuck?
I froze.
Hindi ko alam kung sino ang gumawa noon sa akin. I was so damn drunk at the party.
Shit. Alam kaya ni Sari?
But it's the least of my concern now. Lumakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko nang marinig
ko ang mga yabag ni Ford papalapit. What do I do? He's mad. At kung sabihin ko ang
totoo na hindi ko alam kung sino ang gumawa noon, mas lalo siguro syang magagalit.
Iisipin nya na naman na may iba akong naka sex while I pledged to be exclusive to
him! I'm freaking screwed.
Humarap ako sa kanya. Hindi pa rin nagbabago ang expression ng mukha nya. How do I
explain it? Bakit hindi ko rin napansin?
Bigla kong naalala ang pagtitig ni Sari sa akin when we were eating before we go
home. Pati si kuya Argos. Hindi sila tumitingin sa mukha ko dahil may dumi, pero sa
leeg ko pala dahil may kissmark ako!
Damn embarrassing!
""F-ford ano kasi. This is just an accident." Oh. Accident? Shit. Paano magiging
accident ang kissmark? It'll take a few seconds to make one. And whoever that is,
meant hinayaan ko lang sya!
"Don't fuck with me Amihan. Gawa ba 'yan nung lalaking kasama mo sa putanginang
picture na pinost mo kagabi? Ha?" He pulled me in my elbow.
"H-hindi.."
"What? So may iba pa?" Lalong naningkit ang mga mata nya,
"N-no, it's not what I mean." Nangangatal ang mga labi ko. I am blaming myself for
drinking and enjoying at the party too much and not realizing na may chikinini na
ako! Christ!
Humihigpit ang hawak nya sa siko ko.
"Ford, calm down. Let me explain. W-walang nangyari or what. This is just a
kissmark. When I told you I'm exclusive to you, I meant it-"
"When you told me you're exclusive to me, it means no one would have the right to
fucking touch you but me." His chest was heaving. "It meant no one would have the
right to even get close to you to give you a fucking kissmark!" Malakas na sabi
nya.
I was shaking. Naiiyak na ako. Ayokong magalit si Ford sa akin.
"Ford calm down please." Mahinang sabi ko.
Parang naipit ang boses ko dahil iyon lang ang kaya kong masabi.
He gritted his teeth. "Did you also fuck him? Was he a good fucker than I am? Did
you moan his name while he was fucking you?"
Sunod sunod akong umiling at sunod sunod na rin na tumulo ang mga luha ko. The last
thing I need now is Ford getting mad at me and accused me of having sex with some
guy.
It hurts hearing him asks those question. Iniinsulto nya ako pero hindi ko magawang
sagutin sya because I don't know what to say.
Instead, dahan dahan akong napasalampak sa carpeted floor ng kwarto ko. Hindi
tumitigil sa pagluha ang mga mata ko.
Don't be mad at me, please.
"I'm sorry." Ang tanging nasabi ko in between my sobs. "The truth is, hindi ko alam
kung sino ang nagbigay nito sa akin. I was so drunk. I enjoyed the party too much.
But I know I didn't fuck anyone, which, at least is what I can remember."
He just stood there in front of me. Nakatingin lang ako sa boots na suot nya.
Ashford seemed so far away all of a sudden. I want him to hug me and tell me na
hindi na sya galit. Na naiintindihan nya ako. Na ayos lang ang lahat.
"If you're still mad at me, you can go. Maybe this set up isn't working for us
anymore." I felt a pang of pain in my chest when I said that.
He wasn't saying anything. I clutched my chest. I can't bear the pain anymore. Pero
walang mas sasakit sa naramdaman ko nang nakita kong gumalaw ang mga boots nya at
naglakad palayo sa akin.
Just like that and Ford's gone.
Because of a fucking kissmark I didn't know who gave me.
Palakad lakad sa harap ko si Sari pero sa stiletto nya ako naka focus.
"Okay. So you mean wala ka talagang natatandaan that night? As in wala? Like,
walang wala?" She sound worried.
Umiling iling ako. Wala akong gana magsalita.
She stopped walking and stood in front of me. Nakaupo ako sa gilid ng kama ko. I
just woke up when Sari barged in. Alam nya ang passcode ng apartment ko. I sent her
a text message last night asking kung alam nya ba kung sino ang nagbigay ng
kissmark sa akin.
Wala akong response na natanggap buong gabi.
And she came now as an answer.
"Akala ko in denial ka lang. Shit."
Tiningnan ko sya, "In denial about what?"
Sari sighed. "Okay, how do I explain this.." She paused at parang nag isip. Umupo
sya kapagdaka sa tabi ko. "Around one am, you and Brad kind of started flirting at
each other."
I sat straight. "W-what?"
"Yes. Hinayaan ko lang kayo. I remember you argued with Ashford on the phone at
akala ko ginagawa mo lang rebound si Brad that time. And he seemed to know it kaya
I didn't care."
Lumaylay ang mga balikat ko. "So this kissmark's from Brad?"
"Honey, I never saw the two of you make out or what, pero sya lang ang possibleng
makapag bigay nyan sayo. Hindi kayo naghiwalay the whole time na nakikita ko kayo.
Pero nang ihatid na tayo ni Brad.." She stopped midway na parang may ayaw pa sya
sabihin.
"Sari, what is it?"
"I never saw the two of you make out pero from the looks on both of you when you
went to the bathroom with him, the two of you are flushed. As in namumula ka, si
Brad din. Hindi kayo makatingin sa akin. Mukha ka ngang okay pa noon, I never
realized that you're already drunk as hell."
Nasapo ko ang noo ko. So I really cheated in our exclusivity? Hindi man iyon
natuloy sa sex, I still made out with Brad. The sad part is wala akong natandaan.
"And I'm sorry. I thought you were just being rebellious because of the arguement
with Ford."
Hindi ako nagsalita. Ramble ang lahat sa isip ko.
"But one thing's for sure. Hindi kayo nag sex or what."
"Yeah, that made me feels better." Sarcastic na sabi ko at humiga sa kama.
"C'mon. Cheer up. It's not like you cheated on him. Isa pa, bakit ba ang o.a nya
maka react? Fuck buddies are for fucking, eh kaya nga hindi mo sya bf kasi you just
need him for your physical needs." I know Sari's just making me feel better but I
didn't like the way she implied our relationship like that.
Eh ano ba? Totoo naman yung sinabi ni Sari.
I groaned in response.
"I saw the tagged pictures on him by the way. I'm sure nakita mo na rin 'yon. How
can he be mad at you kung sya nga ay may kalingkis na babae sa mga pictures?""They
were just intimate in the picture, walang ebidensya kagaya ng kissmark sa leeg ko."
Walang gana na sabi ko.
"Oh. Wala rin ebidensya na walang nangyari sa kanila. You could have told him that
to shut him off."
Hindi ako sumagot.
"So ano, magmumukmok ka dito?"
Deja vu. This scene happened to us before. The catch is, si Sari ang naka higa at
ako ang nagtanong sa kanya kung magmumukmok lang ba sya sa condo nya?
That was the time where she was broken hearted because of my brother. And now I
feel so awful because of my current situation. Hindi naman ako broken hearted pero
pakiramdam ko may malaking nawala sa akin when Ford just walked out on me without a
word.
"Ohhh. Parang nangyari na 'to before." Parang nagging excited na sabi ni Sari.
I groaned. "Go. I want to be alone."
She giggled. "Yeah. Exactly what I said a year ago."
"What do you want?" Mahinang tanong ko nang dumating na rin sa wakas si Stan. It's
been three days since Ford walked out on my apartment at namimiss ko na sya ng
sobra. Pina cancel ko kay Kelly ang mga schedule ko for the whole week.
But Stan called this morning. Gusto daw nya makipagkita. As much as I hate to go
out, naisip ko na wala rin naman mangyayari kung magkukulong lang ako sa apartment
ko.
"I heard everything from Sari." He said grinning.
I groaned. "What did she tell you?" Bigla ay parang gusto kong hilahin ang buhok ni
Sari. I know na nag aalala lang sya pero damn it. Ayokong nalalaman pa ni Stan ang
mga nangyayari sa akin, lalo na kung nakakahiya na kagaya nito.
"Everything."
"Shut up." I hissed. Tinungga ko ang pomegranate juice na nasa baso ko at nagpunas
ng tissue pagkatapos.
He chuckled. "Look at you, being so mopped up because of a guy."
Tiningnan ko sya ng masama. "He's just a guy."
"Exactly what Sari said. Idedeny mo na special sya sa'yo."
"He's not special. He's just my lover." I don't even know why I am having this
conversation with Stan.
"He's your first love, Amihan. He's also your first. He got every damn right to be
special." Nawala ang ngiti ni Stan at anging seryoso sya bigla.
"What do you want?" Imbes ay tanong ko.
I never knew na ganoon na sila ka close ni Sari para sabihin ni Sari ang lahat ng
ito kay Stan. I want to get mad at Sari for disclosing these details pero iniisip
ko pa rin na may reason sya.
"I want you back." Walang patumpik tumpik na sabi nya.
"You're not serious, right?" Kunot noo na tanong ko.
"I'm serious. I want you back, Amihan." Ginagap nya ang kamay ko at hinila iyon
para dalhin sa mga labi nya.
Napalunok ako. This is the last thing I expect Stan to say.
"Stan.."
"Hindi mo naman kailangan sumagot ngayon. I know you're having a hard time. I
shoudn't tell this to you now pero gusto ko malaman mo na nandito ako. I'll always
be here."
Unti unti kong hinila ang kamay ko mula sa pagkakahawak nya. Bigla akong naka
ramdam ng discomfort. Stan's a nice guy, pero wala na akong balak makipag balikan
sa kanya.
"You're crazy. Nag usap na tayo before. We can't be together again." I made him
feel like it's a really ridicoulous idea.
He sighed. "What, hindi ba talaga ako boyfriend material?""B-boyfriend?" What is he
talking about?
"I said I want you back." Kahit sya ay parang nalito.
"Stan, I can't." Mabilis na sagot ko.
"See? Tama si Sari. You still love that guy." Sumandal sya sa upuan na parang wala
na syang magagawa sa sitwasyon.
"It's not true. Matagal na akong naka move on sa kanya. Please lang, Stan. Whatever
Sari told you, probably only half of them are true. Lalo na kung tungkol kay Ford.
I moved on." I said almost losing my patience.
Wala akong lakas makipag argument, wala akong lakas para sa kahit ano. Nagsisisi na
ako ngayon na pumayag ako makipag kita kay Stan.
"Can't you see yourself right now?" He looked at me with horror. "You are so
affected of what happened between the two of you that you can't function well
enough."
Nasapo ko ang noo ko. "God, Stan. Nagkita ba tayo para pasamain mo pa lalo ang loob
ko?" Mahinang sabi ko.
"I told you what I came for. I am serious."
"And I am serious na wala ka nang aasahan sa akin. I am contented of having you as
a friend. Nothing more, nothing less."
His face softened. "Fine. Whatever. Pero seryoso din ako when I said na nandito
lang ako for you."
"I know."
Inayos nya ang pag upo nya, para sya biglag nabuhayan ng loob. "Know what? Since
magkasama na rin naman tayo ngayon, why don't we make the most of it? Para makapag
libang ka rin."
I groaned. "Your idea of enjoying is quite.." I trailed off.
He chuckled. "Promise, hindi kita isasama sa museum or gallery."
"Fine. Make sure na magiging worth it ang pagsama ko sayo this day."
We both rose from our seats. Just like that at bumalik kami sa dati. Pinaghintay
nya ako sa harap ng tea shop dahil malayo layo daw ang pinagparadahan nya ng
sasakyan nya. He got it and then I hopped in.
"Hindi ka ba nagugutom? Pwede tayong dumaan muna somewhere to eat."
Napahawak ako sa tyan ko. Doon ko na realize na hindi pa pala ako nag agahan. I
just drank a glass of warm milk and that's it. Pasado alas dose na nang tingnan ko
sa wrist watch ko.
"Oh hell. Don't tell me na hindi mo na rin naisip ang kumain kakaisip sa nangyari
sa inyo ni-"
"Shut up, Stanley." I cut what he was about to say.
Tumawa lang sya.
When he asked me where I want to eat, I told him na sa paborito ko'ng Korean
Restuarant sa Megamall na lang kami. But the line was long, at gutom na ako kaya
humanap kami ng ibang pwede kainan.
"Saan ba talaga tayo pupunta?" We were back at his car at busog na busog na ako
pero hindi nya pa rin sinasabi kung saan kami pupunta.
"Relax, will you? I got this. Kahit na ilang beses mo akong binasted kanina."
Nakangisi na sabi nya.
Inirapan ko sya at tumawa lang sya.
He was acting normal so iniisip ko na hindi naman talaga sya seryoso kanina. He's
even confused on what would be our relationship if we get back. Boyfriend? Please.
Before I knew it, papasok na kami sa parking space ng The Palace Pool Club. At
madaming tao.
"A-anong meron?" Nagtataka na tanong ko. Mag aalas dos pa lang but the place was
jam packed as if it's Saturday night.
"Benefit fashion show. I'm one of the sponsor." Tipid na sagot lang ni Stan.
Well, it's better than museums and exhibits. I mean, I appreciate art, pero halos
every week na lang kasi before dinadala ako ni Stan sa kung saan na museum or
exhibits kaya naumay ako.
"I don't think I'm dressed for the event." Mahinang usal ko nang maka baba na kami
sa sasakyan nya.
Naka black skater skirt lang ako at putting button down polo na medyo maluwag sa
akin at naka tuck in sa skirt. Naka flats lang din ako and my make up's really
light.
"You look gorgeous. Let's go." Sya na ang naglagay ng kamay ko sa braso nya at
dumiretso kami sa entrance.
Eveyrthing went by like a blur, before I knew it ay nakapasok na kami. Madaming
bumati sa akin at kay Stan. He may be a politician pero kilala rin sya sa mga
ganitong gathering.
"Look who came."
Lumingon ako at nakita ko si Sari. She was wearing a black leather tube dress na
hakab na hakab sa kanya. May glitters na nagkalat sa dibdib nya and her make up is
stunning.
"Napilit ko rin." Stan said. Nagbeso ang dalawa pero hindi ako gumalaw.
"What?" Nakangiti na tanong ni Sari. She was holding a glass of champagne in her
hand.
"Let's talk."
"Okay, Ma'am." Playful na sabi nya lang.
We both looked at Stan. He politely nods and let go of my hand.
