I wanted to become a doctor, not because of the kindest reason like

others have but because it is what I want to be someday. But, as I’ve grown
up my dreams becomes vague. The school that I’ve thought would mold me
to my fullest potentials eventually destroys the half of me.

At a young age, at school my mother was gossips as a theft; my aunt

belittle my father, my sister need to stop going to school even if she excels
in
in it, she was promised to go to school by our aunt but eventually she becomes their maid,
I was labeled as teachers pet not knowing that teachers only see me because they need
something from me and I needed to give up being the top 1 just because our teacher is my
godparent. The child in me hopes that it will change, but it always resulted on leading me
on and eventually they will replace me with my friend. The school that I thought would help
me build myself destroys my confidence that I don’t know how to get it back.

I’ve enter high school focusing on what is in front of me, I stopped aiming for
honors because how can I, when even just raising a hand when I know the answer was hard
for me, I let things happen. I also experienced receiving a grade of line of 7 wherein
during the completion I was not able to part of the Honor student even though I have a
high grades and it was okay for me rather than seeing my mother plead to my teacher to
give me a passing rate it would be more painful and rather than losing a friends who are
determined to not let me be part of the honor students.. I accepted all of this and I never
asked explanation and questioned the grade given to me even if it’s questionable.

Two more years, I have two more years to build my confidence but it was hard, I
always have a lot of what ifs and was too afraid to repeat what happened in grade school.
The dream of being a doctor was gone and I am can’t even see myself in the future.
Awards, recognitions, motivations, everything that I have were not enough for me to be
confident as I am before.

Even if I want to be a doctor, I don’t see myself there. And I needed to choose
what course should I take, and even if I’m not sure I chose Bachelor of Secondary
Education. If I passed then it was for me, it is my calling.
 Eventually I was able to get in BUCE, maybe the experiences that I have
where I was the one who writes on the black boards, lesson plans, cards, and other
records was a sign for me that I have declined. And God knows us; he knows how to
redirect us to the path that we should be going. I wasn’t destined to heal people
with medicines, injections and in an operating room, but I was destined to guide and
heal learners through books, chalk, words and realizations inside the four corners
of the classroom as well as touch their life, their hearts and their future.
I have seen how school can build and destroy a learner, I have seen how
learners where not given equal opportunities to improve their best potentials and I
have seen the kind of people that instead of uplifting others they will be the one
who will pull you down and I don’t want to be that person. I want to see people grow
and fly as high as they can be.

And now, I’m on my fourth year, I am blessed because I was able to be part
of academic awardees from my first years up to the present, but for me I think my
best achievements was for me to realize that I was taking the right path now and I
fully understand why those things happened, it was because I let it happened. I was
not able to be confident just like before but here I am pursuing the noblest
profession because I wanted to make a change. And I may not become a doctor of
medicine but I can also put Doctor on my name as an educator.

As a pre service teacher I aspire to be the teacher that I want to have and
to make change that is purposeful and is worth living.
 As I was build and destroyed by school, I want to be part of this noblest
profession. I’ve witnessed how students have potentials but was deprived to mold
their potentials, how there’s still a wall between privileged and challenged
students. And as part of the family who are teachers I’ve experience the
toxicity of the educational system that we have these days.

A teacher is a person not a computer, they have feelings and eventually

they are not perfect. Teacher’s learns and do their best to deliver a high quality
education to the learners without leaving someone behind.

And as we embark for greatness and challenged by time, I believe that

the most significant learning that we can impart in a learner was kindness in this
cruel world. Hate was widespread and violence was being normalized. At the
present time our learners were intelligent and skilled enough but learn without
values.

Teachers should see learner’s potential; it may be through their

experiences, through their essence and existence, through their progress that
they take on their own pace. As a teacher who wants to make a change, as long as
the learner was still willing to learn I would be by their side because learning
does not takes place through application of any educational philosophies, but
learning occurs between the teachers and learners.

Teaching was more than just being knowledgeable and skilled; it is where
the future lies. It is noble but it is also big responsibility and a full commitment.
It is touching the life, the minds, the heart and the future of the learners. And
as a pre-service teacher I am willing to take responsibility and is committed to
my chosen profession and is ready to mold learners to their utmost potentials.
“In every destination you go, it is your decision whether you’ll
stop or continue
 Junior High School completion, it was the end of our junior high
school life, and it was ended with happiness and life lessons
where we have learned from it.
2016
Finally, we survived senior high school; it
was a struggle for us because the
implementation was unprepared. Still, we
were able to surpass those challenges and
2018 graduated with awards and recognitions.

New school that I am not

familiar with and new
people as well as having a
low self-confidence was a
challenge for me as I
started attending my first
I was able to get a
year in BUCE. Eventually I
2019 scholarship and it is a good
was able to meet my
opportunity for me, because
friends and we became
this was the only scholarship
POWERPUFF GIRLS
that accepted my application.
This was a great help because
somehow I was able to
2019
support myself as well as my
family.

COVID-19
pandemic will be
part of the
history of year
2020. Face to
face classes were
stopped and
people can’t go out
2020
of their houses.
This was a
challenged for
this can affect me
and my family
physically and
even our mental
health that is
more important.
 The pandemic was not the only challenged we have encountered but typhoons also
affected us and I thought I wouldn’t be able to help, but the scholarship that I
have extended their help and use me as their instrument where I was able to
distribute food packs to those affected families that was not reached by any
2020 help. I was able to appreciate more the things around me.

One year has passed yet was still here and we have no
other choice but to be introduced to the new normal.
It was a challenge for me because I was not used to
2021
In the midst online learning and I don’t have a stable internet
of pandemic connection. I was lucky that I have a cellphone and
we are able to laptop so it lessens that challenge. I can’t stop just
implement a because I was not used to online learning, I have to
project which continue because the time was important to me and I
is information don’t know when this pandemic will end. I just learned
dissemination to accept and adjust to the new mode of learning that
campaign on we have.
COVID-19
vaccination
2021 We passed the final oral defense. Our
program.
research was hard for us for it is hard to
Through this I
reach out to working students especially we
was able to
were only communicating online, but we were
see different
able to surpass those challenges and we are
point of views 2021
able to explore the experiences of the
and be able to
working students who participated in our
raise
study.
awareness on
the benefits I’m in my fourth year, and as
of the much as I wanted to go back
vaccines that this is now the new normal. For
will impact the the past year I’ve learned a lot
person and the that it makes me a better
community as a person that I am today. We
whole. 2021 should always take care of
ourselves not just other
people. We should be kind even
if everyone was cruel. And as
my academic roads continue I
am open for more opportunities
and challenge that I will face
because this road will never
end as I am looking forward
for more destinations.