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So now I’m clinging to this shit of a woman…And I get treated like shit because…well because as I said
previously…She likes to be abused and abuses back. She doesn’t know any better, she really is dumb as
fuck…
I am trying so hard to teach her what she should do, how she should behave…Doesn’t give a flying fuck…
Stays the same shit person she is…
Been stuck in this job for 2 and a half years…2 and a half fucking years man...and still thinks everyone
else is the problem. Not her. That’s how dumb she is…
Does nothing for herself…
So here I am…cutting pieces of me so she can have them, but it doesn’t matter
I even gave up the idea of having a relationship with her…Just so I could teach her more and have her be
a real woman…But she doesn’t want to be…
I know I should give up…I know that she needs to want it to…But I can’t give up…I never give up…
Not to mention…I made a promise that I’ll do my best…And I’m far from my best…
Sometimes I wish I was less than what I am…My best would have also been less and less struggle would
have been needed.
But I’m not…And I must endure.
I wish I could break free from my promise and from my love, but I can’t…
It’s who I am…I spent years cultivating who I am…cannot give that up now…Looks like I really need to do
my best…
But again…I never told this to anyone…I might actually not have limits…I might actually have limitless
potential. I have tried to explore my limits in the past, and even currently…I really lack limits…Never
been able to find them…
What if I really don’t have limits to my being? Am I stuck in this forever???
My head hurts. Will end this here. I’ll write again when I’ll feel like.
Love you!