Hinila ko si Sari sa ladies room. Good thing na walang masyadong tao. Sa pinaka
dulong cubicle kami pumasok.
"Are you finally moved on?" Nakangiti na tanong nya.
I glared at her. "Shut up. Kailan pa kayo naging close ni Stan? You told him
everything!" I hissed.
She chuckled. "Bakit galit ka? He told me na gusto nya makipagbalikan. So I told
him na malaki ang chance na hindi na kayo exclusive ni Ford."
I rolled my eyeballs. "Do you really need to tell him that?"
"You know what? It's either you go get Ford back or you move on. Stop mopping
around. You tell me that Ford's just your lover but you were acting like you're
broken hearted." Hinawakan ako ni Sari sa mga balikat ko. "Aminin mo man o hindi,
may nararamdaman ka pa rin sa kanya. I can see it, I can feel it. Pero hindi mo ina
acknowledge."
Napakurap ako. Tama ba si Sari?
"Honey, I want you to be happy."
I sighed.
"C'mon. Nandito ka na rin naman. Mas mabuti na gumawa ka na ng way para hindi ka na
magkaganyan."
"Ano namang magagawa ko dito?"
Sari smirked wickedly. "For once, you can get your boy toy back."
Nangunot ang noo ko. "What? What do you mean?"
"Kasabay ko syang pumasok sa entrance a while ago."
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. "What? He's here?"
What the hell is he doing here? Fashion show?
Tumawa si Sari. "Yes. But there's a catch."
Napalunok ako. "What is it?"
"Remember when I asked to see you about two months ago? Yung galit na galit ako?"
Napaisip ako. "Yeah? About that customer na nagwala sa boutique mo?"
She smiled and nod. "Exactly. That bitch's name is Maureen Alfaro."
"Okay. What does it have to do with-"
"Ford is not alone. He's with that bitch." Putol nya sa kung ano man ang sasabihin
ko.

Chapter 6

"Shit." I cursed under my breath.

Palabas na kami ng ladies room ni Sari nang ituro nya sa akin si Ford. Si Ford nga.
He was wearing a black turtle neck na pinatungan nya ng brown leather jacket. His
hair was styled in a messy way and he was laughing with that girl next to her.
Pareho silang nasa bar at may hawak na inumin.
"See? That girl next to him is that bitch. You have to get Ford." Parang demonyita
na bumubulong si Sari sa tenga ko.
"Girls! What took you so long?" Napalingon kami kay Stan nang makalapit sya sa
amin. Agad nya akong hinapit sa bewang at inilapit sa kanya.
"We have a mission." Imbes ay sagot ni Sari, still looking at their direction.
Nangunot ang noo ni Stan. "What? A mission?" Natatawa na tanong nya.
"Sorry, Stan. Team boy toy ako ngayon." Hindi pa rin inaalis ni Sari ang tingin nya
sa bar.
Tumawa ako. "Don't mind her." Sabi ko na lang. But the truth is, my heart's racing.
I hate the way he was laughing at whatever she was saying, the way he looks at her
na parang sobrang interisado sya sa sinasabi ng babae.
Naikuyom ko ang mga kamao ko.
"Something wrong?" Nag aalala na tanong ni Stan.
Hindi ako nakasagot, naka focus na lang din ako sa bar kung saan kitang kita ko
kung gaano kalapit si Stan sa babae na kasama nya.
Napatingin ako kay Stan nang umubo sya.
"Nandito rin pala sya." Mahinang sabi nya.
Hindi ako sumagot.
"Let's go." Nagulat ako nang hawakan ako ni Stan at hilahin palapit sa bar. Nanlaki
ang mga mata ko.
"Stan! What are you doing?" Bulong ko sa kanya. Wala akong magawa kung hindi
magpahila na lang sa kanya.
Nagawa kong pigilin si Stan nang ilang metro na lang ang layo namin sa kanila.
Liningon ako ni Stan, naka sunod naman sa amin si Sari.
"Stan!" Mahina pero mariin na sabi ko. "What the hell are you doing?" Pinandilatan
ko sya ng mata.
"I'll buy you a drink." Nakangisi na sabi nya.
"W-what are you-" Naputol kung ano man ang sasabihin ko nang hilahin nya ako ulit.
And it was then that Ford's eyes met mine. His smile faded slowly nang lumipat kay
Stan at sa kamay nyang nakahawak sa akin ang tingin nya. His gaze became grim and
dark.
Mabilis kong iniwas ang tingin ko. But Stan's being a jerk. Hinila nya ako sa part
ng bar kung saan malapit ang babaeng kausap ni Ford.
"What would you have? Ikaw, Sari?" Liningon ni Stan si Sari.
I can still feel his gaze on me pero pigil na pigil ko ang sarili ko na lingunin
sya. Naririnig ko na nagkukwento pa rin ang babae na kasama nya pero sa huli ay
tumigil ito at tinanong si Ford kung nakikinig ba sya.
I secrety sighed. "I want a scotch on the rocks." Sabi ko kay Stan.
He looked at me and grinned. "Okay babe."
Napalunok ako. Damn you, Stan!
"Let's go?" Maya maya ay narinig ko na sabi ni Ford.
Gusto ko bigla sabunutan yung babae nang alalayan sya ni Ford bumaba sa high chair
na kinauupuan nya. Mabilis silang tumalikod at naglakad palayo. Hindi ko na
napigilan ang sarili ko at tiningnan sila. Naka alalay si Ford sa siko nya and I
felt an ache in my chest."Wow. He seemed moved on." Bulong ni Stan at inabot sa
akin ang baso ng scotch na inorder ko. Uminom din sya sa hawak nyang baso.
The crowed swallowed them and they're nowhere to be seen.
"Did he just ignore you?" Sari frowned.
Nakatingin kaming tatlo sa dalawa hanggang sa mawala na sila sa paningin naming
tatlo. I gulped the scotch on the glass I was holding. The bitter taste soothed the
pain I was feeling.
After years of convincing myself na naka move on na ako. After many months of
making myself believe na libog lang ang nararamdaman ko para kay Ford. It will all
boil down to me, finally acknoelwedging the fact na may nararamdaman pa rin ako sa
kanya.
Na mahal ko pa rin sya.
And now he might be totally slipping out of my hands.
"Can I just punch him once?" Malakas na nilapag ni Stan sa bar counter ang walang
laman nyang baso.
Nilingon ko si Stan and smiled bitterly at him. "Stan, please. Calm down." Mahinang
sabi ko. This is the last place na gugustuhin naming maka gawa ng eksena.
Inabot ko sa bartender ang baso ko at iminuwestra ang daliri ko, ordering another
one.
Who cares kung tanghaling tapat at alak ang hawak naming tatlo?
"I can't believe this." Umiling iling si Stan. "Who's that girl with him?"
"Maureen Alfaro." Si Sari ang sumagot. "She threw a freaking tantrum in my boutique
two months ago. Now I hate her twice as much." Then Sari nudged at me. "Ano? Dito
na lang tayo?"
Liningon ko si Stan. "Can I go first? Sumama pakiramdam ko." I feel bad that I had
to say that pero sumama talaga ang timpla ko.
"Ihahatid na kita." Kinuha nya ulit ang dalawang baso na inaabot ng bartender sa
amin. Agad kong kinuha ang sa akin at ininum ulit iyon in one gulp.
"Hindi na. You said na isa ka sa mga sponsor ditto. You should stay." Pinilit kong
ngumiti sa kanya.
Pero umiling iling lang sya. "It doesn't matter. Babalik na lang ako."
"Okay, ganito na lang. I can stay for a little more while." I said. Ayoko naman
maka abala sa kanya.
Besides, nandito rin naman si Sari. Kahit na medyo tipsy na.
"Mr. Relova!" Sabay sabay kaming lumingon nang may lumapit sa aming babae. May naka
print na STAFF sa itim na tshirt na suot nya. "Sir, we need you at the backstage."
Agad na tumingin sa akin si Stan.
"Go. I'll be with Sari. I'll take care of the tab."
"Don't leave, okay? I'll call or text." Bilin nya pa.
Tumango ako as the staff slowly pulled him into the crowd.
I sighed and asked the bartender for another drink. Umupo kami nang magkaroon ng
bakanteng high chair ni Sari.
"Ano'ng plano mo?" Mapungay na ang mga mata ni Sari pero hindi na rin naman sya
umorder pa ng inumin.
"I don't have any." Nakatitig lang ako sa bar counter as the bartender's fixing me
another drink.
Hinahanap hanap na ng lalamunan ko ang init at pait na hatid ng scotch kaya nang
ibigay ng bartender ang order ko ay agad ko na naman na ininom iyon nang isang
inuman.
"Okay, that's the last. Huwag ka nang umorer." Inagaw ni Sari sa akin ang walang
laman nang baso. Naglabas sya ng pera sa wallet nya, put it in the counter and
pulled me.Noon ko naramdaman ang kaunting epekto ng tatlong baso ng scotch na
ininom ko. Wow. It felt somehow good. Before I knew it ay hinila ako palabas ni
Sari, we ended up in the parking lot at parang naka hinga ako ng maluwag.
"Let's just stay here. We both need to come back to our senses." Inilabas nya ang
isang kaha ng Esse' sa shoulder bag nya at sinindihan iyon. Bihira lang manigarilyo
si Sari, but she does it when she's nervous or agitated.
Sumandal ako sa sasakyan ni Sari. Pakiramdam ko bigla akong nanghina.
"I want to go home. I want to rest." Mahinang sabi ko.
"Call Stan. Ako na magda drop off sa'yo." Mabilis na sagot ni Sari. The lipstick
stain on her cigarette is very visible.
"Aren't you gonna stay till later?" Nagtataka na tanong ko.
"Nope. Sumilip lang naman ako, snapped a few photos."
"Ikaw ang bahala."
"Let me just finish this."
Tumango ako sa kanya. I let hot air blew my hair.
Napa straight ako nang tayo nang mapansin ko Si Ford sa isang gilid, and he's
walking to our direction.
"Sari, si Ford." Mahinang sabi ko.
Agad na lumingon si Sari at sinundan kung saan ako naka tingin.
Napalunok ako. He's alone. Where did the girl go? At sa amin ba talaga sya papunta?
"Can we talk?" Malamig ang boses na tanong nya nang makatayo na sya sa harap ko.
Tumayo naman sa gilid ko si Sari.
"Sure." Walang patumpik tumpik na sabi ko.
Pinandilatan ako ni Sari but I smiled apologetically.
Walang sabi sabi na hinila ni Ford ang kamay ko. Walang nagawa si Sari kung hindi
sundan kami ng tingin. Umikot kami hanggang sa makarating kami sa kabilang parking
space. Parang sinusunog ng araw ang balat ko sa init.
Binuksan nya ang pintuan sa tabi ng driver's seat ng sasakyan nya.
"Are we going somewhere?" I was expecting us to talk at a coffee shop or restaurant
somewhere here.
"Just get in." Malamig na sabi nya.
I got in and he immediately closed the door. Umikot sya at sumakay. He started the
engine at kahit gusto kong itanong ulit kung saan kami pupunta ay pinili ko na lang
na huwag nang magsalita.
"So you're with that Stan guy." Maya maya ay sabi nya. Naka tingin lang sya sa daan
at walang reaction ang mababasa mukha nya.
Hindi ako sumagot.
"Sinundo ka ba nya sa apartment mo?"
"What do you want to talk about, Ford?" Wala ako sa mood makipag laro sa kanya. I
was thinking of that woman he was with and how he ignored me a while ago.
Sya naman ang hindi sumagot.
"Let's start talking para makabalik tayo agad." I hate smelling his scent but his
car made sure to assault me with his own smell.
"We're not going back. Tell that Stan guy that you're with me now."
Tiningnan ko sya ng masama. "Tell that woman you're with the same."
I saw him smirked. "I don't have to."
"Turn the car around. Or better yet, ibaba mo na lang ako sa gilid. I'll go back."
Inis na sabi ko.
"We have to talk."
"Then talk."
Umiling iling sya. "It's just three days and you're already all over that Stan guy.
Ang bilis mo naman makahanap agad."I felt offended. "I guess we're just the same."
But I wanted to make him see that I'm cool about it.
"Now, we're not. I didn't give Maureen a hickey."
"Okay, this isn't gonna work. If you're still worked out over that damned hickey,
we shouldn't be talking anymore. Ibalik mo ako sa Pool Club, Ford." I was so
pissed.
Hindi sya nagsalita. Mas binilisan nya ang takbo ng sasakyan nya.
"Ford." I warned him.
"You tell that Stan guy we're not done. You're still mine." Madiin na sabi nya.
I gasped. "What?"
"You heard me."
"You're an asshole, Ford." I spat at him.
"I can be whatever you want me to be."
"Hindi ako nakikipaglaro sa'yo. What we had was over the moment you walked out on
me three days ago. Baka nakakalimutan mo?"
He smirked again. "We're nowhere near over, Amihan."
"Fuck you." I was so pissed at him at this moment I nearly regret accepting the
fact that I still love him. Na may natitira pa akong pagamahal sa kanya sa kabila
ng tagal ng panahon ang lumipas.
He just cleared his throat pero hindi na sya nagsalita.
My chest is heaving. I was trying to calm myself down. I feel crazy for even
thinking of just opening the car door and jump para lang makalayo kay Ford. His
car's too small for the thickening atmosphere between us.
In a few moments ay naging pamilyar na ang dinadaanan namin.
"Talk and let's just get this over with." Hinila ko mula sa pagkakahawak nya ang
kamay ko nang makapasok na kami sa condo nya.
Hindi sya nagsalita. Dumiretso sya sa kusina at kumuha ng bottled water at ininom
iyon.
I just stood in the middle of his living room while looking at him. There's this
aching and longing inside me. I wanted him to comfort me and tell me that
eveyrthing's going to be okay.
And I know, kapag ginawa nya iyon, mawawala ang inis at galit ko. I feel like I can
even be his slave if he'd just touch me now.
Hnubad nya ang leather jacket nya, leaving the turtleneck long sleeves underneath.
Bakat na bakat doon ang mga muscles nya. I bit my lower lip thinking of his body
under that piece of clothing.
I felt heat crept into my body.
Ipinilig ko ang ulo ko. It should be the last of the things na dapat ko'ng isipin.
Imbes ay nag focus na lang ako tumigin sa fridge na nasa likod ni Ford para
madistract ako.
And I did.
Pero sa sobrang pagka distract ko ay hindi ko na namalayan na nakalapit na pala sa
akin si Ford. Before I knew it, he was already cupping my face and his lips already
claimed mine.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa gulat, but my lips responded like it was supposed to
kissed him back naturally.
He moaned when I started kissing him back.
Yes! I want this. I want him.
Ang galit at inis ko ay parang bula na naglaho. All I can think about is Ford, his
body and everything about him.
He pulled away. We were both panthing. Hawak nya pa rin ang mukha ko. Iminuwestra
nya ang mukha ko para magtama ang mga mata namin.
"I'm sorry baby." He said in between breathing.
Napakurap ako. I didn't expect this.
Bigla nya akong hinila at yinakap. I rested my face in his still heaving chest and
his warm body melted me.
"I'm so sorry. Jealousy blinds me like a fucking madman." Mahinang sabi nya at mas
hinigpitan ang yakap sa akin.
Marahan ko syang hinila. "You were jealous? But Ford, we are not-"
"I don't care!" he said cutting me off. "I don't care what you want us to be. I
love you, Amihan. Hindi iyon nagbago kahit kalian. You are everything I ever
dreamed about." There's tenderness in his eyes when he said that.
Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko.
"I'm sorry kung no strings attached lang ang gusto mo. I just said yes to that
fucking stupid arrangement because I was a coward. Hindi ko maamin sa'yo noon na
ikaw pa rin. Na Ikaw lang naman talaga mula noon. I was a proud man. Naka move on
ka na. You were looking at me coldly after may mangyari sa atin ulit six months
ago. You said it was just pure sex and nothing more."
My jaw dropped. What is he saying?
"I hated you for eight years kasi naniwala ako sa sinabi ni Mommy. And you told me
that you got the money she gave you. You were my first love, Amihan. I could have
fight for you. For eight years, I lived feeling betrayed and played. I despised you
more when I learned na engaged kayo ni Ahren. I feel like I was just a joke for
you. My brother? Of all people, sa kapatid ko pa ikaw naka engage."
His eyes started to water. There's this tugging ache in my chest.
"I regretted everything when I learned the truth. Agnes discovered the truth.
Tinakot ka ni Mommy. Na hindi totoo ang engagement nyo ni Ahren. I rushed to you
thinking of asking you for a fresh start. Sobrang na miss kita. Walang araw sa loob
ng walong taon na hindi kita naisip. You were so responsive while we're making love
that time. But after that, you laughed at me and told me na it's just sex."
His hands landed on my shoulders and squeezed it.
"I wanted to regain my pride and said yes to the no strings attached bullshit. I
thought, walang mawawala sa akin. You'll be exclusive to me. I'll have the excuse
to see you. I'll have the excuse to be always next to you. But you make it so hard
kapag paulit ulit mong isinasampal sa akin ang katotohanan. That I'll never be more
than just a lover to you."
Yumuko sya and I saw the tears fell on the floor in between us.
"F-ford." I don't know what to say.
Hindi ba dapat ay masaya ako? He still loves me, just like I still love him. Pero
bakit hindi ko magawang masabi iyon sa kanya? Parang hindi ko maibuka ang bibig ko
at parang wala akong boses.
All I did was pull him for a hug. Isinubsob nya sa leeg ko ang mukha nya ang I felt
his tears.
I love you too.
But something's pulling me from telling him that.
He pulled away. "I'm sorry, baby. Can we start over? I know you already moved on,
and I don't care. I want you back in my life. Mahirap ibalik ang dati, so many
things happened and changed, but I still want you. I love you and I need you,
Amihan. Give me a chance, please?"
Instead of answering, I tiptoed and kissed him.
Ramdam ko ang pagkagulat nya, but he still kissed me back.

Chapter 7

Warehouse supervisor.
I finally got a position in the company, but I had to adjust a little. I gave up my
lease in my current apartment at lumipat ako sa Laguna. Bumili ako ng isang condo
unit malapit sa warehouse. Flexible hours ang trabaho ko since may assistant naman
ako pero kailangan na personal kong ma check ang lahat.
When I told Ashford about it, I thought he'd stop me. Pero kabaliktaran ang
nangyari. He supported me and told me na hindi mapipigilan nang pagiging malayo ko
sa kanya na puntahan nya ako.
Two weeks ago na nang umamin sya sa akin, at hindi ko pa rin sinasabi sa kanya na
mahal ko pa rin sya, na pareho lang kami ng nararamdaman. I kept on telling myself
na ipaparamdam ko na lang.
But the truth is, I am scared. I am still scared.
Oo, pareho na kaming nasa edad but what happened between me and her mother eight
years ago still lingered in my whole being. That's the main reason why I just have
sexual partners. Kasi ayoko ma attached o magka feelings sa iba.
Ayoko ng commitment. I want something that's easy to let go. I always feel that
there will always be something wrong and that we'll have no choice but to let go.
And when that happens, ayoko na maranasan ang naranasan ko noon.
When Stan and I ended our 'relationship' a few years back, it made me feel like my
decision not to be attached on anyone romantically was right. Wala kaming samaan ng
loob ni Stan and we even became friends.
My second sexual partner, who is a co-model I met in a fashion show in Milan, was
the same. We ended our 'relationship' mutually after three months and we still get
in touch.
No attachments, no commitment, no heartbreaks.
Marahil mahal ako ngayon ni Ford. Pero hanggang kalian? Her mother might not have a
say on what we have now, pero madaming tao o pangyayari ang pwedeng sumira o
mamagitan sa amin.
I am being a pessimist but I am really scared.
I let Ashford linger around; pero iniisip ko lagi na one of these days ay may
mangyayari at mas magiging madali sa akin na kalimutan sya. Its' my defense if
anything happened.
Ramdam ko na nagtatampo si Stan. I tried talking to him pero hindi nya ako
nirereplyan. Matetyempuhan ko rin na good mood sya.
He wanted to be with me this whole weekend. Hapon daw sya darating mamaya. I gave
him the spare key. Gagabihin kasi ako mamaya dahil monthly inventory kaya pinauna
ko na rin sya mag hapunan.
Nagpaalam na ako sa mga kasamahan ko. Pinapagamit sa akin ni Kuya Argos ang isa sa
mga pick up na service sa warehouse kaya wala naman akong problema sa
transportation.
I was all smiles when I got out of the car.
Naabutan ko na tulog sa kama si Ford. Naka boxers lang sya and he looked tired for
some reason. He was laying flat on his back, his one arm blocking his eyes. His
broad chest softly heaving. Ngali ngali kong himasin ang abs nya pero pinigilan ko
ang sarili ko.
I immediately stripped and went to shower. Calculated ang mga galaw ko. I don't
want him to wake up yet. I dried myself at dahan dahan na sumampa sa kama.
He looked so damn peaceful. I really admire his pointed nose.
Sinimulan ko syang halikan sa dibdib nya. He wasn't moving. Bumaba ang halik ko sa
tyan nya, I felt him stirred, pero hindi pa rin sya gumagalaw. My kisses went lower
at dahan dahan kong binaba ang boxer nya.
I let out his still limp member. It's still impressive in size. At alam na alam nya
kung paano iyon gamitin.
I played it in my hand. Nang tumigas ng kaunti ay tsaka ko sinimulang dilaan. He
smelled so manly, so sexy.It was slowly growing.
"Hmmm." He moaned, still not waking up.
Dahan dahan kong isinubo ng buo ang pagkalalaki nya. Oh how I love him growing
inside my mouth. Hinimas himas ko ang dibdib at tyan nya habang pinaglalaruna ng
dila ko ang kanya.
"Ohhh."
He wasn't fully erect yet pero hindi ko na sya halos maisubo ng buo.
Muli kong hinawakan ang kahandaan nya. It's glistening with my fluids in it. Linaro
ko iyon ng kamay ko habang nilalaro ng dila ko ang kanyang ulo.
"Ah! Fuck." He opened his eyes and looked at me wide eyed. He then groaned.
I giggled.
"Kanina ka pa?" Imbes ay tanong nya. His face's already distorted with I was doing
at his erection.
"Yep." Maikling sagot ko.
"Jesus. Did you even eat dinner already?" Lumalamin na ang paghinga na tanong nya.
"Not yet." I said playfully, still sucking and playing with his now fully erect
cock. "I want your cock in my mouth first."
"I know you do." Tapos tumawa sya. "You miss my cock?"
"Yes." Tumango ako at dinilaan mula baba hanggang ulo ang kanya habang magkatitigan
kaming dalawa.
Inabot nya ang ulo ko at humawak sa buhok ko. He suspended my head in the air as he
started to thrust his whole shaft in my mouth, hitting my throat.
"Ohhh! Baby.." Ford bit his lower lip. Napapapikita sya tuwing tumatama ang ulo ng
pagkalaki nya sa lalamunan ko. Humihigpit din ang hawak nya sa buhok ko. "Take it
all. Yes!"
He then pulled my head away. Bumangon sya at ako naman ang pinahiga nya. Lumuhod
sya sa harap ng mukha ko. Humawak sya sa headboard ng kama ko and started thrusting
in my mouth.
"Yes! Ahhh! Ahhh!" He was moaning like there's no tomorrow.
Gustong gusto ko nakikita ang sex face ni Ashford. I liked the fact that he loved
what I do to him and that it was because of me.
I played with his balls. Napaigtad sya.
"Shit." He curse under his breathe.
Bumilis ang paglabas pasok nya sa bibig ko. He's big, pero ramdam ko ang pag iingat
nya sa kabila ng pagkagigil nya. He was clenching his fist at the headboard.
He's pulsating; I know he'll come any second.
"I'm gonna come. Fuck baby. Ohhhh!" Hinugot nya ang sarili nya at nilaro iyon sa
harap ko.
He came into my breasts breathing hard.
It was a lot. He really missed me.
Humiga sya at tumabi sa akin pagkatapos. Kinapa nya ang kamay ko at dinala iyon sa
bibig nya para halikan. Nilingon ko sya at nakangiti nap pala sya na nakatingin sa
akin.
"Ang tagal mo, nakatulog na ako." Parang bata na sabi nya.
"Binilisan ko na nga, ginabi pa rin ako." Paliwanag ko naman.
"Pero okay lang. Iba ka manggising." Ngumisi sya.
I laughed. "You were a sleeping temptation."
Imbes na sumagot ay bumangon sya at umibabaw sa akin. He sucked my nipple and
played with the other one.
Bumaba ang isang kamay nya sa gitna ko. Ibinuka ko ang mga hita ko to give him
access. I was so wet. Agad nyang ipinasok ang dalawang daliri nya sa akin at
napaungol ako.His tongue's still busy with one of my nipple.
Bumaba ang labi nya sa tyan ko. I know exactly where he was heading.
Napaliyad ako nang dumampi na ang dila nya sa kahandaan ko. Hindi pa rin tumitigil
sa paglabas pasok ang daliri nya and I know I'll be coming in any second.
"F-ford..Uhhhh!" Napahawak ako sa comforter.
Isinabit nya ang mga tuhok ko sa balikat nya habang busy ang bibig nya sa
pagkababae ko. He was exploring every inch.
I scremead when I came into his mouth.
Habol ko pa ang aking paghinga nang nakangisi syang tumingin pa sa akin.
Wala syang sinayang na sandali. Hinila nya ako mula sa kama. Isinandal nya ako sa
saradong pintuan. He kissed me hard, our taste mixed and I find it a huge turn on.
I felt my knees woobly when his hand found my still sensitive clit and played with
it.
"Ahhh! Shit." I pushed him so I can moan pero hinalikan nya ako ulit kaya nilamon
na ang mga ungol ko.
His still very hard cock is brushing on my tummy.
Itinaas nya ang isang hita ko and he entered me without warning.
The familiar feeling of him filling me and my whole being up resonated. He rammed
in and out of me. Our skin so hot we're burning each other. He was hitting the
right spot.
"Ahhhhh! Ashford!" Humawak ako sa balikat nya. I pulled him close, I bit him inthe
shoulder. He growled so sexily.
"I can't get enough of you, baby. God!"
"Take me. Take all of me." I moaned like crazy.
"Mine." Matigas nyang sabi.
"Yes!" I purred.
I used my other hand to squeeze his balls. I badly want to come again. God! The way
Ford can make me lose my sanity is just unbelievable.
"I'm gonna fill your fucking pussy with my cum." Mariing sabi nya, pabilis na ng
pabilis ang kanyang mga galaw.
"Yes baby. Please.." I begged.
He grunted and we both screamed our names when we came.
Nanginginig pa ang mga kamay ko nang bumaba ako sa sasakyan. I looked around
checking if it is the right hospital. My phone rang from my hand. Si Ate Via.
"Nasaan ka na? Malapit ka na ba?" There's urgency in her voice.
"Ate nasa labas na ako. Papasok na ako." Nagmamadali akong pumasok at luminga sa
paligid.
"Alright, stay there. Susunduin kita. Calm down."
I put my phone in my pocket afterwards. Para akong nahihilo na naiiyak. Pupunta na
sana ako sa warehouse nang itawag sa akin ni ate Via na naaksidente daw si kuya
Habagat.
Yinakap ako ng mahigpit ni ate Via nang magkita kami, tapos inakay nya ako papunta
sa may emergency room. Inooperahan na daw si Habagat. Naabutan ko doon si kuya
Argos at si Hyacinth.
"Kuya nasabi mo na ba kay tatay at Miko?" I was shaking. I don't know other details
yet but the fact that kuya Habagat went into an accident felt like a blow into my
chest.
Tumango sya. "They'll be here tomorrow. Ikinuha ko na sila ng ticket."
"What happened?" Umupo ako sa tabi nya.
"A nurse called me in. Drunk driving, Amihan. Wala naman syang nabangga na tao but
he was driving so drunk he hit a tree."
Mariin akong napapikit. "What the hell is wrong with him?""He's acting weird lately
pero ayaw nya naman magsalita." Mahinang sagot lang din ni kuya Argos.
We waited for an hour more. Tsaka lang lumabas ang mga doctor at agad kaming
lumapit.
Successful ang operation. Tumama ang dibdib nya sa manibela and a few shards of
glass went into the wound. May ilan din daw sugat sa mukha dahil din sa mga piraso
ng nabasag na salamin.
Inilipat na namin sya sa isang private room.
My heart sank seeing him lay there. May sugat sya sa labi, sa noo at sa pisngi.
Stable na daw sya at hihintayin na lang na magising.
Ibinilin ko na muna sa assistant ko ang lahat. Mahintay ko man lang na magising si
kuya bago ako bumalik sa Laguna. Isang buwan na ako doon at fully adjusted naman na
ako.
Pili na lang ang tinatanggap kong mga event at tuwing weekend na lang. Sinusundo at
hinahatid ako ni Ford kahit na sinabi ko na huwag na. Hindi biro ang haba ng byahe
mula Ortigas to Laguna.
"Hey, baby. Are you alright? How's your brother?" Ford called after a few minutes.
"I'm fine. Stable na si kuya Habagat, we're just waiting for him to wake up. Where
are you?" Lumabas ako sa private room.
Si Kelly at Sari pa lang ang may alam na okay na kami ni Ford. Well, pati si Stan
din. I never said I love him too or what. He said he just wanted to be with me. And
I melt every time he tells me that he love me.
"Office pa. May isang meeting pa ako. Uuwi ka ba sa Laguna today?"
"Nope. Hintayin ko magising si kuya. Why?"
"Dito ka na lang muna sa condo ko. Please? Miss na kita."
Tumawa ako. "I'll think about it."
"Baby.."
"Fine, fine."
"Sunduin kita mamaya? Just text me, okay?"
Hindi ako nakasagot agad. Susunduin nya ako, baka makita sya ni kuya Argos. I don't
know if I want them to know that there's something between me and Ford or
something.
Hindi pa namin napag uusapan yung dati. Mukhang ayaw na rin ni Ford pag usapan rin
ang nakaraan and I don't know what to do or think yet.
"Baby?"
"M-magkita na lang tayo. Hindi ko pa kasi alam kung anong oras ako aalis." Mabilis
na sagot ko na lang.
"Are you sure?"
"Yep."
Kami ni ate Via at Hyacinth muna ang naiwan sa hospital nang umalis si kuya Argos.
He still have a few meetings and work to attend to. Bumili ng pagkain si ate Via at
kami ng pamangkin ko ang naiwan.
"Tita Amihan, sa amin ka ba matutulog later?" Hyacinth was holding his ipad.
Mahilig sya sa mga educational games.
"Baka bukas na lang, Haya."
"Saan ka matutulog later? Sa hotel?"
"Sa f-friend ko." Okay, that's the best that I can do. Hindi ko naman pwede sabihin
na sa lover ko.
Tumango tango sya. "Okay. Wala ka na kasing house dito sa Manila di'ba? Malayo ba
ang Laguna tita?"
I smiled. Hinimas ko ang mahabang buhok ni Haya. "Malayo."
"Gusto ko pumunta sa house mo sa Laguna. Sabi ni mommy magpaalam daw ako sa'yo."
"Oo naman, sa bakasyon pwede mo ako puntahan."
Tiningala nya ako at ngumiti. "Okay, tita. Sasabihin ko kay mommy."
Gabi na bumalik si kuya Argos, dala nya na ang mga gamit nila since silang pamilya
ang mag i stay sa hospital. Alas siete ay nagpaalam na ako.
"Where are you going? Saan ka matutulog?" Kunot noo na tanong ni kuya Argos nang
palabas na ako.
"Ahm s-sa kaibigan ko?"
"Sinong kaibigan?" Lalong lumalim ang pagkakunot ng noo ni kuya.
Hindi ako agad naka sagot. Shit.
"Honey, ang laki laki na ni Amihan. Ano ka ba? Ini interrogate mo pa." Natatawa na
sabi ni ate Via.
Nagkamot si kuya ng ulo. "I was just asking."
Tumawa ako. "Babalik ako bukas ng umaga. Bye! Bye Haya!"
Hindi ko na sya binigyan ng chance na makasagot at mabilis na akong lumabas sa
private room. I texted Ford na sunduin na lang ako sa mall na malapit sa hospital.
Naglibot libot ako habang hinihintay sya.
After ten minutes, tumawag si Ford na nandoon na sya. Nag dinner na muna kami sa
labas bago kami dumiretso sa condo nya.
He immediately kissed me when we arrived.
"I miss you." Malamlam ang mga mata na sabi nya sa akin.
"Ako din." Nakangiti ko namang sabi tapo yinakap sya.
We stayed like that for a few seconds more. I just want to melt in his arms
whenever we're together.
"Baby, I'll be gone for a few days next week."
Tiningala ko sya. "Saan ka pupunta?"
"Isabela. May aayusin akong papers." Hinimas nya ang buhok ko.
"About saan?" Ewan ko kung bakit curious ako. Matagal ba syang mawawala? I don't
want to sound so clingy pero ngayon pa lang mamimiss ko na sya.
"Two to four days, at least. Mamimiss mo ba ako?" He grinned.
Tumawa ako. "Tingin mo?"
"Of course you do. Come, wash up. Kukuha lang ako ng pwede mong magamit na damit."
Hinila nya ako sa kwarto nya.
Nagbabad ako sa bath tub nya. Naka idlip pa nga yata ako. Nagpapatugtog naman si
Ford sa labas. Nang makalabas na ako ay naabutan ko syang nakapikit na.
Nasa paanan ng kama ang t-shirt nya na isusuot ko. Mamimili ako bukas ng damit at
toiletries. I rushed without thinking nang marinig ko na naaksidente si kuya
Habagat.
Tumabi ako kay Ford. He stirred and pulled me closer and hugged me tight.
"Maaga pa. Inaantok ka na?" I asked him.
"Medyo. May gagawin ka pa ba?" Hindi dumidilat na tanong nya.
"Wala naman. Hindi pa ako inaantok. Sige, matulog ka na. Manunuod muna ako ng tv."
He nods. I got up and went to his living room.
Binuksan ko ang tv at habang namimili ako ng palabas ay tumunog ang cellphone ko. A
text message.
Hi. This is Brad. I'm in Manila. Can we talk?
Napaisip ako. I wanted to know what happened at that time. Kung sya ba talaga ang
gumawa ng hickey sa akin. Pero should I really meet up with him? Harmless naman si
Brad.
But I don't know.
Sa huli ay nagreply na lang ako ng oras at lugar.

Chapter 8

"Ididiretso na kita sa hospital. Hindi naman ako bababa, eh. Bakit ang layo naman
ng bababaan mo?" Takang taka na tanong ni Ford that morning.
Early in the morning ay sinabihan ko si Sari na padalhan ako ng damit sa isa sa mga
employee nya. I can't wait for the malls to open, gusto kong maaga ako makapunta sa
hospital.
Ford waited for me. Pasado alas otso na nakarating ang inutusan ni Sari. And when I
told him na i drop na lang ako sa Greenhills ay iyon ang agad nyang sinabi.
Okay, I told Brad to meet me at nine there. Tingin ko ay saglit lang naman kami mag
uusap. It's not like close kami or something. Hindi ko na rin binanggit kay Sari na
magkikita kami n Brad.
"It's okay." Umiwas ako ng tingin. I hate the fact na may tinatago ako kay Ford.
Pero I kept on telling myself na hindi naman 'to big deal. I just want to know what
happened and maayos naman ang pagkaka aya sa akin ni Brad.
"It's okay? Malayo nga. Magcocommute ka pa. Late na rin naman ako kaya ihahatid na
kita."
"M-may titingnan akong pwede ipasalubong kay Hyacinth." Okay, that's so low.
Ginamit ko pa ang pamangkin ko. Hindi ako tumitingin sa kanya.
"Okay, fine. Get in." Sa wakas ay sabi na lang ni Ford.
Fresh na fresh syang tingnan. One of these days ay gusto kong sumama sa office
nila. I bet he'd look so hot while in his swivel chair.
"You sure you'd be okay? Tawagan mo na lang ako, ha?" We kissed and he dropped me
off, pero sumilip pa sya ulit sa bintana.
Tumawa ako. "I'm a big girl. Sige na, masyado ka nang late."
"Bye. I love you." Nakangiti nyang sinara ang bintana ng sasakyan at pinasibad na
iyon.
I stood frozen; his last words lingered in my mind.
Why can't I say it back?
Naglakad ako papunta sa tea shop na pagkikitaan namin. Nagkape lang kami ni Ford.
Nag aaya sana sya na mag breakfast muna pero sabi ko ay sa hospital na ako kakain.
Kakaupo ko pa lang nang makita ko na papasok na si Brad.
I smiled at him. He smiled back and sat in front of me.
"Hey."
"Hey you too." Sabi nya.
"I'm starving." Sabi ko. "Order muna tayo?"
"I don't think masasatisfy ka sa pagkain dito. Let's go somewhere else." He said
instead.
Lumipat kami sa isang restaurant. Nasa kalagitnaan na kami nang pag kain nang
tanungin ko na sya.
"Brad, I'm sorry. I was so drunk that time. Hindi ko alam ang mga nangyari the next
morning." Mahinang sabi ko.
He chuckled. "Yeah, actually 'yan ang reason bakit gusto kita maka usap. I want to
apologize."
Nangunot ang noo ko. "For what? For sure hindi mo naman ako pinilit or what."
Umiling iling sya. "I know. It's not that. I took advantage of the fact na nag away
kayo ng boyfriend mo. You came at me, well, yes, pero hindi na sana ako pumatol,
you know?" Casual na sabi nya.
Napangiwi ako. Nakakahiya.
"Ako dapat mag sorry sa'yo."
"Of course not. And Sari told me I gave you a damn big hickey. Nawala na sa isip ko
na may boyfriend ka. I can only imagine what happened when he saw it." Kita ko ang
sincerity sa mukha nya.Uminom ako ng tubig bago ko sya sinagot. "It was a big
fight, pero okay naman na."
"Glad to hear that."
"Kay Sari mo ba nakuha number ko?"
"Yep. Pero hindi ko na sinabi sa kanya na makikipag kita ako sa'yo."
"Ako din. Hindi ko na binanggit."
"Well, at least hindi ka naman pala galit sa akin. Sobrang na guilty ako. I like
you, Amihan. Pero alam ko naman na taken ka na."
I smiled. I didn't know that.
He asked me kung may pupuntahan ako pagkatapos and he wanted na ihatid ako sa
hospital. Dala nya naman daw kasi ang sasakyan nya. Hindi na ako tumanggi.
Si Hyacinth at si ate Via ang naabutan ko.
"Saan kayo natulog?"
"Nagkasya kami ni Haya dito sa couch." Nakangiti na sabi ni ate Via. "Ikaw? Saan ka
pala tumuloy?"
Hindi ako nakasagot.
"Sabi ni Tita Amihan natulog sya sa friend nya." Sabi naman ni Hyacinth.
"Kay Sari?" Tanong pa ni ate Via.
Umiling ako.
Tumawa sya. "May boyfriend ka ba?"
Napakurap ako. Hindi ako nakasagot.
"Oh. I see." Nakangiti na tumango tango si ate Via.
I bit my lower lip. Hindi ko alam kung magdedeny or aamin. Isa pa, I don't even
know if boyfriend ko si Ford. As far as I am concern, he's still just my lover. We
never talked about being more than that.
"Isama mo sa bahay. Ako bahala sa kuya mo." Malapad ang ngiti na sabi ni ate Via.
Wala naman ako duda sa kakayahan nya pagdating kay kuya Argos. Tiklop na tiklop kay
ate si kuya kaya nakakatawa kapag minsan para silang nag aaway at si ate ang
palaging huling halakhak. Kuya Habagat also adores ate Via so kung may balak man
ako na magpasabog ng balita at si ate ang back up ko, wala akong problema.
"Ate naman.." Nahihiyang sabi ko.
"Seryoso ako."
Ngumiti na lang ako at hindi naman na sya namilit.
Pero ano nga kaya kung malaman nila kuya Argos at kuya Habagat na may relasyon kami
ni Ford? It never came up. Wala naman din kasi silang alam na naging ka relasyon ko
after Ford.
Dumating si kuya Argos after an hour na may dalang mga pagkain at kasama na sila
tatay at Miko. The private room is big kaya na accommodate naman kami. Kada may
nagchecheck ng vitals ni kuya Habagat ay ganoon pa rin daw ang lagay nya at
maghihintay kami na magising sya.
Hindi nagtext o tumawag buong araw si Ford. Not even after six which was the usual
time na pauwi na sya. Ako na ang tumawag pero hindi naman sya sumasagot.
I don't know why pero biglang kinabahan ako.
I started sending him texts. Bihira na ako ang maunang tumawag o mag text but when
I do, nagrereply agad si Ford. But not this time. Hindi na ako mapakali.
"You okay?" Si ate Via ang nakapansin na hindi ako mapakali.
Piilit ko ngumiti at tumango.
"Okay." Mukhang hindi convinced si ate pero hindi na sya nagtanong ulit.
Pasado alas nueve na, pauwi na sila kuya Argos, ate Via at Hyacint. Sila Miko at
tatay na muna ang maiiwan hanggang bukas. Pero wala pa ring kahit na ano mula kay
Ford."Dito ka ba matutulog ate?" Nagtataka na tanong ni Miko.
"H-hindi. Aalis ako."
"Babalik ka ba bukas? Kailan ka babalik sa Laguna?" Si tatay naman iyon.
"Opo 'tay. Hintayin ko lang magising si kuya." Kinuha ko na ang shoulder bag ko at
tumayo na. "Sige po."
"Mag iingat ka." Pahabol pa ni tatay.
I really don't know where to go. Alas diyes na at wala pa ring text o tawag from
Ford. Hindi sya nagreresponse sa text ko at hindi pa rin sumasagot sa tawag ko. I
decided na mag check in na lang sa Marco Polo sa Ortigas. Para if ever man ay
malapit na sa condo ni Ford.
Nagpapa antok na ako by scrolling through my facebook page nang may makita na naman
akong tagged photos. Nasa bar si Ford.
I froze for a moment. Pero bakit hindi sya sumasagot? Ni hindi sya nagsabi na
pupunta sya. Wala kaming usapan for tonight pero nainis ako bigla.
Bago mag alas dose ay natulog na ako.
Naalimpungatan ako nang mag ring ang cellphone ko. Napabalikwas ako ng bangon when
I saw that Ford's calling. Agad ko iyon na sinagot.
"Where are you?" Matigas na tanong nya. Ni wala man lang 'sorry' kasi ngayon lang
sya tumawag o nakaresponse. O dahil hindi sya nagsabi na magbabar sya.
Pero hindi ko na pinansin.
"Nag check in ako sa Marco Polo." Mahinang sabi ko.
"Room number."
"P-pupunta ka?"
He groaned. "Just text me the room number."
Magsasalita na sana ako pero narealize ko na pinutol nya na ang linya. Hindi ako
makapaniwala sa ginawa ni Ford. Pinagbabaan nya ako ng linya.
Roswell:
Room number.
Nagreply ako ng room number ko. Hindi ko alam kung nasaan na sya. Gusto ko sana
bumalik sa pag tulog dahil inaantok pa ako pero kailangan ko sya hintayin.
Napapapikit na ako nang marinig ko na may kumatok na. As much as I wanted to go
back to sleep, gusto ko makita si Ford. I haven't heard from him the whole day.
I smiled at him when I opened the door, pero hindi nya ako ginantihan. He just went
in, linibot ang paningin na parang may hinahanap bago muling tumingin sa akin.
Agad na pumasok sa ilong ko ang amoy ng alak.
"U-uminom ka?" Kunyari ay hindi ko alam na nag bar sya.
Hindi sya sumagot, tumitig lang sya sa akin. Sumikdo ang dibdib ko nang mapansin ko
na parang galit sya.
"F-Ford may problema ba?" Nakatitig pa rin sya sa akin.
He travelled our distance and instead kissed me. Nagulat ako, umiwas ako but he
kept on pulling me and kissing me. I can feel his anger with the way he kissed me.
"F-ford.." I tried pushing him, pero malakas sya. Itinulak nya ako sa sofa at
mabilis rin akong pinatungan. His hands travelled under my shirt.
Marahas ang bawat pag galaw ng kamay nya. His kisses were punishing me. Masakit.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero hindi ako makapalag.
Hinila nya pataas ang suot kong damit, he pulled down my bra and attached my
nipples with his mouth.
I screamed when he bit me."Ford what the hell are you doing! Stop!" I tried pulling
him away pero mabigat sya.
He started dry humping me. Magaspang ang suot nyang maong pants sa naka hantad kong
mga hita. Panty lang ang suot ko.
He just groaned and kept on undressing me.
Humihingal ako habang pinipigilan sya. His eyes are dark and deep. Hindi ko alam
kung bakit nagkakaganito sya.
"Ford nasasaktan ako! Ano ba?!"
Hindi pa rin sya nagpa pigil. Tumayo sya, pero para mag hubad ng mga damit nya.
Mabilis akong tumayo para makalayo sa kanya, pero mabilis ang mga kamay nya at
nahila ako. Nahubad nya na ang polo nya at binubuksan nya na ang zipper ng pantalon
nya.
He's not saying anything. He was just looking at me with anger. Tinulak nya ako
ulit sa couch. May urgency sa galaw nya nang hinubad nya na ang pantalon nya.
"Ford ano bang problema? Don't do this." Mahinang sabi ko sa kanya. I want him to
calm down.
Hindi pa rin sya nagsasalita. He unhooked my bra and threw it somewhere. Agad na
pumasok ang isang kamay nya sa panty ko at sinimulang laruin ang pagkababae ko.
Shit. I can't be turn on now.
Hindi ko napigilan ang mapaungol nang ipasok nya na ang dalawang daliri nya. He
moved in and out of me swiftly. His other hand cupped my other breast and squeezed
it tight.
"Ah! Ford!"
His lips and tongue assaulted my neck. He was kissing, licking and biting me.
"Ford let's talk first." I begged.
He just groaned. Bumaba ang halik nya sa dibdib ko. He bit my nipple again and I
screamed. He was acting cold and distant, pero ramdam ko pa rin ang init ng bawat
paghawak nya sa katawan ko.
He flipped me easily. Nakadapa na ako ngayon sa couch and I feel helpless. Magaslaw
ang mga galaw ni Ford, he's not saying anything. He's never been this violent
before.
"F-ford can we talk-" I gasped before I can finish my sentence when I felt him
entered me from behind. I was wet, pero nakaramdam ako ng kirot. It meant I wasn't
ready yet.
He started ramming me from behind. Rinig ko ang malalim nyang paghinga. Mahigpit
ang pagkakahawak nya sa bewang ko. Nasasaktan ako but he doesn't seem to mind.
I silently cried.
Inabot nya ang isang dibdib ko at pinisil iyon na may kasamang gigil. Again,
masakit. Pero mukhang wala syang plano na tumigil.
His hard cock kept on going in and out of me. Hindi na ako gumagalaw, hinayaan ko
syang gawin ang gusto nya. I wanted to talk to him, pero mukhang iyon ang
pinakahuling gusto nya na mangyari.
"Ahhh! Shit." I heard him moan.
Inangat nya ang balakang ko para mas pumantay sa kanya. I just let him. Wala akong
lakas pigilan sya. I tried telling myself to just like it, nab aka dahil naka inom
lang si Ford kaya ganito sya.
Wala naman kasing ibang sensible na explanation kung hindi iyon lang. Maybe after
this, he'll calm down.
"Fucking hell!" He cursed in between his breathing.
I feel that he's close. Matatapos na rin.
Hinila nya ang dalawang kamay ko patalikod at iyon ang ginamit nyang hawakan para
mas makagalaw sya.
His thrusts are full of want and need.
Parang hindi sya mapakali na binitiwan ang mga kamay ko at sa mga balikat ko naman
humawak. His grip's too tight. I groaned in pain pero ininda nya iyon.My tears kept
falling.
Maya maya ay hinugot nya ang sarili nya. Parang laruan lang ako na pinatihaya nya
at pinaharap sa kanya. He started playing with his cock while he's still in between
my tighs.
Tiningnan ko ang mga mata nya. Hindi sya tumitignin sa akin, focus sya sa ginagawa
nya. Ni hindi nya napansin na lumuluha na ako.
The intensity of darkness in his eyes did not fade. He looked determined of some
sort. At para akong paslit na walang alam at madaming tanong.
His cum spread like a wild fire in my stomach.
Mabilis syang umalis at tumayo nang matapos na sya. Humihingal na dumiretso sya sa
kusina at uminom ng tubig. Bumangon ako, still stunned and shock as to what
happened.
Nang makainom sya ay humarap sya sa akin na parang wala lang sa kanya ang nangyari.
"What? Don't tell me you didn't like it." He has this evil smirk in his lips at
parang nalaglag ang puso ko nang marinig ang sinabi nya.
"I didn't like it." Mahinang sabi ko.
"Right." Sarcastic na sabi nya.
Tumayo ako. "Ford may problema ba?"
"Problema? Wala. I am fine. Super fine. Ikaw, for sure wala kang problema. You have
everything you could ever want wrapped around your fingers." Tuya nya sa akin.
I blinked. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ganito sya makipag usap sa akin.
"G-galit ka ba sa akin? Ford, h-hindi ka tumawag o nagtext man lang kanina. Hindi
ka sumasagot at nagrereply." Hindi ko na lang pinansin at tinanong ang gusto ko
malaman.
"I was busy."
"You went into a bar." Mahinang sabi ko.
"Well, I'm a man. I have my needs." Sumandal sya sa kitchen counter. He curled his
hand into his chest and looked into me.
"H-hindi ka lang kasi nagsabi." Sumisikip na ang dibdib ko sa paraan ng pakikipag
usap nya sa akin.
"I met a woman there, we had sex." Biglang sabi nya.
Everything suddenly looked falling apart. Bigla akong nahilo at mas nanlabo ang mga
mata ko. Napaupo ako. There's a stinging feeling in my chest.
"What? At least I didn't lie. I don't sneak out meeting girls I am currently
fucking." He cocked his head to his side na parang natutuwang makita ang reaction
ko. "Unlike you."
"W-what?" Nangangatal ang mga labi ko.
Nagkibit balikat sya. Naglakad sya palapit at isa isang pinulot ang mga damit nya.
"Ford what are you talking about?"
"What I am talking about?" Tiningnan nya ako mula ulo hanggang paa. He looked
disgusted as he started putting on his clothes. "Hindi lang naman ikaw ang may
karapatan mang gago, Amihan."
"Ford I don't understand-"
"You don't need to, because I already do. Huwag mo na akong paikutin sa exclusive
bullshit mo. You were meeting other guys while you said you're exclusive with me.
Ilang araw lang tayo hindi nagkausap, kasama mo na yung Stan na 'yon. In the first
place, kaya nga tayo nag away that time dahil sa kalandian mo." Dinuro nya ako.
Pakiramdam ko may tumarak na kutsilyo sa dibdib ko. I was shaking and crying.
Hindi ko na masalubong ang mga tingin nya. Masyadong matalas ang tingin na
binibigay nya sa akin.
Hatred and disgust, too.
"Then you had to lie to me to meet that guy this morning." Ngumisi sya. "How many
cocks do you need to satisfy you, huh? Do your brothers even know how you go around
fucking guys like a slut?" he was spitting words at me with pure disgust.
Hindi ako makapagsalita. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya habang patuloy na tumutulo
ang luha ko. Is that what he thinks about me?
"It's a shame na mahal pa rin kita hanggang ngayon." He sighed nang maisuot nya na
ulit ang polo nya. "But who knows? One of these days baka kaka move on na din ako.
Hindi lang naman ikaw ang babae. Madaming mas matino sa paligid at hindi pa
nakikipag sex kung kanikanino."
I went deaf after that. Hindi ko na alam ang mga sinasabi ni Ford. I clutched my
chest as if I was having a heart attack. I might as well just die at that moment.
How can he say those words to my face? Hindi nya ba alam na mahal ko rin sya? Na
wala akong ibang minahal kung hindi sya lang all these time?
Narinig ko na lang na nagsara ang pinto nang makaalis na sya. That's when I
collapsed to the couch and cried my heart out.
Chapter 9

"I'm so sorry, honey." Sympathetic na sabi lang ni Sari. Pinunasan nya ang luha na
tumulo sa pisngi nya while looking at me.
I bitterly smiled. "Maybe I deserved that."
"No. Of course not." She clenched her fists. "You were never a slut, Amihan.
Remember that."
Hindi ako sumagot.
Hindi nga ba?
After crying the whole night, pinilit ko ayusin ang sarili ko dahil kailangan ko pa
rin na pumunta kinabukasan sa hospital. I tried hard not to let them know what I
was going through.
Later that day ay naging conscious na si kuya Habagat. They check him and they said
he's fine. Kailangan na lang ng bed rest hanggang gumaling ang mga sugat nya.
That night, I met with Sari before I decided to go back to Laguna. I told her
everything. I bawled my eyes out. Sobrang sakit pa rin tuwing umaalingawngaw ang
mga salita na sinabi sa akin ni Ford.
"Huwag ka na muna umuwi tonight. Dito ka na muna matulog." Luminga linga si Sari sa
kabuuan ng kwarto nya. "You can sleep here with me or sa kabilang kwarto. I don't
think its best na ngayong gabi ka mag byahe."
Tumango na lang ako.
She sighed. "Okay, what do you want to eat?"
I know Sari's doing her best. But all I want to do is just lay and do nothing.
Iniwan nya na lang ako na tulala sa kama nya. Hindi ko alam kung anong pagkain ang
ihahanda nya.
Sa lahat ng inoffer ni Sari ay sa wine lang ako tumango. Napapailing na lang sya
nang halos tunggain ko na ang laman ng bote na dinala nya.
The worst part of everything is that, hindi ako makaramdam ng galit para sa kanya.
I should be. He called me names, he didn't even talked to me or asked me first
tapos naniwala na lang sya sa sarili nyang conclusion.
I just want him back.
It's stupid, I know.
I should just move on.
Hindi ko rin naman alam where do we go from here if ever he'll come back. Palagi
kong maaalala ang lahat ng sinabi nya sa akin. How he looked disgusted,
disappointed and mad when he looked at me.
I didn't know kung paano o anong oras ako nakatulog. I woke up with a hangover the
next morning next to Sari. Hindi ko na sya ginising, I navigated my way through her
flat.
Ininit ko ang mac and cheese na nasa fridge nya at uminom ulit ng wine.
"Seriously? I don't remember myself drinking wine in the morning when I was broken
hearted." Naiiling na sabi ni Sari ng maabutan nya ako sa sala.
"I hid all of your wines, that's why."
Napatigil sya at nag isip. "Right. Damn."
"Pinakealaman ko na ang mac and cheese mo."
Tumango sya. Sari looked like a mess, but a beautiful one. Maluwag na pajamas ang
suot nya at magulo ang buhok nya pero mukha syang galing sa photoshoot.
"Anyway, thanks for letting me crash last night. I need to go back in Laguna before
lunch."
"Will you be really okay? I don't mind if you'll stay again tonight." Kita ko ang
pag aalala sa mukha nya. Tumabi sya sa akin sa sofa.
Pinilit ko ngumiti at umiling. "Hindi na. Thanks, Sari. I'll be fine. Life must go
on."
"Okay, that's the spirit." Ngumiti sya.Tamad na tamad ako kumilos pero kailangan ko
na makabalik. Nang masiguro ko na ayos na si kuya Habagat ay kahit papaano, gumaan
na ang pakiramdam ko.
Nag take out na lang ako ng pwede makain bago ako dumiretso sa warehouse. Two days
akong nawala at may tiwala naman ako sa assistant ko dito. I checked everything.
Patapos na ako kumain when I received a call from Kelly.
I still hire her, pero may bawas na ang workload nya.
"Nakabalik ka na sa Laguna?"
"Yep. What do you have for me?" Agad na tanong ko.
I thought of spending all of my time working than to remember everything that Ford
said. Kaysa magsisi ako na tinaggap ko sya ulit sa buhay ko at kung bakit inamin ko
pa sa sarili ko na hindi pa ako naka move on, I'll just work to keep me sane.
It's a better alternative.
"Anniversary ng Better Filipina next week, they are inviting you as a guest and
speaker. I'll send you the topic and other details then tell me if go ka. Then this
coming weekend naman, Helping Hand and Hope Foundation asks kung interested ka pa
rin na sumama sa feeding program nila."
"Wala nang iba for this weekend?"
She chuckled. "Meron pa, syempre. That's on Sunday morning till noon. Sa Saturday,
well, nasa calendar mo na birthday ni Agnes Roswell."
I was frozen for a second when I heard that. Two months ago ay tumawag si Agnes sa
akin para imbitahin ako sa birthday nya na gaganapin dito sa Manila. Masquerade
party and all the jazz.
"Nag send na rin ng formal invitation si Miss Agnes two weeks ago, hindi ko lang
agad nabanggit sayo. If-"
"I don't think na makakapunta ako." Putol ko sa ano pang sasabihin ni Kelly.
She gasped. "What?"
"I'm not coming. Why?" I'll just send the gift and I'll apologize to Agnes one of
these days pero alam ko na makikita ko ang kuya nya and hindi ko alam ang pwedeng
mangyari.
"I'm sorry. I RSVP-ed. You told me na pupunta ka come what may."
Napapikit ako ng mariin. Hindi ako agad nakasagot kay Kelly. It's not her fault,
sinabi ko naman talaga before. Hindi ko lang akalain na nakasagot na sya.
"Ami? I'm sorry."
I sighed. "It's fine. I'll be attending all of it. Send me the details."
Para akong nanghina nang matapos na ang pag uusap namin ni Kelly. Okay, this is the
worse timing ever. Kung kalian galit sa akin si Ford. He thought that I was fucking
every man that he had seen me with.
I laughed. I laughed like a madman.
I mean, seriously? Hindi nya ba naisip kahit minsan man lang na spesyal sya? Even
Sari and Stan's talking about it. And there he was, accusing me of being a slut.
I checked my personal email at natanggap ko na ang email na pinadala ni Kelly.
Nakalagay sa invitation ni Agnes na I can bring a plus one.
"I want you so bad, baby."
The heat instantly crept into me when I heard him said that. His voice is full of
want and need. Naramdaman ko ang kamay ni Ford na gumapang mula hita ko pataas sa
dibdib ko na parang kanina pa naghihintay sa mga kamay nya.
Pinapaso ng mainit nyang kamay ang lahat nang mahawakan nya na parte ng katawan ko.
Napaungol ako nang ipasok nya ang mga kamay nya sa ilalim ng bra ko.
He put my now hard nipples in between his two fingers and played with it. He was
pinching and pulling and the wave of pleasure is sending my body to twist.I looked
into his eyes. I was looking for the look of disgust and anger pero wala. Ang
tanging nandoon ay pagnanasa at pangangailangan.
Inabot ko ang dulo ng suot nyang damit at hinila pataas upang mahubad nya na iyon.
I bit my lower lip when his upper body, muscled and lean came into my view. Inabot
ko ang matipuno nyang dibdib.
He groaned when I caressed it.
Bumaba ang labi nya at sinimulan akong halikan sa leeg ko. His kisses were burning.
My desire spread like wild fire into my whole being. Ipinasok nya na ang isang
kamay nya sa ilalim ng suot ko'ng palda.
Agad nyang napuntahan ang pagkababae ko. God, I'm already so wet. His touch is
electric. It makes me want to go to edge everytime. His skillfull lips went lower
to my nipples. Sucking and licking.
"Ford.."
His fingers played with my clit. Napaigtad ako.
He looked so drunk in lust and I missed seeing his face like that. Na parang ako
lang ang may kayang makapagparamdam sa kanya ng sarap na nararamdaman nya.
He was fully naked in a second. His throbbing cock is in front of me. Agad ko iyon
na hinawakan at nilaro habang naka tingin sa kanya.
"Yes, baby! Just like that." Nakapikit na sabi nya.
I kept my pace, but went down and licked it's mushroom head. I felt him hissed.
I played my tongue, use it to tease him.
"Baby please.." He begged.
I like it when he beg.
Inunti unti ko ang pagsubo sa kabuoan nya. He's long, thick and throbbing. I like
the pinkish color it becomes when he's so damn hard.
Parang gustong gusto nang kumawala ng katas nya.
But not yet.
I bobbed my head up and down. His fingers found it's way back to my pussy and he
starte fingering me while I suck him.
I sucked him whole and moaned when he reached my throat.
"Ahhh! Fuck." He delightfully cursed. "Spread your legs wider. I want to see your
dripping pussy." He commanded.
At ginawa ko iyon nang walang pag aalinlangan. I licked his cock from head to his
balls, cupped it and played with it.
"Stop. I'd like to come inside you." Marahan nyang hinila ang ilang hibla ng buhok
ko upang patigilin ako. Umupo sya at sumandal sa head board ng kama.
He wanted me to be on top, and I gladly slid his readiness into mine. Kapwa kami
nakatingin sa paghuhugpong namin.
"Shit baby. You're so fucking tight. Yeah.."
Humawak sya sa bewang ko and instructed me to move. Bahagya akong dumapa at humawak
sa dibdib nya para sa suporta. I can feel him all over me. The sensation is so
fucking raw.
Binilisan ko ang pag galaw ko. Ilang sandal lang ay sinasalubong nya na ang bawat
pag ulos ko. His body slapping into mine, it echoes in my mind.
"Ford.. are you close baby?" My voice is shaking.
"Yes. Yes! Keept it like that."
He pulled me in and kissed me with hunger. Ramdam ko ang gigil nya at kahit masakit
ay gusto ko iyon.
"I'm coming. Oh fuck." I said in between our lips locking.
"Come for me." He growled.
I put my head up when my orgasm possessed me. A few more deep thrusts and I felt
Ford consumed me.I kissed him after.
"I love you, Ford." Sabi ko habang nakatitig sa kanya.
"Don't lie to me." Sumeryoso ang mukha nya.
Naramdaman ko ang takot nang hindi na sya ngumiti.
"But I mean it."
"If you really love me, you'll tell me. Kung mahal mo talaga ako, dapat ako lang."
Bigla syang lumayo sa akin at tumayo.
"F-ford." Pinigilan ko sya pero mabilis na syang naka layo. I tried calling him,
but instead, I woke up sobbing from a beautiful nightmare.
Lumaylay ang balikat ko nang makita si Stan na nakatayo sa labas ng pintuan ng
condo ko. Naka casual na itim na polo at cream na shorts lang sya. Hindi mo talaga
aakalain na nasa thirties na sya.
"What? Disappointed it's me?" Nakangiti na sabi nya.
Hindi ako nagsalita at tumalikod na lang. I felt him coming in and closing the
door.
"I was waiting for Sari." Walang gana na sabi ko.
Pasalampak ako na naupo sa couch. Hininaan ko ang volume ng tv na binuksan ko lang
naman pero hindi ako nanunuod.
"Yeah, about that." Umupo sya sa tabi ko. "Hindi makaka sama si Sari so she asked
me to go instead."
I groaned. "Bullshit."
Tumawa si Stan. "Oo nga! I swear. I don't even know about the party."
"At ano naman ang sinabi nya sa'yo?" Taas ang kilay na sabi ko.
"Well, you know.. everything?"
I rolled my eyeballs. "Kayo ba ang mag bestfriend? Bakit laging sinasabi sa'yo ni
Sari ang lahat?" I hissed at him.
Tumawa sya ulit. "Maybe because of my charms."
Inirapan ko sya.
"So what time tayo aalis? I mean, maaga pa naman. We can go around eight, mabilis
na lang ang byahe. Bago mag alas diyes nandoon na tayo for sure." Tumingin sya sa
wrist watch nya.
Tumango lang ako.
"So, are you moving on or what?" Masiglang tanong nya pa sa akin.
"You don't need to know."
"The last time we're together, iniwan mo ako dahil sa kanya. Partida, supposedly
magka away pa kayo, ha?"
"I love him, Stan." I blurted. There's no reason to hide it anymore.
Hindi naka sagot si Stan.
"I fucking love him. I still love him. Walang nag bago. Mula noon, hanggang
ngayon." I bitterly smiled like an idiot.
"They say love is blind." Kibit balikat na sagot nya.
Umiling iling ako. "No, Stan. Love isn't blind. It sees, but it understands."
He cleared his throat.
"He told me he love me." Wala na ako sa loob na nagsasalita. "He told me na ako pa
rin ang mahal nya mula noon. He asked me to give him another chance." I felt my
eyes sting.
I shoudn't say this to Stan pero ito na ang oras para ilabas ang lahat.
"I was so happy nang marinig ko na sinabi nya iyon. Hindi ko pa maamin sa kanya na
ganoon din ang nararamdaman ko kasi takot ako. Nasira na kami noon, alam ko na mas
malaki ang posibilidad na may sumira ulit sa amin ngayon."
My tears started falling. Naka tingin lang ako sa coffee table ko at hindi
gumagalaw.
"And I don't want to go through the process again. It's something traumatic. Pero
kahit anong pag suppress ko sa nararamdaman ko para sa kanya, ganoon pa rin ang
nangyari. Masakit. Pero ang pinaka masakit ay yung mga sinabi nya."
Stan sighed. "You know that it's not true."
I sobbed. "Malandi. Hindi makuntento sa isa. Slut." Tumingin ako kay Stan. "S-
stan.. ang sakit sakit." I clutched my chest.
The sharp pain's on it again.
"He was thinking that we're fucking. And I am also fucking Brad. And I sneaked into
him so I can fuck other guys." I smiled like crazy. "Wow. I must love having sex so
much."
"Damn it, Amihan. Kung ganyan ang tingin nya sa'yo, that fucking guy doesn't
deserve you." Galit na sabi ni Stan. Seryoso ang mukha nya habang nakatingin sa
akin.
"Hindi nya ako pinagpaliwanag." Garalgal na sabi ko. "S-sabi nya mahal nya ako but
he dropped me like a trash. Just like that."
Stan pulled me and hugged me.
"I feel like dying that moment. He was looking at me with disgust, anger and
disappointment."
"Amihan.."
"This will be the last time na masasaktan ako dahil sa kanya. This is too much. I
can't take another pain as intense as this from him."
Hinagod ni Stan ang likod ko. He was holding me tight but with care as if I will be
shatter anytime.
I am glad he's here with me.
Sa huli, si Stan ang nandyan para sa akin. Sa huli, si Stan pa rin ang yumakap at
umalo sa akin. Sa huli, si Stan ang naka intindi sa akin.
Nang mahimasmasan na ako ay ikinuha ako ni Stan ng tubig. Inaayos nya ang buhok ko
at pinupunasan ang luha sa mga pisngi ko.
"Do you still want to go? It's his sister's birthday party. Malamang na nandoon
sya." He asked.
Tumango ako. "I have to go. Agnes shouldn't suffer just because of Ford and I.
Magtatampo sya kapag hindi ako pumunta."
Tumango tango si Stan. "Okay, fine. Hindi ka hihiwalay sa akin."
Pinilit ko ngumiti.

Chapter 10

I wore an ankle length night gown na may mahabang slit na nagpapakita sa kaliwang
hita ko. Tinernuhan ko ng ruby ring, earrings, necklace and bracelet na regalo sa
akin ni kuya Argos.
Stan's a stunner in his light blue polo underneath his dark blue suit. Ako ang nag
ayos ng buhok nya. We will be wearing masks but I love styling Stan's hair.
Nag light snack kami bago kami umalis ng Laguna bago mas alas otso. He kept on
asking me if sigurado ba ako na tutuloy kami because he can just turn around the
car.
He also kept on joking na kalimutan ko na na may kilala akong Ashford Roswell.
But really, how can I forget him if his touch still lingers in my skin? Ilang gabi
na akong nananaghinip na katalik sya. That he was making love to me?
It seemed wrong to have wet dreams about someone who you should despise and hate.
Pero hindi ko magawa.
I'd wake up around midnight realizing it was just all a dream. But I can feel the
tingling and burning sensation in my skin and being na parang nandoon lang sya.
His electric kisses na kahit sa panaghinip lang, pakiramdam ko ang totoo. Na
nandoon sya. Na katabi ko sya sa kama, our bodies intertwined under the comforter.
I groaned. Shit. I shouldn't think of Ford sexually at this moment. What the hell
is wrong with me?
"What? Something wrong?" Kunot noon a tudyo sa akin ni Stan. Nasa EDSA na kami
banda at relax na relax sya sa pag mamaneho.
"H-ha? W-wala."
"You look flushed. Okay ka lang ba talaga?"
I'm horny and it's because of Ford so I am not okay.
"Y-yeah." Sabi ko na lang.
Stan did not pressed the issue anymore.
Sa clubhouse ng Forbes gaganapin ang masquerade party ni Agnes. She texted me
asking kung nasaan na ako. Hindi na ako nag response since papasok na naman na
kami.
Agnes is the artistic one sa magkakapatid. She's a graduate of Fine Arts at madami
syang medium. Kaya hindi na ako nag taka nang masquerade ang motif ng birthday nya.
Although effective din sya nang maging assistant sya ng Daddy nya. As if there's
nothing she cannot do.
"Ready?" Kita ko pa rin ang pag aalala sa mukha ni Stan nang itanong nya iyon nang
makababa na kami sa sasakyan nya after nya iyon ma park.
I pulled of a smile. "Yes. Let's go!" Masiglang sabi ko.
I heard Stan sighed before we walked towards the entrance. Ipinakita namin ang
invitation namin at agad kaming pinapasok.
Parang carnival ang ayos sa loob. Black, violet and red ang pinaka kulay ng
designs. Everyone's wearing their masks but I hope na makasalubong si Agnes para
mabati ko sya ng personal.
May table kung saan ilalagay ang mga regalo at inilagay na namin ni Stan ang dala
namin.
"Sa bar tayo." Inakay ako ni Stan sa bar kung saan may nagseserve na apat na
bartender. Agnes really knows how to throw a party.
"Scotch, on the rocks." Agad na sabi ko.
"No. Margarita for the lady, please. And Jack Daniels for me. Thank you." Agad na
sabi ni Stan sa bartender.
Pinanlakihan ko sya ng mata.
"What?" Maang na sabi nya. "We're not here to be drunk."
"Then what?""Para lalong inisin si Ford dahil ako ang kasama mo." Then he smirked.
Inirapan ko sya.
The music is loud pero nagkaka intindihan naman kami ni Stan. Before I knew it,
naka tatlong glass na ako ng margarita, si Stan naman ay naka dalawang Jack
Daniels.
"Ate Amihan? Oh my God!" Out of nowhere ay bigla na lang sumulpot si Agnes. She
wasn't wearing a mask. Agad kaming nagyakap.
"Happy Birthday Agnes!" Agad na batik o.
"Thank you, ate! I'm so happy nakapunta ka talaga."
"Ikaw pa ba eh ang lakas mo sa akin."
Humiwalay na sya at dumapo ang tingin nya kay Stan.
"Who is he?"
"He's my plus one. Si Stan. Stan, si Agnes."
"Happy Birthday and nice meeting you." Inilahad ni Stan ang kamay nya.
Agnes gave Stan an unknowing look bago tinanggap ang kamay nya. "Thanks. Enjoy the
party."
Sandali kaming nagkwentuhan bago sya nagpaalam na lilibot na. Nasa bar lang kami ni
Stan the whole time, until a familiar voice next to me pulled my attention away.
"Beer, please."
I stiffened. At napansin iyon ni Stan kaya tumingin sya sa likod ko. Tinungga nya
ang laman na alak ng baso na hawak nya.
"Your asshole ex." I don't know if it was supposed to be a whisper, pero hindi iyon
ang nangyari.
I felt Ford's attention shifted to us. Hindi pa rin ako lumilingon, but Stan seemed
determined on something.
"Look what we got here, my favorite couple." Sarcastic na rinig kong sabi nya.
I stood up from the stool I was sitting at at lumapit kay Stan. Hinila ko ang kamay
nya.
"Let's go. Huwag mo nang pansinin." Bulong ko sa kanya.
Pero hinila ni Stan ang kamay nya mula sa pagkakahawak ko. "No, Amihan. Bakit tayo
iiwas sa kanya? In the first place, invited tayo sa party na 'to so we have all the
rights to stay where we want." Masama ang tingin na ipinukol ni Stan kay Ford.
Huminga ako ng malalim before I finally had the courage to turn around and look at
him. He was wearing a black suit pero naka pulang bowtie sya. He wasn't wearing a
mask but he was holding one.
I secretly sucked in my breath. Ford's always breathtaking and this is no different
this time. But I gather myself and looked into him.
Nakatitig lang sya sa akin, I can't tell what he was thinking. Ibinalik ko kay Stan
ang tingin at atensyon ko. "Stan, let's just go. Please." I pleaded.
"What? Don't you want him to think we're really fucking?" Nakangisi na tanong ni
Stan. Bigla akong nahilo bigla. What is he doing? We aren't supposed to talk to
Ford, let alone look at him here!
"Stan please!" Mariin na sabi ko.
"Should we just let him see how we do it? It seems like he thinks he got everything
already figured out." Stan chuckled.
Okay, that's it. Hinila ko na si Stan pero ayaw nya umalis.
"Stan ano ba? Let's just go." Parang naiiyak na sabi ko. This isn't what I want
this night to go.
"Take a look at his face one last time, Amihan. Then move on. You don't deserve an
asshole like him. Sasabihin na mahal ka pero ididiscard ka na parang basura. Love
doesn't work that way." Tuya pa ni Stan."Are you saying that he deserves you
instead?" Kunot ang noo pero naka ngisi na tanong ni Ford. "What do you know about
love, huh?"
Tumawa si Stan. I was already shaking. "Love? It's when you trust someone fully.
Kung may doubts man, hindi mo sya aakusahan ng kung anu ano. You'll let her
explain. You're a fucking asshole. Sino ka ba para paiyakin si Amihan?" He sighed.
He was clenching his fist.
"You seemed to care more for just his lover." Mahinang sabi pa ni Ford.
"Stan tara na, please." Tumulo na ang mga luha ko. I can't take this anymore.
"Yes, I do. I love her." Agad na sagot ni Stan.
I froze. What is he saying?
"I love her, pero ikaw yung mahal nya. Ikaw na palagi syang sinasaktan. Tell you
what? She turned me down the last time kasi ikaw pinili nya. The one you saw her
meeting with? They just talked. No fucking like you was thinking. Amihan's loyal to
you but you broke her." May gigil sa boses ni Stan.
Sobrang bigat na ng nararamdaman ko kaya lumakas na ang pag iyak ko. Nakita ko na
nag lumambot ang eaction ng mukha ni Ford, but I didn't want to have hope so umiwas
ako ng tingin.
Stan's arms snaked into my waist.
"There goes your opportunity to be with an amazing woman like her. I hope this is
the last time na magkita kayo para hindi mo na sya masaktan."
With that, inakay na ako palayo ni Stan.
Hindi ko na nakita ang reaction ni Ford but I was just glad that it's over. I was
shaking. Hinila na ako ni Stan palabas. He dried my tears and apologized for his
behaviour a while ago.
"Hindi ko lang napigilan. I could have punched him, you know? He was standing there
like an idiot. He was so confident as if he really knows everything. Asshole."
"Let's just go." Distracted na sabi ko.
Nagpa drop off na lang ako sa isang hotel kay Stan. He wanted to stay with me but I
told him I want to be alone. Nag bilin na lang sya na tawagan ko sya kung may
kailangan sya.
"Thank you for everything, Stan." Sincere na sabi ko.
"I meant what I said a while ago." He caressed my cheek. "I fell in love with you."
"I'm sorry.."
Umiling iling sya. "Just be happy, it's more than I can wish for."
I hugged him tight before he left. I stayed a little bit more in the lobby before I
decided to go up to my room. I cried myself to sleep that night with a promise of
doing things the next morning differently.
I woke up with a heavy heart, but my mind is clearer. Medyo na late ako sa charity
event na pinuntahan ko the next day pero naging successful naman. Pagod ako na
nakauwi that night but I feel fulfilled.
That week flew by with a blur. Trabaho at bahay lang ang pinuntahan ko. Then
pinuntahan ko ang mga schedule ko for the weekend. I like the flow of my days.
Pakiramdam ko kung magtutuloy tuloy ito ay madali akong makaka move on.
But Ford seemed to plan to ruin me by sending me texts and calling me suddenly. I
never replied to any of his 'how are you' text messages and calls.
Kinailangan ko pang i turn off minsan ang cellphone ko at binubuksan ko na lang
kapag may kailangan akong tawagan o i text. I don't know what he wants to say or
achieve by suddenly wanting to connect with me, but I am moving on.
And the best way to do just that is to be away from Ford as far as possible.
"Good Morning Ma'am. May dumating po na bouquet of flowers para sa inyo kanina.
Nasa desk nyo na." Bati ng guard sa akin nang papasok na ako sa main gate that
morning.Nangunot ang noo ko. I wasn't expecting anyone to send me flowers but my
best bet is Stan. He's currently in Brazil to visit his sister but he's the only
one I can think of.
"Thank you." Nakangiting sabi ko na lang.
Ilang empleyado pa ang bumati sa akin hanggang sa marating ko ang opisina ko. It's
nothing fancy. Sa dulo ng pinaka warehouse ay may two storey building. Nandoon ang
mga office and I have mine at the second floor.
Agad na nawala ang ngiti ko nang makita ko kung ano iyon. I was expecting roses, or
tulips. Iyon ang madalas na ibinibigay sa akin ni Stan.
Instead, it's a bouquet of gumamelas arranged and wrapped beautifully.
I didn't have to read the attached note to know kung kanino iyon galing. I called
my assistant and asked her to throw it away.
"Sigurado ka po ba Ma'am? Sayang naman.."
"Yes please. You can keep it if you like." I said coldly.
She hesitantly got the gumamelas and brought it with her outside my office. Seeing
the flowers forced me to remember how gumamelas supposed to be a reason for a good
thing but now a nightmare.
Ford and I's relationship was a secret one. Tuwing pupunta sya sa Hacienda Esquillo
para magkita kami noon, kinukuha nya ako ng mga gumamela dahil iyon lang ang
mayroon doon.
Once he brought me a big bouquet of white roses pero sinabi ko na nakaka agaw ng
atensyon kapag magbibigay sya sa akin ng ganoon. We were meeting secretly, as long
as makita o makasama ko sya, I don't need any flowers.
But he saw a few gumamela trees nearby where we meet. He gathered a few of them and
arranged them instead and gave it to me.
Ipinilig ko ang ulo ko. I wasn't supposed to think of that. Stupid gumamelas.
Bumuntong hininga ako at nagsimula nang mag trabaho.
Nang dumating na ang unang deliveries ng lumbers, I have to personally check the
quantities and such, pati na ng mga orders na lumalabas sa warehouse.
"Ma'am, kanina pa po kasi nagriring sa taas itong cellphone nyo, baka lang po kasi
importante." Humahangos na lumapit sa akin ang assistant ko.
I got my phone and thanked her, only to see a familiar number. Yes, I erase Ford's
number. And although I remember every freaking number, I didn't have any intention
of calling him or receiving a call from him.
Ten missed calls. I rolled my eyeballs and turned it off. I resumed working and
went home.
Roswell:
Can we talk?
Binura ko agad ang mga message nya.
It went on for days. Araw araw na dumarating ang bouquet ng mga gumamelas, his
missed calls and text messages pero araw araw ko rin na ipinapatapon sa assistant
ko ang mga bulaklak at binubura ang mga messages nya.
Until that bad morning.
"Ma'am pasensya na po. Hindi na po kasi namin sya napigilan." Lukot ang mukha na
sabi ng assistant ko nang salubungin nya ako.
"What? Who?" Kunot noo na tanong ko.
"B-boyfriend nyo daw po sya.." Umiwas ng tingin sa akin ang assistant ko.
I sighed. Nakauwi na yata si Stan at balak pa akong i surprise.
"It's alright, ako na ang bahala." Pinilit ko ang ngumiti.
"Nasa office nyo na po sya,"
I nod. Malalaki ang mga hakbang na pumunta ako sa opisina ko. But I froze when I
saw na hindi si Stan iyon. It's Ashford Roswell and he's sitting at my swivel chair
like a boss.
I cleared my throat and breathe in before I opened the door. Tumayo sya nang makita
nya na papasok na ako. He put his hands on his pockets.
"What do you want?" Matigas na tanong ko. Inilapag ko ang dala kong bag sa tokador
at humarap sa kanya.
"You're not accepting my calls and replying to my messages."
"Well what do you expect? Hindi naman lahat ng pokpok walang pride. May natira pa
naman sa akin kahit kaunti." I am trying my best not to look at him with longing
but I can't deny that I miss him so much.
He's so near yet so far.
He sighed. "Okay, I want to apologize."
I didn't say anything. It's the last thing I thought he'd say.
"Baby, I'm sorry." There's tenderness in his voice and in his eyes but I couldn't
care less.
He slowly walked towards me before umatras ako. I want to run to him and tell him
everything. Explain to him why I need to lie to meet with Brad, why I was with him
and why I was with Stan.
But I shouldn't.
"Amihan.."
"You're forgiven. Just go." Tinalikuran ko sya. Bumibigat na ang dibdib ko because
of his presence and I might cry. I can't let him see me cry again.
Every step he makes feels like bricks in my heart. It gets heavier everytime.
Pumunta sya sa harap ko, pero hindi ko pa rin sya tinitingnan.
"I was stupid and blinded by petty jealousy. I was paranoid. I just can't see you
talking or with someone else." He tried to touch my arm pero umatras at umiwas ako.
"I'm sorry. I know everything now."
My tears started falling. "Then you can go."
"Amihan please."
Tiningala ko sya at sinalubong ang mga mata nya. "What do you want from me, Ford?
Just because you know you we're wrong doesn't mean anything now."
"I know. I shouldn't have said everything that I said that night. I know I hurt
you. And I want to make it up to you."
"Too late, Ford." Matigas na sabi ko. "I love you." I bit my lower lip. Those words
felt like poison in myt tongue. "I still love you. But I never had the courage to
tell you that. And with what you did, you did not give me a chance to." I smiled
bitterly. "So I am guessing that everything turned out this way because it's
supposed to be this way."
"No, Amihan. We are meant to be-"
"We are not. Just go, Ford. I don't want to see you anymore. I want peace, and I
want you out of my life." Final na sabi ko.

FINALE

"That would be your cabin."

My eyes landed on a small cabin a few meters way from where we're standing. Gawa sa
nipa hut ang mga dingding pero gawa sa salamin ang sliding door na natatabingan ng
pula na kurtina.
"May bathroom na rin 'yan and yung mga gamit mo naman, naidala na dyan." She added.
"Thank you."
"Here's the key."
Kinuha ko ang susi at naglakad na ako papunta sa cabin. I went in and locked the
door. I liked that it is spacious. Looks like I did the right thing in saying yes
to this event.
I was invited to be a judge in a provincial wide beauty contest na magtatagal ng
tatlong araw, kasabay ng festival sa probinsya.
I have been working non stop for one month. Si ate Via ang kinausap ng isa sa mga
organizer ng beauty contest para makausap ako at nang malaman ni kuya Argos ay sya
na ang pumilit sa akin na sumama.
I looked at my wrist watch. I still have six hours before the start of the event
tonight. Hindi naman ako napagod sa byahe. Inayos ko ang mga gamit ko, I'll be
staying here for three days, or maybe more if I really liked it here.
I opened the air conditioner and relaxed a bit.
My phone rang. It's Sari.
"Hey, you settled already?" Agad na tanong nya.
"Yep. They gave me a personal cabin."
"Alright, good."
"Ano'ng oras ka nga darating bukas? Are you sure na nakapag book ka na ng flight?"
Sari was also invited as a judge pero may prior engagement sya for today. Bukas pa
sya available kaya pupunta na lang daw sya to watch.
"I re scheduled my flight. I'll be there in the afternoon tomorrow." Maingay sa
paligid ni Sari and I don't kow where she was.
"What? I thought after lunch andito ka na?"
She chuckled. "Sorry, I have to make sure not to interrupt."
"Interrupt what?" Takang taka na tanong ko.
She scoffed. "Nothing. Hintayin mo na lang ako, alright? Goodluck and I hope you'll
be happy."
The line was cut even before I could say something. What the hell is she talking
about?
Inilabas ko ang laptop ko. May study table naman doon at well, may internet din.
Hindi ko lang alam kung mabilis sya. After a few minutes of browsing I decided to
take a bath. Just wow, there's a bath tub.
Bago pa ako katukin ng isa sa mga organizer ay ilang minute na akong naghihintay.
Ngayong gabi kami iiintroduce at ang mga kandidata. Sumakay ako sa isang sasakyan
courtesy of the event.
Sa pinaka clubhouse ng resort gaganapin ang unang gabi. It was huge and a lot of
people are outside. May stage at may mga sumasayaw na rin.
Kilala ko ang ilan sa mga nainvite rin na judges. We ate diner first before they
led us outside.
After the stint, we went back to the clubhouse and drank some wine and talked to
other judges. Ngayon na lang ako ulit nag relax ng ganito, so I might as well had a
little more than I supposed to.
"Ma'am, are you okay?" One of the organizers may saw me almost fumbling. Inilapag
ko ang hawak kong kopita sa lamesa.
"Y-yes. I t-think I'd have to go back to my cabin now." Pinilit kong ngumiti. My
knees started to be weak and numb.
Tumango ang babae. "Noted, Ma'am. I'll get the car keys."
Tumango ako at pinagmasdan sya palayo. I need to gather myself. Hindi ako pwedeng
magkalat. Shit. Pinilit kong tumayo ng straight, gaining strength from the table.
Nanlalabo na ang mga mata ko.What is in that drink anyway?
Before I knew it, I'm already at the car. Nahihilo na ako.
"Ma'am, nandito na po ta'yo." I heard the woman said.
Luminga ako sa paligid. I saw the cabin. I tried taking control of my body pero
damn it. Hindi ko mabuksan ang pinto. The poor woman had to go out to open my door
outside.
"Ma'am? Okay lang po ba ka'yo?"
I tried looking at her pero blur ang tingin ko sa mukha nya. Madilim at tanging
ilaw sa front porch ng cabin lang ang ilaw.
"Y-yeah, I'm fine." Nakatayo ako ng maayos. I regained my balance and walked
towards the cabin without falling down.
Agad akong napahawak sa pintuan nang maabot ko na iyon. Kinapa ko ang susi sa
shoulder bag ko. Shit. Huwag sana ako magka hangover bukas. Ilang Segundo bago ko
nabuksan ang pinto. Muntik pa akong matumba nang makapasok ako.
I groaned when I smelled lavender. Why would my cabin smell lavender? Inalis ko ang
stiletto ko at inilapag ang shoulder bag ko.
I was walking towards my bed when I saw someone sitting on the single couch next to
my bed. I gasped.
It's Ford. He's only wearing a bathrobe na bahagyang naka bukas sa bandang dibdib
nya. He wasn't moving, nakatitig lang sya sa akin.
I blinked for a few times. He's still there.
I laughed. Do I really miss that asshole so much that I even see him in my
hallucination?
Umiling iling ako. I am trying my best to balance.
Tumayo si Ford sa hallucination ko at lumapit sa akin.
"Are you drunk?" Oh, he was talking!
Itinaas ko ang kamay ko at ipinasok sa bathrobe na suot nya. My hand landed on his
chest. Oh. This is awesome. Ford in my hallucination is like the Ford I know. Like
the way I remember him.
"Amihan?" The way he calls me is the same too!
"Are you.." Napalunok ako. I wonder of the Ford in my hallucination has the same
cock as my Ford?
I felt naughty all of a sudden. Bumaba ang kamay ko hanggang marating ang hugpungan
ng bathrobe. I slowly untied it and slowly parted the fabrics.
Napalunok ako. Okay, this is weird. Inabot ko ang pagka lalaki nya. Damn it,
parehong pareho.
"Shit." I heard him cursed.
Tiningala ko sya. His face is getting clearer and the magic seemed to get lost.
"Amihan, baby? You alright?" Nakita ko ang pag aalala sa mukha nya.
Oh God. Is he real?
"Are you real?" Wala sa sarili na tanong ko. Napahawak ako sa noo ko. Am I crazy?
"What? Of course I am."
Napalunok ako. Oh shit. Matutumba na sana ako pero nasalo ako ni Ford. They smell
the same too. Napayakap ako sa kanya. I miss him.
It doesn't matter if it is the real or the hallucination Ford. All of a sudden, I
can't take it anymore. My tears started falling while my face is buried in his
chest. I cried. Humigpit ang yakap ko sa kanya.
I miss him. I miss everything about him. I should be mad at him and I told myself
that I am moving on pero pakiramdam ko ay lalo lang akong nababaliw.
"Hey, I'm here now." Malambing na sabi nya habang hinahagod ang buhok ko.
Hindi ako nagsasalita. I still feel dizzy and tipsy. Hindi ko pa rin masigurado sa
isip ko kung totoo ang mga pangyayari. I have had my fair share of dreams with Ford
in it. And this may just be one of them."I don't care if this is just one of my
dreams. It felt real." Sabi ko na lang.
I heard him chuckled. "I'm real, baby."
He cupped my face and made me look up to him. I had ti blink a few more times to
see him clearer.
"I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for hurting you."
Okay, now I feel like the wine's effect is slowly wearing off. I softly pushed him
away. Muntik akong matumba at akmang hahawakan ako ulit ni Ford pero umiwas ako.
Everything came back. All the nights and moments that I cried because of the things
he said, all the moments I had to endure the fact that I miss him, all the times I
had to act like nothing was wrong.
I want him, I need him, pero tama ba na sundin ko kung ano ang gusto ko? This is
the inevitable. This happened because we were never meant to be. I may be never
meant to be with anybody.
"Baby.."
"No." Matigas na sabi ko. Everything's a jumble in my head. Umatras ako sa kanya.
Inayos nya ang pagkaka suot nya ng bathrobe. He's fully covered now and I know it's
wrong but I was shaking in wanting to feel his naked body next to mine. My primal
need for Ford is carnal.
My body needs him. I need him. But I can't take anymore heartache.
"Y-you have to go, F-ford." Sa wakas ay sabi ko.
"Amihan, please. Let me make it up to you. What I have said before may be
unforgivable. God I was such an asshole. But I want to take chances."
"I have had enough chances. I took a chance with you kahit na sobrang nasaktan na
ako noon. What happened? Mas nasaktan pa ako ngayon. So I don't think I would want
to take any more chances, Ford. I love you but I can't take anymore heartache."
"I love you too. Just please-"
"Hindi mo ba naiintindihan, Ford? Kaya nangyayari 'to kasi we're not supposed to be
together. I don't know If I am cursed or what." I laughed bitterly. "I can't do it
anymore."
"Of course you can. You love me, and I love you."
"Hindi sapat 'yon."
"It's more then enough."
"More than enough to accuse me of fucking every guy I know and more than enough to
call me a slut?"
Napatigil sa kung ano man ang sasabihin nya si Ford. I saw regret in his eyes.
Umiwas ako ng tingin. It hurts everytime I remember the moment and the words.
"It's my fault, baby, I know. Everything felt like crashing down whenever I see you
with other guys. I told you I love you, that I still love you, pero ni minsan hindi
mo sinabi na mahal mo rin ako. We never talked about being together. To you, I was
just your lover when all I ever wanted was to be more than that." Nakayuko na sabi
nya.
I looked at him. He looked devastated. But so was I.
"I want to be more than just a lover, baby. I want you all for me. I thought
everything was fine between us." He clenched his fists. "But you lied to me and you
met with that guy Brad."
"We just talked."
"Yeah, I know that now. But why did you have to lie to my face?"
"You didn't trust me enough to follow me." Mapait na sabi ko.
"You were acting weird! Ni hindi ka makatingin sa akin noon ng straight. I just
knew something was wrong."
"But I did not fuck him."He walked towards me. "Yes, I know that now, baby. My
jealousy blinded me. But Stan made me understand."
"S-stan?" Nagtataka na tanong ko.
"Nakipagkita ako sa kanya a few days before I showed up into your office in
Laguna." His hand landed on my face at hindi ako gumalaw para umiwas. He was
looking at me with tenderness.
Sinalubong ko lang ang tingin nya.
"We had a few punches but he explained everything to me. He never liked me for you,
but he told me that he knows you love me and you need me."
Umiwas ako ng tingin. That maybe true, but I don't think it can make a difference
anymore.
"Baby, all I need is a chance. I can't lose you again." His tears started falling.
"Please. I need you. I'll be crazy without you in my life."
Hindi ako nagsasalita. Ford's crying.
"F-ford."
Imbes na sumagot sya, he pulled me in and kissed me. Every nerves in my body
awakened the moment our lips met. It's like something exploded inside me.
I can't resist it. I never want to resist it anymore.
He's mine and I am his.
Kinapa ko ang hugpungan ng tali ng bathrobe na suot nya.
"This has to go." I whispered. Hinila ko ang bathrobe na suot nya hanggang sa
mahulog na iyon sa paanan nya.
"Baby are you sure about this?" May takot sa mga mata ni Ford nang hawakan nya ako
sa mga balikat ko.
Sinalubong ko ang tingin nya. Tumango ako.I pushed him to the bed then I started
stripping. He was looking at me intensely and his gaze made me soaking already.
His nakedness is in front of me and I had to take him. Sumampa ako sa kama at
umibabaw sa kanya. I got his cock in my hand and I stroked it habang nakatitig sa
kanya.
He moaned. Inabot ng mga kamay nya ang dibdib ko. He played with my nipples and he
kissed me with hunger. Itinulak ko sya ulit at napahiga sya.
I sat on his now raging shaft. He moaned. I lowered myself and kissed him. Bumaba
ang mga kamay nya at sinapo ang pang upo ko.
Bumaba ang halik ko sa leeg nya hanggang sa matitipuno nyang dibdib. I sucked his
nipples while I started humping him. Pakiramdam ko ay lalo pa syang tumigas sa
ilalim ko.
"Baby you're killing me!" He growled while his eyes were closed.
Muli nyang unabot ang dibdib ko. Bumangon sya at agad nyang isinubo ang isa sa mga
nipple ko. He was sucking, teasing, playing it between his teeth.
He slowly slid his cock into my wet pussy.
I felt the pleasure took me in in an instant.
"Ohhh fuck." He moaned in my ears.
Ipinahiga nya ako at sya naman ang umibabaw sa akin. His every move is precise,
pero ramdam ko na iniingatan nya ako.
Our hot bodies started the friction. Nagsimula nang umulos si Ford sa ibabaw ko. We
both felt feverish. We were both moaning like crazy.
Mariin akong napahawak sa mga braso nya habang naka hawak naman sya sa bewang ko
habang pabilis ng pabilis ang galaw nya. His thrusts are deep and hard, I can feel
him hitting the right place inside me.
"F-ford.. Oh God. Yes!" My long fingernails dug into his skin and he doesn't seem
to mind.
My wet dreams about him just seemed to become real. He's on top of me, ramming me
in ways unimaginable. He fucks me like there's no tomorrow and I love every minute
of it."Baby.. Fuck. You feel so good!" Parang wala sa sarili na sabi nya, his pace
still getting deeper and faster.
The pressure of his thrusts is taking its toll on me. I want him to come inside me.
I want all of him.
"Come for me, Ford. I want all of it." I said in between my heavy breathing. I can
feel him close, and so am I.
"Yes! Ohhhh!"
"Let me have it. Come for me." I looked straight into his eyes, and he did the
same.
Magkahugpong ang mga mata namin habang papalapit na kami ng papalapit sa
kasukdulan.
He lowered his self and kissed me. It muffled our moans as we came together.
He collapsed on top of me and I writhed under him.
When the climax passed, imbes na umalis sya sa ibabaw ko ay nanatili sya doon. He's
still inside me, our heartbeats is in synchronization.
He gave me small kisses on my neck.
"F-ford.."
"I won't hurt you anymore, Amihan. It feels hell thinking na hindi na kita makikita
o makaka sama kahit kalian. I've been stupid and an ass, but I want you to know
that I can change. For you. Anything for you, baby."
I hugged him and my tears started to fall. "Ayoko rin naman na mawala ka. I want
you with me."
He pulled his self up and looked at me. "I won't go anywhere. Please say you
forgive me?"
Inabot ko ang mukha nya. I caressed his cheek. I never thought I'd still have a
chance with him. Our hearts have been to battles we thought we never won but here
we are.
"I love you, Ford. Please don't break my heart anymore."
"I love you too, baby. I'll pick up every damn piece and make sure not to break it
again." Muli nya akong hinalikan.
After a few more rounds, Ford told me that it was Sari's idea na sumunod sya sa
akin dito.
Ford also told me that he already talked to my brothers before he came here.
"What do you mean? Anong sinabi mo kila kuya?" Nanlalaki ang mga mata na tanong ko.
He smirked. "I told them everything. That we've been actually seeing each other for
a few months already. Sinabi ko rin na seryoso ako sayo at mahal na mahal pa rin
kita."
Napalunok ako. "W-what did they do?"
"Well, unlike eight years ago, wala namang physical na pananakit na nangyari."
"Okay, now that you opened that topic, what really happened eight years ago? Ayaw
sabihin sa akin nila kuya Argos at kuya Habagat." I found the opoortunity.
Ford chuckled. Inabutan nya ako ng isang glass of wine na inorder nya kanina.
"Noong nakipag break ka sa akin and you told me na tinanggap mo ang pera na binigay
ni Mommy, I still followed you home. Hinarang ako ng mga kuya mo, I never made it
past the gate of the compound. Dinala nila ako somewhere and talked to me."
I drank all of the wine in the glass. I might need it.
"Then, I told them na wala akong pakealam kung tinanggap mo yung pera kasi mahal
kita, and I want to prove them that. Pero sinabi nila na kalimutan na lang kita
kasi sasaktan lang daw kita. I was stubborn, so they had no choice but to hurt me
physically." Kibit balikat na kwento nya.
Lalong nanlaki ang mga mata ko. "Seriously?"
"Yun pala wala namang pera. Sinabi lang iyon ni Mommy na sabihin mo para magalit
ako sayo when all the while, mommy threathened your family. And your brothers
seemed to know it. They just want to protect you. Alam nila na umuwi ka na umiiyak,
na patago tayong nagkikita noon."
Okay, I never saw that coming. But come to think of it, never nagtanong o nag usisa
sila kuya Argos at kuya Habagat about Ford or what.
"Walang araw na hindi kita naaalala." He pulled me in for a hug. Nahiga kami ulit
sa kama. "Pero sobrang nasaktan ako nang malaman ko na engaged kayo ni Ahren and
you made it look like gusto mo rin."
"You know how that went."
He chuckled. "Yeah. I feel so stupid. Nagalit ako dahil sa wala. And then when I
learned the truth, I wanted to reconcile. Hindi ko naman sinasadya na may mangyari
sa atin agad that time. Sobrang nasabik lang siguro ako."
"We even did that kahit nakabukas yung pinto! Who knows kung sino ang biglang
pumasok. Shit." Natatawa na lang na sabi ko.
"And then you coldly told me that it was nothing but sex. You changed so much." He
kissed me on my temple. "But I still love you nonetheless. So I said yes to the
exclusive partner bullshit dahil iyon lang ang alam kong paraan para palagi kang
makita o makasama."
Tiningala ko sya. He looked so damn good while smiling and reminiscing the past.
"I love you Ford. I am really happy you are here with me." Hinigpitan ko ang yakap
sa kanya.
"I love you so much. Thank you for the chance, baby."
He got on top of me and we made love again until the sun's already up.
I will never get tired of loving Ashford Roswell. I tried so hard to move on for
how many years and we still went back to each other's arms.
My fears will never go away, but Ford will be there to tell me not to be afraid
ever again.
And he's now more than just a lover for me, for he is the only love of my life that
I will always cherish forever.

END.
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Sisimulan ko na soon ang story ni Agnes. Pansamantala sa ONE WILD NIGHT po muna
kayo o sa CRASH AND BURN. Haha.
Thank you po sa lahat ng sumasama o sumasabay sa akin sa bawat story na natatapos
ko. Sa mga luma o bagong readers, I want you all to know that I appreciate you all.
Hanggang sa mga susunod na stories, sana nandyan pa rin po kayo. :)